GRASS
by Sheri S. Tepper
[05 jul 2001 – scanned, proofed and
released for #bookz]
A voice says, "Cry!"
And I said, "What shall I cry?'
All flesh is grass....
Isaiah 40-6
Grass!
Millions of square miles of it; numberless wind-whipped tsunamis of grass, a thousand sun-lulled caribbeans of grass, a hundred rippling oceans, every ripple a gleam of scarlet or amber, emerald or turquoise, multicolored as rainbows, the colors shivering over the prairies in stripes and blotches, the grasses—some high, some low, some feathered, some straight—making their own geography as they grow. There are grass hills where the great plumes tower in masses the height of ten tall men; grass valleys where the turf is like moss, soft under the feet, where maidens pillow their heads thinking of their lovers, where husbands lie down and think of their mistresses; grass groves where old men and women sit quiet at the end of the day, dreaming of things that might have been, perhaps once were. Commoners all, of course. No aristocrat would sit in the wild grass to dream. Aristocrats have gardens for that, if they dream at all.
Grass. Ruby ridges, blood-colored highlands,
wine-shaded glades. Sapphire seas of grass with dark islands of grass bearing
great plumy green trees which are grass again. Interminable meadows of silver
hay where the great grazing beasts move in slanted lines like mowing machines,
leaving the stubble behind them to spring up again in trackless wildernesses of
rippling argent.
Orange highlands burning against the sunsets. Apricot
ranges glowing in the dawns. Seed plumes sparkling like sequin stars. Blossom
heads like the fragile lace old women take out of trunks to show their
granddaughters.
"Lace made by nuns in the long-ago time."
"What are nuns, Grandma?"
Here, there, wide-scattered across the limitless
veldts, are the villages, walled about to keep the grass at bay, with small,
thick-walled houses, each with its stout doors and heavy shutters. The
minuscule fields and tiny orchards are full of homely crops and familiar
fruits, while outside the walls the grass hovers like some enormous planet-wide
bird, ready to stoop across the wall and eat it all, every apple and every
turnip and every old woman at the well, too, along with her grandchildren.
"This is a parsnip, child. From long ago."
"When was long ago, Grandma?"
Here, there, as wide-scattered as the villages, the
estancias of the aristocrats: bon Damfels' place, bon Maukerden's place, all the
places of the other bons, tall thatched houses set in gardens of grass among
grass fountains and grass courtyards, with their own high walls— these pierced
with gates for the hunters to go out of and for the hunters to return through
again. Those who return.
And here, there, nosing among the grass roots, will
come the hounds, muzzles wrinkling, ears dangling, one foot before another in a
slow pace to find it, the inevitable it, the nighttime horror, the eater of
young. And look, there behind them on the tall mounts, there will come the
riders in their red coats, silent as shadows they will come riding, riding over
the grass: the Huntsman with his horn; the whippers-in with their whips; the
field, some with red coats and some with black, their round hats pressed hard
upon their heads, eyes fixed forward toward the hounds—riding, riding.
Among them today will be Diamante bon Damfels—young
daughter Dimity—eyes tight shut to keep out the sight of the hounds, hands
clenched pale upon the reins, neck as fragile as a flower stem in the high,
white cylinder of the hunting tie, black boots glistening with polish, black
coat well brushed, black hat tight on the little head, riding, riding, for the
first time ever, riding to the hounds.
And there, somewhere, in the direction they are
going, high in a tree perhaps, for there are copses of trees here and there
upon the vast prairies, will be the fox. The mighty fox. The implacable fox.
The fox who knows they are coming.
2
It was said among the bon Damfels that whenever the
Hunt was hosted by the bon Damfels estancia the weather was perfect. The family
took credit for this personally, though it could as properly have been ascribed
to the Hunt rotation, which brought the Hunt to the bon Damfels early in the
fall. The weather was usually perfect at that time of the year. And early in
the spring, of course, when the rotation brought the Hunt back again.
Stavenger, Obermun bon Damfels, had once been
informed by a dignitary from Semling—one who fancied himself an authority on a
wide variety of irrelevant topics—that historically speaking, riding to the
hounds was a winter sport.
Stavenger's reply was completely typical of himself
and of the Grassian aristocracy in general. "Here on Grass," he had
said, "we do it properly. In spring and fall."
The visitor had had better sense than to comment
further upon the sport as practiced on Grass. He had taken copious notes,
however, and after returning to Semling he had written a scholarly monograph
contrasting Grassian and historic customs regarding blood sports. Of the dozen
copies printed, only one survived, buried in the files of the Department of
Comparative Anthropology, University of Semling at Semling Prime.
That had been half a long lifetime ago. By now the
author had almost forgotten about the subject, and Stavenger bon Damfels had
never thought of it again. What foreigners did or said was both
incomprehensible and contemptible so far as Stavenger was concerned, and no one
should have allowed the fellow to observe the Hunt in the first place. This was
the bon Damfels' entire opinion on the matter.
The bon Damfels estancia was called Klive after a
revered ancestor on the maternal side. It was said among the bon Damfels that
the gardens had been written of as one of the seventy wonders of the allwhere.
Snipopean—the great Snipopean—had
written so, and his book was in the library of the estancia, that vast and
towering hall smelling of leather and paper and the chemicals the librarians
used to prevent the one from parting company with the other. No one among the
current bon Damfels had read the account or could have found the book among all
those volumes, most of them unopened since they had been delivered. Why should
they read of the grass gardens of Klive when those gardens were all around
them?
It was in that part of all grass gardens known as the first surface that the Hunt always assembled. As host, Stavenger bon Damfels was Master of the Hunt. Before this first Hunt of the fall season—as before the first Hunt of each spring and fall—he had picked three members of the vast and ramified family as Huntsman and first and second whippers-in. To the Huntsman he had entrusted the bon Damfels horn, an elaborately curled and engraved instrument capable only of muted though silvery sounds. To the whippers-in he had given the whips—tiny, fragile things one had to take care not to break, ornaments really, like medals for valor, having no utilitarian purpose whatsoever. No one would have dared to use a whip on a hound or a mount; and as for sounding a horn near a mount's ear or even within hearing except for the ritual summons and when the Hunt had ended, no one would have thought of it. No one asked how it had been done elsewhere all that time ago or even currently. Quite frankly, no one of the bons cared in the least how it was done elsewhere. Elsewhere, so far as the bons were concerned, had stopped existing when their ancestors had left it.
On this first day of the fall hunt, Diamante bon Damfels, Stavenger's youngest daughter, stood among those slowly gathering on the first surface, all murmurous and sleepy-eyed, as though they had lain wakeful in the night listening for a sound that had not come. Among the still figures of the hunters, servant women from the nearby village skimmed, seemingly legless under the long white bells of their skirts, hair hidden beneath the complicated folds of their brightly embroidered headdresses, bearing bright trays covered with glasses no larger than thimbles.
Close between Emeraude and Amethyste (called Emmy and
Amy by the family and "the Mistresses bon Damfels" by everyone else),
Dimity was polished and brushed to a fare-thee-well, immaculately turned out in
her hunting garb, and with a headache already from hair drawn back severely to
fit beneath the round black cap. The older girls had red lapels on their coats,
showing they had ridden long enough to become members of the Hunt. Dimity's
collar was black, as black as the shadows lying at the back of her eyes,
shadows her sisters saw well enough but pretended not to notice. One couldn't
indulge oneself. One couldn't allow malingering or cowardice in oneself or in
members of the family.
"Don't worry," drawled Emeraude, the best
advice she could offer. "You'll get your Hunt colors very soon. Just
remember what the riding master told you." At the comer of her jaw a
little muscle leapt and leapt again, like a shackled frog.
Dimity shivered, the shadows writhing, not wanting to
say and yet unable to keep from saying, "Emmy, Mummy said I didn't have
to..."
Amethyste laughed, a tiny shiver of unamusement,
emotionless as glass. "Well of course you don't have to, silly. None of us
had to. Even Sylvan and Shevlok didn't have
to."
Sylvan bon Damfels, hearing his name, turned to look
across the first surface at his sisters, his face darkening perceptibly as he
saw that Dimity was with the older girls. With a word of excuse to his
companions, he turned to come swiftly over the circle of pale gray turf,
skirting the scarlet and amber fountain grasses at its center. "What are
you doing here?" he demanded, glaring at the girl. "The riding master
told Mummy . .."
"You're not nearly ready. Not nearly!" This
was Sylvan, who spoke his mind even when it was unpopular—some said because
it was unpopular—somewhat enjoying the
attention this attracted, though if challenged he would have denied it. To
Sylvan truth was truth and all else was black heresy, though on occasion he had
the very human difficulty of deciding which was which.
"Oh, Sylvan," Amethyste said, pouting
prettily and pursing lips she had been told were fruitlike in their ripeness.
"Don't be so harsh. If it were up to you. nobody but you would ever
ride."
He snarled at her. "Amy, if it were up to me,
nobody would ride, including me. What is Mother thinking of?"
"It was Daddy," Dimity offered. "He
thought it would be nice if I got my colors soon. I'm already older than Amy
and Emmy were." She glanced across the first surface to the place where
Stavenger stood watching her broodingly from among the elder Huntsmen, his lean
and bony figure motionless, the great hook of his nose hanging over his lipless
mouth.
Sylvan laid his hand on her shoulder. "For
heaven's sake, Dim, why didn't you just tell him you aren't ready?"
"I couldn't do that, Syl. Daddy asked the riding
master, and the riding master told him I'm as ready as I ever will be."
"He didn't mean—"
"I know what he meant, for heaven's sake. I'm
not stupid. He meant I'm not very good and that I'm not going to get any
better."
"You're not that bad," Emeraude soothed.
"I was lots worse."
"You were lots worse when you were a
child." Sylvan agreed. "But by the time you were Dim's age, you were
lots better. So were the rest of us. But that doesn't mean Dim has to—"
"Will everybody just quit telling me I don't
have to?" Dimity cried now, the tears spilling down her cheeks. "Half
my family says I don't have to and the other half says I'm ready now."
Sylvan was stopped in mid-bellow, stopped and stilled
and turned suddenly soft. He loved her, this littlest one. It was he who had
first called her Dimity, he who had held her when she had had the colic, who
had carried her against his shoulder and patted her while he strode up and down
the corridors of Klive, the thirteen-year-old boy cuddling the infant and
yearning over her, Now the twenty-eight-year-old yearned no less over the
fifteen-year-old girl, seeing the infant still. "What do you want to
do?" he asked tenderly, reaching out to touch the moist little forehead
under the brim of the black cap. With her hair scraped back and tightly bound
she looked like a scared little boy. "What do you want to do, Dim?"
"I'm hungry and I'm thirsty and I'm tired. I want to go back in the house and have breakfast and study my language lesson for this week," she cried through gritted teeth. "I want to go to a summer ball and flirt with Jason bon Haunser. I want to take a nice hot bath and then sit in the rosegrass-court and watch the flick birds."
"Well then," he started to say, his words
cut off by the sound of the Huntsman's horn from beside the Kennel Gate. Ta-wa,
ta-wa. softly-so-softly, to alert the
riders without offending the hounds. "The hounds," he whispered,
turning away. "God, Dim, you've left it too late."
He stumbled away from them, suddenly quiet. All
around them conversations ceased, silence fell. Faces became blank and empty.
Eyes became fixed. Dimity looked around her at all the others ready to ride to
the hounds, and shivered. Her father's eyes slid across her like a cold wind,
not seeing her at all. Even Emmy and Amy had become remote and untouchable.
Only Sylvan, staring at her from his place among his companions, seemed to see
her, see her and grieve over her as he had so many times.
Now the riders arranged themselves on the first
surface in a subtle order, longtime riders at the west side of the circle,
younger riders at the east. The servants had skimmed away at the sound of the
horn, so many white blossoms blowing across the gray grass. Dimity was left
standing almost by herself at the east edge of the turf, looking across it to
the path where the wall of the estancia was pierced by a massive gate.
"Watch the Kennel Gate," she admonished herself unnecessarily.
"Watch the Kennel Gate."
Everyone watched the Kennel Gate as it opened slowly
and the hounds came through, couple on couple of them, ears dangling, tongues
lolling between strong ivory teeth, tails straight behind them. They moved down
the Hounds' Way, a broad path of low, patterned velvetgrass which circled the
first surface and ran westward through the Hunt Gate in the opposite wall and
out into the wider gardens. As each pair of hounds approached the first
surface, one hound went left, the other right, two files of them circling the
hunters, watching the hunters, examining them with red, steaming hot-coal eyes
before the files met one another to stalk on toward the Hunt Gate, paired as
before.
Dimity felt the heat of their eyes like a blow. She
looked down at her hands, gripping one another, white at the knuckles, and
tried to think of nothing at all.
As the last couple joined one another and the hunters
moved to follow, Sylvan left his place and ran to whisper in her ear, "You
can just stay here, Dim. No one will even look back. No one will know until
later. Just stay here."
Dimity shook her head. Her face was very white, her eyes
huge and dark and full of a fear she was only for the first time admitting to
herself, but she would not let herself stay. Shaking his head, Sylvan ran to
regain his place. Slowly, reluctantly, her feet took her after him as the
hunters followed the hounds through the Hunt Gate. From beyond the wall came
the sound of hooves upon the sod. The mounts were waiting.
From the balcony outside her bedroom window, Rowena,
the Obermum bon Damfels, let her troubled gaze settle on the back of her
youngest daughter's head. Above the high, white circle of her hunting tie,
Dimity's neck looked thin and defenseless. She's a little budling, Rowena
thought, remembering pictures of nodding blossoms in the fairy books she had
read as a child. "Snowdrops," she recited to herself. "Fringed
tulips. Bluebells. And peonies." She had once had a whole book about the
glamorous and terrible fairies who lived in flowers. She wondered where the
book was now. Gone, probably. One of those "foreign" things Stavenger
was forever inveighing against As though a few fairy tales could hurt anything.
"Dimity looks so tiny," said the
maidservant, Salla. "So tiny. So young. Trailing along there behind them
all...." Salla had cared for all the children when they were babies.
Dimity, being youngest, had stayed a baby longer than the others.
"She's as old as Amethyste was when she rode for
the first time. She's older than Emmy was." Try though she might, Rowena
could not keep her voice from sounding defensive "She's not that
young."
"But her eyes, mistress," Salla murmured.
"Like a little girl. She doesn't understand about this Hunt business. None
of it. None of it at all."
"Of course she understands." Rowena had to
assert this, had to believe it- That's what all the training was for; to be
sure that the young riders understood- It was all perfectly manageable,
provided one had proper training first. "She understands," Rowena
repeated stubbornly, placing herself before the mirror, fiddling with the
arrangement of her thick, dark hair. Her own gray eyes stared back at her
accusingly, and she pinched her lips into an unlovely line.
"Doesn't," said Salla as stubbornly,
quickly turning away to avoid the slap Rowena might have given her if she could
have done it without moving. "She's like you, mistress. Not made for
it."
Rowena tired of looking at herself and chose to
change her ground. "Her father says she must!"
Salla did not contradict this. There would have been
no point. "She's not made for it. No more than you were. And he doesn't
make you."
Oh, but he did, Rowena thought, remembering pain.
Made me do so many things I didn't want to. Let me quit riding, yes, but only
when I was pregnant with the seven children he made me have when I only wanted
one or two. Made me ride right up until the time I got old, with lines around
my eyes. Made me bring the children up to the Hunt, when I didn't want to. Made
them all like him, all the way he is—except Sylvan. No matter what Stavenger
does, Sylvan stays Sylvan. Not that Syl lets on what he really thinks. Sylvan just
roars about everything. Clever Syl, to hide his true beliefs among all that
bluster. And Dimity stays Dimity as well, of course—but poor Dim —Dim couldn't
hide anything. Would she be able to hide her feelings this morning?
Rowena went back to the balcony and craned her neck
to look over the top of the wall. She could see the movements of the waiting
mounts, tossing heads, switching tails. She could hear the clicking of hooves,
the hruffing sound of a breath suddenly
expelled. It was too quiet. Always too quiet when the riders mounted. She had
always felt there should be talk, people calling to one another, greeting one
another. There should be ... something. Something besides this silence.
Outside the Hunt Gate the hounds circled and the
mounts waited, shifting impatiently from foot to foot, tails lashing, necks
arching as they pawed the ground, all quietly as in a dream where things move
but make no sound. The air was warm with their steamy breath, full of the
haylike smell of them, the sweaty stench. Stavenger's mount came forward first,
as was proper, and then others, one by one, coming for the Huntsman and for the
whippers-in, and then for the riders of the field, the oldest riders first.
Dimity stood behind Emeraude and Amethyste, shivering slightly as first one,
then the other vaulted up onto the backs of waiting mounts. Soon she was the
only one left unmounted. Then, just as she decided that there was no mount for
her, that she could slip back through the gate, the mount was there before her,
within reach of her hand.
It stared at her as it extended a front leg and
crouched slightly so that she could put one foot on the brindled leg, grasp the
reins, and leap upward, all as she had done time after time on the simulator,
no different except for the smell and the heaving breath which spread the vast
ribs between her legs, wider than the machine had ever done. Her toes hunted
desperately for the notches between the third and fourth rib that should be
there, finding them at last far forward of where she thought they should be.
She slipped the pointed toes of her boots in, locking herself on. Then it was
only a matter of hanging onto the reins and keeping her spurs dug in and her
legs tight while the great creature beneath her turned high on its rear legs
to follow the others away, west. She had worn her padded breeches for hours on
the simulator, so they were properly broken in. She had had nothing to drink
since early the previous evening and nothing to eat since noon yesterday. She
wished fleetingly that Sylvan could ride beside her, but he was far ahead.
Emeraude and Amethyste were lost in the welter. She could see Stavenger's red
coat, the line of his back as straight as a stem of polegrass. There was no
turning back now. It was almost a relief to know that she couldn't do anything
but what she was doing. Nothing else at all, not until the Hunt returned. At
last there was sound, a drumming of feet which filled all the space there was
to hold it, a resonant thunder coming up from the ground beneath them.
From her balcony above them, Rowena heard the sound
and put her hands over her ears until it faded into silence. Gradually the
small sounds of insect and bird and grass peeper, which had ceased when the
hounds arrived, began once more.
"Too young," brooded Salla. "Oh,
mistress."
Rowena did not slap her maidservant but turned to her
with tears in her eyes instead. "I know," she said. She turned to see
the end of the line of riders as it fled away down the garden trail toward the
west.
Riding out. she said to herself. Riding out And
they'll ride back again.
Back again. Saying it over and over like a litany.
Back again.
"She'll be back," said Salla. "She'll
be back, wanting a nice hot bath." Then both of them stood staring into
the west, not seeing anything there except the grass.
Down the wide hallway from Rowena's suite of rooms,
in the mostly unused library of Klive, certain nonhunting members of the
aristocracy had assembled to consider a matter of continuing irritation to
them all. Second leader at Klive was Stavenger's younger brother, Figor. Some
years ago, following one of the many hunting accidents which occurred every
season, Figor had stopped riding to the hounds. This left him free during
hunting seasons to take upon himself many of the responsibilities of the
estancia while Stavenger was otherwise engaged. Today Figor met with Eric bon
Haunser, Gerold bon Laupmon, and Gustave bon Smaerlok. Gustave was the Obermun
bon Smaerlok, head of the Smaerlok family still, despite his disability; but
both Eric bon Haunser and Gerold bon Laupmon were younger siblings of the
family leaders, men who were also hunting today.
The quartet assembled around a large square table in
one corner of the dimly lit room, passing among themselves the document which
had occasioned their meeting. It was a brief document, headed with the cursive
arabesques which spelled out the names and attributes of Sanctity, laden with
seals and ribbons and signed by the Hierarch himself. This same group of
aristocrats had responded to similar documents in both the remote and recent
past, and Gustave bon Smaerlok betrayed considerable impatience at having to
do so yet again.
"This office of Sanctity is becoming
importunate," the Obermun said now from the wheeled half-person he had
occupied for the last twenty years. "Dimoth bon Maukerden says so. I asked
him and he went into a rage over this business. And Yalph bon Bindersen. I
asked him, too. Haven't had a chance to get over to bon Tanlig's place yet, but
Dimoth and Yalph and I are agreed that whatever this Sanctity wants, it has
nothing to do with us, and we won't have their damned fragras here. Our people came to Grass to get away from
Sanctity— now let Sanctity stay away from us. It's enough we let them stay on
digging up the Arbai city, enough that those Green Brothers make mud pies with
their little shovels up there in the north. Let elsewhere stay elsewhere and
Grass stay Grass. So we all agree. Let's tell them so, once and for all. It's
Hunt season, for heaven's sake. We haven't time for all this nonsense."
Though Gustave no longer rode, he was an avid follower of the Hunt, watching
the pursuit from a silent, propeller-driven balloon-car whenever the weather
would allow.
"Easy, Gustave," murmured Figor, the
fingers of his right hand massaging his left arm at the point where the flesh
and the prosthesis joined, feeling the pain pulse beneath his fingers, a
constant accompaniment to existence, even after two years. It made him
irritable, and he guarded against expressing the irritation, knowing it arose
from the body rather than the mind. "We don't need to make an open revolt
out of it. No need to rub Sanctity's fur the wrong way."
"Revolt!" the older man bellowed.
"Since when does this fragras Sanctity
rule on Grass?" Though the word fragras meant simply "foreign," he used it as it was usually used on
Grass, as the ultimate insult.
"Shhh." Figor made allowances for Gustave.
Gustave was in pain also and was undoubtedly made irritable thereby. "I
didn't mean that kind of revolt, and you know it. Even though we have no
religious allegiance to Sanctity, we pay it lip service for other things.
Sanctity is headquartered upon Terra. We acknowledge Terra as the center of diplomatic
intercourse. Maintainer of our cultural heritage. Eternal cradle of mankind.
Blah and blah." He sighed, massaging again. Gustave snorted but did not
interrupt as Figor went on. "Many take our history seriously, Gustave.
Even we don't entirely ignore it. We use the old language during conferences;
we teach Terran to our children. We don't all use the same language in our
estancias, but we consider speaking Terran among ourselves the mark of cultured
men, no? We calculate our age in Sanctity years, still. Most of our food crops
are Terran crops from our ancestors' time. Why run afoul of Sanctity—and all
those who might come roaring to her defense—when we don't need to?"
"You want their damn what-are-they here?
Prodding and poking. You want their nasty little researchers upsetting
things?"
There was a moment's silence while they considered
things that might be upset. At this time of the year only the Hunt could be
upset, for it was the only important thing going on. During the winter, of
course, no one went anywhere, and during the summer months it was too hot to
travel except at night, when the summer balls were held. Still,
"research" had an awkward sound to it. People asking questions.
People demanding answers to things
"We don't have to let them upset anything,"
Figor said doubtfully.
"They've told us why they want to come. There's
some plague or other and Sanctity's setting up missions here and there, looking
for a cure." He rubbed his arm again, scowling.
"But why here?" blurted Gerold bon Laupmon.
"Why not here as well as anywhere? Sanctity
knows little or nothing about Grass and it's grasping at straws."
They considered this for a time. It was true that
Sanctity knew little or nothing about Grass except what it could learn from the
Green Brothers. Foreigners came and went in Commoner Town, allowed to stay
there only so long as it took to get the next ship out and not allowed to come
into the grass country at all. Semling had tried to maintain an embassy on
Grass, unsuccessfully. Now there was no diplomatic contact with
"elsewhere." Though the word was often used to mean Sanctity or
Terra, it was also used in a more general sense: Grass was Grass; what was not
Grass was elsewhere.
Eric broke the silence. "Last time Sanctity said
something about someone having come here with the disease and departed without
it." He rose awkwardly on his artificial legs, wishing he could so easily
depart, without his disability.
"Foolishness," Gustave barked. "They
couldn't even tell us who it was, or when. Some crewman, they said. Off a ship.
What ship, they didn't know. It was only a rumor. Maybe this plague doesn't
even exist," he growled. "Maybe it's all an excuse to start
proselytizing us, snipping at us with their little punches, taking tissue
samples for their damned banks." Even though the bon Smaerloks had come to
Grass long ago, the family history was replete with accounts of the religious
tyranny they had fled from.
"No." said Figor. "I believe the
plague exists. We've heard of it from other sources. And they're upset about
it, which is understandable. They're running about doing this and that, not to
much purpose. Well, they will find a cure for their plague. Give them time. One
thing you can say for Sanctity, it does find answers eventually. So why not
give them time to find the answer somewhere else, without saying no and without
upsetting ourselves? We'll tell this Hierarch we don't take kindly to being
studied, blah and blah, right of cultural privacy—he'll have to accept that,
since it's one of the covenants Sanctity agreed to at the time of
dispersion—but we'll say we're sensible people, willing to talk about it, so
why not send us an ambassador to discuss the matter." Figor made an
expansive gesture. "Then we can discuss and discuss for a few years until
the question becomes moot."
"Until they all die?" Gerold bon Laupmon asked—meaning,
Figor supposed, everyone of human origin not upon Grass
Figor sighed. One was never certain with Gerold that
he quite understood what was going on. "No. Until they find a cure. Which
they will."
Gustave snorted. "I'll give that to the Sanctified,
Gerold. They're clever." He said it in the tone of one who did not think
much of cleverness.
There was a pause while they considered it Eric bon
Haunser urged at last, "It has the advantage of making us look perfectly
reasonable."
Gustave snorted again. "To who? Who is it
looking at us? Who has the right?" He pounded on the arm of his chair,
scowling, turning red in the face. Ever since the accident which had cut short
Gustave's riding career, he had been irascible and difficult, and Figor moved
to calm him.
"Anyone can, Gustave, whether they have the
right or not. Anyone can look. Anyone can have an opinion, whether we want them
to or not. And if we should ever want something from Sanctity, we'd be in a
good position to ask that the favor be returned."
Eric nodded, seeing that Gustave was about to object.
"Maybe we'll never want anything, Gustave. Probably we won't. But if we
did, by chance, we'd be in a good position. Aren't you the one who always tells
us not to give up an advantage until we have to?"
The older man simmered. "Then we have to be
polite to whoever they send—bow, scrape, pretend he's our equal, some fool,
some off-planeter, some foreigner"
"Well, yes. Since the ambassador will be from
Sanctity, he'll probably be Terran, Gustave. Surely we could suffer that for a
time. As I mentioned, most of us speak diplomatic."
"And this fragras will have a silly wife and a dozen bratlings, probably. And servants.
And secretaries and aides. All asking questions."
"Put them someplace remote, where they can't ask
many. Put them at Opal Hill." Eric named the site of the former Semling
embassy with some relish, repeating it. "Opal Hill."
"Opal Hill, hah! Farther than nowhere! All the
way across the swamp-forest to the southwest. That's why the people from Semling
left. It gets lonely at Opal Hill."
"So, the man from Sanctity will get lonely and
leave as well. But that will be his fault, not ours. Agreed? Yes?"
Evidently they were agreed. Figor waited for a time
to see if anyone had any second thoughts or if Gustave was going to explode
again, then rang for wine before leading his guests down into the grass
gardens. Now, in early fall, the gardens were at their best, the feathery seed
heads moving like dancers to the beat of the southern wind. Even Gustave would
mellow after an hour in the gardens. Come to think of it, Opal Hill had very
nice gardens as well, young but well designed. The Sanctified penitents
expiating their sins here on Grass by digging up ruins and designing
gardens—the ones who called themselves the Green Brothers—had spent
considerable care upon the Opal Hill gardens. Nothing had disturbed the gardens
since the people from Semling had left. Perhaps this ambassador person could be
interested in gardening. Or his wife, if he had a wife. Or the dozen bratlings.
Afar from Klive, deep among the grasses, Dimity bon
Damfels tried to exorcise the pain in her legs and back. Even after all those
hours on the simulator, all the pain she had experienced there, this was
different. This was intrusive, hateful, intimate.
"When you think the pain is unbearable,"
the riding instructor had said, "you can review the track of the Hunt in
your mind. Distract yourself. Above all, do not think of the pain itself."
So she distracted herself, reviewing how they had
come. They had ridden out along the Trail of Greens and Blues where the
patterned turf along the path went from deepest indigo through all shades of
turquoise and sapphire to dark forest green and bright emerald, upward to the
ridge where tall plumes of aquamarine watergrass undulated in ceaseless waves.
Beyond the ridge the watergrass filled a shallow basin dotted with islands of
sandgrass, the whole making such a marvelously lifelike seascape that it was
called the Ocean Garden. Dimity had once seen a picture of a real ocean when
she went with Rowena to Commoner Town to pick up some imported fabric. It had
been hanging on the fabric merchant's wall, a picture of a sea on Sanctity. She
remembered saying at the time how much the imaged expanse of water looked like
grass. Someone had laughed at this, saying it was the grass that looked like
water. How would one know which looked like which? In fact, they looked like
one another, were like one another, except that one could drown in water.
Musing on this, Dimity surprised herself with the
thought that one might almost drown in grass as well. One might wish to drown.
Her left knee was in agony. Little trails of fire crept from the knee upward
toward her groin. Distract yourself, she repeated mentally. Distract yourself.
At the end of the Trail of Greens and Blues, the
hounds had run silently into Thirty-shadows Forest, where giant black stems,
thick as her body, grew tall, clucking hollowly far above as they collided in
the small wind. Here velvet turfs were planted in mosslike clusters around
hillocks of stonegrass, and here the mounts had followed as the trail led
upward toward the Ruby Highlands.
On the Highlands the vistas were of amber and peach,
apricot and rose, with veins of deepest red threaded through the paler colors
to climax in bursts of skyrocketing bloodgrass, and here the trail turned aside
from the gardens to run off into the untended gramineae of the surrounding
veldt. It was tallgrass veldt, with nothing to see but the stems rushing by as
her mount forced his way through, nothing to hear but the rustle of the plumy
seed heads, nothing to think of but steeling herself against the blows of the
blades, keeping her head down so those blows fell on the padded cap and not on
her face.
Still, she could tell from the sun that they were
running north, and Dimity concentrated upon this. The seven remaining estancias
were separated from one another by at least an hour's air travel, and yet they
occupied only a small part of the surface of Grass. What did she know about the
land north of the Damfels estancia? There wasn't another estancia there. The
nearest estancia was that of the bon Laupmons, but it was a great distance to
the southeast. Directly east were the bon Haunsers. The Friary of the Green
Brothers was north, but some ways east of the bon Damfels estancia. There were
no other estancias to the north, no villages, nothing except more prairie and a
long, shallow valley where there were many copses. "Many copses means many
foxes," she quoted silently to herself. Undoubtedly they were riding
toward the valley.
The pain was suddenly there again, moving in her
other leg "Better than distraction," the riding master had said,
"is to let yourself fall into the rhythm of the ride and think of
nothing." She tried not fighting the pain, not distracting herself, just
going with it. "Above all, do not disturb the mount or attract the
attention of the hounds." She would not attract their attention. She would
just let it go, let it go, not thinking about anything.
On the simulator Dimity had never managed to think of
nothing, and she was surprised to find how much easier it was here. Almost as
though something was working inside her mind to wipe it clean. An eraser. Rub,
rub, rub. She started to shake her head in annoyance, not liking the feel of
it, remembering only just in time that one must not move, really must not move.
The intrusion in her mind scraped at her. Deliberately, she went back to
distraction, thinking of her newest ball gown, reviewing every flounce, each
embroidered leaf and blossom, and after a time the hurtful feeling inside her
head departed. "Ride," she said silently to herself. "Ride,
ride, ride." The repetition took the place of the emptiness, driving out
the ball gown, and she simply held on, moving as the mount moved, shutting her
eyes, not seeing anything else. Her backbone was a fused column of agony. Her
throat was dry. She wanted desperately to scream, and fighting down the scream
took all her strength.
Until suddenly they crested a long ridge and stopped.
Her eyes popped open, almost against her will, and she looked down into the
valley before them. It was not unlike the Ocean Garden, except that these waves
were of tall grass in shades of amber and dun while the islands were actual
trees, copses of trees, the only kinds of trees that existed on Grass. Swamp
trees, growing wherever springs of water came to the surface. Fox trees. Haven
for the toothed devils. Where they lived. Where they hid, when they weren't
slinking among the grasses, killing the foals.
"Never say 'foals' where the mounts can hear
you," the riding master had said. "That is our word. We merely assume
there are foals, though we have never seen any, so don't say it. In fact, never
say anything where the mounts can hear you."
So she was silent now, as all the riders were, their
speculations kept entirely to themselves. Dimity saw the faces of the other
riders, pale with concentration, unselfconsciously quiet. Dimity would not have
believed Emeraude could be this quiet if she had not seen it. Mummy probably
couldn't believe it at all. And Shevlok! How often did one see Shevlok without
an imported cigar in his mouth—only the best Shame tobacco would do for
Shevlok—or his mouth open telling someone something. Except when Father was
around, of course. When Stavenger was around, Shevlok was notable for sitting
in corners and not attracting attention to himself, notable, one might say, for
self-effacement.
As this Hunt was notable for quiet. Silent as the
earth-closets in midwinter, when no one else was there and the frost lay deep.
Dimity concentrated on breathing quietly. The eraser feeling was in her head
again, and she fought it off, thinking about what she would have for dinner
when the Hunt was over. Grass-hen fried in oil with imported spices on it. A
fruit salad. No. Too early for fresh fruit. A dried fruit pie. And then they
were off, down into the valley toward one of the dark copses, Dimity reminding
herself what the riding master had had to say about that. "The trees are
extraordinary," he had said. "It will be difficult not to gasp or
exclaim. You will do neither, of course. You will keep your mouth shut--You
will not crane your neck or stare about or shift your weight." Besides,
she had seen them on the simulator screens, a thousand hours' worth of them.
So she kept her mouth shut and her face front as the
black towers loomed around her, their leafy burden shutting out the sky, the
world suddenly full of the sound of water and of hooves moving in water, the
squish and slide of it, the smell of it filling her nostrils in a way quite
different from the smell of rain. This was not merely damp but sodden, a dank,
fecund smell. Dimity opened her mouth very quietly and breathed through it,
getting herself accustomed to the smell which made her want to sneeze or cough
or gasp--She felt the signal for the hounds, felt it without understanding it
until the hounds lunged away, scattering outward in all directions, noses to
earth. The sound of their scuffling scramble faded. There were historic words
to go with this, the riding master had said. "Into covert", her mind
said. "Into covert, my lads." As though anyone would really dare say
"my lads," to hounds!
Somewhere a grass peeper shrilled and shrilled again,
an arrhythmic pulse within the grove, repeating until it was almost but not
quite a pattern, then silencing until she thought it had stopped, only to
return once more. She caught a glimpse of a peeper out of the corner of her
eye, white and wriggly, squirming among the grass roots.
A hound bayed, a deep, bellowing aroo which made her heart falter as it went on and on.
Then another joined, half a tone above, the sound of the two like a knife in
her ears. Then all the pack, the tones of the voices lost in a vast cacophony, aroo
and aroo, unmelodious
and dissonant. The mounts screamed in answer and lunged deeper into the wood.
They had found the fox, started the fox, would pursue the fox. Dimity shut her
eyes and held on once more, biting her tongue, biting her cheeks, anything to
stay conscious and upright, anything at all. A thought came to her.
This is Darenfeld's Coppice, her mind told her.
Darenfeld's Coppice which lay, once upon a time, within the bounds of
Darenfeld's estancia. You are riding to hounds in Darenfeld's Coppice, where
your friend Janetta bon Maukerden died. Dimity's mouth opened to shout, and her
mind told her mouth to close itself once more. You will be still about it, she
told herself. No one really said Janetta died here. No one said that. No one
said anything except her name and then whispering, "Darenfeld's
Coppice." And when Dimity asked, they said shush, shush, don't say, don't
ask.
They know more than you do, she told herself. You
can't tell them anything they don't know already.
The hounds were baying as they raced away, and the
mount beneath her was dashing after them. She stayed on, eyes shut once more.
It was all she could do to hold on. To stay where she was. Not to fall off. To
be silent. To bear the pain. To go on with the Hunt.
The Hunt does go on. Time passes. The fox runs for
hours. The riders pursue it for hours. Dimity forgets who she is or where she
is. There is no yesterday, nor any tomorrow. There is only an everlasting now,
full of the pound of feet on the turf, the rustle of grasses as they push their
way through, the scream of the fox far ahead, the bay of the hounds. Hours
gone. Days, perhaps. Perhaps they have ridden for days. She would not know.
There is nothing to mark the passage of time. Thirst,
yes. Hunger, yes. Weariness, yes. Pain, yes. All of these have been there since
early in the morning: burning thirst, gnawing hunger, aching bones, deep-set as
a disease. Her mouth cannot be drier than it is, her stomach emptier. She
cannot hurt more than she hurts. And now, at last, she gives up fighting
against it. It will last forever. The thing in her head wipes out any concern
about that. Nothing measures time. No before. No after. Nothing, nothing. Until
the mount beneath her slows and stops and she unwillingly leaves the agonized
daze she has fallen into and opens her eyes.
They are standing at the edge of another copse,
moving slowly into it, into a grove, into the dusky cathedral shade of the
trees. High above them the foliage opens to allow the sun to pierce the gloom
in long radiant spears. One of them lights Stavenger where he stands upon his
mount with the harpoon in his hands, ready to throw. From the tree branches
above comes a scream of rage, then Stavenger's arm whips out and the line
streaks behind the harpoon like a thread of purest gold. A horrible scream
again, this time of agony.
A hound leaps high to seize the line in his teeth.
Other hounds as well. They have it. They are pulling the fox out of the tree,
still howling, still screaming, never silent for an instant. Something huge and
dark with glistening eyes and mighty fangs falls among them, and then there is
only the sound of screaming mixed with the sound of teeth.
Dimity closes her eyes again, too late not to see the
dark blood fountaining among the struggling bodies, and feels ... feels a
welling of pleasure so deeply intimate it makes her flush and draw her breath
in, makes her legs quiver where they bestride the body beneath her, makes her
whole body rock in a spasm of ecstatic sensation.
All around her other eyes are closed, other bodies
quiver. Except for Sylvan. Sylvan sits erect, eyes fixed on the bloody tumult
before him, teeth bared in a silent rage of defiance, his face quite blank. He
can see Dimity from where he is, see her body thrashing, her eyes closed. In
order not to see it, he turns his face away.
Dimity did not open her eyes again until they had
come all the way back to Klive and had left the Dark Forest to enter upon the
Trail of Greens and Blues, There the pain became too much to bear silently and
she moaned without thinking, only a tiny sound. One of the hounds looked back
at her, a great, violet-mottled hound, its eyes like flames. There was blood on
it, blood all over it, its own blood or the blood of the fox. She was conscious
in that moment that those same eyes had looked at her again and again during
the hunt, that those same eyes had looked at her even when the fox fell from
the tree into the middle of the pack, when she felt ... that.
She looked down at her hands clenched upon the reins
and did not raise her head again.
When they arrived at the Hunt Gate, she could not
dismount by herself. Sylvan had to help her. He was at her side so quickly that
she thought no one noticed how weak she was. No one but that same hound, his
red eyes gleaming in the gathering dusk. Then he went away, all the hounds went
away, the mounts went away, and the Huntsman sounded his horn softly at the
gate, crying, "The Hunt is over. We have returned. Let us come in."
From the balcony, Rowena heard the muted horn call.
It meant the creatures were gone and humans waited to be attended to. She
leaned across the balustrade, hands clutching one another, mouth open, as a
servant opened the Kennel Gate from inside and the weary hunters straggled
through: the Master and the members of the Hunt in their red coats, the women
in their black, their padded breeches making them look wide and froglike in the
gloom. White breeches were sweat-stained now, and the pristine purity of the
hunt ties had been sullied by dust and by chaff from the tall grasses. Male
servants waited with goblets of water and bits of grilled meat on skewers.
Baths were waiting, had been waiting for some hours, steaming from the heat of
their own little furnaces, and the hunters, hands full of meat and drink,
scattered toward their various rooms. Gasping, ready to cry out at last from
the fear she had fought during the long day, Rowena sought among the riders
until she found the slight figure of Diamante leaning on Sylvan's arm. Then the
tears spilled over and she sought a voice she had almost lost in the conviction
that Dimity had not returned.
"Dimity." Rowena leaned across the rail,
not wishing to be overheard by Stavenger or one of the other aristocratic old
guard. When the girl looked up, Rowena beckoned, and Sylvan nodded toward a
side door. Within a few minutes Dimity was in her mother's room and Salla was
greeting her with an exclamation of disgust.
"Dirty! Oh, you're filthy, girl--i Filthy. Like
a migerer mole creature. Covered all over. Take that coat off, and that tie.
I'll get your robe and you can take off the rest of this filthy stuff."
"I'm dirty but I'm all right, Salla," said
the girl, moon-pale, pushing weakly at Salla's busy hands.
"Dimity?"
"Mother."
"Give Salla your clothes, dear. Here, I'll help
you with your boots." There was a brief, grunting interlude as the high
black boots were tugged off. "You can have your bath in here while you
tell me about the Hunt." She moved through the luxurious bedroom,
beckoning, opening the door into the mosaic-tiled bath, where water had been
already drawn and kept steaming by its own fires. "You can use my bath
oil. You always liked that when you were tiny. Are you sore?"
Dimity tried to smile in response, failed. It was all
she could do to keep her hands from shaking as she stripped her underclothes
away, letting them fall in a pile on the bathroom floor. Only after she was
neck deep in steaming water did Rowena say again, "Tell me about it."
The girl murmured, "I don't know. Nothing
happened." The water was soaking away the pain. It hurt to move, and yet
in the warm soothe of the water it had become almost pleasure to feel that
ache, that deep, abiding agony of the bones. "Nothing happened."
Rowena stamped her foot, very softly, eyes bright
with tears. "Did you have any trouble mounting?"
"No. Not really."
"Had you ... had you seen the mount
before?"
Dimity opened her eyes, suddenly aware, looking at
her mother directly. "The mount? I think it's one I've seen before,
grazing maybe, out near the shortgrass field where Syl and I used to
play." Perhaps this meant something. She searched her mother's face, but
Rowena only nodded. When Rowena had first ridden, her mount, too, had been one she
had seen watching her when she was a child. "Where did you go?"
"I think we drew a copse in Darenfeld's ... in
the valley." Rowena nodded again, remembering dark trees towering,
shutting out the sky, the ground covered with small flowering mosses, a noise
of running water under the mosses, under the roots. Remembering Dimity's
friend, Shevlok's lover, Janetta.... "Did you start a fox?"
"Yes." She shut her eyes, unwilling to say
more. She didn't want to talk about it. She wanted to forget it. Next time she
would give in to the pain right away. Next time she wouldn't fight it Through
slitted lids she saw Rowena's face, still questioning, still demanding, wanting
more. Sighing, Dimity said, "The hounds went in. Pretty soon they were all
baying, and we went racing off. I seem to remember the hounds lost him three or
four times, but they got him each time again. Maybe I only made that up. He
just ran and ran forever, that's all. And then the hounds treed him away north
somewhere."
"Did you kill?"
"Stavenger did. Daddy. I mean, the Master did.
He only had to throw once. I couldn't see where the harpoon stuck, but they
pulled the fox out of the tree and the hounds got him." She flushed then,
deeply, the blood rising into her face in an unmistakable tide as she remembered
what had followed.
Rowena saw the flush, interpreted it correctly, and
turned aside in order not to confront what she saw there. Shame. Embarrassment.
Mortified pudicity. Rowena sought for something, anything to say other than ...
other than this. It had happened to her, too. It had always happened. She had
never mentioned it to another soul. She had not known until now whether it was
her guilty secret or a secret shared. "You didn't really see the fox,
then."
"I couldn't see anything except a blob in the
tree. Then eyes, and teeth, and then it was all over."
"Ah." Rowena sighed, the tears now
streaming, laughing at herself and her fears, shamed for Dimity's shame but
relieved just the same. "Mother! I'm all right. It's all right."
Rowena nodded, dabbing at her eyes. Of all the things
that might have gone wrong, none had. Dimity had mounted, had ridden, hadn't
fallen off, hadn't been attacked by the fox, hadn't done anything to upset the
hounds.
"Mother." Softly, moved by the tears,
offering something.
"Yes, Dimity-"
"There was this one hound that kept watching me,
all the time we were coming back. A kind of purplish mottled one. He just kept
looking at me and looking at me. Every time I looked down, there he was."
"You didn't stare!"
"Of course not. I know better. I didn't even
seem to notice, not that the hound could see. I just thought it was funny,
that's all."
Rowena argued with herself. Say too little? Say too
much? Say nothing? "Hounds are peculiar that way. Sometimes they watch us.
Sometimes they don't look at us. Sometimes they seem to be amused by us. You
know."
"I don't, really."
"Well, they need us, Dimity. They can't climb,
so they can't kill the fox unless we bring him down."
"They only need one man for that, somebody with
a strong arm to throw the harpoon."
"Oh, I think there's more to it than that. The
hounds seem to enjoy the Hunt. The ritual of it."
"When we were riding back, I kept wondering how
it ever got started. I know they ride to the hounds on Terra, back before
Sanctity, before we left. That was in my history book, with pictures of the
horses and dogs and the little furry thing—nothing like our fox at all. I
couldn't figure out why they should have wanted to kill it, even. With our
foxen, killing it is the only thing to do. But why do it this way?"
"One of the first settlers made friends with a
young mount and learned to ride him, that's all there is to it," Rowena
answered. "The settler taught some friends, and the young mount brought
along some more of its kind, and gradually we had a Hunt again."
"And the hounds?"
"I don't know. My grandfather told me once that
they were simply there one day, that's all. As though they knew we needed them
to have a proper Hunt. They always show up on the proper day at the proper
place, just like the mounts do...."
"If we call them hounds when they aren't really
hounds, how come we don't call the mounts horses?" Dimity asked, lying
back until her head was half submerged, contented now to say nothing much, to
talk, perhaps to have her mother wash her back.
Rowena was startled. "Oh, I don't think the
Hippae would like that, not at all."
"But they don't mind being called mounts?"
"But my dear, we never call them even that where
they can hear us. You know that. We never call them anything at all where they
can hear us."
"It makes your head feel funny," said
Dimity. "Doesn't it?"
"What?" asked Rowena, suddenly on her feet.
"What does?"
"Hunting. Doesn't it make your head feel
funny?"
Rowena said in a preoccupied tone, "It has a
kind of hypnotic effect. It would really be rather boring otherwise." She
put a folded towel within Dimity's reach, then left the room, closing the door
behind her to keep the steamy warmth within.
One of the hounds watching Dimity? She bit her lip,
frowned, acquired a suddenly haunted expression. She would have to speak to
Sylvan about that. Right now he would be closeted with Figor about that
Sanctity business, but perhaps he had noticed something. No one else would have
noticed anything, but perhaps Sylvan had. Or perhaps it had all been in
Dimity's mind. Weariness and hours of pain could do that.
Still it would be an odd thing to imagine. The hounds
had killed, so they should have been in a good mood. There was no reason for
one of them to have watched Dimity. There was no reason for Dimity even to have
imagined it. Surely no one had ever said anything to her, about Janetta ...
about that side of things
She would speak to Sylvan about it. As soon as she
could. As soon as this silly matter of the scientific mission was decided and
everyone could think about something else.
Grass.
Millions of square miles of prairie, with villages
and estancias, with hunters and the hunted, where the wind walks and the stars
shine on stalk and seed plume and where the sluglike peepers cry from the roots
all day and all night, except when certain things call deep in the star-specked
dark to make a stunning, eerie silence fall.
North, almost at the place where the shortgrass
country begins, are the ruins of a city of the Arbai, not unlike the many other
cities of the Arbai found among the settled worlds, except that here on Grass
the inhabitants died of violence. Among the ruins the Green Brothers are
intermittently occupied, digging trenches, listing artifacts, making copies of
the volumes in the Arbai library. The Brothers are penitents, it is said,
though no one else on Grass knows or cares what they are penitent about.
A little north of the dig, in the sprawling, vaulted
Friary, other Green Brothers keep busy in their gardens, busy with their pigs
and chickens, busy sky-crawling, busy walking out into grasses to preach to the
Hippae perhaps, or to the foxen, who knows? All of them, too, are penitents,
cast out of Sanctity to this far, lonely place. They were here, unwillingly,
when the aristocrats arrived. Some of them lament that they will still be here,
as unwillingly, when the aristocrats have gone.
And finally there is the port, and Commoner Town,
both of them set down in the one place on Grass where little grass grows, a
high, stone-based ridge surrounded by swamp forest—a long, slender ellipse, a
hundred square miles or so given over to shipping and warehouses and
hydroponic farms, to quarries and meadows and mines and all the other clutter
and cacophony of human life and human business. Commoner Town, where strangers
can come and go without bothering anyone, where foreigners can do their
incomprehensible and, as the bon Damfels do say, contemptible business.
And there is the port, where fat ships fall,
squatting on their fiery tails as they arrive from Shame and Semling and the
planet most call Sanctity until they are reminded that it is really named
Terra, the first home of man. Men and women are on Grass in many guises: transients
and merchants and craftsmen and ships' crews and preachers needing hotels and
warehouses, shops and brothels and churches. Children, too, with their playing
fields, and teachers with their schools. Occasionally a small group of
adventurous children or bored transients will leave the port or town behind
them and walk the mile or two down the long slope to the place where the ground
flattens out in marshy meadow. There is a kind of springiness in the mossy
growth there, a resilient dampness at first, which, if they go on, rapidly
turns to the kind of sogginess one might expect after days of rain. Walkers can
get a bit farther on that ground, feeling their feet squelch deeply into it,
though most draw back in fear that it will quake and give way, as indeed it
does in a little space, becoming so boggy that stubborn explorers have to leap
from tussock to tussock over braided streams gleaming in oily lights. There are
huge blue-leafed clume trees in this bog, and flowers blooming like pale
candles, and powder-winged moths the size and color of parrots and smelling of
incense, and there are huge homely frogs whose forebears came with the first
settlers long ago.
So much one can see on a casual walk from Commoner
Town— so much, but no more, because just beyond the clume trees the bog deepens
and the tussocks become jungly islets separated by twined rivers of dark water
full of twisted roots and things that go squirming into the slime with ominous
plopping sounds. There the trees have bluer leaves, and they grow taller the
farther one goes, shutting out the light. To go on into the forest one would
need a boat, a shallow skiff or punt with a long pole to push against the murky
depths below, or maybe a paddle to dip silently into that smooth dark water,
propelling one along the labyrinthine leafy halls.
Not that it hasn't been done. Some few heedless men
have built themselves vessels of greater or lesser water-worthiness to carry
them exploring; some few foolhardy commoner boys and maybe a girl or two have
made themselves boats to slip between the great buttressed trunks of the trees
and the reaching tentacles of vine and take themselves farther into the
glimmering shadows of the swamp forest. Not many. There might have been more,
except that of those who went in, a good many never came out. Grown men from
off-planet have tried it, too, doughty men and strong, but they have been lost
just as the boys and girls were lost.
And those who did come out again? What could they say
about it except that it was wet and dark and full of things slithering and that
it got wetter and darker and more slithery yet the farther one went? In fact,
they have said very little. It is almost as though they could not remember what
they might have seen, there in the dank depths of the swamp forest. As though
they had gone in and come out again by accident, while sleeping, having seen or
heard nothing at all.
And, after all, who cares? Who has any need to go in
there? Nothing comes out of the mire and the viny trees to do anyone harm, and
nothing has been seen in the swamp that anyone wants. From above, the great
trees look like the restless billows of a miles-wide gray-green sea. From afar,
they are a wall shutting Commoner Town inside and keeping the restless energies
of its tradesmen and craftsmen from erupting. From inside, they are a wall
against the inexorable grasses, keeping them at bay. North, south, east, and
west, all sides of the town are closed off by the swamp forest. No road in, no
road out, and the depths of the forest inviolable, the depths of its trees and
waters unknown and unseen, though so wide and ramified that —even though no one
has ever seen anything of the kind—everyone in Commoner Town believes there is
a something there that will emerge, someday, to the astonishment of them all.
3
The streets of St. Magdalen's were, as usual, deep in
mud. Marjorie Westriding Yrarier had to leave her hover at the hamlet gate,
next to the population post, and go slogging through mire which came almost to
her ankles as she went past the chapel and the soup kitchen to the hovel that
had been assigned to Bellalou Benice and her children. One child now: Lily
Anne. The two legal children had publicly repudiated their mother a month ago,
so they were well out of it. The phrase set up an ugly resonance, and Marjorie
flushed, angry at herself for being angry at the two almost adult Benices.
"Well out of it" was accurate, and Bellalou herself had probably
encouraged her offspring to execute the demeaning ceremony as soon as both were
old enough. On Terra, both the planetary and most of the provincial governments
claimed a Judeo-Christian heritage, but "honor thy father and thy
mother" had no meaning for illegals or for their parents.
At the hovel Marjorie set her pack on the stoop while
she scraped her boots on the step edge, kicking the gluey clods off into the
morass. There was no excuse for this. It would take less money to pave the
streets than it took to lay temporary sidewalks during the quarterly
visitations by the board, but Marjorie was a minority voice on the Board of
Governors, which had a "no frills" policy vis-a-vis its charitable
endeavor. Most of the board members made their decisions about Breedertown
without ever seeing the place or any of the people in it. Not that they didn't
coo and flutter around Marjorie for being so "dedicated," so
"brave." She had taken considerable satisfaction in that, once. Some
time ago. Before she knew as much as she knew now.
The hovel door opened a crack, disclosing Bellalou's
swollen face. Someone had hit her again. Not her putative husband. He'd been
shot last year for illegal procreation.
"Ma'am," said Bellalou.
"Good morning. Bellalou." Marjorie smiled
her visitation smile, carefully not patronizing. "How's Lily?"
"Fine," the woman said. "She's
fine."
Lily Anne was not fine, of course. When Marjorie came
into the slovenly room, the illegal glared at her out of a sullen face as
bruised as her mother's. "You checkin' up on me agin."
"Trying to keep you alive until the ship goes,
Lily."
"Maybe I'd rather be dead, you ever think of
that?"
Marjorie nodded soberly. Oh, indeed. She had thought
of that. Maybe Lily would rather be dead. Maybe most illegal people would
rather be dead than shipped away to Repentance, where two thirds of them would
die before they were thirty anyhow. Though Marjorie had undertaken this work
out of the religious conviction that life at any price was worth living, that
was before she had seen certain documentaries, read certain exposes. Even she
was no longer sure Repentance was preferable to simple death.
"You don' mean that, Lily," Bellalou
remonstrated.
"Fuck I don't."
Marjorie intervened, trying to convince herself as
much as the girl. "Look at it this way, Lily. You can have all the babies
you want on Repentance." That, at least, was true. Population was as much
needed on Repentance as it was now rigidly controlled here on Terra. Babies
born on Repentance would be citizens of that planet.
"Don't want babies there. Want my baby you
took." It was the most recent plaint, since the abortion Marjorie had
arranged, risking her own freedom and possibly her marriage in the process.
Neither Rigo nor the local law would have looked kindly on that particular act
of charity. Marjorie's confessor, Father Sandoval, wouldn't have been precisely
cheery about it, either, had he known. Taking another step down a path she had
prayed was not irreversible, Marjorie hadn't told him.
"Lady Wesriding din take your baby, Lily. If you
din have that abortion you'duh been shot by the pop'lation as soon as you
showed, you know that." Bellalou looked pleadingly at her daughter.
"Illegals can't do that." Only third and subsequent living children
were actually illegal. Though Bellalou herself was not an illegal, her status
made little difference. As the parent of one she had been stripped of her civil
rights. She went on, as though to claim a future joy for her daughter,
"It'll be better on Repentance."
"Don't want Repentance. Rather be shot,"
the girl cried.
Neither Marjorie nor Bellalou contradicted her.
Marjorie found herself wondering why she simply hadn't let it happen. Poor
little beast. Ignorant as a chicken. Half her teeth were falling out already
and she couldn't read or write. No one was allowed to teach illegals anything
or give them medical care. On her sixteenth birthday, Lily would be taken to
the port to join a mob of other young illegals destined to live and die on the
colony planet, and if it hadn't been for the recent abortion and the implant of
a very illicit five-year contraceptive device, the poor little cow wouldn't
have lasted until deportation. Planetary law said any illegal who came up
pregnant got shot, along with whatever male illegal or de-righted person she
claimed was responsible—if she cared to claim, which a surprising number of
them did. Such claims made against certain respectable men, however, had caused
some changes in the law. Now, only women served as guards in Breedertown. Only
women were on the visitation committee.
"You get to have kids," Lily whined.
"You rich people!"
"Two children," Marjorie said. "Only
two, Lily. If I had a third child, it would be illegal, just like you. They'd
take away my rights, just like they did your mother's. They'd make my older
children repudiate me, just like your brother and sister did to Bellalou."
She said it all wearily, not believing it. Rich people didn't get in that kind
of mess. They never had. Only the poor got trapped: by ignorance, by religion,
by self-righteous laws passed by people who broke them with impunity. Marjorie
herself had an implant, imported from the Humanist Enclave on the coast.
Another thing she hadn't told Father Sandoval. She hadn't told Rigo, either,
but surely he suspected. Probably his mistress had one as well.
She brushed the wrinkles out of her trousers as she
rose. "I brought some clothes for you to wear on the ship," she told
the girl. "And some things you'll need on Repentance." She handed the
package to Bellalou. "Lily will need these things, Bellalou. Don't let her
trade them for euphies, please." Despite all efforts to keep them out,
dealers in euphoriacs managed to do a good business in St. Magdalen's.
"Gimme," whined Lily, snatching at the
package.
"Later," said her mother. "Later on,
honey. I'll give it to you later on."
Her business with Bellalou finished, Marjorie
returned to the clammy air and the mud, glad that one visit was over, not eager
to go on to the half dozen other hovels she had scheduled for today. There was
so little she could do. Food for hungry children. A few antiseptics and
painkillers that weren't considered really "medical." The local
province was populated largely by the Sanctified, which meant there were
provincial laws against both contraception and abortion. Stack that up against
the planetary population laws against more than two living children per mother
and what did you get? St. Magdalen's Town. Breedertown. A charitable foundation
set up by rich Old Catholics to shelter the unfortunate and unwise who followed
either their inclination or their religion. As head of the Visitation
Committee, Marjorie saw more of the place than most. Hands smoothing her
disordered hair, she corrected herself: She saw more of it than any of them.
They had been quick to admire her for her dedication but damned slow to emulate
it.
All of which merely increased her doubts The chairmen
before her had been chairmen in name only, or they had been women no wealthier
than Marjorie who hired others to do the visitations for them. Why did she
insist on doing this herself?
"You've got visions of yourself as a
saint," Rigo had sneered. "Being an Olympic gold medalist wasn't
enough for you? Being my wife isn't enough? You also have to be Saint Marjorie,
sacrificing herself for the poor?"
That had stung, though it hadn't been true, not
really. The gold medal had been long ago before they were married. Young
Marjorie Westriding had been a medalist. yes, but a lot of subjective opinion
on the part of judges and officials went into deciding who got medal: One might
take a great deal of pride without being at all certain of one's personal
merit, at least so Marjorie had tried to explain to an unsympathetic Rigo, who
barked laughter, pretended to disbelieve her even as he seized her in a
passionate embrace. The truthful answer to his question would have been, no;
the gold medal wasn't enough. Besides, it was a long time ago. She needed
something comparable now, something uniquely her own, some perfect achievement.
At one time she had thought it might be her family, her children, but seemingly
that wasn't how it worked out...
So she had tried this, and this wasn't working
either. Gritting her teeth, she stepped down into the mud and started for the
next hovel. When she returned to the hover some hours later she was tired and
filthy and sunk deep in depression. One of "her" girls had been
executed that week by a population patrol. Two children in one family seemed to
be dying, probably from something contagious which could have been prevented if
immunizations were allowed for illegals, which they weren't. A thousand years
ago the population of Breedertown could have been shipped off to Australia. A
few hundred years ago, they might have been allowed to emigrate to wild colony
planets. But with Sanctity meddling and threatening whenever people tried to
spread out, there was no real colonization anymore. There wasn't anyplace to
send excess people except Repentance, if they stayed alive long enough to get
there.
But Repentance really could be worse than the
alternative. Now that Marjorie had decided that was true, it seemed rather
pointless to go on. So long as Sanctity ruled, there was no legal way to do
anything significant. Every week there would be a new girl pregnant or about to
be, on and on, forever. If Marjorie spent everything she had, money and blood,
it would do no lasting good. Did it matter whether any of them individually
escaped from Terra? Lily? Bets, from last month? Dephine, from the month before
that? If one didn't get there, someone else would. What kind of life would they
have, the ones who got there? Mired in ignorance and resentment, probably dying
young...
Marjorie gritted her teeth, forbidding herself to
cry. She could quit, of course. There were dozens of excuses she could give the
board, all of them acceptable. But she had taken on this duty, and it would be
sinful, surely, just to lay it down...
She shook her head violently, sending the hover into
a sickening lurch. The blare of a warning siren from the console brought her
back to herself. It would be better to think of something else. Of the
children: Tony's aspirations. Stella's tantrums. She would think of anything
else, even of Rigo and his mistress. Mistresses. Plural. Sequential.
The car slid across the boundary of the estate from
the hoverway, and she lifted a hand to the head groom as she passed the
stables, praying that Rigo wasn't home to fight with her about where she had
been, what she had been doing. She was too tired and depressed to argue. She'd
wanted to do something significant, an achievement, some fine gesture, and
she'd failed, that's all. It hadn't been an unworthy desire, not one Rigo
should challenge her about, insisting that she explain why, why, why.
Especially now that she wasn't sure any longer.
Perhaps Rigo had been right in the first place. Perhaps
she really had wanted to be a saint. And if that were true?
Wry laughter seized her; tears squeezed from her eyes
as she parked the hover and sagged against the seat, wondering how one went
about being a saint these days. She started to wipe her face and compose
herself, remembering all at once that she didn't need to pretend composure,
didn't need to pretend certainty, didn't need to pretend anything. This time,
at least, she would not have to explain herself to Rigo. He would not be home
until evening. This was the day Roderigo Yrarier, faithful Old Catholic and
staunch son of the Church, had done the unthinkable. He had answered a summons
to Sanctity.
One hundred golden angels stand on the tower spires
of Sanctity, wings wide, trumpets lifted, lit by internal fires which make them
shine like a century of suns. Sanctity's crystal towers mass against one
another in a lofty and breathtaking bonfire of glittering surfaces against the
dark of an empty sky. Both day and night they are a lighthouse, a guide—so
Sanctity says—to the great diaspora of humanity clustered on the nearest
possible worlds out there in the darkling seas of space.
They are also a beacon for tourships which hang in
swarms the requisite fifty kilometers away, viewports clustered with
spectators. The ships are allowed no closer for fear of some unspecified
disaster.
They may come only near enough for the tourists to
make out the huge angels on the summits of the towers and read the linked words
picked out in mirrors and lights upon the highest walls.
Sanctity. Unity. Immortality.
Though it is impossible to see anything in detail
from that distance with the naked eye, Sanctity is never observed at closer
range. To all the worlds Sanctity stands forever upon the Terran horizon,
perceivable yet remote, holy and unapproachable, fully accessible only to its
chosen ones: the Hierophants, the servitors, the acolytes. If there is reason
for a male outsider to come inside (women may not come at all), he must first
obtain the proper papers. Then he must use those papers, after proving he is
indeed male, to gain access to the well-guarded terminus far out in the
surrounding countryside, if satisfied, the guards will allow him to enter a
conveyance which will take him through silent tunnels to a reception area a
respectful distance from Sanctity's protected heart.
That heart would be the subterranean quarters of the
Hierarch himself, far below the angel-spiked towers and protected by half a
mile of earth and stone from all possible harm. The Hierophants of exalted
degrees occupy apartments nearby. The machines are above that, and then the
chapels, and only then the terminus and reception area. In the lowest rooms of
the towers are the suites of the servitors and clergy of moderate status. The
farther up one is assigned to live, the lower down the organizational ladder
one finds himself, or such is the conventional wisdom. The higher up, the
longer it takes one to get down to the chapels and the tunnels where the ritual
work of Sanctity is conducted. The higher up one lives, the less valued one is.
At the top, communing with the clouds, are the eager converts with too little
intellect to be good for anything much; the old, their anonymity fading into
forgetfulness; the pledged acolytes, serving out their unwilling terms.
And it is there, in the highest floor of the highest
tower, that Rillibee Chime spends his undutied hours, squatting in purported
meditation in cloud-surrounded silence, sprawling through papery, celibate
nights on his narrow bed, untinted by happy dream. It is here he rises in the
morning and washes himself, here he dons his soft slippers, here he puts on a
clean, colorless suit with its tight, anonymous hood and touches his face with
powder to remove any unseemly color. As he does this, he watches birds going by
in long, purposeful V-shaped lines, headed southward toward the warm lands,
toward Rillibee's home. Sanctity is set upon the edge of the waste, both to
separate itself from the humdrum daily affairs of the world and to avoid taking
up room which nature needs for other things. Behind the glittering towers lie
the arctic tundra and the ice and a cold uninterrupted for many centuries.
Though cold has no meaning in Sanctity. Within the
towers the temperature never changes. Rain does not fall, nor snow intrude upon
these quiet corridors. Nothing grows. Nothing is acknowledged to die. If
Rillibee were to fall seriously ill, he would be spirited away and another
acolyte would occupy his room, do his work, attend to his services. No one would
care that one had gone and another had come. A message might be sent to his
parents or guardians, if he had any such, but that is the only notice that
would be taken. Though doctrine teaches that the immortality of the person is
the sole reason for Sanctity's edificial existence, there is no personality
allowed in its service—at least not at Rillibee's level. There are few names
known in Sanctity: the Hierarch, Carlos Yrarier; the division chief for Missions,
Sender O'Neil; the name of the Hierarch Elect. Rillibee's name will never be
among them.
Sometimes he says his name to himself, over and over,
silently, reminding himself who he is, clinging to himself, the self he had
known, the self with memories and a past and people he loved once. Sometimes he
stares out at a neighboring tower, trying to see through the sparkling surface
to any person there, to someone else, someone with another name, fighting down
the cries that threaten to break loose in his rigid throat.
"I am Rillibee Chime," he whispers to
himself. "Born among the cactus of the deserts. Companion of birds and
lizards." He summons up the memory of birds, lizards, of the lines of
ducks overhead, of flat corncakes cooked on a hot griddle, the taste of savory
beans, the memory of Miriam, Joshua, Songbird as they were, once, long ago.
"Two more years," he whispers to himself. "Two more years."
Two more years of his term of service. Not that he
had been pledged by his parents as the sons of the Sanctified were pledged. Not
that he had been promised in order for his mother to receive permission to bear
a son. It was only among the Sanctified that women had to pledge their boy
children to years of service in Sanctity itself, and Rillibee's people had not
been Sanctified. No, Rillibee had been taken, taken in, adopted, assigned to
service because there had been no one left to keep the grasping minions of
Sanctity at bay.
Two more years, Rillibee says to himself, if he can
last that long. And if he cannot? Sometimes he asks himself that question,
fearing what the answer is. What happens to those who cannot last out their
terms? What happens to those who cannot choke the screams down, who gibber or
shout or curse, as he wants to curse ... ?
"Damn," the parrot had said, long ago,
making Miriam laugh. "Damn. Shit."
"Damn," Rillibee whispers now.
"Let me die," the parrot had said. No one
had laughed then.
"Let me die," Rillibee agrees, hands
outstretched to the glowing six-winged seraphim on the towers.
Nothing happens. The angels, though constantly
solicited, do not strike him down.
Each day he goes out of his cubicle to the drop chute
and stands looking at it for a moment, wondering if he has the courage to leap
into it. When he first came to Sanctity he was pushed into it, pushed into it
time after time, feeling himself falling forever while his skin crawled and his
stomach fought to get out through his nose. Ten years now, and he still screams
mentally each time he thinks of dropping into the chute. He has found an
acceptable alternative. Inside the bottomless well of the chutes are fat metal
staple-shaped rungs, set there for men to climb upon when the chutes must be
cleaned or repaired. A thousand feet down. A thousand feet up. Rillibee climbs
them twice each day, rising early to be sure he has time.
After the climb, mess hall. He has come to mess hall
for ten years now, every day since he was twelve, but he still fights down the
urge to cough at the smell of breakfast. Mess hall. Full of the forever stink
of nasty-tasting stuff. He does not stay to eat.
He goes climbing, down once more to duty hall,
searching out his number from among a thousand others on the lighted board.
RC-15-18809. Clerical duties for the Hierarch. Cleric-all required. Guide duty.
Level three minus, Room 409, 1000 hours.
The Hierarch. Strange that they should appoint
someone so young and uncommitted as Rillibee to attend the Hierarch. Or,
perhaps, not strange. So far as Sanctity is concerned, he is merely a part,
interchangeable with any other part. It takes no commitment to guide a visitor
or operate a cleric-all.
His body will not be required for two hours. Time to
do something. Time to go to Supply and check out a cleric-all. Time to go up to
commissary level and buy something to eat that tastes like real food. Time to
go to the library and pick out something for recreation. He is afraid to go
where people are. Cries of loneliness and frustration are too close to the
roots of his tongue He swallows, trying to drive them down, but they stay
there, rough greasy lumps of unswallowed and habitual grief.
Better to go where almost no one goes. One more climb
down to chapel level and a slow walk along the corridor, passing chapel after
chapel, hearing the mosquito whine of the speakers over each altar. Picking a
chapel at random, Rillibee goes in and sits down, putting on the earphones
which slow the mosquito whine to an understandable speed. A ponderous bass
voice is chanting. "Artemus Jones. Favorella Biskop. Janice
Pittorney." Rillibee slips the earphones off and watches the altar instead.
Each day an elder sits behind the altar, waiting for
the anonymous acolyte to present a list of new enrollees. The elder nods his
head and the acolyte begins, "On the world of Semling, a womanchild born
to Martha and Henry Spike who has been named Alevia Spike. On Victory, a
boychild born to Brown Brittle and Hard Lost Blue who has been named Broken
Sound. On Repentance, a boychild to Domal and Susan Crasmere who has been named
Domal Vincente II."
To each such intelligence the elder bows low,
intoning words made nonsensical by overuse, words none of them in the towers
hear any longer. "Sanctity. Unity. Immortality." Meaning doesn't
matter. The mere utterance of these words opens the holy door. The mere
syllabic mutter enters the name into the rolls of humanity. When the words have
been intoned, the robed acolyte holds his forms and tissue samples for a moment
in the sacred smoke before thrusting them into slots where they plunge down
slanted surfaces of polished stone into a place this acolyte, like most
short-term acolytes, will never see. There the name is put into the files and
the cell sample is put into the tissue banks, both making an immortal place in
the holy history for little red-wrinkled Alevia, for screaming infant Broke,
for drowsy Dom.
Rillibee has been down in the clucking depths once or
twice on records duty. The genealogy machines are down there, muttering to
themselves as they assign numbers and make note of the genetic information in
the cell samples, information which will serve, should the occasion arise, to
resurrect the body of Alevia or Broke or Dom or this one or that one or anyone
who has ever lived, uniquely himself or herself, distinguishable from all their
human brethren alive or dead, emerging newborn from the clone machines. In body
only, of course. No one has found a way yet to record memory or personality.
Still, better body than nothing, so the Sanctified say as they drop their
samples down. If the body lives, it will accumulate memory, and in time there
will be a new creation not unlike the old. Who is to say the new Alevia will
not, on strange occasions and with a sense of deja vu, relive her former life?
Who is to say that Dom will not look into the mirror and see there the ghost of
a former self?
In the depths of Sanctity is the name of every man
and woman who has ever lived in all of human history. Those for whom no written
history could be found have been extrapolated by the humming machines back to
the edge of the time when there was no mankind. There are men and women in the
machines with names no historic person ever knew, names in languages that were
spoken at the dawn of time. Never mind that no one alive can speak the language
of Homo habilis; the machines know what it was and the names of those who spoke
it. Adam, just down from the trees, is on the list, and Eve, scratching her
butt with a splay-thumbed hand. Their genotypes are there as well, designed by
the machines and assigned appropriate DNA sequences. Every person ever alive is
there, in Sanctity/Unity/Immortality.
And all of it, every machine, every entry, every
sample, all of it is guarded. There are guards everywhere, watching, noticing,
reporting. Watching for those who may not conform to the ideal of S/U/I. Watching
for acolytes who fall apart into gibbering madness. Watching for Moldies,
members of that sect that has wearied of troublesome life and desires only the
end, the ultimate destruction of Sanctity, of Terra, of a hundred worlds, of
life itself—the end of all those men and women on the eternal list.
Every day, in each of a thousand chapels, parts of
the list are read by the machines, read aloud, dawn to dusk, dusk to dawn. When
the list has been read in its entirety, the machines start over. The mosquito
whine of the reading has no end as it rehearses all of humanity from father
Adam to little Dom, over and over again.
As it goes on Rillibee sits staring at the elder,
half listening to the names put forward by the acolyte, lifting the mechanism
back to his ear as the machine recitation goes on. "Violet Wilberforce.
Nick En Ching. Herbard Guston." Everyone else who has ever lived, but not
Rillibee Chime. He has never heard his name in that mechanical voice. Perhaps
he will not be enrolled until he has completed his twelve years and gone. The
earpieces are thick with dust. It has been a long time since anyone has come
there to listen, a long time since anyone has cared about the litany.
In a little while he will pick up the cleric-all and
report for duty to Room 409, level three minus. In a moment. For now, he will
sit here very quietly, choking down his loneliness as he says Rillibee
Chime to himself, carefully listening to the
sound of it, words spoken aloud in a human voice in this empty hell where no
one speaks his name.
As Rigo Yrarier stepped out of the conveyance pod in
the reception area deep underground, he was not entirely surprised to find his
skin crawling with superstitious revulsion. He hadn't wanted to come here.
Uncle Carlos had sent a message begging him to come. Uncle Carlos, the family
scandal. Carlos, a skeleton in the confessional, as it were. Apostate Uncle
Carlos, long ago lapsed from the Old Catholic religion of his birth and now
Hierarch of all this ... this. Rigo
looked around himself trying to define this. This hive. This unholy ant's nest. Outside the glass room in which he
stood, identically suited and powdered figures scurried like so many anonymous
insects.
Rigo had not wanted to come, not even on a mission of
mercy, which is what Uncle Carlos had called it in his message. Missions of
mercy were Marjorie's business, not Rigo's, and he was not even sympathetic
with hers. Useless, all of it. One could not save people who were too stupid to
save themselves, and the same thing applied to Sanctity, so far as Rigo was
concerned. Then, surprisingly, Father Sandoval had urged Rigo to answer the
plea. No doubt Father had reasons of his own. He would probably want a report;
he would want to know all about Sanctity, what it looked like, what went on
there. Old Catholic clergy were allowed to take tours of Sanctity about as
often as Old Catholic clergy allowed the devil to assist at mass.
The superstitious revulsion Rigo felt was only part
of his reluctance. There was a good deal of anger and hostility in him as well,
which he recognized and tried to guard against showing as he looked about for
someone who would tell him where to go next. The ghostly aspect of the suited
and powdered nonentity who came through the hissing door and bowed in greeting
did nothing to alleviate Rigo's sense that something was crawling on him.
Neither did the long walk as he followed his guide down ramified corridors,
past chapel after chapel, all of them empty, all of them buzzing with the
shrill telling of names, endless lists of names.
It would be better, he thought, if they invented
machines to listen as well as machines to speak, or simply let one machine
rehearse the names quietly and eternally to itself. As much would be achieved,
certainly, without this mosquito howl which made his skin itch and his head
hurt. His own name was undoubtedly in that noise somewhere. His own and
Marjorie's and the children's. There was no escaping it, even though their
families had filed the exemption forms saying they were of another faith, did
not wish to be listed in Sanctity, did not wish their children to be listed,
did not believe in the mechanical immortality and the hope of physical
resurrection which was the best Sanctity could offer. Despite his father's
passionate outbursts against Sanctity's arrogance and its pretensions, despite
his mother's hysteria and Father Sandoval's gentle resentment, Sanctity would
have done as it pleased. Everyone knew the exemption forms were a travesty.
Filing them was merely a signal for one of the Sanctified missionaries to track
the exempted ones down, to haunt them until the missionary could obtain a few
living cells. Any crowded street or walkway would do. A quick punch was all it
took. Like a pinch, a nip, a needle touch. They were like rats, those
missionaries, a secret multitude, sneaking and prodding, bringing names and
tissue samples here to become part of this … this.
This. Sanctity/Unity/lmmortality. The words were on
all sides of him, engraved in the floors, set into the walls, cast into the
surfaces of doorknobs. Where there was not room for the words, the initial
letters pocked every surface, S/U/I, S/U/1, S/U/l.
"Blasphemous fiction," Rigo muttered to
himself, quoting Father Sandoval. He tried to take shorter steps so that he
would not tread on the heels of his guide, wishing with every step that he
hadn't come. Not for Uncle Carlos. Carlos the traitor. Bad enough he had been a
heretic without having become Hierarch, a source of embarrassment for all Old
Catholics everywhere.
The hooded escort stopped, gave Rigo a quick look as
though to see if he was properly dressed, then knocked at a deeply recessed
door before opening it and gesturing for Rigo to enter. It was a small,
featureless room furnished with three chairs. The hooded acolyte came in to
perch on one of them, anonymous as a new nail, fingers poised over a
cleric-all. In another chair, one set apart near a slightly open door, an old
man huddled, a waking corpse with dull, deep-sunk eyes. His bandaged hands
shook and his voice quavered.
"Rigo?"
"Uncle?" Rigo asked, not sure. He had not
seen the old man for decades. "Uncle Carlos?" There was a stench in
the room, like a closed attic where something had died.
The shaking moved from arms to head, and Rigo
interpreted this as a nod. The hand motioned slightly toward the empty chair,
and Rigo sat down. He saw death before him, death too long delayed.
Despite himself, he felt pity. The acolyte on the
other chair was preparing to take notes, already keying his cleric-all to
record and transcribe.
"My boy," came the whisper. "We're
asking you to do something. To go on a journey. For a time. It is important. It
is a family matter, Rigo." He leaned back in the chair, coughing weakly.
"Uncle!" Damned if he would call him Hierarch.
"You know we are not among the
Sanctified...."
"I am not asking that you do it for Sanctity,
Rigo. I am asking for family. For your family. All families. I am dying. I am
not important. We are all dying—" He was shaken by a paroxysm.
The door opened and two robed attendants boiled in,
offering a cup, half snarling at one another in their eagerness to help.
Rigo reached out a hand. "Uncle!"
He received glares from fanatical faces, his hand was
slapped away.
The aged man beat at them weakly. "Leave me,
leave me, fools. Leave me," until they bubbled away from him and departed,
reluctantly. "No strength to explain," he murmured, eyes almost
closed, "O'Neil will explain. Ass. Not you. O'Neil. Ass. Don't write that
down," this to the acolyte. "Take him to O'Neil." He turned to
his nephew once again. "Please, Rigo."
"Uncle!"
The man drew himself together and fixed Rigo with a
death's-head glare. "I know you don't believe in Sanctity. But you believe
in God, Rigo. Please, Rigo. You must go. You and your wife and your children.
All of you, Rigo. For mankind. Because of the horses." He began to cough
once more.
This time the weak coughing did not stop, and the
servitors came back with officious strength to bear the old man away. Rigo was
left sitting there, staring at the powdered, anonymous figure across from him.
After a moment, the acolyte put the strap of the cleric-all over his shoulder
and beckoned for Rigo to follow him out. He led the way down a twisting hall to
a wider corridor.
"What's your name?" Rigo had asked.
The acolyte's voice was hollow, inattentive. "We
don't have—"
"I don't care about that. What's your
name?"
"Rillibee Chime." The words fell softly
into quiet, like rainwater into a pool.
"Is he dying?"
A moment's pause. Then, softly, as though to answer
was difficult or forbidden. "The whispers say he is."
"What is it?"
"Everyone says … plague." The last word
came as bile comes, choking. The anonymous face turned away. The anonymous
person panted. It had been a hard word to say. It meant an end to time. It
meant two years might not be long enough for him to get out of this place.
It was also a hard word to hear.
"Plague!" It came out of Rigo's belly like
a grunt.
These days the word meant only one thing. A slow
virus of the most insidious type and hideous aspect. A slow virus which emerged
at last to make the body devour itself as in a spasm of biological self-hatred.
Father Sandoval had insisted on showing Rigo a banned documentary made by a
fellow priest, now dead, at an aid station where plague victims were treated
and given whatever rites would comfort them. There had been bodies on all the
cots, some of them still living. Rigo's eyes had slid across the picture,
observing it without wanting to see it. The cube had made him see it. It had
included sound and smell, and he had recoiled from the stench as he tried to
shut out the guttural, agonized coughs, the mutilated bodies, the eyes sunk so
deep they made the faces seem skull-like.
"Plague," he muttered again. The rumor was
that it had moved from planet to planet, lying dormant for decades, only to
emerge at last in place after place, giving no hint of its origin, subverting
every attempt to stay it. The rumor was that science had proved helpless, able
to isolate the monster but utterly incapable of stopping it once it had invaded
a human host. The rumor had been circulating for over twenty years. If there
really was plague, by now the victims must be numbered in the billions. So said
rumor and rumor only, for Sanctity denied that there was plague, and what
Sanctity denied, the human worlds denied—by and large.
"You mean my uncle?" Roderigo demanded.
"I didn't know he was your uncle until today.
The Hierarch." The acolyte turned to stare at him with suddenly human
eyes. "I'm not supposed to say anything to you, sir. Please, don't tell
them I did. Here are the rooms of the division chief for Missions, sir. If you
have questions, you must ask the division chief. You must ask Sender
O'Neil."
The acolyte turned away, losing himself in the stream
of anonymous acolytes, only at the turn of the corridor turning back to stare
at Roderigo Yrarier, who still stood there before the door, his eyes down, an
expression of loathing on his face.
"That acolyte should be disciplined," said
a watcher. "Look at him, standing there, staring." The watcher
himself was staring nearsightedly through the crack of a very slightly opened
door, his age-spotted hand trembling on the wall beside it.
"He's only curious," said his companion
from over his shoulder. "How often do you think he gets to see anyone
except the Sanctified. Shut the door. Did you understand what the old man said,
Mailers?"
"The Hierarch? He said his nephew had a chance
of finding what we need because of the horses."
"And do you think Yrarier will succeed?"
"Well, Cory, he has a fine dramatic look to him,
doesn't he? All that black hair and white skin and red, red lips. I suppose he
has as good a chance as anyone."
The man addressed as Cory made a face. He, himself,
had never been dramatic-looking, and he often regretted that fact. Now he
looked simply old, with wispy hair frilling his ears and spiderwebs of wrinkles
around his eyes. "He looks more dramatic than clever, but I hope he
succeeds. We need him to succeed, Hallers. We need it."
"You don't need to tell me that, Cory. If we
don't get a cure soon, we're dead. Everyone."
There was a pause. Hallers turned to see his lifelong
companion staring at the floor, a thoughtful expression on his face. "Even
if we get it very soon, I think it will be better if we let the dying go on,
some places."
Hallers moved uncertainly toward his companion, his
expression confused. "I don't understand what you mean."
"Well, Hallers, suppose we get the cure
tomorrow. Why should we save everyone? Our own best people, of course, but why
bother with everyone else? Why bother with some of the worlds, for
example?"
Silence in the room while Hallers stared and Cory
Strange watched for his reaction. Shock at first. Well, when Cory had first had
the idea, he had been shocked at it too But then Cory had realized what it
could do for Sanctity....
"You'd let them die? Whole worlds of men?"
The other shrugged elaborately, wincing as the shrug
started a sudden pain in one arthritic shoulder. "In the long run, I think
it would be best for Sanctity, don't you? Mankind is too widespread already.
Sanctity has done what it can to stop exploration, but it does go on. A group
here, a group there, sneaking out. Little frontier worlds, here and there. And
what happens? A place like Shame, for example, where we can't even get a decent
foothold! No, men are spread far too widely for us to control well."
"That's certainly the current view of the
Council of Elders, I agree, but—"
"In any case," the other interrupted,
"we need to keep an eye on Yrarier so we know what he's up to. Didn't you
tell me that Nods had been assigned to Grass? Head of Acceptable Doctrine with
the penitents there, didn't you say? Or did someone else tell me?"
"It must have been someone else. You mean our
old friend Noddingale?"
"Him, yes. Though he's adopted one of those
strange Green Brother names. Jhamlees. Jhamlees Zoe."
"Jhamlees Zoe?" The other laughed
breathlessly. "Don't laugh. The Brothers are quite serious about their
religious names. Stay a moment while I write a note. Have one of your youngsters
pack it into something innocent-looking, cover it with a code note and a
destruct-wrap, and send it on the ship that takes Yrarier." He sat at his
desk and began to write, "My dear old friend Nods ..." his hand
forming the letters with some difficulty.
His equally ancient friend, leaning over his
shoulder, interrupted him by venturing curiously, "The old Hierarch will
be dead within hours everyone says. Will the new Hierarch feel the same way
about this business, Cory? About consolidating and letting some of the worlds
just ... well, just go?"
"The new Hierarch?" Cory laughed again,
this time with real amusement as he turned his wide, fanatical eyes on his
companion. "You mean you didn't know? That's right! You've been outside
for a while. The Council of Elders met a week ago. The new Hierarch will be
me."
4
It looks as though it has been winter forever,"
Marjorie Westriding Yrarier remarked, careful to keep her voice level and
without complaint. Complaint would not have been diplomatic, but her host and
escort, Obermun Jerril bon Haunser, would not allow himself to take offense at
a mere expression of opinion. Taking offense would be even more undiplomatic
than giving it—certainly by someone who did not know her but whose business it
undoubtedly was to get to know her as soon as possible. Looking at the angular
planes of his long, powerful face, she wondered if he ever would. He had not
the look of a man who cared much who others were or what they thought.
However, he set himself to attempt charm with an
unaccustomed smile. "When summer comes," he said in the heavily
accented Terran he used as diplomatic speech, "you will believe it has
lasted forever also. All the seasons on Grass are eternal. Summer never ends,
nor fall. And though you do not see it at this moment, spring is upon us."
"How would I know?" she asked, genuinely
curious. From the window of the main house, which was set upon a slight rise,
the landscape below her seemed an unending ocean of grayed pastels and palest
gold, dried grasses moving like the waves of a shoreless sea, a surface broken
only by scattered islands of broad and contorted trees, their tops so thickly
twigged they appeared as solid masses inked blackly against the turbid sky. It
was not like spring at home. It was not like any season at home, where she now
desperately longed to be, despite the enthusiasm she had at first whipped up
for this mission.
"How do you know it is spring?" she
demanded, turning away from the window toward him.
They stood amid high, echoing walls in an arctic and
empty chamber of what was to be the embassy. The distant ceiling curved in
ivory traceries of plaster groins; tall glass doors opened through gelid arches
onto a balustraded terrace; pale glowing floors reflected their movements as
though from polished ice through a thin, cold film of dust. Though it was one
of the main reception rooms of the estancia, it did not seem to require furnishings
or curtains across the frigid glass. It seemed content with its numbing
vacancy, as did the dozen other rooms they had visited, each as tall, wintery,
and self-contained as this one.
The estancia, though conscientiously maintained, had
been untenanted for some time, and Marjorie, Lady Westriding, had the feeling
that the house preferred it that way. Furniture would be an intrusion in these
rooms. They had accommodated themselves to doing without. Rejecting carpets and
curtains in favor of this chill simplicity, they were content.
Unaware of her brief fantasy the Obermun suggested,
"Look at the grasses along the stairs to the terrace. What do you
see?"
She stared, convincing herself at last that the
amethyst shadow she saw there was not merely an effect of the often very tricky
light. "Purple?" she asked. "Purple grass?"
"We call that particular variety Cloak of
Kings," he said. "There are hundreds of grasses on this world, of
many shapes and sizes and of an unbelievable array of colors. We have no flowers
in the sense someone from Sanctity would understand, but we do not lack for
bloom." He used the word "Sanctity," as did most of those they
had encountered upon Grass, as a virtual synonym for Terra. As before, she
longed to correct him but did not. The time when Sanctity had been contained on
Terra was many generations past, but there was no denying its ubiquity and
virtual omnipotence on man's birthplace.
"I have read Snipopean's account of the Grass
Gardens of Klive," she murmured, not mentioning it was almost the only
thing she had been able to read about Grass. Sanctity knew nothing. Terra knew
nothing. There was no diplomatic contact and no information could be
transmitted and returned much more quickly than the Yrariers themselves could
arrive—months after Sanctity had begged permission, months after permission
for an ambassador had been given, months after Roderigo's old uncle—now long
since dead—had begged them to come. All had happened as swiftly as possible,
and yet almost two Terran years had passed since these aristocrats had said
they would allow an embassy. Now the Yrariers must make up for lost time. She
went on calmly, "The Grass Gardens of Klive are at the estancia of the
Damfels, I believe?"
He acknowledged her slight interrogative tone with a
nod. "Btw Damfels," he said, emphasizing the honorific
"Stavenger and Rowena bon Damfels would have been pleased to welcome you,
but they are in mourning just now."
"Ah?" she said in a questioning tone.
"They recently lost a daughter," he said,
an expression of distaste and embarrassment upon his face. "At the first
spring Hunt. A hunting accident."
"I sympathize with their sorrow." She
paused for a moment, allowing her own face to reflect an appropriately
assessed measure of compassion. What could she say? Would too much sympathy be
effusive? Would curiosity be misplaced? A hunting accident? The expression on
the man's face indicated it would be safer to let more information be given
rather than ask for it. She waited long enough for the Obermun to continue, and
when he did not she returned to the safety of the former subject. "What
does it mean when the Cloak of Kings shows purple along its bottom?"
"The color will be halfway up the stems in a
matter of days, and you will begin to see the flush of the gardens—rose and
amber, turquoise, and emerald. This estancia was named Opal Hill because of
the play of color each spring evokes. These gardens are young, but well laid
out. The flat place there at the bottom of the stairs is what we call a first
surface. All grass gardens have such an enclosed, flat area of low turf It is
the place from which all garden walks begin. From that place, trails lead from
prospect to prospect. In a week, the winds will soften. We have entered upon
the spring collect. By the end of the period—"
"A period being?"
"Sixty days. An arbitrary choice made by the
earliest settlers. When a year extends over two thousand days, it is hard to
make shorter lengths of time mean much. A period is sixty days, ten periods
make a collect, four collects—one corresponding to each season—make a year. We
reflect our Terran ancestry by dividing each period into four fifteen-day
weeks, but there is no religious significance attached."
She nodded her understanding, risked saying, "No
Sabbath."
"No planetary religious holidays of any kind.
Which is not to say there is no religion, simply that matters of faith have
been irrevocably removed from any civil support or recognition. Our ancestors,
while all benefiting from noble blood, came from a variety of cultures. They
wished to avoid conflict in such matters."
"We have much to learn," she said,
fingering the limp leather of the little testament in her pocket. Before they
left Terra, Father Sandoval had sent it to the Church in Exile to be blessed by
the Pope. Father Sandoval, claiming to know her better than she knew herself,
had said it would help reconcile her to the experience after her first enthusiasm
wore off. So far she had noticed little reconciliation. "The authorities
at Sanctity told us almost nothing about Grass."
"If you will forgive my saying so, Terrans know
almost nothing about Grass. They have not, in the past, been particularly
interested."
Again that confusion between Terra, the planet, and Sanctity,
the religious empire. She nodded, accepting his not ungentle chiding. Either
way, it was probably true enough. Terrans had not cared about Grass. Not about
Semling, or The Pearly Gates, or Shame, or Repentance, or any of the hundred
human-settled planets far and adrift in the sea of space. What was left of
human society on Terra had been too busy forcing its own population down and
restoring an ecology virtually destroyed by the demands of an insatiable
humanity to concern itself with those emigrations that had made its own salvation
possible. Sanctity squatted on the doorstep of the north, regulating the
behavior of its adherents wherever it could, while everyone else on Terra got
on with trying to survive. Once each Terran year Sanctity celebrated with flags
and speeches and off-planet visitors. The rest of the time Sanctity might as
well have been somewhere else.
Sanctity was not Terra. Terra was home, and this was
not. Though Marjorie wanted to say this loudly, with emotion, she restrained herself.
"Will you show me the stables?" she
inquired. "I assume our horses have been revived and delivered?"
Until this moment she had seen nothing approaching
real discomfort on the aristocrat's face. He had met them in the reception
area of the revivatory at the port, seen to the collection of their belongings,
provided them with two aircars to bring them to the estancia which they were to
occupy—aircars they were to retain during their "visit," he had said.
He had remained to guide her through the summer domestic quarters while her
husband, Roderigo Yrarier, toured the winter quarters and the offices of the
new embassy with Eric bon Haunser, a younger but no less dutiful member of the
Grassian aristocracy. Throughout this not inconsiderable itinerary, Obermun
bon Haunser had been smooth and proper to a fault, but the question of the
horses made him uncomfortable. If he did not precisely lose countenance,
something at the corners of his mouth let composure slip, though subtly and
only momentarily.
Marjorie, whose Olympic gold medals had been in
dressage, puissance jumping, and endurance events, was accustomed to reading
such twitches of the skin. Horses communicated in this way. "Is something
wrong?" she inquired gently, keeping herself strictly under control.
"We had not been ..." He paused, searching
for a way to say it. "We had not been advised in advance about the
animals."
Animals? Since when were horses "animals"?
"Does it create a problem? Someone from Semling
said the estancia has stables."
"No, not stables," he said. 'There are some
shelters nearby which were used by Hippae. Before this place was built,
needless to say."
Why needless to say? And Hippae? That would be the
horselike animal native to this planet. "Are they so different that our
mounts can't occupy their stalls?"
"Hippae would not occupy stalls," he
replied, seeming less than candid as he did so. He lost composure sufficiently
to gnaw a thumbnail before continuing. "The shelter near Opal Hill is not
being used by Hippae now. and it might serve to house your horses well enough,
I suppose. However, at the time of your arrival we did not have available to us
any suitable conveyance for large animals." Again, he attempted a smile.
"Please excuse us, Lady Marjorie. We were set at a small contretemps that
confused us for the moment. I am sure we will have solved the problem within a
day or two."
"The horses have not been revived, then."
Her voice was sharper than she had intended, edgy with outrage. Poor things!
Left lying about in that cold, nightmarish nothingness.
"Not yet. Within the next few days."
She took control of herself once more. It would not
do to lose her temper and appear at a disadvantage. "Would you like me to
come to the port? Or to send one of the children? If you have no one accustomed
to handling horses, Stella would be glad to go, or Anthony." Or I, she
thought. Or Rigo. Any of us, man. For the love of heaven ...
"Your son?"
He sounded so immediately relieved that she knew this
had been part of the problem. Some diplomatic nicety, no doubt. It was possibly
thought inappropriate for the ambassador or his wife to have to attend to such
matters, and yet who else could? Well, let it pass. Show no anxiety. Don't risk
eventual acceptance of the embassy over the matter of a day or two—this embassy
that might almost have been an answer to her prayers, this opportunity to do
something of significance. Don Quixote and El Dia Octavo could sleep that much
longer, along with Her Majesty. Irish Lass, Millefiori, and Blue Star. "We
are looking forward to riding to our first Hunt," she said; then, seeing
his dismay, "Only as followers, of course."
Seemingly, even this was not appropriate. An
expression of outright panic showed on the man's face. Good Lord, what had she
said now?
"We have made arrangements," he said.
"A balloon-car. Perhaps this first time, until you are more
familiar."
"Whatever you think best," she said firmly,
disabusing him of any notion he might have that she would make difficulties.
"We are completely in your hands."
His face cleared. "Your cooperation is much
appreciated, Lady Marjorie."
She forced herself to smile over the screaming
impatience inside her. She had been testy ever since they had arrived. Testy
and hungry. No matter how much she ate, it did not seem to quell the sick
emptiness inside her. "Let us take up the matter of titles, Obermun bon
Haunser."
He frowned. "I don't understand."
She decided to make the point she had been wanting to
make about the difference between Sanctity and Terra. "At home, on planet
Terra, among those who once called themselves Saints and now identify
themselves as the Sanctified, I would be addressed simply as Matron Yrarier.
Men are either Boy or Husband. Women are either Girl, or (briefly) Bride, or
Matron. Both sexes are at some pains to marry early and lose the titles of
childhood. We—that is, our family—are not among the Sanctified. I do not regard
any of Sanctity's female titles as pertaining to myself.
"I am, however, Terran. In my childhood home,
the area called Lesser Britain, I am Marjorie, Lady Westriding, my widower
father's eldest child. 'Lady Marjorie' would only be correct if I were a
younger daughter. Also, I have the honor of being the Master of the Westriding
Hunt. The position was offered me, I believe, because of my good fortune at the
Olympics"
He looked interested but without comprehension.
"Olympics?"
"A Terran contest of various athletic skills,
including horsemanship," she said gently. If there was much the Yrariers
did not know about Grass, there were many things the Grassians did not know
about the Yrariers, as well. "I rode in what is called puissance jumping,
in which the horse cannot see what is beyond the barrier, and that barrier is
well over his head." He showed no comprehension. "You do not have that
here, I see. Well, I did that, and dressage riding, which is a very gentle
sport, and endurance riding, which is not. I was what is called a gold
medalist. Roderigo was a medalist also. It is how we met." She smiled,
making a deprecatory gesture. Obviously the poor man knew nothing about all
this. "So, I might be called Lady Westriding or Madam Yrarier or Master,
though the latter is appropriate only on the hunting field. Perhaps there is
some title given to ambassadors or their wives here on Grass? It would be
convenient for me to know what title would be considered acceptable."
Despite his initial ignorance, he had followed all of
this closely. "Not, I think, Madam Yrarier," he mused. "Marital
titles are not customary except between family leaders, that is in 'bon'
families. Each family has one Obermun and one Obermum, almost always husband
and wife, though it might be mother and son. There are seven aristocratic
families currently, quite large families by now: Haunser, Damfels, Maukerden,
Laupmon, Smaerlok, Bindersen, and Tanlig; and these families use the prefatory
'bon,' before their names. When a child results from a liaison between members
of these families, it is given a surname by either the father or the mother,
depending upon what family the child will be part of, and thereafter continues
in that name whether later married or not."
"Ah," she mused "So, in meeting a woman or child, I will not know—"
"You will not know the relationship. Not by the
name, Lady Westriding. We are a country people, sparsely scattered upon a small
part of our world. Long ago we fled the oppression of Sanctity and the crowding
of Terra"—his raised brows told her he had taken her point—"and have
had no wish to allow either upon Grass. Though some estancias have been lost,
we have never added another estancia to the initial number—except for Opal
Hill, of course, but we did not build that. We know one another and one
another's grandfathers and grandmothers back to the time of settlement. We know
who liaised with whom, and what child is the child of whom. It seems to me
appropriate you should be called Marjorie Westriding or Lady Westriding. This
places you upon the proper level in your own right. As for learning who
everyone else is ... you will need someone who knows. Perhaps I could recommend
someone to you as secretary, some lateral family member, perhaps.,.."
"Lateral?" She raised a quizzical eyebrow,
shivering a little at the chill in the room.
He was instantly solicitous. "You are cold.
Shall we return to the winter quarters? Though spring is imminent, it will
still be more comfortable below for the next few weeks."
They left the high, cold room and the long, chill
corridors to go down a long flight of stairs into the winter house, the cold
weather house, into other rooms where the walls were warm with grass-cloth,
cozy with firelight and lamps and soft, bright couches. Marjorie sank into one
of these with a sigh of relief. "You were speaking of my hiring as
secretary a 'lateral family member'?"
"Someone parented by a bon, but on one side only. Perhaps with the name, but
without the bon."
"Ah. Does this represent a great handicap? This
lack of a bon?" She smiled to show
she meant it teasingly. Still, when he answered, it was with such a stiffness
as to tell her it was no laughing matter.
"It means one has a commoner parent. Such a
person would not live on an estancia except in a service capacity and would not
attend the summer balls. One without the bon would not Hunt."
"Aha," she said to herself, wondering
whether the Honorable Lord Roderigo Yrarier and his wife would be considered
sufficiently bon to hunt or attend the
summer balls. Perhaps this had been the reason for that business about the Hunt
and the delay with the horses. Perhaps the status of the whole mission was
somewhat in question.
Poor horses, lying there all cold and dead, no warm
stable, no oats, dreaming, if horses dreamed, of a fence too high to jump and
green grass always out of reach, unable even to twitch.
Aloud she said, "Obermun bon Haunser, I am extremely
grateful for all your kindness. I shall send Anthony down to the port tomorrow
in one of the fliers you have so thoughtfully provided. Perhaps you will have
someone meet him there to assist him with the horses. Perhaps some kind of
trailer or provisions truck can be obtained?"
"This was our dilemma, Lady Westriding. Our
culture does not allow vehicle tracks across the grasses. Your animals must be
airlifted here. One does not drive here and there on Grass. One flies. As
quietly as possible. Except in the port area and Commoner Town, of course.
Surrounded as it is by forest, roads are quite appropriate there."
"How interesting," she murmured.
"However it is done, I am sure you will attend to it impeccably. Then, if
you will be so gracious as to recommend one or two people who know the way
things are done on Grass, perhaps I can begin furnishing the residence and
making the acquaintance of some of our neighbors."
He bowed. "Certainly, Lady Westriding,
certainly. We will requisition a cargo vehicle from the commoners. And in one
week's time we have arranged for you to observe the Hunt at the bon Damfels
estancia. It will give you the opportunity to meet many of your hosts." He
bowed again, taking himself away, out the door and up the stairs to exit through
that empty house. She heard his voice echoing there as he greeted the other bon
and departed with him. "Hosts," he had said. Not neighbors. She,
wondering if he had meant what the distinction implied, was very much aware of
the difference.
"What was all that?" His voice came from
behind her, from the corridor leading to the offices. Rigo.
"That was Obermun bon Haunser explaining that
the horses have not yet been revived," she said, turning to confront her
husband. He, lean and no less aristocratic than the man who had just left, was
clad all in black except for the high red-and-purple-striped collar which
identified him as an ambassador, sacrosanct, a person whose body and belongings
were immune to seizure or prosecution, on penalty of retaliation from Sanctity—an
organization both too far away and too distracted by recent internal events and
current horror to do any retaliating at all. His face was set in what she
called— though only to herself—his ugly mode, sullen at the mouth, the wide
lips unenlivened by amusement, the black eyes overshadowed by heavy brows and
wearied by too little sleep. When he was like this, darkness seemed to follow
him, half hiding him from her. He, too, had confessed to feeling testy, and he
looked irritated now. She sought something to interest him, something to blow
the shadows away-- "Do you know, Rigo, I'd be interested in finding out
whether the children and I have diplomatic immunity on this planet."
"Why would you not?" His eyes blazed with
anger at the idea. Roderigo had a great capacity for anger.
"Women do not take their husband's names here,
and from something the Obermun said, I question whether they take status,
either." Not that Roderigo's status was higher than her own. If it came to
bloodlines, perhaps--her own pedigree was a little better, not that she would
ever mention it. "I'm not sure a diplomat's wife is anybody." Not
that she had ever planned or wanted to be a diplomat's wife. Not that Rigo had
ever been a diplomat before! So many things were not, she reflected--Not the
way she would have had them, if she'd had the choice, though there was still
the chance this whole business might turn out to be significant and worthwhile.
He smiled humorlessly. "Mark down one more thing
we weren't informed of."
"I'm not sure I'm right."
"Your impressions are often the equal of others'
certainties, Marjorie," he said in his gallant voice, the one he most
often used with women, her no less than any other. "I'll put Asmir Tanlig
to checking it."
"Asmir?"
"One of my Grassian men. I hired two this
morning after I managed to shake off the Haunser." He scraped an extended
finger down his palm, flicking it, ridding himself of something sticky, in
mime.
"Is the Tanlig man you hired a bon?"
"Lord no. I shouldn't think so. A bastard son of
a bon two generations back, perhaps."
"Lateral," she exclaimed, pleased with
herself for knowing. "The Tanlig must be what they call a lateral."
"I hired a Mechanic, also."
This puzzled her. "You hired a mechanic?"
"His name is Mechanic--Philological successor to
the ancient Smiths or Wrights. His name is Sebastian Mechanic, and he holds no
blood with the aristos, as he was at some pains to tell me." He sank into
a chair and rubbed the back of his neck. "Coldsleep makes me feel as
though I'd been ill for weeks."
"It makes me feel dreamy and remote."
"My dear—" he began in the gallant voice,
with only an undertone of hostility.
"I know. You think I'm always remote." She
tried to laugh, tried not to show how that hurt. If Roderigo hadn't thought his
wife remote, he wouldn't have needed Eugenie Le Fevre. If he hadn't had
Eugenie, Marjorie might not be remote. Circle, and around once more, like a
horse quadrille, change reins, pirouette, and on to the next figure.
Rigo, point made, changed the subject. "Make
note, my dear. Asmir Tanlig. Sebastian Mechanic."
"What are they to be to you?" She inquired.
"Representatives of the middle classes?"
"Little enough of that, except perhaps at
Commoner Town. No, representatives of the peasantry, I'd say, who will
circulate among the villagers and find out if anything is known. I may need
others to find out about Commoner Town, though Tanlig would fit in well enough
there, if he cared to. Mechanic, now, he's peasant through and through, and
resentfully prideful about it."
"Hardly the type of servant to improve our
reputation among the bon."
"The bons aren't
to know anything about it. If we are to complete our mission here, we'll need
access to all levels of society. Sebastian is my link to the people of the soil.
He knows enough not to call himself to the aristocrats' attention. And if you
want to know how I got on to the men without bon Haunser knowing, the Sanctity
charge from Semling told me about them. I've already asked them the question."
"Ah." She waited, holding her breath.
"They say no."
"Ah," she said again, breathing. So there
was hope. "No plague here."
"There is no unexplained illness that they know
of. As we agreed. I told them we're making a survey."
"They might not have heard...."
"Both of them have kin in Commoner Town. I think
they would have heard of any strange sickness. But, it's early days. The
aristocrats have putative control of ninety-nine percent of the planet's
surface-There could be things going on here the commoners simply don't know of."
"It pounds as though you have things well in
hand." She sighed, her weariness and hunger suddenly heavier than she
could gracefully bear. "Would you have any idea where Anthony might
be?"
"If he's where I told him to be, he's with
Stella up in the summer quarters, making a rough floor plan of the place for
me. We'll have to furnish it rather quickly, I'm afraid. Asmir tells me there's
a craftsmen's area in Commoner Town. A place called, unimaginatively enough,
Newroad. Lord knows where the old road was."
"Terra, maybe."
"Or any of half a hundred other places. Well, it
doesn't matter where it was, so long as we know where this one is. According to
Asmir, we can get very acceptable stuff built there within two or three
weeks—long Grassian weeks—and he's already sent word on what he calls the
tell-me for some kind of craftsmen's delegation to come call on us."
"By acceptable, does he mean to the bons, Rigo?
I have a feeling everything we do will be measured and weighed by the bons. I
think our poor horses were not revived because the bons did not know whether
they would accept them or not, here on Grass. They have creatures of their
own."
"Hippae."
"Exactly. Who are never kept in stalls, so the
Obermun told me."
"Where in the devil are they kept, then?"
"I have serious question as to whether they are
'kept' at all. Rigo, though they live in something not called stables. Why
don't we collect Anthony and Stella and go explore them together?"
The places not called stables were cavernous halls
dug into the side of a hill, lined and pillared with stone. A rock-lined,
spring-filled tank at the back cast a wavery luminescence across the low-arched
ceiling. Half a dozen tall slits in the hillside were the only entrances.
"We could put the stallions and the mares in
here and all their foals for the next hundred years," Stella observed with
brooding annoyance, taking a large bite from the apple she had brought with
her. "And it would still be blasted inconvenient." Stella, with her
black hair and eyes and passionate disposition, resembled her father. Like him,
she moved as a whip cracks, always seeming to arrive wherever she was going
with considerable noise but without having bothered to travel the intervening
distance. She shouted now, listening to the echo of her own voice as it
rattled back into blackness among stout pillars. "Hallooooo," a
hunting halloo, as one sighting a fox might cry "Grass stinks!" she
cried, with the echo coming back, "ing, ing, ing, ing"
Anthony made no comment but merely looked around
himself with dismay, trying not to let it show through the calm demeanor he had
determined upon as appropriate for the son of an ambassador. He had carefully
thought out what his role should be, and prayed hourly for the fortitude to
continue in it. He was the one who resembled Marjorie. He had her wheat-colored
hair and hazel eyes, her cool, white skin, her sapling-slender body, her placid
appearance and equable temperament. Like her, he was prey to a thousand inner
doubts and horrors he never let show on the surface. Like her, he was thought
beautiful, was passionately admired even by unlikely people. At nineteen he
was almost of his father's height, though not yet of a man's bulk.
A stripling, his mother thought, admiring him. A mere
boy, his father thought to himself, wishing Tony were older so that he could be
told why they had come, older so he could be of more help.
"A social problem of some dimension,"
Obermun bon Haunser was at that moment remarking to some of his fellow bons.
"And so is the daughter, Stella. We'll have to warn off our own young
ones," he said. Sooner or later the Yrariers would learn of this opinion,
and he wondered what he would say then. He did not like the idea of being
looked at angrily by Lady Westriding. Her look had a quality of knives about
it. Knives which cut deeply.
Currently, however, Marjorie was cutting only into
the structure of the stables, carving one part mentally from the whole.
"We can partition this part of the cavern off," she offered.
"Make half a dozen nice box stalls along this side with an opening from
outside into each one and build a little paddock out there. Later, when winter
comes ..." She stopped in dismay, remembering what winters here were said
to be like, wondering what they would do with the horses when winter came.
"We won't still be here, surely?" Anthony
said, his own apprehension coming through. He heard it and amended himself
more calmly. "Will the mission last that long?"
His father shook his head. "We don't know,
Tony."
"What kind of horses can these Hippae be?"
Marjorie mused, turning to look into the shadowy corners of the vast, low
space. "This looks like some great burrow
Like the meeting hall of a badger's set."
"The meeting hall of a badger's set?" her
daughter mocked. "Mother, you amaze me." She shook her hair over her
shoulders, the depthless black silk of it flowing down over her back like lightless
water. Her seventeen-year-old body was still slight, and the beauty which would
be ravishing was only beginning to emerge. Now she smiled a siren's smile and
sulked at her parents out of deeply fringed eyes. "When were you last in a
badger's set?" It was not said lovingly. Stella had not wanted to come to
Grass. They had insisted that she come, but they had been unable to tell her
why. To Stella, the journey had been a violation of her person. With maximum
drama, she likened it to rape and let them know it as often as possible.
"In some other life?" she mocked now. "In some other time?"
"When I was a changeling," her mother
answered firmly. "Long and long ago, when I was unconscious of my dignity.
As I am about to be again. I am going to change into some nice old robe and
become sedentary. I need food, a lot of food, and then some familiar book and
sleep. There is too much that is strange here. Even the colors of things aren't
right."
And they weren't. Her words brought it to all their
attention as they left the caverns to walk through a bleached alley of imported
trees toward the residence. The colors weren't right. The sky should be blue
and was not. The prairie should be the color of dried grass, but their eyes
insisted upon making it pale mauve and paler sapphire, as though under a
stage-light moon.
"It's only that it's foreign to us," Tony
said, trying to comfort her, wanting to be comforted himself. He had left
things behind, too. A girl who mattered to him. Friends he cared about. Plans
for education and life. He wanted the sacrifice to have been for something, for
some reason, not merely to exist for a time in this chill discomfort amid
strange colors. Tony had not been told why, either, but he trusted Marjorie
when she told him it was important. It was Tony's nature to trust, as it had
been Marjorie's at his age, when she married.
"We will ride to the Hunt," Rigo said
firmly. "The horses will be recovered by then."
"No," Marjorie said, shaking her head.
"Apparently we mustn't."
"Don't be ridiculous." He said it, as he
often did, without thinking, and was immediately annoyed as he saw the pain in
her face.
"Rigo, my dear, surely you don't think it's my
idea not to ride." She laughed, a light little laugh which said in the
only way she could that he was being obtuse and unpleasant. "Obermun bon
Haunser almost came apart at his impeccable seams when I suggested we would
merely join the field on horseback. Apparently arrangements have been made
otherwise."
"Damn it, Marjorie. Why was I sent here? Why were
you? Except for the horses?"
She didn't try to answer him. It was not a question
which could be answered. He glared at her. Stella stared, giggling a little,
enjoying this discord. Tony made uncomfortable little hrnching sounds in his throat as he did when caught in some
seeming conflict between them. "Surely," he said softly, "surely
..."
"I thought it was something important we were
here for?" sneered Stella, unwittingly derailing her father's hostility
toward Marjorie and bringing it upon herself.
"We would scarcely have come otherwise," he
snapped angrily. "Our lives have been disrupted, too, and we are no fonder
of Grass than you are. We, like you, would prefer to be at home, getting on
with our lives." He lashed at an offending seed head with his whip.
"What's this about not riding?"
Marjorie answered softly, trying to keep them all
calm. "I don't know why we mustn't ride to the Hunt, but it is clear that
we must not. My counsel, Ambassador, for what it is worth, is that we do what
that stiff, awkward Haunser man has arranged for us until we find out what is
going on here. We are not bons, after
all, and Obermun bon Haunser took some pains to point out to me that neither
Sanctity nor Terra know anything at all about Grass."
Rigo might have said something more, except that a
sound interrupted him. Such a sound as a tormented soul might make, if such a
one had the voice of the thunder and the cataract. It was a wholly natural
sound, as a small world might make, being rent apart, and yet they did not
doubt that it issued from a throat and lungs and a body of some indescribable
sort. Something that a name could be put to if one only knew what it was. A cry
of desperate loneliness.
"What?" breathed Rigo, unmoving, alert.
"What was that?" They waited, poised, perhaps to run. Nothing. In the
time ahead they were to hear the cry several times. Though they asked about it,
no one knew what made it.
El Dia Octavo woke from evil dream to uncomfortable
reality. His feet were not on the ground and he thrashed, though weakly. A
voice came incomprehensibly through a veil of pained dryness. "Lower that
sling, you fool, and put him down."
Hooves touched solid surface and the stallion stood
trembling, head lowered. He could smell the others. They were somewhere near,
but it was impossible to lift his head and look. He flared his nostrils
instead, trying the odor for that complexity which would include them all. A
hand ran along his side, his neck. Not her hand.
A good hand, but not her hand. Not his hand,
either. This was the male-one most like her, not the female-one most like him.
"Shhh, shhh," said Tony. "That's a
good boy. Just stand there a little while. It'll come back to you. Shhh,
shhh."
What came was the dream. Galloping with something after
him. Something huge. Huge and fast. A threat from behind. A fleeing. He
whickered, begging for reassurance, and the hand was there.
"Shhh, shhh."
He slept standing, the dream fading.
He woke enough to walk up a ramp into something that
moved, then he slept again. When the thing stopped moving, he woke enough to
walk down the ramp again and she was
there.
"She,"
neighed Millefiori. "All right. She."
He nodded, making a sound in his throat, dragging his
feet as he tried to follow her. Nothing
smelled quite right. There were familiar sounds, but the smells were wrong.
When he was inside the stall, lying on the grass there, it didn't smell right
either.
There was noise outside The other stallion screaming,
making a fuss.
El Dia Octavo nickered at him, and so did the mares.
In a moment Don Quixote quieted, making a sound of misery.
Then she came,
patting, stroking, talking to them, saying, as Tony had, "Shhh,
shhh," giving him water.
He drank, letting the water flow into that place of
dry fear. After a time he slept again, dreamlessly, the dream gradually losing
itself in the smell of the strange hay.
"Odd," murmured Marjorie, staring down at
him.
"They seemed frightened," said Tony.
"The whole time, they seemed scared to death but so lethargic they
couldn't do anything about it."
"I had bad dreams when I first got here. And I
woke up frightened all the time."
"So did I." Tony shuddered. "I wasn't
going to say anything, but I had real nightmares "
"An effect of coldsleep?" Marjorie
wondered.
"I asked around at the port. Nobody seems to
think that's a usual thing after coldsleep."
"Odd," said Marjorie again. "Well, at
least the stalls were finished on time."
"They did a good job. People from the
village?"
"People from the village. It seems to be a
reciprocal kind of arrangement. We give them employment and buy their produce,
and they provide whatever help we need. They've been here for years,
maintaining the place. I've picked a few of them to work with the horses.
Perhaps we can find two or three grooms among them."
They left the stables and went back to the house,
turning once or twice to look back as though to assure themselves the horses
were all right, both of them thinking it strange that the animals gave every
sign of sharing their own bad dreams. Marjorie swore to herself she would spend
time with them over the next few days, until the trauma had passed.
Other matters intervened, however. Among them was the
arrival of the craftsmen's committee for Newroad. who went through the summer
rooms of Opal Hill making lists.
"You want it done in the local manner, don't
you?" the spokesman of this delegation asked in trade lingua. He was a
stocky, bald-headed man with froggy bags around his eyes and an engaging grin.
His name was Roald Few. "You don't want anything that will make the bons'
tongues clack, right?"
"Right," she had agreed, amazed, and amused
at herself for being so. What had she expected? Poor ignorant fools like those
in Breedertown? "You're very quick, Mr. Few. I thought we were the first
embassy Grass has had."
"The only one now," he replied.
"There've been a few. They can't winter it, you know. Can't stay. Too
lonely. Semling had a man here for a while. Here, I mean. At Opal Hill. Semling
built the estancia, you know."
"Why weren't the summer quarters
furnished?" "Because it was coming autumn by the time it was built,
and by the time autumn was half gone, you know, so was the man from Semling. He
never got to the good part of the year. So, what have you to tell me about
colors and all that?"
"Can I depend upon you to make us look
acceptable?" she asked. "If I can, there's a bonus in it for you. My
husband likes warm colors, reds and ambers. I prefer the cooler ones. Blue.
Soft gray. Sea green. Hah," she paused. "There is no sea on Grass,
but you apprehend." He nodded. "Perhaps, if it is in keeping with
local usage, you could give us a little variation?"
"Variety and make you look good," he said,
pursing his lips as he noted it down "Do my best, madam, and may I say you
show good sense in leaving it to us. Us on the Newroad work well together, and
we'll do you well who trusts us." He gave her a sharp look, meeting her
open gaze with a frank nod of his own "I'll tell you something, just me to
you. You and the family come over the forest into commoner territory every now
and then. Commoner Town, the aristos say, but we say Commons, meaning it's for
all of us. We've got food there you'll never get but here, things we ship in
for ourselves. It gets damned lonely out here if you're not all turned inside
out like these bons. You might even decide you'd like to live in Commons during
wintertime, if you're here that long. You've got animals, too, and they'll do
better in Commons than they will out here. We're set up to winter animals
there. There are hay barns we fill every summer, and cow barns down along our
own quarters. All the villages close up, wintertime, and move into town. Among
the aristos nobody'd know, did you or not. Anybody calls you on the tell-me.
splice you through to Commons and who'll know you're not out here, sufferin'
winter. Do you speak Grassan, by any chance."
"I thought Grassians spoke Terran or trade
lingua," she replied, dismayed. "Obermun bon Haunser spoke
diplomatic Terran to me."
"Oh, they'll do that if they like," he said
with a nasty grin. "They'll speak diplo and some of them will even lower
themselves to speak trade lingua, and then the next time they'll turn their
backs to you and pretend they don't understand you at all. You'll get further
with 'em if you know Grassan. Way I understand it, it's a mishmash of languages
they all spoke when they came here, and then it's changed since. Each family
speaks its own variety of it, kind of a family dialect, a game they have, but
mostly that's a matter of family words and you can understand the sense if you
know the language. You'll get further yet if they don't know you speak it until
you speak it pretty good. I can send you a teacher."
"Do," she agreed, all at once trusting and
liking him. "Send me a teacher and be very close-mouthed about it if you
will, Mr. Few."
"Oh, I will." He snorted "I'll send
you a man in two days. And you call me Roald, like all the Commons do. Damn
bons." The animosity seemed habitual rather than acute, and Marjorie did
not inquire into it, merely making a note that Rigo should hear of it if he had
not already learned of it for himself.
In addition to the commodious guest and servants'
quarters in the main house, there were three small detached residences at Opal
Hill available to members of the embassy staff. Given first choice, Rigo's
faithful assistant Andrea Chapelside had picked the small house closest by, to
be most readily available in case of need. Her sister Charlotte would live
there with her. Father Sandoval and his companion priest, Father James, took
the largest of the detached residences, intending to use part of it as a
library and school for Stella and Tony and the largest room as a chapel for
themselves and the embassy. This left the smallest house for Eugenie Le Fevre.
It had a summer kitchen, living room, and bedroom above the ground and several
cozy winter rooms below. Each of the houses was connected by a tunnel which led
to the big house. Each opened upon a separate vista of the gardens.
When Roald Few finished his business with Marjorie,
he called on each of the other residents of Opal Hill, getting their
instructions for the furnishing of summer bedrooms and sitting rooms. The
middle-aged women in the first house had pictures of what they wanted, things
that looked like home. The men in the larger house wanted everything as plain
as it could be, and one room they wanted untouched except for the provision of
some little seats with kneeling stools in front of them and an altar kind of
arrangement. The delicate-looking younger man had drawn a picture which the
older stocky man nodded approval over. Both of them religious, Roald thought.
Not dressed like Sanctified, though. These had funny little collars. Something
different from the usual run.
"I hope this will not cause you too much
trouble," the older of the two said in a steely voice which only seemed
apologetic.
"No trouble at all, except one," said Roald
with an engaging smile. "And that's knowing what the proper title is for
you and the other gentleman. I know you're some sort of religious folk, and I
wouldn't want to go astray with the lingo."
The delicate gentleman nodded. "We are Old
Catholics. I'm Father Sandoval, and my companion is Father James. Father James'
mother is sister to His Excellency, Roderigo Yrarier. We are usually called
Father, if that wouldn't offend you." And if it would, his voice said, say
it anyhow.
"I don't stay in business being easily
offended," Roald assuredcthem. "If you wanted me to call you uncle.
I'd do that, too. I might balk at aunt, but uncle I could manage "
This brought a chuckle from the younger priest, and
Roald nodded at him cheerfully as he left
The smallest house was the most remote and the last
on his list. It was there, in the empty summer quarter, that he met with Eugenie.
He had not been with her for long before he knew everything about her.
Everything, he thought to himself, that he needed to know.
"Pink," she said. "Soft pink. And rose
shades, all warm, like the inside of a flower. I miss flowers. Curtains to shut
out the night and the sight of that awful grass. Soft curtains that drape and
blow in the wind. Wide couches with pillows." She moved her hands and her
lips, sketching what she wanted on the compliant air, and he saw what she saw,
a nest feathered in ivory and rose, sweet-scented as—so fable had it—a Terran
morning. She was wearing a silky gown that flowed behind her on the air,
fluttering with her movement as though she were accompanied by soft winds. Her
hair was light brown, the great wealth of it piled high on her head with tiny
curls escaping at her brow and the nape of her neck. Her eyes were an ageless
blue, innocent of anything but pleasure and untroubled by thought.
Roald Few sighed, silently, knowing all about it.
This lady looked like the little porcelain woman his wife kept on the table at
home. Poor Lady Westriding. She had interested him enormously, and now he
pitied her as well. What was it had gone wrong there? he wondered. So many
things could happen. He would tell Kinny, his wife, all about it, how they
looked, what they said, and Kinny would know. She would tell him the story over
supper, how this Roderigo and this Lady Westriding had almost been true lovers,
almost a natural pair, but this something else had happened, and now there was
this pink lady for the Lord's bed while the cool blond woman was left all
alone. Though perhaps he didn't leave her alone. There was that possibility,
too.
"Rose pink," he said to Eugenie as he noted
it down. "And lots of soft cushions."
When Roald returned home, his wife, Kinny, was
waiting with supper ready to go on the table. Since Marthamay had married
Alverd Bee and moved over to the other end of town, Roald and Kinny had been
alone sporadically—that is, when none of the children had needed a baby-tender
or a home-from-their-own following an argument with a spouse. Arguments with
spouses, Roald had taken care to point out to each of his children, were as
inevitable as winter but were not life-threatening provided one took a little
care in advance. Such as making a habit of going on home to cool off for a day
or so when needed, and no insult meant and none taken by either party, just as
spring followed winter, so better understanding followed a little cooling off.
Currently none of the children were fighting with
their wives or husbands and none of the grandkids were in residence, so he and
Kinny had the place to themselves, which pleased him considerably when it
happened.
"I made goose with cabbage." Kinny told
him. "Jandra Jellico slaughtered a few geese, and she got on the tell-me
to let me know. I hurried right over to get a fat one."
Roald licked his lips. Spring goose with cabbage was
one of his favorite dishes, and Kinny could make it like no one else. It was
goose with cabbage had made him look at her in the first place, her with her
round little arms and round little face, and it was goose with cabbage had
happily punctuated all their seasons together since. Goose with cabbage
generally meant a celebration of some kind.
"So, what good thing is going on?" he asked
her.
"Marthamay's pregnant."
"Well, isn't that wonderful! There for a bit she
was worried."
"She wasn't really. It was just her sisters
teasing her when the time went by after she and Alverd married and nothing
happened."
"Alverd getting ready to do a little digging, is
he?"
"She says yes." Kinny smiled as she forked
a mouthful of cabbage into her rosy mouth, thinking of tall, eager Alverd Bee
slaving away down in the winter quarters, digging a new room as every new daddy
did. Alverd was likely to be elected mayor of Commons in a week or two, and
mayors had little time for such doings. Well and all, the brothers would help
him, just as he'd helped them. "So, tell me all about the new
people."
He told her, about the ambassador and about Marjorie
and the other lady in her soon-to-be-pink nest.
"Ah," said Kinny, wrinkling her nose.
"That's sad."
"So I thought," he agreed. "His wife's
a lovely lady, but cool. Take a little wooing, that one."
"And him, I suppose he's too hot and impatient
for that."
Roald chewed as he thought. Yes. As usual, Kinny had
hit it right on the head. Too hot and impatient by far, Roderigo Yrarier. Hot
and impatient enough to get himself into a mess of trouble, before he was
through.
Not liking that idea, Roald changed the subject.
"What does Marthamay think they'll name the baby?"
Marjorie's language instructor arrived two days
later. He introduced himself as Persun Pollut. He sat beside her in what would
become Marjorie's study, just inside a large window warmed by an orange sun,
while craftsmen came and went with crates and cartons, tools and ladders in the
hall just outside. Watching the workers, Marjorie spoke of the strangeness of
needing both winter quarters and summer quarters separate from one another.
"Winter is long," he admitted, drooping his
eyebrows at her. "It is so long we grow tired of looking at one
another," Persun had exceptionally long and sinuous eyebrows. He was
young, though not callow; supple, though not yielding; determined, though not
rigid. Marjorie felt Roald Few had selected well, particularly as Persun had
shown good sense in not advertising the purpose of his presence. He had taken a
room in the nearby village and announced that he was there to carve some panels
for "Her Ladyship's private study." Now, seated at his ease in that
study, he continued his explanation.
"Winter is so long that one tires of thinking of
it," he said. "We grow tired of breathing the air which is not only
cold but hostile to us. We go under the ground, like the Hippae, and wait for
spring. Sometimes we wish we could sleep like them."
"What on earth do you all do with
yourselves?" Marjorie asked, thinking once more of what they would do with
the horses during wintertime. If they were still on Grass. Anthony kept saying
the Yrariers would be on their way home by then, but Anthony didn't know why
they had come.
"In Commons we visit and have games and do our
work, and have winter festivals of drama and poetry writing and things of that
sort. We go visit the animals in the barns. We have an orchestra. People sing
and dance and train animals to do tricks. We have a winter university where
most of us learn things we would never learn if it weren't for winter.
Sometimes we bring professors in from Semling for the cold season. We're better
educated than the bons, you'll find, though we don't let them know that. There
are so many tunnels and storage rooms and meeting rooms under Commons it is
like living over a sponge. We come and go, here to there, without ever looking
at the outside where the wind cuts to the bone and the cold mist hangs over
everything, hiding the ice ghosts."
"But the bons stay on their estancias?"
"Out on the estancias they don't have our
resources, so they pass the time less profitably. In the town we have some
thousands of people to draw upon, more in the winter than are living there now.
When winter comes, the villages empty themselves into Commons. The port remains
open year round so there's visitors even during the cold time. The hotel has winter
quarters, too, with tunnels to the port. On an estancia there may be only a
hundred people, a hundred and a half maybe. On an estancia everyone grows very
tired of everyone else."
There was silence for a moment, then she said
tentatively, "Have you any charities on Grass?"
"Charities, ma'am?"
"Good works. Helping people." She shrugged,
using the phrase Rigo often used. "Widows and orphans?"
He shook his head at her. "Well there's widows,
right enough, and occasional an orphan, I suppose, though why they should need
charity is beyond me. We commoners take care of our own, but that's not
charity, it's just good sense. Is it something you did a lot of, back where you
came from?"
She nodded soberly. Oh, yes, she had done a lot of
it. But no one had thought it important enough to take her place. "I think
there'll be a lot of empty time," she said in explanation. "The
winters sound very long."
"Oh, they are long. The aristos have a saying in
Grassan: Prin g'los dem aujnet haudermach. That
is, 'Winter closeness is separated in spring.' Let's see, maybe you'd say it,
'Winter liaisons sunder in spring.' " He thought this over, wobbling his
eyebrows. "No, perhaps a Terran would more likely say 'marriages': 'Spring
loosens winter marriages.' "
"Yes, we would probably say marriages," she
agreed somberly. "How did you learn to speak diplomatic?"
"We all speak it. Everyone in Commons does. The
port's very busy. Shipments in, shipments out. We've got more brokers in
Commons than you'd suspect. We order things from off-planet. We sell things. We
need to send messages. We speak diplomatic and trade lingua and Sembla and half
a dozen other languages, too. Grassan is very ponderous and uncertain. It's a
language invented by the aristocrats. Like a private code, I will teach it to
you, but don't expect it to make sense"
"I promise I won't. Do you make your living
teaching Grassan?" "Oh, by the marvelous migerers of the Hippae. no,
Lady. Who would there be to teach it to? Everyone here knows it and who else
cares? Hime Pollut the woodcarver is a friend to craftsmaster Roald Few, and I
am Pollut the woodcarver's son, and he is making use of me during a slack
season, that's all."
She could not hold back her laugh. "You are
a woodcarver, then?"
His eyes went soft and dreamy. "Well, more that
than anything else, since I haven't made my fortune yet." He paused, then
sat up, bringing himself to attention. "Though I will. There's money to be
made in Semling silks, take my word on it. But I will make some panels for your
study, Lady, since we must have some reason for my being here if the Grassians
are not to know that you are learning their language." Besides, since he
had seen her, he had wanted to do something for her. Something quite
surpassing.
"What shall I do when Obermun bon Haunser
recommends a secretary for me?"
Persun nodded in thought. "Tell him you will
consider it. Outside of Commons no one moves very quickly on Grass. So I have
heard from a few people coming from off-planet who have to deal with the
aristos. They get very impatient. So, let the Obermun wait. He will not be
annoyed."
She reported all this to Rigo and sent the suggested
reply in response to the Obermun's recommendation of a certain Admit Maukerden
when, eventually, that recommendation arrived.
With one thing and another, several days passed
before Marjorie had time to ride. Anthony and Rigo had gone out several times,
and even Stella had been unwillingly forced into exercise duty. The day after
the craftsmen departed, Marjorie went out with the men of the family. The
morning was bright, clear, and warm, and she found herself wishing Stella would
join them, though the girl had refused their invitation with a certain hauteur.
Stella rode brilliantly, but she had made it clear that she would not enjoy
riding on Grass, that she would not enjoy anything on Grass. Stella had left
friends behind, one friend in particular. Marjorie had not been sorry. Perhaps
Stella's ostentatious lack of enjoyment was to punish Marjorie for not caring,
but Marjorie could not, knowing what she knew and Stella did not. The best she
could do was wish that Stella were with them as they walked down the winding
path to the newly built stables.
The stable hands had done what they had been told to
do: They had cut grass of certain types and filled mangers with it, mucked out
the newly built stalls, and provided locally grown grain of three or four types
in small quantities in order to observe which were eaten. They watched as the
Terrans saddled three of the horses, asking questions in trade lingua without
embarrassment or shyness. "What is that for?" "Why are you doing
that?"
"Don't the bons ride?" asked Tony.
"Haven't you seen a saddle before?"
Silence fell while the two men and one woman looked
at one another. It was evidently not a topic they felt comfortable discussing.
Finally the woman said, almost in a whisper, "The Hippae would not ...
would not allow a saddle. The riders wear padding instead."
Well, well, well, said Marjorie to herself. Isn't
that something. She caught Tony's eye and shook her head slightly just as her
son was about to say something like, since when did a horse decide what it
would allow.
"Our horses find the saddle more comfortable
than they would our bony bottoms," she said evenly. "Perhaps the
Hippae are constructed differently."
This seemed to smooth things over, and the hands went
back to their questions. Marjorie noted which questions were most intelligent
and which questioners most understanding.
"It is hard to cut the bluegrass," one of
them said. "But the horses like it best."
"What are you using to cut it?" she asked.
They showed her a sickle of inferior steel. "I'll give you better
tools." She unlocked a tack box and gave them laser knives. "Be
careful." she said, showing them how they were used. "You can lose an
arm or a leg with these. Be sure no one is in the way of the blade."
She watched them experimenting with the knives,
cutting armfuls of grass with single strokes, exclaiming in surprise and
pleasure and giving her grateful looks. She would need a stud groom, and of necessity
he would have to be drawn from among the villagers. Already these people were
patting and stroking the horses much more than was absolutely necessary.
Sanctity had allowed them to bring only six animals.
Considering how long their stay might be, they had chosen to bring breeding
stock. Marjorie had volunteered to leave her favorite mount, the bay gelding
Reliant, behind. Instead, she rode El Dia Octavo, a Barb stallion trained by a
former Lippizaner rider. Rigo was mounted on Don Quixote, an Arabian. Tony was
riding Millefiori, one of the thoroughbred mares. Three of the mares were
thoroughbreds and one, Irish Lass, was a draft animal, brought along for size
If they were stuck on this planet for a full Grassian year or more, at least
they would have the amusement of building their own stud.
Tony led them along a low fold of ground which took
them some half a mile toward a natural arena he had been using to exercise the
horses, a level place of low, amber grass, almost circular in shape. Once
there, they fell into the ritual of exercise, walk, trot, collected canter,
trot, walk again, first in one direction then in the other, extending the
trot, the canter, then stopping to dismount and examine the horses.
"Not even breathing hard," said Rigo.
"They've been getting better every day." He sounded enthusiastic, and
Marjorie knew that he was scheming. Rigo was always happiest when he had some
kind of covert activity going on. What would it be? Something to astonish the
natives? He went on bubbling about the horses. "Remarkable how quickly
they've recovered."
"Like us," Marjorie offered. "A day or
two feeling miserable and then we felt like ourselves. They haven't lost their
muscle tone. Let's do a few minutes more and then walk them back. We'll do more
tomorrow."
She mounted, again falling into the familiar rhythm.
Half pass, tight circle, half pass again.
Something at the ridge line caught her eye, a darker
shadow in the glare of spring sun. She looked up, puzzled, seeing the forms
there, silhouetted against the light, so dazzled by the sun that she could not
make them out clearly. Horses? An impression of arched necks and rounded
haunches, only that. She couldn't tell how large they were or how far away.
El Dia Octavo stopped, staring where Marjorie stared,
making a troubled noise in his throat, the skin over his shoulders quivering as
at the assault of stinging flies. "Shhh," she said, patting him on
the neck, troubled for his trouble. Something up there bothered him. She stared
up at the sun-dazzle again, trying to get a good look. A cloud moved toward the
sun, but just before the light dimmed, the dark silhouettes vanished from the
ridge.
The watchers seemed to prefer to remain unobserved.
She urged Octavo forward, wanting to ride to the ridge and see where they had
gone, whatever they were.
The stallion quivered as though he were in pain, as
though something were terribly wrong. He made a noise in his throat, precursor
to a scream. Only her legs tight around him and her hand on his neck held him
fast. He seemed barely able to stand, unable to advance.
Interesting, she thought with the surface of her
mind, noticing the way Octavo's hide was trembling over his shoulders. She no
longer urged him to move but concentrated only on calming him.
"Shhh," she said again. "It's all right, it's all right."
Then, suddenly aware of the deep, causeless thrill of
terror inside herself, she knew what the horse was feeling and that it was not
all right.
5
The morning of the Hunt found all the Yrariers full
of odd anxieties they were loath to show, much less share. Marjorie, sleepless
through much of the night, rising early to walk through the connecting tunnel
to the chapel, attending early mass, admitting her nervousness to Rigo when she
found him in the dining room when she returned. He, pretending calm, inside
himself as jittery as any pre-race jockey, full of mocking lizards squirming in
his belly. Tony, lonely, that much evident from the eagerness with which he
greeted them when he came into the room, bending over his mother with a hug
that was slightly clinging. Stella, disdainful, expressing no affection at all,
half dressed, full of angry invective and threats against the peace and
tranquility of Grass.
"It'll be awful." she said. "Not
riding, I mean. I have half a mind not to go. Why won't they—"
"Shh," said her mother. "We promised
one another we wouldn't ask. We don't know enough yet. Eat your breakfast. We
want to be ready when the thing comes." The thing. The vehicle. The
not-horse which they were expected to ride within. All the Grassian vehicles
seemed to be mechanical devices trying to look like something else: drawing
room ornaments or lawn statuary or bits of baroque sculpture. The one that had
brought the horses had looked like nothing so much as an aerial version of an
ancient wine amphora, complete with stylized representations of dancers around
its middle. Tony had told her it had been all he could do not to laugh when he
saw it; and Marjorie, who had watched its laborious descent with disbelief, had
turned aside to hide her amusement. Now she said again, "Eat your
breakfast," wondering if she needed to warn Stella not to laugh. If she
warned Stella not to, Stella would. If she didn't, Stella might not. Sighing,
Marjorie fingered the prayer book in her pocket and left it to God.
They did eat their breakfast, all of them,
ravenously, leaving very little of what had looked like a large repast for
twice as many people. Marjorie ran her hand around her waistband, noting that
it seemed loose. With everything she was eating she still seemed to be losing
weight.
The aircar, when it arrived, was overly ornamental
but not actually funny, a luxurious flier, engineered for vertical ascent. Once
inside it with Obermun bon Haunser as their guide, they lowered themselves into
deeply padded seats and were given cups of the local hot drink—which was
called, though it did not resemble, coffee—while the silent (and apparently
non-bon) driver set off toward an unseen destination. They flew to the
northeast as the Obermun pointed out notable landmarks. "Crimson
Ridge," he said, indicating a long rise deeply flushed with pink. "It
will be blood-red in another week or two. Off to your right are the Sable
Hills. I hope you feel somewhat privileged. You are among the very few
non-Grassians who have ever seen anything of our planet except for Commoner
Town, around the port"
"I wondered about Commoner Town," said
Rigo. "On the maps it shows as a considerable area, some fifty miles long
and two or three miles wide, completely surrounded by forest. I understand it
is entirely given over to commerce or farming. When we arrived, I saw roads in
and around Commoner Town, though there are none on the rest of the planet"
"As I have previously explained to your wife,
Ambassador, there is no grassland around Commoner Town. When we speak of the
town, we mean the whole area, everything right down to the edge of the swamp.
Here on Grass, where swamp is, trees are, as you can see if you look to your
left. That is the port-forest coming up below. Quite a different surface from
the rest of the planet, is it not? It doesn't matter if they have roads in
Commoner Town, because there is no grass to destroy, and they cannot get out
through the swamp." Obermun bon Haunser pointed down at the billowing
green centered with urban clutter, his nostrils flaring only very slightly in
what was unmistakably an expression of contempt. He had spoken of the roads as
though they were something malevolent, something seeking subtle egress, like
serpents caged against their will.
Stella started to blurt something but held it in as
she received the full force of a forbidding glare from her father.
"You prefer they not get out?" Anthony
asked, with precisely the right tone of disingenuous interest. "The roads
or the commoners? Why is that?"
The Obermun flushed. He had obviously said something
spontaneous and unplanned which he now regretted. "The commoners have no
wish to leave the town. I meant the roads, my boy. I cannot expect you to
understand the horror we have of marring the grasses. We have no fear of
harvesting them, you understand, or making use of them, but scarring them
lastingly is abhorrent to us. There are no roads on Grass except for the narrow
trails linking each estancia to its own village, and even these we
regret."
"All exchanges between estancias, then, are by
air?"
"All transport of persons or material, yes. The
tell-me provides informational exchange. Information entered at your node at
Opal Hill can be directed to specific recipients or to certain sets of
recipients or used for correspondence with elsewhere. The tell-me links all the estancias and Commoner
Town. All travel, however, all deliveries of imports or shipments of export
material, are by air."
"Imports and exports? Consisting of what,
mostly?" This was Stella, deciding to be a good child for the moment.
The Obermun hemmed and hawed. "Well, imports are
mostly manufactured goods and some luxury products such as wines and fabrics.
For the most part, exports are what you might expect: various grass products.
Grass exports grain and colored fiber. I am told by the commoners who attend
to such matters that the larger grasses are much in demand for the construction
of furniture. The merchants liken it to Terran bamboo. There is some export of
seed, both as grain and for planting elsewhere. Some of the grasses thrive on
other planets, I am told. Some which thrive only here yield valuable
pharmaceutical products. Some are highly ornamental, as you have no doubt observed.
It's all done by license to various commoner firms. We bons haven't the time or
inclination to be directly involved with the business. I don't suppose it's
very lucrative, but it is sufficient to support us and the town, which is to
our advantage."
Rigo, remembering the huge warehouses and the
thriving shipping he had seen at the port, suppressed any comment. "And do
I understand correctly that the grasses aren't botanically related to Terran
grasses? They're indigenous? Not imports?"
"No. They are not even similar on the genetic
level. Almost all the varieties were here when we arrived. The Green Brothers
have hybridized a few to get certain colors or effects. You will have heard of
the Green Brothers?" It was not really a question, for the man stared out
the window of the flier, the line of his jaw and mouth expressing discomfort.
Whatever they had been talking about was something that upset him. "They
were sent here long ago to dig up the ruins of the Arbai city, and they took up
gardening as a sort of hobby."
Marjorie welcomed the change of subject. "I
didn't know there was an Arbai ruin on Grass."
"Oh, yes. In the north. The Brothers have been
digging away at it for a very long time. I am told it is like most such cities,
flat and widespread, which makes it a long task to uncover. I have not seen it
myself." He was manifestly uninterested.
Marjorie changed the subject again. "Will we
have the opportunity to meet any members of your family today, Obermun?"
"Mine?" he started, surprised. "No,
no. The Hunt is still at the bon Damfels'. It will be at the bon Damfels' all
this period, before moving on to the bon Maukerdens'."
"Oh," Marjorie said, surprised into
speaking without thought. "I thought you said the bon Damfels were in
mourning."
"Of course," he said impatiently. "But
that would not interrupt the Hunt."
Rigo threw her an admonitory glance which she
pretended not to see, persisting sweetly. "Will others be riding with the
bon Damfels?"
"Two or three houses usually hunt together.
Today the bon Damfels will be hunting with the bon Laupmons and the bon
Haunsers."
"But not your family."
"Not my wife and children, no. The women and
younger children usually ride only with the home Hunt." He set his jaw.
She had happened upon a sensitive subject once more.
Marjorie sighed to herself. What subjects were not
sensitive on this place?
"We will be landing just ahead!" the
Obermun cried. "Have we arrived at Klive so soon?"
"Oh, you could not come to Klive in this flier,
Lady Marjorie. It is too noisy. It would upset the hounds. No, we will go from
this point by balloon-car. Balloon-cars are virtually silent. And comparatively
slow, so you will be able to see what is going on."
And in the luxurious cabin of a propeller-driven
balloon-car, a car with windows at the sides and below and so overly garnished
as to appear unintended for its function, they went forward to land silently
upon a side lawn of Klive. They were greeted by Stavenger. the Obermun bon
Damfels, and by Rowena, the Obermum bon Damfels. both dressed in black with
small purple capes and veils. Mourning garb, obviously.
The visitors were offered wine. Rowena sipped.
Stavenger took none. The Yrariers commented upon the fine weather. Marjorie murmured
a few words of sympathy for their loss. Stavenger seemed not to hear what she
said. Rowena, eyes deep-sunk in shadowed circles, seemed to be elsewhere, lost
in some private grief too deep and remote to let her communicate with the
outside world. Or perhaps verbal expressions of grief were not customary.
Seeing the behavior of others around them, Marjorie gradually came to the
conclusion that this interpretation was correct. Though the bon Damfels wore
mourning, no one took any notice of it.
The Yrariers were introduced to other family
members—two daughters, two sons, the names merely mumbled so that Marjorie was
unsure of them. One of the sons gave her a long look, as though measuring her
for a suit of clothing—or a shroud, Marjorie thought with a shiver. He was very
pale and intense in his dark clothing, though no less handsome for that. It was
a handsome family. The other bon Damfels children seemed remote and distracted,
responding only to direct questions, and not always then.
Stella frankly flirted, in a gay, self-deprecating
way She had always found it useful in making friends, and it had never failed
her until now. Only the one bon Damfels son returned her gambits with a few
words and a half smile. All the others seemed frozen. Gradually the girl fell
silent, confused, slightly angry.
A bell rang. All the bon Damfels but Rowena excused
themselves and departed suddenly. One moment they were there, the next they
were gone.
"They have gone to dress for the Hunt. If you
will come with me," she invited in a near whisper, "we will watch
from the balconies until the Hunt departs."
Tony and Marjorie went with her, casting one another
questioning looks. Nothing here was predictable or familiar. No word, no
attitude conveyed any emotion with which they could empathize. Rigo and Stella
stalked along behind them, their dark, intense eyes eating up the landscape and
spitting it out. There and there. So much for your gardens. So much for your
hospitality. So much for your grief and your hunt which you will not share with
us. Marjorie felt them simmering behind her, and her skin quivered. This was
not diplomatic. This hostility was not the way things should go.
Still, they went on simmering as they were ensconced
upon the balcony and provided with food and drink. Nothing was familiar,
nothing resembled any such gathering at home. They looked down at the empty
first surface for a time in silence, sipping, nibbling, trying not to seem
ravenous, which they were, casting sidelong looks at Rowena's distracted face.
After a time, servant women in long white skirts came
out onto the first surface, bearing trays of tiny, steaming glasses. The
hunters began to trickle in. At first glance the hunters seemed to be dressed
in familiar fashion, then one noticed the vast and padded trousers, like
inflated jodhpurs, creating bowlegged, steatopygous curves, at first laughable,
and then, when one saw the hunters' faces, not amusing at all. Each hunter took
a pale, steaming glass and drank, one glass only, a swallow or two, no more.
Few of them spoke and those few were among the younger ones. When the horn
sounded, though it sounded softly, Marjorie almost leapt from her chair. The
hunters turned toward the eastern gate, which opened slowly. The hounds entered
and Marjorie could not keep from gasping. She turned toward Rowena and was
surprised to see a look of hatred there, a look of baffled rage. Quickly.
Marjorie looked away. It had not been an expression their hostess had meant
anyone to see.
"My God," breathed Rigo in awe, all his
animosity set aside in that moment of shock.
The hounds were the size of Terran horses, muscled
like lions, with broad, triangular heads and lips curled back to display jagged
ridges of bone or tooth. Herbivores, Rigo thought at first. And yet there were
fangs at the front of those jaws. Omnivores? They had reticulated hides, a
network of lighter color surrounding shapeless patches of darker skin. Either
they had no hair or very short hair. They were silent. Their tongues dripped
onto the path as they paced in pairs, split to go around the waiting riders,
joined again in pairs, and proceeded toward another gate at the western side
of the courtyard.
"Come," said Rowena in her expressionless
voice. "We must go down the hall to see the Hunt depart."
They followed her wordlessly down a long corridor and
onto another balcony which looked out over the garden beyond the wall— where
jaw-dropping shock waited, and a blaze of fear which was like sudden fire. They
stood swaying, clutching the railing before them, not believing what they saw.
"Hippae." Marjorie identified them to herself, shuddering. Why had
she supposed they would look like horses? How naive she had been! How stupid
Sanctity had been. Hadn't anyone at Sanctity made any effort to—No. Of course
they hadn't. Even if they had tried, there hadn't been time. Her thoughts
trailed away into shivering depths of barely controlled terror.
"Hippae," thought Rigo, sweating, taking
refuge in anger. Mark another one down against Sender O'Neil. That damned fool.
And the Hierarch. Poor uncle. Poor dying old man, he simply hadn't known. Rigo
held onto the railing with both hands, pulling himself together with all his
force. Beside him he was conscious of Stella leaning forward, breathing heavily,
quivering. From the corner of his eye he saw Marjorie put her hand over Tony's
and squeeze it.
Below them the monsters pranced silently, twice the
size of the hounds, their long necks arching in an almost horselike curve,
those necks spined with arm-long scimitars of pointed, knife-edged bone,
longest on the head and midway down the neck, shorter at the lower neck and
shoulders. The eyes of the mounts were burning orbs of red. Their backs were
armored with great calluses of hard and glistening hide.
Stavenger bon Damfels was preparing to mount, and
Marjorie bit back an exclamation. The mount half crouched as it extended its
left foreleg. Stavenger stepped up on the leg with his left foot, raising his
left arm at the same time to throw a ring up and over the lowest of the jutting
spines. With his left hand on the ring, close to the spine, he pulled and leapt
simultaneously, right leg high to slide over the huge back. He settled just
behind the monstrous shoulders, his hands parting widely to reveal thin straps
which pulled the ring tight around the blade of bone. Stavenger turned his
hands, wrapping the straps around his fingers, gripping them.
"Reins," Marjorie thought fleetingly; then, "No, not
reins," for the straps were obviously only something to hold on to, only a
place to put one's hands. There was no way they could be used to direct the
enormous mount or even to signal it. One could not take hold of the razorlike
barb itself without cutting off ones fingers. One could not lean forward
without skewering oneself. One had to brace oneself back, leaning back in an
endless, spine-straining posture which must be agonizing to hold even for a few
moments. Otherwise ... otherwise one would be spitted upon those spines.
Along the animal's mighty ribs were a series of deep
pockmarks, into which Stavenger thrust the long pointed toes of his boots,
bracing himself away from the danger before him. His belly was only inches from
the razor edges. On his back, slung across his shoulder, he wore a case like a
narrow, elongated quiver. As the mount turned, rearing, Stavenger's eyes slid
across Marjorie's gaze with the slickness of ice. His face was not merely empty
but stripped bare. There was nothing there. He made no effort to speak to the
mount or guide it in any way. It went where it decided to go, taking him with
it. Another of the Hippae approached a rider and was mounted in its turn.
Marjorie still held Tony's hand, turned him to face
her, looked at him deeply, warningly. He was as pale as milk. Stella was
sweating with a feverish excitement in her eyes. Marjorie was cold all over,
and she shook herself, forcing herself to speak. She would not be silenced by
these ... by these whatever they were.
"Excuse me," Marjorie said, loudly enough
to break through their silence, through Rowena's abstracted fascination,
"but do your . . your mounts have hooves? I cannot see from here."
"Three," murmured Rowena, so softly they
could scarcely hear her. Then louder. "Yes. Three. Three sharp hooves on
each foot. Or I should say, three toes, each with a triangular hoof. And two
rudimentary thumbs, higher on the leg"
"And the hounds?"
"They, too. Except that their hooves are softer.
More like pads. It makes them very sure-footed."
Almost all of the hunters were mounted.
"Come," Rowena said again in the same
emotionless voice she had said everything else. "The transport will be
waiting for you." She glided before them as if on wheels, her wide skirts
floating above the polished floors like an inconsolable balloon, swollen and
ready to burst with grief. She did not look at them, did not say their names.
It was as if she had not really seen them, did not see them now. Her eyes were
fixed upon some interior vision of intimate horror so vividly imagined that
Marjorie could almost see it in her eyes. When they approached the car, Rowena
turned away and floated back the way they had come.
Waiting near the car was Eric bon Haunser. "My
brother has joined the Hunt," he explained. "Since I no longer ride,
I have volunteered to go with you. Perhaps you will have questions I can
answer." He moved somewhat awkwardly on his artificial legs, stopping at
the door of the balloon-car to nod for Marjorie to enter first.
They rose to float silently over the Hunt, driven by
silent propellers as they watched long miles flow by under the hooves of the
mounts, longer and more tortuous miles run beneath the wider-ranging feet of
the hounds. From the air the animals were only short, thick blotches
superimposed on the texture of the grass, blotches which pulsated, becoming
longer and shorter as legs extended or gathered for the next leap, mounts and
hounds distinguishable from one another only by the presence of riders, the
riders themselves reduced to mere excrescences, warts upon the pulsating lines.
The hunters entered a copse, hidden from the air. After a time they emerged and
ran off toward another copse. After a time, the Yrariers forgot what they were
watching. They could as well have been observing ants. Or fish in a stream, Or
water flowing, wind blowing. There was nothing individual in the movement of
the beasts. Only the spots of red spoke of human involvement. Except for those
dots of red, the animals might have been alone in their quest. Though
occasionally the grass moved ahead of the mounts, the observers could not see
whatever quarry the Hunt was chasing.
Marjorie tried to estimate how fast the animals below
them were running. She thought it was not as fast as a horse would cover the
same distance, though it might not be possible for horses to thrust through
tall, thick grasses as the animals below were doing. She spent some time
estimating whether horses could outrun the Hippae— deciding they might be able
to do so on the flat, though not uphill— then wondered why she was thinking of
horses at all.
At last they came to a final copse and hovered above
it. Branches quivered. High upon the roof of the copse the fox crawled onto a
twiggy platform, screaming defiance at the sky. Over the soft whir of the
propellers, they heard him. All they really saw was an explosion of what might
have been fur or scales or fangs, talons, a great shaking and scouring among
the leaves, an impression of ferocity, of something huge and indomitable.
"Fox," Anthony muttered, his voice
breaking. "Fox. That thing is the size of half a dozen tigers." His
mother's hand silenced his words, though his mind went on nattering at him.
Where it isn't toothy, it's bony. My God. Fox, Merciful Father, will they expect
me to ride after that thing? I won't. Whatever they expect, I just won't!
Ride, Stella thought. I could ride the way they do. A
horse is nothing to that. Nothing at all. I wonder if they'll let me ...
Ride, thought Marjorie in a fever of abhorrence. That
isn't riding. What they are doing. Something within her writhed in disgust and
horror; she did not know what the people below her were doing, but it was not
riding, not horsemanship. Suppose they want us to join their Hunt? She thought.
At least one of us. I suppose there are teachers. Will we have to do this to be
respected by them?
Ride, thought Rigo. To ride something like that! They
will not think me a man unless I do, and their tribal egotism will try to keep
me out. How? We are being treated as mere tourists, not as residents. I won't
have it! Damn Sanctity. Damn Uncle Carlos. Damn Sender O'Neil. Damn him and
damn him."
"The whole of Grass is horse-mad," Sender
O'Neil had said. "Horse-mad and class-conscious. The Hierarch, your uncle,
suggested you for the mission. You and your family are the best candidates we
have."
"The best candidates you have for what?"
Rigo had asked. "And why the devil should we care?" The invocation of
old Uncle Carlos was doing nothing to make him more polite, though it had made
him slightly curious.
"The best candidate to be accepted by the
aristocrats on Grass. As for why ..." The man had licked his lips again,
this time nervously. He had been about to say words which were not said, not by
anyone in Sanctity. So far as Sanctity was concerned, the words were impossible
to say. "The plague," he had whispered.
Roderigo had been silent. The acolyte had prepared
him for this, at least. He was angry but not surprised.
Sender had shaken his head, waved his hands, palms
out, warding away the anger he felt coming from Rigo "All right. Sanctity
doesn't admit the plague exists, but we have reason to keep silent. Even the
Hierarch, your uncle, he agreed. Every society mankind has built will fall
apart the minute we admit it and start talking about it."
''You can't be certain of that!"
"The machines say so. Every computer model they
try says so. Because there's no hope. No cure. No hope for a cure. No means of
prevention. We have the virus, but we haven't found any way to make our immune
systems manufacture antibodies. We don't even know where it's coming from. We
have nothing. The machines advise us that if we tell people ... well, it will
be the end."
"The end of Sanctity? Why should I care about
that?"
"Not Sanctity, man! The end of civilization. The
end of mankind. The mortality rate is one hundred percent! Your family will
die. Mine. All of us. It isn't just Sanctity. It's the end of the human race.
It's you as much as me!"
Rigo, shocked into awareness by the man's vehemence,
asked, "What makes you think there's an answer on Grass?"
"Something. Maybe only rumor, only fairy tales.
Maybe only wishful thinking. Maybe like the fabled cities of gold or the
unicorn or the philosopher's stone ..."
"But maybe?"
"Maybe something real. According to our temple
on Semling, there is no plague at all on Grass."
"There's none here on Terra!"
"Oh, Lord, man if that were only true! There's
none here that anyone is allowed to see. But I've seen it." The man wiped
his face again, eyes brimming with sudden tears, and his jaw clenched as though
he were holding down bile that threatened to flood his throat. "I've seen
it. Men. Animals. It's everywhere. I'll show it to you, if you like."
Roderigo had already seen plague. He hadn't known it
was on Terra or that it afflicted animals, but he, too, had seen it. He waved
the offer aside, concentrating. "But there's none on Grass? Perhaps it's
only hidden, as you do here."
"Our people don't think they could be hiding it.
The Grassians seem to have no structure to hide it. Funny kind of place. But if
there's none there ..."
"What you're implying is that it's the only
place where there is none. Are you saying there
is plague everywhere else?"
Sender, pallid and sweating, nodded and then
whispered, "We have at least one temple on virtually every occupied world.
In the few places where there's no temple, there's at least a mission. We are
responsible for hiding what's happening, so yes, we know where plague is. It is
everywhere,"
Rigo flushed with sudden fury. "Well then, for
the sake of heaven, why aren't the scientists and researchers on the way there!
Why come to me?"
"The aristocrats who run the place won't give
permission for scientists and researchers to visit the planet. Oh, we could
send our people into the port town, yes. Place is called Commoner Town. It's
open to visitors. But there's no such thing as immigration. They'd get a
visitor's permit, good until the next ship came through headed in the right
direction. We've already done that a few times. Our people can't find out
anything. Not there in the port. And do you think they can get anywhere else on
Grass? Not on your life. Not on anyone's. Sanctity has no power on the
planet."
Rigo stared, frankly unbelieving. "You really
have no mission there?"
'The only contact Sanctity has with Grass is through
the penitential encampment working on the Arbai ruins. Not all our acolytes
work out. It won't do to send them home to teach other unwilling boys how to
get out of their service. So we send them to Grass. Our encampment was already
there when the Grassians arrived. The Green Brothers. So named because of the
robes they wear. There must be over a thousand of them, but they have virtually
no contact with the aristocrats. Over a hundred years ago the Hierarch ordered
them to develop some interest they could use as common ground with the
Grassians, but there really is no common ground."
"Trying to make your penitents into more of your
damn missionaries," snarled Rigo.
O'Neil wiped his brow. "Oh, I won't deny that's
what the man in charge of Acceptable Doctrine would like. His name's Jhamlees
Zoe, and he gets madder than a teased bull about our not converting the planet
to Sanctity, by force if necessary. The Hierarch sends him word to calm down or
come home, and it only makes him madder," O'Neil wiped his forehead where
the sweat glistened.
"What did the brothers do to develop ties with
the aristocrats?"
"They took up gardening." O'Neil laughed
harshly. "Gardening! They've become specialists in that. Oh, they've
become renowned for that. So well known even Jhamlees didn't dare put a stop to
it. But that still doesn't give them any day-to-day contact with the rest of
the planet, not enough to learn anything. And the damned aristos won't let us
in!"
"Not even when you told them ..."
"The Grassians aren't suffering. We've tried to
describe to them what's happening, but they don't seem to care. They were
separatists to begin with, more concerned with maintaining the privileges of
their rank than with any human concerns. Lesser nobility. Or perhaps merely
pretenders at nobility. European, mostly, and ridiculously proud of their noble
blood, full of pretensions about it. That's why they've consistently refused
permission for a temple or a mission. Ten generations on Grass has only made
them more isolationist, more ... more strange It's like they've had iron walls
built in their heads! They refuse to be studied. They refuse to be
proselytized. They refuse to be visited! Except, maybe, by someone like you....
"Sanctity has a navy." Rigo said it as
fact. He disapproved of that fact, but it was true. Planetary governments were
isolated and parochial and content to be so, Once the initial explosive
overflow of humanity had taken place, Sanctity had done everything it could to
stop further exploration. The faith had not wanted men to be so widespread they
couldn't be evangelized and controlled. Discovery had stopped, along with
science and art and invention. Though its military technology was centuries old,
Sanctity maintained the only interstellar force.
Sender O'Neil sighed deeply. "It's been
considered. If we take troopers in there, the reason couldn't be kept secret,
not for long. All hell would break loose. We can't even consider it until we
know for sure that there's something there. Please. Whatever you think of us,
give us credit for some intelligence! We've computer-modeled everything. Our
best people have done it over and over again. News of the plague and use of force would be equally disastrous! Have you
heard of the Moldies?"
"Some kind of end-of-the-world sect, aren't
they?"
"End of the universe, more likely. But yes, they
fervently desire the end of the world, the human world. They call themselves
the Martyrs of the Last Days. They believe the time has come to end all human
life. They believe in an afterlife which will only commence when this one has
ended, for everyone. We've recently learned that the Moldies are 'helping' the
plague."
"My God!"
"Yes. Anyone's God!"
"How?"
"Carrying infected materials from one place to
another. Like the ancient anarchists, destroying so that something better can
come."
"What has this to do with—"
"It has this to do with. All Sanctity's
resources are tied up in tracking and expunging the Moldies. They seem to be
everywhere, to breed out of nothing. If they heard ... if they knew there was a
chance that Grass—"
"They'd go there?"
"They'd wreck whatever slim chance there may be.
No, whatever we do, it must be covert, quiet, without drawing any notice.
According to the computers, we've got five to seven years in which to act.
After that, the plague may have gone so far that—Well. The Grassians have said
they'll accept an ambassador."
"I see." And he had seen. The Grassians would
consent to a delaying action. Enough to make Sanctity eschew any ideas of
using force, but not enough to seriously inconvenience anyone on Grass.
"You say they ride?" Rigo had asked Sender
O'Neil, trying to change the pictures of doom and destruction which had swarmed
into his mind. "You say they ride? Did they take horses, hounds, and foxes
with them when they settled there?"
"No. They found indigenous variants upon the
theme." O'Neil had licked his pursy lips, liking this phrase and repeating
it. "Indigenous variants."
Indigenous
variants, Rigo thought now as he sat in a
balloon-car poised above a copse of great trees on Grass and saw the thing
called fox climb into view. He could not see it clearly. He did not glance at
his family, though he felt the strain of their silence. He stared down,
unconscious for the moment of the need to hide his feelings, and repeated
O'Neil's phrase. "Indigenous variants." He said it aloud, not
realizing he had spoken. When Eric bon Haunser looked at him inquiringly he blurted,
without meaning to, "I'm afraid it is utterly unlike our foxes at
home."
The huge, amorphous creature was pulled struggling
from the crown of the copse while bon Haunser described what was probably
taking place below the trees. He spoke openly, almost offhandedly, carefully
ignoring their reaction to the sight of the thing.
When they had returned partway to Klive, Rigo
recovered himself sufficiently to say, "You seem very objective about all
this. Forgive me, but your brother seemed ... how can I describe it?
Embarrassed? Defensive?"
"I don't ride any longer." said Eric,
flushing. "My legs. A hunting accident. Those of us who don't ride—some of
us at least—we become less enthusiastic." He said this diffidently, as
though he were not quite sure of it, and he did not offer to explain what it
was about the Hunt that made the current riders unwilling to talk about it.
Each of the Yrariers had his or her own ideas about the matter, ideas which
they incubated as they sailed silently over the prairies, in time each
achieving an imperiled calm.
They arrived back at Klive before the riders did and
were met, though scarcely welcomed, by Rowena. She escorted them to a large
reception room overlooking the first surface, where she introduced them to the
gaggle of pregnant women and children and older men who were eating, drinking,
and playing games at scattered tables. She encouraged the Yrariers to tell the
servants what they wanted to drink and serve themselves from the laden buffet,
then she drifted away. Eric bon Haunser joined them. Very shortly thereafter a
horn blew outside the western gate and the riders began to trickle in. Most
went immediately to bathe and change their clothing, but a few came into the
room, obviously famished.
Eric murmured, 'They have drunk nothing for twelve
hours before the Hunt except the palliative offered before the Hounds come in.
Once the Hunt has begun, there is no opportunity to relieve oneself."
"Most uncomfortable," Marjorie mused, lost
in recollection of the sharp implacable spines on the necks of the mounts.
"Is it really worth it?"
He shook his head. "I am no philosopher, Lady
Westriding. If you were to ask my brother, he would say yes. If you ask me, I
may say yes or no. But then, he rides and I don't."
"I ride," said a voice from behind them.
"But I say no."
Marjorie turned to confront the owner of the voice,
tall, broad-shouldered, not greatly younger than herself, dressed in stained
trousers and red coat, his hunting cap under his arm and a full glass held to
his lips. She saw that those lips trembled, though so slightly she doubted
anyone but herself would have noticed.
"Forgive me," he said. "I'm
excessively thirsty." His lips tightened upon the rim of the glass, making
it quiver. Something held him in the grip of emotion, slurring his words.
"I can imagine that you are thirsty," she
said. "We met this morning, didn't we? You look quite different in your...
in your hunting clothes."
"I am Sylvan bon Damfels," he said with a
slight bow. "We did meet, yes. I am the younger son of Stavenger and
Rowena bon Damfels."
Stella was standing with Rigo across the room. She
saw Sylvan talking to her mother; her expression changed, and she moved toward the
two of them, her eyes fixed on Sylvan as she came. There were other bows, other
murmurs of introduction. Eric bon Haunser stepped away, leaving Marjorie and
the children with Sylvan,
"You say no," Marjorie prompted him.
"No, that riding isn't worth it, even though you ride?"
"I do," he said, coloring along his
cheekbones, his eyes flicking around the room to see who might be listening,
the cords of his throat standing out as though he struggled to speak at all.
"To you, madam, and to you, miss and sir, I say it. With the understanding
that you will not quote me to any member of my family, or to any other of the
bons." He panted.
"Certainly." Anthony was still very pale,
as he had been since he saw the fox—or foxen, as most of the Grassians called
the beast, meaning one or a dozen—but he had regained his poise. "If you
wish it. You have our promise."
"I say it because you may be asked to ride.
Invited, as it were. I had thought it impossible until I met your husband. Now
I still consider it unlikely, but it could happen. If it does, I caution you,
do not accept." He looked them each in the eye, fully, as though seeking
their inmost parts, then bowed again and left them, rubbing his throat as
though it hurt him.
"Honestly!" Stella bridled, tossing her
head. "Honestly, indeed," said Marjorie. "I think it would be
wise as well as kind not to repeat what he said, Stel."
"Of all the snubs!"
"Not so intended, I think-"
"Those mounts of theirs may scare you, and they
may scare him, but they don't scare me! I could ride those things. I know I
could." Marjorie's soul quaked within her, and it was all she could do to
keep her voice calm. "I know you could, Stella I could, too. Given
sufficient practice, I imagine any of us could. The question is, should we?
Should any of us? I think we have one friend in this room, and I think that
friend just told us no."
6
The Arbai ruin on Grass is, in most respects, like
all Arbai ruins: enigmatic, recently abandoned—in terms of archaeologic
time—and speaking of some mystery which man can feel without comprehending.
Other cities of the Arbai, those found elsewhere, are populated by wind and
dust and a scattering of Arbai bones. So few Arbai remains have been found in
those other cities that man has questioned why, with such a meager population,
the cities should have been so large. They are large in terms of size, of
perimeter, if not in terms of height or mass. They sprawl. Their much-crafted
streets curve and recurve; their carved housefronts arc gently in concurrence.
No vehicles have ever been found in any of the cities. These people walked or
ran about their mysterious business, whatever it may have been.
Each city has a library. Each has a mysterious
structure in the town square which is identified variously as a sculpture or a
religious icon. Outside each city are other enigmatic mechanisms which are
thought to be garbage disposers or crematories. A few have suggested they might
be transportation devices, no ships having ever been found. Some people think
they may be all three. If they are furnaces, the bodies of the inhabitants of
the cities could have been burned, which would explain the sparse scattering of
remains. Equally well, the inhabitants might have moved on somewhere else. The
diggers and theoreticians cannot agree upon either alternative, though they
have argued learnedly for generations.
In the more representative Arbai cities only a few
whole skeletons have been found, always in ones or twos behind closed doors, as
though those Arbai who had stayed behind after the others had gone were too few
to attend to the obsequies of departure. Not so upon Grass.
On Grass bodies lie by the hundreds in the houses, in
the streets, in the library and the plaza. Everywhere the Green Brothers dig,
they find mummified remains.
Most of the digging over the years has been done by
strong young men who have had little interest in what they uncovered.
Inevitably, however, there have been a few who found themselves fascinated and
enthralled by the ancient walls, the ancient artifacts, the ancient bodies.
Some few have willingly given their lives to this work, applying all their
intelligence to it. Sometimes there have been two or three of these fanatics at
a time.
But only one man is currently focusing his
intelligence upon the Arbai. He, like others before him, has learned to hide
his genuine interest from those in authority. Brother Mainoa, once a miserable
young acolyte of Sanctity, long since exiled and grown to suck-toothed age, to
the shaggy gray locks and the wrinkled eye-pockets of an elder though to none
of the honors some find in that estate; Brother Mainoa, like his predecessors
an amateur, a lover of his work, has found his heart's home amid these ancient
stones. He has come to consider these trenchlike streets his own, these his
dwellings and plazas, these his shops and libraries, though there is nothing in
any of them that he can use or believes he will ever truly understand. Mainoa
has uncovered almost half of the Arbai bodies himself. He has named them all.
He lives out most of his life among them. They have become his friends, though
not his only friends.
Of an evening, Brother Mainoa sometimes went away
from the dig to a nearby copse where he could sit on a kneed-up root with his
evening pipe, leaning against the trunk of the tree as he talked to the air.
Tonight he reclined on his accustomed root with a sigh. His bones hurt. Not
unusual. Most nights his bones hurt and some mornings, as well. Sleeping in
barely heated quarters on a sack stuffed with grass didn't help much, though
he'd been less achy since he'd fixed the roof. He took a deep puff of fragrant
smoke, let it out slowly, then spoke, as though to himself.
"The purple grass, now, not that Cloak of Kings
stuff but the lighter purple with the blue bloom on it. that goes well with the
rose. Tests out a complete protein mixed about two to one, very sustaining.
Flavor's nothing to proclaim at daily prayers, but it'll come, it'll
come."
A sound as of some huge, interested purring came from
the tree, high above the old man's head.
"Well, of course the yellowgrass is the old
standby, just before I left the Friary last time to come down here to the dig,
Elder Brother Laeroa told me he'd improved on it. I don't know whether to
believe that or not; it'd be hard to do. Yellowgrass is almost perfect as it
is, just that there's so little of it. It wants the tall orange stem on the sun
side of it and something lower, like little green or middle 'zure, on the shade
side, the blessed angels know why, but that's the way it is. Elder Laeroa says
he's tempted to plant it in stripes and see how it does, but that'd stick out
like a sore thumb...."
The purring again, with a note of interrogation.
"Of course they watch us," sighed Brother
Mainoa. "Listen to the young Brothers, the cloud crawlers, the ones that
wallow around up on that net among the towers. Listen to them tell it. What
they see is eyes out there in the grass, staring at the Friary. Of course they
watch us. That's what makes it so hard finding things out."
Nothing from above. Brother Mainoa risked a look
straight up, seeing nothing but the pale sky through a thatch of twig and leaf,
one star pricking out at the zenith, like a single sequin dropped from the
skirt of a careless angel. A little to his left, so high that it caught the
final rays of the sun with a silken glimmer, he could see a few strands of the
net among the towers at the Friary itself, just over the horizon.
"Talking to yourself again, Brother?" said
a reproving voice. Brother Mainoa started. The figure under the neighboring
tree was half hidden in shadow. The voice was that of Elder Brother Noazee
Fuasoi, deputy head of the office of Security and Acceptable Doctrine at the
Friary, and what the blazing hell was he doing down here at the dig!
"Just muttering, Elder Brother," Mainoa
murmured as he rose and stood respectfully, wondering if the man had followed
him, and if so, how long he'd been standing there. "Muttering about the
dig, trying to figure it out."
"Sounded like gardening to me, Brother."
"Well, yes. That, too. Trying out effects in my
head, so to speak."
i"Bad habit to get into, Brother Mainoa.
Disruptive of the silence and demeanor of the order. Clinging to such bad
habits is probably why you're still assigned to digging up ruins rather than to
the more dignified duties your age would warrant. If you'd behaved properly,
you'd have been assigned to a desk job back at the Friary a long time
ago."
"Yes, Elder Brother," said Brother Mainoa
obediently while thinking something not at all obedient about those who were
assigned to desk jobs at the Friary. "I'll try to curb the habit."
"See that you do. I wouldn't want to call you up
before Eldest Brother Jhamlees Zoe. Eldest Brother Jhamlees takes his Doctrine
very seriously."
At least that was the truth. Jhamlees Zoe was too
recently arrived to have calmed down yet. Still trying to find something on
Grass to convert. Mainoa sighed. "Yes, Elder Brother."
"I came down here to tell you you're assigned to
escort duty. We have a recalcitrant acolyte coming in from Sanctity. Brother
Shoethai and I brought a car down from the Friary for you to use when you pick
him up tomorrow morning."
Brother Mainoa bowed obediently and kept his mouth
shut. Elder Brother Fuasoi belched and rubbed his stomach reflectively.
"Boy had less than a year to go and he went jerky. Lost his demeanor and
had a fit in refectory, so I'm told. He traveled under his birth name. Rillibee
Chime. Think up a Green Friar name for him."
"Yes, Elder Brother."
"The ship will be in early, so be ready. And no
more talking to yourself." Brother Fuasoi rubbed at his belly again before
he started off.
Brother Mainoa bowed humbly at Fuasoi's retreating
back and hoped Fuasoi's belly would kill him soon. Shithead, he thought.
All from Acceptable Doctrine were
shitheads. And so was Elder Jhamlees Zoe, the mad proselytizer, cast away here
on Grass with nobody to convert and going slowly crazy because of it. Nothing
between their ears but excrement or they'd know what was really here on Grass.
Anyone with any sense could see.... purr was back above, this time full of
quiet amusement. "You'll get me in big trouble," muttered Brother Mainoa.
"Then what will you have to purr about?"
The hundred-square-mile area which the aristocrats
called Commoner-Town was divided into two parts by a precipitous, convoluted
knob of stone which was called, half in jest, Grass's Only Mountain, or Gom.
The mountain extended east and west in an uninterrupted wall, a sheer-faced
outcropping that ran down on both sides to lose itself in the depths of the
swamp forest, making an effective barricade between the permanent and
transient. Craftsmen, farmers, merchants, and their families lived and worked
north of the barrier in an area they called Commons, centered on the town. The
area south of the wall, though largely sloping pastureland, contained the port
and all its appurtenances.
Appurtenances included, adjacent to the port on the
east, a district containing warehouses for the storage of goods being
transhipped, hay barns for winter feed of Commons' livestock, various
respectable shops and amusements run by local citizens, the Port Hotel, and the
hospital. This area, including the port itself, was called the Commercial
District.
Also included was an area on the west side of the
port, where buildings blazoned with tawdry glitter stood along Portside Road,
where the sensees stayed open around the clock and where visitors routinely
stepped over bodies without worrying much about it. Not many of the bodies were
dead; few of them were seriously wounded; some of them were still busily
engaged. The crowded buildings led an indefinable stink made up of drugs, dirt,
and various biological exudates. This disreputable area took its name from its
road and was called simply Portside.
In addition to the Commercial District and Portside,
the southern area contained about forty square miles of common hay meadow and
grazing land, sloping on the east, south, and west from the high plateau of the
port down to the swamp forest.
Connecting the port areas and Commons through a notch
cut through the wall of Gom was Grass Mountain Road, a well-traveled
thoroughfare which ran along the east side of the peak past the order station
and the tall, solid gates occasionally used to block all traffic. It was not
unknown for freighter crews to emerge from Portside establishments in the
waning hours of the night determined to seek the extraordinary pleasure that
comes from disrupting the sleep of ordinary people. Under such conditions, the
gates were shut. Usually, however, traffic moved along Grass Mountain Road
between port and Commons with no hindrance.
The port was busy, far busier than the planetary population
could have warranted on its own behalf. Grass lay at a topological crossroads,
an accessible destination in qua-space that coincided with a planet in
real-space, and this alone made it valuable. The aristocrats, isolated on their
estancias and concerned with other matters, had never considered how
advantageous Grass's location was. They would have been amazed to learn that
the wealth of Grass was not, as they continued to believe, concentrated in the
estancias, but was in fact held in off-planet banks by a sizable fraction of
the people of the town. Few bons ever came to Commoner Town, and if they came
at all, they came no farther than the merchants' offices. The residents of
Commons who went to the estancias kept their mouths shut about town business.
What the bons thought of as eternally true regarding their own social and
economic superiority, Commons had long since discarded in favor of a more
pragmatic view. Without the aristocrats becoming more than superficially aware
of it, the Commercial District had gradually become a major transshipment point
offering temporary lodging to sizable numbers of travelers.
While waiting for a connecting ship, transients
staying at the Port Hotel often went into Commons in pursuit of local color.
Sellers of grass cloth and grass pictures and cleverly woven multihued grass
baskets shaped like fantastic birds or fish did a brisk business. The purchase
of some such gimcrack was as close as any of the transients would come to
seeing the reality of Grass. The aristocrats had forbidden aircar tours over
the prairies. At one time the Port Hotel had offered tours into the edges of
the swamp forest, but after a boatload of influential persons had failed to
return, the tours had been discontinued. The only sightseeing was in Commons,
which meant a constant easy flow of traffic along the road. Townees were not
surprised to see new faces.
Thus, when Ducky Johns stopped early one morning at
the Order Station with a beautiful girl in tow, the officer thought no more of
it than that some off-worlder had escaped from the Port Hotel and fallen into
questionable company. Not that Ducky Johns was a bad sort. She and Saint Teresa
were the madams of the two largest sensee houses in Portside, and they often
traveled into Commons with their housekeepers and cooks. Ducky was usually at
the top of the list of contributors to any charitable cause, if Saint Teresa
didn't have his name there first. Ducky's machines were well maintained and
seldom damaged anyone other than superficially, and none of her girls or boys
or genetically altered whatsits had ever tried to kill any of the customers.
''What's this, Ducky?" the officer, James
Jellico, asked. He was a husky and muscular man of middle years, covered with
the misleading layer of plushy flesh which had earned him his nickname.
"Tell good old Jelly what you've got there."
"Damned if I know," replied Ducky,
sketching helplessness with both shoulders, the flounces on her tent-dress
quivering in response to the mountain of shivering flesh beneath. "I found
it on my back porch, under the clothesline." Her flutelike voice made it a
plaint, minor key. Her spangled eyebrows arched and the fringes of her tattooed
eyelids drooped across her cheeks.
"You should've taken it back to the hotel,"
Jelly said, giving the girl a hard look, which she returned with a wide,
innocent eye.
"I tried," Ducky said, sighing and pursing
baby-lips, waving a baby-hand, the wrist braceleted with gems between tiny
rolls of fat. "I'm not a fool, Jelly. I thought the same as you. Off a
passenger ship, I thought, waiting around for another one. Wandered out of the
Commercial District and got lost, I thought, just as you did. I asked it its
name, but it didn't have a thing to say for itself."
"Mental, you think? Drugged up?"
"No sign of it."
"Maybe it's one of those, what you call 'em,
de-personed things they sell on Vicious."
"I looked and it isn't. It's been used some, but
it hasn't been tampered with, not the way they do there." "So what
did the hotel say?"
"The hotel picky-pecked at its little keyboards
and winky-winked at its little screens and told me to take it away. Not theirs,
they said. They didn't have any like this one, and if they did have, all theirs
were accounted for."
"I be damned."
"Yes. Exactly what I said. Couldn't be a Commons
townee, could it?"
"You know every one of 'em as well as I do,
Ducky. You know every face and every figure and if any of 'em puts on five
pounds or insults his sister-in-law, you'd know and so would I."
"Well, we both know what that leaves, Jelly That
leaves the estancias, that does. Lots of unfamiliar faces out there. But that's
very puzzling indeed, isn't it, my dear? If it had come from there, we'd have
seen it."
Aircars going between Commoner Town and the estancias
were permitted to land only at the car terminal at the center of town or at the
port. Any aircar landing at the port or in town would be observed. If this
lovely creature with the strange eyes had turned up either place, surely
somebody would have seen it.
"Off a ship?" hazarded Jellico.
"You know the silly regulations as well as I do,
Jelly, dear. Passengers and crew off, fumigate at every port. How could this
have lived on a ship while it was being debugged? No, it didn't come off an
empty ship. And it didn't come from the hotel. And it doesn't belong to me or
to Saint Teresa or to any of the other bitty bit-players down in our place, no
it doesn't. I'm afraid it's your problem, Jelly. Yours alone." Ducky Johns
giggled, the ruffles on the tent-dress quivering, a fleshquake in paroxysm.
Jellico shook his head. "Not mine, Ducky, old
girl. I'll get an image of her, then you take her back. You've got plenty of
room in that place of yours. Put it in an empty room and feed it something. The
stasis-tank is no place for that. Doesn't need freezing. Needs tending. Better
with you."
"How trusting," she simpered.
"Oh, you won't sell her, Ducky. If she can't
talk, she can't speak a consent waiver, and you know I'll be comin' down to
look her over again next time I'm in Portside to check transience permits. And
after I've had a chance to ask around. If this isn't the damnedest thing
..."
He went on looking at the girl as he set up the
imager, she returning his gaze with her head turned sideways so that he saw
only one eye, an eye in which no intelligence showed at all. And yet, when he
had finished recording the creature's image and Ducky held out her hand, the
girl took it and smiled, turning the head upward and to one side again to cast
a sidelong look.
Jelly shivered. There had been something strangely
familiar about that look. Almost as strange as where the girl could have come
from. Not through the swamp, that was certain. Not in an aircar. Not on a ship.
Not from the hotel. And what did that leave?
"Damn all," whispered Jelly to himself,
watching old Ducky loading the girl back into her three-wheeled runner before
turning it back toward Portside. "Damn all."
The morning after the bon Damfels' Hunt, Marjorie was
up before light. She had slept little, and that little restlessly. When she
slept she had dreamed of Hippae, and her dreams had been threatening. She had
risen in the night to walk about the winter quarters, going into the children's
rooms, listening to them breathe. Anthony had been making little groaning
sounds and shivering in his sleep, almost as El Dia Octavo had done that day
she had seen the things on the ridge. Marjorie sat on the edge of his bed and
ran her hands over his shoulders and chest, stroking him as she would have one
of the horses, pulling the anxiety out of him until he lay motionless beneath
her fingers. Dear Tony, little Tony, firstborn and much beloved. So like her
that she could read every flicker of his expression, every line of his body.
She yearned over him, wishing the disappointments away. They would come anyway.
He was so like her that they must come, as day follows night.
In the neighboring room Stella slept soundly, rosy in
the dim light, lips slightly parted. Each day made her resemblance to Rigo more
pronounced—his passion, his pride, and a stunningly feminine version of his
handsome face. Marjorie stood over her, not touching her. If Stella were
touched she would come awake, full of questions, full of demands—questions
Marjorie couldn't answer, demands she couldn't meet. Like Rigo, Marjorie
thought to herself, just like Rigo. And like Rigo, Stella demanded that the
world understand her even while she overwhelmed any effort to be understood.
"I tried to know Rigo," Marjorie whispered
to herself, an old litany, almost an apology, an excuse, something she said to
herself again and again. Something she used to say to Father Sandoval before he
had tried to mend what seemingly could not be mended by giving her penance
after penance of obedience and submission until she had felt so trapped between
them, she could not ask for forgiveness anymore. What she had told Father
Sandoval was true, so far as it went. When she and Rigo had been newly married
she had sometimes waited until Rigo was very tired or even asleep and then
curled against him, pressed herself tight, wanting to feel him in his skin,
feel all the muscles running there softly, getting to know the body of him as
she did his face. He always responded, fiercely, passionately, hammering at her,
until she was lost. There was no separate place she could stand to feel what he
was like. If she stood apart from him, he accused her of being remote. If she
came close, he swallowed her up.
"I tried to tell him," she whispered, still
looking at the sleeping Stella. "I tried to tell him, just the way I've
tried to tell you." And that, too, was true. She had tried to say,
"Rigo, just hold me, gently. Let me learn the rhythm of your blood and
your breath." Or, "Stella, be still a moment. Just talk to me. Let us
know one another."
Marjorie remembered lying in the stable with her
belly pressed close to a foal, quiet on the straw, the mare whickering above,
soft nose pressing down on the foal and on the child-Marjorie both, until all
three were same-scented, hay-scented, straw-smelling. Marjorie had felt the
blood running in the foal's veins, felt the smooth pull of the muscles over the
bone. Then later, when the foal grew and they raced together, she understood
what it was that moved and the spirit that moved it. She had wanted to learn
Rigo like that, but he wouldn't let her.
Stella was the same. Always passionate. Always in the
depths or on the heights. Always give me, give me, give me, and never anything
warm or gentle in return, never any simple affection. No hug. No little joke
for the two of them to share. No peace. Not that Stella shared much with her
father, either. No. If she was capable of affection at all, she had saved it
all for her friend back home, the beatific Elaine.
Marjorie felt her own heart thudding away under her
hand and smiled ruefully at herself. She was too old to feel this jealousy. It
was not her heart that yearned toward Stella, it was her stomach, clenching now
with an agony of helpless love which she could not show. Showing love to Stella
was like showing meat to a half-wild dog. Stella would seize it and swallow it
and gnaw its bones. Showing love to Stella was opening oneself up for attack.
"You don't really love me. When I was little,
you promised me a trip to Westriding, and I didn't get to go!" This, the
then sixteen-year-old Stella, rehearsing a grievance at least eight years old.
"You've been told a thousand times that Grandpa
was ill. Stella. He was too sick to have company. He died not long after
that."
"You promised and then you decided all by
yourself we shouldn't go. You're always saying we'll do things and then we
don't. Now you're dragging me off to this awful place, making me leave my
friends without even asking me if I want to go! Why aren't we more like a
family? I wish I were Elaine's sister. The Brouers don't act like you do."
"If she mentions the Brouers to me again,"
Marjorie had said to Rigo, "I will strangle her."
"They're friends," Rigo had replied, giving
her a curious look. "They're best friends. Why should you resent
that?"
"I don't resent that. I resent the Brouers being
held up to me as a standard of perfection."
"All kids think some other family is
perfect," he said.
"I never did."
"Yes, but," he had said, "you're
strange."
"I'm strange," she told herself now,
looking down at the sleeping girl, wondering what it was about the Brouers that
had evoked Stella's admiration. What quality did the Brouer family have that
attracted her? Family? What did Stella mean by family?
"I wish the Brouers were my family," Stella
had said dozens of times, stubbornly, without explaining, knowing she was
hurting, wanting to hurt. "They do things together. I wish I had a family
like that."
"Well, we'll have a chance to be a family on
Grass, Stella. There won't be anyone else around." Not that Stella ever
wanted to do what anyone else did. Not that isolation would change her.
Stella had clenched her jaw at that, threatening
angrily not to come to Grass at all. For weeks before they left, Marjorie had
been sure that Stella would approach her with the suggestion that she stay
behind with the Brouers.
"Mother, I want to stay here in Sanctity with
the Brouers. They'd like to have me stay."
What would she have said? "Stella, that's fine.
I don't want to go either. Neither does your father. I don't feel right about
leaving my poor people in St. Magdalen's. Rigo doesn't want to leave his clubs
and his committees and his nights on the town with Eugenie on his arm. We're
going because we think we must, to save all of mankind. But there's no real
reason you have to go. Stay here and die of the plague, Stella. You and Elaine
and her whole perfect family. I don't care anymore."
And she had repented her anger, confessed her
anger—though not mentioning several other sins which weighed even more
heavily—received absolution for it, only to feel it again. And now they were on
Grass, and Marjorie still felt anger, still repented, still confessed, still
wondered what she would do with Stella, who was as sulky and rebellious and
unloving here as she had been at home.
"Why, Father?" she had asked. "Why is
she like this? Why is Rigo like this?"
"You know why anyone ... The church teaches
..." His gentle old voice had begun one of its learned and inflexible
perorations.
She had interrupted. "Sin. Even original sin. I
know what it teaches. It teaches that a sin committed by people thousands of
years ago descends to me. Through my cells. Through my DNA. Mixed in there, somehow,
along with my heart and my lungs and my brain, and infected my
daughter...."
He had cocked his head. "Marjorie, I've never
thought that original sin is conveyed in the cells."
"Where else does it come from? What else is
there? The soul comes with the body, doesn't it, Father? Sin comes with sex,
doesn't it? It isn't just our souls in bed with each other, is it?"
Sanctity would say yes, the souls were in bed
together. Sanctity said marriages lasted forever. Especially in heaven. Which
wasn't what Old Catholics believed. Thank God. When she was dead at least that
would be over.
She had wept then, feeling it was all her own fault,
somehow. Father Sandoval had patted her shoulder, unable to offer comfort,
unable or unwilling to make her feel less guilty. Nothing had done that, not
even all the work at St. Magdalen's, which was supposed to be an expiation.
Marjorie left Stella's room, shutting the door
quietly behind her, her mind moving in old, familiar patterns. Perhaps when
Stella was older, middle-aged, they could be friends. Stella would marry someone.
She would separate herself from them, by distance, by time. She would have
children. In time, they might be friends.
The thought made her pale, gasp, made her bend over
the sick pain that struck her. There might be no time for any of that. All the
sulkiness, the lack of joy—there might be no time for it to work itself out.
There might not be time for Stella. There was no proof they were protected here
on Grass. There was only the assumption, the hope. And the children couldn't
share even that. They couldn't be told the real reasons for the assignment. Too
dangerous. So said Sanctity, and Marjorie concurred. Tony might forget himself.
Stella might rebel. Either might say something undiplomatic to one of the bons
and the fate of humanity could hang upon that saying. Assuming. Assuming there
was any truth to the rumor. Assuming there was really no plague here on Grass.
She sat frozen then, waiting for the morning to come,
using the rote of prayer to calm herself.
As soon as light showed clearly above the grasses,
Marjorie went down to the cavern where the horses were stabled. She needed to
feel them, smell them, be assured of their familiar reality, their uncomplicated
loyalty and affection. They did not throw her love back in her face; they
repaid a little attention a thousand times over. She went from stall to stall,
petting and stroking, handing out bits of sweet cookie she had saved for them,
stopping at last at Quixote's stall to peer in at him where he pawed the earth
again and again, a nervous, begging gesture. She put her arms around him.
"My Quixote," she told him. "Good
horse. Wonderful horse." She laid her face against his ebony muzzle,
feeling the warm breath in her ear, for that instant forgetting Stella's sulks
and Rigo's unfaithfulness and the Hippae and the hounds and the monsters that
haunted her, the one called fox here, the one called plague elsewhere.
"Let's go out, out into the meadows."
She did not bother to saddle him. This morning was
not a time for schooling. This morning there would be only herself and Quixote,
a togetherness more intimate than any other she knew. She wanted nothing
between herself and his skin. She wanted to be able to reassure him with every
muscle she had and take back his strength into herself. She lay along his neck
as they went down from the cavern, along the curving way which led to the
arena. The path went down along a winding defile, then up, topping a rise.
As they approached the rise, the horse's skin
quivered. He shook, silently, without even a whicker of protest, as though
something deep within his great human-friend heart told him his only chance for
continued life lay in making no sound. Only the breath came out of him like
life leaving him Marjorie felt it, as she always felt the least movement he
made She slid from his back in one fluid motion. Without going to the top of
the rise, she knew what she would see there. Her stomach was in her throat, full
of hot bile. She trembled as though half frozen. Still, one had to see. One had
to know.
She pulled on the stallion's shoulder. He had been
trained to lie down, and he did it now, almost gladly, as though his legs would
barely hold him. She stroked him once, for his comfort—or her own—then crawled
on shivering arms and legs away, up the rise a little to one side of the path
so that she could look down through the fringing grasses without being seen.
And they were there. Three of them, just as there had
been three horses when she and Tony and Rigo had ridden here. Three Hippae
doing dressage exercises, walking, trotting, cantering, changing feet to cross
the arena on long diagonals. They did everything she had done with Octavo, did
it casually, offhandedly, with a practiced ease, concluding with the three
animals side by side, facing away from her, the saber tips of their neck barbs
pointing at her like a glittering abatis, as threatening as drawn blades. Then
they turned and looked up at the place where she was hidden, their dark eyes
gleaming red in the light of dawn, soundless.
Amusement, she thought at first. A kind of mime.
These Hippae had seen the humans and their horses and were amused at what these
little off-world beasts had been doing with their human riders. She held the
thought only fleetingly, only for a moment, trying to cling to it but unable to
do so. They knew she was there. They knew she was watching. Perhaps they had
timed this little exercise to coincide with her arrival....
It wasn't amusement. Nothing in that red-eyed glare
was amused. She did not stay to confront what it really was. She fled from the
ridge as one in fear for her life, down to where the stallion lay as though he
had been felled, urged him onto his trembling legs, and then half lay on his
back as they first staggered then ran away, back to Opal Hill, back to human
country, to add another horror to those she already knew.
What she had seen in those red eyes was
mockery—mockery and something deeper. Something abiding and unforgiving.
Malice.
James Jellico took himself home for lunch, as he
often did. knowing his wife, Jandra, would be interested in the morning's
happenings. Jellico's wife had no legs, and though she walked well enough on
the elegant artificials he had obtained for her (a little bribery at the port,
a little looking the other way when he was or, customs duty), she said it
pained her to use the legs. There were implants one could use for the pain, but
Jandra. who often said she didn't like people fooling about with her head,
preferred for the most part to wheel about the house in the half-person she had
used since she was a child. About the house and the poultry yard as well. A
third of the Jellys' income came from homely Terran geese and ducks along with
Semling szizz birds and fat, delicious wingless things from the planet Shame
which Jandra called puggys.
He found his wife by the goose pen feeding greens to
the geese, they gabbling and snatching grass fronds from one another and she
humming to herself, as she did when content. "Ho, Jelly," she greeted
him "I've about decided to kill that one for dinner. She's so smug it
serves her right."
The indicated goose succeeded in dragging the
disputed shred of greens out of another's beak and swallowing it, at the same
time tipping her head to one side to get a good one-eyed goose-look at jelly.
There was something in that cold, single-eyed stare, something in the line of
beak and neck that shook him with a feeling which was at first deja vu and then
horrified recognition.
"That girl," he blurted. "She looked
at me like that!" Then he had to tell her all about the girl and Ducky
Johns and how strange it all was. "And it looked at me like that, tipped
its head like that, as though it could see me better out of one eye than out of
both. Like an animal."
"Bird," corrected Jandra.
"Bird or animal," said Jelly patiently.
"Any of 'em that don't have what-you-call-it. Binocular vision. They'll do
that. Tip their heads to see you better."
"Why do you say 'it' when it was a girl, Jelly.
Why don't you say 'she'?"
"Habit, I guess. With those from Portside, he's
and she's would be wrong as often as they're right. They have he's that look
like she's, and she's that look like he's, and it's that look like either. I
just say 'it' about them all." He took the image file out of his pocket
and put it in the imager, to show her.
Jandra shook her head, amazed at the ways of the
world. She never tired hearing about them. Even simple things amazed her,
though she was never shocked at the horrid ones. "I'll have to go down to
Ducky's and see to this," she announced in a tone which allowed no
contradiction. She peered at the image, looking at the creature's eyes.
"It isn't right something human and helpless should be left down there. Was
there something wrong with the girl's eyes?"
"Nothing I could see. Nothing wrong with any of
it—her. Pretty, built nice, smooth hair and all. Just the face. Well, look at
it."
"What do you mean about her face, Jelly?"
"Empty," he said after staring and thinking
about it for a moment. "It looks just empty, that's all."
7
Some distance east of Opal Hill was a hidden cavern
of the Hippae, one of many which could have been found on Grass if anyone had
dared to look. Set deep into the hillside, its narrow openings shaded by great
swaths of vermilion grasses which fell across the slender doors in gently
moving curtains, the cavern was undergoing a periodic refurbishing. Arriving
and departing at the northernmost slit were the creatures responsible, molelike
migerers, diggers par excellence, scuttling now through the vermilion and the
fuschia, out into the shorter. violet-colored grasses, their furry
thigh-pockets full of loose earth recently scraped from the floor of the Hippae
hall.
Inside that hall a shadowed emptiness was supported
by pillars of rubbly stone, stones uncovered when the caverns were dug, each
stone mortared into place with the adhesive which resulted from mixing migerer
shit and earth. Marvelous creatures, the migerers—builders, almost engineers,
certainly cave makers of no small talent who made similar, though smaller,
caverns for themselves, each cavern linked to others by miles of winding
tunnels.
In this great hall they blinked their squinty eyes,
deep-pocketed in indigo fur, and chirped to one another in flute tones as they
plodded across the cavern, scraping the high places into the low with urgent
flat-edged claws, stamping the loose dirt down with the hard pads on their
industrious hind feet.
A Hippae came into the cavern, striding on great
tripartite hooves across the smoothed floor, quartering the cave again and
again, nodding approval with his monstrous head, the teeth showing slightly
where the lips drew back in a half snarl, the razorlike neck barbs making a
dissonant clash as the beast tossed its head and bellowed at the ceiling.
The migerers affected not to notice, perhaps really
did not notice. Nothing changed in their behavior. They still darted about
under the very hooves of the prancing monster, scraping, packing, filling their
furry pockets, and darting away into the grasses to dispose of this evidence of
industry. Only when they were finished, when the floor was as smooth as their
instinctive skills could make it, did they desist and fall to grooming round
bellies and small tough feet, combing whiskers with curved ivory claws,
blinking in the half light of the entrance slits. Then a whistle, a plaint on
the wind as from some bird calling in mild distress, and they were gone, away,
vanished in the grasses as though they had never been. In the cavern behind
them the Hippae continued its slow parade, bellowing now and again to make the
cavern ring, alone in majesty surveying and approving the work which had been
done.
A second monster called in response, entering the
cavern to begin a quartering of its own. Then came a third and fourth, then
many, prancing in intricate patterns upon the cavern floor, interweaving and
paralleling, twos and fours and sixes becoming twelves and eighteens, the files
of them turning and braiding in complicated design, hooves falling as precisely
as artisans' hammers into the tracks themselves had made.
Not far off, in Opal Hill village. Dulia Mechanic
turned restlessly on her bed, half wakened by the subterranean thunder.
"What, what's that?" she murmured, still mostly asleep.
"The Hippae are dancing," said her young
husband Sebastian Mechanic, wide awake, for he had been listening to the
rhythmic surge for an hour or more while she had breathed quietly beside him.
"Dancing," he reasserted, not sure whether he believed it or not.
Besides, he had something else on his mind.
"How do you know? Everyone says that, but how do
you know?" she whined, still not awake.
"Someone saw them, I suppose," he said,
wondering for the first time how that particular someone had seen what he
claimed he had seen. Sebastian himself would rather face certain death than
sneak around in the tall grasses, spying on Hippae. Without identifying the
source, he murmured, "Someone, a long time ago," and went back to
thinking what he had been thinking of for a long time now, about those at Opal
Hill.
Out in the night, in the cavern where all the thunder
came from, the Hippae moved their anfractuous quadrille along to its
culmination.
Suddenly, without any sense of climax, it was over.
The Hippae left the cavern as they had entered it, by ones and twos, leaving a
pattern intricate and detailed as a tapestry trampled deep into the floor
behind them. To them who made it, it had meaning, a meaning otherwise
expressible only by a long sequence of twitches of hide and particular blinks
of eye. The ancient Hippae language of gesture and quiver and almost
undetectable movement was useless for this particular purpose, but the Hippae
know another language as well. In the other language, learned long ago from
another race, this design stamped deep into their cavern floor was their way of
writing—and thereby giving notice of—a certain inexorable word.
In the stables at Opal Hill, the horses were awake,
listening as they had listened many nights, most nights, since they had come to
Grass. Millefiori whickered to the stallion, Don Quixote, and he in turn to
Irish Lass next to him, the whispering rattle running down the length of the
stalls and then back again, like a roll-taking. "Here," each seemed
to say. "Still here. Nothing yet."
But there was something. Something they had begun to
be more than remotely aware of. One of those shadows one shies at, one of those
bridges one will not walk over. A thing like that, full of menace, which the
riders usually do not understand. Most of them. The woman, she understood. She
always understood. If there was a thing like that, she never insisted. Never.
And in return, each gave her total trust. When she rode them at the high fence,
the fence one could not see over, with no knowledge at all of what might be
beyond, each one trusted that she would bring them safely down on the other
side. They knew it as trust. She would not betray them, not one of them.
Not that they thought in words. They did not have the
words. It was more an understanding of the way things were. The rewards, the
threats. That thing out there on the ridge that day. This noise, moving in the
night, this noise that tried to crawl into ears, into heads, to take over
everything. These were threats.
But there was something else abroad in the night, and
that ... that was something they could not identify as either a threat or a
reward. It fought against the horrid noise; it kept the insinuating thoughts
away. And yet, it came no closer, it offered no hay, it stroked no necks. It
was simply there, like a breathing wall, a thing they did not understand at all.
So the whicker ran, left to right, then back again.
"Here. Still here. All right. Still alive. Nothing..."
"Nothing yet."
Jandra Jellico did as she had threatened and went
over to Portside in her half-person to visit with Ducky Johns. She'd met Ducky
before and quite liked her, despite the business she was in, which Jandra
didn't altogether approve of. Pleasure was pleasure, had been for ages, and
people would seek it out. Some of the ways they sought it, though, in Jandra's
opinion, were not quite tasteful.
Still, she made nothing of that as she sat in Ducky
Johns' private parlor, sipping tea and staring at the girl who sat on the
carpet, humming to herself. Itself. Whatever. When the girl got an itch, up
came the skirt and the hand scratched, wherever the itch might be. No
inhibitions at all, no more than a cat, licking itself where it needed it.
"My, my," Jandra said. "You can't keep
her here, Ducky."
"Well, and who wanted to?" Ducky sulked,
waving her tiny hands in circles to express innocent annoyance. "It was
Jelly, your own Jelly, made me bring her back here. She's useless to me, dear.
Can't sell her. Who'd want her? Needs to be trained before she's any use at
all."
"Does she potty?" Jandra wanted to know.
"Except for eating, that's all she does, but potty
she does. Like my wallo-pup, whines when she needs to go."
"Have you tried—"
"Haven't tried anything at all. No time. This
business keeps me at it, day on day. No time for fooling with that!" The
little hands waved again, then folded themselves into an obdurate lump buried
deep in Ducky's lap. "Tell me you'll take her away, Jandra. Do say so.
Anyone else, your Jelly would argue."
"Oh, I'll take her," Jandra agreed.
"Or send for her, rather. But it's, the strangest thing. The very
strangest thing. Where'd she come from?"
"Wouldn't we like to know that, my dear?
Wouldn't we all?"
Jandra sent for the girl that afternoon. Thereafter
she spent a good part of several days teaching the girl to keep her skirts down
and to eat with her fingers instead of burying her face in the food and to go
potty by herself without whining. When she'd done that much, she called Kinny
Few on the tell-me and invited her over, and the two of them sipped tea and
nibbled at Kinny's seed cakes while they watched the girl playing with a ball
on the floor.
"I thought you might know who she is,"
Jandra said. "Or who she was. Surely she hasn't always been like
this."
Kinny thought hard about it. There was something in
the tilt of the girl's head that reminded her of someone, but she couldn't say
who. No one in Commons, that was certain. "She must have come in on a
ship," she offered, having already been told that this was impossible.
"Must have."
"I keep thinking so, too," Jandra agreed.
"But Jelly says no. She was just there, on Ducky Johns' back porch, and
that's it. Like she hatched there. No more memory than an egg."
"What are you going to do with her?" Kinny
wanted to know.
Jandra shrugged. "See if I can find her a home,
I guess. Pretty soon, too. Jelly's losing patience, having her around."
Actually, it was not Jelly's patience he was in
danger of losing. Devotedly fond of Jandra though he was (and they two with an
understanding about fidelity), the proximity of the girl's body, lovely and
uninhibited as some half-tamed beast, was leading him to worrisome desires.
"A week," he told Jandra. "I'll give
you a week." He thought he'd probably be able to control himself at least
that long.
Rigo was determined to have a diplomatic reception.
He was much encouraged in this by Eugenie, who was tired of the company of Opal
Hill but who had no status which would allow her to go elsewhere. She could not
even go to the Hunts. After the bon Damfels' Hunt the Yrariers had observed
three other Hunts; twice as a family, once with Fathers Sandoval and James
along as guests. It was quite enough, as Tony said, to know that they were all
alike. They had declined to observe more, and by doing so had confirmed the
bons' prejudice about them. By that time, however, Rigo had other things to
think about. Some of the furnishings for the summer quarters had arrived along
with Roald Few. who promised that everything would be completed in two weeks'
time.
"Draperies, rugs, furnishings, image projectors
for the walls—everything. Everything elegant and of the highest quality."
"Rigo wants to have a reception for the
bons," Marjorie told him.
"Hmmph," snorted Persun Pollut.
"Now, Pers," chided Roald. "The ambassador
doesn't know. During Hunt season, Lady Westriding, he's unlikely to get anybody
but second leaders and lower. People who don't ride. Those who ride wouldn't
even consider coming, don't you see?"
"We'd get Eric bon Haunser but not the
Obermun?"
"That's right. You'd get nobody at all from the
bon Damfels' except Figor. Obermum won't go anywhere Obermun doesn't. That
isn't done. All the rest of the family rides, what's left of it."
Marjorie stared at him, evaluating the open
countenance before her. The man seemed without guile, and thus far he had
treated her fairly. "I need information," she said at last in a very
quiet voice.
Roald dropped his own voice to a confidential level.
"I am at your service, Lady Westriding."
"The bon Damfels were in mourning when we were
there."
"Yes."
"They'd lost a daughter. In a hunting accident.
Eric bon Haunser has lost his legs, also, so he said, in a hunting accident.
When I looked about me after that first Hunt I saw more biotic appendages than
I would have seen in a year at home. I would like to understand these
accidents."
"Ah. Well." Roald shuffled his feet.
"There are various kinds of accidents,"
offered Persun in his soft, dry lecturer's voice. "There is falling off.
There is getting oneself skewered. There is offending a hound. And there is
vanishment." He said this last almost in a whisper, and Roald nodded
agreement
"So we understand, Lady. The servants at the
estancias are kinfolk of ours. They see things; they overhear things; they tell
us. We put two and two together to make forty-four, when we must."
"Falling off?" she asked. Riders fell off
all the time. Rarely was it fatal.
"Followed by trampling. If a rider falls off, he
or she is trampled into the grasses. Until nothing is left, you
understand."
Marjorie nodded, feeling sick.
"If you've seen a Hunt, you've seen how a rider
might get skewered. It doesn't happen often, surprisingly. The young ones ride
simulators for days at a time, learning to stay out of the way of those horny
blades. But still, once in a while someone faints or a mount stops too suddenly
and the rider falls forward."
Marjorie wiped her mouth, tasting bile.
"Offending a hound usually results in the hunter
having an arm or leg or hand or foot or two bitten off when he dismounts at the
end of the Hunt."
"Offending ...?"
"Don't ask us, Lady," replied Persun.
"There aren't any hounds in Commons. They can't get into town, and nobody
with any sense goes far out into the grasses where hounds're likely to be.
Close to the villages is fine, no hounds there, but farther out... those that
go don't come back. We really don't know what would offend a hound. So far as
we can tell, the bons don't know either"
"And vanishment?"
"Just that. Somebody starts out on the Hunt and
doesn't come back. The mount disappears, too. Usually a young rider it happens
to. Girls, usually. Rarely, a boy."
"Someone at the rear of the Hunt," she said
in sudden comprehension. "So the others wouldn't notice?"
"Yes."
"What happened to the bon Damfels girl?"
"Same as happened to Janetta bon Maukerden last
fall, her that Shevlok bon Damfels was so set on. Vanishment. The way I know
is, my brother Canon is married to a woman who's got a cousin, Salla, and she's
a maid at the bon Damfels. Practically raised Dimity from a baby. Last fall
Dimity thought a hound was watching her, and she told Rowena. Next time out,
same thing. Rowena and Stavenger had a set-to, and Rowena kept the girl from
riding any more Hunts that season. This spring, Stavenger took a hand and made
the girl go out again First spring
Hunt! Poof, she was gone"
"Dimity, did you say? How old was she?"
"Diamante bon Damfels. Stavenger and Rowena's
youngest. Somewhere around seventeen in Terran terms."
"The bon Damfels had five children?"
"They had seven, Lady. They lost two others when
they were young riders. Trampled, I think. I'm sorry not to remember their
names. Now it's just Amethyste and Emeraude and Shevlok and Sylvan."
"Sylvan," she said, remembering him from
the first Hunt- He had not been at any of the others they had witnessed.
"But he wouldn't come to a reception, because he rides."
Roald nodded.
"There is the lapse." murmured Persun.
"I'd forgotten the lapse," said Roald in a
tone of annoyance. "Here I am almost ten Grassian years old and I'd
forgotten the lapse."
"Lapse?"
"Every spring there's a time when the mounts and
the hounds disappear. Far's I know, no one knows where they go. Mating time,
perhaps? Or whelping time. Or something of the kind. Sometimes people hear a
great lot of baying and howling going on. Lasts a week or a little more."
"When?" she asked.
"When it happens. No exact time. Sometimes a
little earlier in the year, sometimes a little later. But always in
spring."
"But doesn't everyone on the planet know when it
happens?"
"Everyone out here in the grasses, Lady. Tssf,
in Commons we'd pay it no attention. Out here,
though—yes. Everyone knows. If no way else, they go out to Hunt that day and no
mounts or hounds show up. They know."
"So, if we sent an invitation, saying—oh, 'On
the third night of the lapse you are invited to ...' "
"It's never been done," muttered Persun
"So, who's to say it shouldn't be?" Roald
responded. "If your good husband is determined, my Lady, then it would be
a thing to try. Otherwise, wait until summer when the hunting stops. Then you
can have your reception among the summer balls."
Rigo did not want to wait until summer. "That's
over a year and a half. Terran," he said. "We have to start getting
some information from the bons, Marjorie. There's no time to wait. We'll get
everything ready and send the invitation as soon as the place looks decent.
Undoubtedly I'll hear from bon Haunser if we've overstepped some barrier of
local custom "
The invitations were dispatched by tell-me to all
estancias. Surprisingly, at least to Marjorie, acceptances were prompt and
fairly widespread. She got a bad case of stage fright and went up into the
summer rooms to reassure herself.
The chill rooms had been transformed. Though still
cool, they glowed with color. From the greenhouse in the village—which had been
half ruined until Rigo had ordered it rebuilt—had come great bouquets of
off-world bloom. Terran lilies and Semling semeles combined with plumes of
silver grass to make huge, fragrant mounds reflected endlessly in paired
mirrors. Marjorie had provided holo-records of valued artworks the Yrariers had
left behind, and duplicates of the originals glowed at her from the walls and
from pedestals scattered among the costly furniture.
"This is a beautiful table," she said,
running her fingers across satiny blue-shadowed wood.
"Thank you, Lady," said Persun. "My
father made it."
"Where does he get wood, here on Grass?"
"Imports much of it. Much though they talk of
tradition, now and then the bons want something imported and new. Things he
makes for us, though, he cuts from the swamp forest. There are some lovely
trees in there. There's this wood, the one we call blue treasure, and there's
one that's pale green in one light and a deep violet in another. Glume wood,
that is."
"I didn't know anyone could get into the swamp
forest."
"Oh, we don't go in. There's a hundred miles of
forest edge, and these are trees that grow at the edge. Even so, we don't take
many. I'm using some native woods in the panels for your room." He had
spent hours designing the panels for her study. He longed for her to praise
them.
"Are you, now," she mused. Outside, on the
balustraded terrace, a slender figure passed restlessly to and fro: Eugenie.
Forlorn. Childlike. Head drooping like a wilted flower. Marjorie fingered her
prayer book and reminded herself of certain virtues. "Will you excuse me a
moment, Persun?"
He bowed wordlessly, and she left him there while he
tried to give the appearance of not staring after her.
"Eugenie," Marjorie greeted her with
self-conscious kindness. "I've seen very little of you since we
arrived." She had seen nothing of her at home, but this was a different
world and all comparisons were odious.
The other woman flushed. Rigo had told her to stay
away from the big house. "I shouldn't be here now. I thought I might catch
a ride into town with the merchant, that's all."
"Something you need?"
Eugenie flushed again. "No. Nothing I need. I
just thought I'd spend a day looking at the shops. Maybe stay at the Port Hotel
overnight and see the entertainment...."
"It must be dull for you here."
"It is bloody dull," the woman blurted,
speaking before she thought. She flushed a deep, embarrassed red, and her eyes
filled with tears.
This time Marjorie flushed. "That was tactless
of me, Eugenie. Listen. I know you're not one for horses or things like that,
but why don't you see if they have some kind of pets for sale in Commons?"
"Pets?"
"I don't know what they might have. Dogs, maybe.
Or kittens. Birds of some kind, or something exotic. Little animals are very
amusing. They take up a lot of time."
"Oh, I have so much of that," Eugenie
cried, almost angrily. "Rigo ... well, Rigo's been very busy."
Marjorie looked out across the balustrade of the terrace toward the multiple
horizons of that part of the grass garden called the Fading Vista. Each ridge
partly hid the one behind, each one was a paler color than the one before, until
the horizon hill faded into the sky almost indistinguishably. She was amused to
make a mental connection: In such fashion had her original animosity toward
Eugenie faded, retreated, become merely a hazy tolerance almost
indistinguishable from tentative acceptance, "We'll be having our first
official party soon. Perhaps you'll meet some people...." her voice faded
away like the horizon line before her. Who could Eugenie meet, after all? The
children despised her. The servants thought her a joke. No one among the bons
would associate with her. Or would they?
"There are particular people I want you to
meet," Marjorie said thoughtfully. "A man named Eric bon Haunser. And
Shevlok, the eldest son of the bon Damfels."
"Trying to get rid of me?" Eugenie said
with childish spite. "Introducing me to men."
"Trying to assure that you have some
company," Marjorie said mildly. "Trying to assure that we all do. If
some of the men find you fascinating, you and Stella and maybe me—though that
wouldn't do to admit officially—perhaps they'll frequent the place. We're here
to find something out, after all."
"Don't talk as though I knew anything about it.
I don't. Rigo didn't tell me anything!"
"Oh, my dear," said Marjorie, more shocked
than she could admit even to herself. "But he must have! Why would you
have come, otherwise?"
To which Eugenie merely stared at her, eyes wide and
wondering. This woman married to Roderigo Yrarier, this woman, his wife, mother
of his children, this woman ... She didn't know? "Because I love
him," she said at last, almost whispering "I thought you knew."
"Well so do I," Marjorie replied shortly,
believing that she did. "But even so, I would not have come to Grass had I
not known why."
Though Eugenie had not particularly appreciated
Marjorie's advice about pets, she had heard it. Normally she would have ignored
it as a matter of principle because it came from Rigo's wife and Rigo would be
unlikely to appreciate his mistress taking his wife's advice about anything. As
it was, however, Eugenie could not afford to ignore anything that would
alleviate the blanketing boredom which afflicted her. At home there had been
restaurants and parties and amusing places to go to. There had been shopping
and clothes and hairdressers to talk with. There had been gossip and laughter.
And running through all that, like a thread of gold through the floating
chiffon of her life, there had been Rigo. Not that he'd been around a lot. He
hadn't been. But for a long time he had been there, in the background,
providing whatever she needed, making her feel treasured and important. Men
such as he, Rigo had explained, with all his important work on committees and
clubs and such, needed women such as she as a necessary relief from the
tiresome but urgent works they were called upon to do. This made women such as
she especially important. Eugenie thought of this often. Men had told her many
sweet things about herself, but never before that she was important. It was the
nicest compliment she had ever received.
And so she was here, and so was Rigo, and for all
they saw of one another she might as well have stayed on Terra with some other
protector—which she had, quite truthfully, considered. Had there been another
man immediately available, she would probably have chosen to stay. Weighing the
relative inconvenience, however, of finding a new man or submitting to packing
and coldsleep, she had decided that finding the new man would be more trouble.
Not so much finding him but learning about him. His little ways. His favorite
foods and smells and colors and little magics in bed. All men believed they had
their own magics in bed.
And then, too, she did love Rigo, When she had said
that to Marjorie, it hadn't been a lie. Of all the men she had loved, she
probably loved Rigo most. He had been most fun.
But Rigo was hardly fun at all in this place. When
love wasn't fun, it was just boring and dull and achy. People had to have
things that were fun for them. What Marjorie had said about pets was probably
the best advice anyone was going to give her, even though it had come from
Rigo's wife.
Eugenie begged a ride from Roald Few to Commoner
Town, enjoying the trip because of all the sweet things he and the other men
said to her. It was Roald himself who told her to look up Jandra Jellico.
"If you're looking for something little and petful and fun to have, Jandra
may have it or she'll know who has. She's got most everything in fur and
feathers and pretty skin, Jandra does." He warned her, too, that Jandra
would be in a half-person, as though Eugenie was the kind of person to make
unkind remarks or stare.
And Jandra, after Eugenie had been with her for half
an hour, knew everything about her just as Roald had. Knew and appreciated and
felt a bit sorry for, while at the same time blessing her guardian spirits that
Eugenie had come along just now to solve her dilemma. "I've got just the
thing for you," she said. "Something I got from Ducky Johns, down in
Portside. Wasn't right Ducky should keep it down there among the sensees and
the profligates, so I had her bring it here to me. I keep it in the spare
bedroom."
She brought it out, the slender prettiness of it, the
long-haired sweetness of it, the sidling, goose-eyed gaze of it, all done up in
girl skin and girl smell and dressed in a pretty smock which it had learned to
keep down. "I call her the Goosegirl," said Jandra, not saying why.
Eugenie wasn't an awl-eyed one like Jandra's own dear Jelly, to see what others
hadn't noticed, that almost mindless, birdish stare turned on each and every
one as though to ask the world what there was to be afraid of out there,
knowing already in its little bird mind that there was something.
"It's a girl," said Eugenie, uncomplaining,
but definite. "Not an animal."
"Well there's one opinion and another about
that," said Jandra, squeezing the end of her nose between her fingers as
she did sometimes while puzzling out the ethics of a situation. "It
doesn't know its name. It can't dress itself. It is potty trained, for which
I'm more than grateful, so there's one small thing making it better than a
puppy, which I haven't one of nor nobody else I know, so no matter. It'll sit brushing
at its hair for the better part of a day, and it has a good appetite for most
anything you'd eat yourself and I've halfway taught it to eat with a spoon.
Sometimes it makes a noise as if it was about to say something. Not often, mind
you, and it surprises itself when it does."
"You should say 'she,'" corrected Eugenie.
The pretty thing was as female as she herself was, and very much of her own
size.
"Well, there's one opinion and another about
that, too. Still, I'd be inclined to agree with you, and I call her 'she' to
myself, don't you know. It's a playful bit of a thing, too. Likes to roll a
ball back and forth or play with a bobble on the end of a string."
"Like a kitten," purred Eugenie. "Do
you suppose they'll let me keep her?"
Well, and if they wouldn't, it would be their problem, Jandra thought, not her own, which the Goosegirl had been up until now, her or it of the pretty hair and lovely little body and sweet face without two notions to jostle one another in her head. Last evening she'd seen Jelly looking at the girl in that certain way, and no time would be too quick to get rid of her, ethics or no. Still, if Eugenie had been someone else—Marjorie Westriding, say—Jandra would have felt uncomfortable giving her the Goosegirl as a pet. Someone like the Lady Westriding—Jandra had heard all about her from Roald Few, as had every other person with normal hearing—would dig and dig, puzzle and puzzle, making the poor creature's life a misery. And one couldn't give it to some man to use, though one would, rather than have Jelly doing the using.
Eugenie, though. Well, she wasn't a debauchee and she
didn't look the type to go seeking causes or laying blame. She would not abuse
the creature, nor wonder where the girl had come from or what brought her to Portside
to be found under Ducky Johns' clothesline. She would see only a girl-sized
walking doll, something with pretty hair to arrange, something to clothe and
play with. As for Jandra Jellico, it looked the best thing she would be able to
do for the Goosegirl and far better than she had recently feared.
One of Roald Few's workmen took Eugenie and her new
pet back to Opal Hill, dropping them behind the Fading Vista from which Eugenie
was able to reach her own little house without being observed. Eugenie already
had a dozen plans for Goosegirl. One of them had to do with teaching her to
dance, but first and second on the list had to do with the sewing of
astonishing gowns and the selection of a new and utterly elegant name.
Marjorie tapped at the door of Rigo's study and
entered at the sound of his voice. "Am I too early?"
"Come on in," he said, his voice fuzzy with
fatigue. "Asmir's not here yet, but I expect him momentarily." He
stacked some papers together, thrust them into a lockbox, keyed the box to hold,
and turned off his node. In the corner of the room the tell-me swam with
wavering bands of color, silent. "You look as weary as I feel."
She laughed, unconvincingly. "I'm all right.
Stella is on one of her usual tears. Some time ago I asked Persun to take her
down to the village, thinking she could find someone there to share her time
with. She's been there once or twice and refuses to go back. She says they're
all provincials, ignorant as cabbages."
"Well, that's probably true."
"Even so—" she started to say, intending to
make some comment about pride, realizing just in time that it would annoy Rigo,
"Tony says not. He finds companionship there."
"Stella may find some kindred spirit at the
reception,"
Marjorie shook her head. "No one Stella's age is
coming."
"We invited families."
"No one Stella's age is coming," she
repeated. "It's almost as though they'd decided not to allow any ... any
fraternization."
He flushed angrily. "Damned hidebound ..."
His voice became a wordless snarl to which the knock at the door was a welcome
interruption.
A servant announced the arrival of Asmir Tanlig, who
had spent the time since his hiring inquiring here and there about illness on
Grass. Who had died, and of what? Who was suffering, and from what? Who had
gone to the doctors at Commons, and for what. Now he plumped his small square
body down across from Roderigo and Marjorie, his round face puzzled, his mouth
pursed, his precise little hands shuffling his papers, preparing to tell them
what he had found
"I'm not finding much, sir, madam, to tell you
the truth. With the bons it's pregnancy and hunting accidents and liver
renewals because of all the drinking they do" He wiped his lips on a clean
handkerchief and lowered his already confidential voice as he leaned across Rigo's
desk where the lamplight pooled in the dusk. "I've told my family in
Commons to ask around, has anyone disappeared—"
"Vanished," murmured Marjorie. "We know
they have."
"Yes, ma'am, except if you're talking about
hunting, the vanished ones are mostly young. The ambassador told me ..."
"I know." she murmured. "I just wanted
to keep it in mind."
"As we shall," said Rigo. "What about
the non-bons, Asmir?"
"Oh, it's everything. Accidents and allergies and
in Portside there are always a few killings. Everyone accounted for, though; no
disappearances except for those who've gone into the grass or the swamp
forest."
"Ah?" asked Rigo.
"Of course that's always gone on," said the
man, suddenly doubtful. "For as long as I can remember. People going into
the swamp forest and not coming out. People getting lost in the grass."
"Who?" asked Marjorie. "Who,
lately?"
"The last one was some big braggart of a fellow
from off-planet." Asmir referred to his notes, written neatly in a tiny,
meticulous hand on various scraps of paper, which he arranged and rearranged as
they spoke. "Bontigor. Hundry Bontigor. Loud mouth, people said. Swagger.
Full of dares and boasts. Someone dared him to go into the swamp forest, and he
went. Didn't come out. He was only here on a weeklong permit, between ships.
Nobody missed him much."
"Has there been a case in which someone
disappeared and it was ... merely assumed that
the person had gone into the forest?" Marjorie ran pinching fingers up the
bridge of her nose and across her forehead, trying to evict the headache that
had settled there.
Asmir shuffled his notes once again. "Last ones,
before Bontigor, were kids. Nobody saw them go in there, if that's what you
mean. Time before that ... well. Time before that was an old woman. Kind of
gone, if you take my meaning. People couldn't find her, so they thought—"
"Ah," said Marjorie.
"Then there was that couple over at Maukerden
village. And the carpenter from Smaerlok. And here's somebody from Laupmon—"
"Lost in the grasses?"
He nodded. "But that's always happened."
"How many?" asked Rigo. "How many do
you have listed, within the past collect? No, that would have been winter. Say
last fall. How many assumed lost in the swamp forest or the grass last
fall?"
"Fifly," estimated Asmir. ''Fifty or
so."
"Not many." murmured Marjorie. "It
could be what they think it is. Or it could be ... illness."
Rigo sighed. "Go on, Asmir. Keep gathering. Get
everything you can about disappearances—who disappeared, how old they were.
whether they seemed healthy before they went, things like that. Is Sebastian
helping you?"
"Yes, sir. I gave you his information along with
mine."
"Keep at it, then, both of you."
"If you could tell me—"
"I told you what I could when I hired you,
Asmir."
"I thought ... I thought perhaps you didn't
trust me then."
"I trusted you then and now." Rigo smiled,
one of his rare and charming smiles. "I told you I'm taking a special
census for Sanctity. It has to do with human mortality. I've told you quite lot
about Sanctity and how it tries to keep track of the human race, so you can
understand why Sanctity would be concerned with what people die of. But the
aristos won't allow Sanctity to have a mission on Grass, so Marjorie and I
agreed to find out what we can. However, we're not going to offend the bons, so
we'll do it quietly. All we want to know is if there is any unexplained
mortality on Grass."
"If anybody mortals in the swamp forest, you'll
never explain it," Asmir said firmly. "If they mortal in the grasses
at night, it's probably foxen. You've seen foxen?"
Marjorie nodded. She had seen foxen. Not close enough
to describe, but quite as close as she cared to come.
"You've seen more'n me, then," he said,
lapsing into a less portentous style. "But I've seen pictures."
"I take it you don't go out into the
grass?"
"Oh, sir, no! What kind of flick bird do you
take me for? Oh, daytimes, yes, a little way, for a picnic or a romantic walk,
say. Or to get away by yourself for a bit. But that's what village walls are
for, and estancia walls too. To keep them out."
"Them?" queried Marjorie, gently.
He told the roll of them, words that clanged like the
toll of a knell as his awestruck voice invoked incipient funerals out of each
one: "Peepers. The thing that cries out in the deep night--The great
grazers. Hounds. Hippae. Foxen. All them."
"And no one really goes far into the
prairie?"
"People say the Green Brothers do. Or some of
them. If so, they're the only ones that dare. And how they dare. I wouldn't
know."
"The Green Brothers," mused Rigo. "Oh,
yes. Sanctity's penitential monks. The ones digging up the Arbai city. Sender
O'Neil mentioned the Green Brothers. How would we go about reaching them?"
Rillibee Chime, robed in unfamiliar green, his
tear-streaked face unpowdered, crouched behind Brother Mainoa in a little
aircar as it scuttled bouncily northward. "Can you tell me where we're
going?" he asked, wondering whether he cared--He felt hag-ridden and nauseated,
unsure even of his own identity, he who had always fought so hard to keep it.
"To the Arbai city I've been digging," said
Brother Mainoa comfortably. "Some ways north of here. We'll stop there
for a day or two, let you get to feeling better, then I'll take you on up to
the Friary. I'm supposed to bring you directly there, but I'll tell 'em you
were sick. Soon as you get to the Friary, either Jhamlees Zoe or the
climbers'll be after you, and there's nothing I can do about that. So, best you
be feeling well when we get there."
"Climbers?" Rillibee asked, wondering what
on all this great, flat prairie there was to climb.
"You'll learn about them soon enough. Not much I
could tell you. They started their nonsense long after I was young enough to
take part in it. You'll feel better sooner if you lie down, you know. Lie down
for a little bit and when we're out of this wind, I'll let the tell-me drive
while I get you some broth."
Rillibee let his crouch sag into a slump, the slump
into a prostrate misery full of gulpings and more silent tears. Ever since they
had wakened him from coldsleep he'd had these nightmares, these horrid
feelings, this insatiable hunger.
"What did you do to get sent to us?"
Brother Mainoa asked. "Tear one of the angels off Sanctity and sell it to
the Pope?"
Rillibee sniveled, finding this funny in a sodden
way. "No," he managed. "Nothing quite that bad."
"What, then?"
"I asked questions out loud." He reflected.
"Well, I screamed them, really. In refectory."
"What kinds of questions?"
"What good it would do to have us all listed in
the machines when we were all dead. How reading our names in empty rooms gave
us immortality. Whether the plague wasn't going to kill us all. That kind of
questions." He sobbed again, remembering the horror and confusion and his
own inability to control what he was doing.
Ah." Brother Mainoa struggled with the controls,
grunting as he punched buttons that did not seem to want to stay punched.
"Fouled up houndy uselessness," he muttered. "Damned shitty
mechanics." At length the controls responded to being whacked with the
palm of his hand and the car settled upon a level course. "Broth," he
said calmly and comfortingly, smiling down at Rillibee. "So you asked
about plague, did you?"
Rillibee didn't reply.
After a time the older man said, "We'll have to
come up with a name for you."
"I've got a name." Even in the depths of
his present depression he bridled at the thought that he could not keep his own
name.
"Not a Friary name, you don't. Friary names have
to be made up out of certain qualities." Brother Mainoa whacked the cooker
with the flat of his hand, scowling at it. "Twelve consonant sounds and
five vowels, each with its own holy attribute."
"That's nonsense," mumbled Rillibee,
licking tears from the corner of his mouth. "You know that's nonsense.
That's the kind of thing— That's what I was asking in refectory. Why so much
nonsense?"
"Got too much for you?"
Rillibee nodded.
"Me, too," said Brother Mainoa.
"Except I didn't ask questions. I tried to run away. You were probably a
pledged acolyte too, weren't you? How long were you pledged for?"
"I wasn't really pledged. They took me, is all,
when ... well, when I didn't have anyplace else to go. They said twelve years
and I could do what I wanted."
"Me, I was pledged for five years, but I
couldn't get through them. Just couldn't. My folks pledged me from my fifteenth
birthday. By age seventeen I was here on Grass, digging up Arbai bones, and
I've been here since. Penitent as all get-out. Ah, well. Maybe if I'd been a
little older." He took the steaming cup from the cooker. "Here, drink
this. It really will help. Elder Brother Laeroa gave me some years ago when he
fetched me from the port, though he was only young Brother Laeroa then, and
I've given some to a dozen since then. It always seems to help. You'll be
hungry all the time for a long time, then eventually it'll taper off. Don't
know why. Just part of bein' on Grass. You can tell me about yourself, too.
More I know about you, easier it'll be to help you out,"
Rillibee sipped, not knowing what to say. "You
want the story of my life?"
Mainoa thought about this for a time, his face
adopting varying expressions of acceptance and rejection before it finally
cleared. "Yes, I guess I do. Some people, I wouldn't, you know. But you, I
think so."
"Why me?"
"Oh, one thing and another. The way you look.
Your name. Now that's an unusual name for one of the Sanctified."
"I never was one of them. They just took me, I
told you."
"Tell me more, boy. Tell me everything there is
to know."
Rillibee sighed, wondering what there was to know,
remembering, unable not to remember.
The house in Red Canyon had thick adobe walls, mud walls
that stayed warm at night and cool in the day. The walls crumbled a little in
the winter snow and when it rained, so that every summer Miriam and Joshua and
Song and Rillibee had to spend most of a week putting more adobe on and
smoothing it out and letting it dry. Inside the house the floors were tiled.
One floor was red and the one in the next room was green, one was blue, the
next one had patterns in the tiles. Song taught him to play hopscotch on the
tiles in his bedroom, and there were dark and light ones in front of the
fireplace, little ones, about two inches across, where Joshua and Miriam played
checkers. The checkers were made out of clay, too, with leaves pressed into the
tops so the pattern stayed after the leaves burned away. Miriam fired them in
the same oven she fired the floor tile in, the funny old brick kiln out back,
the one that pulled the fire in from the front
There were three bedrooms, a little one each for
Rillibee and Songbird and a big one for Joshua and Miriam. Sometimes Rillibee
called them Mom and Dad and sometimes he called them by their names. Miriam
said it was all right, because sometimes he meant to talk to his Mom or his Dad
and other times he just meant to talk to somebody named Miriam or Joshua.
The kitchen was a big room and the common room was
bigger yet, with a painting of Miriam over the fireplace and two big, squashy
couches. There were old, old Indian rugs on the floors and a table where they
all ate supper. Mostly they ate breakfast in the kitchen.
Joshua's shop was off to one side, with a cellar
partly under it and partly under Rillibee's room. Joshua used the cellar to
store the wood he would turn into tables and chairs and cabinets after it had
seasoned. There were power tools in the shop and Miriam's potter's wheel and a
big door along the creek side that stood open all summer long.
The low, earthen bulk of the house and shop stretched
along Red Creek beside monstrous old cottonwoods that dangled their leafy
branches over it, green in summer, heartbreak gold in the fall. Miriam called
it that. Heartbreak gold. So beautiful it made you catch your breath when the
sun came through, like the touch of the hand of God. Miriam said a lot of
things like that, old-fashioned kinds of things. Even her name was old-fashioned.
A really antique name, from a long, long time before.
His father, too. Joshua. That was an antique name for
you. Even the things Joshua and Miriam did were old-fashioned things, things
nobody else did—woodworking, pottery, gardening, making things with their
hands, growing things in the soil.
In between making stuff or growing stuff they were
always taking Rillibee and Songbird out to show them something or other, a
flower or a crawdad or a fish. There were lots of fish in the creek. There were
deer in the canyon. There were sage chickens and wild turkey on the rimrock,
way up there. "This is one of the few places on earth that man hasn't made
garbage out of," Joshua said sometimes, pointing up the canyon. "Live
in it. Watch out for it. Take care of it. Every springtime move out to the
front edge of it and plant something that will live longer than you do."
Joshua and Miriam had been doing that for twenty
years, ever since Joshua came back from Repentence, planting things every
spring. Up the canyon along Red Creek the trees were old and big. Joshua's
grandfather had planted those. Orchards stood below the house, apple and cherry
and plum, trees four times as tall as Joshua, clouds of blossoms in the spring,
Joshua's father had planted the fruit trees. Then came the groves Joshua had
planted, young conifers, shorter and shorter ones as they reached the edge of
the green belt Joshua and Miriam had made. Beyond the green was the gray, flat
land: dry soil specked with knapweed and thistle and thorny brush, cut by the
dusty knife edge of the road. Down that road was the town and the school, a
Sanctity town and a Sanctity school. Rillibee's folks weren't Sanctified, but
they sent Rillibee to school there anyhow. It was closest, and besides the
things Joshua and Miriam taught him, he needed to learn the things a school
could teach. School was only a mile away, easy to get to most of the year. Once
in a while they'd be snowed in for a week or so, but that was rare. Sometimes
Rillibee brought kids home from school with him, but that was rare, too. Mostly
they thought he was strange.
Their parents all worked in comnet cubicles at their
apartments, or they worked in one of the technical centers along the surface
route! They went back and forth on covered walkways. If they needed to go very
far, they had hovers. Joshua and Miriam had donkeys, for cries sake. Donkeys.
It was enough to make Rillibee's schoolmates chop themselves into pieces
laughing about the earthfreaks who ate food they grew themselves and wouldn't
use dirty words and wore funny-looking clothes. Rillibee never heard the word
earthfreak until he was in fourth category. Then he thought he'd never hear the
end of it.
Rillibee minded more than Song did. She had a
boyfriend who belonged to another earthfreak family over in Rattlesnake, and
the two of them got along fine. Jason was his name. Another old-time name.
Jason used some bad words, but never in front of Joshua. That's one thing
Joshua was death on, bad words, and when he was around, Rillibee was careful
not to say any.
"Why'd you call me Rillibee?" he complained
to his mother after one particularly bad day at school when everyone was busy
making fun of him for his name and his clothes and his folks. "Why
Rillibee?"
"It's the sound the water makes running over
stones," she said. "I heard it the night before you were born."
How could you yell at somebody over that? She just
stood there, smiling at him, taking hot cookies out of the oven, piling them
onto a plate for him, getting him a cup of the milk she'd put in the stream to
cool. "Rillibee," she said, so that he heard the water sound in it.
"Rillibee."
"The kids at school think it's funny," he
muttered, mouth full.
"I suppose," she agreed. "They'd think
Miriam is funny, too. What are they all called now? Brom. And Bolt. And Rym.
And Jolt."
"Not Jolt."
"Oh. Excuse me. Not Jolt." She was laughing
at him. "They all sound like laundry sonics."
He had to agree they did. Bolt sounded like something
that would shake the donkey hair out of your socks. Jolt sounded even more so.
One day Joshua brought a parrot home. It was a small
gray parrot with some green feathers on it.
"What on earth?" Miriam asked.
"Joshua?"
"Those cabinets I built for the Brants, you
know?"
"Of course I know."
"He really liked them. He gave me the bird as a
bonus."
Miriam shook her head, annoyed. Rillibee knew she was
thinking about the mess the bird would make. "Wanted to get rid of it,
most likely"
Joshua put his hands in his pockets and stood there,
looking at the bird where he'd set it on its perch at one side of the fire.
"He said it was valuable."
Miriam was looking at the bird with her lips tight
together as though she wanted to say something nasty.
"Shit," said the bird clearly.
"Excrement." Then it shit on the floor.
Miriam laughed. She couldn't help herself. She was
all bent over giggling.
Joshua was red in the face, mad, not able to say a
thing.
"Well, he certainly talks," Miriam said.
"I'll take him back! Right after supper."
"Oh, for heaven's sake, Josh, leave him. We'll
teach him some better language. You know, the bird doesn't know what he's
saying. It isn't as though there's a brain there, telling him to talk dirty.
He's just imitating sounds he hears."
"He didn't hear that!"
"Sounds he remembers."
So they'd kept the parrot. It never learned any nicer
words about anything, though it didn't talk much; but every time Miriam got mad
and acted like she'd like to say something but couldn't, darned if that bird
didn't. Rillibee noticed it right away. Every time Miriam got really mad, here
was the parrot saying "Shit" in this dreamy voice, or
"Dammit" or once, "Fuckit" Joshua hadn't heard that one, or
there'd probably have been a dead parrot.
Rillibee moved into the fifth category when he was
eleven, becoming a five-cat before most of his age-mates. That hadn't made them
any easier to get along with. His mentors were old lady Balman and old man
Snithers. Balman taught programming and information. Snithers taught retrieval
skills. The older kids in five called her Ballsy because, so they said, she had
more than Sniffy did. Rillibee had no idea what that meant until he asked
Joshua, and then he got about an hour's lecture on sexuality as metaphor in
dominance. The truth of it was that Snithers was an old lady, all fussy and
picky, while Balman had a fine the-hell-with-it attitude that all the kids
liked, which was more or less what Joshua said only in different words.
There had been one particular day. an unremarkable
day, with nothing much happening at school except that Wurn March told them
goodbye because he was going to Sanctity for five years as a pledged acolyte.
Wurn had looked confused about it. When they asked him if he wanted to go, he'd
looked like he was about to cry.
Out in the corridor. Ballsy told Sniffy that Sanctity
could have him and welcome, and then they both laughed and got red when they
saw that Rillibee had heard them talking. He'd been on his way back from the
toilets, and they sent him back to retrieval practice in a hurry. Rillibee
agreed with Ballsy that nobody would miss Wurn March. Wurn had been in five for
longer than he should have. He was larger than most of the boys, and louder,
and he liked to hit smaller kids, and he always borrowed stuff and didn't give
it back.
Other than that happening, it was just a day. It was
the first day Rillibee had ever heard about pledged acolytes, but it was just a
day.
When he got home, Miriam was in the kitchen, as usual
at that time of afternoon. There were a lot of good smells in there with her,
and Rillibee threw his arms around her, for once not caring what anybody else
thought. She was his mom and if he wanted to hug her, so what.
So what happened was she gasped and pulled away.
"Ouch," she said, smiling so he'd know it wasn't his fault.
"I've got a sore place on my arm, Rilli. You kind of whacked it when you
grabbed me."
He had been sorry, insisting on examining the sore
place, which looked terrible, all gray and puffy. Joshua came in behind him and
looked at it, too.
"Miriam, you'd better go to the Health Office
about that. It looks infected."
"I thought it was getting better."
"Worse, if anything. You've probably got a
splinter of something in there. Have it seen to." Then Joshua kissed her
and the parrot said, "Oh, hell," which set everyone off, and that was
all.
The next afternoon when Rillibee got home, Songbird
was there but Miriam wasn't. Song was looking for the cake Miriam had baked the
night before and hidden from them.
"Where's Mom?" he wanted to know.
"She went to the Health," his sister reminded
him, burrowing in the cold cupboards.
He nodded, remembering. "When'll she be
home?" He wanted to tell her about Wurn March and what the teacher said
and ask her about pledged acolytes.
"When she's finished, dummo," Song said.
"You ask the dumbest questions." She opened the side door and went
outside to peer down the road.
Rillibee followed her. "You wanna hear a dumb
question? When are you going to grow up? That's a dumb question, 'cause the
answer is never."
"Brat," she said. "Dumb little brat.
Still suck your thumb."
"Stop it," Joshua said, coming across the
yard from his workshop. "The two of you! Song, there's no excuse for
talking like that I don't want to hear another word out of either of you. Song,
go in and set the table. Rillibee, go pick up that junk you left scattered all
over the common room last night. Put the rug back down, too. I'm going to start
supper so your mother won't have to do it when she comes home."
There was quiet then, quiet for several hours.
Rillibee remembered the quiet as a prelude to what happened later. Much later
that quiet came to stand for tragedy, so that he would be uncomfortable with
too much tranquility, too much silence. The evening sun slanting into the
living room through the tall windows made pools of gold on Dad's wide-planked
floor and on the castle Rillibee had built the night before. He destroyed it
and all its battlements, picked up the pieces, packed up his warriors, and put
the rug back down, taking time to comb out the fringes with his fingers so they
laid straight, like soldiers. Above him, on the perch, the parrot shifted.
Rillibee looked up at it, and it whispered, "Oh, damn. Damn. Oh, God. Oh,
no." It sounded almost like Miriam's voice.
Time went on until the sunlight vanished and his
stomach gave an unmistakable signal. He went to the kitchen to find his father
and Song waiting and Mom not home. "It's time to eat," he complained.
"So, we'll eat," his father said in a
worried voice. "Your mom wouldn't want us to wait for her. She's been held
up or something." They were just sitting down at the table when the
door-signal went. Somebody coming through the gate. Dad got up and went to the
door, a smile on his face. Rillibee relaxed. She probably had stopped to buy
groceries. Or sometimes she took a sample of her pottery to someone she thought
might like to buy it. It was probably something like that that had kept her so
long. But the voice at the front door wasn't Mom's voice. Somebody loud, a man,
demanding to know where she was.
"Miriam hasn't come home yet, "Joshua said
firmly. "We don't know." Then he exclaimed in anger as the man pushed
past him and came on into the house. "What do you think you're
doing?"
"Looking," the man said. He was a big man.
Bigger than Dad.
Dressed in a white uniform with a mask thing around
his neck and a green insignia on his shoulders. "Get on with your dinner,
kids," he instructed them. "I'll only take a moment." And he
went through into the kitchen, then back into the bedrooms. Rillibee heard the
closet doors opening and closing, then the man went out the front door and
around into the shop. They could hear him banging around out there. Rillibee
put down his fork very carefully, looking at his dad, so pale all of a sudden.
When the man came out he stood in the yard for a
while, looking around, then he came back to the front door and asked Dad to
come out. He talked quietly out there, but Rillibee could hear words, single
words, "authority" and "penalty" and "custody."
Rillibee fell silent.
Brother Mainoa waited awhile, then said, "They
talk like that, don't they. People who get to tell other folks what to do. Full
of powerful words, they are. Sometimes I think they have words where most of us
have blood."
Rillibee didn't say anything.
"Hard for you to talk about?"
Rillibee nodded, gulping, unable to talk at all.
"That's all right. Wait until you feel better,
then tell me."
They flew, the car bouncing a little on the
sun-warmed air. After a time, Rillibee began to tell it again.
Then the big man was gone and Dad was in the common
room, sitting down at the table once more, his face like a rock, all frozen and
hard.
"Dad?"
"Don't, Rillibee. Don't ask me anything right
now. The man was looking for your mother and she's not here. That's all I know
right now."
"But who was he?"
"A man from Health."
"Oh, damn. Oh, God," the parrot said.
Joshua threw a soup spoon at the parrot. It made a
splashy red place on the wall and fell on the floor. The parrot just looked at
them, its black eyes swiveling back and forth as it whispered to itself.
The man didn't come back. Mom didn't come home. Dad
paced the room, stopping every now and then to punch up people on the comnet.
People Mom knew. Her sister over in Rattlesnake. Her friends. People like that
When bedtime came, Rillibee looked out of the window
of his own room to see the hover parked out on the flat. The man was watching
the house. After a long time, Rillibee got into bed, dark all around him,
trying to see through it to the ceiling, to the walls, only a splinter of light
under the door. Tears. Trying to be quiet so Song wouldn't hear him through the
wall. Finally, sleep.
It had to have been sleep, because he woke up to a
strange noise. Scratching, near his head. From under him, under his bed. Under
the floor.
He thought about monsters first, not daring to move.
Only after it had gone on for some time did he remember the cellar that Dad
used to store wood in. A long time ago it had been a root cellar. Joshua had
dug it bigger so it extended all the way to the shop. The entrance to it was
out there in the shop, behind the woodstacks, but there was a hatch to it under
Rillibee's bed, from long ago. Someone was in there, scratching.
He slipped out of the bed and went to tell Joshua.
Then he kept still while Joshua moved the bed, a little at a time, almost
silently, and heaved the doorway up and it was Mom down there, white and pale,
with her face all streaked and her hair tangled and messy and her clothes dirty
as though she'd been crawling, and she was saying, "Josh, oh, God, Josh,
they were going to send me away, they were going to send me away, and I went
out the window. I ran and ran. I crawled down the creek and came in through the
little door behind the shop. Hide me, don't let them get me, Josh."
"Never, darling," he said.
"Never."
Silence again.
Mainoa said, "Your father must have loved her a
lot."
"I've never forgotten that," Rillibee said,
his voice liquid and bubbling in his throat. "I think about it at night
sometimes, when I'm trying to sleep. I hear their voices. I remember how
confused I was. Why had someone wanted to get her? Why had the people wanted to
send her away? What had she done? She and Joshua didn't tell me. They didn't
tell Song. All they had said was to pretend she hadn't come home, just pretend
they hadn't seen her...."
Mom went to bed in her own bed, with Dad. The next
morning, real early, Rillibee had wakened to some unfamiliar sound, something
happening on the road. He peeked out at the corner of the shade and saw the man
getting out of the white hover, out beyond the baby trees. He woke Dad and Mom
just in time. She barely had time to get back down in the wood cellar and have
Rillibee's bed moved back on top of the hatch.
"Lie down there and look sleepy," Dad
commanded on his way to answer the thunder at the door.
Rillibee put his head under the pillow and told
himself he was dreaming. The man from Health stamped in and pulled the pillow
off, but Rillibee managed to look confused and angry as though the man had
wakened him.
After that, Mom slept in the cellar. Dad moved a cot
down there and a special kind of toilet he put together in the shop, one that
didn't need water. During the daytime, she came up whenever there was somebody
there to watch for the man in the white hover, but if there was no one home,
she had to hide.
Joshua bandaged the place on her arm. It was just a
little place. About the size of a peach pit. By the end of the week, it had
gotten quite a bit bigger, covering the whole elbow. It hurt her, too. Then it
began to spread up and down her arm until the whole arm was raw and ugly, like
meat. It hurt her to change the bandage, but if it wasn't changed, it started
to smell. They changed the bandage every night. Song held the basin with warm
water in it, to wash the raw place. Rillibee handed Dad the bandages. The
parrot sat on its perch saying, "Oh, damn, damn. Oh, God," but none
of them paid any attention.
The man came back. Once he brought two other men and
they searched the house, but they didn't find the place under Rillibee's bed.
By this time, Joshua had made the hatch almost invisible, fitting the wood
together so you couldn't see where it joined.
Once in a while, she'd come up in the daytime, while
Song and Rillibee were at school. At night, when she came up, she'd tell them
what she'd done, where she'd walked. "The leaves are turning," she'd
say. "Did you notice, Rillibee? Heartbreak gold. God, they're so beautiful."
Then they talked about what they'd have for dinner the next night. She'd tell
Joshua what to buy and how much. She'd tell Songbird how to cook it and
Rillibee how to help. Then they'd talk awhile, maybe play a game, then change
the bandage last thing and she'd go back down.
The bad night was when they were changing the bandage
and some pieces came off. Mom made a noise, as though she was going to throw
up, as though she was going to scream but couldn't get enough air.
"Out," Joshua said to both of them,
pointing to the door, his face stretched into some horrible grin, like a
pumpkin lantern, the sides of his mouth wide open and tight with all the teeth
showing.
They ran into the kitchen. Song was crying and making
a little grinding noise, trying to hold it in, and Rillibee was telling himself
it was a dream, a bad dream, it wasn't really happening at all. He had seen the
bones in Mom's hand, where the two fingers had come off, two round, white,
slick things. The place wasn't bleeding, just kind of oozing, slow drops of
grayish liquid pushing out from the flesh and running down to make a small
stained place on the clean bandages that stank like nothing he could ever have
imagined. The smell had settled in the back of his throat as though it would
never leave. After that, Dad wouldn't let either of them be in the room when he
changed the bandage. After a while, he wouldn't let them be in the room with
her at all. They could still hear her voice. For a while she sounded just like
Mom. Once even they heard her laugh, a high, dreadful laugh. Then, after a
while, there was no voice, just this high, whiny sound like a dog that'd been
hit by a car, or a rabbit when a hawk takes it.
And the smell. Every night, rising at him out of the
cellar below him. A terrible stink. Worse than any bathroom stink. "Oh,
oh, no," said the parrot. "Oh. God. No." Dad changed rooms with
Rillibee. Days went by and Rillibee never really saw her after that. He lay
there in Dad's bed at night, trying to remember what she had looked like. He
couldn't remember. He wanted to see the picture of her, the one over the
fireplace.
In the living room, he turned on one lamp and looked
up at the picture. She smiled down at him, out of the paint, her shiny hair
falling over her forehead, her lips curved.
"Let me die," whispered the parrot. "Oh,
please, please, let me die."
"Shut up," Rillibee screamed at it
silently, the words pushing out of him like huge, burning pieces of vomit.
"Shut up, shut up."
He told himself he wouldn't go in there anymore. He
wouldn't listen to that bird anymore. He ate in the kitchen. He did his
school-work. He didn't ask any questions. He didn't talk about Mom.
"That must have been hard," said Brother
Mainoa. "Oh, that must have been hard."
"I couldn't stop thinking about her. I couldn't.
Her face would come into my mind, but then it would turn gray at the edges,
starting to curl, like a picture burning, and I couldn't see what she looked
like, couldn't remember what she looked like. I stood it as long as I could,
and then went into the living room once more to look at the painting of her.
"The parrot said, 'Kill me. Please, please, kill
me.'"
It was the day after that, Rillibee's twelfth
birthday, that he woke up knowing it had all been a dream. The sun poured
through his window, heartbreak gold. He got up and dressed and plunged out into
the living room. The parrot was walking up and down its perch saying,
"Thank God. Thank God. Thank God."
Song was already there, sitting at the table. There
was a package wrapped at his place. He sat down and grinned at it, turning it
over and over, shaking it to guess what was inside.
"Happy birthday, Rillibee," Dad said from
the kitchen door. "I'm making pancakes." His voice sounded funny, but
the words were all right.
"Happy birthday, Rillibee," said Song. She
sounded like a recording.
Dad came in with a pitcher of juice and leaned over
the table to pour it.
There was a sore on the side of Dad's neck, toward
the back. Little. The size of a peanut. Like the sore had been on Mom's arm.
When Dad went back to the kitchen, Rillibee tried to tell Song, but Song just
sat there, frozen, not saying anything at all. Then he noticed the bandage on
her hand and wondered how long it had been there without his seeing it.
He got up without opening the package and went out of
the house, through the orchard to the groves, and down through all of them, the
trees getting tinier and tiner the farther he went, until he came to the place
where there was nothing growing at all....
"Did you ever see them again?" asked
Brother Mainoa. There was a long silence. Rillibee was staring out the window,
mouth slightly open, tears washing his face. "I went crazy in school and
started yelling something. That night when I got home, there was no one there,
just the man from Sanctity, who said to come along with him. I was going to be
an acolyte, he said. They never said anything about Miriam or Joshua or Song.
When I asked, they told me my people had died a long time ago, that I'd just
forgotten. They never even asked if my family was Sanctity. We weren't. I'm
still not." Brother Mainoa sipped at his own broth, occasionally slapping
at a control button that kept threatening to disengage itself. "Brother
Lourai—how does that sound?"
"How should it sound?"
"Well, the I sound is for patience, and the r
sound is for perseverance. I thought you could
use a little of that."
"What does the m sound in Mainoa mean?" Rillibee asked tiredly. "And the
n?"
"Resignation." murmured the other.
"And reliability."
"Rebellion, did you say?"
"Shush, youngster. Lourai's a good name. You
should hear some of the throat-stoppers Acceptable Doctrine comes up with from
time to time. Fouyaisoa Sheefua. How would you like that? Foh-oo-yah-ee-soh-ah
Shee-foo-ah. Or Thoirae Yoanee. You wouldn't want something like that hung on
you. Lourai. That's good enough."
"What's acceptable doctrine?"
"Acceptable Doctrine?" Brother Mainoa
asked. He took the empty cups away and put them down the recycler. "Well,
if you'd been a little older before they dragged you off to Sanctity, you'd
have learned what the Office of Security and Acceptable Doctrine is. That's the
group of enlightened ones who tell us what we can believe and what we can't and
make sure we do it. Here on Grass they're headed up by Elder Brother Jhamlees
Zoe, with Elder Brother Noazee Fuasoi as his next man."
"Like the Hierophants," cried Rillibee.
"God, I wish I could get away from that."
"You can. Just walk off the site into the
grasses, any day. Put your shovel or your soil stabilizer down and go.
Nobody'll come after you. I could've done that lots of times, but I always knew
there'd be something interesting in the next shovelful, something intriguing
behind the next bit of wall, so I don't. All in all, I'm glad to be here rather
than there. Maybe you will be, too. Just bow your head and say, 'Yes, Elder
Brother,' in a nice obedient tone, kind of sorrowful, and they'll let you
alone."
"How can you do that?" Rillibee asked
scornfully. "It's dishonest."
Brother Mainoa seated himself at the controls once
more, scanning the dials and buttons with a skeptical eye. "Well, now,
young Brother Lourai, I'll tell you. I'll deny having said it if you quote me,
so don't try. The first thing you've got to do is tell yourself that the
shitheads are wrong. Especially Jhamlees and Fuasoi. Not just a little bit
wrong, but irremediably, absolutely, and endemically wrong. Nothing you can say
or do will stop their being wrong. They're damned to eternal wrongness, and
that's God's will. You follow me?"
Rillibee nodded, doubtfully. Whatever he might have
expected, it had not been this.
"Then, you acknowledge that these wrongheaded
fart-asses have been placed in authority over you through some cosmic miscalculation,
and you reach the only possible conclusion."
"Which is?"
"Which is you bow your head and say 'Yes, Elder
Brother,' in a nice humble tone, and you go right on believing what you have to
believe. Anything else is like walking out into the grass when the grazers are
coming by. You may be right, but you'll be flat right and there won't be enough
left of you to scrape up."
"And that's what you do?"
"Umm. And you do it, too. Don't tell Elder Brother
Jhamlees Zoe that your family wasn't Sanctified. You tell him that, he'll start
working on your head, getting you to convert, get saved, get enrolled. Just nod
politely and say, 'Yes, Elder Brother.' That way, likely, he'll leave you
alone."
There was a long silence. Rillibee—Brother
Lourai—rose from the padded floor and settled himself into the other seat. When
Brother Mainoa showed no signs of breaking the quiet, he asked, "What's
Arbai?"
"An Arbai, Brother, was the inhabitant of an
Arbai city, dead some long while, now. An Arbai city is the only kind of ruins
mankind's found on any world we've settled yet. The only intelligent race we've
ever found."
"What were they like? Arbai?"
"Taller than us. About seven feet tall.
Two-legged and two-armed, like us, but with a skin all covered over with little
plates or scales.
We've found bodies pretty well mummified, so we know
what they looked like. They were fascinating people. Like us, some ways. Spread
all over a lot of worlds, like us. Had writing, like us. not that we can read
it yet. Not like us at all, other ways. Didn't seem to have males and females
like we do, at least there's no differences we've found yet."
"All gone, are they?"
"All gone. All died, everywhere, all sort of at
once, like time had just up and ended for them. Except here on Grass. Here they
all died from something tearing them apart."
"How do you know?"
"It's how we find 'em, Brother. An arm here, a
leg there. A bone raggedy from teeth."
"What are you looking for?"
"Something to tell us why they died,
mostly." Brother Mainoa looked at him curiously. "From what you say,
you've seen plague, haven't you, Brother. You know it exists."
The other nodded. "They never told me so, but
that's what killed my family. And the Hierarch died of it. Lots of the people
at Sanctity have it. I may have it, without knowing it."
"Well, there's some of us think that's what
killed the Arbai. Better tell you now, it's not Acceptable Doctrine; so don't
go talking about it."
"Killed them," breathed Rillibee.
"Going to kill us."
"Ah. Well, there is that. Maybe not, though. If
we could find out something..."
"Do you think we can find out anything about the
plague?"
The other turned, the wrinkles around his eyes made
deeper by the speculative squint with which the Brother was evaluating his new
family member. "What I think," he purred, "is something you and
I may talk about someday after you've been out in the grass." He pointed
downward. There, spread across the short turf of the north, were the uncovered
walls of the Arbai city and the complex network of ditches dug by the Brothers,
some of them roofed with arched bundles of tall grasses. Mainoa pointed again,
in the direction of their flight. Almost on the horizon, the ramified mass of
the Friary bulked darkly against the pale sky. As they drew nearer,
Rillibee/Lourai sucked in an astonished breath. Above the Friary floated a city
of cobwebs, netted arches, and skeletal towers that moved in the light wind as
though they were living things rooted in the soil far below. From some few of
the lofty pinnacles flew the banners of Sanctity, complete with golden angels.
On seeing these. Rillibee Chime gave one last, dwindling snarl.
"Home," said Brother Mainoa. "Not a
bad place, really. Though the sky climbers will probably make paste of you for
a few weeks. Heights frighten you, boy?"
"Falling frightens me. Heights don't."
"Well then, I'd say you'll survive it."
"What are sky crawlers?" Rillibee's stomach
knotted at the picture this brought to mind.
"Boys no older than you. most of 'em. Most
likely they won't harm you much. You'll get by; that is, you will if you can
apply a few sensible restraints to your conduct."
"Yes, Brother," said Brother Lourai, his
eyes cast humbly down. "I will try to restrain myself."
8
Before Rigo had a chance to meet the Green Brothers,
a morning came when the tell-me shrilled news of the lapse. The bon Damfels had
assembled for the Hunt, but no hounds or mounts had appeared. Salla. one of
Roald Few's informants, had sent word to Commons and Roald had messaged Opal
Hill.
Long-set plans moved into action. The embassy swarmed
with cleaners and cooks, readying for the evening three days distant when the
awaited reception would occur.
In the little house, Eugenie bit through a thread and
bid her docile pet turn a quarter turn to the left- No one else at Opal Hill
had seen Pet yet. And no one anywhere would have ever seen her like this.
At the bon Damfels', Stavenger ticked off the list of
those who would attend. Shevlok, yes. Sylvan, yes. No one younger than Sylvan.
None of the young cousins. Shevlok would be ordered to pay putative court to
the fragras girl, Stella, and that would
solve that problem.
In Commons the musicians went over their music and
instruments, the wine merchant checked his stores, the extra cooks rolled their
knives in their aprons. Aircars began to dart toward Opal Hill.
At bon Smaerlok's estancia. and at bon Tanlig's, at
all the estancias, the grown women went through their ball gowns, deciding what
to wear, while their daughters sulked. None of the young women were going, it
had been decided. Too dangerous. Only older women, women with good sense, women
with a number of liaisons behind them. Several of them had been picked to flirt
with the Yrarier son, several good-looking, experienced ones. Whatever else
might occur as the result of Sanctity's embassy reception on Grass, an
inappropriate liaison with a young Yrarier was not going to be allowed. So said
the elder bons.
And at Opal Hill Roderigo Yrarier went over the list
of those who would attend, noting the absence of young people and simmering at
the insult offered to his family and his name.
Obermun bon Haunser had remembered his promise to
Marjorie when he had recommended Admit Maukerden as her "secretary."
When she first got around to interviewing the tall, self-important individual,
he told her that he knew every bon in every family and who the parents were and
what the liaisons had been and who was in sympathy with and who out of sorts
with whom. He expected, so he said, a private suite and a salary which made
Rigo blink in surprise.
"I don't trust him," Marjorie told Rigo.
"Nor do I," Rigo confessed. "But hire
him anyhow. Assign him something to do and let's see what he comes up
with."
After a little thought, Marjorie asked Admit to
compile a file on those who would attend the reception, giving family
connections and such personal information as might be helpful to new
acquaintances in conducting conversation. He spent a great deal of time at it
for one who supposedly knew them all. presenting the final work with a
flourish.
Marjorie thanked him with a smile which conveyed
nothing but ignorance and appreciation. She and Rigo then gave the file to
Persun Pollut.
"Oh, my lame left leg." Persun muttered.
"That fool doesn't know a cousin from an aunt or a bon Maukerden from a
bon Bindersen."
"Not accurate?" she queried sweetly.
"Except for the Obermums and Obermuns, there's
hardly a thing here that's not plain wrong. He'd of done better guessing. If
you'd done any introductions on the basis of this, the bons would have had your
bones for supper."
"Which would indicate either monumental
stupidity or purposeful misinformation." Rigo grinned through clenched
teeth.
"He's intelligent enough in his own
interest," Marjorie responded. "Then he was instructed to be
useless," Rigo said. "More than useless. Destructive. Which, I think,
tells us all we need to know about him and a good bit more about them."
Thereafter, Marjorie pretended to consult Admit
Maukerden from time to time and Rigo amused himself by giving the man false information
about the purpose of the embassy, waiting to see which parts of it would come
back to him, in whatever guise, via the bons. Meantime, Persun corrected the
file on the guests and went over it with Rigo's trusted assistant, Andrea
Chapelside. It was Persun who set down accurate details about the bons.
"This one is more important than he looks," he said. "This one
is malicious and will misquote you."
And it was Persun, dressed in servant's livery, who
was assigned to circulate among the guests to hear what he could hear. Admit
Maukerden, splendidly costumed to fit his idea of his own importance, would be
relegated to a post near the first surface from which he could announce the
arrivals with a fine and completely spurious air of authority, separated by a
thwarting distance from anything that might transpire in the rooms above him.
Though Marjorie doubted that anything of consequence would happen, Rigo had
faith that something of great importance would follow his enormous investment
of time and attention.
The evening arrived. Aircars dropped swiftly to the
gravel court to disgorge their bejeweled and ornamented riders, rising as
swiftly to make room for those that followed. Marjorie and Stella, gowned as
extravagantly as any of the bons—the dresses had been stitched by a whole
family of Commons' seamsters nominated by Roald Few—waited at the top of the
stairs that the bons would have to ascend, Marjorie on Rigo's arm, Stella on
Tony's.
Rigo had foreseen problems and had communicated them
fully to the children. "They are not bringing anyone your age. They will
not be so undiplomatic or ungracious as to exclude you from their attention,
however. You may expect charm and flattery from some of them. Stella, some man
or men. Tony, some woman or women. Be charming in return. Seem flattered. But
do not be fooled! Do not lose your heads."
Seeing Tony pale and Stella flush angrily, Marjorie
had nodded agreement and said soothing words. She had been warned by Persun
Pollut as well, who had heard it from a villager who had heard it from a cousin
at bon Maukerden's. "They want no real contact, Lady. They want no
involvement. They have told off some of their family members to pay court to
you and yours, but they will do it merely to keep you pleased with
yourselves."
"Why?" she asked. "Why do they reject
honesty?"
"Some of them would reject nothing. Some might
say welcome if they thought about it. Eric bon Haunser, maybe. Figor bon
Damfels, maybe. Some like that. But the Obermuns, the hunters, they say no.
They say they came to Grass to get away from others, foreigners. They call you fragras.
That is what they say, but I think what they
feel is fear. And if you look for fear, look there, among the hunters."
Asked why the bons should feel fear, he didn't know.
It was only a feeling he had, he said, and he couldn't say why.
"Why do they fear us?" she had asked Rigo.
"Fear us? Nonsense," he said angrily.
"It is pure pride with them, pride in their fabulous ancestries—fabulous
in every sense, for their nobility is more fable than reality. Sender O'Neil
told me about their origins. The fool may not have had much right about Grass,
but he did know where the bons came from. Their ancestors were minor nobility
at best, and not much of that. They can't go on pretending to be important
unless they've got something to be important about. When they came here, they
brought along plenty of common folk to lord it over, you'll notice, and they've
spent the generations since they arrived feeding one another puffery about
their histories."
Marjorie, who had seen among the aristocrats certain
twitches of skin, wrinklings around eyes, and pursings of lips, all
unconscious, believed that Persun was right. What the bons felt was fear,
though the bons might not understand what it was they feared.
Still, whether it was pride or fear that moved them
made no difference in their behavior. They arrived as Persun had said they
would, in order of their importance, a lot of small fry first: fourth and fifth
leaders with their ladies, cousins, and aunts mincing up the stairs as though
the treads were hot, old singletons like aged bulls, swinging their heads from
side to side to feel their horns. As Admit Maukerden bellowed their names;
Andrea, hidden in an alcove, looked each one up and recited the commentary into
her whisperphone. "This one is a Laupmon cousin, thirty-four Terran
years. She is childless, and she still rides. The next one is an aunt of the
Obermum. Fifty-two Terran years. No longer rides."
Primed by Andrea's voice, which buzzed in their ears with an insect hum, the Yrariers responded appropriately to each of their guests with charm or pure formality or even frosty coolness to those so chilly they would resent anything else. "So glad you could come," they murmured, noting each detail of dress or feature and connecting it with the name humming in their ears so they would not forget to be wary of this one or that one as the evening wore on. "Good evening. So very glad you could come." On the balcony above the largest reception room, musicians played. A dozen villagers hastily trained and tricked out in livery circulated with glasses, putting on the fine air of pomp and disdain which Stella had suggested to them. "What you must convey," she had told them, giggling, "is that it is better to be a footman at Opal Hill than to be Obermun anywhere else."
"Stella!" Rigo had expostulated.
"It's all right, sir," Asmir Tanlig had
said. "We understand the young lady right enough. She wants us proud
enough to shame the bons." And so they were to the last man, bowing like
grandees as they offered their trays of glasses, their bits of tasty food,
their sotto voce directions to the ladies' or the gentlemen's retiring room,
along the balcony, near the musicians. The guests stood or sat or wandered,
examining each bit of furniture, each set of drapes, some with a slightly
discontented air. Little enough there for them to find fault with unless they
found fault with themselves. Similar furnishings were found in every estancia.
Similar images on the walls. Similar arrangements of flowers. Not so well
done, perhaps, but similar. Too similar to cavil at, though one or two made the
effort. "So ordinary," they said. "So everyday. One would think,
coming from Sanctity ..." As though they would not have belittled anything
that had breathed of Sanctity.
"Good evening How very glad we are to meet
you."
Now the seconds and thirds were beginning to arrive.
Eric bon Haunser with Semeles bon Haunser on his arm. "A
cousin," said Andrea's voice. "At one
time said to have been Eric's lover. She will attempt to seduce Tony, or
failing that, the ambassador."
Was there a quaver in Andrea's voice at the thought of anyone seducing the ambassador. Was it amusement, perhaps? Gray haired Andrea, who knew Rigo as though he were her own younger brother. Who knew all about Eugenie. Amused? Tony flushed as he bowed over the hand of Semeles bon Haunser. Stella snorted, and Marjorie bit back a cheerless giggle as she smiled and bowed in her turn as Figor took her hand.
"Figor bon
Damfels, younger brother of the Obermun. Yie has been instructed to flirt with
Lady Westriding. Shevlok bon Damfels. He will pay court to Stella, though
unwillingly, for he is still grieving over Janetta bon Maukerden. Sylvan bon
Damfels. As usual, no one knows what he
is up to."
Marjorie's placid voice addressed the bon Damfels'
sons. "Good evening. How nice to see you both again."
"Good evening, Lady Westriding," said
Sylvan, bowing. "It is kind of you to have planned this amusement for us.
We have talked of little else for days." Smiling at Marjorie, at Stella,
manfully clapping Tony on the shoulder, bowing slightly to Rigo. All this
charm. In comparison, Shevlok was a poor player, able to muster only a muttered
compliment, a sidelong glance, more cowed than seductive. Unconvincing,
Marjorie thought. Damned loutish, Stella seethed. Unhappy Shevlok.
"Obermun Stavenger bon Damfels. Obermum Rowena
bon Damfels."
Now the firsts were beginning to appear, and Andrea's
whisperphone was silent. The Yrariers already knew what was common knowledge
about the Obermuns, the Obermums.
"Obermun Kahrl bon Bindersen. Obermum Lisian bon
Bindersen. Obermun Dimoth bon Maukerden. Obermum Geraldria bon Maukerden."
"Good evening. We are honored to welcome
you."
"Obermun Gustave bon Smaerlok. Obermum Berta bon
Smaerlok. Obermun Jerril bon Haunser. Obermum Felitia bon Haunser."
"Good evening. Good evening."
"Obermun Lancel bon Laupmon."
"Alone," whispered Andrea. "Recently widowed."
Then, at last, one final man and an old. old woman in
a mechanical chair. "Obermun Zoric bon Tanlig. Obermum Alideanne bon
Tanlig."
"She is the Obermun's mother and the eldest among the first leaders," whispered Andrea. "She is always the last to arrive."
Now the Yrariers could follow the music and the smell of food, down a half flight from the long, chilly hall. Marjorie advanced into the ballroom, was swung into the dance by Rigo. Stella and Tony followed. They had practiced these antique steps under the watchful eye of a dancing master sent from Commons and they now swayed across the floor as though they had danced in this remarkably intimate fashion all their lives. The dance was called a valz. From here and there about the floor couples of the bons joined them on the floor, not so many as to look enthusiastic but not so few as to appear impolite.
"We are being put in our place," Marjorie
said, smiling into Rigo's face.
'They can only do it if we appear to notice it."
He smiled in return, flames of fury at the backs of his eyes.
They turned to other partners. Rigo allowed no
opportunity for snubs. Though he was complimentary to all the bons, he asked no
woman to dance who had not been ordered to approach him. Thanks to Persun, he
knew who those were. As did Tony.
"Pretend it is an Olympic event," Marjorie
had told her fretful son. "If you do it right, you will get a medal. Treat
your partner as you would a willful horse, gently but firmly. It is only
athletics, after all." And so Tony danced and smiled and tried to flirt,
though he had had sadly little practice at it. Stella was far better at it than
he, anger only increasing her vivacity.
Marjorie drank fruit juice, provided discreetly by
Asmir Tanlig, and chanted to herself as she sometimes did when duty bade her do
things she did not want to do. "Bow, smile, be led into the dance. Smile,
flirt, talk of nothing much. Flirt, charm, be led back to your chair. Charm,
bow, begin again." The partners came and went, in relays. She began to
long for a real drink, a real conversation.
"Will you dance with me, Lady Westriding?"
Sylvan spoke, appearing from somewhere behind her.
She almost sighed with relief. Sylvan was not
supposed to be one of those she had to be wary of. She went into his arms as to
a refuge, not fleeing precisely, and yet not holding herself aloof. He led her
gently, as though she were a hooded bird, accustoming her to his movements
until they seemed to dance almost as one. She thought fleetingly of her advice
to Tony, and was amused. Around them other couples circled, a little silence
falling as bons whispered to one another. Sylvan was always interesting because
he was not predictable. Look—Sylvan! Sylvan bon Damfels. ...
Perhaps it was the quiet that drew Rigo's attention.
He was on the balcony, standing at the entrance of the gentlemen's withdrawing
room as he saw Marjorie circling in Sylvan's arms and felt his lip lift in a
familiar snarl. She danced with the young bon Damfels as though he were an old
and valued friend. Or a lover.
He struggled to control his face. He could not snarl
or curse as he sometimes did when he saw her contented like this, moving in
some exercise of horsemanship or dance or merely walking in the garden. There
was an expression on her face at certain times, an expression of unconscious
joy which came from a part of her he had always coveted, a separate being he
never saw when he was with her. He had seen that being in the arena or the
hunt, skimming the green pastures toward the high fences, all there between the
posts and over the water, winging on danger and delight, a bird soaring with a
singing face. He wanted to hold that bird.
He had wooed Marjorie and won Marjorie. but he had
never gained possession of the thing he'd wanted. Seeking her soul, he had
taken only her body, finding there a hollowness he had not expected, a vacant
citadel he could storm again and again to no effect. In his bed she became
someone else, someone dressed in childlike gowns, filmy white, sprigged with
blossoms, her body fragile and boneless, her eyes focused far away on something
he could not see. He had used every skill with her he knew, and some he
invented for her alone, but she never came from Rigo's bed looking as she
looked now, dancing with Sylvan bon Damfels, lost in movement and pleasure,
eyes half closed, lips curved up in that gentle smile he had thought, once,
would be his alone.
Andrea's voice in his ear, secret as a mole. "Persun says your absence is being noted."
He smiled and went down from the balcony, looking for women's faces he could notice particularly, women's bodies he could admire with a significant glance, hinting something, promising nothing. It was all a game, a game.
And below him, Sylvan left Marjorie and turned to
Stella with conscious gallantry. Marjorie took yet another glass of fruit juice
from a tray offered by Asmir Tanlig and stood beside Geraldria bon Maukerden to
join in witty admiration of the ladies' gowns, embroidered and beaded in
fantastic designs. This, too, was a Grassian game, with its own language, its
own etiquette. Persun had researched it and taught it to her.
Rigo swung past her in the dance, smiling like a
mannequin at her over his partner's shoulder.
Beyond them, through the door to the terrace,
Marjorie saw Eugenie. Had anyone been appointed to dance with Eugenie? What
bon? Any bon at all? Perhaps she would have to beg Sylvan to dance with her
husband's mistress. Though perhaps Shevlok would do so without prompting. He
was near the door, looking out at Eugenie where she stood with someone.
With a girl? But there were no girls, no young women
present. Except Stella, and Stella was dancing with Sylvan. Marjorie, possessed
by a premonition of trouble, put down her glass.
Eugenie and her friend came through the terrace door,
Eugenie clad all in rose, her gown fluttering behind her like sunset cloud, and
the other one in a similar gown, violet as shadow, hair piled high, walking
behind Eugenie with Eugenie's own half-gliding gait, head turned to one side so
that she looked across the room with an odd, one-eyed glance, sidelong.. .
A strange silence fell. Someone stopped talking and
stared. Someone else's eyes followed the first stare. A couple stopped
dancing. The music went on, but the people slowed, like moving toys that had
run down, slowly, stopping.
Eugenie was halfway across the room, moving toward
Marjorie. She would not go to Rigo, not publicly, she knew enough for that. She
knew her public role was to be merely one of the group, a guest of the embassy,
invited to participate in this gaiety. She smiled, holding out her hand as her
companion passed the man near the door....
And Shevlok screamed as though his heart had been
torn out.
"Janetta!"
Eugenie glanced behind her uncertainly; then, seeing
that her companion followed still, she came on again, her face collapsing in
doubt.
"Janetta!" Now the woman beside Marjorie,
Geraldria bon Maukerden, cried out that name.
And uproar. At Marjorie's side, Geraldria dropped her
glass. It splattered into tinkling shards on the floor. The music faltered.
Shevlok and Geraldria were both moving, like sleepwalkers, toward the girl, the
strange girl.
Dimoth bon Maukerden was shouting, and Vince, his
brother, and then others. The strange girl was surrounded, seized, though she
did not react. She was passed from hand to hand, passive as a rag doll, looking
toward Eugenie as though all her mind resided in the other woman, ending in
Shevlok's arms.
"What have you done to her?" It was Sylvan,
beside Marjorie, demanding. "What have you done?"
"To Eugenie?"
"To Janetta. To the girl."
"I never saw her before this moment!"
"That woman who has her. What did she do?" And when Marjorie shook her head helplessly,
he went on, "Find out, quickly, or we will all be throwing dead bats at
one another."
Marjorie had no time to ask him what he meant. And
then Rigo was there, and were confronting Eugenie, who was crying and disclaiming
any fault and making it hard for them by babbling but telling them nothing,
nothing they could use against the mounting anger all around them.
"You filth, you fragras," trumpeted Gustave bon Smaerlok. "What have you
done to Janetta?"
"Silence," bellowed Rigo, his voice
shattering the other voices. "Silence!"
Then there was a little cup of quiet into which
Eugenie's voice splashed like the thin cold juice of a bitter fruit, "I
got her in Commoner Town," wailed Eugenie, "I got her from Jandra
Jellico. All I did was make her a dress and fix her hair. She was just like
this when I got her...."
Some few of the gathered aristocrats perceived that
she was telling the truth, as much truth as she knew. Eugenie was as open as a
child, weeping, not sure what it was she had done to make all this uproar. She
had meant it as a surprise, bringing her pet to the ball. She had thought it
would be fun.
"I told you we should stay far from this
filth," trumpeted Gustave once again, red of face, spittle at the corners
of his mouth.
Rigo was in front of him. This could not be allowed to pass. "Filth?" he snarled. "What kind of filth allows their daughters to fall into such a state, for others to find, for others to rescue and clothe and feed? Hah?"
"Rigo!" Marjorie called, moving between the
two angry men. "Obermun bon Smaerlok, we do no good to call one another
names. You are all very upset. So are we."
"Upset?" Dimoth cried. "My
daughter!"
"Hear me!" Rigo thundered. "When did
you see her last?"
There was silence, silence as each one contemplated
an answer to that question. It had been— It had been last fall. Early last
fall. She had disappeared last fall. No one wanted to say, to admit it had been
that long ago.
"We heard of her disappearance," Marjorie
said. "It happened long before we ever left to come here. Before you had
even given permission for us to come."
The words hung there, unimpeachably true, Janetta had
gone long before these people had come, Janetta, now standing at the middle of
a small circle, dancing by herself, humming, lovely as a porcelain figure and
as impersonal. Nothing in her face or glance spoke of a person being there. In
the circle around her was Shevlok bon Damfels, no longer clinging to her.
"It is not Janetta," he sobbed.
"Of course it is."
"Don't be silly, man."
"This is my daughter!"
"Not Janetta," he repeated. "No. No.
This person is older."
"She would be," cried Geraldria. "She
would be older, Shevlok."
"And not the same. Not the same."
Who could argue that? This creature was not the same
as anyone. It turned to examine them with its odd, goose-eyed gaze, circling,
as though to see if anyone had anything to interest it, some grain, perhaps,
some bread. The moist, pink mouth opened. "Hnnngah," it cried, like a
kitten. "Hnnngah."
Now there were quieter voices asking Eugenie again
where she had found the girl, how long she had had the girl. Now there was
movement among the bon Maukerdens, Obermun and Obermum, sisters and cousins,
brothers and nephews.
Vince bon Maukerden, hotheaded, poised before Rigo.
"No matter when she vanished. It was here she turned up, like that! How do
we know it was not you who did it to her?"
"You," hissed Gustave from nearby,
"who have not even the courage to ride with us. It is the kind of thing a
fragras would do."
"For what reason?" asked Marjorie in a
loud, mild tone. "It is simple enough to learn the truth. Ask the people
in Commoner Town."
"Commoners!" sneered Gustave, "They
have no honor. They would lie!"
And then movement of the crowd as they bore the
strange girl away.
Some went then. Shevlok. The bon Maukerdens. Gustave
and his Obermum. Others stayed. Of those who stayed, it was the bon Damfels who
stayed longest, who went over and over the story Eugenie had to tell. Sylvan,
particularly, who asked again and again, "Did she say anything, Madame Le
Fevre? Ever? Any word? Are you sure?" To which Eugenie could only shake
her head no, and no, and no. Pet had never said anything at all.
It was only later that Marjorie realized why Sylvan
had been so intent. Dimity bon Damfels had vanished in the hunt as Janetta bon
Maukerden had vanished. If Janetta had emerged in this fashion, might not
Dimity still be found alive, somewhere, somehow?
Though there were no physicians among the bons, there
were doctors in Commons. None of the aristos had ever lowered themselves to
study the professions, but no such pride had prevented various commoners from
flying off to Semling for a few years, returning with extensive educations.
There were also no architects or engineers of any kind among the bons, but most
kinds of technical expertise could be found in Commons. So it was from Commons
that Lees Bergrem came to examine Janetta bon Maukerden—Dr. Lees Bergrem, head
of the hospital.
A maidservant saw it all, heard it all, told a
brother who told someone else who told Roald Few.
And Roald told Marjorie. "Dr. Bergrem put a
thing on her head, to measure what was going on in her brain. And there was
nothing, no more than a chicken."
"Will she be able to learn again?"
"Dr. Bergrem doesn't know, Lady. It seems so,
for Miss Eugenie had taught her to dance, you know? Taught her to hum a song,
too. It seems she will be able to learn. Dr. Bergrem wanted to take her back to
the hospital, but Geraldria bon Maukerden wouldn't hear of it. Foolish, that
woman. Dr. Bergrem studied on Semling, she did. And on Repentance, too. She's
written books about her discoveries here on Grass. There's those who've been
through here who say she knows more than many doctors, even those back on Terra."
Marjorie, ever mindful of her duty to learn
everything possible about Grass, ordered copies of Dr. Bergrem's books to be
facsimile transmitted from Semling Prime.
The tell-me hummed with the story, Janetta bon
Maukerden, found alive. Of all those who had vanished over the years, she was
the first to be found alive. First and only, and yet what hope this sparked
among certain aristocratic parents and lovers and friends. Rowena bon Damfels
came to call, alone.
"You must not tell Stavenger I was here,"
she said, whispering, her face swollen with fear and grief "He and Gustave
have spent hours on the tell-me. bellowing to one another. He forbade me to
come."
"I would have come to you," Marjorie cried.
"You had only to ask."
"He would have seen you and driven you away. We
are still in the lapse, and there is no Hunt. He would have seen you."
But it was really Eugenie that Rowena wanted to see,
Eugenie she wanted to question, because she could not go to Commoner Town
without Stavenger finding out. Marjorie stayed with them, and it was she who
suggested, "Rowena, I will ask the man and the woman to come here. The man
and woman who had her, in Commons. I will ask them to come here, since you say
they cannot come to your estancia, and you can come here to talk to them
yourself/'
A fragile bond. A little trust. After Rowena left,
Marjorie sighed, shook her head, sent for Persun Pollut.
"See if you can get the order officer and his
wife to come out here tomorrow. The Jellicos. Tell them the Obermum wants to
talk to them, privately. Secretly, Persun."
He laid fingers on his lips, over his eyes, noting
that he said nothing, saw nothing, and then departed. He returned to say yes,
they would come tomorrow, and Marjorie sent an enigmatic message on the tell-me
which only Rowena would understand. While he was there, she asked Persun to
explain something to her.
"At the reception, Sylvan said we would all be
throwing dead bats at one another, Persun. What did he mean?"
"The Hippae do it," he said. "At
least, so I hear. Sometimes on the hunt they do it. They kick dead bats at one
another."
"Dead bats?"
"They are everywhere lady. Many dead bats."
It made no sense to Marjorie. She made a note in her book for later
inquiry. There was no time now. "Rowena will talk to me," Marjorie
said to Rigo. "I think we may find this has opened a door."
"Only while she's in this state. When she grows
calm, she'll close us off again."
"You don't know that that's true."
"I believe it is," he said stiffly. He had
been stiff with Marjorie ever since the reception, since he had seen her
dancing with Sylvan with that look on her face. She recognized his stiffness as
barely withheld anger, but she believed his discomfort had been caused by
Eugenie. Long ago she had chosen not to notice how matters went between Rigo
and Eugenie, so she did not seem to notice now. Because she made no response to
his evident annoyance, he believed she did not care, that she was probably
thinking of someone else. So he grew more angry and she more silent; so they
danced, a blindfolded minuet.
Something in his manner, however, declared a decision
had been made.
"Rigo, you're not—"
"Yes," he said firmly. "I have hired a
riding master."
"Gustave was just being—"
"He was saying what all of them feel. That we
are not worthy of their attention because we do not ride."
"It isn't riding," she said with loathing.
"Whatever it is they do, it isn't riding. It's loathesome."
"Whatever it is they do," he growled,
"I will do it as well as they do!"
"You won't expect me .. .or the children
..."
"No," he blurted, shocked. "Of course
not! What do you take me for?"
Indeed, what did she take him for? he asked himself.
They were in this mess because of Eugenie, but Marjorie had not once reproached
him for bringing Eugenie here, where Eugenie certainly did not belong. As a
result he felt guilt toward Marjorie and chafed under the feeling. He felt he
had ill-used her even though she showed no signs of caring, not now, not ever.
She had never showed hostility toward him when he spent time with Eugenie,
never showed anger that he was sharing another relationship. She never said
anything bitter, never threatened anything. She was always there, unfailingly
correct, concerned, always agreeable, acting appropriately under every circumstance,
even those which he knew he had created especially to try her. He sometimes
told himself he would give his soul if she would weep or scream or throw
herself at him or away from him, but she did nothing of the kind.
He wondered if she confessed anger or jealousy to
Father Sandoval. Did she tell him what she felt? Did she cry?
Long ago he had told himself that Marjorie would
never love him as he had dreamed she would because she had given all her love
to horses. He had even thought he hated Marjorie's riding because she gave the
horses the thing she would not give him—her passion. Horses. Even more than
motherhood, or her charities.
But now he wondered if that were true. Was it really
horses who had taken her heart? Or had she merely been waiting for something
else? Someone like Sylvan bon Damfels, perhaps? What did she take him for?
He had to ask her. "Marjorie, did Sylvan bon
Damfels say anything to you while you were dancing?"
"Say anything?" She turned an anxious
glance upon him, still fretting over his intention to ride with the bons. not
caring about anything else. "Sylvan? What kind of thing, Rigo? As I
recall, he said conventional things. He complimented me and Stella on our
gowns. He dances well--Since he wasn't one of the ones Pollut warned us about,
I could relax enough to enjoy the dance. Why? What do you mean?"
"I wondered." He wondered what she was
concealing. "What has Sylvan to do with ..."
What did Sylvan have to do with? With the way Rigo
felt, seeing her. With the fact that Sylvan rode while he, Rigo, did not. He
would not ask himself what the two things had to do with one another. He would
not consider it--"Nothing. Nothing. I won't expect you and the children to
ride in the aristos' hunt."
"But why must you!"
"Because they will not tell me anything until
they trust me, and they will not trust me until I share their... their
rituals!"
She was silent, grieving, not showing it on her face.
There was malice here upon Grass, malice directed at them, at the foreigners.
If Rigo rode, he would ride into that malice as into quicksand. "You won't
change your mind." It was not a question but a statement, and he did not
know how hopelessly she said it, all the love she thought she owed him hanging
on the answer. "You won't change your mind, Rigo."
"No." In a tone that meant he would not
discuss it. "No."
An awkward machine, the riding machine. Awkward and
heavy, but little more ponderous than the riding master, Hector Paine, with his
dour face and ominous expression and black garb, as though he were in mourning
for all those he had taught how to die.
Rigo had picked an unused room in the winter quarter
to use as a riding salon, and he came there with Stella, she very busy playing
Daddy's little girl. There Rigo heard with disbelief that he would be expected
to start his lessons at four hours per day. Stella did not seem to hear, did
not seem to be paying attention. She was stroking the riding machine, humming
to herself, not seeming to notice anything much.
The black-clad instructor was emphatic. "In the
morning, an hour exercise, then an hour ride. Again later in the day. By the
end of the week, perhaps we can manage three hours, then four. We work up to
twelve hours at a time, every other day."
"My God, man!"
Stella felt the blunted barbs on the neck of the
gleaming simulacrum, ran her finger around the loop of the reins where they
hung on the lowest barb.
"Did you think it was easy, sir? Hunts often
last for ten or eleven hours. Sometimes they go on longer."
"That leaves little time for anything
else!"
"To those who Hunt, Your Excellency, there is
nothing else. I thought you would have noticed that." There was nothing
sneering in the man's voice, but Rigo gave him a sharp look. Stella had drifted
away to a corner where she sat down behind some piled furniture, being
inconspicuous, being unnoticed, eyes avid.
"You were available on short notice," Rigo
snarled.
"I am available because Gustave bon Smaerlok
told me to be available."
"He hopes to find me incapable, eh?"
"He would be gratified if you proved unable, I
think. I speak only from impression, not from anything he has said."
"And have you agreed to report to him?"
"Only to tell him when I believe you are capable
of riding in a Hunt. I will tell you this, Your Excellency. With the young
ones, we begin before they are two years old—what would that be in your terms?
Ten or eleven years of age? While they are still children we begin working
every other day, every week, every period, throughout the seasons, perhaps for
a year. A Grassian year. More than six of yours."
Rigo did not answer. For the first time he began to
realize that he might not have long enough to ride to the hounds. Not if it
took him as long as the children....
Well, then he could not let it take as long. Focusing
all his attention, he listened to what the riding master had to say.
In the corner, hidden behind the screen of displaced
chairs and sofas, Stella listened too, focused no less intently on what the
riding master had to say.
She had danced with Sylvan bon Damfels.
Only for a little time: enough time to
know that everything she wanted was there, in his skin, behind those eyes,
dwelling in that voice, in the touch of those hands.
When she came here she had thought she would never
forget Elaine, never forget the friend she had left behind. Now there was no
room, not even in memory, for anyone but Sylvan. When he had smiled at her on
the dance floor, she had realized that she had been thinking of him since she
had seen him first, at the bon Damfels Hunt. She had seen Sylvan then, in his
riding clothes, seen him mount, seen him ride. On the dance floor, as her body
moved with his, she had remembered each time she had seen him, each time he had
spoken to her, her passionate heart demanding, as it always did, more. More.
More of Sylvan bon Damfels. She would ride with Sylvan bon Damfels as she was
dancing with Sylvan bon Damfels, as she could imagine—oh, imagine doing other
things with Sylvan bon Damfels.
He had looked into her eyes.
He had told her she was lovely.
Behind the furniture she exulted, glad for the first
time that she was here, on Grass. Ears pricked for every word the riding master
was telling her father, she sucked in the information and remembered it all.
She was determined that she, too, would learn. Quickly. More quickly than
anyone had ever learned.
The same aircar which had brought the riding master
to Opal Hill had also brought James and Jandra Jellico, who waited in Marjorie's
study for Rowena's arrival.
Rowena, when she came at last, brought Sylvan with
her.
"Tell us everything you can," Sylvan asked
the Jellicos, his voice gentle. "I know neither of you did anything
reprehensible, so just tell us everything you can."
Marjorie and Tony sat to one side, listening. No one
suggested they should not be present. If they had, Marjorie had already decided
she would listen outside the door.
There was so little to tell, and yet they spun it
into an hour's telling, each little thing said ten times over.
"One thing you got to remember," Jelly told
Sylvan. "lust because Ducky Johns' in the business she is, that's no
reason to think she isn't honest. She's as honest as anybody. And I believe she
found this Janetta right where she said she did, on her own back porch under
her clothesline."
"But how?" cried Rowena, for perhaps the
tenth time.
Jelly took a deep breath. He was tired of evasion,
tired of euphemism, tired of bowing to the well-known eccentricity of the
bons. He decided to tell the hard truth and see what this bon woman made of it.
"Ma'am, last anybody saw of her, she was riding one of those beasts. Now
anybody with any wits at all is going to suppose, wherever she ended up, that
beast took her there or sent her there. And that's what I think."
So there it was. Oh, there it was, lying before them,
the sound and look of it, a barbed and violent monster, a Hippae, drawn into it
at last, told off by name, the aspect of the whole thing that none of the bons
had mentioned, that none of the bons would speak of or allow others to talk of.
The Hippae. The Hippae took the girl, or one of them did, everyone knew that.
They, the Hippae, did something to her, did anyone doubt? They hid her. They
kept her. Then she showed up again. Who knows why? Who knows how? Marjorie felt
the questions bubbling and kept silent, kept her hand on Tony's as she felt
him, too, quivering with questions unanswered, unasked. The bons had blamed the
Yrariers rather than the Hippae. Even now, Rowena did not respond. Why?
The Jellicos made their farewells and went out.
Rowena wept, clinging to Sylvan. He fixed Marjorie with a stern face,
forbidding her to speak. She cast her eyes down, feeling his will upon her as
though he had touched her with his hands.
"Mama, would you like to lie down for a
moment?" he asked Rowena.
She nodded, awash with tears.
"Tony, take her, will you?" asked Marjorie,
wanting him to take the woman away, wanting to be left alone with Sylvan, in
order to ask ...
"A moment," Rowena said.
Marjorie nodded.
"Lady Westriding ... Marjorie. A time may come
when I can offer you help as you have offered me. If my life hangs on it, I
will still help you." She laid her tear-wet hand on Marjorie's and went
out with Tony, leaving her son behind.
"Don't," he said when they were alone,
seeing the question in her face. "I don't know."
She could not hold the words in. "But you live
here! You're familiar with the beasts."
"Shhh," he said, looking over his shoulder,
running his finger inside a collar suddenly too tight. "Don't say beasts.
Don't say animals. Don't say that. Not even to yourself. Don't think it."
He gripped his throat as though something there was choking him.
"What do you say?"
"Hippae. Mounts," he gargled. "And not
even that where they might hear. Nothing
where they might hear." He gagged, begging for air.
She stared into his face, seeing the beads of sweat
standing out upon his forehead, seeing him struggle to hold his face quiet.
"What is it?"
The struggle grew more intense. He could not answer
her.
"Shhh," she said, taking his hands into her
own. "Don't talk. Just think. Is it something ... is it something they do
to you?"
A nod, the merest hint of a nod.
"Something they do ... to your brain? To your
mind?"
A flicker of eyelid, tiny. If she had not learned to
read almost invisible twitches, she would not have seen it.
"Is it ..." She thought coldly of what she
had seen at the bon Damfels estancia. "Is it a kind of blanking out?"
He blinked, breathing deeply.
"A compulsion?"
He sighed, letting go. His head sagged.
"A compulsion to ride, but an inability to think
about riding, an inability to talk about riding." She said it to herself,
not to him, knowing it was true, and he looked at her out of shining eyes.
Tears?
"Which," she continued, watching him
closely, "must be more intense the more frequently you ride." She
knew she was right. "You managed to speak to us once right after a
Hunt...."
"They had gone," he gargled, panting.
"After a long Hunt, they go away. Today they are here, all around Opal
Hill, nearby!"
"During the winter, the compulsion almost leaves
you?" she asked. "And during the summer? But in spring and fall, you
are possessed by it? Those of you who ride?"
He only looked at her, knowing she needed no
confirmation.
"What do they do when winter ends? To bring you
into line? Do they gather around your estancias? In their dozens? Their
hundreds?" He did not deny it. "They gather and press upon you,
insisting upon the Hunt. There must also be some pressure to make the children
ride. Some compulsion there, as well?"
"Dimity," he said with a sigh.
"Your little sister."
"My little sister."
"Your father ..."
"Has ridden for years, Master of the Hunt, for
years, like Gustave...."
"So," she said, thinking she must tell
Rigo. Must somehow make him understand.
"I'll take Mama home," he whispered, his
face clearing.
"How have you withstood them?" her voice
was as low as his. "Why have they not bitten off your arm or leg? Isn't
that what they do when one of you tries to stand fast?"
He did not answer. He did not need to answer. She
could puzzle it out for herself. It was not that he withstood them while he was
riding. If he had done so, he would have vanished or been punished for it. Oh,
no, when he rode he was one of them, like all the rest. The secret was that he
recovered quickly when the ride was over. Quickly enough to say some things, to
hint some things.
"You warned us that time," she said,
reaching out to him. "I know how hard for you it must have been."
He took her hand and laid it along his cheek. Only
that. But it was thus that Rigo saw them.
Sylvan excused himself, bowed, and went away to find
Rowena. "A pleasant tete-a-tete." Rigo smiled fiercely. She was too
preoccupied to notice the quality of that smile. "Rigo, you must not
ride."
"Oh, and why is that?"
"Sylvan says—"
"Oh, I think it matters very little what Sylvan
says." She looked at him uncertainly. "It matters a great deal. Rigo,
the Hippae are not merely animals. They ... they do something to their riders.
Something to their brains."
"Clever Sylvan to have thought up such a
tale."
"Do you think he invented it? Don't be silly.
It's obvious. It's been obvious to me since we saw the first Hunt, Rigo."
"Oh?"
"And since last night. For the love of God,
Rigo. Didn't it strike you as odd that no one blamed the Hippae? Here's this
girl who disappeared during a Hunt, and no one blames the Hippae she was riding
on?"
"If you disappeared during a Hunt, my dear, and
turned up later as a courtesan in some petty principality, should I blame your
horse?" He gave her a wintry glance, then left her there, staring after
him, trying desperately to figure out what had happened.
9
In the Friary of the Green Brothers, nights sat
gently upon the sills. The great, night-freezing cry which haunted the southern
latitudes was seldom heard here, though whole choruses of grublike peepers
filled the dark hours with dulcet sound. Days were spent in labor, nights in
sleep. Brothers, so it was said, had once spent their time in study, but little
study was needed here. All the questions had been reduced to doctrine; all the
doctrine had been simplified to catechism; all the catechism had been learned
long ago. Besides, what would the penitents do with more knowledge? They had no
use for it here. The Friary sat upon shortgrass prairie, though there were tall
grasses not far away. Every year in mid to late summer the Brothers went out to
cut down quantities of strong, thick grass stems that grew to the height of
seven or eight tall men. Other Brothers remained behind them at the Friary,
digging deep and narrow trenches, in parallel pairs, outlining the new halls
which would be needed during the Grassian year. Though penitents grew old and
penitents died, the number of Brothers kept growing. Seemingly it was becoming
a more frequent happening for acolytes of Sanctity to fly apart, like fragile
wheels, spun too fast.
When the great grasses had been sawn through and tied
in bundles, they were dragged back to the Friary and upended side by side in
the waiting trenches. The top of each bundle was pulled over and tied partway
down the bundle in the opposite ditch until the whole double line had been
bowed into a vaulted hall which would be roofed with thatch, its openings
walled with panels of woven grass. Within this lofty space the Brothers would
build whatever kind of rooms were needed: a new chapel or kitchen or another
set of cells.
So space was enclosed, said the historians of the
order, long ago on another world by people who lived among tall grasses. The
historians did not say what such people did in the winter. During winters on
Grass, the Brothers retired below to a cramped underground monastery where
they suffered through a lengthy season of sequestered and jam-packed
irascibility. Winters drove more than a few of them past the pale of sanity. A
sick wildness lurked among the brethren —skulking, endemic, more often erupting
among the younger than among the aged. The old felt themselves past hope, but
the young had hope continually frustrated and as continually strained against
their frustration in strange and dangerous ways.
In the summer Friary, there was room enough for
frustration to find an out. The narrow halls sprawled this way and that among
the low grasses, some making vaulted cloisters around enclosed gardens, some
with doors opening upon wide vegetable plots, some giving upon farmyards where
chickens scratched or pigs grunted contentedly in their pens. If it had not
been for the towers, the Friary could have been a tumulus left by a great
tunneling mole, the round-topped halls dried to very much the color of the
native soil.
But there were towers—towers everywhere. Demented
with boredom, young Brothers had been erecting these grass-stalk steeples for
decades. At first they were mere tapering masts, no taller than fifteen men, or
twenty, topped by plumy seed-head finials. Later more elaborate three- and
five-legged monstrosities had climbed into a cloud-streaked sky, almost beyond
the sight or belief of those on the ground—always more towers, and more.
Over the wide courtyards lacy needles soared, their
joints securely tied with tough ropes of wiregrass. Rearing upward at each
juncture of the reed-vaulted halls, spidery pinnacles pierced the clouds Filigree
masts rose above the kitchens and gardens. Outside the precincts of the
Friary, forests of spicules like those of some lacework sea urchin thrust into
the Grassian sky in myriad gothic spires. From any place within or around the
Friary, one could not look up without seeing them, fantastically high and
ridiculously fragile, the steeples of the climbers.
Upon these structure young Brothers, shrunk by
distance into the stature and compass of spiders, had crawled and swung among
the clouds, trailing their slender ropes behind them, connecting all the towers
with bridges which seemed no wider than a finger, scarcely stronger than a
hair. Up ladders thin and wavery as web silk they climbed to the high platforms
to keep watch. At first they had watched for hounds, or for grazers. Then they
watched for golden angels like those on the towers of Sanctity, so said some of
them, disillusioned with watching when no one ever saw anything interesting.
Lately they had made a sport of seeing indescribable things, or so they said,
and Elder Brother Laeroa had all he could do to keep them out of the hands of
Doctrine. Jhamlees Zoe would have relished a good disciplinary session or even
a trial for heresy. Those in the Office of Acceptable Doctrine were, after
all, as bored as everyone else.
Over the decades the towers had been climbed by
amateurs, then by enthusiasts, and finally by experts who had invented a cult
with its own hierarchs and acolytes, its own rituals of baptism and burial, its
own secrets shared among its own adherents. Each new acolyte was tested within
days of his arrival to know whether he would be one of the climbers or not.
When Brother Mainoa first warned Brother Lourai that the climbers would be
after him, he spoke no more than the truth.
They did not wait long.
Brother Lourai, lately Rillibee Chime, sat in the
refectory as generations had sat before him, the front of his robe rubbing
another layer of gloss upon the table edge, waiting for the gong which would
allow him to rise from the table, carry his plate to the service hatch, and
then go out to the washing house for his evening duty. The voice which
whispered at him came as a surprise, for it came from behind him. Nothing was
there but a blank walled end of the hall without even a shelf on it.
"You, Lourai," it said. "Pay
attention."
He looked up and around, doing it slowly so as not to
attract attention. His nearest neighbors were some distance away, minor
functionaries recently sent to beef up the Office of Acceptable Doctrine, or so
Mainoa had said, and the least notice attracted from them, the better.
He saw nothing but the woven mats which made up the
end wall of the hall. "You," came the voice again. "After duty
tonight. Time for your initiation."
The sound that followed was suspiciously like a
giggle, a nasty giggle, almost a snigger. Rillibee closed his eyes and prayed
for help. All that came in answer was the sound of the old men shouting at one
another far away on the dais. After a time, Rillibee opened his eyes and looked
around him, wondering if he could find anything in the Great Refectory which
would help him.
The refectory had four vaulted halls radiating like
fingers from a central dome. Under the dome was the dais on which the Eldest
Brothers sat: Jhamlees and Fuasoi and Laeroa, plus half a dozen others. Down
the splayed halls, in long, single rows, stood the woven grass tables of the
penitents, seated in order of seniority. The tables themselves were wonderful,
or at least so Rillibee thought.
Strips of grass stem had been spiraled and woven into
shapes representing twigs and leaves and blossoms. Tabletops curved down into
serrated aprons and thence into legs bulging with rococo excess. At home,
Rillibee's mother would have called it wicker, pointing out the similarities to
the old brown rocking chair beside the fire. Here it was known only as grass
weaving, but the grass had dozens of hues and a hundred tints.
Lifetimes of Brothers had fondled the braided arms of
these chairs, rubbed the basketry seats smooth with their bottoms, shined the
convoluted edges of these tables with their bellies and sleeves. Brother
Rillibee/Lourai's place was at the far end of a row of tables so long that it
dwindled almost to nothing as he looked along the tops toward the dome. It made
eating a lonely business for the newest Brothers, however much it encouraged
reflection.
And it made living a lonely business, too. The chairs
to either side of him were empty. There was no one he could ask for help.
Probably, no one who would help him if he did ask. And no time to ask, in any
case, for the harsh clangor of the ending bell broke through all other sounds
and stopped them. He rose to follow hundreds of other shuffling forms as they
set their plates within the hatch and went out into the evening.
When he reached the open air, he turned aside from
the court into an alleyway which led back beside the refectory to the washing
house. There he stationed himself at one handle of the pump and waited for his
coworker to arrive. This anonymous, middle-aged Brother sat down at his own
handle and the two of them began the monotonous thrusting which would bring
water from a hot spring far below. From the pump the water went into the hot
kettles. When the kettles were full, the water went into the rinsing trough. By
the time the rinsing trough was full, the kettles would be empty again.
"Damn fool thing," muttered Brother Lourai,
thinking of solar batteries and wind-driven pumps, both of which were in use
elsewhere at the Friary to pump bath water and fill the fish ponds and the
large tank that provided drinking water.
"Hush," said the older man with a glare.
Pumping was a penitential service. It wasn't supposed to be easy or make sense.
Rillibee hushed. No point in wanting it over sooner.
Tonight, it would be better for it to last as long as possible. He spent the
time thinking about the interview he'd had with Elder Brother Jhamlees the
previous day.
"It says here, boy ..." the Elder Brother
had announced, "it says here you flew apart in refectory and began making
wild accusations."
Rillibee had started to retort, started to say
something daring and angry, then had remembered Mainoa's advice. "Yes,
Elder Brother." he had said.
"Only had two years to go," the Elder
Brother went on. He was a man with a face like cork, evenly colored, evenly
textured, as though he were wearing a mask. All his features were ordinary
except his nose, so tiny a nose, like a slice off the end of a wine cork stuck
on the middle of his face, the nostrils mere slits. Around that tiny nose the
other features seemed disturbingly large. "Two years, and you had to go
doubting. Well, we won't have any of that here, you know that."
"Yes, Elder Brother."
"Let's see what you remember of your catechism.
Ah, well now, what is the purpose of mankind?"
"To populate the galaxy in God's time."
"Ah. Well, what is women's duty?"
"To bear children for the population of the
galaxy."
"Ah, well, how shall this population be
accomplished?"
"By the resurrection of all those who have ever
lived, to the time of our first parents."
"And how shall we be led?"
"By the resurrection of the Son of God and all
the saints who shall again be saints, of the latter days, to guide us to
perfect Sanctity, Unity, and Immortality."
"Hmm," said Elder Brother Jhamlees.
"You know your doctrine well enough. What the hell happened to you?"
Mainoa's advice forgotten, Rillibee asked, "When
we all get resurrected, Elder Brother, will the machines do it?"
"What do you mean, boy!"
"There won't be any people left. The plague will
have killed us all. Will the machines do all the resurrecting?"
"That'll be ten stripes for impertinence,"
Elder Brother Jhamlees said. "And another ten for uttering falsehood.
There is no plague, Brother Lourai. None."
"I saw my mother die of it," said Rillibee
Chime. "And my father and my sister had it. I may have it. They say
sometimes it doesn't come out for years..."
"Out," the Elder Brother had blustered.
"Out. Out." His face had turned pale as he bellowed, so pale that
Brother Lourai wondered if the Elder Brother had ever met anyone who had
actually seen the plague.
Brother Lourai had gone out. Ever since then, he'd
been expecting someone to summon him to receive the twenty stripes Elder
Brother Jhamlees had assigned him. No one had. The only summons had been the
summons in refectory, the one he didn't want to answer. The one he was delaying
now, pumping water while the dishes got washed.
Still, inevitably, the task was finished at last. The
kettles were emptied into a ditch that led to the cesspool, the rinsing troughs
emptied into a ditch leading to the gardens, the soapy steam vanished out the
open door as Brothers scattered wordlessly. Rillibee's counterpart at the other
end of the pump handle hitched up his robes and went out. After a long, silent
moment, Rillibee did likewise.
He thought he might stay in the washing house and
hide. He considered this for a time, quite seriously, knowing it for nonsense
but unwilling to let the idea go entirely. Where would they be waiting for him?
Outside the courtyard somewhere, perhaps in the alley which led to his
dormitory?
"Come on," said an impatient voice.
"Get it over." It was too much trouble to answer the voice. It would
be even more trouble to avoid it. Unwillingly, he shambled toward the summoner,
through the gateway from the yard, into the alley, where three of them grabbed
him and forced him through a door and down a hallway into an unfamiliar room.
They wore only their tights and undershirts. Their faces were lit in the
lantern light with shiny and unholy glee. There was no doubt at all that these
were the climbers Mainoa had told him about. Not warned him. What good was it
to warn someone about the inevitable? But one could be told. One could be given
time to consider. Not that it had done Rillibee any good.
They pushed him toward a bench and he sat on it to
hide the trembling of his legs. It wasn't fear. It was something else,
something some of those confronting him might have understood if there had been
time to talk. There was no time.
The foremost among those standing there—the group had
grown to a dozen or so—struck a posture and announced, "Call me
Highbones!" He was a lean, long-armed man with a taut-skinned boyish face,
though the wrinkles around his eyes said he was no boy. A hank of dun hair fell
over his forehead and was pushed back with a studied gesture. The color of the
hair was ageless. His brows grew together over his nose. His eyes were so pale
a blue as to be almost white. Everything about him was studied, his stance, his
gesture, his manner, his voice. Created, made up, out of what?
Rillibee saw all this as he nodded an acknowledgment
just to let them know he had heard. No point in saying anything. Least said,
the easiest denied, as the master of acolytes at Sanctity had been fond of
telling them.
"As for you, having observed you carefully for
several days, we can say without fear of contradiction that you're a root
peeper." That snigger again, as though the insult meant something.
Rillibee nodded again.
"You're required to acknowledge, peeper. Say
you're a peeper." The voice was like a chant, empty of any feeling. Like
the mosquito voices at Sanctity.
"I'm a peeper," said Rillibee, without
embarrassment or emotion. "The point of all this is," Highbones went
on, striking another pose, "that we climbers consider peepers to be the
lowest possible form of life. Brother Shoethai, he's a peeper. Isn't that true,
boys?"
There was a chorus of agreement. Yes. Grass peepers
were beneath contempt.
Rillibee had seen Brother Shoethai, a misshapen
creature of uncertain age, the butt of everyone's jokes—though covertly, for
Brother Shoethai worked for the Office of Acceptable Doctrine. Highbones gave
Rillibee little time to reflect on this.
"Of course, we realize that some are like old
Shoethai, constitutionally incapable of climbing, and all of those will end up
as peepers anyhow. Still, we'll give you a chance. Everyone gets a chance.
That's only fair, wouldn't you agree?"
Unwisely, Rillibee risked a comment. "I'm
willing to be a peeper."
There were yelps and halloos from those assembled,
men who could have been Highbones' brothers or cousins, all as shiny-skinned
and slender as he, all with that long-armed look, like ancient apes.
Highbones shook his head. "Oh, no, no you're not
willing, peeper. No, you speak from ignorance. Perhaps even from congenital
stupidity. Peepers get hung from the towers by their feet. Peepers get knocked
about by this one and that one. Their lives are sheer misery, nothing but
misery, nothing anyone would choose for himself. Far better to take the test
and see how it all comes out, don't you think? And if you simply can't climb,
well, then we'll consider mercy. But you have to try. Those are the
rules." Highbones smiled. It was a kindly smile, a practiced smile; only
the eyes betrayed the cruelty of it.
Rillibee, seeing those eyes, felt his stomach clench.
They were like Wurn's eyes, long ago, big, angry Wurn, when he used to borrow
Rillibee's school supplies, hoping Rillibee would say no so Wurn would have an
excuse to hit. It had been only a matter of time until Wurn would kill someone.
Only a matter of time until Highbones did, or had. Considering his age, he
probably already had. He probably would again. He might tonight. Highbones
wouldn't much care. He might not desire his victims dead, but he did not care
so long as the process offered some amusement. Or perhaps not amusement. Perhaps
something else.
Even now he was saying, "Peepers have such a
horrible life, little man. Such a horror as you've never thought of. Ask old
Shoethai, if you don't believe us!"
"Have you ever seen anyone dying of
plague?" Rillibee asked, the words coming out without thought. He wished
them back in the instant, but the group did not react as though they knew what
he meant.
"Plague?" Highbones laughed "No good
trying to detour us, peeper. Tell your stories to somebody else but not to us.
Time for you to climb."
"Climb where?" Rillibee asked. With
difficulty he kept his voice reasonable and calm. This dozen and whatever
others there were waiting elsewhere were a pack. Rillibee had seen packs when
he was a child. Packs of coyotes. Packs of wild dogs. Joshua had explained
about packs Let one start baying, and all would follow. It had happened that
way in Sanctity, too. Let one start panting and screeching and others would
join in. They had done so when Rillibee started yelling. By the time they'd
knocked him off the table and carried him away, twenty or thirty others were
shouting as well. A pack. If one didn't want to deal with a pack, it was
important to keep the leader from baying.
"Are you the only one with a name?" he
asked of Highbones, attempting a diversion.
It worked, for a moment. Hardflight was introduced,
and Topclinger. Mastmaster and Steeplehands. Roperunner and Long Bridge and Little
Bridge. Rillibee distracted himself by memorizing their names, their faces.
Lean faces, all atop slender forms, and most with those long arms and big
hands. Light weight was obviously an advantage. Rillibee's hands were inside
the sleeves of his robe, and he put his fingers around his arms, feeling the
ropy muscle there. All those years of exercise at Sanctity. All those years
climbing up and down the towers.
Topclinger was staring at Highbones, his face
carefully blank, his eyes unreadable. Here was one who did not follow blindly,
exclaiming and shouting. Here was one to whom appeals could be made, perhaps?
But there was no time to appeal to anyone.
"Time's passing," cried Highbones.
"Light's going. Time to climb!"
Rillibee was surrounded by a whispering mob of them,
hustled down one corridor and into a storage building, then up a flight of
stairs and out a hatch onto the thatched roof of the hall. Beside him was the
leg of a tower, a slender ladder running beside it to the first crossbrace. Above
that were other legs, other ladders. The mists hung about the top of the
towers, hiding them. Between the clouds and the earth speared the last rays of
the setting sun, beginning the long dusk of Grass,
Topclinger whispered, "This one'll climb, this
one will," gripping Rillibee's shoulder in his hard hand, squeezing it.
"Oh, I'll wager on that, Tops, I will,"
snarled Highbones.
Rillibee heard them through the muttering. All those
years listening to the mosquito whines at Sanctity, picking meaningful language
out of nonsense, let him understand what they said though they did not mean him
to hear.
"Bet," responded Topclinger. "Bet one
whole turn on kitchen duty."
"Done," said Highbones, giggling. "In
my opinion he's a deader."
Rillibee felt the chill of that giggle run down his
bones.
"Oh, God, oh," said the parrot in his mind.
"Shut up," he whispered to himself.
"Did you say something, peeper?"
Rillibee shook his head. Highbones was not the sort
to leave the winning of his bet to chance. Highbones would try to make sure, up
there somewhere.
But then, did it matter? Why not let him have his
way?
"Let me die," begged the parrot.
The dozen surrounded Rillibee, all of them posturing
now as though they were one creature, pointing upward toward the heights,
toward the last of the sunlight.
"Will he climb?" they wanted to know,
pressing closer to him as they explained the rules. They would give him three
minutes' start and then come after him. If he could reach another ladder and
get down without being caught, then he'd be a climber. If they caught him, he'd
be a peeper, but they wouldn't beat him too badly if he gave them a good chase.
If he fell off, he'd be a deader, depending on where he fell from. He might get
away with no injury at all. But if he wouldn't climb, he would die right there
on the thatch. They would rub his face in shit and keep hitting him in the
stomach until he'd wished he'd died up there, rather than here. If he didn't
climb, said Highbones, there were other pleasures some might find in Brother
Lourai's anatomy before they killed him. Others agreed to this with wide,
toothy grins and feverish eyes.
"Up," they chanted. "Up, Lourai. Got
to be initiated. Got to climb!" The word "climb" was howled from
half a hundred throats as others, drawn by the initial ruckus, ran to join the
ten or twelve who had started the racket, clambering up the side of the hall on
rope sashes dropped to them from those above, clustering upon the thatch.
"Climb, Lourai! Climb," bellowed the Brothers of Sanctity, the Green
Brothers, with Green Brother names like Nuazoi and Flumzee and faces intent
upon mayhem.
Bored, Brother Mainoa had said. Bored to insanity.
And Brother Lourai would just have to learn to get along with them.
It wasn't their threats that moved Rillibee. He had
considered death many times during recent years. He had seen no reason why he
should go on living when Joshua and Songbird and Miriam had all died. Dying had
not seemed a bad thing, though getting dead had seemed to be more difficult
than he had liked. So now getting dead seemed the problem. If he gave himself
to this pack, here and now, there would be pain first, and humiliation, neither
of which he wanted. If he was to die, he wanted it to be in peace, and not at
the hands of some long-armed barbarian like Highbones.
What really moved him to the first ladder, however,
was the confounded noise they made, the derisive cacophony centered on him,
the knowledge that they would give him no peace until he acted.
The ladder did not frighten him. All those years, up
and down the towers of Sanctity, ten times taller than these. He knew enough
not to look down. He knew enough to have a good hold before he shifted his
weight. He went up the ladder, slowly at first, then faster, his eyes up,
seeing something there that those assembled on the thatch evidently had not
seen or had taken no notice of.
The mists were coming down. The fog was falling over
the Friary. Even now, the tops of the towers were lost in it, the spidersilk
bridges were striped with veils. Perhaps those down on the rooftop would not
notice it in time, if he could get far enough ahead of them.
He came to the first crossbrace on the tower. Getting
to the next ladder required that he move along a curved rod of grass as thick
as his leg. Though this was rounded and the girders at Sanctity had been
square, this was wider than the girders he had crossed in the drop shafts.
Without stopping to think about it; Rillibee ran along the crossbrace and
started up the second ladder, eyes examining the route above him. Where the
ladders were. Where the bridges were. And where was the nearest cloud?
A howl from below greeted his run. Newcomers did not
run across the braces! Though the allotted time had not elapsed, Highbones
waited no longer. He started up the ladder even as some few below had the
temerity to shout, "Time. Time. Unfair!"
Anger spurted in Rillibee Chime. Highbones had broken
his own rules. What right had he to break his own rules?
Highbones did not acknowledge the shouts. After a
moment, his followers started after him, Hardflight and Steeplehands in the
lead with Long Bridge close behind. Topclinger did not follow. He stood aside,
shouting, "You didn't give him his fair time, Bones. You didn't give him
time." Rillibee heard it. He heard the shout of approval that greeted it,
as well, a dozen voices perhaps. Topclinger had his admirers.
Rillibee also heard Highbones below him, heard the
threats, the sniggers designed to make Rillibee nervous, to make him tremble.
Instead, the sound only fed his anger, making him move more surely and swiftly
upward. There were three more ladders between him and the cloud that was
sinking toward him. He had already memorized the ladders and bridges above it.
He had seen one thing that would be useful if he decided to try life and
several things which would do if he decided to die. Now, spurred by his anger,
possessed by a devil of contrariness, part fear, part hate, he lunged upward,
hands and feet pulling and thrusting while the howl of the climbers rose from
below as the time was up and all of them leapt for the towers.
"Comin' after you, peeper," cried Highbones
exultantly from below. "Comin' after you."
Rillibee risked one quick glance. He was already a
great height above the ground. The bottom of the ladder below him was swarming
with climbers now, as were those to either side. He lunged upward. There were
two more runs along crossbraces which grew more slender the higher he went, and
finally the ladder which led upward into the mist.
His anger made him tense. The tension made him gasp
for breath, made his arms ache. Not so hard a breath or so aching an arm as
would make him fall. Not yet. But he knew that could happen eventually. In
time. How much time? The wet of the fog lay on his cheeks, cooling them. He
climbed.
Suddenly the mist wrapped him, sweeping across him
like a fabric so that he was muffled in it, all at once draped in an
impenetrable gauze. Those below him could no longer see him or be seen by him.
He was alone in the cloud with only the trembling of the tower to tell them
where he was moving, to tell him where they came after him. He climbed more
slowly, looking to his side, peering through the growing dusk. The thing he had
been looking for appeared at last as a shadow, an extrusion of the tower into
space, ending out there, lost in the gray mist, only a few feet away.
Rillibee untied the knot of his rope sash, unwound it
from his waist, tugged his robe off, rolled it up, and tied it in the end of
the sash. Clad now only in slim
trousers and sleeveless shirt, he crawled out onto the spur, the line draped
around his neck, the tightly rolled robe dangling against his chest. The spur
had obviously been left over from the time the tower had been constructed, a
crane from which tackle had been suspended to raise materials from below. It
was supported from below by a series of diagonal braces. Behind him the spidery
legs of the tower vanished in the damp gray of the cloud, just beyond the last
brace he sat up and waited in a misty bubble where sound was muted.
Ten or twelve feet above the spur was a bridge, three
ropes strung from this tower to another not far away, one rope to walk upon,
two to hold onto, with slender lines woven between. Rillibee could not see it
now, but he knew it was there. He had seen it from below and memorized its
position. He hoped it was no farther above him than his rope sash could reach.
Balanced upon the spur, legs anchored in the angle of
the brace below it, he swung his rolled robe, pendulum fashion, gaining length
with each swing, finally throwing the robe up and over as it caught on the
bridge above him. He had intended to tie the two ends of the belt together to
make a loop and suspend himself under the bridge, lost in the mist where no one
would think of looking for him. Now he tugged at the end of the rope, dismayed.
It had caught on the bridge. Even as he jerked at it again and again he
realized his scheme would not have worked. The rope bridge would have sagged
under the weight of his body. Those who climbed these heights every evening
would know that someone was out there in midspan. If they could not find that
person on the bridge, they would look below it. So. He took a deep breath and
stayed as he was, squatted on the spur, the end of the rope still in his hand.
Someone was grunting and mumbling below him on the tower, within a few arm's
lengths. "Up here!" shouted Highbone's voice, cracking in hysterical
delight "He's up here." Other voices answered, not far below.
Rillibee waited. If they decided to climb out on the
spur, he would jump. Getting dead from this height would be almost certain. He
hoped he was over bare earth and not over a densely thatched roof which would
break his fall. He kept his mind on this, scarcely breathing, still as a stone.
Someone climbed past him on the tower, then someone
else. Sudden inspiration struck him, and he tugged at the rope, feeling the
motion transmitted to the rope bridge above him.
"He's on the bridge," shrieked Highbones.
"I can feel him. On the bridge!"
An answering bellow came out of the fog from the far
tower where the bridge ended.
The rope in Rillibee's hands jiggled and danced,
transmitting the motion of the bridge as the climbers moved out upon it. He
left the rope hanging there, jiggling behind him, as he crawled back toward the
tower, hand by hand, harkening to the sound of climbers-by, losing himself in
the fog to descend as he had ascended, sometimes standing aside from the
climbing shadows and shouting wraiths to let them go by, sometimes slipping
down wet ladders, himself invisible in the mist, hidden by cloud, one with the
sky. Above him was a discordancy of voices, directions and misdirections,
shouts of "Here he is" mixed with cries of "Where is he?"
No one was guarding the bottom of the ladder he had
climbed. The rooftop was empty. The fog had sunk almost to the level of the
roof, and the door stood open with empty stairs below. From high above still
came voices crying, "Here, here," and the ladder still trembled with
the force of the bodies rushing to and fro. He went out silently, down the
stairs and through the vacant hall, out into the alleyway and back to his cell
in the new dormitory, which was still only partially finished and almost
uninhabited. As he entered the dormitory, he heard a dwindling cry, as of
someone falling forever from a high place.
Once inside his cell he crawled under his cot and lay
there, almost without breathing, tight against the wall. Twice in the night his
door opened and a light was thrust inside.
Before dawn he rose and climbed back onto the tower,
moving through gray dusk to the bridge where his robe was caught, with the rope
girdle still dangling below. A sleeve of the robe had come loose and wound
itself around the foot rope of the bridge, only enough to prevent the bundle
falling, not enough that anyone had noticed it. Rillibee retrieved his robe and
put it on, then sat on a high crossbrace for a long time, looking out over the
Friary and the surrounding prairie.
In his head the parrot said, "Let me die."
"I planned to," he replied. "This
morning."
He put it off a little. He had planned to die this
morning, but it was interesting upon the heights. The grass rippled below like
an unending sea, stretching on every side to a limitless horizon. Things moved
in the grass. Great beasts with barbed necks paraded on the ridge: Hippae.
Torso-sized white crawlers struggled among the grass roots: peepers. Far to the
south a line of great grazers moved slowly toward the east. He stared at them
all, at the birds moving in clouds across the grasses, at the ripples here and
there betokening mysterious movements by creatures he could not see. He wished
there were trees. If there had only been trees.... Still, the warm light shone
on him like a benison, like a promise of something good to come.
By the time the sun rose, he was hungry enough to
climb down and go to breakfast.
He was interrupted twice while he ate.
Once by Highbones, who strolled down the long line of
tables to hiss at him, "Nobody makes a fool out of me and gets away with
it, Lourai. Watch your back, because I'm coming to get you."
Once by a man who called himself Ropeknots,
accompanied by two others who seemed to be watching Ropeknots more than they
watched Rillibee. Ropeknots had an angry, frustrated look as he said,
"Topclinger got hisself killed last night, peeper. Some of us was his
friends and we figure you must've knocked him off his perch tryin' to get
down."
"I went up," Rillibee explained, not
looking at Ropeknots—who was livid with resentment and obviously unable to
listen—but at the other two. "I hid in the fog and then when everyone went
past, I came down the same ladder again. I didn't knock anybody off anything,
and by your own rules I'm not a peeper anymore."
The calmer two of the delegation exchanged glances.
Ropeknots growled, "I was guarding the door. You didn't get past me. You
killed Topclinger, then you got down somewhere else."
"I went down through the same door. There was no
guard there," Rillibee said, tired of it all. "There was no one there
at all."
"I was there," the other claimed with an
ugly flush on his face and a sidelong glare at his companions. "Highbones
told me to stay there and guard the door and I did."
He turned and went away, leaving Rillibee staring
after. After a moment, his two companions followed him. Rillibee wondered if
the lie had been as patent to them as it was to him. The man had been told to
keep watch, but he had left his post. Afterward, he had denied it. The denial
suited Highbones' purpose, too, for it served to throw suspicion for
Topclinger's death upon Rillibee. If anyone had killed Topclinger, it had been
Highbones himself.
So, a faithless guard and a treacherous pack leader.
Fine enemies to have. Rillibee sighed, wishing he had thrown himself off the
spur when he'd had the chance last night. Or jumped off at dawn, as he'd
planned to do.
He was considering climbing back up the tower for
that purpose when he was interrupted again. This time it was half a dozen young
Brothers who rubbed his head and laughed and said he had done a good job of
losing them and named him Willy Climb on the spot because he'd climbed better
than any other peeper of their generation. They loved him because he had
confounded Highbones, whom they disliked, and because he had amused them. He
became one of them in that instant, a leader of them, with several promising to
watch his back for him and protect him from Ropeknots because everyone knew he
was a shit and from Highbones, too, who yelled at other people for breaking the
rules but always broke them himself.
Their easy friendship was enough to make Rillibee
stop thinking about dying for a while. In the company of these newfound companions
he climbed to the heights each evening in the dusk hours to sit on a brace and
chant his own name while the others played tag across the bridges. He was aware
of no distractions except the great night moths that blundered into him with
their squishy bodies and the peepers that raised their hymns from the grass
roots. Each sundown he ceased being Brother Lourai and became Rillibee Chime
once again. As night came down he sat in cloudy silence, remembering his
people and his place, and chanted, over and over again, Rillibee Chime,
Songbird Chime, Joshua Chime, Miriam Chime. When his friends called him Willy
Climb, he answered to that name, too. He was Willy Climb among the pack and
ruck, becoming, so he thought to himself, multiple. Rillibee, Lourai, Willy. As
though he had been folded and trimmed, like paper dolls, a chain of him extending
from the planet of his birth to these cloud-wrapped steeples, where he would
die, pretty soon, when he grew bored and depressed once more.
In the offices of Jhamlees Zoe, head of the Office of
Security and Acceptable Doctrine, the man responsible for the affairs of the Friary
was undoing, for the third or fourth time, a packet which had arrived a
considerable time ago. Inside was a wad of printing beginning, as did all
communications from the Hierarch—or even putatively from the
Hierarch—"Dear Brother in Sanctity." And so on and so on, wah, wah,
wah. Pages of it, spewed out of a cleric-all, dull as porridge and meaningless
as peeper song. The real meat was in the middle of this manuscript, two pages
inserted there which were written in a familiar hand:
"My dear old friend Nods. By the time you read
this, I will be the new Hierarch of Sanctity." Which was interesting. Cory
had always said he would be Hierarch someday. When they had been in seminary
together as boys, Cory had said it; even then, Jhamlees Zoe nodded. It just went
to prove how ruthless Cory really was.
He read further:
The Hierarch
past, one Carlos Yrarier, has for some esoteric reason picked his nephew
Roderigo to go to Grass and find out whether there is plague or a cure for
plague on your world. Pay attention, old friend. Though it is still policy to
deny it, there is plague here, as there is everywhere else. If Yrarier finds no help upon Grass, we may have to
depend upon the machines to resurrect us after the danger has passed. Some of
us, at least Thee and me, old friend. As you know, it has never been Sanctity's
intention to resurrect many! Why bring all that fodder to life again when it
did so little the first time around?
Jhamlees nodded once again. That was sound doctrine,
though not doctrine ever shared with the masses. If the machines ever woke them
into some new world, it would be a very selective waking, Jhamlees' cell-sample
was in machine "A," along with a few hundred thousand others. The
other billions could be roused if needed, but such need was doubtful.
The letter went on:
However,
since there is a chance you have no plague on your world, I plan to come to
Grass with such personnel and so equipped as to do all that must be done in the
shortest possible time to find a cure. But, we will do it quietly. It is
not our desire that either information about the plague or the cure, assuming
we find one, be widely disseminated. There are
those among the Elders who see in this plague the Hand of God Almighty wiping
out the heathen to leave worlds clean for Sanctity alone to populate. Hasten
the day. While I am less inclined to see the Hand of God, I am no less willing
to take advantage of the chance.
The information Sanctity initially received was that a person or persons had arrived on Grass with the disease and departed without it. In the serene hope that this is true, I am coming to Grass very soon. Too precipitous a move would betray our purpose, therefore I must take more time than I like. Still, I should arrive not long after Yrarier himself, having first taken time to make ritual stops here and there—the putative reason for my journey. If necessary, some of these ceremonial visits may be cut short. At the first inkling that Yrarier has found something, even if only a hint, you are to send word in accordance with the itinerary enclosed.
Jhamlees unfolded the itinerary, then finished the
letter.
Needless to say, we want no premature soundings of alarums. All is poised here as on the point of a needle, swinging wildly as a compass does when it finds no pole. As I write this the old Hierarch is dying of plague. Your old friend and cousin is not touched yet, and is determined to come to Grass in order that he may never be touched by any but the hands of friendship. Let me know what is happening!
It was signed by Cory Strange, Nods' oldest friend, a
friend from the time he had been Nods Noddingale, which was many decades before
he had become Jhamlees Zoe.
Well, Ambassador Yrarier had been on Grass only a
short time. Jhamlees Zoe had heard nothing about plague yet. He thought it
unlikely that he would hear anything about plague. Still, he would mention to
his subordinate, Noazee Fuasoi, that he wanted to be informed of any unusual
rumors. That should be vague enough.
So musing, Jhamlees Zoe wrapped the packet, the
letter, and the itinerary once more and hid the resultant bundle in his files.
For a time, Rillibee spent his days in required
prayer, in morning song and evening song, in special services now and again,
with routine duties taking up all the time between. There was gardening to do
in the sun-blessed springs and summers and falls, when crop succeeded crop
endlessly under the light-handed benison of rain. Though the long, elliptical
orbit of the planet brought it almost under the sun's eyelids during midsummer,
this far north the heat was lessened to an almost tolerable level. There were
pigs to care for and slaughter and chickens to feed and kill. There was food to
put up for wintertime. They would keep him busy, they told him. Soon he would
be assigned to his permanent job
When that day came, Rillibee in his guise as Brother
Lourai sneaked off to hide among the grasses with Brother Mainoa and talk about
Rillibee's future. He had decided again, only that morning, not to die just
yet, but that decision was not sufficient for the purposes of the Friary.
"They want to know what I want to do,"
Rillibee said in an aggrieved voice. "I have to tell them this
afternoon."
"That's right," answered Brother Mainoa
comfortably. "Now that you've settled down and it's known that the
climbing apes aren't going to kill you—and that Brother Flumzee that calls
himself High-bones has killed a few, though him and his friends always claim it
was accidental—those set in authority over us have to decide what to do with
you."
"I don't know why you think the climbers have
given up wanting me dead," Rillibee objected. "Several of them are
still set on killing me. Highbones wants me done with because he says I made a
fool of him. He had some kind of bet that I'd end up splattered. Topclinger's
friends want him to pay up. He says his bet was with Topclinger, and with him
dead, there's no bet anymore, but they keep nagging at him, and that makes him
hate me more. Ropeknots wants me out of the way because I've made him out to be
a liar. The longer I stay clear of 'em, the worse they want me gone."
"Well, you should give them what they want,
Brother. I always try to do that. When someone else wants something very badly,
I always try to give them what they want. They want you gone, you should go. I
think it's best if we can get you back to the dig with me, especially if we can
do it before Elder Brother Jhamlees remembers those twenty stripes he promised
you, which I heard about from someone I can't remember. However, if you say you
want to come back to the dig with me,
Elder Brother will send you anywhere on Grass except there." Brother
Mainoa sucked at the grass stem he was chewing and considered the matter.
"What you should do, Lourai, is look depressed
and ask them what there is for you to do. They'll mention half a dozen things,
including the dig. They'll mention the gardens and the henhouses and the pig
farm and carpentry shop and weaving shop and the dig. If they don't mention it.
you do. Say, 'I saw the dig, too, when Brother Mainoa brought me in.' Get it
into the conversation. Then, when they say 'dig?' you say, 'Dig, Elder Brother?
I was there and I don't think I'd like that much.'"
"Why should I fool around with the Elder
Brother? I thought you said Elder Laeroa was a sympathetic person."
"Oh, Elder Laeroa's good enough. He's interested
in things, Laeroa is. In the dig. In the gardens. He's a good botanist, too.
But it won't be Laeroa that assigns you to your job. That'll be assistant to
the office of Sopority and Ignoble Doctrine, Elder Asshole Noazee Fuasoi. He
hates people. His greatest joy comes from telling people to do things they
don't like, so Asshole Fuasoi does all the assignments. Him and his assistant,
Shoethai. Except Shoethai's so inconsequential, it's easy to forget him."
"How can you forget someone who looks like
that?"
"His face is only a little lopsided."
"His face is a nightmare. And so is the rest of
him. First time I saw him, I couldn't decide whether to throw up or kill him.
He looks like a monster that someone tried to mash."
"I think someone did. His father, if one listens
to rumor. When he saw what Shoethai looked like, he tried to kill him but
didn't quite manage it. They took the man's cells out of the files and
consigned him to absolute death. Then they brought Shoethai into Sanctity. He
was raised there. Fuasoi got used to the way he looks, I suppose. Used to it
enough to bring him here, anyhow. As for the other two Doctrine assistants,
Yavi and Fumo, I've always thought they looked a little like peepers. Square
and floppy and without much you could call a face." He chanted,
"Jhamlees Zoe and Noazee Fuasoi, Yavi and Fumo and Shooothai,"
drawing the latter's name out into a chant. "Something strange about
Fuasoi and Shoethai. Something weird!"
"And you want me to tell him ..."
Brother Mainoa hummed. "Mind what I say. Just
look depressed and tell him you don't think you'd like the dig much."
"Would I?"
"Would you what?"
"Would I like the dig much?"
"You'd like it better than staying here at the
Friary for the next four or five Terran years, even though you've become quite
a sky crawler in the last week or two. It may seem exciting right now, but
it'll get boring if you live long enough. Once you've seen sky, you've seen
sky, now, haven't you? Fog is fog and mist is mist and one moth is very like
another. Eventually your bodyguards will get forgetful about watching out for
you, and about that time Highbones or one of his cronies will knock you off a
tower. Out at the dig, however, there's nobody trying to kill you and we're
always finding new things. It's interesting. Here it's prayers five times a day
and penitential walks between times. Here it's mind your Doctrine and keep your
mouth shut, because if Fuasoi isn't listening, one of his little friends is.
Yavi or Fumo or Shoethai, take your pick."
Brother Lourai grunted assent, got grudgingly to his
feet, and went off toward the Friary. As he walked away, he managed to look adequately
depressed without acting. Between his nighttime exaltations, he had begun to
realize that though he might have found his real self again, he had found it in
a foreign place that would be home for the rest of his life. Ever since they
had taken him away from the canyon when he was twelve, he had hoped someday to
go back home and see the trees. Sometimes he dreamed of trees. Now his hope of
ever seeing a tree again was dying.
Brother Mainoa sighed, looking after the retreating
figure. "He's homesick," he said to himself. "The way I
was."
From the grasses came an interrogative purr, like a
very soft growl.
Accustomed to this, Brother Mainoa did not even
start. He shut his eyes and concentrated. How did one explain homesickness?
Longing, he thought, for a place one knows very well. A place one needs to be
happy. He thought the words, then tried to come up with a few pictures. Coming
home in the lamplit evening. Opening a familiar door. The feel of arms around
him....
Tears were running down his cheeks and he pushed them
away, half angrily. As often happened, the feelings he was trying to transmit
had been picked up and amplified back at him. "Damn all you creatures,"
he said.
The growl became sorrowful.
"Last time I saw you, you were down near the
dig. What are you doing up here, anyhow?"
Into his mind came a picture of a copse near the dig.
At the center of it was a blankness. Amorphous blobs in shades of amethyst and
pink prowled around the blankness, howling.
"You missed me?"
A purr.
"I'm coming back in a day or two. I'm just
trying to get Brother Lourai to come with me, if they'll let him. A new man
without all the sense knocked out of him is better for me than one of the old
ones that's all soft and mushy like a sponge. 'Yes, Brother. No, Brother.'
Agreein' with everything I say and then runnin' off to report me to
Doctrine the minute they can. And don't you let Brother Lourai see you until I
say so. You'd scare him out of a year's growth. He isn't even grown up yet.
Poor lad. He's all adrift. He was to have gone home this year, but he fell
apart too soon."
The picture of the opening door, the feel of arms.
Brother Mainoa nodded as he tamped his pipe with a horny finger. "That's right."
He shook the bag he kept his tobacco in, dried grass he called tobacco still,
after all these years. He sighed.
"I've about run out of that scarlet grass that
smokes so well. There's that other one somebody mentioned to me...."
There was silence, no purr, nothing except a feeling
of quiet breathing. Slowly, carefully, an image began to form in Brother
Mainoa's mind. It was of the buildings at Opal Hill. Brother Mainoa knew them
well. He had helped design the gardens there.
"Opal Hill," he said, showing that he
understood.
The picture expanded, grew more ramified. There was a
woman, a man, two younger people. Not Grassians, from the way they were
dressed. And horses! God in heaven, what were they doing with horses?
"That's horses," he breathed. "From
Terra. Lord, I haven't seen a horse since I was five or six years old." He
fell silent, aware of the pressure in his brain, the demand.
"Tell me," the pictures in his brain were
asking. "Tell me about the people at Opal Hill."
Brother Mainoa shook his head. "I can't. I don't
know anything. I haven't even heard anything."
A picture of a horse, strangely dwarfed against its
human rider, a sense of interrogation.
"Horses are Terran animals. Men ride on them.
They are one of the dozen or so truly domesticated animals, as contented in
association with man as they would be in the wild...."
Doubt.
"No, truly." Wondering if it was, truly.
Brother Mainoa received a strong feeling of
dissatisfaction. His questioner wanted more information than this.
"I'll try to find out," said Brother
Mainoa. "There must be someone I can ask...."
The presence was abruptly gone. Brother Mainoa knew
that if he looked into the grasses, he would see nothing. He had looked many
times and had always seen just that, nothing. Whatever it was that spoke to him
(and Mainoa had his own suspicions about the identity of the
conversationalist), it wasn't eager to be seen.
A hail came from the pathway, Brother Lourai's voice.
"Main—oh-ah." Brother Mainoa got up and started in the direction of
the voice, plodding down the trail toward the Friary with no sign of either
haste or interest. Brother Lourai was hurrying toward him, panting. "Elder
Brother Laeroa wants you."
"What have I done now?"
"Nothing. Nothing different, I mean. Elder Brother
Laeroa caught me just as I was going into Elder Brother Fuasoi's office. It's
the people from Opal Hill. They want an escorted tour of the Arbai ruins. Elder
Brother Laeroa says since you'll have to go back to be tour guide, you can take
me with you and just keep me there."
Interesting. Particularly so inasmuch as Mainoa's
questioner had just been asking about Opal Hill. "Hum. Did you tell the
Elder Asshole you didn't think you'd like the dig much?"
Brother Lourai nodded, half hiding a grin. "I
thought I'd better since I was in his office. He just glared at Laeroa and told
me I have to go there and be your assistant. It will teach me humility, he
says."
"Well,"
Brother Mainoa said with a sigh.
"It will teach you something—and me too, no doubt—but I doubt
humility will be it."
10
When Rillibee and Brother Mainoa arrived at the dig,
Mainoa lectured upon what was known about the Arbai while the two of them
walked through the topless tunnels that had once been streets. To either side
the fronts of houses were charmingly carved with stylized vines and fruits and
humorous figures of the Arbai themselves, frolicking among the vines.
"These pictures aren't of them when they were
here on Grass, then," Rillibee remarked. 'There aren't any vines like that
out here."
Mainoa shook his head. "No vines like that out
here on the prairie, no. But there are vines with leaves and fruit like that in
the swamp forest, twining around the trees, making hammocks and bridges for the
birds. Almost everything that's carved on these walls and doors can be found
somewhere here on Grass. There's Hippae and hounds and peepers and foxen.
There's flick birds and different kinds of trees, carved so detailed you can
tell what kind of trees they are, too."
"Where are the trees?" Brother Lourai
wanted to know.
"In the swamp forest, boy. And in copses, here
and there. I'll show you a little copse not half a mile from here."
"Trees," breathed Brother Lourai.
"There's thousands of pictures of the Arbai
themselves on these walls, doing one thing and another," Brother Mainoa
went on. "Happy things on the fronts of the houses, ritual things on the
doors. We think. At least, on the housefronts they seem to be smiling and on
the doors they're not."
"That's a smile?" Brother Lourai said
doubtfully, staring at a representation of one toothy face.
"Well, given the kind of fangs they've got, we
think so. What the researchers did was, they searched the archives for pictures
of all kinds of animals in situations where one could postulate contentment or
joy. Then they compared facial expressions. The high mucky-mucks say those are
smiles. But the expressions carved on the doors aren't. Those carved on doors
are serious creatures doing serious things." Brother Lourai examined an
uninjured portion of door. The faces did seem very solemn. Even he could see
that. The carving was of a procession of Arbai, bordered as always by the
stylized vines. "But there aren't any labels. No words."
"Lots of words in the books, we think, but none
that we've ever found connected to a carving, no."
Brother Lourai sighed. It would have been pleasant to
study the language of these Arbai, see what they had to think about things, see
if it was the same as humans thought about things. There was a noise in the
sky, away to the southwest, and his head came up—sniffing as though to smell
out the sound the way Joshua always did when he heard something in the woods,
like a bear, like a deer—peering into the clouds. "I hear an aircar."
"Them from Opal Hill, I guess," said
Brother Mainoa. "I wonder what they wanted to see this place for."
Marjorie, aloft in the car, was wondering the same
thing. It was Rigo who had wanted to meet the Green Brothers, Rigo who had felt
they might have useful information. Now, however, Rigo had no time to follow up
any such idea. These days Rigo had time for nothing but riding.
Marjorie had volunteered to find out if the Brothers
knew anything useful, but it was the invaluable Persun Pollut who suggested
that if she wanted information she should stay away from the Friary.
"They've got a kind of committee there," he
had said, "an office. Acceptable Doctrine, it's called. Everyone on the
committee is mostly concerned about what people believe. They're running
things, too; don't let them tell you they aren't. Truth doesn't enter in. If
they've decided something is doctrine, they'll ignore all evidence to the contrary
and lie to your face. You don't want to run afoul of those types, do you? Not
if you have questions to ask. No. Better for you to meet some of the more
sensible ones. I've met Brother Mainoa, now, when he's come into the port for
one thing and another. He's just as down-to-earth as any one of us commons. If
there's any health problems among the Brothers, he'll tell you."
"How do I meet Brother Mainoa without involving
the—the committee?" Marjorie asked.
"You might just ask to tour the Arbai
ruin," Persun suggested. "He's usually there, and nine chances out of
ten they'd send Brother Mainoa to guide you in any case. Mostly because the
rest of them don't want to be bothered."
"I might ask to see the ruins at that," she
admitted, deciding after a moment's consideration that it made good sense to do
so, as well as offering a chance at amusement. There had been little amusement
for any of them thus far on Grass.
Hungry for some family affection and fun, she packed
an enormous lunch and asked the children if they would like to see the ruins.
Tony said yes. Stella said no, she was tired, though what she had to be tired
of, Marjorie couldn't imagine. Though she believed she was aware of every
emotion the girl felt, Marjorie had no notion that Stella spent each night
riding endlessly across the simulated prairies of Grass, creeping down the
stairs to ride the Hippae machine every night while the rest of the family was
asleep, retreating to her bedroom only when dawn came. Stella had told no less
than the truth when she said she was tired. Only the resilience of youth helped
her give the appearance of normalcy.
So Tony and Marjorie had determined to make a party
of it. At the last minute, however, Father Sandoval had asked if he and Father
James could go along, and so there were four of them in the over-ornamented
aircar piloted by Tony with reasonable proficiency, considering he had flown
the thing only a dozen times. As they approached the ruin, a misty rain began
to fall, fading all the colors of the landscape into indistinct grays. When
they landed they were met by two of the green-clad Brothers, an old fat one
with interested eyes and a young skinny one with a tight cap of brown, curly
hair, and a sad, drawn expression. When the old one saw Father Sandoval, he
blinked as though he recognized--what? A colleague? An age-mate? Someone who
might be expected to be sympathetic? Or antagonistic?
"Religious?" asked Brother Mainoa.
"Are you, sir, a religious?" He reached a hand toward the priest's
collar, turning it into a palm-up gesture of supplication. "You and the
other gentleman?"
Father bent his thin shoulders and cocked his head,
nodding, as though to ask why this minion of Sanctity should care, perhaps
slightly offended.
"We are Old Catholics," Father
acknowledged. "This is Father James. I am Father Sandoval."
"Look at them, Brother Lourai!" demanded
Brother Mainoa. "Old Catholics. Now there are ones who chose their life.
Not like us." He winked at the older priest, cocking his head to a similar
angle. "Brother Lourai and I, we were given, Father. Given to celibacy.
Given to silence. Given to boredom. We had nothing at all to say about it. And
when we couldn't tolerate what we were given to, why, then we were sent here,
for punishment."
"I had heard something of that," admitted
Father Sandoval, not unsympathetically. "His Excellency the ambassador
told me something of the kind."
"I ask you to keep it in mind, Father. As we
progress. With your tour..." He bobbed his head, chuckled, then turned and
led them away. The rain had stopped. All around them the velvet turf was
jeweled with droplets. Mainoa's feet made dark tracks across the gemmed
surface.
Father Sandoval looked questioningly at Marjorie. She
shrugged. Who knew what the old man meant? He seemed to be amused by the idea
of digging up an Arbai city as punishment, though she might have misunderstood.
Only Father Sandoval had been introduced by name, but perhaps it didn't matter.
Perhaps the guides already knew who she was, who Tony was. As for them, the old
one was Mainoa, no doubt, and he had called the other one Brother Lourai.
Enough to begin with. She gestured the priest forward and followed him, Tony
trailing behind her, his head swiveling as he tried to see everything at once.
The ruin was set in an area of violet grass, like
soft fur upon the soil. Dug into this were sprawling trenches reached by a
flight of stairs made out of ebon stems, the stout bundles staked into
position, their tops flat, their stems rubbing together beneath the weight of
feet to make a sound like a reprimand.
"Take off your shoes," they seemed to say.
"This is death's ground. Show respect."
It was as though the visitors heard the words.
Almost, Tony knelt to take off his shoes, feeling his knees bend, coming to
himself with a start, shamefaced. Father Sandoval crossed himself with an
expression of alert surprise and anger. Father James reached out as though to
catch himself from falling. Marjorie looked bemused, wondering. She had heard
voices!
Brother Mainoa looked at them and chuckled. "You
heard that? I hear it, too, and so does Brother Lourai here. Elder Brother
Fuasoi doesn't hear it, or says he doesn't. You're angry, Father? Thinking
somebody's playing tricks? I cut those grass bundles myself, Father Sandoval.
No trickery to it. I just walked out into the prairie until I found a stand of
grass thick enough, then I cut them and bundled them and put them down there
with strips across the top to hold them flat. And I hear voices when people
step on them, and you hear things when you step on them, but others don't. Keep
that in mind, Fathers, ma'am, young sir."
The shallow flight of stairs led to a street paved in
stone. Where had the builders found stone among these interminable prairies?
And yet stone it was, glistening in the fall of light rain, still polished
after buried centuries. The stone was interrupted at intervals by curbs and
pediments surrounding open spaces in the pave.
"There were trees here." Brother Mainoa
gestured upward. They looked up, feeling the shadow of moving branches, hearing
the rustle of leaves. Marjorie's eyes widened. There were no trees. Only the
empty plots. And yet she had seen, heard the sounds of foliage, the movement of
leaves...
"What kind?" she asked. "Of trees,
what kind?" The young, skinny brother answered, eagerly telling her what
Mainoa had told him. "A tree found only in the swamp forest, ma'am. Some
of the wood was still here when the town was uncovered. Preserved, it was.
They examined the remains, and they weren't a kind of tree that grows out here.
A fruit tree, they think it was."
Fronting on the narrow street were carved housefronts
and wooden doors, the doors carved, so Brother Mainoa instructed them, with
scenes of religious life among the Arbai.
''Religious?" Father Sandoval asked. He was too
well schooled to sneer, but his doubt was manifest--Brother Mainoa shrugged.
They were scenes definitely mysterious, possibly mystical. What were they doing
in those carvings? How could one be sure? What meant these figures offering
tiny boxes or cubes to one another, these figures in procession? What meant
these kneeling creatures, seeming to watch a grass peeper with expressions of
awe upon their faces? The unknown artist had carved the peeper as though it was
almost spherical and bracketed it with two hounds, noses pointed upward,
surrounding the design with vines and leaves as all the designs were surrounded
with vines and leaves. Personally, Brother Mainoa thought the carvings were
religious. He smiled at Father Sandoval, daring him to disagree.
Father Sandoval smiled in return, keeping his opinion
to himself. Father James looked from face to face, fretfully.
On another door two Hippae were back to back, kicking
clods of earth at one another. Or perhaps at the strange structure between
them. Was it a sculpture? Or a machine? Beside them the Arbai stood, solemnly
watching. What did it mean? And how could one tell what details might have been
lost when the doors were broken?
For they were broken. Splintered. Fragmented and
crushed inward upon their hinges. Inside the excavated rooms—simple rooms,
floored in the same stone as the streets, walled with what Brother Mainoa said
was polymerized earth, with wide windows which had once looked out onto the
prairies—inside those rooms were bones, hides, scales, mummified forms of
people who had lived here once. Arbai. Near enough human-shaped to evoke human
responses when humans saw their agony.
There were mouths open as though screaming. Empty eye
sockets gazing upon horror. Here an arm and there the body, the remaining
three-fingered, double-thumbed hand reaching toward the detached limb as though
to reclaim it, possess it, at least to die whole—a denial of whatever horrible
thing was happening.
Young ones, or at least small ones, torn in half,
with adults clutching what remained to their breasts. Elsewhere, time had
disintegrated the bodies and there were only piles of bones and piles of the
glossy scales which had covered their hides. Everywhere the same, down every
street, in every house.
Marjorie shut her eyes, hearing voices the next
street over. A slippery language, full of sibilants, but punctuated with very
human-sounding laughter.
"Are there other friars here?" she asked.
"Digging? Working?"
"None today." Brother Mainoa smiled,
regarding her curiously. "What you hear is what you hear? The sounds of
this city, perhaps? Or is it only the wind? How many times I have asked myself
that question. 'Mainoa,' I say. 'Is it only the wind?' Or is it the sound of
these people, Lady Westriding?" So he had already known her name.
Tony said, "I get the feeling that this place is
... well, intentionally strange. For this world, I mean."
Brother Mainoa gave him an approving look. "So I
have felt, young sir. Intentionally made, by these poor creatures, a little
like their own home place, perhaps?"
"There are many strange things about
Grass," Marjorie agreed, looking away from a screaming face. "Dr.
Bergrem, in the town, has written about some things that make the planet
unique. There is something our cells use, some long name I forget, which exists
in a unique form here on Grass. She's been studying it."
"On any other world, the doctor would be
renowned," Brother Mainoa said. "Her reputation is greater than the
people here know."
"She could probably explain these sounds,"
Marjorie remarked, fighting down an overwhelming terror and despair, trying to
convince herself she did not hear murmured conversation in wholly unhuman
voices, musical voices with a burbling, liquid sound. "Have you asked
her?"
"I have reported the effects," Brother
Mainoa said. "I think the authorities believe I imagine them. So far no
one has come to see whether I imagine them or not."
Father Sandoval, seeing Marjorie's distress, decided
to warn her off. "Such places as this occasion superstitious awe in the
unwary. We must be alert to protect ourselves from such, Marjorie. These were
merely creatures, now extinct. There must have been some central business or
supply area. These houses seem almost rural. They lack an urban feeling."
"So it is with all Arbai cities or towns,"
said Brother Mainoa. "Though we diggers know they traveled through
space—perhaps in ships as we do, though we have found none, or by some other
means—we know also they chose not to live in great aggregations as we humans
often do. We have found no town capable of holding more than a few thousand or
so of them. On most worlds there are several towns of that size, but never
many."
"And here?" Marjorie asked.
"This is the only one we have found on
Grass."
Father Sandoval frowned. "It is not a subject I
know much about. Is it known where their home world was?"
Brother Mainoa shook his head. "Some think
Repentance because there are several such cities on Repentance. I have not heard
that anyone knows for sure."
"Somewhere there could be Arbai still living,
then?" Father James mused, kicking at a bit of protruding stone.
The Brother shrugged. "Some believe these dead
towns were only outposts, that their cities will yet be found elsewhere. I
don't know. You asked about a business or market section in this town. What we
assume is the market section is down this street to the left. At least, the
structures there do not seem to be dwellings."
"Shops?" Father Sandoval asked.
"Storerooms?"
Mainoa shrugged. "There is an open space, a
plaza. With three-sided structures that could have been booths for a market.
There is a building full of jars of many sizes and shapes. A building full of
baskets. A central dais in the plaza, surmounted with something that could be a
machine, a sculpture, a place for posting notices. Perhaps it was an altar, or
a place for a herald to stand, or a place to sit while watching the stars. Or
even a stage for acrobatic display. Who knows? Who can say? One building is
full of their books, books which look very much as our own did, a century or so
ago, before we had scanners and decks and screens."
"Bound volumes?" Marjorie asked.
"Yes. I have a team of penitents taking images
of each page. I should say I have them intermittently. When there is nothing
better for them to do. Though I am here much of the time, I have a crew at work
only now and again. Copying the books is dull work, and lonely, but necessary.
Eventually, a full set of copies will be available at Sanctity and at some
major schools, like the University at Semling Prime."
"But no translation." Marjorie stared
through an open door at the carnage within, willing it to be otherwise.
"None. Line after line, page after page, signs made of curving lines, intertwined. If there were something we could call a church, we could look for a repeated sequence and hope it meant 'God.' If there were a throne, we could look for the word 'King.' If there were words on the door carvings, we could feed the context into our computers, which might make sense of them. If there were even pictures in the books ... I will show you some of the books before you leave."
"Artifacts?" asked Father James.
"Baskets. Plates. Bowls. We do not think they
wore fabric, but there are belts, or more properly, sashes. Woven strips of
grass fiber about six inches wide and a couple of yards long. Nicely colored,
beautifully patterned. The result is much like linen, the experts tell me. The
Arbai have few artifacts. It is as though they chose very carefully each thing
they used. Chose each one for line or color, what we would call beauty, though
many of them—the pots, particularly—do not seem beautiful to us. Perhaps I
should say, 'to me.' You may find them lovely. Each thing is handmade, but
without inscriptions, nothing we might translate as 'Made by John Brown.' We
will see the artifacts later, Lady Westriding. We have found nothing made by
machines and nothing we are sure is a machine. There are the things called the
crematoria and the thing in the center of the town. Perhaps they are machines.
Perhaps not. And yet, the Arbai traveled. They must have had machines. They
must have had ships, and yet we have never found any."
"Are the towns everywhere like this?" Tony
ran his hands along the carving, cupping the time-worn line of an alien face.
"Where there is earth, they built of earth,
polymerizing the walls, making vaults or thatching the roofs. Where there are
forests, they built of wood. Where there is sufficient stone, they built of
stone. Here on Grass the stone comes from a quarry not far distant. The grasses
have covered it, but the signs of Arbai work are there, nonetheless. Each city
is different, depending upon the materials. On one planet they built high among
the trees."
"Where is that?"
He looked at her as though he had forgotten who she
was, trying to remember something, his face intent upon some interior search.
"I ... I can't remember. But I know they did...."
"How many of their cities have you seen?"
Marjorie asked.
Brother Mainoa chuckled, himself once more.
"This one, lady. Only this one. But I have seen pictures of them all.
Copies of reports are shared among those of us sentenced to this duty. In case
something found in one place casts light on something found elsewhere. Vain
hope. And yet we go on hoping."
"All like this. And all the inhabitants
died," Tony said.
"Perhaps. Or went elsewhere."
They walked through what might have been a
marketplace, or a meeting ground, or even a playground. At the center was the
dais Brother Mainoa had described.
Upon it an enigmatic strip of material curled and returned
upon itself, making
a twisted loop through which a tall man might walk.
Tony struck it with a knuckle, hearing it ring in response. Metal. And yet it
didn't look like metal. Along the edges were scalloped and indented designs, as
though the molten stuff had been imprinted by mysterious fingers. The same
designs decorated the edges of the dais. In the open space small flags marked
the places bodies had been found, slaughtered in the open, bodies now moved
under cover for later study. One flag lay within the looped structure, several
others lay beside the dais, as though a gathering had been interrupted
there.
"What killed these people?" Tony asked.
"Foxen, some say. I think not."
"Why do you think not?" Father James was
curious, brought out of his usual reticence by the strangeness of this place.
Brother Mainoa looked around him, ignoring the
presence of Brother Lourai, but looking for anyone else who might be within
earshot. There were no diggers on duty today, but Brothers did drop in from
time to time on one errand or another, to make a delivery of foodstuff, to pick
up the most recent copies of Arbai books. Some of them were undoubtedly spies
for Doctrine.
When he had satisfied himself that no one was
listening, Mainoa said, "We Green Brothers have been here for many years,
young sir. Many years. Many Grass years. Wintered here, packed up in winter
quarters like so many pickles in a jar. We've spent every spring and summer and
fall among the grasses. In all that time, not one of us has ever been attacked
by the foxen." His tone carried more than conviction. It carried
certainty.
"Ah," said Marjorie. "So."
The Brother nodded, looking long into her eyes.
"Yes, Lady West-riding. So."
"You mean the Hippae?" Tony asked,
appalled. "Surely not!"
"Tony!" Marjorie said emphatically.
"Let him say."
"I have nothing to say." Brother Mainoa
shook his head. "Nothing at all. I would not offend unwilling ears, young
sir."
"Offend my willing ones," cried Marjorie.
He gave Tony a look which said volumes before turning
to Marjorie. The boy flushed.
"To you, madam, then I say this. Look at these poor creatures dead all these centuries. Observe their wounds. Then look among the aristocrats at those who no longer hunt. Look at their artificial hands and arms and legs. And tell me, then, whether that which did the one thing has not also done the other."
"But the Hippae are herbivores," Tony
protested still, thinking of his father. "Behemoths. Why would they—"
"Who knows what the Hippae do, or are?"
offered Brother Mainoa. "They stay far from us, except to watch us. And
when they watch us—"
"We see contempt," breathed Marjorie so
quietly that Tony was not sure he had heard her correctly. "We see
malice."
"Malice," agreed Brother Mainoa. "Oh,
at the very least, malice."
"Oh, come, come," said Father Sandoval
doubtfully, almost angrily. "Malice, Marjorie?"
"I have seen it," she said, putting her arm
around Tony's slender shoulders "I have seen it, Father. There was no
mistake." She confronted his scolding look with a fierce one of her own.
Father Sandoval had always maintained the spiritual supremacy of man. He did
not like discussion of other intelligence.
"Malice? In an animal?" asked Father James.
"Why do you say 'animal'?" asked Brother
Mainoa. "Why do you say that, Father?"
"Why ... why, because that is what they
are."
"How do you know?"
Father James did not reply. Instead he reached out to
help Father Sandoval, who was angrily wiping his brow and looking around him
for a place to sit down.
"Over here, Fathers." Brother Lourai
beckoned. "We have made our home in this house of the Arbai. I have
something here for us to drink."
They sat, grateful for the refreshment and the
chairs, somewhat disconcerted at the proportions of them. The Arbai had been a
long-thighed race. Their chairs did not fit man. At least not these men. They
perched, as on stools.
Father James returned to their conversation.
"You asked why I thought the Hippae are animals? Well. I have seen them.
They show no signs of being more than animals, do they?"
"What kind of sign would you accept?"
Brother Mainoa asked. "Tool-making? Burial of the dead? Verbal
communication?"
"I don't know. I haven't thought about it. Since
we've been here, I've heard no one suggest that the Hippae or the hounds or ...
or any other animal on Grass was any more than just that."
Brother Mainoa shrugged "Think about it, Father.
Ma'am. I do. It's an interesting exercise, leading to much fascinating
conjecture."
They shared lunch together, the Brothers' rations
plus the plenty that Marjorie had packed. Then they walked again, down other
streets. into other rooms. They saw artifacts. They saw books, endless books,
pages covered with curvilinear lines. They came back past the thing on the dais
that might be a machine but was definitely represented on at least one door
carving, and they went on to see other things that might or might not be
machines.
The light began to slant across the trenches,
throwing them into shadow. Marjorie shivered as she asked, "Brother, would
you come to Opal Hill to meet my husband? He is Roderigo Yrarier, ambassador
from Sanctity to this place."
Brother Lourai looked up, suddenly attentive.
"But I have met him!" he exclaimed. "He came to Sanctity. The
Hierarch was his uncle. We spoke about the plague. The Hierarch said he must
go—come here, that is—because of the horses!"
Tony turned, mouth open, not sure what he had heard.
Brother Mainoa faced Marjorie, reached out to her.
"My young colleague has been indiscreet. Acceptable Doctrine denies that
plague exists."
"Mother?"
"Wait. Tony." She brought herself under
control. So. He had found out. Better he than Stella. She turned to the nearest
of them, Rillibee. "Brother, what do you know about the plague?"
Rillibee shivered, unable to answer. "Let me
die," the parrot cried from the top of a ruined wall, fluttering its gray
wings.
'The boy saw his family die of it," Mainoa said
hastily. "Don't ask him. Instead, think on this. Elsewhere, something
killed the Arbai slowly. I know that here something killed them quickly. I know
that men are dying, everywhere, and that no cure exists. So much I know. That,
and the fact that Sanctity denies it all."
Her jaw dropped. Was he saying that the current
plague had happened before? "What do you know about it here, on
Grass?"
"We at the Friary seem to have escaped it, thus
far. What else is there to know?"
"How many have died of it here on Grass?"
He shrugged. "Who can count deaths that may be
hidden? Sanctity says there is no plague. Not now. Since they deny plague
exists, they do not tell us if anyone dies of it. And, since there is none now,
Sanctity finds it expedient to deny that there could
ever have been plagues in the past. Acceptable Doctrine is that the Arbai died
of ennui. Or of some environmentally related cause. But not of plague. 'Not
only are there no devils now, there never were,' says Doctrine. Still, those of
us who came from outside know that plague did exist, once. And devils,
too."
"You think that devils exist?" she asked
with a sidelong look at Father Sandoval, whose mouth was pursed in distaste at
this subject. "Have existed always, perhaps? Waiting for intelligent
creatures to reach the stars? Waiting to strike them down, for hubris,
perhaps?"
"Perhaps."
"You have not answered. Will you come see my
husband?"
He cocked his head again, staring over her shoulder
at something only he could see. "If you send a car for me, ma'am, I'll
come, of course, since it would be discourteous to do otherwise You might want
to consult me about the gardens at Opal Hill. I helped plant them, after all.
It would be an understandable request. If you ask my superiors to send me for
any reason, likely they won't."
She was silent for a moment, thinking. "Are you
very loyal to your superiors, Brother Mainoa?"
Rillibee/Lourai snorted, a tiny snort. Brother Mainoa
gave him a reproving glance.
"I was given to Sanctity, ma'am. I had no say in
the matter. Brother Lourai, here, he was given, too. And then, when we didn't
like it, we were brought here. We had no say in that, either. I don't recollect
ever being asked if I was loyal."
Father Sandoval cleared his throat and said firmly,
"Thank you for your time, Brothers."
"And yours, Father."
"I'll send a car," Marjorie promised.
"Within the next few days. Will you be here?"
"Now that we're here, we'll stay until someone
makes us go back, Lady Westriding."
"How is it, Brother, that you knew who I was,
though we had not met before?"
"Ah. A friend of mine has been interested in
Opal Hill. Your name came up." He smiled vaguely. "During our
discussion."
The Brothers watched the aircar leave and then returned
to their quarters, where Brother Mainoa took out his journal from a hidey-hole
and wrote his comments upon the happenings of the day.
"Do you always do that?" asked
Rillibee/Lourai.
"Always," the older man sighed. "If I
die, Lourai, look in these pages for anything I know or suspect."
"If you die." The other smiled.
Mainoa did not return the smile. "If I die. And
if I die, Lourai, hide this book. They will kill you, too, if they find it in
your possession.
Tony heard the word "plague" as he would
have heard a thunderclap. The word began to resonate in his mind, causing
other ideas to reverberate with them. Plague. One had heard of it, of course.
One whispered about it. Sanctity denied there was any. For the first time he
wondered why Sanctity had to continually deny something that did not exist. Why
had his father gone to Sanctity and met with the Hierarch about plague?
Plague. He had seen no signs of it here. No one even
talked of it, here. Tony spent a good deal of time with Sebastian Mechanic down
at the village, learning the local way of things, meeting the people, getting
to know them, but no one had mentioned plague. Illness, yes. The people had
illnesses. Things went wrong with old bones and joints. Hearts wore out. There
was very little lung trouble, though. The air breathed cleanly and caused no
problems here. There were few if any infectious diseases. They had been wiped
out in this small population, and the quarantine officers at the port kept
Commons clean.
But plague?
"Mother," he asked softly, thinking of
people he had left behind, of one person he had left behind, "is there
plague at home?"
She turned a horrified look upon him, prepared to lie
as she had told herself she must. "Yes," she confessed to his open,
waiting face, feeling the words leave her in an involuntary exhalation.
"Yes, there is plague at home. And on every other inhabited world as
well."
"Here?"
"Except here. Maybe. We think. We have been
told."
"You're here to find out?"
She nodded.
"You didn't tell us?"
"Stella ..." Marjorie murmured. "You
know Stella."
"But me, Mother. Me?"
"It was thought you were too young. That you
might forget yourself."
"A secret? Why?"
"Because .." said Father Sandoval, leaning
forward to grip the young man's arm, "because of the Moldies, the nihilists.
If they learned of it, they would try to bring the plague here. And because the
Grassians do not care if all the other worlds die. They do not wish to be
disturbed."
"But ... but that's inhuman!"
"It is not fair to say they do not care,"
Marjorie murmured again. "Let us say rather that they do not perceive.
Various efforts to make them perceive have resulted in nothing but their
annoyance. Father Sandoval is right, they do not wish to be disturbed; but
there is more to it than that. Something psychological. I should say,
pathological. Something that prevents their seeing or attending So we are here
under false pretenses, Tony, as ambassador and family. What we are really here
for is to find out whether there is plague here. If there is not, we must
somehow get permission for people to come here and find why not."
"What have you found?"
"Very little. There does not seem to be plague
here, but we are not certain. Asmir Tanlig is finding out from the villagers
and from servants in the estancias whether there are any unexplained deaths or
illnesses. Sebastian Mechanic knows many of the port workers, and he is trying
to find out the same information from them. The two men don't know why they are
asking the questions. They've been told that we're making a health survey for
Sanctity. We need information from the bons, as well, but we seem unable to
establish any contact with them beyond the purely formal. We have been trying
to make friends."
"That's why the reception was held."
"Yes."
"Eugenie's showing up with that girl didn't help
things, did it."
"No, Tony. It didn't."
"Eugenie hasn't the brains of a root
peeper." He said it hopelessly, waving his fingers, as though to wave
Eugenie away. Neither he nor Stella could understand their father's fondness
for Eugenie. "No brains at all."
"Unfortunately, that's probably close to the
truth." She caught Father James' eyes upon her and flushed. Rigo's nephew
probably had family loyalties to Rigo. She should not have criticized Rigo
before him. She should not do it before Tony, either, except that Tony already
knew ... so much.
"I wondered what could be important enough to
get you to come,"
Tony said, shaking his head. "Leaving your work
at Breedertown that way. But surely they can't be depending only on us. What is
Sanctity doing?"
"According to Rigo, everything they can. They
can't get any animal, including man, to create an antibody to the virus. They
can kill the virus, but not in a living creature. Eventually, if we find there
is no plague here, we will ship some tissue samples from here back to
Sanctity."
"Tissue samples? Will the bons let you do
that?"
"They have no physicians among themselves, Tony.
If they are injured, they must call upon doctors from Commons. I think we can
buy whatever samples will be needed."
"But so far, Sanctity has found nothing."
"Nothing. No tissue they have tested makes
antibodies to the virus."
The four of them were huddled together like
conspirators. "Tony, you mustn't—"
"Mustn't tell Stella. I know. She would blurt it
out, just to prove we can't tell her what to do."
Father Sandoval nodded in agreement. "I think
that's probably true." He had known Stella since she was a child. She
confessed a fair number of sins—usually, with maximum drama, not the ones she
was most guilty of. Anger, mostly. Anger at Marjorie for not having provided
that indefinable something Stella had always wanted. After long thought and
meditation, Father Sandoval had decided it was perhaps the same thing Rigo wanted—the
thing called intimacy. Though neither of them would set themselves aside long
enough to work for it. They wanted family, but they wanted it on command, like
water from a spout, ready when they turned it on, absent otherwise. "Help
me now, give me now, comfort me now. Then, when you've done it, get out of my
way!"
Father Sandoval sighed again, wishing his years had
given him better insight into Stella, and into her father, Stella, of course,
would eventually marry and could then be instructed to be obedient to her
husband as she was now instructed to be obedient to her parents. But what could
one do with Rigo? Both he and Stella were too impatient to woo. They would
storm or nothing. Overwhelm, or nothing. They would not beg. They would take by
right. Even things they should not take at all.
Unaware of Father Sandoval's concern, Stella,
meantime, was upon the simulacrum in the sixth hour of her current ride: eyes
glazed, back braced, beyond hunger or thirst in a trance of her own evoking.
Her father had finished his own session on the
machine hours ago. Hector Paine was gone. No one else would come into the
winter quarters. She had set the timing mechanism for seven hours, two hours
longer than she had ever ridden before, and had vaulted aboard. There was no
way to stop the machine once she had started, no way to get off the mount save
by falling.
On the screens around her the grasses whipped past.
Devices at her side mimicked the blows of the blades, striking her hat, her
coat. The machine rocked and twisted, always slightly off rhythm so that she
could not relax. The body stayed alert, but the brain eventually gave up
thinking and retreated into some never-never land beyond exhaustion. Stella was
there now, dreaming of Sylvan bon Damfels. During the reception at Opal Hill,
she had watched him as he danced with Marjorie, watched, devoured, swallowed
him whole. When she had danced with him, she had absorbed him through her skin,
taken his image into herself so that he dwelt there, a paradigm of the real and
genuine man. And since that time she had undressed him and possessed him and
done with him all those things she had not yet done with others, not through
any sense of morality but because she had not yet found one she thought worthy
of herself. Now she had. Sylvan was worthy. Sylvan was noble. Sylvan was one to
whom she might be mated. No! The one to whom she would be mated. In just a
little time. In the time it would take for her to ride, as he rode, so that she
might ride by his side.
She ignored what he had said to Marjorie about
riding, ignored his advice to the Yrariers. It did not fit her picture of him,
so she struck it from his image as she built him anew, according to her own
needs—the gospel of St. Sylvan, according to Stella, his creator.
The machine galloped on, its springs and levers
walloping and sliding, the sound of hooves thundering softly from its speakers,
the pictured stems of grass fleeing everlastingly on either side, the blades
lashing at her with softly sounded strokes.
In some remote part of her mind she told Elaine
Brouer all about Sylvan, about their meeting, the way their eyes had met.
"He loved me in that moment. In that very moment, he loved me as he had
never loved anyone before."
Sylvan was saying much the same thing to himself as
he walked a winding path deep in the famed grass gardens of Klive. "I
loved her in that moment. I loved her the moment I saw her. The moment I took
her into my arms. As I have never loved before."
He was not speaking of Stella. He was speaking of
Marjorie.
11
"Bless me, Father, for I have sinned."
Marjorie was kneeling in the confessional at the side of the chapel, the
evening light falling upon her face The chapel was dusk dim, the light near the
altar making a watchful eye in the shadow. "I have resented my daughter.
And my husband.
She was alone in the chapel except for Father James.
Rigo was closeted in the winter quarters with Hector Paine. Stella and Tony and
Father Sandoval had ridden the mares down to the village to visit Sebastian
Mechanic and his wife, Dulia, who was, said Sebastian, the best cook on any six
planets. Since the reception, Eugenie had scarcely put her nose outside her
house and was there now. As Marjorie had come through the gardens to the chapel
she had heard Eugenie singing, a slightly drunken lament with no particular
burden of woe. The blues, Marjorie recalled having read somewhere, needed no
proximate motivation. Any common grief would do. The ancient song, though not
particularly melodic, had entered Marjorie's ear and now turned there, playing
itself over persistently, hating to see the evening sun go down.
"I have lost patience with Stella," she
said. Father James needed no explanation for this. He knew them all far too
well to need explanation. "I have had angry words with Rigo...."
Words about the Hunt, words about his risking his neck and more than his neck.
"I have doubted God...."
Father James woke up at this. "How have you
doubted?"
If God were good, Rigo and I would be in love, and
Rigo would not treat me as he does, she thought. If God were good, Father
Sandoval would not treat me as a mere adjunct to my husband, sentencing me to
obedience every time I am unhappy. I haven't done anything wrong, but I'm the
one who is being punished and it isn't fair. She longed for justice. She bit
her lip and said none of this, but instead dragged false scent across the
trial. "If God is truly powerful, he would not let this plague go
on."
There was silence in the confessional, silence lasting
long enough for Marjorie to wonder whether Father James might not really have
fallen asleep. Not that she blamed him. Their sins were all boring enough,
repetitive enough. They had enough capital sins roiling around to condemn them
all. Pride, that was Rigo's bent. Sloth, Eugenie's trademark. Envy, that was
for Stella. And she, Marjorie, boiling with uncharitable anger toward them all.
Herself, who had always tried so hard not to be guilty of anything!
"Marjorie." Father James recalled her to
herself. "I cut my hand upon a grass blade a few days ago, a bad cut. It
hurt a great deal. Grass cuts do not seem to heal easily, either."
"That's true," she murmured, familiar with
the experience but wondering what he was getting at.
"It came to me suddenly as I was standing there
bleeding all over the ground that I could see the cut there between my fingers
but I could not heal it. I could observe it, but I couldn't do anything about
it even though I greatly desired to do so. I could not command the cells at the
edges of the wound to close. I was not, am not privy to their operations I am
too gross to enter my own cells and observe their function. Nor can you do so,
nor any of us.
"But suppose, just suppose, that you could
create ... oh, a virus that sees and reproduces and thinks! Suppose you could
send it into your body, commanding it to multiply and find whatever disease or
evil there may be and destroy it. Suppose you could send these creatures to the
site of the wound with an order to stitch it up and repair it. You would not be
able to see them with your naked eye. You would be unable to know how many of
them there were in the fight. You would not know where each one of them was or
what it was doing, what agonies of effort each was expending or whether some
gave up the battle out of fatigue or despair. All you would know is that you
had created a tribe of warriors and sent it into battle. Until you healed or
died, you would not know whether that battle was won."
"I don't understand, Father."
"I wonder sometimes if this is what God has done
with us."
Marjorie groped for his meaning. "Wouldn't that
limit God's omnipotence?"
"Perhaps not. It might be an expression of that
omnipotence. In the microcosm, perhaps He needs—or chooses—to create help. Perhaps
He has created help. Perhaps he creates in us the biological equivalent of
microscopes and antibiotics."
"You are saying God cannot intervene in this
plague?" The invisible person beyond the grating sighed. "I am saying
that perhaps God has already done his intervening by creating us. Perhaps He
intends us to do what we keep praying He will do. Having designed us for a
particular task, he has sent us into battle. We do not particularly enjoy the
battle, so we keep begging him to let us off. He pays no attention because He
does not keep track of us individually. He does not know where in the body we
are or how many of us there are. He does not check to see whether we despair or
persevere. Only if the body of the universe is healed will he know whether we
have done what we were sent to do!" The young priest coughed. After a
moment, Marjorie realized he was laughing. Was it at her, or at himself?
"Do you know of the uncertainty principle, Marjorie?"
"I am educated," she snorted, very much
annoyed with him.
"Then you know that with very small things, we
cannot both know where they are and what they are doing. The act of observing
them always changes what they are doing. Perhaps God does not look at us
individually because to do so would interrupt our work, interfere with our free
will... ."
"Is this doctrine, Father?" she asked
doubtfully, annoyed, wondering what had come over him.
Another sigh. "No, Marjorie. It is the
maundering of a homesick priest. Of course it isn't doctrine You know your way
around the catechism better than that." He rubbed his head, thankful for
the seal of the confessional. Even though Marjorie needed to take herself far
less seriously, Father Sandoval would not appreciate what he had just said…
"If the plague kills us all, it will be because
of our sins," she said stubbornly. "Not because we didn't fight it
well enough. And our souls are immortal."
"So Sanctity says. So the Moldies say," he
murmured. "They say we must all be killed off so our souls can live, in
the New Creation."
"I don't mean we're excused from fighting the
plague," she objected. "But it's our sins that brought it on
us."
"Our sins? Yours and mine, Marjorie?
"Original sin," she muttered. "Because of the sin of our first parents." First parents very much like Rigo and Stella, passionately acting out whatever moved them, without thought. Even laughing, perhaps, as they tore the world apart. Never sober and reverent as they ought to be. Never peaceful. She sighed.
"Original sin?" the young priest asked,
curious. At one time he had believed it without question, but he wasn't sure
anymore. There were some other catechetical things he wasn't sure of, either.
His doubt about doctrine should signal some crisis of faith, he thought, but
his faith was as strong as it had ever been, even though his acceptance of
details was wavering. "So you believe in original sin?"
"Father! It's doctrine!"
"How about collective guilt? Do you believe in
that?"
"What do you mean?"
"Are the bons guilty, collectively, for what
happened to Janetta bon Maukerden?"
"Is that a doctrinal question?" she asked
doubtfully.
"How about the Sanctified?" he asked.
"Are they collectively guilty of condemning their boy children to prison?
Young Rillibee, for example. Was he sent into servitude because of collective
guilt, or because of original sin?"
"I'm an Old Catholic. I don't have to decide
where Sanctity went wrong, so long as I know it did!"
He kept himself from laughing. Oh, if only Marjorie
had more humor. If Rigo had more patience. If Stella had more perception. If
Tony had more confidence--And if Eugenie had more intelligence. Never mind
their sins, just give them more of what they needed.
He sighed, rubbing the sides of his forehead to make
the sullen ache go away, then gave her both absolution and a reasonable penance.
She was to accept that Rigo would ride to hounds and she was to try not to
judge him harshly. Father Sandoval had been sentencing Marjorie to
affectionate support for years. Father James thought affectionate support was
probably a bit much Marjorie, repentant but weary, ready to grit her teeth
over yet another session of affectionate support, was surprised enough by the
penance to accept it. She wouldn't judge Rigo, but she needn't support him,
either. It was not until later, as evening drew on, that she remembered what
Father James had said about thinking viruses and guilt and sin. Once she began
considering the questions he had asked, she could not get them out of her mind.
In the chapel, meantime, Father James knelt to beg
forgiveness for himself. It had been wicked of him to challenge Marjorie's
faith when what he was really wanting was to shore up his own. He was not at
all sure that being nonjudgmental about Rigo was a good thing for Marjorie to
do. If what the bons were doing was sinful, then Rigo had no business doing it
at all. Rigo had convinced himself he was joining the bons in their obsession
out of a sense of duty. Father James thought ego was the more likely reason,
and Father Sandoval was too set in his ways to offer anything but cliches. Father
James wished for Brother Mainoa to talk with. Or the younger one, Lourai. He
had a feeling they shared a good many things besides their age.
In the night, a rhythmic thunder.
Marjorie woke and went walking through the halls of
the residence, encountering Persun Pollut, himself stalking nervously from
place to place, pulling his long ears, twisting his beard into tails.
"What is it?" she whispered. "I've
heard it before, but never so close as this."
"The Hippae, they say," he murmured in
return. "In the village, that's what they say. Often in the spring they
hear this sound, many times during the lapse. It woke me, so I came up here to
the big house see that all of you were all right."
She laid a hand on his arm, feeling the shivering of
his skin beneath the fabric. "We're fine. What are they doing, the
Hippae?"
He shook his head. "I don't think anyone knows.
Dancing, they say. Sebastian says he knows where. Someone told him where, but
he doesn't like to talk about it."
"Ah." They stood together, looking out the
tall windows across the terrace, feeling the beat of the thunder through the
soles of their feet. A mystery. As all of Grass was a mystery. And she,
Marjorie, was doing nothing about it.
She was still thinking of viruses, considering what a
thinking virus might do, one whom God did not observe or command but merely
allowed to do what it was created for.
"Ask Sebastian to come see me, will you,
Persun?"
'"Tomorrow," he promised, "When it
gets light."
Far across the grasses, beyond the port and Commons,
beyond the swamp forest, the same sound beat upon the ears of all those at
Klive. The bon Damfels family was wakeful, listening. Some were more than
merely wakeful.
In a long, dilapidated hallway in the far reaches of
the vast structure, Stavenger bon Damfels dragged his struggling Obermum down
a long, dusty hallway. One of his hands was twisted into Rowena's hair, the
other held her by the collar of her gown, half throttling her. Blood from her
forehead dripped onto the floor.
"Stavenger." She choked, clinging to his
legs. "Listen to me, Stavenger."
He seemed not to hear her, not to care whether she
spoke. His eyes were red and his mouth was drawn into a lipless line. He moved
like an automaton, one leg lurched forward, then the other drawn up to it, heaving
at her with both hands as though he lifted a heavy sack.
"Stavenger! Oh, by all that's holy, Stavenger! I
did it for Dimity!"
Behind the struggling pair, hiding themselves around
corners and behind half-open doors. Amethyste and Emeraude followed and cowered.
Since they had seen Stavenger strike Rowena down in the gardens—he either not
noticing his daughters behind a screening fountain of grass or not caring if
they saw—they had followed him and their mother. The corridor they had come to
was ancient, littered, untended and untenanted. The five-story wing that held
it had not been used for at least a generation. Above them, the ceiling sagged
in wide, shallow bubbles, stained with water which had leaked through the
rotted thatch and permeated the three floors above. The portraits on the walls
were corrupted with mold, and the stairs they had climbed were punky with rot.
"He doesn't know what he's doing," Amy
whispered, tears running down her face and into the corners of her mouth. She
licked them away and said again, "He's gone crazy. He doesn't know!"
"He does," Emmy contradicted, pointing to
the light she carried. "There haven't been any lights in this old place
since before we were born, but there's everlights all along the hall. He got
them out of the garage, just like I got this one. He put them here before. He
planned it."
Amy, looking at the dim lanterns set here and there
on rickety tables or hung on doorknobs, nodded unwillingly. "Why! Why is
he doing this to her?"
"Shhh," her sister cautioned, pulling them
both back into the shadow. Stavenger had stopped at the end of the corridor to
thrust Rowena through an open door, pulling it closed behind her and locking
it. The key ground in the lock with a rusty finality. He thrust it into his
pocket and then stood there, as though listening. "Rowena." A voice
like metal—harsh and hideous. No sound from beyond the door.
"You'll never go there again! Never to Opal Hill
again! Never consort with fragras again!
Never betray me again!" Silence.
He turned and took up the nearest lamp, then came
down the corridor toward them, gathering up the everlights as he came. Slowly
he plodded, his face expressionless, passing the door behind which his
daughters trembled, leaving the place in darkness, going away as though
forever.
They waited, listening for the sound that came at
last, the heavy thunder of the door closing, two stories below.
Behind the locked door at the end of the corridor
rose the sound of a woman's howling, an interminable, grief-driven wail of pain
and betrayal.
With trembling fingers, Emeraude turned on the
everlight she carried and the two of them ran to the door, stumbling over
warped floorboards, kicking up small, choking clouds of dust.
The door was heavy and thick, made of wood from a
swamp-forest tree and hung by great metal hinges in a solid frame. Only a few
doors at the estancia were this heavy, this immovable. The main door of the
house. The door of Stavenger's private office. The treasury door. What had this
room once been, to have needed all this weight of wood?
They knocked, called, knocked again. The howl went on
and on.
"Find Sylvan!" Emeraude urged her sister in
a frantic whisper "He's the only one who can help, Amy."
Amethyste turned haunted eyes on her sister,
babbling, "I thought I'd ask Shevlok—"
Emmy shook her, demanding her attention.
"Shevlok's useless. He's done nothing but drink since Janetta showed up at
that party. He isn't even conscious most of the time."
"If the lapse would get over—"
"If the lapse would get over, he'd go hunting
all day and be drunk all night. Find Sylvan!"
"Emmy ..."
"I know! You're scared to death of Papa. Well,
so am I. He's like ... he's like one of the Hippae, all shining eyes and sharp
blades so you can't come near him. I keep thinking he will knock me down and
trample me to death if I open my mouth. But I'm not going to leave Mama
bleeding in there, penned up like that with no food and no water. I won't let
her die like that, but you know Papa will if we let him."
"Why did Papa—"
"You know perfectly well why. Mama went to Opal
Hill, she talked to the people who found Janetta. She's got the idea that...
that..." Emeraude struggled for words, choking on them, eyes bulging as
she tried to say what she was not permitted to say.
"Never mind," her sister said, shaking her.
"I know. I'll find Sylvan. You stay here and tell him what happened, in
case I don't have a chance to explain."
"Take the light. I'll wait here."
Amy sped down the stairs, shuddering away from the
banister, which creaked and sagged outward beneath her hand. This ruin was
connected to the main house by the old servants' quarters and the aircar
garage. The connecting door was locked, had been locked by their father when
they had followed him here, he with that wild, mad look in his eyes, dragging
Rowena as though she had been a sack of grain. He had locked the door again
when he went out, but there was a broken window nearby which gave onto a long
drying yard and the summer kitchens. The girls had come through that. It was
almost midnight. The servants would long ago have gone to bed. Even if one or
two of them lingered in the kitchens, their sympathies would be with Rowena
more than with Stavenger.
A Stavenger who was at this moment in the main
hallway screaming unintelligibly at Figor, ranting and threatening so that the
whole household had wakened to hear him. Figor, wisely, was saying nothing
while allowing the storm to pass. Other family members, wakened by the uproar,
stayed out of the way. The great building hummed with murmuring voices, clattered
with doors opening and closing, and was yet quiet, silent except for the
bellowing voice.
Amy ignored the noise. At this hour, Sylvan would be
in his room, or in the library, or in the gymnasium, two floors below. The
library was closest, and she found him there in a secluded corner, eyes fixed
on a book, fingers in his ears. She knelt beside him and pulled the fingers
away.
"Sylvan, Papa has beaten Mama and locked her in
the old wing. Emmy's waiting there. Mama's got no food, no water, Sylvan. Emmy
and I think he means to leave her there...."
She was talking to the chair. Sylvan was up and gone.
In the first light of morning Sebastian Mechanic came
to the estancia, where he found Marjorie having a very early breakfast. In
answer to her request, he pointed a direction, though unwillingly, suggesting
to her that going out into the grasses alone was not a good idea. He did not like
the look of her. Her eyes were haunted and she was too thin. Some deep
tiredness seemed to oppress her. Despite her appearance of weariness, perhaps
illness, she was sensible enough to agree with him that it would be foolish to
go into the grasses. She told him she had simply been curious, then asked after
his wife and family and made small talk with disarming patience and charm.
When he, assured that she had been merely
inquisitive, had gone back to his work, Marjorie went out to the stables and
saddled Don Quixote. It was not part of her intention to tell anyone where she
was going, though she did leave a message with one of the grooms.
"If I'm not back by dark," she said,
"but not before then, tell my husband or son I'd like him to come look for
me in the aircar. I'm carrying a beacon, so I should be easy to find." The
personal beacon was strapped to her leg under her trousers. Any sharp blow
would set it off. If she were thrown from a horse, for example. Or if she
struck it sharply with her fist. She was carrying a trip recorder of the type
used by cartographers, which would serve as a direction finder. She had a laser
knife with her as well, to clear her way through tall grass if that became
necessary. She showed both of these to the stableman, telling him what they
were for. She wanted everything about her journey to speak of purpose. She
wanted no one to suppose that she had planned not to come back. It was a risk,
that's all. Still, if something happened to her, it would solve Rigo's problem.
And Stella's. And her own. Resolutely, she did not think of Tony.
Quixote pawed the soil, flickers of movement running
up his twitching hide from fetlocks to withers and down again. Not nerves, not
precisely. Something more than that. It was a kind of agitation Marjorie was
unfamiliar with, and she stood for a long time stroking his legs, talking to
him, trying to imagine what had brought him to this state. He leaned into her,
as though for support, yet when she mounted him he trotted out into the grasses
as though for a ride on any ordinary day. He meant by this that he trusted her.
Though he might die of it, he trusted her. He could not quite keep the nervous
quiver from his skin, however, and the message eventually reached her after
they had traversed some little distance. She flushed, ashamed to be using him
in this fashion when his own nature spoke so strongly against it. She stroked
him. expressing her own trust. "Father James says God has made viruses of
us, Quixote, but I suppose one virus may still love another, or have another
kind of virus as a friend. I won't put you into a trap, my friend. I won't let
you get close enough for that." And myself? she thought. Shall I put
myself in danger?
Suicide was forbidden, but much glory was given to
martyrs. If she killed herself, would God even notice? According to what Father
James had said, God probably did not know which of His viruses were involved in
doing His work. To God, she had no name. No individuality. If she killed
herself, would He even know? Did it matter if He knew? When He had created her,
had He also created a mechanism for saving her soul? Did viruses even have
them?
Still, there had been all those years of being taught
it was wrong to take one's own life. She would not feel right about getting herself
purposely killed off. She could take a calculated risk, however. If she died,
it would be accidentally, and Don Quixote would survive. Fleet as the wind,
Quixote. Without her on his back he could outrun the devil himself. So she told
herself before she stopped thinking about it. devoting most of her energy to
not thinking of it. She could not help wondering about Rigo's reaction if she
didn't return. "That silly fool." he would say. "That silly
woman who never loved me as she ought."
She did love him. Or. she wanted to love him. Wanted
to love him and wanted to love Stella with a desire that poured out hurtfully
until she was exhausted from the flow of it. At home, she had known about
Eugenie, and the one before Eugenie, but they had not been nearby. At home,
Stella had had distractions and friends. Here, both Stella and Eugenie beat at
her like huge trapped birds, pecking at her. Their frustrations hammered at
her. She had not expected to feel weak, to be sleepless, to feel the threat of
death always at her back. Each day on Grass had taken a little more of her
strength, a little more of her purpose. Lately she had felt no hope, she who
had always lived from disappointment to disappointment on a childlike, hopeful
optimism which she could now barely remember.
She rode past the little arena where the horses were
exercised, a place that lay just outside the grass gardens of Opal Hill, though
it seemed remote because of the topography. Now, for the first time, Marjorie
was leaving the close confines of that area which those who defined such things
considered to be the estancia. The gardens were behind her. The prospects that
the gardens overlooked were behind her. She was entering upon the wild grasses,
the surface of the planet, the part into which men and their works and their
creatures were not allowed to intrude. She rode, eyes forward, not thinking
about anything very much except that she was unhappy enough that if the Hippae
were to be found, out here in the grass, perhaps she would learn something useful
about them or they would kill her, and she did not at that moment much care
which.
The howl, when it came, made Don Quixote tremble,
ears up, stopping dead still. Marjorie sat, scarcely breathing, aware that the
howl had come from behind her. In that instant she remembered Janetta bon
Maukerden and realized that the Hippae, if they found her, might do less—or
more—than kill her. She had considered that they might kill her and had
accepted that. She had not considered the range of alternatives which might
result from her behavior, and she was abruptly both shamed and terrified.
They had been following a kind of trail, a winding
path of short grasses among the taller ones. She urged Don Quixote off this
easy way and into the taller grass, dismounting to tug stems into line to hide
the way she had come.
"They'll smell you," she told herself,
trying to quell her alarm by moving slowly and deliberately. The wind was
blowing toward her from the direction the howl had come. That one would not
smell her. Some other one might. It would be wise to return. Overwhelmed with
the stupidity of what she had been doing, she told herself that returning
would be the best possible thing to do.
She opened the trip recorder, watching it as she
guided the stallion in a shallow turn which ended with him headed back toward
the embassy, still hidden in tall grass, now traveling toward whatever it was
she had heard. He went only a little way, then stopped. Something howled again,
quite close, between them and the embassy.
The horse turned and walked quietly on his own trail.
When Marjorie attempted to guide him, he ignored her. After one brief spasm of
panic, she sat quietly, letting him alone. So. So, he knew something she
didn't. Smelled something she couldn't. Felt something she couldn't. She sat
still, not bothering him, trying to say an act of contrition, unable to
remember phrases she had known since childhood. The words didn't fit, anyhow.
How could she be heartily sorry for having offended God when, for all she knew,
she was doing exactly what God intended!
The stallion moved up and down hills, along the sides
of ridges, always walking, not hurrying, ears alert, as though someone were
whispering his name. When he slowed at last, it seemed to be in response to
other sounds, ahead of them. When he stopped, he went down on his side all at
once, without the signal. She drew her leg from beneath his upcurved body and
stood up, staring at him. He flattened himself, ears still alert, watching her.
"All right," she whispered. "So now
what?"
He made no sound, but his skin quivered, flicked, as
though stung by flies. Danger. All around them.
Marjorie felt it, could see it on the horse's skin,
could smell it. The trip recorder said that they had come in the general
direction Sebastian had indicated. A repetitive sound, not loud but
persistent, made Don Quixote move his head about, seeking its source. It was
not the violent thunder of the previous night, but rather an organized series
of moans and cries, rhythmic both in occurrence and volume. Quixote's nostrils
dilated, his skin jerked as though from a terrible itch. The wind had gusted
toward them, bringing the sound clearly and a smell ... a smell of something
totally strange. Not a stink. Not a perfume. Neither attractive nor repellent.
Marjorie got out her laser knife and cut armfuls of grass, laying these across
Don Quixote's body, hiding him, perhaps hiding his smell. Then she fell to her
belly and crawled through the taller grasses toward the sounds the wind
brought, down from a low ridge to the south. As she crested the ridge, she lay
quiet, peering through the grass stems.
Toward the smell the wind brought. She breathed it
in, lungs full. The sky dilated and she fell simultaneously upward toward it
and downward, crushing herself.
Under her chin her arm flattened, becoming no thicker
than a sheet of paper.
Something stepped painlessly on her head, smashing
it.
Her body vanished. She tried to move a finger and
could not.
Hounds. A shallow, grassy bowl of hounds, seated
hounds, crouched hounds, gray and algae green and muddy violet, heads back and
lips drawn to reveal lengthy fangs and a double row of teeth down each side of
the massive jaws from which the grunting, rhythmic chorus came. Their hides
danced, plunged, were jabbed at erratically from within, as though they had
swallowed living things which fought to gain release. Blank, white orbs of eyes
stared at the sky. The open, falling sky.
The smell. The shallow bowl of earth was full of the
smell. She lay at the edge of that bowl. Her tongue lolled on her lower teeth,
dripping.
There, across the bowl, an abrupt, vertical wall, the
wall pierced with tall, evenly spaced openings through which the morning light
intruded to reveal a cavern beyond. Hippae moved there, one or two, in a pattern,
weaving, prancing, feet high, heads back, barbs clashing.
Among the crouching hounds, heaps of pearly spheres
the size of her head. Migerers there, moving the spheres, shifting them so that
all lay in the sun evenly, turning them over, holding them up in horny forepaws
and listening to them. What were they then? Eggs?
There, also, in the bowl outside the cavern, some
dozens of the sluglike peepers, only the rippling movement of their hides
betraying that they were living things.
The smell seemed to press her down. She was
two-dimensional, a limp cloth lying flat behind the grasses, a cloth with eyes.
The hounds were large, very large. As large as draft
horses, though not so long in the leg. The peepers were huge ones, twice the usual
size. Within the cavern, a myriad of tattered shapes danced on the air, dark
batlike creatures with a fringe of fangs. One of them landed on the back of a
hound's neck, fastening itself there. After a time it detached and began its
jerking, erratic flight once more.
One of the hounds began to pant, then to howl. The
howling faded into a whining cry, then the panting began once more. On the
sunlit soil, the peepers drew themselves into spherical masses, all wrinkles
smoothed away. So familiar. She had seen it before. Somewhere. Somewhen.
Gradually, all sound ended. The creatures seemed
frozen in their immobility. The violent motion inside the hides of the hounds
ceased. There was quiet, long quiet.
A Hippae emerged from the cavern, pacing slowly, feet
raised high at every step, nostrils flared, lips opening to emit breathy barks,
warning sounds. After a time, the other Hippae came out to confront the first,
neck swollen, jaw pulled back against
the arching neck, eyes roiling wildly as it joined in the brusque, hostile
sounds.
They backed away from one another, turning their
heads, bowing their necks, the wicked neck barbs bristling to one side like a
fan of sabers as they moved back, back, the distance widening between them.
Then they charged one another, each array of barbs passing through the other,
to gouge long wounds along the other's ribs and flanks. Long streaks of blood
appeared on their sides, and they pawed the ground with razorlike hooves,
hammering at it before they turned to charge again. Again the flashing barbs
and the streaks of blood. Marjorie cowered, mentally, as they thrust at one
another, rearing high, hooves flashing.
Until, at last, one of the Hippae fell to his knees
and was slow to rise to all four feet again.
The other animal backed away to the front of the cave
and rummaged there. It turned its back on its enemy, kicked backward, sending
black missiles flying. What was it kicking at its defeated opponent? Black
things. Powdery black things that broke when they landed. Like puffballs,
bursting into clouds of black dust when they struck. Kicking dead bats at one
another. The thing Sylvan had said....
Silent. A game. The game. In silence.
The victorious Hippae tossed its head, sought with
its teeth for new missiles from around the entrances to the cavern, laid them
out in the open, then turned to kick back once more. One of the missiles struck
the head of the kneeling beast, covering it in black dust. The defeated one
bowed low, struggled to its feet, and departed, walking up the bank of the
hollow and away.
It had had the pace and finish of ritual. A ritual
battle. Now over.
And then sound. The wind was blowing from behind her.
One of the swollen peepers ripped open. Protruding from the torn skin of the
peeper was the triangular, fanged head of a hound. The peeper skin ripped
further. Two hound forelegs emerged, and then, very gradually, the entire
beast.
It looked small and ridiculously fragile as it
staggered to its feet and stumbled through one of the vertical openings into
the cavern, carefully avoiding the heaped eggs. Marjorie heard the sound of lapping
from within. After a long pause, the creature emerged once more with dripping
jaws, already more sure upon its feet, already sleek, its body distended with
moisture. The Hippae stood upon the edge of the hollow, whistling. The young
hound climbed to meet it, nibbling, as it went, at the low, blue grasses which
grew there. Even as Marjorie watched, the beast seemed to enlarge in size,
gaining both stature and bulk. After a time it went away, slowly though
purposefully. The wind was blowing harder.
Another ripping sound drew her eyes across the
hollow. As a hound had emerged from the torn skin of a peeper, so now a Hippae
was emerging from the torn skin of a hound. Metamorphosis. Through the sundered
skin of one of the huge hounds a row of barbs protruded, tiny blades which slit
the skin, allowing the Hippae head to emerge. The process stopped when the head
was out, its eyes closed and unseeing. All was silent.
What was she doing? The wind was strong now, blowing
the smell away. What was she doing? Lying there? Flat? Only her eyes had
dimension. Only her eyes.
They hurt. She blinked, noticing that they were dry,
aching. She hadn't blinked, Not for a long, long time. The skin on the back of
her neck itched, as though something were watching her. She turned, trying to
see through the curtaining grasses. Something was out there. She couldn't see
it or hear it, but she knew it was there. She wriggled back down the slope,
stumbled through the grasses to find Quixote where he lay as she had left him
but with his head up, ears erect and swiveling, nostrils twitching. The sun was
falling toward the horizon. Tall grasses feathered the hollows with long,
ominous shadows. She urged him up and mounted, letting him have his head,
trusting in his ability to bring them both home if they were ever to come there
again.
The stallion moved by a route more direct than the
one they had taken in the morning, though still moving as though someone called
his name. He was as aware as she that darkness was not far off, more aware than
she of the threat abroad in the grasses. Quixote could smell what she could
not, Hippae, many of them, not far away but upwind from them. They had been
coming closer for the past hour, moving this way and that, as though searching.
Quixote leaned into his stride, eating the prairie with his feet, returning to
Opal Hill in a long curve which took him as far from the approaching Hippae as
he could get, gradually lengthening the distance between them. Out there,
somewhere, something approved of him. Something told him he was a good horse.
They arrived at the stables just at dusk. The
stableman she had entrusted with her message was waiting for her, his eyes on
the horizon as though to judge whether she had returned by sundown or not.
"Message, Lady," he told her eagerly. "Your son's been looking
for you. A message came for you, private. From bon Damfels' place, he
thinks."
She stood beside the horse, trembling, unable to
speak. "Lady? Are you all right?"
"Just... just tired," she mumbled. She felt
dizzy, unfocused, unsure what had happened to her. It was like a dream. Had she
really gone out alone? Into the grasses alone? She looked into the horse's
eyes, finding there an unhorselike awareness which for some unaccountable
reason did not surprise her. "Good Quixote," she said, running her
hands down his neck. "Good horse."
She left him with a final pat and went up the path as
quickly as she could, still stumbling. Tony was watching for her from the
terrace. "Where've you been? You tell me not to go out there alone and
then you go off for a whole day. Honestly, mother! You look awful!"
Carefully, she decided not to respond to this. No
matter how she looked, she felt ... better. More purposeful. For the first time
since her arrival in this place, purposeful. "The stableman said something
about a message?"
"From Sylvan, I think. He's the only one who
calls you 'The honorable lady, Marjorie Westriding.' It's keyed for you. I
couldn't read the thing."
"What on earth?"
"What on Grass, more likely. Come on."
"Where's your father?"
"Still on that damned machine." There was a
catch in his voice, as though either grief or anger lurked just below the
surface.
"Tony. There's nothing you can do about
it." "I keep feeling I ought to—"
"Nonsense. He ought to stop this nonsense. If you took part in it, too, everything
would be worse than it already is."
"Well, there's no way to interrupt him, and he's
got another hour or two."
She sat down at the tell-me, letting the identity
beam flick across her eyes. The message began on the screen: private. for the intended recipient only.
"Tony, turn your back."
"Mother!"
"Turn. If he's said something embarrassingly
personal, I don't want you seeing it." she said, wondering as she said it
why she should think Sylvan would be that personal.
She pressed the release and saw the message in its
entirety.
please HELP. NEED TRANSPORT FOR SELF, MOTHER, TWO OTHER WOMEN TO COMMONER TOWN. CAN YOU BRING AIRCAR QUIETLY TO BON DAMFELS VILLAGE? SIGNAL PRIVATE.
"Turn around. Tony. It's all right."
The boy read, stared, read once more. "What's
going on?"
"Evidently Sylvan needs to get Rowena away from
Klive but can't do it on his own. He has to do it secretly. The implication of
that is that he has to keep it from someone, probably Stavenger"
"Do you think Stavenger bon Damfels found out
that Rowena came here to ask about Janetta?"
"Possibly. Or maybe she's had a fight with
Stavenger and is afraid. Or you make up some other story. Your plot is as
likely to be true as mine is."
"I'm pretty good with the aircar by now."
"So's Persun Pollut. I need you to stay here and
explain to your father if he asks where I am, which he probably won't."
The bitterness in her voice was clear to the boy.
He flushed, wanting to help her but not knowing how.
"Why don't you let me take them. Or send Persun alone."
"I've got to talk to Sylvan. I saw something
today...." She described the cavern and its occupants in a rapid, excited
whisper while he stared, asking no questions. "Metamorphosis, Tony! Like
butterfly from caterpillar. The eggs must be Hippae eggs. They hatch into
peepers. I didn't see that, but it's the only thing that makes sense. The
peepers metamorphose into hounds, and the hounds into Hippae. A three-stage
metamorphosis. I don't think the Grassians even know," she concluded.
"No one's said a word about the peepers metamorphosing into hounds and the
hounds into mounts. Not even Persun."
"How could they live here for generations and
not know?"
She started to tell him the truth, started to say,
"Because the Hippae kill anybody who spies on them." She knew it for
truth, knew she had escaped only by chance. Or, remembering the way Don Quixote
had moved, as though guided, for some other reason. She did not want to admit
her own fool hardiness. "The taboos would prevent their finding out, Tony.
They've got taboos against scarring the grasses by driving vehicles. They have
no friendly mounts, like horses, so if they wanted to explore, they'd be
limited to walking. There may be a taboo against that, as well. Something deep,
psychological. Not merely custom. They may think it is only custom, but it's
more than that. They may think they are free to do what they like, but they
aren't."
"You mean they think they decided not to scar
the grasses, but really—"
"Really, they had no choice. That's what I mean,
yes. I think the Hippae have been directing them for ... for God knows how
long. I have a hunch that anyone who goes out on foot into the grasses to
explore ends up dead. I had feelings when I was out there today ... Don Quixote
had feelings. He was terribly frightened, moving as though he were walking on
eggshells. Besides, Asmir gave us quite a list of disappearances."
"And you were out there alone!" He shook
his head. "Mother, damn it. What were you thinking of?" Then, looking
into her shamed face, "For the love of God, Mother!"
"Tony, I made a mistake. You're not to say
anything to your father that you know anything about the plague or that I was
out riding today. In his present state of mind, he might blow up and start
bellowing. I can't take much more of that. And then, too, Stella would be sure
to find out."
"I know."
"If he wants to know where I am, tell him I've
helped take Rowena to Commons. Don't mention Sylvan unless it comes up. Rigo's
become very strange about Sylvan. I don't know why."
Tony saw that his mother did not, in fact, know why,
though Tony himself had a very good idea what was disturbing Rigo Yrarier.
While Marjorie had been dancing with Sylvan at the reception, Tony had been up
on the balcony near his father and had seen his father's face.
It was full dark when Persun Pollut dropped the Opal
Hill aircar at the edge of the bon Damfels village as silently as a fallen
leaf.
Sylvan was waiting with Rowena and two commoner
women. Rowena's face was bandaged, one arm was bound up. The two women half-carried
her aboard. Marjorie wasted no time with questions or comments but told Persun
to ascend immediately and get them to town as quickly as possible. Rowena bon
Damfels obviously needed medical care.
"I cannot thank you enough, Lady
Westriding," Sylvan said in an oddly formal tone much at variance with his
disheveled look. "There was no way I could get one of our aircars away
from the estancia without causing great difficulty. I apologize for my
appearance. It was necessary to break down a few doors this evening, and I
haven't had a chance to change since."
"Your father locked her up?"
"Among other barbarities, yes. I doubt that he
even remembers he did so. The Hunt is set very deep into my father, with all
its little ways."
"Where are you taking her, Sylvan?"
"I don't think father will suspect she's left
the place. If he misses her and remembers what he did, he'll probably think she
escaped and went out into the grasses. He may look for her, but I doubt it.
Meantime, these women have relatives in Commoner Town who will keep her hidden,
keep her safe."
"Are your sisters safe?"
"For the moment. Since both have lovers, I have
urged them both to get pregnant as quickly as possible. Pregnant women are not
expected to ride." His voice was flat, without feeling. "If there
were any way to manage it, I would take them to Commoner Town as well. They
would not be content to stay in hiding, however, and I'm afraid hiding is the
only way they could avoid being brought back."
"They are welcome at Opal Hill, Sylvan."
"That would mean the end of Opal Hill,
Marjorie." He reached out to her, touched her arm, for the moment moved
from his own troubles by her concern. "You were only allowed there as a
feint, a distraction, to keep Sanctity from doing something intrusive. Our ...
our masters do not want you on Grass. They do not want any outsiders on
Grass."
"They allow Commons! They allow the port!"
"They can't get at Commons or the port. That may
be all that has kept the town safe thus far. I don't know. I don't know what to
do. All of us bons are so ... so hypnotized. A few of the younger ones, like
me, a few who haven't hunted for a few years, we can talk about things; but
even with us, when we start to get close to—" He choked. When he was able
to. he said, "It's better in Commoner Town. Whenever I've been there,
I've been struck with how clear everything is. I can think anything I please
and nothing binds on me. I can talk about anything there."
"Are you going to stay in town?"
"I can't. Father might suspect about mother if I
did. He might come after her. He might start something between the estancias
and the town. That could only mean ... well, loss of life. Tragedy." He
fell broodingly silent, his eyes on his mother's bandaged face. "Why did
you and your family really come here?"
"I think Sanctity told you about the ... the
disease."
"Your plague, yes," he said impatiently.
"We know about that." His face betrayed that he did not think it
terribly important. Marjorie stared at him, wondering what he had been told,
what he was being allowed to believe.
"It isn't 'our' plague, Sylvan, any more than it
is your plague. It is a human plague. If it goes on for a few more decades,
there will be no more human life."
He stared at her, unable to believe what she was
telling him. "You're exaggerating."
She shook her head. "I'm not. Only another
lifetime, Sylvan, and you here on Grass may be all the human life left in the
universe. We'll be like the Arbai. Gone."
"But we here ... we haven't heard...."
"There doesn't seem to be any plague here. Or
there's something that stops it. You wouldn't let us send in any scientists or
researchers, but you did say you'd allow an embassy. Those idiots at Sanctity
thought you would accept us because of the horses, so we came, Rigo and I, to
find out what we could and to talk sense to you, if you'd allow it."
"We wouldn't allow it. I should have known.
That's why the Hunt masters picked those who came to your reception so
carefully. No one among them who could be swayed. All old riders. Except me.
And they don't know about me."
"Swamp forest coming up below," called
Persun. "Where do you want me to land?"
Marjorie looked at Sylvan, and he at the two women.
They conferred quietly, then asked that the car set down at the port.
Sylvan agreed. "The hospital is at the Port
Hotel. Besides, we're less likely to be noticed there at this time of
night."
They dropped quietly, allowed the women to depart,
then took off again for Klive.
As they approached the estancia, Marjorie leaned
forward to put her hand on Sylvan's arm. "Sylvan. Before you go, I have to
tell you something. I came just to tell you."
She poured the story of her day's discovery at him,
watching him twitch with discomfort and run his finger around his collar. She
wondered whether this was something he was allowed to believe or whether
counterbeliefs had been given him.
"Peeper to hound," he choked at last.
"Hound to mount. That's interesting. It could explain why they hate the
foxen so much. Foxen eat peepers."
"How do you know?"
"When I was a rebellious child, I found out I
could stay away from the Hippae if I made my mind a blank. A little talent I
have, or had then, that no one else seems to have. I used to sneak off into the
grasses sometimes for hours at a time. Not very far, you understand, just
farther than anyone else dared to go. If I was near a copse, I'd find a tree
and climb it, then lie there with a glass and spy on all that went on. I've
seen the foxen eat peepers. Peepers are easy to catch. They're nothing but a
gut with some flesh around it and rudimentary legs along the sides. I'd like to
see how they change."
"If you can get to Opal Hill before the lapse is
over, I can show you where the cavern is."
"Getting to Opal Hill," he said, choking on
his words, "would be the least of it, Marjorie. Going out into the grass
would be worse. Much worse. I'm not a child anymore. I'm not as good at it as I
once was. If there were any Hippae within miles of me, I'm not sure I'd be
allowed to return."
The aircar dropped once more. Sylvan took her hand
and pressed it, then thanked Persun Pollut as he left, disappearing into the
dark. The car returned to Opal Hill and landed in the gravel court, where
Marjorie bid Persun good night and set out for the side door which was closest
to her own quarters. As she approached, she heard the thunder begin once more,
off in the grasses, a sound the more ominous for having no cause, no reason
attributable to it. It threatened without leaving any possibility of reply.
Rigo's voice, coming demandingly from behind her,
startled her into a tiny scream, abruptly choked off. "May I ask where you
have been?"
"I went with Persun Pollut to take Rowena bon
Damfels to Commons, Rigo, where she could get medical care. Her son and two
serving women were with her. We dropped him back at the bon Damfels village and
came straight home."
Looking into her wide eyes, innocent of any attempt
to deceive him, he tried to sneer, tried to say something cutting, but could
not quite. "Rowena?"
"Stavenger had beaten her—badly, I'm
afraid."
"For what?" he asked in astonishment. To beat a woman had always been, in Rigo's philosophy, to abandon honor.
"For coming here to ask about Janetta," she
said. "Rowena and Sylvan came here to ask about Janetta. They hoped ... hope
that Dimity may turn up alive. Dimity. Rowena's youngest daughter. Sylvan's
sister. The girl who disappeared. That's why they were here."
"I didn't see Rowena here," he said, his emphasis reminding her that
he had seen Sylvan.
"When they were here, Rowena started sobbing.
She left the room for a few moments, Tony took her to my room."
"Leaving you with her son. And what did you two
talk about?" He felt his habitual anger surging just below the surface.
What had they talked about, Sylvan and Marjorie? What had she shared with him
that she would not share with her husband!
She sighed, wearily rubbing at her eyes, which
infuriated him further. "I tried to tell you before, Rigo, but you don't
want to hear about the Hippae. You didn't want to listen."
He stared at her for a long, cold moment, trying not
to say what, eventually, he could not keep himself from saying. "No. I do
not want to hear any of Sylvan's fairy tales about the Hippae."
She swallowed painfully, trying not to let the
frustration show on her face. "Are you interested in hearing what Brother
Mainoa of the Green Brothers may have to tell you about the same subject?"
He wanted more than anything else to hurt her enough
that she would cry. He had seldom seen her cry.
"Brother Mainoa?" he sneered. "Are you
having an affair with him, too?"
She stared at him in disbelief, noting his heightened
color, his fiery eyes, like Stella's eyes. He was saying the kinds of things
Stella liked to say, wanting to hurt, not minding that he knew they were not
true.
Before he had spoken, she had almost cried, out of
weariness if for no other reason, but his words burned all that away. Flames
came up around her, red and hot and crackling. It was an unfamiliar feeling, an
anger so intense that there was no guilt in it at all. The words came out of
her like projectiles, fired without thought, without needing to think.
"Brother Mainoa is about the age of my
father," she said in a clear, cold voice which she could scarcely hear
over the flame noises in her head. "An old man, rather unsteady on his
feet. He has been here for many, many years. He may have some clue which would
be valuable to us in the task we were sent here to do. But do not trouble
yourself about Brother Mainoa..."
"Perhaps when you have ridden to the Hunt and
proven your manhood as you so constantly need to do—and if you return— perhaps
then we can discuss what we are here for."
He tried to interrupt her, but she held up her hand,
forbidding him, her face like fiery ice. "In the meantime you may be
assured that I have never had an 'affair' with anyone. Until now, Rigo, I had
left the breaking of our vows to you,"
He had never heard her speak in that way. He had
never known she could. Tonight he had wanted only to crush her self-control,
believing it stood as a barrier between them. He had wanted their growing
coldness to be burned away by anger so she would come to him, as she always
did, apologizing, asking his forgiveness....
Instead he had provoked an anger he could neither
calm nor encompass. She turned and went away from him and he saw her go as
though she were leaving him forever.
It was not only at Opal Hill and at Klive that
matters boiled and suppurated on that night of the lapse. Far from either
place, in the kitchen court of Stane, the estancia of the bon Maukerden's, a
door opened upon the night to spill slanted light onto the court, throwing a
sharp wedge of brilliance into which the Obermum Geraldria stepped to make a
stump of shadow. She was a stocky pillar of a woman, her hair tumbled around
her heaving shoulders as she wept hopelessly into the towel she held to her
face. After a time she lifted reddened eyes to stand peering into the night,
unable to see anything both because of the darkness and of the tears that
filled her eyes and dripped unregarded from her heavy jaws. At the far end of
the kitchen court was a gate opening on the path to Maukerden village. She
walked heavily to the gate, opened it, then beckoned toward the open door.
Two figures emerged, so slowly as to seem reluctant.
One was Geraldria's serving maid, Clima. The other was the Goosegirl, Janetta
bon Maukerden, swaying beneath a voluminous cloak as though to the sound of
music she alone could hear, her face utterly tranquil in the yellow light.
Clima wept, Geraldria wept, but the Goosegirl showed no sign that she saw or
cared that either of the women grieved.
The Obermum held the gate open as Clima approached.
"Take her to the village, Clima. As soon as you can, take her to Commoner
Town. See if Doctor Bergrem ... see if Lees Bergrem can help her. I should have
let her go before. I thought she'd learn to recognize us." Geraldria
pressed the sodden towel to her face once more, muffling the sounds she could
not seem to keep from making. When the spasm had passed, she fished in a pocket
for the credit voucher she had put there earlier. "This will get you
whatever you need. If you need more than this one, let me know. Tell Doctor
Bergrem ... tell the doctor to send her away from Grass if that will
help."
Clima pocketed the card. "The doctor could maybe
come here, mistress. Maybe they'd come here." She caught at the
Goosegirl's arm to keep her from dancing away, tugging her through the gate and
onto the path.
"The doctor said she needed her machines, the
things she has at the hospital. Besides, the Obermun won't. Won't have it.
Won't have her."
"Not her fault ..." Words muffled by tears.
Geraldria cried, "Dimoth says yes. He says it
was Janetta's fault. He says it wouldn't have happened otherwise. Vince agrees
with him."
Clima spoke indignantly. "That's not true! Not
my Janetta."
"Shhh. Take her." Darkness fell onto the
path as she shut the gate, peering over it at the two of them outside.
"Take her away, Clima. I cannot bear it any longer. Not with the Obermun
saying the things he says." She fled toward the house, shutting the door
behind her.
Clima took the girl by the hand and urged her down
the path, the light of the torch making a puddle before them on a route as well
known to Clima as the rooms in her own house. She had gone only far enough to
be hidden from the house by the grasses when someone stepped out of them behind
her and pulled a sack over her head and down her body, knocking her down in the
process and leaving her to writhe helplessly for the moment, her hands
frantically seeking the rope her assailant had knotted at her ankles. She had
been too surprised to shout.
She wriggled herself upright and fumbled at the rope,
wrenching at the knot with hasty fingers. She heard the sound of an aircar
taking off from the grasses to one side of the path, where no aircar was
supposed to be. The knot came loose at last and she stripped the sack off,
turning her torch around her in bright searching spokes.
She called, went scrambling among the grasses, even
brought back several men from the village to help her look, but the girl was
gone.
Suddenly, the lapse was over. The Hunt began again.
For Rigo, riding the simulacrum took every moment of his waking time. For
Stella, though they did not know it, it continued to take every hour that the
rest of them slept. Superbly conditioned by their previous horsemanship, both
Rigo and Stella took less time than the bons might have expected. The day soon
came that Rigo announced he would attend the Hunt at the bon Damfels estancia,
two days hence.
"I expect you all to be there." he said
grimly to his family. "You, Marjorie. Tony. Stella."
Marjorie did not reply. Tony nodded. Only Stella
burbled with excitement. "Of course, Daddy. We wouldn't miss it for
anything."
"I've ordered a balloon-car so that you can
follow the Hunt."
"That's very thoughtful of you," said
Marjorie. "I'm sure we will all enjoy that very much."
Stella cast a sidelong look, disturbed by her
mother's voice. The words, the phrasing—all had been as usual, and yet there
had been something chill and uncaring in that voice. She shivered and looked
away, deciding it would not be a good time to twit her mother about the Hunt.
Besides, there was too much to do. Stella was determined to ride when her
father rode, but obtaining the proper garb had not been easy. She had forged
orders over the name of Hector Paine and sent them to Commons, intercepting the
deliveries when they arrived. She now had everything she needed, the padded
trousers, the special boots, narrowed at the toe to catch between the ribs of
the mount. Her own coat and hunt tie would serve, her own gloves and hat. All
of them were ready to be hidden in the aircar and transported to the bon
Damfels estancia. This would be one of the last Hunts at Klive. Within a few
days, the Hunt would move to the bon Laupmons'.
Since the lapse was over, Marjorie judged that the cavern
of the Hippae would no longer be guarded- Very early the following morning,
while all the family still slept, she took the trip recorder from the previous
journey and rode Quixote across the long loops they had made on the previous
trip. She found the ridge, the shallow declivity, and the cavern- There was no
smell except the smell of the grasses-There was no sound. Perhaps the thunder
had been their mating frenzy, if Hippae had mates. Or, perhaps the frenzy was
merely reproductive frenzy, like the mindless thrashing of fish. In the
shallow hollow, nothing remained except pieces of dry and brittle shell. The
eggs had hatched. The cavern was empty except for piles of powdery clots near
the entrance. She looked at these, recognizing them at last as dead bats,
those same flitterers she had seen before in the cavern. These were what the
conquering Hippae had kicked at the defeated one. She stepped over the dusty
bodies as she walked into the cavern, noting its similarity to the one at Opal
Hill. Both had the same rubble pillars, the same tall openings, the same spring
at one side.
There was one notable difference. The earthen floor
of this cavern was incised with a pattern, a pattern cut by the hooves of the
mounts, an interlaced pattern as complex as those she remembered seeing as a
child, carved on prehistoric Celtic monuments. Moved by an inexplicable
impulse, Marjorie drew out the trip recorder and walked the design from one end
to the other, every curl and weave of it, seeing the pattern emerge on the tiny
screen in its entirety. It would do no good to ask Rigo what he thought it
might mean. Perhaps, however, she could ask Brother Mainoa when she saw him
again. When she had looked at everything, recorded everything, she returned to
Opal Hill without incident, feeling, so she told herself, a certain viral
satisfaction.
The day of Rigo's first Hunt arrived inevitably, and
Marjorie steeled herself to observe the Hunt. She wore one of her Grassian
outfits, a flowing, many-layered gown, the skirts of each loose dress slightly
shorter than the one beneath to reveal the silky layers of the gowns below, the
outer coat a stiff brocade ending at the knees and elbows so that the
extravagantly ruffled hems and sleeves of the undergown could show. It was
similar to the dresses she had seen on pregnant women or on matrons who no
longer rode. She let her hair fall into a silken bundle down her back rather
than drawing it up in its customary high, golden crown. At her dressing table,
she used a good deal of unaccustomed makeup, particularly about the eyes. She
die not try to explain to herself why she did this, but when she went down the
hall toward the graveled court where Rigo waited, she looked like a woman going
to meet a lover—or to meet other women who might wonder if her husband loved
her. Rigo saw her and quivered. She did not look like Marjorie. She was a
stranger. He chewed his lips, shifting from foot to foot, caught between a
desire to reach out to her and a determination to take no notice.
Persun brought the aircar around, Tony came
breathlessly from the house, adjusting his clothing, then Stella ran out in a
gown similar to her mother's, though not as complexly layered. She had seen
what Marjorie planned to wear and had dressed herself accordingly. The individual
layers were loose and easy to remove. It suited her to have something that
would come off quickly. She would not have a lot of time in which to change.
There was mercifully little conversation as they
went. Marjorie sat next to Persun as he drove, and the two of them conducted a
stilted practice conversation in Grassan. "Where is the Master of the
Hunt?"
"The Master of the Hunt is riding down the
path."
"Have the hunters killed a fox?"
"Yes, the hunters have killed a fox today."
"It sounds like toads gulping," said
Stella, with a sniff. "Why would anyone invent such an ugly
language?"
Marjorie did not answer. In her mind she was so far
from the present location that she did not even hear. There was a fog around
her, penetrable only by an act of will. She had separated herself from them.
"What is the Obermum serving for lunch?" she asked in a schoolgirl
voice.
"The Obermum is serving roast goose," came
the reply.
Someone's goose, Persun thought to himself, seeing
the expression on all their faces. Oh, yes, we are serving someone's goose.
At Klive, Amethyste and Emeraude were playing
hostess, both blank-faced and quiet, both dressed very much as Marjorie was.
"The Obermum sends her regrets that she cannot greet you. Obermum asks to
be remembered to you. Won't you join us in the hall?"
Somehow Marjorie and Tony went in one direction while
Rigo and Stella went in another. Marjorie did not miss Stella immediately. She
found herself drinking something hot and fragrant and smiling politely at one
bon and another, all of them shifting to get a view of the first surface. There
the riders were assembling, faces bland and blind in the expression Marjorie
had grown to expect among hunters. Sylvan came into the room, not dressed for
the hunt.
"Not hunting today, sir?" asked Tony in his
most innocent voice, busy putting two and two together but not sure how he felt
about the resultant sum.
"A bit of indigestion," Sylvan responded.
"Shevlok and Father will have to carry the burden today."
"Your sisters aren't hunting either,"
murmured Marjorie.
"They have told father they are pregnant,"
he murmured in return, almost in a whisper. "I think in Emeraude's case it
may be true. One does not expect women of their age to be able to Hunt as often
as the men. Father realizes that."
"Has he—"
"No. No, he does not seem to miss ... he does
not seem to miss the Obermum. He does not seem to know she is gone."
"Have you heard from her?"
"She is recovering." He turned and stared
out the arched opening to the velvet turf, jaw dropping, eyes wide in
shock--"By all the hounds, Marjorie. Is that Rigo?"
"Rigo. Yes. He feels he must," she said.
"I warned you all!" His voice rasped in his
throat--"God. I warned him."
Marjorie nodded, fighting to maintain her mood of
cool withdrawal. "Rigo does not listen to warnings. I do not know what
Rigo listens to." She took a cup of steaming tea from the tray offered by
one of the servants and attempted to change the subject. "Have you seen
Stella?"
Sylvan looked around the room, shaking his head. The
room was crowded, and he walked away from Marjorie, searching the corners.
"If you're looking for the girl," muttered
Emeraude, "she went back out to the car."
Sylvan conveyed this to Marjorie, who assumed that
Stella had forgotten something and had gone to retrieve it. The bell rang. The
servants in their hooped skirts skimmed into the house. The gate of the hounds
opened. The hounds came through, two on two, gazing at the riders with their
red eyes.
Marjorie took a deep breath. Rigo was standing at the
extreme left of the group. When the riders turned to follow the hounds out the
Hunt Gate, he was behind them all.
Except for one final rider, late, who came running
from around the corner of the house onto the first surface, head tilted away
from the observers, following Rigo out through the Hunt Gate at the tail end of
the procession.
A girl, Marjorie thought, wondering why Stella had
not returned.
A girl.
Something in the walk, the stance. A certain
familiarity about the clothing, the cut of the coat....
Surely, oh, surely not.
"Wasn't that your daughter?" asked Emeraude
with a strange, wild look at Marjorie. "Wasn't that your daughter?"
They heard the thunder of departing feet from outside
the gate.
When Sylvan got to the gate at a dead run, there was
no one left. All the riders had mounted and gone.
Stella had assumed that Sylvan would be among the
riders. Despite what she had been told of the Hunt and had seen for herself,
she had also assumed that she would find a way to bring her own mount near his.
All such assumptions were forgotten the moment she vaulted onto the back of the
mount that came forward for her. Before arriving at the bon Damfels', she had
worried that a mount might not be available, might not, as it were, be
expecting her. Everything she had been told during her observation of the Hunt,
however, indicated that there were always exactly as many mounts as needed for
the hunters who assembled. If someone decided at the last minute not to ride,
no mount showed up outside the gate. Since it was part of her plan to come into
the garden late, after the hounds had gone through, there was no opportunity
for anyone to intercept her. She came to the gate as her father was mounting,
and then felt, rather than saw, a mount appear before her, extending its
massive leg. She went through the movements she had rehearsed so many times on
the machine that they had become automatic.
Until that moment everything had happened too quickly
to think about, to consider, to change her mind. Then all at once the barbs
were there, only inches from her breast, gleaming like razors. As she stared at
them, half hypnotized and beginning to feel fear for the first time, the mount
turned its head and drew back its lips in a kind of smile, a smile like enough
to human for her to know that it held something like amusement, something like
contempt, something, peculiarly, like encouragement. Then it lunged off after
the others and she gasped, putting all her concentration into keeping herself
braced away from the bony blades.
They had gone some distance before she thought to
look for Sylvan. From behind, all the riders looked alike. She could not tell
if he was there or not. The rider directly ahead of her was her father. She
knew his coat, cut unlike the coats of the other hunters.
After a time she thought to look for Sylvan. All the
riders looked alike. Except for her father. His coat was different from the
others....
After a time she looked for Sylvan. Her father was
riding ahead of her....
Her father was riding just ahead ... ahead....
It was a good day for the Hunt. Though summer was
over, the pastures were still green from recent rains. The farmers had taken
down some of the worst of the wire fences, and those that were left were
clearly visible. Ahead, crossing the silver-beige stubble of an oat field, she
could see the foxhounds, running hard, before the pack lost itself behind the
slope to her left. The light wind brought the yelp and clamor of the dogs and
the sound of the Huntsman's horn. Dark figures fringed the top of the hill,
followers, hands shielding their eyes from the sun. One among them waved his
hat and pointed the way the fox had gone. She reined her horse to the left,
down along a spinney and around once more, up and over the crest of the hill,
the short way around. From the top of the hill she could see the fox fleeing
across the pasture below, nose low, bushy tail straight behind as it darted
under a fence, then atop a long log and into Fuller's Copse. She urged her
mount over the fence toward the copse, taking the jump cleanly, joining some
hunters already there, hearing the thud of hooves as others arrived. The Master
gestured for them to circle the copse, and she turned to one side, positioning
herself near a ditch where the fox might flee.
She could hear the hounds in the copse. The Huntsman
was in there with them; his voice rose, calling individual hounds by name,
urging them on. "Bounder, get out of there. Dapple, up, up girl...."
Then there was a shout and they were away again, the
horn, and the hounds giving voice....
Sylvan.
Someone was supposed to be riding with them today. A
guest? Someone not a member of this Hunt.
Sylvan. Here he was. Beside her, turning in the
saddle to look adoringly at her. She felt her face flame and drew herself up
proudly.
Some of the riders had fallen back. They had been at
it all the morning, and it was noon now, with the sun overhead and hot on her
hat. The fox had taken refuge in Brent's Wood, and the Huntsman and whippers-in
were among the trees. The Master, too, which was strange. Standing on his horse
like some circus acrobat, standing and throwing things.
And then ... a surge of feeling. A jolt of pure
pleasure that streaked up from her groin. An orgasm of sheer delight which
seemed to go on and on and on.
Sylvan felt it, too. They all felt it. Every face
showed it. Every body lashed with it, heads jerking, jaws lax.
Then at last the Huntsman was sounding the kill.
There was the Huntsman with the fox's mask, and the horses turning for home.
Now the sun was behind her. A long ride home. Even if they went the short way,
along Magna Spinney and onto the gravel road past the Old Farm, it was still a
long way home
She was desperately tired when they returned. Her
father came over to her and took her arm, roughly, too roughly, and they walked
through the gate with the others.
"What in God's name were you doing here?"
he demanded, his mouth almost at her ear. "Stella, you little fool!"
She gaped at him. "Riding," she said, wondering
why he asked. "Why, Daddy, I was riding."
She followed her father's gaze, up to the terrace.
Mother stood there, a glass in her hand, very pale, very beautiful. Sylvan was
beside her. He had his arm around Marjorie, pointing down at them. How could he
be there, not even in Hunt dress, when he had been riding just moments ago?
Stella felt her face growing red. Sylvan hadn't
really been on the Hunt. He couldn't have been. Her father walked away from
her, up the flight of shallow stairs. Mother was clutching the balustrade with
both hands, tightly, her knuckles white. Sylvan was holding her up, snapping
his fingers at a nearby servant. Then Father was there, shouldering him aside.
"Marjorie!"
His wife looked blindly at him, as though she did not
know who he was. "Stella," she said, pointing. "Her face
..."
Rigo turned to look back at his daughter where she
stood at the foot of the stairs, turned just too late to see what Marjorie had
seen, the same chill, senseless gaze that the Goosegirl had worn when she had
appeared among them at Opal Hill.
As for Stella, she tottered upon her feet, trembling
between fury and shock with the realization that Sylvan hadn't really been
there to see her riding and that she could remember almost nothing about the
day at all. She remembered horses and hounds and a fox, but they were real
horses, real dogs from some other time, years ago. She remembered that jet of
feeling which had filled her and the memory made her flush, but she did not
know why she had felt it. Staring up at Sylvan's concerned face, at her
father's furious one, at her mother's anxious one, she had the fleeting
realization that there were things happening all around her, hideous, important
things, and that she had not paid attention to what was going on.
12
Shoethai, assistant in the Office of Acceptable
Doctrine, sat in the dining room of the port facility waiting for a ship to
unload. Elder Brother Noazee Fuasoi had explained that the ship carried a very
important cargo, and he had sent Shoethai to receive it.
Shoethai's automatic response had been unvoiced.
"Why me?" Even now he studiously avoided looking at himself in the
window, where his reflected image was superimposed over the ship in question
like a hovering and misshapen ghost. The face was sufficiently grotesque to
have made several staff people at the port pretend they hadn't seen him,
including two of the waiters in this dining room.
Shoethai was so accustomed to his appearance and to
the way people reacted to it that he no longer showed his hurt and outrage,
though the emotions seethed below the surface, more malevolently violent with
every passing day. Elder Fuasoi could have sent someone else. Yavi, or Fumo.
Either of them. They didn't look like much but they didn't look like monsters,
either. The question was eternal. "Why me?"
Back in Sanctity, very occasionally some well-meaning
idiot had tried to comfort Shoethai by saying something like, "Still,
you're glad to be alive, aren't you? You'd rather be alive than dead, wouldn't
you?" Which just went to show how stupid and unfeeling they were, mouthing
cliches at him that way. No, he would not rather be alive. Yes, he would rather
be dead, except he was afraid of dying. Best yet would be if he'd never lived
at all, if they'd let his father kill him when he tried to. Father, at least,
had cared about him and wanted what was best for him. What was best was never
to have been born or, if that wasn't possible, never to have lived past a few
weeks when he was still too little to know anything. What would have been absolute
best was never to have looked at this face, conscious that it was his own.
Still, the Elder Brother hadn't sent Fumo or Yavi.
The Elder Brother had sent Shoethai, and that meant something. It meant that
Fumo or Yavi weren't supposed to know about this shipment. If Fumo and Yavi
weren't supposed to know, then Elder Brother Jhamlees Zoe didn't know, and
Sanctity didn't know either. And that meant it was something that only Shoethai
and Fuasoi knew about, only those two.
"Do you know what Moldies are?" the Elder
Brother had asked him one day, out of nothing, while Shoethai was cleaning the
Elder Brother's office.
"It's martyrs of something," Shoethai had
said.
"Martyrs of the Last Days," the Elder
Brother had said. "A group of men who are dedicated to hastening the end.
Have you ever read the Book of Ends?"
Shoethai merely stood there, mouth open, shaking his
head. Of course he hadn't read any Moldy books. You could get yourself terminated
by Sanctity for reading Moldy books.
The Elder Brother had read his mind. "I know.
It's among the forbidden volumes. Still, I think you'd be interested in reading
it, Shoethai. I'll grant a dispensation for you. Take the book with you when
you leave, but don't let anyone else see it. Particularly, don't let Jhamlees
Zoe see it."
It wasn't even a reader. It was an old-style book,
with pages. Elder Fuasoi laid it out on the desk and just left it there, an old
brown thing with the words Book of Ends
in gold across the front. Shoethai had hidden the book in the deep pocket of
his robe, had read it only when he was alone—which was most of the time. By now
he had it almost memorized and frequently quoted sections of it to himself.
"Garbed in light, we will dwell in the house of
light," he recited to himself now as he sucked his tea through the gaps in
his teeth. After the end of mankind would come the New Creation. In the New
Creation he would no longer wear this face and this body. In the New Creation
he would no longer be deformed. He would dart like a spear, clothed only in
radiance, beautiful as an angel. Elder Fuasoi had taken particular notice of
this, reading the proper section from the book and pointing to the
illustrations, but Shoethai had believed it from the moment he read it for
himself. It was as though it had been written just for him. Fair was fair. If
people didn't have a fair try in this life, they would in the next one.
"Let the changes come," he whispered,
inhaling another sip of tea. "Let the New Creation manifest itself."
The manager of the dining room had brought the tea after a furious whispering
match with his two waiters. Shoethai prayed silently that the waiters would be
among the first to be cleansed away, most painfully. Of course it would be
painful. Elder Fuasoi had already told him that. Elder Fuasoi had seen the
plague. Elder Fuasoi had actually spent almost a year in a plague camp. Elder
Fuasoi was a Moldy. He said nobody could see the plague and be anything else.
Once Elder Fuasoi confessed that he was actually a
Moldy, Shoethai had become a willing and dedicated convert even though they
were the only Moldies on Grass and Jhamlees Zoe would have them both killed if
he found out. Doing what the Moldies needed doing didn't need more than two.
Two, Elder Fuasoi had told him, would be more than enough.
"Bless me, O Creator," Shoethai mused
silently as he stared through his own image at the scurrying figures around the
ship, "for I will cleanse thy house of ugliness." Ugliness itself was
a sin against Creation. The Elder Brother had even hinted that the Creator had
given Shoethai this face in order to make explicit to Shoethai a certain
knowledge, the knowledge of the absolute depravity and unworthiness of man,
printing that message on Shoethai's flesh for everyone to see. Elder Fuasoi said
that what Shoethai appeared to be on the outside, all mankind actually was on
the inside. What Shoethai looked like, mankind actually was. Misshapen.
Deformed. A freak of Creation. Intelligence should not exist in such stinking,
fallible flesh. Flesh was all right for animals, but not for intelligent
beings, and mankind was an experiment that hadn't worked out. For the few who
helped clean up the mess, there would be divine rewards. And for the others
there would be a final end which would leave the universe cleansed and purified
and ready to start over.
Below him, he saw ground vehicles moving from the
ship toward the port building. The shipment would be in one of them. Brother
Shoethai decided to stay where he was for a time. Let the crowd clear away
before he went down to the cargo office. There was no hurry. Once Elder Fuasoi
had the shipment and distributed it, everyone on the planet would die, but it
would take some time. The virus didn't work for a long time, sometimes--There
was no hurry. An hour more or less would make little difference. Shoethai
giggled as he sipped at his tea. Then, seeing what the giggle did to his
reflection in the window, he stopped and turned slightly away so that he would
not be able to see himself anymore.
In his office at the Friary, Elder Brother Noazee
Fuasoi leaned on his desk, choking down the pain from his belly. The second
stomach and gut transplant hadn't worked any better than the first one, even
though the office had scoured the penitents for as close a tissue match as
possible. That was the best the doctors could do here on Grass, and even then
they'd objected that the donor hadn't made a free gift of his body prior to
getting fatally wounded in the head by (so Elder Fuasoi had informed them) an
unfortunate fall from the towers. There were no facilities for cloning body
systems on Grass, and while Elder Brother Noazee Fuasoi of Sanctity had
sufficient clout to go back to Sanctity and wait while they cloned a gut for
him, Jorny Shales the Moldy hadn't wanted to take the time.
"One would think ..." he snarled to himself
in a litany that was repeated every time his gut pained him, "one would
think the Creator could grant surcease to those of us doing His work."
"Pardon, Your Emminence?" said Yavi Foosh
from his own desk by the window. "Pardon?"
"Nothing," snarled the Elder. "I've
got a pain, that's all Probably something I ate."
Though it wasn't anything he had eaten. It was flesh,
that was all. Fallible flesh. Full of stinks and pains and rot. Full of
weakness and foolish, ugly appetites and dirty excretions. There would be no
flesh in the next creation, not for those who had cleaned up this one. Elder
Fuasoi gripped the edge of the desk and sweated, thinking of other times and
places as he waited for the cramp to pass.
He had never really been aware of pain until the
camp. His name had been Jorny then, a boy of fifteen dragged into the camp with
his uncle Shales. One day he had been living with Uncle Shales in the fishing
town, going to school, fishing off the pier, going out in the boat when the
weather was right, writing love notes to Gerandra Andraws, cute little Gerry
with the perky little bottom, wondering if he was old enough to really do
something about her. The next day he had been there in the camp, crowded with fifteen
other men and boys in one room with no school, no girls, no fishing, and no
Uncle Shales.
The people in the camp either had the disease or were
close family members of people with the disease. Uncle Shales was dying, they
told him. Jorny had to stay in the camp until they found out whether he was
going to die, too.
He wanted to see Uncle Shales, but they wouldn't let
him. He sneaked around until he found what building Uncle was in and where his
bed was, and then he got up close to the wall, around back. Uncle Shales would
open the window a little bit and they'd talk, at night. Uncle Shales told Jorny
not to be afraid. Everything that happened, happened for the best, he said.
Jorny sat crouched under the window, tears running down his face, trying to keep
Uncle from hearing him cry. Then one night Uncle didn't answer him and the
window wasn't open, so Jorny waited until everyone was asleep and sneaked in.
He couldn't find Uncle Shales. In the bed where Uncle had been was only this
thing, this kind of monster, partly bandages, with one eye peering out and a
round, raw hole where its mouth ought to be, leaking all over the place and
stinking.
Later, when he asked, they told him Uncle had died.
He thought they'd let him go then, but they didn't. They kept looking all over
him for sores, like the sores most of the people in the camp had.
Then one day there was a Moldy preaching in the camp.
Preaching how it was near the end of the time for man. How it was time for man
to depart, for he was only rotten flesh and decaying bone. How it was time to
leave the universe clean for the next generation. How those who died now would
rise again in the New Creation, clad in light, beautiful as the dawn.
Jorny knew then what had happened to Uncle Shales. He
had shed his flesh so he could come back, dressed all in light, like an angel.
Jorny cried, the first time he'd let himself cry out
loud, right there in the dusty street of the camp, half-hidden behind one of
the scruffy trees. He had waited until the Moldy was finished and had gone up
to him and said who he was and that his uncle had died and he wanted to get out
of the camp. The man had patted him on the shoulder and said he could get him
out, that Jorny could become a Moldy right then, without even having a
toothbrush. He got in a truck with the man and they looked him all over to see
if he had any sores on him, and when they saw he didn't they hid him under some
stuff while they smuggled him out to a place where there were lots of people
and other kids and nobody had sores on them anywhere. Not that they'd really
had to smuggle him. The camp commander had been paid off, the Moldy said. Paid
off to let the Moldy preach and bring comfort to the dying.
That night Jorny slept. Whenever he thought about
Uncle, he made himself stop thinking. At first he thought maybe he should have
gone home to say goodbye to the people he'd known, but then after a while he
figured most of them were dead and it didn't matter. They were all dead and
ready to be reborn. The Moldies pointed out people who were already
transformed. Before the sun went down, sometimes you could see them, slanting
down from the clouds, golden beams of fiery light. Later on, Jorny figured out
that was just stories, just sunlight, but it didn't matter. Later on he
realized who that monster on the corner bed had been, too, but by that time he
had it all figured out.
When he was seventeen, the Moldies had sent him to
Sanctity as an acolyte with instructions to study and work and rise in the hierarchy.
He had become a member of the Office of Acceptable Doctrine. It was the
Moldies, paying people off, that got Sanctity to send him to Grass. It was time
for Grass to join the other homes of man, the Moldies said. Time for Grass to
be cleansed.
And now he was here, ready to spread the plague which
had killed everything he had cared about. If Uncle Shales had deserved the
plague, then there were none who did not deserve it. If Uncle Shales had died,
then everybody ought to die.
He opened his eyes, surprised to find them wet,
feeling the cramping in his belly wane to its usual dull, wallowing ache.
Standing across the desk from him was his superior in Sanctity, Elder Brother
Jhamlees Zoe.
"You don't look well, Fuasoi."
"No, Elder Brother. A bit of pain is all."
"Have you seen the doctors in the town
recently?"
"Not for several weeks, Elder Brother."
"What have they said is wrong?"
"The systems transplant isn't doing as well as
they'd like."
"Perhaps it's time to ship you back to
Sanctity."
"Oh, no, Elder Brother. Much too much work
here."
Elder Brother Jhamlees fretted, moving his hands,
scratching his infinitesimal nose, rising on his toes, then down again.
"Fuasoi?"
"Yes, Elder Brother?"
"You haven't heard of there being any ...
sickness around, have you?"
Fuasoi stared at him in disbelief. Sickness? Was the
man crazy? Of course there was sickness around. "What does the Elder
Brother refer to?"
"Oh, any serious sickness. Any. ah .. .well.
Urn. Any, ah .. .plague?"
"Sanctity teaches us that there is no
plague," said Brother Fuasoi firmly. "Surely the Eider Brother is not
questioning Sanctity's teaching?"
"Not at all. I was thinking more of... something
contagious, you know, that might threaten the Friary. Still, good to know
there's nothing. Nothing. Take care of yourself, Fuasoi. Let me know if you'd
like to go back...." And he was out the door, hurrying away down the
corridor.
Well, well, thought Fuasoi. I wonder what occasioned
that?
"Shoethai's here," said Yavi, interrupting
his thoughts. "I can hear him coming down the hall." He got up and
went to the door, opening it slightly and turning to peer inquiringly back at
his superior.
"Let him come in," Fuasoi said, nodding.
The pain in his belly had passed. The other pain, the one that brought him
awake in the night, sweating and weeping, that one would pass when everything
was all over. He patted his forehead with a throwaway and stared at the door.
"I want to speak to him privately."
Yavi shrugged and went out, passing Shoethai in the
door.
"Your Eminence." Shoethai fell to his
knees.
"Get up," Fuasoi directed impatiently.
"Did you get it?"
Shoethai nodded wearily, rising to put the small
package on the desk. "Once I found somebody to look for it. Mostly they
try to pretend I'm not there."
The Elder gestured with his fingers to give the
package to him. When he had it, he opened it carefully, revealing a fist-sized
packet within.
"Is that it?" Shoethai begged, wanting to
be reassured once more.
"That's it-" His superior smiled, content
at last that the work could go forward and his own pain would end. "Plague
virus. Packed especially for Grass."
Brothers Mainoa and Lourai arrived at Opal Hill just
in time to interrupt an altercation. When Persun Pollut announced the arrival
of an aircar bearing the Green Brothers, Marjorie was for the moment shocked
into inaction. She had forgotten they were coming. After the momentary pause,
however, she went out to bring them in, hoping their arrival would put an end,
however temporary, to the discord between Rigo and Stella.
Ignoring the arrival of the two strangers, Rigo went
on shouting at Stella, furious that she had not told him she intended to ride,
furious at her for having ridden at all without his permission. Though Tony and
Marjorie were angry too, angry with both the riders for risking their lives,
they felt the conflict had gone on long enough. Marjorie intruded upon the
sounds of battle by introducing the brothers to her husband and daughter.
As Rigo turned and offered his hand to Brother
Mainoa, his face still suffused with anger, he suddenly remembered his words to
Marjorie about this man. The Brother was shortsighted and elderly, rotund and
half bald. Rigo was instantly aware that he had made himself ridiculous by his
accusations then and that he was not improving matters by his manner now. All
he could bring himself to do was to make brusque apologies and go off with
Stella still frothing after him like a small, mad animal determined to bite,
leaving Marjorie and Tony to make amends.
Mainoa waved her apologies away. "All families
have their upsets, Lady Westriding. I understand your husband and daughter rode
to hounds yesterday."
"How did you know?"
"That information spread across Grass within
moments of their leaving Klive," the friar replied. "A servant called
a friend on the tell-me. The friend called someone else, who called three
others. One of the Brothers came to tell Brother Lourai and me, bringing the
news down into the Arbai street we are currently unearthing. Oh yes, Lady
Westriding, everyone knows."
"The two of them have been fighting over
it," she confessed unnecessarily. "Tony and I are afraid for
them."
"As you might well be," the Brother agreed.
Since Stella had left them, Rillibee had stood
looking after her, an expression of wonder on his face. Now he sat down
abruptly. "She's determined to go on?" he asked.
"Rigo is determined to go on. Stella is no less
determined, though not for Rigo's reasons. My husband thinks she should not.
The reasons he gives her for not riding are the same reasons I give him for not
riding. He says in his case it is different." She sighed, throwing up her
hands.
"It's all become rather nasty and boring,"
said Tony, trying to make light of what had been a very hostile encounter.
"Everyone telling each other the same things, and no one listening."
"I'm told that Rowena, Obermum bon Damfels, is
at Commons," Brother Mainoa remarked. "I hear that Obermun bon
Damfels does not seem to know she is gone."
"You hear everything," Marjorie said
ruefully. "Have you heard what any of it means?"
"As you do, Lady Westriding. As you do."
"Call me Marjorie, Brother. Please. Father James
wants to see you while you are here. He particularly asked to be
included."
Brother Mainoa nodded, smiling. He had wanted very
much to talk with either of the Fathers.
When the time came, he spoke to the young priest, quiet young Father James—Rigo's nephew, Marjorie informed them—and also to Father Sandoval, and to Tony and Marjorie as well. Their luncheon was served on the terrace in the mild airs of spring. Neither Rigo nor Stella joined them. Neither Rigo nor Stella could be found.
"I wanted particularly to speak with you
Fathers," Brother Mainoa confided in his comfortable voice, "because
I have a philosophical matter which I am seeking advice upon."
"Ah?" Father Sandoval acknowledged in a
patronizing tone. "You wish an answer from a religious point of
view?"
"I do," said the Brother. "It pertains
to creatures which are not human. You may regard the question as hypothetical
but nonetheless important."
Father Sandoval cocked his head. "You mean in a
doctrinal sense?"
"Precisely. A matter of no practical relevance
whatsoever, but important in a doctrinal sense. To ask my question, I must ask
you first to suppose that the foxen here on Grass are sentient beings and that
they are troubled by matters of conscience."
Tony laughed. Marjorie smiled. Father Sandoval seemed
only slightly amused. "I can accept that as a ground for ethical
argument."
Brother Mainoa nodded, gratified. "It is a
question of original sin."
"Original sin?" Father James looked as
though he was genuinely amused. "Among the foxen?" He looked at
Marjorie with a smile, as though reminded of their recent conversation on the
same subject. She looked down at her plate. She was still troubled by the
things he had said, and was not sure it was a laughing matter.
Brother Mainoa saw this interchange but pretended not
to notice. "Remember that you agreed to accept that they are thinking
beings, Fathers. Accept it. Regard them as fully sentient. As much as you
yourself may be. Now, having done so—do not laugh, sir," this to Tony—"we
are supposing that the idea of original sin oppresses the foxen. They are
carnivores. Their bodies require meat. So, they eat meat. They eat the peepers,
the larvae of the Hippae."
"You know!" exclaimed Marjorie. "You
know what the peepers really are."
"I do, madam. Not many know, but I do. And let
us suppose the foxen do, as well. They eat them."
"And the foxen consider this sinful?" Tony
asked. "Well, young sir, it is an interesting point. If these were men,
you yourself would consider it sinful. If a man or woman kills an unborn child,
your faith and Sanctity both consider it murder, do they not? The larvae of the
Hippae are not thinking beings. They are as near mindless as makes no matter.
However, when they grow great and fat and unable to move, they make their first
metamorphosis and emerge as hounds."
"Ah." Father Sandoval had already heard of
this from Marjorie and he now saw where Mainoa was leading.
"The hounds, some say, are thinking beings.
Certainly they are capable of some thought. I believe they are self-aware.
Whether they are or not, they undergo a further metamorphosis and become something
else...."
"Mounts." Marjorie nodded. "I have
seen them."
"Of course. And as Lady Westriding knows in her
heart, as we all know in our hearts, the Hippae are thinking beings. You and I
have discussed this before, have we not? So, when foxen eat the peepers, they
are killing the young of a thinking race."
"But if they know this, why—"
"What else can they eat? The mounts? The Hippae
themselves? There are a few other creatures, all of them too fleet or too small
to be of any use. The grazers are too huge. No, the foxen eat the peepers
because they are available and abundant. There are many more peepers than the
world could hold if all of them went through metamorphosis, and history upon
Terra tells us what horrors follow upon religious mandates of unlimited
reproduction. That is not the point, however. The point is that foxen eat and
relish peepers, but let us suppose that in recent years, since being exposed to
the thoughts of man, the foxen have acquired pudency. They have learned to feel
guilt."
"They had no guilt until man came?"
"Let us suppose not. Let us suppose that they
had reason, but no sense of shame. They have acquired it from men."
"They must have acquired it from the commoners,
then," said Tony. "I've seen little enough among the bons."
Brother Mainoa laughed. "From the commoners.
Surely. Let us say they have learned it from the commoners."
"Those of our faith," said Marjorie with a
frown, "seem to agree that the original sin of humankind was ah ... an
amatory one."
"And the foxen, who have learned of this
doctrine from someone, heaven knows who, wonder if it is not as valid to have
one that was and is gustatory. Let us suppose they have come to me with this
matter. 'Brother Mainoa,' they have said, 'we wish to know if we are guilty of
original sin.'
"Well, I have told them I do not understand the
doctrine of original sin, that it is not a doctrine Sanctity has ever concerned
itself about. 'I know someone who knows, however.' I have told them. 'Father
Sandoval, being an Old Catholic, should know all about it,' and so they want to
discuss the matter."
"Discuss the matter?"
"Well, in a manner of speaking. Let us postulate
that they have found some way to communicate."
Father Sandoval's brow creased and he sat back in his
chair, fingertips of his hands pressed together to make a cage, staring at it
for a time as though it held his thoughts captive. "I would tell
them," he said after a considerable pause, "that their sense of guilt
does not arise from original sin at all. It is not their first parents who have
committed the sin, if it is a sin, but
they themselves."
"Does this make a difference?"
"Oh, yes. A sin that they themselves have
committed, if it is a sin, can be remedied by their own penitence and forgiven
by God. If they are penitent. If they believe in God."
If God believes in them, amended Marjorie, silently.
If God did not know the names of his human viruses, would he care about foxen?
Brother Mainoa shifted the utensils before him,
frowning in concentration. "But suppose it had been a sin of their..
.their ancestors."
"It is not simply a matter of who committed the
sin, whether the creatures themselves or their ancestors or their associates
with or without their connivance or acquiescence. We would have to ask how God
sees it. In order to have been the equivalent of original sin, then it would be
necessary to determine whether the foxen had ever existed in a state of divine
grace. Was there a time when they were sinless? Did they fall from grace as our
religion teaches us that our first parents fell?"
Brother Mainoa nodded. "Let us suppose they did
not. Let us suppose things have always been this way, so far back as anyone can
remember."
"No legend of a former time. No scripture?"
"None."
Father Sandoval grimaced, drawing his upper lip back
and ticking his thumbnail against his teeth. "Then it is possible that
there is no sin."
"Not even if, in this latter day, these
reasoning beings are beset by conscience over something they have always
done?"
Father Sandoval shrugged and smiled, raising his
hands as though to heaven. "Brother, let us suppose that we think they may
be guilty of original sin. First we must establish whether their salvation is
possible—that is, whether any divine mechanism exists to remove their sense of
sin by forgiving them. They cannot be truly penitent for something they did not
do, and therefore penitence is useless to them. They must rely upon a
supernatural force to redeem them from a sin committed long ago or by someone
else. Among Old Catholics, that redemption was offered by our Savior. We are
granted immortality through Him. Among you Sanctified, redemption is offered
by your organization. You are granted immortality through it."
"The Sanctified believe in the same
Savior," Brother Mainoa remarked. "They once called themselves His
saints."
"Well, perhaps. If so, it is no longer any
significant part of Sanctity's belief, but I will not argue that point with
you. This is no time to discuss the types of immortality and what our
expectations may be. My church teaches that those pious men and women who lived
prior to the human life and sacrifice of the Savior were redeemed by that
sacrifice despite the fact that they lived and died long before it was made.
So, I suppose, might these foxen have been saved by that same sacrifice despite
the fact that they lived and died in another world. I would not say, here and
now, that this is impossible. However, it is a question for the full authority
of the church to decide. No mere priest should attempt to answer such a
question."
"Ah." Brother Mainoa grinned widely,
shaking his head to indicate amazed amusement. "It is an interesting
point, is it not. It is with such conjecture I while away the time while I am
digging and cataloguing."
Seeing the slightly angry expression on Father
Sandoval's face, Marjorie turned to the younger Brother in an effort to change
the direction of their conversation. "And you, Brother Lourai. Do you also
consider such philosophical and ethical points?"
Rillibee Chime looked up from his salad, peering
deeply into Father Sandoval's eyes, seeming to see more there than the old
priest was comfortable with.
"No," he said. "My people sinned
against no one, and I have never had any chance to be guilty. I think of other
things. I think of trees. I remember my parents and how they died. I think of
the name they gave me. I wonder why I am here."
"Is that all?" She smiled.
"No," he replied, surprising both her and himself.
"I wonder what your daughter's name means, and whether I will see her
again."
"Well," said Mainoa, lifting his brows and
patting his younger colleague on the arm. "He's young yet. I thought of
such things too, long ago."
A brooding silence fell. Marjorie persisted in moving
the conversation away from these troublesome areas. "Brother Mainoa, do
you know of an animal here on Grass which looks something like a bat?" She
described the creature she had seen in the caverns, dwelling upon its most
noteworthy feature, the fringing teeth.
"Not only know it," the friar answered,
"but been bitten by it. Most people have, at least once. It's a
bloodsucker. It comes out of the dusk and hits you right here—" he clamped
a work-roughened hand on the back of his neck, just at the base of his skull,
"and tries to sink those teeth into you. Since our headbones get in the
way, they don't do much damage to humans. Evidently the Grassian animals have a
notch in the skull right there. Miserable-looking things, aren't they?"
Marjorie nodded.
"Where did you see them?"
She explained, telling the story of the cavern once
more. Rillibee and Father James were interested, even though Brother Mainoa was
quite unsurprised.
"Then you undoubtedly saw dead ones, also. Their
bodies lie around the Hippae caverns like leaves on a forest floor in a Terran
fall. I do know about them. I'm among the few who've sneaked up on a cavern and
gotten away afterward." He gave her a look which told her that he guessed
more of her reasons for going into the grasses than she wanted him to.
"Gotten away?" she repeated faintly.
"I would say it's a rare thing to get away, Lady
Westriding. If you'd been smelled or spotted, they'd have had you." He had
fallen into his colloquial, avuncular manner.
"I was riding. On a horse."
"Still, I find it amazing. Well, if your horse
got you out of there quickly, you may have outrun 'em. Or maybe the wind was
just right and you simply weren't noticed. Or maybe the smell of the horse
confused them just long enough. You took your life between your teeth,
Lady." He gave her a concentrated, percipient look. "I'd suggest you
not do it again. Certainly not during the lapse."
"I ... I had already decided that." She
cast her eyes down, embarrassed at Tony's scowl of agreement. Could the man
read her mind?
"They don't like to be spied upon?" Tony
asked.
"They won't tolerate it. That's why so little's
known about 'em. That's why so few people that wander off into the grasses ever
come home. I can tell you, though. Hippae lay eggs sometime during the winter
or early spring. I've seen the eggs in the backs of caverns in late spring and
I know they weren't there in the fall. When the sun gets enough warmth in it,
the migerers move the eggs into the sun and shift 'em around until the heat
hatches 'em. About the same time, some of the peepers and some of the hounds,
those that are grown enough, come back to the caverns and change themselves
into something new. The Hippae guard 'em while they're doing it. That's why the
lapse."
"The bons don't know," Marjorie said, a
statement rather than a question.
"Right, they don't know. Don't know, won't be
told, don't want to hear. Taboo for 'em."
"I do have something you may not know," she
said, getting up to fetch the trip recorder and punching up the pattern she had
walked over in the cavern. "I have been told that the thunderous noise we
sometimes hear is Hippae, dancing. Well, this seems to be what the dancing
produces."
Brother Mainoa stared at it, at first in confusion,
then in disbelief.
Marjorie smiled. Good. For all his knowing looks, he
wasn't omniscient, then.
It was Rillibee who said, almost casually, "It
looks like the words in the Arbai books, doesn't it, Brother?"
"The spherical peepers!" Marjorie
exclaimed, remembering suddenly where she had seen the rotund peepers and
heraldric hounds, carved on the housefronts of the Arbai city. The twining
design did look like the words in the Arbai books—or like the vines carved on
the housefronts. She mentioned this, occasioning a deep and thoughtful silence
from everyone.
Though the conversation later turned to other things,
including whether there was or was not unexplained death upon Grass (for
Marjorie and Tony remained aware of their duty) the pattern on Marjorie's
recorder was in all their minds. Brother Mainoa, particularly, wanted very
much to show it to a friend—so he said as he departed—and Marjorie let him
borrow the recorder, believing he meant some friend among the Green Brothers.
It was only after he was gone that she began to
wonder how it was that Brother Mainoa had seen the caverns of the Hippae and
had escaped to tell them about it.
When Rigo left for the Hunt on the following day, the
last Hunt to be held at Klive, Stella, who had been thinking much of Sylvan,
demanded to go with him.
"You said you wouldn't risk the children,"
Marjorie reminded him. "Rigo, you promised." She would not cry. She
would not shout. She would merely remind him. Still, the tears hung unshed in
her eyes.
He had forgotten he had wanted tears, and tears over
the children would never have satisfied him in any case. "I wouldn't
have," he explained in his most reasonable voice. "I would never have
ordered any of you to ride. But she wants to. That's a different matter."
"She could die, Rigo."
"Any of us could die," he said calmly,
gesturing to convey a hostile universe which plotted death against them all.
"But Stella won't.
According to Stavenger bon Damfels, she rode
brilliantly." He said the word as though it had been an accolade.
"Stavenger urged me to bring her again."
"Stavenger," Marjorie said quietly, the
name seething on her tongue. "The man who beat Rowena half to death and
attempted to starve her. The man who hasn't figured out yet that she is gone.
That Stavenger. Why would you risk Stella's life on Stavenger's say-so?"
"Oh, Mother," Stella said in a voice very
much like her father's in its obdurate reasonableness. "Stop it! I'm
going, and that's that."
Marjorie stood on the terrace steps and watched them
go, staring into the sky until the car became merely a dot and vanished. As she
was about to go in, Persun Pollut came up behind her. "Lady ..."
"Yes, Persun."
"You have had a message on the tell-me. Sylvan
bon Damfels asks if you will be attending the Hunt, I told him you would not.
He says he wishes to visit you here, this afternoon."
"He may have word of Rowena," Marjorie said
sadly, still staring at the empty sky where they had gone. "Bring him to
my study when he arrives."
When he came, he did have some word of Rowena. As
Marjorie commiserated and exclaimed, he told her that the wounds to Rowena's
flesh were healing. The wounds to her mind were more troublesome. Finding
Dimity had become an obsession with her. She could not admit that the girl was
gone forever, or if not, that finding her might be more heartbreaking than
considering her dead.
None of which was what Sylvan had really come to say.
He soon left the subject of Rowena and Dimity, which he found painful, and
began to talk of something else. It had been so long since Marjorie had been
the object of anyone's overt romantic intentions that he had managed to get out
most of what he had planned to say, however allusively and poetically, before
she realized the tenor of his words.
"Sylvan," she begged, suddenly terrified.
"Don't."
"I must," he whispered. "I love you.
I've loved you since the moment I saw you. The moment I first took you into my
arms on the dance floor. You must have known. You must have felt—"
She shook her head, forbidding him to say anything
more. "If you say anything else, Sylvan, I will have to forbid you this
house. I am not free to listen to you. I have a family."
"So? What difference does that make?"
"To you, none perhaps. To me, all the
difference."
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"Is it your religion? Those priest persons you
have with you? Do they guard you for Rigo?"
"Father Sandoval? Father James? Of course not,
Sylvan. They help me guard myself!" She turned away from him. exasperated.
"How can I explain to you? You have none of the same ideas. And you are so
young. It would be a sin!"
"Because I am young?"
"No. Not for that reason. But because I am
married to someone else, it would be a sin."
He looked puzzled. "Not on Grass."
"Have you no sacrament of marriage upon
Grass?"
He shrugged. "It is not marriages the bons need
but children. Proper children, of course, though the fiction will often do as
well as the fact. There's many a bon with commoner blood, though the Obermuns
would deny it. Well, look at it yourself! Why should Rowena have a lonely bed
all spring and all fall while Stavenger hunts, or recovers from hunting, or
sweats thinking of hunting again? I have no doubt Shevlok is Stavenger's son,
but I have some doubts about myself."
"Have you no sins upon Grass? Nothing that you
feel is wrong to do?"
He stared at her, as though trying to see past her
surface to the mystery she confronted him with. "It would be wrong to kill
another bon, I suppose. Or to force a woman if she weren't willing, or hurt a
child. Or to take something from some other estancia. But no one would see it
as wrong for us to be lovers."
She regarded him almost with fear. His eyes glowed
with fervor, his hands reached out to her. Her fleeting desire to take those
hands filled her with panic. So she had once longed to take Rigo's hands. How
could she convince someone who had so little in common with her when her own
self was conspiring against her? "You say you love me, Sylvan."
"I do."
"And by this you mean more, I presume, than mere
lust. You are not telling me only that you want my body." She flushed,
saying this, a thing she had never said, not even to Rigo. It was only possible
to say it if she walked away from him, to the window where she stood looking
out.
"Of course not," he blurted, stung.
She spoke to the garden. "Then, if you love me, you will say nothing further about it. You must accept what I tell you. I am married to Rigo It does not matter if that marriage is happy or unhappy. It doesn't matter that you and I might be happier together than either of us might be with others. None of that matters, and you must not speak of it! My marriage is a fact in my religion, and that fact can't be changed. I will be your friend. I cannot be your lover. If you want religious explanations, ask Father Sandoval to explain it If I were even to converse with you about it, it would be an occasion of sin."
"What can I do?" he begged. "What can
I do?"
"Nothing. Go home. Forget you came here. Forget
you said anything, as I will try to do."
He rose, unwillingly, reluctantly, far more stirred
to passion by her refusal than he would have been by her consent. He could not
let her go. "I will be your friend," he cried. "And you must be
mine. This business of the plague, we must not forget that. You need me to help
you with that!"
She turned back to him, her arms crossed protectively
across her breasts. "Yes, we need you, Sylvan. If you will. But not if you
talk about this other thing." Her throat was dry. She longed to comfort
him, he seemed so distraught, but she did not dare touch him or even smile at
him.
"Very well, then. I will not talk about this
other thing." He made a wide, two-handed gesture, as though casting
everything away, though he gave up nothing. If talking of love was not the way
to Marjorie's affection, he would try to find some other way. He would not give
up courting her. He did not understand Marjorie's religion, but he would learn
about it. Obviously it tolerated many things it did not allow. Otherwise that
proud, harsh man, her husband, would not be able to keep his mistress almost
upon his wife's doorstep!
He stayed, for a time, sitting a good distance from
her, discussing the things she needed to know. He promised to do everything he
could to find out whether there was any unusual disease upon Grass. He let
nothing happen to disturb her again, controlling their conversation with a
courtly charm, seeing her gradually relax, lower her defenses, become the woman
he had danced with. When he left her, he felt his eyes grow wet, wondering what
she thought of him, amazed that it mattered to him that much. He was no
youngster to worry what a woman thought! And yet ... and yet he did.
She, looking after him, was more stirred than she had
been in years, wishing with all her heart that he had never come, that he had
never spoken, or that she had met him before she had met Roderigo Yrarier.
It was an evil thought. She went to the chapel and
prayed. Over the years, prayer had comforted her. It did not do so now, though
she knelt for most of an hour, seeking peace. The light over the altar glowed
red Once she had thought of it as a holy eye, seeing her, but she did not think
it saw her now. She had been God's child once. Now she was only a thinking
virus, a thing beset by longings with no appeasement allowed. "How long
has it been since I laughed at something?" she asked herself. "How
long since we have had any fun at all, as a family?" She could remember
both, and it had been long, too long ago, when Stella was still a child, before
Rigo had Eugenie.
She went outside. The afternoon had grown chill. From
the northeast came the muted roar of an aircar. She hurried toward the
graveled court where it would land, stood there shivering and looking up. She
needed Rigo, needed Stella, needed family, needed to belong to someone, be held
by someone. She would make them offer her something, make them show some
affection. She would beg it, demand it!
The car came slowly closer, from a speck to a ball,
from a ball to an ornament, one of the ornaments her family had used to hang
upon trees at Christmas time, bulging with rococo extravagance.
It landed. The door opened and the servant who had
piloted it got out and went away, without looking at her. Rigo came out, facing
the car, turning slowly until he saw her, He did not move then, just stood
there, his face still and empty. There was an endless moment during which nothing
moved at all, a moment in which a first dreadful suspicion hardened into
certainty,
"Stella!" she cried, her voice shrilling
into the wind.
Rigo made a hopeless gesture but said nothing. He did
not move toward her. She knew he was too ashamed to do so, that he knew there
was nothing he could ever say which would help at all.
"Brother Mainoa," she insisted, pounding
her fist on the kitchen table where she found Father James and her son having
an evening snack together. "Brother Mainoa knows something! He's been out
in the grass. He's seen. Things. If the Hippae have taken Stella, he's the only
one who can possibly help us."
"Where is your husband?" the priest asked.
"Marjorie, where is Uncle Rigo?"
"I don't know," she said, turning wild eyes
upon him. "He came into the house."
"What exactly did he say?"
"That she was gone. Vanished. She never
returned. Like Janetta. Like the bon Damfels girl. Gone." She gulped for
air, as though she could not possibly get enough into her lungs. "He won't
be any use. He's like them. Like Stavenger and like the Obermun bon Haunser.
I've been thinking who to ask. Not any of the bons. They don't do anything
about it when their own children get carried off; they wouldn't do anything for
mine. Not anyone from Commons. They don't know anything about it. Not
villagers. They're frightened to death of the grass. I wish you could have seen
Sebastian Mechanic's face when he was telling me about the thundering in the
night. But someone told him! Who do you suppose? I asked. He says Brother
Mainoa. It always comes back to Brother Mainoa!"
"Do you want to go there now, Marjorie?"
"Now. Yes."
"Have you checked to be sure he's there?"
"No." She sobbed helplessly. "He has
to be there."
The priest nodded at Tony, then toward the tell-me
link in the corner of the kitchen, before rising to fold Marjorie in his arms.
He was no taller than she, and slighter, but he gave her enough support that he
could urge her into a chair and make her sit there until she grew quieter. Tony
muttered in the corner once, then again before snapping off the link and
turning back to them.
"He's there. Him and the other one, I told him
what happened. He says he'd come to you but he doesn't have a car. You can come
to him, or I'll go get him and bring him here."
"I'll go." She jumped up, staring wildly
around herself. "I was wicked, Father James. I resented her. God has taken
her away because of—"
"Marjorie!" he shouted, shaking her.
"Stop that! Is God so unjust that he would punish your daughter because of
something you did? You won't help Stella by having fits of guilt. Stop
it."
She gulped again, visibly taking hold of herself.
"Yes. Oh, yes, of course. I'm sorry. You're right. Tony, grab whatever
food you can put together in five minutes. You and Father James will be hungry.
I must get my coat."
She ran out and they heard her footsteps clattering
along the hallway, stumbling at first, then slowing into a firm, rapid walk as
she took better control of herself. She returned in moments and did not break
down again during the flight.
In the Arbai city, Brother Lourai took them to the
home he and Mainoa occupied, one of the excavated houses made weathertight,
with a stove in one corner and a few pieces of furniture that fit human bodies.
Brother Lourai conducted them there through a downpour of rain, and Brother
Mainoa refused to let Marjorie talk until she had shed her wet cloak and was
settled with a steaming cup before her. Then, unable to contain herself a
moment longer, she poured out the story of Stella's disappearance.
"Why did you come to me?" he asked.
"You know why," she answered, like a
challenge. "You may have fooled everyone else with that business about
theoretical discussions and postulating what the foxen think, but I think that
was real, at least partly. I think you know things the rest of us don't know.
About the Hippae, maybe. About the foxen. About what goes on out there in the
grasses."
"You want to find your daughter."
"Of course I want to find my daughter."
"Even if she is like the other girl. Janetta bon
Maukerden. Even if your daughter is like that?"
"Damn it," Tony interjected angrily.
"Did you have to bring that up?"
Brother Mainoa gave him a long, measuring look.
"Of course I did, young man. I don't know where your sister is. I know the
Hippae took her. I wasn't at your reception, but I've heard about Janetta bon
Maukerden showing up. I've talked with Jandra Jellico on the tell-me. I've
heard what happens when the Hippae take young women, and you've seen it for
yourself. Before we all risk our lives on something hideously dangerous, it's
best to know that we really want to, wouldn't you say?"
"Hush, Tony," said Father James to the
angry boy. "The man is right."
Rillibee/Lourai got up from his place by the wall and
refilled their teacups. "They had Janetta for a long time. They've only
had Stella since today." He sounded more concerned than Marjorie had expected,
in the light of Brother Mainoa's comments.
Brother Mainoa nodded. "My colleague is right.
There is hope that if we find Stella—assuming that is soon—she might not be ...
very different than she was when she vanished."
"It wouldn't matter," Father James said
tiredly. "Even if we knew she would be like that other girl, if we have
any chance of success we must still try to find her. Not if it means certain
destruction, however. I will not allow that, Marjorie, so set the idea aside.
We must have some hope of succeeding."
"You've been out there, haven't you?"
Marjorie demanded of Brother Mainoa once more. "You've seen things and the
Hippae haven't killed you."
"I had protection," Brother Mainoa said.
"Protection to go alone into the grass and look at things. I have no idea
whether we can obtain protection to go into the grasses and look for someone.
It might be better to let me try it alone."
She shook her head. No. Not alone. She herself had to
go. "Now, at once!"
"No. Not at once," he cut her off.
"Soon, but not at once. Since we returned from Opal Hill, Brother Lourai
and I have been trying to make sense of that design you showed us. Many volumes
of Arbai books have already been filed with the tell-me computers at Commons.
They have a link with the network on Semling. Brother Lourai and I have been
feeding in the designs carved on the doors and the houses. Within hours we may
have some … some indication that there are correlations."
"Is that more important than Stella's
life?" Marjorie was incredulous.
"It could be the key to Stella's life," he
said patiently. "If the design in the Hippae cavern has meaning, if it
seems they comprehend that meaning, perhaps it gives us a way to reach them.
Wait here. It may be only an hour or two."
It was less than an hour before the report came,
peeping out of the tell-me into a portable link-reader that Brother Lourai had
ready. When all the information had been recorded, Brother Mainoa pocketed the
device and got hurriedly to his feet, summoning the others with a gesture.
"I've skimmed over it. We won't take time to study it now. Remember that
we can see nothing helpful from the air. We must go on foot. And we must start
from where Stella started. The bon Damfels estancia." He turned toward the
door, leaving his other papers on the table behind him.
"Not on foot," Marjorie contradicted him as
she put her still-damp cloak around her. "No, Brother Mainoa. We can do
better than that. We'll go on horseback."
Rigo had gone first into the house for a drink. After
a few glasses of the excellent brandy Roald Few had provided, Rigo had gone to
look for his family, not finding Marjorie or Tony or even Father James when he
went down to the priests' house. Father Sandoval told him they had gone.
'To the Arbai dig, I think I heard Father James say.
Marjorie thinks there may be some help there."
"Help for what?" Rigo snarled, angered that
he had not been asked to go along.
"To find Stella," the old priest said.
"For what other reason?"
"Does she think I have no interest in
that?" Rigo demanded. "Doesn't she think I care?"
Father Sandoval struggled to find something that
would calm Rigo's anger. "I haven't talked to Marjorie, Rigo. I know only
what Father James told me."
Rigo snarled again wordlessly and left the old priest
while he, Rigo, wandered aimlessly in the garden, cursing to himself. When his
feet brought him to Eugenie's house, he went in, telling himself he would stay
only for a short time. He wanted to be in his own room when Marjorie returned.
Still, Marjorie had gone some distance, so there was no hurry. He began to
unburden himself to Eugenie, telling her many things to which she murmured
sympathetically without paying any attention at all.
She poured him another drink, and then several more.
Rigo grew at first angrier, then sad and maudlin. He wept, and she comforted
him. They found their way into the summer bedroom. Neither of them heard the
aircar return in the middle hours of the night.
Father James, who had done some show riding in his
youth, saddled Millefiori, the most spirited of the mares, while Marjorie, who
had already saddled Don Quixote for herself and El Dia Octavo for Tony, urged
Brothers Mainoa and Lourai to help her with Her Majesty and Blue Star. These
two were graceful and elegant mares with habits of calm good sense.
"You'll ride these two, Brothers. All you need to do is sit on top and
relax. The horses will do the rest."
Brothers Mainoa and Lourai looked at one another in
embarrassed surmise. Rillibee had ridden something a few times in his
childhood, ridden at a slow walk, with someone leading the horse or donkey or
whatever it had been. Brother Mainoa could not remember ever having touched a
riding animal of any kind before. Marjorie had no time to reassure them. She
was busy at the top of a short stepladder, putting a saddle on the great draft
horse, Irish Lass.
"Who's going to ride that?" Rillibee/Lourai
asked.
"Irish Lass will carry most of our supplies. And
Stella can ride her, when we find Stella."
When we find her, Father James thought quietly to
himself. If. If we find her. He had not gone back to the house he shared with
Father Sandoval. He had not told the older priest he was going on this wild
venture. It would be easier to ask forgiveness later than to seek permission
now, permission which he would not receive.
"I have to go out into the grass for a while
before we leave," Brother Mainoa said. "Something I need to do if we
want to get where we're going."
Marjorie stared at him, eager to be off and yet aware
of what dangers lay out there. "Is it necessary?"
"If we're going to get to bon Damfels in one
piece, yes." She gestured, biting her lip. "Hurry. If you can."
Then she stood looking after him into the darkness, wondering what he was up
to.
Tony came into the stables with a pile of things
which he set down on the floor, announcing, "These have to be sorted out.
There's food and some equipment. I have to make another trip/'
"Father James?" Marjorie indicated the
pile. "Is there anything that we need that Tony hasn't found?" She
leaned wearily against the flank of the huge horse, asking Tony, "Did you
tell your father where we're going?"
"I didn't find Father," Tony reported.
"I went through the house."
"Leave him a message on the tell-me,"
Marjorie said, relieved that Rigo was not shouting at them, telling them they
could not go. He was probably with Eugenie, but it wouldn't be appropriate for
Tony to seek him there. "Leave him a note, Tony. Tell him we've gone
looking for Stella, that we've taken the horses."
"I did," the boy replied. "I already
did that."
"Water bottles," said the priest.
"First aid supplies."
"I'll get them."
The boy turned and left, the priest following him,
calling, "Dry clothes in something waterproof."
"Do you have everything you need?" Marjorie
asked Brother Lourai.
He shrugged, elaborately, as though to ask who knew
what was needed. "We each brought a change of clothes and boots. Brother
Mainoa raided our dry stores to bring what food he could. We could use
something to cook in or heat water in."
"There." She pointed at a miniature cooker
in the pile. "And over there are the saddlebags. Before we came to Grass,
Rigo and I thought we might be taking extended rides. We brought camping gear,
as we would have done for endurance rides at home."
"Home. Where was your home?"
"Lesser Britain. And then, later, Old Spain.
After Rigo and I were married."
"Old Spain?" Rillibee asked.
"The southwestern province of Western
Europe."
"Are there many Old Catholics there?"
"Many. More than anywhere else. Sanctity has not
had good luck with converts in Spain."
"Where I lived, only a long time before, there
were Old Catholics."
"Where was that?"
"In New Spain, the Middle American Provinces,
Joshua, my father, said our province was once called Mexico."
"Your father was Old Catholic? But you are one
of the Sanctified."
He shook his head no. "I am whatever Joshua was.
But I don't know what he was. He wasn't Old Catholic, I know that." He
leaned against the horse she had told him to ride, imitating her stance,
stroking the animal as she did hers, feeling the stiff, glossy hair slide
beneath his fingers. "He loved trees. Miriam loved trees, too." Tears
came and he blinked them away. He had seen no trees on this place, except for
the small copse near the dig. There had been no trees at Sanctity. Sometimes he
thought if he could only see trees, then he would not feel so alone.
Tony and Father James returned with more supplies.
Brother Mainoa, looking pensive, came in to help them sort the supplies into
the saddlebags, including the two hamper-sized containers that Irish Lass was
to carry. When they were done, they stood looking at one another as though
reluctant to take the next, inevitable step. It was Brother Mainoa who broke
the silence.
"I'll lead if I may, Lady Westriding. For a
little while. After that, it shouldn't be necessary. If you'll tell me how to
steer?"
Marjorie explained the use of reins and legs and rode
out beside him to make sure he understood. Within moments they had left the
garden trail and were pushing through tall grass, each barely able to see the
nearest rider. Then, almost before they had had a chance to be annoyed by the
lash of the thick growth, they came through the tough stems into lower grass
and turned purposefully toward the northeast. They rode silently except for
Brother Mainoa's occasional querulous, "Tell me again what I do to get
farther right?" And then, after he had been told two or three times, he
did not ask again. They rode for some time in silence except for the soft plop
of hooves and the rustle of the grass.
Marjorie, riding alongside Brother Mainoa, thought
she heard him speak and leaned closer to whisper, "What was that.
Brother?" She heard the same sound again. A snore. He was riding asleep
while Blue Star went placidly along the sides of starlit hills and down winding
shadowed vales as though she were on her way home, her ears forward as if
hearing someone there calling her name.
Rigo woke with gritty eyes and a sour taste in his
mouth. For a moment he did not remember where he was; then, seeing the flash of
a flick bird across the tall windows and hearing a grass peeper call repeatedly
from the grass garden, he remembered Grass. It was the soft, rose-colored curtains
blowing in the morning wind that told him he was in Eugenie's room rather than
in his own bedroom adjoining Marjorie's. The bed beside him was empty.
Eugenie came in like the head of a small tray-bearing
comet, billowing hair and silken draperies in a turbulent tail behind her.
"The girl doesn't get here until later, Rigo, so I made you coffee my own
self." She plumped his pillow, sat beside him on the bed, and leaned
prettily forward to pour. The cups were pink, curved like the petals of a
flower. The cream was steaming.
"Where did you get cream?" he asked.
"I haven't had cream since we've been here."
"Never you mind." She pouted, flushing with
pleasure at his pleasure. "I have my ways."
"No, really, Eugenie. Where did you get
it?"
"Sebastian brings it to me. His wife has a
cow."
"He never said a word to me about—"
"You didn't ask, that's all." She stirred
his cup and handed it to him.
"You flirted with him."
She didn't deny it, merely smiled through her lashes
at him. sipping at her own cup.
He started to say something about flirting, about
Stella's flirting, and the memory came back. The cup dropped from his hand and
rolled across the thick carpet and he struggled to get out of the clinging
sheets.
"Rigo!" It was a protest.
"I forgot about Stella," he cried. "I
forgot!"
"You didn't forget," she told him.
"You told me, last night."
"Oh, damn you, Eugenie. That's not what I
meant." He went away from her into the bathroom. She heard water running
as she sat staring into her cup, not drinking anymore. If he only hadn't remembered.
For a little while.
He went straight to the kitchen, then to Marjorie's
room, and then Tony's. Only after finding all three places empty did he think
of the tell-me. There he found a message, brief but complete: Tony and his
mother had gone. They had taken the horses. They had gone to find Stella. Rigo
howled, half in anger, half in pain, making the crystal ornaments complain in
icy voices. Where would Marjorie have gone? Tony hadn't said, but there was
only one logical starting point for a search. Bon Damfels' place.
He flushed, remembering how he had left bon Damfels'
place the day before, begging, pleading with them to help him find his
daughter, while Stavenger, at first frostily cold and then heated with anger,
had accused him of undisciplined, un-Huntly behavior; while Stavenger and
Dimoth and Gustave told him to go home and mourn Stella in private and quit
shouting about her; while bon Haunser and bon Damfels aunts and cousins pointed
derisive fingers at him. Despite all that, the people of Klive were not at a
Hunt today, and he would return to Klive.
In the garage, he found both aircars partially
disassembled, with Sebastian hovering over a case of new parts.
"What in the name of God ... ?"
"Your driver said the stabilizer was
malfunctioning yesterday," Sebastian said, startled. "We've had
trouble with both of them, and since there is no Hunt today..."
Rigo bit back a roar of outrage. "Is there any
other vehicle here? Or in the village?"
"No, sir. I can have this one reassembled in an
hour or two. If you must travel before then, perhaps someone from Commons
..."
Persun Pollut called his father, but Hime Pollut was
out of his shop. No one knew when he would return. Roald Few was not available.
Three other persons who Persun called were at the port—a long-awaited shipment
had come in. Persun made exaggerated swoops with his eyebrows, indicating
annoyance.
As for Rigo, while hours passed, he seethed, barely
able to contain his frustration at Marjorie's passing slowly, slowly away to
someplace where he might never find her.
13
When Marjorie and the others arrived at Klive,
Marjorie rode directly to the Kennel Gate. It was the closest place she knew to
the first surface, one of the two familiar approaches to the mansion. Above the
first surface was the terrace, and fronting on the terrace were the reception
rooms. She was halfway across the terrace before someone saw her and moved
swiftly to intercept her. Sylvan.
"Marjorie!" His voice was a muffled shout
of dismay. "What are you doing here?"
"I've come to find out what I can about
Stella." She confronted him, arms folded, half angry, half pleading.
He took her arm, pulled her away from the windows.
"You Yrariers do believe in courting danger. For the love of whatever you
hold dear, Marjorie, come away from the doors. Let's go down into the
garden." He turned away, still pulling at her, and she followed him,
somewhat unwillingly and too late. The stentorian bellow startled them both.
Stavenger had come out the doors and stood towering at the top of the steps,
face purple with fury.
"What are you doing here? Fragras! I'm speaking
to you!"
His fists were clenched as though he intended to strike her. Her own frustration and fury rose to meet his, all in a moment. She drew herself up, one hand forward, the index finger pointing him out.
"You," she screamed. "You unholy
monster!" Her voice hung on the air like a smell.
He shuddered and drew back, more surprised by her
attack than he would have been by any other tactic. He was not accustomed to
either defiance or reproach, and he had been so far from sensible thought that
it took him time to puzzle out that he had intended to attack her.
"You despoiler of children!" she cried.
"You barbarian! Where was it you saw my daughter last?" She moved up
toward him, waving the finger as though it had a cutting edge, like a sword.
"I never saw her," he snarled. "I
didn't look."
"How can a Master not observe his Hunt?"
she cried. "Are you so enslaved to your mounts that you're
insensible?"
His face became even darker, his neck swelled, his
eyes bulged as he howled inarticulately and came toward her like a juggernaut.
Sylvan caught her from behind and dragged her away.
"Move!" he hissed at her, a long,
frightened exhalation. "He'll kill you if he gets the chance!"
He pulled her down the steps, away down the Hounds'
Way and through the Kennel Gate, then shut the heavy gate behind her. Through
it she could still hear Stavenger's wordless bellows of fury.
Sylvan leaned against the gate, his face pale.
"I knew you'd want to know. I found out for you. I asked Shevlok and some
of the others. They don't notice much during a Hunt, quite frankly, but it was
Darenfeld's Coppice, the same as Dimity, the same as Janetta. That's the last
place anyone saw her."
"Show me!" she demanded, leaping up into
Don Quixote's saddle. "Now!"
"Marjorie—"
"Now! You can ride Irish Lass. She's smaller
than those monstrosities you're used to riding." Then, seeing him looking
vacantly at the big horse, "Put your left foot in the stirrup, that metal
thing there. Grasp the saddle and pull yourself up; she's not going to put her
leg out for you. Now, take the reins, as I have mine. Don't bother doing
anything with them. She'll follow us. Now, show me where!"
He gestured off to the left and they all rode in that
direction, gaining only a little distance before they heard the gate bang open
and looked back to see Stavenger howling after them. The riders looked
resolutely forward as they entered the taller grasses which soon hid them from
view.
Sylvan sat very quietly on the horse, occasionally
reaching forward with his feet as though to find the toe spaces he was
accustomed to on his Hippae mounts.
"Sit up," Marjorie instructed him tersely.
"She has no barbs to skewer you with. Lean forward. Pet her. She likes
it." He did so, slowly, almost fearfully, relaxing gradually.
"A different kind of beast, eh?" queried
Brother Mainoa. "Though I am very sore from this unaccustomed position, I
am not afraid."
"No," Sylvan agreed abstractedly. "No.
But then, one really isn't afraid while on the Hunt, either." He stared
around himself, as though seeking landmarks. "There." He pointed
ahead of them, a little to the right. "That's the Ocean Garden. Normally
we'd ride on the other side, but we can get where we're going around this
way." He gestured, showing Marjorie the way, and she rode ahead, letting
him call directions to her as they went.
"Why was your father in a rage?" Tony
asked. "Because of your father. When they returned last night, from the
Hunt, Roderigo demanded that they help him search for your sister. It isn't
done. When someone vanishes, everyone pretends not to notice. No one searches.
No one demands help from others. Father —my father—couldn't keep his temper.
He's been wild, ever since yesterday. Seeing you set him off, and then when
your mother accused him ..." Sylvan's eyes opened widely, and he stroked
his throat. "How can I ...?"
"No Hippae around," murmured Brother
Mainoa. "Not just now. I think our... well, our guides have frightened
them off. Or perhaps they have gone for reinforcements."
"Guides?"
"Do not speak of it. Perhaps we will, in time,
but now is not the time. We do not want to think cheese with hunger all around
us."
Sylvan went back to massaging his throat and staring
incredulously about himself .Only after they had gone some miles through the
grasses did he settle down, though he still managed to disconcert Marjorie from
time to time by standing upright on Irish Lass's back. "I have to get up
here to see," he explained, waving toward a distance the others could not
perceive. "There, off there, is the ridge that leads to the copse."
They turned in the indicated direction and moved on,
gaining a lower limb of the ridge and following it as it wound its lengthy way
onto the height. From there they could look down into a valley dotted with
copses. Sylvan pointed to the largest of them "Darenfeld's," he said.
"Why Darenfeld?" asked Rillibee/Lourai.
"There are no bons by that name."
"There were," Sylvan replied. "There
were eleven families originally. The Darenfeld estancia and all the family
perished in a grass fire several generations ago. Others had been burned out
before,"
"A grass fire?" Marjorie wondered.
"We've seen no fires since we've been here."
"You haven't been here in summer." He gazed
out toward the horizon. "There is almost no rain in the summer, but there
is lightning. The fires come like great waves, eating the grass, sending smoke
boiling up into the clouds. Sometimes there are fires in the spring, but they
are small ones because the grass is still fresh and full of moisture—"
"And a summer fire burned the Darenfeld
estancia?"
"It was before they had grass gardens,"
Brother Mainoa remarked. "We at the Friary have designed the gardens to
stop the flames. There are areas and aisles of low turfs which smolder but do
not burn. They break the fire so that it goes around rather than through. We
have done the same thing at the Friary, to protect it, and at Opal Hill and the
other estancias. The great gardens of Klive were not planted merely for their
beauty."
"True." Sylvan nodded. "None of the
bons would have gone to the trouble merely for beauty."
Marjorie urged Don Quixote toward the copse below
them. It loomed dark and mysterious among the soft-hued grasses, the more so
the closer they came. Small pools sucked at the horses' feet. Great trunks went
up into gloomy shade, gnarled roots kneed up to brace their monstrous bulk,
their lower branches as huge as ordinary trees. Rillibee leaned toward the
copse as though toward a lover.
"Now what?" asked Tony. "The hunt came
here and left here. We should find a path trampled into the grasses where many
Hippae went. Then we should find another, where one Hippae went."
"If it went," said Brother Mainoa.
"Though this is called a copse, it is in fact a small forest. What would
you say, Sylvan? Half a mile or more through?"
Sylvan shook his head. "Estimating distances is
not something we do much of, I'm afraid. On the Hunt, it doesn't matter. We
measure Hunts in hours, not in miles or kilometers or stadia, as they do on
Repentance."
"From the ridge it looked to be half a
mile," Father James agreed. "Enough territory in here to hide any
number of Hippae."
"If we do not find a trail leading out,"
said Marjorie wildly, "then we will search within, among the trees."
She appealed to each of them in turn, seeking agreement. Brother Mainoa sat
very still upon his horse. His expression was alert, as though he heard
something she could not hear. "Brother Mainoa?" she asked.
"Brother?"
His eyebrows went up, and he smiled at her. "Of
course. Of course. Let us first look for a trail,"
The way the Hunt had come was easy to find. The way
the Hunt had gone was equally easy. Crushed grasses testified to the fact that
more than one Hunt had come this way recently. Some stems were completely
dried, others were newly broken and still leaking moisture. Brother Mainoa rode
down this broad trail and then pulled Blue Star to a halt as he pointed off to
the left. All of them could see the narrow trail which wound into the grass.
Father James picked a stem of broken grass and handed it to Marjorie. It was
still moist. "So," she said. "So."
"If a Hippae has her," Tony said in a
carefully emotionless voice, "how are we to get her?"
"Hide," she said. "Wait until it
leaves her alone. Steal her back."
"I wish we had weapons," Father James said.
"So do I," she admitted. "But we
don't."
He shook his head, only slightly. "Let us hope
we find only one of the beasts opposing us."
Rigo boiled the morning away, waiting while Sebastian
reassembled the aircar, a longer process than had been anticipated. The new
parts, though appropriately numbered, were not a precise fit. Sebastian took
them to his own shop in the village, as he put it, "to shave them down a
bit."
By midafternoon the first car had been put together
and tested. Driven by Sebastian, with Persun Pollut along for whatever
assistance he might offer, Rigo set out for Klive. The trip took slightly more
than an hour, across the southern tip of the swamp forest with the clutter of
Commons off to their left. They landed in the gravel court beyond the first
surface and crossed that surface on their way to the terrace of Klive.
"Your Excellency," a little voice cried
from behind the balustrade. "Your Excellency!"
Rigo turned, surprised to see one of the bon Damfels
daughters beckoning to him. He moved toward her, impatiently, wanting to go on
into Klive to see whether Marjorie was there.
"They've gone," the girl said.
"Roderigo Yrarier, your wife and son and the Green Brothers, they've
gone."
"Gone where?" he blurted.
"Where?"
She shook her head, tears suddenly starting down her
cheeks. "You mustn't go up there. Father, the Obermun, is in a rage. He
will kill you. He has half killed Emmy already. Your wife came to ask where
your daughter had been lost. Sylvan told her. He found out from Shevlok, and he
told your wife. Sylvan went with them. Father had been screaming since then.
Emmy tried to calm him and he beat her—"
A bellow from the house above them sent the girl fleeing along the side of the house. Rigo stopped, put one foot on the step before him, and felt himself pulled firmly away. Sebastian had one arm and Persun the other, and they seemed determined to drag him away from Klive, by brute force if necessary.
"Don't go up there, sir. He will not listen to
reason. Listen to him. He sounds like a bull!"
"Listen to Pollut, sir. He will not give you any
help, not now. You must wait. Wait until he is calmer. Wait until you can speak
with someone else."
"At the Hunt," Sebastian suggested.
"Tomorrow. At the bon Laupmon Hunt." They dragged Rigo away, he
resisting them but not protesting, as though some part of him realized the
sense of what they said even though his body was unwilling to agree.
The horses followed the trail in single file, their
riders at first alert for any sound, then gradually, as mile succeeded mile,
growing slack and distracted. Mainoa and Lourai were preoccupied with pain,
aching joints and throbbing buttocks. Marjorie was thinking of Rigo, and Sylvan
of Marjorie. Father James was praying that he had not done the wrong thing, and
Tony was thinking of a girl he had not seen for a very long time. The slap of
the grass blades on their bodies had become hypnotic. Even Marjorie, usually
alert to the nuances of horse behavior, did not notice that the horses were
acting very much as Don Quixote had acted when she had ridden him away from the
Hippae cavern. Ears alertly forward, they moved as though they were headed
home. As though someone spoke to them. The riders did not comment upon this.
With the sun on their backs, they rode, unspeaking, the only noise the sound of
the horses' hooves.
The world spun the sun to the center of the sky and
then downward once more. The light was on their faces. They had stopped once or
twice to drink and relieve themselves, but the trail winding enigmatically
ahead of them had enticed them to keep the stops brief. The first howl came
from behind them, far off to the right.
Marjorie stiffened. She had heard the sound before,
and it meant terror.
"Hippae," said Sylvan in a hopeless voice.
"Do they know we are here?"
"Not yet," said Brother Mainoa.
"How do you know?" Marjorie demanded.
"You came to me for help, Lady Westriding, and
I'm giving you help. How or why isn't something we can talk of yet. I tell you
truthfully that the Hippae do not yet know we are here. They will know,
shortly, but not yet. I would suggest we move more rapidly."
Tony sat up, kneeing El Dia Octavo into a canter. He
rattled away down the narrow trail, the others following. Brothers Mainoa and
Lourai were hanging onto their saddles, grunting with effort. "Push down
with your feet," Marjorie cried. "Sit straight. It's no more
difficult than a rocking chair."
Brother Mainoa pushed down with his feet and
continued to hang on. After a time the rocking motion became predictable and
his body adapted to it. Rillibee/Lourai was quicker. He found the motion exhilarating.
Grass heads slapped him in the face and he grinned widely, seeds in his teeth.
More howls from behind them, to both right and left.
"Do you know where we're going?" Marjorie
demanded over her shoulder.
"Swamp forest," Mainoa said, grunting,
"just ahead."
He had no sooner said it than they came through the
last of the tall grasses to see the forest at a considerable distance ahead and
below them, stretching to the limits of sight in either direction. The trail
they had been following ran toward the forest like an arrow flight, one aimed
at a rocky knob which raised itself above the level of the distant trees. The
bowl of grasses before them came only slightly above the horses' bellies.
"Can the horses run faster?" Mainoa called
plaintively. "If they can, we should."
Don Quixote and El Dia Octavo had made the same
decision or had been informed of it—at the same moment. They waited for no
signal from their riders but sped down the slope, tails streaming behind them,
ears flattened. The mares plunged after them, Irish Lass thundering away at
the rear. For Mainoa it was as though he rode a nightmare. Though he knew he
would fall, he did not. Though he knew he could not stay on, he did. The horse
beneath him seemed determined to keep him in the saddle, and through all his
panic he perceived that fact even as he heard the howls rising from the height
they had just left. He could not risk looking back to see how close the Hippae
were.
Sylvan could. Over the drumming of the hooves he
heard the wild screaming from the ridge. He spun half around on the broad back,
holding tight to one of the vast panniers Irish Lass carried. A dozen enormous
beasts pranced upon the height. Around their feet a great pack of hounds leapt
and yammered. As though in response to some signal that Sylvan had not seen,
the whole Hunt of them plunged down the slope after the fleeing horses. Not
silently, as when they hunted foxen, but clamoring as with one shrill
ear-shattering voice.
He turned. The other horses were ahead of him, far
ahead of him. This great beast was not as fleet as the others. He lay forward
on her neck and whispered to her. "Do the best you can, my lady. I think
otherwise, both you and I will be meat for them." He turned to watch the
pursuit. One huge violet-mottled Hippae led the charge, mouth wide, nostrils
flared. It seemed to stumble in the grass, then again. It fell, eyes rolled
back. A ripple in the grass fled to one side.
Behind the fallen monster the others slowed, prancing
uncertainly. "Go," called Sylvan to his mount. "Go, lady. As
best you can."
Irish Lass heard him and went. The distance between
her and the other horses had grown. She did her best to decrease it, but it
became wider yet.
Again the Hippae howled pursuit. Again the foremost
among them tripped and fell. Again a ripple in the grass fled away, out of
their path.
El Dia Octavo had reached the forest. Don Quixote was
just behind him Millefiori was next Then Blue Star and Her Majesty. The riders
had dismounted and were waiting for Sylvan.
Beside Sylvan a hound ran even with Irish Lass, its
head darting through the grasses, teeth bared to strike at the running legs of
the horse. Beyond the hound the grass quivered and something made of shining
barbs snatched the hound away. Sylvan had not seen what it was, but he heard
the hound screaming. Seemingly, so did the rest of the pack. The sound of their
howling fell farther behind him. The great horse grunted beneath him. Her hide
was wet and sleek. Foam flew from her mouth. "Good Lass," he
whispered. "Good Lass."
And then, at last, he was there among the others. He
turned once more to see the grass behind him alive with ripples. Something was
moving there. Something the Hippae-hound pack was aware of, for it stood away,
circling, screaming defiance but coming no nearer.
Irish Lass stood with her head dragging.
"Ah, Lass, Lass," Marjorie was saying.
"Poor girl. You're not built for it, are you Lass, but so brave! Such a
wonderful girl." She led the mare in a tight circle as she talked.
Gradually, Lass's head came up.
"Where now?" asked Tony. "We don't
dare ride in there." He gestured toward the trees, where water glimmered
among the dark foliage.
"Yes," said Brother Mainoa. "In there.
Following me."
"Have you been in there before?"
"No."
"Well, then ..."
"I haven't been out in the grasses on a horse
before either. But we are here. The immediate threat is past. We were guided.
Protected."
"By?"
"I won't tell you until your knowing can't
endanger us. Those things"—he thrust a hand in the direction of the Hippae—"can
read your thoughts. We have to get into
the forest. The barrier between us and them is more pretense than real. If we
stay here too long, the Hippae may realize that."
Tony looked at his mother, as though for permission.
Father James was already mounting once more. With a sigh, Brother Mainoa heaved
himself up, struggling to get his leg across the horse. Brother Lourai helped
him. Sylvan was still atop Irish Lass.
"Go," Marjorie said.
Blue Star moved into the shallow water, picking her
way among towering trunks and through thickets of reedlike growths. The others
followed. The mare took a winding path, turning abruptly to take new
directions. "Follow her closely," Brother Mainoa called hoarsely.
"She is avoiding dangerous places" So they went, a slow, splashing
game of follow the leader, with Blue Star following who-knew-what.
When they had come into the swamp far enough that
they could no longer see the prairies, Blue Star stopped her twisting path and
led them straight along a shallow channel between two impenetrable walls of
trees. This watery aisle seemed to go on for miles. At last a gap appeared in
the endless line, and the mare struggled up a shallow bank and onto solid
ground. "An island?" Marjorie asked.
"Safety," Brother Mainoa said, sighing and
half sliding, half falling off his horse and lying where he fell. "How?
Safety?"
"The Hippae will not come in here. Nor the
hounds." He spoke from the ground, staring up through the trees to far-off
glimmers of sunlight, like spangles. Like gems. His eyes would not stay open.
"One did," she contradicted. "We saw the trail."
"Only as far as the swamp," he
acknowledged. "And then, I think, perhaps it went along the side...."
His mouth fell open and a little sound came out. A snore.
"He's old." Rillibee said to them
defiantly, as though they had accused the old man of some impropriety. "He
falls asleep like that a lot."
Sylvan had dismounted. "What do I do for
her?" He asked Marjorie as he stroked the mare.
"Rub her down with something," Marjorie
said. "A clump of grass, a fistful of leaves, anything. If we're going to
stay here awhile, take the saddle off."
"We can't go on until he wakes up," said
Tony, indicating the supine form of Brother Mainoa.
"We can't go on until the horses rest a little
anyhow," Marjorie sighed. "They had quite a workout. About a day and
a half a night of steady walking plus a mad run. Don't let her have much
water," she cautioned Sylvan. "Walk her until she's cool, then let
her have water."
"Otherwise what?" Sylvan asked. "Would
it kill her?"
"It could make her sick," Tony answered
him, looking up as Mainoa had done before he fell asleep. Sun spangles, very
high. Something else up there, too. Something high that blocked the sun. Tony
pointed. "What's up there?"
Sylvan turned to look. "Where?"
"Right up in the top of this tree, running over
to that other one ..."
"This island is quite sizable," said Father
James, rejoining the group from among the trees "There's a grassy clearing
through these trees. Enough pasture there for the horses to have a good
feed."
Rillibee/Lourai pulled the saddles from Blue Star and
Her Majesty and stacked them against the root buttresses of a tree. "The
sun is low. It'll be dark before long. Too dark to ride."
"How long will Brother Mainoa sleep?"
Lourai shrugged. "As long as he needs to. He's
been up since the middle of the night, on a horse most of that time. I told
you, he's an old man."
Marjorie nodded. "All right, then. If he rests,
we will all rest. Tony?"
The boy pointed upward. "We were just trying to
figure out—"
"Figure out whether there's any firewood, while
it's still light. Sylvan, please help him. We need enough wood to last all
night. Father, if you'll find the clearest water possible and fill this
bucket—"
"What about me?" Brother Lourai asked.
"You and I will be chief cooks," she said,
burrowing in the capacious baskets Irish Lass had carried. "When we have
eaten we will talk about what we do next."
Tony and Sylvan wandered toward the nearest thicket,
Tony taking out his laser knife. When he used it to cut an armload of dried
brush, Sylvan exclaimed, "What's that?"
Tony gave it to him, explaining.
"Is this something new?" Sylvan asked.
"Of course not. They've been around
forever."
"I've never seen one before," Sylvan
marveled. "I wonder why."
"Probably because they wouldn't let you,"
Tony said. "It would make a handy weapon."
"It would, wouldn't it?" Sylvan said,
turning the device over and over in his hand. He sighed, gave it back to Tony,
and turned his attention to carrying wood. Still, he thought of the knife with
wonder. Why hadn't he known about such things?
Brother Mainoa awoke about the time the food was
ready, quite willing to interrupt his rest to join them for supper When they
had eaten, when the utensils were cleaned and put back in the panniers, they
sat around the fire, waiting.
Marjorie said, "Well, Brother Mainoa. So, we are
here."
He nodded.
"Are we any closer to Stella than when we set
out?"
"The trail led along the swamp-forest," he
said. "Outside it, unfortunately. We could not have stayed there."
"Tomorrow?"
"Perhaps If the Hippae have gone. Tonight we
would be unable to see anything."
She sighed.
Tony said, "Mother, it's just as well. The
horses couldn't have gone much farther."
Marjorie was still looking at Brother Mainoa
"You know something," she said. "You obviously know much more
than you have told us."
He shrugged. "What I know, or think I know, is
not something I can share with you, yet. Perhaps tomorrow."
"Will you decide?" she asked with a
percipient glare.
"No," he admitted. "No, the decision
won't be mine."
"What does it—they—want? To look us over?"
He nodded.
Tony asked, "What are the two of you talking
about?"
"Yes, Marjorie. What are you—?" Sylvan
asked.
Father James gave Marjorie a percipient glance and
said, "Let it alone, Sylvan. Tony. For now. Perhaps Brother Mainoa has
already presumed upon his acquaintance with ... well, the powers that be."
Mainoa smiled. "A way of saying it, Father. If
you can bear it, Lady Westriding, I would suggest that we rest. Sleep, if
possible. We are quite safe here."
Safety was not what Marjorie wanted, if she had been
in danger of her life, at least she would have felt she was doing something. To
sleep in safety meant that she was slacking while Stella was in danger, but
there was no argument she could make. It was already too dark to find a trail.
She rose from her place beside the fire and made her way among the trees to the
grassy area where the horses grazed. There she sought the comfort from them
which she did not receive from those in her company. It was only when she
leaned against Quixote's side that she realized how desperately tired she was.
Behind her the others made their beds near the fire.
Tony put his mother's bed to one side, screened from the others by low brush,
where she would have some privacy. When she returned, he pointed it out to her,
and she went to it, grateful for his help. Silence came then, broken by
Mainoa's low, purring snores, the cries of peepers distant upon the prairie,
and the cries of other less familiar things in the swamp around them.
Marjorie had thought she would lie sleepless.
Instead, sleep came upon her like a black tide, inexorably. She went down into
it, dreamless and quiet. Time passed, with her unconscious of it. The hand
that was laid upon her arm did not wake her until it shook her slightly.
"Ma'am." said Rillibee Chime. "I'm
hearing something.
She sat up. "What time is it?"
"Midnight, more or less. Listen, Lady. It's
sounds that woke me. People, maybe?"
She held her breath. After a moment she heard
it—them—the sounds of voices, wafted to them on a light wind which had come up
while she slept. A conversation. No words she could understand, but
unmistakably the sound of people talking.
"Where?" she breathed.
He put his hand on her cheek and pushed so that her
head turned. As she faced in another direction, she heard them more clearly.
"Light," she whispered.
He already had it in his hand, a torch which shed a
dim circle before their feet. He handed her another, and they walked among the
trees, through the meadow where the horses grazed with a sound of steady
munching, beyond the meadow into the trees once more. Rillibee pointed up. It
was true. The sounds came from above them.
She was no longer sure they were people. The sound
was too sibilant for human people. And yet ...
"Like the sounds in the Arbai village," she
said.
He nodded, peering above him. "I'm going
up," he said.
She caught at him. "You won't be able to
see!"
He shook his head. "I'll feel, then. Don't wait
for me. Go back to the others."
"You'll fall!"
He laughed. "Me? Oh, Lady, at the Friary they
call me Willy Climb. I have the fingers of a tree frog and the toes of a
lizard. I have stickum on my knees and the hooves of a mountain goat. I can no
more fall than an ape can fall when it creeps among the vines. Go back to the
others, Lady," and he was away, his torch slung about his neck, the light
dwindling up the great trunk of the tree as he swarmed up it like a monkey.
When the circle of light had dwindled to nothing, she
went back the way she had come, certain now that she would not sleep again. Yet
when she lay down upon her bed she found sleep waiting for her. She had time
only to wonder briefly what Brother Lourai would find among the branches before
she was deeply asleep once more.
At the Friary, Elder Brother Fuasoi was sitting late
at his desk, angrily turning the pages of a book. Yavi Foosh sat disconsolately
on a chair nearby, yawning, trying to keep from nodding off.
"No sign of Mainoa or Lourai, then?" Fuasoi
asked for perhaps the tenth time.
"No, Elder Brother."
"And they didn't mention to anyone where they
were going?" "There wasn't anybody there to mention to, Elder
Brother. Mainoa and Lourai were all alone at the ruins. The library crew had
changed shifts three days ago. Shoethai and me didn't take the replacement men
back until this evening. When we got there, Shoethai and me went to tell
Mainoa, but he was gone. Him and Lourai. We looked all through the ruins, Elder
Brother." He sighed, much put upon. He had told the story four times.
"And you found this book where?"
"Shoethai found it, Elder Brother. On Brother
Mainoa's worktable. He thought—since they were gone—there might be something
written down somewhere. The book was the only writing Shoethai found. He
brought it straight here to you."
Fuasoi glared at the book, obviously a new one, with
only a few pages written in. Oh, indeed there was something written down. All
in Brother Mainoa's own hand. Conjecture about the plague. Wonderment that it
hadn't infected Grass. Conjecture about the Moldies, and whether there might
not be some on Grass. And if so, what they might be up to. Interest in the
people at Opal Hill, and what they were doing, which was working to thwart the
work of the Moldies. Working for Sanctity to stop the plague. To find whatever
had kept Grass free of it up until now.
He swore, slamming the book shut. Mere chance had
kept Grass free of the plague until now! Mere chance. The virus hadn't come
here until now because … because it was remote. Because it simply hadn't, yet.
There couldn't be anything on Grass that stopped it.
But … but if there were, no one could be allowed to
learn of it. If they learned of it, they might stop the plague elsewhere.
Mainoa and those from Opal Hill would have to be stopped. "Elder
Brother?" Yavi murmured. "Yes," he snarled.
"Could I be excused now? I've been here for a
very long time."
"Go," he growled. "Go, for God's sake,
and send Shoethai here."
"Shoethai, Elder Brother?" Shoethai had
been dismissed an hour ago.
"Are you deaf? I said Shoethai." Not that
Shoethai would be of any help, but at least he would listen to Fuasoi talk.
Shoethai surprised his fellow Moldy by having an
idea.
"You should send Highbones after them," the
misshapen Brother suggested. "Highbones and Ropeknots and Steeplehands and
the two Bridges."
"Who the devil are you talking about?"
Fuasoi blurted.
Shoethai flushed. "The climbers. Those are some
of the names they call themselves. Highbones is Brother Flumzee."
"Why should I send climbers?"
"Because they hate Brother Lourai. Because he
climbed better than any of them. Because some of the younger brothers called
him Willy Climb."
"Willy Climb?"
"That's the name they gave him. It's a better
name than Highbones, even. When they made him climb the towers and he
outclimbed them all. He got up and got down again without being caught. But
High-bones had a bet he would die upon the towers, so Highbones hates
him."
"It would depend, wouldn't it?"
"On what, Elder Brother?"
"On where Mainoa is."
Shoethai shrugged, his gargoyle face twisting into a
hideous grin. "Doesn't matter so long as he's with Brother Lourai. If he's
at Commons, Highbones would kill him there. If he's at one of the estancias,
Highbones would kill him If he's out in the grasses ..."
Highbones had been one of Shoethai's most diligent
persecutors. Shoethai loved the idea of Highbones out in the grasses, where the
Hippae were, and the hounds.
Elder Brother Fuasoi put the book in the drawer of
his desk as he mumbled to himself. "If Mainoa is out in the grasses, we
needn't worry about him. No. no. The first thing to do is find out where he
went. And the most likely place is Opal Hill. I'll try that first."
Elder Brother Fuasoi reached Persun Pollut. Persun
Pollut, with a caution which was natural to him, said that he believed Brothers
Mainoa and Lourai might have gone away with Lady Westriding and some other
persons but he did not know where,
Shoethai mumbled, "The daughter of that house
vanished during the Hunt yesterday. Everyone is talking about it. She vanished
somewhere near the bon Damfels estancia. Perhaps they went there."
Elder Brother Fuasoi regarded his assistant with
unusual interest as he keyed the tell-me once more Who would have thought that
Shoethai had any interest in Grassian gossip? At Klive he reached a subordinate
family member who verified that "some people from Opal Hill" had come
to Klive and had gone again. "Out in the grasses," the voice said
with a breathless hint of laughter, as though hysteria waited backstage for its
entrance cue. "Out in the grasses, to Darenfeld's Coppice."
"If they went in the grasses," Shoethai
mumbled, "there will be a trail" He sighed with pleasure. "Send
Highbones and the others to follow them."
"On foot?"
"No, no," Shoethai amended thoughtfully.
"In an aircar. To find the trail in an aircar." He thought about
aircars. It would be easy to fix an aircar so that it would fly quite a long
way and then fall. "I'll get one ready for them."
"Who did you say?"
"Brother Flumzee. Brother Niayop. Brother
Sushlee. Brothers Thissayim and Lillamool. Highbones, Steeplehands, Ropeknots,
Long Bridge, and Little Bridge."
Bones, Ropes, Steep, Long, and Little—who had
tortured Shoethai too many times to be forgiven. Who didn't need to wait for
the plague because they hadn't deserved the New Creation anyhow.
"Have they hurt you?" Elder Brother asked,
suddenly aware of the flame burning at the back of Shoethai's one good eye.
Shoethai frowned and picked at a scab on his cheek,
licking the blood from his finger with every evidence of relish. "Oh, no,
Elder Brother. It's just that they're always bragging about who they'll do in
next." He said nothing more about the aircar. Maybe it would be better not
to let Elder Brother know he was going to fix it. That way, when Bones and the
others didn't come back, nobody would know it was Shoethai's doing.
Yavi Foosh had left Elder Brother Fuasoi's office
only to report directly to that of Elder Brother Jhamlees Zoe, where he waited
for half an hour to see his superior.
"What's Fuasoi up to now?" Jhamlees wanted
to know.
"Shoethai found a book Brother Mainoa had been
writing, and he brought it back to Fuasoi. And now Fuasoi's all in a uproar
about it."
"What's in the book?"
"I don't know, Elder Brother. Shoethai found it,
and he wouldn't let me see it."
"He should have brought it to me!"
"Sure he should, Elder Brother, but he didn't. I
even told him he should bring it to you. But Elder Fuasoi's his bosom friend,
so that's where he took it."
"I think I'll walk on down there and see what's
going on." Elder Brother Jhamlees rose from his chair and strode down the
hall. Yavi Foosh stayed a sensible distance behind. He didn't want to be identified
as Jhamlees' man, the way Shoethai was identified as Fuasoi's man. Once that
happened, people didn't let you alone.
The door to the office was open. The room itself was
empty. Jhamlees stared at the emptiness a moment, then went in and pulled out
the drawer in the desk. "This it?" he asked, waving the book as he
beckoned Yavi closer.
Yavi nodded. "That looks like it."
"You won't say anything about this?"
Yavi shook his head. Of course he wouldn't say
anything about it. Jhamlees Zoe could take all the books in the world, and Yavi
wouldn't say a word.
Rillibee moved upward along the trunk of a giant
tree, his feet finding a path in the twine of a woody vine, in the ascent of a
forking branch. Branch led to branch, vine to vine, a barkway opened before
him. He fumbled with the light, trading it from hand to hand as he climbed,
once or twice holding it in his mouth when he needed both hands for holding on.
As he came up into the first levels of foliage, however, he began to see the
forest around him. The leaves glowed, some of them, or creatures upon them
glowed in soft fluorescence: green puddles swam at the base of branches, yellow
lines delineated twigs, blue dots gleamed from indigo masses. Branches cut
darkly across these shining nebulae, these glowing galaxies, and he climbed on
structures of solid shadow among moving effulgences.
A small wind came through the trees, bearing a cloud
of winged pink blossoms. When the wind died, they perched all together, turning
a sapling into flame. Larger wings the color and scent of melons beat slowly
from trunk to trunk, the creatures at rest assuming the shape of cups in which
golden light pulsed to attract other fliers, darts of violet and a blue so pale
it was almost white.
"Joshua," Rillibee whispered. "You'd
have loved this. Miriam, you ... you'd have loved this."
"Heaven," said the parrot from the top of a
tree "Died and gone to heaven."
Leaves brushed his face, exuding resinous sweetness.
A hard knob of fruit knocked against his arm. He picked it, smelled of it, bit
into it. Crisp, sweet-sour, the juice ran into his mouth and was followed by a
tingling, almost as though the fruits themselves were effervescent.
The sounds he had heard on the ground were all around
him in the trees. Voices. One laughing. One speaking, as though telling a long
story to an eager audience, interrupting itself with little side chains of
sound. "You're not going to believe this, but..."
"So then, what do you think happened?" If
Rillibee closed his eyes, he could see the speaker, cheerfully telling a tale,
leaning across a tavern table.
He moved slowly through the branches. The sound faded
behind him. He turned and moved toward it once more, caressing the branches
with his fingers, loving them with his feet. The voices were off there somewhere
among the glowing trees. He would find them eventually.
There was something else to find as well. The girl.
Stella. He had set her name beside the other names in his litany. She was to
belong to him, to Rillibee Chime. Though her family was wealthy and important,
still she would belong to him. Though she herself would disdain him, still ...
"Heaven," whispered the parrot above him,
So he climbed in the night hours. At dawn he found
the voices when the sun slanted into their city through leaves of heartbreak
gold.
Marjorie woke to birdsong and the music of water. It
took her a few moments to remember where she was and a little longer to
remember the interruption in the night. When she did, she looked about for
Brother Lourai. not finding him but meeting Mainoa's eyes.
"He hasn't come back," the old man said.
"You knew he'd gone off.. .."
"I knew he woke you and you both went off. But
you came back."
"He went up there." She gestured at the
high spangle of sun among the boughs. "He told me they call him Willy
Climb and that he'd be all right."
Mainoa nodded. "Yes. He will be all right. He's like you. When things get very
difficult, he thinks of dying from time to time, but he's too curious about
what may happen next."
She flushed, wondering how he knew so much about her.
It was true. She was curious about what would happen next. As though something
awaited her, personally. Some opportunity....
Father James returned from the nearest pool with a
full bucket of water, looking alert and rested. "I haven't slept that well
in weeks," he said. "I had the oddest dreams."
"Yes," said Brother Mainoa again. "I
think we all did. Something here invaded our dreams."
Marjorie stood up and looked about her, suddenly
concerned.
"No, no." The old man rose in slow motion,
grasping knobby ex-cresences on the nearest tree to lift himself up.
"Nothing inimical, Marjorie. They, too, are curious."
"They?"
"Those I think we will meet today, later. After
Brother Lourai returns."
"Hasn't he some other name?" Tony asked.
"Brother Lourai? Oh, yes. As a boy he was
Rillibee. Rillibee Chime. You think he doesn't look like a brother?"
"Tony is thinking that he doesn't look like the
Sanctified we know," Marjorie offered. "His eyes are too big. His
face too lean and intelligent. His mouth too sensitive. I always think of the
Sanctified as thick, enthusiastic people with simple thoughts and a great need
for answers. Old Catholics are supposed to be slender and ascetic-looking,
with huge, philosophical eyes. These are stereotypes, and I'm sometimes
ashamed of my thoughts, but they persist, even when I look into a mirror. You
don't look like a Sanctified either, Brother. But I suppose you've used the
name Mainoa for too long to give it up." She turned away in order not to
see Father James' amused and evaluating gaze.
"Far too long," Mainoa said in agreement,
laughing. "But do use Rillibee's own name, it means much to him. He will
appreciate that."
"We'll go out and try to pick up the trail
today," Marjorie said. Mainoa amended her statement. "It may not be
possible to do so for a day or two."
She turned on him, exasperated and frustrated, ready
to scream at the delay. Father James laid a hand on her arm.
"Patience, Marjorie. Don't be obsessive. Let it
go a little."
"I know, Father But I keep thinking what may be
happening to her."
Father James had been thinking of that, too. His mind
dwelt all too frequently on certain monstrousnesses he had heard of in the
confessional, on certain perversions and horrors he had read of that he could
never have imagined for himself. Why these memories were associated in his mind
with the Hippae he did not know, but they were. He set the evil thoughts aside.
"We will find her, Marjorie. Trust Brother Mainoa."
She desisted, willing herself to trust Brother
Mainoa, since there was no one else to trust.
They ate cold rations. They washed themselves in a
placid pond, one of those which encircled the island. Marjorie and Tony
examined the horses, looking closely at their hooves, their legs. Despite the
wild run of yesterday, the animals seemed to be uninjured. Though she did her
best to remain calm, Marjorie felt herself ready to explode from impatience
before they heard the call from above.
Rillibee swarmed down a great vine-draped tree like
an ape. "I got turned around," he said. "The trees look
different in the light, and it took me a while to find my way back."
"Did you find them?" she asked. "The
voices?"
"I found their city," Rillibee answered.
"You have to come see it."
"We have to go the other way"—she
pointed—"to find the trail ..."
"Up," he insisted. "I think we
should."
"Up," agreed Brother Mainoa. "If we
can."
"One of the things that took me so long was
finding a trail the horses can follow," Rillibee said. "That
way." He pointed deeper into the swamp. "Then we'll climb."
"Why?" Marjorie cried. "Stella isn't
in there...."
"The trail is out there among the grasses,
Marjorie," Brother Mainoa said. "But that's not necessarily the way.
While you were still asleep, Tony and I went to the edge of the forest. The
Hippae are still there. There is no way we can go out that way just now."
"But why?" she gestured upward, fighting
tears. "I don't want to go sightseeing, for the love of God."
"Perhaps it is for the love of God we should
go," Father James said. "Do you know what's up there, Brother
Mainoa?"
"I suspect." he replied. "I suspect
what is up there. I have suspected since the report came from Semling."
"What is it?"
"I think it is the last Arbai city," he
said. "The very last."
He would tell them nothing more. He said he didn't
know. When they asked Rillibee, he said only that they would see for
themselves. He led them as they rode across shallow pools, down aisles of
trees. Sometimes he stopped and simply looked at the trees while they waited.
Once he dismounted and put his hands on a tree, leaning against it as though it
had been a friend. Sylvan started to say something during one of these pauses,
but Brother Mainoa laid a hand on his shoulder to silence him. They crossed
small islands, coming at last to a very large one with a hill at its center.
On a flat pedestal of stone stood a twisted monument
much like that in the plaza of the Arbai city.
"Arbai?" Marjorie whispered, staring at it,
unbelieving. Despite what Brother Mainoa had said, she had not let herself
believe him.
Rillibee pointed upward along a flank of the hill
where a trail wound toward a precipitous cliff edge.
"That's how I came down," he said.
"Leave the horses. They'll be all right here."
They dismounted, trying to do it quietly so they
would not interrupt the voices above them. People were talking. Singing.
Telling stories to the accompaniment of muted laughter. Rillibee led them up
the trail. At the cliff edge a bridge led between fantastically carved posts
across a gulf of air into the trees—a bridge made of grass and vines and splits
of wood, intricate and closely woven as an ornamental basket. The railings were
laced into designs of leaves and fruit. The floor was plaited in swirls of
color, solid as pavement. Two hundred feet in the air they walked behind
Rillibee into the shadow of the trees.
There were dwellings—gazebos and cupolas, tented roofs
and conical spires, woven walls and latticed windows—hung like fruit in the
branches of the trees, opening upon wicker-work alleys and suspended lattice
streets. Aloft were sun-dappled pergolas, shaded kiosks, intricate cages, all
joined to those below by spider stairs. Lacework houses hung in the high
branches like oriole's nests.
There were inhabitants calling from windows, talking
from rooms above and below, conversing as they moved along the roadways, their
voices growing louder as they came near, dwindling away as they passed Shadowy
forms met along the railings. A group leapt from a doorway into the play of
light from the applauding leaves. They were graceful, only slightly reptilian.
Their eyes lit with laughter, their hands extended to one another as though to
say, "Welcome."
But there was no one there No one at all.
A pair of lovers leaned on the railing of the bridge,
arms entwined. Rillibee walked through them, his face spattered with their
faces, his body with their bodies, and they reassembled behind him, still
staring into one another's glowing eyes.
"Ghosts," breathed Tony. "Mother
..."
"No," she said, tears on her cheeks at the
sight of the lovers. "Holos, Tony. They left them here. The projectors
must be somewhere in the trees."
"They gave them to one another," Mainoa
said. "Toward the end. When there were fewer and fewer of them. To keep
the last survivors company."
"How do you know?"
"I was told," he said, "just now. And
it fits in with other things I have learned since we had lunch together that
day at Opal Hill."
"The language ..." Marjorie turned to him,
eyes wide.
"The language, yes."
"I was so eager to get away, to find Stella, I
never thought to ask—"
"The great machines at Semling have chewed on
the problem, chewed and swallowed and spat it out again. The machines can
translate the books of the Arbai. Some. Oh, half, let us say. Half they can
read. The other half they can guess at. The clue was there in the vines on the
doors. Where we had never thought to look."
"And the carved doors themselves?"
"They can read those as well."
"What do they say?"
Brother Mainoa shook his head, trying to laugh, the
laugh becoming a cough which bent him double. 'They say the Arbai died as they
lived, true to their philosophy."
"Here?"
"There on the plain they died quickly. Here in
the trees they died slowly. Their philosophy prevented their killing any
intelligent thing. In their city on the plain, the Hippae had slaughtered their
kinfolk. Those who lived in this summer city among the trees could not go back
to live there safely. They did not wish to die. So they lived out one last
summer here, and when winter came they slowly died here, knowing that in all
the universe they were the last of their people."
"How long ago?"
"Centuries. Grassian centuries."
She looked around her at the woven buildings and
shook her head.
"Not possible These structures would not last-
The trees would grow; eventually they would die and fall. These woven roadways
would rot away."
"Not if they were renewed, hour by hour, day by
day. Not if they were mended."
"By whom?"
"Yes, Marjorie, by whom? We all wonder, don't
we. Yes. I think we will meet them very soon."
Rillibee led them along the woven streets. Before
them the way widened, expanding into a broad platform with rococo railings and
spiraled pillars supporting a wide witch's hat of a roof.
The town square, Marjorie thought. The village green.
The meeting hall, open to the air, to the wind and the sound of birds. All
around it shadowy figures walked and danced and saluted one another, shadows
so thickly cast that for a moment the humans thought the mighty figure padding
toward them from across the platform was another shadow. When they saw that it
was not, they drew together, Tony reaching for the knife he carried.
"No," said Brother Mainoa, putting his hand
on the boy's arm. "No." He walked forward to see what he had so often
longed to see with his eyes instead of his mind. "No. He won't hurt
us."
They saw an expanse of trembling skin over eyes they
could not quite see. Fangs, or something like fangs, in a gleam of blued ivory.
Flaring wings of hair, doubly flaring violet auroras, like spurts of cold
lightning.
Brother Mainoa murmured, head down, as though he
addressed a hierarch, "We are honored."
The being crouched. It gave the impression of
nodding. Paws curled—no—hands curled upon the braided walkway. Hands which
seemed for an instant to have three fingers and opposed, furry thumbs. Behind
maned shoulders lay an armored expanse of mottled hide and callused plates,
seen only for an instant, or perhaps not seen at all. It was an impression
only, gone too quickly to define. They could not describe it except to say it
was not like anything else, not like any earth creature, not like any Grassian
creature except itself. The proportions were wrong. The legs were not the usual
thing one thought of as legs.
Brother Mainoa confronted this mirage with an
expression of awed interest, blinking rapidly, as they all were, trying to
clear their vision. "Perceiving you for the first time has made me wonder
what evolutionary tangle led to the development of this ferocious aspect,"
he murmured, eyes down.
Great orbs may have widened. Perhaps a long, curved
talon extruded from a half-furred, half-scaled finger and pointed toward
Brother Mainoa's throat.
Brother smiled as though at a joke. "I cannot
believe you mean that You don't need any of it against me. You don't need much
of it against mankind unless they choose to use heavy weaponry against you, and
if they did, all your armor wouldn't help much. Men are expert killers, if
nothing else."
Eyes narrowed, possibly, and Brother Mainoa seized
his head in both hands. The others fell to their knees, holding their heads,
except for Sylvan, who started forward, anger and fear combining to make him
reckless.
"Whoa. Whoa." Mainoa drew himself erect,
gasping. "I wish they wouldn't do that." Now he knew what
evolutionary tangle had led to this armour. There had been an enemy once, a
huge, inexorable creature. Brother Mainoa had received an excellent picture of
it rampaging about, devouring both Hippae and hounds. His head ached from the
assault.
"Extinct?" he asked, receiving a feeling of
agreement. "Did you kill them?"
They received an impression of perplexity, then
sureness. No. The Arbai had killed them. The armored monsters had not been
intelligent things. They had been only walking appetites. The Arbai had done
away with them to protect the Hippae. Since that time, there had been many,
many Hippae.
Brother Mainoa sat down on the walkway, suddenly lost
in weariness. "This being is my friend," he said to the other
humans. "He and I have been talking for some time." Now that he had
almost seen the creature, he felt weak with anxiety over all the times he had
talked with it, unseen. If he had seen, would he have said—? No. If he had
seen, he could not have said anything. One could talk to gods and angels only
so long as they did not look like gods and angels, he thought. In order to
approach them, we must think of them as like ourselves, and one could not think
of the foxen as like oneself. ..
"Foxen," Tony breathed. He was still on his
knees with the others.
"Foxen," Mainoa agreed. "He or they
managed to keep the Hippae at bay long enough for us to get here. He and a few
of his friends wanted us to come here, where they could get a good look at
us."
"Does he know where Stella .. ." Marjorie
pleaded. She had the impression of a vast head turned in her direction. She
shuddered as she said, "I see. Of course. Yes." Sylvan said,
"Marjorie?"
"I can hear him," she cried. "Sylvan,
I can hear him. Can't you?" He shook his head, casting a suspicious glance
at the place he thought the foxen was. "No. I hear nothing."
"You have been a hunter too long," Mainoa
said. "You have been deafened by the Hippae."
"Is he speaking?" asked Sylvan.
Rillibee
nodded. "It's somewhat
like speech. Pictures.
Some words." He rose to his feet, utterly immune to further wonder.
The trees were wonder enough for one man. He needed nothing else. He did not
want to talk to foxen. He, like Marjorie, wanted to find Stella. "What
does he say about your daughter?" Sylvan asked. "That others of his
kind are looking for her," Marjorie replied. "That they will tell us
when they find her."
"There are many things they want to tell us, to
ask us," Brother Mainoa said wearily, longing for and yet dreading that
converse. "Many things."
"I'll go back down and unsaddle the
horses," said Rillibee. If they weren't going to hunt for Stella, then he
wanted to be by himself, to cling to the trunk of a huge tree and let the feel
and smell of it sink into him. In the darkness, they had looked like the spirits
of trees. In the light, they looked like themselves. Joshua would have given
his soul for trees like these. On all of Terra there were no trees like these.
Trees, all around him, like a blessing. He turned to go back the way they had
come.
Sylvan followed him. "I'll help you," he
said. "I'm no good here." Ungraciously, Rillibee nodded. The others
did not even see them go.
In his suite high in the bon Damfels estancia,
Shevlok bon Damfels reclined on a window seat and sipped at a half-empty glass
of wine. Dawn stood at the edge of the world. Through the open window he could
see the huddled houses of the village, tied to the sky by the smoke rising from
their chimneys. Dead calm. The morning had not yet been broken by sound. Even
the peepers were silent at this hour.
A case of bottles stood open beside him, half of them
empty. On the tumbled bed the Goosegirl slept. She had not left the bed for
days. She had slept sometimes. Sometimes she had lain unmoving beneath him
while he stroked her, whispered to her, made love to her. Her body had reacted
to his manipulations. Her skin had flushed, her nipples had hardened, her
crotch had grown moist and welcoming. Beyond that, she had given no evidence
that she felt anything at all. Her eyes had stayed open, fixed somewhere in the
middle distance, watching something Shevlok could not see.
Once, only once in the midst of his lovemaking, he
thought he had seen a spark in her eye, the tiniest spark, as though some
notion had fled across her mind too swiftly to be caught. Now she slept while
Shevlok drank. He had been drinking since he had first brought her there.
She was to have been his Obermum. She was to have
ruled the family with him, when Stavenger died. She was fitting. More than
that, he had loved her passionately, Janetta had been everything he had wanted.
But the thing on the bed was not Janetta, not
anymore.
He was trying to decide whether he should keep her or
not.
Someone rapped at the door, and then, without waiting
for an invitation, came in.
"You did do it!" It was Amethyste, peering
across the dim room at the girl sprawled on the bed. "Shevlok, what were
you thinking of?"
"Thought she'd know me," Shevlok mumbled,
the words sounding sticky and ill-defined coming from lips numbed by the wine.
"She didn't. Didn't know me."
"How long has she—"
He shook his head. "Awhile."
"What are you going to do with her?"
"Dunno."
"Everyone says someone took her. From her
mother's servant. You did that?"
Shevlok gestured, hand tipping one way then the
other, conveying that yes, he had, probably.
"Then you'd better give her back. Take her back
to bon Maukerden village. Send word so they'll be looking for her."
"Better dead," Shevlok said with surprising
clarity. "She'd be better dead."
"No," Amy cried. "No, Shevlok! Suppose
it was Dimity. Pretend it's Dimity."
"Better dead," Shevlok persisted. "If
it was Dimity, she'd be better dead."
"How can you say that!"
He rose, took his sister's arm roughly, and dragged
her to the bed. "Look at her, Amy! Look at her." He stripped the
blanket away to show the girl who lay there naked, face up. With a hard thumb
he pulled back the girl's eyelid, "Janetta's eyes were like water over
stones. They sparkled with sun. Look at this one! This one's eyes are like the
pools that collect in the cellars in spring when the snow melts. No sun in
them. Nothing normal swims there. Nothing good lives there."
Amy jerked her arm away. "I don't understand
what you're saying."
"When I look in these eyes, all I see is dark
going down and down into bottomless muck where there's something squirming
that's maimed and horrid. She's been short-circuited. They've done something
inside her She can't feel anything anymore. She doesn't know anyone
anymore."
"Give her back, Shevlok. I know there's nothing
there anymore—"
"Oh, there's still something there. Something
dreadful and perverse. Something they could use...." He gasped with
sudden pain. "Damn them."
His sister laughed bitterly, rubbing her bruised arm.
"Damn them. Shevlok? Damn them? You're
one of them. You agreed. You all went along. You and Father and Uncle Figor all
knew what the Hippae did to girls, but you still made me ride, me and Emmy and
Dimity."
He shook his head like a baffled bull. "I didn't
know what the Hippae did."
"My God, Shevlok, what did you think happened
when girls disappeared? When they vanished? What did you think!"
"I never thought they did that," he
insisted. "Never thought they did that."
"You never thought!" she shrieked at him.
"Right! You never thought. It wasn't you, so you never thought. Oh, damn
you, Shevlok. Don't go blaming the Hippae for getting her like that. You did
it. You and Father and Figor and all you damn riders ..."
"Not ... not my fault."
"If this hadn't happened, you'd have married
Janetta and had children and made them go hunting, too," she accused him.
"You'd have seen your daughters vanish and your sons get their arms bitten
off, but you wouldn't have stopped!"
"I don't know. I might have. I don't know."
"Are you going to bon Laupmon's to the Hunt
today?"
He shrugged. "Probably."
"You see! You know what happens, but you'll
still go. And some bon Laupmon girl or some bon Haunser girl will disappear,
but that won't matter because you're not in love with them." She wiped her
face with her fingers, then pointed to the sleeping girl "What will happen
to her?"
"I've got a woman from the village to come feed
her, wash her, play with her, like a kitten."
"If you're going to Hunt, and Father goes
..."
He shook himself, looking at her for the first time,
trying to smile. He was fond of her, and of Emeraude. He kept trying to
remember that. He was fond of her and Emeraude and Sylvan, and of his mother.
"I heard about Emmy. You want an aircar, don't you. To take Emmy in to
Commons. Is she bad?"
"She's as bad as Father could do before we
pulled him off her. She won't die, if that's what you mean. Not if I can get
her away from here. Her, and me."
"Take her. then."
"Father told the servants not to obey me. He
didn't tell them not to obey you."
"I'll tell old Murfon. After Father's gone to
bon Laupmon's, Murfon will take you. I'll tell him to pick you up from the
village. Don't let anyone see you."
"Shall I take her, too?" Amy gestured
toward the sprawled girl on the disordered bed.
Shevlok staggered to his feet and went to look down
at the sleeping figure. He sobbed once, a sound that held more anger than
grief. "You might as well. If you leave her here, I'll kill her,"
14
Rigo asked Sebastian Mechanic to accompany him to the
bon Laupmons' place. He asked Persun Pollut and Asmir to come along as well,
spending a few futile moments wishing the men were bigger, wishing they had
weapons, wishing they were not commoners but bons so they would be taken
seriously. Well, what use to wish? They were commoners and there were no
weapons on Grass, none he had seen. None except the harpoons of the hunters,
and the ungainly length of those instruments made them useless for protection.
He felt very much alone and was foolishly ashamed of himself for feeling so.
He dressed with meticulous care, hating the froggy
spread of the trousers, the effete look of the long pointed toes on his boots.
Finally he took his hat and gloves from his villager-turned-valet and examined
himself in the glass. At least from the waist up he looked like a proper
gentleman. As though that made any difference. As though anything would make
any difference!
He would not apologize for taking Persun and
Sebastian and Asmir along, it was certainly not improper to take servants to
the Hunt. Others did. When a bon Haunser returned from a bon Damfels Hunt and
went into the bon Damfels' guest quarters, it was his own servants who had
prepared a room for him, his own servants who had kept the bath hot and laid
out fresh clothing. When Rigo had ridden for the first time, he hadn't known.
No one had told him. He and Stella had had to return all the way to Opal Hill
before they could bathe.
When he had ridden the second time he had brought a
man along but there had been no question of bathing. Stella had vanished, and
that is all he had been able to think of. Now, for the first time, he wondered
what would have happened if Stella hadn't vanished. He, Rigo, had taken a man
along. He had forgotten to provide anyone for Stella. It was an uncomfortable
thought, and he pushed it aside.
"Rigo?" A soft voice from the door.
He turned his self-hatred on her. "Eugenie! What
are you doing here?" Ridiculously, for a moment he had thought it was
Marjorie.
"I thought you might need some help. With
Marjorie gone—"
"I have a valet, Eugenie." Behind him the
man prudently left the room. "Marjorie doesn't dress me."
She fluttered her hands and changed the subject.
"Have you had any news about Stella?"
"I haven't heard anything about any of them. And
you don't belong here in my bedroom. You know that."
"I know." A tear crept down her cheek.
"I don't feel like I belong anyplace."
"Go to Commons," he told her. "Take a
room at the Port Hotel. Amuse yourself. For God's sake, Eugenie, I don't have
time for you now."
She caught her breath. Her face went white and she
turned away. Something in that turn, the curve of the neck. Like Marjorie. Now
he had insulted them both! God. what kind of man was he?
Full of angry self-loathing, he went out to the
gravel court where the aircar waited, then stood about impatiently while
Sebastian arranged for the other car to take Eugenie to Commons if she wanted
to go. Women. Damned women. With no other driver available, Asmir would have to
stay to take Eugenie into town.
"Grass can be very boring for women," Persun
Pollut remarked.
"My mother has often mentioned that."
Persun stood with his hands linked behind him, his long, lugubrious face turned
toward the garden.
"From what you have said, your mother keeps very
busy," Rigo commented, his voice still full of edgy hostility.
"Oh, I don't mean life is boring in Commons,
Your Excellency. I mean out here. Out here can be death for women. From
boredom. From the Hunt. From so many things...."
Rigo did not want to think about women. He did not
understand women, obviously. He was no good with women. Marjorie. No good with
her. Who would have expected her to take the initiative this way, go running
off to involve Green Brothers, dragging Tony and Father Sandoval along. She had
never been like that. On Terra she'd contented herself with being mother or
horsewoman. There'd been that little charitable thing that took too much of her
time, Lady Bountiful carrying cast-off clothing to the illegals. But then, what
had she had to do with herself otherwise? She wasn't like Eugenie, to spend
half a day at the loveliness shops. Or like Espinoza's wife, that time, getting
hauled in by the population police because she'd been mixed up in illicit
abortions to save some ignorant little cunts from getting executed. Poor
'Spino hadn't been able to face his friends. No, whatever Marjorie had done on
Terra, she'd kept it insignificant, she hadn't encroached on Rigo's
responsibilities....
There was some kind of mental trap there. He avoided
it by returning to his earlier thoughts about weapons. Why were there no
weapons on Grass? Surely the order officers at Commons must have some kind of
tanglefoots or freeze batons. Such items were ubiquitous wherever there were
ports and taverns and the need to knock down unruly men. Why didn't the people
at the estancias have them? Characteristically, preferring actual ignorance to
the appearance of it, he did not ask Persun, who could have told him.
He got into the car at Sebastian's summons. They flew
in silence. The bon Laupmon estancia was about an hour distant, farther east
than the bon Damfels' place. Rigo was considering how he might approach Obermun
Lancel bon Laupmon. What he might say to Eric bon Haunser, or Obermun Jerril
bon Haunser. Both of them had been helpful and diplomatic when the Yrariers had
arrived upon Grass. Still, they were hunters, and hunters did not seem to act
logically. There was no point in talking to Gerold bon Laupmon, Lancel's
brother. According to Persun, the man's comprehension was exceedingly limited.
Lancel was a widower. There was a son. Taronce, related somehow to the bon
Damfels, but Rigo had not met him. Perhaps there had been other children.
Perhaps they had vanished, and bon Laupmon had ignored that fact, just as
Stavenger had. As he continued to do.
Rigo ground his teeth. There had been a time on Terra
when children had been sacrificed. To Moloch. To Poseidon. Even to God. There
had been dangerous rites on Terra long ago. Maenads had run wild upon
mountaintops, tearing youths apart with their teeth. Secret societies had
demanded blood and silence. And yet, he could not recall a time in Terran
history that men had lost their children and pretended not to notice. Never.
Now, nowhere else. Only here, on Grass.
He shuddered, then drew in a deep breath, confused.
Why was he going to this Hunt? Was he really going to ride? Again? Knowing what
he knew now?
Why was he going?
To demand help in finding Stella, of course.
From whom? He went over the roll of all the bons he
had met, listing them by families, ticking them off, going back to see if he
had forgotten any.
"Pollut," he said at last in a shamed
voice. "Will any of them help me find my daughter?"
Persun Pollut gave him a long look. Around the eyes
His Excellency looked rather like an old bit of carving, badly abused, chipped,
and abraded. For a moment Persun considered equivocation, then discarded the
idea. He owed it to Lady Westriding to tell the truth.
"No," he said finally. "None of them
will."
"Marjorie warned me," Rigo said in a
whisper.
Despite the whisper, Persun heard him. "Many of
us tried to warn you, sir. Lady Westriding has a clear eye. She was not taken
in by these Hippae."
"You believe it's true that they do things to
people's minds...."
With some effort Persun kept any taint of sneer from
his voice as he asked, "Has the ambassador any other explanation?"
"Landing!" said Sebastian. "There's a
considerable crowd on the court, sir. Almost as though they were waiting for
us."
Rigo looked down with a sense of forboding. Many pale
faces looked up. And there were already Hippae down there! It was indeed as
though they had been waiting He thought of telling Sebastian to go back, return
home But that would seem such arrant cowardice! Death before dishonor, he
sneered at himself. Of course. "Set it down," he said.
When he opened the car door, Obermun Jerril bon
Haunser was poised outside, his face empty of any emotion.
"Your Excellency," he said. "I have
the honor of conveying to you the challenge of Obermun Stavenger bon Damfels.
He wishes me to say that the whore, your wife, has taken away his son, Sylvan.
And that you will answer for it or be trampled to death." He gestured
backward, toward the wall of the estancia, where a dozen Hippae stood, shifting
from foot to foot, clashing the barbs on their necks despite the empty-faced
men and women on their backs.
Rigo felt molten iron rise into his face. That Jerril
bon Haunser had said no more than he, Rigo, had implied toward Marjorie only
redoubled his fury. "How dare you?" he snarled "How dares any of
you?" He raised his voice to a shout. "A mother goes to look for her
daughter, and you call her a whore? It is your wives who have made themselves whores.
Your wives and your daughters! Who have whored themselves to them!" He
thrust a rigid finger at the rank of Hippae along the wall. "Your wives
and daughters have spread their legs for lovers who are not even human!"
There was no quiver of movement among the mounted
men. Obermun bon Haunser's face did not change. He might as well have been
deaf and blind. He seemed not to have heard Rigo's contemptuous insult. He
bowed, twisted his lips into a vacant smile, and gestured toward an approaching
Hippae. "Your mount," he said.
Rigo felt Persun seize his arm. "Let us leave,
Your Excellency. We can!"
Rigo shook off Persun's hand. "I will not
run," he snarled through a red curtain of rage. "Not from them, not
from any of them."
"Then for God's sake take this," and Persun
thrust something into Rigo's jacket pocket from behind. "A laser knife,
Your Excellency. One of my carving tools. The Lady Marjorie wilt not forgive me
if I let you die."
Rigo heard him at some level, though his anger would
not let him respond. He dropped out of the car and stood waiting for the
Hippae. It grinned at him, showing its teeth, eyes gleaming. There was no
mistaking the impudence, the malice, the arrogance in those eyes. With a surge
of panic Rigo realized that Stavenger bon Damfels had not issued the challenge.
The challenge had come from the Hippae! It was they who had arranged and
directed this confrontation, they who had choreographed this movement of men
and beasts, Jerril bon Haunser did only their will, not his own.
Rigo cast a quick glance upward, toward the estancia.
There were people gathered on the terraces, watching, mouths open in astonishment
or wonder or fear. So this was not a familiar sight. How had the beasts managed
it? How had they winkled their riders out of the estancia? How had they
assembled these hunters?
There was no time to consider hows or whys. The
Hippae before him thrust out a mottled blue leg, muscled like a monument. Rigo
fumbled for his rein ring, found it in his pocket, tossed it clumsily over the
bottom barb, and felt it tighten as he leapt upward. His toes found the stirrup
holes. He braced himself just in time as the beast reared high. He was staring
at the sky, suspended only by the tightened reins and his toes, leg and back
muscles locked rigid to hold him in place. The Hippae walked on its hind legs,
stalking, laughing an almost human laughter, seeming to move as easily in that
position as it did on four legs. After what seemed an eternity, it dropped
forward once more.
Another beast loomed beside him, a great green
Hippae, lining up beside the blue as for a parade. Stavenger sat upon the
green, face forward and empty as a hatched egg, only the shell which had once
housed him remaining. The green Hippae clashed its barbs and Stavenger
shouted. There were no words, only meaningless rage. His mouth opened. His face
reddened. He howled. Then his mouth closed and he sat there once more, unmoved.
The blue beast clashed its barbs and Rigo felt
himself shouting. He bit down on the shout, closed it off, swallowed it. Fury
rose up in him and forced the Hippae out of his mind. The beasts danced, side
by side, like a pair in a quadrille. They galloped, trotted, changed legs, did
it once again. The horseman in Rigo grew even more wrathful. They had learned this
from Don Quixote and El Dia Octavo. This was mockery. This was humiliation. He
twisted his left hand tightly in both reins to free his right hand, then felt
in his pocket for the laser knife. A simple, ordinary tool, one that Persun
used to carve bits of wood and grass stem, one he had probably used on the
panels in Marjorie's study. A simple tool.
And yet ... it could be a weapon. He stared at the
neck barbs clashing before him. They looked like horn. Or like teeth. If they
were indeed like teeth or horn, the beast might not feel it if they were cut.
The knife had a blade of variable power and length. At higher power the blade
could take off these barbs at flesh level. As the Hippae danced, Rigo reached
one hand forward, thumbed the knife on, and touched the top of the second barb.
The knife cut a notch into it, like a heated blade into wax. The Hippae didn't
react. Rigo cast a quick look around. No one had seen him. No one was looking.
This prancing dance was not for the benefit of the zombies along the wall, not
for Jerril or Eric or even Stavenger. This was for the Hippae themselves. They
were the only ones enjoying it, and they were so arrogantly intent upon
displaying their power that they had not bothered to keep watch upon the
riders. Rigo cut away the sharp edges of the first barb, narrowing it to make a
place he could grip, then slipped the knife back into his pocket and waited to
see what would happen next.
Next was a challenge. Bellowing at one another.
Turning their backs on one another and using both front and rear feet to kick
clods at one another. Clods? Something black and powdery that they took some
trouble to find. Black dust powdered down upon him. Then the Hippae faced one
another again and rose on their back hooves. Clashing barbs, hissing through
teeth they separated, dancing backward until a considerable distance had opened
between them. A hundred yards. Two hundred. Rigo risked a look at the assembly
on the walls, at the mounted men. Nothing. No cries, no excitement. Only this
deadly calm. He gritted his teeth and hung on. At last, the green beast lowered
his head and charged. Rigo's mount did the same.
The opposing mount was coming up on his right, neck
arched down and turned so that the barbs jutted wickedly outward. Rigo's mount
had taken the same position. They were like two warhorses, thundering toward
one another. Neither of the beasts could see where he was going. Each
threatened the other. Stavenger sat like a dummy, unseeing. At the last
possible moment, Rigo jerked the toe of his right boot out of the stirrup hole
and stood on his left toe, right leg high and bent back, holding himself high
by locking his left hand tightly around the blunted barb.
The barbs of Stavenger's beast meshed with those of
Rigo's mount, passed through and raked the place where Rigo's booted leg had
been, missing the blue Hippae skin by the thickness of a finger. Still holding
himself high, Rigo could see Stavenger's right boot in tatters. Blood blew from
the man's leg, long ragged lines trailing into the dust. The animals had no
intention of hurting one another. The barbs were aimed at their rider's legs.
Rigo settled upon the creature's shoulders, and as
they moved apart he took out the knife and cut the four barbs immediately in
front of him, striking them to make them fall to one side. Though there were
longer barbs on the neck, the amputation made him safe from being skewered, at
least. The Hippae had turned and were readying themselves for another charge.
They had to aim themselves like missiles; once their heads were down, they
could not see where they were going. Some instinct or long practice let them
know precisely where their opponent was, however. They passed this time on the
left, the barbs meshing like gears, screaming as they plunged past one another,
and once again Rigo moved his leg and balanced high on the opposite side of his
mount, glued there by equal parts rage and fear.
This time Stavenger's left boot was in tatters, his
left leg streaming blood. There was still no expression in his face. The Hippae
would keep it up even if Stavenger fell, even if he died. The Hippae would keep
it up until Rigo was dead. There was no point in trying to kill Stavenger. It
would be like killing a flea on the neck of an attacking dog. No. To stop the battle,
the Hippae themselves would have to be stopped.
The next charge was to the right again. Rigo wound
the reins around his left arm, grasped the smoothed barb in his left hand,
withdrew his right leg, threw himself across his mount as the other went by,
and struck at its rear legs with the knife extended to its full length. The
blade hummed and sliced, through the flesh as it had through wood.
The green beast screamed, tried to walk on a leg half
cut through, and crashed to the ground. Rigo's mount pranced and howled and
lashed back at him with barbs that were no longer there. Rigo reached low along
one side and cut a back leg from beneath it, rolling away as the beast fell.
Noise. Two beasts screaming. He staggered to his
feet, eyes fixed on them. They were trying to crawl toward him. trying to get
up on three legs. He turned the knife to its maximum length and moved forward,
slashing once, then again, cleaving the two skulls down through those clamping
jaws, to leave the truncated, cauterized necks to lash themselves into quiet.
A great noise was coming from somewhere else. He
turned just in time to see the Hippae who had been ranked along the wall
charging at him, hooves high, jaws extended. There was no way to avoid them. He
threw himself behind the bodies of the dying Hippae and cut at the legs and
teeth that sought him from above. Blood rained down on him, blinding him.
Something struck him on the head. He slumped, stunned.
There was sound, roaring, screaming, voices howling. Hippae shrieking as they
backed off. Blackness came up around him, sucking at him.
Persun Pollut's voice said, "Up, up, sir. Get
in. Oh, get in, we can't hold them off for long."
Then vibration, the sound dwindling, and at last the
blackness took him entirely.
It was Figor bon Damfels who reached Stavenger first,
after waiting a considerable time for the Hippae to finish their slaughter and
go away. Roderigo Yrarier's servants had driven the Hippae off with the aircar,
had leapt out and rescued him. Figor was astonished at this. None of the bon
Damfels servants or the bon Laupmon servants had made any move to protect their
masters. The twelve riders had borne the full brunt of the Hippae fury. All twelve
had died, most of them bon Laupmons, fourteen deaths including Stavenger bon
Damfels and Obermun bon Haunser. Stavenger showed no wounds, though he was pale
and cold. His boots were in tatters. Figor unbuckled the strap that held the
boots high and drew them off. Stavenger's feet came with them. Only a thin
strip of leather on the inside had kept the boots together. They had filled
with blood and overflowed. Stavenger had bled to death, without moving.
Four Hippae were dead also, the two who had taken part
in the joust and two others, their legs lopped off as though by some great
cleaver. It was this death of Hippae that the others had sought to avenge.
The death of Hippae, though perhaps Yrarier's escape
had infuriated them more. They had danced and howled and leaped, trying to get
their teeth into the ascending car. While all of it had been going on, Figor
had not had time for much thinking, not time, nor ability. There was nothing in
anyone's mind then but red rage and a furious astonishment. After the Hippae
had gone away, however, room for some thought had opened up. Thought and
reflection on what eyes had seen even while minds had been unable to
comprehend.
"Figor," his cousin, Taronce bon Laupmon,
said. "I found this where the fragras was."
Figor took it. Some kind of tool. It had a thumb
switch and he clicked it on. The blade quivered, humming with deadly force, and
he clicked it off again. He whispered, shocked, "By our ancestors!
Taronce!"
"It must be what he used on the mounts,"
cousin Taronce whispered, rubbing at his shoulder where his prosthesis joined
his body. "Cut their legs out from under them Chopped their heads in two.
The way they chop at us. They way they chopped at me." He looked around,
guiltily. "Put it away before someone sees it."
"What does Obermun bon Laupmon say?
Lancel?"
"He's dead, Gerold is alive. He wasn't one of
the mounted ones."
"How did this all ..." He gestured around
him. "When I got here, it was already started."
"The Hippae were waiting this morning, waiting
on the gravel court. They took people, that's all. They took Stavenger as soon
as he arrived, and bon Haunser, as well."
"No one bothered me."
"No one else was bothered, just twelve riders,
and Stavenger, and Jerril bon Haunser. And now they're all dead."
"Plus four mounts," whispered Figor.
"I've got the thing put away. I won't let them know we have it."
"You'd use it, wouldn't you?"
"Would you?"
"I think so. I think I'd use it. It's so neat.
So little. You could keep it in your pocket. They wouldn't know you had it.
Then, if one of them came at you ..."
"If Yrarier had this thing, they're probably
easy to get. In Commons, maybe."
"Why didn't we know? Before?"
"They didn't let us know before. Or maybe we
haven't wanted to know, before."
When Persun and Sebastian Mechanic reached Opal Hill
they left Rigo in the aircar while they called Persun's father on the tell-me
and told him they wanted to evacuate the estancia. Rigo was unconscious. There
was nothing they could do for him; he needed to go to the hospital in Commons
at once, but there was this other very important consideration.
"Evacuate the village?" Hime Pollut asked.
"You're joking, Pers."
"Father, listen. Rigo Yrarier killed at least
two Hippae. I don't know how many men died in the ruckus we left behind us, but
some must have. I'm remembering the stories of Darenfeld estancia. How it was
burned after somebody wounded a Hippae. How all the people in the village died.
The people at Opal Hill village, the servants here in the big house, they're
our people, Father. Commons
people."
"How many at Opal Hill?"
"A hundred and a bit. If you can get Roald Few
to send out some trucks ..."
"Will the people be ready?"
"Sebastian is on his way to the village now. If
you can get the trucks we use when we go into winter quarters, they can bring
the livestock in. They'll need their animals...."
A long silence. "Can you bring the foreigners
from the estancia?"
"His Excellency, yes. His secretary and her
sister. The old priest. That's all."
"Where's the wife? The children? The other
priest? Yrarier's fancy woman?"
"Asmir Tanlig took Eugenie to Commons this
morning. None of the others are here, but I don't have time to explain about
them now." He left the tell-me and ran through the dwelling, stopping all
the servants he met. They were all from the village. Some he sent to find
Father Sandoval and Andrea Chapelside and her sister, telling them he could allow
only an hour for packing. Waiting even that long might endanger Rigo's life,
but he could not simply gather up the women and fly away, leaving all their
belongings behind. They would need things. Women always needed things.
Marjorie. She, too, would need things. He gathered
three of the maids together and told them to pack Marjorie's things. "Her
clothes," he said. "Her personal things."
And Stella's? Would Stella ever be found? What did
Stella value? "How long, Persun? What shall we pack?"
"Never mind," he said in frustration.
"Take a few sensible clothes for Marjorie and Stella, their jewelry and
treasures, and leave it at that."
And perhaps it was all mere supposition, mere
paranoia. Perhaps the Hippae would do nothing to Opal Hill at all. Perhaps the
village would be safe.
And perhaps not. In panic he went back to the
tell-me. "Roald Few has borrowed four cargo trucks from the port,"
his father said. "They're on their way. He agrees on the importance of
saving the livestock."
Well then, it was not merely his own fear. Or, if it
was, he had been successful in spreading it about. He scurried through the
place to Marjorie's study, intent upon saving anything there that she might
ever want again. He came face to face with the panels he had carved for her, a
lady moving among the trees of a copse, sometimes clearly seen, sometimes
hidden, her lovely face always slightly turned away. Like a dream, just out of
reach. There were birds in the trees. He reached out to touch one of them,
stroke one of them, wondering foolishly if there were time to cut the panels
out and save them. He broke away with an exclamation. No time.
When he had gathered together what he could, he
picked up Sebastian and those who were ready and drove the aircar directly to
the hospital near the Port Hotel. The doctors carried Rigo away; Andrea, her
sister, and Father Sandoval went to the port hotel.
Asmir was there. "Where's Eugenie?" Persun
asked.
"I don't know. Wasn't she with you?" Asmir
asked in return.
'This morning she wanted to come in to Commons."
"She told me she'd changed her mind. I just came
to pick up some supplies."
Persun counted his passengers on his fingers and ran
to ask them where Eugenie was. No one knew. He flew back to Opal Hill, anxious
to use all the daylit hours. In the village the trucks were loading: people,
livestock, necessary equipment. Another truck landed as he stood there.
Sebastian was driving it.
"I can't find Eugenie," Persun yelled at
him.
"His Excellency's woman? Isn't she in Commons?
Didn't she go in with Asmir?"
"She didn't, Sebastian. She changed her
mind."
"Ask Linea, over there. She took care of
Eugenie."
Persun chased the indicated woman and asked. Linea
didn't know. She hadn't seen Eugenie since early this morning. She thought Eugenie
must be in her own house, or perhaps in the garden.
Persun ran back up the trail to the estancia, to
Eugenie's house, cursing under his breath. She wasn't there. Soft pink curtains
blew in the spring wind. The house smelled of flowers Persun Pollut had never
seen. The woman wasn't there. He went out into the grass garden and searched
for her, down this path and that, the mild spring airs moving above him and
around him, the perfumes of the fragrant grasses like a drug in his nostrils.
He called, "Eugenie?" It did not seem a dignified
thing to do, to walk about the gardens calling her by her first name, but he
knew no other name to call her. It was what everyone called her.
"Eugenie!"
From the village the trucks rose with a roar of
engines. He went there once more, plodding. A few remaining people. A few
remaining pigs, chickens, a lonely cow lowing at the sky. The sun, down in the
west, burning its hot eye into his own
"Are they coming back?" he asked. "The
trucks?"
"You don't think we planned to stay here with
everyone gone, did you?" an old woman snapped at him. "What happened?
No one seems to know, except that the Hippae are coming to slaughter us all in
our beds."
Persun didn't answer. He was already on his way back
to the house to try one last time, He went through the big house, room by room.
She wasn't there. To her own house again. She wasn't there.
He did not think to go to the chapel. Why would he?
The people of Commons had scant use for chapels. Some of them claimed religions,
but they were not of edificial kinds.
He went out to the car, offered the old woman a seat
in it, loaded her crate of chickens aboard, and took off once more, flying low
as he cross-hatched the grass gardens, looking for Eugenie. Once at commons,
he searched for her again, thinking perhaps she had been in one of the trucks.
Darkness came. "I have to go back," he
cried to Sebastian, who had just returned from a final trip. "She has to
be still out there."
"I'll go with you," the other said.
"I've got everyone unloaded. They're all getting settled down in winter
quarters." "Have you heard any news of His Excellency?"
Sebastian shook his head. "No one's had time to ask. How was he
hurt?"
"His legs were trampled. And he was struck on
the head. He was breathing well, but he didn't move his legs at all. I think he
may be paralyzed."
"They can fix that kind of injury."
"Some kinds they can fix." They lofted the
car once more and headed it away from Commons toward Opal Hill. They had not
gone far before they saw the fire, wings and curtains of fire, sweeping across
the grasses and towering above the estancia.
"Ah, well then," murmured Persun. "So
I was not a hysteric after all. Father said I might be."
"Are you glad of that?" Sebastian asked
curiously, turning the car in a long curve so that he could look down on the
blaze. "Or would you rather have been called a hysteric and Opal Hill
still be whole? I saw the panels you carved in the lady's study. They were the
best things I have seen in a long time. No, the best I have ever seen."
"I still have my hands," Persun said,
looking at them, turning them over, thinking what might have happened to them
if he hadn't been skittish as any old woman. "I can carve more." If
Marjorie was safe, he could carve more. If they were for her.
"I thought the gardens were supposed to stop the
fires."
"They do. Unless the fires are set and dragged
through the gardens and carried into the buildings. As these were, Sebastian.
As these were." He peered down at the ruin, biting back an exclamation.
"Look! Sebastian. Look at the trail!"
Away from Opal Hill, toward the swamp forest,
straight as an arrow, a trail trampled into the grasses as though ten thousand
Hippae had marched there in files. The two looked at one another in horrified
surmise.
"Do you suppose she's down there?" Sebastian
whispered.
Persun nodded. "Yes. She is. Was.
Somewhere."
"Shall we—"
"No. See there, in the flames. Hippae. There
must be hundreds of them. Some dancing near the flames. Some going down that
great trail. How many of them did it take to make that trail? And hounds, too.
Every hound on Grass must be down there, all moving toward Commons. No. No, we
can't go down. We'll come back tomorrow. When the fire burns out, we'll look.
Maybe she got into the winter quarters. I hope she doesn't burn."
Eugenie didn't burn. The hounds that had swept
through the place ahead of the flames had seen to that.
Commons was in a considerable uproar, busy with
speculation and rumor. The housing of a hundred or so people was no great
thing. The winter quarters were large enough to hold the entire population of
Commons plus those of the villages, and only the very young among them found
these underground halls and rooms at all new and frightening. The caverns had
been here when men first came, but they had been enlarged and fitted out for
human occupancy, and everyone over one Grassian year of age knew them well. The
evacuated animals went into the winter barns. Though this year's cutting of hay
had not begun, there was enough of last year's hay and grain to keep them.
Feeding the people was no great thing either. They began using the winter
kitchens with the ease of long practice.
Despite this ease, this familiarity, there was
disquiet and anxiety both among those who had arrived and those who had
welcomed them. The burning of an estancia was not a familiar occurrence. It had
happened before, but that had been long ago, in their great-grandparents' time
It was not something easy to comprehend or accept. When Persun Pollut brought
news of the great trail toward the swamp-forest, anxiety deepened. Everyone
knew the Hippae couldn't get through the forest, and yet ... and yet, people
wondered. They were uneasy, wondering if this event betokened mysterious dangers.
The unease spread even to Portside, where those
occupied in serving and housing strangers became jittery. Saint Teresa and
Ducky Johns were not immune to the common case of nerves. They met at the end
of Pleasure Street and walked along Portside Road, Ducky bobbling and jiggling
inside her great golden tent of a dress, Saint Teresa stalking beside her like
a heron, long-legged and long-nosed to the point of caricature. He wore his
usual garments: purple trousers tight at the knee but baggy elsewhere, and a
swallow-tailed coat cut of jermot hide, a scaly leather imported through
Semling from some desert planet at the end of nowhere. His bare cranium gleamed
like steel in the blue lights of the port, and his great hands gestured as he
spoke, never still for an instant.
"So ... so what does it mean?" he asked.
"Burning Opal Hill that way. There was no one there...." His hands
circled, illustrating a search from the air, then swooped away, conveying
frustration.
"One person," Ducky Johns corrected him.
"That fancy woman of the ambassador's is missing."
"One person, then. But the Hippae dragged fire
through the gardens and burned it. all of it. It's burning now." His
fingers flickered like flames, drawing the scene on the air.
Ducky Johns nodded, the nod setting up wavelike
motion which traveled down from her ears through all the waiting flesh below, a
tidal jiggle, ending only at her ankles, where her tiny feet served as a check
valve. "It's why I wanted to talk with you, Teresa. The things are
obviously raging. Furious. Out of all control. You knew the ambassador killed
some of them."
"I heard. First time that's ever happened, from
what I hear."
"So far as I know, yes. Darenfeld wounded one,
years and years ago, before the Darenfeld estancia burned."
"I thought that was a summer fire.
Lightning."
"So the bons say, but others say no. The bons
pretended it was lightning and began to build grass gardens around themselves,
but Roald Few says the Commons Chronicle called
it what it was. Hippae, going rampageous."
He compressed thin lips into a tight line, more
disturbed than he cared to admit. "Well, so! The bons are no concern of
ours. If all of them got crisped tomorrow, it wouldn't make a whit of
difference to custom, Ducky. They may think they're the pinnacle of creation,
but we know different."
"Oh, it's not just them. It's this plague, too.
We're hearing more and more of that."
"There's none here."
"So there isn't, which is strange on the face of
it. I hear things. Asmir Tanlig has been around, asking this, asking that.
Sebastian Mechanic has been around, digging here, digging there. Questions.
Who's been sick. Who's died. Both of them work for the ambassador. So he's
trying to find out something. I talked to Roald about it. He talked to some
others, including some of us here in Portside who've heard what foreigners have
to say. Seems there's plague everywhere but here. Hidden, though. Sanctity
trying to keep the lid on it, but the word getting out, getting around."
"So? What are you saying, Ducky?"
"I'm saying if everybody dies out there,
there'll be no custom here, old crane, old stork. That's what I'm saying. Then
how will we live, you and me? To say nothing of it being damned lonely, us here
with all the rest of the human population gone and those Hippae out there,
being rampageous."
"They can't get in through the forest."
"So we're told. So we're told. And even if
that's true, think of all humanity closed in in a space no bigger than Commons.
It makes me claustrophobic, Teresa, indeed it does."
They had reached the end of Portside Road, where it
ran off into ruts southward across the grazing land, and they turned as if by
mutual consent to retrace their steps—more slowly on the return, for Ducky
seldom walked such a distance.
Blue lamps cast runnels of luminescence on the
ash-glass surface of the port. There were only two ships in, a sleek yacht in
the dark shadow of a bulky warehouse and the Star-Lily, a fat Semling freighter squatting in a puddle of
sapphire lume, its cargo bay gaping like a snoring mouth. In the puddle of
light something moved, and Ducky put her hand on her companion's arm.
"There," she said. "Teresa, did you see that?"
He had seen that. "No one working there this
time of night."
"See to it, Teresa. Do. I can't move fast
enough."
She spoke unnecessarily, for the heronlike legs of
Saint Teresa had already taken him off in long, ground-eating strides across
the cinereous surface of the port, moving like some tall hunting bird toward
that flicker of movement. Ducky struggled after him, panting, her flesh
bobbling and jiggling as though a thousand small springs inside were
heterodyning against one another. Her companion had moved into shadow. She
didn't see him, and then she did, one hand striking, head moving like a
spearlike beak, the hand coming back with something pale and fishy wriggling
in it. He turned and carried the thing toward her.
When he came close enough for her to see, she cried
out in surprise. There it was, just like the last one. Another naked girl with
no expression in her face, wriggling like a fish on a spear, not saying anything
at all.
"Well," he said. "What do you think of
that?"
"What's that in her hand?" Ducky asked.
"What's she carrying, and what was she doing there?"
"Trying to get aboard," Saint Teresa said,
holding the girl tight under one arm as he pried the thing from her tight
fingers. He held it out, and Ducky leaned forward to look at it.
"It's a dead bat," she said. "All
dried up. What was she carrying that for?"
They looked at the girl, at one another, full of
questions and surmise. "You know who it is," Ducky said. "It's
Diamante bon Damfels is who it is. The one they called Dimity. The one that
vanished first thing this spring. It has to be."
He didn't contradict her. "Now what?" he
asked at last.
"Now we'll take her to Roald Few," Ducky
said. "As I should have taken the last one. Take her, and it, and ask
Jelly to come along, and Jandra, and anybody else with any sense in their
heads. I don't know what's happening here, old crane, but I don't like it,
whatever it is."
In the Tree City of the Arbai night had come like a
polite visitor, announcing itself with diffidence, moving slowly among the
bridges and trellises, softly among the wraithlike inhabitants, quietly into
each room to carpet every floor with shadow. Night had come gently; darkness
had not come at all. Effulgent spheres lined each walkway and hung from each
ceiling. They cast an opalescent glow, not enough light to work by and yet
enough to see walls and floors and ramps, to know where one went, to see the faces
of one's friends, to see the ghosts as they walked in and out.
Among the houses fronting upon the high platform,
several were less frequented by phantoms. In one of these Tony and Marjorie had
spread their beds and arranged their belongings. The two Brothers, the priest,
and Sylvan had selected another. Once that was done, they had assembled on the
open platform to eat together, sharing their own rations and the strange fruits
Rillibee had garnered from the nearby trees. Several of the foxen had been close
by for a brief time. The humans had seen shadows, heard voices reminiscent of
the great cry, felt questions in their most intimate minds, tried to answer.
Eventually the presences had gone. Now the humans knew they were alone.
"There is a lot I don't understand," Tony
said, conveying what they all felt. There had been an interchange, but most of
it had been more enigmatic and tantalizing than informative.
"There is much I have never understood,"
Brother Mainoa said. He looked very weary tonight, very old.
"These foxen are the children of the
Hippae?" Father James asked. "They talked much of that."
"Not children," Brother Mainoa said.
"No. No more than the butterfly is the child of the caterpillar."
"Another metamorphosis," Marjorie told
them. "Hippae metamorphose into foxen."
"Some do," he assented. "Not all
do."
"All once did," she insisted, sure of it.
It was clear to her, though the means by which the knowledge had come was hard
to define. She simply knew. "All the Hippae used to become foxen, long ago."
"All once did," he agreed. "And at
that time, it was the foxen who laid the eggs."
Marjorie rubbed her head, trying to remember things
she had learned long ago in school. "It must have been a mutation,"
she said. "Some of the Hippae must have mutated and began to reproduce
precociously, while they were still in the Hippae stage. There are animals that
do that even on Terra. Reproduce in their larval stage, I mean. But in order
for that mutation to have survived, there must have been some reproductive advantage...."
"It is in the Hippae stage that they use
caverns. Perhaps the Hippae guarded their own eggs more assiduously,"
Father James offered. "Perhaps more of the Hippae eggs survived than did
those of the foxen."
"And in time, Hippae did most of the reproduction.
And not all of them metamorphosed into these creatures, these foxen, anymore.
How many foxen are there?"
"Planet-wide?" Brother Mainoa shook his
head "Who knows? Every time the great cry is heard, these elder foxen know
that a new one has been changed. They go out, tens and dozens of them, and try
to find the new one—find it, welcome it, bring it into the forest where it will
be safe. But if the Hippae find it first, they kill it while it is still weak
and uncertain, or if it takes refuge in a copse, they get men on their backs
and hunt it down."
"Don't the Hippae know that they themselves
..." Father James shook his head.
Brother Mainoa laughed bitterly. "They don't
believe it. They don't believe that they change into foxen. They refuse to believe
it. They think they remain always as they are until they die. Many of them do
die. Don't you remember when you were a boy, Father? Did you ever think, then,
that you would grow older?"
Sylvan moved restlessly along the braided railing,
looking out into the night of the forest. "They must hate us," he
said. "All the time they were talking to you, I kept thinking how they
must hate us bons." "Because you hunt them?" Tony asked.
"Yes. Because we bons hunt them. Because we help
the Hippae hunt them."
"I don't think they blame you," Brother
Mainoa said. "They blame themselves." He thought about this for a
moment, then amended it. "At least, that's how the one I've been talking
to feels. The others may feel differently."
"What do you call him?" Marjorie asked.
"I can't come up with a label for him. Them."
"First," Brother Mainoa replied. "I
call him First. Or Him, capitalized, as though He were God." He laughed
weakly.
"It was they you were talking about when we had
lunch together at Opal Hill," Father James said. "The foxen! It is
they who were concerned with original sin."
Brother Mainoa sighed. "Yes. Though the reason I
gave for their concern was not the real one. They have no pangs of conscience
over eating the peepers. They have always done so. There are far more peepers
than the world could hold if they all matured, and the foxen know that. They
eat them as big fish eat little fish, with no concern for the relationship. No,
what weighed upon them was the genocide of the Arbai. Some of them have
acquired ideas of sin and guilt from our minds, and they do not know what to do
with these concepts. It distresses them. Those that think about it. Not all of
them do. Like us, they are variable. Like us, they argue, sometimes
bitterly."
Father James turned toward him, curious. "They
feel guilty because of the slaughter in the Arbai city?"
"No. Not merely that slaughter. I mean the genocide of the Arbai,"
Mainoa repeated. "All the Arbai. Everywhere. I don't know how it was done,
but the Hippae killed them all."
"Everywhere?" Marjorie was incredulous.
"On other worlds? Everywhere?"
"As the plague is killing us everywhere
now," said Father James in sudden comprehension. "I think that's why
Brother Mainoa brought us here."
"That's why," Brother Mainoa sighed again.
"Because the foxen, at least some of the foxen, did not want it to happen
again. They thought they had prevented its happening again. Don't ask me how, I
don't know. Somehow, they were not careful enough, not attentive enough, and
though there are things they have not or will not tell me, they have said it
may already be too late."
"No," Marjorie said. "No. It cannot be
too late. I will not accept that."
Brother Mainoa shrugged, his tired face crumpling.
Father James reached out a hand.
"No," she said again with absolute
certainty, thinking of Stella, out there somewhere, of Tony, of all those she
had known and cared about all her life. Very small being or not, nameless or
not. she would not tolerate this. "Whatever else we may believe, we may
not believe it is too late."
15
At the Friary, while an aircar was readied and
certain accoutrements were assembled (assassins, for the use of, Elder Brother
Fuasoi thought to himself, grimacing at his own private joke) Fuasoi stewed and
steamed in his lonely office, thinking of a thousand ways the plans of the
Moldies might already have been forestalled. Or, if not already, then
imminently. Perhaps Sanctity had found out about him and had sent people.
Perhaps the Health Authority on Semling had become aware of Moldy plots.
Perhaps Mainoa had talked to others; perhaps the ambassador knew. He opened his
desk drawer for the tenth time, searching for the book that wasn't there,
Mainoa's book. Who had taken it? Had Jhamlees taken it? That totally Sanctified
idiot? Had he? If he had, Jhamlees would be messaging Sanctity about it.
Messaging, getting messages back. Like a message from the Hierarch saying, open
the secret armory and take the planet for Sanctity. A message like that.
Not that he knew there was a secret armory here in
the Friary. Everyone said so; but then, everyone could be wrong. Suppose the
Green Brothers did take the planet, wipe out the bons and the mounts and the
hounds; so then what would they do with it?
They'd find a cure, that's what they'd do with it.
Mainoa had seemed to think there was a cure here. They'd find it. Give them a
little time...
Fuasoi had assumed there was plenty of time to spread
the virus. He had not hurried. Now Jhamlees might be onto him, and urgency
overwhelmed him. Yes, Brothers Flumzee and Niayop and Sushlee and Thissayim and
Lillamool should find that damned Mainoa and kill him—kill Mainoa and Lourai
and anyone else who was with them. Yes, that should be done. At once. But there
was one other thing that needed to happen at once: the distribution of the
virus. In Commons. That's where it would do the most good. That's where people
were packed most closely together. He had delayed unconscionably. He had
diddled. Uncle Shales would not have been proud of him.
He took a small carrying bag from his cupboard,
placed the packet of virus inside on top of a change of clothing, covered it
with an additional robe which was all Shoethai would need, left his office, and
went down hay-smelling corridors to the gravel court where he found Shoethai
himself, just closing an engine housing.
"Is it ready?" the Elder Brother asked. He
stood back and regarded the aircar with disfavor. It was one of the bigger
ones, with two cabins, a large one up front and a private one behind, each opening
to the outside. One of the smaller cars would have done as well and would have
moved faster. Still, if it had been serviced. "Is it?" he repeated.
Shoethai grimaced, giggled, said it was. There was
something almost gleeful in his manner, and the Elder Brother assumed that the
thought of Mainoa's destruction pleased Shoethai. Well, and it should. The
thought of anyone's destruction pleased Moldies. The more gone, the fewer left
to go, so Moldies said.
"Where's Flumzee?"
Shoethai gestured to an alleyway from which Highbones
was at that moment emerging, closely followed by four of his henchmen. When
they saw the Elder Brother they stopped in confusion, tardily remembering to
bow.
"I'm going with you," the Elder Brother
announced. Shoethai howled—only briefly, only a moment's howl, but enough to
bring six pairs of eyes toward him. He groveled, curling his misshapen
shoulders, so that his voice came from between his knees like bubbles rising in
hot mud. "Elder Brother, you should not risk yourself. You have important
work—"
"Which I'm about to do," Fuasoi said
firmly. "After Flumzee and the others have found their quarry, you and I
will take care of other urgent business."
"Me!" Shoethai squeaked. "Me!"
"You. You won't need anything. I've brought you
an extra robe. Get in." He turned to Brother Flumzee. "You can drive
this thing, I hope."
Highbones managed to bite down his glee and keep a
serious expression on his face. "Certainly, Elder Brother. I am an
excellent driver."
"You know where to go?"
"Shoethai said a place called Darenfeld's
Coppice, northeast of Klive. I have a map. We're to look for a side trail
there."
Fuasoi grunted assent. "Shoethai and I will take
the back cabin." Shoethai seemed to be having one of his spasms, so Fuasoi
took hold of him and thrust him up into the car, following him in and slamming
the compartment door behind him.
The others cast quick, eager looks at one another as
they assembled themselves in the front cabin, where Highbones sat at the
controls with the ease of long imagination, if not actual practice. He had
driven aircars now and then since coming to Grass. He had driven them often in
his youth. Within moments they had risen high above the towers of the Friary
and were on their way south.
"Can they hear us from back there?" Brother
Niayop, Steeplehands, asked quietly.
Highbones laughed. "Not over the sound of the
engines, Brother. "Isn't there a speaker?"
Highbones pointed wordlessly. The dial on the console
before him was in the off position.
Highbones was trying to keep from showing excitement. His cohorts were starting
to make enthusiastic noises, but he felt it behooved a leader to behave in a
more dignified fashion, at least until it got time for the killing. Then there
could be whooping and yelling and incitements of various kinds that they were
used to. They'd never killed anybody old before. They'd never killed anybody
directly before, not with their hands. Knocking someone off a tower or kicking
them off—that didn't seem like murder. It seemed more like a game He wasn't
quite sure how they would manage killing women, though he knew he couldn't get
the others—or himself—to do it right away. Elder Brother Fuasoi had told
Shoethai there might be women. Shoethai had told Highbones, and Highbones and
his friends had talked about that most of the night.
Highbones sat very still as he thought of women, not
to disturb the hot throbbing that filled all the space in his groin and spilled
over into his legs and up across the skin of his belly. He had had a woman
before he had been sent to Sanctity. When he was fifteen, before they sent him.
None since, but he remembered.
Her name had been Lisian. Lisian Fentrees. Her body
had been white. Her hair had curled around her face, like clustered golden
leaves. Her breasts had been soft and crowned with pink, with little slits at
the tip that turned into nipples if he sucked on them.
They had spent all the time together that they could,
all the time away from school or parents or religion.
She had said she loved him. He couldn't remember what
he had said, but sometimes he thought he must have told her he loved her, too.
Why would she have said it or gone on saying it, otherwise?
One morning he had wakened to a hand on his shoulder,
had looked through half-opened eyes at a sun-blurred someone and had thought
for a moment it was Lisian. It had the same whiteness, goldness, the same curve
of face. The smell was wrong. It wasn't Lisian, it was his mother. "Get
up, boy," she'd said. "You're going on a trip today." Nothing in
her voice at all. no tears. As though it didn't matter.
They said ten years. The next ten years of his life
pledged to Sanctity and no one had ever told him a word about it. Not until
that day. Didn't want us worrying about it. Didn't want us thinking
about it. Didn't want Dad upset.
And not even a chance to say goodbye to Lisian.
Lisian of the soft, warm, ahhhh ...
Memory was as strong in him as reality. The throbbing
spilled over into a spasm he couldn't control, and the car dipped and shimmied
while the others howled and yelled at him. "Whooee, Highbones must be
dankin' himself, look at that. Dank, dank, Highbones. Do it again, we wanta
watch."
He snarled at them, striking out with one arm to
knock Little Bridge off his seat, struggling against tears. "Shut up. I
wasn't dankin'. I was ... I was thinking what old Fuasoi said, about
women."
Silence. Highbones had said he had a girl once, even
though he wouldn't talk about her. Steeplehands had had women, so he said. None
of the others had. Both the Bridges had been too young when they came to
Sanctity, ten or eleven. And Ropeknots liked boys. Well, hell, they all liked
boys. When that's what you had, that's what you did.
"Tell us about women," Long Bridge said.
"Come on, Bones. Tell us about your girlfriend."
"Let Steep tell you," he snarled again,
surreptitiously wiping at his face. "I'm busy." Darenfeld's Coppice
was below them and he had found the side trail. The trail wasn't easy to
follow, though. Long shadows crossed it and hid it from sight, even from above.
When he could see it, it wound among grass hillocks and through copses, leading
generally westward. Far ahead, a dark line on the horizon, the swamp-forest
stretched away to the north and south. The trail led toward it.
Behind him, Steeplehands was describing women in
urgent, prurient detail, dwelling upon orifices and the feel and lubrication
thereof. Highbones tried not to listen. That wasn't it. What Steep was saying
wasn't it. It was something else about women. Something he'd lost but wanted to
remember.
The swamp forest was not far ahead of them now.
Highbones scarcely saw it in his effort to recall what it was he'd lost, among
old images, half-forgotten names. Something. He could almost put his mind on
it!
The drive sputtered. Highbones frowned, came to
himself with a start of panic, eyes darting across the dials in front of him.
The car had been serviced just before they left. That monster Shoethai had seen
to it. Fuasoi had seen to it.
It sputtered again, then whined. "Grab
something," Highbones shouted. "We've got a problem."
He headed downward, faster than he knew to be safe,
but if the thing zizzed out he wanted to be on the ground, near the trail. It
sputtered, hissed, whined, then sputtered again. They dropped a hundred feet
and Long howled in pain. "I bit my tongue—"
"You'll bite more than that if you don't hold
on."
They slipped sideways, then recovered just long
enough for Bones to set it down in a long, sliding skid through lashing grasses
which ended with all of them thrown against the door, which broke open and
spilled them out onto the bruised stems.
"Oh, God," whined Steep. "Oh,
God."
"Shut up," commanded Highbones. "If
the Hippae don't know we're here, don't go telling them we are." He stood
up, feeling himself to make sure he was all there, not broken anywhere, not
bleeding. Aside from a graze along his jaw, he was whole. "Rope, you all
right? Long? Little?"
"All right, I guess."
"Fucking thing hit me right across my nose
..."
"Think I broke something."
Highbones slapped and snarled. "You didn't break
anything. Lie down and your nose'll stop bleeding." When he was sure they
were all accounted for, he turned back to the car and tried the door to the
rear compartment. It was jammed, or locked from inside. He hammered on it,
trying to make enough noise to rouse those inside yet not enough to rouse
something else out in the grass. "Elder Brother!"
Nothing. No response.
He turned to the forward cabin and dug out the packs
they had brought with them.
"Listen," said Little Bridge with a
frightened look at the sun. low in the western sky. "If we're going to be
here after dark, we oughta stay in the car. If some Hippae find us, there'd be
some protection being in there."
"Swamp forest just ahead," said Highbones.
"We're going there."
"Swamp forest! Are you crazy?"
"I said, we're going there. Anybody wants to
stay here can stay. Anybody feels like trying to fix the car, that's up to you.
I'm going to the forest. Hippae don't go in the forest."
"Neither do people," muttered Steeplehands.
"Or they come out dead." He was careful not to say it loudly.
Highbones didn't answer. He was already halfway back
to the trail they had been following when the car zizzed out. When he reached
it, he turned to his right and started down it. Those who has passed this way
had broken enough of the tall and tough grasses that it wasn't difficult to
walk in the stubble. Though he didn't look back, within moments he heard the
others blundering along behind him. He hoped they'd picked up their own packs;
he didn't intend going back for them.
Inside the rear cabin, Shoethai came to himself
slowly. Both he and the Elder Brother had been thrown against the door, or
rather, thrown against the latch bar which held it closed. He looked upward
through the viewport. Sky. Darkening sky.
"Elder Brother!"
Fuasoi put his hands under himself and pushed himself
into an upright position. "What happened?"
"We ... it ... it came down/'
"You serviced it!"
"We ... I ... I didn't know we'd be on it!"
"You did this?"
Shoethai was silent, crouched in a faceless huddle.
The irony of it didn't escape Fuasoi. He laughed, one short bark of laughter.
"Hated them, did you?" he asked, not expecting a response.
"Thought you'd kill two birds with one stone—or more than that?" He
received only a snivel in reply. "Let's get out of here. You know you may
have just lost your chance in the next world, Shoethai. I'm not sure the
Creator is going to look kindly on you."
Shoethai screamed in rage and threw himself at
Fuasoi. The latch on the door jarred loose and spilled them out, Shoethai still
screaming.
Fuasoi knocked his assailant aside and got to his
feet. Shoethai cowered among the grasses, alternately sobbing and yelling. The
carrying bag had fallen out with them. Fuasoi unfastened it and took out the
package it contained. The virus. Well. He had intended to spread it about in
Commons, but perhaps it would have to be trusted to the winds. He reached for
his knife and slit the package.
And stopped. Coming through the grasses was a hound.
A huge hound. Grinning at him.
Reflex action took over. He threw the package with
all his strength and then tried to scramble back into the car. The package
burst, spreading its dark, powdery contents over the approaching beast.
Shoethai had time for one more howl
From the crest of a long ridge, Highbones and the
others heard howling behind them at the same moment they could look down on the
stretching barricade of trees. The sound behind them was almost gleeful For a
time it stayed where it was, yammering. Highbones and the others did not remain
where they were. As they ran, however, the sound grew nearer, coming on their
trail. Highbones ran faster than he had known he could, hearing the thump and
pant of Steeplehands and Long Bridge close behind him. The other two had fallen
back. They had shorter legs. Little Bridge was still a kid.
"Wait," yelled Ropeknots "Wait for
us."
"Wait, hell," breathed Steeplehands,
drawing slightly ahead.
Their feet hammered on the ground as the howling
neared. Behind the leaders came one scream, then another. Whatever was chasing
them stopped for a moment. Highbones and the two close behind him did not stop
to see what it was.
In a moment the howling started again Though it came
very swiftly, it had not caught them by the time they splashed through the
shallow mire at the edges of the forest. They stopped only when they came to
the first deep pools gleaming with oily reflections in the dying of the
daylight.
"Now what?" Long Bridge demanded. "You
want to go wading in there?"
"Not likely," said Highbones. His eyes were
fixed on vine-draped trees towering from liquid depths. "Not likely."
He laid a hand on the nearest vine and asked, "Will he climb?" as he
swung himself up, feet pushing him along a spiraled vine-trunk and onto the
first branch above their heads. "Will he?"
They stopped halfway up to look back the way they had
come. The grass moved ominously, but there was nothing there to see. Of Little
Bridge and Ropeknots, no sign. They waited, then Steeplehands said,
"They're deaders, Bones, lust like on the towers. No different than
that."
The three exchanged glances, then lofted themselves
with the ease of long practice, moving effortlessly into the heights.
In his private quarters at the Friary, Administrator
Jhamlees Zoe sought among a miscellany of papers for the packet which had come
from Sanctity, from his old friend Cory Strange. He had sealed it up and hidden
it to keep it safe from prying eyes. Now that he had seen Mainoa's book, he
needed to read the letter again.
The packet had a security wrap on it, and Jhamlees
had to stop several times to remember the proper sequences to prevent the thing
from going off in his hands and taking his face with it. All this nonsense.
Well, what was the office of Security and Acceptable Doctrine to do with
itself, back there on Terra, if it did not engage in these senseless exercises.
Coded cover letters. Explosive wraps.
Once he had burrowed his way into the packet,
Jhamlees skimmed the pages, reminding himself that he was expected to inform
his old friend if anything at all were discovered on Grass, Jhamlees referred
to the enclosed itinerary with a pout of frustration. Much though he would have
liked to seal his former friendship with the Hierarch, there was no point in
attempting to send word about this Mainoa matter. The Hierarch was already on
the last leg of his journey to Grass.
Jhamlees folded the letter and thrust it into his
pocket. No more need to keep it. He'd dispose of it later. The rest of the
packet— twelve pages of sanctimonious hash and the publicly announced itinerary
of the Hierarch—could be left out where anyone could see it.
Advance word or no advance word, when the Hierarch
arrived he would expect his friend Nods to know anything there was to be known.
Mainoa had written as though those at Opal Hill knew something, or as though
he, Mainoa, knew something. Question: Was there a cure? That's what the
Hierarch would want to know! Brother Mainoa had gone off somewhere, so he
couldn't be asked until and unless he was found. That left the only other one
who might know. Roderigo Yrarier. Not even one of the Sanctified! A heretical
Old Catholic, no better than a pagan!
Elder Brother Jhamlees summoned Yavi Foosh.
"Find out where Ambassador Roderigo Yrarier is now. Arrange for me to
visit him." Yavi shuffled his feet, staring at the floor.
"Well?"
"Well, Elder Brother, I think he could be
dead."
"Dead!"
"There was a great set-to at the bon Laupmons'
place. Hippae and riders and all. Lots of them got killed. Hippae, too. This
ambassador was in the middle of it. Way I hear it, his servants took him away
to the hospital at the port, but he may be dead."
"Dead." Elder Brother Jhamlees sat down and
frowned at the desktop with a sick, panicky feeling. Cory would not like that.
"Well, if he isn't dead, I need to see him. Find out."
Yavi scuttled off to find out while Jhamlees thought bleakly
how the new Hierarch would react to a message saying, "Dear Brother in
Sanctity. The only two people who might know anything at all about this are
probably dead." In his anything but amused contemplation of this
possibility, Jhamlees forgot his intention to burn the Hierarch's letter.
Rigo came to himself among a whisper of machines. He
tried to move and found he could not. His arms had been thrust inside two bulky
mechanisms, one at either side of the narrow, barely padded bed he lay upon.
Heal-alls, he told himself as he fought down panic. Another Heal-all had
swallowed his legs. He tried to speak and could not. A mask was fastened over
his nose and mouth.
Someone came, however, and peered at his eyes with an
expression of gratification. After a moment the same someone took the mask away
and demanded, "Do you know where you are?"
"Not sure," Rigo said in a slushy, bubbling
voice. "Hospital, I suppose. At the port. I think I got trampled."
"Good, good." The figure turned away and
gloated over the dials and flashing lights on the machines. A woman. Not much
to look at, but definitely a woman. "Good," the woman said.
"Who?" Rigo asked. "Who brought me
here?"
"Your man," the woman answered. "Or
men. One or several."
"Is he here?"
"No. Good heavens, no. Had to go back and
evacuate your house. Get the people out. He said something about the Hippae
retaliating."
"Marjorie!" Rigo tried to sit upright.
"Now, now." Rigo was pushed into a
recumbent position once more. "You aren't to worry. They'll get everyone
out."
They couldn't get Marjorie out. She hadn't been
there. Not Marjorie, nor Tony, nor Father Sandoval. Nor the two Brothers from
the Arbai city, according to Tony's note; they hadn't been there either. All of
them had gone away together. With Sylvan. At least according to the challenge
delivered by bon Haunser for the Hippae, they had gone away with Sylvan.
Rigo groaned, trying to recall what had happened. The
last clear memory was of that damned bon Haunser saying something about
Marjorie and Sylvan. Sylvan who had gone away with her.
And with Tony, he reminded himself, and with a priest
and two Brothers. Hardly a tete-a-tete. No, Marjorie had never had
tete-a-tetes. Marjorie had never been unfaithful. Marjorie had never been
guilty of any of the things he had accused her of. She had never refused him.
Always let him come into her room, into her bed, whenever he'd wanted to. And
now Marjorie was— Well, where was she?
"Is there any news of my wife?" he asked as
the moment of clarity passed into a morass of threatened pain, great pain
somewhere, being held back by a slender dike, a thin wall, a tissue which was
fragile and beginning to leak.
"Hush," said the woman. "You can talk
later." She fiddled with a dial, looking narrowly at Rigo's face as Rigo
felt himself being irresistibly sent into sleep once more, to dream of
Marjorie alone with Sylvan.
Marjorie was alone with Sylvan.
Brother Mainoa and Rillibee Chime were asleep.
Rillibee had climbed to the top of a tall tree and had then come down again to
tell them there was no way through the swamp forest to Commons. Not on the
ground. Through the trees the way would be a little slow, but he could get
there, he said, if there was any reason to go. Then he had lain down beside
Brother Mainoa and fallen into recurrent dreams. From time to time Marjorie
could hear his voice, raised in wordless ejaculations, wonder or complaint,
perhaps both.
There were no foxen nearby. For a time, earlier, all
of the humans had crouched in a house, arms folded protectively around their
heads while the foxen disputed something among themselves. The dispute washed
over them like waves of fire. After a time, they felt noticed by the foxen, and
then there was a sense of departure. Almost as though one of them had said to
another, ''Oh, we're killing the little human creatures. We'd better go farther
away." Brother Mainoa had seemed wearier than ever after they left,
weighed down by some great burden of care.
'They won't tell me," he cried. "They know,
but they won't tell me."
Marjorie could guess what it was they wouldn't tell.
The foxen knew all about the plague, she was sure of it. They knew, but they
wouldn't tell. And poor old Mainoa was so tired and distraught, she could not
suggest that he try to talk to them more.
Tony and Father James had gone to explore the Tree
City. Marjorie had thought Sylvan was going with them. She found he hadn't only
when the others were well gone, too long gone for her to join them.
Sylvan had planned to remain behind. Now that
Marjorie was away from her family, away from this husband she spoke of as
though he were a barrier—now that she was away from that, he wanted to talk of
love again. She would probably tell him to go away. He would tell her he had
nowhere to go, and he would be charming. So he told himself. So he had been
telling himself for some time.
Surprisingly, she didn't tell him to go away.
Instead, she looked at him with a detachment he found almost chilling. "I
find you very attractive. Sylvan. I found Rigo attractive, too, before we were
married. It was only afterward that I found out we didn't fit together at all.
I wonder if it would be like that with you."
What was there to say to that? "I don't
know," he said haltingly. "I really don't know."
"He has never once allowed me inside his
masculine skin," she said with a rueful smile. 'He doesn't notice what I
am, but only what I am not, which is whatever he may be wanting at any
particular time. Eugenie does far better than I. He expects very little from
her, and that helps. Then too, she is soft for him, like clay. She takes his
impress and accepts it, like a reverse image, suiting herself to him." She
frowned, thinking. "I tried that, at first. It didn't work at all. I
cannot be that to him. I could have been something else, a friend perhaps, but
that didn't fit his notion of what a wife should be, so we are not very good
friends, Rigo and I." She turned to Sylvan, fixing him with a resolute
glare. "I will never love anyone who is not first my friend, Sylvan. I
wonder if you could be my friend."
"I would!"
"Well then, let us set about it!" She
smiled at him, a humorless bowing of the lips. "First I must find my
child. I have no choice but to do that, or kill myself trying. You can help me.
If we accomplish that, then there is another task awaiting us. People are dying
everywhere. We must try to find a solution. So, if you love me, let us talk
with one another of what we have to do, but not of ourselves. We will be
careful not to touch one another. Gradually, if we are successful and do not
die, our natures will emerge and we may understand one another. Perhaps we
could become friends."
"But ... but—"
She shook her head at him warningly. "If you're
unwilling to do that, then you could show the love you claim to have by leaving
me alone. I apologize for dragging you along with us, but I needed you to guide
us. The apology is all I can offer. Until we find Stella, I can't spare the
time for anything more, not even for argument."
She leaned on the railing, her hair falling forward
around her face, a golden veil, masking her from him. Sometimes for a few
moments she forgot Stella, only to remember her again with a spasm of intimate
agony. Like backward childbirth. As though she were trying to take the child
back, encompass it once again. Keep it safe. Suck it up into her womb once
more. As obscene as it was impossible, despite the pain she felt. Still, it
would do no more good to scream or cry or thrash about now than it would have
done when she bore the child. It would do no good to grieve. It would do no
good to try to distract herself with Sylvan either, though the thought had
crossed her mind. She had wondered whether it would be the same with him as
with Rigo. Whether it would be the same with all men as with Rigo. Awful, to
live out one's life and never know! But no. As she had begun, so let her go on.
At least she would not have to reproach herself later for that!
"Stella," she said aloud, reminding herself.
Sylvan was abruptly angry at himself. If Stella had
died, he wouldn't have expected Marjorie to be interested in lovemaking. Why
had he thought she could be interested with Stella gone?
Lost in their separate worlds, neither was given the
opportunity to reconcile them. Tony's voice called from among the glowing
alleys. When he came closer they sensed that he and Father James were
accompanied by First, by Him. In Marjorie's mind, the name announced itself.
For Sylvan's benefit she said, "It's Brother Mainoa's friend.
"I see," he said, annoyed. He could barely
detect the creatures. He could not hear them. He could not have an hour alone
with Marjorie. He could not, seemingly, accomplish anything he desired.
"I think he's trying to tell me he's found
Stella." Tony cried. "I can't be sure. Where's Brother Mainoa?"
"Here." The old man leaned from the door of
a neighboring house. "Here, Tony. Ah ..." He fell silent, one hand
stretched toward the foxen like an antenna, feeling for meaning.
"Yes," he said. "Your daughter. They've found her."
"Oh, God," she cried. It was a prayer.
"Is she—?"
"Alive," he confirmed. "Alive but
either asleep or unconscious. They haven't disturbed her."
"Shall we get the horses?"
"They suggest, if you have no objection, that
they will take you." Even in this extremity she remained concerned about
the horses. "Will we be coming back here?"
Quiet, then Brother Mainoa gesturing.
"Yes." He clutched at some passing pain in his side, shaking his
head. "In fact, I think I'll stay here now, if you don't mind. You don't
need me for this."
Father James, with a troubled look at Mainoa, chose
to stay with him. The others crept apprehensively upon foxen backs and were
carried away through the trees, along walkways and branches, moving away from
the tree city into darkness, over moving water, under stars, coming at last to
the edge of the forest. Foxen backs were wider than horse's backs—wider,
muscled differently. There seemed to be no limit, no edges to those backs. It
was not so much a matter of riding as of being carried, like children sitting
upon a slowly rocking table. The message was clear "We won't let you
fall." After a time, they relaxed and let themselves be transported.
They sensed other foxen meeting them at the edge of
the trees and escorting them along the swamp, not far but slow going as they
detoured patches of bog and arms of the forest itself. Finally they came to a
declivity where water ran, the first stream any of them had seen on Grass. It
didn't run far, only into a wide pool from which it seeped invisibly away.
Beside the water Stella lay in a nest of grass, curled up, barefooted, half
unclothed, with her thumb in her mouth.
When Marjorie knelt beside Stella and touched her,
the girl woke screaming, fighting, saying her own name over and over, "Stella,
I'm Stella, Stella," writhing with such
violence that Marjorie was thrust away. Rillibee grabbed the girl, hugged her,
held her quiet. After a time the screaming stopped. Rillibee spoke to her
softly, calmly. Tony touched her. She twitched, opening her mouth to scream
once more. Tony drew back and she quivered but did not scream. She would not
tolerate even Sylvan's touch, and each time Marjorie came near her, she went
into frenzied spasms of screaming and weeping, her face contorted with guilt
and pain and shame.
Though Rillibee, who was a stranger, could hold her,
evidently she could not bear to be near anyone she knew, Marjorie turned away,
pained at being rejected, ecstatic to have found her. At least Stella reacted.
At least she knew her name. At least she could distinguish between those she
knew and those she didn't. At least she wasn't like Janetta.
Sylvan laid a caressing hand on her shoulder.
"Marjorie."
She drew herself up, made herself nod, made herself
think and speak There was no time for grieving or for pointless agitation.
"If the foxen will carry you, I want you to carry her through the forest
to Commons. She needs medical care, and the quickest way will be if the foxen
can get her there through the trees. You go, Rillibee, because she seems to
trust you. Tony, you go to arrange things. I'll go back to Brother Mainoa and
Father James."
Sylvan said hopefully, "I'll come back with
you."
"No," she said, looking him in the eyes,
her mouth stern. "I want you to go with them, Sylvan. I said this to you
before. I came to Grass for a reason, an important reason. The more I find out,
the more important that reason becomes, but I keep getting sidetracked—by you,
by Rigo, by Stella, by disappearances and alarms, cluttering up everything. All
you do is distract me and bother me."
"Mother." said Tony. "Leaving you
here—"
"Go, Tony. Stella is alive. I'm joyful about
that, but we mustn't forget all the others. There is plague out there, and
people dying of it. The foxen know things. Someone must find out what they
know.
Brother Mainoa is old and tired, and Father James may
need my help. I'll stay and find out what I can."
"After Stella's cared for, I'll come back,"
Tony said. "Yes. Do. Either you or Rillibee. And let your father know
what's happened if you can."
She turned and reached out in the direction of the
foxen, thinking of Commons, across the forest. She pictured Tony going there,
Tony and Stella and Sylvan and Rillibee. The picture solidified in her mind,
became real, as clear as though she were seeing it, and she had a sudden
headache. A purring sound came from the grasses. Foxen drew near. People were
drawn upon broad backs once more, fished up like wreckage from the deep,
Rillibee dragging Stella's limp body up with him while she whimpered like some
small, hurt animal.
An uncertain number of foxen moved into the forest
and disappeared. Marjorie felt herself summoned, and she climbed upon His back
once again with a strange mixture of feelings: relief, grief, anger all mushed
up together like an emotional goulash. Into her mind came both the picture and
the feel of stroking hands. She leaned forward upon the endless expanse of hide
and cried while the stroking went on. After a time the stroking changed into a
firm patting, the feeling was of someone telling her to straighten up, behave
herself. Marjorie felt herself saying, "Yes, Mother," in her mind.
Laughter. At least amusement.
"Yes, Father," she amended, slightly amused
despite herself. Beneath her His shoulders moved gently. Male. Indisputably
male. Prancing, prowling. The gait, male. Head moving, so, so. Male. Claws
sliding in their sheaths, fingers touching, delicate as needles. Male. She saw
multitudes of shapes, not quite clearly, most of them male. The males were
violet and plum and mauve and deep wine red. The females were smaller, more
softly blue, though she could not see them, either. Male, he told her. I.
"First." Male.
Yes, she assented. He was male. He had thought
"First" at her with quotation marks around it. Not his name, then.
Merely something Mainoa called him. In his own mind the symbol of his name had
movement and color—a purple wildness, full of scarlet lightning, veiled with
gray-blue cloud. Himself.
Pictures moved in her mind. She saw Mainoa, stout and
green-clad, walking soberly among the foxen shapes. Around him an aura bloomed,
a shadow gathered, pale light on a dark ground, the light growing dimmer. Still
he walked, indomitable, his feet a counterpoint to the movement beneath her.
Mainoa, she thought. I like him, too.
A new vision. Marjorie among the multitude of foxen.
Not herself, precisely, but an idealized Marjorie who danced on low turf amid
a gathering of foxen, creatures without shape or limitation and yet
indisputably themselves. They were dancing with their shadows as the sun either
rose or set, the long shadows seeming to stretch almost to the horizon. Sinuous
shadows. Sensuous shadows. She, Marjorie, among sinuous, sensuous shadows, dancing
with the foxen.
They danced in pairs, male and female, weaving their
shadows together, letting their shadows touch. Shadows, and minds, touching.
The others danced in pairs. Marjorie danced with First, the sleeves of her
shirt growing wide, like wings, flowing like a tail, her hair loose in a silky
mane. A female. Dancing. She still could not see His vision of Himself, but she
could see His vision of her.
You. Marjorie. Female. Gait. Motion. Color. Smell.
Perilous, she whispered inside herself. Dangerous.
Beneath her the muscles of his shoulders moved like
fingers, touching her. Perilous. Yes. Dangerous. Yes. Mysterious. Wonderful.
Awful. Mighty. His skin spoke to her as horses' skin had always spoken to her,
conveying emotion, conveying intention. She lay upon his back as she had lain
upon Quixote's, trusting— For one blinding instant she saw clearly, and the
glory of sight stunned her into shocked withdrawal. She felt herself draw
shudderingly away, refusing. Denying.
He sensed her denial. In the dance he stood on his
hind legs and changed, becoming manlike, maned and tailed, not a man but manlike,
mane and tail flowing, mixing with her hair as he drew her into a closer dance.
The other foxen were paired, moving, part of it all, unintrusively part.
Joy. Movement in joy. One pair touching another pair.
Like the pendants of a wind chime, striking one another, each moving, each
striking, each sounding, but gently, barely touching, the minds striking, soft
blows as from gigantic paws, gentle as leaves, sounds like bells, like soft
horns blowing.
No words. Purring, roaring, growling from wide
gullets where ivory fangs hung like stalactites of feeling into her,
penetrating deep. Wide jaws closing, holding, gentle as a caress. She would not
join the dance of her own will. She would be joined in it by His. She would not
see Him. He would see her.
No thought at all. Sensation only. Floating on it as
it billowed up beneath her like a great sail. No commitment. Merely sensation.
Now. Only now.
Dangerous, he reminded her with laughter. Perilous. A
presence, hovering, ready to pounce, able to pounce. Herself the prey.
Floating, as though on blood, warm, liquid, permeating, becoming air to
breathe Aware of him. The sensuous extrusion of claws. Ripple of muscle in a leg.
Mass of shoulder, heave of gut, thunder of heart. Lightning trickling along
nerves like golden wire.
Claws touched her, gently, drawing down her naked
flesh like fingernails, sensation running behind them, shivering. Perilous. Perilous.
The edge of his tongue touched her naked thigh,
sliding like a narrow, flaming serpent into her crotch.
A flaming symbol with two parts which moved together
to fuse with aching slowness into one. She could almost see them. My name, He
said. Your name. We.
The serpent raised her up and took her far away. She
came to a door made of flame and He invited her in, but she was afraid and
would not go....
When she returned, she was lying on the short grass
against his chest, between his forelegs, cushioned in the softness of his belly
fur. His breath made wind sounds in her ear. Her face was wet, but she could
not remember crying. Her hair was loose, spread around her like spilled silk.
He stood up and went away, leaving her there. She
rose in the dark, glad it was dark so He could not see her face, hot with embarrassment
as she realized He did not need to see her face. She fumbled with her clothes,
thinking she needed to dress herself, realizing only then that she was dressed,
that the nakedness lay within. Her mind. Changed. Something that had covered it
stripped away.
After a few moments, He came back, offering His
shoulders again. She mounted and He carried her, discreetly, neatly, an egg in
a basket, while the dance faded into memory. Something marvelous and awful.
Something not quite completed.
Maenads, she thought. Dancing with the god.
He was talking to her. Explaining. He said names,
but she saw only a few females, obviously not as
many as the males. Only a few of them capable of reproduction. Many of them
deciding not to bother. Grieving over that. Now only melancholy. Dark
brown-gray distress.
Hopelessness. The future opening like a sterile
flower, its center empty. No seed.
How did the foxen know flowers? There were no flowers
here on Grass. Yours, He said. Your mind. Everything there. I took it all ... A
time of wonder. So he knew her. Really knew her. We are guilty, He said. All
should die, perhaps, He suggested. Expiation. Sin. Not original sin, maybe, but
sin, nonetheless. The sound of the word
in her ears. The sound of the word wickedness. Collective guilt. (A picture came into her mind of Father Sandoval,
talking. Evidently Father Sandoval had thought of that diagnosis.) The foxen
had let it happen. Not they, but others like them, long ago. She saw the
pictures, foxen elsewhere while Hippae slaughtered the Arbai. Screams, blood;
then, elsewhere, disbelief. Clearly. As though it had been yesterday. They were
guilty, all the foxen.
Postcoital depression? Part of her mind giggled
hysterically and was admonished by some other part. No. Real sadness.
It wasn't your fault, she said. Not your fault.
She felt cold from the images. So much death. So much
pain. Why would she say that?
Because it's true, she thought. Damned sure. Not your fault.
But suppose
some of us did it. When we were Hippae. Some of us.
Not your fault,
she insisted. When you were Hippae, you
didn't know. Hippae have no morals. Hippae have no sense of sin. Like a child,
playing with matches, burning down the house.
More pictures. Time past. Hippae were better behaved
long ago. Past memory. Before the mutation. Didn't kill things then. Not when
foxen laid the eggs. A picture of a foxen bowed down with grief, head bent
between the front paws, back arched in woe. Penitence.
Her fingers were busy with her hair, trying to braid
it up. She thought, Then you must go back. Make things the way they used
to be. Some of you can still reproduce,
So few. So very few.
Never mind how
few. Don't waste your time on penitence or guilt. Solving the problem is
better! It was true. She knew it was true. She
should have known it was true years ago, back in Breedertown. Lack of
understanding.
She thought the kneeling figure, the foxen crouched
in woe while Hippae pranced and bellowed. She crossed it out, negated it. She
thought a standing figure, claws like sabers, a foxen rampant, laying eggs. Better.
Much better.
This militancy fell as though into an umplumbable
well, a vacancy. They had gone beyond that. They had decided they should no
longer care about things of the world. They felt responsible without wanting to
be responsive.
She cried, not knowing whether He had not heard her
or whether she had merely been ignored as of no consequence. Changed as she
was, she knew she should make Him hear, but there were others around and His
thoughts were diluted and disarranged.
The night had gone on without their notice. Ahead and
above hung glowing globes of Arbai light which they climbed toward. She heard
the contented whicker of horses, grazing on their island below. She was very
tired, so tired she could scarcely hold on. He knelt and rolled her off and
went away.
"Marjorie?" She was looking up at Father
James' concerned face. "Is Stella—"
"Alive," she said, licking her lips. Saying
words felt strange, as though she were using certain organs for inappropriate
ends. "She knows her name. I think she recognized us. I sent the others to
take her to Commons."
"The foxen took them?"
She nodded. "Some of them. Then the others went
away, all but ... all but Him."
"First?"
She couldn't call Him that. Bless me, Father, for I
have sinned. I have committed adultery. Bestiality? No. Not a man, not a beast.
What? I am in love with—Am I in love with ... ?
He said, "You've been a very long time. The
night's half gone."
She blurted desperately, trying not to talk about
what most concerned her, "I thought all that business about sin was just
Brother Mainoa being a little contentious. It wasn't. The foxen are obsessed
with it. They either have considered or are considering racial suicide out of
penitence." Though it was not suicide merely to stand still, doing
nothing. Or was it?
He nodded, helping her up and guiding her into the
house she had selected, where she half sat, half fell onto her bedding.
"You've picked that up, have you? Mainoa says so, too. There's no doubt
the Hippae killed the Arbai. There's little doubt the Hippae are killing
mankind. I don't know how. The foxen don't tell us how. It's something they're
withholding. As though they're not sure whether we're worthy. ...
"It's like playing charades. Or decoding a
rebus. They show us pictures. They feel emotions. Once in a while, they
actually show us a word. And difficult though it is with us, seemingly they communicate
with us better than they do with the Hippae. They and the Hippae transmit or
receive on different wavelengths or something "
It was no longer charades or rebuses to Marjorie. It
was almost language. It could have been language if only she had gone on,
entered in, if she had not drawn back there, at the final instant. How could
she tell Father that? She could tell Mainoa, maybe. No one else. Tomorrow, maybe.
"I think you're right, Father. Since the mutation they have not
communicated with the Hippae, though I get a sense that in former ages, when
the foxen laid the eggs, they exercised a lot of guidance toward their
young,"
"How long ago?" he wondered.
"Long. Before the Arbai. How long was that?
Centuries. Millennia?"
"Too long for them to be able to remember, and
yet they do."
"What would you call it, Father? Empathetic
memory? Racial memory? Telepathic memory?" She ran her fingers over her
hair, pulling the braid into looseness. "God, I'm so tired."
"Sleep. Are the others coming back?"
"When they can. Tomorrow, perhaps. There are
answers here, if only we can lay our hands upon them. Tomorrow—tomorrow we have
to make sense of all this."
He nodded, as weary as she. "Tomorrow we will,
Marjorie. We will."
He had no idea what she had to make sense of. He had
no conception of what she had almost done. Or actually had done. How much was
enough to have done whatever it was? Was she still chaste? Or was she something
else that she had no word for?
She could not tell anyone tomorrow, she knew. Maybe
not ever.
Very early in the morning, while the sun hung barely
below the horizon, Tony and his fellow travelers were deposited just below the
port at the edge of the swamp forest. The foxen vanished into the trees,
leaving their riders trying to remember what they had looked like, felt like.
"Will you wait for us?" Tony called, trying to make a picture of the
foxen waiting, high in a tree, dozing perhaps.
He bent in sudden pain. The picture was of foxen
standing where they stood now while the sun moved slowly overhead. Rillibee was
holding his head with one hand, eyes tight shut, as he clung to Stella with the
other arm.
"You'll wait here for us," Tony gasped
toward the forest, receiving a mental nod in reply.
"Tony, what is it?" Sylvan asked.
"If you could hear them, you wouldn't ask,"
said Rillibee. "They think we're deaf. They shout."
"I wish they could shout loud enough for me to
hear them," Sylvan said.
"Then the rest of us would have our brains
fried," Tony said irritably. While he had immediately warmed up to
Rillibee, Tony wasn't at all sure he liked Sylvan, who had a habit of
commanding courses of action. "We'll go over there."
"We'll stop for a while."
Now Sylvan said, "Someone in the port will give
us transport to Grass Mountain Road. We'll speak to the order officer
there." He moved toward the port.
Though Tony felt arguing wasn't worth the energy it
would take, he wanted to get Stella to a physician quickly. "The doctors
are at the other end of town?" he asked.
Sylvan stopped, then flushed. "No. No, as a
matter of fact, the hospital is just up this slope, near the Port Hotel."
Rillibee said, "Then we'll go there,"
admitting no argument. He picked Stella up and staggered up the slope toward
the hospital. "Can I help you carry her?" Tony asked.
Stella had slipped into a deep sleep, and Rillibee
wondered if she would even know who held her. Still, he shook his head. He was
unwilling to give up the burden to anyone else, though he had become exhausted
by carrying it. Though he thought of her as a child, she was not a small girl.
He had been holding her on the foxen for hours. She was his heart's desire, so
he thought, without trying to figure out why.
"I'll manage," he said. "It's not much
farther." It was at the top of a considerable slope, a long climb for men
already weary. They came at the place from the back, where blank walls
confronted them on either side of a wide door. A white-jacketed person stuck
his head out, saw them, and withdrew. Others came out, with a power-litter.
Rillibee handed over his burden with the last of his strength, then leaned on
one of the attendants to get himself inside.
"Who is she?" someone asked.
"Stella Yrarier," Tony said. "My
sister."
"Ah!" Surprise. "Your father's here as
well."
"Father! What happened?"
"Speak to the doctor. Doctor Bergrem. In that
office. She's there now."
Minutes later Tony was staring down at his father's
sleeping face.
"What's wrong with him?" He asked the
doctor.
"Nothing too serious, luckily. We wouldn't be
able to do systems cloning and replacement here the way they do elsewhere. We
have no SCR equipment."
Cloning! Systems replacement! The mortality rate for
systems replacement was high. Besides, Old Catholics were prohibited from
using cloned systems, though there were always backsliders who had a system
cloned and confessed it later.
The doctor frowned at him. "Don't get into a
state, boy. I said not too serious. Some cuts and a bit of bruising on the
brain. All that's taken care of. Some nerve injury, his legs. That's healing.
All he needs to do is stay here and simmer quietly for a day or two more."
The slight, snub-nosed woman hovered over dials, twitching at them. Her
plentiful dark hair was drawn back in a tight bun and her body appeared almost
sexless in the flapping coat.
"You've got him sedated," Tony commented.
"Machine sleep. He's too nervous a type to leave
conscious for long. He frets."
That was one way of saying it, Tony thought with an
ironic twist to his lips. Roderigo Yrarier frets. Or fumes. Or roars.
The doctor went on, "Your sister, now, that's
something else. Mind reconstruction, I wouldn't doubt The Hippae have been at
her."
"You know about that!"
"Seen a bit of it when the bons come in with
broken bones or bitten-off appendages. They don't respond normally, so I tell
them I'm testing their reflexes when I'm actually looking at their heads.
Strangeness there, usually, though I'm not allowed to do anything about it. Not
with the bons. They choose to keep their warps and twists, however strange it
makes them."
"We don't want Stella twisted!"
"Didn't think you did. Didn't think so for a
moment. May not be able to straighten her totally, though. There's limits to
what we can do."
"Should we ship her out?"
"Well, young man, at the moment I'd say she's
safer here, warped or not, than she may be out there. You'd know all about
that, wouldn't you?"
"What do you mean?" He stared, unwilling to
understand.
"Plague," she said. 'We're getting a pretty good idea of what's
going on out there."
"Do you know anything about it? What causes it?
Do you know if there's any here?"
"None here. That I can be almost sure of. Why
didn't you ask us medical people? Didn't you think we'd be capable of doing
anything? Me, for instance. I've got degrees in molecu-bio and virology from
the University at Semling Prime. I studied immunology on Repentance. I could
have been working on this." She turned an open, curious face toward him.
"The word is you've been trying to find out in secret."
"It was secret," he whispered. "To
keep the Moldies from knowing. If they knew ..."
She considered this, her face turning slowly white as
she realized what he meant. "They'd bring it here? Purposely?"
"If they found out, yes. If they once
knew."
"My God, boy!" She laughed bitterly.
"Everybody knows."
16
Everyone knew, the doctor said, and it seemed she
told only the truth. Everyone knew there was plague. Everyone knew there might
be Moldies already on Grass. Everyone knew there was a trail half a mile wide
out there in the grasses, ending next to the swamp forest, which all at once
seemed a fragile and penetrable curtain rather than the impassable barrier they
had always relied upon. Hysteria mounted as the talk gathered both volume and
speculative intensity, here and there, about the town.
Among other topics was much discussion of whether
Grass's seeming immunity to plague meant anything. Foremost among those who
thought it did was Dr. Bergrem She had seen one or two people arrive on ships
with filthy gray lesions. After a week or two on Grass, they had departed
cured. Once there had even been a man in a quarantine pod....
Roald Few challenged the doctor to explain herself.
"You mean more than that the disease isn't here, doctor. You mean it can't
come here. Something here prevents
it?"
To which she nodded and said she thought so, in her
experience, from what she'd seen, turning to Tony and Rillibee for their
opinion.
"No, that isn't it," Tony told them
wearily. "It isn't that it can't come here. It isn't that no one gets it
here. The disease started from here. Somehow. The foxen think."
This was a statement requiring more than a little
explanation. Since when had the foxen been talking to people? And where were
these foxen? Tony and Rillibee told what they knew to Roald and Mayor Alverd
Bee while dozens of other people came and went. They tried to describe foxen,
unconvincingly, and were greeted with skepticism, if not outright disbelief.
Ducky Johns and Saint Teresa were there with an
outlandish scenario of their own: Diamante bon Damfels, sneaking around naked
in the port. Diamante bon Damfels now occupying a room in the hospital next to
ones already taken by her sister, Emeraude, who had been beaten, and by Amy and
Rowena, who refused to return to Klive. Sylvan, hearing this, went off to see
his mother and sisters. Commoners looked after him, pityingly. A bon, here in
Commons. Useless as a third leg on a goose.
"How did Diamante get here?" Tony demanded
of the assembled group. "We've just come through the swamp forest, and if
it's the same everywhere as the parts we saw, there is literally no way
through! There are some islands near the far edge, and some near this edge,
too, but in the middle it's deep water and tangles of low branches and vines
everywhere you look, like an overgrown maze. If she wasn't a climber, like Rillibee
here, or if the foxen didn't bring her, then how did she get here?"
"We've been asking ourselves that, sweet
boy," said Ducky Johns. "Over and over. Haven't we, Teresa? And the
only answer is there has to be another way in. One we haven't known about until
now." Ducky's usual girlish flirtatiousness was held in abeyance by her
anxiety.
"One we still don't know about," Teresa
amended.
"Oh, yes we do, dear," Ducky contradicted.
"We know it's there. We just don't know exactly where. Unless these
strange foxen creatures did bring her, which they may have done, for all we
know!"
Rillibee heard all this through a curtain of
exhaustion. He said, "I don't think the foxen brought her. Brother Mainoa
would have known."
"Do I know this Brother Mainoa you keep speaking
of?" asked Alverd Bee.
Rillibee reminded him who Brother Mainoa was.
Sylvan joined them again, his face white and drawn.
Dimity was conscious, but did not know him. Emmy was unconscious, though she
was getting better. Rowena was sleeping. Amy had talked with him. She had told
him his father was dead, and he was wondering why he felt nothing.
Rillibee was telling the mayor about Mainoa's
attempts to translate the Arbai documents.
"And you say they've translated something
already?" Roald cried. He didn't sound astonished, merely wild with a kind
of quavery excitement. His gray hair tufted around his ears like a spiky
aureole; he cracked his knuckles between jabs at the tell-me link, clickety
crack. The sound was like someone walking on nutshells. "I want to see
that, just as soon as I can. Let me get on to Semling."
"Are you a linguist?" Sylvan asked him
curiously, wondering why there would be any such thing on Grass.
"Oh, no, my boy," Roald said. "My
living comes from the family supply business. At languages, I'm only an
amateur." He said it without even looking at Sylvan, then asked Rillibee,
"Who was Mainoa's contact on Semling?"
Thus dismissed, Sylvan sat down at a table nearby,
resting his head on his arms as he considered the continuing bustle around him.
Things were busier in Commons than he had assumed they would be. People were
more intelligent and far more affluent than he would have thought. They had
things even the estancias didn't have. Foods. Machines. More comfortable living
arrangements. It made him feel insecure and foolish. Despite all his fury at
Stavenger and the other members of the Obermun class, still he had accepted
that the bons were superior to the commoners. Now he wondered if they really
were—or if the bons were even equal to the commoners? Why had he thought
Marjorie would welcome his attentions? What had he to offer her?
The thought struck him with sick embarrassment. He
sought words he had read but seldom if ever used. "Parochial."
"Provincial." "Narrow." True words. What was a bon among
these people? None of the commoners were deferring to him. None of them were
asking for his opinion. Once Rillibee and Tony had told everyone that Sylvan
was deaf to the foxen, Commons had disdained him as though he were deaf—and
mute—to them as well. He could have accepted their disdain more easily if they
had been professionals, like the doctor, but they were only amateurs, like this
old man talking translation with Rillibee. Mere hobbyists. People who had
studied things that had nothing to do with their daily lives. And every one of
them knew more than he did! He wanted desperately to be part of them, part of
something....
He heaved himself up and went to find something to
drink. Rillibee rose from his chair beside Roald. "You know everything I
do, Elder Few. I must get back to the others. I can't stay here." He
yawned again, thinking briefly of asking Tony to come back with him. No. Tony
would want to stay until they knew something more about Stella. As for
Sylvan—better that Sylvan stayed here. Marjorie hadn't wanted him back.
He went out of the place, still yawning, breaking
into a staggering jog that carried him down the slope to the place the foxen
waited. Something dragged at him. insisting upon his return. Perhaps the trees.
Perhaps something more. Some need or purpose awaited him among the trees. If
nothing else, then he would carry the news of the bon Damfels girl and of
Rigo's injuries and of all that both those events implied.
In the room he left behind, the doctor and the two
madams were trying to figure out why a naked, mindless girl should have been
trying to get into a freighter. "Why was she carrying a dried bat? What
does that mean?" Dr. Bergrem demanded of the group at large.
"Hippae," said Sylvan as he wandered by.
"Hippae kick dried bats at each other. There are dried bats in Hippae
caverns."
Now they were looking at him. Now, suddenly, he
wasn't mute anymore. He explained, "It's a gesture of contempt, that's
all. That's how the Hippae express contempt for one another, part of the challenge.
Or at the end of a bout, to reinforce defeat, they kick dead bats at each
other. A way of saying, 'You're vermin.' "
Lees Bergrem nodded. "I've heard that. Heard
that the Hippae have a lot of symbolic behaviors. .."
Feeling foolishly grateful for their attention,
Sylvan told them what little more he had learned about the Hippae when he was a
child, wishing Mainoa were there to tell them more.
Midmorning found Mainoa with Marjorie and Father
James on the spacious open platform of the Tree City. Brother Mainoa had been
studying the material recorded in his tell-me link while Marjorie had explored
and Father James had tried to talk to foxen, thanking God that he was present
rather than Father Sandoval. Father Sandoval had no patience with the idea that
there might be other intelligent races. Father James wondered what the Pope in
Exile would think of the whole idea.
Marjorie hadn't tried to speak to the foxen. From
time to time He had reached out and said something to her. She had accepted
these bits of information, trying to keep her face from showing what happened
to her each time He spoke, a fire along her nerves, an ecstatic surge, taste,
smell, something. Now the three humans sat face to face, trying to put bits and
pieces of knowledge and hypothesis together.
"The Arbai had machines that transported
them," Marjorie said. She had finally understood that. "That thing on
the dais in the center of town? That was really a transport machine. Machines
like that moved the Arbai from one place to another."
Brother Mainoa sighed and rubbed his head. "I
think you're right, Marjorie. Let's see, what have I picked up in the last few
hours? There's been another message from Semling." He took out the tell-me
and put it at the center of their space, tapping it with one hand.
"On the theory that things written immediately
before the tragedy might be of most use to us, Semling put a high priority on
translating a handwritten book I found in one of the houses some time ago.
They've translated about eighty percent of it. It seems to be a diary. It gives
an account of the author trying to teach a Hippae to write. The Hippae became
frustrated and furious and killed two Arbai who were nearby. When the Hippae
calmed down, the author remonstrated with it. He or she explained that killing
intelligent beings was wrong, that the dead Arbai were mourned by their
friends, and that the Hippae must never do it again."
Marjorie breathed. "Poor, naive, well-meaning
fool."
"Do you mean that this Arbai person, this
diarist, simply told the Hippae not to
do it again?" Father James was incredulous. "Did he think the Hippae
would care?"
Mainoa nodded sadly, rubbing at his shoulder and arm
as though they hurt him.
Marjorie said, "When He ... when the foxen think
of the Arbai, they always put light around them, as we might picture
angels."
Brother Mainoa wondered how the golden angels high on
Sanctity's towers would look with Arbai fangs and scales. "Not as though
they were holy, though, do you think, Marjorie? More as though they were
untouchable."
Marjorie nodded. Yes. The vision had that feeling to
it. Untouchable Arbai. Set upon pedestals. Unreachable.
"The Arbai could believe no evil of the
Hippae?" Father James could not believe what he was hearing.
Mainoa nodded. "It wasn't that they couldn't
believe evil of the Hippae. They couldn't believe in it, period. They seem to
have had no concept of evil. There is no word for evil in the material I've
received from Semling. There are words for mistakes, or things done inadvertently.
There are words for accidents and pain and death, but no word for evil. The
Arbai word for intelligent creatures has a root curve which means, according to
the computers, 'avoiding error.' Since the Arbai considered the Hippae to be
intelligent—after all, they'd taught them to write—they thought all they had to
do was point out the error and the Hippae would avoid it."
"Of course it wasn't an error," Marjorie
said. "The Hippae enjoyed the killing."
Father James demurred. "I have a hard time
believing in that kind of mind...."
Brother Mainoa sighed. "She's right, Father.
They've translated the word the Hippae trampled into the cavern. It's an Arbai
word, or rather a combination of three or more Arbai words. One of them means
death, and one means outsiders or strangers, and one means joy. Semling gives a
high probability to translating it as joy-to-kill-strangers."
"They think they have a right to kill everything
but themselves?"
Father James shook his head.
Marjorie laughed bitterly. "Oh, Father, is that
so unusual? Look at our own poor homeworld. Didn't man think he had a right to
kill everything but himself? Didn't he have fun doing it? Where are the great
whales? Where are the elephants? Where are the bright birds who once lived in
our own swamp-forests?"
Brother Mainoa said, "Well, they couldn't kill
the ones who lived here in the tree city. The Hippae can't swim, they can't
climb, so they couldn't kill the Arbai who were here."
"It must have been too late for the ones who
lived here, nonetheless," Marjorie said, looking at the shadow lovers who
had just returned to the bridge and leaned there in the sun, whispering to one
another. Shadow lovers, perilously intent upon one another. Not seeing what was
to come. "Perhaps they died when winter came. It was too late for all the
others, out there on other worlds."
"The ones here in the city must have been immune
to the disease," Father James said. "They could have gone
underground. Why didn't they? We must be immune, too. All the people on Grass
must be immune."
"Oh, yes," Marjorie said. "I'm sure
we're immune, so long as we stay on Grass. It stands to reason the Arbai on
Grass were immune, also. That's why the Hippae killed them as they did. But it
doesn't help to know that! Nothing we've found out helps! Nothing tells us how
it started. Nothing tells us how to cure it once it's started. I keep thinking
of home. I have a sister back home. Rigo has a mother, a brother, we have
nieces and nephews. I have friends!"
"Shhh," he said. "We know one way to
cure it, Marjorie. Anyone who comes here—"
"We don't even know that," she
contradicted. "Even if we could bring every living human from every
populated world to Grass, we don't know whether they'd catch it again after
they left. We don't know whether we will get it if we leave. We don't know how
it is spread. The foxen know something that will help us, but they won't tell
us! It's almost as though they're waiting for something. But what?" She
looked up to confront a shadowed mass across the railing. There were eyes, for
a moment. Something brushing through her mind. She shook her head angrily.
"I have this dreadful feeling of hopelessness. As though it's already too
late for all this. As though things have gone past the point of no
return." Something had changed irrevocably. Some point had been passed.
She was sure of that.
A foxen touched her mind with incorporeal hands. She
heard a comforting voice saying, "Hush, dear, hush." She leaned her
forehead on a vast shoulder which was nowhere near. The foxen danced in her
mind, and she with them.
Abruptly the shoulder was withdrawn. She looked up.
The foxen had gone.
In a moment she understood why. She heard human
voices ringing over the susurrus of Arbai speech. It was too soon for Tony to
be back. They were not voices she recognized.
"Listen," she said, turning to locate the
sound. Not far off in the trees someone saw her and young voices yodeled a
paean of anticipation.
There was something threatening in that shout.
Marjorie and the two old men retreated across the plaza, watching
apprehensively as the three forms flung themselves through the trees, dropping
upon the platform like apes.
"Brother Flumzee," said Brother Mainoa in a
calm, weary voice. "I hadn't expected to see you here."
Brother Flumzee posed on the railing, one knee up,
his arms folded loosely about it. "Call me Highbones," he chirruped.
"Meet my friends. Steeplehands. Long Bridge. There were two more of us,
but Little Bridge and Ropeknots got eaten by Hippae out there." He waved,
indicating somewhere else. "Along with Elder Brother Fuasoi and his little
friend Shoethai. Not that we're sure of that. We heard a lot of howling, but
maybe they escaped."
"Why were you out there at all?" Brother
Mainoa asked.
"They sent me for you, Brother." Highbones
smiled. "They said you are no longer one of us. You are to be dispensed
with."
"But you said Fuasoi was with you! And
Shoethai!"
"We didn't expect them to come along. They were
kind of, what would you say, last-minute additions. They were going to drop us
off and then go somewhere else."
A shadow figure moved among the three climbers.
Highbones beat at it, as though it were a swarm of gnats. "What the hell
are these things?"
"Only pictures," said Marjorie.
"Pictures of the people who once lived here."
Highbones turned his head, surveying the city.
"Nice," he said. "A climber's place. Is there enough to eat so
somebody could live here?"
"In summer," said Brother Mainoa.
"Probably. Fruit. And nuts. There may be edible animals, too."
"Not in winter, hmm? Well, in winter we could go
into town, couldn't we. Probably want to go there anyhow. Pick up some women.
Bring them back here."
"You mean stay here?" Long Bridge asked.
"After we do the thing, you mean stay here?"
"Why not?" Highbones asked. "You think
of any better place for climbers than this?"
"I don't like these things." Long Bridge
batted at the shadow forms moving before him. "I don't like these monsters
all over me."
The two men had been listening and watching, noticing
the tense muscles in the climbers' arms and legs, the strained lines of their
necks and jaws. Brother Mainoa thought that all this talk meant nothing. The
talk was only to make a space of time, to allow them to size up their
opposition. And what was their opposition? An old man, a soft man, and a woman.
Brother Mainoa reached out toward the foxen. Nothing.
No pictures. No words.
"Are you hungry?" Marjorie asked. "We
have some food we can share with you."
"Oh, yes, we're hungry," leered Highbones.
"Not for food, though. We brought enough food of our own." He ran his
tongue along his lips, staring at her, letting his eyes dwell lasciviously on
her. She shivered. "You look young and healthy," Highbones went on.
"There was talk back there at the Friary about plague. You don't have
plague, do you, pretty thing?"
"I could have," she said, struggling to
keep her voice calm. "I suppose. There was plague on Terra when we
left."
The two followers turned to Highbones, questions on
their lips, but he silenced them with a gesture. "It's naughty to tell
lies. If you got it there, you'd be dead by now. That's what everybody
says."
"Sometimes it takes years to manifest
itself," said Father James, "but the person still has it."
"What're you?" Highbones said with a laugh.
"Dressed up like that? Some kind of servant? Mind your manners, servant.
Nobody was talking to you."
"If Fuasoi sent you after me," Mainoa said
thoughtfully, "he could have had only one reason. If he didn't want
knowledge about the cause of the plague disseminated, then he must have been a
Moldy."
Marjorie caught her breath. A Moldy here? Already?
Had they been too late!
Highbones ignored the interchange. He put both feet
onto the deck, stood up easily, stretching. "You boys ready?" he
asked. "Each of you take one of the geezers. I get the woman first—"
"Highbones." The voice called from above
them, from the sun spangle among the high branches. "Highbones the coward.
High-bones the liar. Will he climb?"
Marjorie felt the breath go out of her. Rillibee. But
only Rillibee. No other voices.
Highbones had turned, neck craning as he searched the
high dazzle. "Lourai!" he shouted. "Where are you, you
peeper!"
"Here," the voice called from above.
"Where Highbones can't climb. Where Highbones can't reach."
"Keep them quiet," Highbones snarled,
gesturing toward Marjorie and the old men. "Until I get back." He
leapt upon the railing and outward, into the trees "Wait for me, peeper.
I'm coming to get you."
Marjorie's pack was just inside the door There was a
knife in it. She turned, moving toward it. Steeplehands dashed forward, intercepted
her, and knocked her away from the door. She stumbled, reaching out a hand to
catch herself. The low railing caught her at the back of her knees, and she
went over, falling, seeing the sun-spangled foliage spin around her and hearing
her own voice soaring until she suddenly didn't hear anything anymore.
"A very small being to see you, O God," the
angelic servitor announced. The servitor looked very much like Father Sandoval
except that he had wings. Marjorie paused in the vaulted and gauzy doorway to
inspect them. They were not swans wings, which she had expected, but
translucent insect wings, like those of a giant dragonfly. Anatomically, they
made more sense than bird wings, since they were in addition to, rather than in
place of, the upper appendages. The angel glared at her.
"Yes,
yes," said God patiently. "Come in."
God stood before a tall window draped in cloud.
Outside were the gardens of Opal Hill, stretching away in vista upon vista.
After a moment, Marjorie realized the garden was made of stars.
"How do you do," Marjorie heard herself
saying. He looked like someone she knew. Smaller than she had thought He would
be. Very bony about the face, with huge eyes, though the person she knew,
whoever he was, had never worn his hair as long as God wore His, a dark curling
about his shoulders, a white mane at his temples. "Welcome, very small
being," He said, smiling. Light filled the universe. "Was something
bothering you?"
"I can learn to accept that you do not know my
name," Marjorie said. "Though it came as a shock—"
"Wait," He said. "I know the true
names of everything. What do you mean I do not know your name?"
"I mean you don't know I'm Mariorie."
"Marjorie," he mouthed, as though He found
the sound unfamiliar. "True, I did not know you were called
Marjorie."
"It seems very harsh. Very cruel. To be a
virus."
"I would not have said virus, but you believe
it's cruel to be something that will spread?" he asked. "Even if
that's what's needed?" She nodded, ashamed.
"You must be having a difficult time. Very small
beings do have difficult times. That's what I create them for. If there weren't
difficult concepts to pull out of nothing and build into creation. One wouldn't
need very small beings. The large parts almost make themselves." He
gestured at the universe spinning beneath them. "Elementary chemistry, a
little exceptional mathematics, and there it is, working away like a furnace.
It's the details that take time to grow, to evolve, to become. The oil in the
bearings, so to speak. What are you working on now?"
"I'm not sure," she said.
The angel in the doorway spoke impatiently. "The
very small being is working on mercy, Sir. And justice. And guilt."
"Mercy? And justice? Interesting concepts.
Almost worthy of direct creation rather than letting them evolve. I wouldn't
waste my time on guilt. Still, I have confidence you'll all work your way
through the permutations to the proper ends...."
"I don't have much confidence," she said.
"A lot of what I've been taught isn't making sense."
"That's the nature of teaching. Something
happens, and intelligence first apprehends it, then makes up a rule about it,
then tries to pass the rule along. Very small beings invariably operate in that
way. However, by the time the information is passed on, new things are
happening that the old rule doesn't fit. Eventually intelligence learns to stop
making rules and understand the flow."
"I was told that the eternal verities—"
"Like what?" God laughed. "If there
were any, I should know! I have created a universe based on change, and a very
small being speaks to me of eternal verities!"
"I didn't mean to offend. It's just, if there
are no verities, how do we know what's true?"
"You don't offend. I don't create things that
are offensive to me. As for truth, what's true is what's written. Every created
thing bears my intention written in it. Rocks. Stars. Very small beings.
Everything only runs one way naturally, the way I meant it to. The trouble is
that very small beings write books that contradict the rocks, then say I wrote
the books and the rocks are lies." He laughed. The universe trembled.
"They invent rules of behavior that even angels can't obey, and they say I
thought them up. Pride of authorship." He chuckled.
"They say, 'Oh, these words are eternal, so God
must have written them.'"
"Your Awesomeness," said the angel from the
door. "Your meeting to review the Arbai failure—"
"Ah, tsk," said God. "Now there's an
example. I failed completely with that one. Tried something new, but they were
too good to do any good, you know?"
"I've been told that's what you want," she
said. "For us to be good!"
He patted her on the shoulder. "Too good is good
for nothing. A chisel has to have an edge, my dear. Otherwise it simply stirs
things around without ever cutting through to causes and realities...."
"Your Awesomeness," the angel said again,
testily. "Very small being, you're keeping God from his work."
"Remember," said God, "While it is
true I did not know that you believe
your name is Marjorie, I do know who you really
are...."
"Marjorie," the angel said.
"My God, Marjorie!" The hand on her
shoulder shook her even more impatiently.
"Father James," she moaned, unsurprised.
She was lying on her back, staring up at the sun-smeared foliage above her.
"I thought he'd killed you."
"He talked to me. He told me—"
"I thought that damned climber had killed
you!"
She sat up. Her head hurt. She felt a sense of
wrongness, of removal.
"You must have hit your head."
She remembered the confrontation on the platform, the
railing. "Did that young man hit me?"
"He knocked you over the railing. You
fell."
"Where is he? Where are they?"
"One of the foxen has them backed into an Arbai
house. He came down out of the trees just as you fell, snarling like a
thunderstorm. He's right out there in the open, but I still can't see him. Two
of the others came with him. They carried me down to you."
She struggled to her feet, using a bulky root to pull
herself up, staring in disbelief at the platform high above. "Falling all
that way should have killed me."
"You dropped onto a springy branch. Then you
slipped off that onto another one, lower down, and then finally fell into that
pile of grass and brush," he said, pointing it out. "Like failing on
a great mattress. Your guardian angel was watching out for you."
"How do we get back up?" she asked, not at
all believing in guardian angels.
He pointed again. Two of the foxen waited beside the
tree. Vague forms without edges; corporate intentions and foci, patterns in her
mind
"Did they help with the men?" she asked.
He shook his head. "The one up there didn't need
help."
She stood looking at the two for a long moment,
thinking it out. Dizziness overwhelmed her and she sagged against the tree,
muttering "Rocks. Stars. Very small beings."
"You don't sound like yourself," he said.
"I'm not," she replied, managing to smile,
her recent vision replaying itself in her mind. "Have you ever seen God,
Father?"
The question distressed him. Her eyes were wide,
staring, glassy. "I think you had a bit of concussion. You may even have a
fracture, Marjorie...."
"Maybe I've had a religious experience. An
insight. People have them."
He could not argue with that, though he knew Father
Sandoval would have. In Father Sandoval's opinion, religious experiences were
something Old Catholics should eschew in the interest of balance and
moderation. Once matters of faith had been firmly decided, religious
experiences just confused people. Father James was less certain. He let
Marjorie lean upon him as they staggered a few steps to the waiting foxen. One
of them picked her up and carried her upward along slanting branches and
scarcely visible vines to the plaza high above. She could feel foxen all about
her, a weight of them in her mind, a thunder of thought, a tidal susurrus, like
vast dragon-breathing in darkness.
"Good Lord," she whispered. "Where did
they all come from?"
"They were already here," said Mainoa.
"Watching us from the trees. They just came closer. Marjorie, are you all
right?"
"She's not all right," fretted Father
James. "She's talking strangely. Her eyes don't look right...."
"I'm fine," she said absently, trying to
stare at the assembled multitude, knowing it for multitude, but unable to
distinguish the parts. "Why are they here?"
Brother Mainoa looked up at her, frowning in
concentration. "They're trying to find something out. I don't know what it
is."
A foxen bulk completely blocked the door. Marjorie
received a clear picture of two human figures being dropped from a high branch.
She drew a line across it. In the crowd behind her there was approval and
disapproval. The picture changed to one of the two men being released. She
drew a line across that as well. More approval and disapproval. Argument,
obviously. The foxen did not agree on what ought to be done.
Her legs wobbled under her and she staggered.
"Rillibee hasn't come back?
Brother Mainoa shook his head. "No. His voice
went off that way." He pointed.
She approached the door of the house. The two
climbers, their hands and feet tightly tied, glared back at her.
"Who sent you to kill Brother Mainoa?" she
asked.
The two looked at one another. One shook his head.
The other, Steeplehands, said sulkily, "Shoethai, actually. But the orders
came from Elder Brother Fuasoi. He said Mainoa was a backslider."
She rubbed at the pain in her forehead. "Why did
he think so?"
"Shoethai said it was some book of Mainoa's.
Some book from the Arbai city."
"My journal," said Brother Mainoa.
"I'm afraid I was careless. I must have left the new one where it could be
found. We were in such a hurry to leave—"
"What were you writing about, Brother?"
Marjorie asked.
"About the plague, and the Arbai, and the whole
riddle."
"Ah," she said, turning back to the
prisoners. "You, ah ... Long Bridge. You intended to rape me, you and the
others, didn't you?"
Long Bridge stared at his feet, one nostril lifting.
"We was going to have a try, sure. Why not? We didn't see those
whatever-they-are hanging around, so why not."
"Did you think that was a ..." she
struggled to find a word he might understand, "a smart thing to do? A good
thing to do? What?"
"What are you?" he sneered. "You work
for Doctrine? It was something we wanted to do, that's all."
"Did you care how I felt about it?"
"Women like it, no matter what they say.
Everybody knows that."
She shuddered. "Were you going to kill me,
then?"
"If we'd of felt like it, sure."
"Do women like that, too?"
He looked momentarily confused, licking his lips.
"Wouldn't it have bothered you? Killing
me?"
Long Bridge did not answer. Steeplehands did.
"We'd of been sorry, later, if we'd wanted you around and you was already
dead," he mumbled.
"I see," she said. "But you wouldn't have been sorry for me?"
"Why?" Long Bridge asked angrily. "Why
should we be sorry for you? Where was you when we got packed up and sent out
here? Where was you when they took us away from our folks?"
Marjorie received a new picture of the two prisoners
being dropped from a high tree. She drew a line across it in her mind, though
more slowly than before "What do all these foxen want, Brother Mainoa?
What are they here for?"
"I think they want to see what you'll do,"
he answered.
Father James asked, "What are you doing?"
"I'm trying to figure something out," she
said. "I'm trying to decide whether we can afford to be merciful. The
Arbai were merciful, but when confronted with evil, mercy becomes an evil. It
got the Arbai killed, and it could get us killed because these two might simply
come back and murder us. The question is, are they evil? If they are, it
doesn't matter how they got that way. Evil can be made, but not
unmade...."
"Forgiveness is a virtue," Father James
said, realizing as he did so that the suggestion came from habit.
"No. That's too easy. If we forgive these two,
we may actually cause another killing." She put her head between her
hands, thinking. "Do we have the right to be fools if we want to? No. Not
at someone else's expense."
He stared at her with a good deal of interest.
"You've never spoken this way, Marjorie. Mercy is a tenet of our
faith."
"Only because you don't think this life really
matters. Father. God says it does."
"Marjorie!" he cried. "That's not
true."
"All right," she cried in return. The
sullen ache in her head was now a brooding violence inside her skull. "I
don't mean you, Father James, I mean
you, what you priests usually say. I say this life matters, and that means
mercy is doing the best for them I can without allowing anyone else to suffer,
including me! I won't make the Arbai mistake."
"Marjorie," he cried again, dismayed. He
had had his own doubts and troubles, but to hear her talking wildly like this
disturbed him deeply. She was almost violent, something she had never been,
full of words that spilled from her mouth like grain from a ripped sack.
She turned to the imprisoned men. "I'm sorry.
The only way I can see that we can be safe from you seems to be to allow the
foxen to kill you."
"Oh, for God's sake, Lady," cried
Steeplehands in dismay. "Take us into Commons and turn us over to the
order officers there. We can't do nothing tied up like this."
She held her head, knowing it was a bad idea, but not
knowing why. It was a very bad idea. She was sure of it. Inside her mind was an
enormous question, waiting to be answered.
Father James was shaking his head anxiously, pleading
with her. "Mainoa did tie them up very tightly. And we have to go to
Commons eventually anyhow. We can turn them over to the order officers. They're
probably no worse than half the port-rabble the order officers keep in
check."
Marjorie nodded, though she wasn't convinced. This
wasn't a good idea at all. This wasn't what a very small being should do. A
very small being should scream danger and drop them from the highest tree..,.
The foxen nearest them twitched, brooding shadow,
hatching visions. Light and shadow spun across their minds, stripes of evanescent
color, jittering.
"He's dissatisfied," Brother Mainoa
offered.
"So am I," Marjorie said, her eyes wild
with pain. "Listen to them. All of them. And only a few of them came
forward to help us. Maybe they're like I've always been. Full of intellectual
guilts and doubts, letting things happen, paying no attention to how I feel."
Her head was in agony. She received a picture of
foxen traveling through the trees, going away. She drew a shiny circle around
it in her mind. Yes. Why not? They might as well go away. "They're going
away. We must wait here for Rillibee," she announced.
A cannon went off in her brain. She crawled to her
bedding and lay down to let the quiet come up around her. Gradually the pain
diminished. Outside in the trees, the foxen moved away. Pictures fled through
her mind: their thoughts, their conversation. She let the symbols and sounds
wash through her like waves, lulling her into a drowsy half-consciousness.
The sun had moved to midafternoon before they heard a
"Halloo," off in the shadows, low among the trees.
A foxen breathed among the trees, close, threatening.
"Halloo," came the voice again, closer. The
threat in the trees diminished.
Marjorie struggled to her feet and went out onto the
platform. "Rillibee," she called.
He came into sight below them, moving wearily among
the vines. "You look tired out!" His bony face was pale. His eyes
were circled with shadow, making them look enormous, like a night-dwelling creature.
"Long climb," he mumbled. "Long, long
climb." He pulled himself upward, slowly upward, sliding over the railing
at last in an exhausted heap. "Oh, I'm thankful for all that climbing at
the Friary. All those spidery ladders, all those bridges...."
"What happened?" Brother Mainoa asked.
"Highbones tried to catch me. He couldn't. I led him off into the forest, a long, long way. Then I hid from him, let him pass me, and came back. I'd have killed him if I could have figured out an easy way to do it. Bastard."
Marjorie touched his cheek. "We can go now. Back
to Commons."
Rillibee shook his head. "No. Not yet. We need
... we need the foxen. I'm sorry to have wasted so much time on Highbones, but
I didn't know what else to do except get them away from here. I thought they'd
all come. Highbones usually likes to outnumber his opponents. But you managed
to deal with the others."
"One of the foxen did."
"Ah." He sagged wearily. "I have to
tell you things, Marjorie. Opal Hill has been burned by the Hippae. There's a
Hippae-hound trail half a mile wide leading toward the swamp-forest. The
ambassador, your husband, is at the hospital. He's going to be all right, but
it was a close thing. Stavenger bon Damfels is dead, him and a dozen or so
bons. They've found the bon Damfels girl in there, at the port. Dimity. The one
who vanished this spring, just like they found Janetta....
"Both of them were taken by Hippae," Marjorie
said in wonderment. "And both of them ended up at the port!"
Rillibee nodded. "Naked. Mindless. Everyone at
Commons is frantic over it. Janetta and Dimity got in there somehow. They
couldn't come through the trees unless the foxen carried them. If the foxen
didn't carry them, then there's some other way in. Has to be. And if girls can
get in, maybe Hippae can get in. We have to find how they got there—"
A troubled sound from the trees.
"Now they're upset," said Brother Mainoa,
rubbing his head. "They're angry. The foxen have never carried anyone
anywhere until they carried you and your companions. Rillibee. The foxen
thought the town was safe. They had encouraged men to build the port there,
where the Hippae couldn't get at it."
"Encouraged?" asked Marjorie.
"You know." Brother Mainoa sighed.
"Encouraged. Influenced. As they do."
She felt the foxen retreating. "Where are they
going?"
"They've gone to look for the way Rillibee says
must be there. As they went they were thinking of migerers."
"Diggers? They suspect a tunnel, then."
"Something like that." Mainoa gave a weary
shudder, putting his head into his hands. "Marjorie, at this moment, I'm a
tired old man. I'm incapable of helping to look for tunnels."
Rillibee put his arms around the old man. "I'm a
very tired young one, Brother. If the foxen are searching, let's let them do
it. I need a little rest. Unless you think they need our help ..."
"They'll do it," Brother Mainoa said.
Whether they would or not, he could do no more. Marjorie crept back to her bed,
feeling the pain ebb once more as she fell into sleep, empty this time of all
foxen dreams. Rillibee lay sprawled like a child. Mainoa huddled into himself,
snoring slightly. Father James sat by the railing, wondering what had really
happened to Marjorie, what she had really seen or dreamed. Long Bridge and
Steeplehands sulked and muttered to one another, chafing at their bonds.
Even before First returned late in the afternoon,
they knew the way into Commons had been found. When He was yet some distance
off, horses and riders swam into their minds, and they knew what He intended.
Mounted once more, they were led in a circuitous route as they crossed quiet
pools, forded dark streams, and rode down long, splashing alleys. Without a
guide, it would have been impossible to find their way. Some pools were shallow
water over sucking sands. Some were full of deadly sharp root knees. They knew,
because the foxen showed them.
They came out onto the grass near the pool where they
had found Stella. Near where she had lain, great sheaves of grass had been torn
up, turf had been ripped away to expose a gaping tunnel mouth, wide and dug
deep and mortared up as the Hippae caverns were. The grass had hidden it. When
they had found Stella, all of them had been within yards of it without seeing
it.
"Migerer work," said Brother Mainoa.
Somewhere a foxen cried out, a great, world-freezing
cry.
"Devil's work," Mainoa amended. "So
say our guides. This tunnel goes deep beneath the swamp. One of the foxen has
been through it, all the way to the port."
It was not necessary to ask who had used it before
The tripartite hoofprints of the Hippae were everywhere inside it, everywhere
except where the trickle of water had washed them away. "In," they
were urged "Through! Quickly!"
Marjorie, leading Don Quixote, went into the opening
and was immediately soaked by the drip of murky water seeping through the soft
stone above. The others trailed behind her, swearing softly at the dank air,
the stench of droppings, the sog of the surface beneath their feet. The
prisoners cursed and dragged at the ropes that held them. The tunnel top was
not high enough for any of them to ride sitting up. It was barely high enough
for Irish Lass to walk with her head down, her ears brushing the end of muddy
roots which straggled through from above. The lights they carried lit their
way, though inadequately. Horse and human feet splashed and sucked at the
half-muck, half-rock beneath them.
"Foxen coming behind us," called Rillibee
from his position at the rear. "I think. I feel them there. This tunnel
isn't even tall enough for Hippae."
"High enough if they stalk," said Brother
Mainoa. "Like great lions. One at a time. Slowly. But it was not made for
them."
Within yards of the entrance the tunnel began to slope
steeply down. The trickle of water, which had been running outward, reversed
itself and began to flow in the direction of their travel The horses sat back
upon their haunches as the steep slope continued, whickering in protest.
Something told them to go on, trilling at them, a summoning noise. The floor
leveled and the water became deeper. They went on into darkness, water falling,
water splashing, the darkness above them seeming to enfold them.
Marjorie flicked her light along the tunnel walls,
finding numerous small holes where the walls met the water. "What are
those?" she asked.
"I should think drain holes," replied
Father James. "All this water has to go somewhere."
"Where? It can't run uphill!"
"We're actually in a hill," Brother Mainoa
said, coughing. "All of Commons, including the swamp forest, lies in a
rocky basin higher than the surrounding prairie. It's like a bowl on a table.
If one drills holes in the bowl, the water will drain away."
"Do you think migerers dug all this?" she
asked.
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He coughed again, wrackingly. "I think so, yes.
I think the Hippae told them to do it"
"Through rock?"
"Partly through rock. This looks like a fairly
soft stratum. They can dig in soft stone. I've seen them."
"How much farther?" she wondered aloud.
After a time Brother Mainoa responded. "There's
something just ahead."
What was just ahead was a side chamber of the tunnel,
one made tight and dry and furnished with a pile of grasses. Marjorie used her
light to examine the chamber. The floor was littered with scraps of
underclothing, with two left boots, with a much-tattered Hunt jacket. "She
was here," Marjorie said, "Janetta."
"And someone else." Brother Mainoa sighed,
pointing at the boots. "Two left feet worth of someone. Janetta and Dimity
bon Damfels, perhaps."
The tunnel was full of sound, trills and snarls and
demands.
"He wants us to go on," said Brother
Mainoa. "There is danger behind us."
They resumed to their splashing journey, fear lending
speed to all of them. Marjorie looked at Don Quixote and wondered if he might
not understand the foxen far better than she herself did. He moved alertly, as
though summoned. Al! the horses did.
Far back in the tunnel, something screamed. The
echoes went by them—ee-yah, ee~yah, ee-yah—ricocheting
along the walls, fading into quiet.
"Hurry," something said in their minds. The
Terran word pulsated at them, black letters on orange, large, plain capital
letters, underlined, with an exclamation point. "HURRY!"
"What?" Marjorie whoofed. "What was
that?"
"He does that sometimes," Mainoa breathed.
"He's not much interested in written words, but sometimes he picks one up
from me and broadcasts it."
Another picture, this one of all of them mounted and
running. It had scarcely faded before they were all on horseback, lying flat
while the horses trotted rapidly through the water, blindly moving into
darkness as though moving in accordance with some guidance system known only to
themselves. The prisoners, hastily thrown across Irish Lass, snarled and
complained.
"Shut up, or we'll leave you for the
Hippae," Rillibee commanded. The climbers fell silent.
Then there was rosy light, slightly above them and
far ahead. The way sloped upward. The horses dug in with their rear legs,
pushing. A foxen was silhouetted against the light, then gone. Then they too
were out in the world once more. The tunnel emerged on a tiny island. Pools of
water surrounded them. Ahead, the trees stopped and the land sloped up toward a
red-flushed sunset. Illusory shapes prowled out of the tunnel behind them and
took to the trees. "Go," the word said, red on white, imperative.
"Go!" They went. The horses walked-swam to the edge of the trees and
lunged up onto the long slope. The riders stared back, expecting horror to
erupt behind them. Nothing. No sound. Perhaps the foxen had bought them time.
"I'll take these two to the order station,"
said Rillibee, tugging on the rope that bound the captives. He pointed up the
hill. "That's the hospital. Where Stella and your husband are, next to the
Port Hotel." Marjorie urged Don Quixote up the slope, covering half of it
before she realized that she was actually going to a place where Rigo was.
Rigo. She said the word to herself. Nothing resonated. He was someone she
knew, that was all. Normally the thought of him brought feelings: guilt and
anxiety and frustration. Now she felt only curiosity, perhaps a slight sorrow,
wondering how it would feel to see him after all that had happened.
The Port Hotel was packed with people, anonymous
groups going here and there, anonymous faces turning to stare curiously at
Marjorie and the others. Someone shouted. Someone else pointed. Then Sebastian
Mechanic separated himself from the mass and came running toward them.
"Lady Marjorie," he cried. "Your son's
here, and your daughter and husband."
She dismounted stiffly, wiping at her muddy face.
"Rillibee told me," she said. "I need to see them. I need
somewhere to wash." Then Persun Pollut was beside her, leading her in one
direction while Sebastian and Asmir led the horses in another.
"Lady Westriding, I'm glad you're here."
His heart lay in his eyes, but she did not see it there. "They'll take the
horses to the barn. How can i help you?"
"Do you known where Rigo is?"
"In there." He pointed through a door to a
crowd of people, seemingly all talking at once. "The doctor let him get up
a few hours ago.
They're talking about the plague and whether the
Hippae are going to get in and eat us all!"
"The plague!" She could see Rigo's lean
form at the center of the mob. He sat in a chair, pale and haggard, but he
seemed to be functioning. Still, to be talking about the plague!
"Everyone knows, ma'am. Your husband is there,
trying to bring some order out of it all..."
"I'll join them," Brother Mainoa said from
behind them. "I have to tell them about that tunnel ... something has to
be done about it."
"And Stella?" Marjorie asked Persun.
"Through there," Persun pointed toward a
hallway.
"I'll go with you," said Rillibee, as
Brother Mainoa, leaning heavily on Father James's arm, went in to join the
crowd.
Persun guided Marjorie and Rillibee along the
building, into it through a small side door and down a corridor to a corner
room which was almost filled by a humming box, a Heal-all.
"In there," Persun said.
She peered down through the transparent lid to see
Stella lying below, slender wires and tubes connecting her to the box.
"Are you her mother?" The doctor had come
in behind them.
Marjorie turned. "Yes. Is she? I mean, what do
you...."
The doctor gestured toward a chair. "I'm Doctor
Lees Bergrem. I'm not entirely sure yet what the prognosis is. She's been here
only a little more than a day. There was no ... well, no lasting physical
damage."
"They had done something to her... to her
body?"
"Something. Something in the pleasure centers of
the brain and nervous system, in the sexual connections to it. I'm not yet sure
exactly what was done. Something perverse. Sexual pleasure seems to result from
obeying commands. I think I can fix that part."
Marjorie didn't say anything. She waited.
"She may not remember everything. She may not be
just the way she was. She may be more as she was as a child...." The
doctor shook her head. "You know about Janetta bon Maukerden? Had you heard
that another one has been found? Diamante bon Damfels. It's as though they were
wiped clean, except for that one circuit." She shook her head again.
"Your daughter is more fortunate. She hadn't been disconnected yet. Even
if she loses something, she'll have time to rebuild, relearn."
Marjorie didn't reply. What was there to say? She
felt Rillibee's hand on her shoulder. "It'll be all right." he said.
"I have a feeling."
She wondered if she should cry. What she felt was
anger. Anger at Rigo. Anger even at Stella herself. Rigo and Stella had done
this with their foolishness. And the bons had done this. Forget the Hippae,
malevolent though they were. It was human foolishness that had laid Stella in
that box.
Mercy, a voice in her mind said softly. Justice. I
wouldn't waste my time on guilt.
The doctor interrupted her thoughts. "You don't
look at all well yourself. There's a knot on your head as big as an egg. Look
here." And she began shining lights in Marjorie's eyes and hooking her up
to machines. "Concussion," she said. "Let's set you right while
you're here, before you try to do something about this mess and collapse. I'll
send someone in to clean you up, as well. Do you have a change of
clothes?"
Attendants came and went. There were basins of water
and soft towels. Someone loaned her a shirt. Then Marjorie sat beside Stella's
box, hooked-through tubes and wires to a box of her own. Gradually the vision
she had had in the swamp-forest began to fade. She remembered it, but it
lacked the clarity of immediate seeing. The words faded. What God had said to
her faded. The doctor came back and sat beside her, talking quietly of her
medical education on Semling, of her further education on Repentance, of the
young people from Commons who had been recently trained as scientists and were
working now on a puzzle Lees Bergrem herself was interested in. "I
know," said Marjorie. "I ordered your books." The doctor
flushed. "They really weren't written for the layman."
"I could tell. But I understood parts of some of
them, anyhow."
The doctor asked about the swamp-forest, the foxen,
and Marjorie answered, omitting her vision but telling about the assailants,
telling more than she knew...
"Oh, I would have forgiven them before,"
she admitted. "Oh, yes. I'd have let them go. I'd have been afraid not to.
For fear society or God would have judged me harshly. I'd have said pain in
this life isn't that important. A few more murders. A few more rapes. In heaven
they won't matter. That's what we've always said, isn't it, doctor. But God
didn't say anything about that. He just said we should get on with our
work...."
The doctor gave her a strange look and peered into
her eyes. Marjorie nodded. "They're always telling us what God has said in
books. All my life I've had God's word in my pocket, and here He wrote it all
somewhere else...."
"Shhh," said Dr. Bergrem, patting her on
the arm. Marjorie relaxed and let it go. After a time the doctor went away, and
there was nothing to listen to but her own breathing and the machines' humming.
She thought of Dr. Bergrem's book. She thought about intelligence. She thought
about Stella. Faintly she remembered the face of God, and almost as though she
had read it in a fairy tale long ago, how Father Sandoval looked with dragonfly
wings.
In the crowded room where Rigo sat, Brother Mainoa
was being wearily firm, drawing on the last of his strength to insist upon
action. "The tunnel has to be closed," he said. "At once. It's
available as a way for the Hippae to invade Commons. We heard them behind us
when we came in, no great numbers because the tunnel is too small for them to
come through except one at a time, but still a few of them are enough to do
great damage."
"Some of them came in behind you," said
Alverd Bee, the mayor. "The minute you arrived and told us there was a way
through, I sent two men to keep watch, and they report a handful of the beasts
at the tunnel entrance."
"A dozen now could be a hundred by
nightfall," Rigo said. "Brother Mainoa is right. That tunnel has to
be destroyed."
"I wish I had some idea how to go about
that," the mayor said, turning to his father-in-law. "Roald? Do you
have any ideas?"
Roald fidgeted. "Alive, what the hell can you
try? Blow it up with something. Flood it somehow. Get some kind of gate across
it." He rubbed his head. "Hime Pollut is good at this kind of thing.
Ask him."
Alverd went to find Hime Pollut. In a few moments he
returned "Hime thinks we ought to blow it up. He just doesn't know what
we've got that'll do the job."
Rigo said, "Don't you have construction
explosives, things you use to loosen up the rock when you have to expand the
winter quarters? Or in mines? You have mines. Use that!"
"We've thought of that, Ambassador, but there
are Hippae massed at this end of the tunnel. There's no way we can get in there
close to blow it up without getting eaten first." Alverd chewed his lips,
thinking.
"The other end—"
"The same, Ambassador. Hippae. at both ends. As
soon as I heard about the ones at this end, I sent an aircar to see what was
happening at the other end. The driver counted about a hundred of the beasts
out in the grasses, with about a score or so guarding the tunnel entrance.
Assuming they stay that way, still we've no way to get to the tunnel."
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"Drop something from above?"
"What? We have a few explosives but no bombs.
No—what do you call them—detonators. There are people here who could build
bombs, if we had the materials, or make the
materials, possibly, if we had the time. You and your friend here say there may
not be time. If we could get into the swamp forest far enough, if we could
locate the tunnel from above, and if we had days or weeks to work, we could
drill into it and flood it. We don't have days or weeks. We have hours. Maybe.
They've laid their plans. Your wife found their declaration of war trampled
into that cavern. We've seen it. Brother Mainoa here has told us what it means.
That word says they plan to come in here and slaughter us all, just as the
Arbai were slaughtered. Fun and games for the Hippae, they say."
"Where does the tunnel come to the
surface?" Rigo asked.
Brother Mainoa said, "On a little island among
the trees at the bottom of this slope. The forest is narrowest here, on the
east side of the port. Two or three Terran miles through, perhaps. Elsewhere
it's wider, but on this side the land slopes up on either side of the swamp and
narrows it to a neck. There's where the damned migerers dug. That's where they
must have been digging for years. The tunnel has to go deep enough to have a
good rock layer above or it'd be full of water. Who knows how long it's taken
them!"
"Can you reach the entrance to the tunnel? Can
you physically get to it?" Rigo asked Alverd Bee.
"We could if the Hippae weren't there, yes. But
not with them there. Not with them rampaging around, coming after us,"
Alverd ran his fingers through his hair, pulled his lips back to reveal his
teeth, furrowed his brow. "We don't have any armor, any kind of combat
vehicle. The little runners we use around town, they're like pea pods. We could
use aircars to drive them back inside the tunnel, just inside, but then they'd
come out again when any one of us tried to lay explosives."
"If we enticed them away, you could go in close
and blow up the entrance, block it."
"Entice them away how?" Alverd turned to
regard Rigo with an expression of half hope, half suspicion.
"I don't know yet. Could you do it?"
"Maybe. Probably."
"Then get ready to do it."
"God, it seems pretty hopeless." Alverd
shook his head.
Rigo glared up at him. "Those of us here on
Grass may end up being the last of humanity, Mayor Bee. Assume that we are. How
would you prefer to die? Waiting or fighting?"
Alverd showed his teeth again and went away. Rigo
turned to Roald Few. "If we entice the creatures out, some of them may go
around us. Can you get everyone down into the winter quarters and barricade the
entrances? Can you arm people? If you have nothing else, arm them with laser
knives, the kind Persun gave me."
"People can be armed, yes. But I think we have a
line of defense to use before we're forced into winter quarters, Ambassador. We
have the barrier at Gom. Let's put weapons there, first. Weapons and some
courageous people."
"That could work. Get everyone behind that line.
Evacuate the Commercial District and Portside. Get everyone into the winter
quarters except those who are going to fight. Be sure the ships in port are
shut up tight- !f we get out of this, we may need them later. Where's your
power station?"
"Below the town, in winter quarters. They'll
have to get us first before they can get the power station,"
And likely to do so, Rigo thought. Likely to do so.
After a few moments of silence passed, Roald left him to his thoughts, which
were all of death and destruction. It was easy to speak of enticement. Less
easy to think of a way to do it. He went to the window and leaned in it, not
seeing the bustle and confusion outside, not seeing anything but his own bloody
images. "Ambassador?"
"Yes, Sebastian."
"There's a Green Brother here to see you. The
high mucky-muck. Head of that whole bunch."
"What's his name?"
"Jhamlees Zoe. Says he has to talk with
you."
"I can spare him about three minutes."
"I told him you were all busy. Told him what
about, too. There's a room over there with nobody in it. I'll bring him
there."
The Elder Brother was peremptory. "Ambassador, I
need to know what you know about the plague." Though the room was chilly,
sweat stood at the roots of his hair and ran down behind his ears.
"Indeed," said Rigo. "On what
authority?" He stared at the odd face before him.
"Sanctity's authority. They sent you. They told
me to keep in touch."
"I wasn't given that information. I was told no
one on Grass was to know anything about my mission here " Rigo watched a
drop of sweat roll down the man's tiny nose and hang at the tip.
"I received word from the new Hierarch, Cory
Strange. His message came on the same ship that brought you."
Rigo smiled mirthlessly. "So there's a new
Hierarch. I wish he had taken office earlier. Brother Zoe. If he had, I
wouldn't be involved in this mess. Well, your authority doesn't matter! Even if
you have none at all, it doesn't matter. I could refuse to tell you, but you
could find it out from anyone out there in the hotel in ten minutes. There is
no plague on Grass. Which means, at least by implication, there is a cure here,
but we don't know where. Or what Or how. We don't know if people coming here
are cured, and if so, permanently or only for a time. The answer is probably
here on Grass. That's all we know."
The Elder Brother pulled a handkerchief from the
pocket of his robe and wiped his face with it. "I ... I ... that is, I
appreciate your giving me this information, Ambassador." He turned and
left the room, almost running.
Rigo started after him, then stopped as he saw a
folded piece of paper lying on the floor. It had fallen from the Brother's
pocket when he pulled out his handkerchief. Rigo picked it up, smoothed it to
see if it was important enough to send after the man.
"My dear old friend Nods," it began in a
clear, quirky handwriting, narrow and clear as print.
Rigo read it all the way through in mounting
disbelief, then read it again. "There is plague here, as there is
everywhere else.... It is not our desire that information about the cure be
widely disseminated ... wiping out the heathen to leave worlds for Sanctity
alone to populate ..."
"Rigo."
He turned to find her at his side. "Marjorie!
They said you were with Stella." She looked very pale. Very tired.
"I stopped in her room. I couldn't really see
her. She's boxed up in a huge Heal-all. Rillibee stayed there with her."
"How is she?"
"The doctor says she hopes for recovery. She was
careful not to say full recovery. I gather some things were destroyed."
Marjorie rubbed at her eyes.
He stood stiffly away from her, aware she had not
reproached him and yet feeling reproached. He did not want to talk about their
daughter, not yet. The paper cracked in his hand, reminding him. "You must
look at this. The head of the Friary came to see me to ask about the plague.
This thing fell out of his pocket." He thrust the letter at her.
She read, read again, turning a white face toward him
at last. "Sanctity won't spread the cure even if we find one?"
"You read what I read. The man who signed that
letter is the new Hierarch. Uncle Carlos may have been an apostate, but he
wouldn't have been capable of this!"
"What are we going to do?"
"All I've done so far is wish I hadn't told the
man anything. I don't know what to do next!"
She touched him gently on the shoulder. "One
thing at a time, Rigo. That's all any of us can do."
"Very well. One thing at a time. There's an
immediate threat from the Hippae at the tunnel. We'll probably end up having to
kill all those damned Hippae...."
"No!" she folded the letter and put it
carefully in a flapped pocket of her jacket. "No! We can't kill them all.
Not even most. They become other creatures. Important creatures. The foxen,
Rigo. They're an intelligent race. Even the Hippae themselves are intelligent,
in a way."
"We're going to have to kill some," he
objected, thinking that Marjorie did not sound like herself. "No matter
what they become. If we don't, we die ourselves. We have to make Commons secure
from them, or everyone here will die, just as the Arbai did."
"Kill some," she agreed. "Yes. It will
be necessary. But the fewest possible That's what I came to tell you. I heard
what you said about enticing them away. We must use the horses."
At first he wanted to laugh. When he had heard what
she had to say, he wanted to cry. He objected, and she looked at him in firm
decision, unlike herself. He could offer nothing better. Moved from mockery to
despair, he stumbled out of the Port Hotel to make the preparations she had
convinced him were necessary. Aircars could not get into the forest where the
tunnel ended. At any threat from above, the Hippae would merely retreat into the
swamp or the tunnel or both, as they had retreated from the aircar when Rigo
had been wounded. If men were to destroy the tunnel, the Hippae would have to
be enticed away. The Hippae hated the horses. They would use the horses.
"At least..." he said to himself, trying to
laugh, "at least I'll never have to wear those damned bon boots or those
fat-bottomed pants again!"
Not long after dawn they assembled in the great hay
barn where the horses were stalled. They met without many words. What words had
been necessary had already been carried from each to each, and they were all
tired of words. Tired of words, afraid of action, yet determined nonetheless.
Rigo, pale but resolute, was saddling El Dia Octavo.
Marjorie had chosen Don Quixote. Tony took Blue Star, and Sylvan, Her Majesty.
Irish Lass, they had regretfully decided, was not quick enough. That left only
Millefiori.
"I wish we had someone," Sylvan said,
looking at the mare.
"We do," said Marjorie. She was very calm.
Father Sandoval had suggested he hear her confession and give her absolution.
She had told him there wasn't time. She wasn't sure she wanted to confess
anything. She wasn't sure anything needed confession. Even if it did, she
didn't think she would, or could, share it, because she hadn't figured it out
yet. "Tony, we do have someone."
"Who?" he asked in surprise.
"Me," said a voice from the door. She stood
there in the light from outside, very pale, dressed in her bon riding coat and
a hastily remodeled set of trousers. Rowena.
Sylvan gasped. "Mother!"
"I'm glad I have a child left to call me
mother," she said coldly. "Have you seen Dimity, Sylvan?"
He bowed his head, for a moment unable to reply.
"I've seen her, yes. I know what condition she's in. But it won't help her
for you to do this," he murmured. "You're not well, not
healed...."
"I promised Marjorie my help if ever she should
need it. She needs it. And who else will do it? A few hours ago Marjorie took
me out and taught me how. It's nothing. Nothing compared to what I did all my
girlhood, most of my Obermum life, even after you were born, Sylvan. Oh, I've
enough experience riding to get through this, I think. Have you seen Emmy,
Sylvan? She looks almost like Dimity. Though the doctors say she will heal, in
time."
"Father did that," he said
expressionlessly.
"I don't blame Stavenger," she said.
"Why blame a dead man? I blame the Hippae. I blame who's responsible, and
that has always been the Hippae."
"The bons and the foxen both deserve a share of
blame," Marjorie said hotly. "The foxen let it happen. They allowed
themselves a comfortable retirement. They let happen what would. Then, when it
all went wrong, they chose to discuss it philosophically. When men came here,
they learned new ideas of guilt and redemption and talked about that. They
engaged in great theological arguments. They sent Brother Mainoa to find out if
they could be forgiven. They talked of original sin, collective guilt. They're
still doing it. They haven't learned that being penitent sometimes does no good
at all." She pulled on a girth so furiously that Don Quixote whuffed in
complaint.
"Mother," Tony said. "Don't."
"Damn it, Tony, they could help. They're great,
powerful beasts, evolved to be so to protect themselves from something even
more terrible that was long ago extinct. But they no longer do anything. They
think. They discuss. They don't decide."
"I thought when they helped you, they had
decided," Rigo said. She had told him about the climbers.
"Aaah," she growled, "Aaah. One of
them helped me. By himself. I don't think even he would be much help against a
dozen of the Hippae. Not alone. The rest of them are all sitting up there in
the trees, thinking about it. Wondering what they might do if they ever decide
to do anything. I made a mistake back there in the Tree City when I didn't kill
those two climbers. I set a good example. They're all too ready to take a good
example if it means they won't have to do anything and then take responsibility
for it."
For the tenth time she checked her lance, a strong
spear of light metal alloy with a trigger mounted on it which would turn on a
big laser knife, one of the kind they had given their workmen for harvesting
grasses. The knife was mounted at the tip of the lance and was counterbalanced
by a weight in the butt end. Roalds' workmen had built the lances as well as
the bucklers each of them wore, a kind of light breastplate with a hook under
the left arm to hold the end of the lance down. The breasts and flanks of the
horses were armored in similar fashion, with light plates strung on tough
fabric, to keep the weight down. Rigo had remembered the breastplates from
armor he had seen, armor dating from a time when lances had been monstrously
heavy and had had to be carried dead level.
It didn't matter how level these were carried.
Actually they would do more damage if they wobbled and swung. If they moved
about a good deal, it would do maximum damage at the greatest distance. Still,
the hook would help to control them and keep the tips from dipping or catching
on the ground—for at least one charge. Marjorie hadn't really intended a
charge. She had suggested a quick sally to bring the Hippae away from the
tunnel mouth in pursuit, and then a long flight which would keep the Hippae
away long enough for Alverd's men to blow up the tunnel. Rigo, having seen what
knives would do to Hippae flesh, had suggested improving their chances with
weapons. So each of them had a lance plus a knife in a pocket. Armed or not,
after one charge horses and riders would probably be fleeing for their lives.
If they survived that long.
There had been time for only a brief mounted practice
with the lances. "Remember, horses are faster on the flat," Rigo had
reminded them. "The Hippae will be faster running uphill. It's the way
they're made. More like big cats than like horses. Their legs can give more
thrusting power going up than going forward. We'll run on the flat, along the
hill, slightly upward, not straight up. If we can make it to the gate at the
order station, they'll let us through."
The gate seemed an impossible goal as they left the
great hay barn and rode across the paved area that separated it from the Port
Hotel, around the empty hotel and hospital, to the slope leading down to the
marsh. Each of them studied it, finding the route they would take when the
Hippae came after them. If they went north they would shortly be trapped
against the implacable ridge of Com. Besides, that's where Alverd's men were,
waiting to move down to the tunnel as soon as the Hippae were decoyed away. So
they would go south where they could run for miles in a wide arc, all the way
around the grazing land to the ruts south of Portside Road and along Portside
Road to Grass Mountain Road and the gate. The ground was the same wherever they
would run. A grassy, weedy slope, uncultivated, scattered with rock and the
break-leg holes of small migerish creatures. The sun was in their eyes. The
marsh lay in shadow at the bottom of the slope, just outside the first fringe
of trees. The Hippae were hidden. From time to time, the sound of their howling
came up the hill. No one knew what they were waiting for.
"Ready?" asked Rigo.
Silence. He looked to either side to see them
nodding, ready, unwilling to break the quiet with words. He kneed El Dia Octavo
into a steady walk down the slope.
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Marjorie thought: It always comes down to something
like this, doesn't it. No matter what our consciences say, no matter how much
doctrine we've been taught, no matter how many ethical considerations we've
chewed and swallowed and tried to digest, it always comes down to us arming
ourselves with weapons as deadly as we can manage and going out into combat...
I should be frightened but it doesn't feel much
different from competition, really, A high wall. Always the possibility of a
fall, even a bad fall, even getting killed. Not the safest sport in the world.
Still, it's only time and energy and staying on and trusting the horse.
Thinking with the horse, not for him...
I really don't have to think about anything except killing as many of them as I can. Killing them, and not worrying about the ethics until later. Forget that every Hippae at the bottom of the hill has the potential of becoming a foxen. A being more intelligent than I am. Every Hippae I kill or maim means one less like Him. Don't think about Him. Unthink Him. The whole thing was delirium, that's all. Imagination.
Where's the justice in this? If man had never come to
Grass, nothing like this would have happened. If man and Arbai had never come.
If no one ever went anywhere, nothing like this would happen....
Except that it would. Some wild, malevolent virus
would have found its way to us stay-at-homes. Something like the Hippae would
come screaming through our windows, breaking down our doors, killing and raping
and mutilating us.
Oh, Lord, I have been such a good girl! I have always
attended mass, always gone to confession, always done my penance. I've done
charity work. I've loved and cared for my children, no matter how hard they
made it. I've tried my damnedest to love my husband. I thought about killing
myself, but I repented that. I've lived a very acceptable, proper life at home,
there.... Piss on it.
I'd rather be here. Even if I die, I'd rather be
here. If there's anything important for a very small being to do, it's fighting
the plague. That's first. We've got to buy time to find the answer. The only
thing that matters now is the plague. We've got to find the cure and make sure
that Sanctity doesn't get it before someone else does. And if we do that then
... then there's something else. Oh, God, let Him talk to me. I want Him to
talk to me.
Rigo thought: This damned lance doesn't balance
right. It needs to be heavier at the butt so it'll swing with less strength.
Maybe it's just that I feel lousy. Sick, weak. I should still be back there in
a chair letting somebody put a blanket over my legs. Instead, I'm here. Where
is here? How the hell did I get here? Well, no one forced me. I'm the only one
of us who's ever fought a Hippae. I'm the only one who knows where to hit them.
Legs first, jaws second. Cut their legs out, their jaws off, let the damned,
stinking things die.
I'm not healed yet. My legs don't feel right. My
thighs feel soggy, like wet sponges As though there were no muscle there.
Someone may die out here today. Maybe me. Better me than Marjorie or Tony. They
haven't played the fool, the way I have.
But if it's me, she'll be free. Free to do whatever
she likes, go to whomever she likes. Sylvan. Look at him. Never ridden a horse
before, but he looks like he was born riding. Well, it's not that different.
The strengths are the same; legs, back.
If I get killed, will she go to him?
If she does, is it any worse than my having Eugenie?
Poor Eugenie. Damn. I wish they'd saved her Lovely Eugenie. Nothing in her head
but how to make things pretty and taste good and smell good and feel good. No
high aspirations. No high-minded innocence to offend against. No modesty to
invade. No expectations to fall short of. No serious thoughts at all. Still,
she deserved better than to die like that.
If she died. God. Maybe she didn't. Maybe the hounds
took her, the Hippae took her, the way they took Stella...
Don't think of that! The only thing that matters now
is the plague. We've got to save Commons from being overrun, just for a while,
until someone can come up with the answer. We will, will come up with an
answer. Mankind will come up with an answer! Something always saves, us, just
in the nick of time. God will intervene. There'll be time. Marjorie will turn
back to me. She always has. Always, no matter what happens....
Sylvan thought: You have to give him credit. Not a
day out of bed, half killed by the mounts, and here he is. He keeps looking at
me, letting his eyes slide across me. I know what he's thinking. If he gets
killed, I get Marjorie. Fool. If he gets killed, Marjorie does what she
pleases, and that doesn't include me. I don't know why. I've never had trouble
with any woman I've ever wanted, but I'm no good with her. I'm the real fool. I
thought she was like one of us. What's the Terran word? Pleasure-seeking.
Hedonistic. Well, what else have we had to think of but pleasure? The damned
Hippae haven't let us think of anything else. They've tapped into us and
enslaved us and kept us right where they wanted us....
Look at Marjorie! Like a queen! Regal and tall and
rides that thing as though she were part of it. That thing! Ha-ha. Horse.
Horse. They make soft noises when you pat them and they look at you kindly when
you get on. This one, Her Majesty, she does what I ask her to. It's almost like
loving a woman. Horse. Not Hippae.
Tony's watching me, too. He doesn't like me. I
thought at first it was because of Marjorie, but that's not it. I offend him
somehow. My manner. My bon manner. Maybe it was because I didn't take their
plague seriously. I didn't know. Did I even think it mattered whether there was
anything left of humanity, elsewhere? That's what the Hippae thought. They
didn't care. If they thought it, we thought it How long have they been doing
our thinking for us? They don't want there to be another intelligent race. And
they won't believe that they themselves become another intelligent race.
Foxen. What was it Brother Mainoa said? We never believe we'll get old. The
Hippae don't know what they have in them to be. They've stopped themselves,
half grown. They've stopped themselves at adolescence. Brutal time, that.
Hateful time. Not a child. Not grown. Full of strength and fury and no place to
put it....
Well, they stopped us there, too. Marjorie looks at
me the way she looks at Tony. As though I'm a boy. And when have I ever had the
chance to be anything else....
Mother. Mother. You shouldn't be out here at all. Oh,
Mother, do you really think this pays back for Dimity....
Tony thought: Let's get this over with and go home.
If I die, I die, but if I don't die, let me go home. Let's leave these people,
these crazy bons, let's go! Let me go through this hour, two hours, whatever
it takes, then we'll go, I'll go, somehow. Let's get it over with. If I die ...
Rowena thought: Dimity. For Dimity. For Emmy. For
Stavenger. For my other children, dead so long ago I've almost forgotten their
names. For all of you. For all of us.
Sylvan. Oh, Sylvan. Whatever happens, remember that I
love you, I love you all....
Don Quixote thought: She is riding. Trust her. Trust what she does. And listen, all
of you. Listen for the voices.
At the foot of the hill they were separated from the
Hippae at the tunnel entrance only by a few deep pools and a screen of foliage.
Only Rigo rode all the way down, measuring the distance at a mental gallop.
Then he turned back, summoning the others to a line that seemed an appropriate
distance from the bottom. They wanted the slope of the hill to aid them, but
there had to be space to turn along the hillside without being forced into the
sucking pools at its foot. Silently Rigo checked his lance while the others did
likewise, then began rattling the butt of his lance on his buckler, screaming
insults at the same time. "Hippae fools. Mock horses. Stupid beasts."
Not that they understood what he was saying, but they could pick the intent up
from his mind.
"Genocides," shrieked Marjorie at the top
of her lungs. "Ingrates! Malicious beasts! Curs!"
"Oh, wah. wah, wah, wah," screamed Tony,
making as much noise as he could but incapable of thinking words.
"For Dimity," cried Rowena. "For
Dimity, Dimity, Dimity."
"Cowards," trumpeted Sylvan. "Cowards.
Animals. Peepers. Mig-erers. Muddy migerers with no more honor than a
mole."
The Hippae came out of the screening brush in a rush,
then stopped while those on the hill fell silent. The humans had expected
Hippae. They had not expected them to have riders. Foremost among them was a
great gray mount bearing someone they all knew on its back.
"Shevlok," breathed Rowena. "Oh, for the love of God, my
son."
"It's not Shevlok," Sylvan spat at her.
"Look at his face." The face was a mask, empty as a broken bottle.
There was nothing there. "You're fighting the beasts, not the
riders," trumpeted Rigo. "Remember that. The mounts, not the
riders!" He kneed El Dia Octavo into a trot. Behind him the others did
likewise, falling into a diagonal line so that each would have room to charge
and turn without endangering the ones behind.
Rigo counted as he rode. There were ten of the
Hippae. The one bearing Shevlok's body was to the fore with three others beyond
to Rigo's right. Well and good. The one in front would take the brunt, and
better Rigo to attack that one than to expect the bon Damfels to do it. The
other Hippae riders—who were they? He risked a quick glance. Lancel bon
Laupmon. Three of the bon Maukerdens: Dimoth, Vince, and one whose name he had
forgotten. He didn't know any of the others, or he didn't recognize them. The
faces didn't look like faces at all. They had been transfigured into something
merely symbolic. Something wholly possessed
He was only a few feet from them when he felt them
pushing at his mind, erasing his intent. He howled, the howl driving them out,
away. He flicked the trigger to turn on the knife and signaled Octavo for a
slow, collected canter. The gray Hippae reared high, and Octavo ran toward it,
then turned to the right without hesitation as Rigo clipped off its front feet
with the fiery lance. It hadn't expected that! One. One, screaming, but down!
Octavo stretched his stride and galloped along the
hillside, running swiftly as three of the Hippae came up from the swamp and
tried to intercept him from the left. Cursing, Rigo lifted the tip of the lance
from under his left arm, brought it across and anchored it in his right armpit,
then stretched out his left arm to hold the lance perpendicular to the line of
Octavo's movement. The humming flame caught the first interceptor low across
its shoulders. Leg muscles severed; it fell as the other two screamed and
turned away. Two.
Sylvan was behind him, Her Majesty flying in the face
of the Hippae, swift as a bird. He saw Rigo shift the lance and shifted his own
almost simultaneously. The object was to get the creatures moving in pursuit,
he reminded himself. Not necessarily to kill them yet. Now, if possible;
eventually, yes, but not necessarily now. He jabbed the lance toward a
green-mottled Hippae and heard it bellow in angry pain. Then he was past. He
cast a quick glance across his shoulder and saw the green monster coming after
him. Good. Well and good. He pointing the lance in the direction he was moving
and leaned forward to whisper soft words in Her Majesty's ear. They were words
he had whispered to lovers in time past. He saw nothing incongruous in urging
Her Majesty on with them now.
Rowena was behind Sylvan, copying his tactics a
little too late to make the wide turn he had made. It was only when her lance
had chopped into the throat of a shrieking mud-colored creature that she
remembered they had to flee. Millefiori had already decided it was time.
Wheeling on her hind legs, she set out in pursuit of the other two while the
mud-colored monster staggered behind them, screaming, being rapidly
outdistanced by two other, uninjured Hippae.
Three, Marjorie thought to herself. Three down. Four
in pursuit of the three horses, two of them at least slightly wounded. Three
waiting for her, and for Tony. Little Tony. White-faced. The way he always got
when he rode. Fearful. Not thinking about it.
"Anthony!" she screamed in his ear,
"Follow me!"
She thumbed the lance on, sighted a line of travel
that would take her in front of two of the remaining Hippae, The third one was
hanging back, as though for an ambush. "Watch that one," she cried,
pointing to the mottled wine-colored beast half screened by the trees.
Tony cried something in answer, she couldn't tell
what. Then Quixote was crossing the path of the two, both charging at her,
necks twisted to one side to bring the barbs to bear. She flipped the lance to
her left as the others had done and raked them with the blade. Screams. Bellows.
She turned Quixote up the hill and around.
Tony. He was facing the final Hippae, his lance
dipping and swirling, the beast staying well back, out of range. Tony was too
close. If he turned to flee, the other would have him!
She looked behind her. The two she had touched were
not badly hurt. Surprised into inaction for the moment, but not badly hurt. She
had touched their necks, not their legs. She pulled Quixote up and back,
wheeling on his hind legs. "Come on," she cried to Quixote, riding
directly at the monster confronting Tony. Beyond the beast was a patch of level
ground.
Her heart was hammering so loudly that she could hear
only it, nothing else, a pulse in her ears that drowned out the fall of hooves.
She took the lance in her left hand, held it loosely. They came closer.
"We're going to jump," she told Quixote. "We're going to jump
over him, boy. Over him." Then there was no time to say anything. Quixote's
haunches gathered under him; they were high, high over the monster's back and
the lance was pointed down, down and back, then they had landed on the other
side.
They were on a tiny island, only large enough for
Quixote to stop on, stop and wheel and jump once more, back over the pool to
the solid hillside. Tony was there, looking stupidly downward at the recumbent,
slavering Hippae with the severed spine while two wounded ones stalked toward
him.
Four.
"Anthony!" she cried as she went past.
"Come, Blue Star!"
Horse heard her if rider did not. Quixote lunged up
the hill, faster than the wounded Hippae, with Blue Star close behind. When
they had gained a little distance, Marjorie turned to the south. Blue Star was
even with her. She risked a look at Tony. He looked almost like Shevlok, his
face white and expressionless. She drove Quixote at Blue Star's side so that
they raced only inches apart, then leaned out and slapped Tony with her glove,
and again.
He came to himself with a start, tears filling his
eyes. "I couldn't think," he cried. "It got into me and didn't
let me think."
"Don't let it!" she demanded. "Yell.
Scream. Call it dirty names, but don't let it!"
Perhaps a half mile ahead of them on the hillside,
Octavo and the two mares raced side by side with four of the Hippae in pursuit.
"Now," Marjorie cried, pointing ahead and
to the right. "We're going to intercept them."
She leaned forward. Rigo, Sylvan, and Rowena were
riding on the level line of the hill, around it. not up it. The full circuit of
the sloping ground, back to the gate, would take two or three hours, riding at
top speed the whole way. If she and Tony went slightly uphill and to the west,
they should intercept the others a bit past the southernmost point of their
arc. Quixote and Blue Star stretched out, galloping side by side like twins
joined at the heart. Behind them came the two wounded Hippae, still screaming,
still with their blank-faced riders aboard. They were not fast enough to be an
immediate threat, but the laser knife had cauterized as it cut, so they were
not being greatly weakened by blood loss, either.
'They're still trying to get into my head," Tony
called. "So I'm thinking about going home."
She smiled at him, nodded encouragingly. Whatever
worked. She herself could not feel them at all. She felt something, but not
Hippae. Something else. Someone else.
"You didn't kill your bad individuals,"
Someone commented, quietly curious. "Why are you killing ours?"
"Because I could tie mine up and keep them from
hurting anyone," she replied. "I can't do that with these
creatures."
"You could figure something out," the voice
suggested. "No!" she said, angrily. "Everyone always says that.
It isn't true. If you can figure something out, you do. If you don't, it's
because you can't. Can't because you don't have the time, or the money, or the
material. Can't because there isn't any way or any time or you're not smart
enough."
A thought very like a sigh. A touch, like a caress.
"Damn it," she cried aloud. "Can't you see that theoretical
answers are no answers at all! It has to be something you can do!"
Shocked silence. Tony was staring at her. "What
was that?" he cried.
"Nothing," she muttered, concentrating on
riding. "Nothing at all." The ground fled by beneath them. The
leather of their saddles creaked.
Occasional bunches of tall grass whipped at them
Brush materialized before the horses' feet. Rocks and holes and hollows were
there, were jumped, were gone. Behind them the wounded pair came on, howling.
Time went by, swift but interminable. Time past was nothing, no matter how
long. Time ahead was everything, no matter how brief. Tony's eyes were glazed
with his effort to keep the Hippae from commanding him. Marjorie sat quietly,
helping Quixote by her quiet. He would do all he could do for her without her
bothering him. The arc of the hill against the sky seemed no closer, no matter
how long they rode.
And then at last it was there. They came upon the
height to see Rigo and the others to the south below them, coming around toward
them to make the arc which would bring them back along the west side of the
long hill on which Commons was built. The four Hippae still pursued Rigo
and-the other two riders, more closely than before. "Come on,
Quixote," she cried, urging him down, wanting to let Rigo know she was
there but judging the distance too great for him to hear her yet.
She looked at the point where the two lines of travel
would intersect, laid her body along Quixote's neck, and urged him on. When
they had halved the distance, she yodeled, seeing three heads come up. Rigo
looked over his shoulder, apprehending what Marjorie intended. She could come
in behind the four Hippae pursuing Rigo, Rowena, and Sylvan. Rigo and the
others could then turn and take them from the front while Marjorie and Tony
attacked from behind. Which would have been an acceptable tactic except for the
two other Hippae, just now coming over the hill behind Marjorie and Tony. Their
presence would put her between two groups of them. He waved, pointing behind
her.
She turned, saw what was coming, and cursed. She had
thought the horses could outdistance the wounded beasts, but the Hippae had
kept pace. That made the odds six Hippae to five humans. Even though four of
the Hippae were slightly wounded, it wasn't good. Not good enough.
From the east came a great crumping sound, a
concussion of air, like thunder. The ground shivered. The two Hippae on the
hill screamed in rage, realizing before Marjorie did what had happened. Alverd
Bee's men had blown up the tunnel. The tunnel.
For the first time, Marjorie realized that the tunnel had been too narrow and
low to allow a sudden, full-scale invasion. If the Hippae had been planning
their attack for long, there were probably other tunnels. There was that great
trail out there in the grass. There had to be other tunnels ... "We're
looking," said Someone. "We haven't found any others yet." Which
didn't mean there weren't any.
"Are you going to help?" she demanded.
"Are you going to let us get killed doing this all by ourselves?"
There was no answer.
Rigo had heard the explosion. Now he leaned over
Octavo's neck and urged him forward. Her Majesty and Millefiori fled along
behind him, moving like the wind, opening the distance between them and the
Hippae.
Marjorie turned more to the north. It would do no
good to come up behind the other riders. Now they had simply to outrun their
pursuers. Get to the stony ridges of Com, get to the gate. "If it were
your people, I'd try to help," said Marjorie. "Humans have been
helping the Hippae kill foxen," came the answer, snappishly, not at all
allusively, in clear words. Not the familiar voice, another one. "All
along."
"You know damned well that's not so," she
cried. "Humans have been used by
Hippae to kill foxen. That's entirely different." At least partly a lie,
too. Humans had been all too willing to lend themselves to that Hunt. No
answer.
They ran. Quixote was lathered, breathing harshly. It
had been a long hill and the armor was heavy. Marjorie held the reins in her
teeth, took her knife from her pocket, and cut the straps that held the armor,
one around Quixote's breast, two on each side. The plates dropped off and the
horse made a noise that sounded like a prayer. Tony saw what she was doing and
did likewise.
Rigo had been watching. He nodded and called to the
other two. Sylvan followed suit, as did Rigo himself. Rowena cried out in
dismay. She had no knife. She had come last, and no one had thought to give her
one.
As though distracted by this cry, Millefiori stumbled
and fell. Rowena went rolling away, coming up wild-eyed. Then she was up,
running toward the horse, mounting all in one fluid motion as Millefiori
struggled to her feet, limping. Then the mare was running again, though awkwardly,
slowly, with a wide space opening between Rowena and the others.
Sylvan saw. He turned Her Majesty and made a tight
circle which brought him to his mother's side. He reached out, pulled her onto
the saddle before him. Now Her Majesty was carrying double. She slowed
Millefiori slowed. Sylvan edged back to give his mother room. One of the Hippae
leapt forward with stunning speed and gaping jaws, snatching him from Her
Majesty's back. Another ran even with Millefiori, ready to leap. Rowena, face
like death and mouth wide with an unheard howl, rode on.
Sylvan had vanished. Where he had been was nothing,
no movement. Marjorie screamed in anger and pain, tears streaking her face.
"I'll begin by burning the swamp forest. It won't burn easily, but we'll do
it somehow. Then the grasses, all of them. That will take care of the plague
and the Hippae. There'll be no more Hippae."
"What about us?" voices cried.
"What about you?" she snarled. "If
you're no help, you're no help. You don't care about us. Why should we care
about you?"
A whine. A snarl. A slap, as from one being to
another being. Then, suddenly, there was something behind Millefiori, rising to
confront the approaching. Hippae Mauve and plum and purple, a lash of tail and
ripple of shoulders, a moving mirage of trembling air.
"If He has to do it alone," Marjorie cried,
"I'll still burn the forest, even if I have to do it by myself."
"The ones behind us are gaining," Tony
called. "Blue Star's exhausted."
"We're all exhausted," she cried, tears
running down her face. Where Sylvan had been was a tumult of beasts. "Turn
more toward the road." She looked behind her, then up at the sun. They'd
been running for well over an hour. Perhaps two. Thirty miles, more or less,
all of it over rough ground and a lot of it uphill. With another twelve or
fifteen miles to cover before they got back to the gate. "If I die out
here," she threatened, "my family will burn the forest, I swear to
God they will."
"What's going on down there?" cried Tony.
"The Hippae have stopped."
They had stopped. Stopped, turned, were running away.
Not back the way they had come, unfortunately. Uphill. Toward Marjorie.
"Foxen," Marjorie cried. "Not quite where I would have wanted
them, but better than nothing, I suppose."
She was trying to feel philosphical about dying, not
managing it, trying not be frightened, and not managing that, either.
"Tony, we have to take out the two behind us before those others reach
us."
He turned a stricken face upon her.
"We have to! If the other four reach us first,
we'll have them all around us."
He nodded, biting his lip. She saw blood there, the
only color in his face.
"Turn on your lance."
He'd forgotten about it. He thumbed it on. looking at
the humming blade almost as though hypnotized.
"Tony! Pay attention." She motioned,
showing him how she wanted him to circle—the two of them wide, in opposite
directions, coming back to hit the wounded Hippae from both sides.
They broke from one another, circled tightly, and
were running back toward the pursuing monsters before the Hippae understood
what was happening. Then they, too, broke, one headed for each of the horses.
Marjorie tried to forget about her son, concentrate on what she was doing.
Lance well out in front, the blaze of its blade apparent even in the light of
day.
There was a roar above her. She looked up to see
Asmir Tanlig and Roald Few beckoning from an aircar, screaming at her. She
lip-read. "We'll pick you up, pick you up."
Leave Quixote and Blue Star to face these beasts
alone! She shook her head, waved them off. no. Only when the car rose did she
realize what she had done. Oh, God, how silly. How silly. And yet ...
The Hippae was before her, circling just out of
reach, darting forward, then back. He could maneuver more quickly than Quixote
could. Quixote kept his head toward the beast, dancing, as though he wore
ballet shoes, as though he stood on tiptoe. Behind her she heard Tony yell. She
didn't dare look. Again dance, dance. Then Quixote charged. She hadn't signaled
him to do it. He simply did it. There was an opening, the lance found it, and
they were dancing away again while the Hippae sagged before them, yammering at
the sky, its neck half cut through.
Five, her mind exulted as she tried to find Tony. Five.
Six was standing over her son while Blue Star
fled toward the distant gate as though she knew where it was, as though she had
been told it meant safety. Great jaws wide, the crouching Hippae howled at the
boy, ready to take off his face in one huge bite. Quixote raced forward,
screaming....
There was a furry blur on the Hippae's back. Another
between the jaws and the boy. Another at its haunches, clawing at it. Three
foxen. The screaming battle tumbled to one side and rolled toward the hill.
Tony lay still.
She dismounted and struggled to get him onto
Quixote's back. The horse knelt to receive him, again without a signal to do
so. Then Marjorie was up once more, holding her son before her, and they were
running the way Blue Star had gone. Not really running. Moving, at least.
Down the hill, other foxen had taken on the other
Hippae. Rowena was just behind Rigo. Millefiori came behind, limping badly.
"Now," thought Marjorie. "Now bring
out your damned aircar or airtruck or what-have-you. Now."
And it was there, only a short distance from them
all, with Persun Pollut driving it and Sebastian Mechanic dropping out a ramp
for the horses.
"I knew you wouldn't leave the horses,"
Persun called as they came aboard. "I told Asmir you wouldn't, but Roald
said you wouldn't be that silly."
Silly, she said to herself. Silly. As though that
were the answer to a problem that had bothered her for a very long time. In her
mind she sensed an enormous, unqualified approval.
Headquarters had been set up in the order station
under James Jellico's watchful eye. A dozen eager volunteers offered to rub
down the horses. Aside from Millefiori's bad leg they seemed to be all right.
In one corner Dr. Bergrem was looking at Rowena with an expression of concern.
Rowena had broken something in that fall. Her shoulder, maybe. Something inside
her had broken as well. She sat still and white-faced, unresponsive. When
Marjorie went to her, she was whispering Sylvan's name, over and over.
"We found him," Marjorie said. "We
went out and found him, Rowena."
"What?" she asked. "How?"
"He's dead, Rowena. The fall broke his neck.
They didn't touch him."
"He's not ... oh, he's not—"
"No, Rowena," she cried. "He's not. We
brought his body back to be buried."
She returned to Tony, who was sitting white-faced in
a corner, slowly coming to himself. Beyond him she saw Brother Mainoa seated at
the tell-me. Marjorie fumbled awkwardly at her pocket flap with hands that
seemed frozen from their long grip upon lance and reins.
Her fingers were made of wood. Eventually she got the
pocket open and the letter out.
She laid it before Brother Mainoa. "I think this
should be sent to Semling," she said.
He read it, his face turning gray as the sense of it
reached him. "Ah ... ah," he murmured. "Ah, yes ... but—"
"But?"
He rubbed his forehead, started to speak, stopped to
think again. "If you spread this around now, there will be panic,
rebellions, riots. Then, if we find a cure, the authorities will be so occupied
with maintaining order, they won't be able to disseminate the cure. This letter
shouldn't be made public until there's a cure, Marjorie."
"All right," she agreed. "But I'm
concerned that it might not get out at all if we wait. Who knows what
those—"
"Devils," he offered. "Sanctified
devils. The Hierarch and his retinue."
"It's your faith. I didn't want to...."
"It's what I was born to," he admitted.
"What I was given to. That's not the same thing. No. This was written by
someone unworthy of any faith, Marjorie."
She threw up her hands. "You know what I'm
saying, Brother. What's-his-name, Zoe, may miss this letter at any time. May
come looking for it. May take steps to stop its getting out."
"We'll make copies," Brother Mainoa
offered. "Merely sending the text off-planet wouldn't do. The Hierarch
could disclaim any such. Copies in his own hand, that's what's needed. And
since this says the Hierarch is on his way here, we should get someone to take
copies off-planet. There's a Semling freighter in port, ready to leave. The Star-Lily."
"How long to the nearest ... how long to
Semling?"
"Two weeks, Grassian time."
"Thirty days," she murmured. "How
wonderful if we could have a cure by then."
"We who?"
"The doctor here. She's remarkable, Brother
Mainoa. She studied on Semling. She studied on Repentance. She's got some young
helpers just back from school. She got interested in immunology, because of
something she found here on Grass when she was a girl."
"Something?"
"A— I'm no scientist. She wrote a book about the
stuff. It has a long name I've forgotten. It's a nutrient. Something our cells
have to have in order to grow and reproduce. And here on Grass it exists in two
forms, the usual one and one that's inverted. Nowhere else. Only here."
"When did she tell you this?"
"When I was visiting Stella. She was only
talking to distract me, but she sounded so competent it gave me hope, some
hope." She took the letter from him, stared at it, still finding it hard
to believe. "I suppose you're right about this. If we don't find a cure,
what difference does it make whether people know? But if we do? Then people
need to know about this letter. People are entitled to know what Sanctity
intended to do!"
"All right, Marjorie. We'll send copies
off-planet, just in case. The Star-Lily still plans to leave tomorrow. Now that
the tunnel is blown up, we'll ask Alverd Bee to get the crew and the
warehousemen back over to the port to get it ready to lift."
"Tony," she said. "We'll send
Tony." It would be a good idea to send Tony. He was too vulnerable to the
Hippae. She had to get him away before he was tainted by them, as Stella was.
Except ... there might be plague on Semling. Which risk was greater? All risks
were equal. All were life or death. "Tell the crew to be careful. There
must be another tunnel. Why else that great Hippae trail leading here!"
He nodded, patting her hand. "If the men keep
someone on watch and an aircar or two standing by, they should be safe enough.
And, just in case the Hierarch starts looking for me—which he may do, if Zoe
tells him about me—I'll hide myself away somewhere. I'll go back to the forest,
that's what. Rillibee will come along to take care of me. If they come looking
for me, tell them I went back into the forest. If they come looking for the
letter, you never saw it. Rigo never saw it. When a cure is found, Tony will
see that the letter is widely disseminated, just as the cure is."
Rillibee was beside them. "I'll go," he
said. "I'll get Brother Mainoa up in a tree somewhere, and we'll wait
until one of the foxen comes to get us."
She found herself trying to think of an excuse why
she should go herself. She wanted to go herself. She wanted to be there, among
the trees, not here with all these people. She looked around, seeking some
reason, and turned back to find Rillibee already gone.
Damn. She felt unutterably sad but forbade herself to
cry. "Does everyone accept that there's probably another tunnel?" she
asked Roald Few, trying to distract herself.
"Oh, yes," Roald said. "Probably more
than one. Probably not finished yet, or they'd be all over us/'
"A tunnel could just as easily come in on this
side of the wall," she whispered, looking around to be sure that no one
else heard her. "It could come out below the town. Have you thought of
that?"
Roald nodded wearily. "Lady Westriding, we've
thought of that and of three or four other things that would be equally
dreadful. People are beginning to talk about the winter quarters, how long they
could hold them against a Hippae assault."
"So, if the tunnel isn't finished, what will the
Hippae do next?"
"Burn the estancias," he replied,
"just as they did Opal Hill. That's one of the things we figured out while
you were out there enticin' the Hippae. We all agreed. Given their nature, if
they can't get in here yet, they'll start fires."
"Has anyone warned the estancias?"
He buried his head in his hands. "Nobody's had
time! And who are they going to listen to? Obermum bon Damfels? They might
believe her. They certainly won't believe me."
Marjorie went away to make copies of the letter, to
get Tony onto the Star-Lily, and to find Rowena.
No one answered the tell-me at Klive. At the bon
Laupmons', someone answered but declined to respond either to the information
that Taronce had survived or that the estancia should be evacuated. At Stane,
however, after learning that both Dimoth and Vince were dead, Geraldria bon
Maukerden begged Rowena to send whatever help would come from Commoner Town to
evacuate the house and village. Mayor Bee already had all available aircars and
trucks going to all the villages, the bon Damfels village included.
"The damned bons can char on their own griddle
if they want to," he snarled. "But we'll get our village people
out."
It was too late to get them out of Klive. Even before
the tunnel had been blown up, Hippae had attacked Klive. There were no people
left alive there, not in the estancia, not in the village, except one man,
Figor, found wandering among the charred houses, a laser knife in his hands.
When she heard the news, Rowena wept, wiping the
tears away with her left hand. The right arm and shoulder were in a Heal-all,
mending. "Emmy's here," she said. "Amy's here. Shevlok's here,
alive in a way. Figor will be all right. But oh, I grieve for Sylvan. And my
cousins. And old Aunt Jem."
No one had time to grieve with her. There had been a
trail leading from Klive to the swamp forest. All the Hippae on Grass seemed to
be congregating there.
The evacuation fleet shuttled back and forth across
the prairies, continuing even after fires sprung up at Stane and at Jorum, the
estancia of the bon Bindersen's. Obermun Kahrl and Obermum Lisian refused to
leave the bon Bindersen estancia, but their children, Traven and Maude, left
willingly enough with the people of the village and many others from the big
house.
At the bon Haunser place, Eric joined the evacuees
along with Jason, the Obermun's son. Felitia had died outside the bon Laupmon
walls, during what Rigo had come to remember as "The Joust."
The bon Laupmon place was totally destroyed before
the cars arrived, though the commoners had cut a fire break around the village
and, armed with harvesting knives, were standing fast with their livestock. At
the bon Smaerloks', the drivers were told that the bons had gone hunting with
the bon Tanligs. All of them, even the old folks. A vast crowd of hounds and
mounts had showed up early on Hunt morning, and every occupant of the estancias
had gone a-hunting. The only people left in the estancias were children. The
children and the villagers were evacuated; a wide Hippae trail led from the
estancias toward Commons.
The order station became the nerve center for
Commons. From there one could see what went on at the port and receive messages
from approaching ships. From there one could direct the defenses if Hippae came
in through some other tunnel-In the winter quarters below the order station a
makeshift hospital was set up to house Rowena, Stella, Emmy, Shevlok, Figor,
and a dozen others who had been badly injured before or during the evacuation.
People with only superficial injuries were treated and dismissed. When the
last of them had been attended to, Lees Bergrem insisted upon going back
through the gates to the hospital with several of her assistants.
"Whether there's another tunnel or not. the
equipment I need is at the hospital," she told Marjorie. "I may be in
a position to do more about this plague thing than anyone else, but I have to
get to my equipment. I can't let those Hippae keep me away."
"Do you have any ideas? Any line of
attack?" Marjorie asked. "Nothing. Not yet. I have a few ideas, but
I'm not really onto a line of inquiry at this point!" She shook off
Jelly's remonstrances and went, her helpers with her. all of them laden with
food and drink and various esoteric supplies they had carried in when the
Commercial District had been evacuated.
There was nothing else Marjorie could do. Tony was
sleeping in the order station dormitory, ready to leave when the Star-Lily
left— a matter of hours. Mainoa and Rillibee were in the forest- Persun and
Sebastian were helping Mayor Bee get the evacuees settled and fortify the
winter quarters.
There was nothing more that Marjorie could do
"Roald's offered us a room at his place in town," she told Rigo.
"His wife, Kinny, is fixing us some supper. We can walk down...."
He tottered to his feet with an apologetic grimace.
"I'm not sure I can walk."
Persun overheard this and came forward. "I've
got a little runner outside, sir. Room enough for you and Lady Westriding, if
you don't mind being crowded. I have to go down to town anyhow."
Rigo smiled his thanks, and they rode in exhausted
quiet to the Few summer quarters.
Kinny, with tears in her eyes, led them to a suite of
comfortable rooms below. "We only lost one village," she said,
weeping. "Only one out of seven. But everybody in town was related to
someone there. Everyone's mourning Klive-"
Marjorie herself could mourn Klive, mourn the waste
of it.
Kinny went on, shaking her head in amazed, pained
annoyance. "Those bons, already trying to take over, did you know?"
"No," said Rigo. "How do you mean,
take over?"
"Oh, Ambassador, you wouldn't believe— Well now,
let's see. It's Eric, brother to the dead Obermun Jerril bon Haunser, and
Jason, Jerril's son. And it's Taronce bon Laupmon, nephew to Obermun Lancel
that died, and Traven, that's the dead Obermun bon Bindersen's brother. The
four of them. They've decided to take over Commons, for the time being."
She laughed, angry and amused, both at once. "They told Roald they had
elected themselves a council of four to run things. Roald and Alverd are tryin'
to explain things to 'em. Not easy. Not with them."
"Did they think you would all take orders from
them?" Rigo asked, amazed.
"They really did. Yes. Well, we always pretended
to, when we went out to the estancias. you know. It pleased the bons, and it
didn't do us any harm. But there's too much at stake here in Commons to let
them meddle with it. They're so ignorant." She made a face and asked them
if they were ready to eat something.
"I think so." Marjorie said with a sigh.
"I can't remember when the last meal I had was. In the Tree City, I
think."
"Oh, I want to hear about that! You folks take
your time washing up, and supper'll be ready when you come up."
Kinny served them in the kitchen while she chattered
about the Tree City and a dozen other things, interrupting herself to cry occasionally,
then interrupting her tears to laugh about something she remembered. It was
only when they had eaten and were sitting over cups of tea that she remembered.
"Oh, Roald called while you were down below. He told me to tell you.
There's a big ship coming in tomorrow. From Sanctity. Roald says the big high
mucky-muck himself is on it. The what-do-you-call-him. The Hierarch."
"Is he going to let it orbit?" Rigo asked,
his stomach clenching as he thought what such an arrival might mean.
Kinny shook her head. "Roald said tell you he
doesn't want to, nor Mayor Bee. Question is, how would you keep it from sittin'
up there if it wants to?"
Marjorie's imagination had leapt ahead, far ahead.
"Rigo, we have to get Dr. Bergrem away from the hospital. It's right by
the port. If that ship comes down. If Sanctity finds out what she's working on
..
He groaned as he got to his feet. "Let's go talk
to Alverd Bee once more."
"What is 'Galaxy class'?" Mayor Bee wanted
to know.
"It's a Sanctity ship," one of the port
controllers said. "Called the Israfel. I've never seen one like it."
They were in the winter quarters of the order
station. From the adjacent rooms came the moans of someone wounded and the wail
of frightened babies. Someone bustled down the hall and the moans ceased. The
babies went on crying.
The man at the tell-me paid no attention.
"Warship," he said, staring at a diagram on the screen. "Sanctity
navy. Big son-of-a-hound."
"It's a troop carrier," said Rigo, staring
narrow-eyed across the operator's shoulder at the diagram. "And a
battleship. Old. All their vessels are old."
"No matter how old, it carries a thousand
men," the port controller agreed. "With real combat weapons."
"Dr. Bergrem has to go," Marjorie said.
"On the Star-Lily. She can't stay here"
"Dr. Bergrem doesn't intend to go
anywhere," said the woman's voice from behind them. "What is all
this?"
The doctor divested herself of her cloak and sat down
as though to stay awhile. "I was on my way into town to pick up some book
I need, and I hear my name being taken in vain."
"Sanctity's new Hierarch is about to
arrive," Marjorie told her. "Cory Strange. You don't want to be here
when he gets here."
"Why in hell not?" The woman settled
herself firmly into her chair.
"Do you have a cure?"
"Not yet, no. But I think I've happened on a
line of inquiry. If I just knew—"
"Then you must go," Rigo snapped.
The doctor flushed angrily.
"Shh," said Marjorie. "Dr. Bergrem, no
one is trying to push you around. Read this." She took a copy of the note
to Jhamlees Zoe from her pocket and handed it to the woman.
Lees Bergrem read it, then again. "I don't
believe this!"
Rigo started to retort. Marjorie covered his lips
with her fingers. "What don't you believe?"
"That anyone could— This must be faked...."
She looked into their faces, finding nothing there but apprehension. "But
why would— Damn!" She handed the note to Alverd Bee.
"You have to go," Marjorie repeated.
"You may be close to finding a cure, or something that will lead to a
cure. You said so yourself. If you find the answer here, with that ship in port
you'll never get a chance to tell anyone. A thousand troops can put us all
under house arrest. We were going to send our son to Semling with copies of
this letter. But you could disseminate it even better. You're known at the
University there "
"You send me off-planet, I can't do any good at
all," Lees Bergrem said. "I need tissue samples and soil samples. I
need things that don't exist on Semling. Forget it."
Alverd Bee looked up from the note, his face strained
and angry. "If you won't go off-planet, then we'll have to hide you somewhere,
Lees. That means moving your equipment. Tell us fast what you need. We have
about six hours to get you hidden and Star-Lily away. After that, it'll be too
late."
"The new Hierarch won't know anything yet,"
Rigo said. "Jhamlees Zoe can't tell him anything until he lands on
Grass."
"Jhamlees Zoe can't tell him anything,
period," said Persun Pollut as he entered the room. "Sebastian and
I've been out to the Friary to see if they'd changed their mind about being
evacuated. The Hippae have hit the place. We saw the flames all the way from
Klive. Half this piece of Grass is burning.
"So this Hierarch won't know," the doctor
announced, turning around as though to renew the argument. "I've moved out
of the hospital once already. We just got set up again. I can stay there. The
Hierarch won't know what I'm doing."
"He won't care what you're doing," Marjorie
pleaded. "Once he's here on Grass, you'll do what he says, or else. Dr.
Bergrem, you haven't dealt with Sanctity. Rigo and I have. Believe me! Even
their own people have few rights against Sanctity; unbelievers have none at all
except what they can enforce for themselves. If the Hierarch chooses to deploy
a thousand troopers, we couldn't enforce the coming of summer!"
"Oh, all right, all right. I'll hide! Tissue
samples, Alverd. I need snips from whatever bons have survived. I'll send one
of my people to get those. Samples from the children, too. I need soil samples.
From in here and out there. Persun, come with me and I'll describe what I need.
I'll pack up my stuff. It's heavy. Send some men over to load it."
And she was away.
"What about you two?" asked Alverd.
Rigo drew himself wearily to his feet. "There's
nothing we can do just now. Tony's asleep down below, and there's no point in
waking him until he needs to board the Star-Lily. I think we'll try to get some
sleep. When the ship from Sanctity arrives, we need to be alert. At that time,
some misdirection may be in order."
The Israfel bloomed
like a star, and like a star remained in the heavens. One small shuttle came
down to unload a small detachment of men commanded by a Seraph with six-winged
angels on his shoulders. He was met by Mayor Bee.
"The Hierarch wishes to speak to Administrator
Jhamlees Zoe at the Friary of the Green Brothers. We have been unsuccessful in
reaching the administrator through your communications system."
Mayor Bee nodded sadly. "The Friary was wiped
out by prairie fires," he said. "We're searching now for
survivors."
There was a thoughtful silence. "The Hierarch
may want to come down and verify this for himself"
"We evacuated the Port Hotel for the Hierarch's
use," the Mayor agreed. "The fires have burned great stretches of
grassland and seven villages. The town is full of refugees."
"The Hierarch may choose the town,
nonetheless," said the Seraph. "Well, certainly, if he wishes,"
said Mayor Bee, nodding. "Though there is sickness in the town which we
assumed the Hierarch would wish to avoid."
The Seraph's expression did not change, though
something wary came into his voice. "The office of the Hierarch will
advise you. Any particular kind of sickness?"
"We're not sure what it is," said Mayor
Bee. "People breaking out in sores.. ." Rillibee had told him what it
looked like. Rillibee had told them a good deal more than any of the commoners
had wanted to know. The small detachment made room for themselves at the empty
hotel, but the Hierarch did not come down to Grass. Instead, he sent for Rigo.
Marjorie insisted upon going along.
"For verisimilitude," she said. "We
came here together. Let us support one another."
"I need you. Marjorie."
She gave him a thoughtful look "You have never
said that to me before, Rigo. Did you often say it to Eugenie?" He
flushed. "I may have."
She said wonderingly, "It's a different thing,
being needed, from being wanted, which you often said to me, though that was
long ago. I think the Seraph is waiting for us."
"Seraph," he snorted. "Why can't they
call him a colonel or a general? Seraph!"
"We mustn't betray our biases! This Hierarch is
not your uncle. and he may already be suspicious of us simply because we're outsiders."
The Hierarch betrayed no suspicion, though it would
have been difficult to detect, since he greeted them from behind a transparent
partition, calling their attention to it as though they could not see it for
themselves. "My advisors," he said in an annoyingly satisfied though
self-deprecating tone. "They won't allow me to expose myself to possible
risk."
"Very wise," said Rigo.
"Is there risk here, Ambassador?" The
Hierarch was clad in white robes with golden angels embroidered at the hem and
in a wide border up the front. Their metallic wings threw a coruscant flicker
around him, like an aureole. His face was ordinary. It had no feature more
distinguished than the others. It was a face one could instantly forget. One
would not forget the robes, however. The Hierarch repeated his question.
"Are there deaths? Unexplained ones? Or deaths from plague?
"We don't know," said Rigo, remembering it
was probable that the Hierarch had an analyzer on them. The least risk lay in
disclaiming absolute knowledge. One could almost always do that truthfully.
"People do disappear on Grass," Marjorie
offered honestly. "We've been trying to find out how, and why. It might
help if we knew precisely what drew Sanctity's attention to Grass initially.
The information we were given was not very specific."
The Hierarch gave her a long looking over, head to toe,
as though assessing how well she would dress out for meat. It was not a look
Marjorie had met before, and it chilled her. The Hierarch was not interested in
her as woman or person, so much was clear.
"I will tell you precisely what we heard. A
minor official at Sanctity was visiting his family. One of his visiting kinfolk
worked as a port controller on Shame. Sometimes this kinsman stopped in at a
port tavern after work. On some unspecified occasion, he talked over his ale
with a crewman from an unnamed freighter, The crewman said his friend, unnamed,
had come down with some sores on his legs and arms just before the ship landed
on Grass. The sick man was in a quarantine pod. The ship was on Grass an
unspecified length of time. When it arrived at some farther destination, the
man was cured."
"That's all?"
"Our official repeated this story to us when he
returned from his visit to his family. Our computers say the likelihood is
great that the unnamed crewman had plague, but we've been unable to verify the story.
The man who told it to our official died of plague shortly after leaving Terra.
We don't know where the alleged ship went from Grass. We have been unable to
identify the ship or the crewman."
Rigo threw up his hands, indicating frustration.
"Assuming the story is true, the cure could have come about here or
elsewhere. Or he might not have had plague at all. Plague isn't the only thing
that causes sores!" He let his voice and manner indicate frustration and
fear. That was normal, and it would cover his agitation.
The Hierarch stared at them expressionlessly.
"Have any survivors from the Friary been found?"
Rigo nodded. "A few, yes. Some are beginning to
wander back to the site as they realize we'll be searching for them
there."
"My old friend Nod—that is, Jhamlees Zoe?"
Rigo shook his head, unwilling to trust his voice.
No. Jhamlees Zoe hadn't turned up. If Rigo said that aloud it wouldn't take a
machine to detect that he rejoiced in the fact.
The Hierarch nodded, as though someone had asked him
a question. "I think we'll remain here for the time being. Zoe may yet
turn up. Or you may find some more definite information."
In the shuttle, Marjorie asked, "Rigo, the
crewman in the quarantine pod, assuming there was one, would have been given
Grassian food and water and air, would he not?"
"Certainly." He nodded, indicating the men
seated in front of them. "Quarantine pods allow nothing out, but materials
do go in."
She chased an idea, worrying at it, but she asked no
other questions.
They were escorted back to the order station by a
handful of troopers. "There are definitely enough armed men on that ship
to control the planet." Marjorie said to Roald Few.
"If they decide to do so," Rigo agreed.
"What do you think?" Roald asked, throwing
a side long glance at his son-in-law, the Mayor.
"I think the Hierarch is doubtful," Rigo
replied. "If I were the Hierarch, my next step would be to send the
scientists down."
"Wouldn't he have told you that?" the mayor
wanted to know.
Marjorie laughed, an unamused sound. "We aren't
among the Sanctified, Mayor Bee. He doesn't like us, doesn't trust us.
Probably he doesn't like or trust much of anyone. He'll get what he can from
us, but he won't give us anything in return."
"Smart man," remarked Alverd. "Not to
trust us Commons. We've no love for Sanctity. He's one should die of
plague."
"When that letter of his becomes public, he may
wish he had," Marjorie said. "Until then, we simply hang on and get
in his way as much as possible."
They were given no further opportunity to impede the
Hierarch. Sanctity scientists came down and occupied the hospital, setting up
their own mysterious equipment.
"It doesn't matter what they find out,"
Marjorie reminded Rigo. "So long as Dr. Bergrem finds it, too."
"It would be better if she found it first,"
Rigo objected, taking Marjorie by the arm and leading her to a quiet corner.
"You and I need to agree on what we will say if the Hierarch asks more
questions. All of Commons needs to agree on what they will say." They
discussed their strategy, at first alone, then with Roald and Alverd. When they
had worn the subject thin, they returned to their rooms in the winter quarters,
to more sleep and more of Kinny's cooking.
Late in the evening Rillibee came in from the swamp
forest, waking the Yrariers. Marjorie came out of her room yawning, wrapped in
a light robe, to find Rigo sitting up in his bed with Rillibee perched on the
foot of it.
"I've come to get Father James," he said.
"And the other Father, if he'll come back."
"What's going on, Rillibee?"
"I wish I knew exactly. The foxen are trying to
figure something out. It's because of something you did, Marjorie. You talked
to the foxen, didn't you?"
"During the ... the episode out there.
Yes."
"You didn't tell me that," Rigo said,
almost angrily.
"It wasn't anything very real to me at the
time," she said calmly. "I would have a hard time quoting the
conversation. Mostly I was thinking words, but the foxen seemed to understand
the threat I intended."
"It wasn't anything to do with a threat, I don't
think. No. It was something else. Brother Mainoa is tearing what little hair he
has left trying to figure it out. Whatever you did, it was the key to some
change in their attitude. There are hundreds and hundreds of foxen in the
forest, you know. All talking at one another, growling, yowling, thinking,
sitting and looking at each other with their claws tap-tapping. It's like having
shadow beasts projected all over you. You can't see them. You walk around them
without knowing why. You hear them, and your mind tries to make wind noises out
of it. After a while, you lie down and put your hands over your head, wishing
they'd all go away....
"Anyhow, they're having some major discussion.
Something's going to happen. A foxen wants you, Marjorie, but I told him I
didn't know if you could come. He'll settle for Father James."
Marjorie shook her head, longingly. "I mustn't
leave here. If I were to vanish, the Hierarch could get very suspicious. He's
got a thousand armed men, and he might not hesitate to destroy the swamp forest
or the town or anything else he felt like. Father James will probably go with
you, if he feels up to the trip."
"I'd like to take Stella, too," Rillibee
said, looking at his feet. Marjorie sighed and turned away. Stella was still at
the temporary hospital, though no longer encased in a Heal-all. "Have you
seen her, Rillibee?"
"I stopped there first."
"She's not ... she's not like herself."
"She's like a child," Rillibee agreed.
"A nice child."
"What use do you have for a nice child?"
Rigo asked, his mouth in a grim line.
Rillibee drew himself up, a slight, wiry figure,
somehow dignified in this circumstance by his very lack of stature and bulk.
"I'm not interested in molesting her, if that's what you're imagining.
She's in danger here. You all are. But you can choose what you'll do and she
can't. I'd like to take Dimity, too. And Janetta. For the same reason. If the
Hippae ruined them, maybe the foxen can help to heal them."
"Why not?" Marjorie said. "If Rowena
and Geraldria are willing to have you take their daughters, why not? You'll
have to ask them, but as far as I'm concerned, yes, take Stella."
"Marjorie!" Rigo was outraged.
"Oh, stop roaring at me, Rigo," she snapped
in a voice he had never heard. "Think! You're doing it again, all these
automatic responses of pride and masculinity."
"She's my daughter!"
"She's mine, too, and there's nothing in her
head at all. She doesn't know me. She plays with a ball, bouncing it off a
wall. What are you going to do with her? Take her back to Terra and hire a
keeper for her?"
'This ... this ..." he pointed at Rillibee.
"What?"
"This young man," she said, "who has
been ill used by Sanctity, as we all have. This young man, who has certain
talents and skills. What about him?"
"You trust him not to—"
"I trust him not to do anything to her nearly as
bad as the Hippae have already done," she cried, "because you let
them. I trust him to care for her better than we did, Rigo! Better than her
father or her mother. I trust him to look after her."
Rillibee, who had tried to make himself inconspicuous
during most of this, now asserted, "I will do for her what is best for
her. From the moment I first saw her, I wanted only what was best for her.
Right now there is only one good place left on Grass, and the Tree City is it.
If there is trouble on Grass, it has not touched the trees."
Rigo did not reply. Marjorie could not see his face.
She wasn't sure she wanted to see it, and she did not wish to argue it further
with him. At the tell-me she reached Geraldria and Rowena, telling them of
Rillibee's offer and advising them to accept it. When she turned, Rigo was
there, and she said impatiently, "Yes?"
"Yes," he responded, as though granting a
favor. "I'll accept this for now. It may be the best place for her for a
time."
She tried to smile, not quite successfully. "I
hope I am right about this, Rigo. I'd like to be right, a few times."
He didn't reply. Instead, he turned and left her,
going back to his own room. Though she tried to get back to sleep, she could
not. It was only hours later, near dawn, when the Seraph and his armed escort
came for them, that she learned he had been as sleepless as herself.
They were given little time to dress. Perhaps it was
only imagination, but it seemed they were treated with less courtesy than previously.
When they were escorted into the Hierarch's presence, two other persons were
already there. Rigo's hand tightened on Marjorie's arm as he saw the first. Her
face grew momentarily rigid as she saw the second.
"Admit!" she cried in what she hoped was a
glad-sounding voice. "Rigo, it's Admit Maukerden. I'm so glad you escaped
the fires at Opal Hill. Sebastian and Persun went back time after time, but you
weren't among the people they brought in."
"My name is Admit bon Maukerden," he said.
"A bon? Jerril bon Haunser told me he would
provide a lateral," she exclaimed.
"I was assigned to find out what you were doing
on Grass," he said. "The bons wanted to know what you were up to. As
this one does, now." He gestured through the glass at the Hierarch.
"He wants to know what you were up to."
"Well for heaven's sake," Marjorie cried,
"tell him, Admit. Tell the Hierarch anything he wants to know."
"I am more interested in what this other one
tells me," the Hierarch said silkily from behind his transparent
partition.
The other one lounged on his chair like a lizard on a
rock, his relaxed manner belied by his scratched and bruised face and arms.
Highbones.
"Brother Flumzee?" Marjorie asked the
Hierarch. her voice calm. "He and his friends intended to kill me in the
swamp forest. What else does he tell you?" She looked at Highbones
gravely.
He saw the look and remembered what it was he had
forgotten about women. They pitied you sometimes. When you didn't even know
why.
The Hierarch said in a silky voice, "He tells me
that you were well acquainted with one of the Brothers, Brother Mainoa. He says
that Brother Mainoa was thought to be a backslider. And that he knew something
about plague."
"Did he really? What did he know, Brother
Flumzee? Or do you still prefer to be called Highbones?"
"He knew something," Highbones shouted,
hating what he saw in her face. "Fuasoi wanted him killed."
"What did he know?" asked the Hierarch.
"It would be in your best interest, Lady Westriding, and you, Ambassador,
to tell me everything the Brother knew, or thought he knew."
"We'll be glad to," Rigo said. "Though
he himself would be able to tell you much more than we can—"
"He's alive?" The Heirarch snapped.
Marjorie replied calmly, "Well, of course.
Highbones left his two friends to kill Mainoa and Brother Lourai, but they
didn't succeed. I think Highbones hated Brother Lourai. and that was the reason
for it."
"Fuasoi ordered Mainoa killed!" Highbones
shouted.
"Well, I suppose that's possible," Marjorie
continued, keeping her voice calm, though she was in a frenzy of concentration.
"Since Brother Mainoa thought Fuasoi was a Moldy." She turned her
face toward Rigo, nodding. She had never mentioned Brother Mainoa's speculation
to him. She prayed Rigo would understand what she was trying to do.
The Hierarch, who had started the inquiry with a
furious intensity, now looked stricken. "A Moldy?"
"Brother Mainoa thought so," Rigo said,
following Marjorie's lead. "Because—"
"Because Fuasoi wouldn't have ordered Mainoa
killed, otherwise," Marjorie concluded. "If he thought Mainoa knew
something about the plague, the only reason to
kill him would be if Fuasoi was a Moldy. Anyone who was not a Moldy would want Brother Mainoa alive, talking
about what he knew." She looked at the Hierarch helpfully, feeling
hysteria pushing at the back of her tongue.
"Moldies here, on Grass?" the Hierarch
whispered, very pale, his mouth drawn into a rictus of horror.
"Here?"
Rigo saw the man's terror and was thankful for it "Well,
Your Eminence," Rigo offered in a placating tone, "it was only a
matter of time until they came here. Everyone knew that. Even Sender O'Neil
told me that!"
The audience ended abruptly. They were outside the
chamber, being escorted to the shuttle once more. Highbones wasn't with them.
Admit bon Maukerden wasn't with them.
Those two were taken away in some other direction.
"Where are they going?" Marjorie asked.
"Down to the port," the escort leader
responded. "We'll hold them there in case the Hierarch wants them
again."
Marjorie felt a surge of hope. If they had been
believed, perhaps the Hierarch would depart. Perhaps this is all it would take!
When Marjorie and Rigo reached the port, however, they were not allowed to
return to the town. Instead they were taken to the empty Port Hotel and given a
suite with a guard outside the door
"Are we to stay here without food?"
Marjorie demanded.
"Somebody'll bring it from the officer's
mess," the guard said. "Hierarch wants you here where he can lay
hands on you if he needs you."
When the door was shut behind them, Marjorie put her
lips almost against Rigo's ear. "Anything we say here can probably be
overheard."
He nodded. "I think Mainoa was right," he
said loudly. "I think Brother what's-his-name was a Moldy. He probably had
virus shipped in weeks ago. That's probably what the people in town have. I
think we ought to get off this planet, Marjorie. As soon as possible." He
shook his head at her tiredly. What more could they say or do than this mixture
of half truth and part lies? If the Hierarch was frightened enough, perhaps his
own fear would drive him away.
Rigo sat down, leaning back, eyes closed. Marjorie
sat near him. The room was full of unsaid things and of the teasing memory of
said ones. She looked at his exhausted face and felt an almost impersonal
sorrow, like the feelings she had often had for the people of Breedertown. And
she could help him no more than she had ever helped them.
Behind his slitted eyelids, Rigo wondered if it was
too late. If too much had happened. Eugenie. Stella. His accusations against
Marjorie. Stupid of him. He knew better. If he knew anything about her, he knew
she had no appetites of that kind. Why had he accused her?
Because he had had to accuse her of something.
And now? Was it too late to forgive her for what she
had never done?
18
In the Tree City of the Arbai two religious gentlemen
sat in the mild breezes of evening, eating fruit which had been brought from
the surrounding trees by foxen, one of whom had remained to join the feast.
"Like plums," said Father James. He had
arrived at the city by foxen back in midmorning. Father Sandoval had refused to
come. Brother Mainoa had come to the city earlier, an exhausting trip from
which he had not yet recovered. Now the Brother reclined against the breast of
a foxen, like a child in a shadowy chair, while Father James tried to convince
himself yet again that the foxen were real—not dreams, not amorphous visions,
not abstractions or delusions. Conviction was difficult when he couldn't really
see them. He caught a glimpse of paw, or hand, a glimpse of eye, a shadowed
fragment of leg or back. Trying to see the being entire was giving him eye
strain and a headache. He turned aside, resolving not to bother. Soon
everything would resolve itself, one way or another.
"Chameleons," Brother Mainoa whispered.
"Psychic chameleons. The Hippae can do it too, though not as well."
Father James' lips trembled. "Don't you think
the fruit is like plums?" he repeated, longing for something familiar.
"Though perhaps the texture is more like a pear. Small, though."
"Ripening this early, they'd likely be
small," Brother Mainoa offered in a breathy whisper. "The fruits of
summer and fall are larger, even from these same trees." He sounded
contented, though very weak.
"They fruit more than once during the season,
then?"
"Oh, yes," Mainoa murmured. 'They fruit
continually until late fall."
Along a bridge leading from the plaza Janetta bon
Maukerden was dancing, humming to herself. Dimity bon Damfels watched from the
plaza, mouth open around a thumb, eyes remotely curious. Stella was with
Rillibee in a room facing the plaza. The older men could hear his voice.
"Take the fruit in your hand, Stella. That's it.
Now, have a bite. Good girl. Wipe your chin. Good girl. Have another bite...."
"He's very patient," whispered Brother
Mainoa.
''He would have to be," murmured Father James.
"Three of them!"
"Poor unfortunates," Father James said.
"We'll help him with them while we're here. It's the least we can
do." He thought a moment, then added, "If we're here long
enough."
A group of shadow Arbai came toward them, checkered
them with arms and legs and shoulders, battered them with sibilant conversation,
then moved on past. A swoop of scarlet and brilliant blue swept below them,
from one tree to another, a colorful almost-bird, quite different from the
Terran species, yet enough resembling them that one would think
"parrot" on seeing them. Out on the bridge where Janetta danced, one
of the shadow figures grasped a railing with shadow hands and squatted over the
edge. The Arbai had been casual about elimination.
"It will be your choice," Brother Mainoa
said in a weak whisper. "Your choice, Father. Whether to stay or go."
The priest protested "We're not even sure we can
live here! Food, for example. We're not sure these fruits will sustain our
lives."
Brother Mainoa assured him, "The fruit plus
grass seeds will be more than enough. Brother Laeroa has spent years
determining the nutrient value of various grass seed combinations. After all,
Father, on Terra many men lived on little else than wheat or rice or corn.
They, too, are seeds of grass."
"Harvesting grass seed would mean going out into
the prairies," Father James objected. "The Hippae wouldn't allow
that."
"You could do it," said the Brother.
"You'd have protection...." He shut his eyes and seemed to drift off
as he had been doing ever since they arrived.
"Though, come to think of it," said Father
James, suddenly remembering farms he had visited as a child, "here in the
swamp one could have ducks, and geese." He tried to summon a hearty
chuckle, but what came out instead was a tremulous half sigh. The young priest
had just remembered that the few humans on Grass might be all the humans there
were. Whether one could have ducks or not, there might be nowhere else to go.
"Wipe your chin again," said Rillibee
Chime. "Oh, Stella, that's such a good smart girl."
Janetta spun and hummed, then stopped momentarily and
said, quite clearly, "Potty!" She hitched up her smock, grasped the
railing, and squatted where she was on the bridge, her bottom over the edge in
the same pose the shadow Arbai had adopted moments before.
"She can talk," said Father James
unnecessarily, his face pink as he turned it away from Janetta's bare buttocks,
"She can learn," Brother Mainoa agreed,
suddenly awake once more.
Father James sighed, his face turned resolutely away.
"Let's hope she can learn to be a bit more modest."
Brother Mainoa smiled. "Or that we can learn to
be—as, evidently, the Arbai were—less concerned with the flesh."
Father James felt a wave of sadness, a wash of
emotion so intensely painful that it seemed physical. He suddenly saw Brother
Mainoa through some other being's senses: a fragile friend, an evanescent
kinsman who would not be concerned with the flesh at all for very much longer.
Someone was watching him. He looked up to see a pair
of glowing, inhuman eyes, clearly fixed on his own. They were brimming with
enormous, very human tears.
Shortly following the detention of the Yrariers, the
Seraph in command of the Hierarch's troops took a few of his
"saints" in battle dress—more to impress the populace than for any
tactical reason—and made a sweep through the town and surrounding farms, searching,
so the Seraph said, for someone named Brother Mainoa. Everyone had seen him at
one unhelpful time or another. Several people knew where he slept. Others knew
where he had been having supper hours before. No one knew where he was at that
moment.
"He was depressed," an informer by the name
of Persun Pollut told them with transparent honesty. "About all the
Brothers getting burned up out at the Friary. It wouldn't surprise me if he'd
gone down into the swamp forest. There've been several people done that recently."
All of which was true. Though he pulled a mournful face and sighed at the
Seraph, Persun couldn't wait to see the Tree City for himself.
The troop made a cursory search along the edge of the
trees, sending a patrol some little way into the forest. Troopers returned
soaked to the thighs saying they couldn't quite remember seeing anything. Spy
eyes sent into the dim aisles of cloaking vines saw nothing either. Or, those
who followed the spy eyes on helmet screens were sure they saw nothing, which
amounted to the same thing. It was conceded among those who had inspected the
swamp forest close up that if this Brother what's-his-name had gone in there,
he was probably drowned and long gone.
Meantime, the troopers remaining in town were offered
cakes and roast goose and flagons of beer and were treated to a good deal of
garrulity which had nothing to do with what they were looking for. The search
continued with increasing laxness and joviality while the day wandered
inconclusively toward evening.
The Seraph was an old hand at appearing Sanctified,
one who could and did spew catechetical references at every opportunity. In Commoner
Town he found his views listened to with such flattering attention that he
actually began to enjoy himself, though—as he told anyone who would listen—he
would have felt more secure with a few hundred saints deployed, rather than a
scant two score. According to these good people, there were hostiles on the
planet, hostiles that had already built themselves one route under the forest.
"Haven't you any devices to detect
digging?" he asked. "Any mechanisms that listen for tremors? That
kind of thing?"
''Grass doesn't have tremors, not like that."
Roald Few told him. "About the worst shaking we get is when the Hippae go
dancing."
The Seraph shook his head, feeling expansive
"I'll bring some detectors down from the ship. Standard issue. We use them
to locate sappers coming in under fortifications. They'll do the job for you
here.'
"Where do we put them?" Mayor Bee asked.
"Here in the town?"
The Seraph drew a map on the tablecloth with his fingertip,
thinking. "Out there, north of town, I'd say two-thirds of the way to the
forest. About a dozen, in a semicircle. You can set the receiver up anywhere
here in town. The order station'd be a good place. Then if anything starts to
dig in, you'll know it!" He smiled beatifically, proud of himself for
being helpful.
Alverd looked at Roald, receiving a look in return.
So, they would know. Well and good. What in the hell would they do about it
once they knew?
In the Israfel, high
above all this confusion, the aged Hierarch fretted himself into a passion. The
first time he had questioned the Yrariers he had been convinced the ambassador
was misleading him, though the analyzers had said only maybe. The second time,
however, the machines had declared Rigo and Marjorie to be truthful. Compared
to Highbones and the Maukerden man—both liars (said the machines} from the
moment of conception—the Yrariers had been certified honest and doing their
best to be helpful. However, they weren't Sanctity people, and in the
Hierarch's opinion they weren't terribly bright. This business about the
Moldies. That couldn't be true. Sanctity had been too careful for it to be
true. They had kept the plague so very quiet, so very hidden. The Yrariers must
have misunderstood whatever this Brother Mainoa had said about Moldies.
The Hierarch considered this. The pair had been
chosen by the former Hierarch because they were kin, because they were
athletes. Not known for brains, athletes. That's where old Carlos had gone
wrong. He should have sent someone cleverer. Someone slyer. And he should have
done it long before instead of waiting until the last possible moment. There
was no point in keeping the Yrariers locked up. And he, the Hierarch, would be
safe enough in the specially modified isolation shuttle his people had built
for him. Once he himself was on the ground, things would happen! Discoveries
would occur! He knew it!
As he was about to depart, however, a bulletin
arrived from the surface. Danger, the Seraph said. Not only the possibility of
plague, but the presence of large, fierce beasts would make it dangerous for
the Hierarch to descend. Hostile creatures might be planning to overrun the
port.
The additional frustration was enough to send the
Hierarch into one of his infrequent fits of screaming temper. Servitors who had
barely survived previous such fits were moved to panicky action. After emergency
ministrations by the Hierarch's personal physician, the Hierarch slept and
everyone sighed in relief. He went on sleeping for days, and no one noticed or
cared that no orders had been given for the Yrariers' release.
Persun Pollut, Sebastian Mechanic, and Roald Few took
the Seraph's listening devices out into the meadows north of town to set them
up. They were simple enough to install: slender tubes to be driven into the
ground with a mechanical driver, long, whiskery devices to be dropped into the
tubes, and transmitters to be screwed onto the tops.
"Foolproof," the Seraph had told them
"As they must be if inexperienced troopers are to use them. A-B-C. Pound
it in, drop it in, screw it on."
Foolproof they might be. In the aggregate, heavy they
also were. The men used an aircar to transport the dozen sets and the bulky
driver that went with them. They started at the western end of the proposed
arc, setting each device and then moving northward, parallel to the curve of
the forest. Most of the day had passed by the time seven of the gadgets were in
place, and they were bending the arc toward the east when Persun shaded his
eyes with his arm and said, "Somebody in trouble up there."
When they stopped working, they could all hear it:
the stutter of an engine, start and stop, the pauses like those in the breath
of someone dying—so long between sounds one was sure no other sound would come—only
to catch again into life.
Then they saw it, an aircar coming toward them,
scarcely above the forest. It jerked and wobbled, approaching by fits and
starts. When it had barely cleared the trees it fell, caught itself, then
dropped, coming down hard midway between them and the swamp, not a hundred
yards away.
Persun set out toward it at a run, with Sebastian
close behind. Roald followed them more slowly. At first there was no sign of
life in the fallen car, but then the door opened with a scream of tortured
metal and a Green Brother emerged dazedly, holding his head. Others followed:
six, eight, a dozen of them. They sank to the ground by the car, obviously
exhausted.
Persun was the first to reach them. "My name's
Pollut," he said. "We can get some cars out here to pick you up,
since yours seems to be disabled."
The oldest among them struggled to his feet and held
out an age-spotted hand. "I'm Elder Brother Laeroa. We stayed out near the
Friary thinking we could pick up survivors. Obviously, we stayed too long. Our
fuel was barely enough."
"I'm surprised to see any of you,"
Sebastian said. "The place was pretty well wiped out."
Laeroa wiped his face with trembling fingers.
"When we heard of the attack on Opal Hill and the estancias, we suggested
to Elder Brother Jhamlees Zoe that he evacuate the Friary. He said the Hippae
had no quarrel with the Brothers. I tried to tell him the Hippae needed no
excuse to kill." He tottered on his feet, and one of his fellows came
forward to offer an arm. After a moment he went on in his precise voice, as
though he spoke from a pulpit. "Zoe was always impatient with argument and
impervious to reason. So these Brothers and I started sleeping in the
aircar."
"You were in the car when the Hippae
struck?"
"We were in the car when the fires
started," said one of the younger Brothers. "We took off and went out
into the grass a ways, thinking we'd pick up survivors later. I don't know how
many days we've been out there, but we only found one man."
"We picked up a couple dozen of your
people," Sebastian Mechanic said to them. "Young fellahs, most of
'em. They were wandering around pretty far out in the grass. There may be more.
We been going out there every day to look. The Hippae aren't around there
anymore. They're all around the swamp forest now."
"They can't get through, can they?" asked
one of the men, obviously the one man the Brothers had rescued. His face was
very pale and he carried what was left of one arm in a sling.
"Not so far as we know," said Sebastian,
wanting to be comforting. "And if they did, we've got heavy doors down in
the winter quarters and people down there already making weapons for us to
use."
"Weapons," breathed one of the Brothers.
"I had hoped—"
"You'd hoped we could talk to them?" asked
Elder Brother Laeroa bitterly. "Forget it Brother. I know you worked for
the office of Doctrine, but forget it. I'm sure Jhamlees Zoe still retained his
hope of converting the Hippae up to the moment they killed him He's hoped for
that ever since he came to Grass, no matter how many times we told him it would
be like trying to convert tigers to vegetarianism." Sebastian nodded
agreement as he said, "lust be thankful the Hippae don't have claws like
Terran tigers do. Otherwise, they'd be able to climb and we couldn't get away
from 'em. Now, you start on up the slope there. I'll get on the tell-me and
have somebody come pick you up."
The Brothers got wearily to their feet and started up
the long meadow in a shuffling line. When Sebastian and Persun had seen that
all of them could walk, they went to listen outside the car while Roald
messaged for help.
"On their way," Roald said at last.
"Good," Sebastian murmured. "Some of
'em look like they couldn't walk more than a hundred yards or so."
"Thirty some-odd brothers left out of a
thousand," Persun commented, as he went to install the next device.
"One thing we can be grateful for," the
other replied. "There's nothin' left of the other nine hundred and
some-odd to bury." He paused beside the mechanical driver. "Have you
noticed how quiet it is?"
The two men stood looking around them. "The
noise of the tube driver," Persun said. "It's frightened
everything."
"The driver isn't that noisy. And we haven't
been using it for the past little while."
"The noise of that aircar, then."
The silence persisted. The swamp forest, usually full
of small croak-ings and rattles, the call of flick birds, the cry of leaf
dwellers, was silent.
"Eerie," whispered Persun. "Something
wrong. I can feel it." He started back toward the aircar, feeling in his
pocket for his knife. Behind him Sebastian moaned.
A head peered sightlessly at them from the edge of
the trees. Blank eyes glared in their direction. Above the eyes, flesh was torn
to expose the bone, which gleamed moistly white. The head wobbled on its neck,
rising into view, shoulders, arms, then the hideous Hippae maw below. A rider
on a mount! A rider dead or so nearly dead as made no difference. The
corpselike mouth opened to emit a screaming rattle, and with that sound the edge
of the forest erupted into life. They burst into the open across a wide front,
both riders and mounts screaming hate, defiance, death, and dismemberment.
Persun turned back to grab Sebastian, who stood as one hypnotized.
Sebastian's only thought, before his body was ripped
apart, was that their morning's labor had been too late.
Persun backed toward the aircar and swung the knife,
a scream choked back, there had been another tunnel to the north. Teeth like
razors raked his knife arm. His weapon clattered onto a rock. He clenched his
jaw, readying himself for the final pain, his eyes staring into the blind dead
eyes of the rider above him.
Something forced its way between him and the Hippae
teeth. The aircar was hovering low beside him; Roald was shrieking at him.
Hippae teeth darted toward him, then away. He threw himself backward into the
open car, seeing, as he did so, that other cars hovered beside the pathetic
line of green-robed Brothers, some staggering as they fled, some cut down and
dead, some making it to the refuge of the cars, while all around them the
Hippae howled and rampaged, their riders jerking and twitching as though they
had been tied in position.
Persun tried not to look at what was left of
Sebastian as they rose higher. Blood was dripping from his motionless fingers.
His head was half out the aircar door. Packs of Hippae and hounds were already
moving toward the town. Roald was screaming into the tell-me. Persun saw a
Brother snapped in half. Others were shouting. All he could think of was that
his fingers did not move. His carving fingers did not move. Beside him Roald
cried out at something he saw, but Persun did not turn. His fingers did not
move, and he thought it might have been better to have died.
While the Hippae in their hundreds overran the town
from the north, battalions of migerers cut through the final few yards of a
second tunnel on the south, one both taller and wider than the previous hole,
an access route large enough to allow hosts of Hippae to move through it at a
run. They came in waves, as they had come over the Arbai city long before; up
from the forest toward the port, howling, ready to kill. There was no
substantial opposition south of the wall. The handful of troopers at the port
were inexperienced. They were taken by surprise and immediately overrun.
Even so, three or four of the quicker among them had
time to arm themselves and get to upper levels of a ship maintenance gantry
where the Hippae could not follow. Hippae died by the dozens in screaming
disbelief, learning thereby to avoid the guns.
North of the wall the horn had been set off in
response to Roald's alarm, and all Commons had fled to the winter quarters,
sheltering behind doors already reinforced against attack, though not, most
people feared, sufficiently so to stand against repeated battering by Hippae.
At the sound of the alarm, James Jellico locked the tall gates. He also had the
presence of mind to send runners to find the troopers who had been dallying
among the friendly kitchens of town. Though Jelly didn't yet know where the
threat was coming from, the dozen men with the Seraph at least had proper
weapons. Possibly the Seraph could bring additional men and weapons from that
ship above.
The hastily summoned Seraph chose the order station
as his base and sensibly set about keeping danger at bay.
"Two men at every opening," he ordered,
sweating at the sight of Hippae rampaging among the motionless bodies at the
port. "Ninety-five degrees auto-fire coverage. Helmet lights on full fan.
Night goggles. Auto on anything that moves."
"There's a dozen saints at the port," one
of the troopers objected from a dry mouth. "They may try for the
gate."
"There's fire from the upper levels of that
structure, Cherub," the Seraph replied bleakly, pointing it out as though
the trooper were blind. "If the men there have any intelligence at all,
they'll stay where they are. They're safer there than we are here. If you see
anything moving toward the gate, kill it. Communication silence except to
report those things breaking in here. I've got to get reinforcements
down." He knew it would take hours, even days. The Israfel had not been equipped with assault craft. Who could
have thought they would be needed? They had only small shuttles, which would
have to come down bringing ten men at a time, setting up a fire perimeter as
they did so.
"Sir," said the Cherub again, "what
about those people out in that hotel?"
"What people?" demanded James Jellico in
surprise.
"The scientists that the Hierarch sent
down," the Cherub replied. "And that ambassador. Him and his
wife."
In the suite at the Port Hotel. Marjorie wakened at
the first howls of the invading Hippae. Her windows faced the wrong way. She
went through the room where Rigo lay in exhausted slumber to the window in the
outside room. There were darting, wildly moving lights at the port. She saw
Hippae lunging in and out of shadow. Without waking Rigo, she went to the door
of the suite and opened it. The daytime guard had been replaced by another man.
"Trooper," she said. "Take a quick
look out the window. Some very dangerous creatures are rampaging around out
there."
He gestured her back, as though she were the
dangerous one, she standing there in her crumpled clothing with no weapon at
all, her hair falling untidily around her face. When he had seen, however, he
looked confused, as though teetering among several desires.
"If we're going to stay here," she said,
"we need to make ourselves as safe from those beasts as we can. We have to
assume they'll come here eventually."
"How?" he asked. "What do you
mean?"
"They can't climb ladders," she said.
"But they aren't stupid. They may know or be able to figure out what lifts
are. We need to turn off the power to the chutes. We're on the fourth level
here. Without lifts, they probably can't get up here."
"Power controls are probably all the way
down," he said.
"Then we'll have to go all the way down."
He hesitated, starting toward the lift, then back,
"Come on, boy," she snapped. "I'm old
enough to be your mother, so I can yell at you. Decide what you're going to
do!"
He started to put his weapon down.
"Take it," she commanded. 'They could get
into the hotel while we're down below."
They fell into the down chute together, Marjorie
complaining bitterly under her breath at the slowness of the thing. Luxury
seemed to be equated with slow chutes. The Port Hotel held itself out as
luxurious. They floated past the doors like dust motes, ending up five levels
below the ground with a further five levels still beneath them indicated upon
the board.
"Winter quarters down there," said
Marjorie. "I'd forgotten there would be winter quarters.
"It must get really cold here, huh?" the
guardsman wanted to know as he looked vaguely around himself.
"I have a feeling cold is only part of it,"
Marjorie answered. "Now where?"
He pointed. The power room was opposite the chute, a
heavy metal door opening into a room full of consoles and bubble meters.
"We should probably shut it all down," said
Marjorie. "All? You won't have any water up there or anything. Besides,
how'll we get back?"
"Climb the chute," she said succinctly. She
moved down the console, reading labels. Main power control Main pump. The main
pump seemed to be on a separate circuit from the power control. It might be
possible to leave them with water. She folded back the barrier and thrust the
power control sharply across. The room went black. "Damn," she
snarled.
A blazing light came on in her eyes. "I
should've had it on already," the trooper confessed, adjusting his helmet
lamps. "Where do we climb back?"
"Up the chute," she said. "Up the
emergency ladder." They went back to the chute, leaning out over a well of
chill dark to seize a cold metal rung. They climbed, Marjorie first, their
ascent lighted by the trooper's lamp.
"That's a handy gadget," she commented
between puffs as they neared the fourth level once more. "Your helmet, I
mean. Does it see in the infrared?"
"Infrared," he agreed. "Plus about six
other filter combinations. It can tell living stuff from dead stuff. And it's
got a motion detector. And if you tie it to the armor arm controls, it's got
automatic fire potential." He sounded proud of it, and Marjorie approved
of his pride and confidence. He might need it. Their safety could depend on it.
"Now," she said when they had reached the
fourth level, "you might as well come inside the suite. We'll close and
lock the door behind us just in case something—anything—gets up here."
Rigo still slept. He looked drawn and worn. "He'll be hungry when he
wakes," she said. "We don't have any food here."
"Emergency rations," the boy said from
behind her, tapping a long compartment down one armored thigh. "Enough for
one man, ten days. Enough for the three of us for a while, at least. They don't
taste like much, but the Cherubim tell us they're sustaining." He gestured
at the sleeping man. "Has he been sick?"
She nodded. Yes. Rigo had been sick. All the riders
had been sick. "What's your name?" she asked him. "Are you
Sanctified?" He grinned proudly. "Favel Cobham, ma'am. And yes, I'm
Sanctified, ma'am. The whole family. I got registered when I was born. I'm
saved for eternity."
"Lucky you," she said, turning again to
Rigo's bed. Here in the Port Hotel she and Rigo weren't saved for even this
life if the Hippae got in. Tony was, maybe, if someone found a cure soon. And
Stella. Remembering how Rillibee had looked at her, perhaps Stella was saved.
If not for eternity, at least for a very small being's lifetime, which was all
one could expect.
She went back to the window, looking across the battle
to the huge barns against the wall. The horses! She could see the barn where
they were stabled. It was stout, true, but not impenetrable. It was connected
to the building they were in by the tunnel network. Everything was connected
to everything else. Could she find her way there? She fumbled in her jacket
pocket, finding the trip recorder that Brother Mainoa had returned to her.
"The Seraph, he had a few men in town," the
trooper said.
"What will they do?" she wondered.
He shook his head. "The Seraph, he's what you'd
call conservative, ma'am, I've heard the Cherubim say that, a few times. He'll
wait until morning, then he'll prob'ly make a sweep from the wall with all the
men moving on automatic fire. By that time, he'll have more men down from the
ship."
"There's at least one tunnel where the Hippae
came in," Marjorie said. "It'll have to be blown up, or flooded, or
something."
"Do the people in the town know that?" he
asked. When she nodded, he said, "Then they'll tell the Seraph and he'll
take care of it. Maybe even tonight if he can get an assault hopper down.
Seraph has an assault group moves with him, wherever he goes. Assault group's
got all kinds of demolition stuff."
"Would he have taken a group like that into
town?" she asked incredulously.
"Everywhere," he said soberly.
"Everywhere he goes, even to the toilet. In case something happens while
he's gone and he has trouble getting back to his command. Like a mutiny or
something."
She shook her head, amazed. How insecure a Hierarch
must feel to make a routine provision for mutiny.
"Mutiny?" asked an angry voice from the
door. Rigo, stripped to his trousers, feet bare. "What's going on?"
Marjorie stood aside from the window to let him see.
"They've come through," she said.
"This young man and I have turned off the power to the hotel," she
said. "They won't be able to get up here unless there are some stairs I'm
unaware of. By the same token, however, I'm afraid we're trapped. For the time
being." She believed they might not outlive their entrapment, though she
did not say so.
Rigo looked expressionlessly out the window.
"Hippae," he said unnecessarily. "How many?"
"Enough to do a great deal of damage,"
Marjorie replied. "I quit counting at eighty some-odd, and there were
still more arriving."
"If you'll wait outside," Rigo said to the
trooper, "I'd like to talk to my wife."
"No." she said. "He can wait here. I
don't want him out in the hall, where they might smell him or hear him. There
might be another way up, and I don't want to attract them. If you want to talk,
we'll talk in your room." She went before him, rumpled, uncombed, and yet
stately. In the room where Rigo had slept, she sat in a chair and waited while
he stalked about, three paces, three paces back.
"While you were away," he said, "I had
an opportunity to discuss our situation with Father Sandoval. I think we need
to talk about our future."
She felt sorrow mixed with a faint annoyance. It was
so like him to pick a time when there might not be any future to discuss their
future together. He had always picked times when there was no love to talk
about love; times when there was no trust to talk about trust. As though love
and trust were not feelings but only symbols or tools which could be
manipulated to achieve a desired result. As though the words themselves were
keys to open some mechanical lock. Twist love, love happens. Twist trust, trust
occurs. Twist future ...
"What about our future?" she asked
expressionlessly.
"Father Sandoval agrees with me that there will
be a cure," he announced in his laying-down-the-law voice, as though his
saying it made it fact. Well, Rigo's use of that voice had almost always
produced the desired result. So he had spoken to his mother, his sisters, to
Eugenie and the children, to Marjorie herself. If his voice hadn't worked,
Father Sandoval's had, setting penances, invoking the power of the church. Now
Rigo was going on, telling her what would happen.
"Someone will find it. Now that we know the
answer lies here, someone will find it, and it won't take long. The cure will
be disseminated. We will stay here only until then. Then we must get back to
our real lives, all four of us."
"We must what?" she asked, thinking of the
monsters in the town, in the port. How could he simply ignore them? But then,
how could he have ignored the fact that they were monsters before? "What
must we do?"
"All four of us." he repeated.
"Including Stella." His eyes were angry. Evidently Stella's going to
the forest had rankled. "She'll take a lot of attention, but you needn't
give up your charities or your riding. We can hire people to care for
her."
"To care for her."
He made a grim line with his lips. "I know
she'll require a lot of attention, Marjorie. The point I wanted to make is that
it needn't be a burden on you. I know how much your work means to you, how
important you think it is. Father Sandoval has pointed out that I shouldn't
have argued with you about that in the past. It was wrong of me. You're
entitled to have your own interests ..."
She shook her head at him, slowly, disbelievingly.
What was he saying? Did he think they could go back as they were before, as
though nothing had happened? Would he find someone to replace Eugenie and then
go on, as they had before? Would she go down to Breedertown, taking food,
arranging transport? As it had been?
"Have you and Father Sandoval discussed how you
will introduce Stella to your friends?" she asked. "Will you say,
This is Stella, my idiot daughter. I allowed her to be mentally and sexually
crippled on Grass in order to show off my manliness to people who meant nothing
to me.' Something like that?"
His face turned dark with fury. "You have no
right—"
She put up a hand, forbidingly. "I have every
right, Rigo. I'm her parent too. She's not yours alone to dispose of. She
belongs to me, as well, and to herself. If you want to take Stella back to
Terra, I suppose you can try. Somehow, I don't think you will easily remove her
from where she is now. You would have great difficulty removing me. If you want
to go back to the way things were, I can't stop you. I won't try. But you must
not expect Stella or me to come along like dogs at your heels!"
"You're not thinking of staying here! What would
you do here? Your work is at home. Our lives are at home."
"I would have agreed with you once. It's not
true now."
"All those arguments you used to give me about
your work at Breedertown? You're saying that was so much fluff? Lies?"
"I thought it was important then." Or made
myself think so, she said to herself.
"And now you don't?"
"What difference does it make what I think? I'm
not even sure what I think! And despite your assumption that the plague will be
ended, we may die of it yet! Or the Hippae may kill us. This is no time to
discuss what we will do if, what we will
do when. We have no choices right now
except to try to stay alive as best we can." She got up and went past him,
laying a hand on his shoulder as she went, wanting to comfort him or herself.
Now was not the time to have argued with him. If their lives were to end here,
she would rather not have them end in rancor. What did it matter what he said
now?
He went after her, finding her at the window with the
trooper. Rigo, looking over her shoulder at scenes of fire and destruction,
wondered why anyone would consider staying on Grass. The Hippae had found the
scientists in the attached hospital and had dragged them out onto the weedy
slope. Even when they were all dead, the Hippae rampaged among the bodies like
bulls, trampling and bellowing.
Marjorie cursed in a quiet voice, tears running down
her face. She had not known or remembered that there were other people in the
port building. When she and the trooper had shut off the power, they could
have-brought the others up to safety. The sight of the rampaging creatures made
her think again of the horses. She would not leave them to face this horror
alone.
The two men were frozen at the window. She turned
quietly and went out without their noticing. It would be a long climb down to
the winter quarters and the tunnels which connected everything, as Persun
Pollut had said, like the holes in a sponge.
Most of Commons managed to get behind the stout doors
of winter quarters before the Hippae arrived. Most, not all. Those who were
left above ground fought their way to such safety as they could find. Though
most buildings in town were low, there were upper floors for refuge, stairways
that could be held at least for a time. They had no weapons to oppose the
Hippae and the hounds. While a knife could cut a leg or a jaw, a hound could
come up from behind and take the arm that held the knife before the man knew
the beast was there. Hounds could come up stairs like great cats. Bodies and
parts of bodies began to accumulate in Commons streets. In the order station
the Seraph sweated and swore, wishing he had ways of communicating with the
defenders of the town.
"An aircar," James Jellico suggested.
"You can fly overhead. Aircars have speakers."
"You do it," snapped the Seraph. "Tell
them to get out of the streets onto roofs where we can pick them up. Tell them
to stop dying uselessly until I can get my men down!"
So Jelly flew, and Asmir, and Alverd, and even old
Roald, skimming the tops of the buildings as they bellowed at those below to
get onto the rooftops.
"Climb," they shouted. "We'll pick you
up."
Those who heard them swore and screamed and tried to get onto roofs while beasts darted at them from every doorway, lunged up at them from seemingly empty streets, materialized out of nothing in corners of walls. Always before, the Hippae had chosen to be seen. Now, in battle, they chose not to be seen until their teeth were fastened in their prey. Like chameleons, they faded against their backgrounds, their skins mottled the colors of brick or cobbles or plaster, only their teeth and the gleam of eyes betraying them, too often too late.
Those with the arrogance to be ridden could not
disguise their eldritch riders, however. The sight of a shuddering corpselike
figure coming head high along a wall was enough to warn that there was a beast
beneath it. Roald, peering down from the aircar at this display, wondered what
arcane motives led the Hippae to this horrid mockery of a Hunt? Why did they
burden themselves with these useless excrescences? When the Hippae died, their
riders rolled off, some of them alive, some barely alive, some already truly
dead. Roald had picked up a few that looked like they might make it. Even the
most alive among them did not know why they were there. Why were they there?
"I see more dead ones," Roald muttered to
Alverd as they flew from rooftop to rooftop. "More dead Hippae."
"I know," Alverd marveled. "Who's
killing them? Not the troopers. They're all tied up over at the order
station."
"Us, I guess."
Alverd snorted. "Not likely, father-in-law.
There's another dead one, at the corner down there. All torn apart."
"What's killing them, if we're not?"
"I don't know," he said. "Something.
Something we can't see. Something with teeth."
From the lowest floor of the Port Hotel winter
quarters, Marjorie worked her way through the network of tunnels toward the
barn, which stood almost at the wall of Com. The trip recorder could not guide
her but it would keep her from becoming irretrievably lost. The barn was not
far from the place where Hippae rampaged and killed. It would be difficult to
get the horses out without being seen. However, if they could reach the swamp
forest they might be safe. If they were seen, she would undoubtedly be
slaughtered. She felt the anger of the Hippae, against her, personally. She was
the one they hated. She had spied on them, gone into their cavern, ridden
against them. They would not miss the chance to bring her down.
Even so, if she could get the horses out onto the
slope, some of them would make it. She could get them moving in the right
direction, at least. Once they reached the forest, First would take them,
protect them. Gallant horses. They deserved better than this fangy death. They
deserved meadows and foals and long days of grazing under the sun.
Her feet echoed on the stone. Dim lights picked out
the junctures of one tunnel with another. When the trip recorder said she had
come far enough in the proper direction, she began looking for a way up. The
horses would be above her somewhere. Pray the barn had not yet attracted Hippae
attention. Pray the horses were not injured, or dead.
No, said someone. The horses are safe.
She stopped, stunned into frozen immobility. That voice belonged to the wilderness, to the trees, not to these dry, dark corridors. When the shock passed, she turned toward the voice as a compass needle turns toward the north, quivering.
Here, it said. Here.
She crept toward the summons, upward along slanting
corridors, up twisting flights of stairs, pulled like a fish on a line.
He was in the barn with the horses, lying across the
door. She saw the troubled air, the miragelike wavering, the glint of tooth or
eye. The horses chewed quietly, undisturbed. When she came in, Quixote
whickered at her and she leaned against the wall, trembling. So. Was He the
only one to get involved, or were there other foxen as well?
Why are you here? she asked.
I knew you
would come here, He replied, in words, human
words, clear as air.
She shook with the implications of that. I
could not abandon my friends. she said.
I know, He said. I knew before, but my people didn't
believe in you.
She asked, Have they changed their minds'?
Yes. Because of
these, He said. Because of the horses.
She saw herself on Quixote's back, menaced from front
and rear, the aircar above her offering escape, saw herself refusing to go. The
picture in her mind was larger than life, freighted with enormous import. She
would not leave the horses. Silly, she thought. I thought so at the
time.
Silly, He agreed, using words again. Important Important to know one would risk herself for another not like herself. Important to know humans feel loyalty. Important to know friendship can extend from race to race.
Were the Arbai
your friends?
A negation. She saw Arbai involved with Hippae, working with Hippae while foxen prowled nearby and the Arbai studiously avoided seeing them. To the foxen, it seemed the Arbai preferred to teach at arm's length rather than communicate as the foxen did; she felt the fastidious withdrawal of the Arbai, their punctilious modesty of mind, similar to her own feelings, but carried so much further! They could not see evil, but they could perceive an invasion of privacy, and they rejected it. How familiar! How horrible!
He agreed. Nonetheless, He felt pity and guilt that
they had died.
They died, she said, Now
we are dying. The Hippae are up there.
They'll get into Commons and kill us.
Already in Commons. But not many are dying. Not this time.
You're
protecting us?
This time we
know what is happening.
You didn't know
what was happening before? she asked. You
didn't know what was happening to the Arbai? It
seemed impossible, and yet, would the foxen necessarily have known? The
slaughter had been out on the prairie, away from the forest…
He said, Some hated humans because you hunted us- Some felt it was not our affair, not our concern, because you would not be our friends, no more than the Arbai. I told them Mainoa was friend. 'They said he was only one, a freak, unlike any other. I said no, there would be others. Then there was you. They say you, too, are freak, and I say there will be others yet. We have argued over it. Finally, we have compromised. Humor Almost laughter, yet with something sad and tentative in it. We agree if you are truly my friend, I can tell you.
Me?
If you will give your word. To be friend as Mainoa was friend. To be where I am.
She heard only the condition and assented to it at
once. She had already decided to stay here She would not take Stella away from
here. At least the people here understood what had happened to her.
I will give my
word, she said.
To be where I am?
Yes.
Even if that is
not here?
Not here? Where would He be, if not here? She waited
for explanation and got none. Something told her she would receive none. If
she could only see His face. See His expression ... We see one another, He told her. We foxen.
She flushed. Of course they saw one another, in their intimacy. As she could have seen them if she had let go of herself and joined them. As humans stripped away their day-to-day habiliments to come to their lovers naked, so foxen stripped away concealing illusion to perceive the reality...
But she could not see Him now. If she accepted this
condition, it would have to be blindly, like a ritual, like a marriage
ceremony, swearing to forsake all others for this one, this enigma, with no
more certainty than there had been before. Swearing to give up her central self
for something else. She shivered. Oh, perilous. Take it or leave it.
How could she? This is what Rigo had wanted, too, and
she had tried, over and over, but could not. Because she had not known him, had
not trusted him ... Did she trust this one?
He had known where to find her. He had committed
Himself and His people to saving her and her people. What else could He have
done to be trustworthy? What else would she have him do?
She sighed, choking on the words, committing herself forever. "Yes. I promise."
He showed her then why and how the Arbai had died.
Why men were dying.
When she understood, she leaned against Him, her mind
whirling in a disorderly ferment of ideas, things she had heard, connections
she had made. He did not interrupt her. At last things began to fall into
place. She only partially understood, and yet the answer was there, close, like
a treasure sparkling in a flowing stream, disclosing itself.
There is something you must get for me, she said. Then I must go through these tunnels into town....
Marjorie came into the cavern where Lees Bergrem was huddled over a desk. For a time she stood in the corner, unseen, putting her thoughts together. Lees looked up, aware of being observed.
"Marjorie?" she asked. "I thought you
were at the Port Hotel! I thought the Hippae had you trapped!"
"There's at least one tunnel under the wall. I
came back through it," she said. "I had to talk to you "
"No time," the other said, turning back to
her work. "No time to talk about anything."
"A cure," she said. "I think I
know."
The doctor turned burning eyes. "Know? Just like
that, you know?"
"Know something important," she said.
"Two important things, really. Yes. Just like that."
"Tell me."
"First important thing: The Hippae killed the
Arbai by kicking dead bats through their transporters. We don't have
transporters, so the Hippae have been killing us by putting dead bats on our
ships."
"Dead bats!" She pursed her lips,
concentrating. "The bon Damfels man said that was symbolic behavior!"
"Oh, yes. It is symbolic. The problem is that we
thought of it as purely symbolic. We should have remembered that symbols are
often distillations of reality—that flags were once banners flown during
battle. That a crucifix was once a real device for execution. Both are symbols
of something that is or was once real."
"Real what?" Lees sat down, glaring at
Marjorie. "Bats are real what?"
Marjorie rubbed her head, ruefully. "Real pains
in the neck, originally. Real vermin. The Hippae kick dead ones at one
another. I've seen them do it."
"We know that! Sylvan bon Damfels said it meant
'You're nothing but vermin.'"
"Yes. Originally, it would have meant 'You're
nothing but vermin.' That's what it meant when the Hippae kicked dead bats at
the Arbai, too. On Terra there were once animals that threw feces at strangers.
The Hippae despise strangers. They think of all other creatures either as
useful tools, like the migerers or the Huntsmen, or as things to be despised
and, if possible, killed. The Arbai fell into that category, so the Hippae
kicked dead bats at them, and at their houses, and at their transporter. It was
pure chance that a bat happened to go through the transporter to somewhere
else. At this end, it was only symbolic. At the other end, it meant plague.
Death."
"The vector of infection...."
"Yes. It happened. Somewhere, wherever the
transporter was set for, Arbai died. And then the foolish Arbai here on Grass
told the Hippae what had happened. From that moment on, the gesture no longer
meant 'You're vermin' It meant 'You're dead.' Once the Hippae knew they could
kill by putting bats through the transporter, they kept on repeating the act.
It was not symbolic, it was real."
"Kept on—"
"Kicking dead bats through the transporter until
all the Arbai were infected. It may not have taken long. Maybe only a day or a
week. Whenever they weren't observed. The Arbai were so ... so set in their
thinking that they never thought to set a guard. I'm assuming the transporter
must have worked like a voice-activated corn-link. Whenever the network was in
use, certain sets of terminals must have come on so that a bat kicked in at one
terminal would have ended up far away. On Repentance? On Shame? There are Arbai
ruins both places. On a hundred worlds we've never seen? Wherever, however
many, it worked. The Arbai died, everywhere. Hippae memorialized the event in
their dances. A great victory. 'Fun to kill strangers.' They remembered it.
"When humans came to Grass, the Hippae would
have repeated the act again, but we didn't have transporters, we had ships.
Dead bats had worked with the Arbai, so the Hippae decided to put dead bats on
our ships. Our ships, however, were inside the forest where the foxen had
influenced us to put our port. The foxen had believed that if the port was
inside the swamp forest, it would be safe. The foxen had enjoyed having the
Arbai around. Though they would have liked direct contact, being telepathic
they hadn't needed to have it. They had sought a kind of intellectual intimacy
with the Arbai and been rebuffed, so they didn't try it with us. Instead, they
regarded us as we might regard some intelligent, interesting, but
unaffectionate pet, and they thought we would be safe enough....
"They underestimated the Hippae. Perhaps they
thought the Hippae wouldn't remember after all those centuries, but they did
remember. They had codified their memory into dancing, into patterns. When men
first arrived, the Hippae set the migerers to digging a tunnel, at first only a
small one, one large enough to admit one human messenger at a time. Human
messengers the Hippae had wiped clean except for a certain impetus, a certain programmed activity—"
"That's unbelievable!"
"It's quite believable because it was only a
slight variation of their natural habit. Peepers have no such ability. Hounds
have almost none. The Hippae have enough to affect the minds of those around
them and bend those minds to their purposes. Think of what they do to the
migerers and to the Huntsmen! When the Hippae change into foxen, the ability is
multiplied a hundredfold. Hippae may not be truly intelligent- Evil and sly.
yes, able to learn but incapable of true subtlety. They learned to kill by
accident, but once having learned, they went on, and on. Everything they have
done was merely a repetition of a pattern they already knew...."
The doctor was very still, thinking. "You said
you knew two important things."
"The other thing was about your books. I tried
to read them. I'm not scientific. All I can remember is that one of them was
about this nutrient, this protein building block. You said it was something we
all needed. Most living cells. And you said it existed in two forms here on
Grass, and only here. I got to wondering why. Why two forms here? And then I
wondered, what if something here turned it around? What if something here on
Grass turned around an essential nutrient? Something all our cells need and
use. Something we couldn't use in a reversed form...."
There was a long silence.
"I need a dead bat," said Lees Bergrem.
"I brought one," Marjorie said, reaching
into her deep pocket. First had left the barn, had gone out onto the sloping
lands to get it for her. She put the dried crumbling thing on Lees Bergrem's
table. Then she sat down and put her head between her trembling knees and tried
to think of nothing at all.
The two women stayed in the makeshift laboratory for
two days. Above them in the town, battles were fought street by street,
building by building. People died, though not so many as had at first been
feared. There were allies no one could see. There were fighters no one could
look at. Hippae were found dead, and no one remembered killing them. Then, too,
since the Hierarch was not awake to countermand the Seraph's orders, troopers
came down on the shuttle, a few at a time, to take over segments of Commons and
man a slowly expanding perimeter. Demolition teams found the tunnels beneath
the swamp forest and collapsed them into sodden ruin. No more Hippae came
through. Those already inside hid, chameleonlike, to come screaming out of
alleys, shrieking along walls. Sharing this much of the foxen invisibility,
they found their way into houses and shops. Death came to Commons, death and
blood and pain, but slow victory came also.
Roald Few missed death by inches, saved by something
he could not describe. One of his sons died. Many of his friends were dead, or
missing. A morgue was set up in the winter quarters. The first body there was
Sylvan bon Damfels' His was joined by a hundred others. In death he became what
he could not manage in life, one with the Commons.
One by one the remaining Hippae were found and
killed. Many were still hiding in the edges of the forest. Troopers ringed that
perimeter, their heat-seeking weapons set on automatic fire. Within the trees,
other beings found the Hippae, and none came out onto Commons ground again.
Toward the end of the battle, Favel Cobham climbed
back down the chutes and restored power to the Port Hotel before going out to
join his fellows. He had not been ordered to stop guarding the Yrariers, but
neither had he been told to continue,
Rigo came out of the hotel later, when he saw the
last of the troopers straggling back toward the port, and made his way toward
the gate. In the port area, the men were already burying their dead and
readying for departure.
"Going already?" Rigo asked a gray-haired
Cherub with a wrinkled, cynical face.
"Lord and Master woke up and found out what
happened to his tame scientists," the Cherub replied. "Found out what
happened to the town, too. I guess he figures he might get gobbled up by
something if we stay."
Rigo went on into Commons to ask if anyone had seen
his wife. He was told to look where everyone was looking for missing kinsmen,
in the morgue. He found her there, standing by Sylvan's body.
"Rowena asked me to come and arrange
burial," she said. "She wants him to be buried out there, where Klive
used to be."
"Wouldn't you have come anyhow?" he asked.
"Didn't you care for him? Weren't you in love with him?" It was not
what he had planned to say. He and Father Sandoval had agreed that
recriminations were not appropriate. He had expected to find Marjorie's body
and grieve over it. Thwarted of grief, thwarted of good intentions, this other
emotion had happened.
She chose not to answer his question. Instead, she
said. "Sebastian is dead too, Rigo. Kinny lost one of her children. Persun
Pollut was almost killed. His arm is terribly hurt. He may never carve
again." He was shamed into silence, and angered for being shamed. She
walked toward the door, he following. "I've been working with Lees
Bergrem," she said, looking around to be sure she was not overheard
"She thinks we've found a cure. She already had some of the pieces. It
can't be tested here on Grass. She's sent word to Semling. They can manufacture
the cure, get some victims together, and test it."
"Manufacture?" he asked her, disbelieving.
"Some kind of vaccine?" She nodded, coming close to him, actually
hugging him, an awkward, one-armed embrace, tears on her face. "Not a
vaccine at all. Oh, Rigo, I really think we've found the answer"
He reached for her, but she had already turned away.
She would not say anything more until the people in Semling had received
everything Lees Bergrem could send them. "Wait," she said to Rigo and
Roald and Kinny. "Don't say anything to anyone until the word comes back.
Don't get people's hopes up until we know for sure."
Marjorie and Lees Bergrem spent the third day since
their discovery fretting together, stalking back and forth through the echoing
room where they had worked. On this day the Semling victims would either
improve or go on dying. At noon on the fourth day the word came from Semling.
Within hours of being treated, all the victims had started to mend.
"Now." Marjorie was crying, tears flowing
into the corners of her joyously curved mouth. "Now we can let everyone
know." She went to the tell-me to call Brother Mainoa. Only then did she
learn he had died in the lap of a foxen, days before. Only then did she
understand a part of what First had tried to tell her.
19
"Our job is over," Marjorie said. "What we were sent to do is done." She and Rigo and Father Sandoval were sitting at a table at Mayor Bee's restaurant, drinking genuine Terran coffee. Around them the work of renewal went on. Renewal and burial. At the foot of the street, litter carriers went past, and Marjorie averted her eyes. She did not want to think any more about death.
"So you have said," Father Sandoval said in
the aloof voice he had used to her recently. "I've seen no proof of
it."
"I think I can explain it," she offered.
They had scarcely spoken during the past few days. Father Sandoval had not
forgiven her for going off like that, though, since a cure had seemingly
resulted, he had not said much about it. He had not forgiven Father James,
either. He and Rigo had been discussing the recalcitrants, Rigo's nephew,
Rigo's wife. Their emotions were at war with their sense of what was fitting,
and she wanted to help them both. She said, "I can at least tell you what
Lees Bergrem told me, what she's telling everyone."
Father Sandoval set his cup down and twisted it on
the tabletop, leaving a wet circle there when he picked it up again. He touched
the circle with a fingertip, stretching it, breaking it.
"Perhaps that would be useful," he
admitted.
She folded her hands in her lap, the way she had used
to do as a child when called on to recite.
"Lees says that everything we've found in our
universe has proven to share pretty much the same assortment of left-right
molecules. She says there's no particular reason that we know of why some
molecules are twisted one way and some are twisted the other, but they are,
everywhere we've been. Some of these substances are essential to different
forms of life, and one of these is a nutrient, L-alanine. L-alanine exists
everywhere we've ever been. Human cells, most cells, can't get along without
it.
"Here on Grass, however, a virus evolved which,
as part of its process of reproduction, creates an enzyme, an isomerase,
which converts L-alanine to D-alanine.
L-alanine is the usual form. D-alanine is the mirror image, the isomer, and it
is virtually nonexistent anywhere we know of. I'm quoting Lees exactly. She's
said it a hundred times, so I know I've got it right." She stopped for a
moment to drink, to watch Rigo watching her. He gestured vaguely, telling her
to go on.
"After hundreds of thousands of years, the virus
became widely dispersed here, in the living cells of all plants. As the plants
died, the D form was released into the environment. Over time, here on Grass,
the D form became as common as the L form. That's the important fact, Rigo.
Here on Grass, both D-alanine and L-alanine are floating around, ubiquitous. We
can't breathe or drink this coffee or eat anything grown here without taking in
some of both—along with the virus.
"The minute we stepped off the ship from home,
we were infected. The virus is in the air, in the dust, in the water. Lees says
we probably had viruses in almost every cell of our bodies within minutes. The
virus needs a co-factor in order to reproduce, however. A kind of activator.
D-alanine is the co-factor. The viral protein binds to this co-factor, and then
it converts L to D, very rapidly. However, the virus works both ways. It can
also bind to L-alanine, and when it does, the viral protein converts D to L.
"Binding to D-alanine takes almost no time here
on Grass because there's so much D-alanine around. Someplace like Terra, where
there are maybe only a few accidental molecules, it could take a long, long
time. That's why the plague was so slow to start elsewhere. It's also why there
isn't any plague here on Grass. As soon as we started breathing on Grass, all
our cells got supplied with D and L both.
"So, here on Grass, the virus inverts L, which
we need in order to live, to D, which our bodies can't use. However, since both
D and L are plentiful, it turns both forms around simultaneously, and each of
our cells finds enough L-alanine to go on living. On other planets there was
little or no D-alanine to start with. When L was reversed, only D was left, and
the cells couldn't use it. When human cells died, the viruses escaped into
neighboring cells in their immediately infective stage, and the process was
repeated. People got sores that spread. Bandages, wash water, anything that
touched the body served as a source of infection, and the dead cells provided
the co-factor for newly infected cells."
"But not here," Rigo said stiffly.
"Not here. On Grass, both D-alanine and L-alanine
are plentiful; our cells survive. The virus's life cycle is interrupted, the
cells die naturally. People come here and get infected and go away, never
knowing it...."
"And it was spread by bats?" Father
Sandoval asked.
"Lees says the bats don't use alanine. It's only
one of a number of amino acids, and the bats just don't use it. However, the
blood of other animals has alanine in it. The bat doesn't need it, so the
viruses and the co-factors exist in the bat's blood bladder. When bats die and
dry, their insides are powdery with virus-rich material, as packed with viruses
and with co-factors as a puffball is with spores. Dead blood-sucking bats are
about as good a carrier as you could get."
"You haven't said what the cure is," Father
Sandoval said, finding on Rigo's face an expression which reinforced his own
mood, one of frustrated anger. One could not be angry that a cure had been
found; one was, however, annoyed at the way it had been found.
"The cure?" She looked up, puzzled.
"Well, of course, Father. I thought that was self-evident. All that's
needed is to spread massive quantities of D-alanine around. Small doses are no
good. If somebody gets small doses of D, it will bind to the enzyme and they'll
die. But
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if they get massive amounts, more than is needed to
bind, then there will be equal mixtures of L to D and D to L conversion And, of
course, Semling found that it was extremely easy to make. They just used the
virus to manufacture it out of L-alanine."
Father Sandoval shook his head. "It sounds so
simple the way you describe it. But the Arbai couldn't cure it, as wise as they
were?" He would not believe in their wisdom, no matter what Father James
had said. Furthermore, he felt the church would disbelieve in their wisdom as
well. Doctrine, as he knew it, had no room for other children of God.
"Perhaps they died faster than we did. My
informant doesn't know.
"Your informant?" Rigo said, his voice
ugly. "A foxen! Horses weren't enough for you, Marjorie?"
She frowned at him warningly, repressing her sudden
anger. "Don't, Rigo. If you are ambassador to Grass, you are ambassador to
them, as well. They aren't animals."
"That is not for you to decide," the priest
said, echoing her anger with a sullen fury of his own. "That is a question
for the church, Marjorie. Not for you. They may be intelligent and still be
animals. Your relationship with them may be a serious error. I caution
you!"
"You what?" she asked, incredulous.
"You what?"
"I caution you. On pain of excommunication,
Marjorie. Do not continue in this mindless adulation of these creatures."
She looked at the priest, betraying nothing. His face
was red, then white. His hand, resting upon the table, was clenched. Rigo
looked much the same. They had been discussing her again. Talking over how she
was to be controlled, no doubt. Her mind scuttered in its usual pattern of
evasion, of compromise, then stopped as though it had run into a wall.
She had made a commitment.
She laughed.
"Does he speak for you, as well?" she asked
Rigo.
He did not reply. His face was reply enough. He, too,
flushed, livid with rage.
She rose from her chair, leaned forward. "You
two ..." she said calmly, "you two can go to hell." She turned
and walked away, leaving them staring after her, their faces leaking anger
until nothing was left except pallid amazement.
All Rigo could think of as he watched her back as she
walked away was to wonder who she was thinking of now that Sylvan was dead.
"Father?"
They looked up to see Father James standing at their
sides. Father Sandoval nodded curtly.
"I've come to say goodbye." said the
younger priest, with only a slight tremor.
"You recollect what I told you," Father
Sandoval said through gritted teeth.
"Yes, Father. I deeply regret you cannot see my
point of view. However, I feel you're wrong and my conscience will not
allow—"
"Obedience would allow!"
The younger man shook his head and went on. "My
conscience will not allow me to be swayed. I came in today to hear about the
cure. Before Brother Mainoa died, he said he knew we would find it. The foxen,
he said. They would help us. Mainoa was almost a hundred Terran years old, did
you know? Well, why would you? A wonderful old man. He would have wanted to be
here himself ..."
"You're going back to the forest? Despite what
I've told you?"
"I am, yes. I believe I must stay here, Father.
I agree with Marjorie that it may be the most important work we have to
do."
Rigo's nostril lifted. "What work is that? More
charities? Resettling the homeless Grassians? More widows and orphans?"
Father James shook his head, giving Rigo a
perceptive, tilt-headed look. "No widows or orphans, Uncle Rigo. No. The
foxen are the only other intelligent race man has ever found. I've already sent
an inquiry to Shame, to the Church in Exile. Despite what Father Sandoval says,
I'm confident the Secretariat will think it important for us to find bonds of
friendship with the foxen. Kinship, as it were. To find a way to share
ourselves. Marjorie says that even small beings may be friends." He
laughed, shrugging. "But then you know—"
"I don't know," he replied angrily.
"She talks very little to me."
"Well," theyoung man reflected,
"that's probably natural. You always talked very little to her, Uncle
Rigo. She says she used to suffer from the Arbai disease."
"Arbai disease?"
"Terminal conscientiousness," he replied,
his brow furrowed. "Scrupulousness of the kind that creates conditions
making poverty and illness inevitable, then congratulates itself over feeding
the poor and caring for the sick. Those are my words, not hers, and I may have
it wrong...."
He nodded, then walked away as Marjorie had done,
leaving the two to discuss threats and confrontations, knowing as they did so
that anything they might propose was as useless as what they had already done.
Neither Marjorie nor Father James would change minds in the time before the
ship for Terra left, even though both of them were to know by then that what
they were doing was a good deal more complicated than they had assumed.
20
In the Tree City of the Arbai, spring gave way to an
endless summer, and summer to an endless fall. The season moved slowly toward
winter, day succeeding day in a kind of tranquil haze. The inhabitants of the
city knew they must go down to winter quarters soon, but they delayed. Two, or
perhaps more, were waiting for a certain occasion; others waited for no
occasion at all. Sun still spangled the tops of the trees. The wind was only
occasionally chill. On most days, it was warm enough to sit beside an open
window with a book, or with a letter....
"My dear Rigo," Marjorie wrote.
You have written once
more to ask that Tony and I return to Terra. Tony must answer for himself. I've
written several times since you left, attempting to explain why I can't return.
It seems silly to use these same words over and over again when they meant
nothing before. It is autumn here on Grass. That means years have gone by where
you are. After all this time, I wonder why you even care.
She looked out the window of her house to see
Rillibee Chime drop down onto the plaza, returning from a climb among the
treetops. Other young Green Brothers were still up there. She could hear them
yodeling to one another. The older Brothers, including Elder Brother Laeroa,
were in their Chapter House, away among the trees. There were still Green
Brothers upon Grass, and would be. Who would make grass gardens if the Brothers
went away?
"All the leaves are curling or falling or
withdrawing into the twigs," Rillibee called to her. "All the little
things that live up there are going down." He stopped beside Stella, who
was reading on the plaza. "Froggy things and all, burrowing down into the
mud."
Stella looked up from her book. Her face was open and
childlike, yet it was not a child's. She was a young woman once more, though a
different woman than she had been. "Even the furry ones?"
"Those, too," he replied, leaning over to
kiss her while she kissed him back. From a window across the bridge two faces
appeared, two mouths making kissy noises, teasing, with a kind of feral
abandon. Like young dogs, tearing at something.
"You," Rillibee called. "Get back to
your lessons."
Obediently, the two heads withdrew. "They're
doing better," remarked Stella. "Janetta can read ten whole words,
and Dimity almost never takes her clothes off anymore."
"Your brother's a good teacher."
"Foxen are good teachers," she replied.
"They don't make you learn to read or talk human or anything. Dimity and
Janetta can talk foxen a little. I wish I could just talk foxen."
"Don't you want to be able to talk to your
mother?"
Stella wrinkled her nose.
Marjorie stared at the mostly blank page on her
lap-desk and sighed silently. No. Even now, Stella did not particularly want to
talk to her mother, though she was much nicer about it than she had once been.
Soon there would be no mother to talk to, so there was no profit in regret.
"How about talk to me?" Rillibee asked
"Yes," Stella caroled. "Yes, I want to
talk to you."
"What do you want to do this afternoon?"
"Go say hello to Brother Mainoa. Pretty soon
he'll be all by himself, so we'd better say hello now."
"That's true." Rillibee nodded, taking her
hand as they set slowly off toward the bridge, stopping every step or two to
exclaim at a creature or a leaf or a flower.
Marjorie returned to her letter.
Thank you for bringing
us current on what has happened at Sanctity. We had already heard that the
Hierarch had been overthrown in absentia and that Sanctity itself has been
invaded and largely destroyed. The last time Rillibee went to Commons, he was
told that Sanctity is only a shell, that the angels upon the towers raise their
trumpets to an empty sky. He also learned that all those in the Israfel perished
of the plague on an unsettled planet where they'd fled for refuge. They must
have carried the plague with them from Grass. I remember Favel Cobham and weep
for him. He was a goodhearted boy.
"Stop." She heard Stella's voice.
Marjorie looked out. Rillibee had stopped obediently,
just short of the bridge. "Why are we stopping?" he asked her.
"I want to see the Arbai lovers. They're coming
along the bridge now."
The two humans on the bridge and the one in the house
watched the inhuman lovers bending across the rail, curling into one another;
arms, entwined. "What're their names?" Stella said in a stage whisper
"You know their names as well as I do,"
Rillibee replied.
"Tell me!"
"The probably-a-boy's name is Ssanther. The
probably-a-girl's name is Usswees."
"Arbai names."
"Yes. Arbai names."
Marjorie mouthed the well-known names to herself. Experts ha> come from Semling and Shame to record the language spoken in this city and connect it to written words. According to them, the tiny projectors hidden among the trees would go on working for another century or more, throwing Arbai images into the city they had built and died in. Similar projectors had been found in the other city, buried in the ruined walls, lost under the soil, the source for the mysterious visions which had filled the ruins. Now that the specialists understood the language, Arbai artifacts were no longer so enigmatic. Scientists had even succeeded in restoring the Arbai transporters, at least from this end, though they had not been tested yet. She turned back to her writing.
Here on
Grass, the foxen have determined to take charge of their lives. Several new
villages have been built with solar-powered fences to keep peepers in and
Hippae out. Those foxen who are still capable of doing so have begun laying
eggs in these areas. The peepers that hatch from foxen eggs will be kept
separately. Foxen will eat only those hatched from Hippae eggs. In time, through
this purposeful predation, the malice of the Hippae may be abated.
The Green
Brothers have begun gardens around these villages. Where the gardens of Opal
Hill once flourished, I have stood upon a newly sprouted first surface which
may one day astonish the great Snipopean. The foxen agree that beauty must not
be allowed to perish, that whatever else is done, beauty must be conserved lest
we impoverish our destinies. Even Klive will be reborn.
Marjorie put down her stylus and rubbed at her cramped fingers as she continued to stare out the window, remembering Klive. Remembering Opal Hill. Such glory in the grass. Even Snipopean could not have told that glory, for he had not danced with the foxen....
She came to herself with a start. She was merely
filling pages, giving herself something to occupy the last few hours.
Everything was done that she had to do. Her pack lay beside the door, its
contents carefully selected. Who could have thought a promise would carry her
so far.
Outside on the plaza, Stella tugged at Rillibee.
"Come on." she said. The two of them went along the bridge toward its
island end. In the flat green meadow at its base, at the foot of a tall
fruit-bearing tree, Mainoa's grave lay, the herbage above it constantly
littered with fruit and seeds and scraps of rind.
Marjorie rose, confronting one of the wall panels
carved by Persun Pollut. The first one he had done with his left hand was
crude, though full of harsh vitality. The later ones had gained in subtlety and
ease of line. He was a great artist, Persun. Too great to stay here on Grass.
Elsewhere, he could have a new right hand cloned for him. Well, soon the
unwilling tether that held him on Grass would be untied. Then, perhaps he would
go ...
Marjorie closed the lid of her writing desk, took it
by its handle, and went after Stella and Rillibee. Around her the shadow Arbai
moved and spoke. Their words had been translated. Their motives were
understood. Confronted with evil, these had chosen to die, Marjorie mourned
them, but could not regret them. They had been too good to do good. Someone had
said that once. Rillibee, she thought. Rillibee, who loved Stella.
The two of them were sitting by Mainoa's grave mound
when she came down the hill. "And how is Brother Mainoa today?" she
asked. Stella leaned forward to neaten the fragrant herbs, brushing away the
litter. "He's going to be lonesome out here by himself."
"I don't think so," Marjorie said, turning
slowly to take in all of the meadow: behind its protective fence, the twisted
arch of the Arbai transporter, glowing with opalescent light; the blossoming
reeds at the edge of the mire; the shaggy trees, towering into heights of
heartbreak gold. She turned back to the young ones with a smile. "Not
Brother Mainoa. He'll be very interested in everything that happens, all
winter long. And the foxen will come talk to him. They come out above ground in
the winter."
"What are you doing?" Rillibee asked her,
indicating the desk she was carrying. "Writing a book?"
She shook her head ruefully, "Rigo has asked for
explanations. Yet again."
"Father James says he may be trying to
accumulate evidence in order to have your marriage set aside."
She looked thoughtful for a moment, then laughed.
"I hadn't thought of that, but it's probable! Father Sandoval undoubtedly
put him up to it. Perhaps the laws on Terra have changed and he would be
allowed to father a new family. Well, in any case, this may be my last
opportunity to try telling him about his former one." She shrugged,
confronting Rillibee's look with a calm face.
"You're still determined to—"
"It isn't determination, Rillibee. I made a
promise. I've always tried to keep my promises, when I could."
"Tell Daddy Rillibee and I are going to have a
baby." said Stella. "Tell him that we're going to name it Joshua. Or
Miriam."
Two of Rillibee's magic names. Names he would hold
sacred if all hell came against him. Now he would give the baby one of them,
sending it out like a firefly into darkness. In time there would be others,
lighting up nothingness with bright names, like the burning names of stars.
Marjorie smiled, thinking that she would not tell Rigo that. He would not
understand.
From above came a trill, a purr. Foxen. Marjorie
trilled in answer. From the neighboring meadow, a horse whickered in reply.
"Did you see the new colt?" Stella asked
suddenly.
Marjorie nodded. "This morning. Mother and baby
doing well. All sixteen of the horses doing well, as a matter of fact. The
foxen have been talking to the foals again. I keep getting these very
percipient looks! Blue Star's new baby looks exactly like Don Quixote. Mayor
Bee's terribly excited."
"The mayor gets the colt, does he?"
Rillibee asked.
"Well, I promised. A few Hippae showed up at the
interdict village near Klive, and the mayor wants to lead the expedition."
"In accordance with the plan," he said.
"In accordance with the plan," echoed
Stella.
In accordance with the plan, thought Marjorie. She
sat down and put the desk on her lap, looking at it with resignation. Father
James was probably right. Rigo wanted written evidence of her dereliction, her
apostacy.
"We'll let you get back to it," said
Rillibee. "I'll go relieve Tony. He's been working with Dimity and
Janetta. They'll never be right, Marjorie. Everyone knows that now. I don't
know why Tony goes on...."
"He's stubborn," Marjorie said. "Like
me. Has he said anything?" she asked, a little anxiously. "About
after... ?"
Rillibee nodded, frowning. "He's going back to
Terra. He thought his father's request over carefully, and he's decided to
return, at least for a while. Since he and Stella were the only children Rigo
was allowed to have, Tony thinks going back, for a while at least, is only
fair." He took her hand and pressed it, sharing her disappointment. Then
he and Stella went away from her, up the green hill.
Marjorie sighed. She had hoped Tony would stay. In
the winter, he would have lived closely in Commons, acquiring age, acquiring
friends. In the spring Amy bon Damfels would be coming to the Tree City with
Emmy and her mother. Marjorie had envisioned Amy and Tony— Still, if he wanted
to go back ... He was still very young. Perhaps he felt he needed at least one
parent.
She opened the desk and started a new paragraph. If
Rigo wanted proof she was crazy or ungodly or whatever, why not give it to him?
You needn't
refer to my religious duties, Rigo. I have not forgotten them....
We came to Grass
together, out of duty. On Terra I had become much accustomed to duty, much
concerned with propriety. Even when I knew I was doing very little good with my
visitations, I persisted, out of duty. It has recently occurred to me that I
was not too different from the bons. As they rode the Hippae and were enslaved,
so I rode custom and was enslaved. I was a very good child and woman. I was
scrupulous in my behavior. I confessed regularly and followed my confessor's
advice. I did good deeds, even feeling guilty because I sometimes broke men's
laws of discipline to do what I thought of as God's laws of mercy. I was
faithful to you because it was my duty, and I did what duty required because I
thought God would be offended if I didn't.
Here on Grass there was more duty. I found myself looking ahead to the time I could die and wouldn't have duty anymore. Here I was, barely forty, Terran, wanting to die so I could quit going through all these motions! So, I went out into the grasses one day, courting death, but what offered itself was not really death and the horror of that made me realize what I was doing.
Duty simply
was not enough. There had to be more than that!
Father James
suggested that perhaps we were viruses. I know now that he meant to be funny.
He thinks I lack humor. I do. Everyone says so, even Tony. Because I do, I took
his words seriously. Later I came to think we might be like other things, like
white cells or neurotransmitters. Warriors or message carriers. Such cells have
a purpose, or at least a function in the body they inhabit. They have evolved
to have that function. So we, in the body which we inhabit, may have evolved or
be evolving to have similar purpose or function, though we are, I believe, only
very small beings...
Up among the leaves she heard Father James' voice raised in disputation with the foxen. Now that he was head of an official mission to the foxen, he did a lot of disputation and he always raised his voice when his logic was weak. Lately they had been discussing sins of the flesh and he had been raising his voice a lot. The foxen were not believers in sins of the flesh, and they offended the priest by quoting back at him the scripture he had once quoted to them.
Across the meadow one of Rillibee's red and blue pet
parrots called over and over to itself, "Songbird Chime. Joshua Chime.
Miriam Chime. Stella . . ."
Marjorie turned back to the pages once more.
When mankind
thought that his was the only intelligence and earth was his only place, it was
perhaps fitting to believe that each man had individual importance. We were all
there was. Like frogs, each thinking its own puddle was the center of the
universe, we believed that God worried over us each of us. Strange that we
should realize Pride is a sin yet still be willing prey to such arrogance.
We had only
to look around us to know how foolish the idea was. Where was the farmer who
knew each of his seeds by name? Where was the beekeeper who labled his bees?
Where was the herdsman who distinguished among individual blades of grass?
Compared to the size of creation, what were we but very small beings, as bees
are small, as seeds of corn are small, as blades of grass are small?
And yet corn
becomes bread; bees make honey; grass is turned into flesh, or into gardens.
Very small beings are important, not individually but for what they become, if
they become....
The Arbai failed
because they did not become. Mankind almost failed. We squatted on Terra almost
too long. We left only because we had ruined our planet and had to leave or
die. Then, once we had swarmed far enough to find new homes, we let Sanctity
stop us from going on. 'Fill up the worlds,' it said. 'Go no farther. Take no
risks.' And we went no farther. We took no risks. We grew. We multiplied. We
did not become...
A trill came from behind her. She did not need to
turn to know who was there. He touched her neck as delicately as a leaf fall, a
claw barely extended, the tiniest prick.
"Now?" she breathed.
He dropped her pack on the ground beside her.
She wavered. "I haven't said goodbye to Tony, to
Stella!"
Silence.
She had said goodbye. Every hour of the past season
had been goodbye. Father James had given her his blessing only this morning.
There was nothing left to say. He touched her once more.
"I must finish this," she said, bending
above her letter.
… We did not
become. We did not change.
But change
must come. Risk must come. God knows there are enough of us that we can afford
some losses! Why else are we so many? And though the grass be numberless as
stars, there must still be a first shoot set out to make a garden…
She had not said goodbye to Persun, Perhaps better that she not say goodbye. Considering everything....
One of the foxen and I
are going on a journey. No one knows whether we will arrive anywhere or be able
to return. If we do not, someone else will, eventually. There are enough of us
that we may go on trying, as long as it takes.
His claw touched her again, teasingly.
She sorted through the pages, setting them in order,
knowing they wouldn't tell Rigo what he wanted to hear or even what she wanted
to say. There was no time to write another letter, and what could she express
otherwise? Perhaps, if things had been different along the way, Rigo would have
been with her today. He had chosen to go back. She had chosen to go on. There
was no blame in either choice.
She looked up at the city, seeing the wind-thrown
shadows move among sun-dappled trees. The letter could be left here in the
desk. Tony or Rillibee would find it and see that it was sent. She had never
intended her departure to be ceremonial.
Now, He said like a trumpet. Now. There were others with
Him, a great many others. Whether Marjorie had intended ceremony or not, the
foxen had come to say farewell.
She wrote the last few words and signed her name, as
she knew it, wondering whether Rigo would be relieved that she had gone or
annoyed that she was past pursuit. What use would he make of these pages? She
set the desk on Mainoa's grave. Duty was done, but there were still promises to
keep.
They were all around her. She mounted the familiar
mirage and arranged herself. A hundred yards away, the Arbai transporter glowed
with bubble light, nacreous glimmers, a veil of mystery within the loop. There
was only one way to test it: by going through. Decorum, she told herself as
they approached. One should go toward one's destiny with decorum.
"Marjorie," she said aloud, voicing the
last words she had written so she could hear how they sounded. He did not know her as Marjorie. This might be the last
time she heard her name.
Marjorie,
by the grace of God, grass.
Amen.