2nd Chance [144-186-066-4.8]

By: James Patterson

Category: Fiction Thriller

Synopsis:

The sensational killings that have rocked San Francisco appear to be
unrelated except in their brutality. But detective Lindsay Boxer senses
there's some thread connecting them all. She calls her friends in the
Women's Murder Club together to see if they can discover what it is.
Surely some clue has been overlooked by their bosses and male
colleagues.
Working with Chronicle reporter Cindy Thomas, Assistant District
Attorney Jill Bernhardt, and medical examiner Claire Washburn, Lindsay
discovers that there is indeed a link. The victims were of different
ages, lived in different locations, and were killed with different
weapons. But each had a close relative in a particular profession, a
profession that sends a chill through Lindsay's heart. The partners in
the Women's Murder Club realize that this killer is after something
unspeakable, something deeper than revenge, and that the next target
could be one of them. They deduce where the killer is likely to strike
next and bait a trap that can't be resisted. But if their calculation
is wrong, the consequences will be lethal. And there will be no second
chance.

Last printing: 07/27/02
`=/<+' Full of the drama, heart-pounding suspense, and shocking twists that could only come from the mind of
James Patterson, 2nd Chance is an unforgettable,
relentlessly surprising thriller from one of "the best
novelists of crime stories ever." -- USA Today).

James Patterson is the author of many international bestsellers,
including the #1 New York Times best selling novels
1st to Die and Suzannes' Diary for Nicholas, as
well as Kiss the Girls and Along Came a Spider,
which were made into movies starring Morgan
Freeman. He is now at work on the third novel in this
series of thrillers and on a new Alex Cross novel. He lives in Florida.

Andrew Gross lives and writes in New York.

For more information about James Patterson, go
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Also by James Patterson:

The Thomas Berryman Number
Season of the Machete
See How They Run
The Midnight Club
Along Came a Spider
Kiss the Girls
Hide & Seek
Jack & Jill
Miracle on the I 7th Green (with Peter de ](mge)
Cat & Mouse
When the Wind Blows
Pop Goes the Weasel
Black Friday
Cradle and All
Roses Are Red
1st to Die
Suzanne's Diary for Nicholas
Violets Are Blue

2nd Chance

James Patterson
WITH ANDREW GROSS

LITTLE, BROWN AND COMPANY

Boston NEW YORK LONDON 

First Edition

The characters and events in this book are fictitious.
Any similarity to real persons, living or dead,
is coincidental and not intended by the author.

Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Patterson, James.

a novel by James Patterson 1st ed.
p.
ISBN: 0-4390-316-69320-0

1. women detectives - California - San Francisco -
Fiction. 2. Women in the professions - Fiction. 3.
San Francisco (Calif.) - Fiction. 4. Female friendship -
Fiction. I. Title: Second chance. II. Title.
P53566.A822 A614 2002
813'.54 - dc2l
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Book Design by Robert G. Lowe

Printed in the United States of America

Acknowledgments

A SPECIAL THANKS to Inspector/Sergeant Holly Pera
of the SFPD's Homicide Detail. To her partner,
Inspector.Sergeant Joe Toomey And Pete Ogten, Captain, Ret.,
SFPD.

And again, to Dr. Greg Zorman of Fort Lauderdale.

But most of all, this is for Lynn and Sue.

Prologue.

THE CHOIR KIDS

AARON WINSLOW WOULD NEVER FORGET the next few minutes. He recognized the
terrifying sounds the instant they cracked through the night. His body
went cold all over.

He couldn't believe that someone was shooting a high-
powered rifle in this neighborhood.

K-pow, k-pow, k-pow ... k-pow, k-pow, k-pow

His choir was just leaving the La Salle Heights Church.

Forty-eight young kids were streaming past him
toward the sidewalk. They had just finished their final
rehearsal before the San Francisco Sing-Off, and they
had been excellent.

Then came the gunfire. Lots of it. Not just a single
shot. A strafing. An attack.

K-pow, k-pow, k-pow ... k-pow, k-pow, k-pow

"Get down!" he screamed at the top of his voice.
"Everybody down on the ground! Cover your heads.
Cover up!" He almost couldn't believe the words as
they left his mouth.

At first, no one seemed to hear him. To the kids, in
their dress white blouses and shirts, the shots must
have sounded like firecrackers. Then a volley of shots rained through
the church's beautiful stained-glass window. The
depiction of Christ's blessing over a child at Capernaum shattered,
glass splintering everywhere, some of it falling on the heads
of the children.

"Someone's shooting!" Winslow screamed. Maybe
more than one person. How could that be? He ran
wildly through the kids, shouting, waving his arms, pushing as many
as he could down to the grass.

As the kids finally crouched low or dove for the
ground, Winslow spotted two of his choir girls, Chantal and
Tamara, frozen on the lawn as bullets streaked past them.
"Get down, Chantal, Tamara!" he yelled, but they
remained there, hugging each other, emitting frantic
walls. They were best friends. He had known them
since they were little kids, playing four-square on
blacktop.

There was never any doubt in his mind. He sprinted
toward the two girls, grasped their arms firmly, and
tumbled them to the ground. Then he lay on top of them,
pressing their bodies tightly. Bullets whined over his head, just
inches away. His
eardrums hurt. His body was trembling and so were
the girls shielded beneath him. He was almost sure he was
about to die. "It's all right, babies," he whispered.

Then, as suddenly as it had begun, the firing stopped.
A hush of silence hung in the air. So strange and eerie,
as if the whole world had stopped to listen.

As he raised himself, his eyes fell on an incredible
sight.

Slowly, everywhere, the children struggled to their
feet.

There was some crying, but he didn't see any blood,
no one seemed to be hurt.

"Everyone okay?" Winslow called out. He made his
way through the crowd. ""Is anyone hurt?"

"I'm okay, I'm okay," came back to him. He looked
around in disbelief. This was a miracle.

Then he heard the sound of a single child whimpering.

He turned and spotted Maria Parker, only twelve years
old. Maria was standing on the whitewashed wooden
steps of the church entrance. She seemed lost. Choking sobs
poured from her open mouth.

Then Aaron Winslow's eyes came to rest on what had
made the girl hysterical. He felt his heart sink. Even
in war, even growing up on the streets of Oakland, he had
never felt anything so horrible, so sad and senseless.

"Oh, God. Oh, no. How could you let this happen?"

Tasha Catchings, just eleven years old, lay in a heap in
a flower-bed near the foundation of the church. Her
white school blouse was soaked with blood.

Finally, Reverend Aaron Winslow began to cry himself.

Part I.

THE WOMEN'S MURDER CLUB--AGAIN

Chapter 1.

ON A TUESDAY NIGHT, I found myself playing a game of crazy eights with
three residents of the Hope Street Teen House. I was loving it. On the
beat-up couch across from me sat Hector, a barrio kid two days out of
Juvenile; Alysha, quiet and pretty, but with a family history you
wouldn't want to know; and Michelle, who at fourteen had already spent a
year selling herself on the streets of San Francisco.

"Hearts," I declared, flipping down an eight and changing the suit just
as Hector was about to lay out.

"Damn, badge lady," he whined. "How come each time I'm ' to go down, you
stick your knife in me?"

"Teach you to ever trust a cop, fool." Michelle laughed, tossing a
conspiratorial smile my way.

For the past month, I'd been spending a night or two a week at the Hope
Street House. For so long after the terrible bride and groom case that
summer, I'd felt completely lost. I took a month off from Homicide, ran
down by the marina, gazed out at the bay from the safety of my Potrero
Hill flat.

Nothing helped. Not counseling, not the total support of my girls
Claire, Cindy, Jill. Not even going back to the job.

I had watched, unable to help, as the life leaked out of the person I
loved. I still felt responsible for my partner's death in the line of
duty. Nothing seemed to fill the void.

So I came here ... to Hope Street.

And the good news was, it was working a little.

I peered up from my cards at Angela, a new arrival who sat in a metal
chair across the room cuddling her three-month-old daughter. The poor
kid, maybe sixteen, hadn't said much all night. I would try to talk to
Angela before I left.

The door opened and Dee Collins, one of the house's head counselors,
came in. She was followed by a stiff-looking black woman in a
conservative gray suit. She had Department of Children and Families
written all over her.

"Angela, your social worker's here." Dee knelt down beside her.

"I ain't blind," the teenager said.

"We're going to have to take the baby now," the social worker
interrupted, as if completing this assignment was all that kept her from
catching the next Caltrain.

"No!" Angela pulled the infant even closer. "You can keep me in this
hole, you can send me back to Claymore, but you're not taking my baby."

"Please, honey, only for a few days," Dee Collins tried to assure her.

The teenage girl drew her arms protectively around her baby, who,
sensing some harm, began to cry.

"Don't you make a scene, Angela," the social worker warned. "You know
how this is done."

As she came toward her, I watched as Angela jumped out of the chair. She
was clutching the baby in one arm and a glass of juice she'd been
drinking in the opposite hand.

In one swift motion, she cracked the glass against a table.

It created a jagged shard.

"Angela." I jumped up from the card table. "Put that down. No one's
going to take your baby anywhere unless you let her go."

"This bitch is trying to ruin my life." She glared. "First she lets me
sit in Claymore three days past my date, then she won't let me go home
to my mom. Now she's trying to take my baby girl."

I nodded, peering into the teenager's eyes. "First, you gotta lay down
the glass," I said. "You know that, Angela."

The DCF worker took a step, but I held her back. I moved slowly toward
Angela. I took hold of the glass, then I gently eased the child out of
her arms.

"She's all I have," the girl whispered, and then she started to sob.

"I know." I nodded. "That's why you'll change some things in your life
and get her back."

Dee Collins had her arms around Angela, a cloth wrapped around the
girl's bleeding hand. The "DCF worker was trying unsuccessfully to hush
the crying infant.

I went up and said to her, "That baby gets placed somewhere nearby with
daily visitation rights. And by the way, I didn't see anything going on
here that was worth putting on file ... You?" The caseworker gave me a
disgruntled look and turned away.

Suddenly, my beeper sounded, three dissonant beeps punctuating the tense
air. I pulled it out and read the number. Jacobi, my ex-partner in
Homicide. What did he want?

I excused myself and moved into the staff office. I was able to reach
him in his car.

"Something bad's happened, Lindsay," he said glumly. "I thought you'd
want to know."

He clued me in about a horrible drive-by shooting at the La Salle
Heights Church. An eleven-year-old girl had been killed.

"Jesus ... " I sighed as my heart sank.

"I thought you might want in on it," Jacobi said.

I took in a breath. It had been over three months since I'd been on the
scene at a homicide. Not since the day the bride and groom case ended.

"So, I didn't hear," Jacobi pressed. "You want in, Lieutenant?" It was
the first time he had called me by my new rank.

I realized my honeymoon had come to an end. "Yeah," I muttered. "I want
in."

Chapter 2.

A COLD RAIN STARTED TO FALL as I pulled my Explorer up to the La Salle
Heights Church on Harrow Street, in the predominantly black section of
Bay View. An angry, anxious crowd had formed - a combination of saddened
neighborhood mothers and the usual sullen homeboys huddled in their
bright Tommys all pushing against a handful of uniformed cops. -

"This ain't goddamn Mississippi," someone shouted as I forced my way
through the throng.

"How many more?" an older woman wailed. "How many more?"

I badged my way past a couple of nervous patrolmen to the front. What I
saw next absolutely took my breath away.

The facade of the white clapboard church was slashed with a grotesque
pattern of bullet holes and lead-colored chinks. A huge hole gaped in a
wall where a large stained-glass window had been shot out. Jagged edges
of colored glass teetered like hanging ice. Kids were still scattered
all over the lawn, obviously in shock, some being attended to by EMS
teams.

"Oh, Jesus," I whispered under my breath.

I spotted medical techs in black windbreakers huddled over the body of a
young girl by the front steps. A couple of plainclothesmen were nearby.
One of them was my ex-partner, Warren Jacobi.

I found myself hesitating. I had done this a hundred times. Only months
ago I had solved the biggest murder case in the city since Harvey Milk,
but so much had happened since then. I felt weird, like I was new at
this. Balling my fists, I took a deep breath and went over to Jacobi.

"Welcome back to the world, Lieutenant," Jacobi said with a roll of the
tongue on my new rank.

The sound of that word still sent electricity surging through me.
Heading Homicide had been the goal I had pursued throughout my career:
the first female homicide detective in San Francisco, now the
department's first female lieutenant. After my old L. T., Sam Roth,
opted for a cushy stint up in Bodega Bay, Chief Mercer had called me in.
I can do one of two things, he'd said to me. I can keep you on long-term
administrative leave and you can see if you find the heart to do this
job again. Or I can give you these, Lindsay." He pushed a gold shield
with two bars on it across the table. Until that moment, I don't think I
had ever seen Mercer smile.

"The lieutenant's shield doesn't make it any easier, does it, Lindsay?"
Jacobi said, emphasizing that our three-year relationship as partners
had now changed.

"What do we have?" I asked him.

"Looks like a single gunman, from out in those bushes."

He pointed to a dense thicket beside the church, maybe fifty yards away.
"Asshole caught the kids just as they came out. Opened fire with
everything he had."

I took a breath, staring at the weeping, shell-shocked kids scattered
all over the lawn. "Anybody see the guy? Somebody did, right?"

He shook his head. "Everyone hit the deck."

Near the fallen child, a distraught black woman sobbed into the shoulder
of a comforting friend. Jacobi saw my eyes fix on the dead girl.

"Name's Tasha Catchings," he muttered. "In the fifth grade, over at St.
Anne's. Good girl. Youngest kid in the choir."

I moved in closer and knelt over the blood-soaked body. No matter how
many times you do this, it's a wrenching sight. Tasha's school blouse
was soaked with blood, mixed with falling rain. Just a few feet away, a
rainbow-colored knapsack lay on the grass.

"She's it?" I asked incredulously. I surveyed the scene.

"She's the only one who got hit?"

Bullet holes were everywhere, splintered glass and wood.

Dozens of kids had been streaming out to the street ... All those shots,
and only one victim.

"Our lucky day, huh?" Jacobi snorted.

Chapter 3.

PAUL CHIN, one of my Homicide crew, was interviewing a tall, handsome
black man dressed in a black turtleneck and jeans on the steps of the
church. I'd seen him before, on the news. I even knew his name, Aaron
Winslow.

Even in shock and dismay, Winslow carried himself with a graceful
bearing - a smooth face, jet-black hair cut flat on top, and a football
running back's build. Everyone in San Francisco knew what he was doing
for this neighborhood.

He was supposed to be a real-life hero, and I must say he looked the
part.

I walked over.

"This is Reverend Aaron Winslow;" Chin said, introducing us.

"Lindsay Boxer," I said, extending my hand.

"Lieutenant Boxer," said Chin. "She'll be overseeing the case." "I'm
familiar with your work," I said. "You've given a lot to this
neighborhood. I'm so sorry for this. I don't have any words for it."

His eyes shifted toward the murdered girl. He spoke in the softest voice
imaginable. "I've known her since she was a child. These are good,
responsible people. Her mother ... she brought up Tasha and her brother
on her own. These were all young kids. Choir practice, Lieutenant."

I didn't want to intrude, but I had to. "Can I ask a few questions?
Please."

He nodded blankly. "Of course.

"You see anyone? Someone fleeing? A shape, a glimpse?"

"I saw where the shots came from," Winslow said, and he pointed to the
same thicket of bushes where Jacobi had gone.

"I saw the trailer fire. I was busy trying to get everyone down. It was
madness."

"Has anyone made any threats recently against you or your church?" I
asked.

"Threats?" Winslow screwed up his face. "Maybe years ago, when we first
got funding to rebuild some of these houses."

A short distance away, a haunting wail came from Tasha Catchings's
mother as the girl's body was lifted onto a gurney.

This was so sad. The surrounding crowd was growing edgy.

Taunts and accusations began to ring out. "Why are you all standing
around? Go find her killer!" "I better get over there," Winslow said,
"before this thing goes the wrong way." He started to move, then turned
with tight-lipped resignation on his face. "I could have saved that poor
baby. I heard the shots."

"You couldn't save them all," I said. "You did what you could."

He finally nodded. Then he said something that totally shocked me. "It
was an M Sixteen, Lieutenant. Thirty-round clip. The bastard reloaded
twice." "How would you know that?" I asked, surprised.

"Desert Storm," he answered. "I was a field chaplain.

No way I would ever forget that awful sound. No one ever does."

Chapter 4.

I HEARD MY NAME CALLED OUT over the din of the crowd. It was Jacobi. He
was in the woods behind the church. "Hey Lieutenant, come check this
out."

Heading over, I wondered what kind of person could do such a terrible
thing. I had worked on a hundred homicides; usually drugs, money or sex
was at the heart of them. But this ... this was meant to shock. -

"Check it out," Jacobi said, bending down over a spot.

He'd found a bullet casing.

"M Sixteen, I bet," I replied.

Jacobi nodded. "Little lady's been brushing up during her time off?
Shell's a Remington two twenty-three."

"Lieutenant Little Lady to you." I smirked. Then I told him how I knew.

Dozens of empty shells were scattered all around. We were deep in the
brush and trees, hidden from the church.

Casings were strewn in two distinct clusters about five yards apart.

"You can see where he started firing," Jacobi said. "I figure here. He
must've moved around."

From the first cluster of shells, there was a clear line of sight to the
side of the church. That stained-glass window in full view ... all those
kids streaming toward the street ... I could see why no one had spotted
him. His hiding place was totally protected.

"When he reloaded, he must've moved over there." Jacobi pointed.

I made my way over and crouched near the second cluster of shells.
Something wasn't making sense. The facade of the church was in view; the
front steps where Tasha Catchings had lain. But only barely.

I squinted through an imaginary sight, leveling my gaze at where Tasha
must've been when she was hit. You could barely even fix it into sight.
There was no way he could've intentionally been aiming for her. She had
been struck from a totally improbable angle.

"Lucky shot," Jacobi muttered. "What do you think, a ricochet?"

"What's back here?" I asked. I looked around, pushing my way through the
thick bushes leading away from the church.

No one had seen the shooter escape, so he obviously hadn't made his way
along Harrow Street. The brush was about twenty feet deep.

At the end was a five-foot-high chain-link fence dividing the church
grounds from the surrounding neighborhood. The fence wasn't high. I
planted my flats and hoisted myself over.

I found myself facing penned-in backyards and tiny row houses. A few
people had gathered, watching the show. To the right, the playgrounds of
the Whitney Young projects.

Jacobi finally caught up with me. "Take it easy, Loo," he huffed.
"There's an audience. You're making me look bad."

"This is how he must've made his way out, Warren." We looked in both
directions. One way led toward an alley, the other toward a row of
homes.

I shouted to a group of onlookers who had gathered on a back porch,
"Anyone see anything?" No one responded.

"Someone was shooting at the church," I shouted. "A little girl's been
killed. Help us out. We need your help."

Everyone stood around with the unconfiding silence of people who don't
talk to the police.

Then slowly a woman of about thirty came forward. She was nudging a
young boy ahead of her. "Bernard saw something," she said in a muffled
voice.

Bernard appeared to be about six, with cautious, round eyes, wearing a
gold-and-purple Kobe Bryant sweatshirt.

"It was a van," Bernard blurted. "Like Uncle Reggie's." He pointed to
the dirt road leading to the alley. "It was parked down there."

I knelt down, gently smiling into the scared boy's eyes.

"What color van, Bernard?"

The kid replied, "White."

"My brother's got a white Dodge minivan," Bernard's mother said.

"Was it like your uncle's, Bernard?" I asked.

"Sorta. Not really though."

"Did you see the man who was driving it?"

He shook his head. "I was bringing out the garbage. I only saw it drive
away."

"Do you think you would recognize it again if you saw it?" I asked.

Bernard nodded.

"Because it looked like your uncle's?"

He hesitated. "No, because it had a picture on the back."

"A picture? You mean like an insignia? Or some kind of advertising?"

"Uh-uh." He shook his head; his moon-like eyes were searching around.
Then they lit up. "I mean like that." He pointed toward a pickup truck
in a neighbor's driveway.

There was a sticker of a Cal Golden Bear on the rear bumper.

"You mean a decal?" I confirmed.

"On the door."

I held the boy softly by the shoulders. "What did this decal look like,
Bernard?" "Like Mufasa," the boy said, "from The Lion King."

"A lion?" My mind raced through anything that seemed likely. Sports
teams, college logos, corporations ... "Yeah, like Mufasa," Bernard
repeated. "Except it had two heads."

Chapter 5.

LESS THAN AN HOUR LATER, I was pushing through a surging crowd that had
built up on the steps of the Hall of Justice. I felt hollowed out and
terribly sad, but knew I couldn't show it here.

The lobby of the tomb-like granite building where I worked was packed
with reporters and news crews, shoving their microphones at anyone who
came in wearing a badge.

Most of the crime reporters knew me but I waved them off until I could
get upstairs.

Then a set of hands grasped my shoulders and a familiar voice chimed,
"Linds, we need to talk.

I spun to face Cindy Thomas, one of my closest friends, though it also
happened she was the lead crime reporter at the Chronicle. "I won't
bother you now," she said above the din. "But it's important. How about
Susie's, at ten?"

It had been Cindy who, as a stringer buried on the paper's Metro desk,
had sneaked into the heart of the bride and groom case and helped blow
it wide open. Cindy who, as much as any of us, was responsible for the
gold on my shield today.

I managed a smile. "I'll see you there."

Upstairs on three, I strode into the cramped fluorescent-lit room that
the twelve inspectors who managed Homicide for the city called home.
Lorraine Stafford was waiting for me there. She had been my first
appointment, after six successful years in Sex Crimes. And Cappy Mcneil
had come in, too.

Lorraine asked, "What can I do?"

"You can check with Sacramento for any stolen white vans. Any model.
In-state plates. And put out an APB along with it for a bumper sticker
of some sort of lion on the rear."

She nodded and started away.

"Lorraine." I stopped her. "Make that a two-headed lion."

Cappy walked with me while I made myself a cup of tea.

He'd been in Homicide for fifteen years, and I knew he had supported me
when Chief Mercer consulted him about offering me the lieutenant job. He
looked sad, thoroughly depressed. "I know Aaron Winslow. I played ball
with him in Oakland. He's devoted his life to those kids. He really is
one of the good guys, Lieutenant."

All of a sudden Frank Barnes from Auto Theft stuck his head into our
office. "Heads up, Lieutenant. Weight's on the floor."

"Weight, in the lexicon of the SFPD, meant Chief of Police Earl Mercer.

Chapter 6.

MERCER STRODE IN, all two hundred fifty pounds of him, trailed by Gabe
Carr, a mean little weasel who was the department's press liaison, and
Fred Dix, who managed community relations.

The chief was still dressed in his trademark dark gray suit, blue shirt,
and shiny gold cuff links. I'd watched Mercer manage a number of tense
scenes - transit bombings, Internal Affairs stings, serial killers - but
I'd never seen his face so tight. He motioned me into my office and,
with barely a word, pulled the door shut. Fred Dix and Gabe Carr were
already inside.

"I just got off the phone with Winston Gray and Vernon Jones" - two of
the city's most outspoken leaders. "They've assured me they'll plead for
restraint, give us some time to find out just what the fuck is going on.
Just so I'm clear: By restraint, what they mean is, deliver the person
or group who's responsible for this or they'll have two thousand
outraged citizens at City Hall."

He barely relaxed his face when he stared at me. "So I'm hoping,
Lieutenant, you got something you want to share ... ?"

I took him through what I had found at the church, along with Bernard
Smith's sighting of the white getaway van.

"Van or not," the mayor's man, Fred Dix, cut in, "you know where you
have to start on this. Mayor Fernandez is going to come down hard on
anyone operating in the area espousing a racist or antidiversity
message. We need some heat to fall their way."

"You seem pretty sure that's what we're looking at," I said with a
noncommittal glance. "Your garden-variety hate crime?"

"Shooting up a church, murdering an eleven-year-old child? Where would
you start, Lieutenant?"

"That girl's face is going to be on every news report in the country,"
Carr, the press liaison, pitched in. "The effort in the Bay View
neighborhood is one of the mayor's proudest accomplishments."

I nodded. "Does the mayor mind if I finish my eyewitness interviews
first?"

"Don't worry yourself with the mayor," Mercer cut in.

"Right now, all you have to be concerned with is me. I grew up on these
streets. My folks still live in West Portal. I don't need a TV sound
bite to see that kid's face in my mind. You run the investigation
wherever it leads. Just run it fast. And Lindsay ... nothing gets in the
way, you understand?"

He was about to get up. "And most importantly, I want total containment
on this. I don't want to see this investigation being run on the front
page.

Everyone nodded, and Mercer, followed by Dix and Carr, stood up. He let
out a deep blast of air. "Right now, we have one hell of a press
conference to muck our way through."

The others filed out of the room, but Mercer stayed behind. He leaned
his thick hands on the edge of my desk, his hulking shape towering over
me.

"Lindsay, I know you left a lot on the table after that last case. But
all that's done. It's history now. I need everything you have on this
case. One of the things you left behind when you took that shield was
the freedom to let personal pain interfere with the job."

"You don't have to worry about me." I gave him a solid stare. I'd had my
differences with the man over the years, but now I was ready to give him
everything I had. I had seen the dead little girl. I had seen the church
torn up. My blood was on fire. I hadn't felt this way since I left the
job.

Chief Mercer flashed me a smile of understanding. "It's good to have you
back, Lieutenant."

Chapter 7.

AFTER A HIGHLY CHARGED NEWS CONFERENCE conducted on the steps of the
Hall, I met Cindy at Susie's as we had arranged. After the frenzied
scene at the Hall, the relaxed, laid-back atmosphere at our favorite
meeting place was a relief. She was already sipping a Corona as I
arrived.

A lot had happened here at this very table. Cindy; Jill Bernhardt, the
assistant district attorney; and Claire Washburn, the chief medical
examiner, my closest friend. We had started to meet last summer, when it
seemed that fate had pulled us together with links to the bride and
groom case. In the process, we had evolved into the closest of friends.

I signaled our waitress, Loretta, for a beer, then planted myself across
from Cindy with a worn-out smile. "Hey ... " "Hey yourself." She smiled
back. "Good to see you."

"Good to be seen."

A TV blared above the bar, a broadcast of Chief Mercer's news
conference. "We believe it was a single gunman," Mercer announced to a
flash of photographers' bulbs.

"You stay for that?" I asked Cindy, taking a welcome swig of my ice-cold
beer.

"I was there," she replied. "Stone and Fitzpatrick were there, too. They
filed the report."

I gave her a startled look. Tom Stone and Suzie Fitzpatrick were her
competition on the crime desk. "You losing your touch? Six months ago, I
would've found you coming out of the church as soon as we arrived."

"I'm going at it from another angle." She shrugged.

A handful of people crowded around the bar, trying to catch the breaking
news. I took another chug of beer. "You should've seen this poor little
girl, Cindy. All of eleven years old. She sang in the choir. There was
this rainbow-colored knapsack with all her books on the ground nearby."

"You know this stuff, Lindsay." She gave me a bolstering smile. "You
know how it is. It sucks."

"Yeah." I nodded. "But just once, it'd be nice to pick one of them up
... you know, brush them off, send them home. Just once, I'd like to
hand one back their book bag."

Cindy tapped her fist affectionately on the back of my hand. Then she
brightened. "I saw Jill today. She's got some news for us. She's
excited. Maybe Bennett's retiring and she's getting the big chair. We
should get together and see what's up with her."

"For sure." I nodded. "That what you wanted to tell me tonight, Cindy... ?"

She shook her head. In the background, all hell was breaking loose; in
the news conference on the screen Mercer was promising a swift and
effective response. "You've got a problem, Linds ... "

I shook my head. "I can't give you anything, Cindy.

Mercer's handling everything. I've never seen him so worked up. I'm
sorry."

"I didn't ask you here to get something, Lindsay ... "

"Cindy, if you know something, tell me."

"I know that boss of yours better be careful what he's committing to."

I glanced at the screen. "Mercer ... In the background, I heard his
voice asserting that the shooting was an isolated incident, that we
already had tangible leads, that every available cop would be on the
case until we tracked the killer down.

"He's telling the world you're gonna nail this guy before it happens
again ... ?"

"So ... ?"

Our eyes met solidly. "I think it already has."

Chapter 8.

THE KILLER WAS PLAYING DESERT COMMANDO and he was a master.

Phffft, phffft, phffft ... phffft, phffft.

Impassively he squinted through the illuminated infrared sight as hooded
figures darted into view. As if by an extension of his finger, the
darkened, maze-like chambers of the terrorist bunker exploded in balls
of orange flame. Shadowy figures burst into narrow halls, phffft,
phffft, phffft.

He was a champion at this. Great hand-eye coordination.

No one could touch him.

His finger twitched on the trigger. Ghouls, sand mites, towel-heads.
Come at me, baby ... Phffft, phffft ... Up through the dark corridors
... He smashed through an iron door, came upon a whole nest of them,
sucking on tabbouleh, "laying cards. His weapon spit a steady orange
death.

Blessed are the peacemakers. He smirked.

He squinted one more time through the sight, replaying the scene at the
church in his mind, imagining her face. That little Jemima, with her
braided hair, the rainbow-colored knapsack on her back.

Phfft, phfft. An on screen figure's chest exploded. This next kill was
for the record. Got it! His eye flashed toward the score. Two hundred
seventy-six enemy dead.

He took a tug on his Corona and grinned. A new personal record. This
score was worth keeping. He punched in his initials: FC.

He stood at the machine in the Playtime arcade in West Oakland, flicking
the trigger long after the game had ended.

He was the only white guy in the room. The only one. In fact, that was
why he chose to be here.

Suddenly, the four large television sets overhead were blaring the same
face. It sent a chill down his back and made him furious.

It was Mercer, the pompous ass who ran the San Francisco cops. He was
acting like he had everything figured out.

"We believe this was the act of a single gunman ...," he was saying. "An
isolated crime ... " If you only knew. He laughed.

Wait until tomorrow ... You'll see. Just you wait, Chief Ass hole.

"What I want to stress," the chief of police declared, "is that under no
circumstance will we permit this city to be terrorized by racial attack... "

This city. He spat. What do you know about this city? You don't belong
here.

He clutched at a C-l grenade in his jacket pocket. If he wanted to, he
could blow everything open right here.

Right now.

But there was work to do.

Tomorrow.

He was going for another personal record.

Chapter 9.

THE NEXT MORNING Jacobi and I were back examining the grounds of the La
Salle Heights Church.

All night long, I had fretted over what Cindy had told me about a case
that had come across her desk. It involved an elderly black woman who
lived alone in the Gustave White projects in West Oakland. Three days
ago, the Oakland police had found her hanging from a pipe in the
basement laundry room, an electrical cord tightly wound around her neck.

At first, the police assumed it was a suicide. No abrasions or defensive
wounds were found on her body. But the next day, during the autopsy, a
flaky residue was found packed under her nails. It turned out to be
human skin with microscopic specks of dried blood. The poor woman had
been desperately digging in to someone.

She hadn't hung herself after all, Cindy said.

The woman had been lynched.

As I went back over the crime scene at the church, I felt uneasy. Cindy
could be right. This might not be the first, but the second in an onset
of racially driven murders.

Jacobi walked up. He was holding a curled-up Chronicle.

"You see this, boss?"

The front page rocked with the blaring headline, "POLICE STUMPED AS
GIRL, 11, Is KILLED IN CHURCH ASSAULT." The article was written by Tom
Stone and Suzie Fitzpatrick, whose careers had been nudged aside by
Cindy's work on the bride and groom case. With the newspapers stoking
the fire, and the activists Gray and Jones railing on the air, soon the
public would be accusing us of sitting on our hands while the terror
suspect was running free.

"Your buddies ... " Jacobi huffed. "They always make it about us."

"Uh-uh, Warren." I shook my head. "My buddies don't take cheap shots."

Behind us in the woods, Charlie Clapper's Crime Scene Unit team was
going over the ground around the sniper's position. They'd turned up a
couple of foot imprints, but nothing identifiable. They would
fingerprint the shell casings, grid-search the ground, pick up every
piece of lint or dust where the supposed getaway vehicle had been
parked.

"Any more sightings on that white van?" I asked Jacobi.

In a strange way it was good to be working with him again.

He grumbled and shook his head. "Got a lead on a couple of winos who
hold a coffee klatch on that corner at night. So far, all we have is
this." He unfolded an artist's rendering of Bernard Smith's description:
a two-headed lion, the sticker on the rear door of the van.

Jacobi sucked in his cheeks. "Who are we after, Lieutenant, the Pokemon
killer?"

Across the grass, I spotted Aaron Winslow coming out of the church. A
knot of protestors approached him from a police barrier some fifty yards
away. As he saw me, his face tensed.

"People want to help any way they can. Paint over the bullet holes,
build a new facade," he said. "They don't like to look at this." "I'm
sorry," I said. "I'm afraid there's still an active investigation going
on.

He took in a breath. "I keep playing it over in my mind. Whoever did
this had a clear shot. I was standing right there, Lieutenant. More in
the line of fire than Tasha. If someone was trying to hurt someone, why
didn't they hurt me?"

Winslow knelt down and picked up a pink butterfly hair clip from the
ground. "I read somewhere, Lieutenant, that ' abounds where guilt and
rage run free." Winslow was taking this hard. I felt sorry for him; I
liked him. He managed a tight smile. "It'll take more than this bastard
to ruin our work. We won't fold. We'll have Tasha's service here, in
this church."

"We were headed to pay our respects," I said.

"They live over there. Building A." He pointed toward the projects. "I
guess you'll find a warm reception, given that there's some of your own.

I looked at him, puzzled. "I'm sorry? What was that?"

"Didn't you know, Lieutenant? Tasha Catchings's uncle is a city cop."

Chapter 10.

I VISITED THE CATCHINGS'S apartment, paid my respects, then I headed
back to the Hall. This whole thing was incredibly depressing.

"Mercer's looking for you," hollered Karen, our longtime civilian
secretary, as I got into the office. "He sounds mad. Of course, he
always sounds mad."

I could imagine the folds under the chief's jaw getting even deeper with
the afternoon headline. In fact, the entire Hall was buzzing with the
news that the La Salle Heights murder victim had been related to one of
our own.

There were several other messages waiting for me on my desk. At the
bottom of the pile I came across Claire's name.

Tasha Catchings's autopsy should be finished by now. I wanted to hold
off on Mercer until I had something concrete to report, so I called
Claire.

Claire Washburn was the sharpest, brightest, most thorough M.E. the city
ever had, notwithstanding the fact that she also happened to be my
closest friend. Everyone associated with law enforcement knew it, and
that she ran the department without a hitch while Chief Coroner
Righetti, the mayor's stiff-suited appointee, traveled around the
country to forensic conferences working on his political resume.

You wanted something done in the M. E.'s office, you called Claire.

And when I needed someone to set me straight, make me laugh, or just be
there to listen, that's where I went, too.

"Where you been hiding, baby?" Claire greeted me with her always upbeat
voice, which had the ring of polished brass.

"Normal routine." I shrugged. "Staff appraisals, case write-ups ...
city-dividing, racially motivated homicides ... "

"Just my region of expertise." She chuckled. "I knew I'd be hearing from
you. My spies tell me you've got yourself a bitch of a case out there."

"Any of those spies maybe work for the Chronicle and drive a beat-up
silver Mazda?"

"Or the D. A.'s office, and a BMW five-thirty-five. How the hell do you
think information ever gets down here, anyway?"

"Well, here's one, Claire. Turns out the dead little girl's uncle is in
uniform. He's at Northern. And the poor kid ends up being a poster child
for the La Salle Heights project in action. Top-of-the-line student,
never once in trouble. Some justice, huh? This bastard leaves a hundred
slugs in the church and the one that hits finds its way into her."

"Uh-uh, honey." Claire cut me off. "There were two of them in there."

"Two ...? She was hit twice?" EMS had been all over the body. How could
we have failed to catch that?

"If I'm hearing you right, my guess is you think this shot was some kind
of accident."

"What are you saying?" "Honey," Claire said soberly "I think you better
come on down for a visit."

Chapter 11.

THE MORGUE was on the ground floor of the Hall, out a back entrance and
accessible from an asphalt path that led from the lobby. It took me no
more than three minutes to rush down two flights of stairs.

Claire met me in the reception area outside her office. Her bright and
usually cheery face bore a look of professional concern, but as soon as
she saw me, she eased into a smile and gave me a hug.

"How you been, stranger?" she asked, as if the case were a million miles
away.

Claire always had a way of defusing the tension in even the most
critical of situations. I'd always admired how she could relax my
single-minded focus with just a smile.

"I've been good, Claire. Just swamped since I got the job."

"I don't get to see you much now that you're Mercer's pet butt-boy."

"Very funny." She smiled that coy wide-eyed smirk of hers that was
partly Hey, I know what you mean, but maybe a lot more, You gotta make
the time, girl, for those who love you. But without as much as a
reproving word, she led me down an antiseptic-linoleum-tiled hallway
toward the morgue's operating room, called the Vault.

She glanced behind and said, "You made it sound like you were sure Tasha
Catchings was killed by a stray bullet." "That's what I thought. The
gunman fired three clips at the church and she was the only one hit. I
even went and cased the area where the shots came from. There was no way
he had anything even close to a clean shot. But you said two ... "

"Uh-huh." She nodded. We burst through a closed compression door into
the dry cold air of the Vault. The icy chill and chemical smell always
made my skin crawl.

And it was no different now. A single inhabited gurney was visible from
its refrigerated vault. A small mound was on it, covered by a white
sheet. It barely filled half the length of the gurney.

"Hold on," Claire warned. Naked post-op victims, rigid and terrifyingly
pale, were never an easy sight.

She pulled down the sheet. The child's face shot into my view. God, she
was young.

I looked at her soft ebony skin, so innocent, so out of place against
the cold, clinical surroundings. Part of me wanted to just reach out and
lay a hand against her cheek.

She had such a lovable face.

A large puncture wound, freshly cleaned of blood, tore up the flesh
around the child's right chest. "Two bullets," Claire explained,
"basically right on top of each other, in rapid succession. I could see
why EMS might've missed it. They almost tore through the same hole."

I sucked in a horrific double take. A fit of nausea gripped at my gut.

"The first one exited right through her scapula," Claire went on, easing
the tiny body over on its side. "The second bounced off the fourth
vertebra and lodged in her spine."

Claire reached over and picked up a glass petri dish resting on a nearby
counter. With a tweezer, she held up a flattened lead disk about the
size of a quarter. "Two shots, Linds ... The first tore through the
right ventricle, doing the trick. She was probably dead before this one
even struck."

Two shots ... two one-in-a-million ricochets? I replayed the likely
position of Tasha as she exited the church and the killer's line of fire
in the woods. One seemed plausible, but two ... "Did Charlie Clapper's
crew find any bullet nicks in the church above where the girl was
positioned?" Claire inquired.

"I don't know." It was standard procedure in all homicides to
painstakingly match up all bullets with their marks. "I'll check."

"What was the church constructed of where she was hit? Wood or stone?"
"Wood," I said, realizing where she was heading. No way wood on its own
would deflect a bullet from an M16.

Claire pushed her operating glasses high on her forehead.

She had a cheery, amiable face, but when she was certain, as she was
now, it had a glow of conviction that admitted no doubt. "Lindsay, the
angle of entry is frontal and clean for both shots. A ricocheting shell
would likely have come in from a different trajectory."

"I went over every inch of the shooter's position, Claire. The way he
was firing, he'd have to be a goddamn sharp-shooter to set up that
shot."

"You say the fire was sprayed irregularly across the side of the
church."

"In a steady pattern, right to left. And Claire, no one else was struck.
A hundred shots, she was the only one hit."

"So you assumed this was a tragic accident, right?" Claire peeled off
her plastic medical gloves and tossed them deftly into a waste
receptacle. "Well, these two were no accident at all. They didn't
ricochet off of anything. They were straight and perfectly placed.
Killed her instantly. You willing to consider the possibility that maybe
your gunman hit exactly what he was aiming at?"

I brought back the scene in my mind. "He would have only had an instant
to line up such a shot, Claire. And only a foot or two of clearance from
the wall to squeeze it in."

"Then either God didn't smile on that poor girl last night," Claire said
with a sympathetic sigh, "or you better start looking for one hell of a
shooter."

Chapter 12.

THE SHOCKING POSSIBILITY that Tasha Catchings might not have been a
random victim after all dogged me all the way back to the office.
Upstairs, I ran into a wall of detectives anxiously awaiting me.
Lorraine Stafford informed me there was a positive from the auto search,
a '94 Dodge Caravan reported stolen three days ago down the peninsula in
Mountain View. I told her to see if any of the characteristics matched.

I grabbed Jacobi and told him to wrap up his bagel and come with me.

"Where we headed?" he groaned.

"Across the bay. Oakland."

"Mercer's still looking for you," Karen shouted as we hit the hall.
"Whaddaya want me to say?"

"Tell him I'm investigating a murder."

Twenty minutes later, we had crossed the Bay Bridge, woven through the
drab, antiquated skyline that was downtown Oakland, and pulled up in
front of the Police Administration Building on Seventh. Oakland's police
headquarters was a short gray panel-and-glass building in the impersonal
style of the early sixties. On the second floor was Homicide, a cramped,
dreary office no larger than our own. Over the years, I'd been here a
few times.

Lieutenant Ron Vandervellen stood up to greet us as we were led into his
office. "Hey I hear congratulations are in order, Boxer. Welcome to the
world of sedentary life."

"I wish, Ron," I replied.

"What brings you here? You looking to check out how the real world
works?"

For years, the San Francisco and Oakland homicide departments had
maintained a kind of friendly rivalry, they believing all we dealt with
across the bay was the occasional computer parts salesman found naked
and dead in his hotel room.

"I saw you on the news last night." Vandervellen cackled.

"Very photogenic. I mean her." He grinned at Jacobi.

"What brings you celebrities out here?"

"A little bird named Chipman,""I replied. Estelle Chipman was the
elderly black woman Cindy told me had been found hung in her basement.

He shrugged. "I got a hundred unsolved murders if you guys don't have
enough to keep you busy."

I was used to the Vandervellen barbs, but this time he sounded
particularly edgy. "No agenda, Ron. I just want to look at the crime
scene, if that's okay."

"Sure, but I think it's gonna be tough to tie it into your church
shooting."

"What's that?" I asked.

The Oakland lieutenant got up, went out into the outer office, and came
back with a case file. "I guess I'm having a hard time putting together
how a homicide as obviously racially motivated as yours could be
committed by one of their own." "What are you saying?" I asked. "Estelle
Chipman's killer was black?"

He donned a pair of reading glasses, leafed through the file until he
came to an official document marked "Alameda County Coroner's Report."

"Read it and weep," he muttered. "If you'd called, I could've saved you
the toll ... ' specimens found under the victim's fingernails suggest a
hyperpigmented dermis consistent with a non-Caucasian.' Slides are out
being tested as we speak."

"You still want to check out the site?" Vandervellen asked, seemingly
enjoying the moment.

"You mind? We're already here."

"Sure, yeah, be my guest. It's Krimpman's case, but he's out. I can take
you through. I don't get out to the Gus White projects much anymore. Who
knows? Riding with you two super cops, I might pick something up along
the way."

Chapter 13.

THE GUSTAVE WHITE PROJECTS were six identical redbrick high-rises on
Redmond Street in West Oakland. As we pulled up, Vandervellen said,
"Didn't make much sense ... The poor woman wasn't ill, seemed to have
okay finances, even went to church twice a week. But sometimes people
just give up. Until the autopsy. it looked legit."

I recalled the case file: There were no witnesses, no one had heard any
screams, no one saw anybody running away.

Only an elderly woman who kept to herself, found hanging from a steam
pipe in the basement, her neck at a right angle and her tongue
protruding.

At the projects, we walked right into Building C.

"Elevator's on the fritz," Vandervellen said. We took the stairs down.
In the graffiti-marked basement, we came upon a hand-painted sign that
read, "Laundry Room - Boiler Room."

"Found her in here."

The basement room was still criss-crossed with yellow crime scene tape.
A pungent, rancid odor filled the air. Graffiti was everywhere. Anything
that had been here - the body, the electrical wire she was hung with -
had already been taken to the morgue or entered into evidence.

"I don't know what you're looking to find," Vandervellen said with a
shrug.

"I don't know either." I swallowed. "It happened late last Saturday
night?"

"Coroner figures around ten. We thought maybe the old lady came down to
do her laundry, that someone surprised her. Janitor found her the next
morning."

"What about security cameras?" Jacobi asked. "They were all over the
lobby and the halls."

"Same as the elevator--broken." Vandervellen shrugged again.

It was clear Vandervellen and Jacobi wanted to head out as quickly as
possible, but something pulled at me to stay.

For what? I had no idea. But my senses were buzzing. Find me ... over
here.

"The race thing aside," Vandervellen said, "if you're looking for a
connection, I'm sure you know how unusual it is for a killer to switch
methods in the midst of a spree."

"Thanks," I snapped back. I had scanned the room; nothing jumped at me.
Just the feeling. "Guess we'll have to solve this one on our own. Who
knows? By now maybe something's popped up on our side of the pond."

As Vandervellen was about to flick off the light, something caught my
eye. "Hold it," I said.

As if pulled by gravity, I was drawn to the far side of the room, to the
wall behind the spot where Chipman had been found hanging. I knelt,
tracing my fingers over the concrete wall. If I hadn't seen it before it
would've passed right by my sight.

A primitive drawing, like a child's, in bright orange chalk.

It was a lion. Like Bernard Smith's drawing but more fierce.

The lion's body led into a coiled tail, but it was the tail of something
else ... a reptile? A serpent?

And that wasn't all.

The lion had two heads: one a lion, the other possibly a goat.

I felt a knot in my chest, a tremor of revulsion, and recognition, too.

Jacobi came up behind me. "Find something, Lieutenant?"

I drew a long breath. "Pokemon."

Chapter 14.

SO NOW I KNEW ... These cases were probably related. Bernard Smith's
sighting of the fleeing van had been on the mark. We had our get-away
car. We might have a double killer.

It didn't surprise me that when I finally got back to the Hall, an angry
Chief Mercer insisted he be buzzed the minute I walked in.

I closed the door to my office, dialed his extension, and waited for the
barrage.

"You know what's going on here," he said, the sting of authority
rippling through his voice. "You think you can stay out in the field all
day and ignore my calls? You're Lieutenant Boxer now. Your job is to
manage your squad. And keep me informed."

"I'm sorry, Chief, it's just that--"

"A child has been killed. A neighborhood terrorized.

We've got some psycho a brick short out there who's trying to turn this
place into an inferno. By tomorrow, every African American leader in
this town will be demanding to know what we're going to do."

"It's gotten deeper than that, Chief."

Mercer stopped short. "Deeper than what?"

I told him what I had found in the basement in Oakland.

The lion-like symbol that had been at both crimes.

I heard him suck in a deep breath. "You're saying these two killings are
related?"

"I'm saying that before we jump to any fast conclusions, that
possibility exists."

The air seemed to seep right out of Mercer's lungs. "You get a photo of
what you found on that wall over to the lab. And the sketch of what that
kid in Bay View saw. I want to know what those drawings mean."

"It's already in the works," I replied.

"And the getaway van? Anything back on it yet?"

"Negative."

A troubling possibility seemed to be forming in Mercer's mind. "If
there's some kind of conspiracy taking place here, we're not going to
sit back while this" city is held hostage to a terror campaign."

"We're running the van. Let me have some time on that symbol." I didn't
want to tell him my worst fear. If Vandervellen was right, that Estelle
Chipman's killer was black, and Claire was right, that Tasha Catchings
was an intended target, this might not be a racial-terror campaign at
all.

Even on the phone, I could sense the creases underneath Mercer's jaw
deepening. I was asking him to take a risk, a big one. Finally I heard
him exhale. "Don't let me down, Lieutenant. Solve your case."

As I hung up the phone, I could feel the pressure intensifying. The
world was going to expect me to bust down the door of every hate group
operating west of Montana, and already I had real doubts.

On my desk, I spotted a message from Jill. "How about a drink? Six
o'clock," it read. "All of us."

One full day into the case ... If there was anything that would calm my
fears, it was Jill, and Claire and Cindy, and a pitcher of margaritas at
Susie's.

I left a message on Jill's voice mail that I'd be there.

I glanced at a faded blue baseball cap hanging on a wooden coatrack in
the corner of my office, with the words "It's Heavenly" embroidered on
the brim. The cap had belonged to Chris Raleigh. He'd given it to me
during a beautiful weekend up at Heavenly Valley, where the outside
world had seemed to disappear for a while and both of us had opened up
to what was starting to take place between us.

"Don't let me mess up," I whispered. I felt my eyes begin to sting with
tears. God, I wished he was here.

"You sonofabitch." I shook my head at the hat. "I miss you."

Chapter 15.

IT TOOK NO MORE THAN A MINUTE of settling back in our old booth at
Susie's to feel the magic begin to spark, and to realize it was
happening all over again.

A troublesome case that was getting worse. A pitcher full of high-octane
margaritas. My three best friends all at the top of law enforcement. I
was afraid that our murder club was back in business.

"just like old times?" Claire smiled, scooting her large frame over to
make room for me.

"In more ways than you know." I sighed. Then, pouring myself a frothy
drink, "Jesus, do I need one of these."

Tough day?" Jill inquired.

"No," I shook my head. "Routine. Piece of cake."

"That paperwork, it'll drive anyone to drink." Claire shrugged, taking a
sip of her margarita. "Cheers. Great to see you wenches."

There was an obvious level of anticipation buzzing through the group. As
I took a sip myself, I scanned around.

All eyes were focused on me.

"Uh-uh." I almost spit into my drink. "I can't get into it. Don't even
start." "I told you," Jill croaked with a confirming smile. "Things have
changed. Lindsay's management now."

"That's not it, Jill. There's a gag order. Mercer's got this thing shut
down. Besides, I thought we were here for you."

Jill's sharp blue eyes twinkled. "The representative from the district
attorney's office is willing to cede the floor to her esteemed colleague
from the third floor."

"Jesus, guys, I've been on this case for two days."

"What the hell else is anybody in the city talking about?" said Claire.
"You want to hear about my day? I did a full frontal at ten, then a talk
at SFU on the pathology of --"

"We could talk about global warming," Cindy said, "or this book I'm
reading, The Death of Vishnu."

"It's not that I don't want to talk about it," I protested. "It's just
that it's sealed, confidential."

"Confidential, like what I turned you on to in Oakland?" Cindy asked.

"We have to talk about that," I said. "After." "I'll make you a deal,"
Jill said. "You share it with us"

Like always. Then I'll share something. You judge which is juicier.
Winner pays the check."

I knew it was only a matter of time before I gave in. How could I keep
secrets from my girls? It was all over the news - at least part of it.
And there weren't three sharper minds anywhere in the Hall.

I let out an expectant sigh. "This all stays here."

"Of course," Jill and Claire said. "Duh."

I turned to Cindy. "And that means you don't go to press. With any of
it. Until I say so."

"Why do I get the sense I'm always being blackmailed by you?" She shook
her head, then acquiesced. "Fine. Deal."

Jill filled up my glass. "I knew we'd eventually break you down."

I took a sip. "Nah. I decided to tell you when you said, "Tough day?"

Piece by piece, I took them through the case so far"

The decal Bernard Smith had seen on the getaway van. The identical
drawing I had found in Oakland. The possibility that Estelle Chipman
might have been murdered. Claire's thought that Tasha Catchings may not
have been an accidental target after all.

"I knew it," Cindy shouted with a triumphant beam.

"You've got to find out what that lion image represents," insisted
Claire.

I nodded. "I'm on it. Big-time."

Jill, the A. D.A., inquired, "Anything out there that actually ties
these two victims together?" -

"Nothing so far." "What about motive?" she .

"Everyone's reading them as hate crimes, Jill."

She nodded cautiously. "And you?"

"I'm starting to read them differently. I think we have to consider the
possibility that someone's using the hate crime scenario as a smoke
screen."

There was a long silence at the table.

"A racial serial killer," Claire said.

Chapter 16.

I HAD SHARED MY NEWS, all of it bad. Everyone ran it over glumly.

I nodded to Jill. "Now you."

Cindy jumped the gun. "Bennett's not going to run again, is he?" In her
eight years in the prosecutor's office, Jill had shot up to be his
number two in command. If the old man decided to step down, she was the
logical choice to be appointed San Francisco's next D.A.

Jill laughed and shook her head. "He'll be propped up at that oak desk
the day he dies. That's the truth."

"Well, you've got something to tell us," pressed Claire. "You're right,"
she admitted. "I do ... "

One by one, Jill met each one of our gazes as if to ratchet up the
suspense. Those normally piercing cobalt eyes had never looked so
serene. At last, a crooked little smile crept across her face. She let
out a sigh, then said, "I'm pregnant."

We sat there, waiting for her to admit that she was just putting us on.
But she didn't. She just kept those sharp eyes blinking right in our
faces, until thirty seconds must have gone by.

"Y-you're joking," I stammered. Jill was the most driven woman I knew.
You could catch her at her desk most any night until after eight. Her
husband, Steve, ran a venture fund for Bank America. They were
fast-track achievers: They mountain-biked in Moab, windsurfed on the
Columbia River in Oregon. A baby ... "People do it," she exclaimed at
our amazement.

"I knew it," Claire exclaimed, slapping the table. "I just knew it. I
saw the look in your eyes. I saw that sheen on your face. I said,
something's toasting in that oven. You're talking to an expert, you
know. How long?"

"Eight weeks. I'm due the end of May." Jill's eyes sparkled like a young
girl's. "Other than our families, you're the first people I've told. Of
course."

"Bennett's gonna shit graham crackers." Cindy cackled.

"He's got three of his own And it's not like I'm trading it in to go off
and grow grapes in Petaluma. I'm just having a baby."

I found myself smiling. Part of me was so pleased for her, I almost
wanted to cry. Part of me was even a little jealous.

Most of me still couldn't believe it. "This kid better know what he's in
for." I grinned. "He'll be rocked to sleep by tapes of California case
law."

"No way," Jill laughed defiantly. "I won't do it. I promise I won't do
it. I'm gonna be a really good mom."

I stood up and leaned across the table to her. "This is so great, Jill."
For a moment, we just stared at each other, our eyes glistening. I was
so damned happy for her. I remembered when I was scared shitless because
of a blood disease I had, and Jill had bared her arms to us and showed
us her terrible scars; she explained how she had cut herself in high
school and college, how the challenge to always go to the top had so
deeply ruled her life that she could only take it out on herself.

We threw our arms around each other, and I squeezed her.

"Was this something you've been thinking about?" Claire asked.

"We'd been trying for a couple of months," Jill answered, sitting back
down. "I'm not sure it was any conscious decision, other than the timing
seemed right." She looked at Claire. "The first time I met you, when
Lindsay asked me into your group and you talked about your kids ... it
just sort of set off a spark in me. I remember thinking, She runs the M.
E.'s office. She's one of the most capable women I know, at the top of
her profession, yet this is what she talks about."

"When you start out working," Claire explained, "you have all this drive
and focus. As a woman, you feel you have to prove everything. But when
you have kids, it's different, natural. You realize it's no longer about
you at all. You realize ... you no longer have to prove anything. You
already have." "So, hey ... " Jill said with glistening eyes, "I want a
little of that, too.

"I never told this to you guys," she went on, "but I was pregnant once
before. Five years ago." She took a sip of water and shook the dark hair
off the back of her neck. "My career was in overdrive you remember,
there was that La Frade hearing - and Steve had just started running his
own fund."

"It just wasn't the right time for you then, honey." Claire said.

"That wasn't it," Jill answered quickly. "I wanted it. It was just that
everything was so intense. I was pulling stints at the office until ten.
It seemed like Steve was always away." She paused, a remote cloudiness
in her eyes. I had some bleeding. The doctor warned me to cut back. I
tried, but everyone was pushing on this case, and I was always alone.

"One day I just felt my insides explode. I lost it ... in the fourth
month."

"Oh, Jesus." Claire gasped. "Oh, Jill."

Jill sucked in a breath, and a hushed silence fell over the table.

"So how are you feeling?" I asked.

"Ecstatic ... " she replied. "Physically strong as ever ... "

Then she blinked remotely for a moment and faced us again.

"Truth is, I'm a total wreck."

I reached for her hand. "What does your doctor say?" "He says we'll keep
a close watch and keep the sensationalist cases down to a minimum. Run
it in low gear." "Do you have that gear?" I asked.

"I do now." She sniffed.

"Wow." Cindy chuckled. "Jill's suddenly got drag," referring to the
dot-com term for anything that could keep you from your job 24/7.

In Jill's eyes, I saw a glorious transformation taking place, something
I had never seen before. Jill was always successful.

She had that beautiful face, that hard-charging drive. Now I could see
at last that she was happy.

Beautiful tears welled up in her eyes. I had seen this woman stand up in
court against some of the toughest bastards in the city; I had seen her
go after murderers with an undeterred conviction. I had even seen the
scars of self-doubt on the insides of her arms.

But until that moment, I had never seen Jill cry.

"Dammit ... " I smiled. I reached for the check. "I guess I pay."

Chapter 17.

AFTER A FEW MORE GIDDY HUGS with Jill, I made my way home to my
apartment on Potrero Hill.

It was the second floor of a renovated blue Victorian.

Cozy and bright, with an alcove of wide windows overlooking the bay.
Martha, my affectionate Border collie, met me at the door.

"Hey, sweetie," I said. She wagged up to greet me and threw her paws
against my leg.

"So, how was your day?" I nuzzled close, smooching her happy face.

I went into the bedroom and peeled off my work clothes, pulled up my
hair, putting on the oversize Giants sweatshirt and flannel pajama pants
I lived in when the weather turned cool. I fed Martha, made myself a cup
of Orange Zinger, and sat in the cushioned alcove.

I took a sip of tea, Martha perched in my lap. Out in the distance, a
grid of blinking airplane lights descending into SF1 came into view. I
found myself thinking about the unbelievable image of Jill as a mom ...
Her thin, fit figure with a bulging belly ... a shower with just us
girls. It made me chuckle. I smiled at Martha. "Jilly-bean's gonna be a
mommy."

I had never seen Jill look so complete. It was only a few months ago
when my own thoughts had run to how much I would have loved to have a
baby. As Jill said, I wanted some of that, too. It just wasn't meant to
be.

Parenting just didn't seem like the natural occupation in my family.

My mother had died eleven years before, when I was twenty-four and just
entering the Police Academy. She had been diagnosed with breast cancer,
and my last two years of college, I helped take care of her, rushing
back from class to pick her up at the Emporium, where she worked,
preparing her meals, watching over my younger sister, Cat.

My father, a San Francisco cop, disappeared on us when I was thirteen.
To this day, I didn't know why I had grown up hearing all the stories -
that he handed his paycheck over to the bookies, that he had a secret
life away from Mom, that the bastard could charm the pants off of
anyone, that one day he lost heart and just couldn't put the uniform
back on.

Last I heard from Cat, he was down in Redondo Beach, doing his own
thing, private security. Old-timers down in the Central district still
asked me how Marty Boxer was. They still told stories about him, and
maybe it was good someone could think about him with a laugh. Marty who
once nabbed three perps with the same set of handcuffs ... Marty Boxer,
who stopped off to lay a bet with the suspect still in the car.

All I could think about was that the bastard let me tend and nurse my
mother while she was dying and never came back.

I hadn't seen my father for almost ten years. Since the day I became a
cop. I'd spotted him in the audience when I graduated from the police
academy but we hadn't spoken. I didn't even miss him anymore.

God, it had been ages since I had examined these old scars. Mom had been
gone for eleven years. I'd been married, divorced. I had made it into
Homicide. Now I was running it. Somewhere along the way, I had met the
man of my dreams ... I was right when I told Mercer the old fire was
back.

But I was lying when I told myself I had put Chris Raleigh in the past.

Chapter 18.

IT WAS ALWAYS THE EYES that got him. Naked on the bunk, in the stark,
cell-like room, he sat staring at the old black-and-white photographs he
had looked at a thousand times.

It was always the eyes ... that deadened, hopeless resignation.

How they posed, even knowing that their lives were about to end. Even
with the nooses wrapped around their necks.

In the loosely bound album, he had forty-seven photos and postcards
arranged in chronological order. He had collected them over the years.
The first, an old photograph, dated June 9, 1901, his father had given
him. Dezjones, lynched in Great River, Indiana. On the border, someone
had written in faded script: "This was that dance I went to the other
night. We sure played afterwards. Your son, Sam." In the foreground, a
crowd in suit coats and bowler hats, and behind them the limply hanging
corpse.

He flipped the page. Frank Taylor, Mason, Georgia, 1911. It had cost him
$500 to get the photo, but it was worth every penny. From the back of a
buggy parked under an oak, the condemned man stared, seconds before his
death. On his face, neither resistance nor fear. A small crowd of
properly dressed men and women grinned toward the camera as if they were
witnessing Lindbergh arriving in Paris. Dressed up as if it were a
family portrait.

Their eyes conveyed that the hanging was something proper and natural.
Taylor's, simply that there wasn't a damn thing he could do about it
anyway.

He got off the bed and dragged his slick, muscular frame to the mirror.
He had always been strong. He had lifted weights for ten years now. He
flinched as he drew blood and mass into his swollen pecs. He massaged a
scratch. That old bitch had dug her nails into his chest as he wrapped
the coil around the ceiling pipes. It had barely drawn blood, but he
looked at the scratch with contempt. He didn't like anything that
disturbed the surface of his skin.

He posed in front of the mirror, looking at the seething lion-goat
tattooed across his chest.

Soon, all the stupid assholes would see that it wasn't just about hate.
They would read his pattern. The guilty had to be punished. Reputations
needed to be restored. He had no particular antipathy for any of them.
It wasn't hate. He climbed back on the bed and masturbated to the photo
of Missy Preston, whose tiny neck was snapped by a rope in Childers
County, Tennessee, in August of 1931.

Without even a groan, he ejaculated. The forceful rush made his knees
quake. That old lady, she had deserved to die.

The choir girl, too. He was pumped up!

He massaged the tattoo on his chest. Pretty soon, I will let you free,
my pet.

He opened his photo scrapbook and flipped to the last blank page, just
after Morris Tub and Sweet Brown, in Longbow, Kansas, 1956.

He had been saving this spot for the right picture. And now he had it.

He took a tube of roll-on glue and dabbed all over the back of the
photo. Then he pressed it onto the blank page.

Here's where it belonged.

He remembered her staring up at him, that sad inevitability etched all
over her face. The eyes ... He admired the new addition: Estelle
Chipman, eyes stretched wide, looking at the camera just before he
kicked the chair out from under her feet.

They always posed.

Chapter 19.

FIRST THING THE FOLLOWING MORNING, I called Stu Kirkwood, who ran a hate
crimes desk assigned to the police department. I asked him, personally,
for any leads on these types of groups that might be operating in the
Bay Area. My people had talked to Stu earlier, but I needed action fast.

So far, Clapper's CSU team had scoured the area around the church with
nothing to show for it, and the only thing we came back with on Aaron
Winslow was that no one had a negative thing to say about him.

Kirkwood informed me over the phone that a few organized supremacist
groups operated out of Northern California, offshoots of the Klan or
some crazy neo-Nazi skinheads. He said that maybe the best thing would
be to contact the local chapter of the FBI, who kept a much more active
eye on them. Gay bashing was more his thing.

Bringing in the FBI at this stage didn't fill me with enthusiasm. I
asked Kirkwood to give me what he had, and an hour later he came up,
carrying a plastic bin crammed with blue and red folders. "Background
reading." He winked, dropping the bin heavily on my desk.

At the sight of the mass of files, my hopes sank. "You got any ideas
about this, Stu?"

He shrugged sympathetically. "San Francisco's not exactly a hotbed for
these groups. Most of what I gave you here seems pretty benign. They
seem to spend most of their time hoisting back a few beers and shooting
off ammo."

I ordered up a salad, figuring I'd spend the next couple of hours at my
desk with a bunch of nutcases railing against blacks and Jews. I pulled
out a handful of files and opened one at random.

Some sort of militia group, operating up in Greenview, near the Oregon
border. The California Patriots. Some summary information supplied by
the FBI: Activity Type: Militia, sixteen to twenty members. Weapons
Assessment: Minor, small to semiautomatic arms, over-the-counter. On the
bottom it had: Threat: Low to Moderate.

I skimmed through the file. Some printed materials with logos of crossed
guns, detailing everything from population shifts from "the white,
European majority," to media cover-ups on government programs to promote
test-tube fertilization of minorities.

I couldn't imagine my killer buying into this claptrap. I didn't see him
on the same wavelength at all. Our guy was organized and bold, not some
pumped-up backwoods bozo.

He had gone to elaborate lengths to hide the murders in the MO of a hate
crime. And he had signed them.

Like most serials, he wanted us to know.

And to know there would be more.

I leafed through a few more files. Nothing jumped out at me. I was
starting to have the feeling this was a waste of time.

Suddenly Lorraine burst into my office. "We caught a break, Lieutenant.
We found the white van.

Chapter 20.

I STRAPPED ON MY GLOCK and grabbed Cappy and Jacobi on the way out
before Lorraine had even finished filling me in. "I want a SWAT team out
there," I yelled.

Ten minutes later, we all screeched up to a makeshift roadblock on San
Jacinto, a quiet residential street.

A radio car on routine patrol had spotted a Dodge Caravan parked outside
a house in tony Forest Hills. What made him sure this was the car we
were looking for was the decal of a two-headed lion on the rear bumper.

Vasquez, the young patrolman who had called in the van, pointed toward a
tree-shaded Tudor halfway down the block, the white minivan parked at
the end of the driveway. It seemed crazy. This was an affluent
neighborhood, not a likely haven for criminals or murderers.

But there it was.

Our white van.

And Bernard Smith's Mufasa.

Moments later, an unmarked SWAT vehicle rigged to look like a cable TV
repair truck pulled onto the street. The team was headed by Lieutenant
Skip Arbichaut. I didn't know what the situation entailed, whether we
would have a siege or possibly have to break our way in.

"Cappy, Jacobi, and I will go in first," I said.

This was a homicide operation and I wasn't letting anyone else take the
risk. I had Arbichaut deploy his men, two around back, three manning the
front, and one with a sledge with us in case we had to bust in.

We strapped on protective vests and donned black nylon jackets
identifying us as police. I clicked my 9mm off safety.

There wasn't much time to get nervous.

The SWAT truck started down the street, three black-vested snipers
hugging its opposite side.

Cappy, Jacobi, and I followed the truck as cover until it pulled to a
stop in front of a mailbox marked 610. Vasquez was right. The van was a
match.

My heart was racing now. I had been in many forced entries before, but
none with more at stake. We cautiously wove our way to the front of the
house.

There were lights on inside, some noise from a TV.

At my nod, Cappy pounded the door with his gun.

"San Francisco Police. "Jacobi and I crouched with our guns ready.

No one answered.

After a few tense seconds, I signaled Arbichaut for a ram.

Suddenly, the front door cracked open.

"Freeze," Cappy boomed, swinging his gun into a shooting position. "San
Francisco Police."

A wide-eyed woman in powder blue exercise clothes stood frozen in the
door. "Oh, my God," she screeched, eyes fastened on our weapons.

Cappy yanked her out the front door as Arbichaut's SWAT team rushed the
house. He barked, "Is anyone else at home?"

"Just my daughter," the frightened woman shrieked.

"She's two."

The black-vested SWAT team barged past her into the house as if they
were searching for Elian Gonzalez.

"Is that your van?" jacobi barked.

The woman's eyes darted toward the street. "What is this about?"

"Is that your van?" Jacobi's voice boomed again.

"No," she said, trembling. "No .."

"Do you know who it belongs to?"

She looked again, terrified, and shook her head. "I've never seen it
before in my life."

It was all wrong; I could see that. The neighborhood, the plastic kid's
slide on the lawn, the spooked mom in the work-out clothes. A
disappointed sigh was expelled from my chest.

The van had been dumped here.

All of a sudden, a green Audi knifed its way up to the curb, followed by
two police cars. The Audi must have gone right through our roadblock. A
well-dressed man in a suit and tortoiseshell glasses jumped out and ran
toward the house. "Kathy, what the hell's going on?"

"Steve ... " The woman hugged him with a sigh of relief.

"This is my husband. I called him when I saw all the police outside our
house."

The man looked around at the eight cop cars, SWAT backup, and the SFPD
inspectors standing around with weapons drawn. "What are you doing at my
house? This is insane! This is nuts!"

"We believe that van was the vehicle used in the commission of a
homicide," I said. "We have every right to be here."

"A homicide ... ?"

Two of Arbichaut's men emerged from the house, indicating that there
wasn't anyone else inside. Across the street, people were starting to
file outdoors. "That van's been our number one priority for two days.
I'm sorry to have upset you. There was no way to be sure.

The husband's indignation rose. His face and neck were beet red. "You're
thinking we had something to do with this? With a homicide?"

I figured I had upset their lives enough. "The La Salle Heights
shooting."

"Have you people lost your minds? You suspected us in the strafing of a
church?" His jaw dropped, and he fixed on me incredulously. "Do you
idiots have any idea what I do?"

My eyes fell on his pinstriped gray suit, his blue button-down-collar
shirt. I had the humiliating feeling I had just been made a fool of.

"I'm chief counsel for the Northern California chapter of the
Anti-Defamation League."

Chapter 21.

WE HAD BEEN made fools of by the killer. No one on the block knew
anything about or had any connection to the stolen van. It had been
dumped there, purposely, to show us up. Even as Clapper's CSU went over
it inch by inch, I knew it wouldn't yield shit. I studied the decal and
I was sure it was the same thing I had seen in Oakland. One head was a
lion's, one seemed to be a goat's, the tail suggested a reptile. But
what the hell did it mean?

"One thing we learned." Jacobi smirked. "The SOB's got a sense of
humor." "I'm glad you're a fan," I said.

Back at the Hall, I said to Lorraine, "I want to know where that van
came from; I want to know who it belonged to, who had access to it,
every contact the owner had a month prior to its theft."

I was fuming mad. We had a vicious killer out there but not a single
clue as to what made him tick. Was it a hate crime or a killing spree?
An organized group or a lone wolf?

We knew the guy was fairly intelligent. His strikes had been well
planned, and if irony was part of his plan, dumping the getaway car
where he had was a real beaut.

Karen buzzed in, informing me that Ron Vandervellen was on the line. The
Oakland cop came on chuckling. "Word is you managed to subdue a
dangerous threat to our society masquerading as a legal watchdog in the
Anti-Defamation League."

"I guess that makes our investigations about equal, Ron," I retorted.

"Relax, Lindsay, I didn't call to rub it in," he said, shifting his
tone. "Actually, I thought I would make your day."

"I won't argue, Ron. I could use anything about now. What do you have
for us?"

"You knew Estelle Chipman was a widow, right?"

"I think you mentioned that."

"Well, we were doing some standard background on her. We found a son in
Chicago. He's coming to claim the body. Given what's been going on, I
thought what he told us was too coincidental to ignore."

"What, Ron?"

"Her husband died five years ago. Heart attack. Want to guess what the
dude did for a living?"

I had the rising feeling Vandervellen was about to blow this thing wide
open.

"Estelle Chipman's husband was a San Francisco cop."

Chapter 22.

CINDY THOMAS parked her Mazda across from the La Salle Heights Church
and let out a long sigh. The church's white clapboard front had been
defaced by a pattern of ugly chinks and bullet holes. A gaping hole
where the beautiful stained-glass window had been was sealed with a
black canvas tarp.

She remembered seeing it the day the window was first unveiled, on her
old beat at the paper. The mayor, some local dignitaries, Aaron Winslow
all made speeches about how the beautiful scene had been paid for
through community work. A symbol. She remembered interviewing Winslow
and being impressed with his passion, and also his unexpected
humbleness.

Cindy ducked under the yellow police tape and stepped closer to the
bullet-ridden wall. On her job at the Chronicle, she'd been assigned to
other stories where people had died.

But this was the first one where she felt the human race had died a
little, too.

She was startled by a voice. "You can stare for as long as you want, but
it doesn't get any prettier."

Cindy spun and found herself facing a man with a smooth and very
handsome face. Kind eyes. She knew him. She nodded. "I was here when the
window was unveiled. It carried a lot of hope." "Still does," Winslow
said. "We didn't lose our hope. Don't worry about that." She smiled,
staring into his deep brown eyes.

"I'm Aaron Winslow," he said, shifting a stack of children's textbooks
to extend his hand.

"Cindy Thomas," she replied. His grip was warm and gentle.

"Don't tell me they've put our church as one of the scenic sights on the
Forty-nine Mile Drive." Winslow started to walk toward the rear of the
church, and she followed along.

"I'm not a tourist," Cindy said. "I just wanted to see this.

"Listen." She swallowed. "I'd like to pretend I just came by to pay my
respects ... which I did. But I'm also with the Chronicle. On the crime
desk."

"A reporter." Winslow exhaled. "It makes sense now. For years,
everything that really goes on here--tutoring, literacy training, a
nationally recognized choir--doesn't crank up a story. But one madman
acts, and now Nightline wants to do a town meeting. What do you want to
know Ms. Thomas? What does the Chronicle want?"

His words had stung her a little, but she kind of liked that.

He was right.

"Actually, I did a story here once before, when that window was
unveiled. It was a special day."

He stopped walking. He focused his eyes on her, then smiled. "It was a
special day. And actually, Ms. Thomas, I knew who you were when I walked
up. I remember you. You interviewed me back then."

Someone called Winslow's name from inside the church, and a woman came
out. She reminded him that he had an eleven o'clock meeting.

"So, have you seen all you came to see, Ms. Thomas? Should we expect you
back in another couple of years?"

"No. I want to know how you deal with this. This violence in the face of
all you've done, how the neighborhood feels about it."

Winslow let himself smile. "Let me clue you in on something. I don't
deal in innocence. I've spent too much time in the real world."

She remembered that Aaron Winslow wasn't someone whose faith had been
formed through a life of detachment.

He'd come up from the streets. He'd been an army chaplain.

Only days before, he'd put himself in the line of fire and possibly
saved lives.

"You came here to see how this neighborhood is responding to the attack?
Come see for yourself. Tasha Catchings is being memorialized tomorrow."

Chapter 23.

VANDERVELLEN'S STUNNING DISCLOSURE drummed in my head for the rest of
the day.

Both murder victims had been related to San Francisco cops.

It could add up to nothing. They could be two random and unrelated
victims. People in different cities, separated by sixty years.

Or it could mean everything.

I picked up the phone and called Claire. "I need a big favor," I said.

"Just how big?" I could feel her grin.

"I need you to take a look at the autopsy of that woman who was hung in
Oakland."

"I can do that. Send it over. I'll take a look."

"This is where it gets huge, Claire. It's still at the Oakland M. E.'s
office. It hasn't been released." I waited expectantly as she sighed.
"You must be kidding, Lindsay. You want me to stick my nose into an
investigation that's still in progress?"

"Listen, Claire, I know this isn't exactly procedure, but they've made
some pretty important assumptions that could determine this case."

"Want to tell me what type of assumptions I'd be stepping all over a
respected M. E.'s toes to review?"

"Claire, these cases are related. There's a pattern here. Estelle
Chipman was married to a cop. Tasha Catchings's uncle is a cop, too. My
whole investigation hinges on whether we're dealing with one killer.
Oakland believes there's a black man involved, Claire."

"A black man?" She gasped. "Why would a black want to do these things?"

"I don't know. But there's starting to be a lot of circumstantial
evidence linking both crimes. I have to know."

She hesitated. "Precisely what the hell would I be looking for?" I told
her about the skin specimens they had found under the victim's nails and
their M. E.'s conclusion.

"Teitleman's a good man," Claire responded. "I'd trust his findings like
I would my own.

"I know, Claire, but he's not you. Please. This is important."

"I want you to know," she shot back, "that if Art Teitleman asked to
poke his nose into one of my preliminary investigations, I'd have his
parking ticket stamped and politely tell him to go back to his side of
the bay. I wouldn't do this for anyone else, Lindsay." "I know that,
Claire," I said with a grateful tone. "Why do you think I've been
working this friendship all these years?"

Chapter 24.

LATE THAT AFTERNOON, I sat at my desk as one by one my staff called it
quits for the day. I couldn't leave with them.

My mind tried over an dover to put together the parts. Everything I had
was based on assumptions. Was the killer black or white? Was Claire
right, that Tasha Catchings was intentionally killed? But the lion
symbol had definitely been there. Link the victims, my instincts said.
There's a connection.

But what the hell is it?

I glanced at my watch and placed a call to Simone Clark in personnel,
catching her just as she was preparing to leave.

"Simone, I need you to pull a file for me tomorrow."

"Sure, whose do you need?"

"A cop who retired maybe eight, ten years ago. His name was Edward
Chipman."

"That's a while back. It would be out on the docks." The department
outsourced its old records to a document storage company. "Early
afternoon, okay?"

"Sure, Simone. Best you can do."

I was still bristling with nervous energy. I took out another stack of
Kirkwood's hate files and plopped them on my desk.

I opened one at random. Americans for Constitutional Action ... Ploughs
and Fifes, another hayseed militia group.

All these assholes, they seemed like such a bunch of right-wing
jerk-offs. Was I wasting my time? Nothing jumped out.

Nothing gave me any hope that this was the right track.

Go home, Lindsay, a voice urged. Tomorrow new leads might develop.
There's the van, Chipman's file. ... Call it a night. Take Martha for a
run.

Go home ... I stacked the files, about to give in, when the top one
caught my eye. The Templars. A Hells Angels offshoot out of Vallejo. The
original Templars were Christian knights from the Crusades. Immediately
I noticed the FBI's assessment of threat. Their rating was High.

I took the file off the pile and leafed further in. There was an FBI
report outlining a series of unsolved felonies the Templars had been
suspected of involvement in, bank robberies, hits for hire against
Latino and black gangs.

I leafed on, case files, prison records, surveillance photos of the
group. Suddenly, the breath emptied out of my lungs.

My eyes fixed on a surveillance shot: a bunch of heavy muscled,
tattoo-covered bikers huddled outside a Vallejo bar they used as a
headquarters. One of them hunched over his bike, back to the camera. He
had a shaved head, a bandanna, and a sleeveless denim jacket over
massive arms.

It was the embroidery on the back of the denim jacket that caught my
eye.

I was staring at a two-headed lion with the tail of a snake.

Chapter 25.

SOUTH OF MARKET, in a run-down warehouse section of the city a man in a
green windbreaker ducked along a shadowy curb. The killer.

This time of night, in this decrepit neighborhood, no one was around,
only a couple of scum-bums huddled over a blazing trash can. Abandoned
warehouses, daytime businesses with shorted-out electrical signs: CHECKS
CASHED TODAY ... METAL WORKS ... EARL KING, CITY'S MOST TRUSTED BAIL
BONDSMAN.

His eyes drifted across the street, toward Seventh, to the dilapidated
shell of an abandoned residential hotel: 303. He had carefully staked
the place out over the past three weeks.

Half the apartments were vacant, the other half the nightly resting
place for homeless bums with nowhere else to go.

Spitting onto the trash-littered street, he threw a black Adidas sport
bag over his shoulder and headed around the block onto Sixth and
Townsend. He crossed the dingy street toward a boarded-up warehouse
marked only by scratched-out sign: AGUELLO'S ... COMIDAS ESPANOL.

Making sure he was alone, the killer pushed in the paint-chipped metal
door, then he ducked inside. His heart was starting to pump pretty good
now. He was addicted to the feeling, actually.

A foul odor met him in the lobby, a fire trap that was littered with old
newspapers and oily corrugated boxes.

He hit the stairs, hoping not to run into any of the homeless scum
camped out in the halls.

He climbed all the way to five, where he quickly made his way to the end
of the hall. He pushed through a grating and stepped out onto the fire
escape. From there, it was only a quick flight up to the roof.

Up here, the desolate streets gave way to the luminous aura of the
city's skyline. His position was in the shadow of the Bay Bridge, which
loomed over him like a hulking ship.

He rested the black sport bag on an air-conditioning vent, unzipped it,
and carefully removed the parts of a customized PSG-1 sniper rifle.

At the church, I needed maximum saturation. Here I only get one shot.

As traffic rumbled over him on the Bay Bridge freeway, he screwed the
long barrel of the rifle to the shaft and locked it in place. Handling
guns was like handling a fork and knife to him. He could do this in his
sleep.

He fastened on the infrared sight. He squinted through it, amber-colored
shapes coming into focus.

He was so much smarter than them. While they were looking for white vans
and silly-ass symbols, he was here, about to blow the lid wide open.
Tonight, they would finally begin to understand.

His heart slowed as he aimed across the street, at the rear of the
transient hotel marked 303. On the fourth floor, a dimly lit apartment
shone through the window.

This was it. The moment of truth.

He calmed his breath to a whisper and licked his dry lips.

He aimed at a picture in his mind he had held for so long. He feathered
the sight.

Then, when it was just right, he squeezed.

Click ... This time he wouldn't even have to sign it. They'd know from
the shot. From the target.

Tomorrow, every person in San Francisco would know his name.

Chimera.

Part II.

JUSTICE WILL BE SERVED

Chapter 26.

I KNOCKED on Stu Kirkwood's glass office door, interrupting his morning
coffee and bagel. I tossed the surveillance shot of the biker wearing
the lion with the tail of a snake in front of him. "I need to know what
this is. I need it ASAP, Stu."

I followed the shot up with two other versions of the same image: the
decal on the rear of the white van and a Polaroid of the basement wall
where Estelle Chipman had been killed.

Lion, goat, tail of a snake or lizard.

Kirkwood stiffened. "I don't have any idea," he looked up and said.

"This is our killer, Stu. So how do we find him? I thought this was your
specialty."

"I told you, gay bashing's more my bag. We could e-mail the pictures to
Quantico."

"Okay." I nodded. "How long will it take?"

Kirkwood straightened up. "I know a chief researcher down there I took a
seminar with. Let me put in the call."

"Do it quick, Stu, then finish your bagel. And let me know as soon as
you get something back. The minute you hear something."

Upstairs, I nudged Jacobi and Cappy into my office. I slid Kirkwood's
Templar file and a copy of the biker photo across my desk. "You
recognize the artist, guys?"

Cappy studied the photo and glanced up. "You're thinking these dust
mites have something to do with the case?"

"I want to know where these guys are," I said. "And I want you to be
careful. This crew's been implicated in stuff that makes La Salle
Heights seem like a paintball outing. Weapons traffic, aggravated
violence, murder for hire. According to the file, they operate out of a
bar over in Vallejo called the Blue Parrot. I don't want you busting in
there like you're razzing a pimp down on Geary And remember, it's not
our jurisdiction." "We hear you, Loo," Cappy said. "No thumping. Just a
little R and R. It'll be nice to spend the day out of town." He picked
up the file and tapped Jacobi on the shoulder. "Your clubs in the
trunk?"

"Guys. Careful," I reminded them. "Our killer's a shooter."

After they left, I leafed through a handful of messages and opened the
morning Chronicle on my desk. There was a headline, with Cindy's
attribution, reading, "POLICE WIDEN CHURCH SHOOTING PROBE, OAKLAND
WOMAN'S DEATH THOUGHT TO BE BROUGHT IN."

Quoting "sources close to the investigation" and unnamed police
contacts," she outlined the possibility that we had widened our
investigation, citing the murder in Oakland. I had given her the green
light to go that far.

I speed-dialed Cindy. "This is Source Close to the Investigation
calling," I said.

"No way. You're Unnamed Contact. Source Close to the Investigation is
Jacobi."

"Oh, shit." I chuckled.

"I'm glad you have your sense of humor. Listen, I have something
important I need to show you. Are you going to Tasha Catchings's
funeral?"

I looked at my watch. It was scheduled in less than an hour. "Yeah. I'll
be there." "Look for me," Cindy said.

Chapter 27.

A BITING DRIZZLE was coming down as I arrived at the La Salle Heights
Church.

Hundreds of black-clad mourners were jammed into the bullet-scarred
church. A canvas was draped over the gaping hole where the stained-glass
window had been. It flapped like a somber flag whipped by the breeze.

Mayor Fernandez was there, along with other important faces I recognized
from city government. Vernon Jones, the activist, was stationed an arm's
length from the family. Chief Mercer was there, too. This little girl
was getting the biggest funeral the city had seen in years. It made her
death seem even sadder.

Standing in the rear of the chapel, in a short black suit, I spotted
Cindy. We both nodded as we caught each other's eye.

I took a seat near Mercer among a delegation from the department. Soon,
the famous La Salle Heights choir began a haunting rendition of "I'll
Fly Away." There is nothing more stirring than uplifting hymns
resonating through a filled church. I have my own private credo, and it
starts not far from what I've seen on the streets: Nothing in life ever
breaks down simply into good or bad, judgment or redemption. But when
the swell of voices lifted up the church, it didn't seem wrong to
privately ask for mercy to shine down on this innocent soul.

After the choir finished, Aaron Winslow stepped up to a microphone. He
looked very elegant in a black suit. He spoke about Tasha Catchings as
someone who had known her most of her life could: her little-girl's
giggle; the poise she showed being the youngest in the choir; how she
wanted to be a diva, or an architect who would rebuild this
neighborhood; how, now only the angels would get to hear her beautiful
voice.

He didn't speak like some gentle minister exhorting people to turn the
other cheek. He kept it hopeful, very emotional, but real. I couldn't
watch him without thinking that this handsome man had been on the
battlefields of Desert Storm, and that only the other day he had put his
life at risk to protect his children.

He said, his voice soft but powerful, that he could not forgive, and he
could not help but judge. "Only saints don't judge," he said, "and
believe me, I'm no saint. I'm like all of you, just someone who has
grown tired of having to make peace with injustice." He looked toward
Chief Mercer. "Find the killer. Let judgment be in the courts. This
isn't about politics, or faith, or even race. It's about the right to be
free from hate. I am convinced that the world doesn't break in the face
of its worst possible deed. The world mends itself."

People rose up, and they clapped and they cried. I stood with them. My
eyes were wet. Aaron Winslow brought such dignity to these proceedings.
It was over within an hour. No blazing sermons, only a smattering of
amens. But a sadness none of us would ever forget.

Tasha's mother looked so strong as she followed the casket out, her
young daughter being carried to her final rest.

I walked out to a chorus of "Will the Circle Be Unbroken," feeling numb,
and broken.

Chapter 28.

OUTSIDE, I WAITED FOR CINDY, and I watched Aaron Winslow mingle among
mourners and weeping schoolmates.

There was something about him I liked. He seemed genuine to me and he
definitely had a passion for his work, and these people.

"Now, there's a man I could share a foxhole with," said Cindy, coming up
to me.

"And just how do you mean that?" I asked.

"I'm not sure. All I can say is I came out here yesterday to talk with
him, and I left with the hairs on my arms standing up at attention. I
felt like I was interviewing Denzel Washington, or maybe that new guy on
NYPD Blue."

"You know, ministers aren't the same as priests," I said.

"Meaning what?"

"Meaning it's okay to go in foxholes with them. Just to get out of the
line of fire, of course."

"Of course." She nodded. Then she mimicked an exploding mortar shot,
"Pow!"

"He is impressive. His speech made me cry. Is that what you meant to
show me?" "No," she said with a sigh, coming back to the matter at hand.
She dug in her black shoulder bag and pulled out a folded piece of
paper. "I know you told me to butt out ... I guess I've just gotten used
to covering your ass.

"Right," I said. "So what do you have for me? We're a team, right?"

As I unfolded the paper, to my shock I found myself staring at the same
lion, goat, and snake rendering I had just given Kirkwood to identify.
Professional restraint couldn't keep my eyes from opening wide. "Where
did you get this?"

"You know what you're looking at, Lindsay."

"My guess is that it's not Tyco's new toy craze."

She didn't laugh. "What it is, is a hate group symbol.

A white supremacist thing. A colleague at the paper did research on
these groups. I couldn't help looking into it after our meeting the
other night. This is used by a small, elite group. That's why it was
hard to find out about."

I stared at the image that I had seen over an dover again since Tasha
Catchings had been killed. "This thing has a name, doesn't it?"

"It's called a chimera, Lindsay. It's from Greek mythology. According to
my source, the lion represents courage, the body of the goat
stubbornness and will, and the serpent's tail stealth and cunning. It
means that whatever you do to crush it, it will always prevail."

I stared at the symbol, the chimera, the bile roiling in my gut. "Not
this time."

"I haven't run with it," Cindy said. "But it's out there.

Everybody thinks these murders are connected. This symbol is the key,
right? Let me give you a second definition I found: ' grotesque product
of the imagination.' That fits, right?"

I found myself nodding. Back to square one. Hate groups.

Maybe even the Templars. Once Mercer found out, we'd be busting the
doors down on every hate group we could find.

But how the hell could the killer be black? It didn't make sense to me.

"You're not mad at me, are you?" Cindy asked.

I shook my head. "Of course I'm not mad" So that source of yours, did he
tell you just how they killed this chimera back then?" "He said they
called in some big hero who rode a winged horse and cut off its head.
Nice to have dudes, or dudesses, like that around in a pinch, huh?" She
looked at me seriously. "You have a winged horse, Lindsay?"

"No." I shook my head again. "I've got a Border collie."

Chapter 29.

CLAIRE MET ME in the lobby of the Hall just as I returned with a salad.
"Where you heading?" I asked.

She kept my eye coyly dressed in an attractive purple coat-dress, a Tumi
leather briefcase slung over her shoulder.

"Actually I was coming to see you.

Claire had a look on her face that I had learned to recognize. You
wouldn't call it smugness or self-importance; Claire didn't run that
way. It was more of a twinkle that read, I found something. Or more
like, Sometimes I even amaze myself.

"You had lunch?" I asked.

She snickered. "Lunch? Who has time for lunch? Since ten-thirty I've
been under a microscope across the bay covering for you." She peeked
into my bag and caught a glimpse of my curried-chicken salad. "That
looks tempting."

I pulled it back. "That depends. On what you came up with."

She pushed me into the elevator.

"I had to promise Teitleman parterre box seats to the symphony to calm
him down," Claire said as we got to my office.

"You can consider it Edmund's treat." Edmund was her husband, who for
the past six years had played kettle drums for the San Francisco
Symphony.

"I'll send him a note," I said as we sat around my desk.

"Maybe I can get Giants tickets." I set out my lunch.

"You mind?" she asked, dangling a plastic fork over the salad. "Saving
your ass is tiring work." I pulled the container away. "Like I said.
Depends on what you have."

Without hesitating, Claire speared a piece of chicken.

"Didn't make sense, did it, why a black man would be acting out hate
crimes against his own race?"

"All right," I said, pushing the container her way.

"What did you find out?"

She nodded. "Mostly it was pretty much like you told me. None of the
normal abrasions or lacerations you would connect with forced
submission. But then there were those unusual dermal specimens from
under the subject's nails. So we scoped it. They did reveal a
hyperpigmented skin type. As the report said, 'normally consistent with
a non-Caucasian." Samples are out being histopathologied as we speak."

"So what are you saying?" I pressed. "The person who killed that woman
was black?"

Claire leaned over, lifting the last piece of chicken out from under my
fork. "At first blush, I could see how someone might feel that way. If
not African American, a dark Latino, or Asian. Teitleman was inclined to
agree, until I asked him to perform one last test.

"I ever tell you," she mooned her wide brown eyes - "I did my residency
at Moffitt in dermapathology?"

"Claire." I found myself shaking my head and smiling.

She was so good at what she did.

She shrugged. "huh? I don't know how we overlooked that. Anyway,
basically, what a lab is going to be looking for is whether that
hyperpigmentation is intracellular, as in melanocytes, which are the
dark, pigmented cells that are much more concentrated in non-Caucasians,
or intercellular ... in the tissue, more on the surface of the skin."

"English, Claire. Is the subject white or black?"

"Melanocytes," she continued as if I hadn't asked, "are the dark skin
cells concentrated in people of color." She pushed up her sleeve.
"You're looking at Melanocyte Central here. Trouble is, the sampling
found under the Chipman lady's nails didn't have a one. All that pigment
was intercellular - surface coloration. On top of that, it was a bluish
hue, atypical for naturally occurring melanin. Any self-respecting
dermapathologist would've caught that."

"Caught what, Claire?" I asked, fixing on her smug grin.

"Caught that it wasn't a black man who did that terrible thing," she
said emphatically, "but a white man with some topical pigmentation. Ink,
Lindsay.

What that poor woman dug her nails into was the killer's tattoo."

Chapter 30.

AFTER CLAIRE LEFT, I was buoyed by her discovery.

This was good stuff. Karen knocked and handed me a manila folder. "From
Simone Clark." It was the file from personnel I had requested. Edward R.
Chipman.

I slid the file out of the envelope and began to read.

Chipman had been a career street patrolman out of Central who retired in
1994 with the rank of sergeant. He had twice received a Captain's
Commendation for bravery on the job.

I stopped at his photo. A narrow chiseled face with one of those bushy
Afros popular in the sixties. It was probably taken the day he joined
the force. I looked through the rest of the contents. What would make
someone want to kill this man's widow? There wasn't a single censure on
his record.

For excessive force or anything else. In his thirty-year career, the
officer never fired his gun. He was part of the Police Outreach Unit in
the Potrero Hill projects and a member of a minority action group called
the Officers for Justice, which lobbied for and promoted the interests
of black officers.

Chipman, like most cops, had one of those proud, uneventful careers,
never in trouble, never under review never in the public's eye. Nothing
in there drew the slightest connection to Tasha Catchings or to her
uncle, Kevin Smith.

Had I read more into the whole thing than was there? Was this even a
serial thing? My antennae were crackling. I know there's something.
C'mon, Lindsay.

Suddenly I was hammered back to reality by Lorraine Stafford knocking at
my door. "You got a minute, Lieutenant?" I asked her in. The stolen
vehicle, she informed me, belonged to a Ronald Stasic. He taught
anthropology at a community college down in Mountain View. "Apparently
the van was stolen from the parking lot outside where he works. The
reason it was late being reported missing was that he went to Seattle
for a night. Job interview."

"Who knew he was going to be away?"

She flipped through her notes. "His wife. The college administrator. He
teaches two classes at the college and tutors students from other
schools in the area.

"Any of these students show an interest in his van or in where he
parked?"

She snickered. "He said half these kids come to class in BMWs and Saabs.
Why would they be interested in a six-year-old van?"

"What about that sticker on the back?" I had no idea if Stasic had
anything to do with these killings, but his van did have the same symbol
on it that had turned up in the Oakland basement.

Lorraine shrugged. "Said he never saw it before. I said I'd check his
story and asked if he'd take a lie detector on that. He told me to go
right ahead."

"You better check if any of his friends, or his students, have any weird
political leanings."

Lorraine nodded. "I will, but this guy's totally legit, Lindsay. He
acted like he was jerked out of his skin."

As the afternoon wound down, I had the shaky feeling we were nowhere on
this case. I was sure it was a serial, but maybe our best chance was
this guy with the chimera embroidered on his jacket.

My phone rang, startling me. It was Jacobi. "Bad information, L.T. We've
been outside this damned Blue Parrot place all day. Nothing. So we
managed to find out from the bartender the dudes you're looking for are
history. They split, five, six months ago. Toughest guy we've seen was
some weight lifter wearing a ' Rules' T-shirt."

"What do you mean by split, Warren?"

"Vamoose, moved on. Somewhere south. According to the dude, one or two
guys who used to hang around with them still come in from time to time.
Some big redheaded dude. But basically they hit the road.
Permanent-mente."

"Keep on it. Find me the redheaded dude." Now that the van led nowhere
and I had no connection between the victims, that lion-and-snake symbol
was all we had.

"Keep on it?" Jacobi whined. "How long? We could be out here for days!"
"I'll send out a change of underwear," I said, and hung up.

For a while I just sat there, rocking back in my chair with a mounting
feeling of dread. It had been three days since Tasha Catchings was
killed, and three days before that, Estelle Chipman.

I had nothing. No significant clues. Only what the killer had left us.
This damned chimera.

And the knowledge ... serials kill. Serials don't stop until you catch
them.

Chapter 31.

PATROLMAN SERGEANT ART DAVIDSON responded to the 1-6-0 the minute he
heard the call. "Disturbance, domestic violence. Three oh three Seventh
Street, upstairs. Available units respond."

He and his partner, Gil Herrera, were only four blocks away on Bryant.
It was almost eight; their shift was over in ten minutes.

"You want to take it, Gil?" said Davidson, glancing at his watch.

His partner shrugged. "Your call, Artie. You're the one with the wild
party to go to."

Some wild party. It was his seven-year-old's birthday.

Audra. He had called in on break, and Carol had said if he got home by
nine-thirty she'd keep her up for him so that he could give her the
Britney Spears makeup mirror he had picked out. Davidson had five kids,
and they were his life.

"What the hell." Davidson shrugged. "It's what we get paid the big bucks
for, right?"

They hit the siren, and in less than a minute, Mobile 2-4 pulled up in
front of the dismal and dilapidated entrance to 303 Seventh, the tilted
sign of the defunct Driscoll Hotel hanging over the front door.

"People still camping out in this dump?" Herrera sighed.

"Who the hell would live here?"

The two cops grabbed their nightsticks and a large flashlight, and
stepped up to the front door. Davidson pulled it open. Inside, the place
smelled of feces, urine, probably rats.

"Hey, anybody here?" Davidson called out. "Police."

Suddenly, from above, they heard the sound of shouting.

Some kind of argument.

"On it," Herrera said, bounding up the first flight.

Davidson followed.

On the second floor, Gil Herrera went down the hall, banging his
flashlight on doors. "Police, police."

In the stairwell, Davidson suddenly heard the sounds again - loud,
frantic voices. A crash, as if something had broken. The noise came from
over his head. He headed up two flights of stairs on his own.

The noises grew even louder. He stopped in front of a shut door.
Apartment 42. "Bitch ... " someone yelled. The sound of a plate
shattering. A woman seemed to beg, "Stop him, he's going to kill me.
Stop him, please ... Somebody help me. Please."

"Police," Art Davidson responded, and drew his gun. He yelled, "Herrera,
up here. Now!"

He threw all his weight against the door. It opened. The inside was
dimly lit, but from an interior room, more light and the arguing voices
... closer ... screaming.

Art Davidson clicked his gun off safety. Then he barged through the open
door into the room. To his amazement, no one was in there.

There was dim yellow light angling from an exposed bulb.

A metal chair with a large boom box on it. Loud voices coming from the
speakers.

The words were the same ones he'd heard earlier. "Stop him, he's going
to kill me!"

"What the hell?" Davidson squinted in disbelief.

He walked over to the stereo, knelt down, and turned off the power. The
loud, blaring argument came to a halt.

"What the fuck ...?" Davidson muttered. "Somebody playing games."

He looked around. The pitiful room looked as if it hadn't been occupied
in a while. His eyes were drawn to the window, then beyond it, across an
alley to a facing building. He thought he saw something. What was it?

Ping ... His eye caught the tiniest pinprick of a yellow spark, so quick
it was like the snap of a finger, the blink of a firefly on a dark
night.

Then the window splintered and a blunt force slammed into Art Davidson's
right eye. He was dead before he hit the floor.

Chapter 32.

I HAD JUST ABOUT GOTTEN HOME when the distress call crackled in:
"Available units, proceed to three oh three Seventh, near Townsend."

1-0-6 ... officer in trouble.

I pulled my Explorer to the curb. Listened to the call.

EMS's to the scene, the district captain called in. The quick, urgent
exchanges convinced me the situation was critical.

The hairs on my arms were standing up. It was an ambush, a long-distance
shot. Like La Salle Heights. I threw my car in gear and executed a quick
U-turn down Potrero, slamming onto Third Street and heading for
downtown.

When I pulled up four blocks from Townsend and Seventh, bedlam reigned.
Barricades of blue-and-whites, flashing lights, uniforms everywhere,
radios crackling in the night.

I drove ahead, holding my police ID out the window; until I couldn't go
any farther. Then I left my car and ran toward the center of the
commotion. I grabbed the first patrolman I could find. "Who is it? Do
you know?"

"Patrol cop," he said. "Out of Central. Davidson."

"Oh, shit ... " My heart sank. I felt nauseated. I knew Art Davidson. We
had gone through the academy at the same time. He was a good cop, a good
guy. Did it mean anything that I knew him?

Then a second wave of fear and nausea. Art Davidson was black.

I pushed my way through the crowd toward a run-down tenement where a
ring of EMS trucks were parked. I ran into Chief of Detectives Sam Ryan
coming out of the building, holding a radio to his ear.

I pulled him aside, "Sam, I heard it was Art Davidson. Any chance ...?"

Ryan shook his head. "Chance? He was lured here, Lindsay. Rifle shot to
the head. Single shot, we think. He's already been pronounced."

I stood to the side, a whirring wail growing louder and louder inside my
skull, as if some private, unknowable fear had revealed itself only to
me. I was sure it was him.

Chimera. Murder number three. He only needed one shot this time.

I brandished my badge to the uniformed cops at the entrance and hurried
into the run-down building. Some EMS techs were coming down the stairs.
I kept going past them.

My legs felt heavy and I could hardly breathe.

On the third-floor landing, a uniformed cop barreled past me, shouting,
"Coming down. Everybody get out of the way."

A couple of medical techs appeared - and two more cops carrying a
gurney. I couldn't turn my head away.

"Hold it here," I said.

It was Davidson. His eyes still and open. A crimson dime-sized peephole
above his right eye. Every nerve in my body seemed to go slack. I
remembered that he had children. Did these murders have something to do
with kids?

"Oh, Jesus, Art," I whispered. I forced myself to study his body, the
bullet wound. I finally touched the side of his forehead. "You can take
him down now," I said. Fuck.

I made my way to the next floor somehow. A crowd of angry
plainclothesmen was gathered outside an open apartment. I saw Pete
Starcher, an ex-homicide detective who worked with IAB, coming out.

I went up to him. "Pete, what the hell happened?"

Starcher had always had an edge for me. He was one of those cynical
old-timers. - "You got business here, Lieutenant?"

"I knew Art Davidson. We went through school together."

I didn't want to give him any inkling of why I was here.

Starcher sniffed, but he filled me in. The two patrolmen were responding
to a 911 in the building. There was only this tape recorder there. It
was all set up, orchestrated. "He was suckered. Some sonofabitch wanted
to kill a cop."

My body grew numb. I was sure it was him. "I'm going to look around."
Inside, it was just like Starcher had said. Spooky, weird, unreal. The
living room was empty. Walls stripped of paint, and cracks in the
plaster. As I wandered into the adjoining room, I froze. There was a
pool of blood soaked into the floor; blood had splattered on the wall
where the bullet had probably lodged. Poor Davidson. A portable tape
deck sat on a folding chair in the center of the room.

I looked to the window, a hanging pane of splintered glass.

Suddenly everything was clear to me. There was a cold spot at the center
of my chest.

I went to the open window. I leaned out, looked across the street. There
was no sign of Chimera, or anybody But I knew ... I knew because he had
told me - the shot, the victim. He wanted us to know it was him.

Chapter 33.

"IT WAS HIM, LINDSAY, WASN'T IT?"

Cindy was on the phone. It was after eleven. I was trying to pull my
wits together at the end of an insane, horrible night. I had just come
in from taking Martha on a late walk.

All I wanted was to take a hot shower and wash the image of Art
Davidson's body out of my mind.

"You have to tell me. It was the same guy. Chimera. Wasn't it?"

I threw myself onto my bed. "We don't know. There was nothing at the
scene."

"You know, Lindsay. I know you know. We both know it was him."

I just wanted her to let me be and curl up in my bed. "I don't know," I
said wearily. "It could be."

"What caliber was the gun? Did it match Catchings?"

"Please, Cindy, don't try to play detective on me. I knew the guy. His
partner said it was his kid's seventh birthday. He had five children."

"I'm sorry, Lindsay," Cindy finally came back in a softer, gentler
voice. "It's just that it's like the first murder, Lindsay. The shot
that no one else could make."

We sat awhile on the phone without talking. She was right. I knew she
was right. Then Cindy said, "You've got another one, don't you,
Lindsay?"

I didn't answer, but I knew what she meant.

"Another pattern killer. A cold-blooded marksman. And he's targeting
blacks."

"Not just blacks." I sighed.

"Not just blacks ...?" Cindy hesitated, then she came back in a rush.
"The Oakland crime reporter got a rumor out of Homicide there. About the
Chipman widow. Her husband was a cop. First Tasha's uncle. Then her. Now
Davidson makes three. Oh, Jesus, Lindsay."

"This stays with us," I insisted. "Please, Cindy, I need to sleep now.
You don't realize how hard this is for us."

"Let us help, Lindsay. All of us. We want to help you."

"I will, Cindy. I need your help. I need all of your help."

Chapter 34.

I THOUGHT OF SOMETHING during the night. The killer had called 911.

I got right on it in the morning. Lila Mckendree ran Dispatch. She had
been on the board when the Davidson call came in.

Lila was plump, rosy cheeked, and quick to smile, but no one was more
professional, and she could coolly juggle serious situations like an
air-traffic controller.

She set up the tape of the actual 911 call in the squad room. The entire
detail huddled around. Cappy and Jacobi had come in before heading back
out to Vallejo.

"It's on a three-loop reel," Lila explained. She pressed the playback
key.

In a few seconds, we were going to hear the killer's voice for the first
time.

"San Francisco Police, nine one one hotline," a dispatcher's voice said.

There wasn't another sound in the squad room.

An agitated male voice shot back, "I need to call in a disturbance ...
Some guy's doing an O.J. on his wife."

"Okay ... " the operator replied. "I'll need to start with your
location. Where is this disturbance taking place?"

There was an interfering background noise like a TV or traffic, making
it difficult to hear. "Three oh three Seventh. Fourth floor. You better
send someone out. It's starting to sound real bad."

"You said the address was three oh three Seventh?"

"That's right," the killer said.

"And who am I speaking with?" the operator asked.

"My name's Billy. Billy Reffon. I live down the hall. You better hurry."

We all looked around, surprised. The killer gave a name?

Jesus.

"Listen, sir," the dispatcher asked, "are you able to hear what's going
on as I'm talking to you?" "What I can hear," he said, "is some spook
getting the living shit beat out of her."

The dispatcher hesitated. "Yes, sir. Can you determine if there's been
any physical injury so far?"

"I'm no doctor, lady I'm just trying to do the right thing. Just send
someone!"

"Okay Mr. Reffon, I'm calling a patrol car now. What I want you to do is
exit the building and wait for the officers. They're on the way."

"You better move quick," the killer said. "Sounds like someone's about
to get hurt."

After the transmission ended, there was the follow-up recording of the
outgoing dispatch call.

"The call came from a mobile phone," Lila said, shrugging her broad
shoulders. "No doubt cloned. Here, it's starting up again on a
three-cycle loop." In a moment the tape came on a second time. This
time, I listened closely for what the voice could tell me.

I need to call in a disturbance ... It was a worried voice, panicked but
cool.

"The guy's a good fucking actor," Jacobi huffed.

My name's Billy Billy ...... I clenched the edges of my wooden chair as
I listened to the dispatcher's well-intended instructions. "Exit the
building and wait for the officers. They're on the way."

All the while, he was sitting behind a rifle scope, waiting for his prey
to show up.

You better move quick, he said. Someone's about to get hurt.

We listened to the recording one more time.

This time, I heard the mocking indifference in his voice.

Not even the slightest tone of compunction for what he was about to do.
In the last warning, I even detected a hint of a cold chuckle: Quick ...
Someone's about to get hurt.

"That's all I have," Lila Mckendree said. "The killer's voice."

Chapter 35.

THE DAVIDSON MURDER changed everything.

A bold headline in the Chronicle shouted, MURDERED COP THOUGHT TO BE
THIRD IN TERROR SPREE." The front-page article, with Cindy's byline,
cited the accurate, long-range rifle shots and also the symbol used by
active hate groups that had been found at the scenes.

I headed down to the CSU lab and found Charlie Clapper curled up behind
a metal desk, wearing a lab coat, munching on a breakfast of Doritos
chips. His salt-and-pepper hair was oily and tousled, and his eyes
sagged like heavy bags. "I've slept at this desk twice this week." He
scowled. "Doesn't anyone get killed during the day anymore?"

"In case you didn't notice, I haven't been getting my normal beauty rest
the last week either." I shrugged. "C'mon, Charlie, I need something on
this Davidson thing. He's killing our own guys.

"I know he is." The rotund CSU man sighed. He hoisted himself up and
shuffled over to a counter. He picked up a small zip-lock sandwich bag
with a dark, flattened bullet in it.

"Here's your slug, Lindsay. Took it out of the wall behind where Art
Davidson got dropped. One shot. Lights out. Check with Claire if you
like. The sonofabitch can definitely shoot."

I lifted up the shell and tried to pull a reading.

"Forty caliber," Clapper said. "My first read is that it's from a
PSG-One."

I frowned. "You're sure about this, Charlie?" Tasha Catchings had been
killed with an M16.

He pointed toward a scope. "Be my guest, Lieutenant. I figure ballistics
must be a lifelong study of yours.

"I didn't mean that, Charlie. I was just hoping for a match on the
Catchings girl."

"Reese is still working on it," he said, grabbing a chip out of the
Doritos bag. "But don't bet on it. This guy was clean, Lindsay. Just
like at the church. No prints, nothing left behind. The tape machine's
standard, could've been bought anywhere. Set off by a long-distance
remote control. We even traced what we thought to be his route up there
through the building and dusted everything from the railings to the
window locks. We did turn up one thing ... " "What's that?" I .

He walked me over to a lab counter. "Partial sneaker print. Off the tar
on the roof where the shots came from. Looks like a standard shoe. But
we did take out some traces of a fine white powder. No guarantees it
even came from him."

Powder?"

"Charlie," Charlie said. "That narrows it down to about fifty million
possibilities. If this guy's signing his pictures, Lindsay, he's making
it tough to find." "He signed it, Charlie," I said with conviction. "It
was the shot."

"We're sending the nine-one-one tape out for a voice reading. I'll let
you know when we get it back."

I patted him appreciatively. "Get some sleep, Charlie."

He lifted the Doritos bag. "Sure, I will. After breakfast."

Chapter 36.

I WENT BACK to the office and sank disappointedly back behind my desk. I
had to know more about that chimera.

I was about to dial Stu Kirkwood at the hate crimes desk when a cadre of
three men in dark suits came into the squad room.

One of them was Mercer. No surprise. He had been on the morning talk
shows, pushing for calm. I knew facing tough questions without concrete
results didn't sit well with him.

But the other, accompanied by his press liaison, was a man I had never
seen on the floor in seven years in Homicide.

It was the mayor of San Francisco.

"I don't want the slightest bit of bullshit," Art Fernandez, San
Francisco's two-term mayor, said. "I don't want the standard protecting
the ranks, and I don't want any misplaced reflex to control the
situation." He shifted his eyes on a narrow track between Mercer and me.
"What I want is an honest answer. Do we have a read on this situation?"

We were crammed into my tiny glass-enclosed office.

Outside, I could see staffers standing around, watching the circus.

I fumbled under my desk to get my pumps back on. "We do not," I
admitted.

"So Vernon Jones is right." The mayor exhaled, sinking into a chair
across from my desk. "What we have is an out-of-control spree of
hate-driven killings on which the police have no handle, but the FBI
may."

"that's not it," I replied.

"That's not it?" he arched his eyebrows. He looked at Mercer and
frowned. "What is it I don't understand?

"You've got a recognized hate group symbol, this chimera, at two of the
three crime scenes. Our own M.E. believes the Catchings girl was the
intended target of this madman."

"What the lieutenant is saying," Mercer cut in, "is that this may not be
simply a hate crime issue."

My mouth was a little cottony, and I swallowed. "I think it's deeper
than a hate crime spree."

"Deeper, Lieutenant Boxer? Just what is it you believe we have?"

I stared straight at Fernandez. "What I think we have is someone with a
personal vendetta. Possibly a single assailant. He's couching his
murders in the MO of a hate crime."

"A vendetta, you say," Carr, the mayor's man, chimed in.

"A vendetta against blacks, but not a hate crime. Against black children
and widows ... but not a hate crime?" "Against black cops," I said.

The mayor's eyes narrowed. "Go on." I explained that Tasha Catchings and
Estelle Chipman had been related to cops. "There has to be some further
relationship, though we don't know what it is yet. The killer is
organized, haughty, in the way he's leaving his clues." I do not believe
a hate crime killer would leave their mark on the hits. The getaway van,
the little drawing in Chipman's basement, that cocky nine-one-one tape.
I don't think this is a hate crime spree. It's a vendetta - calculated,
personal."

The mayor looked at Mercer. "You go along with this, Earl?"

"Protecting the ranks aside ... " Mercer smiled tightly.

"I do."

"Well, I don't," Carr said. "Everything points to a hate crime."

There was silence in the cramped room; the temperature suddenly felt
like 120 degrees.

"So it seems I have two choices," the mayor said. "Under the Hate Crimes
Legislation, Article Four, I can call in the FBI, who, I believe, keep a
close watch on these groups."

"They have no fucking idea how to run a homicide investigation," Mercer
protested.

"Or ... I can let the lieutenant do her job. Tell the Feds we got it all
handled ourselves," the mayor said.

I met his eyes. "I went to the academy with Art Davidson. You think you
want to catch his killer any more than I do?" "Then catch him," the
mayor said and rose. "Just so we know what's at stake," he added.

I was nodding glumly when Lorraine burst through my door. "Sorry to
interrupt, Lieutenant, but it's urgent. Jacobi called in from Vallejo.
He said make the place up nice and neat for an important guest. They
found the biker from the Blue Parrot.

"They found Red."

Chapter 37.

ABOUT AN HOUR LATER, Jacobi and Cappy entered the squad room. They were
pushing a large redheaded biker type, his hands cuffed behind his back.

"Look who decided to drop in." Jacobi smirked.

Red jerked his arms defiantly out of Cappy's grip as the policeman
shoved him into Interrogation Room 1, where he tripped over a wooden
chair and crashed to the floor.

"Sorry, big fella." Cappy shrugged. "Thought I warned you about that
first step."

"Richard Earl Evans," Jacobi announced. "AKA Red, Boomer, Duke. Don't
feel insulted if he doesn't stand up and shake hands." "This is what you
thought I meant by no contact?" I said, looking cross but inside
delighted that they had brought him in.

"The guy's got a CCI sheet so long it begins with ' me Ishmael.'" Jacobi
grinned. "Theft, aggravated mischief, attempted murder, two weapons
charges."

"Behold," exclaimed Cappy, producing a dime bag of marijuana, a
five-inch hunter's blade, and a palm-sized Beretta .22-caliber pistol
out of a Nordstrom's shopping bag.

"He know why he's here?" I asked.

"Nah," Cappy grunted. "We busted him on the gun charge. Let him cool his
jets in the backseat."

The three of us crowded into the small interrogation room facing Richard
Earl Evans. The creep leered up at us with a smug grin, sleeves of
tattoos covering both arms. He wore a black T-shirt with block letters
on the back: "If You Can Read This ... the Bitch Must've Fallen Off!"

I nodded, and Cappy freed him from the cuffs. "You know why you're here,
Mr. Evans?"

"I know you guys are in deep shit if you think I'm talking to you."
Evans sniffed a mixture of mucus and blood. "You got no teeth in
Vallejo."

I raised the bag of dope. "Santa seems to have brought you a lot of
naughty toys. Two felonies ... still on parole for a weapons charge.
Time at Folsom, Quentin. My sense is you must like it there, ' next time
up, you qualify for the thirty-year lease."

"One thing I do know," - Evans rolled his eyes - "is you didn't drag me
all this way for some two-bit weapons rap. The sign on the door says
Homicide."

"No, big fella, you're right," Cappy injected. "Tossing your sorry ass
in jail on a gun charge is only a hobby for us. But depending on how you
answer a few questions, that weapons rap could determine where you spend
the next thirty years."

"Pupshit," the biker grunted, leveling his cold, hard eyes in his face.
"That's all you assholes got on me.

Cappy shrugged, then brought the flat end of an unopened soda can down
hard on the biker's hand.

Evans yelped in pain.

"Damn, I thought you said you were thirsty," Cappy said contritely.

Red leered at Cappy, no doubt imagining running over the cop's face with
his bike.

"But you're right, Mr. Evans," I said. "We didn't ask you down here to
go over your current possessions, though it wouldn't take much to hand
your sorry ass right over to the Vallejo police. But today could work
out lucky for you. Cappy, ask Mr. Evans if he'd like another drink."

Cappy feinted, and Evans jerked his hand off the table.

Then the big cop opened the can and placed it in front of him, grinning
widely. "This all right, or would you prefer a glass?"

"See," I assured him, "we can be nice. Truth is, we don't give a shit
about you. All you have to do is answer a few questions and you'll be
headed home, compliments of the SFPD. You never have to see us again. Or
we can lock your three-time-loser ass on the tenth floor for a few days
until we remember we got you here and notify the Vallejo police. And,
when it comes to a third felony offense, we'll see about just how much
teeth we really have."

Evans ran his hand across the bridge of his nose, dabbing at the blood.
"Maybe I will take a swig of that soda, if you're still offering."
"Congratulations, son," Jacobi said. "That's the first thing you've done
that makes sense since we set eyes on you."

Chapter 38.

I LAID OUT A BLACK-AND-WHITE surveillance photo of the Templars in front
of Red's startled face. "First thing we need to know is where can we
find your buddies?"

Evans looked up grinning. "So that's what this is all about?"

"C'mon, sharp-as-nails," pressed Jacobi," the lieutenant asked a
question."

One by one, I spread on the table three more photos showing various
members.

Evans shook his head. "Never ran with those guys."

The last photo I put down was a surveillance shot of him.

Cappy reached out, all two hundred fifty pounds of him, and raised the
biker by the shirt, lifting him out of his seat.

"Listen, codshit, you're only lucky we're not concerned here with what
you sorry bunch of losers got off doing. So act smart and you'll be
outta here, and we can go on to what we do give a shit about."

Evans shrugged. "Maybe I did run a bit with them. But no more. Club's
disbanded. Too much heat. I ain't seen these guys around here in months.
They split. You wanna find them, start with Five South."

I looked at the two inspectors. As much as I doubted whether Evans would
actually turn over on his buddies, I believed him.

"One more question," I said. "A big one." I laid down the photo of the
biker with the chimera jacket. "What does this mean to you?"

Evans sniffed. "The dude's got bogus taste in attire?"

Cappy leaned forward.

Evans recoiled. "It's a symbol, man. Means he's in the movement. A
patriot." "A patriot?" I asked him. "What the hell is that supposed to
mean?"

"An advocate of the white race, the self-determination of a free and
orderly society." He smiled at Cappy "Present company excluded, of
course. Course, none of this shit necessarily reflects my personal
views."

"Did this guy head off to the Sun belt, too?" Jacobi asked.

"Him? Why? What do you think he's done?"

"There he goes" - Cappy stood over him - "answering questions with
questions again."

"Look." Evans swallowed. "The brother only hung with us a short while. I
don't even know his real name. Mac. Mcmillan, Mcarthur? What'd he do?"

I figured there was no reason not to tell him what we thought. "What's
the word about what happened in La Salle Heights?"

Red finally flinched. His pupils widened. All of a sudden, it was
falling into place. "You think my old dudes lit up that church? This guy
... Mac?"

"You know how we could talk to him?" I said.

Evans grinned. "That's a tough order. Even for you." "Try us," I said.
"We're resourceful."

"I'm sure you are, but this fucker's dead. Back in June. He and a
partner blew themselves up, in Oregon. Sonofabitch must've read
somewhere you could turn cowshit into a bomb."

Chapter 39.

IN THE SMALL BLACKTOP PARKING LOT adjacent to the La Salle Heights
Church, Cindy Thomas climbed out of her Mazda. Her stomach growled,
telling her that it didn't quite know what she was doing here.

She took a breath and opened the large oak door into the main chapel.
Just yesterday it had been filled with the choir's resonating sound. Now
it was eerily quiet, the pews empty. She walked through the chapel and
into a connecting building.

A carpeted hallway led to a row of offices. A black woman, glancing up
from a copy machine, asked, "Can I help you? What do you want?"

"I'm here to see Reverend Winslow."

"He's not seeing visitors now" the woman said.

Winslow's voice rang out from one of the offices.

"It's all right" Carol."

Cindy was led to his office. It was small, crowded with books. He was
wearing a black T-shirt and khakis, and didn't look like any minister
she'd ever known.

"we managed to get you back after all," he said. Then finally, he
smiled.

He had her take a seat on a small couch and he sat in a well-worn red
leather chair. A pair of glasses was resting on a book nearby, and she
instinctively sneaked a peek. A Heart-breaking Work of Staggering
Genius. Not what she would have expected.

"You mending?" she asked.

"Trying to. I read your story today It was terrible about that
policeman. It's true? Tasha's murder might be tied up with two others?"

"The police think so," Cindy answered. "The M.E. believes she was
deliberately shot."

Winslow grimaced and then shook his head. "I don't understand. Tasha was
just a little girl. What possible connection could there be?"

"It wasn't so much Tasha" - Cindy held eye contact with Aaron Winslow -
"as what she represented. All the victims apparently have a link to San
Francisco cops.

Winslow's eyes narrowed. "So tell me, what brings you back so soon? Your
soul aching? Why are you here?"

Cindy lowered her eyes. "The service yesterday It was moving. I felt
chills. It's been a long time for me. Actually, I think my soul has been
aching. I just haven't bothered to notice."

Winslow's look softened. She'd told him a small truth, and it had
touched him. "Well, good. I'm glad to hear you were moved."

Cindy smiled. Incredibly, he made her feel at ease. He seemed centered,
genuine, and she'd heard nothing but good things about him. She wanted
to do a story on him, and she knew it would be a good one, maybe a great
story.

"I bet I know what you're thinking," Aaron Winslow said.

"Okay." she said, "shoot."

"You're wondering ... the man seems together enough, not completely
weirded out. He doesn't seem like a minister. So what is he doing making
his living working like this?"

Cindy flashed an embarrassed smile. "I admit, something like that did
cross my mind. I'd like to do a story about you and the Bay View
neighborhood."

He seemed to be thinking it over. But then he changed the subject on
her.

"What is it you like to do, Cindy?"

"Do?"

"In the big, bad world of San Francisco you cover out there. After you
call in your story. What moves you besides your job at the Chronicle?
What are your passions?"

She found herself smiling. "Hey, I ask the questions. I want to do a
story on you. Not the other way around," she said. "All right. I like
yoga. I take a class twice a week on Chestnut Street. You ever do yoga?"

"No, but I meditate every day." Cindy smiled some more. She wasn't even
sure why.

"I'm in a women's book club. Two women's clubs, actually. I like jazz."

Winslow's eyes lit. "What kind of jazz? I like jazz myself."

Cindy laughed. "Okay, now we're getting somewhere. What kind of jazz do
you like?"

"Progressive. Interpretive. Anything from Pine-top Perkins to Coltrane."

"You know the Blue Door? On Geary?" she asked.

"Of course I know the Blue Door. I go there Saturday nights, whenever
Carlos Reyes is in town. Maybe we could go sometime. As part of your
story. You don't have to answer right now." "Then you agree to let me do
a piece on you?" Cindy said.

"I agree ... to let you do a piece on the neighborhood. I'll help you
with it."

A half hour later, in her car, Cindy sat letting the engine run, almost
too astonished to put it in gear. I don't believe what I just did ...
Lindsay would rap her in the head. Question whether her gadgets were
properly working.

But they were working. They were humming a little, actually. The tiny
hairs on her arms were standing straight up.

She had the beginnings of what she thought might be a good story, maybe
a prizewinner.

She'd also just accepted a date from Tasha Catchings's pastor, and she
couldn't wait to see him again.

Maybe my soul has been aching, Cindy thought as she finally drove away
from the church.

Chapter 40.

IT WAS CLOSE TO SEVEN on Saturday. The end of a long, insane, incredibly
stressful week. Three people had died. My only good leads had come and
gone.

I needed to talk to somebody, so I went up to eight, where the D. A.'s
staff was located. Two doors down from the big man himself was Jill's
corner office.

The executive corner was dark, offices empty, staff scattered for the
weekend. In a way, though I needed to vent, I was sort of hoping Jill -
the new Jill - would be at home, maybe picking through swatch books for
her baby's room.

But as I approached, I heard the sound of classical music coming from
within. Jill's door was cracked half open.

I knocked gently and pushed it in. There was Jill, in her favorite easy
chair, knees tucked to her chest and a yellow legal pad resting on them.
Her desk was piled high with briefs.

"Why are you here?" I asked.

"Snagged." She sighed, raising her hands in mock surrender. "It's just
this goddamn Perrone thing. Closing arguments Monday morning." Jill was
at the end of a high-profile case in which a derelict landlord was being
charged with manslaughter after a faulty ceiling caved in on an
eight-year-old child.

"You're pregnant, Jill. It's after seven o'clock."

"So is Connie Sperling, for the defense. They're calling it the Battle
of the Bulge."

"Whatever they're calling it, so much for the shift of gears."

Jill turned down the CD player and extended her long legs. "Anyway,
Steve's out of town. What else is new? I'd only be doing the same thing
if I were at home." She cocked her head and smiled. "You're checking up
on me."

"No, but maybe someone should."

"Good lord, Lindsay, I'm just preparing notes, not running a ten-k. I'm
doing fine. Anyway." - she glanced at her watch - "since when did you
turn into the poster girl for keeping everything in perspective?"

"I'm not pregnant, Jill. All right, all right - I'll stop lecturing."

I stepped inside her office - eyed her women's final four soccer photo
from Stanford, framed diplomas, and pictures of her and Steve rock
climbing and running with their black Lab, Snake Eyes.

"I still have a beer in the fridge if you want to sit," she said,
tossing her legal pad on the desk. "Pull a Buckler out for me."

I did just that. Then I shifted the black Max Mara suit jacket hastily
thrown over a cushion and sank back in the leather couch. We tilted our
bottles, and both of us blurted in the same breath, "So ... how's your
case?"

"You first." Jill laughed.

I spread my thumb and index finger barely a half inch apart to indicate
basically zip. I took her through the maze of dead ends: the van, the
chimera sketch, the surveillance photo of the Templars, that CSU had
come up with nothing on, the Davidson ambush.

Jill came over and sat beside me on the couch. "You want to talk, Linds?
Like you said, you didn't come up here to make sure I was behaving
myself."

I smiled guiltily then placed my beer on the coffee table.

"I need to shift the investigation, Jill." "Okay," she said. "I'm
listening This is just between us."

Piece by piece, I laid out my theory that the killer was not some
reckless, hate-mongering maniac but a bold, plotting pattern killer
acting out a vendetta.

"Maybe you're overreaching," Jill replied. "What you do have is three
terror crimes aimed at African Americans."

"So why these victims, Jill? An eleven-year-old girl? A decorated cop?
Estelle Chipman, whose husband has been dead for five years?"

"I don't know, honey. I just nail ' to the wall when you turn them
over." I smiled. Then I leaned forward. "Jill, I need you to help me. I
need to find some connection between these victims. I know it's there. I
need to check out past cases in which a white plaintiff was victimized
by a black police officer. That's where my gut leads me. It's where I
think these killings might start. It has something to do with revenge."

"What happens when the next victim never had anything to do with a
police officer? What are you gonna do then?"

I looked at her imploringly. "Are you going to help me?"

"Of course I'm going to help you." She shook her head at me. "Duh ...
Anything you can give me that will help me narrow it down?"

I nodded. "Male, white. Maybe a tattoo or three."

"That oughtta do it." She rolled her eyes.

I reached out and squeezed her hand. I knew I could count on her. I
looked at my watch. Seven-thirty. "I better let you finish up while
you're still in your first trimester."

"Don't go, Lindsay." Jill held my arm. "Stick around."

I could see something on her face. That clear, professional intensity
suddenly weakened into a thousand-yard stare.

"Something wrong, Jill? Did the doctor tell you something?"

In her sleeveless vest, with her dark hair curled around her ears, she
looked every bit the power lawyer, number two in the city's legal
department. But there was a tremor in her breath. "I'm fine. Really
physically, I'm fine. I should be happy, right? I'm gonna have a baby. I
should be riding the air."

"You should be feeling whatever you're feeling, Jill." I took her hand.

She nodded glassily. Then she curled her knees up to her chest. "When I
was a kid, I would sometimes wake up in the night. I always had this
little terror, this feeling that the whole world was asleep, that around
this whole, huge planet, I was the only one left awake in the world.
Sometimes my father would come in and try to rock me to sleep. He'd be
downstairs in his study, preparing his cases, and he'd always check on
me before he turned in. He called me his second chair. But even with him
there, I still felt so alone."

She shook her head at me, tears glistening in her eyes.

"Look at me. Steve's away for two nights and I turn into a fucking
idiot," she said.

"I don't think you're an idiot," I said, stroking her pretty face.

"I can't lose this baby, Lindsay. I know it seems stupid.

I'm carrying a life. It's here, always in me, right next to me. How is
it I feel so alone?"

I held her tightly by the shoulders. My father had never been there to
rock me to sleep. Even before he left us, he worked the third shift and
would always head to Mcgoey's for a beer afterward. Sometimes I felt
like the heartbeat that was closest to me was the pulse of the bastards
I had to track down.

"I know what you mean," I heard myself whisper. I held Jill. "Sometimes
I feel that way, too."

Chapter 41.

ON THE CORNER of Ocean and Victoria, a man in a green fatigue
windbreaker hunched chewing a burrito as the black Lincoln slowly made
its way down the block. He had waited here dozens of nights, stalked his
next prey for weeks.

The person he had watched for so long lived in a pleasant stucco house
inside Ingleside Heights, just a short walk away.

He had a family, two girls in Catholic school; his wife was a registered
nurse. He had a black Lab; sometimes it bounded out to greet him as his
car pulled up. The Lab was named Bullitt, like the old movie.

Usually the car drove by around seven-thirty. A couple of times a week,
the man got out to walk. It was always at the same spot, on Victoria. He
liked to stop at the Korean market, chat with the owner as he picked out
a melon or a cabbage. Playing the big man walking among his people.

Then he might mosey into Tiny's News, stuff his arms with a few
magazines: Car and Driver, PC World, Sports Illustrated. Once, he had
even stood behind him in the line as he waited to pay for his reading
material.

He could have taken him out. Many times. One dazzling shot from a
distance.

But no, this one had to be up close. Eye to eye. This murder would blow
the lid off everything, the entire city of San Francisco. This would
take the case international, and not many got that big.

His heart sprung alive as he huddled in the damp drizzle, but this time
the black Lincoln merely passed by.

So it won't be tonight. He exhaled. Go home to your little wife and dog
... But soon ... You've grown forgetful, he thought, balling his burrito
in the wrapper and tossing it in a trash bin. Forgetful of the past. But
it always finds you.

I live with the past every day.

He watched as the black Lincoln, its windows dark, made its customary
left turn onto Cerritos and disappeared into Ingleside Heights.

You stole my life. Now I'm going to take yours.

Chapter 42.

I TOOK SUNDAY MORNING OFF to run Martha by the bay and do my tai chi on
the Marina Green. By noon I was in jeans and a sweatshirt, back at my
desk. By Monday, the investigation was listing toward the dead zone, no
new angles to work. We were putting out releases just to keep the press
off our tail. Each stalled line of questioning, each frustrating dead
end only narrowed the time to when Chimera would strike again.

I was returning some case files to Jill when the elevator door opened
and Chief Mercer ambled in. He looked surprised when he saw me but not
displeased.

"Come take a ride with me," he said.

Mercer's car was waiting along the side entrance on Eighth Street. As
the police driver leaned back, Mercer told him, "West Portal, Sam."

West Portal was a diverse middle-class neighborhood out of the center of
the city. I didn't know why Mercer would be dragging me out there in the
middle of the day.

As we rode, Mercer asked a few questions but stayed mostly silent. A
tremor shot through me: He's gonna take me off the case.

The driver pulled onto a residential street I had never been on before.
He parked in front of a small blue Victorian across from a high school
playground. A pickup basketball game was going on.

I blinked first. "What was it you wanted to talk about, Chief?"

Mercer turned to me. "You have any personal heroes, Lindsay?"

"You mean like Amelia Earhart or Margaret Thatcher?" I shook my head. I
had never grown up with those. "Maybe Claire Washburn." I grinned.

Mercer nodded. "Arthur Ashe was always one of mine. Someone asked him if
it was hard to cope with AIDS, and he answered, ' nearly as hard as it
was to deal with growing up black in the United States.'"

His expression deepened. "Vernon Jones tells the mayor that I've lost
sight of what's really at stake in this case." He pointed toward the
blue Victorian across the street. "You see that house? My parents'
house. I was raised there.

"My father was a mechanic in the transit yards, and my mother did the
books for an electrical contractor. They worked their whole lives to
send me and my sister to school. She's a trial litigator now, in
Atlanta. But this is where we're from."

"My father worked for the city, too." I nodded.

"I know. I never told you, Lindsay, but I knew your father."

"You knew him?"

"Yeah, we started out together. Radio cops, out of Central. Even shifted
together a few times. Marty Boxer ... Your father was a bit of a legend,
Lindsay, and not necessarily for exemplary duty."

"Tell me something I don't know." "All right." He paused. "He was a good
cop then. A damned good cop. A lot of us looked up to him."

"Before he bagged out."

Mercer looked at me. "You must know by now, things happen in a cop's
life that don't always break down so easily into choices the rest of us
can understand."

I shook my head. "I haven't spoken to him in twenty-two years."

Mercer nodded. "I can't speak for him as a father, or as a husband, but
is there a chance that as a man, or at least a cop, you've judged him
without knowing all the facts?"

"He never stuck around long enough to present the facts," I said.

"I'm sorry," Mercer said. "I'll tell you some things about Marty Boxer,
but another time."

"Tell me what? When?"

He drew down the privacy barrier and instructed his driver that it was
time to head back to the Hall. "When you find Chimera."

Chapter 43.

LATER THAT NIGHT, as his Town Car slowed in the evening traffic near his
home, Chief Mercer spoke up from the backseat. "Why don't I get out
here, Sam."

His driver, Sam Mendez, glanced back. The mandate from the Hall was no
unnecessary risks.

Mercer was firm on the matter. "Sam, there's more cops on patrol in a
five-block radius here than there are back at the Hall." There was
usually a patrol car or two cruising on Ocean and one stationed across
from his home.

The car eased to a stop. Mercer opened the door and thrust his heavy
shape onto the street. "Pick me up tomorrow, Sam. Have a good night."

As his car pulled away, Mercer lugged his thick briefcase in one hand
and threw his tan raincoat over his shoulder with the other. He
experienced a surge of freedom and relief. These little after-work
excursions were the only times he felt free.

He stopped at Kim's Market and picked out the sweetest-looking basket of
strawberries, and some choice plums, too. Then he wandered across the
street to the Ingleside Wine Shop. He decided on a Beaujolais that would
go with the lamb stew Eunice was making.

On the street, he glanced at his watch and headed toward home. On
Cerritos, two stone pillars separated Ocean from the secure enclave of
Ingleside Heights. The traffic disappeared behind him.

He passed the low stone house belonging to the Taylors.

A noise rustled out from a hedge. "Well, well, Chief?"

Mercer stopped. His heart was already pounding.

"Don't be shy. I haven't seen you in years," the voice said again. "You
probably don't remember."

What the hell was going on?

A tall, muscular man stepped out from behind the hedge.

He was wearing a cocky smirk, a green windbreaker wrapped around him.

A vague recognition came over Mercer, a familiarity in the face he
couldn't quite place. Then all at once it came back to him. Suddenly,
everything made sense, and it took his breath away.

"This is such an honor," the man said. "For you."

He had a gun, heavy and silver. It was extended toward Mercer's chest.
Mercer knew he had to do something. Ram him. Get to his own gun somehow.
He needed to act like a cop on the street again.

"I wanted you to see my face. I wanted you to know why you were dying."

"Don't do this. There are cops everywhere around here."

"Good. That makes it even better for me. Don't be scared, Chief. Where
you're going, you'll be running into a lot of your old friends."

The first shot struck him in the chest, a burning, clothes-searing thud
that buckled his knees. Mercer's first thought was to shout. Was it
Parks or Vasquez stationed in front of his house? Only precious yards
away. But his voice died inaudibly in his chest. Jesus God, please save
me.

The second shot tore through his throat. He didn't know if he was up or
down. He wanted to charge the killer. He wanted to take this bastard
down. But his legs felt - paralyzed, inert.

The man with the gun was standing over him now. The bastard was still
talking to him, but he couldn't hear a word.

His face kept melting in and out of focus. A name flashed in his mind.
It seemed impossible. He said it twice just to be sure, his breath
pounding in his ears.

"That's right," the killer said, leveling the silvery gun.

"You've solved the case. You figured out Chimera. Congratulations."

Mercer thought he should close his eyes - when the next bright orange
flash exploded in his face.

Chapter 44.

I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER what I was doing when I heard the news. I was
home, tending a pot of farfalle on the stove. "Adia" by Sarah Mclachlan
was playing on the stereo.

Claire was coming over. I'd lured her for dinner with my famous pasta
with asparagus and lemon sauce. Not lured her, actually ... begged. I
wanted to talk about something other than the case. Her kids, yoga, the
California Senate race, why the Warriors sucked. Anything.

I will never forget ... Martha sat toying with a headless San Francisco
Giants mascot bear that she had appropriated to her side of the property
list. I was chopping basil; I checked on the pasta. Tasha Catchings and
Art Davidson had drifted out of my mind. Thank God.

The phone rang. A selfish thought knifed through me, hoping that it
wasn't Claire bagging out of our date at the last minute.

I cradled the phone in the nape of my neck and answered.

It was Sam Ryan, the department's chief of detectives.

Ryan was my administrative superior in the chain of command. At the
sound of his voice, I knew something had to be seriously wrong.

"Lindsay, something terrible has happened."

My body went numb. It was like someone had reached inside my chest and
squeezed my heart in their indifferent fist. I listened to Ryan speak.
Three shots from point-blank range ... Only a few yards from his house.
Oh, my God ... Mercer ... "Where is he, Sam?"

"Moffitt. Emergency surgery. He's fighting."

"I'll be right down. I'm on my way."

"Lindsay, there's nothing you can do here. Get out to the scene."

"Chin and Lorraine will cover it. I'll be right down."

The doorbell buzzed. As if in a trance, I rushed over, opened it.

"Hey," said Claire.

I didn't say a word. In an instant, she recognized the pallor on my
face. "What's happened?"

My eyes were wet. "Claire ... he shot Chief Mercer."

Chapter 45.

WE RACED DOWN THE STEPS, climbed into Claire's Pathfinder, and made the
dash from Potrero to the California Medical Center all the way over in
Parnassus Heights. The entire ride, my heart pumped madly and hopefully
The streets blurred by - Twenty-fourth, Guerrero, then across the Castro
on Seventeenth to the hospital atop Mt. Sutro.

Barely ten minutes after I got the call, Claire spun the Pathfinder into
a restricted parking space across from the hospital entrance.

Claire ID'd herself to a nurse at the front desk, asking for an
up-to-date report. She looked worried as she charged inside the swinging
doors. I ran up to Sam Ryan. "What's the word?"

He shook his head. "He's on the table now. If anyone can take three
bullets and make it through, it's him."

I flipped open my cell phone and patched into Lorraine Stafford at the
scene. "Things are crazy here," she said.

"There's people from Internal Affairs, and some goddamn city crisis
agency And the fucking press. I haven't been able to get close to the
radio cop who was first on the scene."

"Don't let anyone other than you or Chin get close to that scene," I
told her. "I'll be out there as soon as I can."

Claire came back out of the ER. Her face was drawn.

"They've got him open now, Lindsay. It doesn't look good. His cerebral
cortex was penetrated. He's lost a ton of blood. It's a miracle he's
hung on as long as he has."

"Claire, I've got to get in there to see him."

She shook her head. "He's barely alive, Lindsay.

Besides, he's under anesthesia."

I had this mounting sense that I owed it to Mercer, each unresolved
death. That he knew, and if he died the truth would die with him. "I'm
going in there."

I pushed through the doors leading to the ER, but Claire held on to me.
As I looked into her eyes, the last glimmer of hopefulness drained out
of my body. I had always fought with Mercer, battled him. He was someone
to whom I felt I always had something to prove, and prove again and
again.

But in the end, he had believed in me. In the strangest of ways, I felt
as if I were losing a father all over again.

Barely a minute later, a doctor in a green smock came out, peeling off
latex gloves. He said a few words to one of the mayor's men, then to the
assistant chief, Anthony Tracchio.

"The chief's dead," Tracchio uttered.

Everyone stood staring blankly ahead. Claire put an arm around me and
hugged.

"I don't know if I can do this," I said, holding tightly on to her
shoulder.

"Yes, you can," she said.

I caught Mercer's doctor as he headed back to the ER. I introduced
myself. "Did he say anything when he was brought in?"

The doctor shrugged. "He held on for a while, but whatever he said was
incoherent. Just reflexive. He was on life support from the moment he
came in."

"His brain was still working, wasn't it, Doctor?" He had faced his
killer head-on. Taken three shots. I could see Mercer holding on just
long enough to say something. "Anything you remember?"

His tired eyes searched for something. "I'm sorry, Inspector. We were
trying to save his life. You might try the EMS techs who brought him in.

He went back inside. Through the windows in the ER doors, I caught a
glimpse of Eunice Mercer and one of their teenage daughters, tearfully
hugging in the corridor.

My insides felt as if they were ripping apart, a knot of nausea
building.

I ran into the ladies' room. I bent over the sink and splashed cold
water all over my face. "Goddamn it! Goddamnit!"

When my body calmed, I looked up in the mirror. My eyes were dark,
hollow and blank; voices drummed loudly in my head.

Four murders, they tolled ... Four black cops.

Chapter 46.

STAFFORD walked me down from the stone gate on Cerntos

"The chief was on his way home." She bit her bottom lip. "He lived a
couple of houses down that way. No witnesses, but his driver's over
there."

I went to the spot where Mercer's body had been found.

Charlie Clapper's team was already combing all around it. It was a
quiet, residential street, the sidewalk guarded by a high hedge that
would've blocked anyone from seeing the killer.

The spot had already been chalked off. Blotches of blood soaked the
pavement inside the outline of the body. The remains of his last
moments, some plastic bags containing magazines, fruit, and a bottle of
wine, were scattered around.

"Didn't he have a car stationed in front of his house?" I asked.

Lorraine nodded toward a young uniformed officer leaning against the
hood of a blue-and-white. "By the time he got down here, the perp had
fled and the chief was bleeding out."

It became clear the killer had been lying in wait: He must've hidden in
the bushes until Mercer came by. He must've known. Just like he knew
with Davidson.

From up on Ocean, I saw Jacobi and Cappy coming toward us. The sight of
them made me exhale with relief.

"Thanks for coming down," I whispered.

Then Jacobi did something totally uncharacteristic. He grasped my
shoulder and looked firmly into my eyes. "This is gonna get big,
Lindsay; Feds are gonna come in. Anything we can do, anything you need,
anytime you need to talk about it. You know I'm here for you."

I turned to Lorraine and Chin. "What do you need to finish up here?"

"I want to check along the escape route," Chin said. "If he had a car
parked, someone must've seen it. Otherwise, maybe someone saw him come
out on Ocean." "Fucking chief." Jacobi sighed. "I always thought the guy
would hold a news conference at his own funeral."

"We still classifying this as a hate crime, Lieutenant?"

Cappy sniffed.

"I don't know about you," I said, "but I hate this bastard pretty bad."

Chapter 47.

JACOBI WAS RIGHT about one thing. The next morning, everything had
changed. A feeding frenzy of every news organization in the country was
massing on the outside steps of the Hall of justice, setting up their
camera crews, clawing for interviews. Anthony Tracchio was named acting
chief. He had been the chief's administrative right hand, but had never
come up through the ranks. On the Chimera case, I was now reporting to
him. "No leaks," Tracchio brusquely warned. "No contact with the press.
All interviews go through me."

A joint task force was set up to handle Mercer's homicide.

It wasn't until I got upstairs that I found out precisely what '' meant.

When I got back to my office, two tan-suited FBI agents were waiting in
the outer room. A polished, preppy black man named Ruddy in an oxford
shirt and yellow tie, who seemed to be in charge, and the typical
hard-nosed field agent named Hull.

The first thing out of Ruddy's mouth was how nice it was to be working
with the inspector who had solved the bride and groom case. The second
thing was a request for the Chimera files. All of them. Tasha. Davidson.
Whatever we had on Mercer.

Ten seconds after they left, I was on the phone to my new boss. "Guess I
know what you meant by ','" I said.

"Crimes against public officials are a federal offense, Lieutenant.
There's not much I can do," said Tracchio.

"Mercer said this was a city crime, Chief. He said city personnel ought
to see it through."

Tracchio sent my heart into a tailspin. "I'm sorry. Not anymore.

Chapter 48.

LATER THAT AFTERNOON, I drove out to Ingleside Heights to talk with
Chief Mercer's wife. I felt I needed to do it myself. A line of cars was
already stretched along the street around the chief's home. A relative
answered the door and told me Mrs. Mercer was upstairs with family.

I stood around, checking out faces I recognized gathered in the living
room. After a few minutes, Eunice Mercer came down the stairs. She was
accompanied by a pleasant-looking middle-aged woman who turned out to be
her sister. She recognized me and walked my way.

"I'm so sorry. I can't believe it," I said, squeezing her hand first,
then hugging her.

"I know," she whispered. "I know you've just gone through this
yourself."

"I promise you, I know how tough this is. But I need to ask you a few
questions," I finally said to her.

She nodded, and her sister floated back among the guests.

Eunice Mercer took me into a private den.

I asked her many of the same questions I had put forth to the relatives
of other victims. Had anyone recently threatened her husband? Calls to
the house? Anyone suspicious lately watching the house?

She shook her head no. "Earl said this was the only place where he
actually felt like he lived in the city, not just ran the police force."

I changed tack. "You ever come across the name Art Davidson before this
week?"

Eunice Mercer's face went blank. "You think Earl was killed by the same
man who did these other horrible things?"

I took her hand. "I think these murders were all committed by the same
man."

She massaged her brow. "Lindsay, nothing makes sense to me right now.
Earl's murder. That book." "Book ...?" I asked.

"Yes. Earl always read car magazines. He had this dream, when he retired
... this old GTO he kept in a cousin's garage. He always said he was
gonna tear it down and build it up from scratch. But that book he had
stuffed in his jacket ... "

"What book?" I was squinting at her hard.

"A young doctor at the hospital returned it to me, along with his wallet
and keys. I never knew he had such an interest in that sort of thing.
Those old myths--"

Suddenly my pulse was racing. "Can you show me what you're talking
about?" "Of course," Eunice Mercer said. "It's over here." She left the
den and in a minute came back. She handed me a paperback copy of a book
every school kid reads. Mythology; by Edith Hamilton.

It was an old dog-eared copy, looked as if it had been leafed through a
thousand times. I rifled through the pages and spotted nothing.

I ran down the table of contents. Then I saw it. Halfway down, page 141.
It was underlined. Bellerophon Kills the Chimera.

Bellerophon ... Billy Reffon.

My heart clenched. It was the name he'd used on the 911 call about Art
Davidson. He had called himself Billy Reffon.

I flipped to page 141. It was there. With an illustration.

The lion rearing. The goat's body. The serpent's tail.

Chimera.

The bastard was telling us he had killed Chief Mercer.

A surge rippled through me. There was something else on the page. A
sharp, edgy script, a few words, scrawled above the illustration in ink:

More to come ... justice will be served.

Chapter 49.

LEAVING MERCER's HOME, I drove around in a sweat, terror-filled at what
I knew to be the truth.

All my instincts had been right. This was no random, racist murder
spree. This was a cold, calculating killer. He was taunting us, the same
way he had with the white van.

With that cocky tape. Billy Reffon.

Finally I said, Fuck it. I called the girls. I couldn't hold back any
longer. They were three of the sharpest law-enforcement minds in the
city And this bastard had told me there were going to be more killings.
We set up a meeting at Susie's.

"I need your help," I said, panning their faces in our usual booth at
the restaurant.

"That's why we're here," Claire said. "You call, we come running."

"Finally." Cindy chuckled. "She admits she's nothing without us."

"This Kiss" by Faith Hill was drowning out a basketball game on the TV
but in the corner booth, the four of us were huddled in our own
purposeful world. God, it was good to have everybody back together
again.

"Everything's screwed up with Mercer gone. The FBI's come in. I don't
even know who's in control. All I know is that the longer we wait, the
more people are going to be killed."

"This time there have to be some rules," Jill said, tugging on a Buckler
nonalcoholic beer. "This isn't a game. That last case, I think I broke
every rule I took an oath to uphold. Withholding evidence, using the D.
A.'s office for personal use. If anything had gotten out, I'd be doing
my cases from the tenth floor."

We laughed. The tenth floor of the Hall was where the holding cells were
located.

"Okay." I agreed. It was the same for me. "Anything we find we take to
the task force."

"Let's not go overboard," said Cindy with a mischievous laugh. "We're
here to help you, not to make the careers of some uptight, bureaucratic
men."

"The Margarita Posse lives," joked Jill. "Jesus, I'm glad we're back."
"Don't you ever doubt it," said Claire.

I looked around at the girls. The Women's Murder Club.

Part of me bristled with apprehension. Four people were dead, including
the highest-ranking police officer in the city. The killer had proved he
could strike anywhere he wanted to.

"Each murder has become more high profile, and daring," I said, filling
them in on the latest, including the book stuffed in Mercer's jacket.
"He no longer needs the subterfuge of the racial MO. It's racial, all
right. I just don't know why."

Claire took us through the chief's autopsy, which she had finished up
that afternoon. He was hit three times at close range with a .38 gun.
"My impression is that the three shots were spaced at measured
intervals. I could tell by the pattern that the wounds bled out. The
last one was to the head. Mercer was already on the ground. It makes me
think they may have confronted each other. That he was trying to kill
him slowly Or that they were even talking. I guess where I'm headed is
that it's likely Mercer knew his killer."

"You checked into the possibility that all these officers were somehow
connected?" Jill cut in. "of course you have. You're Lindsay Boxer."

"Of course I have. There's no record any of them had even met. Their
careers don't seem to have crossed. Tasha Catchings's uncle is younger
than the others by twenty years. We can't find anything that puts them
together."

"Somebody hates cops. Well, actually, a lot of people do," Cindy said.

"I just can't find the link. This started out in the guise of a hate
crime. The killer wanted us to view the murders in a certain way. He
wanted us to find his clues. And he wanted us to find the chimera. His
fucked-up symbol."

"But if this is a personal vendetta," Jill said, "it doesn't make sense
that it would lead back to some organized group."

"Unless he was setting someone up," I said.

"Or unless," Cindy said, chewing her lip, "the chimera doesn't lead back
to a hate group at all. Maybe this book is his way of telling us it's
something else."

I stared at her. We all did. "We're waiting, Einstein."

She blinked remotely, then shook her head. "I was just thinking out
loud."

Jill said she would dig into any grievance cases against a black officer
who had wronged or injured a white. Any act of vengeance that might
explain the killer's mind-set. Cindy would do the same at the Chronicle.

It had been a long day, and I was exhausted. I had a task force meeting
at seven-thirty the next morning. I looked each of my friends in the
eye. "Thank you, thank you." "We're gonna solve this sucker with you,"
Jill said. "We're going to get Chimera." "We've got to," Claire said.
"We need you to keep picking up the bar bill."

For a few more minutes, we chatted about what we all had going on the
next day, when we could get together again.

We were starting to cook now. Jill and Claire had their cars parked in
the lot. I asked Cindy, who lived in the Castro section, near me, if she
needed a ride.

"Actually," she said with a smile, "I have a date."

"Good for you. Who is your next victim?" Claire exclaimed. "When do we
get to check him out?

"If you supposedly mature, talented women want to ogle like a bunch of
schoolkids, I guess now He's picking me up."

"I'm always up for a good ogle," Claire said.

I snorted out a laugh. "You could be meeting Mel Gibson and Russell
Crowe, and it wouldn't rock my boat tonight."

As we pushed through the front door, Cindy tugged my arm. "Hold on to
your oars, honey."

We all saw him at once. We all ogled, and my boat was rocked.

Waiting outside, looking altogether sexy and handsome, dressed entirely
in black, was Aaron Winslow.

Chapter 50.

I COULDN'T BELIEVE IT. I stood there gawking. I looked at Cindy, then
back at Winslow, my surprise slowly giving way to a blushing smile.

"Lieutenant." Winslow nodded, cutting through the awkward murk. "When
Cindy said she was meeting friends, I wasn't expecting to find you
here."

"Yeah, me too," I babbled back.

"We're headed to the Blue Door," Cindy said to the crowd, going through
the introductions. "Pinetop Perkins is in town."

"Terrific." Claire nodded.

"Beatific," snipped Jill.

"Anybody care to join?" Aaron Winslow asked. "If you haven't heard it,
there's nothing like Memphis blues."

"I'm in the office at six tomorrow," said Claire. "You two go along."

I leaned over to Cindy and whispered, "You know, when we were talking
foxholes the other day, I was only joking."

"I know you were," Cindy said, looping her arm around mine. "But I
wasn't."

Claire, Jill, and I stood with our jaws open and watched the two of them
disappear around the corner. Actually, they looked kind of cute
together, and it was only a date to hear some music.

"Okay," Jill said, "tell me I wasn't dreaming."

"You weren't dreaming, girl," Claire replied. "I just hope that Cindy
realizes what she's getting herself into."

"Uh-uh." I shook my head. "I hope he does."

Getting into my car, I entertained myself with the notion of Cindy and
Aaron Winslow. It almost pushed out of my head the reason we had gotten
together in the first place.

I turned my Explorer onto Brannan and waved good-bye to Claire, who was
heading over to 280. As I made the turn, I caught a glimpse of a white
Toyota pulling out down the block behind me.

My mind was wrapped up with what I had just done, getting the girls
involved in this horrible case. I had just countermanded a direct order
from the mayor and my commanding officer. This time, there was no one
backing me up.

No Roth, or Mercer.

A Mazda with two teenage girls in it pulled up behind me.

We had stopped at a light on Seventh. The driver was talking a mile a
minute on her cell phone, while her companion obliviously sung along to
the stereo.

As we started up, I kept my eye on them for a block, until they veered
onto Ninth. A blue minivan took the Mazda's place.

I got onto Potrero under the underpass to 101, heading south. The blue
van turned.

To my surprise, I saw that same white Toyota lurking thirty yards
behind.

I continued on. A silver BMW sped up in the left lane and pulled up
behind me. Behind it, a city bus. It looked as if the mystery car was
gone.

who could blame you for getting a little jumpy, with what's going on? I
said to myself. My picture had been in the paper and on the TV news.

I made my usual right on Connecticut and started the climb up the
Potrero hill. I was hoping Mrs. Taylor next door had come by to walk
Martha. And I was thinking of stopping in the market on Twentieth for
some Edy's vanilla twirl.

Two blocks up, I glanced a last time in my rearview mirror. The white
Toyota crept into view.

Either the sonofabitch lived on the same block I did, or the bastard was
following me.

It had to be Chimera.

Chapter 51.

MY HEART WAS POUNDING; the hairs on the back of my neck stood erect. I
squinted in the rearview mirror and ran the plate numbers over in my
head: California ... PCV 182. I couldn't make out the person driving.
This was insane ... But I sure wasn't imagining it.

I pulled into an open parking spot in front of my apartment. I waited in
the car until I saw the hood of the Toyota rise over the lip of
Twentieth Street, then pause at the base of the last hill. My blood ran
cold.

I had let the bastard trail me right to my house.

I reached in the glove compartment and took out my Glock. I checked the
clip. Stay calm. You're gonna take this asshole down. You're going to
nail Chimera right now.

I hunched in my car, scrolling through my options. I could call it in. A
patrol car could be here in a matter of minutes. But I had to find out
who it was. The appearance of a police car would scare him away.

My heart beat madly. I palmed my gun and opened the car door. I slipped
out into the night. Now what?

On the first floor of my house, there was a back door that led to an
alley underneath my terrace. From there, I could wrap around the block
near the park at the top of the hill. If the bastard stayed outside, I
could double back and maybe surprise him.

I hesitated in the doorway, just long enough to see the Toyota creeping
slowly up the street. My hands fumbled in my bag for the key. I jammed
it in the lock.

I was inside. Out a small window, I watched the Toyota. I strained to
catch a glimpse of the driver, but his interior lights were off.

I undid the bolt to the back door and crept out into the alley behind my
building.

I ran behind the cover of the houses to the cul de sac at the top of the
hill. From there, I reversed back, hugging the shadows of the buildings
along the opposite side of the street.

Behind him.

The Toyota had parked across from my building, its lights off.

The driver in the front seat was smoking a cigarette.

I crouched behind a parked Honda Accord, clasping my gun. This is what
it's all about, Lindsay.

Could I take Chimera in the car? what if the doors were locked?

Suddenly I saw the car door open, the interior light flash on. The
bastard's back was turned to me as he climbed out of his car.

He was wearing a dark weatherproof jacket, a floppy cap pulled over his
eyes. He was glancing up at my house. My apartment.

Then he headed across the street. No fears.

Take him down. Now. The bastard had come for me. He'd threatened me in
Mercer's book. I moved out from the cover of the line of parked cars.

My heart was racing so fast and loud, I was afraid he would suddenly
spin around. Now. Do it! You've got him!

I stepped up, the Glock firm in one hand. I wrapped the other around his
neck, pulled, kicked his legs out from under him.

He toppled to the ground, landing hard on his front. I pinned him there.
I pressed the barrel of my gun to the back of his head.

"Police, asshole! Hands out wide."

A painful groan came from him. He spread his arms. Was it Chimera?

"You wanted me, you bastard, well, you got me. Now, turn around."

I relaxed my knee just enough for him to maneuver around. As he did, my
heart almost stopped.

I was staring into the face of my father.

Chapter 52.

MARTY BOXER rolled onto his back and groaned, the air squeezed out of
his lungs. He still had a glimmer of the rugged handsomeness I
remembered, but it was different - older, leaner, worn. His hair had
thinned and the once-lively blue eyes seemed washed out.

I hadn't seen him in ten years. I hadn't spoken to him in twenty-two
years.

"What are you doing here?" I wanted to know.

"Right now," he gasped, rolling onto his side, "having the shit beat out
of me by my daughter."

I felt a hard slab jutting out of his jacket pocket. I pulled out an old
department-issued Smith & Wesson .40 caliber.

"What the hell is this? How you say hello?"

"It's a dangerous world out there." He groaned again.

I rolled off him. The sight of him was an affront, a sudden illumination
of memories I'd shut off years ago. I didn't offer to help him up. "What
were you doing? Following me?"

Slowly, he edged himself into a sitting position. "I'm gonna pretend you
didn't know it was your old man dropping in, Buttercup."

"Please don't call me that," I shot back at him.

Buttercup was his pet name for me when I was about seven and he was
still at home. My sister, Cat, was Horsefly; I was Buttercup. Hearing
that name brought a surge of bitter memories. "You think you can drop in
here after all these years, scare the shit out of me, and get away with
it by calling me Buttercup? I'm not your little girl. I'm a homicide
lieutenant."

"I know that. And you deliver a hell of a takedown, baby." "Consider
yourself lucky," I said, clicking my Glock onto safety.

"Who the hell were you expecting, anyway?" he said as he massaged his
ribs. "The Rock?"

"That doesn't matter. What does matter is just what you're doing here."

He sniffed guiltily. "I'm definitely starting to pick up, Buttercup,
that you might not be entirely thrilled to see me?"

"I don't know that I am. Are you sick?"

His blue eyes sparkled. "Can't a guy check up on his firstborn without
his motives being called into account?"

I studied the lines on his face. "I haven't seen you in ten years, and
you act like it's been a week. You want an update? I was married, now
I'm divorced. I got into Homicide. Now I'm lieutenant. I know that's a
bit sketchy but it brings you up to date, Dad."

"You think so much time has passed that I can't look at you as a
father?"

"I don't know how you look at me," I said.

My father's eyes suddenly warmed, and he smiled. "God, you do look
beautiful ... Lindsay."

His expression was that same twinkling, guiltless mug I had seen a
thousand times as a kid. I shook my head in frustration. "Marty, just
answer my question."

"Look." He swallowed. "I know sneaking up on you didn't win me any style
points, but do you think I could at least talk my way into a cup of
coffee?"

I stared incredulously at the man who had left our family when I was
thirteen. Who had stayed away all the time my mother was sick. Whom I
had thought of as a coward or a cad or even worse for most of my adult
life. I hadn't seen my father since he'd sat in the back row on the day
I was sworn in as a cop. I didn't know if I wanted to slug him or take
him in my arms and give him a hug.

"just one ... " I said, holding out a hand and hoisting him up. I
brushed some loose gravel from his lapel. You talked yourself into one
cup of coffee, Buttercup."

Chapter 53.

I MADE A POT OF COFFEE for my father and a cup of Red Zinger for me. I
gave him a quick tour, introducing him to Martha, who almost against my
silent instructions took a liking to dear old Dad.

We sat on my white canvas couch, Martha curled up at my father's feet. I
gave him a damp cloth, and he dabbed at a scratch on his cheek.

"Sorry about the bruise," I said, cradling the hot mug on my knees. Kind
of sorry.

"I've earned worse." He shrugged with a smile.

"Yeah, you have."

We sat facing each other. Neither of us knew quite where to begin. "So,
I guess this is where you bring me up to date on what you've been up to
for the last twenty-two years?"

He swallowed and put down his mug. "Sure. I can do that." He took me
through his life, which seemed more like a sputtering spiral of bad
luck. He had been an assistant chief, which I guess I knew down in
Redondo Beach. Then he left to go into private security Celebrities.
Kevin Costner. Whoopi Goldberg. "Even went to the Oscars." He chuckled.

He'd gotten married again, this time for only two years.

"Found out I was underqualified for the job," he quipped with a
self-effacing wave. Now he was back in security - no celebrities, doing
odd jobs.

"Still gambling?" I asked.

"Only mind bets. In my head," he replied. "Had to give it up when I ran
out of funds."

"Still root for the Giants?" When I was a kid, he used to take me after
his shift to this bar called the Alibi on Sunset.

He'd prop me up on the counter where he and his buddies would watch the
afternoon games from Candlestick. I loved being with him back then.

He shook his head. "Nah, gave them up when they traded away Will Clark.
I'm a Dodger fan now. I would like to go to the new park, though." Then
he looked at me for a long time.

It was my turn now. How to relate the past twenty-two years of my life
to my father?

I took him through as much as I could handle, leaving out anything
related to Mom. I told him about my ex, Tom, how it hadn't worked out.
("Chip off the old block." He snickered.

"Yeah, but at least I stayed," I replied.) How I pushed for Homicide and
finally got it.

He nodded glumly. "I read about that big case you worked on. Even down
south, it was all over the news."

"A real resume launcher." I told him how a month after, I'd been offered
the job as lieutenant.

My father leaned forward and placed a hand on my knee.

"I wanted to see you, Lindsay. A hundred times ... I don't know why I
didn't. I'm proud of you. Homicide's top of the line. When I look at you
... you're so ... strong, in control. So beautiful. I only wish I could
take a little of the credit."

"You can. You taught me I had no one to rely on but myself."

I got up, refilled his cup, and sat down again facing him.

"Look, I'm sorry things haven't worked out for you. I really am. But
it's been twenty-two years. Why are you here?" . I sat across from the
Hall in my car for three hours, trying to figure out the way to approach
you. I didn't know if you'd want to see me."

"I don't know if I do, Daddy." I tried to find the right words, and I
felt the edge of tears welling in my eyes. "You were never there. You
ran out on us. I can't just change the way I've felt for all these
years."

"I don't expect you to, Lindsay." he said. "I'm becoming an old man. An
old man who knows he's made a million mistakes. All I can do now is try
and reverse some of them."

I looked at him, half shaking my head in disbelief, half smiling, and
dabbing at my eyes. "Things are crazy here now. You heard about Mercer?"

"Of course." My father exhaled. I waited for him to say something, but
he simply shrugged. "I saw you on the news. You are stunning. Do you
know that, Lindsay?"

"Dad, please. Don't." This case needed everything I had right now. It
was madness. Here I was facing my father again.

"I don't know if I can handle this now.

"I don't know either," he said, tentatively reaching out for my hand.
"What about we try?"

Chapter 54.

NINE THE NEXT MORNING, Morris Ruddy the FBI senior agent, scribbled a
point on a yellow legal pad. "Okay, Lieutenant, when did you first
determine the chimera symbol pointed toward the white supremacist
movement?"

My head was still whirring from the events of the night before. The last
place I wanted to he was cooped up in a task force meeting, talking to
the Feebies.

"Your office clued us in," I replied, "in Quantico."

It was a bit of a lie, of course. Stu Kirkwood had only confirmed what I
had already learned from Cindy.

"Subsequently since you had that knowledge," the FBI man bored in, "how
many of these groups have you checked out?"

I gave him a frustrated look that read, We might actually start making
some progress if we could get out of this goddamn room.

"You read the files I gave you. We looked into two or three."

"You looked into one." He raised an eyebrow.

"Look," I explained, "we don't have a history of these groups operating
in this area. The method used in these killings seemed consistent with
other cases I had worked. I made a determination that we were dealing
with a serial killer. I'll admit, it's a gut call." "From these four
distinct acts," Ruddy said, "you narrowed it down that this was the act
of a single UNSUB, right?"

"Yeah. From that and seven years working Homicide." I didn't like his
tone.

"Look, Agent Ruddy this isn't a hearing," Sam Ryan, my chief of
detectives, finally said.

"I'm merely trying to determine how much of an effort we still have to
coordinate in this area," the FBI man replied.

"Look," I insisted, "these chimera clues weren't exactly popping out at
us in press releases. The white van was sighted by a six-year-old kid.
The second was on a wall of graffiti at the crime scene. Our M.E.
suggested that the Catchings shooting might not have been a random
bullet." "But even now," Ruddy said, "after your own chief of police has
been murdered, you still believe these killings aren't politically
motivated?"

"The killings might be politically motivated. I don't know the killer's
total agenda. But it's one guy and he's a nutcase. Where the hell is
this going?"

"Where it's going is murder number three," the other agent, Hull, cut
in. "The Davidson shooting." He hoisted his solid frame out of his seat
and stepped over to a flip chart on which each separate murder and the
pertinent details were listed in neat columns.

"Murders one, two, and four," he explained, "all had ties to this
Chimera. Davidson's murder doesn't tie in at all. We want to know what
makes you so sure we're dealing with the same guy." "You didn't see the
shot," I said.

"According to what I have" Hull leafed through his notes - "Davidson was
killed with a bullet from a totally different weapon."

"I didn't say ballistics, Hull, I said the shot. It was precision,
marksman caliber. Just like the one that killed Tasha Catchings."

"I guess my point," Hull continued, "is that we have no tangible
evidence linking the Davidson murder with the other three. If we stick
to simply the facts, not Inspector Boxer's hunch, there's nothing to
suggest we're not dealing with a politically motivated series of events.
Nothing."

At that moment, there was a knock at the conference room door, and
Charlie Clapper stuck his head in. Sort of like a shy groundhog peeking
out of his burrow.

Clapper nodded toward the FBI guys, then winked at me.

"I thought you'd be able to use this."

He put on the table a black-and-white rendering of a large sneaker
tread.

"You remember that shoe print we pulled off of the tar at the shooter's
position of Art Davidson's killing?" "Of course," I said.

He placed a second rendering beside the first. "This is one we were able
to take from a patch of wet soil at the Mercer scene."

The imprints were identical.

A hush filled the room. I looked at Agent Ruddy first, then Agent Hull.

"Course, they're just a standard pair of Reebok cross trainers," Charlie
explained.

From a pocket in his white lab coat, he removed a slide.

On it were tiny grains of powder. "We picked this up at the chief's
crime scene.

I leaned over and stared at traces of the same white chalk.

"One killer," I said. "One shooter."

Chapter 55.

I CALLED THE GIRLS `=/<+' TOGETHER for a quick lunch. I couldn't wait to see
them.

We met at Yerba Buena Gardens, and sat in the courtyard outside the new
IMAX, watching the kids play in the fountains, munching on take-out
salads and wraps. I went through everything, from the moment I left them
at Susie's, to the suspicion someone was following me, to taking down my
father outside my apartment.

"My God," uttered Claire. "The prodigal father."

For a moment, it was as if a dome of silence had shut us off from the
rest of the world. Everybody fixed on me with incredulous faces.

"When was the last time you'd seen him?" Jill asked.

"He was at my graduation from the academy. I didn't invite him, but he
knew somehow."

"He followed you?" Jill gasped. "From our meeting? Like some kind of
creepy perp? Yick," she said, cringing.

"Typical Marty Boxer." I exhaled. "That's my dad."

Claire put her hand on my arm. "So, what did he want?"

"I'm still not sure. It's like he wanted to make amends. He said my
sister Cat told him I was sick. He followed the bride and groom case. He
said he wanted to tell me how proud he was of me."

"That was months ago." Jill snorted, taking a bite of a
chicken-and-avocado wrap. "He sure took his time." "That's what I said."
I nodded.

Cindy shook her head. "He just decided after twenty years to show up at
your door?"

"I think it's a good thing, Lindsay," injected Claire. "You know me -
positive."

"A good thing that after twenty years he marches back in with a guilty
conscience."

"No, a good thing because he needs you, Lindsay. He's alone, right?" "He
told me he got married again for two years, but he's divorced. Imagine,
Claire, finding out years after the fact that your father got married
again."

"That's not the point, Lindsay," Claire replied. "He's reaching out. You
shouldn't be too proud to accept it."

"How do you feel?" inquired Jill.

I wiped my mouth, took a sip of iced tea and then a long breath. "The
truth? I don't even know. He's like some ghost from the past who brings
back a lot of bad memories. Everything he's touched has only hurt
people." "He's your father, honey," Claire said. "You've carried this
hurt around since I've known you. You should let him in, Lindsay. You
could have something you never had before."

"He could also kick her in the shins again," said Jill.

"Gee." Cindy looked over at Jill. "The prospect of motherhood hasn't
exactly made you all soft and gooey, has it?"

"One date with the reverend," Jill chuffed back, "and suddenly you're
the conscience of the group? I'm impressed."

We looked at Cindy, all of us suppressing smiles.

"That's true." Claire nodded. "You don't think you're going to get off
the hook, do you?"

Cindy began to blush. Never since I'd known her had I seen Cindy Thomas
blush.

"You guys do make quite the couple." I sighed.

"I like him," Cindy blurted. "We talked for hours. At a bar. Then he
took me home. The end."

"Sure." Jill grinned. "He's cute, he's got a steady job, and if you're
ever tragically killed, you don't have to worry about who will preside
over your service." "I hadn't thought of that one." Cindy finally
smiled.

"Look, it was one date. I'm doing a piece on him and the neighborhood.
I'm sure he won't ask me out again."

"But will you ask him out again?" said Jill.

"We're friends. No, we're friendly. It was a great couple of hours. I
guarantee, all of you would have enjoyed yourselves. It's research,"
Cindy said, and she folded her arms.

We all smiled. But Cindy was right; none of us would have turned down a
couple of hours with Aaron Winslow. I still got chills when I remembered
his talk at Tasha Catchings's funeral.

As we crumpled our trash, I turned to Jill. "So, how're you feeling? You
okay?" She smiled. "Pretty good, actually." Then she linked her hands
around her barely swollen belly and puffed out her cheeks as if to say
Fat ... "I've just got this last case to finish up on. Then, who knows,
I might even take some time off."

"I'll believe that when I see it." Cindy chortled. Claire and I mooned
our eyes in support.

"Well, you just might be surprised," Jill said.

"So what're you gonna do?" Claire turned to me as we got up to leave.

"Keep trying to link the victims. They'll connect."

She kept her eyes on me. "I meant about your dad."

"I don't know. It's a bad time, Claire. Now Marty comes barging in. If
he wants a dispensation, he can wait in line."

Claire stood up. She shot me one of her wise smirks.

"You obviously have a suggestion," I said.

"Naturally. Why not do what you normally do in situations of doubt and
stress?"

"And that is ... "

"Cook the man a meal."

Chapter 56.

THAT AFTERNOON, Cindy hunched in front of her computer at the Chronicle,
sipping a Stewart's Orange n' Cream, as she scrolled down another futile
query.

Somewhere, in the deepest bin of her memory there was something she had
filed away: a nagging recollection she couldn't place. Chimera ... the
word used in another context, some other form that would help the case.

She'd gone through CAL, the Chronicle's on-line archives, and come back
with zilch. She had browsed through the usual search engines: Yahoo,
Jeeves, Google. Her antennae were buzzing on high mode. She felt, as did
Lindsay, that this fantastical monster led somewhere other than hate
groups. It led to one very twisted and clever individual.

C'mon. She exhaled, jabbing the enter key in frustration. I know you're
in here somewhere.

The day was nearly gone, and she'd come up with nothing. Not even a lead
for tomorrow morning's edition. Her editor would be pissed. We have
readers, he would grumble.

Readers want continuity. She'd have to promise him something. But what?
The investigation was stalled.

When she found it, she was in Google, wearily eyeing down the eighth
page of responses. It hit her like a slap.

Chimera ... Hellhole, an expose of prison life in Pelican Bay, by
Antoine James. Posthumous publication of prison hardships, cruelties,
life of crime.

Pelican Bay. Pelican Bay was where they threw the worst of the worst
troublemakers in the California prison system. Violent offenders who
couldn't be controlled anywhere else.

She remembered now that she had read about Pelican Bay in the Chronicle,
maybe two years before. That was where she'd heard of Chimera. It was
how it fit. That was what had been needling her.

She spun her chair over to the CAL terminal on a nearby shelf. She
pushed her glasses up on her forehead and typed in the query Antoine
James.

Five seconds later, a response came up. One article, August 10, 1998.
Two years before. Written by Deb Meyer, a Sunday section feature writer.
Headlined: "POSTHUMOUS JOURNAL DETAILS NIGHTMARE WORLD OF VIOLENCE
BEHIND BARS."

She clicked on the display bar, and in another few seconds a facsimile
of the article flashed on the screen. It was a Lifestyle article in a
Sunday Metro section. Antoine James, while serving a ten-to-fifteen
sentence at Pelican Bay for armed robbery had been stabbed and killed in
a prison squabble. He had kept a journal detailing the unsettling story
of life on the inside, alleging a routine of forced snitching, racial
attacks, beatings by guards, and perpetual gang violence.

She printed the article, closed out of CAL, and spun her chair back
across to her desk. She leaned back in her chair and rested her feet on
a stack of books. She scanned the page.

"From the moment they process you through the doors, life in Pelican Bay
is a constant war of guard intimidation and gang violence," James had
written in a black composition book. "The gangs provide your status,
your identity, your protection, too. Everyone pledges out, and whatever
group you belong to controls who you are and what's expected of you."

Cindy's eyes raced further down. The prison was a viper's nest of gangs
and retaliation. The blacks had the Bloods and the Daggers, as well as
the Muslims. The Latinos had the Nortenos in their red headbands and the
Serranos in their blue, and the Mexican Mafia, Los Eme. Among the
whites, there were the Guineas and the Bikers, and some white-trash
shitbags called the Stinky Toilet People. And the supremacist Aryans.

"Some of the groups were ultra-secret," James wrote.

"Once you were in, nobody touched you.

"One of these white groups was particularly nasty All max guys, serving
violent felony time. They'd cut a brother open just to bet on what he
had to eat."

Adrenaline shot through Cindy as she stopped on the next sentence.

James had a name for the group Chimera.

Chapter 57.

I WAS JUST FINISHING UP for the day - nothing further on the four
victims and the white chalk still a mystery - when I got a call from
Cindy.

"The Hall still under martial law?" she quipped, referring to the
mayor's moratorium on the press.

"Trust me, it's no picnic on the inside either."

"Why don't you meet me? I've got something."

"Sure. Where?"

"Look out your window. I'm right outside."

I peered out and saw Cindy leaning on a car parked outside the Hall. It
was almost seven. I cleared my desk, called a quick good-night to
Lorraine and Chin, and ducked out the rear entrance. I ran across the
street and went up to Cindy.

She was in a short skirt and embroidered jean jacket, with a faded khaki
knapsack slung over her shoulder.

"Choir practice?" I winked.

"You should talk. Next time I see you in SWAT gear, I'll assume you have
a date with your dad."

"Speaking of Marty, I called him. I asked him over tomorrow night. So,
Deep Throat, what's so important that we're meeting out here?"

"Good news, bad news," Cindy said. She pulled off her knapsack and came
up with an 8 x 11 envelope. "I think I found it, Lindsay."

She handed me the envelope, and I opened it: a Chronicle article dated
two years ago about a prison diary Hellhole, by someone named Antoine
James. A few passages were highlighted in yellow. I began to read.

"Aryan ... worse than Arvan. All max guys. White, bad, and hating. We
didn't know who they hated worse, us, the '' they had to share their
meals with, or the cops and guards who had put them there.

"These bastards had a name for themselves. They called themselves
Chimera."

My eyes fixed on the word.

"They're animals, Lindsay. The worst troublemakers in the penal system.
They're even committed to carrying out each other's hits on the outside.

"That's the good news," she said. "The bad news is, it's Pelican Bay."

Chapter 58.

IN THE ANATOMY of the California state prison system, Pelican Bay was
the place where the sun don't shine.

The following day, I took Jacobi and "req'd" a police helicopter for the
hour's flight up the coast to Crescent City, near the Oregon border. I
had been to Pelican Bay twice before, to meet with a snitch on a murder
case and attend a parole hearing for someone I had put away. Each time,
as I flew over the dense redwood forest surrounding the facility, it
left a hole in the pit of my stomach.

If you were a law-enforcement agent - especially a woman - this was the
kind of place you didn't want to go.

There's a sign, as they process you through the front gate, warning that
if you're taken hostage you're on your own. No negotiations.

I had arranged to meet with the assistant warden, Roland Estes, in the
main administrative building. He kept us waiting for a few minutes. When
he showed up, Estes was tall and serious, with a hard face and tight
blue eyes. He had that clenched-fist unconfidingness that comes from
years of living under the highest discipline.

"I apologize for being late," he said, taking a seat behind his large
oak desk. "We had a disturbance down in O block. One of our resident
Nortenos stabbed a rival in the neck."

"How'd he get the knife?" Jacobi asked.

"No knives." Estes smiled thinly. "He used the filed-down edge of a
gardening hoe."

I wouldn't have had Estes's job for a heartbeat, but I also didn't like
the reputation this place had for beatings, intimidation, and the motto
"Snitch, Parole, or Die." "So, you said this was related to Chief
Mercer's murder, Lieutenant?" The warden leaned forward.

I nodded, removing a case file from my bag. "To a possible string of
murders. I'm interested in what you may know about a prison gang here."

Estes shrugged. "Most of these inmates have been in gangs from the time
they were ten. You'll find that every territory or gang domain that
exists in Oakland or East L.A. exists here."

"This particular gang is called Chimera," I said.

Estes registered no immediate surprise. "No starting with the small
stuff, huh, Lieutenant? So what is it you want to know?"

"I want to know if these murders lead to these men in Chimera. I want to
know if they're as bad as they're made out to be. And I want to know the
names of any reputed members who are now on the outside."

"The answer to all of that is yes." Estes nodded flatly.

"It's a sort of a trial by fire. Prisoners who can take the worst we can
dish out. The ones who have been in the SHU's, isolation, for a
substantial time. It earns them rank - and certain privileges."

"Privileges?"

"Freedom. In the way we define it here. From being debriefed. From
snitching."

"I'd like a list of any paroled members of this gang." The warden
smiled. "Not many get paroled. Some get transferred to other facilities.
I suspect there are Chimera offshoots at every max facility in the
state. And it's not like we have a file of who's in and who's not. It's
more like who gets to sit next to the Big Mother fucker at mess."

"But you know don't you? You know who's in."

"We know." The warden nodded. He stood up as if our interview had come
to an end. "It'll take some time. Some of this I need to consult on. But
I'll see what I can do."

"While I'm here, I might as well meet with him."

"Who, Lieutenant?"

"The Big Mother fucker. The head of Chimera."

Estes looked at me. "Sorry Lieutenant, no one gets to do that. No one
gets into the Pool."

I looked Estes in the eyes. "You want me to come back with a state order
to get it done? Listen, our chief of police is dead. Every politician in
this state wants this guy caught. I've got backing all the way. You
already know that. Bring the bastard up."

The warden's taut face relaxed. "Be my guest, Lieutenant. But he doesn't
leave. You go to him."

Estes picked up his phone and dialed a number. After apause, he muttered
sharply

"Get Weiscz ready. He has a visitor. It's a woman."

Chapter 59.

WE WENT THROUGH a long underground walkway accompanied by Estes and a
club-toting head guard named O'Koren.

When we came to a stairway marked SHU-C, the warden led us up, waving at
a security screen, then through a heavy compression door that opened
into the ultramodern prison ward.

Along the way he filled me in. "Like most of our inmates, Weiscz came in
from another facility. Folsom. He was the leader of the Aryan
Brotherhood there, until he strangled a black guard. He's been isolated
here for eighteen months now. Until we start sending people to the death
house in this state, there's nothing more we can do to him."

Jacobi leaned over and whispered, "You sure of what you're doing here,
Lindsay?"

I wasn't sure. My heart was starting to gallop, and my palms had busted
out in a nervous sweat. "That's why I brought you along."

"Yeah, "Jacobi muttered.

Pelican Bay's isolation unit was unlike anything I had ever seen.
Everything was painted a dull, sterile white. Burly khaki-uniformed
guards, of both sexes but uniformly white, manned glassed-in command
posts.

Monitors and security cameras were everywhere. Everywhere. The unit was
configured like a pod with ten cells, the compression-sealed doors
tightly shut.

Warden Estes stopped in front of a metal door with a large window.
"Welcome to ground zero of the human race," he said.

A muscular, balding senior guard holding a face visor and some sort of
Uzi-like taser gun came up. "Weiscz had to be extracted, Warden. I think
he'll need a few moments to loosen up."

I looked up at Estes. "Extracted?"

Estes sniffed. "You would think after being holed up a couple of months,
he'd be happy to get out. Just so you know what's coming next, Weiscz
was uncooperative. We had to send a team in to pretty him up for you."

He nodded toward the window. "There's your man ... "

I stepped in front of the solid pressure-sealed door.

Strapped to a metal chair, his feet bound in irons, his hands cuffed
from behind, hunched a hulking, muscular shape. His hair was long and
oily and straggly and he wore a thin, unkempt goatee. He was dressed in
an orange short-sleeved jumpsuit, open at the chest, revealing ornate
tattoos covering his pumped-up arms and chest.

The warden said, "There'll be a guard in there with you and you'll be
monitored at all times. Stay away from him. Don't get closer than five
feet. If he as much as juts his chin in your direction, he'll be
immobilized."

"The guy's bound and chained," I said.

"This sonofabitch eats chains," Estes said. "Believe it."

"Anything I can promise him?"

"Yeah." Estes smirked. "A Happy Meal. You ready ...?"

I winked at Jacobi, who widened his eyes in caution. My heart nearly
stopped, like a skeet target exploded out of the sky.

"Bon voyage," Estes muttered. Then he signaled the control booth. I
heard a ka-shoosh as the heavy compression door unlocked.

Chapter 60.

I STEPPED INTO THE STARK WHITE CELL. It was completely empty except for
a metal table and four chairs, all bolted to the floor, and two security
cameras high up on the walls. In a corner stood a silent, tight-lipped
guard holding a stun gun.

Weiscz barely acknowledged me. His legs were fastened and his hands
tightly cuffed behind the chair. His eyes had a steely inhuman quality
to them.

"I'm Lieutenant Lindsay Boxer," I said, stopping about five feet from
him.

Weiscz said nothing, only tilted his eyes toward me. Narrow, almost
phosphorescent slits.

"I need to talk to you about some murders that have taken place. I can't
promise you much. I'm hoping you'll hear me out. Maybe help."

"Blow me," he spat with a hoarse voice.

The guard took a step toward him, and Weiscz stiffened as if he'd taken
a jolt from the taser. I put up my hand to hold him back.

"You may know something about them," I continued, a chill shooting down
my spine. "I just want to know if they make sense to you. These killings... "

Weiscz looked at me curiously probably trying to size up if there was
something he could get from this. "Who's dead?"

"Four people. Two cops. One was my chief of police. A widow and an
eleven-year-old girl. All black." An amused smile settled over Weiscz's
face. "In case you haven't noticed, lady, my alibi's airtight."

"I'm hoping you may know something about them, then."

"Why me?"

From my jacket pocket, I took out the same two chimera photos I had
shown Estes and held them in front of his face.

"The killer's been leaving these behind. I believe you know what it
means."

Weiscz grinned broadly. "I don't know what you came in here for, but you
don't fucking know how that warms my heart."

"The killer's a Chimera, Weiscz. You cooperate, you could gain back some
privileges. They can always move you out of this hole."

"Both of us know I'll never get out of this hole."

"There's always something, Weiscz. Everybody wants something."

"There is something," he finally said. "Come closer."

My body stiffened. "I can't. You know that."

"You got a mirror, don't you?"

I nodded. I had a makeup mirror in my purse.

"Shine it on me."

I looked at the guard. His head twitched a firm no.

For the first time, Weiscz looked in my eyes. "Shine it on me. I haven't
seen myself in over a year. Even the shower fixtures are dulled here so
you can't see a reflection. These bastards just want you to forget who
the fuck you were. I want to see."

The guard stepped forward. "You know that's impossible, Weiscz."

"Fuck you, Labont." He glared viciously up at the cameras.

"Fuck you, too, Estes." Then he turned back to me. "They didn't send you
in here with much to bargain with, did they?"

"They said I could take you out for a Happy Meal," I said with a slight
smile.

"Just you and me, huh?"

I glanced at the guard. "And him."

Weiscz's goatee split into a smile. "These bastards, they know how to
ruin everything."

I stood there nervously. I didn't laugh. I didn't want to show the
slightest empathy for him.

But I sat myself at the table across from Weiscz. I fumbled in my bag,
took out a compact. I expected any minute a loud voice was going to
blare over the intercom, or the stone-faced guard was going to rush over
and knock it away. To my amazement, no one interfered. I cracked the
compact open, looked at Weiscz, then I turned it toward him.

I don't know what he looked like before, but he was a horrific sight
now. He stared at himself, wide-eyed, the truth of his harsh confinement
setting in. He fixed on the mirror as if it were the last thing he would
see on earth. Then he looked at me and grinned. "Not much to go on, for
that blow-me thing, is there?"

I don't know why but I gave him a begrudging smile.

Then he twisted his neck around to the cameras. "Fuck you, Estes," he
roared. "See? I'm still there. You try to squeeze me out, but I'm still
there. The reckoning is going on without me. Chimera, baby ... Glory to
the unstained hand who stills the rabble and swarm.

"Who would do this?" I pressed. "Tell me, Weiscz." He knew I knew he
knew. Someone he had shared a cell with.

Someone he had traded histories with in a prison yard.

"Help me, Weiscz. Someone you know is killing these people. You've got
nothing to gain anymore.

His eyes lit up with a sudden fury. "You think I give a shit about your
dead niggers? Your dead cops? Soon the state will be gathering them up
anyway. Putting them in pens. A twelve-year-old nigger whore, some
monkeys dressed up as cops. I only wish it was my finger on the trigger.
We both know, whatever I say to you, I'll never get as much as a second
meal out of these bastards. The minute you leave, Labont's gonna stun me
anyway. There's a better chance you'll suck my dick."

I shook my head, stood up, and motioned for the door.

"Maybe one of your own assholes has come to his senses," he yelled with
a smirk. "Maybe that's what it was, an inside job."

A tremor of rage burned through me. Weiscz was an animal. There wasn't
an ounce of humanity in him. All I wanted to do was slam the door in his
face. "I did give something to you, even if it was for a moment," I
said.

"And don't be so sure you didn't get something in return. You'll never
catch him. He's Chimera ... " Weiscz jerked his head down to his chest,
pointing at a tattoo high on his shoulder. All I could make out was the
tail of a snake. "We can endure as much as you can dish, copper lady.
Look at me ... They stuff me in this hellhole, they make me eat my own
shit, but I can still win." Suddenly, he was loud and angry again,
twisting at his restraints. "Victory comes in the end. God's grace is
the white race. Long live Chimera."

I moved away from him, and Weiscz twisted defiantly.

"So what about that Happy Meal, bitch?"

As I got to the door, I heard a zap followed by a garbled grunt, and
turned as the guard pumped a thousand watts into Weiscz's twitching
chest.

Chapter 61.

WE CAME BACK TO TOWN with a few names, courtesy of Estes. Recent
parolees thought to be members of Chimera.

Back at the Hall, Jacobi parceled out the list to Cappy and Chin.

"I'm gonna start calling a few PQ's," he said to me. "You want to join?

I shook my head. "I have to leave early, Warren.

"Whatsamatter, don't tell me you got a date?"

"Yeah." I nodded. No doubt my face sort of lit into an incredulous
smile. "I've got a date."

The downstairs buzzer rang about seven.

When I opened the door, my father was peeking out from behind a
catcher's mask, his hands outstretched in a defensive pose. "Friends
...?" he asked, an apologetic smile sneaking through.

"Dinner ... " I smiled begrudgingly "That's the best I can do." "That's
a start," he said, stepping in. He had cleaned himself up. He was
wearing a brown sport jacket, pressed pants, an open-collared white
shirt. He handed me a bottle of red wine wrapped in paper.

"You didn't have to," I said, unfurling the wine, then gasping in
surprise as I read the label. It was a first-growth Bordeaux, Chateau
Latour, the year 1965. I looked at him; 1965 was the year I was born.

"I bought it a year after you were born. It was about the only thing I
took with me when I left. I always figured we'd drink it on your
graduation or something, maybe your wedding."

"You kept it all these years." I shook my head.

He shrugged. "Like I said, I bought it for you. Anyway, Lindsay, there's
nothing I'd rather do than drink it here tonight."

Something warm rose inside me. "You're making it hard to continue to
completely hate you.

"Don't hate me, Lindsay." He tossed me the catcher's mask.

"This doesn't fit. I don't ever want to have to use it again."

I took him into the living room, poured him a beer, and sat down. I had
on a wine-colored Eileen Fisher sweater, my hair pulled up in a
ponytail. His eyes seemed to twinkle at me.

"You look gorgeous, Buttercup," my father said.

When I scowled, he smiled. "I can't help it, you just do."

For a while we talked, Martha lying beside him as if he were an old
friend. We talked about trivial things, things we knew. Who was left
from his old cronies on the force. Cat, and her new daughter he hadn't
seen. Whether Jerry Rice would call it quits. We skirted the subject of
Mercer and the case.

And as if I were meeting someone for the first time, I found him
different from what I imagined. Not garrulous and boastful and full of
stories as I remembered, but humble and reserved. Almost contrite. And
he still had his sense of humor.

"I've got something to show you," I said. I went into the hall closet
and came back with the satin Giants baseball jacket he'd given me over
twenty-five years before. It was embroidered with a number 24 and had
the name Mays on the front chest.

My father's eyes flashed in surprise. "I'd forgotten about that. I got
it from the equipment manager in nineteen sixty-eight." He held it in
front of him and looked at it a long time, like an old relic that had
made the past suddenly vivid. "You have any idea what that thing must be
worth today?" "I always called it my inheritance," I told him.

Chapter 62.

I DID SALMON on the grill in a ginger-miso sauce, fried rice with
peppers, leeks, and peas. I remembered that my father liked Chinese. We
cracked the '65 Latour. It was a dream wine, silky and gemlike. We satin
the alcove overlooking the bay. My father said it was the best bottle of
wine he'd ever tasted.

The conversation gradually drifted toward more personal things. He asked
what kind of man I had been married to, and I admitted, unfortunately,
someone like himself. He asked if I resented him, and I had to tell him
the truth. "Yeah. A lot, Dad." Gradually, we even talked about the case.
I told him how tough it was to solve, how I held it against myself that
I couldn't crack it. How I was sure it was a serial, but four murders
into the case, I still had nothing.

We talked for three more hours, until after eleven, the wine bottle
empty, Martha asleep at his feet. Every once in a while I had to remind
myself that I was talking to my own father. That I was sitting across
from him for the first time in my adult life. And slowly, I began to
see. He was just a man who had made mistakes, and who had been punished
for them. He was no longer someone I could blindly resent, or hate. He
hadn't murdered anybody. He wasn't Chimera. By the standards I dealt
with, his sins were forgivable.

Gradually, I could no longer hold back the question I'd been wanting to
ask for so many years. "I have to know the answer to this. Why did you
leave?"

He took a swallow of wine and leaned back against the couch. His blue
eyes looked so sad. "There's nothing I could say that would make sense
of it to you. Not now ... You're a grown woman. You're on the force. You
know how things get. Your mother and I ... Let's just say we were never
a good match, even for the old school. I had squandered most of what we
had on the games. I had a lot of debts, borrowed money on the street.
That's not exactly kosher for a cop. I did a lot of things I wasn't very
proud of ... as a man and as a cop."

I noticed his hands were trembling. "You know how sometimes, someone
commits a crime simply because the situation gets so bad that one by
one, the options just close off and they're unable to do anything else?
That's how it was for me. The debts, what was going on on the job ... I
didn't see any other choice. I just left. I know it's a little late to
say this, but I've regretted it every day of my life."

"And when Mom got sick.

"I was sorry when she got sick. But by then I had a new life, and no one
made it seem like I was welcome to come back. "I thought it would hurt
her more than help." "I know Mom always told me you were a pathological
liar."

"That's the truth, Lindsay," my father said. I liked the way he admitted
it. I liked my father, actually.

I had to get up, shift gears. I started taking the dishes into the
kitchen. My chest was heaving. I felt like I might be going to cry. My
father was back, and I was starting to realize how much I had missed
him. In a crazy way I still wanted to be his girl.

My father helped with the dishes. I rinsed them off, and he loaded them
in the dishwasher. We barely said a word. My whole body was vibrating.

When the dishes were done, we just sort of turned and met each other's
eyes. "So where're you staying? " I asked.

"With an ex-cop buddy of mine, Ron Fazio. He used to be a district
sergeant out in Sunset. He's got me on his couch."

I washed out a pasta pot. "I have a couch," I said.

Chapter 63.

ALL THE FOLLOWING DAY we pounded on the list of names Warden Estes and
his people had given us. Two we crossed off immediately. A computer
check indicated they had become re-associated with the California penal
system, currently residing in other institutions.

Something Weiscz had said the day before had stuck in my head.

"I gave you something," I had said, as the convict raved about the white
race.

"And I gave you something back," he had replied. The words hung in my
mind. They had first hit me at two in the morning, and I rolled back to
sleep. They had accompanied me on my morning drive. And they were still
with me now. I gave you something back."

I slipped my feet out of my pumps and stared out my window at the
freeway ramp starting to back up with traffic. I tried to retrace my
encounter with Weiscz.

He was an animal who never had a chance of seeing the light of day.
Still, I felt there had almost been a moment with him, a bond. All he
wanted in that hellhole was to see what he looked like. I gave you
something back.

So what did he give me?

"You think I give a shit about your dead niggers?" he had seethed. "Long
live Chimera," he had hollered as they put him under.

Then, slowly, my mind settled on it.

"Maybe one of your own assholes has come to his senses. Maybe that's
what it was, an inside job." -

I didn't know if I had gone off the deep end or what. Was I reaching for
something that wasn't there? Was Weiscz actually telling me something he
could never be held accountable for?

An inside job ... I dialed Estes at Pelican Bay. "Any of your inmates up
there ever been an ex-cop?" I asked.

"A cop." The warden paused.

"Yeah." I explained why I wanted to know.

"Excuse my French," Estes shot back, "but Weiscz was fucking with you.
He was trying to get inside your head. The bastard hates cops."

"You didn't answer my question, Warden."

"A cop ...?" Estes grunted a derisive snort.

"We had a bad narcotics inspector out of LA., Bellacora.

Shot three of his informants. But he was transferred out. To my
knowledge, he's still in Fresno." I remembered reading about the
Bellacora case. It was as dirty and low as law enforcement got.

"We had a customs inspector, Benes, who on the side was running a dope
ring at San Diego Airport."

"Anyone else?"

"No, not in my six years."

"What about before that, Estes?"

He grunted impatiently. "How far back do you want me to go, Lieutenant?"

"How long has Weiscz been there?"

"Twelve years."

"Then that's how far."

It was clear the warden thought I was crazy. He hung up saying he would
have to get back to me.

I put down the phone. This was wild - trusting Weiscz for anything. He
hated cops. I was a cop. He probably hated women, too.

Suddenly, Karen, my secretary, burst in. She looked stunned. "Jill
Bernhardt's assistant just called in. Ms. Bernhardt's collapsed."

"Collapsed ...?"

Karen nodded blankly. "She's bleeding. Upstairs. She needs you up there,
now."

Chapter 64.

I RACED DOWN THE HALL to the elevator and then to Jill's office.

As I charged in, she was on the couch, reclined.

An EMS team, which had fortunately been at the morgue, was already
there. There were towels, bloody towels, stuffed under her dark blue
skirt. Her face was averted, but she looked as gray and listless and
afraid as I had ever seen her.

In an instant, it was clear what had happened.

"Oh, Jill," I said, kneeling beside her. "Oh, sweetie. I'm here."

She smiled when she saw me, slightly wary and afraid.

Her normally sharp blue eyes reflected the color of dismal skies. "I
lost it, Lindsay," she said. "I should've quit work. I should've
listened to them. To you. I thought I wanted the baby more than
anything, but maybe I didn't. I lost it."

"Oh, Jill." I grasped her hand. "It wasn't you. Don't say that. This was
medical. There was a chance of this. You knew that going in. There was
always this risk."

"It was me, Lindsay." Her eyes suddenly welled with tears.

"I think I didn't want it badly enough."

A female EMS tech asked me to step away, and they hooked Jill up to an
IV line and a monitor. My heart went out to her. She was usually so
strong and independent. But I had seen a transformation in her; she had
looked forward to this baby so much. How did she deserve this?

"Where's Steve, Jill?" I leaned down to her.

She sucked in a breath. "Denver. April reached him. He's on his way
back."

Suddenly, Claire burst into the room. "I came as soon as I heard," she
said. She glanced worriedly at me, then asked the med tech, "What do you
have?" She was told that Jill's vitals were good, but she'd lost a lot
of blood. When Claire mentioned the baby the technician shook her head.

"Oh, honey," Claire clasped Jill's hand, kneeling down.

"How're you feeling?"

Tears were running down Jill's face. "Oh, Claire, I lost it. I lost my
baby."

Claire stroked a curl of damp hair off Jill's forehead.

"You're going to be all right. Don't worry. We're going to take good
care of you."

"We have to move her now," the EMS tech said. "Her doctor's been called.
She's waiting for us at Cal Pacific."

"We're going with you," I said. "We're gonna be with you all the way."

Jill forced a smile, then stiffened. "They're going to make me deliver,
aren't they?"

"I don't think so," Claire replied.

"I know they are." Jill shook her head. She had more resolve than anyone
I knew, but the scary truth forming in her eyes was something I'll
remember the rest of my life.

The door opened, and another EMS tech wheeled in a gurney. "It's time to
go," said the woman who'd been working on her.

I bent down close to Jill. "We're going to be with you," I said.

"Don't leave me," she said, and held my hand.

"You can't get rid of us that easily."

"Homicide Chicks, right?" Jill murmured with a tight smile.

They eased her onto the gurney. Claire and I helped. A bloody towel fell
limply onto the floor of her spotless office.

"It's going to be a boy." Jill whispered, letting out a pained breath.
"I wanted a boy." I guess I can admit it now."

I folded her hands gently on her lap.

"I just didn't want it badly enough," Jill said, and then she finally
started to sob and couldn't stop.

Chapter 65.

WE RODE IN THE BACK of the EMS truck with Jill to the hospital, ran
alongside the gurney as they wheeled her up to obstetrics, and waited as
her doctors tried to save the child.

As they moved her into the OR,, she gripped my hand.

"They always seem to win," she murmured. "No matter how many of these
bastards you put away, they always find a way to win."

Cindy had rushed down, and the three of us hung there waiting to see
Jill. About two hours later, her husband, Steve, hurried in. We
exchanged some awkward hugs, and part of me wanted to tell him, Don't
you fucking realize this baby was for you? When the doctor came out, we
let them be alone.

Jill was right. She had lost the baby. They called it a placental
abruption, made worse from the stress of the job. The only good news was
that the fetus had been removed surgically. Jill hadn't had to deliver
it.

Afterward, Claire, Cindy and I filed out of the hospital onto California
Street. No one wanted to go home. There was this Japanese place nearby
that Cindy knew. We went there and sat around drinking beer and sake.

It was hard to accept that Jill, who worked tirelessly at the office,
who rock-climbed at Moab and biked the rough terrain in Sedona, had
twice been denied a child.

"The poor girl's just too damn hard on herself." Claire sighed, warming
her hands with her sake cup. "We all told her she had to ratchet it
down."

"Jill doesn't have that gear," said Cindy -.

I picked up a California roll and turned it over an dover in the sauce.
"She did it to please Steve. You could see it on her face. She keeps
that impossible schedule. She doesn't give anything up. And he's running
around the country willing investment bankers."

"She loves him," protested Cindy. "They're a team."

"They're not a team, Cindy. Claire and Edmund are a team. The two of
them, they're in a race.

"It's true," Claire agreed. "That girl always has to be number one. The
girl can't fail."

"So which one of us is any different?" Cindy asked. She looked around.
Waited.

There was a moment of protracted silence. Our gazes met with contrite
smiles.

"But it's deeper than that," I said. "Jill's different. She's tough as
nails, but in her heart she feels alone. Any of us could be where she is
now. We're not invincible. Except you, Claire. You have this mechanism
that just keeps it together, you and Edmund and your kids, like that
fucking battery rabbit, on and on and on." Claire smiled. "Someone has
to provide the balance around here. You saw your dad last night, didn't
you?"

I nodded. "It went pretty well. I guess. We talked, we got some things
out." "No fisticuffs?" Cindy asked.

"No fisticuffs." I smiled. "When I opened the door, he had on a
catcher's mask. I'm serious."

Claire and Cindy laughed out loud.

"He brought me this bottle of wine. Fancy French first-growth. Nineteen
sixty-five. He bought it the year I was born. Kept it all these years.
How do you figure that? He never even knew if he'd ever see me again."
"He knew he'd see you again," Claire said with a smile.

She sipped her sake. "You're his beautiful daughter. He loves you." "So
how'd you leave it, Lindsay?" Cindy asked.

"I guess you could say we agreed to a second date. Actually, I told him
he could stay with me for a while."

Cindy and Claire both blinked.

"We told you to loosen up and see him, Lindsay."

Cindy snorted. "Not ask him to share the rent."

"What can I tell you? He was camped out on someone's couch. It seemed
like the right thing to do."

"It is, honey." Claire smiled. "Here's to you.

"Uh-uh." I shook my head. "Here's to Jill." "Yeah, here's to Jill,"
Cindy said, lifting her beer.

We all clinked. Then it was quiet for a moment or two.

"I don't mean to change the subject," Cindy said, "but you want to share
where you are on the case?"

I nodded. "We're looking into the Chimera names Warden Estes gave us.
But today I came up with a new theory."

"New theory?" Cindy wrinkled her brow.

I nodded. "Look, this guy's a trained shooter.

He's made no mistakes. He's been one step ahead of us on every move. He
knows how we work."

Cindy and Claire were listening. Not a word. I told them what Weiscz had
said to me. An inside job.

"What if Chimera isn't a crazy racist killer from one of these radical
groups?" I leaned forward. "What if he's a cop?"

Chapter 66.

IN A DARK BAR, Chimera sipped his Guinness. The best for the best, he
thought.

Next to him, a white-haired man with a blotchy red, dry-as-parchment
face was downing Tom Collinses, glancing up at the TV. The news was on.
An insipid reporter was giving the latest on the Chimera case, getting
it all wrong, insulting the public, insulting him.

He kept his eyes peeled across the street through the bar's large
window. He had followed the next victim here. This one he would relish.
All those cops, chasing down the wrong leads. This kill would really set
them on their heels.

"It's not over," he muttered under his breath. And don't ever get the
idea that I'm predictable. I'm not.

The drunk old-timer next to him gave him a nudge. "I think the bastard's
one of them," he said.

"One of them?" Chimera asked. "Watch your elbows. And what the hell are
you talking about?"

"Black as the ace of spades," the old man said. "They're combing through
those hate groups. Ha, what a laugh. This is some sick jungle bunny
minus one jar on the shelf. Probably plays in the NFL. Hey Ray." he
called to the bartender.

"Probably plays in the NFL ... " "What makes you say that?" Chimera
asked, his eyes flicking across the street. He was curious about what
his public was thinking. Maybe he ought to do more man-on-the-street
interviews like this one.

"You think any motherfucker with a set of brains would leave clues like
that?" the old man whispered conspiratorially.

"I think you're jumping a little fast, old-timer."

Chimera finally grinned. "I think this killer's pretty smart."

"How smart can you be to be a fucking murderer?" "Smart enough not to
get caught," Chimera said.

The man scowled at the screen. "Yeah, well, when it comes out, you
watch. They're looking under the wrong rug. There's gonna be one big
surprise. Maybe it's O.J. Hey, Ray, someone should check if O. J.'s in
town."

He had taken just about as much as he could of the drunk. But the guy
was right about one thing. The San Francisco cops were lost in space.
Man, they didn't have a clue.

Lieutenant Lindsay Boxer was nowhere on this. Not even close to him.

"I'll bet you something." Chimera grinned at the old man.

He put his face close to him, his eyes wide. "If they catch him, I'll
bet you he has green eyes.

Suddenly across the street, he spotted his target on the street. Well,
maybe this will help Lieutenant Boxer focus. A hit real close to home. A
little sidebar that he just couldn't resist. He tossed a few dollars on
the bar.

"Hey, what's the rush?" The old man turned to him. "Let me buy you
another brew. Hey what the hell, you got green eyes, buddy."

Chimera spun out of his seat. "Gotta go. There's my date."

Chapter 67.

ON THE LONG DRIVE HOME, Claire Washburn kept coming back to what had
happened to poor Jill. The whole ride down 101 to her home in
Burlingame, she couldn't put the terrible thought away.

She exited the highway at Burlingame and wound her way up into the
hills. Her head pounded with weariness. It had been such a long day.
These terrible murders, pulling the city apart. Then Jill losing her
baby.

The digital clock on the dashboard said twenty past ten. Edmund was
playing tonight. He wouldn't be back until sometime after eleven. She
wished he would be home.

Tonight of all nights.

Claire swung onto Skytop and, a few yards later, into the driveway of
her modern Georgian home. The house was dark; that's how it was these
days now that Reggie was away at college. Willie, her high school
sophomore, was no doubt in his room playing video games.

All she wanted to do was to peel off her work clothes and slip quietly
into her pajamas. Put an end to this horrible day ... Inside, Claire
called out for Willie and, hearing no response, flashed through the mail
on the kitchen table and brought it into the study. She leafed absently
through a Ballard Designs catalog.

The phone rang. Claire tossed down the catalog and picked up the phone.
Hello ... "

There was a hollow pause, as if someone were waiting.

Maybe one of Willie's friends.

"Hello ...?" Claire called again. "Once, twice ... last time. Still no
answer. "Good-bye."

She placed the phone back on the receiver.

A shiver of nervousness went through her. Even after all these years,
when she was alone in the house, an unexpected noise, the lights on in
the basement, sent a tremor through her.

The phone rang again. This time, she picked it up quickly.

"Hello ... " Another annoying pause. This was starting to get her
pissed. "Who is this?" she demanded.

"Take a guess," a male voice said.

Claire's breath came to a stop. She glanced at her caller ID.

"Listen, 901-4476," she said, "I don't know what your game is or how you
got our number. If you've got something to say, say it fast."

"You know about Chimera?" the voice replied. "You're speaking to him.
Aren't you honored?"

Claire froze. She arched upright in her chair. Her mind shot into gear:
Chimera was a police department name. Had it ever been in print? Who
knew she was involved in the investigation?

She pressed a separate line, about to punch in 911. "You better tell me
who this really is," she said.

"I told you" The little black choir girl was number one," the voice
replied. "The old bitch, the fat, unsuspecting cop, the boss ... You
know what they all had in common, don't you? Think about it, Claire
Washburn. Do you have anything in common with the first four victims?"

Claire's body had begun to shake. Her mind drew a picture of the
elaborate shots that had killed two of the victims.

Her eyes shifted outside the study window, to the darkness around her
house.

The voice came back, "Lean a little to the left, huh, Doe?"

Chapter 68.

CLAIRE SPUN just as the first bullet splintered through the glass.

A second shot shattered the study window, and Claire felt burning pain
sear her neck. She was down on the floor as a third and fourth shot
exploded into the room.

A startled cry came from her throat. There was blood on the floor, blood
from her own neck, seeping onto her dress, her hands. Her heart beat
madly. How bad was it? Had it severed the carotid artery?

Then she looked to the doorway and her blood froze.

Willie.

"Mom!" he exclaimed. His eyes were bulging with fear.

He was only wearing a T-shirt and briefs. He was a target.

"Willie, get down," she screamed at him. "Someone's shooting at the
house."

The boy dove to the floor, and Claire scrambled over to him. "It's okay.
Just stay down. Let me think," she whispered.

"Don't you raise your head an inch."

The pain in her neck was excruciating, like the skin had been sheared
off. She could breathe, though. If the bullet had pierced her carotid,
she'd be choking. The gash was surface, had to be.

"Mom, what's going on?" Willie whispered. His body was trembling like a
leaf. She'd never seen him this way.

"I don't know. Just stay down, Willie."

Suddenly four more shots blazed from outside. She held her son tight.
Whoever it was was shooting blindly, trying to hit anything. Did the
killer know she was still alive? A jolt of panic set in; what if he came
in the house? Did the killer know about her son? He knew her name!

"Willie," she gasped, cupping his head between her hands.

"Get down in the basement. Lock the door. Call nine one one. Crawl! Now!
On your stomach!"

"I'm not going to leave you," he cried.

"Go," her voice replied sharply. "Go now. Do as I say. Stay down! I love
you, Willie."

Claire pushed Willie forward. "Call nine one one. Tell them who you are
and what's happening. Then call Dad in the car" He should be on his way
home."

Willie shot her a last, pleading look, but he understood.

He crawled, face and body pressed to the floor. Good boy Your mother
didn't raise any dumb ones.

Another blast of gunfire came from outside. Sucking in a breath, Claire
pleaded, "Please, God, don't let that bastard come into our house. Don't
let that happen, I beg you."

Chapter 69.

CHIMERA SQUEEZED OFF four more rounds through the shattered window,
smoothly swiveling the PSG-1 rifle in his hands.

He knew he'd hit her. Not with the first shot; she had spun around at
the last second. But with the next one, as she was trying to hit the
deck. He just didn't know if he had done the job. He wanted to send a
message to Lieutenant Lindsay Boxer, and just wounding her friend wasn't
good enough.

Claire Washburn had to die.

He sat in the cover of the dark street, the barrel of the rifle
protruding from the car window. He needed to make sure she was dead,
but, damn it, he didn't want to go into the house.

She had a son, and he might be in there. One of them might have called
911.

Suddenly outside lights flashed from a house down the street. At
another, someone stepped out onto the lawn.

"Goddamnit," he seethed. "Son of a bitch." Part of him wanted to charge
the shattered window and spray the room with a barrage. Washburn had to
die. He didn't want to leave without finishing her.

From behind him came noise. A car turned wildly onto the street, its
horn blaring, bright lights flickering on and off.

The car sped toward him like some meteor barreling right into his sight.

"What the hell is this now?"

Maybe she had called the cops. Maybe as soon as they heard the shots,
the neighbors had. He couldn't risk it. She wasn't the one he would put
himself on the line for. He wasn't going to get caught.

The honking, flashing car spun sharply into the driveway of the house.
It screeched to a halt. The neighbors began to emerge from their homes.

He slammed the wheel with his hand and pulled in his gun. He put his car
in gear and floored it.

It was the first time he had messed up. Ever. Jesus, he never made
mistakes.

You're lucky, Doe. But you were target practice anyway.

It was the next one that mattered.

Chapter 70.

I HAD TAKEN OFF MY MAKEUP and curled up to watch the late news when
Edmund's call came.

Claire's husband was frantic, stammering. The impossibility of what he
was struggling to describe slammed into me with the force of a train.
"She'll be all right, Lindsay. She's at Peninsula Hospital now."

I yanked a fleece pullover over my head, tugged on some jeans, and,
throwing a top hat on the roof of the car, raced down to Burlingame. I
made the forty-minute drive in under twenty minutes.

I found Claire still in one of the treatment rooms, sitting upright,
dressed in the same rust-colored suit I had left her in only three hours
before. A doctor was applying a bandage to her neck. Edmund and Willie
were by her side.

"Jesus, Claire ... " was all I could manage, my eyes hot and moist. I
melted into Edmund, resting my head on his shoulder, and gave him my
warmest, most grateful hug. Then I threw my arms all over Claire.

"Go easy on the TLC, honey" She winced, jerking her neck. Then she
managed a smile. "I always told you one day these fat cells would come
in handy. It takes a helluva shot to reach anything vital in me."

I was still squeezing her. "Do you have any idea how lucky you are?"

"Yeah." She exhaled. I could see it in her eyes. "Believe me, I know."

The bullet had only grazed her. The ER doctor had cleaned the wound,
bandaged it, and was releasing her without even keeping her overnight.
Another inch, and we wouldn't have been talking now.

Claire reached out for Edmund's and Willie's hands and smiled. "My men
did okay, didn't they? Both of them. Edmund's car scared the sniper
away."

Edmund grimaced. "I should've chased that bastard myself. If I'd caught
him ... "

"Down, tiger." Claire smiled. "Let Lindsay be the heat.

You stay a drummer. I always told you," she said, squeezing his hand,
"Rachmaninoff might be in his head, but when it comes to his heart, the
man's all Doggy Dogg."

Almost at once, the reality of what had almost happened seemed to
overwhelm him. Edmund's bravado melted away.

He sat down, just leaned against Claire for a while, and as he tried to
speak, put a hand over his eyes. Claire held his hand without speaking.

A little more than an hour later, after going through the story with the
Burlingame Police, we walked the grounds outside her house.

"It was him, wasn't it, Claire? It was Chimera." She nodded her head,
yes. "He's a real cold sonofabitch, Lindsay. I heard him say, "Lean a
little to the left, Doe.' Then he started firing."

Local cops and the San Mateo County sheriff's office were still
scrambling all over the house and yard. I had already called Clapper to
come down and lend a hand.

Claire said, "Why me, Lindsay?"

"I don't know, Claire. You're black. You work in law enforcement. I
don't understand it myself. Why would he change his pattern?"

"We're talking calm and deliberate, Lindsay. It was like he was toying
with me. He made it sound ... personal." I thought I saw something I had
never seen in her before. Fear. Who could blame her? "Maybe you should
take some time off, Claire," I told her. "Stay out of sight."

"You think I'm gonna let him push me under a rock? That's not a
possibility, Lindsay. No way I let him win."

I gave her a gentle hug. "You're okay?"

"I'm okay. He had his chance. Now I want mine."

Chapter 71.

I FINALLY DRAGGED MYSELF back to my apartment at sometime after two in
the morning.

The events of the long, horrible day - Jill losing her child, Claire's
terrifying ordeal - flipped by like some old-time nightmare film
sequence. The man I was tracking had almost killed my best friend. Why
Claire? What could it mean? Part of me felt responsible, dirtied by the
crime.

My body ached. I wanted to sleep; I needed to wash away the day.
Suddenly, the door to the guest bedroom opened, and my father shuffled
out. In the madness of the day, I had almost forgotten he was here.

He was wearing a long white T-shirt and boxers with a seashell pattern.
Somehow, with the deprivation of sleep, I found this funny.

"You're wearing boxers, Boxer," I said. "You're a witty old bastard."
Then I told him what had happened. As a former cop, he would understand.
Surprisingly, my father was a good listener. Just what I needed right
about then.

He came around to my side of the couch. "You want coffee? I'll go make
it, Lindsay."

"Brandy would do the trick better. But there's some Moonlight Sonata tea
on the counter there if you're up to it." It was nice to have someone
here, and he seemed eager to calm me.

I sank back in the couch, shut my eyes, and tried to figure out what I
was going to do next. Davidson, Mercer and now Claire Washburn ... Why
would Chimera come after Claire?

What did it mean?

My father came back with a cup of tea and a snifter of Courvoisier two
inches full. "I figure you're a big girl. So why not both."

I took a sip of tea, then drank about half the brandy in a gulp. "Oh, I
needed that. Almost as much as I need a break on this case. He's leaving
clues, but I still don't get it."

"Take it easy on yourself, Lindsay," my father said in the gentlest
voice.

"What do you do," I asked, "when everyone in the world is watching and
you have no idea what to do next? When you realize that whatever you're
fighting isn't giving in, that you're fighting a monster?"

"That's about where we usually called in Homicide," my father said with
a smile.

"Don't try to make me laugh," I begged. But my father had me smiling in
spite of everything. Even more surprising to me, I was starting to think
of him as my father.

His tone suddenly changed. "I can tell you what I did when it really got
tough. I took off. You won't do that, Lindsay. I can tell. You're so
much better than me."

He was looking squarely at me, no longer smiling.

What happened next, I would never have believed. My father's arms just
sort of parted, and almost without resistance, I found myself burrowing
into his shoulder. He wrapped his arms around me, a little tentatively
at first, then, just like any father and any daughter, he squeezed me
with tender care. I didn't resist. I could smell the same cologne he
wore when I was a child. It felt both strange and, at the same time,
like the most natural thing in the world.

Having my father hold me unexpectedly, it felt like layers of pain were
suddenly stripped away.

"You're going to catch him, Lindsay," I heard him whisper, squeezing me
and rocking"

"You will, Buttercup..

It was just what I needed to hear.

"Oh, Daddy," I said. Nothing more, though"

Chapter 72.

"LIEUTENANT BOXER." Brenda buzzed me early Monday. "Warden Estes from
Pelican Bay Line two." I picked up the phone, not expecting much.

"You asked if we had ever had a policeman imprisoned here," Estes said.

I perked up immediately. "And?"

"Mind you, I don't give a shit about some lunatic ravings from Weiscz"
But I did go back through the old files. There was a case here that
might have some relevance. Twelve years ago. I was the warden at Soledad
when this scum arrived here."

I took the phone off speaker, pressing the receiver to my ear.

"They had him here for five years. Two of them in iso.

Then they shipped him back to Quentin. A special case. You may even
remember the name."

I picked up a pen and started racking my brain. A cop at Pelican?
Quentin?

"Frank Coombs," Estes said.

I did recognize the name. It was like a headline flashing back from my
youth. Coombs. A street cop, he had killed a kid in the projects some
twenty years before. Got run up on charges. Sent away. To any San
Francisco cop, his name was like a warning bell for the use of excessive
force.

"Coombs turned into more of a bastard in prison than he was on the
outside," Estes went on. "He choked a cell mate blue down in Quentin,
which is why they shipped him here. After a stay in the SHU's, they were
able to cure him of some of his antisocial tendencies."

Coombs ... I wrote down the name. I couldn't remember anything about the
case except that he had choked and killed this black kid.

"What makes you think this Coombs might fit?" I asked.

"As I said ... " Estes cleared his throat. "I don't much care about
Weiscz's ravings. What made me call was that I asked some of our staff.
When he was here, Coombs was a charter member of that little group of
yours.

"My group?"

"That's right, Lieutenant. Chimera."

Chapter 73.

YOU KNOW THE SAYING: when one door slams in your face, another one
opens. Half an hour later, I rapped on my window for Jacobi. "What do
you know about Frank Coombs?" I asked when he came into my office.

Warren shrugged. "Dirtbag street cop. Got some teenager in a
stranglehold during a drug bust years ago. The kid died. Major
departmental scandal when I was in uniform. Didn't he get a dime up in
Quentin?"

"Uh-uh, twenty." I slid Coombs's personnel file toward him. "Now tell me
something I can't find in here."

Warren opened the file. "As I remember, the guy was a tough cop,
decorated, a solid arrest record, but at the same time, I figure this
file's got enough OCC reprimands for excessive force to rival Rodney
King."

I nodded. "Keep going."

"You read the file, Lindsay. He busted up a basketball game in one of
the projects. Thought he recognized one of the players as some kid he
put away for drugs but was spit back out. The kid said something to him,
then he took off. Coombs went after him."

"We're talking about a black kid," I injected. "They gave him fifteen to
twenty, second-degree manslaughter."

Jacobi blinked. "Where're we going with this, Lindsay?"

"Weiscz, Warren. At Pelican Bay I thought he was just ranting, but
something he said stuck. Weiscz said he'd given me something. He said it
sounded like an inside job."

"You dredged up this old file because Weiscz said it was an inside job?"
Jacobi screwed his brow.

"Coombs was Chimera. He spent two years in the SHU's. Take a look. The
guy had SWAT training. He was qualified for marksman status. He was an
avowed racist. And he's out. Coombs was released from San Quentin a few
months ago."

Jacobi sat there stone-faced. "You're still short a motive, Lieutenant.
I mean, granted, the guy was a major asshole. But he was a cop. What
would he have against other cops?"

"He pleaded self-defense, that the kid was resisting. No one backed him,
Warren. Not his partner, not the other officers on the scene, not the
brass.

"You think I'm reaching?" I grabbed the file, skimmed through, and
stopped where I had circled something in red marker. "You said Coombs
killed this kid in the projects?"

Jacobi nodded.

I pushed the page at him.

"Bay View, Warren. La Salle Heights. That's where he choked that kid.
Those projects were torn down and rebuilt in nineteen ninety. They were
renamed ... "

"Whitney Young," Jacobi said.

Near where Tasha Catchings had been killed.

Chapter 74.

MY NEXT MOVE was to dial up Madeline Akers, assistant warden at San
Quentin prison. Maddie was a friend. She told me what she knew about
Coombs. "Bad cop, bad guy, real bad inmate. A cold sonofabitch." Maddie
said she would ask around about him. Maybe Frank Coombs had told
somebody what he planned to do once he got outside.

"Madeline, this absolutely can't leak out," I insisted.

"Mercer was a friend, Lindsay. I'll do anything I can. Give me a couple
of days."

"Make it one, Maddie. This is vital. He's going to kill again."

For a long time I sat at my desk trying to piece together just what I
had. I couldn't place Coombs at a crime scene. I had no weapon. I didn't
even know where he was. But for the first time since Tasha Catchings was
killed, I had the feeling I was onto something good.

My instinct was to ask Cindy to troll through the Chronicle's morgue for
old stories. These events had happened more than twenty years before.
Only a few people in the department were still around from those days.

Then I remembered I had someone who'd been there staying under my own
roof.

I found my father watching the evening news when I walked through the
door. "Hey," he called. "You're home at a decent hour. Solve your case?"

I changed my clothes, grabbed a beer from the fridge, then I pulled up a
chair across from him.

"I need to talk to you about something." I looked in his eyes. "You
remember a guy named Frank Coombs?"

My father nodded. "There's a name I haven't heard in a long time. Sure,
I remember him. Cop who choked the kid over in the projects. They
brought him up on murder charges. Sent him away."

"You were on the force, right?"

"Yes, and I knew him. Worst excuse for a cop I ever ran into. Some
people were impressed with him. He made arrests, got things done. In his
own way. It was different then. We didn't have review committees looking
over our shoulder. Not everything we did got into the press."

"This kid he choked, Dad, he was fourteen."

"Why do you want to know about Coombs? He's in jail."

"Not any longer. He's out." I pulled my chair closer.

"I read that Coombs claimed he killed the kid in self-defense."

"What cop wouldn't? He said the kid tried to cut him with a sharp object
he took to be a knife."

"You remember who he was partnered up with back then, Dad?"

"Jesus." My father shrugged. "Stan Dragula, as I recall. Yeah, he
testified at the trial. But I think he died a few years back. No one
wanted to work with Coombs. You were scared to walk through the
neighborhoods with him."

"Was Stan Dragula white or black?" I asked.

"Stan was white," my father answered. '"I think Italian, or maybe
Jewish."

That wasn't the answer I had been expecting. No one had backed Coombs
up. But why was he killing blacks?

"Dad, if it is Coombs doing these things ... if he is out for some kind
of revenge, why against blacks?"

"Coombs was an animal, but he was also a cop. Things were different
then. That famous blue wall of silence ... Every cop is taught at the
academy, Keep your yap shut. It'll be there for you. Well, it didn't
hold up for Frank Coombs; it came tumbling down on him. Everyone was
glad to give him up. We're talking, what, twenty years ago? The
affirmative action thing on the force was strong. Blacks and Latinos
were just starting to get placed in key positions. There was this black
lobby group, the OFJ ... " "Officers for justice," I said. "They're
still around."

My father nodded. Tensions were strong. The OFJ threatened to strike.
Eventually, there was pressure from the city, too. Whatever it was,
Coombs felt he was handed over, hung out to dry."

It started coming clear to me. Coombs felt he had been railroaded by the
black lobby of the department. He had chewed on his hatred in prison.
Now twenty years later, he was back on the streets of San Francisco.

"Maybe, another time, this kind of thing might've been swept under the
rug," I said. "But not then. The OFJ nailed him."

Suddenly, a sickening realization wormed into my brain.

"Earl Mercer was involved, wasn't he?"

My father nodded his head. "Mercer was Coombs's lieutenant."

Part III THE BLUE WALL OF SILENCE

Chapter 75.

THE NEXT MORNING, the case against Frank Coombs, which only a day ago
had seemed flimsy, was bursting at the seams. I was pumped.

First thing, Jacobi rapped at my door. "One for your side, Lieutenant.
Coombs is looking better and better."

"How so? You make any progress with Coombs's PO?"

"You might say He's gone, Lindsay. According to the PO, Coombs split
from this transient hotel down on Eddy. No forwarding address, hasn't
checked in, hasn't contacted his ex-wife."

I was disappointed that Coombs was missing, but it was also a good sign.
I told Jacobi to keep looking.

A few minutes later, Madeline Akers called from San Quentin.

"I think I've got what you want," she announced. I couldn't believe she
was responding so soon.

"Over the past year, Coombs was paired with four different cell mates.
Two of them have been paroled, but I spoke with the other two myself.
One of them told me to stuff it, but the other, this guy Toracetti ... I
almost didn't even have to tell him what I was looking for. He said the
minute he heard on the news about Davidson and Mercer, he knew it was
Coombs. Coombs told him he was going to blow the whole thing wide open
again."

I thanked Maddie profusely. Tasha, Mercer, Davidson ... It was starting
to fit together.

But how did Estelle Chipman fit in?

A force took hold of me. I went outside and dug through the case files.
It had been weeks since I'd looked at them.

I found it buried at the bottom. The personnel file I'd called up from
Records: Edward C. Chipman.

In his thirty unremarkable years on the force, only one thing stood out.

He had been his district's representative to the OFJ ... the Officers
for justice.

It was time to put this on the record. I buzzed Chief Tracchio. His
secretary, Helen, who had been Mercer's, said he was in a closed-door
meeting. I told her I was coming up.

I grabbed the Coombs file and headed up the stairs to five.

I had to share this. I barreled into the chief's office.

Then I stopped, speechless.

To my shock, seated around the conference table were Tracchio, Special
Agents Ruddy and Hull of the FBI, the press flack Carr, and Chief of
Detectives Ryan.

I hadn't been invited to the latest task force meeting.

Chapter 76.

"THIS IS BULLSHIT," I said. "It's total crap. What is this - some kind
of a men's club?"

Tracchio, Ruddy and Hull from the FBI, Carr, Ryan. Five boys seated
around the table - minus me, the woman.

The acting chief stood up. His face was red. "Lindsay we were about to
call you up."

I knew what this meant. What was going on. Tracchio was going to shift
control on the case. My case. He and Ryan were going to hand it over to
the FBI.

"We're at a critical moment in this case," Tracchio said.

"You're damn right," I cut him off. I swept my gaze over the group. "I
know who it is."

Suddenly, all eyes turned my way. The boys were silent.

It was as if the lights had been cranked up, and my skin prickled as if
it had been cauterized.

I leveled my eyes back on Tracchio. "You want me to lay it out for you?
Or do you want me to leave?"

Seemingly dumbfounded, he pulled out a chair for me.

I didn't sit. I stood. Then I took them through everything, and I
enjoyed it. How I had been skeptical at first, but then it began to fit.
Chimera, Pelican Bay ... Coombs's grudge against the police force. At
the sound of Coombs's name, the departmental people's eyes grew wide. I
linked the victims, Coombs's qualification as a marksman, how only a
marksman could have made those shots.

When I finished, there was silence again. They just stared.

I wanted to pump my arm in victory.

Agent Ruddy cleared his throat. "So far, I haven't heard a thing that
links Coombs directly to any of the crime scenes.

"Give me another day or two and you will," I said.

"Coombs is the killer."

Hull, Ruddy's broad-shouldered partner, shrugged optimistically toward
the chief. "You want us to follow this up?"

I couldn't believe it. This was my case. My breakthrough. Homicide's.
Our people had been murdered.

Tracchio seemed to mull it over. He pursed his thick lips as if he were
sucking a last drop through a straw. Then he shook his head at the FBI
man.

"That won't be necessary, Special Agent. This has always been a city
case. We'll see it through with city personnel."

Chapter 77.

ONLY ONE THING was standing in the way now. We had to find Frank Coombs.

Coombs's prison file mentioned a wife, Ingrid, who had divorced him
while he was in prison and remarried. It was a long shot. The PO said he
hadn't been in touch. But long shots were coming in right now.

"C'mon, Warren." I nudged Jacobi. "You're coming with me. It'll be like
old times."

"Aww ain't that sweet."

Ingrid Thiasson lived on a pleasant middle-class street off of Laguna.

We parked across the street, went up, and rang the bell.

No one answered. We didn't know if Coombs's wife worked, and there was
no car in the driveway.

Just as we were about to head back, an old-model Volvo station wagon
pulled into the driveway.

Ingrid Thiasson looked about fifty with stringy brown hair; she wore a
plain, shapeless blue dress under a heavy gray sweater. She climbed out
of the car and opened the rear hatch to unload groceries.

An old cop's wife, she ID'd us the minute we walked up.

"What do you people want with me?" she asked.

"A few minutes. We're trying to locate your ex-husband."

"You got nerve coming around here." She scowled, hoisting two bags in
her arms.

"We're just checking all the possibilities," Jacobi said.

She snapped back, "Like I told his parole officer, I haven't heard a
word from him since he got out."

"He hasn't been to see you?"

"Once, when he got out. He came by to pick up some personal stuff he
thought I had held for him. I told him I threw it all out." "What kind
of stuff?" I asked.

"Useless letters, newspaper articles on the trial. Probably the old guns
he kept around. Frank was always into guns. Stuff only a man with
nothing to show for his life would find value in."

Jacobi nodded. "So what'd he do then?"

"What'd he do?" Ingrid Thiasson snorted. "He left without a word about
what life had been like for us for the past twenty years. Without a word
about me or his son. You believe that?"

"And you have no idea where we could contact him?"

"None. That man was poison. I found someone who's treated me with
respect. Who's been a father to my boy. I don't want to see Frank Coombs
again." I asked, "You have any idea if he might be in touch with your
son?"

"No way. I always kept them apart. My son doesn't have any links to his
father. And don't go buzzing around him. He's in college at Stanford."

I stepped forward. "Anyone who might know where he is, Ms. Thiasson, it
would be a help to us. This is a murder case."

I saw the slightest sign of hesitation. "I've lived a good life for
twenty years. We're a family now. I don't want anyone knowing this came
from me."

I nodded. I felt the blood rushing to my head.

"Frank kept up with Tom Keating. Even when he was locked away. Anyone
knows where he is, it'd be him."

Tom Keating. I knew the name.

He was a retired cop.

Chapter 78.

LESS THAN AN HOUR LATER, Jacobi and I pulled up in front of condo 3A at
the Blakesly Residential Community down the coast in Half Moon Bay.

Keating's name had stuck in my mind from when I was a kid. He'd been a
regular at the Alibi after the nine-to-four shift, where many afternoons
I'd been hoisted up on a bar stool by my father. In my mind, Keating had
a ruddy complexion and a shock of prematurely white hair. God, I
thought, that was almost thirty years ago.

We knocked on the door of Keating's modest slatted-wood condo. A trim,
pleasant-looking woman with gray hair answered.

"Mrs. Keating? I'm Lieutenant Lindsay Boxer of the San Francisco
Homicide detail. This is Inspector Jacobi. Is your husband at home?"
"Homicide ...?" she said, surprised.

"Just an old case," I said with a smile.

A voice called from inside, "Helen, I can't find the damned clicker
anywhere." "just a minute, Tom. He's in the back," she said as she
motioned us into the house.

We walked through the sparsely decorated house and into a sun room
overlooking a small patio. There were several framed police photos on
the wall. Keating was as I remembered him, just thirty years older.
Gaunt, white hair thinning, but with that same ruddy complexion.

He sat watching an afternoon news show with the stock market tape
streaming by. I realized he was sitting in a wheelchair.

Helen Keating introduced us, then, finding the clicker, put the TV
volume down. Keating seemed pleased to have visitors from the force.

"I don't get to many functions since my legs went. Arthritis, they tell
me. Brought on by a bullet to lumbar four. Can't play golf anymore." He
chuckled. "But I can still watch the old pension grow."

I saw him studying my face. "You're Marty Boxer's little girl, aren't
you?" I smiled. "The Alibi ... A couple of five-oh-ones, right, Tom?" A
5-0-1 was the call for backup, and how they used to call a favorite
drink, an Irish whiskey with a beer chaser.

"I heard you were quite the big shot these days." Keating nodded with a
toothy smile. "So, what brings you two honchos down to talk to an old
street cop?"

"Frank Coombs," I said.

Keating's features suddenly turned hard. "What about Frank?" "We're
trying to find him, Tom. I was told you might know where he is."

"Why don't you call his parole officer? That wouldn't be me."

"He's split, Tom. Four weeks now. Quit his job."

"So they got Homicide following up on parole offenders now?"

I held Keating's eyes. "What do you say Tom?"

"What makes you think I'd have any idea?" He glanced toward his legs.
"Old times are old times."

"I heard you guys kept in touch. It's important."

"Well, you're wasting your time here, Lieutenant," he said, suddenly
turning formal.

I knew he was lying. "When was the last time you spoke with Coombs?"

"Maybe just after he got out. Could be once or twice since then. He
needed some help to get on his feet. I may have lent him a hand."

"And where was he staying," Jacobi cut in, "while you were lending him
this hand?"

Keating shook his head. "Some hotel down on Eddy or O'Farrell. Wasn't
the St. Francis," he said.

"And you haven't spoken with him since?" My eyes flicked toward Helen
Keating.

"What do you want with the man, anyway?" Keating snapped. "He's paid his
time. Why don't you just leave him alone?" "It would be easier this way,
Tom," I said. "If you'd just talk to us."

Keating pursed his dry lips, trying to size up where his loyalties fell.

"You put in thirty years, didn't you?" Jacobi said.

"Twenty-four." He patted his leg. "Got it cut short at the end."

"Twenty-four good years. It'd be a shame to dishonor it in any way by
not cooperating now."

He shot back, "You want to know who was a goddamn expert in lack of
cooperation? Frank Coombs. Man was only doing his job and all those
bastards, supposedly his friends, looked the other way. Maybe that's the
way you do things now with your community action meetings and your
sensitivity training. But then we had to get the bad guys off the
streets. With the means that we had."

"Tom." His wife raised her voice. "Frank Coombs killed a boy. These
people, they're your friends. They want to speak with him. I don't know
how far you have to take this duty-and-loyalty thing. Your duty's here."

Keating glared at her harshly. "Yeah, sure, my duty's here."

He picked up the TV clicker and turned back to me. "Stay here all day if
you like; I don't have the slightest idea where Frank Coombs is."

He turned up the volume on his TV.

Chapter 79.

"FUCK HIM," Jacobi said as we left the house. "Old-school asshole."

"We're halfway down the peninsula already." I said to him. "You want to
drive down to Stanford? See Frankie's kid?"

"What the hell." He shrugged. "I can use the education."

We hooked back onto 280 and made it to Palo Alto in half an hour.

As we pulled onto the campus drive - the tall palms lining the road, the
stately ocher buildings with their red roofs, the Hoover Tower
majestically rising over the Main Quad - I felt the spell of being part
of campus life. Every one of these kids was special and talented. I even
felt some pride that Coombs's son, despite his rough beginnings, had
made it here.

We checked in at the administrative office on the Main Quad. A dean's
assistant told us Rusty Coombs was probably at football practice down at
the field house. Said Rusty was a good student, and a great tight end.
We drove there, where a student manager in a red Stanford cap took us
upstairs and asked us to wait outside the weight room.

Moments later, a solidly built, orange-haired kid in a sweaty Cardinals
T-shirt wandered out. Rusty Coombs had an affable face spotted with a
few freckles. He had none of the dark, brooding belligerence I had seen
in photos of his father.

"I guess I know why you guys are here," he said, coming up to us. "My
mom called, told me."

The heavy sound of weight irons and lifting machines clanged in the
background. I smiled affably. "We're looking for your father, Rusty. We
were wondering if you have any idea where he might be?" "He's not my
father," the boy said, and shook his head. "My father's name is Theodore
Bell. He's the one who brought me up with Mom. Teddy taught me how to
catch a football. He's the one who told me I could make it to Stanford."

"When was the last time you heard from Frank Coombs?"

"What's he done, anyway? My mother said you guys are from Homicide. We
know what's in the news. Everyone knows what's going on up there.
Whatever he did before, he paid his time, didn't he? You can't believe
just because he made some mistakes twenty years ago he's responsible for
these terrible crimes?"

"We wouldn't have driven all the way down unless it was important,"
Jacobi said.

The football player shifted back and forth on the balls of his feet. He
seemed to be a likable kid, cooperative. He rubbed his hands together.
"He came here once. When he first got out. I had written him a couple of
times in jail. I met with him in town. I didn't want anybody to see
him."

"What did he say to you?" I asked.

"I think all he wanted was to clear his own conscience. And know what my
mother thought of him. Never once did he say ' great job, Rusty Look at
you. You did good.' Or, "Hey I follow your games ...' He was more
interested in knowing if my mom had thrown out some of his old things."

"What sort of things?" I asked. What would be so important that he would
drive all the way here and confront his son?

"Police things," Rusty Coombs said and shook his head. "Maybe his guns.

I smiled sympathetically. I knew what it was like to look at your father
with something less than admiration. "He give you any idea where he
might go?"

Rusty Coombs shook his head. He looked like he might tear up. "I'm not
Frank Coombs, Inspectors. I may have his name, I may even have to live
with what he did, but I'm not him. Please leave our family alone.
Please."

Chapter 80.

WELL, THAT SUCKED. Stirring up bad memories for Rusty Coombs made me
feel terrible. Even Jacobi agreed.

We made it back to the office about four. We'd driven all the way down
to Palo Alto just to run into another dead end.

What fun.

There was a phone message waiting for me. I called Cindy back
immediately. "There's a rumor floating around that you've narrowed on a
suspect," she said. "Truth or dare?"

"We have a name, Cindy, but I can't tell you anything. We just want to
bring him in for questioning."

"So there's no warrant?"

"Cindy ... not just yet."

"I'm not talking about a story, Lindsay. He went after our friend.
Remember? If I can help ... "

"I got a hundred cops working on it, Cindy. Some of us have even handled
an investigation or two before. Please, trust me."

"But if you haven't brought him in, then you haven't found him, right?"

"Or maybe we haven't made the case yet. And Cindy, that's not for
print."

"This is me talking, Linds. Claire, too. And Jill. We're in this case,
Lindsay. All of us."

She was right. Unlike any other homicide case I had worked, this one
seemed to be growing more and more personal. why was that? I didn't have
Coombs and I could use the help. As long as he stayed free, anything
could happen.

"I do need your help. Go through your old files, Cindy.

You just didn't go back far enough." She paused, then sucked in a
breath. "You were right, weren't you? The guy's a cop."

"You can't go with that, sweetie. And if you did, you'd be wrong. But
it's damned close."

I felt her analyzing, and also biting her tongue. "We're still going to
meet, aren't we?"

I smiled. "Yeah, we're going to meet. We're a team. More than ever."

I was about to pack it in for the night when a call buzzed through to my
line. I was sitting around thinking that Tom Keating had been lying.
That he'd spoken to Coombs. But until we put out a warrant, Keating
could hold back all he wanted.

To my utter surprise, it was his wife on the line. I almost dropped the
phone.

"My husband's a stubborn man, Lieutenant," she began, clearly nervous.
"But he wore the uniform with pride. I've never asked him to account for
anything. And I won't start -now. But I can't sit back. Frank Coombs
killed that boy And if he's done something else, I refuse to wake up
every morning for the rest of my life knowing I abetted a murderer."

"It would be better for everybody, Mrs. Keating, if your husband told us
what he knows." "I don't know what he knows," she said, "and I believe
him when he says he hasn't spoken to Coombs in some time. But he wasn't
telling the whole truth, Lieutenant."

"Then why don't you start."

She hesitated. "Coombs did come by here. Once. Maybe two months ago."

"Do you know where he is?" My blood started to rush.

"No," she answered. "But I did take a message from him. For Tom. I still
have the number."

I fumbled for a pen.

She read me the number. 434-9117. "I'm pretty sure it was some kind of
boarding house or hotel."

"Thank you, Helen." I was about to hang up when she said, "There's one
more thing ... When my husband said he lent Coombs a hand, he wasn't
telling the whole story. Tom did give him some money.

He also let him rummage through some old things in our storage locker."
"What sort of things?" I asked.

"His old department things. Maybe an old uniform, and a badge."

That's what Coombs had been looking for in his ex-wife's house. His old
police uniforms. My mind clicked. Maybe that's how he got so close to
Chipman and Mercer.

"That's all?" I asked.

"No," Helen Keating said. "Tom kept guns down there.

Coombs took those, too."

Chapter 81.

WITHIN MINUTES I traced the number Helen Keating had given me to a
boarding house on Larkin and Mcallister.

The Hotel William Simon. My pulse was jumping.

I called Jacobi, catching him as he was about to sit down to dinner.
"Meet me at Larkin and Mcallister. The Hotel William Simon."

"You want me to meet you at a hotel? Cool. I'm on my way."

"I think we found Coombs."

We couldn't arrest Frank Coombs. We didn't have a single piece of
evidence that could tie him directly to a crime. I might be able to get
a search warrant and bust into his room, though. Right now the most
important thing was to make certain he was still there.

Twenty minutes later, I had driven down to the seedy area between the
Civic Center and Union Square. The William Simon was a shabby
one-elevator dive under a large billboard with a slinky model wearing
Calvin Klein underwear. As Jill would say, yick.

I didn't want to go up to the desk, flashing my badge and his photo,
until we were ready to make a move. Finally, I said what the hell, and
placed a call to the number Helen Keating had given me. After three
rings, a male voice answered, "William Simon."

"Frank Coombs ...?" I inquired.

"Coombs ... " I listened as the desk clerk leafed through a list of
names. "Nope." Shit. I asked him to double-check. He came back negative.

Just then, the passenger door of my Explorer opened. My nerves were
twanging like a bass guitar.

Jacobi climbed in. He was wearing a striped golf shirt and some sort of
short, hideous Members Only jacket. His belly bulged. He grinned like a
John. "Hey, lady, what does an Andrew Jackson get me?"

"Dinner, maybe, if you're treating."

"We got an ID?" he asked.

I shook my head. I told him what I had found out.

"Maybe he's moved on," Jacobi offered. "How ' I go in and flash the
badge? With Coombs's photo?"

I shook my head. "How ' we sit here and wait."

We waited for over two hours. Stakeouts are incredibly dull. They would
drive the average person nuts. We kept our eyes peeled on the William
Simon, going over everything from Helen Keating, to what Jacobi's wife
was serving for dinner, to the 49ers, to who was sleeping with who at
the Hall. Jacobi even sprung for a couple of sandwiches from a Subway.

At ten o'clock, Jacobi grumbled, "This could go on forever! Why don't
you let me go inside, Lindsay?"

He was probably right. We didn't even know if Helen Keating's number was
current. She had taken it weeks ago.

I was about to give in when a man turned the corner on Larkin headed
toward the hotel. I gripped Jacobi's arm. "Look over there."

It was Coombs. I recognized the bastard instantly. He was wearing a
camouflage jacket, hands stuffed in his pockets, a floppy hat pulled
over his eyes.

"Son of a fucking bitch," Jacobi muttered.

Watching the bastard slink up to the hotel, it took everything I had not
to jump out of the car and slam him up against a wall. I wished I could
slap him in cuffs. But we had Chimera now. We knew where he was.

"I want someone stuck to him, twenty-four hours," I told Jacobi. "If he
makes the tail, I want him picked up. We'll figure out the charges
later."

Jacobi nodded.

"I hope you brought a toothbrush." I winked. "You've got first watch."

Chapter 82.

AS THEY WALKED hand in hand toward her Castro apartment, Cindy admitted
to herself that she was scared shitless.

This was the fifth time she and Aaron Winslow had been out together.
They had seen Cyrus Chestnut and Freddie Hubbard at the Blue Door; been
to Traviata at the opera; taken the ferry across the bay to a tiny
Jamaican cafe that Aaron knew. Tonight, they had seen this dreamy film,
Chocolat. o matter where this went tonight, she enjoyed being with him.
He was deeper than most men she'd dated, and he was definitely more
sensitive. Not only did he read unexpected books like Dave Eggers's A
Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius and Amy Tan's The Bonesetter's
Daughter, he lived the life that he preached. He worked
twelve-to-sixteen-hour days and was loved in his neighborhood, but he
still managed to keep his ego in check. She'd heard it over an dover
again interviewing people for her story: Aaron Winslow was one of the
good guys.

All the while, though, Cindy had felt this moment looming in the
distance. Hurtling closer and closer. Ticking. This was the natural
step, she told herself. As Lindsay would say, their foxhole was about to
explode.

"You seem a little quiet tonight," Aaron said. "You okay, Cindy?"

"I'm great," she fibbed. She thought he was just about the sweetest man
she had ever gone out with, but, Jesus, Cindy, he's a pastor. Why didn't
you think of this then? Is this a good idea? Think it through. Don't
hurt him. Don't get hurt yourself.

They stopped walking in front of the entrance to Cindy's building and
stood in the lighted arch. He sung a line from an old R&B tune, "I've
Passed This Way Before." He even had a good singing voice.

There was no use postponing it any longer. "Look, Aaron, someone has to
say this. You want to come up? I'd like it if you did, hate it if you
didn't." He exhaled and smiled. "I don't exactly know where to take
this, Cindy. I'm a little out of my range. I, uh, I've never dated a
blonde before. I wasn't expecting any of this." "I can relate to that."
She smiled. "But it's only two floors up. We can talk about it there."

His lip was quivering slightly, and when he touched her arm it sent a
shiver down her spine. God, she did like him.

And she trusted him.

"I feel like I'm about to cross this line," he said. "And it's not a
line I can cross casually. So I have to know. Are we there together? In
the same place?"

Cindy elevated on her toes and pressed her lips lightly against his
mouth. Aaron seemed surprised and at first he stiffened, but slowly he
placed his arms around her and gave himself over to the kiss.

It was just as she had hoped, that first real kiss. Tender and
breathtaking. Through his jacket, she could feel the rhythm of his heart
pounding. She liked it that he was afraid, too. It made her feel even
closer to him.

When they parted, she looked in his eyes and said, "We're there. We're
in the same place."

She took out her key and led him up the two floors to her place. Her
heart was pounding.

"It's great," he said. "I'm not just saying that." A two-story wall of
bookshelves and an informal open kitchen.

"It's you ... Cindy, it seems silly that I haven't been up here before."

"It wasn't for lack of trying." Cindy grinned. God, she was so nervous.

He took hold of her again, this time giving her a longer kiss. He
certainly knew how to kiss. Every cell in her body felt alive. The small
hairs on her arms, the warmth in her thighs; she pressed herself against
him. She wanted, needed, to be close to him now. His body was slender,
but he was definitely strong.

Cindy started to smile. "So what were you waiting for?"

"I don't know. Maybe some kind of sign." She  herself into the grooves
of his body, felt him come alive. "There's a sign," she said, close to
his face.

"I guess my secret's out now. Yes, I do like you, Cindy."

Suddenly, the phone rang, almost blasting in their ears.

"Oh, God," she groaned. "Go away; leave us alone."

"I hope that's not another sign." He laughed.

Each ring seemed more annoying than the last. Mercifully the answering
machine finally kicked on.

"Cindy, it's Lindsay," the voice shot. "I've got something important.
Please. Pick. Up."

"Go ahead," Aaron said.

"Now that you're finally up here, don't use the time I'm on the phone to
change your mind."

She reached behind the couch, fumbled for the receiver, put it to her
ear. "I wouldn't do this for anyone but you, she said.

"Funny; that's just what I was about to say Listen to this."

Lindsay shared her news, and Cindy felt a rush of triumph surge through
her. This was what she had wanted. It had been her angle that put
Lindsay onto him. Yes!

"Mana`na," she said, "and thanks for the phone call." She placed the
receiver down, squeezed back with Aaron, and looked into his eyes.

"You wanted a sign. I think I've got the best one in the world." A
glimmer lit her face.

"They found him, Aaron."

Chapter 83.

WE KEPT WATCH all night at the William Simon. Unofficially So far,
Coombs hadn't come out again. I knew where he was. Now all I had to do
was make the case.

That was the morning Jill came back to work. I headed to her office to
bring her up to date. Coming off the elevator on the eighth floor, I ran
into Claire, who must've had the same idea.

"Great minds and all that," she said.

"I've got big news," I told her, beaming with anticipation.

"C'mon ... "

We knocked on her door and found Jill at her desk, looking a little
peaked. Stacks of documents and legal files gave the impression she
hadn't missed a single day. At the sight of us, her blue eyes sprang
alive, but as she stood, her arms outstretched for a hug, Jilly seemed
to be moving at half her usual speed.

"Don't," I said. I went over and gave her a hug. "You've got to take it
easy."

"I'm fine," she answered quickly "Abdomen's a little stiff, heart's a
little broken. But I'm here. And this is the best thing for me."

"You sure this is the smartest thing?" Claire asked her. "you sure this
is the smartest thing?" Claire asked her.

"It is for me," Jill shot back. "I promise, Doc, I'm fine. So please,
don't start trying to convince me otherwise. You want to help me start
to heal, just bring me up to date on what's going on."

We looked at her a little skeptically But then I had to share the news.
"I think we found him."

"Who?" Jill asked.

I beamed. "Chimera."

Claire gave me a stare. She closed her eyes for a moment, as if in
prayer, then opened them with a sigh.

Jill looked impressed. "Jesus, you sonofabitches have been busy while
I've been away."

right questions, and I laid it all out for them. When I told them the
name, Jill muttered, "Coombs ... I remember the case from law school." A
spark lit in her sharp eyes. "Frank Coombs. He killed a teenage boy."
"You're sure it's him?" Claire asked. She was still wearing a bandage on
her neck.

"I hope so," I said. Then, without any doubt, "Yes, I'm sure it's him."

"You arrest him yet?" Claire asked. "Can I visit him in his cell? Hmm?
I've got this ball bat I've been meaning to try out."

"Not yet. He's holed up at some dive in the Tenderloin. We've got him
under twenty-four-hour watch."

I turned to Jill. "What do you say, Counselor? I want to bring him in."

She came over, a little gingerly, and leaned on the corner of her desk.
"Okay, tell me exactly what you have."

I went through each link: the loose connections to three of the victims,
Coombs's history as a marksman, his documented grudge against blacks,
how the OFJ had sealed his fate. But with each strand of evidence, I saw
her conviction dim.

"Jill, listen." I held up my hand. "He took a department-issued
thirty-eight from a retired cop, and Mercer was killed with a
thirty-eight. Three of the targets tie directly to his own history. I've
got a guy in San Quentin who says he boasted he was out for revenge."

"Thirty-eights are a dime a dozen, Lindsay. Do you have a match on the
gun?"

"No, but Jill, Tasha Catchings's murder took place in the same
neighborhood where Coombs went down twenty years before."

She cut me off. "What about a witness who can place him at the scene?
One witness, Lindsay?"

I shook my head.

"A print, then, or a piece of clothing. Something that ties him to one
of the murders?"

With an exasperated breath, I reacted. "No."

"Circumstantial evidence can convict, Jill," Claire cut in. "Coombs is a
monster. We can't just let him stay out on the streets."

Jill looked sharply at both of us. Jeez, she was almost the Jill of old.
"You don't think I want him as much as you? You don't think I look at
you, Claire, and think just how close we came ...? But there's no
weapon, barely a motive. You haven't even placed him within sight of a
murder scene. If you bust in and don't find anything, you've lost him
for good."

"Coombs is Chimera, Jill," I said. "I know I don't have it buttoned up
yet, but I've got a motive and links that tie him to three victims. As
well as outside testimony that corroborates his intentions."

"Jailhouse testimony," said Jill. Juries laugh at it these days."

She got up, came over, and put a hand on both Claire's and mine. "Look,
I know how badly you want to close this. I'm your friend, but I'm still
the law. Bring me anything, someone who saw him at a scene, a print he
left on a door. Give me anything, Lindsay, and I'll be bashing down his
door to get at him same as you. Turn him upside down, rattle him until
his spare change falls out."

I stood there, teeming with frustration and anger but knowing that Jill
was right. I shook my head and made my way toward the door.

"What are you going to do?" asked Claire.

"Rattle the fucker. Turn his life upside down."

Chapter 84.

FIFTEEN MINUTES LATER, Jacobi and I picked up Cappy outside the William
Simon and headed into the run-down lobby of the hotel. A sleepy- eyed
Sikh was leafing through a newspaper in his native tongue behind the
front desk. Jacobi thrust Coombs's photo and his badge in front of the
man's startled eyes.

"What room?"

It took about three seconds for the turbaned clerk to squint at the
photo, flip through a bound black register, and in a tight accent say,
"Tree-oh-seven. He is registered with the name Burns." He pointed.
"Elevator to the right."

Moments later, we stood in the dingy, paint-chipped hallway on the third
floor outside Coombs's room, flicking our automatics off safety.

"Remember, we're only talking," I cautioned. "Keep your eyes open for
anything we can use."

Jacobi and Cappy nodded, then each took a position on either side of the
door. Cappy knocked.

No one answered.

He knocked again. "Mr. Frank Burns?"

Finally, a heavy, grumbling voice. "Go the fuck away. Get lost, huh. I'm
paid up through Friday." Jacobi shouted, "San Francisco Police, Mr.
Burns. We got you your morning coffee."

There was a long pause. I heard some commotion, the sound of a chair
being dragged and a drawer closed. Finally, the sound of footsteps
coming closer and a voice barking, "What the fuck do you want?"

"Just to ask a few questions. You mind opening the door?"

It took about a minute of waiting with our fingers tensed on the
triggers for the door to finally unlatch.

It swung open, revealing an angry Coombs.

Chimera.

His face was round and heavy, with eyes that sagged into deep-set
craters. Short, graying hair, a large, flat nose, mottled skin. He had
on a white short-sleeved undershirt pulled over rumpled gray trousers.
And his eyes burned with hatred and disdain.

"Here ... " exclaimed Jacobi, swatting him in the chest with a rolled-up
Chronicle. "Your morning paper. Mind if we come in?"

"Yeah, I mind." Coombs scowled.

Cappy smiled. "Anyone ever tell you you're a dead ringer for this cat
who used to be on the force? What the hell was the cat's name? Oh yeah,
Coombs. Frank Coombs. You ever hear that from anybody before?"

Coombs blinked impassively, then his mouth curled into a half smile.
"Wouldn't you know I get boarded on planes for him all the time."

If he recognized Jacobi or Cappy from years ago on the force, he didn't
register it, but he squinted a look of familiarity as his gaze fell on
me. "Don't tell me, after all this time, you bozos are the department's
welcome-home committee?"

"How ' you let us in?" Jacobi asked.

"You come with a warrant?" Coombs leered.

"I told you nicely, we're just delivering your morning paper."

"Then make a fucking scene. C'mon," Coombs said between gritted teeth.
His eyes were something else; they burned a hole right into the back of
your skull.

Cappy pressed the door firmly in Coombs's face, then he and Jacobi
pushed their way into the room. "As long as we're here, we might as well
run a couple of questions by you."

Coombs rubbed his unshaven chin, glaring vicious darts at us. He finally
pulled out a wooden chair from a small table and took a seat with his
arms wrapped around its back.

"Fuckers," he muttered. "Useless shitbirds."

The tiny room was littered with newspapers, Budweiser bottles lined up
on the sill, cigarette butts in Coke cans. I had the sense that if I
could only poke around, something was there.

"This is Lieutenant Boxer of the Homicide Detail," Jacobi said. "We're
Inspectors Jacobi and Mcneil."

"Congratulations." Coombs grinned. "I feel safer already.

What do you Three Stooges want?"

"Like I said," Jacobi replied, "you should read the papers.

Keep abreast of what's going on. You follow what's in the news much?"
"You got something to say, say it," Coombs said.

"Why don't you start by telling us where you were four nights ago," I
started in. "Friday? Around eleven o'clock."

"Why don't you kiss my ass." Coombs sneered. "You want to play games,
let's play I was either at the ballet or the opening of that new art
exhibition. I can't recall. My schedule's too full these days."

"Simplify it for us," Cappy snapped.

"Sure. Yeah. Actually, I was with friends."

"These friends," Jacobi cut in. "They have names, phone numbers? I'm
sure they'd be happy to vouch for you."

"Why?" Coombs's mouth puckered into a slight grin. "You got someone who
says I was somewhere else?"

"I guess what I was thinking" - I met his eyes - "was when was the last
time you made it out to Bay View? Your old stomping grounds? Maybe I
should say your choking grounds."

Coombs glared. I could tell he wanted to wrap his hands around my neck.

"So he does read the papers," Cappy chortled.

The ex-con continued to glare. "What the fuck, Inspector, you think I'm
some rookie whose knees start to shake when you wag your dick at him?
Sure, I read the papers. You assholes can't solve your case so you come
up here and shake my bush for old times. You've got zip on me, otherwise
you wouldn't be lap dancing in my face and we'd be having this talk down
at the Hall. You think I killed all those dingo bastards, then lock me
up. Otherwise, oh, look at the time. My Town Car's waiting. Are we
done?"

I wanted to take him by the throat and smack his smug face against the
wall. But Coombs was right. We couldn't take him in. Not with what we
had. "There are a few questions you're going to have to answer, Mr.
Coombs. You'll have to answer why three people are dead who had a
connection to your murder charge twenty years ago. You'll have to answer
what you were doing on the nights they were killed."

The veins on Coombs's forehead started to bulge. Then he calmed, and
curled his lips into a smile. "You must be up here, Lieutenant, ' you've
got some eyewitness that can place me at one of the murder scenes."

I stared at his face without answering.

"Or my prints all over some weapon? Or fibers from this rug, right, or
my clothing? You just came up here to let me turn myself in with
dignity?"

I stood there inches from Chimera, watching his arrogant grin. "You
think, just because you affirmative action flunkies come up here and
look tough at me, I'm gonna shove up my ass and say, ', stick it here
...' It gives me a real kick seeing those assholes drop one by one. You
took my life away. You want to make me sweat, Lieutenant, then pretend
you're real cops. Find something that will stick."

I stood there staring into those cold, haughty eyes. I wanted to take
him down so bad. I was tempted. "Consider yourself a murder suspect, Mr.
Coombs. You know the routine. Don't leave town. We'll be back to see you
soon."

I nodded at Cappy and Jacobi. We moved toward the door.

"One more thing." I turned back with a grin of my own.

"Just so you know ... From Claire Washburn ... Lean a little to the
left, huh, asshole?"

Chapter 85.

I WAS TOTALLY WIRED after work. There was just no way I could go home
and unwind.

I headed down Brannan toward Potrero, my mind replaying the gut-stabbing
interview with Coombs. He was taunting us, laughing in our faces,
knowing we couldn't bring I knew who Chimera was ... but I couldn't
touch him.

I stopped at a light, not wanting to go home but not knowing where else
to go. Cindy had a date; Jill and Claire were home with their husbands;
I probably could have had a date if I made myself the least bit
available.

I thought about calling Claire, but my cell phone was down - I needed to
recharge the damn battery. I wanted to do something - the urgency was
ripping through me.

If I could only get into Coombs's hotel room ... I felt torn between
heading home and possibly making the biggest mistake of my career. My
rational voice said, Lindsay, go home, get him tomorrow ... He's going
to mess up soon.

The pounding in my heart said, Uh-uh, baby ... stay on him. Rattle the
fucker.

I swung my Explorer onto Seventh and headed for the Tenderloin district.
It was almost nine o'clock.

My car seemed to drive itself to the William Simon. My chest felt tight
and pressurized. Pete Worth and Ted Morelli had night watch, and as I
pulled up, I spotted them in a blue Acura. They had orders, if Coombs
left, to follow and radio in. Earlier that day, Coombs had sauntered
out, strolled conspicuously around the block, and finally settled in a
coffee shop to read the paper. He knew he was being watched.

I climbed out of my Explorer and went over to Worth and Morelli. "Any
sign?"

Morelli leaned out the driver's-side window. "Nada, Lieutenant. He's
probably up there watching the Kings game. The scumbag. He knows we're
stuck down here. Why don't you go home? We've got him covered for the
night."

Much as I hated to admit it, he was probably right. There was nothing
much I could do here. -

I started the engine again and flashed a wave to the boys as I passed by
But at the corner, on Eddy, some controlling impulse restrained me from
leaving. It was as if something were saying, What you want is here.

He knows he's being watched ... And? ... He wants to show up the SFPD.

I drove down Polk, back toward the William Simon. I passed pawnshops, an
all-night liquor store, a storefront Chinese take-out. A parked patrol
car sat at the end of the block.

I drove past the rear of the hotel. Several garbage cans outside. Not
much else. The street was deserted. I turned off my lights and sat
there. I don't know what I was expecting to happen, but I was driving
myself crazy.

I finally climbed out of the Explorer and went inside the back door of
the hotel. Rattle the fucker. I was thinking about going back upstairs
to talk to Coombs again. Yeah, maybe we could watch the Kings game
together.

There was a narrow, dingy bar just off the lobby. I took a peek inside,
saw a couple of real skulls, but not Frank Coombs. Goddamn it, a
murderer was here in this hotel, a cop murderer, and we couldn't do a
thing about it.

A movement near the back stairs caught my eye. I ducked back inside the
shadowy bar. A real oldie was playing on the juke, Sam and Dave's "Soul
Man." I watched a person coming down the stairs, casting glances around
like The Fugitive.

What the hell was this?

I recognized the camouflage jacket, the floppy hat pulled over his face.
I stared hard to be sure.

It was Frank Coombs.

Chimera was on the move.

Chapter 86.

COOMBS DUCKED into the kitchen of a greasy spoon attached to the hotel.
I waited a few seconds, then I followed him.

Now I was the one keeping my head down, casting furtive looks. I saw
Coombs, but he'd changed. He'd put on a white kitchen jacket and a
greasy chef's hat. I remembered my cell phone and then that it was dead.
I wasn't on duty; I hadn't really needed it.

Coombs walked right out the back door of the hotel.

Before I had a chance to signal the patrol car, discreetly, he ducked
into an alleyway.

I looked down the alley and saw that it angled toward the street where I
was parked. I ran for my car.

Thank God I could still see him. Coombs hurried across the street, not
twenty feet in front of my car. I hoped I'd have a chance to signal the
patrol car, but I didn't.

Coombs ducked into an empty lot, heading toward Van Ness. I was angry at
our people - they had let him out. They had blown it.

I waited until he disappeared into the lot, then I spun the Explorer
around and headed toward the intersection. At the light, I made a right,
throwing on the car lights. The busy street was crowded. A Kinko's, a
Circuit City, people passing by.

I watched where I thought the empty lot might come out.

I sat there, scanning up and down the block. Could he have beaten me out
here? Could he have slipped into the crowd?

Shit!

Suddenly, up ahead, I spotted the camouflage jacket slinking out of an
alley between the Kinko's and a Favor shoe store.

He'd dumped the cook's jacket and hat.

I was pretty sure he hadn't seen me. He looked around in both
directions, then, hands in pockets, started south toward Market. I
wanted to run him down with my car.

At the next intersection, I spun the Explorer around and headed back on
the other side of the street, about twenty yards behind Coombs.

He was pretty good at this. He moved well. Obviously, he was in shape.
Finally, he seemed satisfied he'd made a clean escape. He nearly had.

At Market Street, Coombs jogged into the middle of the street at a BART
station. He hopped an electric bus heading south.

I followed as the bus continued south on Mission. Each time it stopped I
slowed on the brakes, craning to see if Coombs had jumped off. He never
did. He was taking it out of the city center.

Out near La Salle Heights, at the Glen Park station, the bus hung at the
stop for a few seconds. Just as it was starting up again, Coombs hopped
off.

It was too late for me to stop. I had no choice but to pass .right by. I
hunched low; every nerve in my body on edge. I'd been on lots of
stakeouts, tailed dozens of cars, but never with so much at risk.

Coombs hung on the platform, scanning in both directions. I had no
choice but to continue on. In the rearview mirror, I watched him. He
seemed to be following my car as it faded out of sight.

Damn ... All I could do was drive. I was incredibly angry, so pissed.
When I was sure I was out of sight, I accelerated, climbing a
residential hill, cutting a three-point U-turn out of a driveway, and
prayed Coombs would still be there.

I sped across the street and spun around to the Glen Park station from
the other side.

The sonofabitch was gone! I frantically scanned every direction, but
there was no sign of him. I pounded the wheel in anger. "Fucker!" I
yelled.

Then, about thirty yards ahead, I spotted a mustard-colored Pontiac
B6nneville pulling out of a side street, then stopping at the side of
the road. The only reason I fixed on it was that it was the only thing
moving.

Suddenly, there was Coombs. He ducked out of a storefront and jumped
into the Bonneville's passenger's-side door.

Back at ya, I said to myself.

Then the Bonneville sped away.

So did I.

Chapter 87.

I FOLLOWED, ten car lengths or so behind. The Bonneville spun onto the
entrance ramp for 280 and headed south. I hung at a distance, my pulse
racing. I was pretty much running on adrenaline now. I had no choice
except to follow Coombs as best I could.

After a few miles, the Bonneville signaled and veered onto the exit for
South San Francisco. It wound through the working-class part of town,
then up a steep street that I knew to be South Hill. The streets grew
dark, and I shut off my lights.

The Bonneville turned down a dark, isolated street.

Middle-class row houses badly in need of repair. At the end of the
street, it pulled into the driveway of a white clapboard house perched
on a hill overlooking the valley. The location was pretty enough, but
the house was a shambles.

Coombs and his partner got out of their car, talking. They went into the
house. I turned into a dark driveway three houses down. I'd never had
such a chilling feeling of being alone. It was just that I couldn't let
Coombs go, couldn't let him run on us.

I pulled the Glock out of my glove compartment and checked the clip.
Full load. Jesus Christ, Lindsay. No vest, no backup, no cell phone that
works.

I crept along the shadowy sidewalk toward the white house, the automatic
at my side. I was good with the gun, but this good?

Several beat-up cars and pickups were parked in a random pattern at the
top of the driveway. The downstairs lights were on. I could hear voices.
Well, I'd come this far I made my way up the narrow driveway toward the
garage. It was a two-car stand-alone, separated from the main house by a
blacktop walkway. The voices grew louder. I tried to listen, but they
were too far away. I took a breath and moved closer. Hugging the house,
I looked inside a window.

If Coombs looked as if he was going to stay for a while, then I could
get backup here.

Six outlaw types, beer bottles, smokes, huddled around a table. Coombs
was one of them. On the arm of one man I spotted a tattoo that made it
all so clear.

The head of a lion, the head of a goat, the tail of a reptile.

This was a meeting of Chimera.

I inched closer, trying to hear. Suddenly came the rumble of another car
climbing South Hill. I froze. I clung to the house, hugging the space
between the main house and the garage. I heard the car door slam, then
voices and footsteps coming my way.

Chapter 88.

I SAW TWO MEN coming, one with a blond beard and long ponytail, the
other in a sleeveless denim vest with massive tattooed arms. I had
absolutely nowhere to go.

They fixed on me. "Who the hell are you?"

Two possibilities: back away with my gun aimed at them, or make a stand
and take Coombs in right now. The latter seemed the better idea to me.

"Police," I shouted, freezing the two new arrivals. My automatic was
extended with both hands. "San Francisco Homicide. Get your hands up."

The two men had measured, unpanicked reactions. They glanced at each
other calculatingly then back at me. I was sure they were armed, and so
were the others inside. A terrifying thought flashed through me: I could
die here.

Noise erupted from all over. Two other men arrived from the street. I
spun around, jerking my gun at them.

Suddenly the lights inside the house went out. The driveway got dark,
too. Where was Coombs? What was he doing now?

I jerked into a shooting crouch. This wasn't about Coombs anymore.

I heard a noise behind me. Someone coming fast. I spun in that direction
- and then I was blindsided by somebody else. I was grabbed, taken down.
I hit the ground hard under a couple of hundred pounds.

Then I was looking at a face I didn't want to see. A face I hated.

"Look what the tide rolled in." Frank Coombs grinned.

He wagged a .38 at my eyes. "Marty Boxer's little girl."

Chapter 89.

COOMBS CROUCHED down close and leered at me with that haughty smirking
grin I'd come to hate already. Chimera was right here. "Seems you're the
one who's leaning to the left a little now," he said.

I had just enough clear-headedness to realize what incredible trouble I
was in. Everything that could have possibly gone wrong had.

"This is a murder investigation," I said to the men around me. "Frank
Coombs is wanted in connection with four killings, including two cops.
You don't want a piece of that." Coombs continued to grin. "You're
wasting your breath if you think that bullshit carries any weight here.
I heard you talked to Weiscz. Neat guy, huh? Friend of mine."

I forced myself into a sitting position. How the hell did he know I'd
been to Pelican Bay? "People know I'm here."

Suddenly Coombs's fist flashed out. He caught me flush on the jaw. I
felt a warm ooze fill my mouth, my own blood.

My mind flickered for some way to escape.

Coombs continued to smile down at me. "I'm gonna do what you bastards
did to me. Take something precious from you. Take something you can
never have back. You don't understand anything yet."

"I understand enough. You killed four innocent people."

Coombs laughed again. His coarse hand stroked my cheek. The venom in his
stare, the coldness of his touch nearly made me retch.

I heard the gunshot, loud and close by, only it was Coombs who howled
and grabbed his shoulder.

The others scattered. There was chaos in the darkness, and I was as
confused as anyone. Another bullet whined through the air.

A skinny thug with tattoos yelped and grabbed his thigh.

Two more shots thudded into the garage wall.

"What the fuck is going on?" Coombs yelled. "Who's shooting?"

More shots rang out. They were coming from the shadows at the end of the
driveway. I got up and ran in a crouch away from the house. No one
stopped me.

"Here," I heard someone shout up ahead. I churned my legs toward the
sound. The shooter was crouched behind the mustard-colored Bonneville.

"Let's go," he hollered.

Then all at once I saw; but I couldn't believe my eyes.

I reached out and fell into the arms of my father.

Chapter 90.

WE SPED AWAY from the house, getting most of the way to San Francisco
before we could even speak. Finally my father pulled his car into the
busy parking lot of a 7-Eleven. I faced him, still breathing, my heart
pounding.

"Are you okay?" he asked in the softest voice I could imagine.

I nodded, not quite sure, taking an inventory of where it hurt. My jaw
... the back of my head ... my pride.

Slowly the questions that needed to be answered crept through the daze.

"What were you doing there?" I asked.

"I've been worried about you. Especially after somebody came after your
friend Claire." The next thought hit me hard. "You've been following?"

He dabbed the corner of my mouth with his thumb to wipe away a trickle
of blood. "I was a cop for twenty years. I followed you after you left
work tonight. Okay?"

My head rung in disbelief, but somehow it didn't matter.

Then, as I stared at my father, something else flashed in my mind.
Something that wasn't adding up. I remembered Coombs leering over me.
"He knew who I was."

"Of course he knew. You met him face-to-face. You're in charge of his
case."

"I don't mean from the case," I said. "He knew about you."

My father's eyes looked confused. "What do you mean?"

"That I was your daughter. He knew. He called me Marty Boxer's little
girl."

A light was blinking from a beer sign in the 7-Eleven window. It
illuminated my father's face.

"I already told you," he said, "Coombs and I were familiar. Everybody
knew me back then."

"That wasn't what he meant." I shook my head. "He called me Marty
Boxer's little girl. It was about you."

I had a flash of my face-to-face with Coombs that morning at the hotel.
I'd had the same fleeting sensation then.

That he knew me. That there was something between him and me.

I pulled away, my voice straining. "Why were you following me? I need to
hear everything."

"To protect you. I swear. To do the right thing for once."

"I'm a cop, Dad, not your little Buttercup. You're holding something
back. You're involved in this somehow. You want to do the right thing
for once, this is the time to start."

My father leaned his head back, eyes fixed straight ahead.

He sucked in a sharp breath. "Coombs called me when he got out of fuel.
He managed to trace me down south." "Coombs called you?" I said,
wide-eyed, completely in shock. "Why would he call you?"

"He asked how I'd enjoyed the last twenty years of my life, while he was
away. If I'd made something of myself. He said it was time to pay me
back."

"Pay you back? Pay you back for what?" As soon as I asked the question,
the answer shot through me. I stared hard into my father's lying eyes.

"You were there that night, weren't you? You were in this twenty years
ago.

Chapter 91.

MY FATHER AVERTED HIS EYES. I'd seen the shamed and guilty look before -
too many times - when I was just a little girl.

He started to explain. Here we go again, huh, Daddy?

"Six of us got to the crime scene, Lindsay. I was only there by chance.
I was subbing for this guy, Ed Dooley. We were last on the scene. I
didn't see shit. We got there after everything had been played out. But
he's been badgering us, all of us, ever since.

"I never knew he was Chimera, Lindsay," my father said.

"That you have to believe. I never heard of this cop Chipman until you
told me the other day. I thought he was just threatening me."

"Threatening you, Dad?" I blinked in disbelief. My heart was breaking a
little. "Threatening you with what? Please make me understand. I really
want to understand." "He said he was going to make me feel the way he
did all these years. Watching himself lose everything. He said he was
going after you."

"That's why you came back," I said with a sigh, "wasn't it?

"All that stuff about wanting to set things right. Make amends with me.
That wasn't it at all."

"No." He shook his head. "I'd already pissed away so much. I couldn't
let him take the rest, the part that was good. That's why I'm here,
Lindsay I swear it. I'm not lying this time."

My head was ringing. I had a murder suspect loose. Shots had been fired.
I didn't know what to make of this. What to do about my father? How much
did he really know? How to deal with Coombs now? With Chimera?

"You're telling me the truth? For once? This is my case, my big,
important case. I have to know the truth. Please don't lie to me, Dad."
"I swear," he said, his eyes hooded with shame. "What're you going to
do?"

I glared at him. "About what? About Coombs, or us ...?"

"About this whole mess. What happened tonight."

"I don't know." I swallowed. "But I do know one thing ... If I can, I'm
bringing Coombs in."

Chapter 92.

BY TEN THE NEXT MORNING, I had a search warrant in my hands. It granted
access to Coombs's room at the William Simon. Half a dozen of us rushed
over there in two cars.

Coombs was out in the open. There were things we could nail him for:
like attempted murder of a police officer and resisting arrest. I had
put out an APB on him and sent a team to go over the meet house where
everyone had scattered the night before.

I asked Jill to meet Jacobi and me at the William Simon.

I was hoping against hope that we'd find something in Coombs's room that
would tie him to one of the murders. If we did, I wanted a warrant in
motion immediately.

The same Indian desk clerk let us in the room. It was unkempt, a row of
crushed beer bottles and soda cans lining the windowsill. The only
furniture was a metal-frame bed with a thin mattress, and a chest of
drawers with his toiletries on top, a desk, a table, and two chairs.

"What'd ya expect" - Jacobi smirked - "... a Holiday Inn?"

Several newspapers were littered about, Chronicles and Examiners.
Nothing out of the ordinary. On a ledge to the side of the bed, my eyes
fell on a small marksmanship trophy - a prone sharpshooter aiming a
rifle with the inscription Regional 50 Meter Straight Target Champion
and Frank Coombs's name.

It made my stomach turn.

I went over to the desk. Stuck under the phone were crumpled receipts
and a few numbers I didn't recognize. I found a map of San Francisco and
the surrounding areas. I yanked out the drawers of the desk. An old
Yellow Pages, some take-out menus to local restaurants, an out-of-date
city guide.

Nothing ... Jill looked at me. She shook her head, grimaced.

I kept searching the room. Something had to be here.

Coombs was Chimera.

I kicked a desk drawer in, sending a lamp toppling to the floor. In the
same frustrated fit, I grabbed hold of the mattress and angrily ripped
it off the bed.

"It's here, Jill. Something has to be."

To my surprise, a manila envelope that had been between the mattress and
the box spring fell to the floor. I picked it up and spilled the
contents onto Coombs's bed.

It wasn't a gun or something taken from the victims, but it was a
virtual history of the Chimera case. Newspaper and magazine articles,
some of them going back twenty-two years to the trial, one from Time
magazine, detailing the case. One, headlined "POLICE LOBBY DEMANDS
COOMBS ARREST," had a picture of an Officers for Justice rally at City
Hall Square. Scanning through it, my eye was drawn by a slashing red
circle Coombs had made, highlighting a quote ascribed to a group
spokesman, patrol Sergeant Edward Chipman.

"Bing-o." Jacobi whistled.

Continuing on, we came upon articles on the trial and copies of letters
from Coombs to the POA demanding a new trial. A faded copy of the
original Police Commission's report on the incident in Bay View. There
were lots of angry comments penned in the margins by Coombs. "Liar,"
boldly underlined, and "Fucking coward." A bold red bracket highlighted
the testimony of Field Lieutenant Earl Mercer.

Then a series of current articles, tracing the most recent murders:
Tasha Catchings, Davidson, Mercer ... a blurb in the Oakland Times about
Estelle Chipman with a scrawled-in comment, "A man without honor
dishonors everything."

I looked at Jill. It wasn't perfect; it wasn't something we could tie
directly to a murder case. But it was enough to remove all doubt that we
had found our man. "It's all here," I said. "At least we can make this
stick for Chipman and Mercer." She thought awhile, then finally bunched
her lips together and gave me a satisfied nod.

As I rebundled the file, perfunctorily leafing through the last few
items, something hit my eye. My jaw stiffened.

It was a newspaper clipping from the first press conference after the
Tasha Catchings murder. The photo showed Chief Mercer standing behind
several microphones.

Jill noticed my changed expression. She took the clipping out of my
hand. "Oh God, Lindsay ... "

In the photo's background, behind Mercer, were several people connected
to the investigation. The mayor, Chief of Detectives Ryan, Gabe Carr.

Coombs had drawn a bold red circle around one face.

My face.

Chapter 93.

BY THE END OF THE DAY, Frank Coombs's description was in the hands of
every cop in the city. This was personal.

We all wanted to bring him down.

Coombs had no belongings, no real money, no network that we knew of. By
all reckoning, we should have him soon.

I asked the girls to get together in Jill's office after everyone else
had left. When I arrived, they were cheerful and smiling, probably
thinking about congratulating me. The newspapers had Coombs's picture on
the front page. He looked like a killer.

I sank down on the leather couch next to Claire.

"Something's wrong," she said. "I don't think we want to hear this."

I nodded. "I need to talk about something."

As they listened, I described my experience of the night before. The
real version. How tailing Coombs had been risky and impulsive, though I
hadn't had any real choice. How I had gotten trapped. How when I was
sure there was no hope, my father had rescued me.

"Jesus, Lindsay." Jill's jaw hung incredulously. "Will you please try to
be more careful ...?"

"I know." I said.

Claire shook her head. "You said to me the other day, I don't know what
I would do without you, and you go off taking a risk like that. Don't
you think it works the same for us? You're like a sister. Please stop
trying to be a hero."

"A cowboy," Jill said.

"Cowgirl," Cindy chimed.

"A couple of seconds either way" I smiled "and you guys would be out on
a membership drive about now."

They sat staring at me, somber and serious. Then a ripple of laughter
snaked its way around the room. The thought of losing my girls, or them
losing me, made what I had done seem all the more insane. Now it was
funny.

"Thank God for Marty!" Jill exclaimed.

"Yeah, good old Marty." I sighed. "My dad."

ambivalence, Jill leaned forward. "He didn't hit anyone, did he?"

I took a breath. "Coombs. Maybe someone else." "Was there blood at the
scene?" asked Claire.

"We've been over the house. It was rented to this small-time punk who's
disappeared. There was evidence of blood in the driveway."

They stared back in silence. Then Jill said, "So how'd you leave it,
Lindsay? With the department?"

I shook my head. "I didn't. I kept my father out of it."

"Jesus, Lindsay," Jill shot back, "your dad may have shot one. He stuck
his nose into a police situation and fired his gun."

I looked at her.

"Jill, he saved my life. I can't just turn him in."

"But you're taking a huge risk. For what? His gun is properly licensed.
He was your father, and he was following you. He saved you. There's no
crime in that."

"Truth is" - I swallowed - "I'm not sure he was following me."

Jill shot me a hard look. She wheeled her chair closer.

"You want to run that by me again?"

"I'm not sure he was following me," I said.

"Then why the hell was he there?" Cindy shook her head.

All their eyes fell on me.

Piece by piece, I laid out the exchange with my father in the car after
the shooting. How after I confronted him, my father had admitted to
being a material witness twenty years ago in Bay View. "He was there
with Coombs." "Oh, shit," Jill said with blank eyes. "Oh Jesus,
Lindsay."

"That's why he came back," I said. "All those uplifting conversations
about reconnecting with his little girl. His little Buttercup. Coombs
was threatening him. He came back to face him down." "That may be," said
Claire, reaching out for my hand, "but he was threatening him with you.
He came back to protect you, too."

Jill leaned forward, her eyes narrowed. "Lindsay this may not be about
protecting your dad from getting involved. He may have known Coombs was
killing people and not come forward."

I met her eyes. "These past weeks, having him back in my life, it was
like, all of a sudden I could put aside the things he had done, the hurt
he caused, and he was just a person, who made some mistakes but who was
funny and needing, and who seemed happy to be with me. When I was
little, I dreamed of something like this happening, my dad coming back."
"Don't give up on him yet," Claire said.

Cindy asked, "So if you don't think your father came back for you,
Lindsay, what is he protecting?"

"I don't know." I looked around the room, my eyes stopping at every
face. "That's the big question."

Jill got up, went over to the credenza behind her desk, and hoisted up a
large cardboard box file. On the front was marked, "Case File 237654A.
State of California vs. Francis C.
Coombs." "I don't know either," she said, patting it. "But I'll bet the
answer's somewhere in here."

Chapter 94.

AS SOON AS SHE GOT TO WORK the next morning, Jill opened the case file
and waded in. She told her secretary to hold all calls and canceled what
only yesterday had seemed an urgent meeting on another murder case she'd
been working on.

With a mug of coffee on her desk and her DKNY suit jacket slung over her
chair, Jill lifted out the first heavy folder. The massive trial record
- pages and pages of testimony, motions, and judicial rulings. In the
end, it would be better that she didn't find anything. That Marty Boxer
ended up being a father who had come back to protect his kid. But the
prosecutor in her wasn't convinced.

She groaned and started reading the file.

The trial had taken nine days. It took the rest of the morning for her
to go through it. She sifted through the pretrial hearings, jury
selection, the opening statements. Coombs's precious record was brought
out. Numerous citations for mishandling situations on the street where
blacks were involved. Coombs was known for off-color jokes and
pejorative remarks. Then came a painstaking re-creation of the night in
question. Coombs and his partner, Stan Dragula, on patrol in Bay View.
They encounter a schoolyard basketball game. Coombs spots Gerald Sikes.
Sikes is basically a good kid, the prosecution conveys. Stays in school,
is in the band; one blemish when he had been rounded up two months
before in a sweep of the projects looking for pushers.

Jill read on.

As Coombs busts up the game, he starts taunting Sikes. The scene gets
ugly Two more patrol cars arrive. Sikes shouts something at Coombs, then
he takes off. Coombs follows. Jill studied several hand-drawn diagrams
illustrating the scene.

After the crowd is subdued, two other cops give chase. Patrol Officer
Tom Fallone is the first to arrive. Gerald Sikes is already dead.

The trial and notes ran over three hundred pages - thirty-seven
witnesses. A real mess. It made Jill wish she'd been the prosecuting
attorney. But nowhere was there anything implicating Marty Boxer.

If he was there that night, he was never called.

By noon, Jill had made her way through the depositions of witnesses. The
murder of Sikes had taken place in a service alley between Buildings A
and B in the projects. Residents claimed to have heard the scuffle and
the boy's cries for help. Just reading the depositions turned Jill's
stomach.

Coombs was Chimera; he had to be.

She was tired and discouraged. She'd spent half a day plowing through
the file. She had almost gotten to the end when she found something odd.

A man who claimed he'd witnessed the murder from a fourth-story window.
Kenneth Charles.

Charles was a teenager himself. He had a juvie record. Reckless
mischief, possession. He had every reason, the police said, to create
trouble.

And no one else backed up what Charles said he saw.

As she read through the deposition, a throbbing built in Jill's head.
Finally, it was sharp, stabbing. She buzzed her secretary. "April, I
need you to get me a police personnel file. An old one. From twenty
years ago."

"Give me the name. I'm on it."

"Marty Boxer," Jill replied.

Chapter 95.

A CHILLY BAY BREEZE sliced through the night as Jill huddled on the
wharf outside the BART terminal station.

It was after six. Men in blue uniforms, still wearing their Short-billed
caps, came out of the yard, their shift over. Jill searched the exiting
group for a face. He may have been a juvie with a police record twenty
years before, but he had straightened his life out. He'd been decorated
in the service, married, and for the past twelve years worked as a
motorman with BART. It had taken April only a few hours to track him
down.

A short, stocky black man in a black leather cap and a 49ers windbreaker
waved good-bye to a few coworkers and made his way over to her. He eyed
her warily. "Office manager said you were waiting for me? Why's that?"

"Kenneth Charles?" Jill asked.

The man nodded.

Jill introduced herself and handed him her card. Charles's eyes widened.
"I don't mind saying, it's been a long time since anyone at the Hall of
so-called Justice took an interest in me."

"Not you, Mr. Charles," Jill answered, trying to set him at ease. "This
is about something you might have witnessed a long time ago. You mind if
we talk?"

Charles shrugged. "You mind walking? My car's over here." He motioned
her through a chain-link gate to a parking lot on the wharf.

"We've been digging through some old cases," Jill explained. "I came
across a deposition you had given. The case against Frank Coombs."

At the sound of the name, Charles came to a stop.

"I read your deposition," Jill went on. "What you said you saw. I'd like
to hear about it."

Kenneth Charles shook his head in dismay. "No one believed anything I
said back then. They wouldn't let me come to trial. Called me a punk.
Why you interested now?"

"You were a kid with a rap sheet who'd been in the system twice," Jill
answered honestly.

"All that's true," Kenneth Charles said, "but I saw what I saw. Anyway,
there's a lot of water under the bridge since then. I'm twelve years
toward my pension. If I read right, a man served twenty years for what
he did that night."

Jill met his eyes. "I guess I want to make sure the right man did spend
twenty years for that night. Look, this case hasn't been reopened. I'm
not making any arrests. But I'd like the truth. Please, Mr. Charles."

Charles took her through it. How he was watching TV and smoking weed,
how he'd heard scuffling outside his window shouting, then a few muffled
cries. How when he looked out, there was this kid, being choked.

Then, as Jill listened, everything changed. She took in a sharp breath.

"There were two men in uniform. Two cops holding Gerald Sikes down,"
Charles told her.

"Why didn't you do something?" Jill asked.

"You have to see it like it was back then. Then, you wore blue, you were
God. I was just this punk, right?"

Jill looked deeply into his eyes. "You remember this second cop?" "I
thought you said you weren't making any arrests."

"I'm not. This is something personal. If I showed you a picture, you
think you could pick him out?"

They resumed walking and arrived at a shiny new Toyota.

Jill opened her briefcase, took out the picture. She held it out for
him. "Is this the policeman you saw, Mr. Charles?" He stared at the
photo for a long moment. Then he said, "That's the man I saw."

Chapter 96.

I SPENT THAT WHOLE DAY at the Hall, on the phone with the field or at a
grid map of the city overseeing the manhunt for Frank Coombs.

We placed a watch on several of his known acquaintances and places where
we thought he might run, including Tom Keating's. I did a trace on the
yellow Bonneville that had picked Coombs up and ran the phone numbers
found on his desk. No help there. By four, the guy who had rented the
house in South San Francisco had turned himself in insisting it was the
first time he had met Coombs.

Coombs had no money, no belongings. No known manner of transport. Every
cop in the city had his likeness. So where the hell was he?

where was Chimera? And what would he do next?

I was still at my desk at seven-thirty when Jill walked in.

She was only a few days out of the hospital. She had on a brown wrap
raincoat, with a Coach briefcase slung over her shoulder. "What're you
still doing here?" I shook my head. "Go home and rest."

"You got a minute?" she asked.

"Sure, pull up a chair. Afraid I don't have a beer to offer." ."Don't
worry" She smiled, opening her bag and removing two Sam Adamses. "I
brought my own." She tilted one toward me.

"What the hell." I sighed. We had no trace on Coombs, and it was clear
in Jill's face that something was bothering her. I figured it was Steve,
already humping some new deal, leaving her alone again.

But as soon as she unzipped her case, I saw the blue personnel folder.
And then a name, Boxer; Martin C.

"I must've told you," Jill said, cracking her beer and sitting herself
down across from me, "that my father was a defense lawyer back in
Highland Park."

"Only a hundred times." I flashed her a smile.

"Actually he was the best lawyer I ever saw. Totally prepared, unswayed
by race or what a client could pay. My dad, the totally upright man.
Once, I watched him work a case at night at home for six months to
overturn the conviction of an itinerant lettuce farmer who was falsely
convicted on a rape charge. A lot of people back then were pushing my
dad to run for Congress. I loved my dad. Still do."

I sat there silently, watching her eyes grow moist. She took a swig of
beer. "Took me until I was a senior in college to realize the bastard
had cheated on my mother for twenty years. The big upstanding man, my
hero."

I broke into a faint smile. "Marty's been lying to me all along, hasn't
he?"

Jill nodded, pushing my father's dog-eared personnel file along with a
deposition across my desk. The deposition had been folded open to a page
highlighted in yellow. "You might as well read it, Lindsay."

I braced myself and, as dispassionately as I could, read through Kenneth
Charles's testimony. Then I read it over again. All the while, a sinking
feeling of disappointment. And then fear. My first reaction was not to
believe it; anger filled me. But at the same time, I knew it had to be
true. My father had lied and covered up his whole life. He had conned
and bullshitted and disappointed anyone who ever loved him.

My eyes welled up. I felt so betrayed. A tear burned its way down my
cheek.

"so sorry, Lindsay. Believe me, I hated to show you this." Jill reached
out a hand and I took it, squeezed hard.

For the first time since becoming a cop, I had no idea what to do. I
felt a chasm widening; it couldn't be filled with anything that
resembled duty or responsibility or right.

I shrugged, draining the last of my beer. I smiled at Jill.

"So whatever happened to your father? Is he still with your mom?" "Fuck,
no," she said. "She was so tough sometimes, so cool. I just loved her.
She threw him out when I was in law school. He's been living in a
two-bedroom condo in Las Colinas ever since."

I started to laugh, a painful laugh that mixed with the disappointment
and the tears. When I stopped, I was left with this crushed feeling in
my heart and all these questions that wouldn't go away. How much had my
father known? What had he kept silent about? And finally what was his
connection to Chimera?

"Thanks," I said. I squeezed Jill's hand again. "I owe you, sweetie."

"What are you going to do, Lindsay?"

I folded my jacket over my arm. "What I should've done a long time ago.
I'm going to find out the truth."

Chapter 97.

MY FATHER WAS IN THE MIDDLE of a game of solitaire when I got home.

I shook my head, slightly averting my eyes. I trudged into the kitchen,
pulling a Black & Tan out of the fridge. I came over and sank into the
chair across from him.

My father looked up, maybe feeling the heat of my eyes.

"Hey, Lindsay."

"I was thinking, Dad ... about when you left." He continued flipping
through the deck of cards. "Why do you want to go through that now?"

I kept my gaze on him. "You took me down to the wharf for some ices.
Remember? I do. We watched the ferries coming in from Sausalito. You
said something like, ''m gonna get on one of those in the next few days,
Buttercup, and I won't be back for a while.' You said it was something
between you and Mom. And for a while I waited. But for years I always
wondered, Why did you have to leave?"

My father's lips moved as if he were trying to frame a response, then he
stopped.

"You were dirty weren't you? It was never about you and Mom. Or the
gambling, or the booze. You helped Coombs murder that boy. That's what
it was all along. Why you left? Why you came back? None of it had
anything to do with us. It was all about you.

My father blinked, trying to spit out a reply. "No ... "

"Did Mom even know? If she did, she always gave us the party line, that
it was your gambling, and the alcohol."

He put down the deck of cards. His hands were trembling.

"You may not believe it, Lindsay, but I always loved your mother."

I shook my head, and I wanted to get up and hit my father. "You couldn't
have. No one could hurt someone they love that much."

"Yes, they can." He wet his lips. "I've hurt you."

We sat there, frozen in silence, for a few moments. The washed-over
anger of so many years was hurtling back at me.

"How did you find out?" he asked.

"What does it matter? I was going to find out eventually."

He looked stunned, like a fighter hit with a solid uppercut. "That
trust, Lindsay, it's been the best thing to happen to me in twenty
years."

"Then why did you have to use me, Dad? You used me to get to Coombs. You
and Coombs killed that boy." "I didn't kill him," my father said, and
shook his head back and forth, back and forth. "I just didn't do
anything to stop it."

A breath came out of him that seemed as if it had been held inside for
twenty years. He told me how he had run after Coombs and found him in
the alley. Coombs's hands were wrapped around Gerald Sikes's throat. "I
told you things were different then. Coombs wanted to teach him a little
respect for the uniform. But he kept squeezing. ''s got something,' he
told me. I shouted at him, ' go!' When I realized it had gone too far, I
went for him. Coombs laughed at me. ' is my territory Marty-boy. If
you're scared, get the fuck out of here.' I didn't know the kid was
going to die ... When Fallone came on the scene, Coombs let the kid drop
and said, ' bastard was trying to pull a knife on me.' Tom was a vet; he
sized it up fast. Told me to get lost. Coombs laughed and said, ' ...'
No one ever disclosed my name."

My eyes stung with tears. My heart felt as if it had a rip in it. "Oh,
how could you? At least Coombs stood up. But you ... you ran.

"I know I ran," he said. "But I didn't run the other night. I was there
for you."

I closed my eyes, then opened them again. "It's truth time. You weren't
there for me. You were following him. That's why you're back here. Not
to protect me ... to protect yourself. You came back to kill Frank
Coombs."

My father's face turned ashen. He ran his hand through his thick white
hair. "Maybe at first." He swallowed. "But not now ... It changed,
Lindsay."

I shook my head. Tears were running down my cheeks, and I angrily wiped
them away.

"I know you think that everything that comes out of my mouth is a lie.
But it's not. The other night, helping you escape, was the proudest
moment of my life. You're my daughter. I love you. I always have."

My eyes were still wet, and words came out I wished I could grab back.
"I want you to go. I want you to pack up and go back to wherever you
were for the past twenty years. I'm a cop, Dad, not your little
Buttercup. Four people have been killed so far. You're involved somehow.
And I have no idea how much you know or what you're hiding."

My father's face went slack. I could see in the evaporating glow of his
eyes how much this hurt.

"I want you out," I said again. "Right now."

I sat there, my arms folded around Martha, while he went into the guest
room. A few moments later, he came out with his things packed. He looked
small suddenly and alone.

Martha's ears stood up. She sensed that something was wrong. She moseyed
over to him, and he gently patted her head.

"Lindsay, I know how much reason I've given you to hate me, but don't do
this now. You've got to watch out for Coombs. He's going to come after
you. Please, let me help."

My heart was breaking. I knew that the minute he walked out the door, I
would never see him again.

"I don't need your help," I said. Then I whispered, "Good-bye, Daddy."

Chapter 98.

FRANK COOMBS leaned stiffly against a pay phone on the corner of Ninth
and Bryant. His eyes were riveted on the Hall of Justice. It had all
been leading here.

The pain in his shoulder cut through his body as if someone were probing
at the edges of the wound with a scalpel.

For two days he had kept undercover, slipping down to San Bruno, hiding
out. But his picture was on the front page of every paper. He had no
money. He couldn't even go back and get his things.

It was almost two o'clock. The afternoon sun pierced his dark glasses.
There was a crowd on the front steps of the Hall. Lawyers huddling in
discussions.

Coombs took in a calming breath. Hell, what do I have to be afraid of?
He continued to stare toward the Hall of Justice.

They should be afraid.

The service revolver was holstered to his waist, thanks to old faithful,
Tom Keating. The clip was filled with hollow points. He extended his
shooting arm. Okay. He could do this.

Coombs turned toward the pay phone. He placed a quarter in the slot and
dialed. No more second chances. No more waiting. This was his time.
Finally, after twenty-two years in hell.

On the second ring, a voice answered, "Homicide Detail."

"Put me through to Lieutenant Boxer."

Chapter 99.

WE HAD A LINE on one of Coombs's prison cronies who had fled to Redwood
City. I was waiting for a call back.

All morning, I had pushed the murder case forward while in the back of
my mind I replayed the devastating scene with my father. Was I right to
judge him for things that had happened twenty years before? More
important, what was my father's involvement with Chimera?

I was finishing a sandwich at my desk when Karen stuck her head in.
"Call on line one, Lieutenant."

"Redwood City?" I asked as I reached for the phone.

Karen shook her head. "This person said you would know him. Said he was
an old friend of your father's."

My body stiffened. "Put it on four," I said. Four was the common line
shared by the office. "Start a trace, Karen. Now."

I jumped out of my chair, urgently signaling to Jacobi in the outer
room. I held up four fingers, pointing to the phone.

In seconds, the office exploded into a state of alert. Everybody knew
this had to be Chimera.

We needed ninety seconds to get a solid read on the trace.

Sixty to narrow it down to a sector of town. If he was even calling from
town. Lorraine, Morelli, and Chin all ran in, their faces tight with
anticipation.

I picked up the phone. In the squad room, Jacobi picked up as well.
"Boxer," I said. ... Anything to keep him on the goddamn line.

I looked at my watch; thirty-five seconds had gone by.

"Where are you, Coombs?"

"Always the departmental small talk, huh, Lieutenant?

I'm starting to lose some respect for you. You're supposed to be a smart
chick. Make your Marty-boy proud. So tell me, how come all these people
are dead and you still don't have it figured right?"

I could feel him sneering at me. God, I hated this man.

"What is it, Coombs? What haven't I figured out?"

"I heard your daddy ran out on you about the time I went to jail," he
said.

I knew what he was building up to tell me. Still, I had to keep him on
the line. In the outer room, Jacobi was listening, but he was also
watching me.

Coombs snickered. "You probably thought that the old man was jacking off
some barmaid. Or that he left some bad markers out on the street."
Coombs put on a voice of mock sympathy. "God, it must've been tough when
he took off and your mom died."

"I'm going to enjoy nailing you, Coombs. I'll be there when they start
the drip at San Quentin."

"Too bad you won't have the chance, sweetheart. But I wanted to tell you
something important. Listen. Your old man did leave markers. To me ... I
own them ... I took the fall. For him. For the whole police department.
I own them all. I did the time. But guess what, little Lindsay? I wasn't
alone."

Every fiber in my body tightened. My chest nearly exploded with rage. I
glanced at Jacobi. He nodded to me as if to say, a Few more beats ...
Keep him on.

"You want me, Coombs? I saw the photo in your room. I know what you
want. I'll meet you anywhere ... "

"You want the killer so bad, it's almost touching. But sorry, I have to
pass on your offer. I've got one more date."

"Coombs," I said, glancing at the clock, "you want me, let's go at it.
Can you beat a woman, Frank? I don't think you can."

"Sorry, Lieutenant. Thanks for the fun talk. But it seems like,
everything that happens, you're just a tad too late. I still don't think
broads belong in the department. Just an opinion."

I heard a click.

I ran out into the squad room. Cappy had a line going with Dispatch. I
was desperately hoping Coombs hadn't used a cell phone. Cells were the
hardest to trace. One -more date ... I didn't know what the hell Coombs
was threatening. What was next? What?

"He's still in the city," Cappy shouted to me. He reached for a pen.
"He's in a phone booth. They're trying to narrow it down."

The detective started to write, then he looked up. His face was screwed
in disbelief. "He's in a booth ... at the corner of Ninth and Bryant."

All of our eyes met, and then everybody in the room was moving.

Coombs was calling from a block away.

Chapter 100.

I STRAPPED ON MY GLOCK and yelled a call for closest available unit.
Then I charged out of the office. Cappy and Jacobi trailed on my heels.

Just a block away ... What was Coombs going to do?

I didn't wait for the elevator. I bounded down the back stairs as fast
as my legs would carry me. In the lobby, I pushed through staffers and
civilians standing around and burst through the glass doors leading to
Bryant Street.

There was the usual mass of people milling around on the front steps at
lunchtime: lawyers, bondsmen, and detectives.

I turned my gaze toward Ninth, craning my head to spot anything. No one
who looked like Coombs. Cappy and Jacobi caught up to me.

"I'll go ahead," Cappy said.

Then it hit me. One more date. Coombs was here, wasn't he? He was at the
Hall of justice.

"Police," I shouted, signaling the unsuspecting crowd. "Everybody stand
alert."

I scanned through the startled crowd for his face. My Glock was at the
ready. Bystanders looked at me in wide-eyed surprise. Several crouched
down or started to move away.

This is what I remember about what happened next:

A uniformed cop came up the stairs, walking toward me. I hardly noticed;
I was scanning for Coombs's face.

The uniform came out of the crowd, the face obscured behind sunglasses
and the visor of his hat. He was holding out his hand.

I focused right past him, scanning- down the street, searching for
Coombs. Then I heard someone shout my name. "Hey! Boxer!"

Everything exploded on the steps of the Hall. Jacobi, Cappy, yelling,
"Gun ... "

My eyes flashed toward the cop. In that instant, the strangest thing
came clear to me. His blues. He was wearing a patrolman's uniform that I
hadn't seen in a while. I fixed on the face, and to my shock, it was
Coombs. It was Chimera. I was the date he was planning to keep.

Someone spun me from behind as I raised my Glock.

"Hey!" I yelled.

I saw Coombs's gun spurt orange. Twice. Nothing I could do to stop it.

Then everything got incredibly crazy and confused. Chaos. Terror.

I know that I got off a shot before my body went numb with pain.

I saw Coombs lurch forward, his glasses flying off, his gun pointed my
way. He staggered, but he was still coming for me. His dark eyes glared
with hate.

Then a scary shooting gallery erupted in front of the Hall.

A cacophony of loud, echoing pops ... five, six, seven in rapid
succession, coming from all directions. People were screaming, running
for cover.

Coombs's blue uniform erupted in bursts of bright red. Cappy and Jacobi
were firing at him. His body hurtled backward, jerking with the hits.
His face showed terrible pain.

The air was laced with a burning cordite smell. The echo of each shot
crashed in my ears.

Then it was eerily quiet. The silence was startling to me.

"Oh, Jesus," I remembered saying, finding myself down on the concrete
steps. I didn't know for sure if I'd been shot.

Jacobi was leaning over me. "Lindsay, stay right there. Be still." His
hands were on my shoulders, and his voice reverberated through my brain.

I nodded, inventorying my body for a wound. Shouts and walls echoed all
around, people rushing everywhere.

I reached for Warren's arm and slowly pulled myself up.

He tried to give me an order: "Lindsay, stay down. I'm telling you now."

Coombs was on his back, ruptures of crimson oozing out of his blue
shirt.

I pushed by Jacobi. I had to see Coombs, had to look into his eyes. I
hoped he was still alive, because when the monster took his last breath,
I wanted him staring up at me.

A few uniforms had formed a protective ring around Coombs, ordering
everyone to stay clear.

Coombs was still alive, labored sounds escaping from his heaving chest.
An EMS team came running, two techs lugging equipment. One, a woman,
began ripping at Coombs's bloody shirt. The other was taking his
pressure and setting up an IV.

Our eyes met. Coombs's gaze was waxy, but then his mouth twitched into
an ugly smile. He tried to say something to me.

The EMS woman was backing people off, shouting out his vitals.

"I have to hear what he's saying," I told the tech. "Giv" me a minute
here."

"He can't talk," she said. "Give him room to breathe, Lieutenant. He's
dying on us!"

"I have to hear," I said again, then I knelt down close.

Coombs's uniform shirt had been cut open, a mosaic of ugly wounds
exposed.

His mouth quivered. He was still trying to talk. What did he want to
tell me?

I leaned closer, the blood on Coombs smearing my blouse. I didn't care.
I put my ear close.

"One last ...," he whispered. Every breath was a fight for him now. Was
this how it ended? With Coombs taking his secrets straight to hell?

One last ...? One last target, one last victim? I stared into his eyes,
saw the hatred still there.

"One last what, Coombs?" I asked"

Blood bubbled out of his mouth. He took in a hard breath, husbanding the
last of his strength, straining against the power of his own death.

"One last surprise." He smiled.

Chapter 101.

COOMBS WAS DEAD. It was over, thank God.

I had no idea what Coombs had meant, but I wanted to spit his words back
in his face. One last surprise ... Whatever it was, Chimera was gone. He
couldn't hurt us anymore.

I hoped it didn't mean he had left' one last victim before he died.

"C'mon, Lieutenant," Jacobi muttered. He gently pulled me up.

Suddenly, my legs buckled. I felt as if I had no control over the lower
part of my body. I saw the look of alarm on Warren's face. "You're hit,"
he uttered, wide-eyed.

I looked down at my side. Jacobi peeled back my jacket, and a wet red
gash appeared on my right abdomen. All of a sudden my head began to
spin. A current of nausea rose.

"We need help here," Jacobi shouted to the EMS tech. He and Cappy eased
me back to the ground.

I found myself staring over at Coombs, as the female tech who had peeled
away the dead man's shirt rushed over to me.

God, this was so unreal. They took off my jacket, slapped a blood
pressure monitor on my arm. It was as if it were happening to somebody
else.

My gaze stayed fixed on the killer, the goddamn Chimera.

Something a little strange, something not tracking. What was it?

I pulled myself out of Jacobi's grip. "I have to see something ... "

He held me back. "You have to stay right here, Lindsay. There's an
ambulance on the way."

I pulled away from Jacobi. I got up and went over to the body. Coombs's
police uniform had been peeled back off of his chest and arms. Raw
wounds spotted his chest. But something was missing; something was all
wrong. What was it?

"Oh, my God, Warren," I whispered. "Look."

"look at what?" Jacobi frowned. What the hell is wrong with you?"

"Warren ... there's no tattoo."

My mind flashed back. Claire had discovered pigment from the killer's
tattoo under Estelle Chipman's fingernails.

I put my hands underneath Coombs's shoulders and rolled him slightly.
There was nothing on his back. No tattoos anywhere.

My mind was whirling. This was unthinkable but Coombs couldn't be
Chimera.

Then I passed out.

Chapter 102.

I OPENED MY EYES in a hospital room, feeling the constraining pull of
the IV line stuck in my arm.

Claire was standing over me.

"You are a lucky girl," she said. "I talked to the doctors. Bullet
grazed your right abdomen but didn't lodge. What you've basically got is
one of the nastiest floor burns you'll ever see."

"I heard floor burns go well with powder blue, don't they?" I said
softly my lips parting in a weak smile.

Claire nodded, tapping the taped bandage on her neck.

"So I'm told. Anyway, congratulations ... You've earned yourself a cozy
desk job for the next couple of weeks." "I already have a desk job,
Claire," I said. I blinked a confused look around the hospital room,
then I pulled myself up into a sitting position. My side ached as if it
were on fire.

"You did good, girl." Claire squeezed my arm. "Coombs is dead, and now
safely ensconced in hell. There's a mob of people outside who want to
talk with you. You're gonna have to get used to the accolades."

I closed my eyes, thinking of the misplaced attention about to come my
way. Then, through the haze, it hit me.

What I had discovered before I blacked out.

My fingers gripped Claire's arm. "Frank Coombs didn't have a tattoo."

She shook her head and blinked back. "So ...?"

It hurt to talk, so the words came out in a whisper. "The first murder,
Claire. Estelle Chipman ... She was killed by a man with a tattoo. You
said it."

"I could've been wrong."

"You're never wrong." I flashed my eyes.

She eased back on her stool, her brow creased. "I'm doing the autopsy on
Frankie-boy Monday morning. There could be a highly pigmented section of
skin, or a discoloration somewhere."

I managed a smile. "Autopsy ... ? My professional opinion is that he was
shot."

"Thanks." Claire grinned. "But someone's got to take the bullets out of
him and match them up. There'll be an inquiry."

"Yeah." I blew out a gust of air and dropped my head back on the pillow.
The whole incident, seeing the cop coming up to me, realizing it was
Coombs, the flash of his gun, all came back to me as broken fragments.

Claire stood up, brushed herts without
interruption. His one fight came when Jimmy Cannon arrived .just after

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Ted had finished an extensive forty-five-minute interview with a sizable
group of other out-of-town writers. Joe McKenney, the Red Sox
publicity director, asked Cannon to wait until Ted came back in but
Cannon insisted on going out to left field to see Ted immediately.
predictably, Ted blew his stack.

Even though Ted's league-leading average fell off sixty points, the
1958 season was in certain respects a greater accomplishment than the
season of 1957. Not only was he beset by injury or illness throughout
the year, but his physical problems were complicated, during the first
half of the season, by that unseemly truce with his old enemies in the
press box. If the human race has learned anything from history, it is
that peace treaties do not do a thing for either world peace or for Ted
Williams's batting average.

He had reported to camp with a tender ankle, the result of an accident
suffered on a fishing trip in Labrador. On the second day he
pulled a muscle in his side. He didn't even get into the lineup until
after the Sox broke camp, and then he went in only as a pinch hitter
against minor-league opposition. In his five appearances, he was sharp
enough to get two home runs, a single, and two walks.

Then, on the night before the opening-day game against Washington,
he ate some tainted oysters and came down with a case of food
poisoning. When he returned to the lineup, his timing was a little off,
and just when it was coming back into focus, he banged his wrist
against the fence while catching a long fly ball. The wrist remained
sore almost all year; Ted reinjured it again and again while sliding into
base. The last time came, most uncharacteristically, while he was trying
to go from second to third on a short fly ball to right field. On top of
all that, he ran into a terrible streak of bad luck where by actual count,
outfielders reached into the distant right-field bull pen at Fenway Park
to take home runs away from him seven separate times in less than
two months. There was also the annual arrival of the lung ailment,
which put him out of action for thirteen days in September.

The result of it all was that Ted got off to such a terrible start that
for the first time since his freshman season he did not make the starting
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years, shook their heads and let you know that Ted was not g
around with those wrists anymore. They were reluctant, howev
put their opinion into print. They had eaten those words too
times. And, anyway, peace had descended comfortably between t

During that early low point, Ted told me, "I know what's w
The little injuries that have kept me from getting my timing dow
sharp. Little things bother you in this game. It's not like hocke
football, where they can strap you up and send you out almost as
as new. That's not an alibi, now, it's just a way of saying that as
as I know why I'm not hitting, I'm not worried. When the time cc
when I'm not hitting and I don't know why I'm not hitting, that
be the time to quit. When they're throwing the fastball by me, wh,
find myself striking out two or three times a game, that will be
time I'll know my reactions are going. And nobody will have to
me. I'll know it first of all."

He was down to .225 when a Kansas City writer finally broke
curity silence and wrote that Ted was obviously washed up. The n,
day, as was to be expected, Ted hit a grand-slam home run, the st
teenth grand slammer of his career, to give the Sox an 8-5 victor
The day after that he slashed out three hits.

It was not until July, though, that he brought his average up to .30
and it was not until a Boston writer accused him of choking in tt
clutch that he really begin to move. The day after the magazine ca
tying that article hit the stands, Ted hit two home runs and a singk
to knock in seven runs in an 11 - 8 victory. One of the home runs wa
his seventeenth grand slammer, tying him with Babe Ruth for secom
place in that category, behind Lou Gehrig's twenty-third.

By that time, the uneasy peace had already been shattered. On
week earlier, in point of fact, Ted had brought the newspapers down
on him again by spitting at a Kansas City crowd that was booing him
for not running out a ball hit back at the pitcher. "I'm really sorry I
did it," Ted said, after Cronin fined him $250. "I was so mad that I
lost my temper, and afterward I was so sorry. I'm principally orr
about losing the $250."

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Once the feud with both the press and the public was on again,
Ted's average began to move up in the charts like a bullet. On Augus
8, he pushed into a tie with his teammate, Pete Runnels, for the batting
lead. Then, with the season running out, he began to slip back. Desperate
measures were called for. With a week remaining, Ted landed
on the front pages again, brought the wrath of the civilized world dowr.
upon him, and, needless to say, embarked immediately on a hittin
streak that carried him to another batting championship,

Ted entered the game in question, on September 22, trailing Runnels
by six points. He had gone hitless in seven straight times at bat.
In the first inning, Runnels singled, and Ted, hitting right behind him,
grounded into a double play. Two innings later, Runnels singled again,
and Ted took a third strike. Completely disgusted with himself for
taking the pitch, Ted turned toward the dugout and angrily flung his bat away. Unfortunately, the bat caught for a moment on the stick,
substance he used on it to give himself a firmer grip. Instead of skidding
across the dirt, the bat spiraled into the air, sailed into the box
seats seventy-five feet away, and hit a sixty-year-old woman. The
woman, Mrs. Gladys Heffernan, turned out to be Joe Cronin's housekeeper
and a longtime admirer of Ted Williams. Otherwise, the Sox
would have had a healthy lawsuit on their hands.

Ted, appalled, rushed to the railing, where the motherly Mrs. Hefleman
paused to reassure him before being taken off to the first-aid
room. Ted went back to the dugout with tears streaming down his face
and emerged only after the umpire-in-chief, Bill Summers, had assuree
him that everybody knew he had not meant to throw the bat. Ted took
his outfield position to the familiar strains of unrestrained booing. 0
his next turn at bat, he answered the boos by doubling home a run.

Cronin, who was almost as upset as Ted was, told the press, "I
was an impetuous act, but no one is sorrier than Ted is. He feel
awful. We will take no disciplinary action. It was unfortunate, but we
certainly know Williams didn't do it intentionally." Mrs. Heffernan
interviewed from her hospital bed, said, "I don't see why they had to
boo him. It was not the dear boy's fault. I felt awfully sorry for hirr

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after it happened. I should have ducked." Williams said, "I just almost
died."

From the time of the bat-throwing incident to the end of the season,
he had nine hits in thirteen times at bat. The Red Sox were ending
their season in Washington, and with two games remaining Ted and
Runnels were tied down to the ninth decimal point, .322857643. Frank
Malzone was Runnels's roommate: "Pete and I were talking before
the game. He said, 'What do you think?' I said, 'Just go out and get
some hits. You can still win it.'" Runnels started off with a triple.
Ted followed with a walk. Runnels then singled, and Ted singled behind
him. On his third time at bat, Runnels hit a home run, only to
have Ted hit one right behind him.

"He comes over to me," Malzone says, "and he said, 'He's not
going to let me win this thing, is he?' "

"I said, 'Naw, I guess not, Pete.' I said, 'Got to get another one.
If you get another one, he can't catch you.'"

On his fourth try, Runnels finally made out. Ted singled, to take
over the batting lead for the first time that season. At the end of the
day, Runnels was three for six, but Ted was three for four. On the
season, Runnels was .324. Ted was .326.

In the final game, Ted clenched the batting title with a double and
a seventh-inning, game-winning home run, that lifted the Red Sox into
third place.

"I don't think anyone else in this league but Ted could have beaten
me in a race like this," Runnels said. "It's no disgrace to finish runner
up to Williams in a batting championship."

An equally gracious Williams was saying that Runnels had hit the
ball just as hard as he had over that final week, and maybe harder. "I
was lucky," he said, "because my balls had distance and some of his
were hit right at the fielders."

At the age of forty, Ted Williams had won another American League
batting title. He was going to have two more years--the dreadful,
injury-ridden season of 1959 and a year of injuries and personal anguish
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Country Club

I realized what a great guy Tom Yawkey was, and I will always sing
his praises as a terrific guy and a man. I knew he would have liked
to have a stronger relationship with me, but I never did want to pursue
that aspect of it.

--TED WILLIAMS

the of the standard flights of fantasy when baseball fans get toO
gether centers on the stupendous feats of hitting that would have
been achieved if Ted Williams had been able to play half his games in
yankee Stadium and Joe DiMaggio had been able to take dead aim at
the left-field wall at Fenway Park.

Ted Williams, for one, isn't so sure. "The thing of it is, when you
get in them short ballparks, like DiMag in Fenway and Williams at
New York, they pitch a little different to you. All you got to do is
look at the statistics. Doggone it, you don't get anything to hit."

It was Joe Cronin who first gave Ted reason to think about it, and
Cronin wasn't talking so much about the ballpark as about the recognition
and acclaim. "It was my first or second year in the big leagues,"
Ted says, "and Joe took me to a restaurant with his wife and somebody
else. He said 'You know, Ted, some day when you're looking
back, you may be sorry you didn't play in New York.' I was just a
young kid. I didn't have an opinion really. He said, 'No, there are two
things you are going to wish you could have done in your career. First,
that you didn't play in New York, and also that you weren't a faster
runner.' For damn sure, he was right on that last one."

It could have happened. There were at least two times during Ted's
career when there were serious conversations between Tom Yawkey
and Dan Topping, the Yankees owner, about a WilliamsforDiMaggio
trade. And that's not counting a most intriguing proposition that came
to Ted within a week after he retired.

A more fruitful area for speculation, however, would go like this:
Forget the fences and look to the ownership. What would have happened,
in other words, if Ted Williams had grown up under the hard
eyed businessmen who ran the Yankees organization and Joe Di
Maggio had fallen under Tom Yawkey's beneficent gaze?

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With the Yankees ownership you either toed the line or you were
gone. It didn't matter how much the players hated Casey Stengel. George
Weiss, the general manager, had impressed on them that nobody was
indispensable, and so when Stengel barked at them they jumped, For
that matter, the players themselves were known to haul a fresh rookie
out into the back alley and show him their knuckles. "You're fooling
with our money" was the way that tune went.

On the other hand, it's entirely possible that the Red Sox's permissive
attitude was exactly what Ted needed. Birdie Tebbetts, the old
psychologist (he has a B.S. in philosophy from Providence College),
seems to think so. "Joe Cronin has never got the credit he deserves in
the way he treated Williams," Tebbetts says. "He knew he had a
troubled kid, and he held him under a loose rein. He disciplined him
only when he had to and then went back to allowing Ted Williams to
be Ted Williams."

On that assessment, Ted agrees completely. "I know how lucky I
was--I know how lucky I was--that I played for a manager like Joe
Cronin. Joe Cronin came closer to treating me like a father, with good
advice, friendly advice, intimate advice, than any other single man in
my life. He had a beautiful family, and he was a tremendous father.
Lovely kids. Lovely wife. He was a handsome Irish guy, and I envied
him how he could bullshit the press. He could get a guy he didn't like
and have him going out of the office thinking Joe Cronin was a helluva
guy. Joe Cronin would have been as good a politician as a ballplayer."

With the passage of time and the clouding of memory, Ted has
wondered why Cronin didn't use his diplomatic skills more often in
the early years ("I was just a young kid") to smooth the relationship
between Ted and the sportswriters. "But maybe I don't know how
protective he was of me. And maybe I didn't always listen to him. I'm
not making excuses for myself. I just want to say he was so great with
me. I loved him."

The trade talks are of interest for the light they shed on the relationship
between Ted and Tom Yawkey.
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ball deal of the century in taking over the ownership of the Yankees,
along with Dan Topping and Del Webb, proposed to Yawkey that they
get the brave new postwar world off to a glorious flag-waving start by
pulling off the dream trade that would put Joe DiMaggio in Fenway
Park and Ted Williams in Yankee Stadium. In later years, MacPhail
would maintain that the deal was all set until Ed Barrow, with malice
aforethought, pulled the rug out from under it.

The way the story goes, Ed Barrow was a guest of Yawkey at his
sland estate in South Carolina, and although Barrow was still nominally
the Yankees general manager, MacPhail, who was a little crazy
in a genius kind of a way, had stripped him of all his authority. Hating
MacPhail as he did, Barrow--who just might have invited himself
down to the island for that purpose--told Yawkey he'd have to be
crazy to trade the twenty-seven-year-old Williams for the thirty-year
old, ulcer-ridden DiMaggio.

In the winter of 1948, Yawkey and Dan Topping shook hands on a
Williams-for-DiMaggio trade during a drinking session in New York.
The next morning, Yawkey was supposed to have told him, "I think
I ought to get another player. If you throw in that little left-fielder of
yours, it's a deal." The little left-fielder was Yogi Berra.

"I'm sure that story was true," Ted says. "No question about it.
The way I heard the story, it was a matter of these guys getting together
one night, half looped. Players were like prize possessions to
them, I guess, and they made this deal, and supposedly they agreed
on it, and the next day Yawkey called Topping and told him, 'You
know I'm a man of my word, but I just can't go through with it.' "
Ted has heard the Yogi Berra version, too, and he doesn't completely
discount it. "DiMaggio wasn't at the height of his career and I was.
But of course the great DiMaggio was such a great player. He would
have hit better at Fenway Park, and I might have hit better at Yankee Stadium."

Ted is also sure--no question whatsoever about this--that he came
very close to signing with the Yankees a few days after he played his
final game for the Red Sox. When Ted left the ballpark that day, he

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was unemployed, not terribly solvent, and in view of all the responsibilities he had taken on, terribly worried. Because if the truth be known,
he had retired only because Tom Yawkey had been after him to retire
for at least two years.

The season had ended for Ted on a Wednesday. Thursday was an
off day. "I didn't go to New York with the team, and Saturday morning
I got a telegram from George Struthers, the merchandising vice
president of Sears, telling me they had something they wanted to talk
to me about. I knew exactly what it was going to be." They wanted
Ted to come in and upgrade their entire sporting goods line. "Everything
involved with sporting goods. Hunting, fishing, camping, skiing."
They were offering him far more money than he had ever made in
baseball. And they were offering him a ten-year contract.

The American League season ended on Sunday, and on Monday the
Yankees asked Ted--through his manager, Fred Corcoran--for permission
to talk to the Red Sox about signing him for one year, exclusively
as a pinch hitter, at the same salary he had been getting with
the Red Sox.

Ted has little doubt that if the talks with Sears hadn't been progressing
so rapidly he would have given it very serious consideration. "It
had got to the point, though, where I was just tired of what had been
going on. And I thought, Hell, I'm going to do this with Sears. So I
told Fred Corcoran I wasn't interested. And that was the end of it."

The tantalizing question is whether Yawkey would have given his
permission for Ted Williams to end his career in Yankee pinstripes or
whether he would have heaved up a sigh and told Ted that if he really wanted to stick around for another year he would match the Yankees'
offer.

What does Ted think?

"Yawkey's relations with me were always to do what I wanted to
do, more or less. I think that--" Suddenly, his voice took on a tone
of certainty. "I don't know how he would have reacted. I think he
was pretty sure, like ] was, that I didn't want to play anymore."

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Tom Yawkey in public. There was nothing Yawkey could ask of him,
for as long as Yawkey was alive, that Ted wouldn't do. There was
also a kind of pretense to a closer relationship than actually existed.
Yawkey's island in South Carolina was a hunting preserve, and everybody
assumed that Ted spent a great deal of time down there with
him. Everybody was wrong. Ted went down to the hunting preserve
in South Carolina exactly once.

"It was not a father-and-son relationship," Ted says flatly. "I felt
Yawkey liked me, but I never pursued trying to get extra close to
him." Then, so there would be no misunderstanding: "He was there.
He was a simple man. He knew how lucky he had been in his life and
he tried to do everything he could to be a good guy. He had an open
heart for charity, an open heart for a sad story. He was just a nice
easy man, really and truly."

But, when you think about it, why should Ted have wanted to get
close to him? Yawkey wasn't really bright. There was nothing Ted
could learn from him. Yawkey did two things: he drank and he played
bridge. Ted did not drink, and he did not play cards.

True enough, they were involved in the Jimmy Fund together, but
that association was also more apparent than real. As important as
Yawkey was in placing the imprimatur of the Red Sox on the Jimmy
Fund, Tom Yawkey was a figurehead and Ted Williams was the blood
of its heart.

Ted's relationship with Yawkey was not nearly as crucial to Ted's
career as was Yawkey's personality and character as the owner of the
ballclub.

Yawkey was a frustrated ballplayer who loved all his players and
positively worshiped Ted. As a result, the Red Sox became a soft and
pampered ball club. The general managers were Yawkey's drinking
buddies. The managers were without authority. The discipline was fake
discipline, the fines were fake fines.

Yawkey was a rich man's son who had been around baseball all his
life. On the death of his father he was adopted by his uncle, William

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H. Yawkey, a lumber and mining magnate, who had helped Ban Johnson
launch the American League and had maintained a financial interest
in the Detroit Tigers all his life. Tom led such a privileged childhood
that ballplayers from Ty Cobb on down were invited to the Yawkey
estate to play catch with him. He was twelve years old when Bill
Yawkey was killed in an automobile accident. As the sole heir of his
foster father--and the prospective heir of his even wealthier mother--
young Tom was written up in Sunday feature articles as "the richest
boy in the world," a characterization that owed as much to the richness
of the journalists' imagination as to Tom's true place in the hierarchy
of wealth. On the other hand, if you're rich enough to be looked
on as a contender for the title, what difference does it make?

Yawkey was thirty years old when he bought the Red Sox, a hopelessly
bankrupt team that had won only forty-three games the previous
season and averaged only 2,365 paying customers. The ball club became
his toy. Because he loved his players, he spoiled them rotten.
And because he spoiled them rotten, they praised him to the skies. Yet
there was always the sense that the praise was so unreserved ("the
greatest owner in baseball" was practically engraved on his forehead)
that it was being overdone. There was always the whiff of something
obligatory about it.

Joe Cronin had little power to discipline his big-name players. As
if being a playing manager wasn't tough enough on him, Cronin knew
that his biggest stars could always walk the back stairs and cry on
Tom's shoulder. When Yawkey purchased Robert Moses (Lefty) Grove,

panion. Mose was a cranky old geezer. He would scream at Cronin
for making an error behind him, and there was nothing much that
Cronin could do about it. Not when Old Mose could rip him apart to
the boss a couple of hours later over the drinks.

Unlike Grove, Jimmy Foxx was a man of enormous good nature
and generosity. So convivial a fellow, in fact, that he took a rather

cavalier attitude toward curfews.

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Johnny Pesky: "Cronin sat in the lobby until two in the morning
waiting to grab him. Sure enough, the door of the hotel opened, and
Foxx comes in, half stiff. Cronin gets up ready to blast him. Then the
door opened again, and in comes Yawkey. They had been out together.
What do you say when the owner of the team is taking your
players out?"

That was the team that Ted Williams joined in Boston.

There is a well-publicized exchange in which Bobby Doerr asks
Tommy Henrich why the Red Sox weren't able to beat the Yankees in
big games. "Weren't we good enough?" Doerr asks. It wasn't that
they weren't good enough, Henrich answers. "Your owner was too
good to you. The Red Sox didn't have to get into the World Series to
drive Cadillacs. The Yankees did."

Oversimplified, to be sure. But essentially true. And that's where
the soft, permissive environment established by Yawkey did hurt Ted.
]'he accusation that has always haunted him is that he was a great
hitter but not a winning player. A more generous assessment might be
that he was a great hitter on a team that was too undisciplined to
become a winner.

Worse yet, it was an amateur operation--not so much a business
as a hobby--pitted against the toughest, most professional operation
of all time.

Bobby Doerr's answer to Henrich is to point out that immediately
after winning the pennant in 1946, the Red Sox lost their three top
starting pitchers to injuries. "Does anybody doubt that if Hughson,
Ferriss, and Harris had remained healthy we wouldn't have won two or
three more pennants?" But that's just the point. When the history of
the Yawkey Era is written it could be titled "Always One Pitcher
Short." The Red Sox could always put a powerful, highly salaried
starting lineup on the field. The Yankees had a powerful, not-so-well
paid twenty-five-man squad.

Ted always was paid more than Joe DiMaggio, you know. Not because
Ted wanted it that way, but because Tom Yawkey did. In 1948,
immediately after the Yankees had made DiMaggio the first $100,000

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player, a pack of writers caught Yawkey on the way up to his office.
He had just sent Williams his contract, Yawkey told them, and it was
going to be for more than DiMaggio's. "It may be only $1,000 more,"
he said, in answer to their prodding. "But Ted Williams will always
get more money than anybody else." It was $115,000, and a year later
it was $125,000.

Yawkey had a blind spot toward the value of the supporting cast,
however. During the 1949 season, the thirty-six-year-old Johnny Mize
was offered to Yawkey by his good friend Horace Stoneham, the owner
of the New York Giants. In the previous two seasons, Mize--a lifetime
,320 hitter--had hit forty and fifty-one home runs. "What would
we do with him.'?" Yawkey asked. The Red Sox already had a first
baseman in Billy Goodman, didn't they? The Yankees jumped at the
chance, and Mize became one of eight first basemen Casey Stengel
used that year. He also won game after game as a pinch hitter. The
Red Sox number-one pinch hitter, Billy Hitchcock, did not get a base
hit all year.

It wasn't simply that the Red Sox regulars were overpaid and the
Red Sox bench understaffed. There was no firm hand in the front of
rice, no guiding philosophy, because the front office, in a perfect reflection
of their employer, was always awash in booze.

To put this within its proper context, drinking was so much the
occupational disease of baseball in that era that it wasn't even recognized
as a disease. Or even as a vice. It proved that you were a real
man, or, at least, one of the guys. The Red Sox weren't the only team
that did a lot of drinking; they may not even have been the worst. But
no other team offered quite the same combination of paternalism and
permissiveness, because no other team was being operated as a rich
man's hobby. Yawkey not only drank with the troops; he would send
the heavy drinkers a bottle of his favorite brand of scotch, Old Forester,
as a reward for an especially good performance.

And--just in case--the traveling secretary was always given a wad
of money at the beginning of a road trip to bail out anybody who might
get into trouble.

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In 19z18 Joe McCarthy had been hired to bring some order and disciplineto
say nothing of a team concept--to the Red Sox. Tom
yawkey, making his final attempt to buy a pennant, gave him what
,as easily the strongest ball club the Red Sox ever had. The new
players were Vern (Junior) Stephens, a hard-hitting shortstop, two right
handed pitchers, Jack Kramer and Ellis Kinder, and a great rookie,
Billy Goodman.

As soon as McCarthy was hired, the Boston papers tried to whip up
a controversy over whether he would be able to get along with Ted
Williams, with particular emphasis on whether he would try to impose
his rigid dress code on Ted. McCarthy's answer was to show up at
Sarasota wearing a Hawaiian sports shirt open at the neck. "If I can't
get along with a .400 hitter," he said, "then there's something wrong
th me." Ted liked McCarthy as a manager. "He was all business.
His coaches were all business. Just coming into the clubhouse was
tmsiness." But then Ted adds, without exactly saying that Joe Me
.,atthy was not the manager he had once been, "I don't know what
would have happened if he had been the same man the Yankees play
m talked about."

When it came to managing a ball club, McCarthy was impressive.
When it came to managing himself, he was a disaster. Always solitary
and aloof, he would sit at the far end of the bench. Ted was the only
player who would sit near him. The usual explanation was that Ted
was the only member of the team who wasn't a little afraid of him. A
perhaps more persuasive explanation might be that he was the only
player who could stand his breath.

Joe McCarthy was an alcoholic. Not just someone who drank a lot,
ut an alcoholic in the truest sense of the word. Even in his great days
with the Yankees, he would disappear for days on end and be found
in some seedy hotel lying in his own bodily wastes. To explain his
bsence, the Yankees would announce that he had gone to his farm
near Buffalo to recover from an attack of bursitis.

He drank when he was under stress, and Boston was the stress capital
of the baseball world. Instead of running away with the pennant as
they should have in 1948 the Red Sox lost their play-off game to the

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Cleveland Indians when McCarthy locked himself in his hotel room
with a bottle and received a message from God telling him to pitch Denny Galehouse (8-7) instead of Mel Parnell (15-8).

His wife, Babe, took care of him when the Red Sox were playing
at home. Tom Dowd, the traveling secretary, took care of him on the
road. During the game, Eddie Froelich, the trainer he had brought over
from New York, would keep an eye on him, and Del Baker, who had
been hired for precisely this purpose, would take charge when it became
apparent that McCarthy was out of it.

Two stories, both classics, tell it all. The datelines read: St, Louis,
September 17, 1948, and Boston, June 5, 1950. The first story involves
Sam Mele, the second Ellis Kinder.

McCarthy hated Sam Mele, for reasons directly connected with Ted
Williams. Ted and Mele were good friends, and Ted, ever the fight
fan, had a habit of throwing light feints at his friends, almost as a
gesture of affection. In this particular incident, they met in the aisle of
a train, coming from opposite directions, and as they squeezed past
each other Ted threw a feint and proceeded on his way. When Ted
woke up the next morning he couldn't breathe. He had separated a
cartilage from the ribs and was out for three weeks. Sam Mele, who
had been Rookie of the Year the previous season, immediately became
a part-time player.

In what turned out to be a roller coaster of a season, the Red Sox
came back from an eleven-and-a-half-game deficit to go four and a
half games ahead in mid-September--and then began to dribble their
lead away. After losing the opening game of what had been expected
to be an easy series in St. Louis, the lead was down to one game, with
fifteen games to go. By the next morning, McCarthy was so drunk that
when it came time to take the team bus to the ballpark, Tom Dowd
locked him in his room. The bus arrived at the park, the players filed into the clubhouse, and there was McCarthy sitting on a stool. ("How
he beat us to the park," Dowd would say, "I will never know.")

Del Baker wrote Mele's name into the lineup, and in the first inning
he came up with the bases loaded and two out and cleared the bases

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with a double. Two batters later, he was thrown out at third base on
an attempted double steal and lay there writhing in agony with a twisted
anlde. Eddie Froelich went running out to treat him. Del Baker followed.
McCarthy, left unattended, staggered out of the dugout and
went wandering up the first-base line and into right field. It was one
of those sweltering summer afternoons in St. Louis, with 1,500 fans
scattered around the stands. In that sparsely inhabited, hollow arena,
the voice of one leather-lunged fan came ringing forth: "When are you
going to switch to wine, Joe?"

When McCarthy finally found his bearings and joined the crowd at
third base, he bent over the fallen Mele and screamed, "Get up, you
fucken dago!" Then he turned to Baker and demanded to know why
he had called for a double steal. "You called for it," said Baker.

Ellis Kinder was one of those drinkers who usually pitched better
after a long night on the town. Cronin once offered him fifty dollars
to go to bed early the night before he pitched, but after Kinder was
knocked out of the box three straight times Cronin handed him a hundred
and told him to go out and get drunk. He didn't always pitch better,
though. McCarthy's downfall came when Joe got so drunk that he
couldn't see how drunk Kinder was. The love affair between Yawkey
and McCarthy was over by then, anyway. Yawkey's pets were climbing
the stairs to complain about how cruelly their manager was treating
them, and Yawkey was ordering McCarthy to lay off.

On the game in question, Kinder got so drunk that it slipped his
mind he was supposed to be pitching until Clif Keane, who knew both
his habits and his habitats, hurried down to the Kenmore Hotel, interrupted
his liaison with a young lady, and broke the not necessarily
welcome news to him. Then Keane helped him get dressed and lugged
him to the ballpark. In those days, starling pitchers still warmed up in
front of their respective dugouts. Drunk as he was, Kinder was throwing
the ball all over the place, something everybody in the ballpark
except Joe McCarthy could see, possibly because Joe McCarthy was
kind of sleeping it off himself.

Kinder, well aware that he needed a stiffener, cut his warm-up short

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and went into the clubhouse for "a cup of coffee." Or something.
Slick-haired Jack Kramer, who had the locker next to his, was always
complaining that Kinder was drinking his hair tonic.

Clif Keane: "Nellie Fox was the first hitter. The first pitch went up
on the backstop. The second one came in on a couple of bounces.
Dave Philley was the second batter. The first pitch came bouncing up
to the plate, and the second one went up against the backstop." Birdie
Tebbetts, his catcher, was yelling, "Get him out of here. He's drunk."
Eight straight pitches Kinder threw without coming anywhere near the
plate, and somewhere along the way Joe McCarthy woke up enough
to sense that something was amiss. "I'll never forget this scene," says
Keane. "Here comes McCarthy. Kinder sees McCarthy coming and,
thinking quickly, he begins to work his left arm. He's a right-handed
pitcher. McCarthy says, 'That costs you five hundred dollars.' He brings
in Maurie McDermott. McDermott pitches a four-hit shutout, and
McCarthy never takes the money from Kinder."

The way the story went out over the news wires, it read: "After
issuing passes to the first two batters, the right-hander left the game
with a kink in his left shoulder." A not-so-cryptic message to the rest
of the baseball world.

McCarthy was indisposed again in Chicago two weeks later, at a
time when the Red Sox were losing steadily. It was said that he resigned
because of his health. If so, Tom Yawkey was suitably grateful.

McCarthy was replaced by Steve O'Neill, who was Joe Cronin's
drinking buddy.

By the time Ted returned from Korea, the manager was Lou Boudreau,
who got the job by playing pepper with Yawkey at Fenway
Park every morning. The "country club," otherwise known as the
Yawkey follies, was in full flower over the rest of Ted's career.

It all came to a climax, during Ted's last two years, with the hiring
and firing of Billy Jurges. Or, if you prefer, the firing and hiring of
Mike Higgins.

It began in the spring of 1959 when Joe Cronin was named president
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wanted the job, and (2) Yawkey had confided to his fellow owners
that he wanted to get rid of him and (3) it was a job with such limited
responsibilities that it didn't matter who held it. What followed with
the Red Sox was not so much musical comedy as pure slapstick.

To replace Cronin as general manager, Yawkey hired Bucky Harris-the
man Cronin had replaced as manager twenty-three years ear
tier. A neat symmetry there. Yawkey had always felt guilty about letting Bucky go.

He was, alas, doing Bucky no favor. Bucky had a gorgeous young
wife, and until Yawkey felt the need to go rummaging around in his conscience he had been living a perfectly happy life. Bucky wasn't an
administrator. Bucky wasn't an executive. Bucky was a falling-down
drunk. By 1959, he was so far gone that the office help had to guide
his hand through his signature on official papers. Dick O'Connell, the
business manager, was running the club. "Dick," Bucky would tell
him, "I don't want this job. I don't want it."

Mike Higgins was in his fifth year as the field manager. He was
another of Yawkey's drinking buddies, but he was also a very strong
and solid man, with a lot of personal problems which he drowned, as
he liked to say, with "cherry bombs." To say he was a player's manager
was to understate it. "I love playing for Higgins," one of the
players was quoted as saying. "He never gets mad at us when we
lose." By June of 1959, the Red Sox had fallen into last place, the
anti-Higgins faction of the press was howling for his head, and Yawkey
dispatched Bucky Harris to Washington with orders to fire him.

Already the geography was unfortunate. Washington was Bucky
Harris's home ground, and instead of going to the team's hotel, to
make the announcement to the hastily gathered press, he went roaming
off to his old haunts and disappeared for two days--although "Bucky
sightings" were posted periodically in the press box. From Washington,
the Red Sox traveled up to Baltimore by bus. When they arrived
at the Lord Baltimore Hotel they found their missing general manager
sitting in the lobby.

Within thirty seconds, Harris and Higgins were headed out the door

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and across the street to the Gaiety Bar. Right behind them were three
members of the Boston press corps, plus Bill Crowley, then a member
of the broadcasting team. Harris and Higgins were at one end of the
huge oval bar, arguing. The media guys settled down at the other end.
Otherwise the place was empty.

Three scenes are going to be taking place in separate venues. One
at the Gaiety Bar, another in Ed Rumill's hotel room, in the hotel, and
the third at the rooftop press room at Fenway Park.

Bill Crowley: "The Gaiety had this fat, ugly bar girl, Audrey, who
looked like Tugboat Annie. Jake Liston of the Traveler hands her a
sawbuck and says, 'Go down and wash some glasses, and come back
and tell us what they're talking about.' She comes back in a couple of
minutes. 'The little guy keeps telling the big guy he should resign.
The big guy keeps telling the little guy to go luck himself.' "

Off that promising beginning, Lyn Raymond of the Quincy Ledger slipped her another ten spot and sent her back to wipe around the bar.
Back she came with her new report. "The little one says to the big
one he's fired. The big one tells him he's a little shiI, he can't fire
him. The little one says, 'I can fire you, and I have to fire you, because
Yawkey wants me to fire you.'"

Meanwhile, back at the hotel, Ed Rumill of the Christian Science
Monitor had been taking a phone call from one of his numerous ex
wives. The former Mrs. Rumill had been in Duke Zeibert's restaurant
in Washington the previous night and had overheard a conversation
between George Preston Marshall, the owner of the Washington Redskins,
and Bucky Harris in which Marshall, the football man, had been
holding forth on the merits of the Senators' third-base coach, Billy
Jurges. "I think you're right," she had heard Bucky say. "He might
be just the right man for us at this time."

Okay, the Boston writers now had it all. Which was more than
could be said for Tom Yawkey, back in Boston. Yawkey had called a
press conference to announce the dismissal of Higgins. Unfortunately,
nobody at Fenway Park had been able to locate Bucky Harris during
those two days, either. With nothing to tell the press, Yawkey was at

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the bar, drinking heavily. He was also doing something he almost never
did, he was taking questions. Unaccustomed as he was to being cross
examined, he turned hostile. "There are people here who are trying to
tell me how to run a seven-million-dollar operation," he said, "and
there's not one of you who could even run a streetcar." To show how
bad things were going for him, one of the writers delivered a stiff
protest. He had worked his way through college driving a streetcar, he
wanted Yawkey to know. Through Harvard University yet.

Soon enough, Yawkey retreated to the position that he hadn't called
the press conference to announce the name of a new manager but only
to inform them that there was going to be a club meeting over the All
Star break to decide what direction the Red Sox were going to take.

Right on cue, the phone rang. The call wasn't for Yawkey, though.
It was for Hy Hurwitz. As soon as he put down the phone, Hurwitz

said, "You haven't decided who your new manager is going to be?"
"I haven't decided whether there's going to be a new manager."

Hurwitz said, "Down in Baltimore they're announcing that Bucky

Harris is saying that Billy Jurges is going to be the new manager."
"Who? Who?"

"Mr. Yawkey, the Globe is printing that you hired Billy Jurges
today. Two hours ago."

"We did?" said Thomas Austin Yawkey, the sole owner of the
Boston Red Sox Baseball Club.

Billy Jurges had been a great shortstop for the Chicago Cubs and
the New York Giants. He had played for the Cubs, as a young buckaroo,
in the Chicago of AI Capone. In the spirit of the times, he had
once taken a bullet through the hand while trying to convince teammate
Kiki Cuyler's gun-toting girlfriend that Kiki wasn't being unfaithful
to her. Obviously he was the perfect manager for the Boston Red Sox.

Wrong. It wasn't Capone's Chicago, and Billy wasn't twenty-three
years old. Billy Jurges tried to instill some discipline into the ball club,
SOme rules even. A curfew, for crissake. The players hated him. They
also ignored him. Let him fine away to his heart's content; they knew

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nothing would ever be taken out of their paychecks. Frank Sullivan,
the ringleader of the not-so-jolly band of hell-raisers, summed it up
perfectly at the end of one road trip. "If a bomb had hit the hotel in
Detroit at two in the morning," he said, "we'd have still been able to
put a team on the field."

In the spring of 1960, as Ted was getting ready for his final year,
the former Higgins supporters in the press corps began to print that
there was dissension in the Red Sox clubhouse over the way Jurges
was running the club. Ted Williams jumped to Jurges's defense and
was quoted by Joe Reichler of the AP as saying, "It's all a bunch of
horsefeathers. It's those damn Boston writers again. They're always
starting trouble."

But that was almost a reflex action. "I was for every manager I
ever played for," he says, "every one of them." What he really means
is that all he ever wanted from the manager was to be left alone. "My
game was right there to play, to hit the best I could, and I tried to do
that every time I got to the plate. The manager wasn't going to affect
me. I think if I had hated a manager, I'd have hit better because I'd
have been mad at him when I got to the plate. You can get too damn
happy with it all, and too self-satisfied, and barn, you go down the
tubes."

In June the Red Sox were back in last place, and on their way to
Minneapolis to play an exhibition game against their farm club (which
had a new kid, just out of Notre Dame, named Carl Yastrzemski). A
mediocre sore-armed minor-league pitcher who hadn't won a game all
year pitched a no-hitter against them, and by the time they boarded the
plane for Kansas City there was a story on the wire quoting an unidentified
player as saying that Jurges had lost control of the team.

Everybody knew that the source was Tom Brewer, the team's best
pitcher. As they arrived in the hotel lobby in Kansas City, Jurges announced
that there would be a clubhouse meeting and he wanted all
the players and all the newspapermen to be there.

The newspapermen at a clubhouse meeting? Already disaster was in
the air. The players were sitting or standing at their lockers. The writers
were scattered around the walls.

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Ted Williams, still being protective of Jurges, was glowering at any
writer who dared to come near him. Pumpsie Green, who had just
been called up from the minors to become the Red Sox's first black
player, had just sat down at the end of the table in the middle of the
room and been handed an ice-cream bar when Jurges came clomping
out of his office.

Bill Crowley was there again: "The great lesson I learned that day
was that if you want to make a dramatic entrance do not wear shower
clogs. ' '

Standing there in his shower clogs, Jurgcs demanded that the player
quoted in the wire story step forward and identify himself.

Nobody moved. (Talking about it later, the Boston writers decided
that if Brewer had stepped forward, Jurgcs would have had a hcan
attack. And that if, God forbid, Ted Williams had stepped forward,
he'd have gone into cardiac arrest.)

The identity of the culprit having gone undisclosed, the press now
discovered why they were there. "We're all in this together," Jurges
iformed them, "We're all working for the city of Boston and the Boston Red Sox."

Not one of the writers who had been hammering at him so mercilessly
said a word. It was left to Roger Birtwell of the Globe, an aging
and shall we say over-genteel member of the press corps, to arise from his crouch, and in his broad prissy Harvard accent deliver a lecture to
Mr. Jurges on the duties and responsibilities of the press.

The ballplayers were chortling, Ted Williams was still glowering,
and Pumpsie Green was so astonished at this introduction to the major
leagues that he just sat there while the ice-cream bar melted and dripped
down his hand. You could almost hear him thinking, "This is the big
leagues... ?,,

And then it got worse. After the meeting was over, the distraught
Jurges gave an exclusive interview to Larry Claflin of the American to
the effect that he felt he wasn't being supported by the front office.
He was so far gone that he even criticized Mr. Yawkey for not backing
him properly, an all-time first in Boston. By the time the team reached
Washington, the word had come back from Fenway Park so forcefully

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that he called another press conference to mend his fences. Nobody
came. "We don't have any story to clarify" was the message that was
sent back to him. "Give it to your private correspondent, Claflin, and
let him do your apologizing for you."

With the club continuing to lose, the Red Sox sent the club physician
down to give Jurges what was called a "physical examination."
The next day he was told to go to his home in nearby Silver Spring,
Maryland, for a rest, and not to worry, because when he was ready to
come back the job would still be his.

Tom Yawkey, who never held press conferences, held his second
press conference in two years. This one ended with him threatening to
take the Red Sox out of Boston because the Boston press had exceeded
the bounds of decency. The purpose of the press conference was to
issue a statement, over the signatures of Tom Yawkey and Bucky Harris,
saying that Jurges was the manager and no changes were contemplated.
Ted Williams had already issued a statement reiterating his
support of Jurges through his personal columnist, Joe Reichler.

While Jurges was resting in his home in Silver Spring, he received
a registered letter from Yawkey and Harris granting him his unconditional
release.

When the Red Sox arrived back in Boston, they found that Mike
Higgins was their manager again. Yawkey had located Higgins at a
convention of postmasters in New Orleans and had told him to fly to
Cleveland. He had then sent Dick O'Connell to Cleveland with instructions
to bring Higgins to Boston, sober.

"Rehiring Higgins raises a question," wrote Jerry Nason, the sports
editor of the Boston Globe. "Do the Red Sox know what they are
doing?"

That was the Red Sox in 1960, as the career of Ted Williams was
coming to an end.

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if we do meet again, why, we shall smile;
if not, why then, this parting was well made,

-- SHAKESPEARE
Harold Kaese's lead in

the Boston Globe, September 27, 1960

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after the two change-of-life batting championships, Tom Yawkey
was more anxious than ever for Williams to retire. Despite that
oft-expressed desire to leave the spotlight, imposed upon him by the
world of baseball, Ted could not bring himself to depart.

He had after all, committed himself from the beginning to leave his
mark upon the record books. He already had 482 home runs as the
1958 season came to an end and he wanted, he said, to pass Lou
Gehrig's mark of 493 before he retired--and, if possible, to become
the fourth man in history to achieve a total of 500.

Ted was almost was ready to quit, though, when he learned that the
Red Sox would be moving their spring-training headquarters to Scotts
dale, Arizona. He had heard, in his travels, that it was almost impossible
to work up a sweat in the thin Arizona air, and he was afraid he
would never be able to get in shape. He discovered very quickly that
his information could not have been more incorrect. He thrived so
wonderfully on the dry Arizona air that after a couple of weeks he was
in the best shape he had been in for years.

In mid-March, the Red Sox and the Indians were to play a three
game exhibition series in San Diego, Ted's hometown. Since he had
not played in San Diego since a barnstorming tour in 1941, he put
aside his plans to eschew exhibition games so that he could play once
more before a hometown crowd. He arrived in San Diego a day before
either of the clubs did to do some advance publicity work. The city
opened its arms to greet the man who had become its most famous
son. Ted had a great time renewing acquaintances with old friends and
schoolmates.

The first two games were played at night. The first night turned out

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cool and damp, the kind of weather he should never have played in.
He stayed in the game for five innings, though, to satisfy the people
who had turned out to see him. The next night was even cooler and
damper. This time Ted played seven innings. In the final game, played
on a warm Sunday afternoon, he played through another seven innings.

With
the teams returning to Arizona, Ted was given permission to
remain in San Diego for a few more days. Before the Indians left,
Frank Lane, their general manager, asked Ted, as a special favor, to
try to make one of the upcoming games at Cleveland's own training
camp, in Tucson. Ted, who was always fond of Lane, promised that
he would.

Although his neck had begun to stiffen up on him, Williams, true
to his promise, hopped into his car and drove 150 miles across the
desert. He suited up, came to the back of the batting cage, and attempted
a couple of warm-up swings. The neck hurt so badly that he
didn't even try to step into the cage. "I'm going to have to back out
on you, Frank," he told Lane. "I just can't swing at all." "I know
you didn't drive 150 miles to back out of anything," Lane told him.
"I'm grateful to you for making the try."

At first, his problem was diagnosed as a cold in the neck. It was
actually a pinched nerve. Because it was widely believed that Ted had
used slight or imaginary injuries to get out of exhibition games for
years, the first stories about the pinched nerve were taken, it may be
said, with a pinch of salt.

Ted was not alarmed at first, because he was told that the trouble
would clear up in plenty of time for him to make the opening game of
the season. "It was when it got worse instead of better, and I realized
I was going to miss the opener again," Ted said later, "that I began
to really feel discouraged."

Shipped up to Boston at the end of March, he was fitted with a
thick collar, and told that he would indeed probably miss the opener.
He missed much more than that. It was another full month before the
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It was anticipated that he would work his way into the lineup slowly--
as he always had in the past--but Ted surprised everybody by asking
to be written into the starting lineup as soon as the club came back to
Boston. His muscles were still sore, his hands were still blistered, and
he bore little resemblance to the Ted Williams whom Boston fans had
become accustomed to cheering and booing. He went twenty-one times
at bat without a base hit, picked up a couple of hits, then went nothing
for sixteen.

He had forgone the slower, surer route because he felt that he was
in terrible condition that only the steady, hard competitive play could
bring him around. A terrible mistake. The neck bothered him all year.
Since he couldn't move his head, he had to stand at the plate facing
the pitcher. "I didn't expect to do real good," he said, "but I never
thought I'd be that bad."

In mid-June, he was batting. 175 (103- 18). The Red Sox, who had
been in fifth place when he returned to the lineup, dropped into the
cellar, and for the first time in his life Ted Williams found himself
being benched for non-hitting.

He didn't start to hit until after he had failed to make the starting
lineup in the All-Star Game again.

And then came a succession of small, nagging injuries to go along
with the constant pain in his neck. He skinned the knuckles on his
hand sliding. In mid-August, an abscessed tooth knocked him out of a
series in New York. By then, Billy Jurges, who had replaced Higgins
for the second half of the season, had announced that he was going to
"spot" Ted here and there, a nice way of saying that he was being
benched again.

In the dog days of August he had always loved in the past, he was
deep in another slump. By the last week of August, Ted Williams was
batting .233.

He felt old. He was always tired. And, finally, in a night game
against Kansas City, he didn't even bother to run back to the Red Sox
dugout between innings unless he was due to come to bat. Instead, he
took his rest in the Boston bull pen along the left-field foul line.

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For the season, he hit only .254. And, despite a final flickering of
the flame near the end, he was able to pick up only ten home runs,
one short of the number he had needed to catch Lou Gehrig.

As the season came to an end, Yawkey called him to his suite at
the Ritz Carlton and told him flat-out that he wanted him to retire. "It
hurt me," Ted says, looking back. "I didn't think I was ready to
retire. I thought I could still hit. We agreed that we'd see what happened
in spring training."

Hurt, yes. Surprised, no. During the season, Yawkey had sent Dick
O'Connell to sound him out about becoming the manager. That's the
way you do it when you're looking for deniability. You send a third
party to ask the man you want to hire whether he would be interested
in the job "if it were offered to you." If he turns you down, it is
never on the record that the job had been offered. "He told me that
he would never give the Boston writers the chance to second-guess
him," O'Connell says. "I've never really been sure whether he understood
that the job was really being offered to him."

"I knew," Ted laughs. And he also knew why. It was not the first
time the job had been tendered. Joe Cronin had offered the job to him
during the latter part of the 1954 season. "I said, I don't want to
manage. I said, I can still hit. And I proved that for five years. Cronin
said absolutely, 'Why don't you take it? The guys all respect you.'
They all this and that. They never brought it up again in those five
years, but that's the way it all started. And it would have been a terrible
mistake."

He would be facing his final year--as he had faced the previous
one--with wracking trouble back in San Diego. His brother, Danny,
was dying of leukemia, the disease Ted had devoted so much of his
time to combating, and his mother--Salvation May of the invincible
faith--had broken under the strain of her younger son's obviously
losing battle against death and had suffered a complete nervous breakdown.

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and had found work as a contract painter and interior decorator. He
had married, he had a couple of kids, and he had reconciled with his
older brother.

For at least three years Ted had been chartering planes to fly Danny
to Salt Lake City for medical treatment (which puts a different light
on those missed appointments in Los Angeles, doesn't it?), and he was
making sure that Danny had no financial worries as far as his family
was concerned. By 1959, he was also flying back to San Diego himself
to tend to the care of his mother and, finally, to move her to a rest
home in Santa Barbara (which puts a new light on the early arrival and
late departure at that exhibition game in San Diego, doesn't it?).

Danny died in March of 1960, at the age of thirty-nine, while Ted
was in training camp. May Williams died on August 27, 1961, in the
Santa Barbara rest home.

"Those are just the things that happen in life," is all Ted wants to
say. "Sure, I had problems at home trying to help my mother and
brother and everybody else who was involved. For sure, it bothered
me. I had this responsibility, and I wasn't going to shirk from it, and
I really didn't. I did the best I could, and let's let it go at that."

Training camp was sheer torture for Ted. As if it wasn't bad enough
to be grieving over his brother and worrying about his mother, he no
longer had the support or comfort that had always been provided by
Johnny Orlando, the good old friend who had been his confidant from

the beginning in all matters concerning his family.

Johnny Orlando had been fired.

Johnny's drinking had got out of hand. No question about it. He
was showing up late at the ballpark. He was neglecting his duties. But
why now? Why couldn't they have waited one more year, until Wil
lianas was gone? Orlando had not only been Ted Williams's pal for
twenty years. He had been Yawkey's pal even longer.

Johnny had a flair. He would go striding into a bar where baseball
people were gathered and say, "I represent the wealthiest franchise in
baseball. Drinks for everybody." And sign Tom Yawkey's name. Why
not? He was Yawkey's pal, and he did represent the ball club. A ball

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team has to entertain people. Yawkey had his own partners buying
everybody drinks.

But the Sox didn't tell Johnny he was being fired for being a drunkard.
How could they? "Who the hell got him drunk?" Dick O'Connell
asks. "Yawkey and Cronin. Tom Yawkey would send him bottles of
Old Forester by the carton."

What had happened was that Johnny had been sent to the opening
of a baseball library, had bumped into a gathering of wealthy executives
in the parlor car on the train, and when he was asked why he
was going to St. Louis he had reverted to form. "I represent the richest
franchise in baseba/1," Johnny Orlando had announced. "The drinks
are on me." So Johnny was told he was being fired for that.

The writers were told that he was fired for showing up late at the
ballpark and for stealing things. "Orlando was a law unto himself,"
Dick O'Connell says. "There was only one John." He'd run short of
dough, get a bunch of autographed balls, and sell them, depending on
how much he needed. "I'm with the Red Sox," he'd announce. "I'm
stealing baseballs."

"Who gave a damn?" O'Connell says. "If you wanted to look at
it that way, it was publicity."

Now, there's no doubt that the Red Sox had every justification for
firing Johnny Orlando. They also had every justification to fire Bucky
Harris, who was still the general manager. Bucky's only saving grace
was that on the rare occasions when he did come in to the office he
didn't try to do anything. If Orlando wasn't there to do it, it wasn't
going to get done.

But what would have been so terrible about waiting another year?
Well . . . Ted had said he'd be making up his mind about returning
for another year during spring training, and whatever other reasons
Yawkey might have had for firing Johnny Orlando, he wasn't making
Ted's return any more attractive for him, was he?

Ted was up in Bangor, Maine, fishing with his pal Bud Leavitt
when he was told about the firing. "Ted didn't say anything," Leavitt
recalls. "He just went absolutely quiet and solemn, the way he would
when he was really upset."

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Don Fitzpatrick, who replaced Orlando, had been with the Red Sox
for fifteen years, mostly in the visiting clubhouse. He bad shagged for
Ted in those early-morning batting sessions over the years. But he was
not Johnny Orlando, and he knew it. "I thin