GOOD-BYE, ROBINSON CRUSOE
                              by John Varley

John Varley wrote all through high school, he tells us, stopped when he got out,
and took it up again in 1973. Now, reading, writing, and imagining take up all of
his spare time. This story is the 19th of the 20 that he’s written—and sold—so far.
(We bought number 20 too.) He’s now working on a novel, Ophiuchi Hotline, for
Don Bensen at Dial Press.




It was summer and Piri was in his second childhood. First, second; who counted?
His body was young. He had not felt more alive since his original childhood back in
the spring, when the sun drew closer and the air began to melt.

       He was spending his time at Rarotonga Reef, in the Pacifica disneyland.
Pacifica was still under construction, but Rarotonga had been used by the ecologists
as a testing ground for the more ambitious barrier-type reef they were building in the
south, just off the “Australian” coast. As a result, it was more firmly established than
the other biomes. It was open to visitors, but so far only Piri was there. The “sky”
disconcerted everyone else.

       Piri didn’t mind it. He was equipped with a brand-new toy: a fully operational
imagination, a selective sense of wonder that allowed him to blank out those parts of
his surroundings that failed to fit with his current fantasy.

      He awoke with the tropical sun blinking in his face through the palm fronds.
He had built a rude shelter from flotsam and detritus on the beach. It was not to
protect him from the elements. The disneyland management had the weather well in
hand; he might as well have slept in the open. But castaways always build some sort
of shelter.

        He bounced up with the quick alertness that comes from being young and
living close to the center of things, brushed sand from his naked body, and ran for
the line of breakers at the bottom of the narrow strip of beach.

       His gait was awkward. His feet were twice as long as they should have been,
with flexible toes that were webbed into flippers. Dry sand showered around his legs
as he ran. He was brown as coffee and cream, and hairless.

       Piri dived flat to the water, sliced neatly under a wave, and paddled out to
waist-height. He paused there. He held his nose and worked his arms up and down,
blowing air through his mouth and swallowing at the same time. What looked like
long, hairline scars between his lower ribs came open. Red-orange fringes became
visible inside them, and gradually lowered. He was no longer an air-breather.

       He dived again, mouth open, and this time he did not come up. His esophagus
and trachea closed and a new valve came into operation. It would pass water in only
one direction, so his diaphragm now functioned as a pump pulling water through his
mouth and forcing it out through the gill-slits. The water flowing through this lower
chest area caused his gills to engorge with blood, turning them purplish-red and
forcing his lungs to collapse upward into his chest cavity. Bubbles of air trickled out
his sides, then stopped. His transition was complete.

       The water seemed to grow warmer around him. It had been pleasantly cool;
now it seemed no temperature at all. It was the result of his body temperature
lowering in response to hormones released by an artificial gland in his cranium. He
could not afford to burn energy at the rate he had done in the air; the water was too
efficient a coolant for that. All through his body arteries and capillaries were
constricting as parts of him stabilized at a lower rate of function.

        No naturally evolved mammal had ever made the switch from air to water
breathing, and the project had taxed the resources of bio-engineering to its limits. But
everything in Piri’s body was a living part of him. It had taken two full days to install
it all.

       He knew nothing of the chemical complexities that kept him alive where he
should have died quickly from heat loss or oxygen starvation. He knew only the joy
of arrowing along the white sandy bottom. The water was clear, blue-green in the
distance.

      The bottom kept dropping away from him, until suddenly it reached for the
waves. He angled up the wall of the reef until his head broke the surface, climbed up
the knobs and ledges until he was standing in the sunlight. He took a deep breath and
became an air-breather again.
      The change cost him some discomfort. He waited until the dizziness and fit of
coughing had passed, shivering a little as his body rapidly underwent a reversal to a
warm-blooded economy.

      It was time for breakfast.

       He spent the morning foraging among the tidepools. There were dozens of
plants and animals that he had learned to eat raw. He ate a great deal, storing up
energy for the afternoon’s expedition on the outer reef.

       Piri avoided looking at the sky. He wasn’t alarmed by it; it did not disconcert
him as it did the others. But he had to preserve the illusion that he was actually on a
tropical reef in the Pacific Ocean, a castaway, and not a vacationer in an environment
bubble below the surface of Pluto.
  Soon he became a fish again, and dived off the sea side of the reef.

        The water around the reef was oxygen-rich from the constant wave action.
Even here, though, he had to remain in motion to keep enough water flowing past his
external gill fringes. But he could move more slowly as he wound his way down into
the darker reaches of the sheer reef face. The reds and yellows of his world were
swallowed by the blues and greens and purples. It was quiet. There were sounds to
hear, but his ears were not adapted to them. He moved slowly through shafts of blue
light, keeping up the bare minimum of water flow.

       He hesitated at the ten-meter level. He had thought he was going to his Atlantis
Grotto to check out his crab farm. Then he wondered if he ought to hunt up Ocho
the Octopus instead. For a panicky moment he was afflicted with the bane of
childhood: an inability to decide what to do with himself. Or maybe it was worse, he
thought. Maybe it was a sign of growing up. The crab farm bored him, or at least it
did today.

        He waffled back and forth for several minutes, idly chasing the tiny red fish
that flirted with the anemones. He never caught one. This was no good at all. Surely
there was an adventure in this silent fairyland. He had to find one.

      An adventure found him, instead. Piri saw something swimming out in the
open water, almost at the limits of his vision. It was long and pale, an attenuated
missile of raw death. His heart squeezed in panic, and he scuttled for a hollow in the
reef.

       Piri called him the Ghost. He had seen him many times in the open sea. He
was eight meters of mouth, belly and tail: hunger personified. There were those who
said the great white shark was the most ferocious carnivore that ever lived. Piri
believed it.
       It didn’t matter that the Ghost was completely harmless to him. The Pacifica
management did not like having its guests eaten alive. An adult could elect to go into
the water with no protection, providing the necessary waivers were on file. Children
had to be implanted with an equalizer. Piri had one, somewhere just below the skin
of his left wrist. It was a sonic generator, set to emit a sound that would mean terror
to any predator in the water.

       The Ghost, like all the sharks, barracudas, morays, and other predators in
Pacifica, was not like his cousins who swam the seas of Earth. He had been cloned
from cells stored in the Biological Library on Luna. The library had been created two
hundred years before as an insurance policy against the extinction of a species.
Originally, only endangered species were filed, but for years before the Invasion the
directors had been trying to get a sample of everything. Then the Invaders had come,
and Lunarians were too busy surviving without help from Occupied Earth to worry
about the library. But when the time came to build the disneylands, the library had
been ready.

       By then, biological engineering had advanced to the point where many
modifications could be made in genetic structure. Mostly, the disneyland biologists
had left nature alone. But they had changed the predators. In the Ghost, the change
was a mutated organ attached to the brain that responded with a flood of fear when a
supersonic note was sounded.

       So why was the Ghost still out there? Piri blinked his nictating membranes,
trying to clear his vision. It helped a little. The shape looked a bit different.

       Instead of moving back and forth, the tail seemed to be going up and down,
perhaps in a scissoring motion. Only one animal swims like that. He gulped down his
fear and pushed away from the reef.

       But he had waited too long. His fear of the Ghost went beyond simple danger,
of which there was none. It was something more basic, an unreasoning reflex that
prickled his neck when he saw that long white shape. He couldn’t fight it, and didn’t
want to. But the fear had kept him against the reef, hidden, while the person swam
out of reach. He thrashed to catch up, but soon lost track of the moving feet in the
gloom.

      He had seen gills trailing from the sides of the figure, muted down to a deep
blue-black by the depths. He had the impression that it was a woman.

      Tongatown was the only human habitation on the island. It housed a crew of
maintenance people and their children, about fifty in all, in grass huts patterned after
those of South Sea natives. A few of the buildings concealed elevators that went to
the underground rooms that would house the tourists when the project was
completed. The shacks would then go at a premium rate, and the beaches would be
crowded.
        Piri walked into the circle of firelight and greeted his friends. Nighttime was
party time in Tongatown. With the day’s work over, everybody gathered around the
fire and roasted a vat-grown goat or lamb. But the real culinary treats were the fresh
vegetable dishes. The ecologists were still working out the kinks in the systems,
controlling blooms, planting more of failing species. They often produced huge
excesses of edibles that would have cost a fortune on the outside. The workers took
some of the excess for themselves. It was understood to be a fringe benefit of the
job. It was hard enough to find people who could stand to stay under the Pacifica
sky.

       “Hi, Piri,” said a girl. “You meet any pirates today?” It was Harra, who used
to be one of Piri’s best friends but had seemed increasingly remote over the last
year. She was wearing a handmade grass skirt and a lot of flowers, tied into strings
that looped around her body. She was fifteen now, and Piri was... but who cared?
There were no seasons here, only days. Why keep track of time?

       Piri didn’t know what to say. The two of them had once played together out
on the reef. It might be Lost Atlantis, or Submariner, or Reef Pirates; a new plot line
and cast of heroes and villains every day. But her question had held such thinly
veiled contempt. Didn’t she care about the Pirates anymore? What was the matter
with her?

      She relented when she saw Piri’s helpless bewilderment.

      “Here, come on and sit down. I saved you a rib.” She held out a large chunk
of mutton.

       Piri took it and sat beside her. He was famished, having had nothing all day
since his large breakfast.

      “I thought I saw the Ghost today,” he said, casually.

       Harra shuddered. She wiped her hands on her thighs and looked at him
closely.

      “Thought? You thought you saw him?” Harra did not care for the Ghost. She
had cowered with Piri more than once as they watched him prowl.

      “Yep. But I don’t think it was really him.”

      “Where was this?”

      “On the sea-side, down about, oh, ten meters. I think it was a woman.”

      “I don’t see how it could be. There’s just you and—and Midge and Darvin
with—did this woman have an air tank?”

      “Nope. Gills. I saw that.”

       “But there’s only you and four others here with gills. And I know where they
all were today.”

      “You used to have gills,” he said, with a hint of accusation.

       She sighed. “Are we going through that again? I told you, I got tired of the
flippers. I wanted to move around the land some more.”

      “I can move around the land,” he said, darkly.

      “All right, all right. You think I deserted you. Did you ever think that you sort
of deserted me?”

      Piri was puzzled by that, but Harra had stood up and walked quickly away. He
could follow her, or he could finish his meal. She was right about the flippers. He
was no great shakes at chasing anybody.

      Piri never worried about anything for too long. He ate, and ate some more,
long past the time when everyone else had joined together for the dancing and
singing. He usually hung back, anyway. He could sing, but dancing was out of his
league.

      Just as he was leaning back in the sand, wondering if there were any more
corners he could fill up—perhaps another bowl of that shrimp teriyaki?—Harra was
back. She sat beside him.

      “I talked to my mother about what you said. She said a tourist showed up
today. It looks like you were right. It was a woman, and she was amphibious.”

      Piri felt a vague unease. One tourist was certainly not an invasion, but she
could be a harbinger. And amphibious. So far, no one had gone to that expense
except for those who planned to live here for a long time. Was his tropical hideout in
danger of being discovered?”

      “What—what’s she doing here?” He absently ate another spoonful of crab
cocktail.

      “She’s looking for you,” Harra laughed, and elbowed him in the ribs. Then
she pounced on him, tickling his ribs until he was howling in helpless glee. He fought
back, almost to the point of having the upper hand, but she was bigger and a little
more determined. She got him pinned, showering flower petals on him as they
struggled. One of the red flowers from her hair was in her eye, and she brushed it
away, breathing hard.

      “You want to go for a walk on the beach?” she asked.

      Harra was fun, but the last few times he’d gone with her she had tried to kiss
him. He wasn’t ready for that. He was only a kid. He thought she probably had
something like that in mind now.

      “I’m too full,” he said, and it was almost the literal truth. He had stuffed
himself disgracefully, and only wanted to curl up in his shack and go to sleep.

       Harra said nothing, just sat there getting her breathing under control. At last
she nodded, a little jerkily, and got to her feet. Piri wished he could see her face to
face. He knew something was wrong. She turned from him and walked away.

      Robinson Crusoe was feeling depressed when he got back to his hut. The
walk down the beach away from the laughter and singing had been a lonely one.
Why had he rejected Harra’s offer of companionship? Was it really so bad that she
wanted to play new kinds of games?

      But no, damn it. She wouldn’t play his games, why should he play hers?

       After a few minutes of sitting on the beach under the crescent moon, he got
into character. Oh, the agony of being a lone castaway, far from the company of
fellow creatures, with nothing but faith in God to sustain oneself. Tomorrow he
would read from the scriptures, do some more exploring along the rocky north
coast, tan some goat hides, maybe get in a little fishing.

      With his plans for the morrow laid before him, Piri could go to sleep, wiping
away a last tear for distant England.

      The ghost woman came to him during the night. She knelt beside him in the
sand. She brushed his sandy hair from his eyes and he stirred in his sleep. His feet
thrashed.

      He was churning through the abyssal deeps, heart hammering, blind to
everything but internal terror. Behind him, jaws yawned, almost touching his toes.
They closed with a snap.

       He sat up woozily. He saw rows of serrated teeth in the line of breakers in
front of him. And a tall, white shape in the moonlight dived into a curling breaker and
was gone.

      “Hello.”

      Piri sat up with a start. The worst thing about being a child living alone on an
island—which, when he thought about it, was the sort of thing every child dreamed
of—was not having a warm mother’s breast to cry on when you had nightmares. It
hadn’t affected him much, but when it did, it was pretty bad.

       He squinted up into the brightness. She was standing with her head blocking
out the sun. He winced, and looked away, down to her feet. They were webbed,
with long toes. He looked a little higher. She was nude, and quite beautiful.

        “Who...?”

       “Are you awake now?” She squatted down beside him. Why had he expected
sharp, triangular teeth? His dreams blurred and ran like watercolors in the rain, and
he felt much better. She had a nice face. She was smiling at him.

      He yawned, and sat up. He was groggy, stiff, and his eyes were coated with
sand that didn’t come from the beach. It had been an awful night.

        “I think so.”

        “Good. How about some breakfast?” She stood, and went to a basket on the
sand.

       “I usually—” but his mouth watered when he saw the guavas, melons,
kippered herring, and the long brown loaf of bread. She had butter, and some orange
marmalade. “Well, maybe just a—” and he had bitten into a succulent slice of melon.
But before he could finish it, he was seized by an even stronger urge. He got to his
feet and scuttled around the palm tree with the waist-high dark stain and urinated
against it.

        “Don’t tell anybody, huh?” he said, anxiously.

        She looked up. “About the tree? Don’t worry.”

      He sat back down and resumed eating the melon. “I could get in a lot of
trouble. They gave me a thing and told me to use it.”

      “It’s all right with me,” she said, buttering a slice of bread and handing it to
him. “Robinson Crusoe never had a portable EcoSan, right?”

        “Right,” he said, not showing his surprise. How did she know that?

     Piri didn’t know quite what to say. Here she was, sharing his morning, as
much a fact of life as the beach or the water.

        “What’s your name?” It was as good a place to start as any.
      “Leandra. You can call me Lee.”

      “I’m—”

      “Piri. I heard about you from the people at the party last night. I hope you
don’t mind me barging in on you like this.”

       He shrugged, and tried to indicate all the food with the gesture. “Anytime,” he
said, and laughed. He felt good. It was nice to have someone friendly around after
last night. He looked at her again, from a mellower viewpoint.

        She was large; quite a bit taller than he was. Her physical age was around
thirty, unusually old for a woman. He thought she might be closer to sixty or
seventy, but he had nothing to base it on. Piri himself was in his nineties, and who
could have known that? She had the slanting eyes that were caused by the addition
of transparent eyelids beneath the natural ones. Her hair grew in a narrow band,
cropped short, starting between her eyebrows and going over her head to the nape
of her neck. Her ears were pinned efficiently against her head, giving her a lean,
streamlined look.

      “What brings you to Pacifica?” Piri asked.

      She reclined on the sand with her hands behind her head, looking very
relaxed.

      “Claustrophobia.” She winked at him. “Not really. I wouldn’t survive long in
Pluto with that.” Piri wasn’t even sure what it was, but he smiled as if he knew.
“Tired of the crowds. I heard that people couldn’t enjoy themselves here, what with
the sky, but I didn’t have any trouble when I visited. So I bought flippers and gills
and decided to spend a few weeks skin-diving by myself.”

      Piri looked at the sky. It was a staggering sight. He’d grown used to it, but
knew that it helped not to look up more than he had to.

       It was an incomplete illusion, all the more appalling because the half of the sky
that had been painted was so very convincing. It looked like it really was the sheer
blue of infinity, so when the eye slid over to the unpainted overhanging canopy of
rock, scarred from blasting, painted with gigantic numbers that were barely visible
from twenty kilometers below—one could almost imagine God looking down
through the blue opening. It loomed, suspended by nothing, gigatons of rock
hanging up there.

       Visitors to Pacifica often complained of headaches, usually right on the crown
of the head. They were cringing, waiting to get conked.

      “Sometimes I wonder how I live with it,” Piri said.
      She laughed. “It’s nothing for me. I was a space pilot once.”

       “Really?” This was catnip to Piri. There’s nothing more romantic than a space
pilot. He had to hear stories.

        The morning hours dwindled as she captured his imagination with a series of
tall tales he was sure were mostly fabrication. But who cared? Had he come to the
South Seas to hear of the mundane? He felt he had met a kindred spirit, and
gradually, fearful of being laughed at, he began to tell her stories of the Reef Pirates,
first as wishful wouldn’t-it-be-fun-if’s, then more and more seriously as she listened
intently. He forgot her age as he began to spin the best of the yarns he and Harra had
concocted.

      It was a tacit conspiracy between them to be serious about the stories, but that
was the whole point. That was the only way it would work, as it had worked with
Harra. Somehow, this adult woman was interested in playing the same games he
was.

      Lying in his bed that night, Piri felt better than he had for months, since before
Harra had become so distant. Now that he had a companion, he realized that
maintaining a satisfying fantasy world by yourself is hard work. Eventually you need
someone to tell the stories to, and to share in the making of them.

      They spent the day out on the reef. He showed her his crab farm, and
introduced her to Ocho the Octopus, who was his usual shy self. Piri suspected the
damn thing only loved him for the treats he brought.

      She entered into his games easily and with no trace of adult condescension.
He wondered why, and got up the courage to ask her. He was afraid he’d ruin the
whole thing, but he had to know. It just wasn’t normal.

       They were perched on a coral outcropping above the high tide level, catching
the last rays of the sun.

      “I’m not sure,” she said. “I guess you think I’m silly, huh?”

      “No, not exactly that. It’s just that most adults seem to, well, have more
‘important’ things on their minds.” He put all the contempt he could into the word.

        “Maybe I feel the same way you do about it. I’m here to have fun. I sort of
feel like I’ve been reborn into a new element. It’s terrific down there, you know that.
I just didn’t feel like I wanted to go into that world alone. I was out there
yesterday...”

      “I thought I saw you.”
      “Maybe you did. Anyway, I needed a companion, and I heard about you. It
seemed like the polite thing to, well, not to ask you to be my guide, but sort of fit
myself into your world. As it were.” She frowned, as if she felt she had said too
much. “Let’s not push it, all right?”

      “Oh, sure. It’s none of my business.”

      “I like you, Piri.”

      “And I like you. I haven’t had a friend for... too long.”

       That night at the luau, Lee disappeared. Piri looked for her briefly, but was not
really worried. What she did with her nights was her business. He wanted her during
the days.

     As he was leaving for his home, Harra came up behind him and took his hand.
She walked with him for a moment, then could no longer hold it in.

      “A word to the wise, old pal,” she said. “You’d better stay away from her.
She’s not going to do you any good.”

      “What are you talking about? You don’t even know her.”

      “Maybe I do.”

      “Well, do you or don’t you?”

      She didn’t say anything, then sighed deeply.

      “Piri, if you do the smart thing you’ll get on that raft of yours and sail to
Bikini. Haven’t you had any... feelings about her? Any premonitions or anything?”

      “I don’t know what you’re talking about,” he said, thinking of sharp teeth and
white death.

      “I think you do. You have to, but you won’t face it. That’s all I’m saying. It’s
not my business to meddle in your affairs.”

       “I’ll say it’s not. So why did you come out here and put this stuff in my ear?”
He stopped, and something tickled at his mind from his past life, some earlier bit of
knowledge, carefully suppressed. He was used to it. He knew he was not really a
child, and that he had a long life and many experiences stretching out behind him.
But he didn’t think about it. He hated it when part of his old self started to intrude on
him.
        “I think you’re jealous of her,” he said, and knew it was his old, cynical self
talking. “She’s an adult, Harra. She’s no threat to you. And, hell, I know what
you’ve been hinting at these last months. I’m not ready for it, so leave me alone. I’m
just a kid.”

      Her chin came up, and the moonlight flashed in her eyes.

     “You idiot. Have you looked at yourself lately? You’re not Peter Pan, you
know. You’re growing up. You’re damn near a man.”

      “That’s not true.” There was panic in Piri’s voice. “I’m only... well, I haven’t
exactly been counting, but I can’t be more than nine, ten years—”

       “Shit. You’re as old as I am, and I’ve had breasts for two years. But I’m not
out to cop you. I can cop with any of seven boys in the village younger than you are,
but not you.” She threw her hands up in exasperation and stepped back from him.
Then, in a sudden fury, she hit him on the chest with the heel of her fist. He fell back,
stunned at her violence.

       “She is an adult,” Harra whispered through her teeth. “That’s what I came
here to warn you against. I’m your friend, but you don’t know it. Ah, what’s the
use? I’m fighting against that scared old man in your head, and he won’t listen to
me. Go ahead, go with her. But she’s got some surprises for you.”

       “What? What surprises?” Piri was shaking, not wanting to listen to her. It was
a relief when she spat at his feet, whirled, and ran down the beach.

      “Find out for yourself,” she yelled back over her shoulder. It sounded like she
was crying.

      That night, Piri dreamed of white teeth, inches behind him, snapping.

       But morning brought Lee, and another fine breakfast in her bulging bag. After
a lazy interlude drinking coconut milk, they went to the reef again. The pirates gave
them a rough time of it, but they managed to come back alive in time for the nightly
gathering.

       Harra was there. She was dressed as he had never seen her, in the blue tunic
and shorts of the reef maintenance crew. He knew she had taken a job with the
Disneyland and had been working days with her mother at Bikini, but had not seen
her dressed up before. He had just begun to get used to the grass skirt. Not long
ago, she had been always nude like him and the other children.

        She looked older somehow, and bigger. Maybe it was just the uniform. She
still looked like a girl next to Lee. Piri was confused by it, and his thoughts veered
protectively away.
       Harra did not avoid him, but she was remote in a more important way. It was
like she had put on a mask, or possibly taken one off. She carried herself with a
dignity that Piri thought was beyond her years.

       Lee disappeared just before he was ready to leave. He walked home alone,
half hoping Harra would show up so he could apologize for the way he’d talked to
her the night before. But she didn’t.

      He felt the bow-shock of a pressure wave behind him, sensed by some
mechanism he was unfamiliar with, like the lateral line of a fish, sensitive to slight
changes in the water around him. He knew there was something behind him, closing
the gap a little with every wild kick of his flippers.

       It was dark. It was always dark when the thing chased him. It was not the
wispy, insubstantial thing that darkness was when it settled on the night air, but the
primal, eternal night of the depths. He tried to scream with his mouth full of water,
but it was a dying gurgle before it passed his lips. The water around him was warm
with his blood.

      He turned to face it before it was upon him, and saw Harra’s face corpse-pale
and glowing sickly in the night. But no, it wasn’t Harra, it was Lee, and her mouth
was far down her body, rimmed with razors, a gaping crescent hole in her chest. He
screamed again—

      And sat up.

      “What? Where are you?”

      “I’m right here, it’s going to be all right.” She held his head as he brought his
sobbing under control. She was whispering something but he couldn’t understand it,
and perhaps wasn’t meant to. It was enough. He calmed down quickly, as he always
did when he woke from nightmares. If they hung around to haunt him, he never
would have stayed by himself for so long.

       There was just the moonlit paleness of her breast before his eyes and the smell
of skin and sea water. Her nipple was wet. Was it from his tears? No, his lips were
tingling and the nipple was hard when it brushed against him. He realized what he had
been doing in his sleep.

      “You were calling for your mother,” she whispered, as though she’d read his
mind. “I’ve heard you shouldn’t wake someone from a nightmare. It seemed to calm
you down.”

      “Thanks,” he said quietly. “Thanks for being here, I mean.”
      She took his cheek in her hand, turned his head slightly, and kissed him. It
was not a motherly kiss, and he realized they were not playing the same game. She
had changed the rules on him.

      “Lee...”

      “Hush. It’s time you learned.”

        She eased him onto his back, and he was overpowered with deja vu. Her
mouth worked downward on his body and it set off chains of associations from his
past life. He was familiar with the sensation. It had happened to him often in his
second childhood. Something would happen that had happened to him in much the
same way before and he would remember a bit of it. He had been seduced by an
older woman the first time he was young. She had taught him well, and he
remembered it all but didn’t want to remember. He was an experienced lover and a
child at the same time.

      “I’m not old enough,” he protested, but she was holding in her hand the
evidence that he was old enough, had been old enough for several years. I’m
fourteen years old, he thought. How could he have kidded himself into thinking he
was ten?

      “You’re a strong young man,” she whispered in his ear. “And I’m going to be
very disappointed if you keep saying that. You’re not a child anymore, Piri. Face
it.”

      “I... I guess I’m not.”

      “Do you know what to do?”

      “I think so.”

      She reclined beside him, drew her legs up. Her body was huge and ghostly
and full of limber strength. She would swallow him up, like a shark. The gill slits
under her arms opened and shut quickly with her breathing, smelling of salt, iodine,
and sweat.

      He got on his hands and knees and moved over her.

      He woke before she did. The sun was up: another warm, cloudless morning.
There would be two thousand more before the first scheduled typhoon.

       Piri was a giddy mixture of elation and sadness. It was sad, and he knew it
already, that his days of frolicking on the reef were over. He would still go out there,
but it would never be the same.
        Fourteen years old! Where had the years gone? He was nearly an adult. He
moved away from the thought until he found a more acceptable one. He was an
adolescent, and a very fortunate one to have been initiated into the mysteries of sex
by this strange woman.

      He held her as she slept, spooned cozily back to front with his arms around
her waist. She had already been playmate, mother, and lover to him. What else did
she have in store?

       But he didn’t care. He was not worried about anything. He already scorned
his yesterdays. He was not a boy, but a youth, and he remembered from his other
youth what that meant and was excited by it. It was a time of sex, of internal
exploration and the exploration of others. He would pursue these new frontiers with
the same single-mindedness he had shown on the reef.

      He moved against her, slowly, not disturbing her sleep. But she woke as he
entered her and turned to give him a sleepy kiss.

      They spent the morning involved in each other, until they were content to lie in
the sun and soak up heat like glossy reptiles.

       “I can hardly believe it,” she said. “You’ve been here for... how long? With all
these girls and women. And I know at least one of them was interested.”

       He didn’t want to go into it. It was important to him that she not find out he
was not really a child. He felt it would change things, and it was not fair. Not fair at
all, because it had been the first time. In a way he could never have explained to her,
last night had been not a rediscovery but an entirely new thing. He had been with
many women and it wasn’t as if he couldn’t remember it. It was all there, and what’s
more, it showed up in his lovemaking. He had not been the bumbling teenager, had
not needed to be told what to do.

       But it was new. That old man inside had been a spectator and an invaluable
coach, but his hardened viewpoint had not intruded to make last night just another
bout. It had been a first time, and the first time is special.

       When she persisted in her questions he silenced her in the only way he knew,
with a kiss. He could see he had to rethink his relationship to her. She had not asked
him questions as a playmate, or a mother. In the one role, she had been seemingly as
self-centered as he, interested only in the needs of the moment and her personal
needs above all. As a mother, she had offered only wordless comfort in a tight spot.

      Now she was his lover. What did lovers do when they weren’t making love?

      They went for walks on the beach, and on the reef. They swam together, but it
was different. They talked a lot.
       She soon saw that he didn’t want to talk about himself. Except for the odd
question here and there that would momentarily confuse him, throw him back to
stages of his life he didn’t wish to remember, she left his past alone.

       They stayed away from the village except to load up on supplies. It was
mostly his unspoken wish that kept them away. He had made it clear to everyone in
the village many years ago that he was not really a child. It had been necessary to
convince them that he could take care of himself on his own, to keep them from
being overprotective. They would not spill his secret knowingly, but neither would
they lie for him.

       So he grew increasingly nervous about his relationship with Lee, founded as it
was on a lie. If not a lie, then at least a withholding of the facts. He saw that he must
tell her soon, and dreaded it. Part of him was convinced that her attraction to him
was based mostly on age difference.

       Then she learned he had a raft, and wanted to go on a sailing trip to the edge
of the world.

       Piri did have a raft, though an old one. They dragged it from the bushes that
had grown around it since his last trip and began putting it into shape. Piri was
delighted. It was something to do, and it was hard work. They didn’t have much
time for talking.

       It was a simple construction of logs lashed together with rope. Only an insane
sailor would put the thing to sea in the Pacific Ocean, but it was safe enough for
them. They knew what the weather would be, and the reports were absolutely
reliable. And if it came apart, they could swim back.

       All the ropes had rotted so badly that even gentle wave action would have
quickly pulled it apart. They had to be replaced, a new mast erected, and a new
sailcloth installed. Neither of them knew anything about sailing, but Piri knew that the
winds blew toward the edge at night and away from it during the day. It was a simple
matter of putting up the sail and letting the wind do the navigating.

        He checked the schedule to be sure they got there at low tide. It was a
moonless night, and he chuckled to himself when he thought of her reaction to the
edge of the world. They would sneak up on it in the dark, and the impact would be
all the more powerful at sunrise.

      But he knew as soon as they were an hour out of Rarotonga that he had made
a mistake. There was not much to do there in the night but talk.

      “Piri, I’ve sensed that you don’t want to talk about certain things.”
      “Who? Me?”

      She laughed into the empty night. He could barely see her face. The stars were
shining brightly, but there were only about a hundred of them installed so far, and all
in one part of the sky.

      “Yeah, you. You won’t talk about yourself. It’s like you grew here, sprang up
from the ground like a palm tree. And you’ve got no mother in evidence. You’re old
enough to have divorced her, but you’d have a guardian somewhere. Someone
would be looking after your moral upbringing. The only conclusion is that you don’t
need an education in moral principles. So you’ve got a co-pilot.”

       “Um.” She had seen through him. Of course she would have. Why hadn’t he
realized it?

     “So you’re a clone. You’ve had your memories transplanted into a new body,
grown from one of your own cells. How old are you? Do you mind my asking?”

      “I guess not. Uh... what’s the date?”

      She told him.

      “And the year?”

      She laughed, but told him that, too.

      “Damn. I missed my one-hundredth birthday. Well, so what? It’s not
important. Lee, does this change anything?”

      “Of course not. Listen, I could tell the first time, that first night together. You
had that puppy-dog eagerness, all right, but you knew how to handle yourself. Tell
me: what’s it like?”

        “The second childhood, you mean?” He reclined on the gently rocking raft
and looked at the little clot of stars. “It’s pretty damn great. It’s like living in a
dream. What kid hasn’t wanted to live alone on a tropic isle? I can, because there’s
an adult in me who’ll keep me out of trouble. But for the last seven years I’ve been a
kid. It’s you that finally made me grow up a little, maybe sort of late, at that.”

      “I’m sorry. But it felt like the right time.”

      “It was. I was afraid of it at first. Listen, I know that I’m really a hundred
years old, see? I know that all the memories are ready for me when I get to
adulthood again. If I think about it, I can remember it all as plain as anything. But I
haven’t wanted to, and in a way, I still don’t want to. The memories are suppressed
when you opt for a second childhood instead of being transplanted into another
full-grown body.”

         “I know.”

      “Do you? Oh, yeah. Intellectually. So did I, but I didn’t understand what it
meant. It’s a nine- or ten-year holiday, not only from your work, but from yourself.
When you get into your nineties, you might find that you need it.”

         She was quiet for a while, lying beside him without touching.

         “What about the reintegration? Is that started?”

     “I don’t know. I’ve heard it’s a little rough. I’ve been having dreams about
something chasing me. That’s probably my former self, right?”

         “Could be. What did your older self do?”

         He had to think for a moment, but there it was. He’d not thought of it for eight
years.

         “I was an economic strategist.”

     Before he knew it, he found himself launching into an explanation of offensive
economic policy.

        “Did you know that Pluto is in danger of being gutted by currency transfers
from the Inner Planets? And you know why? The speed of light, that’s why. Time
lag. It’s killing us. Since the time of the Invasion of Earth it’s been humanity’s
idea—and a good one, I think—that we should stand together. Our whole cultural
thrust in that time has been toward a total economic community. But it won’t work at
Pluto. Independence is in the cards.”

       She listened as he tried to explain things that only moments before he would
have had trouble understanding himself. But it poured out of him like a breached
dam, things like inflation multipliers, futures buying on the oxygen and hydrogen
exchanges, phantom dollars and their manipulation by central banking interests, and
the invisible drain.

         “Invisible drain? What’s that?”

       “It’s hard to explain, but it’s tied up in the speed of light. It’s an economic
drain on Pluto that has nothing to do with real goods and services, or labor, or any
of the other traditional forces. It has to do with the fact that any information we get
from the Inner Planets is already at least nine hours old. In an economy with a stable
currency—pegged to gold, for instance, like the classical economies on Earth—it
wouldn’t matter much, but it would still have an effect. Nine hours can make a
difference in prices, in futures, in outlook on the markets. With a floating exchange
medium, one where you need the hourly updates on your credit meter to know what
your labor input will give you in terms of material output—your personal financial
equation, in other words—and the inflation multiplier is something you simply must
have if the equation is going to balance and you’re not going to be wiped out, then
time is really of the essence. We operate at a perpetual disadvantage on Pluto in
relation to the Inner Planet money markets. For a long time it ran on the order of
point three percent leakage due to outdated information. But the inflation multiplier
has been accelerating over the years. Some of it’s been absorbed by the fact that
we’ve been moving closer to the I.P.; the time lag has been getting shorter as we
move into summer. But it can’t last. We’ll reach the inner point of our orbit and the
effects will really start to accelerate. Then it’s war.”

      “War?” She seemed horrified, as well she might be.

       “War, in the economic sense. It’s a hostile act to renounce a trade agreement,
even if it’s bleeding you white. It hits every citizen of the Inner Planets in the
pocketbook, and we can expect retaliation. We’d be introducing instability by
pulling out of the Common Market.”

      “How bad will it be? Shooting?”

      “Not likely. But devastating enough. A depression’s no fun. And they’ll be
planning one for us.”

      “Isn’t there any other course?”

       “Someone suggested moving our entire government and all our corporate
headquarters to the Inner Planets. It could happen, I guess. But who’d feel like it
was ours? We’d be a colony, and that’s a worse answer than independence, in the
long run.”

      She was silent for a time, chewing it over. She nodded her head once; he
could barely see the movement in the darkness.

      “How long until the war?”

       He shrugged. “I’ve been out of touch. I don’t know how things have been
going. But we can probably take it for another ten years or so. Then we’ll have to
get out. I’d stock up on real wealth if I were you. Canned goods, air, water, so forth.
I don’t think it’ll get so bad that you’ll need those things to stay alive by consuming
them. But we may get to a semibarter situation where they’ll be the only valuable
things. Your credit meter’ll laugh at you when you punch a purchase order, no
matter how much work you’ve put into it.”

      The raft bumped. They had arrived at the edge of the world.
      They moored the raft to one of the rocks on the wall that rose from the open
ocean. They were five kilometers out of Rarotonga. They waited for some light as
the sun began to rise, then started up the rock face.

        It was rough: blasted out with explosives on this face of the dam. It went up at
a thirty-degree angle for fifty meters, then was suddenly level and smooth as glass.
The top of the dam at the edge of the world had been smoothed by cutting lasers
into a vast table top, three hundred kilometers long and four kilometers wide. They
left wet footprints on it as they began the long walk to the edge.

       They soon lost any meaningful perspective on the thing. They lost sight of the
sea-edge, and couldn’t see the dropoff until they began to near it. By then, it was full
light. Timed just right, they would reach the edge when the sun came up and they’d
really have something to see.

       A hundred meters from the edge when she could see over it a little, Lee began
to unconsciously hang back. Piri didn’t prod her. It was not something he could
force someone to see. He’d reached this point with others, and had to turn back.
Already, the fear of falling was building up. But she came on, to stand beside him at
the very lip of the canyon.

       Pacifica was being built and filled in three sections. Two were complete, but
the third was still being hollowed out and was not yet filled with water except in the
deepest trenches. The water was kept out of this section by the dam they were
standing on. When it was completed, when all the underwater trenches and mountain
ranges and guyots and slopes had been built to specifications, the bottom would be
covered with sludge and ooze and the whole wedge-shaped section flooded. The
water came from liquid hydrogen and oxygen on the surface, combined with the
limitless electricity of fusion powerplants.

       “We’re doing what the Dutch did on Old Earth, but in reverse,” Piri pointed
out, but he got no reaction from Lee. She was staring, spellbound, down the sheer
face of the dam to the apparently bottomless trench below. It was shrouded in mist,
but seemed to fall off forever.

        “It’s eight kilometers deep,” Piri told her. “It’s not going to be a regular
trench when it’s finished. It’s there to be filled up with the remains of this dam after
the place has been flooded.” He looked at her face, and didn’t bother with more
statistics. He let her experience it in her own way.

       The only comparable vista on a human-inhabited planet was the Great Rift
Valley on Mars. Neither of them had seen it, but it suffered in comparison to this
because not all of it could be seen at once. Here, one could see from one side to the
other, and from sea level to a distance equivalent to the deepest oceanic trenches on
Earth. It simply fell away beneath them and went straight down to nothing. There
was a rainbow beneath their feet. Off to the left was a huge waterfall that arced away
from the wall in a solid stream. Tons of overflow water went through the wall, to
twist, fragment, vaporize and blow away long before it reached the bottom of the
trench.

        Straight ahead of them and about ten kilometers away was the mountain that
would become the Okinawa biome when the pit was filled. Only the tiny, blackened
tip of the mountain would show above the water.

      Lee stayed and looked at it as long as she could. It became easier the longer
one stood there, and yet something about it drove her away. The scale was too big,
there was no room for humans in that shattered world. Long before noon, they
turned and started the long walk back to the raft.

      She was silent as they boarded, and set sail for the return trip.

      The winds were blowing fitfully, barely billowing the sail. It would be another
hour before they blew very strongly. They were still in sight of the dam wall.

      They sat on the raft, not looking at each other.

      “Piri, thanks for bringing me here.”

      “You’re welcome. You don’t have to talk about it.”

      “All right. But there’s something else I have to talk about. I... I don’t know
where to begin, really.”

       Piri stirred uneasily. The earlier discussion about economics had disturbed
him. It was part of his past life, a part that he had not been ready to return to. He
was full of confusion. Thoughts that had no place out here in the concrete world of
wind and water were roiling through his brain. Someone was calling to him, someone
he knew but didn’t want to see right then.

      “Yeah? What is it you want to talk about?”

      “It’s about—” she stopped, seemed to think it over. “Never mind. It’s not
time yet.” She moved close and touched him. But he was not interested. He made it
known in a few minutes, and she moved to the other side of the raft.

       He lay back, essentially alone with his troubled thoughts. The wind gusted,
then settled down. He saw a flying fish leap, almost passing over the raft. There was
a piece of the sky falling through the air. It twisted and turned like a feather, a tiny
speck of sky that was blue on one side and brown on the other. He could see the
hole in the sky where it had been knocked loose.
       It must be two or three kilometers away. No, wait, that wasn’t right. The top
of the sky was twenty kilometers up, and it looked like it was falling from the center.
How far away were they from the center of Pacifica? A hundred kilometers?

      A piece of the sky?

      He got to his feet, nearly capsizing the raft.

      “What’s the matter?”

      It was big. It looked large even from this far away. It was the dreamy tumbling
motion that had deceived him.

        “The sky is...” he choked on it, and almost laughed. But this was no time to
feel silly about it. “The sky is falling, Lee.” How long? He watched it, his mind full of
numbers. Terminal velocity from that high up, assuming it was heavy enough to
punch right through the atmosphere... over six hundred meters per second. Time to
fall, seventy seconds. Thirty of those must already have gone by.

       Lee was shading her eyes as she followed his gaze. She still thought it was a
joke. The chunk of sky began to glow red as the atmosphere got thicker.

      “Hey, it really is falling,” she said. “Look at that.”

      “It’s big. Maybe one or two kilometers across. It’s going to make quite a
splash, I’ll bet.”

      They watched it descend. Soon it disappeared over the horizon, picking up
speed. They waited, but the show seemed to be over. Why was he still uneasy?

       “How many tons in a two-kilometer chunk of rock, I wonder?” Lee mused.
She didn’t look too happy, either. But they sat back down on the raft, still looking in
the direction where the thing had sunk into the sea.

       Then they were surrounded by flying fish, and the water looked crazy. The
fish were panicked. As soon as they hit they leaped from the water again. Piri felt
rather than saw something pass beneath them. And then, very gradually, a roar built
up, a deep bass rumble that soon threatened to turn his bones to powder. It picked
him up and shook him, and left him limp on his knees. He was stunned, unable to
think clearly. His eyes were still fixed on the horizon, and he saw a white fan rising in
the distance in silent majesty. It was the spray from the impact, and it was still going
up.

       “Look up there,” Lee said, when she got her voice back. She seemed as
confused as he. He looked where she pointed and saw a twisted line crawling across
the blue sky. At first he thought it was the end of his life, because it appeared that the
whole overhanging dome was fractured and about to fall in on them. But then he saw
it was one of the tracks that the sun ran on, pulled free by the rock that had fallen,
twisted into a snake of tortured metal.

      “The dam!” he yelled. “The dam! We’re too close to the dam!”

      “What?”

      “The bottom rises this close to the dam. The water here isn’t that deep.
There’ll be a wave coming, Lee, a big wave. It’ll pile up here.”

      “Piri, the shadows are moving.”

      “Huh?”

       Surprise was piling on surprise too fast for him to cope with it. But she was
right. The shadows were moving. But why?

      Then he saw it. The sun was setting, but not by following the tracks that led to
the concealed opening in the west. It was falling through the air, having been shaken
loose by the rock.

      Lee had figured it out, too.

      “What is that thing?” she asked. “I mean, how big is it?”

        “Not too big, I heard. Big enough, but not nearly the size of that chunk that
fell. It’s some kind of fusion generator. I don’t know what’ll happen when it hits the
water.”

     They were paralyzed. They knew there was something they should do, but too
many things were happening. There was not time to think it out.

      “Dive!” Lee yelled. “Dive into the water!”

      “What?”

      “We have to dive and swim away from the dam, and down as far as we can
go. The wave will pass over us, won’t it?”

      “I don’t know.”

      “It’s all we can do.”

       So they dived. Piri felt his gills come into action, then he was swimming down
at an angle toward the dark-shrouded bottom. Lee was off to his left, swimming as
hard as she could. And with no sunset, no warning, it got black as pitch. The sun
had hit the water.

       He had no idea how long he had been swimming when he suddenly felt
himself pulled upward. Floating in the water, weightless, he was not well equipped to
feel accelerations. But he did feel it, like a rapidly rising elevator. It was accompanied
by pressure waves that threatened to burst his eardrums. He kicked and clawed his
way downward, not even knowing if he was headed in the right direction. Then he
was falling again.

       He kept swimming, all alone in the dark. Another wave passed, lifted him, let
him down again. A few minutes later, another one, seeming to come from the other
direction. He was hopelessly confused. He suddenly felt he was swimming the
wrong way. He stopped, not knowing what to do. Was he pointed in the right
direction? He had no way to tell.

     He stopped paddling and tried to orient himself. It was useless. He felt surges,
and was sure he was being tumbled and buffeted.

      Then his skin was tingling with the sensation of a million bubbles crawling
over him. It gave him a handle on the situation. The bubbles would be going up,
wouldn’t they? And they were traveling over his body from belly to back. So down
was that way.

       But he didn’t have time to make use of the information. He hit something hard
with his hip, wrenched his back as his body tried to tumble over in the foam and
water, then was sliding along a smooth surface. It felt like he was going very fast,
and he knew where he was and where he was heading and there was nothing he
could do about it. The tail of the wave had lifted him clear of the rocky slope of the
dam and deposited him on the flat surface. It was now spending itself, sweeping him
along to the edge of the world. He turned around, feeling the sliding surface beneath
him with his hands, and tried to dig in. It was a nightmare; nothing he did had any
effect. Then his head broke free into the air.

       He was still sliding, but the huge hump of the wave had dissipated itself and
was collapsing quietly into froth and puddles. It drained away with amazing speed.
He was left there, alone, cheek pressed lovingly to the cold rock. The darkness was
total.

       He wasn’t about to move. For all he knew, there was an eight-kilometer drop
just behind his toes.

       Maybe there would be another wave. If so, this one would crash down on him
instead of lifting him like a cork in a tempest. It should kill him instantly. He refused
to worry about that. All he cared about now was not slipping any further.
       The stars had vanished. Power failure? Now they blinked on. He raised his
head a little, in time to see a soft, diffused glow in the east. The moon was rising,
and it was doing it at breakneck speed. He saw it rotate from a thin crescent
configuration to bright fullness in under a minute. Someone was still in charge, and
had decided to throw some light on the scene.

       He stood, though his knees were weak. Tall fountains of spray far away to his
right indicated where the sea was battering at the dam. He was about in the middle of
the tabletop, far from either edge. The ocean was whipped up as if by thirty
hurricanes, but he was safe from it at this distance unless there were another tsunami
yet to come.

       The moonlight turned the surface into a silver mirror, littered with flopping
fish. He saw another figure get to her feet, and ran in that direction.

      The helicopter located them by infrared detector. They had no way of telling
how long it had been. The moon was hanging motionless in the center of the sky.

      They got into the cabin, shivering.

       The helicopter pilot was happy to have found them, but grieved over other
lives lost. She said the toll stood at three dead, fifteen missing and presumed dead.
Most of these had been working on the reefs. All the land surface of Pacifica had
been scoured, but the loss of life had been minimal. Most had had time to get to an
elevator and go below or to a helicopter and rise above the devastation.

      From what they had been able to find out, heat expansion of the crust had
moved farther down into the interior of the planet than had been expected. It was
summer on the surface, something it was easy to forget down here. The engineers
had been sure that the inner surface of the sky had been stabilized years ago, but a
new fault had been opened by the slight temperature rise. She pointed up to where
ships were hovering like fireflies next to the sky, playing searchlights on the site of
the damage. No one knew yet if Pacifica would have to be abandoned for another
twenty years while it stabilized.

       She set them down on Rarotonga. The place was a mess. The wave had
climbed the bottom rise and crested at the reef, and a churning hell of foam and
debris had swept over the island. Little was left standing except the concrete blocks
that housed the elevators, scoured of their decorative camouflage.

      Piri saw a familiar figure coming toward him through the wreckage that had
been a picturesque village. She broke into a run, and nearly bowled him over,
laughing and kissing him.

      “We were sure you were dead,” Harra said, drawing back from him as if to
check for cuts and bruises.
      “It was a fluke I guess,” he said, still incredulous that he had survived. It had
seemed bad enough out there in the open ocean; the extent of the disaster was much
more evident on the island. He was badly shaken to see it.

        “Lee suggested that we try to dive under the wave. That’s what saved us. It
just lifted us up, then the last one swept us over the top of the dam and drained
away. It dropped us like leaves.”

         “Well, not quite so tenderly in my case,” Lee pointed out. “It gave me quite a
jolt. I think I might have sprained my wrist.”

        A medic was available. While her wrist was being bandaged, she kept looking
at Piri. He didn’t like the look.

      “There’s something I’d intended to talk to you about on the raft, or soon after
we got home. There’s no point in your staying here any longer anyway, and I don’t
know where you’d go.”

      “No!” Harra burst out. “Not yet. Don’t tell him anything yet. It’s not fair. Stay
away from him.” She was protecting Piri with her body, from no assault that was
apparent to him.

      “I just wanted to—”

      “No, no. Don’t listen to her, Piri. Come with me.” She pleaded with the other
woman. “Just give me a few hours alone with him, there’s some things I never got
around to telling him.”

      Lee looked undecided, and Piri felt mounting rage and frustration. He had
known things were going on around him. It was mostly his own fault that he had
ignored them, but now he had to know. He pulled his hand free from Harra and
faced Lee.

      “Tell me.”

      She looked down at her feet, then back to his eyes.

       “I’m not what I seem, Piri. I’ve been leading you along, trying to make this
easier for you. But you still fight me. I don’t think there’s any way it’s going to be
easy.”

      “No!” Harra shouted again.

      “What are you?”
      “I’m a psychiatrist. I specialize in retrieving people like you, people who are in
a mental vacation mode, what you call ‘second childhood.’ You’re aware of all this,
on another level, but the child in you has fought it at every stage. The result has been
nightmares—probably with me as the focus, whether you admitted it or not.”

      She grasped both his wrists, one of them awkwardly because of her injury.

       “Now listen to me.” She spoke in an intense whisper, trying to get it all out
before the panic she saw in his face broke free and sent him running. “You came
here for a vacation. You were going to stay ten years, growing up and taking it easy.
That’s all over. The situation that prevailed when you left is now out of date. Things
have moved faster than you believed possible. You had expected a ten-year period
after your return to get things in order for the coming battles. That time has
evaporated. The Common Market of the Inner Planets has fired the first shot.
They’ve instituted a new system of accounting and it’s locked into their computers
and running. It’s aimed right at Pluto, and it’s been working for a month now. We
cannot continue as an economic partner to the C.M.I.P., because from now on every
time we sell or buy or move money the inflationary multiplier is automatically juggled
against us. It’s all perfectly legal by all existing treaties, and it’s necessary to their
economy. But it ignores our time-lag disadvantage. We have to consider it as a
hostile act, no matter what the intent. You have to come back and direct the war,
Mister Finance Minister.”

      The words shattered what calm Piri had left. He wrenched free of her hands
and turned wildly to look all around him. Then he sprinted down the beach. He
tripped once over his splay feet, got up without ever slowing, and disappeared.

      Harra and Lee stood silently and watched him go.

      “You didn’t have to be so rough with him,” Harra said, but knew it wasn’t so.
She just hated to see him so confused.

      “It’s best done quickly when they resist. And he’s all right. He’ll have a fight
with himself, but there’s no real doubt of the outcome.”

      “So the Piri I know will be dead soon?”

      Lee put her arm around the younger woman.

      “Not at all. It’s a reintegration, without a winner or a loser. You’ll see.” She
looked at the tear-streaked face.

       “Don’t worry. You’ll like the older Piri. It won’t take him any time at all to
realize that he loves you.”

      He had never been to the reef at night. It was a place of furtive fish, always
one step ahead of him as they darted back into their places of concealment. He
wondered how long it would be before they ventured out in the long night to come.
The sun might not rise for years.

       They might never come out. Not realizing the changes in their environment,
night fish and day fish would never adjust. Feeding cycles would be disrupted,
critical temperatures would go awry, the endless moon and lack of sun would
frustrate the internal mechanisms, bred over billions of years, and fish would die. It
had to happen.

      The ecologists would have quite a job on their hands.

      But there was one denizen of the outer reef that would survive for a long time.
He would eat anything that moved and quite a few things that didn’t, at any time of
the day or night. He had no fear, he had no internal clocks dictating to him, no inner
pressures to confuse him except the one overriding urge to attack. He would last as
long as there was anything alive to eat.

       But in what passed for a brain in the white-bottomed torpedo that was the
Ghost, a splinter of doubt had lodged. He had no recollection of similar doubts,
though there had been some. He was not equipped to remember, only to hunt. So
this new thing that swam beside him, and drove his cold brain as near as it could
come to the emotion of anger, was a mystery. He tried again and again to attack it,
then something would seize him with an emotion he had not felt since he was half a
meter long, and fear would drive him away.

       Piri swam along beside the faint outline of the shark. There was just enough
moonlight for him to see the fish, hovering at the ill-defined limit of his sonic signal.
Occasionally, the shape would shudder from head to tail, turn toward him, and grow
larger. At these times Piri could see nothing but a gaping jaw. Then it would turn
quickly, transfix him with that bottomless pit of an eye, and sweep away.

      Piri wished he could laugh at the poor, stupid brute. How could he have
feared such a mindless eating machine?

       Good-bye, pinbrain. He turned and stroked lazily toward the shore. He knew
the shark would turn and follow him, nosing into the interdicted sphere of his
transponder, but the thought did not impress him. He was without fear. How could
he be afraid, when he had already been swallowed into the belly of his nightmare?
The teeth had closed around him, he had awakened, and remembered. And that was
the end of his fear.

     Good-bye, tropical paradise. You were fun while you lasted. Now I’m a
grownup, and must go off to war.

      He didn’t relish it. It was a wrench to leave his childhood, though the time had
surely been right. Now the responsibilities had descended on him, and he must
shoulder them. He thought of Harra.

      “Piri,” he told himself, “as a teenager, you were just too dumb to live.”

        Knowing it was the last time, he felt the coolness of the water flowing over his
gills. They had served him well, but had no place in his work. There was no place
for a fish, and no place for Robinson Crusoe.

      Good-bye, gills.

      He kicked harder for the shore and came to stand, dripping wet, on the beach.
                   Harra and Lee were there, waiting for him.