HE TOLD THEM IN THE MORNING, AND TOLD THEM straight-out. Then he drank his coffee while the arguments and the alternatives swarmed around him. If it had been any of them proposing to jump into the mouth of hell without a parachute, Gage thought, he’d be doing the same. But it wasn’t any of them, and there was a good reason for that.
“We’ll draw straws.” Fox stood scowling, hands jammed in his pockets. “The three of us. Short straw goes.”
“Excuse me.” Quinn jabbed a finger at him. “There are six of us here. We’ll all draw straws.”
“Six and a fraction.” Cal shook his head. “You’re pregnant, and you’re not playing short straw with the baby.”
“The father isn’t currently gestating,” Cal shot back.
“I agree with Cybil. We’ll find another way.” Layla rubbed a hand over Fox’s arm to soothe him. “The bloodstone is a weapon, and apparently the weapon. It has to get inside Twisse. How do we get it inside?”
“A projectile,” Cal considered. “We could rig up something.”
“What, a slingshot? A catapult?” Gage demanded. “A freaking cannon? This is the way. It’s not just about getting it into Twisse, it’s about taking it there. It’s about jamming it down the bastard’s throat. About blood—our blood.”
“If that’s true, and without more we can’t say it is, we’re back to straws.” Cal shoved his own coffee aside to lean toward Gage. “It’s been the three of us since day one. You don’t get to decide.”
“I didn’t. It’s the way it is.”
“It’s my turn. Simple as that. You jammed a knife into that thing last winter, showed us we could hurt it. A couple months later, Fox showed us we could kick its ass back and live through it. We wouldn’t be sitting here, this close to ending it, if the two of you hadn’t done those things. If these three women hadn’t come here, stayed here, risked all they’ve risked. So it’s my turn.”
“What next?” Cybil snapped at him. “Are you going to call time-out?”
He looked at her calmly. “We both know what we saw, what we felt. And if we all look back, step by step, we can see this one coming. I was given the future for a reason.”
“So, whether I do or not, you do.” Gage shifted his gaze from Cybil to Cal. “The town does. So wherever the hell Twisse plans to go next when he’s done here has a future. I play the cards I’m dealt. I’m not folding.”
Cal rubbed the back of his neck. “I’m not saying I’m on board with this, but say I am—we are—there’s time to think of a way for you to do this without dying.”
“We pull you out,” Fox suggested. “Maybe there’s a way to pull you out. Get a rope on you, some sort of harness rig?” He looked at Cal. “We could yank him back out.”
“If we could get Twisse to take an actual form,” Layla put in. “The boy, the dog, a man.”
Gage grinned at Layla over his coffee. “Metaphorically. I’m going to check with my demonologist friend, Professor Linz. Believe me, I’m not going into this unprepared. All things being equal, I’d like to come out of this alive.” He shifted his gaze to Cybil. “I’ve got some plans for after.”
“Then we’ll keep thinking, keep working. I’ve got to get into the office,” Fox said, “but I’m going to cancel or reschedule all the appointments and court dates I can for the duration.”
“Why? Shit, right. Napper, truck. Which means I’ve got to swing by and see Hawbaker again this morning and check with the mechanic about my truck.”
“I want in on the first part,” Gage said. “I’ll follow you in. I can run you by the mechanic if you need to go.”
Cal got to his feet. “We’re going to figure this out,” he said to the group at large. “We’re going to find the way.”
With the men gone, the women sat in the kitchen.
“This is so completely stupid.” Quinn rapped the heel of her hand on the counter. “Draw straws? For God’s sake. As if we’re going to say sure, one of us falls on the damn grenade while the rest of us stand back and twiddle our thumbs.”
“We weren’t twiddling,” Cybil said quietly. “Believe me. It was horrible, Q. Horrible. The noise, the smoke, the stink. And the cold. It was everything, this thing. It was mammoth. No evil little boy or big, bad dog.”
“But we fought it. We hurt it.” Layla closed a hand around Cybil’s arm. “If we hurt it enough, we’ll weaken it. If we weaken it enough, it can’t kill Gage.”
“I don’t know.” She thought of what she’d seen, and of her own research. “I wish I did.”
“Possibilities, Cyb. Remember that. What you see can be changed, has been changed because you see it.”
“Some of it. We need to go upstairs. We need one of your spare pregnancy tests.”
“Oh, but I took three.” Distressed, Quinn pressed a hand to her belly. “And I even felt queasy this morning, and—”
“It’s not for you. It’s for Layla.”
“Me? What? Why? I’m not pregnant. My period’s not even due until—”
“I know when it’s due,” Cybil interrupted. “We’re three women who’ve been living in the same house for months. Our cycles are on the same schedule.”
“So was I,” Quinn said thoughtfully. “But that doesn’t explain why you think Layla’s pregnant.”
“So pee on a stick.” Cybil rose, gave the come-ahead sign. “It’s easy.”
“Fine, fine, if it makes you feel better. But I’m not pregnant. I’d know. I’d sense it, wouldn’t I?”
“It’s harder to see ourselves.” Cybil led the way upstairs, strolled into Quinn’s room, sat on the bed while Quinn opened a drawer.
“Take your pick.” She held out two boxes.
“It doesn’t matter because it doesn’t matter.” Layla took one at random.
“Go pee,” Cybil told her. “We’ll wait.”
When Layla went into the bathroom, Quinn turned to Cybil. “You want to tell me why she’s in there peeing on a stick?”
Moments later Layla came back with the test stick. “There, done. And no plus sign.”
“It’s been about thirty seconds since you flushed,” Quinn pointed out.
“Thirty seconds, thirty minutes. I can’t be pregnant. I’m getting married in February. I don’t even have the ring yet. After February, and if we buy this house we’re thinking about, and I decorate it, after my business is up and running smoothly, then I can be pregnant. Next February—our first anniversary—would be the perfect time to conceive. Everything should be in place by then.”
“You really are an anal and organized soul,” Cybil commented.
“Absolutely. And I know my own body, my own cycle, my own . . .” She trailed off when she glanced down at the test stick. “Oh.”
“Let me see that.” Quinn snatched it out of her hand. “That’s a really big, really clear, really unmistakable plus for positive Miss I Can’t Be Pregnant.”
“Oh. Oh. Wow.”
“I said holy shit a lot.” Quinn passed the stick to Cybil. “Give yourself a minute. See how you feel after the shock clears.”
“That might take more than a minute. I . . . I had a sort of loose schedule worked out, for when this would happen. We want kids. We talked about it. I just thought . . . Let me see that again.” Taking it from Cybil, Layla stared. “Holy shit.”
“Good shit or bad shit?” Quinn asked.
“Another minute, and that one sitting down.” Layla dropped onto the bed and just breathed. Then she laughed. “Good, really, really good. About a year and a half ahead of schedule, but I can adjust. Fox is going to be over the moon! I’m pregnant. How did you know?” She swiveled to Cybil. “How did you know?”
“I saw you.” Moved by the radiant smile, Cybil stroked Layla’s hair. “Both you and Quinn. I’ve been expecting this. We saw you, Quinn, Gage and I. In the winter—next winter. You were napping on the couch when he came in. And when you turned over, well, you were unmistakably pregnant.”
“Enormous. And beautiful, and wonderfully happy. You both did. And I saw Layla. You were in your boutique, which looked terrific, by the way. Fox brought you flowers. They were for your first month in business. It was sometime in September.”
“We think I could open in mid-August, if . . . I’m going to open in mid-August,” she corrected.
“You weren’t showing yet, not really, but something you said . . . I don’t think Gage caught that. A man probably wouldn’t. You were all so happy.” Remembering what else she’d seen, only the night before, Cybil pressed her lips together. “That’s how it should be. I believe now that’s how it will be.”
“Honey.” Quinn sat beside her, draped an arm over Cybil’s shoulder. “You think Gage has to die for all this to happen for the rest of us.”
“I’ve seen it happen. I’ve seen all of it happen. So has he. How much is destiny, how much is choice? I just don’t know anymore.” She took Layla’s hand, laid her head on Quinn’s shoulder. “Some of the research, it talks about the need for sacrifice, for balance—destroy the dark, the light must die, too. The stone—the power source—must be taken into the dark, by the light. I didn’t tell you.”
Cybil lifted her hands, held them over her face, dropped them. “I didn’t tell any of you because I didn’t want to believe it. Didn’t want to face it. I don’t know why I had to fall in love with him to lose him. Not this way.”
Quinn hugged harder. “We’ll find another.”
“We’ll all be trying now,” Layla reminded her. “We’ll find it.”
“We don’t give up,” Quinn insisted. “That’s the one thing we don’t do.”
“You’re right. You’re right.” Hope wasn’t something to dismiss, Cybil reminded herself. “And this isn’t the moment for gloom and doom. Let’s get out of this house. Let’s just get out of this house for a few hours.”
“I want to tell Fox. We could drive into town, and I could tell him face-to-face. Make his day.”
WHEN THEY LEARNED FROM FOX’S PEPPY NEW office manager that Fox was with a client, Layla decided to multitask.
“I’ll run upstairs, get some more clothes, clean out the perishables from the kitchen. If he’s not done by that time, well, I’ll just wait.”
“I’ll let him know you’re here as soon as he’s free,” the new office manager sang out as the three women started up the stairs.
“I’ll start in the kitchen,” Cybil said.
“I’ll give you a hand with that. As soon as I pee.” Quinn shifted from foot to foot. “It’s probably psychological pee, because I know I’m pregnant. But my bladder thinks otherwise. Wow,” she continued when Layla opened the door to Fox’s apartment to the living room. “This place is . . .”
They separated, Cybil to the kitchen, Quinn to the bathroom. Layla stepped into the bedroom, and froze with a knife point at her throat.
“Don’t scream. It’ll go right through you, right through, and that’s not the way it has to be.”
“I won’t scream.” Her gaze latched on to the bed—and the rope, the roll of duct tape on it. On the can of gasoline. Cybil’s vision, she thought. Cybil and Gage had seen her bound and gagged, on the floor with fire crawling toward her.
“You don’t want to do this. Not really. It’s not you.”
He eased the door shut. “It needs to burn. It all needs to burn. To purify.”
She looked up at his face. She knew that face. Kaz. He delivered pizza for Gino’s. He was only seventeen. But now his eyes gleamed with a kind of jittery madness she thought was ancient. And his grin was wild as he backed her toward the bed. “Take off your clothes,” he said.
In the kitchen Cybil pulled milk, eggs, fruit out of the refrigerator, set them on the counter. When she turned toward a broom closet, hoping for a box or bag, she saw the broken pane in the back door. Instantly she pulled her .22 from her purse and reached for a knife in the block.
One missing, she thought, fighting panic. A knife already out of the block. Gripping hers, she spun back toward the living room just as Quinn opened the bathroom door. Cybil put her finger to her lips, pushed the knife into Quinn’s hand. She gestured toward the bedroom door.
“Go get help,” Cybil whispered.
“Not leaving you. Not leaving either one of you.” Instead, Quinn pulled out her phone.
Inside, Layla stared at the boy who delivered the pizza, who liked to talk with Fox about sports. Keep his eyes on yours, she told herself while her heart made odd piping sounds in her chest. Talk. Keep talking to him. “Kaz, something’s happened to you. It’s not your fault.”
“Blood and fire,” he said, still grinning.
She took another backward step as he jabbed out with the knife, nicked her arm. And the hand fumbling in her purse behind her back finally clamped on its target. She did scream now, and so did he, as she spewed the pepper spray in his eyes.
At the screams, both Quinn and Cybil rushed the bedroom door. They saw Layla scrambling for a knife on the floor, and the boy they all recognized howling with his hands over his face. Whether it was instinct, panic, or simply rage, Cybil followed through. She kicked the boy in the groin, and when he doubled over, his hands leaving his streaming eyes for his crotch, shoved him into the closet. “Quick, quick, help me push the dresser in front of the door,” she ordered when she slammed the closet door.
He screamed, he wept, he battered the door.
Though her hand trembled, Quinn retrieved her phone.
Within fifteen minutes, Chief Hawbaker pulled the weeping boy out of the bedroom closet.
“What’s going on?” Kaz demanded. “My eyes! I can’t see. Where am I? What’s going on?”
“He doesn’t know,” Cybil said as she stood clutching Quinn’s hand. He was nothing but a hurt and confused teenage boy now. “It let him go.”
After cuffing Kaz, Hawbaker nodded to the can on the floor. “That what you used on him?”
“Pepper spray.” Layla sat on the side of the bed, clinging to Fox. Cybil wasn’t sure if she held him to stop him from leaping at the pitiful boy, or to ground herself. “I lived in New York.”
“I’m going to take him in, deal with his eyes. You need to come in, all of you, make your statements.”
“We’ll be in later.” Fox leveled his gaze on Kaz. “I want him locked up until we get there, sort this out.”
Hawbaker studied the rope, the knives, the can of gas. “He will be.”
“My eyes are burning. I don’t understand,” Kaz wept as Hawbaker guided him out. “Fox, hey, Fox, what’s up with this?”
“It wasn’t him.” Layla pressed her face to Fox’s shoulder. “It wasn’t really him.”
“I’m going to get you some water.” Cybil started out, stopped as Cal and Gage rushed through the apartment door. “We’re all right. Everyone’s all right.”
“Don’t touch anything,” Fox warned. “Come on, Layla, let’s get you out of here.”
“It wasn’t him,” she repeated, and took Fox’s face in her hands. “You know it wasn’t his fault.”
“Yeah, I know. Doesn’t mean I don’t want to beat him into a bloody pulp right at the moment, but I know.”
“Somebody want to fill us in?” Cal demanded.
“He was going to kill Layla,” Gage said tightly. “The kid. What Cybil and I saw. Strip her down, tie her up, light the place up.”
“But we stopped it. The way Fox stopped Napper. It didn’t happen. That’s twice now.” Layla let out a breath. “That’s two we’ve changed.”
“Three.” Cybil gestured toward Fox’s front door. “That’s it, isn’t it?” She turned to Gage. “That’s the door we saw Quinn trying to get out of when a knife was stabbing down at her. The knife Kaz had. The one from out of the block in the kitchen. Neither of those things happened because we were prepared. We changed the potential.”
“More weight on our side of the scale.” Cal drew Quinn to him.
“We need to go down to the police station, deal with this. Press charges.”
“Unless,” he continued over Layla’s distress, “he gets out of town. Out to the farm, or just out, until after the Seven. We’ll talk to him, and his parents. He can’t stay in the Hollow. We can’t risk it.”
Layla let out another breath. “If the rest of you could go ahead? I want a few minutes to talk to Fox.”
LATER, BECAUSE IT SEEMED LIKE THE THING TO do, Cybil dragged Gage back to Fox’s apartment to load up the food.
“It’s more than that, and besides, I don’t approve of waste. And it saves Layla from even thinking about coming back up here until she’s steadier. And why are you so irritable?”
“Oh, I don’t know, maybe it has something to do with having a woman I like quite a lot being held at knifepoint by some infected pizza delivery boy.”
“You could always tip that and be happy Layla was carrying pepper spray and between her quick reflexes and Quinn and me, we managed to handle it.” As a tension headache turned her shoulders into throbbing knots of concrete, Cybil bagged the milk. “And the pizza delivery boy, who was being used, is on his way to stay with his grandparents in Virginia along with the rest of his family. That’s five people out of harm’s way.”
His tone made her lips twitch. “But you’d rather be irritable.”
“Maybe. And we can factor in that now we’ve got two pregnant women instead of one to worry about.”
“Both of whom have proven themselves completely capable, particularly today. Pregnant Layla managed to keep her head, to reach into her very stylish handbag and yank out a can of pepper spray. Then to blast same in that poor kid’s eyes. Saving herself, potentially saving both Quinn and me from any harm. Certainly saving that boy. I would have shot him, Gage.”
She sighed as she packed up food. The tension, she realized, wasn’t simply about what had happened, but what might have happened. “I would have shot that boy without an instant’s hesitation. I know this. She saved me from having to live with that.”
Because her lips twitched again, she turned to him. “If that’s an attempt to make me feel better, it’s not bad. But Jesus, I could use some aspirin.”
When he walked away, she continued bagging food. He returned with a bottle of pills, poured her a glass of water. “Medicine cabinet in the bathroom,” he told her.
She downed the pills. “Back to our latest adventure, both Layla and Quinn came out of this with barely a scratch—unlike the potential outcome we saw. That’s a big.”
“No argument.” He went behind her, put his hands on her shoulders and began to push at the knots.
“Oh God.” Her eyes closed in relief. “Thanks.”
“So not everything we see will happen, and things we don’t see will. We didn’t see pregnant Layla.”
“Yes, we did.” She gave his hands more credit than the aspirin for knocking back the leading edge of the headache. “You didn’t recognize what you saw. We saw her and Fox in her boutique, this coming September. She was pregnant.”
“How do you—never mind. Woman thing,” Gage decided. “Why didn’t you mention it at the time?”
“I’m not really sure. But what it tells me is that some things are meant, and some things can be changed.” She turned now so they were eye-to-eye. “You don’t have to die, Gage.”
“I’d rather not, all in all. But I won’t back off from it.”
“I understand that. But the things we’ve seen played some part in helping our friends stay alive. I have to believe they’ll help you do the same. I don’t want to lose you.” Afraid she might fall apart, she pushed the first of two grocery bags into his arms and spoke lightly. “You come in handy.”
She shoved the second bag at him. “Among other things.” Because his arms were full, she toed up, brushed her lips over his. “We’d better get going. We’ll need to stop by the bakery.”
“Another Glad You’re Not Dead cake. It’s a nice tradition.” She opened the door, let him pass through ahead of her. “I’ll tell you what, for your birthday—when you’re still alive—I’ll bake you one.”
“A spectacular cake.” She closed Fox’s door firmly, glanced at the plywood Gage had put up where the glass pane was broken. “Six layers, one for each of us.” When her eyes stung and welled inexplicably, she pulled her sunglasses out of her bag, put them on.
“Seven,” Gage corrected. “Seven’s the magic number, right? It should be seven.”
“July seventh, a seven-layer cake.” She waited for him to put the bags in the trunk of his car. “That’s a deal.”
“November.” She slid into the car. “The second of November.”
Despite the ache in her belly, she sent him an easy smile. “Careful. There are a lot of places I want to go.”
“Good. Same here.”
THAT WAS JUST ONE OF THE THINGS ABOUT HER, Gage thought, that kept pushing at his mind. There were a lot of places they wanted to go. When had it stopped being he and she in his mind, and become they? He couldn’t pinpoint it, but he knew that he wanted to go to all of those places with her.
He wanted to show her his favorite spots, to see hers. And he wanted to go to places neither of them had ever been, and experience them together for the first time.
He didn’t want just to follow the game any longer. To simply go wherever and whenever alone. He wanted to go, to see, to do, and God knew he wanted to play, but the idea of alone didn’t have the appeal it once had.
Irritable, she’d called him. Maybe that was part of the reason why. It was, in his opinion, a damn good reason for being irritable. It was ludicrous, he decided, and started to pace the guest room instead of checking his e-mail as he’d intended. It was absolutely insane to start thinking about long-term, about commitment, about being part of a couple instead of going solo.
A home with her, somewhere to come back to.
The only place he’d ever had to come back to was Hawkins Hollow. And not by choice, not really by choice.
But this could be, if he took the bet.
It might be fun talking her into it.
There was time left, he thought, enough time left for him to work out a game plan. Have to be cagey about it, he mused as he sat down at his laptop. He’d have to find just the right way to tie her up in those strings they’d both agreed they didn’t want. Then once he had, he could just tie a knot here, tie a knot there. She was a smart one, but then so was he. He’d lay odds he could have her wrapped up before she realized he’d changed the game—and the rules.
Pleased with the idea, he opened an e-mail from Professor Linz. And as he read, his belly tightened; his eyes chilled.
So much, he thought, fatalistically, for planning futures. His was already set—and it had less than two weeks to run.
Eighteen
ONCE AGAIN, GAGE CALLED FOR A MEETING AT Cal’s office. Just his brothers. He’d made certain he’d been up and out of the house that morning before Cybil so much as stirred. He’d needed time to think, time alone, just as he needed time now with his two friends.
He laid out what he’d learned from Linz in calm and dispassionate terms.
“Screw that,” was Fox’s opinion. “Screw that, Gage.”
“It’s how it ends.”
“Because some demon academic we don’t know, who’s never been here, never dealt with what we’ve dealt with says so?”
“Because it’s how it ends,” Gage repeated. “Everything we know, everything we’ve found out, everything we’ve dealt with leads right up to it.”
“I’m going to have to go with the lawyer’s technical terminology on this,” Cal said after a moment. “Screw that.”
Gage’s eyes were green and clear; he’d made his peace with what had to be. “I appreciate the sentiment, but we all know better. None of us should have made it this far. The only reason we have is because Dent broke the rules, gave us abilities, gave us a power source. Time to pay up. Don’t say ‘why you.’” Gage tapped a finger in the air at Fox. “It’s all over your face, and we’ve been over that part. It’s my turn, and it’s my goddamn destiny. It stops this time. This is when and how. Upside is I’m not going to have to haul my ass back here every seven years to save you guys.”
“Screw that, too,” Fox said, but without heat as he pushed to his feet. “There’s going to be another way. You’re looking at this in a straight line. You’re not checking out the angles.”
“Brother, angles are my business. It’s either destroyed this time, or it becomes. Fully corporeal, fully in possession of all its former power. We’ve already seen that begin to happen.”
Absently, Gage rubbed his shoulder where the scar rode. “I’ve got a souvenir. To destroy it, absolutely take it out, requires a life from our side. Blood sacrifice, to pay the price, to balance the scales. One light for the dark, and blah blah blah. I’m going to do this thing one way or the other. It’d be a hell of a lot easier if I had you behind me.”
“We’re not just going to sit back and watch you take one for the team,” Cal told him. “We keep looking for another way.”
“And if we don’t find one? No bullshit, Cal,” Gage added. “We’ve been through too much to bullshit each other.”
“If we can’t, can I have your car?”
Gage glanced over at Fox and felt the weight drop off his shoulders. They’d do what needed to be done. They’d stand behind him, just like always. “The way you drive? Hell no. Cybil gets it. That woman knows how to handle a car. I need you to lawyer up that kind of thing for me. I’d have that off my head.”
“Okay, no problem.” He shrugged off Cal’s curse. “And my fee’s a bet. One thousand says we not only off the Big Evil Bastard, but you walk away from the Pagan Stone with the rest of us after we do.”
“I want in on that,” Cal said.
“That’s a bet then.”
Cal shook his head, absently rubbed Lump under his desk as the dog stirred from sleep. “Only a sick son of a bitch bets a thousand he’s going to die.”
Gage only smiled. “Dead or alive, I like to win.”
“We need to take this back to the women,” Fox put in, then narrowed his eyes at Gage. “Problem?”
“Depends. If we take it back to the women—”
“There’s no if,” Cal interrupted. “There are six of us in this.”
“When we take it back to the women,” Gage qualified, “the three of us go in as a unified front. I’m not going to be arguing with you and them. The deal is, we look for another way until time runs out. When time runs out and there’s no other way, it’s my way. Nobody welshes.”
Cal rose, preparing to come around the desk to shake on the deal. The office door burst open. Cy Hudson, one of the fixtures of the Bowl-a-Rama’s leagues, rushed in, teeth bared, and madly firing a .38. One of the bullets plowed into Cal’s sternum, took him down even as Gage and Fox dove at Cy.
His enormous bulk didn’t topple, and his sheer madness flung them off like flies. He aimed at Cal again, shifted the gun at the last moment as Gage shouted, and Lump bunched to attack. Gage braced for the bullet, caught Fox rising up like a runner off the mark out of the corner of his eye.
Bill Turner came through the door like fury. He leaped onto Cy’s back, fists pounding even as Fox went in low and the dog sprang, jaw snapping. The four of them went down in a bone-breaking tangle. The gun went off again even as Gage shoved up and grabbed a chair. He brought it down, brutally, twice on Cy’s exposed head.
“Okay?” he said to Fox as Cy went limp.
“Yeah, yeah. Hey, boy, good dog.” Fox hooked an arm around Lump’s big neck. “Cal?”
Pushing up again, Gage dropped down beside Cal. Cal’s face was bone white, his eyes glassy, and his breath came in short pants. But when Gage ripped his shirt open, he saw the spent bullet pushing up through the wound. Sidling over, Lump licked Cal’s face and whined.
“It’s okay, you’re okay. You’re pushing it out.” He gripped Cal’s hand, sent him all he could. “Give me something.”
“Smashed a rib, I think,” Cal managed. “Ripped hell out of me in there.” He struggled to even his breathing as Lump nosed his shoulder. “I can’t exactly tell.”
“We’ve got it. Fox, for Christ’s sake, give me a hand.”
“Gage.”
“What! Can’t you see he’s . . .” Furious, Gage whipped his head around. He saw Fox kneeling on the floor pressing the blood-soaked wad of his own shirt to Bill’s chest.
“Call for an ambulance. I’ve got to keep the pressure on.”
“Go. God.” Cal pushed breath out, drew more in. He fisted his hand in Lump’s fur. “I’ve got this. I’ve got this. Go.”
But Gage kept Cal’s hand tight in his, drew out his phone. And with his eyes locked on his father’s pale face, called for help.
CYBIL WOKE GROGGY, HEADACHY. THE GROGGY wasn’t much of a surprise. Mornings weren’t her finest hour, particularly after a restless night, and the dreams were a plague now. More, Gage had been closed in the night before. Barely speaking, she thought, as she grabbed a robe in case there were men in the house.
Well, his moods weren’t her responsibility, she decided, and felt fairly closed in herself. She’d take her coffee out on the back deck—alone. And sulk.
The idea perked her up a little, or would have if she hadn’t found both Layla and Quinn holding a whispered conference in the kitchen.
“Go away. Nobody talk to me until I’ve had two solid hits of caffeine.”
“Sorry.” Quinn blocked her path to the stove. “You’ll have to put that off.”
Warning flashed into her eyes. “Nobody tells me to put off my morning coffee. Move it or lose it, Q.”
“No coffee until after this.” She picked the pregnancy test off the counter, waved it in front of Cybil’s face. “Your turn, Cyb.”
“My turn for what. Move!”
“To pee on a stick.”
Cybil’s jones for coffee tripped over sheer shock. “What? Are you crazy? Just because sperm met egg for the two of you doesn’t mean—”
“Isn’t it funny I have this on hand just like I had one for Layla.”
“Ha ha.”
“And it’s interesting,” Layla continued, “how you pointed out yesterday the three of us are on the same cycle.”
“I’m not pregnant.”
Layla looked at Quinn. “Isn’t that what I said?”
Nearly desperate for coffee, Cybil rolled her eyes. “I saw you pregnant. Both of you. I didn’t see me that way.”
“It’s always harder to see ourselves,” Quinn returned. “You’ve told me that a few times. Let’s make it simple. You want coffee? Go pee on a stick. You won’t get past both of us to the goal, Cyb.”
Fuming, Cybil snatched the box. “Pregnancy’s made both of you bossy and bitchy.” She stalked off to the first-floor powder room.
“It has to mean something.” Layla rubbed her hands over her arms, ridiculously nervous. “If we’re right, or if we’re wrong, it has to mean something. I just wish I could figure out what.”
“I’ve got some ideas, but . . .” Worried, Quinn paced to the kitchen doorway. “We’ll think about that later. After. And either way, we have to be with her on this.”
“Well, of course. Why wouldn’t . . . Oh. You mean if she is, and she doesn’t want to be.” With a nod, Layla stepped up so she stood beside Quinn. “No question about it. Whatever it is, whatever she needs.”
They waited a few more minutes, then Quinn dragged both hands through her hair. “That’s it. I can’t stand it.”
She marched to the door, knocked for form, then pushed the door open. “Cyb, how long does—Oh, Cybil.” She knelt down immediately to gather Cybil up as her friend sat on the floor.
“What am I going to do?” Cybil managed. “What am I going to do?”
“Get off the floor to start.” Briskly, Layla leaned down to help her up. “I’m going to make you some tea. We’ll figure this out.”
“I’m so stupid. So stupid.” Cybil pressed her hands to her eyes as Quinn led her to the kitchen and a chair. “I should’ve seen it coming. All three of us. It’s a perfect goddamn fit. It was right there in front of my face.”
“It didn’t click for me,” Quinn told her. “The possibility of it didn’t click in for me until the middle of the night. It’s going to be all right, Cybil. Whatever you want or need, whatever you decide, Layla and I are going to be right there to make sure it’s all right.”
“It’s not the same for me as it is for the two of you. Gage and I . . . We don’t have any plans. We’re not . . .” She managed a weak smile. “Linked the way you are with Cal and Fox.”
“You’re in love with him.”
“Yes, I am.” Cybil looked into Quinn’s eyes. “But that doesn’t mean we’re together. He’s not looking for—”
“Forget what he’s looking for.” Layla’s voice was so sharp, Cybil blinked. “What are you looking for?”
“Well, it certainly wasn’t this. I was looking to finish what we started here, and to have some time with him outside of this. If I looked further than that, and I’m not so strong and coolheaded that I didn’t look further and hope that we might make something together. And not so wide-eyed and optimistic that I expect to.”
“You know you don’t have to decide right away.” Quinn stroked Cybil’s hair. “This is between the three of us, and we’ll keep it that way as long as you want.”
“You know we can’t do that,” Cybil replied. “There’s a purpose in this, and that purpose might be the difference between life and death.”
“Gods, demons, Fate—,” Layla snapped. “None of them have a right to make this choice for you.”
When Layla set the tea on the table, Cybil took her hand, squeezed fiercely. “Thanks. God. Thanks. The three of us, the three of them. Ann Hawkins had three sons and they were her hope, her faith, her courage. Now there are three more—the possibilities of three more inside us. There’s a symmetry there that can’t be ignored. In many cultures, in much lore, the pregnant woman holds particular power. We’ll use that power.”
She took a deep breath, reached for the tea. “I could, when it’s finished, choose to end this possibility. My choice, and yes, screw gods and demons. My choice. And I don’t choose to end this possibility. I’m not a child, and I’m not without resources. I love the father. Whatever happens between Gage and me, I absolutely believe this was meant.”
She took another breath. “I know this is the right thing for me. And I know I’m officially scared to death.”
“We’ll all be going through it together.” Quinn took Cybil’s hand, took a good, strong hold. “That’s going to help.”
“Yes, it is. Don’t say anything yet. I need to work out the best way to tell Gage. The best time, the best method. Meanwhile, the three of us need to try to figure out how we can use this surprising bout of mutual fertility. I can contact—”
“Hold that thought,” Quinn said when the phone rang. After glancing at the display, she smiled. “Hello, lover. You—” The smile dropped away, and so did her color. “We’re coming. I—” She shot alarmed glances at Cybil and Layla. “All right. Yes, all right. How bad? We’ll meet you there.”
She hung up. “Bill Turner—Gage’s father—he’s been shot.”
THEY’D TAKEN HIS MOTHER AWAY IN AN AMBULANCE, Gage thought. All the lights, the sirens, the rush. He hadn’t gone with her, of course. Frannie Hawkins had bundled him away, given him milk and cookies. Kept him close.
Now it was his father—the lights, the sirens, the rush. He wasn’t entirely sure how it was he was speeding behind the ambulance, wedged in between Fox and Cal in the cab of Fox’s truck. He could smell the blood. Cal’s, the old man’s.
There had been a lot of blood.
Cal was still pale, and the healing wasn’t complete. Gage felt Cal tremble—quick, light shivers—as his body continued the pain and the effort of healing itself. But Cal wasn’t dead, wasn’t lying in a pool of his own blood as he’d been in the vision. They’d changed that . . . potential, as Cybil would call it.
Score another for the home team.
But they hadn’t seen the old man. There’d been no vision of his father—dead or alive. No foresight of the old man leaping through the door and onto crazed Cy Hudson’s back. No preview of that hot, determined look in his eyes. There sure as hell hadn’t been any quick peek through the window to show him the way the old man lay on the floor, bleeding through Fox’s wadded-up shirt.
He’d looked broken, Gage realized. Broken and frail and old when they’d loaded him into the ambulance. It wasn’t right, it wasn’t the right image. It didn’t match the picture of Bill Turner that Gage carried around in his head the way, he supposed, he carried the picture of his mother in his wallet.
In that, she was forever young, forever smiling.
In Gage’s head, Bill Turner was a big man, hefting the sway of a beer belly. He was hard eyes, hard mouth, hard hands. That was Bill Turner. As soon backhand you as look at you Bill Turner.
Who the hell was that broken bleeding man in the ambulance up ahead? And why the hell was he following him?
It blurred on him. The road, the cars, the buildings as Fox swung toward the hospital. He couldn’t quite solidify it, couldn’t quite bring it into focus. His body moved—getting out of the truck, climbing out when Fox slammed to the curb of the emergency entrance, striding into the ER. Part of his brain registered odd details. The change in temperature from June warmth to the chill of air-conditioning, the different sounds, voices, the new rush as medical people descended on the broken, bleeding man. He heard phones ringing—a tinny, irritatingly demanding sound.
Answer the phone, he thought, answer the goddamn phone.
Someone spoke to him, peppering him with questions. Mr. Turner, Mr. Turner, and he wondered how the hell they expected the old man to answer when they’d already wheeled him off. Then he remembered he was Mr. Turner.
“What?”
What was his father’s blood type?
Did he have any allergies?
His age?
Was he on any medications, taking any drugs?
“I don’t know,” was all Gage could say. “I don’t know.”
“I’ll take it.” Cal took Gage’s arm, gave him a quick shake. “Sit down, get coffee. Fox.”
“I’m on that.”
There was coffee in his hand. How had that happened? Surprisingly good coffee. He sat with Cal and Fox in a waiting room. Gray and blue couches, chairs. A TV set on some morning show with a man and a woman laughing behind a desk.
Surgical waiting room, he remembered, as if coming out of a dream. The old man was in surgery. GSW—that’s what they called it. Gunshot wound. The old man was in surgery because he had a bullet in him. Supposed to be in me, Gage remembered as his mind replayed that quick whip of the gun toward him. That .38 slug should be in me.
“I need to take a walk.” As Fox started to stand with him, Gage shook his head. “No, I just need some air. I’m just . . . have to clear my head.”
He rode down in the elevator with a sad-eyed woman with graying roots and a man with a seersucker blazer buttoned tight over a soccer ball belly.
He wondered if they’d left anyone broken and bleeding upstairs.
On the main level, he passed the gift shop with its forest of shiny balloons (Get Well Soon! It’s a Boy!) and cold case of overpriced floral arrangements, racks of glossy magazines and paperback novels. He went straight out the front doors, turned left, and walked without any thought of destination.
Busy place, he thought idly. Cars, trucks, SUVs jammed the lots, while others circled, searching for a spot to park. Some of them would stop by the gift shop for glossy magazines and balloons. A lot of sick people around, he supposed, and wondered how many of them had a GSW. Was there an appropriate tagline on a balloon for a GSW?
He heard Cybil call his name. Though the sound of it seemed absurdly out of place, he turned. She hurried down the sidewalk toward him, at just short of a run. All that dark, curling hair was sunstruck, flying around that fabulous face.
Gage had the odd thought that if a man had to die, he could go happier knowing a woman like Cybil Kinski had once run to him.
She caught him, grabbed both his hands. “Your father?”
“In surgery. How’d you get here?”
“Cal called. Quinn and Layla went in. I saw you so . . . Can you tell me what happened?”
“Cy brought his .38 into Cal’s office, shot up the place. Cal, too.”
“Cal—”
“He’s okay. You know how it goes.”
An ambulance roared into the lot hot, sirens, lights. Someone else in trouble, Gage thought. Another balloon on a string.
“Gage. Let’s find a place to sit down.”
He brought himself back to her, to Cybil with the gypsy eyes. “No, I’m . . . walking. It happened fast. Couple of fingersnaps. Let’s see. Bang, bang, Cal’s down. Cy aims for him again, so I yelled out. No . . .” Not quite right, he remembered.
“It doesn’t matter.” She hooked her arm around his waist. If she could have taken his weight, she would have. But the weight he carried wasn’t physical.
“It does. It all matters.”
“You’re right.” Gently, she guided him around so they were walking back toward the hospital. “Tell me what happened.”
“We went for him first, for Cy, but the guy’s built like a mountain, and you add in the infection. Shook us right off. Then I yelled. He turned the gun at me.”
In his mind, it replayed in slow motion, every detail, every movement. “The dog had been asleep, as usual, under the desk. He came up like vengeance. I wouldn’t have believed it if I hadn’t seen it. Fox is about to charge Cy again, might’ve had enough time. We’ll never know. The old man, he comes through the door like a freight train, jumps Cy, and the three of them go down—and the dog, too. The gun went off. Fox was okay, so I got over to Cal. Never gave the old man a thought. Fox was okay, Cal was bleeding and working on pushing the goddamn bullet out. I never gave the old man a thought.”
Cybil stopped, turned to him. She said nothing, only watched his face, held his hands.
“I looked over. Fox must’ve pulled his shirt off. He was using it to put pressure on the wound. Chest wound. GSW. The old man, he can’t push the goddamn bullet out like we can.”
She released his hands to put her arms around him.
“I don’t know how I’m supposed to feel.”
“You don’t have to decide.”
“I could’ve taken the bullet. Odds are it wouldn’t have killed me.”
“Cal could’ve taken another, on the same scale. But you tried to stop it. That’s what people do, Gage. They try to stop it.”
“We didn’t see this, Cybil.”
“No, we didn’t.”
“I changed it. I called a meeting with Cal and Fox, so we were there. Instead of Cal being alone in his office when Cy came in shooting, we were there.”
“Gage, listen to me.” She brought their hands together between them, looked over the joining directly into his eyes. “You’re asking yourself, you’re wondering if being there makes you to blame for what happened. You know in your heart, in your head—you know after twenty-one years of fighting this what’s to blame.”
“Cal’s alive. I know that matters to me more—”
“This isn’t about more, or about less.”
“He—the old man—it’s the first time in my life I remember him stepping up for me. It’s hard knowing it might be the last.”
Standing in the June sunshine, as the scream of another ambulance hacked through the air, her heart broke for him. “We could look now, look at your father, if that would help you.”
“No.” He laid his cheek on the top of her head. “We’ll wait.”
HE THOUGHT IT WOULD BE HOURS. THE WAITING and the wondering and second-guessing that went with it. But Gage had barely reached the waiting room when a doctor in surgical scrubs came in. Gage knew as soon as their eyes met. He saw death in them. Inside his belly something twisted viciously, like a clenched fist jerking once, hard. Then it let go, and what was left behind was numb.
“Mr. Turner.”
Gage rose, waved his friends back. He walked out to listen to the doctor tell him the old man was dead.
HE’D BURY THE OLD MAN BESIDE HIS WIFE AND daughter. That Gage could do. He wasn’t having any damn viewing, or what he thought of as the after-graveside buffet. Short, simple, done. He let Cal handle the arrangements for a graveside service as long as it was brief. God knew Cal knew Bill Turner better than he did. Certainly the Bill Turner who died on the operating table.
He retrieved his father’s one good suit from the apartment and delivered it to the funeral home. He ordered the headstone, paid for it and the other expenses in cash.
At some point, he supposed, he’d need to clean out the apartment, donate everything to Goodwill or the Salvation Army. Something. Or, as the odds were Cal would be making arrangements for his own graveside service before much longer, Gage figured he could leave that little chore to Cal and Fox.
They lied to the police, which wouldn’t keep Gage from sleeping at night. With Jim Hawkins’s help, they’d tampered with evidence. Cy remembered nothing, and Gage figured if the old man had to die, that shouldn’t be for nothing either.
He came out of the funeral home, telling himself he’d done all he could. And he saw Frannie Hawkins standing beside his car.
“Cybil said you’d be here. I didn’t want to come in, to intrude.”
“You’ve never intruded.”
She put her arms around him—one good, hard hug. “I’m sorry. I know how things were between you and Bill, but I’m sorry.”
“I am, too. I’m just not sure what that covers.”
“However things were, however he was, in the past, in the end he did everything he could to protect you—and my boy, and Fox. And in the end, you’ve done exactly the right thing for them, for the Hollow, and for Bill.”
“I’m laying the rap for his own death on him.”
“You’re saving a good man, an innocent man from a murder charge and prison.” Frannie’s face radiated compassion. “It wasn’t Cy who shot Cal or Bill—and we know that. It isn’t Cy who should spend, potentially, the rest of his life behind bars, leave his wife alone, his kids and grandkids.”
“No. We talked about that. The old man’s not in a position to put his two cents in, so . . .”
“Then you should understand Bill considered Cy a friend, and it was mutual. After Bill quit drinking, Cy was one of the ones who’d sit around with him, drinking coffee or Cokes. I want you to know I feel absolutely certain this is what Bill would want you to do. As far as anyone knows, Bill came in with the gun, God knows why because none of us do, and when Cy and the rest of you tried to stop him, there was an accident. Bill wouldn’t want Cy punished for what was beyond his control. And nothing can hurt Bill now. You know what happened, what Bill did in the end. It doesn’t matter what anyone else knows.”
It helped hearing it, helped rub dull the sharper edges of guilt. “I can’t feel—the grief, the anger. I can’t feel it.”
“If and when you need to, you will. All you need to know now is you’ve done what can and should be done. That’s enough.”
“Would you do something for me?”
“Just about anything.”
“When I’m not around, will you put flowers out there now and again? For the three of them.”
“Yes. I will.”
He stepped over to her car, opened the door for her. “Now I’m going to ask you something.”
“Ask away.”
“If you knew you had a week or two to live, what would you do?”
She started to speak, stopped, and Gage understood she’d smothered her instinctive response—for his sake. Instead, she smiled. “How am I feeling?”
“Good.”
“In that case, I’d do exactly as I pleased, particularly if it was something I’d normally deny myself or hesitate over. I’d grab everything I wanted, needed. I’d make sure the people who annoyed me knew just what I thought. And more important, that everyone I loved knew how much they meant to me.”
“No confessing your sins, making amends?”
“If I haven’t confessed and amended by that point, screw it. It’s all about me now.”
Laughing, he leaned down and kissed her. “I really love you.”
“I know you do.”
AS USUAL, IN GAGE’S OPINION, FRANNIE HAD HER sensible finger on the heart of the matter. But first things first. He knew too well that death—anyone’s death— wouldn’t stop the approach of the Seven. The meeting they’d held in Cal’s office now had to be open to all six.
“The deal’s pretty straightforward,” he began. They sat, all of them, in Cal’s living room on the night before his father’s burial. “Some of the books and folklore Linz accessed have fancy or fanciful language, but it boils down to this: The bloodstone—our stone—is the key. Part of the Alpha Stone, just as Cybil theorized. A power source. And oddly enough, in some of Linz’s studies, this fragment is called the Pagan Stone. I don’t see that as coincidence.”
“What’s the lock?” Quinn asked.
“Its heart. The black, festering heart of our own Big Evil Bastard. Insert key, turn, the lock opens and the Evil Bastard goes back to hell. Simple as that.”
“No,” Cybil said slowly, “it’s not.”
“Actually it is. But you’ve got to ante up first.”
“And you’re saying you’re what we ante up?”
“The stakes are a little too rich for me,” Layla added. “Why play its game? We’ll find one of our own, and use our rules.”
“It’s not its game,” Gage corrected. “It’s the only game we’ve got. And one it’s been trying to delay and destroy for eons. The bloodstone destroys it, which is why it came to us in threes, why we weren’t able to put it together until now. Until we were old enough, until we were all a part of it. It took all six of us. The rest of it will, too. But only one of us turns the key. That’s for me.”
“How?” Cybil demanded. “By going inside it? By dying and going to hell with it?”
“‘Into the black.’ You already know this,” he said, watching her face. “You’ve already found what Linz did.”
“Some sources theorize the bloodstone—or Pagan Stone—this particular fragment of the Alpha, will destroy the dark, the black, the demon, if it pierces its heart. Can,” she said quickly, “may—if it’s been imbued with the blood of the chosen, if it’s taken in at exactly the right time. If, can, may.”
“You didn’t share this?”
“I’m still verifying. I’m still checking sources. No,” she added after a moment of silence. “I didn’t share it.”
“‘Into the black,’” Gage repeated. “All the lore uses that phrase or a close variation. The dark, the black. The heart of the beast, and only when it’s in its true form. Bestia. And every living thing around it, not protected, dies when it dies. Its death requires equal sacrifice. Blood sacrifice. A light to smother the dark. And you’d found that, too,” he added to Cybil.
“I found some sources that speak of sacrifice, balance.” She started to qualify, to argue—anything—then stopped. They were all entitled to hear it. “Most of the sources I’ve found claim that to pierce the heart, the demon must be in his true form, and the stone must be taken into it by the guardian, by the light. And that light must go in with full knowledge that, by destroying, he will, in turn, be destroyed. The sacrifice must be made with free will.”
Gage nodded. “That jibes with Linz.”
“Isn’t that handy? Doesn’t that just tie it up in a bow?”
For a moment, as Gage and Cybil watched each other, no one spoke. Then Quinn made an ahem sound. “Okay, question.” Quinn held up a finger. “If the bloodstone and a sacrifice does the job, why didn’t Dent kill it?”
Still watching Cybil, Gage answered. “First, it came as Twisse, not in its true form.”
“I think there’s more,” Cal said. “I’ve been thinking about this since Gage ran it by us. Dent had broken the rules, and intended to break more. He couldn’t destroy it. It couldn’t be done by his hand. So he paved the way for us. He weakened it, made certain it couldn’t become, as Linz says. Not fully corporeal, not in full power. He bought time, and passed all he could down to his ancestors—to us—to finish it.”
“I’ll go with that. But I don’t think it’s the whole story.” Quinn glanced at Cybil, and her eyes held sorrow and apology. “Destroying the demon was—is—Dent’s mission. His reason to exist. His sacrifice—his life—wouldn’t be enough. True sacrifice involves choice. We all have choices in this. Dent isn’t wholly human. Despite our heritages, all of us are. This is the price, the choice to sacrifice life for the whole. Cyb—”
Cybil held up a hand. “There’s always a price.” She spoke steadily. “Historically, gods demand payment. Or in more pedestrian terms, nothing’s free. That doesn’t mean we have to accept the price is death. Not without trying to find another way to pay the freight.”
“I’m all for coming up with an alternate payment plan. But,” Gage added, “we all have to agree, right here and now so we get this behind us, that if we can’t, I take point on this. Agree or not, that’s how it’s going to be. It’d be easier for me if we agreed.”
No one spoke, and everyone understood Cybil had to be the first.
“We’re a team,” she began. “None of us would question just how completely we’ve become one. Within that team we’ve formed various units. The three men, the three women, the couples. All of those units play into the dynamics of the team. But within those units we’re all individual. We’re all who we are, and that’s the core of what makes us what and who we are together. None of us can make a choice for another. If this is yours, I won’t be responsible for making it harder, for adding to the stress, for possibly distracting you, or any of us so we make a mistake. I’ll agree, believing we’ll find a way where all of us walk away whole. But I’ll agree, more importantly, because I believe in you. I believe in you, Gage.
“That’s all I have to say. I’m tired. I’m going up.”
Nineteen
HE GAVE HER SOME TIME. HE WANTED SOME HIMSELF. When he walked to the door of the bedroom they shared, Gage thought he knew exactly what he needed to say, and how he intended to say it.
Then he opened the door, saw her, and it all slipped away from him.
She stood at the window in a short white robe, with her hair loose, her feet bare. She’d turned the lights off, lighted candles instead. Their glow, the shifting shadows they created suited her perfectly. The look of her, what he felt for her, were twin arrows in the heart.
He closed the door quietly at his back; she didn’t turn. “I was wrong not to pass along the research I found.”
“Yeah, you were.”
“I can make excuses, I can tell you I felt I needed to dig deeper, gather more data, analyze it, verify, and so on. It’s not a lie, but it’s not altogether true.”
“You know this is the way. You know it in your gut, Cybil, the same as I do. If I don’t do this thing, and do it right, it takes us all—and the Hollow with us.”
She said nothing for a moment, but only stood in the candlelight, looking out at the distant hills. “There’s still a smear of sunlight at the very tips of the mountains,” she said. “Just a hint of what’s dying. It’s beautiful. I was standing here, looking out and thinking we’re like that. We still have that little bit of light, the beauty of it. A few more days of that. So it’s important to pay attention to it, to value it.”
“I paid attention to what you said downstairs. I value that.”
“Then you might as well hear what I didn’t say. If you end up being the hero and dying out there in those woods, it’s going to take me a long time to stop being angry with you. I will, eventually, but it’s going to take a good, long time. And after I stop being angry with you—after that . . .” She drew a long breath. “It’s going to take me even longer to get over you.”
“Would you look at me?”
She sighed. “It’s gone now,” she murmured as that smear of light faded into the dark. Then she turned. Her eyes were clear, and so deep he thought they might hold worlds inside them.
“I have things I need to say to you,” he began.
“I’m sure. But there’s something I need to tell you. I’ve been asking myself if it would be better for you if I didn’t tell you, but—”
“You can decide after I say what I have to say. I got an answer on this earlier today from someone whose opinion I respect. So . . .” He slipped his hands into his pockets. If a man had the guts to die, Gage thought, he ought to have the guts to tell a woman what he felt for her.
“I’m not telling you—or not just telling you—because I may not come through this. That’s kind of the springboard for saying it now. But I’d’ve landed here sooner or later. No getting around it.”
“Getting around what?”
“A deal’s a deal for me. But . . . the hell with that.” Annoyance ran over his face, heated his eyes to a burning green. “All bets are off. I like my life. It works for me. What’s the point of changing what works? That’s one thing.”
Intrigued, she angled her head. “I suppose it is.”
“Don’t interrupt.”
Her eyebrows winged up. “Pardon me. I assumed this was a conversation, not a monologue. Should I sit down?”
“Just shut up for two damn minutes.” Frustration only kicked up the annoyance factor. “I’ve got this push-pull thing with the whole destiny deal. No denying it pulls me in, or I’d be a few thousand miles away from here right now. But I’m damned if it pushes me where I don’t want to go.”
“Except you’re here, and not wherever else. Sorry.” She waved a hand when his eyes narrowed in warning. “Sorry.”
“I make up my own mind, and I expect other people to do the same. That’s what I’m saying.” And all at once, he knew exactly what he was saying.
“I’m not here with you because of some grand design dictated before either of us were born. I don’t feel what I feel for you because somebody, or something, decided it would be for the greater good for me to feel it. What’s inside me is mine, Cybil, and it’s in there because of the way you are, the way you sound, the way you smell, you look, you think. It wasn’t what I was after, it’s not what I was looking for, but there it is.”
She stood very still while the candlelight played gold over the dark velvet of her eyes. “Are you trying to tell me you’re in love with me?”
“Would you just be quiet and let me manage this on my own?”
She walked to him. “Let me put it this way. Why don’t you lay your cards on the table?”
He’d had worse hands, he supposed, and walked away a winner. “I’m in love with you, and I’m almost through being annoyed about it.”
Her smile bloomed, beautifully. “That’s interesting. I’m in love with you, and I’m almost through being surprised by it.”
“That is interesting.” He took her face in his hands, said her name once. His lips brushed hers, softly at first, like a wish. Then the kiss deepened. And as her arms hooked around him, there was the warmth, and the rightness of her. Of them. Home, he thought, wasn’t always a place. Sometimes, home was a woman.
“If things were different,” he began, then tightened his grip when she shook her head. “Hear me out. If things were different, or I get really lucky, would you stick with me?”
“Stick with you?” She tipped her head back to study him. “You’re having a hard time with your words tonight. Are you asking me if I’d marry you?”
Obviously thrown off, he drew back a little. “I wasn’t. I was thinking of something less . . . formal. Being together. Traveling, because it’s what we both do. Maybe having a base. You’ve got one already in New York and that could work for me. Or somewhere else. I don’t think we need . . .”
He wanted to be with her, to have her not just in his life, but of his life. Wasn’t marriage putting the chips on the line and letting them ride?
“On the other hand,” he thought out loud, “what the hell, it’s probably not going to be an issue. If I get really lucky, do you want to marry me?”
“Yes, I do. Which probably surprises me as much as it does you. But yes, I do. And I’d like to travel with you—and have you travel with me. I’d like to have a base together, maybe a couple of them. I think we’d be good at it. We’d be good together. Really good.”
“Then that’s a deal.”
“Not yet.” She closed her eyes. “You need to know something first. And that I won’t hold you to your hypothetical proposal if it changes your mind.” She stepped back until they were no longer touching. “Gage. I’m pregnant.” He said nothing, nothing at all. “Sometimes destiny pushes, sometimes it pulls. Sometimes it kicks you in the ass. I’ve had a couple of days to think about this, and—”
Thoughts tumbled inarticulately through his head. Emotions stumbled drunkenly inside his heart. “A couple days.”
“I found out the morning your father was shot. It just . . . I couldn’t tell you.” She took another step back from him. “Chose not to tell you when you were dealing with so much.”
“Okay.” He drew a breath, then walked to the window to stand as she had been. “You’ve had a couple days to think about it. So what do you think?”
“We’ll start globally, because somehow that’s easier. There’s a reason the three of us conceived so closely together—very likely on the same night. You, Cal, and Fox were born at the same time. Ann Hawkins had triplets.”
Her tone was brisk. In his head he saw her standing at a podium, efficiently lecturing the class. What the hell was this?
“Q, Layla, and I share branches on the same family tree. I believe this has happened for a purpose, an additional power that we’ll need to end Twisse.”
When he didn’t speak, she continued. “Your blood, our blood. What’s inside me, Q, Layla, combines that. Part of us, part of the three of you. I believe this is meant.”
He turned then, his face unreadable. “Smart, logical, a little cold-blooded.”
“As you were,” she returned, “when you talked about dying.”
He shrugged. “Let’s shift down from global, Professor. What do you think about two weeks from now, a month from now? When this is over?”
“I don’t expect—”
“Don’t tell me what you expect.” Sparks of anger sizzled along the edges of control. “Tell me what you want. Goddamn it, Cybil, save the lectures and tell me what the hell you want.”
She didn’t flinch at his words, at the tone of them—not outwardly. But he sensed her flinch, sensed her draw back, and away from him.
Let it ride, he told himself. See where the ball drops.
“All right, I’ll tell you what the hell I want.” Though she’d drawn back, it didn’t lessen the power of her punch. “First, what I didn’t want. I didn’t want to find myself pregnant, to deal with something this personal, this important when the rest of everything is in upheaval. But that’s what’s happened. So.”
She angled her head so their eyes were level. “I want to experience this pregnancy. I want to have this child. To give it the best life I possibly can. To be a good mother, hopefully an interesting and creative one. I want to show this child the world. I want to bring my son or daughter back here so he or she knows Quinn’s and Layla’s children, and sees this piece of the world we helped preserve.”
Her eyes gleamed now, tears and anger. “I want you to live, you idiot, so you can have a part of that. And if you’re too stupid or selfish to want a part, then I’d not only expect but demand you peel off some of your winnings every goddamn month so you help support what you helped create. Because I’m carrying part of you, and you’re just as responsible as I am. I don’t just want to make a family, I’m going to. With or without you.”
“You’re going to have the kid whether I live or die.”
“That’s right.”
“You’re going to have it if I happen to live and don’t want any part of being its father, except for a check every month.”
“Yes.”
He nodded. “You’ve had a couple days to think about it. That’s a lot of thinking in a short amount of time.”
“I know my own mind.”
“Tell me about it. Now, do you want to know mine?”
“I’m riveted.”
His lips quirked. If words were fists, he’d be flat on his ass. “I’d like to send you away, tonight. This minute. Get you and what we’ve started in you as far away from here as possible. I’ve never given much thought to having kids. A lot of good reasons for that. Add on that I’m not quite finished being annoyed to find myself in love with you, and handing out hypothetical marriage proposals, and it’s a jam.”
“Tant pis.” She shrugged at his blank stare. “Too bad.”
“Okay. But I can do a lot of thinking in short amounts of time, too. It’s one of my skills. Right now? Right at this moment? I don’t give a flying fuck about global thinking, greater good, destiny. None of it. This is you and me, Cybil, so listen up.”
“It was easier to do that when you didn’t talk so damn much.”
“Apparently I’ve got more to say to you than I used to. That kid—or whatever they call it at this stage—is as much mine as it is yours. If I happen to live past midnight on July seventh, you’re both going to have to deal with that. It’s not going to be you, it’s going to be we. As in, we show him the world, we bring him back here. We give him the best life we can. We make a family. That’s how it’s going to work.”
“Is that so?” Her voice trembled a little, but her eyes stayed level on his. “That being the case, you’re going to have to do better than a hypothetical marriage proposal.”
“We’ll get to that after midnight, July seventh.” He walked to her, touched her cheek, then cautiously laid his hand on her belly. “I guess we didn’t see this one coming.”
“Apparently we didn’t look in the right place.”
He pressed his hand a bit firmer against her. “I’m in love with you.”
Understanding he meant both her and what they’d begun, she laid her hand over his. “I’m in love with you.”
When he lifted her up, she released a watery laugh. And when he sat on the side of the bed, cradling her, she curled in, held on. They both held on.
IN THE MORNING, HE STOOD BY HIS FATHER’S grave. It surprised him how many people had come. Not just his own circle, but people from town—those he knew by name or face, others he couldn’t place. Many came up to speak to him, so he went through the motions, got through it on autopilot.
Then Cy Hudson reached for his hand, shook it hard while giving him a shoulder pat that was a male version of an embrace. “Don’t know what to say to you.” Cy stared at Gage out of his battered face. “I talked to Bill just a couple days before . . . I don’t know what happened. I can’t remember exactly.”
“It doesn’t matter, Cy.”
“The doctor says it’s probably getting hit in the head, and the shock and all scrambled it up in my brain or something. Maybe Bill, maybe he had a brain tumor or something like that, you know? You know how sometimes people do things they wouldn’t, or—”
“I know.”
“Anyway, Jim said how I should take the family on out to the O’Dell place. Seemed like a screwy thing to do, but things are screwy. I guess I will then. If you, well, you know, need anything . . .”
“Appreciate it.” Standing by the grave, Gage watched his father’s killer walk away.
Jim Hawkins stepped up, slid an arm around Gage’s shoulders. “I know you had it rough, for a long time. Rougher and longer than you should’ve. All I’m going to say is you’ve done the right thing here. You’ve done right for everybody.”
“You were more father to me than he was.”
“Bill knew that.”
They drifted away, the people from town, the ones he knew by name or face, or couldn’t quite place. There were businesses to run, lives to get back to, appointments to keep. Brian and Joanne stood by him a moment longer.
“Bill was helping out at the farm the last week or two,” Brian said. “I’ve got some of his tools, some of his things out there, if you want them.”
“No. You should keep them.”
“He did a lot to help us with what we’re doing,” Joanne told Gage. “With what you’re doing. In the end, he did what he could. That counts.” She kissed Gage. “You take care.”
Then it was only the six of them, and the dog who sat patiently at Cal’s feet.
“I didn’t know him. I knew, a little, who he was before she died. I knew, too much, who he was after. But I didn’t know the man I just buried. And I don’t know if I’d have wanted to, even if I’d had the chance. He died for me—for us, I guess. Seems as if that should even it all out.”
He felt something. Maybe it was some shadow of grief, or maybe it was just acceptance. But it was enough. He reached out for a handful of dirt, then let it fall out of his hand onto the casket below. “So. That’s that.”
CYBIL WAITED UNTIL THEY WERE BACK AT CAL’S. “I have something we need to discuss and deal with.”
“You’re all having triplets.” Fox dropped into a chair. “That would put a cap on it.”
“Not so far as I know. I’ve been doing a lot of research on this, but I’ve hesitated to bring it up. Time’s too short for hesitation. We need Gage’s blood.”
“I’m using it right now.”
“You’ll have to spare some. What we did for us after the attack, we need to do for Cal’s and Fox’s families. In their way, they’ll be on the front line. Your antibodies,” she explained. “You survived the demon bite, and there’s a very decent chance you’re immune to its poison.”
“So you’re going to mix up a batch of antidemon venom in the kitchen?”
“I’m good. Not quite that good. We’d use the ritual we used before—the basic blood brothers ritual. Protection,” she reminded Gage. “Your Professor Linz spoke of protection. If Twisse gets past us, or if it’s able to breach the town, or worse, the farm, protection may be all we can offer.”
“There are a lot of other people besides our families,” Cal pointed out. “And I don’t see them circling up to hold bloody hands with Gage.”
“No. But there’s another way. Taking it internally.”
Gage sat up, leaned forward. “You want the population of Hawkins Hollow to drink my blood? Oh yeah, I bet the mayor and town council will jump right on that.”
“They won’t know. There was a reason I put off bringing this up, and this is it.” She sat on the arm of the sofa. “Hear me out. The town has a water supply. The farm has a well. People drink water. The Bowl-a-Rama’s still doing business, selling beer on tap. We wouldn’t cover everyone, but this is the best shot at a broad-based immunization. I think it’s worth a try.”
“We’re down to days left now,” Fox considered. “When we go into the woods we’ll be leaving the Hollow, the farm, all of it. The last time we did that, it was damn near a massacre. I’d feel easier if I knew my family had something—a chance at something. If that something’s Gage’s blood, let’s start pumping.”
“Easy for you to say.” Gage rubbed the back of his neck. “The whole immune thing is a theory.”
“A solid one,” Cybil said, “based on science, and magicks. I’ve looked into both elements, studied all the angles. It could work. And if it doesn’t, we’re no worse off.”
“Except me,” Gage muttered. “How much blood?”
Cybil smiled. “Going with a magickal number, I think three pints ought to do it.”
“Three? And just how are you going to get it out of me?”
“I’ve got that covered. I’ll be right back.”
“My dad gives blood to the Red Cross a few times a year,” Fox commented. “He says it’s no big, and after he gets OJ and a cookie.”
“What kind of cookie?” Gage wanted to know, then looked dubiously at Cybil when she came back in with a shipping carton. “What’s that?”
“Everything we need. Sterile needles, tubing, container bags with anticoagulant, and so on.”
“What?” The thought of what was in the box had his stomach doing a long, slow roll. “Did you go to some vampire site online?”
“I have my sources. Here.” She handed Gage the bottle of water she’d set on top of the box. “It’s better for you if you drink plenty of water before we draw the blood, particularly as we’re going to draw about three times what’s usually taken in a donation.”
He took the bottle, then glanced into the box and winced. “If I’m going to have to slice some part of me open again for the ritual, why can’t we just take it from there.”
“This is more efficient, and tidier.” She smiled at him. “You’re willing to punch a hole in a demon and die, but you’re afraid of a little needle?”
“Afraid is a strong word. I don’t suppose you ever jabbed anyone else with one of those.”
“No, but I’ve been jabbed and I studied the procedure.”
“Oh, oh! Let me do it.” Fox waved a hand.
“No way in hell. She does it.” Gage pointed at Layla, whose mouth dropped open in shock.
“Me? Why? Why?”
“Because of everyone here you’ll worry most about hurting me.” He smiled thinly at Cybil. “I know you, sweetheart. You like it rough.”
“But . . . I don’t want to.”
“Exactly.” Gage nodded at Layla. “Neither do I. That makes us the perfect team.”
“I’ll talk you through it,” Cybil told Layla, and held up a pair of protective gloves.
“Oh, well. Shit. I’m going to go wash my hands first.”
It was surprisingly simple, though Layla—whom he’d seen literally crawl through fire—squealed breathlessly as she slid the needle into his arm. He munched on macadamia nut cookies and drank orange juice—though he’d requested a beer—while Cybil efficiently stowed the three filled bags.
“Thanks to your recuperative powers, we could do this all at once. We’ll give you a little while, then go ahead and do the rituals.”
“The farm should be first. We could swing by there,” Fox calculated, “take care of that.”
“That works. I want to take Lump out there.” Cal glanced at the dog sprawled under the coffee table. “He’s not going in with us this time.”
“We’ll take him out, then go by the Hawkinses’,” Fox said, “then into town. Head out to the water supply from there.” When he reached for a cookie, Gage slapped his hand aside.
“I don’t see your blood in the bag, bro.”
“He’s good,” Fox proclaimed. “Who’s driving?”
IT MIGHT HAVE BEEN A WASTE OF THEIR TIME, efforts, and Gage’s blood. Cybil gnawed on that in the days—and nights—that followed. Everything that had seemed logical, everything she’d been able to document, verify, research, speculate on now seemed completely useless. What had begun for her months before as a fascinating project was now the sum total of everything that mattered. What good was intellect, she thought as she rubbed her exhausted eyes, when Fate twisted what should be into the impossible?
How had time run out? How could that be? Hours now, essentially, she could count in hours the time they had left. Everything she learned, everything she saw, told her that at the end of those hours she would lose the man she loved, the father of her child. She would lose the life they might have made together.
Where were the answers she’d always been so good at finding? Why were they all the wrong ones?
She glanced up as Gage came into the dining room, then put her fingers back on the keyboard though she had no idea what she’d been typing.
“It’s three in the morning,” he told her.
“Yes, I know. There’s a handy little clock in the bottom corner of the screen.”
“You need sleep.”
“I have a pretty good idea what I need.” When he sat down, stretched out his legs, she shot him a single hot look. “And what I don’t need is you sitting there staring at me while I’m trying to work.”
“You’ve been working pretty much around the clock for days now. We’ve got what we’ve got, Cybil. There isn’t any more.”
“There’s always more.”
“One of the things I tripped over when it came to you was your brain. That’s one Grade-A brain you’ve got. The rest of the package gets the big thumbs-up, too, but the brain’s what started the fall for me. Funny, I never gave a damn, before you, if the woman I was hooked up with had the IQ of Marie Curie or an Idaho potato.”
“IQ scales are considered controversial by many, and skewed toward white and middle-class.”
“See.” He tapped a finger in the air. “There you go. Facts and theories at the fingertips. It just kills me. Whatever the scale, you’re one smart woman, Cybil, and you know we’ve got what we’ve got.”
“I also know it ain’t over till the fat lady sings. I’m trying to gather more information about a lost tribe in South America that may have been descended from—”
“Cybil.” He reached out, laid his hand over hers. “Stop.”
“How can I stop? How can you ask me to stop? It’s July fourth, for God’s sake. It’s three hours and twelve minutes into July fourth. We only have now. Tonight, tomorrow, tomorrow night, before we start back to that godforsaken place, and you . . .”
“I love you.” When she covered her face with her free hand and struggled with sobs, he continued to speak. Calm and clear. “That’s a damn big deal for me. Never looked for it, and I sure as hell never expected it to slap me in the face like a two-by-four. But I love you. The old man told me my mother made him a better man. I get that because you make me a better man. I’m not going back to the Pagan Stone for the town. I’m not doing it just for Cal and Fox, or Quinn and Layla. I’m not doing it just for you. I’m doing it for me, too. I need you to understand that. I need you to know that.”
“I do. Accepting it is the problem. I can walk into that clearing with you. I just don’t know how I can walk out without you.”
“I could say something corny about how I’ll always be with you, but neither one of us would buy that. We’ve got to see how the cards fall, then we’ve got to play it out. That’s all there is.”
“I was so sure I’d find the way, find something.” She stared blindly at the computer screen. “Save the day.”
“Looks like that’s going to be my job. Come on. Let’s go to bed.”
She rose, turned into him. “Everything’s so quiet,” she murmured. “The Fourth of July, but there weren’t any fireworks.”
“So we’ll go up and make some, then get some sleep.”
THEY SLEPT, AND THEY DREAMED. IN THE DREAMS, the Pagan Stone burned like a furnace, and flaming blood spat from the sky. In the dreams, the writhing black mass scorched the ground, ignited the trees.
In the dreams, he died. Though she cradled him in her arms and wept over him, he did not come back to her. And even in dreams, her grief burned her heart to ashes.
SHE DIDN’T WEEP AGAIN. CYBIL SHED NO TEARS AS they packed and prepared throughout the day of July fifth. She stood dry-eyed as Cal reported there were already some fires, some looting and violence in town, that his father, Chief Hawbaker, and a handful of others were doing all they could to keep order.
All that could be done had been done. All that could be said had been said.
So on the morning of July sixth, she strapped on her weapons, shouldered her pack like the others. And with the others left the pretty house on the edge of Hawkins Wood to strike out on the path to the Pagan Stone.
It was all familiar now, the sounds, the scents, the way. More shade than there had been weeks before, of course, Cybil thought. More wildflowers, and a thicker chatter from birds, but still much the same. It wouldn’t have been so very different in Ann Hawkins’s time. And the feelings clutched tight inside Ann as she’d left these woods, left the man she loved to his sacrifice, not so different, Cybil imagined, than what was tight in her walking into them.
But at least she would be there, with him, to the end of it.
“My knife’s bigger than yours.” Quinn tapped the scabbard hooked at Cybil’s waist.
“Yours isn’t a knife, it’s a machete.”
“Still, bigger. Bigger than yours, too,” Quinn said to Layla.
“I’m sticking with my froe, just like last time. It’s my lucky froe. How many people can say that?”
They were trying to take her mind off things, Cybil knew.
“Cybil.” The word came in a conspirator’s whisper, and from the left, from the deep green shadows.
When she looked, when she saw, Cybil’s heart simply broke.
“Daddy.”
“It’s not.” Gage stepped back to her, gripped her arm. “You know it’s not.”
When he reached for his gun, Cybil stilled his hand. “I know, I know it’s not my father. But don’t.”
“Don’t you want to come give Daddy a hug?” It spread its arms wide. “Come on, princess! Come give Daddy a great, big kiss!” It bared its sharklike teeth, and laughed. And laughed. Then it raked its own claws down its face, its body, to vanish in a waterfall of black blood.
“That’s entertainment,” Fox said under his breath.
“Poorly staged, overplayed.” Shrugging it off, Cybil took Gage’s hand. Nothing, she promised herself, would shake her. “We’ll take point for a while,” she said, and with Gage walked to the front of the group.
Twenty
THEY’D PLANNED TO STOP FOR REST AT HESTER’S Pool, where the young, mad Hester Deale had drowned herself weeks after giving birth to the child Twisse put inside her. But the water there bubbled red. On its agitated surface, bloated bodies of birds and some small mammals bobbed and floated.
“Not exactly the right ambiance for a quick picnic,” Cal decided. With his hand on Quinn’s shoulder, he leaned over to brush his lips at her temple. “You okay to go another ten minutes before we break?”
“Hey, I’m the three-miles-a-day girl.”
“You’re the pregnant girl. One of them.”
“We’re good,” Layla said, then dug her fingers into Fox’s arm. “Fox.”
Something rose out of the churning water. Head, neck, shoulders, the dirty red sludge of the pond, dripping, running. Torso, hips, legs, until it stood on the churning surface as it might a platform of stone.
Hester Deale, bearer of the demon’s seed, damned by madness, dead centuries and by her own hand, stared out of wild and ravaged eyes.
“You’ll birth them screaming, demons all. You are the damned, and his seed is cold. So cold. My daughters.” Her arms spread. “Come, join me. Spare yourselves. I’ve waited for you. Take my hand.”
What she held out was brittle with bone, stained with red.
“Let’s go.” Fox put his arm firmly around Layla’s waist, drew her away. “Crazy doesn’t stop with death.”
“Don’t leave me here! Don’t leave me here alone!”
Quinn glanced back once, with pity. “Was it her, or another of Twisse’s masks?”
“It’s her. It’s Hester.” Layla didn’t look back. Couldn’t. “I don’t think Twisse can take her form—or Ann’s. They’re still a presence, so it can’t mimic them. Do you think when we finish this, she’ll be able to rest?”
“I believe it.” Cybil looked back, watched Hester—weeping now—sink back into the pool. “She’s part of us. What we’re doing is for her, too.”
They didn’t stop at all. Whether it was nerves, adrenaline, or the Nutter Butters and Little Debbies Fox passed around, they kept hiking until they’d reached the clearing. The Pagan Stone stood silent. Waiting.
“It didn’t try to stop us,” Cal pointed out. “Barely messed with us.”
“It didn’t want to waste the energy.” Cybil peeled off her pack. “Storing it up. And it thinks it destroyed the one weapon we had. Bastard’s feeling cocky.”
“Or like the last time we came here on the eve of a Seven, it’s hitting the town.” Cal pulled out his cell phone, punched the key for his father’s. His face, his eyes were grim when he flipped it back closed. “Nothing but static.”
“Jim Hawkins will kick demon ass.” Quinn put her arms around Cal. “Like father, like son.”
“Fox and I could try to see,” Layla began, but Cal shook his head.
“No, nothing we can do. Not there, not at the farm. And there’s something to be said for saving our energies. Let’s set up.”
In short order Gage dumped an armload of wood near Cybil as she unpacked provisions. “Seems superfluous. If we wait a few hours, there’ll be plenty of fire.”
“This is our fire. An important distinction.” Cybil lifted a thermos. “Want some coffee?”
“For once, no. I’m going to have a beer.” He looked around as he opened one. “Funny, but I’d feel a lot better if it had come after us, like last time. Bloody rain, lashing wind, bone-snapping cold. That bit with your father—”
“Yes, I know. It was like a tip of the hat. Have a nice walk, catch you later. Arrogance is a weakness, one we’ll make sure it regrets.”
He took her hand. “Come here a minute.”
“We need to build the fire,” she began as he drew her to the edge of the clearing.
“Cal’s the Boy Scout. He’ll do it. There’s not a lot of time left.” He put his hands on her shoulders, ran them down her arms, up again. “I’ve got a favor to ask you.”
“It’s a good time to ask for one. But you’ll have to live to make sure I followed through.”
“I’ll know. If it’s a girl . . .” He saw the tears swim into her eyes, watched her will them back. “I want Catherine for her middle name—for my mother. I always felt first names should belong to the kid, but the middle one . . .”
“Catherine for your mother. That’s a very easy favor.”
“If it’s a boy, I don’t want you to name him after me. No juniors or any crap like that. Pick something, and put your father’s name in the middle. That’s it. And, make sure he knows—or she, whichever—not to be a sucker. You don’t draw to an inside straight, don’t bet what you can’t afford to lose and—”
“Should I be writing this down?”
He gave her hair a tug. “You’ll remember. Give him these.” Gage pulled a deck of cards out of his pocket. “The last hand I played with this deck? Four aces. So it’s lucky.”
“I’ll hold them, until after. I have to believe—you have to let me believe—you’ll be able to give them to him yourself.”
“Fair enough.” He put his hands on her face, skimmed his fingers up into her hair, curled them there as he brought his lips down to hers. “You’re the best thing that ever came my way.” He kissed her hands, then looked into her eyes. “Let’s get this done.”
Step by step, Cybil told herself. The fire, the stone, the candles, the words. The circle of salt. Fox had turned on a little boom box so there was music. That, too, was a step in Cybil’s opinion. We whistle while we work, you bastard.
“Tell me what you need from me.” Quinn spoke quietly as she helped Cybil arrange more candles on the table of the stone.
“Believe we’ll end it—that he’ll end it. And live.”
“Then I will. I do. Look at me, Cybil. No one, not even Cal knows me like you. I believe.”
“So do I.” Layla stepped up, laid her hand over Cybil’s. “I believe it.”
“There, you see.” Quinn closed her hand over the two of theirs. “Three pregnant women can’t be . . . Whoa, what was that?”
“It . . . moved.” Layla glanced up at both of them. “Didn’t it?”
“Shh. Wait.” Spreading her fingers over the stone under Layla’s and Quinn’s, Cybil fought to feel. “It’s heating, and it’s vibrating. Like it’s breathing.”
“The first time Cal and I touched it together, it warmed,” Quinn said. “And then we were slapped back a few hundred years. If we could focus, maybe there’s something we’re supposed to see.”
Without warning, the wind lashed out, hard, slapping hands, and knocked all three of them to the ground.
“Show time,” Fox called out as black, pulsing clouds rolled across the sky toward the setting sun.
IN TOWN JIM HAWKINS HELPED CHIEF HAWBAKER drag a screaming man into the Bowl-a-Rama. Jim’s face was bloody, his shirt torn, and he’d lost one of his shoes in the scuffle out on Main Street. The alleys echoed with the screams, wails, the gibbering laughter of more than a dozen they’d already pulled in and restrained.
“We’re going to run out of rope.” Favoring his throbbing arm where the man who’d taught his son U.S. history sank his teeth, Hawbaker secured the rope and the now-giggling teacher to a ball return. “Christ Jesus, Jim.”
“A few more hours.” Air wheezed in and out of Jim’s lungs as he dropped down, mopped at his streaming face. They had half a dozen people locked into the old library, a scattering of others secured in what Cal told him were other safe zones. “We’ve just got to hold things a few more hours.”
“There are hundreds of people left in town. And a handful of us still in our right mind that aren’t burrowed in somewhere, hiding. Fire at the school, another in the flower shop, two more residential.”
“They got them out.”
“This time.” Outside something crashed. Hawbaker gained his feet, drew out his service revolver.
Inside Jim’s chest, his already laboring heart sprinted. Then Hawbaker turned the gun, holding it butt first toward Jim. “You need to take this.”
“Shit fire, Wayne. Why?”
“My head’s pounding. Like something’s beating on it trying to get in.” As he spoke, Hawbaker wiped at his face, shiny with sweat. “If it does, I want you holding the weapon. I want you to take care of it. Take care of me if you have to.”
Jim got slowly to his feet and with considerable care, took the gun. “The way I look at it? Anybody doing what we’ve been doing the last couple hours is bound to have the mother of all headaches. I’ve got some Extra-Strength Tylenol behind the grill.”
Hawbaker stared at Jim, then burst out laughing, laughed until his sides ached. “Sure, hell. Tylenol.” Laughed until his eyes ran wet. Until he felt human. “That’ll do her.” At the next crash, he looked toward the doors and sighed. “You’d better bring the whole bottle.”
“IT BROUGHT THE NIGHT,” CAL SHOUTED AS THE wind tore at them with frozen hands. Outside the circle, snakes writhed, biting, devouring each other until they burned to cinders.
“Among other things.” Quinn hefted the machete, ready to slice at anything that got through.
“We can’t move on it yet.” Gage watched a three-headed dog pace the clearing, snapping, snarling. “It’s trying to draw us out, to sucker us in.”
“It’s not really here.” Fox shifted to try to block Layla from the worst of the wind, but it came from everywhere. “This is just . . . echoes.”
“Really loud echoes.” Layla clamped a hand on the handle of her froe.
“It’s stronger in the dark. Always stronger in the dark.” Gage watched the huge black dog pace, wondered if it was worth a bullet. “And stronger during the Seven. We’re nearly there.”
“Stronger now than ever. But we don’t take sucker bets.” Cybil bared her teeth in a grin. “And we’re going to draw it in.”
“If it’s in town now, if it’s this strong and in town . . .”
“They’ll hold it.” Cybil watched a rat, plump as a kitten, leap on the dog’s ridged back. “And we’ll reel it in.”
Fox’s phone beeped. “Can’t read the display. It’s black. Before he could flip it open, the voices poured out. Screaming, sobbing, calling his name. His mother’s, his father’s, dozens of others.
“It’s a lie,” Layla shouted. “Fox, it’s a lie.”
“I can’t tell.” He lifted desperate eyes to hers. “I can’t tell.”
“It’s a lie.” Before he could stop her, Layla snatched the phone, hurled it away.
With a long, appreciative whistle, Bill Turner walked out of the woods. “Sign her up! Bitch’s got an arm on her. Hey, you useless little piece of shit. I got something for you.” He snapped the belt held in his hands. “Come on out and take it like a man.”
“Hey, asshole!” Cybil elbowed Gage aside. “He died like a man. You won’t. You’ll die squealing.”
“Don’t taunt the demon, sugar,” Gage told her. “Positive human emotions, remember.”
“Damn. You’re right. I’ll give you a positive human emotion.” She spun around and in the mad wind yanked Gage to her for a deep, drowning kiss.
“I’m saving you for dessert!” The thing in Bill’s form shifted, changed. She heard her father’s voice boom out now. “What I plant in you will rip and claw to be born.”
She closed her mind to it, poured the love she felt—so strong, so new—into Gage. “It doesn’t know,” she whispered against his mouth.
The wind died; the world fell silent. She thought: Eye of the storm, and took a breath. “It doesn’t know,” she repeated, and touched her fingers lightly to her belly. “It’s one of the answers we never found. It has to be. Another way, if we can figure out how to use it.”
“We’ve got a little over an hour left until eleven thirty—that hour of light before midnight.” Cal looked up at the pure black sky. “We have to get started.”
“You’re right. Let’s light the candles while we can.” And she’d pray the answer would come in time.
Once again the candles burned. Once again the knife that had joined three boys as brothers drew blood, and those wounded hands clasped firm. But this time, Cybil thought, they weren’t three, they weren’t six—but the potential of nine.
On the Pagan Stone six candles burned, one to represent each other, and a seventh to symbolize their single purpose. Inside that ring of fire three small white candles flickered for the lights they’d sparked.
“It’s coming.” Gage looked into Cybil’s eyes.
“How do you know?”
“He’s right.” Cal glanced at Fox, got a nod, then leaned over to kiss Quinn. “No matter what, stay inside the circle.”
“I’ll stay in as long as you do.”
“Let’s not fight, kids,” Fox said before Cal could argue. “Time’s a wasting.”
He leaned over, kissed Layla hard. “Layla, you’re my it. Quinn, Cybil, you go into the small and exclusive club of the best women I know. You guys? I wouldn’t change a minute of the last thirty-one years. So when we come through the other side of this, we’ll exchange manly handshakes. I’m going for big, sloppy kisses from the women, with a little something extra from my it.”
“Is that your closing?” Gage demanded. The stone tucked in his pocket weighed like lead. “I’m taking big, sloppy kisses all around. One in advance.” He grabbed Cybil. If his life had come down to minutes, he was taking the taste of her into the dark. He felt her hand fist on his shirt—a strong, possessive grip. Then she let him go.
“Just a down payment,” she told him. With her face pale and set, she drew both her weapons. “I feel it now, too. It’s close.”
From somewhere in the bowels of the black woods, it roared. Trees trembled, then lashed at each other like enemies. At the edges of the clearing, fire sputtered, sparked, then spewed.
“Bang, bang, on the door, baby,” Quinn murmured, and had Cal gawking at her.
“‘Love Shack’?”
“I don’t know why that popped in my head,” she began, but Fox started laughing like a loon.
“Perfect! Knock a little louder, sugar,” he sang out.
“Oh God. Bang, bang, on the door, baby,” Layla repeated, and unsheathed her froe.
“Come on,” Fox demanded, “put something behind it. I can’t hear you.”
As the fire gushed, as the stench of what came poured over the air, they sang. Foolish, maybe, Gage thought. But it was so in-your-face, so utterly and humanly defiant. Could do worse, he decided, could do a hell of a lot worse as a battle cry.
The sky hemorrhaged bloody rain that spat and sizzled on the ground, casting up a fetid haze of smoke. Through that smoke it came, while in the woods trees crashed and the wind howled like a thousand tortured voices.
The boy stood in the clearing.
It should have been ludicrous. It should, Gage thought, have been laughable. Instead it was horrible. And when the smiling child opened its mouth, the sound that ripped from it filled the world.
Still, they sang.
Gage fired, saw the bullets punch into flesh, saw the blackened blood ooze. Its scream tore gullies in the ground. Then it flew, spinning in blurry circles that spiraled smoke and dirt into a choking cloud. It changed. Boy to dog, dog to snake, snake to man, all whirling, coiling, screaming. Not its true form. The stone was useless until it took its true form.
“Bang, bang, bang,” Cal shouted, and leaped out of the circle to slash, and slash, and slash with his knife.
Now it shrieked, and however inhuman the sound, there was both pain and fury in it. With a nod, Gage slipped the bloodstone out of his pocket, set it in the center of the burning candles.
As one, they rushed out of the circle, and into hell.
Blood and fire. One fell, one rose. The fierce cold bit like teeth, and the stinking smoke scored the throat. Behind them, in the center of the circle, the Pagan Stone flashed, then boiled in flame.
He saw something strike out of the smoke, rip across Cal’s chest. Even as his friend staggered, Fox was rushing in, hacking at what was no longer there. Fox called out to Layla, shoved her down. This time Gage saw claws slice out of the smoke, and miss Layla’s face by inches.
“It’s playing with us,” Gage shouted. Something leaped onto his back, sank its teeth into him. He tried to buck it off, to roll. Then the weight was gone and Cybil stood with her knife black with blood.
“Let it play,” she said coldly. “I like it rough, remember?”
He shook his head. “Fall back. Everybody, back inside!”
Shoving to his feet, he all but dragged her into the circle where the Pagan Stone ran with fire.
“We’re hurting it.” Layla dropped to her knees to catch her breath. “I can feel its pain.”
“Not enough.” They were all bloody, Gage thought. Every one of them splashed or stained with blood—its and their own. And time was running out. “We can’t take it this way. There’s only one way.” He put his hand on Cybil’s until she lowered her knife. “When it takes its true form.”
“It’ll kill you before you have a chance to kill yourself! At least when we’re fighting it, we’re giving it pain, we’re weakening it.”
“No, we’re not.” Fox rubbed his stinging eyes. “We’re just entertaining it. Maybe distracting it a little. I’m sorry.”
“But . . .” Distracting it. Cybil looked back at the Pagan Stone. That was theirs. She believed that. Had to believe it. It had responded when she, Quinn, and Layla had laid hands on it together.
Dropping her knife—what good was it now?—she spun to the Pagan Stone. Holding her breath, she plunged a hand through the flame to lay it on the burning altar. “Quinn! Layla!”
“What the hell are you doing?” Gage demanded.
“Distracting it. And I sincerely hope pissing it off.” In the fire was heat, but no burn. This, she thought, wild with hope, was an answer. “It doesn’t know.” She placed her free hand on her belly as the spearing fire illuminated her face. “This is power. It’s light. It’s us. Q, please.”
Without a moment’s hesitation, Quinn shot her hand through the fire, laid it on Cybil’s. “It’s moving!” Quinn called out. “Layla.”
But Layla was already there, and her hand closed over theirs.
It sang, Cybil thought. In her head she heard the stone sing in thousands of pure voices. The flame that shot up from the center of the stone was blinding white. Beneath them, the ground began to shake, a sudden and furious violence.
“Don’t let go,” Cybil called out. What had she done? she thought as her eyes blurred with tears. Oh God, what had she done.
Looking through that white shaft of flame, she met Gage’s eyes. “You’re one smart cookie,” he said.
In the clearing, through the smoke, in the smoke, of the smoke, the black formed—and its hate of the light, its fury toward its radiance spewed into the air. Arms, legs, head—it was impossible to know—bulged. Eyes, eerily green, rimmed with red blinked open by the score. It grew, rolling and rising until it consumed both earth and sky. Grew until there was only the dark, the red walls of flames. And its hungry wrath.
She heard its scream of rage in her head, knew the others did, too.
I’ll rip it squalling from your belly and drink it like wine.
Now, Cybil thought, now it knew.
“It’s time. Don’t let go.” The stone shook under her hand, but her eyes never left Gage. “Don’t let go.”
“I don’t plan to.” He shot his hand through the fire, clutched the flaming bloodstone.
Then he turned away from her. Even then her face was in his mind. For one last moment, he stood linked with Cal and Fox. Brothers, he thought, start to finish. “Now or never,” he said. “Take care of what’s mine.”
And with the bloodstone vised in his fist, he leaped into the black.
“No. No, no, no.” Cybil’s tears fell through the flame to pool on the stone.
“Hang on.” Quinn clutched her hand tighter, locked an arm around her for support. On the other side, Layla did the same.
“I can’t see him,” Layla called out. “I can’t see him. Fox!”
He came to her, and with nothing left but instinct and grief, both he and Cal laid hands on the stone. The black roared, its eyes rolled with what might have been pleasure.
“It’s not going to take him, not like this.” Cal shouted over the storm of sound. “I’m going after him.”
“You can’t.” Cybil choked back a sob. “This is what he needs to finish it. This is the answer. Don’t let go, of the stone, of each other. Of Gage. Don’t let go.”
Through the rain sliced a bolt of light. And the world quaked.
IN THE HOLLOW, JIM HAWKINS COLLAPSED ON THE street. Beside him, Hawbaker shielded his eyes from a sudden burst of light. “Did you hear that?” Jim demanded, but his voice was swallowed in the din. “Did you hear that?”
They knelt in the center of Main Street, washed in the brilliance, and clutched each other like drunks.
At the farm, Brian held his wife’s hand as hundreds of people stood in his fields staring at the sky. “Jesus, Jo, Jesus. The woods are on fire. Hawkins Woods.”
“It’s not fire. Not just fire,” she said as her throat throbbed. “It’s . . . something else.”
At the Pagan Stone, the rain turned to fire, and the fire turned to light. Those sparks of light struck the black to sizzle, to smoke. Its eyes began to wheel now, not in hunger or pleasure, but in shock, in pain, and in fury.
“He’s doing it,” Cybil murmured. “He’s killing it.” Even through her grief, she felt stunning pride. “Hold on to him. We have to hold on to him. We can bring him back.”
SENSATION WAS ALL HE HAD. PAIN, SOMETHING SO far above agony it had no name. Ferocious cold bound by intolerable heat. Thousands of claws, thousands of teeth tore and ripped at him—each wound a separate, searing misery. His own blood burned under his broken skin, and its blood coated him like oil.
Around him, the dark closed in, squeezing him in a terrible embrace so he waited to feel his own ribs snap. In his ears sounds seemed to boil—screeches, screams, laughter, pleas.
Was it eating him alive? Gage wondered.
Still he crawled and shoved through the quivering wet mass, gagging on the stench, wheezing for what little dirty air was left to him. In the heat, what was left of his shirt smoked. In the cold, his fingers numbed.
This, he thought, was hell.
And there, up there, that pulsing black mass with its burning red eye, was the heart of hell.
With his strength draining, with it simply leaking out of him like water through a sieve, he struggled for another inch, still another. Dozens of images tumbled through his brain. His mother, holding his hand as they walked across a green summer field. Cal and Gage plowing toy cars through the sand of a sandbox Brian had built at the farm. Riding bikes with them along Main Street. Pressing bloody wrists together by the campfire. Cybil, casting that sultry look over her shoulder. Moving to him. Moving under him. Weeping for him.
Nearly over, he thought. Life flashing in front of my eyes. So fucking tired. Going numb. Going out. Nearly done. And the light, he mused, dizzy now. Tunnel of light. Fucking cliché.
Cards on the table now. He felt—thought he felt—the bloodstone vibrate in his hand. As he reared back, it shot fire through his clutched fingers.
The light washed white, blinding him. In his mind, he saw a figure. The man closed his hands over his. Eyes, clear and gray, looked into his.
It is not death. My blood, her blood, our blood. Its end in the fire.
Their joined hands plunged the stone into the heart of the beast.
In the clearing, the explosion knocked Cybil off her feet. The rush of heat rolled over her, sent her tumbling like a pebble in an angry surf. The light blazed like the sun, dazzling her eyes before throwing everything into sharp relief. For a moment the woods, the stone, the sky were a single sheet of fire, and in the next stood utterly still, like the negative of a photograph.
At the edge of the clearing two figures shimmered—a man and a woman locked in a desperate embrace. In a fingersnap they were gone, and the world moved again.
A rush of wind, a last throaty call of flame, the smoke that crawled along the ground, then faded as that ground burgeoned up, swallowed it. When the wind died to a quiet breeze, the fire guttering out, she saw Gage lying motionless on that ruined earth.
She pushed up to run to him, dropping down to lay her trembling fingers at his throat. “I can’t find a pulse!” So much blood. His face, his body looked as if he’d been torn to pieces.
“Come on, goddamn it.” Cal knelt, gripped one of Gage’s hands as Fox took the other. “Come back.”
“CPR,” Layla said, and Quinn was already straddling Gage, crossing her hands over his chest to pump.
Cybil started to tip his head back to begin mouth-to-mouth. And saw the Pagan Stone was still sheathed in fire, pure and white. There. She had seen him there.
“Get him on the stone. On the altar. Hurry, hurry.”
Cal and Fox carried him—bloodied and lifeless—to lay him on the simmering white flames. “Blood and fire,” Cybil repeated, kissing his hand, then his lips. “I had a dream—I got it wrong, that’s all. All of you on the stone, like I’d killed you, and Gage coming out of the dark to kill me. Ego, that’s all. Please, Gage, please. Just my ego. Not me, not about me. All of us around the stone, and Gage coming out of the dark after killing it. “Please come back. Please.”
She pressed her lips to his again, willing him to breathe. Her tears fell on his face. “Death isn’t the answer. Life’s the answer.”
She laid her lips on his again and his moved against hers.
“Gage! He’s breathing. He’s—”
“We’ve got him.” Cal squeezed his hand on Gage’s hand. “We’ve got you.”
His eyes fluttered open, and met Cybil’s. “I—I got lucky.”
On a shudder, Cybil laid her head on his chest, listened to the beat of his heart. “We all did.”
“Hey, Turner.” With his grin huge, Fox leaned over so Gage could see his face. “You owe me a thousand dollars. Happy fucking birthday.”
Epilogue
HE WOKE ALONE IN BED, WHICH HE FIGURED WAS a damn shame since he felt nearly normal again. The sun blasted through the windows. He’d probably been out for hours, Gage thought. And small wonder. Dying took a lot out of a man.
He couldn’t remember much of the trip back. The entire trip had been one of those “one foot in front of the other” ordeals, and with several stints of that made with his arms slung around Fox’s and Cal’s shoulders. But he’d wanted to get the hell back—all of them had.
He’d been weak as a baby, that much he remembered. So weak even after they’d gotten back to the house that Cal and Fox had had to help him shower off the blood and dirt, and Christ only knew what he’d brought back from hell with him.
But it no longer hurt to breathe—a good sign. And when he sat up, nothing spun. When he got to his feet, the floor stayed steady and nothing inside him wept with pain. Taking a moment to be sure he remained upright, he glanced at the scar across his wrist, then explored the one on his shoulder with his fingertips.
The light, and the dark. He’d carried both in with him.
He pulled on jeans and a shirt to go downstairs.
The front door was open, letting in more sunshine and a nice summer breeze. He spotted Cal and Fox on the front deck, with Lump laid out between their chairs. When he stepped out, both of them grinned at him—and Fox flipped the top of the cooler that sat beside him, took out a beer, offered it.
“Read my mind.”
“Can do.” Fox rose, as did Cal. They tapped bottles, drank.
“Kicked its ass,” Fox said.
“That we did.”
“Glad you’re not dead,” Cal added.
“So you said a couple dozen times on the way back.”
“I wasn’t sure you remembered. You were in and out.”
“I’m in now. The Hollow?”
“My dad, Hawbaker, a few others, they held it during the worst. It got bad,” Cal added, staring out at his front gardens. “Fires, looting—”
“Your usual random acts of violence,” Fox continued. “There are some people in the hospital, others who’ll have to decide if they want to rebuild. But Jim Hawkins. Hero time.”
“He’s got a broken hand, some cuts, and a lot of bruises, but he came through. The farm, too,” Cal told him. “We went out to check on things, pick up Lump, and swung through town while you were getting your beauty sleep. It could’ve been a lot worse. Hell, it has been a lot worse. No new fatalities. Not a single one. The Hollow owes you, brother.”
“Shit, it owes all of us.” Gage tipped back his beer. “But yeah, especially me.”
“Speaking of owing,” Fox reminded him. “That’ll be a grand—for each of us.”
Gage lowered his beer, grinned. “It’s one bet I don’t mind losing.” Then staggered back when Fox threw an arm around him, and kissed him square on the mouth.
“Changed my mind about the manly handshake.”
“Jesus, O’Dell.” Even as Gage lifted a hand, Cal moved in and repeated the gesture. Laughing now, Gage swiped a hand over his mouth. “Good thing nobody saw that, or I’d have to deck you both.”
“Twenty-one years is a long time to say this, and mean it.” Cal lifted his beer again. “Happy birthday to us.”
“Fucking A.” Fox lifted his.
As Gage tapped bottles, Quinn and Layla stepped out. “There he is. Pucker up, handsome.”
When Quinn grabbed him, planted one on, Gage nodded. “Now that’s what I’m talking about.”
“My turn.” Layla elbowed Quinn aside, pressed her lips to Gage’s. “Are you up for a party?”
“Could be.”
“We’ve got Fox’s family and Cal’s on hold. We’ll give them a call if you’re up for it.”
A birthday party, he thought. Yeah, it had been a hell of a long time. “That’d be good.”
“Meanwhile, there’s someone in the kitchen who’d like to see you.”
She wasn’t in the kitchen, but out on the back deck, alone. When he walked out, she turned. And everything he needed bloomed on her face. Then she was in his arms, hers locked tight around him as he swung her in a circle.
“We did okay,” he told her.
“We did just fine.”
When he lowered her, he kissed the bruise on her temple. “How banged up are you?”
“Not very, which is another small miracle in a streak of them. I’ve become a fan of Fate again.”
“Dent. It was Dent in there with me.”
She brushed back his hair, traced her fingers over his face, his shoulders. “You told us a little. You were pretty weak, a little delirious at times.”
“I was going to make it—I mean finish it. I felt that. I knew that. But that was going to be it, that was all I had left. Then there was the light—a shaft of it, then, Jesus, an explosion of it. A nova of it.”
“We saw it, too.”
“I saw Dent—in my head. Or I think in my head. I had the stone in my hand. It was on fire, flames just shooting between my fingers. It started to—it sounds crazy.”
“Sing,” she finished. “It sang. Both stones sang.”
“Yeah, it sang. A thousand voices. I felt Dent’s hand close over mine. Mine over the stone, his over mine. I felt . . . linked. You know what I mean.”
“Yes, exactly.”
“‘It is not death.’ That’s what he said to me, then we punched the stone right into the heart. I heard it scream, Cybil. I heard it scream, and I felt it . . . implode. From the heart out. Then that’s it until I came back. Not like last time, when the bastard bit me. This was like cruising on a really good drug.”
“The light tore through it,” she told him. “I’d have to say vaporized it. It’s the closest I can come. Gage, I saw them, for just a moment—less than a moment. I saw Giles Dent and Ann Hawkins holding each other. I saw them together, I felt them together. And I understood.”
“What?”
“It was to be his sacrifice all along. He needed us, and he needed you to willingly offer. For you to take the stone in, knowing it would be your life. Because we did what we’ve done, because you were willing to give your life, he could give his instead. It is not death, he told Ann, and us, and you. He existed still, all these years. And last night, through us, through you, he was the sacrifice demanded to end it. He could finally let go. He’s with Ann now, and they’re—cliché time—at peace. We all are.”
“It’s going to take a while to get used to. But I’m all about trying.” He took her hand. “I figure this. We stick around for a couple of days, until everything settles down. Then we’ll take off for a couple of weeks. The way my luck’s running, I figure I can win enough to buy you a ring the size of a door-knob, if you like the idea.”
“I do, if that’s an actual proposal rather than a hypothetical.”
“How’s this for actual? Let’s get married in Vegas. We can talk everyone who matters into going out for it.”
“In Vegas.” She cocked her head, then laughed. “I don’t know why, but that sounds absolutely perfect. You’re on.” She took his face in her hands, kissed him. “Happy birthday.”
“I keep hearing that.”
“Expect to hear it more. I baked you a cake.”
“No joke?”
“A seven-layer cake—as promised. I love you, Gage.” She slid into his arms. “I love everything about you.”
“I love you, too. I’ve got a woman who’s ready to get married in Vegas, bakes cakes, and has brains. I’m a lucky guy.”
He laid his cheek on the top of her head, holding on while he looked out to the woods where the beaten path led to the Pagan Stone.
And at the end of the path, past Hester’s Pool, where the water flowed cool and clean, the once-scorched earth of the clearing greened again. On the new ground, the Pagan Stone stood silent in the streaming sun.
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ACCORDING TO LEGEND, STEVE MCQUEEN ONCE swam buck-naked among the cattails and lily pads in the pond at the Little Farm. If true, and Cilla liked to think it was, the King of Cool had stripped off and dived in post The Magnificent Seven and prior to The Great Escape.
In some versions of the legend, Steve had done more than cool off on that muggy summer night in Virginia—and he’d done the more with Cilla’s grandmother. Though they’d both been married to other people at the time, the legend carried more cheer than disdain. And since both parties were long dead, neither could confirm or deny.
Then again, Cilla thought as she studied the murky water of the lily-choked pond, neither had bothered—as far as she could ascertain—to confirm or deny while they’d had the chance.
True or false, she imagined Janet Hardy—the glamorous, the tragic, the brilliant, the troubled—had enjoyed the buzz. Even icons had to get their kicks somewhere.
Standing in the yellow glare of sun with the dulling bite of March chilling her face, Cilla could see it perfectly. The steamy summer night, the blue wash from the spotlight moon. The gardens would’ve been at their magnificent peak and stunning the air with fragrance. The water would’ve been so cool and silky on the skin, the color of chamomile tea with pink and white blossoms strung over it like glossy pearls.
Janet would have been at her stunning peak as well, Cilla mused. The spun-gold of her hair tumbling free, spilling over white shoulders . . . No, those would have been spun-gold, too, from her summer tan. Gilded shoulders in the tea-colored water, and her arctic blue eyes bright with laughter—and most likely a heroic consumption of liquor.
Music darting and sparkling through the dark, like the fireflies that flashed over the fertile fields, the velvet lawns, Cilla imagined. The voices from the weekend guests who wandered over the property, the porches and patios as bright as the music. Stars as luminous as the ones that gleamed overhead like little jewels scattered away from that spotlight moon.
Dark pockets of shadows, streaming colored lights from lanterns.
Yes, it would’ve been like that. Janet’s world had been one of brilliant light and utter dark. Always.
Cilla hoped she’d dived into that pond, unapologetically naked, drunk and foolish and happy. And utterly unaware that her crowded, desperate, glorious life would end barely a decade later.
Before turning away from the pond, Cilla listed it in her thick notebook. It would need to be cleaned, tested, and ecologically balanced. She made another note to read up on pond management and maintenance before she attempted to do so, or hire an expert.
Then the gardens. Or what was left of them, she thought as she crossed through the high, lumpy grass. Weeds, literal blankets of vines, overgrown shrubs with branches poking through the blankets like brown bones, marred what had once been simply stupendous. Another metaphor, she supposed, for the bright and beautiful choked off and buried in the grasping.
She’d need help with this part, she decided. Considerable help. However much she wanted to put her back into this project, get her hands into it, she couldn’t possibly clear and hack, slash and burn, and redesign on her own.
The budget would have to include a landscaping crew. She noted down the need to study old photographs of the gardens, to buy some books on landscaping to educate herself, and to contact local landscapers for bids.
Standing, she scanned the ruined lawns, the sagging fences, the sad old barn that stood soot gray and scarred from weather. There had been chickens once—or so she’d been told—a couple of pretty horses, tidy fields of crops, and a small, thriving grove of fruit trees. She wanted to believe—maybe needed to believe—she could bring all that back. That by the next spring, and all the springs after, she could stand here and look at all the budding, the blooming, the business of what had been her grandmother’s.
Of what was now hers.
She saw how it was, and how it once had been through her own arctic blue eyes shaded by the bill of a Rock the House ball cap. Her hair, more honey than gold dust, was threaded through the back of the cap in a long, messy tail. She wore a thick hooded sweatshirt over strong shoulders and a long torso, faded jeans over long legs, and boots she’d bought years before for a hiking trip through the Blue Ridge Mountains. The same mountains that rolled up against the sky now.
Years ago, she thought. The last time she’d come east, come here. And when, she supposed, the seeds for what she would do now had been planted.
Didn’t that make the last four—or was it five—years of neglect at least partially her doing? She could’ve pushed sooner, could have demanded. She could have done something.
“Doing it now,” she reminded herself. She wouldn’t regret the delay any more than she would regret the manipulation and bitter arguments she’d used to force her mother to sign over the property.
“Yours now, Cilla,” she told herself. “Don’t fuck it up.”
She turned, braced herself, then made her way through the high grass and brambles to the old farmhouse where Janet Hardy had hosted sparkling parties, or where she had escaped to between roles. And where in 1973, on another steamy summer night, she’d taken her own life.
So claimed the legend.
THERE WERE GHOSTS. SENSING THEM WAS NEARLY as exhausting as evaluating the ramshackle three stories, facing the grime, the dust, the disheartening disrepair. Ghosts, Cilla supposed, had kept the vandalism and squatting to a minimum. Legends, she thought, had their uses.
She’d had the electricity turned back on, and had brought plenty of lightbulbs along with what she’d hoped would be enough cleaning supplies to get her started. She’d applied for her permits, and researched local contractors.
Now it was time to start something.
Lining up her priorities, she tackled the first of the four bathrooms that hadn’t seen a scrub brush in the last six years.
And she suspected the last tenants hadn’t bothered overmuch with such niceties during their stint.
“Could be more disgusting,” she muttered as she scraped and scrubbed. “Could be snakes and rats. And, God, shut up. You’re asking for them.”
After two sweaty hours and emptying countless buckets of filthy water, she thought she could risk using the facilities without being inoculated first. Chugging bottled water, she headed down the back stairs to have a whack at the big farmhouse kitchen next. And eyeing the baby blue on white laminate on the stubby counters, she wondered whose idea that update had been, and why they’d assumed it would suit the marvelous old O’Keefe & Merritt range and Coldspot refrigerator.
Aesthetically, the room was over the line of hideous, but making it sanitary had to take precedence.
She braced the back door open for ventilation, tugged rubber gloves back on, and, very gingerly, opened the oven door.
“Oh, crap.”
While the best part of a can of oven cleaner went to work, she tackled the oven racks, the burners, the stove top, and the hood. A photograph flitted through her memory. Janet, a frilly apron over a wasp-waisted dress, sunlit hair pulled back in a sassy tail, stirring something in a big pot on the stove. Smiling at the camera while her two children looked on adoringly.
Publicity shoot, Cilla remembered. For one of the women’s magazines. Redbook or McCall’s. The old farmhouse stove, with its center grill, had sparkled like new hope. It would again, Cilla vowed. One day she’d stir a pot on that same stove—with probably as much faked competence as her grandmother.
She started to squat down to check the oven cleaner, then yipped in surprise when she heard her name.
He stood in the open doorway, with sunlight haloing his silvery blond hair. His smile deepened the creases in his face, still so handsome, and warmed those quiet hazel eyes.
Her heart took a bound from surprise to pleasure, and another into embarrassment.
“Dad.”
When he stepped forward, arms opening for a hug, she tossed up her hands, wheeled back. “No, don’t. I’m absolutely disgusting. Covered with . . . I don’t even want to know.” She swiped the back of her wrist over her forehead, then fumbled off the protective gloves. “Dad,” she said again.
“I see a clean spot.” He lifted her chin with his hand, kissed her cheek. “Look at you.”
“I wish you wouldn’t.” But she laughed as most of the initial awkwardness passed. “What are you doing here?”
“Somebody recognized you in town when you stopped for supplies and said something to Patty. And Patty,” he continued, referring to his wife, “called me. Why didn’t you tell me you were coming?”
“I was going to. I mean, I was going to call you.” At some point. Eventually. When I figured out what to say. “I just wanted to get here first, then I . . .” She glanced back at the oven. “I got caught up.”
“So I see. When did you get in?”
Guilt pricked her conscience. “Listen, let’s go out on the front porch. It’s not too bad out front, and I have a cooler sitting out there holding a cold-cut sub with our names on it. Just let me wash up, then we’ll catch up.”
It wasn’t as bad in front, Cilla thought when she settled on the sagging steps with her father, but it was bad enough. The overgrown, weedy lawn and gardens, the trio of misshaped Bradford pears, a wild tangle of what she thought might be wisteria could all be dealt with. Would be. But the wonderful old magnolia rose, dense with its deep, glossy leaves, and stubborn daffodils shoved up through the thorny armor of climbing roses along the stone walls.
“I’m sorry I didn’t call,” Cilla began as she handed her father a bottle of iced tea to go with half the sub. “I’m sorry I haven’t called.”
He patted her knee, opened her bottle, then his own.
It was so like him, she thought. Gavin McGowan took things as they came—the good, the bad, the mediocre. How he’d ever fallen for the emotional morass that was her mother eluded her. But that was long ago, Cilla mused, and far away.
She bit into her portion of the sub. “I’m a bad daughter.”
“The worst,” he said, and made her laugh.
“Lizzie Borden.”
“Second worst. How’s your mother?”
Cilla bit into her sub, rolled her eyes. “Lizzie’s definitely running behind me on Mom’s scale at the moment. Otherwise, she’s okay. Number Five’s putting together a cabaret act for her.” At her father’s quiet look, Cilla shrugged. “I think when your marriages average a three-year life span, assigning numbers to husbands is practical and efficient. He’s okay. Better than Numbers Four and Two, and considerably smarter than Number Three. And he’s the reason I’m sitting here sharing a sub with the never-to-be-matched Number One.”
“How’s that?”
“Putting the song and dance together requires money. I had some money.”
“Cilla.”
“Wait, wait. I had some money, and she had something I wanted. I wanted this place, Dad. I’ve wanted it for a while now.”
“You—”
“Yeah, I bought the farm.” Cilla tossed back her head and laughed. “And she’s so pissed at me. She didn’t want it, God knows. I mean look at it. She hasn’t been out here in years, in decades, and she fired every manager, every overseer, every custodian. She wouldn’t give it to me, and it was my mistake to ask her for it a couple years ago. She wouldn’t sell it to me then, either.”
She took another bite of the sub, enjoying it now. “I got the tragedy face, the spiel about Janet. But now she needed seed money, and wanted me to invest. Big no on that followed by big fight, much drama. I told her, and Number Five, I’d buy this place, named an amount, and made it clear that was firm—no fucking around. Sorry,” she said, remembering Gavin’s distaste for the “f” word.
He waved it off. “She sold it to you. She sold you the Little Farm.”
“After much gnashing of teeth, much weeping, various sorrowful opinions on my daughterly behavior since the day I was born. And so on. It doesn’t matter.” Or hardly mattered, Cilla thought. “She didn’t want it; I did. She’d have sold it long before this if it hadn’t been tied up in trusts. It could only be sold and transferred to family until, what, 2012? Anyway, Number Five calmed her down, and everyone got what they wanted.”
“What are you going to do with it, Cilla?”
Live, she thought. Breathe. “Do you remember it, Dad? I’ve only seen the pictures and old home movies, but you were here when it was prime. When the grounds were gorgeous and the porches gleaming. When it had character and grace. That’s what I’m going to do with it. I’m going to bring it back.”
“Why?”
She heard the unspoken how? and told herself it didn’t matter that he didn’t know what she could do. Or hardly mattered.
“Because it deserves better than this. Because I think Janet Hardy deserves better than this. And because I can. I’ve been flipping houses for almost five years now. Two years pretty much on my own. I know none of them were on the scale of this, but I have a knack for it. I’ve made a solid profit on my projects.”
“Are you doing this for profit?”
“I may change my mind in the next four years, but for now? No. I never knew Janet, but she’s influenced almost every area of my life. Something about this place pulled her here, even at the end. Something about it pulls me.”
“It’s a long way from what you’ve known,” Gavin said. “Not just the miles, but the atmosphere. The culture. The Shenandoah Valley, this part of it, is still fairly rural. Skyline Village boasts a few thousand people, and even the larger cities like Front Royal and Culpepper, it’s far and away from L.A.”
“I guess I want to explore that, and I want to spend more time with my East Coast roots.” She wished he’d be pleased instead of concerned that she’d fail or give up. Again.
“I’m tired of California, I’m tired of all of it, Dad. I never wanted what Mom wanted, for me or for herself.”
“I know, sweetie.”
“So I’ll live here for a while.”
“Here?” Shock covered his face. “Live here? At the Little Farm?”
“I know, crazy. But I’ve done plenty of camping—which is what this’ll be for a few days anyway. Then I can rough it inside for a while longer. It’ll take about nine, ten months, maybe a year to do the rehab, to do it right. At the end of that, I’ll know if I want to stay or move on. If it’s moving on, I’ll figure out what to do about it then. But right now, Dad, I’m tired of moving on.”
Gavin said nothing for a moment, then draped his arm round Cilla’s shoulder. Did he have any idea, she wondered, what that casual show of support meant to her? How could he?
“It was beautiful here, beautiful and hopeful and happy,” he told her. “Horses grazing, her dog napping in the sun. The flowers were lovely. Janet did some of the gardening herself when she was here, I think. She came here to relax, she said. And she would, for short stretches. But then she needed people—that’s my take on it. She needed the noise and the laughter, the light. But, now and again, she came out alone. No friends, no family, no press. I always wondered what she did during those solo visits.”
“You met Mom here.”
“I did. We were just children, and Janet had a party for Dilly and Johnnie. She invited a lot of local children. Janet took to me, so I was invited back whenever they were here. Johnnie and I played together, and stayed friends when we hit our teens, though he began to run with a different sort of crowd. Then Johnnie died. He died, and everything went dark. Janet came here alone more often after that. I’d climb the wall to see if she was here, if Dilly was with her, when I was home from college. I’d see her walking alone, or see the lights on. I spoke to her a few times, three or four times, after Johnnie died. Then she was gone. Nothing here’s been the same since.
“It does deserve better,” he said with a sigh. “And so does she. You’re the one who should try to give it to them. You may be the only one who can.”
“Thanks.”
“Patty and I will help. You should come stay with us until this place is habitable.”
“I’ll take you up on the help, but I want to stay here. Get a feel for the place. I’ve done some research on it, but I could use some recommendations for local labor—skilled and not. Plumbers, electricians, carpenters, landscapers. And just people with strong backs who can follow directions.”
“Get your notebook.”
She pushed to her feet, started inside, then turned back. “Dad, if things had worked out between you and Mom, would you have stayed in the business? Stayed in L.A.?”
“Maybe. But I was never happy there. Or I wasn’t happy there for long. And I wasn’t a comfortable actor.”
“You were good.”
“Good enough,” he said with a smile. “But I didn’t want what Dilly wanted, for herself or for me. So I understand what you meant when you said the same. It’s not her fault, Cilla, that we wanted something else.”
“You found what you wanted here.”
“Yes, but—”
“That doesn’t mean I will, too,” she said. “I know. But, I just might.”
FIRST, CILLA SUPPOSED, SHE HAD TO FIGURE OUT what it was she did want. For more than half her life she’d done what she was told, and accepted what she had as what she should want. And most of the remainder, she admitted, she’d spent escaping from or ignoring all of that, or sectioning it off as if it had happened to someone else.
She’d been an actor before she could talk because it was what her mother wanted. She’d spent her childhood playing another child—one who was so much cuter, smarter, sweeter than she was herself. When that went away, she’d struggled through what the agents and producers considered the awkward years, when the work was lean. She cut a disastrous mother-daughter album with Dilly, and did a handful of teen slasher films where she considered herself lucky to have been gruesomely murdered.
She’d been washed-up before her eighteenth birthday, Cilla thought as she flopped down on the bed in her motel room. A has-been, a what-ever-happened-to who copped a scattering of guest roles on TV and voice-overs for commercials.
But the long-running TV series and a few forgettable B movies provided a nest egg. She’d been clever about feathering that nest, and using those eggs to allow her to poke her fingers into various pies to see if she liked the flavor.
Her mother called it wasting her God-given, and her therapist termed it avoidance.
Cilla called it a learning curve.
Whatever you called it, it brought her here to a fairly crappy hotel in Virginia, with the prospect of hard, sweaty, and expensive work over the next several months. She couldn’t wait to get started.
She flipped on the TV, intending to use it as background noise while she sat on the lumpy bed to make another pass through her notes. She heard a couple of cans thud out of the vending machine a few feet outside her door. Behind her head, the ghost sounds of the TV in the next room wafted through the wall.
While the local news droned on her set, she made her priority list for the next day. Working bathroom, number one. Camping out wasn’t a problem for her, but moving out of the motel meant she required the basic facilities. Sweaty work necessitated working shower. Plumbing, first priority.
Halfway through her list her eyes began to droop. Reminding herself she wanted to be checked out and on-site by eight, she switched off the TV, then the light.
As she dropped into sleep, the ghosts from the next room drifted through the wall. She heard Janet Hardy’s glorious voice lift into a song designed to break hearts.
“Perfect,” Cilla murmured as the song followed her into sleep.
SHE SAT ON THE LOVELY PATIO WITH THE VIEW full of the pretty pond and the green hills that rolled back to the blue mountains. Roses and lilies stunned the air with perfume that had the bees buzzing drunkenly and a hummingbird, bold as an emerald, darting for nectar. The sun poured strong and bright out of cloudless skies to wash everything in the golden light of fairy tales. Birds sang their hearts out in Disneyesque harmony.
“I expect to see Bambi frolicking with Thumper any minute,” Cilla commented.
“It’s how I saw it. In the good times.” Young, beautiful, in a delicate white sundress, Janet sipped sparkling lemonade. “Perfect as a stage set, and ready for me to make my entrance.”
“And in the bad times?”
“An escape, a prison, a mistake, a lie.” Janet shrugged her lovely shoulders. “But always a world away.”
“You brought that world with you. Why?”
“I needed it. I couldn’t be alone. There’s too much space when you’re alone. How do you fill it? Friends, men, sex, drugs, parties, music. Still, I could be calm here for a while. I could pretend here, pretend I was Gertrude Hamilton again. Though she died when I was six and Janet Hardy was born.”
“Did you want to be Gertrude again?”
“Of course not.” A laugh, bright and bold as the day, danced through the air. “But I liked to pretend I did. Gertrude would have been a better mother, a better wife, probably a better woman. But Gertrude wouldn’t have been nearly as interesting as Janet. Who’d remember her? And Janet? No one will ever forget her.” With her head tilted, Janet gave her signature smile—humor and knowledge with sex shimmering at the edges. “Aren’t you proof of that?”
“Maybe I am. But I see what happened to you, and what’s happened to this place, as a terrible waste. I can’t bring you back, or even know you. But I can do this.”
“Are you doing this for you or for me?”
“Both, I think.” She saw the grove, all pink and white blossoms, all fragrance and potential. And the horses grazing in green fields, gold and white etched against hills. “I don’t see it as a perfect set. I don’t need perfect. I see it as your legacy to me, and if I can bring it back, as my tribute to you. I come from you, and through my father, from this place. I want to know that, and feel it.”
“Dilly hated it here.”
“I don’t know if she did, always. But she does now.”
“She wanted Hollywood—in big, shiny letters. She was born wanting it, and lacking the talent or the grit to get it and hold it. You’re not like her, or me. Maybe . . .” Janet smiled as she sipped again. “Maybe you’re more like Gertrude. More like Trudy.”
“Who did you kill that night? Janet or Gertrude?”
“That’s a question.” With a smile, Janet tipped back her head and closed her eyes.
BUT WHAT WAS THE ANSWER? CILLA WONDERED about that as she drove back to the farm in the morning. And why did it matter? Why ask questions of a dream anyway?
Dead was dead, after all. The project wasn’t about death, but about life. About making something for herself out of what had been left to ruin.
As she stopped to unlock the old iron gates that blocked the drive, she debated having them removed. Would that be a symbol to throwing open again what had been closed off, or would it be a monumentally stupid move that left her and the property vulnerable? The gates protested when she walked them open, and left rust on her hands.
Screw symbols and stupidity, she decided. They should come down because they were a pain in the ass. After the project, she could put them back up.
Once she’d parked in front of the house, she strode up to unlock the front door, and left it wide to the morning air. She drew on her work gloves. She’d finish tackling the kitchen, she thought. And hope the plumber her father had recommended showed up.
Either way, she’d be staying. Even if she had to pitch a damn tent in the front yard.
She’d worked up her first sweat of the day when the plumber, a grizzled-cheeked man named Buddy, showed up. He made the rounds with her, listened to her plans, scratched his chin a lot. When he gave her what she thought of as a pull-it-out-of-his-ass estimate for the projected work, she countered with a blank stare.
He grinned at that, scratched some more. “I could work up something a little more formal for you. It’d be considerably less if you’re buying the fixtures and such.”
“I will be.”
“Okay then. I’ll work up an estimate for you, and we’ll see what’s what.”
“That’s fine. Meanwhile, how much to snake out the tub in the first bath upstairs? It’s not draining right.”
“Why don’t I take a look-see? Estimate’s free, and I’m here for that anyway.”
She hovered, not so much because she didn’t trust him but because you could never be sure what you might learn. She learned he didn’t dawdle, and that his fee for the small task—and a quick check of the sink and john—meant he wanted the job enough that his estimate would probably come into line.
By the time Buddy climbed back into his truck, she hoped the carpenter and electrician she’d lined up for estimates worked out as well.
She dug out her notebook to tick her meeting with Buddy off her day’s to-do list. Then she hefted her sledgehammer. She was in the mood for some demo, and the rotted boards on the front porch were just the place to start.
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