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This is a work of fiction. All the characters and events portrayed in this book are fictional, and
any resemblance to real people or incidents is purely coincidental.
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Copyright (C) 1988 by Elizabeth Moon
All rights reserved, including the right to reproduce this book or portions thereof in any form.
A Baen Books Original
Baen Publishing Enterprises 5020 Henry Hudson Parkway Riverdale,NY 10471
ISBN: 0-671-69786-2 Cover art by Kevin Davies
First Printing, October 1988 Second Printing, September 1989 Third Printing, July 1990
Printed in the United States of America
Distributed by Simon & Schuster 1230 Avenue of the Ameneas New York. NY 10020
Prologue
Long ago, before the elder folk were driven from the lands south of the Hakkenarsk, the elves who
dwelt in those heights had found a valley more lovely than any other. The shape of its rock and
the clarity of its water brought joy to all who saw it. There for a time the elves lived, and
built as they rarely build, while the greatest among them sang to the taig of that place, and
wakened it to its own power. Over long years they shaped it, singing one song of beauty after
another, and the taig responded, willing itself to flourish as the elves suggested. Very dear was
this valley to all who could sense the taigin, both elder and younger folk, and it was known as
the elfane taig, the holy place and living banner of the elves and their powers.
Then troubles came: the tales are lost that tell who brought them, or how those who fled sought
refuge far away. Even to the elfane taig the evil came, and the elves fled, driven out by a power
they could not resist for all their songs. The taig remained, crippled in its resistance to that
evil by corruption placed at its heart, no longer truly elfane but banast, or wounded. Most of its
great strength was spent in containing that corruption. The taig could not attack the embodied
evil without loosing the
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worse danger, the periapt which would leave it permanently defiled.
Few travelers went that way at first, for its hazards were well known. The elves, when they were
asked, warned all. No dwarf would venture so near the Ladysforest, and humans, for the most part,
preferred the easier pass at Valdaire, or the shorter one over Dwarfwatch. So for long years the
contending powers in the valley had only each other to feed on. A stray ore here, a wolfpack
there—these nourished the conflict ill. And of the travelers that passed, not all were apt for
use. Some, when the visions came, woke quickly and fled, leaving packs and animals behind. Others,
greedy for treasure, stormed into the ruins without sense, and fell to the first of the traps and
creatures, ending as servants of evil, or its food.
But ages passed, and time dulled human memories, and ever the contending powers sought lives and
souls to serve them, to war in their long and bitter strife. As elven influence waned hi Lyonya,
the nearest settled land, few asked elves for advice; fewer still obeyed. Bold explorers, half
brigand, wandered the northern slopes. From time to time an entire band disappeared below the
valley's ruins, to live in the eternal light of the old halls, and fight for whichever power could
enchant each separate soul. There they died, for none came alive from the banast taig. So the
treasure accumulated, over the years: most of it the weaponry and armor of wandering mercenaries
or brigands, but also odd bits of magical equipment, scholars scrolls— whatever a lost traveler
might be carrying.
Then two more travelers entered the valley.
Chapter One
When all Siniava's troops had been marched away under guard, most of the Phelani assumed they'd be
going back to Valdaire—even, perhaps, to the north again. Some were already making plans for
spending their share of the loot. Others looked forward to time to rest and recover from wounds.
They were more than a little surprised, then, to be marched south, along the Immer, in company
with Alured's men, the Halverics, and several cohorts of the Duke of Fall's army. These last
looked fresh as new paint, hardly having fought at all, except to turn Siniava away from Fallo.
"I don't understand it," muttered Ken to Paks as they marched. "I thought we were
through—Siniava's dead. What more?"
Paks shook her head. "Maybe the Duke has a contract."
"Contract! Tir's bones, it'll take us the rest of the season just to get back to Valdaire. Why do
we need a contract?"
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"No—why?"
"Well, that's reason enough to go south. I've seen it— you'll be impressed."
"What is it like?" asked Paks.
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"I don't think anyone can tell you. You have to see it. I've heard the cliffs are tower here, at
the Immer's mouth, than at Confaer, where I was. But even so—"
As they marched south beyond the forest, the river beside them widened. They passed through a few
small towns and villages. Alured stationed some of his troops in each of these. Word trickled down
from the captains that Alured was claiming the title of Duke of Immer. This meant nothing to Paks
or the younger soldiers, but Stammel knew that the title had been extinct for several hundred
years, since the fell of the old kingdom of Aare across the sea.
"I'm surprised that the Duke of Fall and the other nobles are accepting it," he said one night.
"That was the price of his help this year," said Vossik. All the sergeants were gathered around
one fire for an hour or so. "I heard talk in Fallo's cohorts about it. If the Fallo, Andressat,
and Cilwan would uphold his claim—and our Duke, of course—then he'd turn on Siniava."
"But why would they, even so?"
"It's an odd story," said Vossik, obviously ready to tell it.
"Go on, Voss, don't make us beg," growled StammeL
"Well, it's only what I heard, after all: I don't know whether those Fallo troops know the truth,
or if they're telling it, but here it is. It seems that Alured used to be a pirate on the
Immerhoft—"
"We knew that—"
"Yes, but that's the beginning. He'd captured another ship, and was about to throw the prisoners
over, the way pirates do—"
"Into the water?" asked Paks.
Someone laughed. Vossik turned to her. "Pirates don't want a mess on their ships—so they usually
do throw prisoners overboard—"
"But don't they swim or wade to shore?" asked ^Natzlin.
"They can't. It's too for, and the water is deep."
"I can swim a long way—" said Barra.
"Not that far. Tir's gut, Barra, you haven't seen the sea yet. It could be a day's march from
shore, the ship, when they toss someone out." Vossik took a long swallow of sib
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and went on. "Anyway, one of the prisoners was a mage—or said he was. He started calling to
Alured, telling him he should be a prince by rights."
"I'd have thought Alured wouldn't listen to prisoners' yells," said Stammel. "He doesn't look the
type.
"No," agreed Vossik. "He doesn't. But it seems he'd had some sort of tale from his father—about
being born of good blood, or whatever. So he had the man brought to him, and the mage told him a
long tale about his ancestors. How he was really heir to a vast kingdom, and was wasting his time
as a pirate."
"He believed that?" Haben snorted and reached his own mug into the sib. "I'd heard pirates were
superstitious, but—"
"Well, the man offered proof. Said he'd seen scrolls in old Aare that proved it. Offered to take
Alured there, and prove his right to the kingdom."
"To Aare? That heap of sand?"
^How do you know, Devlin? You haven't been there."
"No, but I've heard. No one's ever said anything was left in Aare but ruins."
"That's what the mage told Alured—that he'd been in the ruins, and could find the proof of
Alured's ancestry."
"It seems to me," said Erial, "that it's extra trouble to hunt up ancestors like that. What
difference does it make anyway? Our Duke's got his steading without dragging in hundreds of
fathers and fathers' fathers."
"Or mothers," muttered Barra.
"You know they're different here in Aarenis," said Stammel. "Think of Andressat."
"That stuffed owl," said Barra.
"No—don't be that way, Barra. He's a good fighter, and a damn good count for Andressat. Most other
men would have lost Andressat to Siniava years ago. He's proud of his ancestors—true—but he's
someone they could be proud of as well."
"But go on about Alured, Voss," said Stammel. "What happened?"
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Aare with him. Then—now remember, I got this from the Fallo troops; I don't say it's true—then the
mage showed him the proof. They say that Alured believed it—an old scroll, showing the marriages,
and such, and proving that he was in direct descent from that Duke of Immer who was called back to
Aare in the troubles."
"But Vossik, it wouldn't take much—any decent mage could fake something like that!" Erial looked
around at the others; some of them nodded.
"I didn't say I believed it, Erial. But Alured did. It fitted what he wanted, let's say. If Aare
had been worth anything, it would have meant the throne of Aare—if it was true. It certainly meant
the lands of Immer."
"And so he left the sea, and settled into the forest to be a land pirate? How was that being a
duke?"
"Well—again—this is hearsay. Seems he came to the Immer ports first, and tried to get mem to swear
allegiance—"
"But he'd been a pirate!"
"Yes, I know. He wasn't thinking clearly, perhaps. Then he hired a lot of local toughs, dressed
them in the old colors of Immer, and tried to parley with the Duke of Fall."
"Huh. And came out with a whole skin?"
"He wasn't stupid enough to put it in jeopardy—this took place on the borders of Fallo. The Duke
reacted as you might expect, but—well—he didn't much care what happened in the southern forest, as
long as it didn't bother him. And, so his men say, he's longsighted—won't make an enemy
unnecessarily."
"But what about Siniava?"
"Well, Alured wasn't being accepted as Duke of Immer any more than Siniava was accepted as Count
of the South Marches. Now this bit I got from one of Alured's men. Siniava promised Alured the
dukedom if he'd break up the Immer River shipping, and protect Siniava's movements in the area.
Thats why no one could trace him after Rotengre."
"Yes, but—"
"But a couple of things happened. First, Andressat. Andressat didn't accept Alured's claim, but he
was polite:
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read the scroll, said he could understand Alured's feelings, but pushed the decision off on the
Duke of Fall. He let Alured look at his archives, and said if Fallo was ever convinced, he'd back
him. So when Siniava tried to get Alured to move on Andressat's flank, he wouldn't. Then the wood-
wanderers: you remember that old man we met in Kodaly, that time?' Stammel nodded. "Alured had
befriended them when he moved into the forest, so they were on his side. Same time, our Duke had
befriended them for years in the north, and northern Aarenis. From that, our Duke knew what Alured
wanted. And he knew what Fallo wanted, which was to marry into a northern kingdom—and he knew that
Sofi Ganarrion had a marriageable child—"
"But Soft's not a king—"
"Yet. Remember what he's always said. And with Fallo behind him—"
"Gods above! You mean—"
"Somehow our Duke and the Halveric convinced the Duke of Fall that Alured's help in this campaign
was worth that much to him. So the Duke of Fall agreed to back Alured's claim, and Andressat fell
into line, and we got passage through the forest and Siniava didn't."
Paks shivered. She had never thought of the maneuvering that occurred off the battlefield. "But is
Alured really the Duke of Immer?"
Vossik shrugged. "He has the title. He will be ruling. What else?"
"But if he's not really—by blood, I mean—"
"I don't see that it matters. He'll be better as a duke than a pirate: he'll have to govern,
expand trade, stop robbing—"
"Will he?" Haben looked around the whole group before going on. "I wouldn't think, myself, that a
pirate-turned-brigand would make a very good duke. >Vhat's the difference between taxes and
robbery, if it comes to that?"
"He's not stupid, Haben." Vossik looked worried. "It will have to be better than Siniava—"
"That's my point. Siniava claimed a title—claimed to be governing his lands—but we all saw what
that meant in
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any of us want to live under someone like him? I remember the faces in those cities, if you
don't."
"But he fought Siniava—"
"Yes—at the end. For a good reward, too. I'm not saying he's all bad, Vossik; I don't know. But so
far he's done what any mercenary might—gone where the gold is. How will he govern? A man who
thinks he's nobly born, and has been cheated of his birthright—what will he do when we reach the
Immer ports?"
They found out at Immerdzan, where the Immer widened abruptly into a bay. It sheltered four ports:
Immerdzan and Aliuna, across the river from each other, Ka-Immer, seaward of Immerdzan, and
Seafang, high on the last rocky point of the bay on Aliuna's side. Seafang alone had not been
controlled by Siniava in the past few years; it was more a pirates' lair than a port anyway. But
Immerdzan, Ka-Immer, and Aliuna had been governed by Siniava's minions.
Immerdzan required no formal assault. It had never been fortified on the land side, beyond a wall
hardly more than man-high with the simplest of gates. The army marched in without meeting any
resistance. The streets were crowded and dirty; the air stank of things Paks had never smelled
before. Paks got her first look at the bay, here roiled and murky from the Immer's output. The
shore was cluttered with piers and wharves, with half-rotted pilings, the skeletons of boats,
boats sinking, boats floating, new boats, spars, shreds of sail, nets hung from every available
pole, and festooned on the houses. She saw small naked children, skinny as goats, diving and
swimming around the boats. Most of them wore their hair in a single short braid, tied with bright
bits of cloth.
Beyond the near-shore clutter, the bay lay wide and nearly empty under the hot afternoon sun. A
few boats slid before the wind, their great triangular sails curved like wings. Paks stared at
them, fascinated. One changed direction as she watched, the dark line of the hull shorten-
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ing and lengthening again, now facing another way. Far in the distance she could see the high
ground beyond the bay, and southward the water turned green, then blue, as the Immer's water
merged with the open sea.
Around the Duke's troops, a noisy crowd had gathered— squabbling, it seemed to Paks, in a language
high-pitched and irritable. Children dashed back and forth, some still sleek and wet from the
water, others grimy. Barefoot men in short trousers, their hair in a longer single braid,
clustered around the boats; women in bright short skirts and striped stockings hung out of windows
and crowded the doorways. One of Alured's captains called in the local language, and a sudden
silence fell. Paks heard the water behind her, sucking and mumbling at the pilings, slurping. She
shivered, wondering if the sea had a spirit. Did it hunger?
Alured's captain began reading from a scroll in his hand. Paks looked for ArcoTin and watched his
face; surely he knew what was going on. He had no expression she could read. Now the announcement,
whatever it was, was finished: Alured's captain spoke to the Duke, saluted, and mounted to ride
away. The crowd was silent. When he rounded the corner, a low murmur passed through them. One man
shouted, hoarsely. Paks looked for him, and saw two younger men shoving a graybearded one back.
Another man near them called in accented Common:
"Who ofyou speaks to us?"
"I, do." The Duke's voice was calm as ever.
"You—you are pirates?"
"No. What do you mean?"
"That—that man—he says is now our duke—he is a pirate. You are his men—you are pirates."
"No." The Duke shook his head. Paks saw Arcolin give the others a hand signal, saw the signal
passed from captains to sergeants. It was unneeded; they were all alert anyway. "We are his
allies, not his men. He fought with us upriver—against Siniava."
'THiat filth! The man spat. "Who are you, then, if you fight Siniava but also with pirates?"
"Duke Phelan, of Tsaia.'
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"Tsaia? That's over the Dwarfmounts, all the way north! What do you here?"
"I have a mercenary company, that fights in Aarenis. Siniava—" The Duke's voice thinned, but he
did not go on, "We fought Siniava," he said finally. "He is dead. Alured of the forest has been-
granted the Duchy of Immer, and as he aided us, so I am now aiding him."
"He is no duke!" yelled the man. "I don't know you—I heard something maybe, but I don't know you.
But that Alured—he is nothing but pirate, and pirate he will be. Siniava was bad, Barrandowea.
knows that, but Alured! He killed my uncle, years back, out there in the bay, him and his filthy
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"No matter," said the Duke. "He is the Duke of Immer now, and he rules this land—including this
city. I am here to keep order until his own officers take over."
The man spat again, and turned away. The Duke said nothing more to the crowd, but set the cohorts
on guard along the waterfront, and had patrols in the streets leading to and from their area. All
was quiet enough, that first day. Paks felt herself lucky to be stationed on the seawall. She
could look down at the boats, swaying on the waves, and catch a breath of the light wind that blew
off the water. Strange birds, gray and white with black-capped heads, and large red bills, hovered
over the water, diving and lifting again.
It was the next day that the executions began. Paks heard the yells from the other side of the
city, but before they could get excited, the captains explained what was going on.
"The Duke of Fall and the Duke of Immer are executing Siniava's agents." Arcolin's face was
closed. "We are to keep order here, in case of rioting—but we don't expect any." In fact, nothing
happened in their quarter. The men and women went about their work without looking at the
soldiers, and the children scampered in and out of the water freely. But the noise from across the
city did not quiet down, and in the evening Cracolnya's cohort was pulled out to join the
Halverics in calming the disturbance. They returned in the morning, tired and grim;
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Paks did not hear the details until much later. But the Duke's Company marched out of Immerdzan
the following day, and the bodies hung on the wall were eloquent enough.
In Ka-Immer, the word had arrived before they did. The gates were closed. With no trained troops
for defense, and only the low walls, the assault lasted only a few hours. This time the entire
population was herded into the market square next to the seawall. While the Halverics and Phelani
guarded them, Alured's men searched the streets, house by house, bringing more and more to stand
with the others. When they were done, Alured himself rode to die edge of the square. He pointed at
a man among the others. His soldiers seized him, and dragged him out of the mob. Then two more,
and another. Someone yelled, from across the square, and a squad of Alured's men shoved into the
crowd, flailing them aside, to seize him as well. The first man had thrown himself down before
Alured, sobbing. Alured shook his head, pointed. All of them were dragged to a rough framework of
spars which Alured's troops had lashed together.
A ripple of sound ran through the crowd; die people crammed back against each other, the rear
ranks backing almost into Pak's squad. She and the others linked shields, holding firm. She could
hardly see over the crowd. Then the first of the men lifted into sight, stretched on ropes slung
over the framework. Paks stiffened; her belly clenched. Another. Another. Soon they hung in a row,
one by the feet and the others by their arms. Alured's men petted them with mud, stones, fish from
the market. One of diem hung limp, another screamed thinly. Paks looked away, gulped back nausea.
When her eyes slid sideways, they met Keri's, equally miserable. She did not see the end, when
Alured himself ran a spear into each man. She felt, through the movement of the crowd, that an end
had come, and looked up to see die bodies being lowered.
But it was not the end. Alured spoke, in diat strange language, gesturing fiercely. The crowd was
still, unmov-tng; Paks could smell the fear and hatred of those nearest her. He finished with a
question: Paks recognized die tone
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of voice, the outflung arm, the pause, waiting for an answer. It came as a dead fish, flung from
somewhere in the crowd, that came near to its mark. His face darkened. Paks could not hear what he
said, but his own soldiers fanned out again, coming at the crowd.
Before they reached it, the crowd erupted into sound and action. Jammed as they were against a
thin line of Phelani and Halverics holding the three landward sides of the market, they somehow
managed to turn and move at once. PaksJs squad was forced back, by that immense pressure. They
could hear nothing but the screams and bellows of the crowd; they had been ordered to guard, not
attack. But they were being overwhelmed. Most of the people had no weapons; their weapon was
simply numbers. Like Paks, they were reluctant to strike unarmed men and women—but equally, they
did not want to be overrun.
Behind, in the streets that led to the market, Paks could hear other troops coming, and shouted
commands that were but pebbles of noise against the stone wall around them. She tried to stay in
contact with the others, tried to fend off the crowd with the flat of her sword, but the pressure
was against them all. A man grabbed at her weapon, screaming at her; she raised it, and he hit
her, hard, under the arm. Almost in reflex, Paks thrust, running the sword into his body. He fell
under a storm of feet, that kept coming at her. She fended them off as best she could, pressing
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A gap opened between them and the next squad; the crowd poured through, still bellowing. Paks was
slammed back into the building behind her; she could feel something —a window ledge, she
supposed—sticking into her back. Faces heaved in front of her, all screaming; hands waved, grabbed
at her weapon. She fought them off, panting. She had no time to look for Stammel or Arcolin; she
could hear nothing now but the crowd. They had broken through the ring in many places, now, and
streamed away from the market, lurching and falling in their panic. A child stumbled into her and
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down, screaming shrilly. Paks had no hand to spare for him, and he disappeared under the hurrying
feet.
By the time she could move again, most of the crowd was gone. She could see Alured riding behind
his soldiers as they tried to stop those in the rear. She finally saw Arcolin, and then Stammel,
beyond the tossing heads. Then she could hear them. The cohort reformed, joined the others, and
was sent in pursuit of the fugitives. But by sundown, barely a fifth had been retaken, mostly
women and children too weak to run far, or too frightened. Paks, still shaken by the morning's
events, was upset still more by the treatment of those she helped recapture. Alured was determined
that none of Siniava's sympathizers would survive, and that all would acknowledge his rank and
rule. To this end, he intended, as he explained to Phelan in front of the troops, to frighten the
citizens into submission.
Paks expected the Duke to argue, but he said nothing. He had hardly seemed to smile since
Siniava's death, and since reaching the coast had spent hours looking seaward. She did not
know—none of them knew—what was troubling him. But more and more Paks felt that she could not live
with what was troubling her. The looks of fear and loathing turned on them—the muttered insults,
clear enough even in a foreign tongue—the contempt of Alured's troops, when the Phelani would not
join them in "play," which to them meant tormenting some poor citizen—all this seemed to curdle
her belly until she could hardly eat, and slept but little, waking from troubled dreams.
Paks tried to smother these feelings. She had spoken out once—that was enough for any private. As
long as she wore the Duke's colors, she owed him obedience. He had done a lot for her, had honored
her more than most. Surely the Duke's service was worth a little discomfort, even this unease.
When they marched out of Ka-Immer, leaving a garrison of Alured's men behind, Paks tried to tell
herself the worst was over. But it wasn't. In town after town, along the Immerhoft coast, the same
scenes were played. Alured, it seemed, knew of Siniava's agents in every one. Or they refused his
lordship, remembering him as a pirate, and he had to enforce his will. The
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mercenaries did not participate in the executions and tortures, but without them Alured lacked the
troops to force so many towns.
None of them knew how long it would last—r-where the Duke was planning to stop. Surely he would,
they thought. Any day he would turn back, would march to Valdaire. But he said nothing, staring
south across the blue endless water. Uneasiness ran through the Company like mice through a whiter
attic.
Paks thought no one had noticed her in particular until Stammel came to her guardpost one night.
He stood near her, unspeaking, for a few minutes. Paks wondered what he wanted. Then he sighed,
and took off his helmet, rumpling up his hair.
"I don't need to ask what's wrong with you," he began. "But something has to be done."
Paks could think of nothing to say.
"You aren't eating enough for someone half your size. You'll be no good to any of us if you fell
sick—"
"I'm fine—" began Paks, but he interrupted.
"No, you're not fine, and neither am I. But I'm keeping my food down, and sleeping nights, which
is more than you're doing. And I don't want to lose a good veteran in all this. We don't have that
many."
Paks nodded slowly. "So many of us. aren't—aren't really the Company."
"Yes—all those new people we've picked up here and there. They aren't the same." Stammel paused
again. He put his helmet back on, and rubbed his nose. "I don't know tf they ever will be—if we
ever will be—what we were." His voice trailed away.
"I keep—keep seeing—" Paks could not go on.
"Paks, you—' Stammel cleared his throat. "You shouldn't be in this."
She was startled enough to make a choked sound, as if she'd been hit. "What-^why—"
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apart. Not for this. You've served the Duke as well as anyone could. D'you think he doesn't know
it? Or I?" Now he sounded
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almost angry. "You don't belong here, in this kind of fighting. That Marshal was right; even the
Duke said you might be meant for better things." He stopped again, and his voice was calmer when
he resumed. "I think you should leave, Paks."
"Leave the Company?" Despite the shock, she felt a sudden wash of relief at the thought of being
out of it.
"Yes. That's what I came to say. Tir knows this is hard enough on me—and I'm older, and— But you
leave, Paks. Go back north. Go home, maybe, or see if you can take knight's training somewhere.
Don't stay in this until you can t stand yourself, or the Duke either."
"But I—how can I ask—I can't go to him—"
Stammel nodded forcefully. "Yes, you can. Tell Arcolin. The captain'll understand—he knows you.
Hell tell the Duke—or you can. They'll recommend you somewhere, I'm sure of it."
"But to leave the Duke—"
"Paks, I've got nothing to say against him. You know that. He's been my lord since I started; I
will follow him anywhere. But—you stopped him once, when he—he might have made a mistake. Maybe—if
you leave, maybe hell look again—"
Paks was speechless, faced again with the decision she thought she'd settled in Cortes Immer. How
could she leave the Company, how could she return to the nQrth, alone? It was closer to her now
than .family, more familiar than the rooms of the house where she'd been born.
"Paks, I'm serious. You can't go on the way you have been. Others have noticed already; more will.
Get out of this while you still can. Will you?"
"I—I'll have to think—"
"Tonight. We'll be in Sord tomorrow—more of the same, I don't doubt."
Paks found that her eyes were full of tears. She choked down a sob. Stammel gripped her shoulder.
"That's what I mean, Paks. You can't keep fighting yourself, as well as an enemy. Tir knows I know
you're brave—but no one can fight inside and outside both at once."
"I gave my word," she whispered.
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"Yes. You did. And you've already served your term, and more. You've seen Siniava die, which ends
that oath, to my mind. I don't think you're running out—and I don't think Arcolin or the Duke
will, either. Will you talk to them?"
Paks stared up at the dark sky spangled with stars. Torre's Necklace was just rising out of the
distant sea. She thought of the distant past, when she had dreamed of being a soldier and seeing
far places, and of the last town they had been through. "I—can't—go into another—"
"No. I agree."
"But it's too late. It—"
His voice was gentle. "Would you if it weren't so late?''
"Oh, I—I don't know. Yes. If the Duke would let me—"
"He will," said Stammel. "Or I don't know Duke Phelan, and I think I do." He called back toward
the lines for one of the newcomers. "He'll take your place. Come on. If I know you, you'll
convince yourself by morning that you owe it to the Duke to work yourself blind, deaf, and crazy."
The following hour was not as difficult as Paks had feared. Four of the captains had been talking
in Arcolin's tent; the others melted away when Stammel asked Arcolin for a few minutes of
conference. Arcolin himself looked at Paks steadily, but with no anger or disappointment.
"I had been thinking," he said, "that you were overdue for leave. And this isn't your land of
fighting—mine, either, for that. But yes, if you want either leave, or to quit the Company
entirely, you have the right to do so. I would hate to see you leave us for good; you've done
well, and I know Duke Phelan is pleased with you. Would you consider a year's leave, with the
right to return?"
Paks nodded. "Whatever you say, Captain."
"Then we'll speak to the Duke about it. I think you should come, too. He may wish to speak to you
about your service."
The Duke also had not gone to bed. His gaze sharpened when he saw Paks behind Arcolin, but he
waved them into his tent. Arcolin explained what Paks wanted, and the • Duke gave her a long look.
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"No, my lord." She was able to say that honestly. It was not his command, but his alliances, that
bothered her.
"I'm glad for that. You have been an honest and trustworthy soldier. I would hate to think I had
lost your respect."
"No, my lord."
"I can see that you might well wish to leave for a while. A northern girl—a different way—but do
you wish to leave the Company forever, or for a while?"
"I—don't know—I can't imagine living another way, but—"
"How could you? I see. Well, you perhaps should know that the Marshal we met outside Sibili had a
discussion with my captains and me—" he glanced at Arcolin, who nodded. "You refused to leave,
once—-perhaps this is the right time. You would benefit from advanced training, I think. If you
decide to enter another service, I will be glad to recommend you. My own recommendation would be
that you seek squire's training somewhere, or the equivalent. You're already good with single
weapons—learn horsemanship as well, and you might qualify for knight's training." He stopped, and
looked at Arcolin. "She'll need maps for the journey north; I suppose you've already arranged
about pay and settlements—"
"Not yet, my lord. She came just this evening."
"Well, then. You might stay with the Company, Paksenarrion, until you have decided how you will
travel. The state Aarenis is in, going alone would not be wise. If you can find a caravan—you
could hire on as a guard—that might work. Ill be sending someone back to Valdaire a little later,
if you wanted to wait—" There was more of this discussion, but none of what Paks had feared. The
Duke seemed more tired than anything else, a little distracted, though kind. She shook his hand,
and returned to the cohort area with Arcohn, a little let-down at how easy it had been.
Stammel was waiting. "You go on to bed. Tomorrow—" "But tomorrow is Sord—"
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"No. That's the day after. And you won't march with us. I'll have something for you to do."
"But—" ,
"Don't argue with me! I'm still your sergeant! By the time you get into Sord, you'll be free of
all this. Now get over there and go to sleep."
To her surprise, Paks slept all night without waking.
Chapter Two
"From Duke Phelan's Company, eh?" Paksenarrion nodded. The guard captain was a burly dark man of
middle height. "Leaving the Company?"
Paks shrugged. "Going home for awhile."
"Hmm. Wagonmaster says you want to leave the caravan halfway—?"
"It's shorter."
"Mmm. Wagonmaster talked to your sergeant, didn't he?"
"Yes, sir."
"It'll do, then, I suppose. Do you handle a crossbow?"
"Not well, sir. I have used a longbow, but I'm no expert."
The guard captain sighed. "Can't have everything, I suppose. Now listen to me—the caravan starts
making up day after tomorrow, and we'll leave the day after that or the next, depending on how
many merchants join up. I'll want you here by high noon day after tomorrow, ready to work. You
come in drunk, and 111 dock your pay. We have to watch the wagons as close in the city as on the
trail. Don't plan on sleeping that night. Be sure to get some armor; the caravan doesn't supply
it. I'd recommend
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chainmail. The brigands we'll run into along the coast use powerful bows. That leather you're used
to won't stop arrows. You can buy mail from us, if you want." He cocked his head at her. "Clear so
far?"
"Yes, sir. Be here at noon day after tomorrow, with
armor.
"And not drunk."
Paks flushed. "I don't get drunk."
"Everyone gets drunk. Some know when. And by the way, no bedding with the merchants; it's bad for
discipline."
Paks bit back an angry retort. "No, sir."
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armed men in the hall outside; one of them carried a crossbow.
"I can't believe you're going." Paks had hoped to slip out quietly, but Arne, Vik, and other
friends had found her. "What'll you do by yourself?"
"I won't be alone," she said. "I'm doing caravan work—"
"Caravan work! Tir's gut, Paks, that's—"
"Some years the Duke does some. You know that."
"Yes, but that's with us—with the Company. To go out there with strangers—"
"Arne, think. How many strangers are in the Company this year?"
"You're right about that. But still, we're—we're your friends, Paks. Since I came in, you've been
my friend. Is it that Gird's Marshal? Are you going to join the Girdsmen?"
"I don't know. No, I don't think so. I'm just—" Paks stared past them, trying to say it. "I'm
taking leave—we're all owed leave—and I might come back or I might not.'*
"It's not like you." Vik scowled. "If it was Barra, leaving in a temper, I could understand it,
but you—"
"I'm leaving." Paks glared at him. "I am leaving. I have talked to Stammel and Arcolin and the
Duke himself, and I'm leaving."
"You'll come back," said Arne. "You have to. It won't be right." Paks shook her head and walked
quickly away.
As she was leaving the camp, one of the Duke's squires caught her. "The Duke wants to see you
before you go,"
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he said. She followed him to the Duke's tent. Inside, the Duke and Aliam Halveric were talking.
"—And I think that will— Oh, Paksenarrion. The Halveric has a request to make of you."
"My lord?"
"Since you are going north—I understand you are planning to cut across the mountains?"
"Yes, my lord."
"If you'd be willing to delay your journey home long enough to carry this scroll to my steading in
southern Lyonya, I will pay you well. It won't be much out of your way if you take the eastern
pass."
"I would be honored, sir." Paks took the scroll, in its protective leather case, and rucked it
into her belt pouch.
"Come look at this map. You should come out of the mountains near here. If you go north, you'll
come to an east-west trail that runs from southern Fintha all the way to Prealith. You'll find
Lyonya rangers, if you're in Lyonya, or traders on it in Tsaia, and any of them can tell you how
to find it." He pointed it out on the map."Tell them Aliam Halveric's, or they'll send you north
to my brother or uncles. You don't want to go that far out of your way. When you come there, be
sure you give it to my lady: Estil, her name is, and she's several hands higher than I am. Your
word will come to her sooner than a courier going back up the Immer, I think."
"Yes, sir."
"And I can trust you, I'm sure, to tell no one of this. There are those who would be glad to steal
that scroll, and cause trouble with it."
"No, sir, I will tell no one."
"I thank you. Will you trust my lady to pay you, or would you take it now?"
"Of course I will trust you—your lady, sir. I have not delivered it yet, though I swear I will."
"Phelan says you may seek work in the north; is that so?" Pals nodded. "Well, then, Estil may be
able to help. She will do what she can, I promise you."
"Paksenarrion," said the Duke, extending his hand. "Re-
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member that you are welcome in my hall, and in my Company, at any time. May the gods be with you."
"Ward of Falk," said the Halveric. Paks left the tent half unwillingly. It was hard to think that
she had no right here anymore. If anyone had stopped her then and asked her to stay, she might
have changed her mind. But she saw none of her friends, and passed through the sentries without
challenge. As she neared the city gates, the thought of the journey ahead drew her on.
She moved quickly through the crowded streets of Sord. Now that she was out of the Duke's colors,
in rough brown pants and shirt with a pack on her back and a longsword at side, she heard no more
of the catcalls that bothered her so. It felt very strange, being in trousers again after so long.
Her legs were hot and prickly. The longsword, too, rode uneasily at her hip. She pushed it farther
to the back, impatient. The pack was heavy . . . she had thought it was too hot to wear the
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the sun, and strode on.
At the inn, the caravan master bustled about the court; three wagons were already loaded. He
grunted as he saw her, and jerked his head toward the inn door. Paks looked and saw the guard
captain there.
"Ha," he said. "You're on time." He looked her up and down critically. "Where's your mail?"
"In my pack, sir," said Paks.
"Best wear it," he said. "With all the confusion around here, I wouldn't trust leaving it
anywhere. Then you can put your gear in that wagon—" he pointed. "For now, just patrol around the
packed wagons. As soon as some of the others arrive, I'll organize guard shifts."
By the time they had been on the road a few days, Paks felt a little more comfortable with the
other guards. She still did not feel like trusting them in a bad fight, but she found them much
like other soldiers she had known. A few were outcasts of this company and that militia, but most
were reliable and hard-working. Some had never been anything but caravan guards, and had no skills
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aiming a crossbow. Others were well trained, and had left respectable military units for all sorts
of unimportant reasons.
Days passed. It was hotter on the Copper Hills track than any place Paks had yet been; the others
told her this was the hottest part of the year.
"The smart ones take the spring caravans," said one, hunkered in the shade of a wagon one noon.
"When there is a spring caravan."
"Yes, well, what can you expect of merchants?"
"High prices." A general laugh followed this. Paks sweltered in her chainmail and looked east,
toward the distant line of ocean. On some of the higher ground, when the heat haze didn't blur it,
she could see the sand and water form long, intricate curves. It looked cool out there. Finally
she asked someone why they didn't travel closer to the ocean.
"Where are you from?"
"The north,' she said. "Northwest of Verella."
"Oh. That's inland, isn't it? You don't know much about the sea. Well, if we went closer to the
sea, we'd get down in the worst country you can imagine. Sand—have you ever tried walking through
sand?"
"I walked on a little bit of beach, between Immerdzan and—"
"No, not a beach. Dry sand—loose sand. It's—oh, blast. It's—it's worse than a dry plowed field."
That Paks could understand, and she nodded. He went on. "So think about these wagons—the wheels
sink in, and the mules labor. We labor. And then it's swamp. Sticky, wet, salt marsh. And more
sand. And it's not cool—its beastly hot, and the water is salt, and everything stinks. Ycch."
"And don't forget the pirates," put in another of the guards.
"I was coming to that. Pirates—they call it the robber's coast, you know."
"But how do pirates live there?"
"Some people like eating crabs and clams and things. There's plenty of that shellfish. There are
fresh-water springs here and there, so they say. A few miserable shacky villages. And the pirates
have ships, mid can sail away."
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Despite the ominous name of robber's coast, and the caravan master's precautions—or because of
them—no Bandits showed their faces, and the caravan crawled steadily northward without any
trouble. Paks practiced the crossbow, and impressed the other guards with her fencing. She, in
turn, spent plenty of time spirting out dirt after trying unarmed combat with the others. They had
rricks she had never seen in the Company.
Finally she saw the smudge on the horizon ahead, where the Dwarfhiounts crossed the line of the
Copper Hills. As they came closer, she could see that they ran east of the present coast line, and
saw the angle of shore change from sand and mud to rock again.
"That's the Eastbight," said a merchant, when he saw her looking. "If you sail, you have to get
well out for the best currents."
"And where you don't ever want to go," added one of the guards, "is over there—" He pointed to a
wide bay that lay in the angle. "That's Slaver's Bay. If there's a robber on the coast, there's
ten in Slaver's Bay. It'd take a Company the size of your Duke's to keep you safe in that place."
"I've traded there," objected another merchant. The guard looked at him.
"Well," he said finally, "they must not have liked your face—or your fortune."
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the Eastmarches of Aarenis. Paks began to look arher map again, hoping she could find the trail
that led to the eastern pass of the Dwarfwatch. The other guards kept suggesting that she find a
companion, but she was reluctant to ask anyone; she didn't want everyone on the caravan to know
where she was going. Finally they took it on themselves to look.
"If you want a traveling companion, there's another that's leaving us at the Silver Pass."
"Oh?" Paks kept working at the crossbow mechanism. "Who is it?"
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"That elf." She looked up, startled. She hadn't known there was an elf with the caravan. Jori
grinned wickedly. "Proud as elves are, you won't have to worry about *im bothering you."
Paks ignored that, "What's he leaving for?" Jori's smile faded. "Oh—says he's going to the
Ladysforest You know, the elf kingdom. But he'd be going part of the way with you."
"Huh." Paks set the crossbow down and stood up, stretching. "Where is he?"
"Over there." Jori cocked his chin at the group around the big fire. "Ill introduce you, eh?" "Not
yet. I want to see him first." "In the gray cloak, then," said Jori. He looked to be a
fingersbreadth shorter than she was, Paks thought, and he didn't look like the elves she had seen,
but for something a little alien in the set of his green-gray eyes, and his graceful way of
moving. His voice held some of the elven timbre and music.
"No, I have business in my own kingdom," he was saying to a merchant of spice.
"But don't you fear the high trails alone?" asked another. "Fear?" His voice mocked them and his
hand dropped lightly to the golden hilt of a slender sword. The merchants nodded and murmured.
Paks looked closely at the sword. Very slender—a dueller's blade, she thought. If he had not been
elvish, she would have suspected bravado rather than confidence in that word. He was slender and
moved lightly. She could not tell, for the strange billowing style of his tunic, whether his
shoulders were broad enough for a practiced warrior. His hands were sinewy, but she saw no
training scars or calluses. Was it the firelight, or did elves not callus? One of the merchants
looked up then and noticed her.
"Ho, a guard! It's that tall wench—come to the fire, girl, and be warm." He waved an expansive
arm. Paks grinned and stayed where she was.
" Tis warm enough here, by your leave. But 1 heard talk of the high trails, and came near to
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"What do you want with that? Are you planning to skip the caravan and go north?"
"I'd heard of several trails," said Paks. She didn't want to say exactly how much she knew. "And I
knew someone who'd been over Dwarfwatch. But if there's a shorter way—"
"Oh, shorter," said another merchant. "That's with where you're going in the north—" He looked
closely at Paks, but she didn't say anything. After a moment he shrugged and went on. "If you go
straight across at Silver Pass, you come out between Prealith and Lyonya, but there's a good trail
on the north side that will bring you west again and out near the southeast corner of Tsaia." Paks
nodded. She felt rather than saw the elf watching her. "That trail meets the one crossing from
Dwarfwatch; there's a cairn at the crossing, and a rock shelter. If you're headed for Tsaia, the
distance isn't less, but you can travel fester alone, and the passes themselves are easier than
the Dwarfwatch route. Tliat high one—" he broke off and shook his head.
Paks followed this with interest. "I thank you, sir," she said. "I have no great knowledge of
mountaincraft; I had heard only that the pass was short."
The merchant laughed. "Aye—it's short enough. If you get over it. Ice in midsummer, and
blizzards—dangerous always, and for one alone—well, were I you, I'd take the eastern passes, the
ones we spoke of. You'll be in mountainous country longer, but none of it as high or as cold. Does
the Wagonmaster know you're leaving?"
"Of course, sir!" Paks was angry, but she saw by the reactions of the others that no insult was
meant.
"I would ask him to free you for the eastern pass," said the merchant seriously. "Especially since
you're traveling alone."
Paks nodded and said no more. The merchants returned to their usual topics: what product they had
found in this or that port, and how well they sold; who ruled what cities, and what the recent war
would do to the markets.
"What I worry about," said one enormous man in a heavy yellow cloak, "is what it will do to the
tolls. They say the Guild League spent and spent for this last years
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fighting-—they'll have to get it back somehow, and what easier than by raising the tolls?"
"They need us too much," said another. "And they were founded to give trade a chance. The Guild
League won't rob us, take my word for it."
"If they do, there's the river," suggested another. "Now Alured's settled down to play Duke, he'll
be letting us use the river again—"
"Ha! That old wolf! By Simyits, you can't believe a pirates's changed by gaining a title, can you?
And what nave we ever got, come to that, from the noble lords and their kind? They want our gold,
right enough, when a war's brewing, but after that it's—oh, those merchanters: no honor, no
loyalty—tax 'em down, they're getting too proud." Paks found herself laughing along with the rest,
though she, too, thought of merchanters as having no honor—like the militia of Vonja. It had never
occurred to her before to wonder what the merchanters thought of anyone.
When she came off watch that night, and stopped by the guards' fire for a mug of sib, a cloaked
figure rose across 9ie circle of light to greet her. She caught a flash of green from wide-set
eyes.
"Ah. Paksenarrion, is it not?"
Paks stood stiffly, uncertain. "Yes. And you, sir?"
He bowed, gracefully, but with a curious mocking style. "Macenion, you may call me. An elf, as you
see." Paks nodded, and reached for the pot of sib. "Allow me—" he said softly, and a tin mug rose
from the stack beside the pot, dipped into the liquid, and rose to Paks's hand. She froze, her
breath caught in her throat. "Go on," he said. "Take it." She looked at the mug, then her hand,
then folded her fingers gingerly around the mug's handle. She nearly dropped it when it sank into
her grip. She let her breath out, slowly, and sipped. It tasted like sib—she wondered if he had
put anything into it. She froze again as another mug rose from the pile, filled itself, and sailed
across the fire to Macenion. He plucked it from the air, bowed again to her, and took a sip
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he said lightly, "if I frightened you. I had heard you were a warrior of some experience."
Paks drank her sib, wondering what to make of this. She certainly did not want to admit being
frightened of a little magic, but he had seen her reaction. She set the mug down firmly, when she
finished, and sat down slowly. "I had not seen that before," she said finally.
"Evidently," he replied. He brought his own mug back to the stack and sat near her. "When I
asked," he began again, "everyone assured me that you had an excellent reputation." Paks felt a
tingle of irritation: what gave him the right to ask about her? "You were in Phelan's Company, I
understand." He looked at her and she nodded. "Yes. One of the other guards had heard about you.
Not the usual sort of mercenary, he said." Again Paks felt a flickering anger. "And this evening
past, you said you were going north over the mountains before we reached Valdaire. Alone, I
assumed—?" Paks nodded again. "I might," he said, looking down at his hands clasped in his lap. "I
might be able to help you. I know those trails—difficult for one with no mountain experience, but
safe enough."
"Oh?" Paks reached out and refilled her mug.
"Unless you prefer to travel alone. Few humans do."
Paks shrugged. "I have no one to travel with. I'd appreciate your advice on the trail." She was
remembering Stammers warning about those who might seek to travel
with her.
The elf moved restlessly. "If you are willing, I thought we might travel together—as iar as the
borders of the Ladysforest, at least. I could tell you about the trails from there." He sat back,
and looked at her from under dark brows. "It would be far safer for you, Paksenarrion, and a
convenience to me. While the trails are not as dangerous as these caravan roads, all trails have
their hazards, and it is as well to have someone who can draw steel at your
back."
Paks nodded. "I see. It is well thought of. But—forgive me, sir—you seem to know more of me than I
of you.
He drew himself up. "I'm an elf—surely you know what that is."
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"Yes, but—"
His voice sharpened. "I fear I have no relatives or friends nearby that you can question. You
will have to trust my word, or go alone. I am an elf, a warrior and mage—as you have seen—and I am
returning to my own kingdom of the Ladysforest." "I'm sorry to have angered you, sir, but—" "Have
you been told bad tales of elves? Is that it?" Paks thought back to Bosk. "Yes—some." His voice


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eased. "Well, then, it's not your fault. You must know that elves are an elder race, older for
than men. Some humans are jealous of our knowledge and our skills. They understand little of our
ways, and we cannot explain to those who will not listen. But elves, Paksenarrion, were created by
the Maker himself to be the enemy of all evil beings. It is elves that ores hate most, for they
know their destiny is on the end of our blades: the dark powers of the earth come never near the
elven kingdoms."
Paks said nothing, but wondered. She had heard that the elves were indeed far older than men, and
that elves never died of age alone. But she had not heard-that elves were either good or evil, as
ores and demons were clearly evil, and saints like Gird and Falk were clearly good.
In the next few days, she found out what she could of elves in general and Macenion in particular.
It was not much. But as the higher slopes closed in on the caravan track, she saw how easy it
would be to miss her trail. Traveling with someone who had been there before seemed much wiser.
Paks saw the last of the caravan winding away to the west, higher into Silver Pass, with great
relief. She had not felt at home with the other caravan guards; she had not been able to give them
her trust, as she had her old companions. But now she was free—free to go north toward home, to
adventure as she would. She imagined herself, as she had so often, riding up the track from Three
Firs to her home, with gifts for everyone and money to spend at a fair. She could almost hear her
mother's gasp of delight, the squeals of her younger brothers and sisters.
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She imagined her father struck silent, awed at her wealth and the sword she bore. She turned to
grin at Macenion beside her, whose longsighted gaze lingered on the caravan's dust.
"Well, they're all gone by the smell. Let's get moving."
He turned his gray-green eyes away from the pass and glared at her. "Must you be in such hurry? I
want to be sure no thief drops out to trail us."
Paks loosened her sword in its sheath. "Unlikely now. And with your magic arts, and this sword, we
shouldn't have much to fear. I wanted to find a good camping spot before dark."
"Very well. Come along, then, and keep a good watch. Move as quietly as a human can."
Paks bit back an angry retort. It wouldn't do to quarrel with her only companion for the trip
across the mountains; she had no other guide, and elves made dangerous enemies. She turned to the
sturdy pack pony she'd bought from the Wagonmaster and checked the pack a last time, then stroked
Star's neck, and started up the narrow trail that forked away from the caravan route. She hoped
Macenion would mellow as they traveled. So far he bad been scornful, sarcastic, and critical. It
seemed obvious that he knew a great deal about the mountains and the various trails across them,
but he made his superior knowledge as painful as possible for anyone else. Now he walked ahead,
leading his elven-bred horse whose narrow arched neck expressed disdain for the pack on its back.
But at the campfire that night, Macenion seemed to have walked out part of his bad temper, and was
once again the charming elf she had first met. He lit the fire with one spell, and seasoned their
plain boiled porridge with another. He set a spell to keep the horse and pony from wandering. Paks
wanted to ask if he could not set one to guard the camp, so that they could both sleep through the
night, but thought better of it, and offered to take the first watch instead.
Though it had been hot that afternoon, the night was cold, with the feeling of great spaces in
movement that comes only on the flanks of mountains. Nothing threat-
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ened them that Paks could see or hear, but twice the hair on her arms and neck stood straight, and
fear caught the breath in her throat. Macenion, when she woke him at the change of watch, simply
laughed lightly. "Wild lands care not for humans, Paksenarrion—neither to hunt nor hide. That is
what you feel, that indifference." She surprised herself by sleeping easily and at once.
For two days they climbed between the flanks of the mountain. Midway of the second, they were high
enough to see once more die caravan route below and behind them, and the twist where it crossed
the spine of the Copper Hills. Paks could barely discern the pale scar of the route itself, but
Macenion declared that he could see another caravan moving on it, this time from west to east.
Paks squinted across the leagues of sunlit air, wavering in light and wind, and grunted. She could
not see any movement at all, and the brilliant light hurt her eyes. She turned to look up their
trail. It crawled over a hump of grass-grown rock—what she would have called a mountain, if the
higher slopes had not been there—and disappeared. In a few moments, Macenion too turned to the
trail.
To her surprise, the other side of the hump was forested; all that afternoon they climbed through
thick pine-woods smelling of resin and bark. Paks added dry branches to Star's pack. They camped
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could see the land fall steeply into the eastern ocean. Macenion gazed at it a long time.
"What do you see?" Paks finally asked, but he shook his head and did not answer. She went back to
stirring their porridge. Later that night he began to talk of the elves and their ways—the
language and history—but most of it meant little to Paks. She thought he seemed pleased that she
knew so little.
"My name's elven," she said proudly, when Macenion seemed to be running down. "I know that much:
Paksenarrion means tower of the mountains."
"And I suppose you think you were named that for your size, eh?" Macenion sneered. "Don't be
foolish; it's not elven at all."
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"It is, too!" Paks stiffened angrily. She had always been as proud of her name as its meaning.
"Nonsense! It's from old Aare, not from elves. Pakse-enerion, royal tower, or royal treasure,
since they used towers for their treasuries."
"That's the same—" Paks had not clearly heard the difference in sounds.
"No. Look. The elven is—" Macenion began scratching hnes in die dust. "It has another sign, one
that you don't use. Almost, but not quite, the same as your 'ks sound— and the first part means
peak or high place. The elven word enarrion means mountain; the gnomes corrupted it to enarn, and
the dwarves to enarsk, which is why these mountains are the dwarfenarsk—or in their tongue, the
hakkenarsk. If your name were really elven, it would mean peak or high place in the mountains. But
it doesn't. It's human, Aaren, and it means royal treasure."
Paks frowned. "But I was always told—"
"I don't care what you were told by some ignorant old crone, Paksenarrion, neither you nor your
name is elven, and that's all." Macenion smirked at her, then pointedly lifted the kettle without
touching it and poured himself another mug of sib.
Paks glared at him, furious again. "My grandmother was not an ignorant old crone!"
"Orphin, grant me patience!" Macenion's voice was almost as sharp as hers. 'Do you really think,
Paks, that you or your grandmother—however worthy a matron she may have been—know as much about
the elven language as an elf does? Be reasonable."
Paks subsided, still angry. Put that way she could find no answer, but she didn't have to like it.
Relations were still strained the next day when they came to the first fork of the trail. Macenion
slowed to a halt. Paks was tempted to ask him sharply if he knew where he was going, but a quick
look at the wilderness around her kept her quiet. Whether he knew or not, she certainly didn't.
Macenion turned to look at her. "I think we'll go this way," he said, gesturing.
"Think?" Paks could not resist that much.
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His face darkened. "I have my reasons, Paksenarrion. Either path will get us where we wish to go;
this one might provide other benefits."
"Such as?"
"Oh—" He seemed unwilling to answer directly. "There are ruins on some of the trails around here.
We might find treasure— "
"Or trouble," said Paks.
His eyebrows went up. "I thought you claimed great skill with that sword."
"Skill, yes. I don't go looking for trouble." But as she spoke, she felt a tingle of anticipation.
Trouble she didn't want, but adventure was something else. Macenion must have seen this in her
face, for he grinned.
"After these peaceful days, I daresay you wouldn't mind a little excitement. I don't expect any,
to be sure, but unless you're hiding a fortune in that pack, you wouldn't mind a few gold coins or
extra weapons any more than I would."
"Honestly—no, I wouldn't." Paks found herself smiling. Ruins in the wilderness, and stray
treasure, were just the sort of things she'd dreamed of as a girl.
Macenion's chosen path led them back west, by winding ways, and finally through a narrow gap into
a rising valley, steep-sided, where the trail led between many tall gray stones. These stood about
like tall soldiers on guard.
"What are those?" asked Paksenarrion, as they began to near the first ranks of them. The stones
gave her art odd feeling, as if they were alive.
"Wardstones," said Macenion. "Haven't you ever seen wardstones before?"
Paks gave him a sharp look. "No. I wouldn't have asked, if I had." She didn't want to ask, now,
what wardstones warded, or whom. But Macenion went on without her question.
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Paks clamped her lips on the questions that filled her mind. How did they guard? And what?
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"It's the patterns they make," Macenion went on. "Patterns have power; even you should know that—"
He looked at her, and Paks nodded. "If intruders come, then, it will trouble the pattern, and that
troubling can be sensed by those who set the stones."
"Are we intruders?" asked Paks.
Macenion laughed, a little too loudly. "Oh my, no. These are old, Paksenarrion, very old. Whatever
set them is long gone from here."
"But are they still in those—those patterns you spoke of?" Paks felt something, an itch along her
bones.
Macenion looked around. "Yes, but it doesn't matter."
"Why not?" asked Paks stubbornly. "If it's the patterns that have the power, and they're still in
the patterns, then—"
"Really, Paksenarrion," said Macenion loftily. "You must realize that I haven't time to explain
everything to you. But I do know more about this sort of thing than any human, let alone a very
young soldier. You must simply take my word for it that we are in no danger from these stones. The
power is long past. And even if it weren't—" he fixed her with a glance from his brilliant eyes,
then tapped his wallet suggestively. "I have spells here to protect us from such as these."
Paks found nothing to say to this. She could not tell whether Macenion really knew about such
magic, or whether it was all idle boasting, but her bones tingled as they passed between the
wardstones, rank after rank. Did Macenion not feel it because of his greater powers? Or perhaps
because of his duller perceptions? She did not care to find out. For the next glass, as they
climbed between the stones, she thought as little as possible, and resisted the temptation to draw
her sword.
They were nearly free of the stone ranks when Paks heard a sharp cry from behind. Before she
thought, she whirled, snatching her sword free of the scabbard. Macenion was down, sprawled on the
rocky trail, his face contorted with pain. When he saw her standing with naked sword in hand, he
gave another cry.
"No! No weapons!" He was pale as milk, now. Paks felt,
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rather than heard, a resonant thrum from around them. She spared a quick look around the valley,
and saw nothing but the shimmer of the sun on many stones. She moved lightly toward Macenion.
"Don't worry," she said, grinning at him. "It's not drawn for you. What happened?"
"Sheathe it," he said. "Hurry!"
Paks was in no mood to listen to him. She felt much better with her sword in hand. "Why?" she
asked. "Here, let me help you up." But Macenion had scrambled away from her, and now staggered to
his feet, breathing hard. She noticed that he putlirtle weight on his left foot. "Are you hurt?"
"Paksenarrion, listen to me. Sheathe that sword. At once." He was staring behind her, over her
shoulder.
"Nonsense," said Paks briskly. "It's you that's being silly now." She still felt a weight of
menace, but it was bearable as long as she had her weapons ready. "Come—let's be going. Or shall I
bring Star, and let you ride?"
"We must—hurry, Paksenarrion. Maybe there will be time—" He lurched toward her, and she offered
her left arm. He flinched from it, and started to circle her. Paks turned, scanning the valley
again. Still nothing. Sun glittered off the wardstones, seemed to shimmer as thick as mist between
them. She shook her head to clear her vision. Macenion was already a few yards ahead of her.
"Wait, now—" she called. "Let me lead, where I can guard you." But at her call Macenion stumbled
on even fester. He reached the horses, and clung to Windfoot's saddle as he clapped Star on the
rump. Paks lengthened her stride, angry now, and muttering curses at cowardly elves. The quality
of light altered, seeming to match her mood, ripping across the stones. Paks was too angry to be
frightened, but she moved fester. For an instant Macenion turned a white face back towards her;
she saw his eyes widen. Then he screamed and flailed forward. Paks did not look back; she broke
into a run as Macenion and the animals took off up the trail. She felt a building menace behind
her, rising swiftly to a peak that demanded action. As they passed the last pair of stones, the
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to fail for an instant, as if someone had filled the valley with thick blue smoke. Then a blaze of
white light, brighter than sunlight, flashed over them. Paks saw her shadow, black as night,
thrown far ahead on the trail. A powerful blow in the back sent her sprawling face-down on the
trail; she had no time to see what had happened to Macenion or the horses. Choking dust rose in
clouds, and heavy thunder rumbled through her body. Then it was gone, and silence returned. From
very far away, Paks heard the scream of a hawk.
When Paks caught her breath and managed to rise to her feet, she saw nothing behind or before her
on the trail. Afternoon shadows had begun to strip the narrow valley; the trail itself was
latticed with shadows from the stones. Ahead, upslope, the trail was scuffed and torn where
Macenion and the horses had fled. Paks scowled at the place the trail disappeared behind a fold of
mountain. Alone, in unknown wilderness, without supplies or her pony. . . . She looked back at the
valley and shook her head. She knew without thinking about it that she had no escape that way. And
perhaps she could catch up to Macenion—he had been limping.
In fact, by the time she reached the turn that left the valley safely behind, she could hear him,
coaxing the horses to come. When she trudged around the last rocks, she saw him, limping heavily
and trying to grab Windfoot's rein. The horse edged sideways, nervous, keeping just out of reach.
Paks eyed the situation for a moment before speaking.
"Would you like some help, Macenion?"
He whipped around, nearly falling, his mouth open. Then he glared at her. "You fool!" he said.
Paks had not expected that; she felt her ears burning. He went on. "What did I tell you—and you
had to keep waving that sword!"
"You told me there wasn't any danger," snapped Paks,
farious.
"There wasn't, until you drew your sword," he said. "If you had only—"
"What did you think I'd do, when you let out a yell?"

"You?" He sniffed, twitching his cape on his shoulders. "I should have realized the first thing a
fighter would do would be draw steel—"
"Of course," said Paks*. "You hadn't said a word about not drawing, either."
"I didn't think it was necessary," muttered Macenion. "I never dreamed you would, for no reason
like that—" Paks snorted, and he went on hurriedly. "If we went through quietly, nothing would
happen—"
"You told me nothing could happen." Paks felt the length of her blade, lightly, to see that it was
unharmed, then slid it into the scabbard. "If you'd warned me, I wouldn't have drawn. I don't like
liars, Macenion." She looked hard at him. "Or cowards. Did you even look to see if I was still
alive?"
"I'm no liar. I just didn't think you needed to know." He looked aside a moment. "And I was coming
back as soon as I caught Windfoot or Star, to find you—or bury you."
Paks was not at all sure she believed that. "Thanks," she said drily. "Why did you choose this
path—the real reason, this time."
"I told you: it's shorter. And there are ruins—"
"And?"
"And I'd heard of this place."
Paks snorted again. "I'll warrant you had. So you wandered in to see what it looked like, eh?"
"I knew what it looked like." He glared at her. "Don't look at me like that, human. You nearly got
us both killed—"
"Because you didn't tell me the truth."
"Because all you thought of was fighting—weapons. I knew what it looked like because I'd spoken to
someone who was here—a cousin of mine. She said it was quite safe for peaceful folk." He
emphasized peaceful. Paks had nothing more to say for the moment. She looked at Windfoot, and
spotted Star behind a screen of trees. She clucked softly, holding out her hand. Windfoot looked
from her to Macenion, and took a few steps back down the trail. Paks stepped into the middle of
it, and clucked again. Windfoot's
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ears came up; the horse looked at her. Paks walked forward, and took the dangling rein in her
hand. The other rein was broken near the bit ring. Macenion was staring at her strangely; she
handed him the rein without comment, and called Star. The pony nickered, pushing through the
undergrowth. Once out of the trees, she came to Paks at once, pushing her head into Paks's chest.
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soft anyway. "Here." The pony wrapped her lips around the apple and munched, dribbling pungent
bits of apple from her mouth. Windfoot whuffled, watching Star, and Paks dug out another apple for
the horse. "How's your foot?" she asked Macenion, who had watched this silently. "I saw you were
limping."
"Not bad," he said. "I can walk." Paks started to say he could run, but decided not to. She turned
back to Star, checking her legs and hooves for injuries and the packsad-dle for balance.
Everything seemed to be in place. Macenion, meanwhile, mended the broken rein. They traveled until
nearly dark, hardly speaking.
Chapter Three
More than ever Paks realized how she had depended on the plain honesty of her friends in the
Duke's Company. Perhaps they were not magicians or elves with mysterious powers—but they did not
pretend to powers they did not have. What they promised, they performed. And in a fight of any
kind, they would never leave her behind, possioly injured or dead. Now, wandering in the mountain
wilderness with Macenion for a guide, she wondered if he even knew where they were. He had said
nothing more about the wardstones—nor had she. He seemed as confident as ever. But she felt almost
as trapped as if she were in a dungeon.
Their way—or the way Macenion led them—continued upward, day by day. The distant sea was hidden
behind the shoulders of mountains now. Paks had asked if that meant they were across the pass, but
Macenion had laughed. He tried to show her, on the map, how far they had come. But to Paks, the
intricate folds of the mountains and the flat map had little to do with each other. Most of the
time the trail ran through open forest, broken with small meadows. Paks thought it might be good
sheep country. Macenion said no one farmed so far away from any market.
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Wild animals had been scarce. Macenion told her of the wild sheep, the black-fleeced korylin, that
spent the summers just above timber-line. He had pointed out an occasional red deer in the trees,
but Paks lacked the experience to spot them. They had seen plenty of rock-rabbits and other small
furry beasts, but nothing dangerous. Nor did Macenion seem especially worried. Wolves, he'd said,
were scarce in this region. The wild cats were too small to attack them, at least until they were
high above timberline. If they saw a snowcat, he said—but Paks had never heard of snowcats.
"I'm not surprised," said Macenion, with his usual tone of superiority. "They are large—very
large. I suppose you've seen the short-tailed forest cats?" Paks had not, but hated to admit it.
"Humph. Well, snowcats are about three times that size, with long tails. They're called snowcats
because they live high in the mountains, among the icepacks and snow; they're white and gray."
"What do they live on, up there?"
Macenion frowned. Paks saw his shoulders twitch. Finally he answered. "Souls," he said.
"Souls?"
"And anything else they can find, of course. Wild sheep, for meat. But—I don't think well have
much trouble, at this season, Paksenarrion. The pass should not be snowed in. But if we do see
one, remember that they're the most dangerous wild creature in the mountains. I don't except men—a
snowcat is more dangerous than a band of brigands."
"But how? Are they—"
"I'm telling you. The snowcat is a magical beast, like the dragon and the eryx. It lives on both
sides of the world, and feeds on both sides. For meat it eats wild sheep, or horses, or men. For
delight it eats souls, particularly elven and human, though I understand it takes dwarven souls
often enough that the dwarves fear it."
"I thought elves didn't have souls—"
Macenion suddenly looked embarrassed. "I didn't know you knew so much about elves."
"I don't, but that's what I heard—they don't have souls because they don't need them—they live
forever anyway."
"TTiat's not the reason—but in feet, you're right. Elves don't have souls—not full-blooded elves.
But—' he gave her a rueful smile. "I don't like to admit it, Paks, but in feet I am not pure
elven."
"But you said—"
"Well, I'm more elven than human—I do take after my ;!         elven ancestors much more. You
yourself wouldn't call me human—"
Paks had to agree with that, but she still felt affronted. "Well, if you're not elven—"
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mastery of human wizardry as well as elven magic." He drew himself up, and took on the expression
she found most annoying.
"Oh,' Paks left this topic, and returned to the other. ,.         "But the snowcat—can't we fight
it off? We have a bow, and—"
"No. It is truly magical, Paksenarrion. It can spell your soul out of you before you could strike
a blow. I am a mage and part elf; it will desire mine even more."
Paks thought about it. It seemed to her that this meant nothing more than death. She started to
ask Macenion, and he turned, startled.
"No! By the First Tree, you humans know nothing, even of your own conditionl It is not die same
thing as being killed. When you die, your soul goes—well, I don't know your background, and I'd
hate to upset your beliefs—" Paks glared at him, and he went on. "You have a soul, and it goes
somewhere—depending on how you've lived. Is that plain enough? But if a snowcat eats your soul, it
never gets where it should go. It's trapped there, in the snowcat, forever."
"Oh. But then—what does it want with a soul?"
"Paksenarrion, it's magical. It does magic with souls. I don't know how it started, or why; I only
know it does. Somehow the souls it eats feed its magic powers. If we see a snowcat, well flee at
once—try to outrun it. Whatever you do, don't look into its eyes." He walked on quietly some
hundred paces. Then: "Paksenarrion, how did you make Windfoot come to you?"
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She had not thought about his surprise since that day. "I don't know. I suppose—he knows me now.
He knows I have apples. Horses have always liked me."
Macenion shook his head. "No. It must be something more. He's elfbred; our horses wouldn't go to
humans unless—do you have any kind of magical tools? A—a bracelet, or ring, or—"
Paks thought of Canna's medallion; surely that wouldn't have moved an elfbred horse. "No," she
said. "Not that I know of."
"Mmph. Would you mind if I checked that?"
"What?"
"I could—urn—look for it."
"For what?"
Macenion turned on her, eyes blazing. "For whatever you used, human, to control my horse!">(
"But I didn't! I don't have anything—"
"You must. Windfoot would never come to a human—"
"Macenion, any horse will come to anyone kind. Look at Star— "
"Star is a—a miserable, shaggy-coated, cow-hocked excuse of a pack pony."
Paks felt the blood rush to her face. "Star is beautiful! She's—"
Macenion sneered. "You! What do you know about—"
"Windfoot came to me. I must know something." Paks realized that her hand had found her sword-
hilt. She saw Macenion glance at it. He sighed, and looked patient.
"Paksenarrion, I'm sorry I abused Star. But she is a pony, and human-bred; she is not an elfbred
horse. There's a difference. Just look at Windfoot." They both looked. Windfoot cocked an ear back
and whuffled, whether at Star or Paks was uncertain. Paks could not sustain her anger, with
Windfoot's elegant form before her. Macenion seemed to recognize the moment her anger foiled,
because he went on. "If you're carrying a magical item, without knowing it perhaps, it could be
dangerous—or very helpful. Magical items in the hands of the unskilled—"
Paks bristled again. "I'm not giving you anything."
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exactly that. "If you have such an item, I can show you how to use it. Think, Paksenarrion.
Perhaps it's something that would call danger to us—wolves, say—or—"
"Ail right." Paks was tired of the argument. "All right; look for it. But, Macenion, what I have
is mine; I'm not giving it up. If it calls danger, well just fight the danger."
"I understand." He looked pleased. "We can camp here—I know it's early, but 111 need time. And the
horses could use the rest. They can graze in this meadow."
Shortly they had the camp set up, and both animals had been watered and fed. Macenion withdrew to
one sio!e of the fire, and brought out his pouch. Paks watched with interest as he fished inside
it. He looked up at her and glared.
"Don't watch."
"Why not? I've never seen a mage—"
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convince you that magic is dangerous?" Paks did not move. She was tired of being sneered at.
Macenion muttered in what she supposed was elven, and turned his back. She thought of circling die
fire to see what he was doing, but decided against it. Instead she lay back, staring up at the
afternoon sky bright overhead. So far they had had good travel weather; she hoped it would
continue. She shifted her hips off a sharp fragment of rock and let her eyes sag shut. She could
hear the horses tearing grass nearby; to her amusement, she could distinguish Star and Windfoot by
sound alone. Star took three or four quick bites of grass, followed by prolonged chewing; Windfoot
chewed each bite separately. She opened her eyes to check on them and glanced at Macenion. His
back still faced her. She closed her eyes again and dozed off.
"I found it." Paks opened her eyes to see Macenion's excited face. She rubbed her face and sat up.
"You found what?"
"The magic ring you're wearing." Macenion sounded as smug as he looked.
"What? I don't have any magic ring!"
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"You certainly do. That one." He pointed to the intricate twist of gold wires that Duke Phelan had
given her in Dwarfwatch.
"That's not magic," said Paks, but with less assurance. The Duke had said nothing about magic, and
surely he would have known.
"It is. Its power is over animals; that's why you could use it on Windfoot."
"I didn't use it on Windfoot. I just called him and held out my hand ..."
"That's all it would take. You touched it—perhaps accidentally, since you say you didn't know
about it."
"I didn't—and I don't believe it." But Paks was already half convinced.
"Where did you get it?"
"It was—my commander gave it to me, after a battle."
"As a reward?"
"Yes."
"Was it part of the loot from Siniava's army?"
"Yes."
"Well, then. He and his captains used magic devices often, so I heard. Perhaps your commander
didn't know. It is magic and it is how you controlled Windfoot. You can prove it—call him now,
with the ring. Don't say anything, or move, but touch the ring and think that you want him to
come."
Paks looked across the meadow to see Windfoot and Star grazing side by side. She clenched her hand
around the ring, and thought of Windfoot. She didn't like the idea that a ring—a ring she had
received from the Duke— could have such power. She had always liked horses; horses had always
liked her. She thought of Windfoot: his speed, his elegance. A quick thudding of hooves made her
look up. Windfoot came at a long swinging trot, breaking to a canter. Star followed, her shorter
stride syncopating the beats. Windfoot stopped a few feet away, and came forward, ears pricked.
"All right," said Paks quietly, holding up her hand for Windfoot to sniff. Star pushed in and
shoved her head in Windfoot's way. "But I didn't call Star—"
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"No, she came for company, 1 think. But that is definitely a magic ring, with the power to summon
animals. See if you can make Windfoot go away."
Paks wrinkled her brow. It did not seem fair to control Windfoot this way. She flipped her hand,
and the horse threw up his head and backed.
"Not that way," said Macenion, annoyed.
"Yes." Paks pushed Star's head away. "Go on, horses! Go eat your own dinners." She stood up. "1
believe you; it's magic. But I don't like the idea."
"You'd rather have the power in yourself?"
"Yes. No—I don't know. It just doesn't feel right, to be able to call and send them like that."
"Humans!" snorted the elf. Paks glared at him, and he modified it. "Non-magicians don't understand
magicians, that's all. Why involve right and wrong in it? The ring is magic, it's useful magic,
and you should use it."
Paks had had no idea what a mountain pass would be like. Macenion told her that the pass at
Valdaire wasn't really a mountain pass at all. Now, as they climbed past the forested slopes to
open turf and broken rock, she wondered how, in this jumble of stone, anyone could find the way.
It was a gray morning, and she felt the cold even through her travel cloak. Macenion pointed out
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"But it's just another pile of rock."
"No, it's not just a pile of rock. It's a particular pile of rock. Look—do you see anything else
like that?"
Paks looked. Rocks everywhere, but nothing that tall and narrow. "No."
"Now, look here." He pointed to a smaller pile on one side. "This is the direction."
"What is?"
"This—Paksenarrion, pay attention. The big pile tells you that this is the trail, and the little
pile tells you which way is downhill."
"But are we across the pass? Aren't we going uphill?" Then she realized the simple answer, and
felt her face burning. "I see," she said quickly, before Macenion could tell her. "I know. We go
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"Yes. And we know it's the right trail because of the runes."
"Runes?"
"Look at this." He lifted the top rock of the small pile and turned it over. On the under fece
were angular marks gouged in the rock. "That's the rune for silver, which means that this is the
way to Silver Pass."
"Oh." Paks looked around again. "But that only says what's downhill. Can we tell where this will
come out?"
"Easily." Macenion's smile was as smug as ever. He turned over the top rock of the big pile and
showed her another rune. "This means gnomes, and means that this trail ends at the rock shelter on
the border of Gnarrinrulk, die gnome kingdom south of Tsaia."
"I didn't know there was one."
"Gods, yes. And you don't want to wander in there without leave." Macenion replaced the stones
carefully. "It's simple, really. The big pile points uphill and has the uphill trailend rune, and
the small one points downhill and has the downhill trailend rune. Can you remember that?"
"Yes," said Paks shortly.
"Good. Let's hurry. I don't like the smell of this weather." Macenion looked at die sky above the
peaks, which was, as they had often seen from below, thickened into cloud. As if his words had
been a signal, a cold rain began to leak down, thin at first. They started upward.
As they climbed, forty paces at a time, Paks watched the stones near the trail darken in the rain.
Instead of die rustle of rain on leaves, the water tinkled, as if a thousand thousand tiny bells
rang in the stillness. The slopes around them closed in, and the trail became steeper. It was more
like a stairway than a trail. When they stopped for rest, Paks looked up. The clouds seemed lower.
She looked back down the trail. The cairn had disappeared into a hollow behind and below them. She
was surprised at how fer they had climbed.
Macenion shivered beside her. "It's getting colder—we'd better keep climbing. There's no good
place to stop until we're over the top."
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"You mean, this is the actual pass?"
"Yes — didn't you know? What I'm afraid of is snow — it can snow all year up here. We've been
lucky with weather so far, but this rain — and if it gets colder — '
"What if it does?"
"Then we keep going. There are some undercut ledges near the top, but they aren't good shelter. We
won't stop if we can possibly make it through."
But as mountain weather changes from minute to minute, so it thickened around them. Rain changed
to sleet which coated their cloaks and the horses' packs, and made the trail treacherous. Paks did
not even suggest stopping to eat. She fumbled a strip of meat from under her cloak and chewed it
as they climbed. Wind began to funnel the sleet, now mixed with snow, down the trail. Macenion
showed Paks how to wrap a cloth around her face to keep it from freezing.
All too soon the rocky slopes around them whitened as snow flurried past. They climbed higher,
leaving clear tracks that filled quickly behind them. Rocks disappeared under the snow. Macenion
had to shout in Paks's ear that he thought the snow had been falling at this height for more than
a day. As they came around a shoulder of mountain on their right, the pitch flattened. Paks
expected a change to a downhill slope, but instead met a blast of wind that nearly took her off
her feet. Macenion, ahead of her, disappeared in a white fog of snow. She stumbled, and forcea her
way on, dragging Star behind her.
Paks finally found Macenion by stumbling into him. Windfoot was sideways to the wind, trying to
turn. Macenion grabbed her arm and yelled into her ear.
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"Back!" He pushed her a little, and Paks turned carefully, bracing against the wind. Star had
already turned, and Paks followed her back the way they had come. At least, she hoped it was the
way, for nothing remained of their tracks. With the wind at her back, shoving her along like a
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smudge to one side caught her eye; before she could ask, Macenion's arm on her shoulder pushed her
that direction. "It's one of those overhangs," he yelled in her ear.
Star and Windfoot shouldered their way to the bade of the shelter and stood, heads down and
together, their breath making a cloud in the gloom. Paks swiped the snow off Star's pack and rump,
and wiped the pony's face clear. Ice furred her eyelashes and muzzle. Both animals were quivering
with cold and exhaustion. Macenion, meanwhile, was doing what he could for Windfoot. When he had
the saddle off, he turned to Paks.
"We need to block the ends of this completely," he said. "Snowdrift will help, but we'll have to
work hard before
we dare rest."
Paks groaned inwardly; she wanted to fell on the ground and sleep. She looked where he pointed.
Snow blocked most of the uphill end of the overhang, but some blew in above the drift. Wind roared
through the gap, swinging the horses' tails wildly and freezing their sweat.
"Well use the cover off your pack," Macenion went on. "Anchor it with rocks—" He was picking rocks
off the floor of the shelter as he spoke. "If we re lucky, we won't have to compress the snow
much—that's the hardest work." Paks began wrestling the pack off Star, and tried to unwrap the
cover. The knots were frozen, and the rope stiff as iron, but she dared not cut it. She took off
her gloves to 6ght with it, and muttered a curse as the rope scraped her fingers raw.
"Here—" said Macenion suddenly. "Let me help with that. Get your gloves on; you don't need frozen
hands." Paks sat back. Macenion glared at her and she backed farther away. He moved his body
between her and the pack, and said a few words she did not know. When he stepped back, the knots
were untied, and the ropes were supple again. Paks shook out the pack cover, and Macenion reached
for it.
By the time Macenion was satisfied that their campsite was safe, Paks felt she could not move
another inch. They had managed to secure the pack cover in the upwind gap. Snow drifted against it
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said; Paks had not gone back out in the wind to see— covered it several feet deep. The other end
of the shelter was still open; they had nothing large or strong enough to block it. Macenion
wanted to form blocks of snow, but finally gave up when Paks simply stared at him, exhausted. He
managed to light a small fire of the wood they had packed along, despite the wind that still
gusted in and out of their overhang. Paks helped steady their smallest pot above it. She thought
longingly of hot food, hot mugs of sib. But the snow that finally melted and boiled was hardly hot
enough to warm her.
"It's the cold demons," explained Macenion. "They're jealous of their territory; they hate the
warm-bloods who come up from the plains. So they steal the heat from fire, up on these heights."
Paks drank the lukewarm sib, and decided she might never be warm again. Marching in a cold rain
now seemed like a pleasant excursion. Only a few feet away, the wind whirled veils of snow past
their shelter. She huddled in every scrap of clothing and blanket she could find. But as the
afternoon wore away, she regained both strength and warmth. The horses, too, seemed to recover.
Paks gave them some of the warm water, and dampened Star's grain. Macenion claimed that elven
horses didn't need such coddling, but Paks noticed that Windfoot tried to push Star away from
hers. She poured warm water on the pile of grain Windfoot had been ignoring, and the horse ate
eagerly. Macenion glared, but said nothing more. He ventured outside several times, trying to
judge the weather. As the light faded, he reported that both snow and wind were lessening.
"We might get through tomorrow, if the drifts downhill on the other side aren't too bad. It'd be
easier without the beasts—"
"You wouldn't leave them!" said Paks, horrified.
"No, of course not. We need the supplies. But we can walk over drifts they'll stick in. Anyway,
get what sleep you can. If we can get out tomorrow, it will be early—as soon as it's light. Ill
watch tonight—I'm more used to the cold and the height."
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waking as Macenion replenished the fire. She squinted around the shelter. The horses stood head-to-
tail near the rock wall; she could see the firelight reflecting from Star's eyes. Hardly man-high,
the ledge of rock overhanging them glittered as if it were fall of tiny stars. Paks blinked
several times, and decided the rock itself had shiny fragments to catch the light. Firelight
turned the snowdrifts into glittering gold and orange—pretty, she thought, when you didn't have to
be out in it. She snuggled deeper into her blankets, took a long breath, and slid back into sleep.
Macenion's choked cry brought her hallway out of her blankets before her eyes were open. She had
her sword in hand. He stood rigid beside the fire, mouth open. Paks tried to see beyond him, to
the outside. Nothing but a wavering dark. She glanced back at the horses. Both of them were alert,
heads high, nostrils flared. Star's ears were back; Windfbot's tail was clamped tight. Paks began
to untangle herself from the blankets as unobtrusively as possible: she felt they were both easy
targets, in the firelight
It was then she saw the pale blue glow of eyes.
"Paksenarrion!" Macenion's whisper was hoarse and
desperate.
"I'm awake," she said softly. What, she wondered, had eyes like that? Farther apart than human
eyes, that was all she could tell. Big eyes.
"Paks, it's a—" he choked, and then recovered. "It's a snowcat,"
"Holy Gird," said Paks without thinking. When she realized what she had said, she wished she'd
kept quiet.
"What?" asked Macenion.
Paks felt herself blushing in the dark. "Nothing," she said. "Now what?"
"Can't you see it?"
"No—nothing but eyes."
"I don't know what we can—" Macenion's voice suddenly sharpened. "Paks! Your ring!" For a moment
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had no idea what he meant. Macenion spared a glance at her, furious.
"Your ring, human! Your special ring," he went on. Paks nodded, then, stripped off her glove to
touch it.
"But are you sure it will work? Maybe the thing—the snowcat—will just go away if we let it alone."
As if in answer to that suggestion, the glowing eyes moved closer. Now Paks could see a suggestion
of the body's outline, a long, powerful catlike form, crouching as if to spring.
"You fool!" cried Macenion. "It knows we're here! It's about to jump. Stop it! Hold it!"
Paks thought she could see a twitch in that long tail, like the twitch she had seen in the mousers
at the barn, the last instant before they sprang on a rat. She pressed her thumb hard on the ring
and thought "Hold still, cat." She wondered if those words would work.
"Are you?" asked Macenion hoarsely.
"Yes," said Paks. "How long does it—"
"As long as you concentrate. Keep holding it."
Paks tried to concentrate. She wished she could see the snowcat better. Macenion turned to rummage
among his things. She was afraid to look sideways at him, lest the cat jump. She forced her eyes
back to the shadowy cat-form. Suddenly light flared around her, and she jumped.
"Don't look," said Macenion harshly. The light was clear and white, brilliant enough to show true
colors. Now she could see the snowcat clearly. Its body was man-long; it would stand almost waist-
high on her at the shoulder. As Macenion had said, its fur was white and blue-gray, patterned with
dapples that reminded Paks of snowflakes enlarged. The ears bore long tufts of white, and it had a
white beard and short ruff. The eyes, despite the blue glow they'd shown before, were amber in
Macenion's spell-light.
"Macenion, it's beautiful. It's the most beautiful—"
"It's spelling you," he said firmly. "It seems beautiful because it's trying to use magic on you."
"But it can't be. It's—" she stopped as Macenion came
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forward into her field of view. "Macenion, what are you doing?"
"Don't be silly, Paks. I'm going to kill it."
"Kill it? But it's helpless—it can't move while I—"
"That's right. Just keep holding it still. It's the only way I have a chance—"
"But that's not (air—it's helpless—" Paks let her concentration waver, and at once the snowcat
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again by this evidence of her power and its limitations, and the cat managed to rear, swiping at
Macenion's head with one massive paw. He ducked, and Paks forced the cat to stillness again.
"Damn you, human! Hold that beast, or we're both dead. Worse than dead—you remember what I told
you!" Macenion glared back at her, then turned, raising his sword.
Paks felt a wave of fear and pain sweep through her mind. It was wrong, terribly wrong—but what
else could she do? "Macenioo—" she tried again, staring into the snowcat's huge amber eyes. "It's
not right—"
"It's not right for us to end up soul-bound to a snowcat, no," he said roughly. "It's easy enough,
though, if you forget yourself one more time. If that's what you want, go ahead."
Paks looked down, biting her lip. She could not watch, and then she thought she must. The snow cat
made no resistance—could make no resistance—but it could cry out, in fary and pain, and so it did.
That wailing cry, ending in an almost birdlike whistle, brought tears to her eyes. She blinked
them back. He came back to the fire almost jauntily.
"A snowcat. That's quite a kill, even if you don't think it was fair. Ill just take the pelt
before it freezes—"
"No." Paks glared at him.
"What d'you mean, no? Snowcat pelts are nearly priceless, it's so rare to take one—you noticed how
careful I was not to damage it when I killed—"
Paks erupted in fury. "By the gods, Macenion, I wonder if you ever tell the truth! You dare pride
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a helpless animal? It might as well have been a sheep trussed up, for all the courage and skill it
took—" "I didn t notice you out there—" "You told me to stay here—"
"I told you to hold it still. You could have helped me, if you were able to hold more than one
thought in mind at a time. As it was you nearly killed me—"
"I!" Paks flourished her own sword. She noticed with some satisfaction that Macenion backed up a
step. "I but tried to save your honor and mine—not that I would have thought an elf would care so
little for it—"
"You know nothing about elven honor, human!" Macenion seemed to swell with rage. "You are my
travel companion, oath-bound to defend me—as I defended you just now— against all dangers. As for
the snowcat having no defense, it was trying to spell you the entire time."
Paks felt her anger leak away into the cold. Had she been half-spelled? Had she nearly failed her
oath because of it? Macenion took quick advantage of her hesitation. "I don't blame you," he said
more quietly. "You are human, unused to magicks of any kind, and this may be the first magical
beast you've seen." She nodded unwillingly. "It would have killed all of us, and feasted many days
while our souls were enslaved to it, if we had not managed to kill it. Or send it away." He cocked
his head and gave her a sly grin. "If you'd been quick enough thinking, o lover of animals, you
might simply have sent it away." "Sent it—it would have gone?"
"Oh, yes. I'm surprised it didn't occur to you, Paksenarrion. Just as you sent Windfoot—oh, that's
right. You didn't. But you could have."
"Then you didn't have to kill it," Paks cried, angry again. "You told me—"
"I told you what seemed best to me. Kill it and it's gone forever. Send it away and it might come
back—though you could have laid a compulsion on it to avoid us. Besides, this way we have a
valuable pelt." Macenion turned again to his pack, and pulled out a short wide skinning blade.
Paks moved between him and the snowcat; when he rose and saw her, he frowned.
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"} won't let you," said Paks, fighting back tears. "You told me I had to hold it, or it'd kill
both of us—and you lied about that. It isn't the first lie, either. You're not going to profit by
it, Macenion—I was wrong to hold it that way, and that's the worst thing I've done. I won't let
you do more."
"You mean you'd waste a perfectly good pelt—already back in winter coat—just because you didn't
think of sending it away?"
"No—because you lied to me." Paks had backed slowly and carefully across the ledge outside their
shelter, until she bumped her heels into the snowcat's corpse. Now she turned, and with a powerful
heave pushed the snowcat over the edge.
"You're a stubborn fool," said Macenion, but without the anger she had feared. "That's enough gold
for both of us to live on for a month, that you threw away. But—" he shrugged. "I suppose it meant
something to you. Now don't stand there and freeze, Paksenarrion—we still have to cross the pass
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It was not the next morning, but the one after that, when they finally ventured from their
shelter. Dawn that day was clear, the wind hardly moving, and nothing in the white drifts below
looked like the remains of a snowcat. They had said little to each other in the storm-whitened
hours between—only what must be said about the fire, the care of the animals, and packing up their
campsite. Now they moved through a pale rose and blue world, leaving blue-shadowed tracks behind.
Once through the pass, Paks could see—not the rolling forests of the Eight Kingdoms she had hoped
for—but more ridges and steep valleys. Far below and ahead, forests clothed the slopes. Somewhere
beyond, the mountains ended. She hoped to make it there.
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Paks had not slept well since the killing of the snowcat. Despite Macenion s sarcastic
reassurance, she knew that she had dishonored her sword, and the ring that she had used. She had
stayed with him only because she had no other guide out of the mountains. Now, as they came
through a gap in the trees into yet another narrow valley, she wondered whether she should refuse
to accompany him any farther. Surely here, with the bulk of the mountains behind her, she could
find her own way north.
"Well, indeed—" said Macenion, in a tone that meant he wished to be asked what he meant.
"Well, what?" Paksenarrion turned half away from him, and bent to check her pony's hooves.
"It's what I hoped to find—the right vaDey."
Paksenarrion looked at the valley, this time, and saw, in its widest span, a group of stone piles.
"More of your ruins?" she asked sourly.
"Much more important," said Macenion. He was grinning again, and when he caught her eye he winked.
"Didn't I say there was treasure to be won in these mountains?"
"You've said a lot." Paks had turned back to Star, and was adjusting the ropes on her pack.
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Macenion sighed. "Come now, don't be tiresome. You're carrying a new sword, for one thing, and—"
Paks knew Macenion had parted with the elf-wrought blade (if it was one) only because he wanted to
soothe her after the snowcat's murder. The sword felt well enough—it was better than the one she'd
bought—but she resented the whole incident. And she wasn't about to be grateful.
"And you say there's more. And, as usual, you want me to bodyguard you while we get it—right?"
"I will need your help." Macenion sighed again. "Paks, I'm sorry about the snowcat. I didn't know
you'd feel that way."
"I'd have thought an elf would—"
"So my human parentage betrayed me. It's not the first time. But listen, at least, before you
stalk off in outrage."
Paks looked around at the tree-clad slopes. She thought she saw a feint trail across from them,
leading south, but she knew the ways of apparent trails that appeared and disappeared and tangled
together. She shrugged and stared down at the ruins while Macenion talked.
"This valley," he said, "is forbidden to elves. My mother's cousin told me that, and also told me
how to find it. He meant the directions to keep me away. But here is a great treasure—the stories
are clear on that—and much of it is magical. Something happened here that the elves don't want to
talk about, and so they went away and never came back/'
"Elves lived here?" Paksenarrion frowned. "I thought they lived in forests, not stone buildings."
"It's true that elven cities are surrounded by trees and water, but they're constructed,
nonetheless."
Despite herself, Paksenarrion was interested. "What happened, then? Why did the elves leave?"
"I don't know." The answer had come so fast that Paks disbelieved it and gave Macenion a sharp
look. He spread his hands. "It's true—I don't know. I suspect, but I don't know. They say they
haven't come back because the valley is haunted by evil, but I'm fairly sure that they just don't
like to admit mistakes."
"You were more than fairly sure that the wardstones
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wouldn't work any longer," Paks reminded him. Macenion scowled.
"This is different," said Macenion loftily. "Those were human artifacts. This is elven. My elven
blood will sense the truth—and my magic will enable us to pass safely what might be perilous for
others." He patted the pouch that held his magical apparatus. Paksenarrion said nothing. "And the
treasures here are worth a risk. Elf-made weapons, Paks, and magic scrolls and wands: I've heard
about them. They were all abandoned when the elves fled. My relatives—well, I hate to say anything
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right to whatever I can find in there." He nodded toward the ruins. "But what about the evil
whatever-it-is?" "That's why I've waited this long. First, my power as a mage is much greater now;
I've spent years in study and practice, and I have some powerful new spells." He showed her the
polished end of a scroll-case. "And, as well, I'm traveling with a very experienced and able
warrior—you." "I see."
"I'm quite sure that whatever is there—if anything— will be no match for the two of us." "What do
you think is there?"
"Oh—if the underground passages are still open, some animals may have moved in. Perhaps even an
ore or two. As for an evil power—" Macenion tilted his hand back and forth. "If it were very
strong, I'd be aware of it here. And I'm not."
Paksenarrion looked around again. She felt nothing. After the wardstones, she thought she might,
if anything like that were going on. She touched her sword hilt for comfort. "Well, then, I
suppose we could take a look." Macenion smiled, and turned to lead the way down. It was farther
than it looked. The path they had followed from the slopes above disappeared in a tangle of
undergrowth that cloaked tumbled rocks as big as cattle. The sun had long disappeared behind the
western peaks when they hacked their way free of the thorny stuff and found themselves on short
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from the ruins. In fact, these were no longer visible; the floor of the valley was uneven.
"Let's make camp," said Paksenarrion. "It'd be full dark by the time we came to the ruins. The
horses could use a rest, too." Star had a long bleeding scratch down one leg, and Windfoot was
streaked with sweat.
"I suppose so." Macenion was staring toward the ruins. "I wish we could go right on, but—"
"Not in the dark," said Paks firmly. He seemed to shake himself.
"You're right." Still he sat, feeing west, silent, while Paks gathered wood from the brushy edge
for a fire. She touched his arm when it was ready to light, and he jumped.
"The fire's ready," she said, pointing.
Macenion looked around at the gathering darkness, and threw back his cloak. He glanced up at Paks.
"Perhaps tonight we should use the tinderbox.'
"You? The great magician?" Paksenarrion turned to the horses. "I thought you were sure it was
safe."
"There's no sense making it obvious we're here—just in case."
"Then we shouldn't have a fire at all." Paks pulled her own pack near the stacked wood. "That's
fine with me; I know fires draw trouble."
"Yes. Well—let's not, then." Macenion pulled his cloak around him again, and began to unload his
horse. Paks eyed the hollow they were in. It was not particularly defensible, if Macenion thought
they might be attacked. But when she asked, he was disinclined to move. Paks shrugged, and pulled
her sword from its sheath. As the darkness closed in, the rasp of her whetstone on the blade
seemed louder and louder. When she tested the blade, and found it well enough, she noticed how
still a night it was.
Paksenarrion woke in the first light of dawn; the peaks behind were just showing light instead of
dark against the sky. For a moment or so she was not sure where she was. The visions of her dream
were still brilliant before her eyes. She shook her head vigorously and rolled on her side, hardly
surprised to find that she held her sword hilt
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in her hand. She looked toward Macenion, a dark shape in darkness. Was he stirring? She spoke his
name softly.
"I'm coming!" His answer was a shout, and he sprang to his feet. "Begone, you foul—" She heard a
gasp, and then, in a different voice, "By all the gods of elf and man, what was that?"
"I don't know. I thought you were waking, and called, and you jumped up—"
"A dream. ' Paks heard Macenion's feet on the grass. "It must have been a dream."
"What dream?" Paks wondered if this were a haunted place, a place that gave dreams. Hers had been
vivid enough.
"It was—it's hard to say. I felt something—almost as if—" He paused for a long moment. Paks tried
to see his face in the dimness, but could not.
"I dreamed too," she said finally. "A—I don't know what to call it—a spirit of some sort, I
suppose—was imprisoned, and calling for help—"
'Yes—and was there a yellow cloud that stank of evil?" Macenion's voice sounded alert and eager.
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it was an elf."
"That was no elf, whatever it was. I must have seen the aura of power, and you saw the physical
form. But it was evil, and the—" Macenion paused again as if searching for a word. "I can't
think," he said finally. "I should know what it was, that was calling. Something to do with elves,
and the places they've lived for long. It needs our help."
"So that was a sent dream," said Paks. "Not something we dreamed on our own."
"It was sent, certainly," said Macenion. "The question now is—"
"Who sent it."
"No, I wasn't worried about that. The question is, what do we do? I know what we should do, but—"
"I still want to know who sent it."
"One of the gods, of course. Sertig or Adyan, probably. Who else would?"
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"The—the thing itself? The one that needs our help? It might want us to come, and caused the
dream."
"Nonsense. If it's strong enough to do that, it wouldn't need our help against a mere sorcerer or
wizard."
"I don't know . . ." Somehow Paksenarrion could not believe Macenion's explanation. He had been
wrong about so many things. She wished, not for the first time, that she knew more herself about
the world beyond the Duke's Company. She had not realized, until she left it, how little she had
learned in three years of soldiering. For all she knew, Macenion himself could have caused the
dream, to ensure that she would be willing to enter the ruins. She pushed that thought aside.
Until they were clear of the mountains, she had no real choice; Macenion was the only available
guide. Her hand found its way to the pouch that held Canna's medallion. She stopped herself from
taking it out, and squatted down to reroll her blankets.
"In your dream, did you—did it offer you any treasure?" Macenion, too, was packing up.
Paks nodded, realized it was still too dark for him to see that gesture, and spoke instead. "Yes.
I didn't know what all of it was, but the weapons and armor were beautiful."
"It can't hurt, Paksenarrion, to take a look—" His voice was almost pleading.
Paks laughed despite her worries. "No, I suppose not. Don't worry, Macenion, your hired blade
won't leave you. I've got more loyalty than that. But I hope you really do have the skill to
handle whatever magic comes up."
"I think so. I'm sure of it." He didn't really sound sure.
It took them four hours to reach the ruins. As they came nearer, Paks recognized that the grassy
mound before them was the ruin of a defensive wall. They entered through a gap that had once been
a gateway. Two of the stones that had formed the framework were still standing. Although they were
scarred as if they had been scorched, much of the decorative carving was still visible. Paks stood
bemused, enjoying the intricacy of the interlacing designs, until Macenion touched her arm.
"It's meant to do that," he said, grinning. "Elves use
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patterns for control. In feet, elves taught men how to set the patterns for the wardstones. You'd
better not let yourself look at any of the decoration that remains, just in case."
Paks felt herself flush with embarrassment. She said nothing, but followed Macenion deeper into
the complex of ruins, her hand on her sword.
Little remained but irregular mounds overgrown with grass and weeds. Here and there a bit of stone
showed through, and a few doorways still stood wreathed in ivy. Although Paks could hear birdsong
in the distance, the ruins themselves were quiet. No lizards sunned themselves on the mounds, to
scuttle away as they passed. No rabbits found shelter in the occasional briar. Macenion moved
almost as carefully as Paks could have wished, pausing beside each mound before crossing the next
open space. As they went deeper into the complex, the silence grew more intense. The horses'
hooves made no noise on the turf. Paks could not bring herself to speak. The breath caught in her
throat, but she could not cough. At last Macenion raised his hand for a halt. When he turned to
look at her, his face was paler, she thought, than it had been. He swallowed visibly, then spoke,
his voice soft.
"We'll leave the horses here. They won't stray. They have grass, and there's a fountain ahead. Ill
put a spell on them, as well."
Now that the silence had been broken, Paks found she could speak, though it was still an effort.
"Have you found the way to what we're looking for?"
"Yes. I think so. Look there—" Macenion pointed out one of the mounds ahead, and Paks saw that
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curious round structure with columns on the outside and a bulbous roof. She could see, as well,
the fountain that lay before it, a clear pool whose surface rippled as if in a breeze. "I've heard
that such a building lay in the center of this place," Macenion went on. "From it, passages lead
to the vaults below and to other buildings. I m sure that the being we are to help is trapped
somewhere below; this is the surest way down.'
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Paks frowned. "If so, it's surely known to others, as well. To the enemy of that being, for
instance. I'd rather not go in by such a public entrance."
"Scaredr Macenion's face twisted in a sneer. He glanced at her sword, then back at her face.
Paks fought back an angry retort. "No," she said quietly. "Not any more scared than you, with your
pate face. But you brought a soldier along for a soldier's skills, and I learned in my first
campaign that you don't go in the door that the enemy expects. Not if you want to live to have
your share of the loot."        f
Macenion flushed in his turn, and scowled. "Well, that s the only way down that I know how to
find. Besides, in my dream, this was shown as the way."
"Did your dream show both of us going in that way?"
"How else?"
"You hadn't thought we might need a rear guardr
"What for?"
"What for?" Paks glared at Macenion. "Haven't you any experience? Suppose that whatever-it-is,
that evil tiling, has its own way to the surface, it could come after us, and attack from the
rear, or trap us underground."
"Oh, I'm sure it wouldn t—couldn't—"
"Like you were sure about the other things? No, Macenion, I'm not going down there without knowing
a little more about it. Surely your magrc can show you something, or guard the way behind us.'
Macenion looked thoughtful. "If you insist, I suppose I can think of something. It might be
better, after SM-" He burrowed into his tunic, then gave Paks a sharp look. "You can walk around a
bit—-look for another entrance—"
"I wish you'd quit worrying. I'm not another magician, and I couldn't use anything I might see."
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Macenion drew himself up. "It's a matter of principle.
Paks snorted, but moved away. She decided to take the packs off Star and see if there was anything
she might want to take underground. Macenion, she noticed, hadn't thought of that. As she went
through their gear, she wondered again what she was doing following such a person. She did not
like the thought of going undergrouncf, in a unknown
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place against unknown dangers, at all. Especially with someone like Macenion. Perhaps with a squad
of the Duke's Company, but a single half-elf? But a scene from her dream recurred: after
victorious combat, she was receiving the homage of those who had asked her help—she was given a
new weapon, of exquisite workmanship, and a suit of magical armor. Honor—glory—her reputation made
as a fighter. She shook her head, driving the vision away. A chance for glory, Stammel had always
said, was a chance to be killed unpleasantly. Still—she had left the Company to seek adventure and
fame and a chance to fight for such causes as now lay before her. Could she miss the chance? She
piled on one side the things she thought would be useful, and made the rest into a small bundle.
"Well need something to light the way," said Macenion suddenly^ "Whatever the elves used may not
be working, and I don't want to use magical light until it's needed." He was going through his own
pack. "This should do. This oil—these candles—and yes, I can set a spell at our backs that will
keep out any trouble—at least give us warning. We probably won't be that long, but I suppose we
should take water and some food."
"How about the fountain? Is it safe?"
"I should think so. Try it." Macenion held out his water bottle to Paks. She frowned.
"If it's elvish, you try it first."
"What a brave warrior! Very well, then." Macenion dipped his bottle in the fountain pool. Nothing
happened. "You see? Just water."
"Good." Paks, too, filled her water bottle from the fountain pool, then bent to drink directly
from it. The water was cold and had a feint mineral tang. Although the water seemed perfectly
clear, she could not see the bottom of the pool. Somehow, after drinking, she no longer considered
not following Macenion under the ruins.
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the original domed roof had been pierced by a number of skylights, each with an ornamental molding
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walls were still covered with inlay of many-colored stones that formed a dazzling array of
designs. Hie floor was a mosaic of cool grays and soft greens, rounded pebbles that looked like
those in any mountain stream, but chosen carefully to match in size and shape.
"Here it is," said Macenion, pointing to a circle of darker stones laid in the center of the room.
"Whatr
Macenion looked smug. "The door—the way in."
"That?"
"Yes." He drew out a short black rod; Paks looked down, more frightened than she cared to admit.
Some-tiling sizzled, and she looked quickly at die circle: it was gone. A hole in the floor
revealed a spiral stair. Dust lay thick on the stone steps.
Paks took a deep breath. "Do you think we're the first to come this way? The first to be asked for
help?"
"I don't know. Probably not. Only a magician could find this way down, you know. Perhaps others
couldn't find a way to help and went away. You stay here a moment, while I take a quick look
down." Macenion set a careful foot on the first step. Nothing happened. He went down several more,
bending to look beneath the floor. Pafo looked out the way they had come in, half expecting some
monster to appear on their trail, but there was nothing. As she watched, Macenton's horse moved
past die opening to drink at the fountain; she heard it sucking the water up. When she looked back
at the hole in the floor, Macenion was coming back up. "Just below, the ceiling's much higher, we
won't have any problem. And I don't see that any-thing's disturbed the dust. The only thing is,
the stair is only one person wide—"
Paks suppressed a last shudder of doubt about the wisdom of this whole project, and grinned at
him. "I suppose you'd like the fighter to go in front, eh? Well, I can't see behind myself; I'd
just as soon know who's at my back." She drew her sword as she spoke. "But 111 have this out, just
in case. What about tight? Must I carry a candle or torch?"
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"No-o—" said Macenion, climbing out of her way onto die floor. "There's light."
]AVhat sort of light?"
/'I'm not sure. It may be the same the elves used. But it's easily light enough to see."
"What if it goes out? You'd best keep some sort of flame alight, Macenion."
Why should it go out if it's lasted this long? Oh, all right—' he answered her look of disgust.
"But you're so suspicious."
MI'm alive," said Paks, "and I intend to stay that way."
"As a fighter, an adventurer?"
"Some do," said Paks, starting down the stairs. "And from what I hear, those that do stay
suspicious. Magicians, too."
The stair dropped steeply, and curved to the right, back under die floor. Paks found that she did
not have to duck at all; when she thought about it, she remembered that elves were, in general,
taller than humans. Light filled the stairwell as far as she could see, a gentle, white light with
no apparent source. She looked back once, to see the deep scuffing footprints she had made in the
dust. Macenion was just in sight, several steps higher. After what she judged was die first half-
turn, the steps were not so steep. She could move more easily now, and, of course, anything coming
up could do so as well. She glanced back again, for Macenion, and thought of the spefl he had
promised to put at their backs.
"What did you do up there?" she asked softly, nodding upward.
"It's open," he said. "If I'd closed it, and anything happened to me, you couldn't get out that
way. But I put a spell on the opening that should repel anything from outside trying to get in.
And just in case, I put another spell on it to give us an alarm if something does go through."
All that sounded impressive to Paksenarrion. She hoped it would work. "Do you know how far this
goes down?'
"No. It should open into a wide hall at die bottom, though."
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Paks went on. The mysterious light bothered her. The silence bothered her. She felt her hand grow
sweaty on her sword hilt, and that bothered her. Nothing had happened; no danger appeared, and yet
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construction of the stair: pale gray stone underfoot, and slightly darker gray stone on the walls
and vaulted ceiling. The stair treads were ribbed, under the dust, and when she reached to feel
the walls, she found that they were lightly incised with an intricate design. Remembering
Macenion's warning, she took her fingers off the wall. She looked back over her shoulder again.
Macenion, too, had one hand on the wall; when he met her eyes he smiled at her.
"It's decoration and information both," he said. "I can read some of it, though I'd have to stand
here a long time to figure it out. But for those who lived here, it would be a way of telling how
far they had come, though that's not what it says, exactly." He moved his hand along the section
of wall nearest him. "This, for example, is part of an old song: The Long Ride of Torre.' Do you
know it?"
Paks nodded. "If that's the same Torre as Torre's Necklace."
"Of course. Do you know the story?"
"Yes." Paks turned again and kept stepping down. The dust seemed no thicker, and with no changes
in light or silence, she had a hard time figuring out how for they had come. At last she saw an
opening ahead, rather man a curving wall. As she came to the last step, and waited for Macenion to
close in behind her, she could see a space of dusty stone paving, and nothing else. Although it
was light beyond the opening, any walls were too far away to show.
"Now this, I believe, was the winterhall," said Macenion, peering past her. "Go on, Paksenarrion."
"And have whatever's waiting beside the door take my head off? Let's be careful." Paks unslung her
small shield and reached for Macenion's walking staff.
He jerked it away. "What?"
Paks sighed. "Remember what I just said about doorways? Better a piece of wood than my neck."
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"Oh, all right." Macenion handed over his staff grumpily. Paks tied the shield quickly to one end,
and stuck it through the door. Nothing happened. She pulled it back, handed Macenion his staff,
tightened the shield on her arm, and slipped quickly through the doorway, putting her back to the
wall beside it.
She was in a large bare hall, lit by the same mysterious means as the stair. It stretched away on
either side of the doorway she'd come through for twice the distance of its width. No furniture
remained, and dust covered the broad floor. Macenion came through after her, and looked up. Pafcs
followed his gaze. Far overhead the arched ceiling was formed into intricate branches and vaults,
a tracery of stone such as Pales had never seen. Between ribs of dark stone, patterns of smaller
colored ones gave almost the effect of a forest overhead.
"That's—beautiful—" she whispered, hardly aware of speaking.
t For once, Macenion did not take a superior tone. "It's— I've never seen the like myself. I knew
this was once the seat of the High King, but I never imagined—" He took a few steps out into the
hall, and looked at his footprints. "Certainly this has not been disturbed for many years— perhaps
not since they left."
Paks had noticed, at the right end of the hall, a darker alcove. "What's that?"
"That should lead to other passages. But I can't understand why there are no signs at all."
Macenion stopped and shook his head. "We won't find out anything by standing here. Let me think—"
Paks scanned the walls again. At the left end of the hall was a dais, four steps up from the main
level, and at the back of it an arched doorway. Two heavily patterned bronze doors closed the
opening. Across from her, on the other long wall, were four doorways, also closed with heavy
doors. At the right end, no doors showed save the alcove, if that was, as Macenion said, an
opening.
"Do you know where any of these doors lead?" she asked.
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others—no, blast it, I can't remember. We'll have to look and see."
"Would the doors be locked?"
"I doubt it. They may be spelled, though. Luckily I have ways of handling that. Perhaps we should
start with the royal apartments. We might find something worthwhile there."
Paks felt a twinge. "We're here to help that trapped thing, first. I don't think treasure hunters
would be lucky here."
"I was thinking we might find something that would help us free the spirit, Paksenarrion. It
wasn't just greed."
Paks was not convinced. She turned from one side to the other, trying to feel which way to go. Was
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from the one they wanted to help or from the enemy? She shook her head, as if to clear it, and
watched Macenion approach the royal doors. A feeling of wrongness grew stronger. He reached the
foot of the dais.
"Macenion! No!" She surprised herself as much as him with her shout.
He whirled to face her. "What?"
"Don't go that way." She was utterly certain of danger. She moved quickly to his side, and lowered
her voice. "That's wrong; I'm sure of it. If you go up there, well—"
"Paksenarrion, you're no seer. I assure you that we may very well find, in the royal apartments,
clues to what sort of spirit may be locked here. We'll certainly find information about the layout
of the underground passages."
"That may be, but if you open that door, Macenion, you'll wish you hadn't."
He looked at her closely. "Have you had some sort of message? From a—a god, or something like
that?"
"I don't know. But I know you shouldn't go that way. And I may not be a seer, Macenion, but I have
had warning feelings before, and they've been true."
"A fighter?" He arched his brows.
"Yes, a fighter! By the gods, Macenion, carrying a sword
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in my hand doesn't mean I don't carry sense between my ears. If a warning comes, I heed it."
"I wish you'd told me before about your extra abilities. It comes hard to believe in them now,
when I've never seen them." He gave her a superior smile. "Very well, then . . . since you're so
sure. We'll wander about down here with no other guidance than your intuition. Perhaps you're
turning into a paladin or something."
Paks glared at him, angry enough to strike, but relieved that he had turned away from the dais.
Macenion looked around the hall.
"Which door would you suggest, since you don't like my choice?"
"What about that alcove?" asked Paks. "Or the center doors on the long side there?"
Macenion shrugged. "It doesn't matter to me. Why not the alcove? It's as far as possible from
those you rear." Paks flushed but held her peace as they walked the length of the hall.
The alcove was deeper than it looked; the light was deceptive. Within it were two doors, both
bronze. One had a design on it that reminded Paks of a tree; the other was covered with
interlacement bands that enclosed many-pointed stars. Macenion looked at her. "Do you have any
feelings about either of these? My own preference would be for the stars; stars are sacred to
elves."
Paks felt, in feet, a stubborn desire to use the door with the tree, but she felt no special
menace from the other one. With Macenion grinning at her in such a smug way, she didn't want to
press a mere preference. "That will do. I don't have anything against it, anyway." When Macenion
simply stood there, she asked sharply, "Aren't you going to open it?"
"As soon as I figure out how. It's locked, spell-locked—if you laid a hand on it, you'd be flat on
your back. I'm surprised your intuition didn't tell you that."
Paks wondered herself, and thought that if her intuition worked on bigger things, they'd better
pay attention to it. She said nothing, however, and as Macenion stood in
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apparent thought, she turned to keep watch on the rest of the room.
When she looked the length of the room toward the dais, she thought she saw a feint glow around
the doors there. She looked at the other doors in the room. They looked the same. When she looked
back at the dais, the glow was more definite. It had an irregular shape, and seemed to be coming
from the joint between the doors—as if it were seeping through.
"Macenion!"
"What now?!" He turned to her angrily. Paks pointed toward the dais. "I don't see—by the gods!
What's that?"
"I don't know. I don't like it. Did you step up on the dais?"
"No. You yelled, and I—I may just have touched the lower step with my foot—"
"I hope not. It's brighter, now."
"So I see. I wonder if it's—by Orphin, I'd better get this spell correct."
"What is it?"
"Not now! Just watch. Tell me if it gets more than halfway down the hall."
"But what can I do to hold it back?"
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Paks turned to stare at the mysterious glowing shape, which grew slowly as she watched. It seemed
to spread, widening itself to the width of the dais, and slowing its forward movement as it did
so. At first she had been able to see through it clearly, but as it grew and thickened, she could
no longer see the doors behind it. She felt sweat crawling through her hair. Her intuition had
been right, but what was this thing? Surely there was a way to fight it. Now it reached the
forward edge of the dais. Paks could hear Macenion muttering behind her. She heard a feint sizzle,
then a little pop. Macenion cursed softly and went back to muttering. The glowing shape extended
along the front edge of the dais, and began to grow taller. Slowly it filled the space above the
dais, from the doors behind to the lowest step in front, rising higher and higher to the canopy
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this space was full, the glow intensified again. It seemed more and more solid, as if it were a
definite shape settling there. As it solidified, it contracted a little, no longer so regular.
Just as Macenion's triumphant "Got itl" broke her concentration, Paks thought she could see the
shape it was condensing toward.
"Come on, Paks. Quickly!" Macenion grabbed her arm to hurry her through the now-open door, and
looked back. "Great Orphin, protect us, it is a — Come on!"
Paks tore her eyes from the glowing shape, and darted through the door after Macenion. He waited
on the other side and threw his weight against the heavy panel. As it swung closed, a curious
hissing noise came from the hall they had left.
"Help me — close it!" Macenion looked as frightened as Paks had ever seen him. She, too, leaned on
the door, as Macenion fumbled for something in his pouch with one hand. It seemed reluctant to
stay closed, as if pressure were on it from the other side. "Don't let it come open," warned
Macenion. "If that gets out, we're dead. "
^What is it?"
"Not now! I'm trying to — " Macenion grunted suddenly, and began to mutter in a language Paks
didn't know. Suddenly Paks felt a great shove from the other side of the door. "Blast! Wrong one.
" Macenion began muttering again, as Paks held the door with all her strength. She heard an abrupt
click, and found that she needed no strength to hold the door. Macenion sighed. "That should do
it," he said. "I expect it will. You can let go now, Pales."
"What was that?" Paks noticed that Macenion still looked worried.
"I don't know how to explain it to you."
'A sort of evil spirit, then, that can take solid form, and attack any intruder, elves preferred.
It has many ways of attacking, aH of them unpleasant."
"And a sword would be no use against it?"
Macenion laughed. "No."
"Is it the thing we came to find? What's holding the other thing prisoner?"
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"No. Unlikely. I fear, though, that it may be in league with it. This may prove harder than I
thought. And we certainly can't risk returning this way to the surface."
"Unless we've destroyed that thing." Paks felt better. Her intuition had been right after all,
and, as always, the joining of the fight roused her spirits. Macenion looked at her curiously.
"Don't you understand? We can't destroy that—and we don't know any other way out. If what we're
looking for is as bad or worse, we may never get out."
Paks grinned. "I understand. We took the bait, and we're in the trap: and we don't even know the
size of the trap. But they, Macenion, don't know the size of their catch." She drew her sword and
looked along the blade for a moment. "You managed to shut the door against that thing. I can deal
with more fleshly clangers. And—I've been in traps before."
"Yes, but— Well, there's no help for it. We'd better keep moving. We want to be well away from
that door if it breaks through."
They were in a short corridor, lit as the stairwell and hall had been, and ahead of them was an
archway into a larger room. Here, too, the floor was thick with dust. Paks led the way forward,
sword out and ready. Macenion followed.
The room had obviously been a kitchen. Not a stick of furniture remained, but two great hearths,
blocked up with hasty stonework, told the tale of many feastings. On the left, a narrower archway
led to another corridor. On their right, a short passage led to another room, just visible beyond
it.
"That should have been the cellar," said Macenion. "I wonder if any of the wine is left."
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trying."
"I suppose not. We'll go this way, then. He gestured to the left. As they crossed the kitchen,
Paks looked around for any sign of recent disturbance but saw nothing.
"Was that thing back there what drove the elves out?" asked Paks.
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"No. I don't think so. Enough high elves together would be able to drive it away. It's—weD, you
humans know of gods, don't you? Good and evil gods?"
"Of course." Paks glared at him for an instant.
"Do you know of the Court of Gods? Their rankings, and all that?"
Paks shook her head. "Gods are gods."
"No, Paksenarrion, they are not. Some are far more powerful than others. You should have learned
that in Aarenis, even as a soldier. You fought in Sibili, didn't you? Yes—and didn't you see the
temple of the Master of Torments there? I heard it was sacked."
Paks shivered as she remembered die assault on Sibili. "I was knocked out," she said. "I didn't
see it."
"Well, you've heard of the Webmistress—"
"Of course. But what—"
"Liart—die Master of Torments—and diat odier, they're both fairly low in the court of evil.
Between the least of the gods and die common evils of the world, there are still beings—they have
more power than any human or elf, but not nearly so much as a god."
Paks was suddenly curious. "What about the heroes and saints like Gird and Pargun?"
"Who knows? They were humans once; I don't know what, if anything, they are now. But that
creature, Paks, is more powerful than any elf, and yet is far below the gods. Our gods—the gods of
elves."
The corridor they traveled curved slightly to the left. Paks glanced back and saw that the kitchen
entrance was now out of sight. Ahead was a doorway blocked by a dosed door, this one of carved
wood. As they neared it, Paks noticed that the dust on the floor was not nearly so deep; their
footsteps began to ring on the stone and echo off the stone walls. She wondered what had moved the
dust. Macenion, when she pointed it out, looked around and shook his head.
"I don't know. Draft under that door, possibly—"
"Underground?" Paks remembered that she didn't know much about underground construction, and put
that thought aside. She moved as quietly as possible toward the door.
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In the cool white light of the corridor, its rich red and black grain and intricate carving seemed
warm and alive. She reached out to touch it gently. It felt a slightly warm under her hand.
"That's odd. It's—"
The door heaved under her hand; Paks jumped backward just in time to avoid a blow as it swung
wide. Facing them were several armed humans in rough leather and woolen clothes; the leader
grinned.
" 'Ere's our bonus, lads!" he said. "The ears off these'll give us something to show the lord—"
Paks had her sword in motion before he finished; his boast ended in a howl of pain. She took a
hard blow on her shield, and dodged a thrust meant for her throat. Behind her, she heard Macenion
draw, then the ring of his blade on one of the others. The noise brought two more fighters
skidding around the corner ahead to throw themselves into the fight. Paks and Macenion fought
almost silently; they had no need for words. Paks pressed ahead, finding the attackers to be good
but not exceptional fighters. She had the reach of most of them, and she was as strong as any.
Macenion yelped suddenly, breaking her concentration; as she glanced for him, a hard blow caught
her in the side. She grunted, grateful for the chain shirt she wore, and pushed off from the wall
to skewer her opponent. Macenion's arm was bleeding, but he fought on. Paks shifted her ground to
give him some respite. She took a glancing blow on her helmet that gashed her forehead as it
passed. She could feel the blood trickling down toward her eye. Macenion lunged forward, flipping
the sword away from one of their attackers; Paks downed the man with a blow to the face. They
advanced again; the other attackers seemed less eager. Finally only two were still fighting. The
others, dead or wounded too badly to fight, lay scattered on the corridor floor. Paks expected
them to break away and flee, but they didn't; instead, they fought doggedly on, until she and
Macenion managed to kill them.
Chapter Five
Paks leaned against the wall breathing heavily. Her side ached, and she could feel a trickle of
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dropped the pieces. Macenion had ripped a length of cloth from his tunic, and was wrapping the
wound on his arm. As he moved, she caught a gnmpse of the bright mail under his outer clothing.
"If I a known you wore mail," she said finally, "I wouldn't have worried so much. I was sure you
were being skewered."
Macenion glanced up. "I nearly was. By Orphin, you're a good fighter in trouble. I wouldn't have
made it alone, even with mail." He looked at her more closely. "You're bleedings-is it bad?"
"I don't think so. Just a cut on the head, and they always bleed—a mess." Paks swiped at her face
with her free hand, and found the cut itself, a shallow gash near the edge of her helmet.
Here—" Macenion sheathed his sword and came over. "Let me clean that out." Paks looked at title
bodies on the floor as he wiped out the cut with something from a jar in his pack. It burned, but
the bleeding stopped. The bodies
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did not move, this time. When Macenion finished, she pushed herself off the wall, grunting at the
pain in her side, and wiped her sword clean on the dirty cloak of the nearest enemy. She wished
they could stop and rest, but she distrusted the flavor of the air down here.
"I suppose we ought to keep going," she said, half hoping that Macenion would insist on rest and
food.
'Definitely. Whatever sent these guards will know, soon enough, that we've passed them. If we're
to have any surprise at all, well have to go on. Why? Are you hurt?"
"No." Pales sighed. "Bruised, but no more. I wish we were out of here."
"As do I." Macenion gave a short laugh. "I begin to think that my elven relatives have more wit
than I gave them credit for—they may have been right to tell me that I would find more trouble
here than treasure."
But along with her fear and loathing of the underground maze in which they were wandering, Paks
felt a pull of excitement and interest. With each encounter they were pressed more closely, but so
far they had won, penetrating deeper and deeper into their enemy's lair. In a corner of her mind,
Paks saw herself telling this tale to Vik and Arne in an inn somewhere. She checked her sword for
damage, finding none, and turned to Macenion. He nodded his readiness, and she set off carefully,
sword ready.
They passed an open door into an empty room on their right, and another like it a few feet down on
the left. Ahead of them, the corridor turned again. Paks looked at Macenion and he shrugged. She
flattened against the wall and edged forward to the turn. She could hear nothing. She widened her
nostrils, hoping for a clue to what lay ahead. Her own smell, and Macenion's, overwhelmed her
nose. Finally, with a mental shrug, she peeked around the corner. An empty corridor, its dusty
floor scuffed and disturbed. Four doorways that she could see in the one quick look she allowed
herseE A crossing corridor a short run ahead.
"Do you have any of your feelings about any of this?" asked Macenion when she described what she'd
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"No. Not really. The whole things feels bad, but nothing in particular."
"Nor can I detect anything. I wish our friend who wants our help would give us some guidance."
Paks felt around in her mind to see if anything stirred. Nothing but a feint desire to get moving.
She sighed. "Let's go, then."
The doors that opened off the corridor were all of wood; all bore the scars of some sort of fire.
One was burned half through, and they could see into a small room with stone shelves built into
the walls. At the cross corridor, Paks took one corner and Macenion the other. To the right, her
way, the corridor ended in a blank stone wall perhaps fifty paces away. To the left, it opened
after perhaps thirty paces into a chamber whose size they could not guess. Macenion cocked his
head that way, and Paks began to edge along the wall of the cross corridor toward the chamber
door. Macenion stayed where he was.
As she neared the opening, Paks felt a wave of confidence. Surely they were going the right
direction. Macenion was being too cautious, as usual. She hesitated only a moment before putting
her head around to see what the chamber was like.
Here, for the first time, was something not desolate and ruined. The floor had been laid of
colored blocks of stone, pale green and gold, and was swept clean of dust so that the pattern was
clearly visible. At the far end of the chamber, a great ring of candles seemed to hover in midair.
After a moment, Paks realized that they were attached to a metal framework suspended from a chain
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corridors to a friendlier hue. In that warm glow, on a brilliantly colored carpet, stood a tall
figure robed in midnight blue. Its face was subtly like Macenion "s, and yet different; Paks knew
at once that she stood in the presence of an elf, and someone of high rank. Along the for wall of
the chamber were several motionless figures: humans, for the most part, clad in rough garments of
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under the skin, yet there was no hint of age or decay. Hie eyes were a clear pale green. She felt
no fear, though she was fully aware of the elf s power, so much greater than Macenion's. The elf s
wide mouth curved in a smile.
"Welcome, fair warrior. Was your companion too frightened to come so far with you?"
Paks shook her head, uncertain how to answer. She had the vague thought that no elves should be
here. But perhaps this was the person they had come to help? She could not seem to think clearly.
The elf was not frightened of her, and did not seem angry—and elves were, if uncanny, at least not
evil. As she thought this, she realized that she was walking forward, moving out into the chamber.
"Excellent," the elf continued. 'I shall be glad to receive you both into my service." He gestured
to the line of servants. "You see how few I have, and you have just killed some of my best
fighters. It is only fair that you take their place."
Paks found her voice at last. "But, sir, I have a deed to perform, before 1 can take service with
another." She tried to stand still; her feet crept forward despite her efforts. She knew she
should be afraid but she could feel nothing. "Oh?" The silvery elven voice was amused. "And what
is that?"
Paks found it difficult to say, or even think. A confusion of images filled her mind: die
Halveric's face as he handed her a sealed packet, the Duke's parting words, the images of victory
and glory that had come in the dream of the night before. She had advanced to the edge of the
carpet. This close to the elf, she noticed a distinct, slightly unpleasant odor. Even as her nose
wrinkled in distaste, the odor changed, becoming spicy and attractive. She drew a deep breath.
"Now—" the elf began, but at that moment, Macenion cried out from the for end of the chamber.
"Pales! What are you—"
Only for a moment those green eyes shifted from Paks; then the elf chuckled. "Well, so your
companion finally gathered his courage. Stand near me, fair warrior, and show him your
allegiance." And Paks stepped onto the soft
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carpet and stood silent beside the elf, unable to move or speak. She could just see Macenion from
the corner of her eye. The elf went on. "You think yourself a mage, I understand—you have scarcely
the powers to match me, crossbred runt."
Macenion reddened at this reference to his human ancestry. "You don't know what I might have—" he
began.
"If you had any abilities I need worry about, you'd not have let yourself walk into this trap. You
sensed nothing, at the last turn—you said so."
Macenion glared, and slid his hand stealthily under his cloak.
The elf nodded. "Go ahead—try your little spells if you wish. It won't do any good. Nor will that
wand. But try it, if you like—" He laughed. "Do you not even wish to know who it is that you face,
little mage? Are you in the habit of loosing spells on chance-met strangers?
"We are not chance-met, I fear," said Macenion. He came forward a short distance, then stopped.
"And if I cannot put a name to you, still I have a good idea what you are."
"What and not who? What erudition! And what makes you think I cannot charm you to obedience, as I
did your—delightful—companion, here?"
Macenion smiled in his turn. "Charm a mage? You well know what that would get you. If you would
use me as a mage, you need my mind unclouded—"
"But not unbroken, little one. Remember that."
Macenion bowed, as arrogantly as Paks had ever seen him. "Yet a pebble," he said, "may be harder
to break than a pine, though insignificant beside it."
"Are you to quote dwarvish proverbs to me?" The elf sounded slightly less amused than before.
Paks, listening to all this, could scarcely pay attention to it; her mind seemed to float at a
slight distance.
Macenion bowed again, even more elaborately; as he rose, he made a complicated movement of his
right hand, and said a few strange words loudly. Paks heard the hiss of breath indrawn beside her
as the elf gasped. Before he could move, she felt a wave of nausea and fear. She
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whirled, sword at ready, before she even knew she could move. Where she had seen elven beauty, she
now saw the ruin of it, and the stench stung her nose,
"Paks!" shouted Macenion. He was cut off by a great shout from the elf. A blast of energy poured
down the chamber. Paks thrust at the elf, but her sword met another in his hand.
"Cross blades with me, will you?" The green eyes blazed. Paks tore her gaze from them to watch the
sword hand. "No human has skill to match an elf—arid I am no common elf." Indeed, the first
ringing strokes revealed his ability. Paks fought on a rising wave of anger. Elves were never
evil, ha! She avoided a quick trapping ploy, and thrust again. The tip of her blade seemed to
hesitate an instant—an instant that let the enemy escape. She pressed on, furiously. Macenion had
probably been killed by the blast, but he had won her freedom from whatever spell had bound her.
She would fight to the end, and show this creature what human skill could be.
Again and again she managed to slip aside from a deadly blow, and just as often her own attacks
fell short. Sweat rolled down her ribs, and she found herself grunting with every stroke. The elf
did not seem to tire. The same smile curved his lips; the same arrogance arched his brows. Now her
wrist began to ache, as he used every advantage of height and reach. She was usually taller than
those she drilled with; she was not accustomed to adjusting to a longer reach. One of his blows
fell true; the force of it drove her to one knee. She felt the links of mail sink into her flesh;
she barely ducked the next blow and staggered back. She wanted to look for Macenion, but darea
not. The elf s smile widened.
"You are outclassed, human fighter," he said lightly. "You are quite good, for a human, but not
good enough. But look at my eyes, and acknowledge me your lord, and this can end."
Paks shook her head, as much to clear it as to refuse. Was that a movement behind the elf? She
lunged again, her blade struck, but she narrowly avoided his. He seemed not to notice her blow.
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her face. As quick as the thought that followed, almost before she knew what she meant to do, Paks
leaped high, grabbing the framework the candles were set on with one hand, and jerking her legs
away from the elf's astonished stroke. The frame swung wildly, spattering them both with wax. With
one arm over the ring, Paks swung at the elf from above. He grabbed at her leg and missed as she
kicked out. She heard a squeal from above and glanced up to see the ringbolt slipping from the
ceiling. She threw herself to one side, trying to clear the frame as it fell. The elf, pursuing,
was struck. Before he could free himself from the ring, Paks attacked. Hampered by the framework
and the candles, which caught his robe afire, he parried her blows weakly.
And then Macenion came up, panting and pale, and threw the whole of their oil supply on the elf.
Paks jumped back as the candle flames flared on this fuel. A foul stench filled the chamber, and a
black cloud swirled up from the fire, denser than smoke. Paks felt a wave of cold enmity that sent
her staggering to her knees. The flames roared, now more blue than any fire of oil could be. Air
rushed into the chamber, whistling round the corners. Paks realized that Macenion was tugging at
her arms, pulling her away. She could hardly move. She managed to look around, and saw that the
others in the room, the servants, were shuffling out a door in one corner as fast as they could.
When the flames died down, Paks still crouched helplessly where Macenion had dragged her. The elf
s body had not been consumed in the fire, though it was horribly blackened, and all the clothing
was gone. Macenion stood by it, frowning.
Paks tried several times before she could speak. "What's— wrong? He's dead, isn't he?"
"I wish I knew. That land of power—it was some spirit of evil, Paks, that took over the body of an
elf. Of an elf lord. And the body is here still. I wonder if he is dead— truly. I've heard tales
of such—"
Paks didn't want to move. Every muscle hurt. She managed to flex her hand, and found she still
held her sword. She took a deep breath, which also hurt, and
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forced herself to her feet. She felt as if her legs and body were only loosely connected. Another
deep breath. It was hard to believe that she and Macenion were still alive, and the elf was dead.
Or dead in some way. She walked over to see.
"Your magic has done well so far, Macenion. We wouldn't be here without it. Can't you do something
to make sure he stays dead?"
For once Macenion did not seem complacent. "No," he said soberly. "That's beyond my abilities. I
wish my old master were here. We are fortunate that he chose a simple spell to bind you. Perhaps
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"Couldn't we put a stake through his heart?"
"What do you think he is, a kuerin-witch? Are you thinking of dragging his corpse to a crossroads,
too?"
Paks flushed. "I don't know. I just remembered some old stories ..."
"That won't work for him. Whatever took him over won't be withheld by any simple measures."
"We could—" Paks swallowed hard, then went on. "We could cut—dismember him."
"You? I? I know what you would think of such. As for me, I tell you, Paksenarrion, I don't even
wish to touch that corpse, if corpse it is. Nor should you. That power may still dwell in it, and
could reach out to us. You see that the body was not consumed by the fire as it should have been;
the skin is blackened but unblistered."
"Well, then? Do we wait to see what comes of it, or what?"
Macenion shook his head. "I don't know. I wish I knew a spell to free this body from whatever
power holds it so."
" But since elves are immortal, do their bodies burn or decay?"
"Elves do not die of age alone, but they can, as you saw, be killed. And yes, their bodies can
burn or decay or return to earth in many ways."
Paks shifted her shoulders, easing the stiffness. Suddenly she was hungry—and thirsty. She put up
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and fumbled to unhook her water flask. After a couple of swallows, she felt much better. "It's too
bad," she said, "that you don't know what's in that fancy scroll you're so proud of."
Macenion scowled and opened his mouth for a quick retort, then paused. "I never thought of that,"
he said. "I wonder if—' and he rummaged around inside his tunic until he came out with the tooled
scroll case Paks had commented on. "It's difficult—" he went on, as he flicked off the lid and
slid the scroll out. "You remember I told you how expensive it was?" Paks nodded. "Thing is, a
magical scroll—one that has on it a workable spell—-can be written only by a magician who can cast
the spell without it. I don't know why; it seems a silly rule, and it certainly gives far too much
power to men who do nothing but study, but there it is. Usually a scroll belongs to the man who
wrote it, or to someone he trusts; his journeyman, say, or a brother mage. He knows which scroll
is which—or he sets his private mark on each—and all's well. But for someone who comes across one
of these scrolls—for away from the person who wrote it—it's difficult to tell what it is without
reading it."
"Then read it," said Paks, gnawing on a slab of dried meat. It was delicious. "You can read—?"
"Of course, I can read! That's not die point. That's how it's^used—by reading it. If I read it,
whatever it is happens."
"Oh. But if it's not the right thing, can't you just read another?"
"No. Think! In the first place, suppose it's a spell to turn everyone but me in the room to stone.
I read it, and there you are; stone."
"Right away?" Paks was startled.
"Yes, right away. And before you ask: no, I don't have any spell to turn you back—if one exists,
and if I cared to use it. Contrary to popular belief, reading the spell backwards doesn't make it
reverse. And in the second place, once it's read, it's gone. Poof!"
"Gone how?"
"Gone from the scroll. The magic is used up, and it— leaves.**
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"Oh. So there's no way to—to peek?"
Macenion allowed himself to look amused. "No. Not that I ever heard of. There are a lot of
teaching tales for young apprentice magicians that tell of attempts to peek and what happened
afterwards. No, I must decide, by examining all the marks on the outside of the scroll and by my
own abilities, whether it's worth chancing that the spell or spells on it will do us any good." He
peered at the scroll itself, then at the case, and then back at the scroll.
"I might just take a look into the corridors," said Paks casually. "In case someone is coming—"
"Good idea. Then you'll be out of range if something does happen." Paks had not realized that
Macenion would find her motive so obvious. She said nothing, but looked into the corridor
diagonally opposite to that from which she'd entered the chamber. This was the way the "servants"
had left. She could see no one before the corridor turned, some twenty paces away. She looked back
at Macenion. He was still examining the scroll, but he looked up at her and nodded. "Gp on—not too
far. I think I'll try one of these; for what I paid for them, they should be fairly powerful."
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It seemed a long time before he called. His voice was high and excited. Paks swept out her sword
and ran back to the chamber. She was just in time to see a blue flare lance to the ceiling from
the elf's body. A dry clatter brought her eyes back to the floor; bones lay scattered there, and
as she watched, they crumbled to dust. A draft scattered the dust. She looked up to meet
Macenion's eyes. He was pale and trembling.
"It worked," she said unnecessarily.
"Yes. It—by Orphin, I'm tired. That—even reading it— that was beyond my powers—" He reeled, and
Paks moved quickly to catch him before he fell. He lay some time unmoving. She could feel a pulse
beating in his neck, so she folded her cloak under his head and let him rest. Some time later he
opened his eyes and blinked. "What—? Oh yes. That." Silently Paks offered him water and food. He
took a long drink, and shook his head at the food. After
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another swallow, he rolled up to a sitting position and shook his head sharply.
"Do you think, Macenion, that that creature was what we came here to fight?" Paks had been
worrying about this; if it were the servant of some greater evil, she had little hope of escape.
"I think so. That—was a considerable power. If it had chosen a better spell for you, or been more
practiced at swordplay—we wouldn't be here."
'Then what were we to free? The elfs body? That couldn't have called us. What else is there?"
Macenion rubbed his face with both hands. "No. You're right. We haven't been greeted with cries of
joy and armfiils of reward, have we? Something still to be done—by Orphin, I don't know if I can
manage any more spells today." He reached for the food and started earing slowly. "Maybe you won't
need to. If whatever it was is trapped somewhere, all we need to do now is find it."
"I hope it's that easy." Macenion stood up, swaying slightly at first. "I just had a thought. I
hope whatever it is wasn't trapped in a jewel or something worn by the elf. Some magicians do that
sort of thing. If so, we're out of luck."
"If only we get out of this," said Paks, "we'll be in luck." "True. Did you see anything down that
corridor?" "No. Nothing."
Paks was never afterwards sure what had guided their choice, with so many ways to go, and no
knowledge. At first, as they walked the bare stone corridor, Macenion continued to eat, reaching
out now and again to touch the walls as if for balance. Then the corridor sloped down, and he
paused.
"Wait—" Macenion's face, when Paks turned, was grim. He pulled out his own sword, and tested the
balance. "I sense something—" "Not that thing in the Winter Hall!" Macenion shook his head. "No.
Not so dire as that. But it's as if my blood tingled—some enemy is below, and coming nearer."
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dor was slightly too wide for two to hold. "We'd better go on, then, and hope for something we can
use."
Macenion nodded, and came up beside her as they started off again.
"Don't you want to stay back and prepare your spells?"
"I told you—I can't do that again today. I'd never be able to cast a simple fire spell, let alone
anything useful."
The corridor turned right, and continued downward. Paks felt edgy; she was increasingly aware of
the weight of stone and earth above her. She found herself whispering words from a Phelani
marching song. Macenion looked at her curiously, and she blushed and fell silent.
Suddenly Paks caught a foul whiff that stopped her short. "What's that?"
Macenion looked eager. "Ah, I might have known. Ores, that's what. They would move in when the
elves were driven away."
"Ores?" Paks had heard of ores; they had raided Three Firs in her great-grandfather's day, but she
had not expected to meet any.
"Ugly but cowardly," said Macenion briskly. "If that was their master, they'll want nothing better
than escape. They won't be looking for experienced fighters like us—"
"If they want to escape, we can let them," suggested Paks.
"Let ores loose? Are you crazy? They're disgusting. Vermin, killers, filthy—"
"How many are likely to be in a group?" Paks didn't care how disgusting they were; enough ores
could kill them.
"Oh—not more than seven or eight. We can handle that many. I killed three by myself one time."
"But Macenion—"
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that thing up there—" he jerked his head back where they'd been, "—we can handle a few ores. Trust
me. Haven't I been right on this so far?"
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"Where?"
Paks looked around. Ahead, the corridor turned again twenty paces away, still going down. They had
passed no doors for the last two hundred paces. She shrugged, and went on.
Around that corner the stench was stronger. Trash littered the floor. Paks looked for someplace to
hide. Halfway to the next turn a doorway shadowed one wall. They had nearly reached it when they
heard a harsh voice from somewhere ahead. Paks darted forward. The doorway was an empty ^gap
opening into a tiny bare room. She grabbed Macenion's arm and pulled him in. He glared at her, but
said nothing as the voice came nearer in the corridor.
The first ores were uglier than Paks had imagined. Greasy leather armor covered their hunched
torsos; long arms banded with spiked leather hung nearly to the floor. The first carried a curved
blade, badly nicked along the inner curve, and the second dragged a short spear, short enough not
to impede a fighter in the corridor. Paks noted toe spare knives in sheaths on both hips, and
helmets that came low over the nose. Behind the first pair came another, whose voice they had
heard. It wore a filthy fur cloak over its armor, and carried a spiked whip as well as a sword.
Whatever it was saying to the others must have been unpleasant, for the spear carrier turned
suddenly and growled back at it. Paks flattened herself into the angle of wall away from the door,
and hoped the ores would quit arguing and go on. Macenion, however, leaned toward the door. She
realized suddenly that he was about to attack. He looked back at her and cocked his head at the
door.
If he attacked them and was killed, they'd be sure to look in the room. Paks cursed the stupidity
of all magicians, and moved to the other side of the door, sword ready.
"It's only three," hissed Macenion. "We can take them easily."
Paks hoped so. The argument outside was even louder. At least they could surprise the ores. She
took a deep breath and crouched. Now!
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Her first blow caught the third ore low, in the thigh. His leg was harder than she'd expected, but
she got her sword back, and he went down, bellowing. Macenion had gone for the spear carrier and
missed; the other sword bearer took one wild swipe at Macenion's head, then turned to Paks. The
ore she had wounded flung its whip at her sword, and she dropped the tip just in time. The ores
were faster than she'd expected. She parried the curved blade on one side and danced back from the
wounded ore's whip. Macenion was trying to get past the guard of the spear carrier. She didn't
envy him.
Once out of reach of the wounded ore, she found fencing with the other one strange but not as hard
as she'd feared. Its reach was almost as long as hers, but low; it couldn't match her height. She
had little trouble defending herself. Attack was harder. Her overhead blows fell on heavy armor.
Paks abandoned that tactic and tested its quickness. Perhaps she could get behind it. She heard a
yelp from Macenion, then a guttural command from the fallen ore. When she looked, Macenion was
fencing left-handed, shaking blood from his right hand. That was the second wound to that arm. She
attacked her own ore with sudden ferocity, and made a lucky stab under the right shoulder. The ore
fell, snarling, and stabbed at her legs. Paks skipped back and ran to Macenion's opponent. He
could not use a spear in two directions at once. Paks ran him through when he thrust at Macenion.
But before they could do anything about the first ore she had wounded, it was bellowing even
louder.
"Gods above!" gasped Macenion. "There's more of them!"
Paks heard the clamor almost as he spoke. "Which way?"
"I don't know! I—" He stared wildly around.
"Here!" Paks ripped a length of cloth from his cloak and wrapped it around his arm. "If we've got
more to fight, you don't need to be dripping like that." She still could not tell where the sound
came from; the corridor echoed confusingly.
"Well go down," said Macenion suddenly.
"Down! But—"
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"Come on!" He whirled away from her and strode down the corridor; the noise was much louder. Paks
looked after him an instant, and ran to catch up.
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to stretch her tegs to catch him. "Macenion!" She caught at his arm as he neared the next turn.
It was too late. From around the turn erupted a wild band of ores, stinking and dressed in filthy
leather armor. Before she could guess how many of them they faced, she was engulfed in a deadly
lacework of iron: swords, knives, and axes swung around her. The harsh clamor of their voices and
the ring of blades filled her ears; it seemed all she could see was weapons and armor. Then she
realized that Macenion was nearby, fencing with skill she had not suspected. That slender blade he
Bore had more strength than she'd thought.
"This way, Paks!" he yelled. He seemed to be ahead, still, and downward. Paks grunted and It
toward him, taking a solid blow in one side as she came away from the wall. She felt the rings of
her chainmail shirt dig in to die same place she'd been hit earner, but it held whatever blade
that was. She caught one ore under the chin, and dodged another. The place was full of them— she
saw a doorway, now, and another doorway, and ores in both. She slipped on something underfoot and
staggered. Lucidly they couldn't all reach her at once, and she hacked on, grimly determined to
kill as many as she could before they killed her. She couldn't see Macenion, now.
Suddenly the ores gave way in front of her, and she plunged through them to find herself in a
circular chamber, hi front of her, Macenion lay nice down as be had fallen, an axe standing out of
his back. Beyond his body rose a focus of light that changed color as she looked. She whirled to
face the ores. They blocked the doorway, grinning and muttering. One at the rear of the mass
yelled out, and they started toward her. She gave one quick glance to the chamber—no other door.
And entirely too many ores: no hope of winning through them all. She took a deep breath and
laughed, at peace with her fete.
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Afterwards she was never sure How she came to move into the light. As the ores came forward, she
ran to fight them over Macenion's body. They were too many, and pressed her back, and back again.
Someone or something was calling her—wanted her to do something—but she had no lime, no hands, for
anything but die fight. As in a dream she felt one ragged blade catch her arm, and another stabbed
deep into her leg. Ore stench choked her nose; she gasped for breath, with a sudden memory of the
young soldier in her first battle, a wry grin for the girl who would never get home. Back, and
back again, a step at a time. She kept expecting a blow from behind, but it never came. Her arm
felt heavy and clumsy; her sword slid off an ore helmet as the dagger in her left hand parried
another blade. She took a deep breath—her last, she thought—and lunged hard at the ore in front of
her.
She could not reach him. He stood as close as her own arm, but his sword, thrusting at her,
jabbing wildly, touched her not at all, nor hers, him. And a pressure filled her head, as if a
river poured itself in one side and found no outlet. She felt herself falling under that pressure,
her hand loosening, losing its grip on the dagger.
—Take— It was more of a picture than a word: a hand, grasping.
Paks stared at her own hand, open as if it were reaching for something.
—Take . . . this . . . thing— The pressure moved her eyes; she looked as it directed, and saw a
blue egg-shaped object. She could not tell how far away it was, orhow big, or even what it was.
She tried to frame a question. Instead, the command returned, and filled her whole head; she felt
it would burst. —TAKE IT—
She reached toward the object, and felt an unpleasant oily sensation on the insides of her
fingers, as if they were sinking slightly into it. But her hand closed around the object firmly.
It felt disgusting, in ways she could not describe, and had never imagined. She would have dropped
it, thrown it far away, but it clung to her hand. When she tried to open her fingers, they
wouldn't move. All at once she felt the pain of all her wounds, the exhaustion of all
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die fighting, a great heaving wave of sickness that seemed to cut her fees from under her. She
tried to raise her sword for one last blow.
And the pressure within suddenly burst out in a vast roar, a vibration so deep she felt it in her
bones and hardly at all in her ears. The light was gone—darkness churned around her—she caught a
last confused glimpse of ores screaming, tailing stones, Macenion's body glowing blue as fire—then
a deafening, whirling confusion.
And silence.
Chapter Six
When she managed to lift her head, she was lying on the turf near the well. The building they had
entered was down, collapsed in a heap of stones. It was broad daylight, with the sun's warmth
filtered through high clouds. Paks took a breath, and sneezed. She was stiff and sore, and it was


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hard to think what had happened. Her head felt empty; her ears rang like a bucket. She looked at
her hands—die one still cramped around the hilt of her sword, and the other empty, but with the
feel of something filthy on it. She scrubbed it in the grass. Her eyes watered, and she swiped at
them clumsily with her sword hand.
She knew she should get up, but she wished she could lie there and rest forever. After a moment,
sighing, she forced hersetf up; elbows, knees—she rested there for a bit. Her legs felt shaky and
uncertain. She looked at her sword; blood and dirt were caked on it. She shuffled on her knees to
the well and took a handful of water to clean it. After a mouthful or two of that clear water, she
began to feel more alert. The sword slid back in its scabbard sweetly—it feared nothing near. She
looked around for the horses. Macenion's had disappeared; that seemed right. Star grazed
unconcernedly across the well from her. There were the packs, lying open outside the ruins of the
little building. Whatever had happened, there below, was over. She could do nothing for Macenion
now. She must go on.
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Even so she might have sat beside the well for the rest of the day if something had not moved her.
The pressure she had felt before seeped back into her mind. This time it was more delicate: she
was aware of it as a separate being. There were thanks, for her and Macenion. There were
directions, specific and detailed. Slowly she rose to her feet, and slowly she gathered up her
belongings. She wondered what to do with Macenion's things, and the being told her. This to the
well, and that under a stone, and those to lie open on the grass, for the wind and sun to play
with. Star came to her quietly, and she tied her pack to the frame.
Before she left, the being demanded one thing more. She was tired and found it hard to think, but
the pressure gave her no ease until she obeyed. In that mound, through that gap—and take those
things. She packed, vaguely aware that much of it was treasure: weapons decorated with gold and
jewels, coins, rings, and baubles. But why the scrolls? She didn't understand, but she obeyed,
picking up what she was bid, and stowing it away in Star's pack. As she worked, the clouds
thickened overhead, and a chill wind rolled down from the mountains. She didn't notice. She felt
no triumph, only a great tiredness.
As she stumbled away on the narrow track she had been nudged to follow, the first dancing flakes
of snow fell from the thickening clouds behind her. Soon a light dusting whitened the tops of the
mounds in the valley, outlined the limbs of trees and clung to the cedars in little furry clumps.
The clouds reached out, northwards, and gathered in the trail Paks had taken. Snow hung in the air
around her, filling her lungs with its damp clean smell. She hardly noticed. It was harder and
harder to walk. Every step seemed to take the last of her strength, as if she were pulling her
legs out of the ground. Her left hand still felt dirty, and she rubbed it on her trousers as she
walked, without realizing it. Uphill—it was all uphill, trying to clear the ridge on the far side
of the valley. Paks caught at Star's pack, clung to it, and the sturdy pony plowed on, through the
deepening snow, ears flat and tail clamped down. Her left side caught the blast of wind off the
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tains. Soon it was numb, and she stumbled, lurching into Star, and then back, to tall face-down in
die snow. A wave of nausea swept over her, but she had nothing to heave. Her stomach cramped. She
couldn't push herself up; she felt the snow on the back of her neck, and then
The eHane taig, having won, settled back into place with satisfaction. Its rule ran to the
boundary stones placed by die elves when first they came. If it could do something, for die one
who freed it from such contamination, it might do so—but beyond the stones it could not go. And,
as well, die troubles of weak mortals are of little interest to such as die eHane taig. Even less
when it had suddenly been restored to its powers, and had much to do. She had received her reward.
The elfane taig had no notion, of course, of die human value of what she had been given; gold, it
knew, was prized by humans. Some of die other objects had come from humans in the first place. The
eHane taig thought their return appropriate.
In die darkness the first elf mistook her snow-covered body for a drift of snow, and stumbled over
it. His muffled curse disturbed the pony, huddled in a thicket nearby, and she snorted.
Quickly die next elves found die pony and soothed her, whisking die snow from her back and running
deft hands over rhe pack straps. Meanwhile die first elf felt what was under the drift, and called
for more light. Torches flared in die windy darkness.
"A human." Contempt laced the silver voice.
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"Robber indeed," said one of die elves near Star. "Tnis Htde one is loaded with such treasure that
she can hardly walk. And more than that, it comes from die banast taig.'
"Mother of Trees! I had not thought even die humans bold enough to rob there. Or skilled enough to
escape." The leader of the group looked at a dagger and sheath from die pack and shook his head.
"With such to carry, it must not DC escape, but something worse."
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"She is alive," said the first elf, after finding a pulse.
"Not for long," said the leader. "We may not be able to challenge that evil, but we can deal with
its minions. We can leave—"
"Look at this," said one of those going through the pack. He held out to the leader the sealed
message from the Halveric. "Is this stolen as well?"
"We must know what we have here, before we decide what to do," added the one at Pak's side. "I
feel no great evil in her." He had brushed the snow off her, and now caught his breath as he saw
the rings on her hand. He worked off the one with the Duke's seal, and read the inscription
inside. "This is no common robber, cousins. Here is a ring given for honor to a soldier of the
Duke Phelan—Halveric's friend, and—"
"And we all know of Kieri Phelan. Yes. If she did not steal that as well. We shall wake her, then,
and see what she says. I doubt that any fair tale can be told resulting in such a one bringing
treasure out of the banast taig. But we shall see."
Pales was vaguely aware of voices talking over her head before she woke fully. They were strange-
sounding voices, musical and light but carrying power nonetheless. Light glowed through her
eyelids. She struggled toward it, and finally managed to raise her heavy lids.
"You waken at last," said one of the strange beings before her. He turned to speak to another, and
Paks saw torchlight play over the planes of his face. It was clearly unhuman, and in it she saw
full strength the strangeness that Macenion had shared. These must be elves. He looked back at
her, his expression unreadable. "You were very cold. Can you speak now?"
Paks worked her jaw around, and finally managed to say yes, weakly.
"Very well. We have many questions for you, human warrior. It would be well for you to answer
truthfully. Do you understand?"
"Who—are you?" Paks had no idea of elven politics, if any.
"Do you not know elves, human, when you see them?"
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"I thought—elves—but who?"
Arched eyebrows rode up his forehead. "Do humans now concern themselves with the genealogy of
elves, having so little themselves? If you would know, then, I am of the family of Sialinn—do you
know what that means?" Paks shook her head. "Then you need know no more of my family. Who are you,
and what lineage gives you the right to question elves?"
Paks remembered now Macenion's pride, and how Bosk had always said elves were haughty and
difficult.
"I am Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter," she began. "Of Three Firs, far to die north and west—"
"Far indeed," said one of the other elves. "I have seen that place, though not for many years. Is
there a birch wood, a day's ride west of it, in the side of a hill?"
"I don't know, sir; I never traveled so far before leaving to join the Duke's Company. Since then,
I have never been home, or near it."
"Whose company was this you joined?"
"Duke Phelan s. He has a stronghold in northern Tsaia, and fights in Aarenis."
"A red-haired man?" Pals nodded, and the elf went on. "This packet sealed by the Halveric, in your
baggage: how came you by that?"
"1 was given it, by the Halveric, to take to his home." Even as she spoke, Paks felt the cold
darkness rolling over her again. One of the elves exclaimed, and she felt an aim under her
shoulders. A cold rim touched her tips, and fiery liquid trickled into her mouth. She swallowed.
Warmth edged its way along her bones.
Not too much of that," said the first elf who had spoken to her. "In case we must—" He broke off
and looked at her again. "You have come to a strange place, soldier of Duke Phelan and messenger
of the Halveric. You have come to a strange place, anoyou seem—forgive me—weaker than I would
expect such a soldier to be. Give us now an account of how you came here, and what you were doing
in the valley of the banast taig."
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hard put to distinguish the encounters of the last day or so from those in the past. Still she
managed to convey the call she and Macenion had received, and the outline of their adventures
undergound. The elves listened attentively, interrupting only to ask for clarification. When she
finished, they looked at each other in silence. Then a burst of elven; it sounded to her like an
argument. The leader turned to her again.
"Well, Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter, you have told an unlikely tale, to be sure. Yet on the chance
that it is true, I am sending one of my party into the banast taig to find out. Should he not
return, or return in jeopardy, it will go hard with you."
In the snowy darkness, Paks could not tell how long the elf was gone. She lapsed into a doze,
hardly aware of her surroundings. She was roused by a hand on her shoulder.
"Awake, warrior. You will need this—" and a hot mug pressed against her lips. She swallowed, still
half asleep, and found the taste strange but pleasant. Slowly her drifting mind came back to her.
She tried to sit up on her own, but was still too weak. The elves had pitched a shelter over her,
and a tiny fire flickered in one corner, under a pot.
"You still need healing," said the elf leader. "I admit surprise, Paksenarrion. I would not have
believed such a thing without proof. The banast taig freed to be the elfane taig again, and the
pollution gone from its heart! We rejoice to know that. But you have taken more damage from that
combat than you know: humans cannot fight evil of that power unscathed. Without healing, you would
die before daylight."
Paks could not think what to say. She felt weak, and a little sick, but no worse than that. As the
elf seemed waiting for something, she finally asked. "Was—did you find out about Macenion?"
"Macenion!" It was very nearly a snort. "That one! The elfane taig buried him cleanly with his
orcish murderers; he is well enough."
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"Macenion a half-elf? Did he tell you that?" Paks nodded, and the elf leader frowned. "No, little
one, he was not hatf-elven—not a quarter elven, either. He had so much elvish as might your pack
pony have of racing blood."
"But he said—" Paks broke off. It was hard to talk, and she realized that Macenion's behavior made
more sense the less elven he was.
"He lied. What did he tell you, Paksenarrion, to get you into that valley?"
"That—his elven cousins—denied him his rights to elvish things. That he knew of—treasure
there—that should be his."
"Did he not warn you of evil at all?"
"Yes—but he said his magical talents could fight that; he needed a warrior for protection
against—physical things. Like the ores."
"I see that you speak truly. I apologize, Paksenarrion, for the untruth of this distant cousin; it
shames me that any elven blood could lie so."
"That's—all right." Paks felt as if she were slipping down a long dark slope.
"No! By the gods of men and elves, we shall redeem the word of our cousin." And the elf shook her
again, lifting her up until she could drink from a cup one of the others held. The darkness crept
back. The elven faces came back into focus. Then one of them laid his hand on her head, and began
to sing. She had never heard anything like that, and in trying to follow the song she forgot what
was happening. Suddenly she felt a wave of strength and health surge through her. The elf removed
his hand, and smiled at her.
"Is that better now?"
"Yes—much better." Paks sat up, and stretched. She felt well and rested, better than she'd felt in
days.
"Good. It will be day, soon, and we must be going. We have much to say to you in the few hours
left us."
The snow had stopped before dawn. A light wind tore the last clouds to shreds and let the first
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and Paks saw their beauty clearly. She felt ashamed to have thought Macenion elvish-looking. One
of them caught her thought, and laughed, the sound chiming down the long slope.
"No—--don't be sorry, fair warrior. Your eyes saw truly, to find what was there in so little.
Remember what we have told you, and fere well."
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felt far distant from the self of yesterday. She felt a surge of the same spirit that had sent her
away from home in the first place, a sense of adventure and excitement. Anything might
happen—anything had happened. She still found it difficult to think clearly what it was—what
nature of thing she and Macenion had fought against, and what had helped her at the end. The words
eliane taig meant nothing to her. The elves' explanation meant very little more.
But she was on a trail once more, alive and eager to be going. Star moved slowly, burdened heavily
by the gifts of the elfane taig. Paks had transferred some of that to her own back. The pony
snorted a little with each heave of her hindquarters. Paks grinned to herself. No more mountains,
they had told her. These, that would have been mountains anywhere else, counted but as foothills,
and in another two days she would be on die gentler lowland slopes.
On the for side of the ridge, only a few patches of snow whitened the trail, and by noon these had
melted. Now other trees mingled with the pointed evergreens—duller greens, more rounded shapes.
Paks did not need her cloak, for warmth. She was alert for danger, but the elves had told her that
they sensed nothing dire moving in the area. She hoped they were right. As far as she could see,
the forested slopes wove into each other endlessly, the trail angling down one and up another,
always edging west and north.
Her solitary camp that night was almost too silent. She had resented Macenion's lectures—yet to
sit alone, in the middle of a vast wilderness, was worse than anything he had ever said to her.
She doused her tiny fire early, and
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sat awake a long time, staring at the stars. The night was half gone when she realized that she
was missing more than Macenion. She had never, in her life, spent an entire night alone like this.
Not even once had she slept outside, out of hearing or sight of others. The thought itself made
her shiver, and she got up to check on Star. The pony's warm rough mane reassured her. She looked
at the stars again, her hands still tangled in Star's mane. The night sky seemed to go on forever,
up and up without ending, as if the stars were sewn on veils that lay one behind another. She
looked for Torre's Necklace; it was still behind the mountains. Of the other stars she knew
nothing.
A breeze began to move lightly along the ground. Star moved away from her hand, and lowered her
head to graze. Paks went back to the blankets she'd laid out. A wild animal cried out in the
distance; she stiffened, but no sound followed. Paks felt an urge to take out Canna's medallion;
her hand found her pouch before she thought. Her fingers touched it, smoothed the crescent shape.
When she pulled it out, Saben's little horse came along; the thongs were tangled. She woke stiff
and cold in the morning, with Star nosing her face, and the horse and crescent still clutched in
her hand.
That day warmed quickly. Paks looked over the whole treasure she had been given, and made her
first estimate of its value. She had not realized what she'd taken—it was too much—it shouldn't be
hers. But she was not going to return to the elfane taig with it, that was certain. She thought
the elves must have examined it as well, and if they said nothing about it, she would not.
Sunlight glittered on die items she'd laid in the grass—the ruby-decorated dagger and sheath, the
gold and jewel inlaid battleaxe, gold and silver coins, both familiar in stamp and strange, a set
of chainmail that was oddly light when she lifted it, and looked as if it would fit. She thought
about that, looked around, and tried it on. It did fit—perfectly—which made her scowl, thinking.
Where had she heard of enchanted mail, evil stuff—? But when she reached for Canna's medallion,
nothing happened; it felt easy in her hand. Was it dress mail, then, good for nothing? She tried
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dagger on the sleeve, notching the dagger. Lightweight, the right size—she scowled again, but kept
it on. Over it she put on the best clothes she had—not that any of them looked like much, she
thought ruefully, remembering the money she'd spent in Sord to outfit herself.
It was late when she started moving again, and she traveled slowly, as much for her own benefit as
the pony's. She was beginning to wonder what she would find when she came out of the wilderness
into settled lands again. The elves had been quite specific in their directions—go to
Brewersbridge, they had said, by this trail, and tell the Master Oakhallow and Marshal Deordtya
about the elfane taig. But they would say no more about either Master Oakhallow or the Marshal, or
why these would want to know about events so far away.
As Paksenarrion came around the slope of the hill, she could see cleared fields and orchards some
miles ahead, their straight edges easily visible against the broken forest and meadowland. The
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a barelegged child with a crook watching them from a rock. Gradually the track changed from rock
to dirt. Star stepped out more easily. Paks lengthened her own stride to keep up. She saw smoke
rising from the center of the cleared area; perhaps it was the village the elves had spoken of.
She wondered if the people were friendly. At least it was the north again: home.
In an hour, she was among the fields and orchards. She had passed two farmsteads set back from the
road. Hie farms looked prosperous; she noted tight bams, well-made stone walls, sleek livestock. A
boy picking early apples from a tree near the track told her the village ahead was Brewersbridge;
when she'd passed she looked back and saw him running for the farmhouse. Now the track joined a
lane, bordered on either side by a wall, wide enough for wagon traffic. She noted wheelruts
grooving the surface. On the right, a wedge of forest met the road; she could not tell how large
it was. Ahead were a cluster of buildings and another road coming in from the right.
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Two cottages now on the left, one opening directly on the road. Beyond them was a large two-story
building with a walled courtyard to one side. A bright green and yellow sign hung over the road,
and a paved area fronted it. Paks squinted at the sign: The Jolly Potboy. It must be an inn; it
was too big for a tavern. She looked around.
The inn sat at the crossroad, feeing north. The road Paks had come on continued generally west,
wandering among houses and shops. The north road was straighter, with buildings along its west
side and forest on the east. The ground floor of the inn had a row of tall windows feeing the
road; these were open, and Paks heard the murmur of many voices from inside. She wondered if she
had enough money to stay there. The treasure—but she didn't know what it was worth, or if they
would accept the old coin.
As she hesitated, a stout man in a big apron came out and spoke to her.
"Just arrived?"
"Yes, sir."
"Will you be wanting a room?"
"I don't know, sir. How much are they?"
"A silver in the common loft; that includes bread and beer for breakfast. A gold crown for a
private room; two for the suite. A silver a day for stabling, including grain, hay, grooming, and
safe storage for your tack."
Paks thought a moment. It seemed high, but she had enough southern money for a night or two. She
could always find a cheaper place the next day. Star could use a good bait of grain. "I'd like a
private room," she said. 'And stabling for Star,"
"That'll be in advance, please," said the man. "I'm Jos Hebbinford, the landlord.'
Paks wrapped Star's lead around her arm and dug into her belt pouch. "Here—" she handed over the
money. "I'm Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter, from Three Firs."
The landlord looked closely at the coins she had given him. "Hmm. From Aarenis—that your home?"
"No, sir. Three Firs is north and west of here. I was with Duke Phelan's company in the south, and
I'm headed home."
"I see, A fighter, are you?" Paks nodded. "Are you a Girdsman, too?"
"No. I've known those who were."
"Hmmm. We don't think much of brawling, here."
Paks flushed. "I'm not a brawler, sir."
"Good. Just a moment—Sevri! Sevrienna!" At his call, a short stocky redheaded girl came out of the
courtyard and ran up. "My daughter, Sevrienna," said the landlord. "Sevri, this is Paksenarrion,
who will be staying this night. This is her horse—" he glanced at Paks.
"Her name's Star," said Paks. "She's gentle."
"Sevri will take Her to the stable," said Hebbinford. "If you'd like to see your room—?"
"If you don't mind, sir," said Paks, "I'll just give Star a rubdown first, and check her hooves.
She's come a long way over rocks."
"Very well. Sevri will help you. When you come in, I'll take you to your room."
"Come on—this way," said Sevri. Paks followed. The walled courtyard was large, paved in flat slabs
of gray stone. A flock of red and black hens scratched and pecked in the entrance of the stable
that ran along one side; a black cock with gold on his throat and a green tail stood atop the
dungheap. Along other sides of the courtyard were barns full of nay and an open shed with two
wagons and a cart beneath it.
Sevri led Paks to a box stall big enough for a warhorse; all the stalls were big. "I can rub her
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Paks smiled at the child. "I want to check her and make sure she hasn't hurt her hooves on the
rocks. If you want to rub her down—"
Sevri nodded. "Surely. She'll be easier than the big horses, and I do them. Do you want her to
have grain, or would a mash be better?"
"A mash would be good for her, if it's not too much trouble."
"I'll put one on, then come back and start on her. If you want water to work on her feet, here's a
bucket, and the well is out there." Sevri jerked her head toward the courtyard.
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When Sevri had gone, Paks untied the bundles from the saddle, and lifted them down. Star sighed.
"Poor pony," said Paks. "That was a load. Here now—" She uncinched the pack saddle and lifted it
from Star's back. Underneath, Star s coat was matted and damp. Paks moved the bundles to one side
of the stall, and bent to feel Star's legs. Then she took the bucket Sevri had pointed out, and
fmed it at die well. Back in the stall, she lifted Star's feet, one at a time. They were dry and
hot. Paks found a rag in her pack that she'd used for a headcloth and dipped it in the water. She
washed out each hoof and dampened the coronary band. The pony reached down and mumbled Paks's
hair. "No, Star; stop that." Paks shoved the pony's head away. She found a cut on the off hind
pastem, and cleaned it out carefully.
"You must like her a lot," said Sevri. Paks jumped.
"I didn't hear you come."
"That's because I'm barefooted," said Sevri. "Are her feet all right?"
"Yes, but for one little cut. Just dry from the rocks."
"She is wet. You want me to start rubbing her now?"
"Yes. Just let me get these things out of the stall." Paks grunted as she hoisted the bundles. She
dumped them in the aisle. Sevri was watching her.
"That must be awfully heavy."
"It is," said Paks shortly.
Sevri had brought two lengths of coarse woolen cloth and a brush. When she picked up one cloth and
started work on Star's sweaty back, Paks took the other and began the other side.
"You don't have to help me," said Sevri. "I can do it by myself."
"Do you mind, though? I'm used to doing her."
"No-o. But I am strong enough."
"I don't doubt that," said Paks, though she did. Star turned her head and nudged Sevri with her
soft nose. Sevri stopped and stroked Star's head.
"She's gentle," said Sevri. "Have you had her long?"
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everyone. Only don't come near her with apples unless you want to lose a few."
Sevri laughed. "I'll bring her one. Is she greedy about other things?"
Paks shrugged. "She's a pony. I've never known a pony that wouldn't eat anything it could find,
have you?"
"That's true." Sevri looked across Star's back at Paks. "Are you a fighter?"
Paks paused before answering. "It depends on what you mean by fighter. Your father seems to think
a fighter is the same as a brawler, a troublemaker. That's not what I am. I was a mercenary, a
soldier in the Duke's Company."
"But you can use that sword?"
"Oh, yes. I can use a sword. That's how I've earned my keep since I left home. But that doesn't
mean I go picking fights everywhere."
"I see." Paks thought by the tone of Sevri's answer that she didn't see. She decided to change the
subject.
"Sevri, I have a message for two people here: can you tell me where to find them?"
"Surely."
"One is a Master Oakhallow—" she stopped as Sevri gasped audibly.
"You—you know Master Oakhallow?"
"No, I don't know him; I've never been here before. But someone I met a few days ago gave me a
message for him. What's wrong?"
"Nothing. He's the Kuakgan, that's all."
Paks felt a chill. "Kuakgan? I didn't know that."
Sevri nodded. "He's a good man, it's just—he's very powerful, Master Oakhallow. My father's told
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Paks said, "Well, I must speak to him, at least. Where is he?"
"In his grove, of course. I'll show you, when we're through. Which way did you come in?"
"From the southeast," Paks pointed.
"Well, then, you saw part of the grove on your right, as you came into town."
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"I remember. I was surprised to see uncleared forest so near the town."
"Don't go in except by the entrance," said Sevri. "It's dangerous. Now: who else was it you wanted
to find?"
"There's a grange of Gird here, isn't there?" Sevri nodded. "I must speak to a—a Marshal, I think
it was, by the name of Deordtya."
Sevri stared. "She isn't here any more. We have a new Marshal now, called Cedfer, and a Yeoman-
marshal called Ambros. But what kind of message can you have for the Kuakgan and the Marshal?"
"I'm sorry, Sevri, but I must speak with them first."
"Oh. Of course, I shouldn't have asked."
"That's all right. Now, where can I put the packsaddle, and where's a safe place for these
bundles?"
"Here—" Sevri ducked around Star and led Paks down the aisle. "Put your things here—and I'll be
around watching, if you'll trust me. You can leave your bundles here, too."
Paks looked at the freckled face and wondered.
"They'll be safer here than in your room," said Sevri frankly. "The rooms have locks, but Father's
(airly sure we have a thief staying with us. Nothing's happened yet, but—I can watch your things,
out here. '
Paks sighed. "All right, Sevri. I'll be back when I've made my visits."
"Don't miss supper," said Sevri, grinning. "We have good food."
Paks smiled back at her. "I won't miss dinner, not after my journey." She left the stable and
entered the inn. The landlord saw her at once and came forward.
"Sevri taking care of you?"
"Yes, sir. She's most helpful."
"Come this way—upstairs—to your room." He turned and led the way across the main room to a broad
stone stair. Paks followed, glancing about. The main room evidently served as both tavern and
dining room; it was furnished with tables and benches. Haifa dozen men were scattered about the
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a black cloak over trousers and tunic, two looked like merchants, in long gowns, and one was a
huge burly fellow in a patched leather tunic over russet hose. Two women sat near the fireplace:
the gray-haired one drew out yarn on a hand spindle, while the dark one marked something in a
book. Paks went on up the stairs.
A landing at the top of the stairs opened onto a passage on one side and a fair-sized room with
pallets in it on me other. The landlord led the way down the passage, past two doors on the left,
and three on the right, to stop at the third on the left. He took a ring of keys from his belt and
fitted one to the lock. The door swung open silently.
The room was compact but not cramped. A sturdy wooden bedstead with a thick straw pallet on it
stood against the left-hand wall. Linen sheets were stretched over the pallet, and two thick wool
blankets were folded at the foot. A three-legged stool stood at the foot of the bed, and a low
chair (leather stretched on a wood frame) stood under the window. A row of pegs ran down both
walls of the room, and a narrow clothespress stood beside the door. The walk were whitewashed, the
wooden floor scrubbed, and the room smelled as clean as it looked. Paks looked out and saw the
window overlooked the crossroads.
"Will this do?" asked the landlord.
"Oh, yes. It's very nice," said Paks.
"Good." He worked the key to the room off his ring and handed it to her. "Return this, please,
before you leave. Is there anything more?" Paks shook her head, and be turned away. Paks shut the
door, then took down her hair and combed it. If she was to see a Kuakgan and a Gird's Marshal, she
would be neat, at least. She brushed her cloak as well as she could, rebraided her hair, and left
the room, locking it carefully behind her.
Chapter Seven
Paks left the inn, wishing she didn't have to go. She felt eyes watching her from the inn's wide
windows; her shoulders twitched. Evening light glowed in the changing foliage of the trees on her
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coming toward her. They stared, and she returned the stare coolly, hand near the hilt of her
sword. One opened his mouth, but his companion nudged him in the ribs and they passed by in
silence.
Ahead on the right she saw a break in the wall of trees and leaves. As she came closer, she saw
that it was an arch of sorts: vines binding branches, with a narrow path winding away toward the
wood. Paks paused before the opening. She could go in the morning, she thought, and started to
turn away—tut there on the road were more men-at-arms, and these moved towards her. She stepped
under the arch and went in.
She had taken only a few steps when she became aware of the silence. Voices from the road did not
penetrate the grove. Her own breathing seemed loud. She slowed, and looked around. Trees,
irregularly spaced. More light than she would have expected under the trees, but—she looked
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up—the leaves were worn and frayed with autumn. Golden light spilled through. The path, though
narrow, was easy to see, picked out in rounded white stones that looked like river cobbles. She
moved on, alert and watchful. Sevrienna had not had to warn her about Kuakkganni and their groves.
Everything she had ever heard of them was danger.
A gust of wind stirred the dry leaves around her. As the rustling faded away, she heard somewhere
ahead the gentle laughter of falling water. The path twisted once, then again. The trees framed
more light: a glade, open to the sky. Almost in the center was a simple fountain, water welling up
in a stone basin and trickling over the edge to fell into another, and then another. The last was
a small pool from which Paks could see no outlet. Beside the fountain was a rough block of stone
with a wide bronze basin on top. Paks moved towards it, eyes scanning the clearing. Now she could
see a low gray house, close under the trees on the far side of the clearing; it looked almost like
a fallen tree-trunk, it was so rough. Paks made out a door and windows, shuttered, but nothing
else. The clearing was otherwise empty.
Still nervous, Paks neared the fountain. Its water was perfectly clear, a silken skin that rippled
with every breath of air; the felling drops from one level to the next sparkled like jewels. Paks
looked back to see if the sun was still that high. It had gone behind the trees but scattered
rays, she assumed, lit the fountain. She tore her gaze from the water and approached the bronze
basin on its pedestal of stone. An offering basin, she was sure: but what offerings were
acceptable to Kuakkganni? Childhood memories of the dark tales her grandfather told clouded her
mind. Blood, he'd said. Kuakkganni follow the oldest gods, and blood they demand.
"It is customary to place one's offering in the basin." The voice was deep and resonant, complex.
Paks jerked her head up and found herself face to face with a tall, dark-faced man in a hooded
robe of greens and browns. Her heart leaped against her ribs; she felt sweat spring out on her
back. She had heard nothing.
"Sir, I—" she swallowed, as her voice foiled, and tried
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again. "Sir, I know not what offerings would be acceptable —to a Kuakgan."
The heavy brows arched. "Oh! And why would one with no knowledge of Kuakkganni come seeking one?"
Paks found it Bard to meet those dark eyes. 'Sir, I was told to."
"By whom?"
"By die elves, sir." Paks did not miss the sudden shift of shoulders, the movement of brows and
eyelids.
"Go on, then. What elves, and why?"
"Sir, die elves of the Ladysforest. Tlie one who sent me said that he was of the family of
Sialinn."
"And his message?"
"That the etiane taig had woken again, the lost elf been freed."
"Ahh. That is news indeed. And did he chance on you, to be his messenger, or had he other
reasons?"
"I had been there—" Paks began to shiver, remembering as if it were happening, the final conflict
in the round chamber.
"Hmmm. So there is more reason than chance. Well, then, 111 have your name, wanderer, and you
shall indeed ofler something to the peace of the grove which you
My name is Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter—"
"From the northwest, by your patronymic. And for an offering, what have you?"
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please—but I have these—" She poured out on her palm the largest jewels from the treasure."
"Any would be acceptable," said the Kuakgan. "Place your ottering in the basin." Paks wondered why
he did not simply take one, but chose a green stone from them and set it carefiilly at the base of
the bowl. The others she returned to the pouch.
"And 1," said the Kuakgan as if continuing a sentence, "am Master Oakhallow. As you knew, a
Kuakgan. But I think you must have strange ideas, child, of what Kuakkganni are—what, then?"
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To her surprise, Paks found herself telling her grandfather's lore. "And he said, sir, that—that
Kuakkganni ate babies—sir—at the dark of midwinter."
"Babies!" The Kaukgan sounded more amused than angry. "That old tale still! No, child, we don't
eat babies. We aon't even kill babies. In feet, if you use that sword you're wearing for anything
but decoration, I daresay you've spilled more blood than I have."
Paks stared at him. Despite the undertone of amusement, he still radiated power. She wondered if
he could tell what she was thinking. Macenion had said that wizards could—were Kuakkganni the
same?
"Are you a warrior?" he pursued.
"Yes, sir."
"Hmm. And involved somehow in the wakening of the eUane taig. Well, then, tell this tale: where
are you from that you came to that dread valley, and what happened?"
Paks looked again at his face, trying to gauge nis mood. It was impossible. His dark eyes seemed
to compel her to go on. She began, haltingly enough, to explain that she had left a mercenary
company in Aarenis to return to the north. When she came to tell of her companion, the Kuakgan
stopped her abruptly.
"Who did you say? Macenion? He said he was an elf?"
"Yes, sir." Paks wondered at his expression. "Later he said He was but half-elven—"
"Half-elf! Hmmph! No wonder the elves sent you here." He motioned for ner to continue. She went on
to tell of the early part of their journey, at first slowly, but warming up to it when describing
Macenion's behavior among the wardstones. Her resentment flared again: he had lied to her, he had
pretended to knowledge he didn't have, he might have gone on and left her. . . . She stopped
abruptly, at the look on the Kuakgan's face. Suddenly that quarrel seemed silly, like the attempt
of a half-drunken private to explain to Stammel that a drinking companion was really to blame. She
rushed on, skimping on the other adventures. This was no time to bring up the snowcat Then she
came to Macenion's decision to enter the valley of the ettane taig.
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"He said whatever was there wouldn't hurt me, because I was human, and the power was elvish. He
said that the elves had tried to keep him away out of jealousy, but he knew he could control
whatever evil was there, and regain his inheritance."
"And what did you think, human warrior?" Paks could not tell if the deep voice was scornful or
merely interested. She felt the same confusion at his questions as at the elves' persistent
interrogation. Why would anyone expect her to have an opinion about something like the eliane
taig? She explained about the dreams, and Macenion s confidence in his own wizardry.
"Did you trust him?" asked the Kuakgan, in the same
Paks remembered too well the sinking feeling she'd had as they entered the outer wards. But he had
died well. "Yes," she said slowly. "He could be good with a sword. And he could make light, and
windshift, and that."
The Kuakgan looked at her closely. "Don't lie to me, child. Did you truly trust him, as you would
have trusted a member of your old company?"
"No, sir." Paks stared down at the grass blades between her feet.
"And yet you went with him: knowing that danger, and powers a human should not fece, lay below?"
"Not faiotwEng, sir. I felt clanger, and was worried, but I didn't know what we faced. And we had
traveled together for weeks. Besides, he knew more than I—"
The Kuakgan frowned. "You said that before. You seem to be convinced of it. And you followed this
so-called half-etf, whom you did not trust, into unknown dangers. Followed him, it seems, even to
the depths of that ruin?"
"Yes, sir." She went on with her story, not quite sure bow much detail to put in. When she came to
her first sight of the old elf-lord, she stopped short, trembling and sweating. She could scarcely
get her breath, and her vision blurred.
"No," came a firm voice, like a command, and a sharp scent tickled her nose. She took a long
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twisting some gray herb. "You must tell this tale," he said, "but I will make it easier. Sit
there, on the pool's edge." Paks sank down, her sword banging against her leg. The Kuakgan
scattered more leaves on the pool, and their scent seemed to clear her head. "Now," he said above
her. "Now go on."
She was able to continue by clenching her mind to the task, forcing out the words phrase by
phrase. Since her wakening to the elves' care, she had carefully avoided those memories, and they
lay bright and sharp as shards of glass, still capable of injury. She could see the elf-lord's
ravaged face, the strange blue flames, the very chips and notches on the ores' weapons. Their
stench stung her nose; their hoarse cries rasped her ears. Macenion's body lay once more dead at
her feet.
"We couldn't stay together," said Paks bleakly, unaware of the tears that ran from her closed
eyes. "I tried to stay near him, but—"
"Enough." A strong hand gripped her shoulder. "And what of the elfane taig?"
"The elfan taig?"
"That which you freed."
She had never understood what happened at the end; describing it clearly was impossible. But again
the disgusting touch of whatever she had had to take shriveled her mind. And then, with relief,
she told of the escape, of the journey from the valley, and the felling snow.
"When did the elves find you?" asked the Kuakgan.
"That night, I think. I don't remember. I woke, and it was cold, and snowing, and dark. I couldn't
move. The elves were there; at first they seemed angry, and then suddenly they were kind."
"Hmmm." The Kuakgan sat, suddenly, in front of her. "Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter, you give your
name freely— look at me." Paks looked, and could not look away. She could not say afterwards how
long she met the Kuakgan's gaze. He broke it at last, rose, and offered a hand up. "Well," he said
briskly, "you're an honest warrior, at least. Kuakkgannl rarely have to do with warriors, but I've
been known to make exceptions." Paks stood, once more aware
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of the glade's silence. "Are you planning to be here long?" he asked.
"I don't know, sir. I might be, if someone hired me; otherwise I'll be going on when Star has
rested from the mountains."
"You're looking for work? As a fighter?"
"Yes, sir. At least—I want to send my father what he paid on my dowry before I left."
The Kuakgan's eyes shifted to look at the jewel winking in the offering basin. "Hmmm. If you've
many of that quality, I'd think they would cover most dowries. Was your lather a wealthy man?"
"No, sir. A sheepfarmer, near Three Firs. He had his own land and flocks, but he wasn't rich. Not
the way people are in cities."
"I see. You should have those things valued, then. I think you have enough for repayment of any
likely sum. But tell me, what sort of employment were you hoping for, after the mercenaries?"
Paks flushed at the tone of his question. "It was an honorable company, sir," she said firmly. "I
wasn't sure—I thought a guard company perhaps. The Duke suggested that."
"Duke? What Duke?"
"Duke Phelan, of Tsaia—"
"Ah," he broke in. "The Halveric's friend? A redhead?" When Paks nodded, the Kuakgan went on. "So
that's die company you've been in. Why did the Duke suggest you leave, young warrior?"
Paks did not want to get into that question, least of all to a Kuakgan. Her confusion and
reluctance must have shown, because the Kuakgan shook his head. "Never mind, then. I have no right
to ask that, unless the answer poses a danger for those under my care, and I judge it does not.
But tell me, did the elves give you any other message here?"
"Not to you, sir. They did say I should speak to Marshal Deordtya, but the innkeeper's daughter
said that she was no longer here: she said a Marshal Cedfer had taken her place."
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"The elves sent you to Girdsmen?" the Kuakgan seemed surprised at this.
Paks didn't want to answer any more questions. "Yes, sir, and I'd better be going now—"
"You just arrived this afternoon. Are you in such a hurry?"
Paks sensed more behind the simple question. She took refuge in stubbornness. "Yes, sir. They told
me to come to you, and to the Marshal. I should do that as soon as 1 can."
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need not bring such an offering each time. One of Jos Hebbinford's oakcakes will do."
"Yes, sir. Thank you." Paks was not sure why she was thanking the Kuakgan, but she felt much less
afraid of him, though she didn't doubt his power. When he nodded dismissal, Paks turned and went
back along the path to the north road. As she stepped through the arch of vines and trees, the
village noises returned. A boy and a small herd of goats were jogging toward the crossroads, the
goats baaing loudly. Somewhere nearby a smith was at work; the cadenced ring of steel on anvil
made Paks think of Star's worn hooves. She wondered if it was a farrier or a weaponsmith. She
looked about, but the sound came from behind the first row of buildings, and she decided not to
look for it right away. At the crossroad, she turned right, as Sevri had told her, toward the
Gird's grange, and followed a curving lane past one small shop after another. Faces glanced out at
her, curious; those she passed in the street looked sideways: she felt the looks.
The lane angled around a larger building, set back in a fenced yard, and dipped toward a small
river. Over the river was a stone bridge, unexpectedly large, with handsome carved endposts on the
parapets. Upstream a millwheel turned slowly; downstream on the near bank was a large building and
yard. At first Paks thought it was another inn, for a group of men sat on its wide veranda
drinking ale, but the sign over die gate said "Ceddrin and Sons: Brewmasters" with a picture of a
tapped barrel. Across the river from the brewery, and a Ottle down-
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stream, was a yard foil of hides hung on frames, and stinking tubs: the tanner's. Paks crossed the
bridge, and saw a great barnlike building looming over the cottages between. If Sevri was right,
that was the grange.
As Paks came nearer, she noted the construction of the Girdsmen's meeting place. It was very much
like the barns she'd seen in grain-growing regions, stone-walled to twice a man's height, and
closely fitted boards above that. Tall narrow windows began in the top course of stones and rose
to the eaves of a steeply pitched roof. On die end nearest the road, wagon-wide doors of heavy
dark wood barred with iron were tightly closed. Above them was a square hay-door with the hoist in
place. Paks wondered what they could possibly use that for. Along one side of the grange was a
space closed off by a stone wall half again as tall as Paks. A narrow gate of iron palings barred
the way in, but she could see that it was nothing but a bare yard, beaten hard by heavy traffic.
Across from the outer gate was another, of wood. She wondered what was behind it.
"It's not the time for meeting," said a voice close behind her. Paks whirled, her hand dropping to
her sword hilt. The man who had spoken led a donkey, its back piled high with sticks. He wore no
weapon, but his brawny shoulders and muscular arms were no stranger to fighting: he had training
scars on both arms, and a long scar on his leg that had come from a spear.
"How would I find the Marshal?" asked Paks. She had noticed that he had not flinched when she
reached for her sword; his eyes met hers easily.
"Oh. You're a traveler, aren't you? Well,the Marshal—" he cocked his head at the sky. "This time
of day hell be just finishing his drill with the young'un, I don't doubt. Go round the side there,
past the barton, and ask at the door you'll come to. Gird ward you, traveler." He nodded and
stepped away before Paks could answer.
The walled yard, or barton, was not quite as long as the grange itself. Despite what she knew of
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of sight of the road, in an angle behind the barton wall. It too was shut, but she gathered her
nerve and knocked.
Nothing happened for a few moments, then the door was swept open and she found herself facing a
red-faced young man in a sweaty homespun tunic. The red lumps of fresh bruises marked his arms; he
had a rapidly blackening eye. For an instant they stared at each other, silent, until a voice
called from within.
"Well? Who is it, Ambros?"
"Who are you?" asked the young man quietly. "Did you want to see the Marshal?"
"I'm Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter," began Paks. "I have a message for the Marshal."
"Wait." The young man turned and called her name to the interior. In a moment an older man, a hand
shorter than Paks, came into the room. He had brown hair, streaked ' with gray and matted with
sweat, and a short brown beard. The younger man stepped back to let him come to the door.
"Paksenarrion, eh? A fighter, I see. Yeoman, are you, or yeoman-marshal?"
"Not either, sir," said Paks. He grunted and looked her up and down.
"Should be, with your build. Well, let's have your message. Come on in, don't stand dithering in
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boots in Aarenis, I'll warrant," he said over his shoulder. "I hear it's been lively over the
mountains this year." Paks did not answer, but followed him into a narrow passage, and then a
small room fitted with desk and shelves on one side, and two heavy chairs on the other. The man
dropped into the chair nearest the desk. "Have a seat. So—you're not a Girdsman at all?"
"No, sir."
"Who sent you?"
"The elves, sir, that I met—"
"Elves!" He looked at her sharply. "You run with elves? Dangerous company you keep, young warrior.
So: what message did they have for the Marshal of Gird in this grange?"
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"To tell you, sir, that in a high valley east and south of here the elfane taig had been wakened,
and the lost elf-lord had been freed."
The Marshal sat straight up. "Indeed! That old evil gone, eh? And they had done this, the elves? I
thought they claimed they could not."
"Sir, they hadn't done it. They—we—ft happened, sir, while I and another were there—"
"Happened! Such things do not happen, they are caused. Are you the cause? Did you fight in that
valley and live to return?"
"I fought there, yes. But they did not say the evil was gone, only that the elf-lord was freed."
"I understand. But the evil has lost its body; it will have some trouble to find a new one that
will serve so well. And die elfane taig awake. Hmmph. That will please none but elves and
Kuakkganni. But tell me more. You were there; you were a fighter. What was your part in this?"
For the second time that afternoon Paks found herself telling over what had happened. It was not
so hard, talking to the Marshal: almost like telling Stammel or Arcolin back in the Company. When
she finished, the Marshal looked grave, his lips pursed.
"Well," he said finally. "You have been blessed by the gods—and I would think by Gird himself as
well—to come through that alive and free of soul. I'd not dare call it luck that a party of elves
found you, and knew what to do. For all I've just finished drill, we'll go into the grange and
give you a chance to show your appreciation. Unless your allegiance forbids—?" Paks had no idea
what he meant, but saw no harm in entering the grange. She had been curious about them since the
events in Aarenis.
Marshall Cedfer led the way into the grange, first along a passage, past the door to the outer
room, and through another door set at an angle. Inside, the vast room was already dim in the
fading light. Paks could see the glint of weaponry here and there along the walls. The Marshal
struck a spark and lit a candle, then lifted die candle toward a torch set in a bracket above him.
Paks saw that most of the floor was stone paving blocks, worn smooth.
But at the near end of the room a platform of wood rose knee-high, floored with broad planks. It
was six or eight spans long and the same wide, easily large enough for many men to stand on. The
Marshal, meanwhile, had lit several more torches. Paks wondered what the platform was for, and
then noticed Ambros's face in the doorway. So did the Marshal.
"Come on in, Ambros. Good news! Paksenarrion, here, brings word that the elf-lord possessed by the
demon is freed. She's a little travel-weary, but I just finished drill, so that will be fair." He
went over to a rack on the wall and took down a sword. "This should do. Now, Paksenarrion, since
you are not a Girdsraan, I suppose I should explain. You know that Gird is the patron of
fighters?" Paks nodded. "Good. Well, for thanks and praise we honor him with our skill, such as it
is, in fighting. You have escaped not only death, but great evil: you owe the High Lord and Gird
great thanks. We shall cross blades, therefore, and by the joyous clash of them the gods will hear
our thanks. Unless—" he paused suddenly. "Do you have a wound that would pain you? I should have
asked before."
"No," said Paks. "I have none. But what is the purpose to which we fight? Am I to wound you, or—?"
"Oh no. It's like weaponsdrill. We are not enemies, to draw blood. Gird is no blooddrinker, like
some gods. This will not take long; just spar with me."
Paks drew her sword and stepped onto the platform with the Marshal, who had thrown off his robe to
reveal a tunic as drab and worn as Ambros's. He eyed her thoughtfully. "Are you sure you won't
take off your cloak? You might find it troublesome." At that, Paks realized that she was still
wearing her chainmail shirt; she hardly thought of it these days.
"Sir, it will not trouble me, but is it right that I wear mail? If I must change—" She wondered as
she said it why she was so willing to please him by this exercise.
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than that. Now, Ambros, turn the quarterglass, and we'll begin."
And with a quick tap of greeting, the Marshal began testing Paks's control of her weapon. When she
proved strong, he tried quickness. When she proved quick—and he smiled broadly when his lunges
failed—he tried movement. Paks met his attacks firmly, but concentrated on defense: she did not
want to know what would happen should she injure a Marshal of Gird in his own grange.
He was skilled indeed, as skilled as any human she had faced but for old Siger, perhaps. Still, he
did not penetrate her defenses, though she had to shift ground more than once. She sensed the sand
passing through the quarterglass, and changed her tactics slightly, pressing the Marshal a bit.
Was he just a little slower to the right? Were his returns to position sluggish there? She felt
the impact in the blades through her wrist. It had been long since she had such good practice.
Suddenly the Marshal quickened his pace, surprising her; she'd thought he was slowing. She gave
back, turning, her rhythm slightly off, but fending him off as much by reach as stroke. She took a
breath, and stepped back to gain room for her own attack, but her foot found nothing to step on:
she had come to the edge of the platform.
Instantly she threw herself sideways and tucked, hitting the stone floor on her left side, and
rolling up to a fighting position. But the Marshal had not followed up her fall.
"Forgive me!" he cried when he saw her up. "I had forgotten, Paksenarrion, in the fighting^ that
you were not one of us, and did not know the platform well. It was ill-done of me to press you so
close to the edge." He racked his sword and came to her side. "Were you hurt in the fall?"
Paks-took a breath. Her side hurt, but that was as much the old bruises as the new ones. "No, sir.
It's all right, truly it is. I've had harder falls."
"Oh, aye, I'm sure you have. But you're not a yeoman here for training. I should have warned
you—glad you're not hurt." As Paks sheathed her blade, he picked up his robe. "It's customary," he
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toward the armory, too. Though as you're not a Girdsman, it isn't strictly required—" Paks found
that Ambros had come to her side with a slot-lidded box. She fished out the pouch from her tunic
again, thinking to herself that it seemed hard to be dumped on the floor and then asked for money.
She took the first jewel at random and dropped it into the box. The Marshal did not appear to be
watching.
"You're very good with that longsword," he commented. "Don't most mercenary companies use a short
one?"
"Yes, sir, we do, but we had the chance to learn other weapons. And out of formation a longsword
has great advantage."
"Yes, of course. With your height, too. I was surprised to see that you moved so freely with it,
though- Most who come from formation fighting are used to depending on the formation, and are
static. Though you're not a Girdsman, you're certainly welcome to drill with us here at the
grange, as long as you're in Brewersbridge. We have open drill three nights a week, in the barton
usually. You'll find most of the local yeomen fairly good at basic things, though few of them are
up to your standard. And I'd be honored to partner you for advanced swordsmanship—or Ambros, here:
he's certainly up to a bout with you. Have you had any training at unarmed combat?"
"Yes, some. And some with polearms," added Paks, hoping to forestall further questions.
Excellent! I certainly hope you'll come; you'll be most welcome. Tonight's a beginner's class in
marching drill—I hardly think it would interest you—but tomorrow?"
"Perhaps, sir. I thank you for your invitation." Despite herself, Paks was curious to see the sort
of drill a Marshal of Gird would conduct. And she needed to keep her own skills honed; it couldn't
hurt to come once or twice.
Outside the grange it was full dusk; stars shone overhead to the east. She made her way quickly
back to the inn, where the great open windows laid bars of yellow lamplight across the crossroad.
As she entered, Jos Hebbinford caught her eye.
"I thought you weren t going to make it back for the meal," he said, half-laughing.
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"Mmm. My errands took longer than I thought." Paks looked around the common room, now crowded with
men-at-arms and other guests of the inn. "Where—?"
"I've no single tables left. How about over here?" He led her to a round table where two men were
already halfway through a substantial meal. "Master Feddith is a stonemason, a local here, and


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that's his senior journeyman." Feddith, a burly man in a velvet tunic, looked up and nodded
briefly as the innkeeper introduced Paks, then went back to his conversation with the journeyman.
Paks ordered roast and steamed barley and looked around the room while waiting for her meal.
Nothing Feddith was saying made much sense—it had to do, she assumed, with stonework—she had never
heard of coigns or coddy granite or buckstone.
Few other women were in the common room besides serving wenches. One, the same white-haired woman
Paks had seen in the afternoon, sat knitting by the fire with a glass of wine beside her. At
another table, two women in rough woollen dresses sat with men dressed like farm laborers. And a
group of youths, drinking a bit too much ale together, included a sulky-faced girl whose dress was
tight across the shoulders and loose everywhere else. Paks watched Hebbinford go to their table in
response to another shout for ale, snaking his head. One of the youths started to argue, and a
hefty man with a short billet appeared beside the innkeeper. They all subsided, and after a moment
threw coins on the table and left. The girl looked quickly at Paks before she went out the door.
"Here, miss," said a serving wench at Paks's shoulder. She turned to find a platter piled high
with roast mutton and a mound of barley swimming in savory gravy. With it came a loaf of crusty
bread and a bowl of honey. "And will you take ale, miss, or wine?"
"Ale," said Paks. She drew her dagger to slice the bread and found the master mason watching her.
"You're not from around here," he challenged.
"No, sir."
"Are you a Girdsman?"
"No, sir."
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"Ummph. A free blade, then: that's not any livery I know."
"Yes, sir."
"Humph. Were I you, young woman, I'd keep my blade sheathed here. We're not partial to
troublemakers.
Paks flushed. "I've no wish to make trouble, sir, wherever I am."
"Maybe not, but free blades are trouble as often as not. What gods do you serve?"
Paks put both hands on her thighs and looked him steadily in the eyes. "The High Lord, sir, and
the gods my father served, back where I came from."
His gaze flickered. "Well enough. But if you're planning to stay here long, you'd best find a
master who can vouch for you. Before Paks could think of anything to say, he had pushed back his
stool and gone, his cloak swirling. Her stomach clenched with anger. Why did they all think she
was a brigand, trying to cause trouble? Then she thought of the wandering fighters in
Aarenis—perhaps they had had trouble here, though she had not heard of such in the north. She took
a deep breath to calm herself and settled to her meal.
Hebbinford, as he came back past her table, had a smile for her. "Did I hear Master Feddith
growling at you? Don't take ofiense; he's on the Council here, and we've had some trouble. I hear
you visited our Master Oakhallow and Marshal Cedfer this afternoon—no wonder you were late.
Marshal Cedfer alone can take up half a day, with his drills and lectures."
"Does everyone here think fighters are bad?" asked Paks.
"Well—no. Not all fighters. But we've had those come through that were: got drunk, broke things,
started fights with focal boys, even robbed. You've known some nice that, surely." Paks nodded.
"So, you see, we've got careful. As long as nothing happens, you're welcome, but we don't want the
street full of idle blades looking for mischief." "I can see that."
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"Now, Sevri tells me you're quiet-spoken even to servants, and Master Oakhallow had nothing
against you, so—" He broke off as someone yelled across the room, smiled again, and left. Paks
finished eating. The food was good. It had been too long since she'd eaten well-cooked food. She
finished with a slice of bread drenched in honey. The room was much emptier. Most of the men-at-
arms were gone, and the rest were leaving, throwing down coppers and silvers as their boots
scraped on the stone. Paks decided to check on Star before going to bed.
The bed was so soft that at first she could not sleep. Her room was far enough from the common
loft that she heard nothing from it, but boots rang on the stone outside the inn from time to
time. Even with the window open to the cold night air, it seemed strange to be sleeping inside
again.
Chapter Eight
She woke at first light, aware of the clatter of small hooves in the road below. Looking out, she
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over the hills, and shivered in the cold. Minutes later she was downstairs. The innkeeper was
poking in the fireplace, and she could smell fresh bread from the kitchen.
"You're an early one," he said, surprised. "Did you want breakfast now?"
Paks grinned. "Not yet. I want to check on Star."
"Sevri'll feed her—"
"Yes, but she's used to me. And I'm used to being up early." Paks went out the side door of the
common room into the stable yard. The green-tailed rooster was racing after a hen, and a group of
cats crouched near the cowbyre. Paks watched as a stream of milk shot out the door, neatly fielded
by one of the cats. She went into the stable, and found Star looking over the top of the stall
door. The pony looked well-rested, and Paks rubbed her behind the ears and under the jaw. When she
checked her tack, the packbags were intact.
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"Is it all right?" asked Sevri, who had come into the passage.
"Yes, fine. I didn't realize I'd gotten up too early for you."
"It's not. Most of fhe travelers sleep late, that's all. Some of them sleep through breakfast.
Star doesn't get much grain, does she?"
"Not when she's not working. Let's see your measure —oh, half of that, and tell me where your hay
is—I'll bring it."
"Over there—" Sevri nodded toward a ladder that rose to the loft. "You can just throw it down, if
you want."
Paks was already up the ladder. "Why don't I throw down what you need for all of them?"
"You don t have to—but if you wish—" Sevri looked up as Paks tossed down an armload for Star.
"It's no trouble; I'm already up here."
Sevri peered up at her. "I didn't think soldiers knew how to care for animals."
"I grew up on a farm," said Paks shortly. "How much more hay?"
"Just pitch it down, and 111 tell you." Sevri disappeared from the hold, and Paks threw down
several armloads. "That should do it. We have just the two big horses in." Paks climbed down,
brushing off the hay.
"Who does your milking?" she asked, wondering if Sevri did everything but the inside work.
"My brother Cal," said Sevri. "He's got bigger hands; it takes me too long, and Brindle is a
crabby cow." Paks laughed.
"We milked our sheep," she said.
"Sheep?"
"Yes. I've never milked a cow, but I've milked my last sheep. I hope." Paks watched as die girl
dumped hay into each feeder. She noticed a blaze-faced black horse that laid its ears back when
Sevri neared the stall: obviously one of the "big horses" she'd mentioned. "When can I ask for
breakfast, without being rude?"
"There won't be anything cooked, yet," said Sevri doubt-
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fully. "The bread's out, and you could have eggs and cold roast and bread, if that's enough."
"It's plenty." Paks felt her stomach churn in anticipation.
"Just tell Father, then."
"Thanks." Paks returned to the common room to find the innkeeper waiting.
By the time she had finished breakfast, the other guests were stirring. First down was a man in
dark tunic and trousers over soft boots. He gave Paks a look up and down that lingered on her
sword-hilt, and sat down to his meal with no comment. Then came two heavily built men that Paks
classified as merchants, followed by a tall man in a stained leather tunic over patched trousers.
He had a longsword at his hip, a dagger at his belt, and the hilts of two daggers sprouted from
his boot tops. Paks noticed that he chose a seat against a wall, far from the others.
After breakfast, she managed a private word with Hebbinford. He was willing to tell her about the
moneychangers in town, and described them for her.
"Well," he began slowly, "as you ask me, I'd say Senneth. He's a Guild member, but the northern
guild's not the same as that in Aarenis, if that means anything to you."
"Which guild?" asked Paks.
"The moneylenders, of course. I've heard that down south they were mixed up in a lot of—well—all
sorts of trouble, let's say. But Master Senneth is as honest as any of that sort, say what you
will. He's given me honest weight, at least. Or there's Master Venion—some prefer him. He's not a
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Paks did not know what he meant by commission, and asked.
"Well, if he takes your raw gold and gives coin, say, or changes southern coin for local, he's got
to make something on the trade. Or if he arranges a transfer far away— you said you wanted your
dowry to go home. If you don't want to take it yourself, he could arrange it for you. But it would
cost you. Now Venion might charge you less, but— how would you know it got there? The Guild, now,
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see things are done right. It's whether you want to pay for it, that's all."
Paks nodded. "Where is Master Senneth?"
"Just across from the Hall." Paks looked blank, and he explained. "When you went to the Grange
last night, before you crossed the bridge: did you see the large building on your left with a
fenced yard?"
"Yes."
"Well, that's the Hall. Master Senneth is right across from it. It's easy to find. He's got a
guard at the door." Paks raised her eyebrows. "And you won't be able to take your weapons in,
either. The guard stacks them for you."
Master Senneth was a brisk, trim man in a tight-sleeved gown of black wool. He smiled at Paks as
she came through the door. "Yes? What may I do for you?"
Paks explained her needs.
"Hmmm. Valuation, yes. It would be better for you, actually, to take anything really valuable to a
larger town, or to V&ella. For one thing, you can get several appraisals, and for another, they
can offer more who have a market to hand. HI tell you frankly that I probably can't give you the
best price you could get, except for southern coin. That's because we trade coin across the
mountains each year. Some items I may not be able to take at all; those, of course, I'll note as
we go along. Now transfer—if it's money alone, that's the easiest. If it's specific items, that
can be quite expensive. Have you brought it all along?"
"Yes," said Paks. "But most of it's outside; your guard said he would watch the packs." She had
tied Star to the railing outside.
"Well, let's bring it in and take a look, if you wish." Paks nodded and he came from behind his
counter to the door. "Arvid, bring this lady's packs in, please." The guard unloaded Star,
staggering a bit at the weight, and carried the packs inside. As he left, Master Senneth called
after him. "And see that we're not disturbed until we're through, Arvid." Then to Paks. "I suppose
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town wandering in as we're counting, and knowing just what you have."
"I hadn't thought of that," admitted Paks.
"Ah, they would," he said darkly. "They saw you come in yesterday, and watched you come here with
a loaded pony. If they could look through walls—" He made a warding sign. "But they can't. Now,
what's first?"
Paks began unstrapping the packs. "I don't know what— some of this is weapons, but fancier ones
than I'd use." She pulled out the pair of jewelled daggers sheathed in silver. Senneth caught his
breath.
"My—those are lovely. Where did you say—no. No matter. Only—" he looked at her sharply. "Were
these stolen, somewhere in Aarenis?"
"No." Paks shook her head. "I didn't steal them. You can ask Marshal Cedfer or Master Oakhallow,
if you like."
"You're not a Girdsman nor a kuakkgannir."
"No, I'm not. But they know where they are from, and how."
"I see." He returned to the daggers. "What lovely tracings. And these gems are valuable in
themselves, not just in this design."
Paks pulled out the small battle-axe. She had forgotten the gold inlay tracing runes along the
blade.
"That's dwarf-work!" Senneth shook his head. "A rare piece, though I don't know where I'd find a
buyer. That's the sort of thing you'd get a better price for in V6rella." Looking at it again,
Paks wished she could keep it. But she knew she had no use for a battleaxe, one weapon she'd never
handled. She pulled out the ivory-handled dagger with a red stone set in the pommel, and the
matching sheath with the dragon carved around it, and two red stones for eyes. Laying these aside,
she pulled out one of the sacks of coins.
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remarkable amount of wealth you have there. Are you sure you're not an elf princess in disguise,
checking to see if humans are still greedy? I assure you, my honest commission for handling all
this will well repay my time."
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Paks sat back on her heels, grinning. "No, Master Senneth, I'm no princess, elf or human. A very
lucky young warrior, yes. And my old sergeant said, if ever we got a chance to set some aside, to
do it. If there's enough, after sending my dowry home, that's what I'll do."
"Not spend it all on new clothes and wine, eh? Wise head on young shoulders—and a fighter, at
that. You're a new one on me. What was your name again?"
"Paksenarrion."
"Lady Paksenarrion, what other surprises have you?" He smiled over the coins, sorting them quickly
into heaps of like kind, while Paks pulled out everything else. When all the coins had been
counted, he turned to the jewels, rolling them out on a square of black velvet on his counter, and
angling a mirror to catch sunlight from the window. His fingers moved among them deftly, turning
them this way and that. At last he looked up.
"Unless your father was a very wealthy man, I'd say you have ample to repay any dowry, and my
commission for the transfer, and enough over to live well for a long time. Let me start making
notes. If you don't accept my value for anything, just retrieve it: as I said, you can get more
for many of these things in a city. Now—" He opened a tall book, fetched a pen and a soft piece of
chalk to mark the slate that topped one end of his counter. "Let me start with the coins. You
realize that those are all quite old. I don't even know the issue on the ones where the imprint is
visible. They have value only for the metal content; they 11 have to be melted and re-struck. So I
use the weight to determine the value—" He pulled out a set of scales.
As Paks walked back toward the inn, leading Star, she tried to think how much money she actually
had. She was hungry; by the sun it was long past time for lunch. How many hours, then, had she
been closeted with the moneychanger? She had seen the spiky columns of figures climb up the pages
of his account-book, as he added the value of coins, jewels, the small pieces of weaponry. But she
couldn't make sense of it in terms of her salary in the Duke's
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Company. He spoke of gold crowns and silver coronets and halflings instead of the natas and nitis
she was used to. She couldn't manage to convert it, in her head. But it seemed she could send home
twice what she thought her dowry had been and have plenty left. She need not take the first guard
job that came along. She could buy a riding saddle for Star—perhaps even a full-sized horse. She
had left most of her money on deposit with Master Senneth, but she had enough with her to order a
few new clothes, and eat the best the Jolly Potboy offered for that night's dinner.
On the way back, she remembered Sevri's directions to die smithy, where Master Doggal shod all the
horses for miles around. Now she turned from the main road, and led Star between two small stone
buildings down an alley that led to the forge. In the paved courtyard before the blacksmith's
shop, the tall, rough-looking man from the inn was haggling with the smith over the cost of shoes;
his black warhorse, its ears twitching nervously, stamped and shifted, the shoes in question
ringing on the stones. Paks recognized it by the blazed lace; it had tall white stockings on all
four legs.
"I charges iair," the smith rumbled. "Nobody says but what I charges fair. That beast of yours has
feet so big, and stands so bad—aye, he come near tearing loose, that he did, and kicked me as near
as maybe. It's not the shoes being set wrong has him titrupy like that: he's a wrong 'un, and too
handy with them white socks." The smith was a head shorter than the other, but his massive arms
and shoulders made his hammer look small.
The tall man put his hand to the hilt of his sword, but the smith hefted his hammer.
"You just pay me, now," the smith went on. "Pay as you ought, and we'll have no trouble."
"And if I don't?" The black horse shied at that harsh voice; die tall man jerked die bridle
viciously. Neither man had noticed Paks, but the horse winded Star and stood still, head high and
ears pricked, snuffing.
"Well, if ye don't 111 have die law on ye—"
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"The law, is it?" The tall man laughed contemptuously. "In this town? What law here could touch
me?"
"This," said the smith, and quick as a snake's tongue his hammer tapped the man's shoulder.
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black horse walked over to Star as Paks dropped the lead and whipped out her own blade. Only then
did the smith see her.
"Another one of ye, eh?" He blocked one swipe of the big sword with his hammer; she noted that he
handled it as if it were weightless. "Well, I can take two of ye, no doubt, but still— Aieeeh! By
the Maker!" His bellow split the early afternoon stillness. Paks heard a startled outcry in the
distance, as she ran forward.
"Not against you, Master Smith," she said as her sword rang against the other. "But you, you
coward. I can see that horse has new shoes—and you owe the smith—and you've no business attacking
an unarmed man with a sword!" The swordsman had turned, furious, with her first blow, and now
concentrated on her.
"Unarmed, is it?" cried the smith. "And you a woman? Is any smith unarmed that has his hammer and
the strength of the forge in his arm?" Paks made no answer; the tall man was skilled, and she
saved her breath for the fight. The smith threw his hammer on the ground and- bellowed at them
both. "Is it a barton of Gird you think I have here, and not a smithy? By the Maker, is a smith to
be reft of his fight by any wandering female? I can collect my own debts, you silly girl, without
your help. I was just teaching this fellow a lesson—" Paks quit listening. The tall man had the
reach of her, and his blade was the heavier. She missed her helmet and shield; he had a round iron
pot on his head, and heavy bracers on both arms. His black eyes gleamed from under the helmet.
"Eh—the girl from over the mountains! A wild one, I see. I like wild ones." He grunted as her
sword pricked his shoulder. "I'll tame you, little mountauvcat, and then I'll see to him—" He
jerked his head at the smith, without giving Paks an opening.
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you're a fine one, if you think you canl" And before Paks realized what he was about, he darted
behind the tall man and brought the hammer down on his head with a resounding clang. The tall man
sagged to his knees and fell over in a heap. The smith glared at Paks over the crumpled body. "A
sword," he said severely, "is a pitiful weapon, young woman, and only fit for those that don't
have the strength for a hammer. It was by the hammer that Sertig the Maker forged the world on the
Anvil of Time. The hammer will always win, with the strength of the faithful behind it."
Paks had dropped the tip of her sword and stood panting. "Uhm—yes—"
"Don't forget that."
"No—" She took a deep breath and wiped her sword on her leg before sheathing it.
"Not that yours isn't a fine bit of work," the smith went on. "It's just that swords are inferior
weapons." Paks did not feel like arguing with him. She was, however, a bit disgruntled. She'd only
tried to help someone.
"Doggal!" A shout from the alley. "Need help?" Paks could see two hefty men, armed with clubs.
"Nay, nay. Twas a bit of trouble with a fellow from outside, that's all." The smith sounded smug.
"He'll have a headache, if he wakes at all."
"Will you need someone to take him away?"
"He's not dead yet. He's still snorting. If this lady will lead his horse back to the inn, I can
throw him over—" He turned to Paks. "If you're going that way, that is." The men waved and turned
back up the alley.
"I was coming here," said Paks. "To get my pony shod. But i£-"
The smith suddenly grinned, and looked like a different man. "Oh? That's no problem. He'll keep a
bit, just there. I did wonder what you were doing up my alley, to be sure, but if it was on
business, then—" He looked around. "That's your pony, with the star?"
"Yes. Just a moment." Paks started toward Star, who stood stiffly, nose-to-nose, with the black
horse. Both shifted away from her, eyes wide.
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"Come on, Star," said Paks crossly. She felt the smith was laughing at her. "Come on, pony." She
rubbed her thumb on the gold ring. The wildness left Star's eyes, and the pony minced toward her.
The black horse, too, lowered his head and stretched his neck.
"Catch up that fancy-socks, if you can," called the smith. "Be careful: he's a mean one, but he'll
do no good running loose." Paks caught Star's lead, and rubbed the ring again, talking softly to
the black.
"Come on, then, big one. Come on. I'd like to have one like you someday." The black horse came
forward step by slow step until she could reach the reins. She talked on as she led them toward
the smithy itself. She could feel the horse's fear trembling in the reins as they neared the
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"Well!" The smith sounded surprised. "You've a rare way with a horse, that you have. I'll take the
pony, then, if youTl hold that one. What sort of shoes? Are you going into the mountains again?"
Paks shook her head. "No. And she won't be carrying as much weight. Ill be going toward Verella, I
think."
"Umph." He had one of Star's feet up, then another. "I'd still say low caulks in front. It'll
frost before these wear out."
By the time Star was shod and the shoes paid for, the tall man had grunted and groaned and shifted
around on the stones. His eyes were still closed, though, and he had said nothing coherent.
"You wanted to help," said the smith with a bit of his earlier belligerence. "Suppose you take him
back to the inn for me. Ill tell the watch about it, and Jos can ask me, if he wants. And look—"
The smith bent down with a grunt and opened the man's belt pouch. "You know he owes me for the
shoeing of that devil there: see, I'm taking just what he owes." Paks nodded, and the smith heaved
the man upright and slung him over one broad shoulder. "Now, I think your pony would carry him
better than his horse. Can you lead both?"
"Yes—" Paks was reluctant, nonetheless, to go out on the streets leading another man's horse, with
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himself slung unconscious over her pony. "But don't you think that—I mean, since you hit him,
shouldn't—?"
"A warrior like you doesn't want credit for defeating him?" The smith's voice was scornful, and
his look more so. Paks reddened. Nothing and no one in this town was as she had expected. "I'd
have thought," the smith continued, "that such as you were quite used to hauling bodies around. Or
did you just leave them?"
Paks opened her mouth and shut it again. There seemed nothing to say to that. But as the smith
folded the man over Star's back, the Gird's Marshal walked into the courtyard. His glance rested
on Paks, then on the smith and his burden.
"I heard, Master Doggal, that you had had a disturbance."
The smith stopped, with a hand on the tall man's back where he lay across the pony. "If you heard
that, Marshal, you heard I needed no help."
The Marshal glanced at Paks again. The smith caught the look and raised his voice. "No, and I
didn't need her, either. Is that it, is she one of your precious yeoman?"
"No. I merely wondered."
The smith began tying the man to Star's pack pad with the thongs. "Took you long enough. If I had
needed help, I'd have been dead long since." He turned to Paks. "Now, lady, just you work whatever
magic you used on that horse, and take him and this fellow back to the inn for me." Paks saw the
Marshal give her a sharp look at the word magic, but he turned back to the smith as that
individual kept talking. Paks started to move away, but the Marshal raised his hand to stop her.
"You seem to think, Marshal, that we'd have no order here without you Girdsmen. I'm not denying
you're a brave bunch, and useful when we have trouble too big for one man or two. But I can hold
my own with any single man, and most two or three. As I was telling this lady—" Paks wondered why
she had been promoted from "girl" and "female" to "lady." "As I said to her, the Maker's hammer
wielded by a faithful arm will stand over a sword any time."
"Yet the Maker is said to have made many a blade, in
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the old tales," said the Marshal, with a kindling eye. "And you, I know, have made most of the
blades in this village—"
"Oh, aye, that's true. When I have time. And it's a test of the art, that it is, to make a fine-
balanced blade that will hold an edge and withstand a hard fight. I won't say against that. But I
will say—"
"That you can hold your own in a fight. And 111 agree to that, Master Doggal. But the captain did
ask me to keep an eye on things, after that last trouble, and the Council as well—"
The smith had calmed down a lot, and the discussion seemed, to Paks, to be working over well-
plowed ground. "That's so. If it's for the Council, then I might as well tell you all that
happened. Saves seeing the watch. This fellow came to have his horse shod—that black one there—and
quarreled with my price, after. The beast is vicious: doesn't look it now, 111 admit, but just you
try and put a shoe on it. I charged more for it. Always do, as you know. If I'm to risk my head, I
must have gain for it." He paused and the Marshal nodded. "Well, then, he said as much as that I'd
no way to make him pay. I tapped his arm to show I meant my words, and he drew on me. Then this
lady—I'd not seen her come—she drew as well. I thought they were together, and raised a yell. Then


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it seemed she thought to aid me—but, you see, I'd already raised a cry—so I thought I'd let her
fight, was she so eager to. They were well-matched. He'd the reach of her, and was heavier, but
she was quicker and her blade had more quality. Then—well— it's hard to stay out of a fight, so I
broke his head with the hammer, after all."
"Mmm." The Marshal looked at Paks. "I'd have told you our smith can handle himself in a fight.
It's not well for newcomers to brawl in the streets."
Before Paks could answer, the smith was defending her. " Tis not her fault, Marshal. I'd think
you'd be pleased, even if she's not one of yours. She thought she saw an old man—" he rumpled his
thin gray hair "—beset by an armed bully. She did well."
"Hmm. Well, I suppose—if you have no complaint against her—" the Marshal was frowning.
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"Not at all. Not at all. Suppose I had slipped and fallen? She was trying to help. And, you might
notice, on the side of that law and order you praise so highly. I've no complaint. In fact—but go
on, now, and get that lummox out of my yard." He turned abruptly and dove back into die forge.
"Ill walk with you to the inn," said the Marshal to Paks in a neutral tone. Paks followed him down
the alley, leading both animals. She kept her thumb firmly on the ring.
They were almost to the crossroad when the Marshal spoke again. "If I'd defended you," he said
without preamble, "old Doggal would be lodging a complaint to the Council somehow. He won't agree
with me on anything but smithing itself if he can help it."
"Then—you aren't angry with me for this?"
"For going to his aid? Of course not. You might wait, another time, to see whether your aid is
needed, or someday youll be killed over some little thing, and nothing gained. I'll just have a
word with Hebbinford," he said as they came to the inn door. "You take that horse around back."
Paks found herself leading the tall black warhorse to the stable before she quite realized the
Marshal had taken Star's lead. She heard, behind her, the innkeeper's voice and the Marshal's, and
the exclamations of the serving wenches.
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Chapter Nine
When she came in to supper that night, the.common room stilled. Someone dropped a dish, and it
clattered on the floor. She could hear the rustle of cloth as someone bent to pick it up. Paks
carefully did not meet any of the eyes in the room, but picked her way to an empty table. As she
sat down, a muted hum resumed. She heard a phrase here and there, but tried to ignore the voices.
They all knew, as she did, that the tall man lay unconscious in his room upstairs. She didn't know
what stories were going around, but obviously she was in them. She ordered the special dinner:
roast beef, mushrooms, hot bread, and pastry. She was halfway through it before she remembered
that she'd thought of going to weapons-practice at the Girdmen's that evening. If she ate all
that—she sighed and pushed the dishes away.
"Is something wrong with your meal?" asked Hebbinford, pausing by her table.
"No, not at all. I thought I'd go to the grange this evening, though, and drill—and not on a full
stomach."
"I see. Well, we can put that by for you, for when you get back, if you like."
"Thank you." Paks had not thought of that. "I'd like that—this is too good to waste. If it's not
too much trouble—?"
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"Not at all. Marshal Cedfer mentioned that you might be visiting this evening. I suppose, a
warrior must always practice, eh?"
"Yes, if we want to stay good. And it's been too long since I had a proper drill.'
"Fights don't count?"
"No. Not really. A fight may not last long enough, or call out what you need to practice. I should
drill every day—we did in the Duke's Company. But no one can practice well on a full belly." Paks
leaned back and fished into her pouch for the correct silver piece. As she stood and turned to
leave, she noticed several of the diners watching her.
Although it was full dark, she had no trouble making her way along the street. Uncurtained windows
were open to the cool evening air, and torches burned at either end of the bridge. Ahead, the
grange was ablaze with tight; torches flared atop the barton wall as well. As Paks came nearer,
she could see that the gate to the barton and door to the Grange both had sentries before them.
She saw two dark shapes enter the barton ahead of her, pausing to exchange greetings with the
sentries.
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struggled to maintain the dignity of their posts. Paks wondered which entrance to use. She heard
the mutter of voices through both. Finally she decided on the barton gate. The youth there stared
up at her, eyes wide.
"I'm Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter," she said. "The Marshal invited me to come to weapons-practice."
"Oh—eh—you're the lady as has come over the mountains, eh?"
"Yes," said Paks. "May I pass?"
"Oh—well—if the Marshal said—yes, lady, go on in. Are—are you really a fighter, like they say?"
This last, as she was nearly past.
Paks turned back to him, hand on the hilt of her sword. "Yes. Did you doubt it?"
"Oh, no, lady. I—I just wondered, like."
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Paks turned back to the barton itself and looked about her. The bare little yard was ringed with
torches set high on the wall. One man was stretching, arching his thick back with a grunt. Two
more were looking over a pair of pikes, smoothing the shafts with pumice. Out of the side door of
the grange came Ambros with an armful of short clubs that reminded Faks of hanks. She heard more
men coming in the gate behind her, and a confused sort of clatter and mumble from the grange
itself. She watched, uncertain, as Ambros dumped the clubs in a heap near the wall. When he
straightened, he saw her.
"Ah, Paksenarrion. Welcome. Marshal Cedfer will be glad to see you. Will you come in? Or hell be
out here in a few moments."
"I'll wait," said Paks. "I can warm up out here." She unbuckled her sword and laid it by the wall,
then began limbering exercises. Others were busy with the same. One man belched repeatedly; a
cloud of onion followed him.
"Eh, Can," said another. "If you've ate as much as I smell, you won't last the night."
"Air and onion won't slow any man," retorted Can, grinning. "Might just set off my opponent—"
Paks ignored them. It was much like drill in the Company—the familiar mixture of joking and
criticism. She finished her exercises and went to buckle on her sword. The barton was half-full of
men—she saw no other women—and they were all mature and well-muscled. Most had picked up one of
the short clubs; four had pikes, and one had a sword of medium length.
A bell rang, a single mellow stroke. Everyone stilled, and Marshal Cedfer came into the barton,
followed by five other men.
"Are you ready, yeomen of Gird?" he asked.
"We are ready, Sir Marshal," they answered in unison. Paks was silent.
"Then may Gird strengthen your arms and your hearts, and keep them strong for the safety of our
land."
"In the name of St. Gird, protector of the innocent," came the response.
"We have a guest here tonight," said the Marshal less
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formally. "Paksenarrion, come forward. I want all our yeomen to know you." Paks edged past the
others to stand near the Marshal under the torches. "Though she is not a Girdsman, Paksenarrion is
an experienced warrior. She has accepted my invitation to drill with us. Those of you who drill
with swords will have a chance to cross blades with her if you wish. Now, bring your weapons and
let me see—" The Marshal began to look over the weapons, commenting on their condition. He was as
thorough as any of the Duke's armsmasters. Ambros explained that some of the weapons belonged to
the men, and the rest were stored in the grange. Then the Marshal began assigning drills: some to
one-on-one, others to two-on-one, and others to more basic exercises. When they were all occupied,
he led Paks to a corner of the barton where Ambros waited with two short swords.
"If you don't mind," said the Marshal, "I'd like to work with these short swords. I suspect you
are for more skilled with a short blade than I am. It would be best for the yeomen, I think, to
learn the short. Of course, you'll want a chance to work with your own, but—"
"That's fine," said Paks. "But I haven't drilled with a short sword in several months. I may be
clumsy with it."
"Not as clumsy as I am," said the Marshal. "I haven't been able to teach the men to fight in lines
with it."
Paks unbuckled her long sword, racked it, and took one of the short ones from Ambros. "We used a
small shield with these, in formation," she said. "Do you have shields?"
"Yes, but we rarely practice with them. As I said, most of our men are not at all skilled with
swords. Once they learn that, then we'll try adding the shields." The Marshal, too, had taken a
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wearing your mail."
"No. 1 didn't think all of you would have mail." Paks wished she had a banda, but was not about to
ask for one.
"Mmm. I always say, the stripes you take in training reinforce the lesson." The Marshal looked
pleased, and the other two grinned. "Now—well warm up hi pairs, then go two-against-two. Is that
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"Surely." Paks moved the sword around, feeling its balance. It was subtly different from the one
in the Duke's Company. Lighter, she finally decided.
As she had expected, the Marshal was not nearly as inexperienced as he'd claimed. They tested each
other's ability and strokes, without either making a touch, for a few minutes. Then the Marshal
gestured a pause.
"Yes, indeed," he said. "I see you have much to teach us. Now, Ambros, you stand with her, and
Mattis, you take my right."
Paks shot a look at the young man who came to stand beside her. She felt queer, standing in
formation with a stranger against strangers. But if she joined a guard company somewhere, this is
what it would be like. Again the blades came up in salute, and the drill began.
Ambros, she saw at once, wanted to move around too much. He shifted from side to side with each
stroke, alternately crowding and leaving her flank uncovered. The Marshal's partner, Mattis,
looked as if he couldn't shift at all, but at least he was keeping some sort of Une. Paks managed
to cover Ambros's lapses at first, but finally the Marshal's blade leaped in and rapped his side
sharply. Paks had managed two touches on Mattis, but none on the Marshal. He signalled another
halt.
"I think I see our problem," he said. "Ambros, you aren't holding your position. Isn't that it,
Paksenarrion?"
She was not sure how critical she 'could be without angering them. "Well—yes, part of it. A line
works only if it holds together. But I think those who learn a long blade first have more trouble.
It seems to me that you, sir, and Ambros both are trying strokes more suited to a long blade. More
wrist, and less elbow and shoulder."
"Ah. I see. Suppose you stand out, and watch us, and give corrections.' The Marshal lined up with
Ambros this time, and a nervous Mattis braced himself to meet both of them. Paks shook her head.
"No, sir, by your leave. Let all of you line up, and go slowly—do you ever count the cadence for a
slow drill? Yes? Good. If those of your men with the short clubs use much the same strokes, they
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can be long enough to work. I can anchor the center of the opposing line." The Marshal agreed, and
soon they had a line of four swords (for another man took up a blade, a little uncertainly)
against Paks and three men with clubs. At first the drill was very ragged, but in a few strokes
they all caught on, and Paks was able to talk them through it.
"You see," she said, as the blades met clubs with light taps, "if you are in close formation
you'll hurt your partners if you shift too much. And leave yourself open, as well. There is a
rhythm—and a trust—that your partner will be there. Not so much turn to the side—yes—and if you
have a shield as well, you can foul your partner's blade if you turn." As practice went on, they
grew used to the limited sideways movement, and Paks encouraged them to increase the tempo. After
some minutes, the Marshal called a halt.
"Very good!" he exclaimed. "Very good indeed. Anything else?"
"I didn't notice it in the others, sir," said Paks, "but you and Ambros still seem to have too
much flex in the wrist. You are trying to do more with the point than a short sword allows—it's
the quick thrust you want, not fencing about." She expected him to be angry, but he was not.
"So. Each craft has it masters, and a knight's training ill-suits an infantry soldier. I'll try to
remember that. Perhaps you'll give us the benefit of your training again. And now, since you carry
a long blade by choice, you should have the chance to practice with it, if you will." He handed
Ambros his short blade and gestured to Paks. She handed over the short sword and went to pick up
her own blade. When she had settled it to her satisfaction,the Marshal had also armed himself, and
awaited her.
"I suggest we go into the grange itself," he said. "The light is better."
Paks followed him in. So, she noticed, did many of the other men.
"I don't suggest the platform, since you aren't used to it. But here—" his glance cleared a space
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"Now," said Paks, smiling, "I expect you will have plenty to teach me."
The Marshal grinned. "I should hope so. You have some good strokes; I noticed that yesterday,
but—" He moved to attack.
For the next few minutes they circled first one way then the other, blades ringing with stroke
after stroke. Paks had to use everything she knew and all her size, to keep from being pricked
again and again. She could feel the sweat pouring down her back and burning her eyes. The Marshal
was much more a swordsman than Macenion. Every thrust was met with a firm repulse, and she found
herself more often defending than attacking. She found no weakness she could exploit, and wondered
what old Siger would do against him. That thought almost made her laugh— she'd still back Siger
against anyone, even a Marshal of Gird.
"Very good," the Marshal said finally, still hard at work. "You certainly have a thorough
grounding in long blades. I have a few tricks, but as for as plain fighting goes, you do very
well." Paks said nothing, needing all her concentration. Despite her best efforts, he made a touch
the next moment, ripping her left sleeve from shoulder to elbow. "There, now," he said. "I have
regained the respect of our yeomen. Would you rest a bit?" He stepped back, and Paks lowered her
weapon.
"I could stand to," she said ruefully, wiping her face. "I see I still have a lot to learn—just as
I thought."
"The willing student learns quickly," he said. "You need naught but experience to master this
weapon as well as the other. Common swordsmen you could defeat now, quite easily I imagine."
"Ah, but I like learning weaponcraft," said Paks. She thought of Saben's teasing with a pang. "I
always have."
"Good, then. You're welcome here, any time. Ill be glad to drill with you; you're good enough to
give me practice. Ambros, too. And mind-—" he saia briskly, fixing her with a sharp glance, "mind,
I intend to have you a Girdsman before long. Such skill as yours should be dedicated to a good
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of right, not running loose after idle gain." Paks felt a flicker of anger at that, and her chin
came up. "No—" He stopped and rubbed his head. "I shouldn't say that of you, when I don't know
your allegiance, but Gird knows we've trouble enough coming, and few to meet it." He grinned at
her suddenly. "I still think you'll make a fine Girdsman someday—even a Marshal, who knows?"
The others milled about, replacing weapons in racks on the grange walls, and taking their leave.
Paks sheathed her sword, and turned to go. The Marshal was talking seriously to two men, low-
voiced.
A hand touched her arm. It was Ambros. "If—if you'd come again, I'd like to drill with you—"
"Oh, I'll come again, while I'm here. It's good practice. But—don't you have any women drilling
with you?"
Ambros shook his head. "No. Not at this level. We'd had some in the beginners' class—in feet, we
have two there now. But those who want to go on, the Marshal sends elsewhere for more training."
"I see."
"Were there many women in your company?"
"Maybe a quarter of us. One of the cohort captains."
"I've heard of Duke Phelan. Isn't his title from the court of Tsaia?"
"Yes. He has lands in the north of the kingdom, on the border." Paks sighed. "I might—I might be
going back there."
"But you left the company, didn't you? We thought you were a free sword."
"Well—I was due leave, and—and the Duke thought perhaps I should try another company—another
service— for a time. But I miss it; I've thought of going back."
"Oh." Paks could hear the unasked questions. Ambros stopped at the door, starting to say something
and stopped, and finally said, "Well—Gird go with you. We'll be glad to see you again."
It was late. Most torches in the village were out. Paks made her way down the dark streets with
care, following some distance behind several others from the Grange.
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Cold night air, damp from the river, soothed her hot face. She caught a whiff from the tanner's
crossing the bridge. As she neared the crossroad, she saw light spilling from the inn's windows.
She slipped in the door, ignoring the few who sat late in the common-room, and went up the stairs
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then remembered her unfinished dinner. She put on her other shirt and went back downstairs.
Hebbinford rose from his place near the fire.
"Do you want the rest of your dinner?"
"Yes, if it's not too much trouble." Paks settled at an empty table. Hebbinford brought a candle;
a serving wench came with a tray. They had heated the leftovers by the kitchen fire, and the gravy
was bubbling hot. She cut a slice of bread and began eating.
Several of those who had been at the drill clustered at one table over mugs of ale, chatting. One
caught her eye and grinned and waved. The man in black that Paks had seen the previous night sat
across the room, a flagon of wine at his elbow. Two men in merchants' gowns diced idly nearby. One
of them, looking around the room, saw her and nudged the other. They both rose and came to her
table.
"I'm Gar Travennin," said the older. "A merchant, as you see, from Chaya. Could we talk with you?"
Paks nodded; her mouth was full. They sat across from her. Travennin was balding, with a gray
fringe. The younger man was blond.
"We hear you came over the mountains, from Aarenis." Paks nodded again. "I heard there was more
fighting than usual down there, and no trade this year. Is that so?'
Paks took a sip of her ale. "Yes. That's so. Had you heard of Lord Siniava?" The man nodded.
"Well, he tried open war against the Guild League cities and the northern mercenaries all at once.
He lost."
"Ah ... so. Do you think, then, that trade will be back to normal by next spring? I held off this
year, but I've a caravan of fine wool that needs a buyer."
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her hands. "I can't say, sir, for certain. I came north with a late caravan, as far as the Silver
Pass, but whether they made it safe to Valdaire I don't know."
"Were you with a regular company?" Travennin asked as if he had heard already.
"Yes. Duke Phelan's Company. The Duke was—much involved." Paks was not sure how much to say; the
old habit of silence held her still.
"Mmm. And why did you leave?"
Paks felt irritated. "Why, sir, I enlisted for two years. My time was up."
"I see. You had had no trouble—?"
Merchants! she thought disgustedly. No honor at all. "No, sir. No trouble." She went on eating.
"I heard the Duke and Aliam Halveric were much in each other's pockets," said Travennin, his eyes
roaming around the room.
Paks gave him a hard look and returned to her meal. "Oh? I couldn't say."
"After some kind of trouble last year—over the pass? Some border fort, I forget the name—"
She thought of Dwarfwatch at once, and said nothing. The smell of that mountain wind came to her,
and her last sight of Saben and Canna in the rain, and Captain Ferrault's dying face.
"-—do you know it?" the merchant persisted.
Paks stopped eating and slowly put both hands flat on the table. He glanced at her and froze as
she glared at him. "Sir," she said finally, in a voice she hardly recognized. "I have nothing to
say about our—the Duke's— Company. Nothing. And by your leave, sir, 111 finish my supper in
peace." She stared at him until he reddened and pushed back his stool. She had lost her appetite.
All those deaths, that grief and rage— The merchants she had traveled with had not been so crass.
But of course, they had been in Aarenis during the war. They knew. Her breathing slowed; she took
another sip of ale. The merchants were back at their own table, heads together. The man in black
was watching her. As he met her eyes, he lifted his glass in salute and grinned. She looked away.
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she wished she were anywhere but here. No, not anywhere, but back with the Company, laughing with
Vik and Arne, talking with Stammel or Sell or Dev. Tears stung her eyes and she blinked them back
angrily. She drew a long breath and drank more ale.
She had thought she'd feel at home in the north; she was northern. But Brewersbridge was for from
home. Maybe that was it. She thought of Verella, thought of going straight on to Three Firs. She
had money enough now; she could make more show than even her cousin. She imagined her mother's
smile, her father's scowl—but he might not be angry, with the dowry repaid. She wondered what she
would tell them, and what they would ask. Her musings ended there. She could not tell them
anything they would understand. They would see her as these folk did: dangerous, wild, a stranger.
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Hebbinford, but when he came she doubted the steadiness of her voice and asked for water. His
expression approved that choice. The merchants left the room and went upstairs.
Paks drank the water and thought of what she would do the next day. She needed new clothes, at
least a new shirt. A saddle for Star. She knew where the tailor's shop was, and the
leatherworker's—if he made saddles. She would order a shirt or two, and then think about how long
to stay. Suddenly she remembered the tall man the smith had felled. How was he? She was unwilling
to ask the innkeeper. She picked up the pastry from a dish she had pushed aside and bit into it
absently. It had been a long day.
Chapter Ten
Next morning she woke again at dawn. This time Hebbinford seemed to expect her when she padded
down the stairs and out to the stableyard. There she stretched and twisted, working the stifihess
out of her shoulder. When Sevri came out, they fed the horses together. Paks stopped to watch the
black horse eat. She wondered what would happen to it if its master died. She imagined herself
riding away on it—then wondered if she could even mount it.
The tailor, she found after breakfast, was away on a trip. "Buying cloth up at the Count's fair,"
said his wife. "He's got a commission to make cloaks for the new council members, and has gone to
buy cloth. He won't be home for a sennight or more. But what did you need, lady? Perhaps 1 could
serve?"
"Well—some shirts, at least. I'd wanted a cloak, a heavy traveling cloak for winter."
"Fur? I couldn't do fur, nor does he, without it being paid in advance."
"No, not fur. Just good warm wool, weatherproofed—"
"Plain shirts, or fancy ones?"
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Paks thought of her money. "Plain. Maybe one fancy
one."
"The plain shirts I can do. And here—here's our silks, from the south. They say you've been there;
you'll know these are good."
Paks looked at the goods. The silk was so soft—she decided on a silk shirt, green, with gold
embroidery on the yoke. For that, the woman said, she'd have to await the tailor's return. In the
meantime, a linen shirt—Paks explained the cut she wanted, to free her arms for sword-play. The
tailor's wife took her measurements.
"You're as big as a man," she said, a little nervously. "Even in the neck—"
Paks laughed. "It comes of the fighting," she said. "Wearing a helmet every day would thicken
anyone's neck. Makes it harder to cut through." But the woman didn't take the joke, and only
looked frightened. Paks sighed, and ordered trousers as well, of die local wool, thicker and
softer than she'd found in Aarenis. The tailor's wife knew someone who knitted for sale, and by
noon Paks had ordered new socks and gloves for the coming winter.
As she came back to the inn, well satisfied with her morning's work, she noticed a crowd round the
door. She slowed. A group of men came out, carrying something on a plank. Boots, scuffed and worn,
poked out from under a blanket. The tall man. Paks shivered. Marshal Cedfer, walking with the
carriers, nodded shortly to Paks as he led the group toward the Grange. Paks went on to the door,
staring after them.
Just inside the inn door, Hebbmford was talking to Master Oakhallow.
"—doesn't do the inn any good," he was saying. "And besides— Oh. Paksenarrion. Master Oakhallow
was looking for you."
Paksenarrion felt a tremor in her gut. The Kuakgan was looking at her without expression. She
opened her mouth to say something about lunch, and thought better of it.
"For a simple warrior," said the Kuakgan, "you certainly have managed to make a stir in our quiet
village." Hebbmford moved away, into the common room. Paks
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thought of several things to say, and decided against all of them. "You were about to eat?"
Oakhallow went on.
"Yes, sir." Paks tried to judge his expression. "But if you needed—"
"No. I think 111 join you for lunch, if that's acceptable."
Paks wondered what he would say if she said no. Instead she nodded, and followed him into the
common room. He murmured something to Hebbinford, and the innkeeper waved them on into the
kitchen. The serving wenches were wide-eyed. The Kuakgan moved to a table at the kitchen window,
overseeing the courtyard, and sat down. Paks hesitated, then sat opposite him. Hebbinford brought


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a platter of sliced meat, a loaf of bread, and a round of cheese to the table. One of the girls
brought a pitcher of water and two rnugs.
"You might as well know," the Kuakgan began, as he pulled out a dagger and sliced the round of
cheese, "that you're causing a stir. I don't mean that dead bully, necessarily, though that's part
of it. Not your fault, I agree with the Marshal, but you were involved. Then Master Senneth, after
you left his place, has had a—how shall I put it?—a complacent look. And he called you 'lady,' I
hear. In his vocabulary, that means rich. Folk here know the Halveric Company, and most have heard
of your duke. After your comments last night, to the Chaya merchants, no one has much doubt that
he's still your duke. You gave both to me and to the Grange a jewel worth a knight's ransom—
apparently without knowing their worth. You walked off with a horse that the smith claimed was an
outlaw." He paused to eat a slice of cheese.
Paks was still staring at her food; she shook herself and speared a slice of meat. Put that way,
it almost seemed that she'd tried to show off. She finished that slice, and tore off a hunk of
bread. She had no idea what was coming, or what to do.
"Marshal Cedfer says," the Kuakgan went on, after pouring himself some water, "that you're
uncommonly good with that sword, and also good with the short sword—which I'd expect, where you've
been—and also good at instructing in weapons. We didn't expect that of one so young, a
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mere private. Sevri tells me you're good with all the animals, and helpful as well. Fighters
aren't, as a rule. In feet—" Paks looked up and was caught by his dark gaze. "In feet,
Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter, you are very different from the usual ex-mercenary. Now Kuakkganni—"
he gave a slow smile that changed his whole face. "Kuakkganni have their own ways of learning
things. From what I know, I judge that you're as honest as most youngsters are, and mean no
harm—not that no harm comes of it. You have some secrets rankling in your heart which must come
out—and soon, I judge—if they're not to hurt you later. But unless you choose to confide in me,
it's not my business." Paks thought of the snowcat with a mental wince, and looked down. "Marshal
Cedfer thinks you need only join the Grange to be a fine addition to our town: that's a
compliment; he's hard to please. But you've come to the notice of our local Guard, and the
Council, and it's best you know the eyes they have on you."
Paks stirred restlessly. "But, sir—Master Oakhallow—why should they be so interested? I won't be
here long—"
"No? Are you sure? The simple answer, chikL is that they can't fit you in. You aren't one of the
Count's Guard at the new Keep. You aren't an ordinary soldier on leave. You aren't a Girdsman,
which would put you under command of Marshal Cedfer, or a kuakkgannir, which would put you under
mine. You have no skill but war, isn't that so?" Paks nodded. "And you come from war, from
Aarenis, where I hear the whole land is one great bubbling stew of fighting. Where an army might
come over the pass, the short way, and be on us before we could send for aid. Can you imagine a
southern army up here?" Paks thought of it and nodded. "And you come with treasure—how much, only
you and Master Senneth know, but I can guess. Agents carry such treasure, Paksenarrion. Agents
hiring troops, or buying loyalty ahead of invasion."
Paks stared at him, shocked. She couldn't speak. Finally she choked out: "Agent? But—but I never
thought—"
"No," said the Kuakgan grimly. "You didn't think. That much is obvious. An agent would think,
would have acted very differently. But the Council can't know what I know.
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They are concerned. So they should be. Your tale of the elfene taig, and the elves' aid, and
having to meet me and Marshal Cedfer, and treasure—well, it would be stupider men than our Council
that could see where that might come from." He went back to his meal. Paks sat frozen, her
appetite gone, the food she had already eaten a cold lump in her belly. She watched him eat.
Finally he pushed his plate away. "And on top of all," he said, "a green shirt. With gold
embroidery. I suppose you don't know what that means?" She shook her head. "Hmmph. You must have
gone straight from your sheepfarm into the Company, and straight into Aarenis from there."
"Yes, sir."
"Well, child, Brewersbridge is near the border of Tsaia and Lyonya. Our local Count, such as he
is, is a vassal of Tsaia. His colors are blue and rose. Green and gold are the colors of the royal
house of Lyonya."
"Oh." Paks thought suddenly of the Halveric colors: dark green and gold. She did not even consider
asking.
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asking you anyway. There's a Council meeting tonight, and you're summoned. Ill be there, and
Marshal Cedfer. You met our Master Mason the other night. Captain Sir Felis Trevlyn, the Count's
military representative, and commander at the new Keep. Probably his mage, Master Zinthys. Jos
Hebbinford you know, and Master Senneth. Our mayor is Master Ceddrin, the Brewmaster. You'll be
asked for a clear account of yourself, and for news of what's happened this past year in Aarenis."
He stopped again. Paks noaded, and he went on.
"I thought you might give a clearer account, if you had the afternoon to think about it. If
there's anything you haven't told the truth about, you'd better be prepared to tonight. You'll
probably be asked to submit to an Examination of Truth—'
"What's that?" asked Paks.
"A spell. Under its influence, you cannot lie. You can refuse to answer questions, however, should
you wish. The Council consented to my telling you this, because of
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my judgment of you, I think you have nothing to fear from the Examination or the Council, but you
must expect sharp questioning: don't get angry. If you are unwilling to come before the Council,
you must leave Brewersbridge at once. You can't go north, deeper into the Count's lands, without
Sir Felis's permission, which you won't get. You could go west, if you went fast, and were beyond
the bounds by sundown. East, as you know, has its own hazards, and south is back up the mountains.
And if you go, they 11 assume you've lied. I advise you to stay."
"I wouldn't have run away," said Paks.
"Good. Jos Hebbinford will tell you what time to come. After supper. You might want to dress for
it, if you can." He stood, and Paks scrambled to her feet. "You are, you know, as welcome at the
Grove as at die Grange." He turned away. Paks thought of the snowcat again. Should she tell him?
She wondered what he would say.
By midaftemoon, Paks had bathed and washed her hair. Her good shirt, mended, was drying in the
stableyard; she wore the ragged one in her room. She bad oiled her boots, and was working on her
sword belt while her hair dried in the breeze from the window. She heard boots coming down the
passage, stopping before her door. She froze, and reached for the sword, where she'd laid it on
the bed. Someone knocked, and called her name softly.
Paks glanced around the room, then at the door, conscious of her loose hair, the mail shirt
hanging on a peg. She shrugged, and answered.
"Yes?"
"I'm Arvid Semmmson, lady, a traveller also staying here. You've seen me in the common room, in
black trousers. I heard you were staying in this afternoon, and I've been wanting to speak with
you. May I come in, or could we meet downstairs shortly?"
Paks thought of the man in dark clothes. She had no idea what his profession was, which itself
made thief most likely. She thought of the Council meeting that night, and decided that she didn't
want to meet anyone privately. "I'll be downstairs a little later, if that will suit."
"Very good," came the voice through the door, a mel-
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low and pleasant voice. "I shall be honored to buy you a tankard of Hebbinfbrd's best ale, or
wine, whichever you prefer." The footsteps went away, back toward the stairs. Paks ran her hands
through her hair, which was almost dry, and began to comb it. Somehow it was much worse to be
found with loose hair: she did not feel like a fighter with hair down her back and wisping into
her face. She braided it tightly, then finished her work on the sword belt. Her sword was clean
and sharp, as always. She took off her trousers and looked them over. The previous mending still
held. She could do nothing more for the shirt she had on. She had patched the worst rents, but the
other holes and scorches remained. She had brushed and aired her cloak, but it, too, was stained
and worn. The leather tunic, though bloodmarked, was better over her shirt than nothing. She
slipped it over her head, decided against the mail, and felt her boots. Still damp and oily. It
would be another hour or so before they were dry. She pulled out die thin leather liners she'd
worn in the high mountains, and put them on. More respectable than socks or bare feet. She
strapped her sword belt on over the tunic, made sure she could get her dagger easily, and went
downstairs.
Arvid Semmmson had chosen a table with a good view of the stairs. He smiled as he saw her, and
waved. Paks came to his table. Only one other person was in the common room, a great cheerful
youth she had seen before, happily downing a tankard of ale at a swallow. He was leaning on the
wall behind his table, and looked half asleep.
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whole. By the drape of the shoulder and sleeve, the cloth was of fine quality. The belt at his
waist was polished black leather, new enough that die edges had not curled; his dagger's sheath
was well-oiled and unscarred. He himself had neatly trimmed dark hair, a smoodi-shaven face, and
bright black eyes. His mouth quirked in amusement.
"Do I pass your inspection, lady?" he asked pleasantly.
Paks thought of her own ragged shirt and patched trousers, and reddened. "I've no right to
inspect," she muttered.
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"No, but you were. Everyone does. I expect that. See here, lady, I'll be straight with you—no
secrets. I'm no merchant, nor mercenary fighter. Our esteemed innkeeper thinks I'm a thief, though
I haven't robbed him. That's neither here nor there. But you, either you're—how shall I say?—in a
related business to mine, or you're simply unaware of the situation. Either way, I can't let such
an attractive young woman wander into a trap without warning. Do you follow me?"
Paks shook her head. She felt a certain distaste for his attempt at flattery. After the tailor's
wife's comments, she had no illusions about being "an attractive young woman" by local standards.
"Well—" he looked her up and down. "It might be that our interests would lie together. Or if not,
a favor done might earn a favor later, who knows? But you know there's a Council meeting set for
tonight?"
"Yes, but—"
"And you've agreed to go."
"Yes."'
He snorted, "Then either you're a great deal more knowing than you act, or you know nothing at
all." He leaned closer to her. "You can't hope to come out of that easily, you know. They'll get
you one way or the other."
"What do you mean?"
He ticked off the points on his fingers. "A stranger in town, with plenty of money, and no liege
to worry about angering, and under no protection they know of? Don't be silly. They'll find some
excuse, and then pfft! You're in trouble."
"But I haven't—"
"—done anything," he finished for her, and laughed again. "And just what do you think that has to
do with it, eh? No, let me give you some advice. It's too late to escape, if you would. But be
very careful. After they back you in a corner, they'll probably offer you some sort of deal, if
they can't find anything to imprison you for at once. Consider it very carefully, whatever it is.
Very carefully. Make no promises you can avoid. Beware of that
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wizard, if he's there: he'll try to bind you with some sort of spell, if you aren't careful."
"But why are you telling me all this?" asked Paks, thinking hard.
"As I told you. A favor. I may need one from you someday. You can't do me any good if you're in a
cell, or dead. And if they do offer you a deal, I'd like to know about it. Before I came here, I'd
heard the Council had hired outsiders for some kind of interesting work. Since I arrived, no one
will tell me anything. Maybe they'll tell you, if they think they have a hold on you. And if you
end up taking a job—well, you might want someone with you who wasn't one of theirs, if you know
what I mean."
Paks was both fascinated and repelled. What he said almost made sense, almost fit with the
Kuakgan's words. She still could not understand what sort of hold anyone could have on her, or why
they would want to find her guilty of something. In Aarenis, they might have wanted an excuse to
seize her for the slave market, but not in Tsaia. She wondered if Semminson was the kind of agent
that the Kuakgan had been talking about. Would anyone, ever, try to help a southern army invade
the north? She was sure not, until she remembered that Soft Ganarrion was planning to come north
to fight for his throne. She said nothing, rubbing her toe against the top of the other foot.
Semminson was watching her.
"Well," she said finally. "Whatever comes, I'll be meeting with the Council tonight."
"Just keep what I said in mind," he urged.
"Mmm. I will." She noticed Hebbinford watching her from the kitchen door. She looked away and
stood.
"Good luck to you," said Semminson softly. "I fear you'll need it." Paks went on out to the
stableyard to gather her clean clothes from the line.
All in all, she had little appetite for supper that night. Her clean shirt had only die one tear,
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She wondered whether to wear her mail. If Semminson was a thief, she hated to leave it
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behind, but she didn't want them to think she was looking for trouble, either. She thought it
over, and finally cornered Hebbinfbrd to ask him.
"It doesn't matter," he said. "It's valuable, and you're a fighter—wear it if you wish. You can't
carry a sword into Council, but die guards will keep it for you. Whatever you're comfortable
with."
She wasn't comfortable at all, but decided to go upstairs and put on the mail. Semminson was
coming out of a room farther along the hall, and he gave her a knowing look. She put on the heavy
jingling shirt, buffed her helmet on the blanket, and put that on as well. With a captain of
soldiers coming, she might as well look like a soldier.
Hebbinford sent one of the girls to her room to call her; she came down the stairs with a sort of
muddled determination to do the right thing and not be trapped. He was waiting at the door,
dressed in a long blue gown under a far^joUared cloak, instead of his usual tunic and apron. He
smiled and they set off for the Hall together. Paks heard horses behind them, and moved to the
edge of the street automatically. Hebbinford turned to look, and waved to the lead rider.
"Ah, Sir Felis. You haven't been in town these past few days."
No. There's enough to do at the keep." Paks looked up at the mounted figure, his face lit by his
escorts' torches. He wore chainmaD and helmet, and she could tell nothing about him except that he
sat his horse like a soldier. He looked down at her and spoke to Hebbinford. "Is this the person
I've heard of?"
"Yes, Sir Felis. This is Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter."
"Hmmph." She saw the glitter of his eyes as they scanned her. "You look more like a soldier than a
free blade, young woman. You were with Duke Phelan's Company?"
"Yes, sir."
"What rank?"
"As a private, sir. File leader, my last year."
"I see. What—? No, I'll wait until we're in session." He gave a casual wave of the hand to
Hebbinford, and rode on past them.
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The hall, when they reached it, was lighted by torches in brackets along the front, as well as
inside. Two of the captain's escorts stood guard at the door. Paks felt sweat spring cold on her
forehead; she wanted to yawn for no reason. Semminson's veiled warnings seemed suddenly
appropriate. She heard voices inside. Hebbinford nudged her, and she surrendered her sword to the
guard on the right, and went on through the door.
At the far end of a large room, much larger than the common room at the inn, a knot of people
clustered around the one table. Paks recognized Marshal Cedfer, now in mail, and looking much more
like the Marshal she'd seen in Aarenis. His surcoat bore the crescent of Gird on a dark blue
field. Master Oakhallow, in the same long robe he had worn in the afternoon, was already seated,
and talking to one of the other men. Another man in mail—Paks assumed it was Sir Felis—stood at
the end of the table, lips folded tightly as he listened.
Paks heard someone come in behind her, and turned to see the stonemason, Master Feddith. He gave
her a cold look and stumped over to the table at once. Hebbinford, too, moved to that side of the
room, and Paks followed slowly. A man she had not seen in town before, tall, with a generous
belly, sat behind the table and looked up as the master mason and Hebbinford approached.
"Ah," he said. "We're all here, then. Have a seat, Councillors, have a seat. Let's get on with
this." He looked at Paks. "So you're the young woman I've heard so much about? Paks—" He looked
down at a sheet before him. "Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter? Of Three Firs?"
"Yes, sir," said Paks. The others were all taking seats around the far side and end of the table.
"Good. Let me introduce you to the Council. I'm the mayor, Brewmaster Ceddrin. You saw my place on
your way to the grange. You know Marshal Cedfer, and Master Oalchallow, and Master Hebbinford
already. Captain Sir Felis Trevlyn, our count's military representative—" Sir Felis nodded
shortly; in this light Paks could tell that he was a lean, weatherbeaten man somewhat shorter than
Duke Phelan. His beard was carefully trimmed. "—and
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Master Zinthys, the mage—" Paks looked at the slender, handsome young man in a long velvet robe
lavishly banded with braid. He had rings on both hands, and a great polished crystal hanging by a
silver chain on his chest. Master Zinthys smiled. The mayor went on. "This is Master Feddith, the


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stonemason, and I believe you also know Master Senneth, the moneychanger." He looked up and Paks
nodded. "Also with us tonight are past Councillors: Master Hostin, our miller, Trader Garin
Carinsson, and Master Doggal, the smith. Eris Arvidsdotter is here representing the farmholders."
Trader Garin wore merchants' robes, and Eris Arvidsdotter wore a wool gown and cloak. She was as
tall as Paks, and broad-shouldered; her gray hair was in a braided coil. The mayor paused until
Paks had nodded at each of these. Then he picked up a heavy gavel lying on the table and rapped
three times; the table boomed.
"The council of Brewersbridge is in session," he said loudly. "I ask the protection of all the
gods, and the guidance of all good spirits, to be over us in this meeting. May wisdom and truth
prevail. In the name of the High Lord, and all the powers of light." It sounded stilted, as if he
didn't open the council formally that often.
"May it be," responded the others.
"We are met," he said in a lower tone, "to learn what we can of a traveler here, one Paksenarrion
Dorthansdotter. We have heard disturbing things all this year of trouble in Aarenis. We will
examine this person to see what her business is here, and how it may be bound in with what has
happened there." He waited, and Paks noticed that both the mage and the Marshal were taking notes.
"Does anyone object to my asking the questions?" asked the mayor. Heads were shaken around the
table. "Very well, then. If you have other questions, when I'm through, just say so. Now—is
Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter your true name?"
"Yes, sir, but I'm called Paks, since I left home."
"I see. And you come from Three Firs? Where is that? In Tsaia?"
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"I—I'm not sure. The closest larger town was Rocky Ford; that's where I joined Duke Phelan's
Company—"
The Marshal cleared his throat. "Excuse me, Mayor, but Rocky Ford is just within Tsaia, near the
Finthan border in the north."
"I see. Three Firs was small, then?"
"Yes, sir. Much smaller than Brewersbridge. My father's land was a half-day's sheep drive out on
the moors. We went to Three Firs rarely."
^And Rocky Ford?"
"I'd never been there before I—I ran away to join the Company."
"So you went directly from home to Duke Phelan's Company—hmm. And what was your father?"
"A sheep farmer," said Paks. "I learned about mercenary companies from my cousin Jornoth; he'd
left several years before, and came back with a horse, and gold, and said he was in the guard."
"Where? In Tsaia?"
"He didn't say, sir. But he said 1 couldn't go directly to a job that good. He said I'd have to
start somewhere else, and he told me what to do."
"Hmm. Not common, for a girl from a remote farm to join an army."
"No, sir. But I'd always wanted to be a warrior—"
"As a mercenary?" put in the Marshal.
Paks blushed. "Not—exactly, sir. But Jornoth said that was the way to start."
The mayor took control again. "You say you were trained at Duke Phelan's stronghold, and went from
there to the wars in Aarenis?"
"Yes, sir."
"How long were you in Aarenis?"
"I was there for three campaign seasons, and in winter quarters in Valdaire. Only a few come back
north in the winters."
"You must have had a short season this year," he said, looking at her sharply. "Why did you leave
your Company?"
Paks hesitated. "The war—Siniava had been killed, and my two years were up."
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"You have told Marshal Cedfer and Master Oakhallow what happened to you; we also would like to
know, from your own lips."
"Yes, sir. ' Paks gathered her wits. She hurried over the first part of the trip with Macenion,
merely mentioning his half-elf ancestry and the knowledge he claimed of the mountains. Then she
described the valley of the elfane taig as they had first seen it, and the dream that came to both
of them. The Councillors listened without interrupting as she described the underground passages,
and the chamber where they'd found the elf-lord. Through the battle with him, the burning, and the
running fight with the ores, and the last struggle that ended, beyond her comprehension, with her


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alone on the surface, no one spoke or stirred. "Some sickness came on me," she said finally. "I
couldn't go far along the trail; a snowstorm came down off the mountains, and I fell. Then it was
that the elves came. They healed me, and entered the valley to see whether I had told them the
truth. When they returned, they told me how to find my way here, and gave me messages to Master
Oakhallow and Marshal Deordtya. I was to say that Ae elfane taig has awaked, and the elf-lord was
freed/ Paks stopped, anal looked up and down the table. The faces were intent, but no longer
hostile.
After a moment's silence, Sir Felis turned to the mayor. "If you don't mind, I'd like to ask a few
questions."
"Go ahead."
"Paksenarrion, you say you served three campaign seasons. How soon after you joined the regular
company were you made private from recruit?"
"The first battle, sir."
"What was your file position?"
"File second, the first year, sir, and the second. Tjiis past year we moved around a lot, but at
the end I was file leader."
"I'm not clear on something. You've spoken both of leaving the Company, and of being on some sort
of long leave. Are you still the Duke's soldier, or not?"
Paks sighed. "Sir, the Duke had reason to give me a long leave. He and others had suggested that I
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leave the Company for a year or so. For other training, or experience, they said. But the Duke
said I would be welcome back any time. I hadn't decided yet, sir, how soon to return."
"But you have no complaints against Duke Phelan, or he against you?"
"I have none against him, sir, and as far as I know he has none against me. And the Company is all
I've known. I miss them."
"Have you any sort of token or pass from your Duke, that might prove what you say of his opinion?*
Paks remembered the ring he had given the survivors of Dwarfwatch, and reached into her pouch to
get it. "Here is a ring—" She handed it to the mayor, who peered at it, and passed it along the
table. When they had all looked at it, the mayor passed it back.
"Dwarfwatch," the mayor said. "Isn't that die name of that Sorellin fort on the south end of
Hakkenarsk Pass?"
"So the traders say," said Master Senneth.
"So. Those rumors, last spring, of a major battle there—" mused Hebbinford. "You must have been
there. Why were you so angry with the merchants, Paksenarrion, for mentioning it?"
Paks glanced quickly at Sir Felis and the Marshal, then back to Hebbinford. "Sir, it is the Duke's
business. 1 don't talk of it with merchants. But—by treachery, most of my—of a—cohort was lost at
Dwarfwatch, to Lord Siniava. Most of a cohort of Halveric's, too. For those of us who lived, the
Duke had these rings made."
"So he's fought understrength this past year," commented Sir Felis. "And the Halveric, too, I
presume."
The Marshal was not deflected from the original story. "What was it, a siege, or what?"
"If she considers it her Duke's business, Cedfer—" began the Kuakgan.
"Nonsense. Anything that's happened almost a year ago is public knowledge in Aarenis, and well
know the details here sooner or later."
Paks took a deep breath and tried to shove her private memories back into hiding. All the
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in the south knew the story; Cedfer was right. She gathered her wits and began. "One cohort of the
Duke's Company was detached from the siege of Rotengre—the Guild League cities had joined in
that—and garrisoned Dwariwatch while the Sorellin militia, who had been there, helped with the
grain harvest." She paused, and they all nodded. They listened intently as she described Halveric
Company's approach, the surrender, the departure of all but a guard cohort of Halveric's and
Siniava s attack, the fete of die prisoners marched away toward Rotengre, and the desperate
defense of the few who held the fort.
"And you were in that. I see." Marshal Cedfer glanced at the Kuakgan and back to Paks. "Were you
one of those sieged in the fort, or were you taken prisoner?"
' Neither, sir. Three of us were not taken—by chance, we were gathering berries in the brambles
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Felis was leaning forward, alert and eager; the Marshal's eyebrows were up; the Kuakgan was
frowning slightly. The rest merely looked interested. "How far did you go?" asked Sir Felis.
"Where was the Duke?"
"Outside Rotengre, with the rest of the Company," said Paks. She wished they would go on to
something else. She didn't want to think about that journey, about Saben and Canna.
"I can see," said the Marshal, "why you would be trusted by Duke Phelan. Remarkable. Well, then—so
the Duke relieved his force at the fort. And where was the Halveric? I should think he'd have been
there, too."
"He had taken most of his Company toward Merinath," said Paks. "They arrived the next day, too
late to fight there: but they came to Rotengre." "And how many troops did Siniava have?" "We
thought about eight hundred, altogether—" "But Phelan's force is what—three cohorts altogether?"
"Yes, sir. He had help from the Claris and Count Vladi—" "And Gird, no doubt," said the Marshal
firmly. "Well, indeed. That's quite a tale, but straight enough. Now, what's happened this last
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fighting, open war from the mountains to the sea, armies marched clear from the Westmounts to the
Copper Hills. What about it?" The mayor was watching the Marshal closely, but did not interfere.
Paks wondered where to start. "Sir, after the year before, the Duke and the Halveric were certain
that Siniava meant to conquer all of Aarenis. The Guild League cities blamed him for the piracy of
Rotengre, and other things as well. My lord Duke pledged to spend himself on a campaign against
Siniava, for what he had done to us. He gathered most of the northern mercenaries to his aid. And
the Guild League cities fought on their own lands, and sometimes marched abroad as well."
"Ahal" Master Senneth was rubbing his hands together. "I always suspected the like, sirs, I did
indeed. Too many caravans were robbed on the trade roads between Merinath and Sorellin, and none
of the goods ever showed up here. They must have been taken on south. And I'd heard through—well,
I'd heard that Siniava had bought into some of the guilds."
Paks nodded. "We heard the same, sir, after Cortes Cilwan fell."
"Cihvan fell?" asked Sir Felis sharply. "What happened to the Count?"
"He was killed," said Paks. "But Vladi's men got his heir out, the boy, and he's safe in
Andressat, the last 1 heard."
"Succession wars," muttered the Marshal. "They'll have succession wars, as well as everything
else."
"Go on," said the mayor, with a gesture that silenced the others. "What then?"
Paks shrugged. "I don't know it all, sir; I was only a private, after all." She described the
campaign as best she could. Sir Felis and the Marshal listened intently, their fingers moving as
if on maps. The others reacted more to descriptions of cities fallen, battles fought, factions
implicated in this plot or that. Finally, dry-throated with the length of the tale, she came to
that last few days, when Siniava's remaining soldiers were neatly trapped with the help of Alured
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them," Pales explained, "in an old ruin where the Immer and Imefal meet."
"Cortes Immer," said the Kuakgan softly. "No one's held that since the old duke's line died."
Paks looked at him. "Is that what it is? It's still a great citadel, built into the living rock
like Cortes Andres. Anyway, Siniava was killed, trying to escape secretly from the citadel, and
after that his army surrendered to^the militia."
"I can hardly believe Siniava is truly dead/' mused the mayor. "How many years have we worried
that he might gain control of Aarenis and come over the mountains? I remember the first word we
had of him, don't you, Master Oakhallow?"
"Indeed yes."
"And now he's gone. And no more agents of his will come through, trying to spy out defenses, such
as they are."
Chapter Eleven
"// she's telling the truth," said Feddith harshly. "If. Twould be months before we could check
her tale. She might be an agent herself."
Paks tensed, but Sir Felis answered. "I don't think so," he said. "She carries the duke's ring,
and showed it willingly. I know that crest."
"It could have been stolen," said Feddith stubbornly.
"She fights like a soldier trained in Phelan's cornpany," commented the Marshal. "I know what
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"And as well," said the mayor, with a look at the mage, "we have a way to tell if she lied. If
Master Zinthys is willing—"
The mage looked at Paks, and smiled disarmingly. "I should say, if the lady is willing. Without
any special arts, sirs, I see no liar there. An honest soldier, it seems to me, and I daresay to
Captain Sir Felis." He caught Felis's eye, and the captain nodded. "I would not wish to cast a
spell on her if she's opposed, sir; I would not indeed."
The tradesmen of the Council looked taken aback. Master Oakhallow smiled faintly. Marshal Cedfer
spoke up, brisk as always.
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"I'm sure she'll have no objection; it's an honorable request. Isn't that right, Paksenarrion?"
Paks felt the tensions in the room, and wondered what to do. She wished they'd agreed with the
mage to let her alone. What was this truth spell like? Even with the Kuakgan's assurance in the
afternoon, she feared to be involved in more magic.
"Sirs," she began cautiously, "the only time I know of that I've been spelled, it was by the elf-
lord. Could I ask what the spell is, that Master Zinthys would use? I have no wish to put myself
in another's power for anything but the truth alone."
"Well said," murmured the Kuakgan. The others nodded, and Master Zinthys smiled at her.
"It's not like that at all—or rather, it may be a bit like that, but this spell is quite limited.
You're absolutely right, not to let yourself be spelled without safeguards. Ill explain it to you.
The power of this spell is that you cannot lie while it is active. Nor, for that matter, can
anyone standing very close to you. I could, of course, cast it so that no one in the room could
lie, but that takes a great deal of power. The limit of the spell is that while you cannot lie,
you are not compelled to say anything at all. Nor does it affect acts other than speech—either
compulsion or prevention. And when the spell wears off, you can lie at will. As a practical
matter, the spell will wear off fairly soon; I see no reason to expend the power for a longer
duration. Is all that clear?" He seemed quite proud of his explanation.
"Yes,' said Paks slowly. "But—" she looked around at them all. All strangers. "Forgive me, sirs
and lady," she said, trying to be very polite, "but I know none of you well, and at most have
known you for a few days only. How do I know that you—?" Her voice trailed off as they reacted.
Some of the faces went red at once. The mason began to sputter, but the smith laughed out loud.
"She's got you there," he chuckled. "Ah, lady, you have hit on it. I should have known that anyone
who could lead that black devil away would think in the end. You don't trust us to say truth, and
no wonder."
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"That's right," said Master Zinthys quickly. "I hold no rancor, lady, for your doubts.
Nonetheless, the Council has a reason to make sure of you, and your tale."
"Is it that thief, Paks?" asked Hebbinford. "I saw him talking to you this afternoon."
"Sir, I don't know. I didn't believe much that he said, no. But—Master Oakhallow said I had caused
so much talk—I've been foolish, it seems. It may be late in the day, but I think I should be
careful now, however I've acted. I never traveled alone before, as I told you. I never thought how
it would seem, coming alone from the mountains with a load of treasure. I can understand your
suspicions. But still—I don't want to be magicked into anything."
The mayor, still red-faced, nodded. "I see. You don't know me at all; no use to tell you how my
family founded this town, generations back. You've no call to trust me. Are there any here you
could trust? Did you know any Girdsmen before? Or were you kuakkgannir?"
Paks thought about it. "Sir, I didn't mean to insult you, but I did, didn't I? Yes, I have known
Girdsmen, and the elves sent me to both the Marshal and the Kuakgan. If they say it is all right,
I am willing."
The mayor looked at her shrewdly. "You may simply be as inexperienced as you seem. We'll see.
Well, Master Oakhallow? Marshal Cedfer?"
"To my knowledge," said the Kuakgan. "Master Zinthys is an honest mage, and the spell he speaks of
works just as he said it did. Certainly I pledge that we are not planning any other magic on you."
"And I the same,' said the Marshal. "I assure you that Master Oakhallow and I are quite competent
to prevent anything else, too."
"Yes, sir," said Paks miserably. "I just wanted to ask." She looked at Master Zinthys, fighting a
hollow feeling in her belly. "Whenever you're ready, sir."
"You'd best sit down," said the mage. He rose and dragged a chair over for her. "It might make you
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Once she was seated, the mage took from his robe a small pouch and from that a pinch of colored
dust, which he tossed at Paks. It spread in the air, and seemed to hang a long time before
settling. Then he took four wands from up one sleeve, and set them on the floor around her chair.
Finally he stood back and began to chant in a language Paks had never heard before, while
gesturing with one hand in front of her face. Behind him, the iaces of the others at the Council
table were intent. Only the Kuakgan's showed amusement in the quirk of his mouth. She wondered
why. At last the mage finished, and said in the common tongue: "Speak truth, or be silent, until
the spell is done." Paks was surprised to feel nothing. No tingles, no pain, nothing at all
diiferent from before. She did not plan to he, but what would happen if she did? Had the spell
worked?
The mayor began the questioning, asking the same things as before: her name, background, reasons
for leaving the Duke, reasons for coming to Brewersbridge. He asked little about the conflicts
she'd described, and no details she had not already given. She answered, as before, honestly. It
went more quickly, since no one interrupted. When he was done, the mayor sat back and looked at
the others.
"She's not lied. Her story's unusual, but true."
"Then why did she resist being spelled?" asked the mason, still hostile. "And how do we know the
spell is working?"
The mage flushed and sat up straight, but Master Oakhallow's deep voice forestalled what he might
have said. "Master Mason, Zinthys is a competent wizard. The spell is good."
"If you say so," muttered the mason.
"I wonder myself," said the Marshal, "that a soldier of her experience would show fear of a simple
spell. But if the sorcery she suffered before were severe enough—"
The Kuakgan looked at him sharply. "Come, Marshal, you know as well as I the power in that place.
Only a witless fool would want to risk that again."
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"How long, Master Zinthys, will the spell last?" the Kuakgan asked.
"Not long. Another quarter-glass, perhaps, though 1 can counteract it now, if you wish.'
"It would be more courteous," he murmured, and the rest of the Council nodded.
Paks watched as the mage came near. He picked up the wands and stowed them up his sleeve, then
began another incantation. When he finished, he grinned at her.
"There. That wasn't so bad, was it?"
"No, sir." Paks still felt nothing. Foolish, maybe. She wished she'd agreed at once to the spell,
since it had done her no harm. The mayor cleared his throat.
"We've been here for some time, and there's more to come." Paks tensed again. "Let's take a short
break now, and ease our throats with a bit of ale. Is that all right with you, Paksenarrion?"
"Yes, sir." Paks wondered what was coming next, and thought of Semminson's warning. What might
they want her to do? Meanwhile, she stood when the others did, and followed them out to the yard
before the building. The mayor spoke to a man in servants' clothes standing there, and told him to
fetch ale. It was quite dark out, and cool; Paks shivered. Sir Felis came up to her.
"I'm more than glad to know Siniava's dead," he began. "One reason the count had me down here is
in case an army came over the pass. It will be a year or more before the keep is finished. But you
haven't seen that, have you?"
"No, sir."
"That's my command. When it's finished, well have a place to fight from, if it's necessary. The
last time there was a battle near here, we had no fortified position. No place to store arms, or
haven for those who couldn't fight—nothing."
"We've built the grange since then," put in the Marshal.
"Oh, yes. But then, it's not designed as a keep, though it is stone. You couldn't hold it against
assault."
"No, you're right. Not against a trained force. It would hold against bandits, though—we've used
it for that."
"Before my time, Marshal—and wasn't it before yours?"
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"Oh, yes. That was Deordtya's doing, not mine, years back. I suppose I shouldn't say 'we' when I
mean Gird's grange; it's just habit."
The servant appeared at their side with a tray of tankards; each took one.
"This will be Ceddrin's private brew," commented the Marshal. "I doubt you've tasted as good,
Paksenarrion."
Paks blew away the foam and sipped. It was rich and hearty. "It's very good," she said.
"Just what sort of training did Duke Phelan suggest you look for?" asked Sir Felis. "I'd have
thought he could offer anything you or he might need."
"He thought, sir, that I might learn mounted warfare, and something of fortifications and
defense—*'
"Huh. Sounds as if he were planning the education of a squire, not a man-at-arms. Had he suggested
you work toward a knighthood, or something like that?" His voice hinted at the unlikeliness of
this.
Paks nodded. "He said, sir, that nothing was certain, but that I might have the ability to become
a cohort captain, or some such, years from now."
Sir Felis frowned. "The land's full of captains; I wonder that he'd risk losing a good soldier.
Had he ever given you any command?"
"I was temporary corporal for awhile, sir, when one of ours was injured. And at the end of the
campaign, when Siniava was trapped in—Cortes Immer, was it?—I led those who watched the bolthole."
"Did Siniava come that way?"
"Yes, sir." Paks offered no details. "He was captured and killed."
"I see. Phelan obviously thought well of you. I must tell you that there's not much chance my
count would hire you, if you were hoping for that. He's done no recruiting this past year. You
could, of course, go and ask him directly."
"I hadn't thought of it, sir. I know little of this country, or who holds which keep."
"Mmmm. I'll show you a map—can you read maps? Good. I've one of the kingdom, showing the principal
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fiefs. It may give you some idea where you could hope to hire on. Marshal Cedfer can tell you of
opportunities of the grange and Hall. The Fellowship of Gird, you know, maintains several training
centers for fighting men at every level. For that matter, they have fighting orders, as do
followers of Falk and Camwyn."
"Is that where paladins come from?" asked Paks. "We saw a paladin in Aarenis."
Sir Felis choked on his ale. "Is that what you—!? Sorry. No, not exactly. The Marshal can tell you
more than I, if you're interested in that. There's an order of knights, the Knights of Gird, just
as there are Knights of the Dragon's Breath, followers of Camwyn Dragonmaster."
Paks was confused. "I thought knights were—were knights, all the same. Noblemen born, or those
knighted for service."
Sir Felis stared. "Oh, no. Whatever gave you that idea? Oh dear, no. Where did you say you were
from? A small border village, wasn't it? Now let me try to explain."
His explanation was hardly enlightening to Paks, since she knew few of the places and none of the
rulers he mentioned. He finished his lecture with a gesture to the small gold device on his
collar, shaped like a peal of bells.
"Now," he went on, after wiping his mustache, "members of my order may be followers of any
honorable god or hero. I myself am a Girdsman, but my father's brother is Falkian, and so are my
cousins. Our loyalty is to the crown of Tsaia—or, more accurately, to the heir of the House of
Mahierian. But Knights of Gird swear their loyalty to the Marshal-General of Gird, through their
Knight Commander. The—er—rules governing admission to each order depends—er—on the order, and the
circumstances." He looked her up and down, doubtfully, as if she were an unpedigreed horse at a
sale.
"I see," said Paks, more to stop him than because she did. She was still confused. She was
actually relieved when the mayor tapped her arm.
"Let's get back; we have yet a good bit of business to talk over." This time they asked her to sit
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the session, and the rest spread themselves around the table on all sides. Only the master mason
seemed still faintly hostile.
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let me explain how things stand in Brewersbridge. We're on a major trade route from the west to
the sea. We have a lot of traffic through, and want it— we depend on it. Nonetheless, I hope you
won't be insulted when I say that the Council is opposed to having free blades hanging around
town. Some of them, like you, are honorable folk, and cause no trouble intentionally. Others, like
the fellow who died, pick quarrels everywhere. We've learned it's best to insist that soldiers and
warriors either find a local lord or commander, to be responsible for their behavior, or move on."
He smiled, as he said this. Paks wondered what was coming next.
"Now you," he said, "are perhaps a special case. While Master Senneth, even for the Council's
peace of mind, won't divulge how much treasure you desposited with him, he has assured us that you
will not need to rob anyone for the price of a meal before Midwinter Feast." A chuckle went around
the table. Even the mason smiled. "So, since you've given honest account of yourself, we have one
less thing to worry about. Nonetheless, our tradition is clear, and since Sir Felis has no
employment for you, we would not willingly have you stay too long idling about. That would mean
more than a few weeks, in your case: I understand that you've ordered goods from some of our local
tradesmen. Certainly you may stay until they're completed, as long as nothing happens. On the
other hand, we are prepared to offer you certain employment—the Council is, I mean. If you took
it, we would not consider you in the same class as an adventurer."
Paks remembered Semminson's warning. "What sort of employment, sir, did you have in mind?"
'^Vork suitable for your abilities and training, I believe. And so says Marshal Cedfer. I think
Sir Felis would now concur, would you not?" Sir Felis nodded. "We have been plagued, hereabouts,
with brigands preying on caravans in
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the region. You can understand why that is critical for us; we depend on their trade. Sir Felis
has swept the area several times, finding nothing. He has direct orders from the count to
concentrate his time and men on the building of the keep north of town. We need someone to search
out the brigands' hiding place, and lead a force against them. None of us have the training—or, to
be frank, the time to take away from our trades. Would you be willing to take this commission?"
Paks could not suppress a grin. It sounded like fun, at least the part about finding the brigands'
camp. But as for killing or catching them—"Sir, it is an interesting proposal. But, whatever
Marshal Cedfer may think, I am hardly able to defeat a band of brigands on my own."
"Not at all," said the mayor. "Of course not. We would expect you to lead a force, including some
of the local militia. And you could confer, perhaps, with the Marshal or Sir Felis, on the best
method for defeating them, once you had found their camp. It is that we cannot do."
Put that way, it sounded even more attractive. Whenever Paks thought of brigands, she thought of
those who had killed Saben and Canna. She nodded at the mayor. "I have no love for brigands," she
said. "Ill be glad to hunt them for you."
"Good. What we propose is this: we will authorize you to call on members of the local militia who
have free time, and they—or the town—will supply their weapons. We will not pay you, but we will
grant you a share of any recovered goods, and a head-price for each robber killed or captured. If
you need extraordinary aid, come to Marshal Cedfer, and he will arrange it as he sees fit. Is that
satisfactory?"
Paks had no idea what such contracts were usually like, but it seemed reasonable. If many caravans
had been robbed, surely the plunder would make a fair return. "Yes," she said. "That will do. But
do you have any idea where they might be?"
The mayor leaned forward. "An idea, yes, but we aren't sure. Caravans have been attacked on all
the roads around. But Eris—" he nodded to the farm woman, who nodded to
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Paks "—Eris tells us that farms have been robbed, too— and one or two wiped out—west of here. None
close in, but those farther out have lost livestock. There are several ruins out that way which
might be useful to brigands, though Sir Felis found no one there—"
"That's not to say they might not use them," Sir Felis broke in. "We've had no time for more than
a fast sweep—^ they could have been hiding nearby, if they were clever."
"We think," the mayor went on, "that they must have some spy in town. More caravans are robbed on
their way out—especially those that have come on a market day, and sold things in our market. I
won't conceal the fact that these men—if it's humans—are dangerous. Typically they kill all the
caravaners, merchants and guards alike. That s ten to twenty guards, and say five merchants or so,
and the drivers. They've killed two farm families we know of—J suppose they surprised them
robbing—"
"But, Sir Felis interrupted again, "it may be that some farmer out there is in league with them."
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It would make sense. "Northwest of here," Sir Felis continued, "was Baron Anseg's land, but he
died without a close heir years ago, and the title of that land is still being argued in Ve"rella.
Once you're away fiom the river, and well into the woods beyond Brewersbndge, there's no lord for
two days' travel, until Baron Velis's outside Bingham."
"The merchants* guilds," put in the mayor, "naturally have an interest in the safety of the roads.
We have no Guild League, as in Aarenis, with real authority, but the guilds will support any
effort to keep the roads safe where no lord has the responsibility."
"I see," said Paks. She was becoming confused again, and clung to what she did understand. "So you
want me to hunt around and find where the brigands are hiding, and get a small force to drive them
out? Do you want them driven away, or killed, or captured, or what?"
"Killed or captured, definitely," said Marshal Cedfer. "Drive them out, and they'll return as soon
as you're gone."
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"I say loll them," put in the mason. "What good are brigands anyway?"
Paks wondered if he'd ever killed anyone. Himself,
"And if you find out who is—I mean, who may be giving information here in Brewersbridge—" added
the mayor.
Paks grinned. "You expect a stranger to find out what's going on when you, who know everyone,
can't? I might be able to find the brigands, sir, and I know I can fight, but I've no experience
in finding out secrets like that.
"Well, but if you should happen to learn—"
"I would telL— Marshal Cedfer, you wished me to report to? Is that right?"
"Yes, that's right. Or me. But Marshal Cedfer is best."
Paks looked around the table. Everyone was watching her. The mage gave her a bright smile, as if
to encourage her. The Marshal and Sir Felis looked impatient, as if she were a slightly stupid
recruit. Master Oakhallow's level gaze held a challenge. She felt, suddenly, very tired. To fight
brigands was well enough, and she'd be glad of an honest, above-ground battle again, but she had
the feeling that they all expected something more. Something more.
"Yes," she said finally. "I'll do that—or try to. I suppose the first thing is to look for the
places they might be. Do you have a map, perhaps, of the local—"
But at that they all began to talk.
"How good of you—"
"No need for that tonight, now that you've—"
"Perhaps tomorrow you can meet with Marshal Cedfer—"
"—out to the keep, and I'll introduce you to my sergeants— "
The mayor banged his gavel once, and everyone quieted. "One last thing. The town, as I said, will
supply the militia, their food and weapons. But do you have what you need for yourself? I see you
have armor—" He waited for her answer. Paks thought about her gear. To move about the countryside,
as far as he had mentioned—a day's ride away?—she would need a horse of some kind.
"I could use a horse or mule," she said. "My pony's not the right animal for prowling around."
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Sir Felis frowned. "I haven't any spares, right now. We've thrush in the stable, and horses lame."
The mayor shook his head. "It's so late in the season. The horses in town now are work horses—and
in use every day. Marshal Cedfer?"
"No. Sorry, My own mount, and Ambros's, that's all I've got. If you wanted to buy one, perhaps Sir
Felis could send to the count's stable—"
"There's one spare horse," said Hebbinford. "In my stable—that black horse."
Paks felt a surge of excitement. She had not thought of the black, but that was the sort of horse
she had dreamed of in the past. A true warrior's horse. She looked at the mayor, and Hebbinford,
and back again. "What about that one, then? No one else is using it."
"I suppose that's all right," said the mayor slowly. "I can see you need a horse, to go looking
all over the country. If the rest of you agree—"
"What of the man's heirs?" asked Master Feddith. "He looked a friendless man, but if he had heirs,
they'd have some right to the beast."
"What of the fines he'd have owed, for trying to rob the master smith, if he'd lived?" asked
Senneth sharply. "I say the Council can claim his horse for damages, and sell it to Paksenarrion
if we choose."
"Perhaps, sirs," said Paks, uncertain if she should speak. "I could but have the use of the horse
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master such an animal—" she paused as the smith snorted loudly, and all eyes went ^to him. "Even
if I do, I will not need it after this, I think."
"That's well spoken," said the smith abruptly. " Twould do that beast good to be worked, that it
would, and the trying of him out would be a reason for her to ride about the countryside. But as
for skill—" He looked hard at Paks. "You've either skill of a horse-breaker, girl, or magic in
your fingers, and that's a fact." Paks saw both the Kuakgan and the Marshal give her hands a quick
glance. She was glad they were clasped to cover the ring.
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harm in that, and it saves Master Hebbinford risking his own neck to keep the beast exercised, for
I doubt you'd let Sevri try it, would you Jos?"
"Never," said Hebbinford, with a ghost of a grin. "Nor is my lass that crazy. I'm for it."
"And I," said the other Council members.
"And I hope you'll decide to buy that horse," said Senneth, as they rose. "If you go, and leave it
here, the Council will be left with the care of it all winter until the spring fairs. We'll give
you a good price, I swear."
"We can do better than that, Senneth," said the mayor, clapping him on the shoulder. "Should she
succeed in routing all the brigands, we might call it a reward. Then she could not reiuse, and we
need not worry about the feed."
The others laughed, and gathered around Paks for a few words each before leaving. When she had
retrieved her sword from the guard at the door, she found Hebbinford and the Kuakgan waiting to
walk with her. The night had turned even colder, and she looked forward to the new cloak the
tailor would make.
Chapter Twelve
After so late a night, Paks would have been glad to sleep later than usual, but anticipation of
the black horse woke her at dawn. She felt sure of the power of the ring, but once mounted she
could not concentrate on her ring finger. She knew she should be thinking of the brigands, and
less of the horse, but the black horse seemed far more important this day.
She had hoped to work with him in privacy first, but everyone in the inn seemed to have business
in the stableyard, early as it was. Sevri had not groomed the beast, for he had nearly caught her
with one of his powerful kicks on the first day, and his owner had done it after that. Paks kept
her thumb firmly on the ring as she picked up a brush and eased into the stall by his head. The
ears were alert but not flattened, and the great dark eye watched her calmly as the horse worked
on its ration of grain.
"There now," crooned Paks, setting the brush to that massive shoulder. "There, quiet, stay calm,
black one." She began to brush, more gently than would do for a thorough grooming, and with a wary
eye on the ears. The horse was taller and more heavily built than the Duke's
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warhorses, as tall as Arcolin's favorite. She worked her way along the ribs, the croup, the rump,
Dust and scurf flew; the horse had not been well groomed for some time. She brushed down the
haunches, saw them tense, and concentrated on the ring for a moment. "Nothing's wrong, horse. I
won't hurt you. Quiet, now, easy—" The bunched muscles relaxed; she saw the fetlock sink deeper in
the straw. "You'd like to be out of here, wouldn't you? Go for a ride? Out in the open air—along
the roads—good horse—" Soon she had brushed both sides, the belly (another pause for the ring's
action there), brushed out the heavy tangled mane. She looked up and saw Sevri's awed face over
the stall wall.
"I didn't think you could really do it," said Sevri.
Paks grinned at her, thumb firm on the ring. "I wasn't sure I could myself. Can you bring me a
pick?"
"You're going to touch his feet?"
Paks shrugged. "What if he has a stone? If he's taken this much, he should take that."
Sevri handed over the hooipick. "I just finished Star. Here."
Paks leaned down beside the near fore, impressed again by the size of those platter-like hooves.
"Come on, black one—let's have a hoof." She could feel the tension above her, and glanced up to
see the horse watching, ears stiffly turned back. "No—come on, now—" She pinched the tendons as
she'd been taught, wondering briefly if she should have done this outside a stall, just in case.
But the hoof came up, at last, and she cleaned around the frog with her pick. The other front hoof
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wall, narrowly missing her. Paks thought a loud NO through the ring, and the horse froze,
trembling. She could see the cracked board where the hoof struck, and heard a murmur of voices at
the stable door. Sevri was urging watchers away.
Slowly, concentrating on the ring, Paks slid her hand down the hind leg, over slick black hide to
the white feather below the hock, and through that heavy hair felt along to the fetlock. The scar
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above it—a deep scar, and still sensitive, for the horse blew a rattling breath, despite the
ring's compulsion, as she touched it. Paks straightened. "Easy—I'd warrant you have another on the
off side as well. No wonder you don't like having your legs handled. 1 wonder what did that?
Nothing good. Well, perhaps we can leave that a day, until you trust me more." She came back to
the horse's head, and scratched under his jaw until the strained look left his eyes. "Surely the
smith didn't do that, holding you to shoe you?" The horse relaxed enough to stretch its neck. Paks
slipped out of the stall, shaking a little with the strain of using the ring for so long.
"Will you ride today?" asked Sevri, who was waiting by the door.
"He needs exercise," said Paks. "But he's got some injury to his back legs—that's why he's so
touchy, I think. I hate to ride him out until I can handle those legs, but he's had as much as he
can take, for now. Maybe later."
Paks went in to breakfast, trying to ignore the curious looks of the others. If she was going to
lead a group out against brigands, and train a horse, she needed several things from the shops.
She made a list during breakfast, and asked Hebbinford where she could find some of the items.
When she returned, everyone seemed to be out of the way but Sevri.
"If you want me to leave, as well—" she said shyly.
"No, but don't get too close. I don't know what hell do. Tir's bones, I don't even know how to rig
that saddle." She went into the stable. The black horse nosed over the stall wall; she had not yet
touched the ring. Perhaps it was not a true outlaw. Sevri brought the bridle, red leather
decorated with copper rings that had tarnished green. The reins were broad and heavy, and the bit—
Paks shook her head.
"I can't use that! Look at those spikes, Sevri."
"Hie warhorses we see here all have bits like that," said Sevri. "Are you sure?"
"I'm sure of this—I won't use that bit. Tlie Duke didn't use anything like that. Where can I buy
another one?"
"You can use my father's old one, if it'll do. He had a hauling team once, before he sold it to a
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was short. Try this—" Sevri brought out an old, rusty-linked bit like those Paks had seen on cart
horses. While Sevri shook it in a sandbag to get the rust off, Paks worked at the stiff lacings of
the bridle. At last she had the old bit off, and the smooth one in place.
"If he's used to that mess in his mouth, he won't take the bit easily," said Paks. "Let's see—"
And as she walked up with the bridle, the black horse threw up its head, snorting. Again she
thumbed the ring, which quieted the noise. Sevri darted off for an apple.
"Will this work?"
"It might." Paks was glad of anything that would conceal the action of the ring. She offered it,
concentrating on the ring, and in a moment slid the bit in place, and the crownpiece over the
horse's ears as its teeth crunched the apple. She waited to fasten the noseband and throatlatch
until the apple was finished, and the last lumps passed down the black throat.
"I hope you can hold him with that," said Sevri doubtfully.
"With what?" came a brisk voice from the door, and they all jumped. Paks clenched her left hand on
the ring and turned. Marshal Cedfer stood there, with Ambros just behind him.
"She changed bits," said Sevri, before Paks could think what to say. "She wouldn't use that old
one—" she nudged it with her toe, where it lay in the aisle.
"That's a mouthful indeed," said the Marshal, picking it up. "But what are you using instead,
Paksenarrion? Tnat 'magic' Doggal mentioned?"
"No," said Sevri again. "It's one of my fether's old bits, a smooth one that he used when he had a
team. But I thought warhorses had to have spiked bits."
The Marshal's face relaxed. "Good, Paksenarrion, very good. No, Sevri, a horse can be trained to
any bit, but the smooth ones are better. Hasty warriors try to use rough bits instead of training
to get their horses' attention. A good horseman uses as smooth a bit as he may." He took a step
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you with the commands peculiar to warhorses, not traveling mounts."
"Thank you, Marshal," said Paks. "I realized this morning that even the saddles we used are not
like this one—" she gestured at the heavy saddle with its tangle of rigging, on a peg nearby.
"You haven't cleaned it yet," said the Marshal, frowning.
"No, sir." Paks flushed as if Stammel had found her with dirty equipment.
"Hmm. Clean tack, Paksenarrion, is very important. Sevri, bring us a fresh pad, at least. Lead him
out to the yard, Paksenarrion."
With her hand clenched around the ring, Paks led the black horse out. He followed as calmly as
Star, for which she was grateful. Her neck prickled as she placed the sheepskin pad. The Marshal
handed her the saddle.
"I see you know how to work with a bridled horse—see, Ambros. She's got her arm in the rein, just
as I keep telling you. Now, Paksenarrion, let me explain all those extra straps." Paks needed the
help, but wished it were someone else's. "That—yes, that one—is the fbregirth. Fasten it first.
Good. Now the breastband—see those hooks on the saddle? Yes. Not tight—-just lying smoothly.
That's so the saddle cannot slip back under any strain. Now the rest of that—by Gird himself! That
fellow didn't know how to stow his gear. Roll that mess slowly out over his rump—be careful girl!
Yes. Now see that loop on top? The tail goes through that. Wait, though—" The Marshal moved to the
horse's rump and felt of the loop. "Heh. I might have known. Feel this. It's too stiff; it's
probably rubbed him raw already. We'll take all this off—" and he began to work at fastenings on
the back of the saddle as he talked. "You don't really need it yet. Oil and clean it—get it all
soft—and I'll show you how to put it back on. In a fight, or traveling in rough country, it keeps
the saddle from slipping forward, just like the breeching strap on a pack animal." He went to the
other side, and finished there. "Here, Sevri, take these away." He watched as Paks checked the
stirrup length; she left it unchanged. "Do you want me to hold him while you mount?"
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Paks looked at the horse, which suddenly seemed very tall. Yet she had ridden Arcolin's horse,
that once. Her mouth was dry. If the Marshal had not been there, she could have led the horse to a
field, where she could hope to land soft. Instead, she sighed inwardly, and thanked him. "I must
admit, sir, that this is the biggest horse—"
"You've ridden," he finished. "Yes, I thought it might be." He took the rein and the horse
stiffened. Paks got her foot in the stirrup, and tried to swing up, but the horse shifted suddenly
with her weight. She fell into the saddle with an ungraceful scramble. It was built high and close
to her body; she had almost landed on, and not in, it.
"With a horse like this," said the Marshal, "you need to be quicker. Or else train him to stand."
He stepped back, releasing the rein, as Paks straightened.
The saddle felt strange, as if it were hovering over the horse's back, and the ground was very far
away. Paks nudged the horse lightly with her heels, and it lunged forward. She thumbed the ring,
thinking "Easy!", and it settled again, ears flicking. Paks saw eyes at the inn door, and cursed
silently. She could feel the horse tensing under her, the hump in its back that kept the saddle
too high. "Settle down, horse," she said softly. "Settle down, and well go for a walk somewhere."
It took one stiff step, then another. She laid the rein against its neck, to turn it around the
dungheap, and it whirled on its hind legs, almost unseating her. "Easy!" she said. Arcolin's horse
had been nothing tike this! For a moment she longed for gentle little Star, but she was conscious
of the Marshal and Ambros watching. She was a warrior, and this was a warrior's horse. If she was
ever to be a knight— She talked the horse forward, hardly daring to touch it with her heels.
Nearly to the cowbyre: she had to turn. Again the light touch of rein, and the lightning spin, but
this time she was ready for it.
"You might see what happens if you pull one rein lightly," called die Marshal. "Those that are
trained to spin on one cue usually turn slowly on the other."
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was walking more freely now, and she finally managed a circle around the stable yard.
"Now the other way," commanded the Marshal. This, too, went well, though Paks could still feel a
knot of tension in the horse's back. They walked around the yard once, then twice. She pulled back
for a halt, feeling more confident, and the horse reared. Paks lurched backward and grabbed for
mane. Someone in the inn door laughed, and cut it off. The horse stayed up—and stayed up—she felt


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like a fool. How could she get him down? She closed her legs on him, and the horse leaped forward,
snapping her head back. He landed charging, whirling about the stableyard as Paks fought to stay
on. The saddle, so uncomfortable before, seemed to grip her. She could hear frantic yells, and the
clatter of shod hooves on stone. At last she remembered the ring, and thought "Whoa!" The horse
skidded to a stop and stood rigid. Paks was breathless; pain stabbed her side, and her hands were
shaking. She had been sure she'd fall. It was hard to believe anything so ponderous had moved so
fast It had seemed easy when she'd seen others riding—she grinned at the memory.
"You can stay on, at least," The Marshal's voice broke into her thoughts. "But that beast may
still be too much for you. Best not ride through town until you have better control."
"I—I won't, sir. I had—no idea—"
"Not well trained, either." The Marshal was walking around the horse. "He's got the makings of a
fine animal, Paksenarrion, but he's been ill trained, and I would judge ill used. If you can
retrain him, you'll have a formidable mount."
"I'm not sure," said Paks ruefully, "that I'll be able to figure out how to ride down the road,
let alone fight on him."
"You're a long way from that, but—a stableyard is not the best place to learn. If you can get him
as far as the grange, you can ride in the drillfields behind, and I'll be glad to instruct you. If
you go behind the inn, and ride south of town, there's a ford upstream of the bridge."
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"Thank you," said Paks. "I'll try. But how will I stop him? If a pull on the reins doesn't work,
what will?"
"May I try?"
"Of course, sir." Paks slid off, finding it harder than she'd thought to clear die unfamiliar
saddle. She held the rein for the Marshal, who mounted in one smooth motion.
As she stepped back, the black horse exploded in a fit of bucking. Paks flattened herself beside
Ambros, near the stable door, appalled at the unleashed power.
"Don't worry," said Ambros. "The Marshal's good with horses." And indeed, after scattering a good
part of the dunghill over the yard, the horse trotted stiffly around, neck bowed, obedient to the
Marshal's rein and legs. Paks could not see what the Marshal had done when the horse stopped, but
he told her.
TO halt him, you'll need to stiffen your back and sit back slightly. That's all. Right now I
wouldn't use the rein at all; we can retrain him later. Think you can manage?"
Paks wasn't at all sure, but she nodded. She would try, at least. The Marshal swung off as easily
as he'd mounted, and handed her the rein. He grinned after a look around the stableyard, and spoke
to Ambros.
"Well, I made a considerable mess, didn't I? We'd best get at it, Ambros, if we want to keep our
welcome—"
"No, Marshal, that's all right—" Sevri looked dismayed, nonetheless.
"No, it isn't. Ambros and I will take care of it." And to Paks's surprise, and the obvious
surprise of other watchers, the Marshal took the shovel from Sevri, and Ambros found another. They
began shoveling the scattered dung back into a heap. Paks led the black horse to his stall, ana
returned with another shovel to help. The Marshal smiled, but said nothing as he worked. Soon the
yard was tidy once more. "There now." The Marshal wiped sweat from his forehead, and handed Sevri
the shovel. "Paksenarrion, early morning is a good time to train horses. Bring him along after
feeding tomorrow."
"Yes, sir." Paks hoped she wouldn't fell off before she got to the grange. The Marshal waved and
left. Only after he was gone did she realize that she now had a perfect excuse
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to ride around the countryside and spend hours with the Marshal. No one would wonder, after
hearing about the black horse's performance, why she rode alone, or why she went to the grange
every day.
By that afternoon, the tailor's wife had one shirt ready for her to try on. Paks would gladly have
taken it then, but the woman insisted that she must do more work. "See on the inside, lady? The
edges there? Ill turn those down, and they'll not ravel or be rough—"
"But—"
"Nay, we're proud of our work, my husband and me—we won't let such as this leave our hands. But
I'll have it tomorrow, by lunchtime, and the other plain shirts in two days—unless you'd rather
have the trousers first?"
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she headed for the saddler's, and bought a jug of the heavy oil he used on his leathers. In
Doggal's yard, she found the smith forging heavy wagon fittings, and waited outside until he
paused.
The next morning she was able to bridle and saddle the black horse without help—but with constant
support from the ring. Sevri offered to hold the rein, but Paks feared the horse might hurt her.
Instead, she faced him into a comer. Her attempt at a quick mount was as rough as the day before,
but she had gained the saddle before he moved out from under her. She pulled the left rein gently,
and he turned toward the gate. Once out from between the walls, the horse seemed slightly calmer.
Paks turned him along a path between the back of the inn yard and a cottage garden, and then
through the fields behind the village. She found the ford the Marshal had mentioned by following a
cow path, and the black horse pranced gingerly through the swift shallows, rocks rolling under his
hooves. Now she was at the lower end of the grange drilling fields; she could see someone standing
near the grange. As she thought, it was the Marshal. Ambros, mounted on a rangy bay, rode around
the barton wall from the street as she came up.
"You made it safely, I see," said the Marshal. "Ambros
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rides three times a week, and this will give both of you practice in riding with others."
Paks said nothing. The black horse had laid his ears back flat at the sight of the other horse.
In the next few days, Paks acquired a whole new set of bruises. The Marshal was as hard a riding
master as Siger had been in weapons training. Like all occasional riders, Paks hated to trot—but
the Marshal insisted that they trot most of the time. He was particular about the placement of her
feet, and way she held the rein, the angle of her head. But the black horse no longer jumped out
from under her. She could control his pace, and stop him, turn and return, without difficulty.
Much of the time she did not need the action of the ring, except for grooming and mounting.
She was able to ride along the roads, now, and spent several hours a day learning where they led.
The Marshal had told her that such quiet slow work was excellent for a high-strung mount.
But at night she dreamed of the snowcat, and woke, sweaty and trembling. Once it was the black
horse's neck that Macenion hacked at, instead of the cat. Another time a shadowy spotted creature
followed her along the trails she'd ridden that day, disappearing when she tried to turn on it.
Every time she used the ring on the horse, she felt a pang of remorse. At last she decided to talk
to the Kuakgan about it.
This time, as she came in sight of the clearing, she saw the Kuakgan talking to another near the
fountain. Uncertain, she paused. She could hear nothing from where she stood, and wondered whether
to intrude or go back. She turned to look the way she had come, and froze. No path lay behind her.
The white stones that should have marked one had disappeared, and a tree rose inches from her
back. She shuddered, sweat springing out on her neck and back, crawling down her ribs. She looked
forward, and the clearing was open before her. Master Oakhallow, facing her, beckoned. She saw no
one else. Paks took a deep breath and stepped out of the trees. As she came nearer
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the fountain, she felt die quiet deepen. She laid the oatcake Hebbinford had given her in the
basin.
"It is well," said Master Oakhallow in his deep voice, "that you did not try to leave again. The
unsteady of purpose find my groove unsettling.'
"Sir, it is not mat," said Paks. "But you were speaking to another. I would not intrude."
He smiled. "Your courtesy is appreciated. But you could not have come nearer than I wished.
Enough: you came with a purpose. What troubles you?"
Paks did not want to meet his eyes. "Sir, I did not take the time to tell you all that happened on
our way across the mountains—'
"You had no need to tell me all, or anything you would not," he interrupted. "But you shied from
some part of your tale, and it speaks in your eyes yet. Is it mis you came for?"
Paks felt her heart begin to hammer against her ribs. She wished she bad gone to Marshal Cedfer.
She wished she had done nothing at all. From everything she had heard of the Kuakkganni—their deep
love of wild things, their distaste for men's arts, their contempt for war and soldiery—she was in
danger now, danger against which her sword was no protection. She ducked her head lower yet.
"Yes, sir. It is. I—did something, sir, and I—I can t—I don't know what to do."
"Are you sure," he asked, "that I am the one you wish to talk to? You have spent much time lately
with Marshal Cedfer. You are not kuakkgannir; I have no claim on your actions."
"I'm sure," said Paks, righting the tremor in her voice. "It—has to do with—with the elf, and wild
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"Hmm. By elf, I presume you mean Macenion? Yes. And wild things. I doubt, Paksenarrion, that he
would think it silly, but I am more used to dealing with those than he. Now—" his voice sharpened
a little, and Paks flinched at the tone. "If you can spit out your tale, child, and let us see
what it is, perhaps I can be of some use."
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Paks took a deep breath, and began, haltingly, to tell of the night in the pass. The Kuakgan did
not interrupt, or prompt her. When she told of the coming of the snowcat, she felt through the
bones of her head the sharpening of his gaze and struggled on.
"Then he—Macenion—told me to use the ring—"
"The ring?" His voice might have been stone, from the weight of it.
Paks held out her hand and withdrew it. "This ring, sir. He said it was made to control animals.
He said that after I caught his horse when it ran away, and he looked at it."
"You did not know that before?"
"No, sir."
"Where did you get it?"
"From the Duke, sir. He—he gave it to me, at Dwarfwatch last year, for bringing the word to him."
Suddenly tears ran from her eyes as she thought of the honor of that ring, and how she'd used it.
"Did he know what it was, do you think?"
"No, sir. It was part of the plunder from Siniava's army that we'd beaten. He said he chose it for
the form—the three strands for the three of us that went—"
"The others?"
"Died, sir."
"Mmmm. So, you had a ring to control animals, and you used it on a horse. Knowingly?"
"No, sir. I thought the horse came because—well—I like horses. Star always came to me."
"So why did Macenion think it was the ring?"
"He said his was an elf-bred horse, and that elf horses would not come to humans without magic. He
said I had been wearing the ring, and wanting the horse to come." In telling this, Paks had calmed
a little.
"So then you were faced with the snowcat. Had you heard of one before? No? And Macenion told you
to use the ring. How?"
"He said, sir, to make—make the cat hold still. Not jump at us or the horses. And it worked—" Paks
could feel, in memory, the surprise of that. She had still not believed her ring was magic, until
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still on the trail before diem, the snowflake dapples on its coat blending with the felling snow.
"And then he—told me how dangerous it was—"
"You didn t see that for yourself?" The Kuakgan's voice was edged with sarcasm.
"Sir, I could see that it was a hunting creature, and big—but it was so beautiful. I didn't know
about the magic it had, until Macenion told me. He said we had no chance— and—" Pales faltered
again.
"Go on." The Kuakgan was implacable.
"He told me to—to hold it still—and—" Paks squeezed her eyes shut against the memory. "And he took
his sword— and killed it."
There was a long silence. Paks dared not move or speak. Her skin prickled all over.
"You held ft still, by magic, while Macenion killed it? Helpless?"
"Yes, sir," said Paks faintly. "I—I knew it was wrong. I asked him—"
"What!" The word shook the ground with power.
"I asked him not to," whispered Paks. "But he said—he said it was the only way—then—and I— I
shouldn't have, sir, I know that, but what can I do now?"
Another long silence. "And men wonder," the Kuakgan said finally, in a quiet voice worse than a
shout, "why evil roams the land. I should hope you knew it was wrong. Wrong, yes: bitterly wrong.
And I assure you, Paksenarrion, that Marshal Cedfer would not think light of this. It was an evil
deed, and whatever else they may be, the Marshals of Gird abhor evil. Do you claim, as your
defense, that it was Macenion's fault, because he told you to do so?"
"No, sir," said Paks. "I should have thought—he toto me, later, when I spoke of it, that I could
have used the power to send the beast away—"
"Macenion said that? After telling you to do it in the first place?"
"Yes, sir. I know it was my doing. I know it was wrong. But—what now? 1 thought you would know
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"To make amends?"
Paks nodded. "I thought—even—I had dishonored my
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sword. I should—give it up, if you said so: not be a warrior."
"Look at me." Paks could not resist the command, and met the Kuakgan's dark eyes, her own blurred
with tears. He looked every bit as angry as she had expected. "You would give that up? Your own
craft in the world? You take the injury so seriously?"
"Yes." Paks fought again for control of her voice. "Sir, it was ivrong. I have not slept well
since. How can I be— what I want, if I could do that?"
"But you are a soldier," he mused. "I judge you are a good one, as soldiers go. Have you any other
skill?"
"No, sir."
"I think, then, that you must stay so. Kuakkganni do not hate soldiers, but the necessity of war.
If you have dishonored your sword, you must cleanse it with honorable battles. As for amends—the
snowcat is dead, and by now the eagles have feasted. Nothing can change that." He looked closely
at her, and Paks nodded. "As I said, I have no responsibility for your actions. But if you will be
bound by me, I will take a blood payment from you."
"Yes, sir."
"Give me the ring, with which you bound the snowcat, so that you cannot misuse such power again."
Paks froze. Give up the ring? Her hand closed on it. She could hear again the Duke s voice as he
gave it, feel again the throb in her injured leg.
"I will not compel," said the Kuakgan. She could feel, however, the withdrawal behind his words.
She unclenched her hand, staring at the ring, its twisted strands that meant so much more than
power over animals. Then she pulled it from her finger, feeling the tiny ridges for the last time,
and laid it in the Kuakgan's waiting palm. His hand closed over it. She felt a cold wave sweep
through her heart: that ring she had never meant to lose, save with her life.
"Child, look at my face." She looked again; he was smiling gravely. "You did well, Paksenarrion. I
think the evil was not rooted too deeply in you, and this may have it out. Choose your companions
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time, and trust your own honor more. No one can preserve it but you. *
"Yes, sir,"
"Go now. You have much to do, if you would accomplish what the Council set you—and train that
black horse you've been busy with."
Paks started. She had forgotten, until then, that she had been using the ring on the black horse.
The Kuakgan gave her an open grin. "We will see whether Macenion was right, and all your skill
with horses mere ring-magic. I think myself you have a way with animals, ring or no. And you can
trust yourself, now. Is it not so?"
"Yes, sir." Suddenly Paks felt much better. She had not known how much it bothered her to control
the horse with the ring.
"You may take a few extra bruises, but—I heard from Sevri the care you gave your pack pony when
you arrived. Such care, Paksenarrion, and not magic, will accomplish what you hope for." He took
her shoulders and turned her away from the fountain. "And there's your path out. Don't stray from
it—and don't look back."
"Thank you, sir," said Paks. She walked toward the white stones, and along them to the lane.
Lighter in heart, Paks headed for the inn, thinking of what had passed. Her finger felt sore and
empty without the Duke's ring. She would not have bartered it for food if she had been starving,
it was that dear. But the Duke, she felt, would rattier have had her give it up, under the
circumstances, than keep it in dishonor. She turned aside from the inn door and went around by the
stableyard. Sevri was currying a trader's heavy cart horse outside. Paks went into the stable.
Star pushed her head up over the stall side, and Paks scratched her absently, watching the black.
He seemed more relaxed; he stood at ease, nose resting on the stall door, tail switching at
intervals. Paks fed Star half an apple and took the rest to him.
He stiffened as she neared the stall, then caught the scent of apple. Paks held it on the flat of
her hand. His nostrils quivered; his lip twitched. Slowly he reached out
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and lifted it from her palm. She reached up and scratched him, just as she would Star. Still
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soothes, and watched his eyes slide shut. She heard Sevri behind her in the aisle, leading the
cart horse to its stall.
All at once Paks decided what to do. "Sevri?"
"Yes? Do you need something?"
"Only to tell you something." Paks paused. It wasn't going to be easy. She liked the girl. "Sevri,
I—haven't been fair with you." The girl's face was puzzled. "The smith was right, Sevri, about
this horse. I was using magic on him. To quiet him."
"What kind of magic?" She seemed more interested than surprised.
"A ring. It worked to quiet animals—to control them. That's why I could work on him at all."
"Oh. Are you using it now? Which ring is it?"
Paks spread her hand. "I don't have it any more. It was the gold one. I'm sorry, Sevri, I should
have told you—"
"Why? All horse trainers have their secrets. And you weren't using it to hurt him. What happened
to your ring? Was it stolen?"
"No. I gave it to Master Oakhallow." Paks was surprised at the girl's reaction. "But Sevri—your
family are kuakkgannir, aren't they? I thought you would think it wrong."
Sevri shrugged. "I don't think you needed it. Master Oakhallow says the heart shows in all things.
You were always kind to Star and the black, and that's what works with horses. If you used the
ring to quiet him until he could trust you—it shortened your work, that's all."
Paks felt a wave of relief. She had feared die girl's disapproval more than she knew. "I—I thought
you should know, that's all."
"I'm glad you trust me," said Sevri seriously, older than her years. "But I wouldn't tell those
others. Let them think what they will. If they knew you'd had one magic
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ring, they might come looking for others. I learned that working here in the inn."
"I hadn't thought of that," said Paks. "Thank you. But now I suppose we might as well see how the
training has gone, and bring him out."
To her surprise, the black horse was no worse than any other morning. Paks had just finished
grooming him and turned to reach for the saddle, when she saw the Kuakgan beside her.
"You are doing well with him," said the Kuakgan. Paks could find nothing in his voice but polite
interest. "Have you been able to cure the injuries he received earlier?"
Paks laid a hand on the horse's shoulder to steady herself. She had not thought to see the Kuakgan
again so soon; her breath came short. "Sir, his mouth healed quickly, but—there's one thing. He
has deep scars on his hind legs, and I don't know what can be done for them."
"I'll take a look." At the Kuakgan's touch, the horse relaxed even more, and did not flinch even
when the Kuakgan ran his strong hands down the hind legs. He paused when he came to the scar on
the near leg. "A rope or wire cut him deeply here; it's a wonder he was not crippled by it. The
wound healed cleanly, but the scar has grown to hamper the action of the joint a little. Do you
find he sometimes seemed to drag his hoof there?"
Paks shook her head. "I've never seen it myself. But Marshal Cedfer says he does so, when I'm
training with him."
"Hmmm. Perhaps I can ease that for him." Paks did not see him do anything, but he laid his hand
over the scar a long moment, and then on the other leg. "Now," he said, as he straightened up, "I
would see you ride, young woman."
Paks felt her belly clench. Would he make the horse rear and buck? Bun away? She was sure he could
do that. Or would he criticize what Marshal Cedfer had taught her? Her fingers felt huge and
clumsy as she set the saddle on the horse's back, arranged the crupper and breastband, girthed up,
and bridled. The Kuakgan inspected the tack, running the leather through his hands, touching the
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mount. The horse had picked up Paks's tension, and stiffened his ears, but he stood still while
she gained the saddle.
Once up, habit reasserted itself, and she gave to the horse's movement. She rode around the
stableyard twice, then made a few circles and other figures around the dungheap. She looked at the
Kuakgan; he gestured for her to ride outside. Paks sighed, nodded, and guided the black through
the gate. He had already passed it himself, and was walking out of town on the south-east road.
Paks followed it, the black horse stepping along lightly. He turned as she caught up with him.
"I think you have done well so far," he said. "Ride ahead, now, and turn back when you come to the
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Paks nudged the horse into a slow trot, halted and turned where she was bid, and rode back.
"He should have no more trouble with those scars," said the Kuakgan. "He's moving easier. Could
you feel it?"
"It seemed springier, somehow."
"Yes, and he wm be able to do some of those fency things the Marshal would like to teach you. It's
too bad they re used for fighting only. If it did not risk his death or yours, I'd be happier
about it." He smiled up at her. "But you and he were meant to be so, perhaps. I wish you well,
Paksenarrion. You may come again to the grove, if you wish; you have a definite talent with
animals. That is, in part, what hurt you so when you misused it." He waved and turned away. Paks
sat still, and watched him cross die road and enter the grove by leaping the wall. She almost
called a warning, then realized that it would hold no perils for him. He had disappeared among the
trees when she lifted the reins and rode to the grange, along die street for the first time.
Chapter Thirteen
In the next two days, Paks rode along most of the roads near town, and began to explore the small
lanes and paths that led to outlying farmsteads. She found nothing; she was not even sure what she
was looking for. But at least, she thought, she had a better idea of the surrounding land. It was
richer than die land around Three Firs. Most form folk had an orchard of apples and pears; for
grain they grew wheat as well as northern barley and oats. Redroots, onions, and other vegetables
grew in every kitchen garden. Paks saw the local hogs, hefty red beasts with yellow eyes, rooting
in the roadside woods and hedges. Cattle were sleek, mostly dun-colored, with dark horns.
She was trotting the black horse along the west road one afternoon when she got her first clue.
Low sun behind her threw her shadow far ahead. In that slanting light, she saw something glint on
a treetrunk beside the road. She rode toward it, suddenly alert, her hand dropping to her
swordhilt.
As she came nearer, she saw that it was nothing but the tree itself—instead of dark farrowed bark,
pale underbark lay open to die sun from a narrow gash. Paks halted the black horse, her brow
farrowed in thought. She'd heard of
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such signs—the scouts in the Duke's Company had had a system of marks on trees and wayside rocks.
But she had no idea what this one meant—if indeed it were anything but an accident.
She turned the black horse off the road, and made a half circle in tile woods around the marked
tree. Nothing but a game trail, that ended a few yards from the road. She came out to the road
again, and thought about it. Came trail? Why would a game trail stop suddenly? She had seen others
that crossed the road. Her neck prickled, and she looked around at the silent trees. Nothing. She
thought of returning to die mysterious trail, but decided to ride on as if she had found nothing.
As she jogged on toward town, she heard a distant call off to her right—a herdsman, perhaps, or
perhaps someone else.
That night was drill night again. Paks drank a quick bowl of soup in the crowded common room, then
went upstairs to change. When she came downstairs, the tall young man she'd noticed the first day
in the common room called to her.
"Lady Paks! Going to drill! Walk with us, why don't you?" His grin was nearly as wide as his
shoulders. Two other men, that Paks remembered but vaguely from the first night's drill smiled at
her.
Paks nodded at them. She wondered who they were.
"I'm Mal Argonist," said the one who had called her. *Tm the forester here, since my brother went
away. I saw you the day you came in."
"Amisi," said the dark one at his side. "I'm a fermer, just east there—beyond the Grove, those
grain fields."
"Adgan," said the redhead. "I work for Amisi, right now,"
"He's my senior herdsman."
"They're just learning sword drill," said Mal. "I told 'em they should use an axe, but—"
' Mal, for Gird's sake don't start on that—"
"What?" asked Paks.
"Axes. Mel thinks everyone should fight with an axe. It's aO right for him, as big as he is, and
using an axe every day. But— "
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"In formation?" Paks tried to imagine it. She knew that some knights fought with small axes; the
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soldier using one.
"Nah—not formation exactly." Mel laughed loudly. "It's a right Girdish weapon, that s all, being
taken from our tools, you see. And I've killed wolf with it—"
"With an axe?" Paks stared at him.
"Oh, aye. Just you swing it from side to side, see—like the Master Smith does his hammer, that's
all. It's the very thing. Won't break like a sword will." He laughed again, and Paks eyed him
narrowly. If she had seen him in a tavern in Aarenis, she'd have thought him a stupid lout. He was
two fingers taller than she, and built like an ale barrel. She'd seen him drain a tankard at one
swallow. Yet he didn't move like a drunkard, and his size was more solid than fat.
Several more yeomen had joined them, hurrying out of side lanes. For a few moments, Paks felt
almost at home, almost as if she was going somewhere with Stammel and other friends. Then one of
them nudged another and spoke.
"Is it true, lady, that the Council has hired you?"
Paks was too surprised to make a good pretence of ignorance. "Why do you ask?" she said finally.
"Well—you've got money enough, that's obvious, and you make no sign of leaving. Could be you
bribed them, or could be they hired you."
"Doryan!" Mal's bellow startled Paks as much as the statement.
"Don't yell at me, Mal. I've a right to ask, as much as anyone." Doryan shifted away from Mal,
nonetheless, and winked at Paks. He was middle-aged, slightly stooped, and she had no idea what
his trade was. "If you don't want to say, that's all right. Just asking."
Paks thought what she could say. The Council had not told her to keep her mission quiet, but she
had planned to say nothing. How else could she find the spy they thought lived in Brewersbridge?
"The Council decided," she said, "that I was no threat to the peace here. I had ordered
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goods, and they gave me leave to stay until these were made up. They did say that you'd had
trouble with brigands attacking caravans. Since I have been a soldier, they asked me to consider
leading some volunteers against them.
"Huh!" Mal grunted and rubbed his neck as he walked. "Have to find them first, don't you? We all
know they're out there, but no one's seen them."
"But who would go with you?" asked Doryan. He had an irritating whine in his voice. "We don't know
you—the militia don't—and they don't think you could fight all those brigands yourself, do they?"
Paks answered Mal first. "You're right, no one can say where they are. I don't even know where to
start looking. If I ever get that black horse tamed down—"
"I've seen you riding out," said Adgan. "One time I saw him shy, and you nearly went over his
ears."
Paks blushed, grateful for the evening gloom. "Yes—the Marshal's teaching me, but I still fall off
now and then. Anyway, I thought I could ride around and look for the brigands that way, but not
until I can look at something besides his ears.'
"You rode though town today," said Doryan. Paks began to dislike him very much.
"Yes," she said shortly.
"You don't want to go looking for brigands alone," said Mal, more quietly than she'd heard him
speak. "What if you found them?'
"I'd ride away," said Paks. "Very quickly."
"That's right; you're not a Girdsman." Doryan managed a sneer. Before Paks could react, Amisi and
Adyan took him up on it.
"Doryan, that's stupid—"
"What's she to do, be hogstuck by a dozen brigands? TTiat's not Gird's way; you know the Marshal
says Girdsmen have to think as well as fight."
"I still think—" began Doryan. Mal punched his shoulder hard enough to make him gasp.
"Doryan, you don\ think. You just talk. The lady Paks is our guest in the grange, and if you treat
her like this she never will join the fellowship of Gird. We've all seen her
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drill; we know she'd be a good Girdsman. Marshal hopes shell join the grange, and so do I. Leave
her be, man. You haven't caught any brigands yoursetf."
By this time they were approaching the barton gate. This time the boy on guard recognized Paks and
grinned at her as she entered. Drill went much as it had oefore, with most of her time spent
teaching the few swordsmen to use the short blades in formation. Ambros and the Marshal did much
better; Paks decided they must have been practicing in private. As he was dismissing diem from
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"Cal or Doryan could take it," he said, as some of the men turned to listen. "But even though they
live on that side of town, it's an extra couple of miles for either of diem—and they start work
early in the morning. It wouldn't takeyou long, to ride out there—"
"III be glad to," said Paks honestly. She had been looking for a good reason to talk to Sir Felis
in privacy.
"And I can t work with you for a couple of days, the Marshal went on. "That's why the message must
go tonight. I'm leaving for barton court rounds immediately. Ambros here will handle matters at
the grange. Drill as usual," he said to the others. "I expect 111 be back in a few days, but
Ambros will take drill if I'm not. Paksenarrion, I suggest that you and Ambros ride together an
hour or more a day—but don't try mounted drill until I return. And if you can give him a couple
hours of swordplay, it'll be good for both of you."
The other men left at last, and the Marshal ushered Paks back to his study. On his desk was a
leather tube; Paks could see the paper rolled inside. He nodded at it. "That's for Sir Felis; it
explains what I'm doing. Now—you seemed uneasy tonight. What have you found?"
Paks told him about the blazed tree, and the "game" trail that ended a few yards from it and tine
road. The Marshal nodded. "I think you've found something important. If you'll take my advice,
don't ride that way tomorrow. If you were seen pausing there—well, it could be
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very dangerous. Right now a single arrow could end your campaign. Anything else?"
Paks hesitated. She glanced at Ambros, leaning against the door. He shrugged and moved back into
the passage. "I—I'm not sure. One of the yeomen said something—'
"Asked or said?"
"Asked, at first, about my business with the Council. He asked if I'd been hired or if I'd—I'd
bribed them."
The Marshal's face stiffened. "Who?"
"Sir, I don't think he meant insult—"
"I didn't ask that. I asked who it was."
"I think his name is Doryan."
Hie Marshal nodded. "That doesn't surprise me. Doryan is—d&icult, sometimes. He became a Girdsman
after he moved here. Anything more?"
Paks thought of Doryan's words and decided none of them were important. "Not really, no."
He looked thoughtfully at her before going on. "Paksenarrion, it's my business to defend my
yeomen, if they need it. Don't be afraid to tell me what they say."
"But I don't want to be—" she couldn't think how to say what she meant, that no soldier held
another to close account for every word, or told even a sergeant what a friend had said.
"You are not of our fellowship yet," said the Marshal with a smile. "Now—I meant what I said about
you and Ambros riding out together. Race the horses, if you will— anyone will understand that.
Ride north and east for a day or so. Wear your mail, and keep alert. If you find where the
brigands are hiding out, talk to Sir Felis before you do anything. Don't wait for my return, if
you need to take action, but don't rush things, either. Ambros will not be able to go with you on
an attack; until I return, his primary responsibility must be the grange."
A little later, Paks rode north out of town toward the keep. Most of the houses were dark; die
black horse's" hoofbeats echoed in the quiet streets. She had put on her mail shirt, and kept one
hand close to her dagger.
At the keep, torches burned at the perimeter fence and on the building itself. An alert sentry
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waited while he took her name in, and returned to escort her to the entrance, inhere another
soldier led her upstairs to Sir Felis's workroom, a long room with two tables littered with papers
and maps. Sir Felis and Master Zinthys, standing together near one table, looked up as she
entered.
"You nave an urgent message from the Marshal?"
"Yes, sir." Paks pulled the leather tube from her tunic and passed it over. Zinthys smiled at her,
as Sir Felis, frowning, worked the paper out of the tube and unrolled it. Zinthys wore a
different, but equally rich-looking velvet robe, trimmed in white fur around the shoulders. Paks
noticed, once again, the graceful movements of his hands.
"Why don't you sit down, Paksenanion. We have spiced wine ready on the fire—would you care for
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He moved to the one next to her, and sat down with a sigh, stretching his legs.
"I'll have some then, if you permit." He hooked a potlift in the handle of a can on the hearth,
and poured the wine into his mug. "Ah. These chill autumn nights make the best of wine. You should
try it." He slid his eyes sideways at her. "Or perhaps you drink only ale?"
"I—most soldiers drink ale," said Paks. "Wine—we had that with an herb in it, if we were wounded."
"Numbwine. Yes. Not as good as a potion, but good enough. But you're hardly a common soldier now,
lady, and you might find you liked spiced wine." Zinthys poured another mug full and passed it to
her. Paks took it, and sipped. Zinthys watched her, his eyebrows raised. "Well?"
' It's—very good." She looked down, and sipped again. It was good, a red wine flavored with her
favorite spices.
"Have you found any trace of our brigands?" asked Zinthys.
"No, sir, unless something I saw today—" She told him about the blazed tree, and answered his
questions. She started to add what the Marshal had explained about the possible uses of such a
blaze in setting an ambush, but remembered in time that Sir Felis probably already knew that. He
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"Fresh blazes. There's that merchant from Chaya in town now—wasn't he planning to leave tomorrow,
Zinthys?"
"That's right. Master merchant Cobai Trav-something, and his gnome partners—"
"Gnomes?" asked Paks, sitting up.
"Yes. What is it, haven't you seen gnomes before?"
"No. I've heard of them." She remembered Bosk talking about gnomes, elves, and dwarves on her
first trip south.
"Well, around here you'll see gnomes fairly often. I'm surprised you didn't see these at the inn
today. Two of the gnome kingdoms are less than a three days* ride from here. If you meet them,
remember that they're very strict."
"Strict?"
Zinthys laughed. "They make a court judge look like a juggler, Paksenanion. They are full of
dignity, and pride, and the right way to do everything—Ashto help you if you laugh at a gnome, or
fail to complete a contract.'
"They don't like wizards," said Sir Felis drily. Paks glanced at him, and he grinned slightly,
cocking his head at Zinthys. Zinthys flushed.
"It's not that, Sir Felis—it's that they're so—so—" he waved his hands in the air. "Sober," he
finished. "Dead serious all the time, that's gnomes."
"Anyway," Sir Felis went on, "there's a west-bound caravan in town now—headed for the gnome
kingdoms next, and then Verella. And if that blaze is fresh, it could mean that the brigands are
planning to attack."
"It won't do any good to tell gnomes," said Zinthys.
"No, perhaps not. But I will send word to the caravan master. Not you, Paks—" he said, as she
opened her mouth. "I don't want you to ride with this caravan—you weren't hired as a guard. If the
brigands do strike, they should leave some trace you can follow to find their lair."
Sir Felis agreed with the Marshal's advice to ride out in other directions for the next day or so.
Paks took this chance to look at his maps one more time, and fix in her mind the location of the
ruined buildings he thought might harbor brigands.
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black horse, die inn yard was busy. The day before she had been so excited about the blaze that
she had not noticed the wagons and teams in the yard. Now teamsters were hitching teams of heavy
mules to wagons. Paks realized that the short fellows she'd dismissed as someone's boys were
actually not human—gnomes, she assumed. They were not so stout as the dwarves she'd seen; they
wore plain clothes of gray and brown. Sevri merely nodded to her, darting quickly from one stall
to another as she finished her morning's work. Paks decided to eat breakfast at the inn, after
feeding the horses, so that she could watch the caravan leave.
It was not nearly so large as the one she had been with in Aarenis: seven wagons loaded with
barrels and bales, with two guards besides the driver on each. The merchants
—a blond human and two gnomes in sober colors but richer cloth than the gnome teamsters—rode
saddle mules. Paks noticed that none of the gnomes smiled, though the human merchant grinned a
farewell to Hebbinford, and
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was just washing down the last crumbs of it when Ambros appeared outside. She leaned out the
window and called to nira.
"I thought I'd come here," he said, dismounting. "If we're riding east today—"
"Just a moment—" Paks gestured to Hebbinford, who came to take her coins. "I know I'm late, but I
thought I'd have time to breakfast before work today."
"Don't rush." Ambros did not seem in any hurry. "Shall I saddle your horse for you?"
"No. I don't know how he'd behave." Paks hurried up to her room, remembering the Marshal's
injunction to wear mail every day. She was startled to see the black-clad man lounging in the
upper passage. Had he been trying her door? But he smiled and nodded, as if glad to see her. Paks
unlocked her door thoughtfully and latched it behind her. Everything seemed to be in place. She
donned the lightweight man the elfane taig had given her, pulled her shirt back over it, and
caught up her old cloak. With that rolled into a bundle under her arm, she came back into
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the passage, and found it empty. She had heard no footsteps passing.
By the time she was back downstairs, Ambros had led his horse into the inn yard. He was munching a
hot pastry, and grinned at her as she went into the stable. Sevri was busily cleaning out stalls;
Paks thought of telling her about the black-clad man, but decided against it. She saddled the
black horse without trouble, led it into the yard, and mounted, Ambros swung into his own saddle
and they rode out, turning right onto the east road.
"How far out this way have you ridden?" he asked.
"Not very. I came in this way—on a trail that joins the road from the south."
"I know the one."
"I've ridden that far—no more."
"Let's go to the border, then," said Ambros. Paks looked at him. He seemed happy and younger, like
a child at a fair. She wondered what the life of a yeoman marshal was like.
"How far is that?"
"Oh—if we keep moving, we can be there and back by tonight. Late tonight."
"Should we?"
Ambros grinned at her. "Probably not. But it would be fun. I grew up near the border; I know the
country. We won't get lost, and I don't think anything this way will bother us."
"Well, the Marshal said—"
"The Marshal said ride other ways than west. This is other. By Gird, Paks, I haven't had a day to
myself since—" he stopped suddenly, and ran his hand through his hair. Paks remembered suddenly
that she had not brought her helmet, and felt stupid. What good was mail, when a head-blow was
easy and deadly? "Anyway," he went on, more calmly, "I don't see that it will hurt to ride all
day. If we don't make it that far by noon, then well turn back. Why not?"
Paks wondered if he really wanted to visit his home. She did not want to ask. She wondered what
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think she was a coward? Was he even wearing mail himself? She tried to see, and could not tell.
The mail from the elfane taig, she had found, did not jingle as her other mail shirt had; she
thought perhaps gooa mail did not. In the end she said nothing, and they jogged on together, into
the morning sun.
When nothing happened for some time, Paks quit thinking so much about an arrow in the head, and
instead enjoyed the ride. A thin haze covered the sun, thickening to a gray ceiling as they rode.
Ambros frowned at the sky.
"If that keeps up, we'd better turn back."
"Why?"
"From that direction, it means rain, or even an early snow." He sighed. "I might have known that
Gird himself would shorten my leash, with the Marshal gone."
Paks stared at him; he looked both unhappy and slightly worried. "Ambros, what is it?"
"I—I'll tell you, Paks, but please don't tell everyone. I'd hoped to—to go as far as my father's
form. It's been over a year, now, and it less than a day's ride away. And I wonder if 111 ever see
them again."
"But if it's that close, why haven't you—?"
"Because the Marshal hasn't allowed it," said Ambros shortly, reining his bay around to the west.
"It's been one thing after another—chores, drills, whatever. My lather's been in to Brewersbridge,
of course, to the markets. My mother came once, last spring. But it'll be spring before either of
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a foolish idea."
"But why? I mean, just because it's going to rain—I don't melt in the rain, Ambros—not even in
snow. How far is it?"
He shook his head. "No. Paks, you're not a Girdsman; I can't explain. But I tried to go on my own,
and it's not what I should do. With Marshal Cedfer gone, the grange is my responsibility. The
clouds are another warning; the first was in my own heart. We'll go back. I pray Gird that no more
will be required."
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toward Brewersbridge. The clouds did not lift, but thickened, and soon a fine drizzle wet her
face. It was not enough to penetrate her cloak. She nudged the black horse ami rode up beside
Ambros.
"Ambros, do you really think Gird made it rain because you wanted to see your family?" She thought
even less of Gird if that was his sort of action.
"No, not exactly." Ambros spoke slowly, as if more lay behind his words than he wanted to say. ' I
don't know, to be honest, where the clouds came from—the High Lord may grant the wind's keys to
any he wishes, I daresay. But Marshal Cedfer did say the grange was my responsibility— even if you
find the brigands, he said, I cannot fight them with you."
"But did he tell you not to visit your family?" Paks persisted.
"No. I think—I think he knew I would want to go, but did not insult me by telling me my duty."
Ambros gave a short laugh. "He should have." "But you—"
"Paks," said Ambros, with a look that stopped the words in her mouth. "Pales, you have been a
soldier in many battles—have you ever had a dream of death?"
She stared at him, surprised into long silence. "Not— exactly,** she said finally. "Some of my
friends have. ... I have had disturbing dreams, though, if that's what you mean."
"Have you—did you ever know someone to have a true dream Hire that?"
"Onoe." Paks swallowed with difficulty. She wondered what dream had come to Ambros. When she
glanced at him, he was staring at his horse's mane, fists clenched on the reins.
"I—I saw myself," he said softly. She could barely hear him. "I saw myself fighting—and struck—and
dying. And then nothing. I know—" he said, turning to meet her eyes. "I know that all Girdsmen
train for this, to fight evil to Hie death. But—but Paks, it was so soon. You know this cut—" He
pushed back his sleeve to show a cut she had
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dealt him in practice the night before. "It wasn't healed yet; I could see it, under the other
marks."
Paks shivered violently. Ambros's face seemed to waver, changing from the ruddy living countenance
before her to the pale fixed expression she had seen on so many dead. "It was a dream,' she
managed to say. "And not all dreams are true."
"I know." He nodded, seeming more at ease. "I know that. But I thought—I thought I d like to see
my father and mother again." He looked sideways at her. "Do you think less of me for that?"
"No. Of course not."
"I wondered—you being a soldier, and all. You've seen more fighting than I have. To be honest,
I've never faced an actual enemy."
Paks did not know what to say. She did not feel like boasting of her experience. She thought, as
she often did these bays, of her own home, and wondered for the first tone if she would see her
own family again. But she had had no troubling dreams, and had no fears. She smiled at Ambros,
hoping to reassure him. "You fight well, Ambros, in practice; I expect you'll fight well when need
comes. I hope it is not as soon as you fear. Will you tell the Marshal of this dream?"
"I would have, if he had not left already. Yes, he must know, in case it is an evil sending. I
thank you, Paks, for not laughing at me."
They were back at the inn in time for a late lunch; Paks persuaded Ambros to eat with her. She had
decided to show him the scrolls from the eHane taig; if she had not laughed at his bad dreams,
perhaps he would not laugh at her slow reading. But they ate slowly, and it was near midafternoon
when she started upstairs to get the scrolls. She had them in her hand when a disturbance in the
street below brought her to the window.
A yelling crowd surrounded a blood-stained man bareback on a fat mule. As Paks watched, Ambros
erupted from the inn door, followed by Hebbinford. The crowd spotted him, ran to him.
"Robbers!" she heard. "Robbers! The caravan!" The man
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on the mule slid off sideways; two men caught him, half-carried him toward the inn. Paks saw
Sevri's red head move through the crowd and take the mule by the bridle. She waited to see no
more, but turned away and moved quickly downstairs.
Hebbinford and Ambros bent near the man, who half-lay in a chair near the fireplace, his clothes
torn and bloody. Paks saw the black-clad man leaning quietly against the wall behind several
others, who were chattering loudly. He caught her eye and smiled; Paks felt herself blushing.
Ambros glanced up and saw her.
"Paks, good. Come here, will you?" Paks moved through the group, aware of curious glances. She had
seen, from above, mat Ambros commanded more of their respect than she'd thought—at least when the
Marshal was away.
"What is it?" she asked.
"This man says he was a teamster on the caravan that left this morning. They were attacked by
brigands on the west road, and all die guards were killed."
Paks looked at the man—a stocky, darkly tanned man of medium height—and wondered just where on the
west road. Ambros was asking more questions; she could not hear the soft answers. Hebbinford began
clearing the others out of the room. Over his shoulder he said, "III tell the mayor." Paks
wondered who would be sent to Sir Felis.
With the room empty and quiet, Paks could hear the man's replies to Ambros s questions—hundreds of
bandits, he said shakily. Hundreds and hundreds, with horses and bows and swords. They took the
whole caravan, every animal and wagon, and lolled all the guards, and—
"How did you escape?" asked Ambros. "Isn't that one of the caravan mules?"
Paks would not have thought the dark face could darken, but it did. "I was the last wagon, sir. I
heard a noise—that stretch of road has an evil name, you know—and so I cut the lead offside mule
free, and—"
"Ran for it," finished Ambros, with the same tone Paks thought the Marshal would have used.
"Well, I tried." Paks watched the man's face as he took
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a long difficult breath. "But that Simyits-damned son of a Pargunese jackass bucked me off, that
he did. And ran away, after dumping me flat in the midst of it all. So I lay there too stunned to
run or fight, and I reckon that was best, in the end. One of 'em poked me a little, but I made
shift to lie still and be quiet. I heard 'em talking, telling each other to be sure all the guards
were dead. Then they tried to catch my mule, but they couldn't lay a finger on him, so they went
off. I waited a bit—and I was some sore, too, sir—and then when I did sit up there was that damned
mule not a length away, heehawing at the blood smell. Then he came to me, and thank the luck for
that. I counted all the guards' bodies, sir, and so I know—"
"What about the merchants, and the other teamsters."
"The teamsters are all dead, gnome and man alike. I didn't see the merchants' bodies, but I doubt
they live."
"Hmm." Ambros sounded, again, very Wee the Marshal. "Where was this? It seems to me you're back
soon and luckily with such a tale."
The man paled a little. "Sir, please! I swear it's the truth. We left early this dawn, the
landlord can tell you. And the road was dry; we made good time. Old Cobai— that's the master—he
didn't want to stop for nooning in that stretch of woods, so we pressed on, eating on the seat as
we drove. I had just finished my pickle when I heard the noise. Coming back, sir, I fair beat that
mule to a lather."
Ambros gave Paks a quick look; she could not tell his meaning. But something made her speak up.
"How badly are you hurt, can you tell?"
The man looked at her gratefully. "They poked me some, lady, and I fell hard before that. I
wrapped my own shirt on it—this is off a guard—" He indicated his bloodstained shirt.
"Well, you'd best let us see. Yeoman-marshal, is there a surgeon in town?" She hoped she was right
to use his title.
"Yes," said Ambros. "At the keep, with Sir Felis." He looked aside. "Well need clean cloths, and
water—it's too bad the Marshal is gone."
"That's what they counted on, no doubt," said the driver.
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Paks, meanwhile, had unwrapped the rag he had bound to his head; underneath was an ugly gash. She
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"Jens, lady. Jeris Angarn, of Dapplevale in Lyonya. Do you know it?"
"No. Be steady, now." Paks helped Ambros uncover the man's other injuries—mostly bruises but for
two shallow gashes in side and back. "You're lucky, Jeris. They could easily have killed you."
"I know it." He shifted uneasily as they began to clean the wounds. "It—ouch!:—sorry. If that mule
hadn't bucked, they might have got me sure; they had horses. I don't deserve it, that's the truth,
but that's luck. It comes as Simyits pleases—"
"You think Simyits has more power than the High Lord?" asked Ambros. "Is that what you learned in
Lyonya?"
"Oh sir—in Lyonya, I was a boy, and had a boy's faith. But I've been on the roads near twenty
years, now, and I've seen good luck and bad come to all. As for the High Lord, he made the whole
world, so I hear, if it wasn't Sertig instead, but what does he have to do with a mule driver? The
good men, you might say, died today—they that was brave, and tried to fight. And here I am, alive
a bit longer, and able to give you word, because a mule bucked me off on my hard head. Does the
High Lord extend his power to make a mule buck?"
Paks stifled a laugh. She had heard of Simyits only as the thieves' god, and the gambler's patron,
but the muleteer seemed honest if not brave. Ambros, however, was sober, and crouched down to meet
the man's eyes.
"If the High Lord wanted your mule to buck, Jeris, be sure he could do it. But there is one more
near us than that—Gird Strongarm, a man once, like you. He had a hard head himself, and it's said
he knows how to convince another. I would not call it luck alone, if I found myself alive, when my
companions were all dead—and a mule nearby to ride on, despite the blood-smell. Does your
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mule love you so, to buck you off, escape capture, and then return to you?"
Jeris's face furrowed as he tried to think. ''Well—now—I see what you mean. To be honest, I
wouldn't have thought that donkey-spawn would stay near new dead like that. But why would Gird, if
he wanted me alive, dump me on my head 6rst? Why not save the whole caravan and set fire to the
brigands?"
"Why is there winter? Why does water flow downhill only?" Ambros sounded even more like a Marshal.
"The High Lord lets men deal with men, as often as not. As for you, perhaps Gird knew your mule
could not outrun their horses—or perhaps he was seeking an entrance into your hard head, and tried
knocking it first."
"Peace, Ambros," said Sir Felis from the doorway. "You can convert the man later, but for now I'd
tike to know what happened." Behind him a surgeon carried a cloth bag of gear; Master Zinthys, in
still another robe, followed him, and smiled at Paks.
When the man had told his tale again, and die surgeon had settled bun in one of the inn's rooms.
Sir Fehs, Zinthys, Ambros, and Paks conferred in a small room opening off the kitchen.
"Hundreds of brigands I simply do not believe," said Sir Fehs. "They haven t stolen enough food
and forage for anything like that number. In this case they killed twenty, and captured several—we
aren't sure how many. But out of ambush, that wouldn't take more than a score of well-armed,
disciplined troops. Perhaps fewer. Certainly I don't think they can have more than—' he paused,
looked up at the lamp, and thought a moment. "Thirty, I'd sajf. And fewer horses than that. Most
of the caravans they've hit have been carrying dry goods, weapons, that sort of thing— not food."
"Yes, but now what?" asked Ambros, "You know Marshal Cedfer said I couldn't go—what do we do now?"
Sir Felis looked at Paks. "It's your choice, since you accepted the task—but if you want advice—"
"Yes, sir."
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everyone expects, and pick up the bodies. Contrive some
reason for riding that way yourself tomorrow—not just
riding, something else—and see if you can find a trace of
the wagons' movement. I won't even look; it'll be dark by
the time I get out there with my men. If you find it, don't
be in too much hurry to follow it up. They 11 be watching
the road pretty closely for a day or so, I expect. Give them
time to relax. Then—if it's where we think—go after them."
Paks shook her head. "By your leave, sir, I have another
thought. An assault on a keep—even a ruined keep—is no
easy matter. We tried that once in Aarenis. Why not try to
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The game trail you're thinking of?"
"Yes, but close by the keep. If a show of frontal assault—"
"With what?" asked Sir Felis. "I can't give you a troop."
"No, but Master Zinthys might have some magical
means." She glanced at him. "Macenion—the part-elf I
was traveling with—had some illusions. I thought perhaps—"
Zinthys looked pleased, though Ambros frowned. "In
feet. Lady Paksenarrion, illusions are a specialty of mine.
Far less dangerous to the onlooker than, say, real firebolts."
"And easier to do," muttered Ambros softly. Zinthys
glared at him.
"Young sir, if you think it is easy to produce even illusory fire, I suggest you try. My old
master, who is well known in the arts, always said that a fine, convincing illusion was for more
difficult—because reality carries its own conviction, and saves its own appearances. If you make a
flame, it is a real flame, and you don't have to worry, once you've got it. But an illusory flame
can go wrong in many subtle ways—even such a thing as forgetting which way the wind is blowing, so
that it flickers the wrong direction."
"Sony," said Ambros, staring at the table. Paks thought he didn't sound sorry at all. She smiled
at Zinthys.
"I don't know anything about it," she said, "but could you make something to scare them
out—something to make them think a large force was coming at them?" "I might do," said Zinthys,
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twitched his shoulders and glanced at Sir Febs. "It would be easier if I had a small matrix to
work on, as a pattern."
"A what?"
"A form—a framework—or, in plain terms, if I had a few real men-at-arms, that I could simply
multiply in illusion, rather titan creating the whole thing out of my head. It's easier to keep
them in step, you see."
Paks didn't see, but nodded anyway. Sir Felis made a steeple of his hands. "How many, Zinthys?"
The mage looked at him, considering. "Oh—a half dozen, say?"
"Four." Sir Felis set down his mug. "Four is plenty to save your hide if it doesn't work, and I
can't waste the time of more."
"Four," repeated Zinthys cheerfully. "You'll see, Lady Paksenarrion—111 do you an illusion that'll
have them running out the back door for cover—by the way, how do you know there is a back door?"
"Never saw a keep without one," said Paks cheerfully, thinking of Siniava's many tricks. "Gods
grant we choose die right place."
"That, said Zinthys with satisfaction, "is up to you soldiers. Just tell me when and where you
want them frightened—I'll take care of that."
Chapter Fourteen
Mal, when Ambros explained the plan, seemed shrewder than Paks had expected. He spoke quietly
enough, with a rumbling chuckle when amused. Paks began to think he might be an asset after all.
"So we're to find the place first, and find sign—then shell lead a troop?" He gave Paks a sharp
look. "Have you led troops before, lady? I don't mean to be like Doryan, but—"
"I was acting corporal in one of the cohorts," said Paks.
"That means yes, I take it." He turned back to Ambros. "And what if their place is fortified? Do
we try to take it?"
"No. There's a plan to get them out—if it's the place we think it might be, or one like it. Have
you been out near the old Seriyan ruins lately?"
"Gird, no! I told the Marshal a few years ago that was a bad place—unlucky, that is. Is that where
you think they are?'
"It could well be—considering the sign Paks saw a few days ago."
"Then they're a brave bunch, that's all I can say. I wouldn't stay there for a silver a day. Not
even for a cask of ale."
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"And for you, that's saying a lot. All right, Mal—I know you don't like it. But if they're wicked
enough, it might not bother them."
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Mal and Ambros looked at each other. Ambros broke the silence. "It's from before my time—I was
just a boy, living over near the Lyonyan border. But there was a wizard who settled in there—built
a stronghold all in one year, by magic, some said- Like most wizards, he didn't care more for bad
and good than a deaf man cares for music."
"I don't know as that's fair," Mal broke in. "Master Zinthys is a nice enough fellow."
"Who buys you ale every quarterday. But would you trust him, Mal, at your back in a fight?"
Mal considered. "Well—yes. If Sir Felis or the Marshal were there, at least."
"I like him myself," said Ambros. "I think he's as honest as any wizard, but they care more for
magic and money than anything else—it's their nature. But this other wizard, Seriyan, wasn't much
like Zinthys. No. He came here, so I was told, because he wanted to rule. That's not what he said;
he said he had come to study. But be had a small horde of magical creatures that he let loose, and
then he threatened worse if people didn't pay 'taxes' for protection from them. Brewersbridge had
no keep then, just the grange."
"It wasn't Marshal Cedfer here then," Mal put in, grinning at Paks. "Nor yet Deordtya, but the one
before her. I don t recall his name."
"It doesn't matter," said Ambros shortly. "He made the mistake of believing the wizard harmless
when he came, and it ended with a lot of lives lost when the yeomen had to storm the place. He
blew himself up, at the end, rather than be taken."
"I hope he blew himself up," said Mal darkly. "The way that place feels, I'm not so sure."
"He may have left spells," said Ambros. Paks found herself hoping that the brigands were hiding
somewhere else. She did not want to meet a wizard who had only pretended to blow himself up. But
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Seriyan's old keep was the closest of the known ruins to the blaze she'd found, and Mal agreed to
go out with her the next day to take a look at the trail sign.
Mal arrived at the inn driving a sturdy two-wheeled cart with a large shaggy pony between the
shafts. His big axe stood head-down in the corner beside him. Two more wheels filled the bed of
the cart.
"This way," he said quietly, downing the tankard of ale which Hebbinford brought him without being
told. "This way I'm just hunting a good straight bole of limber pine for the Town Hall extension.
With these extra wheels, I can haul anything we find." Paks wondered how; she had never seen
foresters at work. Mal saw her confusion and laughed loudly. Paks noticed others watching and
listening. "See, lady, you don't know everything yet." Now his voice was louder, and more
accented. "What I do is cut a short heavy piece for the axle, to bind these wheels together, and
then tie them near the end of the bolt. With die front end resting in the cart, and the other held
by the wheels—now do you see?" Paks nodded. She started to ask why the second set of wheels didn't
fall out from under the tree trunk, and then realized that he could tie it securely to the wood
that held the wheels together.
"Ride along with me," said Mal, as if she had planned something else, "and I'll show you some more
things you don't know about."
"I should find Ambros—" she said doubtfully, as they had arranged. Mal laughed again.
"Oh, Ambros! By Gird, you don't want to spend every day with him, do you? He s a yeoman-marshal,
after all. Come on, now—" He gave her an enormous wink, and swaggered back to his cart after
handing one of the serving wenches his tankard. Someone laughed. Paks grinned.
"You go on ahead; I'll catch up when I've got my horse ready. Which way are you going?"
"Oh, west again. I remember a few years ago, out that way, there was a straight, tall, limbless
bole right near the road. Not so hard, you see, if the trees I want are next to the road."
"Good," said Paks. "That way I can tell Ambros I «w>n't
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be riding with him this morning." Mal waved and went on, and she ducked into the stable to saddle
the black horse. She hoped their act had gone off we!!. She hated to think of a spy in the
village, but the evidence for such was persuasive.
She caught up with Mal before he was well into the forest on the far side of Brewersbridge; he had
stopped to chat with the woman at the last roadside farm. He waved her to a stop.
"Paks, do you know Eris here?" It was the same woman Paks had met in Council. Paks began to think
Mal was even smarter than she'd thought.
"Yes, I remember you," said Paks, swinging down from the saddle. She was no longer afraid to mount
and dismount in front of witnesses; the black was learning manners. "I didn't know this was your
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"It wasn't, a few years ago," said Eris, with a slow smile. "We used to be out there—" she pointed
southwest. "But raiders—bandits—something—kept breaking our fences, and running off stock. Finally
after my husband died, and the boys married, I bought this farm from a cousin, just to be closer
to town."
"It looks good," said Paks. The small farmhouse looked in good repair, and the orchard next to it
was obviously flourishing.
"Oh, it's a good farm," said Eris. "I miss the spring we had before—the best water I ever had, and
only a few steps from the door. But when you find dead animals in it, day after day—"
"Ugh—" Paks shuddered.
"Do you like apples?" she went on. "The good ones are coming ripe now—I'd be glad for you to have
some."
"Between me and the horses," said Paks, "we'd eat half your crop. I'll buy a measure of good ones
for me, and a double measure of bruised ones for the horses."
"I would have given—"
"Eris," said Paks, wondering as she said it whether she should have given her the council title,
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farm myself. Right now I have the money, and you have apples to sell."
Very well," said Eris. "When you come back by this evening—or whenever—111 have mem near die gate,
under the hedge."
"And you Know I want some, Eris," said Mal.
"You! I thought you lived on ale, Mall" But she was laughing as she said it.
They continued down the road, chatting freely. Paks continued to lead the black horse, since Mal
was walking beside the cart. He pointed out different trees, but Paks quickly grew confused with
it: colors and patterns of bark, and shapes of leaves, and the form of the tree meant httie to
her. She could tell a star-shaped leaf from a lance-shaped one, and both those from the ferny-
looking compounds, but that was her limit Mal teased her gently. In the meantime, they both
watched the road for the signs of the caravan—the fresh wheel ruts and narrow mule hoofmarks.
These they did not mention.
Paks wondered what would be left at the ambush site, since Sir Felis had sent a troop of his
soldiers out to retrieve the bodies. Would she even notice it? As the sun neared its height, she
began to worry that they'd missed it. But it was clear, when they came to it. Deeper tracks, round-
hoofed, of ridden horses, and the mules' tracks veering from side to side. Bloodstains on the
fallen leaves, and on the rocks that edged the road. A few spent arrows, mostly broken. Mal
pointed out the traces she missed, chatting the while about trees. In the end, Paks found the way
the wagons had been taken. Freshly cut boughs, the leaves hardly withered, disguised the wagons'
track into the woods; the brigands had chosen a stony outcrop for the turn off die road. It led,
or so Paks thought, the wrong direction—north—but Mal looked grim when he saw it.
"There's a farm to the northwest," he said. "Or was, until it burned. If they're using it, they
may be using the old farm lane to bring the wagons back, and cross this road farther along. As I
remember, that other farm lane hits this road in about the same place."
"Well, do we follow this?" asked Paks.
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"No. Not with horses. We'd make a noise like an army in Acre, with a third of the leaves down as
they are. If you'll take my advice, we'll go along the road and look for that other place, where
the lane comes in."
Paks could just see the lane coming in ahead when Mal stopped abruptly. "Ha," he said loudly.
"There's the tree I come for." She stared at him, surprised, and he winked. "You'd best go on up
the road a ways," he went on. "I want to drop it right here in the road. Tell you what. You take
these two wheels along with you, eh? Go on—yes— right along up there, at least as far as that
lane. This'unll fall long, I tell you." Paks finally caught on, and wandered slowly up the road as
he bade her. Behind her, the axe rang on the tree. She wondered if it really was a "Umber pine" or
whatever.
It was hard to roll the wheels along with one hand and lead the black horse with the other.
Several times a wheel got loose, and she had to bend to pick it back up. When she got both wheels
as far as the lane crossing, she dropped them with a grunt and wiped her hands on the fallen
leaves. The black horse nudged her, and she scratched his chin idly. She could just see Mal
bending to his work.
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"Eh?"
"How long will you be?" She made it loud and distinct. "I thought I d ride on and find water for
my horse."
"Oh—say—a finger or two of sun. Not longer, lucre's a spring up that lane—used to be a farm there,
some years back. You could bring me some—my can's back here; this fellow won't fell till I drop
him."
Paks mounted and rode back, to another of MaTs winks, and he handed her a tall can with a wire
bail. "It's good water, or used to be," he said. "Look out for wild animals, though. I've heard of
wolves using it."
"ill be careful," said Paks, and drew along the black horse's neck the tracks she'd seen: wagons
and teams both. Mal nodded and waved her away.
Paks made no attempt at silence as she rode along the lane that led south. She found a thread of
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lane, and then a cobble-walled sprmghouse. Beyond was a half-overgrown clearing with the ruins of
a farmhouse and outbuildings. She didn t look at it, but dipped the can in the spring, and let the
black horse drink afterwards. It was not really thirsty, and wanted to sniff at fresh droppings a
few feet away. Paks reined it around slowly, and rode back, glad of her helmet and mail shirt.
Mal had the tree down by the time she got back, and loudly directed her in placing the wheels
under one end of it. He had trimmed the ends of the axle log into rough rounds, and once the
wheels were in place split the ends andplaced cross-wedges in them.
"Thing is," he said, "the wheels have to turn on the axle, not with it—else it'd walk right off
the end of the tree." Paks hadn't thought of that problem. Nor had she noticed the can of grease
he'd brought to put on the axle. She did wonder how he'd gotten the large end of the tree into die
cart. Surely he wasn't that strong. She glanced overhead for something he might have slung a tine
from.
"Don't look up," he warned quietly. Paks froze. "If you want to know how I lifted that monster,"
he said more loudly, "I used its own limbs for levers. Trimmed 'em after, that's how ! do it. Some
men use lines, but then they have to have a taller tree nearby. Not always bandy-By Gird, I'm
thirsty!" He drained the can at one swallow.
The journey back was slower; Mal's pony moved the tree at an easy foot-pace. The black horse
fretted. Paks got off again and walked alongside. When they reached Eris's, they picked up the
apples; Mal told Paks what the current price was, and she left it wrapped in the cloth Eris had
put over the baskets. From there into town they talked softly of what Paks had seen. Mal said he
had spotted a watcher in the trees. They agreed it would be too dangerous to scout the game trail
if the brigands were still so alert.
It was nearly dark when they passed the grange; Ambros and several other yeomen were talking in
the barton gateway, and called greetings.
"You can come help me on the bridge," Mal yelled back. "Paks here isn't much of a teamster."
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"That's not a team," Paks retorted, sure by now that such joking was acceptable.
"I'd be glad to hitch your black up and let him do some work," said Mal.
"I doubt that." Ambros came up to them. "You weren't there die first time she saddled him. He'd be
impossible in harness. Come on Jori, give us a hand here." Ambros and the other yeoman helped Mal
get the wheels aligned on the bridge. Still talking, they followed along. Mal untied the log
beside the Council Hall, and drove it off the back wheels. Then he let the weight drag it out of
the cart. His pony gave a heavy sigh as the log fell, and the men laughed.
"Come on to the inn," said Mal. "Ill buy a mug for you."
They nodded and walked along; Jori and Ambros returned to some grange matter; Paks did not know
what grange-set was, or what it had to do with a form's sale. She hardly listened, intent instead
on figuring out just what Mal Argonist really was—not a simple forester, that was clear. Sne was
beginning to wonder if anyone was actually a simple anything. Until Brewersbridge, she had not
considered that an innkeeper might be a Council member as well—that many people had more than one
role, and considered them all important.
The common room was moderately busy, but quiet. News of the attack made solemn faces. Paks stabled
the black horse, and went back in to find that the others expected her at their table. She shook
her head at Mal's offer of ale, and asked Hebbinford for supper instead.
"I eat before I drink," she said in answer to Mal's question. "I don't have your—" she paused and
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the table with his laughter.
"You didn't start young enough," he said. "When I was scarce knee high, my old dad had me down
tankards at a time."
"Of ale?" asked Ambros.
"No—ale costs too much. Water. But it's the habit, Ambros, of an open throat. The feel of it
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"Then why didn't you stick with water?"
"Oh, that was my brother." His face grew solemn, but Paks thought she could sense the laughter
underneath. "He said a yeoman of Gird must learn to drink like a man. So I did."
"If that's your reason," said Ambros, "you should be a kuakkgannir—you don't drink like a man, you
drink like a tree."
They all laughed. Hebbinford brought Paks her platter of sliced meat and gravy. Mal grabbed a
slice and stuffed it in his mouth. She looked at him.
"It's luck," he said. "It's your good luck if someone else eats the first bite."
Paks shook her head, and began eating. By the time she had eaten, the room had almost emptied.
Ambros and Mal had gone out together. Sir Felis, Paks knew, would be coming in later for her
report. She asked Hebbinford for another of the apple tarts, and settled back comfortably. The
black-clad man was still in the room, and met her eyes. She had not talked to him since the
afternoon before the Council's summons; now he came to her table.
"May I sit?"
Paks nodded, her mouth full of apple tart. She reached for her mug to wash it down.
"I don't mean to pry," he said, "You seem in good favor now; I hope for your sake that is true.
But if anything is going to be done about that attack on the caravan—and if you are going to be
part of it—I wish you'd consider my offer to come along. You might well want someone who was
not—let's say—from here."
Paks looked at him a moment before answering. "Sir— Arvid, didn't you say?—" He nodded, smiling
slightly. "You seem to be telling me that these people can't be trusted. Is that so?"
"I don't think I'd put it like that. I do think that those who live in small villages are more
trustworthy to others of the village than to strangers. Haven't you found that to be true, in your
travels? That these village folk stick together?"
"I suppose." Paks took another swallow from her mug, and prodded the remains of the tart. "It
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not to trust diem fully, but—pardon me—why should I trust you?"
He gave her a suggestion of a wink. "Ah—I knew you knew more than you showed at first. That
mountain traveling is enough to scramble anyone's wits. Now I don't have anything to say about
their character—everyone knows how honest the Girdsmen are—at least to Girdsmen." When Paks didn't
rise to this, he smiled a little and went on. "But you aren't Girdish. Or of this village. I don't
think they d lie, exactly, but they might shade the truth. And if it came to your skin or theirs—-
r*
"I s«e your point," said Paks quietly. "But you have still to answer mine."
"My dear," he began, as he drew his dagger and carefully trimmed his fingernails with it. "You
should trust me only because it is ID your interest, as well as mine. I am neither Girdish nor a
native here—therefore I am unlikely to sacrifice you for a brother's reputation or a friend's
life. I don't expect you to trust me as you trusted your companions in Duke Phelan's Company—of
course not. But I have no good reason to kill you—and several to keep you alive."
"And they are?" asked Paks curiously. She picked up the rest of her tart and ate it, waiting for
his answer. His eyes narrowed. He resheathed his dagger.
"I told you before that our interests might march together. I think they do. 1 wish the brigands
no luck; I would be glad to see them dead. You need not know why. Obviously, no one official is
going to encourage me to go after them—I'm not an experienced soldier, and thats what it takes.
But if that is the charge they gave you, then I would be glad to assist. Perhaps to make sure it
is done thoroughly.
"Have you a grudge against them?" asked Paks, honestly curious now. "Have they done you or your
family an injury?"
"I will not tell you that at this time." Arvid turned a tittle, and signalled Hebbinford, who came
over with a sharp glance for both of them. "Wine, sir, if you please." Paks shook her head, and
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have caution—but insufficient to recognize an honest offer. Nonetheless it stands. My word you
would have no reason to trust—but I will tell you honestly that I will not kill you, and I will
defend you within reason, if you accept me as one of your company. If you were wise enough to know
what I am, you would know what that is worth."
Paks frowned, not liking the bantering tone or the subtle insults. It reminded her too much of
Macenion, She looked up at him again. "If such a command is offered me, and if I accept you—what
other suggestions would you have?"
His brows arched. "You ask much, with nothing given." "I do? What of you—you ask my trust, with no
evidence of your character. I have had such chances, sir, as make me distrust most strangers."
"But Girdsmen." His tone was sour. "Most soldiers have found Girdsmen to be honest, at the least,
and usually brave as well. I don't know .your allegiance, either to gods or lords."
Arvid sighed. "I am a guild member in good standing. As such I obey my guildmaster, in Verella. It
is an old guild, long established there—" "What craft?" asked Paks.
He laughed. "What—do you think the Master Moneychanger here tells everyone when he travels what
his guild affiliation is? Don't you know that some guilds bind their traveling members to secrecy?
Do you want to bring down on me that very plague of thieves you think I represent?" "No—" Paks
flushed, confused.
"I'm sorry," he said quickly. "I shouldn't have laughed. I understand your suspicion—and it does
you credit. Any experienced adventurer is suspicious. But I cannot tell you my guild—at least not
without asking—at this time. I cannot tell anyone here. I can only tell you what I have told you.
In my judgement—and I am not without experience in the world myself—it is in both our interests to
cooperate. I have an interest in those brigands—I want to see them removed. Does that sound like a
thief or worse? You, I believe, have the Council's permission to mount an attack on them. And you
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who has no reason to wish an honest witness dead. Sim-pose they are actually living in
town—related to one of the Council members. Do you honestly think they!! thank you for capturing
such as that? Let you take the risk, yes. Let you km and capture them, yes—perhaps. But let you
Hve to take the credit, when it's their own? I doubt that much. If the brigands really are
strangers, then you have no problem. But otherwise—"
Paks nodded slowly. She was not truly convinced, but she had worried that the spy the Council
wanted her to find might turn out to be someone they liked. And, as well, they had asked her to
involve the other adventurers in town if she could. Surely this Arvid Semminson was an adventurer.
From the hill west of the keep, the crooked path down the moat was clearly visible, as were die
signs of age and decay: stones from the outer wall tumbled into the moat, leaving ragged gaps in
the wall through which the battered interior could be seen. Paks, concealed behind a thick-leaved
but prickly shrub, stared down at the broken walls and watted for die diversion Sir Felis had
promised. She had ended up with a motley group: Mal and several other yeomen of Gird, including
Doryan; the two traders she'd met some days before, who said they wanted to avenge the attack on
the caravan; a servant of theirs whom they said was a good bowman; one of Eris's sons (a Falkian,
Mal had reported sadly, but a good man), and Arvid. The sun rose higher, burning off the last of
the mist from the moat and swamp around. Paks insisted that her group stay well back in cover, and
refused to let them talk or light pipes. A subdued grumble followed these commands.
"Stands to reason," muttered the heavy-set bowman, "that if they could see us, we could see them.
We can't see a thing, through these leaves. We could smoke, at least."
Paks shook her head fiercely. "Sun's in our eyes. They've got the better light. Think: how fer can
you see a shepherd's breakfast firesmoke? There could be a dozen eyes
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looking out of that gap, from the shadow, and we'd never know it. Be still."
Someone cursed, but softly, and they rested as best they could in the positions Paks had chosen
for them. The sun rose higher. Paks had to force herself to stay still. She wanted to walk back
and forth, from post to post. Was this why the captains had so often walked the line before
battle? She could hardly believe that she, the same old Paks, was commanding a group like this—a
group of strangers.
She looked again at the keep, which seemed a different shape as the shadows shifted with the sun,
and wondered if the magician who built it had, indeed, left a curse. A light wind sifted through
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Brewersbridge on time. They were supposed to have left just enough time for her to get her group
into position. It had been too long. She squinted at the sun, feeling the sweat spring out on her
neck, chill as it was. She swallowed against the fear, and glared around at the others. Someone
had shifted carelessly, and a rock clattered. She turned back to the keep. Nothing moved there but
a cloud of midges over the moat, a shimmer in the sun.
At last she heard the rhythmic noise of marching men and horses. She eased forward to the edge of
the wood, trying to see the north side of the keep, where the forest stood back a ways. The sound
came louder, eddying in the uncertain wind. Now she could hear it distinctly. A movement in the
distance caught her eye. A horn call swam through the air, mellow and long. She looked back at the
keep. There: a flicker, quick as a lizard's tail, on the highest part of the ruin. The horn call
came again, louder. She could hear a bellowed command from the oncoming force. She looked back at
her group; they were all alert. Mal grinned at her, shifting his broad shoulders. She realized
that he had moved forward, coming between her and the others. But she had no time to think of
that.
The front of the captain's "show of force" was out of the trees now. She could not tell from this
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of them were illusion. Nor could she tell which was Zinthys. None of them wore die land of robes
she had seen on him so far.
"There's one," said Mal, so softly she almost missed hearing it. Then she, too, saw the brown-clad
man peering from a low gap in the keep wall. He passed through, carrying a plank and laid it on
the edge of the moat. It extended to one of the fallen blocks farther out. He moved out onto the
plank and at once another came, this one in a heavy mailed shirt, and dragging another plank. The
second plank bridged the moat from the stone to the near shore. A third man appeared, carrying
bows, and the three slipped across the bridge and spread to cover it. After a glance upslope, they
concentrated on the corners of the keep.
Noise from the north side increased. Paks could not tell if it was a fight, or just noise.
Suddenly a gout of flame rose up, and a thunderous boom echoed across the woods. Birds flew up
screaming. The bowmen below did not flee, though one of them half stood, to be pulled back by the
others. Another gout of flame, and another, followed. The noise was appalling, even though Zinthys
had warned them. A deer broke cover and bounded through the woods, crashing and snorting. A
hurrying file of men slipped from the gap and teetered across the bridge. Paks saw the glint of
matt on most of them; they had their swords out, and bows slung to their backs. She counted as
they came, hoping that Sir Felis's estimate was right.
She knew die last had come when the bowmen moved. The entire group—just over a score—started up
the hill, as she had expected. The archers stayed in the rear, and two swordsmen took the lead,
several strides ahead of the rest. Paks frowned. With that spread, some of them could escape, if
they were quick. She thought they would be quick.
She turned to the stocky bowman. "Shoot low. Just in front of "em."
"Why?" But he complied. Two arrows thudded into the ground, and the two brigands in front slowed
and peered up the slope.
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"So they'll bunch up," said Paks. "As they are now." He gave her a quick look. "Hunh. That's quite
a trick. Where d you learn—?" But they were all together now, and Paks called for another volley,
from this man and the Girdish archers as well. Four of the brigands fell; Paks saw one of them
struggle up and begin to crawl away along the slope. The others, furious and frightened, charged
up the slope.
The bowmen shot as fast as they could, and seven more were hit before Paks led the others to break
the charge. Some of them fell; others turned aside, limping, or jerked the arrows free and kept
with the main group. She herself was in the lead, full of the same delight she often felt in
battle. The sword she had carried since the elfane taig balanced easily in her hand. She met the
first brigand with a sweeping blow that broke his sword at die hUt. He jerked out his dagger and
thrust, but she was past him, the sword carving into another man's side. A blade she didn't see
caught her in the ribs; she felt the blow, but rolled off it to take another brigand in the neck.
She heard the yeomen of Gird call his name as they followed her. But compared to the battles she'd
been in with the Duke's company, it was short and easy. Almost before she knew it, the clash of
weapons ceased.
She looked around. Arvid Semminson was wiping the blade of his narrow sword; it was stained to die
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Mal had one brigand down, and was tying his arms; two of the other yeomen were guarding die
remaining brigands who could stand. Ten of them were down, dead or dying of serious wounds. In the
distance, Paks thought she saw two or three huddled forms limping away. None of her own force
seemed badly hurt, barring die merchant. Paks walked over to look. He had a long, deep gash on the
arm, but not a killing wound, though he seemed dazed. She hadn't expected much from him anyway.
"What now, Paks?" asked Mal. "Do we kill them, or take them back, or what?"
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ment. For an instant she had thought he might seriously mean to kill the prisoners. In that
moment, the other merchant spoke.
"We ought to kill them."
"No." Paks shook her head for emphasis. "We'll take them to Sir Felis. He's the Count's
representative."
"But they killed—"
"We've killed enough. How many do you want?" Paks turned away, and squatted beside Mals prisoner.
She recognized the man who had led the others up the hill. He was bleeding from a cut on his head
that had split the leather helm, and from a deep gash in one leg. "Better bandage that," she said
to Mal, who nodded. She wiped the blood off her own sword and sheathed it. The prisoner watched
her, dark eyes alert. He flinched when Mal touched his leg, then held still as it was bandaged.
Paks said nothing, looking around at the others as she caught her breath. Then she met the
prisoner's eyes.
"Your name?" she asked.
"Why should 1 tell you? We're just going to be killed—"
"Probably," said Paks. "Any reason why not?"
"Reasons!" His mouth worked and he spat blood. "Being poor's reason enough—that and going looking
for work. That'll get you killed, that will—going along, trying to find a place, and
nothing—nothing." He twisted his neck, wincing, to look around.
Paks felt an obscure sympathy she had not expected with this weatherworn robber. He did not look
as if he'd enjoyed his life. For that matter, he didn't look as if he'd profited by it. "How many
of you were there?"
"They're the lucky ones," he said sourly. "Dead and over with. Gods above, what chance did we
have—"
"Chance?" rumbled Mal, coming back to confront him. "About the chance you gave Ens at her form, I
suppose. Poor, eh? You think we're all rich?"
The prisoner closed his eyes briefly. "I don't—dammit, man, I never thought to be a robber. Not
back when I—I had land once myself. A few cattle, enough. If I hadn't come here—"
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"What about *hereT' asked Arvid, who had come up softly behind Paks. "What's so special here?"
"I—" The man seemed to choke, shook his head, and said no more. Paks pushed herself up. All of her
group could travel as they were; of the brigands, four that might live could not walk. Those whose
wounds were mortal she despatched herself, not trusting the others to give a clean deathstroke.
But she told the others to gather the weaponry, such as it was: she had always hated stripping die
bodies, and had avoided it most of the time. She had the yeomen supervise the prisoners in making
litters for those who could not walk.
"Paks, what about those that got away?" Mal swung his bloody axe slowly in his hand.
"Well have to track them. They're all wowided." Paks sighed. "I don't know how many—"
"I thought four or five. There's a couple down there still—" he jerked his head toward the slope.
"I'd better go—"
"No. You stay here—I'll take Doryan. You don't need him here." Paks started to protest, but
thought better of it. She was sure Mal was trustworthy.
He had just started down the hill when five horsemen broke from the woods on die south side of the
keep. Paks saw a flurry of motion in the bushes near them, and then four of the horsemen charged,
driving out the remnant of tie robbers. That was over in a few seconds. Zinthys rode across the
slope to greet her.
"Well done, Lady Paksenarrion," he said cheerfully. "Sir Felis will be pleased."
"You too. Tliat was a real show, that—" Paks stopped short, wondering if she should reveal his
work as illusion. Zinthys grinned at her confusion, and spoke up.
"Most people find a fireblast alarming," he said casually. "I sent the rest of the troops back
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Paks wondered what he would have said if she'd blurted out the truth, but merely smiled. "I'm glad
you thought to send a few around back for the stragglers."
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"Oh, of course. I see you have quite a few prisoners— how about transport?"
"If you could have someone send a cart or wagon out from town—and Master Travannen is wounded. It
would be better for him to ride—"
"Certainly. Why don't I see to moving your mounts back along the road—then you can come out the
way we came in. It's easier traveling."
"Fine." Paks looked around. The prisoners had rough litters ready, covered with their cloaks. They
loaded the wounded and prepared to march out. Zinthys rode off with a wave of his hand; the
soldiers from Sir Felis's command joined her, flanking the party. One of them offered his horse.
"No, thank you," said Paks. "I'll walk to the road." He shrugged and moved back into position. She
wondered if she should have taken his offer.
"I wonder," said Arvid quietly at her side, "that you are unhurt. Didn't you know that a sword
broke on your armor?"
Paks thought back to the fight—ft hardly deserved the name of battle. "I don't—oh—I remember a
blow in the side—"
"Yes. 1 was just behind you then. It was a fair blow, and die man was as heavy as you, or more. I
thought you'd get a broken rib out of it, at the least."
Paks took a deep breath, feeling nothing. "No," she said. "It must have caught at an angle."
Arvid shook his head. "I saw it. Either you're a good bit tougher than I thought—which is
unlikely—or your armor has great virtue. Where did you get it?"
.Paks gave him a straight look. "I found it," she said. "In a ruin."
"Hmm. That's a good sword, too."
"Yes." Paks looked around. Everything seemed to be secure. Mal was moving up beside her. He had
wiped the axe blade on something; it was clean.
"The others are dead," he said. "Too bad hurt to make it; the riders trampled some of 'em. I did
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looked past Paks at Arvid. "You fight good, for a city man."
Arvid laughed easily. "Do you think all soldiers begin in a fermyardr
Mal s forehead creased. "Nay, not that, sir. But the ones I know all did, and the city men I know
are mostly merchants. This lady, now, says she comes from a fernr Isn't that so?"
Paks nodded.
"Many good things come from cities," said Arvid.
"Oh, I didn't mean any different. I know that Fine clothes, and jewels, and that. But there's more
thieves in cities, too. My brother always said that wealth draws thieves like honey draws bees."
"I suppose." Arvid didn't sound interested; he turned to Paks. "What are you going to do now?"
Paks shrugged. "First things first. Get the prisoners to Sir Felis. Then he can find out how
they've been operating, and if they've had contacts in town.'
Chapter Fifteen
Sir Felis met the party coming into town. Ambros was with him, as were several other yeomen. Some
of the townspeople cheered; Paks felt her foce redden. She was glad she had the black horse; at
least she didn't have to look up at Sir Felis.
"You've done well," he said, after a quick look at the group. "None of your men killed—or even
badly hurt—"
"My arm—" began the merchant. Sir Felis gave Paks a quick look of amusement, soldier to soldier,
before speaking to the man.
"I'm sorry, sir; I didn't see. The surgeon has been alerted; he's at the inn."
"God. It was a terrible fight—"
Paks saw one of Sir Felis's men roll his eyes. She choked down a laugh. Her knees felt shaky. In
the stir around them, the black horse began to fidget. She met Ambros's gaze.
"How was it?" he asked.
"Went well." She worked the black horse over to the side of the road near him. "They all came out
the bolthole, just as we thought. Your yeomen are good fighters—steady."
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you."
"What now?"
"Well—Sir Felis will take them to the keep. I suppose he'll ask you along. The Council's heard; of
course they're happy about it. Do you think you got them all?"
"Twenty-one came out; we left eleven dead and have ten prisoners. Unless some stayed in the
keep—and I wouldn't have, with what Zinthys did." Mindful of spies, Paks did not elaborate on
that.
"They don't—they don't look so bad," said Ambros though tfully.
"Who, the brigands?"
"Yes. I thought—"
Paks glanced at him. "They'd all look like ores?"
He flushed. "I know I don't have your experience—"
"Don't be silly. I didn't mean that." Paks found herself annoyed with his sensitivity. "I was
surprised myself, if you want to know. The only brigands I'd seen, in Aarenis, looked as vicious
as they were. These men look like any poor farmer or soldier. The leader—that one in the litter
there—he said something about not wanting to be a robber—"
"Eh, once he's caught, what'd you expect him to say?" The uninjured merchant had pressed close to
Paks's side. "He's not likely to admit he's been a thief from birth."
"He hasn't been," said Arvid, with a certainty that made Paks wonder.
"How do you know?"
"Lady, I, like Master Zinthys, prefer not to reveal all the sources of my knowledge. But I will
tell you that had he been a thief from birth, he would not have been in that keep."
"But how do you know?" Both Paks and Ambros stared at Arvid. He smiled, bowed, and passed on
toward the inn.
"That one," muttered the merchant, idly putting his hand on the black horse's neck. It jerked
aside; by the time Pales had it calm again, the merchant and most of the
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group had passed. Sir Felis beckoned; Paks moved the black horse beside his at the tail of the
procession.
"Come on out with me to the keep, will you?" he asked. "Yd like to hear what happened. My cook
should have something ready, too."
Paks nodded. She realized that Sir Felis might want her to be present when he questioned the
prisoners. She wondered what the customs were.
"And you, too, yeoman marshal, if your duties permit," said Sir Fetis smoothly. "Since die Marshal
is not here, I would hire a representative from the grange to be present"
Tne granges honor, Sir Felis," said Ambros. "May I ask how long this might take? It is customary
for die yeoman of Gird to give thanks in the grange for the success of such a mission; I would
like to tell them when—"
Sir Felis pursed his lips. "I am not certain, yeoman-marshal, but surely by dark. These men do not
look so desperate as I thought."
Paks had feared that Sir Felis might, like Alured the Black of Aarenis, torture his prisoners; he
did not need to. By the time Sir FeUs, trailed by Paks and Ambros, came down the stairs to
question them, the brigand leader had decided to tell what he knew.
"We was all honest men once, sir," he said weakly. "I was a farmer, myself. Some of the others was
trade or craft, but most was fanners. But that bad drought three years ago, in Verrakai
lands—that's what drove me out. The taxes—and then no grass, and the cows dying—so my lord
Verrakai put me out, and I went wandering. No one had honest work, sir, and that's the truth of
it." He closed his eyes a moment; Paks looked around at the other brigands. The wounded lay
quietly; the rest squatted against the dungeon wall, heads down. "I suppose Elam and I were the
first," the man went on after a long pause. "He and I'd known each other back home—we traveled
together. We come on this place in a storms-went in to get dry—and then—seems we couldn't leave."
"What stopped you?" asked Ambros.
"I don't know. Something. It—it called, like. We stayed there a couple of days—shot a bird for
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good bowman. I stuck one of those things in the moat, but we couldn't eat that."
"What thing?" asked Sir Felis.
"You know. One of them—big things, like a frog only near man-sized. Smell rotten. They have teeth,
too. Anyway we stayed there. Took a goose from a farm nearby—I d asked for work, and they drove us


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off. Called us robbers, they did, and we hadn't robbed before that. Made me mad." He stopped
again, and rubbed his nose. "Elam wanted to go on somewheres else, but when we got an hour or so
away, we both got the cramps bad. Had to come back. Then the others came." He nodded toward the
other men. "One or two at a time, every week or so. Soon we'd hunted out all the woods around. If
we took from the farms—well, most of us had farmed. We didn't want to."
"So then he said take caravans," put in one of the others, leaning back against the wall and
tilting his head up to look at Sir Felis. "He says what's a caravan to you—them merchants are all
rich, and what has rich done for you? That's what he says. Steal from caravans, and get rich
yourself." The man spat. "Rich! Heh! All we ever see's enough to eat, and that not all the time. A
few coppers now and then—a new cloak—that's all."
"You shouldn't talk about him," said the first robber, pushing himself up. "It's bad luck. Hell—"
"He can't do much here," said the other. "Teriam, think! It's listening to him has got us here—in
jail, when we were born honest men. Robbers, we are, and it's him as profits by it."
"But you know what he said. He can reach us anywheres —that's why we couldn't leave. He could
touch us here— right now—and—"
"And what? Kill us deader than they will, when they're through talking?" The man gave Sir Felis a
bitter grin. "Tell you the truth, sir, if you can kill that devil, you'll do yourself more good
than killing us. And III be glad of it."
Paks saw that some of the other brigands seemed very frightened, but they said nothing. The leader
had fallen back, and now lay silent with eyes closed and jaw clenched.
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"Who is this man that ordered you to rob?" asked Sir Felis. "Was he captured or lolled?*
"Not him," said the spokesman angrily. "Not him. He's got his own place, safe and deep, and all we
know's his orders. I don't know his name, sir, or who or what he is—and I'm not sure he's a man,
even. Teriam knows, I think—" he glanced at the leader.
"I don't." It came out as a harsh whisper. "I swear I don't know—I never seen him but the one
time, and after that I couldn't—I couldn't—" He gripped his head, rocking back and forth. "He—he
had black robes, that's all, and some land of—of dung on a chain—it—like a hand spread out, only
it had too many fingers—*
Paks felt, rather than saw, Ambros stiffen beside her. "Gird's arm!" he said softly. Then more
loudly, "Lite a spider, maybe?"
The man's head turned towards him. "It—it might be— tf—NO!" He began to flail about on the straw.
"No! Don't let him—not here—I"
Sir FeMs swore, a soldier's curse Paks had heard many tunes. She could see nothing but the
frightened man, waving his hands at nothing and trying to flee something no one could see. Ambros
moved forward before the others shook off their surprise, and caught his arm.
"Be still, man—Tenant's your name? Be still; Gird will ward you from that evil."
"No one can—he said he could—"
"Gird's grace on you, Teriam. Gird Strongarm totfl ward you; give him a chance."
"You-you're a Marshal? Of Gird?"
"I'm the yeoman-marshal of this grange," said Ambros. "I am sworn to Gird's service, and Known to
him. I give you my word that I place your name before Gird."
"Please—** the man's eyes were open now, and fastened on Ambros. "Please, sir—I'm not afraid to
die—just not that filth, please sir—"
Ambros freed one hand and held out his medallion. Teriam touched it with the tips of his fingers.
"You have been spelled by some evil, is that not so?* asked Ambros. "You fear that it will take
your soul?"
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Teriam nodded. "He said—he said he could do that. Wherever we tried to run, whatever we did—he
would find us, and see us in—" He stopped, and lowered his voice. Paks could not hear what he said
to Ambros, but she saw the sudden twitch of Ambros's shoulders.
"Well, and do you believe that the High Lord and Gird are stronger than that one?"
"I—I know I should, sir, but I'm feared—I'm feared they won't be for me—"
Ambros looked around at the other robbers. "And you? What do you think of the power of that evil
one, when you are here? Do you think the High Lord is weaker?"
Some shook their heads; some simply stared. The man who had spoken so boldly before pushed himself
to his feet. "Sir—yeoman-marshal—I was a yeoman of Gird once. Not a good one, youll say, and I
won't argue that. I never thought to find myself bound by such evil—just a drover like me. I don't
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Ambros gave him a bleak smile. "Yeoman of Gird, you must face the Count's judgement, but the High
Lord knows his own servants."
The man's face lighted. "I swear, yeoman-marshal, that it was not fear of the Count's court that
kept me there. Whatever the grange-court demands—" "Gird will have somewhat to say in that,
yeoman." "Aye, yeoman-marshal." He turned to Sir Felis. "Sir, if you will, if the court demands my
life, permit the grange to report the death of a yeoman." Sir Felis looked at Ambros, brows
raised. Ambros nodded.
"The Marshal would say the same, Sir Felis. A yeoman may be spelled into evil deeds; I judge it
was so with him, and perhaps with some others. The punishment must fall, but their names remain on
the grange rolls. Only those who willingly serve evil, and refuse to repent, are cast out."
"He won't tell you," said Teriam softly, "but I will. He tried to get away more than once—we kept
him until the curse softened him."
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"I pray the High Lord's mercy on you, Teriam, for your deeds and your confessions."
Back upstairs, in Sir Felis's conference room, Ambros reddened under their gaze. Zinthys was
studiously ignoring the others, setting wine to heat on the hearth. Sir Felis simply watched
Ambros, his weathered face fixed in a neutral expression. Paks tried to see, behind that youth and
inexperience, the power he had seemed to have with the prisoners.
"Well," said Sir Felis suddenly, as if he'd made a decision. He looked at Paks. "I say again,
Paksenarrion, that you did very well. Very well indeed. I am not now surprised that your Duke
recommended you for advanced training. I do not think many novice commanders could have taken over
a score with a dozen, and had no casualties."
"I could not, without Master Zinthys's help," said Paks. "And your soldiers caught the
stragglers."
"Even so," said Sir Felis. He looked her up and down. "And you, yourself, have no injury? I see
your tunic "is slashed."
"No, sir," said Paks. "I wear armor, of course."
"Hmmph. Yes. Well, then, I think we'd better have a formal report to the Council—you know the sort
of thing— 111 speak to the mayor, and I expect we'll meet tonight. You'll be summoned. Yeoman-
marshal—" Sir Felis turned to Ambros.
"Yes, Sir Felis?"
"Since some of the prisoners claim to be yeomen, I will delay trial until the Marshal returns."
"Thank you, Sir Felis."
"I will not promise that it will make any difference—**
"Of course not, Sir Felis. The grange understands that."
"Good. I'll see you later, then—will you be at Council in the Marshal's place?"
"Yes, Sir Felis."
"Good. Paksenarrion, do you wish to make your own reckoning of the arms recovered?"
"No, sir." Paks saw no reason to distrust Sir Felis's count.
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"Then 111 see you later. If you'll excuse me—" He shrugged into his heavy cloak.
"Certainly, sir." Paks and Ambros followed Sir Felis down the winding stairs and out to a sunny
afternoon. A soldier brought their horses forward; Sir Felis was already mounted and riding off.
They were almost back to the Jolly Potboy when Ambros turned to Paks. "Can I have a talk with
you?"
"Me?" Paks had been thinking about the report she would have to give to the Council; she dreaded
it. "Of course—but what about?"
"Come on to the grange; I don't want to talk about it here."
Paks sighed. She had been up since long before dawn, and she had looked forward to a not bath. She
had not had time for more than a brief handwash before the simple lunch Sir Felis had served. But
Ambros looked so concerned that she nodded finally and turned the black horse away from the inn.
"I should have thought—" Ambros said quietly, nodding to a child in the street. "You're tired,
aren t you?"
"I'm dirty and stiff as much as tired. And don't you still have to do whatever ceremony you were
talking about?"
"Oh—yes. I'd forgotten, Curd forgive my thick head. Blast. But youll want to see that, even you
aren't Girdish. The Marshal would want you to be there."
"All right." Paks wished he'd get to the point. She saw Sir Felis's horse and escort outside the
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Once at the grange, Ambros took charge quickly. "Ill rub down the black, and put him up—with the
Marshal away, we have plenty of space. You can wash up if you want—there's plenty of water in the
scullery—and if you need any bandages or anything—"
"No," said Paks, abandoning the idea of a good soaking bath. "Just to get this dust off—" She took
off her helmet and sluiced her head as Ambros led horses away. The cold water woke her up; she
wiped her neck with a wet cloth and had most of the grime off her hands and arms before Ambros
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"Now," he said, leading the way into the grange proper. "I expect the other yeomen will be here
soon—they saw us ride by. What I want to know is whether you'll come with me when I go to seek
that blackweb priest."
"What?" Paks was completely confused.
"Didn't you hear him? There's a blackweb—a priest of Achrya—somewhere in that keep. I've got to go
and—"
"Wait—Ambros, didn't the Marshal tell you not to go after the brigands?"
"The brigands, yes. And I didn't. This is different. A true evil, Paks—something like this—I can't
let it alone."
"But, Ambros, you're not a Marhsal. Can you fight such a thing? Wouldn't it be better to wait for
the Marshal to come back? He said to stay with the grange."
Ambros shook his head. "What if he moved? Now we know where he is—the center of evil for this
whole area:— and it's my responsibility."
"What about your dream?"
"That's just it." Ambros looked sober but determined. "Paks, such a dream could be an evil
sending—to keep me from doing what I should. If I don't try—for fear of dying— what kind of
Girdsmen am I?"
"It could be a warning from Gird, couldn't it?"
"Yes—but I can't tell."
"Then I think you should wait." Paks stuck her hands in her sword belt. "Ambros, you don't know
anything about what's there except what a robber said. How do you know he's telling the truth?
Even if he is, you don't know enough. A priest of Achrya—very good so for. But alone? With other
troops? Human or other?"
Ambros had been pacing back and forth; he stopped. "I—see. I hadn't thought of that. It's your
experience, I suppose."
"Not just that. I would go with you—but you said, the other day, that you had to obey the
Marshal."
"I have to obey Gird. Ordinarily that means the Marshal, but—" He stopped as the yeomen who had
been with Paks that morning came into the grange. Paks noticed that none of them had changed from
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clothing; she wondered why. Mal winked at her, as they all came to the platform. Ambros dimbed
onto it
What followed seemed strange to Paks. He called on each one to give an account for his own
actions. After each recital, Ambros crossed his blade with the man's weapon. When it came to Mal,
the big man grinned as Ambros's sword tapped his axe blade. Then Ambros inspected all the weapons,
and supervised their return to the grange racks—for only Mal had carried his own. After that, they
all repaired to the inn for a round of ale.
Here die others who had been involved joined diem. Paks slipped upstairs for a hath and change of
clothes. She put on me new clothes, enjoying the feel of good cloth. It was hard to believe that
she'd been in a battle that morning—she thought back to the Duke's Company, and laughed to
herself. Very different indeed. No Company chores, no guard duty at night. And the others had
fought well. Perhaps she could get used to having strange companions at ner side—or none. Even so,
she slipped die mail shirt back on and pulled her best leather tunic over it.
She opened the door to find a girl leaning on die wall opposite. Paks recognized her as one of die
junior yeoman. The girl stood away from the wall as Paks came out.
"Please—lady—could I speak to you?"
pfes," said Paks. "What is it?"
"You're a fighter, aren't you? I mean—I know you are, but isn't that—I mean, don't you make your
living that way?" Ail this in a rush.
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"Well—" The girl looked down, then back at Pafcs. She was as tall, Paks realized, and nearly as
broad-shouldered. "I want to be a fighter, too," she said finally. "I—they laugh at me here, the
people in town. I want to show them—the Marshal says I'm good—"
"Umm." Paks looted at her wrists. They were strong, already marked with training scars. "Well, I
can tell you it's possible. ! did ft. But—"
"I know—I know. They say—those who saw you fight today—they say you're good. The senior yeomen
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too, after they'd drilled with you. I know I can do it, too. But will you let me?"
"Let you? How do you mean?"
"I want to—to train with you. Like a—a squire, or something."
"But I'm not a knight." Paks stared at her, bewildered. "I don't need a squire—"
"111 earn my way," the girl went on, heedless. "I swear I will. I'm a hard worker, and 111 do
anything you say, if you'll let me fight beside you."
"Listen—" began Paks, then stopped. She remembered too well how much she had wanted what she now
had. What could someone have said to her, at that age? "I don't even know your name."
"Suli."
"Suli, it's not that easy—I don't know what I'll be doing
next—"
"You're not going to quit fighting!"
"No. But I don t know when—or what—yet. T don't even know what training you've got. What if you
can't—"
"You could talk to the Marshal—or even Ambros. They know me. Please, Lady Paks—I'll do exactly
what you say. I can groom your horse, and take care of things—'
"If you want to learn to fight, Suli, why don't you join a mercenary company? The Halverics
recruit around here, don't they?"
Suli shook her head. "I've heard about that—all marching and drill, and the same old thing day
after day. I could do that here—just drilling with the yeomen. I want—" she looked down the
passage as if across a field. "I want excitement. Battles. Travel. Like you've had."
Paks grinned. "Suli, I started as a mercenary. Gods above, I had as much travel and excitement as
I could take. It's the best training—I swear it."
Suli shook her head again. "And you left. Why should I do it at all, when it's not what I want in
the end? Please, please let me fight with you. If you don't Wee me, after a while, then you can
send me away. But give me a chance." Her eyes held a look that Paks could not name—she was
flattered and disturbed at once.
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'Til think about it." Paks started down the passage; Suli was at her shoulder. She started to
speak, but Paks held up her hand. "No, I didn't say yes. What does your family mink about mis?"
She could hardly believe she had asked that. She, who knew only too well what families thought.
Suli scowled, "My family—they don't get along here. My dad's a trapper. He does a bit of day work
in the tanner's sometimes. He's gone mostly, expects me to take care of everything. But my
brothers—they're old enough to work, and all that. I don't care what he minks."
"Mmm." Paks turned to the stairs. "My father didn't want me to leave either."
"You see? I said we were alike. Please—"
"Enough, Suli. I said I'd think about it." Paks could see the others still clustered around two
tables pulled together. Arvid and one of the yeomen were arm wrestling. Mal looked up and waved to
her; she came to the table, aware of Suli watching her back.
"We were wondering if you'd decided to leave us for good," said Mal.
"No. Suli wanted to talk to me."
"Oh." Mal and several of the others exchanged glances. "Is she bothering you?"
"Bothering me? No. She has an exalted idea of my achievements." Paks snatched the top of a pile of
fried cakes a serving girl put in front of Mal. "Good luck for you," she reminded him; the others
roared.
"By Gird's arm, you're quick," said Mal, slightly redder man usual. "I never had anyone turn that
trick back on me."
Paks smiled with her mouth full. A tankard appeared in front of her. She picked it up and took a
sip.
"Seriously," began Ambros, "if Suli pesters you too much, 111 speak to her."
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said—but you know I'm not a knight, what would I do with a squirer
"As for that, you know much more man she (foes. She fights well, for the little training she's
had—but she's got no more experience in actual fights than I have."
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"Not exactly," said Mal. "She's been in somej-ows."
"Brawls," said Ambros. "That's not the same."
"No, I know that. She's an interesting girl, though." Mal took a long pull at his tankard; one of
the other men shook his head. 'Seriously—she's one of the best of the junior yeomen."
"As for as fighting goes—but fighting's not all of it," said Ambros.
"Well, it's the most important part, isn't it? For Girdsmen, anyway. You know shes not happy here,
Ambros—not since Deordtya left. She wants—
"She wants excitement and glory," said Ambros tartly. "She's more apt to get a broken head. Or
don't you agree, Paks?"
Paks nodded slowly. "I told her she should join a mercenary company for more training. I haven't
seen her fight; I don't know what she can do. Still, I can understand—I couldn't wait to get away
from home. If someone like me had come through Three Firs, I'd have walked on fire to talk to
her."
"I can't recommend her exactly," said Ambros, looking at his hands, "but I think she'd be honest
and loyal. If you want someone—"
"I hadn't thought about it." Paks took another fried cake off Mal's platter. She wondered what it
would be like to have a squire. The Duke had squires—she tried to imagine herself coming down that
trail from the ruined wall, and someone like Suli throwing herself between an enemy and her own
shield. It didn't seem right. She was not a knight; she had never been a squire herself; she
didn't know what a squire should do, or now to teach it.
"Many free swords travel in pairs or trios," said Mal. "Then they have someone they can trust." He
leaned back to let the other yeomen past—they nodded to Paks and Ambros, and went out.
"Sometimes." Ambros shook his head. "Not always. But if you wanted to hire her, Paks, go ahead. I
don't think you'd do her any harm, and though she's a little wild, she'll serve you honestly."
"Is she a Girdsman?"
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"Well—not exactly. She's not old enough for the final oaths, and her family isn't Girdish. She's
sworn to die local grange only. Of course I'd rather she found a Girdish patron—"
"I wondered about that."
"But you seem honest enough yourself. Master Cedfer hopes you'll end up a yeoman of Gird." 1
might," said Paks thoughtfully.
"If it's permitted to answer," broke in Arvid, "I'd like to know if you found how those robbers
were fencing their spoils."
"Fencing—?" Paks didn't know the term. Ambros did, and looked sharply at Arvid.
"He means, Paks, selling stolen goods somewhere— thieves call that fencing them."
Arvid smiled. "So do others, young sir—I see that you know the term."
Ambros scowled. "Indeed—honest men must learn thieves' speech or lose by it. But to answer your
question, as much as I may—no, we didn't find out where the goods are being sent, or how."
"I told Paks, yeoman-marshal, that I did not believe those men had been thieves for long." Arvid
sipped his ale, and went on. "I know you are suspicious of me—but that is the truth. And if I'm
right, then someone else is running them—taking the stolen goods, fencing them— and that person,
not those poor men, is the dangerous one. Until that person is caught, these attacks will
continue." Paks saw a gleam of interest in Mal's eyes, but he was apparently relaxed and half-
asleep, leaning on the wall.
Ambros was clearly interested. "How, if Paks has killed or captured all the active robbers?"
Arvid snorted. "How hard is it to fool poor men? How were those men trapped into thievery? As long
as the world holds men whose arms are stronger than their wits or will, just so long will subtle
men find simple ones to risk and die for them." Paks thought that could have more application than
Arvid intended; she glanced at him and
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met a sardonic glint that set her mind on edge. Ambros missed it.
"I think, sir," he said quietly, "that you and I—and Paks, perhaps—should have a quiet word
together,"
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this town is telling dangerous tales."
"You may be right."
"I am," said Arvid with calm authority. "We must meet— and we must meet quietly."
Mal sat forward. "Isn't that the way to be noticed, sir, in this town?"
Arvid glanced at him. "You would know, I expect."
Mal grinned broadly. "Oh yes ... I would know. And if you're speaking to our yeoman-marshal, I
guess I'd like to be there."
"Mall"
"No oflense, yeoman-marshal, but I've seen his sword-work, remember? You know I can keep quiet."
Arvid smiled the same charming smile at Mal. Paks noticed mat Mal simply absorbed it, without
changing expression—-he looked very much tike a stupid country lout. "That's fine with me, sir. I
am not intending assassination of your yeoman-marshal—or corruption, eitner-^-and you are welcome
to watch me as closely as you wish."
The Council meeting that evening was straightforward. Paks, seconded by Mal, gave her account of
the attack. Sir Felis reported his interview with the captured robbers, and turned over a list of
the captured arms and other valuables. Paks was asked why she had not entered and explored the
keep, but accepted her explanation without surprise or comment. Even the Master Stonemason seemed
content. They argued a bit over the arms, and finally awarded her a third of their value.
Hebbinford recommended mat the black horse be given to her outright, and after some discussion it
was done. No one mentioned the master-thief that Ambros, Arvid, and even Sir Fells believed to be
still lurking in the ruins.
Afterwards, Ambros, Paks, Mal, Sir Felis, and Arvid all
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gathered at the grange. Arvid lagged behind them, and when they were all sitting down in the
chairs Ambros fetched from the Marshal's study, he lounged against the door.
"I have endured quite a bit of your suspicion," he said calmly. "I think perham I should tell you
precisely what I'm doing here—though I should prefer mat you don't tell everyone else."
"Why not?" asked Sir Felis, looking grim.
"Because I can be a great help to you," said Arvid. "If you choose to spread my feme too widely,
I'll simply leave."
"Well, then?"
Arvid looked pointedly at Ambros. "The yeoman-marshal is the one I'd like to speak to. Will you,
young sir, swear to say nothing of my guild or mission?"
"I—I don't know." His hand was on his medallion. "If you're evil—"
"Evil!" Arvid laughed. "Sir, I am not what you would call good, but I serve no evil deity—that I
will swear, and on your Relic, if you demand it." He looked at Paks. "I am no more evil than this
warrior—she is not Girdish, nor am I, but we have both spilled robbers' blood today alongside your
yeomen."
Ambros flushed. "I will keep your secrets, sir, as long as they do not dishonor Gird. But as to
that, I will be the judge."
"Fair enough. I trust the honor of the Fellowship of Gird." Arvid glanced around, gathering all
their eyes on him. "Now: some of you—and many others—have thought I was a thief. I am not. I am,
'however, acquainted with die Thieves Guild." He paused, and the silence thickened. "I am, in
fact, on a mission for them at this time."
"And you ask me, a yeoman-marshal of Gird, to keep silence?" Ambros jumped up. Arvid's hand rested
on his sword.
"Wait, sir. Hear me out. Your own yeomen will tell you I was happy enough to attack robbers this
morning; I am no thief myself. The situation is more complicated than that." He waited until
Ambros was seated again, and then
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pulled a chair near the door for himself. "Now, be attentive. The Thieves Guild, however little
you like its craft, is hke any guild designed to keep the craftsman in order. As for as its power
runs, and that is far, it controls not merely the theft but also the sale of stolen goods. Some
time ago, the Guild Headquarters in Verella realized that caravans were being robbed near here—and
their goods appeared distantly, sold without Guild authority. Or taxation." He looked around to be
sure they were all listening. "Yon see the problem. It could not be permitted to continue. A
renegade thief is a danger not only to you, but to other thieves. The Guild Council determined to
find out who was responsible. They sent—investigators, I suppose you could call them. Your amiable
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of town. Yet another disappeared entirely. So at last," he smiled at them all, "they sent me."
"And you are?" asked Sir Felis in a low growl.
"I am, as I said, Arvid Semminson. A man hired to find the false thief in charge of this
operation, and either force him into the Guild, with full payment of dues and fines owed, or kill
him."
"But you're not a thief."
"Oh, no. Never. Or at least, let's say that I am not presently in need of anything which it would
be worth my while to steal. And I have no joy in theft, as some of our weaker members have. I have
stolen a few items in my time—I suppose most people have—but does it mate this lady a thief that
she stole a ham in Aarenis while in flight from Siniava?"
Paks was amazed that he knew about that—then remembered that she had mentioned "uncle's"
establishment to the Marshal and Ambros. The others looked at her for a moment, a little confused
by the change of emphasis.
Of course not," barked Sir Felis. "But—"
"What I am saying, Sir Felis, is that I want this ringleader dead as much, if not more, than you
do. It was obvious at once to me that the robbers we captured were not in charge. They had not
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goods anywhere—they were poorly dressed and dull of wit. Whoever has been running this operation
is not stupid. So we all have an enemy still at large—an enemy, moreover, who knows that we know
where he's hiding— and who is responsible for his defeat. 1 think he's powerful, and probably
either a magician or something worse—he probably spelled those poor men to keep them in his
power.'
"How would you know about that?"
"Please—I am a man of experience in the world. All kinds of experience. Why should I not know of
wizardry, and the greed of those who live by it? And, for that matter, something of the evil ones,
as well. I judge we must move quickly against the ringleader, before he can gather new forces. I
can help you—I am a skilled fighter, and I have other skills that you will find helpful.
Underground in that old keep, for instance, you would find me a good tracker, and wary of traps.
If you choose to let him go, you will shortly find that he is more powerful and dangerous—even
deadly—to this whole community."
"I thought of that," said Ambros suddenly. "I was telling Paks—if it's a priest of Achrya, say,
then we must move quickly. Every day may be important."
"Well, we can't do anything until the Marshal comes back," said Sir Felis. "You can't hope to go
against anything like that by yourself, Ambros."
"I don't know when hell be back, Sir Felis. He said I wasn't to go chasing robbers, that's
true—but this is different"
"I don't see that. Orders are orders."
Ambros sat up straight. "Sir Felis, with all respect, my orders come from Gird, as well as Marshal
Cedfer."
Paks saw a gleam of satisfaction in Arvid's eyes. Sir Felis shook his head stubbornly.
"It wouldn't be the first time a junior officer thought he had divine guidance when he was simply
aching for an adventure. I tell you, Ambros, that you're a fool if you tackle Achrya with a thief
and a mercenary for aid." He gave Paks a hard look. "Assuming you're thinking of going with him. I
think you're honest, but—"
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Paks felt a burst of anger. "Sir Felis, if you have cause for that—"
"No. All right, I'll admit you've done well so far—I said it earlier. But you're all young, and
like any young fighters, you've got the sense of a clatter of colts. Wait for the Marshal, Ambros.
Don't drag others into your romantic dream." Sir Felis pushed himself up and made for the door,
pausing beside Arvid. "And you, master thief-not-a-thief, if you push that boy into rash action,
I'll not forget who started it."
"Sir Felis," said Arvid coolly, Til "not forget who was unwilling to root out the deepest evil."
He moved aside from the door, as Sir Felis spat where his feet had been and went out.
Chapter Sixteen
Arvid's black-clothed form seemed to melt into the shadows as they moved farther away from the
stairway, where a dim light came from above. Paks felt a tightness in her chest. Slie did not like
dark underground places, and wondered for a moment why she had agreed to come. Ambros nudged her
in the back. She waved a hand at him, and took another careful step. Another. Surely it was


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ridiculous to come on something like this with only six, one of them an untried junior yeoman, an
eager girt who would be all too likely to do something silly trying to prove herself. Arvid
signalled, a wave of his arm, and Paks moved lightly toward him. He was the scout, accustomed, he
said, to noticing traps. Paks, the most experienced sword fighter, came second. After her, Suli
and Ambros together. Paks hoped the yeoman-marshal would be steadied by steadying the junior
yeoman. Mal brought up the rear with Jori, a friend of his.
"Door/ said Arvid quietly in her ear. "I'll try it. Hinges right. Swings out." Paks flattened
herself to the left of the door; she saw a gleam of teeth as Arvid smiled. He ran his hands over
the door for a moment, then did something
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Paks could not see to the lock. A nod of satisfaction; he drew his own blade and slowly pulled the
door open. Paks waited, ready to strike. Nothing happened. She craned her neck and looked. Within
was deeper blackness. A sour smell wafted out, a stench like old rotting leaves and bones. Arvid
put his sword through the door. Nothing. With a shrug, he leaned around the frame, poking at the
darkness as if it were a pillow.
"Light?^ asked Ambros softly. He had come quite close.
"Not yet. It makes a target of us."
"Yes, but we aren't cats—"
"Quiet. Wait." Arvid had told them their main danger at this level would be haste. Make a noise,
he had said, clatter around like a horse fair, and our quarry will be ready for us. Paks waited,
trying to see into the darkness by force of will. Spots danced before her eyes. Gradually she
found she could see a little better. The room ahead was clearly a room—all shades of darkness, but
smaller than the banquet hall above them. She tried to see if anything lurked in it. It seemed as
if something—a pile of something—obscured the floor, but without light she could not tell.
"Go now," said Arvid, in Pak's ear. Together they moved under the lintel, separating at once on
die inside to flatten against the inner wall. The others waited outside.
In here the smell was stronger. Paks wrinkled her nose, trying to decide what it was. It
smelled—meatier, she decided. Rotting straw, bones, meat, and something like the inside of a dirty
boot. She shook her head, trying to clear it, but the smell seemed stronger every second. Arvid
sniffed, a tiny sound she could hear clearly.
"That smell—" she heard from outside. She thought it was Mal.
"Quiet," said Ambros. Paks stood still, trying to hear anything past the pulse in her ears.
"Well go forward five paces," said Arvid quietly, "and then if nothing happens, well try a light."
Paks heard the scrape of his boot on the stone flags as he took the first step, and moved with
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three—and she stumbled over something, staggering on soft, springy, uneven footing. A yelp got out
before she closed her throat; Ambros behind her scraped flint on steel at once. As the spark
caught, that little light showed that she'd caught her foot on the edge of a pile of garbage.
Dirty straw, old clothes, leftover bones chewed clean, a broken pot—she started to laugh with
relief. Ambros's candle seemed brighter than she'd expected. She turned to Arvid; his eyes were
wide with surprise.
"Just trash," she said, waving her sword at the heap. It was half her height, and easily three
times her length. "They must have—"
Part of Ae pile heaved up—and up—a vast hairy shoulder topped by an equally hairy and vast face. A
rheumy eye glared at her from under shaggy brows. And the mourn opened on a double row of very
sharp teeth. By reflex, Paks struck at the arm that swiped down from the darkness. Her sword bit
into it, slicing deep, but the arm's strength nearly cost her the grip. A deep bellow split the
air, and the entire pile shuddered. Paks nearly lost her footing as die creature trampled its bed
and attacked.
She had no tune to wonder what it was. Taller, broader, and apparently stronger, than any human,
it had roughly a human shape. Heavy pelt over thick skin—it turned Ambros's first stroke—4ong arms
ending in clawed hands, and a surpassingly ugry face—Paks noticed these without trying to classify
them. Its deep-voiced bellows shook the air around them.
"Get back, Ambros!" cried Arvid. "Keep the light—this thing can see in the dark."
Ambros made a noise, but moved back. Suli had come up beside Paks, and was doing a creditable job
with her sword—except that she couldn't penetrate the thick hide. Paks had wounded the creature
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in a quick glance, was trying to attack its flank, but it was quick—he couldn't seem to get a
killing blow in. Paks had just begun to wonder where Mal and his friend were, when she saw him
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the creature to its back. Once there, he swung his big axe in a mighty arc and sank it into the
creature's back. It screamed, a hoarse, high-pitched sound, deafening in that space.
"The axe does it," he yelled. "It's got—" But tHe creature heaved backwards; Faks heard the axe-
haft smack into something, and Mal grunted. She jumped forward, unsteady on the piled trash, and
sank her sword deep in its belly. Now it lurched forward, bending. She dodged. Ar-vid got a stroke
in on its left arm, Mal pulled the axe out of its back and swung again, this time higher. It went
to its knees, moaning. Paks aimed a blow at the neck, and blood spurted out, drenching her arm.
Still writhing, it sank to a heap, its eyes filming.
"So much for silence and caution," said Arvid tartly, when they had caught their breath. Mal and
Suli had lit candles now as well, and they all took a close look at what they had killed. Half
again as tall as Paks, and heavily built, it was like nothing she had ever seen.
"What is it?" she asked, wiping blood off her hands and face. The blood had an odd smell, and
tasted terrible. Ambros shook his head. Arvid looked at her.
"I'm not sure, Paks, but it might be a hool. I've never seen one myself, but I've heard."
"Ahooir
"Big, tough, stupid, dirty, likes to lair underground. If you can imagine a solitary giant ore—"
"I thought hools were water giants," said Ambros.
Arvid shrugged. "Maybe I'm wrong. Whatever it is, it's dead. And we have just announced ourselves
to the entire underground."
"I never did think trying to sneak in was a good idea," said Ambros. "Gird is not subtle."
Arvid raised one brow, and smiled. "No. That's why I'm not a Girdsman. But don't worry—you'll have
every chance for a suicidal frontal assault now."
Paks had been poking gingerly through the trash heap that the creature had laired on. A copper
armband gleamed; she picked it up. "Look. This is human-size."
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"Hmm. Not worth much," said Arvid.
"No, but—I wouldn't have thought the robbers would throw it away."
"That's true. I—" Suddenly he stopped. They had all heard the sound: a rhythmic pounding, not
loud, but distinct. Paks looked around. In flickering candlelight, the room was large, dim in the
comers. A doorway opened across from the way they'd come in, and another door, closed and barred,
centered the right-hand wall. Other-. wise the room seemed empty.
"It's that door—the closed one," said Mal. He wrenched his axe free of the creature's backbone and
started for it. Paks was there first, sword drawn. Arvid and Mal levered the heavy bars up and
threw them aside. Then they pulled the door open.
Candlelight showed a small room, hardly more than a cell. A gnome, one shoe off", was poised by
the door; his shoe was in his hand, where he'd been pounding the door. Another gnome lay on the
bare stone floor, covered in cloaks.
The standing gnome nodded stiffly and put his shoe back on. Then he addressed Paks in gnomish. She
shook her head, and he frowned, then spoke in clipped accented Common.
"It is that you lead this rescue? Or do you claim us prisoners?"
"I—" Paks looked sideways at Arvid. He spoke.
"Lady Paksenarrion commanded us for the capture of the robbers, and now we have come to see what
else hides in this keep."
The gnome bowed from the waist, and met Paks's eyes as he stood upright. "It shall be that you
have the reward of the Aldonfulk, lady. For this indeed shall value be given. It is that our
partner of Lyonya is eaten by that monster, true?"
"We haven't seen him," said Paks, thinking of the arm-ring with a shudder. "Is that what you think
happened?"
"It took him. It seemed hungry. We heard cries. We could see nothing; I will not say what happened
when I have not knowledge, but that is logical."
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"Is your friend hurt?" The gnome on the floor had not moved.
"Only slightly—he was hit by arrow of robbers. He sleeps to gain strength."
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death of one companion and the wounds of another, the gnome was calm and matter-of-fact. He turned
to the other, gnome, and spoke loudly in gnomish. Paks could not understand a word of it. She
looked around to see if the others did, but they looked as blank as she felt. The gnome on the
floor stirred, and opened his eyes.
"Surely you are hungry or thirsty," said Paks, counting how many days they'd been imprisoned. "We
have water and food."
The response was less than she'd expected; the un-wounded gnome nodded and came forward. "It is
not so bad as you thought. The robbers brought food the first day or so. They fed the creature
something too. Then they were gone. Then we had nothing. You wOl take us back to Brewersbridge?"
Paks handed him her water flask; the gnome uncapped it carefully and carried it to the other, who
drank a few swallows. Then the first gnome drank. "We need not so much food as you," he said,
returning the flask. "If you take us now—"
"But we haven't found the priest," said Ambros.
"Priest?" asked the gnome.
"We believe that a servant of Achrya is nearby—perhaps deep in this place—and directed the
robbers."
"Oh." The gnomes looked at each other. "It is a matter for humans. We are not daskdusky, to search
after the webspinner's lair. If return to Brewersbridge, the return of your favor will be
granted."
"We might as well," said Arvid. "We've lost all chance of surprise."
"And we can't leave these behind us," said Paks. "They can't defend themselves, with one of them
wounded, and weakened as they are. We should get them to safety."
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"I agree," said Mal. He had a large swelling bruise across his forehead. Paks realized that the
axe-haft must have hit him on the face. "I don't know as I can fight as good as most days." Ambros
looked at him in surprise, then concern. His voice seemed slurred.
"Will your friend need to be carried?" asked Paks.
The ^gnome bowed again, and gave Paks a small tight smile. ' It is generous of the lady to think
of that. If it is possible, he should not walk so far."
In the end, they came back to Brewersbridge that same evening, with the two gnomes alive and well,
and clear evidence of the human trader's death. Ambros and Mal hacked off the creature's right
hand and an ear as proof of what they'd found. The gnomes took rooms at the Jolly Potboy—they were
well known enough that Hebbinford trusted their credit. Paks, her clothes still stained with
blood, found Suh dogging her every step.
"Did I—I mean, I couldn't get through the hide, but did I do all right otherwise? I didn't scream,
or anything—"
Paks felt tired. "No. You did fine, Suli—I said that—"
"Yes, but—you are going back, aren't you? You'll let me come? And I can take your clothes, now,
and get Sevri to wash them— "
"No!" It came out harsher than she meant it, and Suli looked worried. Not frightened, Paks
noticed, but worried.
^But—"
"Sevri has her own duties—she's not a washing maid. I'll do it; any soldier learns to keep her own
gear clean." Paks could see that this was not pleasant news to Suli. She nodded, remembering her
own feelings during training. "I told you before, Suli—being a warrior's not what you thought.
Most of it is like this—cleaning gear, and keeping weapons in trim, and practice. If you don't do
it yourself, you can't be sure it's done right."
The girl nodded, and leaned against the wall, evidently planning to stay until she was tossed out.
"Your own sword, for instance," said Paks severely. "Have you inspected it yet? Is it clean? Have
you taken care of any nicks or dents? It's the grange's sword—you should return it in perfect
condition.'
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Suli reddened, and pulled it from the scabbard—sticky with drying blood and hair.
"Go clean that," said Paks. "When you've got all the blood off, then polish it, and clean the
scabbard. If you leave all that muck in the scabbard, then—"
"But how?" asked Suli. "It's inside, and—"
Paks took the scabbard and looked. Unlike hers, this one was a simple wood casing, pegged in
several places and glued along the edges. The upper end was notched for attachment to a belt.
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limber switch, and scrub inside with that. Then run clean water in and out of it. That should do.
Set it in a cool place to dry— don't put the sword back inside, or it'll rust. If it smells clean
tomorrow, you're done. Otherwise you may have to take it apart."
"Seems a lot of trouble, just to get a bloodstain off," grumbled Suli. Paks glared at her, sure
now of her ground.
"Trouble! You don't know what trouble is, until you leave something to rot in your scabbard, and
then nick yourself with duty steel" She remembered the surgeons talking about wound fever, and
poisoned weapons. "It's the way some tribes of ores poison weapons, Suli. Store 'em in rotting
flesh and blood." She was glad to see the girl turn green and turn to go without further argument.
"Check with Ambros at the grange later this evening— you 11 need to pick up another scabbard, and
he can tell you where and when to meet us."
"Yes, Paks," said Suli, subdued.
Paks had just finished cleaning up, with her wet clothes hanging behind the kitchen, and her wet
hair stifl chilly on her head, when Hebbinford came to tell her the gnomes wanted a word with her.
"Why?" she asked.
"Gird knows," he said. "Being as it's gnomes, it's some trading matter, I'd say. Remember that
they're as full of pride as bees of sting—and as quick with it, too. ITiey don't like jokes, and
they don't like someone misjudging them
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on their size. Gnomes see everything as exchange—good for j*ood, and blow for blow. They don't do
favors, but they re perishing fair, if you can understand their idea of fair. And they never
forget anything, to the ends of the world."
"Oh." Paks hoped they would understand ordinary courtesy as courtesy.
Both gnomes were seated before the fire in one of Hebbinford's private rooms when Hebbinford
announced her. One jumped up and bowed. Paks made a sketchy bow in return. She thought she could
see a gleam of satisfaction in that flat dark eye.
"Master Hebbinford if you would bring ale." The gnome gestured to a chair, and Paks sat; he
returned to his own seat. His speech lacked the pauses and music of human language; Paks found it
hard to follow, even though the words were pronounced correctly. "Is it that you were hired for
our rescue?"
"No," said Paks, "not exactly."
"Then this rescue was in hope of reward?"
"No—what is it?"
"That is what I try to find out. For what service were you hired, if not for our rescue?"
Paks wondered how much she should say of the Brewers-bridge Council's afiairs. "Sir—pardon, if I
do not know the correct address—" He took her up at once.
"Lady, it is our mistake. We thought you would not care to be precise. I am Master-trader Addo
Verkinson Aldonfulk, sixth son of my father's house: the polite address in Common would be Master-
trader Addo Aldonfiilk, or Master Addo if in haste. This my companion is journeyman-trader Ebo
Gnaddison Gnarrinfulk, the fourth son of my father's third sister: he should be styled Journeyman
Ebo. And thine own naming?"
"Master-trader Addo—" Paks got that far before losing track. The gnome nodded anyway.
"That will do."
"—I am Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter, of Three Firs—"
"Three Firs is thy clan?"
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"No, Master-trader Addo, it is the place of my father's dwelling." Paks found her own speech
becoming both stilted and formal.
"Ah. We know that some humans have no clans." He paused as Hebbinford himself returned with a
large flagon of ale and three tankards. "Be welcome to ale as the guest of Aldonfiilk,
Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter; no obligation is dune for partaking of this gift."
Paks stared, then caught her wits back. "I thank you, Master-trader Addo." She took the tankard he
offered, and sipped cautiously. "You asked of my employment, sir. The Council of Brewersbridge
has, as you may know, a policy against idle swordsmen in the town."
The gnome nodded. "An excellent policy. Human towns are too lawless as it is and human vagabonds
cause trouble. We allow no masterless humans in the gnome kingdoms."
Paks reddened, but went on. "Master-trader Addo, the Council examined me, and decided that I might
stay some time, but they asked a favor."
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She remembered Hebbinford's warning. "Sir, my—my „ vows are to another; I am traveling from
Aarenis to the far north." That seemed safe enough. The gnome relaxed in his chair. "But they
asked my aid in finding the hiding place of a band of robbers—the same who attacked you— and asked
that I lead a force against them if I could find them."
"And what pay did they offer for this?"
"Well—that I could stay longer than they would otherwise allow, and the use of a horse, and a
share of goods recovered from die hideout, if there were any."
"Hmmph." The gnome chattered in gnomish with his companion. Paks could not tell how old they were,
or if die journeyman were younger than the master. They had earth-brown, unwrinkled faces, and
thick dark hair. Addo turned back to Paks. "It seems little payment for an uncertain task. How
many days were you bound to stay and work at it?"
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"No time was set. But I had money enough, and reason to dislike brigands."
"Hmm. And after our caravan was taken did they say aught about rescue?"
'No, Master-trader Addo. It was thought you had been lolled with the others. One man escaped to
tell of the attack. Many bodies were found,"
"I see. Why then were you in the keep? To look for goods?"
"No. The robbers we captured said that someone else took over the goods. Ambros, die yeoman-
marshal, thinks it is a priest of Achrya. Arvid Semminson says die goods are being sold at a
distance."
"And you did not expect to find us."
"No, sir. But we were glad to find any diat had survived."
Another conversation in gnomish. Paks finished the ale in her tankard, and thought about pouring
another. But she felt constrained to wait until it was offered. Finally Addo turned to her again.
"If you did not come and search the keep would anyone else have come?"
"No, Master-trader Addo. Most people around here think it is bad luck."
"Superstition. Luck is a fallacy of humans; things either are or are not. That creature who ate
our companion—was it dangerous to armed men?"
"Yes, sir. It was very large, and fought well; it took several of us to loll it."
"It is true you command this force?"
Paks frowned. "I would not want to mislead you, sir. I was asked to command, and did command, the
force which killed and captured die robbers themselves. Today's foray was not entirely my
idea—yeoman-marshal Ambros insisted that it must be made at once. But because I have experience, I
was at the head of the party."
Addo shook his head. "Even among humans, one must take command, and be responsible for all—I ask
again if that was you or another. If another who would it be?"
"I—in diat way, sir, you could say I commanded." Paks
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thought it was not too great a boast—they had followed her orders, such as they were.
"You are not boastful as many human fighters are," he commented; she wondered if he could read her
thoughts. "It is important to know who commands. It is the person the clans owe thanks to." He
took a ring off his finger, and reached out to her. "At this time we have been robbed; we have
nothing. But this is in earnest of your just claim on Aldonfulk and Gnarriniulk; it shall be
redeemed fairly, on my word as Master-trader." Paks took the ring; it was black, like iron, and
heavy. She nodded, wondering what to say.
"I thank you, Master-trader Addo Aldonfulk—and Journeyman Ebo."
"It is but right. You had no obligation; you had not been hired for this task. I ask your trust
that this will be redeemed."
"Master-trader Addo, you have that trust. But I would free anyone from such captivity—"
"Oh?"
"It is right—"
"You have an obligation to a god? Are you sworn to such deeds, then?" He looked almost as if he
might ask for the ring back.
"No, sir," said Paks. "But I serve the gods of my father s house, and they oppose evil."
"Umph. That is well, to stand with tradition. And such belief does not interfere with our owing.
Keep the ring, Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter. You returned our lives."
"It was my pleasure to do so." Paks sat a moment; the gnomes were silent. "Would you," she
ventured, "be my guest for another flagon of ale? With—with no obligation?^' Both gnomes nodded.
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be thy guests."
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grunted; he was purple from hairline to jaw where the axe-haft had caught him, and he breathed
noisily. f "I wouldn't have said it before, yeoman-marshal, but I'm still head-thick from this,
and I don't trust my speed. A thick eye's bad enough in daylight."
"Then you can stay," said Ambros tartly. "I've other yeomen."
Mal sighed loudly. "By Gird's arm, Ambros, I'm willing enough, but—"
"Mal, I can't wait. I can't. Something bad is going on here—I have to deal with it."
"Ambros, we did well by scouting around before attacking the robbers," said Paks. "Why not look
for the place where the goods are moving out? That might be a better way in." She was thinking of
the tunnel at Rotengre.
"No." Ambros shook his head stubbornly. "It takes too long—let the priest think we were frightened
back by that monster. It's a door-guard, I imagine."
"Certainly so," said Arvid.
"Then, when he knows we've killed it but have gone away, he may be careless for a space. A short
space, in which we must strike."
Arvid looked at him curiously. "Are you angry, yeoman-marshal, that I bade you stay back with the
light?'
"I was," said Ambros frankly. "Then I realized that you had to have light to fight. This time
we'll let another carry . the flint—and another be prepared to light candle or torch for us as
it's needed. Now—to plans."
The gnomes had told Paks die little they knew of the keep. Tney had seen only the passage and
stairs which Paks had used. When one of the robbers banged on the door, a shuddering howl had
arisen, and shortly after that six armed men in dark clothes had opened it from within, taken the
prisoners, and shoved them in the cell. The gnomes thought these were the robber chiefs servants
or personal guard. Ambros suspected they were servants of whatever power had snared the fugitives
and forced them to banditry.
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worse. TTie dead creature was already swarming with vermin—in die light of the candles, a flurry
of rats scattered away, squeaking. Beyond, the open doorway gaped. Again, Paks and Arvid were in
the lead. Ambros had found six yeomen to come with them, including Mal. Two of them carried
lighted candles. Suli followed Paks closely.
Beyond the empty doorway, a passage sloped downhill, its rough stone floor heavy with dust churned
by many feet. Paks could see and hear nothing. She glanced at Arvid.    M,
"Let me lead," he said quietly. "Stay close, but don t pass me, and be ready to stop on my signal.
It's the very place for some trap. He stepped forward. Paks waited until he was three paces ahead,
and then followed. The passage went on for twenty paces—twenty more—then Arvid stopped. Paks
caught his hand signal and froze in her tracks. Suli bumped her from behind. The others' footsteps
seemed loud. Then silence, as they all stood still. Arvid was touching the side walls lightly. He
looked back at Paks, and gestured her forward—one step. She took it. He pointed at ttre floor. She
could see nothing, until he pointed again. A slight ridge in the dust, a ripple she would never
have noticed. Where the feet had passed it, she could see an edge of stone.
"It's the trigger," he said softty. "If someone steps on that, then—" he pointed up. "That will
fall." In the dimness overhead, Paks could make out a dark slit, and shining points. "A
portcullis. It probably makes a noise, as well. There should be a safety block on one side,
though, if they carry heavy goods through here. Ah-h." Paks couW not see what he did, but a small
block of stone suddenly slid out of die wall a handsbreadth. "That should do it We might want to
come out this way in a hnny. Meanwhile, make sure no one steps on the trigger stone."
Paks passed this information along, and everyone stepped carefully over the ridge. Arvid had gone
on. He disarmed another such trap thirty paces farther on. "I expect," he said quietly to Paks,
"that both would close together, and open arrow-slits in the walls as well. But we shall hope not
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to find out. " After that, Paks kept her eyes roving on all sides, trying to spot traps — but she
missed the next, after the passage turned and dipped steeply. Arvid halted at the top of the
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"If you step on the trigger of a chute trap," he said, "it tips up and dumps you in someone's pot
— or prison cell. Its die same. We're meant to go on—but you don't see footprints in that dust, do
you?"
"No — but it's been disturbed — "
"Umm. More like something's been dragged on it. They may use it for the caravan goods — saves
carrying. I'd rather arrive on my feet. We need another door."
Paks could see nothing but stone-walled passage. Arvid went over every stone with his long
fingertips. Toe others fidgeted; Paks shushed them. Finally he tapped one section of wall and
smiled. "This is the entrance. Hie trouble is that I don't know what's on the other side. They may
have a guard right there — in which case, we're in trouble. It may be trapped to sound an alarm —
I can't tell. But I judge it's a safer way down than that." He nodded at die chute.
"Well — we have to try something," said Paks. "Can you tell which way it opens?"
"No. I don't think it will rotate, tike an ordinary door. It should either come forward or sink
in, and then slide sideways. I can't tell which." He looked at her, challenging. Paks was
determined to figure it out for herself.
"Well, then — you're the one who can open it. Ill cover you, on your left side. The rest of you
move three paces back and stay flat against this wall — you won't get hit by arrows, if there's an
archer, and you can see how it works. Shield the candles with your hands, in case of a strong
draft. Anything else?" She looked at Arvid. He shook his head.
"You've a feel for this, lady," he said.
She heard a click as he worked the mechanism. The stone before him sank back; feint light came
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gap. Soundlessly the stone slid to the left. Behind it was a landing; stairs went down to the
left, where the light brightened, and up to the right. Across the landing was an alcove; four
cross-bows hung from pegs. Paks moved quickly through the opening, and looked both ways. Nothing.
She signed to Arvid, who nodded and motioned the others in. He did something to the touchstone
lock, and murmured that he hoped he d jammed it open. His eyes slid to the crossbows. Paks quickly
cut their strings. The two quivers of bolts she simply took and tied to her belt.
Down toward the light they crept, stair by stair. Halfway down, Paks could see that a passage led
away ahead and another to the right. She motioned those behind her to the right-hand wafl of the
stair. Now she could see a door, closed, at the foot of the stairs to the left. Arvid stayed in
the lead, one stair before her. At the foot, he stopped a long moment to scan the passage ahead
and the foot of the stair itself. Hie forward passage ended in another closed door not twenty
paces away, heavy wood bound with iron. Neither hinges nor bars showed on this side. The light
they had seen came from torches in brackets on both sides of the passage: four ahead, and
obviously more to the right. The flame-tips bent toward the left-hand door, and even on the stairs
Paks could feel die draft that kept the air fresh.
Arvid put the tip of his sword past the corner. Nothing happened. Very slowly he eased his face to
the comer. Paks waited, feeling her heart race. He drew back, and motioned her back a step. Then
he spoke softly in her ear. "It goes twenty-thirty paces, then turns left. Wide enough for four
fighters. Torch every four paces. Mark on floor, good for bow."
"Run it," suggested Paks.
"Only way," he agreed. "Got to be quiet and fest." Paks did not see how they could all be fest and
silent, but she told the others. Ambros and another yeoman moved up beside her; she told Suli to
stay in the second rank.
They started off at a quick jog, as quietly as possible. Paks saw the pale stripes on the floor,
four of them, and stepped over the first. Then she heard a noise from some-
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where ahead, and leaped into full speed, the others with her. Four crossbowmen appeared at the far
end of die passage; the first flight of crossbow bolts whirred by. Paks heard a yelp from behind;
something clicked on her helmet. Behind them four more, shooting even as the first four dropped
their bows and leaped forward with shortsword in hand. Paks did not hesitate; it would be suicide
to stop in that bare passage. She reached the first swordsmen before they were set in position;
Arvid and Ambros were hardly behind her, and they forced the line back into the others. Now all
eight defenders had dropped their bows. Paks had never faced a shortsword formation with a
longsword. She found herself fighting as if she had her Company weapon. At least they didn t have
shields—she smiled as her sword went home in one of them. He folded over, to lie curled on the
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had downed another. The first man down tried to stab at her legs; Paks edged by, and Suli got him
in the throat. Paks and Arvid were one step ahead of Ambros and the yeoman. Paks was beginning to
dunk they might get through without too much trouble when four more men appeared.
"BlastI" said Arvid. "I'd hoped this was the first wave."
Paks said nothing, fighting her way forward a step at a tune. She was beginning to use the
longsword more freely, with effect. Another man went down before her, and those behind seemed less
eager to engage. But the noise in the passage was considerable. Ambros was yelling Girdish
slogans, as was the yeoman; each had now defeated his man, and they were back in line. The clash
of steel rang from the walls.
Then the torches went out as if they'd been dipped in water. Paks felt something rake across her
torso; the mail held. She thrust hard ahead of her, and heard someone grunt, then sigh. She shook
the weight off her blade and thrust again. Nothing.
"Arvid?" she asked.
"Here." His voice beside her was calm. She wasn't.
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Ambros cursed, off to Arvid's right. Paks could hear heavy breathing in front of them somewhere.
She moved forward a step, and her boot landed on something soft and moving. She kicked, hard, and
stepped back.
"Light," said Ambros testily. She could hear die scrape of flint and steel, but saw no spark.
"You want light, servant of Gird?" came a silky voice out of the dark ahead. "I thought you
Girdsmen claimed the knowledge of lightspells."
Paks tried again to move toward the voice, but Arvid grabbed her arm. She froze in place. She
could sense that he was fumbling in his cloak. As her eyes adjusted to the darkness, she could
tell that somewhere around the bend torches were still burning—vague shapes stood out against that
dim glow. She could not tell how many. If they were reloading crossbows—if they had spears—we're
crazy to stand here, she thought, like sheep in a chute. With a wild yell, she jumped forward, a
standing leap that took her to the first of the dark shapes. She heard Arvid's curse, the others
jumping after her. Her sword clashed against another, suddenly glowing blue. She heard other
weapons striking, and pressed her own opponent hard by instinct, since she could scarcely see. She
felt a blow on her shoulder, and another on the ribs. Her own blade flickered, a dancing blue
gleam that lit only its target. Something raked her free hand, burning like fire or ice. She shook
it, still fencing.
Their surprise attack brought them around the turn of the passage, over bodies now crumpled
beneath the fighters. Ahead was a short stretch with a door to die right. Against the golden glow
from that door stood a tall, slender robed figure. They were within four paces of it, when that
same smooth voice spoke, a word Paks had not heard before. Her muscles slackened, as if she had
been hit in the head; she nearly dropped her sword. Arvid fell back a pace. Even Ambros stopped
where he was, and dropped the tip of his blade. The defenders leaped forward.
"Gird!" cried Ambros, in that instant. Paks felt her body come alive again; she covered Arvid's
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ate lunge, and took a glancing blow on her helmet. Suli pushed past Arvid, throwing a quick glance
at Paks, and lunged at the man before her. Paks had time to notice that she was indeed quick, and
quite good. Then the defenders retreated past the door, and turned to run. Paks faced the doorway.
It was empty.
Within, the steady glow of lamplight revealed a chamber hung with rich tapestries in brilliant
colors. In the center of the chamber stood a handsome young man in long black velvet robes edged
with black fiir. He smiled at them, and held out empty hands.
"Don't you think you re being discourteous?" he asked. His voice was mellow as old ale. "It is
friendlier to announce oneself, don't you think?"
"You—!" began Ambros. Paks noticed Suli edging forward and plucked at her sleeve. Suli turned,
frowning, but obeyed when Paksgestured her back. "Spawn of Achrya," Ambros went on. The man
laughed easily.
"Alas, young sir yeoman-marshal of Gird, I am not Achrya's spawn—if I were, you might have found
another welcome. Tis true I have done her some service, but— what is that to thee?"
"I am the yeoman-marshal—"
"Yes, of Brewersbridge. This is not Brewersbridge. This is my keep, and you have broken in,
attacking and killing my men—and you are not even the Marshal. It's not your grange."
"It is. It was left in my care. And you—corrupting men, robbing caravans, killing and


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looting—Gird's teeth, it's my business!" Ambros took a step forward, toward the doorway.
"So you really think a yeoman-marshal of Gird is a match for me? Or are you relying on your muscle-
bound women for protection^' Suli lunged forward, and Paks caught her in the midriff with a stiff
elbow. Suli gasped, and Paks spoke over her shoulder.
"Don't be a fool, he's trying to anger us. Stay back,"
The man looked directly at her. Something about his gaze warned her, and she dropped her eyes.
"My," he said sweetly, "a wise head rules that magic sword. Perhaps
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ni are not what you seem, eh? I had heard of a strange y swordfighter in Brewersbridge—a veteran
of Phefen's Company, they said, who left because she would not see evil done. Is that you, then?"
Paks fought back a surge of rage that roared in her ears and threatened to haze her vision.
"Defeated that elven mage, and freed the ehane taig, that's what I heard. Near enough a paladin, I
should think—not a Girdsman yet, what a shame—it that is, you defeat me. Do you think to defeat
me, pretty one?"
Tnis too Paks ignored, fixing her gaze on his throat. She thought how she would like to sink her
sword in it. But she heard what he said. Near enough a paladin? The thought beckoned, like a
finger in the mist. But Arvid spoke up, having regained his position beside her.
"You, sir, seem to have some power of enchantment, or why do we stand here speaking to you? For
me, I would see your blood on that handsome rug, and put an end to such delay." He moved forward a
handsbreadtn and stopped, as if he'd hit a wall.
"Enchantment? Yes, indeed. And, since you've robbed me of robbers and guards alike, I'm in need of
servants. You, I beh'eve, will do nicely. And the women; Achrya will be pleased if I interfere in
die growth of a paladin of Gird. I hope, indeed, to convert all of you. How pleasant it will be to
have spies in the grange of Brewersbridge."
"No! By Gird!" Ambros leaped forward, sword high. Paks shook herself, suddenly alert to her
musings, and followed him. She was not surprised to see a sword appear in the man's hand, a dagger
in the other. Ambros met the sword with his own, narrowly missing a dagger thrust. Paks came in on
the Achryan's sword side. She turned his blade and thrust. Her blade seemed to stick la his robes;
she jerked it free with an effort. Meanwhile his Made had raked her shoulder. She could feel the
links of mail along that track.
No one else came to join them. As the priest of Achrya turned, Paks had time for a quick glance
back. The others stood motionless, clearly unable to break free. Meanwhile the priest fought
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again and again. It seemed impossible to wound him. Every thrust that Paks thought went home
caught in his robes, and he fought on unhindered. She did not notice that he worked them toward a
comer of the room where dark blue velvet rose behind a carved black chair. He backed, backed
again, turned, and grabbed for the chair arm. Paks, hearing a rustle above, jerked back and looked
up. A tangled mass of black webbing fell down, catching her off balance. Where it touched her
clothes, they turned black, charring. She slashed at the cords, her sword hissing as it sliced
them. But they were tough and sticky; she could not free herself quickly.
Ambros had jumped forward, a long lunge at the priest, and the web caught only one foot. Before
the priest could strike, he had cut himself free. Now they fought behind the chair, great sweeps
of sword parting the air and ringing together.
"You might as well quit," the priest said. "You can't win now—two of you couldn't defeat me."
"Gird's grace," said Ambros between clenched teeth. "I won't quit—I will loll you."
"I think not, boy," said the priest with a smile. He made a gesture toward Ambros's face, and a
length of something gray flicked at him. Ambros blinked but kept fighting. "You're a stubborn
fool, boy—are you hunting your death?" Paks struggled with the web, hardly aware of the Company
curses she shouted. She could see the blisters rising on Ambros's face, like the mark of a fiery
whip. The priest spared her a look. "You won't get clear of that in a hurry, sweetling. Tis made
of Achrya's own webs. As is this—" He lashed once more at Ambros's face. The yeoman-marshal
screamed, one hand clawing at his face. "You see, boy, what you drive me to? Why will you not
submit?"
Somehow Ambros had kept hold of his sword; Paks could see that the blow had caught his eye. He
fought on, with less skill now, his movements jerky. Pales sawed frantically at the web, cursing
again when it touched her bare skin; it burned like fire. The priest said something, a
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string of words she did not know, and the web moved, shifting around her, so that the cut strands
were out of reach. Ambros called to her.
"Paks—<all on Gird! With me—" he gave a sharp cry of pain as the priest's gray whip touched him
again.
Paks opened her mouth to say something else, and found herself yelling "By the power of Gird
Strongarm, and the High Lord, and all the gods of right—" Ambros, too, was yelling, holding his
Girdish medallion now with one hand, as he flung himself on the priest. Light flared around them;
Paks could hardly see, in the flurry of movement, what happened. Then me web lay still around her,
and nothing moved in the heap of robes behind the chair. And die rest of the party, suddenly
freed, ran forward full of questions and noise.
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Suli grabbed the web strands that bound Paks, then yanked ner hand back as welts rose on her palm.
Arvid ran past Paks to look at Ambros and the priest.
"He's dead," he said shortly.
"Both?" asked Mal.
"Yes. Both." Arvid sighed, then turned back to help Paks and Suli hack the web apart. "Lady,
that's a dire trap you're caught in."
"I know." Paks was hardly able to speak for mingled anger and shame—Ambros was dead, and she had
not been able to fight. She kept cutting grimly, until finally she could step out of the wet). Her
domes were charred to rag^ and Arvid looted at her mail with respect.
fiat's . . . very good mail you're wearing."
"Yes—** Paks touched one of the burns on her fece gingerly, and went to look at Ambros's body. The
priest's gray lash had laced blistered welts across his fece. Together, she and Mal straightened
his body, wrapping his cloak around it. Arvid and the other yeoman stood watch at the door, but no
sound came from the corridor. Paks suspected that with their master dead, and his control broken,
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surface at once, or to deeper hiding places. Suli roamed the room idly, staring at the tapestries,
then stooped over the dead priest's body.
"Look at this," she said, lifting a silver chain around the dead priest's neck. "It's got—"
"Drop that!" Paks remembered the cleric of Achrya in Rotengre. "It's magic."
Suli looked startled, and dropped it less quickly than Paks intended. But nothing happened.
Paks could not define what she felt. She had not wanted to go back underground; she had not wanted
to meet another evil mage. But she liked Ambros, had gotten used to his cheerful face. When he
told her the dream, she felt his trust in her—and as always, gave trust for trust in return. In a
vague way she had hoped—and made herself believe—that what they might face under the keep was not
nearly so bad as the possessed elf-lord had been. She thought Ambros's dream was the dream of an
untried soldier, a recruit thinking too much of the coming battle.
Now he was dead. She had failed him. She, the seasoned soldier, had not been able to fight. The
untried recruit, die boy (as she thought of him), had fought on, alone, and died without her aid.
He was as dead as Macenion, as Saben, two others she had not saved. As she took the precautions
she knew to take—setting a watch, planning their return to the upper level—her mind was roiling
with confusion. Only after they were on their way did she start thinking what her position might
be. What Sir Felis would think. What the Marshal would think. What everyone would think, when
their yeoman-marshal was dead and the experienced fighter let herself be trapped in a net. She did
not know how grim her expression was until Arvid spoke.
"Lady? Do you foresee some trouble I do not? Your sorrow for the yeoman-marshal, yes, but—what
else?"
Paks shook her head. "I did it all wrong."
"All wrong?" Arvid looked at her with obvious surprise. "We went against a larger force, on their
ground, ana lost one dead and a few are wounded, and you think you did it
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all wrong? By Simyits' eyebrow, lady, we could all be dead."
"No thanks to me that we aren't."
"Nonsense. You forget that you fought that priest too. Quite well, I might add—and you were right
to jump ahead in the dark when you did. I only thought afterward that if flint and steel wouldn't
spark, then my oil flask probably wouldn't burn anyway. That young man died bravely, but not
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Paks shook her head, but felt a little better. The others said nothing, but smiled at her shyly
when she looked at diem and tried to smile herself. They were at ground level again when Arvid
beckoned her aside.
"I'll be saying farewell," he said with a smile. "Good luck to you, Lady Paksenarrion—you have the
makings of a great warrior. You're already a good one. Keep thinking on all sides of a question—"
"But what do you mean, are you going?"
"Yes."
"But why?"
"My work is done," he said with a shrug. "I was hired, as I said, to kill or convince the fellow
to join the Guild. In my judgement, he would have made a poor member, even if he had been willing
to join. I have seen him dead, and I have taken enough value to repay the Guild some of what it
lost by his unlicensed theft." Paks had not seen him take anything; while she was still sorting
that out, he dipped into a pocket and handed something to her. "Here—a gift for you. Unlike your
gnomish friends, I prefer to pay my debts at once." Paks felt a handful of small round objects
through the thin leather of her glove. "No—don't look now. Gratitude bores me. You see, I don't
think I'd like to explain everything to the Marshal—or have another talk with Sir Felis. You have
enough witnesses to your actions; I need none for mine, if I go now." He lifted her hand, still
clenched around his gift, to his lips; Paks had never seen or imagined such a gesture. Before she
could say anything, he had dropped it and moved lightly away, not
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looking back. She stuffed the handful, still unseen, into a pocket in her tunic, and turned to the
others.
"And if I say it's the most preposterous thing I've ever heard? Ambros, at his age, tojeo baring
off after a priest of Achrya! You, to let him—I" The Marshal, brows bristling in fury, strode back
and forth in the grange, hands thrust into his belt. Paks, Mal, and the other yeomen stood against
the wall; Ambros's body lay on the platform, still wrapped in his cloak.
"Marshal, if I may—" Sir Felis looked almost as angry as the Marshal. The Marshal stopped in
midstride, balanced himself, and nodded shortly. Sir Felis looked at all their faces before he
spoke. "Marshal, when he told me what he planned, I thought as you. A fool's plan, I told him. I
think—I think I was wrong."
"Wrong! With him dead, and—"
"Wait, Marshal. I told him he had no experience. I told him that orders were orders. I insulted
her—" he nodded at Paks "—and told him he was a fool to go anywhere with a thief and a mercenary.
And then he told me, Marshal, that his orders came not only from you but from Gird."
The Marshal's face contracted, showing wrinkles it would not bear for many years. "It wasn't—"
"I didn't think it was Gird. I told him that, too—that too many youngsters thought the gods
blessed their folly. But, Marshal—I think I said too much. Gird graces the hard head, as well as
die strong arm. He was angry, at me, and that made him— "
"Maybe not." The Marshal sighed. "If it was Gird, if it wasn't just a childish stunt—" He looked
at the others. "What do you know about this? Were you all in it with him—did he think it up—or
what?" For a moment no one answered. Then Mal, his voice still distorted by the bruises on his
face, spoke up.
"Sir Marshal, Ambros was determined to find the priest as soon as be came back from talking to the
robbers. He told me then that Paks thought he should wait for you— but he was sure that he
couldn't."
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"Is that true, Paksenarrion? Did you try to dissuade him?"
Paks nodded. "Yes, sir. When he first told me, on the way back from the keep, I thought he was
crazy." She felt the blood rush to her race, and glanced down. "I—he had told me, sir, of a dream,
a few days before. He dreamed he was lolled, in some battle. It was the day after you left."
"Did he think it was a true dream?"
"He wasn't sure. He asked me—I didn't know. He thought it might be an evil sending to frighten him
from doing what he should. That's what finally made him do this, sir, I'm sure. I tried—I tried to
tell him it could be a warning from Gird—or something like that—but he thought he had to find
out."
"But why couldn't he wait? At least a few days—" The Marshal looked toward Ambros's body.
"He—he thought it must be soon, sir." Paks felt the tears burning in her eyes. She hoped Ambros
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last night at drill. The cut hadn't healed." The Marshal nodded, silent. Then he looked at the
others.
"Did he tell any of you this dream?"
"No, sir." They answered in a ragged chorus. Mal went on. "I knew something was wrong, sir—he
didn't say about the dream, but when I said something about not being in best shape to fight, he
took me up on it and said I should stay behind."
The discussion had dragged on for hours. Finally the Marshal dismissed them, having, as it seemed,
worn out his anger. Paks was so tired she could hardly walk, but her mind kept buzzing at her. She
made it to the inn, and up the stairs, without a word to anyone. Stretched on her bed, still
wearing her armor, she wondered what she'd done with her horse, and was too tired to get up and
find out. She thought she would never go to sleep. Gold air rolled over her from the window. At
last she managed to pull a blanket over her and slept.
Dawn was gray and foggy. She had left the shutters
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open; the floor near the window was wet and cold. Paks looked at the beads of moisture with
narrowed eyes; she didn't want to move. She heard noises from the rest of the inn, footsteps and
voices. Her legs hurt. Her shoulder ached. Something was poking a hole in her side. It was that
which finally moved her—that hard lumpy something that seemed to be underneath a rib no matter how
she squirmed. In one rush she threw back the blanket and staggered to her feet. Her boots skidded
on the wet floor as she reached for the shutters.
The remains of her clothes hung on the fine chainmail like old leaves on a shapely branch. Only
the leather tunic was whole, though scarred by the net as if it had been touched by flame. She
ripped the rags free, glad she had worn her old clothes for that trip, rather than the new ones.
She slid out of the mail, noticing as she did a lumpy pocket in her tunic. Arvid's present. She
reached into it and pulled out a handful of fire.
After a moment, she could see what it really was. A string—several strings, interconnected—of
fiery jewels, some white and some blue. It poured through her hand like sunlit waterdrops. The
clasp was gold. She stared, openmouthed, then tucked it quickly away. When she opened the door,
she nearly fell over Suli, who was curled up asleep outside.
"It won't work," said Paks firmly. She avoided Suli's eyes, tracing a design on the table with one
finger. "It won't work because I'm not what you hoped for—and it's not as easy as you think."
"I know it's not," said Suli. "I know—I saw Ambros die—it was terriblel" Paks shot a glance at
her; the girl's face was solemn. "I still want it—even though I know— and I don't see why you
won't—"
"You don't know!" Paks lowered her voice after that. "Suli, if you think that was bad—one man
dead, and quickly dead—you don't know anything." She thought of Etta's broken back, of Captain
Ferrault at Dwarfwatch. "You think because you've survived a couple of fights— difficult fights,
yes, I'll grant you—that you re ready—"
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"Just to be your squire," pleaded Suli. "I know I couldn't earn ray way yet, as a soldier. But you
could teach me—"
"I don't know enough myself. No, don't argue. I know what a private in the Duke s Company knows,
and a little more. You think it's a lot—dial's because you don't know—" Paks broke off, shaking
her head. Would ihis have convinced her, the year she left home? Would anything convince Suli, now
glaring at the table? She could feel that stubborn resolution as if it were a flame. She tried
again. "Suli, I do think you can be a good soldier. You are strong, fast, and fairly skilled. More
skilled than I was when I left home. I'm not trying to keep you from becoming a fighter. If you
don't want to join a mercenary company, try one of the guards' units. Or ask Marshal Cedfer about
training in the Fellowship. But all I can teach is fighting skills, and I'm finding out how much
more 1 need. Why, when I first came, I'd never stayed in an inn before—"
"TTiat's why I don't want to join a company," said Suli. "Staying all together, never on my own. I
already know how to uve on my own—and I can help you with mat."
"You fight too much," Paks said. She had heard that from Mal and the others. Suli blushed. Paks
went on. "My old sergeant said soldiers were fools to get in brawls. Most folk don't like soldiers
anyway, and you get a reputation for causing trouble, they're glad enough to see you in the lockup
or sold to slavers."
"We don't have any slavers here," muttered Suli.
"No, but you've got a lockup." Paks drained her mug. "Look, Suli, that's beside the point. It's
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myself. If I were just adventuring, it'd be different, but I'm not. I want—"
"But 111 never have another chance," Suti burst out. "Nobody pays any attention—I'm just a crazy
girl, that's what they think. I thought you would help—you're a woman, after all—and I'll never
get out of this place if you don't—"
Paks slapped the table. "That's just what I've been telling you, Suli. How to get out and get die
training you need. But you don't want to do it the right way. You want
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it to come all at once. I can see it in your eyes—you look at my sword, and my mail, and that big
horse, and see yourself. What you don't see is the years in between, the years it took me to get
all that. And there's no other way. Yes, I was lucky—I got some of it by a lucky chance. But die
experience, the fighting skill, no. That came from years of just what you say you don't want—daily
drill, daily work, battles that you call dull. That's what gave me the skill to take a chance when
it came. You can't just leap from being a village girl with a knack for swordplay to—' she paused,
uncertain how she would describe herself honestly.
"It could happen," said Suli. "It could. If you had found someone before you joined the company,
she could have taught you everything you needed. You might have been rich and famous before now."
"I might have been dead before now, too. And Suli, knowing what I know now, I wouldn't have hired
myself back then. It took the Duke's recruit company months to train any of us."
"But I've been training, with the Marshal. You've seen me—I'm not a beginner."
Paks sighed. She wondered if she had seemed so—so young, when she'd joined the Company. All that
eagerness. At least she had taken Jornoth's advice, had not just run away to search for adventure
on her own. She was trying to frame an answer, aware of Suli's intense gaze, when a shadow fell on
her. She looked around. One of the senior yeoman nodded to her.
"Lady Paksenarrion? Marshal Cedfer would like to speak with you in the grange." He smiled at Suli,
who reddened. "They say, Suli, that you fought weU with this lady."
"She did," said Paks.
"Well have to see about transferring you to the senior rolls," said the man to Suli. "Might make a
yeoman-marshal, might she?" he asked of Paks.
"I—don't know how you choose yeoman-marshals, but Suli is a good swordsman." Paks stood up. "If
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me, I'll get my cloak—" The yeoman sat down and began talking to Suli; Paks was relieved.
The Marshal's office was slightly cold; Paks wondered why he had lit no fire in the small
fireplace. Then she saw that the Kuakgan stood leaning in the corner, quiet as a shadow.
"Come in, Paksenarrion," said the Marshal. "We've been talking about you." She glanced quickly at
the Kuakgan, who said nothing. What had they said? The last talks with the Marshal had been
painful enough; she knew he no longer blamed her for Ambros's death, but she still blamed herself
a little. She sat down when he gestured at a chair; the Kuakgan moved forward to take another.
"You will be wondering why," the Marshal went on. "I, as you know, would like to see you join the
Fellowship of Gird. As a Marshal of Gird, I am interested in all soldiers, as well as the cause of
right. In your case, something more moves me. It is for this that I contacted the Kuakgan, and
talked with him about you."
"Yes, sir," said Paks, when he paused as if for some comment. She didn't know what else to say.
"Before we go on, would you mind telling me whether you have accepted Suli's service? I know she
wants to be your squire, or some such—she's been wanting a way out of Brewersbridge for the last
three years."
"Marshal Cedfer, I was talking to her when your yeoman asked me to come here. I don't—I know I'm
not a knight, and have no way to use a squire. I'm not a wandering free sword—which she seems to
think—and I don't need a companion. I told her fhat."
"Have you any complaint of her?"
"No. None at all. She fought bravely against the hool, as I told you, and did well against the
priest's guards. But sir—she's not ready to be a soldier, I don't think. And I'm not the one to
train her. I need more training myself, to be what—what I'd like."
"Do you know what that is, Paksenarrion?" asked the Kuakgan.
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herself in some noble's troops—even the Tsaian Royal Guard—the picture blurred and blew away. "Not
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"A knight?" asked Marshal Cedfer. "A captain, perhaps?"
"Maybe." Paks looked at her hands. "I am a soldier, I enjoy swordplay, I want to be in that kind
of life. But not just for—for fighting anything, or for show. I want to fight—"
"What needs fighting?" suggested the Kuakgan.
Paks looked at him and nodded. "I think mat's what I mean. Bad things. Like the robbers in Aarenis
that killed my friends, or Siniava—he was evil. Or that—whatever that held the elf-lord. Only I
don't think I have the powers for that. But I want to fight where I'm sure it's right—not just to
show that I'm big and strong. It's the same as tavern brawling, it seems to me—even if it's armies
and lords—"
The Kuakgan nodded. "You've learned a lot, Paksenarrion, besides what most soldiers know. I
thought so before, but now I'm sure. Do you know anything of die rangers in Lyonya?"
"No." Paks frowned. "Why?"
"You have fought with the elfane taig. It may be that you can sense the taigin, and if so you
would be able to work with them."
"Master Oakhallow—" the Marshal began. The Kuakgan waved him to silence.
"Marshal, I don't question the sincerity of Girdsmen. You know that. We honor the same gods. But
some fighters have abilities Gird does not use. She may be one of them." He turned back to Paks.
"Paksenarrion, we agree that you have shown ability to fight evil. You have shown a desire to know
more of good, and to fight for it. We both think you have been touched by the evil you've fought—
not to contaminate you, but in such wise that you should not go back to ordinary soldiering. Do
you agreed* •;?
Paks was too bewildered to answer. Marshal Cedfer spoke up.
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recommended additional training—even toward a captaincy. We are prepared to guide you toward such
training, but you must choose. I can give you a letter to the Marshal-General at Fin Panir; she
will probably take my recommendation and let you study with the training order there. From that
you can become a knight in either of the two Girdish orders—or even a paladin, if Gird's grace
touches you."
"And I can give you introduction to the rangers of Lyonya," said the Kuakgan. "If you satisfied
them, they might recommend you to the Knight-Commander of the Knights of Falk. That would be a few
years away, however. But in either case, you would use your skills only in causes of good. If that
way of fighting did not appeal, you could always leave."
"You could not take Suli with you, either way," said the Marshal. "That's why I asked. If you had
contracted with her, the gnome merchants have told me that they can get you a contract from the
gnome prince of Gnarriniulk. Something in the way of soldiering, I don't know what. But if you
aren't taking Suli, then—" He stopped and cocked his head, waiting for her answer.
"But I'm not Girdish," she managed to say. Nothing else came out.
"No. But I daresay that in Fin Panir, at the High Lord's Hall, after training with others of the
faith, that Gird would make plain his interest in you." The Marshal leaned back a little in his
chair. "I think he has already, Paksenarrion. When I think of the things you have come through—"
Paks thought to herself that he didn't know the half of it. She had not told him all about
Aarenis. She remembered what the priest of Achrya had said: "near enough a paladin . . . Achrya
will be pleased if I interfere in the growth of a paladin of Gird ..." And the training at Fin
Panir was famous throughout the north. She might become a knight —or even a paladin—she pushed the
thought away. It was for the gods to think of such things, not a soldier. But the other way.
Rangers—she knew nothing of them. The thought of more powers like the elfene taig daunted her,
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though she hated to admit it. And years of service, before she might think of the Knights of Falk.
She looked at the Kuakgan again, meeting his dark eyes squarely. "Sir—Master Oakhallow—I honor
yon—"
"I know that, child," he said, smiling.
"If you have a—" she stopped, knowing what she meant, but not how to say it. If he demanded it, in
return for releasing her from guilt for the snowcat's murder, she would go. She saw understanding
in his eyes.
"I have no commands for you, Paksenarrion," he said softly. "You have served Brewersbridge well;
you have fulfilled my trust in you, and my hope for you. Go with my blessings, whichever way you
go."
"Then—" she looked back at the Marshal. Was it for Ambros, who had trusted her with his fears and


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died beyond her help? Was it for Canna, who had left her the medallion? Or for something else,
something she felt dimly and could not define? "I would be glad, sir, of your recommendation," she
said formally. The Marshal snot a triumphant glance at the Kuakgan; Paks nearly took her words
back. But the Kuakgan's smile was open and friendly. He spoke to her alone.
"Paksenarrion, the Kuakkganni treasure all life created in the first song. We study, we learn, but
we do not order a creature from its own way. And the creature itself knows its own way best,
unless it is sorely hurt. If the other way had been best for you, you would have known." He turned
back to the Marshal. "Marshal Cedfer, we are no more rivals than two men who plant a seed neither
of them knows, and argue until it sprouts whether it will be fireoak or yellowwooa. The seed knows
itself; it will grow as its nature demands, and when the first leaves open, all arguments are
over."
To Paks's surprise, the Marshal looked shamefaced. "You're right, Master Oakhallow. I have no
right—but I was hoping so, for some good to come of Ambros's death."
The Kuakgan nodded gravely. "And yet you know that good has come of it. The webspinner's priest is
gone, and you will clean that filthy place from end to end. Ambros has shown that your training
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worst of wars, and the best of ends. You live in constant combat, Marshal, and it makes you alert
to each advantage— but the gods move in longer cycles, as well. Be at peace, honest warrior." He
rose and left the room. For a long silent time, Paks and Marshal Cedfer sat in quiet, contented.
Then the Marshal shook himself like a wet puppy and snorted.
"Gird's grace, that fellow could cast a spell on stone. He may have time enough, but I live a
normal span, like any man. Paksenarrion, I will write my letter this afternoon. When will you be
fit for travel?" "In a day or so. I'd like to get everything cleaned up." "Good. I think you
should not linger; winter will close some roads soon, and it makes bitter traveling to the
northwest. About Suli—do you want me to talk to her?" "I told her she should talk to you, but
she—" "She doesn't want it; she knows what I'll say. I've said it before. All right. Ill say it
again. I can send her to another grange—a larger one—with more women training. Let her know what
she can work towards—yeoman-marshal, or something like that. Tell her to come, if you see her."
Paks wondered if it would help, but said she would.
Chapter Eighteen
As autumn darkened into winter, Paks rode north and west, into Ve"rella of the Bells, and west
along the Honnorgat, through one town after another, as the river narrowed. She passed from grange
to grange, enjoying the hospitality of each, as the Marshal's letter opened the doors. As she
neared Fintha, she tried to think of a more elegant name for the black horse, something suitable
for a warhorse, but she had thought of him as Socks from the first, and it stuck in her mind. She
thought of turning aside at Whitemeadow, and following a branch of the river north to Rocky Ford,
and then on to Three Firs. But had her dowry arrived yet? Would she be welcome? She decided to
wait until she had her knighthood, and ride home with Gird's crescent on her arm.
Frost whitened the ground the morning she first caught sight of Fin Panir. She had been on the
road before dawn, the saddle cold as iron beneath her, and her breath pluming out before. When the
sun rose into a clear cola sky, the ground sparkled in rose and gold; the tree branches
interlacing overhead were glittering with frost. It was Wee riding inside a pearl. A tittle wind
blew the sparkling frost in swirls before her. Paks found herself grinning, and nudged the black
horse into a trot. He squealed and kicked out behind before settling down. She laughed aloud.
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Then the forest broke apart, and she saw across a bend of the river the spires of the High Lord's
Hall, gleaming in silver and gold against the blue sky. Beneath was a tangle of roofc and walls,
multi-colored stone, tiles, sliced into fantastic shapes by the sharp shadows of a winter sun. Fin
Panir was a walled city, but wailed like none Paks had seen, with multiple angles in and out. She
rode toward it, yearning.
Within an hour she was near enough to pick out the gates. Between her and the walls, a small
company of horsemen rode, armor glittering and banners dancing above. When she was near enough,
they hailed her.
"Ho! Traveler! Where are you bound?" The leader was deep-voiced, a man of middle height in
chainmail with a blue mantle bearing Gird's crescent.
"To the Hall in Fin Panir," said Paks. "I have a letter from Marshal Cedfer of Brewersbridge."
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"Yes, sir. Can you direct me?"
"Yes, of course. But you might ask at the gates; she may be abroad this morning. You will have
left Tor's Crossing early—or did you camp out last night?"
"I left early, sir."
"Well, the Marshal-General's quarters are in the Hall Courts. Take the first left, after the gate,
and then a right—go straight past two turns, and then left again under the arch. Someone will take
your horse there, and guide you. But, as I said, ask at the city gates if your message is urgent;
they will know if she's ridden out somewhere."
"Thank you, sir." Paks lifted her reins and started forward. One of the other riders spoke to the
leader, and he lifted a hand.
"Wait a moment—" He looked closely at her. "Are you a Girdsman?"
"No, sir." He looked puzzled. "You are carrying something of great worth—is it a gift from the
Marshall'
"Gift? No, sir." Paks thought of the jewels she still had, and wondered if that was what he meant.
Somehow she didn't think so.
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At the city gates, a neatly uniformed guard waved her through after she explained her errand. When
she asked, he said that the Marshal-General had gone to the practice fields west of the city, but
that she might wait at the Hall if she chose. Paks followed the directions through stone-paved
streets of middle width, and arrived at an arched entrance through a wall. Far above she could see
the towers of the Lord's Hall. A grizzled older man stepped out of an alcove in the arch and asked
her business.
"Marshal-Generai, eh? She'll be out until noon; can you wait?" At her nod, he stepped forward.
"Good, then. Ill get someone to take your horse—"
"I can take him," Paks interrupted. "If you'll tell me where."
His bushy eyebrows rose. "A guest take her own horse to stable? What do you think we are,
ruffians?" He turned and bellowed through the archway. "Seli! Seliaml" Paks heard the clatter of
running feet, and a boy raced up, panting. "Take this horse to the guest stables, Seli. Have the
stableboys see to him." The boy laid his hand on the rein, and Paks dismounted. She rummaged in
her saddlebags for Cedfer's letter to the Marshal-General. "Seli will take your saddlebags to the
guest house in a few minutes," the man said. "Would you prefer to wait there, or in the Marshal-
General's study?"
"Could 1—" Paks suddenly felt shy. "I—I haven't been in Fin Panir before," she began again. "Could
I see the High Lord's Hall? Is it permitted?"
His face split in a grin. "Permitted! Of course it's permitted. Let me find someone for the
entrance, ana 111 take you in myself Haven't been here before, eh? I daresay you've heard tales,
though, haven't you?" He turned away without waiting for an answer, and yelled again through the
arch. This time another older man answered the summons.
"What is it, Argalt? An invasion of ores?"
"No. A newcomer, who wants to see the Hall while waiting for die Marshal-General."
"And you want to show him—her, excuse me." The man smiled at Paks. "Gird's grace, lady, you've
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day. He loves to show off the Hall. And you've bright sun for it, too." He waved them away, and
Paks followed the man through the arch and across a cobbled courtyard to the entrance of the High
Lord's Hall of Fin Panir.
Broad steps led up to a pair of tall bronze doors, cast in intricate designs. Paks stopped to look
at them, and her guide began to explain.
"These doors are not the original—those burned, hundreds of years back, the year the Black Lady
fought to the steps here. But these were designed and cast by the han-elven craftsman Madegar. The
middle of each door bears the High Lord's Seal—it's inlaid in gold, as you see. All around are the
seals of the saints, and a little picture of each one doing something famous. There's Gird, with
the cudgel, and Falk with a sword and the tyrant of Celias, and Cam wyn riding a dragon, and Dort
shearing the golden sheep, do you see all that?"
"Yes." Paks traced the designs with her finger, as far as she could reach. She found Torre and her
magical steed, Sertig with his anvil. She stared, fascinated, until the man tapped her on the
shoulder. "Come along in, now, and see the rest." From the great doors, the Hall stretched away,
longer than any grange Paks had seen. The grange at Brewersbridge, she thought, would have fit in
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columns like treetrunks springing from the floor. It reminded her, in that way, of the elves'
Winterhall underground. At the far end, a double platform with a low railing took the place of die
usual training platform in granges. On either side a railed gallery with stepped seating offered a
clear view of the floor.
But all this she saw later. First she was aware of the great wash of brilliant tight, broken into
dazzling chips of color, that poured through the great round window in the far end. All along both
sides, high windows of colored glass spread fanciful patterns of light on the floor. She turned
to^the guide, who was chuckling at her reaction. "How?" was all she could say. "You had seen glass
in windows before?" he asked.
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"Yes, but—" she waved a hand at the magnificence.
"It's colored glass, laid in a pattern, and bound in strips of lead. And 111 have you know, it
wasn't an elf designed that." Now that the first dazzle had passed, Paks could see that the
colored glass made designs—even pictures, in some of the windows. The round window held a many-
pointed star in shades of blue with accents of gold. Along the sunny south side of the Hall, she
saw Gird with his cudgel striking a richly dressed knight, Camwyn riding a dragon whose breath
seemed literal flame, a harper (she could not remember the name of the harpers' patron saint)
playing to a tree that seemed to be turning into a girl, and Torre partway through her Bide, with
half the stones of the necklace turned to stars. The longer she looked at each window, the more
she saw. Each had smaller scenes inset in medallions around the main picture. Paks walked over to
Torre's window. There was her home, with its six towers, and that must be her sorrowing father
with the wicked king threatening him. Here was the stable, with the strange horse standing loose
between the stalls, the ring of coals around its neck. A white flower stood for the first trial of
her Ride, and three snowflakes for the next. A fat dwarf held the blue ring, and an elf in green
held out the branch of yellowwood in flower, complete with two bees. The wicked king's ted banner
blew from a tower on a cliff. A sleeping baby in a basket floated on a river. At the very top of
the window, the stars of Torre's Necklace blazed out of blue glass just as they did in the sky.
Paks tore her eyes away and looked around again. Hie shadowed, northern side windows were pictures
as well. Sertig pounding on his anvil, and Adyan writing the true names of everything in his book.
Alyanya, the Lady of Peace, wreathed in flowers, with fruitful vines trailing around her. Some
pictures she did not recognize at all. One seemed to be all animals, fitted into every available
niche, all mixed together, large and small. One was simply a tree, whose gnarled roots and
branches filled up the space above and below, curling and recurling until Paks could not tell how
many little rootlets filled even one small section.
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When she finally left the windows to look at the rest of the building, it was equally engrossing.
The floor was paved with flat slabs of stone in a subtle pattern. Many of the slabs were engraved
with names and dates that meant nothing to Paks—but much to her guide, when she asked.
"That there's Lolyin's marker--he was Marshal-General over a hundred years ago, and converted the
King of Tsaia to the fellowship of Gird. That was the great-grandfather of the present crown
prince. Under his name is the paladin Brealt. You might have heard of him, since I can see you've
been in Aarenis. He freed the captives of Pliuni, and fought two priests of Uart by himself to do
it." Paks had not heard of him, but she nodded. Hie old man went on. "Marshal-Generals and
paladins of Gird—and a few others—they have their names and dates put here. Some say their deeds
should be added, but the rule is that (hose who want to know should look them up in the archives.
There's not one of them but is worth remembering. Take this—" he led her up near the platform.
"This is Gird's own marker, put here by Luap—the oldest we have." The stone was worn in a hollow,
and the letters were feint. "In the old way, all that joined the knights of the fellowship, or
became paladins of Gird, would spend part of a vigil washing that stone, to keep Gird's name pure.
But then they realized they were wearing it down, and only the Marshal-General does it now."
Paks could think of nothing to say. She had never imagined that anything built by men would be as
beautiful as the Hall. That soaring space.seemed to liberate something inside her, as if it called
for wings within. When they came out at last, she blinked in the sunlight, her head still full of
what she'd seen.
She had no idea what to expect of a Marshal-General. Tfce Marshals she had met had been matter-of-
fact, much like the Duke's captains. But what she'd seen of feudal commanders, and the splendor of
the Hall, led her to think that the Marshal-General might be more—she tried to think of a
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vant led her through the passages and up a broad stair to the Marshal-General's office, she felt
her stomach flutter. The door was open. Paks looked across a fairly large room to a table set
under one of the south windows. Behind it stood two people, a woman and a man, both in blue tunics
over gray trousers. Both had Gird's crescents on chains around their neck. They were looking at
something on the table as the servant knocked; the woman looked u.
"A messenger, Marshal-General, from Marshal Cedfer of Brewersbridge." He gestured at Paks.
"Ah yes. Argalt mentioned you — your name?"
"Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter," said Paks, uncertain of the correct address.
"You're not a Girdsman?"
"No — my lady." Paks thought that was safest.
"Then you may not know I m Marshal-General Arianya. But you're a warrior — that's clear enough. "
Paks nodded. "Well, then, let me see your message."
Paks walked into the room and handed over the Marshal's letter. The Marshal-Genera! was a tall
woman of middle age, her graying curly hair cropped short. She wore no sword, but her tunic was
marked by sword belt and scabbard. Her right hand bore a wide scar; Paks wondered how it had
missed severing some tendons. The Marshal-General looked up from what she was reading.
"Do you know what Cedfer's written?"
Paks felt the blood rush to her face. "Some of it, my lady. He said he— that you — that I might
take some training here."
He's recommended that you be admitted to a probationers' class in the Company of Gird. And he's
said why — " She paused and looked at Paks closely. "It's most unusual, you know, for anyone not
of the fellowship to be admitted here."
Paks felt her heart sink. She had only begun to realize, during the trip to Fin Panir, the power
wielded by the granges of Gird. When the Marshal had suggested a half-year in the training
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she had always been able to learn warrior's skills. She said nothing, and met the Marshal-
General's eyes steadily.
"What has he said, Marshal-General?" asked the man. Paks glanced at him. He was a little taller
than the Marshal-General, and had a short gray beard.
"He recommends her highly—" the Marshal-General paused again, and looked once more at Paks. "You
were trained and fought with Duke Phelan of Tsaia, is that right?" Paks nodded. "Cedfer was
surprised to find you so good with a longsword; he implies that the Duke himself suggested you
seek advanced training. That's so?"
'Yes, my lady." Paks felt very uncomfortable. She knew what was coming next; she still did not
want to talk about those last weeks in the Duke's Company. But the Marshal-General's next question
surprised her.
"Do you think he would be pleased to have you here?"
Paks knew her face showed her astonishment. "Why— why of course, my lady. Why wouldn't he? It
would be an honor—"
The Marshal-General looked away. "Duke Phelan, Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter, is not without his
quarrels with Gird and Gird's granges."
Paks thought of the subtle tension between the Duke and the Marshal in Aarenis. His words to the
paladin at Cortes Immer came back to her. She shook her head, driving them away. "No—I'm sure he
would be glad. He is not a Girdsman himself, but he is a good man—a good fighter—and he would be
glad for any honor that came to me. And training here would be an honor."
"Why would you think it so, when you are not of our fellowship?" asked the man quietly. Paks
turned to him.
"Sir, it is widely known. The Knights of Gird, the paladins of Gird—all of them train here, and
many others beside, who serve honorably in the royal guards of several kingdoms.''
"I see." He glanced at the Marshal-General, but she was looking at Marshal Cedfer's letter. After
a moment she looked up at him.
"Kory, if you'll excuse us, I'd like to talk to Paksenarrion. Cedfer almost persuades me, but I
must see for myself what she is."
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"Paksenarrion, have you had anything to eat?"
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"Certainly." He bowed, and left the room. Paks met the Marshal-General s gaze.
"Well, Paksenarrion, have a seat—there—and let's find out more about you. Cedfer sent word at once
about the efcfane taig, but few details. Where are you from, and how did you come to join the
Duke's Company?"
Tin from Three Firs, my lady. My lather is a sheepfarmer."
"Three Firs! I know that country—for from the Honnorgat, or any city, isn't it?" -
"Yes—*
"So you left to join the Duke's Company? Or for another reason?"
"I wanted to be a warrior." Paks thought back to the mood of what now seemed her childhood, when
Jomoth had come visiting with a bright sword and hispurse full of silver. "My fether didn't—so I
ran away." The Marshal-General nodded. "I joined the Duke's Company at Rocky Ford, and then—" she
shrugged. "1 was a recruit, and then a private in the Company."
"You fought in die north, or in Aarenis?*"
"In Aarenis. For three seasons." Paks stopped, uncertain how much to say about those years.
"Cedfer says the Duke evidently favored you—had give you some important missions. Can you tell me
about them, or would that violate a secret of the Duke's?"
Paks shook her head. "No. Nothing secret—I don't know how much to say- The last year, I was acting
corporal for awhile, when Seti was hurt. And I helped capture Siniava."
"Siniava. Then-^wait—" The Marshal-General's face furrowed for a moment. "Did you meet a paladin
in Aarenis? Fentthr
"Yes, my lady." Paks didn't want to talk about that, either: the one tune die Duke had not lived
up to her image of him.
"You're that Paksenarrion!" The Marshal-General stared
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at her. "Fenith wrote about you—you took on a priest of Loart, and lived! Gird's grace, child, I
hadn't heard of such a thing. Neither had he. He sent the High Marshal to your Duke to find out
about you, and the Duke nearly took his head off for suggesting you might not be what you seemed."
"He did?" Paks didn't remember any such thing.
"I suppose your Duke didn't tell you. Fenith also said you were the one to spot Siniava in
shapechange. He thought it had something to do with a Gird's medallion you carried—a gift of a
friend, he said—"
"Yes." Paks md not want to discuss Canna's gift, which she had not worn since the night Siniava
died.
"You told him, I understand, that you would stay with the Duke's Company—yet here you are on our
doorstep. What happened?" The Marshal-General's eyes were as shrewd as the Kuakgan's; Paks
realized that there was no way out of this but the long one—the whole truth. Haltingly, at first,
she began to tell of the last year in Aarenis. The Marshal-General did not interrupt, and the
pressure of her attention kept the tale flowing. When a servant carried in a tray of food, bowls
of stew and a couple of loaves of dark bread, Paks stopped. The Marshal-General spread the food on
the table, and waved the servant out.
"Gird's grace be with you, Paksenarrion, and with me, and may we gain strength to serve the High
Lord's will. Go on, now, and eat." She took up her spoon and began. Paks did the same. After the
stew was mostly gone, the Marshal-General looked up. "I can understand why you left, and why you
were reluctant to leave. But I am still not sure why you quit wearing Canna's medallion. Do you
know?"
Paks laid down the hunk of bread she'd picked up. "I thought—it seemed that it—it led me into
things. Trouble. I never knew if it—if I—how they happened "
"It led you into trouble? And you a mercenary?" The Marshal-General's voice had an edge of scorn.
"You had not chosen the most peaceful life."
"No, my lady. But I don't know what it did, or didn't do. I don't know if it healed Canna, or
didn't or if it really saved me from the man in Rotengre—"
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"Watt. You haven't told me about that yet. Canna is your friend who died and left it to you, isn't
that so? What's this about healing?"
Paks felt die sweat cold on her neck as she began to tell die Marshal-General about their flight
from Dwarfwatch. Knowing that she would insist on hearing those oarts of the journey that made
Paks the most nervous didn t help. She had not mentioned the prayers over Canna's wound to anyone
but Stammel, and it was no easier now. The Marshal-General seemed to grow more remote and august
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"You, no follower of Gird, suggested praying to Gird for healing? Don't you think that was
presumptuous? Had you planned to join the fellowship afterwards?" Paks had not thought of it like
that at all.
"My lady, we had need—I didn't know much of Gird, then, and— "
"Your friend had not told you? And she a yeoman?"
Paks shook her head. "We didn't talk about it much; she was our friend. We knew she was a
Girdsman, and she knew we had our own gods."
"You know more of Gird now, 111 warrant—what do you think now, of such a thing?" Paks thought a
moment.
"I don't think Gird would mind—I can't see why he would. If he had been a nobleman, perhaps,
but—why would it be wrong to try? Healing is good, and Canna was one of his yeomen."
The Marshal-General shook her head slowly, but more in doubt than disagreement. "I'm not sure,
child. What happened?"
"That's what I don't know." Paks remembered clearly Canna's yelp of pain, and then the seeming
improvement in her condition. "It didn't go away at once," she went on, carefully telling the
Marshal-General everything. "But she had been getting weaker, and feverish, and she was stronger
afterwards. It looked cleaner and drier the next time we changed the bandage. But you see, we'd
found some ointment in that farmstead, and used that too. I don't know which worked, or why."
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"You didn't tell this to Marshal Berran or Fenith," said the Marshal-General.
"No—I wasn't sure—"
"Go on, then. What happened with the man in Rotengre?" That, too, Paks told, even Captain Dorrin's
remarks afterwards. The Marshal-General nodded.
"Your captain had the sense to see what lay before her. Is she Girdish?"
"No, my lady. Falldan—or that's what one of the sergeants said."
"I see. What did you think then, when two times the medallion had acted for you?"
"I didn't—I was frightened of it, lady. I didn't know what to do."
"Did you not think of speaking to a Marshal?"
Paks shook her head vigorously. "Oh no. I—"
"You were with Duke Phelan. I suppose you had no chance."
"I didn't want to, not then. I—I suppose I wished that it would just—just be over. I kept thinking
about them—"
"Canna?"
"And—and Saben. He was my—our friend, that was with us."
"Your lover?"
"No." Ttie old grief and longing choked her again. When she looked up again, die Marshal-General
was stacking the bowls on the tray.
"Taking those events with the later ones, Paksenarrion— with surviving the blow of Liart's priest
in Sibili, the warning of ambush, and withstanding the enchantments when Siniava tried to
escape—don't you think that there's clear evidence of Gird's action in your behalf?"
"I don't—I can't be sure—"
"Gird's teeth, girl, what do you want, a pillar of fire?" Hie Marshal-General glared at her.
"D'you expect the gods to carry you up to the clouds and explain everything in words a
sheep&rmer's daughter can understand?*
"No, my lady." Paks stared at her hands, near tears again. She heard a gusty sigh.
"How old are you, Paksenarrion?"
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Paks counted it out aloud. "I was eighteen winters when I left home—and then nineteen was in the
stronghold, and twenty—twenty-one after Dwarfwatch—near twenty-two, my lady."
"I see. Are you set against die fellowship of Gird?"
"Oh no, my lady! The more I know, the more—but you see, my family was not Girdish. And I still
think it's better to abide the gods you know—"
The Marshal-General sighed again. Paks looked up to find her gazing out one of the narrow windows,
her face stern. After a long moment she turned back to Paks. "We are not," she said firmly, "a
training camp for those who want fancy skills to show off." Paks felt her face reddening again.
"If what you want is an accomplishment to display— like someone stringing another pearl on a
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Gird's warriors, to serve the lands and defend them against the powers of evil. They must care,
Paksenarrion, for this cause more than their own fame. Those sworn to the fellowship of Gird I
have ways of testing. If you persist in remaining aloof, I must assume that your dedication is
unproven. I wUl not— absolutely not—let you take advantage of this Company, and go off boasting
that you trained with the Company of Gird at Fin Panir, unless you can show me what you will pay.
Not in money, young warrior, but in your life."
Paks managed to meet her eyes steadily, though she felt as frightened and helpless as she had when
a new recruit. She said nothing for some time, wondering what if anything she could say. At last
she looked away and shook her head rueftilly.
"I don't know, my lady, what I could say to convince you. For me, I have been trained as a
warrior, not to argue. I think perhaps you feel what I felt in Brewersbridge —there was a young
girl there, who wanted to join me, and be a squire to me. I knew I didn't know enough to be
her—her commander, or whatever, but also—I used to think she only wanted the glory she could see.
To wear a sword like mine, to have a scar to show, perhaps—but she didn't know what it cost, what
lay behind it. I tried to tell
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her, tried to get her to join a regular company, as I had—"
"And did she?" The Marshal-General s voice was still remote.
Paks shook her head. "Not as far as I know. I tried—but she wanted adventure, she said. It would
be too dull, she didn't tike people yelling at her; she said she could get enough of that in
Brewersbridge." Paks stopped before saying, "She had a very bad father, my lady."
"You ran away from yours."
"Oh, well ... he wasn't like that. But I see what you mean—you think 1 want to—to make a name for
myself, from the fame of your Company. That would be wrong. You're right. But—I can't swear to
follow Gird until I know—until I'm sure of myself—that I can do it."
"That's coming out differently than what you said before. Then you didn't seem to trust Gird."
Paks floundered, unable to define what she meant. "I don't—I mean, I don't know Gird, but you all
say Gird is a saint, and I won't argue. But / don't know Gird—I have known good Girdsmen, but also
good warriors following other gods and saints. How do I know Gird is the one I should follow?"
The Marshal-General's eyebrows went up. "You would not believe the evidence of the medallion?1
Paks set her jaw stubbornly. "I'm not sure. And I won't swear to something I'm not sure of."
To her surprise, the Marshal-General laughed. "Gird be praised, you are at least willing to be
honest against the Marshal-General. Child, such stubbornness as yours is nearly proof that Gird
claims your destiny—but it may take Gird's cudgel to break a hole in your head to let his light
in. The gods grant you are this stubborn about other things that matter." She sat forward, leaning
her forearms on me table between them. "Now, what sort of training did you look for?"
Paks could hardly believe her ears. "You mean—you'll let me stay?"
"Let you! By Gird, I'm not likely to let someone like you wander the world unconvinced without
giving my best chance to convert you. Of course youll stay."
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"But if I don't—"
"Paksenarrion, you will stay until either you wish to leave, or you give me cause to send you
away. When— notice that I do not say if, being granted almost as much stubbornness as you, by
Gird's grace—when you find that you can swear your honor to Gird's fellowship, it will be my
pleasure to give and receive your strokes. Is that satisfactory, or have you more conditions for a
Marshal-General of Gird, and Captain-Temporal of the High Lord?"
Paks blushed. "No, my lady. I'm sorry, I—"
"Enough. Tell me what you thought to learn."
"Well-—everything about war—"
The Marshal-General whooped. "Everything? About war? Gird's grace, Paksenarrion, no one knows that
but the High Lord, who sees all beginnings and endings at once." I meant," muttered Paks, ears
flaming, "weapons-skills, and things about forts—things the Duke's captains knew about, like
tunnels—"
"All right," said the Marshal-General, wiping her eyes on her sleeve. "I see what you mean. Things
about forts. Honestly! No, sorry, I see you're serious. Well, then. I'll assign you to the
training company. Many of diem are younger than you—nobles' youngsters, from Fintha and Tsaia,
mostly. They've been someone's squires, and now they're preparing for knighthood. Some have come
up through the granges, and have been yeoman-marshal somewhere for three years. You may not know,
but all our marshals are trained here, along with the knights. You'll be assigned space in the
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Paks's nod, she went on, now writing swiftly on a loose sheet of paper. "Weapons practice
daily—the senior instructor will assign the drills once he's examined you. Riding—do you ride?
Yes, because Argalt mentioned putting up your horse. You're a few weeks behind one group they
arrived just after harvest. That's when we start the new cycles. But we'll see if you can catch up
to them." She looked up from her writing. Although she was smiling, it seemed to Paks that she was
even more formidable. "What weapons do you have?" she asked.
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"This sword," said Paks, laying her hand on the hilt. "Another one, not so good—"
"That one's magical," said the Marshal-General. "Did you know?"
"Yes, my lady. And a dagger, and a short battle-axe."
"Do you use all of them?"
"No, my lady. Just sword and dagger, and I can use a long-bow, though not well."
"And I see you have mail as well. For the first weeks, though, you will not use your own weapons.
The weapons-master will assign you weapons for training; yours may be stored in your quarters or
in the armory, as you prefer."
"Yes, my lady."
"Your clothes—" she glanced at Paks's traveling clothes. "We have training uniforms, but we are
not strict, except during drill and classes. We discourage display of jewels and such, but you
don't look the type to show up in laces and ribbons."
"No, my lady."
"Very well." She signed the end of her note, and handed it to Paks. "Take this down, and ask
Argalt to direct you to the Master of Training. Hell assign your quarters, and see that you're set
up with the instructors. You will take your meals in the Lower Hall—by the way, you have no
difficulties with the elder races, have you?^
"Elder races—you mean elves and dwarves?"
"Among others. We have quite a few here—you'll be meeting teem. Don't get in fights with them.**
"Oh no."
"Good. You may go, Paksenarrion. May Gird's grace be on you, and the High Lord's light guide your
way." She rose, and Paks stood quickly, knocking her hand on the table edge.
"Thank you, my lady—"
"Thank the gods, Paksenarrion, for their bounty. I have done nothing yet to deserve your thanks."
Chapter Nineteen
Argalt, when she finally located him again, after losing herself in a maze of passages on the
ground floor, looked her up and down. "Training Master, eh? So you're going to become a Knight of
Holy Gird, are you? Or a Marshal? Or is it paladin you're thinking of?"
Paks felt her ears burning again. "I—don't know, sir."
Argalt snorted. "I'm no sir, not even to the newest member of the training company. Argalt: that's
my name and that's what you'll call me, young woman."
"Yes, si—Argalt."
"That's better. You're no hothouse flower of a noble house—where are you from?" Paks told him. He
looked at her with surprising respect. "Sheepfarmer's daughter? That's like Gird s daughter
herself—barring he raised cattle and grain, so the story goes. But still it means you know what
work is, I'll say, and a few busters on the hands. Where'd you learn to wear a sword like you
could use it?" When she mentioned the Duke's name, he stared. "You were in the Fox's Company? And
came here? I'll believe anything after that!" He shook his head as he led her across the
courtyard, past the Lord's Hall. "I was in the Guards at Verella when I was young; what I don't
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know about that Duke—" But Paks asked nothing, and did not expect that he would have answered if
she had. He gave her a long look outside the Training Master's office. "If you need someone to
talk to, sometime, sheepfarmer's daughter—I'll share a tankard of ale with you."
"Thank you," said Paks, still not sure of his reasons. He nodded and turned away.
The Training Master was a hand taller than Paks herself, a hard muscular man in dark blue tunic
and trousers, with Gird's crescent embroidered on the breast. He read the Marshal-General's note,
and Cedfer's letter, in tight-lipped silence. When he looked up, his ice-blue eyes were hard.
"If you're to catch up with the others, youll have to work—and work hard. You'd best not loll
about."
Paks repressed a surge of anger. She'd never been lazy. "No, sir,' she said stiffly.
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evenings after supper. I hope Cedfer's right about your weapons-skills. That would let us chop a
glass or so off there, and give you more time in supply—though why the Marshal-General bothers
with that, for you, is beyond me." Paks felt her shoulders tighten, and forced herself to be
still. He sighed, heavily, very well, then. How much gear do you have?"
"Only what was in my saddlebags, sir," said Paks. "I suppose it's—"
They'll have it brought to your quarters." He glanced for a moment at a chart on his wall. "Let me
think. There's a room on the third floor, next to the end of the corridor. You can have that, for
now. It's small, but it won't mean moving anyone else tonight. If it's too small, we can change
things in a week or so." If you stay that long, his tone clearly said. "You'll need clothes; 111
have the steward send something up. Come along." He pushed past her to die corridor, and led the
way upstairs.
Toe room he opened seemed amply large to Paks—larger than her room at the Jolly Potboy, with two
windows looking out over a lower roof to a walled field. Besides a bed and chest, and a curtained
alcove with hooks, it had a table, stool, and low chair. A narrow shelf ran along the
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wall over the table. Several blankets were folded neatly on the foot of the bed. Paks had hardly
taken all this in when he began speaking again.
"Students do not wear weapons except at practice," he said, with a pointed glance at her sword.
"We prefer that personal weapons be stored in the armory, but the Marshal-General has given
permission for you to keep yours with you." Paks did not want to let the magic sword out of her
control; she said nothing. Just then a servant came in with her saddle-bags; behind him was the
steward, with an armful of clothing, all dark gray but for the blue cloak. The steward eyed her.
"You said tall, Master Chanis; this should fit near enough for now. What name do you
use—Paksenarrion, or Dort-hansdotter?"
"Paks is all."
"Paksenarrion," said the steward cheerfully. "I need something long enough it can't be mistaken in
anyone's handwriting. Come by for measurements, or if you have something that fits well—"
Paks unstrapped her saddlebags, and pulled out her green shirt. "Will this do?"
"Good—good material, too. From Lyonya, is it?"
"No, but near there. Brewersbridge."
Hie steward shook her head. "I don't know it. Trousers, too, if you've an extra pair." Paks pulled
out the patched ones, which the steward took without comment, and handed over a pair of socks as
well. The steward checked the number of blankets, and left the room.
"If you're ready," said the Training Master, "there is time to see the weapons instructors Defore
supper. No need to change now; in the morning is soon enough." Paks set her swords neatly on the
shelf, and the saddle-bags behind the curtain, before following him out of the room. "You have
fought mostly in a mercenary company, I understand."
"Yes, sir."
"Short sword or polearm?"
"Short sword."
"But you carry a longsword."
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"Yes, sir."
"Have you used a bow?"
"In training, yes—it's not my best weapon."
"PolearmsP"
"Only in training."
"Mace? Axe? Crossbow? Siege weaponry?" At each shake of her head, his lips seemed to tighten. Paks
wondered if he really thought all of those important. She had trouble keeping up with his long
sweeping strides, and noticed little of the building around them—only rows of doors, open and
shut, and the stone flags of the hallway. They came out into a small court surrounded on three
sides by stables; a pile of dung centered the court, and two youths were shoveling it into a cart.
Past a row of box stalls, each holding a massive warhorse, the Training Master ducked through a
narrow archway into another passage. This time they emerged on the edge of the walled field Paks
had seen from her windows. On their right, the stone building irouted a long finger; the Training
Master turned toward
sproi this.
It was a single room, and resembled a small grange except that it had no platform and no doors at
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and the clash of weapons from die far side. The Training Master led her through it, and out the
other door.
Here were perhaps a score of fighters, all in training gray, practicing with swords and—Paks was
surprised to see—hauks. To one side a burly man in blue watched diem closely. He glanced over at
the Training Master, and waved. Paks followed as they walked around the training area to meet him.
"This is Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter," said the Training Master abruptly. "The Marshal-General has
assigned her to this class."
Sharp black eyes met hers. "Ha. She's no novice."
"So I understand. If you can spare her for more time in other studies, Cieri, do so."
"Am I to hood hawks so they may learn music?" Paks
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thought by the tone that this was an old argument begun again. The Training Master's face relaxed.
"There are other skills of war, Cieri—"
"Oh, and so there are, but none of them any good if you can't keep a blade from your guts." He
shook his head. "Never mind, Chanis, I know what you mean, and the Marshal-General, too. If she
can spare the time, 111 see to it. But only if, understand that." He cocked his head at Paks, and
looked her over.
"See that she knows where to go, when you're through," said the Training Master. He turned to
Paks. "Gird be with you, Paksenarrion. If you have any need, come to my office at any time."
"Thank you, sir," said Paks, still ruffled.
"Well, now." Cieri, the weaponsmaster, was walking around her. She turned to watch him. "Where
have you fought? What weapons? I see marks of a longsword on your clothes." For the third time
that day, Paks outlined her training. Cieri, at least, showed no doubt. "That's good. Three
fighting seasons with Phelan—that means you bow your way with short sword and formation fighting.
And you've used a longsword since—very good. Many who come to us with your background cannot fight
without the others in formation. Not until I've trained diem, that is." He grinned broadly. For
all that he was younger and heavier, he reminded Paks of Siger. "What about unarmed combat?"
"I've done it," said Paks cautiously. She knew that Siger himself had mastered only a few of the
many styles.
"Can you fight mounted? I know Phelan has infantry."
"I have, some. Marshal Cedfer in Brewersbridge was teaching me, and I fought a little with a
sword."
"Without cutting up the horse? Good. I see you're wearing mail—Chanis didn't give you time to
change, eh? But we don't wear mail in practice sessions—you must not come to count on it. Today
I'll test you, but tomorrow you show up in training uniform, rightr
"Yes, sir." Paks noticed that the others were watching covertly, slowing their own practice to see
what she was doing. Cieri noticed that, too, and bellowed at them.
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"Gird's gut, may the ale hold out, you dolts keep gaping like that and 111 run you all around die
field ten times before supper. D'you think an enemy'd let you gaze all around like a bunch of
calves in pasture? Get to your work, or—" But the tempo had speeded back up at once. Cieri picked
up two swords from a stack near the edge of the practice area. "Here—we'll start widi what you're
comfortable with."
Paks took a sword and moved it, testing its balance. It was heavier than her own, and broader
across die blade. Cieri stood casually, touched her blade with die tip of his, and leaped in so
fast that she almost missed her own stroke.
"Ahal" he said. "If you were diat slow widi enemies, you would have more scars than you do. Don't
hold back, girl—I'm better dian Cedfer, if you want the truth of it." Indeed he was, and Paks
found herself working hard to keep his blade from clashing on her mail. She had gotten used to die
delicate balance of die magic sword—that responsive tight spring—and she felt, at first, that she
was fencing widi a lengdi of iron firewood. Several minutes later, sweating freely, she found her
balance, and tried offensive strokes as well as defensive. Cieri countered diem easily, but
grinned even more widely. "You're learning," he said. "You've got a reach on you, too. And
reasonable speed." He tried one of the tricks she knew about, and she thrust it aside, lunging
quickly to mark his tunic. "And you know something. Very good. You haven't wasted your time." But
in a flash he shifted his blade to die other hand. Paks, confused, missed her parry, and felt the
sharp blow along her side. Another, in die same place, and dien she countered with a blow diat
drove him back a step.
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arm and blood darkened the tunic. "Hold," he said, but she had already lowered her blade. He
glanced at his arm, and then at her widi new respect. "You do know something. By Gird, we may have
a swordsman in tfiis class after all."
"I'm sorry—" she started to say.
"No matter. In a Hall full of Marshals, little wounds like
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these are no problem. Look here—" He pulled aside the ripped sleeve to show a narrow jagged wound
already closing. "You must all learn to> fight, and strongly, and therefore I take a lot of
healing."
Paks was startled. "But I thought—"
He looked closely at her. "Oh. You're not Girdish, are you? Most are. With an arm like that, you
should be. It's nothing, here—Marshals can heal themselves as well as others, and Gird does not
begrudge healing to weapons-masters."
"Then you're—"
"A Marshal, yes. You didn't know? Most of your instructors here are Marshals."
"Oh."
"Now put away that sword you obviously know how to use—that you can't learn more—and let's see
what you do with staves." Paks had never fought with staves before, and collected a quantity of
bruises proving her incompetence. Cieri then tried her in archery; her form, he said, was
passable, but her ability to judge windage was abysmal. She could not throw a javelin at all, and
when he saw her grip on a battleaxe, he told her to put it down at once. "And I won't have you try
unarmed combat in mail just yet—tomorrow will do for that." By this time Paks was sweaty, tired,
and sore enough to be glad of a rest. "You're beyond most of the class in sword handling," he
said, after thinking a few moments. "Some of them have had lessons for years, but no actual
fighting. That's what makes die difference. You'll need regular practice with die sword, but
instead of new tricks with it, I want to improve your other weapons skills. When you finish, you
should be able to instruct with at least five weapons. More if you're interested. Tomorrow
morning, come with the others for mounted drill—do you have your own horse?"
"Yes, sir."
"Well, you can ride your own horse tomorrow. If it's trained enough, you'll bring it to every
session, but we switch around. Marshal Doggal takes most of the mounted classes. Mounted work
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your other studies, before lunch, then drill here. Is that clear?"
"Yes, sir. But—what about my horse? Where is he, and what about grooming—"
"You've been caring for your own horse? Good, good. You won't do that, for a while—this autumn
session, we keep the class busy enough without, but in the spring each student is assigned a mount
to care for. Just snow up at the right time in the mornings, and saddle up."
"Oh." Paks thought of explaining Socks's character, but decided not to.
"Now—" he looked at her closely. "I don't mean to insult you, but the order provides adequate
clothing. Leave your soiled things near the door each morning, and they'll be cleaned." Paks
nodded. "You look to be in feir condition, but you'll be sore and stiff with the schedule you've
got. Hot baths are available each night. Many students prefer to bathe and change before supper—if
they have time." He looked around at the rest of the students, and shook his head. "Nearly time to
quit, and they know it. As you've come in from traveling, and are wearing mail, I won't send
you—but we end with a run most days." He turned to the others, raised his voice. "Rufenl" A young
man with dark brown hair stepped back from his partner, and came forward. "This is Paksenarrion;
she's a new member. Take her back to the House, and show her where things are. She's got a horse
for tomorrow, but doesn't know where it's stabled."
Rufen bowed, giving Paks a quick glance. She thought he was several years younger than she, Haifa
hand shorter, and more slender. As he led her away, back through the empty armory, he looked at
her again. "You're not a Girdsman?" he asked. Paks could not place his accent, which seemed
slightly melodic.
"No," she said. She was not going to explain everything all over again. Not then.
"You fence well," he said, with another sidelong glance. "I've never seen Cieri move so fast,
except against the knights. What land of horse have you?"
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They were in the stable courtyard by then, and he asked one of the workers. "That black with the
stockings? And a wide blaze? He's in the new court stables."
"That's where guest horses are housed," explained Rufen. "I expect they'll move him in here, if
they ve got a free stall. He led the way through a tack room full of racked saddles into another,
larger, stable complex. Before he could find someone to ask, Paks heard Socks, and saw his wide
head peering out over a half-door. Rufen looked startled when she pointed him out. "That's yours?
If he's not Pargunese-bred, I'D take up the harp. Look at the bone of him." By this time they were
at the stall, and Socks had shoved his nose hard into Paks's tunic.
"I don't have any," she said sharply. He seemed in good shape, and had obviously been groomed
carefully; no saddle marks snowed on him. Rufen hung over the door, still talking.
"Great gods, what a shoulder. How's he trained? Did you train him? Do you have a pedigree? No
speed, I'd say, out a lot of bottom." Paks had no chance to answer; the questions came too fast,
and Rufen wasn't paying attention to her anyway. A groom came up.
"Tliis horse yours?"
"Yes."
"He don't like his hind legs messed with, do he?"
"No—did he kick?"
"Kickl Look there at that board—" the man pointed. It was split along its length.
"He was hurt before I got him," said Paks. The groom eyed her sourly.
"That's what they all say," he said. "Hurt before I got him, pah! Could have trained him out of
it, couldn't vour"
"I did," said Paks, suddenly angry again. "Look. She jumped up on the stall door. Socks threw his
head up and snorted. Be still," she said firmly, and slipped onto his broad back, then down to
stand beside him. She ran her hand over his massive rump, down the hind leg, and chirped. He
lifted his hoof obediently into her hand, and
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she tapped the sole, then put it down. "There, you see?" The groom nodded.
"All right. Now tell that beast to let someone else do it."
"Come on in." The groom opened the stall door, Socks stiffened his ears, and clamped his tail.
Paks soothed him with a hand, and the man followed her gesture and picked up the other hind hoof.
"I suppose, come to think of it, that no one's handled his legs but me since I got him," she said.
"I hope hell remember this," said the groom.
"Try apples," said Paks.
"Bribe a horse?"
"That's what I did."
"It works," put in Rufen. "They're such greedy-guts, horses are. We use apples in our training."
"Yes, my lord," said the groom, with a slight bow. Rufen colored, glancing at Paks. When the man
had left, and they were walking back across the stable court, he sighed.
"I suppose you know we use only one name here?"
"No—' Paks hadn't thought about it.
"Well, the—the servants and all, they know our noil names. But don't worry about it. Just call me
Rufen."
"And I'm Paks," she said. He nodded, and led her back into the maze of buildings.
"It's simple, really," he said a few minutes later, after taking her to the Low Hall where they
would eat, and then to the bath house and past some of the classrooms. "Hie High Lord's Hall opens
into the Forecourt, and directly across from it is the Marshal-General's Hall.' Her quarters are
upstairs, but they hold large meetings downstairs. And several other Marshals live there as well.
Where you came in—that archway—that's all quarters for the gate guards and some of the servants.
The other side of the Forecourt is die Training College—where we live and meet for classes. It
used to be quarters for the Knights of Gird, but when the order grew too big for it, they
converted it for us. The ground floor is much larger—rooms on the back side look over the roofs.
That's because it doesn't have cellars; all the storerooms are above ground."
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"Why?"
Rufen shrugged. "I don't know. I never wondered; they just told us when we came. Anyway, the Low
Hall is more-or-less behind the Marshal-General's quarters; you saw where the kitchens were,
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thinking of redoing them. Most of our horses— those assigned to training—are stabled in that
little court just back of us. But the only way from there to the guest stables is through the
tackroom—so you'll have to ride out the back of the guest stables, and around the smithy. Then the
Knights* horses are stabled on the other side, south of the training armory."
Paks was still confused, but hated to admit it. "There are other armories, then?"
"Gird's teeth, yes. Each order of knights has its own, of course, and the paladins have theirs—and
by the way, don't even think of trying to see what magical things they've got. Elis of Harway
tried that, a year ago, and was knocked senseless for two days by the guard power they've set."
"Oh."
"And the Marshal-General chewed her out when she came to, and had her assigned to be Suliya's
servant for a week." When Paks looked blank at that, he explained. "Suliya's a paladin—she—well,
she stays here now." Paks said nothing, since he seemed uneasy. Finally he went on. "Sometimes,
they say, even a paladin is defeated. You think of them dying, but sometimes—" He shook his head.
"Of course, I've never seen her. Elis said it was— well, she said she'd fight any of us if we
tried violating paladin secrecy. You don't know Elis, of course."
Paks began to think she'd like to know Elis. She was about to ask which of the students was Elis,
when Rufen went on. "You won't, anyway, unless she comes back before you leave."
"Was she dismissed?"
"Elis? No, but her father died, and she was the oldest. She had to take his place. As soon as one
of the others is
old enough, she wants to come back. And she will. In the long run, if Elis wants it, she gets it."
They were now in the passage outside Paks's room. A neatly lettered card fitted into a slot she
had not noticed before, so that anyone would know it was her room.
"I'm down four doors, across die passage," said Rufen. Paks finally found words for something mat
had puzzled her.
"How did you know about Elis? I thought the Marshal-General said the new class had been here only
a few weeks."
"Oh, them." Rufen laughed. "There are—oh—a dozen of them. They're all younger than you. I've been
here a year and some."
"Were all those in practice with you?" Paks did not want to reveal how unskilled they had seemed
to her.
"No—we train in groups according to skill. That's the most basic group, in sword-work. My father,
you see, planned for me to be a scholar. I had a badly broken arm, as a boy, and he thought it
would never hold up to fighting. I thought differently."
"Oh.' Paks found his composure as interesting as his story. He did not sound angry, or
defensive—he might have been talking about the training of a horse.
"You won't do your sword-work with us, I'm sure. But then Aris and Seli won't do staves with you.
By Gird, I've never seen anything so clumsy as your grip on a staff." Paks flushed, but he
obviously meant no insult. "It gives me hope for my sword-work, for I was just as clumsy to
start—perhaps you were so with a sword, and yet you've learned great skill."
"Well—I'll work hard," said Paks, trying to copy his calm.
"Oh, you'U learn. Cieri could teach a cow grace, if he wanted to. And he likes you somewhat—not
that that will take the sting out of his blows. But if we want baths before supper, we'dbest get
going. The rest of them'11 be crowding in soon enough." He went in his own room, and Paks turned
to hers. Already two complete sets of gray tunics and trousers were folded neatly on her bed. She
took off
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her mail, and her sweaty clothes, and put on the loose bath-gown of heavy gray wool. A knock on
her door. Rufen called from outside. "I forgot to tell you—lots of us don't wear the uniform to
supper. It's up to you, but don't wear mail, or weapons but the dagger.'
"Thanks," she called back. She rummaged among her things, and decided finally to wear her second-
best shirt from Brewersbridge. Perhaps they would think it strange if she showed up in students'
gray at once. Then she thought of the Training Master, and wondered. It seemed that she could be
wrong either way. Why hadn't they told her exactly what to do? She was willing to do what she was
told. She looted from one stack of clothes to the other, biting her lip nervously, trying to
remember exactly what the Training Master had said. At last she took up her own shirt and
trousers, and headed for the bath house.
Bathed and dressed once more, Paks returned to her own room, wondering now how she would know when
it was time .to eat. No one had mentioned a gong or other signal. Rufen's door was shut; she was
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commotion began—shouts, thuds— Paks leaped for her sword, then stopped short. No weapons. She
snatched at her door, and looked out.
A black-haired boy in red velvet lay flat on the floor, blinking up at two who had their backs to
Paks. She saw Rufen's door open, and his narrow good-humored face peering out.
"And if you come up here again, Aris—" said one of those standing.
"What are you doing now, Con?" asked Rufen.
"Don't bother yourself, Rufen. Just reminding the juniors that they've no right to come up here—"
"I do!" began the boy in red, but the second of the standing pair laughed shortly.
"You do, eh? Then we've a right to dump you on your tail." He took a step forward, but Rufen came
out of his
room.
"No one has a right to brawl, Jori, and you and Con
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know it. I don't know where you got the idea that this is your passage—"
"You'd dispute that?" asked Con scornfully. "You? By Gird's toe, Rufen, I can throw you with one
arm alone."
"I doubt that," said Rufen. The boy had started to roll to his feet, but Con aimed a lack in his
direction.
"Stay there, little boy."
Paks had been growing angrier. Jori sneered at Rufen, and said, "We have to do something—the
Master's put one of 'em on our floor!"
Rufen cocked his head. "So?"
"So, well have to teach them all a lesson—I don't suppose a peasant girl can be much trouble."
Paks felt her anger like a leaping flame. "You don't?" she asked, trying for a pleasant tone. The
two whirled; she saw the shock in their faces as they saw her size and condition. Behind them,
Rufen helped the boy in red to his feet. "What land of lesson," she asked, rocking slightly from
heel to toe, "did you think to teach me?" She hoped they would jump her; she wished she had gone
for them at once.
"Who in Gird's name are you?" asked Con, glancing sideways at Jori for support.
"Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter," said Paks quietly, still ready to jump. "A—peasant girl, I believe
you said, wasn't
itr
"You're the new—?" Con seemed unable to believe it.
"Yes." Paks waited, suddenly finding it funny.
"Paksenarrion," said Rufen pleasantly from behind them, "is a veteran of the wars in Aarenis. I
believe she is known to Sir Fenith, as well as Marshal Cedfer of Brewersbridge and others." Paks
glanced at him quickly, still balanced to fight. The boy Aris was grinning openly.
Con shook his head. "I'm sorry for what I said, then. You're no novice, barely trained as a
squire. 1 had heard you were a sheepfarmer's daughter, but obviously—"
"I am a sheepfarmer's daughter," said Paks, dangerously quiet. "Does that change your opinion?"
He looked confused. "But you're not Girdish. Where did a —a girl like you learn warfare, outside
the granges?"
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"In Duke Phelan's Company," said Paks, glad to see the surprise return. "I began there, as a
recruit."
' PhelanI" that was Jori, "But he's—" he looked quickly at Con.
"Yes?" Paks let her hand slip to her dagger hilt.
"I didn't say a thing—" began Jori. He held out his hands, palm up. "Look, Pak-Paksenarrion—I
don't know Duke Pnelan, I only know what I've heard. Don't—"
"And what is this?" The Training Master had turned into the passage from the stairs. Paks, facing
them all, saw their faces stiffen at his voice. She stood silent, waiting to see what would
happen. No one spoke for a long moment. Then—"Well? Have you set a gauntlet for our new student to
run? Aris, I thought you were to escort her to supper, and now I find you all standing about up
here as if you had all night to chat."
Even Rufen seemed to have no quick answer to this. Paks moved forward, passing Con and Jori
without looking at them. "Pardon, sir,' she said. "I did not know the usual signal for .supper,
and delayed them talking about your customs. You did say, did you not, that I need not change to
the student uniform for tonight?"
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"Is it permitted to wear one's own dagger to the table?"
"Yes, of course, but—"
"Then," she said, with a glance back to the others, who were watching in some land of shock, "I
apologize again for making everyone late. Aris, will you show me the way?"
The boy in red seemed the least dazed of them all, and came quickly to her side, nodding
respectfully to the Training Master, who looked down at him thoughtfully. "Someone downstairs
reported a disturbance up here," he said at last.
"Oh, sir?" Aris managed to look doubtful.
"Yells," said the Training Master.
Paks intervened. "They were expecting a peasant girl," she said, carefully not looking at Con and
Jori. "I think I surprised them."
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"I see." The Training Master looked them all over carefully. "I will see you after supper,
Paksenarrion; we must be sure you understand the rules of the house." "Certainly, sir. Where shall
I come?" "Aris can show you." Aris colored at this, and Paks surmised that he had been called
often to the Training Master's study. With a last nod, die Training Master turned away; they all
descended the stairs behind him, silently. When he turned away, and they were alone in the passage
between the kitchens and the Lower Hall, Rufen spoke. "Paks, thank you for not going into all that
with him—" "I thought we were in for it," added Con. Paks looked at him with distaste.
"Soldiers don't complain to commanders about every trifle."
Con reddened. "That's not what I meant—" "It's what I meant." She turned pointedly to Aris, who
had not spoken to her yet. "Where are you from, Aris?" "From Marrakai's House, in Tsaia—do you
know it?" Paks laughed. "No—but I've heard of Duke Marrakai." "My father," said the boy proudly.
"I'm the fourth son." "And knows it, too," muttered Jori, from behind them. Aris whipped around.
"At least my father is a Duke!" he said. "And I have three estates already to my name—"
"Oh Gird's grace," muttered Con to Jori, "did you have to start him off again?" Even Paks was
tempted to smile at the boy's intensity. But they were at the doors of the Lower Hall, and looking
for a place to sit at the crowded tables. Obviously more than students ate here: it seemed to Paks
that a whole village was in the room, and the noise confirmed it. She followed the others between
the tables, to a serving hatch. There her platter was stacked with sliced meat, a dipper of
redroots in gravy, a small loaf of bread, and a slice of something that looked like nutbread
dipped in honey. On a table beside the hatch were mugs; she had seen that each table had two
pitchers.
The Hall was so crowded that they could not sit together; Aris found a space for the two of them,
and the other three wandered away. Paks was hungry and began
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eating at once. When she slowed down enough to look around, the crowd was thinning out a little.
Aris was chatting with another fairly young boy across the table—he was straw-blond, with gray
eyes, and slightly crooked teeth. The person next to Paks had left without her noticing. She
mopped up the rest of her gravy with die bread, and looked around the table. Next to Aris was a
heavy-set redheaded man in a blue tunic, munching away steadily. Next to him, on the end, was a
tall, slender—Pafcs stopped, and stared.
The elf looked up, and smiled at her. "1 did not hear your name, lady—will you share it?" The
voice held that strange music that all elves voices shared, a hint of harpstrings or bells.
Paks choked down die last bit of bread. "Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter, sir."
The cool gray eyes sharpened. "Would you be that Paksenarrion who traveled with one Macenion?"
"Yes, sir."
"Indeed. It is my pleasure, then, to welcome you—you are welcome to us, as to die Girdsmen. I am
one of the embassy from the Westforest elves to Fin Panir; my elven name would be difficult for
you to say, but you can call me Ardhiel."
Paks realized that Aris was staring at her, open-mouthed. He hissed at her. "Paksenarrion! The elf
spoke to you? He's never said anything to me!"
Silvery laughter fell around them; the elf s eyes sparkled. "I do not know your name, young
sir—and what would I speak with you about?"
Now the man beside Aris was also alert, listening.
Aris changed color. "I—sir, I—I only meant that—that I thought elves didn't talk to—"
"To students, rarely. We fear it might distract you from your own affairs—and your affairs, young
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"Oh—you are the Kirgan?"
"No, sir. I'm the fourth son; the Kirgan is my brother Juris." The elf waved his hand, dismissing.
"Whatever, young Marrakai—your Gather's afiairs might
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march with mine, but yours—no. I mean you no discourtesy, but—"
"I'm not a child!" insisted the boy. Paks had to admit he seemed childish even to her: the elis
face expressed nothing, but she could feel his withdrawal.
'No? For me, young Marrakai, all in this room are but a summer's memory. If you would be
comfortable with elves, you must admit this. I have known your family for more
generations than you have lived in your House." Aris ushed, and set his jaw stubbornly. When his
friend across the table whispered, he rose to go, looking pointedly at Paks.
"The Training Master said I was to show you where to go/*
"Yes—thank you, Aris, I'll be right there." She looked back at the elf, whose eyes seemed for a
moment sad. "Sir, I thank you."
"Lady Paksenarrion, it is nothing. I hope to see more of you hereafter."
Chapter Twenty
In the next few days, Paks felt that her mind and body both were battered and confused. Her
instructors were forthright with both praise and criticism; other students accepted her presence
without comment, but tested her skills relentlessly. Yet they tested each other just as freely,
and seemingly held no rancor. She found it somewhat like being a recruit at the Duke's Stronghold,
with the many hours of required drill. Yet out of class and drill there was no regimentation, no
barracks chores. Clean clothes ap-peareoin her room each day, and the room itself was cleaned
while she was out. Someone else maintained the jacks and the bath house; someone else groomed the
horses and polished tack. She began to wonder if this was the way die nobles lived, playing at war
with weapons drill, but with someone else doing the dirty work. She had to admit she liked it.
Once she knew where everything was, and which place to go when, she began to enjoy it as she had
never enjoyed anything else. Most of the students cared as much about weaponry and tactics as she
did. They sat up late, arguing problems assigned by the instructors: where should a cohort of
archers be set, or which order of march was best in heavy forest. At first Paks was shy of
speaking up to Marshals and High Marshals, but silence was no protection: they would ask her. For
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brought reports of the last season's fighting to Fin Panir, and the problems set were those she
had fought through.
It started with an analysis, in a discussion of supply, of the march from Foss Council territory
to Andressat, "Assuming a march of five days," Marshall Tigran said, "what would you need to
supply a cohort of a hundred soldiers?" Paks tried to remember if it had indeed been five days.
When the others had answered, and she was called on, she simply remembered how many mules they'd
used, and blessed Stammel for insisting that she learn how to divide everything by three.
"Mules?" asked Tigran, and someone laughed. He frowned at them. Paks shook her head.
"To carry the supplies, Marshal."
"Aha! That was going to be my next question—how to transport it." Somehow Paks was getting credit
for a right answer she had never actually given. But the next one she earned on her own. "Then,'
he went on, "how you do figure the extra transport for the supply taken up by transport?" Paks
knew that, from Stammel's many tirades on the subject. One Tir-damned mule in four, he'd muttered,
just to make sure the beasts have enough for themselves. Tijp-an looked at her with respect, as
did the rest of the class. When he found she knew how long fresh mutton or beef could travel in
different seasons, and how long it took to grind the grain for a cohort's bread ration, he
grinned, and turned to die other students. "This is the value of practical knowledge," he said.
"Some of you know in theory, and the rest of you are learning, but here's a soldier who has been
in the field, and knows what die ration tastes like."
"Can you tell us if it's true what Marshal Tigran says, about not being able to fight without
supply even for one day? I still think brave troops could do without—not for long, maybe, but for
a day or so." That was Con, more interested than aggressive. Tigran nodded to Paks, and she
thought back to the various campaigns, and the day of the ambush in the forest near the Immer.
Paks described the enemy's apparent retreat, her Company's forced march trying to catch them, and
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in the forest. No one interrupted with questions; even Con was quiet. She told them of the damp
cold that night, when the wounded had no shelter, and no one had food, when the smell of the
enemy's food drifted across the locked squares, making their hunger worse. And the next mornings
attack, their allies' arrival. And finally of the sudden weakness that toppled more than one of
them, that long march and heavy fighting without food or rest.
"It's not a matter of bravery," she said. "You can live long without food, and stand and fight for
a time, but not march and fight."
Tigran nodded at her. "Most of you have never been hungry for long—and since you aren't seasoned
warriors, never when fighting."
"I wonder why you came to study, Paks," said Con after that class. "You already know as much as
the Marshals—"
"No. No, I don't." She wondered how to explain what she didn't know. "I know what a private
knows—the soldier in the cohort—"
"It seems plenty—"
"No, listen. I always wanted to learn, and so I paid attention to the sergeants, and the captains
when the; talked in my hearing. But I only know it from the bottom. I don't know how to plan—how
to think of more than one cohort at a time. You know how to reckon amounts for any number—rightF
He nodded. "Well, I don't. My sergeant taught me to divide by three, to find our cohort s share of
die Company's supplies. And I can add that three times, to go from a cohort's share to the whole
Company. But thats all. He told me one time that Marrakai, when he goes to war, has five cohorts.
I can't reckon in fives at all."
"You can't? But it's not hard—"
"No, maybe not. But you know how, and I don't. And in tactics, I know some things not to do*, but
I don't always know why. I can write well enough, and read—but I can't write a description of a
battle, as Marshal Drafin showed us, or read one and make sense out of it. Hie sand table is one
thing, but those books—"
"Huh. I thought after the first night that you knew everything—or thought you did."
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Pals shook her head again. "I won't ever know anything— there's not time enough to learn all I
want to know—"
"Now that's an interesting sentiment." The Training Master had appeared, as usual, without
warning. Paks had begun to wonder if he had magical powers. "Are you serious in what you say?"
Paks was, as always, wary around him. "Yes . . . sir."
"You feel you have much more to learn—even with your practical experience?"
Paks felt an edge of sarcasm in his voice. She stiffened. "Yes. I said that.'
"Don't bristle at me." To her surprise, he was smiling. "One thing that worried the Marshal-
General was the possibility that you might find these things too boring—"
"Boring!"
"Don't interrupt, either. We have had a few other veterans who found them so—who were so intent on
what they had done already that they could not learn new things.' He looked intently at Con, who
colored Paks wondered what that was about, but was glad enough he wasn't after her. "How are you
coming with your reading?" He was after her. She wondered if he'd heard what she had said to Con.
She hated having to admit her weaknesses.
"Not—very fast, sir."
"I thought so." It did not sound too sarcastic. "Paksenamon, die only way to learn to read faster
and better is to read—just nice swordplay. You can't learn swordplay from a book, or reading from
your sword."
"But if I can listen to someone who knows—"
He shook his head. "Paksenarrion, no one knows" everything—you're not alone in that. Writing
stores knowledge, for others to use who may never know the writer. You know how tales told change
in the telling—" She nodded, and he went on. "That's why writing is so important. Suppose you are
in a battle; n you can write well enough to describe it accurately, then others can learn from
your experience many years from now."
"It's too late." Paks looked down. She had hated turning in her scrawls when the others wrote
neat, legible hands. "I—die ones who can write started earlier."
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"And when did you start with staves? And you're already out of the novice class, into
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about your standing with the juniors, and start spending your evenings on tactics. And supply.
Perhaps if youll explain reckoning in all numbers to Pales, shell explain why you can't march a
cohort for two days on sixteen measures of barley and a barrel of apples."
"Apples? I meant to write salt beef."
"Your writing is not much better than Paks's—neither Tigran nor I could decide what you really
meant, so we called it apples. So might your supply sergeant, someday."
She could not remember when she had felt so at home. Not even in the Company, that last year.
Instead of Saben and Canna, she had Rufen, Con, and Peli. They spent hours with pebbles and beans,
teaching her reckoning. She taught them all one of her favorite sword tricks, so that Cieri,
bested three times in one day, glared at them all, and accused Paks of trying to get his job as
weaponsmaster. She began to read faster, and understand more complicated books and scrolls. They
began to realize, as Rufen explained one night, that the soldiers they might command one day were
real people.
"I knew they were," he said thoughtfully, "and yet I didn't. Here we talk about supplying a
cohort, or positioning a squad of archers over here, and a couple of cohorts of pikes mere.
They're just—^just bodies. Soldiers. Gird forgive me, being a Girdsman, but I looked like that at
my father's guardsmen . . . they all wore a uniform, they all wore the same weapons. But after
knowing you—and you were, as you say, 'just a private"—I know they're real people."
Paks looked down, suddenly moved almost to tears. She felt, for the first time, that these were
real friends. She could talk to them about the Company—about die people in it—with no betrayal of
trust. Little by little she opened up, talking a few words at a time about Stammel and Devlin, Vuc
and Arne—even Saben and Canna.
She had special status with the juniors—for Aris Marrakai
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had told his friends about her protecting him from Con's bullying. They did not venture to intrude
on the upper floors very often, but she was conscious of shy smiles and friendly greetings from
the whole group that Con despised.
Then there were the other races, seen close-to for the first time. The elf who had spoken to her
the first night often ate at her table. When he saw her interest, he taught her a few words of
elventongue—polite greetings and other courtesies. Some evenings he played the hand harp and sang;
Paks and the others listened, entranced. Paks might have thought him a mere harper and wordsmith,
but he came to weaponsdrill from time to time, and only the most advanced students fenced with
him. Paks lost her sword twice in one session.
The dwarves kept more to themselves, and Paks might not have met them but for an accident with an
axe. She had asked to learn axe-fighting, remembering Mal's effectiveness, and Cieri shook his
head.
"1 can teach axe-work, but to be honest, Paks, I don't know as I've ever seen a good swordfighter
take to the axe. You're likelier to make a good spearman. But whatever you want—as long as you
keep improving with staves."
"I still don't understand why that's so important."
Cieri grinned. "You don't, eh? Well, keep in mind that the rest of us are Girdsmen. Gird was a
former, not a lord's son to have a sword at his side. He won the freedom of the yeomen with
weapons they could find or make: dubs, staves, cudgels—and an occasional axe. Every Girdsman
learns to use those first; every knight of Gird can not only use, but teach the use of, the
weapons you can find anywhere. Then no yeoman of Gird is helpless, so long as a stick is within
his reach."
Paks thought about it a moment. "You mean—ordinary farmers—fighting regular soldiers?"
"Yes, exactly. Surety you've heard that?"
"Well, yes—but—"
"But you still don't believe it?" He shook his head. "You were a former's daughter—and you wanted
to fight—so in your mind you built up what a soldier's weapon can do.
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When you become a Girdsman, Paksenarrion, 111 show you, wood against steel, how Gird won."
"Why not now?"
Cieri gave her a long look. "Because you are not under Gird's law yet, and I just might lose my
temper."
"Oh." Paks was not sure what he meant, and didn't think she should ask more.
"But as for axes, that's a Girdish weapon. Have you ever used one much for chopping?"
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"And in Phelan's Company?"
"The sergeants said they didn't have time to teach us axe-work,"
"Wise. Well, go get one from the armory, and well start."
For a few days things went well; the basic drills were not hard, and Paks soon adjusted to the
heavy axe-head hanging on the end of her arm. Or so she thought. Then Cieri set up a roughly
carved log for her to "fight." It had a couple of branches for "arms.* Paks looked at it
disdainfully. She had seen the amusement on the others' faces.
"Isn't this just like chopping a tree?"
"Ves, but you haven't chopped any trees, and we don't happen to need any trees chopped. This will
be fuel for the main kitchens later, if youH get busy and do what I tell you." He took die axe
from her, motioned her back, and with two smooth swings took a four-finger-deep chunk out of the
log. "Like that," he said. "And remember what I told you about backswing and bounce. Wood is
harder than flesh, but softer than armor—at least this wood is."
Paks took the axe, which now felt comfortable in her grip. The basic stroke, he had explained, was
much like the sideswing in longsword—but for using two hands. Paks had not used a two-handed
sword; she did not think that mattered. She swung the axe back over her shoulder, and brought it
around smoothly. Harder than flesh—softer than armor: she put what she thought was the right force
into it. Whack! She felt the blow in both shoulders, and the axe-head recoiled, dragging her off
balance, and missing her knee by a fingersbreadth.
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"You have to hit harder than that, Paks," said Cieri. "A two-handed blow is a twisting blow; get
your back into it."
The next stroke caught the axe-blade in the wood. She struggled to wrench it free, while Cieri
described what happened to fighters whose weapons caught in an enemy. She felt the back of her
neck getting hot; yet she knew he was right. That didn't help. When she began again, she managed a
series of effective strokes, knocking off chips much smaller than Cieri's, but not making any
serious mistakes. He called a halt, and nodded.
"You're doing well for a beginner. Now see if you can hit a certain target." He brought out his
pot of paint, and daubed red on both of the "arms," as well as two spots on the "body." "Let's see
you get the left arm first, then the upper body, then the lower body, then the right arm. Make
your strokes work; use as few as you can. Remember, he's got a spear he's poking at you in the
meantime."
Paks looked at the targets. "Axe fighters don't cany shields, do they?"
"Not using this kind of axe. There's a light battleaxe for riders that you can use one-handed—you
could carry a shield with that. But here it's your quickness."
"I could break the spear with the axe, couldn't I?"
"You'd better. But that's a smaller target than you're ready lor. And it moves. You've something
to learn before you face a live spearman with an axe."
Paks nodded, and turned to the enemy tree. She had just gotten in position for a stroke at the
left-hand branch when Cieri stopped her.
"Now look, Paks—you've got more sense than this. Look where you are."
She was sideways to the "enemy," in easy reach of the right "arm.**
"You can't face him directly with that axe—think! Where can you strike, and be out of range."
Paks was annoyed at herself. She moved around the side of the tree, and swung at the left branch
from there. She heard the wood creak as the axe sank deep, and was halfway into the next stroke
when Cieri yelled again.
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"Gird's blood! Do you think he'll stand still while you chop him up? Move, girl!"
Paks felt die blood rush to her face. She jumped, whirling the axe high, and swung again at the
branch. It split before taking the full force of her blow, and the axe swung on to lay a deep gash
in her leg as she landed from die jump. Furious, she ignored the pain and aimed a vicious slash at
the main trunk, straight at Cieri's mark. The axe stopped in midstroke, wrenching her shoulders,
and hung in the air.
"Let go," said Cieri mildly. Pales looked at the axe, down at Tier leg, and then unwrapped her
hands from the axe handle, The axe fell with a clang. "If the blade's damaged," Cieri went on,
"you can grind it down yourself. I'd thought you too seasoned a fighter to lose your temper for a
little thing like that."
Paks said nothing, still angry. Pain from her lee began to demand attention. He came forward, and
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"You're damned lucky, Paks. Now will you believe me about axes?"
"I can learn." She was surprised at her own voice, lurry with anger.
His eyebrows rose. "Oh? How? By cutting off your limbs one at a time? The way you're going, vouTI
be an axe-fighter about the time you're holding the axe in your teeth.
"I could—if you weren't badgering me." Paks glared at him, saw die flash of his dark eyes.
"Me! You—not even a yeoman—you're telling me, the weaponsmaster, that I shouldn't heckle you? I
thought you had more sense—and here you stand flatfooted like a novice, dien lose your temper just
because I tell you so, and then this! I suppose I should be glad you aren't a Girdsman."
"I—" Paks was suddenly conscious of all the other listening ears. "I'm sorry," she muttered.
"So you should be, he said crisply. "You'll miss days of work with that leg, and I don't dunk
you'll find yourself in die same class when you come back. If you do.
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Paks looked up, startled, to meet a grim cold Cieri she had never seen. "Sir?"
"It might pass in a novice, Paksenarrion, but not in someone who claims to be a veteran. Was all
that just an act?"
"What?" Now she was completely bewildered. It must have shown, for Cieri's face softened a trifle.
"That even disposition you showed until today. That smile, that willingness. Which is the real
you, Paksenarrion? Do you know yourself? Or are you acting a part all the time, inside and out?"
"I—I thought you—liked me," she said. She knew at once it was the wrong thing to have said.
"Liked you? Gird's arm, what do you mean by that? Listen, Paksenarrion, you come here on trial,
not even a Girdsman—you come in full of life as a yearling colt, showing ofF, taking every trick I
know, everything the other Marshals can teach you—and teaching your own tricks to the others—and
you expect us to like it? Well, any teacher likes a willing student—but that's not enough for us.
We're training knights of Gird, Paksenarrion, and paladins, who will go and and die for the
justice Gird brought. You—you're playing with us, enjoying a safe, exciting time doing what you
like to do. Then you'll go where you please, using what you've learned for your own ends. The rest
of us aren't playing a game." He shook his head. "I've let you play; after all, you're a good
practice partner for die others. I thought, from the way you seemed to be, that you might join the
Fellowship and justify the time I've spent. But I won't waste my time on games any more. Well see
what the Marshal-General says, before you return." Paks could hardly believe her ears. He was
turning away when he glanced at her leg. "Better wrap that; you've bled a lot."
Paks watched him walk without a backward glance toward the other students, who were staring in the
same shock she felt. He had them back to their drill in seconds, and did not look her way again.
Paks forced herself to think, to move. She took off the scarf she had wrapped around her head
against the cold, and bound it tightly around her leg. The bleeding had slowed, but she had left
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a sizeable stain on the ground. She could do nothing about that, but she did take a few seconds to
stack the hacked limb neatly near the rest of the tree before limping back to the armory. Cieri
still had the axe.
She looked back from inside the armory. Cieri was fencing with Con; no one looked her way. She
felt cold, inside as well as out. She had been stupid—even rude— but was it really that bad? And
had they all been resenting her since she came? She tried to think what to do. She took a roll of
bandage material from its box beside the armory door, and retreated toward the stableyard, which
had a well. It was midmorning; a stable worker trundled a barrow full of dung out the for archway
as she came into the yard. No one else was in sight. Paks pulled the scarf away from her leg,
wincing, and washed the wound out until the bleeding stopped before wrapping it with clean
bandages.
The Training Master, she was thinking dully. I must see the Training Master—and then the Marshal-
General. Her leg was hurting in earnest now, throbbing in time with her pulse. She rinsed the
scarf in a bucket of water, and wrung it out. Her fingers were stiff with the cold water. When she
looked up, two dwarves were watching her.
"Your pardon is it?" said the darker one. "Is it that you can say what way to the training field
for the knights?^
Paks worked the meaning out of this. "Did you want Marshal Cieri?" she asked.
They nodded gravely. They hardly topped her head, the way she was leaning over the bucket, and she
didn't think it would be polite to stand. The darker one carried a double-bladed axe thrust into
his belt; the yellow-bearded one carried his in his hand. "It is that we were asked to show
something of this skill with the axe," he said. "It is Marshal Cieri who teaches this, is it not
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"It is." Paks felt her ears redden. She felt even worse than before. If he had asked dwarves to
come and teach her— "It is through that arch," she said, nodding toward it, "and then right, and
through the building there." She could not explain; besides, it might be something else.
"What is it that you do herer asked the darker dwarf, peering into the bucket. "It looks blood."
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Paks blushed deeper. "It is—I cut myself, and this wrapped it at first."
The dwarf nodded. "Cut—are you then not a student of the weaponsmaster?"
"I—am," Paks hesitated, wondering if she should claim that now.
"But he is Marshal, yes? It is that he heals those injured in training?"
"Not this time," said Paks, hoping they would go.
Four shrewd eyes bored into her. She could not read their expressions. Then the darker dwarf
emitted a rough gabble of words that Paks had never heard before: dwarvish, she thought. The
yellow-bearded one spoke to her. "I am Balkis, son of Baltis, son of Trok, son of Kertik, the
sister-son of Ketinvik Axemaster, the first nephew of Axemaster. It is that you are not Gird's?"
Paks had never met a dwarf, and did not know that this introduction was normal. She was trying to
remember it all when the question came, and for a moment did not answer. The dwarves waited
patiently. "I am not of the Fellowship of Gird," she said finally.
"But you are here," said the darker dwarf. "How is it that you are here?"
"I was offered a time of training here," said Paks carefully, "because of something I had done."
"Ah." Another pause. Finally the yellow-bearded dwarf, Balkis, asked, "Is it that we might know
your clan?"
Paks realized, belatedly, that she had not responded to his introduction with her name. "I'm
Paksenarrion Dort-hansdotter, of Three Firs."
An exchange of dwarvish followed this. Balkis spoke in Common again. "Please—is it that Three Firs
is a clan? We do not know this name."
"No, Three Firs is the village nearest my father's home. It is far from here, to the north."
"Ah. And your father is Dorthan, but of what clan?"
Paks wondered how to explain. "Sir, my father's father was Kanas Jorisson, but I do not think we
have the same kind of clans you do—"
Both dwarves laughed loudly. "Indeed, you would not!
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No—no, you would not. But some men think they have clans as we do, and give themselves names for
them, and if you were such then we wished no insult by failing to acknowledge that name." Then
Balkis leaned back on his heels watching her. "What is it that you did, to make a hurt the
weaponsmaster would not heal?"
Paks looked down. "I—cut myself."
"Yes, but—" He stopped, and leaned close to place his face before her. "I would not have you to
think that it is our nature to be inquisitive."
Abruptly, Paks found herself grinning. "Oh, no," she said. "I wouldn't think that."
"Good. But we have to study men, who come into our rocks and want things of us. So it is that you
will tell us what is that cut?"
"I was trying to use an axe," said Paks slowly. "And I became angry, and struck too hard, and cut
my leg."
"Ah. Angry with an axe is dangerous."
"So I found," said Paks ruefully.
"And this the weaponsmaster found badly done, is it so?"
"Yes. And I was rude." She wondered why she was telling them, but their interest seemed to pull it
out of her.
"Rude—to a Marshal." Suddenly the darker one loosed a volley of dwarvish, and both of them began
to quiver. Paks looked up to see their eyes sparkling with mischief. "You fear not Marshals?"
"I—" Paks shook her head. "I should fear them more. I was here as a guest, and my rudeness will
cost my place."
"Ha!" Balkis nodded. "They are as a clan of adopjtion, and you are not adopted. So it is they can
be unjust.
"It wasn't unjust," said Paks. "It—they thuik I have been unjust, to take their hospitality
without giving in return."
Now they frowned. "You haven't?"
"No." Paks poured the stained water out on the cobbles and watched it drain away between them. "I
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"Less than I used to be," said Paks.
"Would you try again?" asked Balkis. His voice held a challenge.
"I might—if I have the chance."
"If it happens that your weaponsmaster refuses you, I will show something," he offered. "It is not
every human that will be rude to Marshals of Gird, and be willing to work with axes past the first
blood drawn."
"But I was wrong," said Paks, thinking ahead to what the Training Master would say. The dwarves
both shrugged, an impressive act with shoulders like theirs.
"It is the boldness of the fighter," said Balkis. "We dwarves, we will not take lessons from
Marshals, despite their skill, for they are always insulting us. Did you know any dwarves, where
you came from?"
'No," said Paks. "You are the first I have ever met, though I saw dwarves in Tsaia and Valdaire."
"Ah. Then you know not our ways. It involves no clan-rights, but perhaps you would sit at our
table some night?"
"If I'm here," said Paks.
They shrugged again, and passed out of the stableyard toward the training fields. Paks gathered up
the damp scarf, pushed herself upright, and limped back toward her room. On the way, she saw the
Training Master turn into the corridor ahead of her and called to him. He stopped, looking back,
and came forward, looking concerned.
"Paksenarrion—what's happened? You're hurt?"
"Yes, sir. I—" Suddenly she felt close to tears. She pulled herself upright. "It's not that, sir,
but I must speak with you."
"Something's happened?"
"Yes, sir."
"Well, come along, then." He led the way to his study, and waved her to a seat. "What is it?"
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Paks took a long breath, clutching the sodden scarf in her hands. "Sir, I—I lost my temper, and
was rude to Marshal Cieri, and he doesn't want me in his class."
"I see." His face looked almost as cold as the first day. "And you come to me about it—why?"
"I thought I should." She swallowed painfully the lump that had been growing in her throat for the
past half-hour. "Sir."
"You want me to plead for you? Without hearing his story?"
"No, sir." Why was everyone misunderstanding what she meant? Paks plunged on. "It isn't that—I
thought I was supposed to tell you—"
"He told you to?" That was with raised brows.
"No, sir,' said Paks miserably. "I mean—you're the Training Master—if it was back in the Company,
I'd have to tell the sergeant—"
His voice gained a hint of warmth. "You're saying that you are doing what you would have done in
Duke Phelan's Company? Reporting something you did wrong?"
"Yes, sir."
"I see." His fingers drummed on the desk. "You agree that whatever happened was your fault?"
Paks nodded. Thinking back, she knew that Siger or Stammel would have reacted just as Cieri had—if
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"Well, suppose you tell me about it. And by the way, how did you get hurt?"
"You knew I'd asked to learn axe fighting?" Paks waited for his nod, then went on. "I'd been doing
drills with the axe—not hitting anything, and today Marshal Cieri set up a target. A log, with
limbs." Paks stopped. It seemed even worse as she tried to think how to say what had happened.
"Yes?"
"Well—sir—I had trouble with it—he'd said I would—"
"And you lost your temper over that?"
"No, sir. Not then. After a while I made some chips of it, and then he wanted me to hit specific
targets. Only when I started, he—he got after me for not thinking of it as live, for giving it a
chance to hit back." She looked up to see the Training Master's lips folded tightly. As baa as
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hit again, he was angry that I hadn't allowed for it to move. So I jumped at it, and hit it really
hard, and the limb broke and the axe hit my leg."
"How badly?"
"Just a cut. But then I was angry, and I was about to—to swing as hard as I could, and he stopped
the axe." Paks looked up again. "I didn't know he could do that."
"It's not something we demonstrate very often," said the Training Master, in a neutral voice. "Go
on."
Paks ducked her head. "Then he said he thought I knew better than to lose my temper, and that I
wouldn't be any good at axe-work, like he'd said. And that's when—"
"What did you say, Paksenarrion?"
"I said—" she paused to remember the words. "I said I could learn, if he wouldn't harass me. It—I
was wrong, sir, and I know it. I knew it as soon as I said it—"
"Did you apologize?"
"Yes, sir; I told him I was sorry—"
"Did you mean it?"
Paks looked up, startled.
"Were you sorry for being rude, or sorry he was angry with you, or sorry you'd lost your temper in
the first place?"
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"I—I don't know, sir. I suppose—I was just sorry about everything."
"Hmph. So then what happened?"
Paks told the rest as well as she could, and on being prompted added the conversation with the
dwarves. When she had finished, the Training Master sighed.
"So you came to me, because you thought you should, and you expect me to do—what? What do you
think will happen now?"
Paks met his gaze squarely. "I think you'll send me away," she said. "If that s what all of you
think—that it's unfair to spend the time when I'm not a Girdsman. And even if I were—he said it
would be bad—you might still."
"Do you think we should send you away?"
Paks didn't know what to say to this. For a moment she looked away, but when her eyes returned to
his face it held the same quiet expectancy. She thought the question over. "Sir, I—I don't know
what your rules are—what your limits are. If I do what you don't want, then of course you have the
right to send me away. But I can't think what is best for you—for the Fellowship. If it is best
to, then you will. Otherwise—I don't know."
"Well, if you are convinced we will send you away, why come to me? Why not simply go pack your
things and leave? Or tell us you're leaving, and not wait to be dismissed?"
"But—I couldn't do that. I would be—" She could not think of the right words; she knew it would be
wrong, and somehow worse than wrong. "Discourteous," she finally said. "Ungrateful. It's my fault,
and you have the right; I don't."
He shook his head slowly. "I'm not sure I follow your reasoning, Paksenarrion. You agree that we
have the right to dismiss you, if you displease us—but you think you have no right to withdraw?
"If I didn't want to stay—or if something happened, perhaps to my family or something—then I
could, but it wouldn't be fair to—to walk out when it was my fault."
He pounced on that. "Fair. You're trying to be what you think is fair?"
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"Yes, sir."
"And you said 'if I didn't want to stay' — does that mean you do want to stay?"
"Of course I do, ' said Paks, louder than she'd meant to.
"There's no 'of course' to it," he replied crisply. "Many who come here to train don't like it,
and don't want to stay. Are you saying that even after Cieri's thrown you out of his class — in
front of everyone — you'd still prefer to stay here?"
"Yes, sir."
"Why?"
Her hands twitched. "It's — it's what I always wanted to learn. These weeks have been the best of
my life. "
"Until today. "
"Yes, sir." Then she looked at him again. "If I could stay — today is not much, really — "
"Oh?" His brows went up again; Paks's heart sank. "You call an axe wound, and having the senior
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"You're sorry. I'm sure." He sighed again. "Paksenarrion, we accept occasional outsiders — non-
Girdsmen — because we know that good hearts and good fighters may choose another patron. You have
an unusual background; it may be that you have seen that which makes today seem minor to you. But
to us it is important. We have all watched you, for these weeks, and been puzzled. You are
capable, intelligent, hardworking, physically superior to most of the others. You have gotten
along with the others, juniors and seniors both. You don't brawl, get into arguments, get drunk,
or try to seduce the Marshals. If you were a Girdsman, we would be more than pleased with your
progress. Yet you have reserves, you harbor mysteries, which we cannot fathom. All our skills say
these are not evil — yet great evil has been known to masquerade as good, just as a beautiful
cloak can cover an evil man. This — today — is the first chink in your behavior. Is it
characteristic? Is this the true Paksenarrion coming out? And why have you refused to make any
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Marshal Cieri does, in this way, speak for all of us. We would welcome you gladly as a (might-
candidate—perhaps more—if you were of the Fellowship of Gird. But until you show us something,
some willingness to give in return for what you are given—more than that surface pleasantness you
have shown, I must concur with him."
Paks sat still, unable to move or speak. She had never really believed that anyone could think she
was evil. She longed to be back with the Duke's Company, where Stam-me[ she was sure, would defend
her against any such accusation. Why had she ever left that safe haven? Into that shock, her leg
intruded, throbbing more insistently. She blinked a few times, and lifted her head.
"Yes, sir," she said, through stiff lips. "I—I will go pack."
"Gird's right arm!" The Training Master's voice must have echoed through the entire first floor.
"That's not what I said, girl!" Paks stared at him. "You have the choice—make it!"
"Choice?" Paks could not think.
"You can become a Girdsman," said the Training Master crisply. "Has that not occurred to you?"
"No," said Paks with more honesty than tact.
"Then it should have. By the gods, girl, you think better than that in tactics class. You
recognize what the problem is: you want to stay for more training, and we are unwilling to give
more training without some return. How much do you want to stay? What are you willing to give? And
what did you want the training for, if not to follow Gird?"
Paks felt her heart pounding so that she could scarcely draw breath. "You mean I could join—but if
you think I'm bad, why would you—"
The Training Master gave a disgusted snort. "I didn't say I thought you were evil. I said it was a
possibility. Do you want to join the Fellowship of Gird? Will you pay that price?"
"I—" Paks choked a moment and went on. "Sir, I want to stay. If that is what—but will Gird accept
it?"
"We can talk of Gird himself later, Paksenarrion. What we, the Marshals, are looking for is
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what Gird may ask. Is it something your Duke told you, that makes you dislike Gird so? Or have you
another patron you haven't told us about?"
Paks shook her head. "No, sir. It's nothing like that; all I have been told of Gird I admire, and
here you teach that Gird is a servant of the High Lord, not a god to worship instead of him. But—"
She could not explain the obscure reserve and resentment she felt, and worked her way toward it
haltingly. "When I was in the Duke's Company, I knew Girdsmen. Efia was killed in her first
battle—but that doesn't matter. I think it was when Canna was captured and killed. She was a
Girdsman, but it didn't help. She died, and not in clean battle, even though we were trying to
reach the Duke, and tell him about Siniava's capture of the fort. If Gird saved anyone, why not
Canna, his own yeoman? Why me?"
"You don't like the notion that great deeds reward the hero with a quick death?"
Paks shook her head more vigorously. "No, sir. And hers wasn't quick, by what I was told. Capture,
and a bad wound—that s no reward for faithful service. And she was the one hit at the fort itself,
by a stray arrow. Why didn't Gird protect her then? She kept us together, led the way—it should
have been her chance, that last day, not mine." She felt the old anger smouldering still, and
fought it down. "And more than that—the captain said it was probably Canna's medallion that saved
me from death in Rotengre—but I'm a soldier. Why didn't Gird save the slave, or the baby? Why did
they have to die?" Now more scenes from Aarenis recurred: the child in Cha, the frightened rabble
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the coastal campaign. She set her jaw, feeling once more that old sickness and revulsion, that
helpless rage at injustice, that had driven her from the Duke's Company to travel alone.
Tlie Training Master nodded slowly; she could see nothing mocking in his face. "Indeed,
Paksenarrion, you ask hard questions. Let me answer the easiest one first. You ask why Gird did
not save his own yeoman, and the answer to that is that Girdsmen are called to save others,
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not be saved." He held up his hand to stop the questions that leaped into her mouth. "No—listen a
moment. Of this I am sure, sure from die archives and from my own knowledge. Gird led unarmed
formers into battle with trained soldiers—do you think they won their freedom without loss? Of
course not. Even the yeomen of Gird— even the novice members of the Fellowship—have to accept a
soldier's risks. Above that level, as yeoman-marshal, Marshal, High Marshal, and so on—and as
paladin— Girdsmen know that then- lives are forfeit in need. Gird protects others through the
Fellowship—he does not protect the Fellowship as a shepherd protects sheep. We are all his
shepherds, you might say."
Paks thought about that. "But Canna—"
"Was your friend, and you mourn her. That is good. But as a yeoman of Gird, she risked and gave
her life to save others—or that's what it sounds like you're saying."
"It's true."
"Now—about those innocents who are not Girdsmen, and are killed. This is why the Fellowship of
Gird trains every yeoman—to prevent just that. But in many lands we are few—our influence is
small—"
"But why can't Gird do it himself, if he's—"
"Paksenarrion, you might as well ask why it snows in winter. I did not mate the world, or men, or
elves, or the sounds the harp makes when you pluck the strings. All I know is that the High Lord
expects all his creatures to choose good over evil; he has given us heroes to show the way, and
Gird is one of these. Gird has shown men how to fight and work for justice in the face of
oppression: that was his genius. It is not the only genius, nor dare I say it is the best; only
the High Lord can judge rightly. But as followers of Gird, we try to act as he did. Sometimes we
receive additional aid. Why it comes one time and not another, or why it comes to one Marshal and
not another, I cannot say. Nor can you. Nor will you ever know, Paksenarrion, until you pass
beyond death to die High Lord's table, if that happens." He gave her a long look. "And I think
that you blame Gird oecause you are still blaming yourself for these deaths. Is that not so?"
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Paks looked down. She could still hear Canna's voice, that last yell: Run, Paks! And she had run.
She could still hear the others. "It might be," she said finally.
"Paksenarrion, Gird does not kill the helpless—someone alive, with a sword or club or stone, does
that. If you still think, after the time you have been here, that the followers of Gird act that
way—"
"No, sir!"
"—then you should leave at once. But if you see us trying to teach men and women how to live
justly together, and defend their friends and families against the misuse of force, then consider
if that is not your aim as well. Gird may ask your life, someday, but Gird will never ask you to
betray a friend, or injure a helpless child. Consider the acts of your Girdish friend, and not her
death, and ask yourself if these were good or bad."
"Good," said Paks at once. "Canna was always generous."
"And so you are rejecting Gird because he has not acted as you would—is that it?"
Paks had not thought that clearly about it. Put that way it seemed arrogant, to say the least.
"Well—I suppose I was."
"You are not rejecting his principles, it seems, but the fact that they aren't carried out?"
Paks nodded slowly, still thinking.
"Then it seems, Paksenarrion, that you ought to be willing to try to carry them out." His mouth
quirked in a smile. "If the rest of us are doing so badly."
"I didn't say that!"
"I thought you just did. However—" He leaned forward, elbows on the desk. "If you don't think we
are too corrupt, perhaps you will give us the benefit of your judgment—"
"Sir!" Paks felt her eyes sting; her head was whirling already.
"I'm sorry." He actually sounded sorry. "I went too for, perhaps—1 forgot your leg. We'll talk
again later—we must get you upstairs and let the surgeon see that."
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"She's got a small wound, Arianya," said the Training Master.
"Not that small," said the voice. "It's bled all over your floor, Chanis. Better take a look."
Paks tried to focus on the Training Master as he came back around die desk to kneel beside her
chair. Her eyes blurred. She heard the two Marshals talking, and then another excited voice, and
then felt a wave of nausea that nearly emptied her stomach. She clamped her jaw against that, and
roused enough to know that they were carrying her along the passage. Finally the motion stopped,
and her stomach quieted. When she got her eyes working again, she was lying flat on a bed, staring
at the ceiling. Her mouth was dry, and tasted bad. She rolled her head to one side. That was a
mistake. Her stomach heaved, and she hardly noticed the pail someone pushed under her mouth until
she was through.
From a distance, someone said, "If she had the sense to match her guts, she'd be fine—"
"I don't call feinting from a simple cut like that guts,
Chanis."
"She didn't, and you know it. We all pushed as hard as—" "Well, however you say it, I still
think—" Closer, someone called her name. "Paksenarrion? Come on now, quit scaring us." She felt a
cup at her lips, and drank a swallow of cold water. Her stomach churned, but accepted it. She
opened her eyes again to see the Marshal-General's flint-gray eyes watching her. Before anyone
else could speak, Paks managed to force out her own message. "I want to join—the Fellowship—even
if you send me
away."
Silence followed this. The Marshal-General stared at
her. Finally she spoke.
"Why now?"
"Because I was wrong about him—Gird. And so—and so I want to join, and do better."
"Even if I send you away? Even if you never go beyond
yeoman?" "Yes." Paks felt as stubborn now on this ground as she
had before on others.
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"I hope you feel the same when you've remade a couple of skins of blood." The Marshal-General sat
back, and grinned. "Gird's ten fingers! Did you have to lose half the blood in your body to learn
sense?"
"I didn't," said Paks. She had the curious feeling that her body was floating just above the bed.
She knew she understood more than the others, only it was hard to speak. "It isn't lost—it's not
in the same place, is all."
"And you're wound-witless. All right. If you still want to make your vows when you're strong
enough, I daresay Gird will accept them. But that will be some time, Paksenarrion. For now you
must rest, and obey the surgeons."
Not until some days later did Paks hear the full story of that day. She had had no visitors at
first but the surgeons, the Training Master, and the Marshal-General. Finally the surgeons agreed
that she could move back to her own room. She was surprised at how shaky she felt after climbing
the stairs—from one simple cut, she thought. She sat down hard on her bed, head whirling, and
leaned back against the pillows. Rufen and Con woke her some time later when they discovered her
door open and looked in to see why.
"Paks?"
She woke with a start; the last sunlight came through her window. "Oh—I forgot to shut the door."
"Are you all right? You look pale as cheese," said Con. Paks gave him a long stare.
"I'm fine. I just—dozed off."
"The Training Master said you were back. He said not to bother you, but your door was open—"
"That's all right." Paks pushed herself up. She wondered what they were thinking about, and felt
her ears going hot.
"Ive never been so mad in my life," said Con, moving into the room to sit at her desk. "I'd have
taken Cieri apart if I could have—"
"Instead of which, he dumped you—how many times?" Rufen leaned against the doorframe, smiling.
That doesn't matter. Listen, Paks, if they'd thrown you out, I'd have—have—"
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"No, it's not. It wasn't fair—we could all see that. I couldn't believe it, the way he hounded
you—and you the best of us. Gird's flat feet, but I'd have blown up at him days before."
Paks stared at him in surprise. "But I thought you'd be on their side—I thought you'd agree that
it wasn't fair for me to be here as an outsider."
Con shrugged. "That! What difference does that make? I've been a Girdsman all my life, and I never
will be as good a fighter as you are. It's not as if you were bad: you don't quarrel even as much
as I do. No one's ever found you doing something underhand or cowardly. They ought to be glad
you're willing to come here at all. And that's what I told him."
"And then what?" Paks could not imagine that scene at all.
"And then he told me I didn't know what I was talking about, and until I did I should kindly keep
to my own business, and I told him my friends were my business. And he said I should choose my
friends with care, and I said I'd learned more from you since you'd come than from him since I'd
been here—" Con stopped, blushing scarlet.
"And then," Rufen put in with a wide grin, "then Cieri said maybe he should have long yellow hair
to catch Con's attention, and Con swung on him, and ended up flat on his back. Cieri asked the
others what they thought, and apparently everyone was on your side. I wish Id been there—I knew
I'd regret being in that lower class after you got here. I don't know if I could have done any
more, but—"
"But you shouldn't have," said Paks, looking at Con. "He's—he's the weaponsmaster, you shouldn't
argue with him."
"But he was wrong," said Con stubbornly, his eyes glinting. "Paks, if you've got a fault it's that
you're too willing to be ruled. I know what you'll say—you'll say that's how a good soldier is.
Maybe so, for a mercenary company. But we're Girdsmen; Gird himself said that
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every yeoman must think for himself. I don't care if Cieri is the weaponsmaster, or the Training
Master, or the Marshal-General, if he's wrong, he's wrong, and if I think he's wrong I should say
so."
"Just because you think he is wrong doesn't make him wrong," argued Paks. "How do you know you're
right?"
"I can tell unfairness when I see it," growled Con.
"How do you know?" Paks persisted. "Sometimes things seem unfair when they happen, but later you
can tell they weren't—so how do you know when something is truly unfair?"
"Well, when it's—I mean—by Gird, Paks, it's easier to know than to say. I know Cieri was unfair to
you; he kept picking at you, trying to make you mad, and then when you got mad he blamed you for
it. And you were hurt, dripping blood all over, and he didn't even offer to heal it for you.'
Paks shrugged. "If he thought I was wrong, he wouldn't."
"But it was his fault. And so it wasn't fair. Don't you know anything? Didn't you ever have
brothers or someone in your Company that kept trying to put things on you— surely you know what I
mean."
Paks shrugged again. "Con, I know enough to know that looking for the final fault, who's really to
blame, just keeps trouble alive longer. I shouldn't have lost my temper, no matter what. If he was
wrong to push me that far, it was still my fault. And the Marshal-General told me when I came that
they were reluctant to train someone who had given no vows of service."
"But now you're joining the Fellowship, is that right?" asked Rufen.
"Yes. The surgeon says I should be up to a bout at Midwinter Feast.'
"How bad is your leg?"
"Not bad. They stitched it up; it's healing clean. It's mostly blood loss; I should have tied it
up tighter to begin with." Then she thought of something else. "Con—did some dwarves show up at
the field after I left?"
Con looked startled. "How did you know about them?" Then he grinned broadly. "That was something,
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you. Two of 'em came marching up, right into the class, in the middle of the row we were—anyway,
came into the class, and interrupted us. I can't talk like they do—all that 'it is that' and 'is
it that it is'—but the long and short of it was that Cieri had asked them to come and demonstrate
axe fighting, and they were ready. Cieri told them he'd dismissed his student, and they grumped
about being called out for nothing. So he said they could show the rest of us, and they glared
around and said they wouldn't show anyone who didn't have the guts to learn. One of them
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using won't ever be the same."
Paks felt a guilty twinge of satisfaction. She tried to conceal it; Con needed no encouragement.
"Is Master Cieri all right?"
"Oh, yes. He got a scratch or two, but you know he can heal that—it's nothing to him. Anyway, now
that you're joining die Fellowship, you'll be coming back to class, won't you?"
"I suppose. I haven't seen Master Cieri." Paks wondered if he would hold a grudge against her.
"You are staying, aren't you?"
"Yes."
Then you'll be back with us. That'll be good. And listen, Paks, you keep in mind what I said. As a
yeoman, you have a right to think for yourself, You're supposed to—"
"I do," said Paks. "You—"
"You do, and then you don't. I know what you're thinking, about me and the juniors, and you were
right, there. You stand against us—the others in the class—when you think differently. But you
don't stand against anyone over you—111 bet you never argued with your sergeant, or captain, or
the Duke—"
Paks found herself smiling. She could not imagine Con arguing with Stammel more than once, let
atone with ArcoUn. But she defended herself. "I did argue ^with the Duke once—well, not exactly
argue—"
"Once!" Con snorted. "And he was wrong only once in three years? That's a record."
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She shook her head at him; it was useless to try to explain. She tried anyway. "Con—privates don't
argue with commanders. Not unless it's very important, and usually not then. And we don't see
everything, we can't know when the commander is wrong."
"So what did you argue—not exactly—about?" •   Paks froze. She had never meant to get close to
that night in Aarenis again. "I—you don't need to know," she said lamely.
"Come on, Paks. I can't imagine you arguing with anyone like that—it must have been something
special. What was it? Was he going to start worshipping Liart, or something?"
Paks closed her eyes a moment, seeing Siniava stretched on the ground, the Halverics at his side,
the angry paladin confronting her Duke. She heard again the taut silence that followed the Duke's
outburst, and felt the weight of his eyes on her. "I can't tell you," she said hoarsely. "Don't
ask me, Con; I can't tell you."
"Paks," said Rufen quietly. "You don't look ready for supper in the hall; we'll bring something up
for you.* His gentle understanding touched her; she opened her eyes to see them both looking
worried.
"I'm all right," she said firmly.
"You're all right, but you're not well. If you're to make your vows at the Midwinter Feast, you
don't need to be scurrying up and down stairs again today. It's no trouble—" he went on, waving
her to silence. "If we go now, we can all eat up here in peace. Come on, Con." And the two of them
went out, closing her door softly and leaving her to her thoughts.
Chapter Twenty-two
Marshal-General Arianya headed the table; three High Marshals, two paladins, and five Marshals
(three attached to granges, and two from the college itself) completed the conference.
"Will that new yeoman be ready to test for the Midwinter Feast, Arianya?" asked the oldest of the
group, Marshal Juris of Mooredge grange.
"I think so. She says she's well enough now, butjthe surgeons don't want her fighting for another
few days."
That would look good," muttered High Marshal Gonnaught, Knight-Marshal of the Order of Gird.
"Nothing like a candidate feinting in the ceremony."
"She won't feint," said the Marshal-General firmly. Someone chuckled softly, thinking of it, and
she frowned around the table.
"It's not that often we bring new yeomen in here, she reminded them. "It's serious to her—"
"I know that," said Marshal Kory, the Archivist. "It just slipped out, Marshal-General."
"Very well. And while we're on the subject, I would like to suggest something else."
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"What you and Amberion were chatting about yesterday?" asked Marshal Juris. "If it's what I think,
I'm against it
The Marshal-General glared at him. "You might at least give me a chance to present the idea,
Juris." He waved his hand. She glanced around the table. "You know we're desperately short of


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paladins—" They nodded. "I have worn from Marshal Calith down in Horngard that Fenith was killed a
few months ago."
A stir ran around the table. Several of die Marshals glanced at the two paladins, who stared ahead
and met no eyes. Fenith had been Amberion's close friend, and Saer was his great-niece.
"We need to select a large class of candidates, if we can: the paladins in residence here agree
that they can each take on two candidates—"
"Is that necessary?" Juris broke in, looking from fece to face.
"I think so." The Marshal-General spread a short parchment in front of her, and ran her hand down
the page. "Juris, for the past two hundred years or so, the Fellowship of Gird has bad from twenty
to thirty paladins recorded at a time. Those on quest vary from fifteen to twenty-five at any one
time. We now have on quest only five—" She waited for the murmurs to cease, nodded, and went on.
"You see? And here in Fin Panir we have only seven who can take on candidates for training. As you
know, any of these may be called away at any time. If we can mid fourteen candidates—two for each
training paladin—it will still be well over a year before any of those are ready to go. And in die
meantime, we have no one to train a backup class—"
"I think we should feather that," said Marshal Kory. "If we chose seven now, then they might
progress faster, having more of die paladins' time. In a half-year or so, choose more. Then we'd
get a few out fester, and have more coming along."
The Marshal-General nodded. "That's a good idea— Amberion, what do you diink?"
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"I like that better than taking on two novices at once," said Amberion. "But I don't know if that
will shorten the time any. Remember that each candidate has had, by tradition, all the time a
single paladin-sponsor can give. We dare not test these candidates any less because times are
desperate. It is in desperate times that we need most to be "sure of them."
"What list do we have?" asked High Marshal Connaught.
"A short one." The Marshal-General rubbed her nose. "I sent word to all the granges last spring,
when Fenith wrote that Aarenis would be at war by summer. We talked of this last year, remember?
But we've lost eight paladins in the past year—"
"Eight!"
She nodded gravely. "Yes. We all know that great evil has been moving in Aarenis and the
Westmounts. Nearer home, we have seen outbreaks again in eastern Tsaia. Some reports indicate
serious trouble in Lyonya. Marshal Cedfer, of Brewersbridge, reported that a priest of Achrya had
been laired between his grange and the gnome kingdom nearby. Apparently he had preyed on nearby
farms and caravans using spell-bound robbers."
"They'd say they were spell-bound," muttered Juris.
"That may be, of course. I have only his report to go by. But Brewersbridge has been a healthy
community for years—since Long Stones, at least. If Achrya can have a priest there, where else may
we not expect trouble?"
"What happened to the paladins, Amberion?" asked Marshal Kory.
"We are still finishing the reports for the archives, Marshal," said Amberion slowly. "Chenin
Hoka—he was from Homgard originally; he hadn't been north of the mountains for years—was lolled by
Liart's command, in Sibili, during the assault on that city—"
"I thought that's where Fenith was."
"He was there, yes. Chenin was taken some time earlier, while helping a grange near Pliuni defend
itself; a witness thought he was dead. But Siniava's troops got him to Sibili, to the temple—and
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long torments." Amberion said nothing more, and silence filled the room. Then he sighed, and began
again. "I knew him, when I was a candidate; that was the last time he was north. He knocked me
flat, I remember, and I lay there wondering why I'd ever wanted to be a paladin. Anyway. Doggal
ofVeYella was lost at sea; he was sailing east along the Immerhoft coast. He'd told a Girdsman at
Sul that he had a call to come north. The ship was seen going onto reefe near Whiteskull, and his
body was recoverea some days later. We have no reason to doubt the identification. Garin Garrisson
was killed in battle at Sibili; Fenith saw that. The two of them were holding light against a
darkness cast by Liart's ranking priest. A crossbow bolt got him in the eye. Arianya Perrisdotter
held a daskdraudigs away from a caravan in one of the mountain passes in the Dwarfwatch, but it
fell on her in the end. Tekki Hakinier was apparently killed by a band of forest sprites—whatever
they call them in Dzordanya. The only word we have is from a witness that says he was 'stuffed
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"No." Marshal Kory shook his head. "No, a pin-pig is bigger and lives in trees. They call it that
because its flesh is sweet like pork. It sounds like those mikki-kekki—they come in waves,
hundreds at a time. But what was he doing up there?"
Amberion shrugged. "I didn't know he was there until we got the word he'd been killed. The witness
said some-tiling about a varkingla of the long house of Stokki, whatever that means."
Kory nodded. "It means Stokki's clan thought they had to move somewhere, the whole bunch. That's
not common. Tekki was Dzordanyan, wasn't he?"
"Yes."
"I would guess that they asked his protection, to move die clan through the forest, and the mikki-
kekki didn't cooperate. They usually don't."
"Have you ever seen one?" asked the Marshal-General.
"Oh yes. When I was a rash boy, my three cousins and I
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sailed across the Honnorgat to visit Dzordanya, That was the plan, at least. My uncle had told us
we couldn't sail across the river like that; of course we thought he was just trying to spoil our
fun."
"Why can't you?" asked Saer, speaking for the first time.
"You're from the mountains, aren't you, Saer? Yes. Well, any time you sail across the river,
you've got its current to consider, just like rowing. But at the mouth of the Honnorgat, it's that
and the tide and the sea current, all together. The short of it is that we ended up a long way up
the coast. We couldn't even see Prealith any more. The way the current set, we couldn't sail back
without going for out to sea. We may have been rash, but we had more sense that that, to sail a
skin boat out of all sight of land. We thought we'd walk back along the shore, carrying the boat,
until we got to the Honnorgat."
"Carrying a boat?" Saer was clearly skeptical.
"Skin boat. Not as heavy as you'd think. Hard work, though, with the sail and lines and all.
Anyway, the forest in Dzordanya comes right down to the sea—and I mean all the way. You can walk
with one foot in the waves, and slam into limbs. With a boat, we had to weave in and out as we
could. Not easy. Halory, my oldest cousin, thought we should climb onto level ground, back in the
forest, and go that way. Seemed a good idea to me. I'd nearly had my eye poked out by too many
twigs already, trying to watch my footing.
"For a time everything went well. Not too much undergrowth, just tall dark firs and spruce, spaced
so we could make it between them with the boat. Then we heard die first voices."
"The sprites?"
"Mikki-kekki. Nasty whispers, that you couldn't quite identify. Squeaks, little cries like someone
sitting on a hot tack. I started to feel my neck sweat, and so did the others. Halory tried to
hurry us, and we fell right into one of their traps. A sort of cone-shaped pit, lined with pine
needles, and slippery as grease. We'd hardly caught our
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breath when they were all around it, chittering at us. They're much less than dwarf-tall, with
greenish fur all over, and very long arms with long-fingered hands. It was the boat that saved us.
When they started with their darts, we got under it and shook."
"What do they use, bows?"
"No. A sort of tube. They blow into it, and the dart flies out. They throw them by hand, too. The
darts are poisoned, usually. Inory, my middle cousin, was hit by one and though he lived he was
sick for weeks. That night we thought he'd die. If it hadn't been for some clan's long-house
nearby—their sentries heard the mikki-kekki laughing and taunting us—1 wouldn't be here. They
drove diem oC and pulled us out. It was two days before we got home, and my uncle—well, you can
imagine." Kory shook his head.
"Well," said Amberion, "now we know about mikki-kekki." He went on with his list. "Sarin Inerith
went into Kostandan, as you know, because we had word that Cirdsmen were held in slavery there.
Her head returned to Piery grange: we have no idea what happened, where, or how. Jori of Westbells
finally died of the lungfever that's plagued him these four years. And Fenith, as you heard, died
in Horngard."
"What of the current candidates? Don't we have any who will finish this year?" That was High
Marshal Suriest, Knight-Marshal of the Order of the Cudgel.
"At best we may have five this year, Amberion tells me. Kosta has withdrawn his candidacy, and
transferred to the Marshal Hall. Dort withdrew. Pelis may withdraw. And of course we don't know
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scheduled for the following year; we would have had Elis, but she had to leave, as you remember.
She may be back, but not soon enough."
"Which leaves us with the new list—what have we got?"
The Marshal-General shifted the papers in front of her, and glanced at another one. "We've talked
over most of these before. Are you still opposed to the Verrakai squire, Amberion?"
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He nodded. "Marshal-General, we cannot define die problem, but we would not be happy with him."
"Nor I," said High Marshal Connaught "Look at the time we put in on Felo Verrakai, and what came
of that!"
"Well, then, as I see it we've got five good candidates. Four in die knight's classes, and
Seddith, the Marshal we spoke of last time."
"And we need seven."
"And we need as many as we can find," said the Marshal-General. "Now—"
"I know what you're leading up to," interrupted Juris. "You want to include that new yeoman."
"What!" High Marshal Suriest turned his head; Connaught snorted. The Marshal-General held up her
hand, and they all quieted.
"Juris, you could have let me say it—but yes, I do. Before you say anything, consider. She's a
veteran of the Aarenis wars—"
"That's a recommendation?" But Kory subsided when the Marshal-General looked at him.
"We had a report from Fenith about her; he thought she should be considered a possibility if she
ever joined the Fellowship. Marshal or paladin, he said. Cedfer reports that she freed the elfane
taig, in die mountains southeast of Brewersbridge. He checked that report with full elves— and so
have I, here. Also she cleared out that nest of robbers, and was able to fight the Achryan priest
alongside Cedfer's yeoman-marshal. As far as weapons-skills, she heads the list. Since she's been
here, Chanis reports that she has worked hard on everything we've thrown at her. She's even shown
skill in teaching; Cedfer reported that from Brewersbridge, and I've seen how the other students
follow her here."
"It's too soon, Marshal-General," said Juris, and several other heads nodded. "I grant she may be
what you say, but what do we know of her as a Girdsman? Nothing. She's not even a member of the
Fellowship yet. How can you think of giving this honor to an outsider?"
"But she won't be an outsider after she takes her vows," said the Marshal-General.
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"No, but—" Juris squirmed in his seat. "I know we need candidates. But we need the best
candidates. We need to be sure they're strong Girdsmen first, and then—"
"Watch them get spitted by better fighters?" The Marshal-General's voice sharpened. "Right now
this outsider, as you call her, can outfight most of the Marshals here, unless they use their
powers. I've seen her—Amberion has seen her—ask Cieri."
The Marshal-General folded her hands on the table. "Juris, I know it's not usual. But we haven't
found anything wrong with her. Gird knows we've tested, prodded, tried-—Cieri had to set her up
for days to make her lose her temper even once. And then she agreed she was wrong. Of course she's
not perfect—no one is. Of course we wish she'd been Girdish all along, come up through the grange
training. But allowing for that, she's the best candidate on the list. And if anything is amiss,
it will come out in the stress of training, or in the Trials. It's not that we're choosing her
over someone else—we haven't got anyone else,"
Juris shook his head. "Arianya, you're wrong—and I don't think I can convince you. Suppose she is
a potential paladin, that Gird will approve and call. But right now what she is, is a good soldier
and a novice Girdsman. 1 don't care if she knows all the answers, can recite the Ten Fingers
backwards and forwards: she hasn't experienced a grange. If she's so good, send her to me—or to
another grange—for a half-year. Let's see how she does as a yeoman among yeomen. We've had
unpleasant surprises before."
"Gird's gut, may the ale hold out! If I had a half-year, Juris, I'd send her. But we don't have
it."
The argument went on some time, but the shortage of paladins won over caution. "We must have the
candidates," said the Marshal-General finally. "We must. She will be with the others here, under
our protection. Unless you can suggest a better, Juris, I must insist—"
"All right." He frowned, sucking his cheeks, but finally nodded. "All right, then. But be sure you
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Marshal-General. Don't rush that one through the training. She's not a knight yet, remember, and
she's never had that sort of training.'
Paks, called to the Marshal-General's office, knew nothing of the argument. She expected to be
told more details of the ceremony that would make her a Girdsman. She found the Marshal-General,
the Knights-Marshal of both orders, and a stranger waiting for her.
"Paksenarrion, there are High Marshal Connaught, High Marshal Suriest, and Sir Amberion, a paladin
of Gird presently attached to die Training Order. Please sit here."
Paks sat where she was told, her heart pounding. What now? Was she suspected of something so bad
that it would take two High Marshals and a paladin to deal with it?
"You have not changed your mind about joining the Fellowship?" asked the Marshal-General.
"No, Marshal-General."
"You are ready to accept Gird as your patron, as you now accept the High Lora s dominion?"
"Yes, Marshal-General."
"Do you feel any particular—um—call, such as we have talked about in the past days?"
Paks frowned. "Marshal-General, I have fe!t something, something I could not define, for some
time. It began in Aarenis, when I was still in Duke Phelan's Company. I felt die need for a
different kind of fighting—but I'm not good with words, Marshal-General. I don't know how to say
what I feel, but that here it seems right. I feel that it's right for me to join the Fellowship of
Gird; I feel that here I will find the right way to be the fighter I always wanted to be."
"You told Marshal Cedfer in Brewersbridge that you didn't want to fight for gold alone—you wanted
to fight against 'bad tilings.' Is that still true?"
Paks nodded. "Yes, Marshal-General."
"Paksenarrion, I have talked to Marshal Ghanis and Marshal Cieri about your progress, and with
these High Marshals and Sir Amberion about that and your past. They
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needed to hear what you have said from your own mouth." She looked at the others. "Well?"
One by one they nodded. Paks watched their faces, confused. What could she have said that was
wrong? The Marshal-General tapped her fingers on her desk. Paks looked back to her.
"Paksenarrion, you must know—there's no way you couldn't know—that you are one of the best young
fighters in the training company. Cedfer was right to send you. You can qualify easily for either
of the knightly orders, if that's what you want." She paused, and Paks held her breath. The
Marshal-General resumed. "Or—there is another possibility. Ordinarily I would not make this offer
to someone who is not yet a Girdsman—in feet, ordinarily it conies only to those of proven service
to Gird. But from the reports I've received, Gird has accepted as service several of your deeds in
the past. The Training Council has agreed to it. So—would you accept an appointment as a paladin
candidate?"
Paks felt her mouth open. She could not speak or move for an instant of incredulous joy. She saw
amusement on their faces, felt her ears flaming again. "Me?" she finally squeaked, in a voice very
unlike her own. She swallowed and tried again. "You mean—me? A—a paladin candidate?"
"You," said the Marshal-General, now smiling. "Now— this is not an order; if you don't feel you
can say yes, then refuse. We will not hold it against you—indeed, there are those who think you
need more experience."
"But—but I'm so young!" Paks could feel the tears stinging her eyes. Her heart was moving again,
bounding, and she felt she could float out of her chair. "I—"
"You are young, yes; and you will be a novice yeoman, which is worse. But if we didn't think you
could be a paladin, Paksenarrion, we would not suggest this." The Marshal-General turned to
Amberion. "Sir Amberion, you might just tell her what the training is like, while she considers
this."
Paks turned to the paladin, a tall, dark-haired man somewhat younger ihan the Marshal-General by
his looks.
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His open smile was infectious. "Paksenarrion, paladin-candidates receive training simultaneously
as knights and as Gird's warriors. Each candidate is attached to one of the knightly orders, but
spends much of his or her time with a paladin sponsor. The training is lengthy and intensive; die
candidate must be tested in many ways, for any weakness could open a passage for evil. And even
then, the candidate may foil, for the final Trials require proof that the gods have bestowed on
the new paladin those powers which paladins must have. Of the few who begin this training, more
than half never become paladins."
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Paladins are sworn to Gird's service; they own nothing but their own gear, and must go wherever
Gird commands, on whatever quest Gird requires. For many, these restrictions are too onerous; even
we Marshals have more freedom. So we do not expect that all to whom we offer candidacy will take
it—or complete the training—and we respect those who withdraw no less than those who go on.'
Paks tried to control her excitement, but she could not think of anything but her oldest dreams.
Paladin. It meant shining armor, and magic swords, and marvelous horses that appeared from nowhere
on the day of the Trials. It meant old songs of great battles, bright pictures in her mind like
that of the paladin under the walls of Sibili, all brightness and grace and courage. Another
picture moved in her mind, herself on a shining horse, riding up the lane from Three Firs to her
father's farm, with children laughing and cheering alongside. Her mother smiled and wept; her
brothers gaped; her father, astonished, finally admitted he had been wrong, and asked her pardon.
She blinked at that unlikely vision, and returned to hear the Marshal-General saying something
about opportunities to change her mind later. But her mind would never change, she vowed. When the
Marshal-General paused, she spoke.
"I am honored, Marshal-General; please let me try."
The others looked at each other, then back to her.
"You are sure, Paksenarrion?"
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"Yes, Marshal-General—if you are. I can't believe it—" She fought back a delighted laugh, and saw
by their faces that they knew it "Me—a sheepfarmer's daughter—a paladin-candidate!"
Now they laughed, gently. "Paksenarrion," said the Marshal-General, "we are pleased that you
accept the challenge. Now let me explain why we are taking a chance on hurrying you." Quickly she
outlined die situation: the shortage of paladins, the growing assaults of evil power in several
areas. "You see, we must replenish the ranks—as fast as we can—or risk having no paladins to train
new ones."
^'How long does the training take?" asked Paks. "It depends in part on the candidate's previous
status. For you, it means becoming a knight first, and Uien a paladin—-more than a year, likely
two years. It means some isolation—paladin candidates withdraw from the main training order,
sometimes for months at a time, for meditation and individual instruction. Not all the candidates
progress at the same rate. Do not be surprised if someone finishes before or after you who begins
the same night."
"We will be taking the vows of the new candidates the same nightvou become a Girdsman," said the
Marshal-General. "This is unusual—as I said—but I feel that it is even more important for your
vows to be public. Then—if anything happens ..." But Paks was determined diat mrthing would
happen—everything would go well. At that moment, she would have done anything they asked, for Ae
sheer joy of having a chance to prove herself a worthy paladin-candidate.
She hardly felt the stairs under her feet as she went down. As she came through the arch to head
for her quarters, she nearly ran into Argalt. She had spent a couple of evenings with him and his
friends at a nearby tavern. He grinned at her. "Well—so you haven't been sent away, eh?" "No."
Paks felt like bouncing up and down. She wasn't sure if she should tell him; they had said nothing
about keeping her selection secret.
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"It must be good news. How about sharing a pitcher later?'
"I can't." Paks couldn't contain it any longer. "I have so much to do—you won't believe it,
Argalt!"
"What—did they select you for paladin-candidate, now you're joining the Fellowship?"
Paks felt her jaw drop. "Did you know?"
He laughed. "No—but it's what I would do. Well, now, sheepfarmer's daughter, I'm glad for you. And
you so stiff" when you came—remember what I said?"
"Yes—yes, I do." Paks threw back her head in glee. "I have to go—I have things—"
"To do, yes. I heard. I'll be watching you, now. You'd better show us something."
Paks had never imagined Midwinter Feast in Fin Panir. Back home, it had meant a huge roast of
mutton, sweet cakes, and the elders telling tales around the fire. In the Duke's Company, plenty
of food and drink, speeches from the captains and the Duke, and a day of games and music. Here,
the outer court erupted at first light with all the juniors starting a snow battle. Paks took one
look at the fortifications, and decided that they must have stayed out half the night building
them. When the Training Master came out to quell the riot, he was captured, roiled in the snow,
and rescued only when Paks led the seniors in an assault on the largest snow-fort. But by then he
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everyone—of any rank—crossing die court. Those who refused to pay were pelted with snowballs; some
were even caught and held for ransom. The day was clear, after several days of snow, and no one
could possibly sneak across the yard undetected.
The feasting started with breakfast. In place of porridge and cold meat, the cooks offered sweet
cakes dipped in honey, gingerbread squares, hot sausages wrapped in dough and fried, and "fried
snow," a lacy looking confection Paks had never seen. All day long the tables were heaped with
food, replenished as it was eaten. And all day long the feasters came and went, from one wild
winter game to another.
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Paks had been told that she was free until midafternoon. With that, she joined a group that rode
bareback out onto the snowy practice fields, where they jousted with blunt poles until only one
remained mounted. Paks lost her pole early, but managed to stay on the black horse for most of the
game, winning her bouts by clever dodges, and a quick straight-arm. She did not recognize the
woman who finally shoved her off into a snowdrift; she floundered there, laughing so hard she
could not work her way out for several minutes. After this, they tried to ride in a long line, all
holding hands and guiding the horses with their legs. Soon they were all in the snow again, and
after another few tricks they came back for more food.
Now the tables held roasts and breads as well as sweets. Paks piled her plate with roast pork and
mutton, a half-loaf of bread yellow with eggs. Four juniors staggered in, their faces bright red
with cold. Behind them came the dwarves she had met, eyes gleaming. They saw her, waved, and came
to sit across from her.
"Is it that you have recovered, Paksenamon Dorthansdotter of Three Firs?" asked Balkis.
"Yes, indeed," said Paks. "But the surgeons didn't want me fighting until after today."
"Ah, we have heard that you make adoption into the Fellowship," said Balkis, stuffing a leg of
chicken into his mouth. "This will make it that you are blood-bound to the others, is it not?"
Before Paks could answer, the woman who had dumped her in the snow slipped into a chair beside
her, and answered the dwarves. "No—it is not that, rockbrothers. Ask not the child of the father's
business." To Paks's surprise, both dwarves blushed. She looked at the woman in surprise.
"You're the one who—"
"Yes." The woman grinned as she took a sweet cake from a tray. "I'm the one who dumped you. I'm
Cami, by the way—that's what everyone calls me, but my real name is Rahel, if you need it." She
said something in dwarvish to the dwarves; Balkis looked startled, but the darker
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dwarf burst into laughter. Paks eyed her. Garni (or Rahel) was small and dark, a quick-moving
woman who reminded Paks a little of Canna.
"Why are you called Garni if your name is Rahel?" asked Paks.
"Oh that Well, it started when I came here. They used to tease me that I should have been Gamwyn's
paladin instead of Gird's—"
"You're a paladin?" Paks had not thought of any paladin being so light-hearted; Garni seemed
almost frivolous.
'Tes." Garni stuffed the rest of the cake into her mouth, and then spoke through it. "It was what
I did when I was young and wild. I won't tell you; you don't need ideas like that. But they
started calling me Camwynya, only that was too long, and then Garni. You're a candidate, right?"
"After tonight," said Paks.
"I thought so. It's good that you know these rockbrothers already—
"I don't, really—" began Paks, but Garni shushed her.
"Better than many do, I can tell. Balkis Baitisson, I will speak no more dwarvish, for this lady
knows it not, but it is not the blood-bond of brethren that she joins this night."
Not? How so? It is the Fellowship of Gird."
"Yes. The Fellowship is the blood-bond of Gird with each yeoman, sir dwarf; not each with the
other."
"But it is that brother of brother is brother," insisted the dwarf. "It is that makes the clan-
bond, the blood-bond."
"It is that for dwarves," said Garni. "For man it is other. The bond is like that of the Axemaster
for each member of the clan, not between members."
"It is not possible to have one without the other," said Balkis, his eyes flashing. "If the
Axemaster accepts adoption from any outlander, the putlander is blood-bound to the clan. Ah1 of
it"
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"Lady Garni, you know me, Balkon son of Tekis son of Kadas, mother-son of Fedrin Harasdotter,
sister-son he of the Goldenaxe, but to this lady I have not spoken in my own name." His voice was
higher than Paks expected when speaking Common, midrange for a man, but much higher than
Balltis's.
Garni nodded politely, and Paks copied her, wondering if she should state her own name again.
"You say this lady is to be paladin as you are?"
"Yes," said Garni, with another quick look to Paks.
"Last time we saw Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter, she had hurt of an axe, and no healing of Marshal.
That I thought was disgrace, or punishment. To be candidate must be honor, is it not? Why this
then?"
Now it was Paks's turn to blush. She did not know how much Garni knew of the whole situation. But
someone had to explain.
"Sir—sir dwarf," she began, copying Cami's style of address, "I said then it was not unfairness of
the Marshal—"
"But we thought it so. It might be you did not know, being nedross." At that word, Cami choked on
her food, and shook a finger at the dwarves. Paks, confused, waited for a moment, then went on.
"It was not unfairness. I told you they thought I had taken value from them in training, and had
not returned value." Now they nodded, and she hurried on. "So they said if I wished to stay I must
make a commitment; I was willing to make it, even if they did not let me stay, for the truth I
felt of it"
"Truth." Balkon looked at her sharply. "It is that you have that power to see truth itself?"
"She might," interrupted Cami. "And not even know it. Nedross, indeed!"
"What is that?" asked Paks.
"I hope," said Cami severely, "that they're using it in the gnome sense, unwilling or unable to
see insult, and not in the dwarf sense of cowardly."
Both dwarves burst into speech, protesting.
"It is not that we—"
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"That is not what we—"
Balkon shushed his friend, and continued. "Lady Cami, Lady Paksenarrion, we did not think that
this lady, this lady who would use an axe, would be cowardly. No—only that it is not always the
same for man and dwarf when words be said, that some should be taken and others not. If it is that
we make mistakes, and think someone unfair to this fine lady, who would use an axe, Sertig's first
tool, then we ask pardon of the lady, but we are glad to see that she had honor now in this house,
and is blood-bound to a dan we honor."
Paks was thoroughly confused. Cami turned to her with an exaggerated sigh. "I'd advise you to
accept their good wishes, and apologies, and be glad you have found dwarven friends. They truly
did not mean to say you were cowardly."
Paks smiled at them. "Sirs, I know not your words, but I thank you for your good wishes."
They both grinned back. "That is very good," said Balkon. "And tf you wish to learn, we still will
teach you what we know of axes."
Paks nodded. "If I am permitted, in my training, I will ask it of you."
"Paks!" Aris Marrakai had come up behind her, with several of his friends. He shuffled from one
foot to another when she turned. "I—I brought you something."
"Aris—you shouldn't have—" Paks took from his hand a carefully worked leather pouch, fringed and
decorated with tiny shells. "It must have cost—"
He shrugged. "Not that much. And anyway, Rufen told me that paladins never have any money and
can't buy things, and so I thought maybe you'd keep it and—and remember us."
"I'd remember you anyway, Aris," said Paks. "But thank you—I will treasure this." She knew already
what would gp in it: Saben's little red stone horse, and Canna's medallion. Aris darted away; Paks
met Cami's eyes.
"It isn't quite that bad," said Cami. "We don't get rich, but we can buy a fruit pie
occasionally.''
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"That's good," said Paks. "I like mushrooms, myself."
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"Dry and high— not a mushroom for days and days.'
"When do we have grange duty?" asked Paks.
"Just before the Trials," said Cami. "You may find it strange; you've never been in a normal
grange, have you? No—then it's even more important for you. We all must know what limits Marshals
face, and granges, and not think because we are gifted with powers that it's so easy for others."
"Cami!" The hall was filling now, as more and more cold revellers came in for warmth and food.
Paks was startled to see the Training Master grab Cami by both shoulders and hug her. "Gird's
right arm, I thought you were still in achael!'
"Through Midwinter Feast? Master Chanis, even the High Lord wouldn't keep me in achael through the
best day in the year!"
"I suppose not. Are you out, or just on leave?"
"Out. Gird's grace for it, too; if I had missed Midwinter's Feast, and the installation, I'd have
burst something."
"And are you fit to sing, Cami?" asked Sir Amberion, who had followed the Training Master into the
hall. Cami looked at Paks.
"Ask Paksenarrion—I only dumped her a couple of times this morning."
Paks could not help grinning. "Only once—"
"Ah, but who stuck her foot in your black's ribs, in the line, to make him crowhop? And you flew
off then, too."
"Was that you?" Paks joined the roar of laughter.
"It was," said Cami, "and I could do it again. Fit to sing? By the dragonstongue, I could sing and
blow the lo-pipe at the same time." Again laughter, and Paks saw someone scurry away, yelling that
a lo-pipe was coming up. But as she watched Cami move a tray out of her way and settle onto the
table, the Training Master touched her shoulder, and beckoned. Paks followed him away from the
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To her surprise, it was already midafternoon. The rest of the day was taken up with preparation
for the night's ceremonies. She had to change into the plain gray of the Training Company, but the
steward handed her, as well, the white surcoat of a paladin-candidate. She would have to change
hurriedly between ceremonies. Paks had lines to learn and, like the Finthan youngsters who were
making their final vows that night, she spent some time in the High Lord's Hall in meditation.
When spectators began arriving, the group was led away to a small bare room off one end. Paks felt
her stomach tightening. Her mouth was dry. The otihers in this room were not the paladin
candidates, but junior yeomen making their vows as senior yeomen—the honor of taking these vows at
Midwinter Feast in the High Hall came to those whose grange Marshals had recommended them. Most
were about die age Paks had been when she left home—eighteen or nineteen winters. They eyed her as
nervously as she watched them.
The summons came with an ear-shattering blast of trumpets, as High Marshals Connaught and Suriest
opened the door and called them out. The High Lord's Hall was brilliantly lit by hundreds of
candles. The spectators sat and stood on either side of the wide central aisle. With the others,
Paks stood just below the platform. The trumpet music ended, to be followed by an interlude of
harps. Then another trumpet fanfare introduced the Marshal-General, resplendent in a white surcoat
over her armor, with Gird's crescent embroidered in silver on the breast. Following her were the
other High Marshals presently at Fin Panir, all in Gird's blue and white. Behind them came those
visitors who would be honored during the ceremonies: two Marshals of Falk, in long robes of ruby-
red, with gold-decorated helms set in the crooks of their arms. A Swordmaster of Tir, in black and
silver; Paks remembered die device on his arms from Aarenis. Last of all came the seven paladins
resident and whole of limb in Fin Panir, each in fall armor, carrying Gird's pennant.
Pals watched them come up the aisle, her heart pounding with excitement and joy. This was exactly
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had thought about in Three Firs—the music, the brilliant colors—she tried to take a long breath
and calm down. She recognized Sir Amberion and Lady Cami, but none of the other paladins. They
mounted the platform behind her, and she heard the footsteps move away to its far side. The the
trumpets were still, and the Marshal-General's clear voice called out the ancient greeting:
"In darkness, in cold, in the midst of winter where nothing walks the world but death and fear let
die brave rejoice: I call die light."
"I call the light!" came the response from every voice. It seemed to shake die air.
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Paks naif-listened, knowing die words better than any other she'd heard from die Marshal-General.
Just so had her grandfather said diem, when she was small, and just so her father had said diem,
die last Midwinter Feast she was at home.
"Out of cold, fire. Out of death, life. Out of fear, courage to see die day." Widi the others, she
gave die response. And together they all completed the ritual, raising first one hand then die
other, and finally both, to defy sundeath and greet the sun. "In darker night, brighter stars. In
greater fear, greater courage. In the midst of winter, the world's birth. Praise to die High
Lord." This would be repeated between every segment of the ceremonies, until sunrise the next
dawn. Paks remembered falling asleep, year after year—and die first year that she had managed to
stay awake, die last year of her grandfather's life, to light die first morning fire widi new
wood. For with sundown, all fires were destroyed—to show respect, her grandfather had said, and to
prove their courage to endure. Here, too, die fires went out when the sun fell, to be kindled at
daybreak. Only those desperately ill were allowed a fire on Midwinter Night.
"Yeomen of Gird," said the High Marshal then, and Paks pulled her mind back to die ceremony. "We
have widi us diose who seek to join the Fellowship of Gird; by
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our ancient customs we will test them in their steadfastness, and you will witness their vows."
"By Gird's grace," came the response. Paks felt her neck prickle. She was suddenly cold, and
wanted to rub her arms.
"Stand forth, you who would swear fealty to the Fellowship of Gird," said the Marshal-General.
With those on her side of the aisle, Paks faced toward the center of the hall. One at a time they
would mount those steps and face a Marshal for the ritual exchange of blows. Paks suspected that
in her case it might be something more than a ritual. Her leg itched; she resisted the urge to rub
it on her other leg.
Before she had time to worry, she heard her name. All at once she felt eager, and went up the
steps quickly. To the questions she made response firmly; she acknowledged Gird as the High Lord's
servant, the patron of fighters, the protector of the helpless. She swore to keep the Code of
Gird, and obey "all Marshals and lawful authority over you." And then the questioner stepped back,
and she faced the Marshal-General, who held out two identical staves.
Paks took one, with an internal prayer that she wouldn't look too foolish. The Marshal-General
smiled, feinted, and aimed a smashing blow at her. Paks rolled aside, countering as best she
could. The power of die Marshal-General's blows carried all the way up her arms. Ritual exchange
of blows indeed, thought Paks. Hie staves rattled. She took a blow on the thigh, and managed to
touch the Marshal-General's arm with a leftover move that carried little sting. Then her staff
seemed to twitch in her hands and go flying through the air; the Marshal-General's staff tapped
her head firmly before she could dodge. And the Marshal-General stepped back, bowed, and greeted
her.
"Welcome, yeoman of Gird, to Gird's grange." As she spoke, she placed a Gird's medallion over Paks
s head.
Paks bowed as she had been instructed. "I am honored, Marshal-General, to be accepted in Gird's
Fellowship." Then, dismissed, she left the platform and returned moved to a space behind it, where
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help her on with the candidate's surcoat and her new Gird's medallion.
The paladin candidates were presented just before dawn, after ceremonies honoring Marshals and
paladins killed in the past year. It seemed to Paks a very plain aflair: the candidates were
simply named and shown to the spectators, and assigned to one of the knightly orders and a
sponsoring paladin. After the events of the day before, Paks had hoped to get Cami as her sponsor,
but instead Amberion led her before the crowd. Cami was sponsoring a yeoman-marshal from somewhere
in the Westmounts, she heard later. Paks knew none of the candidates well, and only four of them
at all; the others had been sent from distant granges after earlier selection.
She had one more day of freedom—for the second day of Midwinter Feast was as lively as the
first—and fell into bed that night completely exhausted and as happy as. she could ever remember
being.
Chapter Twenty-three
Paks's first experience as a paladin candidate was a familiar one—moving into new quarters. These
were south of the main complex, in an annex to the Paladin's Hall. She was surprised to find that
she would still have a room to herself, but Amberion explained.
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skills of meditation even when surrounded by noise and upheaval, but for novices it's easier to
learn in solitude."
Paks nodded silently. She was still shy of her paladin sponsor; it was hard to believe that he and
Cami were in the same order. He seemed more somber, far less approachable. She unpacked her things
quickly, wondering a Utde at the requirement that her sponsor must see everything she owned. But
for that, too, he had a reason. Paladins must be willing to go anywhere, anytime—able to endure
hardship, not just discipline. Those who clung to treasured possessions, favorite foods, even
friends, might make fine Marshals or knights, but not paladins. So in the early days of training,
they must do without accustomed possessions. Those who withdrew would have theirs re-
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stored, but those continuing had to face the possible loss of items deemed too luxurious. Paks
understood the reasoning, but could not imagine anyone preferring fancy clothes or jewelry to
being a paladin. She said so, and Amberion grinned at her.
"I've seen it myself. And there is always something hard to give up. If not material things,
habits and ways of thought. This may be a trivial test for you, but there are others. No one
passes through this training without struggle. " He looked over her gear as he spoke, and told her
to keep Saben's red horse and Canna's medallion. Aris's gift, her weapons, the shining mail the
elfane taig had given her—all these went into storage. Then he said, "What about money? Do you
have any gold or silver?"
Paks handed over the heavy leather sack she'd brought from Brewersbridge. "This, and some on
account with the Guild in Tsaia."
His eyebrows went up. "Did Marshal Cedfer know how much gold you had?"
"I don't know." Paks thought back to Brewersbridge, already distant to her mind. "I told him the
elfane taig had gifted me; he saw the jewel I gave the grange, and knew I had money for food,
lodging, and clothes."
Amberion frowned, and Paks wondered what she'd done wrong. "Did you know that most orders of
knights charge a fee for their training, which is waived for poor applicants?" he asked. Paks
shook her head. She had assumed that the Training Company was maintained by the Fellowship of
Gird, through contributions from the granges. "Perhaps Cedfer expected you'd become a Girdsman, as
you have, and didnt bother to mention it," Amberion went on. "As a paladin, you may not hold
wealth. We are bound to keep this for you, and restore it if you foil, but if you are called as a
paladin . . . well . . ."
"You mean I owe the Training College?" asked Paks.
"Not precisely owe. Cedfer sponsored you here, at first, and you accepted this chance freely, as a
gift. It would be ill grace on our part to ask alms of you now. On the other hand, while we would
ask nothing of a farmer's daughter who had nothing, we would ordinarily ask a fee of some-
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one who could pay. And that gold, that fee, would not be returned, whatever happened." He shifted
the bag from hand to hand. "What had you planned with this?"
"Well—" Paks had trouble remembering the clutter of plans and dreams with which she'd ridden from
Brewersbridge. "I had sent money to my family, to repay my dowry, but I'd planned to send more if
1 became a knight, for then I could always earn my own way. And I'd thought of a new saddle for
Socks—my black horse."
He nodded slowly. "You thought of warriors* needs ahead, and your family. Are they poor,
Paksenarrion?"
"Not really poor, like some I've seen. We had food enought if not too much; we always had clothes
and fire in winter. But there's no money, most times. It took me years to save up the copper bits
I left home with. And all the other children to be raised and wed—" Paks shook her head suddenly.
"But now I'm here—and if I'm a paladin, I won't need a saddle, will I? Someone else will take
Socks. And I won't be looking for work. Tell me what the fee is, sir, and I can send the rest to
them and be done with it."
Amberion smiled at her with real warmth. "You choose well. Would you agree to give this bagful to
the Fellowship, and send whatever is on account to your family?"
"There's more on account," said Paks.
"No matter. We are not here to fatten ourselves at the expense of farmers. Now—what's this—?" He
pushed at the little bundle of scuffed and tattered old scrolls left in her saddlebags. "I thought
you weren't a scholar."
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Axnbros about them, but that's when the caravan was attacked, and after that I forgot. I couldn't
read them then—maybe now—" She started to unroll one of them; the parchment crackled.
"Here—wait—" Amberion took it from her. "These are old, Paksenarrion—we must be careful with diem,
or they'll go to pieces." He peered at the faded script. "Gird's arm, I can't—what do you think
that is?" He pushed it back to Paks, who leaned close.
"I'm not sure. 'For on this day—something—Gird came to this village where was die—the—' is that
word knight?"
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"I think so," said Amberion. "I think it's 'knight of the prince's cohort, and there they—*
something where that's rubbed out, and then 'and as he said to me, that he did, and called die
High Lord's blessing on it'—" Amberion looked up at her for a moment. "Where did you say you found
these?"
"I didn't find them, exactly," said Paks. "After the fight underground, the elfane taig got me
back to the surface-somehow—and then had me pack up a whole load of things. I was too sick to
notice much, but the elfane taig insisted. A day or so later, when I looked through the packs, the
scrolls were there. I tried to read them, but—" Paks flushed. "I didn't read that well—and the
script is odd."
"Yes—it is." Amberion seemed abstracted. "Paks—this has nothing to do with your training, but I
believe these scrolls may be valuable. They're old—very old—and I've read something like this in
the archives. Would you let the Archivist see them?"
"Of course," said Paks. "I'd be glad to know what they are and why the elfane taig gave them. I
almost threw them away, but—"
"I'm glad you didn't," said Amberion. "If they're really an old copy of Luap's writings—"
"Luap? Is diat Gird's friend?"
"Yes. Most of what we know about Gird comes from the Chronicles of Luap. This—" he nodded toward
the scroll he held, "seems to be part of that—it's talking, I think, about the battle at
Seameadow." He put die scroll down and looked around the room. "That's all, then? Good. Now about
your horse—what do you call him?"
Paks felt herself blushing again. "Socks," she mumbled. She had had enough comments to know that
it should have been something grander. But Amberion did not laugh.
"Better, to my mind, than some long name you can't shout at need. You know that if you pass the
Trials you'll have a mount?" She nodded. She had heard more than once of the paladins' mounts that
appeared after their Trials, waiting fully equipped in the courtyard outside the
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High Lord's Hall. No one knew whence they came; no one saw them come. "But in the meantime you can
use Socks for training. Doggal says he's good enough. In feet, the Training Order would take him
when you pass the Trials, unless you want to sell him elsewhere."
"Yes, sir."
"Take the things you won't need back to the steward, and then come back here; you'll meet the
other paladins and candidates."
For some days after that, Paks heard nothing more about the scrolls. Her schedule kept her too
busy to ask. It was unlike any training she'd had before. Instead of weapons drill or military
theory, she found herself immersed in history and geography: which men had come to which area, and
when, and why. She learned of their laws and their beliefs; she had to memorize article after
article of the Code of Gird. Gradually she built in her mind a picture of the whole land about,
and the beliefs of the people. She could see, as in a drawing, her father's family perched on the
side of a moor north of most trade routes. They had believed in the High Lord, and the Lady of
Peace, but also in the horse nomad deity Guthlac, and the Windsteed. Their boundary stones, and
the rituals for keeping them, came from Aarenis; the well-sprite for whom she had plucked flowers
every spring was called the same— Piri—from Brewersbridge to Three Firs, and south to Valdaire.
But in Aarenis proper, the well-spirits were multiple, and called caoutin; they had no personal
names.
She learned that elves claimed no lands: the elvenhome kingdoms cannot be reached by unguided
humans anyway. In Lyonya, where elves and humans ruled together a mortal kingdom, human land-
rights were held provisionally, and any change of use had to be approved by the crown. Dwarves
claimed daskgeft, a stonemass, but cared little who traveled the surface. Gnomes held all property
by intricate law, and to step one footlength on gnomish land without legal right could bring the
whole kingdom down on the criminal. Even in human lands, the laws of property differed. In Tsaia,
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crown in return for military service, those who actually farmed rarely owned the land they
worked—but in Fintha nearly all farms were owned by the former.
High Marshal Garris taught them the lore of the gods— all that was known of the great powers of
good and evil. Paks learned that Achrya, die Webmistress, had not been known in Aare—proof,
according to Marshal Garris, that Achrya was a minor god, for the great gods had power everywhere
in the known world. Liart, on the other hand, had been known in old Aare, but not to the northern
nomads or the Seafolk until they met the men from Aarenis. She learned that her fear of the
Kuakkganni came from mistaking them for kuaknom, a race related to elves but devoted to evil; the
Kuakkganni, Garris insisted, were never wholly evil, and often good. Of the greatest evils,
Marshal Garris taught only their names and general attacks: Nayda, the Unnamer, who threatened
forgetfulness, and Gitres, die Unmaker.
"They are one in destruction," he said firmly. "They try to enforce despair, and convince you that
nothing matters, for they will wipe out all. Never believe it. The elves call diem A-Iynisi, The
Unsinger who unravels the Song of die Singer, but they know as well as we that the Singer lives,
and living must create."
"But are they really one, or two?" asked Harbin, the yeoman-marshal sponsored by Garni.
High Marshal Garris shrugged. "No man knows, Harbin; no man needs to know. I think—but it is only
my thought— dial it is only one, but one who appears in die guise you most fear. One fears die
loss of feme, of being unknown and forgotten, and another fears having all his works unmade. All
mortals have some form of this fear, and in search of immortality among men may do great evil
without intention. It is hard to trust that die High Lord's court will remember and reward a good
life, hard to risk feme or hfework when those are at stake."
Along widi this, all die candidates were encouraged to learn languages. Paks had already found, in
her travels, tiiat she was quick to pick up new phrases. Since she had
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made friends among the elves and dwarves in Fin Panir, Amberion urged her to spend her evenings
with them, speaking elven and dwarvish in turn. At first this went quickly: she could ask for food
and drink, and greet her friends politely, after only a few lessons. But the more she wanted to
say, the harder it got. A simple question, like "Where are you from?" would bring on a flurry of
discussion. Paks found the dwarves more willing to explain than the elves, but she could not
follow their explanations.
"It is simple," said Balkon one night, the third time of trying to explain dwarf clan rankings.
"Let us begin with the Goldenaxe." They had begun with the Coldenaxe before, but Paks nodded. "The
Goldenaxe has two sons and a daughter."
"Yes, but—" Paks knew that something difficult was coming.
"Wait. The Goldenaxe that was, before this, had a sister who had a son, and so this Goldenaxe is
the sister-son of the Goldenaxe that was."
"His nephew?" ventured Paks.
Balkon scowled. "No—not. In Common that is son of either brother or sister, yes? And this is only
for sister-son. Brother-son is mother's clan."
Paks started to ask why, and thought better of it.
"Now—this Goldenaxe has no sister, only brother, and brother has no sons. But a daughter. It is
clear?"
Paks nodded. She still had a thread to follow. The current Goldenaxe had a brother, with a
daughter, and two sons and a daughter of his own.
"So will inherit to the title either the son of his brother's daughter, or his oldest son, or the
son of his daughter."
"But why not just his son?" asked Paks.
"Because that is not his blood," said Balkon. "His son's son is not his clan, you see that—only
his daughter's son—"
"Then why not his daughter?" asked Paks again.
"What? She be the Goldenaxe? No—that would rive die rock indeed. No dwarfinaid wields coldmetal—"
"They don't fight?"
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"I did not say that. They wield not the coldmetal, the weaponsteel, once it is forged. You, lady,
would not stand long against a dwarven warrior-maid in her own hall."
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different but equally impenetrable. Some questions were simply ignored, others answered in a spate
of elven that drowned her mind in lovely sound. Ardhiel gladly taught her songs, and encouraged
her to learn the elaborate elven courtesies, but as for learning more about elves themselves, it
was "Lady, the trees learn water by drinking rain, and stars learn night by shining." Paks found
individual words easy to speak and remember, but her best efforts at stringing them together
sounded nothing like Ardhiel's speech, though he praised her.
She had also much to learn of paladins, as did the other candidates. Most of them had thought,
like Paks, that being Gird's holy warrior meant gaining vast arcane powers—they would be nearly
invincible against any foe. Their paladin sponsors quickly set them straight. Although paladins
must be skilled at righting, that, their sponsors insisted, was the least of their abilities. A
quest might involve no fighting at all, or a battle against beings no steel could pierce.
"Paladins show that courage is possible," Garni said to them one day. "It is easy enough to find
reasons to give in to evil. War is ugly, as Paks knows well," she nodded toward Paks, who suddenly
remembered the worst of Aarenis, the dead baby in Rotengre, the murdered farmfolk, Ferrault dying,
Alured's tortures. "We do not argue that war is better than peace; we are not so stupid as that.
But it is not peace when cruelty reigns, when stronger men steal from farmers and craftworkers,
when the child can be enslaved or the old thrown out to starve, and no one lifts a hand. That is
not peace: that is conquest, and evil. We start no quarrels in peaceful lands; we never display
our weaponsldlls to earn applause. But we are Gird's cudgel, defending the helpless, and teaching
by our example that one person can dare greater force to break evil's grasp on
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the innocent. Sometimes we can do that without fighting, without lolling, and that's best."
"But we're warriors first," said Paks before she thought. She wished she'd kept still. She had
already noticed that the others, with their years in the Fellowship and service in the granges,
had different views. Now they all looked at her, and she fixed her gaze on Garni.
"Yes," said Cami slowly. "Some evils need that direct attack, and we must be able to do it, and to
lead others in battle. Did you ever wonder why paladins are so likeable?" It seemed an odd remark,
and threw Paks off balance. Apparently others were confused as well, by the stirrings in the room.
"It's important," said Cami, now with t lat grin that pulled them all together. "We come to a
town, perhaps, where nothing has gone right for a dozen years. Perhaps there's a grange of Gird,
perhaps not. But the people are frightened, and they've lost trust in each other, in themselves.
We may lead them into danger; some will be killed or wounded. Why should they trust usT No one
answered, and she went on. "Because we are likeable, and other people will follow us willingly.
And that's why we are more likely to choose a popular yeoman-marshal as a candidate than the best
fighter in the grange."
Paks dared a sideways glance. From the thoughtful and even puzzled faces around her, the others
had never con-sidered this. She herself, remembering the paladin in Aarenis, realized that she had
trusted him at once, without reservation, although the Marshal with him had annoyed her.
"But you see how dangerous that could be, if someone wanted to do evil," said Cami, breaking into
her thoughts. "We choose from those with a gift for leadership, those people will follow happily.
Therefore we must be sure that you will never use that gift wrongly. Another thing: because we
come and go, we make demands on those we help for only a short time. It's easier for them to
follow us quickly, and then go home. Never scorn Marshals: when we have left, they must maintain
their yeomen's faith. Perhaps we showed them what was possible—but we left them with years of
work."
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As for the powers legend had grafted onto paladins, in reality there were four.
"We all have powers, but not all of us have them equally," said Amberion one day. "Any paladin can
call light—' A glow lit the end of this finger. "It is not fire, which gives light by burning, but
true tight, the essence of seeing. There are greater lights—" At his nod, Cami suddenly seemed to
catch fire, wreathed in a white radiance too bright to watch. Then it was gone; all the candidates
blinked. "More than that," Amberion went on, "some paladins—but not all—can call light that will
spread across a whole battlefield." Paks remembered the light in Sibili. "It is the duty and power
of a paladin," said Amberion, "to show the truth of good and evil—to make clear—and that is what
our light is for. It is a tool. Sometimes we use it to prove our call, but it must never be used
for the paladin's own convenience or pride.'"
"But how do you make the light?" asked Clevis, one of the other candidates.
"We do not make it. We call it—ask it, in Gird's name. Later in your training we will graft this
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you are invested as a paladin, in the Trials, and the gods give or withhold your gifts."
"You mean we won't know until then?" asked Harbin.
"You knew that, surely?"
"Well, yes, but—" He shook his head. "It seems a long time wasted, if we don't become paladins.
Can't you tell earlier?"
"We can tell if you are doing badly," said Amberion. "But we have no power over the gods'
decisions, Harbin. We prepare the best candidates we can find as well as we can, and then present
them. Then they choose—why, we do not know. That's one reason the failing candidates are honored:
it does not mean they are not worthy; they are the best we could find. Even those who withdraw
from training are honored for Kaving been chosen to attempt it. Any one of you—" he looked around
the small group. "Any one of you would make a fine knight in any order.
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Most of you would make a fine Marshal—one or two, perhaps, are too independent of mind—but you
would all do. But to be a paladin requires more than weaponskills, a gift for leadership, the
willingness to risk all for good, the deep love of good and hatred of evil. Many good men and
women share these with you. Beyond that, you must have the High Lord's blessing on that way for
you, as shown by the gifts you receive in the Trials." They thought that over for some minutes in
silence.
Saer, a black-haired woman with merry blue eyes, explained the gift of healing, second of the
paladin's special abilities. This too was a gift, to be prayed for; the gift might be withheld at
times. As well, it required knowledge of wounds and illness, the structure of the body and its
functions. Paks would like to have asked her about Canna's wound—had she healed it, and was that
any proof of Gird's favor?—but she was shy in front of the others. After a short discussion, in
which she took no part, they passed on to other matters.
Sarek, who reminded Paks of Cracolnya in the Duke's Company, with his stocky body and slightly
bowed legs, explained about the detection of good and evil. "A paladin can sense good and evil
directly," he began. "Now you might think that makes everything simple: on one side are the bad
people, and you kill them, and over here are the good people, and they cheer for you." Everyone
laughed, including the other paladins. "It would be nice," he went on, "but that's not how it
works. Normally you will experience people much as you do now—liking some, and not liking others.
Most people—and that includes us, candidates—are mixtures, neither wholly evil not wholly good.
But if you are close to someone intent on evil—an assassin, Achrya's agent, whatever—you will know
that evil is near and be able to locate it.
"That's not the same as doing anything about it," he said, again waiting for the laughter that
followed. "You must learn to think. Suppose you are trying to decide whom to trust in a troubled
town. An evil person may lie, but he might tell the truth, if truth serves his plan. A good person
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may lead you wrong, being good and stupid. You, young candidates, are supposed to be good—and
smart." Again they laughed. "But more of this later. Only realize that like any gift, it is a
tool—and you must learn to use it carefully, or it can slip in your hand." He gave them a final
grin, and waved Garni up.
"Most important of me gifts," said Garni, now more serious than Paks had ever seen her, "is the
High Lord's protection from evil attack. Of course you can be killed—we are human, after all. But
as long as you are Gird's paladin, your soul cannot be forced into evil by any power whatever. All
magical spells that assault the heart and mind directly will rail. No fear or disgust, no despair,
can prevent you from following the High Lord's call if you want to follow it. Moreover, you can
protect those with you from such attacks. This is one reason our training is so long and so
intense—for this, of course, we cannot test in training. We must be sure you do want this with a
whole heart, that you are indeed under that protection, before you go out to battle the dark
powers of the earth."
For that reason, they were told, their every act and word would be scrutinized; even small faults
could reveal flaws too dangerous to be granted such power.
"But would the High Lord grant the powers to someone unfit to bear them?" asked one of the
candidates.
"No. But evil powers might grant a semblance of such. It is hard to explain—though you will
understand if you succeed—but during your training you are more open to evil influence than
before. We must so harrow your minds: and as in a harrowed field both sun and frost strike deeper,
so in your minds both good and evil can strike a firmer root. That is why you are kept apart from
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sponsor, who can sense any threat and protect you from it."
"But we're supposed to be more resistant anyway," grumbled Harbin. Paks agreed, but said nothing.
It almost sounded as if they were weaklings.
"You are—you were—and you will be," said Cami. "But right now, and for the time of your training,
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looking for weakness—searching for any crevice through which evil can assail your hearts. And we
will find things, for none of us is perfect, or utterly invincible, except in the High Lord's
protection." Paks wondered uneasily what weakness they would find in her, and what they would do
about it.
"And," added Sarek, closing that session with a laugh, "remember that while a demon can't eat your
soul, once you're a paladin, any village idiot can crack your skull with a rock. By accident."
Other such discussions followed. They learned that paladins never married unless—and this was
rare—they retired from that service to another. Yet although celibate on quest—Paks saw someone
frown, across the room, and wondered if he would drop out—they might have lovers in Fin Panir or
elsewhere, as time allowed. "But those you love most are in the most danger," pointed out
Amberion. "Choose your loves from those who can defend themselves, should Achrya's agents be
seeking a weapon against you. We are here to defend the children of others—not to protect our own.
And if we had children, and were good parents, we would have no time for Gird's work."
Soon Paks knew the paladins as people. She knew the room would bubble with excitement when Cami
arrived, that Saer brought with her an intensity and mysticism almost eerie to experience, that
Sarek's jokes always had a lasting sting of sense, that Amberion was the group s steady anchor.
She, like the others, opened up under Kevis's warm and loving regard; and like the others she
found her determination hardened by Teriam's stern logic. Garin, last of the seven, left on quest
shortly after his sponsored candidate withdrew—the first of their group to rail. Paks had not
known Amis well, and did not know why he had left. She knew less of the candidates than she'd
expected, for when not in classes together, they were each with a sponsor or learning to meditate
alone.
But even so she was conscious of a difference between these young Girdsmen, long committed to
their patron, and herself. Matters that she thought trivia! were cause for hours of discussion,
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thought she saw never satisfied them. They picked away at the motives they claimed lay behind all
acts, creating, Paks thought, an incredible tangle of unlikely possibilities. She had imagined
herself committed to the defense of good . - . but was good this complicated? If so, why was Gird
the patron of soldiers? No one had time to think of definitions and logic in the midst of a
battle. The way Sarek had said it first made the most sense to her: here are the bad people, and
you kill them; there are the good ones, and they cheer for you. Surely it was only a matter of
learning to recognize all the evil. She prayed, as Amberion was teaching her to do, and said
nothing. She was there to learn, and in time she might understand that other way of thinking. She
had time.
Busy as she was, Paks had almost forgotten the mysterious scrolls when she received a summons to
the Master Archivist, Marshal Kory. She found him at a broad table set before a window, with the
scrolls all open before him.
"Paksenarrion—come and see the treasure." He waved his hand at the array. "Amberion tells me you
had no idea what you brought?'
"No, sir."
"Well, if it were all you ever brought here, Paksenarrion, the Fellowship of Gird could count
itself well repaid. We have all examined these—all those of us in Fin Panir with an interest in
such tilings. I believe—and so do many others—that these scrolls were penned by Luap himself,
Gird's own friend. How they got where you found them I doubt we will ever know for certain."
"But how can you know what they are?"
Marshal Kory grinned. "That's scholar's work, young warrior. But you would know a sword made in
Andressat, I daresay, from one made in Ve'rella—"
"Yes, sir."
"So we have ways to know that the scrolls are old. We have copies of Luap's chronicles and
letters; we compared them, and found some differences—but just what might have come from careless
copying. And these scrolls con-
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tain far more than we have: letters to Luap's friends, little sermons—a wealth of material. We
think the writing is Luap's own hand, because we have preserved a couple of lists said to be
his—and one of the letters here mentions making that list of those who fell in the first days of
the rebellion."
Paks began to feel the awesome age of the scrolls. "Then—Luap really touched those—I mean, he was
alive, and could—
"He was a real person, yes—not a legend—and because he writes so, we know that Gird was real, too.
Not that I charge you with having doubted it, but it's easy to forget that our heroes were actual
men and women, who got blisters when they marched, and liked a pot of ale at day's end. Luap now—'
His eyes stared into the distance. "That isn't even his name. In those days, luap was a kinship
term, for someone not in the line of inheritance. The military used it too. A (uap-captain had
that rank, for respect and pay, but had no troops under his own command: could not give
independent orders. According to the old stories, this man gave up his own name when he joined the
rebellion. There are several versions with different reasons for that. Anyway, he became Gird's
assistant, high-ranked because he could write—which few besides lords could do in those days—and
he was called Gird's luap. Soon everyone called him "the luap,' and finally 'Luap.' Because of
him, no one used luap for a kinship term after that; in Fintha the same relationship now is called
'nik,' and in Tsaia it's 'niga' or 'nigan.' " The Archivist seemed ready to explain the origin of
that and every other term, and Paks broke in quickly, sticking to what she understood.
"And he speaks of Gird?"
"As a friend. Listen to this." Marshal Kory picked up one of the scrolls, and began to read. "
'—and in feet, Ansuli, I had to tell the great oaf to quit swinging his staff around overhead like
a young demon. I feared he would hit me, but soon that great laugh burst out and he thanked me for
stopping him. If he has a fault, it is that liking for ale, which makes him fight sometimes
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need or no.' And that's Luap talking of Gird at a tavern in eastern Fintha. I'm not sure where; he
doesn't name the town."
Paks was startled. "Gird—drunk?"
"It was after their first big victory. I've always suspected that the reason several of the
articles in the Code of Gird dealt with drunkenness is that Gird had personal knowledge of it." He
laid that scroll down and touched another with his fingertip. "We have Had the copyists working on
these every day. It is the greatest treasure of the age—you cannot know, Paksenarrion, how it
lifts our hearts to find something so close to Gird himself. Even when it's things like that
letter—that just makes him more human, more real to us. And to have in Luap's own words the last
battle—incrediblel Besides that, we now have a way to prove whether or not these scrolls are
genuine. Have you ever heard of Luap's Stronghold?"
Paks shook her head. "I had not heard of Luap until I came here, sir."
"There's been a legend for a long time that Luap left the Honnorgat Valley and traveled west, to
take Gird's Code to distant lands. For a time, it was believed, he had established a stronghold, a
fortress, in the far mountains, and some reports had Girdsmen travelling back and forth. But no
one has come from the west with any reports of him for hundreds of years, so most scholars now
think it was just a legend. But in one of these scrolls, sent back, he says, at the request of the
Marshal-General of that day, he gives the location of that stronghold. If someone were to go
there, and see it, that would prove that these are, indeed, the scrolls of Luap."
Paks thought of it, suddenly excited. "What are the western lands like?"
"All we have are caravan reports. Dry grassland for some days' travel, then rock and sand, then
deep gouges in the rocks, with swift-running rivers in the depths. Then mountains—but they don't
go that way, skirting them on the south, to come to a crossways. North along that route is a
kingdom called Kaelifet; I know nothing about it. Southward is more desert, and finally a sea."
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Faks tried to imagine those strange lands, and felled. "Will you go, then, Marshal Kory?"
"Me!" He laughed. "No, I'm the Archivist—I can't go. Perhaps no one will. Some think it is an idle
fancy, and the trip too long and dangerous to risk with evil nearer to hand. But I hope the
Marshal-General sends someone. I'd like to know what happened to Luap—and his followers— and why
they left Fintha. Perhaps there are more scrolls there—who knows?" He looked at her. "Would you
go, if you could, or does this seem a scholar's question to you?"
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Chapter Twenty-four
The early spring flowers were just fading when Paks rode west up the first long slopes above Fin
Panir. She still thought nothing could be more exciting. With the caravan, the year's first, rode
Amberion, High Marshals Connaught and Fallis, and four knights: Joris, Adan, and Pir, from the
Order of the Cudgel, and Marek from the Order of Gird. A troop of men-at-arms marched with them,
and a number of yeomen had signed on as drovers and camp workers. Most of the caravan was
commercial, headed for Kaelifet, but Ardhiel and Balkon rode with the Girdish contingent as
ambassadors and witnesses for their people.
. Paks continued her training under the direction of die paladin and High Marshals. If she had
thought the trip would provide a respite from study, she was quickly convinced otherwise. By the
time they reached the Rim, a rough outcrop of stone that loomed across their path, visible a day's
journey away, Paks had passed their examinations on the Gode of Gird and grange organization. She
began learning the grange history of the oldest granges, the reasons for locating granges and
bartons in certain places, the way that the Code of Gird was administered in grange courts and
market courts in Fintha. Now she knew how the judicar was appointed in Rocky Ford, and why the
required number of witnesses to a contract varied with the land of contract.
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Their encounter with the horse nomads was a welcome break. She had been marching along muttering
to herself the names of the Marshal-Generals who had made changes in the Code when one of the
wagonmaster's sons came pelting along the line, crying a warning. As he neared the Girdsmen, he
yelled "Sir paladin! Sir paladin! Raiders!"
"Where, lad?" Amberion was already swinging onto his golden chestnut warhorse.
"North, sir! The scouts say it's a big party."
Paks felt her stomach clench as she hurried to untie Socks from the wagon. Socks was tossing his
head, and she scrambled up, uncomfortably aware of her awkwardness. At least she had her own armor
and sword for the journey. She swung Socks away from the wagons, and unhooked her helmet from its
straps. Amberion was already hel-meted, shield on arm.
"Paksenarrion!" he called. "Brine spears." Paks unfastened her shield from the saddle and slid it
on her arm. At the supply wagon, she called for two spears, and a young yeoman slid them out the
rear. Paks locked them under her elbow, whirled Socks, and rode off to find Amberion. To the north
she could see a smudge of dust. The caravan itself was suddenly alive with armed troops. Their
score of men-at-arms marched as a rear guard; the regular caravan guards rode atop each wagon,
crossbows loaded and cocked. High Marshal Connaught carried a bow; he, Sir Marek, and Ardhiel rode
toward the head of the caravan. The other three knights waited on High Marshal Fallis, whose bald-
faced horse was throwing its usual tantrum. Paks grinned to herself. She'd had to ride that horse
a few times herself; she could imagine the struggle to get helm and shield in place while staying
aboard.
Then a bellow from the wagonmaster bought Amberion back. He shrugged at Paks, and she followed him
to the cluster of mounted fighters. High Marshal Connaught was glaring, but the wagonmaster never
looked up.
"You can't do it, I say, and you agreed when I took you on that you'd be bound by my orders."
"Thieves and outlaws—" began Connaught. The wagon-master interrupted.
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"Horse nomads. Horse nomads I've met before, and will every year, whether you ride with me or not.
Maybe you could hold them off—if it's one of the half-decent clans like Stormwind or Wintersun.
But what about next year? We skirmish a little for honor's sake, pay our toll, same as a caravan
would on the long route through Tsaia, and that's tt. None of your Girdish sermonizing here,
Marshal: it'll get me killed."
"And if they attack?" said Amberion. Paks noticed that the wagonmaster's fixed glare softened a
little.
"We fight, of course: that's why I have guards. But they won't, with you in sight. I'm glad enough
to have the extra blades and bows, and that's truth, but for the rest of it, I'll pay toll."
Connaught started to speak, but Amberion caught his eye, and he closed his mouth. Amberion smiled
at the wagonmaster. "Sir, we agreed to follow your command while we traveled with you; forgive us
for our eagerness to defend you."
It was not long before they could see die advancing warriors clearly: a mass of riders armed with
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see the shaggy manes, the glitter of bridle ornaments, the colors of the riders' cloaks. On tall
poles long streamers of cloth fluttered in the wind: blue, gray, and white. She could hear the
drumming of those many hooves.
The wagonmaster had insisted that all but the parley group he led stay near the wagons, but he had
invited Amberion to ride out with him. Paks followed, at his nod. As they moved toward the nomads,
the wagonmaster gave them his instructions. Finally they faced their enemy only a bowshot away.
Amberion waved his spear slowly, left to right. The nomads halted. Several of their horses
whickered.
A single figure in the front of the group waved one of the streamered poles and yelled something
in a language Paks didn't know.
"Parley in Common!" yelled Amberion.
The figure rode forward ten yards or so. "Why we halt?" he called. "Yer on our pasture, city folk.
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you have, and feeding ye to the grass?" His speech was thickly accented, a mixture of several
dialects.
"Aye, easily enough." The wagonmaster sounded confident.
"Ha! Five against fifty? Are ye demons, then, like that black one that walks north?"
"We are servants of Gird and the High Lord," said Amberion. The wagonmaster shot him a glance, but
said nothing.
"Well met here, servant of whoever. Go tell yer master that those who travel our lands must pay
our tolls—unless ye'd rather fight."
Amberion turned to the wagonmaster, brows raised. The wagonmaster nodded. "Oh, these aren't bad.
These are Stormwinds—that's old Carga out there; he don't torture prisoners at all. Keeps slaves,
of course, they ail do, but if there's a good horse nomad, it's Carga. Hell take our tribute and
leave us alone. You notice he changed his demand, that second time?"
The wagonmaster had assembled a bale of striped cloth, a small keg of Marrakai red wine, several
skeins of red and blue yarn, a sack of river-clam shells, and a bundle of mixed wooden staves of a
length for arrowshafts. Now he waved, and some of the drovers carried the goods toward them.
The nomad leader rode forward slowly, alone, close enough that Paks could see the curl of hoof on
its thong around his neck, the spirals tattooed on his cheeks, the clear gray eyes under dark
brows. He rode without stirrups, in knee-high boots whose embroidered soles had surely never been
used for walking, clear as the colors
were.
"Ye ride with strange powers, cityborn trader," he said. "Yer men I know, but him—" he pointed at
Amberion. "Wizard, is it?"
"A paladin of Gird," said Amberion. The nomad shrugged and spat.
"Never heerd of him, nor paladins neither. But ye stink of power." He watched closely as the goods
were displayed before him, and finally nodded. "Go yer way,
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scarfeet riders—" It took Paks a while to understand this reference to their stirrups, and the
marks those left on boots.
She hardly had time to enjoy the memory of the nomads before High Marshal Connaught had her hard
at work again. Spring passed quickly into summer, the hot windy summer of the grasslands. At times
it seemed they rode in the center of a bowl of grass, and Paks wondered if the world might be
turning under them, so that they would never be free. Then the green turned grayer; the grass
hardly reached their horses' knees. The dry air rasped in her nose, chapped her lips. Paks could
see the ground's color showing through, as if the grass were a threadbare rug over the land, and
then the grass foiled. The trail went on, a deep-bitten groove of dust and stone.
They moved from water to water. Paks learned to ride with a cloth over her face, and keep her
mouth closed against the dryness. The horses lost flesh, despite their care. The caravaners showed
the Girdsmen how to turn over every rock before sitting down: Paks loathed the many-legged
creatures that lurked in that cool shade and carried poison in their tails.
It took days to cross the first deep canyon: first to ease the wagons down that steep trail
without losing control of any of them, then to warp them across the roaring river, red with ground
rock, then to drag them back up, foot by foot. And when they came out on top again, Paks could see
tittle of where they had been. After another such canyon, the caravaners pointed out a line of
purple against the northern sky. Mountains, they said. Elves, they said also, with sidelong looks
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Paks asked him, and Ardhiel answered that those mountains were home to elves, but not of his
family. He seemed troubled by something, but Paks knew better than to ask. Balkon, looking north,
muttered eagerly about stone. He had confided to Paks that his family, the Goldenaxe clan, was
looking for more daskgeft, more stonemass for the increase of the family. He hoped to find some;
the descriptions Luap had written of the land made him think the stone there might be "dross," or
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dered again how dross could have so many meanings in dwarvish: courage, wit, strength—almost
anything good, it seemed to her, was dross.
Day by day the mountains seemed to march nearer their flank. Ahead was only the rolling level of
the desert, broken by watercourses. Paks began to feel a pressure from those mountains; she
understood why the caravaners would go around rather than through them, for that alone. Then one
morning an edge of red rock showed ahead. As they marched toward it, it rose higher and higher. By
the next afternoon, they could see the lighter rock below, great sweeping curves of white and
yellow—the same color, Paks thought, as the walls of Cortes Andres. And two days later, marching
under those great stone ramparts, the Girdsmen turned aside.
Here a river emptied itself from those stone walls into the sand and rubble outside. The
caravaners muttered and made gestures, but finally moved on, while. High Marshal Connaught
examined the map again. When the caravan was gone, he mounted his bay horse and led them up the
watercourse, the horses lunging through the dry sand. Ahead, Paks could see towering white walls
dosing in. She wondered how they could ride in such a narrow space if the water came up.
"Bad place for an ambush," said Amberion beside her.
"Yes, sir."
"By the map, well be leaving this soon, and climbing into another stream's valley. I hope the
route can be climbed by horses."
Paks had not thought of that, but looking at the sheer walls of stone, she realized what they
might face. "If they can't—"
"Then we'll leave them. Build a stout camp, leave die novice yeomen and most of the men-at-arms.'
Before the canyon walls closed completely, High Marshal Connaught turned left away from the river,
leading them onto a rough slope of broken rock. He seemed to find a trail; Paks, far back in the
group, could not see anything ahead to guide them. Socks heaved upward, stride by stride. They
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horses were curded with sweat. Amberion's horse, alone of all the animals, never showed the marks
of hard riding, always slick-coated and fresh. Paks had noticed that about all the paladin's
mounts in Fin Panir. Far back she could see the mules, head down, picking their way delicately and
almost without eflbrt over the rocks. Below, the canyon they had come from disappeared into a
jumble of shadow and light. Now she could see far to the right, more swooping curves of stone,
patterned by dark cracks. Far up on the heights, she thought she saw trees.
By late afternoon, she could see a strange shape against the sky: a dark cone with a scoop out of
the point. Amberion pointed to it.
"That's marked on the map. Blackash cone, it said: we must bear left of it." As they came nearer,
always climbing, the rock changed abruptly from white to red. The trail led through a break in
that vertical red wall. Suddenly the black cone was close; it looked like a loose pile of dark
rock sitting on the red stone around it. Paks stared. Had someone—some giant, surely—built a
cairn? Long shadows streaked the land, making weird shapes of the windblown rocks around them. Now
they could see that the canyon they had climbed from was only a small section of something much
larger that extended far to the east, ending at last in a higher rampart of white topped with
forest. South, the land dropped abruptly into that hole. It was hard to believe they had climbed
anything so sudden. Westward the land dipped to a rumpled plain of sand, and that again dropped
shaiply: Paks could just see against the setting sun the distant mountains beyond that drop.
Northward, their view was blocked by the black cone and the higher land behind it. Red clifis,
these, with fortress-size blocks lying at their feet. Paks wondered if die others felt as small as
she did.
That night they camped on the sandy plain just southwest of me black cone. A cold wind brushed the
camp; stars blazed brighter than Paks had ever seen them. She woke several times to hear Ardhiel
singing. Dawn came early on that high place. Paks saw the white stone below begin to glow even
before she was aware of light in the
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sky. Then the high wall to the east stood clear against a green dawn. First light turned die red
peaks north of tnem to fiery orange; then the light crept down to meet them, throwing blue shadows
below.
They had some trouble to find the trail from there. Just to the left of the black cone, layers of
stone like those that peel from a boiled egg curved downward, but the horses skidded and slipped.
High Marshal Connaught sent Thelon ahead; he reported that the stony way ended in a drop four or
five men high. Then they searched for a way around. Paks decided that walking in deep dry sand was
harder than any marching she had ever done. The wind increased, blowing sand into their eyes. The
horses flattened ears against it. The first three trails they tried led to sheer clifls, and it
was early afternoon before the scout found a safe route.
It began in a narrow grove of pines, where broad low boles rose from drifted sand, old trees bent
by strong winds into a tangled thatch of branches. Below the trees, the trail followed a twisting
ravine, its bed choked with boulders of garish red and black on a bed of sand; they radiated the
heat like coals. Across the ravine, as they went down, they could see outcrops of red rock.
Suddenly the cleft they traveled angled back to die left, then crooked right again. They were on a
narrow platform above a small valley that led straight away toward a tangle of clifis and canyons.
On either side sheer clifis rose hundreds of feet, rose-red and orange, striped with black. To die
right, an arm of die valley angled back away from them. Down die valley a stream reflected the
sky; it looked wider than Paks had expected.
As they rode down into the valley, Paks heard conflicting opinions.
"What a farm diat'd make," said one of the yeomen with die mules. "Wind-shelter from those
cliffs—water—must be good soil with all that grass."
"A long way to market," said another. "Unless you founded a grange out here, Tamar."
"Marry me, and we might," said the woman, laughing.
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"Marry—I'd have married you in Fin Panir, but you wouldn't have it."
"And miss this? Come on, Dort, you weren't any more ready to settle down than I was. But couldn't
we make a form here?"
"I'll tell you that when I find the nearest market." Paks heard them laughing for some moments
after.
"It is not good," muttered Balkon, who had turned his pony aside from the others to look closely
at the rock wall nearest them. "See—" He poked at it with his axe-haft. "It is soft here. Good
rock there—" he pointed at the east wall of the valley, and at great cliffs beyond it. "But
something is wrong here. With those cliffs, it must be deeper."
"Strange," murmured Ardhiel as Paks rode by. "It has an odd feel—very strange."
But most of the company liked its looks—green grass and water, walls far enough apart to allow
maneuvering, yet close enough for protection. Then they rode out of the last rock-strewn mouth of
the ravine, and found themselves once more in deep sand—this time wet sand.
"Ah," said the dwarf, eyes gleaming. "It is that this valley is choked with sand-—something blocks
it there—" he pointed at the far end. "The side rock goes down, very for below this; I feel it
meet under our feet."
"Find us firm ground," said High Marshal Connaught to the scout. "These horses can't handle
boggy—" He threw himself off as his horse sank hock-deep by one leg. They all dismounted. Close up
the valley was smaller than they had thought; the hills were low dunes rising above the level. The
stream was only a trickle across the sand surface. "But plenty if we dig," the High Marshal
assured the others. "It s like those waterholes in the low desert."
While the scout and several men-at-arms searched for a firm path to the north end of the valley,
the Marshals and knights looked at the angled canyon that wound away to the right. That way the
ground seemed firmer, and the little stream, though narrower, gurgled ankle deep over fine gravel.
"It's too bad we aren't going this way," said High Mar-
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shal Fallis. "I suppose it's blocked at the far end by another cliff."
"Let's look at it," said Marek, one of the knights, and the only member of the Order of Gird. "We
ought to learn the shape of the land, in case of trouble."
"In case of trouble," said Joris drily, "nothing in this land offers comfort. We should have been
born with wings."
"I agree with Marek, though," said Connaught. 'We should know, and mark the map."
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In a few minutes an angle of rock cut them off from sight of the others. On either hand the cliffs
rose straight out of the sand, as if carved by a knife. Paks noticed a great arch set into the
northeast wall. Under it a dark shadowed space looked large enough for a building. She looked from
cliff to cliff, uneasy. In several places the stone seemed to have broken away leaving an
overhanging arch, some much smaller than others. She nudged Balkon.
"Why does the rock do that? Is it natural? Did something shape it?"
"What—oh, it is the arch you mean? That is stone itself. I have not seen before, but I have heard.
It is good stone that can take an arch; the arch is the drossen shape—" He saw her puzzled look,
sighed, and tried in Common. "The shape that stone holds when it is sound—strong—healthy. Not
nedross, like that stone that we came by, where the wall broke to let us in. Look in the High
Lord's Hall—you see that even human masons know the right shape, the good shape, for stone holding
stone. The longer die arch, the better die stone."
"Oh." Paks shivered. She did not like this valley; it was hard to judge how high the cliffs were,
how far they had come from their friends. She looked back, to see someone leading a horse across
the stream, heading down the valley. She could not see the other men-at-arms or horses at all;
only a narrow view remained of the main valley. She craned her neck to look at the large arch
again. Surely the whole party could shelter there—if you could get horses up the cliff. She
started to laugh at that idea, and suddenly
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stopped. Something was moving in the shadow. For an instant she could not speak, but then she
called to Amberion.
"What is it?" he asked, turning. Before Paks could answer, Ardhiel cried out in elven, swinging
his bow from his shoulder and snatching arrows. Paks pointed upward, then staggered as an arrow
slammed into ner helmet.
"Keep your faces down!" bellowed High Marshal Fallis. "Eyes— But Paks knew that, and had already
dashed for a leaning rock. Pir and Adan were huddled there, too. More arrows clattered on the
rocks around them. She heard a high-pitched cry from above, and then the terrible smack of a body
on rocks. Another scream from across the canyon. Then silence.
"That won't be all," said High Marshal Fallis. Paks looked around. Ardhiel was close to the cliff
on the far side; she saw Fallis near him. Connaught, Amberion, and Joris had taken shelter behind
another rock near her, and Marek and Balkon behind yet another. She risked a quick glance upward,
but could see nothing for the overhang.
"Beware!" Ardhiel's voice rose again, and he yelled something in elven. Paks saw a swarm of black-
clad figures leap from cracks in the rock, turned just in time to meet more of them attacking on
her side. She and the two knights leaped to their feet.
At first it seemed they might be cut down in their separate groups. The attackers were skilled
with their narrow blades, and had numbers and height on their side. Adan staggered; a blade had
gone deep in his leg. Paks covered his side; together she and Pir managed to fight their way back
to High Marshal Connaught, half-carrying Adan between them. Fallis and Ardhiel dashed across to
join them, and the group locked into a unit, back to back with Adan. in the center. From her
position, Paks could not see if any of the others, far back down the valley, had noticed any
disturbance. She was fighting too hard to have breath to yell. She did not even recognize what she
was fighting until the top of Fir's sword flicked back one of the hoods.
"Elves!" she cried; the fine-boned face, the long grace-
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fill body now seeming the same as Ardhiel's. But the elf called to them.
"No—not elves. lynisin—unsingers—once of our blood—"
"And we are still the true heirs," called one of the enemy, in elven. Paks could just follow the
words. The voice held the same music as Ardhiel's, but was colder. "We have not changed; you have
fallen, cousin, making alliance with mortals and rockfolk, to the insult of your blood."
"Daskdusky scum," muttered Balkon, swinging his axe wide from his comer position.
Though outnumbered, the little group was able to shift slowly back toward the main valley. High
Marshal Fallis, feeing that way, told them he saw the men-at-arms coming. Paks, Pir, and Amberion,
holding the rear, stepped back cautiously, keeping the enemy blades at bay. Then Marek called a
warning. Paks glanced up at the nearest cliff. There, moving swiftly on the sheer wall as if it
were level, a great many-legged thing dropped down on them. At the overhanging ledge it stepped
into the air and fell, swinging on a shining line behind it, leaping from its first touch on the
ground to arc high above their heads. Pir swung and missed; Paks twisted, trying to strike behind
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While they were still shaken by this creature, from overhead a loud voice cried a single word.
Paks stopped short, hardly able to breathe. She felt as if she'd been dipped in ice. Her eyes
roved, following the great monster. Now she could see it had almost the form of a spider, many
legs around a bulbous body. She felt her hand loosening on her sword.
But with a ringing tone like that of a great bell, white light glowed around them. Paks could move
again; she felt her heart beating wildly, but her hand clenched on the sword. As the monster
leaped, she hacked at its head. Her sword skidded off the hard surface, but Pir's severed a leg.
Pales thrust again, for the eyes. It reared back, aiming small tubes along its belly at her.
Amberion shoved her aside. A gout of grayish fluid missed her; she heard Adan
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cry out behind. But by then Amberion's sword had severed the head, and the thing lay twitching on
the ground.
"Stay close," said Amberion. "It is a spell of fear laid on us." Paks felt no fear, now, and
fought on.
In the space of the monster's attack, more enemy fighters had come from the cliffs to cut them off
from the rest of the party. These were bowmen, close enough that their arrows could wound even
through armor. Between them and the bowmen were two ranks of swords. Paks took a deep breath. She
had not expected to have such a short career as paladin—not even paladin yet, she reminded
herself—but she thought she would as soon die in this company as any other. She saw Balkon bend to
lass his axe. High Marshal Fallis had done something for Adan; he was standing more steadily.
Connaught frowned at the enemy, lips folded. Amberion touched Paks on the arm.
"It's only five to one," he said, smiling. "Your Duke has faced worse than that."
Paks grinned. "Oh well—well win through easily, then."
"You stay close, though. You have no protection of your own against that fear." Paks thought she
had, but wasn't going to argue the point. She saw Connaught draw breath to send them forward; she
wondered why the archers hadn't shot yet. Then Ardhiel moved, taking from his side the old
battered hunting horn he had carried from Fin Panir. He set it to his lips.
Whatever Paks expected, it had not been the sound of that horn. It began sweet and tender,
swelling louder and louder to a triumphant blast that nearly shattered her bones. Wind swirled
into the canyon, a great column of whirling air tunneling into and from the horn's throat. A
roiling mass of pink and gold-lit cloud blotted out the hard clear blue of a desert sky. Paks
could not see the clifis—the enemy—or Ardhiel himself. The cloud shimmered, steadied, became a
piled and rumpled staircase of gold. Down it came a brilliant shining creature, winged with
rainbow colors, so bright she could hardly stand to see it, and so beautiful she could not look
away. On its back was Someone in mail brighter than polished silver, wearing a blinding white
cloak. He spoke: the language was elven, the
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voice rang with authority and troubled the heart like elven harps. And Paks saw Ardhiel bow, and
move to his side, and saw him mount that fabulous beast, and saw them rise once more into the
clouds.
When the clouds blew away, in the last throbbing notes of that horn-call, the enemy was gone,
though the rattle of their flight through the rocks echoed from wall to wall. Ardhiel lay
unconscious on the ground, smiling, and the horn in his hand showed its true nature: the finest
horn Paks had ever seen, jeweled with rubies and emeralds, shining gold.
With no delay, Connaught had them carry Ardhiel back to the others.
"It's an elfliorn, it must be," he said over his shoulder. "I'd heard of them, but Gird knows I
never expected to see one. Let alone hear one. By the gods, this is a bad place. You were right,
Balkon. Bad for an ambush, and I walked right into it. I hope it doesn't kill Lord Ardhiel.
That'll take some explaining. 'Old hunting horn,' indeed. No wonder he wouldn't play on it for our
dancing that night. It makes my skin itch to think of it."
"It's Gird's grace he brought it," said Amberion. "I wonder why they didn't shoot at once? They
could have gotten us—'
"Or thought they could." Fallis grunted as his foot turned on a rock. "Damned treacherous ground.
Probably a damned kuaknom behind every stone."
"Kuaknom?" asked Paks.
"That's what we call them—kuaknom, tree-haters—as elves are tree-lovers. The elves call them
iynisin, the unsingers. Remember, it's the kuaknom that used to be confused with Kuakkganni."
Paks wondered how anyone could confuse those horrible parodies of elves with a Kuakgan. Confuse
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they the same as other elves once?"
"Aye," answered Balkon, before anyone else could. "And some say they are still, the blackheart
rockfilth. The elves like to pretend all the kuaknom foiled away many years
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ago. But here we see the truth of that! By Sertig's Hammer, all the fair-spoken ones would rather
have a tongue of silver, though it lied, then tell iron truth at need."
Amberion shook his head. "Your pardon, sir dwarf, but in this I judge you wrong. The kuaknom
parted long ago from the true elves, in a quarrel that began before men—"
"Not long before," muttered Balkon. "The Kuakkganni—"
"If they are truly men, then it was not before—but it was before other men. And the cause of that
quarrel—"
"Was the Tree. Aye, I've heard that. But it seems a foolish quarrel to me. Would a dwarf enact
rage because iron bends to any smith, or stone to any chisel?" He shook his head, and challenged
them all with his look. "No, I deem not, and you know the truth of it. But I call no harsh name on
Ardhiel's head, for his call saved us, and he has paid for that. The best of elves are fair
indeed—aye, though we grumble, being made rough and ugly as rock and iron, we honor them for their
grace. Well they name their lord the Singer of Songs; the best of them are true songs, well sung;
but we are other, hammered on Sertig's anvil to bear the blows of the world. Our songs are the
ring of steel on stone." Paks was astonished; she had never heard any dwarf speak so. He bowed
stiffly, and was silent thereafter until they reached the men-at-arms, now coming forward in
battle order.
The High Marshals led them swiftly out to the trail the others had found, and the whole company
moved down the main valley while it was still light. Here the walls were nearly a bowshot apart.
Thelon, sent ahead once more, had found a trail leading out: not where the valley seemed to end,
for that was a jumble of house-size stones ending in a twenty-foot cliff, but climbing again over
a shoulder of the western wall.
"But it is no trail you could take in the dark, Marshal Fallis," he reported. "Even the near part
will tax the horses; after that it is easier, but the first of the trail going into the canyon
beyond is worse. I could not go far enough to be sure they can get down. We may have trailwork to
do; I judge you will not want to leave them here."
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that, when we saw this fertile valley, but we can leave no one behind to suffer attack of the
kuaknom. And it is by no means so fertile as it seemed," For they had found all the valley floor
to be sand, dry or wet or boggy; the green growth was sedge, not grass, and only a few trees dared
that sandy expanse.
They made their camp near the foot of the trail, watering the beasts in a hole dug downstream.
Paks helped with that, for it took two to dig away the sand that slithered into the hole while the
horses and mules drank. The High Marshals ordered a line of fires between die camp and the eastern
wall, the one they expected the kuaknom to use, Paks wondered briefly if the kuaknom might infest
the western cliff as well, but she could see no holes or caves for access. By this time the valley
was in shadow, lit by the sky. Gradually it faded. Paks had the late watch, and she rolled herself
in a blanket against the surprising chill. The sand made a comfortable bed. She slept soundly
almost at
once.
Thelon, the scout, woke her for her turn at watch. Paks stretched, stiff from sleeping in armor,
and took off her helmet to scratch her head. When she replaced the helmet, she let it sit loosely
on her braid as sne came to the main fire for a mug of sib.
"Nothing so far,' reported Thelon. "I wandered across the stream—if you can call it a stream—far
enough from the fires to see better, but I saw nothing. But it feels strange, and I don't like
it."
Paks yawned. She took a long swallow of sib, aware of sand sifting through her clothes, itching.
"I don't mind it feeling strange, as long as those kuaknom, or iynisin, or whatever they are, let
us alone."
"Iynisin is the better word," said Tlielon seriously. "Elves are the sinyi, the singers of the
First Singer's songs, and these scum are those who not only refuse to sing, but who unsing the
songs, going against the Singer's will in everything. So, being created as the sinyi are to love
trees and flowing water, these hate them, and burrow in stone, fouling bright water with their
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it is right to live in stone; they are the dasksinyi, the stone-singers, whose song is stone and
its metals. They honor the stone. But these iynisin defile it. So Balkon will tell you."
"Yes, but he calls them something else—"
"In dwarvish, yes—but dwarftongue is not truesong; for the right names, the truenames of things,
ask an elf. The singer is known by some as Adyan, the Namer of Names—"
"I thought that was different," said Paks.
Thelon laughed lightly, in the elven way. "Some also say that the god of men should be called the
Sorter of Beads, for men worry more of such division, and not right and wrong." Paks scowled at
him, but he held up his hand. "Indeed, you call your god the High Lord, and speak of his Hall as a
seat of justice. What is justice, then, but judging and choosing—sorting feet from feet, and
laying On one side the true, and on the other side the false? Now I, being but half-elven, have
less pride of race than elves: my own thought is that the great king is one only: He Named the
first Names, and Sang the first Song, and He rightly judges all things as true or false, good or
evil. I would even say that Sertig the Maker is but another name for him—for surely one only came
first, and did these things. Now we spend one time singing, and another time fighting, and another
time learning or praying—but we are mortal—and even the immortal elves live mostly in one line—we
divide, therefore, like a man who says that this mountain is gnomeland on one side, and his land
on the other. But it is all one mountain."
Much of this Paks did not understand, but she liked the idea that the High Lord might be the same
as Adyan and Sertig. She finished her sib, and went to her post, on the south end of the camp.
The nearest watchfires burned low, scarcely more than a heap of coals, for they had found little
wood to burn. High Marshal Connaught had told them to keep wood back, in case of trouble, A chill
wind drifted down from the higher land; Paks heard a distant moan where it poured over the lip of
the valley into the lower canyons beyond. One of the other watchers coughed; a horse stamped. She
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Socks, tethered with the others at the north end of the camp, just under the bluff they would
climb in the morning. Against the bright starry sky, the eastern cliff loomed, a black presence.
It was strange to camp so near a stream and hear no water sounds, but the sand-choked flow moved
silently. Something hissed along the sand near her; Paks jumped and looked around. Nothing. Her
scalp itched; she pushed her helmet back again to scratch.
All at once die night was full of dark fighters, striking at every post. Paks yelled, with the
other sentries, and the camp crashed into wakefulness. Someone threw wood on the nearest fire; by
that light she saw the iynisin eyes gleaming under their hoods. She could not tell how many
attackers they fought. Blades swept toward her out of the dark; she felt the force of their blows
stinging along her arm as she countered them. Something struct her head. Her helmet, still loosely
set on her head, bounced off, and her long braid thumped on her back. She had no hand free to find
the helmet; several swords faced her. The iynisin cried aloud in their beautiful voices, words she
should know—but she was fighting too hard to translate. She was forced back—and back again. Then
her foot came down on something that rolled beneath it, and she fell, trying desperately to tuck
and come up, but the heavy sand caught her. A great weight fell on her, forcing her face into the
sand. Before she choked, she felt a blow to her head, and nothing.
Hie attackers fled as swiftly as they had come. When High Marshal Connaught called the roll, four
foiled to answer. Sir Joris was dead, with an arrow through his eye. Two of the men-at-arms had
suffered mortal wounds. And Paksenarrion had disappeared. They found her helmet, and her sword,
but no trace of her.
Chapter Twenty-five
At first Paks was hardly aware that she was aware. It was dark and cold and the stone beneath her
was hard and slightly gritty. She wondered vaguely if she was dreaming about the cells under the
Duke's Stronghold. She tried to move, and a savage pain shot through her head. Not a dream. It was
hard to think. Dark. Cold. Stone. She felt about with one hand. It met a wall rising from the
surface she lay on. Fighting nausea from the pain in her head, she struggled to sit up and feel
about her. Wall—another wall—yet another. All were stone; she could not feel any joints. Solid
stone? She could not remember what might have happened—where she might be.
As she moved, she realized that her skin itched and stung as if she had rolled in nettles. She
reached up to see what she had on—a tunic of some kind. It felt scratchy. She grew aware of
something uncomfortable around her throat—something heavy, and slightly tight. And cold
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Pain stabbed her fingers, and she jerked them back with a gasp. Her throat tingled; it was hard to
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For a few moments she held very still, fighting a rising panic. She tried to remember anything at
all that would give her a clue to where she was. She thought again of the Duke's Stronghold. That
wasn't right. A caravan. A caravan where she was riding, not walking. A tall black horse with
white stockings and a blaze. My horse, she thought. All right . . . what next? She thought of
gold, and at once remembered Amberion on his chestnut, remembered his name and the nature of the
quest. She pushed at the cloud across her memory. They had been—coming into a canyon. No, they
were in it. A day later—smoke from the cliffs, arrows—but nothing more. She remembered Ardhiel
saying something about the black cousins, the iynisin the elves did not like to remember.
Suddenly she thought where she must be. Underground, taken by the iynisin. She felt around
frantically for her weapons. They were gone. Of course, she thought. No sword, no battle axe, no
armor—and no medallion of Gird. All gone.
She found herself breathing rapidly, almost gasping, and tried to regain control of herself. Think
about it, she told herself. No, think about the others. Do they know? Will they come? Can they
come? They will come, she thought hopefully. They won't leave me here; they will come. She tried
to picture them, fighting their way down tunnels to find her. What if they fail? her mind asked
suddenly. What if we all die under these rocks, and no one ever knows what happened? She tried to
call on Gird, but something about the place—the quality of the silence, perhaps—stopped the words
at her lips, and she could not say Gird's name aloud.
Yet thinking about Gird and Amberion helped. Whatever happens, she thought—and forced back the
imagination of what might happen—I am a warrior of Gird. Whether I can fight my way free or not, I
can fight to the end. She remembered Ambros felling as he gave the death-stroke to Achrya's
priest. That would not be so bad. Any soldier expected to die someday. She had heard tales enough,
in Fin Panir, of paladins and knights fighting against impossible odds, for the glory of Gird. For
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herself, fighting alone against—what?—she imagined many Mack-cloaked swordsmen—in a blaze of
light.
Paks leaned on die wall and pushed herself up, dizzy as she was. Much better standing. The
darkness was more than absence of light; it had a malign and bitter flavor. She edged around the
walls, feeling her way along the stone. Wall. Wall—and something other than stone, colder than
stone, and smooth. She felt along its edge. A door? Yes. Iron, she thought. She could find nothing
but a smooth surface: no bars, no grille, nothing but the smooth metal itself until it met stone.
Panic rose again. Suppose they just left her there forever?
You're not a silly recruit any more, she told herself firmly. Don't think of that. And if it
happens, it happens. She moved past the door, feeling for hinges, but found none. Without that
clue, she could not tell which way the door would open—could not even try to surprise someone
coming in. She went on around to the next corner, and the next—which would be opposite the door,
she thought— and leaned into it. It was hard to keep her eyes open in die dark. She felt herself
slipping down the wall, and straightened with a jerk. Whenever they come, she vowed, they will
find me on my feet.
Despite that vow, she woke on the floor of the cell when she heard scraping outside the door. She
made it up before the door swung open, but her heart was racing, shaking her body, and her mouth
was dry. She squinted against the light that poured in—a lurid yellow-green blaze. Something
stank. Facing her was a tall slender figure, caped and cowled in black, face hidden by the shadow
of its cowl. Evil radiated from it as it entered the cell. On its chest was a silver carved
spider, a handspan across, hanging from a silver chain. Paks moved her hand in the warding sign
she had learned as a child. The figure laughed, a liquid sound that would have been beautiful but
for the evil aura.
"That won't help you," said the silvery voice, lovely as all elves' voices are, but utterly cold.
"Surely they are not sending children, now, with children's little superstitions?"
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Paks said nothing. She glanced past die first figure to see two torchbearers; the green-flared
torches smelled like rotting flesh—the stench rolled from them in heavy waves. A third attendant,
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"that you were a warrior of some importance—even a candidate for the order of paladins, or some
such nonsense. I find that hard to believe, as easy as you were to capture, but we shall see." It
came closer yet. Paks braced herself, whether to take a blow or give one she could not have said.
"No, mighty warrior," it said. "You cannot touch me if you try.' Suddenly it threw back its cowl
to reveal a face entirely elven but the reverse of Ardhiel's: the same fine bone structure, but
expressing only evil, its nature cruelty and lust. She was instantly convinced that it was male.
Despite herself, Paks shivered as he reached out a slender long-fingered hand and touched the band
around her throat. She could not move back; the band tightened just slightly.
"You see," the iynisi continued, "you wear already the symbol of our lady, and while you wear it
you cannot harm any of her servants. Nor can your puny saint—whatever his name is—aid you. You
have only yourself, your own abilities—if you have any—to help you here. If you amuse us, and
learn to serve us, you may yet live to see the sky again. But, of course, if you prefer to starve
alone in this cell—" he looked at her, waiting for an answer.
Paks tore her gaze from his eyes, and looked around die cell, in the green light. It was stone,
cut out of living rock: just long enough to lie down in. Nothing else. Her glance flicked down her
own body. The tunic she wore was black, and looked slightly fuzzy. The bands on her wrists were
black, with hasps for chains. There were no chains in the cell. Yet. She tried to think of Gird,
of Amberion, but her mind froze, clouded.
"Perhaps you need to partake of our sport before you can choose," said the iynisi. "You are
already familiar with this cell. Since we want no foolish uproar—" he beckoned
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to the attendant with the case, who opened it. The first iynisi took out what appeared to be a
nank of gray yarn. He unwound the stuff, which seemed slightly sticky, and reached for Paks's
wrists. "One of our lady's arts," he said. "Not so cumbersome as chains, and of course, no use to
you as a weapon. But you'll find it strong enough; it will bind dwarves, let alone humans. I
advise you not to fight it. For now I am using the wristlets, but if you are troublesome. I'll
wrap your bare flesh with it, and this—" he laid a strand against Paks's arm; it burned like a
coal, like the strands of the net in the Achryan priest's stronghold, "—is what that feels like."
Paks shivered again, but made no sound. The iynisi nodded. "So there is something warrior-like in
you after all. That is well. We should lose our amusement were you entirely craven. Come along,
now." The iynisi turned to leave; Paks felt a tug at her wrists, now bound closely together. For
an instant she thought of resistance to the pull, but the other attendants showed the long knives
in their hands, and she knew it would be futile.
"Excellent," said the iynisi, as she took the first step to follow. "We had heard you were capable
of thought and planning. It is so important for a warrior to know when fighting is hopeless."
No, thought Paks; it is never hopeless. You can always die. But she was already walking down a
stone passage as she thought this, between the first iynisi and a torchbearer in front, and the
other torchbearer and attendant behind. She thought of lunging at the one in front, tried to
gather herself for it, but her body ignored the thought and kept walking. They passed a branching
passage, then another. She tried to look around her, tried to pick out directions and openings,
and orient herself, but the speed at which she was led, and the peculiar green light, made this
impossible.
They turned into a wider corridor, dimly lit by a greenish blur along the angle of wall and
ceiling. Paks could not see what it was, but it gave off a sour smell different from the rank
stench of the green torches. Here were other
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iynisin, that hissed as they saw her. All wore black, but not the cape and hood of her escort, or
the great spider emblem. TTiey melted from her path—or from the iynisi with her. As they went on,
she thought she heard more and more following behind.
Her escort turned into a narrow passage that sloped downward to die right, falling away from the
roof. Ahead of die iynisi, Paks could see a wider opening, and brighter tight She was led through
it into a wide flat area, slightly oral. Surrounding it were tiers of stone seats, already ban
full, and filling with more iynisin. On one side, a dark gaping maw replaced the first two tiers.
As the torchbear-ers of her escort moved around the oval lighting torches set on brackets, she
realized that the dark space was not empty. Eight eyes as big as fists reflected chips of green
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legs, Paks saw, was as long as she was tall.
Paks was hardly aware of the chill that spread over her as she stared at the great spider in
horror. Was this Achrya herself? Beside her the iynisi chuckled. "I see you have noticed our airy.
No, that is not our lady—merely one of her representatives, you might say. But do not let fear of
her make you less rumble. While you wear her symbol, she will not pursue you." By this time the
torchbearers had finished lighting the whole circuit; now more green light flared from above. Paks
looked up to see a great hanging framework, also made in the likeness of a spider with legs
outspread on a web, holding more torches. By this light she could see that the seats were almost
filled, and not alone with iynisin. Hunchbacked ores clustered in one section; grotesque dog-faced
beings in another. All stared down at her, eyes glittering in the flickering light
"Your reputation has preceded you, Paksenarrion," said the iynisi, with a mocking smile. "You were
involved in the loss of our friend and ally Jamarrin, in Brewersbridge." His voice rang out, now,
and the rest of the chamber was silent but for the sputtering torches. "We would see for ourselves
what skill in arms, what brilliance of strategy,
defeated so fair a servant of our lady." Paks did not answer. She tried to think what this was
leading up to, besides a miserable and public execution.
"We could, of course, simply kill you here," he said, echoing her thought. "Our lady would be
pleased to see the—inventiveness—of our methods, and the torment of one who destroyed her servant
Jamarrin. But such sport lasts briefly, with you human folk. Perhaps, also, you have been used by
those you think your friends. Certainly the elves have not treated you fairly, stealing from you
and clouding your memory." He reached out quickly and laid a cold, dry hand along her brow. As
suddenly as light springs into a dark closet, she remembered the Halveric's scroll that she had
sworn to take to his wife in Lyonya—and remembered the elves who had sent her instead to
Brewersbridge, to take their messages, while they took the scroll. The iynisi smiled and nodded.
"They 'healed' you, as you thought—indeed, yes, and cast their glamour on you, to turn an honest
soldier into their errand-girl, made oathbreaker and faithless by their enchantment. Was that well
done? I see you have doubts of it now, and so you should. How much of what you said and did was
their bidding? Perhaps you have never acted of your own will yet. We shall give you a chance,
therefore, to earn your next day of life." Despite herself, Paks felt a leap of hope. If they
would let her fight, even outnumbered—even unarmed—that would be a better death. Surely if she
(ought, Gird would come and help her, would protect her from the worst. She pushed the thought of
the elves away: later she could worry about that, if later came. No doubt they had merely meant to
save her trouble. But a faint doubt lingered, souring her memory of them.
"There are many here who would be glad to prove your reputation unfounded," the iynisi continued.
"I myself think you do have some skill. We shall see. For your first trial you will face but a
single opponent. Hardly a test of your ability, but he will be armed, and you not. If you dispute
the fairness of it, you may always forbear to fight, and be cut down without resistance." The
other attendants had gone away while he was speaking; Paks looked around
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as the iynisi stepped back. With a swift stroke of his knife, he cut the strands that tethered her
wrists, and stepped farther back, bowing. Then he turned to the surrounding seats, one arm
upraised. "Let the sport begin!" he cried. The spectators rose in their ranks and cheered. The
caped iynisi ran lightly to the web across the arena, bowed to the huge spider, and swarmed up the
web to the seats above.
Paks, alone now on the floor of the arena, looked about for her opponent. She tried again to call
on Gird or the High Lord, but could feel nothing when the words passed through her mind. It was
like calling in an empty room. For the first time she wondered whether Gird would even listen.
Surely if he could hear, he would help—in something like this—but the words she'd been taught
echoed in her head, unanswered. She heard the scrape of the boots from the passage by which she
had come, and turned to see an ore stride into the lighted space. He wore leather body-armor and
helmet, as well as the boots, and carried a short-thonged whip in one hand, and a curved knife in
the other. Paks took a deep steadying breath and rocked from heel to toe, loosening her muscles.
With her own weapons, such an opponent would have been no problem at all; without even a dagger,
she was at a severe disadvantage. Still, she could fight—she reached for the spark of battle
anger, and welcomed it.
The ore came to her slowly, with a low, smooth gait unexpected in such a bent shape. Paks crouched
slightly, up on her toes, ready to shift any direction as chance offered. The ore grinned at her,
and screeched something which the watching iynisin understood, for they laughed. She supposed it
was a challenge of some sort. She felt a rising excitement, hot and joyous. Perhaps this was
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"Come on, then," she said to the ore in Common. "Many of your land have I killed; come join them."
Closing abruptly, the ore swung the whip at her head; Paks ducked to save her eyes, watching its
knife hand. Sure enough, as the knotted thongs bit into her neck and shoulders, the knife thrust
toward her belly. She pivoted
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away from the thrust and caught the ore's wrist with one hand, jerking him forward. He went to his
knees, and she tried to make it to his back. But he rolled as he fell, and she met another slash
of the whip. This time the thongs wrapped her legs, and she fell heavily, narrowly missing another
thrust of the knife as she twisted away from his hand. He was on his feet an instant before her,
aiming another blow of the whip. She scrambled away from it; the iynisin above her tittered.,
"Sso ... we ... teach ... to ... humnss . . . what . . . iss . . . mannerss," said the ore in
barely understandable Common. He grinned again. "For thiss one ... no sswordss . . . just whipss
enough." He swung the whip around his head; the thongs hummed. Paks kept her eye on the knife
blade. He edged toward her again. Paks took a deep breath, from the belly, summoned up all the
anger she could rouse, and charged an instant before he did. The whip was still in backstroke; she
threw all her weight on him, both hands on die wrist of his knife hand. To her delight he sprawled
backwards. She tucked as they hit die stone floor and rolled on, still digging her thumbs into his
wrist. The knife clattered to the stone. He had already recognized the danger, and dropped the
whip to grab for it with his free hand. Paks kicked it away; it skittered across the arena. The
ore squealed and grabbed her leg, then sank its teeth in her ankle. Paks let go of the wrist, and
reached for the whip. Again the ore anticipated her, and snatched it up an instant before she
reached it. She rolled away, taking another hard lash of the whip before she was scrambling for
the fallen knife.
This time she reached the prize first; she turned to face the ore with a weapon in her hand. She
scarcely felt the whip welts or the bite. She grinned back at the ore as he came. Even now it
would not be easy—the blade was short, and the ore's armor tough—but she, at least, was sure of
the outcome. The ore paused, and screeched again in its unknown tongue. The iynisin were silent,
except for one voice that by its tone denied a request.
"Did you wish to quit, ore?" asked Paks. "Have I endangered your soft hide too much?" It was the
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she knew, for Ardhiel had told her that the ores' name for themselves meant iron-skins.
The ore glared at her, baring its fangs and running a tongue around its mouth which was stained
with her own blood. Paks spared a quick glance to see where she was. Nearly in front of the
spider's web—not where she wanted to be at all. She slid sideways in a crouching glide. The ore
turned to follow her, more slowly this time. She led it around the arena until its back was to the
spider. By then the ore was beginning to grin again. She watched how it moved, decided where to
strike.
Suddenly she stood at fall height and stretched her arms upward, like someone just arising from a
comfortable sleep. As she expected, the ore darted in and aimed a vicious slash at her exposed
torso. She sidestepped left, taking the force of the blow without pausing, and rammed her suddenly
lowered right arm into the ore's neck. She had shifted the knife blade in that instant to a side-
hold, and it slashed his throat from side to side, catching edge-on in the neckbone. The ore fell,
blood pouring over her arm as she tried to free the blade. Above her the silvery voices clamored
for an instant and were still. Paks rolled the dead ore on his back, and levered the knife free.
It had a notch, where the bone had chipped it. She crouched, looking up at the circle of faces, as
she tried to catch her breath.
"Well enough," called the caped iynisi from above the spider's lair. "It might have been done with
more artistry, but the final stroke was admirable. Continue to amuse us so, and you may yet
survive. For your next trial, you may keep the knife you have earned. For now, stand against the
wall—" he gestured to the wall behind her.
Paks rose, not to comply, but found that the entrance to the arena was filled with heavily armed
iynisin. They tanned out around her and forced her back with then-pikes. She could not have
touched them with die knife, and did not resist. She watched as two of them dragged the ore's body
across the the spider's web, and bowed as they placed it just beneath the lowest strands. With
horrible quickness the vast bloated body came down and grasped
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spinnerets twisting around and around. Soon the ore was a neatly cased packet hanging in the web.
Paks swallowed against a surge of nausea. So that's what would happen if she failed—she thrust
that thought aside hurriedly. Holy Saint Gird, she thought, just help me fight.
As the battle anger left her, she began to tremble. She was terribly thirsty; the ore-bite on her
leg throbbed; the whip welts spread a cloak of pain about her. She wondered again how long she had
been imprisoned underground. Surely they knew she was gone—surely Amberion would come looking for
her. Her vision blurred, and she leaned on the wall behind her. She had not noticed that the pike-
bearing iynisin were gone until the caped one spoke again.
"I hope that is not weakness we see," came the silvery voice. "Surely such a champion does not
think the trial is over after a trifling altercation like that? No, no ... we must see more of
your vaunted skills. Even now your opponents approach; do not disappoint us."
Paks ran her tongue around her dry mouth. How could she fight again without water or rest? She
forced herself to straighten, to look toward the entrance tunnel. Get out in the open, she told
herself. You've got to have room. She had stiffened, even with that brief respite, and now she
limped on the bitten leg. I have to keep fighting, she thought. I have to.
Out of the dark entrance came two ores, this time armed with short swords and shields. Holy Gird,
she repeated to herself. I can't fight two of them, two swords, with only a notched knife! But
Siger's words, spoken long ago in Aarenis, trickled into her memory: the enemy's weapon is your
weapon if you can take it. Two swords—if I can get one, then it's one to one. Even a shield will
help—
As the ores came forward, she edged back to the wall. Until she got one of them down or disarmed,
she wanted something at her back. She noticed that these two did not seem as eager as the first.
One of them held its sword
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awkwardly. A trick? She waited, and let them come to her, heedless of the iynisin catcalls.
The taller, more skilwil ore came in on her right hand, her knife hand. The other edged to her
left. Again she noticed that this one held the sword like a stick. The tall one thrust at her. She
parried the thrust with the knife, thankful for her long arms. From the corner of her eye, she saw
the small ore rush, sword extended stiffly. Paks leaped back to the wait, slamming against it, and
grabbed the awkward one's wrist. The ore fell forward as Paks jerked, and she caught a glimpse of
a terrified face under the helmet. This one's no fighter, she thought. She dug her thumb into the
pressure point, and the ore's sword hand opened. Paks reached for the sword as the taller ore
aimed a slash at her over the struggling body of its partner. She ducked. The ore she was fighting
tried to slam the edge of its shield into her arm, but she had the sword hilt, as well as her
knife, in her right fist. She kicked the ore, hard, and danced back to the wall, switching the
knife to her left hand. A surge of triumph gave her momentary strength—that would show them!
The tall ore howled at her and charged, trying to force her sideways into the other one. The
shorter ore tried to move in, staying low. Paks slid sideways along the wall, countering the
ftirious thrusts and slashes as well as she could. She felt herself slowing; exhaustion clouded
her vision. Only the reflexes developed under hours of Siger's instruction kept her blade between
the ore's sword and her body. She had the reach of him, but she could not get past his shield. She
tried to force him back, with quick thrusts of her own, but failed. The other ore closed in again,
this time grabbing at her knife hand. Paks aimed a kick at the ore's knee, but it snatched at her
foot and threw her off balance.
Paks fell heavily on her side, trapped close under the wall. Just over her, the taller ores blade
clanged into the wall. She stabbed at his feet with her knife, rolling towards him to get inside
his stroke. Again he missed her. This time his blade landed on the shoulder of the smaller ore,
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ore screeched and sat back. Paks jerked her legs into a curl and launched herself straight up at
the tall ore. She had both blades inside his shield; the sword rammed .through his body armor into
his belly, and the knife slid into his neck.
Before Paks could free the blades, she felt a weight hit her back, and a strong arm wrapped around
her neck. Then the smaller ore's teeth met in her shoulder. Paks threw herself backwards. The ore
grunted as it hit the ground, but did not release any pressure of hand or teeth. Paks saw its
other hand groping toward the sword the tall ore had dropped. She swiveled, pushing hard with her
legs, to get the ore out of reach of that blade. Her own knife was free, but the sword stuck fast
in the dead ore's belly. She felt herself weakening, her left arm useless with that grip on her
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chance.
Paks shifted her grip on the knife and struck back over her shoulder, feeling for the ore's eyes.
She felt its jaw loosen even before the screams, and stabbed again. Then she raked the knife along
the arm around her throat, feeling for the tendons. The grip softened. Paks worked the knife deep
into the ore's elbow and twisted. The grip was gone. She rolled quickly and thrust into the ores
throat, trying not to look at its face.
She tried to push herself up from the dead ore. I must get that sword, she thought. I must be
ready. But her breath came in great gasps, and she could not see. She felt herself slipping into
nothingness, and fell back across the ore's body. With her last scrap of consciousness, she tried
to call on Gird, but the name rang in her head, empty of meaning.
She woke in a cell, whether the first or another like it she could not have said. A torch bumed in
a corner bracket; by its light she saw a pitcher, mug, and platter near her. Her wounds smarted as
if they'd been salted, but the bleeding had stopped, and she felt much stronger. She reached for
the pitcher, then paused. Someone had
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said something about the clanger of taking any food or drink from the iynisin—or was that
something from a child's tale she'd heard long ago? She tried to lick her dry lips, but her tongue
was swollen and sore. If she had to fight again, she would have to drink something. And if they
poisoned her, she would not have to worry. She shook her head, and winced at the pain. Was she
thinking straight? But she had to be able to fight. Gird honored fighters. She was going to die
here, almost certainly, but she had to fight.
She took the pitcher and looked into it... in the green torchlight, she could not tell what the
liquid was. She poured it out, her hands shaking. Whatever it was, she thought, it was still
liquid. She raised the mug to her lips, sniffing, but the torch stank so much she could smell
nothing else. She took a swallow. It burned her throat all the way down, but she wanted more of
it. She drained die mug. On the platter was a slab of some dried meat and a hunk of bread. Her
stomach knotted, reminding her of the hours since she'd eaten. The bread was hard, and tasted
salty and sour. The meat was salty too; not until she'd eaten most of it did she think what the
salt would do. Thirst swamped all other sensation; she drained the pitcher at one draught, only to
find that it gave strength without easing her thirst. She felt the burning liquid work its way
along her body, stinging it awake. She was afire all over, with thirst and the wounds and that
terrible itching she had felt since the first.
She found hersetf growling softly. Fight, she thought. Oh, I will fight—by holy Gird, I will fight
exceedingly. She thought of the combat past, the unfairness of it, the knotted whip, the ore's
teeth in her leg, her strokes, the ores' strokes. For a moment she grimaced at the thought of the
last encounter, when she had stabbed die ore's eyes, but she forced die revulsion down. I had to,
she thought. It wasn't fair; I was outnumbered, I had to do— whatever. She drew grimness around
her like a cloak. Saint Gird of the Cudgel, she thought. If that's what you want, putting me in a
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do—111 fight. Protector of the helpless, strong arm of the High Lord: I will be true. I will
fight.
But a moment of doubt had her frowning. Gird was not for fighting only—she thought she remembered
that. Fairness—truth—she shook her head, trying to think. She seemed to see StammeFs face, telling
the recruits not to brawl, then the look he had given her in the cell when Sejek had banned her.
Something was wrong; she should know something better. But of course something's wrong, she
thought irritably. I've been taken by iynisin; I had to fight three ores unarmed; the stuff they
gave me was poisoned—
When she heard scraping outside the door, she sprang to her feet, a little surprised at her body's
quick response. She felt ready—even eager—for what was to come. They wanted to see fights, did
they? She would show them fighting such as they had never seen.
"I see you have recovered from your shameful collapse." The caped iynisi entered the cell. It
flicked a glance down at tie pitcher and platter. "Ah—refreshed yourself, have you? I fear you may
find our ale a bit thirst-provoking, don't you? But it is strengthening. And if you are successful
this next trial, we might give you water as a reward. What do you think, eh?"
Paks felt her lips draw back in an involuntary snarl. The iynisi laughed. "I suppose we must not
expect to find fighters courteous," he said. "But how you humans do reveal your needs. It is a
weakness of yours, which the elder races have learned to control." The iynisi snapped his fingers
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a pity this is necessary," he said. "If we had your word that you would cause no trouble—no?
Discourteous. Perhaps we shall have to teach you manners as well. Hold out your hands, and pray
that I remember to cut the bond before your combat begins." Paks found that she had extended her
hands without thinking about it, nor could she jerk them back when she tried. She wondered if the
iynisi used a spell—a ring?—surely something to control her.
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As before, she was led into the small arena; this time the seats were mil when she came in. A
sword, dagger, shield, and helmet were stacked in the center. "You earned these last tune," said
the iynisi. "Possibly the body armor as well, but we differed on that. Convince us, if you can."
The combat that followed was a whirling confusion that was never after clear in Paks's memory. How
many she fought, in that bout or another, or what arms they had, she could not say—only that she
fought at the limit of her strength and skill again and again. She had no memory of individual
strokes, how she won, or what wounds she took. When she won, she was rewarded with a dipper of
water, a short rest, a weapon to replace one that had shattered. When she collapsed, of wounds and
exhaustion— and she did not know how many times, or how often, that happened—she would awake in a
cell, her wounds no longer bleeding, but afire with whatever had been used to treat them. She was
given food and drink that did nothing to ease her hunger and thirst, but gave her strength to
fight once again.
Soon she could think of nothing but the opponent at hand, the weapon that menaced her, the hands
that wielded it. For a long time she tried to call on Cud before each onset, but she could never
bring the name out aloud. At last it drifted from her mind while she lay unconscious between
encounters. She fought grimly, then, to the shrill squeals of the watching iynisin and their
allies, and never knew what she fought, or how. There was only pain, and danger, and the bitter
anger that kept fear at bay.
That anger grew after every bout: it spread to include all she thought of. The High Lord should
never have made the world to include iynisin, she thought bitterly, and if elves could turn so to
evil, he should not have made elves. Now the distrust of true elves the iynisin had sown flowered
in bitterness. She remembered the elf-lord laired deep under stone, bound to some power of evil,
and drawing her to his side with irresistible enchantments. Macenion's lies, his greed and
cowardice with the snow-cat, his arrogance. Even at their best, elves toyed with
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humans, clouded human memory for their convenience, sent them into dangers they could not assess,
with that glamour upon them. Were a few tinkling songs and flowery compliments in a sweet voice a
fair exchange for all this disdain of human lives and needs? Hardly. In a world where such evil
existed, it ill-behooved elves to sit aside and cast human lives like dice for their pleasure.
It was monstrous that such evil existed—that innocents were tormented in dark places—that she was
alone and helpless and frightened. But she wasn't frightened, she reminded herself. Death was the
end of all things, and darkness surrounded all light, but she was no child to be frightened of
what must come. If Gird wouldn't help—or didn't exist—she would get along without him. She would
fight until the end, and then grapple death itself. That would show them.
When she thought at all of her friends, in bits and scraps of memory, she saw them standing idly
in the sunlight while she was fighting against impossible odds underground. She had an image of
Arne and Vik, chatting peacefully in Duke Phelan's barracks—of the other paladin candidates, safe
in Fin Panir, looking forward to their own tests—of the rest of the expedition, feasting around a
fire, leaving her behind with a shrug. For awhile she knew this was untrue; she reminded herself
that her friends were better than that. But in the end that truth sh'pped away as well. They would
find out, she thought grimly, and enjoyed imagining their grief and their pride in her deeds. And
if they never knew—that might even be better. She was no longer angry with them; they could not
understand, it was not their fault. It was their weakness, all those sUly thoughts of right and
wrong, the rules made for gentler combats: if they had been where she was, they would know that
only the fight itself mattered, the enemy's death, the anger sated by blood.
She awoke, once more in a narrow cell, to find the caped iynisi standing over her. She blinked,
still under the influence of the healing methods they used. He beckoned one of his henchmen, who
quickly raised her head and held a mug to her lips. She swallowed: the same burning
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liquid. As always, she wanted more. With every swallow, strength flowed back into her. She gulped
down two mugs full before he moved away, then she rolled easily to her feet.
"You have given us good sport, Paksenarrion," said the iynisi. "Such sport that we are minded to


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reward you greatly—even to risk the displeasure of our lady. You remember your friends, don't you?
Your friends outside?"
Paks felt her forehead wrinkle, as she tried to remember. Friends. Yes, she had friends
somewhere—she could not remember their names, but she had friends. She nodded.
"Your good friends," he coaxed. "Such good friends." Paks felt a surge of anger. Why was he being
so tedious? "Your friends are worried about you; they have come to find you. To free you."
Paks growled, then stumbled over the words. "Can free myself. Can fight"
The iynisi smiled. "Yes, that's right. You can fight. You can free yourself. We will let you
fight, Paksenarrion. Just one more fight, and you will be free. You will be with your friends."
Suddenly Paks's mind cleared for an instant; she seemed to see Amberion, Ardhiel, and the Marshals
before her. Those were her friends. Were they here? Mingled worry and hope rose in her. She glared
at the iynisi: what did he mean, fight herself free?
"Ah—some memory coming back. This is well. Now listen to me. You must fight once more, fight your
way through some of our lesser servants, to reach your friends. If you can do this, you may go
free. Otherwise, you will die, and so will they. We will arm you in what you have won."
Before she could reply, he waved into the cell several iynisin carrying a suit of black plate
armor, a black helmet crested in black horsehair, and a handsome longsword with a curious design
at the crosshilts, Paks had no time to examine it. The iynisin began to fit the armor on her, she
found, as always, that she could not move when the caped one commanded her to stand still The
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feel; it made her uneasy. The helmet was even worse. As it neared her head, she felt a sudden
loathing for it, and tried to duck aside. The effort was hopeless. Down over her head came the
helmet, close-fitting around her ears and cheeks. She felt breathless. Someone pulled the visor
down. She squinted through the eyeslit, but found that everything wavered as if seen through a
blowing mist.
"I can't see!" she said.
"That's all right," the iynisi answered. His voice echoed unpleasantly in the helmet. "All down
here are your enemies, yes? All are enemies. Here—take the sword." She felt die sword hilt pressed
into her right hand. She hefted the blade. It felt good. "All enemies—" said the iynisi's voice,
now behind her. "Go—fight—fight for your rights, Paksenarrion. Fight your enemies. Fight—"
She hardly needed that encouragement. She was walking down the corridor, away from the cell,
walking alone and unguarded for the first time. At first she coula barely see weu enough to stay
away from the walls, but then her vision cleared a little. She saw iynisin ahead of her, all
running somewhere. Those who looked at her screamed, and ran fester. Behind the visor, she smiled.
Soon. Soon she would show them. She was no longer helpless; now she had the power she had longed
for in all those dark hours. She wondered which way to go, heard a confused clangor from a wide
cross passage, and turned to see what it was. A fight. A big fight. She saw the passage choked
with armed figures: iynisin, ores, others. She drew breath and stalked forward, sword ready.
She struck the back of a confused mass, hating the black-dad iynisin who had laughed at her. Wide
sweeps of her sword parted heads from shoulders, and cleared a space around her. Those in front
turned to face her; she leveled the great blade and swiped from side to side, laughing. The black
cloaks melted in front of her. Beyond them were greater ones, huge to her eyes. Hatred and anger
flared together in her mind. You too, she thought. I wffl fight. I will fight through all of you,
whatever you are. Fight through to my friends. By Gird—the name leapt into her mind, and she
opened her mouth to yell it out
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loud. This time, at last, the sound passed her lips: not as a yell, little louder than a whisper:
in the name 01 Gird.
A vast space opened in her mind, and out of it a voice like stone said "Stop!" She froze. One arm
held the sword up for another swing, one foot had nearly left the ground. At once she was bereft
of vision and hearing, and plunged into darkness.
Chapter Twenty-six
Paks woke to darkness. She lay a moment, feeling cool air—living air—wash over her face. She lay
wrapped in something soft, on something more yielding than stone. She blinked. She could see
something glittering overhead. Stars. The current of air quickened; it smelled of pine and horses
and woodsmoke. She could not think where she was. Her mouth was dry. She tried to clear her
throat, but made a strange croaking noise. At once a voice—a human voice—spoke out of the
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"Paks? Do you want something?"
Tears filled her eyes, and ran down her face. She could not speak. She heard a rustle of clothing,
then a hand came out of darkness and touched her face.
"Paks? Are you crying? Here—" The hand withdrew, and after a sharp scratching noise, a light Bared
near her and steadied. She thought: lamp. Her tears blurred everything to wavering points of light
and blackness. The hand returned, a gentle touch, stroking her head. "There, Paks, it's all right.
You're safe now; you're free."
She could not stop the tears that kept flowing. She began to tremble with the effort, and the
person beside her called softly to someone else. Another person loomed beside her. "The spell's
going, I think," said the first voice.
"About time, too. Can she speak yet?"
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"No. But she's aware. I hope we can get her to drink; she's as dry as old bone."
"Ill lift her." The second person slipped an arm under her shoulders; Paks felt herself shift as
she was lifted to lean against a leather tunic. "There now. Paks? You need to drink something.
Here—" She felt a cool rim at her tips, and sipped. It was water, cold and clean. She swallowed
again and again. "Good," said the voice. "That's whatyou need."
"I'D get more," said the first voice, and she heard the rasp of footsteps. She drank another Bask
full. Tears still ran from her eyes. She did not know who these people were, or where she was, or
what had happened. Only mat ft was better now. At last she slipped back into sleep, still crying.
She woke in daylight: tight blue sky overhead, red rocks against the sky. She turned her head. She
lay on a sandbank above a stream. She could see horses across the stream, and men in chainmail
grooming them. Nearer was the pale flickering light of a campfire. Around it were three men, a
woman, and a dwarf. One of the men and the woman left die campfire and came toward her. They were
smiling. She wondered why.
"Pals, are you feeling better this morning?" That was the woman. Paks felt her way along the
words, trying to understand. This morning. Did that mean that it was last night, the voices and
the crying? Better? She tried to roll up on one elbow, but found she could hardly move. She felt
utterly weak, as if she were hollow from die bones out.
"Can you speak at all, Paks?" asked the man. She looked at him. Dark hair with a few silver
threads, short dark beard. Chammail under a yellow tunic. They wanted her to say something. She
had nothing to say. They were smiling at her, bom of them. She looked from face to face. The man's
smile faded as she watched. "Paks, do you know who I am?" She shook her head. "Mmm. Do you know
where you are?" Again the headshake. "Do you know who you are?"
"Pals?" she answered softly, tentatively.
"Do you know your full name?"
Paks thought a long moment. Something seeped into her mind. "Paks. Paks—Paksenarrion, I think."
The man and woman looked at each other and sighed. "Well," said me woman, "that's something. How
about breakfast, Paks?"
"Breakfast—" she repeated slowly. "Are you hungry?"
Again Paks thought her way to the meaning of the v- words. Hungry? Her stomach rumbled, answering
for her. 3 "Food," she murmured.
"Fine," said the woman. "I'll bring it." She strode off. :      Paks looked at the man. "Who is
that?" she asked.
•~;     "The woman? Pir. She's a knight." His voice held slight '      coolness.
"Should—should I know her?"
i',         "Yes. But don't worry about that. Do you remember ^      anything of what happened?"
'•>*'.         Paks shook her head before answering. "No. I don't remember anything much. Did
I—did I do something
-Y     bad?"
:       "Not that I know of. What makes you ask that?"
"I don't know." Paks turned her head to look the other | way. She was looking up a narrow valley
or canyon walled I with red rock on both sides. Nothing looked familiar.
The woman returned, carrying a deep bowl that steamed,
a mug, and a waterskm slung from one wrist. "Here—
stew, bread, and plenty of water. Can you sit up?" Paks
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•-.     against a pack he dragged from a few feet away. The woman set the bowl on the sand, poured
water into the mug, and offered it. Paks tried to wiggle a hand free from die blanket around her,
but the woman had to help her even with diat. When she took the mug, her hand shook
;      so that much of the water slopped onto her face and neck; it was icy cold. But what she
managed to drink refreshed her. "I'll help you with the stew," said the woman. "You're
-;;     too shaky to manage it." She offered it spoonful by spoon-&,     fill. Paks ate, at first
without much interest, but with
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increasing relish. She began to feel more alert. A thread of memory returned, though she could not
tell if it was recent or remote.
She looked at the man. "Is this Duke Phelan's camp?"
His fece seemed to harden. "No. Do you remember Duke Phelan?"
"I think so. He was—not so tall as you. Red hair. Yes—I thought I was still in his Company. But
I'm not. I don't think so—am I?"
"Not any more, no. But if you remember that, then your memory is coming back. That's good."
"But where—? I should—I should know you, shouldn't I? You asked me that. And I can't—I don't know
you—any of you—or this—" Her voice began to shake.
'Take it easy, Paks. It will come back to you. You're safe here." The man turned away for a
moment, and waved to someone Paks could not see.
"But if I—when I was with the Duke, I was a soldier. I must have been. And you're wearing mail.
What happened?" Paks tried again to push herself up; this time she got both arms out of the
blanket around her. She had on a loose linen shirt; below its sleeves her arms were seamed with
the swollen purple lines of healing wounds. Her wrists were bandaged with strips of linen. She
stared at them, and then at the man. "What is this place? Did you—"
He reached out and took her hand; his grip was firm but gentle. "No, Paks, I did not deal those
injuries. We brought you out of the place where that happened." He tumeatp another man who had
just walked up to them. "She's awake, and making sense, but her memory hasn't returned. Paks, do
you know this man?"
Paks stared at the lean face framed in iron-gray hair and beard. He looked stern and even grim,
but honest. She wanted to trust him. She could not remember him at all. "No, sir," she said
slowly. "I don't. I'm sorry."
"Don't apologize," said the second man. "I wonder," he said to the first, "whether we should try
to tell her what we know."
"Names, at least." said the dark man. "Or shell be
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completely confused. Paks, my name is Amberion; I'm a paladin of Gird. And this is Marshal Fallis,
of the Order of the Cudgel."
The names meant nothing to Paks, and the men looked no more familiar with strange names attached.
She looked from one to die other. "Amberion. Marshall Fallis." They looked at her, glanced at each
other, then back at her.
"Do you remember who Gird is, Paks?" asked Marshal Fallis.
Paks wrinkled her brow, trying to think. The name woke a distant uneasiness. "Gird—I—I know I
should. Something—it's—what to do—to call—when—" She stopped, breathing hard, and tried again.
"When you start to fight— only—I couldn't say it aloud! I tried—and it wouldn't— something on my
neck, choking—No!" Paks shouted this last loud enough to startle the entire camp. She had shut her
eyes tightly, shaking her head, her body rigid. "No," she said more softly. "No. By—by Gird, I
will fight. I will—not—stop. I vri&fightl"
She felt both men's hands on her shoulders, steadying her. Amberion spoke. "Paks. Listen to me.
You're out of that. You're safe." Then, more quietly, to Fallis. "And what do you suppose that was
about. Surely she wasn't free to fight them?"
"I don't know," was Fallis's grim reply. "But I suspect we'd better find out. Considering how we
found her—"
"I won't believe it," said Amberion, but his voice had thinned,
Paks opened her eyes. For a moment she stared blankly at the sky, then shifted her eyes to look at
Amberion. She could feel patches of memory coming back, unconnected still, but broadening.
"Amberion? What—"
"You were injured, Paks. You don't remember much."
"I feel—strange. Will you tell me what happened?"
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Paks looked around. "I don't recognize this place. But the color of the rocks—something—is
familiar."
"We moved the camp after you—after the fight."
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"Are we in Kolobia yet?" Paks saw Araberion's face relax a little.
"Good. You- are remembering. Yes, we're in Kolobia. How much do you remember of the trip here?"
"Some of it—we were in a caravan, for a long way. We saw the horse nomads, didn't we?" Amberion
nodded. "And I remember a bald-faced red horse, bucking—"
"That's my warhorse," said Fallis. "Do you remember why we were coming to Kolobia?"
Paks shook her head. "No. I wish I didn't feel so peculiar. Did something hit my head? Was it a
battle?"
Fallis smiled at her. "You've been in several battles. Both on the caravan, and here as well. I
think you'll remember them on your own when you've rested more. Your wounds are healing well. Do
you need anything more?"
"Water, if there's enough."
"Certainly." The Marshal walked away and returned with a lull waterskin. He set it beside Paks,
then he and Amberion walked upstream, looking at the cliffs on the for side. Paks managed to get
the waterskin to her mouth. She took a long drink, then looked around again. The dwarf was looking
her way, talking to the woman. When he caught her eye, he rose and came toward her. She tried to
think of his name.
"Good morning, Lady Paksenarrion," said the dwarf. His voice was higher and sweeter than she'd
expected. She wondered how she knew what to expect. "How fare you this day?"
"I'm all right. A little—confused."
"That is no wonder. Perhaps even names have escaped you. I am Balkon of the House of Goldenaxe."
The name fit; Paks could almost think she remembered it. As she looked at the dwarf, the distant
silent scraps of memory came nearer and seemed to fiise in his face. "Yes," she said slowly.
"Master Balkon. You came with us from Fin Panir. You know about rock, where it will be solid or
weak. You are a cousin of the Goldenaxe himself, aren't you?"
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smile. "I think you must be recovering very swiftly. We are glad it should be so, who saw you in
such dismay."
"Dismay?" Paks felt a twinge of fear.
The dwarfs face constricted into a mass of furrows and then relaxed. "Is that not the correct
term? You must excuse me, Lady Paks. I have not the skill in wordcraft as were I an elf. Dismay?
Distress? Dis—oh, I cannot find the word, plague take it! But you were much hurt by those
blackhearts, and that your friends sorrowed to see. And you are now much better, and we are glad."
"Thank you, Master Balkon," said Paks. She did not understand what he was talking about, exactly,
but his kindness was welcome.
"I wanted to ask you—if it will not be too great a sorrow to speak of it—what those rockfilth used
on your injuries."
Paks stared at him. "Rockfilth?"
"They corrupt the very stone, good stone, by living in its heart. Those blackheart elf cousins, I
mean, who took you."
"Took me?" Paks shook her head, as a sudden chill ran over her. "I have no memory of such a thing,
Master Balkon."
"Ah. Magicks, then." The dwarf muttered rapidly in dwarvish; Paks caught only one or two words. He
stopped abruptly and looked sharply at her. "You remember none of it at all?"
"None of what?" Paks began to feel a prickling irritation. Everyone else knew something about her,
but wouldn't tell what it was. It was unfair. She glared at the dwarf.
"Tech! Be still. That Lord Amberion, your paladin, and the Marshal Fallis, they will not have you
told too much, for seeing what you shall remember in time. Do you make noise, they will come to
see what we speak."
"Will you tell me?" asked Paks with rising excitement.
The dwarf smiled, a sly sideways smile. "And should I say what such men of power want not to be
said? I am no prince or lord to rank myself above them. But they did not say to me what not to
say—it is a point on which it is possible to differ. So—" he looked at her again. "I will say what
I think should be said, as it would be done in the House of Goldenaxe."
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Paks forced herself to lie still, remembering this much about dwarves, that they cannot be hurried
in the telling of anything. The dwarf pulled out his curved pipe, packed it, lit it, and drew a
long breath. He blew three smoke rings.
"Very well, then," he said, as if he had not paused. "You were taken by those blackheart
worshippers of Achrya," he spat after saying that name, "such as elves like Ardhiel do not like to
admit exist and are of elvish origin—despite having their own word for them. That was when they
attacked our camp, the second night in this canyon, and they carried you away down their lairs,
under that cliff yonder—" he jerked his head to indicate the cliff across the stream. "And there
they held you, some days. We know not what befell you in that dark place, save the marks you
carry. Dire wounds enough, they must have been, to deal such marks. We had some trouble to follow
your path and find you—do you truly remember nothing of this?"
Paks had been listening in rising horror. She stared at the cliff, the rust-red and orange rocks
streaked with black, and shook her head. "I don't—don't remember. Yet—^as you talk—something comes
back. Like—like seeing a valley from a hill, faraway and hazy."
'That will be the magicks, I don't doubt, or the knocks on your head that left such lumps. Well,
then, when we found you, that was a strange thing too. We had fought several times in the dark
ways, and came to another band of the enemy. None of us knew what was that black warrior so tall
behind the others, all in black armor. You— but we didn't know then it was you—were killing them,
the ones we faced, and when they parted seemed like to kill us too. Then—" he paused to puff on
his pipe and blow more rings. Paks waited impatiently, a feeling of pressure swelling her head.
"Then, Lady Paksenarrion, you were still, all at once, sword arm so above your head. Very strange.
Very strange indeed. Lord Amberion and Marshal Fallis went to look—being careful, too, for any
treachery. Then they lifted the visor of the helmet—and a nasty, evil thing that was, that I could
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stood—and there was your face behind it, pale as cheese, and your eyes seeing nothing. All that
bad armor was magicks—enchanted—your paladin and Marshal had their way with Gird. It split,
finally, lying around you like a beetle's wingcases, then it shrivelled and was gone. But that
wasn't all. Around your neck—"
"Master Balkon!" Neither Paks nor Balkon had noticed Amberion's approach. He looked more than a
little displeased. "Is this well done, to tax her beyond her knowledge?"
"Tax her? I but tell her what things are lost to her."
"But you knew we thought it wise to tell her nothing."
"That you thought it wise, yes—but you never forbade such telling to me. And of the ill-doing of
elves and their kindred we dwarves have more knowledge than those the elves would make their
allies. To my wisdom it seems right that she should not be left to anxious wondering."
Paks felt a wave of irritation that they would talk over and about her as if she were not there.
"I asked him, Sir Amberion, as I asked you. And he chose to think me whole-witted enough to answer
me as one fighter to another, not as if I were a witless child." She surprised even herself with
the bitterness in her voice.
Amberion looked at her, brows raised. "Surely, Paks, you realize that we do not think you a
child—you, of all people. We were concerned that if we told you what we knew, you might never
again regain your own memories, which must include much that we cannot know. Have you so forgotten
the Fellowship of Gird, that you mistrust a paladin this way? It must be your wounds that make you
so irritable."
Paks felt herself flush at the mild reproof. "I'm sorry," she muttered, still angry. "I—I was
worried." Her voice trailed away, and she looked beyond Amberion to the cliffs beyond.
"Are you in much pain?" Amberion went on.
Paks realized that she did, in fact, ache all over as if with a fever; her head throbbed. "Sir, I
do ache some."
He felt her forehead, and frowned. "It may be fever— and no wonder with your wounds—yet you feel
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me see what I can do." He placed a hand on either side of her head, and began to speak. Paks felt
she should know the words, anticipate the phrases, yet she could hardly concentrate enough to hear
them. Her vision hazed. For a few moments the throbbing in her head merged with her aching body in
one vast rhythmic pain, then it eased. As it disappeared, she knew how much pain she had felt, and
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as normal? Her vision cleared. She felt Amberion's warm palms leave her head.
"Does that ease the pain?" he asked,
Paks nodded. "Yes, sir. Thank you. I had not realized how much it was." Now her outburst of a few
moments before seemed unreasonable to her; she could not understand why she had said such a thing
to Amberion.
"Good." Amberion sighed, and sat beside her, across from the dwarf. He looked tired. "Master
Balkon, I heard but the last of what you told her. Was it just the tale of her capture and our
pursuit?"
"Aye, it was, and scantly told, at that. I did not speak of the capture itself, since none of us
saw it, only that she was taken. Nor did I speak of the debate when she was found missing, or—"
"Well enough," Amberion interrupted. The dwarf scowled at him. "Paks, has any of that come back to
you as he was telling it?"
"It seemed, sir, almost as if something were trying to break into my head. Something I shoula
know. But as I told Master Balkon, what I do recall seems faraway, dreamlike."
"That's not unusual. By Saint Gird, I wish that elf would wake!"
"By his face," said the dwarf sourly, "that one is enjoying some rare dream such as elves delight
in, too rare a dream to wake for our need."
;'Elf?" asked Paks.
" Ardhiel," said Amberion. "From the embassy to Fintha—"
"Oh!" A live memory flashed into Paks's mind. "I remember him. In Fin Panir, when we—" she looked
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Amberion, then went on more slowly, with dawning comprehension. "When we planned this expedition—I
remember that now. I was there. I was taking training, and then—" In her excitement, Paks tried to
sit up, but could not.
"Ill get another pack for you," said Amberion. He brought a fat blanket roll, and propped her
higher on it. For an instant she was dizzy, but recovered.
"I do remember,' she said eagerly. "On the caravan, and when we turned off—those canyons with the
white stone high above. A black hill with a dip in the top. Is this farther down the canyon we
went into, the one Master Balkon said was not as deep as it was meant to be?"
"Yes, Lady," said the dwarf. "This is the canyon choked with sand. I have not yet had the time to
look, but I expect something—some rock fall, perchance—has blocked the downward end."
"And at the high end—that's where the clifis were that the smoke came from?"
"Yes, in a branch canyon to this one. Do you remember the fight?"
"Something of it. One of those black fighters called out, and it was hard to move after that."
Amberion nodded. "It affected most of our party, save Master Balkon and me."
"Then you did something, and it eased; they were shooting arrows down. Ardhiel and Thelon were
shooting back—"
"Yes," said Balkon. "And then that black scum who called down the fear on us came down the cliff
in the shape of his lady—" the dwarf spat again. "That one."
"Like a spider," said Paks. "I remember. It was horrible —he just came down the rocks, straight
down, and then more and more of them swarmed out of holes in the walls, and Ardhiel blew that old
hunting horn he carries, only it didn't sound like a hunting horn."
"No," said Amberion. "And after he blew it, its own shape returned. It was under some enchantment.
It's an elven horn, the only one I've ever seen, and a rare treasure. Whatever or whoever it was
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the horn sang, I know not, but great goodness and power were allied in him."
Paks shook her head. "I don't remember anything but the sound of it."
"Pretty enough," grumbled Balkon, "but I'd like to know what it means."
Amberion stretched and sighed. "It meant trouble for our enemies that day, and a long sleep for
Ardhiel. Paks, I think your memory will come back; as it does, I'd tike to know about it." She
nodded. "Master Balkon, we still think it would be best to let her recall these things on her
own."
"I worry about those wounds," said the dwarf frankly. "The elves have some means of speeding and
slowing growth. Something like that must have been used by those rockfllth—she'd still be
bleeding, else. It's dangerous. I would know what was used on her, and would wish you to think
what may be done." He grinned at Paks for an instant and went on. "Besides that, it is this talk
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"It is that," said another voice, "which distinguishes dwarves from more temperate folk—they
always think more is better." Paks looked over to see a dark man in stained leather clothes; she
remembered that this was Thelon, a hatf-elven ranger from Lyonya. Master Balkon bristled at his
words, but Thelon laughed gently, and lifted his hand. "My pardon, Master Balkon, but I could not
resist. It has been long in this camp since anything seemed funny."
"I dont see—" began Balkon; Thelon shook his head then, and bowed.
"Sir dwarf, I am sorry. I had no intention of insult; 111 say so before all, and confess a loose
tongue."
Balkon shook his head, and finally smiled at Thelon. "You are but half-elven, and a ranger—which
is another word for hardy, as we dwarves know. And I confess I am as fond of plenty as you are of
enough. Let it pass, Thelon; I will not bear anger to you."
Tlielon bowed again. "I thank you for your courtesy. I came to ask Amberion to attend the
Marshals. Ardhiel may be rousing from his sleep, and they asked for you."
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Amberion looked sternly at the dwarf as he rose. "Master Balkon, we are as concerned as you, but
if Paks doesn't remember, she can't tell you what they used. It would be better to let it be."
Balkon nodded. "If the elf is wakening, he might know far more than I—only he should be told at
once, if he can listen."
"Then—r
"Then I will but bear her company, and no tales tell, until you bring word of Ardhiel," said the
dwarf. And with that Amberion had to be content, and he turned away. Paks watched the dwarf,
hoping he would resume his talk, but he did not meet her eyes. He poked and puffed at his pipe,
until the smoke rose steadily. Then he looked at her. 1 am not one to break my word," he said
fiercely, "even so little of it as that. Bide still; the time will come, and you will hear it
all."
Paks slept again while waiting for Amberion to return, and woke hungry. She was able to feed
herself this time. With the wizard's help, she managed to stand and stagger a short way to the
shallow sand pit that served the camp for jacks. But that exhausted her, and she fell into sleep
again as soon as she came back to her place. It was evening when she woke, with sun striking the
very highest line of the opposite canyon wall.
No one was beside her at the moment. She saw the dwarf, hunching over the campfire. Pir stood at a
little distance, staring up at the sunlit rock far overhead. Off on her right, Amberion and the
Marshals stood talking to another taller figure. Paks recognized this as Ardhiel, the elf. She
stretched, slowly. She felt a vague ache again, not so strong as before, and wondered at it. The
only other time she had experienced a paladin's healing, the wound and pain had disappeared at
once and forever. Perhaps she'd been lying awry.
She pushed up her sleeves to look at the marks on her arms. Ordinarily she'd have said the wounds
were several weeks old; the scar tissue was raised and dark. But the others had said she'd been
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tried to remember what had happened. What Balkon had told her seemed to fit, yet her memories gave
no life to his words. Captive—underground—that almost made sense. But what about the wounds? Had
she actually fought? And who had she fought, and how? The marks gave her no clues—they looked like
any healing cuts, could have been given by knife or sword or pike. The only unusual thing about
them was the number—more scars than she had collected in three seasons of fighting with Duke
Phelan. She could not understand how she had fought at all—how she had survived—with so many
wounds, all given at once. Yet something about them seemed to convey that they'd been given in
combat, rather than inflicted on a bound and helpless prisoner.
Amberion's voice interrupted her thoughts. "Paks, I'm glad you're awake again. Ardhiel is with us
now, and he examined you this afternoon." Paks was suddenly angry. What right had they to stare at
her while she lay helpless? She fought the anger down, surprised at its strength, and tried to
conceal it. She knew they would not understand. Amberion went on. "He would like to talk with you,
if you feel well enough."
"Yes, of course. I'm just—" she decided not to mention the aching to Amberion; he would think it
weakness. "I'm still confused," she said finally. Ardhiel sat beside her; he seemed thinner than
she remembered, but his face was alight with some joy.
"Lady Paksenarrion, I sorrow that I was not here to defend you. I did not know that when I blew
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"In spirit. I had always been taught that elves have no souls, that we are wholly one with our
bodies; I had no idea that I could be plucked out, like a hazelnut from its shell, and be gone so
long. It did not seem long to me— only a day at the High King's Court—but when I returned, I find
that you have spent many dark hours with the iynism."
"So they say." Paks looked away, frowning. "I can't remember."
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"Not at all?"
"Only vaguely. Balkon told me some, and it seemed to make sense—I had the feeling that he was
right, as far as he knew. But I don't remember it, clearly, on my own."
"Ah." Ardhiel leaned back on the sand, staring skyward at the glowing blue that deepened as the
sun lowered behind distant mountains. "I wish I knew more. We elves prefer to ignore the
iynisin—even to pretend they do not exist, or are not distant kin. But at such times as these,
that way is proved dangerous, for us and for our allies. I do know that they have the same magical
abilities that we have, and share in the powers of those they worship: Achrya and Nayda, Gitres
and Liart."
Paks shuddered as the four evil names seemed to foul the air. A face swam before her: elven, but
evil. Frightening. "I—don't remember," she said.
"If it is truly wiped from your mind, by a blow on your head, for example, that is one thing. But
if the memory has been blurred by the iynisin or their deity, then we must do what we can to bring
it back. I could not tell, this afternoon—I was still half-enchanted by my own experience."
Ardhiel sat up, stretching. "Amberion. Did you want to do this before ot after eating?"
"Do what?" asked Paks, alarmed. Amberion turned from watching the distant line of mountains, and
smiled at her. She thought his face looked flat and featureless in the dimming Tight. He sat on
her other side, and reached for her hand.
"We need to find out what magic the iynisin used on you, Paks. Surely you realize that. Ardhiel
and I will each try what we know—"
"But—" Paks tried to think of some argument. "Isn't it—didn't you tell me that—that paladin
candidates must not submit to spells?"
Amberion frowned, "Usually, that's so. But this is a special case—you have already been spelled,
we think, by the iynisin. And you were assigned to my care. Gird knows, Paksenarrion, what I feel
that I did not save you from that capture. But now—we must do what we can for you."
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Paks nodded, meeting Amberion's eyes with difficulty. She could tell that he was concerned—even
worried. For herself, she felt more annoyance than anything else. In time she would heal, as she
always had, and be strong again; the memories would come, or not come. She wanted to hear what
they knew—wanted them to trust her enough to tell her, as Keri and Volya had told her about the
sack of Sibili.
"Amberion tells me that these wounds were already so healed when they (bund you, Paksenarrion."
Ardhiel laid his long-fingered elven hand on her wrist. Paks tried not to flinch. "You were
missing so short a time—either the wounds were never what they look like—that is, they were not
real wounds, but created in this half-healed state—or they were magically healed."
Paks looked at her arms again. "Could they be—made that way? I never heard of such—"
"No. It's not widely known that it can be done, and it would only be done by evil intent. But the
other is bad, too. To force flesh to such healing, out of time—that has its own hazards. I have
known an elf, one of us, who could speed growth and healing. He used the gift on plants, but told
me once it could be done on animals. What I would like to do, Paksenarrion, is try to lift the
cloud from your memory. If it is what I think it may be, Amberion and I can do so—and you can then
remember what you need."
As much as Paks had wanted to know what happened, she still shrank from this. The elf's glowing
eyes seemed dangerous as coals. She looked at Amberion. He nodded. "Ardhiel has convinced me that
this is best, Paksenarrion. The iynisin powers should be countered as soon as possible."
"Then Balkon was right—" she murmured.
"Right in his way," said Ardhiel. "You do need to remember, but you need to remember for yourself.
It is this I will try."
"Well, then—go ahead." Paks looked from one to the other of them. "What should I do?"
"Think on Gird and the High Lord," said Amberion. "They will guide your thoughts—and your
memories, we hope—^while we free them."
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Paks closed her eyes and lay still. She could not keep from pushing at the dark curtains in her
mind, and felt more and more breathless and trapped as she lay there. She was hardly aware of
Ardhiel's hand when it moved to her brow, or Amberion's firm grip. Ardhiel began chanting
something in elven—she did not even try to follow the meaning.
Shadows moved in her mind. Some were darker—some moved away from her, and others menaced her. She
saw again an elven face, pale against a dark hood. She felt a burning pain at her throat, and
tried to raise her hand, struggling. The shadows seemed to harden, thickening into reality. Sounds
came, faintly at first, then louder. Shrill cries, mocking laughter, die clatter of weapons.
Bitter fluid stung her throat, the stench of it wrinkled her nose. The faces came clearer out of
the darkness: ores, their fangs bared, their taloned hands holding swords, knives, whips. Other
fighters, whose land she did not know, in armor of leather plate. The light was green, a sickly
shade that made spilled blood black.
Gradually she was able to remember the bargain the iynisin had made: she had to fight, fight for
their amusement against opponents of their choosing, fight with whatever weapons they gave her,
for the chance to live a little longer. As it had happened, so in the memory Ardhiel's treatment
roused: she could not remember how long these fights had gone on, or the intervals between them.
But she could remember, as if reliving them, the pain of her wounds, the hunger and thirst and
exhaustion, the fear that she would never see daylight again. When Ardhiel took his hands away
from her brow, she was aware. And the memories she had lost lay in a cold heap in her mind. She
hated the thought of them, of stirring through them, but she had no choice. That, too, she
resented: she had had no choice with the iynisin, and no choice here. It seemed unfair.
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For of course Amberion insisted on knowing what, if anything, she remembered. She replied as
quickly as possible, surprised at her own distaste, with an outline of the iynisin bargain and her
fighting. She remembered even the blade armor, and her reluctance to wear it.
"And you called on Gird before each encounter?" asked High Marshall FaUis, who had come up to
listen.
T tried. I couldn't—couldn't say it out loud." Paks hoped he would say nothing more about it.
But you tried—you intended to?" Amberion's eyes held hers.
"Yes—sir." Paks looked away with an eflbrt. "I tried. At least, all the times I remember—"
"That should be enough—" But his tone lacked conviction, and he looked across her to Ardhiel.
"I don't understand. What's the matter?" Even Paks could not be sure whether irritation or fear
edged her voice.
Fallis sighed. "Paksenarrion, you had no way to tell-^-but if you handled cursed weapons, and in a
cursedjcause—"
"And that black armor was definitely cursed—"
"But I killed ores—some iynisin—and they're all evil—"
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"Yes. I know. That's why we think it may work out." Amberion shook his head, nonetheless. "I wish
you hadn't touched those things ..."
"But—" Paks felt ready to burst with the unfairness of it. She had been trapped, alone, captive,
for underground— she had fought against many enemies and her own fear, to survive—and now they
said she should never have touched a weapon. I'm a fighter, after all, she told herself. What
should I have done—let them kill me without lifting a hand? Bitterness sharpened her voice. "I
thought Gird would approve—fighting against odds like that."
"Gird does not care for odds, but for right and wrong." Fallis sounded almost angry. "That's what
we're trying to—"
"Then should I have stood there like a trussed sheep and let them cut my throat?" Paks
interrupted, angry enough now to say what she felt. "Would you have been happier to find my
corpse? By—by the gods, I thought Gird was a warrior s patron, in any fight against evil, and I
did my best to fight. It's easy for you to say what I should and shouldn't have done, but you were
safe in the sunlight, while I—"
"Paks!" Amberion's voice, and his hand on her arm, stopped her. "Paks, please listen. We know you
had little choice; we are not condemning you. You are not a paladin. We do not expect such wisdom
from you. And now you are still weak and recovering from your injuries. We shouldn't have told you
our worries, I suppose, but we did. I think myself that you will be all right when your wounds
heal, and you have rested. Eat well tonight, and sleep; tomorrow we need to move camp again, and
be on our way."
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Had she really spoken that way to a paladin and a High Marshal? "I'm sorry," she said quietly.
"I—I don't know what—"
"Anyone," said Amberion firmly, "anyone, coming from such an ordeal, would be irritable. Can you
walk as far as the fire to eat, or shall we bring food here?"
"I'll try." Paks was able to stand with Amberion's help,
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and made it to the fire, walking stiffly but alone. She said htde to the others, concentrating on
her own bowl of food. Master Balkon eyed her from across the fire, but said nothing. She wondered
how much the others knew. She felt empty and sore inside, as if she had been crying for a
longtime.
After die meal, High Marshal Fallis asked Ardhiel to tell the company about his experience. The
elf smiled, sketched a gesture on the air, and began. Paks, listening, recovered a little of her
first enchantment with elves. The intonations of his voice, even in the common tongue, gave it a
lyrical quality. His graceful hands, gesturing fluidly, reminded her of tall grass blowing in the
wind. He caught her eye, and smiled; she felt her own face relax in response. The story he told,
of being taken away on the flying steed they'd seen, and feasting in the High King's Hall, was
strange enough. Paks was not sure whether Ardhiel thought die High King was the same as their High
Lord—or whether that was someone else entirety—but she did not ask.
When he had finished, full darkness had fallen, and the stars guttered brightly out of a cloudless
sky. Paks began to wonder if she could make it back to her place; she did not feel nice moving
again. Someone else began to talk wfth Ardhiel; she was too sleepy to notice who it was. Then she
was asleep, hardly rousing when someone draped a blanket over her.
She roused again before dawn. One cheek was stiff with a cold wind that flowed down the canyon;
the sky was pale green, like a bruise. She could see both rock walls clear against the sky, but
down in the canyon shadows hid all detail. She rolled her face inside the blanket, and warmed the
cold side of it with her breath. She felt stiff and sore, but much stronger than the day before. A
horse whinnied; the sound echoed from the walls. Another one answered, louder. Now several of them
called. Paks thought she could pick out Socks's whinny from the rest. She pushed herself up. Cold
air swirled under the blanket and she knew she'd have to get up to get warm. A dark shape
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crouched over the fire, muttering. This morning she recognized one of the men-at-arms.
When she came to the fire, he handed her a mug of sib, grinning.
" Tis cold, these early mornings," he said. "It must be the mountains; I've always heard it's cold
all year round in mountains."
"That's true of the Dwarfmounts," agreed Paks. She shivered, and spread her hands to the flames.
She had on a linen shirt over her trousers; the wind seemed to go through it as if it weren't
there. Where were her clothes? Which pack?
As if he had heard her thought, Amberion dumped a pack beside the fire. "Your pack," he said, and
reached for a mug of sib. "Glad you're up. We'll be riding today."
Paks found a wool shirt to cover the linen one, then paused. "Should I wear mail?"
"Yes—better not take a chance. Oh. That's right—yours is gone. Well have to find you some." He
finished his sib and stood up. Paks donned the wool shirt, and unrolled her cloak. She was still
cold. She moved around near the fire, trying to warm up. Gradually the stiffness eased, though she
still felt a deep aching pain along her bones. It was much lighter. Someone had started a pot of
porridge for breakfast; when she looked for the horses, she saw several men at work, tacking them
up. Socks was still bare, tied to a scrubby tree. Paks walked toward him.
"Will you be riding him today?" asked one of the men.
"I suppose so." She had no idea what sort of trail they would take, but if they had to fight, she
wanted Socks. He stretched his neck when she neared him, and bumped her with his massive nose. She
rubbed his head and neck absently, scratching automatically those itchy spots he favored. The man
reappeared with her saddle and gear. Paks thanked him, and took her brush from the saddlebags.
When she tried to lift the saddle to the horse's back, she was surprised to find she could barely
get it in place. Every muscle in her back protested. She took a deep breath, and fastened the
rigging. Foregirth, breastband, crupper, rear girth. Saddlebags. She was panting when
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she finished. Socks nosed at her. She fitted the bridle on his head, and untied him.
By the time they had ridden out of the canyon, onto a shoulder of the heights to one side, Paks
felt she had been riding all day. Socks and the other horses toiled upward. Paks tried to take an


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interest in the country once more rising into view—the great cliffs of raw red stone, the fringe
of forest on the plateaus above. Far to the north an angular gray mountain, dark against all the
red, caught BaDcon's attention.
"Therel See that dark one? Not the same rock at all— that one comes from hot rocks, rocks flowing
like a river, all fire-bright. It will be sharp to the feet if we come there."
"We shouldn't," said Amberion. "The map gives us a cross-canyon next, deeper than the last, and
Luap's stronghold is somewhere nearby."
"Nearby, eh," grumbled the dwarf. "Nearby in this country can be out of reach." They were riding
now through a little meadow of sand, carpeted with tall lupines in shades of cream and gold. Ahead
the trail led up toward a curious spire of rock that looked, to Paks, as if it were made of candle-
drippings that had been tilted one way and another while still soft.
"Is that some of your rock that flowed like a river?"
"No." Balkon grinned at her. "Rock that flows doesn't look like it afterwards—this is all sand-
rock. Like that below, in the canyon."
All this time, the distant cliffs that Amberion and Fallis were sure lay beyond the cross-canyon
drew closer. Paks could not believe that much of a canyon lay between diem and the clifis—until
they reached the spire, and the rock fell away beneath their feet. A thin thread of trail angled
back and forth down the rocks.
"Gird's breath, Fallis—we can't get the horses down there." Amberion took a few steps down the
trail, stumbling on loose ledges of rock. ' It's as steep as a stair. Mules, mayhap, but the
warhorses—"
"We can t leave them here." Fallis looked around, frowning. "Those kuaknom, or iynisin, or
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back — and you know the scroll mentioned dragons, as well. "
"Yes, but — " Amberion slipped again, and the dislodged rock rattled down the trail several
lengths before stopping.
"I'll scout ahead," said Thelon, pushing his way forward. "This may not be the best way down — "
"By the map it's the only way down."
"You're right. Take someone with you." He glanced at Paks, and she thought herself she should go —
but her legs felt soft as custard. Amberion's gaze slid past her to one of the men-at-arms.
"Seliam — you're hill-bred, aren't you?"
"Yes, sir." The man slipped by Paks and together he and Thelon disappeared down the trail, quickly
out of sight. Meanwhile everyone dismounted, and moved the sure-footed mules to the front of the
line.
""Iliough I'm not sure that's best," said Connaught. "This way the horses can fall on the mules.
Of course, they're as like to fall completely off the trail as down it."
In die end it took the rest of that day to get everyone down to die bottom. They had only the one
trail; Ardhiel and Thelon might have been able to take another way, but no one else. They took
everything that could be carried down by hand, climbing back up for load after load, and then lea
the mules down one at a time. The horses were last and worse; Paks was ready to curse their huge
feet and thick heads by the time she had Socks down beside the stream that flowed swiftly and
noisily in the canyon.
Here at least they had good water and plenty of wood. That night's camp, on an almost level bank
some feet above me water, brought no surprises — Amberion and Ardhiel bodi thought the iynisin had
been left behind. Paks said little. She could not understand why she was so tired, when Amberion
and the High Marshals had done dieir best to heal her. She had found die strength to work with the
others, but it had taken all her will to do it — nothing was easy, not even pulling the saddle off
Socks.
The next day dawned clear again, and the two High Marshals began looking for the clues in Luap's
notes. Paks forced herself to rise when diey did, managed to smile in
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greeting, and almost convinced herself that nothing was wrong. Others were groaning good-humoredly
about their stiff joints; she had nothing worse than that. She brought deadwood for the fires, and
thought of washing her hair and bathing. Thelon reported a bath-size pool, only a few minutes'
walk downstream, already sunlit.
But when she stripped and stepped into the pool, the cold water on her scars seemed to strike to
the bone. She shuddered, seeing the scars darken almost to blue against her pale skin; she felt
suddenly weak. The current shoved her against the downstream rocks; they rasped her nerves as if


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she had no skin at all. She crawled out, gasping and furious. What would the others think, if she
couldn't take a cleansing dip like anyone else. Her vision blurred, and she fought her way into
her clothes. Let them think what they liked—she shook her head. No one had said anything. Maybe
they wouldn't. She felt an obscure threat in her anger, in everything. By the time she climbed
back to the camp, she could hardly breathe; her chest hurt.
But Amberion had gone with the High Marshals, and no one spoke to her. Paks crouched by the fire,
worried but determined not to call attention to herseE They had enough other problems. When the
scouting party came back, jubilant, having found the mysterious "needle's eye of rock" through
which the detailed map of the stronghold could be seen, she was much better. She ate with the rest
of them, and that afternoon they all prepared for the next day's journey. That night Paks slept
better, and woke convinced that nothing but fatigue was wrong. She was even able to saddle Socks
without great effort. They started on their way soon after daybreak.
Very shortly they came to a side canyon, emptying into the main one at almost right angles. They
turned up this, clambering over and around great boulders until the horses could go no further.
Here there was a glade, and a deep pool of water. Connaught left Sir Malek in command of half the
men-at-arms, the other two knights, and the other yeomen, and told them to keep the animals out of
the main canyon.
"The scrolls mention a dragon—and I've never seen
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country that looks more like it should have a dragon in it. But in this narrow cleft, you should
be safe. Gird's grace on you. If we are successful, we can open a closer entrance from inside.
Wait for us at least ten days before giving up."
The rest of them made their way around the pool, and began climbing the rock on the far side. It
seemed to Paks like a great stair, each step perhaps ankle high and an arm deep, but with the
treads tilted downward. She looked up and gasped, forgetting her pain and exhaustion.
There, far overhead, a great red stone arch hung in the air, spanning the distance from one
massive stone buttress to another. Behind her, she heard Balkon mutter in dwarvish. Everyone
stopped for a moment in amazement. Connaught called back to the yeomen below, and Paks saw them
come around the pool and look up.
"I see it," shouted one. "By the High Lord, that's a wonder indeed."
They kept climbing. The stone slope, roughly shaped into tilted stairs, curved below and under the
arch. Connaught led them toward the nearer, southern end of it. As they neared the vertical
buttress walls, it was clear that someone had shaped the natural stone, flattening the increasing
tilt of the treads. They reached the vertical cliff, and moved along it. Now the stairs were hewn
clean, like any stone stair—except for the crescent of Gird chipped into the rise of every other
one, alternating with an ornate L. The stairs steepened. Paks fought for breath; her chest burned
and her eyes seemed darkened. She nearly bumped into Amberion, in front of her, when he stopped.
"Now well see if we have understood the message," said Connaught. "This should be a door—if I can
open it—"
Paks could not see, from her position many steps down, what he did. But suddenly those in front of
her moved, and she climbed wearily to a last small platform before an opening in the rock.
Inside she saw with a pang of dismay that the steps continued—even steeper, they spiralled up into
darkness. Light flared above her; it must be Amberion lighting the
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way. Paks bit her lip and started up. When she reached a level again, her legs were quivering. The
stairs had come out in daylight, on top of the clifls. Amberion touched her shoulder.
"Are you all right, Paks?"
"I'm tired," she admitted, hating that weakness. "I shouldn't be, but—"
"It's all right," he said. "Let me try to help." Paks did not miss the looks the men-at-arms shot
her, as Amberion's hand touched her head, but the warmth of that touch and the strength she felt
dimmed her embarrassment for the time.
They had come out on the clifftops; from below, Paks would have thought that the top of the
mountain, but now she could see another lower row of cliffs and a rounded summit, heavily
forested. A trail led south, along the edge of the clifis; Thelon reported that it ended at a
small outpost, a simple rock shelter carved into the stone. Another led west,.toward the forested
heights, but the main trail led north—out onto the rock bridge that they had seen from below. Paks
felt her stomach heave at the thought. Others, she saw, had faces as pale as hers felt.
"Are we goin' out on that?" asked one of the men-at-arms.
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"And where is the stronghold?" asked the man, looking around that wilderness of great rocks in
confusion.
"There." Connaught pointed to the opposite buttress. "Inside that mountain."
"I give them praise," said Balkon suddenly. Paks looked back to see his eyes gleaming. "That is a
worthy stone; such a place would suit our tribe."
Despite her fears, when they walked out on the stone arch it was not bad. Wind was the worst
problem, whipping past their ears from the southern desert and moaning in the great pines below.
But once on the bridge they could not see below; it was too wide for that. It seemed, in feet,
wide enough to drive a team on. They were almost at die for side when they were faced with a huge
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shining mail, who held a mace across his body. They stopped short.
'Declare yourselves," said a strong voice. "In whose name do you invade this place."
"In die name of Gird and the High Lord," answered Connaught. The figure bowed, and stepped aside.
As Connaught's foot touched the stone beyond the arch, it vanished as suddenly as it had come.
Paks felt a cold shiver all the way down her back.
On the far side, the trail was clear, a nearly level groove in the stone leading east along the
buttress to its eastern end. From here they could see far to the north, to distant red rock walls,
and that irregular gray mountain that Balkon insisted was fire-born. Eastward a still higher
plateau broke suddenly into the maze of canyons they had wandered. On the very point of the
buttress, another guardpost carved into the rock gave a clear view.
The way into Luap's stronghold was a circle carved in the rock, with Gird's crescent and Luap's L
intertwined in its center. When High Marshal Connaught stood there, and called on Gird, the stone
seemed to melt into mist, revealing a stone stair. They clambered down, with sunlight pouring in
the well. Paks could not tell how far the steps went down. They seemed to spiral slowly, after the
first straight flight, around an open core where the light fell. Finally they ended in a square
hall with four arched entrances leading from it. Over each was a symbol, lit by its own fire:
Gird's crescent, the High Lord's circle, a hammer, and a harp. Through each a passage could be
seen, but nothing else. In the center of the hall a circular well opened to the depths.
They stood a moment, bemused by the designs, then without a word moved slowly toward one or
another of the arches. Paks saw Balkon strut through the one under the hammer, and Ardhiel stepped
under the harp. She and most of the others stepped under Gird's crescent.
They entered a Hall, as large as the High Lord's Hall at Fin Panir, its great stone columns carved
on the living rock. Gentle light lay over it without a source that Paks could see. The floor was
bare polished stone, the same red
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as the rest, except for a wide aisle where some polished white and black slabs had been set in,
forming a pattern that Paks found compelling but confusing. Far up at die other end, rows of
kneeling figures, robed in blue, faced a shallow platform. Paks looked around at the others, and
met Balkon's surprised gaze. Beyond him was Ardhiel.
"I did not come with you," murmured Balkon. "I went under the Hammer, and saw—and saw great
wonders of stone, and yet am here. This has the Maker of worlds shaped well."
Paks nodded, speechless. She had not thought she would like being so far underground, with the
whole mountain's weight above her, but she could feel no fear. The Hall seemed to cherish them,
protect them—Paks could not even feel die ache along her bones that was becoming familiar.
The two High Marshals walked slowly up the aisle; die rest of the party followed. As they0neared
the rows of kneeling figures, Paks was suddenly seized by fear: would they turn and attack? But
they did not move. She could not see even the gentle movement of breath, and then feared they were
dead. Ahead, High Marshal Connaught turned to look into the faces of the rearmost row. He said
nothing, and passed on. The silence pressed on them; it reminded Paks of the silence of the elfane
taig, but itliad a different flavor, at once more familiar and more majestic.
When she reached the platform with the others, and turned to look, she saw rows of faces—perhaps a
hundred in all—that seemed to be in peaceful sleep. Each held a weapon—most of them swords—point
down, with hands resting on the hilts. Paks shivered. She saw the men-at-arms eyeing the figures,
and then one another.
"Gird's grace, and the High Lord's power, rest on diis place of peace," said Connaught softly. The
words sank into the silence. And then as if a drop of dye bad fallen into clear water, die silence
took on another flavor, and shifted, pulling away from them to drape itself around the sleepers,
protecting their rest, while leaving die company free to talk. It was as if a king's attention had


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to someone else, setting the pages free to whisper along the walls of die chamber,
"Well," said High Marshal Fallis, with a little shake of his shoulders. "I never expected to find
this sort of thing."
"Mmm. No." Connaught had stepped onto the platform. "Look at this, Fallis." The platform was
itself stone, apparently all one great slab of white stone, and into the upper surface a brilliant
mosaic was set, unlike anything Paks had seen. "I wonder where he found someone to do this—" He
turned to Paks. "You were at Sibilj, weren't you? Didn't they have work like this?"
Paks shook her head. "Sir Marshal, I don't remember—I had a knock on the head and don't remember
anything. But—let me think—someone in our Company mentioned pictures made of chips of stone."
"Yes. I thought so. Along die coast of Aarenis they do diis work; I've heard that it was used a
lot in old Aare."
"It could have come from Kaelifet," said Amberion. "I've seen bronze and copper ware from there
ornamented widi bits of colored stone; perhaps diey do stone mosaics as well."
"It might be." Connaught walked slowly from one end of the platform to the other, looking at die
design. It spread from a many-pointed star in shades of blue and green to an intricate
interlacement of curves and angles in reds and golds. "I would like to know what it is."
"It is a place of power," said Ardhiel suddenly. They all looked at him.
"I feel power in all this," said Amberion. "But what do you mean?"
ArcUel nodded toward the pattern. "That is a pattern of power. This place is made of many such.
That—" he pointed to the black and white of die aisle, "is another of them."
"What do they do?" asked Fallis.
Ardhiel smiled, a quick flash of delight. "Ah—you men! You hear that I am saying more than ewes
are wont to say, and you hope to learn great secrets. So—listen closely, and I will say what I can
in Common. And in elven, for those who can hear." He threw Paks a smile at that. "This
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place is sustained by patterns of power, else those sleepers would have died long since, and the
dust of time half-filled this chamber. How was it we each saw and followed the symbol of our
lord—Master Balkon, I daresay, saw and followed the dwarfs secret symbols, and was met and
welcomed as a dwarf, just as I saw and followed the Singer's sign, and was met and welcomed as an
elf. Is it not so?"
"It happened," said Balkon.
"Yes. Then together we found ourselves in this Hall. A pattern of great power. I think more than
men had the shaping of it."
"But—" began Fallis, and the elf waved his hand for silence.
"I will be as brief as the matter allows, Sir Marshal. In haste is great danger; the right use of
power requires full knowledge. This pattern, on the platform, is much like one placed in every
eliane taig, in the center of every elvenhome kingdom. I do not know if I can explain how— and I
know to you that means much. We elves—we think that as the Singer sang, and we are both songs and
singers ourselves, we both are and make the Singer's patterns. So our powers grow from the
patterns of our song. We do not enjoy putting these aside—outside us." Paks could tell he was
having a hard time saying what he meant in Common; for once an elf s speech seemed halting and out
of rhythm.
"You mean, as men do in machines?" asked Amberion.
Ardhiel nodded. "Exactly. We have—we are—the power—as you paladins are: and I know what you will
say, that it is the High Lord's, and he but lends it. That is also so of us, though we are given
more—more—" he faltered, waving his hand. "We can choose more for ourselves, how to use it," he
said finally. "But on occasion we have used built things—patterns of stone or wood, or growing
things, to make patterns of power that any elf can use, even if he lacks a certain gift."
"At the eliane taig—" Paks spoke without intention, and Ardhiel looked at her sharply. "The
stone's carving—if I looked at it—it held me—"
"Yes. Instead of having some always on guard, elves
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have used such to bemuse and slow an enemy. This pattern, though, is used for other things." He
seemed reluctant to go on, but finally sighed and continued. "I might as well teu you, since it is
clear that men used it before. With such a pattern, it is possible for a small group to travel a
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"What!"
Ardhiel nodded again. "Look here—and here—you will see that each of the high gods and patrons is
included by symbol. This pattern draws on all their power, and can be used by a worshipper of any
of these: elf, dwarf, gnome, those who follow the High Lord, Alyanya, or Gird, Falk, Camwyn, and
so on."
"But how do you know where you'll go?" asked Fallis.
**I am not sure. If it were exactly the same as the elven pattern, you would go where you willed
to go. You would picture that in your mind, and that you would see, and that is where you would
go. It would be possible, however, to set such apattern for a single destination."
"And to set it offr
"An invocation of some kind—I do not know. Perhaps you will find guidance somewhere else in this
place." Ardhiel was reverting to the more usual enigmatic erven reticence.
"In that case, I think we can wait. Perhaps we will find some guidance elsewhere." Fallis gestured
to a narrow archway leading out of the Hall behind the platform. "Perhaps we should take a look?"
The group followed the High Marshals across the platform—Paks noticed that they skirted the
pattern gingerly—and through the arch into another stone passage, well-lit by the same sourceless
light. At intervals they passed arched doorways into rooms hollowed from die stone; most were
empty. But one chamber, when they came to it, was very different. A desk and two tables were
littered with scraps of parchment and scrolls. Shelves along the walls held neatly racked scroll-
cases as well as sewn books; a brilliantly colored carpet on the floor showed the wear of feet,
but no touch of moth. A hooded blue robe hung from a hook. And a pair of worn slippers, the fleece
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lining worn into little lumps, lay under a carved wooden chair, just where the wearer must have
slipped them off to put on boots. Connaught touched them with a respectful finger.
"These—must be his. Luap's or his successor's—Gird's grace, I can hardly believe it—"
"He might have stepped out only moments ago," said Fallis softly. "There's no dust—no disarray—"
He glanced at the loose sheets on the worktable. "Look, Connaught. Supply lists—names—and here's a
watch-schedule of some kind: south outpost, east outpost, north—"
"I wonder what happened," murmured Amberion. "I feel no evil here at all, only great peace and
good, but— some sleep, and others are gone—'
Connaught sighed. "Amberion, we wouldn't know if Falk himself slept out there with the others. Who
knows what he looked like? The legends say he was thinner than Gird—and none of us ever saw Gird.
I don't suppose," he said, turning to Ardhiel, "that you happen to be of an age to know what Falk
looked like—"
Ardhiel shook his head. "Sir Marshal, I am sorry that this is not a mystery I can solve for you.
Only I agree with Sir Amberion, that this is not a place of evil. Whatever happened here, happened
for good."
'So—now what?' asked Fallis. "I feel strange, rooting around in these things that seem untouched.
U it were a ruin, and everything half destroyed—but here, I feel like a—a—robber, almost."
"We asked Gird's grace, and the High Lord's power, Fallis. They know our need, and the needs of
this place. We will be warned, I daresay, if we trespass where they do not wish us to go."
Fallis nodded. Connaught turned to the others. "Amberion, if you don't mind, you might lead a
group looking for a lower entrance. They must have had a way to get animals in and out, and heavy
loads."
"With all the magic this place holds," said Amberion drily, "perhaps they simply wished them
inside." Connaught chuckled, then sobered abruptly. "By Gird, Amberion, I hope you're wrong."
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Before Amberion got out of hearing, however, Fallis had found a map of the complex, in the wide
desk drawer. They called Amberion back.
"Look—this is the main Hall—"
"And this is Luap's office, as we thought. So that corridor, if we'd gone on, would lead to the
kitchens—"
"I wonder what they do for firedraught, so for down," said Fallis. "Master Balkon, do dwarves have
any trouble with that?"
"Firebreath? No, it is important to make a hole for it, that is all."
"Look at these red lines, Amberion—could that be shafts?"
"It could be anything until we go and look. Let me—ah. Look here. Is there another sheet?"
"Yes. Two more; I put them on the table there."
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the ground level—if this mapmaker followed Finthan tradition, then this sign means a spring."
"But we saw springs coming out of the rock very high," said Connaught.
"Yes, but look—isn't that a trail sign? And it's twisting here, as in natural land, not straight
or gently curved like these corridors."
Paks, looking over their shoulders, could make little of the brown, red, and black lines on the
maps. She had found the Hall easily enough, and Luap's study, but the maze of corridors, and the
strange marks that Amberion insisted meant ramps or stairs, confused her.
"I only hope," Fallis was saying, "that your trail isn't like that rockclimb we had."
Amberion laughed. "No—I'm sure it's not. Well go down that way and see. How many would you like
left with you?"
"Who has a good writing hand?" asked Connaught. "We should make copies of what we find." Paks and
one of the men-at-arms, who was known to write clearly, stayed with the High Marshals.
Paks heard later that day how Amberion had led the little group through echoing passages of stone,
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down gentle ramps. They had found a stone stable, clean but for a few ancient bits of straw, and
the deep-grooved ruts of the carts that had carried in fodder and carried out dung. They had found
great kitchens, three of them, and Balkon had told them why—that whatever way the wind blew, one
of the hearths would draw perfectly. They had found storerooms still full of casks and bales—but
across the doors lay a line of silvery light that Amberion would not try to pass. And finally,
when the last wide corridor ended in a blank face of stone, Amberion had touched it with one
glowing finger, and the stone vanished in a colored mist. The cold, pine-scented air of the canyon
blew in, swirling a little dust around their feet. Some of the men were reluctant to go out,
fearing the passage would close again, but it stayed open like a great grange door behind them.
Paks spent that time copying what seemed to her a very dull list of names. She supposed that the
High Marshals had some reason to need a complete list of Luap's followers, with the years of their
coming, but she could not understand it. Behind her she could hear them at the shelves, gently
taking down one scroll or book after another, and murmuring to each other. She used up the small
amount of ink that Fallis had had, and asked him for his inkstick. He reached over to Luap's desk,
where a bowl of ink sat waiting, as it seemed, and handed it to her.
"Use this?" Paks asked.
"Why not?" He hardly looked at her, face deep in a large volume bound in cedarwood.
"But it's—it might be—"
"It's just ink, Paksenarrion. What else could it be?" Paks felt her shoulders tighten at the sneer
she thought she heard in his voice, and ducked her head. How did he know it was just ink. Ink
doesn't stay wet for years—all the years this place had been—whatever it had been. She stabbed at
the ink with the pen, and felt vindicated when it clicked on the surface.
"It won't write," she said. "It's dried up."
"Oh?" Fallis put the book down, picked up die bowl, and tilted it. "That's odd. It looked wet, and
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sworn it shifted. Hmm. Well, here's the inkstick and—yes— here's a bowl for it."
Silently, Paks mixed a measure of ink with water from her flask. She pushed it over so that Elam
could use it too.
Amberion reappeared to say that he had found the lower entrance, and had started moving the
animals and others toward it.
"It's nearly dark, though, so I thought it better to camp for the night—that trail is barely
passable in daylight. Will you come out, or shall I have food sent in?"
"We'll come out," said Connaught. "Everyone needs to hear all about this, and we should be
together."
"I thought you might want to set sentries on the old guardposts."
Connaught shook his head. "Until we know more about how this place works, that would simply call
attention to us. Paks—Elam—that will do for today. Let's go have some supper."
And Paks, rising from her seat, realized how stiff and hungry she was. She followed the others out
without a word.
In the next two days, some of the party explored as much of the old fortress as the light would
allow. One rash yeoman tried to pass a doorway barred with silver light, and fell without a cry.
Amberion touched his head, and did nothing more.
"Hell wake with a headache, and more respect for these things. Someone stay with him, until he


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wakes."
Paks spent her time copying records. She wished she could roam around, seeing the things others
spoke of in the evenings; it didn't seem fair that she had to act as scribe all the time. But no
one had asked her what she wanted to do, and she refused to bring it up. Surely they could tell,
if they thought about it, she thought bitterly. Finally, when one of the yeomen was describing a
long climb up a narrow corridor to an outlook on the very top of the mountain, among the trees,
Paks exploded.
"—and you could see so far," the man said, gesturing. "North of here, and west—what a view. Of
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cold up there, and after climbing all that way my legs quivered like jelly." He grinned at Paks.
"You're lucky, lady, that you get to sit all day in the warm, just wiggling your fingers with a
pen."
"Lucky!" Heads turned at the bite in her voice. "Lucky to sit all day? I'd give anything to be
where I could see something besides another stinking scroll! How would you like to travel all the
way out here and then be stuck in a windowless room? I've already been underground as much as I
care to—" She stopped short, seeing the worry in Amberion's face, the. High Marshal's stern
expressions.
"You could have asked, Paks," said Fallis mildly. "We thought it would be easier for you, with
your wounds still healing, than climbing all over."
"I'm sorry," she muttered. Now that she'd said it, she felt ashamed, and still somehow resentful.
She shouldn't have protested—she shouldn't have felt that way. Yet she did, and it was unfair.
"Take some time tomorrow," Amberion said. "Ill show you some things if you wish." But Paks felt
that he was humoring her, as if she were still sick.
When she tried to follow Amberion around the stronghold the next day, she found that in one thing
the High Marshals were right. She was too weak to climb far. She pushed herself, determined not to
show what she felt, but when Amberion turned back toward the lower levels, near midday, she was
glad. That afternoon she copied lists without complaint, and that evening the High Marshals
announced their decision to try to use the pattern on the Hall's platform.
"We won't take everyone; enough must stay here to go back, as planned. The maps show another way
out of this canyon, down through the western cliffs, and a clear trail to the trade route from
Kaelifet. We suggest that, instead of the trail that would take you past the kuaknom again. But if
the .transfer works, we will return and the rest of you can travel easily that way. Wait ten days
for us to rr-him before you leave; Ardhiel assures me that if we can *••••'? the pattern at all,
we can return in that time."
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pattern with them. High Marshal Connaught, commander of the expedition, was staying behind; those
returning were Amberion, High Marshal Fallis, Ardhiel, Balkon, and herself. With Connaught
watching, they mounted the platform, standing as near the center as they could. Paks watched
Balkon; he had confided to her that if he was to travel like this, he might as well go home if he
could. Then the High Marshals together lifted their voices, calling on Gird and the High Lord.
Ardhiel's silvery elven song joined them, then Balkon's chant in dwarvish. Paks thought she heard
a faint and distant call of trumpets.
Chapter Twenty-eight
As the Hall of Luap's Stronghold faded around them, the sound of trumpets seemed to come nearer.
Abruptly they were standing on the lower dais df the High Lord s Hall at Fin Panir, facing the
Marshal-General as she came forward between the ranks of knights: the fanfare had just ended. The
Marshal-General stopped in midstride, her face a stiff mask. Behind her, the knights drew sword;
others burst into shouts, questions, even one scream, chopped off short. The Marshal-General's arm
came up, paused . . . the hubbub stilled, no one moved. Then Amberion spoke, a formal greeting
that Paks hardly noticed because she'd realized that Balkon was not with them, and grinned to
herself. She had no doubt that he had chosen to return to the Goldenaxe, and hoped his magic
worked.
In moments, the Marshal-General had reached the dais, touching each of them, eyes bright. And
again the Hall was full of sound: greetings, whispers, comments, the scrape of feet, the rasp of
weapons returned to scabbard and rack. To Paks, it seemed noisy as a windstorm after the calm of
Luap's Stronghold. She felt at once submerged in it and remote, a solitary stone washed by
contending waves. Eventually the noise receded, the crowds dispersed,


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and she went to her quarters, hardly noticing the shy greetings and questions of those few
students who spoke to her.
A few hours later, the Marshal-General summoned her. When she arrived in the study, she found the
Marshal-General and Amberion waiting.
"I have been telling the Marshal-General," began Amberion, "about your capture and ordeal with the
iynisin— the kuaknom—" he said quickly, after a glance at the Marshal-General.
Paks nodded, at once alarmed and defensive.
"I wondered what your plans were, Paksenarrion," said the Marshal-General. "From what Amberion
says, and the way you look, it seems that you may need a rest. Such wounds would slow anyone. Have
you thought of it?"
"No, Marshal-General. I did not know if—I mean, I am tired, yes, but I don't know about rest. Do
you mean you want me to leave?"
"No, not that. Amberion thinks you are not fit for a full schedule of training; he thought several
weeks of rest would help. There are many things you could do here, without much strain, or—"
"I know what I would like," said Paks suddenly, interrupting. "I could go home—visit my family in
Three Firs. It's been four years and more." As she spoke, the longing to go home intensified, as
if she had wanted this for long.
Amberion frowned. "I don't think that's a good idea," he said slowly.
"Why not?" Paks turned to him, annoyed. "It's not that for, by the maps. I'm surely strong enough
to ride that far—and there's no war—and—"
"Paksenarrion, no. It's too dangerous, as things are with you."
Paks felt a wave of rage swamp her mind. She was not weak, just tired from the fighting and the
trip. They kept trying to make her believe something was wrong— "There's nothing wrong with me!"
she snapped. "By Gird, just because I'm tired—and you said anyone might be—you think I can't ride
a few days to see my family. I traveled safely alone on foot, with no training at all, four years
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ago—why do you think I can't do it now? You keep trying to convince me something's wrong—and
whatever it is, it's not wrong with me!" She glared at them, breathing hard.
"It's not?" The Marshal-General's voice was quiet, but hard as stone. "Nothing wrong, when a
paladin candidate feels and shows such anger to the Marshal-General of Gird? Nothing wrong, when
you have not thought what what such a visit could do to your family?"
"My family—what about them?" Paks was still angry. She could not seem to fight it back.
"Paksenarrion, you have attracted the notice of great evil—of Achrya herself. Do you think you can
travel in the world—anywhere in the world—without evil knowing? Do you think your family will be
safe, if you show Achrya where they live, and that you still care for them? Gird's grace,
Paksenarrion, be on your mind, that you think clearly."
Paks sat back, stunned. She had not thought. She shook her head. "I—all I thought was—"
"All you thought was what you wanted to do."
"Yes—"
"And you resented any balk—any balk at aU—"
"Yes." Paks stared at the tabletop; it blurred as her eyes filled. "I—I thought it was over!"    t
"What?"
"The—the anger—Amberion can tell you. I thought it was past—that I had—had beaten it—' Paks heard
the rustle of clothing as the Marshal-General moved in her seat. She heard Amberion clear his
throat before beginning.
"Immediately after we got her out, she had a—I don't quite know how to describe it. Fallis and I
thought we should let her memories return naturally—at least until Ardhiel awoke. But Balkon—the
dwarf, you recall—he disagreed, and began telling her some of it. Anyway, I stepped in and
interrupted, and Paksenarrion became angry. Very angry. I thought at the time it was the pain of
her wounds, and attempted a healing—"
"It did help," said Paks softly, trying not to cry. "It eased them—and then I could see I was
wrong—"
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next days—nothing bad, if it had been someone else, someone more irritable to start with. But it
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allowances for the wounds— which Ardhiel said had been healed so far by some kuaknom magic—and she
seemed to have recovered, but for the weakness and exhaustion I spoke of to you."
"I see." The Marshal-General was silent a long moment, and Paks waited, as for a blow.
"Paksenarrion, what do you, yourself, think of this anger? Is it just the wounds? It's not
uncommon for people to be irritable when recovering from illness or wounds."
"I—don't know. I don't feel different—except for being tired. But if Amberion says I am, then—"
She shook her head. "I don't know. In the Duke's Company, I didn't get in trouble for fighting, or
anything like that, but I did get angry. I can't tell that it's any more now than it was then."
'Our fear," said Amberion, "was that the type of fighting she did, with the iynisin—the
kuaknom—would open a channel for Achrya's evil—"
"I would hate to think so," said the Marshal-General. "I would hate that indeed. Paksenarrion?"
"I don't feel that, my lady. Truly, I don't—and I care for Gird, and for his cause, as much as
ever I did. The anger is wrong—to be angry at you, I mean, but I can control it another time."
"Hmm. Amberion, had you any other concern?"
"No." He smiled at Paks. "She has not begun beating horses, or cursing people, or telling
lies—it's just an uneasiness. Ardhiel feels the same."
"Paksenarrion, I hope you agree now that you should not travel to Three Firs—" Despite herself,
Paks felt a twinge of irritation at this; she masked it with a nod and smile. "Good. Take a few
days to rest; let our surgeons look you over. It may be that rest and good food will brine you
back quickly. Don't start drill again until I've talked with you. We may want you to help instruct
a beginner's class."
Paks left the Marshal-General's office with mixed feelings. The thought of instructing was
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easily imagine herself with younger students, as she had worked with recruits in the Duke's
Company—but the prescribed days of rest were less attractive. Though tired and jaded, she was
restless, and could not relax.
"I'm about to do a dangerous thing," said the Marshal-General, pulling out a blank message scroll.
"Whatr Amberion watched her closely.
"I'm going to write Duke Phelan of Tsaia." Arianya trimmed her pen, dipped it, and began.
"Phelan? Why?"
"I think you're right. I think this child is in serious trouble. And I think we don't know her
well enough. Phelan commanded her for three years; he will know which way she's turned."
"Then you sensed evil too?"
"Yes. Not much, as you said. But deep, and so rooted that it will grow, day by day, and consume
her. By the cudgel of Gird, Amberion, this is a sad thing to see. She had so much promise!"
"Has still."
"Maybe. Right now—we must keep her from leaving, and from hurting anyone else. If she leaves us—"
She shook her head. "The only thing standing between Achrya and her soul is the Fellowship of
Gird. Ward her, Amberion."
"I do, and I shall."
It was some days later that Pak came into the forecourt to find familiar colors there: three
horses with saddlecloths of the familiar maroon and white, with a tiny foxhead on the corners, and
a pennant held by someone she had never seen before. She lingered, wondering if the Duke himself
had come to Fin Panir, and what for, but she had urgent business with the Training Master, and had
to go. Upstairs, in the Marshal-General's office, she herself was the topic of conversation—if
such it could be called.
Duke Phelan faced the Marshal-General across her polished desk, his eyes as cold as winter
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want me to help you? You, who could not protect, for even a year, a warrior of such promise?"
Arianya sighed. "We erred, my lord Duke."
Tir's guts, you did, lady! Not for the first time, either! I thought I'd never be so wroth with
you again, as when my lady died from your foolishness, but this—I" He turned away, and paced back
and forth by the window, his cloak rustling, then came to lean on the desk again. "Lady, that
child had such promise as I've rarely seen in thirty years of fighting. Your own paladin saw that
in Aarenis. You could not ask better will, better courage, than hers. Oh, she made mistakes,
aye—beginner's mistakes, and rarely twice. But generous in all ways, willing—we hated to lose her,
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was glad to hear that she'd come here for training. She'll make a knight, and well-deserved, I
thought. And then—!" He glared at her.
"My lord, we thought—" began Amberion.
"You thought!" The Duke leaped into speech. "You never thought at all. Make her a paladin, you
thought, and then you dragged her into such peril as even you, sir paladin, would fear, and
without your powers to help her. You think me gray, Girdsmen, compared to your white company, but
I know better than to put untrained raw recruits into hot battle. Tis a wonder you have any
paladins at all, if you throw them away so.*
"We don't, Duke Phelan," said Marshal Fallis. "They do not go out untrained. But in her case—"
"She did. Do you even know how young she is? What years you have wasted?"
"Duke—" began Fallis angrily.
"Be still!" roared the Duke. "I'll have my say; you asked me here for help and you'll hear me out.
I have no love for you these fourteen years, Girdsmen, though I honor Gird himself. Protector of
the innocent and helpless, you say— but where were you and where was he when my lady met her death
alone and for from aid?" He turned away for a moment, then back. "But no matter. If I can help
this girl, I will. She has deserved better of us all." He looked
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around for a chair, and sat. "Now. You say she was captured, and is now alive but in some trouble.
What is it?
"My lord Duke, a paladin candidate can be assaulted in spirit by evil powers; that's why we
normally keep them sequestered. We think that in defending herself during captivity she became
vulnerable to Achrya's direct influence. Tliis is the thought of Amberion and FaUis, who observed
her at the time they brought her out, and also of Ardhiel the elf, who knows how kuaknom
enchantments might work."
"I see. Then you think she is now an agent of Achrya?"
"No. Not yet." Arianya met his eyes squarely. "My lord, all we have noticed so far is
irritability—unusual for her, for we have known her to be always goodnatured, willing, and
patient. It would hardly be noticed in another warrior— indeed, many expect all fighters to be
touchy of temper."
The Duke grinned suddenly. "I am myself."
"I noticed. But she has not been so since we've known her. You have known her longer; we thought
you could tell us if she has changed."
"You want me to tell you if she has become evil?"
"No. She has not become evil, not largely. That I could certainly sense for myself. I want you, if
you will, to speak to her—observe her—and tell us if she is changing in the wrong way. Becoming
more violent, less controlled—that is a sign of contamination."
"And if she is? What then will you do?"
The Marshal-General paused long. "I am not sure. She is a member of our Fellowship, and a paladin
candidate—as such, she is under my command. As she is, she cannot be a paladin—"
"You're sure."
"Yes. I'm sorry, but so it is. What is of no account in another may be a serious flaw in a
paladin. If she had gone over to Achrya, it would be my duty to kill her—"
"No!" The Duke jumped to his feet.
"Please. Sit down. She has not—I am not saying she has—I am saying if that were true, which is not
true. Yet. But if she is changing in the way—if the evil is growing— then, my lord Duke, we cannot
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among us. We cannot. Somehow, before that happens, we must prevent it."
"What can you do? Can you heal her, as you heal wounds?"
"Unfortunately not. Her wounds, indeed, have not yielded to our healing. The elf, as I said, says
that this is because of some kuaknom magic used on diem. As for her mind ... I think that we might
be able to destroy the focus of evil—if, indeed, I am not misnaming it—but like any surgery it
would leave scars of its own.
"You speak of magic?"
"If you consider the gods' powers and magic in the same light, my lord, which I do not. The High
Lord has given us—Marshals and paladins both—certain powers. With them ! might try to enter her
mind and cleanse it."
The Duke shifted in his seat. "I don't like it. I don't like it at all, Marshal-General, and
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such wounds as you describe. That she had to have that 61th trying to corrupt her mind. But then
to let someone else in, to stir the mess further—"
"Believe me, I don't like the idea either. But what else is there? If we are right, and the evil
is rooted there, and we do nothing, she will come to be such as even you, my lord, would admit
must be destroyed. Could anything— even death now—be worse than that dishonor?"
"No, but—I dislike being the means of it. She is—she was, I should say—my soldier, under my
command and protection. She has a right to expect more from me—"
"Now?" asked Fallis.
"Yes, now. By the gods, Marshal, I don't forget my soldiers when they leave. She served me well; I
will not serve her ill."
"My lord, one reason I wrote you was that she had so often spoken of her respect for you. We are
not looking for an accuser, my lord, but a friend who knew her in the past—"
"And do you think I will condemn her to you, having known her?"
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"I trust you for that. You have always been, by all repute, an honest man—and so she thinks of
you."
'I will not persuade her to your opinions—'
"We don't ask that. Go, talk to her, see for yourself. If you come and tell me I'm a fool, I will
be best pleased by that. I don't think you will—but do your best for her."
The Duke ran his hand through his hair. "I'll tell you what, Marshal-General, you have set me a
problem indeed. But you have one yourself. All right. I'll see her. But I think perhaps I'll have
a new captain for my Company out of it, and you'll be a paladin the less."
"That may be so."
Pales came from the Training Master's office in the black mood that had begun to seem familiar.
She was not to ride out with the others to hunt the following day, and she was not to plan on
taking part in the fall competitions. She lengthened her stride, hardly noticing when several
students flattened themselves oyt of her way. At least, she was thinking, I can take Socks out to
the practice field. She turned hard right into the stable courtyard, and nearly bumped into a tall
man in a maroon cloak. Before he turned, she knew who it was.
"My ford Duke!" She fell back a step, suddenly happier.
"Well, Paks, you've come far in the world." He looked much the same, but he spoke now as if she
were more his equal.
"Well, my lord, I—"
"They tell me that's your horse, the black."
"Yes, my lord—"
"Will you ride with me? I'd like to see how the training grounds are laid out."
"Certainly, my lord." Paks turned toward the tack room, but a groom was already leading Socks out,
ready to ride. The horse had recovered his flesh, and showed no ill effects of the expedition. The
Duke's own mount waited, and after they mounted, he rode beside her.
"We were glad to hear," he began, "that you'd been accepted here. I had two years with the Knights
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and I understand that the training here is as good if not better."
"It's thorough, my lord," said Paks. He laughed.
"Fortification? Supply? Field surgery?"
"Yes, my lord, and more."
"Good. And you enjoyed it?"
"Oh yes. Last winter was the happiest time of my life—" she stopped suddenly and looked at him. "I
mean, my lord, after leaving the Company."
"Don't be silly, Paks—you weren't happy with us, that last year. Few were. Of course you'd like
this better. Now—what's that?" For some minutes they rode in the training grounds, the Duke
commenting and questioning on the equipment and methods of training that they observed, llien he
turned to her again. "Did they teach you such riding here?"
"No, my lord. That was Marshal Cedfer in Brewersbridge, where I got my horse."
"Brewersbridge—that's in southeast Tsaia, isn't it?"
"Yes, my lord." Paks wondered if he would ask her about the details of her journey across the
Dwarfmounts, but he said nothing for a bit. Then—"What's this journey you've been on, that they
talk of so? And they said you were captured by some land of elf—is that so?"
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far west—a land called Kolobia—to find the stronghold of Luap, who was a friend of Gird himself.
It goes back, sir, to when I left your Company: in the journey over the mountains, a traveling
companion and I were enchanted by the elfane taig, and had to fight a demon-possessed elf
underground."
"By Tirl And you lived?"
"Yes, my lord. And the elfane taig rewarded me with great riches, and gave me also a scroll. It
seems that the scroll was written by Luap—it's very old—and contains much about Gird and his times
that was not known, for die scroll had been lost. It was in this scroll that the stronghold of
Luap was mentioned, and a map besides. So the Council of Marshals, and the Marshal-General, de-
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clared a quest that search should be made for this stronghold, and the rumors of lost powers."
"But why did you go? You were but a student here, isn't that so?"
"Yes—but they asked if I wanted to. Because I'd brought the scrolls, you see: it was a reward, an
honor."
"I see."
"They didn't know, my lord, that I would have such trouble."
"No, but they might have thought." He shook his head. "Well, enough of that. How did you come to
be captured?"
Paks told the tale as best she might, and the Duke looked grave, but listened without comment.
When she finished with Ardhiel's treatment, he sighed.
"Are you well, then?"
"I think so. They—" Paks looked aside, but no one was near. "My lord, they seem to think not, but
I don't know why. I have lost my temper once or twice—even spoke sharply to the Marshal-General—"
"That's nothing," said the Duke quickly. "I've done as much."
Paks grinned, thinking of it. Then she sobered. J'My lord, I don't want to be Dad; you know I
never did." He nodded. "I don't think I am, yet they don't trust me any more. Just today the
Training Master told me not to ride out hunting tomorrow—and not to join in the autumn
competitions, either. Is that fair? I haven't done anything— I've oeen careful—I do all they ask
me—I don't know what more I can do!" Her voice had risen; she took a deep breath and tried to
continue more calmly. "They—they say that evil begins as a little thing—too little for me to
sense. That it will grow, and consume me, until I become one of Achrya's minions. But sir, you
know me—you've known me all along. Am I so bad?"
Phelan looked at her, a piercing gaze that she found hard to meet. Then he shook his head slowly.
"Paks, I see you much as you were: a good soldier, loyal and courageous. You bear scars that I
would not care to have, and you have suffered under both enchantments and blows. I do not see
evil." Paks relaxed, but he went on. "But Paks,
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I am no Marshal or paladin, to discern evil directly. The gods know I have no great love for the
granges of Gird, but they are not evil. I think perhaps you should submit yourself to their
judgment."
"My lord!"
"And if it is not fair, or if you do not agree, leave them. I will not forsake you; as you were my
soldier, so you can be again. As I recall, you held the right to return when you left."
Paks said nothing, and after a while they rode back silently. She suspected that the Duke had come
to Fin Panir because of her—and this was confirmed when she answered a summons late that afternoon
to the Marshal-General's quarters. She was shown to a study she had not been in before, a level
higher, with windows on three sides. Amberion, Fallis, Ardhiel, and Duke Phelan, as well as the
Marshal-General, were all in the room. The Marshal-General began by explaining what they thought
was wrong, and what she thought could be done about it, a sort of surgery of the mind.
Paks nodded gravely, trying to pay attention through a numb haze that fogged her mind. Arianya
paused, for that nod, then went on.
"So much we think we can do. But that is not the whole story; I want to be feir with you. We are
sure that if you live the evil will be destroyed, but some good may be destroyed as well."
"What—what sort of good?" asked Paks, her mouth drying with fear.
Amoerion looked away, at a tapestry on the outer wall. Arianya glanced down, then met Paks's eyes
squarely. "Paksenarrion, the flaw, being made of an excess of your best qualities, is bound
tightly in them. You may not be a fighter afterwards—"
"Not a fighter!" Paks felt the blood leave her face.
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. your courage."
"No!" Paks clenched her fists, anguish twisting her face. "I cannot! You cannot want me to be so!"
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that you be healed and whole, and free of any taint of evil. But our powers are limited, and it is
better to be free of the dark one's web than be a prince under her control."
"But—" Paks shook her head. "But you ask that I give up the only gifts I have—chance them—and if I
survive a weakling or a coward, what good is that? To you or anyone? My lady," she said to
Arianya, "the granges would not let me in, if I were a coward. I would be better dead, indeed. You
say I am not so bad, yet. If I cannot be a paladin, I can still fight your enemies. Then if—if I
go wrong, then do your treatment, or kill me."
Arianya started to speak, but Duke Phelan interrupted. "Paks, when you were in my Company, you
learned that wounds must be treated at once, lest corruption begin. And if the surgeon cuts away
good muscle, it's better than leaving the least infection to spread and engulf the whole body.'
"Yes, my lord, but—"
"Faksenarrion, the Duke speaks truly. If we thought the evil would not spread, or would spread but
slowly, we would not try such a drastic cure. But it is the nature of such to spread with awesome
speed. You yourself, being damaged already by this poison, cannot perceive how far it has gone
already."
"But my lady—to lose all—and think how long I might live—what could I do? So long in disgrace—"
"It will not be disgrace, Paksenarrion, however it turns out. You have already won honors beyond
your years. Nor will any grange of Gird be closed to you: that I promise. And if you have these
troubles—and you might not—we will help you find another way to live."
Paks thrust back her chair and rose abruptly, striding to the window to stand braced against the
embrasure, looking out at evening sunlight yellow on the cobbled court and the roof of the High
Lord's Hall across the way.
"I always dreamed of being a warrior," she said softly. "Silly, childish dreams at first, of being
the hero in old songs, with a silver sword. Then Jornoth came, and I was going to be a mercenary,
a good one, and earn my living with my sword, and see strange lands, and win honor
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serving my lord. So I joined Duke Phelan's Company, and prospered as well, I think, as any
recruit. Youve heard they thought well of me." She glanced at the Duke, who nodded gravely, then
turned back to the outside view.
"I stayed three seasons, but—no fault of my lord Duke, who's as fine a leader as I ever hope to
fight under—I saw things I didn't want to be part of. So I left, thinking I'd go north and home,
and join some castle guard. You know what happened with the elfane taig, and near Brewersbridge.
Marshal Cedfer . . . Master Oakhallow . . . they showed me fighting, but for cause, not for a
person. My dreams grew—more than being a guard captain instead of a sergeant, I dreamed of
fighting as Gird fought—for right, for the protection of the helpless. And you encouraged me: you,
Marshal-General, and you, Marshal Fallis, and you, Sir Amberion. You said learn: learn languages,
art of weaponry, supply and surgery, fortification—you said all these things were right." Paks's
voice broke, and her shoulders shook. The listeners were silent, each with his own memories, his
own visions. Paks took a deep breath, then another, and turned to face them, tears filling her
eyes.
"And then you honored me, sheepfarmer's daughter, poor commoner and mercenary, beyond all dreams
I'd dared. You, my lady, offered me the chance to become a paladin. A paladin! Do you—can you—have
any idea what a paladin means to a child on a sheep farm at the far edge of the kingdom? It is a
tale of wonder, all stars and dreams. A—a fantasy too good to be true. I had met paladins! And you
said 'Come, be one of them. That is your destiny.' " She stopped for breath again, then went on,
looking from one to another as she spoke.
"I coula not argue, my lady. I felt you must know; you wouldn't say it if it weren't true. I
wondered, and rejoiced, and then—to go on quest, with Amberion and the others! I was glad to
chance all dangers in such company. And all of you were most courteous to so young a warrior. You
remember, Amberion, the nomads' attack? You said I did well, then."
"Paks—" he said, but she went on heedlessly.
"And then we met the iynisin, and—then I was taken.
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before. The evil ones wanted me; it was my weakness or flaw that drew them to me. How could I
blame you, who followed into the rocky heart of their lair to free me, outnumbered as you were?
No. And while I was thus, in their hands, I tried to pray to Gird and the High Lord for aid, but I
had to fight against their servants Test they kill me. I was alone—in the dark—I thought that to
fight so—Gird would approve. I thought that was right."
She looked down, suddenly, and shuddered. "It wasn't— wasn't easy." Then she faced them again.
"Now you say that because I fought them, because I didn't just die, I have opened a passage for
great evil. I can't feel this myself; I don't know . . . But to chance all I can do, to chance
losing all I've learned, all I am—that you helped make me—and to think how long I must live if it
goes badly . . . Could such a one as I be a—a potter, or a weaver? Oh, better to kill me, my lady,
and quickly."
Silence followed her words; Paks turned again and stared blindly out the window. Then Arianya took
breath to speak, but Ardhiel forestalled her. "Lady Paksenarrion, elf-friend, may I tell you a
true tale?"
Paks gazed at him, white-faced and desperate. "Yes, Ardhiel; I will listen. '*
"We elves, milady, know not death from age, and thus our memories are long, and we see slow
processes in the world as easily as you might see the start and finish of a meal. Once, long ago,
before ever this Hall was built or even started, I walked the green forests with an elf known for
the beauty of his voice and the delight of his songs. From him I learned that very air I taught
you, milady, when we first met. It was his craft to shape his instruments of living wood—a
delicate business, to urge the growth of linden or walnut or mahogany so that it grew fidy shaped
for harp or lute or lo-pipe. And to shape it so that in time the complete instrument could be
separated from the tree without harm to it or to the creature it grew from. Long years of growth
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a single instrument, but long years we elves have, and delight in.
"In that time, he was growing a harp: not a lap-harp, as might be grown from any angle of
applewood or pear, but a great harp, on which he hoped to play before die throne of our king. If
you think of the shape of a great harp, you will realize how difficult this would be, for if the
harp frame were strong enough to withstand the tension of die strings, removing it would cause
severe damage to its tree. I cannot tell you how it was done—it is not my craft—but he caused a
part of the tree, the part between the instrument and the main plant, to withdraw, as it were.
This process must be complete when the instrument was grown, else it became gross and unmusical,
and required shaping with tools, which he abhorred. But if it was begun too soon, the withdrawal
weakened either instrument or tree, and could allow woodrot and other decay to attack both.
"It happened that he had just begun shaping his harp-tree when our king determined to wed. Not
immediately, for that is not our way; but the courtship and preparation began, and in twenty years
or so, the wedding day was announced to all elf-kind. It would be another forty years, for the
beauty of elf-maidens does not fade or wither, and the king's subjects would have time to prepare
all good gifts for the festival.
"When he heard the news, my friend determined diat his wedding gift would be the great harp he was
then shaping, a kingly gift indeed. He brought me to see it growing, though little I could see,
and he had to point out which twig would grow to make the fret, and which root-sprout would form
the shorter leg. The frame, you see, was to be grown all in one piece: trunk, branch, root, and
sprout top-grafted to the branch. In twenty years, I happened by again, and the shape was far
clearer. But my friend was concerned. By his craft, he knew that as it grew, it would grow too
slowly—it would not be ready for die king's wedding. I laughed, I recall, and reminded him that
elves have no need of hurry. For such a royal gift, die long would be well content to wait. He
laughed with me, and seemed reassured.
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"But though elves are not by nature hasty folk, we are proud of our crafts, and love ceremony. And
ceremony means things done fitly, and in time, and by that love and desire that This gift might be
the means of great pleasure at the wedding feast, my friend was betrayed into haste.
"I know not when he did it, or exactly what he did; he had ways of speeding and slowing the growth
of all plants he worked with. Indeed, I've seen him grow a lo-pipe in but one season. If it
cracked in ten years, what matter, if it served the need to gift a dying man? But somehow he tried
to speed the growing of his harp, and the withdrawal of the parent tree, and out of this haste a
flaw came into the wood. A part of the withdrawal moved into the harpwood, and weakened it, and
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"I well remember the day he showed me, sorrowing, what had gone wrong. Fifty years and more of
work, and a little space where the rot crept in had ruined it. To heal that, and reshape the post,
would not only take time— years of time—but would also require that the weak part be burned out,
regrafted with live wood, and supported while new growth took over. And, he. said, 'twas more than
likely that it would never grow true in shape, but be clumsy and crooked even if strong enough.
Yet to ignore the woodrot would doom the harp and tie tree that bore it. I asked him what he would
do. He looked at the tree a while, and said, It is not the fault of the wood, which grew true to
its nature. I will amend what I can, and tune it as it will bear.'
"Lady Paksenarrion, it is not through your failure that this trouble has come, but we who should
have been wiser tried to rush your growth into that beauty we saw possible. Yet now we cannot
leave you to perish by our mistake; we must try to mend, though mending is not sure."
Paks had watched his face as he told the tale, but found it as mysterious as all elven faces; it
held surmise but no answers. "Sir—you have always been kind to me," she faltered. "But—but need it
be now? Could I not go to the green fields, just once, to be a—a memory?"
"Lady, I have known you—I, an elf, who will not die
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except in battle. You are in my memory and the memory of my people, and there you will not fade in
all the years to come when men may forget. We will make songs of you, lady, whatever happens."
"Thats not what I meant," said Paks miserably.
"Paksenarrion, we cannot force you to this," said Arianya. "It would be better to do it quickly,
but we cannot—and would not—force you. But you cannot wander alone, with this peril on you. Nor, I
think, should you be much abroad with others. Whatever you decide, and whatever happens, it need
not become common gossip."
Paks looked from one to another of those in the room, meeting troubled eyes everywhere, doubt and
wariness where once she had seen delight and encouragement. Cold despair assailed her heart, more
bitter than she'd felt in captivity. Then she had only enemies against her; these were friends. At
last she looked at Duke Phelan, leaning against the wall in one corner, arms folded. He gazed back
at her, holding her with the intensity of his grey eyes. After a moment, he came to her, still
holding her glance at rest.
"Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter," he said. "I will trust you. I will trust you with my Company, the
one thing I have built in my whole life, if you desire it. You may come with me, in spite of them,
and take command as a captain, and I will trust you, who never foiled my trust before, to decide
if you can do so in good honor. By my faith, Paksenarrion, you are a good soldier and a good
person, and worthy of the trust you have had, and the trust I offer you. You will not foil in
this. You have never foiled me, and here's my hand on it." And Paks felt her hand swallowed in the
Duke's as her face flushed scarlet in relief and joy.
"Tir s gut, you fools!" the Duke went on to the stunned group. "You'd think you were dealing with
a weak, witless chit of a girl who couldn't do the right thing without being led in strings.
Whatever she decides, whatever she is when you wise folk get through with her, she's got courage
enough now, and wit enough now, for the lot of you. If you didn't think she could be trusted, you
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been trusting her." He turned to Paks. "Don't cry, captain. My captains don't cry before
outsiders."
Paks, her hand still clasped in the Duke's, struggled against a wild mixture of emotions. Joy in
the Duke's trust—that someone still trusted—came to her as a flash of light that let her see what
lay within. Her arguments of minutes before showed false as tinsel, though she had believed
herself true as she spoke. In a few moments she had mastered that turmoil, and the sudden change
of her expression brought silence and attention to the chamber. 'My lord Duke," she said. "You
have given me more than you offered, for by the light of your trust I can see what honor requires.
I may never come to serve you again, my lord, as I should to thank you for this gift, but you will
lie in my memory, however short it may be."
"Paks—"
"No, my lord. You know what it must be; I would not forfeit your trust. Sir—I would ask your
blessing—" Even as she spoke, a prickle of anger stung her; she fought it away.
The Duke wrapped his arms around her and held her close for a moment. "My child—may all good be
with you, wherever, however, whenever—may all evil begone from you forever. And if ever you come
to me, Paksenarrion, in whatever state you are, I will help you as I can."
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"And," he added with a growl, "I will stay until I see how you fere with these—"
"Thank you, my lord. Marshal-General—?"
"You are ready, then?" Arianya's eyes were wet, but she rose steadily, and waited the answer.
Paks stepped away from the Duke. She was trembling, but kept her voice firm. "Yes, my lady. It
must be done, and, as you say, will be no better done for waiting."
Chapter Twenty-nine
A circle of light centered the world. Paks watched it change color: first golden yellow, then
glowing orange like coals, then red, deepening to violet, then bursting into blue and white, then
back to yellow. After some time, she wondered where and why and similar things. She was sure,
looking at a circle of red, that it would darken to violet and blue, then burst into brilliant
white. Distant sound disturbed her: ringing, as if bit chains, chainmail, herd bells. The crash of
stone on stone, or steel on steel. Voices, speaking words she didn't know.
She opened her eyes at last to find a finger of sunlight across them, and blinked. She felt as
light and empty as an eggshell. She had no wish to move, fearing pain or loss. A shadow crossed
her vision: a shape she should know. A person. She felt the shifting of what she lay on, a draft
of cooler air and easing of pressure. Something damp and cold touched her skin, then warm hands,
uien warmth returned. She blinked again, seeing, now, a Marshal she had met casually the previous
winter, but did not know well. The face was remote, quiet, contained. Paks stared at it without
intent. It was a puzzle she had to solve.
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The face turned to hers; she saw the surprise on it, and wondered vaguely. "Paksenarrion! You're
awake?"
Paks tried to nod. It was too hard; she blinked instead.
"How do you feel?" The Marshal leaned closer. Paks could not answer, closing her eyes against the
strain. But a hand touched her forehead, shook her head with what she felt as immense force.
"Paks! Answer—"
"Wait." Another voice. "We don't know yet—" Paks opened her eyes again. The Marshal-General, robed
in white, stood by the bed. She smiled. "Paksenarrion, Gird's grace be on you. The power of Achrya
is broken; she cannot control you. You are free of that evil."
Paks felt nothing at these words, neither joy nor fear. She tried to speak, but made only a weak
sound. The other Marshal glanced at the Marshal-General, and at her nod fetched a mug from a
table.
"Here," she said. "Try to drink this." She lifted Paks against her shoulder, and pressed the mug
to her lips. Paks drank. Water, cold and sharp-tasting, cleaned her mouth.
"Can you speak now, Paksenarrion?" The Marshal-General pulled a stool near the bed and sat.
"I—think—yes, my lady."
"Very good. You have been unconscious some days, now. We were just in time, Paksenarrion, for the
kuaknomi evil had invaded deeply, spreading throughout your mind." The Marshal-General touched her
head; Paks shivered at the touch, then quieted. She watched those eyes, wondering what the Marshal-
General was seeing. Finally the Marshal-General pulled back her hand and sat up with a sigh.
"Well," she said to the other Marshal, "weve done that much at least. It's gone." She looked back
at Paks. "How do you feel?"
Paks was beginning to remember what she'd been told before; she tried to feel around inside
herself, and found nothing. Nothing strange, nothing bad, nothing at all. "I don't feel bad," she
said cautiously.
"You aren't." The Marshal-General sighed again. "You weren't bad anyway, Paksenarrion, any more
than someone with an infected wound is bad. Evil had invaded you,
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as decay invades a rotting limb. We have destroyed it, all of it, but I cannot yet tell what else
we may have destroyed. Remember that we are your friends, and your companions in the Fellowship of
Gird. Whatever happens, we will take care of you." She rose, and arched her back. "Gird's grace,
I'm tired! Haran, get Paksenarrion whatever she wants to eat, and keep watch until Belfan comes.
If she feels strong enough, Duke Phelan would like to see her."
"Yes, Marshal-General." Marshal Haran glanced back at Paks, and followed the Marshal-General to
the door. Paks could not hear the low-voiced question, but heard the answer. "No. By no means. An
honored guest, Haran."
When she had gone, Haran came back to the bed. Paks tried to focus on her iacfe, tried to
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elf Ardhiel, others. She felt no pain, only great weakness, and wondered what, after all, it had
been.
"Are you hungry?" asked Haran abruptly.
Paks flinched at the tone. Why was Haran angry with her? She nodded, without speaking.
"Well, what do you want? There's roast mutton—"
"Good." Paks looked around the room. "It's not—my room—"
"You didn't think you were with the other candidates, did you? After that—" Haran looked at her,
another look Paks could not interpret. "You're in the Marshal-General's quarters, in a guest room.
When she's sure—" Her voice trailed away.
"Sure of what?" Worry returned, a faint icy chill on her back.
"Sure that you're well. I'll be back shortly with food." Haran left the room, and Paks looked
around it. The bed she lay on was plain but larger than the one in her quarters. A window to her
right let in daylight sky, a smooth gray. Several chairs clumped around a small fireplace opposite
the bed.
Haran returned with a covered tray. "Have you tried to get up? If you can sit at the table—" But
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manage this. Haran packed pillows behind her shoulders with a briskness that conveyed disapproval,
put the tray on her lap, and went out again. Paks struggled with the food and utensils. She could
not grasp the fork properly; it turned in her hand. By the time Haran returned, with a tray for
herself, Paks was both annoyed and worried.
"Marshal, I'm sorry, but 1 can't—" as she spoke, the fork slipped from her grasp entirely and
clattered on the floor. Haran stared at her.
"What is it? Can't you even feed yourself?"
"I—can't—make it work." Panting, Paks fought with the knife and a slice of mutton. She felt as
clumsy as an infant just learning to reach and grab.
"You're holding that like a baby," said Haran, with exasperation. "All right. Here—" She put down
her own tray and came to die bed. "I don't see why you can't—" And with a few quick motions, she
cut Paks's meat into small bites and retrieved the fork from the floor. "Now can you do it?"
Paks stared at her. She could not understand Haran's hostility. "I—I hope so."
"I, too." Haran strode back across the room, shoulders stiff, and began eating her own meal
without another word. Paks tried again with the fork. Her hands felt as big as pillows, and it was
hard to get the food to her mouth. After a few more bites, she stopped, and lay watching Haran
eat. When the Marshal finished her own meal, she came to take Paks's tray.
"Is that all you'll eat? I thought you were hungry."
"I was. I just—"
"Well, don't decide you want more in an hour or so. Finish your water; you need it." She stood
over Paks until the mug was empty, then snatched it away. In a moment she had left the room,
carrying both trays. Paks sank back on the pillows, still confused. What could she have done while
unconscious to anger someone she'd only met once before? A knock on the door interrupted her
musings. She spoke, and recognized the Duke's voice.
"Come in, my lord."
He opened the door and entered quietly. "Where's your
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watchdog?" Paks could not think what to say, and he went on. *That Marshal who keeps your door.
Haran, I think she's called."
"She's taking trays back." Paks felt, as she had when a recruit, the menace of the Duke, the sheer
power of the man. He prowled around the room like a snowcat, tail twitching.
"I've been wanting to see you, and they keep saying wait." He turned to her. "Are you well? How
are they treating you?"
"I don't know. I just woke a little while ago. I can't feel much of anything. ..."
"That's for the best, I'd think, after what they—I tell you, Paks, I came near to killing the lot
of them."
"What?"
"To see you like that, with all of them working over you. I feared for you."
"My lord, they had to—" Now she remembered more, and fear grew in her.
"Hmmph. Have you been up yet?"
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He shrugged. "It's been some days; the weakness is normal after so long asleep."
"I wish I knew—" In his presence, still more of the warnings came clear, and the emptiness inside
was no comfort at all.
He looked sideways at her. "What?"
"If I will be all right again. I don't know how I'll know. And now that I remember what they did,
I can't think of anything else."
He sat near the bed, and laid a hand on her arm. "Don't fret about it. You remember that worries
before a battle don't help. When it's time, when you're stronger, then you'll find out."
"But what do you think, my lord. Do you think it's gone?"
He sighed, and did not ask what she meant. "Paks, from what I saw, they stirred the very roots of
your mind with powerful magicks. From such stirring nothing would be safe. You don't look
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bed, but I can't tell by looking. The test of a sword is not its polish, but its temper."
"I want, to be ... myself." Paks whispered the last, thinking.
"You are yourself, Paks, and always will be. Yet people change with time, with age—"
"Not like that. I can't stand it, my lord, if I can't—if I become—"
"Paks." His grip on her arm tightened. "Look at me." His face, when she looked, was as grim as
ever she'd seen it, his eyes hard. She feared him suddenly. "Paks, you are yourself, and you can
stand whatever comes. I swear to you. I was not always a duke, I had—"
"But you were always brave, always a warrior!"
"No." His gaze slipped past her into an immeasurable distance. "I will not tell you that tale now,
but no: I was not always brave. And you do not yet know you have lost anything. Take heart, Paks,
until the time comes."
"But why does Haran dislike me so?"
"Haran?' His face relaxed, puzzled. "I don't know. The Marshal-General assigned her here; perhaps
she'd rather be elsewhere. Has she been unkind?'
"No. But she seemed not to like me, or something I'd done."
"My lord Duke!" Haran's voice, from the doorway, was indignant. The Duke turned slowly. Paks saw
the muscles bunch in his jaw.
"Marshal Haran." His tone would have warned anyone in his Company.
"What are you doing with her?"
"I? I came to see how she was, and found her awake and willing for company. Have you any
objection?"
"No. I would have sent, later, to tell you she was awake—"
"Thank you. As you see, I found out for myself."
"I had to take the trays back—" Paks realized Haran was defensive.
"No matter." The Duke waved, as if a squire were apologizing for an overdone loaf of bread. "Tell
me, if you can—is the Marshal-General satisfied with her recovery?"
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Haran bristled visibly. "I can't speak for the Marshal-General. She knows best. But she did say—"
a sharp glance at Paks, "that the evil was safely destroyed."
"And at what cost?"
"That she did not say." Marshal Haran sat down near the fireplace. "Whatever the cost, it would be
worth it."
"Whatever?" The Duke turned to her, his hand still on Paks's arm.
"Duke Phelan, I am a Girdsman. A Marshal. The most important thing is that evil be
defeated—destroyed. Nothing else matters. Whatever stands in the way—'
'A life?" asked Phelan softly.
"Yes." Haran looked stubborn, her brow farrowed. "I have risked mine. Any Girdsman knows the risk:
we are to serve good, and only good."
"Ah, yes. Good. Are you sure you know good?"
"Of course." Her chin was up; she met his look boldly.
"Yes. Of course. You are sure, Marshal, that you know what is good, but I am not so sure." He
paused, as if waiting for her comment, but she said nothing. "I have not been sure, for some
years, that you Gird's Marshals really do know good from evil, and as yet nothing I've seen here
has convinced me." His hand left Paks's arm; she could feel the taut control of that movement.
"You do not, perhaps, think I have any such standards myself. But I assure you, Marshal, that a
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under great stress, repeated stress. And I know those soldiers more thoroughly man you ever will."
He paused again. Haran looked furious, but still said nothing. "Paks is one of them."
Paks stirred, and said, "My lord—"
"Paks, this is not your argument; you but famished the opportunity. What I am saying, Marshal, is
that you have known her but a short time; I have known her for years. You have seen her in one
trouble; I have seen her in many. I know her as someone trustworthy in battle, in long campaigns,
day after day. You see some flaw—some little speck on a shining ring—and condemn the whole. But I
see the whole—the years of service, the duties
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faithfully performed . . . and that is good, Marshal. Is there one of us with no flaws? Are you
perfect, that you indict her?"
"I don't—I never said—"
"Not you personally, but the Girdsmen here. You're one of them; you said so."
"Well—I—" Haran looked at Paks, then back at the Duke, clearly gathering herself for an attack.
"She's supposed to be so special—"
"What!" Paks flinched at the Duke's tone even though he spoke to Haran.
"She came only last fall; she was paladin candidate after Midwinter Feast. That's different, if
you like! Promising, they all said. Remarkable. Chosen to go on quest, when she's not even past
her Trials. And then she gets herself captured, like any half-wit yeoman without battle
experience, and rather than die honorably, as most yeomen would have done, she cooperates with the
kuaknom and is contaminated by Achrya. Haran slapped the table and drew another breath. "And now
they made this fuss over her—I can understand it from you, who aren't even Girdish, but the
others! It makes me sick!"
"Haran!" None of them had noticed the Marshal-General's arrival. She looked almost as angry as the
Duke. Haran paused, then shook her head.
"Marshal-General, I'm sorry, but I don't care. It's true. Paksenarrion should never have been
accepted as a candidate; she wasn't fit, she hadn't served lone enough- Of course the evil had to
be rooted out; if something was lost, shell just have to live with that. It's nonsense anyway: if
she had had sufficient courage, there would be no danger of losing it. I don't see all this
pussyfooting. It's not that she's special, it's that she's had special treatment. And far too much
of it!" Haran turned on her heel and stalked out. The Duke moved to follow, but the Marshal-
General held up her hand.
"Please, my lord Duke! Hear my apology first, and allow me to discipline my own."
"I'm listening,    he said grimly.
"I am sorry—I did not know Haran felt that way, or I
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would never have had her here. I wanted Paks to have Marshals, whose oath of secrecy I could
trust, caring for her. I knew Haran was a bit prickly—she always has been; it's why she has no
grange—but she has always been fair before."
"Well, then. And what of Paks?"
The Marshal-General came past him to Paks. "To you,, as well, I apologize for Marshal Haran's
words. May I ask if she has done you any harm?"
"No, my lady." Pals still felt numb from the force of Haran's attack.
"No harm but to bully and insult her," put in the Duke.
"My lord, I understand that."
"Good. Marshal-General, I came hoping you would be here as well as Paks. Can you tell yet what has
happened to her?"
Paks watched the Marshal-General's face, hoping for reprieve from imagined dooms, but it was still
and unreadable. "No, my lord," she said to Phelan. "I cannot tell. It is early yet, and she is
still recovering." She turned to Paks again, her expression softening. "Paksenarrion, you must
have realized, from what Haran said, that some fear you have been badly damaged. I would not lie
to you: as I warned you before, great loss is possible. But I mink we will not know until you have
regained your strength. We worried because you lay senseless so long, but that may mean nothing.
Please tell me if you feel anything different in yourself at any time."
"I—I couldn't eat—" Paks said softly.
"Couldn't eat? What was wrong?"
"I couldn't—couldn't hold the—" Suddenly she began to cry, and tried to smother it. "—the fork—I
couldn't cut—I dropped—"
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weak, it's too soon—"
"But she said—like a baby—" Paks turned into the pillows, ashamed.
"No. Don't say that. She was wrong. It will come back, faster than you think." The Marshal-General
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Paks watched the line of her jaw and cheek. "If you keep trying, Paks, it will come back."
"AH of it?" asked the Duke softly, echoing Paks's thought.
The Marshal-General's lips thinned. ' My lord Duke, please! We cannot know yet. It will do her—or
you—no good to worry about that now."
"But she cannot help it, Marshal-General. Nor could you, if you were in that bed, and she beside
it. I, too, tried to tell her not to worry about the future, but that's empty wisdom no one can
follow. What can she think about, save this? Nothing but knowledge will ease her."
"I have no knowledge," said the Marshal-General. She shook her head, and met Paks's eyes again.
"But believe this: I do not think as Haran does, nor do your other friends. And Haran will not
think that way long. Only someone of great courage and strength could have held off that evil so
long, once it entered."
A knock on the door interrupted them again. Marshal BeHan, whom Paks had known before the journey
to Kolobia, put in his head. "Now or later?" Jie asked.
"Come on in, Belfan." Hie Marshal-General got up. "Paksenarrion is awake, but weak."
"So Haran said. Gird's grace to you, Paksenarrion, my lord Duke. Old Artagfa says first snow by
morning, Marshal-General."
"Winter starts earlier every year," grumbled the Marshal-General; BeHan laughed. He had an easy
way with him, and hardly seemed a Marshal most of the time.
"You said that last year," he said. "It comes," he said to Paks and the Duke, "of having a Marshal-
General who grew up in the south."
"In Aarenis?" asked the Duke, clearly surprised.
"No. Southern Tsaia." Hie Marshal-General was smiling now. "Around here they call any place where
it doesn't frost the Summereve flowers the south. Gird knows I like hunting weather as well as
anyone, but—"
"You're getting older, Marshal-General, that's what it is." BeUan stuck his hands in his belt,
chuckling. She gave him a hard look.
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"Is it indeed, my young Marshal! Perhaps you'd like to trade a few buffets in Hall and find out
just how old I am?"
"Perhaps I'll throw myself down the steps on my own, and not wait for you."
They all laughed, even Paks. Belfan came over to her. "You look enough better that I expect you'll
be throwing the Marshal-General down the steps in a few days yourself. What a time we've had! The
long faces around here looked more like a horse farm than Fin Panir's grange and Hall."
"What about something to eat?" asked the Marshal-General. "I can have something sent up for all of
us."
"Good idea." The Duke smiled down at Paks. "If we stuff her with food, she'll soon feel more
herself."
And when faced with a bowl of thick soup, Paks was able to spoon it up with few spills. No one
commented on the mess; the Marshal-General wiped it up matter-of-factly, while talking of other
things. When they had all finished, she helped Paks sit up on the bed: she could not lift herself,
but could balance alone.
The next time she woke, the Marshal-General and Belfan helped her stand, wavering, between them.
She walked lopsided and staggering, but with their aid could make it across the room. Several days
later she could walk alone, slowly but more steadily. Her improvement continued. When she could
manage stairs, she went outside, to the Marshal-General's walled garden. After that came her first
walk across the forecourt, to the High Lord's Hall. The glances of the others pricked her like
nettles; she looked down, watching the stones under her feet. Haran had claimed that others felt
as she did: some of them saw cowardice on her face, with her scars. But she hoped, while fearing
her hope was false, that with the return of physical strength sh& had nothing else to fear.
She had grown strong enough to fret at the confinement of the Marshal-General's quarters, and had
begun taking walks on the training fields, usually with the Duke, or one of the Marshals. She did
not question their company, noticing that they rarely left her alone, but not wanting to know why.
One crisp cold day, she was. with Belfan when
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a thunder of hooves came from behind. They turned, to see several students galloping up, carrying
lances. Paks felt a wave of weakness and fear that took the strength from her knees. Sunlight
glittered from the lance-tips, ominous as dragons' teeth; the horses seemed twice as large as
normal, their great hooves digging at die ground. She clutched Belfen's arm, breathless.
"Paks! We thought you were going to be shut up forever!" It was the young Marrakai boy, waving his
lance in his excitement. "I wanted to tell you: I've been put in the higher class! I can drill
with you now—" As nis horse pranced, Paks tried not to flinch from the sudden movements. Another
of the students peered at her.
"You've got new scars. They said—"
"Enough. Begone now." Marshal Belfan spoke firmly.
"But, Marshal—"
"Paks, what's wrong? You're shaking—" The Marrakai boy's sharp eyes glittered; she could see the
curiosity and worry on all their faces.
"Go on, now." The Marshal took a step forward. "This is nothing for you."
"But she's—"
"Now!" Paks had never heard Belfan bellow like that, and she jumped as the students did. They rode
away, looking back over their shoulders. He looked down at her. Only then did she realize that her
legs had failed her, and she had collapsed in a heap. "Here—let me help you up." His hand, hard
and calloused, suddenly seemed threatening in its strength; Paks had to force herself to take it.
She felt the blood rushing to her face. What would the students think? She knew. She knew what she
thought. She had never felt such fear, never been mastered by fear like that. Her eyes burned with
unshed tears. She heard Belfan sigh heavily. When he spoke again, his voice was still cheerful,
though Paks thought she heard the effort behind it.
"Paks, don't think one time means anything. Some days back you couldn't take a single step alone.
Now you can walk around the wall. This is the same; this weakness can
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pass, just as the weakness of your legs passed. What frightened you most?"
But this she could not say. Noise, movement, speed, the sharpness of the lances, the memory of old
wounds and what that speed and sharpness could mean, in her own flesh—all these jumbled in her
mind, and left her speechless. She shook her head.
"Well, it came suddenly, all at once. Like a cavalry charge, and here you were unarmed: no
wonder." But to Paks his voice carried no conviction. "I daresay it will be better, when you begin
training with one weapon at a time. Your skills will be slow to return, perhaps, as you were slow
to walk, but they'll come back, and so will your confidence."
"And if it doesn't?" She spoke very low, but Belfan heard her.
"If not, then—something will come for you. Most of the world is not fighters, after all. If you'd
lost an arm or leg, you'd have to learn something else. This is not different. Besides, it hasn't
come to that yet."
Paks returned to hauk drill, in a beginning class: clumsy, as she now expected, in the first days.
When someone lost the grip, and a hauk flew through the air, she flinched, and tried to hide it.
Afraid of a hauk! She forced herself on, exercising early and late, and the strength and
coordination came back. But that only hastened sword drill.
When she first gripped a sword again, it felt odd in her hand. Marshal Cieri looked curiously at
her, and adjusted her grip. "Like this," he said. It felt no better. She looked down the length of
dangerous metal—for he had seen no reason to try her with a wooden practice blade—and tried not to
show her fear. The edges, the point, stood out in her eyes; she was afraid to move it lest she cut
her own leg. He faced her, and lifted his own sword. Paks stared at it, eyes widening. It seemed
to catch the sunlight and throw it at her in angled flashes that hurt her eyes. She blinked.
"Ready?" he asked.
Her mouth was dry; her reply came as a hoarse croak. He nodded and moved forward, lifting the tip
for the first drill movement. Paks froze, her eyes following the sword.
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She tried to force her own arm to move, to interpose her own blade, but she could not. She saw the
surprise on his face, the change to annoyance, and then some other emotion she could not read,
that terrified her with its withdrawal.
"Paks. Position one."
She struggled, managed to move her arm awkwardly. His blade touched hers, a light tap. She gasped,
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already shaking, eyes shut.
The next time, and the next, were no better. If anything, they were worse. Soon she feared anyone
bearing arms, even the Duke when he came to her room with his sword on his belt. As she felt
herself weaker and more fearful, she saw the Marshals and paladins and other students as stronger,
braver, more vigorous. Despite the Marshal-General's protection, she had heard enough to know that
many agreed with Haran. Their scorn sharpened her own.
At last even the Marshal-General admitted that she was not improving. "But as long as you want to
try, Paksenarrion—" she said, eyes clouded with worry.
"I can't." Paks could not meet her gaze.
"Enough, then. We hoped the contact would help, but it hasn't. Well see what else can be done for
you—"
"Nothing." Paks turned her head away, and stared at the pattern of the rug. Blue stars on red,
white stars on blue. "I don't want anything—"
"Paksenarrion, we are not abandoning you. It's not your fault, and well—"
"I can't stay here." The words and tears burst from her both at once. "I can't stay! If I can't be
one of you, let me gol"
The Marshal-General shook her head. "I don't want you to leave until you have some way of living,
some trade or craft. You're not well yet—"
"111 never be well." Paks hated the tremor in her voice. "I can't stay here, my lady, not with
real fighters." She would not, she told herself, tell the Marshal-General about
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the taunts she'd heard, the mocking whispers just loud enough to carry to her ears.
"Through the winter, then. Leave in spring, when the weather's better. You can study in the
archives—"
Paks shook her head stubbornly. "No. Please. Let me go now. To sit and read all day, read of
others fighting—I can't do that."
"But—Paks—what can you do? How will you live?"
Nor would she admit she didn't much care whether she lived. And she had thought of a reasonable
plan. "I came from a sheepfarm; I can herd."
"Are you sure? Herding's hard work, and—"
Paks drove the thought of wolves away—she would not be alone, on a winter range—and steadied her
voice. "I'm sure."
The Marshal-General sighed. "Well. Ill see. If we can find a place—"
Before she left, she had a last talk with the Duke. He showed none of the anger she had feared,
and no scorn; his voice was gentle.
"Take this ring," he said, tugging a black signet ring from his finger. "If ever you need help—any
kind of help—show this ring to anyone in the Company, or anyone who knows me, or send it. I will
come, Paksenarrion, wherever you are, whatever you need."
"My lord, I'm not worthy—"
"Child, you did not throw your gifts away. They were taken from you. For your service to me—for
that alone— you are worthy of my respect. Now put that ring on—yes. You must not fail to call,
Paks, if you need me. I will be thinking of you." He hugged her again, and turned to go. Then he
swung back. "To my thinking, Paks, you have shown great courage in consenting to risk its loss,
and in trying so hard to regain your skills. Whatever others call you, remember that Phelan of
Tsaia never called you coward." Then he was gone, and Paks turned the ring nervously on her
finger. It was loose, and she took it off and stuffed it in her belt pouch.
Two days later, the Marshal-General walked with her to
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the archway. "Remember, Paksenarrion: you will be welcome in any grange, at any time. I have
already sent word. Gird's grace is on you, and our good will follows you. If my parting gift is
not enough, you can ask more, freely." But Paks was determined not to spend that roll of coins,
wound in a sock in the midst of Her pack. "Right now you are unhappy, and reasonably so, with the
Fellowship of Gird—"
Paks shook her head. "Not so, my lady. Not with you. I think Marshal Haran had the right of it, in
part. My error let Achrya's evil in, and my weakness could not withstand what you had to do—"
The Marshal-General stopped and looked at her. "That's not true, and I've told you before. By
Gird's cudgel, I hate to let you go, thinking that. All paladin-candidates are vulnerable, and
anyone with less strength than you would have been taken over completely far sooner. You must
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me that if things get worse, you will come for help."
Paks looked away. She did not want to say what she thought, that more of such help as she'd had
would leave her bedbound as well as craven.
"My lady, I'd best go, to be in the market on time." Paks kept her eyes stubbornly on the ground.
The Marshal-General's sigh was gusty.
"Very well, Paks. You are sworn to Gird's Fellowship, and Gird the protector will guard your way.
All our prayers are with you. She turned back through the gate, and Paks walked on, determined not
to glance Dack.
Chapter Thirty
With that walk down to the market in Fin Panir, where she was to meet the shepherd who would hire
her, a pattern was set that continued all that hard winter.
"Eh, you took your time," grumbled Selim Habensson, when she found him talking with several other
sheepmen._ "Hated to leave the Lord's Hall, I suppose. Let's see—" He looked her over as if she
were a ewe up for sale. "The Marshal-General says you're fit, and you've handled sheep—is that
so?"
"Yes, sir. My father raised sheep."
"Good enough. Get in there and find me th' three-tit ewe w'the scarred hock and a double down-nick
offside ear." As Paks paused to look over the pen of sheep, trying to see a likely earmark, he
barked, "Get on, there—get in—I want to see you in with 'em."
Paks swung over the low railing, among the crowded sheep. She had not feared sheep since she had
been able to see over their backs, but the shoving of woolly backs and sides made her feel
strange. She saw one offside earmark, but it was a single notch. Most of this pen was nearside
marked. There—on the far side—was a double down-nick, offside. She pushed her way slowly through
the sheep, careful not to startle or disturb them. A quick look told her this was a normal ewe,
not hock-scarred; she looked again for the right earmark, and found it in a
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corner. A ewe, a three-tit, and scarred on the near hock. She looked up to see the shepherd just
outside the rail.
"Very welt—you do know somewhat about sheep. But you haven't worked 'em lately, I'll warrant."
"No, sir."
"I thought not. Those clothes belong in a shop, not on drive." He spat on the cobbles outside the
pen. "I hope to Gird you don't mind getting dirty."
"No, sir."
"All right. When market's over—another glass, say—-we'll be moving this pen and those two—" he
pointed "—out to a meadow for tonight. Tomorrow we start for the south. Follow us out—make sure
none of 'em stray in the city— and you'll be watching tonight."
Although bothered by the noise and bustle of the market, Paks had no trouble with the sheep on the
way out—to her own and the shepherd's surprise. The sheep settled well in their temporary grazing
ground, and Paks took up her assigned post on the far side while the other shepherds made camp and
cooked supper. She had not thought to bring anything for lunch, planning to buy it in the market,
so by evening she was hungry. When the first group had eaten, Selim called in the others to eat.
Paks was given a bowl of porridge and a hunk of bread. She ate quickly, hardly noticing the others
until she finished. Then she looked up to find them watching her.
"You eat like you thought there was more coming," commented Selim. She had, indeed, assumed there
was more. He turned to the others. "Been living in a city for a while, she has. Fine clothes.
Eating well. Listen, now: we're sheepfarmers, not rich merchants or fancy warriors. We work hard
for what we get; you'll get your fair share, but not a drop more. Understand?"
"Yes, sir." Paks nodded, and cleaned her bowl. She was remembering that when she first joined the
Duke's Company, the food had seemed rich and plenty—she had forgotten, in the years since, how her
family had lived, and how she had longed for bakers' treats on market days.
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"Good. You'll take first watch. Jenits, you relieve her at change. We'll start out at dawn."
In the next few days Paks became acquainted with hunger again. She felt cold and hunger as a force
that dragged on her legs, making her labor to keep up with the flock. When a sheep broke free, and
ran, she struggled to chase it, fighting a stitch in her side and leaden legs that would not
hurry, Selim scolded her about it.
"By Gird's cudgel, this is the last time I'll hire on the Marshal-General's word! I've a half-
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done better. She saw clearly that excuses would only make things worse. She ducked her head and
promised to work harder. And she tried. But Selim and die others never came to trust her, always
saw her as an outsider who had been forced on them by the Marshal-General. In addition, the wounds
she'd received from the iynisin began to swell and redden again. They had never faded much, but
now they looked and felt much as they had when she first came out in Kolobia. The shepherds looked
at the marks they could see and muttered.
So it was that when the flocks were safe in the winter pastures of southern Fintha, Selim turned
her away, and refused to hire her through the winter.
"I'm not saying as I think it, mind. The Marshal-General, I expect she'd know the truth of it, and
she said as how you was not to blame for any. But they all think you're cursed, somehow. Never saw
the like of those marks on your fece turning dark like that; it's not natural. We've plenty of
young ones in the village that need work can look after the sheep well enough. Here's your pay—"
It was not much; Paks did not count it. "And I'll wish you well."
It was a bitter morning, gray with a sharp wind. Paks shivered; she was, as always, hungry. "Is
there an inn, here, where—"
"No, not here." His voice was sharp. "We're not some rich town. On that way—" he pointed to a side
lane. "You could make Shaleford by tonight if you get a foot on it, or back the way we came." Paks
looked from one to the other, irresolute. "You won't make it shorter by thinking
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on it," he said, and turned back into his own house, shutting the door.
Paks put the coins he'd given her into her belt pouch, biting her lip. The way they had come was
north, into the wind, and the nearest town more than a day's travel. She took the lane to
Shaleford.
The lane dwindled to a track, and the track to a hardly visible trail that led up over a rise open
to the wind. All that day Paks fought the wind, leaning on its shaking shoulder. She had nothing
to eat, and nothing in the bare countryside offered shelter or sustenance. When she topped the
rise, she looked into a country already softened by coming night; behind her the sun fell behind
heavier cloud to a dull ending. She saw nothing that looked like a town, and wondered if the
shepherd had lied. But the miserable trail wound on, and she saw sheep droppings nearby. Sheep
meant people, she hoped, and kept on. At least it was downhill.
She was stumbling in the gathering darkness when she saw the first light ahead. Thinking of
warmth, food, being out of the everlasting wind, she missed her footing again, and fell flat,
jarring every bone. She lay sprawled, listening to die wind's howl, and wondering how far the
light was.
Shaleford had an inn, if a three-room hut with a lean-to kitchen could be called an inn. Paks
handed over most of her earnings for a pile of straw at one end of the common loft and a bowl of
soup. The other customers drank ale, heavily, and eyed her sideways. She paid another of her
coppers for a second helping of soup and some bread. She was tempted to spend one of the Marshal-
General's coins for a decent meal, but was afraid to show the others that she had anything worth
stealing.
The next day she found that no one in Shaleford had need for an extra hand over the winter. By the
time she'd asked for work every place she could think of, it was too late to make the next town by
nightfall. She could not stay another night at the inn without using some of her reserve. But
Shaleford had a grange—she'd seen it, first thing in the morning. She decided to see if they would
let her stay there.
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The Marshal, said the stocky yeoman-marshal, was out. He'd been to Highfallow barton for their
drill, and wouldn't be back until the next day. Yes, there'd been a recent message from Fin Panir,
but that was the Marshal's business, and he couldn't say what it was. If she had something from
the Marshal-General herself—Paks pulled out tiie safe-conduct, and the yeoman-marshal pored over
the seal. She realized suddenly that he could not read.
"A message for our Marshal? Is it urgent?"
"It's to any Marshal—about me." Paks felt herself redden under his gaze. His glance flicked to her
visible scars.
"You're a yeoman?"
"Yes—well—not precisely—"
^WeU, then, what?"
"I was at Fin Panir—"
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!!Yes'"
"And they sent you on a mission?"
Paks was torn between honesty and the likelihood that he would not understand what she really was.
"I don't think I can explain it to you," she said finally. "I need to speak to the Marshal, but
since he's not here—"
"Even if I went, he couldn't get back before tomorrow."
"No, I understand that. Can I wait for him here?"
"In the grange?" The yeoman-marshal's frown deepened. "Well-—I suppose. Come along." He led her
through the main room to a tiny sleeping chamber off a narrow back passage. "You can leave your
pack there, and come back in for the exchange."
Paks had forgotten that custom. In Fin Panir itself, the exchange of buffets whenever a visitor
came to the grange had been abandoned because of the number of visitors. But in outlying granges,
it was still usual, and the test of someone who claimed membership in the Fellowship of Gird. She
froze.
"I can't." Her voice was thin.
"What!"
"I can't. I—it's in this—" she waved the Marshal-General's letter.
"Hmph." His snort was clearly one of disbelief and scorn. ' I see you've been wounded recently—is
that it?"
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Paks nodded, taking the easy way out, as she thought.
"I'd think if you could travel at all you could exchange a few blows—but—" He shook his head. "You
hear all sorts of things from Fin Panir. All right, then. I'll just go put more meal in the pot."
Paks sank down on the narrow bed, frightened and discouraged. Was this the sort of welcome the
Marshal-General intended? But of course the Marshal was away. She could not take it to heart. She
got up with an effort and looked around for the jacks and the washroom. At least she could be
clean.
Her spare shirt smelled of sheep and smoke, but was, she thought, somewhat cleaner. The yeoman-
marshal gave her a pail of water and soap for the dirty clothes, and she came to supper feeling
more respectable then before. She had oiled her boots and belt, and the sheathe of her dagger. The
yeoman marshal was obviously making an effort to be friendly.
"So tell me—what's new in Fin Panir? Is the quest back from the for west yet? Did they really try
to find Luap's lost Stronghold, as we heard?"
"Yes, And found it, too." Paks told a little of the quest, hoping to stave off questions. Luckily,
the yeoman-marshal was tired, and when she had told what she thought would interest him, he was
yawning.
The next day, when the Marshal returned, he nodded when he heard her name. "Yes—Paksenarrion. I've
heard of you; the Marshal-General mentioned that you might come this way in her last letter. Where
are you bound next?"
"I—I'm not sure, sir."
"You could take a letter to Highgate, if you would. And I know there's traffic there—you might
find work on the roads."
"I'd be glad to." Paks found herself almost eager to go. This Marshal, at least, had no scorn for
her.
"If you stay a day, you'll be here for drill—oh, I know you can't bear arms, not at this time, but
surely you can tell the yeomen about Kolobia, can't you? They like to hear a good tale, and
finding Luap's Stronghold would interest any of them."
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Paks didn't want to face a crowd of strange yeomen, but she felt she couldn't refuse. She nodded
slowly. The rest of that day passed easily: she was warm and well-fed for the first time in days,
and she dozed most of the afternoon. The Marshal offered a mug of herb tea which he said might
ease the ache of her wounds, and it helped. But the next night, feeing the assembled yeomen, was
difficult. She had told them about the trip west, the fight with the nomads, the brigand attacks
in die canyons they crossed, but the closer she came to describing the iynisin attack, the worse
it got. The Marshal had said she ought not to mention her own capture—not that she wanted to—but
she could hardly talk of any of it. Finally she raced through it, skimping most of the action, and
went on to Luap's Stronghold. When she finished, they stamped their feet appreciatively. Then one
of them, a big man she'd seen in the inn, spoke up.
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"Any Girdsman is welcome in our grange,* said the Marshal sharply.
"Aye, I know that. But I saw her come in two days ago, cold as dead fish and smelling of sheep.
Hadn't eaten in days, the way she started on her food over there—" he jerked his head toward the
inn. "You know's well as I do, Marshal, that knights and paladins and such don't travel like that.
The way she talks she wasn't walking the wagons out to Kolobia—she talks like she fought alongside
that Amberion and that elf. So I just wonder why she's—" His voice trailed away, but his look was
eloquent. Paks saw others glance at him and nod.
"Yeomen of Gird," said the Marshal with emphasis. "It is not my tale to tell. I can tell you that
the Marshal-General has commended her to every grange—every grange, do you hear?—and to all the
Fellowship of Gird. I daresay she travels where she does, and as she does, by the will of the High
Lord and Gird his servant. I will not ask more— and you would be wise to heed me."
"Well," said the big man, undeflated, "if you ask me, she looks more like a runaway apprentice
than a warrior of Gird. No offense meant—" he said with a glance at Paks.
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"If so be I'm wrong, then—well—you know how to take satisfaction." With that he flexed his massive
arms, and grinned.
"You're wrong indeed, Arbad," said the Marshal. "And I'll take the satisfaction for your
discourtesy to a guest of the grange, on next drill night, or hear your apology now."
Evidently the Marshal's right arm was well respected, for Arbad rose and muttered an apology to
Paks. The meeting broke up shortly after that. A lew had come to speak to Paks, but most huddled
together in the corners, looking at her and speaking quietly to each other. The Marshal stayed
near her, stern and quiet.
At Highgate Paks delivered the Marshal's letter to the Highgate Marshal, and shared a hot meal at
the grange. He introduced her to a trader, in town on his way south and east, and Paks hired on as
common labor. The rest of that day she unloaded and loaded wagons, and harnessed the stolid draft-
oxen. With the other laborers, she slept under one of the wagons, and the next day they started on
the road.
Kens Sabensson, the trader, rode a round-bellied horse at the head of the wagons; he had a drover
for each wagon, five guards, and two common laborers. Paks was expected to do most of the camp-
work, load and unload the wagons at each stop, and help care for the animals. She found the work
within her strength, but was terrified of the guards, who tried to joke with her.
"Come on, Paks," said one of them one night when she jumped back from a playful thrust of his
sword. "With those scars you've got, you've been closer than this to a sword. You know I'm not
serious. Here—let's see what you can do." He tossed the sword to her. Paks threw out her hand, and
knocked it away; it fell to the ground. "Hey! Stupid, don't do that! You'll nick it!" He glared at
her.
"You can't tell me you haven't fought—what happened, lose your nerve?" Another one had her by the
arm.
"Let her alone, Cam—suppose you ended up—"
"Like her? Never. I'll be a captain someday, with my own troop. Who'd you fight with, Paks—tell
us."
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"Phelan," she muttered. She could not break free, and was afraid to try.
"What? I don't believe it." Cam dropped her arm. "You were in the Red Duke's Company? When?"
"A—a couple of years ago." They were all watching now, eyes bright in the firelight. She
swallowed, looking for a way out of their circle.
"What happened? Get thrown out?" Cam's grin faded as he watched her.
"No, I—" She looked into the fire.
"Tir's gut, Paks, you make a short tale long by breathing on it. What happened?"
"I left." She said that much, and her throat closed.
"You left." The senior, a lean dark man who claimed to have fought with the Tsaian royal guard,
confronted her. He looked her up and down. "Hmm. You don't get scars like that from not fighting,
and you're too old to have been thrown out as a recruit, and not old enough to be a veteran. But
you're scared, aren't you?"
Paks nodded, unable to speak.
"Is that why you left Phelan?" She shook her head. "When did you—no, those scars are too new.
Something happened—by the look of it, within the past few weeks. She closed her eyes to avoid his
gaze, but felt it through her skin. No one spoke; she could hear the flames sputtering against a
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"All right," he said finally. She opened her eyes; he had turned, and faced the others. "I think
she's told the truth; no one lies about serving with Phelan and lives long to tell it. She's got
the marks of a warrior; something's broken her. I wouldn't want to carry that collection myself.
Let her alone."
"But, Jori—"
"Let her alone, Cam. She has enough to live with. Don't add to it." With that he led them away to
one side of the fire. Paks went on with her work but spent most of that night awake. She began to
realize that she could not pass as a laborer; her scars would always betray her past. People she
met would expect things—things she no longer had—and each meeting would be like this.
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Two days later, a band of brigands struck the wagons. They were deep in a belt of forest, where
the guards could not see far, and they had dragged Keris Sabensson from His horse and cut the
traces of the first team before the guards got into action. The drovers reacted quickly, defending
their teams and wagons with the long staves they carried; the other laborer ran forward and caught
Sabensson's horse. Paks froze where she was, terrified. She could not move, could not help or run.
And when the fight was over, and the trader, head bandaged, was settled in the first wagon, he
fired her.
"I'm not having any damned fools here," he said angrily. "Stupid, cowardly—by all the gods I'd
rather have a drunken swineherd to depend on. Get outl Take your pay—not that you've earned it!"
He threw a few coins out of the wagon; one hit Paks in the face. "Go on—move!" He poked the
drover, who prodded the oxen into motion. Paks stepped back, ignoring the coins at her feet. On
the second wagon Cam smirked at her, but she hardly noticed. She stared blankly ahead as one wagon
after another passed her, and the oxen blew clouds of steam.
At the last, Jori, now riding the trader's horse, stopped. "Paks, here." He handed her a small
leather bag. "It isn't much--^what we—I mean—" He touched her head. "I know what kind of soldiers
Phelan has. You be careful, hear?"
She stood a long time in the track, holding die bag, until she finally thought to tuck it into her
belt and start walking.
At the next town, they had heard of her from the trader, still angry. She trudged past the grange
without looking at it, and went on, going the way that the trader had not gone. She had not dared
enter an inn, but had bought bread from a baker. At the town beyond that, after a night spent in a
ruined barn, she found work in a large inn.
"Not inside," said the innkeeper after a look at her face. "No. You won't do inside. But if you're
not afraid of work, I can use someone in the yard. Haul dung, feed, clean stalls—you can do that?"
Paks nodded. 'Sleep in the shed—in the barn if it's not full. You get board and a copper crown a
week." Paks thought dully that she must
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be back in Tsaia—Finthan coins were crescents and bits, not crowns. "Can you work with big
horses?" She shook her head, remembering the disaster in Fin Panir when she had been unable to
groom Socks, let alone ride him. Somehow her fear transmitted itself to horses, and made them
skittish. "Too bad; it's a chance for tips. Well, then, stay out of the way. The grooms'll be glad
to have the dirty work taken off them."
So they were. Paks hauled dung from the bams twice a day, pitched straw, bedded stalls, carried
feed. Work began before daylight, and continued as late as the last person came to the inn. The
shed she slept in was by the kitchen door, and half-full of firewood; it backed on the great
fireplace, and she thought she could feel a little warmth in the stones, but that was all. She had
no place to wash, and no reason to—the innkeeper was clearly surprised when she asked. She did not
mention it again. As for board, the innkeeper was more generous than many: bread, soup, and
porridge, and a chance at the scraps. Not that much was left after the kitchen help, indoor help,
and the rest of the stable help took their share. She hid her own pack behind the firewood, and
half-forgot it was there or what was in it.
She noticed that her scars from Kolobia had begun to fade again, as mysteriously as they darkened.
This time, however, the pain did not fade with the color. It continued as a bitter bone-deep ache
that sapped her strength. She did not think about it; she didn't think of anything much, but
whether she could lift another shovel-full. Winter's grip strengthened; even within the courtyard
there were days when the wind blew snow into a white mass that made it hard to breathe. She wore
all her clothes, and still woke stiff in the mornings. Trade slowed, in the bitter cold, and the
innkeeper told her she could sleep in the barn, now half-empty. It was warmer there, burrowing in
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She hoped to stay there all winter, but one night two drunken thieves drove her away. It began
when they arrived and handed their mule's lead-rope to one of the grooms. The tall one caught
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other. She saw this, and ducked behind a partition, but heard their comments. Late that night,
they came out to the bam, "to look at our mule," as they said. The grooms were gone; one to the
kitchen, where he had a lover, and one to a tavern down the street. Pafcs had gone to sleep in a
far stall, carefully away from the mule. They found her.
"Well, well—here's a pretty lass. Hello, yellow-hair— like a little present?" She woke to find
them standing over her. The tall one whirled something shiny on a ribbon; the other one carried a
branched candlestick with two candles. She looked around wildly. She was trapped in a corner
stall; they stood in the door, chuckling. She scrambled up, backing away from them.
"By Simyits, I think she's scared. Surely you aren't a virgin, sweetling—why so Brightened?" The
shorter man came nearer. "Kevis, are you sure of her? It's easy to tell she works in the stables."
"Oh, I think so. It's the ugly ones and poor ones that appreciate presents. See this, sweetheart?
It's a nice shiny ring. All for you, if you just—"
Paks jumped for the gap that had opened between them, trying to scream. As in a dream, little
sound came out; the tall man grunted as she bumped into him, and grabbed her. His hand clamped
over her mouth. "Now that's not nice, pretty lass—behave yourself." She struggled wildly, but the
other man had set the candlestick on the stall partition grabbed her as well. "Quiet down, girl;
you're not going anywh— Damn you, you stinking—" Paks had managed to get a finger between her
teeth, but his other hand gripped her throat. She choked; the shorter man twisted her arms behind
her.
"What, Cal?"
"She bit me, the stupid slut." Paks heard this through the roaring of her ears as he kept the
pressure on her throat. "If we didn't need her, I'd-—"
"Let up, Cal. I've got her." The tall man gave a final squeeze, and loosed her throat. Paks gasped
for air; it seemed to scrape her throat as it went in. She could not stand upright with the
pressure on her arms. The shorter
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man increased it, and forced her to her knees. The tall man bent near her; she could smell the ale
on his breath.
"Listen to me, sweetheart—you're going to help us, and you're going to give us a good time. If you
do it right, you'll get a little reward out of it—maybe this ring. If you act stupid, like you
just did, you'll die hurting. Now—do you understand?"
Paks could not speak for terror and pain. She was shaking all over, and tears sprang from her
eyes.
"I asked you a question.' A knife had appeared in the tall man's hand; it pricked her throat. Paks
heard herself moan, a terrible sound that she did not know she could make.
"Simyits save us all," muttered the shorter man, behind her. "It's no wonder they have this one in
the stable. No wits at all."
"No wits, the better lay."
"Kevis—"
"Well, Cal, you know the saying. It tames wild mares and witches. Why not a stable hand?"
"What about time?"
"So how long does it take?"
"You may be right." Paks heard the grin in the voice behind her, and saw the man in front rumble
with his trousers.
;;m go first."
"Greedy—you always go first." The man behind her let go her arms, and Paks fell face-down in the
straw. She rolled away, trying to escape, but they caught her. The tall man backhanded her across
the face, knocking her into the back of the stall.
"That's for the bite, slut. Now don't cause trouble." He grabbed her shirt, and ripped it open.
"What a beauty!" His voice was cold. "Where a you get those scars—somebody whip you once?"
"More than once," said the other one. "By the dark goddess, I never saw anything like that outside
of Liart's temples in Aarenis. Kevis—"
"Don't bother me, Cal." The tall man rugged at her belt. "I'm busy."
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"Kevis, wait. If this is Liart's bait—"
"Cal, I don't care if it's the crown princess of Tsaia—"
"But Kevis—" The shorter man pulled at his companion's arm. "Listen to me. I know what I
mean—Liart won't like it if that's one of his."
"Liart can go—" He had broken the belt, and forced his hands between her thighs. Paks tried to
struggle, but he had her wedged against the wall where she could not move.
"Don't say that!" The shorter man used enough force to pull the other's arm away. "Kevis, it's
serious. Liart is a jealous god; he'll loll—and I know how he kills—"
"Don't bother me!" The taller man turned away from Paks and pulled his knife. "Hells blast you,
Cal, you're as craven as she is. Get back—"
"No! I'm not having any part of this if she's Liart's-^-"
"Then go away. Don't—I don't care—but don't—" He swayed a little on his feet, and the shorter man
took his chance to pull him away from Paks. She watched through a fog of fear as they began to
fight. They stumbled into her and away; she took stray blows and lacks, feeling each of them as a
shattering force that left her still less will to move, to escape. Finally they staggered into die
partition, and knocked over the candlestick. Light flared up from the neighboring stall; the man
stopped short, staring.
"Hells below! See what you ve done?" The shorter man, breathing heavily, glowered at the other.
"Me! It was you, pighead! Come on—run for it!"
"What about her?'
"Leave the stupid slut." Paks heard their feet on the passage floor, heard the crackling flames hi
the next stall. She could not move, she felt; her body was a mass of pain. She heard more yelling,
and more, in the distance, but was hardly aware when someone grabbed her legs and dragged her out
of the burning barn. By the time she had realized what had happened, she was already being blamed
for it.
"I let you sleep there, out of the kindness of my heart, and what do you do? You not only whore
around in the stalls, but you take candles—candles, open flames, Gird
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blast you!—into the stable and start a fire! If it hadn't been for Arvid coming back in, we'd have
lost five horses. We did lose all that hay. He should have left you there."
"It wasn't—I didn't—" Paks could hardly speak, with her bruised throat, but she tried to defend
herself. "They— they tried to rape me."
The innkeeper snorted. "I don't believe that! No one would pick you—gods above, I have comely
girls in the house they'd likelier try. You've been using my barn—my barn!—for your tricks. Now
get out! Where do you think you're going?"
"My pack—" said Paks faintly.
"I ought to take it for the damage you've done. All right, take the damn thing—it's probably full
of lice anyway, dirty as you are." He hit her hard as she tried to leave, and drove her out of the
gates with another blow and a lack. She fell heavily into the street, but managed to clamber up as
he came toward her, and limped away.
It was dark and bitter cold. She followed the street by touching the walls along it, stumbling
into them, choking down sobs. She felt as if a great vise were squeezing her body, twisting it to
shapes of pain she had never imagined. When she thought of the past—of last winter—it seemed to
recede, racing away into a distance she could never span. A last little bright image of herself at
Fin Panir, happy and secure, gleamed for moment in her mind and disappeared. She stopped,
confused. She had no wall to touch, and all around was a howling dark, cold and windy. It was one
with the void inside.
Chapter Thirty-one
Marshal-General Arianya
High Lord's Hall
Fin Panir
To att Marshals of Gird, Greetings:
In the matter of Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter, recently a member of Gird's Company here, I request
the courtesy and charity of your grange. Paksenarrion was a member of Gird's quest to the
Stronghold of Luap; without her defense the quest would have failed more than once. Through the
malice of Achrya, she has been left unfit for battle, and has chosen to work her way in the world
rather than accept grange gift, which she was offered freely. Marshals, this is not weakness; she
was assailed with such power as even you or I might fall before. Give her any aid she needs;
report any contact to me in Fin Panir for reimbursement; defend her as you can against malice and
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she has no taint of evil herself, and Gird's grace is on her.
She is tall, yellow-haired, and gray-eyed, and has many fighter's scars, including some that look
recent, still inflamed. She carries a safe-conduct from me, but I fear she may be too shy to
present it. Look for her. She is under our protection.
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Marshal Kens
Shalefbrd Grange
To Marshal-General Arianya, Greetings:
As you requested, I am writing to report that Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter has been here. I was
away when she came, but yeoman-marshal Edsen took her in overnight. She seemed in good health; she
seems to me a pleasant young woman, very willing to please, though not steady of nerve. She spoke
to our yeomen about the quest to Kolobia, which they had not heard. I sent her with a message to
old Leward at Highgate Grange; I know there is much traffic along the way there, even in winter,
and thought she might find work; No one is hiring here.
I must say that with the little you wrote, it's hard to explain her to the yeomen here. Even Edsen
wondered about her. Perhaps in more traveled areas, they'll be more understanding. If I understood
you correctly, she has had her mind damaged by a demon—right?
It looks like another hard winter; I'm having trouble getting all the grange-gift without cutting
the farmers too short. I'm sending the rolls; note that Sim Simisson died, and his widow has
remarried into Hangman's barton. Their farm was split between the three boys, but Jori and Ansuti
have moved away, and young Sim is farming it all. Gird's grace to you.
Leward of Highgate Grange To Marshal-General Arianya Greetings, Arnel
Did you hear that old Adgan finally died? Kori Jenitson told me a few weeks ago, when he rode by
this way. I told him to write you, or send word from VeYella,
Kens sent that Paksenarrion Dorthansdotter to me. What is the Fellowship coming to, after all? I
know, I know. You had your reasons. But such things should happen to those of us with years enough
to know better. She's nought but a young sprout, I don't care how many years she fought with
Phelan. By the way, someone told me he'd been to Fin Panir. Is that true? Is he coming back to the
Fellowship?
Anyway, I found the girl a place with a trader I know.
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She looks strong enough, though much disfigured with those scars. Loading wagons should put a
little muscle on her—then maybe she won't find swords so frightening. Kens, the trader, promised
to keep her on all the way to the south if she earns her keep. Can't see any reason why she won't.
She's certainly polite and better-educated than most. If she weren't scarred as she is, I'd be
tempted to find a husband for her.
Remember me at Midwinter Feast. I will roast a pig in the honor of Luap's Stronghold.
Sulinarrion
Marshal of Seameadow Grange
To Marshal-General Arianya, Greetings:
Arne, I have sad news about your stray. Keris, a small trader, came storming in to complain of
her. Leward of Highgate had placed her with him as a laborer, and according to Keris, she ran
away, or fainted or something when bandits attacked his wagons. I know Keris of old; we see him in
grange-court every few years when he either complains of short weight or gives it. He's a hasty,
hot-tempered man who will cling to a mistaken idea until the nomads build walls. Anyway, he says
he fired her on the spot—somewhere in the woods of Lowfallow, if I can tell by his tirade—and left
her there. According to him, she was unwounded, and the bandits were all dead, so perhaps she has
made it somewhere else. I asked to talk to his guards, and the senior, a Falkian named Jori, from
Marrakai's domain, told me that she had simply frozen, neither attacking the bandits nor defending
herself. He said some of the guards made up a small sum for her, and he gave it to her. He felt
bad about it, he said, but he couldn't leave the wagons. I think it's the best we could hope for.
I've told my yeoman-marshals and my yeomen to keep looking for her, but no one has turned up yet
(though they did find a tall blonde thief we've seen before; she's enjoying our hospitality in a
different way, awaiting the Duke's Court). I told Keris what I thought of him, but it didn't do
much good. He's so used to covering fear with bluster that he doesn't want to admit anyone can't.
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eastern bartons, and the grange-lands themselves, and can help those west of us who are short.
I've heard that some granges can't make their Hall share; you can see from our rolls that we can
help out. I hope to come in sometime next spring—do you still have that dappled gray? I'll make an
offer you can't refuse.
Sulinarrion
Marshal of Seameadow Grange
To Leward of Highgate Grange
Greetings.
Leward, why on earth did you place Paksenarrion with Keris? You must know what sort of rough clod
he is! He came ramping in here complaining of her cowardice, and the dishonesty of Girdsmen, until
I nearly hit him on the bead to shut him up. Didn't you warn him that she couldn't fight? He fired
her after a bandit group attacked the wagons and she didn't defend them. Of course she didn t
defend them. I know plenty of men—some of them, unfortunately, yeomen—who would run like rabbits
in an unexpected attack. When I finally got the whole story out of one of his guards, it turns out
Keris himself simply fell off his horse and bellowed the whole time. Now she s disappeared, and
Gird alone knows what's happened to her. Next time you need something handled with delicacy, don't
go to Keris.
Sim Arisson,
Marshal of Lowfallow Grange
To the Marshal-General of Gird
Greetings:
In accordance with your request for information about the whereabouts and welfare of Paksenarrion
Dorthansdotter, I am writing you a full report of recent events in this area.
Several weeks ago, I was touring die bartons and was not in Lowfallow for some days. When I
returned, the innkeeper of the largest inn called me to attend one of his grooms, who had been
badly burned in a barn fire. The
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short of it is that the innkeeper blamed one of the stablehands for the fire, and claimed she had
been in league with two thieves, who had robbed the inn on the night of the fire. I think this
person was Paksenarrion, from the description and name given by the innkeeper. Apparently she
sought work there a few weeks before the fire, giving her name but no reference to the grange. She
worked well, according to Jessim (the innkeeper), and slept in a shed near the kitchen. A few days
before the fire he had said she and another stablehand might sleep in the barn, trade being slow.
When the fire broke out, the groom discovered her in the barn, with her clothes as much off as on.
He could see a candlestick in the midst of the fire. Jessim assumed she'd been whoring, and either
set the fire as a distraction for the thieves or made it carelessly. Jessim drove her out that
night, being angry, as he said. No one saw her leave town; it was bitter cold and windy, and most
were fighting the fire. The next day he reported her description (but not her name, which he had
forgotten until I questioned him) to the Duke's militia, as an accomplice of the thieves.
After I spoke to him, he withdrew the charge, and I have cleared her name with the militia, though
I have asked them to look for her, and let me know if they find her. I asked the grange here, and
none of the yeomen knew her, or remembered having seen her. I swear to you, Marshal-General, that
she did not come to my grange for aid; I would have given it gladly. We found no sign of her in
Lowfellow or in the farmland around. You will understand that it took some time to look, for I was
afraid she might have been hurt in the fire and unable to travel. I had my yeomen look in every
ditch and bramble. We were heartened to find no body, but we did not find her.
I delayed writing you because I hoped to have more certain news. Jessim promised to ask any
travelers that came in, and I nave spread the word to the distant bartons of my grange. Two days
ago, one of my yeomen from Fox Barton reported a stranger living with an old widow in an outlying
cottage. By the time we rode there, she was gone, but I am sure it was Paksenarrion.
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The old women is not a Girdsman, but has a name for honesty and hard work. She is a widow (her
husband died of fever; he was a woodsman) and supports herself and a crippled daughter with
weaving and spinning. At first she did not want to talk about it, but after we convinced her we
meant Paksenarrion no harm, she told her tale. It seems that Paksenarrion appeared one morning
(she could not be sure of the date, but that it was a clear day after a cloudy one) in her shed.
She described her as nearly frozen, half-naked, and hurt. Apparently one leg was injured, for the
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mended her clothes, and fed her, though that was hard—which I could well believe, looking around.
They found Paksenarrion to be, in their words, "gentle—she never said a rough word—" and she seems
to nave helped them by fetching water, finding wood and breaking it up, and so on. They said she
offered to pay for her keep, but the old woman could not use her Finthan coins without walking
into Lowfellow to change them—which was too far, she said, in winter. I suppose that means she
still has the money you gave her in Fin Panir.
They had hoped she would stay, as she seemed strong to them, but she was unable to spin or weave,
though apparently she tried to learn. Without extra help, they could not earn enough to keep
three. Paksenarrion decided to leave, although they protested, and she insisted they keep a few
Finthan coins. The old woman asked me if I could change one for her in Lowfellow. I told her to
keep it that die grange would aid to those who helped Girdsmen. I find that Fox Barton was already
providing meat from tune to tune, but have put these women on the grange rolls. They need someone
young and strong to board with them, and learn care of the daughter, who will never walk; we are
working on that. In die meantime, I have sent supplies, and an order from the grange for two rugs
a year. With your permission, I will name them on the Year Roll. They are not Girdish, but we owe
them that.
Anyway, that's all I could find of Paksenarrion. Before I could extend the search, we had a thaw
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road a quagmire. I have written neighboring granges, but it seems clear that she is avoiding
granges. From the descriptions given by the women and by the innkeeper, I doubt that she will be
recognized as anything but a vagrant. However, we will keep watch, and report anything we find.
I know you will be disappointed in this report. I think it hopeful that she is clearly still able
to serve others weaker than herself. Perhaps some day Gird and the High Lord can restore her trust
in the Fellowship and in herself.
Seklis, High Marshal Marshal-General Arianya Greetings:
While traveling from Valdaire to Ve"rella, I met a party on the road who spoke of an ex-Girdish
warrior named Paksenarrion. When I reached VeYella, your waiting letter mentioned such a one. My
news is meager indeed. At the time I was with the traders, I did not know of your interest, and
did not question them as I might have. They said something about meeting an unusual sight—a
Girdsman afraid of her own shadow, of barking dogs and horses. One of them said she'd been cursed
that way, and gave it as proof that she was lapsed from the Fellowship. I do not recall where they
said they had seen her, or where she was going—if they even said—but I report this because of your
interest.
More important, I believe, is the continued conflict in Aarenis between the Guild League cities
and the old nobility; trade is completely disrupted, and famine this year has been widespread. . .
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Thus ends Book II of The Deed of Paksenarrion. Book III, Oath of Gold, unH be published in January
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