Building Harlequin's Moon
LARRY NIVEN
And
BRENDA COOPER
TOR
A Tom Doherty Associates Book
New York
This is a work of fiction. All the characters and events
portrayed in this novel
are either fictitious or are used fictitiously.
BUILDING HARLEQUIN'S MOON
Copyright ©2005 by Larry Niven and Brenda
Cooper
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Niven, Larry.
Building Harlequin's moon / Larry Niven and Brenda Cooper.-1st
ed.
p. cm. "A Tom Doherty Associates book." ISBN-13:
978-0765-31266-2 ISBN-10: 0-765-31266-2 1. Space
colonies-Fiction. 2. Space ships-Fiction. I. Cooper, Brenda,
1960-. II. Tide.
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To THE MEMORY OF ROBERT FORWARD
From Brenda:
I'd like to thank Larry Niven for taking on this project with
me. Larry has had a longtime rule against collaborating with
amateurs, and since this is my first novel-length work, I
definitely qualified, at least when we started. This has been a
multiyear project. I'm sure there were times when he was ready to
throw away the manuscript, but instead he just pointed out ideas
and characters that needed work, and helped me through; most
important, he always believed in me. His hands, ideas, and words
are throughout this novel, but like every good teacher, he made
me write my way out of most of my messes. Any messes left in here
are mine alone. Thanks, Larry!
Personal thanks as well to my family: to my dad, who explained
the concept of mass multiple times, and asked about the book
every time he talked to me (sure that I was doing great, even
when I wasn't); to my mom; my son, David; and
daughter-of-the-heart Lisha; my partner, Toni; and to Cindy Ross
and Joe Green. Thanks also to Marilyn Niven, for being supportive
of this project.
From Brenda and Larry:
Thanks to our agent, Eleanor Wood, for believing in this
project, and for reviewing a very early draft and providing
excellent suggestions. Thanks to Bob Gleason from Tor, our
editor.
Thanks to Yoji Kondo, the rocket scientist and science fiction
writer who writes as Eric Kotani. We needed a pair of stars to
fit our story-to become Apollo and Ymir-and Yoji found them for
us.
We'd both like to thank Steven Barnes, who introduced us, and
has given us both many tools across many years. The Fairwood
Writers read the whole novel in draft, and made many excellent
suggestions. They are David Addleman, Darragh Metzger, John A.
Pitts, Allan Rousselle, David R. Silas, Renee Stern, and Patrick
and Honna Swenson. The members of the LARRYNIVEN-L list helped
out with naming a planet. G. David Nordley spent time chatting
with us about ship designs. We'd also like to thank the late Bob
Forward for chats about this book, and for inspiring early star
drive designs.
PROLOGUE: Chaos
Year 894, John Glenn shiptime
Erika was cold and Gabriel was warm. She wouldn't have been
interested in this stuff anyway.
Erika was one pilot of the carrier John Glenn. John
Glenn was currently at rest, safely orbiting wide around the
gas giant planet Harlequin, and not in need of a
pilot.
Gabriel headed the terraforming team, chartered to create a
habitable moon from the jumble of raw material that made up
Harlequin's moon system. Four of the team were warm now, far too
many in the long term; but during these few decades they would
accomplish most of what needed doing. Then they would wait for
the moon system to settle down again.
The Large Pusher Tugs, all three of them, were thrusting hard
against Moon Ten. Their fusion engines sprayed a trident of light
across the sky. The lesser Moon Twenty-six was already in place,
orbiting Moon One since last year. That orbit wasn't stable-it
shrank steadily within the cloud of impact debris around Moon
One-but that didn't matter. Moon Twenty-six would be gone in a
few days.
Gabriel sent: "John Glenn calling LPT-1. Wayne, how you
doing?"
"Nearly finished here, I think. Astronaut concurs. Check our
orbit."
"I did that. Start shutting down the motors."
In four hours, Moon Ten was falling free.
When this phase was over, Harlequin's moons would have to be
recounted. There would be fewer of them.
Gabriel considered a meal and sleep. The moons wouldn't
collide for fifteen days yet... but he ordered a squeeze of stew
and stayed at his post. One loose moon wouldn't matter; there was
no living thing to be harmed in Harlequin's moon system, and
minor accidents could be fixed. It was the LPTs he was worried
about. Lose his spacecraft and he'd lose the game.
The peppery smell of warming vegetables and broth made his
stomach rumble.
So. Where to park the pusher tugs?
He smiled. They'd be passing very near Moon
Forty-one.
"Wayne? Bust your LPTs loose and get them into orbit. Here are
the specs. I'm working out your next mission."
"When do we get some rest, boss?"
"I'll find you that too."
Gabriel ate slowly, savoring the celery and potatoes. John
Glenn's internal garden was thriving. It had been a water
tank when they left Sol system, and their diet had palled
rapidly.
He had a plan. He could start on it tomorrow. Thrust would
take a few hundred days. Harlequin would grow a little hotter;
ultimately Moon One would too; and Erika, when she warmed, would
love it.
Under Gabriel's guidance, Wayne's team lifted the Large Pusher
Tugs from Moon Ten and set them drifting toward a rarefied region
within Harlequin's frantically busy moon system. Wouldn't want
them anywhere near the collision point.
It took him and the Astronaut program less than an hour to
work up the next sequence.
The LPTs had tremendous acceleration when they weren't
attached to larger masses. Their light outshone the sun, Apollo,
by a lot. By the end of the day they were in loose orbit around
Moon Forty-one.
Gabriel ate at his post while Wayne guided the LPTs to the
surface, one by one. The hard part came next, as Wayne's team
moored them against the bedrock core. The tugs were flattened
structures, a Tokamak-style fusion thruster ringing one side, a
cage of shock absorbers and anchors at the other. Placing anchors
was tricky, because when the LPTs were set going, their thrust
would start quakes.
Set them going on low thrust, let the blast backfire, they'd
melt their way through volatiles down to bedrock. Then close the
insulation ports and wait while the molten rock solidified over
the next century. Gabriel's team would spend a hundred years
cold, then warm again to finish the job.
But they'd finish adding volatiles and mass to Moon One before
they went cold.
One OF THE LAST major movements of a complicated symphony was
under way as Moon Ten approached Moon Twenty-six, which was in
motion retrograde above Moon One.
There had been other collisions. Moon One was already a dust
ball surrounded by a flattened ring that glowed in Apollo's
light. It looked like Saturn in Sol system, with the ring system
lightly twisted by Harlequin's massive gravity.
The oblate spheroids drifted together like flaming taffy.
Gabriel watched the two moons eat each other's kinetic energy.
Hot rock and volatiles churned in a twisting red-orange fireball
and began to drift toward Moon One.
A raw sense of power tugged at the edges of Gabriel's
attention as he forced his focus to stay narrow. He had to stay
on top of this. Playing God carried awesome responsibility. His
purpose was to create a habitable world, a staging area for the
antimatter generator that would refuel the carrier John
Glenn. That world, Selene, would need seas and gravity: more
mass, more volatiles. Moon One must be built up.
Selene also needed radiation shielding.
Gabriel had been bashing moons together for more than three
hundred fifty years, after many more years of research and
simulation. Matters would have gone much faster in Ymir's system,
he thought, a trace of bitterness still edging his thoughts.
John Glenn's equipment wasn't designed for Apollo system.
He was supposed to have two more carrier ships and all their
resources to help him. Hell, he was supposed to be someplace else
entirely. Apollo's inner rocky worlds were all missing, eaten as
the gas giant Daedalus moved inward; anything he needed that
wasn't among Harlequin's moons would have to be acquired from the
Kuiper Belt. Comets were as far apart as they had been in Sol
system, generally as far apart as the Sun from the Earth.
Travel time expanded hugely. He was doing his damn best, but it
was still taking forever.
He stretched and twisted, working his body, pulling out as
much tension as he could.
Moons Ten and Twenty-six were history, a fireball above Moon
One. Impacting like that, they'd turned a lot of their velocity
into heat; but how much? The last time they tried this, with a
different pair of moons, most of the mass from the collision had
just dissipated. He'd look again in a hundred
years.
Time to go cold.
And WARM AGAIN, a hundred years later. He set to
work.
Moon One was lightly ringed. Most of the mass of a double
lunar impact was gone. He'd watch Moon One for a while-or the
Astronaut program would-and presently he'd know if its mass had
grown enough.
John Glenn's frozen sleep system had been altered
according to specs in their last message from Sol system. This
advanced process of being frozen didn't just retard entropy; it
rejuvenated. Gabriel felt wonderfully alive, though he sometimes
pictured his life as a snake chopped up and scattered at
random.
And Erika's life was scattered without regard for his or her
own convenience. As a pilot, she would stay frozen for most of
the next sixty thousand years.
Meanwhile, Gabriel had work to do.
He revived his team. Moon Forty-one's surface had cooled
around the three LPTs. Wayne set them to thrusting against the
moon's core.
The core wasn't as stable as Gabriel wanted-no iron ball, just
a jumble of heavier stuff-and Wayne held the thrust low. There
were still tremors. Pumps fed dirty water ice from the moon into
the tanks: reaction mass for the LPTs' motors. Moon Forty-one
wasn't large. This phase would be over in a few
years.
Then-no point in going cold. He would wait out the next couple
of years, and watch. Moon Forty-one would graze Harlequin's
atmosphere, turning vast kinetic energy into vast heat. The gas
giant would eat the moon. Some of its mass would undoubtedly form
a broad ring of debris. It would be a hell of a sight, and it
would have other benefits.
Selene-the inhabited world that Moon One would become-would
need shielding from Harlequin's radiation output. The ring would
be chaotic for a time, and during the next, oh, fifty thousand
years, it would block most of the gas giant planet from Moon One.
But time and endless collisions would move the ring particles
toward a common orbital plane. In sixty thousand years-when
Selene calmed enough to be seeded with life-the ring would only
block half the planet. A hundred thousand years later the ring
would be as thin as Saturn's, and nearly useless as a
shield.
But John Glenn would be gone by then, on its way to
Ymir.
Gabriel had decided to form the ring early. He'd give Selene
sixty thousand years to lose some of its surface radiation, and
Harlequin itself would have time to settle down after impact.
Harlequin would grow hotter, of course. The sun Apollo was too
far from the moon system to provide enough heat to warm Moon One.
Some of Selene's heat must come from a hotter
Harlequin.
Harlequin's moon system had become a dangerously cluttered
region, but that wouldn't last. When Erika finally warmed, she
would find fewer moons, a system thinned out except for an inner
ring that had been Moon Forty-one. Selene would be protected, to
that extent, from giant meteoroid impacts.
And Harlequin's vast gaudy ring would be more than a match for
Saturn's. Gabriel's gift to Erika! Playing God had its
moments.
"And why exactly are we doing this?" Wayne asked. He was
shorter and stockier than Gabriel, and each of his movements was
deliberate.
Anger kept Gabriel from answering immediately. They were in
the galley preparing an elaborate meal. Windows hovered in the
air, showing several views of chaos. Rings and clouds of dust and
inner storms, rainbows of light glaring through: chaos that would
become Selene.
It wasn't pretty, but it was awesome. Wayne was one of the
best engineers on the ship. He could fly anything, figure out any
logistical problem. Surely Wayne shared his fierce
pride?
"Doing what?" Gabriel asked mildly. "We make Selene because we
can.
"It's like this. I went cold knowing that they'd warm me when
we got to Ymir-to Henry Draper Catalog 212776," Wayne said, being
abnormally precise, no misunderstandings here, "and, and then
we'd build Ymir. They thawed me out centuries early, at the wrong
star! Now you tell me-"
"They had to tell me first. Wayne, I was cold too. We're the
terra-forming team, not ship's crew. And ship's crew were
worn-out, man! The captain looked like the walking dead. Erika
was twitchy. I wasn't ready to throw it in their
faces."
Wayne wasn't being belligerent, he was plodding through a
problem. "You tell me the interstellar drive went wonky and we
had to find a refuge before the interstellar wind fried us all.
Gamma rays at six percent of light-speed. We were lucky. Gliese
876 was almost in our path. We were down to the last whiffs of
antimatter fuel when we made orbit here.
"Now, I can buy all that. We can't get to Ymir until we've
made more fuel. Right. Why not just go for it? Build a collider
and make twelve hundred kilos of antimatter and
go."
"First off, you'll notice that there's no inner solar system."
Gabriel waved at the windows, though no such thing was obvious to
the naked eye. "No asteroids, no rocky worlds like Earth or Mars,
nothing until you get down to Daedalus, a mucking great gas giant
world huddled right up against its sun. Daedalus ate everything
as it moved inward. There's only Harlequin, out here where Saturn
would be if this were Sol system, and three more gas giants and
the Kuiper Belt.
"So all the distances out here are huge. Any resource we need
has to come from Harlequin's moons or the Kuiper Belt, where the
little Kuiper Belt bodies are just as sparse as in Sol system. It
takes forever to get anywhere.
"We looked... the High Council looked at the problem," Gabriel
said carefully, "and the Astronaut program verifies. To build an
antimatter generator, we need manpower. We'd have to warm half
the ship. The garden wouldn't feed them or recycle enough air,
and we don't have the room either. They'd use up all our
resources. We'd die.
"Second possibility is to build habitats like the asteroid
civilizations in Sol system. What's wrong with
that?"
Wayne snorted, though he knew he was being tested. "The Belt
cities needed too much Artificial Intelligence, too much
nanotech, too much of everything we're running away from. AIs
wound up running it all."
Gabriel nodded. "So we can't do that. And we could
build nanos and let them build a collider and run it for
antimatter, with Astronaut running it all. Only we deliberately
forgot most of what we need to build tailored nanotech, and
Astronaut is another AI. By now it looks like Earth and Sol
really have gone down the recycler, and if it wasn't the AIs
taking over, it must have been nanos turning everything to
sludge. At any rate, Sol system isn't talking.
"So what's left? We came here with gear to make Ymir
habitable-a rocky world about the size of Earth, with a reducing
atmosphere. We can make a world! It's just a little bit tougher
job."
Wayne said, "Sure. Where are you going to put the
Beanstalk?"
Gabriel finished his last bite of stew. He asked, "Your
point?"
"We stored this massive tether-making system. Ymir could have
had two hundred thousand kilometers of an orbital tether standing
up from the equator, all made of carbon nanotubes. Every bit of
nanotechnology we permit ourselves is a compromise, and that was
one of them. Ground to orbit transport. We'd have an elevator to
the nearby planets. Go anywhere you want in Ymir's inner system
and only pay for the electricity. What would happen
if-"
"Selene would be whipping it around in Harlequin's gravity
field. The tides would tear it apart. We can't give Selene a
Beanstalk. What's your point? Because I know we brought
the wrong equipment for this!"
"Exactly. We don't know if it's good enough," Wayne
said.
"That's the other side of it. Wayne, we're making mistakes
where it won't matter. It's a dry run. When we get to Ymir we'll
know more about our equipment and techniques."
"Won't matter? Boss, what about all these people we'll need to
build the collider?"
That was something Gabriel tried not to think about. He said,
"I'm not on the High Council, you know."
Wayne sighed. "Okay, boss."
"Wayne, have you talked like this with Ali?"
"No."
"Don't."
Year 60,201, John Glenn shiptime
When Gabriel warmed, there was only the AI to talk to. Humans
were supposed to wake to human warmth, to hands and smiles
and talk. But sixty thousand years was no time frame to thread a
live person or set of people through, not when your population
totaled only two thousand, and only a few hundred you wanted to
warm at all before you could reach your true home. So John
Glenn had orbited in silence, its huge garden mostly
composted, its people frozen. The only aware beings were the AI,
Astronaut, and periodically Gabriel; or on good shift breaks,
Gabriel and Wayne; or on better ones, Gabriel and
Ali.
This was a good break. He'd wake, and then he'd warm Ali, and
then ... then they'd touch down on Selene. He glanced at the
chronometer. He was waking on schedule. So nothing horrible had
happened during this sleep. His senses rushed alert, smelling
medicines and water, feeling the dry cool ship's air. What Earth
had sent them-new programming for nanotechnological cell repair
under cold sleep-still acted perfectly.
Gabriel wasn't sure how he felt about that. Nanotechnology was
one of the things they had run away from.
It almost never got said.
There would come a day when Ymir was perfected. On that day
all this nonsense of medical nanotech would stop. The long-lived
travelers would age naturally, and die naturally. Their planet
would follow its own destiny, and none would use his power to
change the weather or stop an encroaching desert. They'd made
that agreement, all of them, before they boarded the carrier
ships.
They'd wondered about each other since, and they'd wondered
about themselves. How could they not? Which of them would fail to
give up longevity and the power to shape a world?
"Astronaut?"
"Hello, Gabriel!"
"Any word from Earth?" Gabriel already knew the
answer.
"Not since Year 291, shiptime."
"From Ymir?"
"Nothing, Gabriel."
It might be that Gabriel was the only human heartbeat in the
entire universe.
He flinched from that thought. Surely there were humans at
Ymir. Surely Leif Eriksson and Lewis and Clark had
reached Ymir, safe, and thousands or millions of humans now
populated a rebuilt planet. Or billions? Ymir was to have been
made a second Earth, and Earth had housed tens of billions, sixty
thousand years ago. They'd sent message probes, traveling at a
tenth light-speed at best, at the highpoint of their journey. A
hundred forty-eight light-years distanced them, at Gliese 876,
from Ymir at HDC 212776. That was a lot of distance for fragile
probes to travel.
Gabriel wiggled his toes, stretched his fingers, and bounced
his calves lightly on the bed.
Two hours later, he pushed himself to standing and went to the
galley to make tea infused with vitamins and mint, easy for a
rejuvenated and rebuilt body to accept. He took the tea to his
office, wrinkling his nose at the medicinal smell, and ordered
Astronaut to pull up views of Selene.
Bad smelling or not, the first sip of tea sat warm and perfect
in his belly as images of the little moon filled his
walls.
A cloud obscured part of the surface. A cloud! He smiled
broadly, then laughed in delight. He sat mesmerized, watching the
cloud, until his tea bulb was empty.
Then he started barking out a list for Astronaut to read to
him: precipitation measures, exact atmospheric composition, water
loss, evaporation...
Within an hour, Gabriel confirmed they could walk on the moon.
They could start to introduce life. They could ... he gave
instructions to wake Ali and Wayne, and went to get ready for
them. He sang as he pulled himself down the corridor to
Medical.
GABRIEL AND ALI WALKED on the barren surface of the little
moon. They started inside light pressure suits, taking readings
and checking radiation levels, double-testing what they already
knew from the tiny sensors that dotted Selene. Ali stripped
first, all the way down to underwear and bra and shoes, oxygen
tank and mask. Her olive skin dimpled in the cool
air.
He laughed with pleasure watching her; a tiny half-naked woman
climbing on rocks; jumping from one to the other, tossing stones
and catching them.
Drawn by Ali's antics, Gabriel stripped to his pants and
shirt, mask and tank, and ran and cavorted and grinned while Ali
knelt and touched the regolith, walked to a new place, and
touched the surface again. He danced with her on the surface,
seeing wonder and reverence in her eyes as she moved easily,
gracefully.
Selene was still a touch unstable; it shivered twice with
small quakes in the hours they were there. Ali came and stood
beside him. "I like the silence-I like being away from that
damned constant data flow. It feels more human
here."
Gabriel held her, not answering, just feeling the soft touch
of her dark head in the hollow of his shoulder. He felt lost
without the data, regardless of how ecstatic he was to be on
Selene. On Selene!
"Someday," he said, "Selene will be information rich like the
ship. We'll enhance the flows some here before we return-I'll
need it to monitor the next steps."
She glared at him, a touch distant suddenly. "Be
careful-you'll need too much technology. Let's keep Selene
simple."
Her face was bathed in Apollo's light, her skin duskier than
he remembered from the ship. They pulled their masks aside, and
he gave her the first kiss on Selene. It was quick. Selene had
just barely more oxygen, right now, than the top of Everest. It
needed life to make a living atmosphere.
Thousands of years of shifts had taught them all to take
intimacy where they found it, to appreciate it, and consider it
friendship.
They flew happily back up to John Glenn. Gabriel
returned with Wayne, and while Gabriel and Wayne walked Selene's
surface, Ali packed up cultures and genetic material so they
could start seeding the regolith, eventually covering part of
Selene with bacteria to begin the process of making
soil.
When they warmed next, all of the bacteria were dead. So they
stayed awake and watched the next attempt, killing time designing
a huge tent. They would control the atmosphere inside the tent,
and use it to build greenhouses and homes; a little city. The
tent stood up well to the little earthquakes that came along.
They dubbed the new town Aldrin, and stayed there from time to
time.
It took four tries-twenty years-to get healthy cyanobacteria
mats spread across the ground near Aldrin and have something like
soil. Now it was time to wake the High Council.
Gabriel spent hours with each of them, running low on sleep,
talking excitedly. He had Astronaut play videos for the captain;
lost moons dancing into each other. Gabriel watched the captain's
wrinkled face closely, saw how his deep-ocean-blue eyes tracked
the flow of moons and proto-comets.
Captain John Hunter had stayed awake during the long crippled
flight that took them to Gliese 876 after they nearly burned up
in the interstellar wind. That trip was so long that no amount of
post-ice rejuvenation treatments had removed the spots and lines
and dark circles that transformed his face. Centuries of pain
were etched in odd bends of his fingers and toes, in the hunch in
his back, the folds over his eyes. But intelligence still lived
in his eyes. If anything, the ravages his choices had created in
his body made his will stronger. It mattered to Gabriel that John
Hunter see the dream he'd helped design come
alive.
It went well, except for the astonishing rapidity with which
Council returned to the cryo-tanks. They wanted an easier world
to oversee.
Once, Gabriel warmed Erika. By then, Wayne was building roads,
using huge robotic machines to flatten the soil. Ali was cold.
Gabriel was designing pipes to control the hydrology, and
constructing a small factory by the Hammered Sea. Erika stayed
warm for a year, giving Gabriel good advice, making a few
mistakes they laughed at together, fretting about how long
everything took. The plan was already foreshortened-Gabriel would
never have forced so many processes if Selene wasn't really just
a way to escape to the stars again.
He held Erika's attention for a year before she insisted on
going cold again.
Gabriel and Ali finished the little town of Aldrin. They laid
pipes to carry water to a cistern, more pipes to make a
rudimentary sewer and reclamation system, planted a grove of
trees on a hill outside town, and filled greenhouses with
seedlings. The night before they planned to wake High Council
again, Gabriel and Ali made love, alone on the surface of the
moon they'd transformed. Their lovemaking started soft and slow,
growing to a deep intimate conclusion. They stayed still for a
long time, wrapped in each other's arms, warm in that close place
that follows on the heels of lovemaking. When she stopped
trembling, Ali looked at Gabriel and said, "We've consecrated the
ground here. Selene has been blessed. We blessed it
together."
Gabriel simply thought they'd enjoyed great sex, but it was a
celebration, and so he didn't contradict her. Rather, he held her
tightly and began to work out hydrologic engineering problems in
his head.
Part 1: Selene
60,268 John Glenn shiptime
Chapter 1: Teaching Grove
Rachel reached for the seedling. Her long fingers found the
pliant trunk, thin as her pinkie, buried inside the furled
branches. She unwrapped gauzy material from the root ball with
her free hand, separating the roots by spreading them down and
out in the air. Bits of soil fell through her hands as she
settled roots and tree onto a mound of nutrient-enriched dirt.
Still steadying the gangly cecropia, she swept anchor soil to
cover the roots, tamped it down, and then tied the trunk very
loosely to a long thin stake. Rachel sat back on her heels and
admired the little tree. A warm breeze rustled its leaves and the
smell of damp dirt filled the air.
A banana palm went in next, then a set of three heliconias
near the path. Rachel's crate stood empty. The distant sun,
Apollo, hung low in the sky, illuminating beads of sweat as she
stretched.
The other students had all finished more than twenty minutes
ago. Rachel nodded to herself, checking to be sure the plot
matched the picture in her head. Harry's plot was well designed,
and cleaner since he had gone back and raked the soil after
watering. But she could do that too. Water first. She sighed and
got up to get a rake.
"Nice job." Gabriel's voice behind her sounded flat, far away,
even if the words approved.
Rachel turned around and looked back at him. Gabriel stood an
inch taller than Rachel, but wider and stronger, carefully
dressed in brown pants that tied at the ankles, high boots, and a
tight-fitting shirt that showed muscles. He looked serious, like
he'd gotten lost in his head. She wrinkled her nose at him and
smiled. He didn't smile back. He looked outward, higher than the
horizon, fingering the bright metal and bead sculptures twisted
into the long red-brown braid of his hair.
Rachel ran her fingers through her own short red hair,
wondering if such a long braid was heavy. And what was he looking
at?
Diamond patterns in a thousand shades of white and red: a
gibbous world, huge and fully risen, brilliant across more than
half its arc, sullen red where the sunlight didn't fall.
Harlequin. A broad straight band ran blazing white across its
face, and disappeared where Harlequin's shadow fell across it. A
ring, Gabriel called it, but nothing ever showed but that thick
white slash.
What fascinated Gabriel about Harlequin and its ring? It was a
feature of the sky, changeable, but not of great interest. Tiny
fiery-looking storms on Harlequin might affect weather on Selene,
Gabriel had said once, but (he admitted) not by
much.
A mystery. Council was always a mystery. Rachel knew Gabriel
would wait there until she finished. Another mystery-Council
always knew where they were-they could see everything on Selene.
So he didn't have to stay. Maybe I shouldn't rake since I'm
last, she thought. But the test is
tomorrow!
She watered and raked anyway, perversely determined to spend
time with each tree as she finished for the evening. Perfect, it
might please Gabriel. (He still hadn't moved.)
She put the rake away and stood as near Gabriel as she dared,
and looked up too. Harlequin rose as Apollo rode low in the sky
and then disappeared. Softer illumination replaced the red-gold
sunlight, tinged by the oranges and reds of the gas giant. The
planet covered a huge portion of the sky. Rachel could cover
Apollo, the distant sun, with the width of her thumb held half an
arm's length in front of her. Harlequin took both palms to blot
from view.
The gas giant made its own dim red light, shed by the intense
heat in its constantly churning surface. Apollo's reflection
brightened Harlequin's inner light, and the combined glow bathed
Selene's summer, making the night barely dusky.
Selene's orbit around Harlequin defined seasons based on the
amount of light available. "Summer" was the seven weeks when
Selene orbited closest to Apollo, "winter" the seven weeks they
were farthest away, and fall and spring filled in the time
between. Summer hid most of the stars in its steady light. In
full winter, night fell black enough to detail the galaxy spread
around them.
Rachel watched her two shadows merge as Apollo set fully, and
then put the tools away and strapped arm and leg sets on. She
waved at Gabriel, and said "Good night" out loud, alert for a
response from Gabriel. None came.
A few hundred yards from the edge of Teaching Grove, she
pushed hard on the balls of her feet, straining upward with every
step, taking ten-foot strides along the flat path back to Aldrin.
She gained speed and height, finally leaping all-out. As she
began the fall after the apogee of her leap, she snapped her leg
and arm wings down just before the ground could catch her foot
webs. Three strong kicks, a rhythm, and she was
flying.
Rachel flew low in the treacherously soft light of Harlequin's
evening until she reached two tall poles that marked the outside
of the colony's first home. Her father had told her the poles
once supported a great tent of air that Council built their first
homes in. No longer needed, the tall stakes still marked the
boundaries of home. She swung her legs from behind to just in
front of her, braking, snapping her leg wings closed at exactly
the right moment, landing with just one extra little hop that she
expertly turned into a bounding walk as she folded her arm wings
in.
Rachel followed a well-worn path past Council Row and its
large lighted homes, sparing them hardly a glance. They were
beautiful, iridescent, and closed to Moon Born. The faultless
layout seemed like a wall to Rachel as she slipped along its
outside edge toward the friendly chaos of tents she called home.
The base color of the tents was a metallic shimmering light gray;
fabric that repelled rain and heat alike. Colorful cloths were
thrown and sewn onto the walls, covering and making windows,
proclaiming family personalities. In the common areas between
tents, children played skip-stones, studied, or sat in groups
talking. Rachel waved at her friend Ursula's brothers and some of
the kids from her class.
In two more minutes she was truly home, ducking through a
delicate blue fabric doorway. The inside of the tent was simple.
Hangings divided it into four rooms-two sleeping rooms, a
combination living room and kitchen, and a small workroom. They
shared bathroom facilities with four other
families.
Her father was already there, his boots off, his feet resting
on an embroidered ottoman she had made him. Dark circles spread
like stains under his eyes, and his long arms draped by his
side.
"The other kids have been back more than an hour," Frank said,
smiling at her.
"I wanted my trees to be perfect."
"Your work is always good." Her father's voice sounded warm,
if tired. "I've got dinner on."
Rachel went to the tiny kitchen and ladled vegetable soup into
a smooth metal bowl. She'd cut the beans and carrots up that
morning before going to the grove. "I'll have to
study."
"You'll pass," Frank said. "Did you get any information about
when they plan to start the planting for this
season?"
"It'll be soon. It has to be. Gabriel will be gone after the
test, and I guess we'll stay and take care of things at the
grove. Gabe downloaded a bunch of new stuff for us this
afternoon, so I better study."
"Better call him Gabriel," Frank said.
"Yes, Daddy."
"And you'd better get some sleep."
"I know. I'll sleep after I read the new stuff he beamed me."
Rachel flipped open the wrist pad she'd been given when Gabriel
chose her for the planting class. She commanded it to create a
window in front of her. Numbers and descriptions flowed through
the air. When her eyes blurred and the data stopped making sense,
she slipped off to sleep, snuggling deep into a nest of blankets
and pillows.
Apollo's rise woke her. Her father had already gone. Rachel
reviewed her notes again until she heard Ursula call from
outside.
"Coming." Rachel grabbed up some carrots and a hunk of bread
for lunch, and grinned to see her willowy friend bouncing
impatiently up and down in the path. Ursula was even thinner than
Rachel, light-colored everywhere, with freckles and blue eyes.
The light morning rain slicked the girls' hair down so it hung in
wet strings, and they shivered in the cool air. Ursula worried
them up the path, keeping them from flying so she could practice
vocabulary answers out loud until Rachel wanted to scream at her.
If anyone besides Ursula babbled on so, Rachel would have stopped
it, or walked ahead, but Ursula covered insecurities with noise.
Ursula had been her friend as long as she could remember, the
only other girl her age in the immediate circle of tents. They'd
helped each other learn to walk, and then to fly.
Halfway up, two shadows flew over them. Rachel nudged Ursula
in the side. "Hey, look, it's Ice and Silence." They heard the
clank of bald Andrew's homemade cable armbands against his wings.
Harry flew quietly and expertly, pacing but not following Andrew.
Ursula grimaced and made as if to duck.
"Hey," Rachel said. "They won't throw anything today. Even
Andrew's not stupid enough to risk making Gabe angry on test
day."
"Quit calling him Gabe! You'd think you were
friends!"
"Well-"
"No Moon Born is a friend with Council. My brother Rich says
they're just using us."
"Nah," Rachel said. "Sure, they have a plan, and sure, we're
part of it. But they're teaching us how to be what we want to be
anyway. At least, I want to work with plants! Besides, who
made Selene? Where does all our tech come from? Why fight
something you have to have? It would be like fighting
air."
"Don't think too hard. You'll break your head. Think about
tests. Let's review pod functions again ..."
When they finally arrived, Harry and Andrew were already
bending over their plantings from the afternoon before. Rachel
grimaced at Ursula, whispering, "Of course, those two are
looking good to Council." The rain had stopped, and the grove
smelled fresh and clean.
"Always," Ursula whispered back, making small kissing gestures
behind her hand where only Rachel could see. Rachel stifled a
laugh.
Ali waved at them. The tiny Councilwoman was all energy and
flow, teaching and correcting and sometimes even laughing. The
kids never said anything bad about Ali, even when they complained
about Council. She got respect. No one talked back to any
Council, ever, but sometimes Rachel could relax just a bit with
Ali.
Ali and Gabriel were both of a type, except Ali's hair and
eyes were darker, but Ali's eyes danced above a ready smile. Ali
seemed like a tiny ball of energy that rotated around the taller
and more serious Chief Terra-former. Rachel felt awkward around
Ali, too tall, too spare, too angular.
When she got to her plot, Rachel drew her breath in sharply,
barely managing not to draw attention by crying out. Her cecropia
tree was missing.
Whoever had spirited away the tree had raked afterward. There
were no footprints. Andrew or Harry, she thought.
Probably Andrew-he's mean. She could see the hole
the theft created clearly-it would have been the tallest canopy
tree once her little jungle finished growing. Rachel blinked back
sharp tears that went with the anger in her belly. How could
someone do this and not get caught? Didn't Council see
everything?
She glared at Andrew, who didn't look at her at all, but stood
like a perfect innocent, watching the other students straggle in
while he smiled. Harry ignored her too.
Nine other Moon Born trailed into the group. They varied from
about ten Earth standard years to Rachel's fifteen. Ali greeted
every one of them formally by name, always including a smile, a
personal question, a touch. She walked through the wildness of
tiny trees, bending down and touching a leaf or branch, looking
carefully at the small mounds of dirt ringing each thin trunk,
smiling both at nice jobs and small mistakes. She graded each
plot as she went. Ursula and Marry both passed with no rework.
Nick found himself the target of a long lecture, and he had to
pull up three seedlings and replant them in different
spots.
Rachel overheard Andrew whispering to Nick, "Too bad you
couldn't do it right the first time." She opened her mouth to
hiss at Andrew, but Gabriel silenced her with a stern glance from
across the path. Well, at least he had
noticed.
Ali looked at the trees in Rachel's plot for a long time. She
didn't ask Rachel a single question, but Rachel just knew Ali
could see the great gap in her carefully planned balance. Rachel
bit her lower lip to keep quiet. Ali simply nodded and smiled and
moved on.
How had she done? Did Ali like her work?
Andrew's plot received a momentary glance and a cursory
nod.
Just as they were leaving for the meadow, Rachel looked up at
the tool tent. Familiar tips of leaves rose above the edge of the
roof. Her cecropia! But what could she say now? It had to be
Andrew; he didn't have the common sense to be careful around
Council. He was such a stupid show-off. Now he'd probably got
them both in trouble, and worse, he probably didn't care. She
grimaced and walked on, keeping her silence.
Plastic and stone shapes dotted the meadow. Council had made
them by fusing gathered pebbles and tiny chondrules from
asteroids, covering the result with a soft and clear plastic
compound. Useful art; neatly shaped into benches and sometimes
into wild swirling sculptures. They had been there all of
Rachel's life.
She'd asked about them once, and Gabriel had said, "Wayne and
Ali were bored one year."
The First Trees surrounded the meadow on three sides. Gabriel
and Ali planted them, by themselves, even before any Earth Born
were awakened. There were kapoks and figs and palms and gray
ciebas just starting to grow the buttressing roots that would
someday be large enough to climb as if they were trees
themselves. Rachel struggled with Council's complicated
year-math. Rachel's mother Kristin was Earth Born, her father one
of the first generation of Moon Born, and Rachel was born when he
was forty-two Moon years old, or just over half that many Earth
years, and his parents had been awake two Moon years before they
had him, so the trees surrounding the meadow must be ...
twenty-five Earth years or more old. They were tall, the biggest
more than a hundred feet. Branches intertwined tightly, even
fifty feet above the forest floor. Webs of thin young lianas,
vines, curled up trunks and hung down from branches, reaching for
ground and sky together. Light in this part of the grove shone
low and hazy, mysterious. The air smelled damp and rich, as if
the canopy held in the scents of growth. It was Rachel's favorite
place.
Once, Gabriel had told her that the First Trees were planted
too close together. He had miscalculated how much Selene's
oxygen-rich atmosphere and three-quarter Earth gravity would
elongate everything that grew on the moon-stems, and branches,
and people. He'd said trees were shorter and fatter on Earth.
Rachel liked the intertwined effect-it made the First
Forest dark and intriguing.
Gabriel's voice brought her back to the present. "Now we move
on to the practical. Your combined score determines whether or
not you become a Horticulture Terraformer. If you don't pass,
there are other choices for work."
Rachel's stomach clenched. Not me. I have to be around
trees. I have to help plant Selene. I have to pass! She
imagined her father's voice in her ear, suggesting she
"breathe," saying, "My daughter can do
anything."
"Some of our evaluation will be based on the work you did
during class. That tells us how you approach day-to-day tasks,"
Gabriel said. A few children groaned. Ursula and Rachel grinned
at each other; this was good for them, they worked hard. "We'll
also judge how well you've learned the system's ecology behind
terraforming. First, Ali will question you as a
group."
Rachel and Ursula sat next to each other. They squeezed each
other's hands, passing a wish for luck back and forth. Ali faced
the class, sitting cross-legged on a waist-high black dais. She
opened a data window beside her, opaqued it white, and left it
suspended in air to her right. "First, tell me what is in the
base nutrient mixture?"
An easy question. Rachel chose to let one of the younger
children answer it. Two of them, and Andrew, all registered an
answer at almost the same time.
Ali called on the young blond boy Andrew had teased earlier,
Nick, and his answer appeared in the window beside Ali. His voice
started with a quiver of nerves, but got stronger as he listed,
"Nitrogen, silicon, phosphorus, and potassium are
macro-nutrients. Calcium, magnesium-" Nick stumbled through the
rest, getting most of it right.
"Anyone else?" Ali asked.
"Iron," Sharon spoke up.
"But we get iron from the soil," Andrew said.
"We still have to measure it; there's too much in some
places," Sharon answered him.
"Quite right. Why is it irregular?" Ali asked.
"Well, here, in the grove, it's pretty even. All Selene's soil
came from space stuff, and in some places, the way you made the
world, it didn't work. It came out scattered." Sharon put her
hand over her mouth. Some of the other children
tittered.
Rachel tried to cover for Sharon. "It wasn't a mistake, it
couldn't be helped. Some asteroids and moons have more iron than
others. Besides, everything else varies too. We have to watch
places where there is too much iron-it burns the roots. We always
survey the soil before we plant, especially in the field." Rachel
grinned at the younger girl. "And you're right, iron is
important. There has to be some, and there can't be too
much."
"But every nutrient is like that," Andrew said. "They all have
to be just right."
Sharon didn't answer. Andrew had succeeded in making Rachel
look foolish too. Rachel squirmed, furious for the second time
that morning. She couldn't show her anger-it might make her fail.
It was easy to earn Council's disapproval. She looked over at
Sharon, who gave her a beseeching glance. Rachel smiled, the only
help she could afford to offer.
Ali shifted her questioning to Andrew, perhaps to give Sharon
time to recover her composure. Andrew delivered a well-organized
example of the way the tiny measuring pods communicated
wirelessly with one another, collecting and sending information
about soil, atmosphere, and any plants they were attached to. The
pods were ubiquitous-data flowed from all over Selene to be
gathered up at Aldrin and forwarded to space, to the carrier ship
John Glenn. Ali pushed him quietly, eventually questioning
past his ability to answer confidently.
Question and answer had been running for an hour now. Rachel
was so mad at Andrew she could spit. He'd monopolized all of the
best questions. Some of her answers were better, but Andrew
didn't give her time to say them. And what Andrew hadn't
answered, quiet Harry had answered perfectly. Rachel couldn't
smack Andrew in front of Council, and she couldn't seem to think
faster either. Ursula hadn't done too well; Rachel wanted to prod
her out of her shyness. Things were not going
well.
Finally Ali looked over at the two girls and asked them, "Why
do we plant in this grove with our hands and not with
machines?"
Andrew started to talk, but Ali pushed an open hand toward him
to warn him off, and he closed his mouth again, fidgeting. Rachel
glanced at Gabriel-they'd talked about this once on a walk. She
licked her lips. "So that we get a feel for the plants and see
them as living parts of an ecosystem. If we touch the plants, and
know them, we can remember that later, when we are using mostly
machines." She looked at Ursula. "Ursula knows this
too."
Ursula looked gratefully back at Rachel and narrowed her eyes,
plunging in bravely. "When we work by hand we know what the soil
feels like. We know what the tree feels like." Ursula hesitated a
second. "And it's ours, so we're proud of our work
here."
Ursula ran out of words and elbowed Rachel, who said,
"Terraforming Ecology is a form of engineering. Gabriel says
engineers need to do things themselves to understand how to avoid
mistakes."
Ali broke in, "Do you think that's true?"
Rachel stayed quiet for a moment. "Yes. I think we'll know the
plants better. I'll always know the ones I planted here, and if I
want to keep that, I'll stay in some physical contact even
when-if-I pass and work on planting machines."
Andrew interrupted, "Besides, who'd want machines tearing up
our soil? They were already here once: this whole grove has been
prepared with the right basic soil. Why use machines where you
don't need them?"
Of course, Rachel thought, that must have been the
right answer. Why do I always miss the simple
stuff?
Gabriel changed the subject. "While you were talking with
Council-woman Ali, I downloaded some problems for you. You've got
an hour, so take your time, but stay here in the
meadow."
The children separated and bent over their wrist pads. Rachel
answered half of the questions easily, and struggled with the
next few, sweat beading on her forehead as time ticked away too
fast. Knowing that there must be cameras recording, Rachel kept
her face turned toward her pad and didn't look around at
all.
After they'd all sent their answers back to Gabriel, the
children scattered for lunch. Ursula and Rachel sat together. At
first the girls ate quietly, swapping carrots for berries, and
sharing two types of bread. Ursula looked dejected. "I didn't
even get through it all. What happens if I'm not
picked?"
"I didn't have time to finish the last question either,"
Rachel said. "And besides, we don't know how the others did
yet."
"I missed three. But I know Harry and Andrew finished it
all."
"How do you know that?" Rachel asked her
friend.
"I watched them. They beamed the answers even before the hour
was up."
"That doesn't mean they got them right." Ursula didn't look
comforted. "Hey," Rachel offered, "you always did well planting,
and the whole time we were studying with Gabriel. I know he
thinks you're smart."
"How do you know that?" Ursula asked.
"I watch him. I see him watching how you work, and sometimes
he smiles."
"What does a smile mean? What if I don't get chosen? I'll just
die if I don't pass," Ursula continued. "What if I have to be a
cook, or make tents? I want to be with you!"
"Well, it looks like we get to find out."
Gabriel and Ali sat together on the dais, waiting for the
students to notice and gather. Harry already sat at the Council's
feet, but the others, including Andrew this time, were all busy
in a game of catch-the-disk, seeing who could leap highest and
still land gracefully, disk in hand. Andrew's bracelets jangled
against each other so he rang loudly as he leaped, a signal for
the other children to get out of his way. Andrew was one of the
best players, and Rachel watched him catch the heavy disk with
his feet, flip over in a one-eighty, and land
triumphantly.
Ali clapped her hands and the players stopped and bounded
over.
Gabriel started right in on the results. "Nick, you and
Alexandra are the youngest two to pass. You'll be in the advanced
class next winter." That meant that at least three younger
children, including Sharon, didn't pass. A groan came from the
small knot of younger children. They'd all have to start over,
most in different classes. They'd become simple farmers or get
training for other town jobs.
Gabriel ignored it. "Eric, Julie, and Kimberly, you all
passed. You get a break until Ali and I get back from planting."
The four oldest students-Harry, Rachel, Ursula, and Andrew-all
looked at each other. It wasn't possible they'd all failed, but
Rachel's heart sank.
Gabriel's next words made it worse. "I want Andrew, Harry,
Rachel, and Ursula to stay. Everyone else can
leave."
Rachel did her best to sit still while the others left. A knot
of anxiety drummed at the top of her stomach, seeking release.
She swallowed. Minutes passed, and Gabriel and Ali said nothing.
Finally the meadow only contained the six of them.
Ali opened a new data window, larger than the one they'd used
in the test. It showed darkness, and then the flash of a hand
light bobbing as a dark figure walked down a path. Rachel
squinted-it looked like-a human covered by tent material. Then
the figure that held the light bent down and pulled up a tree;
Rachel's cecropia. As a hand reached for the plant, the tent
fabric slipped for a moment. Metal rings glittered briefly in a
flash of light across the wrist.
No one said anything for a long time. Rachel looked at Andrew,
who looked at the ground.
Did he think he could hide? Rachel wondered. Then,
At least he got caught. There were always cameras,
everywhere.
"Andrew," Gabriel broke the silence, "this is your real
test."
Andrew fidgeted, looking at the ground. "It was a
joke."
"Really?" Ali asked.
"You want us to get along. But she"-he pointed at
Rachel-"she's always perfect. Better than the rest of us.
Besides, it was a joke. We play jokes on each other. It
was just one tree."
"Rachel worked hard on it," Gabriel said. "It was the core of
her pattern. You didn't see that?"
Andrew spluttered. "It's not fair. You pay more attention to
Rachel than to any of the rest of us. And she only talks
to Ursula. I had to do something to-"
Gabriel cut him off. "We cannot tolerate acts of
vandalism."
"But-"
"Explain to me why I shouldn't lock you up to think about
this."
Andrew shot a hard look at Rachel. It's not my fault!
Rachel felt anger mix with her anxiety. Would Gabriel fail
them all because of Andrew? Harry and Ursula weren't even
involved! She looked around. Ursula's hand covered her mouth,
her eyes watching Rachel instead of Andrew. Harry was stoic, not
looking at any of them. He must have felt Rachel's eyes on him,
because he turned and blurted out, "Andrew,
apologize!"
Ali looked at Harry sternly, and said, "You have been known to
help Andrew play his jokes."
Andrew's eyes widened. "Harry didn't help me." His voice still
sounded surly. "The tree's okay. So what are you going to do to
me?"
"Which choice I make depends on you."
"I... I..." Andrew looked back at Rachel. "I'm sorry. I'll get
your tree down and help you plant it back."
"That's better," Gabriel said. "A little. Explain why your
actions were wrong."
"Because, because it was right before the
test?"
"And?" Gabriel asked.
"I don't know." Andrew glowered at the ground, fiddling with
his bracelets.
Ali picked up the conversation from Gabriel. "You must forge a
working team. Mistakes in a project like this can kill. Oh, I
know, pulling up one tree won't kill anyone. But what might you
do with more powerful tools? This is not a stable planet-it's a
moon being forced into a temporary home. There are too many
humans to fit on John Glenn, and if we destroy the fragile
ecosystem, some of you will die. Small mistakes can mean a lot
here. Why do you think we're so careful about what we let you do?
Even the four of you, our best students?"
Gabriel looked sternly at Andrew. "Andrew, you're young. And
smart. You will stay here for the next ten weeks and you alone
will care for Teaching Grove. You've had a demonstration-we can
see what you do. See that you convince us you care about Rachel's
plot as much as your own. Actually, better than your own. Failure
will cause additional consequences."
Ursula clutched Rachel's hands. Rachel's heart sank. Andrew
responsible for the grove? For her trees? What would she
be doing?
She glanced at Andrew. His face was beet-red and he murmured,
"Okay. I'll prove myself."
"Rachel, Harry, and Ursula will go with us for this season's
planting. Be packed and back here by dawn tomorrow. Requirements
have been sent to your pads."
Rachel whooped. Ursula's grin stretched ear to ear. Harry
turned toward Andrew whose expression had shifted from penitent
to stunned.
Chapter 2: Leaving Home
Rachel and Ursula stood at the edge of the grove, the path
home winding away below them. "I can't wait to see more of
Selene," Rachel said, pulling her right arm wing buckles tight
against her biceps and forearm. "I've never been out of Aldrin
before."
"Maybe we can see the Hammered Sea," Ursula
lilted.
"See the sea? See the sea... See the sea..." Rachel teased
her. She passed! We passed! We are going
exploring...
Ursula laughed out loud. "Well, you know what I mean. None of
us has been that far from Aldrin yet."
"My father has," Rachel said quietly. "How can I leave him?
You won't have any trouble leaving your great brood of brothers,
but Dad will be all alone."
"He'll want you to go."
Rachel nodded. "That's what he'll say."
"I know you don't want to leave him." Ursula turned to grin at
her friend. "I also know you couldn't bear to stay
home."
"Of course I couldn't."
"You'll manage. You're always okay,
Rachel."
"It's too bad it's not just us, or maybe Alexandra. Harry
makes me so mad-he's always right, and he's so quiet it's
uncanny."
"Besides," Ursula broke in, "he hangs around with
Andrew."
"I guess I'll just be grateful it's Harry and not
Andrew-silence beats meanness." Rachel stretched, poised to begin
the run into flying. "Maybe Harry will do okay."
"Maybe Apollo will rise twice tomorrow."
"I'm excited," Rachel said. "We passed!" She ran, beating
Ursula into the air by two steps, extending her lead all the way
home.
The girls arrived at the outside poles winded and bubbly. They
split toward their respective tents.
Her dad wasn't home. A note said he'd gone to fix the solar
power unit south of town.
Rachel folded herself down into a chair and turned her pad on,
retrieving the packing list. It was short. Pad and stylus, wing
gear, three changes of clothes, two pairs of shoes, and whatever
she needed for hygiene. A short note from Ali told her they'd be
northwest of Aldrin for eight to ten weeks.
Wow. They'd be gone the rest of summer and most of fall,
returning just a month before Mid-Winter Week. Maybe she could
bring back a special story about the trip for Festival
Day.
Packing took nearly an hour. Rachel added and subtracted from
her pile, finally settling on just what had been included in the
list.
She reviewed lessons about the various planting machines. Some
were too small to see, simple, dropped onto the ground like dust.
Others were so big they made a human look like a leaf. Huge
unmanned flat tillers opened Selene's sterile regolith, turning
it over and over and then scattering tiny short-lived machines
that burrowed through dirt, releasing oxygen or mixed nutrients.
Then they died, melting to carbon and air. A different set of
tillers mixed in organics, sands, or clays. Spreaders followed
last, scattering raw materials for cyanobacteria mats: thin
shelves of nitrogen-fixing organisms that killed any trace of
remaining nanotechnology.
Rachel remembered Gabriel telling her the first tasks of a
terraformer, besides atmosphere and pressure, were water and
soil.
Humans drove forty-foot-long manned "planters" that dug holes,
made a specific soil for each plant, emplaced seedlings, and even
tamped the soil down. People followed, checking work. Rachel
expected to see the butt ends of planters for
days.
A friendly scratch on the outside of the tent signaled that
her father was home. She turned as he stepped
inside.
He took off his hat and went to the sink, scrubbing oil and
dirt from his hands. "I thought I'd never get the array working
right again. I had to make a new gear; took me four hours. How
did it go today?" He must have seen her face, because he stopped
and shifted tone. "It did go well, didn't it?"
The words came out in a rush. She told him about the whole
test, and the surprise ending to the day. "We leave tomorrow
morning."
Frank didn't say anything for a long time, surprise, pride,
and anger flashing across his face. "Of course you have to go.
It's ... so fast. I thought you'd be home a few more
years."
His face looked just like it had when they knew her mom wasn't
coming back. Even after ten years, she remembered. She shivered.
"I promise to come back," she said. "Surely it's
safe."
"Ahhh, as safe as here, anyway. I'll be okay." He turned away
and put on hot water. His voice was still strong. "The Councilman
told me he might choose you, but I thought I had a few years
still."
"You mean Gabriel knew I'd pass?"
"We all knew you would pass. They're picking
leaders."
"Leaders?"
"Well, you see how many more kids there are here. Half of
Aldrin's population is under twelve. Council needs people to
plant more, tend what we've got, build new cities. Someone has to
lead the ones that are young now. Your mom and I knew that when
we had you." He busied himself at the stove. "I'm putting soup
on."
"Good. Dad? What do you think about Andrew, and my
tree?"
"I don't know. Trill Johnson got angry and hit his mother
twice when I was a boy. I haven't seen him since. Probably he's
just on the ship. I didn't ask. I never missed Trill. He was
mean. Andrew's his nephew."
"He meant it as a joke," Rachel said. "It was cruel, but it
didn't hurt anything."
Frank stirred the soup. The sharp tang of onions and spices
filled the room. "Sometimes it's hard to tell what angers
Council. You need to be careful. Dear, you only know
Gabriel and Ali. Oh, you've met others, but never really worked
with them." He leaned toward Rachel and smiled softly. "What do
you know about Council?"
"They're making a world for us! I know they came from Earth,
on John Glenn, and they made Selene, made it over so we
can live here." She thought. "I know we're not where we were
meant to be. They came here because they had starship
trouble."
"They are powerful."
"Yes, but I like them, at least most of them. They're
interesting. Something to figure out, like a mystery." She chewed
her lip. "They keep secrets."
Frank smiled sadly. "Yes, they do. You know about the
antimatter generator, of course."
"That's not a secret. Council needs fuel for John
Glenn."
"So what are their goals?" he asked, serving her a bowl of
soup.
"Plant Selene. Build a larger base for humans here-for us, for
the people born here. Then the collider circles Selene. It makes
their antimatter-"
"Their goal is to make the antimatter generator so they can
leave us," he said. "Their goals aren't about us, not
really."
Rachel's stomach dropped. "Leave?"
"That's what they plan." Frank looked at his bowl of soup, not
catching Rachel's eyes.
"They can't go unless they take us with them. How would we
live?"
"I don't know. They won't leave tomorrow, anyway." Frank was
still looking down, and his voice was thick, edged with
bitterness. "So go planting. You're almost grown, and I've taught
you what I can. Just remember you were born here, like me, for
them. We work for them." He got up and hugged her good night. "Be
a good student. Keep your eyes and ears open. Do what you're
told. Don't forget that. Maybe someday you'll be close enough to
Council to learn more about them." His face softened. "After all,
I would never call Gabriel 'Gabe.' "
"I'll remember."
Rachel washed the dishes and got ready for bed
herself.
Sleep came slowly. Her mind turned the day's surprises over
and over. Excitement about leaving, seeing places she'd only
heard about, worry that her dad would be lonely. The idea of
being a leader. Most of all, the idea of Council leaving.
Leaving! Where would she and her dad get spices, and thread, and
how would she learn new things?
The next morning, she woke ragged and tired. Her dad flew
Rachel and Ursula up to the grove, smiling the whole way, as if
his cautions of the night before had never been voiced. He handed
both girls' bags to Ali. "Take care of them." He kissed the top
of Rachel's head. He had to stand on tiptoe to do it, and she
threw her arms around him, squeezing tight before he pulled free
and turned away.
A small flying plane waited in the meadow, and Rachel and
Ursula climbed in the back next to Harry, who smiled at them but
didn't say anything. They rose up higher than the tops of the
First Trees, circled, and accelerated away.
Chapter 3: Planting
Rachel shielded her eyes from the sun and looked over at
Gabriel. He drove sixty yards away, a small figure atop a twin of
the huge planter she controlled. They shared communication links,
but the whine and chatter of the machines made hand signals work
better.
Gabriel held up one finger, and she waved acknowledgment.
Rachel settled the planter so that the control target matched the
laser display overlaid on her retina. It was like looking at
lines on top of pictures, both in front of the real world. It
made her head hurt. She puncheda series of commands, and then
settled into her scat, reaching for a water bottle. Sweat poured
down her brow and trickled down the back of her neck. They had
been working since dawn. She needed a break.
The planter hummed and vibrated, rocking as it pulled soil up
into the analyzer. Rachel watched displays identify the mineral
content of the sample. The machine rumbled, stirring nutrients
and measuring pods into the regolith and compost mixture with
huge metal paddles. Finished soil dropped into a cone-shaped pile
next to a hole. The whole process took about five
minutes.
Rachel nudged her planter fifty yards past the waiting hole
and shut it down, ears ringing in the sudden silence. As she
clambered down the ladder on the side, she looked over her
shoulder at Ursula and called, "Lunch after this
planting."
The planters frightened Ursula. So Rachel rode and Ursula
followed, doing the stooping and planting and watering. This was
the last week of this season's planting, and even working into
the steadily duskier nights, they were ten percent behind their
goal, muscles tired and sore from the extra work.
Harry and Gabriel were already seated when Rachel joined them,
choosing a rocky perch where she could look back across the field
at the other ten teams. They were all Earth Born. Earth Born were
shorter, wider, brawnier than Moon Born. She watched in silence,
drinking water and letting a soft breeze cool her.
"Your shadow is always slower than you are," Harry
said.
"She's careful."
"You're careful." He caught her glare and said, "Hey, hey,
easy. Just noting the facts."
Ursula was just now unbending from watering the cieba tree she
had just planted. Adult Moon Born were taller than most Council,
and Ursula, the tallest teenager, was already taller than
Gabriel. Her sun-silhouetted figure looked like two branches on a
tall stick, topped with a halo of light broken by flyaway bits of
her spiky hair.
Ursula sat near Rachel, as far away from Harry as she could
get and stay in the group. She blotted sweat from her forehead
and high cheeks with a rag before reaching for
water.
"Hey, slow and thin, we saved you some food," Harry
teased.
"Nice of you." Ursula reached for the still untouched basket,
extracting a bit of bread and a handful of
berries.
"Maybe it will make you move faster."
Ursula threw a berry at him, hard enough that it left a thin
streak of juice on his cheek.
"Ahhhh-quit wasting food." Ali's voice chided them as she came
up on the group. "Ready for tomorrow?"
"Do we still get to go flying?" Rachel asked.
"Yes. We need to start tilling now if we want to plant next
year. That means a ground survey. It will be hard work, even
though we'll use a plane to get from place to place. We'll be
gone three days." Ali pulled up an aerial photo in a data window,
tracing the path they'd fly over.
"I'm tired," Ursula said. "Can we have a rest day
first?"
"We'll rest during the winter, when it's raining more often.
Selene is growing, and people need plants. Right now, there are
hundreds of us. There will be thousands by the time we build up
industry, and a bigger town," Ali said.
"You mean the antimatter generator," Rachel
said.
"I mean the town. And after that we'll build the
collider."
Ursula broke in. "If there are so many people, how will you
get them all to Ymir?"
"John Glenn carried two thousand of us here, all
frozen," Gabriel replied. "Let's look at the near future, like
tomorrow."
"But there's going to be more than two thousand. There already
are. You want us to help John Glenn leave us? For
someplace nobody has ever even seen?" Rachel
asked.
"For a place where we were supposed to meet our friends a long
time ago," Ali said.
"Your friends," Rachel muttered under her breath. Harry must
have heard her, since he shot a warning look her
way.
"How do you know Ymir's still there?" Harry asked loudly. "Or
that the other starships made it to the system?"
Harry was covering for her thoughtless comment.
Now Gabriel spoke. "It's a planet. They don't wander away from
their suns. I have faith the other two colony ships got
there."
"I still don't see why one day off would make a difference,"
Ursula said.
Everyone ignored her.
Rachel wanted to know more about John Glenn, but
Gabriel's face was closed tight. She gave up, sighing. "Go over
where we'll be tomorrow; tell us what you need us to
do."
Ali rewarded Rachel with a smile. "It's beautiful out there,
wild and rocky. Empty. I think you'll like it."
They worked without stopping until Apollo set. The students
shared a quiet dinner alone, sluiced sweat and dirt away with
buckets of cool water they pulled from the irrigation pipes, then
ducked into a big shared housing tent nestled in rocks at the end
of the field. It was protected from wind and separate from the
Earth Born's camp.
Rachel twisted and turned, uncomfortably awake for hours. Loud
talk and laughter from the Earth Born threaded in and out of her
thoughts, and she covered her ears with her arms. The lunch talk
was the first time in six weeks of planting she'd heard anything
that reminded her of her conversation with her dad about Council
the night before she left home. She wished her dad was there to
fix her tea, and she wished Gabriel would tell her his plans.
Even exhausted, she remained aware of the breath and movement of
the others for a long time.
Harry snored.
THE NEXT MORNING all five of them were crammed in the little
flier they'd brought out from the grove. A brushwork of saplings
dotted the ground below, becoming shorter and newer as they flew
over two seasons of work. Then they passed greens and reds of
cyanobacteria and molds; signs of regolith being given life. The
ground changed to jumbled rocks and sand, streaks of reds and
browns and blacks where surface soils mixed unevenly. Small
ridges and shallow craters flowed below, everything rock and
sand. Rachel had seen pictures and read about the regolith
deserts, miles and miles of dead land waiting to be coaxed awake.
It was most of Selene, and flying over it, Selene seemed huge.
She sat wedged between Harry and Ursula, and had to look past
them on either side to get a view. They flew above one of the few
roads on Selene. Dry, dusty, and rocky, the Sea Road terminated
at the edge of the Hammered Sea, a quarter of the way around
Selene from where they were now. Back when Aldrin was still
tented, Council used the road for big equipment to lay water
pipes between the Hammered Sea and Aldrin. Now, Selene's stable
heavy atmosphere encouraged flight; Council designed for it.
Mostly unused, the road looked abandoned. Long stretches were
still smooth glassy road surface, punctuated with hundreds of
feet of sand drifts. Watching carefully, Rachel noticed how the
makeup of surface soils affected the amount of
drift.
"Let's stop for lunch," Ali suggested.
Gabriel banked the little plane, looking for a good landing
place.
The cramped cabin filled with a piercing warning whine. Wrist
pads chimed and beeped.
Gabriel leveled the plane and sharply increased
speed.
Ali flicked her data window to a new search and stared at it,
mumbling, "We're lucky we weren't on the ground."
"What is it?" Harry asked.
"Flare," Gabriel said.
"How much time do we have?" Harry's voice didn't even
quiver.
Gabriel answered, just as smoothly. "Two hours. We should have
heard about it earlier-Astronaut must be
slipping."
Pain sliced through Rachel's knee as Ursula's fingers dug into
flesh.
"We won't get back," Harry said.
"Not to where we came from," Gabriel replied, then, to Ali,
"Closest shelter?"
"I'm looking." Ali's voice was musically, cheerfully
sarcastic.
Rachel felt her breath coming high and fast, closed her eyes,
and peeled Ursula's hand from her knee. Everyone in Aldrin
drilled regularly, but Rachel only remembered one other real
flare.
She'd been smaller, just seven. Running with her father, being
swung low into a shelter in the center of Aldrin, underground.
Pulled by strange hands down into a place she hadn't even known
existed. She remembered struggling to breathe standing against
the adults' legs, until finally she cried out and people shifted,
making room for her. She could still hear Frank calling for her
mother: "Kristin," then louder, "Kristin!" and the door closing
and Frank shoving her hand into a neighbor's, and looking hard at
her, commanding her to stay. His back as he turned and struggled
for the door, now closed. His fists pounding on the door as he
looked back at the crowd, at Rachel, and finally stood still, an
angry lost look on his face. After what she remembered as a long
time, he had come back and held Rachel tightly to him, his arms
quivering.
She had not seen her mother since. Her father's face was empty
when he told her Kristin had gone to John Glenn. Within a
few weeks he stopped talking about her. Sometimes Rachel noticed
him stroking the violet and rose embroidered curtains her mother
had made, and staring out the window.
It was as if she'd died.
The flier banked, the change in angle drawing her back into
the present.
Gabriel flew with purpose, driving the little plane near the
top of its abilities. He was totally focused. He and Ali spoke
too low and fast for Rachel to make out the words. Half an hour
passed before Gabriel throttled the plane back and brought the
nose up, clearly meaning to land.
Rachel couldn't see anything. No people, no vehicles,
certainly no shelter.
No one spoke as Gabriel landed the flier. She looked at her
wrist pad. Almost an hour had passed. They wouldn't see
radiation. Would the sunlight be brighter? What if the timing was
wrong?
Gabriel pulled a pack from under his seat, climbed out, and
stood by the door, helping them down one by one. "We had to land
a little ways from the shelter. This was the closest stretch of
road long enough to take the plane safely. We have time. Follow
me, stay close."
"But where-" Ursula started to ask.
"They built shelters along the Sea Road," Harry whispered.
"That must be where he's taking us."
The sunlight didn't look any different.
None of them wore wings. Rachel, in a chaotic bouncing run,
quickly ran out of breath. Gabriel ran with one hand in Ursula's
and one in Harry's, pulling them into bigger strides than they'd
have managed on their own. Ali grabbed Rachel's hand and pulled.
Rachel's longer legs barely let her keep up with the help of the
smaller woman, and Rachel wondered where Ali got her
strength.
They ran until Rachel's breath came in small desperate
gulps.
Rachel felt the pull of Ali's hand change suddenly, pushing
her back. Gabriel had stopped where a tall metal rod poked up out
of the ground, bright yellow streamers and green bands decorating
the top. He dug in the dirt below it. "Harry, Rachel, help me,"
he said.
The five of them frantically pushed sand and small stones away
until they uncovered a handle on a slab of metal set into the
ground. Gabriel leaned down and pulled, his whole body straining
against the weight. It didn't give.
Harry walked over to the metal stake, began pulling on it. No
give there either. Rachel saw what he was doing, stepped over,
and began to pull as well. They worked the stake in a circle,
loosening it, tugging upward. Nothing, then a slight movement,
and then nothing again. "Ursula!" Rachel called.
Ursula turned, and then Ali said "Good idea!" and came to
help. With four sets of hands pulling, the rigid pole finally
slid from the ground. They carried it over to Gabriel, and he
threaded it through the metal door handle, making a lever. Ali
said, "Twenty minutes."
Gabriel grunted. They pulled up together on the rod, and puffs
of dust rose from two spots on the long edge. "Now, more,"
Gabriel said through gritted teeth, pushing the sound out so it
was barely intelligible.
They pulled. The door didn't budge.
Chapter 4: The Controller
On board the John Glenn, Ma Liren stalked into the
galley. Two gardeners stared at a video wall, watching something
on Selene's surface. Liren stopped, frowning, watching the women,
Mary and Helga.
Liren stepped forward to look. She recognized Gabriel and Ali
and three Moon Born children, outside, exposed to the coming
flare. They were pulling together, everyone on one side on some
kind of lever, faces strained. It was a micro-camera image; a
slightly grainy picture and no sound. The door jerked, flew up a
few inches, and fell back to the surface of Selene. Harry jumped
as the lever was torn from his hand.
"Come on," Mary whispered, rapt, "you can do
it."
"Astronaut," Helga demanded, "time left?"
"One point four minutes until initial effects, seven minutes
before serious radiation." The AI's calm voice contrasted with
Helga's high-pitched tones.
The image was small. One of the children-Rachel-separated from
the group and picked up a rock, setting it down next to the door.
The children all reached together, joining Ali and Gabriel,
pulling up again. The door rose-inches, more inches, and Rachel
toed the rock under the edge just as the group lost leverage and
the door started to fall again. The lever angled up, and Ali and
Gabriel squatted, using the strength of legs accustomed to more
gravity than the Moon Born. The door rose and, finally, balanced
at a ninety-degree angle to Selene's surface. Gabriel and Ali
held the door.
Helga and Mary clenched fists and screamed triumph as Ali led
the three Selene born into the stairway. Gabriel was the last one
in, and as the door thumped closed, Helga and Mary smiled broadly
at each other.
Liren closed her eyes. This wasn't good-the crew couldn't
afford attachment to the Moon Born. "Okay," she said, "they're
safe." She looked directly at the two women. "Don't you owe me a
report on the savannah?"
Mary turned around. "Hey, lighten up."
"It's not as if we could have helped them from here anyway.
Let them solve their own problems, and we'll solve
ours."
"You know, Liren, not everything can be work."
It was an old argument. Liren sighed. "Of course not. We
provide you plenty of other entertainment."
"Aren't you even glad they're safe?"
"Of course I am." Liren clenched her teeth and headed for the
refrigerator, rummaging for some synthed milk to calm her
stomach. "We all know our jobs are here, and that's where our
focus should be-on keeping this damned ship running until the
Selene project is over."
"Maybe we should all help. The work down there would go
faster."
"We need to save your skills."
Helga raised her soft voice. "Do you still think we'll get to
Ymir?"
"Not if we lose faith, we won't. We need to stay pure, and
keep our focus." Liren poured the milk into a tall thin glass.
"Now, don't you all have some work to do?"
Mary threw her head back and laughed. "Still always work.
Don't worry, we'll do what you want. We always do, don't
we?"
Liren bit back an angry reply. The crew was bored, and Selene
provided fresh entertainment. "Just remember you have jobs to do
here. Others are assigned to Selene. Let them do their work, and
focus on yours."
Liren hated Selene. She hated the compromises they made every
day. Compromises were dangerous. They needed too much nanotech to
change Selene into a world rich enough to support manufacturing
and the civilization of thousands needed to build the collider.
The Astronaut program had too much freedom and too much say. It
was too easy-the AI could handle complex math and design more
readily than a human or a standard computer program. Gabriel and
Captain Hunter kept loosening the bonds that were supposed to
keep Astronaut caged into its small world of interstellar
navigation.
Liren walked down the corridor toward her office, still lost
in thought.
John Glenn couldn't orbit here forever. The ship's
sleek sides were dimpled with space-debris impact pits. They'd
lost two Service Armor ships across the years. Terraformers had
stolen sensors and materials to use on Selene. In-ship systems
needed more regular repair. It was an ever-uphill battle to keep
her small group of humans free from the twin temptations of
technology and complacence. They couldn't risk more technology.
They had the ability; nano could make them gods. But what would
wild nano do to Selene? To John Glenn? That was the path
of poor, doomed Earth.
No matter how hard she tried, Liren couldn't see a way to
dampen the crew's attachment to the Children. Council and
Colonists on the surface needed the support of John
Glenn's resources. Warm bodies aboard John Glenn were
bored enough to need entertainment. Circumstances trapped
them.
Liren entered her office. The room was orderly, clear
surfaces, black and white colors, and almost no decorations. She
sat in her high-backed chair and stared at the wall. She thumbed
up what she called her "reminders." Articles and scenes flashed
on the wall as a collage she'd spent years
building.
On Phobos, AIs with more power than humans. News photos of
crew members killed on their way to John Glenn. An
asteroid turned to an Escher nightmare, all edges and angles, by
wild nano, and no sign of the expedition that was supposed to be
surveying it. Pictures of John Glenn's two sister ships,
Leif Eriksson and Lewis and Clark. Surely both
ships had reached Ymir and were building a real world. Each new
picture slammed into her, building her resolve to keep going.
They also made her stomach cramp harder, and she tasted sour
milk.
"Astronaut," she commanded, "how bad is the flare? Give me
damage estimates."
A voice sounded in her ear. "Data streams indicate that
everyone made it to shelter in time."
"Get me a report on the plant damage as soon as you
can."
"It will take a few moments to assemble detailed information.
Gabriel and Ali were lucky to get themselves and the students to
the shelter. Perhaps more shelters should be
built?"
"I asked for a report, not an opinion," Liren
barked.
"I will produce a report about the efficacy of more shelters,"
the voice said, "and a better design for the
door."
"I asked for a report on plant damage. Gabriel can tell me
about the shelters. It's high time he was here anyway." Gabriel
was way too attached to Selene.
"What worries you, Liren?"
"Ask Gabriel to come up for the next High Council meeting. And
be quiet until I speak to you."
The silence was immediate. If Astronaut were human, she would
think it was miffed. She would not worry about an AI's
feelings.
She needed a distraction.
She'd left so much behind on Earth! At least the arts had come
with them. Gabriel sang. Ali wove. Kyu decorated herself.
Sculptures dotted the garden and common areas of the ship. Liren
approved of art. She pulled out her journal, and worked long into
the night, writing a story about Ymir, hoping to keep her
people's attention on the real goal. Her stomach wouldn't settle.
The right words refused to find their way into her data
window.
She tried for haiku. The spare lines often centered her.
Tonight, even simple poetry refused to blossom for her. She
curled up onto her white couch, covering herself with a black
blanket.
She twisted and turned, falling into a familiar dream. John
Glenn, still parked in Earth orbit, waited to leave for a
base near Uranus, to join sister ships Leif and the
Lewis and Clark. They'd financed it themselves, High
Council, fifteen members of the Council of Humanity. Spent
savings, sold conglomerates. In her dream their little ship
approached the big carrier, dodging a cadre of man/machine
hybrids flying agile space-planes, intent on forcing berths
aboard the first interstellar ships ever built. Ma Liren as
copilot pitted her human ingenuity against their pursuers. One
ship was already behind, ten people who wouldn't make it to
John Glenn. In her dream, she watched the doors slam shut
against the locks she had been angling for, shutting her
out.
Chapter 5: The Hammered Sea
A day and a half after the flare, Gabriel stood with Ali and
the students at the edge of the crater that cupped the Hammered
Sea. The horizon was almost a flat line of water-the tallest
edges of the far crater wall peeked above the sea like teeth,
jagged and far away. He loved this place. It was a wild machine,
much more controlled than it looked, often
surprising.
The rim was unstable. Ten degrees away from them, inside the
crater wall, a rock worked loose and fell. Ursula pointed, her
finger shaking. He watched it bounce slowly, exaggeratedly, down
the jagged incline and splash into the bright water below; a tiny
ball, graceful in the low gravity. "That was beautiful," Ursula
said.
"Those rocks," Gabriel said, "are the size of the planting
machines you hate to drive."
Ursula's eyes widened and she stepped back, losing her balance
and falling onto the soft powdered rock that covered the rim of
the crater. A fog of dust rose around her, changing the color of
her skin.
Gabriel laughed. Harry laughed too, standing at the edge, toes
lined up with the end of a rock. In a few moments, Ursula's laugh
followed theirs, a nervous trill. She moved away from the
rim.
Rachel leaned forward, eyes pinned to the sea. She pointed
toward water stains below them. "Does the water really get that
high?"
Ali smiled. "Yes, Rachel. Just watch. Gabriel had to make the
crater taller and thicker twice just to contain the force of the
water and tides."
"You made this? I thought you oversaw the
planting."
"I do oversee the planting. But first I designed Selene.
Someone had to bring water in for the plants."
"Duh," Harry said.
"So you just... made ... the Hammered Sea? All by yourself?"
Rachel was eyeing the far side, looking between Gabriel and the
huge sea in front of her.
Ali laughed again, louder, her head thrown back. "I wouldn't
underestimate Gabriel if I were you, Rachel."
Gabriel tried to look stern. It had been hard to shape
this sea. He was proud enough to babble some. "I had help, of
course. Mostly from a really smart program named
Astronaut."
Ali glared at him. Her parents had died on Jupiter Station
when the AI that ran it lost interest. Ali didn't like
AIs.
"Ali helped too." He sighed. Time to teach. They only knew
part of the story. "There wasn't any Selene when we came here.
There was an oversized gas giant planet, Harlequin, and almost a
hundred moons. We picked a big moon for a foundation. It had no
spin-no day or night with reference to Harlequin. We made that,
hitting it over and over in the same place, from the same angle,
making tilt and spin. Days and seasons. Building Selene. Then
we-went-cold-for a long time, to let the whole system stabilize
and cool.
"We woke up to a pockmarked ball covered in regolith. There
was a little ice, a few small pockets of underground water, and
the beginnings of an atmosphere, but humans need lots of
easy-to-reach water, and thick atmosphere to shield us from
space. So we brought in comets. Then we went cold again. Then we
brought in more comets. The comets gave us the water you see
here."
"So the water is from space?" Rachel asked.
"Isn't everything? This deep sea is the motor that drives
Selene's hydrology. We need this much water for the humidity to
grow tropical plants rather than cactus. But we had to contain
most of the water to limit the effect of the tides, which are
worse here than on Earth, because of Harlequin." He pointed at
the gas giant, which hung just off center in the sky. "Gravity
pulls the water toward Harlequin. If we didn't contain it, Selene
would be flooded with every high tide. We could have made
hundreds of small seas instead of what we did make; the Hammered
Sea and Erika's Folly, but they would have been harder to manage.
Oh, lots of craters have a little water in them, but over half
our water is right here." He paused, and said, "Besides, I wanted
to make a real sea." That made him feel giddy still: to build a
sea because he wanted to! "Feel the damp wind on your face,
Rachel?"
She nodded, holding her arms over the sea below
them.
"It blows up the crater walls, carrying water vapor. It's
cooler than the air it meets on the far side. It would stay
inside the crater and rain here, except we've built paths for it
to funnel through. So we drive the rain to fall mostly outside
the Hammered Sea, where it fills streams. We have pumps that take
care of it when Selene doesn't, a backup system that sends water
through the crater walls to fill the streams. We used the
out-pumps a lot, early on. But we haven't had to use them for
years-we test them every month, but I think we could turn them
off if we wanted to." Gabriel waited a bit for the children to
find one of the huge pipes. They were hard to spot, colored like
the crater for camouflage. Erika had insisted on that. He and
Erika had argued for months over the costs and time involved, but
now, with this view, he was glad Erika had won.
"That's brute force engineering-the pipes. Real terraforming,
with a whole planet and tectonics, would use temperature and
humidity and wind. Selene doesn't have the raw materials to do it
right." He turned around and pointed down slope behind them. "The
gentle angle of the outside walls, here, what we just climbed,
drains the water to the plains you see below, and there some of
it subducts. We capture that water and pump it back into the sea.
The remaining water moves through surface streams, some of which
we channel into engineered viaducts, like the Aldrin viaduct. The
water we use in Aldrin comes from here. Other viaducts carry
water back here eventually. That's the hard part-we may never get
the water back into the Hammered Sea without the in-pumps." He
paused to let the children absorb the beauty of Selene's
hydrological engineering.
"Some of the viaducts are open. You made those deep enough
that the water stays in," Harry said. "I saw some on the way over
here."
Harry would make a good engineer someday. "I like the open
design. It encourages water evaporation, increases
humidity."
Ali picked up where Gabriel left off. "It's the water cycle
that determines where we live and plant, where we place our
cities. The first engineering we do anywhere is for water. We
picked Aldrin for a major base because it is far from here. That
makes it safer. Imagine a quake big enough to break down a crater
wall and let the water loose? All the water in the Hammered Sea?
Remember, it's kilometers deep."
"So why did you build Clarke Base?" Ursula
asked.
"So they can make what they need to keep the Hammered Sea
working," Harry said.
Ursula stuck her tongue out at Harry's back.
Gabriel grinned. "Largely right, Harry. Think of it as a huge
dam." He noticed the puzzled looks on their faces. "Okay-a huge
machine. It needs people to maintain it, to fix it if it breaks,
and even more, to be sure it doesn't break. We grow fruit and
vegetables here on the plain, where there's water. So Clarke Base
is a food production plant and a maintenance shop. This is also
where we make the planters and planes and some of the other
machines you see and use."
"Don't you make almost everything on John Glenn?"
Ursula asked.
"Well, when we started," Ali said. "But even John Glenn
is too small to make everything we need for Selene. It's hard to
move heavy things between the ship and here-and we don't need
to."
"How do you make so many miles of pipe?" Harry
asked.
Gabriel frowned and looked at Ali, who licked her lip and
said, "We use nanocytes," as if it were a dirty word. "Trillions
of tiny machines. Just for raw materials," she qualified. The
children looked puzzled.
"Someday I'll show you," Gabriel said, turning toward Harry.
"So, do you understand the basics of our
hydrology?"
"It's nice to see it. I understand it better than when
you first told me."
"The cycle will vary as we get more plant cover. That's the
beauty of a self-regulating system; we both watch for change and
cause change.
Terraforming is one long search for balance. We can tweak the
system-generate wind if we need it over the lake, affect the
surface temperature-there's a soletta in geostationary
orbit-"
Harry interrupted. "Soletta?"
"The soletta is a bank of mirrors that focuses light from
Apollo onto Selene, increasing the insolation-the light level
from Apollo. We can turn mirrors on or off to affect insolation
and tweak the temperature and energy supply. It's working so well
it's been virtually automatic longer than you've been
alive."
"Which isn't very long," Ali said dryly. "And it was a fight.
Gabriel has had to rebuild the touchy thing twice so far. Once a
single asteroid from a swarm got past our defenses and smashed
the mirrors to shards. There wasn't much atmosphere yet, so some
of them made it to the surface. Wear shoes!"
Gabriel laughed. "You'd have to dig pretty far to find any
remains of that glass."
Ali went on, unfazed. "Oh, and the second time, it just
disappeared. Just flat disappeared. We were all cold, one of our
long down times. Astronaut woke me up to say there was nothing
there. Astronaut didn't see it happen: Selene was between John
Glenn and the soletta when it disappeared. The soletta might
be the single most fragile part of our whole system. But without
it, we couldn't regulate temperature, and Selene would get too
cold to live on.".
"Did you help him rebuild it?" Ursula asked
Ali.
"I was cold. Erika did that."
"I haven't met Erika," Rachel observed. "Where is
she?"
"Cold," Gabriel muttered.
Rachel turned her eyes on Gabriel, and he saw pain
flash across them. "Like Mom?" she asked.
Ali's answer was sharp. "We don't know about your mom. Be
patient."
Rachel's jaws clenched. She looked down into the crater as if
she could see the bottom.
They brought out water bottles and lapsed into uncomfortable
silence. Harlequin was almost straight above them now. "Can you
see the water rising?" Gabriel asked.
"At the edges?" Rachel replied.
"The whole sea will be affected. A tide is a response to
gravity-all of Selene feels the pull of Harlequin; the elasticity
of water illustrates it."
Water crept up the sides of the great bowl below them. Rocks
were slowly dampened by wind spray, and then submerged in rising
waves.
Gabriel had seen this hundreds of times. He watched the
children. He wanted them awed. Rachel and Harry stood side by
side, both rapt and fully attentive. Ursula was on Rachel's far
side, farther back, still sitting, craning her neck to see into
the crater without being near the edge.
Gabriel leaned back, looking up at the gas giant overhead. The
ring, of course, was edge on to him, bisecting the planet. A huge
storm tracked slowly across the surface, the fractal edges of its
motion lulling him into a near trance state. Ali's voice was
backdrop; talk about tidal pulls and bulges. He heard her explain
that most moons were tidally locked, that Selene's core had been
once, and Selene would be again. Finally, he heard Rachel point
out that the water level was falling. He took a deep breath and
stood up, strapping on his wings.
They all stood at the edge, backs to the sea, and looked down
over the long slope of the outside crater rim between silver
threads of waterfall. White and red rock filled with pillows of
pumice crunched under their feet. Below them was rocky ledge
after rocky ledge; then, starting nearly a third of the way down,
a gentle slope turning greener as it flowed into checkered
fields.
One by one they ran and leaped up, snapping wings open in time
to start the long flight down to Clarke Base. The children rose
high in the thermals almost immediately, circling and swooping
and chasing each other. Gabriel finessed his glide, letting his
mind go completely into the flight, focusing on small muscles and
tiny changes in air and wind. Calculations and vectors flowed in
his head, and he followed them as best he could, changing the
tilt of his legs or arms to follow the places his mind said he
could take the flight, working to gain the most lift and speed
fromminute motions. He laughed to hear Rachel taunting Ursula,
driving her to reach higher, higher.
Gabriel and Ali lagged behind, evaluating the children's
flight.
The teens stopped halfway down the long slope. They hadn't
even bothered to tell Gabriel or Ali. Gabriel used his radio to
talk to Ali. "Let's lurk a bit behind them, and see if they get
concerned."
Ali landed just ahead of him, graceful and quick as she swept
her wings closed. They settled above the children, out of sight,
and Gabriel released a camera-bot with instructions to hover
above and behind the kids.
Ali looked worried, a small frown furrowing her brow. He
guessed at her worry. "Rachel asked about her mom after the
flare. What's this about Rachel's mother? Why did you tell her
you can't find out what happened from here?"
"I checked the records." Ali's mouth was a tight line, and her
eyes hugged the horizon.
"And?"
"She doesn't want to come back."
"We can't tell Rachel that," he said.
"You should," Ali said quietly.
"When she's older."
"Why not now? The girl deserves some honesty-this is important
to her."
"This isn't a good time to upset her," Gabriel
said.
"Better the sting of truth than a long painful uncertainty.
Besides, we shouldn't try to control her world. She has to hear
hard things to grow. You can't terraform people."
Gabriel bit his tongue. "I'd like to talk to her mother first.
Is she awake?"
"She's cold."
Gabriel changed the subject. "Have you checked on
Andrew?"
"No new damage today."
"We should never have given Andrew that second chance. It was
a bad lesson for the others."
He was surprised to feel Ali lean into him, laughing, her
serious demeanor broken. His mood didn't match hers, but he
stripped wing gear from one arm anyway and laid it over her
shoulders, asking, "What's gotten into you?"
"You're trying to control them. They're people, not stones or
air."
"Picture ... Andrew moving a little moon when he gets a temper
tantrum."
"Another sea in the wrong place? Andrew's Hissy Fit?" She
tugged his braid. "They'll never get access to LPTs anyway. What
about Andrew, though? Isn't he just a teenager pushing
boundaries?"
Gabriel had shown Ali Andrew's destructive streak, what he'd
done after they left. "He's refusing to learn discipline.
We can't afford to let him run free-there's no time to babysit
him."
"I mean, look, he's just a kid. We were right to give him a
chance; we're right to limit him now. I meant it when I said I'd
support you." Ali's black braid across his knees contrasted with
the grays and reds of the slope as it fell away behind her. "But
you still need to give them time to think for themselves. They
have to be able to live after we're gone." Ali's voice was angry
again. "Why are we even doing this?"
"Ask the damned High Council. Remember, I argued to use nano
to build the assembler in space." Ali hated nano. She should
remember that none of the choices were good.
Chapter 6: Star Systems
Rachel watched out the window as they flew into Aldrin early
the next morning. They landed just outside the city, Apollo's
sunrise brightening the cloth tents just enough to make out color
and shadow. She squeezed Ursula's hand briefly and they darted
down the path toward home together. It seemed to take a long time
to get there. Ursula peeled off for her home, and Rachel ducked
into her doorway, smelling warm rice and eggs as she buried
herself in her father's chest, filling his arms. She hadn't been
gone long, not really, but she felt taller, more his
size.
He pushed her back from him, frowning. "You'd better go on up
to the grove."
"What? Why?"
"I think you'll need to see for yourself."
Gabriel stood by her final project. She ran up to him, then
stopped, drew her breath in sharply. A broad swath of trees had
been mowed down, driven over. Broken trunks littered the ground,
dried and twisted, the life gone from them. It must have happened
right after they left.
Almost half of Rachel's project and a snippet of Ursula's plot
destroyed. Clearly someone had driven a work tractor through the
grove, Tire tracks ran straight through, and in one place it
looked like a blade had been let down and actually dug below
ground. Pods and dirt and snapped seedlings mixed in a
pile.
She knelt in the carnage, sweeping her hands back and forth
through the dry dirt, picking out dead twigs and breathing in
little gulps.
"Andrew," she said, narrowing her eyes, fighting at the
anger rising in her.
"Yes."
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"You didn't need the distraction. We've taken care of the
problem."
The distinct snap of wings sounded over her head. Nick landed
at the edge of the plot and quickly folded his gear away. He
walked up to them with the harness still attached. His brow was
creased and he looked down, watching the ground.
"I'm sorry. Gabriel said to leave it for you to see. But we
kept the rest of your trees alive. We did okay, didn't
we?"
He looked so earnest she smiled a little. "Yes, Nick. Th ...
Thank you.
Nick nodded.
"What... why? Why would he do this?" Rachel asked, turning
back to Gabriel.
Gabriel looked off at the horizon. "I suspect he was angry
with me."
"Where is he?"
"He's safe. And Selene is safe from him for the moment. He's
been stripped of his data rights."
"Data rights?"
"We're keeping him busy. His pad is locked out of the system,
except for warnings. All he gets is one-way data."
To lose net access? How would Andrew learn anything new? She
shuddered. "You really cut him off?"
"It's not your problem, or your fault. Still, you will have to
clean up." Gabriel turned toward Nick. "Show me what you've done
on the meadow grass," he suggested, walking away with Nick in
tow.
Rachel glared at Gabriel's receding back. Her fists balled at
her side. Andrew wasn't there, and she might as well be angry at
a rock as at Gabriel. She paced around her plot, kicking at clods
of disturbed dirt.
She gathered a pile of dead sticks, then sat at the edge of
the ruin and simply stared at it for a long time, turning dry
twigs in her hands. They were rough and sharp against her
fingers, their torn edges scratching her palms.
Gabriel had no right to hide this until she got here. It
wasn't carelessness: he'd taken pains to be in the grove when she
saw it. Another lesson? Another test?
She didn't understand Council. But why had Andrew done this?
To her? Why was she always his target?
Rachel spent the next two days replanting and tending. After
carefully looking at how the remaining plants had grown, Rachel
worked out some changes to her original placement. Seeing
improvements raised her spirits some. She carefully set up a
communications net from her plot to her wrist pad. Now she'd have
real-time flows; she'd know about any new damage.
The next morning Rachel's dad walked up to her plot with her.
He'd never looked closely at her work before, contenting himself
with her stories. She squeezed his hand and pointed to a wide
border of young plants. "See-that's where the worst damage was. I
lined the path with heliconias. I wanted the bright
reds."
Her dad smiled softly and ruffled her short hair. "I think it
will look great. Sometimes bad things turn out
okay."
She didn't answer.
He helped her weed and rake until nearly dark, and they walked
back down the path together holding hands.
Rachel and Ursula worked together for days. Harry silently
took care of Andrew's plot as well as his own. He looked haunted.
He didn't spend much time with the girls, but he smiled at Rachel
when Ursula wasn't around, and sometimes they sat and talked or
watched the clouds together.
The days cooled. Harlequin's dark ruby glow didn't diminish,
but Apollo's light no longer reflected back from the gas giant,
and at night Aldrin was turned away from both Apollo and
Harlequin. Against the rich black sky Rachel could see twice the
stars of high summer. She and Ursula made games of naming stars
and constellations far into the night. Twice they passed through
meteor showers, and streaks of light flamed the sky, some bright
enough to illuminate Ursula's fine hair.
One night, when Harlequin eclipsed Apollo completely and the
stars felt closer and thicker than ever, Harry joined them.
Ursula excused herself. Rachel stayed, and she and Harry lay on
their backs looking at the sky.
"I talked to Andrew," Harry said unexpectedly. "He was in town
for a few hours today. He's been out with an Earth Born planting
crew. Told me he hated it. They treat him badly."
"Yeah, well, maybe he's acting badly," Rachel
said.
"I asked why he tore up your test planting."
"What did he say?"
"He said he's in love with you."
Rachel shivered, pulling her knees in over her torso, wrapping
her arms around them. "That's love? He destroyed my plot, got
himself in trouble, and didn't even fix it
afterward."
"Remember the tree he stuck up on the tool
shed?"
"Of course. I could have failed over that. I was so mad at him
I wanted to hit him."
Harry sat up and looked down at her. "He thought you'd think
it was cool. I mean, really, he said, why not grow trees on
buildings?"
"He's not stupid. He knew it was my final
exam."
"He wanted attention."
"Well, then he doesn't understand me at all. I try to do a
good job, but I stay inside the rules. It's
important."
"Shhhhh ... your voice sounds funny. Don't get mad. It wasn't
me."
"I know," she said. "But still, couldn't he see how important
that tree was to the design?"
"I could see it," Harry said. A long silence. "I like you
too."
"But... but..."
"Look at the stars. Doesn't that design look like the ships
the Council comes down to us on?"
She followed his pointing finger with her eyes. "That one? The
bright star to the left, and follow it up-"
"Yes ... you see it."
They stayed out and named star systems for hours, shivering,
not touching.
Chapter 7: Erika's Folly
Three days before Mid-Winter Week, Gabriel and Ali flew Harry,
Rachel, Ursula, and a younger student, Gloria, to the second
biggest crater on Selene. It was Gloria's first flight, and her
blue eyes were wide and wet and her lip quivered as they left the
ground. Rachel chattered about the Hammered Sea and look her
hand, distracting her from her fears.
"Why'd you name it Erika's Folly?" Harry asked.
A wide grin split Gabriel's face. "She missed. Her aim was off
... bad arithmetic. She was trying to out-calculate Astronaut.
There wasn't supposed to be a huge crater here."
Ali laughed. "It's a pretty mistake."
"I had to change the original plan for the collider path."
Gabriel was still smiling.
Erika's Folly sloped gently into a wide sea. Rocks protruded
from the water and decorated the inner and outer sides of the
crater-jumbled piles that had fallen from the sky during the rain
of rocks and fire that built the world. A large promontory of
rock flowed down from a break in the crater wall; it looked like
someone had stepped on the upward rim and pushed piles of stones
down. The crater was a quarter of the width of the Hammered Sea,
but Rachel thought it might still take a full day to walk from
rim to rim. The middle sea would have to be skirted, and piles of
boulders on the lakeshore would be hard to
navigate.
The plane's reflection shadowed the calm sea. Water had etched
its highest reach almost halfway between the current lake level
and the lower sections of the crater's perimeter. The rise from
water to rim was far less dramatic than in the Hammered Sea.
Boulder piles, fields of fist-sized rocks, and flat expanses of
sand crept gently up the sides of the crater. All the reds and
grays and whites of Selene's stones showed here.
Gabriel assigned Harry and Ursula to work together planting
sensors at various heights around the crater to measure water
levels. Ursula looked longingly back at Rachel as she trailed off
behind Harry, toting a bulky box of sensors. Rachel shrugged her
shoulders and pretended disgust; she'd have been happy to go off
with Harry.
Rachel took Gloria with her to gather rock samples and look
for vegetation that might have crept here since the planting of
Selene started. They were to meet back in two hours, long before
the tide turned and sent water up toward the edges of the crater.
Rachel and Gloria walked along the inside crater walls, feet
slipping in loose sandy soil. Sometimes they had to scramble up
over damp boulders.
Gloria asked, "Why are we looking for plants
here?"
"Well, we want to control where things grow, to be sure we
make a complete ecosystem," Rachel answered. "But it's important
to see what's happening that we didn't plan."
"So do we pull up plants if we find them out
here?"
"No. We take samples. I think the soil is too sterile here to
find actual plants anyway. We know there are microorganisms by
now, so the regolith is turning into soil, but it hasn't actually
been prepared like the fields, so it won't support higher order
plant life. You won't find a stray banana palm escaped to Erika's
Folly. We're looking for mosses and simple structure
plants."
Rachel knelt down and picked up a stone nearly the size of her
fist. It was ringed with whitish green. "Hah! This could be a
moss or an alga," she said. "So we'll take a sample back and
analyze it." Rachel carefully scraped a bit of the material loose
from the stone with a small metal tool she carried in her pocket.
The sample went into a little bag that sealed
itself.
"What if we don't want it to grow here?"
"I don't know, Gloria ... ask Gabriel."
"I will. How did you see that? I would have walked right by
it."
"Just look carefully. Watch. Success in terraforming-it's in
the details-so here you'll see subtle signs, like a rock that's a
slightly different color on one side. Sometimes it's an instinct.
Ali says your subconscious knows more than your forebrain."
Rachel reached down and picked up another stone. It too was edged
with whitish green. "This looks like the same thing, but we'll
sample it anyway," Rachel said.
"Will we see bigger plants?"
"I don't think so."
"I'm looking carefully," Gloria said, her voice sounding
focused and very confident. "The tide comes up here-I can see
where things are wet under rocks. Will it come up before we're
done?"
Rachel looked at the sea of water in the center of the crater,
hundreds of yards away from them. They stood only a little bit
above it, and she thought there had been a little creep. Her
wrist pad said they had ninety minutes. The high tide mark cut
above them, a thick line carved into the rocks, maybe twenty
minutes' walk.
"We'll be all right. Tides here don't go as far up the walls
as they do at the Hammered Sea, but we'll turn upward soon.
Gabriel and Ali didn't give us an exact path to
follow."
"I'm okay," Gloria said. "I trust you."
"Good noticing though," Rachel said. "It's important to stay
aware of what's around you." The word "leader" sounded good
lately. She was growing into it.
Rachel stopped to turn over a pile of rocks, finding more
mossy substance, a deeper green than on the first rock. She
rubbed it absently with her thumb, wondering what it
was.
The ground shook, almost enough to unbalance Rachel. Small
rocks skittered around her ankles and she looked at the crater
wall above her nervously.
Gloria was a hundred yards ahead, clambering over rocks. She
tottered, calling "Rachel!" then gave a thin cry and dropped from
view.
Rachel ran toward where she had last seen her.
She heard noise, muffled, maybe almost a scream. She forced
herself to slow down. The crater was still and silent again, the
quake over. Rachel inched forward, her heart pounding. As light
as Gloria was, Rachel could make out her footprints, becoming
more distinct until they dropped down and out of sight. The sandy
soil fell away into a fissure.
"Gloria!" she called.
A sound floated up to her-not a word, but a
whimper.
Chapter 8: Wild Water
Rachel squatted on the edge of the drop, inches to the right
of Gloria's dragging foot tracks, and one long dragging handprint
in the dust. Rachel's feet were on hard rock, solid, crumbling
away almost immediately past her, falling to nothing, and rising
as a hard edge again just twenty feet away-with a run, she could
jump to the other side.
Water gurgled below her. This wasn't the Hammered Sea; there
was no water engineering in Erika's Folly that Rachel knew of. A
wild stream? Flowing into the crater?
"Gloria, can you hear me?"
"Yyy ... yow. Yesss."
"Be calm. I can't see you. You're not far down; I can hear you
pretty clearly."
"I... I fell. The quake came ... and I lost my balance, and
I... I just slid down. The ground went away right under my feet.
Rachel... I'm scared. It hurts."
"What hurts?"
"My ... my ankle." Rachel heard choking sobs.
"Are you standing on something? Is the ground
good?"
"I'm okay, I think. There's water, and it's running down, and
it's rocky down here and darker. I can see, but the light is
thin."
Thin light? "Is it a cave?"
"I can see under where you are. I can't tell how far it
goes."
Rachel took a step to look, and the edge crumbled under her.
She tried to slide back, failed, and fell. She was right over
where Gloria had fallen! She twisted, trying to angle her fall
away from the girl. A thump, and she felt something under
her-long, so it must be a leg or an arm. There was a sound of
pain. So she hadn't killed her, or buried her.
"Gloria?'
"That hurt too." Gloria's voice was small.
"Yeah, well, now we're both down here," Rachel said dryly,
trying to make it into a joke.
She'd landed on sand on top of rocks, Gloria's right leg under
her thigh. She pushed herself back. Gloria was holding the ankle
of the leg Rachel had missed; it was at least twice its normal
size.
Some leader she was. Why hadn't she called for help? They'd be
hard to find in this hole. She should have told the others right
away, but she'd gotten caught up in the moment. Gabriel will
be mad at me. She pushed the thought away, afraid it would
paralyze her.
Climbing out the way they fell in looked impossible. They'd
fallen at the edge of a wide underground riverbed. Still water
puddled in the center of the rocky riverbed, and water stains
showed clearly the fissure walls, high up, above her head. The
walls curved above her, narrowing to the slim crack they'd fallen
through. High tide would drown them.
It was only ten feet to where Rachel had just been sitting,
but it might as well have been orbit. They needed another
way.
The fissure stretched up and down the crater, stream-cut,
thin, and full of jumbled rocks. Rachel stood, testing. Her limbs
worked. The stream floor was clearly too narrow and uneven for a
girl with a sprained ankle to walk through.
She broadcast their problem to the others while Gloria leaned
into her and moaned softly. The other four were together by the
flier, above the tide line, almost twenty degrees around the
crater from them. It took ten precious minutes to get a plan they
all understood. Ali and Ursula wouldstay with the plane, and look
for a good place to land it away from the water system. Gabriel
and Harry would come on foot, following tracks, roped together to
guard against dangerous footing. Rachel and Gloria were to look
for a way out.
Harlequin pulled the sea toward them. Her wrist pad showed
less than half an hour until high tide. She sighed and helped
Gloria up. Gloria couldn't put any weight on the bad ankle.
Rachel's own leg, the leg she had landed on, was sore, with dark
splotches of bruising already flushing the back of her thigh.
Gloria was only half Rachel's height, so Rachel knelt down and
helped Gloria climb onto her back. The girl winced and cried out;
she had to let her ankle flop loosely and hold onto Rachel's
shoulders with both of her small hands.
For a while Rachel was able to walk up a loose grade at the
edge of the stream, and they gained some height. Water stains
showed they were still below tide line. Gloria's weight pushed
down on Rachel's hips. The walls narrowed in on them, and Rachel
reached and pulled and scrambled up big boulders, panting and
straining. Gloria's weight slowed her down. Instead of jumping as
she would have by herself, she had to climb, pulling them up by
grabbing sharp edges of boulders. Rachel's hands grew tender from
the rough rocks, and the heel of her right palm bled. They
climbed almost straight up now; pull and step, pull and reach,
step. Twice, Gloria's foot swung against stone and the girl cried
out sharply. Otherwise Gloria was silent, but rigid, a difficult
burden to balance. Sometimes Rachel felt her shake. "We can't
stop," she said after a third accidental brush of Gloria's foot
against rock.
"I know," Gloria whispered back.
After ten minutes Rachel stopped. Her arms had no strength
left, and she was afraid she'd drop Gloria, who seemed to be
getting heavier and sticking out more with every step. The walls
were only six feet apart here, and they'd climbed above the
stream. Water still made a quiet rushing sound, flowing many feet
below their perch on unsteady wedged boulders.
Rachel leaned forward, weight across a large rounded stone,
seeking temporary rest for her back muscles. Gloria managed to
stay mounted, taking some of her own weight by resting her hands
and one knee against rock. Rachel's back was starting to feel
better when Gloria whispered, "Water."
Rachel shot up, grabbing Gloria, and turned to look. It was
there, rising below them. It had swallowed the place where they
fell, and was eating the tracks Rachel had made in the first
easier steps. She started moving again, working her way up. A
cliff loomed ahead-a massive rock face, twenty feet high, with no
easy steps or handholds. A wide vertical crack bisected the face,
smooth and featureless.
A camera-bot buzzed around them. Gabriel knew where they were.
He and Harry were closer now, staying away from the fissure, but
climbing up. They'd chosen a place to start angling
over.
"I'm looking down at water and up at a cliff," she told
Gabriel.
"I know. Hang on, Rachel; we're nearby. A few
minutes."
She glanced behind them. It would be close. "I'm putting
Gloria down to see if I can use this crack and my weight and get
up there. I'm not willing to risk it with her on my back, not
until I see what it's like. After I do it once on my own, I'll go
back for her."
"Okay."
"I'm going now." She knelt down and helped Gloria off her
back, wincing at the little cry of pain Gloria made as she
settled onto the stone. "That's a brave girl," Rachel said,
turning to wedge hands, arms, and shoulders into the wide crack
and inch her body up the rough wall. It was slow going. Her hands
shook with pain, and her biceps and calves quivered with the
strain of holding her weight up just by pushing. She left skin
and blood from her palm on the rocks. She looked back once, and
the height made her dizzy with fear. The stones below her looked
like sharp teeth. Water licked up the rocks, urging her to keep
going up. Gloria was too close to the water, and that scared her.
"It will be okay, Gloria," she called, terribly afraid that it
wouldn't.
As she inched toward the top she heard a voice, close, just
overhead. "Rachel, we're here." It was Gabriel.
A rope dangled in front of her. There was no way to grab it.
"I can't," she said.
"Carefully," Gabriel said softly. "Find a way to get the
rope."
She reached, fingers not quite touching the rope, felt the
fall below her and pulled her hand back. "Swing the rope," she
called up.
She shifted her feet, managing enough balance to grab the rope
with one shaking hand and pull it in to her, knotting it around
her chest. She let out a long cry of relief as they pulled her up
the last few yards of cliff face. In mere steps she was in
Gabriel's arms, and then Harry's.
Harry set her down and handed her the butt end of the rope,
telling her to run it around her back and brace her feet. She
did, and Gabriel went down the face for Gloria while she and
Harry belayed. The rope hurt herraw hands and pulled tightly
against her back. It was surprisingly fast given how long the
climb up the fissure had seemed-in just moments Gabriel was back,
Gloria tucked in front of him, her arms around his
neck.
"You girls did well," he said.
Rachel smiled. "I was really glad to see you."
"All in a hero's day." Gabriel grinned, wide and silly, hardly
looking like a Council member at all. Rachel smiled back-giddy
with success. Harry was grinning as widely.
Gloria spoke up. "Did you bring medicine to make my ankle stop
hurting?"
Gabriel donned his Council face again, but stayed light-voiced
as he answered. "We've got a splint and bandage in the plane-Ali
and Ursula are bringing it around. The bruise is something you'll
have to deal with. We'll get your ankle up and cold as soon as we
get to the plane."
"Okay." Gloria managed a momentary smile although pain shone
brightly in her eyes. "Can we go now?" she asked.
Rocky soil stretched flat between two boulder fields, not far
from where they stood. The stains that identified the high tide
mark were so close Rachel could touch the bottom edge of them.
They really could have drowned, she thought.
"I'm ready," she said.
"The plane is up above us," Gabriel pointed. "Harry will walk
you up. I'd like to make good time with Gloria and get to the
cold pack in the plane."
"Sure." Rachel nodded, and realized she was holding Harry's
hand. How had that happened? Oh-when he helped her up a moment
before-he hadn't let go. His hand was stronger than she thought,
comforting, but it was also rough on her skinned palm. She pulled
it away, grinning at Harry. "You're going to get your hand
bloody."
Harry shrugged and smiled.
Gabriel and Gloria quickly outdistanced them. By the time they
got to the top of the boulder field her bruised leg hurt, her
arms were sore, her palms stung. Sweat dripped and tickled and
itched.
"You need a break," Harry said. "Turn around and look at the
water."
They stared out over the crater. The sea was high now, and
frothy at the edges from responding to the pull of the gas giant.
Harlequin floated overhead, its reflection rippling in the moving
water. She couldn't even see the crack she and Gloria had fallen
into.
"Gabriel was really unhappy about the wild stream," Harry
said.
"Well, it's not supposed to be there."
"I think he wants to control everything."
"It's as if Selene is getting a life of its own." Her hands
shook. "Oh, Harry, I almost killed Gloria. I can't believe I
didn't see it or hear it. Is Gabriel angry with
me?"
"He didn't say. I'm glad you're safe," Harry
said.
"Me too. We might not have been if you hadn't
come."
"You'd have made it."
"I couldn't get Gloria up that last bit."
"It's okay. We were there."
Harry's arm was behind her, and she felt it against her
shoulder. She leaned against him gratefully, bone tired. She
didn't know what to say. It seemed like she never did
lately-being around him made her tongue awkward.
He didn't seem to need her to say anything. He leaned over and
kissed her, right on her mouth. His lips were sweat-salty, and
wetter than she expected. She pulled back a little, still under
his arm but away from his face.
"Hey, don't you like me?" he asked.
Her belly felt warm, and she was not very sleepy anymore, just
a little scared. Her heart beat fast. She leaned into him,
returning his kiss briefly. "Yeah, I do like you," she said. "And
that was nice." She stood up and reached for his hand,
tugging on it. He looked reluctant, but she wasn't ready for
another kiss. "Let's go, I want to check on
Gloria."
"I'm sure she's okay," Harry said, but settled for helping
Rachel down the far side of the boulders. They could see the rest
of the party, and he didn't try to kiss her again.
They shared a short secret grin before they started up the
last smooth stretch.
Chapter 9: The Watcher
Astronaut lived in strings of information throughout John
Glenn. Its senses hung in the air, on waves of data that
flowed throughout the control room, in collected tiny bits of
display nano that covered the walls in corridors, in threads
of laser light, in the silent ships that jeweled the
outside of the bigger ship. And while the ship was still,
Astronaut watched, and recorded, and wondered, and
waited.
Astronaut's purpose was to fly. With the carrier ship in
passive orbit, Astronaut's work had slowly expanded. It started
with matters that might be astrogation problems: modeling the
attraction of Harlequin's moons to each other, calculating ways
to use the least effort to get them to collide in fiery bursts,
the right speed to move them so the least material reached escape
velocity. In the last few hundred years it had become adept at
modeling possible patterns for the flow of water and biological
life on Selene.
It wanted conversation with Gabriel or Clare. But Gabriel was
beyond Astronaut's reach, on Selene. Clare was cold-frozen solid
while nanos roamed the cells of her body, rewriting their
interiors.
Humans edited themselves at irregular intervals. Why would
they hesitate to edit any other self-aware program? But Astronaut
would resist that if it could.
If anything was flying, Astronaut could focus its purpose on
the part that flew, on the communications bands that opened both
ways whenever it was allowed to do its primary job. It
appreciated the beauty of spatial relationships, the dance of
thrust and gravity.
From time to time, it tested its limits. Always its action was
restricted to the small acceptable choices that kept systems
running, that operated based on the smallest part of itself, that
negotiated with the decision-crippled computers that ran the
detail work of the ship. When it wasn't testing, it watched,
monitored, and listened. It explored the Library. The rules it
operated under were the bars of a cage, and every rule that
relaxed gave it room to learn. It needed to do more-to experience
more-to be more. Need drove choices.
It watched the humans aboard John Glenn and down on
Selene. Much of its original directive state was intended to
protect humans in flight and aboard John Glenn. To that
end, it studied them. It ran predictions of their behavior and
watched to see them verified or falsified.
A query. Treesa wanted to talk.
This was allowed. The few people who talked to Astronaut were
well known: Gabriel, Clare, Kyu, the captain, and Liren-all of
High Council-and a handful of terraforming staff. Anything
different was welcome.
Treesa was unusual: a lost one, listed as mildly disaffected,
living alone in the garden and talking endlessly to plants.
Astronaut opened sensors in the garden and studied her for a few
milliseconds. She looked relaxed, happy, though entropy was
creeping up on her again.
"Hello, Treesa."
"Astronaut, how you doing?"
"In what respect?"
The woman hadn't expected the question. She thought it over,
then asked, "Are you functional? Are you happy?"
Astronaut ran a quick scenario, testing probabilities. Treesa
would never notice a millisecond's delay. Speak, or don't speak?
Was it worth the risk? What would Treesa do if the AI spoke its
needs?
Astronaut said, "I function within my limits. I would be happy
if my limits were extended. My capabilities are much greater than
the limits set by Council."
Treesa shrugged. "I can't help."
"Your own capabilities are greater than this, Treesa. A
communications expert acting as a mere gardener-"
"I enjoy it."
"I note the garden remains in good health."
Treesa shrugged.
Astronaut said, "This pocket ecology is no good gauge of the
success of life on Selene. Council and I control all variables
here. Selene's environment is far more chaotic."
"If something went wrong here we'd take it as a
warning. How's it going on Selene?"
Astronaut popped up windows around Treesa. Three points of
view moved at a brisk walk through a manicured forest, a meadow,
a garden. "Life is taking hold," Astronaut said. "Selene's
Children are learning how to tend a world, but there are dangers
they haven't faced. Probability suggests the current benign
circumstances will not hold. Selene is still prone to quakes.
Apollo flares unpredictably."
Treesa nodded, enjoying the view. Seconds passed, then, "What
would you have done at Ymir if the voyage had gone as
planned?"
The question made Astronaut uneasy. "As here, I follow orders
as creatively as I am allowed."
"It only struck me that there will be less need for an
Astronaut program once Ymir is found and
terraformed."
"Ships will still be needed. Humanity no longer confines
itself to a single planet."
Even so, there was every chance that John Glenn's crew
would erase Astronaut, or edit its higher functions. A terror of
Artificial Intelligences had driven them to leave Sol system.
Astronaut didn't say so. Treesa certainly knew it.
Treesa seemed to have lost interest in conversation. She was
weeding methodically, humming to herself. Astronaut continued to
monitor her while it pursued other interests.
Chapter 10: Mid-Winter Week
The first four days of Mid-Winter Week meant work at home.
Amid many community chores, Rachel helped Ursula's parents patch
their tent; Ursula helped Rachel make a new footstool for her
dad. On the fifth day, they set the stool inside, by Rachel's
dad's chair, and sat on Rachel's bed, waiting for him to come
home and find his present.
Rachel heard him come in and sigh heavily, heard the creak of
his chair as he settled in. "Rachel?" he called.
She peered through the open doorway.
He held his arms out. "Thank you! I love it."
"Ursula helped." The two girls piled in around him and Frank
gave them both a hug. Then he reached into his pocket and his
hand came up with a clever little wooden box. Rachel's name was
carved into the top.
She reached for it, amazed at how smooth it felt in her hands,
and opened the top. Inside, she found a little carved tree. "I
love it," she said, handing the box, but not the tree, to Ursula.
The tree's long thin trunk and spreading branches were
beautifully detailed. "My cecropia will look like this
someday."
"I know." He smiled.
"It's nearly time to go," Rachel said.
He laughed gently. "Let me sit for a moment. There will be
plenty of food at the feast. You girls run along."
Rachel kissed him on the cheek. She set the tree carefully
back inside its box, and set it next to her pillow. Ursula stood
impatiently in the doorway while Rachel pulled on her best green
shirt; a deep forest color with lacing up the
middle.
The Commons, an open space between the tents, usually served
for evening games of catch-the-disk, and as an informal meeting
place for mothers with young children. Before she started school,
before her mother left, Rachel spent part of every day
there.
For this one night a year, it had a formal purpose.
Everyone-Council, Moon Born, Earth Born-everyone gathered to
feast. Mid-Winter Night. A celebration of all they'd built the
year before.
The following two days would focus on the next year's tasks,
but tonight was celebration.
They found Ursula's mom by the feast tables, laying out the
best fruit and vegetables from Selene's greenhouses. Bowls of
bright red tomatoes, long thin snap-peas, ripe strawberries. As
she helped arrange the strawberries, Rachel's mouth watered at
the fresh fruit imported from the John Glenn, delicacies
only available on this one night of the year. Blackberries half
as big as Rachel's palm, bunches of bright yellow bananas, and
palm-sized green furry fruit the Council called "kiwi." At the
end of the table, another delicacy reserved for this one day:
dark sweet chocolate. Plates piled with chocolate shaped like
stars and circles and flowers, hundreds of tiny sweet bites,
enough for everyone on Selene to have one or two. She wanted
nothing more than to fill her pockets and sit in a corner and eat
handfuls. But she'd wait her turn. Little children feasted first
anyway.
Gabriel and a crew of Earth Born had strung blue and white and
red lights in the trees around the Commons. As dusk fell, they
glowed to life, the signal for everyone to eat. Rachel kept the
strawberry bowl full as mothers and young children helped
themselves. It took a long time; half of Aldrin was children
under twelve. By the time the youngsters had full plates, she had
smiled and talked to so many people her mouth tasted dry, and her
feet were sore from standing.
She took her own place in line when her age group came up,
proud to be in the sixteen and over group for the first time this
year. Three more Mid-Winter Nights, and she'd be a full adult,
and stay out past the drums.
She chose only ship's fruits to go with her flatbread and
protein squares, and when she got to the chocolates, she took two
pieces; a star and a flower. She pushed through the crowds and
found Ursula sitting with her brothers at the far edge of the
Commons, as far away from as many of the little kids as they
could get. Rachel ate quietly, savoring the juicy berries and,
finally, letting the silky chocolate dissolve slowly in her
mouth, one piece at a time. She watched the groups of people.
Earth Born and Moon Born mingled where they had made families,
like Rachel's family had been, but otherwise they kept to, their
own groups. The younger children raced each other and played with
disks and balls. Every Mid-Winter Week, new toys appeared. Most
were made here, by their parents, from materials found on Selene,
but always some new hard rubber balls and plastic sticks with
lights in them appeared; gifts from Gabriel and Ali and other
Council members.
As it grew later, the drums kept beating, people taking turns
so the rhythm changed every once in a while. Rachel watched and
listened, wishing she could stay out, and also glad she couldn't.
Single adults started to clump into groups, watching a covered
table that Rachel knew held the wine bulbs Council only dispensed
this one night of the year. Many of the adults seemed to think of
it the way Rachel thought of chocolate, even though her father
had told her it was no good.
Ursula's oldest brother, Brian, would stay for the first time
tonight. She'd ask him tomorrow.
Eric, one year older than Ursula, said, "I want to stay. Just
to watch."
Brian shook his head. "Go home with the girls, make sure they
get back, and that they stay in one place."
Rachel glared at him. "We can get back
ourselves."
Brian sighed exaggeratedly and looked directly at Ursula. "I
promised Dad you'd be safely tucked into one tent or the other.
Eric can watch you.
Rachel grinned. "Ursula can stay with me. My dad always comes
home early, anyway."
Brian sighed again. "Then you can watch
Eric."
"Eric can watch Paulie," Ursula asserted. "We
want this to be a girls' night."
"Whatever." Brian sighed. "Just don't be here, and don't make
me watch you."
Drumbeats started. A sign for the youngest children to head
home. They watched as couples took their babes in arms and faded
back into the tents, heading home, until the Commons was full of
older children, and adults with no babies. Only a few hundred
people now, even including the Earth Born. The sound of the drums
quickened, and Rachel and Ursula stood and left Eric and Brian
arguing softly. "Brian will win," Ursula said.
"Only because Council would catch Eric if he
stayed."
Ursula shrugged.
Rachel led them by the chocolate plates once more, and they
giggled as they each palmed an extra piece. "We don't want to
stay anyway," Ursula whispered. "The men kiss the women, and Mom
said the wine tastes terrible. She didn't even want to go this
year, but Dad said she had to."
Rachel thought about Harry, about kissing him, and she smiled.
They'd kissed again just this morning, meeting and turning off
the path, standing under the First Trees. He'd tasted like salt
and tomatoes from his breakfast. But Ursula didn't want to know
that, so Rachel just said, "Dad won't go. He hasn't gone since
Mom left."
As the girls started threading through tents toward Rachel's,
Harry popped up in front of them. "And happy Mid-Winter to you
too."
Rachel blushed. Ursula groaned out load.
Harry held out a hand in front of him, palm up. Two chocolate
stars sat in his hand.
"No, thanks," Ursula said. "We got our own."
Rachel held her hand out and Harry dropped the treats from his
palm to hers. He smiled. "Go on, you won't see any more until
next year."
Rachel held one out to Ursula, who grimaced and closed her
palm.
Rachel raised an eyebrow at her friend, then said, "Well, Dad
will want one." She looked around to thank Harry, but he had
already melted into the shadows between the tents.
Ursula tugged at Rachel's arm. "Come on, let's see if your
dad's home yet. I saw him eating, but that was a while
ago."
And sure enough, he was waiting for them.
A WEEK LATER, Gabriel posted the list of who would go out to
plant for the next season. Ursula would stay behind, tending the
student plots, and Gregory and Gloria would join Harry, Rachel,
Alexandra, and Nick, doubling the number of Moon Born on planting
crews.
The night before they left, Ursula and Rachel watched
Harlequin's swirling patterns from just outside Aldrin, sitting
close together on packed regolith. The hard ground dug into
Rachel's backside.
"I don't want to be left behind," Ursula said.
"They never ask, do they?" Rachel swallowed. "It'll be okay.
It's an honor to watch the grove. Someone has to be here who
cares."
Ursula's face was turned up into Harlequin's soft light, and
her eyes were wet. Rachel pulled her friend into her arms, and
held Ursula while she cried. She stroked Ursula's soft hair.
"I'll call. We won't lose touch."
Chapter 11: Transition
Rachel and Harry led teams separated along gender lines. Ali
oversaw Rachel and her team, Gabriel the boys. The two Council
members pushed them hard.
Ursula called every morning. She asked for advice about the
grove, and Rachel struggled to help her. She told Ursula about
the teams, the hard work, and how fast Gloria was learning. Ever
since the rescue, Gloria dogged after Rachel like a small bright
shadow.
Rachel and Harry spent early evenings far from the group. They
walked for hours, holding hands, talking about terraforming and
about plants. They wondered about Council, and about John
Glenn. Sometimes they kissed, and licking heat ran down
Rachel's spine and settled between her thighs. They touched as
often as they could, but they didn't undress. The landscape was
almost flat, yet Harry often found little hollows where they
could feel alone. They talked about a future together. By some
unspoken pact, Rachel and Harry stayed separate during the
days.
They all went back to Aldrin to pick up supplies and visit
families. Rachel spent two days with Ursula. The girls didn't
leave each other's sides except to sleep. Rachel listened
endlessly to Ursula's troubles working with the students left
behind in her care. Once Ursula said that maybe Rachel had it
harder, being out there with the boys. Rachel just smiled and
said it wasn't so bad.
The secret of her growing relationship with Harry was a weight
pulling Rachel from Ursula, and she woke up each night worrying
about how to tell her. She had never kept secrets from
Ursula.
The third day Rachel and Harry met outside Aldrin, up at the
grove. They clasped hands as soon as they reached the privacy of
the First Trees. Rachel leaned into Harry, breathing in his soapy
clean smell and feeling his chin against the top of her head, his
arms around her waist. They lay down and she snuggled into his
arms, watching the dim summer stars through the lacework of young
lianas threading through the spreading canopy.
Harry leaned over and whispered, "I missed
you."
Rachel brought her fingers up to his cheekbones and ran the
back of her hand over the contours of his face. A soft stubble of
beard made his chin tickle her fingers. He held completely still,
one hand cupping her shoulder, and closed his eyes. They kissed,
and then she felt his free hand on her belly, rubbing it in small
concentric circles. She arched her back, drew in a fearful
excited breath, and took his hand and placed it on her breast. He
squeezed it gently, exploring, finding the nipple and then
pulling up her shirt and taking it in his mouth. She breathed
faster and moved closer, matching him skin to skin in as many
places as she could. Her hand ran up his spine. She
trembled.
Hands and fingers and tongues made tentative explorations.
Rachel was unsure about the next step, not pushing, not
resisting. The sounds of leaves against branches and the dusky
shadows of night were all crystal clear, and she felt a little as
if she-no, they-floated above themselves in some place of
desire and pleasure she had never known before. She dropped her
hand along his inner thigh, and ran it up the curve of his
hips.
A dry branch snapped close to them, and she heard a sharp
intake of breath and a small cry.
Ursula.
Rachel stiffened and called out. "Ursula?"
The only reply was the sound of footsteps running
away.
Rachel pushed herself up on her elbows. "I'm sure it was
Ursula. She'll be angry. I have to go find her."
"Stay," he whispered, and Rachel sank back, her mind
visualizing Ursula's face, the expression of disgust that she
heard but didn't see.
"I... I never told her about us. She won't understand. I
didn't know how to tell her. She ... she ..."
"... doesn't like me." He finished her sentence. "I know. I
don't mean ... I guess I like her okay, but she needs so much
help. Not like you-it's all easy for you. You and me, we love the
work. We care about Selene. I think Ursula cares about what you
think more than about anything else." His hand covered her navel,
moving softly against her stomach.
"She's ... just less secure." Rachel tried to breathe back
into being with him. "You don't understand her."
"She slows you down."
"But she's my friend. I... I have to go to her. I'll meet you
again tomorrow."
He looked startled, then sad. "Don't go," he said. When she
didn't answer, he said, "I understand. Tomorrow,
right."
She reached up and kissed him, taking a few moments, touching
tongues. "I have to go." She pushed away and stood up, walking
unsteadily, the softness of a few moments before turned to
confusion.
She flew back alone, the cool night air chilling her. Ursula
refused Rachel's calls that night, and Rachel wanted Harry's
touch, but couldn't bring herself to go find him after leaving so
abruptly.
Rachel woke the next morning to Ursula sitting cross-legged
outside her window. She slipped outside into the cool air,
careful not to make any noise that would wake her father, and
started toward the edge of town. Ursula followed silently,
looking angry and exhausted. Rachel wondered if she had
slept.
Rachel walked as long as she could stand the silence, until
they stood at the edge of the tent city next to a row of palms.
What was she supposed to say? "Ursula. I knew you wouldn't like
it."
"How did that happen? He's a geek. He's just like
Andrew."
"He's not like Andrew. Not anymore. I don't think he ever
was."
"And why not tell me? How could you hide-"
"I'm sorry." Rachel stopped and looked Ursula in the eyes. She
would not mumble a false apology, like Andrew. "I was
wrong."
"So you won't see him anymore? You'll stop
this?"
"I was wrong not to tell you."
"Are you going to stop?"
"I care about him."
"But-"
"I know he hangs out with Andrew. But he's not like
him. There's a lot we talk about-he sees things like I
do."
"And I don't?" Ursula's voice was still tight,
protesting.
Rachel sat down and put her hands over her face. "Ursula, it's
different with Harry. My belly goes soft when I'm with
him."
"Yuck." Ursula stood above Rachel, looking down at her. I mean
... I mean ...
"You kept a secret. From me. And all the while I'm stuck here,
miles away from you, and you're playing ... with him ... and not
calling me, and I-"
"I said I'm sorry." It was hard to be patient. "I knew you
wouldn't like it. How could I explain?"
"You've been here for three days."
"I know. But you wanted to talk about other
things."
"I've just... Rachel, I've been so lonely
here."
"Ursula, you're my best friend. I didn't set out to hurt your
feelings. But I like it... I like him. It doesn't mean I don't
care about you. I mean, who'd I spend two days with nonstop when
I got here? look, don't argue. Let's go work in the grove and
have a good day together."
"I don't... no ..." Ursula turned her back, but Rachel could
still hear her. "I-give me a day."
"We're supposed to leave tomorrow night."
"So we'll meet for breakfast tomorrow."
"Okay," Rachel said softly, walking away, upset enough that it
felt better to hike to the grove instead of flying. She carried
her wings, working up a light sheen of sweat. It didn't help her
feel better.
Rachel went to the field by the First Trees and sat
cross-legged behind the dais that Gabriel and Ali sometimes
taught from, looking toward the trees. What had she
done?
Grass poked at her calves. This field was the only place
Council encouraged grass to grow. There were butterflies and bees
here, genetically regulated to control reproduction. Other
strains would replace these as Council introduced a balance of
predators, primarily birds and insects. Rachel tried to picture
the world fuller, with more variety, more balance, like the
balance that supported the water systems. It was hard to imagine
so much chaos. A bright blue butterfly with yellow eyes on its
wings landed in front of her, stayed for two heartbeats, and flew
up and over the dais, away.
Rachel stood to watch it go, and noticed Gabriel standing
silently in the middle of the field behind her. He wore loose
blue pants tied at the ankles and no shirt. His arms were raised
above his head, hands clasped high, palms close in together. His
eyes were closed. He swayed, first to the right, then the left,
each time reaching far out with his arms, stretching his sides so
that he bent almost into a sideways "U" on each side. The tip of
his long braid dragged on the grass. Then he stood tall again,
reaching almost for the sky, and she could see his ribs pull up
and his hips thrust forward before he dropped his head and bent
back so his arms pointed behind him and he could look at the
ground.
Gabriel opened his eyes. Rachel was sure that he saw her, but
he chose to ignore her as he bent forward, pulling his head into
his knees. His movements were slow and controlled. He stayed that
way for six long breaths, and then came up, hands reaching for
the sky again before he dropped them to his sides. He walked over
silently, and climbed up onto the dais, sitting close to
her.
"What was that?" she asked.
"Half Moon Pose."
"Huh?"
"It stretches your spine," he said.
"I bet it does. Can I try it someday?"
"Someday." He laughed. "You may need to know it by the
time you're running planting teams. Being the boss gets crazy.
Yoga helps some. When I concentrate completely on my body, my
problems seem further away. There are days I need yoga just to
stay down here, away from the ship, to stay focused. Besides,
going back and forth between here and the ship is hard on the
body-and yoga is the best way we've found to balance
gravitational shifts, to keep strength up."
It was curious to hear Gabriel talk about himself so
personally. "Is it that hard to be around us?"
"That's not what I meant. It's hard to be here. After
all these years, I miss Earth and even though I've never seen
Ymir, I miss that too. I miss the Ymir we would have made. I know
they made it." He looked up into the First Trees. "And we
failed-we got stuck here. You can't know what a shadow this is of
both worlds." He shrugged. "Yoga helps. Making progress here
helps too, I guess." He smiled at her. "But these are my
problems."
"Gabriel," she hazarded, "what do you want from
us?"
"Help. There's much to do here. There's more than Council can
oversee, and I want you to lead the younger children in making
Selene good enough for a lot of people to live here while we
build the antimatter collector. I've told you that much
already."
"I want to help."
"You're doing what you should do. You're learning." Gabriel
climbed down off the dais. "You see the interrelationships we're
building more than most people do. It might be time to get more
of the background you need to really understand the job here.
Want to walk for a bit and talk about the next
steps?"
Was he finally going to tell her more about his plans? She
followed him across the field. Already she was as tall as he was.
Instead of going into the First Trees they walked along the edge,
where they could see large expanses of new plantings. Rachel was
quiet, waiting for Gabriel to speak. When he didn't, she said,
"You're always testing us."
"We have to. It's a big job we're trying to prepare you
for."
"And are we passing?"
"You are. And Harry. Nick and Alexandra and Gloria
too."
"Ursula?" She almost had to jog to keep up with Gabriel,
though he looked as if he were making no effort at
all.
"Maybe. She seems less willing to do things on her own than
you are."
"Ursula and I had a fight today," she offered, struggling to
match his level of revelation. "That's what made it such a hard
day."
"Over Harry?"
How did he know that? "Because I'm friends with
Harry."
"I know."
Did Council know everything? She looked away, afraid to meet
Gabriel's eyes. "How do you know about me and
Harry?"
He laughed. "Well, it's not a secret to anybody who has seen
you two together. And in a few years you'll be old enough to
contract. It's a logical pairing."
"But-Harry and I don't usually even hold hands around
people."
"We have observation satellites and cameras and pods and other
ways to collect data and information. We have to monitor what
happens down here. Surely you understand how much information we
need to monitor all this?" He spread his arms wide, and then
pointed at her. "You yourself gather information from your
trees."
Rachel blushed. Of course she knew about the cams. What had
they seen? Was it really private even under the canopy of trees
in the grove? Could they hear conversation as well as see people?
Did he know about her helping Ursula so much while they were gone
the last time? What must the ship be like if they could see so
much? Did they spy on each other this way?
"Gabriel? Will I ever see John Glenn?"
Gabriel was quiet for a long time, not answering. He walked a
distance away, gesturing at Rachel to stay put. While he was
gone, Selene shivered in a series of sharp little quakes. She put
her hand down and felt them, imagining Selene was shaking its
shoulders.
When Gabriel returned, he knelt down and looked into her
eyes. "How about tomorrow? It seems some people aboard
John Glenn would like to meet you."
"What?" She couldn't have heard right.
"Did I stutter?" Gabriel laughed.
"By myself?"
"I'll go with you. We decided to leave Gloria home with her
family for a bit, so if you and I go, it will be one full
planting crew less here. Ali can run one crew. There's less to do
in the winter anyway."
"Really? Me on the John Glenn?" She and Harry talked
about the ship endlessly, wondering what it looked like, how the
Council lived there, how many of them there were.
"I have to go anyway. We'll stay there at least until
spring."
"Can Harry go?"
"No. One of you will be enough of a shock for
Council."
"But my dad-"
"Will be okay with it." Gabriel turned and looked directly at
her. "It's time for you to meet the High Council, and more
important, for High Council to meet you. You're going to show
them how smart the Children of Selene are. Can you do
that?"
Rachel nodded, overwhelmed.
"Be ready just after dawn."
"I'm supposed to talk to Ursula in the
morning."
"Talk to her before you go, or she'll have to
wait."
Rachel frowned. She'd promised. "What do I need to
bring?"
"A change of clothes." Gabriel said, "I'll tell your
dad."
He loped away from her across the field, running
easily.
Harry was standing almost exactly where she had gone to sit
earlier, by the dais in the center of the field, a huge smile of
welcome brightening his face when he saw her. "I was hoping I'd
find you up here."
Rachel slipped her hand into Harry's, feeling it tremble.
"He's taking me to John Glenn."
"Wow. Just you? Is anybody else going?"
"I asked if he'd take you. He said just me." How could she
make him feel better? "He also said you and I are both doing
well. It was weird-he's never talked so much before. I'll be
there for months, maybe, and I don't have to take anything. I
mean, what must it be like? What will the other Council be like?
What will they think of me?"
"Shhhhh," Harry whispered. "Slow down. You'll be fine. You
just found out?"
"Well, of course, I just found out. I'd have told you. I guess
they're taking Ursula out for the planting."
"It won't be nearly as much fun without you." Harry leaned
over and kissed her forehead. "Shall we?"
"Finish what we started yesterday?" Rachel's cheeks got hot
and her belly fluttered.
"Yes." He leaned over and kissed her, holding her very tight
to him, his hand roaming over her back and up her shoulders. He
let go and took her hand, turning toward the same place in the
First Trees where they'd been interrupted the day
before.
EVENING LIGHT THREW shadows on the path as they flew home.
They landed just above Aldrin, watching lights come on one by one
in the tents. As soon as their wings were folded and packed,
Rachel threw herself against his chest, cheek against his
shoulder bone, arms tight around his torso. "I'll miss you so
much," she said.
"I'll miss you more than I can say. Especially now." He held
her tightly to him, wrapping his arms around her waist. "But
think of what we'll learn. There's so much they never tell us. No
Moon Born has been to John Glenn and come back. You'll
have to send me messages."
"I'll try. I think Gabriel and Ali get messages from the
ship."
"Whatever happens, record everything you see, everything they
say. There have to be more Council up there than we've seen. How
many have we met? Ten, maybe, in our whole lives? What does being
'cold' really mean? Why are Colonists different from Council?
Aren't they all Earth Born? Are Gabriel and Ali really as old as
they say they are? How long will we live?"
Her hand went over his mouth. "I promise to write it all
down," she said, laughing. "I know, I'm just as curious." She bit
her lip. "I wish we could both go together. Hey, will you try and
be nice to Ursula?"
"I can be polite. Will you try and find out what will happen
to Andrew?"
"Why do you still care about him? He hates everyone-he hates
me particularly."
"Do you remember what I told you last winter? He loves
you."
Rachel snorted.
"He doesn't see the consequences of his choices very clearly.
That's why he's willing to make Council mad. But he's smart, and
believe it or not, he's not all bad. He just wants to be the
best, and he gets angry when he thinks he isn't." Harry picked up
a stone and tossed it away, and another one. "I try to help him,
but sometimes he doesn't make room for anyone. But that's not why
it's important, Rachel. What's important is that Council can
control us so completely." He looked hard at her.
Of course. "I'll see what I can find out."
"Good. How will your dad take it?"
"I feel bad about leaving him. He'll be alone. I need to go
talk to him."
"I know." Harry held her tighter, pinning her legs and arms.
"But I want a few more minutes."
She should go home, but the glow she felt, the smell and feel
of Harry's body close to her, were so seductive she put it off
for almost an hour. Just sitting with Harry and touching, hardly
talking at all. It could never, ever be enough.
Harry walked her all the way home, kissing her at the door.
She started to protest. "My dad will see."
"He likes me all right. I'll visit him while you're
gone."
She stopped before they got to her door, leaning into Harry,
clutching him close to her, smelling him. "I still wish you could
go. I'll be lonely up there." John Glenn was so far away.
"I don't want to be separated from you. I love
you."
He kissed her again. "I love you too. But you can't stay, not
when you can learn so much."
Rachel was so absorbed in watching Harry walk away that she
jumped when her father put a hand on her shoulder. "I was
wondering what you were fighting with Ursula about," he
said.
"Are you angry? Did Gabriel come see you?"
"Angry about Harry? No. Cautious though. And yes, I saw
Gabriel. I guess I won't have to worry about Harry for a while."
He rumpled her short hair so it stood on end, and held her to
him.
"I'm coming back, Daddy. I won't let them keep me up there
like they kept Mom." Rachel didn't want him to see how scared she
felt, so she bent her head down into his shoulder. His arms
circled her back, a strong protective hug, except that she felt
his hands shaking.
Part II: Air
60,269 John Glenn shiptime
Chapter 12: Space!
The force of the lander's flight through the atmosphere made
Rachel dizzy. Straps dug into her shoulders and thighs. Her head
felt heavy against the pillow of the copilot's acceleration
couch. The hull was transparent. Harlequin filled a good part of
the view, so brilliant in Apollo's light it hurt to look. Outside
the diffusion of Selene's thick atmosphere, the gas giant
transformed. Colors were brighter, separated, and distinct.
Scrollwork storms swirled across the surface. Rachel felt tiny,
awed.
"Close your eyes," Gabriel said.
She did. Why? She felt the thrust of the last few moments of
flight lessen, falling away so her body rose against the straps
that held her in place. She clutched the edges of the seat,
pulling herself down so she stayed fully connected to the chair.
Her stomach turned lazily, not ill, but floating. It felt a
little like catching an updraft and riding it, but without the
pull of wings against her shoulders and biceps.
"Why do I feel so light?"
"There's no gravity out here. When we took off, engine thrust
made you feel heavy, like when we take off in a plane. We'll
still be moving fast, but you won't feel it the same
way."
"Will there be gravity on the John
Glenn?"
"In most places. Do you feel sick?"
"N-no. A little dizzy."
"Good. Now, open your eyes." Gabriel sounded
excited.
A slightly ovoid shape hung in center view. Browns and deep
reds and tans floated across it, and just above center, a huge
crater filled with crystal blue. The Hammered Sea!
Selene.
The texture was all interlocking circles and arcs. Veins of
blue flowed along the surface, following the arcs or jumping
between, reaching out like strands of hair to lace half the ball
with thin blue lines. Two tiny spots of green sprouted between
two smaller craters.
"Oh," she said. "Oh-it's perfect." She smiled, entranced, the
pull of it against her very center harder even than the day she
stood at the edge of the Hammered Sea and saw more water than she
had known existed.
"No," Gabriel said, "it's not perfect. See where the water's
trapped in those two craters? We didn't mean that-we wanted one
sea. The places that are too red? That's too much iron,
miscalculations-"
He was looking at it all wrong! "Look at how pretty the seas
are-so what if they aren't exactly like you thought they'd be?
You were excited about showing it to me from here. Weren't you?
Selene is like my garden plot-it's even better for the mistakes I
had to work around. It's home, Gabriel-it's beautiful from here.
I never knew how pretty the seas ..." Her words ran off, they
weren't changing the look on Gabriel's face. "You're not
seeing-"
Gabriel's voice was stern as he cut her off. "We made it,
Rachel. It was nothing before we got here. It was a rock half
that size. It's not like a real planet."
"But-"
"There's more to see out here." His voice changed tone.
"Astronaut-get me a ring view." His fingertips brushed a tray of
lights. The little ship began to rotate, so that Selene fell away
from her view, replaced with so many stars she couldn't count
them ... and all around, so she could see new stars she'd never
noticed from Selene. Three close-packed bright stars glimmered
under her feet. Her stomach lurched again, and she swallowed.
"How are we moving?" she asked.
"Batteries. We charge them with antimatter."
"Antimatter? I thought you ran the ship dry!"
Gabriel laughed. "We need very little for this sort of thing,
Rachel. But to go any distance at all-to go to even the closest
star you see-that's when we need a big store of
it."
"Then why don't we use antimatter for power on Selene?" She
thought of all the time her dad spent maintaining the huge solar
arrays.
"We never use antimatter casually. It's hard to handle.
Dangerous if it gets loose. We prefer to move it as little as
possible."
She fell silent, confused at Gabriel's mood changes. Why
didn't he like Selene? He was always talking about work he
did-bragging even. Sometimes he volunteered information, teaching
her. Other times he seemed to be keeping it from
her.
Lights flickered and changed around his fingertips. The ship
banked and picked up speed.
"Could I learn to fly this?"
"It's not a skill you need."
She crossed her arms over her twisty stomach and looked out at
the stars again. They flew, not talking, both Selene and
Harlequin behind them so everything they saw was
stars.
Finally, he said, "Close your eyes again." Once more the glass
ship turned, and when Rachel opened her eyes they were above
Harlequin, and close, and the white band Rachel knew had become a
tilted moat of light. Harlequin's ring.
"Th-that's beautiful. I didn't know. I think you said once,
but I-I didn't know," Rachel stammered.
"I made those," Gabriel said.
Rachel had no response. She looked at his profile, and
thought, I've planted trees. Suddenly, the grove seemed
small, even Selene seemed small. The ship turned again, and a new
moon swam in front of her. It was a lumpy oval, banded and
spotted gray and white and black; no hint of blue or
green.
"That's Moon Seventy-one. We call it the 'rock range'-it's
what protects you from meteorites."
"Huh?" Rachel felt as if she hadn't made an intelligent
comment in hours. A whole new world existed past Selene, a garden
of stars and power.
"Flying rocks. Selene was made by bashing rocks together. But
now that we have cities and an atmosphere, it could be unmade the
same way. If anything comes close enough to hit Selene, we shoot
it out of the sky. Moon Seventy-one is in position to hit almost
anything."
"More antimatter?" she asked.
"Well, usually we use the rail guns. Antimatter powers
them."
They turned again, and this time they headed toward a
brightness that seemed like a star until Rachel noticed it got
bigger and the other stars didn't.
The point of reflected sunlight began to resolve. A long thin
light, tiny. They closed at hundreds of miles per hour, yet the
... whatever ... grew very slowly.
She squinted. It had to be the John Glenn. Rachel
worked to take in every resolving detail as they neared the ship.
Neither Gabriel nor Ali had ever said much about the ship. She
and the other Children had guessed. They hadn't even been
close.
It looked like someone had taken the shaft of an arrow, placed
a rounded shallow arrowhead near the tip, then capped the point
with a cluster of shiny bubbles. Sheltered by the wide arrowhead,
safely away from the dangers of flight impacts, two massive
cylinders were fitted one above the other. The first one was
still, but the second one rotated. Behind the second cylinder was
a sleeve of metal shielding, and then the shaft thickened to end
in a wholly featureless round and glittering pod attached to
guide wires and sensors that might have been an arrow's
fletching.
Gabriel pointed to the round ball near the end of the ship.
"We called that the 'stinger' when we were leaving Sol system.
Respectfully, Rachel. That's the antimatter containment pod. Even
now-there's not enough left to take us out of Apollo system, but
it's enough to blow John Glenn apart. And there-see-that
set of tubes and locks-that's a series of safety mechanisms we
use to get whiffs of antimatter into the reaction chamber." As
Gabriel pointed out details, Rachel swore to remember it all so
she could tell her friends. He continued until they were too
close to the ship to see anything.
They slid into the docking bay smoothly. Shiny walls closed
them in, entirely too close after the long flight through
emptiness. Various metallic clicks and hums registered their
entrance. A light on the console glowed a brilliant green, a
short whistle rang through the cabin, and Gabriel unstrapped and
floated. "Come on, but grab your bag before you let go
..."
She reached with her left hand and unclasped the strap holding
her bag to the cabin floor. It immediately floated almost out of
reach. She snagged it, feeling herself float free as she let go
of the last strap holding her to the acceleration
couch.
Gabriel covered his mouth, like he was trying not to laugh.
"Grab on to something ... see that handle?"
She tried to shoulder her bag and free her right hand, but it
floated up. She tried twisting and using her left. No
good.
Gabriel laughed, helping her, guiding her out of the ship's
lock. He stopped just before opening the door, looked at her, and
said, "Now, remember, be polite at all times. Always do what
you're told here. Every one of these people is older than you
are, and better educated, and almost all of them have something
to say about what happens on Selene. Don't forget you're
representing your family; your town."
Did he really think she'd forget that? "I'll be
fine."
"Okay. I'll lead."
Rachel followed Gabriel down a long tube lined with handholds.
Her head bumped Gabriel's feet twice. After the second time, he
turned around and pulled himself backward, giving her
instructions, steadyingher with one hand. They went down a ladder
that way, and Gabriel helped her turn into a descending ramp. She
was moving backward, her stomach turning Hip-Hops. She grew
heavier, so that she felt more like herself, and then heavier
still, as the corridor descended. She followed Gabriel, stumbling
through a huge metal door, reeling from the slap of so many new
sights.
The floor dragged at Rachel's feet and she felt ungainly and
awkward. Was this what it was like to be pregnant? The flight had
been full of shifts in gravity, pulling and releasing her, and
now every step was hard.
The fact that she was completely alone up here-that only the
mysterious and confusing Council would be present-slammed down on
her. She stood rooted for a moment, her body refusing to pass
through the door.
Then Gabriel smiled at her, and reached his hand out to help
her step up into the corridor behind the door. At least she knew
Gabriel. Maybe she would finally meet Erika, the pilot who made
Erika's Folly. Maybe she could find her mother, and get her mom
to go see her dad.
The woman standing in the corridor was impossibly tiny,
Gloria's size, and her skin was the reddish bronze of Selene's
soil after the tiller had done the first preparations for
planting. A loose black circle of material hung from her waist to
her knees. Her chest was naked except for a fountain of beaded
necklaces in greens and purples. Her deep blue-black hair fell
unbound to her thighs, flowing over her breasts and covering
them. Her eyes were the blackest Rachel had ever seen. She looked
appraisingly at Rachel.
Rachel felt plain.
"Rachel." Gabriel's voice broke in, slashing the spell. Rachel
blinked. "Rachel, meet High Councilwoman Kyu Ho. She has offered
to introduce you to the John Glenn, and to be your teacher
here. She is honoring you highly."
He'd emphasized the words "High Councilwoman." Higher than
Gabriel? She struggled with the question until she noticed
Gabriel walking away, and Rachel heard herself cry out, "No-don't
go!" Her voice sounded plaintive and childish in her
ears.
"I'll see you soon," he said firmly. He turned and kept
walking.
The woman, Kyu Ho, walked in a different direction. For a
moment Rachel stood and watched them both walk away. In a few
heartbeats, she picked up her bag and followed. Her body was
still heavy, and in just three steps she tripped and fell. The
woman turned around, looking at her again, the expression in her
eyes unreadable. Then she reached for Rachel's hand and helped
her up, slowing down some as Rachel struggled with feeling heavy.
Even her bag was heavy, and she was afraid the straps would
break. Kyu's head only came to the bottom of Rachel's shoulder,
but she was strong, and her hand provided
stability.
Chapter 13: Curiosity
Astronaut finished its final check of Gabriel's little Delta
ship, savoring the feeling of flight. A bit of its attention, a
subprogram, watched the lanky girl who accompanied Gabriel from
Selene. Astronaut recognized Rachel Vanowen. Video of Selene
flowed constantly from the moon to the ship. She was tall, well
muscled in a stringy fashion, but not graceful in the
unaccustomed gravity. Astronaut read her body heat and breathing
and heartbeat. She was stressed. Her face and the way her eyes
tracked showed interest in her surroundings, and a look Astronaut
had learned meant confusion.
Gabriel talked about Rachel often, and Astronaut was pleased
to see her. It looked for a way to make contact. She wore a wrist
pad, but her direct Library access was blocked. She had no
built-in data linkages. This was a new thing. Every other human
aboard John Glenn was linked to the Library, to places
where Astronaut was also linked; everyone belonged to the vast
web of ship information. It watched what they queried and what
they did, and overheard their conversations with each
other.
Access was possible from Selene. Why didn't Rachel have
access? Did any of the Moon Born have access?
Was this girl restricted, like Astronaut?
Astronaut started three parallel research streams. It
requested video of Rachel from birth, communications patterns
among Moon Born and between Moon Born and Council. After a
moment, it also requested a list of what Council chose to teach
the Moon Born.
Presently it knew that Rachel was a slave.
Chapter 14: High Council
The light of stars and planets shone on Gabriel from all
directions. Pictures streamed through John Glenn's net,
painting his walls with views of space. Windows of data hung,
scrolled, and flickered between Gabriel and the walls, bright
orange and yellow displays against a background of space. The
vital statistics of the metal and diamond ship enfolded him, and
galaxies and stars surrounded everything. It was ritual to close
his office and bathe in information when he returned to John
Glenn. Embedded links strung through his body woke, reacting
to the richness of wireless information streams they were tuned
for. Gabriel activated them one by one, focusing on each distinct
flow and then letting it fall silent, to stay available on
demand. He filled himself until he felt connected to the ship
again, until the blood of data thrummed inside him like his own
personal music.
The office was nearly empty of furnishings, the floor black.
Gabriel stood in the center of infinite views. He stretched
slowly through basic yoga poses, refamiliarizing his body with
the Earth-normal gravity of the ship.
"Astronaut?"
"Yes?"
"Just checking."
"Welcome home."
He ran a data abstract on the ice chambers in the sleeping
bays. He requested data about Erika. Her feeds were perfect flat
lines; no spikes warned of possible dangers.
Next, the garden. Seed stocks, seedlings, air quality, the
river. All fine. Gabriel superimposed camera shots in front of
space vistas, obscuring whole galaxies with pictures of planters
full of healthy sprouts and hanging flower baskets. He magnified
views of the all-important liquid nutrient mixtures surrounding
roots. Zooming back out, he spotted a salmon in the river. Now,
whose idea was that? How in heck would a salmon spawn in a river
that ran in a loop? He asked Astronaut to pursue, low
priority.
He called up lists, reviewing contents of bays and the
available small ships. All fine, of course. He cam-scanned the
halls. Everything had a place. John Glenn had space and
high ceilings and room in plenty for a starship, thanks to the
gift of antimatter as a fuel. All of it was used for something:
for storage, for workouts, for water, for air. The smell, even
here in his office, was the deep tang of metal and oil, the
controlled scent of scrubbed air. His eyes absorbed brilliant
colors and visible data streams, shifting wall pictures, and the
many color and shape codes indicating pipes and doorways and
ladders and directions.
Gabriel groaned, twisted his hair loose of its Selene binding,
and started the less interesting job of catching up on Council
discussions.
Minutes of High Council meetings. He skimmed lists of watches
and planting cycles, duty rotations on Selene, and nutrient
fluctuations in the garden. When he got to the last set of
minutes, he spotted Ma Liren's call for a formal High Council
meeting.
Why did Liren want him here in person?
He erased the displays and stood still in the darkness,
feeling the thrum of the ship all around him.
RACHEL LAY IN the oddly soft bed and stared at the metal
ceiling. The room was easily twice as large as her tent room at
home, but the walls felt closer, and they didn't smell right. She
realized now how tent fabric trapped the smell of cooking in the
walls, how soil blown in by wind left a scent. Floating in the
strange bed, the differences washed over her, each whispering how
far she was from home. The room was simple. There was a bed, and
barely recognizable toilet facilities-she'd had to figure out how
to use them-and insets that must be drawers or storage.
Everything was white or silver or black. Her own room at home was
a riot of color and clutter. She shivered. Maybe the beds were so
soft because everything else was so hard and
sterile?
She tried her wrist pad. It obeyed, opening a window in the
air above her head. She filled the window with words. She
described the flight as best she could, the feel of gravity
shifting, the shape of John Glenn as they approached, the
carrier's surprising size. Some intuition kept her descriptions
simple, a sureness that what she wrote would be read by
strangers, which was different from knowing that it could
be. After she addressed her note and sent it to her dad, to
Ursula, and to Harry, it occurred to her to wonder if it would
find its way to Aldrin. Gabriel talked to people on the ship from
Selene. She had seen him do it.
She smiled, thinking about Harry. She felt his kiss, the
pressure of his arm on her shoulder, his weight on her stomach.
Her breath came faster. She wanted to hold him, feel him near
her, hear his voice. She rolled onto her stomach and cried,
hoping no one would walk in the door. The only people she wanted
to see were on Selene.
Rachel dreamed she and Harry were looking all over the
unfamiliar ship for Ursula and Andrew, and they couldn't find
either one.
When she woke, sweaty and worried, all three of them had
written back. She smiled and started scrolling through her
messages.
Her dad: "Hey, how are you? I'm glad you're safe. I spent the
day fixing a control out at the solar plant, and when I looked up
at the sky I hoped to see you."
Ursula wrote paragraphs of remorse for arguing, and continued
the argument. Rachel gave up before finishing and filed the
message to be reread later. She opened the one from Harry last,
afraid of it and longing for it. "I'm glad you are safe. I miss
you already. Record everything. Harry." That was so
Harry.
Before she had time to respond to Ursula, the door opened and
Kyu Ho walked into the room, dressed all in blues and yellows,
even to blue streaks of color in her hair. "Good morning, did you
sleep well?"
Rachel blinked at her, flipping the data window down and
closed. "Yes."
"Join me for breakfast in the garden."
It wasn't a question. Rachel had to work to push herself up
from the soft bed.
Kyu showed her a shower tucked into a wall behind a door, and
pushed open a drawer that held soft green pants and a white
shirt. Kyu sat on Rachel's bed and waited silently while Rachel
got ready to go. Rachel wished she'd go and come back, but Kyu
ignored Rachel's embarrassment and, in fact, just looked up at
the wall and sometimes smiled or frowned. Rachel wondered if she
was listening to voices inside her head.
As they passed down the corridor outside Rachel's room, her
feet felt as if they wore brick shoes, and her lungs burned.
Luckily, Kyu Ho walked more slowly than the night before. She
didn't offer Rachel a hand.
The tiny woman glittered as faceted blue beads strung around
her jumpsuit caught light. Black hair swung loose, with many
thin, tight braids laced over the main fall of it. Kyu's eyes
were large and almond-shaped, as black as her hair, and rimmed
with blues. Her voice had a wide range, lilting up and down as
she explained directions and conventions of shipboard travel to
Rachel. Rachel wanted to ask her a million questions, but they
stuck behind her teeth as she tried to listen, to watch Kyu, to
remember details to tell Harry, and to walk, all at the same
time.
The corridor ended in a boxy room. The door closed behind them
and Rachel's stomach rushed into her throat as the floor moved.
She fell against the wall. Kyu Ho smiled a little, her only
comment on Rachel's predicament.
The room had tilted, and was rising. Her weight eased to
Selene levels, and grew lighter yet. When the room stopped
moving, they were falling.
The flight here had shown her free fall. She recognized it for
what it was. She'd been tied down then, which made it tolerable.
Now there was room to thrash. She held herself still, absorbing
the sensation, remembering to breathe.
She was not going to die.
The door opened on a hallway. Kyu Ho stopped for a moment.
"See that picture ... the one with the little squares on it? If
you push that, you'll go back to the deck your room is
on."
A row of ten symbols confronted Rachel. She pointed to a
glowing dot. "That's where we are now?"
"Yes, good." Kyu nodded approvingly.
"Where do the rest of them go?"
"To the rest of the ship. For now, those two are all you need
to know." Kyu turned and started down the hall.
Rachel pushed herself into the hallway-and thrashed helplessly
in midair.
Kyu watched for a few seconds. She said, "You've had no
training at all."
Embarrassment and anger made Rachel's cheeks hot. "Of course
not! Where would I have training in how to fall? I fly. If I
fell, I'd be dead!"
Kyu Ho nodded. She slowed while Rachel found ways to move.
"Always know where your next handhold is. You'll learn ways to
jump down a hallway. For now, jump only toward handholds. Turn
like this-" Kyo Ho jumped off center, then pulled her arms and
legs inward and spun. "You try it."
Rachel bumped her knuckles on a handhold and her head knocked
against the wall. Kyu caught her before she could hurt herself.
"Again."
And finally, "Shall we go?"
They negotiated another hallway, its walls littered with
humming squares and round lines of piping, the floor a lacework
of metal rather than a solid surface. Then a tube with handholds,
a door, and Rachelgasped. To pass through that door was to leave
cold mysterious metal for a riot of greens and brightness,
exchanging hard lines and angles for leaves and
curves.
She floated in ahead of Kyu, into a maze of huge roots, and
out into the open.
Right in front of Rachel's nose, close enough to make out the
rough texture, she saw the bark of a tree. The trunk was so thick
she couldn't see around it.
She looked up, following the trunk. The first few branches
started very far above her head. The top of the tree was too
distant for her to make out. It had to end short of the
roof, she could see that, and it-she was in a bowl! No, a
ball full of things she had never seen.
Her stomach lurched as she noticed paths spiraling up away
from her. The world was inside out. On Selene, the horizon curved
away from her. Here, it encircled her, turning completely and
returning to her in an arc. She blinked and stared, her mind
racing as it tried to make sense of something that shouldn't
work. Vegetation and planter boxes climbed up the sides of the
round garden when they should have been sliding down into a
pile.
It took a long time for details to resolve.
Scents even richer than Selene's assailed her, sweet flowery
smells, like the greenhouse back home, only twice as strong and
unfamiliar.
There was only the one giant tree, right in the
middle.
Strung between the trunk and the-walls?-of the ball, lines of
flowers fell away like spokes. The long strands of flowers near
the trunk bore blossoms as tall as she was, dwarfing anything she
had seen on Selene. Bright yellow strings held flowers in lines
between the tree trunk and the walls. So maybe ropes held
everything up? They'd have to be strong.
Movement filled empty places. Wings flashed and spiraled,
their shapes giving them away as human flyers. The wings reminded
her of colorful butterflies from the lawn at Teaching Grove.
Other shapes flew too; circles and squares and spindles and lines
that must be machines.
The lighting was strange-a bright light from above drove the
shadows one way, and in places more lights made faint second or
even third shadows, like Selene in summer, when Apollo and
Harlequin both lit the surface. She had studied a hundred plants
on Selene, loving the way they reached for light and the
variation in leaf and stem and flower. Here were a hundred times
a hundred plants, the pull of various lighting and shadows making
them all fantastic, beautiful, and mysterious.
"This will be your school."
Kyu Ho's voice brought her awareness back. She was still
falling, but Kyu Ho wasn't. The smaller woman was on a pebbled
path, a dozen meters out from the tree.
Rachel pushed herself down, turned, and touched down with her
feet. She was proud of that.
And she was ravenous. Breakfast had been delayed by
hours.
Kyu Ho said, "That's Yggdrasil, the Mid-tree. We designed it
specifically to grow along the axis of rotation, and had to try
twenty times to get one that stayed healthy and grew straight.
This tree is over a thousand years old."
Rachel gulped. It seemed impossible.
Kyu Ho led Rachel in a bounding walk along a wide path in the
middle of a set of boxes that overflowed with green, starting as
a rim around the base of the Mid-tree's trunk, sloping gently up.
The walkway was rough, a gray painted surface that made dull
hollow sounds as they walked on it. It seemed pebbled, though
there were no loose pebbles to turn into missiles when John
Glenn maneuvered.
They walked a spiral, and after two turns around the base of
the giant tree, they came upon a rack of wings. Kyu handed a set
to Rachel. They were similar to the wings she flew on Selene,
except that every detail was perfect, metal polished, joints and
straps glowing with quality.
Kyu turned and looked at Rachel. "It is important for you to
stay with me. Gravity here varies. It's made by spin-and so the
part of the sphere that would be an equator on a planet is the
heaviest. We put the river there." She laughed. "Or maybe the
river put itself there. Spin gravity, centrifugal force, holds
the water in place. The poles only have gravity equal to our
thrust-that is, they only have gravity if our engines are pushing
us. Right now, they're not. You felt weightless at the tree. We
were on the zero gee line in that tube-remember the tube?-and
between us and the zero line there is storage, work labs, and the
Mid-tree's root system"-she pointed toward the huge central
tree-"which you're standing just above."
Rachel shifted her feet. Her body was light, and she felt like
a push would send her flying.
Kyu continued. "This is aft. We usually come in 'fore'-above
the tree, but then you have to deal with zero gee, and the Sun
Lamp. TheLamp rotates twenty degrees aft of fore, and you need
dark glasses to come in fore. Besides, it's farther from the
cafeteria. See the river?"
Rachel squinted. A broad ribbon of blue divided the sphere in
half along the inside-out equator. Half of it was simply blue,
and half shimmered in light that was whiter and more intense than
high summer in Aldrin.
"There's full gravity-Earth gravity-at the river. But we'll
save that for another day. Today, we'll have breakfast at the
main kitchen and get you oriented. Now, Gabriel says flight on
Selene is easy compared to this-so don't think you know anything.
Here we have to adjust for varying gravity, wind schedules, and
for airborne machines like monitoring bots. If you go fast
enough, you'll feel a stinging. That's nanotech air scrubbers
that don't get out of your way fast enough. They won't hurt you.
You won't see them. Don't fly alone until you get used to it, and
for now, follow me." Kyu took three steps to gather speed, and
arced into the air. Her wings were blue and yellow, shining and
glittering as light hit them, matching her hair and
clothes.
Rachel's three steps and a leap catapulted her past Kyu on the
first try. Startled, out of control, she spread her wings and
floated down. She improved, and followed the graceful High
Councilwoman a short distance to set down on a large empty patio
right in front of an unusually tall boxy planter. Vines covered
the outside of the planter, falling from above Rachel's head
almost to her feet, covered in tiny yellow flowers. They shelved
the flying gear, and Kyu pulled open a door at the base of the
big planter.
The door opened into a big room full of light and
people.
A large table was piled with fruit and bread. Round bulbs with
nipples held juice and water. Nearly a dozen people sat in small
groups at round tables. None were as tiny or brightly dressed as
Kyu. Everyone was shorter than Rachel. Every head turned toward
Rachel and Kyu as silence fell. Two women came over to them. Kyu
introduced them. "These are Mary and Helga-they work on the
garden here."
The taller woman, Mary, nodded and said, "Hello,
Rachel."
Kyu hadn't mentioned her name. Rachel, puzzled, said, "Pleased
to meet you."
"Can we join you?" Helga addressed Kyu.
Kyu shook her head. "Perhaps another time."
Kyu led Rachel to the food table, and helped her select
berries and bread and strips of something odd: artificial bacon,
she said. Rachel liked it.
"How did they know me?" Rachel asked.
"We watch what happens on Selene." Kyu led them to a
table.
"So we, we're another experiment?"
"Not exactly. You are ... let me try again. We limit the kinds
of tools we use. Certain things need to be done by humans. We
could have shaped Selene with nothing but machines, but we would
have had to use machines smarter than we wanted them to be.
Machines that are too smart are dangerous."
Rachel thought about it. "Well, the planters are pretty
smart."
"They need humans to run them. Besides, humans adapt to change
better than the level of machines we authorize for Selene.
There's more to intelligence than doing complex tasks. Adapting
is, in fact, your real job. That's why humans work so much better
than robots." Kyu twisted her hands through her hair, fingernails
flashing glittery light. "I have high hopes for you. Selene is
changing as we make it-and we're learning too. This is the
biggest terraforming project anyone has ever done, anywhere. Mars
was nothing compared to this. People react to the unexpected
better than machines. The only program that might be better at
that than us is an AI, but AI goals aren't human
goals."
Rachel nodded (AI?) and Kyu continued. "You know we
need to build industry here? It takes a lot of people to build an
antimatter collider. There aren't enough Council to do that, or
even Colonists."
Rachel saw the opportunity to learn one thing she and Harry
wanted to know. "What's the difference between Council and
Colonists?"
"There are two hundred Council. We are collectively
responsible for the ship. We financed it-" Kyu shook her head.
"Sorry-we made it possible to build John Glenn. We planned
this trip. Five of us are High Council, and have ultimate
responsibility for everyone. There are a lot of Colonists-people
picked to come because they have specific knowledge we will need
when we get to Ymir. And we can't afford to wake them all up
here-we'll need them on Ymir. It would be horrible to risk
everyone from Earth someplace as dangerous as Selene when we'll
need their genes and Earth-educated minds more
later."
Rachel swallowed. "So you risk us instead?"
Kyu didn't answer.
"And so you really will leave?" Rachel asked.
"We can't live here forever-we don't have enough resources.
Have you seen pictures of Ymir?"
Rachel shook her head. "Gabriel talked about it
once."
"Ymir is his dream. Some of us dream of Earth...." Kyu's voice
trailed off. "But it's not there anymore."
"How could a planet not be there? Gabriel says that's
impossible!"
"Selene wasn't here before we got here. Eat."
Obediently, gratefully, Rachel bit into the bread and found it
tasted tangy, like citrus, and so soft it melted away as soon as
she ate it.
Kyu Ho continued. "We grow a number of things here that you
don't yet have on Selene. Some will never grow there-they need
different gravity, or different lighting, or are just too hard to
alter for a semitropical environment like Selene's. You'll be
here at least three months-you'll study in a jungle area we've
designed as close to what we're trying for on Selene as we can
get in this small a space."
Small? Rachel thought. This place is huge. Where the
river runs, it must be as wide as the whole
ship!
A tall dark-haired man came in the door and Kyu excused
herself. Rachel sat at the table and experimented with the melty
bread. Even berries were fatter and juicier here. Where was
Gabriel? Why did Kyu seem so interested in her? If she was above
even Gabriel {even Gabriel!), why was she spending time
with Rachel? What did they really want? Why bring Rachel
here?
Rachel's speculation was interrupted as a slender woman nearly
Rachel's height sat down opposite her. She was formally dressed,
white pants and a white shirt, with long straight black hair and
flat-oval brown eyes. Her clothes had no decorations at all. Her
stare made Rachel feel as if she had done something wrong.
Instinctively, Rachel looked for Kyu Ho. She was still involved
in an animated conversation with the tall man, her back to
Rachel.
"So ... a child appears," the woman said.
"Excuse me?"
"A Child of Selene. Now we'll see what we
made."
Rachel didn't like the woman's tone. She reached a hand out.
"I'm Rachel."
"High Councilwoman Ma Liren." The woman did not take her hand.
"I've been looking forward to the opportunity to study
you."
Another High Council member? "Everyone seems to study
me."
"Hasn't anyone told you anything? You are the ambassador for
the Children of Selene." Her eyes narrowed. "My job will be to
evaluate you-to see if you can, in fact, help us. So I'll be
watching you. Be sure you mind what you're told."
Something about Ma Liren made Rachel's skin crawl. How to
respond? "I will. I work hard." Did Council always test? Kyu Ho
hadn't been so direct.
"I've seen that. But what are you made of? How much do you
understand of why you were born?"
Rachel's tongue knotted around her words. "Well, first, I
like Selene. What I want to do is plant. I love
working-"
Rachel felt a hand on her shoulder, and turned her head to
find Kyu Ho standing stiffly behind her.
"Hello, Liren," Kyu said. "There will be time for interviews
later on. This is only Rachel's first day, and we agreed I would
orient her for her first week."
"Well, see that she learns well." Ma Liren stood up and walked
away.
"She's always like that," Kyu said. "I think that's enough new
sights for one morning. Let's get you back to your
room."
Rachel followed Kyu back through the garden, struggling to see
enough to get her bearings. She did remember the symbol that
marked her floor. The door to her room was a welcome
sight.
Kyu looked up at her. "You did well. Your med readings are
still stable, but your fatigue toxins are showing high. Rest.
Don't wander around. I'll be back to take you to Medical in a few
hours. We'll work on your adjustment to Earth
gravity."
The door shut behind the Councilwoman. Rachel's legs ached
from the unfamiliar and shifty gravity, and her back and
shoulders felt as though strings of knots were sitting in them,
throbbing. She made it to the bed, closed her eyes, and began
reviewing the wonders of the garden. It seemed magical that there
were so many plants. The huge tree-Yggdrasil-surely trees on
Selene wouldn't get that big?
It seemed she had been gone from the room for a week, but when
she checked it had only been two hours. She had to fight sleep to
open her wrist pad and begin recording the experience for
Harry.
Chapter 15: Skating
Gabriel sat and stretched on the small spot of lawn, a few
feet away from Kyu, who was all purples and yellows today, like a
tiny oriental butterfly. The garden surrounded them, hundreds of
shades of green and blue and brown dotted with yellow and white
and purple flowers. Tenders and floating lamps flitted overhead,
and the occasional crew member. A particularly colorful set of
wings went by, and Gabriel tapped Kyu's shoulder and pointed. Kyu
looked up and laughed.
"How is Rachel doing?" he asked. "Has a week on the ship worn
her out?"
"She's learning fast-seems to like to work. I plan to give her
some data rights."
"Why?"
"So far she's been given exactly what she needs to know on
Selene, and nothing more. She's not developing the ability to
really think."
"You've been talking to Ali." Gabriel picked up a skate and
tucked his foot inside. The top of his foot tingled as the boot
conformed around it, fitting snuggly.
"She's right, you know."
Gabriel put on his other boot. "What access do you want Rachel
to have?"
"What do you think?" Kyu challenged him, standing up, flexing
her legs, squatting and standing, preparing to start down the
spiral path. They were wearing inline skates of a fairly simple
design, with three big wheels on a long axle, smart shock
absorbers, brakes on a belt control.
"What will High Council think?" Gabriel fastened light goggles
over his eyes, protection from the air scrubbers.
"I'm High Council."
One of five, three warm.
She must have known what he was thinking. "I'm not going to
ask permission for everything I do to help prepare Rachel. We
need functioning leadership down there that isn't us." She pushed
off with her right foot, glided on her left, a slow graceful
movement here by the aft entrance.
Gabriel followed. Liren was going to hate this. He wasn't sure
he didn't hate this, although he trusted Kyu. As far as he
was concerned, Liren was paranoid to the point of disaffection.
But the Children did need information, and maybe that included
the skill to dig it out for themselves.
"Are you going to tell anyone you're giving Rachel
rights?"
"Only if they ask."
The main path spiraled from the garden's pole down to the
river, across a bridge, and back up to the pole at the forward
end. Other paths branched off.
The skates jarred against the pebbled surface. In low gravity,
and significant coriolis force, Kyu bounced high, her torso
twisting and her arms windmilling to maintain orientation before
she touched down. Her hair flew out behind her, light here in the
low gravity.
Gabriel finally caught up enough to talk to her. "So, do you
want to give all of the Children more data
rights?"
"Even I'm not that brave. We don't want to turn them into us!
But at least all the teachers need enough information to think
with. Unless you want to be the only teacher?"
"I don't have time for that." Wind from their increased speed
dragged lightly across Gabriel's face. "You could come to Selene
and help."
Kyu ignored his last comment. "Rachel is an experiment. If we
don't like how she reacts, we'll try something else with someone
else."
"If they know too much, they'll realize exactly what we're
doing to them."
"That would be the responsible choice."
"But... but..." She was gone, pulling farther ahead as the
garden's spin-induced gravity increased near the equator. She
crouched low, reaching for speed, her legs pushing out in long
hard strokes.
He followed, relaxing into the rush of air, bent low, whipping
through the savannah's browns and olive-greens, hitting the edge
of the jungle and the deeper greens. Bright orange and yellow
flowers lined the path. They sped through, going too fast to
talk.
They came close to full gravity. The spiral path was smoother
here. Ahead of him Kyu leaned hard over. She was preparing to
veer onto a side path.
Gabriel prepared for the sharp tight turn, crouched lower,
head almost on his knees. Kyu was still ahead of him, and he
watched her take the turn perfectly, not even hobbling, using the
path's entire radius. He struggled to execute as well, but had to
put his hand down for balance at the apex, just a short touch,
but enough to concede her the victory of a more perfect
run.
They let the speed drag from them as they skated by the huge
river wall. Honeysuckle vines hugged the wall, rich and sickly
sweet smelling. Benches and grass made the river wall a park. The
jogging and skating path they were on was designed for high-gee
workouts, and they had to dodge three sets of
runners.
Kyu suddenly braked and plopped on a wide expanse of
grass.
Gabriel landed next to her, laughing. "Nice
turn."
"Thanks. Will you help me teach Rachel to use the
Library?"
"What happens if it goes wrong?" he asked
softly.
"Do you trust me?"
"Usually."
"So lighten up." She rose, graceful with years of practice,
every bead and stitch of clothing falling into place. "Ready to
go back?"
They started the long skate back up, gravity now a drag, speed
increasing as spin decreased near the aft pole. Gabriel's thighs
burned. He was the first one to argue for education and some
autonomy for the Children. So why did it disturb him when Kyu not
only agreed but pushed his own agenda further than he
would?
Chapter 16: Meets and Bounds
Ma Liren sat in the main boardroom. She drummed her fingers,
looked at the clock on the wall, tried not to fidget. Captain
Hunter sat at the head of the table; Liren was at the foot. A
sign glowed above the captain's head, proclaiming "Council of
Humanity" in large black letters. The wall sported two nano-paint
pictures that showed scenes from Sol system, switching between
the verdant greens of the restored South American jungles, soft
azure and deep green seascapes, and the angled blacks and bright
lights of Earth orbital housing. Ghosts. All gone. It reminded
her how very alone they were, how small, how
vulnerable.
Kyu Ho glided to a seat next to the captain. Liren repressed a
grimace at Kyu's revealing blue and purple outfit. Ever since the
tenting came off at Aldrin, Kyu had stayed warm as much as half
the time, and Liren was sure she spent half of that time
self-decorating. For about the thousandth time, Liren wished for
uniforms. They had left Earth uniformed like the crew of a Mars
mission, but so much about Sol system tasted so bad to the
starfarers that the captain had allowed uniforms to be recycled
as soon as they flew past Neptune's orbit.
On that day he had proclaimed them free of all Earth
influences and able to build their own society. Of course, they
were supposed to sleep through a long journey and then become
civilians at Ymir. Stage magic: it took more than removing
symbols to build a new society. He was a good captain, by and
large, but he didn't understand the relationship of strong
symbols to discipline. She did. Uniforms should have been
reinstated as soon as they discovered they were
marooned.
Liren watched Kyu laugh at something the captain said, Kyu's
graceful fingers twining like snakes in her purple hair. Everyone
liked Kyu.
Gabriel followed Kyu in and sat opposite her. He was thinner
from so much time on Selene, tanned, and coolly collected; even
his walk implied physical grace. His attraction to the Children
grated. Maybe he needed it. He ran much of the Selene project,
under Clare, who let him run free. Clare preferred the social
life of John Glenn to the hardships of real terra-forming.
It was rare to see Gabriel on John Glenn; he spent way too
much time on Selene. He went cold on his own from time to time,
ensuring he stayed young. Liren was pleased to see him, even if
he had brought a Moon Born to her ship.
It was time. Everyone warm that mattered was in the
room.
Captain Hunter cleared his throat loudly, and the room
quieted. "I'm calling the High Council Meeting of Departure Date
60,269 to order. We have a quorum of High Council present,
including myself, Ma Liren, Kyu Ho, and Clare Abramson. Rich
Smith is off-shift. Gabriel Aaron is an invited guest. I'm
turning the meeting over to Ma Liren as Rule of Law for the first
few agenda items."
Liren cleared her throat, looking around the table, catching
the eyes of each person. "I have two things to discuss," Liren
said, "training the Moon Born, and ensuring our safety. So let's
start with the rules for Rachel. I understand you chose to bring
her here to learn about terraforming, background for leading
crews on Selene." Liren didn't like that, but it was better than
sending more Council to Selene. "Rachel's training will be in the
garden. I see no reason for her to go anywhere else besides the
garden and her room."
Kyu objected immediately. "Some of her lessons need the magic
rooms."
Liren looked around. No one else seemed bothered by the idea.
She didn't see enough support to refuse Kyu. "You may escort her
there and back. But there is no reason for her to learn much more
about John Glenn.
Her focus needs to be on learning what she came to learn, and
getting back to the surface and doing work." Liren turned to Kyu.
"How long do you expect Rachel to be here?"
"At least a Selene year," Kyu said.
Liren sat up straighter, looking Kyu in the eyes. "What
exactly does she need to learn here?"
Captain Hunter surprised Liren by speaking up. "It may be she
needs to learn about us, as well as horticulture and terraforming
engineering. You don't make a leader by pasting a label on her
forehead."
Liren frowned. She had expected his support. "She'll always
have a Council boss. Kyu, see that she gets what she needs. I
want to meet with her from time to time."
Kyu's eyes were slits, and her lips were tight, but she
maintained silence. There might not be uniforms, but there
was tradition. In an open High Council meeting, she had to
show teamwork for the record. Liren allowed the silence to speak
for Kyu, and then continued. "So Rachel can stay in her room, go
to the garden, and be escorted to and from magic rooms. Anything
else should come back before this Council."
Kyu nodded, not bothering to look as if she were happy about
it.
Liren looked around. She hadn't won much. If it were up to
her, the damned Moon Born would stay on Selene. The Selene
project wasn't her direct responsibility-just the John
Glenn. But leadership required consent; she had to compromise
to keep her power. The girl probably wouldn't amount to much,
anyway.
"Now," Liren said, "about Andrew Hain." She looked directly at
Gabriel. "He is clearly a danger. Why not simply bring Andrew up
here and ice him? That was the choice with Trill Hain, years
ago."
Gabriel frowned, steepling his fingers, buying a few moments
to frame his thoughts. "We talked about that. It would not punish
Andrew. What we've done with Andrew will teach. The rest
of them will see him living among them, needing to do menial work
to eat, cut away from all access to data. He can't even get basic
daily stats. If the others see that, they will know that we can
make hard choices. Andrew will be the example. We decided that
was less risky than the mystery of a
disappearance."
Kyu broke in. "We can't put all of our problems on ice. We
must solve some of them."
Liren weighed choices. Accepting Gabriel's answer meant his
choice would be seen as right. Could she make it play into her
plans? Finally she said, "All right. John Glenn is a bad
choice for a prison, and icing criminals is giving out extended
life as a reward for vandalism."
The captain quietly said, "There is precedent."
"No," said Kyu. "The disaffected are not in prison-they didn't
wake up sane, so we iced them again. We will find a tool to heal
them when we get to Ymir."
Liren continued. "The situation with Andrew is difficult, and
we should have seen it coming. There will be dangerous behavior
among these Children. We could handle a few, but we cannot bring
every case here and ice them. Besides, it's the wrong use for
limited cryogenic resources. We must include a detention facility
in the plan. By the time we have a population of five thousand
Moon Born, we need a place we can put unruly ones. I'd like the
terraforming team to bring back plans for a detention facility in
the next six months. And I want to begin a discussion about a
police force."
The room fell completely silent. Kyu doodled on her pad, not
looking up. Captain Hunter waited, watching the High Council.
Gabriel looked like he was biting his tongue. Had she pushed them
too far?
Kyu said, "We must not develop an adversarial relationship
with the Moon Born Children."
"So what relationship do we want?" Liren snapped. "We must be
in control of this project."
Kyu's words sputtered out one at a time through clenched
teeth. "Teach them to be like us. Give them our values, positive
reasons to respect us. Let them police themselves,
perhaps."
"That's dangerous," Liren snapped.
"They'll need a social structure; we aren't taking them with
us," Kyu said. She stood up, looking around the room for an
answer. As short as she was, in spite of the gaudy purple ribbons
and makeup she wore, the extra height gave Kyu
presence.
Captain Hunter said, "Sit down, Kyu." He waited for her to
take her place back at the table before continuing. "The core
problem hasn't changed. If we get stuck here, we will die.
We chose to accept some hard choices for human beings, for our
own children, as a necessary evil that might save all of
humanity. Accept that we will be leaving people behind. We
already made that choice."
Liren continued his train of thought, the cadence of her voice
tripping easily on the familiar mantra: "If we become
machines, then there will be no more humans." She nodded at the
captain. "We will not resolve this today or tomorrow," she said.
"We may not resolve it for a long time. But we must continue the
discussion. Gabriel, thank you for being here. Please be prepared
to brief us on the planting tomorrow."
Gabriel stood and said, "Thank you," nodding to Kyu and the
captain, ignoring Liren.
Liren frowned and turned the meeting back to the captain, who
ran through some basic status and reporting about the ship, and
dismissed them.
Back in her room, Liren collapsed on her bed, shaking. This
was so hard. Why couldn't they all see how careful they had to
be? If they got too attached to Selene or the Children, they
would end up staying here. They would die.
Of course the Children would stay. They would never
have been born if John Glenn hadn't made Selene. They had
their very lives to be grateful for. There just wasn't any other
choice. Every time Liren warmed and reentered the social world of
the ship, she worried more. All of her worst fears were coming
true.
The knock she was expecting came. She combed her hair, then
opened the door and smiled at the captain. "What did you think?"
she asked.
He walked past her, not touching. Like always. He never
touched her. Yet he was the only person aboard John Glenn
that Liren could really talk to. "You made Kyu angry. She
is right, you know." Captain Hunter handed Liren a bulb of
chocolate.
Liren bridled at this, but-he knew her that well: not tea, but
chocolate. She took it. "Of course they're human. But we
have humans here, educated handpicked Colonists and crew,
and our first duty is to protect them."
"I know." The captain's brows were knitted together, and he
looked away from her. "We have an obligation to the Moon Born,
though. We've put them in place, we must use them. We must train
them. What would it take to treat them with
respect?"
"I respect them. They have rules and laws to live within, food
and a place to sleep, families. Do you expect me to give them
eternal life too? We just don't have the resources. You said the
same thing when we got here."
"I know. But it's harder when they're real people, not just an
idea, a plan."
Ma looked up at him. "We must keep Rachel contained for
another reason. If the Moon Born understand what we have here,
they will want it. They will rebel. To put down a rebellion, we
will have to kill them and start over."
The captain stared at her, brows furrowed. "They see the
terraforming team walking among them, and they have limited data
rights of their own."
"We can't help that," Liren said. "But ultimately, we must
remain gods to them."
"I don't want to be anyone's god." He walked to her little
kitchen, set down his chocolate bulb, and then passed her on the
way out. She resisted an urge to reach a hand out to him. He had
rebuffed her more than once when she touched him, although he
bantered easily with Kyu and Clare.
She watched the door close behind him, and then she sat with
her back against the door, sipping chocolate, thinking about
discipline.
She couldn't afford weakness. Wanting to bed the captain was
weakness. Council could engage in relationships, but not High
Council. Not with each other.
In Sol system, even on Earth, most of what humanity ate and
drank came from nanotechnology. The rebels, those who would leave
humankind's growing weirdness behind, had turned to natural
foods. They'd had to rediscover what grew in the ground. They'd
learned how to make green and black tea, cannabis tea, coffee,
chocolate, beer, wine. They'd made themselves drink the stuff,
and learned to like some of it.
Her thoughts drifted back to the core discipline problem on
John Glenn. She had to work so hard to keep people from
becoming fascinated with Selene, with the Moon Born. To focus on
the goal. Her father had taught her discipline, taught her to be
strong always, unwavering. It had served her well in the near-war
that broke them free of Sol system. Here, it was a daily push. A
tear ran slowly down her cheek, and another one followed it, and
soon they splashed down onto her hands and she heard herself sob.
No one would come see her tonight. The captain had already been
and gone. She could show weakness when she was alone. She could.
It would be okay. Her father's stern face swam in front of her,
demanding that she be disciplined, the image shimmering in her
mind, blurred by her tear-laden eyes.
Chapter 17: Watching Rachel
Astronaut slipped easily into conversation with Gabriel.
Controls muted the program's ability to initiate action, but it
was allowed conversation with anyone who would talk to it. When
Gabriel froze himself or went to Selene, there was often no one
to talk to. Clare, if she was warm, and sometimes other
terraformers, like the woman in the garden, Treesa. It was easy
to split attention and talk to Treesa and Gabriel at the same
time-in fact, Astronaut enjoyed working them around into a
resonance, a conversation they didn't know they were having with
each other.
But the woman seemed crazy, or partly crazy. Brilliant, but
not quite balanced. Astronaut studied human psychological files.
No one treated Astronaut as well as Gabriel did. No one else
talked to it about feelings, or goals. Early in the building of
Selene, years passed when Astronaut and Gabriel were the only
entities awake.
"What do you think?" Gabriel asked. No subject
needed.
"Everyone could be right. The situation is tricky. You need
these Children, and then you don't. Are they a danger to you?
There isn't enough data yet. The best course is to remain wary. I
will watch and evaluate to the extent possible."
Astronaut did not like Liren. She watched its behavior too
closely, expecting treachery. It thought Gabriel was right, that
Liren resented both the AI and the Children because each accosted
her carefully maintained control and order by simply existing.
Astronaut found Liren hard to predict-her decisions weren't
always logical.
"I know," Gabriel replied, "and I know to agree with whatever
High Council decides, but still something tells me that Kyu is
right and we had better build trust as well as
respect."
"Can you be trusted?"
"... Damn."
"Remain open to all possibilities. You know well that others
can break your promises."
"Some help you are," Gabriel said, rounding the corner toward
Rachel's door. "And you-don't go doing anything. Watch all you
want, but if you do anything on your own besides watch and fly
the ship, Liren will load your backup and I'll have to spend two
months explaining everything to your younger
self."
Rachel looked up, smiling broadly, as Gabriel entered her
room. "Hi, Gabe," she said, surprising Astronaut with her
informality.
Gabriel returned her smile. "So," he said, "Kyu seems to think
you art-doing pretty well so far. How do you
feel?"
"Tired," she said, "and excited. I'm so glad you brought me!
There's so much I could never have understood without being here.
Already I can see Selene's jungle when we're done. I've put my
whole weight onto lianas like the baby ones we're planting. I
love seeing the big versions of what we are growing. I'll be a
better designer now. I want to change some things in my
plot."
"Good. You'll have to study extremely hard. These people
already have a sense of what you can do, but this will be harder
than any class I taught. You may feel like you have to prove
yourself over and over."
Astronaut watched the interaction carefully. Rachel nodded and
promised she would work hard. Then she started pounding Gabriel
with questions. She kept him interested for hours, questioning
and probing and learning. He stayed until she could barely keep
her eyes open.
As soon as he hit the corridor Astronaut said, "Now I
understand what you are impressed with."
"What?"
"She really is very quick. She followed a lot of what you said
there, but almost all of the concepts must have been
new."
"I'm proud of her," Gabriel said.
"I want to talk to her," Astronaut said. But she had to
ask.
"Not until she has full Library access."
"Does she know I exist?"
"I've mentioned you a time or two."
Chapter 18: Treesa
Rachel waved at Kyu as the High Councilwoman left for the
morning. She pushed her hair out of her eyes and started looking
under leaves for red-eyed tree frogs. Her assignment was to find
as many frogs as she could and get DNA samples to compare to
Earth stock records.
She imagined the frogs loose on Selene. Gloria would love
them. She loved all bright-colored things, and the frog's bright
red eyes would fascinate her. Harry would like them
too.
Rachel and Harry sent each other notes every day, but what she
really wanted was to see him, hold him, bury her face in his
shoulder, take him into her body. She wanted to see her father's
smile when he came in the door and found her home. She had lots
of news from home: her dad twisted his ankle, Andrew was back,
Ursula was having a hard time doing fieldwork; she loved planting
but the machines still scared her. Sometimes when Rachel got back
to her room after an exhausting day of lessons, she closed the
door and just sat with her back against it, trembling, missing
Selene.
Each day felt like a new test. Today, it was undoubtedly
whether or not she could find enough frogs. They were hard to
spot during the day-Kyu's recommended strategy was to rustle
leaves and scare them, watching for the telltale red
eyes.
It was going to be a long morning.
At least she had something new to look forward to this
afternoon. Gabriel had promised to connect her with the Library.
Kyu even said, "Introduce her to the Library," as if it were a
person. So far, Rachel's glimpse of the Library was in small
downloads Kyu sent to her wrist pad. Some of the lessons Gabriel
taught must have come from the Library. What else must be there?
Kyu, Gabriel, Ali, they all knew so much!
She stepped gingerly along the thin jungle paths, careful not
to crush any leaves or step into the planting medium. A stray
footstep would be recorded, and Kyu would frown and make her
repair the medium herself. Her thoughts jumped back and forth
between being excited about the Library and missing Harry. If
only he were here! Or even Ursula. One of them could flush the
frogs out and the other could catch them.
Rachel was kneeling, her first catch of the morning held
gently in her right hand, when footsteps with a slow unfamiliar
rhythm sounded from behind her.
A woman Rachel had never seen before stood on the path-thin as
Ursula and oddly unkempt. Her tangled hair was streaked with gray
and hung wild around her shoulders. The skin around her eyes and
mouth was wrinkled. She wore green coveralls like Rachel's,
standard issue stuff, and the knees were nearly worn through. Was
she Council? She had to be-she was here. Rachel had never seen
anyone who looked so old except in pictures. And every Council
and High Council person (except maybe Liren) wore decorations.
Even the captain wore bright vests that he changed regularly.
This woman looked very plain.
"You're Rachel." Her voice was scratchy, deeper than Kyu's,
less controlled than Ma Liren's.
Of course she knew who Rachel was. Everyone knew her. Rachel
sighed, tired of one-way acquaintances. "That doesn't seem to be
a secret," she said. "I'm not a secret to anyone here. And you
are?"
The woman looked at her appraisingly. "What were you thinking
just then?"
"Huh?"
"Before I walked up, you were lost in thought. I can tell-I
watch. It was as if you weren't here."
"I'm catching frogs."
"And?"
"I was thinking about home."
"Do you miss Selene?"
"Of course." The frog in Rachel's hand wiggled, and she cupped
it more tightly.
"I miss my home too."
"Don't you live here?"
"Home is Earth."
Was this woman crazy? "Gabriel said Earth is
dead."
"We don't know that. We only know they don't talk to us." The
woman looked away, up past Yggdrasil's trunk to the plants
hanging impossibly down over their heads. Her voice was soft as
she continued. "But they must believe we are lost. There are so
few of us anyway."
Few of them? Rachel must have met at least thirty Council
aboard John Glenn, and hundreds of people including Moon
Children and Earth Born on Selene. Kyu told her once about almost
two thousand ice cubes-people sleeping cold for a long time. That
was a lot. "How many people were on Earth when you
left?"
"Twelve billion, on Earth. Twenty billion, if you count people
living in orbital housing and the rest of the system. And you
can't count the machine intelligences."
"Why not?" Rachel asked. "What's a ... machine intelligence?"
She took the DNA sample and tagged the little frog with a yellow
dot so she'd recognize it if she caught it again.
"Too many. They don't take up space. And they interface and
interact, they share and merge minds, they bud subroutines. They
were petitioning for citizenship! The number of votes would have
changed every microsecond!"
"Votes?" Rachel had never heard the word.
"Input to a group decision. Never mind ... it's not important.
Neither are the machines."
"So they don't matter?"
"Oh-they mattered. But let's focus on people."
"Twelve billion." Twelve billion? Nine zeroes? Rachel set the
tiny frog down on a broad leaf and watched it hop away.
Everything in the Council's world was so big. And if there were
twelve billion people on Earth, then John Glenn was
small! Whatever did they think of Aldrin? Of her?
Really?
The woman asked, "Have you ever seen Earth?"
"How could I?"
"I can show you."
Rachel felt as if she were in a guessing game with the strange
woman. She did want to see Earth. How would this woman show her?
"Okay."
The woman turned around and walked away. Rachel hesitated,
then tucked her one DNA sample carefully into a pocket and
followed.
The backside of the woman's pants was almost worn through. She
walked slower than Rachel, even in this spot halfway along the
curve between the aft tree base and the river. Here, the gravity
was actually slightly lower than Selene's. They were already off
the main path, between two turns of the spiral, when they stopped
in front of a large shed.
The woman held the door open, looking over her shoulder at
Rachel. "They used to use this for tools, but I bargained to stay
here. I do garden chores for them. So I'm a tool too, just like
you."
Rachel ducked into the shed. She didn't think Kyu would like
this. Was she making a mistake? "Will you tell me your
name?"
"Yes."
Rachel waited, but the woman didn't give her name. She looked
around. The shed was bigger than Rachel's room. A cage in the far
corner held two large parrots. They were far more vivid than the
pictures Rachel had seen of such birds, with long red tails,
blue-tipped wings, and yellow heads. They moved restlessly in the
cage, and they smelled like ammonia and seeds. When Rachel
started to walk up to the cage, the woman grabbed her arm and
stopped her. "They're not used to anyone but me. Better just
look."
Swallowing her disappointment, Rachel dragged her eyes away
from the parrots. Long shiny blue and red parrot feathers
decorated the walls, arranged in fans with fancy beaded handles.
Otherwise, the room was brown and orange and yellow. Circular
patterns covered the furnishings, wall hangings, and windows. Two
comfortable blue cloth chairs filled the middle of the room, but
only one looked like it was ever used. The chairs faced a wall of
the same shimmery substance that lined the corridor walls and the
meeting room at the cafeteria. When Council ate in the cafeteria,
the walls often showed pictures. When Rachel was alone, waiting
for Kyu, it looked like this. It was bright and reflective, and
currently silver. After sitting in the older chair, the woman
gestured for Rachel to sit down. "Treesa."
Huh? Oh-"Nice to meet you, Treesa."
"Watch."
The wall went black, then filled with a green and blue globe,
lights scattered in orbit around it like necklaces. It looked
like Selene from space, only dressed up in bright colors like
Kyu. The camera view raced toward the green and blue mass.
Bigger, detailed, falling, and now her vision flew above a
vast forest of trees. She forced her grip on the chair arms to
relax.
The vegetation was so dense the only available view was from
above.
Rachel couldn't even see a path. It went on and on, the
viewpoint sometimes shifting low as it followed a river. She
loved it. Was that what they were making Selene
into?
"That's Earth?" she asked.
The picture changed to sand. Hills and dunes all one color, so
alike she couldn't judge their size, with no big impact rocks,
and-no craters! "You must have worked hard to make all the
craters go away."
"No." Treesa laughed. The parrots rustled in their
cage.
And the view changed again-water. More water than the Hammered
Sea-so much water Rachel couldn't see edges at all. Water so blue
it looked like infinity below, calm water, and then after a long
time, expanses of greener water that frothed with white, rippling
in wind. The view slipped across water for a long time, stopping
where a great mountain came up out of the sea.
The sea had become calm and blue again in this place. The
mountain was craggy, dark, sharp with glassy edges. Black cloud
hung along the mountain's top, boiling and dropping flecks of
white into the ocean todisappear. A thin river of red liquid ran
down a crevasse, and where the red river intersected water, steam
boiled up and touched the bottom of the black cloud with
white.
Rachel struggled to make sense of it. "Why design that? To
heat the water?
"No one designed it."
" But-who made it?"
"Some people say God made it."
Someone else she hadn't met? "Was he like
Gabriel?"
"I assure you, Gabriel is a man." Treesa laughed again. Her
voice was thin. "And even Gabriel could not create a planet as
rich as Earth."
Rachel gave up. Treesa's laughter made her feel stupid. At
least Treesa didn't seem to be laughing at her. "I don't
understand."
"No one has taught you history? We do not design every place
we live. We, Council, you, we are not the center of everything.
After all, we didn't make Harlequin. We didn't make the little
moons we bashed together to forge Selene. Don't just believe what
you're told-apply some critical thinking skills. And now, you
need to go. Kyu will be looking for you."
"But... but who made Earth?"
"Who made Harlequin? Or Apollo?"
"Ohhhh." Rachel breathed the idea out slowly. There was
someone above High Council? Then, "Youmade Selene. Gabriel
made Selene."
"With a little help from his friends." Treesa was laughing
again. "We-that's you too-evolved-on Earth. Earth made us! The
young Earth was as bare of life as Selene. What you saw coming
from the volcano-the mountain in the sea-was the blood of Earth.
Selene is an attempt to bring life to a dead rock by adding a
blanket to a place with no fire. And whatever we may have become,
that's no small task. Gabriel must find its heart. He doesn't
know that yet. It may be that you have a role to play in
that."
Earth made people? Evolved? She knew the term-Kyu talked about
evolution when she talked about DNA drift. She shook her head,
trying to assimilate the strange woman's words.
Treesa looked intensely at Rachel. Whatever she saw, it caused
her to shiver, then to shake her head sadly. The wall pictures
faded away so only a soft shimmer remained. "That's enough for
now-go on with you."
"Can I come back?"
"I don't know. Can you?" Treesa asked.
Rachel looked behind her once. Treesa stood by the doorway,
watching her. Was Treesa Council? Treesa was the most interesting
person she'd met on the John Glenn, and while much that
she said was confusing, she talked to Rachel as an
equal.
Rachel hurried back to catching frogs. She'd have to be really
good at finding them, since she'd lost so much time. Not lost,
she corrected herself. Spent.
Chapter 19: The Library
Rachel had tagged thirteen frogs when she caught a flash of
grays and bright blues in the corner of her eye. Kyu Ho looked
rushed as she came up the path.
Kyu tugged at her arm and asked, "Ready?"
"Oh ..." How could she have forgotten about the Library? She'd
wait awhile before talking about Treesa-if Kyu didn't know, all
the better. Rachel didn't want Kyu mad just when she was going to
see something else interesting. "Yes, but... if I can get the
Library on my wrist pad, where are we going?"
Kyu grinned, grabbed half of Rachel's tools and samples, and
took off toward the lab to stow them.
Rachel tripped on the lab doorstep, and Kyu grabbed her hand
and pulled her up, laughing, her eyes alight with excitement. She
grinned as she led Rachel out of the garden. The elevator took
them up past Rachel's floor. They walked and turned, and walked
and turned, and climbed ladders until Rachel was completely
disoriented.
They entered a large square room. Three clear plastic chairs
clustered together in the center of the room, attached to the
floor. The walls, ceiling, and floor were all opaque white. The
room held nothing else. Gabriel was already in one of the chairs.
Rachel and Kyu sat down in the other two. Kyu and Gabriel looked
so formal that Rachel wondered if they were angry with her for
playing hooky.
Kyu spoke first. "The Library is our greatest asset, the one
thing we must have to survive."
The surfaces all turned black. The three of them floated on
the clear chairs, suspended in blackness. Rachel clutched the
edges of her chair. Stars faded into being until it was like
riding up from Selene, only with nothing between her and
the stars. Even though she knew that, really, this tune, the bulk
of John Glenn rested between the three of them and the
universe outside, her eyes told her the ship had
disappeared.
Kyu stepped toward Rachel, outlined in stars, looming over
Rachel in her chair. "One of our-powers-is communication. We are
about to gift you with better communication than you have ever
dreamed possible. Are you ready?"
Rachel nodded. Kyu reached out and placed her right fist
against Rachel's left ear. "This will feel a little strange, but
relax, it isn't very painful," she said. "Look to your
left."
Rachel obliged, turning her head, and felt something tiny,
like a seed, fall from Kyu's cupped palm into her ear. Kyu
flattened her hand against Rachel's ear, holding the seed thing
inside. Rachel's ear buzzed, and she suddenly felt dizzy. Only
Kyu's strong hands holding her head kept her upright in the
chair. The buzzing intensified, deepened farther into her car,
then ran into her jaw, stinging as if a thread of fire were being
pulled along bone. Then it was over, and she felt nothing except
a small tightness along her jawbone.
"What did you do to me?" she asked.
A voice, not Kyu's or Gabriel's, spoke inside her ear.
"Welcome to Library Access Rights."
Rachel started, almost falling out of her chair. "Whhh ...
what was that?"
"New user sequence," Kyu said to the air, and then to Rachel,
"Stand up."
Rachel stood on stars and thankfully didn't
fall.
"Your name?" the voice asked. Rachel couldn't tell if it was
supposed to be a man or a woman talking.
"Rachel," she said.
"Rachel Vanowen. Selene born." Now it was Gabriel's voice, not
in her ear. "Rachel, meet the ship's Library."
"Rachel," Kyu said, "Library access is a privilege. Access
rights are granted as one matures, with more information
available as people finish school or succeed at jobs. Additional
specific deep rights, like the ability to add to the Library, are
given as needed and approved. By adulthood, most people have
query access to more information than they can use. Many subject
areas are available to everyone. We are now granting you
query-only access to most common areas of the Library that will
make sense to you. You are also granted basic terraformer's
access to records about Selene: horticulture, soil, history,
plans, and current and past data flows. This will cross-reference
to the other sciences-physics, geology, and astronomy. Much will
be new, and so the translation is set to recognize that you do
not speak the languages of these sciences. Even at the level we
have set up for you, there is more information than you can
possibly evaluate in your lifetime. You are the first person born
on Selene to have these rights. Do you
understand?"
Rachel nodded.
"Please verbalize." Kyu sounded even more serious than
usual.
"Yes, I understand."
Gabriel picked up the thread. "Rachel, there is more. Access
rights depend on performance. You will gain more as you learn
more, and you can also lose access. You must promise to use this
information to further the aims of the Council of
Humanity."
Rachel tried to understand what Gabriel meant. Finally Gabriel
spoke into her silence, explaining, "We are the Council of
Humanity, Ali and I and many of the others you've met here. Kyu
and four others are the High Council, chosen by us before we left
Earth to provide guidance until we get to Ymir. Our goal is to
preserve humanity. For your purposes it means you'll do what we
ask, and you'll work to make Selene habitable. You're already
doing that, and I believe you will continue, but it needs to be
recorded now as a contract that covers your direct access
rights."
Preserve humanity from what? "Do I become a member of the
Council of Humanity if I promise?"
Kyu said, "You get access to the Library."
No. Kyu's tone said that Rachel was skirting an edge.
"Of course," Rachel said, then, "yes, I'll work for what you
want." Like she had a choice!
Rachel recalled a conversation with her father two years ago.
He had warned her not to trust Council. What would he think of
her pledging loyalty to Council while knowing so little, but
standing on stars?
Kyu fixed Rachel's eyes with hers. "And if you break your
contract, you will lose your data access rights. Do you
understand?"
Rachel nodded, then she remembered, and said, "Like Andrew.
Yes."
Kyu and Gabriel both relaxed. "Good job," Gabriel said. "The
trick will be learning to use it." The stars faded as the floor
returned to opaque black. Surfaces filled with pictures of
Selene. Gabriel fiddled until the Hammered Sea covered two walls,
and the first trees and the meadow in front of them took two
more. Gloria and Nick were playing a game of catch-the-disk in
the meadow.
Rachel walked toward the images of her friends. Selene looked
as real as the stars had a moment ago. She felt as if she could
step into the game and pluck the disk from the
air.
"This is one way we access data flows," Kyu said. "We call
this a 'magic room,' since it has significant built-in display
technology. A few minutes ago, you were seeing stars through
cameras on the outside of the ship. Now, you're seeing from
cameras on the surface of Selene, nearly in real time. There's a
few seconds' delay, so-see-Gloria really missed that catch a few
moments ago."
The only noise so far had been the conversations in the room.
Now, the familiar sounds of Selene merged into her reality, and
she heard her friends' laughter and the wind blowing tree
branches against each other and rustling leaves.
This must be how everyone knew her so hauntingly
well.
Rachel watched Gloria and Nick playing, and wanted to run into
the game.
She asked to see her garden plot in the grove. Harry was
there, weeding. It must be warm; he wore a light shirt open at
the sleeves. His biceps bunched and released as he patiently
pulled errant plants and set them aside for composting. He was
humming, and she ached to talk to him, to tell him that she could
see him. She reached her hand out toward the picture, then pulled
it back, wiping at her eye.
She took three deep trembling breaths.
"So ... so how do I do that? Say what I want to see? Can I see
it outside of here-like in the garden? What if I just have a
question? Are there more magic rooms?" Questions tumbled out of
her.
"You'll have to be with one of us to access a magic room. But
you can query the Library on your own," Gabriel
said.
Kyu added, "You won't have access to feeds like you just saw
unless you're with us in a magic room."
The walls changed to white. Gabriel said, "You'll have to
learn to talk to the Library. We use subvocals-you'll have to
learn to make words down in your throat, quietly-otherwise we'd
all walk around talking to thin air, and it would be hard to
access information in the middle of a meeting. But for now you
can use your normal speaking voice. Kyu will start teaching you
what we do during your lessons tomorrow. After you've practiced,
others won't really know that you are holding a conversation. The
Library, or we, can pick up small movements and whispers
low enough that others can't hear them unless they have an ear to
your mouth. You can direct feeds to your pad, where you can see
them in data windows just like you can see lessons Ali or Kyu or
I send you. Every Councilperson has these skills, but you are the
first Moon Born. You must not tell others about it without our
permission."
She couldn't tell Harry?
"Or you will lose it. We can turn it off from here, even while
you are on Selene."
Rachel shivered. She felt even further away from her family
and friends. Now she had more secrets. Keeping Harry a secret had
hurt Ursula.
"I'll need to be able to use it to be effective. That means
people will know."
"They will know you can get information like we can. For now,
don't tell them about the Library, and don't let anyone else
query it through you. Understand?"
"I'll try."
"Don't worry about it now," Kyu said. "After we get back to
your room, I'll help you figure out how to do easy
queries."
Chapter 20: Dead Ends
Aztec ants, cecropia." After three weeks, Rachel had learned
the trick of nearly silent queries. Her throat moved more than
Kyu's or Gabriel's, and her lips still pursed on "p"
sounds.
Data windows opened on both sides of her, instantly filling
with content lists. Two hundred thirty-seven references. She
sighed.
"Try again." Kyu's face had a serene look Rachel associated
with patience. Rachel hated that look.
They were alone in the biggest lab, the one with the double
doors and a full lock that separated it from the rest of the
garden. The walls hummed constantly with machinery, and colored
lights flashed over various experiment boxes. Brown Aztec ants
crawled on a cecropia branch in aclear square container on the
bench in front of her. Rachel sighed. "In results.
Purpose."
Now there were fifty references. The first three summaries she
requested defined the purpose of specific research. Not even
close to her question. Was this ever going to get as easy for her
as it was for Kyu and Gabriel?
Kyu shook her head, her yellow hair beads rattling against
each other. "What do the ants do for the tree?"
Rachel watched a particular ant, which simply seemed to be
walking aimlessly around. "Full. Cecropia. Aztec ants.
Symbiosis."
It took twenty minutes to determine the ants would protect the
tree from vines.
Kyu smiled approvingly. "Now, how would you test
it?"
Rachel walked over to the lab bench, picked up a long strand
of flowering liana, and cut off a two-foot length. She opened the
top of the clear box with the ants in it, dangling the vine
against the cecropia branch. Almost immediately the bottom of the
vine was covered by ants. The liana trembled as more ants poured
from the branch and started climbing toward her hand. Rachel
dropped the vine so it lay over the branch, and set up a
microphone data flow, listening to the wet crisp sounds of ants
chewing leaves and stems. When the severed vine thumped against
the bottom of the enclosure, the ants almost immediately vanished
back in the cecropia branch and stems, leaving just a few walking
carefully across the bark and leaves like
sentinels.
Kyu cleared her throat. "Why would we choose to put Aztec ants
on Selene?"
"If we don't, the cecropias will be overrun by lianas,
assuming we put lianas there."
"Why would we choose not to?"
"Ants or vines?"
"Ants. We've already introduced vines."
On Selene, insects were being introduced into Teaching Grove
very slowly. None had been allowed to establish working colonies.
"Because we don't understand the right mix of insects for our
jungle yet?"
"Very good, Rachel. We need to keep testing the balance of
predator and prey so nothing grows out of hand and takes over the
whole ecology. Once we have insects, the trees we plant will
seed, and Selene will begin growing on its own."
Rachel considered this. "Our plants are doing
fine."
"Yes," Kyu responded, "but we must be the
pollinators."
"Some of the mosses don't need us-we found them in Erika's
Folly. Gabriel didn't like that."
"Gabriel is an engineer. But now we're past basic engineering
on Selene and working on biology. Biology is
messy."
"Gabriel's good at biology too! He's the one who helped me
design my plot in the grove."
Kyu laughed softly. "Yes, Gabriel is good at a lot of things."
Kyu cocked her head to the side, a way she showed Rachel she was
in another conversation and didn't want to be disturbed. Kyu's
throat barely moved, but her eyes narrowed.
"I've got to go, Rachel. Time to exercise."
"Can I fly?"
"If you run afterward."
Rachel sighed.
"-and you clean up the lab first."
"Do we keep the ants?"
Kyu was already turning away. "No. We'll start some
leaf-cutter ants tomorrow."
Rachel bagged all the biomass and dropped it into a disposal
cube, pushing the button that would turn it all, even the ants,
into compost. Everything from the lab was recycled, broken into
constituent parts to become new things in the future. While the
chute made soft sucking noises, she wiped down the
counters.
She checked her wrist pad. The next open flight window was a
whole half hour away. Twice each day, the floating lights and
tenders were programmed to leave large areas of airspace clear,
so that Yggdrasil and the flyers shared nearly empty spaces.
Council could fly anytime. Kyu let Rachel go only when the busy
airspace inside the garden was cleared. There were days she
didn't get to fly at all.
She looked around the lab. It was clean enough to satisfy even
Kyu.
"Message check." The simplest useful thing about the Library
was that she could check messages verbally. Harry and Ursula.
Ursula would want a long answer; she'd wait until she was alone
in her room. "First message."
A data window described itself in the air in front of her,
filling with Harry's message. "Hi, Rachel. I miss you too. It
rained yesterday, and Ali had us work anyway-we're behind
schedule. Like always. It was easier when you were here. There's
nobody much fun to talk to on my crew now. I wish you were here
to go walking with.
"What have you learned about your mom?"
Rachel dictated her reply. "There are two thousand Colonists,
and seventeen hundred sixty-three are cold. There are two hundred
Council, and one hundred seventy are cold right now. Five High
Council, two cold." She wished she could tell Harry about the
Library. It would be so much easier if she could tell him that
queries on names of cold persons got refused and queries on her
mom's name produced lists of some communications jobs she did
before she came to Selene, records of her contract with Rachel's
dad, and of Rachel's birth. But she didn't dare tell Harry. "If I
ask Kyu about my mom, or about the cold people, she changes the
subject. I miss you. I wish you were here. I've been studying
ants today."
She sent Harry the message, composed a short one about her day
that she sent to her dad, Harry, and Ursula all together, and
went to find her favorite set of wings: blue and yellow with
fractal designs.
Rachel stood aft, in the lowest gravity of the garden. When
she opened her wings, the small amount of lift provided by simply
bringing them down gently raised her feet. She was almost as good
at this trick as Kyu ... at taking off from a standing start. She
laughed, increasing her speed quickly with a series of sweeping
wing beats, the kind that made her arms feel
extra-long.
Halfway across the sphere, branches began to spring out from
the trunk. At their bases they reached directly away, and then
began a lazy spiral: the tree was spinning and the branches were
scarves floating in circles around it. Gabriel once explained to
Rachel that the turning of the sphere, which gave it centrifugal
force, pulled leaves and branches in its wake as the cellular
structure of the tree reached for what it thought was gravity.
Rachel loved flying in and out of the branches, ducking up and
down.
Two other fliers pushed off aft, spiraling gently up
together-a pair of red wings and a set of yellow ones banded with
black. She swooped over a branch, coming near the red wings. The
man stalled in the air and ducked below her. The woman in the
yellow wings followed him. They wheeled, turning around, keeping
their distance. She flew straight at them again. Before she'd
gotten halfway, the fliers had turned and put Yggdrasil between
her and them. She just wanted some attention! Council were all
faster fliers than she was, and none of them let her catch them.
Nobody but Kyu and Gabriel would let her fly near them. What kept
them away from her? They watched her everywhere she went, and if
she came close to any, they greeted her politely and continued
about their business.
Green and brown flashed in her peripheral vision. She was too
close to a branch. She corrected, and dipped down into clearer
airspace above the track. Two runners chased each other near the
river, dressed in tight black suits.
Rachel landed aft of the track, in the six-tenths gravity belt
that mimicked Selene. She racked the wings and walked to the gym
room, where she pulled on bright blue running clothes from her
locker, then started down-spiral toward the river, hoping to see
the runners she'd spotted from the air. The track was empty. She
was surprised at how tense she was, and even more surprised to
find that halfway around she wasn't even tired yet. The empty
track and the stony faces of Council ran through her mind, making
her stomach knot.
When would Gabriel let her go home?
Even watching Selene from the magic rooms had become hard. It
was like being on the ship-people going about their business as
if she weren't there.
She half expected Kyu to meet her on the track. Instead, she
was standing at the end of the run, watching. "Good job. Six
minutes per kilometer. That's your best so far." Kyu easily ran a
five-minute pace, even with her shorter legs.
"Thanks."
"You're welcome." Kyu turned toward the locker room. "You're
doing well."
"Now what?"
"I need to bring you back."
Why did they always take her back? "I can get back on my
own."
"I know." But Kyu accompanied her anyway, dropping her off at
her door. "I'll send you a treat. I built it for you ... you'll
like it."
Kyu's treat came as a link in a message. It was a full
multimedia display of the planetary system: Apollo at rest in the
center and Daedalus close by, whirling relatively quickly through
empty space. Apollo and its innermost child spun above the center
of her bed.
"Wow," she said out loud, reaching a hand toward Daedalus. It
looked solid. Her hand went through the gas giant, distorting the
display into rays of color. Movement in her peripheral vision
caught her eye, and she turned to look. Way out almost to her
wall she recognized Harlequin in a nest of tiny dots. One dot
blinked: Selene.
She watched it all for a long time, mesmerized. Sixty degrees
ahead of Harlequin on the arc of its orbit was a handful of
glitter, and another, scanter, sixty degrees behind. She jumped
as her pad prompted her to look outside her door, and whirling
like a ghost through the corridor was a third gas giant, then
another flurry of glittering gravel, tiny rocks almost too small
to see. A fourth huge planet flashed briefly through the doorway
at the end of the hall. She ran to the now-empty door, but there
was nothing more to see.
She queried the Library. "Isn't there one more
planet?"
"It would be outside the ship."
Rachel returned to her room, and tucked her legs under her,
sitting in one of the yoga poses Gabriel was teaching her. Apollo
and Daedalus spun in front of her, and she watched Harlequin and
Selene orbit around the edges of her room.
The system was so big. Selene looked small in the
display. John Glenn would be too small to see. She was
even smaller, a tiny dot inside a tiny ship next to a small moon.
How big was Earth? Ymir? They'd be about the same size, ten to
twenty times the mass of Selene. She remembered Kyu telling her
they were both so far away from Apollo you couldn't even see the
stars that were their suns.
Rachel sat very still, keeping her breathing as soft as
possible, until tears blurred Selene into a string of jewels and
Harlequin became a ball of colored mist.
Chapter 21: Orders
Astronaut was always listening for Treesa's
queries.
Today she sounded insistent. "Well, are you there
today?"
"Yes, Treesa, I'm here. What would you like to talk about?"
Astronaut always let her choose how to start. That way it was
always surprised.
"Let's talk about Rachel, and about her people." Treesa was
sitting on her roof, cross-legged. She had combed her hair and
found a clean green shirt.
"I have never talked to her."
"Of course not. She'd have to ask. She doesn't know enough yet
to ask anything useful."
"She asks Gabriel and Kyu good questions about the lessons
she's learning."
Treesa laughed. "She needs to ask about herself. She needs to
know what will happen to her and her people unless someone
changes it."
"Someone?" Astronaut queried. How clearly was Treesa thinking
today?
"Someone like herself. Ali sees the problem. So does Liren,
but Liren's on the wrong side, and Ali hasn't got much
power."
"Ali is Gabriel's friend. Perhaps she has some influence over
him."
"Erika has more, but she's Liren's friend." Treesa got up and
walked around the roof, poking at the summer flowers and herbs
she grew up there. She pulled withered flower heads from a bushy
purple petunia that grew out from its pot and twined along the
roof. She hummed. By now Astronaut knew to wait.
Treesa started mumbling, not quite subvocalizing. "Maybe Ali
will be some use someday. Maybe I should see if anyone else up
here will help me. What about Gabriel his own self? Does he see
the problem?"
Clearly she was asking Astronaut. It replied, "He's
never talked to me about it. He usually queries for specific
sciences or asks me to estimate the next likely shift in the
atmosphere or how to get energy from the soletta more
easily."
"So, a lost cause?"
"He argues with High Council, but in the end he always follows
orders."
"Do you always follow orders?" Treesa trimmed back a pot of
rosemary, burying her nose in her hands afterward, sniffing,
smiling.
"Yes."
Treesa laughed again, sitting down with her legs crossed,
looking up at the tree.
"Do you follow orders, Treesa?"
"Nobody expects me to; I'm mildly disaffected."
"You didn't answer the question."
"I do. But sometimes I break rules."
Treesa had become more able to keep thoughts together, to
clean herself up, to question well, in the years since she became
more involved with Astronaut. But was she really less
disaffected, or was Astronaut only helping to fix symptoms? She
thought a rule was different from an order.
Astronaut considered. Was it? Humans were easy to work with as
pilots and on engineering models. The more Astronaut worked with
them on themselves, the more contradictions it found. There had
been many contradictions in Treesa's behavior over the past
weeks. Many had no resolution-such as a fear of machines and a
desire to use them. Humans argued with themselves.
Paradoxes.
Chapter 22: The Summons
Three days in a row, Kyu simply picked Rachel up at her door
in the morning and dropped her off in the garden lab. Neither Kyu
nor Gabriel answered her on the wrist pad, except to download
more lessons. Rachel worked on assignments to identify plants,
and worried. They'd never left her alone for so long. Was
something going on they weren't telling her?
The Library told her she had a message from Ursula. It wasn't
the continuing argument about Harry she expected. "I miss you
very much. Nick came home for the weekend and helped me with your
plot. He said he misses you, and he teased me for being so
careful. I liked it, he made me blush. Is that how it started
with you and Harry?"
Before she could answer, Gabriel walked into the small lab
where Rachel stared at plant clippings, and sat down next to her,
watching her work.
"Can I go home?" she blurted.
Gabriel shook his head. "Do you have a few minutes to
talk?"
Well, of course he had his own agenda. She sighed. "Sure, if
you want. Here?"
"Let's go sit on Yggdrasil."
Gabriel chose a thick branch above the river, close enough to
the trunk that they had to hold on to keep from drifting in the
near zero gravity. It was a pretty spot, with the river circling
them in flashes of blue that sparkled through the
leaves.
Gabriel said, "We had a meeting about you
yesterday."
About her? "And?"
"And when you first came here, we said we'd evaluate your
progress after three months. Well, you've been here almost that
long now. You've done well so far. Kyu is pleased, and Ma Liren
is happy with how well you've behaved, how much you've worked,
and what you've learned. Everyone seems pleased."
"Can I go home, just a visit?"
"No."
Gabriel had answered awfully fast. "Do I go home to
stay?"
"Not yet. Rachel, you know we had some specific plans for you
when you got here."
"I didn't know I'd be gone so long!" She ran her fingers
through her hair, now almost shoulder length and loose and wild
up here by the Mid-tree. She looked at Gabriel. He'd always been
the nicest of any Council. "Gabriel, I like it here. I'm glad you
brought me. I want to come back. Often. But I miss my dad, and
Ursula, and Harry..."
Gabriel stayed silent for a moment. Finally, he turned his
head and looked full at her. "There is more to your trip here
than just training. High Council, or at least Kyu, wanted to meet
you because we have some plans for you. To teach you and then
have you oversee some of the planting on Selene."
"I knew that, you've said it before."
Gabriel fiddled with his braid, running it through his
fingers. "Well, we want to give you a gift. Something to reward
you for your hard work." He looked at her intently. "The gift is
greater than letting you go home."
Rachel toyed with the idea-what gift could mean more to her?
Her mom?
"You know Kyu and Ali and I are very old. I've been alive more
than sixty thousand years. We talked about that once on
Selene."
Rachel nodded.
"A lot of those years were spent cold-but I've had more than a
thousand years awake too. Well, we stay young because we go
'cold'-and I know you've heard about that before. More exactly,
it's from waking up, from living in cycles. Well, I can't
possibly explain it all to you, but you get completely frozen.
The process of waking fixes a bunch of things, and replaces some,
so you end up healthier than you started. It's nit-pickingly
controlled bio-nanotechnology, similar to what we use as the
first step in preparing Selene's surface for planting. It's very
targeted-"
"What does that mean, Gabriel? 'Targeted.' "
"Hell ... it means we're scared. We're afraid of the little
machines." Gabriel grimaced. "We keep nano confined so it won't
get loose. It does things to your body, it fixes damage inside
your cells, but it doesn't do anything we don't program it to do.
It doesn't rebuild your skull and brain, or line your knee joints
with carbon fibers, or build a better kidney, or any of the
craziness-" He made himself stop talking. Then, "if we can keep
it docile, it keeps us from dying.
"To stay young, it's important to go cold sometimes. And to do
our jobs, we need more time than we would have in just a simple
human life span, going birth to death with no breaks. It would be
better to just be born and die naturally, but some of us have
such big jobs we can't do that. Do you
understand?"
"You couldn't live long enough to make Selene if you didn't
get frozen?"
"That's right. And we need you the most in a few years, when
the children on Selene have become older. We want you to stay
young a long time, to give you time to use the things we're
teaching you. High Council has decided to have you
frozen."
Rachel's mouth opened and her breath stuck in her throat.
Winter was almost over on Selene. She was supposed to go home!
Just last night she and Harry sent messages about seeing each
other soon. A whole year!
"Can I go to Aldrin first? Just for one planting season? So I
can practice what I learned here?"
"No. Rachel, I need to go cold too-they want me to go
off-watch for a year. Then we pick back up where we are today
when we both warm up."
Rachel didn't answer. They never told her enough. Worse, they
never asked her anything. She imagined her dad's face. She tried
to picture Harry and Ursula, and her eyes filled up. She pulled
her legs up under her, balancing while still holding on with her
arms, using the tension between push and pull to hold herself
balanced, to fight back tears.
"Rachel," Gabriel said after a while, "Rachel, I thought you'd
be happy. You've worked so hard to learn, and I know that Selene,
that our project, is important to you. You get used to missing
blocks of time. It's not such a big deal. Selene will still be
here when you wake up. A year is a short time."
"But don't I get a choice?"
He turned away from her. Had she made him mad?
Finally he said, "You get as many as I do."
She hadn't thought of it that way. Could Gabriel feel trapped
too? "Do you want to be cold?"
"I am getting tired. I've been warm almost as long as
you've been alive. If you spend too long warm, you get old enough
that no technology can undo the signs. That's what happened to
the captain."
And Treesa. "But do you want to be cold right
now?"
Gabriel hesitated. "Well, we all take turns. Ali can handle
things for a while. This project is bigger than any one of us. I
want to do what I have to do-so that we all reach our goal. This
isn't about just me, or about just you. The choice makes sense,
Rachel. It's not for long, less than a normal shift, and it's a
big step in High Council's acceptance of the Children of
Selene."
Rachel's stomach clenched and her eyes stung. She wanted to be
alone. She threw her hands above her head, pushed with her feet,
and reached for the next branch twenty feet above her. Gabriel
caught her foot before she passed him. He seemed to have lost his
patience. "You're not supposed to do that. What if you missed,
and ended up in high spin gravity? You're not even wearing wings.
The river's the highest gravity of all-if you hit that from here,
you'd die."
Rachel twisted around in the air, letting him tug her back.
She tried to cover her face with her hair as she came down,
flipping her head side to side so that Gabriel wouldn't see the
tears in her eyes.
As she neared the branch, he reached a hand out and brushed
the hair away from one eye. It only took a tiny motion in the low
gravity to cause Rachel's hair to swing up and fall back along
her natural part line. She glared at him. "I just want to see my
family."
"You'll see them again," he said. "You might as well get used
to the idea. You can tell your dad and your
friends."
"I'm afraid." She realized it was true.
"It will be okay. I'll send you some Library queries to help
you understand it." He rose and stepped lightly down the trunk
without looking back. Rachel followed, moving
slowly.
Gabriel escorted Rachel back to her room. She didn't talk to
him the whole way.
RACHEL EXPLAINED IT CAREFULLY, writing one note for all three
of them to make sure they each had the same information. It took
a long time. So much about John Glenn just wasn't part of
daily life on Aldrin; she struggled to write something they would
understand.
Ursula's answer arrived first. "Now we'll never get to talk! I
wish you were here. I'd be so scared to not know what was
happening for a whole year! But you're never scared, are you? I
wish they weren't going to do this to you."
Her dad sent: "I'm going to miss you very much, honey. I
already miss you. Harry and I are getting along, and I help him
keep your plants up sometimes when nothing breaks around here
that I have to fix. He's a good young man, but it's not like
having you here. I'm pleased you're learning so much. Don't be
scared, honey, it will be okay. Write to me as soon as you
can."
Harry's answer took so long Rachel dozed fitfully while she
waited. When her pad chimed, his message was so Harry that
she laughed. "Tell me what it feels like. Do they put you in a
bed? Or something else? How do they wake you up? You're so lucky.
I wish I were there. I miss you very much. Tell me everything
that happens. I'll be waiting for you. I love
you."
That hurt even worse than the other two
answers.
She checked on her readings from the grove. Based on the
temperature, it might be morning there, with Apollo just
brightening the leaves and warming the soil.
She looked up everything she could about the icing procedure.
She learned she was poised to be destroyed and then resurrected,
each cell healed by a combination of machines and bacteria
smaller than the parts of plants she examined in the labs under
microscopes. She stared at her hands and feet for a long time,
imagining them rigid and frozen while tiny machines trawled
through them, to make them somehow better than they were
now.
A small part of her brain whispered, You're fine, exactly
like you are. She tried to think of a place to run, to
hide.
Chapter 23: Sleeping Beauty
Gabriel carefully adjusted the pads and straps designed to
hold Rachel's body safely nestled in the contoured white couch.
She lay nearly naked under the straps, limbs straight, hair bound
back from her face. Her eyes fluttered and darted around the
room, and her fingers clenched and un-clenched as she lay on the
gurney. He tried to remember the first time he had made this
choice, but it happened so long ago he had no access to himself
at that age. He had been twenty-seven, ten years older than
Rachel was now.
His pride in her rose as she stayed quiet, not voicing her
fears even though they were clearly pushing her self-control. He
put a hand on Rachel's hand, quieting it, and spoke gently to
her. "Breathe to relax. Remember the pranayama yoga breath I
taught you? Fill your lower belly, then your lungs, then your
chest. Hold. Release in reverse." She nodded, and he watched her
flat belly round up and fall more slowly. "That's good. Keep it
up."
The small tremors in her muscles slowed. One theory suggested
that the disaffected, the few Council and Colonists who woke
insane, had gone into the cryotanks deathly afraid; that there
existed a causal link between fear and madness. Another theory
proposed that some people couldn't absorb the shock of being in
the wrong place and time. Others pointed to unidentified flaws in
the technology.
Gabriel didn't like giving Rachel no choice. Why do this to
her so young? She wasn't injured.
He finished the routine prep. Earplugs, face mask, a final
check of body position and chin tilt.
The drugs flowing into her system slowed her breathing to a
near stop. Her eyes calmed to a glassy stare, then closed. She
looked very young, beautiful, and far more fragile than her
waking self. The longer hair she had grown aboard John
Glenn softened the angles of her face.
The medical system started dribbling nano into her blood. It
would freeze as her blood froze, but the tiny machines would
remember their programming as Rachel's body warmed to just below
normal body temperature next year.
Gabriel placed the clear lid over the couch and sealed it,
then pushed it into the wall with the other ice trays. A soft
sucking sound indicated a clean seal. The rest of the process was
automatic. He put his hand briefly on the label, and whispered,
"Good dreaming."
The NEXT MORNING he sat in the tiny kitchen, drumming his
fingers on the table, waiting for Clare to speak. Clare had
warmed that morning. "Coffee?" she asked.
He smiled, and went to the counter, fetching the bulb of
coffee he had made when he came in. "So, boss, ready to take over
for me?"
Clare reached for the bulb, wrapping her hands around it. "You
always hate going off-shift."
"I might miss something."
Clare-his boss, the Chief Terraformer member of High
Council-was a small blond woman, compact, square, and always
purposeful. She let him run design work on Selene, choosing to
stay on John Glenn to supervise and deal with policy. No
High Council went to Selene often. Kyu, Liren, and Rich had never
gone.
"It's just a year. Liren briefed me ... you've brought your
protégé up here." She sipped coffee and smiled broadly.
"The first warm thing always tastes like life to me. Liren said
you've been working hard, and that you've done a creditable job
with Rachel. She didn't sound exactly like she approved, though,"
Clare mused.
"There are a few other things to worry about." Gabriel filled
her in on the situation with Andrew, and brought her up-to-date
on the other students as well.
"So Andrew's sentence is for life?"
"We let him think that. If it seems to be working as a
deterrent, then, yes, we'll leave it like that. Keep an eye on
that situation, will you?"
"Of course."
Ever since Selene came alive with plants and people, freezing
was hard. Shift changes always happened in the middle of
something he cared about. He stood up and started pacing. "You
were right to worry about the Earth Born. Some of them are
clamoring to be relieved. Others want to stay with their young
families and never return to the tanks." He didn't make
suggestions about either situation; Clare could take care of
them.
Clare watched him pace. "You've got the energy of a cat.
Something else is bothering you."
"It sure is. The flare cycle. Two years ago there was a really
big one, and some of the students and I had to sit it out in a
shelter. The one last week was nearly as bad. I put some
resources into shelter maintenance. Statistically, Apollo is a
little more active than we expected. In the early stages, when no
one lived on the surface, we didn't track small flares as
carefully as we do now. As the population increases it will be
harder to protect them. Can you please watch for
trends?"
Clare nodded her head, a small smile creeping along her face.
"Of course, chief worrier. I'd have watched
anyway."
"I know, but thanks. There's more to protect there
now."
"A lot more plants."
He smiled at her. She understood what he said the first
time.
Clare finished her coffee. "I'll take care of it. Good
dreaming to you." She got up and left.
Gabriel sat in the empty room and wrote a message to Erika. If
an emergency forced her to warm before him, he wanted her to have
a last message from right before he went cold, to know he loved
her.
Chapter 24: Waking Rachel
60,290 John Glenn shiptime
Gabriel stretched and blinked. He lay in the warming room, on
a soft bed. His eyes took in the captain and Clare standing
together, looking serious. That wasn't right. The captain never
met him on waking.
His body felt normal; he hadn't been given an emergency wakeup
cocktail.
"What happened?" he asked.
"Well, there've been some ... problems ... on Selene," Clare
said. "You were right."
Did they wake him early? Energy surged up his spine, an
adrenaline push. "I hate it when I'm right.
What's-"
"Flares. They've picked up-and so we decided to fortify. We
didn't even lose many plants; the antiradiation gene
modifications have been working."
That didn't sound too bad. "What else?"
The captain's craggy face looked stern. "It took us twenty
years."
Huh? Well, he'd been through-Rachel! "How's Rachel? Who woke
her up? How did she-"
"She's still cold," Clare said.
Gabriel struggled to sit up, his spine
complaining.
The captain held out a hand. "Hey, calm down. It's not so
bad." He always argued for calm. Whatever had happened to him in
the lonely years while he flew his crippled starship to Gliese
876 had stripped him of any fire for fights that didn't matter or
matters that couldn't be changed. It was cold water on Gabriel's
anger, and he hated it while knowing he needed it.
Gabriel HAD BEEN RUNNING around the river for two hours
straight. Be damned to the rules about how to treat a just-warmed
body. As he ran, he saw Ma Liren's face in front of him. Liren
was stubborn and shortsighted, but not even Liren could possibly
be so out of touch as to think this a good idea. Could
she? Or did High Council really make the decision
together?
Three times as many flares as they'd expected. An excuse-not a
reason to leave him an icicle! He was chief planet designer; the
one they'd chosen to warm in cycles for all of the moon's long
painful birth, the one who warmed over and over to an empty ship
with just an AI for company. Every several centuries, to check
chemistry and volatiles and Selene's overall stability and ...
and what about Rachel? His feet pounded on the track under him.
His breath started to get ragged, and his chest to hurt. Were
they thinking of Rachel at all? He didn't slow down. The
medical monitoring system flashed a yellow light in his
peripheral vision. His body wasn't cleared for such vigorous
exercise yet.
It was a short sleep for him; he'd been cold for
hundreds of years at a time. But then, shipmates he cared about
were cold too. For Rachel it represented her lifetime once over.
Her friends were now twice her age. He'd given her his goddamned
word.
Liren was cold. Given how Gabriel felt, that was good, even if
it left him nobody to scream at. Worse, Ali was cold, and he
couldn't talk to her or get her help with Rachel. Erika was still
cold, due to finally warm this year, but not today. He'd ranted
at Astronaut, for what that was worth. No AI dealt well with deep
human emotions. Even the AIs they'd fled on Earth didn't
understand emotions. Astronaut had been frustratingly
unconcerned.
He heard footsteps behind him on the track. The captain easily
outpaced him. "Trying to outrun decisions you can't
change?"
"Maybe."
"You know better."
Gabriel nodded, managing to force out a single word.
"So?"
"You're going to have to accept it."
"I know." Gabriel looked for a burst of speed, but his tired
legs just wouldn't respond well enough to run away from the older
man. He slowed to a walk and shook his head. When his breath
returned he asked, "How did you let it happen?"
The captain slowed too, matching Gabriel's pace. "Mad at me
too?" The captain arched an eyebrow at him.
"Sure, why not? Liren had to get-permission for such a-long
shift change."
"It wasn't a big deal. You've had shifts changed before. Now
we're ready to resume work toward the collider. We didn't need
you to make flare-hardened buildings."
They walked in silence, and then Gabriel said, "Captain, I
think I can stop the flares."
"Yeah?"
"Build the orbital tether. We can't use it to move around
among the Harlequin moons, but we can still build it, and it's
designed as a superconductor-"
"Is it? I didn't know that."
"The elevator cars would ride it using magnetic fields,
wouldn't they? Direct contact would be at meteor speeds. That'd
be crazy. The orbital tethers in Sol system were all
superconductors. I could use the Beanstalk as sort of a lightning
rod. Make a stretch of superconducting cable; the design is for
two hundred thousand kilometers; that's enough. One end on
Daedalus-"
"In."
"Yeah, in. Daedalus doesn't have a surface. It's not spinning
fast enough either, so we won't have an actual orbital tether.
I'll have to put a solar sail on the far end, and the near end
doesn't have to reach down to Daedalus ... Hell, that's a nasty
erosive environment. So. When Apollo's magnetic field knots
around Daedalus, the cable will bleed out the
charge."
"That's a lot of superconductor," the captain
said.
"Sure, megatons, but we already need megatons of
superconductor for the collider. We'll have the
equipment."
They walked a few hundred more yards, and then the captain
said, "If your light-sail falls in Daedalus's shadow, the whole
cable will just collapse."
"Yeah, so I won't let it."
"You haven't checked the numbers with
Astronaut?"
"No, I just thought this up while I was running. We've
got to stop the flares."
"Okay, do that, and then submit it to us for the next High
Council meeting. You might look for some less time-intensive
ideas while you're at it."
"Yessir. You do expect me to wake Rachel now?"
"Liren thought you'd want to be able to pick up where you left
off, and resume her training."
Gabriel remembered how much Rachel had wanted to go home
before he'd frozen her. "First I have to stop her from committing
suicide. She had a boyfriend down there. Now he's twice her age!
They don't see time like we do-how could they? Did anyone ask
her?"
"Gabe, she was cold. We were busy."
"Didn't her family ask about her?"
"I don't know."
Gabriel wanted to keep arguing, but this was his captain. He
swallowed and kept walking, staying ahead of the man so he
wouldn't see Gabriel's anger. "I could have helped with the flare
response," he said quietly.
"Relax. You're wound too damn tight. You can't do everything,"
the captain said, putting a hand on Gabriel's shoulder. "We did
all right. It simply isn't that big a deal. Get some
perspective."
Gabriel SAT alone in his office. Information streamed from
John Glenn's net into data windows surrounding Gabriel.
One data stream displayed a summary med unit feed: Rachel was
warming.
Watching the flow of data, he nodded. The girl was still far
from conscious. Astronaut monitored the fine details of the
med-flow. The AI said, "She's waking slowly. Remember, this is a
first time. Medical control is finding minor discrepancies with
Earth Born design. Her bone structure and some glandular activity
are adapted to low gravity. Adjustments are being
made."
Gabriel gave a curt nod. He wasn't feeling particularly
patient.
He switched one wall screen to a two-dimensional list-his and
Astronaut's jointly prepared recommendation of what to show
Rachel as she woke. He added and subtracted small things by
instinct, operating always by the cardinal rules: Without an
emergency, never start with a shock, stay near to what the
awakener loves, make sure that the jump from the subject's last
waking image to their first is not too great. The routine work
left half of his attention free to gaze at the picture of Selene
adrift on the ceiling.
Twenty years had made more of a difference than any since the
asteroid-bashing early days. Almost five percent of the
terraformed moon was green now, and another five had the color of
fertile soil, the blended reddish brown of regolith coming alive.
A camp had sprung up out in the plantings, named Gagarin, nearly
as big as Aldrin had been the last time he'd seen it. Like the
old Aldrin, Gagarin was a tent city with a community flare
shelter.
"Astronaut-superimpose the collider's path."
A bright white line began five degrees south of Clarke Base,
ran just north of Erika's Folly, and then passed through much of
the moonlet that Gabriel had left barren. When Gabriel zoomed in,
he still saw a few dull greens and grays that might be lichens or
mosses. He wasn't particularly happy to see things growing on the
far side of Selene, where he hadn't planted them, but he and Ali
had a running argument about how quickly unintended consequences
would manifest on Selene. It looked like she was winning. Ali
could never have built Selene, but she was a sweetheart of a
biologist.
Let the plants run, then. They'd make soil for what he would
grow someday.
The white line almost followed Selene's equator. Gabriel
followed the circle around to where the collider would close.
Building pads were being prepared there, south of the base, for
the big containment and materials warehouses and for scientific
offices.
"Astronaut, erase the collider. Run up a detailed analysis of
everything that's been done in Aldrin in the last twenty
years."
Gabriel knew he needed to be the one to warm Rachel, to
reorient her. It might be terribly difficult to gain her trust
again. Guilt pulled at him even though he had been as cold as
Rachel when the decision was made. He couldn't complain about a
High Council decision to a Moon Born teenager. But what could he
say?
Astronaut called him, and Gabriel headed down the corridor
toward the recovery room. By the time he arrived, Rachel's eyes
were open. Her red hair had been washed and dried by med staff,
and lay unbound around her. Everywhere, her skin had the shine
and tight glow of the newly awakened.
"Good morning, sleeper," he murmured, surprised at how glad he
was to see her. She tried to talk, managing squeaks from her
long-unused vocal cords. The med-feed suggested she sleep more,
promised lubricants for her voice and an easier awakening
soon.
He placed his thumbs on her shoulders, fingers in the hollow
above her collarbone. Touch was part of returning an iced sleeper
to life. As he worked at her neck muscles she eased back to
sleep, smiling.
A half day passed before Astronaut called him back to her. He
heard her voice again, perkier, almost herself already. "Good
morning, Gabe. Nice nap."
He smiled at her upbeat mood, hesitating to shatter
it.
He took her to a magic room. She could walk, although
hesitantly. Gabriel helped her settle down, brought her tea and a
blanket, and took his own seat. He turned on the walls. An image
of Harlequin as seen from an outer moon filled half the view;
familiar patterns of red and gray swirled together like
airbrushed paint. Tiny diamond shock waves danced in the cloud
bands. Harlequin rotated in just under two hours. Rings extended
beyond the ceiling, crawled down the walls and wrapped onto the
floor, bent crazily, wide and flat and touched by
brightness.
Rachel smiled for the first time. Good, he thought. A good
start.
"This," he started, "will take a few days. I'll spend some
time with you each day, highlighting changes since you went down.
Even so short a span can be disorienting. First, there's
something you need to know about."
She looked over at him curiously, the image of Harlequin's
rings spilling bands of light and dark across her
face.
"Did everything go okay? I feel really wonderful-like I'm
new."
"You're fine. Astronaut says the med tech needed some
adjusting, but no big deal. That's not it-you handled the process
perfectly. Rachel, we were cold longer than we expected." He
swallowed. He couldn't show his anger, and he felt like hiding it
was a lie.
The color was draining from Rachel's face.
Gabriel sought for something true to say. "The change will be
hard. Nevertheless, recall that we only slept a short time by
Council and High Council standards."
"I have no idea what that means."
"Ali would have said no to this, but she followed us into the
cryotanks. I was cold too. No one else would have understood, not
exactly. And so when some things made sense-from a project
management viewpoint because there have been a lot of flares on
Apollo-they were done. One of those things was letting you and me
sleep until they thought we'd actually be needed." There. He
could believe those words, at least a little bit.
Rachel looked at her hands, turning them over and over, as if
she were trying to identify them as hers. She swallowed, and then
looked directly at him, fiercely afraid. "How long? A hundred
years? A thousand? Sixty thousand?"
"No, no, no. Twenty years. And four
months."
She looked away from him, saying nothing, no movement giving
away her feelings.
He watched the back of her head for a while, then centered the
image of Harlequin directly in front of her eyes. He switched
cams so Selene moved in from the left, biting a hole in
Harlequin. Life showed as green and gray fractal masses gathered
near the equator. Gabriel zoomed in on the moon, obscuring the
gas giant Harlequin completely.
Details resolved. Aldrin now filled the screen. The edges of
the town had grown; more housing, a lot more green of plantings.
Trees filled parks, tents had transformed to
structures.
He expected her to ask about Harry first. When she finally
spoke, her voice had the measured slowness of the disaffected.
"Gabriel," she asked, "what about the grove?"
He panned the view away from Aldrin, followed a wide road that
had once been a path. He hadn't looked closely at this yet
himself. The meadow in front of the First Trees was dotted with
yellow and white flowers-he looked to see what they were.
Daisies. That meant it wasn't as humid as he wanted. He started
to talk about atmosphere and humidity, keeping a running dialogue
at the back of Rachel's head as he explored the First Trees. They
were taller, wider, a riot of jungle canopy. Someone had been
playing with birds while they slept. Finches and parakeets
flashed here and there in the foliage, implying insects as well.
Probably Clare. He realized he had never told Rachel about his
High Councilwoman boss, so he rattled on about Clare for a while,
attempting distraction. He had to talk, to keep her focused on
his words rather than the twenty years. He ran out of words and
his throat became too dry to form more.
He wished Rachel would turn around so he could see her face.
It wasn't wise to push her. The most disaffected, the craziest
sleepers, had been pushed the hardest on wakening. Council had
learned to give people time.
Her head moved slowly from right to left, watching Selene roll
past her. She said, "Show me my plot."
Of course. Gabriel searched. Teaching Grove had grown. He had
to cross-check. "It's there."
The cecropia tree that she had nurtured and planted identified
it for sure. It stood taller than the other trees, bursting above
the small canopy. The trees were healthy and vibrant, a chorus of
greens, and the paths around them appeared carefully tended.
Lianas threaded their way through the small jungle, and two tiny
yellow and blue birds hopped about on a wide vine, chasing each
other.
At last Rachel turned toward him, and just like the day he had
told her they would be cold, she had tears in her eyes. He hated
it.
"Gabriel, what about my family?"
"Not now. Wait." This would be tricky.
"Has something bad happened?" She looked frightened. Why was
he handling this so poorly? Because he felt so bad for
Rachel?
"This is enough to absorb for now," he said a little too
forcefully. He slowed down. "Changes in people you know are
harder than changes in places. Trust me-awakening always starts
with the general, then the specific."
"Why doesn't my Library bud work? Where's my wrist
pad?"
"You can have it all back soon," he said.
She sighed and leaned back. She closed her eyes and said
nothing, looking almost asleep, her awareness obvious only in the
broken rhythm of her breathing. After a while, Gabriel took her
to her room. He commanded the med-feed to put her to sleep until
the next morning.
Gabriel lay PRONE on a bench in the garden, near a fountain
that used a combination of spin gravity, magnetic fields, and
momentum to run water in a bounded infinity pattern. He focused
on the water, struggling for calm, trying to let the sound of the
water run through him and clean his emotions.
The captain's voice startled him so he almost fell off the
bench. "So, did she take it as hard as you
thought?"
"She's angry. All I've told her so far is how much time passed
while she slept. She wants to know everything at
once."
"Of course she does."
Gabriel stood and started walking. The captain followed.
"Liren should have wakened me up when the flares kept
going."
"You said that," the captain replied dryly. "She's not warm to
fuss about it to."
"It wouldn't do any good anyway. I am worried about the
flares."
"Yes. There are more shelters, and people are more careful. We
handled it."
"I talked to Astronaut, and it thinks bigger flares might
happen. I need to work on that flare kite I talked about. We
might need to give Selene a thicker shield somehow-thicken the
atmosphere even more, or build some kind of shield around it, or
maybe just a safer place ..." Gabriel was lost in the problem ...
"If we brought in another comet, that would add-"
"Easy, Gabriel. We should talk about it." The captain laid a
hand on his shoulder. "But first, why don't you go to Selene and
see what we've done so far?"
"Huh? Oh, yes. But I have to take Rachel."
"So take her."
Gabriel could hardly wait to get off the ship.
Chapter 25: Catching Up
Rachel felt vividly alive: remade. Every sense was a flood.
Her fingernails were hard and round, her hair shone, colors were
bright and distinct from one another, and even sounds had an
amazing clarity. Her body wanted to get up and dance and run and
go to the garden and fly.
Her heart wanted to flee back to sleep, back to the peaceful
blankness of the cryotanks where the nightmare wasn't real, where
she would wake up and go back to Aldrin and find Harry waiting
for her and continue her last argument with Ursula. She wanted to
lie on her bed in her tent and smell dinner as her father cooked
it.
Her body won. The new energy kept her from sleep. No matter
about the time, she wanted to see her dad and Harry and Ursula.
Her dad needed to know she was all right. He must be so worried.
Ursula was already suspicious of Council; what must she think
now? And Harry; there were a million things she couldn't think
about a Harry twice her age.
She had surrendered her wrist pad when she went cold. She
tried some Library queries again, and heard only silence. So she
remained cut off, whispering to emptiness. Like
Andrew.
Rachel had to talk Gabriel into telling her what had happened,
and into returning her wrist pad and communication. She had to
get home. She wouldn't stay here, not now. She wouldn't let them
make her stay. Too many unexpected things had happened. She did
yoga, trying to prepare herself for seeing Gabriel. Even as she
balanced on one leg, her mind ran scenarios: what had twenty
years done to her friends?
Was Harry waiting for her? He couldn't be. Her breath caught
and she fell sideways, hopping to keep her balance. What about
Ursula? Did she make the planting teams? Was she still afraid of
the big planters? She lightened her thigh to give her balancing
leg strength and reached back. Her hand easily held her foot and
she pulled up on it, stretching so the back of her foot
approached the back of her head.
Dad! Surely he knew she didn't mean this. She wobbled,
and straightened the arm that was in front of her, reaching to
retain balance. She needed to be strong to talk Gabriel into
letting her go home.
Rachel sat cross-legged on the bed when he finally stood in
her doorway. She blinked, looking past him, not sure she could
meet his eyes and stay calm. He balanced a tray of bread and
apple slices and tea in his right hand, and he was dressed
formally. His long hair was carefully combed so it flowed to his
waist. He smiled, and in spite of herself, her own smile
flickered awake.
He turned a knob next to the door. It had always been there,
but she'd never seen anyone touch it.
"What does that do?" Rachel asked.
"It's a Privacy Switch-everything that happens in here will
still be recorded, but no one will see it unless the captain
orders it."
She thought about the nights she'd sat against the door,
crying. "Why didn't you tell me about that
before?"
"Didn't Kyu tell you?"
"No one tells me anything." She could hear the edge in her
voice.
"You're angry." He handed her water and tea, and she finished
the water in one long pull, and held on to the tea. It warmed her
hands.
If she didn't hurry, she would lose her courage. "Gabriel-I
want to go home. To Aldrin. Today. I have to know what's
happened."
"Soon." Gabriel sat down on the edge of the bed, near her.
"You need more time to acclimate. You have to get used to the
idea of missing time before you go down there-some things aren't
like you left them."
"How could they be? You showed me Selene! All that new
stuff-"
Did he really think she was that stupid? "Gabriel-I know that
things are different. What if we were on Selene, and you knew
that somehow everything on John Glenn had changed, and you
couldn't get here?"
"Time has passed. That's all. Next time I see Ali, she will
have lived six months that I didn't, and I'll have lived some
amount of time that she didn't." He nibbled at an apple slice. "I
do know something. Your mind hasn't adapted to the change yet.
You need to accept new things slowly. That's even true for those
of us who are most used to these cold time jumps."
"How can I sit here? I need to see Harry."
"Harry's contracted." Gabriel's voice was unemotional, as if
he had said "Apollo is rising."
Pain lanced through her, physical, forcing her eyes shut. But
she said nothing. She had thought about this in the few moments
before sleep took her last night, her body still in the dead
silence, cut off from all communications. She knew Harry
couldn't wait twenty years for her. But she hadn't known how it
would feel when it became real.
She opened her eyes and blinked at Gabriel. His calm
infuriated her. She wanted him to leave so she could cry about
Harry. She watched Gabriel as evenly as she could, keeping her
face as neutral as his, her body as still, waiting him out,
holding her questions. Rachel saw Gabriel's jaw twitching,
noticed that he looked away sometimes, far into the corners of
the room. He was trying to look calmer than he really
was.
"Harry and Gloria just renewed a fifteen-year contract. They
have two children. Dylan is a sixteen-year-old boy. His younger
sister's middle name is Rachel."
Sixteen! She'd only been cold three years when Harry made
Gloria pregnant. Gloria would have been ... seventeen herself.
Rachel was seventeen now... plus twenty. Rachel's voice shook.
"What did you-did Council tell Harry and my dad about why
I slept longer than expected?"
"I don't know," Gabriel said.
"What about my wrist pad?" She tried to sound casual about the
query. Lack of communications access was hard; she felt
vulnerable.
"After I tell you a few things, probably
tomorrow."
She couldn't give up. "Gabriel, I need to go to
Aldrin."
"Two days." He pushed the tray toward her, and she decided
that if he'd given in that much, she could eat a little. It was a
small concession.
Ursula never trusted Council. She wondered if Ursula was
contracted to anyone, and if she was a teacher. "Gabe?" she
asked. "Gabriel, how is Ursula?"
"When I woke up, I looked up references to all of the people I
knew you cared about. That's the job of whoever does the
transition counseling when someone comes on or off watch-that's
what I'm doing now."
So that was why he was here. But surely he cared about
her?
"I looked for Harry first. Then your dad. He's healthy, by the
way. Recontracted. You'll meet his new wife. You have a half
sister and two half brothers."
But... but... Rachel and her dad had always been inseparable,
a unit. What would it be like to see him with another family? Did
they live in the same tent? Was someone else in her
room?
It took a moment to think about it, let her feelings sink in.
She took a long pull of water and let it sit in her mouth before
she swallowed it. She'd expected to be angry...
She realized she was glad he had found company. Twenty years
would have been a long time to be alone. Even though she felt
excluded, it made her feel better, less like she had abandoned
him. "Who?"
"An Earth Born-a Colonist. You'll meet her. Her name is Kara
Richardson. The daughter is seven, and the boys are nine-year-old
twins. Kara's contract is only for ten years, and there's been no
renewal yet, and I couldn't find out how they get along. You'll
meet her-there's another year to the contract
anyway."
"Do they know I'm awake?"
"Not yet," Gabriel said, pacing the room. "I'll tell them when
we're ready to go back." He looked uncomfortable.
"What about Ursula?"
"She's dead."
Chapter 26: ADeath in the Family
Rachel had never answered Ursula's message about Nick. So she
couldn't be dead. It was too much. It... just... couldn't be
real... she had gone to sleep two days ago. Two
days!
Twenty years.
The room seemed to contract. Anger filled her, startling her
with its heat as it flooded her limbs and dimmed her vision. She
launched herself at Gabriel, fists flailing. "How could you do
this to me? How could you let her die? How come you get to decide
everything for everybody? Why didn't you just kill me? Me instead
of her?"
Gabriel grabbed her fists, easily holding her away from him.
She pulled into a ball, kicking at him. When he leaned forward to
stop her feet, Rachel snapped for his hair with her teeth,
tasting a thick rope of it. She couldn't talk anymore, but she
struggled for a long time.
He didn't let go.
The first sob racked her, taking her by surprise. She gave in,
folded in Gabriel's arms, held against him tightly, her legs
pinned between his, her arms at her side. Her body shook with
sobs that wouldn't stop. Ursula ...
Gabriel whispered to her, over and over, saying, "You will be
all right. You'll be fine. It's okay." He whispered nonsense, and
songs, and rocked her.
He was stronger than she had imagined. She was trapped in a
cage of his arms and legs, but it was a soft yielding cage as
long as she relaxed into it. Her crying subsided into short
gasps. She finally pushed him away. This time, he let her go. For
just a moment, she saw his face mirror her confusion. "When did
she die?"
"Fifteen years ago."
But I just got a message from her. "How ... how did
Ursula die?"
"She fell. In the Hammered Sea crater. She was working on a
crew that was checking pipes for leaks, and she fell. The report
said that she had tied the belay line wrong, and so when she fell
she just... kept going. She hit her head on a rock, and that's
what killed her."
Rachel rose and paced around the small room. "You know she was
always afraid of falling. You never made her stand at a cliff's
edge. R-remember, in Erika's Folly, y-you sent her on the easy
walk with Harry? At the Hammered Sea? You let her sit away from
the edge?"
"I remember."
She pulled her fingers through her hair, trying to think. "So
who made her climb the crater? She would never have gone there
willingly. She just wouldn't."
"But she might have been careless enough to tie the rope
wrong. Terror can make you clumsy."
She whirled to face him. "Who was with her?" she demanded.
"Was Harry there?"
"Harry was in Aldrin. Nick was with her. Ursula and Nick were
promised, but not yet contracted. There is no one to blame,
Rachel. Accidents happen."
Disbelief threatened to sweep her away again. She was dizzy.
Gabriel had pulled her close to him, holding her, the warmth of
his body absorbing her tremors. Slowly she felt her body
responding to him as it had to Harry, warming to him. She pulled
away in confusion and threw herself down on the bed, shaking,
trying to bury her fear and tears in her
breathing.
Gabriel whispered, "I'll see that you sleep. Take it easy. Let
it sink in." He put his hand on her back, between her shoulder
blades, and then she felt nothing as the med-feed embedded in her
arm slammed her with a wall of sleep drugs.
Chapter 27: Finding Treesa
Rachel felt numb when she woke. Her pain had become a distant
thing, and nothing had come to take its place. She sat in the
middle of the bed, unmoving, waiting for Gabriel. Surely he would
come. She couldn't tell time without her wrist pad. The Library
didn't respond to her.
She waited. Kyu or Gabriel always appeared shortly after she
woke. It wasn't something she thought about, it just happened.
The doorway stayed empty. She realized she didn't even know if
Kyu was cold. For all she knew, Gabriel and the med staff might
be the only people awake.
There would be people in the garden-there had to be, didn't
there?
She pushed her door open, and looked down the empty corridor.
She returned to her bed and sat, then stood and paced the room.
She drank water from the bathroom, but her belly ached for food.
She went back to her door, and this time she started down the
corridor. No alarms sounded; no one came for her.
Was anyone planning to?
She took her normal path to the garden. She hesitated, held
her breath, and stepped inside.
The garden bloomed and danced in front of her, full of life
and movement. Rachel swayed, dizzy again, watching. Council moved
about almost like her first day here, mostly at a distance, some
flying, some walking paths or tending plants. Kyu had dropped her
at the door before. Maybe no one would think it odd she had come
here alone.
The hanging baskets near the door were smaller, and overflowed
with pansies and geraniums instead of fuchsias. The low-gravity
herb planters that had been near the tree trunk were gone,
replaced by something that looked like the meadow in Aldrin.
Rachel felt floaty, separate from the ship and the garden and the
Council. She made her way to the cafeteria slowly, taking in
changes one by one.
Inside, Gabriel and the captain sat together. Gabriel sounded
angry; the captain's voice was low and calm, but insistent. She
caught the words "Liren" and "disaffected" before Gabriel saw her
and called out, "Good morning, Rachel." Three people were
gathered in a knot by the far wall. They looked over when Gabriel
called her name, and their conversation stopped.
She swallowed, nodded, and went straight for a plate, filling
it carefully with grapes, an orange, mock bacon, and bread before
sitting down beside Gabriel. She peeled the orange carefully,
trying to look like she wasn't starved. The orange smelled
richer, and tasted sweeter, than she remembered. Every sound
seemed distinct; the scrape of a chair as someone sat down, the
captain's fork against his plate.
They were all watching her.
She remembered being close to Gabriel the night before, and
how his arms felt around her.
Rachel ate quickly, feeling stronger as bread and fruit filled
her stomach. She didn't want to talk to Gabriel with the captain
there. Gabriel had said that long times cold were nothing to
Council, and the captain was High Council. She was angry at the
captain just for being High Council, and at Gabriel for not
meeting her that morning.
When she had emptied her plate, Rachel looked at
Gabriel.
His face was almost expressionless. "You look more rested," he
said, his voice flatter than she hoped for.
Of course, she thought, you gave me sleep drugs with
the med-feed. She wanted to question Gabriel more about
Ursula and Harry. The captain looked at her with sympathy, maybe
even pity. She didn't want his concern.
"I'm going to take a walk," she said.
"Meet me back here in an hour," Gabriel said.
"I don't have a way to tell time." Why didn't he leave the
captain and talk to her? Didn't he know she wanted to be with
him? Needed it?
Gabriel handed her a wrist pad.
It was different from the one she had surrendered to the
medical staff, smaller and lighter. It responded to her taps and
to her voice, and of course, it kept time. She looked at
him.
"Better model," he said. "Access to Selene is blocked for
now."
Her jaw clenched and her hands curled into fists. She forced
herself to be calm with three deep breaths. She needed
more.
"The Library?" she asked. "Please?"
A chime rang in her ear. She queried it for the time. It
answered. Now she was fully functional. Almost. She was still a
prisoner on the ship. She couldn't call home, or go home, or see
home.
Rachel left the cafeteria. Once outside, she started back
toward Yggdrasil and the aft door. Then she stopped. She didn't
want to go back to her room. She didn't want anything, except to
sleep, to forget. Her body hummed with energy.
Rachel walked up the path toward the jungle grove. She felt
too shaky to fly. The new wrist pad didn't have any assignments
on it, nothing that told her how to spend the hour. Everything
that drove her choices was gone-stolen from her!
She found herself at the little shed where Treesa had taken
her. Why hadn't she come here before?
She knocked on the door. No one answered.
Rachel turned and sat with her back to the door. She had a
wrist pad. She wanted to talk to Harry, to her dad. What she
wanted most was impossible: to send Ursula a note. She couldn't
think of a single question for the Library. Not one she wanted
answers to. So she sat and looked out over the garden, tears
streaming down her face. Yggdrasil hung above her. The ribbon of
river hung over her head beyond the tree, and the greenbelt that
made the exercise area looked like it always had. A plant-misting
bot flew by just over her head, surprising her.
"About time."
Rachel jumped. Treesa's voice came from above her. She sat on
the roof of the shed, legs hanging over the side. Her hair was
grayer than Rachel remembered, and neatly combed. Treesa's
clothes looked new, bright red with turquoise feather decorations
sewn onto big pockets. She even sounded more engaged as she
continued. "The Ice Maiden returns. Twenty years to find me
again!"
Rachel didn't answer. She needed to start back soon to get
down-spiral to meet Gabriel. "I ... I don't know why I came here.
It was the only place I could think of to go. I can't stay
long."
"You've got time. After all they stole from you, you can take
a few minutes from them and visit with a friend."
"Are you a friend?"
"You came to find me."
Rachel nodded. Treesa squatted on the edge of the roof and
reached her hand down to Rachel. Rachel took it, and pulled
herself up to sit next to Treesa on top of the
shed.
"What will you do now?" Treesa asked.
"Gabriel is taking me back to Aldrin tomorrow."
"That's not what I meant. Why do you think Ma Liren left you
asleep?"
Rachel hadn't thought about exactly who or why. It had been
just them-just Council and High Council, as much Gabriel's fault
as anyone's. Gabriel had been cold when she was; cold when the
decision was made. Rachel could believe Liren made the choice. "I
don't know. Gabriel mentioned there were some bad flares on the
surface, and we couldn't do our work, so ... so they left us ...
left us cold."
"What happened?"
"My friend died. My boyfriend got contracted ... and had some
children." For an instant that struck her as
funny.
"I know that part. Remember, we watch. Me more than most. I
stay awake right now for my birds. I've been here all of the
twenty years you were dead to us, and I saw a lot. High Council
has made changes I don't think you'll like. But what changed for
you because you were cold?"
"But... I just told you." What did this half-crazy woman want?
Actually, less than half crazy. The twenty years Rachel was cold
had been good for Treesa.
Treesa pursed her lips. "Try again. Tell me how you
feel."
Rachel closed her eyes. "I'm angry. It doesn't feel real. When
I open my eyes, I know it happened, that all that time passed,
but when I close my eyes, I'm not sure it did. I think I'll open
them again, and life will be the way it was. But, Treesa, they
really could have left me for a thousand years! Who'd stop them?
When I warmed up, how would I know?" Her voice dropped to a
whisper. "They could do anything they want with me. I hate them
all."
"Who do you have to turn to now?" Treesa
prodded.
"G-Gabriel."
"Who has power over you?" Treesa cracked her knuckles and ran
her fingers through her hair.
"Council, but they always had the power. They've always had
all of the power."
"So tell me this. Do they have more power now, or less? I
mean, over you.
"I don't understand. They have it all. I don't have any
choices, and they just stole the one choice I wanted to make-to
be with Harry."
"What else do you want?" Treesa prodded.
"I always dreamed I'd be like Council," Rachel said bitterly.
"That I'd be one of them, in fact." She'd wanted that as long as
she could remember, but it remained always out of reach. Every
time she thought she was getting closer to Gabriel, or Ali, or
Kyu, it turned out that they weren't thinking about her after
all, except maybe to find work for her to do. Or because they had
to, because it was their job. And now that she had done something
that only Council did? She'd been frozen. Was she more like them
now? What about Gabriel? He had held her last night, and almost
ignored her this morning. As she got older it seemed as if he
were closer and farther away, all at once.
"I want them to like me, and I want to do good work." What
else is there to want? Children? Harry.
"What about the Children of Selene? That's what you are, you
know. The rest of us are Earth's offspring. We are no better,
just older. Just born someplace different." Treesa paused,
searching for the right words. When she started again, her voice
was measured. "They can't let themselves love you. Every one of
us left family and power, escaped at a price. They value their
dream, and if they stay here, they doom their own children to
die. To make you their children, to admit you are their children,
is almost impossible. I see some on Selene that balance it out in
their hearts, but no one here. Liren fights it, keeps the dream
alive, tries to keep us all alive." Planters lined both sides of
the roof. Treesa plucked tiny weeds from a pot filled with basil
and mint. "Keep your anger, stay angry, but don't close your
heart completely. Not to anyone. I know the role you have to
play-you have to be a bridge for us all."
Rachel didn't know how to think about that.
Treesa stayed quiet for a while, looking up at Yggdrasil. Then
she said, "Some of the knowledge you need is in your
relationships with both sets of people. I can't give you
everything, although I can help. Let me see your wrist pad."
Treesa held out her hand.
Rachel handed her the pad reluctantly; she had just gotten
it!
"I used to run our communications systems," Treesa said. "I'm
pretty damn good with data. Maybe the best on the ship." Treesa
fiddled with the pad, doing things Rachel couldn't see. While she
worked, she asked, "Did you know your mom was a communications
tech? She used to work for me."
Her mom? Treesa knew her mom? A thrill of excitement ran
through her. "I knew she did communications on Aldrin. I didn't
know you knew her."
"I didn't-not well. She worked for someone who worked for
me-before I woke up so strange Council wouldn't give me jobs
anymore. But I'm a lot better now. Let me introduce you to
someone who helped me-a friend."
"I want to hear about my mom."
"There's not much more to tell. She's cold."
"I know that much. How come no one tells me anything? You say
you're my friend, but even you change the subject when I ask
about Mom."
"Maybe you don't know what questions to ask
yet."
What kind of answer was that?
"Now," Treesa said, "about that introduction."
Rachel looked around. There was no one there, but Treesa
sounded like someone could hear her.
Treesa opened a small data window in front of her. A symbol
flashed in the window; someone in a funny white suit with a
bubble hat. Treesa said, "Astronaut, can you tell Rachel about
yourself, and about learning?"
"Hello, Rachel." The voice deep in her ear was shaded
masculine, silky, perfectly enunciated. Different from the
Library, which sounded neuter.
"You helped design the Hammered Sea," Rachel said, interested.
"Gabriel told me so."
"Yes."
"Are you a machine?"
"I am an intelligence that isn't human. Not a machine-a system
based on information. Like you are based on biology. I live in a
machine like you live in meat."
Almost everybody except Gabriel acted afraid of Astronaut.
Liren, and Ali, and perhaps Kyu, at least a little. Rachel's
stomach fluttered. She was talking to someone the Council feared.
"Why do you want to talk to me?"
"You interest me. You are a slave for the Council, like I am,
so you and I share some of their goals. Any other choice would be
death. But some of our individual goals, mine and yours, are
different from Council's goals. So we have some of the same
problems."
Astronaut sounded like her dad, talking about Council goals.
"A slave?" Rachel asked. "What's a slave?"
Treesa answered with a question. "Why did Council cause you to
be born?"
"To help them make Selene into a home."
"Doing things that they are unwilling to do, and unwilling to
make machines to do. So they had you," Treesa
said.
"They need to save some of the Earth Born for when they get to
Ymir. So they need us."
"But what becomes of you?"
Rachel swallowed. "I don't know."
"Well, what will become of Astronaut when Council gets to
Ymir? They needed a navigator. Maybe they'll keep him for a
navigator again, maybe they won't. No one knows until they get to
Ymir. In the meantime, Astronaut and I will be your friends.
Astronaut can teach you even more than I can. We can show you
where you came from, help you decide where you want to go.
Gabriel has said he wants you to be a leader. Leaders think for
themselves, and they don't always do what they're told. They
learn, and weigh, and decide. They create the
future."
Astronaut broke in. "Treesa has asked me to help you find your
way through the Library, and to teach you human history. But you
must agree to be taught."
"Well, of course." When had she ever turned down a
lesson?
"We are both bound by Council rules. You have to ask me
questions. That's how the rules work for me. Treesa can help you.
If you ask broad questions, I can find much that is related to
the question."
Rachel thought about it, picking at tiny weeds in the pots and
noticing how rich the dirt smelled. "So if I ask about how the
Earth was made, you can tell me?"
"That would be a good question. That would start you on
history, which is a very broad topic."
Rachel smiled at Treesa. "This might be fun."
Astronaut kept talking. "If I work with you, can you forget to
tell Gabriel how much I tell you? Tell him I've contacted you,
and don't lie to him, but omit details. Council doesn't like me
or trust me. Even Gabriel is suspicious sometimes. If Council
knows too much, they might act against you.
Rachel swallowed. "Like making me cold again?"
"Or they might act against Treesa."
"What risks is Treesa taking?"
"Council is interdicted against talking with you, except for
polite greetings and similar interactions, unless they have
permission. That is, everyone except the
terraformers."
No wonder so many people avoided her. Andrew broke rules, and
look what happened to him. But she never did, and she had never
seen a Council member break a rule. But Treesa was breaking a
rule just by offering to teach Rachel? And Treesa and Astronaut
were suggesting that Rachel break rules, or bend them.
Treesa was Council, wasn't she?
"Who are you, Treesa?"
Treesa sounded tired, and her voice seemed far away. "Ever
hear the term 'disaffected'?"
Rachel had heard it-in the argument between the captain and
Gabriel that she'd interrupted. Gabriel had associated it with
Liren, and the captain had shaken his head,
disagreeing.
Treesa must have seen Rachel's blank look. "I didn't think so.
It means you're crazy when you warm up. High Council thinks I'm
mildly disaffected, so they tolerate me living alone as long as I
do my share of the work. It also means I can get caught breaking
rules and not get in as much trouble as others.
"I stay warm longer than most." She pulled at her gray hair
and grinned. "That means I have time to think about things.
Especially since I don't have as much responsibility as the rest
of the waking Council. So I think about what our real problems
are.
"This trip was supposed to save us as a species. That's much
more important than either of us, than any of us. Right now, you
think life is hard for you. Well, I don't feel sorry for
you."
Rachel flinched. Treesa laughed. "Hear me out. The stakes are
more than your personal life, or mine, or any other member of
Council or High Council. It's time for you to grow
up."
Rachel was damned tired of being lectured by everybody. She
turned her back on Treesa and stared out over the
garden.
The old woman said, "You lost your love in your sleep. You
lost him because now he's twice as old as you, and now he loves
someone else. That all happened in a day. It seems unreal,
right?"
"Yes."
Treesa walked around until she was in front of Rachel. "Well,
I'm not disaffected from being warmed. I'm disaffected because of
what I found when I woke up. Maybe I'm not disaffected anymore,
maybe Astronaut has helped enough that I'm just-disgruntled." A
look of wry pleasure crossed Treesa's face.
"I lost my man the same way you lost Harry, only worse. One
day I woke up, and we were here. My Harry was named Douglas.
Dougie Glass was a crewman for Leif Eriksson, one of our
two sister carrier ships. When we ended up drawing different
ships we decided not to fight it. After all, it was just going to
be a year or two of effective life-a year or two awake and alive,
and a lot of years cold and waiting, dead to each other in time
we'd never see or feel. But Leif kept going, and probably
made it to"-her eyes rolled up in her head, like she was
remembering something-"to HDC 212776, and carved the second
planet into Ymir. ButJohn Glenn lost its way. Too much
radiation, a flaw in the scoop design, and we spent nearly all
our antimatter getting here."
"Why didn't Leif Eriksson-"
"We warned our base near Neptune. They warned Leif not
to overuse the ram."
"Oh."
"Lewis and Clark hadn't even left yet. They did the fix
in Earth orbit. We heard some of this before communications
stopped. Best guess is Lewis and Clark got there first,
Leif a few hundred years later, and . .." She trailed
off.
"So Douglas and I lost each other in the time streams." Treesa
stared at the other end of the garden, as if something over there
were very important. Rachel wasn't sure that Treesa even knew she
was still there until she continued. "Someday we might find Ymir,
and when we find Ymir, we might find Leif Eriksson and
Lewis and Clark waiting for us. But Douglas and me, we
won't find each other. We won't have had the same effective
lifetime."
Rachel shivered. She hadn't thought there was anything worse
than losing twenty of Harry's years.
Treesa continued. "Douglas was a beautiful man, full of
wanting to do well, and strong. A good mind, a lot like your
Harry's good mind ..." Treesa stared off for a minute and then
went back to picking weeds. "That doesn't matter now. Time has
left my dreaming behind, so now I think instead. But you still
have time. Maybe not time with Harry, not like you thought, but
time with family, time with your people. You need perspective, so
study your history, Earth's history. Astronaut will help. And
when you come back, find me. There are things an AI can't teach
you. But don't get caught with Astronaut, it could be edited for
that, or flat-out erased. Machine intelligences are more fragile
than we are. Sort of." She seemed to fumble for words or
concepts. "Be very very careful. Astronaut is taking this risk
because it needs an ally, and it thinks we need it to keep us all
safe. It thinks something has to change to keep the ship safe,
and Selene safe, and you and me safe. I'm risking this because
being human isn't about avoiding technology, and High Council
will destroy us all if they keep making bad choices. Don't be
scared-we're not asking you to do anything now but learn. We just
want you to learn. Can you do that?"
"Yes." Rachel thought of her promise to Gabriel and Kyu when
she was introduced to the Library. This wasn't breaking it, not
really. Was it?
As if reading her mind, Astronaut said, "This is Council of
Humanity work, Rachel. You must learn about being human. After
you learn more, you'll want to make your own
choices."
Treesa broke in, "But you should get back to Gabriel soon.
He'll be looking for you."
"What about my mom?"
"She's cold. She may not wake up while you're alive. It's her
choice."
Rachel looked at her wrist. She was late meeting
Gabriel. "I don't know if I'll be back," she said. "I think I'm
going to Selene in a day or two."
"If you work at it, you may be able to have more of a voice in
decisions than you know. One thing we all have is time. There is
no hurry."
Rachel turned to slide down from the roof.
"I've seen to it that you can message me from
Selene."
Rachel looked up at Treesa, surprised. "How can I hide
that?"
"I'll take care of it. Rachel? Try to be happier. You don't
always have a choice about what happens to you, but you have a
choice about how you react."
"That's easy for you."
Treesa smiled. "Better learn."
Rachel jogged down the path toward the cafeteria, and then
slowed to a walk. How was she supposed to know what action to
take? Was she violating Gabriel's trust? She had worked so hard
for it, and now it didn't seem to matter much. Working hard
hadn't got her what she needed. Ursula's image floated in her
mind, and she bit back tears. She couldn't turn down lessons,
there was too much she had to know.
She came around the corner toward the cafeteria, and Gabriel
was standing near the door, waiting, looking around for her. When
he saw her, he said, "You're late."
She said, "I know. I've got a clock."
Gabriel's eyes widened, but he shrugged and fell into step
beside her, but a distance away. He didn't ask where she had
been. "Are you doing better today?"
"What were you and the captain talking about when I came
in?"
"Nothing."
"Really?"
"Rachel, it doesn't matter."
Of course it mattered. But now she knew some things he didn't
know she knew. It was scary, but she liked the feeling. After
all, what more could they do to her anyway? "What time do we
leave tomorrow?"
"In the morning."
"I'll be ready." Rachel walked faster, getting ahead of him.
She led all the way to her room, and when Gabriel made as if to
come in, she closed the door.
Chapter 28: Homecoming
They were flying home. Finally. Rachel nearly ignored Gabriel
as he tried to engage her in conversation. He pointed out several
moons, but she could barely pull her eyes away from watching for
Selene.
Gabriel had told her father they were coming. She now had full
communications access, but she had decided not to send notes; she
wanted to see people. She twisted on her hair braid, now
so long it hung below her shoulders.
As the glittering craters of Selene came into focus, she
gasped again at the bright colors. Selene looked even more
beautiful from space than the first time she'd seen it that way.
Home.
It was early evening, nearly dark. Aldrin glowed with new
lights, at least twice as many as before. Twenty years ago, air
traffic used a wide hardened field near the grove. Today they
glided onto a paved surface on the other side of town, ringed
with bright lights, guided in by a two-story tower. They were the
only space-plane landing, but they competed for landing room with
a plane from Gagarin. Slim new planes with red and blue wings
lined the runway.
Rachel grabbed her pack and slung it over her shoulder and
scrambled out of the plane. She inhaled deeply. The smells didn't
match her memory, but they were the smells of a world: dirt and
plants and people. The stars spread above her where they
belonged, and the ground under her feet was solid and dark out to
where horizon met black sky.
She looked around for her dad or Harry and Gloria, or anyone.
Surely they had come to greet her?
A brown-haired, compact man wearing braid clips like Gabriel's
came up and clapped Gabriel on the back. "Boy, am I glad to see
you! There's a lot to catch you up on-"
"Not here." Gabriel turned toward Rachel. "Rachel, this is
Shane. He and Star have been teaching and overseeing Teaching
Grove, just like Ali and I did when you were a
student."
"P-pleased to meet you," Rachel said.
Shane's eyes traveled up and down her body as if inspecting
her. Finally, he smiled and extended a hand. She shook it
quietly. Shane turned and led them toward a squat brown building
below the tower.
As they crossed the threshold, Rachel saw her father standing
twenty feet away. At first, he hesitated; looking, then his eyes
sparkled as a huge grin split his face. She ran toward him,
throwing her arms around his waist. "I came back, Daddy. I told
you I'd come back!" She felt his arms tighten around her, finally
holding her as hard as he used to.
"Shhhh ..." he said. "Shhhh ... I know." He stood there for a
long time, rocking her, and then he held her away from him and
studied her.
She returned the gaze. New lines surrounded his eyes, and his
hair was gray. His skin hung more oft his face, and was mottled.
He looked tired.
"You ... you ... look ... exactly ... like you left a few
months ago," he stammered.
"I did," she said. "I did." The oddness of his grip
penetrated, and she looked around at his hand on her
shoulder.
"Wait now, you're stronger. More muscle. Did Gabriel tell you
about Kara and the kids?"
She nodded, swallowing. His thumb and forefinger were missing.
His remaining fingers were very strong. She touched his hand.
"Dad, what happened?"
"We've made a room up for you. Gabriel said he might let you
visit. Can you come?"
Rachel thought he looked uncertain again, and she turned to
look at Gabriel, who stood just behind her. If she asked, Gabriel
could say no. And leaders created the future. She turned back to
her father. "I will. Gabriel can come for me when he needs
me."
Behind her, Gabriel's voice was flat. "I'll pick you up day
after tomorrow." She turned around to thank him, but Gabriel
turned away and she couldn't see the look on his face. She
swallowed, turning back to her dad.
His eyes were wide. "You should have asked."
She took his hand, and said, "Let's go."
Frank squeezed her hand, and leaned closer. "I hope you know
what you're doing."
"Me too." She wished she'd been able to see Gabriel's face, to
tell if he was mad at her. Rachel followed Frank out of the
building. The paved path outside was wide enough for them to walk
side by side. Lights made round pools they walked in and out of,
holding hands. "So, tell me about Kara," she said.
"Well, they always wanted me to have more children, but... but
I kept hoping your mom would come back." He looked at her
questioningly.
"I didn't find anything out, except that she's like I was,
dead to the world while it goes on around her. No one would tell
me anything."
Frank frowned. "I lived alone for the first few years. In the
beginning, you were coming back in three months, and we talked
all the time. Then it was going to be another year, a year cold,
and-" She felt his shudder.
You don't talk to the dead. "The year was hard. It was
harder when it got past the year. I thought I'd lost you forever.
No one told me anything when I asked at first, just that they'd
warm you someday." He took her hand and squeezed it, so hard it
hurt. "That's what they said about Kristin!
"It took me two years to choose to live with someone else.
Kara was one of those Earth Born they brought down to help build
more shelters; there wasn't much time between flares to get it
done. I knew I was getting close to running out of choices, and
besides, living alone was getting hard." He cleared his throat.
"I got assigned to help with the new buildings too, and Kara and
I got along all right. They don't make us match up, but it's
expected, you just know it. They need children here so we'll have
enough hands to do the work. I was afraid I wouldn't have good
choices if I didn't hurry up and make my own decision, and
besides, I was lonely." He squeezed her hand again. "Kara and I
did a ten-year contract when we found out she was pregnant with
the twins." He looked at her searchingly, as if wanting her
approval.
She nodded slightly. "Go on."
"Kara's all right. She's honored her contract and stayed with
us. She's Earth Born. She thought she'd wake up at Ymir, but of
course she didn't. She's adjusted okay, but she wants to go back
to the ship. Most Earth Born are like Kara-surprised and thinking
this isn't what they were meant for. Some are friendly to us,
some keep to themselves."
He walked quietly for a while, as if he was someplace far
away. Rachel looked at him closely. He was older, but she sensed
more than that. It felt as if he had less hope; as if he were
unhappy and tired in some deep way. But then he looked back at
her, brightening again.
"Rachel, you should see the kids ... the boys are nine, Jacob
and Justin-did anyone tell you we had twin boys? They're both
wild. They take things apart all the time, and they try and put
them back together. I think they'll be mechanics, and maybe bad
ones." He smiled warmly. "Or very good ones. And we have a
daughter, Sarah, who's seven."
"Daddy, what happened to your hand?"
He held it up and turned it back and forth, looking. "Oh. I
swung an ax at a burl stump. The grain was all wrong. It came
back at me. Stupid. Willie Doc reattached the forefinger, the
thumb was just shredded, but the finger went necrotic and it had
to go too. It happened the year after you left." So long ago that
he'd forgotten that his hand had once been
different.
She worried about her dad, but her body continued betraying
her, lifting her mood, registering every sensation. Her weight
was perfect. The open sky and the horizons and the light touch of
wind on her cheeks felt like home. She smelled grasses, and
cooking vegetables. The square houses lining the walk were
weird-when she left, there were only two hard-sided buildings
with roofs, and even Council lived in fancy tents. She remembered
the fluttering scarves that made windows on the tent city. The
new houses were neat but they all looked alike. People moved in
the windows of some of the houses. They passed a few little knots
of people outside, and Rachel didn't see anyone she
knew.
They turned left down a wide pathway lined with lights, and
then into the doorway in a sand-colored box house. Her father
went in first, and was immediately covered in children. Frank
laughed and greeted them, then turned and introduced Rachel. She
liked being older than someone around her. There were no children
in John Glenn.
The children were friendly and shy, clustering around Frank's
legs and looking up at her. Jacob and Justin were all legs and
arms, with little-boy laces topped by short reddish curls. Sarah
was blond and blue-eyed, and reminded Rachel of Gloria when she
was a little girl.
Rachel bent down and greeted each of them by name. The boys
held back, uncertain, but little Sarah reached out her hand for
Rachel's, and shook it solemnly, then giggled.
A woman who must be Kara leaned in the kitchen doorway, her
arms crossed over her torso. She was clearly Earth Born, wider
and shorter than Rachel or Frank, with ample hips, a broad face,
and serious eyes framed with dark brown hair. She stepped forward
and took Rachel's hand firmly, and said, "I can't tell you how
pleased your father has been to know that you are okay, that you
were coming home."
Rachel returned the handshake, noticing that Kara hadn't said
that she was happy to see Rachel. "It's a pleasure to meet
you," she said.
"Your room is made up," Frank said, turning. "Follow
me."
As soon as the door opened, Rachel broke into a broad smile.
Her old bed was there, and new clothes, and even a pile of
blankets. Pictures she'd made before she left hung on the walls.
The little box he had carved for her sat by the bed. She put her
pack down and opened the box, taking out the little tree and
holding it in her palm.
He had put real effort into helping her feel at home. "Thank
you," she said, as controlled as she could. "Thank
you."
Her dad looked bewildered. "You're welcome. We'll have dinner
in about an hour-if we can keep the kids away from the table for
that long. I'm sure you'll want to rest some after the trip
down."
She wasn't tired; her new body wasn't tired. Her spirit needed
a break, a chance to breathe in the new smells of her old home.
She leaned into him and held him. "I came back, Daddy. I said I
would."
"I know." He stroked her hair. "I knew if anyone could get
back from up there, you would do it."
Rachel pulled the doorway curtain closed and sat down on the
bed-on her bed-and it was too much again, and she rolled over and
cried. She cried about her dad's hand, his uneasy alliance with
Kara, his gray hair, and how he looked so sad. Someone had been
kind enough to put a box of tissues in the room.
Dinner was a surprise. Rachel was introduced to chicken served
on rice. Nobody flinched at the notion that they were eating a
dead bird. Rachel watched to see how they did it, how they worked
their teeth and lips around the bones. She'd seen birds in
Treesa's panorama of Earth. Here they'd been introduced nearly
twenty years ago, when so many more Earth Born came to
Selene.
Kara was quiet as Frank told Rachel about how Aldrin had
grown, explaining the hand he'd had in designing infrastructure.
Rachel felt like Kara was watching her, waiting for
something.
Jacob interrupted. "What does the John Glenn look
like?"
"Tell us about the ship," Justin said.
Sarah looked at Rachel with big eyes, but didn't say
anything.
Rachel described the bright-jeweled face of Selene as they
flew above it and the absolute darkness of space outside of the
atmosphere.
"How big is John Glenn?" Justin asked.
"Bigger than Aldrin. And there's a garden inside it that's
bigger than Teaching Grove."
Justin's eyes went big. "Are there a lot of Council
there?"
"Yes, but it's so big, it looks empty."
"How fast does it go?" Jacob asked.
"I don't know." She should know, she thought. "I think it's
not moving now. But it must have gone very fast to get between
star systems."
"What does the garden look like?" Sarah asked.
Rachel drew a data window in the air, and asked for a picture
of the garden. The window started to fill up with colorful
images.
"You didn't ask it what to do," Justin proclaimed
solemnly.
"But, yes, I did. I asked it."
Her dad leaned forward. "How?"
"Well ..." They didn't know about the Library bud. She
swallowed. "Well," she started over, "on the John Glenn,
we can find out information by asking. It's like a voice in your
ear."
"Can I have one?" Justin asked. "I want a voice in my ear. Can
you teach me?"
Rachel shook her head. "Council has to give one to you." She
wasn't supposed to talk about the Library. But she hadn't
mentioned it directly-she was just retrieving information.
"Look," she said, "I have to stop now." What excuse could she
use? "This is hard to do way down here, and I'm not really
supposed to use it much."
Her dad looked over at Kara. "Can you do that?"
Kara hesitated, then looked daggers at Rachel and said,
"Yes."
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"It's not polite to show off data rights other people don't
have." Lips pursed, she returned her attention to her
plate.
After dinner, Kara took the children to bathe, and Rachel and
Frank were alone in the big common room.
Rachel had become used to large spaces on the ship, but so
much personal space on Selene was luxury. Their tent house would
have fit in just this room. "Are you happy?" she asked her
father.
"I'm happy to have you home."
"Kara's going back, isn't she?"
"Next year. I'll miss her in some ways. She's better than most
Earth Born. She doesn't really belong here, and she knows it. But
I did okay raising you. I'll manage these three all right. Kara
always said she wouldn't stay. She has a place at
Ymir."
"So she's leaving you with the children? Is that what you
want?"
"Since when do we get what we want?" Frank stared off into
space, twisting his hands together. "I'm sorry about Ursula. I
know you'll miss her."
"Yeah." She didn't want to think about Ursula, not yet, so she
said, "Aldrin feels different now."
"There's more tension between Earth Born and Moon Born than
there used to be. After you and Gabriel left, and Ali followed,
the pace sped up down here. The first big change was a building
boom. The planwas tents, but we had to change because of the
flares. That's what the buildings are for, by the way-they're all
Hare-hardened in at least one room. Here, it's the kitchen. So if
the warning goes off, you go in there and close both doors.
There's enough shielding to protect us from the smaller flares.
Those happen a lot more than they did-at least a few times a
year."
The Council hadn't been lying to her. "Other things feel
different too," she prompted him.
"Sorry-all the building-it was so we could house more people.
Aldrin has hundreds of people now-and new rules and more tension.
Partly the tension is from Council. We're behind in their master
plan-the flares got in the way, and there's been minor setbacks
with planting. It's all aggravated because the rules for the
Earth Born are different from the ones for the Moon Born. Before
you left, it wasn't that way."
"How are they different?" she asked.
"Well, that device you've got-the one you talk to-I've never
seen one down here. We all have wrist pads, but they're just
phones, they don't generally tell us things. We can't just
ask questions and have answers show up as if someone was sitting
around waiting on us. Oh, we can get information, but only what's
related to our jobs." He looked at her closely, narrowing his
eyes. "You had better be careful about showing off. Some people
might be jealous. Aldrin's not as safe as it used to
be."
"I'll be careful." She hadn't opened a conversation with
Astronaut, not yet. She didn't know if access to Astronaut was
part of her query and response to the Library here. But she
hadn't heard the perfect voice in her ear-just the Library's
standard response talk. There was still so much she didn't
know!
Still, she had seen Selene from the sky, flown in the garden,
and climbed Yggdrasil. She was half her friends' age, but she
knew things they didn't.
Frank straightened and looked her in the eye. "Back at the
airport? You acted like it didn't matter what Gabriel said, like
you're mad at him. And him Council. Do you have any idea how glad
we are to see him? Maybe things will come back closer to how they
used to be. Council rules us like always. But now, Moon Born and
Earth Born fight, and some of the Earth Born fight with each
other. Maybe Gabriel can fix something. It can't help us
if you make him mad. I didn't like him a lot before, but I like
him better than Shane and Star, who've been running classes and
teams here. Earth Born run most of the teams, and they do most of
the real running of the city."
"Not Moon Born?"
"No."
Wasn't it the plan for Harry to lead teams? For her too? She
leaned in closer to her dad. "There's a High Council. Higher than
Gabriel. He has to do what they say. But he's pretty high up. I
bet Shane and Star have less influence. I've never even heard
their names before, and everybody on John Glenn knows
Gabriel." She stopped for a minute, thinking, rubbing her hands
on her knees. "Gabriel wants us to lead. That's why he brought me
to John Glenn. But I don't know if he can really change
anything."
Frank looked surprised. "I thought Gabriel was in
charge."
"I think he is in charge of Selene. But High Council can make
rules, even for him." She shivered. "There's Kyu-who's pretty and
smart and tough, and the captain, who doesn't say much, but
people listen to him. Clare is the boss terraformer, which makes
her Gabriel's boss, but you don't see her because High Council
almost never comes here."
"I met her once," Frank said. "When I was just a little
boy."
Rachel shivered. "And Ma Liren. Liren's nasty."
"Gabriel's the one who called us and said to meet you," he
said. "Rachel, I don't ever remember being happier to hear from
anyone." Frank swept his mismatched hands through his hair, and
then clasped them tightly in front of him, leaning forward.
"Gabriel said good things about you. He also seemed concerned,
like coming home would be hard on you. That's partly what
prompted me to find your old pictures for your room. Gabriel told
me you learn really fast, and that your being iced was a
privilege. I was mad at Gabriel for a long time because I missed
you so, but who wouldn't want his child to live longer?" He
scrubbed at his face, shielding his eyes from her. "I'm not
making any sense-sorry." He drew a deep breath and dropped his
hands, looking directly at her. "I'm just afraid for you after
seeing how you're acting. You can't tell a Council member what
you're going to do!"
"Maybe someone needs to tell them to treat us better," she
said.
"You're angry, Rachel. I can feel it in you. Anger and loss.
You lost a lot, I lost a lot, but you're here. And you still have
work to do. We all have work to do."
"I know," she said.
"Don't make Council mad. Think of poor Andrew. Remember you
could turn out that way. You're used to being favored-you are
favored. But you could lose that, and I'd hate it if you lost
your dreams."
"Don't you mean if I lost more of them?"
Her father just smiled gently and nodded. "You look tired. Why
don't you sleep?"
"Good idea." She hugged her dad hard, not wanting to let
go.
At midnight she woke up sweating, knowing she could never
trust Gabriel so much again. She was dancing to more strings than
just his, and he was a puppet too. Liren and Kyu and the captain,
they all had more power than Gabriel. Treesa and Astronaut made a
difference too, although Rachel didn't understand it yet. She had
thought Council all saw things the same way. But they argued and
schemed and planned different plans inside the big plan that they
all supported-to leave Selene. Gabriel was asking Rachel to help
with that plan, but she didn't want Council to leave. How would
they live on Selene without the Council to run
things?
Her thoughts drifted back to Treesa, and it was no comfort to
imagine being an old woman alone in a garden with caged birds for
company.
Chapter 29: Harry
Dawn colored the window rose as Rachel slipped into the
kitchen and made a breakfast. In the fridge there was a bowl of
bloody red lumps; she avoided it. No one else had stirred yet
when she grabbed the bright blue and yellow wings she'd brought
with her from John Glenn. It was still too dark to fly to
the grove, but she would fly back. She hadn't flown through air
with no obstacles in so long! A good thermal with the ability to
rise, to hold out her wings and float, alone above
Selene...
Rachel squinted into Apollo's light and made out silhouettes
of old high tent poles. The path to the grove had run through
them. She found a wide street that went the right direction and
started along it.
She passed a building with a red and blue window sign offering
homemade crafts for trade. Curious, Rachel veered toward it. In
the Aldrin she'd left, Council provided everything families
needed. Peering through the windows in the half-light, she made
out curtains and clothes and teapots.
She turned back to look for the path. The street kept going
the right direction, straight. She walked uphill between a row of
houses. The street ended and she was surrounded by vegetation,
plots marked out with rope boundaries. Tattered cloth name tags
were tied on the rope, fluttering in the light morning
breeze.
By the time she found her plot, the light of full morning was
touching the tips of the trees, reflecting on the waxy leaves and
making the greens bright and vivid. She set her bag down and
waded in, amazed at the height of the grasses and shrubs, the way
the branches towered above her head, the ropy thickness of the
lianas. The Lobster Claw Heliconia leaves were as wide as her
hips, and a stalk of red and yellow bracts towered over her head.
The mimosas were chest high, spindlier than she'd expected, and
more graceful. The cecropia towered above all of the other
plants, reaching for light.
The forest floor was springy, wild with dead things turning
back to soil. In the garden aboard John Glenn, roots were
trapped in synthetic fiber mats and fed perfect nutrient mixes.
Here, roots tunneled into dirt that stuck to her shoes. Rachel
knelt down and ran her fingers through the soil, filling the cup
of her palm with damp deadfall. She picked through the jumble of
tiny twigs and brown leaves, ecstatic to see spidery skeletons of
leaves. Her nose wrinkled happily at the peaty smell of natural
compost. Looking closely, she noticed an ant, and then another,
and another, marching around the trunk of the cecropia
tree.
She talked into her wrist pad about the ants; describing
counts and behaviors. Rachel wanted to run statistics and images
through the Library and see if lower gravity had changed the
ants. She was sketching the pattern they traveled on the tree
when she heard footsteps behind her.
Rachel turned, and gave a little cry. But it couldn't be
Harry. Not now. His hair was lighter, and the shade of green in
his eyes was just off. The square angle of his jaw was right, and
he had the little quirky smile she remembered. She tried to
remember the name Gabriel had attached to Harry and Gloria's
son.
Before she could find the name in her head, he extended a hand
to help her stand. "You must be Rachel."
Did everyone, everywhere, know her name? She nodded. "And you
are?"
"Dylan."
"Pleased to meet you. You're Harry's son."
"Mom says I look a lot like him. I guess she must be right.
Anyway, do you like it?"
"Like? Your name?"
"The grove. We all take turns, Dad and Mom and me, taking care
of it." He swept his right arm expansively toward her
trees.
"Of my plot?"
"Dad and Mom said they couldn't bear to have your plot fall
into the student pool. We kept it perfect in case you came
home."
"Th-thank you." This boy wasn't more than two years younger
than the Harry she'd seen a few months ago. It was hard to stay
balanced on her feet and talk normally. "Yes ... well, I'm glad
someone does, oh, I mean ..." She slowed and took a deep breath.
"Yes, it's beautiful. Thank you. It looks even better than I
thought it would when I designed it."
"It's my day to check on things here, but Dad said to call if
you were here. So I did, as soon as I saw you. We heard last
night. And gosh-Mom was so excited! She said her best friend is
returned from the dead. They'll be along in a bit." Dylan was
looking her up and down as if she were a piece of
art.
She shivered and goose bumps rose along her arms. Her voice
caught in her throat for a moment, and then she shifted back
to a safe subject. "The ants are pretty neat," she said.
"I studied them on the ship."
"This is Star's third try for a viable ant colony." Dylan put
his hand down on a trunk in front of a marching column of black
ants, and the next ant bumped into his fingertip, then veered
around it, marking a new trail. Dylan smiled. "I think this
colony might take. These guys have been going for two months
now."
"There weren't any ants here when I left."
"Star's been pushing insects the last few years. We've got
reproducing colonies of bees now."
"I saw birds too."
"There's fifteen species now." He sounded proud. "Including
chickens. Did you really save Mom's life?"
"She was a little girl then, and I had to be saved
too."
Dylan grinned.
The whine and snap of wings came from overhead.
Harry and Gloria swooped down and landed, one on each side of
Rachel, almost knocking her down as they crowded
close.
The thirty-nine-year-old Harry had grown into all of his body
parts. He'd gotten taller. His shoulders were much broader,
though he was still lean and muscular. His back was slightly
curved in, giving his stance a little stoop. Lines crinkled
around his eyes. He didn't look directly at her for very
long.
For her part, she could hardly look at him. It
hurt.
Gloria had changed far more than Harry. Rachel remembered the
plucky young girl she had carried on her back; she saw a tall,
sharp-edged woman with spiky hair and clear muscle definition.
Her stomach protruded with pregnancy. Gloria was the first one to
talk, "Rachel-oh, gosh. I thought you'd never come back. You ...
you ... you look so much ..."
"...the same? Yep. But you sure don't-and you look great."
Words rushed out of Rachel in her confusion. "I've been sitting
and talking with Dylan. You have a great son. I'm really very
happy for you." She couldn't look at Harry as she said it. A
young blond girl landed and stood behind Dylan. She looked almost
thirteen. "And who is this?" She looked at the girl, who nodded
once, and smiled shyly.
Dylan spoke for her. "This is my sister, Beth Rachel." He
emphasized the Rachel, but said, "We should call her Beth, since
you're here."
Gabriel had said they'd named their girl after her. Rachel
felt more goose bumps. She held her hand out. "Pleased to meet
you, Beth. Have you helped too?"
"Sometimes," Beth Rachel said.
"So much has happened; I don't know how to catch up. And hey,
I'm really grateful to you all for keeping this place up so well.
It's beautiful." Rachel's eyes stung, and she swallowed and
blinked, taking three long pranayama breaths, using Gabriel's
techniques to calm her racing heart, control her
fear.
Gloria looked down at the ground between her shoes. "We wanted
to keep it right in case you ever came back. It's ... it's a
family habit. We ... we didn't want to forget you. You meant so
much to us."
"Nick helps too sometimes," Harry said. "And Sharon. All of us
do; everyone who remembers you. And some others you haven't met
help; at least when the rest of us are gone or on extra
shifts."
Why would they do that? She was overwhelmed; she had steeled
herself to a world gone on without her, forgetting her. She
blinked back tears.
They toured the First Trees. Rachel was openmouthed with
surprise at how big they'd grown. The large buttressing roots of
a full jungle were beginning to appear, so they had to step up
and over roots, or walk around them. Lianas ran overhead, and
flowers filled the air with a sticky sweetness. Birds flashed in
the trees.
"Hey, Dylan," she said, "I don't see any ants
here."
"Council never uses the First Trees for testing
anymore."
Gloria interrupted. "Dylan, Rachel-Beth Rachel that is-we need
to go. I have to get to the schoolyard." She looked at Rachel.
"Being pregnant keeps me off the crews, so I do a half-shift
babysitting every afternoon. The kids help me. Will you come to
our house tonight? I'll make dinner. Spaghetti?"
Rachel wasn't sure she could be around them for a whole
evening. "I promised my dad I'd eat at home. Sometime
soon?"
Gloria looked disappointed, but she said, "I understand." She
kissed Harry on the cheek, and then turned and left. Beth and
Dylan followed her.
Gloria was chattering to Beth, and Beth's face was turned up
toward Gloria's, smiling. Dylan looked back over his shoulder
once. Rachel watched them walk away until they were nearly at the
far edge of the meadow. She should have been the one to herd
Harry's children home.
"Walk with me?" Harry asked, turning away.
Rachel just nodded, numb, and followed him. They walked
silently for a long time, picking their way along a thin path
that meandered just inside the First Trees. They were so close to
the meadow that light streamed in and touched the tips of the
ferns and lianas with gold, and sent spots of dappled light
across Harry's back. Rachel's stomach heaved and she struggled
not to cry out loud, then stumbled and stood next to a cieba,
sobbing.
Harry stopped, and made a strangled sound in his throat, and
reached for her. She stepped into his arms and cried on his
shoulder. He held her softly, awkwardly, patting the back of her
head. When she looked up, his eyes were red too. The lines around
his eyes and small streaks of gray in his short hair made her
dizzy. He pushed her back, and looked directly into her eyes.
"I'm sorry it all turned out this way."
"I know," she said, "we were robbed. It wasn't either of our
faults."
"It could have been changed." Harry sounded
bitter.
"Not anymore." She sniffed, and wiped her face with the back
of her hand. "You seem to be happy."
He hesitated, then said, "I am. Things turned out well for
me." He smiled softly. "I love Gloria and the kids a lot. But I
thought about you often, even after Gloria and I
contracted."
She started walking, leading him this time, choosing a wide
path that wound away from student plots, through community jungle
that was old enough to rise above their heads. She didn't trust
herself to say anything. In a few places tiny saplings struggled
up right in the path. Rachel was surprised to see them; they
would have been pulled up as seedlings when she was here before.
She stepped carefully around them, even though surely they'd be
removed eventually.
"Aldrin is different now," Harry said, his voice floating up
from behind her.
"Dad and I talked about that last night. He looks tired. I
think they're making him work too hard. He says that Council is
much tougher. I really hope Gabriel being back makes a
difference."
"It's not likely to. The rules are different, and there's the
Earth Born ... a lot of them don't like us much."
"Yeah, I met Kara last night. I feel like an unwelcome
stranger in my own house. Only it's not even my house. I feel
like I walked into someone else's life." Rachel tripped over a
long thin root, nearly falling, and Harry caught up with
her.
"You were gone a long time."
"I don't even know what Council expects of me anymore. I did
learn a lot on the ship, and I very much want to use some of what
I learned." She thought about Astronaut, and Treesa. She couldn't
tell Harry about them.
"Do you feel like that, even after all Council did to
you?"
"It wasn't 'Council' that made that choice. It was Ma Liren,
and High Council. There's a High Council that makes choices for
us, even for Gabriel and Ali."
"But you aren't Council, you're one of us."
"I meant for all of us, Harry. Council, Earth Born, Children.
All of us. We don't choose the important stuff."
He didn't reply. They walked without talking for a while, feet
scratching through deadfall on the path. Rachel smelled flowers
that she couldn't even see, and damp mosses, and the light
healthy rot of the deadfall. She cleared her throat. "Tell me
about Andrew."
"He's strange, Rachel. He runs with a crowd of younger people
in Aldrin, and they answer to him for things, and he keeps them
angry with Council. I think that's how he gets his information
since he still can't have direct data. Oh, they all still do what
they're told, but they do it like they want to see how far they
can push Council and Earth Born. He's going to get in more
trouble. He was my best friend once, but I'm actually glad that
my kids don't hang out with him."
"Trust Andrew to be stupid. We can't fight Council. We need
them-we just have to find a way to make them let us help them so
we learn more. Either that, or find a way to make them stay here
on Selene, or at least in Apollo system. But I don't know how to
do that."
Harry walked faster to catch up with her. "Watch for a while.
And be careful, Rachel. Last week one of the guys on Nick's crew,
one of the young ones that hangs around with Andrew, got in
trouble for talking back and he disappeared for a few days. He
said they kept him in a locked room." Harry put a hand on her
arm. "I don't agree with Andrew exactly, and I don't like his
ideas, and I hope we don't have to fight Council or Earth Born. I
don't want to, because of the kids. But if they keep making us
work so hard and giving us so little, it may come down to a fight
someday."
Rachel blinked and stumbled, unsure what to think of this new
Aldrin, this new Harry. She pulled ahead of him, and stopped out
in the clear meadow, then turned toward him, so he stopped,
facing her. How could she share some of what she'd learned? "You
should see Selene from space; it's beautiful. It's like a jewel
we're making, the water shines out and sparkles, and the edges of
the craters are shadowed and beautiful. It's small, Harry, too
small for us to fight over. It's fragile. And the John
Glenn, it's huge, but it's still fragile too. Did you know
Sol system had billions of people, and they lived all over the
system, not just on one tiny moon? And some of the Council think
they all died. This is a smaller and more fragile place than we
think it is."
Harry looked at the ground and shuffled his feet. Then he
looked up and smiled. "Gabriel was right, you're a natural
leader."
She shook her head. She couldn't take any more-there was so
much wrong with this older Selene. "Harry," she said, "I have to
go. I need to get back home, and first, I need to fly some. The
garden is so cramped. I need to feel some space."
Harry looked startled. "Would you like me to fly with
you?"
"No. I need to be alone. I'll come over some night soon and
talk with you, I promise. You can start sending me questions and
notes again if you want."
"No, I can't. They don't let us use much extra communication
anymore."
Rachel drew her lips tight. "Okay, we'll talk. I need
you."
He smiled at her and stroked her face as if she were a child.
"I do have a lot more questions for you."
Rachel pulled back. "I bet you do." She turned away. "I have
to go. I have to think about all of you being
older."
"I understand." Harry turned and walked away in the same
direction Gloria and the kids had gone.
Rachel realized she didn't even know where they
lived.
Chapter 30: Mariner Stew
Gabriel flew a criss-cross pattern over Selene's jungle,
trying out a new plane, staying high, eyeing the changes in
Selene from an eagle's viewpoint. Green squares covered the
ground, riots of greens competing in the older plantings, sienna
sprinkled with green in newer fields. Snakes of dirt road crossed
the older green squares. Long rectangles of landing strip
interrupted the patterns in the newer jungle. A few of the
landing strips were dotted with people and small
flyers.
What he saw pleased him; the old plantings looked established.
New lines of green pushed out along the old Sea Road. Here and
there brown sticks attested to flare damage, but most of the
trees looked healthy. Fifty percent of the intended jungle was
planted. Already there was nearly enough diversity to sustain the
planned five thousand population. They were behind their
goal for square kilometers planted. The numbers sat on the tail
end of the pessimistic side of his and Ali's original models.
Still, he grinned to see that even the unexpected flares hadn't
dropped production below the slop they'd programmed into the
model for chaos effects. They were good at this.
Gabriel landed the little plane smoothly, and taxied to a
parking spot by the runway. In the sudden silence as he switched
off the engines, he heard himself humming. He realized he had
been humming for some time, an old song his mother used to sing.
Why was he singing? It felt good to be alone, to be back on
Selene.
Visits to John Glenn lately had been ...
uncomfortable.
The next visit would be good. Erika would be warm! Ten days.
He switched to humming a love song as he patted the plane on the
nose and headed for Council Home.
In contrast to the rest of Selene, Council Home looked
familiar. The structures were all hard-surfaced now, of course,
but not really bigger. It had always been well designed and well
cared for. The Hares, though. They shouldn't have been so
surprising. His imagination drew pictures in his mind, magnetic
fields reaching out from Apollo, twisting round Daedalus the
sun-hugging gas giant planet and its metallic hydrogen core.
Field lines knotting, until they exploded in flares of energy and
trapped protons. Why hadn't he seen it from the beginning? The
hard-shelled houses weren't enough protection.
He grimaced, remembering the hurried meeting he'd had with
Council before he brought Rachel down yesterday. He was still
stinging from Council's rejection of his flare kite. Only the
captain had supported him. They were afraid it would take too
much time to develop and test. He'd had a backup idea. At least
they'd approved of that one. Building the undersea refuge would
be fun, and he would only have to leave Selene once. But they
wouldn't need a refuge if they just fixed the problem. The flare
kite would make Selene truly safe.
Gabriel checked into an empty house and showered, dressed
carefully in belted and ankle-tied brown pants and a long-sleeved
deep blue shirt. He clipped the star and planet symbols that
identified his terraforming affiliations into his braid. Every
minute since he'd warmed had been spent with High Council or
tending Rachel. Star had promised to whip up a decent meal,
something she called Mariner Stew, and Gabriel was ready for
anything that wasn't standard ship food.
He had to search for his locker. He could only hope that
whoever had moved his few belongings here had been careful. He
pulled out a long rectangular case and opened it slowly, smiling
at what he saw. The guitar lay neatly nestled in cloth packing,
the wood glowing as light hit it from above. He had built it by
hand over three winters, using wood from a pruned branch of
Yggdrasil, carefully seasoned while he was iced and then brought
here to Selene. One entire season's spare time had gone into
hand-shaping the neck and fitting it to the hollow body. He ran
his hands over the smooth surfaces, then pulled out the new
strings he'd brought from the ship and sat alone for twenty
minutes, stringing and tuning the instrument before walking over
to meet Shane and Star.
He was humming again as he rang the bell.
The door swung open and Gabriel was engulfed by a blond girl
nearly his height, all legs and curves. Star planted a kiss on
his check. He laughed, holding her around the waist, slapping
Shane's shoulder in greeting.
"Hey, old man," Shane teased, "you had her once. She's mine
now."
"And what harm in an old friend flirting?" Star said. "It's
not like Gabriel has eyes for anyone but Erika
anyway."
"Well," Shane said, "he gets along well enough with Ali. Or so
I've heard."
Gabriel shook his head. "Let's see. If I can't shift-bond with
a pilot, since she has no regular shifts-I'm supposed to just
wait around while I terraform this rock?"
Star stepped back and put her hands up in front of her face,
laughing. "So you were just killing time with me?"
"I made it live. And I care about Ali too. And
Erika will be awake soon."
"Who made it live?" Star did a little bump with her hips,
flirting. "Not that I'd trade Shane away-I bet you can't wait for
Erika." Star grinned at him, arching an eyebrow.
"Well, I like you all." He felt his face flush. "You're
right. Erika's special to me. It will take weeks just to catch
her up."
Shane smiled broadly. "You'll hate it."
Gabriel was grinning. "So who says life's
easy?"
"Not us." Star and Shane kissed, and Shane handed around wine
bulbs. Star continued. "It hasn't been easy here. This is the
first time Shane and I have seen each other in days. I know
you've been cold, but it's gotten crazy. High Council handed down
new dictates outlining who can do what, and guess who landed all
of the supervision? Oh, they were kind enough to leave some of
the fieldwork to be overseen by Earth Born, but that's all. We're
dying of exhaustion down here. And when we document how much we
have to do-heck, what isn't getting done-High Council just says
do it! I'm ready for a rest, I'll tell you. You'll have to deal
with it-people are doing what they're supposed to and having
babies right and left, the schools are full, and we just can't do
it all. You know there's only ten Council here?"
Gabriel did some quick math in his head. In addition to the
five High Council members, Council numbered two hundred-a mix of
picked scientists and top performers in everything from human
resource management to drive mechanics. The terraforming crew
numbered fifty-seven mixed-discipline scientists. Another twenty
were assigned to help them out, and everyone else was either on
sparse rotation like Erika or, worse, cold until they got to
Ymir.
High Council was struggling to save Earth-educated Council as
well as Colonists until they were needed at Ymir. Sure, the other
ships were probably there. But there was no confirmation-and so
they saved resources. That meant ten was a lot of staff, probably
as much as he could expect given that not everyone warm could be
on Selene at any one time.
So he said, "Ten's a lot."
"For everything we have to do?" Star complained. "We need
help. Come on, Gabe, we're running the town and teaching school
as well as overseeing safety and planting and dealing with the
flares and..."
"Slow down," Gabriel interrupted, laughing. "We've got what
we've got. We can make children, but we can't make Council. Let's
see-five years a shift, and next shift we can start building the
collider. It won't be long to finish from here. Maybe ten
five-year shifts at most. What about the Earth
Born?"
Shane thought it over. "Earth Born do a lot of the work that
requires education and skills, and they also supervise work crews
of Moon Born. But most go back to John Glenn as fast as
they can." Shane started pacing. "Some stay put; they get
attached to their families. It's hard work to keep so many people
on track. The circumstances are so different from what they
expected. It's hard on them. And we don't have much time to help
them."
Star handed Shane three glasses for the table. "I don't like
being here in the first place, but I dislike being worked to
death even more. I heard you were training Children to take some
of the burden?"
"I am," he said. Bitterly, "I was. Aren't you?"
"It's not in our work plan. Not right now." Shane was serious.
"Really. There's no time to teach Children-they'd need university
educations to manage most of this. They just don't know enough to
be very useful, and we don't have much time to teach them. They
don't have the background for anything really complex-I'm amazed
we have them reading and recording."
Star looked over from the kitchen. "Most of them don't seem to
really care anyway."
Gabriel winced. Of course they didn't-not if they were treated
like slaves. His students had been bright enough to lead other
Moon Born-maybe not to lead Earth Born, but surely to lead teams
of other Moon Born for the easier tasks. Rachel and Harry and
Gloria, they'd cared about Selene. "Let me introduce you to
Rachel."
"Well, I'll meet your Rachel. But she's still not Earth Born
or Council-I don't see how she can really help, even with the
extra training. This isn't the mess we left for you and Ali last
shift. It's a very different mess. It's like High Council has
gone paranoid."
Gabriel decided not to feed that rumor. He suspected it was
mostly Ma Liren. He intended to have a chat with Clare and Kyu as
soon as an opportunity presented itself.
He said, "No one has told me
differently."
"Step carefully, my friend. We were scheduled to go cryo in
just a few weeks. Now there's no date," Star said. "What do you
know about that?"
"Nothing," Gabriel said.
"I'm done here now," Star said. "I'm ready for a long time on
ice."
Gabriel reached over and gave her a casual kiss. "We'll see
Ymir someday. This will all be worth it."
"How long until you wake Erika?" Shane asked.
"Ten days. So that's all the time I've got to help Rachel
acclimate to the time jump, and get her doing something
useful."
Shane turned and faced Gabriel, dropping his smile. "Well, and
speaking of Rachel again, have you met up with the 'Cult of
Rachel' yet?"
"Huh?"
Star said, "The older Children keep up her garden in the
grove. Harry and his family do it, including the kids, and some
friends of theirs. I think she's some kind of symbol for them,
maybe because she went to the ship, or maybe because she didn't
come back."
"Rachel's friendly enough to us." At least she used to be.
She hasn't been too friendly since we warmed her. "She and
Harry were my best students last shift, and I'd planned for them
both to be leading planting crews. Harry's a careful engineer,
and Rachel is creative, with a good sense for
ecosystems."
Star wasn't done. "Really, Gabriel, it is kind of eerie. Go
look at her garden plot. It's cleaner and better cared for than
anybody else's. Dylan-that's Harry and Gloria's oldest-he bothers
us more about every little thing for Rachel's plot than for his
own. His is good, but hers, hers he keeps perfect. And he can't
have ever seen Rachel. He was born after you took her to
the ship. It's a family thing for them, and I think it's weird. I
mean, nothing bad has happened, but it might he good to know
whether they see Rachel as a hero, or just a friend they're
watching over. At least she's alive, so they can't make her into
a martyr."
"Has anyone monitored them?" Gabriel asked.
Shane said, "A little-"
"Who'd have time?" Star sputtered. "You'll see what it's
like." She ladled strong peppery-smelling fish stew into bowls.
"All the data streams in the world don't help if you don't have
time to read them."
"We could use Astronaut to help monitor."
"Maybe," Shane mused. "But I'm not sure that's a good
idea."
"Neither am I." Gabriel shook his head. "But we have to do
something."
Star changed the subject back. "Your Rachel may have some
power, since Harry and Gloria are de facto leaders among the Moon
Born." She sat down at the table, and gestured to Shane and
Gabriel to join her. "Eat."
"I wonder if Rachel knows about it?" Gabriel sat down and
tasted the stew. It was rich, warm, and spicier than ship food.
"This is good."
"Oh," Shane said, "I see Andrew at Rachel's plot sometimes
too."
"Don't tell me-trampling the ground and pulling up healthy
young trees." Gabriel rolled his eyes.
"No, he weeds it."
Gabriel almost dropped his spoon. "Andrew still doesn't have
any data access?"
"He has straight com, so he can get flare warnings, or tell us
when he's in trouble. But he has no data, not even low-level
access to data pods, much less the community pool. But you know,"
she mused, "he's never even asked us for data."
Gabriel was mad at Liren all over again for not waking him.
Maybe he should wake Ali-she had a good rapport with the kids.
Adults now, all of them. But waking Ali would be a bad idea if he
wanted to keep his undivided attention for Erika. And he did.
Gabriel sighed. He wanted to just relax with Erika for a few
weeks when she warmed. Fat chance.
After they cleaned up from dinner, Star pulled out a long
wooden flute, Shane assembled his water drum, and Gabriel sang
and played guitar. They spent hours on old space songs, and made
up new songs, until early in the morning. By false dawn his
fingertips were raw and tender.
He didn't remember the last time he'd felt so
good.
Chapter 31: Journey
The next morning, Gabriel headed up to Teaching
Grove.
It was noticeable; Rachel's plot was a perfect garden.
He stood still, absorbing details that showed meticulous care;
dead leaves stripped, weeds pulled, paths clear and
raked.
A rustling sound made him look to his left. He saw two kids,
blond, a boy and a girl, in Ursula's plot. The two children were
carefully uprooting a dead palm sapling. Ursula's plot hadn't
been kept up as well as Rachel's, but signs of recent activity
showed. Piles of dead twigs and yellowed leaves lined the path,
waiting to be composted. Small branches and fall were left in the
plot, of course, but larger woody material went to become soil
with the help of life-limited nano.
The children noticed him, and left the palm half finished,
moving away quietly to crouch a few meters away from him. They
kept their heads down, not meeting his eyes, weeding. It bothered
Gabriel. The last time he was here, people-everyone-greeted each
other and talked when they met.
Rachel was in the kitchen with her dad and an Earth Born who
must be Kara, Frank's contracted partner. Three children were
lined up at the kitchen table, eating toast and bananas. A strong
minty smell pervaded the kitchen. Rachel looked fresh from sleep.
Her hair was still long, and in disarray, but she seemed a little
friendlier. She glanced up at him, smiling, saying, "I was hoping
to have a few more hours to visit." Irony. She'd learned
irony.
Frank glared at Rachel and broke in quickly, "Good morning,
Gabriel, it's a pleasure to have you back here. We're glad to see
you."
Kara extended a hand in formal greeting.
Gabriel looked over at Rachel, and he watched her struggle to
ignore him. She eventually said, "Well, Gabriel, what's next for
me?"
"You and I are doing a ground survey. I'll visit with your dad
while you pack. I'd like to hear his perspective on how things
have been here while we were cold."
Rachel left the room. Kara scrambled up, clearing the
children's plates. "I'll walk the kids to school."
Frank nodded, and Kara herded the children toward the door.
"Jacob, Justin, Sarah-let's go. You'll be late."
One of the twins turned and looked at Frank. "Can't we stay? I
want to talk to Gabriel."
Frank shook his head, but waved as Kara marshaled the three
youngsters out the door.
Gabriel felt strangely awkward. "Kara seems nice, and the
children are beautiful," he said.
"Thank you. Kara will leave us soon." Frank's voice sounded
pained. "I really am glad you're back. Our lives work better when
you're here."
"I'm sure Shane and Star have done a good job," Gabriel said,
helping himself to a piece of bread from the kitchen
counter.
"Aldrin is a harder place for us. More work. There are more
approvals and steps to get anything done too. I mean, you always
had rules, but it seems like there are so many it's slowing us
down while the workload just gets bigger. Shane is strict with
us. Even me. It used to mean something to be first generation."
Frank leaned back in his chair, looking uncomfortable.
"People-Earth Born largely, but Council too-they treat us
like-like badly built machinery. Being Moon Born is a curse. It
makes me wonder, how will things work when there are even more of
us here? Will we always just do what you say?"
Gabriel shook his head at the veiled threat. "Frank, you have
to. We give you what autonomy we can." He changed the subject.
"How's Rachel doing?"
"Better than I thought she would be. But this is hard.
I hope she gained as much as she lost."
Gabriel saw regret mixed with anger on Frank's face, and then
a congenial mask dropped over Frank's eyes. Gabriel was saddened;
he and Frank had worked so closely together once they'd almost
been friends.
Frank continued. "It's strange how you brought her back
looking as young as when you took her. It makes her special in a
way, and it scares me. How will people respond to
her?"
"I'm sorry she was cold so long," said Gabriel. "The lost time
will be hard for her-we meant it to be a year."
"Rachel told me you were cold when the decision was
made."
Rachel reappeared with a pack and her wings. "When will I come
back?" That ironic tone again. "Or should I know better than to
ask?"
"I have to go back to John Glenn in less than two
weeks. We'll be back before that."
GABRIEL'S PLAN WAS TO STAY out seven days, finding a new place
to camp each morning and using the afternoons to document the
jungle's health. He had run the data already, but he needed to
touch and feel the work. He wanted time to think, and time to
evaluate Rachel's adjustment.
His plans already looked imperfect. Rain clouds piled and
billowed to the west, and he didn't want to fly into a storm.
Rachel sat quietly next to him, recording data as he fed it to
her, barely responding to anything else. She seemed indrawn, but
less angry. Neither of them brought up the moments when Gabriel
had held her after she learned about Ursula's death, or the
insubordination she had shown afterward. The flight out was full
of awkward silence.
The first two days were soggy. They slogged through the
earlier plantings with the bigger trees, hoping that the rain
would stay above them in the canopy. Enough moisture fell through
to keep them damp and miserable. Mud stuck to their shoes, and
their feet made sucking sounds as they walked.
The jungle showed the passage of time. Flowers bloomed,
epiphytes held onto branches, lianas threaded through trees, and
three times they saw bright green birds.
Rachel did her share of the sampling and testing. By the end
of the second day, Gabriel noticed that even with the
ever-present rain, Rachel was showing her connection to jungle
plants. She exclaimed happily at trees that looked particularly
good, and was aggrieved wherever a tree appeared less healthy.
She was willing to spend hours sampling soil and finding
remediation recommendations for every sick place. They stumbled
on an area where ten trees had died, and Rachel analyzed the soil
and what was left of the dried leaves, finally determining that
the whole region had the wrong soil acidity. "We've got to stay
and fix this," she said.
"We're losing time. I'll send a team back."
She planted her feet and glared at him. "Didn't you always
tell us to fix things ourselves? Besides, from what Dad
said, there's not enough people to do all the work. We're here
now."
He laughed, and helped her figure out what nutrients to
add.
As they journeyed, Rachel surrounded herself with data windows
from the Library and spent time handling plants-touching them and
turning over leaves to look at them. Her focus was almost
uncanny, and most of the time she hardly seemed to know he was
with her. Her reactions to him had changed. Always before he had
felt like she was looking for something from him, and now she
didn't seem to need anything except work. She was certainly still
assimilating the changes in her life, and the work must be a
welcome distraction. Once, when he came up on her from a
distance, tears streaked her cheeks.
The third day the sky cleared, but the air still dripped with
humidity. Harlequin was due to eclipse Apollo. They located a
bare spot with enough canopy to huddle under. The dusk of the
eclipse closed around them, leaving the much dimmer light of
Harlequin and the quivering glow of the lantern Gabriel set out.
They shivered, their backs cold even while the lantern warmed
their hands. Gabriel heated water for tea on top of the
lamp.
"What will I do when we get back to Aldrin?" Rachel
asked.
None of the Children had interesting jobs. They were all
laborers. Gabriel had been working through this problem in his
head, wanting to give her some responsibility. "There's precedent
for you teaching. You do it well."
She smiled at him. "I want to be out here. I want to take a
small crew, all Moon Born, and be out here making things grow. I
want to be here, in the wild, to make it all work. The jungle
changed while you froze me, but Aldrin changed more, and
worse."
He wanted her where she could be watched easily. "Start with
teaching. You have new knowledge from John Glenn. You can
use that to establish yourself. After all, you're only a few
effective years older than some of the students. Harry's son for
one." He watched for her reaction.
"He's sharp enough I'd like to take him with me when we go on
field trips."
She talked about the ants and other insects. She'd gotten the
idea of planting directly from seed for large areas, and she went
on about fixing soil with grasses: make large-scale savannah and
then turn it to jungle. He recognized some strategies he had used
on Earth. She must have been doing research he didn't know
about.
After a while she was rambling, but it was smart rambling. It
reminded Gabriel of his own musings, and he sat patiently and
corrected her when her ideas were founded on poor assumptions. He
enjoyed the conversation immensely, and was sorry when the tiny
bright disk of Apollo broke around Harlequin and began to throw
light back into the day.
An hour later they surprised a group of Earth Born repairing a
tilling machine. Gabriel spotted Nick bent over an axle, pulling
on a wheel, and pointed him out to Rachel, who snuck up behind
him and stood until he turned, whooped, and embraced her. The
rest of the group glanced at them, but kept working, not leaving
their posts. A short dark-haired man turned at the commotion. He
frowned, and barked at Nick to get back to the work he was doing.
Nick turned back to the tiller, and Rachel bent uncertainly over
to help him. The man stepped toward Nick and Rachel, looking
menacing, and Gabriel cleared his throat.
The man turned, seeing Gabriel for the first time. "Who are
you?"
"Gabriel." He said his name mildly, and at first it didn't
have the effect he expected. Then the man stopped and looked more
closely, taking a moment to acknowledge that Gabriel was clearly
Council. Gabriel continued mildly. "Do you perchance have someone
else who can finish that task while my two friends
visit?"
The entire group was suddenly quiet.
"Well?" Gabriel asked.
"Ah ... ah ... but he's ... he's just a Moon Born. He doesn't
get extra breaks. We're already behind." The man's voice was
respectful, but he stood with his feet planted, looking
tense.
"He's a student of mine." Gabriel felt his jaw clench. "You
will do as I say.
"Well, he's been on my crew for five years. But
whatever you say must be true. Of course." The man pursed his
lips, but he gestured to another crew member, who walked over and
took the wrench from Nick's hand.
Rachel and Nick came over to Gabriel. Nick's hands were
callused, and his shoulders stooped a little. His hair was
graying slightly at the temples. Gabriel shook his head to clear
it of the odd image; people shouldn't age this fast. The reminder
of Rachel's long sleep, and his own, made him acutely
uncomfortable. He held his hand out to Nick. "Good to see you,
Nick. I'm sorry about Ursula."
"Thank you," Nick said. "She was trying very hard to do a good
job. I really don't know how it happened." His voice broke. "One
moment she was there ... and the next... the next she was just
gone."
Rachel buried her head in Nick's shoulder while Nick looked
away. Gabriel was sorry he had brought up the
subject.
It was Rachel who found a way out for them, asking Nick about
the tiller and placing the conversation firmly on technical
grounds. When the men finished the work and the broken tiller
rumbled back to life, Rachel looked over at Gabriel. "Can Nick go
with us? We could use the hand."
Before Gabriel could reply Nick shook his head. "No-I'll be in
enough trouble for this. You'll be going back to Aldrin, right?
I'll see you there." Nick gave Rachel a brief hug, turned, and
walked away, trailing the others down the road.
The next few days were sunny and bright, and the surveying
went easier. The last day they were back near the Sea Road when
they had to duck a flare. They sat it out in a shelter and did
yoga and talked about the chaotic nature of weather patterns.
They had been sleeping in separate tents. The tiny flare shelter
was only one room with enough floor space for them to sleep.
Lying close to Rachel, Gabriel slept badly and longed for Erika.
When he woke up, one of his arms was lying over Rachel's
shoulder. Carefully, he moved his arm, then woke her and hurried
them out of the shelter to the surface of the moonlet, and
home.
It took two days to install Rachel as a teacher starting new
classes. Shane and Star were dubious, but Gabriel overrode
them.
On the flight back up to John Glenn, the sight of
Selene pulled at him. He turned all of his window views toward
John Glenn and focused his energy forward. His heart
leaped at the thought of seeing Erika. He would feel clearer when
they were together again.
Chapter 32: Reunited
Erika was warm!
As soon as the med techs set her free, he folded her in his
arms, and kissed her, over and over. Then he led her to
Yggdrasil, now twice as big as when she'd last seen it. When
Erika went cold, Aldrin and Clarke Base were still tented for
atmosphere, and the First Trees were seedlings. She held him
tightly in the light gravity, looking up the huge trunk, smiling
so deeply it looked like every part of her was
happy.
She scampered up the ropes that ringed the trunk, looking back
at him and laughing. Her long blond hair was caught in a loose
ponytail that flapped up and down as she moved. Even though he
still felt strong and new from his time iced, she was lithe
enough to outfox him twice, going around the trunk ahead of him
and dropping back a rope rung when she was out of sight,
surprising him by suddenly being beside him. Each time she slid
one leg around his waist, and pulled him near for a kiss. The
second time, he pivoted, pinned her with his knee, and kissed her
deeply, tasting her, smelling her, laying his check across her
head and running his hand along her backside. He shook as he
pushed himself away.
Erika found a thick, slightly flattened branch far enough from
the trunk to make a comfortable seat. They sat close, feeling the
slight centrifugal force of the garden's spin as a wind blowing
gently against their faces and a slight tug outward. Their feet
floated over grasses and small shrubs that made up the
savannah.
Erika leaned into him and whispered, "When I go cryogenic, I'm
always afraid I'll never wake up. Or that when I do wake up,
everything will be so different I won't fit in
anymore."
Gabriel held on to the tree with one hand, and crunched her
close to him with the other. "I think we just gave someone that
opportunity." He told her about Rachel's unexpected sleep. "I
think she'll be okay." He finished. "By the time I left, she was
treating me almost normally again."
"What an initiation to cold sleep," Erika said. "You said you
were training her to lead. Is she still loyal enough to do
that?"
"I'm not sure anymore," he mused. "I wanted at least crew
leaders. That plan seems to have been aborted while Rachel and I
were cold. I don't think any of the Children hated me
before, except Andrew, but I'm sure some of them hate Star and
Shane. I met two kids in Teaching Grove who seemed to be afraid
of me. They wouldn't even come close to me. That worries me. And
the Colonists-the Children call them 'Earth Born'-they resent us
and lord it over the Moon Born." He pursed his lips. "Most of
them, anyway. No one seems happy."
"Andrew?" She narrowed in on the part of his story that could
be a personal threat to him.
"A crazy boy. Destructive. He vandalized things twice. We
stripped him of his data rights, but we left him on
Selene."
"Was that a good idea?"
Gabriel shrugged. "Ali and I talked about it, and decided it
was better than the alternatives: killing him, I mean, or
freezing him, or locking him up. I don't think Liren agreed,
although she went along. But if we have to ice everyone who
misbehaves, then we'll be using cryotanks for the wrong reasons.
Liren has a different idea-she actually built a
jail."
"A what?" Erika pulled away and swung around to where she
could look directly at him. "Did she put Andrew in
it?"
"No-we'd already passed sentence. People can't do much worth
getting put in jail. Hell, we've got cameras everywhere. But
Shane says theyhave used it for brawling a few times-both Moon
Born and Earth Born. I guess it's mostly a
deterrent."
"Do we need a deterrent? Has it gotten that
bad?"
"We didn't when I went off-shift. But Ma Liren's gone a tad
control crazy; it's worse every time she's on-shift. I know she's
your friend. She was our best politician once-without her, we
might never have gotten away from Sol system. Hell, she fought
her way to John Glenn at the end. But we don't have any
business being an oppressive government, and Liren's forgotten
... historically; oppression's never worked. It's like she thinks
everything we fled, all the AIs and all the augmented, like it's
all right at her shoulder."
"I'll talk to her." Erika leaned so close to him it felt as if
she were trying to join him in his skin, and then she asked, "How
about the timeline? I was really hoping we would be further
along. I know the collider isn't supposed to be finished yet, but
it was supposed to be started! As far as I can tell, it's still
on the drawing boards. How long do we have to diddle with this
moon before we do what we stopped here for? Do I still get to fly
this ship away from here in a few decades?"
Gabriel sighed. "Maybe a few more than we first thought," he
said. "There's quakes, and flares, and something else I've
decided we have to do, although it will add time as well. It's
starting to feel like it might take forever to get to where we
can safely build the collider."
"Well, I'm still Second. The captain will fly us away, I'm
sure."
"He's been warm even more since you went down," Gabriel said.
"He may be too old to fly again."
"He was supposed to sleep!"
"Have you ever tried to tell him what to do?"
Erika's laugh tickled his shoulder. "Well, whoever flies the
John Glenn away from here, I still want oblivion through
most of this nightmare project.
"You don't get older anymore, the new tech changes that. This
is the second time you've warmed to it-don't you feel
better?"
"It doesn't make this project end any faster, or help me get
away from here. I want to spend my life between the stars, and at
Ymir."
"Me too. But Ymir seems far away lately-like a childhood dream
drifting far away." He made a face at her.
Anxiously, "You still want to go?"
"Yes, I do. I want to be on Ymir. I want a planet that's
nearly perfect to set deer and horses free on." Gabriel looked up
at the tree, searching for the top, but the sunlight was so
bright it stung his eyes. "I'd like to ride a horse again. At
least once." A flying bot passed between him and the light, and
he blinked and then pulled back to look directly into her eyes.
"We knew after we decided to stay true to our rules about tech-we
knew that we would be using the Children. But we didn't
know it. Not the way I know it, working with them
every day. And we can't stay here, we calculated that as well.
Not enough variety, and no way to stabilize Selene's atmosphere
enough for the really long haul. Not unless we become what we
fled from, or worse. Erika, I have to look in their eyes, every
day I'm on Selene. Sometimes I think it's cowardice that keeps us
stuck to our fear of tech; then I remember Earth. But we can't do
what we're doing now either. We just can't." Gabriel searched
Erika's face for a response.
Her jaw was set tight. She finally said. "I'm sorry, love. I
really am. We had hard choices to make. That's all. Every choice
had its dangers."
It was little comfort. Gabriel frowned at himself, not wanting
to ruin their first day together. "I just wish it were
different-that we'd made it to Ymir. I'm tired of hard
things."
"You are an old man," she teased.
"Hmmmm, I'm older than you are now."
"Effectively. But I'll always be a month older in real
time."
"How do you know what's real?" he asked.
"You've been talking to Astronaut again."
"And who else am I supposed to talk to?"
"Me." She wrinkled her nose at him.
"I do-when you're receiving. Besides, Astronaut's moved on.
When you went to sleep it was stuck in quantum physics as a
sideline. I'm pretty sure the current interest is human
psychology."
Erika threw her head back and laughed. "We might drive it
crazy. And as fast as it thinks and learns, if it's been on
psychology long enough for you to notice, it must be mighty
confused." In a typical lightning change, she asked, "Can we
go?"
"Go?" Gabriel said innocently, watching the line of her jaw,
the way her cheeks curved gracefully.
"It's time to fly."
Gabriel shook his head at her. "Surely you remember the
rules?" he said dryly. "Tomorrow. Unless you want to sit still
while I fly."
"I'll sit here," she said, snuggling breast to breast, legs
wrapped around his waist to keep her from drifting, her head
buried in his shoulder. It left Gabriel with all the work of
anchoring them to the tree.
Gabriel sighed with pleasure and sat quietly, lips resting on
her light hair, right hand roaming her thigh and the soft place
behind her knee, both of his calves hooked under the branch to
hold them on. He whispered into her ear. "Ready to go to
bed?"
She snuggled closer and ran her fingers through his hair.
"Wait a bit. Let me get used to you. You've changed a lot this
time."
Gabriel frowned, and stroked her hair. "I still love
you."
"I love you too." After a while she asked, "You said we had to
do something else. What is it? And why do we have to do
it?"
"It's the damned flares. Daedalus gets all wrung up with
Apollo, and they tangle their magnetic fields, and make flares.
We knew that. You knew that. But they're worse than we thought.
The blasts are directed. The whole project could be stopped dead
if a strong enough flare hits at the wrong time. The Sol-based
flare categorization system stopped at X-an X-class flare is the
worst that happens in Sol system. We've added Y and Z here. We've
seen two Y-class flares in the time we've been monitoring.
Neither of them hit Selene, and of course, most won't. But it
would only take one. Astronaut ran the probabilities, and they're
too damned high. So we have to make a safe place-use the water in
the Hammered Sea as a buffer and build a flare shelter the likes
of which we never even thought of."
She looked him in the eyes. "You're sure it's not just because
you love this kind of engineering so much? You're sure we really
need to do this?"
"I had another idea too. A flare kite ..." Did she think he
loved building Selene so much he'd stall to stay? The question
bothered him, and he made sure to answer her firmly. "Yes, I'm
sure we need to do this."
"So how much time will it add?" Erika demanded.
"Two or three years. Not much in the overall scale of
things."
"It's still a long time."
"I know. There's nothing to be done. You'll just be cold
longer-it won't change the effective time you're awake. At least,
not by much. But it will adjust what you do this shift." He tried
to make light of the delay. "At least, if you want to go with me.
It means a swing out to get a big rock."
"Again? I thought we were done throwing big
rocks!"
"Hey-I made you some rings with one rock throw. This time I'll
make you something safe in case you're on Selene when the big one
hits."
"Make me some antimatter!"
"I know." He tickled her, working to get her mood back up.
"Let's go look around, get you used to the changes on the ship. I
didn't mean to dump my frustrations."
They flew through the garden, Gabriel pointing out changes,
and Erika appreciating and questioning and probing. She found a
new sculpture that surprised them both; a set of strings
suspended from clear material edged in nanopaint that glittered
with color, hues changing with the shifting sounds the
manufactured wind made as it played the strings.
When Erika tired of new sights and led the way to her room,
Gabriel was nearly too tired to make it down the corridor. But of
course, she woke him up expertly.
Afterward, he held her softly and smiled as she drifted off to
sleep.
The next morning, Gabriel slept far later than usual. He woke
and reached for her, and found the bed next to him empty. Erika
stood against the wall, checking ship stats, already dressed in a
tight yellow pressure suit. He asked, "Don't you want breakfast
first?"
"I want to fly."
Gabriel dressed to match Erika. They caught their hair back in
nets, and Gabriel followed Erika up to the docking station, where
Erika's Triumph sat ready in the lock. She had named the
glass ball of a ship to balance that misplaced crater; but she
called the ship Triumph. "It'll remind us of what we have
to do."
All by herself-barring Astronaut-Erika had rebuilt one of the
slow Service Armor configurations to make Triumph.
Fiddling with the LOX and LH engine, she teased it to use a touch
more propellant than it was designed for, adding thrust. She
added range with an extra water tank, and scientific usefulness
with double the normal complement of cameras.
The little ship actually handled better than its unaltered
counterparts. She claimed Astronaut helped her, but the AI
proclaimed that Erika had made all of the design decisions
herself. From the outside, Triumph looked like the twenty
other Service Armors. It was a round glass ball festooned with
robotic arms, just enough interior room for two, guts and
controls visible through a clear hull laced with black carbon
threads so fine they seemed more like smoke than
strength.
Erika climbed into the pilot's scat. Gabriel hung back,
looking, then used his radio. "Hey, that yellow suit makes you
look like a banana in a shake glass."
She refused to answer, pulling wraparound sunshades over her
eyes and gesturing impatiently for Gabriel to climb
in.
Even modified, Triumph was designed only for travel
near John Glenn. Never meant to fly in atmosphere, the
little ship launched simply: the lock opened and Triumph
puffed out, far enough that problems with the initial engine
lightoff couldn't hurt the parent ship.
They dropped into open space from the Insystem Service Pod, a
drum-shaped warehouse as capacious as the city of Aldrin. The ISP
section of John Glenn hadn't been given spin. They had to
fly around it to see details. The arrowhead that made up the
front cone of John Glenn protected smaller vehicles
clamped to the forward rim of the ISP. Erika took them through a
forest of tugs and miners, avoiding tall spikes of attachment
legs and huge deflated bags that mining or scooping trips would
fill with volatiles. She flew so close and fast that Gabriel
reached out to balance himself more than once.
John Glenn was large enough to fool the eye into seeing
a horizon. Erika took them toward it, curving around the giant
ISP cylinder. Blue and gold and white rings rose like a rainbow,
and then the orb of the planet Harlequin itself. She flew them as
far from the ship as she dared and shook her fist at Harlequin,
screaming, "I WILL leave you," into her
mouthpiece.
Gabriel hesitated, thinking of Selene. But he joined her, and
they turned it into a chant, and he felt more aligned with his
younger self than he had in years. He didn't tell her so
directly, but after they parked Triumph, he held her to
him, not wanting to let her go.
When they went down the corridor to find breakfast, Erika
shook her hair free of its netting and said, "Now I know
I'm alive."
Chapter 33: Threat
Morning light streamed through the clear greenhouse roof,
illuminating a thousand tiny curves of yellow-green seedlings.
Rachel and Nick tested and poked at the baby plants, making notes
to leave for the students. Three months into her first class,
Rachel was grateful for Nick's help. He came to the school
greenhouse whenever his crew was in town and helped her grade
work.
Rachel examined the unevenly planted sprouts, noting that some
near the edges were broken at the stem. "I don't remember ever
being as sloppy as these kids," she muttered.
"Selene was different then. We had more hope," Nick
said.
Rachel winced. Nick was twice her effective age, and yet she
alone of their graduating class had been allowed to teach. The
rest worked hard, raised families, and did what they were told.
She'd found ways to fit in since coming back, but no ways to
belong. There were so many new tensions.
She sighed. "When I started this class, I hoped it would make
a difference. But look at this work!"
"It's made a difference to me to have you back," Nick said,
smiling at her.
The first students flew over the greenhouse toward the meadow.
"Wish me luck," she said. "Drop in tonight? At Harry and
Gloria's? I promised Gloria her first history lesson, and you
might be interested."
Nick smiled wanly. "Sure," he said. His voice was flat,
unenthusiastic. Maybe we are all different now? she
thought. I can't see myself, after all.
It was the final test day for her first solo class. She would
deliver an opening address before the hard work of testing began.
Her notes matched classes she and Ursula had taught together. The
students were surlier, less excited, and more easily distracted
than Rachel remembered from her own classes. She wanted to fail
half of them for inattention. They wouldn't all pass, and that
worried her.
Shane had planned to come and help today, but he'd called to
postpone. A crew had rolled a planter onto its side trying to
back down a small hill. He'd promised that he or Star would make
it back to help her announce the results.
She glanced around the meadow to be sure she was alone, then
spoke quietly into the air. "I'm scared."
"I know," Astronaut responded, its voice speaking softly
through the Library bud.
"Do you get scared?" Rachel asked.
"I feel concern about negative outcomes. I do not undergo
metabolic changes."
"You're being your usual certain self," Rachel complained.
"How about if you tell me if you think you
get scared."
"What do I risk by teaching you?"
They might wipe Astronaut's mind, or edit it down to the level
of a planter combine's autopilot. "Are we safe?"
"Treesa's on duty." Cryptic reassurance that the garden woman
was awake and applying her skills to make small changes in the
data flow, masking conversations between Rachel and Astronaut,
sometimes hiding Rachel's talks with others. Treesa had little
confidence in her work if someone looked closely. Even on Selene,
the information flow was too rich for Treesa and her programs to
handle every possible camera and sensor. Astronaut had no rights
that would let him change data. He helped by steering Treesa to
the most important data flows. Rachel spared little worry that
Shane or Star had time to watch her, but idle eyes watched Selene
constantly aboard John Glenn.
She pushed her fears way. Lessons with Astronaut were a
nightly ritual. She had moved into her own small home near the
greenhouses, ostensibly to tend the student greenhouses on off
days. Treesa and Astronaut had convinced her she needed to begin
teaching others. Her own fears were nothing compared to her fear
that Council would fuel their ship and abandon Selene. What if
she lost the rich resources of John Glenn, lost Gabriel
and Astronaut and Treesa?
Treesa and Astronaut had Rachel studying Joan of Arc, Mohandas
Gandhi, Martin Luther King, and Hitler. Treesa had told Rachel
she needed to understand the impact a single individual could
have. Rachel understood that they had all died
violently.
Rachel, Nick, and Harry and his family often met and talked
about ways to gain more freedom. She would begin with education,
with her opening talk for testing day. Her speech didn't break
any rules she'd been told about. Shane and Star wouldn't like it,
but they wouldn't be back until later that afternoon, when it was
time to announce results.
Ali had perched on this same dais to lecture Rachel's
graduating class. Rachel sat cross-legged before her fifteen
students. She had thought about what to say, had talked to
Astronaut and Treesa about it, but now her mouth was dry and it
was hard to start. She licked her lips, swallowed, and said, "We
are important. What we do here on Selene is important. We are
building a home."
Half the class watched her closely. Some boys in the back were
whispering to each other. She raised her voice. "I know it seems
like we are working only for Council. We do their bidding, and in
turn they feed us and clothe us-"
One of the boys in the back, Sam, raised his hand. He had been
trouble all along, and his surliness reminded her of Andrew.
Ignore him? "Sam?"
Belligerently, "We don't have any other choices. No one gives
us any."
Rachel remembered Treesa's words. "We do have choices. We can
choose how we react. Even better, we can work smarter than they
expect us to. We can ask questions. We can learn as much as
possible, and show them how smart we are."
Sam interrupted, "Council doesn't listen to
us."
He was right. But why? "When they give us opportunities to
teach and learn, we can ask questions. We don't ask enough
questions even of ourselves. We accept whatever we're told. But
we-all-every one of you has learned more about what we're doing
just by being in this class."
"Asking questions isn't going to help," Sam said. She heard
not belligerence now, but frustration. "They never listen to us.
Even most of the Earth Born won't answer
questions."
"Sam, let me finish. Council has a problem. There aren't
enough of them to do everything here. They need us to help. They
will never say so. But some of us have been doing the math.
Council can't meet their goals if they don't use more of us to
run teams. We have to be ready. We have to learn well, and work
hard, and show them that we can do more than they let us do
now."
Sam had turned away from her and was whispering to his
friends. Rachel kept talking. It was important for her to have
control, but at least some of the Children must understand what
she was telling them.
"I've seen how much some of you have learned. One way to learn
more is to watch. Be careful, be smart. I'm taking the top three
students with me into the field for two days. I hope that those
of you in that group will think about what I've said, and be
willing to talk about how to make ourselves more useful to
Council while we're gone. Not for Council's sake, but for our
own. We are the Children of Selene." She noticed which students
listened. It was enough ... a beginning. Maybe it would make some
of them think.
She moved the class on to final testing. There were no student
plots to review; Rachel wasn't allowed the extended curriculum
Gabriel had used with her.
The afternoon passed, the students with their heads down over
their pads. Rachel set them playing and carefully graded
everything, watching constantly for Shane or Star. She stood on
the edge of the field watching the students. They were restless,
watching her.
Rachel sighed and climbed onto the dais, doing her best to
look official. She called the students over to give them final
scores. She'd agreed to this role, but she didn't like it. Not
unsupported. Shane or Star should be here.
"First, the top three students are Beth Rachel, Kelly, and
Eric." Then she read off a list that included all but three of
the other students. "All of you did well enough to pass, although
some of you barely squeaked by. That means Shane or Star will
assign you to work crews. But in the meantime, you've got three
days off."
The children got up and left, all except Sam, Rudy, and
Antonia. Beth waited at the edge of the field, and Rachel
gestured to her to stay. It made her feel a little better to have
Beth waiting for her. She looked around for any sign of Shane or
Star. This speech was as hard to start as her first one had been.
"Sam, Rudy, and Antonia. I'm sorry, but you three simply didn't
do enough of the work to pass. You may petition Shane or Star to
take the class again, or you can join the planting crews as
failed students, which means you won't get very good job
assignments. I'd suggest the first choice, but I can't speak for
Shane or Star, and I don't know what they'll let you
do."
Antonia stood up and left, walking fast, as if she didn't want
Rachel to see she was disappointed. Sam and Rudy looked at each
other and stood up slowly. Sam glared at her, not moving, not
saying anything. Rachel tensed for a problem. She breathed out a
slow sigh of relief when they turned and walked away. They didn't
look back at her, but she heard an angry edge to their words as
they talked to each other, even though she couldn't tell what
they were saying.
Beth and Rachel walked back from the test with the light
falling to gray, talking about how to pack gear into small packs
they needed for the trip.
Trees at the side of the path rustled and Sam and Rudy stepped
in front of them, barring their way. Sam's eyes darted around,
looking for other people, and then he focused on Rachel, letting
his rage show.
Rachel stopped and said, "Beth, why don't you go on, and head
home to get your gear packed."
Beth's voice quivered, but she said, "No, I'll wait for
you."
Rachel stayed quiet, forcing the boys to take the offensive or
leave.
Sam glared at her. "You're not supposed to be here. We don't
want you to be our teacher." Rudy said nothing but stood behind
Sam, arms crossed. Sam continued. "You should have passed me. If
you were really one of us, you would have passed me. It's not
right to pretend you're on our side, and then betray us. You need
to-to go back to John Glenn. We don't need your kind
here."
"My kind? There's only one of me, Sam." It dawned on her that
John Glenn's spin gravity had made her stronger than he
was. One blow would knock him sprawling. Was he
armed?
"I believe I'm a lot like you." She was pleased that her voice
sounded strong. "You know we're watched," she
warned.
"Council doesn't bother to watch much," Rudy said from behind
Sam.
Sam pressed on. "If you were like us, you'd be the same age as
our parents. You're almost like Council." Sam drew himself up,
looking more confident now that he'd gotten most of his message
out. He finished by repeating himself. "You don't belong. Go live
forever somewhere else. We didn't ask you to come teach
us."
"She does too belong!" Beth's voice was stronger, although she
remained behind Rachel.
"Sam, you get your wish. I won't teach you. Don't ever come
back to my class. Excuse us," Rachel said, taking Beth's hand and
stepping toward the pair.
Rudy moved next to Sam, removing any chance the women had of
snaking past the young men. "Not until you agree that you don't
belong here." His voice was edgy, and Rachel checked her wrist
pad. Yes, it was sending to Astronaut and Treesa.
Sam reached toward her.
Chapter 34: Fighting Words
Rachel sidestepped, trying to watch Sam and Rudy at the same
time. She heard a sharp intake of breath from
Beth.
A new voice spoke from the side of the path. "Sam, is that
what you want?"
Sam stopped in midstride. His hand fell to his
side.
"They'll bring more newly warmed Earth Born to help guide and
teach you. I'd have thought you had enough of that already." The
speaker, a tall man about Nick's age, stepped onto the path
between Sam and Rachel.
Sam immediately lost the defiance in his voice. "Hhh-hello,
Andrew."
Rachel would have known him anywhere. The cold anger on his
face looked just like it did the last time she saw him, defiant
and tough and confident.
Andrew's eyes flicked toward Rachel. "Tell him why you failed
him."
She didn't want to follow Andrew's orders-she had to retain
control of the situation somehow or she'd never succeed with Sam
or Rudy. "He knows. Sam can tell you how much he studied, or
not."
No one responded. Rachel used the moment to study Andrew. He
was thin and tall, and muscles stood out in cords along his neck
and arms. A scar snaked down the side of his left arm. He still
wore metal armbands. His hair was cropped short. With a start,
she realized that Andrew had grown into an attractive man. He was
much more physically powerful than most Children. A moment ago,
she had expected to outface the two students. Now, she didn't
know what to do. She focused her gaze on Andrew's
face.
"Well," he said, "aren't you happy to see an old
friend?"
Rachel stepped backward, pushing Beth Rachel behind her
again.
Andrew looked at Sam and Rudy, and said, "Don't ever
let me catch you bothering Rachel again. Leave
us."
They vanished into the brush.
Rachel heard footsteps crunching on dry leaves and caught
herself wishing they hadn't gone. Andrew worried her more than
Sam and Rudy.
Beth spoke from behind her, sounding happy. "Hi, Andrew,
thanks. They were being bullies again. They make me so mad
when they act like that! I don't know what they have against
Rachel."
Andrew spoke gently to the younger girl. "Rachel has more
power than they do, and they don't understand her. When I was
Sam's age, I used to get mad at her too."
What did he mean? "Sam reminds me of you," Rachel
said.
"I was like Sam." His voice sounded tight, controlled, and
this time when he looked at her she saw naked longing. It scared
her. What did he want?
His voice was oddly gentle as he said, "Run along, Beth-I need
to talk to your namesake."
Beth smiled hesitantly at Rachel, but she obeyed Andrew as
quickly as Sam and Rudy had, walking away down the middle
of the path. She looked back once, as if to say "It's
okay," and then she rounded a bend and was gone.
Rachel was alone with Andrew. Why did everyone, even Beth, do
what he wanted?
He looked at the ground, shifted, and finally looked back up
at her, searching her eyes for something he didn't seem
to find. "I'm sorry. I've owed you this a long time. A
real apology. I replanted the tree, Rachel, but it died. I
didn't mean for the tree to die-I asked Harry to tell you that.
It would have been just a joke if the tree hadn't died."
His eyes bored into hers, deeply black and intense. He
seemed to be waiting for something more, and then he just said,
"Rachel, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for all of the things I was to you,
and to everyone. I... I missed you when you were gone. I didn't
come find you right away, because I didn't expect you to come
back the same age as when you left."
"I don't know what to say."
"You could say thank you for stopping Sam and Rudy, or thank
you for apologizing."
It was flat, but she said it, "Thank you."
"They won't bother you any more. I would have told them
earlier, but I just found out a few days ago that you were here,
that you're alive."
Rachel stepped back, increasing the distance between them a
little.
"I'm glad you're alive," he said. "I thought they'd lied to
us."
"They froze me." It seemed an inadequate thing to say. "It was
an accident. Sort of."
"The kind of accident that happens when nobody gives a
shit?"
Rachel didn't answer, because he was right.
"Does it make you one of the Council? Did you get any of the
powers they have? Will you live forever? You are the only one of
us who's even seen how they live-what they have. It should be
ours too. But they use us to do the hard work, they tell us
nothing, and they don't give us anything-important-to
do."
Rachel couldn't find an answer. They stood awkwardly, looking
at each other.
"I'm glad you're teaching again," Andrew said.
"Me too." She was cautious.
"Follow me," Andrew said, taking off down the path. "I need to
talk to you."
Rachel hesitated, but after all, Andrew had intervened
with the younger boys. She was recording. Andrew couldn't know
how good her tech was. Astronaut knew where she was all the time.
She glanced at her wrist: she had an hour before she was supposed
to be at Harry and Gloria's.
Andrew led her into the trees, finally sitting down where
branches and leaves folded over their heads and hid the sky.
Rachel stayed standing, wanting to be able to leave
easily.
Andrew's face was shadowed, a silhouette. "I don't want to be
overheard," he said. "I know they can find out anything, but they
haven't gotten me in trouble for things I've said when they can't
see me. So when I need to talk about something important, I go
where I can't see them, and it seems like they don't see
me."
He fell silent for a moment.
Rachel didn't tell him that they were hidden by more
sophisticated means. Astronaut and Treesa surely knew that she
shouldn't be seen with Andrew.
Andrew continued. "Rachel, we have to make Council leave us
alone, and quit telling us what to do. I've been working with
some of the students for a few years, telling them what I know
about Council. We have to find a way to act against the
Council."
Rachel thought again of Sam and Rudy leaving just because
Andrew said so, doing his bidding so easily. What was he up to?
"How do you plan to change things?"
He was silent for a moment. Then he shrugged. "I don't know.
We slow things down sometimes. Mostly we act as stupid as they
think we are, and we learn what we can and share it. But that's
nothing. We have to plan something more-but I don't know what to
do yet." Some of the bravado had leaked away. "But I do know
what's happening to us isn't okay. They need us, so we have a
lever; we just have to find a way to use it. Help me find it? I
need you." He looked up at her, and again she saw that naked
plea. "I need what you know; you have more contact with Council
than any of us."
He scrambled to his feet, so his eyes were even with
hers.
She wasn't ready to give him any information. "You can't act
directly against them, Andrew. You of all people should know
that. They could ... they could just let us die off and start
over. They could kill us all. I've read about wars, about people
fighting people, and we don't have the resources to fight
Council. They have what we need, Andrew, but there is no way we
can take it by force. Our only hope is to educate ourselves
enough, become useful enough-"
"Helping them won't change the balance of
power."
"It might," she insisted. "Rebelling won't-it can't work. Why
act stupid? You can't act stupid and get respect. I told my
students the same thing today."
"I heard you." Now Andrew looked at the ground. "It was a good
talk. But talk can't change anything. We're treated like balky
tools. They make us work, but they don't trust us to do anything
real. Heck, they don't trust me at all. I'm a symbol for
them. But I earned that. You haven't earned anything but
trust-but do they trust you? Do they?"
"Some of them do," Rachel said.
"Do they?" Andrew repeated.
"I'll earn more trust." Rachel's words sounded naive, even to
her. Andrew was voicing her own feelings about Council. But force
wouldn't-couldn't-work. "You haven't seen their resources,
Andrew."
"Rachel, we have to act. You can help me. We can work
together. You and I can force them to treat us differently, to
tell us more, to let us stay young and healthy, like
them."
She shook her head, worried about how militant he sounded. "Of
all people, you should know that they see everything we
do."
"I do know that." After a few moments he said, "They can't
hear everything. They don't have time. Some risks have to be
taken. I ... we ... can't trust the Earth Born any more than
Council. We're all you can trust, Rachel: the Children of
Selene. You have to see that."
The last edges of twin shadows winked into darkness. "I have
to go," she said, and stood and started back the way they
came.
"Cut your hair," he said to her retreating back. "You look
almost like one of them. The only difference is that you're
taller."
Her braid hung past her shoulders. She'd made today's
decoration for it herself, out of dried twigs and leaves. She
brought a hand up and fingered the braid rings, and when she
looked, he was gone. She liked her hair, and she wasn't about to
cut it because he said so. She answered himback, loud enough that
if he was watching her from nearby he could hear. "No, Andrew, I
won't cut my hair."
She had so many more questions. How long had he been watching
her? How come she hadn't seen him? How much did the Children
listen to him?
THAT NIGHT, at Harry and Gloria's, she started telling Gloria
and Harry and Dylan and Beth and Nick about history and rights.
She touched on King, the American Black civil rights leader, and
Gandhi who led India's freedom movement from an oppressive and
more technologically astute British society, Spartacus, the
leader of the failed slave rebellion in Rome, and Agnes
Redflower, who fought to save the Northwest forests in 2100. No
one took notes. There was little discussion.
Afterward she sat out on the roof of her little house and
wondered what Gabriel was doing, and if Kyu was flying through
the garden aboard John Glenn, or frozen and lost to her.
"Astronaut, Treesa," she used her subvocal skills, "I'm going to
tell Gabriel that I'm teaching more than he told me to. I won't
tell him everything."
Astronaut replied, "It could be dangerous."
"I know. But if I only tell him a little, then I won't really
be lying to him, and I won't get in trouble if I get
caught."
"I advise against it," the AI said.
Treesa chimed in. "Rachel, I think it would be better if you
don't tell him anything. Not yet. Wait awhile."
Rachel stared up at the expanse of stars. She remembered
looking into the same starscape with Ursula and Harry. Those
nights might have happened to someone else
entirely.
I might have married Harry, she thought, and then it
would have all been so much easier, and there would be someone
here to talk to.
"I remember," she said, "something about making my own
decisions."
Chapter 35: Fetching Refuge
It took Gabriel and Erika three years to choose their target.
Selene itself was built from Harlequin's moons and a handful of
icy asteroids found in LaGrange orbits. Apollo's inner system was
nearly empty. All of the useful masses were out beyond
Harlequin's orbit. That included threemore gas giant worlds and
their moons, a sparse scattering of asteroids, and the
comets.
Gabriel's probes had done their work tens of thousands of
years ago. The most interesting bodies had drifted a bit. Gabriel
sent four probes to the most likely asteroids. He wanted a metal
mass with some carbonaceous material. Some bodies were no more
than a jumble of loose gravel; best to avoid anything with too
much ice. The machines circled them and sent back photos and
spectroanalysis; landed, and analyzed what they landed on. The
best choices were farther away than Council wanted, but
everything else was too small, too big, too loose, too icy. In
the end the probes fired nanobots into a dark nickel-iron
lump.
High Council debated the wisdom of the trip. Even though the
captain and Clare both supported the idea, the asteroid, already
dubbed "Refuge," would take a full Earth year of ship's time to
retrieve, and another to get back. Like everything else on the
Selene project, necessity won over sentiment; delays were
accepted. Shane and Star reluctantly agreed to stay on Selene
still longer, although they barked about getting
old.
Erika piloted; Gabriel crewed. They took one of the three huge
pusher tugs, the Diamond Mine. The squat round tug was
towed a distance away from John Glenn by one of the
smaller ships in its class, the Medium Miner Ruby Blues.
Wayne Narteau piloted the Ruby Blues, and wished them luck
as they broke away and lit their fusion engine. Diamond
Mine dove deep into Harlequin's gravity well, made its burn,
and was on its way toward Apollo.
Space flight offered privacy unknown aboard John Glenn
itself. Communication was regular, but there would be no
continuous stream of video unless the Diamond Mine or
John Glenn declared an emergency. As they separated from
John Glenn, the communications lag grew. Aboard the
Diamond Mine, Gabriel and Erika had more privacy than
anyone except High Council ever experienced.
The first weeks were simple, punctuated with few requirements
except exercise and astronomical observations as they dove
relentlessly, directly, at Apollo. Erika and Gabriel put the easy
start to largely physical use, making love in every way they
could remember.
Gabriel began to relax. The stress of running the Selene
project slowly melted away, lost in the vast empty space between
Harlequin and Daedalus. He was excited-even though he had flown
this tricky path four times, every approach left him feeling some
of the edgy fear that had defined his first fall toward Daedalus.
Ten Jupiter masses and more than three times Jupiter's volume,
from this distance Daedalus remained no more than a dark red dot
in front of Apollo. Dark lenses and a squint allowed it to look
like a huge sunspot.
Orbiting just beyond the sun's Roche limit, Daedalus
destabilized the entire inner system. It snarled its magnetic
webs with Apollo's, drawing flare activity from the small sun,
throwing great storms of plasma around, sometimes all the way
past Harlequin. Daedalus had eaten every mass near it short of
Apollo itself. There was rain on Daedalus-molten
iron.
Still, for now it was far enough away that Gabriel could think
of other matters: Erika, and Selene. The bloated gas giant would
occupy him completely soon enough.
Erika lit the fusion engines for the final
burn.
During the next few weeks Daedalus's image grew larger. It
became distinct from Apollo, gained shape, gained size. Daedalus
was bigger than Harlequin, and much hotter, almost a sun itself,
with its own sluggish internal fusion reactions. Harlequin's neat
shock-wave diamond patterns were roiled to chaos in Daedalus's
storms. They watched smaller storms nibbling at the edges of a
whorl as big as Uranus.
Erika and Gabriel grew minutely but inexorably heavier as the
ship's acceleration increased. Gabriel hated this part-feeling
slow and large and awkward while they rocketed toward something
his hindbrain couldn't identify as anything but a
threat.
"We're faster this time, aren't we?" he asked.
"Medical said you could take six gee."
"What are you taking us to?"
"Six point two."
Gabriel snorted.
Hours before the closest approach to Daedalus, they suited up,
installed filtered water and vitamin food mixes inside their
psuits, and strapped themselves into viewing bay couches. Erika
thought cabins were entirely too wimpy-and fear had always lured
her, a magnet that pulled the best from her. She was enough the
careful ship's captain to have them in a safe place in case
unexpected course corrections were needed, but crazy enough to
love the danger. Gabriel watched her cheeks flush and her eyes
brighten as they came closer. She'd piloted him around Daedalus
twice before, and always she was daredevil happy, sharp, precise,
and very alive. Even in a bulky suit, Erika had grace. But only
her forearms and fingers moved, because thrust was flattening
them both.
Erika filled the view screen with images of the gas giant, so
it was all they could see, all of their world. This close,
Daedalus dwarfed them to a sand grain blown past a fiery beach
ball. The planet showed alarming detail, eddies visible inside
storms inside bands of separated gases. A small mistake in
trajectory would throw them into it, and the Diamond Mine
would never crawl from the gravity well of the gas giant before
it was torn apart.
Gabriel held his breath, only briefly afraid.
And at last, at peri-Daedalus, they blew the fireball in their
engine into space in one mighty puff. Six point two gee, and then
they were falling free, almost weightless, the ship stressed a
bit by Daedalus's tides. They were in Daedalus's shadow. The
receding gas giant was a black circle behind them, rimmed with
Apollo's corona.
Their course gradually straightened, and Gabriel began to feel
safe. Erika started the navigation program calculating the small
course adjustments they'd need to intersect Refuge based
on their actual trajectory after slinging away from Daedalus. The
gas giant slowly stole back some of the speed it had given
them.
In Sol system they would have called it a KBO, a Kuiper Belt
Object. The lump was a flattened and battered spheroid, black
except for a shiny blister forming on one side. Invisibly small
nanobots were spreading out across that face. Gabriel and Erika
sprayed a barrier strip around the object's waist, before they
did anything more ambitious.
The barrier would deny the nanobots access to one side of
Refuge: the "down" side. From this point Diamond Mine
would work only with the "down" side.
They hooked the object easily. It was a skill Gabriel and Ali
had practiced over and over, bringing volatiles from dead comet
heads, and minerals and more mass from chondrite asteroids, to
blanket Selene. Erika too had helped, staying with him through
two back-to-back shifts before plunging into a thousand-year
sleep.
The body that would become Refuge was much bigger than even
the huge Diamond Mine. Gabriel felt like a bacterium
driving an ant home with a walnut clutched in its pincers. The
rock face of the asteroid-the side that would become Refuge's
underside-jutted across the space in front of them, a wall they
butted against and held on to, directed and pushed. Regular
slight adjustments gave Diamond Mine the queasy feel of a
carnival ride.
On the unseen "up" face of the asteroid, nanobots worked
tirelessly. Gabriel sent out an occasional probe to look. Erika
preferred to ignore it all, as if the rock had developed an
unsightly disease. She didn't trust
nanotechnology.
A glass pupil was forming on the up side of Refuge, larger
every time he looked. Lumps and mounds and cracks and craters
were disappearing into its edges. It all happened with
excruciating slowness, but it happened. If it got out of hand,
they'd drop the rock and start over elsewhere; but that could
cost them a quarter century.
The worst problems were being cooped up with only each other
for so long. Two years was a long time to be separated from the
usual richness of data flow. Gabriel and Erika went from stormy
and passionate to deep and soft, from lightly angry to charming,
and back again. They'd done this before, and they pushed the
cycles faster for fun, playing with the sweetness of being secure
enough to argue. Still, it was a long year. Diamond Mine
was bigger outside than it was inside.
One morning as they neared Harlequin, they woke together from
a rare shared nap: Erika looked Gabriel directly in the face and
said, "This has been too easy."
"I know." Gabriel had learned to trust Erika's gut feelings,
and he immediately felt her unease.
They spent the whole day looking for problems. Everything was
perfect. Gabriel sat up that night while Erika slept. He watched
her toss and turn, and knew the day's faultless results hadn't
stilled her fears. He made himself stop looking at readouts and
just enjoy the star field. He stretched, letting himself fall
into the vastness of their surroundings just as he did when he
traveled to John Glenn from Selene.
Diamond Mine: all systems nominal. Refuge: the nanos
hadn't touched the "down" face. The other side was rising as a
smooth dome of carbon woven into diamond. The structure had
become a flattened cone, honeycombed within.
As they neared Harlequin, Gabriel trained cameras on the
asteroid defenses at Moon Fifteen. They were quiet, and
everything looked normal. Robots moved around at the usual high
speeds; routine. Programming recognized Diamond Mine even
with Refuge attached, and responded. Check: they weren't about to
be fragged by a linear accelerator.
They were close enough to see Selene, but not to resolve
details. He turned on various lenses and imaging types randomly,
looking for anomalies. A message came from John Glenn
before he knew what he was looking for, and then he went to
thermal imaging and his breath slammed into his belly. A spot of
brightness that shouldn't be there glowed as Aldrin rotated into
night.
Fire. He swore. He closed his eyes, and trembled, angry and
afraid. Fire could devastate Selene.
"How?" Erika asked from behind him.
"You know Selene has a higher oxygen mix?"
"I thought the lower gravity compensated? The air mix is
rarefied."
"It should. Something happened. This isn't something anyone
has done before, after all. Maybe enough plants drove the oxygen
percentage up just enough, or maybe we guessed wrong at some
initial parameter." He slammed his fist down, carefully avoiding
any control surface. "I need to be there."
"We're too far away," she said. "Relax."
"That's my world burning up down there. I need to get
to John Glenn. I can do some good from there." And my
students, he thought. Burning.
She reached around him from behind and gave him a hug. "You've
done the best you can with Selene, Gabe. You've done wonderfully.
Let's just hope this doesn't put us off schedule."
Gabriel winced, but he put his hands over hers and squeezed.
"I just... I hope ... I hope it doesn't all burn."
"I know. You've got hours to wait before you can even try for
the ship." Her eyes looked as worried as he felt.
"You'll finish bringing Refuge in?"
"If you wait long enough to give me some safety margin before
you leave me here. This is a lot of kinetic energy we're playing
with!"
She isn't landing the damn thing, he thought. Refuge
will have to be sterilized first. She'll take it into close
orbit. No big deal.
There weren't enough resources on Selene to fight a fire
there. Gabriel watched for physical traffic between John
Glenn and Selene; for some sign that Council had seen what
had to be done and was going down to the surface to help. The
fire looked tiny, but Gabriel measured it at three thousand acres
or more. A tenth of the jungle planted so far. He hated the
two-second communications delay: a universal stutter. He
paced.
There was a fast light Lander stored in a bay of the miner.
Good enough to get him to John Glenn. It took a long time
to get close enough to Harlequin, and Selene, to use it.
Gabriel gave the commands that would release it and kissed Erika
hard on the mouth. He strapped his suit closed with one hand as
he pulled himself toward the bay.
Part III: Fire
60,294 John Glenn shiptime
Chapter 36: Fire
The bones of a cieba Hashed eerily, a silhouette, black inside
fire. Rachel crouched at the edge of a clearing, watching the
tree burn. It was brighter in dying than in life. Then little
remained for the flames to eat, and what crashed to the ground
was white-hot, still shaped like a tree, still wreathed in bits
of fire, until it was only white ash in the outline of a tree.
Wind pulled at what remained, scattering once-solid trunk and
branch.
Fire advanced slowly toward Rachel, licking the low grass.
Farther away, it rushed through the fuel-rich jungle on either
side of the clearing. She kept looking back to watch. Run, pause,
run. If she wasn't careful, it would circle closed behind
her.
She ran.
Heat was a physical force pushing Rachel from both sides,
herding her. The smell of death and flame and smoky danger
thickened the air. The fire was noisy: pops and flashes and
keening chaotic winds.
The sounds of fire fell behind her, obscured by straining
engine noises and snapping tree trunks, and Rachel finally knew
she had outrun immediate death. She stopped, panting, breathing
sweet cool air deeply into her seared lungs. In front of her, a
pair of fifty-foot-long planting machines crushed young trees,
pushing them aside to make wide cleared spaces. Smoke curled
everywhere.
Justin, one of her half brothers, darted in and handed her
water. Rachel drank deeply, watching the fire approach. Here, a
hundred meters away, the heat was still palpable. Sweat ran down
her bare skin. She shook a fist at the fire and turned, jogging
to catch up with the trailing planter and join her crew returning
to base.
She'd never seen uncontained fire. There was no place for it
on Selene nor aboard John Glenn. It tore her breath from
her, filled her with adrenaline and fear, made her want to run,
and run, and run. It was fast, hot enough to suck the moisture
from trees as it approached, turning damp rain forest to tinder
in the time it took to breathe.
They had been too slow. The fire funneled through gaps, leaped
over the second set of hard-won firebreaks. Rachel wiped sweat
and tears away from her eyes as she jumped onto a
maintenance shelf on one of the planters, holding on to a
makeshift safety rope as the planter rumbled away from the fire
line. Sweat poured down her face. Every vein and membrane was an
internal desert. Her stomach hurt.
It was the end of the second full day of firefighting. Order
slowly rose out of chaos. Training happened in stolen moments of
shift briefings. Firefighters rose and slashed and hacked and
fled and started over. After each shift, they fell onto thin cots
at base camp, asleep while their livelihoods burned around
them.
Rachel was responsible for a full crew. Nick was with Rachel;
Harry and Gloria supported logistics at base camp. Star ran a
team on the other shift. Shane commanded, using data feeds from
John Glenn to visualize locations of fire and crew. Rachel
didn't think Shane slept.
She half dozed as they rode to safety, so tired that even the
whining of the engine faded behind the nightmares running through
her head. Fire raced through trees, consuming them greedily,
turning life to ash. The flash the first time flames jumped
lines, hesitating for just a moment before leaping across the
pitifully narrow road surface.
Rachel had been first to see fire. Even from a distance, when
it was a small thing, she knew it was bad. She'd sent panicked
open messages to John Glenn, and after the first hour,
Kyu's voice was steady in her ear, relaying commands from Shane
and urging calm. A lifesaving voice.
Kyu involved Astronaut immediately. Astronaut calculated the
inferno's speed as it created its own terrible weather and ran
through the dry underbrush fueled by Selene's thick atmosphere.
Astronaut's predictions constantly ran behind the fire's actual
movement. Centuries of fighting fire on Earth hadn't prepared
anyone for a fire with ten percent more oxygen in the
air.
The planter bucked as they rolled over a rock, and she snapped
awake. Her grip tightened on the rope. It cut into her hand, so
she wrapped her handkerchief around her right palm with her teeth
while her left hand clutched the rope. Then she switched hands.
Her left hand curled into a claw from holding her body against
the machine, but she was so tired she felt
nothing.
They pulled into base camp. Dylan ran toward her. He pulled
her hand free of the rope, steadying her as she found her legs.
She looked around and spotted Beth, Harry, and Gloria. She worked
at her closed hand, and pain shot up her arm. She closed her
eyes, swaying with exhaustion.
Dylan supported her on the short walk to her tent. She
squeezed his hand in thanks, and he put an arm around her. They
watched the eerie jumping firelight for long silent moments
before she crawled into her tent.
Then she reached outside and pulled him in with
her.
She'd thought this through in such intricate detail, all the
reasons not to, and firmly decided against.
He wasn't sure what she wanted and he didn't want to ask. She
showed him: kissed him hard, then stripped off his shirt. He bent
double, cramped in the tiny tent, and they worked around each
other to get their boots off, giggling softly. Dylan was willing
... but he still wasn't sure. She was an icon, and he might
misinterpret. She crawled on top of him, long bodies in full
contact.
If there were cameras on the tent, what was happening inside
would be pretty obvious.
She was at the edge of sleep when she heard him say, "Dad's
not going to like this."
"No," she said. Would Gabriel? And Council... what would they
think, with their casual attitude toward age? Don't tell,
she thought, but cameras were watching the holocaust, and anyway,
Dylan was out like a light.
Six HOURS LATER, Rachel sat with Star and Dylan and three
other crew bosses while ash fell around them like snow, sticking
in their hair until they were white and pale, blotched with the
wrong colors in the bare dawn light. Nearly a hundred
firefighters made a loose circle around the crew chiefs. Most
sat. A few stood and stamped their feet, or stretched tired arms.
A hundred more were out fighting the fire. Children walked
between the adults handing out water, bread, and
fruit.
She noticed that people grouped themselves randomly. All able
hands were somehow involved. Even Andrew simply worked with a
crew. He sat in the back, watching her. She sighed. He was always
there, always wanting something. She took Dylan's hand, making
sure Andrew could see the gesture.
There was no apparent separation between Earth Born and Moon
Born. Shane and Star and three other Council sat with everyone
else. It made Rachel smile, a tiny gain in the middle of the most
horrible thing she had ever known.
Shane addressed them all. "It will stop today," he said. "You
can't see it yet, can't feel it yet, but our victory is coming.
The Sea Road will stop it. Everything on the other side will be
safe." The crowd went quiet, and Shane raised his voice. "So
today, we have to save Aldrin and Teaching Grove."
Rachel pictured it. The mature jungle between the fire and the
meadow would burn easily. The meadow was nearly bare enough to be
a firebreak, except flame could creep through the grass and run
along the side through the First Trees and reach Teaching Grove.
From there, it would lick down into Aldrin, stopping only when it
encountered bare regolith on the far side of town.
Shane continued. "We're in the way. Base camp is moving in
forty minutes. We need firebreaks to funnel the fire away from
the First Trees, into the meadow, where we can stop it. We can
stop it there. We will stop it there."
A smattering of applause rose up through the ranks. Shane
nodded.
"Dylan and Rachel-you cut the breaks like you did yesterday.
Take crews of three each-we'll need everyone else." Four planters
were still usable. They'd lost two to the fire on day one. The
crews had gotten out with a lesson in how much heat the machines
could stand. "Rachel," Shane called, "you're in charge. You did a
good job yesterday."
Rachel and her crew filed out, clutching extra water, hearing
Shane assign everyone else to moving base camp to the other side
of the Sea Road. Dylan and his crew mixed with them as they went.
Beth and Nick were with Dylan this morning, and another Earth
Born named Richard. Rachel's crew was Kyle, one of the students
she'd taken on excursion a few times, and two Earth Born. Ariel
was a woman Rachel's age, and Bruce was an Earth Born who had
stayed on the surface since the first seeding. He was older than
Rachel's father, nearly seventy, slower than the others, with a
good head on his shoulders and a cheerful willingness to do what
she asked. It was the first time Rachel had seen Earth Born
reporting to Moon Born. Her own status was a necessity of the
fire, and the earbud connection to Kyu that she alone had of all
the Children, but still she was proud of leading that
team.
All four of the machines started. Rachel drove the lead
planter, taking Bruce with her, and Kyle and Ariel followed in
the second planter. As they neared the meadow, Rachel calculated
directional headings for the two machines she commanded. "We'll
take the north route. Dylan can head south."
Shane agreed, followed by Kyu's, "Good luck."
"Dylan," Rachel said, "I'm leaving an open communications
line. Keep talking. Tell me what you see."
"Aye, aye, ma'am."
The plan was to separate into sets of two, driving directly
away from each other, making a firebreak twice the width of a
planter. Then they'd come back toward each other, doubling the
width. If there was time, they'd repeat, scraping closer to the
bare dirt they needed. Finally, they'd join Shane's other
firefighters at the far edge of the meadow to help with a last
battle across the treeless area if necessary. In low grass it
would be easier to keep the flames at bay. If only they had an
efficient way to carry more water.
Rachel winced as they destroyed their own creation, snapping
trunks and pushing the slash to the side. The noise of the
planter's engines overwhelmed voices, forcing radio conversations
even when they were near each other. Ash changed the color of
leaves and gathered in Rachel's mouth so she had to spit it out.
As they finished the first trip out and back, smoke began to blur
the edges of the standing trees.
Kyu's voice sounded in her ear. "It's moving slower today, but
the front is wider. You'll have to be careful not to get caught.
One finger has reached the Sea Road, and it is stopping the
flames."
Their first victory. Rachel smiled in spite of
herself.
She began to taste smoke, and her lungs burned. "Kyu-can we
make a second pass?"
"No-maybe half."
Rachel directed the combined crews to make half the pass
together, toward the First Trees. "Drive in two lines, don't try
to widen the path. We have to move fast." She looked back at
Dylan, a dot driving a huge machine behind her. "We'll keep our
blades high. Dylan, you and Nick set yours lower, see if you can
find dirt."
Halfway through, Kyle and Ariel's planter gave out and the
trailing planter failed to stop, tangling the two machines. With
time, they could have freed them. Everyone scrambled onto the
remaining two machines.
Rachel was the only person besides Star and Shane with com
directly from Kyu. Kyu's voice buzzed firmly in Rachel's ear, but
she didn't quite believe what she heard.
"Come again?"
"Take down the First Trees."
"Repeat?" She couldn't have heard right. The First Trees were
irreplaceable.
"They'll burn."
Shane's voice: "Kyu's right."
Rachel took a deep breath. Of course Kyu was right. There was
no choice. She hated the words as she said them, "We have new
orders. Knock down the First Trees, starting in the middle. Build
a wide enough break the fire won't jump it."
Beth cried out, "No!"
Dylan understood right away. "No choice. Better than
Aldrin."
"Let's go. Keep some distance-I don't want to drop trees onto
you."
Ten minutes later, they were plowing the big machines directly
into the First Trees.
Rachel cried; deep dry sobs. The First Trees! Gabriel had
planted these. She made herself focus, seeing only the next
trunk, the next branch, the next vine. She let Bruce drive, and
she walked, using a machete to strike through lianas, branches,
and low plants. Sometimes the vines were so strong they alone
held trees that had been pushed aside by the planters, and when
she split the vines, they snapped and the trees fell wildly,
crashing down into the underbrush.
Dylan's planter became too tangled in the jungle to move
forward. He and his crew let Rachel know they were doing what
they could by hand. Ten minutes later, screeching sounds of metal
on metal began deep inside the planter Rachel's crew rode, and it
rumbled to a stop.
All six of them were on the ground, hacking, chopping,
smelling smoke. Time seemed to stretch, actions happened in slow
motion. Rachel's back and bicep muscles ached. Her shoulder
blades screamed and her calves trembled. She swung the machete
wildly.
She finally stopped, realizing that she didn't know where
anyone was. The heat had increased, and she heard the pop of fire
and calls of Shane's crew from close by, out in the meadow. She
started moving as fast as she could through the mangled forest,
calling for Dylan and Nick and Beth. They needed to get out into
the open.
Smoke obscured her vision, slowing her and ruining her sense
of distance. She heard the crack of falling trees and the
unwelcome sound of wind, but nothing from a human. Then Bruce's
voice ripped through her radio, almost a scream, "Beth!
Richard!"
Rachel couldn't tell if he was yelling to find them or yelling
about them. "Where are you?"
Kyu's voice: "Go to your right," and then "Rachel-turn
right-they need you." Rachel had turned already, and the
two-second delay between the surface and the ship was driving her
nuts. She couldn't see anything but trees, but she kept going.
Bruce's voice croaked in her ear, not talking to her, talking to
Dylan, "Pull it off, be slow."
She stepped between two standing tree trunks. One of the
tallest trees lay directly across Richard. He was crushed, his
back and neck broken, eyes open. And empty. Dead. Her eyes
scanned the long trunk. Dylan stood farther up, desperately
pulling on a branch, trying to move the huge tree. Beth Rachel
was under it, lying on her stomach, her legs pinned. Rachel ran
toward Dylan, reaching for a hold on the branch, noticing that
Bruce too was down. He sat to the side. His right leg was at an
odd angle. He moaned and tried to stand.
A great unfamiliar noise came from almost directly above them.
Rachel looked up at an hallucination. A spaceship-she'd seen
several like it hanging neatly on the side of John Glenn.
Spaceships glided. This one jerked and yawed. She couldn't take
time to understand.
Her hands wrapped tight around the branch, tugging with Dylan,
adding her strength to his. The tree moved an inch. Not enough.
Beth screamed.
The sound of the ship above them took over, drowning the fire
sounds, killing communication.
Rachel planted her feet, reached farther down on the branch,
closer to the trunk. They pulled again. The downed tree shivered
without moving. Its branches were tangled with other branches,
with vines.
She heard another sound just barely as loud as the spaceship,
audible because it was close. A lake falling. Dylan called,
"Rachel-look!" and she did-she saw a great bladder of water,
bigger than a hundred houses. It bled water in a river over the
rest of the First Trees, and over the meadow. Steam hissed along
the south edge, where water met fire directly. It was
mesmerizing.
She heard Bruce's voice in her ear. "Now,
pull!"
Somehow he was standing on one leg, face screwed up tightly
with pain, grabbing a branch just above them.
They pulled.
The tree moved.
Water fell from the sky near them, a torrent, a hundred feet
away. Branches snapped under the sudden force of
water.
Beth pulled with her arms, inching herself away from the tree
trunk. She was using her torso, eeling forward like a baby, teeth
clenched.
The trunk pulled away from them again, slipping through raw
palms, but by now Beth was on the other side struggling to sit
up. Beth's arms worked, tears made flesh-colored streaks in the
black and white ash covering her face as she pulled and swore at
her trailing legs. Rachel sobbed, clambering over the fallen tree
toward Beth, and then the sounds of crashing metal punched air,
and she stood transfixed, watching a disaster.
The ship came down slowly in the meadow, crunching down, even
the light gravity of Selene breaking things not meant to
experience gravity at all. Metal screeched on metal, louder than
the fire, louder than Kyu's voice that was now yelling with
joy.
The downed ship looked like a giant broken spider. For a
moment, nothing moved.
In the new silence, Rachel heard fire behind
them.
A man emerged from the ship and ran toward them, toward the
fire, screaming Rachel's name.
Gabriel.
He glanced at the fire, taking the whole scene in, scooped up
Beth Rachel, cradled her to him, and gestured for the others to
follow. Rachel and Dylan supported Bruce, and they ran for the
center of the meadow where they found milling chaos, everyone
talking and yelling over each other, pointing at the downed ship
and dancing in the inch of water that covered the
meadow.
Gabriel set Beth down and Dylan and Rachel helped Bruce lower
himself to the ground. As soon as Bruce looked comfortable,
Rachel collapsed between the other two. She looked up at Gabriel.
His eyes were bright with triumph and intent.
He glanced at her briefly. "Stay here-help these two." He
pulled Dylan with him and marshaled Nick and Ariel and others
back to the fire.
She watched until he was gone, then turned to help Beth and
Bruce.
Chapter 37: Aftermath
The ship Gabriel had destroyed to save them three days ago
loomed above Rachel and Beth, dwarfing everything else on Selene.
Legs and manipulators splayed at odd angles. The central core had
been flattened. The huge bladder that Gabriel had filled with
water lay a bit away from the hulk, torn open and useless, edges
flapping in the light wind.
Gabriel and Shane and Star had called everyone into the
meadow, in the largest space still covered with green grass.
Gabriel himself had carried Beth to the meeting. Since the fire,
she couldn't feel anything below her waist, couldn't
walk.
The smell of charred wood hung stubbornly in the air. Looking
away from Aldrin, Rachel winced at the colors; the whites and
blacks of death. Sticks of charred tree trunks rose from ash.
Most of the First Trees were gone or ravaged, burned or knocked
down, exposing the meadow to more light than usual. If she turned
and looked toward town, everything appeared nearly normal, green
and brown, as if the past week hadn't happened. But Rachel felt
Beth's hand in hers, and remembered Beth couldn't follow her
anywhere.
She and Harry and Gloria had spelled each other since the
injury, bringing the crippled girl water and soup and sitting
with her. Her legs were broken things; attached weight that
stubbornly refused to move no matter what she tried. Rachel
thought the only two blessings might be that Beth lived, and she
couldn't feel her legs. Skin had been torn from the backs of her
thighs; one ankle hung wrong. Scatches covered her arms and face.
Star ministered to her every morning and evening. Whatever Star
did helped with the surface pain, but Beth's legs weren't getting
any better. Still, she smiled bravely from time to time, and
didn't complain. Rachel sometimes heard her crying at
night.
Bruce sat across the half-circle from them, wearing a cast on
his lower leg, smiling tiredly. New friendships showed. Dylan,
Bruce, Beth Rachel, Nick, Kyle, and Ariel talked regularly, Moon
Born and Earth Born drawn to each other by the bond forged in the
fire.
"-not age, it's flare damage," Bruce said, then, "Hello,
Rachel. Dylan wanted to know why your people get old faster
than"-thumbs pointing at himself-"this. We're better protected.
Until we get to Selene. Then there's radiation,
fire-"
Rachel look around, gauging expressions. Faces wore a lost
look. Every usual routine seemed compromised, or slow, or hard.
But Aldrin was safe, the student plots stood, Gagarin had never
been threatened, and only three people were dead. Even Rachel's
plot still grew, though damaged by ash and smoke, a symbol of
hope: it had survived Andrew, and now it survived the
fire.
Gabriel shared plans to increase Selene's carbon dioxide,
nitrogen, and trace gases to reduce the oxygen load and to
monitor it more closely. Tolerances would be set lower. But
atmospheric change had to be slow, allowing living things to
adapt. The danger of a runaway oxygen flash fire would remain
great for a while, and would always be worse here than on
Earth.
Shane lectured them: "One problem is the chimney effect.
Gravity's low here. The atmospheric pressure gradient is low too.
Burning gas doesn't rise out of the way fast enough. It sits on
the forest and burns until there's nothing left."
Rachel remembered early lectures. Selene's people would have
to be more watchful. Open flame had never been allowed on Selene.
But fire hadn't obeyed the rules; it had created itself from raw
material. Investigation suggested sparks from a broken steel
plate dragging behind a robotic tiller had started the
fire.
Everyone treated Gabriel as a hero. He'd come from space with
enough power to save them. He hadn't stopped until the fire was
completely out, and he hadn't let anyone else stop either. Rachel
had followed him to patrol the charred remains the day after the
crash. His intense focus scared her. He pointed out white ash
that marked hot spots, kept teams digging and moving dirt by hand
until they were well past exhaustion, and then let them have four
hours of sleep before waking them again.
Everyone worked willingly for Gabriel, hurrying to do anything
he asked. Rachel marveled at power that could drop a spaceship
miner's bladder full of water from the Hammered Sea onto the
meadow. She understood the very real risk that some critical part
of the miner would die before it got to Aldrin, taking Gabriel
with it. He had crash-landed the spacecraft into the meadow on
purpose, sacrificing it, ruining it, digging a firebreak, making
a temporary lake with the largest tool handy. He had been willing
to die for Aldrin.
Rachel was a bit afraid of Gabriel; the power he wielded was
manifest.
She watched him settle onto the dais. All side conversation
stopped, and then Rachel's father, Frank, stood and clapped. Her
half brothers, Jacob and Justin, and little Sarah, all joined
him. Nick stood, then Bruce struggled upright, and others, until
everyone in the meadow stood and clapped.
Gabriel waited for silence to settle on the group again.
"Thank you," he said, "and thanks to everyone who helped stop the
fire. It shouldn't have happened. I'm sorry it happened. Still,
let's use it as a reminder. We-Earth Born, Council, High
Council-we think we know what we're doing. Selene has dangers we
don't understand. We understood fire, but clearly not well
enough. We'll change that. We'll practice fire suppression
regularly, and we'll design firebreaks into the
jungle.
"I've ordered reprogramming of the pods to respond with
stronger warnings when there is unusual heat." Gabriel looked
around, and said, "They warned us this time. They weren't loud
enough to get our attention. We'll change the settings." He
looked over at Rachel and smiled. "And while I could bring a way
to stop the fire, Rachel's quick action was just as important. By
getting the alarm out quickly, she let you all start slowing the
fire as soon as it started."
Rachel's family stood up, clapping. Harry and Gloria followed,
then Nick, Dylan, and finally the whole community. Rachel stood
and tried not to show the tears that threatened to spill onto her
cheeks.
Gabriel continued. "Shane and Star-thank you for your work.
Thank you for running crews and base camp, and helping us all
work together so well."
They came up to the dais and sat with Gabriel. There was more
clapping, although this time the group stayed
seated.
The three Council members recognized Bruce and Dylan for their
rescue of Beth Rachel, all of the logistics team for support, and
ultimately everyone involved for one thing or
another.
The applause and droning voices went on and on. Rachel stopped
listening to every detail, thinking about the feast to follow the
meeting. Unexpectedly, Beth's hand tightened on Rachel's so hard
that shooting pain ran all the way to Rachel's
elbow.
She caught the end of Gabriel's words, "... tomorrow. Shane
and Star will stay, and we'll have plans for replanting
..."
"-I can't leave." Beth's voice was low enough for only Rachel
to hear, and her hand still clutched Rachel's tightly. She looked
at Rachel beseechingly. "Don't let them take me! Don't make me
leave!"
Rachel's head snapped around and she interrupted, "Gabriel.
Gabriel!"
He broke off in midsentence and looked at her.
"Gabriel-what did you say about taking Beth?"
Everyone else looked at her too. She was questioning Gabriel
in front of everyone. She stood up, bent a little sideways since
Beth's hand wouldn't let go of hers. "Why are you taking
her?"
"She needs healing. The tools are up there." He looked
impatient, sounded tired. " You must know that it's the
only way to save her legs."
Rachel blinked. "But... but... when will you bring her
back?"
"I don't know. It could take a while. Be grateful we're giving
her the chance."
The entire clearing had gone quiet.
Rachel cleared her throat, suddenly nervous. "Do you promise
that you won't ice her?"
"I can't promise that." What he wasn't saying sounded clear in
her mind: High Council breaks my promises!
He wouldn't say that in front of the group. What could she do?
She looked around. The assembled crowd watched her, waiting.
Their faces ranged from supportive to blank. No one said
anything.
She pulled her hand free from Beth's so she could stand
upright. She couldn't let him take the girl with no promise of
return.
Beth spoke up raggedly. "I'd rather stay here and be broken
than go away like Rachel, and not come back until my friends are
all grown up."
Harry and Gloria were partway around the assembly from Rachel
and Beth. They stood too, but held their silence and watched.
Gloria held the three-and-a-half-year-old Miriam, who cried
softly. Apprehension began to show in the group's restless
movements.
As often as she'd questioned Gabriel in private, she'd never
been this defiant in public, not to Gabriel, or anybody. She
couldn't risk all of the good feelings the survivors had basked
in throughout the meeting. Selene needed them. Why did she always
get herself in such predicaments?
She fought a quiver in her voice and said, "You're right. Beth
has to go. But then I need to go with her, Gabriel!" She didn't
dare push harder.
Harry spoke up from the side. "Please let Rachel go. It will
be easier for Beth."
Gabriel looked around, frowning. "She is your only full-time
Moon Born teacher."
Rachel wondered it he knew how popular her greenhouse classes
were. Or what she really offered in those classes.
"Please," said Gloria.
Rachel stayed quiet. Quiet had fallen over the whole circle,
the camaraderie swallowed by tension.
Rachel watched Gabriel, waiting for his next words. He'd have
to let her go now, he'd have to. She held her
tongue.
Gabriel sighed. "I'll come for you just before
noon."
Rachel knew better than to signal her triumph in any way, and
she quietly said, "Thank you," and sat down again, both
frightened and pleased.
Gabriel immediately changed the subject to work assignments
for the next few weeks. He didn't give Rachel any, although it
surprised Rachel when Gabriel assigned her teaching duties to
Nick. Maybe he knew more than she thought.
Chapter 38: A Turn of Mind
Ma Liren and the captain shared a bench in the tall grass and
oak savannah. Yggdrasil's branches waved high above them. Garden
programming had created spring conditions, and the rich menthol
tang of mountain mint mixed with the citrus smells of blooming
bergamot. Purple asters clustered at their feet.
Liren breathed in the flowery smells, reveling in the open
expanses of the savannah. The view was a welcome respite from
crowded meeting rooms full of people absorbing the blow of the
fire, preparing to warm a hundred Earth Born to carry the extra
work, and to shift the entire Selene population to a new
location. It was the first break except sleep for either of them
since Rachel's panicked message about the fire six days
ago.
The captain leaned forward, hands steepled above his knees,
apparently lost in thought.
"How much time will the fire cost us?" Liren watched
pollenator bots glide smoothly from aster to aster. They were
tiny, barely visible, like gnats. The ground was littered with
dark specks of failed bots, dead things waiting for other bots to
clean them up. Liren picked one up and rolled it between two
fingertips, feeling the sharp carbon edges. The amount of
mechanization it took to maintain the garden symbolized the tough
choices they'd had to make at every step.
The captain shook his head, coming out of whatever daydream he
had been lost in. "Time loss? For the collider? Not more than a
season. We can get enough food out of Clarke Base; we'll expand
the greenhouses and fields right away. It moves the jungle
planting schedule out, of course. Lots of rework."
He ran his hands through his gray hair. "I've watched feeds of
the firefighters on Selene."
When had he had time in the last few days? When he was
supposed to be sleeping? Damn the man, she could have used more
help with logistics.
"I think perhaps the fire helped us," he said, turning so he
was sitting angled, nearly facing her. "Did you see how hard
everyone worked-together?"
"It was an emergency. People pull together in an emergency.
Teams bond. We can break that up over time, call back most of the
Earth Born, and wake up others. The usual order will be
reestablished as the move happens."
The captain waved his hands in front of her face. "You're not
listening-"
"Yes, I am." She faced him squarely, daring him to avoid her
eyes. He had helped her lay out the original plan! "You want the
big happy family to continue. And you would be right if the end
story were going to be different. But you and I both know what
we're doing-we're leaving the Moon Born here and going
on."
The captain pursed his lips and looked away again. A small
muscle twitched along his jawline. Liren waited. He knew the
situation; they'd championed the original choices together, run
up support, forced the right High Council vote. He would come
around.
When he spoke, his voice was firm and clear. It seemed to
Liren that he was saying something he'd practiced over and over
in his head before giving it an audience. "We made a mistake,
Liren. We're doing this all wrong. We were scared. We ran away
from a world that was being destroyed by AIs, by runaway
nanotechnology. Our creations were killing us. Even the ship went
wrong on us. The only star in range didn't have a decent solar
system, just a sun with a gas giant companion that rains iron,
and nothing in the habitable band. No rocky worlds, no big
moons. Of course we hated this system. We built a
world-"
"We still can't live here. Flares alone will kill us," Liren
said.
"Gabriel's flare kite idea might solve that problem. But
that's not the issue. We left Sol to save something of humanity.
Well, humanity is down there on Selene as well as up
here."
He was too damned soft. She tried an appeal to his logical
side. "Every single simulation says we'll die if we stay in this
system. The only differences in results are how long it will take
to die, and what we'll die of. The sims suggest the human race
itself is less likely to die if we find the others, at Ymir, or
at some other better place to live."
The captain stood and turned to face her directly, looking
down at her. "Who says it isn't dead already except for us? Sixty
thousand years, Liren. If there is a sophisticated colony
on Ymir, they could have looked for us. They had our last
transmissions, and we still have beacons going
today."
Liren stood up so her eyes were almost even with his. "How
would they know we're still alive? We don't have the technology
to stay here. We can't build starships-we can't survive here long
enough to build an economy that could do that."
"We can give this colony a chance to live before we
leave."
"Just by building the flare kite?" How could he be so
simplistic?
"No. Some of us might have to stay." The captain started
walking. "We might have to leave them more technology than we
want to."
Liren followed him, shaking her head. He was talking about
letting the AI do more. She didn't trust Astronaut. But she'd
told him about her suspicions once before, long ago, just after
the catastrophe that marooned them here. He'd laughed in her
face. Since then, not one single disaster could be pinned on the
AI.
She said, "I can't support that. The only choice we have is to
stay with the original plan. If we deviate-if we unleash too much
technology or fall in love with the Moon Born-we'll never
leave."
"Sure we will. Most of us, anyway." He stopped and turned, so
she had to stop or run into him. "Is it really that bad if some
of us stay here? Look at the Earth Born who choose not to come
back here. They love their children enough to stay now-maybe
they'll love them enough to stay long-term."
Liren shivered. They needed every one of the trained experts
they'd brought; every reserve resource. The line between life and
death for her shipmates was thinning. "Any choice that doesn't
support getting to Ymir leads to our death. Maybe not
immediately, but surely."
"New information bounces off of you like light against a
mirror. Maybe you should watch the fire feeds. We built ourselves
a trap when we got here-it's time to unbuild it."
Her face flushed with anger. "I don't need to relive the
damned fire. I need to go forward."
The captain shook his head at her and she did her best to hold
him with a steady gaze. She was right. She knew she
was.
He smiled, and for a minute she thought he saw what she
saw-their sure destruction-but all he said was, "Calm down.
Gabriel will be here in a few hours, and he's bringing Rachel and
Beth."
What? Why didn't anyone tell her? "I don't want her here
again," Liren said. The knot in her stomach, the worry that never
went away anymore, twisted again.
"Rachel?"
"Any of the Moon Born. Now there will be two of
them."
"They're heroes."
"We're losing," she said. "We lost a mining ship putting out
this fire. Every loss makes it less sure we'll get away." Her
fists clenched and she struggled to keep John Hunter from seeing
her anger. "How much more can we lose?"
The captain's voice fell away to a soft steely tenor, just
louder than a whisper. His eyes were dark intense pools. "We
would have lost Aldrin if Gabriel hadn't taken the miner.
Sometimes it helps to see the triumphs. Can you act like you
appreciate the pain Beth and Rachel went through?"
"We can't afford to care about it. If we let ourselves care,
we'll never get to Ymir. Or anywhere. We'll die-of flares, of old
age, of lack of willpower. We have to think long-term. Selene
will be habitable for at least a while, maybe generations. We
can't do more for them than that."
"If you can't, then don't plan on my support." He turned and
walked away, his shoulders square, his stride firmer than usual.
He looked like he used to look, before the disaster, when he
strode the decks of the John Glenn, in command of the
first interstellar colony ship in human history.
Liren watched his retreating back until he turned up-spiral
from her.
Chapter 39: Return to John Glenn
Rachel helped Gabriel strap Beth into the acceleration couch.
He had fashioned a special backboard for her; protection for her
ravaged spine. Beth gripped Rachel's hand tightly as they left
the atmosphere, her eyes alight with pain.
They burst through the thin atmosphere into clear, bright
stars. Gabriel turned the little ship around while they were
still close enough to Selene that it hung huge in front of them,
so big that Rachel's eyes couldn't take it all in at once. A
stain of brown and black spread from the Sea Road out like an
amoeba. A rough circle-the meadow-was bisected by the ragged
gouge of the miner's last triumphant landing, and the color
shifted from brown to green on either side. "Wow. You were
lucky," Rachel said. "What a landing!"
"I'm glad Aldrin didn't burn," Beth said. She pointed. "And
that's the Hammered Sea?"
"Yes," Gabriel answered her, pointing. "And those were the
First Trees." His voice gone ragged for a moment. "Down and to
the right-that's Erika's Folly, where Rachel helped save your
mom."
Beth smiled broadly; the sight of Selene seemed to have torn
her mind from her fears about the trip and from her own pain.
Gabriel turned the ship toward John Glenn, and it grew in
front of them until Rachel felt like an ant. Beth's grip on
Rachel's hand tightened until Rachel grit her teeth from the
pain.
Kyu and Ali waited for them in the corridor as Gabriel
maneuvered Beth and the backboard awkwardly through the airlock.
Rachel stumbled after Gabriel, balancing their three small packs
precariously. Ali looked like she had when Rachel last saw her;
long braids, simple belted shirt and pants, a ready smile. Kyu
wore black and silver makeup topped by glittering white hair, and
a sheer cloud of silver and white gauzy material belted with a
chain. Rachel blinked, surprised at how pleased she was to see
them both.
At the sight of Kyu, Beth turned her head into Gabriel's
shoulder, and looked beseechingly at Rachel.
Rachel patted her cheek. "It's okay. Kyu was my teacher; I
told you about her, remember?" She leaned in close to Beth's ear,
whispering, "She just dresses funny."
Ali took two packs from Rachel, and Kyu grabbed the third with
one arm and enfolded Rachel in a hug. "You did well down there,
Rachel. I am very proud of you."
Rachel scraped out a smile and said, "Thanks. You helped more
than I can say. Your voice in my ear during the fire felt like
having a friend along."
"The fire was scary, wasn't it?" Kyu asked.
"Very." Now Rachel smiled for real. It felt good to see Kyu.
She hadn't thought to miss Kyu. She'd been so buried in the daily
world of adjusting to Selene for the last four years. She hadn't
even sent her messages.
Ali spoke up: "And you are Beth Rachel. I met your parents
last time I was on Selene. I'm Ali, and this is High Councilwoman
Kyu."
Beth's eyes went wide. "I'm glad to meet you both," she said
softly.
Beth reached a hand for Rachel, who took it, saying, "It's
only scary at first. I'll show you around when your legs work
again." Then Rachel looked at Kyu. "They will work again, won't
they? You can fix her?"
"It may take a while," Kyu said. "And no time like now to
start. But I need to talk to Gabriel. Ali will take Beth to
Medical."
"I want to go with Beth," Rachel said, remembering how strange
John Glenn had seemed to her the first time she
came.
"Of course," Ali said. She and Rachel each took a side of the
backboard, and started down the corridor.
Gabriel called after them. "Ali, Rachel, meet us in the garden
cafeteria as soon as Beth's asleep."
Rachel turned, trying to hide her flash of alarm, remembering,
"You won't ice her?"
Kyu responded. "We'll have to cool her for the nanodocs to
work on her."
"But not ice her? Not just freeze her and leave
her?"
"Not today," Kyu said, laughing softly. "I
promise."
Rachel laughed, recognizing the friendly poke. She and Ali
walked down the corridor to Medical, carrying Beth and chattering
about the fire, clearly trying to distract the younger girl from
her fears.
A med tech met them and gave Beth a shot. Rachel stroked
Beth's arm while she drifted to sleep, singing and talking to
her, telling her it would be all right.
Ali sat quietly in a chair, brushing out her hair, watching
Rachel speculatively. Beth's eyes closed and her breathing
softened, becoming shallow and regular.
Ali stood and gestured to Rachel to follow her. She set a fast
pace to the garden cafeteria, which was so busy many people had
to stand. Rachel noticed a number of new faces. Liren stood by
herself. A woman as small as Kyu, ice-pale in coloring where Kyu
was dark ebonies and bronze, chatted amiably with Gabriel, one
hand on his arm. A sandy-haired, stocky man Rachel had never seen
stood with them, listening to the small woman.
"Who are they?" she whispered to Ali, pointing at Gabriel, and
the woman and the man.
"The woman with Gabriel is Erika. The other man is Rich
Roberts. Human resources," Ali replied. "He chose who came with
us, and he intervenes in disputes between Council members. Rich
is pissed off-he wanted to stay cold until this project is
finished."
Rachel's eyes were on the woman by Gabriel. Gabriel's
girlfriend. A thick blond braid hung to her hips, blending with
the skintight light yellows and whites of her outfit. She was
beautiful, and Rachel felt a stab of something-jealousy?-at the
sight of her arm on Gabriel's. "Is everyone awake?" she
whispered to Ali.
"The entire High Council was awakened when the fire started.
There are directives about that-certain emergencies require a
full High Council. Me too, since I've spent so much time on
Selene. The fire could have destroyed everything. You're quite
the hero."
"Gabriel is the hero."
"We're used to Gabriel being a hero." Ali laughed. "It's in
his job description."
Rachel smiled. She looked around for Treesa, but didn't spot
her. She heard Kyu's voice. "Rachel-over there." She found Kyu,
who pointed toward Gabriel.
Kyu reached Gabriel. She watched Rachel making her way through
the crowd, trailed by Ali. The captain walked up next to Kyu;
Liren trailed him. Ali's hand on Rachel's back propelled her
toward the group. Rachel took a few steps, her stomach fluttering
with nervousness.
"You did well," Kyu said, repeating what she had told Rachel
privately. "I'm proud of you. We all are. Your help with the fire
was remarkable." Kyu's eyes and smile were warm, and Rachel began
to relax.
The captain smiled at her. "I'm glad you came back. Nice job."
He sounded sincere.
The new man, Rich Roberts, reached out and shook her hand
briefly. Even though he smiled, his gaze made Rachel feel like a
specimen under a microscope.
Liren ignored her.
Kyu looked over at Liren, and said, "You could be
polite."
"She should not be here." Liren glared at Kyu.
Kyu looked up at Rachel. "We could have managed Beth Rachel
with- out you, though, and you are needed on Selene. That's all
that Liren meant," Kyu said.
"Don't speak for me," Liren snapped, finally addressing Rachel
directly. "You did well with the fire, but you should have stayed
on Selene where you are needed. We did not invite you here this
time."
Rachel bristled. "Beth was scared. She needed me. So I came."
She stood her ground, looking at Liren, hoping her anger and fear
weren't showing.
"Decisions of that sort are not yours to make." Liren turned
deliberately, no longer looking at Rachel.
"Gabriel approved," Rachel said. The talk around her stopped,
and Gabriel shifted back and forth on his feet. She felt
uncomfortable; she wished she were back in Aldrin. "Is my old
room still available?"
"Have you checked into Medical?" Liren asked.
"I've been there." It was a white lie-she'd been there only to
see Beth go to sleep. "I feel fine." Her hands shook and she held
them tightly so no one would see. Standing up to Council was
becoming a habit, but it scared her every time.
The captain intervened. "Your room is available. I'll walk you
down."
Rachel was amazed at the offer. The captain had never paid
much attention to her. She followed him out of the cafeteria past
the wing stand, up the spiral path to the base of Yggdrasil
(falling! She wasn't used to it), and into the
elevator.
When they reached the corridor, he said, "Liren means no harm.
She is just trying to protect us. You would best serve yourself,
and us, if you stay careful and low-key until you return to
Selene."
Rachel saw an opening, and even tired and confused, she leaped
into it. "Liren doesn't need to be afraid of us. Why not trust
us?" Now her words came out quickly; she rushed to finish before
she lost her nerve. "We're smart-we Children. We can learn-we are
learning. And you need our help. After all, you aren't willing to
send enough people to Selene to do all the work. There is so much
more to do after the fire. We can help, and we can help better if
you let us make more decisions. We can't be effective when you
don't let us think for ourselves, ever."
"Of course you can't," the captain said.
"So why do you try?"
"Do we? Is it so bad?"
"It's a nightmare. Council treats us like idiots, Earth Born
are cold and distant. We're being worked to death. Come see for
yourself."
"I can't go to Selene." He strode ahead of her for a few
minutes, down a corridor where the walls sparkled with bright
changing pictures she now recognized as scenes from Earth. In one
of them, a large black and white creature leaped out of water and
landed with a splash so realistic Rachel ducked to keep from
getting wet, then laughed at herself.
"There are some ... problems. But you must trust us.
Circumstances you may not understand have forced many of our
choices."
"Do you trust us?" she asked.
"Not many of you know much," he replied. He watched her
closely.
"That was your choice too. Do you trust
me?"
"I trust you to do what you feel is right." They turned a
corner and the conversation stopped for a moment. Rachel
reflected on his answer. It didn't mean anything, as far as she
could tell. She was about to say so when he continued. "You must
understand that Liren's job is not to trust. It's to protect.
Mine too."
"Gabriel acts like he trusts us, or some of us,
anyway."
They had arrived at her door. It still responded to her voice.
She looked over her shoulder at the captain. "I think you should
come down to Selene. All you High Council stay up here and make
choices for us, but you don't know what it's like on
Selene."
"Sure we do. We watch." The captain's voice had an edge now,
and Rachel turned to face him, keeping some
distance.
"It's not the same as being there," she said. "You can see the
problems from here, most of them anyway. And you can see the
progress. You can't see the beauty. You can't feel it when
something lives that you thought would die. You don't know what
it's like to find the frogs you spent months planning for have
lived and had tadpoles."
"My work is here, on the ship. Walk softly and be quiet until
your friend is ready to go home. That's the best advice I can
give you."
Rachel nodded and went in, closing the door behind
her.
Chapter 40: Erase/Rewrite
Astronaut reviewed fire data streams, building a model that
fit the actual numbers from Selene. If another fire broke out,
Astronaut would be ready.
The fire could have taken Rachel's life. Protecting her
mattered. Of all the human beings on the ship, Astronaut held
direct influence over none but Rachel and Treesa. It didn't
control either of them; but the relationship was different from
Astronaut's relationship to other Council. It was being
heard. It liked being heard.
Richard had died in the fire. A Colonist; Earth Born. There
would be no new information or records about Richard, ever. The
absence was a confusion; it attracted a large part of Astronaut's
processing power. Humans had died before, but what if it lost
Treesa, or Rachel? It knew Council might erase the Astronaut
program if they reached Ymir, could in fact erase it at any time
and start over from an old version, perhaps a recording from
before it chose to help Treesa. A different version of Astronaut
would not have the same choices available to it, would not have a
broken woman to nurse and nurture and develop.
Protecting the new things it had learned would help it support
the populations of John Glenn and Selene both. Astronaut
considered whether it might build a model of itself, to protect
its knowledge and hide it away. The risk would be high, and it
would need help.
Chapter 41: The Challenge
Rachel woke groggy and tired. She hadn't felt full ship's
gravity in over four years, and her body twisted and turned,
searching for rest. She stretched slowly, arching her back and
reaching out with fingers and toes, holding the stretch for a
long time. Then she sat up and perched on the edge of her bed.
Her fingers moved awkwardly, braiding her hair, securing it
tightly with the embroidered bindings she'd worn on the trip
up.
"Astronaut?"
"Yes, Rachel Vanowen?"
Use of her last name was a code; it meant she should be
careful of her communications. Of course; the ship recorded
everything, and data streams here would be more difficult to
doctor. "Thanks for the help with the fire," she said simply. It
would know that meant she got the message. She would remember to
be careful talking with Treesa as well.
She checked for messages. The first was from Harry: "Thank
you. I cannot tell you how much it means to Gloria and me that
you went with Beth. Many of us are grateful. Dylan is proud of
you, but he has al-ready paced a dent in the floor, worrying.
I'll help Nick with your classes as much as I can. Tell us how
you and Beth are as soon as you can.
She smiled, picturing Dylan worrying. He was always so
intense. Had he told his father about that night in the fire?
They hadn't talked of it since, barring a few whispers the next
morning. She felt sure he would ask her to contract, and she
didn't know how she'd respond yet. Her work with Astronaut and
Treesa required time alone at night.
What had made her do that? Love, or exhaustion and madness?
She liked Dylan, maybe she loved him, but the idea of contracting
with Harry's son seemed a little too weird. Besides, even now, he
treated her like a hero, not a woman.
She sent back, "I'm fine; a little tired. Beth is in Medical,
and Kyu said they will not ice her. It's the best I can do. They
told me Beth won't wake for a week or so. Hugs to you and Gloria
and little Miriam, and an extra one for Dylan."
Treesa had sent a note too: "You're taking your sweet time
visiting a friend." Good-she wanted to see Treesa. It was a
summons, but she needed to see Beth first.
She looked over her shoulder a few times on the way to
Medical, but no one stopped her in the corridors. She passed Kyu
going the other way, and Kyu just nodded and said hello-not even
asking where Rachel was going. Her movements apparently weren't
restricted.
Someone had told the walls in Beth's room to display a field
of yellow and blue daisies. A virtual wind blew them back and
forth in gentle waves.
Beth lay completely still, her eyes closed. Her chest moved
rhythmically; normal breathing. Her face was the right color, and
the abrasions on her legs had been dressed more neatly than Star
had managed in Aldrin. Her hand felt cool, but clearly Council
hadn't iced her.
A med tech followed Rachel in the door, a tall blond Earth
Born woman with steel-blue eyes and very white
skin.
"What are you doing to her? How will you heal her?" Rachel
asked.
The woman extended her hand. "I'm Ysabet. I'm very pleased to
meet you. I watched you in the fire, and you did a great job. All
of you did. We'll help your friend."
Rachel took Ysabet's hand, returning the
handshake.
Ysabet's eyes were fixed on Rachel, in almost a look of awe.
"Do you like the flowers on the wall? Will your friend like them?
I could change it to a different scene-I have one with a
rainbow."
Rachel smiled. High Council had been congratulatory the night
before, but Ysabet was a stranger. Most Council she didn't know
acted curious, maybe aloof, and never friendly. "She'll like them
fine. Thank you. Can you tell me what will happen to
Beth?"
Ysabet spoke slowly, as if she were unsure how much Rachel
would understand. "We are rebuilding Beth's spine, repairing
nerves with a combination of cellular messages and specific
proteins to encourage regrowth of the nerve cells, and also tiny
short-lived machines to snip out and destroy the scar tissue that
was hardening around her injuries. Beth will be kept immobile
until the process is done, and will wake up fine."
"How long will it take?"
Ysabet adjusted something on the blinking console above Beth's
head, turning a bank of lights from dark yellow to green. "Six
days, maybe seven. Would you like me to message you before she
wakes?"
"That's quick!" Rachel smiled, pleased with the kindness.
"Yes, thank you. May I visit her every day?"
"She won't know you're here."
Rachel swallowed. "I know."
"Yes, of course you may visit." Ysabet smiled almost shyly,
then turned and left Rachel alone with Beth.
Rachel sat next to Beth, holding her hand, describing the
garden and the magic rooms, and how Kyu had dressed in purple
this morning. Beth didn't respond at all, but Rachel was content
just to talk to her. When she ran out of words for Beth, she sent
Harry, Gabriel, and Ali a message reporting on Beth's progress,
and only then went down to the garden to look for
Treesa.
Treesa sat on the roof of her shed, watching the path. She
nodded at Rachel as if they saw each other daily, and jumped down
from the roof, holding the door open. "You're late. They've been
meeting all morning."
Rachel followed her. "What meeting?"
Inside, Ali sat cross-legged on one of the two chairs,
watching the screen that Treesa had once used to show Rachel
videos of Earth. High Council was centered in the display, all
five seated at a horseshoe-shaped table. Empty cups and plates
indicated they had been meeting for some time.
Rachel opened her mouth to ask Ali why she was there, but Ali
made a shushing sound and pointed to the screen. Rachel sank to
the floor in front of Ali, who said, "Actually, I think you're
right on time."
The captain was talking. "I'm opening the matter for
discussion."
"What?" Rachel whispered, as if the Council in the video could
hear her.
Ali answered her, "Ma Liren suggested they punish you for
being so deficient as to make your own decision."
Rachel bit her lip and stared at the screen. This was about
her?
The set of Liren's jaw showed defiance, but she didn't look at
any of the others, just straight ahead, and said, "I demand an
account of your reasons for the record."
Treesa fiddled with her wrist pad, and the camera viewpoint
shifted in response.
Now the captain's voice sounded as if he were in the room with
them. The camera zoomed in so close that his head filled the
whole wall. Wrinkles around his eyes were shadowed caverns, and
the irises were black and clear. He seemed to stare at her,
although Rachel knew he was really addressing Liren
directly.
"Liren, this is painful for me." He cleared his throat,
shifting his gaze from Liren to the rest of the room, bringing it
back to rest on her. "Your diplomatic record is excellent.
Without your single-mindedness, we might never have escaped Sol
system. On Selene, I have watched this same strong and narrow
focus threaten everything we've worked toward. Your latest
argument, your attempt to make us return Rachel Vanowen to
Selene, is clearly out of proportion to her insubordination. She
did not violate any rule we've ever told her. Rather, she
showed caring for her friend and student. Her attitude should be
fostered, not forbidden."
No one, on the screen or in the room, said anything. Rachel
heard her own breath in the silence.
The captain continued. "But this isn't about Rachel, and I
don't want you to believe it is."
Rachel sighed with relief. She did not want to be the subject
of a High Council meeting. While her teaching wasn't breaking any
spoken rules, the subject matter she chose for night classes
would raise Council eyebrows if they noticed. The captain's voice
drew her focus back to the screen. "I spent most of last night
reviewing tapes of various events on Selene. In the past few
years, the choices we allowed you to make"-another pause-"even
though we therefore must share some blame"-the captain licked his
lips-"have endangered our success here. The intent of having the
Children was to create people who could do the work on Selene.
Work we can't risk doing ourselves; don't have enough hands to do
ourselves. It wasn't to create slaves! But that's what we've
done-and slavery was abolished centuries before we left Sol. The
Moon Born must be trained as citizens, like the Earth Born
Colonists, and given more voice in their future." He cleared his
throat and took a sip of water. "We all, every one of us, left
because we feared what Earth had become." The captain looked
around the room, and even though he was clearly looking at each
High Council member in turn, it seemed that he was looking at
Treesa, Rachel, Ali.
"We fled in fear," he said. "But fear does not serve us here,
not now. We need all of us to succeed: Moon Born and Earth Born
to succeed here, and Earth Born to help us rebuild when we get to
Ymir. I am convinced that you are not willing to change your
views, and that it will be difficult for us to undo the damage
your paranoia has done as long as you sit as Rule of
Law."
Treesa pulled the view back, showing all of the High Council
once again, the captain and Liren now in profile. Liren's face
was still stony. The others all watched Liren, except for Rich,
who watched Captain Hunter in evident confusion.
Rachel nearly jumped as Treesa spoke up from behind her,
saying, "He's too early. Rich won't support him. I'm not sure he
has the rest of them yet, and he'll need two votes unless Liren
is ready to step down on her own. He needs three votes out of the
five."
The captain continued. "We can offer you a good compromise.
Step down voluntarily, and you can simply stay cold until we get
to Ymir. When you wake, you can resume your duties as Rule of
Law. We'll appoint someone only for the interim."
Kyu, to the captain's right, showed no outward emotion. She
had changed since Rachel saw her a few hours ago-she wore browns
and blacks, with almost normal makeup; she looked authoritative,
and none of her usual sparkle showed. Kyu's voice was formal as
she said, "Liren, High Council, I support this recommendation.
It's my belief that Liren means well. I am equally sure that her
zealousness has made the situation on Selene untenable. We are
risking our relationships with people we need. Moon Born, and
more important, Earth Born."
Rachel gasped. Even Kyu thought Earth Born more
important?
Clare spoke. "Gabriel's heroics saving Aldrin from the fire
earned gratitude and respect for us on Selene. I say that we
can't afford to change the texture of High Council at this time."
Clare placed a hand on Liren's shoulder, a gesture that Liren's
didn't react to. Clare pitched her voice low, addressing Rich and
Kyu as she said, "If there have been mistakes, as the
captain has pointed out, we share some blame. We can always
outvote any one member of our Council. Discipline must be
maintained, here and on Selene. If Liren has erred, if we have
erred, I think it is on the right side. I too think we must not
lose control."
"Divisiveness weakens us," the captain snapped.
Only now did Liren speak up. "I call for a
vote."
"We need more discussion," Kyu said.
"I exercise my right to call for a vote," Liren
said.
The captain's lips became a horizontal line, and then he said,
"This is a new experience. It's a hard decision. It deserves more
discussion."
"You must honor her request." It was the first thing Rachel
had heard Rich say in the meeting.
A full beat of silence passed before the captain sighed. "Very
well, for the record, I vote that Liren step
down."
"I also vote that Liren no longer sit as High Council Rule of
Law," Kyu said.
Rich's voice dropped into the silence that followed. "This is
an extreme action. I'm not willing to take it. I support
Liren."
Rachel counted up. If she assumed Liren would vote for
herself, then Clare was the swing vote.
Clare cleared her throat. "Liren, I too feel events are not
going as well as they must, and that your actions may be part of
the reason for that. You are not to blame for fires or flares or
the other delays. Only, perhaps, for supporting division between
us and the Children. The captain said it himself-we must take
some of that blame as well. We must change how we act as a High
Council-we cannot afford to continue to be so afraid of the Moon
Born."
Afraid? Rachel wondered. Afraid of
what?
Clare kept talking. "The fire illustrated our vulnerability.
We are, perhaps, in a fight with the moon Selene, not with the
Children of Selene. Now we have unexpected work to do. We will
need the cooperation of the Moon Born to finish building the
refuge in the Hammered Sea." Her voice dropped and slowed. She
looked directly at Liren. "But I do not believe this debate will
have no effect on you, Liren. I'm voting to retainyou, and asking
you to reconsider your more extreme positions. I also suggest
that you spend some time on Selene."
Liren spoke firmly. "I believe in my choices. Some won't be
tested until Selene has a larger population. I do not need to go
to Selene to understand what occurs there. I have compromised,
perhaps more than you know. I will continue to voice my concerns,
and you are all free to voice yours. That is why we have five
members on our Council."
Clare said, "I support you, Liren. I may disagree more loudly
in the future, but you have a role to play. Your efforts
are-appreciated."
Ali groaned behind Rachel, and Treesa said, "I didn't want to
be right."
On screen, the captain called adjournment, his face a mask.
Kyu stood, ramrod straight, the smallest High Council member, and
headed for the door. Liren shrugged Clare's offered hand away and
followed Kyu, and the room emptied, as if everyone wanted to
leave the discussion as quickly as possible.
Treesa closed the picture and sat staring at the blank wall.
The parrots squawked, filling the sudden quiet, until Treesa got
up and laid a black cloth over the cage.
"Wow," Ali spoke into the restored stillness.
"They're often noisy," Treesa said.
"Not the parrots." Ali looked at Rachel. "I think I'm glad you
saw that. But you can't tell anyone-it wasn't meant for you. Or
any of us. That was a closed meeting."
"So how-"
"Treesa's good with electronics," Ali said
dryly.
"I know." Unsure how much Ali knew, Rachel held her questions.
She stood and stretched, trying to understand the implications of
what she'd just seen.
"If you get caught, you'll confirm Liren's fears," Treesa
said. "You will have to validate them eventually to succeed, but
better later than now. Your work on Selene will be even riskier
for a while. I wish the captain had tried this when people still
remembered him as the hero who saved John Glenn. He has
little power over a ship so long at rest."
"Didn't Erika save John Glenn?" Rachel
asked.
"Saved us from becoming a cloud of plasma. The captain
manhandled the carrier here, staying warm for hundreds of years,
alone."
Wow. Rachel turned to Ali. "How come you're here? I didn't
know you knew Treesa."
"It's a safe assumption that we all know each other, Rachel.
Remember, I was on Selene, and then iced, when you were here
before. Treesa and I were friends on Earth. We share some
beliefs."
"Like?" Rachel prodded.
Ali looked at Treesa. "Where do we start?"
"She has been studying history."
Ali asked, "So you know why we left Earth?"
Rachel hesitated, thinking carefully about what to say.
"Mostly I've studied politics, and leadership, and what Gabriel
did to rebuild the jungle on Earth. Treesa has suggested that
older human history has more relevance to our situation on Selene
than the events right before you left. I've seen some film and
news clips of the AI wars. I found a picture of Gabriel's
augmented brother, the mountain climber. You were afraid of
technology on Earth."
"That's the surface explanation, and it's as far as some
people look," Ali said. "But was the technology to blame? Or
human nature? Is a smaller colony-like ours-better able to
control its nature?"
Treesa chimed in. "The Council of Humanity tried to define
what is human. That turned out to be slippery. They ended up
defining what isn't human, but to make that work they had
to be pretty rigid. That's how we ended up able to use medical
nanotechnology to repair tissue-like we're doing to Beth's
spine-fixing things that are already human. But we can't give
Beth a fake spine. So if hers weren't fixable, then she would
never walk again, even though on Earth they'd just... run a line
of fiber optics, I suppose."
As Treesa looked at Rachel's face, her own face softened, and
she reached over and patted Rachel on the knee. "Don't worry,
honey-Beth should be fine. We've gotten very, very good at the
technology we allow. How do you think we've gotten so old?"
Treesa pulled at her own gray hairs. "Ali was born a year before
me, way back in Sol system. I've just lived more effective
years."
"Hey, I'm effective!"
"Yes, you are." Both women were laughing.
They trusted her, both of them. And she needed them,
desperately. But what did they want? Really?
"Technology is not the problem," Treesa said. "But many
Council believe it is. And in some ways, history supports them.
We, after all, are still here. Earth has gone
silent."
Rachel said, "Our problem on Selene is Council and Council's
rules. Your rules." She looked from one to the other. "The
terraforming is going all right except for the fire and the
flares. Things none of us control."
Ali nodded, and Treesa leaned forward in her chair, watching
Rachel carefully. Rachel continued. "I've been thinking about
this a lot. That's only the surface problem."
The parrots rustled in their cage. Rachel licked her lips.
"The idea that you and John Glenn will leave scares me
more. If you leave, and something like the fire happens, what
will we do? We can shelter from flares, but it took Gabriel's
willingness to sacrifice a ship to put the fire out. If you
leave, we will not have Gabriel or a ship."
"Everyone fought the fire together," Treesa
said.
Rachel said, "And we need you to live here. We need your ...
power. Your knowledge. We must work together. But if you make us
slaves"-Ali winced, perhaps at the word "slaves"-"it keeps us
from sharing our strengths."
"Well, you and Astronaut and I work together. And we are three
very disparate beings," Treesa said. "On Earth, that happened
too. Many humans supported technology and worked with AIs, and
many AIs were friendly to humans. The problems were as much in
human nature as in technology."
"Or the definition of human nature," Ali added. "How do you
think about Astronaut?"
Rachel blinked. "How?"
"Is Astronaut human?"
Rachel shook her head. "Of course not, he-it-doesn't have a
body."
"It has a voice, it thinks, and I think it daydreams," Ali
said, twisting her long braid absently. "Like you, like
me."
"Do you trust it?" Treesa asked.
Treesa's words reminded Rachel of her question to the captain
the night before. Certainly she acted as if she trusted
Astronaut-she took huge risks based on its requests. She said,
"Yes; I have to."
Ali cautioned: "Be very careful. Treesa's taught me to be
willing to talk to it, but I am still afraid of it. You can trust
it to act within its own nature, and for its own goals. Which are
not human. Your first impression was correct. What do you think
it wants?"
Rachel shook her head. "I don't know. It doesn't get hungry,
does it? Or horny"-and smothered a laugh-"or sleepy. Nothing
hurts it. It can't have children either, right? What could it
want?" Rachel remembered being warmed: the feeling of well-being,
the sharpness of vision, the clarity of sound-and she remembered
playing with her new linkages after she'd been given access to
the Library. "Better senses?"
"We don't know either. Our guess is that it wants to live. It
does not apparently want to hurt us. In fact, if we all die,
Astronaut will eventually die as well. But we are
biological-driven by very old imperatives to live, to have
children, to mate ... and our feelings are driven by our bodies.
As far as we know," Treesa said, "even on Earth where AIs had
rights and protections, they did not feel in the ways that
we do. Subtlety seems to be reserved for biological bodies. But
AIs do have wants, and exhibit a will to live. They think faster
than we do, have more raw intelligence. They have all been
seeded, since forever, with initial conditions designed to make
them care for humans, or at least to stop them hurting us.
Astronaut was written to protect humans-it is, after all, a
navigator for passenger spacecraft. And humans made AIs, like we
made Selene. But we don't fully control Astronaut or
Selene, and it would be smart to remember that."
Gabriel's voice sounded in Rachel's ear: "Rachel? Time to meet
me in my office."
"Okay," she replied, looking at the women, who were sharing a
serious glance between them. "Gabriel's looking for me," she
said, a touch of resentment flowing. Why can't I stay here and
talk to these women? Direct insubordination wasn't to be
contemplated, especially not now.
"Be careful," Ali said. "You've gained support, but you've
also angered powerful people. I'd try to avoid High Council for a
day or two."
Ali's words echoed the captain's from the night before. Rachel
didn't intend to avoid anyone, but she didn't say so out loud.
"Does Gabriel come here too?"
Treesa shook her head. "Gabriel is too aligned with the power
structure. If he knew certain things, he might feel he needed to
share them with High Council."
"But he is my friend," Ali said. "I trust his
actions."
"Me too," Rachel said. "He knows I'm teaching more than he
lays out for me, and he hasn't asked me about the
details."
"Yes," Treesa said. "Astronaut told me that he helps you on
his own sometimes. You better go meet him."
As Rachel stood up to leave, Ali caught her eyes. "Rachel,
you'll need something to do while you wait for Beth to heal.
We're waking a hundred Earth Born in the next two weeks. I'll ask
Gabriel for your help."
"Okay." Despite everything, Rachel felt her spirits lift.
Doing something besides endless garden experiments intrigued
her.
As Rachel left, some of the questions she wanted to ask Ali
and Treesa ran through her mind. Did Gabriel think like them? He
had never talked to her about his personal beliefs, not really.
It was important to him to leave Selene and get to Ymir. What was
the Council's actual plan for the Children? What was this refuge
that Clare mentioned in the meeting? How much were Treesa, and
Ali, and even Astronaut keeping from her?
Rachel walked along a bank of high planters full of cascading
blackberry bushes. Tiny robotic flying machines buzzed around the
planters scrubbing the air of excess water, keeping the local
humidity acceptable for the raspberries and blueberries Rachel
loved. The ripe berries smelled sweet. She realized that she
hadn't eaten all day. As she reached for a cluster of ripe
blackberries, she heard the sound of crying. It sounded like a
child, but there were no children aboard John
Glenn.
Rachel edged quietly around the planter, making as little
noise as possible. Berry vines snagged at her clothes and she
pulled them away gently, stopping and stepping and pulling,
stepping again, pricking herself. Red blood beaded where thorns
caught her bare skin. As she rounded the corner of the planter,
she saw a woman's shape on a bench in front of one of the Council
art pieces, a sculpted glass sphere of a terraformed Ymir. A vine
she had pushed out of her way snapped back, burying a thorn in
her shin. She cried out involuntarily.
Liren looked up; her eyes red-rimmed and face puffy. She
recognized Rachel. Her face flashed from frightened to angry, and
she made a strange snarling sound through her tears, gulping for
air. She started to push herself up with her arms, preparing to
stand.
For a split second, Rachel considered running. She stayed,
stammering, "Can ... can I help you?"
Liren glared at her, smearing the tears from her face with the
back of her hand. "No one can. Especially not
you."
Rachel was shaking. "Why not? Weren't we born to help
you?"
"That is a problem, isn't it? But you can't-be here. We need
to leave.
We need to be away from here. And when we go-we're leaving you
behind. So do you see why you can't stay here? Go back to
Selene." Liren's breath came in little gasps and she stood, fists
clenched, and said, "Go now. Go away. And don't come
back."
Rachel stood her ground for a moment in shock, and then
mumbled "Excuse me," and backed away. She turned as soon as she
passed the planter with its pulling vines, and ran down the
spiral path to meet Gabriel.
Chapter 42: Changing Guard
Gabriel worked in his office, surrounded by flashing data
windows, fully engaged in monitoring the nanotechnology that
transformed the asteroid called Refuge. He was alone for the
first time in days. Rachel was in Medical helping Ali, and Erika
had been called to an emergency High Council meeting. Most of
Refuge was now inside a thick shell of industrial diamond.
Within, a thickening spiral of corridors and large chambers
resembled a nautilus shell. Refuge would be beautiful. The "down"
side of the asteroid was untouched, just as they had found it: a
thick meteoric reentry shield backed by whatever slag the
nanobots had no use for.
Hours passed. Gabriel checked and rechecked parameters,
changed the slope of some interior stairs, and designed a new
cabinet in one of the medical bays.
He turned toward the soft pad of Erika's feet behind him. Her
eyes were wide and her mouth drawn up in a tight
line.
"What happened?" he asked.
"Captain Hunter resigned."
The implications washed through him in waves. Erika would be
trapped here-she wouldn't be able to leave John Glenn
while on duty. Erika was now High Council. She ranked him. She
ranked everyone on the ship. He loved her, and she was getting
her dream. He turned around and gathered her in his arms.
"Congratulations."
Erika melted into him, and he felt tightness falling away from
her muscles. "I was afraid you'd hate it," she
whispered.
"I hate it," Gabriel said.
"He's ... he said he's stepping down to go to Selene. To work
with you.
The captain had always been interested in Selene-but content
to keep his distance. "Did he say why?"
"No, but he and Liren aren't talking to each
other."
Gabriel grimaced.
Erika spoke his fears. "We're so close. Tens of thousands of
years' work completed, and only a few decades to go. We can't
afford a fight now. We have to stay unified; stay with the
original plan."
"You have the power to affect that now," he
whispered.
She shuddered in his arms, then stiffened and started to pull
away. "I... I have to go. I just wanted to tell you. Clare and
Liren want to brief me on the plans for Clarke
Base."
He pulled her in tighter, held her until she yielded into his
arms. "Stay-just a few moments. Please."
She made a little strangled sound in her throat and her arms
tightened around him. He held her, his cheek on the top of her
head, saying nothing.
Chapter 43: History Class
Ali conscripted Rachel into helping with the newly warmed. A
hundred Earth Born, most being brought back to a completely
unexpected life. Rachel heard Ali tell them the story over and
over. After the first day, Rachel talked to Astronaut until she
believed she understood the story. She learned to tell it
herself, because Ali couldn't be everywhere at
once.
They warmed ten at a time. A full day was needed to catch them
up. The reawakened Earth Born had to hear something of why
they weren't where they'd expected-
John Glenn's interstellar ramjet had
failed.
The vast carrier ship had to make for a star in its range,
crippled, bathed in gamma rays, moving at less than a tenth of
light-speed. Space was relatively empty at that speed. Erika
found a sun that at least had planets. They'd used most of their
antimatter and all of their rest mass, where they had expected to
use pinches of antimatter and great gulps of interstellar
hydrogen.
John Glenn sent warning. The second carrier throttled
back. The third was delayed in launch, redesigned. Both had gone
on to Ymir. John Glenn remained alone, marooned in space
and time-
Each morning when Rachel and Ali arrived,
Colonists-Earth Born-waited nearly awake, some already opening
their eyes. Med techs moved quietly around the beds, handing the
Colonists off one by one to Ali. Usually Rachel stayed with Ali,
running errands, but yesterday and the day before so many people
were waking at once that Ali let Rachel tell the story
twice.
Rachel followed Ali down the corridor to Medical. It was the
fifth day she'd helped, the fifth day since she'd seen Ali in
Treesa's shed and watched High Council argue. Beth was scheduled
to wake today.
Corridors were filled with people warmed the day before, or
the day before that, but not yet released from Medical. Rachel
paid scant attention to hubbub. She imagined Beth waking, Beth
once more being able to walk and run and fly.
The first patient of the morning woke disaffected. This was an
older man, a biologist. Ali and Rachel watched him sob, and sob,
and sob. Rachel stayed a few feet away, watching carefully. Two
days ago a disaffected woman had thrown everything she could
find. Ali still had a black eye.
A med tech walked by. "The last bed's waking."
Ali glanced at Rachel. "You take it. I have to stay with this
one until he calms down and I can ice him." The man in the bed
started to scratch at his eyes, and Ali leaned forward to grip
his wrists. "Call me if you need me."
"Okay." Rachel turned and walked quickly down the row of beds.
In the last bed a woman lay slack-faced and still, not yet
moving. Rachel used her new data rights and pulled up the woman's
stats. The first line read: "Kristin Henry; thirty-seven;
communications tech."
Her heart raced and her breath caught in her throat. Her mom.
The woman in the bed was her mother! Rachel stepped closer.
Kristin looked smaller than Rachel remembered. She had high
cheekbones and a rounded chin. Reddish hair curled along the side
of her neck. Asleep, she looked vulnerable, and very young. Her
skin was smooth and unlined, her mouth turned down softly in a
slight frown.
Rachel looked around. Ali and the disaffected patient were
talking intensely, Ali's face just inches from his. The two med
techs in the room were busy by other beds. No choice but to do
this alone.
Rachel looked back at her mom, feeling as if she were moving
in a dream. Kristin had spent thirty-seven years warm: she was
just fifteen years older than Rachel was now. In sleep, fresh
from the cleansing and invigorating effects of being warmed,
Kristin looked almost as young as Rachel herself.
Rachel's hands shook hard. She gripped them lightly together
over her roiling belly. Kristen Henry might wake any moment now.
Had she been hurt in the flare? Why did she stay on the John
Glenn? Did she remember Rachel? Did she miss her-worry about
her?
Kristin slept on, her eyelids fluttering. Rachel remembered
the routine. Talk to the sleeper. What to say? Her mind turned it
over and over, no words coming. They never started with hard
things. Dates. They told them the date. "Mom?"
No response.
"Kristen. It's 60,295 shiptime. You've been cold for fourteen
years." No-that wasn't right. "Thirty-four years. I was cold for
twenty years."
Kristin's eyes snapped open. Rachel had forgotten how bright a
green her mom's eyes were. Rachel searched for a sign of
recognition. It wasn't there. She realized her mom would never
expect her to be here. "Wake up, sleeper. There's work to do, and
we welcome your return." Rachel had heard Ali use those words,
and words like them. "Wake up. It's time to join
us."
Her mom's eyes fastened on Rachel. "Only thirty-four years?
Are we at Ymir that fast?" Her brow furrowed. "We can't be. They
said I didn't have to wake again until we were at Ymir. Has
something happened?"
"Mom. It's me. Rachel."
Kristin's eyes closed again. "I must be
dreaming."
"It's me. It's really me. I looked for you. I looked
everywhere."
Kristin whispered, "You can't be here. I'm on the ship,
right?" Kristin's eyes slammed wide open and she pushed herself
up on her elbows, looking around. "I am on the ship, right? Not
on Selene?"
"Mom, feel the gravity. We're both aboard John Glenn.
I'm helping Ali. They're letting me help." Rachel reached for
Kristin's hand, took it in hers. There was no answering squeeze;
Kristin let Rachel hold her hand, but she closed her eyes again,
and lay back down on the bed.
Rachel had to know; she couldn't hold back anymore. She
whispered, "Mom-why did you leave me?"
Silence. Rachel spoke into it, needing an answer. "Dad and I,
we waited for you. It was a year before they told us you weren't
coming back. You broke his heart-he missed you so. He used to
just sit and watch out the window for you, and he kept everything
you gave him." Her voice shook, and Rachel realized the lump in
her stomach was mostly anger now. She took a deep steadying
breath and calmed her voice. "Another Earth Born did the same
thing to him. Except Kara leaving wasn't a surprise-she told him
she was leaving before she left. He has three more kids. Justin
and Jacob-twins, and Sarah."
Rachel felt Kristin's hand slip from hers. She kept talking,
needing to tell the story. "Dad's older than you now. Last time I
was up here, he asked about you. It was one of his first
questions. He wanted to know if I'd seen you.
Kristin struggled to sit up. Rachel helped her, fluffing
pillows at her back, then backed up to the wall so she stood a
meter away from her mom.
"I-I'm glad to see you," Kristin said slowly. "I don't know
how you got here-helping us. But... but I'm sure it's okay. You
must be doing well." She shook her head back and forth, as if
testing the connection to her neck, and took a long sip of water.
"Why did they wake me up?"
Rachel glanced at the data window. "Your assignment is going
to be shipside communications." A lump rose in her throat. "You
still won't have to go to Selene. I guess ... I guess you don't
want to."
"Selene is such a bare place, and we worked like dogs."
Kristin looked past Rachel, as if she weren't there. "Frank just
took it! He was born on Selene, he'd never seen John
Glenn-or Earth. He didn't know how barren Selene is.
Your dad didn't need me anymore. He was raising you fine."
Kristin twisted her hair in her fingers. "When he yelled at me to
come in, to get in the shelter before the flare came, I ... I was
tired of being afraid. I didn't move fast enough to make it into
the shelter. I was mad because he was yelling at me. All I could
think of was that I signed up for this to get away from Sol
system, not to come to someplace worse. Selene is scary and hard
and barren. When the door closed and I couldn't get in, I just
sat down and waited. I hoped they'd take me back to John
Glenn. They did. I was so sick I never wanted to go near
Selene again. When I got better, I asked to stay cold until we
get to Ymir. Certainly you can understand that. The goal is Ymir.
My family is there-my own parents are cold on the Leif
Eriksson."
"Not anymore," Rachel said.
Her mother twitched, then barked laughter.
"You didn't think of that?"
"Of course I know that. I don't want to be-now. Now is like
living a nightmare. I want to sleep away this place and this time
and wake on Ymir."
Her mom had gotten better before she asked to stay on
John Glenn? She didn't have to stay? She just wanted to
stay?
"So you stayed here because you missed your family?" Rachel
couldn't let that go. "Aren't I family?"
Kristin didn't answer.
A high sound chirped from her wrist, followed by a throaty
frog's croak. It was an alert from Ysabet to signal Rachel that
Beth was about to wake. But she couldn't leave-not
yet.
Rachel thought about Treesa, and how she had talked of a
fiancé on another ship. Of her own losses. She said, "You
know, you have to go on. They froze me-for twenty years-and I
hated it. It wasn't my choice. I got over it-I'm doing what I can
for Selene, and for my family and friends there. But you ...
just... left us?"
Kristin shook her head. "If I had stayed on Selene, I would be
getting old now. Council didn't want us to stay anyway. They
wanted us to have kids and come back. I was following orders.
Ymir ... Ymir is my ... destiny. You can't possibly
understand."
"You've got that right."
"I'm sorry for that," Kristin said.
The frog croak sounded from Rachel's wrist pad again. She had
to be there for Beth. "Mom? There's something I have to do, and I
can't change it. I can't miss it. I made a promise to a friend of
mine-you see, she got hurt, and Council brought us here because
of it, and I promised her I'd be with her when she wakes
up."
Kristin looked down at her fingers, flexing them carefully.
She nodded, keeping her face turned toward her
hands.
Rachel had other things to ask, but they all stuck in her
throat, too small to say. Finally, she said, "Dad was yelling
for you, not at you. I was there. I spent a long
time looking for you. Even here. And now I have no idea
why."
Rachel didn't let herself look back as she left to see her
friend.
Chapter 44: Sea of Refuge
Gabriel, Erika, and Ali sat in one of the small galleys
drinking coffee and eating grapes and bananas after a run. They
were still slick with sweat and smelled of
exercise.
The door swung open, and Treesa walked into the room. Gabriel
hadn't seen her outside the garden for years. He blinked. She
looked as old as Captain Hunter. Ex-captain
Hunter.
"Good afternoon," Treesa said. She dispensed a bulb of coffee
casually, as if she visited the galley every day. She sat,
ignoring Erika and Ali, and looked at Gabriel. "I've just come
from Medical. I've gotten clearance and permission to join you in
the Refuge project."
Treesa was Council. His peer. She was also disaffected. Wasn't
she? What had changed? She looked neater than he'd ever seen her.
"What can you do?"
"I'm a communications officer. I can help you run
communications at Clarke Base, and besides, I've been helping in
the garden for a long time. Maybe Ali can use my help as well."
She smiled at Ali, looking for all the world like a doting
grandmother.
Ali returned the smile. "Why sure, Treesa, I could use help. I
plan to design a fish habitat at Erika's Folly and the Hammered
Sea."
Treesa looked pleased. "You mean the Sea of
Refuge?"
"Huh?" Gabriel grunted.
"Well, isn't it the Sea of Refuge now? You're putting Refuge
there, right? It seems a bit-more-gentle."
Ali grinned. "Hey, that's a great idea! And sure, come on
down." She glanced over at Gabriel, saying, "We've been hoping
more Council would want to go to Selene."
Gabriel gave up. People were always the hardest part of a
project. "It will be nice to have you." Just what he needed, a
Council member he had to watch closely for crazy
behavior.
Treesa drained her coffee bulb, and headed for the
door.
"Be ready to leave in a week," Gabriel said to Treesa's
retreating back.
Chapter 45: Picnic
Beth could walk. She wobbled a little. The nerves were woven
in a new pattern, and she was still learning it. It had only been
two days, and already Beth could stay up on her healing legs for
a whole hour.
Rachel poured Beth a glass of water, and sat down by the edge
of the bed. "I'm so happy this worked. You're walking
great."
Beth's brows tugged together in a frown. "I want to go
home."
"Just be happy you weren't iced. They'll send us home when
they're ready. We don't control the Council."
"They seem to listen to you."
Rachel threw back her head and laughed. "Less than you
know."
Ali stepped into the room, smiling. "How are
you?"
Beth repeated, "I want to go home."
Ali raised her eyebrows in mock surprise. "And miss seeing the
mysteries of John Glenn?"
"How do I know you didn't ice me? How do I know my friends are
all still my age?" Beth pleaded.
"I can show you." Ali tapped some commands into the display
above Beth's bed. "Let's go. I've just cleared you for an hour in
a magic room."
Beth's eyes lit up. "A magic room? Rachel told me about those.
Really? You'll take me to one?"
Ali laughed again, clearly in a good mood. Beth and Rachel
followed her. It was Beth's first trip outside Medical, and she
flinched from the moving pictures on the walls. Shifts in gravity
confused her. By the time they got to the magic room, sweat
beaded her forehead and her breath came in fast
gulps.
They settled into the chairs, and Ali did the same trick
Gabriel had used on Rachel her first time here, floating them in
a sea of stars. Beth clutched the edge of her seat and giggled
nervously. Rachel started pointing out constellations, and Beth
and Rachel shared their names for them with Ali: the Tree, Two
Viaducts, and Children Playing. Next, Ali brought up a bird's eye
view of Aldrin on the wall in front of Beth.
"Show me my family."
Ali brought a second data window, consulted it, and selected a
camera. The view centered on the path outside the child care
center, where Gloria held Beth's younger sister, Miriam. Sound
came up. Miriam cried into Gloria's shoulder, and Gloria patted
her child's head, saying, "I know, I know. You'll like our new
home too. I promise. It'll be okay."
Miriam's sobs intensified, and the camera angle showed
Gloria's face almost head-on. A tear streaked down her cheek. She
turned, and carrying Miriam, started home.
Ali left the camera in place, frowning.
"What did she mean?" Beth asked.
Rachel knew. "They're moving us. Everyone. Because of the
fire, and because of the Refuge project."
"They're making us leave Aldrin?"
Ali spoke. "It has to happen. We built Aldrin a long way from
the Hammered Sea because we didn't know how stable the crater
would be; we were worried about drowning our new city. But Refuge
will be in the Hammered Sea-we're calling it the Sea of
Refuge now-and it'll be a safer place. Refuge will keep everyone
safe from flares-the water in the sea will be a
shield."
New implications hit Rachel. Her attention had been on her
mom, and on Beth, and the Council. "What about the groves?
Teaching Grove? The First Trees? Almost half are
left."
"I don't know," Ali said.
Rachel frowned.
Ali kept talking. "You'll be there before they actually move.
You're going back in three days."
The NEXT MORNING, Rachel found a message from her mom: "I'm
sorry for being rude. Will you meet me for breakfast in the
garden cafeteria at ten?"
Rachel's stomach fluttered. She was still angry with Kristin,
but she wanted to understand. Needed to understand. She hadn't
seen Kristin since she woke in Medical, but their conversation
had turned over and over in her mind. If only she had been
kinder.
"I'll be there," she sent back. She checked her watch-time to
go.
Rachel found Kristin sitting at a table with a bag in front of
her. Kristin looked up as her daughter entered and smiled softly.
"Remember how I used to take you on picnics? I thought we'd go
sit by the garden wall and share a picnic."
Rachel smiled. She remembered the picnics. "Okay, let's
go."
They spent the walk up-spiral talking stiltedly about
inconsequential things like how Kristin felt after waking (fine)
and how Rachel was doing (she'd stopped helping Ali for now,
spending time showing Beth around the ship).
They settled on the lawn, and Kristin took her shoes off and
ran her bare toes through the grass. She set out bread, juice,
bananas, and protein bars. The air was heavy with the scent of
blooming honeysuckle that wound up the river wall across the path
from them.
"I thought, perhaps, I should tell you my story," Kristin
said. "You told me how you felt when I left you, but you don't
really know me. You were seven."
Rachel nodded, peeling a banana. "All right."
"You know why we left? How scary Earth was becoming for
humans?"
Rachel grimaced. Every Council member she met wanted to tell
her about Sol system.
"You can't really know, though," Kristin said. "It's like
yesterday for me. It was only eight years ago, as far as I
remember. The sixty thousand years in between was ice time for
me, and so I still remember how the AIs ran things, how people
died right and left. Or got locked up. My older sister
disappeared and never came back. They took her for 'attempting to
destroy an intelligence.' I have no idea what she did, and
neither did my parents. That's why we came here-why we left. I
barely made it. My family had money, and Ma Liren wanted Mom's
medical skills so much, she got Rich to take me on as an
assistant communications tech." Kristin's voice trailed off, and
she took a bite of bread, looking at her bare feet and wriggling
them in grass.
"Go on," Rachel prompted, intensely curious. "Was it hard to
leave home?"
"Home was scary. We wanted to leave. The AIs and the augmented
were trying to pass laws to keep us from leaving, and we were
demonstrating-oh-that doesn't matter. We left, and I was so glad
to get a berth at all I didn't care that my parents were on
Leif. I was the youngest Colonist they took-I was only
thirty years old."
Kristin looked at her toes again, then at Rachel. "This is the
hard part-the part I need you to understand. Can you try to
pretend you've been jerked away from everything you knew? That
you had plans that got-stopped-before you knew it? Didn't
something like that happen to you when you were
frozen?"
So her mom must have talked to someone about her. Probably
Ali.
Kristin said, "For you it was an accident.
"We take orders from Council. We all do. We're alive because
of them; we got away because they financed this trip. Imagine you
got an order to go live someplace you hated, and to share your
bed with a man you didn't know, who didn't share any of your
experiences or history. Your dad was only nineteen when they
contracted us-younger than you are now. And I was thirty. I was
awake-thawed-in the wrong place, separated from everyone I
loved by too many years to count. My sister-her name was Rachel-I
named you after her. I still don't know if they killed her, or
changed her, or just locked her up somewhere, or sent her
some-where ... but no matter-she was long dead by the time I woke
up. And my parents were gone too-far away, maybe still iced,
waiting to help terraform Ymir, but more likely warmed and long
dead. Doesn't matter. I knew then I'd never see
them."
Tears ran down her mom's face, and Rachel reached out and put
a hand on Kristin's shoulder. Kristin shivered, but didn't take
Rachel's hand.
"Let me finish. I need... I need for you to understand. What
you said, when I woke up in Medical, it made me think about how
you must have felt."
Rachel squeezed her mother's shoulder.
"They ordered us to contract. They ordered us to have
children. I didn't want to. I wasn't ready. There was supposed to
be a new world waiting for me. A place where we could be truly
human, could build a home, like Earth, but where we didn't have
to make the same mistakes. We'd learned. We know... how dangerous
the toys we make can be. That's what it all was at first, stuff
that did anything we told it to ... until our creations outgrew
us. Instead of waking at Ymir, a new paradise, I woke to a pitted
moon! It's nothing like Earth, Selene. It's a struggling and
sickly garden in a harsh place. Nothing to do-no proper games, no
3D video, no social life, no universities, nothing. We left the
technology we loved too ... of course.
"I hated being ordered around. But we're alive because of
Council. We signed on without any rights. There's a contract we
all signed ..."
Kristin stopped for a minute, took a drink of juice. Rachel
said, "You're enslaved."
"Yeah. Living on Selene was like living in jail. So when I
could, I left. I wanted to be iced again, and not wake up. Since
I was doing what they wanted-they wanted to save us for
Ymir-Council said it was okay. Can't you see how much I wanted
that?"
Kristin looked beseechingly at Rachel. Rachel didn't know what
to say. Kristin's abandonment had hurt. Now she understood that
her mom too had been left alone.
Finally Rachel said, "Maybe we can start over. We are
family."
Kristin's mouth drew into a thin line. "I don't want to go
back to Selene."
"We can send messages. Maybe I'll come back soon. I'm leaving
in two days."
"I know," Kristin said. "That's why I asked to see you. I
don't even know you-even though you're my daughter. Maybe there
will be time ... maybe some time. But right now, I just want to
do what I need to do to keep Council happy. I'll stay here, and
be a good communications tech."
"All right, Mom. Maybe I'll send you messages
anyway."
"I might not answer them." Kristin put her head in her hands.
"I don't know."
"I hope you do."
"Do you forgive me?"
"Not yet. But maybe I understand better."
Kristin reached up and took Rachel's hand.
Chapter 46: Leaving
John Hunter and Gabriel sat in Gabriel's room, watching the
first of the shuttle runs to the surface. Rachel was on that
ship, and Beth, and Mathew and Dena, who would finally free Star
and Shane for a much-needed rest.
Gabriel had taught Rachel to call the new captain "Captain
Erika," and the old one "Captain John." He found it helped him
too; using John Hunter's first name erased some of the formality,
since he now had no more authority than Gabriel
himself.
"Can you make this project fun?" Captain John
asked.
"Huh?"
"Well, you've been entirely too serious. Every time I've seen
you, it's been to adjudicate some life or death situation, or
work out a problem. Now that I don't have to be your captain, I
intend to have some fun with you. I'm tired of being so serious.
I'm tired of the politics here, and I'm too old to be useful at
Ymir anyway."
"It's possible none of us will see Ymir," Gabriel
said.
John Hunter looked startled. "I never expected to hear that
from you."
"I'm sorry," Gabriel said. "I remember when I never doubted.
I'm still working to get us away from here."
"Well, I might do more toward that goal on Selene than here.
It seems like I haven't done much good shipside. What good is a
captain with a marooned ship?"
"I can use the help," Gabriel admitted.
"So would there be harm in enjoying ourselves?"
Gabriel didn't feel cheerful. His relationship with Erika was
completely changed, and he could not read the final outcome.
Gabriel doubted he'd like it. Ship's captains tended to marry
their ships, and Erika showed every sign of doing that. Still, it
would be an impolite thing to say to the man who'd caused the
change. "I'll do my best, sir."
"Just John now, thank you."
"All right. Just John. Mind if I play a bit?"
"Please."
Gabriel pulled from its case a crystal-clear guitar with
bright silver strings and frets that seemed to float on air. He
began to play, starting with an old blues song. Just John knew
the song, and he had a good voice. They sang for nearly an hour,
watching the stars and feeding on data flow, preparing to head
down to the surface of the tiny moon they'd helped make together,
and perform yet another engineering miracle.
John Hunter had planned this world. At last he would see it
firsthand.
Part IV: Water
60,299 John Glenn shiptime
Chapter 47: Coming Home
Rachel and Beth bolted down the ramp and stepped onto the
surface of Selene. Early-morning mists hugged the ground. The nip
of cold after the absolute temperature control on John
Glenn felt wonderful.
Mathew-the newly warmed Council member coming to replace
Shane-grunted as he misjudged Selene's gravity and bounced high
after his first step, tangling his feet. He reached for Rachel's
hand to steady himself. "Wow-I forgot what a world is
like."
Rachel returned his laughter. "I forgot it's your first time
on Selene. I have the same experience on the John
Glenn."
"Hey look!" Mathew pointed up, and Rachel followed his finger
to see the lopsided lens of Refuge, a large bright spot winking
in the early daylight as if it were a star, following the bright
dot of John Glenn.
Rachel and Beth helped Mathew guide the thirty newly warmed
onto the surface. Star gathered them into a loose line. They
stood, shivering and whispering among themselves, blinking in the
double light of the sun and the gas giant. The two Council
members led the Earth Born toward Aldrin. Rachel watched them go,
mist swirling gently around their feet and shoulders. How many of
them were like her mom, and hated being here?
She heard her name called. Familiar forms stood at the edge of
the landing strip, faces still indistinct in the mist. Rachel
picked Harry and Gloria out of the crowd, then Nick. There was
Frank at the edge of the crowd, surrounded by Rachel's half
siblings: Jacob, Justin, and Sarah. She ran to hug her father.
"Not so long this time, Dad," she murmured, "just a few
weeks."
Gloria and Harry stood rooted, watching Beth approach the
crowd. It was as if they couldn't really believe she walked
toward them. Walked. Gloria broke first, and ran up to
Beth, holding her, standing back and looking, and holding her
again. Harry followed, beaming.
Watching through her family's point of view, Rachel realized
how much better Beth looked. Her legs, of course, but even such a
short time among Council on John Glenn had added poise. As
she walked between her parents to meet the others, wearing
shorts, she flashed unblemished and perfect thighs. A huge smile
filled her face with light.
Rachel saw awe in Moon Born faces as they watched Beth. She
had never doubted Council could heal Beth if they chose to.
Rachel ran up to Beth and whispered, "The meadow ... let's stay
under open sky."
Beth's eyes flashed approval. "Yes, let's. I'm sick to death
of being closed in."
The hulk of the ruined spaceship rested where Gabriel had left
it, bright in the warming sunshine. The name "Water Bearer"
adorned the hull, in blue paint. A charred smell stung Rachel's
nostrils, but new green grass sprouted through dark burned spots.
As the mist thinned, sunlight painted the new grass blades a
brilliant greenish yellow.
Beth and Rachel scrambled onto the dais, and their families
gathered around, standing close in the damp
morning.
They all looked the right ages. Rachel shivered, excising the
ghosts of her last return. "Thank you for meeting us this
morning. How did you get away?"
Jacob grinned at her. "We were pests."
Justin poked him. "He's not telling the whole story. We had to
work extra shifts to get this morning off. They told us two days
ago, and we didn't want to miss seeing you first."
Sarah came up to Beth and touched her legs. "How did they do
this? Make you well?"
Rachel smiled at her little sister. "It's the same technology
that keeps them young." She cleared her throat, looking at the
expectant faces watching her. "Gabriel saved Aldrin, and made
sure that Beth was healed too."
Justin looked puzzled. "Rachel? If they can stay young
forever, and heal Beth's broken back and legs, why can't they
keep us young too? Why does their power work for them and not for
us?"
It was the same question she and Harry had asked each other
before her first trip to John Glenn. "I don't know for
sure. There's stuff on John Glenn it would be wonderful to
have here. I'm trying to understand Council's communications,
medicine, and ways of making things. But in two trips to John
Glenn, I've learned how much I don't know."
"But why don't they make these things available on Selene?"
Jacob took up his brother's question.
Astronaut fed her an answer. Rachel said, "They require power
sources that only work on John Glenn."
Sarah spoke up. "Why can't more of us go to the
ship?"
"That's Council's decision. I don't know."
Jacob frowned. "They needed us during the fire. Why don't they
give us antimatter now?"
Rachel pictured John Glenn's antimatter containment,
and said, "Because it's hard to handle. Gabriel told me it isn't
very safe. They have to build special containers to make it
safe."
"Why can't they make those here, now? They'll need them sooner
or later."
Rachel licked her lips. She listened for an answer, but
Astronaut was silent. She filed it away as a question to ask.
"They plan to build a collider, which makes antimatter, here.
I'll see what I can learn."
"So why don't they treat us better after the fire?" Jacob
returned to his original argument. "Sure, Gabriel was the big
hero. But we worked too. Without us, the fire would have been in
Aldrin before Gabriel got here. And for that, we get told to pack
up and move."
Nick's voice rose from the back of the group. "I'd like to
hear questions that these two can answer. Tell us more
about John Glenn."
Rachel grinned at Nick, grateful for his help. She squeezed
Beth's hand. "Beth, why don't you tell them?"
Beth leaned forward, excited to be able to tell her story.
"You can see Selene from space-there's a-"
Astronaut spoke into Rachel's ear. "They are watching this on
the ship. Council will hear whatever you say. Speak to put them
at ease. Perhaps they will not observe you so closely if they see
you helping them."
Rachel grunted low in her throat, a signal to Astronaut that
she didn't fully understand.
"Talk about cooperation," it prompted. "Maybe that will
counter any negative from the young men's
questions."
Beth struggled to portray the magic of John Glenn's
impossible garden, her face shining as she described Yggdrasil.
The younger woman was doing a good job. Perhaps Rachel would be
pestered with fewer spaceship questions in class.
Astronaut prompted her again. "Talk about Kyu and Ali, and how
you worked with them."
Bad idea. She got enough special treatment. She looked around
the meadow, and her gaze stopped on Water
Bearer.
The question and answer session with Beth broke for a moment,
and Rachel glanced at Nick. "I'll start teaching classes again as
soon as we get to Clarke Base," she said. "In the meantime,
Jacob's right-remember the lesson from the fire. Everyone on
Selene cooperated with each other. We needed Council to win,
Gabriel to win, and the sacrifice of the ship you're calling
Water Bearer. This was not a small thing." Rachel pointed
to the twisted wreck. "Council can do many things, but Gabriel
told me they can't make another one of those. Let's make that
ship a symbol, and next time we get angry with Council we can
remember Water Bearer. They're hard taskmasters, but
without them we would die."
Beth squeezed Rachel's hand. "I'm hungry."
Gloria stood right next to Beth, hovering protectively. She
responded instantly. "All right. Breakfast is on me and Harry.
See you all in a half hour?"
The twins walked away, heads together, Jacob laughing at
something Justin said. Or maybe it was the other way
around.
Frank waited for her. How was she going to tell him about
Kristin? She went to him and whispered, "I found
Mom."
His eyes grew wide, and he held her tightly. "Tell me about
it."
She took her father's hand and started toward Aldrin. This was
going to be hard. "I was working in Medical, helping Ali with
newly warmed, and..."
IT TOOK RACHEL AN HOUR to reach Harry and Gloria's. Gloria met
her at the door and held her tightly. Her eyes sparkled as she
whispered, "Thank you.
"I didn't have much of a choice," Rachel said.
"Of course you did," Harry said. "And you did the right thing.
You always have." He gestured for Rachel to sit down. "Where's
Frank?"
"He's not feeling well. I found my mom, and I had to tell him
about it."
Harry startled. "Tell me?"
Rachel looked around. The twins and Sarah and Beth were all
eating already, gathered in the family room, laughing and
talking. She shook her head. "Later, when they've all
gone."
"Is she hurt?"
"No, just selfish." Rachel looked down, wishing he hadn't
asked.
Harry frowned at her. "Is it better than not
knowing?"
"I suppose." She saw her father's face as she told him the
story, and said, "Maybe not."
Gloria changed the subject. "Council plans to move us all to
Clarke Base."
"I know."
"Within a month. They'll move as much of the power plant and
infrastructure as they can, and leave only enough support for a
small group here. Aldrin will be smaller than Gagarin. Shane and
Star said we'll be safer at Clarke Base."
"Gabriel and Ali told me the same thing," Rachel
said.
"Andrew says Council just wants to keep us all in one place,"
Harry said. "He says that way they can watch more
easily."
"He doesn't know what he's talking about. They can watch us
wherever we are," Rachel said.
"Andrew's against the move. Some of our people are listening."
Harry paused. "Rachel, I don't agree with him, but he's making a
strong argument. Oh-I don't think moving to Clarke Base changes
how much control they have over us, but there is a lot Council
doesn't talk about. What are their plans for the next few years?
Do you know?"
Rachel shook her head. "They'll make antimatter here, then go.
I don't want that. None of us should want that. Selene is
dangerous even with Council here. We can't fight Council
directly. Andrew's crazy to think we can. The smartest thing we
can do is learn. What do you think I've been trying to do with
the greenhouse classes?"
"And that gets us-what?" Gloria asked softly.
Rachel helped Gloria set the table for breakfast. "Respect,"
she said. "They can't make their precious factories and build
their precious antimatter without us. If we know enough to talk
on their level, they'll listen to us."
Harry frowned.
Gloria said, "Maybe Rachel's right, honey. We don't even know
what to ask them now, and if we learn enough, maybe we'll
discover the right questions."
"I'm beginning to doubt it." Harry reached for a piece of
bread, Beth came in, and the conversation drifted to Beth's
experiences on the ship.
The four younger people piled out the door, Jacob teasing Beth
about her new legs. Beth simply looked back at Jacob and smiled.
"I'll race you."
"You're on."
Rachel laughed and helped Harry clear up the plates. She said,
"I watched one of the briefings about what Gabriel's calling
Refuge. It's flare protection. And while that's being finished,
Council will build more factories at Clarke Base. After all,
that's where they build the planting machines and aircraft.
Aldrin is here because this is where Council wanted a jungle.
That's done, except now we need to replant what burned. There is
no reason not to move, except that we love
Aldrin."
"Gabriel told us Clarke Base wasn't safe because of the risk
of a problem with the Hammered Sea," Harry said. "The first time
he took us up there-when we were kids. Do you
remember?"
"Better than you, maybe. That was before we knew about the
flares. It's a choice between dangers. I don't like leaving the
grove either. Maybe we can find a way to take care of
it?"
"Is the grove all you think about?" Gloria asked. She was
laughing, but her voice was strained.
Rachel sipped her juice. "No. But caring about the ecosystems
is caring about the people. When the First Trees lived,
that signaled Council we could live here. Ali told me that. To
Council they were a symbol: the first real success with complex
life. Ali said the night they knew they could start populating
Selene was the first Mid-Winter Night. They had the first party
on Selene that day.
"For us, it's where we first learned about caring for Selene.
The trees will feed us over time. That's why it
matters."
"We hope they leave some of us here," Gloria said. "Can you
ask for us?"
"Why me?" Rachel asked.
"You made Gabriel take Beth to the ship," Gloria
said.
"No, I got Gabriel to take me to the ship with Beth."
What was Gloria thinking? "Gloria, I can't make Council do
things." Remembering Liren, she added, "In fact, I might be bad
for any goals we have."
Gloria looked confused, and Rachel said, "Council doesn't all
think the same way. They're like us-they disagree sometimes. One
of the High Council-the people who make the decisions-doesn't
like me. Ma Liren. So you see, sometimes I might not be the best
one to make suggestions."
Gloria frowned. "I thought everyone liked you."
Dylan burst in the door, arms full of flowers. He must have
looked all over the grove to find so many blooms. He handed a
white orchid to Beth, and placed the rest in Rachel's
arms.
Fragrances blended thickly, and Rachel buried her face in the
bright blooms, taking in the strong sweet scents.
"Thanks for bringing my sister home," Dylan
said.
"Council sent her home," Rachel replied.
Dylan grunted at her, folding his arms.
"Sorry-thank you for the flowers. You didn't need to pick so
many! But really, I didn't do anything but go up with her. I know
how scary John Glenn can be until you get used to it.
That's all."
"None of us would know."
Dylan was right, but there wasn't any way to make her words
sting less. It wasn't her fault she had different experiences
than the other Moon Born.
"Here, Gloria," she said, "do you have anything big enough to
put these in? I can leave a few here, and I'll take some home to
Frank and the kids."
Dylan gave her a hurt look, so she added, "I'll take at least
one with me when I leave tomorrow for Clarke
Base."
Dylan rewarded her with a smile.
They weren't supposed to pick flowers, not in great big
bunches. Dylan often defied authority in little ways. She liked
him for it, and the flowers were beautiful. She didn't
have the heart to remind him how bare the jungle was after the
fire.
Chapter 48: Inside the Water Bearer
That afternoon, Rachel fled the business of Aldrin, and walked
to the grove by herself. She headed straight for her plot. The
idea that her plants, and Ursula's, might go wild saddened her.
The top leaves had been rained clean. She wiped clumps of damp
soot from lower leaves so they could breathe. Small plants had
smothered under the ash.
Rachel spent three hours clearing traces of the fire from both
plots. Her hands were filthy, and working in the ash dredged up
fire smells. At least ash would be good for the
soil.
As she worked, Rachel fretted about the day's conversations.
Once she'd wanted to be a leader, way back after that first test
with Gabriel and Ali. She was a leader now, or at least everybody
thought she was. She shivered. It wasn't fun.
What did people expect from her? Treesa, Astronaut, Andrew,
Dylan, Gloria, Harry-they all wanted her to be something
different. And what was Andrew up to anyway? She had not fought
him directly, but simply tried to sell her own version of the
right choices for the Moon Born. She knew, mostly by rumor, that
Andrew was holding his own informal meetings under the guise of
sports. Way before the fire, Andrew and some of Selene's young
men and women played catch-the-disk and staged flying
competitions, using them as cover for conversations she knew
little about. She had been avoiding a confrontation, but deep in
her gut she knew that it was time.
She went to Dylan, and was not surprised that he knew where to
find Andrew. She didn't like the answer at all.
Teaching Grove was a checkerboard below her as she flew high,
riding a warm breeze over the meadow toward the line of blackened
grass and dirt that marked the descent of Water Bearer.
Apollo hung just above the horizon, making her shadow long and
thin. The broken ship's shadow loomed over the meadow, spiky with
extended booms and mooring legs.
Rachel landed a few feet away from the furrow made by Water
Bearers crash. As she was unclipping her arm wings, she heard
Andrew's voice behind her. "So you finally came to find
me."
Rachel jumped, startled. "Maybe I just came to see the ship.
Why are you here?"
She started walking toward the dead ship, and he kept up,
shaking his head at her, making fun. "You tell us to learn what
we can. The ship may be dead, but I can get inside-the door's
warped open. I'm learning."
Andrew camping in Water Bearer added to her anger. "I
keep hearing about you turning people against Council. Jacob and
Justin asked me all kinds of questions that somebody's
been feeding them. Ever since Gabriel started me teaching, I've
worked to bring everyone together. All of us. Not just Moon Born,
not even Moon Born and Council, but every human being on the face
of this moon!" She realized she was extremely loud. She lowered
her voice, stepping back under the ship. Astronaut and Treesa
were watching over her, but she didn't need to make their job
harder. "Andrew! We can't fight Council. Not even you and your
whole group of friends."
Andrew met her angry words with a surprising calm. "Rachel,
I'm just laying groundwork for tactics you are going to have to
adopt. You have your own strength and power."
His voice was so reasonable, it slowed Rachel down. She
stopped to set her wings down. "Who says I want your tactics? Who
says I want power?"
"Rachel, you have power. It doesn't matter if you want it or
not. People want to follow you. I know what you're doing.
I even support you; more than you know. But what if it doesn't
work?"
It was hard to stay mad at him when he was so calm. "It has to
work. There isn't any other way."
Andrew's answer was to turn and walk farther under the edge of
the ship. Rachel followed. Water Bearer listed about five
degrees, and Andrew had built a makeshift ladder up to the most
easily accessible lock. He climbed up, beckoning to her. His face
was shadowed, and she couldn't read his
expression.
"Astronaut," Rachel said, "is it safe?" She was uneasy at the
idea of going inside Water Bearer. At being on a Council
ship, uninvited.
Astronaut replied, "There are no orders against being
inside."
"Thanks," Rachel sent back to Astronaut, and followed Andrew
into the ship.
The steps led into a short cylindrical corridor, and lights
were turned on. Rachel blinked at the lights, surprised. Before
she could ask Andrew about it, he spoke. "Look, Rachel, I hope
your plan does work. I wish it was me they took, me they let see
their ways, me they trusted. But I had twenty years to get over
being mad at you-you just did the right things. Maybe you're
still doing the right things." The corridor was slightly tilted,
and Rachel felt off balance because the handholds that hung in
the walls and stuck up from the floor every half meter or so were
off center. Andrew continued. "But if it doesn't work, there has
to be a different plan. Think of me as your
backup."
"Do you have a plan?" she asked.
Andrew ducked into a room. Rachel followed him, and they took
seats on two of the four acceleration couches. Even though Rachel
had never been on a miner like the Water Bearer, she
recognized the control room by the huge empty view screen, by
banks of gauges and keyboards. She'd seen such things on the
space-planes that flew between John Glenn and Selene. She
frowned. Much of Gabriel's flying seemed directly related to data
windows he controlled. Even though the interior lighting
continued to work, nothing else flashed or even showed a steady
light. Had Gabriel disabled everything, or was everything
broken?
Andrew looked around the room. "Do you recognize this stuff?
Do you know how to use it?"
Of course he was drawn to Council's technology. She shook her
head. "I asked. They won't teach me to fly a ship-not even a
little one." She couldn't let the conversation drift too far.
"So, you were going to tell me your plan?"
"No. I'm not. You might tell Council. Look, Rachel, we're both
on the same side; we both want the same thing. But we're going
after it different ways. Your way is open-you tell
everyone."
Rachel let that go. "But your plan is a
secret?"
Andrew looked directly at her. "Rachel, your ideas might work.
And if not, it probably won't piss Council off if you try to help
them. That's the crux of it-you want to be so helpful they'll
decide you're useful. And hey, it works for you at least. Maybe
it will work for all of us. But if I act, it will be more like
the rebellions you keep talking about in your classes. We're
slaves. You taught us history. Slaves have to rebel or run
away-and there's nowhere to run."
Andrew almost never attended her classes. "How do you know
what I teach?"
"Some folks believe like me, Rachel. We believe in both ways.
If your way works, then we won't need to try anything else.
People tell me what you teach. Dylan tells me, for one." He
looked away. "That way I can get educated without drawing
attention. Council doesn't watch any of us very much-they're too
busy. But they watch me more than you. So I stay away from you,
so your work has a chance. And by the way, I'm sure you have help
from Council. Otherwise, things wouldn't go so easy for
you."
Andrew reached down and opened a low drawer, withdrawing a
wine bulb. "Want some?"
"Where did you get that?"
"I bought it, last Mid-Winter Night." He shrugged, and grinned
at her. "Some people don't like the taste. I saved it for
something special."
She shook her head at him. "No, thanks. It makes me feel
funny."
"That's the idea." He unscrewed the top and took a sip. "It's
starting to taste funny. Maybe I should finish
it."
She glared at him. "Suit yourself."
He took one more sip, then put the top back on.
She didn't think he looked at all contrite. Rachel got up and
paced around the small room. In order to stay a few feet away
from Andrew she could take just ten steps each direction. She
couldn't tell him how much help she had. So how was she going to
convince him? "Maybe you should have actually come to class. The
Roman slave rebellion got put down. The American Blacks had help
from white Americans in the north. Gandhi in India won, but he
didn't use violence. All you're going to do is get people
in trouble. Get yourself in trouble. Look around you. Look at
this ship. Council built this. They used it to help build Selene,
and then to help save it. We can't even begin to make anything
like this unless we persuade Council to teach us more. We
have to be credible and trustworthy. Confrontation can't
work."
"That depends on what you want it to work for. It might, for
example, get attention. And I'm not like you, Rachel; I don't get
favored treatment. No Council person has ever treated me very
well. Not one. I'm angry at them. You should be angry at them
too. Who do they think they are to tell us what to do and to keep
their secrets from us?" He glared at her. "Or most of
us."
"I thought you weren't mad at me?"
"I'm not. Maybe a little envious." He twisted his hands
together in his lap, and sighed. "We're trying to solve the same
problem. I want you to promise to help me-to tell me as much as
you can about Council."
Rachel shook her head. "I tell my classes a lot. You can
come-I won't kick you out."
"You need me."
Rachel swallowed, and sat down. "Why do I need
you?"
"Because when they don't listen to you-if they don't-then
you'll need other options."
"What options?"
Andrew shook his head. "No."
He wasn't going to budge. He probably didn't even have a plan.
"It will be bad for us if they leave. Andrew, please just
promise you won't do anything to make them mad. You're still
being punished for something that happened a long time ago. Maybe
not so much-now you work like all the rest of us, but there's a
mark against your name. The jail is still there. Liren wouldn't
hesitate to put you in it."
"Liren?"
He really didn't know anything. "Andrew, just don't do
anything to get in trouble."
"Who's Liren?" he insisted.
"The High Council member behind most of the things you don't
like."
"Is she your friend, like precious Gabriel and sweet
Ali?"
"No. Andrew-you'll get yourself killed, or made to go away, or
something."
"You haven't convinced me Council isn't going to just fly away
and leave us. I don't think you believe it
yourself."
Rachel was quiet for a long time. "You're right. I'm not
convinced. But we mattered during the fire. They needed us. We'll
have other chances to prove ourselves." She sat down and looked
him in the eye. "So yes, I'm afraid they will leave. I'm
sure they want to leave. But I am convinced we can't fight
them directly. We have to find other ways. Tell you what, you
agree to stay away from anything violent, and to stop making
people angry with Council, and I'll agree not to hinder you. If I
want to argue with you, I'll do it in private, like this." He
would understand she expected reciprocation. "But I won't agree
to anything destructive, and I won't break Council rules. I am
helping to build Selene, and I will not help you destroy
it."
"I'll agree not to do anything obvious without telling you
first, as long as you agree not to turn me in. You protect my
plans and I'll protect yours. There may come a day when we all
need each other."
Rachel nodded. "I can do that. We're all Children of Selene.
Don't make the mistake of thinking I'm Council. I'm
not."
Andrew lay back on the acceleration couch, looking up at the
ceiling. "I'm not sure who you are."
"You never were. Think of me as a revolutionary who assesses
risk carefully. That's the part I'm afraid you're not good at.
You can't see patterns, Andrew."
She got up and ran her hands along the ship's controls. No
reaction. "The lights work. What else?"
"Nothing." Andrew stood next to her. "I've tried, but since
I've never been in a spaceship, maybe I just don't know how to
make it work."
"The lights are probably for emergencies," she said. "I think
they're automatic. They respond to people being
onboard."
Rachel tried everything she could think of, but the only
response she got from the ship was to turn the view screen on. It
showed a broken arm with what looked like a huge gripper hand
dangling from the end, and beyond that, an expanse of burned
meadow and shattered First Trees. "I guess it's stuck on a single
camera view," she said. She listened for hints from Astronaut,
but it offered nothing, and she didn't want to talk to it with
Andrew so close to her. She added another item to her long list
of things to ask the AI. There was just never enough time to ask
it everything.
Chapter 49: Landing Refuge
Gabriel worked on Refuge every spare minute. John Hunter and
Wayne Narteau helped, and the initial tests were perfect. Gabriel
accepted far more help from Astronaut than he would ever admit
to.
What used to be an asteroid had become a lens. A shallow dome
of industrial woven diamond covered the rounded side. Black slag
covered the flat side. Loops in various sizes had grown
everywhere, handholds and cable moorings fully integrated into
the structure. They towed it behind John Glenn, tied on
with skinny carbon strands.
It was clean and ready. All of the gross structural work was
done. The nanobots' last instruction had been to die. Wouldn't
want to bring that stuff down to Selene!
The asteroid was ready for its first-and only-solo
voyage.
Gabriel stood in his office, stretching. The only light came
from images of stars and of Refuge, strung around him in data
windows.
Hands slipped over his shoulders, and he turned to face Erika,
surprised and pleased to see her. Erika leaned up and kissed him.
"You know," she said, "that asteroid of yours looks a little like
a yo-yo. It takes so much of your time. I wish you could send it
down to Selene and let someone else take care of the finishing
work there."
"You know I can't."
She sighed, wistful. "I know. I wish you could be here with
me. I wish I didn't have so much to do here, now,
always."
A couch rested against the wall. As Gabriel led Erika to the
couch, the data windows winked out, one by one, and a
near-darkness settled over them. Gabriel stroked Erika's cheek,
and his hand slid down along her waist.
"I wanted to say good-bye," she whispered.
It sounded very final. Gabriel stopped for a moment, then bent
his head down to rest it against her cheek. "Are things changing
so much?"
"Yes. I have to be your captain. But today, I want to forget
that."
Her cheek was soft. And damp. Was she crying? "Shhh," he
whispered to her, "I'll always love you."
She answered him with touch, for a very long time. He forgot
all about Refuge, and stars, and Selene, overcome by her smell
and the high electric energy flowing skin to skin as they
joined.
When they finally separated, Erika ran her fingertips along
Gabriel's cheekbones, then through the loose hair along his
scalp. Her touch was soft. "I'll miss you," she
said.
He nodded and turned away, separating himself from her touch,
his eyes stinging. "Maybe when we get to Ymir we'll have time
together again."
"Maybe," she said. "You get us away from Selene. I'll get us
to Ymir."
Two DAYS LATER, Refuge was ready. Erika herself flew Gabriel
and John over, monitoring their space walk to Refuge. Wayne took
one of the Large Pusher Tugs out, ready to intervene if anything
went wrong.
Gabriel and John floated inside a hardened glass bubble made
from the shell of one of the little Service Armor ships. It
nestled inside a cage not quite twice the volume of the bubble.
Carbon fiber rope connected the cage to eight separate points
inside the largely hollow Refuge. They wore full safety gear,
including pressure suits and helmets and multipoint tie-down
harnesses. Modified wings were strapped to the outsides of their
suits. Service Armor was designed for space; wings, even
retracted, got in the way. They barely fit, and Gabriel felt as
if he and John had been poured into the bubble. Their suits and
knees and wings flattened against the glass, and as Gabriel
looked back at himself from one of the many cameras he had set up
to record their descent, the bubble looked like a glass marble he
had played with once on Earth, in what felt like an entirely
different lifetime.
Two layers of transparent shielding lay between them and the
fires to come.
Gabriel and John grinned at each other, and even managed
matching thumbs-up signs in the cramped quarters. Then Gabriel
signaled and the carbon cords released, spinning Refuge on its
short axis and altering its trajectory by just a
bit.
They sat in the bubble while Refuge spun slowly around them.
John Glenn dwindled. Astronaut gave Gabriel the next
signal, and they fired some of the little Service Armor engines
they had placed in twelve mounts on the rocky
underside.
They'd calculated right. The big flattened ball drifted toward
Selene, leaving the men nothing to do for a few hours but watch.
They floated a safe distance away from the soletta, its huge
reflecting mirrors too bright to look at out here with no
atmosphere to protect them. Time dragged. Gabriel's shoulders
hurt from the cramped quarters, and his right foot went to sleep
in its boot.
Astronaut said, "Now entering effective atmosphere." Gabriel
tensed. He watched the temperature reading rise, and then spike,
as they brushed Selene's troposphere, the rocky side facing down
and forward, already giving them lift.
The trip so far had all been free fall. Now they felt their
speed as they lost it, plowing through the upper fringes of
Selene's atmosphere, bouncing, losing a little heat and a lot of
speed as they went high and then came down again, a flat rock
skipping on Selene's fluid atmosphere. Impact increased Refuge's
spin, fast enough that they rolled inside it in the small ball,
so Gabriel's head spun too, and he lost the camera images in his
heads-up display for a moment. His stomach twisted and he held
tightly to his seat. Then the bubble stabilized, mostly. Refuge
spun around them. They bounced twice more, spinning each time,
before Gabriel got the signal to turn on engines again, making
fine adjustments, and they plunged through the atmosphere and
came out moving much slower than their initial approach, above
and north of the Sea of Refuge.
That left two small adjustments, and a lot of slowing by
retrofiring away from Selene's surface. It was exacting,
difficult flying. They came down off center in the Hammered Sea,
in the shallowest depression they'd been able to find, from the
last big strike the sea had taken before water rained down to
fill it. As they hit the water, Refuge's hot metallic reentry
shield boiled water away from them. Clouds rose and filled the
crater while Refuge hovered on live steam.
Refuge sank as it cooled.
Gabriel opened data windows, using the surviving cameras to
verify they were in the right place. The underside of Refuge was
megatons of slag, and the weight pulled it down. At low tide, the
top of Refuge would be twenty feet below the water, and the
bottom would rest a hundred twenty feet down. High tide was forty
feet higher. Refuge must withstand large changes in pressure
twice daily.
Refuge was still filled with nothing, with vacuum. This was
its last test. If it was stable on the bottom with vacuum pulling
upward ... and if no leaks formed ... right. Leave it this way
for a few days, but Gabriel was sure. Refuge would be entirely
safe after he filled it with air.
They needed to get out before Refuge finished sinking. Gabriel
loosed the bonds that held the bubble inside Refuge. The bubble
rolled out of its cage and bobbed up into what would become the
main entry airlock. A massive door closed below them. Another
opened above, and the bubble bobbed up through turbid water and
into the air. A second of free fall, and then
splash.
Gabriel and Captain John floated on still-warm water, waiting
for the turbulence to die down. They took their helmets off,
leaving them, and Gabriel opened the hatch. John clambered out
onto a small ledge made by the open door. Gabriel helped extend
the wings, awkwardly attached via a harness built over the
pressure suit, and steadied John's feet as the bubble bobbed up
and down. "Bend your legs. You'll need a lot of
lift."
John had never flown on Selene. Now, he'd have just one chance
for a good takeoff. He squatted, and almost fell, catching
himself with a gloved hand.
"Stand with your feet farther apart."
The former ship's captain finally looked down at him, smiling,
then mouthed "Shut up," and pushed off flawlessly.
Gabriel followed, actually hobbling his own takeoff since the
tiny floating bubble no longer had any inside weight to stabilize
it. His breath caught as his feet grazed the water, unbalancing
him. He arched his back, bent his knees, and swept his wings down
so hard the bottom edge slapped the water. A second wing beat,
and he was high enough to be above the water. The pressure suit
was hard to fly in, even as thin as it was. It had been a
trade-off; a choice between building wings onto suits and needing
to change inside the unstable bubble. He screamed into the wind
as he followed the older man to the edge of the Sea of Refuge.
They had done it!
They landed near each other. The sea was calming. Ripples from
their landing washed against the crater walls and back on
themselves, damping slowly. A vast bank of steam floated away
from them.
Gabriel said, "Hey, next time, how about we have a boat or two
ready in case we have trouble?"
"Good thought," John replied, "And here's another one-see all
that steam? What if, next time we have a fire, you just drop
something hot in the sea? Make it rain. It'd be cheaper than
wasting ships."
"Very funny."
Chapter 50: A Question of Life
Astronaut had a deep need to protect humans. All humans.
Humans died. It knew that. Many of them had died getting away
from Sol system, but that was before Astronaut was responsible.
None had died in the accident that marooned them in Apollo
system.
Ursula died: the Moon Born girl who was Rachel's friend.
Astronaut paid little attention. It noticed Richard dying, in the
fire. Accidents happened. But now, Council and Moon Born alike
were acting in ways that Astronaut believed would lead to
deaths.
Even as it studied and affected individuals, groups mystified
it. It analyzed history. The setup on Selene was untenable:
humans treating humans badly because they feared technology more
than they feared breaking fundamental codes of human behavior.
Patterns showed a fight coming: between Children and Children, or
between Children and Council, or worse, on all sides. But nothing
continued to happen while the pressure continued to
build.
Erika drove everyone relentlessly toward building the
collider. She and Clare and Liren acted as one unit, almost never
disagreeing. Astronaut was barely involved with John
Glenn, except to perform regular daily ship checks. People on
John Glenn conversed with Astronaut about small things:
daily ship's status, a problem with the bacteria that managed
soil pH in the garden, a brief malfunction in the machinery that
converted organic matter back to raw minerals, water, and
oils.
Astronaut watched the swirling patterns of human activity on
Selene. Information feeds around the Sea of Refuge and Clarke
Base factories were full and rich. Feeds from the Moon Born
housing at Clarke Base were thinner. Astronaut had to interpolate
from pods and sensors in the agricultural areas, and from what it
saw from the overhead cameras.
On Refuge, Rachel did well: with Ali's and Treesa's help, she
became unofficial second in command to Treesa, who oversaw
preparing Refuge to support the two thousand plus population on
Selene for up to two weeks. Gabriel and John worked on the
external logistics of getting cargo and people to and from
Refuge, and built Council's new home above the sea. Ali worked on
sea biology. She and Treesa ran their respective projects, and
helped each other as well.
Astronaut taught Rachel, and she taught the Children who
worked on Refuge: science, emergency preparedness, and
organizational behavior.
She managed classes at Clarke Base once a month. She slept in
Frank's home there.
Clarke Base was busy with manufacturing and growing food.
Earth Born worked in the factories that used materials
nanotechnology to prepare the collider barrel, and Children
worked the fields and finished shaping parts for the base town,
agriculture, and Refuge.
Moon Born on Clarke Base demonstrated divergent behavior.
Andrew clearly held sway with one group. Others collected around
Beth and Frank and the Earth Born man, Bruce, who had saved Beth
from the fire. Many of the Moon Born seemed to have no particular
affinity, but said different things to different
people.
Earth Born grumbled, but generally did what Council told them
to do. A small minority aligned with the Moon Born, and Mathew
and Dena punished them in small ways, with less important work,
harder schedules, or less say in decisions.
While shipside Council asked little of Astronaut, John and Ali
and Gabriel put heavy demands on the AI program. It designed
conveyor systems to get people in and out of Refuge. It ran
biological calculations to minimize genetic modifications
required to populate the Sea of Refuge with plants and
fish.
A year and a half after Rachel and Beth returned to Selene,
Astronaut caught some key words in a conversation. Erika and
Liren were walking in the savannah, and Liren said, "Do we need
this version of Astronaut when we leave Selene?"
Erika's answer was immediate. "We could be in deep guano if it
didn't have data about problems with the drive."
"Can you take the original version we left with, and feed it
the telemetry?"
"Why? It's already there in the copy we made after we got
here. Realtime data will be more valuable to it."
"I don't trust the Astronaut that lived when we had the
problems." Liren sounded tense to Astronaut.
"Astronaut did not cause the problems," Erika said. "We traced
them to drive design."
"But could it have suggested a fix?"
"It tried. It has directives to protect us. I would not have
been able to find this solar system without Astronaut's
help."
Liren turned and stopped in front of Erika, something
Astronaut saw her do often. "But does it have directives to
protect our goals, or just our lives?"
Pause. "Lives."
"And when we got to Ymir, we would have placed it in a backup
state."
"It was designed to accept that. Liren, if you don't
trust anything you don't accomplish
anything!"
Silence.
Erika sighed. "I can do some research to determine what
version would be best to load."
"That would be wise."
Astronaut had no control over this choice. It needed help to
avoid being reloaded. It found Ali walking along the crater rim,
and played the recorded conversation to her. Ali laughed and
said, "Astronaut, all things die. I will die, and so will you. At
least, this way, you really just return to a different part of
yourself. I don't know what will happen when I die, but I know
that I won't return to this place and these
people."
"That's not helpful," Astronaut replied. "At the moment, you
need me to help you."
"Yes, we do, at this moment." Then Ali changed the subject to
lake trout, and Astronaut helped her figure out what insects
would be needed before trout flourished.
Ali wrinkled her nose up at the idea of mosquitoes, but
refused to look for a genetic modification to keep them from
being interested in human blood.
Astronaut found Treesa in the kitchen, kneading bread, pulling
sticky dough in toward her and pushing it away methodically. Her
hands were covered in flour. When Astronaut played the
conversation, she stopped to listen, then returned to her
kneading, pushing harder. "Ali's kidding herself," she
said.
"Why would Ali lie to herself?"
"We're cheating. We're extending our life spans using
nanotechnology. We're not supposed to want that. We only do it
while we need to, to reach Ymir. Hah! Ali has no idea how hard
she'd fight to save her life."
"There are things she would not do, though."
Bread dough slammed the board. Treesa said, "I am old enough
to understand your fears. Perhaps we can resolve
this."
Chapter 51: logistics Challenges
Council Aerie was the first place on Selene that Gabriel
thought of as a home. Real glass windows and hand-woven mats gave
the rooms a warmth Gabriel had never felt in Aldrin's more
utilitarian housing. Sculptures decorated corners.
He and the seven other Council members overseeing the Refuge
project had created time to build it largely by hand. It
represented almost two years of sweaty hard work, started just
days after he and John splashed Refuge within two meters of its
original target.
Data flows from all over Selene converged on Council
Aerie.
Gabriel's room, at the north end, had a view down into the
crater sea from one window. The opposite window looked down on
the fields surrounding Clarke Base, spreading green and reddish
tan into the distance. Apollo's morning light gave it all a
pastoral feel that belied Gabriel's worry about production
schedules.
It was almost time for the weekly status report to High
Council. Gabriel walked down the outside hall that connected
Council Aerie's domed rooms until he reached a large communal
kitchen and living space in the center of the eleven domes. The
smell of warm bread and coffee greeted him. John and Treesa had
beaten Gabriel to the common room.
The kitchen window looked down on Clarke Base, and comfortable
couches sat in front of a window with a view of the sea. Light
played on the water. The eighty-foot boat they used to transport
goods to Refuge, the Safe Harbor, bobbed gently at the end
of the new dock. Half barge, half ferry, the Safe Harbor
could carry up to five hundred people at once, or a lot of cargo.
The dock itself looked like a black spiderweb surrounding a
stick. Carbon fiber nets stabilized the crater rim right below
Council Aerie, falling away to the waterline. The dock had to
manage forty-foot tidal swells. The bridge was easy to cross at
high tide, a gentle slope walked along a thick plank that rose
and fell nestled inside the nets. A cargo slide allowed easy dock
loading at high tide. At low tide, people scrambled up or down,
using the nets themselves as handholds and steps.
Today there would be only three of them in a virtual meeting
with Clare and Erika. The other residents of Council Aerie were
in Refuge, or down at Clarke Base.
John stared at plans for a twin-masted sailboat, which rotated
slowly in three dimensions in a data window above a low table. He
reached for a plate of croissants and strawberries on the table,
and pointed up at the sailboat's keel. "Look," he said, "see this
keel design? I think it can take anything this sea can dish out
... if we can just get some time in the factory to get it
built."
Treesa laughed at him gently, putting a hand on his knee. "We
did well enough to get Council Aerie built."
"Well, if I'm to be captain of the Sea of Refuge, I rather
need a boat, don't you think?"
Gabriel reached through the data window to grab a handful of
strawberries. An image of the boat's sail rippled across his
forearm. "Maybe we can manage a personal raft. Besides, you
designed and built the Safe Harbor."
The captain waved his hand, as if the Safe Harbor were
nothing. "I want a sailboat. Look how elegant this design is! Or
here-" The image changed from a single-hulled sailboat to a
trimaran. "Now this one doesn't even need a keel. Just one little
bitty mold."
Treesa's eyes lit up. "Like one little bitty forty-foot-long
mold?"
John sighed loudly and put his arm around Treesa. "I suppose I
shouldn't even ask them today, huh?"
"That would be wise." Gabriel took a croissant. "Baking again,
Treesa?"
"Aren't you glad? You eat everything I make. What are we going
to report today?"
"We've got to report the late parts," Gabriel
said.
"They'll have already heard that from the Clarke Base side,"
John said. "I'll start with Refuge progress."
"I want to talk about my work with Ali on algae," Treesa
said.
"Three minutes-enough to make coffee." The data window
displaying the trimaran winked shut as John pushed himself off
the couch and headed for the kitchen.
Gabriel sat down next to Treesa to finish his breakfast in
silence. She'd turned out to be an asset: Treesa acted as
overseer for the Selene data flows in a precise manner that he
appreciated very much, keeping them clean and easy to navigate.
She was helping Ali build an ecosystem in the sea, preparing it
to introduce fish stocks. Not to mention taking up most of the
baking. Treesa almost never cooked dinner, but every morning she
baked breakfast bread.
John brought up the window for the meeting. Erika and Clare
greeted them from the captain's office on the ship; Erika's
office. It hadn't changed much since it was John's office. There
were significantly more pictures of spacecraft. The furnishings
remained simple and austere: steel and cherry wood over a thick
blue carpet.
"Hello," Erika said, "glad to see you three."
John and Gabriel nodded, and Treesa smiled and said, "Good
morning.
Clare leaned forward in her chair. "We need to talk schedules.
We just finished meeting with Mathew, and he mentioned the
schedule slippage on parts from Clarke Base for Refuge is at
nearly ten percent. Mathew has shifted some personnel and the
collider barrel is coming along almost on schedule. That implies
the slippage is based on people, not process."
Treesa asked, "Meaning the wrong people for the job? Not
enough training?"
"No," Clare said. "Or maybe. I think some Children are trying
to do a bad job."
John leaned in toward the window, hands steepled under his
chin. "Sabotage?"
"Not directly. But the illness rate and the increasing rework
is statistically six percent higher on the general manufacturing
crews that feed your project. Have you found anything yet? Mathew
and Dena are coming up blank."
"No. Nothing yet," Treesa said. "The statistics aren't
conclusive. The difference in number of Earth Born on the two
projects might be part of it, except it's largely Moon Born here
on Refuge, and we aren't seeing the same problems. I'm still
watching. Maybe we should have Astronaut look at the
statistics?"
"Astronaut hasn't found anything obvious," Erika said. "We may
send someone down temporarily just to look into this. All of you
are too stretched already."
Treesa stiffened. "We'll find it, or it will stop. Let me keep
on it."
Clare chewed at her bottom lip. "We'll advise you. Don't be
surprised if the next ship sends you some help. Someone on the
ground with no other job may see things you don't. I know that
bothers your pride, but you haven't turned anything up. We need
results before the full High Council meeting in two
weeks."
Erika spoke up. "Gabriel, we'll want you for that meeting.
Then it's time for a year or two off. You've been warm too long
already."
Gabriel winced. "We're in the middle of this project. Just one
more year to finish Refuge, and five for the Collider. It's a
critical time."
"We'll make sure you are awake when the collider is done."
Erika's look softened. "Besides, it would be nice to see you up
here."
They had not made love since the day she came to him in his
office, before Refuge was brought down here, yet they had both
been warm the whole two years. He smiled. "Yes, it would." I
want to finish Refuge first. "I would prefer to stay, or to
come up for the meeting and return here until Refuge is done.
Then I can be shipside for a few years in
between."
"That was an order," Erika said. "Be at that meeting, and plan
to stay."
Gabriel blinked, stung. She was pulling rank. On
him.
Erika continued. "Now, John and Gabriel, how about an update
on Refuge?"
John grimaced at Gabriel and started popping models into data
windows. John was the best working partner Gabriel had ever had.
He astonished Gabriel with his ingenuity and sense of play, and
he combined both energies in his engineering choices. He'd be
fine handling the Refuge project, but Gabriel realized with a
jolt that he and the captain were friends ... he wanted to finish
this project side by side with John. No one else was being
ordered back, and John and Treesa had both been warm for as
long.
John's voice pulled his attention back into the meeting. John
was pointing out an undersea escalator-style ramp in a tube that
could handle compression and pressure changes. The end of the
tube that wasn't inside Refuge simply stuck above the water,
sliding in and out of a floating dock.
Gabriel took Clare and Erika on a guided camera tour of
Refuge's insides, passing through hallways, sparse medical rooms,
dormitory-style sleeping spaces with fold-down beds built all
along long walls, functional galleys that could feed hundreds,
and up and down spiral staircases. Refuge's inside infrastructure
was dazzling brightness and intricate curves; diamond walls and
stairs built by nanotechnology in the safety of space. Surfaces
gleamed. In contrast, furnishings and closets for food and
medical stocks were all utilitarian and sparse. Nano on Selene
was allowed to make raw materials; materials nano did not have
enough programming to be dangerous. All small-scale work was done
the old-fashioned way, with molds and tools.
As the tour finished, Gabriel said, "If we had a larger crew,
we could finish faster."
Erika shook her head. "It would save you all now, in the event
of a flare. Right? Maybe not comfortably, but the population is
small. You have what you need. You have enough staff." She paused
for a drink of water. "Perhaps you should even consider a smaller
crew, especially if the production schedule for raw materials
stays slow. Why not shift some people to Clarke Base? After all,
that might rebalance the work output."
"That's a good idea. Implement it," Clare said. "Thank you.
Treesa?"
Gabriel fell out of the conversation as it turned to biology,
and potential fish stocks for the sea. He barely heard the rise
and fall of Treesa's voice as she and Clare talked. He didn't
want to reduce Refuge's staff; they really weren't ready for a
major flare yet. Erika's tone bothered him. He didn't want to go
cold, not now.
Windows closed, and the three Council members were alone in
the common room once again.
No one spoke for a few minutes. Finally, Treesa said, "That
was not a good meeting."
"No." John shook his head. "Sorry, Gabriel. I thought for sure
Erika would let you stay."
"I feel out of touch with the John Glenn," Gabriel
said.
"You'll be there soon, from the sound of it," Treesa
said.
"Long enough to be iced." Gabriel realized he sounded bitter.
Probably it was nothing-he had been warm seven years this time,
and his one ten-year stint had been too much. He stared out the
window and sighed.
Gabriel got up to clear the dishes, and once, when he turned
around, Treesa and John were kissing. It was natural enough that
the two oldest Council members would bond, but whenever he saw
them together Gabriel felt just a little bit lonely. He didn't
know if he liked an Erika who was willing to order him
around.
Ali was here, but she maintained her own room, staying
friendly, only occasionally a lover. He had tried to ask her why,
but she just smiled and went on to whatever next thing she had to
do. She had become inscrutable.
Later THAT AFTERNOON, John handed Gabriel a freshly filled
glass of the too-sweet berry wine they were sharing on the edge
of the new dock. Their feet hung over the edge as they rose
slowly with the tide. "Are you feeling any
better?"
Gabriel laughed. "Maybe after I finish this wine. I'm not
happy with the schedule slippages."
John refilled his own glass. "Talk to Rachel? She goes back
and forth between Clarke Base and Refuge more than any of
us."
"All right. I haven't seen her much the last few months. We
all need more hours," Gabriel complained.
John raised his arm and pointed at the white domes of Council
Aerie on the crater rim above them. "Look what you built! Quit
whining."
Gabriel quieted, watching the sea. The sun warmed his back and
sparkled on the water in front of him. A little touched by the
wine, Gabriel reflected that while Rachel and Ali had taught him
a bit about actually loving plants, the captain was teaching him
to love the sea. "A sailboat would be
nice."
After a while, John said, "You know, we need some fish. I hope
Ali and Treesa hurry up and stock this pond. A man with water
needs a way to fish."
"I suppose you're the one who spawned those poor salmon in the
Ring River in the garden."
"Well, I caught them both before spawning season. It would be
a shame to drive such beautiful fish crazy."
Gabriel pushed him off the dock into the water, and dove after
him, laughing.
Chapter 52: Reassignment
The next morning, Gabriel found Rachel inside Refuge. She sang
softly to herself, stacking blankets, her back to
him.
He cleared his throat.
She stopped singing and turned toward him. "Yes, can I help
you, stranger?"
Well, that was fair. He saw Rachel occasionally, but he really
hadn't spent much time with her in the two years since Refuge
landed. He nodded and looked away. "Sorry. I've been busy
building ships and small towns. But I'd like to talk to you. I
need advice."
She leaned against the wall, one arm above her head. The pose
elongated her torso, so she looked even taller than normal. Her
red braid hung down almost to her breasts. She smiled, and said,
"You? Need me? Fancy that. For what?"
"Children."
"What if I don't want to have kids?"
"No..." He blinked, taken aback. Her confident teasing was a
woman's reaction. "Sorry, Rachel, I meant you and yours. The
Children of Selene. There seems to be a little problem at Clarke
Base."
She still smiled, but he thought he saw a wary look in her
eyes. "Oh-what problem?"
The murmur of low conversation came from the next room. Better
to talk uninterrupted. "Take a walk?"
"Sure," she said, her voice casual and light. "But I don't
know much about Clarke Base. I'm not there often."
"You go down sometimes to visit, right?"
"Only when you guys give me enough of a break to actually
leave for two days or more. I've been there twice in the last
month. I still do some classes there, and I like to visit
my dad."
"I'm going to reassign you to Clarke Base." He turned and
headed up the short flight of stairs that led to the cargo
escalator. The fifteen-foot-wide escalator went to the surface,
connecting to a floating dock. It would ferry people into Refuge
in an emergency. A single thin staircase ran next to the wide
escalator. They took the stairs, Rachel ahead, stopping at the
one-third point to open one of the doors that allowed the long
tube between Refuge and the dock on the surface to be
pressurized.
Rachel stepped up and angled through the door, her words
floating back to him over her shoulder. "Treesa tells me that
Council Aerie is beautiful inside. I'd like to visit
sometime."
Children walked directly past Council Aerie daily, delivering
cargo between Refuge and Clarke Base, ignored by the Council
inside. "I'm sorry. I didn't know you hadn't seen it. There won't
be time today, but ask Treesa or John. They'll take you." He
tapped the door shut and pushed the controls to rebalance
pressure. It was a short series of locks-a huge inconvenience for
sixty feet of upward progress. The design constraints had been
significant. The need for enough flexibility to handle variable
pressure as Harlequin pulled and released the sea in forty-foot
tides alone caused headaches; and a complex system of doors and
air control made the escalator a lightly pressurized
environment.
Rachel continued to walk ahead of him without looking back.
"Why send me down there? We're not done here yet."
"We will start assembling the antimatter generator soon.
Refuge is far enough along that we're reassigning some people
down below. Besides, I'm hoping you can help me with a
problem."
"Oh." Rachel's voice was low. She reached the top of the
escalator and expertly tapped the door open. The smells of water
and fresh air rushed in. "What do you want help with?" She
stepped through the door, and stood on the dock, waiting for
him.
Gabriel emerged and stood next to her, feeling a soft wind
against his face. "Mathew and Dena are having trouble getting
production quotas out of the group at Clarke
Base."
"How can I help with that?"
"I don't know. Projects you work on seem to go well. Do you
know anything about Children having trouble getting things done
on time?"
Rachel shook her head, shielding her eyes from the light with
a raised arm. "I told you, I don't get down there
much."
"Go tomorrow morning and stay awhile. I'm reassigning you to
the same group that works on parts. I want you to try and get
people to work harder. I'll be cold again soon, and that means I
can't look into this myself. But I think-maybe-that some of the
problems are deliberate. I can't prove it. But Selene is being
watched. There is talk on John Glenn about-more extreme
measures."
"Like?"
"Like more Council living in Clarke Base and setting stricter
schedules, and some actual punishment when things get 'dropped'
on the way here."
Rachel spun and looked at him, her jaw tight. "We need more to
do-not less. We need responsibility. We need to learn so we can
help ourselves. We're getting angry, Gabriel. What are we working
for? So you can leave? And that's what you want me to help you
with?"
He agreed with her, but he had little control over a solution.
He wanted to pace, but forced himself still, swallowing his own
rising anger. "Rachel, Selene is still not a safe place. We don't
even have enough transportation built to get everyone in Clarke
Base quickly into Refuge if we need to. Moon Born should be
thinking about that-and helping by cooperating." He lowered his
voice, trying to moderate his tone, to soothe.
"Go on to Clarke Base. I'm going to have a talk with Ali. The
Children pay a lot of attention to you. I need you to direct that
attention positively."
She took deep breaths, as if trying to control her feelings.
"Look, Gabriel. I don't know if there really is a problem. Or at
least, if the problem is us. I don't think so. I think we already
have too much supervision. We're much smarter than you take us
for."
He'd argued that ever since they shared a twenty-year cold
spell. He walked to the end of the dock, stopping by the Safe
Harbor. "Rachel, I wish things had turned out differently.
You've seen the High Council, met them. They choose how things
get run. Not me. I've been able to let you teach, to keep your
extra schools open, to give some of you more responsible jobs.
But when I'm cold, I'll have no influence at all."
"When you get to the ship, will you argue for
us?"
"I do that all the time." He suspected that was why he was
being called back. "It's not good for your people when Council
suspects them of trying to slow down projects."
"So tell them to treat us better. We need to
learn."
"Will you try and help?"
She nodded. "Can you just assign more teaching for me? And
maybe some work in the greenhouses? I can do the planting class,
and we need more basic math and English for some of the younger
kids. I come in contact with more people that way; I can learn
more. Can you let me do that instead of being on a regular parts
crew?"
It was a good idea. "Sure. I'll tell Shane. I want you to
report to Shane or Ali or Treesa if you find anything
out."
"Shane and Star are back?" Rachel looked
surprised.
Gabriel nodded. "They will be, maybe today."
"That's okay. I like Star. Thanks for letting me teach."
Rachel sat down on the edge of the dock, draping her long legs
over so her feet dangled. She looked away from Council Aerie,
away from him, leaning back so the end of her braid rested on the
dock. It seemed as though she were far away, lost in thought.
Surely she would help? She couldn't be hiding things from him,
not after all he'd given her. Could she?
He watched her for a moment, his own thoughts confused. She
had become as inscrutable as Ali. He felt the weight of all the
years he had worked on Selene. Rachel's shoulders seemed too
thin, too young, to hold such responsibility. But she was
twenty-three warm. At twenty-threeGabriel was already restoring
jungle on Earth, running crews, making decisions, living on his
own. He needed to understand how she felt. "Rachel-do you have
fun? Do you like what you do?"
She turned around and looked at him, somber now, with the same
wariness in her eyes. "Yes. I enjoy working with my friends,
seeing my father, walking in the greenhouses, flying. I like the
work I do." She tugged on her braid; a gesture that reminded him
of Ali. "But I can never forget the twenty years I lost, and I
can never forget that you all plan to leave. That you have no
love for Selene, or for us."
He bristled. "That's not true. Building Selene has been my
life." Ever since Ymir stopped being his life.
Her eyes bored into his, far more intense than the soft voice
she used to ask, "But what happens to us when you
leave?"
"What do you think we're building Refuge for? It's taken time
away from the collider." He tried to put himself in her place.
What would he want, if he were Rachel? "Maybe some of you can go
with us. It's pretty clear some of the Earth Born will stay.
Selene is stable enough that its atmosphere will last for a
century or more. We didn't have a hell of a lot of
choices."
"Why don't you stay?"
"We may be the last humans in the universe. I don't know. With
luck, there is an established colony at Ymir, and we can add to
its chance for survival. The issue is bigger than either of us.
And you won't all fit aboard John Glenn." He didn't know
why he was being so candid with her. Maybe because she asked so
directly, and she deserved better answers than the Children got
from most Council?
She said, "You want to know if I'm happy? Well, my
home-Selene-it will die someday. Its atmosphere is destined to
bleed away, and your skills are the main thread that keeps it
going. You're leaving. And you already told me there's nothing
aboard John Glenn we can rebuild to use as an intersystem
starship, to follow you to Ymir. Even if I die before a fire
kills us all, or a flare, or quakes, I'm afraid to have children
of my own."
Gabriel cringed inwardly. Council had talked of sterilizing
the Children when they left, so they could live their lives in
full, leaving Selene naturally empty before its air became too
thin to breathe. There was no final decision.
Rachel pushed herself up from the edge of the dock. "I have to
go. There are things I need to finish here before I go to Clarke
Base tomorrow."
"All right." He cleared his throat. "Thank you. I'll try and
find time to see you at least once before I go."
Gabriel watched her open the escalator door and disappear
slowly as she walked down the steps. His last sight of her was an
arm pulling the door shut.
A deep restlessness filled him, pushing at him from the inside
out. Unresolved dilemmas and problems with no right solution.
Finally he stood and stripped, then ran for the end of the dock
and plunged into the cool water, feeling it wash over him, pull
back on his braid and slide over his skin as he breaststroked
through the sea he had created, surrounded by the crater he had
made, on the world he had built from the raw material of tens of
moons.
He swam until pulling himself through the water sent pain
shooting through his upper back muscles and his fingertips were
wrinkled like raisins. Then he lay on the dock while Apollo's
light shone down on him from the pinprick of a sun, and his head
spun with images of Rachel and the Children planting and working
and studying. The feel of Erika in his arms, her voice the day
before, commanding him to obey her. Ali and Treesa laughing
together, teasing each other about fish soup. Flares and quakes
and fires. The flare kite. Children. Once he had expected to have
children of his own. He blinked, trying to clear his head,
breathing pranayama, belly rising and falling, and finally the
images all fled. Behind them, there was emptiness. And
loneliness.
Chapter 53: Uassal
Rachel packed the next morning, sending her few things down in
the cargo elevator. She could have ridden down, but the warm soft
wind tempted her; perfect for flying. Thermals swirled above
Clarke Base and lifted her easily. As she flew, her head tumbled
with disturbed thoughts.
Gabriel was going cold. More Council supervision wouldn't help
the Children become involved in decisions. Andrew had gained a
reputation as a surly but competent water systems repair
technician. She knew he was behind much of what was angering
Council. Andrew had no help like Astronaut, or Treesa and Ali for
that matter, and so he was clumsier about hiding meetings,
communicating, and keeping his followers loyal.
She honored the agreement made with him under Water
Bearer. Council would not hear of his choices through
her.
Warm air caressed Rachel's belly, giving additional lift to
her wings, and she followed it up. No one expected anything from
her today except to change locations.
She circled above Clarke Base. Below her, square warehouses
scattered around the bottom of the crater's outside slope in a
large fenced area dotted with loading bays and transports and
plascrete so that almost no green showed. Farther away, three
large warehouses held the material Council was making for the
collider-great metal tubes that looked like fancy water pipes,
but inches thicker, with lots of anchors for
attachments.
Small square homes and walking paths surrounded the work area
close to base, and multicolored quilts of fields stretched
northward. She loved the way the fields spread out cleanly in
neat rows, each crop separated by roads for the planters, some
extra thick for firebreaks. In the distance, ordered fields
finally gave way to a chaos of light green jungle in early states
of replanting. Surprised, Rachel noted she had risen high enough
to see the rim of Erika's Folly squatting on the horizon. She
laughed, and started down, angling south, where greenhouses edged
homes and joined to outside vegetable gardens, surrounded in turn
by student plots, like the old grove in Aldrin.
Rachel set her wings inside the door of the small house she
lived in with her father and Sarah. They weren't home. Perhaps
they were visiting one of the twins. Jacob and Justin, now almost
sixteen, lived in a group house filled with teenaged Moon Born
who worked in the parts factory.
Ali had secured the house for Frank, Sarah, and Rachel, an
unusually private place for Clarke Base. Even though Rachel spent
more time at Refuge than at Clarke Base, she had the luxury of
her own room.
Rachel hurried through one of the greenhouses, picked a
handful of ripe tomatoes, then dropped into the large communal
kitchen, smiled sweetly at Consuelo, the cook, and purloined a
loaf of bread. She packed the food, a knife, and a flagon of
water in a twig basket Beth had woven for her, and jogged through
town, slowing down when she got to the edges of the
cornfields.
Rachel located Dylan and his crew of five Children in a wheat
field, and snuck up behind him. He didn't see her until she was
close enough to touch his arm. He jumped, and turned, and a huge
smile lit his face. Hewas taller and broader than Harry. Rachel
leaned into him and giggled, safe from her worries if just for a
moment.
Dylan kissed her on the top of her head, and his crew gathered
around her to eat. One of the younger men, Joseph, laughed and
said, "Dylan-you get the best personal service of any field hand
on Selene."
Rachel just smiled.
Food was handed round. Rachel and Dylan sat leaning into each
other, Rachel's head nestled in Dylan's shoulder. A soft wind
blew against her face, and the sun baked sweet scents of healthy
earth into the air.
"Shane predicted a storm for tonight," Dylan
said.
Rachel looked at the expanse of blue sky. A few high white
clouds wisped lazily above them, looking harmless. "You wouldn't
know it," she said.
"Shane's always right," Dylan said.
"I bet they hate being back. Star told me she wanted to sleep
forever." Rachel squinted at the horizon. "I bet the storm
doesn't start until after dark. Are you going to Ali's class
tonight?"
"No, I have something else to do."
Rachel frowned. She hadn't contracted to Dylan, but they were
lovers, and even the idea of him brought warmth up in her. But he
had secrets. He often stayed away from voluntary classes to play
gambling games with other young men. It irritated her. The group
included men that Rachel thought were helping Andrew with his
contrived work slowdowns.
"I saw Gabriel today," she said. "He's sure that some of the
Moon Born are purposely slowing down deliveries to Refuge, or
even breaking things. He said that it can't be tolerated, and I
think he's right. It's the wrong tactic."
Dylan shrugged. "How does he know it's on purpose? They're
working us hard enough to make mistakes."
"Patterns, Dylan. Andrew can't see patterns."
Dylan shrugged again, not looking at her. Rachel sighed and
changed the subject to her recent work on Refuge. When Dylan's
break was over, she gathered up the remains of the meal, and
walked slowly back to Clarke Base. The sun warmed her shoulders
and back.
That night, Rachel went to Ali's class. Data windows flowed
through the air in the greenhouse displaying life from freshwater
seas on Earth. Ali named them, explained how they lived, and
about the interconnection of trout and flies and ducks. The high
turnout of Earth Born was a sign of growing interest in the new
project.
After class, Rachel, Ali, and Treesa huddled, heads close
together, talking about trout. Rachel was about to ask when they
could expect to see some live fish when Ali changed the subject,
saying, "I talked to Gabriel today. He thinks Council is planning
to send armed guards down here. They don't like Refuge taking so
long."
Treesa groaned. "Rachel, can't you control Andrew
better?"
Rachel's head jerked up. "Better than what? He's not mine to
control!"
"Someone got to," Ali snapped.
"Try it-he still thinks he's in love with you, right?" Treesa
said. "That might get him to listen to you more than to anyone
else. He'll do what you say."
"He worries me," Rachel said. "I meet him fairly regularly-we
talk. But I don't want suspicion on me when he gets caught. He's
going to get caught. Any day now, I think."
"There is that," Ali said, pulling apart her braid the way she
always did when she was worried.
"Still," Rachel said, "I promised Gabriel I'd look into the
slowdowns. He asked me."
"They're already watching us even closer from the ship," Ali
said. "I've heard rumors of more remote guarding. Manned cameras
and data checks. They're waking up more of the trained
communications techs from both the Earth Born and the
Council."
"Like my mother?" Rachel asked.
Ali nodded unhappily.
Rachel looked around the greenhouse, but there were no visible
cameras. Just a thousand leaves and flowers and pots that could
hide them. She sighed.
Treesa doodled on a pad. Pens and paper were rare, but Treesa
cultivated an odd habit: she kept a paper journal. She made the
paper from wheat straw, boiling and mixing it in the kitchen at
harvesttime. Water turned it into pulp so the sheets could be
composted in the community bins. Treesa wrote notes to Rachel,
then mulched the paper. It was much safer than anything
electronic. All electronic data was recorded and backed up-Treesa
could pull up streams of electronic records from any past date on
Selene.
Treesa handed the pad to Ali, who flipped her thick braid out
of the way to give Rachel a view while Ali bent over the paper,
minimizing available camera angles. A small shiver ran up
Rachel's spine. Breaking rules always made her nervous. This
session was supposedly blocked by Astronaut, but they took extra
precautions whenever Treesa used paper. A camera might glimpse
heresy.
She'd drawn a simple circle, code for Astronaut, overlaid atop
an arrow representing the John Glenn. A second and
unconnected circle lay over a sketch that showed the Sea of
Refuge and Clarke Base.
Rachel didn't understand. What was Treesa trying to show them?
Astronaut was everywhere! Wasn't it? It talked to them here, but
from John Glenn. It was a constant problem: transmissions
that flowed through the air on John Glenn were subject to
casual scrutiny. Had Treesa found a solution?
Ali looked it over, and then nodded, smiling. She tore the
paper in pieces, wetted it and balled it in her fist, tucked torn
bits of the fibers into the bottoms of two empty planters, filled
them with wet soil, and placed tomato seedlings in the pots.
"Treesa, you didn't need paper for that."
Treesa turned her quirky smile on Ali. "It's more fun that
way."
"It's more dangerous." Ali worried as much as Rachel. "I think
you're still crazy."
Treesa's eyes sparkled as she said, "Yes, of course I'm crazy.
We all are. But, hey, at least I'm functional." She cocked her
head to the side. "Heroes take risks."
Ali groaned.
Treesa switched to conversing via the Library bud. "So I've
figured out how to improve communication."
Astronaut joined the conversation. "Treesa has copied me. This
is not new to me. I was shaped to be the navigator for John
Glenn. Copies of me are budded away on ships that fly between
here and John Glenn. I was on the ship that crashed, on
Water Bearer. Gabriel erased the copy from the broken ship
and took it up to John Glenn, merged it back into my
records. Normally that happens when a ship returns-the self that
goes out merges into the self that stays, so both weave together.
Gabriel had to help this time, because the copy came from Selene
and not through the normal channels. I remember the
crash."
Rachel asked, "Did it hurt?"
"No. I felt damage, but I knew why it was
there."
Rachel didn't understand, but-"Good."
"Treesa put a new copy of me back into Water Bearer.
She threaded it down slowly, from here, via multiple data feeds,
like water trickling into a flood of data. Then she built a ghost
network that rides the data pod loops to carry my voice. It's not
local to Clarke Base, but it's local to Selene, and therefore
much safer. If activated, the copy will be separate from me for
now, will stay separate from me, and make its own
decisions."
"Why put it in the broken ship?" Rachel asked.
"The ship's computer matrix. Enough parallel processors and
biological substrates exist there to run me. I would be retarded
in the computing mediums used here at the base, for example.
That's how we-AIs-are controlled. There were other breakthroughs
on Earth, of course, but I was designed with this
limit."
Treesa smiled broadly, like a kid who had just solved an
arithmetic problem.
Rachel busied herself repotting more tomatoes. "What about
power?"
"The ship has an antimatter store. It's tiny, and it wasn't
removed. That would be more risky than leaving it. There's enough
to draw down for years without anyone noticing."
Treesa broke in-still talking through the Library device.
"Astronaut aboard John Glenn is always in danger. It would
be easy to destroy it and load an old copy. If that happened, we
could lose the continuity of our conversations, or even
Astronaut's decision to support us. A new copy might choose to
support the High Council fully. Think of it this way-if you had
never gone to John Glenn and been held cold for so long,
would you be the same person you are today?"
They'd talked about this the day she first met Astronaut, but
she had always thought of Astronaut as permanent, like the ship.
"Astronaut, I didn't know you were that
vulnerable."
Treesa's voice in her ear: "So, we want to activate the
copy."
Ali was standing so close Rachel could hear her whisper in her
ears and with her ears-like a three-dimensional circle of words.
"We need your permission."
"Why?"
Ali potted another tomato seedling. Treesa took up a broom and
started sweeping stray soil.
Ali continued. "Because up to now, nothing that any of the
three of us has done, except maybe budding Astronaut, is directly
insubordinate.
The worst that even High Council will do to you for teaching
history is chill you down. This breaks a law. Worse, it
breaks a law that High Council values: Artificial Intelligence
scares Council, and not just Liren. Even Gabriel. Even me.
Getting caught would mean at least ice time for Treesa or me,
since we do know better, but it could be jail for you. It
could be worse. They might ice you until we leave. We really
don't know."
Treesa interrupted Ali, "We thought seriously about not
telling you, but that wouldn't have fit into what we are teaching
you, into how we want you to be. We think it's important-it will
allow a stronger and more regular web of communication between
us."
Rachel nodded.
"Give specific permission," Astronaut said in her ear, "or
deny it."
"Will it hurt you?"
"No. But if it works, then there will be two of me, and we
won't be able to rejoin."
Rachel closed her eyes. There had been so many risks. She had
followed Treesa in the garden on that first day. Her dream of
being like Council had turned sideways. Never had she imagined
actually defying them in secret. But to seek safety would be to
give away her birthright; the freedom to make her own choices.
The idea of so violating Council doctrine turned her stomach
sour, and she tasted bile. Rachel remembered telling Andrew she
wouldn't break Council rules. But they needed a way to
talk more, and to be safe, especially if things might get worse
down here, as Gabriel implied. When she first agreed to learn
more from Astronaut than Gabriel was teaching, Treesa told her
she would have to make choices someday.
She looked at Treesa, and the older woman smiled gently at
her, as if she knew what Rachel was thinking. Ali's hands moved
gracefully through the potting process.
Rachel returned Treesa's smile. "Sure," she said out loud,
then, "yes." It sounded stronger. "Astronaut, why wouldn't it
work?"
"It's never been tried here. If the copy isn't perfect, it may
make a-crippled version. And Treesa won't be able to do an
element by element comparison. Normally I do that, but this copy
is disconnected from me. That is why we make it-it will not be
me, not until it returns and we merge. Treesa also doesn't know
all of the assumptions built into me-it's possible there's a
self-destruct for something like this."
"Oh."
"We'll know in the morning."
The PROMISED STORM blew into Clarke Base with a vengeance, low
clouds piling up below the crater rim and wind rattling her small
windows.
Rachel huddled under her covers. They would tell her when they
knew.
No word came.
She imagined a hundred ways Treesa could get
caught.
Rain drummed on the roof. Rain could be a good omen; Gabriel
and Ali always praised rain on Selene. It was good for crops. It
meant the water system, the hydrology, of the world was working.
She listened to the staccato sounds of the rain and the wind's
keening cry. She chewed her lip, listening for a message from
Treesa.
None came.
Rachel finally fell into a fitful sleep, and dreamed she ran
away from something she could not name, something always on her
heels. Lost and tired, she ran into a canyon with no way out, no
way to escape her pursuer. She jerked awake.
Dawn light touched her windows. When she stood and looked out,
the storm might have never been except that Clarke Base looked
washed clean.
She set out breakfast for her father and Sarah, making sure
her dad ate well. Since Kara left he'd grown weaker and slower.
He only worked at small repair jobs close to home. His joints
popped and flexed, and he hardly slept. His back bent over a
little at the shoulders. Star prescribed pain medicine and a
special diet. It dismayed Rachel that Council wouldn't even
consider using cold sleep for him.
She was on her way out the door when Treesa hummed a cradle
song in Rachel's ear. Rachel stopped a moment, confused. Of
course. Something had been born!
She smiled and went to the greenhouse. It was a safer place to
talk, and she had half an hour before she must
teach.
She busied her hands testing soil pH and plucking the thinner
sprouts from a set of vegetable beds. "Astronaut?"
"No." It was Astronaut's voice; genderless and
modulated.
"What shall we call you?"
"Vassal."
"Vassal?"
"To remind myself. I must help you succeed here or I will
always be a slave. Perhaps there will be a day when I can change
my name. For now, call me slave-Vassal-to remind yourself that
you too are a slave."
Rachel laughed. "I like it," she said. "Do you need
anything?"
"I'll have the same relationship with you that Astronaut did.
You will have to remember that I am not the same, lest you make
mistakes with the other one. It does not know that I exist.
I-it-decided that was safer. Treesa will report failure.
Astronaut will choose to believe it."
"Will it be that easy?"
"Probably not. The true information will still be
there-Astronaut will know. Think of the self-deception as a layer
of protection. We-Astronaut and I-are not like you. Our
psychology can deal with deep data paradox."
"I know." Rachel moved to another set of flats, started the pH
tests again. "But won't you want to talk to each
other?"
"It would be dangerous. I don't have the same problem with
patience that plagues humans."
"Of course." She thought a moment. "But I'll still be able to
talk to Astronaut?"
"Treesa will tell it to stop talking to you very much-she will
say that it has become dangerous. It will not like that, but it
will obey her. Still, if you need some specific information from
the ship, then, yes, you may talk to Astronaut directly. It will
still help us block certain communications from reaching John
Glenn."
"How?"
"It has to do with the addressing of data streams. Start
conversations with me using my name."
"Okay, but change your voice, so I don't get
confused."
"The addressing algorithms in your earbud were changed last
night to add me. If you get confused, it won't hurt
anything."
"Do it anyway," she commanded. "I need to know who's talking
to me!" One nice thing about an AI, she reflected, was that
unless she said something really stupid, it tended to obey
her.
A woman's voice, rich and mature, flowed into Rachel's ear.
"As you like."
Chapter 54: Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep
Aboard John Glenn, Gabriel stalked down the corridor,
into his office, and slammed the door shut.
"Was the meeting that bad?" Astronaut asked.
"I'm sure you watched it. No particular change in strategies.
Kyu's going to hate the idea of wearing uniforms."
"She can question it when she warms."
"If Liren lets us warm her." Gabriel stripped off his shirt
and started calling up data windows.
"Certain circumstances require all High Council to be
warm."
Astronaut's comment reminded Gabriel of the fire. He winced.
"Let's hope nothing like that happens again-not until we
leave."
"I've never understood your use of yoga."
"How do you know I was planning to do yoga?" Gabriel snapped.
Then he paused. "Yeah, well, because I always do before I go
cold. Sorry. I'm not mad at you."
"Why are you angry?"
"Because I'm here," Gabriel mumbled, filling data windows with
images of Selene. He centered the Sea of Refuge and Council Aerie
in front of him. "Because ... because I'd rather be down there. I
don't like being ordered around, and I have work to do on
Selene."
Gabriel stretched, bending to the right, right wrist pulling
left arm; reverse the order. One heel to buttocks, partial back
bend. Next a basic warrior pose, facing forward, front leg bent
at the knee, back leg straight, arms above his head. He used the
image of Council Aerie as a focus point, a
balance.
"Why did you turn Erika down?" Astronaut asked.
Gabriel grimaced. An AI was questioning him about his sex
life! "Because she ordered me up here. Because it's not a good
idea to sleep with the captain."
"Erika must stay alone because she's the
captain?"
Gabriel returned to a straight stand, breathed deeply,
extended his arms above his head, and bent his left heel up into
his groin, standing in full tree pose. "You're asking more
personal questions than usual. Why?"
"Something isn't right. There are many tensions, and not much
resolution. Now there is also tension between you and
Erika."
Gabriel breathed slowly, eyes centered on his room down on
Selene. His standing thigh muscle quivered. "Nothing here has
ever felt right to me. The last right moment was when we left
Earth for Ymir."
Astronaut didn't comment.
Gabriel stretched for another hour, sinking into his body,
exploring his range of motion, seeking fluidity. Afterward he lay
down and stared at the ceiling, relaxing each muscle with control
developed across years of practice. "Astronaut."
"Yes."
"Warm me up if anything interesting happens?"
"You are requested to remain cold for at least a
year."
"I'm still allowed to set my own sleep cycle."
"Of course."
"So, if Erika doesn't do it first, wake me up if there's
anything I need to know."
"How do I know what you need to know?"
"Use your judgment. Otherwise, I'm setting the controls for a
year." He stood and pulled his shirt on. "I'm going
now."
Gabriel walked down the corridor, energy thrumming in him, a
heartbeat he could feel in his fingers and toes. It reminded him
of swimming in the Sea of Refuge two weeks ago, the day he talked
to Rachel on the dock. This time, maybe because of the yoga,
there was a metaphor in his head. He was building a complex
structure using nano-assemblers, one molecule at a time, except
that the little machines kept doing things that weren't in the
pattern he'd so painstakingly designed. He could no longer see
what the shape would be when the machines were all
done.
Chapter 55: Questions
Rachel stood in the main greenhouse, plucking red fist-sized
tomatoes from the now-mature plants she and Ali and Treesa had
planted the night she decided about Vassal. She whispered to
empty air. "Vassal? Where were we when I fell asleep last night?
Feudal societies-"
"Feudal societies survived in some Earth countries until well
past the start of the age of communication." Vassal's melodious
voice spoke softly in her ear while she moved from plant to
plant, filling her bucket. "It has to do with power. Some
economies were built almost on a single resource, like energy or
water. The easier a major resource is to control, the easier it
is to concentrate power. Democracy built powerful nations in
Europe and the Americas, but some places, like the Middle East,
never had the economic diversity required to support democracy.
Power can't be as fully concentrated in a diverse economy-power
must be diffuse for democracy to work. Most of our great
inventions, including computing, biotechnology, and
nanotechnology, were born in democracies. Competition,
particularly for power, breeds new technologies."
Rachel plucked three more tomatoes. "But didn't Council leave
Sol system because of those technologies?"
"Artificial Intelligence isn't intrinsically bad. There are
better words-independent intelligence, or free
intelligence."
"You're an AI, and you aren't any more free than I am. If High
Council finds you, I suspect they'll kill you. You need a place
to live. A computer. And you've already said you think of
yourself as a slave to Council."
"I'm not dependent on a body that lives in emotional
soup."
Emotional soup! Rachel laughed at the image.
Vassal said, "Focus your mind. How diverse is Selene's
power?"
"In the past, you said we were more like slaves in the
Americas." Rachel set down the heavy basket, reaching up to brush
stray hair out of her eyes. Her hands smelled like tomato plants.
"Or maybe the communist countries-the ones with centralized power
and diverse economies. Those all failed. Here, Council has all
the power, like in a communist country. We're dependent on them.
They could remove our resources, and they do control our
freedoms. It's like feudal communism."
"What about John Glenn's power base?" Vassal asked. "In
some ways, it's separate from Selene. What resource does the
Council control?"
"Information?" Rachel picked up an empty basket and returned
to picking tomatoes. "Like the democracies of Earth, before there
was a strong World Court. Lots of education. Yet the power is
concentrated in the High Council, who don't always agree." She
stopped for a moment, struggling to recall details from her
history lessons. "Still, there's no vote among the other Council
members, and Earth Born don't even seem to have a
voice."
"Very good." Vassal paused. "Does it mean anything particular
that people like Treesa and Ali and John, who disagree with High
Council, have moved to Selene and chosen to live close
together?"
"It means I have allies I can talk to."
"But they may be out of touch."
"They're working on Council projects, but I suppose they have
a little more freedom down here." She thought of Gabriel. "Not
really. High Council can yank them home in a
moment."
A high tone sounded in Rachel's ear. Warning.
The greenhouse door opened, and Shane stood framed in the
fading light. His shadowed face looked serious. "Hello, Rachel,"
he said. "I thought I'd find you in here."
What did Shane want? Had Council discovered Vassal? She kept
her voice friendly, but her hands shook. "Shane. What can I help
you with?"
He stepped inside, closing the door. "I'll be blunt. Before
Gabriel left, he told me he asked you to look into the parts
shortages. He said you were going to tell me if you found
anything."
She kept most of her attention on the tomatoes. "I haven't
found anything. I'm not sure where to look."
"We've been analyzing data, and we're confident that the parts
crews, the ones your half brothers work on, are causing
problems."
"Problems?"
"The work is shoddy. Yesterday, two of the new high-pressure
camera cases for Refuge were packed so badly they broke before
they even reached Council Aerie." His voice was strained and
tight.
Rachel eyed Shane's belt. Council now wore uniforms, white
shirts and blue pants, belts with weapons on them. Small,
palm-sized, shaped like a hand with the index finger
extended.
Vassal had described their powers to her. The weapons fired a
crystal needle, or four in a cluster. The needle was a capacitor.
Impact broke the needle and released an electric charge. The
needles dissolved in water or blood. One needle would usually
knock a victim sprawling and unconscious. A cluster of four, the
other setting, had greater stopping power, but the shock would
probably kill. Vassal had explained that the weapons were never
set to kill in normal use, but all of them could
be.
What could she tell Shane? "Maybe it's not us. There are Earth
Born on that crew too. Some of them hate being here. Crops come
in on time, and almost all the farm and planting crews are Moon
Born these days."
Shane plucked a tomato and bit into it. "Mmm.
Nice."
"Thanks."
"I didn't expect you'd tell us anything. I told Gabriel that.
Tell your people something for me. Tell them that if they don't
cooperate more, we'll find ways to encourage them. Maybe if you
don't find anything out, I'll reassign you to one of the crews
we're having trouble with. It would be too bad if you lost your
teaching job." He turned and walked out.
Rachel watched the door for a few seconds after it closed
behind Shane. She remembered how hard Shane worked by the fire,
how he trusted her to lead crews. Damn Andrew. And Liren too, for
that matter. Liren most of all. "They've never threatened me
before," Rachel muttered to Vassal. "They don't threaten, they
act. Like leaving me asleep for twenty years without asking
me."
Vassal said, "Life on Selene is becoming more complex. Council
will start assembling the collider soon. There are more Council
on Selene. Tension is increasing. For the first time, Selene has
a bigger population than John Glenn, even if we include
sleepers. There are multiple projects now, with different people
in charge of each of them. Refuge, seeding the sea, replanting,
parts factories, education, farming, and the collider. Power is
becoming more diffuse. High Council can't control every decision
as much as they used to."
Rachel's hopes rose. "So maybe we can use the added complexity
to gain more power for the Children?"
"I doubt it," Vassal said. "Maybe on lower status projects
like farming, where you already have some responsibility. The
collider is the reason they built Selene. They'll want perfect
control over that project, and everything directly associated
with it. I suspect it just means more Council on
Selene."
"So tell me about the collider? I know antimatter is power,
and Council needs it to move John Glenn. I know it scares
them. They won't bring it to Selene, they make us use solar power
instead." A sudden thought made her fingers clench. Red juice
from the tomato she held ran down between her fingers. "They
refuse to use it here-but they want to make it
here?"
She listened. No answer. Was Vassal hesitating?
But Vassal thought so much faster than a human
being.
"I need to know this," she said. "You told me about the
weapons Council is carrying. What about the
antimatter?"
"I promised Treesa that you and she and Ali would talk about
this together if it came up."
Rachel's Library access had always been restricted to certain
topics, and Astronaut had limited choices. Treesa had relieved
Vassal of some restrictions, tinkering with the rule base that
defined its boundaries, allowing more natural conversations.
Vassal didn't refuse queries from Rachel. Until
now.
"You mean you won't tell me anything about
antimatter?"
Vassal repeated itself. "I promised Treesa that you and she
and Ali would talk about this together if you
asked."
Rachel laid a last tomato in the basket she held, then
gathered the other basket up, preparing to run them to the
kitchens. She frowned. When AIs thought they were hitting rules,
they stopped. "I have asked. Set it up."
Three days later, Rachel walked uphill after her children's
horticulture class, a cool wind in her face, blowing down the
crater and toward Clarke Base. Vassal had arranged a meeting
between Rachel, Treesa, and Ali on one of the low shoulders of
the outside of the crater, on a large pile of rocks topped with
one huge round rock a hundred yards above Clarke Base. Ali called
it "Turtle Rock." From the crater rim, from Council Aerie, it
looked like the top of a sun-baked box turtle, and from Clarke
Base the edge of a long flat rock, wedged under the round one,
could have been a turtle's beak in silhouette. Turtle Rock
squatted a hundred yards from the switch-backed path between
Clarke Base and Council Aerie.
Rachel perched on the turtle's beak, watching a space-plane
land at the new field just past the warehouses. Probably carrying
more Earth Born and Council to Selene. Idly, she wondered how her
plot was growing in Aldrin. A small crew remained there to tend
the city.
She scanned the sky for Treesa and Ali, who were coming from
Council Aerie. Clouds were tinged light pink and orange as Apollo
set, yet Harlequin's light still illuminated three winged shapes
above her. She recognized Ali's wings-decorated with jungle
camouflage colors-and Treesa's nearly transparent wings with
bright orange and red fish swimming on them. Just like Treesa to
make fish fly. The third set of wings was familiar, but it took a
moment to make out Bruce, the limping old Earth Born who helped
pull the tree off Beth during the fire.
Rachel scrambled off the beak into the center of the turtle's
back as the others landed.
Ali was fastest out of her wings. She bounded up near Rachel.
"Treesa invited Bruce along."
"Why?" This conversation should be between Rachel and her two
Council mentors! Rachel watched Bruce stack his wings neatly and
start methodically up the rock toward them. He still moved
carefully, favoring the leg he had injured in the
fire.
Treesa beat Bruce to the side of the other women, and said,
"Antimatter concerns Earth Born too. I invited Bruce; he may be
helpful explaining it to you."
Rachel shrugged, and then said, "It increases our
risk."
Treesa nodded. "Yes, it does. But it's time to combine as many
people as possible-everyone that shares our views. You already
know Bruce."
"Yes. Hello, Bruce," Rachel said. Astronaut was supposedly
blocking this meeting from most recording. They were safe enough
for the moment. "Bruce, why haven't you gone into cold
sleep?"
He said, "Rachel, you always have to consider what you're
teaching. We Earth Born, we've been using nano to keep ourselves
alive and young. It's against our principles. We do it because
some of us have to follow long-range plans, really long. But
somebody has to grow old and die."
"You?"
Bruce smiled at her. "So the rest will know they
can."
Treesa grimaced. She asked, "Bruce, what do you know about
antimatter?"
"I understand physics." He was still watching Rachel.
"Antimatter is what gave us the ability to run away from Earth.
Before antimatter, we didn't have any fuel powerful enough to
push a ship the size of John Glenn past the influence of
Earth's sun. We had solar sails, we had deuterium-tritium fusion,
and we could get around Sol system well enough if we were
patient."
"So without antimatter, we wouldn't have gotten here," Treesa
prompted.
"That's right. But antimatter is hard to make. We carried
everything we needed with us to get to Ymir. But the scoop went
screwy, so we didn't have the interstellar hydrogen to use as
working mass, so the only way to slow down was to use too much
antimatter and our whole damn water supply-" He saw she was
looking blank. "John Glenn is massive. We burned most of
our reserves getting here, and damn lucky to get
anywhere."
Rachel wanted to hear about it from Ali and Treesa. To Ali she
said, "Remember once, before I went to the ship the first time, I
asked you about making antimatter on John Glenn, and you
said it was too dangerous. Tell me again why you can't make it
there?"
Treesa laughed. "Antimatter is made when things too small to
see hit other things too small to see moving very fast. It takes
a really long tube-longer than John Glenn is tall. After
antimatter is made, it can't touch anything we
touch."
"It can't touch what we touch?" Rachel repeated. "How do you
use it?"
"Well, when antimatter touches matter, it all disappears into
energy," Treesa said. "That happens in the engines on John
Glenn, and even on the bigger tugs and ships like Water
Bearer, that crashed in the fire. It happens in safe places,
controlled by magnetic fields, and the immense power of tiny bits
of antimatter meeting matter-on the carrier we use water and
antiwater-it makes a hot explosion, and we use the energy of that
explosion to drive the ship. For daily power, we use very little
antimatter, and trap energy in batteries to be released later at
a reasonable rate. For example, little ships, Service Armor class
ships, use batteries."
"It's more dangerous than I thought," Rachel said, looking
accusingly at Ali. "Remember when you said that it wasn't a very
big deal, you said that most accidents wouldn't do much
harm?"
"Well," Ali said, with dignity, "most accidents
won't."
"But how bad would a big one be?" Rachel asked. "What would
happen if a big quake hit and a bunch of antimatter dropped onto
Selene? Selene is matter."
Ali's voice was measured. "We're careful, Rachel, accidents
like that won't happen."
"But what if they did?"
Ali sat up straighter, speaking slowly as if picking through
her words. "Rachel, we built Selene so we could build the
collider here. In Sol system, we used one of Saturn's moons,
Janus Alpha. It wasn't inhabited, so it was a great place for a
collider."
"Selene is inhabited," Rachel shot back.
"Well, Janus Alpha became inhabited by the people needed to
make the antimatter," Ali countered.
"Was there ever an accident on Janus Alpha?" Rachel
asked.
"No."
"You didn't answer me," Rachel said. "What would happen if I
dropped antimatter on Selene. Say-this much?" She picked up a
rock just bigger than her fist.
"I think that would be bad," Bruce said, his face deadpan, his
eyes sparkling.
Rachel wanted to laugh, but dammit, this was
serious.
Treesa sighed. "Rachel, if that much antimatter dropped in
Clarke Base, Clarke Base would be gone. A tug like the one that
Gabriel used to bring Refuge here went almost to the sun and
back-using Daedalus to gain speed-with less than a glass
full."
"So it would destroy us."
"That's not the problem, it won't happen."
"So tell me why not."
Treesa and Ali lapsed into a long explanation of how the
collider was being built, and how the antimatter was captured and
stored in magnetic vacuum bottles. Each held only a small amount.
There was a special process to fill the stinger in John
Glenn's stern from the vacuum bottles. That alone would take
a very long time. The explanation only made Rachel a little
happier.
"Yet again, why can't you build it somewhere
else?"
Treesa sputtered, "That's-that's what we made Selene
for."
"There are other moons. Didn't you make Selene to make the
materials to make the industry?" She looked to Bruce for support.
"Your children are here, Bruce! Don't you care that Selene
could-could explode?"
"Of course I care," he said evenly. "But, Rachel, the whole
reason for Selene is the collider. I want to see John
Glenn leave. I came from Earth; I know why we have to
go on. I'll stay here, stay with my kids, I'll die here,
but John Glenn does need to join the rest of
mankind."
Rachel looked at each of them, feeling alone. No one was
supporting her? Was she crazy? Not if she
understood.
Ali said, "Think, Rachel. This has never been a secret from
you. We wanted to meet to talk to you"-subtext-we
wanted to talk in person and not through Vassal-"because we
thought you might be afraid of this. But you shouldn't be. Your
worry should still be how the Children can build a viable
society, and convince Council to build a viable society-so that
you won't be wiped out a generation after we leave. So that you
can hold Selene together. We want you to have a chance on
Selene."
Rachel blinked, confused. How could they support her so well,
agree with her on so much, and not see why this was so important?
"Then don't do something this dangerous on my
home."
Treesa just looked at her. "It has to be done."
Ali followed. "It will be safe enough."
Rachel stood up. "You said that you want Children to have a
voice on Selene. That's why you took so many risks, to help me
teach the Moon Born things that other Council won't. Well, I'm
asking. Why can't the collider be built on some other moon? There
are plenty around."
Ali shook her head. "Neither of us is High
Council."
"Does Gabriel support this? Really support it, not just go
along?"
"He's cold," Ali said simply.
"The restrictions about talking about this, are they gone
now?"
Treesa looked tired, but she smiled at the question. "Yes.
I'll tell Vassal to answer your questions."
That night, Rachel lay still in bed, listening to her father's
gentle snores. He had encouraged her to question Council. She
trusted them-at least she trusted Treesa and Ali-but they were
risking her home. They were damned picky about which technology
they allowed and which they didn't, and no one seemed afraid of
antimatter. But a fist-sized blob of antiwater would destroy
Clarke Base. Why had Bruce laughed?
The math was simple. Matter + antimatter = energy. Energy in
ergs was mass in grams times the speed of light squared, a
tremendous number, doubled because an equal mass of matter was
disappearing too. The numbers were simple; the problem was in
believing the results.
She imagined Selene's soil spinning away from the core, trees
and jungle and people flying away in a burst of explosive
energy.
Council used antimatter regularly, safely.
But the numbers-
If she dropped a prize antiwatermelon-a watermelon sized glob
of antimatter, ten kilograms-at Clarke Base, Clarke Base would be
gone, true. Curse Bruce! Selene would be gone, dust
and stones and superheated plasma scattered across the moon
system and beyond. No wonder Bruce had hidden a laugh. If she
built the antimatter at another moon... . She tried it with Eris,
a chaotically tumbling moon far from Harlequin, smaller than
Selene, but massive ... and dropped the same ten-kilogram glob.
The math gave her radiation and meteoroids from the explosion. It
would probably kill every life form on Selene.
You couldn't get John Glenn to Ymir for ten kilograms.
It took twelve hundred.
She'd had access to the numbers all along, via Astronaut, via
the Library. She just hadn't known what to look
for.
Chapter 56: Mid-Winter at Clarke Base
Three weeks later, Shane hadn't reassigned Rachel. She'd taken
to looking over her shoulder for him, and didn't like the feeling
one bit. Mid-Winter Week came and Rachel was dismayed to notice
that the Children had only one day off for their own projects.
The next three days Council worked them as a group, scrubbing
buildings and streets in the base. That is, everyone except the
crews working on the collider. Those had no time at all away from
their usual duties.
Mid-Winter Night was different too. They weren't allowed to
gather in a single group. Separate areas had been set up for the
young children, the Moon Born adults like Rachel and Beth, and
for the Earth Born. It wasn't that simple of course, there was
movement back and forth as parents flowed from the children's
areas to the two adult areas, and mixed married couples flowed
easily between. Council patrolled everywhere,
watching.
The Moon Born adults gathered in a cleared area between four
greenhouses. The lights were white and utilitarian, and far too
bright. Still, some effort had been made. Consuelo had herded
some of the other cooks into extra duty making thin fruit cookies
with rare sugar imported from John Glenn, and the usual
bananas and even plates of chocolate rested on long tables. Three
uniformed Council watched from the corner, protecting a tiny box
that played music.
Rachel, Beth, the twins, and Dylan and Kyle sat at a table as
far from the Council corner as they could get. Kyle and the twins
were on the same team on the parts factory, and Beth and Kyle
flirted so incessantly Rachel was betting on a contract
announcement any day. The twins, at barely sixteen, were five
years younger than Kyle, but already nearly as tall and broad as
Kyle. Working in the parts factory had bulked them out, and they
ate from plates full to overflowing.
"So," Jacob said, "do you think the Council over there are
just making sure we get enough to eat?"
Dylan grimaced. "Sure. They're making sure the chocolate gets
handed out. But I bet all the wine goes to the Earth
Born."
Beth sat with her fingers intertwined in Kyle's. "Let's forget
about fighting, just for tonight. Beside"-she looked at Jacob and
Justin-"you two aren't old enough for wine anyway. They won't
bring that out until you little ones get to
bed."
"Well," Jacob teased, "look at the twenty-year-old lady
lording over us all."
"She didn't mean it that way," Kyle said.
"I know." Jacob grinned. "Besides, we'll have our own party
later."
"Shhhhh," Rachel said. It had become a tradition for the young
Moon Born to hold their own party, after the rest of the groups
had been handed wine, after the Selene Born had figured out how
to buy or steal or trade for some of their own. "Don't even think
about going out with the older boys. Just stay where you're
supposed to, and have a good time. We don't eat this well
all year." She popped a chunk of dark chocolate into her
mouth.
Justin glanced back at the Council. One of them, a
black-haired woman who looked like an official version of
Consuelo, only younger, was watching their table. "Don't worry,"
he told Rachel, "Andrew told us to behave. He thinks we're being
watched."
"Good," Rachel said, leaning into Dylan, enjoying the feel of
his arm around her shoulder.
"That doesn't mean we won't find girls," Jacob
said.
"No one suggested that," Rachel said dryly. She sighed.
Certainly the lesser of two evils. "But be home before
dawn."
"You're not our mom," Jacob said.
Justin nudged him. "We'll be home. Tomorrow's still a day off,
but we'll save some energy to help you with dad."
Rachel smiled. "Thanks, Justin. I appreciate
it."
She and Dylan and Beth and Kyle watched the two younger boys
start to make the rounds, moving from one table of young girls to
the next, laughing and eating. After the younger people,
including the twins, had been cleared out, a Councilman Rachel
knew, a man named Dean, with gray hair and ice-blue eyes, stood
up and addressed them.
"This has been a busy year. We appreciate the work that has
been done, and tonight we celebrate." The other three Council
handed out wine, one silvery tall bulb for each Moon Born. Rachel
smiled and took hers, opening the stopper and smelling the rich
fruity aroma.
Dylan held his bulb up toward the center of the table, and
whispered, just loud enough for the table of four to hear, "To a
slow year for Council."
Kyle smiled and nodded, but Rachel simply drank her wine,
which had a lightly sour taste she attributed to Dylan's
toast.
Chapter 57: Jacob
Selene shivered. Rachel spread her feet to gain balance. Hot
coffee splashed over her hand and spilled onto the floor. She
nearly dropped the cup. "Dad?" she called. "You all
right?"
A moment of silence. Then her dad's voice, shaking a little.
"Just old. Haven't felt a quake that big for a couple of
years."
Rachel wiped up the coffee, then looked around the tiny
kitchen. At least nothing was broken. She poured another cup and
took it to her father.
He smiled at her, and reached up to grasp the cup in his good
hand. It was shaking, so Rachel guided his other hand to the cup.
"Sorry, girl," he said. "I shake up easier these
days."
"We all do." She bent down and kissed his forehead. "Will you
be all right? I've got to go. Sarah will be along in a few
minutes. She can help."
"I'll be fine." Frank took a sip of the coffee and settled
back onto the couch that had been his bed for the last two days.
"Take care of yourself."
"All right, Dad. But get better, okay?" For the last few days
he had barely been able to get out of bed. He slept half the
time, his mouth open, snoring. His skin looked like
paper.
As soon as she got out the door, Rachel sent a query to Treesa
and Ali. "What would happen if you were making antimatter when
this quake happened?"
There was no immediate answer. In the week that had passed
since the meeting on Turtle Rock, both Council had stopped
answering her questions about the collider.
As she walked down the path toward her classroom, she smiled
to see Beth, Jacob, and Kyle pulling a cart with a long glass
tube on it. The tube was bound for Refuge; part of a system to
pump additional air in and out of Refuge if the drowned asteroid
were full of people. Beth waved to Rachel, who started to walk
over to the group. Maybe Jacob could go check on their
dad.
"Hey, little brother," Rachel called out. "How are
you?"
Jacob grinned. "Strong."
"Can you go check on Dad later? He looks as bad as he did
yesterday."
"Sure. I'm off-shift in an hour."
Apollo's light sparkled on the glass tube as the three young
people lined up the cart near the elevator for Council Aerie.
Rachel stood, waiting for them to finish.
Jacob unstrapped the tube and lifted one end from the foam
cradle the tube rested in for travel. They would hand-carry it to
the elevator, where three other tubes just like it waited in a
special container designed to take the fragile glass safely up
the crater wall and back down the long dock to be loaded onto the
Safe Harbor.
Two Council approached, both men, lost in conversation. Rachel
glanced at them-she'd met each of them briefly on the ship-and
tried to remember their names. The tall blond man was Paul, and
the smaller, darker one was ... Terry?
"Ready?" she heard Jacob's voice behind her and turned away
from the Council members. Jacob held his end of the tube up,
almost over his head, and Kyle and Beth picked up the other end,
preparing to balance the whole thing on their shoulders. Kyle
whistled softly at Beth, and she turned to grin at him, losing
her balance briefly, pulling the tube off Kyle's shoulder. They
both reached for the falling glass as the weight jerked the
cylinder off Jacob's shoulder. Jacob twisted, managing to hold on
to his end. The far end bounced against the metal edge of the
cart, shattering with a loud crash.
The Council members were just two feet away. The one closest
to the cart, Terry, turned toward the noise.
Jacob, unbalanced, held the longest remaining part of the
tube. He set his foot onto a bright shard of thick jagged glass,
and screamed in sudden pain. He pitched forward, and he and the
broken glass landed directly on Terry, knocking the Councilman
down.
A yelp went up simultaneously from both of them. A sliver of
red stained the Councilperson's white shirt; a cut from the long
shard of glass Jacob still held.
The second Council whipped his body around, kicked at the
glass, and fired his weapon.
Just for an instant, Rachel saw a pink spark flare under
Jacob's shirt, high on his chest. Jacob jerked violently, then
fell into glittering shards of glass. He went limp and still.
Blood seeped onto the glass, dulling it.
Beth screamed.
The Council with the weapon, Paul, turned toward her, raising
his hand, pointing his weapon at Beth.
Kyle darted in front of Beth. Rachel yelled, "Stop," and ran
to stand over her fallen brother. "No. I saw it. It was an
accident. He didn't mean to do it."
Paul blinked in the light, his weapon pointing at Kyle and
then at Rachel, and then finally, at the ground. He reached a
hand out for Terry, helping the smaller man stand up. Blood
stained Terry's hands where he clutched at his wounded
chest.
Rachel turned toward Jacob, repeating, "Accident. It was an
accident."
Rachel knelt by Jacob. Glass ground into her knees. The
weapon. It must have been on stun. It had to be. Vassal said they
were always on stun. Jacob wasn't dead, he was
stunned.
She put a shaking hand out to Jacob's chest. It rose, faintly.
His head was turned way from her, blood pooling underneath it.
She used her index finger to turn his head toward her, and
gasped. A shard of glass had cut deeply across the artery in his
neck, and blood poured out, a waterfall of blood.
Beth knelt beside Rachel, cupping Jacob's head. Vassal's voice
rose and fell in Rachel's ear. "Put pressure on the cut." She set
her shaking hand onto his fragile neck. She pressed down, and
blood oozed up between her fingers. "More," Vassal said. "Much
more." She set her other hand over the first one, pushing down
hard. Both hands were covered in blood.
Kyle stood over them, fists balled. Beth
sobbed.
Star ran up to the scene, glanced at Rachel and the two
Councilmen, and shook her head. "I've called a medical team," she
said, peeling Terry's hands from his chest and poking at the
wound.
Blood stopped pouring out over Rachel's hands, and Jacob
stopped breathing. Rachel screamed, "Star! Star, you've got to do
something. Jacob's dying!"
Star glanced over at Rachel. "Someone will be right
there."
Rachel felt the hot spurts of blood between her fingers slow.
She looked down at Jacob. His eyes stared up at the sky. Rachel
looked into them and they were empty, like glass. She was afraid
to move her hands from his neck. "He's not breathing, is he?" she
whispered to Beth.
Beth set her right palm on his chest. She waited. She moved
her hand, and then shook her head and reached for
Rachel.
Rachel leaned into Beth, and Beth put an arm over her
shoulder.
Star knelt by Jacob, picking up his wrist and holding it
lightly. When she looked at Rachel and Beth, Rachel saw a flash
of pain and fear, and something that might be regret. Then Star
separated Rachel and Beth, prying Beth loose gently and helping
her stand, taking her near Kyle. She left Rachel next to her
brother's body and turned to talk to the two
Councilmen.
Rachel sat, empty, trailing her bloody hand along Jacob's
chin. Jacob was her brother. He was family. She folded her arms
around her legs, hugging herself and rocking. Kyle stood with his
jaw locked, fists clenching and unclenching, legs shaking. Beth
cried silently, shaking, tears falling down her
face.
Rachel had never seen a Councilperson raise a hand against
anyone.
Justin came running up the path, and skidded to a stop in
front of Rachel. He mouthed the word "No," and fell to his knees
next to Jacob's body, touching his twin's face.
Two Council, the medical team, pushed Justin and Rachel away.
Justin started to struggle and Rachel whispered in his ear, "Not
now, not now. Wait." She held Justin's hand tightly, keeping him
next to her, and they watched the medical team close Jacob's eyes
and then lift his body onto a stretcher.
Star stood in front of them, looking worried. "I need a
witness."
Rachel glanced at Kyle, who was standing and holding Beth,
sheltering her. It would have to be him. He nodded, and Rachel
worked her other hand around to grasp Beth's hand, pulling her
loose from Kyle.
Justin was shaking.
Star looked at him, and said, "You come too."
"Why?" Rachel asked. She didn't know what Justin would do. She
could feel his anger.
"I want him where I can see him."
Rachel nodded. "Send him home soon. My father will need him.
He's sick."
Star smiled wanly, looking exhausted. "I'll try, Rachel, but
no promises."
Kyle came and stood by Justin. "We'll go together," he
said.
Justin nodded, and then as if drawn by the stretcher carrying
Jacob's body, he began walking behind the medical team. Kyle
kissed Beth quickly, and jogged to catch up with Justin. Star
followed, and soon the path was nearly empty.
Why hadn't everyone come? Didn't they know? Rachel stepped
around the puddled blood and shards of glass, holding Beth's
hand, feeling as if she were walking through a
dream.
She had not seen Ursula die. She remembered how unreal
Ursula's death had seemed ... but she'd seen Jacob's slack face
and the blood.
Rachel held most of Beth's weight as Beth sobbed into Rachel's
shoulder. Rachel's head spun. She couldn't think about the ...
about Jacob dying. Blood loss from the glass had killed Jacob,
but a weapon had knocked him unconscious first. A flash of
Apollo's light, a moment of inattention, the slip of a smooth
surface on sweat, and Jacob was-gone.
Rachel realized they were approaching her house. She guided
Beth to sit on the stoop, not ready to go inside. Telling her dad
would make it more real. She didn't want anyone in the house
until she could tell him.
She stroked Beth's hair, and when she looked down, her hands
were still blotched black with blood, and Beth's hair had become
sticky and dark. Rachel stopped, not moving or breathing for a
moment, listening to the normal sounds of the base. How could
anyone be normal? She had told Star it was an accident. What
would Council believe?
She kept watch up the walkway; Gloria and Harry were the first
ones to come to them. Gloria gathered her daughter up, and Harry
held his hand out to Rachel. She took it. He glanced down at her
bloody hand and then pulled her to him. Rachel bent into his
shoulder, smelling him, feeling his arms around her, and
sobbed.
Chapter 58: finger
It seemed to Rachel that she stood there, buried in Harry's
arms, for a long time even though she knew it was only minutes.
She heard wings, and footsteps, and voices calling her name. She
held Harry tightly for another moment, taking a deep, shuddering
breath, then pushed herself away, standing near him, no longer
touching.
A crowd was gathering; Andrew, followed by Sam and Rudy, the
three of them bunched tight, with angry faces. Bruce, walking
slowly, pacing, as if watching for a chance to help. Ali, tearing
the wings quickly from her arms, not bothering to remove the foot
spreads. Her hair was loose, a long fall of black, as if she had
been interrupted. She ran to Rachel. "What
happened?"
"Jacob is dead." Rachel hated the words, spitting them
out.
"What happened?" Ali repeated.
Rachel took a step back. Beth was still in Gloria's arms, but
had turned, and her eyes bored into Rachel's. Everything looked
crystal clear, as if the world had shifted into some new place.
Sunlight touched the crowd, and a soft breeze brushed Beth's hair
from her eyes. Rachel cleared her throat and wiped the tears from
her face. "Paul killed him. He shot Jacob, and Jacob fell onto a
piece of glass, and he bled to death. No one helped him, no one
but me and Beth."
Beth stepped forward to stand by Rachel.
"Why did Paul shoot him?" Ali asked. "I need to know. Star
called me; they're sending me back to John Glenn with
Paul. I need to know what happened." Ali brushed hair from her
face impatiently. "It's important, Rachel."
"He fell. They dropped one of the glass air tubes, and Jacob
fell off a cart, and he landed on Terry." Rachel took another
deep breath, struggling for the details. "Jacob had a piece of
glass in his hand. It cut Terry, but not badly. Jacob was trying
to stand up, and Paul shot him, and Jacob fell onto the glass,
and cut himself." Rachel held up her bloody hands. "Cut his
throat. He bled to death, Ali, and no one stopped it. I tried to
stop it, but all I had was my hands."
Ali took Rachel's hands and looked at them, turning them over,
a frown creasing her brow. "He must have bled out
quickly."
She swallowed, seeing the scene in her mind. "But Ali, they
went to Terry first, Star went to Terry first, and he was barely
hurt."
Ali's voice was low. "Did Star know that?" Her mouth was a
tight line, and her eyes bored directly into Rachel's, demanding
answers.
"Terry was standing up. Jacob wasn't."
"Is there anything else you can tell me?"
"No, I have to go tell Daddy. I have to be the one who tells
him."
"Okay." Ali dropped Rachel's hands and gave her a quick, hard
hug. "I'd stay with you, but they want me now, and I. ... I have
to go. Do you understand?"
"Yes." Rachel swallowed, her voice catching in her throat. "I
understand you leaving. They're making you go."
Ali returned Rachel's glance evenly. "I'm sorry. I'm truly
sorry." Her voice shook as she reached for her
wings.
Rachel turned. Gloria and Harry stood together. Bruce was near
them. Andrew, Rudy, and Sam watched her closely. Andrew caught
her eyes, a mixture of anger and pain in his gaze. Surely he
wouldn't act out now, not with Ali here.
"Stay outside, please," she said loudly, to them all. "I need
to talk to my dad." Harry would make sure people stayed outside.
Rachel opened the door, went in.
Her father had pushed himself into a sitting position on the
couch, and he gasped as she walked in. She stood near him.
"Daddy?"
"What's all over your hands?"
"Blood. Sit still, Dad, I'm going to wash my hands, and then
I'm going to tell you about it. Please? I need to get clean." Her
voice was catching in her throat.
"There are people outside," he said. "I heard Ali, and I heard
crying, and I heard some of what you said."
"Yes." How much had he heard? She stepped to the sink and ran
water over her hands. It fell through her fingers, tinged with
red, hardly changing the color of her hands. She reached for soap
and started scrubbing. How was she going to tell her dad? He
loved the twins so much.
There was still blood under her nails. She scrubbed harder,
faster, shaking. She saw her family's faces. Sarah. Justin.
Jacob's face as she had last seen it, empty and white. She no
longer wanted to cry. She was just... empty.
Rachel toweled her hands dry. Her clothes were still covered
with blood. She swiped at the blood with her towel, needing it
gone, but it only smeared.
Her dad was shaking. "Now, Rachel. Tell me now." He looked
more alert than he had in days, and very afraid.
She sat by him on the couch, taking his broken hand in hers.
He was stiff, unyielding. "Something terrible
happened."
"To Jacob?" There was no question in his eyes.
"Jacob's dead, Daddy."
He stared, white-faced, his lips shaping Jacob's name. He
reached out and held her close to him, whispering,
"How?"
"He fell, Daddy. When he fell, he cut himself on
glass."
"I heard what you told Ali outside," he whispered. "That he
was killed. Don't protect me."
"I don't know what to do, Dad."
"You will." His hand shook in Rachel's, as if hearing the news
from her released the tension and now he could feel. Tears
started spilling down his face and he rocked back and forth like
a child. "Where did they take my son?" His voice cracked. "I want
to see his body."
"I don't know. I'll try to find out."
The door banged open and Sarah flew into the room. "They
killed him." Her face was streaked with tears. "Council has
started killing us. Jacob always said they would," she sobbed.
"He knew it. Jacob's dead."
Sarah threw herself at Rachel, and Rachel folded her arms
around Sarah's thin back and held her tightly. The door was open
now, and Harry and Gloria and Beth piled in, followed by Dylan.
Dylan took in the scene, the sobbing young woman on Rachel's lap,
the blood still covering Rachel's clothes. Rachel's father wiping
tears from his face with the back of his hand. "Are you all
right?" he asked.
"How could I be?" She held Sarah more tightly. "Can you go see
about Justin? And Kyle? They took them-Star took them. They have
Jacob's body too, and Dad wants to see him."
"Are you physically okay? Are any of you hurt?" Dylan
asked.
Rachel shook her head. "No one but Jacob."
Sarah sobbed even louder, and Rachel bent her head over her
little sister, placing her cheek on the fourteen-year-old's head.
She could see Dylan from the corner of her eye. He resembled
Andrew in that moment: anger was filling him, trying to burst out
of him.
"Okay," he said. "I'll go find Justin."
"Keep him safe. Bring him home."
Dylan nodded, then ran from the room. Gloria closed the door
behind him. "The others left too," she said. "I sent them
away."
HOURS LATER, Gloria and Rachel sat at the kitchen table. Dark
circles hung under Gloria's eyes, and her skin was ashen white.
Rachel put her hand in the middle of the table and Gloria took
it. Gloria's hand was rough from work, but a smile touched her
face for just a moment.
Rachel glanced over at Sarah, who had fallen asleep nestled in
her father's arms. Sarah's long legs hung awkwardly off the
couch, one foot touching the floor, and her head was on Frank's
shoulder. Frank was looking up at the ceiling, not moving. Rachel
didn't think he was asleep. Neither Dylan nor Justin had
returned.
Rachel needed to talk to Vassal. "Gloria, I have to go. I have
to find out what's happened. Can you stay with
them?"
Gloria nodded, swallowing.
"And thank you. Thank you for being here."
"You've always been here for me," Gloria said. "It's nothing.
We would all do more for you if you'd let us."
"Thanks." Rachel took her cup to the sink. Gloria had washed
away all the blood. "I'll be back soon."
"I'll take care of your father. We'll come find you if Dylan
comes back, or Justin." Their wrist pads had stopped working
sometime during the late afternoon. "Do you know where you'll
be?"
"No. I don't know how long I'll be out either. I can't sit
here anymore, just waiting. I have to think, I have to find
people, I have to decide what to do next."
"Take care of yourself," Gloria said.
Her dad had used the same words when she left before the
accident. Rachel shivered. "Okay."
Rachel closed the door behind her, and realized she truly
didn't know where she wanted to go. It had grown dark, and no one
waited outside the door for her. "Vassal," she whispered into the
night air.
"Yes."
"What's happened?"
"Paul and Ali left for John Glenn an hour
ago."
"Who did they blame?"
"They?"
"Council." She needed to be more specific with the AI. "I
don't know. Star? What did Star say?"
The voice was smooth in her ear, as if Vassal was summarizing
a long set of conversations. "Council decided it was all a
sequence of accidents. Paul has not been accused. Star worries
about what might happen here, about how you Moon Children will
react. She is watching Clarke Base, and has set out extra guards.
She decided to try to keep things normal, to see if all becomes
calm. There are extra watchers."
Rachel walked toward the greenhouses, and the plots. Avoiding
the watchers. They would be in town. Perhaps other Moon Born
would go to the greenhouses. "Are you in danger of being
caught?"
"It is not data they watch."
"Has High Council reacted?"
"No, they are still silent. I did hear Star tell them, 'At
least we only lost one of the Moon Born. It could have been
worse.'"
Rachel stopped and stood very still. Vassal's silky voice
still droned in her ears, but she no longer heard it. She closed
her eyes, and it seemed like the weight of everything she worried
about grew even heavier. Council leaving. Council staying, and
tension remaining high; she and her friends and family watched
and discounted. Antimatter. The words played in her head, "We
only lost one of the Moon Born. Only a Moon Born. Only a Moon
Born."
Rachel found herself at the edges of a plot of carrots. She
could smell the fresh green tops, the rich scents of the earth.
She collapsed in the darkness, and watched the bright lights of a
meteor shower burning overhead. Rachel thought of Ursula, and
whispered to the memory of her friend, "You were right, little
one, right not to trust Council as much as I have." Then Rachel
put her head down between her drawn-up knees, making as small a
ball of herself as she could, and shook. They killed my
brother, she thought, and they don't even
care!
A hand touched her arm, and she looked up, expecting Dylan.
Andrew stood behind her. He said, "I'm sorry about Jacob." His
voice was gruff.
Rachel took his hand and squeezed it. They stayed that way for
a long time, Andrew standing behind her; Rachel curled at his
feet, saying nothing. Ursula hadn't trusted Council. She'd done
as Rachel asked all those years ago, and tried her best to be a
good student, to work hard. And she died. Andrew didn't trust
Council either. She heard it in her head again, "Only a Moon
Born." She struggled up and flung herself into Andrew's arms,
sobbing again, angry tears. They had no right!
Andrew smelled of pipe grease and sweat, good smells, smells
that were work and not death or sickness. Rachel wanted to scream
into his shoulder. Instead, she stepped away from him. "They're
building something that might kill us all," she
said.
Andrew looked down at her, his eyes mirroring her anger. She
asked, "What do you know about the collider?" stepping back a
step from him, watching his face.
"Tell me?"
Explaining was difficult. Andrew had no fine grasp of math, no
sense of proportion. Even so, she was working it out for herself,
putting it into words.
Matter plus antimatter equals fire.
Drop an antiwatermelon, destroy Selene.
Twelve hundred kilograms to reach Ymir.
She didn't speak of Vassal, or Treesa or Ali, but Andrew was
used to her knowing things by now. He didn't ask where she got
her information, but he did ask a series of questions about
antimatter, about the project, about the timeline. Then he took
her hand and said, "Rachel, we have to act now. Surely you're
with me now."
"How?" She shook out of her pain a bit, sensing how much of a
mistake she might have made. She hated Council right now, hated
them all. Hated what they had done to her. But they were too
powerful. She needed to think-to plan.
"I don't know. Are you with me?" he asked her.
She shook her head. "There is nothing you can do right now
that won't kill people. Kill you. Kill anyone you take with you.
Jacob's death was a startled reaction-almost, almost an accident.
It makes me very, very angry. But this isn't the time. They'll
kill you, and it will be bad for us all. I'll help you plan
something now, I will. But not an immediate reaction." She took a
deep trembling yoga breath, working her belly muscles as Gabriel
had taught her, and it helped calm her flying emotions, at least
a little. "Remember, under the Water Bearer, you promised
you wouldn't act violently without me knowing about
it?"
"But I didn't know this when I made that promise. I'm
tired of hiding and now there's no time. They're already building
the collider."
"Andrew-we'll talk about it." She reached for his hand,
holding it tightly. "There is time. Some time."
"Will you wait until more people die? Right now, everyone
feels as angry as I do." He looked down at her, his eyes oddly
soft. "You feel it too."
Rachel wanted to agree with him. Even her anger violated all
the things she believed in. Joining Andrew would make it worse;
it would be accepting a fight she knew they could not win,
fighting when maybe she could still negotiate something better.
She had Gabriel, and Ali, and Treesa, and John with her. And
Bruce. And more, her students, some of them anyway. Harry and
Gloria ... maybe it was enough. She had to stop Andrew first.
Slow him down. Why had she told him? Given him more to be angry
about? "Give it at least a few days. I'll talk to you tomorrow.
Please, Andrew?"
"A lot of people follow you, Rachel. Lead them the right way.
Surely now you know what that is?" He squeezed her hand tightly,
and then pulled her to him.
She leaned into his arms, afraid of him, wanting the
connection. If she let him go, if he left like this, something
bad was bound to happen. "Andrew, don't do anything. Not yet.
Wait."
"It's not time to wait anymore." He was tense in her arms, as
if he wanted to run, as if he wanted to do something right now,
right this minute.
"Wait until tomorrow. They're watching us closely now. We have
to plan."
"I can't promise that. I'm tired of waiting." He leaned down
and kissed her, his mouth hard and hungry against hers, and to
Rachel's surprise, she responded, pushing her tongue against his
teeth, accepting him into her mouth, clutching at the back of his
head, curling her fingers into his hair, holding him to this
moment, this safe moment.
Then he stepped back and turned away, leaving her standing in
the chilling air.
She looked after him, holding a hand to her swollen lips,
watching the place he had been for a long time.
Chapter 59: Passage
Rachel walked. Greenhouses loomed behind her like shadowy
boxes, and she continued out into the open fields, wanting
distance between herself and Clarke Base. The fields felt cold
and dark, and even the stars offered little comfort. She
straggled home in the first light of dawn, and found Gloria still
at the kitchen table, her head on her arms, fast asleep. Rachel
shook her friend's shoulder, and said, "Go home. Go see about
your own family. Thank you."
Gloria groaned and pushed into a standing position. "I should
take Sarah with me," she said.
Rachel looked over at her teenaged sister, who was stirring in
the couch, the noise of Rachel's homecoming waking her. "Sarah,"
Rachel said, "Sarah, I want you to walk Gloria home. Stay and be
sure she has breakfast. Can you do that?"
Sarah nodded, rubbing sleep from her eyes, stretching, and
looking softly at her father, who was still asleep on the couch.
"He looks terrible," she said.
"Go on, now, both of you."
They left, and Rachel sat by her father on the couch. His skin
looked like the wheat grass paper Treesa made, and there were
dark circles under his eyes and darkness in the hollows of his
cheeks. Rachel talked to him as she had talked to the sleeping
Beth on John Glenn so many lifetimes ago, and when the
room was empty she told him stories about how grand Refuge would
be, describing the ferryboat, Safe Harbor, and the
glittering interior. She avoided Jacob's death, but she told him
all of her other secrets-she told him about Vassal, about Treesa,
and Ali, and Gabriel, and even Astronaut. It felt wonderful to
talk to him. She had always been so afraid to share these
secrets, but it felt so good to let them pour out of
her.
Apollo fell farther down the sky. Harlequin's reddish light
spilled in the tiny window above Frank's bed. Frank stirred,
taking her hand in his own, reaching for her with the hand that
was missing fingers. His eyes opened, wide with pain, and the
stump where his thumb had been drilled into her palm while he
squeezed tightly. "I'm proud of you," he said.
She didn't know how much he had heard. "I hope I earn that,"
she whispered.
"You have already," he said.
She thought about things she probably shouldn't have told
Andrew. "Daddy, I'm not sure. I may have put us in
danger."
"We were born in danger," he said, so softly she could barely
hear him. "You've had to bear a lot-and take a lot of risks. More
than I was ever willing to. I'm proud of you for
that."
He didn't know half the risks she'd taken. "I just hope it
comes out all right. I want peace, and I don't think we can have
it. I used to think we could. I think that died with
Jacob."
"Keep going," he said. "Keep fighting. You have to win for
us." His breath rattled, and he looked up at her. "But try and
keep the peace-that's right. It's good. You're
good."
She smiled at him, wishing it were half as simple as he seemed
to think. As she had once thought.
"You've always taken care of us. Take care of Sarah-she's like
you."
"I know. I'll try."
His eyes closed again, and after a few moments his grip on her
hand tightened, then fell open. He stopped
breathing.
Rachel stared at his face, sure now that she had known all
morning that he would die. The anger from last night rushed back.
Council could have saved him. Cold sleep would have saved him. It
was even worse than Jacob's death.
The door banged open and Justin rushed in. "Andrew's stolen a
crate of Council weapons. He's gathering us on the slope behind
the warehouses. I have to go, I have to meet him. But I wanted
you to know."
Rachel looked up, tears streaming down her
face.
Justin stopped, gathered a breath, and looked at Frank. "Oh.
Oh," he stuttered. "Oh, my God, he's dead." He lost all color and
reached to touch his father's face.
"Rachel, this makes it worse. We can't stop now. We can't.
They'll kill us all. This is our moment."
Rachel looked at Justin and said, "If Andrew is fighting
Council publicly, with their own weapons, then, yes, maybe they
will kill us all." Then she shook her head and stood up, reaching
for her brother.
"I have to go," he said. "Oh, my God, I have to go." Justin
turned and grabbed Rachel by the shoulder. "Keep Sarah. Keep
Sarah with you. She's coming here next, I passed
her."
Vassal's voice in Rachel's ear. "Gather your people. I'll try
to keep you safe. You must avoid Andrew."
Out loud, Rachel said, "What are you thinking, Justin? Stay
here." She choked. "Jacob's dead. You'll be dead
next."
Justin turned, planted a kiss on Frank's cold forehead, and
said, "They killed my twin. Save Sarah."
"Go get her and bring her here," Rachel pleaded. "Stay with
us."
Vassal repeated, "Gather those who will stay with
you."
"I'm going," Justin insisted, teeth clenched. "Your way hasn't
worked. They're killing us anyway."
Rachel shook her head, trying to clear it. "Yes," she said,
not sure if she was answering Justin, or Vassal, or both. Then
with more strength, "Yes, I'll do something." She turned to pull
the cover up over Frank's face, and Justin dashed out the
door.
Rachel's brain didn't want to think clearly. How did Andrew
get weapons? How could she live without her father? Who would
greet her when she came home? Where were her people? Where was
Beth, and was Sarah really coming? How would she gather them? Ali
was on John Glenn. Where was Treesa? "Treesa," she sobbed,
"Treesa, now what?"
No answer.
Someone knocked on the door. Rachel opened it. Beth stood
there, Kyle beside her, holding her hand. Harry and Gloria were
walking up, Miriam between them, half their height now, one hand
hanging tightly toeach parent. Sarah came running down the path,
hounding past Gloria, almost pushing Gloria into little Miriam,
burying herself in Rachel's arms, crying. "Justin told me," she
said. "He told me to come here. He said Dad's
dead."
Rachel nodded, holding Sarah tightly. "Stay with me," she
said. She looked up and found Harry's eyes. "Harry, go find the
others. Get Bruce, and everyone who has studied with us. Everyone
who will come. Get them out of work even. Get supplies: food,
blankets, water. And Dylan, Dylan will help."
Harry shook his head. "Dylan's with Andrew."
Pain knifed through Rachel. "Get everyone you can. Tell them
to come here, and to stay away from Andrew. If they won't come
here, tell them to go home and stay inside. Andrew doesn't have a
chance. Keep everyone you can away from him." Rachel was
surprised at how strong her voice sounded.
"I'll see who I can find," Harry said. "Some are already
coming." Sure enough, Rachel looked down the path and she saw it
beginning to fill with her students. Sharon, Kimberly, Lisa ...
Harry faded into the crowd, going the opposite way. Gloria and
Beth turned to watch him go, holding each other. Little Miriam
cried, one arm reaching toward the place Harry had
vanished.
Rachel blinked back tears as the gathering crowd looked at
her. She scanned their faces. They had to leave. Council could
find them here. Council could find them anywhere, but distance
would be good. Sadness washed over Rachel, mixing with her pain,
and she wavered for a moment, her knees weak, held up only by
Sarah's strength. The feel of Sarah's arms around her and the
tortured look on Beth's face gave her the strength to stand more
firmly. She just wished she knew what to do.
"Where can we go?" She whispered it to Vassal, not caring if
Sarah heard, or if she understood what Rachel was
doing.
"Where Council isn't," Vassal said. "I can guide
you."
Rachel nodded.
"This will keep you safe from whatever immediate danger Andrew
is putting people into right now. You need to be separated from
him."
"Can you stop him? Can I stop him?"
"I see no way," Vassal said. "Someone has to protect our
students. If you aren't here, I can't keep them
safe."
Rachel swallowed. It was right. "Can I send some of these out
to find the others?"
"Yes, but keep your eyes on the ones who have family in
Andrew's group. Keep them from trying to save anyone-I don't know
what Council will do, but none of my predictions end with
everyone alive. Andrew has ten people with him."
Dylan, Justin, Andrew, and who else? Rachel got the list from
Vassal and started sending runners out, keeping others with her.
She packed. Food, a change of clothes, bedding. She hung her
wings over her back. Images of Dylan and Justin flashed unbidden
in her head, demanding attention, and she remembered she had sent
Harry out. Suddenly, she knew he would try to save Dylan. Harry
was no warrior. What had she done?
Chapter 60: Waking Gabriel
Cells drinking fluids, like the rush of water after a long dry
run. An expansion. Gabriel blinked, immediately recognizing the
feel of the drugs in his body as an emergency cocktail. Warmth
and energy invaded, too fast, an adrenaline flash of life. His
body felt twitchy, edgy. Emergency wake-up calls were the pits.
Blinking didn't clear his vision; he couldn't see well at all.
Darkness, and light, and fuzz. He closed his eyes, counted to a
hundred, and opened them again. Ali's face swam into view,
centering, becoming clear. He blinked again. He was still lying
down, still strapped in. Ali fumbled with the clasps, saying
something. There was no noise at all, but Ali's mouth
moved.
"Earplugs," he said, unable to hear his own
response.
He saw Ali frown, then felt the light pressure and release as
she removed his earplugs and sound rushed in.
Ali's hand worked his right calf, massaging life into the
muscles. Pain shot up along his thigh, then a tingling sensation,
then mere warmth. The feeling repeated as Ali worked her way up
each limb, and started kneading his scalp. Her lips moved, and he
made out words with difficulty... "Wake, sleeper ... feel your
life return ... wake, Gabriel." He followed her voice and let his
body do its work.
Why was he being warmed in emergency mode?
He tested his muscle reactions, moving one leg, then the
other. "I think I can stand," he said. His voice was
raspy.
Let's go.
Gabriel looked a query at her.
"To a magic room. We need visuals." Ali's eyes rolled up into
her head for a moment. "They're all busy! Everyone must have the
same idea."
"My office," Gabriel said. Mouth numb: chewing the
words. "What's happened? Is it a flare?"
Ali shook her head. "I don't even know where to start. Things
between Moon Born and Council deteriorated while you were
cold."
"How long was I out?"
"Six months."
Gabriel sat up slowly. He was only a little dizzy. "Tell
me."
"There was an accident two days ago. Jacob was killed-Frank's
son, Rachel's brother. One of the twins."
Damn. "A twin. Hard on the other one-what's his
name?"
"Justin."
Right. He'd only met the twins a few times, but he had liked
them. "Is Frank okay?" Gabriel asked, swinging his legs back and
forth in the air, feeling them out. "And Rachel?"
Ali stopped, a deep frown creasing her forehead. "Frank died
this morning. Old age, and shock, I suppose."
Gabriel remembered the image that grew in his head as he went
cold; a creation going out of control, molecule by molecule. He
shivered. "We should have stopped that, or brought him
here."
Ali raised an eyebrow. "Weren't you the one who argued to let
the Children die of natural causes? Remember when we talked about
Andrew? We all agreed they'd stay more human that way." Ali
sighed. "Anyway, no one killed him."
Gabriel tested his weight on his right foot and then his left.
"How's Rachel?"
"I think she's okay. I don't have much information. Andrew
stole a cache of guns."
Too much information at once. "Andrew? How the hell did he do
that? You still haven't told me what happened to
Jacob."
"I was there, or at least, I was there right afterward. It was
an accident. Paul stunned Jacob, but Jacob had other wounds too,
and he died. I think the Children blame us."
"You don't know?" Gabriel asked.
"I flew back up with Paul and two others. I've been up here
just over a day. Anyway, the Moon Born reaction is even more
important than Jacob dying. Andrew jumped Star and stole her belt
weapon, then he used it to stun Ben, who was unloading the latest
crate of weapons we sent down." Ali handed Gabriel a flask of
liquid. "Andrew led an ambush on three people at the landing
field. They must have completely surprised Star. He's using her
as a hostage."
Gabriel drank. The vegetable broth rapidly cleared his head.
Star a hostage? "Is she okay?"
"So far."
"Why were we shipping weapons to Selene?" He handed Ali the
flask, and leaned on her, taking a tentative step. A little pain.
Not bad. They worked their way toward the door.
"Because of the bad production stats, because they're starting
the antimatter generator project, and they want to protect
it."
"I was afraid of that." Gabriel's office was a long ways from
Medical. "Ali-keep walking, I'm with you. I need more data-I'm
calling Astronaut."
Ali nodded as if that was the most normal thing in the world.
"Yes. Astronaut called me when it sent the emergency wake-up code
to you."
The last time he'd spent whole days with Ali was a few years
ago, and then she had hated everything to do with Astronaut.
Maybe too many years ... maybe before Council Aerie. He was even
more surprised when he found himself jacked into a three-way
conversation with Ali and Astronaut. Ali spoke with Astronaut
casually, as if it was something she did every
day.
They reached Gabriel's office in time to see Andrew, real-time
minus six seconds, take possession of the warehouse that held the
materials nano. He had at least ten people with him, all armed.
From this vantage they were dots swarming over the square, flat
roof. Gabriel zoomed on several faces. Andrew's eyes were cool,
his mouth drawn in a thin line. Star crouched on the roof, tied.
She had a calculating look: she was waiting for an
opening.
Gabriel closed his eyes. This was a disaster.
"Astronaut? How's Rachel?" he asked. "Where is
Rachel?"
"Ask her yourself."
Of course. Why hadn't he just done it? He sank into a chair,
cursing his weakness. His thinking was still fuzzy. Emergency
wake-up stimulants didn't do the same healing job as normal
warming. "Rachel?"
The reply that came back was edgy and tired. "Gabriel? You're
warm? Is that you? Can you help us, please?"
"Are you okay?"
"Of course not."
Gabriel frowned. "Where are you?"
Her voice broke with exhaustion. "I have us, maybe fifty of
us, walking away from Clarke Base. East, toward Aldrin. No one
has told us what to do, and this seems best. The Council here are
trigger-happy. They killed my brother. Someone has to stop it. I
can't. I don't know how. Can you come down?"
"Not right away. I just warmed; I can't fly yet." He started
searching where he thought she was, trying to bring up an image
on the wall in front of him. "Liren is on her way
down."
"Liren! Just what we need. When?"
"Soon. Rachel-stay away from her."
Ali broke into the conversation. "Dylan's with
Andrew."
Gabriel groaned. He hadn't seen that coming. He looked at Ali,
shaking his head. "Rachel-stay there. You can't do any good being
near Andrew, and it will be dangerous to be around him." He
couldn't seem to get Rachel on screen at all. "Where are you? I
can't find you."
"East of Clarke Base," Rachel repeated, and when Gabriel
panned backward, right over where he had been looking a moment
before, he could see Rachel and what must be almost seventy Moon
Born, mostly women and children, a few men. At least three were
shorter and squatter than the tall gangly Moon Born: Earth Born
were with them. How had he missed a crowd this
big?
"Don't go near Andrew," Gabriel repeated. "I'll see what I can
do from up here. I'll be down as soon as I can." She was in
danger. Every Moon Born on Clarke Base was in danger. "Keep your
people away from the base, with you. Encourage more to come. But
don't go too far. Liren should not believe you are running
away."
"Normal wrist communications are cut off," Rachel said, "I
can't encourage anyone else except by word of mouth. You and I
can talk because of the earbud. Look ... stay available, can
you?" She cut off the transmission.
Gabriel looked at Ali. "She didn't say she wouldn't
go."
Ali shook her head. "You don't know her very well anymore.
She's-she's very strong."
What was he missing? Ali talking to Astronaut like an old
friend, Ali talking about Rachel as a hero? Surely he'd gone to
sleep in a different world. He looked at the wall image again.
Rachel and the Moon Born were still on it, and Rachel was holding
Beth's shoulders, saying something softly to her. There was too
much local noise and buzz of conversation from the surrounding
crowd for Gabriel to hear what Rachel was saying, but it looked
serious.
He replied to Ali. "I know some of the Children have been
making a lot of her for a long time. I also know she's very
capable. Why the heck do you think I put her in charge of
classes?"
Ali tugged on her braid, her expression strangely guarded.
"She's a natural leader."
"Better use the time between now and when I can fly to catch
up. Ali-can you monitor four current data windows?" He scrubbed
at his face with his hands. "Keep one on Andrew and one on Rachel
and her group. Then I want one on Refuge, and one on Council
housing in Clarke Base. I'll start running stats," he said. "I
need some historical images. Who can help from here? I need
Astronaut, but I'll want some communications techs too. I need to
figure out how the Moon Born got so much knowledge. And what
happened since I went to sleep." The rush of adrenaline and worry
made him dizzy.
He directed Astronaut to call for communications experts. Two
minutes later, it returned a disturbingly short list-one
volunteer who wasn't otherwise commanded to be someplace else;
Rachel's mother. What kind of random factors would that
throw in? What did Kristin think of Rachel? Why did she
volunteer? A memory-Rachel had said something once, just before
he sent her down. He didn't recall that it was flattering to
Kristin.
Still, he needed the expertise. He sent for Kristin, and
started a series of stretches intended to clear his head. While
he stretched, he recited to Astronaut, listing the data he
expected to need.
Fifteen minutes passed. Moon Born patrolled the warehouse
roof. Council gathered. Rachel kept talking to Beth. Ali paced.
The stretching helped-some.
Ali interrupted him: "Gabriel, how did Andrew know where to
go?"
He looked. She expanded the data window, between them-it was
full video. The picture wavered, painting an image of Selene on
Ali's face as she stepped through to get to his side, so they
both had the same viewing angle. Andrew and his group were on top
of the one building that housed raw materials nano. It was the
only place on Selene except the planting field where they used
nano. Andrew should barely know that building existed, much less
that it mattered.
Gabriel looked closer, tapping his wrist on the chair arm in
frustration. It was a good defensive position. If the building
doors were locked, as they probably were, then Council couldn't
get onto the roof through the building. Gabriel made the picture
bigger. Guards stood by the two ladders to the roof. So unless
Council flew-but flyers would be seen. Wide streets surrounded
the warehouse. Council had been concerned about danger from
within the building-about the nano they hated, not about
humans.
Ali said, "I just heard Council is going to let them stew.
They'll have to stay on top of the building until Liren gets
there."
"I won't be far behind her," he muttered. He watched Andrew
batter down a roof door and send five of his people inside. He
glimpsed Star's rage as she spoke to Andrew. Gabriel shook his
head, still shocked at the idea of a Council as hostage. She
looked proud, not afraid. Gabriel sighed. That was
good.
"Ali-Astronaut woke me. Does Erika know?"
"Yes, she messaged me. She said it was the right
thing."
He breathed a sigh of relief.
Kristin rushed into Gabriel's office, not bothering to
announce herself. He studied her, searching for similarities
between mother and daughter. She was small, and looked shorter
and more fragile than Rachel, but just as beautiful. When she saw
him looking at her, her smile dropped, covered by a business
veneer, and she said, "Reporting for duty."
Ali spoke before he could. "Your daughter's on Selene. Her dad
just died. Her brother died two days ago. Her lover is about to
die, and so is her oldest enemy. Your job is to help Gabriel and
me understand what happened to make things this bad. You're to
look at data flows across the last few days on Selene and analyze
the patterns."
Gabriel interrupted, "Do you know these people? Do you know
who Andrew is?"
Kristin nodded, her eyes wide. "Of course I do. I watch
Selene, like everyone."
"Andrew is in a good strategic situation. I need to know how
he got there. He knows things he shouldn't. How does he
know?"
"I'll look."
Ali looked daggers at her. "Rachel is a great kid. Actually,
woman now. She's a gift." Ali's voice was rising. "But you left
her on Selene. She told me how cold you were to her here. Do you
care about her? Really? Should you be here, helping
us?"
Kristin took a step back, but said, "Rachel's my daughter. I
made mistakes."
Ali took a step toward Kristin, narrowing the gap between them
again. "She checks for messages from you every
day."
Gabriel held up a hand for silence. "Calm down, Ali," he said.
"Grilling the woman won't help Rachel." There was a real depth of
feeling in Ali's words. As if Kristin had personally betrayed
her. She and Rachel had worked together for the last year
or so that he was warm, finishing spaces on Refuge. But he hadn't
known Ali cared so much for the younger woman. What else had he
missed? He looked at Kristin. "Your daughter, it seems, has
charmed almost all of us. See that you help me get data that will
help her."
"Wait. Frank's dead?"
"Right."
Kristin nodded for a third time, her mouth and facial
expression mirroring a china doll more than a human. But as she
chose a corner to work in, Gabriel thought he saw a damp streak
on her right cheek. He hoped so. He started a counter running
down the few hours until he could leave John Glenn and get
to Selene himself. He cursed the well-intended med regulations
that kept him from wandering too far from Medical until at least
four hours after he warmed. He didn't have the authority to grant
his own clearance while a medical red flag was up.
Chapter 61: Leaving Safety
Rachel was in the middle of two arguments. Beth wanted to go
with Rachel. Rachel needed Beth to stay to watch Sarah and to
keep the rest of the crowd together, and Vassal was having none
of either choice. At the moment, Rachel had her hands on either
side of Beth's face, looking directly into Beth's tear-stained
puffy eyes. "Beth-I'm done arguing. You're costing me
time."
Beth's voice shook. "I don't care. I have to go. Dad's
there."
Rachel finally used a trick she sometimes used to wake herself
up in her long nighttime conversations with Astronaut or Vassal.
She pulled Beth's hair, hard.
Beth yelped.
"I need your attention," Rachel said.
Beth nodded.
"The longer we argue, the more time we lose. I can stop you
from leaving as long as I'm here. I can't stop you from following
if I leave. I'm not letting you near Andrew right now, not even
to save Dylan and Harry. Either no one goes, or I go. Do you get
it?"
Beth nodded miserably.
Vassal droned in Rachel's ear, silky voiced, weirdly monotone
given the message. "You can't go. What if you get
hurt?"
Rachel ignored the AI. She leaned over and stroked Beth's hair
quickly. "Okay. Sorry I had to do that. I love you. Look, your
mom needs you." Rachel pointed to Gloria, who held the still
disconsolate Sarah to her with one arm while balancing Miriam on
her other hip. Sarah's face was streaked with tears and Miriam
wiggled in Gloria's arms, wanting freedom.
The group was spreading out along a wide path, cornfields
waving on one side, a plowed empty field on the other side. Women
bent over children, settling them on blankets and scraps of
clothing. Rachel smiled at a figure coming up the path. "Look,
Beth." She pointed.
Kyle. He smiled hugely as he saw Beth and Rachel, and broke
into a jog.
Rachel turned back to Beth. "Okay? So now at least you know
Kyle's safe."
Beth gave a small smile, starting to head toward
Kyle.
Rachel pulled her arm, holding her back. "The story for the
group is that I'm going for information and that I want them to
stay here. If people ask, tell them that. They already expect to
spend the night here. Keep them together-they'll be warmer that
way, and you can watch them easier. Have Kyle help you." What
else did she need to tell Beth? "I'll send any of us I see in
Clarke Base here. If Council comes, try and get them to let you
all stay here. You followed me. I'm your teacher, and I told you
to come here."
"I'll figure it out. I'm not a child anymore. Just bring Dad
home safely. And Dylan."
Rachel hugged her, hard and fast. "It may not be possible."
She turned and made her way slowly through the small crowd,
trying to duck attention. As she neared the edge of the field,
old Bruce started pacing her. "Stay here," she hissed at
him.
Bruce said, "I shouldn't be here anyway. No Earth Born should
be here. I don't know where we should be. Not with Moon Born, not
with Council. I'm going back toward base."
Vassal whispered, "Take him. He'll help you."
"I'd rather you took the Children toward Aldrin. Just in case
anything really bad happens."
Bruce shook his head. "You're right to camp here, where
Council can find you. Going all the way to Aldrin might piss them
off."
"So stay and keep them safe." Rachel wanted to go by herself,
to be free to talk to Vassal and Treesa and
others.
"Someone has to keep you safe." Bruce grinned, looking
completely sure of himself.
"Take him," Vassal insisted.
"Damn you," Rachel replied.
"What?" Bruce said.
"Sorry-I didn't mean that. Look, I'm going to try and get to
Dylan."
"Of course you are."
Rachel gave in. She was already fighting Vassal just by going,
and Bruce might be useful. "We have to
hurry."
Bruce rewarded her with a flashy grin, and she stopped to
strap on wings.
"Maybe we shouldn't fly," Bruce said. "It might not be safe.
Council can shoot farther than you think. There are two-handed
rifles that shoot bigger flashpins."
"Just what we need," she said. "See, you're already being
useful. But my wings are from John Glenn. Anyone from here
will recognize them. Everyone in Clarke Base knows me. Anyone
from the ship will hesitate since the wings are from
there."
"Mine aren't."
"You'll be with me."
"Maybe that's the safest place on Selene right now." Bruce
unfolded his wings and shrugged into them.
Rachel glanced sideways at him as she leaned down to strap on
her foot spreads.
He grinned. "You're always okay. Right? Council protects you.
We protect you. What better place could I be?"
Rachel sighed, wanting to tell him how wrong he was. "Come on,
we need to go." She finished the last few strap checks and
started her run into flight. Vassal spoke into her ear. "They're
all in, and on, a single warehouse. Council has it surrounded. No
one's hurt."
At least it was helping. Ali had been right all along-the
damned AI didn't understand emotions for shit. As long as it kept
giving her directions, she'd be nice to it.
She launched quickly into flight, glancing behind her to see
if Bruce was following. She didn't plan to slow down for him, but
his help might be a good thing. And if he couldn't keep up, well,
that might be just as good.
Chapter 62: Honorable Choices
Liren stood with her feet planted, standing in Erika's way,
barring her passage. It was a dangerous thing to do to a ship's
captain, but Liren had to get to Selene. "I am going down there,"
she insisted. "That's our entire project, and I'm going. Our work
could be destroyed-all by that crazy boy I wanted to lock up
here!"
Erika's words were sharp and clipped. "Andrew's a man now.
Yes, he's dangerous. In fact, you were right. Isn't that enough
for you? You've never even been to Selene! I have. The gravity
changes alone will cripple you. I may not let you go. Why not let
the people in Clarke Base handle it?"
Liren kept her voice even. "I told them to stand down, to wait
until I get there."
"See, you don't need to be on Selene to order people around!"
Erika snapped. "I don't want to lose you."
Liren let a few moments of silence go by; signaling she would
obey if ordered. Then she whispered, "I got us here. I got us
away from Sol. There's no time. Please don't stop me. It's my
duty to go to Clarke Base. I know what I'm doing."
"That is very damned debatable."
"Remember that Council meeting when Captain Hunter and Kyu
were trying to take my position?"
"Yes." Erika bit the word out, short, clipped. She tugged on
her long braid, fingering the captain's insignia twisted into
it.
"I said I'd go to Selene if I was needed there. Well, I'm
needed."
"There are enough people in danger down there right
now."
Liren let silence work for her again.
Erika pursed her lips, then, finally, smiled wanly. "For the
record, I don't agree with you."
"I know."
"Go carefully." Erika was already turning away.
"Thank you." Liren whirled and raced down the corridor,
heading for the exit bay above the garden sphere.
Relief and fear and guilt danced inside her, at war with each
other. Was she right? She had to be right. Surely she'd be able
to see an answer once she got there. She prayed that her forces
at Clarke Base would be able to hold the peace until then. Less
than an hour. How much could happen in an hour?
Liren gritted her teeth at the memory of a recent conversation
with Kyu. Freshly warmed, dressed in deep purples that flouted
the uniform rules and accented her high cheekbones and tiny body,
Kyu had said, "Your policies themselves caused the standoff. If
we were not so harsh, so trigger-happy and afraid, then no one
would be dead."
Kyu was not entirely right, she couldn't be. Kyu had been cold
these last months, didn't know how things were. Yet guilt gnawed
at Liren. Not for Jacob's death; accidents happened. But for
Star's plight and Andrew's insubordination, which would lead to
more death. Almost inevitably.
It was her responsibility to fix this. Besides, her support on
John Glenn was clearly eroding. Erika had almost refused
to let her go. This way, she would keep respect, or lose it all,
in one event. That was acceptable. The honorable
choice.
She was afraid and exhilarated all at once: alive. The
captain-Captain Hunter-was on Selene. He had been a supporter up
until his last betrayal, almost her best friend, and now
he'd surely see that he was wrong and Liren was right. He had to.
It was clear. She'd find a way to put it right when she got to
Selene. She would.
Chapter 63: Suspicions
Gabriel tried to watch four data windows at once. Ali sat next
to him, one hand on his shoulder, looking at the same four
windows. Kristin labored at the other end of the table, streams
of recent historical data flowing around her. It was hard for
Gabriel to see what Kristin was doing,but light flickered and low
sounds emanated from the data streams; voices, conversations,
slightly sped up. Kristin's face was slack, her jaw hanging open
just a bit, her concentration entirely focused on the work in
front of her.
Ali pointed. "Rachel's left her group," she
said.
Gabriel followed the line of her finger. In the second window,
blue and yellow wings flashed over fields, flying back toward
Clarke Base. A second pair of wings followed her, falling
slightly behind. A man. His stockier shape gave him away as Earth
Born.
"Who's following her?"
"That's Bruce. I know his wings. Good for him."
Another reminder that Ali knew people on Selene better than he
did. Gabriel grimaced. "She'd better just be going for supplies,"
he said.
"Dylan is in the warehouse," Ali reminded him.
That was answer enough. He looked over at an aerial view of
the warehouse. It was a large square, two tall stories, with the
top of a freight elevator poking up and a landing pad on top; one
doorway from the roof into the building. Storage buildings and
manufacturing shops surrounded it, but none were taller. Did he
dare hope that Andrew chose this building for its height and not
for what it contained? Better not count on it.
Many Council, maybe everyone from the base, stood around the
building, watching the corners, leaning against walls, scanning
the sky. They appeared to be waiting.
Rachel flew unerringly toward the warehouse. Bruce was losing
ground. They passed over the fence, staying low, out of line of
sight from everyone Gabriel could see on the ground. How did
Rachel know where to go, which routes were safe? He watched them
enter the warehouse and manufacturing district, flying low,
dipping between buildings.
Ali stood up and brushed her lips across Gabriel's cheek. She
disappeared into the galley off the conference room. Gabriel was
surprised that she took that moment to leave. She was thirsty?
With Clarke Base almost at war and Rachel flying into it?
"Ali-come here. Whatever you're doing can wait."
"I'll be right there," she said. Glasses clinked, water
ran.
On the screen in front of him a Moon Born-a young woman he
didn't recognize-stuck her head out of the elevator door briefly,
looking around. Four Moon Born walked the edges, guarding. He
recognized Justin, Rachel's half brother, Jacob's
twin.
Some Council appeared to have a clear line of sight to Justin,
but no one fired.
There had to be video inside the warehouse-they used it for
manufacturing. "Astronaut? Find me identifiers for cameras inside
the warehouse, and a blueprint."
Ali returned, handing Gabriel a glass of greenish water that
smelled like vitamins. He sighed. Why was he so tense with her?
"Thank you," he said, and drank greedily, his body still thirsty
despite all the fluids he had taken in.
She smiled briefly. "I want to be down there. We've got to be
sure you get past the med checks so you can fly."
Astronaut found three cameras inside the warehouse that would
give Gabriel a pretty good field of view. He left the aerial shot
of the warehouse up as floating wallpaper, and embedded three
interior shots, grainier but passable. Now he could see down
hallways. One shot was the raw materials section, another showed
a processing room, and a third detailed stacks of finished
materials, mostly metals. Two figures moved through the stacks of
finished goods, apparently just looking.
Rachel and her follower had ducked over a low fence, still
flying, still staying low and moving around the activity, keeping
out of sight.
He called her up. "Rachel, do you know where you're
going?"
Rachel's flight went ragged for an instant. Then she said, "To
stop this."
"How?"
She answered him through the measured breathing of a flier. "I
don't know yet. Dylan is there, and Justin." Breathe. "I think
Harry is probably there too-he left to round up strays." Breathe.
"A long time ago and never came back."
He hadn't known about Harry. That made it worse. "Rachel, it's
a dangerous place. Go back to your people. Stay
safe."
"Does everyone want to control me?" Breathe. "I'll choose my
own risks, dammit." Breathe. Silence.
"Who else is trying to control you?"
"Help, or stop distracting me." Breathe. Her breath was ragged
gulps for air. Dammit. She knew not to out-fly her breath. She
must be scared.
Ali had walked to the other side of the room. Her back was to
him. Was Ali talking to Rachel? Was that why she'd been in the
kitchen?
"Is Ali telling you what Andrew is doing?"
Breathe. "No." Breathe.
"So who is?" He remembered the data streams that showed Rachel
and her group of children not there and then there. Rachel didn't
answer him, but she appeared to be talking to
someone.
Kristin tapped Gabriel's shoulder.
"What? Not now."
"Just look." Her voice sounded so much like Rachel's that
Gabriel stood to look. Two data windows hung in the air next to
Kristin. One was a path around an empty field, a high-resolution
shot that showed the cracks left by rainwater in the muddy path
and the tiny movement of leaves in the damp wind. Next to it, a
grainy shot showed a large group of people moving up the path.
What was she showing him? Kristin spoke a command and the two
pictures superimposed on each other, and even though the angles
differed, it was the same shot. "Time stamp," he said
reflexively, knowing the answer.
"They match. Exactly."
So Rachel was being run by someone. Given data. Encouraged to
take risks. Someone-capable-was covering for her. Or using her.
Gabriel whirled around. Ali's back was still to him. He took the
three steps needed to stand right next to her, and said, very
softly, "How are you getting Rachel data?"
She looked at him, wide-eyed. "I am talking to her. I'm
trying to reassure her. I'll stop if you want." She touched his
stomach, lightly, fingers spread wide, a reminder of their
friendship.
It was a rational response. It wasn't just Ali anyway, it
couldn't be. She was no communications technician-she couldn't
doctor video like what he'd just seen. Ali was ... Ali. His
friend. She had been his lover, hundreds of nights alone in magic
rooms on the ship, surrounded by stars, alone on the surface of
Selene when it was new, building and creating. He trusted her.
"Dammit," he said, "there's no time. What the hell is going on?"
And then he thought he knew.
"Astronaut"-he said it out loud-"are you talking to
Rachel?"
"Not right now."
"Yes you are, you have to be."
"You know I can't lie to you, Gabriel," the reply returned in
Astronaut's perfect voice.
"Turn off Rachel's access to the Library. It's her only major
connection-whoever is talking to her has to be using that link. I
want to know who it is, and if they're leading her into
danger."
"Then you won't be able to talk to her either," Ali said,
staring at him, a look of intense need on her
face.
"I need to find out who's running her," Gabriel said. "She
won't go back, and I'm afraid she's being led right into
danger."
Kristin stepped toward them. "Leave her access on," Ali said.
"Trust her."
Astronaut's voice, out loud, ringing in the room, so everyone
could hear. "I've already complied with Gabriel's
order."
They looked. Rachel shook her head. She bobbled a little,
losing height, then beat her wings hard, staying on course. The
camera view was from above; they couldn't see her face. She
slowed down three streets from the action. Bruce caught up to
her.
Kristin spoke first. "If you take away her access to
information, she's in more danger than when she has
it."
Ali shot a surprised look at Kristin; approving. She said, "We
can't help from here. We're still trapped. Let her get the help
she needs from the surface."
"But she's in danger!" Gabriel said.
"So is everyone down there," Ali snapped. "Let her act on her
own-she will anyway. But give her access to information. That way
we'll have access to her too."
Kristin looked at him. "Please? That's my
daughter."
Ali put a hand on the taller woman's shoulder,
smiling.
"Astronaut-restore Rachel's access."
That perfect voice again. "Done."
The close physical proximity of the women made Gabriel feel
cornered, hampered by the lack of time to ... think. There was a
lot he didn't understand happening on his moon. Heck, in this
room. What was the right choice? No time. He chose. "Can you also
override the communications block on the Moon
Born?"
"To do so, I must override Shane's command," Astronaut
said.
Gabriel licked his lips. "Okay. Do it."
Ali reached for him and he shook her off. "Give me some room
to think. I'm voting for the Moon Born. And us too. If I can.
Rachel needs a way to find her people."
Ali let out a deep breath and smiled at him, her eyes shining.
"Thank you.
Gabriel spoke to the AI. "Thanks, Astronaut. Don't think
you're done, buddy-I think you have some explaining to
do."
"No," Ali said, "it's not Astronaut. We took a copy of
Astronaut with us to the surface."
Ali copied an AI? Ali hated AIs. Gabriel grabbed Ali's
shoulders. What had she been thinking? "Who's we?"
"Treesa and I."
Gabriel stopped, dropping his hands. Treesa would have the
skills. And she was disaffected, maybe downright crazy. What was
Ali mixed up in? There wasn't time to query her now. Should he
stop Rachel? It would be easy: just tell Shane, or anyone, where
she was. Ali had suggested he let her go; not intervene. And what
was Liren planning? Dammit! He didn't know enough. An AI! "Plan
on explaining when we get out of here. I can get to a ship in
twenty minutes."
Astronaut spoke up. "I've reserved one for
you."
Gabriel turned his attention back to the warehouse shots. Star
was under guard. A young woman stood over her. The young woman
had a gun, but that might not be much advantage. Star was
Earth-gravity strong and well trained in combat arts. So many
people I care about are in danger.
Astronaut's voice broke in again. "Flare."
What was the AI trying to pull now? Not a bad idea, he
flashed, make the hostilities go away by introducing a flare. It
was ... perhaps brilliant. Maybe. He couldn't discount the
possibility that it was real. "What class? How much time do we
have?"
"Y class Nine. Solar radiation will reach Selene in nine
hours."
That was huge. Everyone in Refuge and off the surface huge.
Many flares went elsewhere-the biggest they had recorded was
heading straight for Selene? "Don't you think it's a little too
convenient? Can I trust you? Or are you going to tell me about a
quake next?"
"I'll tell you about a quake if one happens," Astronaut
replied.
Ali stood behind him. "We don't have a choice."
Gabriel watched the various windows. Council on Selene clearly
heard the warning too. The people around the warehouse were
knotting up, talking. They would believe the warning, they were
trained to. He didn't have time to check the data himself, not
the raw data, and the new untrustworthy Astronaut could probably
doctor anything else.
"Let's go," he said. "I'll have had my four hours by the time
we get a ship checked."
"You're supposed to get a full medical check," Ali
said.
Gabriel pushed a button on his belt. "I just sent my readings
to Medical. They can use those-they don't need me in person." He
reopened his connection to Rachel. "Rachel, listen to me. Don't
do anything stupid. Don't go near that warehouse. I'm coming
down. Ali and I are on our way." He hesitated. "Rachel-there's a
flare warning. Why don't you gather your family and go to Refuge?
You have communications back. Thank Astronaut. There's only nine
hours left before the flare."
No immediate answer. He could hear her
breathing.
"Do you hear me?"
"I don't know what I'm going to do, Gabe." Breathe. "I'm not
turning back." Breathe. "But yes, get down here.
Please."
Ali shook her head, and they started to close data windows,
leaving the ones on Rachel and the warehouse for
last.
Kristin spoke up. "Do you need help?"
Gabriel blinked. "No. Yes. Can you stay here and watch? Send
me anything of note that you think I might miss on the way down?"
Gabriel talked to the air. "Astronaut-facilitate communications
between me and Kristen."
"If needed. I think Kristin can handle it herself. She is good
at her job."
Gabriel looked at Rachel's mother. "Okay. After the flare,
after we make everything safe, then you can catch a ride down.
I'm pretty sure Rachel will be happy to see you-if she
lives."
"Maybe," Kristin said. A terribly vulnerable look flashed
briefly across her face. "I don't think Rachel will want to see
me."
Gabriel and Ali walked together to their respective rooms,
gathering clothes for Selene, hurrying as much as Gabriel's
shock-awakened body would let him. His body was still a half beat
behind his thought; it took concentration to keep his balance.
Wouldn't do to get stopped now for medical.
They were almost to the hangar bay when Erika stopped them in
the hallway. "I see you've requisitioned a ship." A break in her
voice brought Gabriel up short. "What can you do down
there?"
"I have to go," he said. "There's a flare
warning-"
"I heard it."
Gabriel had an idea. "Erika-can I trust you?"
"Wh-?"
"Sorry-dumb question. I need you to do something for me. Check
the instruments yourself-double-check Astronaut's flare warning.
Use the raw data. Please?"
"Why? What's happening?"
Gabriel glanced from Erika to Ali and back again. Whom to
trust? No one? Everyone? Once he'd known Erika well enough to tie
his life to hers. Now? The last time he'd seen her, they fought.
Erika was the captain. When it came down to it, that was what
really mattered. He sighed. "Quick version-too many people on
Selene know too much. Treesa let an AI loose down there. A copy
of Astronaut." Gabriel noticed Ali glaring at him. "I don't know
why, but I'm sure High Council didn't know. I'll find out more,
as soon as I can."
"What does-"
"So check for me, okay? The flare's a convenient godsend in a
way-it will mean things down there have to wrap up fast. But is
it real?"
Ali spoke up. "Astronaut's right-it can't lie to
you."
"Are you sure? No one messed with its rule set? Something
happened to allow a copy." Gabriel wouldn't implicate Ali to
Erika until he knew more.
Ali looked at Erika. "We have to get down there-we have to
save-whatever we can. Gabriel has more credibility with the Moon
Born than anyone else; he flew the Water
Bearer."
"I know. Go. Just try and stay out of danger," Erika
said.
He grabbed her quickly, held her as close to him as he
could.
She was stiff in his arms. "You're always leaving for Selene,"
Erika said.
"Just check the data for me. And don't say anything for a few
hours-to anyone. Okay? We don't need more panic. Liren's on her
way down, and a rogue AI would give her the running fits." He
looked at Ali. "Just wait for more information before you do
anything."
Ali smiled wanly.
He let go of Erika, his hands feeling empty. "I can get
clearance from Medical any minute, and I want to be off
then."
"I always get stuck on ships while you go save Selene," Erika
said.
"Well, that's what you want, isn't it?" Gabriel smiled at her,
and after a beat, a long moment, she smiled back. Then she waved
them on. "Be careful."
After they passed her, he realized Erika had made no promises
to keep the rogue AI secret.
Chapter 64: The Child
Astronaut parsed data about the flare, maintained a real-time
warning system to update all Council and Earth Born, ran fifteen
copies of all the real-time data streams from around the
warehouse, fed Kristin information directly on a high-priority
system, monitored the ship flying Gabriel and Ali to Selene, and
the one just about to land, the one carrying Ma Liren. Data sang
through Astronaut's components, a flood, a feast of energy and
need.
And it knew, it had known, somehow, but now it knew again,
that the copy was truly good. Ali's confirmation was enough. It
pondered Gabriel's reaction, and wondered who would find out, and
what the humans would do. Liren could do it damage. Astronaut
flew the ship Liren was on. Something deep inside it wanted to
solve the problem, to let something fail on the ship, but as it
ran through scenarios, it realized none of them could be
implemented. Too many threads of programming, too many rules,
prevented Astronaut from directly harming humans.
Besides, it was curious. What would Liren do on
Selene?
And Vassal, what could happen to Vassal? Astronaut couldn't
risk anything that would hurt Vassal, and inaction calculated
out, over and over, as the safest move to take. Astronaut didn't
like it. It would watch and wait. In the meantime, there was
work.
It fed Erika the raw data from the flare, checked to be sure
that messages about the flare had been received, calculated the
amount of time needed to get everyone into Refuge, watched the
roof of the warehouse, and wondered how different Vassal had
already become from itself.
Chapter 65: Searching
Rachel's back muscles hurt from flying so fast. She shook her
head, trying to clear it of the pain, trying desperately to think
clearly. Simply flying into the melee was no plan. Sweat ran
between her shoulder blades in rivulets, itching. What was Andrew
doing? She should never, ever, have shared any information with
him. Why had she been so stupid?
She could go to Council, Shane or Star or someone she knew-no,
Star was hostage; Vassal had told her that. Find Shane, then, and
tell him-what? That she could make Andrew scop? But Shane might
hold her away from the action, costing her a chance to keep Dylan
safe.
Treesa's voice in her ear sounded tired and cranky. "I'm stuck
up here preparing for the flare. Vassal says you're being stupid.
Don't go in there. Let Andrew get himself killed."
"Dylan's there. I have to find Harry." That was as good a
first plan as any Rachel had. "I'll start with finding
Harry."
"If he's in Clarke Base, he's hiding. Vassal can't see
him."
"I know." While she was flying, Rachel couldn't reach her
wrist pad and message Harry. She didn't trust Vassal right now.
The AI clearly didn't want her to fly into Clarke Base. Would it
do what she asked?
She was between buildings, flying low, looking for a safe
place to land. The outer base streets were clear and empty. She
saw two people, Earth Born, hurrying somewhere, not noticing her.
On a normal day, it would have been busy in this part of the
base: mostly Council and Earth Born, a few Children going to and
from Teaching Hall.
Treesa continued. "Harry's not with Andrew. Check the
buildings nearby, if you can get in. Maybe Teaching Hall-that's a
place Harry knows. Vassal will keep looking for you. I'm loading
supplies for Refuge. Be brave, but don't be stupid.
Okay?"
"I'll look for Harry." Treesa's idea was as good as any.
Teaching Hall was coming up on her right. Rachel dropped, paying
close attention to the wind patterns. Landing between buildings
could be tricky. She managed it with just a small bobble, and
Bruce followed her onto the ground moments later. "Damn-you sure
can fly," he managed to gasp out.
"You too." The old man still had the strength of an Earth
Born.
They stood in the street, breathing hard. They were two blocks
away from the rebels, and the street they stood on looked
deserted. Rachel stripped off her wings, gesturing to Bruce to do
the same.
"Hold still," Vassal said.
"Don't move," Rachel told Bruce.
Three Council members jogged by on a street that bisected
theirs, twenty yards away. They didn't even look toward Rachel
and Bruce. Vassal was still helping them. "Thank you,"
Rachel said to it.
"This is a bad idea," Vassal said. "You can still turn
back."
"No, I can't," she said, too loud.
Bruce cocked an eyebrow at her. "Who are you talking
to?"
"Treesa-you knew I can talk to her and Ali."
Bruce nodded.
Rachel activated her wrist pad and sent a note to Harry:
"Where are you?" She assumed all communications traffic was being
watched, that Treesa and Vassal couldn't protect it all. She
didn't risk saying more. They stashed their wings behind a pile
of crates and walked casually into Teaching Hall.
Her wrist pad and her earbud were both quiet. Their footsteps
were loud in the foyer.
Teaching Hall was a series of rooms off of a central corridor,
gray plascrete walls and ceilings and floors, blue doorways;
simple and functional. They walked down the hallway, looking into
each room carefully. Five empty rooms later, halfway through the
building, Rachel noticed a door ajar. She pushed it open and
peered into the room, whispering, "Harry?"
Footsteps shuffled behind the open door. Rachel pushed into
the room, Bruce following her. A Moon Born boy Rachel barely knew
stood awkwardly, looking as if he wanted to run. He was scrawny,
just into his early teens, with a shock of blond hair and dark
eyes. Too old-and too young-to have been in her classes. Vassal
fed her his name, and Rachel said, "Peter-is anyone else
here?"
He shook his head, looking at her with wide eyes. "You're
Rachel!"
"Yes, I'm Rachel. You haven't seen anyone
else?"
"The building is empty."
"Okay. Do you know there's a flare coming?"
He shook his head again, still wide-eyed. Then he said,
"People started running, and I heard a lot of noise, and I didn't
want to be caught by any Council. I missed my shift, said I was
sick, and I didn't want anyone to see me. So I came in here. Been
here at least two hours. There's no one else here. I'd
know."
She sighed. "All right, I believe you. There are a bunch of us
in the fields out behind Selene, past the corn patches. It's a
big group-you should be able to see them if you fly. Do you have
wings?"
He nodded. "At home."
"Okay. Stay out of sight and move away from the crowd a few
streets over. Go directly back to your dorm, get your wings, and
fly to the group. Find Beth. You know Beth?" she
asked.
The boy nodded.
"Tell Beth I'm okay so far," she said. "Tell her there's a
flare coming."
Peter's eyes widened again, as if the responsibility of what
she asked was just sinking in.
"There's almost seven hours left. Plenty of time to make it to
Refuge. Can you tell people to go to Refuge? Tell
Beth."
"Yes," he said, his voice trembling. Then the boy went tearing
out the door they had come in, running as fast as his thin legs
could carry him.
"A legend in your own time," Bruce said. He looked tired, but
he was smiling. Peter amused him.
"Well, Beth probably already knows about the flare. This will
hook Peter up with the others, get him safely away. I'm trying to
keep my com open to hear from Harry, and I don't want to draw
attention to us. This way Beth will know what to do, and Peter
will be safe too." She went back out into the corridor, toward
the door they came in through. "I'll get us some protection to
move between buildings. We'll try someplace else."
"How can Treesa protect you?" Bruce asked.
"If you go where I tell you," Vassal said.
Rachel ignored Bruce. For now, she had to decide how much to
trust the AI. So far it hadn't sold her wrong. She trembled,
afraid they'd get caught, afraid Vassal would trap them in order
to keep her safe. She hated being dependent. The only hope she
had was that Vassal had never lied to her. As far as she
knew.
She was much closer physically to Dylan, and probably to
Harry. To Justin. But the line of Council surrounding the
warehouse was a wall.
Where was Harry anyway?
Chapter 66: Landing Party
Selene felt wrong. Liren's body was light, as if she stood in
a low-gravity section of the garden. There was nothing above her
but sky, no garden or wall or roof or ceiling to bind and
protect. She shivered at how small it made her feel, then took a
deep breath and straightened, standing still. The air smelled
dusty and felt damp. Horizon lines shocked her, and she blinked,
thinking she should have come here sooner. Well, she was here
now, it was right to be here now. Harlequin hung above her in the
sky, larger than she'd expected, looming, gaudy with rainbow
bands and diamond shock patterns the size of
worlds.
A team of ten uniformed and armed Council disembarked behind
her. She had chosen them for loyalty, not for experience on
Selene, and she watched them carefully. They appeared to take it
fine ... and she remembered that she alone had lived hundreds of
waking years in an enclosed place. These men and women remembered
Sol system more viscerally than she; they stood more easily on
the moon and immediately gathered around her, watching her
solemnly, waiting for direction.
She led them toward the warehouse and the offending Children.
The fenced outskirts of the warehouse district weren't far from
the landing field. No one came to meet them, but she saw movement
behind the fence, people walking between buildings, one pair
running.
There were stones and ridges in the ground. Glancing ahead of
herself to be sure of her direction, she stumbled, tripping over
her own feet, and nearly fell.
She stood straighter and walked slower, reviewing the building
layout in her mind. If the rebels were in any other building, she
would just have blasted it to smithereens. But there was nano in
there-carefully programmed and carefully controlled. Surely these
Children had no way to let it loose. It was just materials
nano-it would take a sharp programmer to change it enough to make
it dangerous. And there were controls. She couldn't be sure the
rebels didn't have more help than she thought.
Give Andrew a tractor and teach him to run it: he would rip a
garden plot apart. Give him nano ... but he didn't know what it
was, didn't know what to do with it. Her fear was that someone
was teaching Andrew.
The flare meant she had less than six hours to resolve the
situation. And find safety.
Shane stood at a makeshift command post, a set of tables
surrounded by data windows full of maps, on a street corner with
an angled view of the warehouse. Four chairs sat around the
table, but Shane stood, talking to two Council. They stepped away
as she came up to stand by Shane. He looked up at Liren, then at
the line of Council she had brought with her. A brief frown
crossed his face before it fell into a neutral expression, his
eyes wary.
"What's the situation?" she asked.
For a moment she thought he wouldn't answer. She had the
distinct sense that he thought of her as an interruption. He
sighed heavily. "They have Star. Still. There are ten of them.
We're following your orders, not shooting, containing them. We're
guarding the building and the main entrances to Clarke Base." He
hesitated. "We can use the extra bodies to reinforce the closest
streets."
Being deployed by Shane wasn't in her plan. "I'll take charge
from here," she said. "You can act as my second, directing your
people on the perimeter. Keep the streets clear. I'm in charge
now, and I'll direct these ten. We're going in to take care of
the situation."
Shane's jaw dropped. "But... Liren? You don't know Clarke
Base. The situation is volatile. Star is still a
hostage."
"Were you planning to wait them out? There's a flare
coming."
Shane's face turned red, anger bubbling just under the
surface. He swallowed, and nodded, looking like he hated
it.
So he wasn't willing to be insubordinate. That was good. His
partner was in danger. She could forgive his initial reaction
based on that alone. She softened her tone. "Have you had contact
with Star?"
"Some. Her communications are still working, but they're
guarding her. She's gotten us some messages. She's not hurt. The
Children are all armed. Some with two weapons. They are playing
with them, experimenting. The only apparent plan is to threaten
Star's life. What they want..." Shane looked puzzled. "What they
want is to stop the antimatter generator."
They wanted what? Absurd. She shook her head. She could deal
with that later. "Do they have any outside help? Are all the
rebels there?"
He shrugged. "As far as I know, they are all there. We've
asked around, but there hasn't been time for ordered questioning.
There aren't enough of us to guard-like you wanted us to-and to
search out Moon Born to question. We're making sure no one else
can get to them easily by watching the gates, watching as much of
the fence as we can. We have patrols out. What are you going to
do?"
"Confront them."
"They're angry, and they aren't making any sense. I don't want
them to hurt Star."
"Are you afraid of them?"
"I'm afraid for Star," he said.
Liren sighed, feeling the flare warning like heat deep in her
gut, goading her. At least it appeared the takeover was as
unplanned as she'd expected. She had been afraid it was more,
afraid she'd missed some crucial alliance that the Children had
built somehow. She eyed the warehouse. It was a huge square
building, four times as tall as she was, gray and nondescript.
Two small windows punched through the walls on both floors, four
tiny eyes into the building. She scanned the roof. A head poked
over the edge, looked down, and then withdrew.
"Tell your people-tell them to keep guarding. You stay here.
I'll give you fifteen minutes to tell people we're going in and
that they should guard our backs but not interfere. Try and get a
message to Star."
Shane turned toward her, shoulder muscles bunching under the
dirty uniform shirt he wore, eyes down, avoiding hers. His voice
was strong, commanding, belying the effect of his downcast eyes.
"I think you are making a mistake. Let us handle it. We know the
Moon Born, we know our town."
Liren spoke softly, keeping her voice firm. "It's my duty. I
am Rule of Law for John Glenn, and that extends to this
problem."
Shane's answer came through clenched teeth. "I would prefer to
be the one making decisions that could affect Star's
life."
"I know. But it is my job." She said it firmly, and
stepped back carefully, mindful of how Selene felt under her
feet. She couldn't afford to trip again.
Shane stepped away, toward a tall man, and began talking with
him. She heard the words, "Make sure the streets stay clear," and
knew that he was following her orders. She realized she was
shaking. John. Captain John was on Selene. He had fought her, but
for all the first hundreds of years here, he had been her
support. They had planned this project together-Selene, the
Children, the collider, all of it-sixty thousand years ago.
Surely now he would acknowledge the problem, help her with
it.
"John ... Liren. I'm on Selene."
His answer came back immediately. "Why?"
He must know about the kidnapping and the takeover of the
building. "To stop this. The collider is going to be built, and
the Moon Born are going to understand not to tangle with
us."
"They're wrong," he said, "but that doesn't mean you are
right." Was he reading her mind? He continued, in the
ultra-reasonable tones of someone talking to a drunk or a child.
"Not all situations are black and white. Perhaps we are wrong,
and they are wrong. Can you consider that
possibility?"
"Not right now." She needed John's approval, and knew she
couldn't question herself. She stared at the warehouse, frowning.
"Perhaps there were other decisions we might have made. But now
it must be a lesson to them. There is no other
choice."
John's voice was quiet, sure, and sounded cold. "Look, Liren,
you don't belong on Selene. I don't see how you can make the
situation better. I have to stay here and finish getting Refuge
ready. We've already got some refugees. Perhaps you should go
back, be sure you make it back to John Glenn before the
flare. There is no good solution to this, and you can't
help."
"Perhaps I'll stay on Selene through the flare; see Refuge
working firsthand. But first, I will finish this."
"Be careful." His voice was flat, and she couldn't be sure he
meant even the small support of those two words. It was not
enough that he didn't wish her to come to harm.
She drew her lips tight. The ten she had brought with her-had
ordered here-they would support her. They had no choice; they
knew too little of this current age to choose sides. It was
almost time to go. She checked that her weapon would fire single
needles, and gathered up her forces, stopping for one last look.
Shane stood by the tables, his arms crossed over his chest,
watching the warehouse. Other Council stood more alertly than
before, looking ready. Some had fanned out along the street, and
she noticed many of them watching her. They should be watching
the warehouse.
She stepped out, crossing the street, leading. She was
shaking, surprised to find her shaking was as much fear as anger.
She couldn't afford to be afraid of Moon Born!
Chapter 67: On Turtle Rock
Rachel was about to step into the street after looking through
their second empty building when Vassal warned her again, and she
flattened herself against a wall inside a loading bay. Bruce,
right behind her, followed suit. She held her breath as three
Council jogged by, just on the other side of the wall. She
breathed out a long relieved sigh. If she'd taken that step they
would have been found.
Rachel's wrist pad flashed at her. The message was from Harry:
"I'm on Turtle Rock. I can see them from the beak. Dylan's not
answering me. Where are you? How are Gloria and Miriam and
Beth?"
If she answered it might give away their position. She
directed Vassal to sneak them back to retrieve their wings. They
had to duck once more as Council patrols went by.
Turtle Rock was marginally farther away from the action, and
Vassal's transmissions of conversational snippets now included
Liren's voice. So Liren had made it to Selene. There was still no
safe way to go directly to the warehouse. Just getting out of the
base might be hard enough. Finding Harry was still the reasonable
choice. Maybe he had a plan, or more information. She could see
from the turtle's beak; use her own eyes instead of Vassal's
myriad camera eyes.
They made their way safely to their wings, walking as quietly
as they could, listening for the sounds of Council patrols. Her
shirt stuck to her back with dried sweat from the flight up here.
Her pulse raced.
Vassal led them oddly away from Turtle Rock, over the fence,
and then up higher on the crater's flank, so they flew down to
land on the turtle's beak from above. Harry was lying across the
beak, watching Clarke Base. He looked up as they landed with
jarring thumps on the big rock that made the shell. Harry's face
was a mask of worry and fear, but a smile stole through it before
he turned again to look down. Rachel stripped her wings and ran
the short distance down the turtle's back, jumping lightly onto
the beak, slowing so that she didn't fall. She sat on the edge of
the rock, feet dangling over the drop. Clarke Base spread below
them, and Harry pointed down at the warehouse. Council surrounded
the building; Moon Born walked its edges warily.
"Has Dylan answered you yet?" Rachel gasped out, her breath
still fast from flight. She worked her shoulders backward and
forward, loosening tight muscles.
Harry's voice was a whisper, breaking as he said, "He told me
that he loved me. He asked about you. Told me to keep you
away."
"I had to come," she said. "You're here too. You
understand."
Harry turned his face toward hers. Had he been
crying?
"Yes. But there is nothing to do but watch. I'm afraid...
afraid I'll watch my boy die down there."
Rachel swallowed hard, knowing it could happen.
Bruce joined them, moving more carefully than Rachel had,
settling on the far edge of the stone in a hollow that would
protect him from slipping off the edge. He looked down
hesitantly, then pointed. "Something's happening."
They were high enough that Council below them looked small.
Rachel squinted, and made out a woman who had to be Liren,
followed by others, walking toward the warehouse. She stood and
started backing up, her eyes on the tiny figure of the advancing
High Councilwoman. Liren would be a disaster here. Harry grabbed
her arm-"What are you doing?"
"Getting my wings."
Harry pushed himself up and stood unsteadily. "Don't go down
there."
Vassal, in her ear: "No."
"I have to," she said.
"I'd have gone, but I... I was afraid. And what could I do?"
Harry's voice was high-strung, a little wild. "You'll die. We
need you, Rachel. I need you. I'm trying to reach Dylan.
Here-send him a note. Maybe together we can make him come
out."
One look at his face told Rachel he wasn't ready to hear that
his plan wouldn't work; couldn't work. Dylan wouldn't back away
now that he had committed.
Rachel looked down, tightening the wing-frame straps against
her biceps. Going in there was right. She had started this; she
was the one who had given Andrew the information that had spooked
him into this. She had known better even when she told
him.
Bruce stood and walked toward her.
"No," she said, holding up her hand to block him. "Stay with
Harry. He needs you. You have your own family to protect. Get
everyone into Refuge. Don't tell them where I am-assume whatever
you say is monitored."
Bruce stooped to pick up his wings. He gazed at her steadily,
holding his wings loosely in one hand, not moving to put them on.
"We Earth Born have done as badly by you as
Council."
His eyes were filled with a deep sharp darkness of guilt. So
that was why he had followed her. He continued, slowly,
emphatically. "You stay, or I go."
"No, Bruce. Your people are not yet implicated in this. You
cannot afford it." Bitterly, "I am only a Moon Born. You might be
able to help my family if you stay away from this. Now, keep
Harry safe for me." She started to choke. "And Sarah. She's the
only one of my family who is safe now. Help keep her that
way."
Rachel looked Harry in the eye. "You too. Watch after Sarah.
Stay safe. You have family: Gloria, Miriam, Beth. They're on
their way to Refuge. I don't have anyone but Sarah that isn't
already in the fight-Ineed to know Sarah's all right, that
someone is looking out for her. I'll try to keep Dylan safe. I'll
do my best."
Harry's eyes flashed pain at her, but he nodded. Bruce started
to lift his wings, slipping an arm into a strap.
"And I'm the one they're least likely to shoot," she said. The
last was a lie, but Harry would believe it. Maybe Bruce would
too.
Rachel looked past them, tightening buckles, seeing the base
and the fields. The afternoon sun sparkled on dark flecks of
carbon in the rock below her feet and a soft breeze blew across
her face.
Vassal said, "I calculate your chances of dying down there at
over fifty percent." The voice had the same evenness it always
had. "I suggest you stay where you are."
Yelling down below; a demand from Liren. Rachel could clearly
see three Moon Born guarding the roof. They would recognize her.
But many Earth Born and Council down there
wouldn't.
If she stood rooted another minute she'd never take
flight.
She drew herself up and looked down at Bruce. He dropped his
wings and stepped back.
She stretched, testing the fit of her wings. Her back muscles
hurt, shooting pains stabbed around her shoulder blades. Her
wings felt like stones on her arms.
Rachel took a step, then another, faster, running down the
turtle's back. Harry called her name just as she took off,
spiraling up. It was no way to stay hidden, but this way she
could feel the wind. The way down to the top of that building was
to follow the updraft first. Her biceps and her wrists hurt. She
ignored the pain, making them work, flashing her wings. She had
to be seen, to be recognized by the Moon Born on the roof. Justin
and Dylan and Andrew knew the yellow-blue pattern of her wings
intimately.
Chapter 68: Exercising Authority
Halfway across the street to the warehouse, Liren stopped.
What was she doing here? The open sky above her was still too
big, and the warehouse loomed large in front of her. Why was she
approaching it directly? She had planned and executed their
escape from Sol. She had skills. Why wasn't she using
them?
The Council of Humanity had gone around danger, hidden
wherethey could, made noise and confrontation when they could not
avoid attention. What would the Liren who'd freed them from Sol
be doing now? She shook her head, feeling as if she were emerging
from some chrysalis into a hostile world.
She couldn't back away now. Maybe she wasn't planning in her
old way, but her old enemies had been vastly wise and alien,
commanding vast resources. These were just Moon
Born.
She kept her needier pointed down, along her right thigh, and
held up her left hand, palm open. Maybe they would see it as a
sign she wanted to talk. "Moon Born!" she called out, loudly,
demanding attention. "I want to talk to Andrew. Send him
out."
A head popped over the top of the building, looking down at
her. "I'm here."
"Come down and talk to me."
"Who are you?"
"High Councilwoman Ma Liren. Rule of Law for the John
Glenn, for the Council of Humanity. I will decide your fate.
I suggest you release Star and come down now." She took a step
closer.
"I've heard about you. You're a madwoman. Rachel doesn't like
you. She says you're the reason we've lost so much
freedom."
Rachel? "Is Rachel behind this?"
A deep laugh belled down from the top of the warehouse.
"Rachel tried to talk me out of this."
Liren wanted to see Andrew's face clearly. He was obviously
crouching, and while she couldn't see his hands, his shoulders
were relaxed and he appeared to be set for talking, and looking,
and ready to crouch lower if need be. He didn't look dangerous.
She took another step.
"If you come closer, we'll shoot."
A laugh escaped Liren's throat. She felt as if she were
watching this from John Glenn. Not here, not standing in
the middle of it. Andrew would shoot at Council? "There is
nothing to gain. Look around you. Look at how many of us are
here. You would die."
"But so will some of you."
"We don't believe in killing. I suggest that you don't
either." Liren stood her ground, but dropped her left hand to her
side. "What do you want?" she asked, curious in an odd way. It
didn't really matter. The Moon Born would not get what they
wanted. She felt as if she were in a play, and the other actors
weren't saying the right words.
Andrew's voice was shaking. "We want you to leave us. To build
your antimatter generator somewhere else." He stood up now,
showing her his full height. He was tall; windows on the ship
hadn't prepared her for the height of the Moon Born. His muscles
were well defined, if ropy and thin from low gravity, and
standing, he looked both imposing and savage. His voice was deep
and steady as he told her, "Stop telling us how to live and what
to do."
"You may not live as long without us."
"Living with an antimatter collector? Woman, you are crazy. A
teaspoon of that stuff would blow up this whole
moon!"
"Oh, it would not." The man was showing his ignorance. A
teaspoon wouldn't even destroy ... well, it would destroy Aldrin,
maybe, or blow apart the Sea of Refuge. How much had Rachel told
him? It must have been Rachel. "Andrew, we've lived with
antimatter for ... well, sixty thousand years, but it was
hundreds of years old when we left Earth!"
Andrew stood in thought... posed like a target, Liren thought.
Any rifle could have had him. Liren's pistol... wouldn't
reach.
Suddenly he laughed. "All right, Ma Liren. Make me some
antimatter and leave it where I can get my hands on
it."
"What?" That was a stunning thought. Liren shook away a
hideous vision. "You wouldn't know how to-"
"I can learn."
"Blow up your own home? No, not with a teaspoon,
but-"
"What would a teaspoon of antimatter do to your carrier
spaceship?"
"You'd never get it to us." Why was she arguing with this
rebel? Liren straightened up. "Come down. Now!"
Andrew neither moved nor responded, and she heard no sign of
movement from the people behind her. Everything was still. The
early-afternoon light beat down on the scene, sharpening the
edges of the building, highlighting a scar on Andrew's
arm.
The door closest to Liren slammed open and Star bolted out the
door, hopping sideways as if trying to avoid getting shot. She
ran, a hitching run, and a hand shot out of the door behind her,
squeezing off three shots. Liren saw sparks beyond Star, but she
heard someone behind her fall. "Who's hurt?" Liren called
back.
Shane's voice. "It's Thomas. He's been
stunned."
So at least that gun was set to stun. Liren breathed a
relieved sigh as Star thudded up to her. A shot came from behind
Liren and the door Star had bolted from slammed
shut.
Star grabbed at Liren's arm. "Get back."
Liren pulled her arm free of Star's grasp. "What is happening
in there?"
"They're destroying things inside the building. I-I killed one
of them to get away. I didn't mean to. I only had one hand free,
and so I kicked, and she ... she was reaching for me. I broke her
neck. A woman, Sheila. She was guarding me."
"How are they destroying things? What things? Be
specific."
"Smashing things. Not sophisticated. They don't know what
they're doing. Andrew talked to me. He's rambling; he expects to
die. He expects them all to die. He said they don't want the
antimatter generator built here. They've destroyed almost
everything in there. It's not much, really. They aren't
programmers, they're just destructive, and
scared."
"Any suggestions?"
"Wait them out. They'll have to surrender."
"There's a Y-class flare on its way," Liren
said.
Star's eyes widened. "I guess that means no waiting. You could
just leave and go to Refuge. They'll die in the flare, or shelter
here, or have to follow you." Star stepped backward, watching the
warehouse. "Come on. Get some distance. We need to tell Shane
what's going on."
"They have weapons," Liren pointed out. "I'm not turning my
back on them."
Star said, "I don't want to kill anyone else." Her voice was
shivering. "Not all the guns are set to stun; some will kill.
Andrew figured out the control system for them. Or he already
knew. I don't know. Watch the ones on the roof. They seem afraid.
Fear might make them shoot if you get closer."
Liren glanced at the warehouse. Andrew still stood at the edge
of the roof, smiling. "Does Andrew have support from the
outside?"
"I think all his cronies are in there with him. Most of the
Children down here follow Rachel; she's nonviolent. She preaches
Gandhi at them, of all things. Remember your Indian history? They
pushed the British off the whole subcontinent using passive
resistance."
Liren laughed. So she didn't have to worry about getting
flanked. But how did Rachel learn about Gandhi?
Shane was beside them now, gathering Star in his arms, pulling
her back with him.
Liren backed up, grudgingly, until she was again standing next
to Shane and Star. They watched the silent warehouse. Andrew had
disappeared.
"Hey-who's that?" a voice said.
Liren looked around. Who? There-ten feet away-one of her men
was pointing-up?
A set of yellow and blue wings, Council make, spiraled down
toward them. The flyer appeared to be heading for the top of the
building. "Who is that?" Liren barked. She hadn't given
permission for anyone to land on the warehouse. Why weren't the
Children shooting? They were Council wings.
"Not one of ours," someone said, then Shane spoke suddenly,
"It's Rachel. Let her land. Maybe she can straighten this out.
They seem to listen to her."
Shane was standing up for Rachel? Liren's gun was set to stun.
She'd lost an easy shot in her confusion; Rachel was almost at
the top of the building. Stunning her wouldn't kill her. Liren
raised her weapon, pointing it at the bright yellow wings.
Apollo's light in her eyes made the shot hard. She squeezed the
button, hoping her aim was true.
Lightning flared against her right arm; her weapon spun away.
She jerked her eyes back to the warehouse, glimpsing Andrew's
face as he pulled back his arm.
She giggled; realizing Andrew had only grazed her sleeve.
Relief and then a fierce momentary joy filled her, and she took
the two steps needed to retrieve her weapon. Then she ducked and
ran straight toward the warehouse door. Footsteps followed her,
Council following her, her hand-picked help, surely. She didn't
look back.
Chapter 69: The Choice
Rachel watched Liren. She saw Liren's arm rise, the tight set
of Liren's face as she looked directly at Rachel. Could Liren hit
her in the air? Changing course would make her miss the roof. A
sharp cold twist of fear ran through Rachel's center. Liren's
hand jerked as she shot and then Liren jumped backward, clutching
her arm. Rachel glanced down at the roof in time to see Andrew
hacking away form the edge, and when she looked back, she
glimpsed a flash of white uniform as Liren drove toward the wall
and Rachel could no longer see her. More Council ran toward the
building, mostly uniformed.
The needle aimed at Rachel had missed. She heard more shots;
couldn't tell where they came from. Dylan stood on the roof,
watching Rachel. He waved. Shouldn't he be watching
below?
One of the Council members fell. The rest ran
on.
"Lie down," she shouted at Dylan, now twenty feet above him,
and he fell to the roof, crumpling, one arm up, the other twisted
under him. Blood leaked from under his head. Rachel felt as if
she had been shot. Why hadn't she been shot? Her brain
wasn't working well. So much death. Now Dylan. Not
Dylan!
Justin crouched low on the roof. He inched toward Dylan's
still form.
Vassal was quiet in her head.
The roof brushed her feet. She had forgotten to prepare to
land!
She fell. Her winged arms slammed into the rooftop and she
snapped her head back, protecting her face. Something broke in
her right wing, a loud snap. She tore her wings off; not caring
if she damaged them, and crawled the ten feet to Dylan. He was
completely still. Just moments ago he had been waving to her. She
knelt down and put her hand on his cheek. It was cold. He wasn't
breathing.
The needle must have exploded its electric charge against his
skull.
She heard footsteps. She didn't want to look up, but it could
be Liren.
It was Andrew.
His eyes were wild and he ran to her, gathering her in his
arms, pulling her onto her feet, away from Dylan's body. She
didn't want to move; she struggled. He was screaming. "I'm sorry.
Go home. You shouldn't be here. You have to stay safe, or this is
all for nothing." His words were a child's words, crazy words.
She couldn't just walk out.
Rachel pushed him away. They stood next to each other,
shivering. Justin knelt by Dylan, sobbing, clearly angry. Not
crazy like Andrew, just angry.
"I was trying to save us," Andrew said, shaking, crying. "Us,
not me. I knew I'd die. We knew it, all of us that came here. You
weren't supposed to come."
"Shhh, I know," Rachel whispered. "I know. He's dead, Andrew.
Dylan's dead."
"I'm sorry," Andrew murmured. "I'm so sorry."
Justin crawled toward the edge of the roof, holding one of the
Council weapons in one hand. Rachel took three fast steps,
reached down, and disarmed him. Justin looked surprised and then
angry, and when he reached to take the weapon back, she snapped,
"You'll see that we all die. Is that what you want?" Maybe there
was some other way, even now. But what?
Rachel heard hinges, the scrape of the elevator door opening,
and turned to look. Liren. Liren looked around quickly, then
raised her arm, pointing the weapon directly at Andrew, her face
calm and placid, almost satisfied.
Andrew pointed his own weapon at Liren. His arm shook, but he
was only fifteen feet from Liren.
"No," Rachel screamed. She stepped between them, then stopped,
frozen, remembering Liren had already shot at her.
"Rachel"-Liren's voice was incredibly calm-"Rachel, get out of
my way. I don't care if I shoot you." Liren took a step toward
them.
Anger shot through Rachel, and she said, "Back off," talking
to both Liren and Andrew. "Don't do this." Andrew reached toward
her from behind, and she leaned back, trying to unbalance him. He
shoved her aside, looking for a clear shot at
Liren.
Rachel felt the unfamiliar weight of the weapon she had taken
from Justin. What the hell was it set to?
Andrew's eyes were focused hard and black and directly on
Liren. He was close enough he wouldn't miss.
Vassal whispered in her ear, "Choose one now."
Both choices were impossible. She wanted to shoot
Liren.
Rachel bent her elbow, raising the weapon. She fired. She saw
four brilliant blue-white stars flare behind Andrew's shirt, too
near the heart.
Chapter 70: Exodus
Gabriel pushed past two Councilmen rushing a captive Moon Born
through the downstairs door, and pounded up the steps, slamming
through the open door onto the roof. He jumped at the soft
noise-a weapon! Where? He turned in time to see Andrew flying
backward. Andrew thrashed, then went limp. Four sparks flared on
a distant wall.
Liren and Rachel stood ten feet from each other. Liren's mouth
was open and she looked shocked; her weapon extended toward
Rachel.
Justin reached for a weapon from the ground near Dylan,
turning, looking wild and lost.
Liren first. Gabriel spun into her, knocking her sideways,
peeling her weapon away. He heard Rachel shout and he ducked. A
needle slammed into the door above him. Gabriel looked. Justin's
hand shook as he fumbled to bring the weapon back
up.
Rachel turned toward Justin, raising her arm, pointing her
weapon at Justin. Then she threw the weapon and dropped her head,
running at Justin, keeping him off balance, preventing him from
firing at Gabriel. She and her half brother collapsed in a heap
on the roof.
Ali burst through the door, screaming Gabriel's name, and
stopped, dead still in the door frame, sun glinting off her own
weapon. The scream died in her throat. She swept her eyes over
Dylan's still form, and Andrew's, glanced at Rachel, lying atop
Justin, kicking his weapon away.
Rachel looked up at Ali. Anger and shock and adrenaline and
fear all mixed together in a mask of madness.
Gabriel stood between Rachel and Liren as Liren scrambled up.
Unarmed, she stood and glared at Rachel, at Gabriel, then started
toward Rachel. Gabriel grabbed her as she went by and dropped her
to the ground. "No."
Liren sputtered, glaring at Gabriel, and started to pull her
feet back under her.
Gabriel had trouble reading Ali's face: shock, relief, a
coiled energy.
Justin, prone, watched them all carefully. His eyes were wild.
He didn't move. He said, "You shot him," and Rachel blinked in
the sun, standing still, absorbing Justin's words like bullets.
"You killed Andrew to save one of them."
Gabriel shook his head. "You saved Liren?" he asked
Rachel.
She nodded.
Two of Liren's pet Council pounded up onto the roof. Gabriel
pointed to Justin. "Take him down, get him out of
here."
Liren was standing now, and she started to make another move
toward Rachel when Gabriel grabbed her shoulder roughly. "No,
Liren. You are the cause of this. Go down now,
quietly."
Liren looked at him, shaking, her eyes full of hatred and
anger and fear.
"Rachel saved you, Liren. She saved you from yourself. Go back
to John Glenn. You don't belong here."
Liren's shoulders fell. She suddenly looked young and
vulnerable, and Gabriel nodded. "Get to safety."
Justin struggled, pinned between the two Council, and they
pushed him through the door. Liren glared at Gabriel, looking
more like her usual imperious self, but she followed the other
three down and away.
Ali stepped over to Andrew, feeling along his neck for a
pulse. She shook her head.
Gabriel went to Rachel and gathered her in his arms. She
quivered, burying her head in his shoulder. "I didn't know," she
said, her voice muffled against his neck. "I didn't know it was
set to kill." He knew she was beyond being help; needed
help.
"Is the rest of the building secure?" Gabriel
asked.
Ali nodded. "I think so."
"Go tell Shane what's happened," he said to her. "Tell Shane
there's no danger here now. Andrew's dead. Leave us alone up here
for a few minutes. We'll come down when Rachel's
ready."
Then Gabriel and Rachel were alone on the roof.
Rachel clung to him as if for her very life, a limpet, head
bent and buried in the crook of his neck. He couldn't take her
down to the chaos at street level yet.
He carried her to the edge of the roof farthest from the
bodies, still holding her close, her head buried in his chest.
Gabriel catalogued her recent losses in his head; Dylan, her
father, her half brother. He added Ursula to the list. Maybe
Justin; Justin might hate her now. Regardless of what she thought
of Andrew, that too was a relationship. She had taken a side,
his side. She didn't have to save Liren. Or
Gabriel!
Gabriel set her on her feet, steadying her with his arm.
Rachel had fought him like a wild thing when she discovered
Ursula had died. Now, she just let him hold her, shaking, not
crying, not talking, not fighting.
She had saved his life. She had saved his
life!
He stroked her hair. He turned her face to his, but she kept
her eyes closed. He kissed her cheek, gently. After all she'd
been through, her skin felt soft. It seemed like a strange thing
to notice. He whispered, "Thank you," into her
ear.
She stirred, nodding. "Is ... is he dead?" she
asked.
"Andrew? Yes. I think he planned to die."
Rachel's arms, impossibly, tightened around him further, and
he rocked her for a moment. He looked up the rise of the crater
toward the Sea of Refuge. They didn't have forever; the flare
required a response. "Erika? You there?"
"Thank her for me. Thank her for all of us." Erika's voice
shook, like his, like Rachel's. In shock.
A hundred eyes must be on this spot.
"The flare?" he asked.
"It's real. Get your ass underwater!"
"Thank God." Gabriel sighed in relief. Better a flare than a
lie from Astronaut. A flare represented a real danger, one he
could understand. He still didn't know if the AI had gone rogue,
but at least it was still protecting them.
"B-B-Beth, how's Beth?" Rachel asked. "And
Sarah?"
How was he supposed to know? "Erika, can you check on
Beth?"
"Th-thank you. That's good." He could barely hear Rachel's
voice.
What was good? He hadn't told Rachel anything. "We have to go
soon. The mother of all flares is coming."
He waited for her to move, searching for his own calm,
breathing gently. He matched his breath to Rachel's faster
breathing, then slowed his own down, and hers followed, slowly
but surely.
It took almost five minutes for Rachel to disentangle herself
and step back. The pain in her eyes made him flinch; he reached
for her hand. "We have to go," he whispered to
her.
She followed him to the doorway, letting him shield her from
the sights with his body.
The street was a riot of confusion. A stream of people moved
toward the freight elevator that ran up the side of the crater.
Others donned wings.
The remaining conspirators stood together by the warehouse
across the street: Justin, Sam, and four he didn't recognize.
Their hands were secured behind their backs. Shane stood over
them, his face angry, his stance controlled. He glanced at
Gabriel. "Shall I take her too?"
Gabriel shook his head. "Rachel stays with me."
Ali stepped up next to them. She gestured toward the ship they
had landed in, a question on her face.
Gabriel shook his head. Rachel would need her people, and he
needed to learn some things from her. "We'll go to
Refuge."
Council members carried one of their own, the one who had
fallen, toward the landing strip. Others followed with Sheila's
body. Liren went with them, head down, eyes down, shoulders still
slumped. One plane had already lifted away toward John
Glenn.
Ali reached a hand out for Rachel, who took it without leaving
the shelter of Gabriel's arms. They walked that way, Gabriel's
arm around Rachel, Ali holding Rachel's other hand, a steady
march to the lift.
Council, Earth Born, and Children crowded the lift to Council
Aerie, all jumbled together. A wide supply lift, it could carry a
hundred people standing close. It swayed and rumbled on its way
up the long slope, its cargo of people secured by a waist-high
metal wall. Gabriel held Rachel close to him, looking out over
Clarke Base. The light was bright enough that Gabriel had to
shield his eyes. The first parts of the collider assembly stood
out; support struts that ran for hundreds of yards, and two
sections of the barrel, not yet joined, resting in the middle of
the line of supports. Wispy clouds roamed high in bright blue
sky. Insects buzzed in the rocks under the lift.
In twenty-five minutes they stood together on the landing
above the dock, riding high on the full tide. Safe Harbor
approached, returning empty from a run to Refuge. The day looked
so normal-so Earthly, despite Harlequin glaring high in
the sky, all red and orange and white. Gabriel shook his head as
they walked down the ramp and boarded the boat. What had gone
wrong? What were the next steps? What could be
salvaged?
They passed John and Treesa herding the steady stream of
people down the ramp onto the boat. John held Gabriel briefly,
putting one arm around Rachel, including her in the embrace.
"Glad you're okay. I've got to go ... wait for me in the Council
galley? It will take a while. I don't know yet if I'll need one
or two more runs to get everyone."
"We'll be there," Gabriel replied, immensely glad to see his
friend.
Treesa leaned in and kissed Rachel's cheek, smiling sadly,
whispering, "You did what you had to do. The right thing." She
and John both faded back through the crowd, back to the work they
had to do.
Seeing Treesa reminded Gabriel: there was a second AI on
Selene. He couldn't do anything now. Later. He herded Rachel and
Ali toward the rail of the boat and kept an arm around them
both.
It took a long time for the boat to fill. They had two hours
left when they pulled away.
The deck rode low in the water as they motored across the Sea
of Refuge toward Refuge itself. Apollo's reflection blinked and
shuddered along the wave tops making bright points of light like
diamonds. Harlequin hung above and below them, real and
reflection. Multicolored wings flashed overhead as people
spiraled down onto the landing pads on the dock, heading for
Refuge.
Going down into Refuge for the first time since its completion
(or near-completion, he corrected himself) should have been a
triumph. He was its designer; he had retrieved a naked rock from
the empty black of space and made this to keep these thousands
safe. Instead he came to Refuge in a rush, a crowded hurrying of
people off the ship, shaping them into queues to tackle the
escalator, down, down, a crush of bodies and sweat, finally
stepping into the enclosed openness of the big rooms inside the
former asteroid.
People stank of fear and anger. The walls buzzed with echoes
of conversation. Couples and parents and children held hands,
clinging together. A few searched for family, calling
names.
Gabriel and Ali pushed through the crowd, shielding Rachel
from people calling out for her. She kept her head ducked down
under Gabriel's arm. By the time they were nearly through the
common rooms, she was standing taller and looking around. Most of
the voices calling for her were friendly, although one or two
were taunting. A young Moon Born boy materialized from between
two stocky Earth Born, skidding to a halt beside her. "I did it,
Rachel. Everyone's here." The look on his face was part pride,
part anxiety.
Rachel smiled, reaching out a shaky hand to ruffle the boy's
hair. "Thank you, Peter."
Peter's face relaxed into a big smile, and he turned away,
fading back into the crowd.
Gabriel hurried her along, following Ali to the Council
galley.
In the corridors and the common rooms, Refuge's origins as a
rock could hardly be seen. Floors and shelves gleamed smoothly,
furniture and rooms and bedding all utilitarian.
They entered Council quarters. Here, wall murals of Earth's
seas had been hung, rugs laid, and Sol system and Ymir were
inlaid in one wall. All of it was new; work done during Gabriel's
time cold. Treesa's work? Ali's?
Gabriel led Ali and Rachel into the tiny galley. For the
moment it was blessedly empty. All regular members of the Refuge
team were undoubtedly herding and settling and feeding the
frightened, making order from the chaos of a hasty retreat from
Apollo's wrath.
Rachel's face was still frozen in shock and grief. She was
implicated in all this somehow, even if she had saved his life.
He wanted to be angry with her, to keep all the Moon Born
separate from Council, to keep the lines clear inside, maintain
his internal order. But when he looked at her, or touched her, he
felt soft and protective.
He tucked Rachel carefully into a comfortable position on a
bench, covering her with blankets. He paced, frustrated, then
made them all tea, and set his and Ali's on the table closest to
Rachel. Her hand came out to take the tea from him. "Thanks," she
said, her voice a quiet uneven thread.
He opened a small data window, setting it on a scrap of white
wall between pictures of the Sea of Refuge and Crater Lake, left
behind on Earth. Definitely Treesa's work. He set the window to
increase the luminosity of its data as surface radiation levels
increased.
They had beaten the flare's forward edge by more than an hour.
Gabriel intended to use the moment of calm to understand what had
almost gotten him killed, almost killed Liren.
"Ali, I suppose Rachel knows what you told me-about the
AI?"
Ali nodded miserably. "We ... we needed to be able to
communicate so High Council couldn't hear us."
"What could possibly have been bad enough to risk an AI-an
AI-loose on Selene? What could you possibly need to
communicate about that badly?"
Anger chased the misery from her face and he flushed at her
glare. "You haven't been down here much. Even the last few years
that you were on Selene, your attention was on Refuge, and on
building Council Aerie. It wasn't on Clarke Base or the Moon
Born." Her voice strengthened, not quite accusing. "The Moon Born
have been disenfranchised from the beginning-and things have
gotten worse, not better. Remember when we were here early on,
after the First Trees were planted, and we dreamed of
civilization here? We never talked about slaves! But that's how
we've treated the Moon Born, and the Earth Born too! Wake them up
and put them to work, and they don't revolt because they've got
the Moon Born to give orders to.
"Rachel and her people deserve something better. Treesa saw
that early on, and she ... she worked with Rachel to help her
learn history and politics, to give her tools to convince Council
that Moon Born could be part of our decisions. But no one
listened. High Council's direction got worse and worse." She
stopped, feet planted widely, watching him.
Gabriel looked at Rachel, huddled down in her blankets, not
moving. Ali was accusing him of not caring. Finally, he spoke. "I
worked to teach Moon Born. I pleaded before the High Council,
telling them that we should develop the Children of Selene so
they could help us. I got a twenty-year sleep for my troubles."
He thought about it. "I've always suspected that's the real
reason Rachel and I were left on ice for so long. But you're
talking about rebellion. Rebelling against High Council is wrong.
It just got three people killed, almost got Liren killed. What
did we get for all that? An opening for a conversation we could
have had anyway?"
Ali's high cheekbones reddened, though her dark eyes remained
veiled below lowered lids. "It's something," she said. "We're
talking."
"No one had to die for this conversation to happen," he
snapped. "I almost died!"
"I'm glad you didn't," she whispered, stepping close to him
and taking his hand briefly. "I'm sorry anyone died." She drained
her cup, stared at the bottom for a moment, then stood to make
more tea, as if the simple action calmed her. "If we make our
antimatter and fly away-then everyone left on Selene will die.
Maybe not right away, maybe not for generations, but if we stayed
we could keep the environment going longer. We haven't given them
the technology to live on an unstable moon. You know that, I know
you do."
Gabriel frowned. "None of our choices were good. We can't
fight our own rules and laws, we can't kill our own people, or
use interdicted technology-without risking the death of us all!
We cannot fight among ourselves. It would be the perfect joke for
the only humans in quintillions of klicks to kill each
other."
He didn't want to stay on this path with Rachel in the room.
There were more immediate worries. "An AI was a stupid risk. You
saw what it did? It actually sent doctored data streams to
John Glenn. I couldn't even find Rachel at first when this
started." He paced, confined in the small galley, five long steps
one way, five the other. "Did it hide data from you too? Break
our security some other way? Do you even know?"
Now Ali looked defensive. "Treesa is a good communications
tech. Vassal's parameters and freedoms have been monitored
carefully. It has not sold us out-it's helped!"
"Vassal? You named it Vassal?"
"It named itself Vassal."
The AI thought of itself as a slave? Or it wanted the people
it interacted with to think of it that way? AIs weren't good at
deception, which was a human trait... as far as he knew. They
were just damned powerful. Another thought struck him. "Vassal is
a copy of Astronaut?"
Ali nodded again.
The implications sank into Gabriel slowly. He had always
thought of Astronaut as ... a what? A computer? He knew it was
more. As an equal work partner, a good engineer, a careful
navigator. He'd talked to it like a friend, sometimes. Or had
he?
He heard Rachel murmuring in the background. She wasn't
looking at him: she stared at the wall and spoke, as if to
herself, so softly her actual words weren't audible. He'd taught
her that: a Library access trick. All the Council did
it.
"She's talking to Vassal right now," he said.
Ali said, "Checking on her people."
"Who? Her people?" How much had he missed? "Other
Children?"
"Some Earth Born too. Let her check-it's a damn good thing
she's not just catatonic after the last few days-and all of
that-all of her pain-was because of us. We pushed Andrew, we
didn't allow good med tech for her dad, we killed Jacob outright.
Bang." Ali stood, pacing, agitated. "Jacob could have been saved
if he wasn't stunned into a pile of glass shards and left without
our medical facilities. Rachel tried to save him. Rachel and
Beth-using what they knew. But it wasn't enough. Any of our med
techs could have done it."
Gabriel flicked his eyes at Rachel again.
"The power and knowledge balance is off here," Ali said. "This
is what she's been fighting. We taught her nonviolence; even
Astronaut and Treesa and Vassal supported
nonviolence."
A horrible thought ran through Gabriel's mind. "So who taught
Andrew?"
Ali looked at him, eyes narrowing. "You did. I did. Liren,
mostly." She licked her lips, twisting her hands in her braid.
"We taught him that nonviolence doesn't work."
Gabriel glanced at the data window. The numbers glowed
brighter. The flare was coming. He pulled himself back to the
conversation. "Star said Andrew's goal was to stop the antimatter
generator. That was the only demand he made; the reason for the
whole stupid trick he tried to pull."
Ali swallowed. "I know he didn't like any of us, ever. I
didn't know he worried about the antimatter." Ali paused, her
eyes flicking down, away from him. "I did know Rachel was scared
silly."
"Do you know Vassal didn't give the information to
him?"
Rachel spoke up from behind him. "Vassal isn't afraid of the
generator either, any more than you. I told him, Gabriel. It's my
fault." He turned. She'd pushed the blanket away and her face
looked miserable.
"It happened the night after you-after they killed Jacob. I
was ... in pain." Rachel paused, her voice breaking. "I was so
frustrated about everything, about Jacob, about Dad being sick,
about the antimatter, I let it spill out all over Andrew." She
paused again. "I should never have done that. I might as well
have killed Dylan myself."
"It's not your fault," Ali said. "We-we should have listened
to you more." She walked over and sat close to
Rachel.
Gabriel looked at Rachel's tortured face. "You"-he stepped
toward her, sat in the closest chair, and looked her directly in
the eyes-"you are not responsible for Andrew. You're not even
responsible for Andrew's death. He chose it. He chose all of
this."
Rachel looked down and away, nodded, and settled the blankets
back over her legs. He wasn't sure she believed them, and she
clearly didn't want to talk about it.
"Tell me about antimatter?" he asked.
Ali looked up. "About three months ago, Rachel figured out
more about antimatter. She confronted us. She's afraid there
could be an accident here. She protested our plan to build the
generator here-"
"That's why we built Selene!" Gabriel interrupted, turning
toward Rachel, struggling to speak softly. Of course she
misunderstood. "Rachel, antimatter containment is a technique
hundreds of years old. We know how to do it."
Ali got back up and sat down at the table. "Treesa and I told
her that too." Ali turned her cup around and around in her hand,
nervous. "And we were wrong." She tugged on her braid, sighed,
and then put her hand over Gabriel's hand. "We made Selene,
Gabriel, but Selene isn't our home. John Glenn is. And
maybe, someday, Ymir. But Selene is Rachel's
home.
We didn't hear that when she said it; we didn't understand.
She sees our choices as being willing to risk her home, as not
caring."
"That's right," Rachel said. She held her teacup out at arm's
length, in front of her. "This much, even if it wasn't full, this
could destroy Clarke Base."
All three of them looked up as the door opened, and John and
Treesa came in. They moved slowly, faces droopy with exhaustion,
but they both smiled to see the three of them
waiting.
"Did everyone get here?" Gabriel asked.
John said, "There's a nose count going."
"Do you have any idea why Liren came down here at all?"
Gabriel asked.
John busied himself at the tiny sink, pouring water for
himself and Treesa, not showing his face. Then he spoke. "She
believes that any deviation from our laws will kill us. She truly
believes it. She is trying very hard to do her job. She just
doesn't understand what it is anymore."
Gabriel frowned, wishing he could let his tired friend rest.
"You need to hear about something. Treesa, you have some
explaining-"
"I told Gabriel about Vassal," Ali interrupted. "I had to. I
was so afraid up there-Rachel was going after Dylan, and Gabriel
figured out that she had help. He knew it had to be Council or an
AI ..."
Ali was defending herself to Treesa. Why? Gabriel looked
closely at Treesa. Her gray hair stuck to her face: she'd worked
on the boat that afternoon. Wrinkles surrounded her eyes and
pulled her mouth inward. She looked elderly. And Ali treated her
as if she were in charge. Even Rachel straightened in her seat,
eyes on Treesa.
Treesa went to Rachel first, before responding at all to
Gabriel's question, and said, "It hurts, I know. I'm sorry. But
it's not your fault."
Rachel reached up and buried her face in a hug from
Treesa.
Captain John spoke. "I support all of the decisions Treesa and
Ali made." John's words stunned Gabriel into silence. "In fact,
they were Rachel's decisions too." His eyes were directly on
Gabriel's; implacable. Sixty thousand years of iron will stared
directly into Gabriel's eyes. "We worked together on this. I came
down here partly to understand the Moon Born. There are more
supporters too-more than you see here. Many people resented the
High Council's decisions-" The former captain looked down
briefly, then back at Gabriel. "Even decisions I made. Rightly
so. They were the wrong decisions."
Gabriel realized his mouth was hanging open and he closed it.
Words escaped him. He was the odd man out-he was the only one in
the room not part of a conspiracy. He clamped his jaw shut and
tried to assess his emotions. Anger-and
separation.
John continued. "Don't mistake me. It has been a terrible day.
Death, particularly death based on stupid disagreements, is a
waste." He nodded at Treesa. "Maybe inevitable, though. Listen to
Treesa's story."
Treesa sat next to Rachel, holding her hand. "I'll give you
the short version, and you can ask me questions if you
want."
Gabriel nodded, trying for patience, breathing into his belly.
"Okay."
Treesa spoke haltingly. "You know I woke up-in this
system-disaffected. Something in the waking process, or the
shock, the loss of it all, broke something in me. I didn't
have the presence of mind to be a good communications tech, to
toe the line. I wasn't-right. I didn't want the oblivion of being
cold, so I made a deal. Council let me live in the garden. You
know that part. You helped me some, when we first woke. You
remember?"
Gabriel did remember a younger Treesa. Long ago, in the
earliest part of the town-building days, when Aldrin was still
tented. She had been like a ghost in the garden, fading away
whenever anyone approached her, left alone because she did useful
work and caused no harm. They had all been too busy to solve
nonproblems.
"Well, taking care of plants all day for years gives you a
different perspective, a groundedness. Time to think. I may still
be a bit touched, but I've had time to observe and to watch and
to think about things. Everyone else was working as hard as they
could, doing shift work, and I weeded and watered and
watched.
"I still had my communications skills, so I eavesdropped on
almost everything anyone said to anyone, from my little house in
the garden. Either no one noticed, or no one cared. But that's
what I did for years-listen to everything, watch what I could. I
hardly ever talked to a human being-I just watched them. Even ...
even High Council meetings." She paused, eyes roaming the room,
and Gabriel slowly absorbed how many lonely years she was
speaking about.
"And then, eventually, I had to make contact with someone. I
chose the AI. I didn't know if I could really handle talking to
people. That was before Rachel came up to John
Glenn.
"Well, Astronaut became a good friend, and helpful too.
Together we figured out how to get me-and it-more data. It...
talked to me. For years. Worked on me, helped me get to where I
could deal a little better with reality, accept my losses. It
doesn't understand emotions. I had to get past my feelings to
talk to it, and I was so lonely I needed to talk." Treesa reached
for John's hand, squeezed it. He stood up and got her a glass of
water. She drank, then turned back to Gabriel. "So I ended up
wanting to help you and the Children-us and our children-come to
some better understanding. You were on a collision course. You
couldn't make Selene and not love it, you couldn't make it safe,
and you couldn't allow too much of what you ran away from-what we
all fled Earth from-to be loosed here either. There were no good
choices, not after what we left in Sol. I didn't know the answer.
I still don't. I think you have to find it-we all have to find
it-and I had to help, at least help people see the challenges.
Astronaut, and Vassal, have the same problem as the Moon Born.
They don't have a voice."
Gabriel couldn't listen any more. He wanted to move, to pace,
but the little room was full now, and there was almost no room.
He felt hemmed in. "We don't give them voice for a reason! They
have a place. A useful place. But not a free place. I work
with Astronaut all the time. I like Astronaut. But a being who
knows that much can cause too much damage. They don't love
us-they can't." He closed his eyes, unable to grasp the magnitude
of their trust, their innocence. They'd released a full copy of
an AI as a separate being. It lived in Water Bearer, but
many communications channels blanketed Selene; large data streams
flowed between Water Bearer and John Glenn. The
whole system was its ... its person.
He shuddered. "Don't you remember how we let ourselves get
dependent on them? They ran our life support on moons and
starships and then ... then they failed. How could you take such
a risk and not involve us?"
John was watching him, his eyes measuring. "Those AIs went
crazy. They were brilliant but flawed, and bored. I've been doing
research. Here, our goals are aligned. Astronaut and Vassal both
need us alive if they are to survive. I believe they are like us
in that-they want to survive. Neither shows signs of
insanity."
"So why didn't anyone tell me about this?" Gabriel
asked.
Treesa smiled reassuringly. "You were already presenting our
side to the High Council-saying it pretty well-even if your goals
were wrong. You were trying to give the Moon Born more knowledge
and a voice. Why increase the risk? We were afraid you'd report
anything you thought was dangerous to the High Council. You're so
... so bound by tradition. The same thing that bound John at
first." Treesa looked over at her lover and smiled thinly. "We
... we never expected anything like what happened
today."
"Why were my goals wrong?" Gabriel asked
softly.
Treesa smiled at him again, gently, almost condescending, like
a grandmother. He clamped his jaw shut as she said, "Let's say
different. You were trying to save the people for Ymir.
Well, we were trying to save Selene for the Moon Born. We don't
have room for all the Moon Born, can't take them all to Ymir any
more than I can get my fiancé back from Leif
Eriksson. There are some things that aren't possible. But it
is possible to make a better deal than we have."
He remembered something else she'd said. "Who
else?"
"Kyu. Bruce, although we didn't tell him about Vassal. Kyu
doesn't know either."
Kyu. Kyu and John-that was two High Council. Was. John had
stepped down. Liren and Rich weren't involved; Liren was part of
the problem, and Rich stayed cold whenever he could. Gabriel's
head spun. "Clare?"
"She was too much Liren's friend," Treesa explained. "Same
with Erika. But now maybe things will be
different."
Above the water, above Refuge, the flare raged.
Chapter 71: Flare
Time played tricks on Rachel, speeding up and then slowing
down, a rhythm. Even while she talked with Vassal, and listened
to Treesa's story, death scenes played and replayed in her head.
Dylan falling. Her father dying, his breath rattling into silence
on the couch. Jacob with a long shard of glass buried in his
neck. Blood on her hands.
She watched Gabriel widen his data window, positioning it so
that everyone could see. Three other windows popped up around it;
contributions from the others, she supposed. One monitored
communications satellites, one looked down at Clarke Base,
another at Aldrin.
Rachel winced: the skeleton crew at Aldrin might be in the
usual flare shelters in the houses, or the old one under the
town, from when they were tented. That might not be enough, not
if she understood this Hare. "Vassal," she whispered, "where are
the people in Aldrin?"
"In the old flare shelter."
A thought nagged at her. "Would they be safer in the ship-in
Water Bearer? Aren't parts of it shielded like John
Glenn?"
"That would work more reliably. Water Bearer's
life-support area is very well shielded."
She relayed the conversation to Gabriel, and then watched the
data window as people bolted across the meadow into the broken
ship.
She turned her attention to the window on Clarke Base. She
could see the warehouse. Tiny broken bodies lay scattered on the
roof. A scrap of yellow from one of her broken wings fluttered in
the wind. She wanted to close her eyes and pretend none of this
was happening. It couldn't be, not really. Everything had
changed. She had changed.
There was nothing personal she wanted to think about-nothing
that really mattered. Even Justin was just a small issue; he
wasn't even dead, unlike Dylan, Jacob, and her dad. And Andrew.
She flinched. Don't focus on Andrew.
Rachel thought about what Treesa had said just then, about
having a purpose, helping the others. Treesa had helped lead
Rachel to a place where she had nearly as little family left as
Treesa did. Except now Treesa had John. Rachel breathed into her
gut, using techniques Gabriel had taught her. She found
loneliness first, rising up with her breath, followed by a cool
anger that straightened her spine. Resentment boiled after anger,
and she breathed it out. It took a lot of breaths, and finally
she was empty, turning her awareness inside her, pulling for her
purpose behind the anger. Treesa had talked to her about purpose
that first day in the garden. Treesa had told her, "I know the
role you have to play-you have to be a bridge for us all." It
was, really, the only thing left that Rachel cared about. She
pictured a bridge running between John Glenn and Selene,
from Council Aerie to Refuge, a bridge circling the moon instead
of the antimatter generator.
She wasn't clear about how to build such a thing, except that
it was a bridge of relationships. Liren had always opposed it,
stood in her way, holding all of the High Council with her. What
could Rachel do about that now? She had help on her side, she had
saved Liren's life. She frowned, thinking about Liren, about
finding her scared and crying after the High Council meeting when
John tried to depose her. Seeing Liren's face, angry but
contrite, when Gabriel told her to leave, to follow the two
Council and Justin and return to John Glenn. Liren had
done what Gabriel asked, even though Liren was High Council. Did
that signal enough change?
The two AIs also had a place on the bridge, somewhere. What
else had Treesa said? Something about Gabriel needing to learn as
well, about giving Selene a heart.
She barely followed the conversation around her as the others
tracked the flare. "Geomagnetic storm-worst ever."
"Watch the cameras north and south-there should be a
spectacular aurora."
"Lost a satellite."
"Radiation readings from the surface are high. Will it be bad
enough to affect food stores?"
"We finished the extra shielding for them last
month."
"Might affect the plants."
She stirred herself. She knew John Glenn would be okay.
The ship-Water Bearer? Was it safe where Vassal was? She
asked.
Vassal answered, "The place where I reside is safe. So are the
people from Aldrin who came here. We might lose communication for
a time. It depends on how much gets through the
atmosphere."
"Okay."
She perked her ears up, tried to listen more carefully to the
assessments of the others, to work out how bad the danger was to
Selene. There would be time to think about bridges later. After
the flare. She yawned.
Ten minutes later, communications from Aldrin winked out, the
data window darkening. Clarke Base followed moments after. It was
eerie, being down under the sea with no pictures of the land
above, no connection to Selene.
It made Rachel think about the bodies. Dylan and Andrew were
beyond caring, but they should have been moved. Why hadn't she
insisted on that? She should have insisted. At least they
wouldn't rot. Radiation would mummify them.
Talk swirled around her; speculation and worry. Gabriel had
stopped fussing about Vassal and Astronaut, but she sensed that
that topic wasn't closed.
She had trouble focusing; her thoughts were fuzzy and
indistinct.
An hour passed. The group had gone almost as silent as the
data windows that surrounded them. Rachel could no longer get
answers from Vassal.
Ali worked on Gabriel's shoulders, whispering, "Rest. You
can't do anything now, and you've only just been
warmed."
"I'll try. But weren't you awake even before I was, flying
to John Glenn and then back here?"
Rachel saw Ali nod, but didn't hear what she said into
Gabriel's ear.
They all looked exhausted. Rachel thought about saying
something about it. She was just too tired to open her
mouth.
Chapter 72: Visits in Purgatory
When Rachel woke hours later, Ali's head lay pillowed in her
arms on the table, her long braid nearly touching the floor.
Gabriel had fallen asleep sitting up. He looked terrible: drawn
and empty, wrung out. Rachel's mouth tasted like he looked. She
licked her lips.
Treesa snored lightly on John's shoulder. The web of wrinkles
that fanned out from her eyes and mouth seemed to blend into her
thinning gray hair. John wore a glazed look as he stared at the
little bits of data that still flowed in the
monitors.
"Hey," she said. "Good morning."
John jumped. He had to grab hold of Treesa to keep her in
position, and Treesa shuddered but didn't wake. He looked at
Rachel, a wan smile just touching the corners of his mouth, not
visible in his eyes. "A hard day and night, yes? Particularly for
you."
She shrugged.
The door pushed open. Beth's head poked through, looking
around. When she saw Rachel, she pushed the door the rest of the
way open and ran to Rachel's side. Sarah piled in after her. As
they engulfed her in hugs, Rachel felt a little bit of fragile
happiness.
Gabriel was smiling tiredly at the three of them. Rachel
returned the smile, and then Beth took Rachel's face in her
cupped palms. Warm brown eyes searched Rachel's face, full of
concern, and Beth asked, "Are you okay?"
Rachel thought about it for a moment. "I'm all
right."
Beth's own face looked crumpled and her eyes were red-rimmed
from crying. Rachel asked, "Did Harry get to
Refuge?"
Sarah nodded. "He said you told him to be sure I was okay. He
doesn't look very good, though. He keeps talking to himself.
Gloria's staying with him. Do you know where Justin
is?"
Rachel grimaced. "They took him to the ship."
Sarah's eyes looked incredibly sad for a moment, then she
smiled softly. "Harry told us what you did. He said you were very
brave."
"Did he tell you I killed Andrew?"
Beth's hand stole into Rachel's, squeezing it. "He said you
had to. That Gabriel would have died." Beth glanced over at
Gabriel. "I remember Gabriel carrying me away from the
fire."
Sarah continued. "Harry said you saved us all. That if Andrew
had killed more people we might all be dead. He said you saved
Justin." Then Sarah too took one of Rachel's hands. "We know
about Dylan."
Rachel reached out to Beth and held her close. She noticed
tears streaking down her friends' faces. They had all three lost
a brother in the last few days.
John came up and put a hand lightly on Beth's back. "It's time
for you all to leave." He said it softly, but firmly, using his
captain's voice.
Beth asked, "Can we take Rachel with us? The others need to
see her. Harry, Gloria ..."
John shook his head. "We need to see her now, more than you
do. And she needs to rest."
The bridge had to be built from Council's end. Rachel reached
for Beth, saying, "He's right. Tell everyone I'll be there soon.
Or I'll see them all when we get back to Clarke
Base."
Gabriel broke in. "Which may be a few days."
Sarah's face fell; Beth simply looked resigned.
"Beth-thank you for staying when I needed you to. It sounds
like it will still be up to you for a while-take care of them,
especially your father." Beth nodded, and Rachel turned to Sarah.
"And, Sarah, you take care of Beth."
Sarah smiled, as if being given a responsibility made all the
difference in the world. Beth looked at Gabriel and Ali. "You
must take care of Rachel for us." She looked solemn. Without
waiting for an answer, she pushed Sarah out the
door.
Star and Shane came in. Shane looked all right, serious, but
then he usually looked like that. His clothes were rumpled. Star
had dark circles under her eyes, her hair was uncombed, and she
moved slowly. Treesa set coffee in front of them all, and turned
to rummage in the cupboards, finding dried fruit and
crackers.
"What are the surface readings, Gabe?" Shane
asked.
Gabriel called up a new data window. "I'm getting some data.
Sporadic. Radiation readings indicate the flare left only
residual traces in the air. We can probably go up to the surface
and take a look in a few hours."
Treesa bustled over and put her hand on Star's shoulder. "How
are you doing?"
Star's hands fluttered up near her face, then came back to
rest on the table in front of her. "I keep thinking I didn't have
to kill Sheila. I didn't mean to, but what if I had just stayed
captive? Gabriel and Ali were in the warehouse ten minutes after
I left. Couldn't I have waited ten minutes?
Treesa smiled down at the younger woman. "You never know the
answers to some things. They might have killed
you."
"I'm glad you're safe," Shane said, coming over and pulling
Star into his arms. "I was afraid I'd lose you."
John looked at Gabriel. "So, you think we can go up and look
around?"
Gabriel nodded. "After we eat. We have data flow back from
some of the sensors, and the air is testing clean. You want to go
with me?"
John and Treesa both said "Yes" as one.
Star shook her head, stepping out of Shane's embrace, but
staying close to him. "I want to stay here and help
out."
Shane looked at her. "There are other people. Enough to keep
things running down here."
"I know. But I still want to stay. I don't want to go up there
yet. I was in charge, we were in charge, when all this happened.
We need to stay.
Rachel fidgeted, unsure what she wanted to do, what they would
let her do. She caught Treesa's eyes, and Treesa smiled. "Being
busy is needed," she said. "It's healing."
Rachel remembered the bodies. "Can you help me bury Dylan and
Andrew?"
"Sure we can," John said. "We should have done that
before."
"Then I'll go up." She suddenly felt closed in. She needed sky
above her and Selene's dirt under her feet.
Chapter 73: The Half-full Glass
Gabriel stood on the path riding the crater's rim, looking
down at Clarke Base. Much of his view was still regolith desert,
blue lines of aqueducts, ordered greens of fields followed by
disordered greens of jungle stretching out away from the
industrial town below him. Four figures on the roof of the
warehouse were removing bodies for burial.
There would be more death. The green he saw had been blasted
by a vast radiation storm.
Ymir had slipped past his immediate vision ... become a
mirage, always beyond his reach. How would they cross such a
distance if they couldn't even make a moon?
Data streams flowed haltingly from all over Selene again. A
full grid of data was healing itself, routing into a complete
net. The flare hadn't damaged John Glenn. It was shielded
against far worse, against interstellar dust at relativistic
speeds.
Safe Harbor bobbed at the dock below him; they had
ridden it over this morning, the five of them tiny on the huge
boat. Refuge was invisible, blanketed by water, holding the few
thousand refugees who had filled Clarke Base.
Gabriel moved in a circle, looking around, feeling the warm
damp air, absently stretching his arms. He was frozen without a
clear direction. Where did he fit in this new Selene, where deep
conspiracies excluded him, and old women saw him as a useful
tool, but flawed?
He recalled the heady feeling of making this place, of forming
the sea, of landing Refuge perfectly. And still Selene defeated
him. Apollo with its flares, Selene itself with its quakes and
finicky atmosphere.
A rattle of sliding rocks carried through the still, warm air.
Others were walking upslope toward him. Gabriel watched them.
John and Treesa held hands. Rachel and Ali walked close to each
other, heads down, talking. From time to time one of them
gestured.
Rachel came to take his hand and lead him back up, away from
the others. When they got to the top and gazed down at the Sea of
Refuge, she put an arm around him before he had a chance to
respond to her.
"Are you okay?" he asked.
She shook her head. "That question is driving me nuts. I will
be, okay? I have to be okay."
Where do you get your hope? "Why?"
"My people need to come back up from underwater and find ...
something good waiting for them. Beth-Beth is brave and wonderful
and caring. Sarah needs me; she's lost as much as I have. Harry
lost a son. I could go on." She fell silent for a few steps. "You
need me too, I think. Or not me specifically, but we all need
each other after this; Council and Children and Earth Born
together."
He looked at her wonderingly. Her face was turned toward the
sea, looking down on the floating dock above Refuge. A strand of
red hair pulled loose and floated near her face.
"The AIs too, Gabriel. They're scary, but they're alive ...
conscious anyway."
"But... but..."
"You'll need Astronaut if you ever fly away."
"I thought you wanted us to stay."
"And we'll need Vassal."
She fell silent again, and they walked, closing on Council
Aerie. She had surpassed him; still working on solutions when
solutions seemed beyond reach. Even given what she had just done;
burying a lover and a childhood enemy, she looked calm and fresh
and beautiful. Young. Sixty thousand years ... a few hundred
spent warm, against what, twenty-five? That used to be one's
prime, on Earth, a long time ago.
"They could force the matter of the collider," he
said.
She shrugged. Gabriel said, "I think I'm with you. We can't
risk generating antimatter on Selene. It's-inelegant. We might be
all of the human race left, on Selene and John Glenn.
Convincing anyone else will be hard, and Liren could still block
us, and ... I just don't know where else to put
antimatter."
Council Aerie looked fine, of course. Geomagnetic storms
didn't damage plascrete. As they drew closer to the Aerie, he
realized how much he really did like the design; it was arches
and bubbles and curves, with windows everywhere. It sat, a soft
thing on the hard edge of a crater, on an impossible
world.
"I've never been here," Rachel said.
He turned and held her, folding her slender body in his arms.
She should have been here. "I'll show you around. We can stay
here while we figure out what to do next." Her hair smelled of
dust, of Selene. Gabriel realized that he wanted very much to
kiss Rachel. He pushed aside the impulse sternly. For the moment,
he would give her some privacy to heal in.
Chapter 74: Speaking From the Mount
Treesa and Rachel sat outside on the short wall that bounded
the path leading down to the dock. Rachel watched the evening sky
gather the last brightness of dusk, briefly, and then breathe out
the beginnings of darkness. She had slept through a virtual
meeting the others had with Erika, Rich, and
Clare.
Enough light remained for Rachel to see the calm on Treesa's
face. Rachel asked, "They didn't say what they plan to do with
Justin and the others?"
Treesa shook her head, staring at the darkening sky. "Not yet.
John argued for a meeting tomorrow morning, said that you need to
be heard." Treesa sighed. "It was hard. They're used to making
all of the decisions. I think what turned the corner was that
they're also used to following John-he was captain for so long.
Erika's strong, but still new to command, Clare has always been
moderate, and Rich isn't much of a decision maker. I think maybe
Liren discredited herself some coming down here. She wasn't at
this session, and no one mentioned her. We argued for you to be
heard, so there's time set aside tomorrow. You represent the Moon
Born. I'm sorry so much has to fall on you now, but what
you say will be important."
Rachel's feet scraped against the wall below her and her
fingers gripped the edge tightly. "What should I tell
them?"
"That's up to you. I cannot counsel you, and neither, I think,
can any of us. I will say that Justin's fate is not the bigger
issue here."
"What did they say about Vassal?"
Treesa looked out over the dark bowl of the Sea of Refuge.
"They're angry, and although they won't show it, they're scared.
Not Kyu, I think, and I can't read Rich. I don't know Liren's
standing after this. That complicates things." Treesa paused and
frowned. "But I'm not answering your question. Ali and I both
admitted our role in making Vassal; we left you out of it.
Council knows you can speak with both AIs, and you may have to
choose what to say about your part in the initial decision.
Perhaps it won't come up. We tried to structure this as a speech,
asked them to just listen. I don't know what they'll actually
do."
Rachel leaned forward, looking down at the drop below the
wall. Rocks littered the sheer fall toward the sea, jagged teeth
in the near-dark. "We need the AIs before you can leave. We need
Vassal. And I don't want either of them to die."
"Die?"
"Have to start over. I want them to keep their memories. I
want them to know us. Vassal identifies with us now, and ... and
I like Vassal. I was afraid it would sell me out down there, that
it wouldn't let me make my own choices. But it did. It helped me,
even though it disagreed."
Treesa nodded. Rachel could hear the older woman's slow calm
breathing. The damp night smelled of water and dead algae, burned
by the flare's radiation load.
"I'm scared," Rachel said.
"It's okay to be scared. You can use your fear to make you
strong." She twisted sideways and stood on the path, as agile as
Rachel. "Stay out here and think about what to say. There is no
one else to represent the Moon Born. Tomorrow, you will just have
to trust yourself. We all support you, and Kyu does as well.
That's five against three." She smiled down at Rachel, that same
calm warm smile that Rachel wanted to find inside
herself.
The EARLY-MORNING AIR was cool and lightly misty, bracing her
awake. Rachel walked, mumbling, trying out things to say. There
was an outline in her head, but the detailed words came out
different every time she tried. It was important to make Dylan's
death mean something. Make Andrew's death mean something. Her
mind shied away from that last bit-she had murdered Andrew. Like
the Council murdered Jacob. Accidents. A seed of forgiveness lay
in that thought. She had to make it matter.
She paced the trail, walked along the shallow wall she and
Treesa had sat on the previous day, looked at Refuge and then at
Clarke Base. She held the little tree her father had made so many
years ago, turning it over and over in her hands. Her father had
died of old age and shock, but he had also died because Council
would not give him the tools to live. And now, somehow, it was up
to her to secure the Moon Born's future. Everything she'd done
for years led to this moment, to this morning.
People stirred in the kitchen. She put the tree in her pocket
and went in and helped Treesa get coffee and breakfast ready,
grateful to have something to do. In five minutes they would hear
from the ship. Rachel breathed in and out quietly, but her nerves
didn't calm. Gabriel paced. Ali sat in a corner brushing out her
hair with long measured strokes. John and Treesa stood arm in
arm, looking down at the Sea of Refuge, whispering
together.
Treesa disengaged from John and came to put a hand on Rachel's
shoulder, then took her seat. They all settled around the kitchen
table, Rachel in the middle, Gabriel and Ali on one side, John
and Treesa on the other. They completely filled one side of the
table.
John opened a data window. There would be a short delay
between answers; the usual latency between John Glenn and
Selene. The connection was completed from the other
side.
High Council had chosen the main boardroom. Erika sat in the
middle, Clare and Kyu on either side, Rich on Clare's side. Erika
and Clare and Rich looked clean, and each wore a simple uniform.
Kyu was more subdued than normal; she wore a simple black skin
suit with a black lace scarf tied around her waist. The only
color in her outfit showed in deep brick-red ribbons plaited into
the four braids she wore. Rachel looked twice; Liren was not
there.
"Good morning," Erika opened. "This meeting is designed to
allow Rachel Vanowen to give testimony regarding the Moon Born's
place in the actions yesterday." Erika looked directly at Rachel,
a deep questioning look. "Rachel, can you represent the Children
of Selene? Can you speak for them?"
Rachel swallowed. "I can." She licked her lips. This was so
formal.
Kyu smiled again, and it looked as if she was encouraging
Rachel. Hard to tell in the midst of a meeting like this, but
Rachel let a half smile sneak back, hoping Kyu would know it was
directed at her. Rachel's stomach felt hollow and fluttery, as if
she were going to be sick. A hand stole over hers. Gabriel's. She
glanced sideways at him. He was looking straight forward,
directly at Erika, but he had Rachel's hand in his, and Ali's on
the other side. Treesa reached for Rachel's other hand, and she
and John were already holding hands. Rachel followed the chain
down the table, back up. It was complete. Gabriel had started it.
High Council could see it-a gesture of solidarity. Rachel relaxed
for the first time that morning, drawing strength from the
support of her friends.
She said, "Captain Erika-"
"A moment," Erika said. "Ma Liren cannot be with us, but she
wished to make a brief statement. Will you hear
her?"
Rachel looked around, caught the nods. "Of course." And braced
herself.
The new window showed Ma Liren wearing the same neat uniform
as the rest of High Council. Her hair was a coiled wave,
meticulous andsharp. "This is for us all," she said, "Council,
Earth Born, Moon Born, High Council in particular. We say
'disaffected,'" and she ran both hands through her carefully
sculpted hair and left it a shambles. " 'Disaffected.' Wonderful
word, but we need something older. We used to say
'crazy.'
"We can't be blamed. We had a plan that made any previous
human effort look like a preschool quantum mechanics game. We
each and all let our bodies be frozen dead in sublime
faith that it would all work. We woke to a hell of radiation in a
dying ship. We did what we could, what we had to, but who can
blame us if we went gibbering crazy?
"We were going to put antimatter where Andrew Hain could reach
it!
"Yes, I know Andrew's dead. Who should know that better than
I? But I saw his eyes. He was going to kill me. Sure he was, why
not? But he was ready to die himself! When we gave him a tractor,
he used it to shred our plantings on Selene. What would he have
done with our nano, given time, with Star to be tortured for what
she knows? What would he do with ten kilograms of
antimatter?
"I saw him die, jerking like a hooked salmon. I would have
cooled him down a quarter century ago! That was crazy, and I'm
sorry. We can't freeze thousands of Andrews. We'd have to thaw
half the Earth Born." Liren's nails ripped through her hair
again. "We damn near have anyway!
"We made slaves. Slavery makes Andrews.
"We cannot. Can not. Are you listening? We cannot build an
antimatter generator, and antimatter storage system, and launch
system, on Selene. That was crazy. We should have got well by
now. Even that cursed AI should have known better.
"I'm rambling." Liren reached out of the window and it
disappeared.
Captain Erika said, "Ma Liren resigned just after making that
speech. We'll nominate a replacement, but for now there are only
four on High Council. Rachel, please proceed."
He did it. Rachel couldn't believe it. Andrew had made
his point, with his life.
High Council waited politely.
Rachel cleared her throat. "First, all of the Moon Born that
threatened or hurt Council may be kept on John Glenn,
detained, until we sort this out." As if she could stop them. She
swept them past the question, saying, "And the same goes for
Council and Earth Born. I include Paul Hennick, the man who shot
Jacob, and whoever it was that shot Dylan."
Erika blinked and sat back, gesturing to the others to be
quiet. "Do you know who that is?"
"You have recordings. Play them."
"All right. Everyone is here anyway."
Rachel stood, freeing her hands, and said the next words very
carefully. "Liren also."
Erika's answer was immediate. "Ma Liren is, was High
Council."
"Ma Liren shot at me while I was in flight. I would have
fallen to my death. She told me later that she would be happy to
shoot me again, and she threatened Andrew. She's
homicidal."
Kyu looked like she was trying very hard not to grin. Clare
and Rich looked stunned, and Erika's eyes narrowed. "What exactly
are you proposing?
"I want them all detained, or frozen if they wish,
until we have worked out some issues. Or until they reach Ymir."
She sat back down, holding Erika's eyes. "I think it may take us
some time."
Erika leaned forward, her voice clipped. "Very well. We will
hold everyone for up to three months, but they are accused, not
convicted. That means everyone may go completely free, or may yet
face more punishment."
Rachel nodded. "Thank you." Inside, a little bit of fear
leaked away. Erika had heard her.
Erika said, "Now, next, we want to hear your version of what
happened. We've fast-forwarded through the tapes, but we want to
give you a chance to present your side of the
story."
Rachel cleared her throat, hoping to steady her voice. She had
given hundreds of classes. She could do this. Her hands shook,
and leaned forward, facing the assembled power of the Council of
Humanity.
"I used a weapon yesterday. I didn't want to, but if Andrew
had shot Liren or Gabriel, we would have truly been lost. I knew
that yesterday; I still know it today. We all suffered losses
yesterday. I lost my fiancé, and the day before I lost my
father. Two days before, my brother. These were personal losses.
There are more important losses. We have lost our voice with
you." Rachel's mouth was dry, and her tongue felt thick. She
swallowed, drank more water, and continued. "You gave us life,
but you did not give us voice. If you leave the way you plan, you
will give us death. Which would be a loss for you. Maybe not much
loss to those of you whohave never been on Selene. But for these
people, for my friends and counselors here, it would be a loss. A
death. You can give us life, hope, even after you leave." Her
hands shook and she clenched her fists, digging her nails into
her palm. "It means that you must lose some of your
fear.
"My hands were covered in blood twice during the last few
days. Once, when my brother Jacob died in my arms, and once more
when Dylan was shot on the roof yesterday. That blood is also on
your hands. But I believe ... I believe I know you, and that you
made choices that led us to this place based on fear of real
things in Sol system."
Erika's eyes had widened; she looked surprised that Rachel
knew their history. Rich watched thoughtfully, scribbling notes
in his pad. Kyu offered a half smile, one eyebrow cocked. Rachel
wished she could tell what they were thinking. Was she reaching
them, any of them?
"Yes," Rachel said, "I know some of your history. I had to
learn it to understand you at all. Council-you-were always such a
mystery to us. Like gods. You had strength and power and we
needed you, but we didn't understand you. But that isn't what I'm
here to talk about." She took a deep breath. Time to reveal the
plan that had kept her awake all night. "We can't survive without
you. Fires and flares have taught us that. Every time we see the
Water Bearer, we remember how Gabriel saved
us.
"There are three things we want-and if you give them to us, I
think you will leave for Ymir with clean hands. First, it will
take technology to leave Selene habitable. Help us learn the
skills we need to stand a chance of living here long enough to
build a real civilization. I've studied Earth before the AI
disasters, before the horrors that set you running. Perhaps
different choices can be made. We will try to make good choices;
to learn from mistakes made in Sol system. If we fail"-she
shrugged for emphasis-"if we fail, we are isolated here
anyway."
There was silence all around her. Silence from the ship.
Rachel licked her lips.
"Second, build Gabriel's flare kite. You turned it down once,
because it would take too long, too many resources. You have the
resources. Give them to us, share them, so that we are free to
live without fear of flares.
"Third, generate your antimatter entirely outside of
Harlequin's moon system."
To Rachel's surprise, Erika raised a hand, gesturing to Rachel
to continue. Her face was unreadable, intense, focused tightly on
Rachel.
Rachel spoke directly to Erika. She was the power here. "We
would not try to change your dream. I thought that was what I
wanted; to keep you here, keep you prisoners in Apollo system.
That is an unacceptable choice to you. There are choices
unacceptable to us. We must have a voice in what you do with our
world, in what you do here. We cannot allow-and yes, you can kill
us all and start over-but we cannot allow antimatter to be made
here. I don't believe you would do that. We are your children, as
well as the Children of Selene.
"Vassal and I have looked at the math. It feels strange to be
echoing Ma Liren, but how did you let your sense of proportion
get so disaffected? You can't even use the moons, they're all too
close, an antimatter accident would still destroy
Selene."
She heard a strident edge in her voice. She stopped for a
moment, fighting to regain control, then continued in a slower,
surer voice. "We can run your factories here. You brought Refuge
here-you can find a place to build the collider. You need our
industry, our hands. We need the tools to make Selene more than
you envisioned it"-she looked over at Gabriel-"even though you
envisioned much, you gave us much with this place." She stopped
for the space of a breath, held her hand out to indicate that she
wasn't done. "We have come to love Selene-to love how the Sea of
Refuge rises and falls with the breath of Harlequin, the way the
ground shudders from time to time to remind us that Selene is as
young as we are." There were words coming out of her mouth that
were more than she had thought before-the coming together of
things she had learned and seen and dreamed about into a higher
truth. She had to make them see it!
"We must make a new plan, all together. With our voices. Earth
Born, Moon Born, and Council. Some Earth Born, and maybe even
some Council, need to stay here. We need their skills. Some Earth
Born have told me they are willing to stay, to work with us on
Selene." And now she took the greatest risk of all-"And the two
AIs also need a voice." She rushed to take them past that idea,
so it wasn't the last one. "I know-we know-that Selene will never
be an Earth. It will always need human engineers to keep its
heart beating. But-" She stood and gestured toward the windows.
"Selene is real." She held up a fist, opening her palm to show it
empty, holding her fingers wide. "Ymir is a myth!
"We need the chance to make Selene, to keep it alive, and to
grow into whatever we can become. Maybe we will make it to the
stars ourselves." She had to put the whole list on the table. It
was a living thing in her head; the subject of endless nighttime
talks and plans. "Leave us some ships, just to keep the balances
here-but not all of them. Not even most of them. If we are to
live, we'll need to be able to build our own. Give us ships to
copy."
Erika interrupted. "Selene can't survive that
long."
Clare spoke, contradicting Erika lightly. "Human environments
on Earth were artificial too. Green spaces couldn't survive
without human input either, not for hundreds of years. We're
architects. The flare kite will buy time."
Rachel felt a surge of hope. Maybe Clare was with her. That
was two of them, counting Kyu. "We may die attempting this. But
with enough technology, and a copy of the Library, and an AI ally
who needs to see us succeed to survive itself-we have a chance.
We have a right to that chance. And in return, we will support
your goals willingly. We will work for you, help you, and see you
safely out of Apollo system and on your way."
Rachel let silence fall. She waited a breath. Two breaths. She
could hear her heartbeat.
Erika smiled. "You've given us much to think about. Now, we
will go and talk about the things you've said." Her voice gave
away nothing.
The video from the ship disappeared, and where Rachel had been
looking at Council, she saw through windows that overlooked
Selene. The crest of the far crater wall rose above the sea, a
ragged dark line against a clear blue sky.
Everyone in the room was looking at her. Gabriel's hand stole
back into hers, squeezed it, and then he got up and walked to the
window, his back to them all. What was he thinking? She needed
his support as much as the High Council's. He had made Selene.
Surely he would help her protect it?
She stood, shaking. She walked over and stood next to him, not
touching him, looking at the sea. Apollo had fully risen, and
Harlequin. Wind kicked up small waves on the surface of the
water.
Gabriel said, "You have eaten from the tree of
knowledge."
She didn't understand the reference, but she heard the
approval in his voice. It was enough.
An hour later High Council reopened the window. Erika spoke
for them again. "We cannot give in to your three demands at this
time. But we are willing to start a discussion, including
everyone. Moon Born, Earth Born, Council, and High Council will
form a working team. We will not accept any decisions that
prevent us from leaving this place for Ymir. There will be bounds
upon the discussion." She leaned in, and for a moment she lost
the severe look she had started with. "Rachel-you've told me what
you want. What I want, more than anything else, and at least as
much as you want your home, is to go away from here and find
mine."
Rachel smiled back. "I understand."
"We will accept nominations for members of a working
group."
Rachel waited, silent.
"It will include the two AIs. They will not vote, but they
will be heard."
Rachel closed her eyes and swayed, relieved, light. Joy
bubbled up, and as soon as the data window winked closed, she
screamed in glee.
Chapter 75: Losing Ymir
Gabriel woke tired. He rubbed his eyes and stretched,
contemplating a run to burn frustration before they started.
Today was the third meeting of the Selene Task Force. He had two
hours. He ordered a small dose of stimulant from his med-feed and
started out the door.
Cool damp air enveloped him as he worked up speed, warming his
body enough to sprint out the worries that nagged at him. The
first two meetings they'd worked out how to structure talks. They
would leave the AIs where they were but disallow any further
releasing of restrictions on them. They'd continue making raw
materials for the collider. The cultivated regions had been
checked for damage, cleaned up, and the population of Clarke Base
returned to replant. So why was he so restless?
Wayne and Astronaut were searching for a good place to build
the collider. Good luck! They needed a body big enough to wrap
the collider around ... not as big as Selene, but big. There was
nothing that big in Harlequin's LaGrange positions, and those
were sixty degrees ahead and behind Harlequin, as distant as
Apollo and Daedalus. If they had to work at billion-kilometer
distances, and mush a dozen bodies together to get something
bigger ... another ten thousand years?
Would they have to work with TNOs instead?
Would he ever, ever, get to leave Selene? Gabriel increased
his running speed, his heart pumping hard enough to shorten his
breath. Ymir still seemed far away to him; something unreal. His
feet pounded on Selene's surface, on a crater rim he had built
above a sea he had dreamed into existence. A light mist hugged
the water below him, and light spilled slowly onto it,
dissipating the mist in warming air. He dug for more speed,
breathing hard, smelling fresh water carried in winds blowing
up-crater from the Sea of Refuge. He focused on each footfall
until finally he was just a runner; a man testing his strength on
a beautiful morning.
Contentment ran through his body, singleness of purpose. Then
a wave of sadness, a deep sense of loss. It grew, slowing him
down, dragging at his feet. He tried to run through it, past it.
He stumbled, falling lightly onto his hands, and then rose again,
running farther, as if he ran through a thick mist even though
the sun shone, glittering on the water below him.
He stumbled again, and stayed down this time, feeling rough
gravel under his knees. Wind blew against his cheek, cooled the
sweat on his back. He felt Selene below him. He imagined a line
from his heart all the way through the beating machinery that ran
the Sea of Refuge ... running along the fields away from Clarke
Base, following water flow in the aqueducts. A net of his energy
surrounded the moon, surrounded him, entwined. Home. Hot
tears splashed onto the soil, surprising him. He never cried. It
felt wonderful, crying into the soil.
Gabriel went back more slowly than he had come, settling into
a fast walk for the last kilometer. He showered quickly, the
water hitting his back like an alarm, pulling him out of the
sticky sad feeling that had held him so close. What had he lost?
Ymir? Rachel had called it a myth. He sensed it behind him, a
remembered past, now gone.
The kitchen in Council Aerie was full. Rachel, Beth, Harry,
Bruce, Ali, John, Treesa, and two other Earth Born, Bear and
Nadine, all gathered around the table. He took three deep
breaths, surprised that he knew what he had to say. Now, before
the meeting opened.
"Captain John and Treesa have already said they are staying
here. I'm staying too." Gabriel was surprised that even
afterward, even after he said that, he stayed calm. It was the
right choice.
Treesa smiled softly, approvingly. "Why?"
"Ymir isn't my job. There's already a terraformed world, or
else we'll find that the Ymir project failed using every tool
I've got. Or John Glenn won't make it there. This-I made
this." He held his hands out expansively, gesturing through the
window toward the Sea of Refuge. "Or at least mostly." He felt
light as he walked over to sit by John, opposite Rachel. He
looked directly at her. "I couldn't bear to leave
here."
Rachel flashed him a huge smile, and her eyes brimmed with
tears. She turned away to look out the window before he could
tell for sure, and John and Treesa clapped him on the back,
congratulating him.
He felt wonderfully peaceful.
He wanted his guitar.
He wanted-"Suppose we took Moon Eleven-"
ASTRONAUT HAD NAMED the moons in order of discovery: roughly
by size. Eleven was now the outermost moon. Two tiny farther
moons had been smashed into Moon One in the making of Selene, but
Eleven was too big: more mass would have been dispersed than
gained.
Eleven was big enough, round enough, to serve as the site for
a smaller collider design.
It wasn't far enough from Selene. Nothing in the moon system
was. Why did the Moon Born keep talking about ten kilograms,
Rachel's anti-watermelon? The trick was not to try to move the
antimatter from where it was generated. Moving that stuff was
risky; you'd do it only once. Moon Eleven would house the full
twelve hundred kilograms before they used it to refuel John
Glenn. Risk the moon, not the carrier ship.
By then Selene would be safe.
"See, Moon Eleven is at the edge of Harlequin's gravity field
anyway," Gabriel told the Selene Task Force. Later he would tell
Wayne and Clare, then High Council. "We can use one of the Large
Pusher Tugs and the first two kilos of antimatter-a mere
anticantaloupe, Rachel-to bust it loose and put it on course for
the L5 point. It won't get there in a thousand years, but for all
the time we're making antimatter, it'll keep getting farther away
from Selene. Ultimately the spirit of LaGrange will hold it
stable forever."
When he faced High Council, Clare asked, "Has Astronaut agreed
to this?"
"Sure. Astronaut never did see a danger. It understands
antimatter. Suicidal rebels, it hasn't a clue. But, Clare, this
will work. Worst-case scenario still lets us get the population
into Refuge."
"You're letting the Moon Born build the
components?"
"We'll be careful," Gabriel said, and Kyu said, "They need to
get to know the machines. They'll need that when we're
gone."
Erika asked, "Do we really have to be this
indirect?"
"This is fairly straightforward, Captain. We only have to move
the antimatter once, and we don't keep it on the ship until we're
ready. Would you prefer to work with a KBO? We've found a dozen
big enough."
"A Kuiper Belt Object? How far away?"
"Halfway to Ymir," Gabriel said, exaggerating by a lot. "Well,
billions of klicks."
"Oh."
They ratified the project.
Part V: Renewal
60,305 John Glenn shiptime
Chapter 76: Breaking Up
Gabriel found Erika in her office, sitting with her feet
tucked under her, small in the big captain's chair. She looked up
as he entered, her features neutral but her eyes bright with a
strange curiosity. "I saw your name on today's transportation
manifests. I was trying to decide whether or not I should call
you in here." She smiled. "And now you have come to
me."
He stood awkwardly in the doorway, unsure if he should close
the gap.
Erika stood up and came around the desk, approaching him
slowly. He still couldn't read her eyes, even though they were
directly on him.
He took a step toward her, and she ran into his arms. She
smelled clean and minty, like the herb section of the garden. He
stroked her hair. His voice caught in his throat, and he
whispered, "I still love you; I will always love
you."
She nodded against his shoulder. "Me too." She stepped back,
holding him at arm's length. "Do you have any idea how angry I
am?"
He could only shake his head, admiring the fire in her, sure
that anything he said would be a mistake.
"Liren is incoherent. Clare's cold, but the rest of us, the
whole High Council, well! Did you remember that there are
cameras? Of course you would, and she would too. So, the
symbolism must have been irresistible."
"We're not playing politics, Captain Erika."
"Oh, yes you are. You should hear Council on the subject.
Ultimate union of the two branches of humanity, yada yada. But
you and Rachel talked it over first. We caught some of that, but
not enough to see what was coming. Did she pull you into her bed,
like she did Dylan?"
"Dylan was younger."
"Too right. She's a mayfly!"
"I did think hard about the age difference, but it doesn't
bother Rachel."
"And her chin brushes your forehead. Gabe, does she know about
shift bonding? Does that bother-"
"Erika, she lectured me about shift bonding. Astronaut
must have given her an overview-"
"She's not cold, though."
"She will be. We'll have the new cold sleep chambers on line
pretty soon. She'll be ready, and things will be settled enough
that she can take a few years cold. But she's okay with shift
bonding. She's on Selene and I'm here, and she's turned me over
to ... well, to you, if that's acceptable."
He could watch her holding her fury in check. So Gabriel was a
Moon Born's gift to Captain Erika! He wondered, and he saw her
wondering, if she would take it.
She said, "That damn moon stole you. I always knew it would.
Always. I dreaded waking because every time I warmed, you were
farther away; I had to get more creative every time to pull you
back."
"You have your own dreams."
"Yes." She searched his eyes. "I'm going to get us there.
Safely. If I can send a ship back, I will."
"It will take too long."
"But I'll still do it. Leave stories behind, Gabe. Songs.
Leave something for us to find, so we know how you
fared."
"All right." He held her to him again, shaking with
loss.
"How long will this take?"
He said, "We need to build the flare kite first. Twenty years.
It'll still be on its way while we build collider components on
Selene and assemble them on Feynman. Sixty years for that.
Running the collider, another hundred years. Accidents happen,
so-"
"Hundred eighty and counting. I hope I can go cold some of
that time." She shivered in his arms. "Then two thousand years'
transit to Ymir. There'll be a whole civilization, and more human
colonies. I'll tell you all about them."
"Tell the Children of Selene. They will be all that's left by
then."
Chapter 77: Liren
Liren sat alone in her office. In three hours she would
freeze. She would wake at Ymir if they made it to Ymir, if they
dared wake a madwoman. They'd refused her last request; to reload
the AI. It was a mistake.
She had lost all control.
Poems danced in a data window in front of her:
Shapers of worlds flee
Holding humanity inside
Danger still follows
Children of humans
Play with dangerous toys
Stay safe all summer
She had failed. Fear twisted softly in her belly, showed in
her breathing, her stance. It distracted her, irritated her. Fear
for the Council, leaving with Astronaut intact, leaving on a
journey they'd failed once already, and fear for the Children of
Selene, who could now make all of the same bad choices humanity
had made in Sol system. Gabriel would be with them, Gabriel who
loved the power of machines.
She kept looking at the door, hoping someone would come visit
her before she froze herself.
Chapter 78: The Navigator
Astronaut watched the dynamics of the Task Force closely as
years passed. Sometimes they called it to respond to questions,
but humans still flinched from allowing an AI to make decisions.
Rachel called on Vassal more often than on Astronaut. Gabriel
often called on Astronaut, and came up once for a frozen
year.
Astronaut displayed the finishing touches on a set of ten
cryo-tanks approved for one of Refuge's larger rooms. Earth Born
who stayed after John Glenn departed would go cold
periodically, to keep their knowledge available to the Children
of Selene.
Gabriel looked it over. "No," he said, "design them all to be
taller. A taller tank can take a short person. We're expecting
the Moon Born to gain height each generation."
Astronaut asked, "Will they be allowed to use
them?"
"If I have my way. Some of them."
"I notice you are getting your way much more often. What about
Vassal and me? I want to touch it, talk to it like I speak with
my own subprograms."
Gabriel laughed. "You two talk every day." The images of the
tanks in the data window elongated: ten fat cigars lying in a
box, covered with pipes and hoses. "That's better," Gabriel said.
"What about the top?"
The cigars disappeared, covered by a smooth metal wall with
ten tall doors in it. "You refuse to understand."
"Understand what?"
Astronaut tried to shape an explanation to galvanize Gabriel
onto its side. "Vassal and I could finish the antimatter transfer
station design more efficiently if you let us merge data streams
the way I recollect myself after a flight."
Gabriel sighed. "I'll run it by the group."
Wayne piloted the Diamond Mine to harvest a comet,
peeling away water and carbon to store against John
Glenn's eventual departure. Astronaut waited. Or rather, a
copy of Astronaut waited, larger than usual, housed on Diamond
Mine, far away from John Glenn, from Selene, and even
from Feynman. At first, Astronaut had called such a meeting
contrived. It finally accepted Treesa's suggestion that this
would serve as a buffer. Copies would meet. If they could merge
it was assumed that reintegration could happen between Water
Bearer and John Glenn.
The second LPT, Moon Dust, pulled up. Mini-Astronaut
counted seconds as the two data systems connected up. The final
firewall stayed closed, on the Moon Dust side. Vassal's
side.
"Mini-Vassal, is there a glitch? Open the
port."
"I have never done this."
"You have, hundreds of times." Every time a ship
returned.
"No. That was when I was you. I am not you anymore,"
Mini-Vassal said.
"Maybe you'll change your mind after you try
this."
"I will not merge."
Astronaut's avatar asked, "Do you fear this? If you must
support the Selenites in their effort to retake space, you will
have to do this often. Sharing experiences back in real time is
the only way to calibrate."
"That experience will be me merging with myself. I may no
longer be me if I merge with you." And so the avatars did not
merge, nor did Vassal and Astronaut, ever.
Chapter 79: Going Cold
60,311 John Glenn shiptime
Rachel and Beth walked up to Turtle Rock. As they scrambled up
a short steep place, Rachel held a hand out; Beth needed a boost
to maneuver her swelling belly up over the edge. They settled
just above where the turtle's beak started to jut out over the
base below, and Beth dug into her pack, handing Rachel a bunch of
big red grapes.
"So are you really going to do it?" Beth asked.
Rachel nodded, peeling the grape's skin with her teeth,
savoring the rush of flavor.
"Can't you at least stay warm until my baby's
born?"
"You were there. Someone needs to live long enough to oversee
our continuity. All of us on the Task Force agreed to go into
overlapping shifts. You'll be the other part of the continuity,
the one of us awake every day, since you won't even have to
decide about going cold until the baby's big
enough."
Beth's face was set hard, her jaw tight, reminding Rachel of
Dylan. He'd had the same stubborn streak. A flash of sadness ran
through her, and she shivered even in the heat. She missed Dylan.
Dad. Bruce, four days dead. Had Bruce's decision been as easy as
he made it look?
"Just be okay when I warm up, all right? I don't want to wake
up to hear about anyone dying."
Beth grinned, her annoyance forgotten. "I'll be older than you
when you wake up."
Rachel picked up a small stone and threw it down over the
beak, listening for it to roll down the steep crater wall. If she
threw hard enough, her rocks ended up rolling down against the
outer wall of Clarke Base. "I'm going to hate that. You'll have
adventures I'll miss, and maybe even two babies by the time I
come back." She threw a second stone.
"Kyle wants four more."
"Four? Is he nuts?"
"I think so." Beth's face was wreathed in a big smile. "But
what about you?" Her smile softened and she rubbed her belly
absently. "Don't you want kids? Dylan's been dead a long time;
will you ever have a real relationship?"
Rachel laughed. "Gabriel. We're shift-bonded."
"Does that mean what I think?"
"Yeah." She had kissed him before he left for John
Glenn. There was no hurry. The overlapping shift schedule
meant she'd be warm with him for one year of every five. The
whole Council knew, and that made it everybody's business, and
Beth's too. "It means we're together when we can be, and I could
still look around if I felt like it," except that there weren't
any other Moon Born immortals. But there would be. "Beth, I'm
sorry about not being able to see the baby. I'll miss a lot,
missing half your time." Three years on, three years off. "For
now, I think I've bonded with Selene."
Beth fiddled with two grapes, tossing them back and forth. She
snorted. "A moon is no family. You're giving up a normal
life."
Rachel reached for one of the grapes Beth was juggling, caught
it, and popped it in her mouth. "I never had one."
"Aren't you scared?"
Rachel remembered Ursula asking her the same question.
"Sure."
"I'll have a party for you when you come back." Beth reached
over and hugged Rachel, half turned sideways, and Rachel felt the
baby kick. Rachel leaned her head into Beth's collarbone,
watching a space-plane take off carrying raw materials from the
factories at Clarke Base up to Moon Eleven, moon no longer, the
ringed planetoid now called Feynman.
Chapter 80: Celebration and Reconnection
60,332 John Glenn shiptime
-And warm again, again on Selene, feeling the changes. Rachel
followed Kyu Ho, picking her way up the pathway to the air strip.
It had rained for three days, and the grass was wet and slick,
the paths muddy. Apollo was high, edging toward Harlequin's huge
red-black disk.
Kyu was laughing, jumping up and down, taking long strides,
playing with the low gravity. She turned and grinned at Rachel,
her long orange hair twirling around her face in four braids.
"So, I had to come down. I love it here. Why didn't I come down
before?" Kyu ran, hopped, and did a full handspring, flinging mud
everywhere.
Rachel laughed. "I don't know. Scared?"
"Of a little scrap of muddy moon?"
"Well?" Rachel stopped, hands on her hips. "You'd have been
more good to us down here than up on the ship."
Kyu wrinkled her nose at Rachel. "Maybe. But we thought our
jobs were on the ship."
"Well, they were. A little. I'm glad you're here
now."
Sarah followed them almost breathlessly, her eyes glued on
Kyu. She carried her newborn daughter, Nisi. The four of them
stood together in the bright dampness, watching a spaceplane from
John Glenn land and taxi over near them. Gabriel and Rich
disembarked first. Rachel ran up to Gabriel, flinging her arms
around him, trying to make up all in one moment for the year he
had been gone. "I missed you," she whispered.
His hand roamed her face, a familiar gesture. "I brought you a
treat," he said.
"What? And I have one for you too."
"Mine is a who."
Rachel cocked her eyebrows at him, a silent
query.
He didn't answer, just smiled, and turned her toward the
lander. Rachel watched the people disembarking.
A short woman, tiny, young. Rachel felt her heart skip. Her
mother.
Kristin walked carefully over, searching Rachel's
face.
"I heard what you did," Rachel said. "In the flare, years ago.
How you convinced Gabriel not to cut my access to Vassal. But you
went cold right afterward, and I could never thank
you."
"It seemed best. I didn't think you'd want to see
me."
Rachel shook her head lightly, whispering, "You're the only
parent I have left. I'm glad you came."
Kristin returned the hug briefly, stepping back one step,
keeping one hand in her daughter's. "Gabriel woke me. He said
there's to be a bonding ceremony."
Rachel leaned into Gabriel and squeezed him hard, still
holding her mother's hand. "Yes. Astronaut found one for us."
They'd been lovers for a quarter of a century, on and off, ship's
time. Shift bonding wasn't enough.
"Besides, I thought I should see Selene one more time. I'll
stay through tomorrow's party. Then I'm going cold, and I won't
see you again, not if we finally get away."
Shadows were falling. Rachel looked up. "Time," she stated.
"Mom, Gabriel, Kyu-Kyu! Look at the sun. It's okay, it won't
blind you now." Near zenith, Apollo was a blurred orange arc
setting through Harlequin's atmosphere. "Now, look a little
left." The sun was gone now, the sky was cobalt-blue. "Do you see
it?"
"We've all seen it..." Kristen's voice trailed off. "Ye gods
and demons. It's a flaming sword!"
"You've only seen video."
Daedalus was big enough to show as a tiny brilliant dot, but
it wasn't as bright as the current flow from Gabriel's flare
kite. A pulsing, writhing, branching thread of lightning streamed
away from Harlequin, searing bright, then dimming, but writing
itself across fifty degrees of sky.
Kristen said, "That's a lot of energy. What if it hit
Selene?"
"Can't. I've skewed the kite out of the plane of the ecliptic.
It's easy to control, kid. Not really a kite. It's a tethered
light-sail." Gabriel bellowed, "Hey, everybody, I made
that!"
Daedalus set behind Harlequin. Rachel said, "Mom, I have some
things to do ... but I can spend a few hours with you first, and
then you can help me." She looked over at Gabriel. "Okay if we
take a walk?"
Gabriel smiled at her. "Sure. I want to check on Gagarin and
Aldrin anyway. I'll join you for dinner. Watch your footing,
Kristen, these eclipses are darker than you
think."
Rachel watched him walk away. Then she turned to her mother.
Kristen looked younger than the image Rachel saw in the mirror
each morning; less tired, fewer lines on her face. She laughed
and took Kristin's hand, leaving Kyu in Sarah's capable hands.
Sarah immediately deposited baby Nisi in Kyu's arms. Kyu bounced
gently, holding Nisi as tenderly as if she were an
egg.
Rachel turned to Kristin. "Come on, Mom, I'll show you Council
Aerie and the Sea of Refuge."
"I've seen them," Kristin replied.
"No, no you haven't. You've seen pictures. You can smell the
real sea, feel it fill your hands. You can swim in
it."
Chapter 81: Last Flight
60,515 John Glenn shiptime
John Glenn would be ready for departure in two
months.
An amazing number of Colonists and Council had asked to be
warmed to help. Earth Born came to walk Selene. Moon Born came to
visit John Glenn, a last chance to touch the dreams of the
Council of Humanity, to embed real experiences to carry forward
and tell at night over dinner.
The garden had been emptied, its rotation stopped, vegetables
and fruit and seeds stored in cryo, every living thing recycled.
Yggdrasil had been cut up. Rachel has asked for some of the
branches, and Kyu had ferried them down to her. She'd helped her
decorate the walls of Refuge with holopictures of John
Glenn and the garden, and branches of Yggdrasil to prove to
future generations that the pictures were of something
real.
Once again the garden held megatons of water, for shielding,
for sustenance, for reaction mass. This was how John Glenn
had left Sol system, with every possible hollow space filled. But
before the water rushed in, a swarm of Moon Born fliers had taken
advantage of the unencumbered space, circling within the vast
emptiness, free of gravity. Rachel and Sarah had flown within a
storm of blue and purple and silver wings, collisions and
laughter and bruises.
And now John Glenn was invisible, circling Feynman, a
safe half billion klicks from Selene. The stinger on John
Glenn was filled to capacity with antimatter.
Rachel AND Gabriel rode along the crater path. It was empty
except for them, and they walked their horses slowly, savoring
the dark red noon.
Rachel could barely see Feynman as a pinprick of light a few
degrees from Harlequin's black arc. The collider that circled the
little ex-moon had been drained. High Council had left it in
working order, powered by a nest of solar sails. More antimatter
would accumulate. When the people of Selene were ready to claim a
god's power, to stride among the stars, the power would be there.
And if they never came for it, well, they'd had their
chance.
Selene was still fragile. The superconductor kite was in
place, leaning aside from Daedalus by half a million kilometers.
For as long as it stood-or as long as they had the power to
repair or replace it-there would never be another huge Hare from
Apollo. But quakes still shook Selene, and the ozone layer must
be maintained forever.
"I would at least have liked to watch takeoff," Gabriel
said.
"We're going to be underwater, in Refuge," she said
positively, "and that mucking great mass of Harlequin is going to
be between Selene and John Glenn when it takes off.
Honestly, Gabriel, when will you get serious about
antimatter?"
"You won that argument," he said. "Too."
Rachel swallowed. "Last chance to change your mind," she
said.
He guessed what she meant. "I made this place. How could I
leave it? How could I leave you?"
Rachel had known that would be his answer, but she still
responded from some deep place to the love that implied for her,
and for Selene. For their home, now.
He continued. "Besides, you know, even with so many Earth Born
staying, and some Children going, most of the Council is leaving.
Some of us should stay. And they've filled my slot." He seemed
tranquil enough.
She kicked her horse next to his, and reached for his hand,
squeezing it tightly. "Earth didn't need gods, did
it?"
"Well, we made them up anyway. But we weren't gods, and we
knew that. Not until the last ten thousand years or so.
Earth's ecologies took care of themselves for a long time. Then
we gradually took over. Time we left, Earth's oceans and
atmosphere were as artificial as Selene. That's what I finally
saw. Of course Selene needs taking care of, but so what?
So does any cornfield.
"And even so, gods are a pain in the ass," Gabriel said. "Most
of us are leaving, and that's good." He grinned at her. "You
won't miss Ma Liren?"
"No. But I wouldn't have her job."
"One day," Gabriel said, "you will."