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ASPEN SPOTTED
THE MARK and sent Little Gil scrambling through the crowd of suits and
smartcars to fetch Rachel. From her perch in the rafters of the abandoned
warehouse, Rachel listened to the boy, her good eye bright, her bad eye in
the ruined side of her face as dead as a fish gone belly up, then she called
Max over. "Watch
the family," Rachel said. "There's slavers about." As if
hiding them from sight, Max maneuvered his bulk before the younger children
--cherub-faced Roy Boyd, Rough Neck, Julie, Cinnamon and the others. Max was
slow, but he was as old as Rachel, stubble already dotting his chin and his
voice turning to gravel. "Maybe we'll eat this week," Rachel said
and let Little Gil lead her away. They raced
the alleys past Rush Street and Fifth, dodging rollie pollies and feral dogs
until they found Aspen perched on the cement wall in Heart Plaza. Aspen
grinned and sucked a fruit ice, pointing a grimy finger into the noonday
crowd. Rachel
searched the crowd of suits until she focused on the gray-haired man and his
elegant lady lounging by the fountain. "Why him?" she asked. Aspen
shrugged her shoulders. "Trailed him from the highbank. Saw him pat his
pockets all the time. Big big bulge there." "Need a
dodge?" Little Gil asked. Rachel shook
her head. Too dangerous in broad daylight to risk the little boy. She checked
for rollie pollies or robot cars, but saw only suits and a rainbow arcing
through the fountain spray. Rachel sized up the situation, blocking out
anything irrelevant to her goal, then scrambled toward the mark. People, when
they noticed the girl at all, made way for her as if stepping around dog
shit. Mostly, they tried to avoid looking at her ruined face (left side of
her face like melted wax, eye hanging low on the cheek, the stuff of
nightmare vids.) Rachel ignored the stares; for most of her life, Rachel had
been stared at and avoided. None of that mattered anymore. The kids needed
money. These people had the money. Nothing else in life mattered. Rachel eased
behind the gray-haired man, slipped on her pathetic look and tugged at the
man's arm. He flinched at the touch and turned. His eyes narrowed and his
mouth formed an O. "Please,
sir," Rachel said. "You dropped this." She opened her hand to
display a tiny data chip resting on her palm. Instinctively, the man's hand
moved to his left suit pocket. "Why, I
don't know," he said. The woman
looked down at Rachel, her initial shock yielding into pity. The man reached
into his pocket and extracted a handful of data chips. "I don't
know," he said. "I thought I only had five." Rachel
shrugged her shoulders. "I saw it fall right there by your pants leg.
Maybe I made a mistake. I'll keep it." She turned to
leave, felt the pressure of a hand on her shoulder. She had him. She turned
to make sure she owned the woman. "You're very pretty," she said. The woman
smiled. "What's your name?" she asked. "Rachel."
"It's a
lovely name," she said. "At
least my name's lovely," Rachel said. Heartbreak
flared on the woman's face. "Let me
see that chip," the man said, replacing his own chips in his pocket. Rachel handed
him the chip, turning to his side as she did so, her thin hand, as light as
cotton candy, slipped into his pocket and retrieved a chip. "No, no,
I don't think this is mine," the man said handing it back to Rachel.
"But thank you very much, young lady." Rachel smiled
up at the man, then froze. The rollie pollie appeared behind them in flak
jacket and mirrored shades. Play innocent? If only she could see the cop's
eyes. His hand slid down his side where a holster should be. Instinct took
over and Rachel fled. She made it
three yards, trying to put suits between her and the rollie pollie. She never
heard the stunner. Her legs buckled, her back arched, electric fire singed
her nerves. Rachel collapsed and writhed like a marionette jerked about by a
mad puppeteer, then lay still, consciousness fleeing down a bright white
tunnel. AWARENESS
RETURNED with a dull throb in Rachel's head and an ache in her knees. She
opened her eyes to see a bug with way too many legs scurry across the
concrete floor. For a moment, the bug looked as if it might head for her
face, then thought better of it and dashed into a hole in the wall. The smell
of urine infected the air and someone had vomited in a corner, days ago from
the look of the dried mess. Rachel slowly uncurled from a fetal position to
sit up and massage the ache from her knees. A security camera on the ceiling
hissed on its mount, tracking her moves. She watched it, wondering if she
could maneuver behind it and pop it from its mount. Government-issue
electronics fetched a good price on the streets. Heels clicked
on linoleum. Rachel had landed in the tombs before and knew the drill. She
slapped on her pathetic mask complete with a tear and a stifled sob. The cell
door clanked open to reveal a uniform with a face as pockmarked as the
concrete floor. He regarded Rachel for a moment, then spit. "Let's
go, kid," he said. The uniform
pushed her through a corridor as stark and white as a fainting spell.
"Knock off the act," the uniform said. "No one believes
you." Rachel
sniffled and wiped her nose on her sleeve. "What's going to happen to
me?" she whined. "I want to go home!" "Shut
up," the uniform said. Rachel
resisted an urge to bite his leg. A stunner flapped in its holster at his
side, within reach and as tempting as the mark in the plaza. She wanted the
weapon, not because Rachel had any thoughts of escape, but simply because it
was available. Rachel was a thief, the best in the city, and good enough to
keep the other kids in food and clothes, the young ones even looking up to
her as if she was some vid star. Sometimes it seemed as if years ago the idea
of stealing entered her mind then got stuck there, repeating itself endlessly
until it crowded out all other thoughts, in effect stealing her own brain. So
she eyed the stunner, even began to lift her hand toward it, but caught
herself in time. They passed a
group of rollie pollies slipping on their flak jackets and heading for a tour
of duty, followed another corridor and entered a bare white interrogation
room. Rachel flinched; she had prepared a routine for a cop, but instead
found the gray-haired mark and his woman. The uniform kicked the door shut
and leaned against the wall. "Behave
yourself," he said and pushed Rachel toward the couple. "Come
here," the woman said. "No one is going to hurt you." Rachel
approached slowly, keeping her eyes on her boots. When she stood before the
couple, the woman took Rachel's chin in her hand and tilted her head back so
she could see the girl's face. The woman had the plastic look of someone who
had been through many rejuvenation treatments. The man looked more natural,
jowls beginning to sag his face, sad eyes lost in deep sockets. "Whatever
were you going to do with my credit chips?" the man asked. Rachel
shrugged her shoulders. "I was hungry," she said between sniffles.
"Maybe I could sell it or something." The uniform
laughed. "Don't let the little shit fool you. She's probably part of a
ring. The smart ones can hack your account before you even know a chip is
missing." Rachel tucked
her chin into her collarbone, began to bury her face in the woman's skirt,
but hesitated for effect. "Go right ahead," the woman said and
hugged Rachel close to her. The man knelt
beside her and said, "What happened to your face?" Her voice
muffled by the skirt, Rachel said, "Always been that way." "Your
parents can't afford skin replacement?" he asked. Rachel said
nothing, at first for effect, but as she inhaled the woman's mingled perfume
and sweat, something caught in her throat. At her silence, the woman sighed
and stroked Rachel's hair. "Do you live on the street?" she asked.
Rachel nodded her head. The man said,
"Officer, my wife and I do not wish to press charges." The uniform
spat. "It's your funeral. The courts will just let her lose again,
anyways." Rachel pulled
away from the woman, amazed at her good fortune, and forced a grin onto her
tear-streaked face. The woman
said, "Would you like to come home with us? For a little while at least?
We may be able to find a place for you." Real fear
sent Rachel several paces away from them. They didn't look like slavers, but
you never could tell. When she found Little Gil in an alley, the boy had just
escaped from two years as a sex toy. "We
won't hurt you, honestly," the woman said. The man said,
"It's not your fault -- what you've become. Maybe it's time my family
gave something back to the world." Which made as
much sense as a burp to Rachel, but her instincts seldom failed her and she
guessed the couple were sincere. "Thank
you," she said. Life really was a kick in the butt. MR. AND MRS.
ARMSTRONG lived in one of the new developments on Carriage Hill. The house
greeted them as they entered and Mozart piped through ceiling speakers.
Rachel swore the walls were beige when she entered, but within seconds they
transformed into a cheerful yellow. "See,"
Mrs. Armstrong said. "House is glad you've come to stay with us." Rachel gaped
at the grand stairway, the hutch filled with crystal glimpsed in the dining
room, enough furniture to sleep twice as many kids as lived in the warehouse.
The house seemed to go on forever, square rooms and circular rooms and
skylights and even a greenhouse that smelled of lilacs and wet earth. The
Armstrongs introduced Rachel to their son Bobby. Bobby was home from
Dartmouth on spring break. To Rachel, he looked like one of those golden men
in underwear ads. Bobby stared blankly at Rachel, then grinned and said,
"How's it going, shitface?" Before the
Armstrongs could recover from their shock, Rachel said, "Fine,
cocksucker." "Rachel!"
Mrs. Armstrong cried. Bobby
Armstrong threw his head back and laughed. "This is going to be
great," he said. "There
is some language we use and some we don't," Mrs. Armstrong said.
Distaste soured her face, then vanished in a sad smile. "What you must
have lived through. Poor little girl." Bobby said,
"You want to give it a bath?" His mother
shot him a curdled-milk look. Bobby knelt
beside Rachel and examined her face. When his fingers brushed her skin they
stoked a deep warmth in her belly as if he strummed music on her skin. She
tried to look him in the eye, but focused on his belt buckle. "Street
kid, right?" he asked. Rachel nodded. "Ever
been to a VR alley?" he asked. "Ever play Sim Psycho?" At
first Rachel thought he was making fun of her, but when she looked into his
face she saw only curiosity. She shook her head. "I'll take you next
time I go with the guys. Would you like that?" "Yes,
please," Rachel said. Bobby stood and grinned and as he walked away,
Rachel gaped at the curve of his butt beneath his jeans and felt heat enflame
her ruined face. That night,
the house bathed Rachel in warm water and bubbles and added a skin
conditioner. Mrs. Armstrong gave her a nightgown decorated with happy
turtles, left over from her daughter Claire. Claire was attending CalTech,
Mrs. Armstrong explained, finishing her post-doc work in oceanography. Bobby
excelled in math and even though he was only a freshman he already knew his
field was economic modeling, something to do with artificial intelligence and
stocks, which was all beyond her. "They're wonderful kids," she
sighed. By three in
the morning, Rachel carted a pillow case full of silverware, palm terminals,
credit chips and assorted gold knick-knacks through the house. She paused in
the hallway by the Armstrong's bedroom, listened, then eased the door open.
Rabbit soft she crept to the dresser and opened a jewelry box and quietly
sucked in her breath. She had never touched actual diamonds. Bracelets and
pendants and earrings were arranged on velvet as if resting in a jeweler's
display case. Rachel helped herself, slipped from the bedroom and headed
downstairs, With a hand on the door, she hesitated, trying to figure out the
alarm system. "Can I
help?" the house asked. "Go to
sleep," Rachel hissed, then said, "Turn off the alarm." "I'm
sorry. That command cannot be overwritten." Rachel
ignored the metallic voice and crept to the living room window. A full moon
plated the neighborhood in silver. It was all so quiet, so still, far
different from the insane background hum of sirens and traffic in the city.
She thought she heard an owl, but couldn't be sure. Headlights suddenly
knifed through the dark, sending Rachel a step back into the shadows. Two smart
cars hummed up the driveway, even before the engines cut, she heard the
laughter. Bobby Armstrong staggered from a sleek black car, tottered for a
moment, then made way for a girl with golden hair. Two other boys leaped from
the second car, laughing, using a beer can for a football. Oblivious to their
friends, Bobby and the girl embraced, leaned against the car until he
supported her weight and she scissored her legs around his waist. In the
moonlight they looked like enchanted lovers from a fairy tale. Rachel
smirked as she watched; these happy dolts would last all of one day on the
streets. Her smirk died, smothered in a sudden, immense longing, the memory
of Bobby Armstrong's fingers on her face igniting within her like heat
lightning. There were what -- five or six years between them? The thought
made no difference to Rachel; she wanted him the way she wanted the jewelry.
She watched his hands stroke the girl's thighs, her own hands finding their
way between her legs. The beer can
ricocheted off the car hood. Laughing, Bobby and the girl parted. Rachel
dropped behind a couch as Bobby sauntered into the house. From across the
room she could smell the beer and hemp. She watched him mount the stairs,
heard the cars drive off, laughter trailing behind like exhaust. As she hid,
Rachel began to rethink her plan. Actually she had no plan, just the
never-ending urge to steal. But slowly, a new thought crept into her mind, a
vague plan. Maybe this was too good to blow with a quick strike. If she
stayed a while and played good girl, who knew what real riches she might
find? She sat on the proverbial gold mine, enough to keep the kids in high
style, maybe enough to break the grind of hunting money and food, for a while
at least. Or maybe she
just wanted to stay for Bobby. Loathing welled up within her and ambushed her
mind. Dumb bitch. Only the family mattered. Besides, who could want her with
a face from a nightmare? Still, the
plan made sense. With a struggle, Rachel replaced most of her loot, except
for a shiny diamond pendant thing. She found a phone and dialed Aspen's
current stolen cell phone number. The girl appeared bleary-eyed in the
viewer, then gaped. "Where are you? Are you all right?" "Better
than ever, my missy missy." Rachel said. She explained her situation and
her plan. "Give me a few days and we'll clean this place out." Aspen looked
unconvinced. "Maybe we can get by for a few days without you," she
said. "You be
boss lady," Rachel said. "How's Little Gil?" "Miserable,"
Aspen said. "He's so afraid the rollie pollies will hack your
brain." "Tell
him not to worry," Rachel said. "Tell him Rachel's bringing him
milk and honey. Hug him for me. And tell Max to stand guard. Never know what
slime is roaming the streets." Aspen's face
went grim. "Max is feeling mighty low right now. You told him to protect
us and -- know it now, I guess. Roy Boyd snuck out. He ain't come back."
Rachel's gut
turned hollow. How old was Roy Boyd -- nine maybe with blond locks and cherub
face. Good pickings for slavers, the kind of boy they could sell real easy to
grimy rich guys. "Everybody's
real nervous," Aspen said. "They're afraid of what will happen if
you don't come back. Where's the eats coming from. Where's...." "You
tell them about the plan," Rachel snapped. "You tell them to stay
put. I never let any of you down before. Right? You tell them to remember
that." "Yessem
mam," Aspen said. "Don't get hurt." "Sleep
tight, missy missy," Rachel said. She cut the connection and crept
upstairs to her bed beneath a canopy of silk, but sleep eluded her. She
remembered playing five card stud with Roy Boyd and his grin exploding across
his face like fireworks. Come home, Roy Boyd, please. But she did not expect
to see the boy again. Too many others had strayed and been swallowed up by
the streets. Rachel rarely thought about the future; surviving the present
took all her heart. But the past wrote itself into her brain like lessons
carved into granite. Good-bye, Roy Boyd. IN THE
MORNING, Rachel ate scrambled eggs and waffles and scones. Mrs. Armstrong
watched her, smiling all the while as if she had just told the most wonderful
story. The dining nook overlooked a small patio and a path leading to a
stream and a pine forest beyond. Cardinals pecked at seeds stuck in a honey cone
and squirrels played tag in the redbuds. Rachel watched a monarch flutter
among the roses and remembered the time she was so hungry she ate a
butterfly. That was long ago, before she learned her trade, when some nights
the kids battled feral dogs in the alleys over scraps of garbage. After
breakfast, Mr. Armstrong took Rachel by the hand and led her to a gazebo
overlooking the stream. Bobby appeared at the side of the house and drove
away in a two-seater. Rachel wondered what he would look like in his underwear,
remembered how his hands stroked the girl's thighs. "He's a
good kid," Mr. Armstrong said, catching her gaze at his son. "Both
our children are. They have good futures. We made sure of that." Mr.
Armstrong sighed and leaned back on his bench. Rachel swung on a swing chair
and dangled her new shoes above the red wood. "I don't envy them the
world they have to live in," Mr. Armstrong said. "It's crazy, just
crazy. Unless you can afford the best modifications for your kids they have
no chance to compete. Claire's a pure gene mod, but by the time Bobby reached
high school we had to augment him with a co-processor. Where will it
end?" He closed his
eyes for a moment, then opened them and studied Rachel. "That's why
you're in the state you're in," he said. "If you have the money,
your kids thrive. If you don't.... "He held his hands out, palms up as
if displaying the answer. "What's your first memory?" he asked. The question
took Rachel by surprise. She thought about it, finally conjured up an image
of Mr. Clancy. "I don't think he was my father," she said. "I
think he was what they call a foster parent." "Was he nice?"
Mr. Armstrong asked. "He
touched me here," she answered, dropping her hand to her crotch.
"He smelled bad." Mr. Armstrong
looked as if he had been kicked. "What happened?" Rachel
shrugged her shoulders. "These kids were boosting vids from a loading
dock. I saw them and saw rollie pollies coming and I warned them and ran with
them. Guess I've been with them since then." Mr. Armstrong
shook his head in disbelief. "You kids live on your own? How do you
survive?" Rachel
shrugged her shoulders, not sure how truthful she should be. She settled on,
"The older kids bring us food and money." With a sad
nod of his head, Mr. Armstrong said, "I see. It's just so damned unfair.
It's not your fault your parents were poor. And the thing of it is, there's
no chance for any of you to catch up. How can you compete with a kid
engineered to an IQ of 175? It's getting worse every day. You're damned here
on Earth." Rachel nodded
sagely but had no idea what the man was talking about. "Well
for you, at any rate, that will change a bit. My wife and I have talked this
over. We are very well connected. We want to fix your face." Rachel was
sure she had misunderstood him. Fix her? How? "Well,
say something," the man said and grinned. Rachel turned
away from him, felt her cheeks flush, suddenly unwilling to have anyone see
her damaged face. Later, she went to her bedroom and her body, as if taking
on a life of its own, took her to the mirror. A gargoyle stared back at her.
She had lied to the Armstrongs, although she couldn't say why. Clancy had
ruined her face, burned it with acid when she tried to fight him off. She
examined the scars, touched them, stretched the skin to see what it might
look like if the Armstrongs fixed her. Rachel had no memory of a normal face.
After a while, her scars became an asset -- nobody wanted her, people treated
her like a plague carrier and left her alone, pretended she didn't exist.
Which was how she learned her trade and survived. Her very ugliness made her
invisible. Rachel
pictured herself pretty like Aspen. She pictured a boy like Bobby Armstrong
looking at her and seeing her and liking what he saw and taking her in his
arms, reaching for her thighs. A sudden
chill shuddered its way through Rachel. She hugged herself and turned from
the mirror. She could not let herself want a life like that. She had her kids
to think about. Nothing else mattered. But still...?
THE OLD NEED
sent Rachel on the prowl that night. She fought the impulse to take
everything and run, decorate herself with diamonds and stuff her pockets with
the cash money she knew must be secreted somewhere in the house. No, have
patience, remember the plan. But she had to take something. She found an
antique fountain pen in a roll-top desk. Greasy Jack the fence was always
going on about how people paid big money for worthless old junk if you called
it an antique. Rachel grabbed the pen and headed upstairs. Outside Bobby
Armstrong's door, Rachel hesitated. The closed door beckoned like the
entrance to a cave hiding treasure. Rachel had no idea if Bobby was home, but
trusted her stealth. Besides, maybe she'd get a glimpse of the boy in his
underwear, even naked. With a mischievous grin, Rachel eased open the door. The bed
across the room was empty. She tiptoed in, froze when she glimpsed a cold
blue light in an alcove to her right. She looked, her heart thumped against
her ribs. Bobby
sprawled in a recliner, his face turned garish in the light of a palm
terminal in his hand, shining upward and casting demonic shadows. His eyes
were wide open, looked straight at Rachel, but saw nothing in the room. His
jaw hung slack and drool flecked his chin. A thin lead stretched from the
back of his head to the terminal. Channel
surfing, Rachel thought. She shuddered and stepped backward. Rachel lived in
a world fueled by drugs. No price was too high for the promise of escape. Joy
Bang and Delirium and Mex and Supercoke and a new one every week rushed like
a river through the streets and more people than she could count got swept up
in that torrent, swept to their deaths. Rachel had two rules for her kids --
no one squeals and no one goes near drugs. Anyone tempted by the easy money
got kicked out on their ass. She made that rule the day the rollie pollies
fished Joey Barnes from the river, a wad of bills in one pocket, a syringe in
the other. Joe), had been eight years old. To Rachel,
channel surfing was just another drug. She could barely read, wouldn't know
an icon from a coffee cup, but she understood the principle. Kids like Bobby
Armstrong, the ones augmented with coprocessors, could have jacks surgically
implanted and from there connect directly into the Net. What they did in
their reveries, Rachel couldn't guess. But once jacked in, they were hooked
no differently than the Joy Bang addict. And like the addict, if a channel
surfer lost their fix, they went mad and screamed and tore their own flesh.
Only drug addicts recovered. Channel surfers just withdrew into ruined and
empty hulks, forever grieving their lost electronic world. Rachel turned
away from Bobby Armstrong and hurried to her room. She slept
little that night, sitting in her bed beneath the silk canopy, listening to
the night sounds -- an owl hooting outside, walls settling, pipes creaking.
It was so easy to be fooled by the skylights and the clean tablecloths and
the Armstrongs' generosity and Bobby's good looks and all the while miss the
sense of something gone terribly wrong in their lives. In his own way, Bobby
ran from his demons just as Rachel's family ran from the street. The thought,
oddly, cheered Rachel. No golden God, Bobby was flawed and perhaps -- just
perhaps -- within her reach. She imagined
herself beautiful and Bobby Armstrong taking her in his arms and giving her
presents of his own free will. A yearning for such a life swept through
Rachel, a yearning as strong as her need to steal. She could get used to life
in a bed like this. With that thought, she finally fell asleep. The next
morning, Mr. and Mrs. Armstrong went out. Rachel took the diamond pendant
thing and the antique pen and headed into the pines behind the house. The
forest was actually a tiny nature preserve leading to a commons. From there,
she cut across the development to the rendezvous point, the tube station on
Fredricksburg Avenue. Little Gil saw her first, threw himself into her arms.
Rachel swung him around, then hugged Aspen. "Hey,
missy missy." "Hey
you," Aspen said. Little Gil
yanked her arm. "Come home," he pleaded. "Not
now," she said. "There's more milk and honey for the taking." Aspen cocked
her head and frowned. "You sure you knows the score?" "Did I
ever fuck up?" "Never,"
said Aspen. "No
way," said Little Gil. Rachel
glanced over her shoulder, waited for a suit to pass, then stuffed the
pendant and the pen into Aspen's hand. The girl's eyes formed discs.
"We've never never never had this much? "And
there's more. I've got to get back. Take this to Greasy Jack and don't let
him sucker you. But first show this stuff to the family. Make them understand
there's more where this came from. Take care missy missy." She pulled
away from Little Gil and was about to leave, but instead asked, "Roy
Boyd?" "Gone,"
Aspen said. Rachel forced
back a shudder and turned to race toward the development. She heard Little
Gil cry out and Aspen call, "They touch you and we'll kill 'em. Eat
their eyeballs for dinner!" "No
worry, no pain," Rachel called to them. When she
forded the stream and started up the incline to the house, she spied Bobby
sitting on the patio, grinning at her. "Good morning, shitface," he
said. "Morning,
cocksucker," she said. "Sit and
have a beer with me." "Sure,"
she said, and accepted a frosted stein. Bobby watched her over the rim of his
stein, his gaze flooding her body with warmth. "You were in my room last
night," he said. Rachel
flinched, then willed herself impassive, judged the distance to the drive and
escape. "No
point in lying," he said. "House told me. House watches everything
you do." She sat
motionless, but defeat slumped her soul. No new face, no milk and honey, no
Bobby. Bobby
laughed. "My parents don't know. I programmed House to watch you. My
poor parents. They mean well. They wouldn't snoop on you. Probably think it
wouldn't be good for your self-esteem or something." He swallowed a gulp
and leaned forward. "So I guess we have a little stalemate here. Let's
make a deal." "What
kind of deal?" Rachel asked. "You
keep your mouth shut and I keep my mouth shut. We both win. Deal?" "Deal,"
she said, still planning her escape. Bobby leaned
back and took a drink, wiped foam from his lips with his tongue. "Is it
better than Joy Bang?" she asked. He smirked
and shook his head. "You are the little bitch, aren't you? There's no
comparison. None at all." "What do
you do when you're hooked up?" She craned her neck to see if she could
spot the jack, but his blonde hair hid any trace. "Listen,"
he said. Bobby's eyes focused on something far beyond Rachel. "It's like
a symphony or something, like all the people on the Net are singing to each
other, voices, thousands of voices all singing to each other and they all
make up this one great mind. When you're jacked, you're part of it. It floats
you away and all this -- this shit we call life doesn't matter anymore. You
don't matter because you're part of it." "Sounds
like Joy Bang" she said. Bobby focused
on her and smiled. "Maybe it is. But that's not why we do it. Afterward,
you know things." She waited
for him to continue, but he just went on smiling. "What kind of
things?" she asked. "Things,"
he said. "All kinds." He leaned forward, his eyes large and blazing.
"That stupid little voice in your head isn't your mind at all. It's just
the tiny part you're aware off. Beneath the surface, that's where all the
really important stuff happens. And when you're jacked, it's like tons of
information goes straight into your brain where you can't see it just like
everything around us is going straight into our brain right now, only we
aren't aware of the creatures in that forest or the air pressure or the
subtle body language passing between us because we're concentrating on each
other. But our minds take it all in. Same way on the Net. Maybe the rush is
like Joy Bang but underneath it all, the wealth of the Net is zooming
straight into our subconscious." Rachel
listened and tried to make sense of his monologue. "What kind of
things.?" she asked again. "Like
wealth," he said. "People flounder around picking stocks like it's
some kind of science. But all this financial information goes into your brain
and out comes the pattern. You see the pattern and you know what to buy. You
meet somebody at a party and then wham! It hits you. Everything about this
guy is already in your head -- his gene mods, his grades, what he likes in
sex, his whole medical history, everything. When you've got that, you've got
power over the guy. Politics! Way before anyone has a clue who's going to get
elected, you know because you're following all the patterns without even
knowing it. Think about it. You know who to give money to, which politician
to buy. And you're first in line at the trough. It's incredible!" Rachel
glimpsed his meaning, indeed saw the sense beneath his words, even though the
details remained fuzzy. A sly grin
puckered Bobby's mouth. "And I haven't even told you about the sex.
Search out anybody you like and-- well, it leaves Joy Bang in the dust."
Bobby finished his beer, slammed the stein onto the patio table, and pushed
his chair back. "Got to be going, shitface. You have a real nice day.
And don't forget our deal." He slapped
her on the back and headed for the house. "Bobby," she called after
him. "Do you think I could be pretty?" Bobby smiled
and for a moment the sun angled across his face and Rachel melted inside.
"Yeah, they told me they're taking you in for surgery," he said. He
cocked his head and studied her and said, "Yeah. I can see it. You will
be drop-dead gorgeous." She watched
him leave in his sports car, feeling stunned and confused and then terrified.
At first she
had no idea what demons drove her, but they forced her into the house. Rachel
prowled the place, fingers caressing silverware and antiques and the treasure
trove in the jewelry box in the Armstrongs' bedroom. She needed to steal,
needed to steal everything. Stealing was best -- the old comfortable safe way
of earning a living for her kids. If she stopped stealing, she could stay.
She would be drop-dead gorgeous. And then who would lead her kids.? Rachel loaded
her pockets with rings and bracelets, raided Bobby's room and found cash
money in his desk. She turned to flee, but hesitated. She tasted salt on her
lips and with a start realized tears rolled down her cheeks. Rachel slumped
in the recliner and let it mold itself to her thin body, embracing her like a
plastic hug. By late afternoon, her sobbing ended and in the resulting calm
she saw the solution. She would steal a future for them and herself, only her
booty couldn't be stuffed into her pockets or tied up in a pillow case. It
sailed on electric winds in a place she could not touch, but which
nonetheless existed and thus could be robbed. It was the same place where she
could become one with Bobby. The
Armstrongs came home that night to find Rachel in the den, sobbing, her face
buried in a pillow. She ran to them and hugged Mr. Armstrong and cried into
his belt. At last, the two adults calmed her hysteria and sat with her on the
couch. Mrs. Armstrong stroked Rachel's hair and said, "What is it,
child.?" "I don't
care about my face," Rachel blubbered. "I don't want you to fix
it!" The
Armstrongs, puzzled, calmed her again. "Why won't you let us help
you.?" Mr. Armstrong said. "I
listened to what you told me," Rachel whimpered. "You're right. It
doesn't matter what I look like. I can't be like you. I'm just normal. I'll
never be anything!" "There,
there," Mrs. Armstrong said. She glanced at her husband who did his best
to hide his own moist eyes. "Rachel,"
he said. "Listen to me. It's true there's nothing that can be done about
your genetic makeup. But there are other ways. Augmentations. Remember what I
told you about our son.?" Rachel nodded. "The co --co...." "Co-processor,"
Mr. Armstrong said. "Perhaps a modification like that is possible."
Rachel looked
up at him and wiped the grime from her face. "I just want to be like
you," she said. "I don't want to go back to the streets." Mrs. Armstrong
smiled. "That will never happen, child. We can at least save you." Rachel hugged
the woman and rubbed her eyes with her knuckles. She waited up
late that night until Bobby, smelling of beer and weed, staggered into the
house. He flinched when she stepped in front of him, then rearranged his face
into a smirk. "Hey, shitface," he said. "I've
been caught before. The only bad thing that will happen to me is getting
kicked out of this house. But if you get caught they'll take away that socket
and you won't have your fix." Bobby did his
best to grin, but his mouth faltered. "What are you talking about?"
"You
know what happens when a channel suffer gets cut off. You want to be a
zombie?" "I ought
to break your stupid neck," he snapped and almost lunged for her. "New
deal," she said. "Your parents said they'd get me a co-processor. I
keep my mouth shut if you help me get my own jack." He gaped at
her, suddenly laughed. "Is this a joke?" Rachel shook
her head. "I won't
be blackmailed by you," he said. "Yes you
will," she said. He considered
her demands, finally sighed and rubbed his eyes. "I'm going to
bed," he said. "And
when I'm hooked up," she said. "You'll come to me sometimes and
make love to me." Bobby froze
on the steps, kept his back to her, then without a word climbed to his
bedroom. Rachel sat on
the couch before her rubbery legs gave out. Terror shuddered its way through
her thin body, terror at her plan, fear of some terrible retribution. Mostly
she trembled at the thought of what she was about to become, everything she
would lose. Ah, but
everything she'd gain! WHEN SHE WAS
ready, Rachel left the Armstrongs' house, carrying a sack of loot. She took
the tube into the city and entered the warehouse. Little Gil spotted her
first, swung from his perch in the pipes and ran to her and threw himself
into her arms. Max and Cinnamon and Rough Neck followed, and Aspen hugged her
best friend as if afraid to let her go and risk losing Rachel again. "Hey,
missy, missy," Rachel said. "Hey
you," Aspen said. The next day,
the kids gathered around her in the warehouse and there on a dais made from
old pallets, Rachel sat in a high-backed wooden chair, wearing one of Mrs.
Armstrong's diamond necklaces. Little Gil and Aspen decorated her hair with
dandelions and lilies. For a moment, Rachel fingered the palm terminal. She
still had time to back out. Instead, she
said, "This will take some time. I have to learn how to use it. But soon
we will have all the milk and honey anybody could ever want." Rachel
inserted the lead into the jack at the base of her skull. At first there was
nothing. Then, slowly, the voices formed out of random static, thousands of
them, a symphony of lives all connected in one massive song. Rachel closed
her eyes and let her mind join the song, the music of her future. Like Bobby,
she would soon know things, the patterns to lead her kids from the streets.
And she would search out Bobby Armstrong and at last they would become one,
lovers entwined on an electric bed. |