His Dark Materials
Book
Two
THE SUBTLE
KNIFE
Philip Pullman
ONE
THE CAT AND
THE HORNBEAM TREES
Will tugged at his mother's hand and said, "Come on, come
on..."
But his mother hung back. She was still afraid. Will looked up and
down the narrow street in the evening light, along the little terrace of
houses, each behind its tiny garden and its box hedge, with the sun glaring off
the windows of one side and leaving the other in shadow. There wasn't much
time. People would be having their meal about now, and soon there would be
other children around, to stare and comment and notice. It was dangerous to
wait, but all he could do was persuade her, as usual.
"Mum, let's go in and see Mrs. Cooper," he said.
"Look, we're nearly there."
"Mrs. Cooper?" she said doubtfully.
But he was already ringing the bell. He had to put down the bag to
do it, because his other hand still held his mother's. It might have bothered
him at twelve years of age to be seen holding his mother's hand, but he knew
what would happen to her if he didn't.
The door opened, and there was the stooped elderly figure of the
piano teacher, with the scent of lavender water about her as he remembered.
"Who's that? Is that William?" the old lady said.
"I haven't seen you for over a year. What do you want, dear?"
"I want to come in, please, and bring my mother," he
said firmly.
Mrs. Cooper looked at the woman with the untidy hair and the
distracted half-smile, and at the boy with the fierce, unhappy glare in his
eyes, the tight-set lips, the jutting jaw. And then she saw that Mrs. Parry,
Will's mother, had put makeup on one eye but not on the other. And she hadn't
noticed. And neither had Will. Something was wrong.
"Well..." she said, and stepped aside to make room in
the narrow hall.
Will looked up and down the road before closing the door, and Mrs.
Cooper saw how tightly Mrs. Parry was clinging to her son's hand, and how
tenderly he guided her into the sitting room where the piano was (of course,
that was the only room he knew); and she noticed that Mrs. Parry's clothes
smelled slightly musty, as if they'd been too long in the washing machine
before drying; and how similar the two of them looked as they sat on the sofa
with the evening sun full on their faces, their broad cheekbones, their wide
eyes, their straight black brows.
"What is it, William?" the old lady said. "What's
the matter?"
"My mother needs somewhere to stay for a few days," he
said. "It's too difficult to look after her at home just now. I don't mean
she's ill. She's just kind of confused and muddled, and she gets a bit worried.
She won't be hard to look after. She just needs someone to be kind to her, and
I think you could do that quite easily, probably."
The woman was looking at her son without seeming to understand,
and Mrs. Cooper saw a bruise on her cheek. Will hadn't taken his eyes off Mrs.
Cooper, and his expression was desperate.
"She won't be expensive," he went on. "I've brought
some packets of food, enough to last, I should think. You could have some of it
too. She won't mind sharing."
"But ... I don't know if I should ... Doesn't she need a
doctor?"
"No! She's not ill."
"But there must be someone who can... I mean, isn't there a
neighbor or someone in the family—"
"We haven't got any family. Only us. And the neighbors are
too busy."
"What about the social services? I don't mean to put you off,
dear, but—"
"No! No. She just needs a bit of help. I can't do it myself
for a little while, but I won't be long. I'm going to ... I've got things to
do. But I'll be back soon, and I'll take her home again, I promise. You won't
have to do it for long."
The mother was looking at her son with such trust, and he turned
and smiled at her with such love and reassurance, that Mrs. Cooper couldn't say
no.
"Well," she said, turning to Mrs. Parry, "I'm sure
it won't matter for a day or so. You can have my daughter's room, dear. She's
in Australia. She won't be needing it again."
"Thank you," said Will, and stood up as if he were in a
hurry to leave.
"But where are you going to be?" said Mrs. Cooper.
"I'm going to be staying with a friend," he said.
"I'll phone up as often as I can. I've got your number. It'll be all
right"
His mother was looking at him, bewildered. He bent over and kissed
her clumsily.
"Don't worry," he said. "Mrs. Cooper will look
after you better than me, honest. And I'll phone up and talk to you
tomorrow."
They hugged tightly, and then Will kissed her again and gently
unfastened her arms from his neck before going to the front door. Mrs. Cooper
could see he was upset, because his eyes were glistening, but he turned,
remembering his manners, and held out his hand.
"Good-bye," he said, "and thank you very
much."
"William," she said, "I wish you'd tell me what the
matter is—"
"It's a bit complicated," he said, "but she won't
be any trouble, honestly."
That wasn't what she meant, and both of them knew it; but somehow
Will was in charge of this business, whatever it was. The old lady thought
she'd never seen a child so implacable.
He turned away, already thinking about the empty house.
The close where Will and his mother lived was a loop of road in a
modern estate with a dozen identical houses, of which theirs was by far the
shabbiest. The front garden was just a patch of weedy grass; his mother had
planted some shrubs earlier in the year, but they'd shriveled and died for lack
of watering. As Will came around the corner, his cat, Moxie, rose up from her
favorite spot under the still-living hydrangea and stretched before greeting
him with a soft meow and butting her head against his leg.
He picked her up and whispered, "Have they come back, Moxie?
Have you seen them?"
The house was silent. In the last of the evening light the man
across the road was washing his car, but he took no notice of Will, and Will
didn't look at him. The less notice people took, the better.
Holding Moxie against his chest, he unlocked the door and went in
quickly. Then he listened very carefully before putting her down. There was
nothing to hear; the house was empty.
He opened a tin for Moxie and left her to eat in the kitchen. How
long before the men came back? There was no way of telling, so he'd better move
quickly. He went upstairs and began to search.
He was looking for a battered green leather writing case. There
are a surprising number of places to hide something that size even in any
ordinary modern house; you don't need secret panels and extensive cellars in
order to make something hard to find. Will searched his mother's bedroom first,
ashamed to be looking through the drawers where she kept her underclothes, and
then he worked systematically through the rest of the rooms upstairs, even his
own. Moxie came to see what he was doing and sat and cleaned herself nearby,
for company.
But he didn't find it.
By that time it was dark, and he was hungry. He made himself baked
beans on toast and sat at the kitchen table wondering about the best order to
look through the downstairs rooms.
As he was finishing his meal, the phone rang.
He sat absolutely still, his heart thumping. He counted:
twenty-six rings, and then it stopped. He put his plate in the suik and started
to search again.
Four hours later he still hadn't found the green leather case. It
was half past one, and he was exhausted. He lay on his bed fully clothed and
fell asleep at once, his dreams tense and crowded, his mother's unhappy,
frightened face always there just out of reach.
And almost at once, it seemed (though he'd been asleep for nearly
three hours), he woke up knowing two things simultaneously.
First, he knew where the case was. And second, he knew that the
men were downstairs, opening the kitchen door.
He lifted Moxie out of the way and softly hushed her sleepy
protest. Then he swung his legs over the side of the bed and put on his shoes,
straining every nerve to hear the sounds from downstairs. They were very quiet
sounds: a chair being lifted and replaced, a short whisper, the creak of a
floorboard.
Moving more silently than the men were, he left his bedroom and
tiptoed to the spare room at the top of the stairs. It wasn't quite pitch-dark,
and in the ghostly gray predawn light he could see the old treadle sewing
machine. He'd been through the room thoroughly only hours before, but he'd
forgotten the compartment at the side of the sewing machine, where all the
patterns and bobbins were kept.
He felt for it delicately, listening all the while. The men were
moving about downstairs, and Will could see a dim flicker of light that might
have been a flashlight at the edge of the door.
Then he found the catch of the compartment and clicked it open, and
there, just as he'd known it would be, was the leather writing case.
And now what could he do? He crouched in the dimness, heart
pounding, listening hard.
The two men were in the hall downstairs. He heard one of them say
quietly, "Come on. I can hear the milkman down the road."
"It's not here, though," said the other voice.
"We'll have to look upstairs."
"Go on, then. Don't hang about."
Will braced himself as he heard the quiet creak of the top step.
The man was making no noise at all, but he couldn't help the creak if he wasn't
expecting it. Then there was a pause. A very thin beam of flashlight swept
along the floor outside. Will saw it through the crack.
Then the door began to move. Will waited till the man was framed
in the open doorway, and then exploded up out of the dark and crashed into the
intruder's belly.
But neither of them saw the cat.
As the man had reached the top step, Moxie had come silently out
of the bedroom and stood with raised tail just behind the man's legs, ready to
rub herself against them. The man, who was trained and fit and hard, could have
dealt with Will, but the cat was in the way, and as the man tried to move back,
he tripped over her. With a sharp gasp he fell backward down the stairs and
crashed his head brutally against the hall table.
Will heard a hideous crack, and didn't stop to wonder about it.
Clutching the writing case, he swung himself down the banister, leaping over
the man's body that lay twitching and crumpled at the foot of the flight,
seized the tattered tote bag from the table, and was out of the front door and
away before the other man could do more than come out of the living room and
stare.
Even in his fear and haste Will wondered why the other man didn't
shout after him, or chase him. They'd be after him soon, though, with their
cars and their cell phones. The only thing to do was run.
He saw the milkman turning into the close, the lights of his
electric cart pallid in the dawn glimmer that was already filling the sky. Will
jumped over the fence into the next-door garden, down the passage beside the
house, over the next garden wall, across a dew-wet lawn, through the hedge, and
into the tangle of shrubs and trees between the housing estate and the main
road. There he crawled under a bush and lay panting and trembling. It was too
early to be out on the road: wait till later, when the rush hour started.
He couldn't get out of his mind the crack as the man's head struck
the table, and the way his neck was bent so far and in such a wrong way, and
the dreadful twitching of his limbs. The man was dead. He'd killed him.
He couldn't get it out of his mind, but he had to. There was quite
enough to think about. His mother: would she really be safe where she was? Mrs.
Cooper wouldn't tell, would she? Even if Will didn't turn up as he'd said he
would? Because he couldn't, now that he'd killed someone.
And Moxie. Who'd feed Moxie? Would Moxie worry about where they
were? Would she try to follow them?
It was getting lighter by the minute. It was light enough already
to check through the things in the tote bag: his mother's purse, the latest
letter from the lawyer, the road map of southern England, chocolate bars,
toothpaste, spare socks and pants. And the green leather writing case.
Everything was there. Everything was going according to plan,
really.
Except that he'd killed someone.
Will had first realized his mother was different from other
people, and that he had to look after her, when he was seven. They were in a
supermarket, and they were playing a game: they were allowed to put an item in
the cart only when no one was looking. It was Will's job to look all around and
whisper "Now," and she would snatch a tin or a packet from the shelf
and put it silently into the cart. When things were in there they were safe, because
they became invisible.
It was a good game, and it went on for a long time, because this
was a Saturday morning and the shop was full, but they were good at it and
worked well together. They trusted each other. Will loved his mother very much
and often told her so, and she told him the same.
So when they reached the checkout Will was excited and happy
because they'd nearly won. And when his mother couldn't find her purse, that
was part of the game too, even when she said the enemies must have stolen it;
but Will was getting tired by this time, and hungry too, and Mummy wasn't so
happy anymore. She was really frightened, and they went around and around
putting things back on the shelves, but this time they had to be extra careful
because the enemies were tracking them down by means of her credit card
numbers, which they knew because they had her purse....
And Will got more and more frightened himself. He realized how
clever his mother had been to make this real danger into a game so that he
wouldn't be alarmed, and how, now that he knew the truth, he had to pretend not
to be frightened, so as to reassure her.
So the little boy pretended it was a game still, so she didn't
have to worry that he was frightened, and they went home without any shopping,
but safe from the enemies; and then Will found the purse on the hall table
anyway. On Monday they went to the bank and closed her account, and opened
another somewhere else, just to be sure. Thus the danger passed
But sometime during the next few months, Will realized slowly and
unwillingly that those enemies of his mother's were not in the world out there,
but in her mind. That made them no less real, no less frightening and
dangerous; it just meant he had to protect her even more carefully. And from
the moment in the supermarket when he had realized he must pretend in order not
to worry his mother, part of Will's mind was always alert to her anxieties. He
loved her so much he would have died to protect her.
As for Will's father, he had vanished long before Will was able to
remember him. Will was passionately curious about his father, and he used to
plague his mother with questions, most of which she couldn't answer.
"Was he a rich man?"
"Where did he go?"
"Why did he go?"
"Is he dead?"
"Will he come back?'
"What was he like?"
The last question was the only one she could help him with. John
Parry had been a handsome man, a brave and clever officer in the Royal Marines,
who had left the army to become an explorer and lead expeditions to remote
parts of the world. Will thrilled to hear about this. No father could be more
exciting than an explorer. From then on, in all his games he had an invisible
companion: he and his father were together hacking through the jungle, shading
their eyes to gaze out across stormy seas from the deck of their schooner,
holding up a torch to decipher mysterious inscriptions in a bat-infested cave.
... They were the best of friends, they saved each other's life countless
times, they laughed and talked together over camp-fires long into the night.
But the older he got, the more Will began to wonder. Why were
there no pictures of his father in this part of the world or that, riding with
frost-bearded men on Arctic sledges or examining creeper-covered ruins in the
jungle? Had nothing survived of the trophies and curiosities he must have
brought home? Was nothing written about him in a book?
His mother didn't know. But one thing she had said stuck in his
mind.
She said, "One day, you'll follow in your father's footsteps.
You're going to be a great man too. You'll take up his mantle."
And though Will didn't know what that meant, he understood the
sense of it, and felt uplifted with pride and purpose. All his games were going
to come true. His father was alive, lost somewhere hi the wild, and he was
going to rescue him and take up his mantle.... It was worth living a difficult
life, if you had a great aim like that.
So he kept his mother's trouble secret. There were times when she
was calmer and clearer than others, and he took care to learn from her then how
to shop and cook and keep the house clean, so that he could do it when she was
confused and frightened. And he learned how to conceal himself, too, how to
remain unnoticed at school, how not to attract attention from the neighbors,
even when his mother was hi such a state of fear and madness that she could
barely speak. What Will himself feared more than anything was that the
authorities would find out about her, and take her away, and put him in a home
among strangers. Any difficulty was better than that. Because there came times
when the darkness cleared from her mind, and she was happy again, and she
laughed at her fears and blessed him for looking after her so well; and she was
so full of love and sweetness then that he could think of no better companion, and
wanted nothing more than to live with her alone forever.
But then the men came.
They weren't police, and they weren't social services, and they
weren't criminals—at least as far as Will could judge. They wouldn't tell him
what they wanted, in spite of his efforts to keep them away; they'd speak only
to his mother. And her state was fragile just then.
But he listened outside the door, and heard them ask about his
father, and felt his breath come more quickly.
The men wanted to know where John Parry had gone, and whether he'd
sent anything back to her, and when she'd last heard from him, and whether he'd
had contact with any foreign embassies. Will heard his mother getting more and
more distressed, and finally he ran into the room and told them to go.
He looked so fierce that neither of the men laughed, though he was
so young. They could easily have knocked him down, or held him off the floor
with one hand, but he was fearless, and his anger was hot and deadly.
So they left. Naturally, this episode strengthened Will's
conviction: his father was in trouble somewhere, and only he could help. His
games weren't childish anymore, and he didn't play so openly. It was coming
true, and he had to be worthy of it.
And not long afterward the men came back, insisting that Will's
mother had something to tell them. They came when Will was at school, and one
of them kept her talking downstairs while the other searched the bedrooms. She
didn't realize what they were doing. But Will came home early and found them,
and once again he blazed at them, and once again they left.
They seemed to know that he wouldn't go to the police, for fear of
losing his mother to the authorities, and they got more and more persistent.
Finally they broke into the house when Will had gone to fetch his mother home
from the park. It was getting worse for her now, and she believed that she had
to touch every separate slat in every separate bench beside the pond. Will
would help her, to get it done quicker. When they got home that day they saw
the back of the men's car disappearing out of the close, and he got inside to
find that they'd been through the house and searched most of the drawers and
cupboards.
He knew what they were after. The green leather case was his
mother's most precious possession; he would never dream of looking through it,
and he didn't even know where she kept it. But he knew it contained letters,
and he knew she read them sometimes, and cried, and it was then that she talked
about his father. So Will supposed that this was what the men were after, and
knew he had to do something about it.
He decided first to find somewhere safe for his mother to stay. He
thought and thought, but he had no friends to ask, and the neighbors were
already suspicious, and the only person he thought he could trust was Mrs.
Cooper. Once his mother was safely there, he was going to find the green
leather case and look at what was in it, and then he was going to go to Oxford,
where he'd find the answer to some of his questions. But the men came too soon.
And now he'd killed one of them.
So the police would be after him too.
Well, he was good at not being noticed. He'd have to not be
noticed harder than he'd ever done in his life before, and keep it up as long
as he could, till either he found his father or they found him. And if they
found him first, he didn't care how many more of them he killed.
Later that day, toward midnight in fact, Will was walking out of
the city of Oxford, forty miles away. He was tired to his very bones. He had
hitchhiked, and ridden on two buses, and walked, and reached Oxford at six in
the evening, too late to do what he needed to do. He'd eaten at a Burger King
and gone to a cinema to hide (though what the film was, he forgot even as he
was watching it), and now he was walking along an endless road through the
suburbs, heading north.
No one had noticed nun so far. But he was aware that he'd better
find somewhere to sleep before long, because the later it got, the more
noticeable he'd be. The trouble was that there was nowhere to hide in the
gardens of the comfortable houses along this road, and there was still no sign
of open country.
He came to a large traffic circle where the road going north
crossed the Oxford ring road going east and west. At this time of night there
was very little traffic, and the road where he stood was quiet, with
comfortable houses set back behind a wide expanse of grass on either side.
Planted along the grass at the road's edge were two lines of hornbeam trees,
odd-looking things with perfectly symmetrical close-leafed crowns, more like
children's drawings than like real trees. The streetlights made the scene look
artificial, like a stage set. Will was stupefied with exhaustion, and he might
have gone on to the north, or he might have laid his head on the grass under
one of those trees and slept; but as he stood trying to clear his head, he saw
a cat.
She was a tabby, like Moxie. She padded out of a garden on the
Oxford side of the road, where Will was standing. Will put down his tote bag
and held out his hand, and the cat came up to rub her head against his
knuckles, just as Moxie did. Of course, every cat behaved like that, but all
the same Will felt such a longing for home that tears scalded his eyes.
Eventually the cat turned away. This was night, and there was a
territory to patrol, there were mice to hunt. She padded across the road and
toward the bushes just beyond the hornbeam trees, and there she stopped.
Will, still watching, saw the cat behave curiously.
She reached out a paw to pat something in the air in front of her,
something quite invisible to Will. Then she leaped backward, back arched and
fur on end, tail held out stiffly. Will knew cat behavior. He watched more
alertly as the cat approached the spot again, just an empty patch of grass
between the hornbeams and the bushes of a garden hedge, and patted the air once
more.
Again she leaped back, but less far and with less alarm this time.
After another few seconds of sniffing, touching, and whisker twitching,
curiosity overcame wariness.
The cat stepped forward—and vanished.
Will blinked. Then he stood still, close to the trunk of the
nearest tree, as a truck came around the circle and swept its lights over him.
When it had gone past, he crossed the road, keeping his eyes on the spot where
the cat had been investigating. It wasn't easy, because there was nothing to
fix on, but when he came to the place and cast about to look closely, he saw
it.
At least, he saw it from some angles. It looked as if someone had
cut a patch out of the air, about two yards from the edge of the road, a patch
roughly square in shape and less than a yard across. If you were level with the
patch so that it was edge-on, it was nearly invisible, and it was completely
invisible from behind. You could see it only from the side nearest the road,
and you couldn't see it easily even from there, because all you could see
through it was exactly the same kind of thing that lay in front of it on this
side: a patch of grass lit by a streetlight.
But Will knew without the slightest doubt that that patch of grass
on the other side was in a different world.
He couldn't possibly have said why. He knew it at once, as
strongly as he knew that fire burned and kindness was good. He was looking at
something profoundly alien.
And for that reason alone, it enticed him to stoop and look
further. What he saw made his head swim and his heart thump harder, but he
didn't hesitate: he pushed his tote bag through, and then scrambled through
himself, through the hole in the fabric of this world and into another.
He found himself standing under a row of trees. But not hornbeam
trees: these were tall palms, and they were growing, like the trees in Oxford,
in a row along the grass. But this was the center of a broad boulevard, and at
the side of the boulevard was a line of cafes and small shops, all brightly bt,
all open, and all utterly silent and empty beneath a sky thick with stars. The
hot night was laden with the scent of flowers and with the salt smell of the
sea.
Will looked around carefully. Behind him the full moon shone down
over a distant prospect of great green hills, and on the slopes at the foot of
the hills there were houses with rich gardens, and an open parkland with groves
of trees and the white gleam of a classical temple.
Just beside him was that bare patch in the air, as hard to see
from this side as from the other, but definitely there. He bent to look through
and saw the road in Oxford, his own world. He turned away with a shudder:
whatever this new world was, it had to be better than what he'd just left. With
a dawning light-headedness, the feeling that he was dreaming but awake at the
same time, he stood up and looked around for the cat, his guide.
She was nowhere in sight. No doubt she was already exploring those
narrow streets and gardens beyond the cafes whose lights were so inviting. Will
lifted up his tattered tote bag and walked slowly across the road toward them,
moving very carefully in case it all disappeared.
The air of the place had something Mediterranean or maybe
Caribbean about it. Will had never been out of England, so he couldn't compare
it with anywhere he knew, but it was the kind of place where people came out
late at night to eat and drink, to dance and enjoy music. Except that there was
no one here, and the silence was immense.
On the first corner he reached there stood a cafe, with little
green tables on the pavement and a zinc-topped bar and an espresso machine. On
some of the tables glasses stood half-empty; in one ashtray a cigarette had
burned down to the butt; a plate of risotto stood next to a basket of stale
rolls as hard as cardboard.
He took a bottle of lemonade from the cooler behind the bar and
then thought for a moment before dropping a pound coin in the till. As soon as
he'd shut the till, he opened it again, realizing that the money in there might
say what this place was called. The currency was called the corona, but he
couldn't tell any more than that.
He put the money back and opened the bottle on the opener fixed to
the counter before leaving the cafe and wandering down the street going away
from the boulevard. Little grocery shops and bakeries stood between jewelers
and florists and bead-curtained doors opening into private houses, where
wrought-iron balconies thick with flowers overhung the narrow pavement, and
where the silence, being enclosed, was even more profound.
The streets were leading downward, and before very long they
opened out onto a broad avenue where more palm trees reached high into the air,
the underside of their leaves glowing in me streetlights.
On the other side of the avenue was the sea.
Will found himself facing a harbor enclosed from the left by a
stone breakwater and from the right by a headland on which a large building
with stone columns and wide steps and ornate balconies stood floodlit among
flowering trees and bushes. In the harbor one or two rowboats lay still at
anchor, and beyond the breakwater the starlight glittered on a calm sea.
By now Will's exhaustion had been wiped out. He was wide awake and
possessed by wonder. From time to time, on his way through the narrow streets,
he'd put out a hand to touch a wall or a doorway or the flowers in a window
box, and found them solid and convincing. Now he wanted to touch the whole
landscape in front of him, because it was too wide to take in through his eyes
alone. He stood still, breathing deeply, almost afraid.
He discovered that he was still holding the bottle he'd taken from
the cafe. He drank from it, and it tasted like what it was, ice-cold lemonade;
and welcome, too, because the night air was hot.
He wandered along to the right, past hotels with awnings over
brightly lit entrances and bougainvillea flowering beside them, until he came
to the gardens on the little headland. The building in the trees with its
ornate facade lit by floodlights might have been an opera house. There were
paths leading here and there among the lamp-hung oleander trees, but not a
sound of life could be heard: no night birds singing, no insects, nothing but
Will's own footsteps.
The only sound he could hear came from the regular, quiet breaking
of delicate waves from the beach beyond the palm trees at the edge of the
garden. Will made his way there. The tide was halfway in, or halfway out, and a
row of pedal boats was drawn up on the soft white sand above the high-water
line. Every few seconds a tiny wave folded itself over at the sea's edge before
sliding back neatly under the next. Fifty yards or so out on the calm water was
a diving platform.
Will sat on the side of one of the pedal boats and kicked off his
shoes, his cheap sneakers that were coming apart and cramping his hot feet. He
dropped his socks beside them and pushed his toes deep into the sand. A few
seconds later he had thrown off the rest of his clothes and was walking into
the sea.
The water was deliciously between cool and warm. He splashed out
to the diving platform and pulled himself up to sit on its weather-softened
planking and look back at the city.
To his right the harbor lay enclosed by its breakwater. Beyond it
a mile or so away stood a red-and-white-striped lighthouse. And beyond the
lighthouse, distant cuffs rose dimly, and beyond them, those great wide rolling
hills he'd seen from the place he'd first come through.
Closer at hand were the light-bearing trees of the casino gardens,
and the streets of the city, and the waterfront with its hotels and cafes and
warm-lit shops, all silent, all empty.
And all safe. No one could follow him here; the men who'd searched
the house would never know; the police would never find him. He had a whole
world to hide in.
For the first time since he'd run out of his front door that
morning, Will began to feel secure.
He was thirsty again, and hungry too, because he'd last eaten in
another world, after all. He slipped into the water and swam back more slowly
to the beach, where he put on his underpants and carried the rest of his
clothes and the tote bag. He dropped the empty bottle into the first rubbish
bin he found and walked barefoot along the pavement toward the harbor.
When his skin had dried a little, he pulled on his jeans and
looked for somewhere he'd be likely to find food. The hotels were too grand. He
looked inside the first hotel, but it was so large that he felt uncomfortable,
and he kept moving down the waterfront until he found a little caf6 that looked
like the right place. He couldn't have said why; it was very similar to a dozen
others, with its first-floor balcony laden with flowerpots and its tables and
chairs on the pavement outside, but it welcomed him.
There was a bar with photographs of boxers on the wall, and a
signed poster of a broadly smiling accordion player. There was a kitchen, and a
door beside it that opened on to a narrow flight of stairs, carpeted in a
bright floral pattern.
He climbed quietly up to the narrow landing and opened the first
door he came to. It was the room at the front. The air was hot and stuffy, and
Will opened the glass door onto the balcony to let in the night air. The room
itself was small and furnished with things that were too big for it, and
shabby, but it was clean and comfortable. Hospitable people lived here. There
was a little shelf of books, a magazine on the table, a couple of photographs
in frames.
Will left and looked in the other rooms: a little bathroom, a
bedroom with a double bed.
Something made his skin prickle before he opened the last door.
His heart raced. He wasn't sure if he'd heard a sound from inside, but
something told him that the room wasn't empty. He thought how odd it was that
this day had begun with someone outside a darkened room, and himself waiting
inside; and now the positions were reversed—
And as he stood wondering, the door burst open and something came
hurtling at him like a wild beast.
But his memory had warned him, and he wasn't standing quite close
enough to be knocked over. He fought hard: knee, head, fist, and the strength
of his arms against it, him, her—
A girl about his own age, ferocious, snarling, with ragged dirty
clothes and thin bare limbs.
She realized what he was at the same moment, and snatched herself
away from his bare chest to crouch in the corner of the dark landing like a cat
at bay. And there was a cat beside her, to his astonishment: a large wildcat,
as tall as his knee, fur on end, teeth bared, tail erect.
She put her hand on the cat's back and licked her dry lips,
watching his every movement.
Will stood up slowly.
"Who are you?"
"Lyra Silvertongue," she said.
"Do you live here?"
"No," she said vehemently.
"Then what is this place? This city?"
"I don't know."
"Where do you come from?"
"From my world. It's joined on. Where's your daemon?"
His eyes widened. Then he saw something extraordinary happen to
the cat: it leaped into her arms, and when it got there, it changed shape. Now
it was a red-brown stoat with a cream throat and belly, and it glared at him as
ferociously as the girl herself. But then another shift in things took place,
because he realized that they, both girl and stoat, were profoundly afraid of
him, as much as if he'd been a ghost.
"I haven't got a demon," he said. "I don't know
what you mean." Then, "Oh! Is that your demon?"
She stood up slowly. The stoat curled himself around her neck, and
his dark eyes never left Will's face.
"But you're alive," she said, half-disbelievingly.
"You en't... You en't been .. ."
"My name's Will Parry," he said. "I don't know what
you mean about demons. In my world demon means ... it means devil, something
evil."
"In your world? You mean this en't your world?"
"No. I just found... a way in. Like your world, I suppose. It
must be joined on."
She relaxed a little, but she still watched him intently, and he
stayed calm and quiet as if she were a strange cat he was making friends with.
"Have you seen anyone else in this city?" he went on.
"No."
"How long have you been here?"
"Dunno. A few days. I can't remember."
"So why did you come here?"
"I'm looking for Dust," she said.
"Looking for dust? What, gold dust? What sort of dust?"
She narrowed her eyes and said nothing. He turned away to go
downstairs.
"I'm hungry," he said. "Is there any food in the
kitchen?"
"I dunno," she said, and followed, keeping her distance
from him.
In the kitchen Will found the ingredients for a casserole of
chicken and onions and peppers, but they hadn't been cooked, and in the heat
they were smelling bad. He swept them all into the dustbin.
"Haven't you eaten anything?" he said, and opened the
fridge.
Lyra came to look.
"I didn't know this was here," she said. "Oh! It's
cold."
Her daemon had changed again, and become a huge, brightly colored
butterfly, which fluttered into the fridge briefly and out again at once to
settle on her shoulder. The butterfly raised and lowered his wings slowly. Will
felt he shouldn't stare, though his head was ringing with the strangeness of
it.
"Haven't you seen a fridge before?" he said.
He found a can of cola and handed it to her before taking out a
tray of eggs. She pressed the can between her palms with pleasure.
"Drink it, then," he said.
She looked at it, frowning. She didn't know how to open it. He
snapped the lid for her, and the drink frothed out. She licked it suspiciously,
and then her eyes opened wide.
"This is good?" she said, her voice half hoping and half
fearful.
"Yeah. They have Coke in this world, obviously. Look, I'll
drink some to prove it isn't poison."
He opened another can. Once she saw him drink, she followed his
example. She was obviously thirsty. She drank so quickly that the bubbles got
up her nose, and she snorted and belched loudly, and scowled when he looked at
her.
"I'm going to make an omelette," he said. "D'you
want some?"
"I don't know what omelette is."
"Well, watch and you'll see. Or there's a can of baked beans,
if you'd like."
"I don't know baked beans."
He showed her the can. She looked for the snap-open top like the
one on the cola can.
"No, you have to use a can opener," he said. "Don't
they have can openers in your world?"
"In my world servants do the cooking," she said
scornfully.
"Look in the drawer over there."
She rummaged through the kitchen cutlery while he broke six eggs
into a bowl and whisked them with a fork.
"That's it," he said, watching. "With the red
handle. Bring it here."
He pierced the lid and showed her how to open the can.
"Now get that little saucepan off the hook and tip them
in," he told her.
She sniffed the beans, and again an expression of pleasure and
suspicion entered her eyes. She tipped the can into the saucepan and licked a
finger, watching as Will shook salt and pepper into the eggs and cut a knob of
butter from a package in the fridge into a cast-iron pan. He went into the bar
to find some matches, and when he came back she was dipping her dirty finger in
the bowl of beaten eggs and licking it greedily. Her daemon, a cat again, was
dipping his paw in it, too, but he backed away when Will came near.
"It's not cooked yet," Will said, taking it away.
"When did you last have a meal?"
"At my father's house on Svalbard," she said. "Days
and days ago. I don't know. I found bread and stuff here and ate that."
He lit the gas, melted the butter, poured in the eggs, and let
them run all over the base of it. Her eyes followed everything greedily,
watching him pull the eggs up into soft ridges in the center as they cooked and
tilt the pan to let raw egg flow into the space. She watched him, too, looking
at his face and his working hands and his bare shoulders and his feet.
When the omelette was cooked he folded it over and cut it in half
with the spatula.
"Find a couple of plates," he said, and Lyra obediently
did so.
She seemed quite willing to take orders if she saw the sense of
them, so he told her to go and clear a table in front of the cafe. He brought
out the food and some knives and forks from a drawer, and they sat down
together, a little awkwardly.
She ate hers in less than a minute, and then fidgeted, swinging
back and forth on her chair and plucking at the plastic strips of the woven
seat while he finished his. Her daemon changed yet again, and became a
goldfinch, pecking at invisible crumbs on the tabletop.
Will ate slowly. He'd given her most of the beans, but even so he
took much longer than she did. The harbor in front of them, the ligr *s along
the empty boulevard, the stars in the dark sky above, all hung in the huge
silence as if nothing else existed at all.
And all the time he was intensely aware of the girl. She was small
and slight, but wiry, and she'd fought like a tiger; his fist had raised a
bruise on her cheek, and she was ignoring it. Her expression was a mixture of
the very young—when she first tasted the cola—and a kind of deep, sad wariness.
Her eyes were pale blue, and her hair would be a darkish blond once it was
washed; because she was filthy, and she smelled as if she hadn't bathed for
days.
"Laura? Lara?" Will said.
"Lyra."
"Lyra... Silvertongue?"
"Yes."
"Where is your world? How did you get here?"
She shrugged. "I walked," she said. "It was all
foggy. I didn't know where I was going. At least, I knew I was going out of my
world. But I couldn't see this one till the fog cleared. Then I found myself
here."
"What did you say about dust?"
"Dust, yeah. I'm going to find out about it. But this world
seems to be empty. There's no one here to ask. I've been here for ... I dunno,
three days, maybe four. And there's no one here."
"But why do you want to find out about dust?"
"Special Dust," she said shortly. "Not ordinary
dust, obviously."
The daemon changed again. He did so in the flick of an eye, and
from a goldfinch he became a rat, a powerful pitch-black rat with red eyes.
Will looked at him with wide wary eyes, and the girl saw his glance.
"You have got a daemon," she said decisively.
"Inside you."
He didn't know what to say.
"You have," she went on. "You wouldn't be human
else. You'd be ... half dead. We seen a kid with his daemon cut away. You en't
like that. Even if you don't know you've got a daemon, you have. We was scared
at first when we saw you. Like you was a night-ghast or something. But then we
saw you weren't like that at all."
"We?"
"Me and Pantalaimon. Us. But you, your daemon en't separate
from you. It's you. Apart of you. You're part of each other. En't there anyone
in your world like us? Are they all like you, with their daemons all hidden
away?"
Will looked at the two of them, the skinny pale-eyed girl with her
black rat daemon now sitting in her arms, and felt profoundly alone.
"I'm tired. I'm going to bed," he said. "Are you
going to stay in this city?"
"Dunno. I've got to find out more about what I'm looking for.
There must be some Scholars in this world. There must be someone who knows
about it."
"Maybe not in this world. But I came here out of a place
called Oxford. There's plenty of scholars there, if that's what you want."
"Oxford?' she cried. "That's where I come from!"
"Is there an Oxford in your world, then? You never came from
my world."
"No," she said decisively. "Different worlds. But
in my world there's an Oxford too. We're both speaking English, en't we? Stands
to reason there's other things the same. How did you get through? Is there a
bridge, or what?"
"Just a kind of window in the air."
"Show me," she said.
It was a command, not a request. He shook his head.
"Not now," he said. "I want to sleep. Anyway, it's
the middle of the night."
"Then show me in the morning!"
"All right, I'll show you. But I've got my own things to do.
You'll have to find your scholars by yourself."
"Easy," she said. "I know all about Scholars."
He put the plates together and stood up.
"I cooked," he said, "so you can wash the
dishes."
She looked incredulous. "Wash the dishes?" she scoffed.
"There's millions of clean ones lying about! Anyway, I'm not a servant.
I'm not going to wash them."
"So I won't show you the way through."
"I'll find it by myself."
"You won't; it's hidden. You'd never find it. Listen, I don't
know how long we can stay in this place. We've got to eat, so we'll eat what's
here, but we'll tidy up afterward and keep the place clean, because we ought
to. You wash these dishes. We've got to treat this place right. Now I'm going
to bed. I'll have the other room. I'll see you in the morning."
He went inside, cleaned his teeth with a finger and some
toothpaste from his tattered bag, fell on the double bed, and was asleep in a
moment.
* * *
Lyra waited till she was sure he was asleep, and then took the
dishes into the kitchen and ran them under the tap, rubbing hard with a cloth
until they looked clean. She did the same with the knives and forks, but the
procedure didn't work with the omelette pan, so she tried a bar of yellow soap
on it, and picked at it stubbornly until it looked as clean as she thought it
was going to. Then she dried everything on another cloth and stacked it neatly
on the drainboard.
Because she was still thirsty and because she wanted to try
opening a can, she snapped open another cola and took it upstairs. She listened
outside Will's door and, hearing nothing, tiptoed into the other room and took
out the alethiometer from under her pillow.
She didn't need to be close to Will to ask about him, but she
wanted to look anyway, and she turned his door handle as quietly as she could
before going in.
There was a light on the sea front outside shining straight up
into the room, and in the glow reflected from the ceiling she looked down at
the sleeping boy. He was frowning, and his face glistened with sweat. He was
strong and stocky, not as formed as a grown man, of course, because he wasn't
much older than she was, but he'd be powerful one day. How much easier if his
daemon had been visible! She wondered what its form might be, and whether it
was fixed yet. Whatever its form was, it would express a nature that was
savage, and courteous, and unhappy.
She tiptoed to the window. In the glow from the streetlight she
carefully set the hands of the alethiometer, and relaxed her mind into the
shape of a question. The needle began to sweep around the dial in a series of
pauses and swings almost too fast to watch.
She had asked: What is he? A friend or an enemy?
The alethiometer answered: He is a murderer.
When she saw the answer, she relaxed at once. He could find food,
and show her how to reach Oxford, and those were powers that were useful, but
he might still have been untrustworthy or cowardly. A murderer was a worthy
companion. She felt as safe with him as she'd felt with lorek Byrnison, the
armored bear.
She swung the shutter across the open window so the morning
sunlight wouldn't strike in on his face, and tiptoed out.
TWO
AMONG THE WITCHES
The witch Serafina Pekkala, who had rescued Lyra and the other
children from the experimental station at Bolvangar and flown with her to the
island of Svalbard, was deeply troubled.
In the atmospheric disturbances that followed Lord AsrieFs escape
from his exile on Svalbard, she and her companions were blown far from the
island and many miles out over the frozen sea. Some of them managed to stay
with the damaged balloon of Lee Scoresby, the Texan aeronaut, but Serafina
herself was tossed high into the banks of fog that soon came rolling in from
the gap that Lord AsriePs experiment had torn in the sky.
When she found herself able to control her flight once more, her
first thought was of Lyra; for she knew nothing of the fight between the false
bear-king and the true one, lorek Byrnison, nor of what had happened to Lyra
after that.
So she began to search for her, flying through the cloudy
gold-tinged air on her branch of cloud-pine, accompanied by her daemon, Kaisa
the snow goose. They moved back toward Svalbard and south a little, soaring for
several hours under a sky turbulent with strange lights and shadows. Serafina
Pekkala knew from the unsettling tingle of the light on her skin that it came
from another world.
After some time had passed, Kaisa said, "Look! A witch's
daemon, lost..."
Serafina Pekkala looked through the fog banks and saw a tern,
circling and crying in the chasms of misty light. They wheeled and flew toward
him. Seeing them come near, the tern darted up in alarm, but Serafina Pekkala
signaled friendship, and he dropped down beside them.
Serafina Pekkala said, "What clan are you from?"
"Taymyr," he told her. "My witch is captured. Our
companions have been driven away! am lost!"
"Who has captured your witch?"
"The woman with the monkey daemon, from Bolvangar.... Help
me! Help us! I am so afraid!"
"Was your clan allied with the child cutters?"
"Yes, until we found out what they were doing. After the
fight at Bolvangar they drove us off, but my witch was taken prisoner. They
have her on a ship. ... What can I do? She is calling to me and I can't find
her! Oh, help, help me!"
"Quiet," said Kaisa, the goose daemon. "Listen down
below."
They glided lower, listening with keen ears, and Serafina Pekkala
soon made out the beat of a gas engine, muffled by the fog.
"They can't navigate a ship in fog like this," Kaisa
said. "What are they doing?"
"It's a smaller engine than that," said Serafina
Pekkala, and as she spoke there came a new sound from a different direction: a
low, brutal, shuddering blast, like some immense sea creature calling from the
depths. It roared for several seconds and then stopped abruptly.
"The ship's foghorn," said Serafina Pekkala.
They wheeled low over the water and cast about again for the sound
of the engine. Suddenly they found it, for the fog seemed to have patches of
different density, and the witch darted up out of sight just in time as a
launch came chugging slowly through the swathes of damp air. The swell was slow
and oily, as if the water was reluctant to rise.
They swung around and above, the tern daemon keeping close like a
child to its mother, and watched the steersman adjust the course slightly as
the foghorn boomed again. There was a light mounted on the bow, but all it lit
up was the fog a few yards in front.
Serafina Pekkala said to the lost daemon: "Did you say there
are still some witches helping these people?"
"I think so—a few renegade witches from Volgorsk, unless
they've fled too," he told her. "What are you going to do? Will you
look for my witch?"
"Yes. But stay with Kaisa for now."
Serafina Pekkala flew down toward the launch, leaving the daemons
out of sight above, and alighted on the counter just behind the steersman. His
seagull daemon squawked, and the man turned to look.
"You taken your time, en't you?" he said. "Get up
ahead and guide us in on the port side."
She took off again at once. It had worked: they still had some
witches helping them, and he thought she was one. Port was left, she
remembered, and the port light was red. She cast about in the fog until she
caught its hazy glow no more than a hundred yards away. She darted back and
hovered above the launch calling directions to the steersman, who slowed the
craft down to a crawling pace and brought it in to the ship's gangway ladder
that hung just above the water line. The steersman called, and a sailor threw a
line from above, and another hurried down the ladder to make it fast to the
launch.
Serafina Pekkala flew up to the ship's rail, and retreated to the
shadows by the lifeboats. She could see no other witches, but they were
probably patrolling the skies; Kaisa would know what to do.
Below, a passenger was leaving the launch and climbing the ladder.
The figure was fur-swathed, hooded, anonymous; but as it reached the deck, a
golden monkey daemon swung himself lightly up on the rail and glared around,
his black eyes radiating malevolence. Serafina caught her breath: the figure
was Mrs. Coulter.
A dark-clothed man hurried out on deck to greet her, and looked
around as if he were expecting someone else as well.
"Lord Boreal—" he began.
But Mrs. Coulter interrupted: "He has gone on elsewhere. Have
they started the torture?"
"Yes, Mrs. Coulter," was the reply, "but—"
"I ordered them to wait," she snapped. "Have they
taken to disobeying me? Perhaps there should be more discipline on this
ship."
She pushed her hood back. Serafina Pekkala saw her face clearly in
the yellow light: proud, passionate, and, to the witch, so young.
"Where are the other witches?" she demanded.
The man from the ship said, "All gone, ma'am. Red to their
homeland."
"But a witch guided the launch in," said Mrs. Coulter.
"Where has she gone?"
Serafina shrank back; obviously the sailor in the launch hadn't
heard the latest state of things. The cleric looked around, bewildered, but
Mrs. Coulter was too impatient, and after a cursory glance above and along the
deck, she shook her head and hurried in with her daemon through the open door
that cast a yellow nimbus on the air. The man followed.
Serafina Pekkala looked around to check her position. She was
concealed behind a ventilator on the narrow area of decking between the rail
and the central superstructure of the ship; and on this level, facing forward
below the bridge and the funnel, was a saloon from which windows, not portholes,
looked out on three sides. That was where the people had gone in. Light spilled
thickly from the windows onto the fog-pearled railing, and dimly showed up the
foremast and the canvas-covered hatch. Everything was wringing wet and
beginning to freeze into stiffness. No one could see Serafina where she was;
but if she wanted to see any more, she would have to leave her hiding place.
That was too bad. With her pine branch she could escape, and with
her knife and her bow she could fight. She hid the branch behind the ventilator
and slipped along the deck until she reached the first window. It was fogged
with condensation and impossible to see through, and Serafina could hear no
voices, either. She withdrew to the shadows again.
There was one thing she could do; she was reluctant, because it
was desperately risky, and it would leave her exhausted; but it seemed there
was no choice. It was a kind of magic she could work to make herself unseen.
True invisibility was impossible, of course: this was mental magic, a kind of
fiercely held modesty that could make the spell worker not invisible but simply
unnoticed. Holding it with the right degree of intensity, she could pass
through a crowded room, or walk beside a solitary traveler, without being seen.
So now she composed her mind and brought all her concentration to
bear on the matter of altering the way she held herself so as to deflect
attention completely. It took some minutes before she was confident. She tested
it by stepping out of her hiding place and into the path of a sailor coming
along the deck with a bag of tools. He stepped aside to avoid her without
looking at her once.
She was ready. She went to the door of the brightly lit saloon and
opened it, finding the room empty. She left the outer door ajar so that she
could flee through it if she needed to, and saw a door at the far end of the
room that opened on to a flight of stairs leading down into the bowels of the
ship. She descended, and found herself in a narrow corridor hung with
white-painted pipework and illuminated with anbaric bulkhead lights, which led
straight along the length of the hull, with doors opening off it on both sides.
She walked quietly along, listening, until she heard voices. It
sounded as if some kind of council was in session.
She opened the door and walked in.
A dozen or so people were seated around a large table. One or two
of them looked up for a moment, gazed at her absently, and forgot her at once.
She stood quietly near the door and watched. The meeting was being chaired by
an elderly man in the robes of a Cardinal, and the rest of them seemed to be
clerics of one sort or another, apart from Mrs. Coulter, who was the only woman
present. Mrs. Coulter had thrown her furs over the back of the chair, and her
cheeks were flushed in the heat of the ship's interior.
Serafina Pekkala looked around carefully and saw someone else in
the room as well: a thin-faced man with a frog daemon, seated to one side at a
table laden with leather-bound books and loose piles of yellowed paper. She
thought at first that he was a clerk or a secretary, until she saw what he was
doing: he was intently gazing at a golden instrument like a large watch or a
compass, stopping every minute or so to note what he found. Then he would open
one of the books, search laboriously through the index, and look up a reference
before writing that down too and turning back to the instrument.
Serafina looked back to the discussion at the table, because she
heard the word witch.
"She knows something about the child," said one of the
clerics. "She confessed that she knows something. All the witches know
something about her."
"I am wondering what Mrs. Coulter knows," said the
Cardinal. "Is there something she should have told us before, I
wonder?"
"You will have to speak more plainly than that," said
Mrs. Coulter icily. "You forget I am a woman, Your Eminence, and thus not
so subtle as a prince of the Church. What is this truth that I should have
known about the child?"
The Cardinal's expression was full of meaning, but he said nothing.
There was a pause, and then another cleric said almost apologetically:
"It seems that there is a prophecy. It concerns the child,
you see, Mrs. Coulter. All the signs have been fulfilled. The circumstances of
her birth, to begin with. The gyptians know something about her too—they speak
of her in terms of witch oil and marsh fire, uncanny, you see—hence her success
in leading the gyptian men to Bolvangar. And then there's her astonishing feat
of deposing the bear-king lofur Raknison—this is no ordinary child. Fra Pavel
can tell us more, perhaps...."
He glanced at the thin-faced man reading the alethiometer, who
blinked, rubbed his eyes, and looked at Mrs. Coulter.
"You may be aware that this is the only alethiometer left,
apart from the one in the child's possession," he said. "All the
others have been acquired and destroyed, by order of the Magisterium. I learn
from this instrument that the child was given hers by the Master of Jordan
College, and that she learned to read it by herself, and that she can use it
without the books of readings. If it were possible to disbelieve the
alethiometer, I would do so, because to use the instrument without the books is
simply inconceivable to me. It takes decades of diligent study to reach any
sort of understanding. She began to read it within a few weeks of acquiring it,
and now she has an almost complete mastery. She is like no human Scholar I can
imagine."
"Where is she now, Fra Pavel?" said the Cardinal.
"In the other world," said Fra Pavel. "It is
already late."
"The witch knows!" said another man, whose muskrat
dasmon gnawed unceasingly at a pencil. "It's all in place but for the
witch's testimony! I say we should torture her again!"
"What is this prophecy?" demanded Mrs. Coulter, who had
been getting increasingly angry. "How dare you keep it from me?"
Her power over them was visible. The golden monkey glared around
the table, and none of them could look him in the face.
Only the Cardinal did not flinch. His daemon, a macaw, lifted a
foot and scratched her head.
"The witch has hinted at something extraordinary," the
Cardinal said. "I dare not believe what I think it means. If it's true, it
places on us the most terrible responsibility men and women have ever faced.
But I ask you again, Mrs. Coulter—what do you know of the child and her
father?"
Mrs. Coulter had lost her flush. Her face was chalk-white with
fury.
"How dare you interrogate me?" she spat. "And how
dare you keep from me what you've learned from the witch? And, finally, how
dare you assume that I am keeping something from you? D'you think I'm on her
side? Or perhaps you think I'm on her father's side? Perhaps you think I should
be tortured like the witch. Well, we are all under your command, Your Eminence.
You have only to snap your fingers and you could have me torn apart. But if you
searched every scrap of flesh for an answer, you wouldn't find one, because I
know nothing of this prophecy, nothing whatever. And I demand that you tell me
what you know. My child, my own child, conceived in sin and born in shame, but
my child nonetheless, and you keep from me what I have every right to
know!"
"Please," said another of the clerics nervously.
"Please, Mrs. Coulter, the witch hasn't spoken yet; we shall learn more
from her. Cardinal Sturrock himself says that she's only hinted at it."
"And suppose the witch doesn't reveal it?" Mrs. Coulter
said. "What then? We guess, do we? We shiver and quail and guess?"
Fra Pavel said, "No, because that is the question I am now
preparing to put to the alethiometer. We shall find the answer, whether from
the witch or from the books of readings."
"And how long will that take?"
He raised his eyebrows wearily and said, "A considerable
time. It is an immensely complex question."
"But the witch would tell us at once," said Mrs. Coulter.
And she rose to her feet. As if in awe of her, most of the men did
too. Only the Cardinal and Fra Pavel remained seated. Serafina Pekkala stood
back, fiercely holding herself unseen. The golden monkey was gnashing his
teeth, and all his shimmering fur was standing on end.
Mrs. Coulter swung him up to her shoulder.
"So let us go and ask her," she said.
She turned and swept out into the corridor. The men hastened to
follow her, jostling and shoving past Serafina Pekkala, who had only time to
stand quickly aside, her mind in a turmoil. The last to go was the Cardinal.
Serafina took a few seconds to compose herself, because her
agitation was beginning to make her visible. Then she followed the clerics down
the corridor and into a smaller room, bare and white and hot, where they were
all clustered around the dreadful figure in the center: a witch bound tightly
to a steel chair, with agony on her gray face and her legs twisted and broken.
Mrs. Coulter stood over her. Serafina took up a position by the
door, knowing that she could not stay unseen for long; this was too hard.
"Tell us about the child, witch," said Mrs. Coulter.
"No!"
"You will suffer."
"I have suffered enough."
"Oh, there is more suffering to come. We have a thousand
years of experience in this Church of ours. We can draw out your suffering
endlessly. Tell us about the child," Mrs. Coulter said, and reached down
to break one of the witch's fingers. It snapped easily.
The witch cried out, and for a clear second Serafina Pekkala
became visible to everyone, and one or two of the clerics looked at her,
puzzled and fearful; but then she controlled herself again, and they turned
back to the torture.
Mrs. Coulter was saying, "If you don't answer I'll break
another finger, and then another. What do you know about the child? Tell
me."
"All right! Please, please, no more!"
"Answer then."
There came another sickening crack, and this time a flood of
sobbing broke from the witch. Serafina Pekkala could hardly hold herself back.
Then came these words, in a shriek:
"No, no! I'll tell you! I beg you, no more! The child who was
to come ... The witches knew who she was before you did.... We found out her
name...."
"We know her name. What name do you mean?"
"Her true name! The name of her destiny!"
"What is this name? Tell me!" said Mrs. Coulter.
"No... no..."
"And how? Found out how?"
"There was a test.... If she was able to pick out one spray
of cloud-pine from many others, she would be the child who would come, and it
happened at our consul's house at Trollesund, when the child came with the
gyptian men.... The child with the bear..."
Her voice gave out.
Mrs. Coulter gave a little exclamation of impatience, and there
came a loud slap, and a groan.
"But what was your prophecy about this child?" Mrs.
Coulter went on, and her voice was all bronze now, and ringing with passion.
"And what is this name that will make her destiny clear?"
Serafina Pekkala moved closer, even among the tight throng of men
around the witch, and none of them felt her presence at their very elbows. She
must end this witch's suffering, and soon, but the strain of holding herself
unseen was enormous. She trembled as she took the knife from her waist.
The witch was sobbing. "She is the one who came before, and
you have hated and feared her ever since! Well, now she has come again, and you
failed to find her.... She was there on Svalbard—she was with Lord Asriel, and
you lost her. She escaped, and she will be—"
But before she could finish, there came an interruption.
Through the open doorway there flew a tern, mad with terror, and
it beat its wings brokenly as it crashed to the floor and struggled up and
darted to the breast of the tortured witch, pressing itself against her,
nuzzling, chirruping, crying, and the witch called in anguish,
"Yambe-Akka! Come to me, come to me!"
No one but Serafina Pekkala understood. Yambe-Akka was the goddess
who came to a witch when she was about to die.
And Serafina was ready. She became visible at once and stepped
forward smiling happily, because Yambe-Akka was merry and lighthearted and her
visits were gifts of joy. The witch saw her and turned up her tear-stained
face, and Serafina bent to kiss it and slid her knife gently into the witch's
heart. The tern daemon looked up with dim eyes and vanished.
And now Serafina Pekkala would have to fight her way out.
The men were still shocked, disbelieving, but Mrs. Coulter
recovered her wits almost at once.
"Seize her! Don't let her go!" she cried, but Serafina
was already at the door, with an arrow nocked in her bowstring. She swung up
the bow and loosed the arrow in less than a second, and the Cardinal fell
choking and kicking to the floor.
Out, along the corridor to the stairs, turn, nock, loose, and
another man fell; and already a loud jarring bell was filling the ship with its
clangor.
Up the stairs and out onto the deck. Two sailors barred her way,
and she said, "Down there! The prisoner has got loose! Get help!"
That was enough to puzzle them, and they stood undecided, which
gave her tune to dodge past and seize her cloud-pine from where she had hidden
it behind the ventilator.
"Shoot her!" came a cry in Mrs. Coulter's voice from
behind, and at once three rifles fired, and the bullets struck metal and whined
off into the fog as Serafina leaped on the branch and urged it up like one of
her own arrows. A few seconds later she was in the air, in the thick of the
fog, safe, and then a great goose shape glided out of the wraiths of gray to
her side.
"Where to?" he said.
"Away, Kaisa, away," she said. "I want to get the
stench of these people out of my nose."
In truth, she didn't know where to go or what to do next. But
there was one thing she knew for certain: there was an arrow in her quiver that
would find its mark in Mrs. Coulter's throat.
They turned south, away from that troubling other-world gleam in
the fog, and as they flew a question began to form more clearly in Serafina's
mind. What was Lord Asriel doing? Because all the events that had overturned
the world had their origin in his mysterious activities.
The problem was that the usual sources of her knowledge were
natural ones. She could track any animal, catch any fish, find the rarest
berries; and she could read the signs in the pine marten's entrails, or
decipher the wisdom in the scales of a perch, or interpret the warnings in the
crocus pollen; but these were children of nature, and they told her natural
truths.
For knowledge about Lord Asriel, she had to go elsewhere. In the
port of Trollesund, their consul Dr. Lanselius maintained his contact with the
world of men and women, and Serafina Pekkala sped there through the fog to see
what he could tell her. Before she went to his house she circled over the
harbor, where wisps and tendrils of mist drifted ghostlike on the icy water,
and watched as the pilot guided in a large vessel with an African registration.
There were several other ships riding at anchor outside the harbor. She had
never seen so many.
As the short day faded, she flew down and landed in the back
garden of the consul's house. She tapped on the window, and Dr. Lanselius
himself opened the door, a finger to his lips.
"Serafina Pekkala, greetings," he said. "Come in
quickly, and welcome. But you had better not stay long." He offered her a
chair at the fireside, having glanced through the curtains out of a window that
fronted the street. "You'll have some wine?'
She sipped the golden Tokay and told him of what she had seen and
heard aboard the ship.
"Do you think they understood what she said about the
child?" he asked.
"Not fully, I think. But they know she is important. As for
that woman, I'm afraid of her, Dr. Lanselius. I shall kill her, I think, but
still I'm afraid of her."
"Yes," he said. "So am I."
And Serafina listened as he told her of the rumors that had swept
the town. Amid the fog of rumor, a few facts had begun to emerge clearly.
'They say that the Magisterium is assembling the greatest army
ever known, and this is an advance party. And there are unpleasant rumors about
some of the soldiers, Serafina Pekkala. I've heard about Bolvangar, and what
they were doing there—cutting children's daemons away, the most evil work I've
ever heard of. Well, it seems there is a regiment of warriors who have been
treated in the same way. Do you know the word zombi? They fear nothing,
because they're mindless. There are some in this town now. The authorities keep
them hidden, but word gets out, and the townspeople are terrified of
them."
"What of the other witch clans?" said Serafina Pekkala.
"What news do you have of them?"
"Most have gone back to their homelands. All the witches are
waiting, Serafina Pekkala, with fear in their hearts, for what will happen
next."
"And what do you hear of the Church?"
"They're in complete confusion. You see, they don't know what
Lord Asriel intends to do."
"Nor do I," she said, "and I can't imagine what it
might be. What do you think he's intending, Dr. Lanselius?"
He gently rubbed the head of his serpent daemon with his thumb.
"He is a scholar," he said after a moment, "but
scholarship is not his ruling passion. Nor is statesmanship. I met him once,
and I thought he had an ardent and powerful nature, but not a despotic one. I
don't think he wants to rule.... I don't know, Serafina Pekkala. I suppose his
servant might be able to tell you. He is a man called Thorold, and he was
imprisoned with Lord Asriel in the house on Svalbard. It might be worth a visit
there to see if he can tell you anything; but, of course, he might have gone
into the other world with his master."
"Thank you. That's a good idea.... I'll do it. And I'll go at
once."
She said farewell to the consul and flew up through the gathering
dark to join Kaisa in the clouds.
Serafina's journey to the north was made harder by the confusion
in the world around her. All the Arctic peoples had been thrown into panic, and
so had the animals, not only by the fog and the magnetic variations but by
unseasonal crackings of ice and stirrings in the soil. It was as if the earth
itself, the permafrost, were slowly awakening from a long dream of being
frozen.
In all this turmoil, where sudden shafts of uncanny brilliance
lanced down through rents in towers of fog and then vanished as quickly, where
herds of muskox were seized by the urge to gallop south and then wheeled
immediately to the west or the north again, where tight-knit skeins of geese disintegrated
into a honking chaos as the magnetic fields they flew by wavered and snapped
this way and that, Serafina Pekkala sat on her cloud-pine and flew north, to
the house on the headland in the wastes of Svalbard.
There she found Lord Asriel's servant, Thorold, fighting off a
group of cliff-ghasts.
She saw the movement before she came close enough to see what was
happening. There was a swirl of lunging leathery wings, and a malevolent
yowk-yowk-yowk resounding in the snowy courtyard. A single figure swathed in
furs fired a rifle into the midst of them with a gaunt dog daemon snarling and
snapping beside him whenever one of the filthy things flew low enough.
She didn't know the man, but a cliff-ghast was an enemy always.
She swung around above and loosed a dozen arrows into the melee. With shrieks
and gibberings, the gang—too loosely organized to be called a troop—circled,
saw their new opponent, and fled in confusion. A minute later the skies were
bare again, and their dismayed yowk-yowk-yowk echoed distantly off the
mountains before dwindling into silence.
Serafina flew down to the courtyard and alighted on the trampled,
blood-sprinkled snow. The man pushed back his hood, still holding his rifle
warily, because a witch was an enemy sometimes, and she saw an elderly man,
long-jawed and grizzled and steady-eyed.
"I am a friend of Lyra's," she said. "I hope we can
talk. Look: I lay my bow down."
"Where is the child?" he said.
"In another world. I'm concerned for her safety. And I need
to know what Lord Asriel is doing."
He lowered the rifle and said, "Step inside, then. Look: I
lay my rifle down."
The formalities exchanged, they went indoors. Kaisa glided through
the skies above, keeping watch, while Thorold brewed some coffee and Serafina
told him of her involvement with Lyra.
"She was always a willful child," he said when they were
seated at the oaken table in the glow of a naphtha lamp. "I'd see her
every year or so when his lordship visited his college. I was fond of her,
mind—you couldn't help it. But what her place was in the wider scheme of
things, I don't know."
"What was Lord Asriel planning to do?"
"You don't think he told me, do you, Serafina Pekkala? I'm
his manservant, that's all. I clean his clothes and cook his meals and keep his
house tidy. I may have learned a thing or two in the years I been with his
lordship, but only by picking 'em up accidental. He wouldn't confide in me any
more than in his shaving mug."
"Then tell me the thing or two you've learned by
accident," she insisted.
Thorold was an elderly man, but he was healthy and vigorous, and
he felt flattered by the attention of this young witch and her beauty, as any
man would. He was shrewd, though, too, and he knew the attention was not really
on him but on what he knew; and he was honest, so he did not draw out his
telling for much longer than he needed.
"I can't tell you precisely what he's doing," he said,
"because all the philosophical details are beyond my grasp. But I can tell
you what drives his lordship, though he doesn't know I know. I've seen this in
a hundred little signs. Correct me if I'm wrong, but the witch people have
different gods from ours, en't that right?"
"Yes, that's true."
"But you know about our God? The God of the Church, the one
they call the Authority?"
"Yes, I do."
"Well, Lord Asriel has never found hisself at ease with the
doctrines of the Church, so to speak. I've seen a spasm of disgust cross his
face when they talk of the sacraments, and atonement, and redemption, and
suchlike. It's death among our people, Serafina Pekkala, to challenge the
Church, but Lord Asriel's been nursing a rebellion in his heart for as long as
I've served him, that's one thing I do know."
"A rebellion against the Church?"
"Partly, aye. There was a time when he thought of making it
an issue of force, but he turned away from that."
"Why? Was the Church too strong?"
"No," said the old servant, "that wouldn't stop my
master. Now this might sound strange to you, Serafina Pekkala, but I know the
man better than any wife could know him, better than a mother. He's been my
master and my study for nigh on forty years. I can't follow him to the height
of his thought any more than I can fly, but I can see where he's a-heading even
if I can't go after him. No, it's my belief he turned away from a rebellion
against the Church not because the Church was too strong, but because it was
too weak to be worth the fighting."
"So... what is he doing?"
"I think he's a-waging a higher war than that. I think he's
aiming a rebellion against the highest power of all. He's gone a-searching for
the dwelling place of the Authority Himself, and he's a-going to destroy Him.
That's what I think. It shakes my heart to voice it, ma'am. I hardly dare think
of it. But I can't put together any other story that makes sense of what he's
doing."
Serafina sat quiet for a few moments, absorbing what Thorold had
said.
Before she could speak, he went on:
"'Course, anyone setting out to do a grand thing like that
would be the target of the Church's anger. Goes without saying. It'd be the
most gigantic blasphemy, that's what they'd say. They'd have him before the
Consistorial Court and sentenced to death before you could blink. I've never
spoke of it before and I shan't again; I'd be afraid to speak it aloud to you
if you weren't a witch and beyond the power of the Church; but that makes
sense, and nothing else does. He's a-going to find the Authority and kill
Him."
"Is that possible?" said Serafina.
"Lord Asriel's life has been filled with things that were
impossible. I wouldn't like to say there was anything he couldn't do. But on
the face of it, Serafina Pekkala, yes, he's stark mad. If angels couldn't do
it, how can a man dare to think about it?"
"Angels? What are angels?"
"Beings of pure spirit, the Church says. The Church teaches
that some of the angels rebelled before the world was created, and got flung
out of heaven and into hell. They failed, you see, that's the point. They
couldn't do it. And they had the power of angels. Lord Asriel is just a man,
with human power, no more than that. But his ambition is limitless. He dares to
do what men and women don't even dare to think. And look what he's done
already: he's torn open the sky, he's opened the way to another world. Who else
has ever done that? Who else could think of it? So with one part of me,
Serafina Pekkala, I say he's mad, wicked, deranged. Yet with another part I
think, he's Lord Asriel, he's not like other men. Maybe ... if it was ever
going to be possible, it'd be done by him and by no one else."
"And what will you do, Thorold?"
"I'll stay here and wait. I'll guard this house till he comes
back and tells me different, or till I die. And now I might ask you the same
question, ma'am."
"I'm going to make sure the child is safe," she said.
"It might be that I have to pass this way again, Thorold. I'm glad to know
that you will still be here."
"I won't budge," he told her.
She refused Thorold's offer of food, and said good-bye.
A minute or so later she joined her goose daemon again, and the
daemon kept silence with her as they soared and wheeled above the foggy
mountains. She was deeply troubled, and there was no need to explain: every
strand of moss, every icy puddle, every midge in her homeland thrilled against
her nerves and called her back. She felt fear for them, but fear of herself,
too, for she was having to change. These were human affairs she was inquiring
into, this was a human matter; Lord Asriel's god was not hers. Was she becoming
human? Was she losing her witchhood?
If she were, she could not do it alone.
"Home now," she said. "We must talk to our sisters,
Kaisa. These events are too big for us alone."
And they sped through the roiling banks of fog toward Lake Enara
and home.
* * *
In the forested caves beside the lake they found the others of
their clan, and Lee Scoresby, too. The aeronaut had struggled to keep his
balloon aloft after the crash at Svalbard, and the witches had guided him to
their homeland, where he had begun to repair the damage to his basket and the
gasbag.
"Ma'am, I'm very glad to see you," he said. "Any
news of the little girl?"
"None, Mr. Scoresby. Will you join our council tonight and
help us discuss what to do?"
The Texan blinked with surprise, for no man had ever been known to
join a witch council.
"I'd be greatly honored," he said. "I may have a
suggestion or two of my own."
All through that day the witches came, like flakes of black snow
on the wings of a storm, filling the skies with the darting flutter of their
silk and the swish of air through the needles of their cloud-pine branches. Men
who hunted in the dripping forests or fished among melting ice floes heard the
skywide whisper through the fog, and if the sky was clear, they would look up
to see the witches flying, like scraps of darkness drifting on a secret tide.
By evening the pines around the lake were lit from below by a
hundred fires, and the greatest fire of all was built in front of the gathering
cave. There, once they had eaten, the witches assembled. Serafina Pekkala sat
in the center, the crown of little scarlet flowers nestling among her fair
hair. On her left sat Lee Scoresby, and on her right, a visitor: the queen of
the Latvian witches, whose name was Ruta Skadi.
She had arrived only an hour before, to Serafina's surprise.
Serafina had thought Mrs. Coulter beautiful, for a short-life; but Ruta Skadi
was as lovely as Mrs. Coulter, with an extra dimension of the mysterious, the
uncanny. She had trafficked with spirits, and it snowed. She was vivid and
passionate, with large black eyes; it was said that Lord Asriel himself had been
her lover. She wore heavy gold earrings and a crown on her black curly hair
ringed with the fangs of snow tigers. Serafina's daemon, Kaisa, had learned
from Ruta Skadi's daemon that she had killed the tigers herself in order to
punish the Tartar tribe who worshiped them, because the tribesmen had failed to
do her honor when she had visited their territory. Without their tiger gods,
the tribe declined into fear and melancholy and begged her to allow them to
worship her instead, only to be rejected with contempt; for what good would
their worship do her? she asked. It had done nothing for the tigers. Such was
Ruta Skadi: beautiful, proud, and pitiless.
Serafina was not sure why she had come, but made the queen
welcome, and etiquette demanded that Ruta Skadi should sit on Serafina's right.
When they were all assembled, Serafina began to speak.
"Sisters! You know why we have come together: we must decide
what to do about these new events. The universe is broken wide, and Lord Asriel
has opened the way from this world to another. Should we concern ourselves with
it, or live our lives as we have done until now, looking after our own affairs?
Then there is the matter of the child Lyra Belacqua, now called Lyra
Silvertongue by King lorek Byrnison. She chose the right cloud-pine spray at
the house of Dr. Lanselius: she is the child we have always expected, and now
she has vanished.
"We have two guests, who will tell us their thoughts. First
we shall hear Queen Ruta Skadi."
Ruta Skadi stood. Her white arms gleamed in the firelight; her
eyes glittered so brightly that even the farthest witch could see the play of
expression on her vivid face.
"Sisters," she began, "let me tell you what is
happening, and who it is that we must fight. For there is a war coming. I don't
know who will join with us, but I know whom we must fight. It is the
Magisterium, the Church. For all its history— and that's not long by our lives,
but it's many, many of theirs—it's tried to suppress and control every natural
impulse. And when it can't control them, it cuts them out. Some of you have
seen what they did at Bolvangar. And that was horrible, but it is not the only
such place, not the only such practice. Sisters, you know only the north; I
have traveled in the south lands. There are churches there, believe me, that
cut their children too, as the people of Bolvangar did—not in the same way, but
just as horribly. They cut their sexual organs, yes, both boys and girls; they
cut them with knives so that they shan't feel. That is what the Church does,
and every church is the same: control, destroy, obliterate every good feeling.
So if a war comes, and the Church is on one side of it, we must be on the
other, no matter what strange allies we find ourselves bound to.
"What I propose is that our clans join together and go north
to explore this new world, and see what we can discover there. If the child is
not to be found in our world, it's because she will have gone after Lord Asriel
already. And Lord Asriel is the key to this, believe me. He was my lover once,
and I would willingly join forces with him, because he hates the Church and all
it does.
"That is what I have to say."
Ruta Skadi spoke passionately, and Serafina admired her power and
her beauty. When the Latvian queen sat down, Serafina turned to Lee Scoresby.
"Mr. Scoresby is a friend of the child's, and thus a friend
of ours," she said. "Would you tell us your thoughts, sir?"
The Texan got to his feet, whiplash-lean and courteous. He looked
as if he were not conscious of the strangeness of the occasion, but he was. His
hare daemon, Hester, crouched beside him, her ears flat along her back, her
golden eyes half closed.
"Ma'am," he said, "I have to thank you all first
for the kindness you've shown to me, and the help you extended to an aeronaut
battered by winds that came from another world. I won't trespass long on your
patience.
"When I was traveling north to Bolvangar with the gyptians,
the child Lyra told me about something that happened in the college she used to
live in, back in Oxford. Lord Asriel had shown the other scholars the severed
head of a man called Stanislaus Grumman, and that kinda persuaded them to give
him some money to come north and find out what had happened.
"Now, the child was so sure of what she'd seen that I didn't
like to question her too much. But what she said made a kind of memory come to
my mind, except that I couldn't reach it clearly. I knew something about this
Dr. Grumman. And it was only on the flight here from Svalbard that I remembered
what it was. It was an old hunter from Tungusk who told me. It seems that
Grumman knew the whereabouts of some kind of object that gives protection to
whoever holds it. I don't want to belittle the magic that you witches can
command, but this thing, whatever it is, has a kind of power that outclasses
anything I've ever heard of.
"And I thought I might postpone my retirement to Texas
because of my concern for that child, and search for Dr. Grumman. You see, I
don't think he's dead. I think Lord Asriel was fooling those scholars.
"So I'm going to Nova Zembla, where I last heard of him
alive, and I'm going to search for him. I cain't see the future, but I can see
the present clear enough. And I'm with you in this war, for what my bullets are
worth. But that's the task I'm going to take on, ma'am," he concluded,
turning back to Serafina Pekkala. "I'm going to seek out Stanislaus
Grumman and find out what he knows, and if I can find that object he knows of,
I'll take it to Lyra."
Serafina said, "Have you been married, Mr. Scoresby? Have you
any children?"
"No, ma'am, I have no child, though I would have liked to be
a father. But I understand your question, and you're right: that little girl
has had bad luck with her true parents, and maybe I can make it up to her.
Someone has to do it, and I'm willing."
"Thank you, Mr. Scoresby," she said.
And she took off her crown, and plucked from it one of the little
scarlet flowers that, while she wore them, remained as fresh as if they had
just been picked.
'Take this with you," she said, "and whenever you need
my help, hold it in your hand and call to me. I shall hear you, wherever you
are."
"Why, thank you, ma'am," he said, surprised. He took the
little flower and tucked it carefully into his breast pocket.
"And we shall call up a wind to help you to Nova
Zembla," Serafina Pekkala told him. "Now, sisters, who would like to
speak?"
The council proper began. The witches were democratic, up to a
point; every witch, even the youngest, had the right to speak, but only their
queen had the power to decide. The talk lasted all night, with many passionate
voices for open war at once, and some others urging caution, and a few, though
those were the wisest, suggesting a mission to all the other witch clans to
urge them to join together for the first time.
Ruta Skadi agreed with that, and Serafina sent out messengers at
once. As for what they should do immediately, Serafina picked out twenty of her
finest fighters and ordered them to prepare to fly north with her, into the new
world that Lord Asriel had opened, and search for Lyra.
"What of you, Queen Ruta Skadi?" Serafina said finally.
"What are your plans?"
"I shall search for Lord Asriel, and learn what he's doing
from his own lips. And it seems that the way he's gone is northward too. May I
come the first part of the journey with you, sister?"
"You may, and welcome," said Serafina, who was glad to
have her company. So they agreed.
But soon after the council had broken up, an elderly witch came to
Serafina Pekkala and said, "You had better listen to what Juta Kamainen
has to say, Queen. She's headstrong, but it might be important."
The young witch Juta Kamainen—young by witch standards, that is;
she was only just over a hundred years old—was stubborn and embarrassed, and
her robin daemon was agitated, flying from her shoulder to her hand and
circling high above her before settling again briefly on her shoulder. The
witch's cheeks were plump and red; she had a vivid and passionate nature.
Serafina didn't know her well.
"Queen," said the young witch, unable to stay silent
under Serafina's gaze, "I know the man Stanislaus Grumman. I used to love
him. But I hate him now with such a fervor that if I see him, I shall kill him.
I would have said nothing, but my sister made me tell you."
She glanced with hatred at the elder witch, who returned her look
with compassion: she knew about love.
"Well," said Serafina, "if he is still alive, he'll
have to stay alive until Mr. Scoresby finds him. You had better come with us
into the new world, and then there'll be no danger of your killing him first.
Forget him, Juta Kamainen. Love makes us suffer. But this task of ours is
greater than revenge. Remember that."
"Yes, Queen," said the young witch humbly.
And Serafina Pekkala and her twenty-one companions and Queen Ruta
Skadi of Latvia prepared to fly into the new world, where no witch had ever
flown before.
THREE
A CHILDREN'S WORLD
Lyra was awake early.
She'd had a horrible dream: she had been given the vacuum flask
she'd seen her father, Lord Asriel, show to the Master and Scholars of Jordan
College. When that had really happened, Lyra had been hiding in the wardrobe,
and she'd watched as Lord Asriel opened the flask to show the Scholars the
severed head of Stanislaus Grumman, the lost explorer; but in her dream, Lyra
had to open the flask herself, and she didn't want to. In fact, she was
terrified. But she had to do it, whether she wanted to or not, and she felt her
hands weakening with dread as she undipped the lid and heard the air rash into
the frozen chamber. Then she lifted the lid away, nearly choking with fear but
knowing she had to—she had to do it. And there was nothing inside. The head had
gone. There was nothing to be afraid of.
But she awoke all the same, crying and sweating, in the hot little
bedroom facing the harbor, with the moonlight streaming through the window, and
lay in someone else's bed clutching someone else's pillow, with the ermine
Pantalaimon nuzzling her and making soothing noises. Oh, she was so frightened!
And how odd it was, that in real life she had been eager to see the head of
Stanislaus Grumman, and had begged Lord Asriel to open the flask again and let
her look, and yet in her dream she was so terrified.
When morning came, she asked the alethiometer what the dream
meant, but all it said was, It was a dream about a head.
She thought of waking the strange boy, but he was so deeply asleep
that she decided not to. Instead, she went down to the kitchen and tried to
make an omelette, and twenty minutes later she sat down at a table on the
pavement and ate the blackened, gritty thing with great pride while the sparrow
Pantalaimon pecked at the bits of shell.
She heard a sound behind her, and there was Will, heavy-eyed with
sleep.
"I can make omelette," she said. "I'll make you
some if you like."
He looked at her plate and said, "No, I'll have some cereal.
There's still some milk in the fridge that's all right. They can't have been
gone very long, the people who lived here."
She watched him shake corn flakes into a bowl and pour milk on
them—something else she'd never seen before.
He carried the bowl outside and said, "If you don't come from
this world, where's your world? How did you get here?"
"Over a bridge. My father made this bridge, and ... I
followed him across. But he's gone somewhere else, I don't know where. I don't
care. But while I was walking across there was so much fog, and I got lost, I
think. I walked around in the fog for days just eating berries and stuff I
found. Then one day the fog cleared, and we was up on that cliff back
there—"
She gestured behind her. Will looked along the shore, past the
lighthouse, and saw the coast rising in a great series of cliffs that
disappeared into the haze of the distance.
"And we saw the town here, and came down, but there was no
one here. At least there were things to eat and beds to sleep in. We didn't
know what to do next."
"You sure this isn't another part of your world?"
'"Course. This en't my world, I know that for certain."
Will remembered his own absolute certainty, on seeing the patch of
grass through the window in the air, that it wasn't in his world, and he
nodded.
"So there's three worlds at least that are joined on,"
he said.
"There's millions and millions," Lyra said. "This
other daemon told me. He was a witch's daemon. No one can count how many worlds
there are, all in the same space, but no one could get from one to another
before my father made this bridge."
"What about the window I found?"
"I dunno about that. Maybe all the worlds are starting to
move into one another."
"And why are you looking for dust?"
She looked at him coldly. "I might tell you sometime,"
she said.
"All right. But how are you going to look for it?"
"I'm going to find a Scholar who knows about it."
"What, any scholar?"
"No. An experimental theologian," she said. "In my
Oxford, they were the ones who knew about it. Stands to reason it'll be the
same in your Oxford. I'll go to Jordan College first, because Jordan had the
best ones."
"I never heard of experimental theology," he said.
"They know all about elementary particles and fundamental
forces," she explained. "And anbaromagnetism, stuff like that.
Atomcraft."
"What-magnetism?"
"Anbaromagnetism. Like anbaric. Those lights," she said,
pointing up at the ornamental streetlight. "They're anbaric."
"We call them electric."
"Electric ... that's like electrum. That's a kind of stone, a
jewel, made out of gum from bees. There's bisects in it, sometimes."
"You mean amber," he said, and they both said,
"Anbar..."
And each of them saw their own expression on the other's face.
Will remembered that moment for a long time afterward.
"Well, electromagnetism," he went on, looking away.
"Sounds like what we call physics, your experimental theology. You want
scientists, not theologians."
"Ah," she said warily. "I'll find "em."
They sat hi the wide clear morning, with the sun glittering
placidly on the harbor, and each of them might have spoken next, because both
of them were burning with questions; but then they heard a voice from farther
along the harbor front, toward the casino gardens.
Both of them looked there, startled. It was a child's voice, but
there was no one in sight.
Will said to Lyra quietly, "How long did you say you'd been
herer
"Three days, four—I lost count. I never seen anyone. There's
no one here. I looked almost everywhere."
But there was. Two children, one a girl of Lyra's age and the
other a younger boy, came out of one of the streets leading down to the harbor.
They were carrying baskets, and both had red hair. They were about a hundred
yards away when they saw Will and Lyra at the cafe table.
Pantalaimon changed from a goldfinch to a mouse and ran up Lyra's
arm to the pocket of her shirt. He'd seen that these new children were like
Will: neither of them had a dsmon visible.
The two children wandered up and sat at a table nearby.
"You from Ci'gazze?" the girl said.
Will shook his head.
"From Sant'Elia?"
"No," said Lyra. "We're from somewhere else."
The girl nodded. This was a reasonable reply.
"What's happening?" said Will. "Where are the
grownups?"
The girl's eyes narrowed. "Didn't the Specters come to your
city?" she said.
"No," Will said. "We just got here. We don't know
about Specters. What is this city called?"
"Ci'gazze," the girl said suspiciously.
"Cittagazze, all right."
"Cittagazze," Lyra repeated. "Ci'gazze. Why do the grown-ups
have to leave?"
"Because of the Specters," the girl said with weary
scorn. "What's your name?"
"Lyra. And he's Will. What's yours?"
"Angelica. My brother is Paolo."
"Where've you come from?"
"Up the hills. There was a big fog and storm and everyone was
frightened, so we all run up in the hills. Then when the fog cleared, the
grownups could see with telescopes that the city was full of Specters, so they
couldn't come back. But the kids, we ain' afraid of Specters, all right.
There's more kids coming down. They be here later, but we're first."
"Us and Tullio," said little Paolo proudly.
"Who's Tullio?"
Angelica was cross: Paolo shouldn't have mentioned him, but the
secret was out now.
"Our big brother," she said. "He ain' with us. He's
hiding till he can ... He's just hiding."
"He's gonna get—" Paolo began, but Angelica smacked him
hard, and he shut his mouth at once, pressing his quivering lips together.
"What did you say about the city?" said Will. "It's
full of Specters?"
"Yeah, Ci'gazze, Sant'Elia, all cities. The Specters go where
the people are. Where you from?"
"Winchester," said Will.
"I never heard of it. They ain' got Specters there?"
"No. I can't see any here, either."
'"Course not!" she crowed. "You ain' grown up! When
we grow up, we see Specters."
"I ain' afraid of Specters, all right," the little boy
said, thrusting forward his grubby chin. "Kill the buggers."
"En't the grownups going to come back at all?" said
Lyra.
"Yeah, in a few days," said Angelica. "When the
Specters go somewhere else. We like it when the Specters come, 'cause we can
run about in the city, do what we like, all right."
"But what do the grownups think the Specters will do to
them?" Will said.
"Well, when a Specter catch a grownup, that's bad to see.
They eat the life out of them there and then, all right. I don't want to be
grown up, for sure. At first they know it's happening, and they're afraid; they
cry and cry. They try and look away and pretend it ain' happening, but it is.
It's too late. And no one ain' gonna go near them, they on they own. Then they
get pale and they stop moving. They still alive, but it's like they been eaten
from inside. You look in they eyes, you see the back of they heads. Ain'
nothing there."
The girl turned to her brother and wiped his nose on the sleeve of
his shirt.
"Me and Paolo's going to look for ice creams," she said.
"You want to come and find some?"
"No," said Will, "we got something else to
do." "Good-bye, then," she said, and Paolo said, "Kill the
Specters!"
"Good-bye," said Lyra.
As soon as Angelica and the little boy had vanished, Panta-laimon
appeared from Lyra's pocket, his mouse head ruffled and bright-eyed.
He said to Will, "They don't know about this window you
found."
It was the first time Will had heard him speak, and he was almost
more startled by that than by anything else he'd seen so far. Lyra laughed at
his astonishment.
"He—but he spoke! Do all daemons talk?" Will said.
'"Course they do!" said Lyra. "Did you think he was just a pet?”
Will rubbed his hair and blinked. Then he shook his head.
"No," he said, addressing Pantalaimon. "You're right, I think.
They don't know about it."
"So we better be careful how we go through," Pantalaimon
said.
It was strange for only a moment, talking to a mouse. Then it was
no more strange than talking into a telephone, because he was really talking to
Lyra. But the mouse was separate; there was something of Lyra in his
expression, but something else too. It was too hard to work out, when there
were so many strange things happening at once. Will tried to bring his thoughts
together.
"You got to find some other clothes first," he said to
Lyra, "before you go into my Oxford."
"Why?" she said stubbornly.
"Because you can't go and talk to people in my world looking
like that; they wouldn't let you near them. You got to look as if you fit in.
You got to go about camouflaged. I know, see. I've been doing it for years. You
better listen to me or you'll get caught, and if they find out where you come
from, and the window, and everything ... Well, this is a good hiding place,
this world. See, I'm ... I got to hide from some men. This is the best hiding
place I could dream of, and I don't want it found out. So I don't want you
giving it away by looking out of place or as if you don't belong. 1 got my own
things to do in Oxford, and if you give me away, I'll kill you."
She swallowed. The alethiometer never lied: this boy was a
murderer, and if he'd killed before, he could kill her, too. She nodded
seriously, and she meant it.
"All right," she said.
Pantalaimon had become a lemur, and was gazing at him with
disconcerting wide eyes. Will stared back, and the daemon became a mouse once
more and crept into Lyra's pocket.
"Good," he said. "Now, while we're here, we'll
pretend to these other kids that we just come from somewhere in their world.
It's good there aren't any grownups about. We can just come and go and no
one'11 notice. But in my world, you got to do as I say. And the first thing is
you better wash yourself. You need to look clean, or you'll stand out. We got
to be camouflaged everywhere we go. We got to look as if we belong there so
naturally that people don't even notice us. So go and wash your hair for a
start. There's some shampoo in the bathroom. Then we'll go and find some
different clothes."
"I dunno how," she said. "I never washed my hair.
The housekeeper done it at Jordan, and then I never needed to after that."
"Well, you'll just have to work it out," he said.
"Wash yourself all over. In my world people are clean."
"Hmm," said Lyra, and went upstairs. A ferocious rat
face glared at him over her shoulder, but he looked back coldly.
Part of him wanted to wander about this sunny silent morning
exploring the city, and another part trembled with anxiety for his mother, and
another part was still numb with shock at the death he'd caused. And
overhanging them all was the task he had to do. But it was good to keep busy,
so while he waited for Lyra, he cleaned the working surfaces in the kitchen,
and washed the floor, and emptied the rubbish into the bin he found in the
alley outside.
Then he took the green leather writing case from his tote bag and
looked at it longingly. As soon as he'd shown Lyra how to get through the
window into his Oxford, he'd come back and look at what was inside; but in the
meanwhile, he tucked it under the mattress of the bed he'd slept in. In this
world, it was safe.
When Lyra came down, clean and wet, they left to look for some
clothes for her. They found a department store, shabby like everywhere else,
with clothes in styles that looked a little old-fashioned to Will's eye, but
they found Lyra a tartan skirt and a green sleeveless blouse with a pocket for
Pantalaimon. She refused to wear jeans, refused even to believe Will when he
told her that most girls did.
"They're trousers," she said. "I'm a girl. Don't be
stupid."
He shrugged; the tartan skirt looked unremarkable, which was the
main thing. Before they left, Will dropped some coins in the till behind the
counter.
"What you doing?" she said.
"Paying. You have to pay for things. Don't they pay for
things in your world?"
"They don't in this one! I bet those other kids en't paying
for a thing."
"They might not, but I do."
"If you start behaving like a grownup, the Specters'11 get
you," she said, but she didn't know whether she could tease him yet or
whether she should be afraid of him.
In the daylight, Will could see how ancient the buildings in the
heart of the city were, and how near to ruin some of them had come. Holes in
the road had not been repaired; windows were broken; plaster was peeling. And
yet there had once been a beauty and grandeur about this place. Through carved
archways they could see spacious courtyards filled with greenery, and there
were great buildings that looked like palaces, for all that the steps were cracked
and the doorframes loose from the walls. It looked as if rather than knock a
building down and build a new one, the citizens of Ci'gazze preferred to patch
it up indefinitely.
At one point they came to a tower standing on its own in a little
square. It was the oldest building they'd seen: a simple battlemented tower
four stories high. Something about its stillness in the bright sun was
intriguing, and both Will and Lyra felt drawn to the half-open door at the top
of the broad steps; but they didn't speak of it, and they went on, a bit
reluctantly.
When they reached the broad boulevard with the palm trees, he told
her to look for a little cafe on a corner, with green-painted metal tables on
the pavement outside. They found it within a minute. It looked smaller and
shabbier by daylight, but it was the same place, with the zinc-topped bar, the
espresso machine, and the half-finished plate of risotto, now beginning to
smell bad in the warm air.
"Is it in here?" she said.
"No. It's in the middle of the road. Make sure there's no
other kids around."
But they were alone. Will took her to the grassy median under the
palm trees, and looked around to get his bearings.
"I think it was about here," he said. "When I came
through, I could just about see that big hill behind the white house up there,
and looking this way there was the cafe there, and ..."
"What's it look like? I can't see anything."
"You won't mistake it. It doesn't look like anything you've
ever seen."
He cast up and down. Had it vanished? Had it closed? He couldn't
see it anywhere.
And then suddenly he had it. He moved back and forth, watching the
edge. Just as he'd found the night before, on the Oxford side of it, you could
only see it at all from one side: when you moved behind it, it was invisible. And
the sun on the grass beyond it was just like the sun on the grass on this side,
except unaccountably different.
"Here it is," he said when he was sure.
"Ah! I see it!"
She was agog, she looked as astounded as he'd looked himself to
hear Pantalaimon talk. Her dcemon, unable to remain inside her pocket, had come
out to be a wasp, and he buzzed up to the hole and back several times, while
she rubbed her still slightly wet hair into spikes.
"Keep to one side," he told her. "If you stand in
front of it people'd just see a pair of legs, and that would make 'em
curious. I don't want anyone noticing."
"What's that noise?"
"Traffic. It's a part of the Oxford ring road. It's bound to
be busy. Get down and look at it from the side. It's the wrong time of day to
go through, really; there's far too many people about. But it'd be hard to find
somewhere to go if we went in the middle of the night. At least once we're
through we can blend in easy. You go first. Just duck through quickly and move
out of the way."
She had a little blue rucksack that she'd been carrying since they
left the cafe, and she unslung it and held it in her arms before crouching to
look through.
"Ah!" She gasped. "And that's your world? That
don't look like any part of Oxford. You sure you was in Oxford?"
'"Course I'm sure. When you go through, you'll see a road
right in front of you. Go to the left, and then a little farther along you take
the road that goes down to the right. That leads to the city center. Make sure
you can see where this window is, and remember, all right? It's the only way
back."
"Right," she said. "I won't forget."
Taking her rucksack in her arms, she ducked through the window in
the air and vanished. Will crouched down to see where she went.
And there she was, standing on the grass in his Oxford with Pan
still as a wasp on her shoulder, and no one, as far as he could tell, had seen
her appear. Cars and trucks raced past a few feet beyond, and no driver, at
this busy junction, would have time to gaze sideways at an odd-looking bit of
air, even if they could see it, and the traffic screened the window from anyone
looking across from the far side.
There was a squeal of brakes, a shout, a bang. He flung himself
down to look.
Lyra was lying on the grass. A car had braked so hard that a van
had struck it from behind, and knocked the car forward anyway, and there was
Lyra, lying still—
Will darted through after her. No one saw him come; all eyes were
on the car, the crumpled bumper, the van driver getting out, and on the little
girl.
"I couldn't help it! She ran out in front," said the car
driver, a middle-aged woman. "You were too close," she said,
turning toward the van driver.
"Never mind that," he said. "How's the kid?"
The van driver was addressing Will, who was on his knees beside
Lyra. Will looked up and around, but there was nothing for it; he was
responsible. On the grass next to him, Lyra was moving her head about, blinking
hard. Will saw the wasp Pan-talaimon crawling dazedly up a grass stem beside
her.
"You all right?" Will said. "Move your legs and
arms."
"Stupid!" said the woman from the car. "Just ran
out in front. Didn't look once. What am I supposed to do?"
"You still there, love?" said the van driver.
"Yeah," muttered Lyra.
"Everything working?"
"Move your feet and hands," Will insisted.
She did. There was nothing broken.
"She's all right," said Will. "I'll look after her.
She's fine."
"D'you know her?" said the truck driver.
"She's my sister," said Will. "It's all right. We
just live around the corner. I'll take her home."
Lyra was sitting up now, and as she was obviously not badly hurt,
the woman turned her attention back to the car. The rest of the traffic was
moving around the two stationary vehicles, and as they went past, the drivers
looked curiously at the little scene, as people always do. Will helped Lyra up;
the sooner they moved away, the better. The woman and the van driver had
realized that their argument ought to be handled by then-insurance companies
and were exchanging addresses when the woman saw Will helping Lyra to limp
away.
"Wait!" she called. "You'll be witnesses. I need
your name and address."
"I'm Mark Ransom," said Will, turning back, "and my
sister's Lisa. We live at twenty-six Bourne Close."
"Postcode?"
"I can never remember," he said. "Look, I want to
get her home."
"Hop in the cab," said the van driver, "and I'll
take you round."
"No, it's no trouble. It'd be quicker to walk, honest."
Lyra wasn't limping badly. She walked away with Will, back along
the grass under the hornbeam trees, and turned at the first corner they came
to.
They sat on a low garden wall.
"You hurt?" Will said.
"Banged me leg. And when I fell down, it shook me head,"
she said.
But she was more concerned about what was in the rucksack. She
felt inside it, brought out a heavy little bundle wrapped in black velvet, and
unfolded it. Will's eyes widened to see the alethiometer; the tiny symbols
painted around the face, the golden hands, the questing needle, the heavy
richness of the case took his breath away.
"What's that?" he said.
"It's my alethiometer. It's a truth teller. A symbol reader.
I hope it en't broken...."
But it was unharmed. Even in her trembling hands the long needle
swung steadily. She put it away and said, "I never seen so many carts and
things. I never guessed they was going so fast."
"They don't have cars and vans in your Oxford?"
"Not so many. Not like these ones. I wasn't used to it. But
I'm all right now."
"Well, be careful from now on. If you go and walk under a bus
or get lost or something, they'll realize you're not from this world and start
looking for the way through...."
He was far more angry than he needed to be. Finally he said,
"All right, look. If you pretend you're my sister, that'll be a disguise
for me, because the person they're looking for hasn't got a sister. And if I'm
with you, I can show you how to cross roads without getting killed."
"All right," she said humbly.
"And money. I bet you haven't—-well, how could you have any
money? How are you going to get around and eat and so on?"
"I have got money," she said, and shook some gold coins
out of her purse.
Will looked at them incredulously.
"Is that gold? It is, isn't it? Well, that would get people
asking questions, and no mistake. You're just not safe. I'll give you some
money. Put those coins away and keep them out of sight. And remember—you're my
sister, and your name's Lisa Ransom."
"Lizzie. I pretended to call myself Lizzie before. I can
remember that."
"All right, Lizzie then. And I'm Mark. Don't forget."
"All right," she said peaceably.
Her leg was going to be painful; already it was red and swollen
where the car had struck it, and a dark, massive bruise was forming. What with
the bruise on her cheek where he'd struck her the night before, she looked as
if she'd been badly treated, and that worried him too—suppose some police
officer should become curious?
He tried to put it out of his mind, and they set off together,
crossing at the traffic lights and casting just one glance back at the window
under the hornbeam trees. They couldn't see it at all. It was quite invisible,
and the traffic was flowing again.
In Summertown, ten minutes' walk down the Banbury Road, Will
stopped in front of a bank.
"What are you doing?" said Lyra.
"I'm going to get some money. I probably better not do it too
often, but they won't register it till the end of the working day, I shouldn't
think."
He put his mother's bank card into the automatic teller and tapped
out her PIN number. Nothing seemed to be going wrong, so he withdrew a hundred
pounds, and the machine gave it up without a hitch. Lyra watched open-mouthed.
He gave her a twenty-pound note.
"Use that later," he said. "Buy something and get
some change. Let's find a bus into town."
Lyra let him deal with the bus. She sat very quietly, watching the
houses and gardens of the city that was hers and not hers. It was like being in
someone else's dream. They got off in the city center next to an old stone
church, which she did know, opposite a big department store, which she didn't.
"It's all changed," she said. "Like ... That en't
the Corn-market? And this is the Broad. There's Balliol. And Bodley's Library,
down there. But where's Jordan?"
Now she was trembling badly. It might have been delayed reaction
from the accident, or present shock from finding an entirely different building
in place of the Jordan College she knew as home.
"That en't right," she said. She spoke quietly, because
Will had told her to stop pointing out so loudly the things that were wrong.
"This is a different Oxford."
"Well, we knew that," he said.
He wasn't prepared for Lyra's wide-eyed helplessness. He couldn't
know how much of her childhood had been spent running about streets almost
identical with these, and how proud she'd been of belonging to Jordan College,
whose Scholars were the cleverest, whose coffers the richest, whose beauty the
most splendid of all. And now it simply wasn't there, and she wasn't Lyra of
Jordan anymore; she was a lost little girl in a strange world, belonging
nowhere.
"Well," she said shakily. "If it en't here
..."
It was going to take longer than she'd thought, that was all.
FOUR
TREPANNING
As soon as Lyra had gone her way, Will found a pay phone and
dialed the number of the lawyer's office on the letter he held.
"Hello? I want to speak to Mr. Perkins."
"Who's calling, please?"
"It's in connection with Mr. John Parry. I'm his son."
"Just a moment, please..."
A minute went by, and then a man's voice said, "Hello. This
is Alan Perkins. Who am I speaking to?"
"William Parry. Excuse me for calling. It's about my father,
Mr. John Parry. You send money every three months from my father to my mother's
bank account."
"Yes..."
"Well, I want to know where my father is, please. Is he alive
or dead?"
"How old are you, William?"
"Twelve. I want to know about him."
"Yes ... Has your mother ... is she ... does she know you're
phoning me?"
Will thought carefully.
"No," he said. "But she's not in very good health.
She can't tell me very much, and I want to know."
"Yes, I see. Where are you now? Are you at home?"
"No, I'm ... I'm in Oxford."
"On your own?"
"Yes."
"And your mother's not well, you say?"
"No."
"Is she in hospital or something?"
"Something like that. Look, can you tell me or not?"
"Well, I can tell you something, but not much and not right
now, and I'd rather not do it over the phone. I'm seeing a client in five
minutes. Can you find your way to my office at about half past two?"
"No," Will said. It would be too risky; the lawyer might
have heard by then that he was wanted by the police. He thought quickly and
went on. "I've got to catch a bus to Nottingham, and I don't want to miss
it. But what I want to know, you can tell me over the phone, can't you? All I
want to know is, is my father alive, and if he is, where I can find him. You
can tell me that, can't you?"
"It's not quite as simple as that. I can't really give out
private information about a client unless I'm sure the client would want me to.
And I'd need some proof of who you were, anyway."
"Yes, I understand, but can you just tell me whether he's
alive or dead?"
"Well ... that wouldn't be confidential. Unfortunately, I
can't tell you anyway, because I don't know."
"What?"
"The money comes from a family trust. He left instructions to
pay it until he told me to stop. 1 haven't heard from him from that day to
this. What it boils down to is that he's... well, I suppose he's vanished.
That's why I can't answer your question."
"Vanished? Just... lost?"
"It's a matter of public record, actually. Look, why don't
you come into the office and—"
"I can't. I'm going to Nottingham."
"Well, write to me, or get your mother to write, and I'll let
you know what I can. But you must understand, I can't do very much over the
phone."
"Yes, I suppose so. All right. But can you tell me where he
disappeared?"
"As I say, it's a matter of public record. There were several
newspaper stories at the time. You know he was an explorer?"
"My mother's told me some things, yes."
"Well, he was leading an expedition, and it just disappeared.
About ten years ago. Maybe more."
"Where?"
"The far north. Alaska, I think. You can look it up in the
public library. Why don't you—"
But at that point Will's money ran out, and he didn't have any
more change. The dial tone purred in his ear. He put the phone down and looked
around.
What he wanted above all was to speak to his mother. He had to
stop himself from dialing Mrs. Cooper's number, because if he heard his
mother's voice, it would be very hard not to go back to her, and that would put
both of them in danger. But he could send her a postcard.
He chose a view of the city, and wrote: "DEAR MUM, I AM SAFE
AND WELL, AND I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN SOON. I HOPE EVERYTHING IS ALL RIGHT. I LOVE
YOU. WlLL." Then he addressed it and bought a stamp and held the card
close to him for a minute before dropping it in the mailbox.
It was midmorning, and he was in the main shopping street, where
buses shouldered their way through crowds of pedestrians. He began to realize
how exposed he was; for it was a weekday, when a child of his age should have
been in school. Where could he go?
It didn't take him long to hide. Will could vanish easily enough,
because he was good at it; he was even proud of his skill. Like Serafina
Pekkala on the ship, he simply made himself part of the background.
So now, knowing the sort of world he lived in, he went into a
stationery shop and bought a ballpoint, a pad of paper, and a clipboard.
Schools often sent groups of pupils off to do a shopping survey, or something
of the sort, and if he seemed to be on a project like that he wouldn't look as
if he was at a loose end.
Then he wandered along, pretending to be making notes, and kept
his eyes open for the public library.
* * *
Meanwhile, Lyra was looking for somewhere quiet to consult the
alethiometer. In her own Oxford there would have been a dozen places within
five minutes' walk, but this Oxford was so disconcertingly different, with
patches of poignant familiarity right next to the downright outlandish: why had
they painted those yellow lines on the road? What were those little white
patches dotting every sidewalk? (In her own world, they had never heard of
chewing gum.) What could those red and green lights mean at the corner of the
road? It was all much harder to read than the alethiometer.
But here were St. John's College gates, which she and Roger had
once climbed after dark to plant fireworks in the flower beds; and that
particular worn stone at the corner of Catte Street—there were the initials SP
that Simon Parslow had scratched, the very same ones! She'd seen him do it!
Someone in this world with the same initials must have stood here idly and done
exactly the same.
There might be a Simon Parslow in this world.
Perhaps there was a Lyra.
A chill ran down her back, and mouse-shaped Pantalaimon shivered
in her pocket. She shook herself; there were mysteries enough without imagining
more.
The other way in which this Oxford differed from hers was in the
vast numbers of people swarming on every sidewalk, in and out of every
building; people of every sort, women dressed like men, Africans, even a group
of Tartars meekly following their leader, all neatly dressed and hung about
with little black cases. She glared at them fearfully at first, because they
had no daemons, and in her world they would have been regarded as ghasts, or
worse.
But (this was the strangest thing) they all looked fully alive.
These creatures moved about cheerfully enough, for all the world as though they
were human, and Lyra had to concede that human was what they probably were, and
that their daemons were inside them as Will's was.
After wandering about for an hour, taking the measure of this
mock-Oxford, she felt hungry and bought a bar of chocolate with her
twenty-pound note. The shopkeeper looked at her oddly, but he was from the
Indies and didn't understand her accent, perhaps, although she asked very
clearly. With the change she bought an apple from the Covered Market, which was
much more like the proper Oxford, and walked up toward the park. There she
found herself outside a grand building, a real Oxford-looking building that
didn't exist in her world at all, though it wouldn't have looked out of place.
She sat on the grass outside to eat, and regarded the building approvingly.
She discovered that it was a museum. The doors were open, and
inside she found stuffed animals and fossil skeletons and cases of minerals,
just like the Royal Geological Museum she'd visited with Mrs. Coulter in her
London. At the back of the great iron-and-glass hall was the entrance to
another part of the museum, and because it was nearly deserted, she went
through and looked around. The alethiometer was still the most urgent thing on
her mind, but in this second chamber she found herself surrounded by things she
knew well: there were showcases filled with Arctic clothing, just like her own
furs; with sledges and walrus-ivory carvings and seal-hunting harpoons; with a
thousand and one jumbled trophies and relics and objects of magic and tools and
weapons, and not only from the Arctic, as she saw, but from every part of this
world
Well, how strange. Those caribou-skin furs were exactly the same
as hers, but they'd tied the traces on that sledge completely wrong. But here
was a photogram showing some Samoyed hunters, the very doubles of the ones
who'd caught Lyra and sold her to Bolvangar. Look! They were the same men! And even
that rope had frayed and been reknotted in precisely the same spot, and she
knew it intimately, having been tied up in that very sledge for several
agonizing hours.... What were these mysteries? Was there only one world after
all, which spent its time dreaming of others?
And then she came across something that made her think of the
alethiometer again. In an old glass case with a black-painted wooden frame
there were a number of human skulls, and some of them had holes in them: some
at the front, some on the side, some on the top. The one in the center had two.
This process, it said in spidery writing on a card, was called
trepanning. The card also said that all the holes had been made during the
owners' lifetimes, because the bone had healed and grown smooth around the
edge. One, however, hadn't: the hole had been made by a bronze arrowhead which
was still in it, and its edges were sharp and broken, so you could tell it was
different.
This was just what the northern Tartars did. And what Stanislaus
Grumman had had done to himself, according to the Jordan Scholars who'd known
him. Lyra looked around quickly, saw no one nearby, and took out the
alethiometer.
She focused her mind on the central skull and asked: What sort of
person did this skull belong to, and why did they have those holes made in it?
As she stood concentrating in the dusty light that filtered
through the glass roof and slanted down past the upper galleries, she didn't
notice that she was being watched.
A powerful-looking man in his sixties, wearing a beautifully
tailored linen suit and holding a Panama hat, stood on the gallery above and
looked down over the iron railing.
His gray hair was brushed neatly back from his smooth, tanned,
barely wrinkled forehead. His eyes were large, dark and long-lashed and
intense, and every minute or so his sharp, dark-pointed tongue peeped out at
the corner of his lips and flicked across them moistly. The snowy handkerchief
in his breast pocket was scented with some heavy cologne like those hothouse
plants so rich you can smell the decay at their roots.
He had been watching Lyra for some minutes. He had moved along the
gallery above as she moved about below, and when she stood still by the case of
skulls, he watched her closely, taking in all of her: her rough, untidy hair,
the bruise on her cheek, the new clothes, her bare neck arched over the
alethiometer, her bare legs.
He shook out the breast-pocket handkerchief and mopped his
forehead, and then made for the stairs.
Lyra, absorbed, was learning strange things. These skulls were
unimaginably old; the cards in the case said simply BRONZE AGE, but the
alethiometer, which never lied, said that the man whose skull it was had lived
33,254 years before the present day, and that he had been a sorcerer, and that
the hole had been made to let the gods into his head. And then the
alethiometer, in the casual way it sometimes had of answering a question Lyra
hadn't asked, added that there was a good deal more Dust around the trepanned
skulls than around the one with the arrowhead.
What in the world could that mean? Lyra came out of the focused
calm she shared with the alethiometer and drifted back to the present moment to
find herself no longer alone. Gazing into the next case was an elderly man in a
pale suit, who smelled sweet. He reminded her of someone, but she couldn't
think who.
He became aware of her staring at him, and looked up with a smile.
"You're looking at the trepanned skulls?" he said.
"What strange things people do to themselves." "Mm," she
said expressionlessly. "D'you know, people still do that?"
"Yeah," she said.
"Hippies, you know, people like that. Actually, you're far
too young to remember hippies. They say it's more effective than taking
drugs."
Lyra had put the alethiometer in her rucksack and was wondering
how she could get away. She still hadn't asked it the main question, and now
this old man was having a conversation with her. He seemed nice enough, and he
certainly smelled nice. He was closer now. His hand brushed hers as he leaned
across the case.
"Makes you wonder, doesn't it? No anesthetic, no
disinfectant, probably done with stone tools. They must have been tough,
mustn't they? I don't think I've seen you here before. I come here quite a lot.
What's your name?" "Lizzie," she said comfortably.
"Lizzie. Hello, Lizzie. I'm Charles. Do you go to school in
Oxford?"
She wasn't sure how to answer. "No," she said.
"Just visiting? Well, you've chosen a wonderful place to look
at. What are you specially interested in?"
She was more puzzled by this man than by anyone she'd met for a
long time. On the one hand he was kind and friendly and very clean and smartly
dressed, but on the other hand Pantalaimon, inside her pocket, was plucking at
her attention and begging her to be careful, because he was half-remembering
something too; and from somewhere she sensed, not a smell, but the idea of a
smell, and it was the smell of dung, of putrefaction. She was reminded of lofur
Raknison's palace, where the air was perfumed but the floor was thick with
filth.
"What am I interested in?" she said. "Oh, all sorts
of things, really. Those skulls I got interested in just now, when I saw them
there. I shouldn't think anyone would want that done. It's horrible."
"No, I wouldn't enjoy it myself, but I promise you it does
happen. I could take you to meet someone who's done it," he said, looking
so friendly and helpful that she was very nearly tempted. But then out came
that little dark tongue point, as quick as a snake's, flick-moisten, and she
shook her head.
"I got to go," she said. "Thank you for offering,
but I better not. Anyway, I got to go now because I'm meeting someone. My
friend," she added. "Who I'm staying with."
"Yes, of course," he said kindly. "Well, it was
nice talking to you. Bye-bye, Lizzie."
"Bye," she said.
"Oh, just in case, here's my name and address," he said,
handing her a card. "Just in case you want to know more about things like
this."
"Thank you," she said blandly, and put it in the little
pocket on the back of her rucksack before leaving. She felt he was watching her
all the way out.
Once she was outside the museum, she turned in to the park, which
she knew as a field for cricket and other sports, and found a quiet spot under
some trees and tried the alethiometer again.
This time she asked where she could find a Scholar who knew about
Dust. The answer she got was simple: it directed her to a certain room in the
tall square building behind her. In fact, the answer was so straightforward,
and came so abruptly, that Lyra was sure the alethiometer had more to say: she
was beginning to sense now that it had moods, like a person, and to know when
it wanted to tell her more.
And it did now. What it said was: You must concern yourself
with the boy. Your task is to help him find his father. Put your mind to that.
She blinked. She was genuinely startled. Will had appeared out of
nowhere in order to help her; surely that was obvious. The idea that she had
come all this way in order to help him took her breath away.
But the alethiometer still hadn't finished. The needle twitched
again, and she read: Do not lie to the Scholar.
She folded the velvet around the alethiometer and thrust it into
the rucksack out of sight. Then she stood and looked around for the building
where her Scholar would be found, and set off toward it, feeling awkward and
defiant.
Will found the library easily enough, where the reference
librarian was perfectly prepared to believe that he was doing some research for
a school geography project and helped him find the bound copies of The Times
index for the year of his birth, which was when his father had disappeared.
Will sat down to look through them. Sure enough, there were several references
to John Parry, in connection with an archaeological expedition.
Each month, he found, was on a separate roll of microfilm. He
threaded each in turn into the projector, scrolled through to find the stories,
and read them with fierce attention. The first story told of the departure of
an expedition to the north of Alaska. The expedition was sponsored by the
Institute of Archaeology at Oxford University, and it was going to survey an
area in which they hoped to find evidence of early human settlements. It was
accompanied by John Parry, late of the Royal Marines, a professional explorer.
The second story was dated six weeks later. It said briefly that
the expedition had reached the North American Arctic Survey Station at Noatak
in Alaska.
The third was dated two months after that. It said that there had
been no reply to signals from the Survey Station, and that John Parry and his
companions were presumed missing.
There was a brief series of articles following that one,
describing the parties that had set out fruitlessly to look for them, the
search flights over the Bering Sea, the reaction of the Institute of
Archaeology, interviews with relatives....
His heart thudded, because there was a picture of his own mother.
Holding a baby. Him.
The reporter had written a standard
tearful-wife-waiting-in-anguish-for-news story, which Will found
disappointingly short of actual facts. There was a brief paragraph saying that
John Parry had had a successful career in the Royal Marines and had left to
specialize in organizing geographical and scientific expeditions, and that was
all.
There was no other mention in the index, and Will got up from the
microfilm reader baffled. There must be some more information somewhere else;
but where could he go next? And if he took too long searching for it, he'd be
traced....
He handed back the rolls of microfilm and asked the librarian,
"Do you know the address of the Institute of Archaeology, please?"
"I could find out.... What school are you from?"
"St. Peter's," said Will.
"That's not in Oxford, is it?"
"No, it's in Hampshire. My class is doing a sort of
residential field trip. Kind of environmental study research skills."
"Oh, I see. What was it you wanted? ... Archaeology? ... Here
we are."
Will copied down the address and phone number, and since it was
safe to admit he didn't know Oxford, asked where to find it. It wasn't far
away. He thanked the librarian and set off.
Inside the building Lyra found a wide desk at the foot of the
stairs, with a porter behind it.
"Where are you going?" he said.
This was like home again. She felt Pan, in her pocket, enjoying
it.
"I got a message for someone on the second floor," she
said.
"Who?"
"Dr. Lister," she said.
"Dr. Lister's on the third floor. If you've got something for
him, you can leave it here and I'll let him know."
"Yeah, but this is something he needs right now. He just sent
for it. It's not a thing actually, it's something I need to tell
him."
He looked at her carefully, but he was no match for the bland and
vacuous docility Lyra could command when she wanted to; and finally he nodded
and went back to his newspaper.
The alethiometer didn't tell Lyra people's names, of course. She
had read the name Dr. Lister off a pigeonhole on the wall behind him, because
if you pretend you know someone, they're more likely to let you in. In some
ways Lyra knew Will's world better than he did.
On the second floor she found a long corridor, where one door was
open to an empty lecture hall and another to a smaller room where two Scholars
stood discussing something at a blackboard. These rooms, the walls of this
corridor, were all flat and bare and plain in a way Lyra thought belonged to
poverty, not to the scholarship and splendor of Oxford; and yet the brick walls
were smoothly painted, and the doors were of heavy wood and the banisters were
of polished steel, so they were costly. It was just another way in which this
world was strange.
She soon found the door the alethiometer had told her about. The
sign on it said DARK MATTER RESEARCH UNIT, and under it someone had scribbled
R.I.P. Another hand had added in pencil DIRECTOR: LAZARUS.
Lyra made nothing of that. She knocked, and a woman's voice said,
"Come in."
It was a small room, crowded with tottering piles of papers and
books, and the whiteboards on the walls were covered in figures and equations.
Tacked to the back of the door was a design that looked Chinese. Through an
open doorway Lyra could see another room, where some kind of complicated
anbaric machinery stood in silence.
For her part, Lyra was a little surprised to find that the Scholar
she sought was female, but the alethiometer hadn't said a man, and this was a strange
world, after all. The woman was sitting at an engine that displayed figures and
shapes on a small glass screen, in front of which all the letters of the
alphabet had been laid out on grimy little blocks in an ivory tray. The Scholar
tapped one, and the screen became blank.
"Who are you?" she said.
Lyra shut the door behind her. Mindful of what the alethiometer
had told her, she tried hard not to do what she normally would have done, and
she told the truth.
"Lyra Silvertongue," she answered. "What's your
name?"
The woman blinked. She was in her late thirties, Lyra supposed,
perhaps a little older than Mrs. Coulter, with short black hair and red cheeks.
She wore a white coat open over a green shirt and those blue canvas trousers so
many people wore in this world.
At Lyra's question the woman ran a hand through her hair and said,
"Well, you're the second unexpected thing that's happened today. I'm Dr.
Mary Malone. What do you want?"
"I want you to tell me about Dust," said Lyra, having
looked around to make sure they were alone. "I know you know about it. I
can prove it. You got to tell me."
"Dust? What are you talking about?"
"You might not call it that. It's elementary particles. In my
world the Scholars call it Rusakov Particles, but normally they call it Dust.
They don't show up easily, but they come out of space and fix on people. Not
children so much, though. Mostly on grownups. And something I only found out
today—I was in that museum down the road and there was some old skulls with
holes in their heads, like the Tartars make, and there was a lot more Dust
around them than around this other one that hadn't got that sort of hole in it.
When's the Bronze Age?"
The woman was looking at her wide-eyed.
"The Bronze Age? Goodness, I don't know; about five thousand
years ago," she said.
"Ah, well, they got it wrong then, when they wrote that
label. That skull with the two holes in it is thirty-three thousand years
old."
She stopped then, because Dr. Malone looked as if she was about to
faint. The high color left her cheeks completely; she put one hand to her
breast while the other clutched the arm of her chair, and her jaw dropped.
Lyra stood, stubborn and puzzled, waiting for her to recover.
"Who are you?" the woman said at last.
"Lyra Silver—"
"No, where d'you come from? What are you? How do you know
things like this?"
Wearily Lyra sighed; she had forgotten how roundabout Scholars
could be. It was difficult to tell them the truth when a lie would have been so
much easier for them to understand.
"I come from another world," she began. "And in
that world there's an Oxford like this, only different, and that's where I come
from. And—"
"Wait, wait, wait. You come from where?"
"From somewhere else," said Lyra, more carefully.
"Not here."
"Oh, somewhere else," the woman said. "I see. Well,
I think I see."
"And I got to find out about Dust," Lyra explained.
"Because the Church people in my world, right, they're frightened of Dust
because they think it's original sin. So it's very important. And my father...
No," she said passionately, and stamped her foot. "That's not
what I meant to say. I'm doing it all wrong."
Dr. Malone looked at Lyra's desperate frown and clenched fists, at
the bruises on her cheek and her leg, and said, "Dear me, child, calm
down."
She broke off and rubbed her eyes, which were red with tiredness.
"Why am I listening to you?" she went on. "I must
be crazy. The fact is, this is the only place in the world where you'd get the
answer you want, and they're about to close us down. What you're talking about,
your Dust, sounds like something we've been investigating for a while now, and
what you say about the skulls in the museum gave me a turn, because... oh, no,
this is just too much. I'm too tired. I want to listen to you, believe me, but
not now, please. Did I say they were going to close us down? I've got a week to
put together a proposal to the funding committee, but we haven't got a hope in
hell..."
She yawned widely.
"What was the first unexpected thing that happened
today?" Lyra said.
"Oh. Yes. Someone I'd been relying on to back our funding
application withdrew his support. I don't suppose it was that
unexpected, anyway."
She yawned again.
"I'm going to make some coffee," she said/"If I
don't, I'll fall asleep. You'll have some too?"
She filled an electric kettle, and while she spooned instant
coffee into two mugs Lyra stared at the Chinese pattern on the back of the
door.
"What's that?" she said.
"It's Chinese. The symbols of the I Ching. D'you know what
that is? Do they have that in your world?"
Lyra looked at her narrow-eyed, in case she was being sarcastic.
She said: "There are some things the same and some that are different,
that's all. I don't know everything about my world. Maybe they got this Ching
thing there too."
"I'm sorry," said Dr. Malone. "Yes, maybe they
have."
"What's dark matter?" said Lyra. "That's what it
says on the sign, isn't it?"
Dr. Malone sat down again, and hooked another chair out with her
ankle for Lyra.
She said, "Dark matter is what my research team is looking
for. No one knows what it is. There's more stuff out there in the universe than
we can see, that's the point. We can see the stars and the galaxies and the
things that shine, but for it all to hang together and not fly apart, there
needs to be a lot more of it—to make gravity work, you see. But no one can
detect it. So there are lots of different research projects trying to find out
what it is, and this is one of them."
Lyra was all focused attention. At last the woman was talking
seriously.
"And what do you think it is?" she asked.
"Well, what we think it is—" As she began, the kettle
boiled, so she got up and made the coffee as she continued. "We think it's
some kind of elementary particle. Something quite different from anything
discovered so far. But the particles are very hard to detect. ... Where do you
go to school? Do you study physics?"
Lyra felt Pantalaimon nip her hand, warning her not to get cross.
It was all very well, the alethiometer telling her to be truthful, but she knew
what would happen if she told the whole truth. She had to tread carefully and
just avoid direct lies.
"Yes," she said, "I know a little bit. But not
about dark matter."
"Well, we're trying to detect this almost-undetectable thing
among the noise of all the other particles crashing about. Normally they put
detectors very deep underground, but what we've done instead is to set up an
electromagnetic field around the detector that shuts out the things we don't
want and lets through the ones we do. Then we amplify the signal and put it through
a computer."
She handed across a mug of coffee. There was no milk and no sugar,
but she did find a couple of ginger biscuits in a drawer, and Lyra took one
hungrily.
"And we found a particle that fits," Dr. Malone went on.
"We think it fits. But it's so strange ... Why am I telling you this? I
shouldn't. It's not published, it's not refereed, it's not even written down.
I'm a little crazy this afternoon.
"Well ..." she went on, and she yawned for so long that
Lyra thought she'd never stop, "our particles are strange little devils,
make no mistake. We call them shadow particles, Shadows. You know what nearly
knocked me off my chair just now? When you mentioned the skulls in the museum.
Because one of our team, you see, is a bit of an amateur archaeologist. And he
discovered something one day that we couldn't believe. But we couldn't ignore
it, because it fitted in with the craziest thing of all about these Shadows.
You know what? They're conscious. That's right. Shadows are particles of
consciousness. You ever heard anything so stupid? No wonder we can't get our
grant renewed."
She sipped her coffee. Lyra was drinking in every word like a
thirsty flower.
"Yes," Dr. Malone went on, "they know we're here.
They answer back. And here goes the crazy part: you can't see them unless you
expect to. Unless you put your mind in a certain state. You have to be
confident and relaxed at the same time. You have to be capable— Where's that
quotation ..."
She reached into the muddle of papers on her desk and found a
scrap on which someone had written with a green pen. She read:
" '... Capable of being in uncertainties, mysteries, doubts,
without any irritable reaching after fact and reason.' You have to get into
that state of mind. That's from the poet Keats, by the way. I found it the
other day. So you get yourself in the right state of mind, and then you look at
the Cave—"
"The cave?" said Lyra.
"Oh, sorry. The computer. We call it the Cave. Shadows on the
walls of the Cave, you see, from Plato. That's our archaeologist again. He's an
all-around intellectual. But he's gone off to Geneva for a job interview, and I
don't suppose for a moment he'll be back.... Where was I? Oh, the Cave, that's
right. Once you're linked up to it, if you think, the Shadows respond. There's
no doubt about it. The Shadows flock to your thinking like birds...."
"What about the skulls?"
"I was coming to that. Oliver Payne—him, my colleague— was
fooling about one day testing things with the Cave. And it was so odd. It
didn't make any sense in the way a physicist would expect. He got a piece of
ivory, just a lump, and there were no Shadows with that. It didn't react. But a
carved ivory chess piece did. A big splinter of wood off a plank didn't, but a
wooden ruler did. And a carved wooden statuette had more.... I'm talking about
elementary panicles here, for goodness' sake. Little minute lumps of scarcely
anything. They knew what these objects were. Anything that was associated with
human workmanship and human thought was surrounded by Shadows....
"And then Oliver—Dr. Payne—got some fossil skulls from a
friend at the museum and tested them to see how far back in time the effect
went. There was a cutoff point about thirty, forty thousand years ago. Before
that, no Shadows. After that, plenty. And that's about the time, apparently,
that modern human beings first appeared. I mean, you know, our remote
ancestors, but people no different from us, really...."
"It's Dust," said Lyra authoritatively. "That's
what it is."
"But, you see, you can't say this sort of thing in a funding
application if you want to be taken seriously. It does not make sense. It
cannot exist. It's impossible, and if it isn't impossible, it's irrelevant, and
if it isn't either of those things, it's embarrassing."
"I want to see the Cave," said Lyra.
She stood up.
Dr. Malone was running her hands through her hair and blinking
hard to keep her tired eyes clear.
"Well, I can't see why not," she said. "We might
not have a Cave tomorrow. Come along through."
She led Lyra into the other room. It was larger, and crowded with
anbaric equipment.
"This is it. Over there," she said, pointing to a screen
that was glowing an empty gray. "That's where the detector is, behind all
that wiring. To see the Shadows, you have to be linked up to some electrodes.
Like for measuring brain waves."
"I want to try it," said Lyra.
"You won't see anything. Anyway, I'm tired. It's too
complicated."
"Please! I know what I'm doing!"
"Do you, now? I wish I did. No, for heaven's sake. This is an
expensive, difficult scientific experiment. You can't come charging in here and
expect to have a go as if it were a pinball machine.... Where do you
come from, anyway? Shouldn't you be at school? How did you find your way in
here?"
And she rubbed her eyes again, as if she was only just waking up.
Lyra was trembling. Tell the truth, she thought. "I
found my way in with this," she said, and took out the alethiometer.
"What in the world is that? A compass?"
Lyra let her take it. Dr. Malone's eyes widened as she felt the
weight
"Dear Lord, it's made of gold. Where on earth—"
"I think it does what your Cave does. That's what I want to
find out. If I can answer a question truly," said Lyra desperately,
"something you know the answer to and I don't, can I try your Cave
then?"
"What, are we into fortune-telling now? What is this
thing?"
"Please! Just ask me a question!"
Dr. Malone shrugged. "Oh, all right," she said. 'Tell me
... tell me what I was doing before I took up this business."
Eagerly Lyra took the alethiometer from her and turned the winding
wheels. She could feel her mind reaching for the right pictures even before the
hands were pointing at them, and she sensed the longer needle twitching to
respond. As it began to swing around the dial, her eyes followed it, watching,
calculating, seeing down the long chains of meaning to the level where the
truth lay.
Then she blinked and sighed and came out of her temporary trance.
"You used to be a nun," she said. "I wouldn't have
guessed that. Nuns are supposed to stay in their convents forever. But you
stopped believing in church things and they let you leave. This en't like my
world at all, not a bit."
Dr. Malone sat down in a chair by the computer, staring.
Lyra said, "That's true, en't it?"
"Yes. And you found out from that..."
"From my alethiometer. It works by Dust, I think. I came all
this way to find out more about Dust, and it told me to come to you. So I
reckon your dark matter must be the same thing. Now can I try your Cave?"
Dr. Malone shook her head, but not to say no, just out of
helplessness. She spread her hands. "Very well," she said. "I
think I'm dreaming. I might as well carry on."
She swung around in her chair and pressed several switches,
bringing an electrical hum and the sound of a computer's cooling fan into the
air; and at the sound of them, Lyra gave a little muffled gasp. It was because
the sound in that room was the same sound she'd heard in that dreadful
glittering chamber at Bolvangar, where the silver guillotine had nearly parted
her and Pantalaimon. She felt him quiver in her pocket, and gently squeezed him
for reassurance.
But Dr. Malone hadn't noticed; she was too busy adjusting switches
and tapping the letters in another of those ivory trays. As she did, the screen
changed color, and some small letters and figures appeared on it.
"Now you sit down," she said, and pulled out a chair for
Lyra. Then she opened ajar and said, "I need to put some gel on your skin
to help the electrical contact. It washes off easily. Hold still, now."
Dr. Malone took six wires, each ending in a flat pad, and attached
them to various places on Lyra's head. Lyra sat determinedly still, but she was
breathing quickly, and her heart was beating hard.
"All right, you're all hooked up," said Dr. Malone.
"The room's full of Shadows. The universe is full of Shadows, come to
that. But this is the only way we can see them, when you make your mind empty
and look at the screen. Off you go."
Lyra looked. The glass was dark and blank. She saw her own
reflection dimly, but that was all. As an experiment she pretended that she was
reading the alethiometer, and imagined herself asking: What does this woman
know about Dust? What questions is she asking?
She mentally moved the alethiometer's hands around the dial, and
as she did, the screen began to flicker. Astonished, she came out of her
concentration, and the flicker died. She didn't notice the ripple of excitement
that made Dr. Malone sit up: she frowned and sat forward and began to
concentrate again.
This time the response came instantaneously. A stream of dancing
lights, for all the world like the shimmering curtains of the aurora, blazed
across the screen. They took up patterns that were held for a moment only to
break apart and form again, in different shapes, or different colors; they
looped and swayed, they sprayed apart, they burst into showers of radiance that
suddenly swerved this way or that like a flock of birds changing direction in
the sky. And as Lyra watched, she felt the same sense, as of trembling on the
brink of understanding, that she remembered from the time when she was
beginning to read the alethiometer.
She asked another question: Is this Dust? Is it the same thing
making these patterns and moving the needle of the alethiometer?
The answer came in more loops and swirls of light. She guessed it
meant yes. Then another thought occurred to her, and she turned to speak to Dr.
Malone, and saw her open-mouthed, hand to her head.
"What?" she said.
The screen faded. Dr. Malone blinked.
"What is it?" Lyra said again.
"Oh—you've just put on the best display I've ever seen,
that's all," said Dr. Malone. "What were you doing? What were you
thinking?"
"I was thinking you could get it clearer than this,"
Lyra said.
"Clearer? That's the clearest it's ever been!"
"But what does it mean? Can you read it?"
"Well," said Dr. Malone, "you don't read it in the
sense of reading a message; it doesn't work like that. What's happening is that
the Shadows are responding to the attention that you pay them. That's
revolutionary enough; it's our consciousness that they respond to, you
see."
"No," Lyra explained, "what I mean is, those colors
and shapes up there. They could do other things, those Shadows. They could make
any shapes you wanted. They could make pictures if you wanted them to.
Look."
And she turned back and focused her mind again, but this time she
pretended to herself that the screen was the alethiometer, with all thirty-six
symbols laid out around the edge. She knew them so well now that her fingers
automatically twisted in her lap as she moved the imaginary hands to point at
the candle (for understanding), the alpha and omega (for language), and the ant
(for diligence), and framed the question:
What would these people have to do in order to understand the
language of the Shadows?
The screen responded as quickly as thought itself, and out of the
welter of lines and flashes a series of pictures formed with perfect clarity:
compasses, alpha and omega again, lightning, angel. Each picture flashed up a
different number of times, and then came a different three: camel, garden,
moon.
Lyra saw their meanings clearly, and unfocused her mind to
explain. This time, when she turned around, she saw that Dr. Malone was sitting
back in her chair, white-faced, clutching the edge of the table.
"What it says," Lyra told her, "it's saying in my
language, right—the language of pictures. Like the alethiometer. But what it
says is that it could use ordinary language too, words, if you fixed it up like
that. You could fix this so it put words on the screen. But you'd need a lot of
careful figuring with numbers—that was die compasses, see. And the lightning
meant anbaric—I mean, electric power, more of that. And the angel— that's all
about messages. There's things it wants to say. But when it went on to that
second bit... it meant Asia, almost the farthest east but not quite. I dunno
what country that would be—China, maybe. And there's a way they have in that
country of talking to Dust, I mean Shadows, same as you got here and I got with
the—I got with pictures, only their way uses sticks. I think it meant that
picture on the door, but I didn't understand it, really. I thought when I first
saw it there was something important about it, only I didn't know what. So
there must be lots of ways of talking to Shadows."
Dr. Malone was breathless.
"The I Ching," she said. "Yes, it's Chinese. A form
of divination—fortune-telling, really.... And, yes, they use sticks. It's only
up there for decoration," she said, as if to reassure Lyra that she didn't
really believe in it. "You're telling me that when people consult the I
Ching, they're getting in touch with Shadow particles? With dark matter?"
"Yeah," said Lyra. 'There's lots of ways, like I said. I
hadn't realized before. I thought there was only one."
"Those pictures on the screen ..." Dr. Malone began.
Lyra felt a flicker of a thought at the edge of her mind, and
turned to the screen. She had hardly begun to formulate a question when more
pictures flashed up, succeeding each other so quickly that Dr. Malone could
hardly follow them; but Lyra knew what they were saying, and turned back to
her.
"It says that you're important, too," she told
the scientist. "It says you got something important to do. I dunno what,
but it wouldn't say that unless it was true. So you probably ought to get it
using words, so you can understand what it says."
Dr. Malone was silent. Then she said, "All right, where do
you come from?"
Lyra twisted her mouth. She realized that Dr. Malone, who until
now had acted out of exhaustion and despair, would never normally have shown
her work to a strange child who turned up from nowhere, and that she was
beginning to regret it. But Lyra had to tell the truth.
"I come from another world," she said. "It's true.
I came through to this one. I was... I had to run away, because people in my
world were chasing me, to kill me. And the alethiometer comes from ... from the
same place. The Master of Jordan College gave it me. In my Oxford there's a
Jordan College, but there en't one here. I looked. And I found out how to read
the alethiometer by myself. I got a way of making my mind go blank, and I just
see what the pictures mean straightaway. Just like you said about... doubts and
mysteries and that. So when I looked at the Cave, I done the same thing, and it
works just the same way, so my Dust and your Shadows are the same, too.
So..."
Dr. Malone was fully awake now. Lyra picked up the alethiometer
and folded its velvet cloth over it, like a mother protecting her child, before
putting it back in her rucksack.
"So anyway," she said, "you could make this screen
so it could talk to you in words, if you wanted. Then you could talk to the
Shadows like I talk to the alethiometer. But what I want to know is, why do the
people in my world hate it? Dust, I mean, Shadows. Dark matter. They want to
destroy it. They think it's evil. But I think what they do is evil. I seen them
do it. So what is it, Shadows? Is it good or evil, or what?"
Dr. Malone rubbed her face and turned her cheeks red again.
"Everything about this is embarrassing" she said.
"D'you know how embarrassing it is to mention good and evil in a
scientific laboratory? Have you any idea? One of the reasons I became a
scientist was not to have to think about that kind of thing."
"You got to think about it," said Lyra severely.
"You can't investigate Shadows, Dust, whatever it is, without thinking
about that kind of thing, good and evil and such. And it said you got to,
remember. You can't refuse. When are they going to close this place down?"
"The funding committee decides at the end of the week....
Why?"
'"Cause you got tonight, then," said Lyra. "You
could fix this engine thing to put words on the screen instead of pictures like
I made. You could do that easy. Then you could show 'em, and they'd have to
give you the money to carry on. And you could find out all about Dust, or
Shadows, and tell me. You see," she went on a little haughtily, like a
duchess describing an unsatisfactory housemaid, "the alethiometer won't
exactly tell me what I need to know. But you could find out for me. Else I
could probably do that Ching thing, with the sticks. But pictures are easier to
work. I think so, anyway. I'm going to take this off now," she added, and
pulled at the electrodes on her head.
Dr. Malone gave her a tissue to wipe off the gel, and folded up
the wires.
"So you're going?" she said. "Well, you've given me
a strange hour, that's no mistake."
"Are you going to make it do words?" Lyra said,
gathering up her rucksack.
"It's about as much use as completing the funding
application, I daresay," said Dr. Malone. "No, listen. I want you to
come back tomorrow. Can you do that? About the same time? I want you to show
someone else."
Lyra narrowed her eyes. Was this a trap?
"Well, all right," she said. "But remember, there's
things I need to know."
"Yes. Of course. You will come?"
"Yes," said Lyra. "If I say I will, I will. I could
help you, I expect."
And she left. The porter at the desk looked up briefly and then
went back to his paper.
"The Nuniatak dig," said the archaeologist, swinging his
chair around. "You're the second person in a month to ask me about
that."
"Who was the other one?" said Will, on his guard at
once.
"I think he was a journalist. I'm not sure."
"Why did he want to know about it?" he said.
"In connection with one of the men who disappeared on that
trip. It was the height of the cold war when the expedition vanished. Star
Wars. You're probably too young to remember that. The Americans and the
Russians were building enormous radar installations all across the Arctic....
Anyway, what can I do for you?"
"Well," said Will, trying to keep calm, "I was just
trying to find out about that expedition, really. For a school project about
prehistoric people. And I read about this expedition that disappeared, and I
got curious."
"Well, you're not the only one, as you see. There was a big
to-do about it at the time. I looked it all up for the journalist. It was a
preliminary survey, not a proper dig. You can't do a dig till you know whether
it's worth spending time on it, so this group went out to look at a number of
sites and make a report. Half a dozen blokes altogether. Sometimes on an
expedition like this you combine forces with people from another discipline—you
know, geologists or whatever—to split the cost. They look at their stuff and we
look at ours. In this case there was a physicist on the team. I think he was
looking at high-level atmospheric particles. The aurora, you know, the northern
lights. He had balloons with radio transmitters, apparently.
"And there was another man with them. An ex-Marine, a sort of
professional explorer. They were going up into some fairly wild territory, and
polar bears are always a danger in the Arctic. Archaeologists can deal with
some things, but we're not trained to shoot, and someone who can do that and
navigate and make camp and do all the sort of survival stuff is very useful.
"But then they all vanished. They kept in radio contact with
a local survey station, but one day the signal didn't come, and nothing more
was heard. There'd been a buzzard, but that was nothing unusual. The search
expedition found their last camp more or less intact, though the bears had
eaten their stores. But there was no sign of the people whatsoever.
"And that's all I can tell you, I'm afraid."
"Yes," said Will. "Thank you. Umm ... that
journalist," he went on, stopping at the door. "You said he was
interested in one of the men. Which one was it?"
"The explorer type. A man called Parry."
"What did he look like? The journalist, I mean?"
"What d'you want to know that for?"
"Because ..." Will couldn't think of a plausible reason.
He shouldn't have asked. "No reason. I just wondered."
"As far as I can remember, he was a big blond man. Very pale
hair."
"Right, thanks," Will said, and turned to go.
The man watched him leave the room, saying nothing, frowning a little.
Will saw him reach for the phone, and left the building quickly.
He found he was shaking. The journalist, so called, was one of the
men who'd come to his house: a tall man with such fair hair that he seemed to
have no eyebrows or eyelashes. He wasn't the one Will had knocked down the
stairs: he was the one who'd appeared at the door of the living room as Will
ran down and jumped over the body.
But he wasn't a journalist.
There was a large museum nearby. Will went in, holding his
clipboard as if he were working, and sat down in a gallery hung with paintings.
He was trembling hard and feeling sick, because pressing at him was the
knowledge that he'd killed someone, that he was a murderer. He'd kept it at bay
till now, but it was closing in. He'd taken away the man's life.
He sat still for half an hour, and it was one of the worst
half-hours he'd ever spent. People came and went, looking at the paintings,
talking in quiet voices, ignoring him; a gallery attendant stood in the doorway
for a few minutes, hands behind his back, and then slowly moved away; and Will
wrestled with the horror of what he'd done, and didn't move a muscle.
Gradually he grew calmer. He'd been defending his mother. They
were frightening her; given the state she was in, they were persecuting her. He
had a right to defend his home. His father would have wanted him to do that. He
did it because it was the good thing to do. He did it to stop them from
stealing the green leather case. He did it so he could find his father; and
didn't he have a right to do that? All his childish games came back to him,
with himself and his father rescuing each other from avalanches or fighting
pirates. Well, now it was real. I'll find you, he said in his mind. Just help
me and I'll find you, and we'll look after Mum, and everything'll be all
right....
And after all, he had somewhere to hide now, somewhere so safe no
one would ever find him. And the papers from the case (which he still hadn't
had time to read) were safe too, under the mattress in Cittagazze.
Finally he noticed people moving more purposefully, and all in the
same direction. They were leaving, because the attendant was telling them that
the museum would close in ten minutes. Will gathered himself and left. He found
his way to the High Street, where the lawyer's office was, and wondered about
going to see him, despite what he'd said earlier. The man had sounded friendly
enough....
But as he made up his mind to cross the street and go in, he
stopped suddenly.
The tall man with the pale eyebrows was getting out of a car.
Will turned aside at once, casually, and looked in the window of
the jeweler's shop beside him. He saw the man's reflection look around, settle
the knot of his tie, and go into the lawyer's office. As soon as he'd gone in,
Will moved away, his heart thudding again. There wasn't anywhere safe. He
drifted toward the university library and waited for Lyra.
FIVE
AIRMAIL PAPER
"Will," said Lyra.
She spoke quietly, but he was startled all the same. She was
sitting on the bench beside him and he hadn't even noticed.
"Where did you come from?"
"I found my Scholar! She's called Dr. Malone. And she's got
an engine that can see Dust, and she's going to make it talk—"
"I didn't see you coming."
"You weren't looking," she said. "You must've been
thinking about something else. It's a good thing I found you. Look, it's easy
to fool people. Watch."
Two police officers were strolling toward them, a man and a woman
on the beat, in their white summer shirtsleeves, with their radios and their
batons and their suspicious eyes. Before they reached the bench, Lyra was on
her feet and speaking to them.
"Please, could you tell me where the museum is?" she
said. "Me and my brother was supposed to meet our parents there and we got
lost."
The policeman looked at Will, and Will, containing his anger,
shrugged as if to say, "She's right, we're lost, isn't it silly." The
man smiled. The woman said: "Which museum? The Ashmolean?"
"Yeah, that one," said Lyra, and pretended to listen
carefully as the woman gave her instructions.
Will got up and said, "Thanks," and he and Lyra moved
away together. They didn't look back, but the police had already lost interest.
"See?" she said. "If they were looking for you, I
put 'em off. 'Cause they won't be looking for someone with a sister. I better
stay with you from now on," she went on scoldingly once they'd gone around
the corner. "You en't safe on your own."
He said nothing. His heart was thumping with rage. They walked
along toward a round building with a great leaden dome, set in a square bounded
by honey-colored stone college buildings and a church and wide-crowned trees
above high garden walls. The afternoon sun drew the warmest tones out of it
all, and the air felt rich with it, almost the color itself of heavy golden
wine. All the leaves were still, and in this little square even the traffic
noise was hushed.
She finally became aware of Will's feelings and said, "What's
the matter?"
"If you speak to people, you just attract their
attention," he said, with a shaking voice. "You should just keep
quiet and still and they overlook you. I've been doing it all my life. I know
how to do it. Your way, you just—you make yourself visible. You shouldn't do
that. You shouldn't play at it. You're not being serious."
"You think so?" she said, and her anger flashed.
"You think I don't know about lying and that? I'm the best liar there ever
was. But I en't lying to you, and I never will, I swear it. You're in danger,
and if I hadn't done that just then, you'd've been caught. Didn't you see 'em
looking at you? 'Cause they were. You en't careful enough. If you want my
opinion, it's you that en't serious."
"If I'm not serious, what am I doing hanging about waiting
for you when I could be miles away? Or hiding out of sight, safe in that other
city? I've got my own things to do, but I'm hanging about here so I can help
you. Don't tell me I'm not serious."
"You had to come through," she said, furious. No one
should speak to her like this. She was an aristocrat. She was Lyra. "You
had to, else you'd never find out anything about your father. You done it for
yourself, not for me."
They were quarreling passionately, but in subdued voices, because
of the quiet in the square and the people who were wandering past nearby. When
she said this, though, Will stopped altogether. He had to lean against the
college wall beside him. The color had left his face.
"What do you know about my father?" he said very
quietly.
She replied in the same tone. "I don't know anything. All I
know is you're looking for him. That's all I asked about."
"Asked who?"
"The alethiometer, of course."
It took a moment for him to remember what she meant. And then he
looked so angry and suspicious that she took it out of her rucksack and said,
"All right, I'll show you."
And she sat down on the stone curb around the grass in the middle
of the square and bent her head over the golden instrument and began to turn
the hands, her fingers moving almost too quickly to see, and then pausing for
several seconds while the slender needle whipped around the dial, flicking to a
stop here and there, and then turning the hands to new positions just as
quickly. Will looked around carefully, but there was no one near to see; a
group of tourists looked up at the domed building, an ice cream vendor wheeled
his cart along the pavement, but their attention was elsewhere.
Lyra blinked and sighed, as if she were waking after a sleep.
"Your mother's ill," she said quietly. "But she's
safe. There's this lady looking after her. And you took some letters and ran
away. And there was a man, I think he was a thief, and you killed him. And
you're looking for your father, and—"
"All right, shut up," said Will. "That's enough.
You've got no right to look into my life like that. Don't ever do that again.
That's just spying."
"I know when to stop asking," she said. "See, the
alethio-meter's like a person, almost. I sort of know when it's going to be
cross or when there's things it doesn't want me to know. I kind of feel it. But
when you come out of nowhere yesterday, I had to ask it who you were, or I
might not have been safe. I had to. And it said ..." She lowered her voice
even more. "It said you was a murderer, and I thought, Good, that's all
right, he's someone I can trust. But I didn't ask more than that till just now,
and if you don't want me to ask any more, I promise I won't. This en't like a
private peep show. If I done nothing but spy on people, it'd stop working. I
know that as well as I know my own Oxford."
"You could have asked me instead of that thing. Did it say
whether my father was alive or dead?"
"No, because I didn't ask."
They were both sitting by this time. Will put his head in his
hands with weariness.
"Well," he said finally, "I suppose we'll have to
trust each other."
"That's all right. I trust you."
Will nodded grimly. He was so tired, and there was not the
slightest possibility of sleep in this world. Lyra wasn't usually so
perceptive, but something in his manner made her think: He's afraid, but he's
mastering his fear, like lorek Byrnison said we had to do; like I did by the
fish house at the frozen lake.
"And, Will," she added, "I won't give you away, not
to anyone. I promise."
"Good."
"I done that before. I betrayed someone. And it was the worst
thing I ever did. I thought I was saving his life actually, only I was taking
him right to the most dangerous place there could be. I hated myself for that,
for being so stupid. So I'll try very hard not to be careless or forget and
betray you."
He said nothing. He rubbed his eyes and blinked hard to try and
wake himself up.
"We can't go back through the window till much later,"
he said. "We shouldn't have come through in daylight anyway. We can't risk
anyone seeing. And now we've got to hang around for hours...."
"I'm hungry," Lyra said.
Then he said, "I know! We can go to the cinema!"
"The what?”
"I'll show you. We can get some food there too."
There was a cinema near the city center, ten minutes' walk away.
Will paid for both of them to get in, and bought hot dogs and popcorn and Coke,
and they carried the food inside and sat down just as the film was beginning.
Lyra was entranced. She had seen projected photograms, but nothing
in her world had prepared her for the cinema. She wolfed down the hot dog and
the popcorn, gulped the Coca-Cola, and gasped and laughed with delight at the
characters on the screen. Luckily it was a noisy audience, full of children,
and her excitement wasn't conspicuous. Will closed his eyes at once and went to
sleep.
He woke when he heard the clatter of seats as people moved out,
and blinked in the light. His watch showed a quarter past eight. Lyra came away
reluctantly.
"That's the best thing I ever saw in my whole life," she
said. "I dunno why they never invented this in my world. We got some
things better than you, but this was better than anything we got."
Will couldn't even remember what the film had been. It was still
light outside, and the streets were busy.
"D'you want to see another one?"
"Yeah!"
So they went to the next cinema, a few hundred yards away around
the corner, and did it again. Lyra settled down with her feet on the seat,
hugging her knees, and Will let his mind go blank. When they came out this
time, it was nearly eleven o'clock—much better.
Lyra was hungry again, so they bought hamburgers from a cart and
ate them as they walked along, something else new to her.
"We always sit down to eat. I never seen people just walking
along eating before," she told him. "There's so many ways this place
is different. The traffic, for one. I don't like it. I like the cinema, though,
and hamburgers. I like them a lot. And that Scholar, Dr. Malone, she's going to
make that engine use words. I just know she is. I'll go back there tomorrow and
see how she's getting on. I bet I could help her. I could probably get the
Scholars to give her the money she wants, too. You know how my father did it?
Lord Asriel? He played a trick on them...."
As they walked up the Banbury Road, she told him about the night
she hid in the wardrobe and watched Lord Asriel show the Jordan Scholars the
severed head of Stanislaus Grumman in the vacuum flask. And since Will was such
a good audience, she went on and told him the rest of her story, from the time
she escaped from Mrs. Coulter's flat to the horrible moment when she realized
she'd led Roger to his death on the icy cliffs of Svalbard. Will listened
without comment, but attentively, with sympathy. Her account of a voyage in a
balloon, of armored bears and witches, of a vengeful arm of the Church, seemed
all of a piece with his own fantastic dream of a beautiful city on the sea,
empty and silent and safe: it couldn't be true, it was as simple as that.
But eventually they reached the ring road, and the hornbeam trees.
There was very little traffic now: a car every minute or so, no more than that.
And there was the window. Will felt himself smiling. It was going to be all
right.
"Wait till there's no cars coming," he said. "I'm
going through now."
And a moment later he was on the grass under the palm trees, and a
second or two afterward Lyra followed.
They felt as if they were home again. The wide warm night, and the
scent of flowers and the sea, and the silence, bathed them like soothing water.
Lyra stretched and yawned, and Will felt a great weight lift off
his shoulders. He had been carrying it all day, and he hadn't noticed how it
had nearly pressed him into the ground; but now he felt light and free and at
peace.
And then Lyra gripped his arm. In the same second he heard what
had made her do it.
Somewhere in the little streets beyond the cafe, something was
screaming.
Will set off at once toward the sound, and Lyra followed behind as
he plunged down a narrow alley shadowed from the moonlight. After several
twists and turns they came out into the square in front of the stone tower
they'd seen that morning.
Twenty or so children were facing inward in a semicircle at the
base of the tower, and some of them had sticks in their hands, and some were
throwing stones at whatever they had trapped against the wall. At first Lyra
thought it was another child, but coming from inside the semicircle was a
horrible high wailing that wasn't human at all. And the children were screaming
too, in fear as well as hatred.
Will ran up to the children and pulled the first one back. It was
a boy of about his own age, a boy in a striped T-shirt. As he turned Lyra saw
the wild white rims around his pupils, and then the other children realized
what was happening and stopped to look. Angelica and her little brother were
there too, stones in hand, and all the children's eyes glittered fiercely in
the moonlight.
They fell silent. Only the high wailing continued, and then both
Will and Lyra saw what it was: a tabby cat, cowering against the wall of the
tower, its ear torn and its tail bent. It was the cat Will had seen in
Sunderland Avenue, the one like Moxie, the one that had led him to the window.
As soon as he saw her, he flung aside the boy he was holding. The
boy fell to the ground and was up in a moment, furious, but the others held him
back. Will was already kneeling by the cat.
And then she was in his arms. She fled to his breast and he
cradled her close and stood to face the children, and Lyra thought for a crazy
second that his daemon had appeared at last.
"What are you hurting this cat for?" he demanded, and
they couldn't answer. They stood trembling at Will's anger, breathing heavily,
clutching their sticks and their stones, and they couldn't speak.
But then Angelica's voice came clearly: "You ain' from here!
You ain' from Ci'gazze! You didn' know about Specters, you don' know about cats
either. You ain' like us!"
The boy in the striped T-shirt whom Will had thrown down was
trembling to fight, and if it hadn't been for the cat in Will's arms, he would
have flown at Will with fists and teeth and feet, and Will would have gladly
joined battle. There was a current of electric hatred between the two of them
that only violence could ground. But the boy was afraid of the cat.
"Where you come from?" he said contemptuously.
"Doesn't matter where we come from. If you're scared of this
cat, I'll take her away from you. If she's bad luck to you, she'll be good luck
for us. Now get out of the way."
For a moment Will thought their hatred would overcome their fear,
and he was preparing to put the cat down and fight, but then came a low
thunderous growl from behind the children, and they turned to see Lyra standing
with her hand on the shoulders of a great spotted leopard whose teeth shone
white as he snarled. Even Will, who recognized Pantalaimon, was frightened for
a second. Its effect on the children was dramatic: they turned and fled at
once. A few seconds later the square was empty.
But before they left, Lyra looked up at the tower. A growl from
Pantalaimon prompted her, and just briefly she saw someone there on the very
top, looking down over the battle-mented rim, and not a child either, but a
young man, with curly hair.
Half an hour later they were in the flat above the cafe. Will had
found a tin of condensed milk, and the cat had lapped it hungrily and then
begun to lick her wounds. Pantalaimon had become cat-formed out of curiosity,
and at first the tabby cat had bristled with suspicion, but she soon realized
that whatever Pantalaimon was, he was neither a true cat nor a threat, and
proceeded to ignore him.
Lyra watched Will tending this one with fascination. The only
animals she had been close to in her world (apart from the armored bears) were
working animals of one sort or another. Cats were for keeping Jordan College
clear of mice, not for making pets of.
"I think her tail's broken," Will said. "I don't know
what to do about that. Maybe it'll heal by itself. I'll put some honey on her
ear. I read about that somewhere; it's antiseptic...."
It was messy, but at least it kept her occupied licking it off,
and the wound was getting cleaner all the time.
"You sure this is the one you saw?" she said.
"Oh, yes. And if they're all so frightened of cats, there
wouldn't be many in this world anyway. She probably couldn't find her way
back."
"They were just crazy," Lyra said. "They would have
killed her. I never seen kids being like that."
"I have," said Will.
But his face had closed; he didn't want to talk about it, and she
knew better than to ask. She knew she wouldn't even ask the alethiometer.
She was very tired, so presently she went to bed and slept at
once.
A little later, when the cat had curled up to sleep, Will took a
cup of coffee and the green leather writing case, and sat on the balcony. There
was enough light corning through the window for him to read by, and he wanted
to look at the papers.
There weren't many. As he'd thought, they were letters, written on
airmail paper in black ink. These very marks were made by the hand of the man
he wanted so much to find; he moved his fingers over and over them, and pressed
them to his face, trying to get closer to the essence of his father. Then he
started to read.
Fairbanks, Alaska
Wednesday, 19 June 1985
My darling—the usual mixture of efficiency
and chaos— all the stores are here but the physicist, a genial dimwit called
Nelson, hasn 't made any arrangements for carrying his damn balloons up into
the mountains—having to twiddle our thumbs while he scrabbles around for
transport. But it means I had a chance to talk to an old boy I met last time, a
gold miner called Jake Petersen. Tracked him down to a dingy bar and under the
sound of the baseball game on the TV I asked him about the anomaly. He wouldn
't talk there—took me back to his apartment. With the help of a bottle of Jack
Daniel's he talked for a long time—hadn 't seen it himself, but he 'd met an
Eskimo who had, and this chap said it was a doorway into the spirit world. They
'd known about it for centuries; pan of the initiation of a medicine man
involved going through and bringing back a trophy of some kind—though some
never came back. However, old Jake did have a map of the area, and he 'd marked
on it where his pal had told him the thing was. (Just in case: it's at
69°02'11" N, 157°12'19" W,ona spur of Lookout Ridge a mile or two
north of the Colville River.) We then got on to other Arctic legends—the Norwegian
ship that's been drifting unmanned for sixty years, stuff like that. The
archaeologists are a decent crew, keen to get to work, containing their
impatience with Nelson and his balloons. None of them has ever heard of the
anomaly, and believe me I'm going to keep it like that. My fondest love to you
both. Johnny.
Umiat, Alaska
Saturday, 22 June 1985
My darling—-so much for what did I call
him, a genial dimwit—the physicist Nelson is nothing of the sort, and if I'm
not mistaken he's actually looking for the anomaly himself. The holdup in
Fairbanks was orchestrated by him, would you believe? Knowing that the rest of
the team wouldn't want to wait for anything less than an unarguable reason like
no transport, he personally sent ahead and canceled the vehicles that had been
ordered. I found this out by accident, and I was going to ask him what the hell
he was playing at when I overheard him talking on the radio to
someone—describing the anomaly, no less, except he didn 't know the location.
Later on I bought him a drink, played the bluff soldier, old Arctic hand,
"more things in heaven and earth " line. Pretended to tease him with
the limitations of science—bet you can't explain Bigfoot, etc.—watching him
closely. Then sprung the anomaly on him—Eskimo legend of a doorway into spirit
world—invisible—somewhere near Lookout Ridge, would you believe, where we're
heading for, fancy that. And you know he was jolted rigid. He knew exactly what
I meant. I pretended not to notice and went on to witchcraft, told him the
Zaire leopard story. So I hope he's got me down as a superstitious military
blockhead. But I'm right, Elaine— he's looking for it too. The question is, do
I tell him or not? Got to work out what his game is. Fondest love to both—
Johnny.
Colville Bar,
Alaska Monday, 24 June 1985
Darling—I won't get a chance to post
another letter for a while—this is the last town before we take to the hills,
the Brooks Range. The archaeologists are fizzing to get up there. One chap is
convinced he'll find evidence of much earlier habitation than anyone suspected.
I said how much earlier, and why was he convinced. He told me of some
narwhal-ivory carvings he'd found on a previous dig—carbon 14-dated to some
incredible age, way outside the range of what was previously assumed;
anomalous, in fact. Wouldn't it be strange if they 'd come through my anomaly,
from some other world? Talking of which, the physicist Nelson is my closest
buddy now—kids me along, drops hints to imply that he knows that I know that he
knows, etc. And I pretend to be bluff Major Parry, stout fellow in a crisis but
not too much between the ears, what. But I know he's after it. For one thing,
although he's a bona fide academic his funding actually comes from the Ministry
of Defense—I know the financial codes they use. And for another his so-called
weather balloons are nothing of the sort. I looked in the crate—a radiation
suit if ever I've seen one. A rum do, my darling. I shall stick to my plan:
take the archaeologists to their spot and go off by my self for a few days to
look for the anomaly. If I bump into Nelson wandering about on Lookout Ridge,
I'll play it by ear.
Later. A real bit of luck. I met Jake
Petersen 's pal the Eskimo, Matt Kigalik. Jake had told me where to find him,
but I hadn 't dared to hope he 'd be there. He told me the Soviets had been
looking for the anomaly too; he'd come across a man earlier this year high up
in the range and watched him for a couple of days without being seen, because
he guessed what he was doing, and he was right, and the man turned out to be
Russian, a spy. He didn 't tell me more than that; I got the impression he
bumped him off. But he described the thing to me. It's like a gap in the air, a
sort of window. You look through it and you see another world. But it's not
easy to find because that part of the other world looks just like this—rocks
and moss and so forth. It's on the north side of a small creek fifty paces or
so to the west of a tall rock shaped like a standing bear, and the position
Jake gave me is not quite right—it's nearer 12" N than 11.
Wish me luck, my darling. I'll bring you
back a trophy from the spirit world. I love you forever—kiss the boy for
me—Johnny.
Will found his head ringing.
His father was describing exactly what he himself had found under
the hornbeam trees. He, too, had found a window—he even used the same word for
it! So Will must be on the right track. And this knowledge was what the men had
been searching for... So it was dangerous, too.
Will had been just a baby when that letter was written. Seven
years after that had come the morning in the supermarket when he realized his
mother was in terrible danger, and he had to protect her; and then slowly in
the months that followed came his growing realization that the danger was in her
mind, and he had to protect her all the more.
And then, brutally, the revelation that not all the danger had
been in her mind after all. There really was someone after her—after these
letters, this information.
He had no idea what it meant. But he felt deeply happy that he had
something so important to share with his father; that John Parry and his son
Will had each, separately, discovered this extraordinary thing. When they met,
they could talk about it, and his father would be proud that Will had followed
in his footsteps.
The night was quiet and the sea was still. He folded the letters
away and fell asleep.
SIX
LIGHTED FLIERS
"Grumman?" said the black-bearded fur trader. "From
the Berlin Academy? Reckless. I met him five years back over at the northern
end of the Urals. I thought he was dead."
Sam Cansino, an old acquaintance and a Texan like Lee Scoresby,
sat in the naphtha-laden, smoky bar of the Samirsky Hotel and tossed back a
shot glass of bitingly cold vodka. He nudged the plate of pickled fish and
black bread toward Lee, who took a mouthful and nodded for Sam to tell him
more.
"He'd walked into a trap that fool Yakovlev laid," the
fur trader went on, "and cut his leg open to the bone. Instead of using
regular medicines, he insisted on using the stuff the bears use—bloodmoss—some
kind of lichen, it ain't a true moss. Anyway, he was lying on a sledge
alternately roaring with pain and calling out instructions to his men—they were
taking star sights, and they had to get the measurements right or he'd lash
them with his tongue, and boy, he had a tongue like barbed wire. A lean man,
tough, powerful, curious about everything. You know he was a Tartar, by
initiation?"
"You don't say," said Lee Scoresby, tipping more vodka
into Sam's glass. His daemon, Hester, crouched at his elbow on the bar, eyes
half-closed as usual, ears flat along her back.
Lee had arrived that afternoon, borne to Nova Zembla by the wind
the witches had called up, and once he'd stowed his equipment he'd made
straight for the Samirsky Hotel, near the fish-packing station. This was a
place where many Arctic drifters stopped to exchange news or look for
employment or leave messages for one another, and Lee Scoresby had spent
several days there in the past, waiting for a contract or a passenger or a fair
wind, so there was nothing unusual in his conduct now.
And with the vast changes they sensed in the world around them, it
was natural for people to gather and talk. With every day that passed came more
news: the river Yenisei was free of ice, and at this time of year, too; part of
the ocean had drained away, exposing strange regular formations of stone on the
seabed; a squid a hundred feet long had snatched three fishermen out of their
boat and torn them apart....
And the fog continued to roll in from the north, dense and cold
and occasionally drenched with the strangest imaginable light, in which great
forms could be vaguely seen, and mysterious voices heard.
Altogether it was a bad time to work, which was why the bar of the
Samirsky Hotel was full.
"Did you say Grumman?" said the man sitting just along
the bar, an elderly man in seal hunter's rig, whose lemming daemon looked out
solemnly from his pocket. "He was a Tartar all right. I was there when he
joined that tribe. I saw him having his skull drilled. He had another name,
too—a Tartar name; I'll think of it in a minute."
"Well, how about that," said Lee Scoresby. "Let me
buy you a drink, my friend. I'm looking for news of this man. What tribe was it
he joined?"
"The Yenisei Pakhtars. At the foot of the Semyonov Range.
Near a fork of the Yenisei and the—I forget what it's called— a river that
comes down from the hills. There's a rock the size of a house at the landing
stage."
"Ah, sure," said Lee. "I remember it now. I've
flown over it. And Grumman had his skull drilled, you say? Why was that?"
"He was a shaman," said the old seal hunter. "I
think the tribe recognized him as a shaman before they adopted him. Some
business, that drilling. It goes on for two nights and a day. They use a bow drill,
like for lighting a fire."
"Ah, that accounts for the way his team was obeying
him," said Sam Cansino. "They were the roughest bunch of scoundrels I
ever saw, but they ran around doing his bidding like nervous children. I
thought it was his cursing that did it. If they thought he was a shaman, it'd
make even more sense. But you know, that man's curiosity was as powerful as a
wolf's jaws; he would not let go. He made me tell him every scrap I knew about
the land thereabouts, and the habits of wolverines and foxes. And he was in
some pain from that damn trap of Yakovlev's; leg laid open, and he was writing
the results of that bloodmoss, taking his temperature, watching the scar form,
making notes on every damn thing.... A strange man. There was a witch who
wanted him for a lover, but he turned her down."
"Is that so?" said Lee, thinking of the beauty of
Serafina Pekkala.
"He shouldn't have done that," said the seal hunter.
"A witch offers you her love, you should take it. If you don't, it's your
own fault if bad things happen to you. It's like having to make a choice: a
blessing or a curse. The one thing you can't do is choose neither."
"He might have had a reason," said Lee. "If he had
any sense, it will have been a good one." "He was headstrong,"
said Sam Cansino. "Maybe faithful to another woman," Lee guessed.
"I heard something else about him; I heard he knew the whereabouts of some
magic object, I don't know what it might be, that could protect anyone who held
it. Did you ever hear that story?"
"Yes, I heard that," said the seal hunter. "He
didn't have it himself, but he knew where it was. There was a man who tried to
make him tell, but Grumman killed him."
"His daemon, now," said Sam Cansino, "that was
curious. She was an eagle, a black eagle with a white head and breast, of a
kind I'd never set eyes on, and I didn't know how she might be called."
"She was an osprey," said the barman, listening in.
"You're talking about Stan Grumman? His daemon was an osprey. A fish
eagle."
"What happened to him?" said Lee Scoresby.
"Oh, he got mixed up in the Skraeling wars over to
Bering-land. Last I heard he'd been shot," said the seal hunter.
"Killed outright."
"I heard they beheaded him," said Lee Scoresby.
"No, you're both wrong," said the barman, "and I
know, because I heard it from an limit who was with him. Seems that they were
camped out on Sakhalin somewhere and there was an avalanche. Grumman was buried
under a hundred tons of rock. This Inuit saw it happen."
"What I can't understand," said Lee Scoresby, offering
the bottle around, "is what the man was doing. Was he prospecting for rock
oil, maybe? Or was he a military man? Or was it something philosophical? You
said something about measurements, Sam. What would that be?"
"They were measuring the starlight. And the aurora. He had a
passion for the aurora. I think his main interest was in ruins, though. Ancient
things."
"I know who could tell you more," said the seal hunter.
"Up the mountain they have an observatory belonging to the Imperial
Muscovite Academy. They'd be able to tell you. I know he went up there more
than once."
"What d'you want to know for, anyway, Lee?" said Sam
Cansino.
"He owes me some money," said Lee Scoresby.
This explanation was so satisfying that it stopped their curiosity
at once. The conversation turned to the topic on everyone's lips: the
catastrophic changes taking place around them, which no one could see.
"The fishermen," said the seal hunter, "they say
you can sail right up into that new world."
"There's a new world?" said Lee.
"As soon as this damn fog clears we'll see right into
it," the seal hunter told them confidently. "When it first happened,
I was out in my kayak and looking north, just by chance. I'll never forget what
I saw. Instead of the earth curving down over the horizon, it went straight on.
I could see forever, and as far as I could see, there was land and shoreline,
mountains, harbors, green trees, and fields of corn, forever into the sky. I
tell you, friends, that was something worth toiling fifty years to see, a sight
like that. I would have paddled up the sky into that calm sea without a
backward glance; but then came the fog...."
"Ain't never seen a fog like this," grumbled Sam
Cansino. "Reckon it's set in for a month, maybe more. But you're out of
luck if you want money from Stanislaus Grumman, Lee; the man's dead."
"Ah! I got his Tartar name!" said the seal hunter.
"I just remembered what they called him during the drilling. It sounded
like Jopari."
"Jopari? That's no kind of name I've ever heard of,"
said Lee. "Might be Nipponese, I suppose. Well, if I want my money, maybe
I can chase up his heirs and assigns. Or maybe the Berlin Academy can square
the debt. I'll go ask at the observatory, see if they have an address I can
apply to."
The observatory was some distance to the north, and Lee Scoresby
hired a dog sledge and driver. It wasn't easy to find someone willing to risk
the journey in the fog, but Lee was persuasive, or his money was; and
eventually an old Tartar from the Ob region agreed to take him there, after a
lengthy bout of haggling.
The driver didn't rely on a compass, or he would have found it
impossible. He navigated by other signs—his Arctic fox daemon for one, who sat
at the front of the sledge keenly scenting the way. Lee, who carried his
compass everywhere, had realized already that the earth's magnetic field was as
disturbed as everything else.
The old driver said, as they stopped to brew coffee, "This
happen before, this thing."
"What, the sky opening? That happened before?"
"Many thousand generation. My people remember. All long time
ago, many thousand generation."
"What do they say about it?"
"Sky fall open, and spirits move between this world and that
world. All the lands move. The ice melt, then freeze again. The spirits close
up the hole after a while. Seal it up. But witches say the sky is thin there,
behind the northern lights."
"What's going to happen, Umaq?"
"Same thing as before. Make all same again. But only after
big trouble, big war. Spirit war."
The driver wouldn't tell him any more, and soon they moved on,
tracking slowly over undulations and hollows and past outcrops of dim rock,
dark through the pallid fog, until the old man said: "Observatory up
there. You walk now. Path too crooked for sledge. You want go back, I wait
here."
"Yeah, I want to go back when I've finished, Umaq. You make
yourself a fire, my friend, and sit and rest a spell. I'll be three, four hours
maybe."
Lee Scoresby set off, with Hester tucked into the breast of his
coat, and after half an hour's stiff climb found a clump of buildings suddenly
above him as if they'd just been placed there by a giant hand. But the effect
was only due to a momentary lifting of the fog, and after a minute it closed in
again. He saw the great dome of the main observatory, a smaller one a little
way off, and between them a group of administration buildings and domestic
quarters. No lights showed, because the windows were blacked out permanently so
as not to spoil the darkness for their telescopes.
A few minutes after he arrived, Lee was talking to a group of
astronomers eager to learn what news he could bring them, for there are few
natural philosophers as frustrated as astronomers in a fog. He told them about
everything he'd seen, and once that topic had been thoroughly dealt with, he
asked about Stanislaus Grumman The astronomers hadn't had a visitor in weeks,
and they were keen to talk.
"Grumman? Yes, I'll tell you something about him," said
the Director. "He was an Englishman, in spite of his name. I
remember—"
"Surely not," said his deputy. "He was a member of
the Imperial German Academy. I met him in Berlin. I was sure he was
German."
"No, I think you'll find he was English. His command of that
language was immaculate, anyway," said the Director.
"But I agree, he was certainly a member of the Berlin
Academy. He was a geologist—"
"No, no, you're wrong," said someone else. "He did
look at the earth, but not as a geologist. I had a long talk with him once. I
suppose you'd call him a paleo-archaeologist."
They were sitting, five of them, around a table in the room that
served as their common room, living and dining room, bar, recreation room, and
more or less everything else. Two of them were Muscovites, one was a Pole, one
a Yoruba, and one a Skraeling. Lee Scoresby sensed that the little community
was glad to have a visitor, if only because he introduced a change of
conversation. The Pole had been the last to speak, and then the Yoruba
interrupted:
"What do you mean, a paleo-archaeologist? Archaeologists
already study what's old; why do you need to put another word meaning 'old' in
front of it?"
"His field of study went back much further than you'd expect,
that's all. He was looking for remains of civilizations from twenty, thirty
thousand years ago," the Pole replied.
"Nonsense!" said the Director. "Utter nonsense! The
man was pulling your leg. Civilizations thirty thousand years old? Ha! Where is
the evidence?"
"Under the ice," said the Pole. "That's the point.
According to Grumman, the earth's magnetic field changed dramatically at
various times in the past, and the earth's axis actually moved, too, so that
temperate areas became ice-bound."
"How?" said one of the Muscovites.
"Oh, he had some complex theory. The point was, any evidence
there might have been for very early civilizations was long since buried under
the ice. He claimed to have some pho-tograms of unusual rock formations."
"Ha! Is that all?" said the Director.
"I'm only reporting, I'm not defending him," said the
Pole.
"How long had you known Grumman, gentlemen?" Lee
Scoresby asked.
"Well, let me see," said the Director. "It was
seven years ago I met him for the first time."
"He made a name for himself a year or two before that, with
his paper on the variations in the magnetic pole," said the Yoruba.
"But he came out of nowhere. I mean, no one had known him as a student or
seen any of his previous work...." They talked on for a while,
contributing reminiscences and offering suggestions as to what might have
become of Grumman, though most of them thought he was probably dead. While the
Pole went to brew some more coffee, Lee's hare daemon, Hester, said to him
quietly: "Check out the Skraeling, Lee."
The Skraeling had spoken very little. Lee had thought he was
naturally taciturn, but prompted by Hester, he casually glanced across during
the next break in the conversation to see the man's daemon, a snowy owl,
glaring at him with bright orange eyes. Well, that was what owls looked like,
and they did stare; but Hester was right, and there was a hostility and
suspicion in the daemon that the man's face showed nothing of.
And then Lee saw something else: the Skraeling was wearing a ring
with the Church's symbol engraved on it. Suddenly he realized the reason for
the man's silence. Every philosophical research establishment, so he'd heard,
had to include on its staff a representative of the Magisterium, to act as a
censor and suppress the news of any heretical discoveries.
So, realizing this, and remembering something he'd heard Lyra say,
Lee asked: 'Tell me, gentlemen—do you happen to know if Grumman ever looked
into the question of Dust?"
And instantly a silence fell in the stuffy little room, and
everyone's attention focused on the Skraeling, though no one looked at him
directly. Lee knew that Hester would remain inscrutable, with her eyes half-closed
and her ears flat along her back, and he put on a cheerful innocence as he
looked from face to face.
Finally he settled on the Skraeling, and said, "I beg your
pardon. Have I asked about something it's forbidden to know?"
The Skraeling said, "Where did you hear mention of this
subject, Mr. Scoresby?"
"From a passenger I flew across the sea a while back,"
Lee said easily. "They never said what it was, but from the way it was
mentioned it seemed like the kind of thing Dr. Grumman might have inquired
into. I took it to be some kind of celestial thing, like the aurora. But it
puzzled me, because as an aeronaut I know the skies pretty well, and I'd never
come across this stuff. What is it, anyhow?"
"As you say, a celestial phenomenon," said the Skraeling.
"It has no practical significance."
Presently Lee decided it was time to leave; he had learned no
more, and he didn't want to keep Umaq waiting. He left the astronomers to their
fogbound observatory and set off down the track, feeling his way along by following
his daemon, whose eyes were closer to the ground.
And when they were only ten minutes down the path, something swept
past his head in the fog and dived at Hester. It was the Skraeling's owl
daemon.
But Hester sensed her coming and flattened herself in time, and
the owl's claws just missed. Hester could fight; her claws were sharp, too, and
she was tough and brave. Lee knew that the Skraeling himself must be close by,
and reached for the revolver at his belt.
"Behind you, Lee," Hester said, and he whipped around,
diving, as an arrow hissed over his shoulder.
He fired at once. The Skraeling fell, grunting, as the bullet
thudded into his leg. A moment later the owl daemon swooped with a clumsy
fainting movement to his side, and half lay on the snow, struggling to fold her
wings.
Lee Scoresby cocked his pistol and held it to the man's head.
"Right, you damn fool," he said. "What did you try
that for? Can't you see we're all in the same trouble now this thing's happened
to the sky?"
"It's too late," said the Skraeling.
"Too late for what?"
'Too late to stop. I have already sent a messenger bird. The
Magisterium will know of your inquiries, and they will be glad to know about
Grumman—"
"What about him?"
"The fact that others are looking for him. It confirms what
we thought. And that others know of Dust. You are an enemy of the Church, Lee
Scoresby. By their fruits shall ye know them. By their questions shall ye see
the serpent gnawing at their heart...."
The owl was making soft hooting sounds and raising and dropping
her wings fitfully. Her bright orange eyes were filming over with pain. There
was a gathering red stain in the snow around the Skraeling; even in the
fog-thick dimness, Lee could see that the man was going to die.
"Reckon my bullet must have hit an artery," he said.
"Let go my sleeve and I'll make a tourniquet."
"No!" said the Skraeling harshly. "I am glad to
die! I shall have the martyr's palm! You will not deprive me of that!"
"Then die if you want to. Just tell me this—"
But he never had the chance to complete his question, because with
a bleak little shiver the owl daemon disappeared. The Skraeling's soul was
gone. Lee had once seen a painting in which a saint of the Church was shown
being attacked by assassins. While they bludgeoned his dying body, the saint's
daemon was borne upward by cherubs and offered a spray of palm, the badge of a
martyr. The Skraeling's face now bore the same expression as the saint's in the
picture: an ecstatic straining toward oblivion. Lee dropped him in distaste.
Hester clicked her tongue.
"Shoulda reckoned he'd send a message," she said. 'Take
his ring."
"What the hell for? We ain't thieves, are we?"
"No, we're renegades," she said. "Not by our
choice, but by his malice. Once the Church learns about this, we're done for
anyway. Take every advantage we can in the meantime. Go on, take the ring and
stow it away, and mebbe we can use it."
Lee saw the sense, and took the ring off the dead man's finger.
Peering into the gloom, he saw that the path was edged by a steep drop into
rocky darkness, and he rolled the Skraeling's body over. It fell for a long
time before he heard any impact. Lee had never enjoyed violence, and he hated
killing, although he'd had to do it three times before.
"No sense in thinking that," said Hester. "He
didn't give us a choice, and we didn't shoot to kill. Damn it, Lee, he wanted
to die. These people are insane."
"I guess you're right," he said, and put the pistol
away.
At the foot of the path they found the driver, with the dogs
harnessed and ready to move.
"Tell me, Umaq," Lee said as they set off back to the
fish-packing station, "you ever hear of a man called Grumman?"
"Oh, sure," said the driver. "Everybody know Dr.
Grumman."
"Did you know he had a Tartar name?"
"Not Tartar. You mean Jopari? Not Tartar."
"What happened to him? Is he dead?"
"You ask me that, I have to say I don't know. So you never
know the truth from me."
"I see. So who can I ask?"
"You better ask his tribe. Better go to Yenisei, ask
them."
"His tribe ... you mean the people who initiated him? Who
drilled his skull?"
"Yes. You better ask them. Maybe he not dead, maybe he is.
Maybe neither dead nor alive."
"How can he be neither dead nor alive?"
"In spirit world. Maybe he in spirit world. Already I say too
much. Say no more now."
And he did not.
But when they returned to the station, Lee went at once to the
docks and looked for a ship that could give him passage to the mouth of the
Yenisei.
Meanwhile, the witches were searching too. The Latvian queen, Ruta
Skadi, flew with Serafina Pekkala's company for many days and nights, through
fog and whirlwind, over regions devastated by flood or landslide. It was
certain that they were in a world none of them had known before, with strange
winds, strange scents in the air, great unknown birds that attacked them on
sight and had to be driven off with volleys of arrows; and when they found land
to rest on, the very plants were strange.
Still, some of those plants were edible, and they found rabbits
that made a tasty meal, and there was no shortage of water. It might have been
a good land to live in, but for the spectral forms that drifted like mist over
the grasslands and congregated near streams and low-lying water. In some lights
they were hardly there at all, just visible as a drifting quality in the light,
a rhythmic evanescence, like veils of transparency turning before a mirror. The
witches had never seen anything like them before, and mistrusted them at once.
"Are they alive, do you think, Serafina Pekkala?" said
Ruta Skadi as the witches circled high above a group of the things that stood
motionless at the edge of a tract of forest.
"Alive or dead, they're full of malice," Serafina
replied. "I can feel that from here. And unless I knew what weapon could
harm them, I wouldn't want to go closer than this."
The Specters seemed to be earthbound, without the power of flight,
luckily for the witches. Later that day, they saw what the Specters could do.
It happened at a river crossing, where a dusty road went over a
low stone bridge beside a stand of trees. The late afternoon sun slanted across
the grassland, drawing an intense green out of the ground and a dusty gold out
of the air, and in that rich oblique light the witches saw a band of travelers
making for the bridge, some on foot, some in horse-drawn carts, two of them
riding horses. Serafina caught her breath: these people had no daemons, and yet
they seemed alive. She was about to fly down and look more closely when she
heard a cry of alarm.
It came from the rider on the leading horse. He was pointing at
the trees, and as the witches looked down, they saw a stream of those spectral
forms pouring across the grass, seeming to flow with no effort toward the
people, their prey.
The people scattered. Serafina was shocked to see the leading
rider turn tail at once and gallop away, without staying to help his comrades,
and the second rider did the same, escaping as fast as he could in another
direction.
"Fly lower and watch, sisters," Serafina told her
companions. "But don't interfere till I command."
They saw that the little band contained children as well, some
riding in the carts, some walking beside them. And it was clear that the
children couldn't see the Specters, and the Specters weren't interested in
them; they made instead for the adults. One old woman seated on a cart held two
little children on her lap, and Ruta Skadi was angered by her cowardice:
because she tried to hide behind them, and thrust them out toward the Specter
that approached her, as if offering them up to save her own life.
The children pulled free of the old woman and jumped down from the
cart, and now, like the other children around them, ran to and fro in fright,
or stood and clung together weeping as the Specters attacked the adults. The
old woman in the cart was soon enveloped in a transparent shimmer that moved
busily, working and feeding in some invisible way that made Ruta Skadi sick to
watch. The same fate befell every adult in the party apart from the two who had
fled on their horses.
Fascinated and stunned, Serafina Pekkala flew down even closer.
There was a father with his child who had tried to ford the river to get away,
but a Specter had caught up with them, and as the child clung to the father's
back, crying, the man slowed down and stood waist-deep in the water, arrested
and helpless.
What was happening to him? Serafina hovered above the water a few
feet away, gazing horrified. She had heard from travelers in her own world of
the legend of the vampire, and she thought of that as she watched the Specter
busy gorging on—something, some quality the man had, his soul, his daemon,
perhaps; for in this world, evidently, daemons were inside, not outside. His
arms slackened under the child's thighs, and the child fell into the water
behind him and grabbed vainly at his hand, gasping, crying, but the man only
turned his head slowly and looked down with perfect indifference at his little
son drowning beside him.
That was too much for Serafina. She swooped lower and plucked the
child from the water, and as she did so, Ruta Skadi cried out: "Be
careful, sister! Behind you—"
And Serafina felt just for a moment a hideous dullness at the edge
of her heart, and reached out and up for Ruta Skadi's hand, which pulled her
away from the danger. They flew higher, the child screaming and clinging to her
waist with sharp fingers, and Serafina saw the Specter behind her, a drift of
mist swirling on the water, casting about for its lost prey. Ruta Skadi shot an
arrow into the heart of it, with no effect at all.
Serafina put the child down on the riverbank, seeing that it was
in no danger from the Specters, and they retreated to the air again. The little
band of travelers had halted for good now; the horses cropped the grass or
shook their heads at flies, the children were howling or clutching one another
and watching from a distance, and every adult had fallen still. Their eyes were
open; some were standing, though most had sat down; and a terrible stillness
hung over them. As the last of the Specters drifted away, sated, Serafina flew
down and alighted in front of a woman sitting on the grass, a strong,
healthy-looking woman whose cheeks were red and whose fair hair was glossy.
"Woman?" said Serafina. There was no response. "Can
you hear me? Can you see me?"
She shook her shoulder. With an immense effort the woman looked
up. She scarcely seemed to notice. Her eyes were vacant, and when Serafina
pinched the skin of her forearm, she merely looked down slowly and then away
again.
The other witches were moving through the scattered wagons,
looking at the victims in dismay. The children, meanwhile, were gathering on a
little knoll some way off, staring at the witches and whispering together
fearfully.
"The horseman's watching," said a witch.
She pointed up to where the road led through a gap in the hills.
The rider who'd fled had reined in his horse and turned around to look back,
shading his eyes to see what was going on.
"We'll speak to him," said Serafina, and sprang into the
air.
However the man had behaved when faced with the Specters, he was
no coward. As he saw the witches approach, he unslung the rifle from his back
and kicked the horse forward onto the grass, where he could wheel and fire and
face them in the open; but Serafina Pekkala alighted slowly and held her bow
out before laying it on the ground in front of her.
Whether or not they had that gesture here, its meaning was
unmistakable. The man lowered the rifle from his shoulder and waited, looking
from Serafina to the other witches, and up to their daemons too, who circled in
the skies above. Women, young and ferocious, dressed in scraps of black silk
and riding pine branches through the sky—there was nothing like that in his
world, but he faced them with calm wariness. Serafina, coming closer, saw
sorrow in his face as well, and strength. It was hard to reconcile with the
memory of his turning tail and running while his companions perished.
"Who are you?" he said.
"My name is Serafina Pekkala. I am the queen of the witches
of Lake Enara, which is in another world. What is your name?"
"Joachim Lorenz. Witches, you say? Do you treat with the
devil, then?"
"If we did, would that make us your enemy?"
He thought for a few moments, and settled his rifle across his
thighs. "It might have done, once," he said, "but times have
changed. Why have you come to this world?"
"Because the times have changed. What are those creatures who
attacked your party?"
"Well, the Specters..." he said, shrugging,
half-astonished. "Don't you know the Specters?"
"We've never seen them in our world. We saw you making your escape,
and we didn't know what to think. Now I understand."
"There's no defense against them," said Joachim Lorenz.
"Only the children are untouched. Every party of travelers has to include
a man and a woman on horseback, by law, and they have to do what we did, or
else the children will have no one to look after them. But times are bad now;
the cities are thronged with Specters, and there used to be no more than a
dozen or so in each place."
Ruta Skadi was looking around. She noticed the other rider moving
back toward the wagons, and saw that it was, indeed, a woman. The children were
running to meet her.
"But tell me what you're looking for," Joachim Lorenz
went on. "You didn't answer me before. You wouldn't have come here for
nothing. Answer me now."
"We're looking for a child," said Serafina, "a
young girl from our world. Her name is Lyra Belacqua, called Lyra
Silver-tongue. But where she might be, in a whole world, we can't guess. You
haven't seen a strange child, on her own?"
"No. But we saw angels the other night, making for the
Pole."
"Angels?"
"Troops of them in the air, armed and shining. They haven't
been so common in the last years, though in my grandfather's time they passed
through this world often, or so he used to say."
He shaded his eyes and gazed down toward the scattered wagons, the
halted travelers. The other rider had dismounted now and was comforting some of
the children.
Serafina followed his gaze and said, "If we camp with you
tonight and keep guard against the Specters, will you tell us more about this
world, and these angels you saw?"
"Certainly I will. Come with me."
The witches helped to move the wagons farther along the road, over
the bridge and away from the trees where the Specters had come from. The
stricken adults had to stay where they were, though it was painful to see the
little children clinging to a mother who no longer responded to them, or
tugging the sleeve of a father who said nothing and gazed into nothing and had
nothing in his eyes. The younger children couldn't understand why they had to
leave their parents. The older ones, some of whom had already lost parents of
their own and who had seen it before, simply looked bleak and stayed dumb.
Serafina picked up the little boy who'd fallen in the river, and who was crying
out for his daddy, reaching back over Serafina's shoulder to the silent figure
still standing in the water, indifferent. Serafina felt his tears on her bare
skin.
The horsewoman, who wore rough canvas breeches and rode like a
man, said nothing to the witches. Her face was grim. She moved the children on,
speaking sternly, ignoring their tears. The evening sun suffused the air with a
golden light in which every detail was clear and nothing was dazzling, and the
faces of the children and the man and woman too seemed immortal and strong and
beautiful.
Later, as the embers of a fire glowed in a circle of ashy rocks
and the great hills lay calm under the moon, Joachim Lorenz told Serafina and
Ruta Skadi about the history of his world.
It had once been a happy one, he explained. The cities were
spacious and elegant, the fields well tilled and fertile. Merchant ships plied
to and fro on the blue oceans, and fishermen hauled in brimming nets of cod and
tunny, bass and mullet; the forests ran with game, and no children went hungry.
In the courts and squares of the great cities ambassadors from Brasil and
Benin, from Eireland and Corea mingled with tabaco sellers, with commedia
players from Bergamo, with dealers in fortune bonds. At night masked lovers met
under the rose-hung colonnades or in the lamplit gardens, and the air stirred
with the scent of jasmine and throbbed to the music of the wire-strung
mandarone.
The witches listened wide-eyed to this tale of a world so like
theirs and yet so different.
"But it went wrong," he said. "Three hundred years
ago, it all went wrong. Some people reckon the philosophers' Guild of the Torre
degli Angeli, the Tower of the Angels, in the city we have just left, they're
the ones to blame. Others say it was a judgment on us for some great sin,
though I never heard any agreement about what that sin was. But suddenly out of
nowhere there came the Specters, and we've been haunted ever since. You've seen
what they do. Now imagine what it is to live in a world with Specters in it.
How can we prosper, when we can't rely on anything continuing as it is? At any
moment a father might be taken, or a mother, and the family fall apart; a
merchant might be taken, and his enterprise fail, and all his clerks and
factors lose their employment; and how can lovers trust their vows? All the
trust and all the virtue fell out of our world when the Specters came."
"Who are these philosophers?" said Serafina. "And
where is this tower you speak of?"
"In the city we left—Cittagazze. The city of magpies. You
know why it's called that? Because magpies steal, and that's all we can do now.
We create nothing, we have built nothing for hundreds of years, all we can do
is steal from other worlds. Oh, yes, we know about other worlds. Those
philosophers in the Torre degli Angeli discovered all we need to know about
that subject. They have a spell which, if you say it, lets you walk through a
door that isn't there, and find yourself in another world. Some say it's not a
spell but a key that can open even where there isn't a lock. Who knows?
Whatever it is, it let the Specters in. And the philosophers use it still, I
understand. They pass into other worlds and steal from them and bring back what
they find. Gold and jewels, of course, but other things too, like ideas, or sacks
of corn, or pencils. They are the source of all our wealth," he said
bitterly, "that Guild of thieves."
"Why don't the Specters harm children?" asked Ruta
Skadi.
"That is the greatest mystery of all. In the innocence of
children there's some power that repels the Specters of Indifference. But it's
more than that. Children simply don't see them, though we can't understand why.
We never have. But Specter-orphans are common, as you can imagine—children
whose parents have been taken; they gather in bands and roam the country, and
sometimes they hire themselves out to adults to look for food and supplies in a
Specter-ridden area, and sometimes they simply drift about and scavenge.
"So that is our world. Oh, we managed to live with this
curse. They're true parasites: they won't kill their host, though they drain
most of the life out of him. But there was a rough balance ... till recently,
till the great storm. Such a storm it was! It sounded as if the whole world was
breaking and cracking apart; there hadn't been a storm like that in memory.
"And then there came a fog that lasted for days and covered
every part of the world that I know of, and no one could travel. And when the
fog cleared, the cities were full of the Specters, hundreds and thousands of
them. So we fled to the hills and out to sea, but there's no escaping them this
time wherever we go. As you saw for yourselves.
"Now it's your turn. You tell me about your world, and why
you've left it to come to this one."
Serafina told him truthfully as much as she knew. He was an honest
man, and there was nothing that needed concealing from him. He listened
closely, shaking his head with wonder, and when she had finished, he said:
"I told you about the power they say our philosophers have, of opening the
way to other worlds. Well, some think that occasionally they leave a doorway
open, out of forgetfulness; 1 wouldn't be surprised if travelers from other
worlds found their way here from time to time. We know that angels pass
through, after all."
"Angels?" said Serafina. "You mentioned them
before. They are new to us. Can you explain them?"
"You want to know about angels?" said Joachim Lorenz.
"Very well. Their name for themselves is bene elim, I'm told. Some call
them Watchers, too. They're not beings of flesh like us; they're beings of
spirit. Or maybe their flesh is more finely drawn than ours, lighter and
clearer, I wouldn't know; but they're not like us. They carry messages from
heaven, that's their calling. We see them sometimes in the sky, passing through
this world on the way to another, shining like fireflies way, way up high. On a
still night you can even hear their wingbeats. They have concerns different
from ours, though in the ancient days they came down and had dealings with men
and women, and they bred with us, too, some say.
"And when the fog came, after the great storm, I was beset by
Specters in the hills behind the city of Sant'Elia, on my way homeward. I took
refuge in a shepherd's hut by a spring next to a birch wood, and all night long
I heard voices above me in the fog, cries of alarm and anger, and wingbeats
too, closer than I'd ever heard them before; and toward dawn there was the
sound of a skirmish of arms, the whoosh of arrows, and the clang of swords. I
daredn't go out and see, though I was powerfully curious, for I was afraid. I
was stark terrified, if you want to know. When the sky was as light as it ever
got during that fog, I ventured to look out, and I saw a great figure lying
wounded by the spring. I felt as if I was seeing things I had no right to
see—sacred things. I had to look away, and when I looked again, the figure was
gone.
"That's the closest I ever came to an angel. But as I told
you, we saw them the other night, way high aloft among the stars, making for
the Pole, like a fleet of mighty ships under sail.... Something is happening,
and we don't know down here what it may be. There could be a war breaking out.
There was a war in heaven once, oh, thousands of years ago, immense ages back,
but I don't know what the outcome was. It wouldn't be impossible if there was
another. But the devastation would be enormous, and the consequences for us ...
I can't imagine it.
"Though," he went on, sitting up to stir the fire,
"the end of it might be better than I fear. It might be that a war in heaven
would sweep the Specters from this world altogether, and back into the pit they
come from. What a blessing that would be, eh! How fresh and happy we could
live, free of that fearful blight!"
Though Joachim Lorenz looked anything but hopeful as he stared
into the flames. The flickering light played over his face, but there was no
play of expression in his strong features; he looked grim and sad.
Ruta Skadi said, "The Pole, sir. You said these angels were
making for the Pole. Why would they do that, do you know? Is that where heaven
lies?"
"I couldn't say. I'm not a learned man, you can see that
plain enough. But the north of our world, well, that's the abode of spirits,
they say. If angels were mustering, that's where they'd go, and if they were
going to make an assault on heaven, I daresay that's where they'd build their
fortress and sally out from."
He looked up, and the witches followed his eyes. The stars in this
world were the same as theirs: the Milky Way blazed bright across the dome of
the sky, and innumerable points of starlight dusted the dark, almost matching
the moon for brightness....
"Sir," said Serafina, "did you ever hear of
Dust?"
"Dust? I guess you mean it in some other sense than the dust
on the roads. No, I never did. But look! There's a troop of angels
now...."
He pointed to the constellation of Ophiuchus. And sure enough,
something was moving through it, a tiny cluster of lighted beings. And they
didn't drift; they moved with the purposeful flight of geese or swans.
Ruta Skadi stood up.
"Sister, it's time I parted from you," she said to
Serafina. "I'm going up to speak to these angels, whatever they may be. If
they're going to Lord Asriel, I'll go with them. If not, I'll search on by
myself. Thank you for your company, and go well."
They kissed, and Ruta Skadi took her cloud-pine branch and sprang
into the air. Her daemon, Sergi, a bluethroat, sped out of the dark alongside
her.
"We're going high?" he said.
"As high as those lighted fliers in Ophiuchus. They're going
swiftly, Sergi. Let's catch them!"
And she and her dsmon raced upward, flying quicker than sparks
from a fire, the air rushing through the twigs on her branch and making her
black hair stream out behind. She didn't look back at the little fire in the
wide darkness, at the sleeping children and her witch companions. That part of
her journey was over, and, besides, those glowing creatures ahead of her were
no larger yet, and unless she kept her eye on them they were easily lost
against the great expanse of starlight.
So she flew on, never losing sight of the angels, and gradually as
she came closer they took on a clearer shape.
They shone not as if they were burning but as if, wherever they
were and however dark the night, sunlight was shining on them. They were like
humans, but winged, and much taller; and, as they were naked, the witch could
see that three of them were male, two female. Their wings sprang from their
shoulder blades, and their backs and chests were deeply muscled. Ruta Skadi
stayed behind them for some way, watching, measuring their strength in case she
should need to fight them. They weren't armed, but on the other hand they were
flying easily within their power, and might even outstrip her if it came to a
chase.
Making her bow ready, just in case, she sped forward and flew
alongside them, calling: "Angels! Halt and listen to me! I am the witch
Ruta Skadi, and I want to talk to you!"
They turned. Their great wings beat inward, slowing them, and
their bodies swung downward till they were standing upright in the air, holding
their position by the beating of their wings. They surrounded her, five huge
forms glowing in the dark air, lit by an invisible sun.
She looked around, sitting on her pine branch proud and unafraid,
though her heart was beating with the strangeness of it, and her daemon
fluttered to sit close to the warmth of her body.
Each angel-being was distinctly an individual, and yet they had
more in common with one another than with any human she had seen. What they
shared was a shimmering, darting play of intelligence and feeling that seemed
to sweep over them all simultaneously. They were naked, but she felt naked in
front of their glance, it was so piercing and went so deep.
Still, she was unashamed of what she was, and she returned their
gaze with head held high.
"So you are angels," she said, "or Watchers, or
bene elim. Where are you going?"
"We are following a call," said one.
She was not sure which one had spoken. It might have been any or
all of them at once.
"Whose call?" she said.
"A man's."
"Lord Asriel's?"
"It may be."
"Why are you following his call?"
"Because we are willing to," came the reply.
"Then wherever he is, you can guide me to him as well,"
she ordered them.
Ruta Skadi was four hundred and sixteen years old, with all the
pride and knowledge of an adult witch queen. She was wiser by far than any
short-lived human, but she had not the slightest idea of how like a child she
seemed beside these ancient beings. Nor did she know how far their awareness
spread out beyond her like filamentary tentacles to the remotest corners of
universes she had never dreamed of; nor that she saw them as human-formed only
because her eyes expected to. If she were to perceive their true form, they
would seem more like architecture than organism, like huge structures composed
of intelligence and feeling.
But they expected nothing else: she was very young.
At once they beat their wings and surged forward, and she darted
with them, surfing on the turbulence their pinions caused in the air and
relishing the speed and power it added to her flight.
They flew throughout the night. The stars wheeled around them, and
faded and vanished as the dawn seeped up from the east. The world burst into
brilliance as the sun's rim appeared, and then they were flying through blue
sky and clear air, fresh and sweet and moist.
In the daylight the angels were less visible, though to any eye
their strangeness was clear. The light Ruta Skadi saw them by was still not
that of the sun now climbing the sky, but some other light from somewhere else.
Tirelessly they flew on and on, and tirelessly she kept pace. She
felt a fierce joy possessing her, that she could command these immortal
presences. And she rejoiced in her blood and flesh, in the rough pine bark she
felt next to her skin, in the beat of her heart and the life of all her senses,
and in the hunger she was feeling now, and in the presence of her sweet-voiced
bluethroat daemon, and in the earth below her and the lives of every creature,
plant and animal both; and she delighted in being of the same substance as
them, and in knowing that when she died her flesh would nourish other lives as
they had nourished her. And she rejoiced, too, that she was going to see Lord
Asriel again.
Another night came, and still the angels flew on. And at some point
the quality of the air changed, not for the worse or the better, but changed
nonetheless, and Ruta Skadi knew that they'd passed out of that world and into
another. How it had happened she couldn't guess.
"Angels!" she called as she sensed the change. "How
have we left the world I found you in? Where was the boundary?"
"There are invisible places in the air," came the
answer. "Gateways into other worlds. We can see them, but you
cannot."
Ruta Skadi couldn't see the invisible gateway, but she didn't need
to: witches could navigate better than birds. As soon as the angel spoke, she
fixed her attention on three jagged peaks below her and memorized their
configuration exactly. Now she could find it again, if she needed to, despite
what the angels might think.
They flew on farther, and presently she heard an angel voice:
"Lord Asriel is in this world, and there is the fortress he's
building...."
They had slowed, and were circling like eagles in the middle airs.
Ruta Skadi looked where one angel was pointing. The first faint glimmer of
light was tinting the east, though all the stars above shone as brilliantly as
ever against the profound velvet black of the high heavens. And on the very rim
of the world, where the light was increasing moment by moment, a great mountain
range reared its peaks—jagged spears of black rock, mighty broken slabs, and
sawtooth ridges piled in confusion like the wreckage of a universal
catastrophe. But on the highest point, which as she looked was touched by the
first rays of the morning sun and outlined in brilliance, stood a regular
structure: a huge fortress whose battlements were formed of single slabs of
basalt half a hill in height, and whose extent was to be measured in flying
time.
Beneath this colossal fortress, fires glared and furnaces smoked
in the darkness of early dawn, and from many miles away Ruta Skadi heard the
clang of hammers and the pounding of great mills. And from every direction, she
could see more flights of angels winging toward it, and not only angels, but machines
too: steel-winged craft gliding like albatrosses, glass cabins under flickering
dragonfly wings, droning zeppelins like huge bumblebees—all making for the
fortress mat Lord Asriel was building on the mountains at the edge of the
world.
"And is Lord Asriel there?" she said.
"Yes, he is there," the angels replied.
"Then let's fly there to meet him. And you must be my guard
of honor."
Obediently they spread their wings and set their course toward the
gold-rimmed fortress, with the eager witch flying before them.
SEVEN
THE ROLLS-ROYCE
Lyra woke early to find the morning quiet and warm, as if the city
never had any other weather than this calm summer. She slipped out of bed and
downstairs, and hearing some children's voices out on the water, went to see
what they were doing.
Three boys and a girl were splashing across the sunlit harbor in a
couple of pedal boats, racing toward the steps. As they saw Lyra, they slowed
for a moment, but then the race took hold of them again. The winners crashed
into the steps so hard that one of them fell into the water, and then he tried
to climb into the other craft and tipped that over, too, and then they all
splashed about together as if the fear of the night before had never happened.
They were younger than most of the children by the tower, Lyra thought, and she
joined them in the water, with Pantalaimon as a little silver fish glittering
beside her. She never found it hard to talk to other children, and soon they
were gathered around her, sitting in pools of water on the warm stone, their
shirts drying quickly in the sun. Poor Pantalaimon had to creep into her pocket
again, frog-shaped in the cool damp cotton.
"What you going to do with that cat?"
"Can you really take the bad luck away?"
"Where you come from?"
"Your friend, he ain' afraid of Specters?"
"Will en't afraid of anything," Lyra said. "Nor'm
I. What you scared of cats for?"
"You don't know about cats?" the oldest boy said
incredulously. "Cats, they got the devil in them, all right. You got to
kill every cat you see. They bite you and put the devil in you too. And what
was you doing with that big pard?"
She realized he meant Pantalaimon in his leopard shape, and shook
her head innocently.
"You must have been dreaming," she said. "There's
all kinds of things look different in the moonlight. But me and Will, we don't
have Specters where we come from, so we don't know much about 'em."
"If you can't see 'em, you're safe," said a boy.
"You see 'em, you know they can get you. That's what my pa said, then they
got him."
"And they're here, all around us now?"
"Yeah," said the girl. She reached out a hand and
grabbed a fistful of air, crowing, "I got one now!"
"They can't hurt you," one of the boys said. "So we
can't hurt them, all right."
"And there's always been Specters in this world?" said
Lyra.
"Yeah," said one boy, but another said, "No, they
came a long time ago. Hundreds of years."
"They came because of the Guild," said the third.
"The what?" said Lyra.
"They never!" said the girl. "My granny said they
came because people were bad, and God sent them to punish us."
"Your granny don' know nothing," said a boy. "She
got a beard, your granny. She's a goat, all right."
"What's the Guild?" Lyra persisted.
"You know the Torre degU Angeli," said a boy. "The
stone tower, right. Well it belongs to the Guild, and there's a secret place in
there. The Guild, they're men who know all kind of things. Philosophy, alchemy,
all kind of things they know. And they were the ones who let the Specters
in."
"That ain' true," said another boy. 'They came from the
stars."
"It is! This is what happened, all right: this Guild
man hundreds of years ago was taking some metal apart. Lead. He was going to
make it into gold. And he cut it and cut it smaller and smaller till he came to
the smallest piece he could get There ain' nothing smaller than that. So small
you couldn' see it, even. But he cut that, too, and inside the smallest little
bit there was all the Specters packed in, twisted over and folded up so tight
they took up no space at all. But once he cut it, bam! They whooshed out, and
they been here ever since. That's what my papa said."
"Is there any Guild men in the tower now?" said Lyra.
"No! They run away like everyone else," said the girl.
"There ain' no one in the tower. That's haunted, that
place," said a boy. "That's why the cat came from there. We ain'
gonna go in there, all right. Ain' no kids gonna go in there. That's
scary."
"The Guild men ain' afraid to go in there," said
another.
"They got special magic, or something. They're greedy, they
live off the poor people," said the girl. "The poor people do all the
work, and the Guild men just live there for nothing."
"But there en't anyone in the tower now?" Lyra said.
"No grownups?"
"No grownups in the city at all!"
"They wouldn' dare, all right."
But she had seen a young man up there. She was convinced of it.
And there was something in the way these children spoke; as a practiced liar,
she knew liars when she met them, and they were lying about something.
And suddenly she remembered: little Paolo had mentioned that he
and Angelica had an elder brother, Tullio, who was in the city too, and
Angelica had hushed him.... Could the young man she'd seen have been their
brother?
She left them to rescue their boats and pedal back to the beach,
and went inside to make some coffee and see if Will was awake. But he was still
asleep, with the cat curled up at his feet, and Lyra was impatient to see her
Scholar again. So she wrote a note and left it on the floor by his bedside, and
took her rucksack and went off to look for the window.
The way she took led her through the little square they'd come to
the night before. But it was empty now, and the sunlight dusted the front of
the ancient tower and showed up the blurred carvings beside the doorway:
humanlike figures with folded wings, their features eroded by centuries of
weather, but somehow in their stillness expressing power and compassion and
intellectual force.
"Angels," said Pantalaimon, now a cricket on Lyra's
shoulder.
"Maybe Specters," Lyra said.
"No! They said this was something angeli" he insisted.
"Bet that's angels."
"Shall we go in?"
They looked up at the great oak door on its ornate black hinges.
The half-dozen steps up to it were deeply worn, and the door itself stood
slightly open. There was nothing to stop Lyra from going in except her own
fear.
She tiptoed to the top of the steps and looked through the
opening. A dark stone-flagged hall was all she could see, and not much of that;
but Pantalaimon was fluttering anxiously on her shoulder, just as he had when
they'd played the trick on the skulls in the crypt at Jordan College, and she
was a little wiser now. This was a bad place. She ran down the steps and out of
the square, making for the bright sunlight of the palm tree boulevard. And as soon
as she was sure there was no one looking, she went straight across to the
window and through into Will's Oxford.
Forty minutes later she was inside the physics building once more,
arguing with the porter; but this time she had a trump card
"You just ask Dr. Malone," she said sweetly.
"That's all you got to do, ask her. She'll tell you."
The porter turned to his telephone, and Lyra watched pityingly as
he pressed the buttons and spoke into it. They didn't even give him a proper
lodge to sit in, like a real Oxford college, just a big wooden counter, as if
it was a shop.
"All right," said the porter, turning back. "She
says go on up. Mind you don't go anywhere else."
"No, I won't," she said demurely, a good little girl
doing what she was told.
At the top of the stairs, though, she had a surprise, because just
as she passed a door with a symbol indicating woman on it, it opened and there
was Dr. Malone silently beckoning her in.
She entered, puzzled. This wasn't the laboratory, it was a
washroom, and Dr. Malone was agitated.
She said, "Lyra, there's someone else in the lab—police
officers or something. They know you came to see me yesterday—I don't know what
they're after, but I don't like it What's going on?"
"How do they know I came to see you?"
"I don't know! They didn't know your name, but I knew who
they meant—"
"Oh. Well, I can lie to them. That's easy."
"But what is going on?”
A woman's voice spoke from the corridor outside: "Dr. Malone?
Have you seen the child?"
"Yes," Dr. Malone called. "I was just showing her
where the washroom is..."
There was no need for her to be so anxious, thought Lyra, but
perhaps she wasn't used to danger.
The woman in the corridor was young and dressed very smartly, and
she tried to smile when Lyra came out, but her eyes remained hard and
suspicious.
"Hello," she said. "You're Lyra, are you?"
"Yeah. What's your name?"
"I'm Sergeant Clifford. Come along in."
Lyra thought this young woman had a nerve, acting as if it were
her own laboratory, but she nodded meekly. That was the moment when she first
felt a twinge of regret. She knew she shouldn't be here; she knew what the
alethiometer wanted her to do, and it was not this. She stood doubtfully in the
doorway.
In the room already there was a tall powerful man with white
eyebrows. Lyra knew what Scholars looked like, and neither of these two was a
Scholar.
"Come in, Lyra," said Sergeant Clifford again.
"It's all right. This is Inspector Walters."
"Hello, Lyra," said the man. "I've been hearing all
about you from Dr. Malone here. I'd like to ask you a few questions, if that's
all right."
"What sort of questions?" she said.
"Nothing difficult," he said, smiling. "Come and
sit down, Lyra."
He pushed a chair toward her. Lyra sat down carefully, and heard
the door close itself. Dr. Malone was standing nearby. Pantalaimon,
cricket-formed in Lyra's breast pocket, was agitated; she could feel him
against her breast, and hoped the tremor didn't show. She thought to him to
keep still.
"Where d'you come from, Lyra?" said Inspector Walters.
If she said Oxford, they'd easily be able to check. But she
couldn't say another world, either. These people were dangerous; they'd want to
know more at once. She thought of the only other name she knew of in this
world: the place Will had come from.
"Winchester," she said.
"You've been in the wars, haven't you, Lyra?" said the
inspector. "How did you get those bruises? There's a bruise on your cheek,
and another on your leg—has someone been knocking you about?"
"No," said Lyra.
"Do you go to school, Lyra?"
"Yeah. Sometimes," she added.
"Shouldn't you be at school today?"
She said nothing. She was feeling more and more uneasy. She looked
at Dr. Malone, whose face was tight and unhappy.
"I just came here to see Dr. Malone," Lyra said.
"Are you staying in Oxford, Lyra? Where are you
staying?"
"With some people," she said. "Just friends."
"What's their address?"
"I don't know exactly what it's called. I can find it easy,
but I can't remember the name of the street."
"Who are these people?"
"Just friends of my father," she said.
"Oh, I see. How did you find Dr. Malone?"
'"Cause my father's a physicist, and he knows her."
It was going more easily now, she thought. She began to relax into
it and lie more fluently.
"And she showed you what she was working on, did she?"
"Yeah. The engine with the screen ... Yes, all that."
"You're interested in that sort of thing, are you? Science,
and so on?"
"Yeah. Physics, especially."
"You going to be a scientist when you grow up?"
That sort of question deserved a blank stare, which it got. He
wasn't disconcerted. His pale eyes looked briefly at the young woman, and then
back to Lyra.
"And were you surprised at what Dr. Malone showed you?"
"Well, sort of, but I knew what to expect"
"Because of your father?"
"Yeah. 'Cause he's doing the same kind of work."
"Yes, quite. Do you understand it?"
"Some of it"
"Your father's looking into dark matter, then?"
"Yes."
"Has he got as far as Dr. Malone?"
"Not in the same way. He can do some things better, but that
engine with the words on the screen—he hasn't got one of those."
"Is Will staying with your friends as well?"
"Yes, he—"
And she stopped. She knew at once she'd made a horrible mistake.
So did they, and they were on their feet in a moment to stop her
from running out but somehow Dr. Malone was in the way, and the sergeant
tripped and fell, blocking the way of the inspector. It gave Lyra time to dart
out, slam the door shut behind her, and run full tilt for the stairs.
Two men in white coats came out of a door, and she bumped into
them. Suddenly Pantalaimon was a crow, shrieking and flapping, and he startled
them so much they fell back and she pulled free of their hands and raced down
the last flight of stairs into the lobby just as the porter put the phone down
and lumbered along behind his counter calling out "Oy! Stop there!
You!"
But the flap he had to lift was at the other end, and she got to
the revolving door before he could come out and catch her.
And behind her, the lift doors were opening, and the pale-haired
man was running out so fast, so strong—
And the door wouldn't turn! Pantalaimon shrieked at her: they were
pushing the wrong side!
She cried out in fear and turned herself around, hurling her
little weight against the heavy glass, willing it to turn, and got it to move
just in time to avoid the grasp of the porter, who then got in the way of the
pale-haired man, so Lyra could dash out and away before they got through.
Across the road, ignoring the cars, the brakes, the squeal of
tires; into this gap between tall buildings, and then another road, with cars
from both directions. But she was quick, dodging bicycles, always with the
pale-haired man just behind her—oh, he was frightening!
Into a garden, over a fence, through some bushes— Pantalaimon
skimming overhead, a swift, calling to her which way to go; crouching down
behind a coal bunker as the pale man's footsteps came racing past, and she
couldn't hear him panting, he was so fast, and so fit; and Pantalaimon said,
"Back now! Go back to the road—"
So she crept out of her hiding place and ran back across the
grass, out through the garden gate, into the open spaces of the Banbury Road
again; and once again she dodged across, and once again tires squealed on the
road; and then she was running up Norham Gardens, a quiet tree-lined road of tall
Victorian houses near the park.
She stopped to gain her breath. There was a tall hedge in front of
one of the gardens, with a low wall at its foot, and she sat there tucked
closely in under the privet.
"She helped us!" Pantalaimon said. "Dr. Malone got
in their way. She's on our side, not theirs."
"Oh, Pan," she said, "I shouldn't have said that
about Will. I should've been more careful—"
"Shouldn't have come," he said severely.
"I know. That too ..."
But she hadn't got time to berate herself, because Pantalaimon
fluttered to her shoulder, and then said, "Look out—behind—" and
immediately changed to a cricket again and dived into her pocket.
She stood, ready to run, and saw a large, dark blue car gliding
silently to the pavement beside her. She was braced to dart in either
direction, but the car's rear window rolled down, and there looking out was a
face she recognized.
"Lizzie," said the old man from the museum. "How
nice to see you again. Can I give you a lift anywhere?"
And he opened the door and moved up to make room beside him.
Pantalaimon nipped her breast through the thin cotton, but she got in at once,
clutching the rucksack, and the man leaned across her and pulled the door shut.
"You look as if you're in a hurry," he said. "Where
d'you want to go?"
"Up Summertown," she said, "please."
The driver was wearing a peaked cap. Everything about the car was
smooth and soft and powerful, and the smell of the old man's cologne was strong
in the enclosed space. The car pulled out from the pavement and moved away with
no noise at all.
"So what have you been up to, Lizzie?" the old man said.
"Did you find out more about those skulls?"
"Yeah," she said, twisting to see out of the rear
window. There was no sign of the pale-haired man. She'd gotten away! And he'd never
find her now that she was safe in a powerful car with a rich man like this. She
felt a little hiccup of triumph.
"I made some inquiries too," he said. "An
anthropologist friend of mine tells me that they've got several others in the
collection, as well as the ones on display. Some of them are very old indeed.
Neanderthal, you know."
"Yeah, that's what I heard too," Lyra said, with no idea
what he was talking about.
"And how's your friend?"
"What friend?" said Lyra, alarmed. Had she told him
about Will too?
"The friend you're staying with."
"Oh. Yes. She's very well, thank you."
"What does she do? Is she an archaeologist?"
"Oh ... she's a physicist. She studies dark matter,"
said Lyra, still not quite in control. In this world it was harder to tell lies
than she'd thought. And something else was nagging at her. this old man was
familiar in some long-lost way, and she just couldn't place it.
"Dark matter?" he was saying. "How fascinating! I
saw something about that in The Times this morning. The universe is full of
this mysterious stuff, and nobody knows what it is! And your friend is on the
track of it, is she?"
"Yes. She knows a lot about it."
"And what are you going to do later on, Lizzie? Are you going
in for physics too?" , "I
might," said Lyra. "It depends."
The chauffeur coughed gently and slowed the car down.
"Well, here we are in Summertown," said the old man.
"Where would you like to be dropped?"
"Oh, just up past these shops. I can walk from there,"
said Lyra. "Thank you."
'Turn left into South Parade, and pull up on the right, could you,
Allan," said the old man.
"Very good, sir," said the chauffeur.
A minute later the car came to a silent halt outside a public
library. The old man held open the door on his side, so that Lyra had to climb
past his knees to get out. There was a lot of space, but somehow it was
awkward, and she didn't want to touch him, nice as he was.
"Don't forget your rucksack," he said, handing it to
her.
"Thank you," she said.
"I'll see you again, I hope, Lizzie," he said. "Give
my regards to your friend."
"Good-bye," she said, and lingered on the pavement till
the car had turned the corner and gone out of sight before she set off toward
the hornbeam trees. She had a feeling about that pale-haired man, and she
wanted to ask the alethiometer.
Will was reading his father's letters again. He sat on the terrace
hearing the distant shouts of children diving off the harbor mouth, and read
the clear handwriting on the flimsy airmail sheets, trying to picture the man
who'd penned it, and looking again and again at the reference to the baby, to
himself.
He heard Lyra's running footsteps from some way off. He put the
letters in his pocket and stood up, and almost at once Lyra was there,
wild-eyed, with Pantalaimon a snarling savage wildcat, too distraught to hide.
She who seldom cried was sobbing with rage; her chest was heaving, her teeth
were grinding, and she flung herself at him, clutching his arms, and cried,
"Kill him! Kill him! I want him dead! I wish lorek was here! Oh, Will, I
done wrong, I'm so sorry—"
"What? What's the matter?"
"That old man—he en't nothing but a low thief. He stole it,
Will! He stole my alethiometer! That stinky old man with his rich clothes and
his servant driving the car. Oh, I done such wrong things this morning—oh,
I—"
And she sobbed so passionately he thought that hearts really did
break, and hers was breaking now, for she fell to the ground wailing and
shuddering, and Pantalaimon beside her became a wolf and howled with bitter
grief.
Far off across the water, children stopped what they were doing
and shaded their eyes to see. Will sat down beside Lyra and shook her shoulder.
"Stop! Stop crying!" he said. "Tell me from the
beginning. What old man? What happened?"
"You're going to be so angry. I promised I wouldn't
give you away, I promised it, and then ..." she sobbed, and Pantalaimon
became a young clumsy dog with lowered ears and wagging tail, squirming with
self-abasement; and Will understood that Lyra had done something that she was
too ashamed to tell him about, and he spoke to the daemon.
"What happened? Just tell me," he said.
Pantalaimon said, "We went to the Scholar, and there was
someone else there—a man and a woman—and they tricked us. They asked a lot of
questions and then they asked about you, and before we could stop we gave it
away that we knew you, and then we ran away—"
Lyra was hiding her face in her hands, pressing her head down
against the pavement. Pantalaimon was flickering from shape to shape in his
agitation: dog, bird, cat, snow-white ermine.
"What did the man look like?" said Will.
"Big," said Lyra's muffled voice, "and ever so
strong, and pale eyes ..."
"Did he see you come back through the window?"
"No, but..."
"Well, he won't know where we are, then."
"But the alethiometer!" she cried, and she sat up
fiercely, her face rigid with emotion, like a Greek mask.
"Yeah," said Will. 'Tell me about that"
Between sobs and teeth grindings she told him what had happened:
how the old man had seen her using the alethiometer in the museum the day before,
and how he'd stopped the car today and she'd gotten in to escape from the pale
man, and how the car had pulled up on that side of the road so she'd had to
climb past him to get out, and how he must have swiftly taken the alethiometer
as he'd passed her the rucksack....
He could see how devastated she was, but not why she should feel
guilty. And then she said: "And, Will, please, I done something very bad.
Because the alethiometer told me I had to stop looking for Dust—at least I
thought that's what it said— and I had to help you. I had to help you find your
father. And I could, I could take you to wherever he is, if I had it. But I
wouldn't listen. I just done what / wanted to do, and I shouldn't...."
He'd seen her use it, and he knew it could tell her the truth. He
turned away. She seized his wrist, but he broke away from her and walked to the
edge of the water. The children were playing again across the harbor. Lyra ran
up to him and said, "Will, I'm so sorry—"
"What's the use of that? I don't care if you're sorry or not
You did it."
"But, Will, we got to help each other, you and me, because
there en't anyone else!"
"I can't see how."
"Nor can I, but..."
She stopped in midsentence, and a light came into her eyes.
She turned and raced back to her rucksack, abandoned on the
pavement, and rummaged through it feverishly.
"I know who he is! And where he lives! Look!" she said,
and held up a little white card. "He gave this to me in the museum! We can
go and get the alethiometer back!"
Will took the card and read:
SIR CHARLES LATROM, CBE
LlMEFIELD HOUSE
OLD HEADINGTON
OXFORD
"He's a sir," he said. "A knight. That means people
will automatically believe him and not us. What did you want me to do, anyway?
Go to the police? The police are after me! Or if they weren't yesterday, they
will be by now. And if you go, they know who you are now, and they know you
know me, so that wouldn't work either."
"We could steal it. We could go to his house and steal it. I
know where Headington is, there's a Headington in my Oxford too. It en't far.
We could walk there in an hour, easy."
"You're stupid."
"lorek Byrnison would go there straightaway and rip his head
off. I wish he was here. He'd—"
But she fell silent. Will was just looking at her, and she
quailed. She would have quailed in the same way if the armored bear had looked
at her like that, because there was something not unlike lorek in Will's eyes,
young as they were.
"I never heard anything so stupid in my life," he said.
"You think we can just go to his house and creep in and steal it? You need
to think. You need to use your bloody brain. He's going to have all kinds of
burglar alarms and stuff, if he's a rich man. There'll be bells that go off and
special locks and lights with infrared switches that come on automatically—"
"I never heard of those things," Lyra said. "We
en't got 'em in my world. I couldn't know that, Will."
"All right, then think of this: He's got a whole house to
hide it in, and how long would any burglar have to look through every cupboard
and drawer and hiding place in a whole house? Those men who came to my house
had hours to look around, and they never found what they were looking for, and
I bet he's got a whole lot bigger house than we have. And probably a safe, too.
So even if we did get into his house, we'd never find it in time before the
police came."
She hung her head. It was all true.
"What we going to do then?" she said.
He didn't answer. But it was we, for certain. He was bound to her
now, whether he liked it or not.
He walked to the water's edge, and back to the terrace, and back
to the water again. He beat his hands together, looking for an answer, but no
answer came, and he shook his head angrily.
"Just... go there," he said. "Just go there and see
him. It's no good asking your scholar to help us, either, not if the police
have been to her. She's bound to believe them rather than us. At least if we
get into his house, we'll see where the main rooms are. That'll be a
start."
Without another word he went inside and put the letters under the pillow
in the room he'd slept in. Then, if he were caught, they'd never have them.
Lyra was waiting on the terrace, with Pantalaimon perched on her
shoulder as a sparrow. She was looking more cheerful.
"We're going to get it back all right," she said "I
can feel it."
He said nothing. They set off for the window.
It took an hour and a half to walk to Headington. Lyra led the
way, avoiding the city center, and Will kept watch all around, saying nothing.
It was much harder for Lyra now than it had been even in the Arctic, on the way
to Bolvangar, for then she'd had the gyptians and lorek Byrnison with her, and
even if the tundra was full of danger, you knew the danger when you saw it.
Here, in the city that was both hers and not hers, danger could look friendly,
and treachery smiled and smelled sweet; and even if they weren't going to kill
her or part her from Pantalaimon, they had robbed her of her only guide.
Without the alethiometer, she was .. .just a little girl, lost
Limefield House was the color of warm honey, and half of its front
was covered in Virginia creeper. It stood in a large, well-tended garden, with
shrubbery at one side and a gravel drive sweeping up to the front door. The
Rolls-Royce was parked in front of a double garage to the left. Everything Will
could see spoke of wealth and power, the sort of informal settled superiority
that some upper-class English people still took for granted. There was
something about it that made him grit his teeth, and he didn't know why, until
suddenly he remembered an occasion when he was very young. His mother had taken
him to a house not unlike this; they'd dressed in their best clothes and he'd
had to be on his best behavior, and an old man and woman had made his mother
cry, and they'd left the house and she was still crying....
Lyra saw him breathing fast and clenching his fists, and was
sensible enough not to ask why; it was something to do with him, not with her.
Presently he took a deep breath.
"Well," he said, "might as well try."
He walked up the drive, and Lyra followed close behind. They felt
very exposed.
The door had an old-fashioned bell pull, like those in Lyra's
world, and Will didn't know where to find it till Lyra showed him. When they
pulled it, the bell jangled a long way off inside the house.
The man who opened the door was the servant who'd been driving the
car, only now he didn't have his cap on. He looked at Will first, and then at
Lyra, and his expression changed a little.
"We want to see Sir Charles Latrom," Will said.
His jaw was jutting as it had done last night facing the
stone-throwing children by the tower. The servant nodded.
"Wait here," he said. "I'll tell Sir Charles."
He closed the door. It was solid oak, with two heavy locks, and
bolts top and bottom, though Will thought that no sensible burglar would try
the front door anyway. And there was a burglar alarm prominently fixed to the
front of the house, and a large spotlight at each corner; they'd never be able
to get near it, let alone break in.
Steady footsteps came to the door, and then it opened again.
Will looked up at the face of this man who had so much that he
wanted even more, and found him disconcertingly smooth and calm and powerful,
not in the least guilty or ashamed.
Sensing Lyra beside him impatient and angry, Will said quickly,
"Excuse me, but Lyra thinks that when she had a lift in your car earlier
on, she left something in it by mistake."
"Lyra? I don't know a Lyra. What an unusual name. I know a
child called Lizzie. And who are you?"
Cursing himself for forgetting, Will said, "I'm her brother.
Mark."
"I see. Hello, Lizzie, or Lyra. You'd better come in."
He stood aside. Neither Will nor Lyra was quite expecting this,
and they stepped inside uncertainly. The hall was dim and smelled of beeswax
and flowers. Every surface was polished and clean, and a mahogany cabinet
against the wall contained dainty porcelain figures. Will saw the servant
standing in the background, as if he were waiting to be called.
"Come into my study," said Sir Charles, and held open
another door off the hall.
He was being courteous, even welcoming, but there was an edge to
his manner that put Will on guard. The study was large and comfortable in a
cigar-smoke-and-leather-armchair sort of way, and seemed to be full of
bookshelves, pictures, hunting trophies. There were three or four glass-fronted
cabinets containing antique scientific instruments—brass microscopes,
telescopes covered in green leather, sextants, compasses; it was clear why he
wanted the alethiometer.
"Sit down," said Sir Charles, and indicated a leather
sofa. He sat at the chair behind his desk, and went on. "Well? What have
you got to say?"
"You stole—" began Lyra hotly, but Will looked at her,
and she stopped.
"Lyra thinks she left something in your car," he said
again. "We've come to get it back."
"Is this the object you mean?" he said, and took a
velvet cloth from a drawer in the desk. Lyra stood up. He ignored her and
unfolded the cloth, disclosing the golden splendor of the alethiometer resting
in his palm.
"Yes!" Lyra burst out, and reached for it
But he closed his hand. The desk was wide, and she couldn't reach;
and before she could do anything else, he swung around and placed the
alethiometer in a glass-fronted cabinet before locking it and dropping the key
in his waistcoat pocket.
"But it isn't yours, Lizzie," he said. "Or Lyra, if
that's your name."
"It is mine! It's my alethiometer!"
He shook his head, sadly and heavily, as if he were reproaching
her and it was a sorrow to him, but he was doing it for her own good. "I
think at the very least there's considerable doubt about the matter," he
said.
"But it is hers!" said Will. "Honesdy! She's shown
it to me! I know it's hers!"
"You see, I think you'd have to prove that," he said.
"I don't have to prove anything, because it's in my possession. It's
assumed to be mine. Like all the other items in my collection. I must say,
Lyra, I'm surprised to find you so dishonest—"
"I en't dishonest!" Lyra cried.
"Oh, but you are. You told me your name was Lizzie. Now I
learn it's something else. Frankly, you haven't got a hope of convincing anyone
that a precious piece like this belongs to you. I tell you what. Let's call the
police."
He turned his head to call for the servant.
"No, wait—" said Will, before Sir Charles could speak,
but Lyra ran around the desk, and from nowhere Pantalaimon was in her arms, a
snarling wildcat baring his teeth and hissing at the old man. Sir Charles
blinked at the sudden appearance of the daemon, but hardly flinched.
"You don't even know what it is you stole," Lyra stormed.
"You seen me using it and you thought you'd steal it, and you did. But
you—you—you're worse than my mother. At least she knows it's important! You're
just going to put it in a case and do nothing with it! You ought to die\ If I
can, I'll make someone kill you. You're not worth leaving alive. You're—"
She couldn't speak. All she could do was spit full in his face, so
she did, with all her might.
Will sat still, watching, looking around, memorizing where
everything was.
Sir Charles calmly shook out a silk handkerchief and mopped
himself.
"Have you any control over yourself?" he said. "Go
and sit down, you filthy brat."
Lyra felt tears shaken out of her eyes by the trembling of her
body, and threw herself onto die sofa. Pantalaimon, his thick cat's tail erect,
stood on her lap with his blazing eyes fixed on the old man.
Will sat silent and puzzled. Sir Charles could have thrown them
out long before this. What was he playing at?
And then he saw something so bizarre he thought he had imagined it
Out of the sleeve of Sir Charles's linen jacket, past the snowy white shirt
cuff, came the emerald head of a snake. Its black tongue flicked this way, that
way, and its mailed head with its gold-rimmed black eyes moved from Lyra to
Will and back again. She was too angry to see it at all, and Will saw it only
for a moment before it retreated again up the old man's sleeve, but it made his
eyes widen with shock.
Sir Charles moved to the window seat and calmly sat down,
arranging the crease in his trousers.
"I think you'd better listen to me instead of behaving in
this uncontrolled way," he said. "You really haven't any choice. The
instrument is in my possession and will stay there. I want it. I'm a collector.
You can spit and stamp and scream all you like, but by the time you've
persuaded anyone else to listen to you, I shall have plenty of documents to
prove that I bought it. I can do that very easily. And then you'll never get it
back."
They were both silent now. He hadn't finished. A great puzzlement
was slowing Lyra's heartbeat and making the room very still.
"However," he went on, "there's something I want
even more. And I can't get it myself, so I'm prepared to make a deal with you.
You fetch the object I want, and I'll give you back the—what did you call
it?"
"Alethiometer," said Lyra hoarsely.
"Alethiometer. How interesting. Alethia, truth—those
emblems—yes, I see."
"What's this thing you want?" said Will. "And where
is it?"
"It's somewhere I can't go, but you can. I'm perfectly well
aware that you've found a doorway somewhere. I guess it's not too far from
Summertown, where I dropped Lizzie, or Lyra, this morning. And that through the
doorway is another world, one with no grownups in it. Right so far? Well, you
see, the man who made that doorway has got a knife. He's hiding in that other
world right now, and he's extremely afraid. He has reason to be. If he's where
I think he is, he's in an old stone tower with angels carved around the
doorway. The Torre degli Angeli.
"So that's where you have to go, and I don't care how you do
it, but I want that knife. Bring it to me, and you can have the alethiometer. I
shall be sorry to lose it, but I'm a man of my word. That's what you have to
do: bring me the knife."
EIGHT
THE TOWER OF THE ANGELS
Will said, "Who is this man who's got the knife?"
They were in the Rolls-Royce, driving up through Oxford. Sir
Charles sat in the front, half-turned around, and Will and Lyra sat in the
back, with Pantalaimon a mouse now, soothed in Lyra's hands.
"Someone who has no more right to the knife than I have to
the alethiometer," said Sir Charles. "Unfortunately for all of us,
the alethiometer is in my possession, and the knife is in his."
"How do you know about that other world anyway?"
"I know many things that you don't. What else would you
expect? I am a good deal older and considerably better informed. There are a
number of doorways between this world and that; those who know where they are
can easily pass back and forth. In Cittagazze there's a Guild of learned men,
so called, who used to do so all the time."
"You en't from this world at all!" said Lyra suddenly.
"You're from there, en't you?"
And again came that strange nudge at her memory. She was almost
certain she'd seen him before.
"No, I'm not," he said.
Will said, "If we've got to get the knife from that man, we
need to know more about him. He's not going to just give it to us, is he?"
"Certainly not. It's the one thing keeping the Specters away.
It's not going to be easy by any means."
"The Specters are afraid of the knife?"
"Very much so."
"Why do they attack only grownups?"
"You don't need to know that now. It doesn't matter.
Lyra," Sir Charles said, turning to her, "tell me about your
remarkable friend."
He meant Pantalaimon. And as soon as he said it, Will realized
that the snake he'd seen concealed in the man's sleeve was a daemon too, and
that Sir Charles must come from Lyra's world. He was asking about Pantalaimon
to put them off the track: so he didn't realize that Will had seen his own
daemon.
Lyra lifted Pantalaimon close to her breast, and he became a black
rat, whipping his tail around and around her wrist and glaring at Sir Charles
with red eyes.
"You weren't supposed to see him," she said. "He's
my daemon. You think you en't got daemons in this world, but you have. Yours'd
be a dung beetle."
"If the Pharaohs of Egypt were content to be represented by a
scarab, so am I," he said. "Well, you're from yet another world. How
interesting. Is that where the alethiometer comes from, or did you steal it on
your travels?"
"I was given it," said Lyra furiously. "The Master
of Jordan College in my Oxford gave it to me. It's mine by right. And you
wouldn't know what to do with it, you stupid, stinky old man; you'd never read
it in a hundred years. It's just a toy to you. But I need it, and so does Will.
We'll get it back, don't worry."
"We'll see," said Sir Charles. "This is where I
dropped you before. Shall we let you out here?"
"No," said Will, because he could see a police car
farther down the road. "You can't come into Ci'gazze because of the
Specters, so it doesn't matter if you know where the window is. Take us farther
up toward the ring road."
"As you wish," said Sir Charles, and the car moved on.
"When, or if, you get the knife, call my number and Allan will come to
pick you up."
They said no more till the chauffeur drew the car to a halt.
As they got out, Sir Charles lowered his window and said to Will,
"By the way, if you can't get the knife, don't bother to return. Come to
my house without it and I'll call the police. I imagine they'll be there at
once when I tell them your real name. It is William Parry, isn't it? Yes, I
thought so. There's a very good photo of you in today's paper."
And the car pulled away. Will was speechless.
Lyra was shaking his arm. "It's all right," she said,
"he won't tell anyone else. He would have done it already if he was going
to. Come on."
Ten minutes later they stood in the little square at the foot of
the Tower of the Angels. Will had told her about the snake daemon, and she had
stopped still in the street, tormented again by that half-memory. Who was the
old man? Where had she seen him? It was no good; the memory wouldn't come
clear.
"I didn't want to tell him" Lyra said quietly, "but
I saw a man up there last night. He looked down when the kids were making all
that noise...."
"What did he look like?"
"Young, with curly hair. Not old at all. But I saw him for
only a moment, at the very top, over those battlements. I thought he might
be... You remember Angelica and Paolo, and Paolo said they had an older
brother, and he'd come into the city as well, and she made Paolo stop telling
us, as if it was a secret? Well, I thought it might be him. He might be after
this knife as well. And I reckon all the kids know about it. I think that's the
real reason why they come back in the first place."
"Mmm," he said, looking up. "Maybe."
She remembered the children talking earlier that morning. No
children would go in the tower, they'd said; there were scary things in there.
And she remembered her own feeling of unease as she and Pantalaimon had looked
through the open door before leaving the city. Maybe that was why they needed a
grown man to go in there. Her daemon was fluttering around her head now,
moth-formed in the bright sunlight, whispering anxiously.
"Hush," she whispered back, "there en't any choice,
Pan. It's our fault. We got to make it right, and this is the only way."
Will walked off to the right, following the wall of the tower. At the corner a
narrow cobbled alley led between it and the next building, and Will went down
there too, looking up, getting the measure of the place. Lyra followed. Will
stopped under a window at the second-story level and said to Panta-laimon,
"Can you fly up there? Can you look in?"
He became a sparrow at once and set off. He could only just reach
it. Lyra gasped and gave a little cry when he was at the windowsill, and he
perched there for a second or two before diving down again. She sighed and took
deep breaths like someone rescued from drowning. Will frowned, puzzled.
"It's hard," she explained, "when your daemon goes
away from you. It hurts."
"Sorry. Did you see anything?" he said.
"Stairs," said Pantalaimon. "Stairs and dark rooms. There were
swords hung on the wall, and spears and shields, like a museum. And I saw the
young man. He was ... dancing."
"Dancing?"
"Moving to and fro, waving his hand about. Or as if he was
fighting something invisible... I just saw him through an open door. Not
clearly."
"Fighting a Specter?" Lyra guessed. But they couldn't
guess any better, so they moved on. Behind the tower a high stone wall, topped
with broken glass, enclosed a small garden with formal beds of herbs around a
fountain (once again Pantalaimon flew up to look); and then there was an alley
on the other side, bringing them back to the square. The windows around the
tower were small and deeply set, like frowning eyes.
"We'll have to go in the front, then," said Will. He
climbed the steps and pushed the door wide. Sunlight struck in, and the heavy
hinges creaked. He took a step or two inside, and seeing no one, went in
farther. Lyra followed close behind. The floor was made of flagstones worn
smooth over centuries, and the air inside was cool. Will looked at a flight of
steps going downward, and went far enough down to see that it opened into a
wide, low-ceilinged room with an immense coal furnace at one end, where the
plaster walls were black with soot; but there was no one there, and he went up
to the entrance hall again, where he found Lyra with her finger to her lips,
looking up.
"I can hear him," she whispered. "He's talking to
himself, I reckon."
Will listened hard, and heard it too: a low crooning murmur
interrupted occasionally by a harsh laugh or a short cry of anger. It sounded
like the voice of a madman.
Will blew out his cheeks and set off to climb the staircase. It
was made of blackened oak, immense and broad, with steps as worn as the
flagstones: far too solid to creak underfoot. The light diminished as they
climbed, because the only illumination was the small deep-set window on each
landing. They climbed up one floor, stopped and listened, climbed the next, and
the sound of the man's voice was now mixed with that of halting, rhythmic
footsteps. It came from a room across the landing, whose door stood ajar.
Will tiptoed to it and pushed it open another few inches so he
could see.
It was a large room with cobwebs thickly clustered on the ceiling.
The walls were lined with bookshelves containing badly preserved volumes with
the bindings crumbling and flaking, or distorted with damp. Several of them lay
thrown off the shelves, open on the floor or the wide dusty tables, and others
had been thrust back higgledy-piggledy.
In the center of the room, a young man was—dancing. Pantalaimon
was right: it looked exactly like that. He had his back to the door, and he'd
shuffle to one side, then to the other, and all the time his right hand moved
in front of him as if he were clearing a way through some invisible obstacles.
In that hand was a knife, not a special-looking knife, just a dull blade about
eight inches long, and he'd thrust it forward, slice it sideways, feel forward
with it, jab up and down, all in the empty air.
He moved as if to turn, and Will withdrew. He put a finger to his
lips and beckoned to Lyra, and led her to the stairs and up to the next floor.
"What's he doing?" she whispered.
He described it as well as he could.
"He sounds mad," said Lyra. "Is he thin, with curly
hair?"
"Yes. Red hair, like Angelica's. He certainly looks mad. I
don't know—I think this is odder than Sir Charles said. Let's look farther up
before we speak to him."
She didn't question, but let him lead them up another staircase to
the top story. It was much lighter up there, because a white-painted flight of
steps led up to the roof—or, rather, to a wood-and-glass structure like a
little greenhouse. Even at the foot of the steps they could feel the heat it
was absorbing.
And as they stood there they heard a groan from above.
They jumped. They'd been sure there was only one man in the tower.
Pantalaimon was so startled that he changed at once from a cat to a bird and
flew to Lyra's breast. Will and Lyra realized as he did so that they'd seized
each other's hand, and let go slowly.
"Better go and see," Will whispered. "I'll go
first."
"I ought to go first," she whispered back, "seeing
it's my fault."
"Seeing it's your fault, you got to do as I say."
She twisted her lip but fell in behind him.
He climbed up into the sun. The light in the glass structure was
blinding. It was as hot as a greenhouse, too, and Will could neither see nor
breathe easily. He found a door handle and turned it and stepped out quickly,
holding his hand up to keep the sun out of his eyes.
He found himself on a roof of lead, enclosed by the battle-mented
parapet. The glass structure was set in the center, and the lead sloped
slightly downward all around toward a gutter inside the parapet, with square
drainage holes in the stone for rainwater.
Lying on the lead, in the full sun, was an old man with white
hair. His face was bruised and battered, and one eye was closed, and as they
saw when they got closer, his hands were tied behind him.
He heard them coining and groaned again, and tried to turn over to
shield himself.
"It's all right," said Will quietly. "We aren't
going to hurt you. Did the man with the knife do this?" "Mmm,"
the old man grunted. "Let's undo the rope. He hasn't tied it very
well...." It was clumsily and hastily knotted, and it fell away quickly
once Will had seen how to work it. They helped the old man to get up and took
him over to the shade of the parapet
"Who are you?" Will said. "We didn't think there
were two people here. We thought there was only one."
"Giacomo Paradisi," the old man muttered through broken
teeth. "I am the bearer. No one else. That young man stole it from me.
There are always fools who take risks like that for the sake of the knife. But
this one is desperate. He is going to kill me."
"No, he en't," Lyra said. "What's the bearer?
What's that mean?"
"I hold the subtle knife on behalf of the Guild. Where has he
gone?"
"He's downstairs," said Will. "We came up past him.
He didn't see us. He was waving it about in the air."
'Trying to cut through. He won't succeed. When he—"
"Watch out," Lyra said.
Will turned. The young man was climbing up into the little wooden
shelter. He hadn't seen them yet, but there was nowhere to hide, and as they
stood up he saw the movement and whipped around to face them.
Immediately Pantalaimon became a bear and reared up on his hind
legs. Only Lyra knew that he wouldn't be able to touch the other man, and
certainly the other blinked and stared for a second, but Will saw that he
hadn't really registered it. The man was crazy. His curly red hair was matted,
his chin was flecked with spit, and the whites of his eyes showed all around the
pupils.
And he had the knife, and they had no weapons at all. Will stepped
up the lead, away from the old man, crouching, ready to jump or fight or leap
out of the way.
The young man sprang forward and slashed at him with the
knife—left, right, left, coming closer and closer, making Will back away till
he was trapped in the angle where two sides of the tower met.
Lyra was scrambling toward the man from behind, with the loose
rope in her hand. Will darted forward suddenly, just as he'd done to the man in
his house, and with the same effect: his antagonist tumbled backward
unexpectedly, falling over Lyra to crash onto the lead. It was all happening
too quickly for Will to be frightened. But he did have time to see the knife
fly from the man's hand and sink at once into the lead some feet away, point
first, with no more resistance than if it had fallen into butter. It plunged as
far as the hilt and stopped suddenly.
And the young man twisted over and reached for it at once, but
Will flung himself on his back and seized his hair. He had learned to fight at
school; there had been plenty of occasion for it, once the other children had
sensed that there was something the matter with his mother. And he'd learned
that the object of a school fight was not to gain points for style but to force
your enemy to give in, which meant hurting him more than he was hurting you. He
knew that you had to be willing to hurt someone else, too, and he'd found out
that not many people were, when it came to it; but he knew that he was.
So this wasn't unfamiliar to him, but he hadn't fought against a
nearly grown man armed with a knife before, and at all costs he must keep the
man from picking it up now that he'd dropped it.
Will twisted his fingers into the young man's thick, damp hair and
wrenched back as hard as he could. The man grunted and flung himself sideways,
but Will hung on even tighter, and his opponent roared with pain and anger. He
pushed up and then threw himself backward, crushing Will between himself and
the parapet, and that was too much; all the breath left Will's body, and in the
shock his hands loosened. The man pulled free.
Will dropped to his knees in the gutter, winded badly, but he
couldn't stay there. He tried to stand—and in doing so, he thrust his foot
through one of the drainage holes. His fingers scraped desperately on the warm
lead, and for a horrible second he thought he would slide off the roof to the
ground. But nothing happened. His left leg was thrust out into empty space; the
rest of him was safe.
He pulled his leg back inside the parapet and scrambled to his
feet. The man had reached his knife again, but he didn't have time to pull it
out of the lead before Lyra leaped onto his back, scratching, kicking, biting
like a wildcat. But she missed the hold on his hair that she was trying for,
and he threw her off. And when he got up, he had the knife in his hand.
Lyra had fallen to one side, with Pantalaimon a wildcat now, fur
raised, teeth bared, beside her. Will faced the man directly and saw him
clearly for the first time. There was no doubt: he was Angelica's brother, all
right, and he was vicious. All his mind was focused on Will, and the knife was
in his hand.
But Will wasn't harmless either.
He'd seized the rope when Lyra dropped it, and now he wrapped it around
his left hand for protection against the knife. He moved sideways between the
young man and the sun, so that his antagonist had to squint and blink. Even
better, the glass structure threw brilliant reflections into his eyes, and Will
could see that for a moment he was almost blinded.
He leaped to the man's left, away from the knife, holding his left
hand high, and kicked hard at the man's knee. He'd taken care to aim, and his
foot connected well. The man went down with a loud grunt and twisted away awkwardly.
Will leaped after him, kicking again and again, kicking whatever
parts he could reach, driving the man back and back toward the glass house. If
he could get him to the top of the stairs...
This time the man fell more heavily, and his right hand with the
knife in it came down on the lead at Will's feet. Will stamped on it at once,
hard, crushing the man's fingers between the hilt and the lead, and then
wrapped the rope more tightly around his hand and stamped a second time. The
man yelled and let go of the knife. At once Will kicked it away, his shoe
connecting with the hilt, luckily for him, and it spun across the lead and came
to rest in the gutter just beside a drainage hole. The rope had come loose
around his hand once more, and there seemed to be a surprising amount of blood
from somewhere sprinkled on the lead and on his own shoes. The man was pulling
himself up—
"Look out!" shouted Lyra, but Will was ready.
At the moment when the man was off balance, he threw himself at
him, crashing as hard as he could into the man's midriff. The man fell backward
into the glass, which shattered at once, and the flimsy wooden frame went too.
He sprawled among the wreckage half over the stairwell, and grabbed the
doorframe, but it had nothing to support it anymore, and it gave way. He fell
downward, and more glass fell all around him.
And Will darted back to the gutter, and picked up the knife, and
the fight was over. The young man, cut and battered, clambered up the step, and
saw Will standing above him holding the knife; he stared with a sickly anger
and then turned and fled.
"Ah," said Will, sitting down. "Ah."
Something was badly wrong, and he hadn't noticed it. He dropped
the knife and hugged his left hand to himself. The tangle of rope was sodden
with blood, and when he pulled it away—
"Your fingers!" Lyra breathed. "Oh, Will—"
His little finger and the finger next to it fell away with the
rope.
His head swam. Blood was pulsing strongly from the stumps where
his fingers had been, and his jeans and shoes were sodden already. He had to
lie back and close his eyes for a moment. The pain wasn't that great, and a
part of his mind registered that with a dull surprise. It was like a
persistent, deep hammer thud more than the bright, sharp clarity when you cut
yourself superficially.
He'd never felt so weak. He supposed he had gone to sleep for a
moment. Lyra was doing something to his arm. He sat up to look at the damage,
and felt sick. The old man was somewhere close by, but Will couldn't see what
he was doing, and meanwhile Lyra was talking to him.
"If only we had some bloodmoss," she was saying,
"what the bears use, I could make it better, Will, I could. Look, I'm
going to tie this bit of rope around your arm, to stop the bleeding, cause I
can't tie it around where your fingers were, there's nothing to tie it to. Hold
still."
He let her do it, then looked around for his fingers. There they
were, curled like a bloody quotation mark on the lead. He laughed.
"Hey," she said, "stop that. Get up now. Mr.
Paradisi's got some medicine, some salve, I dunno what it is. You got to come
downstairs. That other man's gone—we seen him run out the door. He's gone now.
You beat him. Come on, Will— come on—"
Nagging and cajoling, she urged him down the steps, and they
picked their way through the shattered glass and splintered wood and into a
small, cool room off the landing. The walls were lined with shelves of bottles,
jars, pots, pestles and mortars, and chemists' balances. Under the dirty window
was a stone sink, where the old man was pouring something with a shaky hand
from a large bottle into a smaller one.
"Sit down and drink this," he said, and filled a small
glass with a dark golden liquid.
Will sat down and took the glass. The first mouthful hit the back
of his throat like fire. Lyra took the glass to stop it from falling as Will
gasped.
"Drink it all," the old man commanded.
"What is it?"
"Plum brandy. Drink."
Will sipped it more cautiously. Now his hand was really beginning
to hurt.
"Can you heal him?" said Lyra, her voice desperate.
"Oh, yes, we have medicines for everything. You, girl, open
that drawer in the table and bring out a bandage."
Will saw the knife lying on the table in the center of the room,
but before he could pick it up the old man was limping toward him with a bowl
of water.
"Drink again," the old man said.
Will held the glass tightly and closed his eyes while the old man
did something to his hand It stung horribly, but then he felt the rough
friction of a towel on his wrist, and something mopping the wound more gently.
Then there was a coolness for a moment, and it hurt again.
"This is precious ointment," the old man said.
"Very difficult to obtain. Very good for wounds."
It was a dusty, battered tube of ordinary antiseptic cream, such
as Will could have bought in any pharmacy in his world. The old man was
handling it as if it were made of myrrh. Will looked away.
And while the man was dressing the wound, Lyra felt Pan-talaimon
calling to her silently to come and look out the window. He was a kestrel
perching on the open window frame, and his eyes had caught a movement below.
She joined him, and saw a familiar figure: the girl Angelica was running toward
her elder brother, Tullio, who stood with his back against the wall on the
other side of the narrow street waving his arms in the air as if trying to keep
a flock of bats from his face. Then he turned away and began to run his hands
along the stones in the wall, looking closely at each one, counting them,
feeling the edges, hunching up his shoulders as if to ward off something behind
him, shaking his head.
Angelica was desperate, and so was little Paolo behind her, and
they reached their brother and seized his arms and tried to pull him away from
whatever was troubling him.
And Lyra realized with a jolt of sickness what was happening: the
man was being attacked by Specters. Angelica knew it, though she couldn't see
them, of course, and little Paolo was crying and striking at the empty air to
try and drive them off; but it didn't help, and Tullio was lost. His movements
became more and more lethargic, and presently they stopped altogether. Angelica
clung to him, shaking and shaking his arm, but nothing woke him; and Paolo was
crying his brother's name over and over as if that would bring him back.
Then Angelica seemed to feel Lyra watching her, and she looked up.
For a moment their eyes met. Lyra felt a jolt as if the girl had struck her a
physical blow, because the hatred in her eyes was so intense, and then Paolo
saw her looking and looked up too, and his little boy's voice cried,
"We'll kill you! You done this to Tullio! We gonna kill you, all
right!"
The two children turned and ran, leaving their stricken brother;
and Lyra, frightened and guilty, withdrew inside the room again and shut the
window. The others hadn't heard. Gia-como Paradisi was dabbing more ointment on
the wounds, and Lyra tried to put what she'd seen out of her mind, and focused
on Will.
"You got to tie something around his arm," Lyra said,
"to stop the bleeding. It won't stop otherwise."
"Yes, yes, I know," said the old man, but sadly.
Will kept his eyes averted while they did up a bandage, and drank
the plum brandy sip by sip. Presently he felt soothed and distant, though his
hand was hurting abominably.
"Now," said Giacomo Paradisi, "here you are, take
the knife, it is yours."
"I don't want it," said Will. "I don't want
anything to do with it."
"You haven't got the choice," said the old man.
"You are the bearer now."
"I thought you said you was," said Lyra.
"My time is over," he said. "The knife knows when
to leave one hand and settle in another, and I know how to tell. You don't
believe me? Look!"
He held up his own left hand. The little finger and the finger
next to it were missing, just like Will's.
"Yes," he said, "me too. I fought and lost the same
fingers, the badge of the bearer. And I did not know either, in advance."
Lyra sat down, wide-eyed. Will held on to the dusty table with his
good hand. He struggled to find words.
"But I—we only came here because—there was a man who stole
something of Lyra's, and he wanted the knife, and he said if we brought him
that, then he'd—"
"I know that man. He is a liar, a cheat. He won't give you
anything, make no mistake. He wants the knife, and once he has it, he will
betray you. He will never be the bearer. The knife is yours by right."
With a heavy reluctance, Will turned to the knife itself. He
pulled it toward him. It was an ordinary-looking dagger, with a double-sided
blade of dull metal about eight inches long, a short crosspiece of the same
metal, and a handle of rosewood. As he looked at it more closely, he saw that
the rosewood was inlaid with golden wires, forming a design he didn't recognize
till he turned the knife around and saw an angel, with wings folded. On the
other side was a different angel, with wings upraised. The wires stood out a
little from the surface, giving a firm grip, and as he picked it up he felt
that it was light in his hand and strong and beautifully balanced, and that the
blade was not dull after all. In fact, a swirl of cloudy colors seemed to live
just under the surface of the metal: bruise purples, sea blues, earth browns,
cloud grays, the deep green under heavy-foliaged trees, the clustering shades
at the mouth of a tomb as evening falls over a deserted graveyard.... If there
was such a thing as shadow-colored, it was the blade of the subtle knife.
But the edges were different. In fact, the two edges differed from
each other. One was clear bright steel, merging a little way back into those
subtle shadow-colors, but steel of an incomparable sharpness. Will's eye shrank
back from looking at it, so sharp did it seem. The other edge was just as keen,
but silvery in color, and Lyra, who was looking at it over Will's shoulder,
said: "I seen that color before! That's the same as the blade they was
going to cut me and Pan apart with—that's just the same!"
"This edge," said Giacomo Paradisi, touching the steel
with the handle of a spoon, "will cut through any material in the world.
Look."
And he pressed the silver spoon against the blade. Will, holding
the knife, felt only the slightest resistance as the tip of the spoon's handle
fell to the table, cut clean off.
"The other edge," the old man went on, "is more
subtle still. With it you can cut an opening out of this world altogether. Try
it now. Do as I say—you are the bearer. You have to know. No one can teach you
but me, and I have not much time left. Stand up and listen."
Will pushed his chair back and stood, holding the knife loosely.
He felt dizzy, sick, rebellious.
"I don't want—" he began, but Giacomo Paradisi shook his
head.
"Be silent! You don't want—you don't want... you have no
choice! Listen to me, because time is short. Now hold the knife out ahead of
you—like that. It's not only the knife that has to cut, it's your own mind. You
have to think it So do this: Put your mind out at the very tip of the knife.
Concentrate, boy. Focus your mind. Don't think about your wound. It will heal.
Think about the knife tip. That is where you are. Now feel with it, very
gently. You're looking for a gap so small you could never see it with your
eyes, but the knife tip will find it, if you put your mind there. Feel along
the air till you sense the smallest little gap in the world...."
Will tried to do it. But his head was buzzing, and his left hand
throbbed horribly, and he saw his two fingers again, lying on the roof, and
then he thought of his mother, his poor mother.... What would she say? How
would she comfort him? How could he ever comfort her? And he put the knife down
on the table and crouched low, hugging his wounded hand, and cried. It was all
too much to bear. The sobs racked his throat and his chest and the tears
dazzled him, and he should be crying for her, the poor frightened unhappy dear
beloved—he'd left her, he'd left her....
He was desolate. But then he felt the strangest thing, and brushed
the back of his right wrist across his eyes to find Pan-talaimon's head on his
knee. The daemon, in the form of a wolfhound, was gazing up at him with
melting, sorrowing eyes, and then he gently licked Will's wounded hand again
and again, and laid his head on Will's knee once more.
Will had no idea of the taboo in Lyra's world preventing one
person from touching another's daemon, and if he hadn't touched Pantalaimon
before, it was politeness that had held him back and not knowledge. Lyra, in
fact, was breathtaken. Her daemon had done it on his own initiative, and now he
withdrew and fluttered to her shoulder as the smallest of moths. The old man
was watching with interest but not incredulity. He'd seen dasmons before,
somehow; he'd traveled to other worlds too.
Pantalaimon's gesture had worked. Will swallowed hard and stood up
again, wiping the tears out of his eyes.
"All right," he said, "I'll try again. Tell me what
to do."
This time he forced his
mind to do what Giacomo Paradisi said, gritting his teeth, trembling with
exertion, sweating. Lyra was bursting to interrupt, because she knew this
process. So did Dr. Malone, and so did the poet Keats, whoever he was, and all
of them knew you couldn't get it by straining toward it But she held her tongue
and clasped her hands.
"Stop," said the old man gently. "Relax. Don't
push. This is a subtle knife, not a heavy sword. You're gripping it too tight.
Loosen your fingers. Let your mind wander down your arm to your wrist and then
into the handle, and out along the blade. No hurry, go gently, don't force it.
Just wander. Then along to the very tip, where the edge is sharpest of all. You
become the tip of the knife. Just do that now. Go there and feel that, and then
come back."
Will tried again. Lyra could see the intensity in his body, saw
his jaw working, and then saw an authority descend over it, calming and
relaxing and clarifying. The authority was Will's own—or his daemon's, perhaps.
How he must miss having a daemon! The loneliness of it... No wonder he'd cried;
and it was right of Pantalaimon to do what he'd done, though it had felt so
strange to her. She reached up to her beloved daemon, and, ermine-shaped, he
flowed onto her lap.
They watched together as Will's body stopped trembling. No less
intense, he was focused differently now, and the knife looked different too.
Perhaps it was those cloudy colors along the blade, or perhaps it was the way
it sat so naturally in Will's hand, but the little movements he was making with
the tip now looked purposeful instead of random. He felt this way, then turned
the knife over and felt the other, always feeling with the silvery edge; and
then he seemed to find some little snag in the empty air.
"What's this? Is this it?" he said hoarsely.
"Yes. Don't force it. Come back now, come back to
yourself."
Lyra imagined she could see Will's soul flowing back along the
blade to his hand, and up his arm to his heart. He stood back, dropped his
hand, blinked.
"I felt something there," he said to Giacomo Paradisi.
"The knife was just slipping through the air at first, and then I felt
it..."
"Good. Now do it again. This time, when you feel it, slide me
knife in and along. Make a cut. Don't hesitate. Don't be surprised. Don't drop
the knife."
Will had to crouch and take two or three deep breaths and put his
left hand under his other arm before he could go on. But he was intent on it;
he stood up again after a couple of seconds, the knife held forward already.
This time it was easier. Having felt it once, he knew what to
search for again, and he felt the curious little snag after less than a minute.
It was like delicately searching out the gap between one stitch and the next
with the point of a scalpel. He touched, withdrew, touched again to make sure,
and then did as the old man had said, and cut sideways with the silver edge.
It was a good thing that Giacomo Paradisi had reminded him not to
be surprised. He kept careful hold of the knife and put it down on the table
before giving in to his astonishment. Lyra was on her feet already, speechless,
because there in the middle of the dusty little room was a window just like the
one under the hornbeam trees: a gap in midair through which they could see
another world.
And because they were high in the tower, they were high above
north Oxford. Over a cemetery, in fact, looking back toward the city. There
were the hornbeam trees a little way ahead of them; there were houses, trees,
roads, and in the distance the towers and spires of the city.
If they hadn't already seen the first window, they would have
thought this was some kind of optical trick. Except that it wasn't only
optical; air was coming through it, and they could smell the traffic fumes,
which didn't exist in the world of Cit-tagazze. Pantalaimon changed into a
swallow and flew through, delighting hi the open air, and then snapped up an
insect before darting back through to Lyra's shoulder again.
Giacomo Paradisi was watching with a curious, sad smile. Then he
said, "So much for opening. Now you must learn to close."
Lyra stood back to give
Will room, and the old man came to stand beside him.
"For this you need your fingers," he said. "One
hand will do. Feel for the edge as you felt with the knife to begin with. You
won't find it unless you put your soul into your fingertips. Touch very
delicately; feel again and again till you find the edge. Then you pinch it
together. That's all. Try."
But Will was trembling. He couldn't get his mind back to the
delicate balance he knew it needed, and he got more and more frustrated. Lyra
could see what was happening.
She stood up and took his right arm and said, "Listen, Will,
sit down, I'll tell you how to do it. Just sit down for a minute, 'cause your
hand hurts and it's taking your mind off it. It's bound to. It'll ease off in a
little while."
The old man raised both his hands and then changed his mind,
shrugged, and sat down again.
Will sat down and looked at Lyra. "What am I doing
wrong?" he said.
He was bloodstained, trembling, wild-eyed. He was living on the
edge of his nerves: clenching his jaw, tapping his foot, breathing fast.
"It's your wound," she said. "You en't wrong at
all. You're doing it right, but your hand won't let you concentrate on it. I
don't know an easy way of getting around that, except maybe if you didn't try
to shut it out."
"What d'you mean?"
"Well, you're trying to do two things with your mind, both at
once. You're trying to ignore the pain and close that window. I remember when I
was reading the alethiometer once when I was frightened, and maybe I was used
to it by that time, I don't know, but I was still frightened all the time I was
reading it. Just sort of relax your mind and say yes, it does hurt, I know.
Don't try and shut it out."
His eyes closed briefly. His breathing slowed a little.
"All right," he said. "I'll try that."
And this time it was much easier. He felt for the edge, found it
within a minute, and did as Giacomo Paradisi had told him: pinched the edges
together. It was the easiest thing in the world. He felt a brief, calm
exhilaration, and then the window was gone. The other world was shut.
The old man handed him a leather sheath, backed with stiff horn,
with buckles to hold the knife hi place, because the slightest sideways
movement of the blade would have cut through the thickest leather. Will slid
the knife into it and buckled it as tight as he could with his clumsy hand.
"This should be a solemn occasion," Giacomo Paradisi
said. "If we had days and weeks I could begin to tell you the story of the
subtle knife, and the Guild of the Torre degli Angeli, and the whole sorry
history of this corrupt and careless world. The Specters are our fault, our
fault alone. They came because my predecessors, alchemists, philosophers, men
of learning, were making an inquiry into die deepest nature of things. They
became curious about the bonds that held the smallest particles of matter
together. You know what I mean by a bond? Something that binds?
"Well, this was a mercantile city. A city of traders and
bankers. We thought we knew about bonds. We thought a bond was something
negotiable, something that could be bought and sold and exchanged and
converted.... But about these bonds, we were wrong. We undid them, and we let
the Specters in."
Will asked, "Where do the Specters come from? Why was the
window left open under those trees, the one we first came in through? Are there
other windows in the world?"
"Where the Specters come from is a mystery—from another
world, from the darkness of space... who knows? What matters is that they are
here, and they have destroyed us. Are there other windows into this world? Yes,
a few, because sometimes a knife bearer might be careless or forgetful, without
time to stop and close as he should. And the window you came through, under the
hornbeam trees... I left that open myself, in a moment of unforgivable
foolishness. There is a man I am afraid of, and I thought to tempt him through
and into the city, where he would fall victim to the Specters. But I think that
he is too clever for a trick like that. He wants the knife. Please, never let
him get it."
Will and Lyra shared a glance.
"Well," the old
man finished, spreading his hands, "all I can do is hand the knife on to
you and show you how to use it, which I have done, and tell you what the rules
of the Guild used to be, before it decayed. First, never open without closing.
Second, never let anyone else use the knife. It is yours alone. Third, never
use it for a base purpose. Fourth, keep it secret. If there are other rules, I
have forgotten them, and if I've forgotten them it is because they don't
matter. You have the knife. You are the bearer. You should not be a child. But
our world is crumbling, and the mark of the bearer is unmistakable. I don't
even know your name. Now go. I shall die very soon, because I know where there
are poisonous drugs, and I don't intend to wait for the Specters to come in, as
they will once the knife has left. Go."
"But, Mr. Paradisi—" Lyra began.
But he shook his head and went on: "There is no time. You
have come here for a purpose, and maybe you don't know what that purpose is,
but the angels do who brought you here. Go. You are brave, and your friend is
clever. And you have the knife. Go."
"You en't really going to poison yourself?" said Lyra,
distressed.
"Come on," said Will.
"And what did you mean about angels?" she went on.
Will tugged her arm.
"Come on," he said again. "We got to go. Thank you,
Mr. Paradisi."
He held out his bloodstained, dusty right hand, and the old man
shook it gently. He shook Lyra's hand, too, and nodded to Pantalaimon, who
lowered his ermine head in acknowledgment.
Clutching the knife in its leather sheath, Will led the way down
the broad dark stairs and out of the tower. The sunlight was hot in the little
square, and the silence was profound. Lyra looked all around, with immense
caution, but the street was empty. And it would be better not to worry Will
about what she'd seen; there was quite enough to worry about already. She led
him away from the street where she'd seen the children, where the stricken
Tullio was standing, as still as death.
"I wish—" Lyra
said when they had nearly left the square, stopping to look back up. "It's
horrible, thinking of... and his poor teeth was all broken, and he could hardly
see out his eye.... He's just going to swallow some poison and die now, and I
wish—"
She was on the verge of tears.
"Hush," said Will. "It won't hurt him. He'll just
go to sleep. It's better than the Specters, he said."
"Oh, what we going to do, Will?" she said. "What we
going to do? You're hurt so bad, and that poor old man.... I hate this place, I
really do, I'd burn it to the ground. What we going to do now?"
"Well," he said, "that's easy. We've got to get the
alethio-meter back, so we'll have to steal it. That's what we're going to do."
NINE
THEFT
First they went back to the cafe, to recover and rest and change
their clothes. It was clear that Will couldn't go everywhere covered in blood,
and the time of feeling guilty about taking things from shops was over; so he
gathered a complete set of new clothes and shoes, and Lyra, demanding to help,
and watching in every direction for the other children, carried them back to
the cafe.
Lyra put some water on to boil, and Will took it up to the
bathroom and stripped to wash from head to foot. The pain was dull and
unrelenting, but at least the cuts were clean, and having seen what the knife
could do, he knew that no cuts could be cleaner; but the stumps where his
fingers had been were bleeding freely. When he looked at them he felt sick, and
his heart beat faster, and that in turn seemed to make the bleeding even worse.
He sat on the edge of the bath and closed his eyes and breathed deeply several
times.
Presently he felt calmer and set himself to washing. He did the
best he could, drying himself on the increasingly bloodied towels, and then
dressed in his new clothes, trying not to make them bloody too.
"You're going to have to tie my bandage again," he said
to Lyra. "I don't care how tight you make it as long as it stops the
bleeding."
She tore up a sheet and wrapped it around and around, clamping it
down over the wounds as tight as she could. He gritted his teeth, but he
couldn't help the tears. He brushed them away without a word, and she said
nothing.
When she'd finished, he said, "Thank you." Then he said,
"Listen. I want you to take something in your rucksack for me, in case we
can't come back here. It's only letters. You can read them if you want."
He went to the bedroom, took out the green leather writing case,
and handed her the sheets of airmail paper.
"I won't read them unless—"
"I don't mind. Else I wouldn't have said."
She folded up the letters, and he lay on the bed, pushed the cat
aside, and fell asleep.
Much later that night, Will and Lyra crouched in the lane that ran
along beside the tree-shaded shrubbery in Sir Charles's garden. On the
Cittagazze side, they were in a grassy park surrounding a classical villa that
gleamed white in the moonlight. They'd taken a long time to get to Sir
Charles's house, moving mainly in Cittagazze, with frequent stops to cut
through and check their position in Will's world, closing the windows as soon
as they knew where they were.
Not with them but not far behind came the tabby cat. She had slept
since they'd rescued her from the stone-throwing children, and now that she was
awake again she was reluctant to leave them, as if she thought that wherever
they were, she was safe. Will was far from sure about that, but he had enough
on his mind without the cat, and he ignored her. All the time he was growing
more familiar with the knife, more certain in his command of it; but his wound
was hurting worse than before, with a deep, unceasing throb, and the bandage
Lyra had freshly tied after he woke up was already soaked.
He cut a window in the air not far from the white-gleaming villa,
and they came through to the quiet lane in Headington to work out exactly how
to get to the study where Sir Charles had put the alethiometer. There were two
floodlights illuminating his garden, and lights were on in the front windows of
the house, though not in the study. Only moonlight lit this side, and the study
window was dark.
The lane ran down through
trees to another road at the far end, and it wasn't lighted. It would have been
easy for an ordinary burglar to get unobserved into the shrubbery and thus to
the garden, except that there was a strong iron fence twice as high as Will,
with spikes on the top, running the length of Sir Charles's property. However,
it was no barrier to the subtle knife.
"Hold this bar while I cut it," Will whispered.
"Catch it when it falls."
Lyra did as he said, and he cut through four bars altogether,
enough for them to pass through without difficulty. Lyra laid them one by one
on the grass, and then they were through, and moving among the bushes.
Once they had a clear sight of the side of the house, with the
creeper-shaded window of the study facing them across the smooth lawn, Will
said quietly, "I'm going to cut through into Ci'gazze here, and leave the
window open, and move in Ci'gazze to where I think the study is, and then cut
back through to this world. Then I'll take the alethiometer out of that cabinet
thing and I'll close that window and then I'll come back to this one. You stay
here in this world and keep watch. As soon as you hear me call you, you come
through this window into Ci'gazze and then I'll close it up again. All
right?"
"Yeah," she whispered. "Both me and Pan'11 look
out."
Her daemon was a small tawny owl, almost invisible in the dappled
shadows under the trees. His wide pale eyes took in every movement.
Will stood back and held out the knife, searching, touching the
air with the most delicate movements, until after a minute or so he found a
point at which he could cut. He did it swiftly, opening a window through into
the moonlit land of Ci'gazze, and then stood back, estimating how many steps it
would take him in that world to reach the study, and memorizing the direction.
Then without a word he stepped through and vanished.
Lyra crouched down nearby. Pantalaimon was perched on a branch
above her head, turning this way and that, silent. She could hear traffic from
Headington behind her, and the quiet footsteps of someone going along the road
at the end of the lane, and even the weightless movement of insects among the
twigs and leaves at her feet.
A minute went by, and another. Where was Will now? She strained to
look through the window of the study, but it was just a dark mullioned square
overhung with creeper. Sir Charles had sat inside it on the window seat only
that morning, and crossed his legs, and arranged the creases in his trousers.
Where was the cabinet in relation to the window? Would Will get inside without
disturbing anyone in the house? Lyra could hear her heart beating, too.
Then Pantalaimon made a soft noise, and at the same moment a
different sound came from the front of the house, to Lyra's left. She couldn't
see the front, but she could see a light sweeping across the trees, and she
heard a deep crunching sound: the sound of tires on gravel, she guessed. She hadn't
heard the car's engine at all.
She looked for Pantalaimon, and he was already gliding ahead
silently, as far as he could go from her. He turned in the darkness and swooped
back to settle on her fist.
"Sir Charles is coming back," he whispered. "And there's
someone with him."
He took off again, and this time Lyra followed, tiptoeing over the
soft earth with the utmost care, crouching down behind the bushes, finally
going on hands and knees to look between the leaves of a laurel.
The Rolls-Royce stood in front of the house, and the chauffeur was
moving around to the passenger side to open the door. Sir Charles stood
waiting, smiling, offering his arm to the woman who was getting out, and as she
came into view Lyra felt a blow at her heart, the worst blow since she'd
escaped from Bolvangar, because Sir Charles's guest was her mother, Mrs.
Coulter.
Will stepped carefully across the grass in Cittagazze, counting
his paces, holding in his mind as clearly as he could a memory of where the
study was and trying to locate it with reference to the villa, which stood
nearby, stucco-white and columned in a formal garden with statues and a
fountain. And he was aware of how exposed he was in this moon-drenched
parkland.
When he thought he was in the right spot, he stopped and held out
the knife again, feeling forward carefully. These little invisible gaps were
anywhere, but not everywhere, or any slash of the knife would open a window.
He cut a small opening first, no bigger than his hand, and looked
through. Nothing but darkness on the other side: he couldn't see where he was.
He closed that one, turned through ninety degrees, and opened another. This
time he found fabric in front of him—heavy green velvet: the curtains of the
study. But where were they in relation to the cabinet? He had to close that one
too, turn the other way, try again. Time was passing.
The third time, he found he could see the whole of the study in
the dim light through the open door to the hall. There was the desk, the sofa,
the cabinet! He could see a faint gleam along the side of a brass microscope.
And there was no one in the room, and the house was silent. It couldn't be
better.
He carefully estimated the distance, closed that window, stepped
forward four paces, and held up the knife again. If he was right, he'd be in
exactly the right spot to reach through, cut through the glass in the cabinet,
take out the alethiometer and close the window behind him.
He cut a window at the right height. The glass of the cabinet door
was only a handsbreadth in front of it. He put his face close, looking intently
at this shelf and that, from top to bottom.
The alethiometer wasn't there.
At first Will thought he'd got the wrong cabinet. There were four
of them in the room. He'd counted that morning, and memorized where they
were—tall square cases made of dark wood, with glass sides and fronts and
velvet-covered shelves, made for displaying valuable objects of porcelain or
ivory or gold. Could he have simply opened a window in front of the wrong one?
But on the top shelf was that bulky instrument with the brass rings: he'd made
a point of noticing that. And on the shelf in the middle, where Sir Charles had
placed the alethiometer, there was a space. This was the right cabinet, and the
alethiometer wasn't there.
Will stepped back a moment and took a deep breath.
He'd have to go through properly and look around. Opening windows
here and there at random would take all night. He closed the window in front of
the cabinet, opened another to look at the rest of the room, and when he'd
taken careful stock, he closed that one and opened a larger one behind the sofa
through which he could easily get out in a hurry if he needed to.
His hand was throbbing brutally by this time, and the bandage was
trailing loose. He wound it around as best he could and tucked the end in, and
then went through into Sir Charles's house completely and crouched behind the
leather sofa, the knife in his right hand, listening carefully.
Hearing nothing, he stood up slowly and looked around the room.
The door to the hall was half-open, and the light that came through was quite
enough to see by. The cabinets, the bookshelves, the pictures were all there,
as they had been that morning, undisturbed.
He stepped out on the silent carpet and looked into each of the
cabinets in turn. It wasn't there. Nor was it on the desk among the neatly
piled books and papers, nor on the mantelpiece among the invitation cards to
this opening or that reception, nor on the cushioned window seat, nor on the
octagonal table behind the door.
He moved back to the desk, intending to try the drawers, but with
the heavy expectation of failure; and as he did so, he heard the faint crunch
of tires on gravel. It was so quiet that he half-thought he was imagining it,
but he stood stock-still, straining to listen. It stopped.
Then he heard the front door open.
He went at once to the sofa again, and crouched behind it, next to
the window that opened onto the moon-silvered grass in Cittagazze. And no
sooner had he got there than he heard footsteps in that other world, lightly
running over the grass, and looked through to see Lyra racing toward him. He
was just in time to wave and put his finger to his lips, and she slowed,
realizing that he was aware Sir Charles had returned.
"I haven't got it,"
he whispered when she came up. "It wasn't there. He's probably got it with
him. I'm going to listen and see if he puts it back. Stay here."
"No! It's worse!" she said, and she was nearly in a
genuine panic. "She's with him—Mrs. Coulter—my mother! I dunno how she got
here, but if she sees me, I'm dead, Will, I'm lost— and I know who he is now! I
remember where I seen him before! Will, he's called Lord Boreal! I seen him at
Mrs. Coulter's cocktail party, when I ran away! And he must have known who I
was, all the time...."
"Shh. Don't stay here if you're going to make a noise."
She mastered herself, and swallowed hard, and shook her head.
"Sorry. I want to stay with you," she whispered. "I
want to hear what they say."
"Hush now ..."
Because he could hear voices in the hall. The two of them were
close enough to touch, Will in his world, she in Cit-tagazze, and seeing his
trailing bandage, Lyra tapped him on the arm and mimed tying it up again. He
held out his hand for her to do it, crouching meanwhile with his head cocked
sideways, listening hard.
A light came on in the room. He heard Sir Charles speaking to the
servant, dismissing him, coming into the study, closing the door.
"May I offer you a glass of Tokay?" he said.
A woman's voice, low and sweet, replied, "How kind of you,
Carlo. I haven't tasted Tokay for many years."
"Have the chair by the fireplace."
There was the faint glug of wine being poured, a tinkle of
decanter on glass rim, a murmur of thanks, and then Sir Charles seated himself
on the sofa, inches away from Will.
"Your good health, Marisa," he said, sipping. "Now,
suppose you tell me what you want."
"I want to know where you got the alethiometer."
"Why?"
"Because Lyra had it, and I want to find her."
"I can't imagine why you would. She is a repellent
brat."
"I'll remind you that
she's my daughter."
"Then she is even more repellent, because she must have
resisted your charming influence on purpose. No one could do it by
accident."
"Where is she?'
"I'll tell you, I promise. But you must tell me something
first."
"If I can," she said, in a different tone that Will
thought might be a warning. Her voice was intoxicating: soothing, sweet,
musical, and young, too. He longed to know what she looked like, because Lyra
had never described her, and the face that went with this voice must be
remarkable. "What do you want to know?"
"What is Asriel up to?"
There was a silence then, as if the woman were calculating what to
say. Will looked back through the window at Lyra, and saw her face, moonlit and
wide-eyed with fear, biting her lip to keep silent and straining to hear, as he
was.
Finally Mrs. Coulter said, "Very well, I'll tell you. Lord
Asriel is gathering an army, with the purpose of completing the war that was
fought in heaven eons ago."
"How medieval. However, he seems to have some very modern
powers. What has he done to the magnetic pole?"
"He found a way of blasting open the barrier between our
world and others. It caused profound disturbances to the earth's magnetic
field, and that must resonate in this world too.... But how do you know about
that? Carlo, I think you should answer some questions of mine. What is this
world? And how did you bring me here?"
"It is one of millions. There are openings between them, but
they're not easily found. I know a dozen or so, but the places they open into
have shifted, and that must be due to what Asriel's done. It seems that we can
now pass directly from this world into our own, and probably into many others
too. When I looked through one of the doorways earlier today, you can imagine
how surprised I was to find it opening into our world, and what's more, to find
you nearby. Providence, dear lady!
The change meant that I
could bring you here directly, without the risk of going through
Cittagazze."
"Cittagazze? What is that?"
"Previously, all the doorways opened into one world, which
was a sort of crossroads. That is the world of Cittagazze. But it's too
dangerous to go there at the moment."
"Why is it dangerous?"
"Dangerous for adults. Children can go there freely."
"What? I must know about this, Carlo," said the woman,
and Will could hear her passionate impatience. "This is at the heart of
everything, this difference between children and adults! It contains the whole
mystery of Dust! This is why I must find the child. And the witches have a name
for her—I nearly had it, so nearly, from a witch in person, but she died too
quickly. I must find the child. She has the answer, somehow, and I must have
it."
"And you shall. This instrument will bring her to me—never
fear. And once she's given me what I want, you can have her. But tell me about
your curious bodyguards, Marisa. I've never seen soldiers like that. Who are
they?"
"Men, that's all. But... they've undergone intercision. They
have no daemons, so they have no fear and no imagination and no free will, and
they'll fight til] they're torn apart."
"No daemons... Well, that's very interesting. I wonder if I
might suggest a little experiment, if you can spare one of them? I'd like to
see whether the Specters are interested in them."
"Specters? What are they?"
"I'll explain later, my dear. They are the reason adults
can't go into that world. But if they're no more interested in your bodyguards
than they are in children, we might be able to travel in Cittagazze after all.
Dust—children—Specters— daemons—intercision... Yes, it might very well work.
Have some more wine."
"I want to know everything," she said, over the
sound of wine being poured. "And I'll hold you to that. Now tell me: What
are you doing in this world? Is this where you came when we thought you were in
Brasil or the Indies?"
"I found my way here a long time ago," said Sir Charles.
"It was too good a secret to reveal, even to you, Marisa. I've made myself
very comfortable, as you can see. Being part of the Council of State at home
made it easy for me to see where the power lay here.
"As a matter of fact, I became a spy, though I never told my
masters all I knew. The security services in this world were preoccupied for
years with the Soviet Union—we know it as Muscovy. And although that threat has
receded, there are still listening posts and machines trained in that
direction, and I'm still in touch with those who run the spies."
Mrs. Coulter sipped her Tokay. Her brilliant eyes were fixed
unblinkingly on his.
"And I heard recently about a profound disturbance in the
earth's magnetic field," Sir Charles continued. 'The security services are
alarmed. Every nation that does research into fundamental physics—what we call
experimental theology—is turning to its scientists urgently to discover what's
going on. Because they know that something is happening. And they
suspect it has to do with other worlds.
"They do have a few clues to this, as a matter of fact. There
is some research being done into Dust. Oh, yes, they know it here as well.
There is a team in this very city working on it. And another thing: There was a
man who disappeared ten or twelve years ago, in the north, and the security
services think he was in possession of some knowledge they badly need—
specifically, the location of a doorway between the worlds, such as the one you
came through earlier today. The one he found is the only one they know about:
you can imagine I haven't told them what I know. When this new disturbance
began, they set out to look for this man.
"And naturally, Marisa, I myself am curious. And I am keen to
add to my knowledge."
Will sat frozen, with his heart thudding so hard he was afraid the
adults would hear it. Sir Charles was talking about his own father!
But all the time, he was conscious of something else in the room
as well as the voices of Sir Charles and the woman. There was a shadow moving
across the floor, or that part of it he could see beyond the end of the sofa
and past the legs of the little octagonal table. But neither Sir Charles nor
the woman was moving. The shadow moved in a quick darting prowl, and it
disturbed Will greatly. The only light in the room was a standard lamp beside
the fireplace, so the shadow was clear and definite, but it never stopped long
enough for Will to make out what it was.
Then two things happened. First, Sir Charles mentioned the
alethiometer.
"For example," he said, continuing what he'd been
saying, "I'm very curious about this instrument. Suppose you tell me how
it works."
And he placed the alethiometer on the octagonal table at the end
of the sofa. Will could see it clearly; he could almost reach it.
The second thing that happened was that the shadow fell still. The
creature that was the source of it must have been perched on the back of Mrs.
Coulter's chair, because the light streaming over it threw its shadow clearly
on the wall. And the moment it stopped, he realized it was the woman's daemon:
a crouching monkey, turning its head this way and that, searching for
something.
Will heard an intake of breath from Lyra behind him as she saw it
too. He turned silently and whispered, "Go back to the other window, and
come through into his garden. Find some stones and throw them at the study so
they look away for a moment, and then I can get the alethiometer. Then run back
to the other window and wait for me."
She nodded, then turned and ran away silently over the grass. Will
turned back.
The woman was saying, "... the Master of Jordan College is a
foolish old man. Why he gave it to her I can't imagine; you need several years
of intensive study to make any sense of it at all. And now you owe me some
information, Carlo. How did you find it? And where is the child?"
"I saw her using it in a museum in the city. I recognized
her, of course, having seen her at your cocktail party all that time ago, and I
realized she must have found a doorway. And then I realized that I could use it
for a purpose of my own. So when I came across her a second time, I stole
it."
"You're very frank."
"No need to be coy; we're both grown-up."
"And where is she now? What did she do when she found it was
missing?"
"She came to see me, which must have taken some nerve, I
imagine."
"She doesn't lack nerve. And what are you going to do with
it? What is this purpose of yours?"
"I told her that she could have it back, provided she got
something for me—something I couldn't get myself."
"And what is that?"
"I don't know whether you—"
And that was the moment when the first stone smashed into the
study window.
It broke with a satisfying crash of glass, and instantly the
monkey shadow leaped from the chair back as the adults gasped. There came
another crash, and another, and Will felt the sofa move as Sir Charles got up.
Will leaned forward and snatched the alethiometer from the little
table, thrust it into his pocket, and darted back through the window. As soon
as he was on the grass in Cittagazze he felt in the air for those elusive
edges, calming his mind, breathing slowly, conscious all the time that only
feet away there was horrible danger.
Then came a screech, not human, not animal, but worse than either,
and he knew it was that loathsome monkey. By that time he'd gotten most of the
window closed, but there was still a small gap at the level of his chest. And
then he leaped back, because into that gap there came a small furry golden hand
with black fingernails, and then a face—a nightmare face. The golden monkey's
teeth were bared, his eyes glaring, and such a concentrated malevolence blazed
from him that Will felt it almost like a spear.
Another second and he would have been through, and that would have
been the end. But Will was still holding the knife, and he brought it up at
once and slashed left, right, across the monkey's face—or where the face would
have been if the monkey hadn't withdrawn just in time. That gave Will the
moment he needed to seize the edges of the window and press them shut.
His own world had vanished, and he was alone in the moonlit
parkland in Cittagazze, panting and trembling and horribly frightened.
But now there was Lyra to rescue. He ran back to the first window,
the one he'd opened into the shrubbery, and looked through. The dark leaves of
laurels and holly obscured the view, but he reached through and thrust them
aside to see the side of the house clearly, with the broken study window sharp
in the moonlight.
As he watched, he saw the monkey leaping around the corner of the
house, scampering over the grass with the speed of a cat, and then he saw Sir
Charles and the woman following close behind. Sir Charles was carrying a pistol.
The woman herself was beautiful—Will saw that with shock—lovely in the
moonlight, her brilliant dark eyes wide with enchantment, her slender shape
light and graceful; but as she snapped her fingers, the monkey stopped at once
and leaped up into her arms, and he saw that the sweet-faced woman and the evil
monkey were one being.
But where was Lyra?
The adults were looking around, and then the woman put the monkey
down, and it began to cast this way and that on the grass as if it were
scenting or looking for footprints. There was silence from all around. If Lyra
was in the shrubbery already, she wouldn't be able to move without making a
noise, which would give her away at once.
Sir Charles adjusted something on his pistol with a soft click:
the safety catch. He peered into the shrubbery, seeming to look directly at
Will, and then his eyes traveled on past.
Then both of the adults looked to their left, for the monkey had
heard something. And in a flash it leaped forward to where Lyra must be, and a
moment later it would have found her—
And at that moment the tabby cat sprang out of the shrubbery and
onto the grass, and hissed.
The monkey heard and
twisted in midair as if with astonishment, though he was hardly as astonished
as Will himself. The monkey fell on his paws, facing the cat, and the cat
arched her back, tail raised high, and stood sideways on, hissing, challenging,
spitting.
And the monkey leaped for her. The cat reared up, slashing with
needle-paws left and right too quickly to be seen, and then Lyra was beside
Will, tumbling through the window with Pan-talaimon beside her. And the cat
screamed, and the monkey screamed, too, as the cat's claws raked his face; and
then the monkey turned and leaped into Mrs. Coulter's arms, and the cat shot
away into the bushes of her own world and vanished.
And Will and Lyra were through the window, and Will felt once
again for the almost intangible edges in the air and pressed them swiftly
together, closing the window all along its length as through the diminishing
gap came the sound of feet among twigs and cracking branches—
And then there was only a hole the size of Will's hand, and then
it was shut, and the whole world was silent. He fell to his knees on the dewy
grass and fumbled for the alethiometer.
"Here," he said to Lyra.
She took it. With shaking hands he slid the knife back into its
sheath. Then he lay down trembling in all his limbs and closed his eyes, and
felt the moonlight bathing him with silver, and felt Lyra undoing his bandage
and tying it up again with delicate, gentle movements.
"Oh, Will," he heard her say. "Thank you for what
you done, for all of it...."
"I hope the cat's all right," he muttered. "She's
like my Moxie. She's probably gone home now. In her own world again. She'll be
all right now."
"You know what I thought? I thought for a second she was your
daemon. She done what a good daemon would have done, anyway. We rescued her and
she rescued us. Come on, Will, don't lie on the grass, it's wet. You got to
come and lie down in a proper bed, else you'll catch cold. We'll go in that big
house over there. There's bound to be beds and food and stuff. Come on, I'll
make a new bandage, I'll put some coffee on to cook, I'll make some omelette,
whatever you want, and we'll sleep.... We'll be safe now we've got the
alethiometer back, you'll see. I'll do nothing now except help you find your
father, I promise...."
She helped him up, and they walked slowly through the garden
toward the great white-gleaming house under the moon.
TEN
THE SHAMAN
Lee Scoresby disembarked at the port in the mouth of the Yenisei
River, and found the place in chaos, with fishermen trying to sell their meager
catches of unknown kinds of fish to the canning factories; with shipowners
angry about the harbor charges the authorities had raised to cope with the
floods; and with hunters and fur trappers drifting into town unable to work
because of the rapidly thawing forest and the disordered behavior of the
animals.
It was going to be hard to make his way into the interior along the
road, that was certain; for in normal times the road was simply a cleared track
of frozen earth, and now that even the permafrost was melting, the surface was
a swamp of churned mud.
So Lee put his balloon and equipment into storage and with his
dwindling gold hired a boat with a gas engine. He bought several tanks of fuel
and some stores, and set off up the swollen river.
He made slow progress at first. Not only was the current swift,
but the waters were laden with all kinds of debris: tree trunks, brushwood,
drowned animals, and once the bloated corpse of a man. He had to pilot
carefully and keep the little engine beating hard to make any headway.
He was heading for the village of Grumman's tribe. For guidance he
had only his memory of having flown over the country some years before, but
that memory was good, and he had little difficulty in finding the right course
among the swift-running streams, even though some of the banks had vanished
under the milky-brown floodwaters. The temperature had disturbed the insects,
and a cloud of midges made every outline hazy. Lee smeared his face and hands
with jimsonweed ointment and smoked a succession of pungent cigars, which kept
the worst at bay.
As for Hester, she sat taciturn in the bow, her long ears flat
against her skinny back and her eyes narrowed. He was used to her silence, and
she to his. They spoke when they needed to.
On the morning of the third day, Lee steered the little craft up a
creek that joined the main stream, flowing down from a line of low hills that
should have been deep under snow but now were patched and streaked with brown.
Soon the stream was flowing between low pines and spruce, and after a few miles
they came to a large round rock, the height of a house, where Lee drew in to
the bank and tied up.
"There was a landing stage here," he said to Hester.
"Remember the old seal hunter in Nova Zembla who told us about it? It must
be six feet under now."
"I hope they had sense enough to build the village high,
then," she said, hopping ashore.
No more than half an hour later he laid his pack down beside the
wooden house of the village headman and turned to salute the little crowd that
had gathered. He used the gesture universal in the north to signify friendship,
and laid his rifle down at his feet.
An old Siberian Tartar, his eyes almost lost in the wrinkles
around them, laid his bow down beside it. His wolverine dasmon twitched her
nose at Hester, who flicked an ear in response, and then the headman spoke.
Lee replied, and they moved through half a dozen languages before
finding one in which they could talk.
"My respects to you and your tribe," Lee said. "I
have some smokeweed, which is not worthy, but I would be honored to present it
to you."
The headman nodded in
appreciation, and one of his wives received the bundle Lee removed from his
pack.
"I am seeking a man called Grumman," Lee said. "I
heard tell he was a kinsman of yours by adoption. He may have acquired another
name, but the man is European."
"Ah," said the headman, "we have been waiting for
you."
The rest of the villagers, gathered in the thin steaming sunlight
on the muddy ground in the middle of the houses, couldn't understand the words,
but they saw the headman's pleasure. Pleasure, and relief, Lee felt Hester
think.
The headman nodded several times.
"We have been expecting you," he said again. "You
have come to take Dr. Grumman to the other world."
Lee's eyebrows rose, but he merely said, "As you say, sir. Is
he here?"
"Follow me," said the headman.
The other villagers fell aside respectfully. Understanding
Hester's distaste for the filthy mud she had to lope through, Lee scooped her
up in his arms and shouldered his pack, following the headman along a forest
path to a hut ten long bowshots from the village, in a clearing in the larches.
The headman stopped outside the wood-framed, skin-covered hut. The
place was decorated with boar tusks and the antlers of elk and reindeer, but
they weren't merely hunting trophies, for they had been hung with dried flowers
and carefully plaited sprays of pine, as if for some ritualistic purpose.
"You must speak to him with respect," the headman said
quietly. "He is a shaman. And his heart is sick."
Suddenly Lee felt a shiver go down his back, and Hester stiffened
in his arms, for they saw that they had been watched all the time. From among
the dried flowers and the pine sprays a bright yellow eye looked out. It was a
daemon, and as Lee watched, she turned her head and delicately took a spray of
pine in her powerful beak and drew it across the space like a curtain.
The headman called out in his own tongue, addressing the man by
the name the old seal hunter had told him: Jopari. A moment later the door
opened.
Standing in the doorway,
gaunt, blazing-eyed, was a man dressed in skins and furs. His black hair was
streaked with gray, his jaw jutted strongly, and his osprey daemon sat glaring
on his fist.
The headman bowed three times and withdrew, leaving Lee alone with
the shaman-academic he'd come to find.
"Dr. Grumman," he said. "My name's Lee Scoresby.
I'm from the country of Texas, and I'm an aeronaut by profession. If you'd let
me sit and talk a spell, I'll tell you what brings me here. I am right, ain't
I? You are Dr. Stanislaus Grumman, of the Berlin Academy?"
"Yes," said the shaman. "And you're from Texas, you
say. The winds have blown you a long way from your homeland, Mr.
Scoresby."
"Well, there are strange winds blowing through the world now,
sir."
"Indeed. The sun is warm, I think. You'll find a bench inside
my hut. If you help me bring it out, we can sit in this agreeable light and
talk out here. I have some coffee, if you would care to share it."
"Most kind, sir," said Lee, and carried out the wooden
bench himself while Grumman went to the stove and poured the scalding drink
into two tin cups. His accent was not German, to Lee's ears, but English, of
England. The Director of the Observatory had been right.
When they were seated, Hester narrow-eyed and impassive beside Lee
and the great osprey daemon glaring into the full sun, Lee began. He started
with his meeting at Trollesund with John Faa, lord of the gyptians, and told
how they recruited lorek Byrnison the bear and journeyed to Bolvangar, and
rescued Lyra and the other children; and then he spoke of what he'd learned
both from Lyra and from Serafina Pekkala in the balloon as they flew toward
Svalbard.
"You see, Dr. Grumman, it seemed to me, from the way the
little girl described it, that Lord Asriel just brandished this severed head
packed in ice at the scholars there and frightened them so much with it they
didn't look closely.
That's what made me
suspect you might still be alive. And clearly, sir, you have a kind of
specialist knowledge of this business. I've been hearing about you all along
the Arctic seaboard, about how you had your skull pierced, about how your
subject of study seems to vary between digging on the ocean bed and gazing at
the northern lights, about how you suddenly appeared, like as it might be out
of nowhere, about ten, twelve years ago, and that's all mighty interesting. But
something's drawn me here, Dr. Grumman, beyond simple curiosity. I'm concerned
about the child. I think she's important, and so do the witches. If there's
anything you know about her and about what's going on, I'd like you to tell me.
As I said, something's given me the conviction that you can, which is why I'm
here.
"But unless I'm mistaken, sir, I heard the village headman
say that I had come to take you to another world. Did I get it wrong, or is
that truly what he said? And one more question for you, sir: What was that name
he called you by? Was that some kind of tribal name, some magician's
title?"
Grumman smiled briefly, and said, "The name he used is my own
true name, John Parry. Yes, you have come to take me to the other world. And as
for what brought you here, I think you'll find it was this."
And he opened his hand. In the palm lay something that Lee could
see but not understand. He saw a ring of silver and turquoise, a Navajo design;
he saw it clearly and he recognized it as his own mother's. He knew its weight
and the smoothness of the stone and the way the silversmith had folded the
metal over more closely at the corner where the stone was chipped, and he knew
how the chipped corner had worn smooth, because he had run his fingers over it
many, many times, years and years ago in his boyhood in the sagelands of his
native country.
He found himself standing. Hester was trembling, standing upright,
ears pricked. The osprey had moved without Lee's noticing between him and
Grumman, defending her man, but Lee wasn't going to attack. He felt undone; he
felt like a child again, and his voice was tight and shaky as he said,
"Where did you get that?"
"Take it," said Grumman, or Parry. "Its work is
done. It summoned you. Now I don't need it."
"But how—" said Lee, lifting the beloved thing from
Grumman's palm. "I don't understand how you can have—did you—how did you
get this? I ain't seen this thing for forty years."
"I am a shaman. I can do many things you don't understand.
Sit down, Mr. Scoresby. Be calm. I'll tell you what you need to know."
Lee sat again, holding the ring, running his fingers over it again
and again.
"Well," he said, "I'm shaken, sir. I think I need
to hear what you can tell me."
"Very well," said Grumman, "I'll begin. My name, as
I told you, is Parry, and I was not born in this world. Lord Asriel is not the
first by any means to travel between the worlds, though he's the first to open
the way so spectacularly. In my own world I was a soldier and then an explorer.
Twelve years ago I was accompanying an expedition to a place in my world that
corresponds with your Beringland. My companions had other intentions, but I was
looking for something I'd heard about from old legends: a rent in the fabric of
the world, a hole that had appeared between our universe and another. Well,
some of my companions got lost. In searching for them, I and two others walked
through this hole, this doorway, without even seeing it, and left our world
altogether. At first we didn't realize what had happened. We walked on till we
found a town, and then there was no mistaking it: we were in a different world.
"Well, try as we might, we could not find that first doorway
again. We'd come through it in a blizzard. You are an old Arctic hand—you know
what that means.
"So we had no choice but to stay in that new world. And we
soon discovered what a dangerous place it was. It seemed that there was a
strange kind of ghoul or apparition haunting it, something deadly and
implacable. My two companions died soon afterward, victims of the Specters, as
the things are called.
"The result was that I found their world an abominable place,
and I couldn't wait to leave it. The way back to my own world was barred
forever. But there were other doorways into other worlds, and a little
searching found the way into this.
"So here I came. And I discovered a marvel as soon as I did,
Mr. Scoresby, for worlds differ greatly, and in this world I saw my daemon for
the first tune. Yes, I hadn't known of Sayan Kotor here till I entered yours.
People here cannot conceive of worlds where daemons are a silent voice in the
mind and no more. Can you imagine my astonishment, in turn, at learning that
part of my own nature was female, and bird-formed, and beautiful?
"So with Sayan Kotor beside me, I wandered through the northern
lands, and I learned a good deal from the peoples of the Arctic, like my good
friends in the village down there. What they told me of this world filled some
gaps in the knowledge I'd acquired in mine, and I began to see the answer to
many mysteries.
"I made my way to Berlin under the name of Grumman. I told no
one about my origins; it was my secret. I presented a thesis to the Academy,
and defended it in debate, which is their method. I was better informed than
the Academicians, and I had no difficulty in gaining membership.
"So with my new credentials I could begin to work in this
world, where I found myself, for the most part, greatly contented. I missed
some things about my own world, to be sure. Are you a married man, Mr.
Scoresby? No? Well, I was; and I loved my wife dearly, as I loved my son, my
only child, a little boy not yet one year old when I wandered out of my world.
I missed them terribly. But I might search for a thousand years and never find
the way back. We were sundered forever.
"However, my work absorbed me. I sought other forms of
knowledge; I was initiated into the skull cult; I became a shaman. And I have
made some useful discoveries. I have found a way of making an ointment from
bloodmoss, for example, that preserves all the virtues of the fresh plant.
"I know a great deal about this world now, Mr. Scoresby. I
know, for example, about Dust. I see from your expression that you have heard
the term. It is frightening your theologians to death, but they are the ones
who frighten me. 1 know what Lord Asriel is doing, and I know why, and that's
why I summoned you here. I am going to help him, you see, because the task he's
undertaken is the greatest in human history. The greatest in thirty-five
thousand years of human history, Mr. Scoresby.
"I can't do very much myself. My heart is diseased beyond the
powers of anyone in this world to cure it. I have one great effort left in me,
perhaps. But I know something Lord Asriel doesn't, something he needs to know
if his effort is to succeed.
"You see, I was intrigued by that haunted world where the
Specters fed on human consciousness. I wanted to know what they were, how they
had come into being. And as a shaman, I can discover things in the spirit where
I cannot go in the body, and I spent much time in trance, exploring that world.
I found that the philosophers there, centuries ago, had created a tool for
their own undoing: an instrument they called the subtle knife. It had many
powers—more than they'd guessed when they made it, far more than they know even
now—and somehow, in using it, they had let the Specters into their world.
"Well, I know about the subtle knife and what it can do. And
I know where it is, and I know how to recognize the one who must use it, and I
know what he must do in Lord Asriel's cause. I hope he's equal to the task. So
I have summoned you here, and you are to fly me northward, into the world
Asriel has opened, where I expect to find the bearer of the subtle knife.
"That is a dangerous world, mind. Those Specters are worse than
anything in your world or mine. We shall have to be careful and courageous. I
shall not return, and if you want to see your country again, you'll need all
your courage, all your craft, all your luck.
"That's your task,
Mr. Scoresby. That is why you sought me out."
And the shaman fell silent. His face was pallid, with a faint
sheen of sweat.
"This is the craziest damn idea I ever heard in my
life," said Lee.
He stood up in his agitation and walked a pace or two this way, a
pace or two that, while Hester watched unblinking from the bench. Grumman's
eyes were half-closed; his daemon sat on his knee, watching Lee warily.
"Do you want money?" Grumman said after a few moments.
"I can get you some gold. That's not hard to do."
"Damn, I didn't come here for gold," said Lee hotly.
"I came here ... I came here to see if you were alive, like I thought you
were. Well, my curiosity's kinda satisfied on that point."
"I'm glad to hear it."
"And there's another angle to this thing, too," Lee
added, and told Grumman of the witch council at Lake Enara, and the resolution
the witches had sworn to. "You see," he finished, "that little
girl Lyra ... well, she's the reason I set out to help the witches in the first
place. You say you brought me here with that Navajo ring. Maybe that's so and
maybe it ain't. What I know is, I came here because I thought I'd be helping
Lyra. I ain't never seen a child like that. If I had a daughter of my own, I
hope she'd be half as strong and brave and good. Now, I'd heard that you knew
of some object, I didn't know what it might be, that confers a protection on
anyone who holds it. And from what you say, I think it must be this subtle
knife.
"So this is my price for taking you into the other world, Dr.
Grumman: not gold, but that subtle knife. And I don't want it for myself; I
want it for Lyra. You have to swear you'll get her under the protection of that
object, and then I'll take you wherever you want to go."
The shaman listened closely, and said, "Very well, Mr.
Scoresby; I swear. Do you trust my oath?"
"What will you swear by?"
"Name anything you
like."
Lee thought and then said, "Swear by whatever it was made you
turn down the love of the witch. I guess that's the most important thing you
know."
Grumman's eyes widened, and he said, "You guess well, Mr.
Scoresby. I'll gladly swear by that. I give you my word that I'll make certain
the child Lyra Belacqua is under the protection of the subtle knife. But I warn
you: the bearer of that knife has his own task to do, and it may be that his
doing it will put her into even greater danger."
Lee nodded soberly. "Maybe so," he said, "but
whatever little chance of safety there is, I want her to have it."
"You have my word. And now I must go into the new world, and
you must take me."
"And the wind? You ain't been too sick to observe the
weather, I guess?"
"Leave the wind to me."
Lee nodded. He sat on the bench again and ran his fingers over and
over the turquoise ring while Grumman gathered the few goods he needed into a
deerskin bag, and then the two of them went back down the forest track to the
village.
The headman spoke at some length. More and more of the villagers
came out to touch Grumman's hand, to mutter a few words, and to receive what
looked like a blessing in return. Lee, meanwhile, was looking at the weather.
The sky was clear to the south, and a fresh-scented breeze was just lifting the
twigs and stirring the pine tops. To the north the fog still hung over the
heavy river, but it was the first time for days that there seemed to be a
promise of clearing it.
At the rock where the landing stage had been he lifted Grumman's
pack into the boat, and filled the little engine, which fired at once. He cast
off, and with the shaman in the bow, the boat sped down with the current,
darting under the trees and skimming out into the main river so fast that Lee
was afraid for Hester, crouching just inside the gunwale. But she was a
seasoned traveler, he should have known that; why was he so damn jumpy?
* * *
They reached the port at
the river's mouth to find every hotel, every lodging house, every private room
commandeered by soldiers. Not just any soldiers, either: these were troops of
the Imperial Guard of Muscovy, the most ferociously trained and lavishly
equipped army in the world, and one sworn to uphold the power of the
Magisterium.
Lee had intended to rest a night before setting off, because
Grumman looked in need of it, but there was no chance of finding a room.
"What's going on?" he said to the boatman when he
returned the hired boat.
"We don't know. The regiment arrived yesterday and
commandeered every billet, every scrap of food, and every ship in the town.
They'd have had this boat, too, if you hadn't taken it."
"D'you know where they're going?"
"North," said the boatman. "There's a war going to
be fought, by all accounts, the greatest war ever known."
"North, into that new world?"
"That's right. And there's more troops coming; this is just
the advance guard. There won't be a loaf of bread or a gallon of spirit left in
a week's time. You did me a favor taking this boat—the price has already
doubled...."
There was no sense in resting up now, even if they could find a
place. Full of anxiety about his balloon, Lee went at once to the warehouse
where he'd left it, with Grumman beside him. The man was keeping pace. He
looked sick, but he was tough.
The warehouse keeper, busy counting out some spare engine parts to
a requisitioning sergeant of the Guard, looked up briefly from his clipboard.
"Balloon—too bad—requisitioned yesterday," he said.
"You can see how it is. I've got no choice."
Hester flicked her ears, and Lee understood what she meant.
"Have you delivered the balloon yet?" he said.
"They're going to collect it this afternoon."
"No, they're not," said Lee, "because I have an
authority that trumps the Guard."
And he showed the warehouseman the ring he'd taken from the finger
of the dead Skraeling on Nova Zembla. The sergeant, beside him at the counter,
stopped what he was doing and saluted at the sight of the Church's token, but
for all his discipline he couldn't prevent a flicker of puzzlement passing over
his face.
"So we'll have the balloon right now," said Lee,
"and you can set some men to fill it. And I mean at once. And that
includes food, and water, and ballast."
The warehouseman looked at the sergeant, who shrugged, and then
hurried away to see to the balloon. Lee and Grumman withdrew to the wharf,
where the gas tanks were, to supervise the filling and talk quietly.
"Where did you get that ring?" said Grumman.
"Off a dead man's finger. Kinda risky using it, but I
couldn't see another way of getting my balloon back. You reckon that sergeant
suspected anything?"
"Of course he did. But he's a disciplined man. He won't
question the Church. If he reports it at all, we'll be away by the time they
can do anything about it. Well, I promised you a wind, Mr. Scoresby; I hope you
like it."
The sky was blue overhead now, and the sunlight was bright. To the
north the fog banks still hung like a mountain range over the sea, but the
breeze was pushing them back and back, and Lee was impatient for the air again.
As the balloon filled and began to swell up beyond the edge of the
warehouse roof, Lee checked the basket and stowed all his equipment with
particular care; for in the other world, who knew what turbulence they'd meet?
His instruments, too, he fixed to the framework with close attention, even the
compass, whose needle was swinging around the dial quite uselessly. Finally he
lashed a score of sandbags around the basket for ballast.
When the gasbag was full and leaning northward in the buffeting
breeze, and the whole apparatus straining against the stout ropes anchoring it
down, Lee paid the warehouseman with the last of his gold and helped Grumman
into the basket. Then he turned to the men at the ropes to give the order to
let go.
But before they could do so, there was an interruption. From the
alley at the side of the warehouse came the noise of pounding boots, moving at
the double, and a shout of command: "Halt!"
The men at the ropes paused, some looking that way, some looking
to Lee, and he called sharply, "Let go! Cast off!"
Two of the men obeyed, and the balloon lurched up, but the other
two had their attention on the soldiers, who were moving quickly around the
corner of the building. Those two men still held their ropes fast around the
bollards, and the balloon lurched sickeningly sideways. Lee grabbed at the
suspension ring; Grumman was holding it too, and his daemon had her claws tight
around it.
Lee shouted, "Let go, you damn fools! She's going up!"
The buoyancy of the gasbag was too great, and the men, haul as
they might, couldn't hold it back. One let go, and his rope lashed itself loose
from the bollard; but the other man, feeling the rope lift, instinctively clung
on instead of letting go. Lee had seen this happen once before, and dreaded it.
The poor man's daemon, a heavyset husky, howled with fear and pain from the
ground as the balloon surged up toward the sky, and five endless seconds later
it was over; the man's strength failed; he fell, half-dead, and crashed into
the water.
But the soldiers had their rifles up already. A volley of bullets
whistled past the basket, one striking a spark from the suspension ring and
making Lee's hands sting with the impact, but none of them did any damage. By
the time they fired their second shot, the balloon was almost out of range,
hurtling up into the blue and speeding out over the sea. Lee felt his heart
lift with it. He'd said once to Serafina Pekkala that he didn't care for
flying, that it was only a job; but he hadn't meant it. Soaring upward, with a
fair wind behind and a new world in front—what could be better in this life?
He let go of the suspension ring and saw that Hester was crouching
in her usual corner, eyes half-closed. From far below and a long way back came
another futile volley of rifle fire. The town was receding fast, and the broad
sweep of the river's mouth was glittering in the sunlight below them.
"Well, Dr. Grumman," he said, "I don't know about
you, but I feel better hi the air. I wish that poor man had let go of the rope,
though. It's so damned easy to do, and if you don't let go at once there's no
hope for you."
"Thank you, Mr. Scoresby," said the shaman. "You
managed that very well. Now we settle down and fly. I would be grateful for
those furs; the air is still cold."
ELEVEN
THE BELVEDERE
In the great white villa in the park Will slept uneasily, plagued
with dreams that were filled with anxiety and with sweetness in equal measure,
so that he struggled to wake up and yet longed for sleep again. When his eyes
were fully open, he felt so drowsy that he could scarcely move, and then he sat
up to find his bandage loose and his bed crimson.
He struggled out of bed and made his way through the heavy,
dust-filled sunlight and silence of the great house down to the kitchen. He and
Lyra had slept in servants' rooms under the attic, not feeling welcomed by the
stately four-poster beds in the grand rooms farther down, and it was a long
unsteady walk.
"Will—" she said at once, her voice full of concern, and
she turned from the stove to help him to a chair.
He felt dizzy. He supposed he'd lost a lot of blood; well, there
was no need to suppose, with the evidence all over him. And the wounds were
still bleeding.
"I was just making some coffee," she said. "Do you
want that first, or shall I do another bandage? I can do whichever you want.
And there's eggs in the cold cabinet, but I can't find any baked beans."
"This isn't a baked beans kind of house. Bandage first. Is
there any hot water in the tap? I want to wash. I hate being covered in
this..."
She ran some hot water, and he stripped to his underpants.
He was too faint and dizzy
to feel embarrassed, but Lyra became embarrassed for Mm and went out. He washed
as best he could and then dried himself on the tea towels that hung on a line
by the stove.
When she came back, she'd found some clothes for him, just a shirt
and canvas trousers and a belt. He put them on, and she tore a fresh tea towel
into strips and bandaged him tightly again. She was badly worried about his
hand; not only were the wounds bleeding freely still, but the rest of the hand
was swollen and red. But he said nothing about it, and neither did she.
Then she made the coffee and toasted some stale bread, and they
took it into the grand room at the front of the house, overlooking the city.
When he'd eaten and drunk, he felt a little better.
"You better ask the alethiometer what to do next," he
said. "Have you asked it anything yet?"
"No," she said. "I'm only going to do what you ask,
from now on. I thought of doing it last night, but I never did. And I won't,
either, unless you ask me to."
"Well, you better do it now," he said. "There's as
much danger here as there is in my world, now. There's Angelica's brother for a
start. And if—"
He stopped, because she began to say something, but she stopped as
soon as he did. Then she collected herself and went on. "Will, there was
something that happened yesterday that I didn't tell you. I should've, but
there was just so many other things going on. I'm sorry ..."
And she told him everything she'd seen through the window of the
tower while Giacomo Paradisi was dressing Will's wound: Tullio being beset by
the Specters, Angelica seeing her at the window and her look of hatred, and
Paolo's threat.
"And d'you remember," she went on, "when she first
spoke to us? Her little brother said something about what they were all doing.
He said, 'He's gonna get—' and she wouldn't let him finish; she smacked him,
remember? I bet he was going to say Tullio was after the knife, and that's why
all the kids came here. 'Cause if they had the knife, they could do anything,
they could even grow up without being afraid of Specters."
"What did it look like, when he was attacked?" Will
said. To her surprise he was sitting forward, his eyes demanding and urgent.
"He ..." She tried to remember exactly. "He started
counting the stones in the wall. He sort of felt all over them.... But he
couldn't keep it up. In the end he sort of lost interest and stopped. Then he
was just still," she finished, and seeing Will's expression she said,
"Why?"
"Because ... I think maybe they come from my world after all,
the Specters. If they make people behave like that, I wouldn't be surprised at
all if they came from my world. And when the Guild men opened their first
window, if it was into my world, the Specters could have gone through
then."
"But you don't have Specters in your world! You never heard
of them, did you?"
"Maybe they're not called Specters. Maybe we call them
something else."
Lyra wasn't sure what he meant, but she didn't want to press him.
His cheeks were red and his eyes were hot.
"Anyway," she went on, turning away, "the important
thing is that Angelica saw me in the window. And now that she knows we've got
the knife, she'll tell all of 'em. She'll think it's our fault that her brother
was attacked by Specters. I'm sorry, Will. I should've told you earlier. But
there was just so many other things."
"Well," he said, "I don't suppose it would have
made any difference. He was torturing the old man, and once he knew how to use
the knife he'd have killed both of us if he could. We had to fight him."
"I just feel bad about it, Will. I mean, he was their
brother. And I bet if we were them, we'd have wanted the knife too."
"Yes," he said, "but we can't go back and change
what happened. We had to get the knife to get the alethiometer back, and if we
could have got it without fighting, we would."
"Yeah, we would," she said.
Like lorek Byrnison, Will was a fighter truly enough, so she was
prepared to agree with him when he said it would be better not to fight; she
knew it wasn't cowardice that spoke, but strategy. He was calmer now, and his
cheeks were pale again. He was looking into the middle distance and thinking.
Then he said, "It's probably more important now to think
about Sir Charles and what he'll do, or Mrs. Coulter. Maybe if she's got this
special bodyguard they were talking about, these soldiers who'd had their
daemons cut away, maybe Sir Charles is right and they'll be able to ignore the
Specters. You know what I think? I think what they eat, the Specters, is
people's daemons."
"But children have daemons too. And they don't attack
children. It can't be that."
"Then it must be the difference between children's daemons
and grownups'," Will said. "There is a difference, isn't there? You
told me once that grownups' daemons don't change shape. It must be something to
do with that. And if these soldiers of hers haven't got daemons at all, maybe
the Specters won't attack them either, like Sir Charles said...."
"Yeah!" she said. "Could be. And she wouldn't be
afraid of Specters anyway. She en't afraid of anything. And she's so clever,
Will, honest, and she's so ruthless and cruel, she could boss them, I bet she
could. She could command them like she does people and they'd have to obey her,
I bet. Lord Boreal is strong and clever, but she'll have him doing what she
wants in no time. Oh, Will, I'm getting scared again, thinking what she might
do ... I'm going to ask the alethiometer, like you said. Thank goodness we got
that back, anyway."
She unfolded the velvet bundle and ran her hands lovingly over the
heavy gold.
"I'm going to ask about your father," she said,
"and how we can find him. See, I put the hands to point at—"
"No. Ask about my mother first. I want to know if she's all
right."
Lyra nodded, and turned the hands before laying the alethiometer
in her lap and tucking her hair behind her ears to look down and concentrate.
Will watched the light needle swing purposefully around the dial, darting and stopping
and darting on as swiftly as a swallow feeding, and he watched Lyra's eyes, so
blue and fierce and full of clear understanding.
Then she blinked and looked up.
"She's safe still," she said. "This friend that's
looking after her, she's ever so kind. No one knows where your mother is, and
the friend won't give her away."
Will hadn't realized how worried he'd been. At this good news he
felt himself relax, and as a little tension left his body, he felt the pain of
his wound more sharply.
"Thank you," he said. "All right, now ask about my
father—"
But before she could even begin, they heard a shout from outside.
They looked out at once. At the lower edge of the park in front of
the first houses of the city there was a belt of trees, and something was stirring
there. Pantalaimon became a lynx at once and padded to the open door, gazing
fiercely down.
"It's the children," he said.
Both Will and Lyra stood up. The children were coming out of the
trees, one by one, maybe forty or fifty of them. Many of them were carrying
sticks. At their head was the boy in the striped T-shirt, and it wasn't a stick
that he was carrying: it was a pistol.
"There's Angelica," Lyra whispered, pointing.
Angelica was beside the leading boy, tugging at his arm, urging
him on. Just behind them her little brother, Paolo, was shrieking with
excitement, and the other children, too, were yelling and waving their fists in
the air. Two of them were lugging heavy rifles. Will had seen children in this
mood before, but never so many of them, and the ones in his town didn't carry
guns.
They were shouting, and Will managed to make out Angelica's voice
high over them all: "You killed my brother and you stole the knife! You
murderers! You made the Specters get him! You killed him, and we'll kill you!
You ain' gonna get away! We gonna kill you same as you killed him!"
"Will, you could cut a window!" Lyra said urgently,
clutching his good arm. "We could get away, easy—"
"Yeah, and where
would we be? In Oxford, a few yards from Sir Charles's house, in broad
daylight. Probably in the main street in front of a bus. I can't just cut
through anywhere and expect to be safe—I've got to look first and see where we
are, and that'd take too long. There's a forest or woods or something behind
this house. If we can get up there in the trees, we'11 be safer."
Lyra looked out the window, furious. "They must've seen us
last night," she said. "I bet they was too cowardly to attack us on
their own, so they rounded up all them others.... I should have killed her
yesterday! She's as bad as her brother. I'd like to—"
"Stop talking and come on," said Will.
He checked that the knife was strapped to his belt, and Lyra put
on her little rucksack with the alethiometer and the letters from Will's
father. They ran through the echoing hall, along the corridor and into the
kitchen, through the scullery, and into a cobbled court beyond it. A gate in
the wall led out into a kitchen garden, where beds of vegetables and herbs lay
baking under the morning sun.
The edge of the woods was a few hundred yards away, up a slope of
grass that was horribly exposed. On a knoll to the left, closer than the trees,
stood a little building, a circular temple-like structure with columns all the
way around and an upper story open like a balcony from which to view the city.
"Let's run," said Will, though he felt less like running
than like lying down and closing his eyes.
With Pantalaimon flying above to keep watch, they set off across
the grass. But it was tussocky and ankle-high, and Will couldn't run more than
a few steps before he felt too dizzy to carry on. He slowed to a walk.
Lyra looked back. The children hadn't seen them yet; they were
still at the front of the house. Maybe they'd take a while to look through all
the rooms....
But Pantalaimon chirruped in alarm. There was a boy standing at an
open window on the second floor of the villa, pointing at them. They heard a
shout.
"Come on, Will," Lyra said.
She tugged at his good
arm, helping him, lifting him. He tried to respond, but he didn't have the
strength. He could only walk.
"All right," he said, "we can't get to the trees.
Too far away. So we'll go to that temple place. If we shut the door, maybe we
can hold them out for long enough to cut through after all."
Pantalaimon darted ahead, and Lyra gasped and called to him
breathlessly, making him pause. Will could almost see the bond between them,
the daemon tugging and the girl responding. He stumbled through the thick grass
with Lyra running ahead to see, and then back to help, and then ahead again,
until they reached the stone pavement around the temple.
The door under the little portico was unlocked, and they ran
inside to find themselves in a bare circular room with several statues of
goddesses in niches around the wall. In the very center a spiral staircase of
wrought iron led up through an opening to the floor above. There was no key to
lock the door, so they clambered up the staircase and onto the floorboards of
an upper level that was really a viewing place, where people could come to take
the air and look out over the city; for there were no windows or walls, simply
a series of open arches all the way around supporting the roof. In each archway
a windowsill at waist height was broad enough to lean on, and below them the
pantiled roof ran down in a gentle slope all around to the gutter.
As they looked out, they could see the forest behind,
tanta-lizingly close; and the villa below them, and beyond that the open park,
and then the red-brown roofs of the city, with the tower rising to the left. There
were carrion crows wheeling in the air above the gray battlements, and Will
felt a jolt of sickness as he realized what had drawn them there.
But there was no time to take in the view; first they had to deal
with the children, who were racing up toward the temple, screaming with rage
and excitement. The leading boy slowed down and held up his pistol and fired
two or three wild shots toward the temple. Then they came on again, yelling:
"Thiefs!"
"Murderers!"
"We gonna kill you!"
"You got our
knife!"
"You don' come from here!"
"You gonna die!"
Will took no notice. He had the knife out already, and swiftly cut
a small window to see where they were—only to recoil at once. Lyra looked too,
and fell back in disappointment. They were fifty feet or so in the air, high
above a main road busy with traffic.
"Of course," Will said bitterly, "we came up a
slope.... Well, we're stuck. We'll have to hold them off, that's all."
Another few seconds and the first children were crowding in
through the door. The sound of their yelling echoed in the temple and
reinforced their wildness; and then came a gunshot, enormously loud, and
another, and the screaming took another tone, and then the stairs began to
shake as the first ones climbed up.
Lyra was crouching paralyzed against the wall, but Will still had
the knife in his hand. He scrambled over to the opening in the floor and
reached down and sliced through the iron of the top step as if it were paper.
With nothing to hold it up, the staircase began to bend under the weight of the
children crowding on it, and then it swung down and fell with a huge crash.
More screams, more confusion; and again the gun went off, but this time by
accident, it seemed. Someone had been hit, and the scream was of pain this
time, and Will looked down to see a tangle of writhing bodies covered in
plaster and dust and blood.
They weren't individual children: they were a single mass, like a
tide. They surged below him and leaped up in fury, snatching, threatening,
screaming, spitting, but they couldn't reach.
Then someone called, and they looked to the door, and those who
could move surged toward it, leaving several pinned beneath the iron stairs or
dazed and struggling to get up from the rubble-strewn floor.
Will soon realized why they'd run out. There was a scrabbling
sound from the roof outside the arches, and he ran to the windowsill to see the
first pair of hands grasping the edge of the pantiles and pulling up. Someone
was pushing from behind, and then came another head and another pair of hands, as
they clambered over the shoulders and backs of those below and swarmed up onto
the roof like ants.
But the pantiled ridges were hard to walk on, and the first ones
scrambled up on hands and knees, their wild eyes never leaving Will's face.
Lyra had joined him, and Pantalaimon was snarling as a leopard, paws on the
sill, making the first children hesitate. But still they came on, more and more
of them.
Someone was shouting "Kill! Kill! Kill!" and then others
joined in, louder and louder, and those on the roof began to stamp and thump
the tiles in rhythm, but they didn't quite dare come closer, faced by the
snarling daemon. Then a tile broke, and the boy standing on it slipped and
fell, but the one beside him picked up the broken piece and hurled it at Lyra.
She ducked, and it shattered on the column beside her, showering
her with broken pieces. Will had noticed the rail around the edge of the
opening in the floor, and cut two sword-length pieces of it, and he handed one
to Lyra now; and she swung it around as hard as she could and into the side of
the first boy's head. He fell at once, but then came another, and it was
Angelica, red-haired, white-faced, crazy-eyed. She scrambled up onto the sill,
but Lyra jabbed the length of rail at her fiercely, and she fell back again.
Will was doing the same. The knife was in its sheath at his waist,
and he struck and swung and jabbed with the iron rail, and while several
children fell back, others kept replacing them, and more and more were
clambering up onto the roof from below.
Then the boy in the striped T-shirt appeared, but he'd lost the
pistol, or perhaps it was empty. However, his eyes and Will's locked together,
and each of them knew what was going to happen: they were going to fight, and
it was going to be brutal and deadly.
"Come on," said Will, passionate for the battle.
"Come on, then..."
Another second, and they would have fought.
But then the strangest thing appeared: a great white snow goose
swooping low, his wings spread wide, calling and calling so loudly that even
the children on the roof heard through their savagery and turned to see.
"Kaisa!" cried Lyra joyfully, for it was Serafina
Pekkala's daemon.
The snow goose called again, a piercing whoop that filled the sky,
and then wheeled and turned an inch away from the boy in the striped T-shirt.
The boy fell back in fear and slid down and over the edge, and then others
began to cry in alarm too, because there was something else in the sky. As Lyra
saw the little black shapes sweeping out of the blue, she cheered and shouted
with glee.
"Serafina Pekkala! Here! Help us! Here we are! In the
temple—"
And with a hiss and rush of air, a dozen arrows, and then another
dozen swiftly after, and then another dozen—loosed so quickly that they were
all in the air at once—shot at the temple roof above the gallery and landed
with a thunder of hammer blows. Astonished and bewildered, the children on the
roof felt all the aggression leave them in a moment, and horrible fear rushed
in to take its place. What were these black-garbed women rushing at them in the
air? How could it happen? Were they ghosts? Were they a new kind of Specter?
And whimpering and crying, they jumped off the roof, some of them
falling clumsily and dragging themselves away limping and others rolling down the
slope and dashing for safety, but a mob no longer—just a lot of frightened,
shame-faced children. A minute after the snow goose had appeared, the last of
the children left the temple, and the only sound was the rush of air in the
branches of the circling witches above.
Will looked up in wonder, too amazed to speak, but Lyra was
leaping and calling with delight, "Serafina Pekkala! How did you find us?
Thank you, thank you! They was going to kill us! Come down and land."
But Serafina and the others shook their heads and flew up again,
to circle high above. The snow goose daemon wheeled and flew down toward the
roof, beating his great wings inward to help him slow down, and landed with a
clatter on the pantiles below the sill.
"Greetings, Lyra," he said. "Serafina Pekkala can't
come to the ground, nor can the others. The place is full of Specters—a hundred
or more surrounding the building, and more drifting up over the grass. Can't
you see them?"
"No! We can't see 'em at all!"
"Already we've lost one witch. We can't risk any more. Can
you get down from this building?"
"If we jump off the roof like they done. But how did you find
us? And where—"
"Enough now. There's more trouble coming, and bigger. Get
down as best you can and then make for the trees."
They climbed over the sill and moved sideways down through the
broken tiles to the gutter. It wasn't high, and below it was grass, with a
gentle slope away from the building. First Lyra jumped and then Will followed,
rolling over and trying to protect his hand, which was bleeding freely again
and hurting badly. His sling had come loose and trailed behind him, and as he
tried to roll it up, the snow goose landed on the grass at his side.
"Lyra, who is this?" Kaisa said.
"It's Will. He's coming with us—"
"Why are the Specters avoiding you?" The goose daemon
was speaking directly to Will.
By this time Will was hardly surprised by anything, and he said,
"I don't know. We can't see them. No, wait!" And he stood up, struck
by a thought. "Where are they now?" he said. "Where's the
nearest one?"
'Ten paces away, down the slope," said the daemon. "They
don't want to come any closer, that's obvious."
Will took out the knife and looked in that direction, and he heard
the daemon hiss with surprise.
But Will couldn't do what he intended, because at the same moment
a witch landed her branch on the grass beside him. He was taken aback not so
much by her flying as by her astounding gracefulness, the fierce, cold, lovely
clarity of her gaze, and by the pale bare limbs, so youthful, and yet so far
from being young.
"Your name is Will?" she said.
"Yes, but—"
"Why are the Specters afraid of you?"
"Because of the knife. Where's the nearest one? Tell me! I
want to kill it!"
But Lyra came running before the witch could answer.
"Serafina Pekkala!" she cried, and she threw her arms
around the witch and hugged her so tightly that the witch laughed out loud, and
kissed the top of her head. "Oh, Serafina, where did you come from like
that? We were—those kids— they were kids, and they were going to kill us—did
you see them? We thought we were going to die and—oh, I'm so glad you came! I
thought I'd never see you again!"
Serafina Pekkala looked over Lyra's head to where the Specters
were obviously clustering a little way off, and then looked at Will.
"Now listen," she said. "There's a cave in these
woods not far away. Head up the slope and then along the ridge to the left. The
Specters won't follow—they don't see us while we're in the air, and they're
afraid of you. We'll meet you there. It's a half-hour's walk."
And she leaped into the air again. Will shaded his eyes to watch
her and the other ragged, elegant figures wheel in the air and dart up over the
trees.
"Oh, Will, we'll be safe now! It'll be all right now that
Serafina Pekkala's here!" said Lyra. "I never thought I'd see her
again. She came just at the right time, didn't she? Just like before, at
Bolvangar...."
Chattering happily, as if she'd already forgotten the fight, she
led the way up the slope toward the forest. Will followed in silence. His hand
was throbbing badly, and with each throb a little more blood was leaving him.
He held it up across his chest and tried not to think about it.
It took not half an hour but an hour and three quarters, because
Will had to stop and rest several times. When they reached the cave, they found
a fire, a rabbit roasting, and Serafina Pekkala stirring something in a small
iron pot.
"Let me see your wound" was the first thing she said to
Will, and he dumbly held out his hand.
Pantalaimon, cat-formed, watched curiously, but Will looked away.
He didn't like the sight of his mutilated fingers.
The witches spoke softly to each other, and then Serafina Pekkala
said, "What weapon made this wound?"
Will reached for the knife and handed it to her silently. Her
companions looked at it with wonder and suspicion, for they had never seen such
a blade before, with such an edge on it.
"This will need more than herbs to heal. It will need a
spell," said Serafina Pekkala. "Very well, we'll prepare one. It will
be ready when the moon rises. In the meantime, you shall sleep."
She gave him a little horn cup containing a hot potion whose
bitterness was moderated by honey, and presently he lay back and fell deeply
asleep. The witch covered him with leaves and turned to Lyra, who was still
gnawing the rabbit.
"Now, Lyra," she said. "Tell me who this boy is,
and what you know about this world, and about this knife of his."
So Lyra took a deep breath and began.
TWELVE
SCREEN LANGUAGE
'Tell me again," said Dr. Oliver Payne, in the little
laboratory overlooking the park. "Either I didn't hear you, or you're
talking nonsense. A child from another world?"
"That's what she said. All right, it's nonsense, but listen
to it, Oliver, will you?" said Dr. Mary Malone. "She knew about
Shadows. She calls them—it—she calls it Dust, but it's the same thing. It's our
shadow particles. And I'm telling you, when she was wearing the electrodes
linking her to the Cave, there was the most extraordinary display on the
screen: pictures, symbols .... She had an instrument too, a sort of compass
thing made of gold, with different symbols all around the rim. And she said she
could read that in the same way, and she knew about the state of mind, too—she
knew it intimately."
It was midmorning. Lyra's Scholar, Dr. Malone, was red-eyed from
lack of sleep, and her colleague, who'd just returned from Geneva, was
impatient to hear more, and skeptical, and preoccupied.
"And the point was, Oliver, she was communicating with them.
They are conscious. And they can respond. And you remember your skulls?
Well, she told me about some skulls in the Pitt-Rivers Museum. She'd found out
with her compass thing that they were much older than the museum said, and
there were Shadows—"
"Wait a minute. Give me some sort of structure here. What are
you saying? You saying she's confirmed what we know already, or that she's
telling us something new?"
"Both. I don't know. But suppose something happened thirty,
forty thousand years ago. There were shadow particles around before then, obviously—they've
been around since the Big Bang—but there was no physical way of amplifying
their effects at our level, the anthropic level. The level of human
beings. And then something happened, I can't imagine what, but it involved
evolution. Hence your skulls—remember? No Shadows before that time, lots
afterward? And the skulls the child found in the museum, that she tested with
her compass thing. She told me the same thing. What I'm saying is that around
that time, the human brain became the ideal vehicle for this amplification
process. Suddenly we became conscious."
Dr. Payne tilted his plastic mug and drank the last of his coffee.
"Why should it happen particularly at that time?" he
said. "Why suddenly thirty-five thousand years ago?"
"Oh, who can say? We're not paleontologists. I don't know,
Oliver, I'm just speculating. Don't you think it's at least possible?"
"And this policeman. Tell me about him."
Dr. Malone rubbed her eyes. "His name is Walters," she
said. "He said he was from the Special Branch. I thought that was politics
or something?"
'Terrorism, subversion, intelligence... all that. Go on. What did
he want? Why did he come here?"
"Because of the girl. He said he was looking for a boy of
about the same age—he didn't tell me why—and this boy had been seen in the
company of the girl who came here. But he had something else in mind as well,
Oliver. He knew about the research. He even asked—"
The telephone rang. She broke off, shrugging, and Dr. Payne
answered it. He spoke briefly, put it down, and said, "We've got a
visitor."
"Who?"
"Not a name I know. Sir Somebody Something. Listen, Mary, I'm
off, you realize that, don't you?"
"They offered you the
job."
"Yes. I've got to take it. You must see that."
"Well, that's the end of this, then."
He spread his hands helplessly, and said, 'To be frank... I can't
see any point in the sort of stuff you've just been talking about. Children
from another world and fossil Shadows.... It's all too crazy. I just can't get
involved. I've got a career, Mary."
"What about the skulls you tested? What about the Shadows
around the ivory figurine?"
He shook his head and turned his back. Before he could answer,
there came a tap at the door, and he opened it almost with relief.
Sir Charles said, "Good day to you. Dr. Payne? Dr. Malone? My
name is Charles Latrom. It's very good of you to see me without any
notice."
"Come in," said Dr. Malone, weary but puzzled. "Did
Oh'ver say Sir Charles? What can we do for you?"
"It may be what I can do for you," he said. "I
understand you're waiting for the results of your funding application."
"How do you know that?" said Dr. Payne.
"I used to be a civil servant. As a matter of fact, I was
concerned with directing scientific policy. I still have a number of contacts
in the field, and I heard... May I sit down?"
"Oh, please," said Dr. Malone. She pulled out a chair,
and he sat down as if he were in charge of a meeting.
"Thank you. I heard through a friend—I'd better not mention
his name; the Official Secrets Act covers all sorts of silly things—I heard
that your application was being considered, and what I heard about it intrigued
me so much that I must confess I asked to see some of your work. I know I had
no business to, except that I still act as a sort of unofficial adviser, so I
used that as an excuse. And really, what I saw was quite fascinating."
"Does that mean you think we'll be successful?" said Dr.
Malone, leaning forward, eager to believe him.
"Unfortunately, no. I must be blunt. They're not minded to
renew your grant."
Dr. Malone's shoulders slumped. Dr. Payne was watching the old man
with cautious curiosity.
"Why have you come
here now, then?" he said.
"Well, you see, they haven't officially made the decision
yet. It doesn't look promising, and I'm being frank with you; they see no prospect
of funding work of this sort in the future. However, it might be that if you
had someone to argue the case for you, they would see it differently."
"An advocate? You mean yourself? I didn't think it worked
like that," said Dr. Malone, sitting up. "I thought they went on peer
review and so on."
"It does in principle, of course," said Sir Charles.
"But it also helps to know how these committees work in practice. And to
know who's on them. Well, here I am. I'm intensely interested in your work; I
think it might be very valuable, and it certainly ought to continue. Would you
let me make informal representations on your behalf?"
Dr. Malone felt like a drowning sailor being thrown a life belt.
"Why ... well, yes! Good grief, of course! And thank you.... I mean, do
you really think it'll make a difference? I don't mean to suggest that... I
don't know what I mean. Yes, of course!"
"What would we have to do?" said Dr. Payne.
Dr. Malone looked at him in surprise. Hadn't Oliver just said he
was going to work in Geneva? But he seemed to be understanding Sir Charles
better than she was, for a flicker of complicity was passing between them, and
Oliver came to sit down, too.
"I'm glad you take my point," said the old man.
"You're quite right. There is a direction I'd be especially glad to see
you taking. And provided we could agree, I might even be able to find you some
extra money from another source altogether."
"Wait, wait," said Dr. Malone. "Wait a minute. The
course of this research is a matter for us. I'm perfectly willing to discuss
the results, but not the direction. Surely you see—"
Sir Charles spread his hands in a gesture of regret and got to his
feet. Oliver Payne stood too, anxious.
"No, please, Sir Charles," he said. "I'm sure Dr.
Malone will hear you out. Mary, there's no harm in listening, for goodness'
sake. And it might make all the difference."
"I thought you were
going to Geneva?" she said.
"Geneva?" said Sir Charles. "Excellent place. Lot
of scope there. Lot of money, too. Don't let me hold you back."
"No, no, it's not settled yet," said Dr. Payne hastily.
"There's a lot to discuss—it's all still very fluid. Sir Charles, please
sit down. Can I get you some coffee?"
"That would be very kind," said Sir Charles, and sat
again, with the air of a satisfied cat.
Dr. Malone looked at him clearly for the first time. She saw a man
in his late sixties, prosperous, confident, beautifully dressed, used to the
very best of everything, used to moving among powerful people and whispering in
important ears. Oliver was right: he did want something. And they wouldn't get
his support unless they satisfied him.
She folded her arms.
Dr. Payne handed him a mug, saying, "Sorry it's rather
primitive...."
"Not at all. Shall I go on with what I was saying?"
"Do, please," said Dr. Payne.
"Well, I understand that you've made some fascinating
discoveries in the field of consciousness. Yes, I know, you haven't published
anything yet, and it's a long way—seemingly— from the apparent subject of your
research. Nevertheless, word gets around. And I'm especially interested in
that. I would be very pleased if, for example, you were to concentrate your
research on the manipulation of consciousness. Second, the many-worlds
hypothesis—Everett, you remember, 1957 or thereabouts—I believe you're on the
track of something that could take that theory a good deal further. And that
line of research might even attract defense funding, which as you may know is
still plentiful, even today, and certainly isn't subject to these wearisome
application processes.
"Don't expect me to reveal my sources," he went on,
holding up his hand as Dr. Malone sat forward and tried to speak. "I
mentioned the Official Secrets Act; a tedious piece of legislation, but we
mustn't be naughty about it. I confidently expect some advances in the
many-worlds area. I think you are the people to do it. And third, there is a
particular matter connected with an individual. A child."
He paused there, and sipped the coffee. Dr. Malone couldn't speak.
She'd gone pale, though she couldn't know that, but she did know that she felt
faint.
"For various reasons," Sir Charles went on, "I am
in contact with the intelligence services. They are interested in a child, a
girl, who has an unusual piece of equipment—an antique scientific instrument, certainly
stolen, which should be in safer hands than hers. There is also a boy of
roughly the same age— twelve or so—who is wanted in connection with a murder.
It's a moot point whether a child of that age is capable of murder, of course,
but he has certainly killed someone. And he has been seen with the girl.
"Now, Dr. Malone, it may be that you have come across one or
the other of these children. And it may be that you are quite properly inclined
to tell the police about what you know. But you would be doing a greater
service if you were to let me know privately. I can make sure the proper
authorities deal with it efficiently and quickly and with no stupid tabloid
publicity. I know that Inspector Walters came to see you yesterday, and I know
that the girl turned up. You see, I do know what I'm talking about. I would
know, for instance, if you saw her again, and if you didn't tell me, I would
know that too. You'd be very wise to think hard about that, and to clarify your
recollections of what she said and did when she was here. This is a matter of
national security. You understand me.
"Well, there I'll stop. Here's my card so you can get in
touch. I shouldn't leave it too long; the funding committee meets tomorrow, as
you know. But you can reach me at this number at any time."
He gave a card to Oliver Payne, and seeing Dr. Malone with her
arms still folded, laid one on the bench for her. Dr. Payne held the door for
him. Sir Charles set his Panama hat on his head, patted it gently, beamed at
both of them, and left.
When he'd shut the door again, Dr. Payne said, "Mary, are you
mad? Where's the sense in behaving like that?"
"I beg your pardon?
You're not taken in by that old creep, are you?"
"You can't turn down offers like that! Do you want this
project to survive or not?"
"It wasn't an offer," she said hotly. "It was an
ultimatum. Do as he says, or close down. And, Oliver, for God's sake, all those
not-so-subtle threats and hints about national security and so on—can't you see
where that would lead?"
"Well, I think I can see it more clearly than you can. If you
said no, they wouldn't close this place down. They'd take it over. If they're
as interested as he says, they'll want it to carry on. But only on their
terms."
"But their terms would be... I mean, defense, for God's sake.
They want to find new ways of killing people. And you heard what he said about
consciousness: he wants to manipulate it. I'm not going to get mixed up in
that, Oliver, never."
"They'll do it anyway, and you'll be out of a job. If you
stay, you might be able to influence it in a better direction. And you'd still
have your hands on the work! You'd still be involved!"
"But what does it matter to you, anyway?" she said.
"I thought Geneva was all settled?"
He ran his hands through his hair and said, "Well, not
settled. Nothing's signed. And it would be a different angle altogether, and
I'd be sorry to leave here now that I think we're really on to something."
"What are you saying?"
"I'm not saying—"
"You're hinting. What are you getting at?"
"Well..." He walked around the laboratory, spreading his
hands, shrugging, shaking his head. "Well, if you don't get in touch with
him, I will," he said finally.
She was silent. Then she said, "Oh, I see."
"Mary, I've got to think of—"
"Of course you have."
"It's not that—"
"No, no."
"You don't understand—"
"Yes, I do. It's very
simple. You promise to do as he says, you get the funding, I leave, you take
over as Director. It's not hard to understand. You'd have a bigger budget. Lots
of nice new machines. Half a dozen more Ph.D.s under you. Good idea. You do it,
Oliver. You go ahead. But that's it for me. I'm off. It stinks."
"You haven't..."
But her expression silenced him. She took off her white coat and
hung it on the door, gathered a few papers into a bag, and left without a word.
As soon as she'd gone, he took Sir Charles's card and picked up the phone.
Several hours later, just before midnight in fact, Dr. Malone
parked her car outside the science building and let herself in at the side
entrance. But just as she turned to climb the stairs, a man came out of another
corridor, startling her so much she nearly dropped her briefcase. He was
wearing a uniform.
"Where are you going?" he said.
He stood in the way, bulky, his eyes hardly visible under the low
brim of his cap.
"I'm going to my laboratory. I work here. Who are you?"
she said, a little angry, a little frightened.
"Security. Have you got some ID?"
"What security? I left this building at three o'clock this
afternoon and there was only a porter on duty, as usual. I should be asking you
for identification. Who appointed you? And why?"
"Here's my ID," said the man, showing her a card, too
quickly for her to read it. "Where's yours?"
She noticed he had a mobile phone in a holster at his hip. Or was
it a gun? No, surely, she was being paranoid. And he hadn't answered her
questions. But if she persisted, she'd make him suspicious, and the important
thing now was to get into the lab. Soothe him like a dog, she thought. She
fumbled through her bag and found her wallet.
"Will this do?" she said, showing him the card she used
to operate the barrier in the car park.
He looked at it briefly.
"What are you doing
here at this time of night?" he said.
"I've got an experiment running. I have to check the computer
periodically."
He seemed to be searching for a reason to forbid her, or perhaps
he was just exercising his power. Finally he nodded and stood aside. She went
past, smiling at him, but his face remained blank.
When she reached the laboratory, she was still trembling. There
had never been any more "security" in this building than a lock on
the door and an elderly porter, and she knew why the change had come about. But
it meant that she had very little time; she'd have to get it right at once,
because once they realized what she was doing, she wouldn't be able to come
back again.
She locked the door behind her and lowered the blinds. She
switched on the detector and then took a floppy disk from her pocket and
slipped it into the computer that controlled the Cave. Within a minute she had
begun to manipulate the numbers on the screen, going half by logic, half by
guesswork, and half by the program she'd worked on all evening at home; and the
complexity of her task was about as baffling as getting three halves to make one
whole.
Finally she brushed the hair out of her eyes and put the
electrodes on her head, and then flexed her fingers and began to type. She felt
intensely self-conscious.
Hello. I'm not
sure
what I'm doing.
Maybe
this is crazy.
The words arranged themselves on the left of the screen, which was
the first surprise. She wasn't using a word-processing program of any kind—in
fact, she was bypassing much of the operating system—and whatever formatting
was imposing itself on the words, it wasn't hers. She felt the hairs begin to
stir on the back of her neck, and she became aware of the whole building around
her: the corridors dark, the machines idling, various experiments running
automatically, computers monitoring tests and recording the results, the
air-conditioning sampling and adjusting the humidity and the temperature, all
the ducts and pipework and cabling that were the arteries and the nerves of the
building awake and alert ... almost conscious in fact.
She tried again.
I'm trying to do
with words what
I've
done before with
a
state of mind,
but
Before she had even finished the sentence, the cursor raced across
to the right of the screen and printed:
ASK A QUESTION.
It was almost instantaneous.
She felt as if she had stepped on a space that wasn't there. Her
whole being lurched with shock. It took several moments for her to calm down
enough to try again. When she did, the answers lashed themselves across the
right of the screen almost before she had finished.
Are you
Shadows? YES.
Are you the same
as Lyra's Dust? YES.
And is that dark
matter? YES.
Dark matter is
conscious? EVIDENTLY.
What I said to Oliver this morning, my idea about human evolution, is it |
CORRECT. BUT YOU NEED TO |
She stopped, took a deep breath, pushed her chair back, flexed her
fingers. She could feel her heart racing. Every single thing about what was
happening was impossible. All her education, all her habits of mind, all her
sense of herself as a scientist were shrieking at her silently: This is wrong!
It isn't happening! You're dreaming! And yet there they were on the screen: her
questions, and answers from some other mind.
She gathered herself and typed again, and again the answers zipped
into being with no discernible pause.
The mind that is |
NO. BUT HUMANS HAVE |
|
Us? There's more than |
UNCOUNTABLE BILLIONS |
|
But, what are you? |
ANGELS |
|
Mary Malone's head rang. She'd been brought up as a Catholic. More
than that—as Lyra had discovered, she had once been a nun. None of her faith
was left to her now, but she knew about angels. St. Augustine had said,
"Angel is the name of their office, not of their nature. If you seek the
name of their nature, it is spirit; if you seek the name of their office, it is
angel; from what they are, spirit, from what they do, angel."
Dizzy, trembling, she typed again:
And Shadow matter is what we have called spirit? |
FROM WHAT WE ARE, |
She shivered. They'd been listening to her thoughts.
And did you intervene in human evolution? |
YES |
Vengeance for—oh! RebeL angels! After the war in Heaven— Satan and the Garden of Eden—but it isn't true, is it? Is that what you |
FIND THE GIRL AND THE |
But why? |
YOU MUST PLAY THE SERPENT. |
She took her hands from the keyboard and rubbed her eyes. The
words were still there when she looked again.
Where |
GO TO A ROAD CALLED |
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But I |
BEFORE YOU GO, DESTROY |
I don't understand. |
YOU HAVE BEEN PREPARING |
Mary Malone pushed back the chair and stood up, trembling. She
pressed her fingers to her temples and discovered the electrodes still attached
to her skin. She took them off absently. She might have doubted what she had
done, and what she could still see on the screen, but she had passed in the
last half-hour or so beyond doubt and belief altogether. Something had
happened, and she was galvanized.
She switched off the detector and the amplifier. Then she bypassed
all the safety codes and formatted the computer's hard disk, wiping it clean;
and then she removed the interface between the detector and the amplifier,
which was on a specially adapted card, and put the card on the bench and
smashed it with the heel of her shoe, there being nothing else heavy at hand.
Next she disconnected the wiring between the electromagnetic shield and the
detector, and found the wiring plan in a drawer of the filing cabinet and set
light to it. Was there anything else she could do? She couldn't do much about
Oliver Payne's knowledge of the program, but the special hardware was effectively
demolished.
She crammed some papers from a drawer into her briefcase, and
finally took down the poster with the I Ching hexagrams and folded it away in
her pocket. Then she switched off the light and left.
The security guard was standing at the foot of the stairs,
speaking into his telephone. He put it away as she came down, and escorted her
silently to the side entrance, watching through the glass door as she drove
away.
An hour and a half later she parked her car in a road near
Sunderland Avenue. She had had to find it on a map of Oxford; she didn't know
this part of town. Up till this moment she had been moving on pent-up
excitement, but as she got out of her car in the dark of the small hours and
found the night cool and silent and still all around her, she felt a definite
lurch of apprehension. Suppose she was dreaming? Suppose it was all some
elaborate joke?
Well, it was too late to worry about that. She was committed. She
lifted out the rucksack she'd often taken on camping journeys in Scotland and
the Alps, and reflected that at least she knew how to survive out of doors; if
worse came to worst, she could always run away, take to the hills....
Ridiculous.
But she swung the rucksack onto her back, left the car, turned
into the Banbury Road, and walked the two or three hundred yards up to where
Sunderland Avenue ran left from the rotary. She felt almost more foolish than
she had ever felt in her life.
But as she turned the corner and saw those strange childlike trees
that Will had seen, she knew that something at least was true about all this.
Under the trees on the grass at the far side of the road there was a small
square tent of red and white nylon, the sort that electricians put up to keep
the rain off while they work, and parked close by was an unmarked white Transit
van with darkened glass in the windows.
Better not hesitate. She walked straight across toward the tent.
When she was nearly there, the back door of the van swung open and a policeman
stepped out. Without his helmet he looked very young, and the streetlight under
the dense green of the leaves above shone full on his face.
"Could I ask where you're going, madam?" he said.
"Into that tent."
"I'm afraid you can't, madam. I've got orders not to let
anyone near it."
"Good," she said. "I'm glad they've got the place
protected. But I'm from the Department of Physical Sciences— Sir Charles Latrom
asked us to make a preliminary survey and then report back before they look at
it properly. It's important that it's done now while there aren't many people
around. I'm sure you understand the reasons for that."
"Well, yes," he said. "But have you got anything to
show who you are?"
"Oh, sure," she said, and swung the rucksack off her
back to get at her purse. Among the items she had taken from the drawer in the
laboratory was an expired library card of Oliver Payne's. Fifteen minutes' work
at her kitchen table and the photograph from her own passport had produced
something she hoped would pass for genuine. The policeman took the laminated
card and looked at it closely.
'"Dr. Olive Payne,'" he read. "Do you happen to
know a Dr. Mary Malone?"
"Oh, yes. She's a colleague." "Do you know where
she is now?"
"At home in bed, if she's got any sense. Why?"
"Well, I understand her position in your organization's been
terminated, and she wouldn't be allowed through here. In fact, we've got orders
to detain her if she tries. And seeing a woman, I naturally thought you might
be her, if you see what I mean. Excuse me, Dr. Payne."
"Ah, I see," said Mary Malone. The policeman looked at
the card once more.
"Still, this seems all right," he said, and handed it
back. Nervous, wanting to talk, he went on. "Do you know what's in
there under that tent?"
"Well, not firsthand," she said. "That's why I'm
here now."
"I suppose it is. All right then, Dr. Payne."
He stood back and let her unlace the flap of the tent. She hoped
he wouldn't see the shaking of her hands. Clutching the rucksack to her breast,
she stepped through. Deceive the guardian—well, she'd done that; but she
had no idea what she would find inside the tent. She was prepared for some sort
of archaeological dig; for a dead body; for a meteorite. But nothing in her
life or her dreams had prepared her for that square yard or so in midair, or
for the silent sleeping city by the sea that she found when she stepped through
it.
THIRTEEN
AESAHAETTR
As the moon rose, the witches began their spell to heal Will's
wound.
They woke him and asked him to lay the knife on the ground where
it caught a glitter of starlight. Lyra sat nearby stirring some herbs in a pot
of boiling water over a fire, and while her companions clapped and stamped and
cried in rhythm, Serafina crouched over the knife and sang in a high, fierce
tone:
"Little knife! They tore your iron
out of Mother Earth's entrails,
built afire and boiled the ore,
made it weep and bleed and flood,
hammered it and tempered it,
plunging it in icy water,
heating it inside the forge
till your blade was blood-red, scorching!
Then they made you wound the water
once again, and yet again,
till the steam was boiling fog
and the water cried for mercy.
And when you sliced a single shade
into thirty thousand shadows,
then they knew that you were ready,
then they called you subtle one.
"But little knife, what have you done?
Unlocked blood-gates, left them wide!
Little knife, your mother calls you,
from the entrails of the earth,
from her deepest mines and caverns,
from her secret iron womb.
Listen!"
And Serafina stamped again and clapped her hands with the other
witches, and they shook their throats to make a wild ulu-lation that tore at
the air like claws. Will, seated in the middle of them, felt a chill at the
core of his spine.
Then Serafina Pekkala turned to Will himself, and took his wounded
hand in both of hers. When she sang this time, he nearly flinched, so fierce
was her high, clear voice, so glittering her eyes; but he sat without moving,
and let the spell goon.
"Blood! Obey me! Turn around,
be a lake and not a river.
When you reach the open air,
stop! And build a clotted wall,
build it firm to hold the flood back.
Blood, your sky is the skull-dome,
your sun is the open eye,
your wind the breath inside the lungs,
blood, your world is bounded. Stay there!"
Will thought he could feel all the atoms of his body responding to
her command, and he joined in, urging his leaking blood to listen and obey.
She put his hand down and turned to the little iron pot over the
fire. A bitter steam was rising from it, and Will heard the liquid bubbling
fiercely.
Serafina sang:
"Oak bark, spider silk,
ground moss, saltweed—
grip close, bind tight,
holdfast, close up,
bar the door, lock the gate,
stiffen the blood-wall,
dry the gore-flood."
Then the witch took her own knife and split an alder sapling along
its whole length. The wounded whiteness gleamed open in the moon. She daubed
some of the steaming liquid into the split, then closed up the wood, easing it
together from the root to the tip. And the sapling was whole again.
Will heard Lyra gasp, and turned to see another witch holding a
squirming, struggling hare in her tough hands. The animal was panting,
wild-eyed, kicking furiously, but the witch's hands were merciless. In one she
held its forelegs and with the other she grasped its hind legs and pulled the
frenzied hare out straight, its heaving belly upward.
Serafina's knife swept across it. Will felt himself grow dizzy,
and Lyra was restraining Pantalaimon, hare-formed himself in sympathy, who was
bucking and snapping in her arms. The real hare fell still, eyes bulging,
breast heaving, entrails glistening.
But Serafina took some more of the decoction and trickled it into
the gaping wound, and then closed up the wound with her fingers, smoothing the
wet fur over it until there was no wound at all.
The witch holding the animal relaxed her grip and let it gently to
the ground, where it shook itself, turned to lick its flank, flicked its ears,
and nibbled a blade of grass as if it were completely alone. Suddenly it seemed
to become aware of the circle of witches around it, and like an arrow it shot
away, whole again, bounding swiftly off into the dark.
Lyra, soothing Pantalaimon, glanced at Will and saw that he knew
what it meant: the medicine was ready. He held out his hand, and as Serafina
daubed the steaming mixture on the bleeding stumps of his fingers he looked
away and breathed in sharply several times, but he didn't flinch.
Once his open flesh was thoroughly soaked, the witch pressed some
of the sodden herbs onto the wounds and tied them tight around with a strip of
silk. And that was it; the spell was done.
Will slept deeply through the rest of the night. It was cold, but
the witches piled leaves over him, and Lyra slept huddled close behind his
back. In the morning Serafina dressed his wound again, and he tried to see from
her expression whether it was healing, but her face was calm and impassive.
Once they'd eaten, Serafina told the children that the witches had
agreed that since they'd come into this world to find Lyra and be her
guardians, they'd help Lyra do what she now knew her task to be: namely, to
guide Will to his father.
So they all set off; and it was quiet going for the most part.
Lyra consulted the alethiometer to begin with, but warily, and learned that
they should travel in the direction of the distant mountains they could see
across the great bay. Never having been this high above the city, they weren't
aware of how the coastline curved, and the mountains had been below the
horizon; but now when the trees thinned, or when a slope fell away below them,
they could look out to the empty blue sea and to the high blue mountains
beyond, which were their destination. It seemed a long way to go.
They spoke little. Lyra was busy looking at all the life in the
forest, from woodpeckers to squirrels to little green moss snakes with diamonds
down their backs, and Will needed all his energy simply to keep going. Lyra and
Pantalaimon discussed him endlessly.
"We could look at the alethiometer," Pantalaimon said at
one point when they'd dawdled on the path to see how close they could get to a
browsing fawn before it saw them. "We never promised not to. And we could
find out all kinds of things for him. We'd be doing it for him, not for
us."
"Don't be stupid," Lyra said. "It would be us we'd
be doing it for, 'cause he'd never ask. You're just greedy and nosy, Pan."
"That makes a change. It's normally you who's greedy and
nosy, and me who has to warn you not to do things. Like in the retiring room at
Jordan. I never wanted to go in there."
"If we hadn't, Pan,
d'you think all this would have happened?"
"No. 'Cause the Master would have poisoned Lord Asriel, and
that would've been the end of it."
"Yeah, I suppose.... Who d'you think Will's father is,
though? And why's he important?"
"That's what I mean! We could find out in a moment!"
And she looked wistful. "I might have done once," she
said, "but I'm changing, I think, Pan."
"No you're not."
"You might not be.... Hey, Pan, when I change, you'll
stop changing. What're you going to be?"
"A flea, I hope."
"No, but don't you get any feelings about what you might
be?"
"No. I don't want to, either."
"You're sulking because I won't do what you want."
He changed into a pig and grunted and squealed and snorted till
she laughed at him, and then he changed into a squirrel and darted through the
branches beside her.
"Who do you think his father is?" Pantalaimon said.
"D'you think he could be anyone we met?"
"Could be. But he's bound to be someone important, almost as
important as Lord Asriel. Bound to be. We know what we 're doing is important,
after all."
"We don't know it," Pantalaimon pointed out. "We
think it is, but we don't know. We just decided to look for Dust because Roger
died."
"We know it's important!" Lyra said hotly, and
she even stamped her foot. "And so do the witches. They come all this way
to look for us just to be my guardians and help me! And we got to help Will
find his father. Thai's important. You know it is, too, else you wouldn't have
licked him when he was wounded. Why'd you do that, anyway? You never asked me
if you could. I couldn't believe it when you did that."
"I did it because he didn't have a daemon, and he needed one.
And if you were half as good at seeing things as you think you are, you'd've
known that."
"I did know it,
really," she said.
They stopped then, because they had caught up with Will, who was
sitting on a rock beside the path. Pantalaimon became a flycatcher, and as he
flew among the branches, Lyra said, "Will, what d'you think those kids'll
do now?"
"They won't be following us. They were too frightened of the witches.
Maybe they'll just go back to drifting about."
"Yeah, probably. They might want to use the knife, though.
They might come after us for that."
"Let them. They're not having it, not now. I didn't want it
at first. But if it can kill the Specters ..."
"I never trusted Angelica, not from the beginning," Lyra
said virtuously.
"Yes, you did," he said.
"Yeah. I did, really.... I hated it in the end, that
city."
"I thought it was heaven when I first found it. I couldn't
imagine anything better than that And all the time it was full of Specters, and
we never knew...."
"Well, I won't trust kids again," said Lyra. "I
thought back at Bolvangar that whatever grownups did, however bad it was, kids
were different. They wouldn't do cruel things like that. But I en't sure now. I
never seen kids like that before, and that's a fact."
"I have," said Will.
"When? In your world?"
"Yeah," he said, awkwardly. Lyra waited and sat still,
and presently he went on. "It was when my mother was having one of her bad
times. She and me, we lived on our own, see, because obviously my father wasn't
there. And every so often she'd start thinking things that weren't true. And
having to do things that didn't make sense—not to me, anyway. I mean she had to
do them or else she'd get upset and afraid, and so I used to help her. Like
touching all the railings in the park, or counting the leaves on a bush—that
kind of thing. She used to get better after a while. But I was afraid of anyone
finding out she was like that, because I thought they'd take her away, so I
used to look after her and hide it. I never told anyone.
"And once she got afraid when I wasn't there to help her. I
was at school. And she went out and she wasn't wearing very much, only she
didn't know. And some boys from my school, they found her, and they
started..."
Will's face was hot. Without being able to help it he found
himself walking up and down and looking away from Lyra because his voice was
unsteady and his eyes were watering. He went on: "They were tormenting her
just like those kids at the tower with the cat.... They thought she was mad and
they wanted to hurt her, maybe kill her, I wouldn't be surprised. She was just
different and they hated her. Anyway, I found her and I got her home. And the
next day in school I fought the boy who was leading them. I fought him and I
broke bis arm and I think I broke some of his teeth—I don't know. And I was
going to fight the rest of them, too, but I got in trouble and I realized I
better stop because they'd find out—I mean the teachers and the authorities.
They'd go to my mother and complain about me, and then they'd find out about
how she was and take her away. So I just pretended to be sorry and told the
teachers I wouldn't do it again, and they punished me for fighting and I still
said nothing. But I kept her safe, see. No one knew apart from those boys, and
they knew what I'd do if they said anything; they knew I'd kill them another
time. Not just hurt them. And a bit later she got better again. No one knew,
ever.
"But after that I never trusted children any more than
grownups. They're just as keen to do bad things. So I wasn't surprised when
those kids in Ci'gazze did that.
"But I was glad when the witches came."
He sat down again with his back to Lyra and, still not looking at
her, he wiped his hand across his eyes. She pretended not to see.
"Will," she said, "what you said about your
mother... and Tullio, when the Specters got him... and when you said yesterday
that you thought the Specters came from your world..."
"Yes. Because it doesn't make sense, what was happening to
her. She wasn't mad. Those kids might think she was mad and laugh at her and
try to hurt her, but they were wrong; she wasn't mad. Except that she was
afraid of things I couldn't see.
And she had to do things
that looked crazy; you couldn't see the point of them, but obviously she could.
Like her counting all die leaves, or Tullio yesterday touching the stones in
the wall. Maybe that was a way of trying to put the Specters off. If they
turned their back on something frightening behind them and tried to get really
interested in the stones and how they fit together, or the leaves on the bush,
like if only they could make themselves find that really important, they'd be
safe. I don't know. It looks like that. There were real things for her to be
frightened of, like those men who came and robbed us, but there was something
else as well as them. So maybe we do have the Specters in my world, only we
can't see them and we haven't got a name for them, but they're there, and they
keep trying to attack my mother. So that's why I was glad yesterday when the
alethiometer said she was all right."
He was breathing fast, and his right hand was gripping the handle
of the knife in its sheath. Lyra said nothing, and Panta-laimon kept very
still.
"When did you know you had to look for your father?" she
said after a while.
"A long time ago," he told her. "I used to pretend
he was a prisoner and I'd help him escape. I had long games by myself doing
that; it used to go on for days. Or else he was on this desert island and I'd
sail there and bring him home. And he'd know exactly what to do about
everything—about my mother, especially—and she'd get better and he'd look after
her and me and I could just go to school and have friends and I'd have a mother
and a father, too. So I always said to myself that when I grew up I'd go and
look for my father.... And my mother used to tell me that I was going to take
up my father's mantle. She used to say that to make me feel good. I didn't know
what it meant, but it sounded important."
"Didn't you have friends?"
"How could I have friends?" he said, simply puzzled.
"Friends ... They come to your house and they know your parents and...
Sometimes a boy might ask me around to his house, and I might go or I might
not, but I could never ask him back. So I never had friends, really. I would
have liked ... I had my cat," he went on. "I hope she's all right
now. I hope someone's looking after her."
"What about the man you killed?" Lyra said, her heart
beating hard. "Who was he?"
"I don't know. If I killed him, I don't care. He deserved it.
There were two of them. They kept coming to the house and pestering my mother
till she was afraid again, and worse than ever. They wanted to know all about
my father, and they wouldn't leave her alone. I'm not sure if they were police
or what. I thought at first they were part of a gang or something, and they
thought my father had robbed a bank, maybe, and hidden the money. But they
didn't want money; they wanted papers. They wanted some letters that my father
had sent. They broke into the house one day, and then I saw it would be safer
if my mother was somewhere else. See, I couldn't go to the police and ask them
for help, because they'd take my mother away. I didn't know what to do.
"So in the end I asked this old lady who used to teach me the
piano. She was the only person I could think of. I asked her if my mother could
stay with her, and I took her there. I think she'll look after her all right.
Anyway, I went back to the house to look for these letters, because I knew
where she kept them, and I got them, and the men came to look and broke into
the house again. It was nighttime, or early morning. And I was hiding at the
top of the stairs and Moxie—my cat, Moxie—she came out of the bedroom. And I
didn't see her, nor did the man, and when I knocked into him she tripped him
up, and he fell right to the bottom of the stairs....
"And I ran away. That's all that happened. So I didn't mean
to kill him, but I don't care if I did. I ran away and went to Oxford and then
I found that window. And that only happened because I saw the other cat and
stopped to watch her, and she found the window first. If I hadn't seen her...
or if Moxie hadn't come out of the bedroom then..."
"Yeah," said Lyra, "that was lucky. And me and Pan
were thinking just now, what if I'd never gone into the wardrobe in the
retiring room at Jordan and seen the Master put poison in the wine? None of
this would have happened either."
Both of them sat silent on
the moss-covered rock in the slant of sunlight through the old pines and
thought how many tiny chances had conspired to bring them to this place. Each
of those chances might have gone a different way. Perhaps in another world,
another Will had not seen the window in Sunder-land Avenue, and had wandered on
tired and lost toward the Midlands until he was caught. And in another world
another Pantalaimon had persuaded another Lyra not to stay in the retiring
room, and another Lord Asriel had been poisoned, and another Roger had survived
to play with that Lyra forever on the roofs and in the alleys of another
unchanging Oxford.
Presently Will was strong enough to go on, and they moved together
along the path, with the great forest quiet around them.
They traveled on through the day, resting, moving, resting again,
as the trees grew thinner and the land more rocky. Lyra checked the
alethiometer: Keep going, it said; this is the right direction. At noon they
came to a village untroubled by Specters. Goats pastured on the hillside, a
grove of lemon trees cast shade on the stony ground, and children playing in
the stream called out and ran for their mothers at the sight of the girl in the
tattered clothing, and the white-faced, fierce-eyed boy in the bloodstained
shirt, and the elegant greyhound that walked beside them.
The grownups were wary but willing to sell some bread and cheese
and fruit for one of Lyra's gold coins. The witches kept out of the way, though
both children knew they'd be there in a second if any danger threatened. After
another round of Lyra's bargaining, one old woman sold them two flasks of
goatskin and a fine linen shirt, and Will renounced his filthy T-shirt with
relief, washing himself in the icy stream and lying to dry in the hot sun
afterward.
Refreshed, they moved on. The land was harsher now; for shade they
had to rest in the shadow of rocks, not under wide-spreading trees, and the
ground underfoot was hot through the soles of their shoes. The sun pounded at
their eyes. They moved more and more slowly as they climbed, and when the sun
touched the mountain rims and they saw a little valley open below them, they
decided to go no farther.
They scrambled down the
slope, nearly losing their footing more man once, and then had to shove their
way through thickets of dwarf rhododendrons whose dark glossy leaves and
crimson flower clusters were heavy with the hum of bees. They came out in the
evening shade on a wild meadow bordering a stream. The grass was knee-high and
thick with cornflowers, gentians, cinquefoil.
Will drank deeply in the stream and then lay down. He couldn't
stay awake, and he couldn't sleep, either; his head was spinning, a daze of
strangeness hung over everything, and his hand was sore and throbbing.
And what was worse, it had begun to bleed again.
When Serafina looked at it, she put more herbs on the wound, and
tied the silk tighter than ever, but this time her face was troubled. He didn't
want to question her, for what would be the point? It was plain to him that the
spell hadn't worked, and he could see she knew it too.
As darkness fell, he heard Lyra come to lie down close by, and
presently he heard a soft purring. Her daemon, cat-formed, was dozing with
folded paws only a foot or two away from him, and Will whispered,
"Pantalaimon?"
The daemon's eyes opened. Lyra didn't stir. Pantalaimon whispered,
"Yes?"
"Pan, am I going to die?"
"The witches won't let you die. Nor will Lyra."
"But the spell didn't work. I keep losing blood. I can't have
much left to lose. And it's bleeding again, and it won't stop. I'm
frightened...."
"Lyra doesn't think you are."
"Doesn't she?"
"She thinks you're the bravest fighter she ever saw, as brave
as lorek Byrnison."
"I suppose I better try not to seem frightened, then,"
Will said. He was quiet for a minute or so, and then he said, "I think
Lyra's braver than me. I think she's the best friend I ever had."
"She thinks that about you as well," whispered the
daemon.
Presently Will closed his eyes.
Lyra lay unmoving, but her
eyes were wide open in the dark, and her heart was beating hard.
When Will next became aware of things, it was completely dark, and
his hand was hurting more than ever. He sat up carefully and saw a fire burning
not far away, where Lyra was trying to toast some bread on a forked stick.
There were a couple of birds roasting on a spit as well, and as Will came to
sit nearby, Serafina Pekkala flew down.
"Will," she said, "eat these leaves before you have
any other food."
She gave him a handful of soft bitter-tasting leaves somewhat like
sage, and he chewed them silently and forced them down. They were astringent,
but he felt more awake and less cold, and the better for it.
They ate the roasted birds, seasoning them with lemon juice, and
then another witch brought some blueberries she'd found below the scree, and
then the witches gathered around the fire. They talked quietly; some of them
had flown high up to spy, and one had seen a balloon over the sea. Lyra sat up
at once.
"Mr. Scoresby's balloon?" she said.
"There were two men in it, but it was too far away to see who
they were. A storm was gathering behind them."
Lyra clapped her hands. "If Mr. Scoresby's coming," she
said, "we'll be able to fly, Will! Oh, I hope it's him! I never said
good-bye to him, and he was so kind. I wish I could see him again, I really
do...."
The witch Juta Kamainen was listening, with her red-breasted robin
daemon bright-eyed on her shoulder, because the mention of Lee Scoresby had
reminded her of the quest he'd set out on. She was the witch who had loved
Stanislaus Grumman and whose love he'd turned down, the witch Serafina Pekkala
had brought into this world to prevent her from killing him in their own.
Serafina might have noticed, but something else happened: she held
up her hand and lifted her head, as did all the other witches. Will and Lyra
could hear very faintly to the north the cry of some night bird. But it wasn't
a bird; the witches knew it at once for a daemon. Serafina Pekkala stood up,
gazing intently into the sky.
"I think it's Ruta Skadi," she said.
They kept still, tilting their heads to the wide silence,
straining to hear.
And then came another cry, closer already, and then a third; and
at that, all the witches seized their branches and leaped into the air. All but
two, that is, who stood close by, arrows at their bowstrings, guarding Will and
Lyra.
Somewhere in the dark above, a fight was taking place. And only
seconds later, it seemed, they could hear the rush of flight, the whiz of
arrows, and the grunt and scream of voices raised in pain or anger or command.
And then with a thud so sudden they had no time to jump, a
creature fell from the sky at their feet—a beast of leathery skin and matted
fur that Lyra recognized as a cliff-ghast, or something similar.
It was broken by the fall, and an arrow protruded from its side,
but still it lurched up and lunged with a flopping malice at Lyra. The witches
couldn't shoot, because she was in their line of fire, but Will was there
first; and with the knife he slashed backhand, and the creature's head came off
and rolled over once or twice. The air left its lungs with a gurgling sigh, and
it fell dead.
They turned their eyes upward again, for the fight was coming
lower, and the firelight glaring up showed a swift-rushing swirl of black silk,
pale limbs, green pine needles, gray-brown scabby leather. How the witches
could keep their balance in the sudden turns and halts and forward darts, let
alone aim and shoot, was beyond Will's understanding.
Another cliff-ghast and then a third fell in the stream or on the
rocks nearby, stark dead; and then the rest fled, skirling and cluttering into
the dark toward the north.
A few moments later Serafina Pekkala landed with her own witches
and with another: a beautiful witch, fierce-eyed and black-haired, whose cheeks
were flushed with anger and excitement.
The new witch saw the headless cliff-ghast and spat.
"Not from our
world," she said, "nor from this. Filthy abominations. There are
thousands of them, breeding like flies.... Who is this? Is this the child Lyra?
And who is the boy?"
Lyra returned her gaze stolidly, though she felt a quickening of
her heart, for Ruta Skadi lived so brilliantly in her nerves that she set up a
responding thrill in the nerves of anyone close by.
Then the witch turned to Will, and he felt the same tingle of intensity,
but like Lyra he controlled his expression. He still had the knife in his hand,
and she saw what he'd done with it and smiled. He thrust it into the earth to
clean it of the foul thing's blood and then rinsed it in the stream.
Ruta Skadi was saying, "Serafina Pekkala, I am learning so
much; all the old things are changing, or dying, or empty. I'm hungry...."
She ate like an animal, tearing at the remains of the roasted
birds and cramming handfuls of bread into her mouth, washing it down with deep
gulps from the stream. While she ate, some of the witches carried the dead
cliff-ghast away, rebuilt the fire, and then set up a watch.
The rest came to sit near Ruta Skadi to hear what she could tell
them. She told what had happened when she flew up to meet the angels, and then
of her journey to Lord Asriel's fortress.
"Sisters, it is the greatest castle you can imagine: ramparts
of basalt, rearing to the skies, with wide roads coming from every direction,
and on them cargoes of gunpowder, of food, of armor plate. How has he done
this? I think he must have been preparing this for a long time, for eons. He
was preparing this before we were born, sisters, even though he is so much
younger.... But how can that be? I don't know. I can't understand. I think he
commands time, he makes it run fast or slow according to his will.
"And coming to this fortress are warriors of every kind, from
every world. Men and women, yes, and fighting spirits, too, and armed creatures
such as I had never seen—lizards and apes, great birds with poison spurs,
creatures too outlandish to have a name I could guess at. And other worlds have
witches, sisters; did you know that? I spoke to witches from a world like ours,
but profoundly different, for those witches live no longer than our short-lifes,
and there are men among them, too, men-witches who fly as we do...."
Her tale was causing the witches of Serafina Pekkala's clan to
listen with awe and fear and disbelief. But Serafina believed her, and urged
her on.
"Did you see Lord Asriel, Ruta Skadi? Did you find your way
to him?"
"Yes, I did, and it was not easy, because he lives at the
center of so many circles of activity, and he directs them all. But I made
myself invisible and found my way to his inmost chamber, when he was preparing
to sleep."
Every witch there knew what had happened next, and neither Will
nor Lyra dreamed of it. So Ruta Skadi had no need to tell, and she went on:
"And then I asked him why he was bringing all these forces together, and
if it was true what we'd heard about his challenge to the Authority, and he
laughed.
'"Do they speak of it in Siberia, then?' he said, and I told
him yes, and on Svalbard, and in every region of the north— our north; and I
told him of our pact, and how I'd left our world to seek him and find out.
"And he invited us to join him, sisters. To join his army
against the Authority. I wished with all my heart I could pledge us there and
then. He showed me that to rebel was right and just, when you considered what
the agents of the Authority did in His name. . . . And I thought of the
Bolvangar children, and the other terrible mutilations I have seen in our own
southlands; and he told me of many more hideous cruelties dealt out in the
Authority's name—of how they capture witches, in some worlds, and burn them
alive, sisters. Yes, witches like ourselves ...
"He opened my eyes. He showed me things I had never seen,
cruelties and horrors all committed in the name of the Authority, all designed
to destroy the joys and the truthfulness of life.
"Oh, sisters, I longed to throw myself and my whole clan into
the cause! But I knew I must consult you first, and then fly back to our world
and talk to leva Kasku and Reina Miti and the other witch queens.
"So I left his chamber invisibly and found my cloud-pine and
flew away. But before I'd flown far, a great wind came up and hurled me high
into the mountains, and I had to take refuge on a clifftop. Knowing the sort of
creatures who live on cliffs, I made myself invisible again, and in the
darkness I heard voices.
"It seemed that I'd stumbled on the nesting place of the
oldest of all cliff-ghasts. He was blind, and they were bringing him food: some
stinking carrion from far below. And they were asking him for guidance.
" 'Grandfather,' they said, 'how far back does your memory
go?'
" 'Way, way back. Back long before humans,' he said, and his
voice was soft and cracked and frail.
" 'Is it true that the greatest battle ever known is coming
soon, Grandfather?'
" 'Yes, children,' he said. 'A greater battle than the last
one, even. Fine feasting for all of us. These will be days of pleasure and
plenty for every ghast in every world.'
" 'And who's going to win, Grandfather? Is Lord Asriel going
to defeat the Authority?'
" 'Lord Asriel's army numbers millions,' the old cliff-ghast
told them, 'assembled from every world. It's a greater army than the one that
fought the Authority before, and it's better led. As for the forces of the
Authority, why, they number a hundred times as many. But the Authority is
age-old, far older even than me, children, and His troops are frightened, and
complacent where they're not frightened. It would be a close fight, but Lord
Asriel would win, because he is passionate and daring and he believes his cause
is just. Except for one thing, children. He hasn't got Aesahaettr. Without
Aesahaettr, he and all his forces will go down to defeat. And then we shall
feast for years, my children!'
"And he laughed and gnawed the stinking old bone they'd
brought to him, and the others all shrieked with glee.
"Now, you can imagine how I listened hard to hear more about
this Aesahaettr, but all I could hear over the howling of the wind was a young
ghast asking, 'If Lord Asriel needs Aesahasttr, why doesn't he call him?'
"And the old ghast said, 'Lord Asriel knows no more about
Aesahaettr than you do, child! That is the joke! Laugh long and loud—'
"But as I tried to get closer to the foul things to learn
more, my power failed, sisters, I couldn't hold myself invisible any longer.
The younger ones saw me and shrieked out, and I had to flee, back into this
world through the invisible gateway in the air. A flock of them came after me,
and those are the last of them, dead over there.
"But it's clear that Lord Asriel needs us, sisters. Whoever
this yEsahasttr is, Lord Asriel needs us! I wish I could go back to Lord Asriel
now and say, 'Don't be anxious—we're coming—we the witches of the north, and we
shall help you win.' ... Let's agree now, Serafina Pekkala, and call a great
council of all the witches, every single clan, and make war!"
Serafina Pekkala looked at Will, and it seemed to him that she was
asking his permission for something. But he could give no guidance, and she
looked back at Ruta Skadi.
"Not us," she said. "Our task now is to help Lyra,
and her task is to guide Will to his father. You should fly back, agreed, but
we must stay with Lyra."
Ruta Skadi tossed her head impatiently. "Well, if you
must," she said.
Will lay down, because his wound was hurting him—much more now
than when it was fresh. His whole hand was swollen. Lyra too lay down, with
Pantalaimon curled at her neck, and watched the fire through half-closed lids,
and listened sleepily to the murmur of the witches.
Ruta Skadi walked a little way upstream, and Serafina Pekkala went
with her.
"Ah, Serafina Pekkala, you should see Lord Asriel," said
the Latvian queen quietly. "He is the greatest commander there ever was.
Every detail of his forces is clear in his mind, imagine the daring of it, to
make war on the Creator! But who do you think this Aesahaettr can be? How have
we not heard of him? And how can we urge him to join Lord Asriel?"
"Maybe it's not a him, sister. We know as little as the young
cliff-ghast. Maybe the old grandfather was laughing at his ignorance. The word
sounds as if it means 'god destroyer.' Did you know that?"
"Then it might mean us after all, Serafina Pekkala! And if it
does, then how much stronger his forces will be when we join them. Ah, I long
for my arrows to kill those fiends from Bolvangar, and every Bolvangar in every
world! Sister, why do they do it? In every world, the agents of the Authority
are sacrificing children to their cruel god! Why? Why?"
"They are afraid of Dust," said Serafina Pekkala,
"though what that is, I don't know."
"And this boy you've found. Who is he? What world does he
come from?"
Serafina Pekkala told her all she knew about Will. "I don't
know why he's important," she finished, "but we serve Lyra. And her
instrument tells her that that is her task. And, sister, we tried to heal his
wound, but we failed. We tried the holding spell, but it didn't work. Maybe the
herbs in this world are less potent than ours. It's too hot here for bloodmoss
to grow."
"He's strange," said Ruta Skadi. "He is the same
kind as Lord Asriel. Have you looked into his eyes?"
'To tell the truth," said Serafina Pekkala, "I haven't
dared."
The two queens sat quietly by the stream. Time went past; stars
set, and other stars rose; a little cry came from the sleepers, but it was only
Lyra dreaming. The witches heard the rumbling of a storm, and they saw the
lightning play over the sea and the foothills, but it was a long way off.
Later Ruta Skadi said, "The girl Lyra. What of the part she
was supposed to play? Is this it? She's important because she can lead the boy
to his father? It was more than that, wasn't it?"
"That's what she has to do now. But as for later, yes, far
more than that. What we witches have said about the child is that she would put
an end to destiny. Well, we know the name that would make her meaningful to
Mrs. Coulter, and we know that the woman doesn't know it. The witch she was
torturing on the ship near Svalbard nearly gave it away, but Yambe-Akka came to
her in time.
"But I'm thinking now that Lyra might be what you heard those
ghasts speak of—this ^ Aesahaettr. Not the witches, not those angel-beings, but
that sleeping child: the final weapon in the war against the Authority. Why
else would Mrs. Coulter be so anxious to find her?"
"Mrs. Coulter was a lover of Lord Asriel's," said Ruta
Skadi. "Of course, and Lyra is their child.... Serafina Pekkala, if I had
borne his child, what a witch she would be! A queen of queens!"
"Hush, sister," said Serafina. "Listen... and
what's that light?"
They stood, alarmed that something had slipped past their guard,
and saw a gleam of light from the camping place; not firelight, though, nothing
remotely like firelight.
They ran back on silent feet, arrows already nocked to their
bowstrings, and stopped suddenly.
All the witches were asleep on the grass, and so were Will and
Lyra. But surrounding the two children were a dozen or more angels, gazing down
at them.
And then Serafina understood something for which the witches had
no word: it was the idea of pilgrimage. She understood why these beings would
wait for thousands of years and travel vast distances in order to be close to
something important, and how they would feel differently for the rest of time,
having been briefly in its presence. That was how these creatures looked now,
these beautiful pilgrims of rarefied light, standing around the girl with the
dirty face and the tartan skirt and the boy with the wounded hand who was
frowning in his sleep.
There was a stir at Lyra's neck. Pantalaimon, a snow-white ermine,
opened his black eyes sleepily and gazed around unafraid. Later, Lyra would remember
it as a dream. Pantalaimon seemed to accept the attention as Lyra's due, and
presently he curled up again and closed his eyes.
Finally one of the creatures spread his wings wide. The others, as
close as they were, did so too, and their wings interpenetrated with no
resistance, sweeping through one another like light through light, until there
was a circle of radiance around the sleepers on the grass.
Then the watchers took to the air, one after another, rising like
flames into the sky and increasing in size as they did so, until they were
immense; but already they were far away, moving like shooting stars toward the
north.
Serafina and Ruta Skadi sprang to their pine branches and followed
them upward, but they were left far behind.
"Were they hike the creatures you saw, Ruta Skadi?" said
Serafina as they slowed down in the middle airs, watching the bright flames
diminish toward the horizon.
"Bigger, I think, but the same kind. They have no flesh, did
you see that? All they are is light. Their senses must be so different from
ours.... Serafina Pekkala, I'm leaving you now, to call all the witches of our
north together. When we meet again, it will be wartime. Go well, my
dear..."
They embraced in midair, and Ruta Skadi turned and sped southward.
Serafina watched her go, and then turned to see the last of the
gleaming angels disappear far away. She felt nothing but compassion for those
great watchers. How much they must miss, never to feel the earth beneath their
feet, or the wind in their hair, or the tingle of the starlight on their bare
skin! And she snapped a little twig off the pine branch she flew with, and
sniffed the sharp resin smell with greedy pleasure, before flying slowly down
to join the sleepers on the grass.
FOURTEEN
ALAMO GULCH
Lee Scoresby looked down at the placid ocean to his left and the
green shore to his right, and shaded his eyes to search for human life. It was
a day and a night since they had left the Yenisei.
"And this is a new world?" he said.
"New to those not born in it," said Stanislaus Grumman.
"As old as yours or mine, otherwise. What Asriel's done has shaken
everything up, Mr. Scoresby, shaken it more profoundly than it's ever been
shaken before. These doorways and windows that I spoke of—they open in
unexpected places now. It's hard to navigate, but this wind is a fair
one."
"New or old, that's a strange world down there," said
Lee.
"Yes," said Stanislaus Grumman. "It is a strange
world, though no doubt some feel at home there."
"It looks empty," said Lee.
"Not so. Beyond that headland you'll find a city that was
once powerful and wealthy. And it's still inhabited by the descendants of the
merchants and nobles who built it, though it's fallen on hard times in the past
three hundred years."
A few minutes later, as the balloon drifted on, Lee saw first a
lighthouse, then the curve of a stone breakwater, then the towers and domes and
red-brown roofs of a beautiful city around a harbor, with a sumptuous building
like an opera house in lush gardens, and wide boulevards with elegant hotels,
and little streets where blossom-bearing trees hung over shaded balconies.
And Grumman was right; there were people there. But as the balloon
drifted closer, Lee was surprised to see that they were children. There was not
an adult in sight. And he was even more surprised to see the children had no
daemons—yet they were playing on the beach, or running in and out of cafes, or
eating and drinking, or gathering bags full of goods from houses and shops. And
there was a group of boys who were fighting, and a red-haired girl urging them
on, and a little boy throwing stones to smash all the windows of a nearby
building. It was like a playground the size of a city, with not a teacher in
sight; it was a world of children.
But they weren't the only presences there. Lee had to rub his eyes
when he saw them first, but there was no doubt about it: columns of mist—or
something more tenuous than mist—a thickening of the air.... Whatever they
were, the city was full of them; they drifted along the boulevards, they
entered houses, they clustered in the squares and courtyards. The children
moved among them unseeing.
But not unseen. The farther they drifted over the city, the more
Lee could observe the behavior of these forms. And it was clear that some of
the children were of interest to them, and that they followed certain children
around: the older children, those who (as far as Lee could see through his
telescope) were on the verge of adolescence. There was one boy, a tall thin
youth with a shock of black hair, who was so thickly surrounded by the
transparent beings that his very outline seemed to shimmer in the air. They
were like flies around meat. And the boy had no idea of it, though from time to
time he would brush his eyes, or shake his head as if to clear his vision.
"What the hell are those things?" said Lee.
'The people call them Specters."
"What do they do, exactly?"
"You've heard of vampires?"
"Oh, in tales."
"The Specters feast as vampires feast on blood, but the
Specters' food is attention. A conscious and informed interest in the world.
The immaturity of children is less attractive to them."
"They're the opposite of those devils at Bolvangar,
then."
"On the contrary. Both the Oblation Board and the Specters of
Indifference are bewitched by this truth about human beings: that innocence is
different from experience. The Oblation Board fears and hates Dust, and the
Specters feast on it, but it's Dust both of them are obsessed by."
"They're clustered around that kid down there."
"He's growing up. They'll attack him soon, and then his life
will become a blank, indifferent misery. He's doomed."
"For Pete's sake! Can't we rescue him?"
"No. The Specters would seize us at once. They can't touch us
up here; all we can do is watch and fly on."
"But where are the adults? You don't tell me the whole world
is full of children alone?"
"Those children are Specter-orphans. There are many gangs of
them in this world. They wander about living on what they can find when the
adults flee. And there's plenty to find, as you can see. They don't starve. It
looks as if a multitude of Specters have invaded this city, and the adults have
gone to safety. You notice how few boats there are in the harbor? The children
will come to no harm."
"Except for the older ones. Like that poor kid down
there."
"Mr. Scoresby, that is the way this world works. And if you
want to put an end to cruelty and injustice, you must take me farther on. I
have a job to do."
"Seems to me—" Lee said, feeling for the words,
"seems to me the place you fight cruelty is where you find it, and the
place you give help is where you see it needed. Or is that wrong, Dr. Grumman?
I'm only an ignorant aeronaut. I'm so damn ignorant I believed it when I was
told that shamans had the gift of flight, for example. Yet here's a shaman who
hasn't."
"Oh, but I have."
"How d'you make that out?"
The balloon was drifting lower, and the ground was rising. A
square stone tower rose directly in their path, and Lee didn't seem to have
noticed.
"I needed to fly," said Grumman, "so I summoned
you, and here I am, flying."
He was perfectly aware of the peril they were in, but he held back
from implying that the aeronaut wasn't. And in perfect time, Lee Scoresby
leaned over the side of the basket and pulled the cord on one of the bags of
ballast. The sand flowed out, and the balloon lifted gently to clear the tower
by six feet or so. A dozen crows, disturbed, rose cawing around them.
"I guess you are," said Lee. "You have a strange
way about you, Dr. Grumman. You ever spend any time among the witches?"
"Yes," said Grumman. "And among academicians, and
among spirits. I found folly everywhere, but there were grains of wisdom in
every stream of it. No doubt there was much more wisdom that I failed to
recognize. Life is hard, Mr. Scoresby, but we cling to it all the same."
"And this journey we're on? Is that folly or wisdom?"
"The greatest wisdom I know."
'Tell me again what your purpose is. You're going to find the
bearer of this subtle knife, and what then?"
"Tell him what his task is."
"And that's a task that includes protecting Lyra," the
aeronaut reminded him.
"It will protect all of us."
They flew on, and soon the city was out of sight behind them.
Lee checked his instruments. The compass was still gyrating
loosely, but the altimeter was functioning accurately, as far as he could
judge, and showed them to be floating about a thousand feet above the seashore
and parallel with it. Some way ahead a line of high green hills rose into the
haze, and Lee was glad he'd provided plenty of ballast.
But when he made his regular scan of the horizon, he felt a little
check at his heart. Hester felt it too, and flicked up her ears, and turned her
head so that one gold-hazel eye rested on his face. He picked her up, tucked
her in the breast of his coat, and opened the telescope again.
No, he wasn't mistaken. Far to the south (if south it was, the
direction they'd come from) another balloon was floating in the haze. The heat
shimmer and the distance made it impossible to see any details, but the other
balloon was larger, and flying higher.
Grumman had seen it too.
"Enemies, Mr. Scoresby?" he said, shading his eyes to
peer into the pearly light.
"There can't be a doubt. I'm uncertain whether to lose
ballast and go higher, to catch the quicker wind, or stay low and be less
conspicuous. And I'm thankful that thing's not a zeppelin; they could overhaul
us in a few hours. No, damn it, Dr. Grumman, I'm going higher, because if I was
in that balloon I'd have seen this one already; and I'll bet they have keen
eyesight."
He set Hester down again and leaned out to jettison three bags of
ballast. The balloon rose at once, and Lee kept the telescope to his eye.
And a minute later he knew for certain they'd been sighted, for
there was a stir of movement in the haze, which resolved itself into a line of
smoke streaking up and away at an angle from the other balloon; and when it was
some distance up, it burst into a flare. It blazed deep red for a moment and
then dwindled into a patch of gray smoke, but it was a signal as clear as a
tocsin in the night.
"Can you summon a stiffer breeze, Dr. Grumman?" said
Lee. "I'd like to make those hills by nightfall."
For they were leaving the shoreline now, and their course was
taking them out over a wide bay thirty or forty miles across. A range of hills
rose on the far side, and now that he'd gained some height, Lee saw that they
might more truthfully be called mountains.
He turned to Grumman, but found him deep in a trance. The shaman's
eyes were closed, and beads of sweat stood out on his forehead as he rocked
gently back and forth. A low rhythmic moaning came from his throat, and his
daemon gripped the edge of the basket, equally entranced.
And whether it was the result of gaining height or whether it was
the shaman's spell, a breath did stir the air on Lee's face. He looked up to
check the gasbag and saw it sway a degree or two, leaning toward the hills.
But the breeze that moved
them more swiftly was working on the other balloon, too. It was no closer, but
neither had they left it behind. And as Lee turned the telescope on it again,
he saw darker, smaller shapes behind it in the shimmering distance. They were
grouped purposefully, and becoming clearer and more solid every minute.
"Zeppelins," he said. "Well, there's no hiding out
here."
He tried to make an estimate of their distance, and a similar
calculation about the hills toward which they were flying. Their speed had
certainly picked up now, and the breeze was flicking white tips off the waves
far below.
Grumman sat resting in a corner of the basket while his daemon
groomed her feathers. His eyes were closed, but Lee knew he was awake.
"The situation's like this, Dr. Grumman," he said.
"I do not want to be caught aloft by those zeppelins. There ain't no
defense; they'd have us down in a minute. Nor do I want to land in the water,
by free choice or not; we could float for a while, but they could pick us off
with grenades as easy as fishing.
"So I want to reach those hills and make a landing. I can see
some forest now; we can hide among the trees for a spell, maybe a long time.
"And meanwhile the sun's going down. We have about three
hours to sunset, by my calculation. And it's hard to say, but I think those
zeppelins will have closed on us halfway by that time, and we should have
gotten to the far shore of this bay.
"Now, you understand what I'm saying. I'm going to take us up
into those hills and then land, because anything else is certain death. They'll
have made a connection now between this ring I showed them and the Skraeling I
killed on Nova Zembla, and they ain't chasing us this hard to say we left our
wallet on the counter.
"So sometime tonight, Dr. Grumman, this flight's gonna be
over. You ever landed in a balloon?"
"No," said the shaman. "But I trust your
skill." "I'll try and get as high up that range as I can. It's a
question of balance, because the farther we go, the closer they'll be behind
us. If I land when they're too close behind, they'll be able to see where we
go, but if I take us down too early, we won't find the shelter of those trees.
Either way, there's going to be some shooting before long."
Grumman sat impassively, moving a magical token of feathers and
beads from one hand to the other in a pattern that Lee could see had some
purposeful meaning. His eagle daemon's eyes never left the pursuing zeppelins.
An hour went by, and another. Lee chewed an unlit cigar and sipped
cold coffee from a tin flask. The sun settled lower in the sky behind them, and
Lee could see the long shade of evening creep along the shore of the bay and up
the lower flanks of the hills ahead while the balloon itself, and the
mountaintops, were bathed in gold.
And behind them, almost lost hi the sunset glare, the little dots
of the zeppelins grew larger and firmer. They had already overtaken the other
balloon and could now be easily seen with the naked eye: four of them in line
abreast. And across the wide silence of the bay came the sound of their
engines, tiny but clear, an insistent mosquito whine.
When they were still a few minutes from making the shore at the
foot of the hills, Lee noticed something new in the sky behind the zeppelins. A
bank of clouds had been building, and a massive thunderhead reared thousands of
feet up into the still-bright upper sky. How had he failed to notice? If a
storm was coming, the sooner they landed the better.
And then a dark green curtain of rain drifted down and hung from
the clouds, and the storm seemed to be chasing the zeppelins as they were
chasing Lee's balloon, for the rain swept along toward them from the sea, and
as the sun finally vanished, a mighty flash came from the clouds, and several
seconds later a crash of thunder so loud it shook the very fabric of Lee's
balloon, and echoed back for a long time from the mountains.
Then came another flash of lightning, and this time the jagged
fork struck down direct from the thunderhead at one of the zeppelins. In a
moment the gas was alight. A bright flower of flame blossomed against the
braise-dark clouds, and the craft drifted down slowly, ablaze like a beacon,
and floated, still blazing, on the water.
Lee let out the breath he'd been holding. Grumman was standing
beside him, one hand on the suspension ring, with lines of exhaustion deep in
his face.
"Did you bring that storm?" said Lee.
Grumman nodded.
The sky was now colored like a tiger; bands of gold alternated
with patches and stripes of deepest brown-black, and the pattern changed by the
minute, for the gold was fading rapidly as the brown-black engulfed it. The sea
behind was a patchwork of black water and phosphorescent foam, and the last of
the burning zeppelin's flames were dwindling into nothing as it sank.
The remaining three, however, were flying on, buffeted hard but
keeping to their course. More lightning flashed around them, and as the storm
came closer, Lee began to fear for the gas in his own balloon. One strike could
have it tumbling to earth in flames, and he didn't suppose the shaman could
control the storm so finely as to avoid that.
"Right, Dr. Grumman," he said. "I'm going to ignore
those zeppelins for now and concentrate on getting us safe into the mountains
and on the ground. What I want you to do is sit tight and hold on, and be
prepared to jump when I tell you. I'll give you warning, and I'll try to make
it as gentle as I can, but landing in these conditions is a matter of luck as
much as skill."
"I trust you, Mr. Scoresby," said the shaman.
He sat back in a corner of the basket while his daemon perched on
the suspension ring, her claws dug deep in the leather binding.
The wind was blowing them hard now, and the great gasbag swelled
and billowed in the gusts. The ropes creaked and strained, but Lee had no fear
of their giving way. He let go some more ballast and watched the altimeter
closely. In a storm, when the air pressure sank, you had to offset that drop
against the altimetric reading, and very often it was a crude rule-of-thumb
calculation. Lee ran through the figures, double-checked them, and then
released the last of his ballast. The only control he had now was the gas
valve. He couldn't go higher; he could only descend.
He peered intently through the stormy air and made out the great
bulk of the hills, dark against the dark sky. From below there came a roaring,
rushing sound, like the crash of surf on a stony beach, but he knew it was the
wind tearing through the leaves on the trees. So far, already! They were moving
faster than he'd thought.
And he shouldn't leave it too long before he brought them down.
Lee was too cool by nature to rage at fate; his manner was to raise an eyebrow
and greet it laconically. But he couldn't help a flicker of despair now, when
the one thing he should do—namely, fly before the storm and let it blow itself
out—was the one thing guaranteed to get them shot down.
He scooped up Hester and tucked her securely into his breast,
buttoning the canvas coat up close to keep her in. Grumman sat steady and
quiet; his daemon, wind-torn, clung firmly with her talons deep in the basket
rim and her feathers blown erect.
"I'm going to take us down, Dr. Grumman," Lee shouted
above the wind. "You should stand and be ready to jump clear. Hold the
ring and swing yourself up when I call."
Grumman obeyed. Lee gazed down, ahead, down, ahead, checking each
dim glimpse against the next, and blinking the rain out of his eyes; for a
sudden squall had brought heavy drops at them like handfuls of gravel, and the
drumming they made on the gasbag added to the wind's howl and the lash of the
leaves below until Lee could hardly even hear the thunder.
"Here we go!" he shouted. "You cooked up a fine storm,
Mr. Shaman."
He pulled at the gas-valve line and lashed it around a cleat to
keep it open. As the gas streamed out of the top, invisible far above, the
lower curve of the gasbag withdrew into itself, and a fold, and then another,
appeared where there had been a bulging sphere only a minute before.
The basket was tossing and lurching so violently it was hard to
tell if they were going down, and the gusts were so sudden and wayward that
they might easily have been blown high into the sky without knowing; but after
a minute or so Lee felt a sudden snag and knew the grapnel had caught on a
branch. It was only a temporary check, so the branch had broken, but it showed
how close they were.
He shouted, "Fifty feet above the trees—"
The shaman nodded.
Then came another snag, more violent, and the two men were thrown
hard against the rim of the basket. Lee was used to it and found his balance at
once, but the force took Grumman by surprise. However, he didn't lose his grip
on the suspension ring, and Lee could see him safely poised, ready to swing
himself clear.
A moment later came the most jolting shock of all as the grapnel
found a branch that held it fast. The basket tilted at once and a second later
was crashing into the treetops, and amid the lashing of wet leaves and the
snapping of twigs and the creak of tormented branches it jolted to a precarious
halt.
"Still there, Dr. Grumman?" Lee called, for it was
impossible to see anything.
"Still here, Mr. Scoresby."
"Better keep still for a minute till we see the situation
clearly," said Lee, for they were wildly swaying in the wind, and he could
feel the basket settling with little jerks against whatever was holding them
up.
There was still a strong sideways pull from the gasbag, which was
now nearly empty, but which as a result was catching the wind like a sail. It
crossed Lee's mind to cut it loose, but if it didn't fly away altogether, it
would hang in the treetops like a banner and give their position away; much
better to take it in, if they could.
There came another lightning flash, and a second later the thunder
crashed. The storm was nearly overhead. The glare showed Lee an oak trunk, with
a great white scar where a branch had been torn away, but torn only partially,
for the basket was resting on it near the point where it was still attached to
the trunk.
"I'm going to throw out a rope and climb down," he
shouted. "As soon as our feet touch the ground, we can make the next
plan."
"I'll follow you, Mr. Scoresby," said Grumman. "My
daemon tells me the ground is forty feet down."
And Lee was aware of a powerful flutter of wingbeats as the eagle
daemon settled again on the basket rim.
"She can go that far?" he said, surprised, but put that
out of his mind and made the rope secure, first to the suspension ring and then
to the branch, so that even if the basket did fall, it wouldn't fall far.
Then, with Hester secure in his breast, he threw the rest of the
rope over and clambered down till he felt solid ground beneath his feet. The
branches grew thick around the trunk; this was a massive tree, a giant of an
oak, and Lee muttered a thank-you to it as he tugged on the rope to signal to
Grumman that he could descend.
Was there another sound in the tumult? He listened hard. Yes, the
engine of a zeppelin, maybe more than one, some way above. It was impossible to
tell how high, or in which direction it was flying; but the sound was there for
a minute or so, and then it was gone.
The shaman reached the ground.
"Did you hear it?" said Lee.
"Yes. Going higher, into the mountains, I think.
Congratulations on landing us safely, Mr. Scoresby."
"We ain't finished yet. I want to git that gasbag under the
canopy before daybreak, or it'll show up our position from miles away. You up
to some manual labor, Dr. Grumman?"
'Tell me what to do."
"All right. I'm going back up the rope, and I'll lower some
things down to you. One of them's a tent. You can git that set up while I see
what I can do up there to hide the balloon."
They labored for a long time, and in peril at one point, when the
branch that had been supporting the basket finally broke and pitched Lee down
with it; but he didn't fall far, since the gasbag still trailed among the
treetops and held the basket suspended.
The fall in fact made concealing the gasbag easier, since the
lower part of it had been pulled down through the canopy; and working by
flashes of lightning, tugging and wrenching and hacking, Lee managed to drag
the whole body of the balloon down among the lower branches and out of sight.
The wind was still beating the treetops back and forth, but the
worst of the rain had passed by the time he decided he could do no more. He
clambered down and found that the shaman had not only pitched the tent but had
conjured a fire into being, and was brewing some coffee.
"This done by magic?" said Lee, soaked and stiff, easing
himself down into the tent and taking the mug Grumman handed him.
"No, you can thank the Boy Scouts for this," said
Grumman. "Do they have Boy Scouts in your world? 'Be prepared.' Of all the
ways of starting a fire, the best is dry matches. I never travel without them.
We could do worse than this as a campsite, Mr. Scoresby."
"You heard those zeppelins again?"
Grumman held up his hand. Lee listened, and sure enough, there was
that engine sound, easier to make out now that the rain had eased a little.
"They've been over twice now," said Grumman. "They
don't know where we are, but they know we're here somewhere."
And a minute later a flickering glow came from somewhere in the
direction the zeppelin had flown. It was less bright than lightning, but it was
persistent, and Lee knew it for a flare.
"Best put out the fire, Dr. Grumman," he said,
"sorry as I am to do without it. I think that canopy's thick, but you
never know. I'm going to sleep now, wet through or not."
"You will be dry by the morning," said the shaman.
He took a handful of wet earth and pressed it down over the
flames, and Lee struggled to lie down in the little tent and closed his eyes.
He had strange and powerful dreams. At one point he was convinced
he had awoken to see the shaman sitting cross-legged, wreathed in flames, and
the flames were rapidly consuming his flesh to leave only a white skeleton
behind, still seated in a mound of glowing ash. Lee looked for Hester in alarm,
and found her sleeping, which never happened, for when he was awake, so was
she. So when he found her asleep, his laconic, whip-tongued daemon looking so
gentle and vulnerable, he was moved by the strangeness of it, and he lay down
uneasily beside her, awake in his dream, but really asleep, and he dreamed he
lay awake for a long time.
Another dream focused on Grumman, too. Lee seemed to see the
shaman shaking a feather-trimmed rattle and commanding something to obey him.
The something, Lee saw with a touch of nausea, was a Specter, like the ones
they'd seen from the balloon. It was tall and nearly invisible, and it invoked
such a gut-churning revulsion in Lee that he nearly woke in terror. But Grumman
was directing it fearlessly, and coming to no harm either, because the thing
listened closely to him and then drifted upward like a soap bubble until it was
lost in the canopy.
Then his exhausting night took another turn, for he was in the
cockpit of a zeppelin, watching the pilot. In fact, he was sitting in the
copilot's seat, and they were cruising over the forest, looking down at the
wildly tossing treetops, a wild sea of leaf and branch. Then that Specter was
in the cabin with them.
Pinioned in his dream, Lee could neither move nor cry out, and he
suffered the terror of the pilot as the man became aware of what was happening
to him.
The Specter was leaning over the pilot and pressing what would be
its face to his. His daemon, a finch, fluttered and shrieked and tried to pull
away, only to fall half-fainting on the instrument panel. The pilot turned his
face to Lee and put out a hand, but Lee had no power of movement. The anguish
in the man's eyes was wrenching. Something true and living was being drained
from him, and his daemon fluttered weakly and called in a wild high call, but
she was dying.
Then she vanished. But the pilot was still alive. His eyes became
filmy and dull, and his reaching hand fell back with a limp thud against the
throttle. He was alive but not alive; he was indifferent to everything.
And Lee sat and watched helplessly as the zeppelin flew on
directly into a scarp of the mountains that rose up before them.
The pilot watched it rear
up in the window, but nothing could interest him. Lee pushed back against the
seat in horror, but nothing happened to stop it, and at the moment of impact he
cried, "Hester!"
And woke.
He was in the tent, safe, and Hester nibbled his chin. He was
sweating. The shaman was sitting cross-legged, but a shiver passed over Lee as
he saw that the eagle daemon was not there near him. Clearly this forest was a
bad place, full of haunting phantasms.
Then he became aware of the light by which he was seeing the
shaman, because the fire was long out, and the darkness of the forest was
profound. Some distant flicker picked out the tree trunks and the undersides of
dripping leaves, and Lee knew at once what it was: his dream had been true, and
a zeppelin pilot had flown into the hillside.
"Damn, Lee, you're twitching like an aspen leaf. What's the
matter with you?" Hester grumbled, and flicked her long ears.
"Ain't you dreaming too, Hester?" he muttered.
"You ain't dreaming, Lee, you're seeing. If I'da known you
was a seer, I'da cured you a long while back. Now, you cut it out, you
hear?"
He rubbed her head with his thumb, and she shook her ears.
And without the slightest transition he was floating in the air
alongside the shaman's daemon, Sayan Kotor the osprey. To be in the presence of
another man's da;mon and away from his own affected Lee with a powerful throb
of guilt and strange pleasure. They were gliding, as if he too were a bird, on
the turbulent updrafts above the forest, and Lee looked around through the dark
air, now suffused with a pallid glow from the full moon that occasionally
glared through a brief rent in the cloud cover and made the treetops ring with
silver.
The eagle daemon uttered a harsh scream, and from below came in a
thousand different voices the calls of a thousand birds: the too-whoo of owls,
the alarm shriek of little sparrows, the liquid music of the nightingale. Sayan
Kotor was calling them. And in answer they came, every bird in the forest,
whether they had been gliding in the hunt on silent wings or roosting asleep;
they came fluttering upward in their thousands through the tumbling air.
And Lee felt whatever bird nature he was sharing respond with joy
to the command of the eagle queen, and whatever humanness he had left felt the
strangest of pleasures: that of offering eager obedience to a stronger power
that was wholly right. And he wheeled and turned with the rest of the mighty
flock, a hundred different species all turning as one in the magnetic will of
the eagle, and saw against the silver cloud rack the hateful dark regularity of
a zeppelin.
They all knew exactly what they must do. And they streamed toward
the airship, the swiftest reaching it first, but none so swiftly as Sayan
Kotor; the tiny wrens and finches, the darting swifts, the silent-winged
owls—within a minute the craft was laden with them, their claws scrabbling for
purchase on the oiled silk or puncturing it to gain a hold.
They avoided the engine, though some were drawn into it and dashed
to pieces by the slicing propellers. Most of the birds simply perched on the
body of the zeppelin, and those that came next seized on to them, until they
covered not only the whole body of the craft (now venting hydrogen through a
thousand tiny claw holes) but the windows of the cabin too, and the struts and
cables—every square inch of room had a bird, two birds, three or more, clinging
to it.
The pilot was helpless. Under the weight of the birds the craft
began to sink farther and farther down, and then another of those sudden cruel
scarps appeared, shouldering up out of the night and of course quite invisible
to the men inside the zeppelin, who were swinging their guns wildly and firing
at random.
At the last moment Sayan Kotor screamed, and a thunder of
wingbeats drowned even the roar of the engine as every bird took off and flew
away. And the men in the cabin had four or five horrified seconds of knowledge
before the zeppelin crashed and burst into flames.
Fire, heat, flames ... Lee woke up again, his body as hot as if
he'd been lying in the desert sun.
Outside the tent there was still the endless drip-drip of wet
leaves on the canvas, but the storm was over. Pale gray light seeped in, and
Lee propped himself up to find Hester blinking beside him and the shaman
wrapped in a blanket so deeply asleep he might have been dead, had not Sayan
Kotor been perched asleep on a fallen branch outside.
The only sound apart from the drip of water was the normal forest
birdsong. No engines in the sky, no enemy voices; so Lee thought it might be
safe to light the fire, and after a struggle he got it going and brewed some
coffee.
"What now, Hester?" he said.
"Depends. There was four of those zeppelins, and he destroyed
three."
"I mean, have we discharged our duty?"
She flicked her ears and said, "Don't remember no
contract."
"It ain't a contractual thing. It's a moral thing."
"We got one more zeppelin to think about before you start
fretting about morals, Lee. There's thirty, forty men with guns all coming for
us. Imperial soldiers, what's more. Survival first, morals later."
She was right, of course, and as he sipped the scalding brew and
smoked a cigar, with the daylight gradually growing stronger, he wondered what
he would do if he were in charge of the one remaining zeppelin. Withdraw and
wait for full daylight, no doubt, and fly high enough to scan the edge of the
forest over a wide area, so he could see when Lee and Grumman broke cover.
The osprey daemon Sayan K6tor awoke, and stretched her great wings
above where Lee was sitting. Hester looked up and turned her head this way and
that, looking at the mighty daemon with each golden eye hi turn, and a moment
later the shaman himself came out of the tent.
"Busy night," Lee remarked.
"A busy day to come. We must leave the forest at once, Mr.
Scoresby. They are going to burn it."
Lee looked around incredulously at the soaking vegetation and
said, "How?"
"They have an engine that throws out a kind of naphtha
blended with potash, which ignites when it touches water. The Imperial Navy
developed it to use in their war with Nippon. If the forest is saturated, it
will catch all the more quickly."
"You can see that, can you?"
"As clearly as you saw what happened to the zeppelins during
the night. Pack what you want to carry, and come away now."
Lee rubbed his jaw. The most valuable things he owned were also
the most portable—namely, the instruments from the balloon—so he retrieved them
from the basket, stowed them carefully in a knapsack, and made sure his rifle
was loaded and dry. He left the basket, the rigging, and the gasbag where they
lay, tangled and twisted among the branches. From now on he was an aeronaut no
more, unless by some miracle he escaped with his life and found enough money to
buy another balloon. Now he had to move like an insect along the surface of the
earth.
They smelled the smoke before they heard the flames, because a
breeze from the sea was lifting it inland. By the time they reached the edge of
the trees they could hear the fire, a deep and greedy roar.
"Why didn't they do this last night?" said Lee.
"They could have barbecued us in our sleep."
"I guess they want to catch us alive," Grumman replied,
stripping a branch of its leaves so he could use it as a walking stick,
"and they're waiting to see where we leave the forest."
And sure enough, the drone of the zeppelin soon became audible
even over the sound of the flames and of their own labored breathing, for they
were hurrying now, clambering upward over roots and rocks and fallen tree
trunks and stopping only to gather breath. Sayan Kotor, flying high, swooped
down to tell them how much progress they were making, and how far behind the
flames were; though it wasn't long before they could see smoke above the trees
behind them, and then a streaming banner of flame.
Creatures of the forest—squirrels, birds, wild boar—were fleeing
with them, and a chorus of squealings, shriekings, alarm calls of every sort
rose around them. The two travelers struggled on toward the edge of the tree
line, which was not far ahead; and then they reached it, as wave after wave of
heat rolled up at them from the roaring billows of flame that now soared fifty
feet into the air. Trees blazed like torches; the sap in their veins boiled and
split them asunder, the pitch in the conifers caught like naphtha, the twigs
seemed to blossom with ferocious orange flowers all in a moment.
Gasping, Lee and Grumman forced themselves up the steep slope of
rocks and scree. Half the sky was obscured by smoke and heat shimmer, but high
above there floated the squat shape of the one remaining zeppelin—too far away,
Lee thought hopefully, to see them even through binoculars.
The mountainside rose sheer and impassable ahead of them. There
was only one route out of the trap they were in, and that was a narrow defile
ahead, where a dry riverbed emerged from a fold in the cuffs.
Lee pointed, and Grumman said, "My thoughts exactly, Mr.
Scoresby."
His daemon, gliding and circling above, tipped her wings and sped
to the ravine on a billowing updraft. The men didn't pause, climbing on as
quickly as they could, but Lee said, "Excuse me for asking this if it's
impertinent, but I never knew anyone whose daemon could do that except witches.
But you're no witch. Was that something you learned to do, or did it come
natural?"
"For a human being, nothing comes naturally," said
Grumman. "We have to learn everything we do. Sayan Kotor is telling me
that the ravine leads to a pass. If we get there before they see us, we could
escape yet."
The eagle swooped down again, and the men climbed higher. Hester
preferred to find her own way over the rocks, so Lee followed where she led,
avoiding the loose stones and moving as swiftly as he could over the larger
rocks, making all the time for the little gulch.
Lee was anxious about Grumman, because the other man was pale and
drawn and breathing hard. His labors in the night had drained a lot of his
energy. How far they could keep going was a question Lee didn't want to face;
but when they were nearly at the entrance to the ravine, and actually on the
edge of the dried riverbed, he heard a change in the sound of the zeppelin.
"They've seen us," he said.
And it was like receiving a sentence of death. Hester stumbled,
even surefooted, firm-hearted Hester stumbled and faltered. Grumman leaned on
the stick he carried and shaded his eyes to look back, and Lee turned to look
too.
The zeppelin was descending fast, making for the slope directly
below them. It was clear that the pursuers intended to capture them, not kill
them, for a burst of gunfire just then would have finished both of them in a
second. Instead, the pilot brought the airship skillfully to a hover just above
the ground, at the highest point in the slope where he safely could, and from
the cabin door a stream of blue-uniformed men jumped down, their wolf daemons
beside them, and began to climb.
Lee and Grumman were six hundred yards above them, and not far
from the entrance to the ravine. Once they reached it, they could hold the
soldiers off as long as their ammunition held out; but they had only one rifle.
"They're after me, Mr. Scoresby," said Grumman,
"not you. If you give me the rifle and surrender yourself, you'll survive.
They're disciplined troops. You'll be a prisoner of war."
Lee ignored that and said, "Git moving. Make the gulch and
I'll hold them off from the mouth while you find your way out the other end. I
brought you this far, and I ain't going to sit back and let 'em catch you
now."
The men below were moving up quickly, for they were fit and
rested. Grumman nodded.
"I had no strength left to bring the fourth one down"
was all he said, and they moved quickly into the shelter of the gulch.
"Just tell me before you go," said Lee, "because I
won't be easy till I know. What side I'm fighting for I cain't tell, and I
don't greatly care. Just teH me this: What I'm a-going to do now, is that going
to help that little girl Lyra, or harm her?"
"It's going to help her," said Grumman.
"And your oath. You won't forget what you swore to me?"
"I won't forget."
"Because, Dr.
Grumman, or John Parry, or whatever name you take up in whatever world you end
up in, you be aware of this: I love that little child like a daughter. If I'd
had a child of my own, I couldn't love her more. And if you break that oath,
whatever remains of me will pursue whatever remains of you, and you'll spend
the rest of eternity wishing you never existed. That's how important that oath
is."
"I understand. And you have my word."
"Then that's all I need to know. Go well."
The shaman held out his hand, and Lee shook it. Then Grumman
turned and made his way up the gulch, and Lee looked around for the best place
to make his stand.
"Not the big boulder, Lee," said Hester. "You
cain't see to the right from there, and they could rush us. Take the smaller
one."
There was a roaring in Lee's ears that had nothing to do with the
conflagration in the forest below, or with the laboring drone of the zeppelin
trying to rise again. It had to do with his childhood, and the Alamo. How often
he and his companions had played that heroic battle, in the ruins of the old
fort, taking turns to be Danes and French! His childhood was coming back to
him, with a vengeance. He took out the Navajo ring of his mother's and laid it on
the rock beside him. In the old Alamo games, Hester had often been a cougar or
a wolf, and once or twice a rattlesnake, but mostly a mockingbird. Now—
"Quit daydreaming and take a sight," she said.
"This ain't play, Lee."
The men climbing the slope had fanned out and were moving more
slowly, because they saw the problem as well as he did. They knew they'd have
to capture the gulch, and they knew that one man with a rifle could hold them
off for a long time. Behind them, to Lee's surprise, the zeppelin was still
laboring to rise. Maybe its buoyancy was going, or maybe the fuel was running
low, but either way it hadn't taken off yet, and it gave him an idea.
He adjusted his position and sighted along the old Winchester
until he had the port engine mounting plumb hi view, and fired. The crack
raised the soldiers' heads as they climbed toward him, but a second later the
engine suddenly roared and then just as suddenly seized and died. The zeppelin
lurched over to one side. Lee could hear the other engine howling, but the
airship was grounded now.
The soldiers had halted and taken cover as well as they could. Lee
could count them, and he did: twenty-five. He had thirty bullets.
Hester crept up close to his left shoulder.
"I'll watch this way," she said.
Crouched on the gray boulder, her ears flat along her back, she
looked like a little stone herself, gray-brown and inconspicuous, except for
her eyes. Hester was no beauty; she was about as plain and scrawny as a hare
could be; but her eyes were marvelously colored, gold-hazel flecked with rays
of deepest peat brown and forest green. And now those eyes were looking down at
the last landscape they'd ever see: a barren slope of brutal tumbled rocks, and
beyond it a forest on fire. Not a blade of grass, not a speck of green to rest
on.
Her ears flicked slightly.
"They're talking," she said. "I can hear, but I
cain't understand."
"Russian," he said. "They're gonna come up all
together and at a run. That would be hardest for us, so they'll do that."
"Aim straight," she said.
"I will. But hell, I don't like taking lives, Hester."
"Ours or theirs."
"No, it's more than that," he said. "It's theirs or
Lyra's. I cain't see how, but we're connected to that child, and I'm glad of
it."
"There's a man on the left about to shoot," said Hester,
and as she spoke, a crack came from his rifle, and chips of stone flew off the
boulder a foot from where she crouched. The bullet whined off into the gulch,
but she didn't move a muscle.
"Well, that makes me feel better about doing this," said
Lee, and took careful aim.
He fired. There was only a small patch of blue to aim at, but he
hit it. With a surprised cry the man fell back and died.
And then the fight began.
Within a minute the crack of rifles, the whine of ricocheting bullets, the smash
of pulverizing rock echoed and rang the length of the mountainside and along
the hollow gulch behind. The smell of cordite, and the burning smell that came
from the powdered rock where the bullets hit, were just variations on the smell
of burning wood from the forest, until it seemed that the whole world was
burning.
Lee's boulder was soon scarred and pitted, and he felt the thud of
the bullets as they hit it. Once he saw the fur on Hester's back ripple as the
wind of a bullet passed over it, but she didn't budge. Nor did he stop firing.
That first minute was fierce. And after it, in the pause that
came, Lee found that he was wounded; there was blood on the rock under his
cheek, and his right hand and the rifle bolt were red.
Hester moved around to look.
"Nothing big," she said. "A bullet clipped your
scalp."
"Did you count how many fell, Hester?"
"No. Too busy ducking. Reload while you can, boy."
He rolled down behind the rock and worked the bolt back and forth.
It was hot, and the blood that had flowed freely over it from the scalp wound
was drying and making the mechanism stiff. He spat on it carefully, and it
loosened.
Then he hauled himself back into position, and even before he'd
set his eye to the sight, he took a bullet.
It felt like an explosion in his left shoulder. For a few seconds
he was dazed, and then he came to his senses, with his left arm numb and
useless. There was a great deal of pain waiting to spring on him, but it hadn't
raised the courage yet, and that thought gave him the strength to focus his
mind on shooting again.
He propped the rifle on the dead and useless arm that had been so
full of life a minute ago, and sighted with stolid concentration: one shot...
two ... three, and each found its man.
"How we doing?" he muttered.
"Good shooting," she whispered back, very close to his
cheek. "Don't stop. Over by that black boulder—"
He looked, aimed, shot. The figure fell.
"Damn, these are men
like me," he said.
"Makes no sense," she said. "Do it anyway."
"Do you believe him? Grumman?"
"Sure. Plumb ahead, Lee."
Crack: another man fell, and his daemon went out like a candle.
Then there was a long silence. Lee fumbled in his pocket and found
some more bullets. As he reloaded, he felt something so rare his heart nearly
failed; he felt Hester's face pressed to his own, and it was wet with tears.
"Lee, this is my fault," she said.
"Why?"
"The Skraeling. I told you to take his ring. Without that
we'd never be in this trouble."
"You think I ever did what you told me? I took it because the
witch—"
He didn't finish, because another bullet found him. This time it
smashed into his left leg, and before he could even blink, a third one clipped
his head again, like a red-hot poker laid along his skull.
"Not long now, Hester," he muttered, trying to hold still.
"The witch, Lee! You said the witch! Remember?"
Poor Hester, she was lying now, not crouching tense and watchful
as she'd done all his adult life. And her beautiful gold-brown eyes were
growing dull.
"Still beautiful," he said. "Oh, Hester, yeah, the
witch. She gave me..."
"Sure she did. The flower."
"In my breast pocket. Fetch it, Hester, I cain't move."
It was a hard struggle, but she tugged out the little scarlet
flower with her strong teeth and laid it by his right hand. With a great effort
he closed it in his fist and said, "Serafina Pekkala! Help me, I beg
..."
A movement below: he let go of the flower, sighted, fired. The
movement died.
Hester was failing.
"Hester, don't you go before I do," Lee whispered.
"Lee, I couldn't
abide to be anywhere away from you for a single second," she whispered
back.
"You think the witch will come?"
"Sure she will. We should have called her before."
"We should have done a lot of things."
"Maybe so ..."
Another crack, and this time the bullet went deep somewhere inside,
seeking out the center of his life. He thought: It won't find it there.
Hester's my center. And he saw a blue flicker down below, and strained to bring
the barrel over toil.
"He's the one," Hester breathed.
Lee found it hard to pull the trigger. Everything was hard. He had
to try three times, and finally he got it. The blue uniform tumbled away down
the slope.
Another long silence. The pain nearby was losing its fear of him.
It was like a pack of jackals, circling, sniffing, treading closer, and he knew
they wouldn't leave him now till they'd eaten him bare.
"There's one man left," Hester muttered. "He's
a-making for the zeppelin."
And Lee saw him mistily, one soldier of the Imperial Guard
creeping away from his company's defeat.
"I cain't shoot a man in the back," Lee said.
"Shame to die with one bullet left, though."
So he took aim with his last bullet at the zeppelin itself, still
roaring and straining to rise with its one engine, and the bullet must have
been red-hot, or maybe a burning brand from the forest below was wafted to the
airship on an updraft; for the gas suddenly billowed into an orange fireball,
and the envelope and the metal skeleton rose a little way and then tumbled down
very slowly, gently, but full of a fiery death.
And the man creeping away and the six or seven others who were the
only remnant of the Guard, and who hadn't dared come closer to the man holding
the ravine, were engulfed by the fire that fell on them.
Lee saw the fireball and heard through the roar in his ears Hester
saying, "That's all of 'em, Lee."
He said, or thought,
"Those poor men didn't have to come to this, nor did we."
She said, "We held 'em off. We held out. We're a-helping
Lyra."
Then she was pressing her little proud broken self against his
face, as close as she could get, and then they died.
FIFTEEN
BLOODMOSS
On, said the alethiometer. Farther, higher.
So on they climbed. The witches flew above to spy out the best
routes, because the hilly land soon gave way to steeper slopes and rocky
footing, and as the sun rose toward noon, the travelers found themselves in a
tangled land of dry gullies, cliffs, and boulder-strewn valleys where not a
single green leaf grew, and where the stridulation of insects was the only
sound.
They moved on, stopping only for sips of water from their goatskin
flasks, and talking little. Pantalaimon flew above Lyra's head for a while
until he tired of that, and then he became a little sure-footed mountain sheep,
vain of his horns, leaping among rocks while Lyra scrambled laboriously alongside.
Will moved on grimly, screwing up his eyes against the glare, ignoring the
worsening pain from his hand, and finally reaching a state in which movement
alone was good and stillness bad, so that he suffered more from resting than
from toiling on. And since the failure of the witches' spell to stop his
bleeding, he thought they were regarding him with fear, too, as if he was
marked by some curse greater than their own powers.
At one point they came to a little lake, a patch of intense blue
scarcely thirty yards across among the red rocks. They stopped there to drink
and refill their flasks, and to soak their aching feet in the icy water. They
stayed a few minutes and moved on, and soon afterward, when the sun was at its
highest and hottest, Serafina Pekkala darted down to speak to them. She was
agitated.
"I must leave you for a while," she said. "Lee
Scoresby needs me. I don't know why. But he wouldn't call if he didn't need my
help. Keep going, and I'll find you."
"Mr. Scoresby?" said Lyra, excited and anxious.
"But where—"
But Serafina was gone, speeding out of sight before Lyra could
finish the question. Lyra reached automatically for the alethiometer to ask
what had happened to Lee Scoresby, but she let her hand drop, because she'd
promised to do no more than guide Will.
She looked across to him. He was sitting nearby, his hand held
loosely on his knee and still slowly dripping blood, his face scorched by the
sun and pale under the burning.
"Will," she said, "d'you know why you have to find
your father?"
"It's what I've always known. My mother said I'd take up my
father's mantle. That's all I know."
"What does that mean, taking up his mantle? What's a
mantle?"
"A task, I suppose. Whatever he's been doing, I've got to
carry on. It makes as much sense as anything else."
He wiped the sweat out of his eyes with his right hand. What he
couldn't say was that he longed for his father as a lost child yearns for home.
That comparison wouldn't have occurred to him, because home was the place he
kept safe for his mother, not the place others kept safe for him. But it had
been five years now since that Saturday morning in the supermarket when the
pretend game of hiding from the enemies became desperately real, such a long
time in his life, and his heart craved to hear the words "Well done, well
done, my child; no one on earth could have done better; I'm proud of you. Come
and rest now...."
Will longed for that so much that he hardly knew he did. It was
just part of what everything felt like. So he couldn't express that to Lyra
now, though she could see it in his eyes, and that was new for her, too, to be
quite so perceptive. The fact was that where Will was concerned, she was
developing a new kind of sense, as if he were simply more in focus than anyone
she'd known before. Everything about him was clear and close and immediate.
And she might have said that to him, but at that moment a witch
flew down.
"I can see people behind us," she said. "They're a
long way back, but they're moving quickly. Shall I go closer and look?"
"Yes, do," said Lyra, "but fly low, and hide, and
don't let them see you."
Will and Lyra got painfully to their feet again and clambered on.
"I been cold plenty of times," Lyra said, to take her
mind off the pursuers, "but I en't been this hot, ever. Is it this hot in
your world?"
"Not where I used to live. Not normally. But the climate's
been changing. The summers are hotter than they used to be. They say that
people have been interfering with the atmosphere by putting chemicals in it,
and the weather's going out of control."
"Yeah, well, they have," said Lyra, "and it is. And
we're here in the middle of it."
He was too hot and thirsty to reply, and they climbed on
breathlessly in the throbbing air. Pantalaimon was a cricket now, and sat on
Lyra's shoulder, too tired to leap or fly. From time to time the witches would
see a spring high up, too high to climb to, and fly up to fill the children's
flasks. They would soon have died without water, and there was none where they
were; any spring that made its way into the air was soon swallowed again among
the rocks.
And so they moved on, toward evening.
The witch who flew back to spy was called Lena Feldt. She flew
low, from crag to crag, and as the sun was setting and drawing a wild blood-red
out of the rocks, she came to the little blue lake and found a troop of
soldiers making camp.
But her first glimpse of them told her more than she wanted to
know; these soldiers had no daemons. And they weren't from Will's world, or the
world of Cittagazze, where people's daemons were inside them, and where they
still looked alive; these men were from her own world, and to see them without
daemons was a gross and sickening horror.
Then out of a tent by the lakeside came the explanation. Lena
Feldt saw a woman, a short-life, graceful in her khaki hunting clothes and as
full of life as the golden monkey who capered along the water's edge beside
her.
Lena Feldt hid among the rocks above and watched as Mrs. Coulter
spoke to the officer in charge, and as his men put up tents, made fires, boiled
water.
The witch had been among Serafma Pekkala's troop who rescued the
children at Bolvangar, and she longed to shoot Mrs. Coulter on the spot; but
some fortune was protecting the woman, for it was just too far for a bowshot
from where she was, and the witch could get no closer without making herself
invisible. So she began to make the spell. It took ten minutes of deep
concentration.
Confident at last, Lena Feldt went down the rocky slope toward the
lake, and as she walked through the camp, one or two blank-eyed soldiers
glanced up briefly, but found what they saw too hard to remember, and looked
away again. The witch stopped outside the tent Mrs. Coulter had gone into, and
fitted an arrow to her bowstring.
She listened to the low voice through the canvas and then moved
carefully to the open flap that overlooked the lake.
Inside the tent Mrs. Coulter was talking to a man Lena Feldt
hadn't seen before: an older man, gray-haired and powerful, with a serpent
daemon twined around his wrist. He was sitting in a canvas chair beside hers,
and she was leaning toward him, speaking softly.
"Of course, Carlo," she was saying, "I'll tell you
anything you like. What do you want to know?"
"How do you command the Specters?" the man said. "I
didn't think it possible, but you have them following you like dogs.... Are
they afraid of your bodyguard? What is it?"
"Simple," she said. "They know I can give them more
nourishment if they let me live than if they consume me. I can lead them to all
the victims their phantom hearts desire. As soon as you described them to me, I
knew I could dominate them, and so it turns out. And a whole world trembles in
the power of these pallid things! But, Carlo," she whispered, "I can
please you, too, you know. Would you like me to please you even more?"
"Marisa," he murmured, "it's enough of a pleasure
to be close to you...."
"No, it isn't, Carlo; you know it isn't. You know I can
please you more than this."
Her daemon's little black horny hands were stroking the serpent
daemon. Little by little the serpent loosened herself and began to flow along
the man's arm toward the monkey. Both the man and the woman were holding
glasses of golden wine, and she sipped hers and leaned a little closer to him.
"Ah," said the man as the daemon slipped slowly off his
arm and let her weight into the golden monkey's hands. The monkey raised her
slowly to his face and ran his cheek softly along her emerald skin. Her tongue
flicked blackly this way and that, and the man sighed.
"Carlo, tell me why you're pursuing the boy," Mrs.
Coulter whispered, and her voice was as soft as the monkey's caress. "Why
do you need to find him?"
"He has something I want. Oh, Marisa—"
"What is it, Carlo? What's he got?"
He shook his head. But he was finding it hard to resist; his
daemon was twined gently around the monkey's breast, and running her head
through and through the long, lustrous fur as his hands moved along her fluid
length.
Lena Feldt watched them, standing invisible just two paces from
where they sat. Her bowstring was taut, the arrow nocked to it in readiness;
she could have pulled and loosed in less than a second, and Mrs. Coulter would
have been dead before she finished drawing breath. But the witch was curious.
She stood still and silent and wide-eyed.
But while she was watching Mrs. Coulter, she didn't look behind
her across the little blue lake. On the far side of it in the darkness a grove
of ghostly trees seemed to have planted itself, a grove that shivered every so
often with a tremor like a conscious intention. But they were not trees, of
course; and while all the curiosity of Lena Feldt and her daemon was directed
at Mrs. Coulter, one of the pallid forms detached itself from its fellows and
drifted across the surface of the icy water, causing not a single ripple, until
it paused a foot from the rock on which Lena Feldt's daemon was perched.
"You could easily tell me, Carlo," Mrs. Coulter was
murmuring. "You could whisper it. You could pretend to be talking in your
sleep, and who could blame you for that? Just tell me what the boy has, and why
you want it. I could get it for you... .Wouldn't you like me to do that? Just
tell me, Carlo. I don't want it. I want the girl. What is it? Just tell me, and
you shall have it."
He gave a soft shudder. His eyes were closed. Then he said,
"It's a knife. The subtle knife of Cittagazze. You haven't heard of it,
Marisa? Some people call it teleutaia makhaira, the last knife of all. Others
call it Aesahaettr."
"What does it do, Carlo? Why is it special?"
"Ah ... It's the knife that will cut anything. Not even its
makers knew what it could do. Nothing, no one, matter, spirit, angel,
air—nothing is invulnerable to the subtle knife. Marisa, it's mine, you
understand?"
"Of course, Carlo. I promise. Let me fill your glass
..."
And as the golden monkey slowly ran his hands along the emerald
serpent again and again, squeezing just a little, lifting, stroking as Sir
Charles sighed with pleasure, Lena Feldt saw what was truly happening: because
while the man's eyes were closed, Mrs. Coulter secretly tilted a few drops from
a small flask into the glass before filling it again with wine.
"Here, darling," she whispered. "Let's drink, to
each other...."
He was already intoxicated. He took the glass and sipped greedily,
once, again, and again.
And then, without any warning, Mrs. Coulter stood up and turned
and looked Lena Feldt full in the face.
"Well, witch," she said, "did you think I don't
know how you make yourself invisible?"
Lena Feldt was too
surprised to move.
Behind her, the man was struggling to breathe. His chest was
heaving, his face was red, and his daemon was limp and fainting in the monkey's
hands. The monkey shook her off in contempt.
Lena Feldt tried to swing her bow up, but a fatal paralysis had
touched her shoulder. She couldn't make herself do it. This had never happened
before, and she uttered a little cry.
"Oh, it's too late for that," said Mrs. Coulter.
"Look at the lake, witch."
Lena Feldt turned and saw her snow bunting daemon fluttering and
shrieking as if he were in a glass chamber that was being emptied of air;
fluttering and falling, slumping, failing, his beak opening wide, gasping in
panic. The Specter had enveloped him.
"No!" she cried, and tried to move toward it, but was
driven back by a spasm of nausea. Even in her sickened distress, Lena Feldt
could see that Mrs. Coulter had more force in her soul than anyone she had ever
seen. It didn't surprise her to see that the Specter was under Mrs. Coulter's
power; no one could resist that authority. Lena Feldt turned back in anguish to
the woman.
"Let him go! Please let him go!" she cried.
"We'll see. Is the child with you? The girl Lyra?"
"Yes!"
"And a boy, too? A boy with a knife?"
"Yes—I beg you—"
"And how many witches have you?"
"Twenty! Let him go, let him go!"
"All in the air? Or do some of you stay on the ground with
the children?"
"Most in the air, three or four on the ground always—this is
anguish—let him go or kill me now!"
"How far up the mountain are they? Are they moving on, or
have they stopped to rest?"
Lena Feldt told her everything. She could have resisted any
torture but what was happening to her dajmon now. When Mrs. Coulter had learned
all she wanted to know about where the witches were, and how they guarded Lyra
and Will, she said, "And now tell me this. You witches know something
about the child Lyra. I nearly learned it from one of your sisters, but she
died before I could complete the torture. Well, there is no one to save you
now. Tell me the truth about my daughter."
Lena Feldt gasped, "She will be the mother—she will be
life—mother—she will disobey—she will—"
"Name her! You are saying everything but the most important
thing! Name her!" cried Mrs. Coulter.
"Eve! Mother of all! Eve, again! Mother Eve!" stammered
Lena Feldt, sobbing.
"Ah," said Mrs. Coulter.
And she breathed a great sigh, as if the purpose of her life was
clear to her at last.
Dimly the witch saw what she had done, and through the horror that
was enveloping her she tried to cry out: "What will you do to her? What
will you do?"
"Why, I shall have to destroy her," said Mrs. Coulter,
"to prevent another Fall.... Why didn't I see this before? It was too
large to see...."
She clapped her hands together softly, like a child, wide-eyed.
Lena Feldt, whimpering, heard her go on: "Of course. Asriel will make war
on the Authority, and then.... Of course, of course. As before, so again. And
Lyra is Eve. And this time she will not fall. I'll see to that."
And Mrs. Coulter drew herself up, and snapped her fingers to the
Specter feeding on the witch's daemon. The little snow bunting daemon lay
twitching on the rock as the Specter moved toward the witch herself, and then
whatever Lena Feldt had undergone before was doubled and trebled and multiplied
a hundredfold. She felt a nausea of the soul, a hideous and sickening despair,
a melancholy weariness so profound that she was going to die of it. Her last
conscious thought was disgust at life; her senses had lied to her. The world
was not made of energy and delight but of foulness, betrayal, and lassitude.
Living was hateful, and death was no better, and from end to end of the
universe this was the first and last and only truth.
Thus she stood, bow in hand, indifferent, dead in life.
So Lena Feldt failed to
see or to care about what Mrs. Coulter did next. Ignoring the gray-haired man
slumped unconscious in the canvas chair and his dull-skinned daemon coiled in
the dust, the woman called the captain of the soldiers and ordered them to get
ready for a night march up the mountain.
Then she went to the edge of the water and called to the Specters.
They came at her command, gliding like pillars of mist across the
water. She raised her arms and made them forget they were earthbound, so that
one by one they rose into the air and floated free like malignant thistledown,
drifting up into the night and borne by the air currents toward Will and Lyra
and the other witches; but Lena Feldt saw nothing of it.
The temperature dropped quickly after dark, and when Will and Lyra
had eaten the last of their dry bread, they lay down under an overhanging rock
to keep warm and try to sleep. At least Lyra didn't have to try; she was
unconscious in less than a minute, curled tightly around Pantalaimon, but Will
couldn't find sleep, no matter how long he lay there. It was partly his hand,
which was now throbbing right up to the elbow and uncomfortably swollen, and
partly the hard ground, and partly the cold, and partly utter exhaustion, and
partly his longing for his mother.
He was afraid for her, of course, and he knew she'd be safer if he
was there to look after her; but he wanted her to look after him, too, as she'd
done when he was very small. He wanted her to bandage him and tuck him into bed
and sing to him and take away all the trouble and surround him with all the
warmth and softness and mother-kindness he needed so badly; and it was never
going to happen. Part of him was only a little boy still. So he cried, but he
lay very still as he did, not wanting to wake Lyra.
But he still wasn't asleep. He was more awake than ever. Finally
he uncurled his stiff limbs and got up quietly, shivering; and with the knife
at his waist he set off higher up the mountain, to calm his restlessness.
Behind him the sentry witch's robin daemon cocked his head, and
she turned from the watch she was keeping to see Will clambering up the rocks.
She reached for her pine branch and silently took to the air, not to disturb
him but to see that he came to no harm.
He didn't notice. He felt such a need to move and keep moving that
he hardly noticed the pain in his hand anymore. He felt as if he should walk
all night, all day, forever, because nothing else would calm this fever in his
breast. And as if in sympathy with him, a wind was rising. There were no leaves
to stir in this wilderness, but the air buffeted his body and made his hair
stream away from his face; it was wild outside him and wild within.
He climbed higher and higher, hardly once thinking of how he might
find his way back down to Lyra, until he came out on a little plateau almost at
the top of the world, it seemed. All around him, on every horizon, the
mountains reached no higher. In the brilliant glare of the moon the only colors
were stark black and dead white, and every edge was jagged and every surface
bare.
The wild wind must have been bringing clouds overhead, because
suddenly the moon was covered, and darkness swept over the whole
landscape—thick clouds, too, for no gleam of moonlight shone through them. In
less than a minute Will found himself in nearly total darkness.
And at the same moment Will felt a grip on his right arm.
He cried out with shock and twisted away at once, but the grip was
tenacious. And Will was savage now. He felt he was at the very end of
everything; and if it was the end of his life, too, he was going to fight and
fight till he fell.
So he twisted and kicked and twisted again, but that hand wouldn't
let go; and since it was his right arm being held, he couldn't get at the
knife. He tried with his left, but he was being jerked around so much, and his
hand was so painful and swollen, that he couldn't reach; he had to fight with
one bare, wounded hand against a grown man.
He sank his teeth into the hand on his forearm, but all that
happened was that the man landed a dizzying blow on the back of his head. Then
Will kicked again and again, and some of the kicks connected and some didn't,
and all the time he was pulling, jerking, twisting, shoving, and still the grip
held him fast.
Dimly he heard his own panting and the man's grunts and harsh
breathing; and then by chance he got his leg behind the man's and hurled
himself against his chest, and the man fell with Will on top of him, heavily.
But never for a moment did that grip slacken, and Will, rolling around
violently on the stony ground, felt a heavy fear tighten around his heart: this
man would never let him go, and even if he killed him, his corpse would still
be holding fast.
But Will was weakening, and now he was crying, too, sobbing
bitterly as he kicked and tugged and beat at the man with his head and feet,
and he knew his muscles would give up soon. And then he noticed that the man
had fallen still, though his hand still gripped as tight as ever. He was lying
there letting Will batter at him with knees and head; and as soon as Will saw
that, the last of his strength left him, and he fell helpless beside his
opponent, every nerve in his body ringing and dizzy and throbbing.
Will hauled himself up painfully, peered through the deep
darkness, and made out a blur of white on the ground beside the man. It was the
white breast and head of a great bird, an osprey, a daemon, and it was lying
still. Will tried to pull away, and his feeble tug woke a response from the
man, whose hand hadn't loosened.
But he was moving. He was feeling Will's right hand carefully with
his free one. Will's hair stood on end.
Then the man said, "Give me your other hand."
"Be careful," said Will.
The man's free hand felt down Will's left arm, and his fingertips
moved gently over the wrist and on to the swollen palm and with the utmost
delicacy on to the stumps of Will's two lost fingers.
His other hand let go at once, and he sat up.
"You've got the knife," he said. "You're the knife
bearer."
His voice was resonant, harsh, but breathless. Will sensed that he
was badly hurt. Had he wounded this dark opponent?
Will was still lying on the stones, utterly spent. All he could
see was the man's shape, crouching above him, but he couldn't see his face. The
man was reaching sideways for something, and after a few moments a marvelous
soothing coolness spread into his hand from the stumps of his fingers as the
man massaged a salve into his skin.
"What are you doing?" Will said.
"Curing your wound. Keep still.”
"Who are you?"
"I'm the only man who knows what the knife is for. Hold your
hand up like that. Don't move."
The wind was beating more wildly than ever, and a drop or two of
rain splashed onto Will's face. He was trembling violently, but he propped up
his left hand with his right while the man spread more ointment over the stumps
and wound a strip of linen tightly around the hand.
And as soon as the dressing was secure, the man slumped sideways
and lay down himself. Will, still bemused by the blessed cool numbness in his
hand, tried to sit up and look at him. But it was darker than ever. He felt
forward with his right hand and found himself touching the man's chest, where
the heart was beating like a bird against the bars of a cage.
"Yes," the man said hoarsely. 'Try and cure that, go
on."
"Are you ill?"
"I'll be better soon. You have the knife, yes?"
"Yes."
"And you know how to use it?"
"Yes, yes. But are you from this world? How do you know about
it?"
"Listen," said the man, sitting up with a struggle.
"Don't interrupt. If you're the bearer of the knife, you have a task
that's greater than you can imagine. A child... How could they let it happen?
Well, so it must be.... There is a war coming, boy. The greatest war there ever
was. Something like it happened before, and this time the right side must win.
We've had nothing but lies and propaganda and cruelty and deceit for all the
thousands of years of human history. It's time we started again, but properly
this time...."
He stopped to take in several rattling breaths.
"The knife," he
went on after a minute. "They never knew what they were making, those old
philosophers. They invented a device that could split open the very smallest
particles of matter, and they used it to steal candy. They had no idea that
they'd made the one weapon in all the universes that could defeat the tyrant.
The Authority. God. The rebel angels fell because they didn't have anything
like the knife; but now ..."
"I didn't want it! I don't want it now!" Will cried.
"If you want it, you can have it! I hate it, and I hate what it
does—"
'Too late. You haven't any choice: you're the bearer. It's picked
you out. And, what's more, they know you've got it; and if you don't use it
against them, they'll tear it from your hands and use it against the rest of
us, forever and ever."
"But why should I fight them? I've been fighting too much; I
can't go on fighting. I want to—"
"Have you won your fights?"
Will was silent. Then he said, "Yes, I suppose."
"You fought for the knife?"
"Yes, but—-"
"Then you're a warrior. That's what you are. Argue with
anything else, but don't argue with your own nature."
Will knew that the man was speaking the truth. But it wasn't a
welcome truth. It was heavy and painful. The man seemed to know that, because
he let Will bow his head before he spoke again.
'There are two great powers," the man said, "and they've
been fighting since time began. Every advance in human life, every scrap of
knowledge and wisdom and decency we have has been torn by one side from the
teeth of the other. Every little increase in human freedom has been fought over
ferociously between those who want us to know more and be wiser and stronger,
and those who want us to obey and be humble and submit.
"And now those two powers are lining up for battle. And each
of them wants that knife of yours more than anything else. You have to choose,
boy. We've been guided here, both of us— you with the knife, and me to tell you
about it."
"No! You're
wrong!" cried Will. "I wasn't looking for anything like that! That's
not what I was looking for at all!"
"You might not think so, but that's what you've found,"
said the man in the darkness.
"But what must I do?"
And then Stanislaus Grumman, Jopari, John Parry hesitated.
He was painfully aware of the oath he'd sworn to Lee Scoresby, and
he hesitated before he broke it; but break it he did.
"You must go to Lord Asriel," he said, "and tell
him that Stanislaus Grumman sent you, and mat you have the one weapon he needs
above all others. Like it or not, boy, you have a job to do. Ignore everything
else, no matter how important it seems, and go and do this. Someone will appear
to guide you; the night is full of angels. Your wound will heal now—Wait.
Before you go, I want to look at you properly."
He felt for the pack he'd been carrying and took something out,
unfolding layers of oilskin and then striking a match to light a litde tin
lantern. In its light, through the rain-dashed windy air, the two looked at
each other.
Will saw blazing blue eyes hi a haggard face with several days'
growth of beard on the stubborn jaw, gray-haired, drawn with pain, a thin body
hunched in a heavy cloak trimmed with feathers.
The shaman saw a boy even younger than he'd thought, his slim body
shivering in a torn linen shirt and his expression exhausted and savage and
wary, but alight with a wild curiosity, his eyes wide under the straight black
brows, so like his mother's....
And there came just the first flicker of something else to both of
them.
But in that same moment, as the lantern light flared over John
Parry's face, something shot down from the turbid sky, and he fell back dead
before he could say a word, an arrow in his failing heart. The osprey daemon
vanished in a moment.
Will could only sit stupefied.
A flicker crossed the corner of his vision, and his right hand
darted up at once, and he found he was clutching a robin, a daemon,
red-breasted, panicking.
"No! No!" cried the witch Juta Kamainen, and fell down
after him, clutching at her own heart, crashing clumsily into the rocky ground
and struggling up again.
But Will was there before she could find her feet, and the subtle
knife was at her throat.
"Why did you do that?" he shouted. "Why did you
kill him?"
"Because I loved him and he scorned me! I am a witch! I don't
forgive!"
And because she was a witch she wouldn't have been afraid of a
boy, normally. But she was afraid of Will. This young wounded figure held more
force and danger than she'd ever met in a human before, and she quailed. She
fell backward, and he followed and gripped her hair with his left hand, feeling
no pain, feeling only an immense and shattering despair.
"You don't know who he was," he cried. "He was my
father!"
She shook her head and whispered, "No. No! That can't be
true. Impossible!"
"You think things have to be possible? Things have to
be true! He was my father, and neither of us knew it till the second you
killed him! Witch, I wait all my life and come all this way and I find him at
last, and you kill him...."
And he shook her head like a rag and threw her back against the
ground, half-stunning her. Her astonishment was almost greater than her fear of
him, which was real enough, and she pulled herself up, dazed, and seized his
shirt in supplication. He knocked her hand away.
"What did he ever do that you needed to kill nun?" he
cried. 'Tell me that, if you can!"
And she looked at the dead man. Then she looked back at Will and
shook her head sadly.
"No, I can't explain," she said. "You're too young.
It wouldn't make sense to you. I loved him. That's all. That's enough."
And before Will could stop her, she fell softly sideways, her hand
on the hilt of the knife she had just taken from her own belt and pushed
between her ribs.
Will felt no horror, only desolation and bafflement.
He stood up slowly and looked down at the dead witch, at her rich
black hair, her flushed cheeks, her smooth pale limbs wet with rain, her lips
parted like a lover's.
"I don't understand," he said aloud. "It's too
strange."
Will turned back to the dead man, his father.
A thousand things jostled at his throat, and only the dashing rain
cooled the hotness hi his eyes. The little lantern still flickered and flared as
the draft through the ill-fitting window licked around the flame, and by its
light Will knelt and put his hands on the man's body, touching his face, his
shoulders, his chest, closing his eyes, pushing the wet gray hair off his
forehead, pressing his hands to the rough cheeks, closing his father's mouth,
squeezing his hands.
"Father," he said, "Dad, Daddy ... Father... I
don't understand why she did that. It's too strange for me. But whatever you
wanted me to do, I promise, I swear I'll do it. I'll fight. I'll be a warrior.
I will. This knife, I'll take it to Lord Asriel, wherever he is, and I'll help
him fight that enemy. I'll do it. You can rest now. It's all right. You can
sleep now."
Beside the dead man lay his deerskin pack with the oilskin and the
lantern and the little horn box of bloodmoss ointment. Will picked them up, and
then he noticed his father's feather-trimmed cloak trailing behind his body on
the ground, heavy and sodden but warm. His father had no more use for it, and
Will was shaking with cold. He unfastened the bronze buckle at the dead man's
throat and swung the canvas pack over his shoulder before wrapping the cloak
around himself.
He blew out the lantern and looked back at the dim shapes of his
father, of the witch, of his father again before turning to go down the
mountain.
The stormy air was electric with whispers, and in the tearing of
the wind Will could hear other sounds, too: confused echoes of cries and
chanting, the clash of metal on metal, pounding wing-beats that one moment sounded
so close they might actually be inside his head, and the next so far away they
might have been on another planet. The rocks underfoot were slippery and loose,
and it was much harder going down than it had been climbing up; but he didn't
falter.
And as he turned down the last little gully before the place where
he'd left Lyra sleeping, he stopped suddenly. He could see two figures simply
standing there, in the dark, waiting. Will put his hand on the knife.
Then one of the figures spoke.
"You're the boy with the knife?" he said, and his voice
had the strange quality of those wingbeats. Whoever he was, he wasn't a human
being.
"Who are you?" Will said. "Are you men, or—"
"Not men, no. We are Watchers. Bene elim. In your language,
angels."
Will was silent. The speaker went on: "Other angels have
other functions, and other powers. Our task is simple: We need you. We have
been following the shaman every inch of his way, hoping he would lead us to
you, and so he has. And now we have come to guide you in turn to Lord
Asriel."
"You were with my father all the time?"
"Every moment."
"Did he know?"
"He had no idea."
"Why didn't you stop the witch, then? Why did you let her
kill him?"
"We would have done, earlier. But his task was over once he'd
led us to you."
Will said nothing. His head was ringing; this was no less
difficult to understand than anything else.
"All right," he said finally. "I'll come with you.
But first I must wake Lyra."
They stood aside to let him pass, and he felt a tingle in the air
as he went close to them, but he ignored it and concentrated on getting down
the slope toward the little shelter where Lyra was sleeping.
But something made him stop.
In the dimness, he could see the witches who had been guarding
Lyra all sitting or standing still. They looked like statues, except that they
were breathing, but they were scarcely alive. There were several
black-silk-clad bodies on the ground, too, and as he gazed in horror from one
to another of them, Will saw what must have happened: they had been attacked in
midair by the Specters, and had fallen to their deaths, indifferently.
But—
"Where's Lyra?" he cried aloud.
The hollow under the rock was empty. Lyra was gone.
There was something under the overhang where she'd been lying. It
was Lyra's little canvas rucksack, and from the weight of it he knew without
looking that the alethiometer was still inside it.
Will was shaking his head. It couldn't be true, but it was: Lyra
was gone, Lyra was captured, Lyra was lost.
The two dark figures of the bene elim had not moved. But they
spoke: "You must come with us now. Lord Asriel needs you at once. The
enemy's power is growing every minute. The shaman has told you what your task
is. Follow us and help us win. Come with us. Come this way. Come now."
And Will looked from them to Lyra's rucksack and back again, and
he didn't hear a word they said.
END OF BOOK TWO