Part I The Planet of Eternal Light I In toward Galactic Center, the myth implies, there is a star so hot it is a mere (lot in the sky of that planet where the God of Darkness and the Lady of Light live- Just as this sun has only one planet, so is there only one God, the God of Darkness. In fact, stars that hot, FO or hotter, don't have planets. And if they did, the star wouldn't last long enough to allow planetary development of a terrestrial environment. Even if such a god existed and if he could build a planet from scratch, why would he be humanoid or interested in humanity? —Lectures on Pan-Humanoid Myths Prester Smythe Kinsel University of New Augusta 1211 A.O.E. II The young woman sits on the edge of the ornate bed where she is being watched. “Everyone watches the Duke's daughter,” she says in a low voice. Even the Duke's security force. More since the accident, she suspects. She cannot remember much of what she knows she should know. The Duchess was solicitous, and her father the Duke growled. Yet he cares. She frowns and leans forward, letting her long black hair flood over the shoulders of her pale blue travel suit. Why should her memories be so cloudy? She can remember everything since she returned so clearly, but the people around her, the rooms, they all have a clarity that the past does not have. Yet she belongs. The well-thumbed holobook in her father's study shows images of her growing up, standing at her father's knee, holding his hand. Perhaps her studies at the Institute will help. Perhaps time will remove the awkwardness of relearning her past. Perhaps... “Back into the fishbulb,” she says out loud, crossing the room that would have held five of the single sleeping room she had occupied at Lady Persis'. Somehow, the long row of garments hanging in the wardrobing room does not surprise her, although she has not remembered them. She walks through the wardrobe to the tiles and direct light of the bath. Neither does she remember its luxury. Half shrugging, she catches sight of herself in one of the full-length mirrors. “Disheveled,” she observes, looking at her hair. Something is right about it, for the first time in a long while, and something is not, nagging feelings she cannot place. She squints until her eyes close. She opens them again. Her reflection awaits her. III “I don't understand, Martin. You're not registered ...” Not registered . . . a Query on your name . . , blocked even from the Duke's code , . . Kryn's words are clipped, and even without the underlying concern he can sense, Martin knows of her unrest from the shortened speech. The courtyard, the one where they always meet, is chill, as chill as the weather controls ever allow on the Planet of the Prince Regent of the Empire of Man. The little winds shuffle the small needles from the miniature cone-pines back and forth along the interior walls. No shadows, for the overcast is heavy enough to block the winter sun, and the climatizers have not succeeded in dispersing the clouds. Kryn shivers, and the blue-clad guard involuntarily steps forward out of the corner, then back into the columns. Always the guards. Martin reflects, always the trappings of power. His eyes flicker over the communit bracelet that links her into the Regency data system, the blue leather overtunic that costs more than his total tuition, the sunpearls on her ring fingers. He clears his throat. “It's not that simple, Kryn.” Not simple at all. He cannot register for further grad study, not with the Query stamped against his name. No reason is given, and the junior registrar with whom he'd managed to get a face-to-face appointment had not known anything ..,. nothing except a few vague thought fragments unvoiced to Martin. . . . has to be dangerous . . . deadly . . . not even Darin will meet him . . . why me? , . . Darin's ex'Marine . . . afraid of a student . . . why me? “The real reason?” Martin had pressed. “Imperial Security, Citizen MarteL That is all the University is told.” Her smooth dark brow and open thoughts had revealed nothing else, even when he had probed deeply. And no one wanted to talk to him. That had been it. Someone, somehow, had fed the results of the damned paracomm tests to Imperial Security, and he was out of grad school and on his way to the mines or the Marines . . - the only employment open to someone who was Queried. “Why not?” snaps Kryn, her cold words bringing him back from his thoughts into the chill of the Commannex courtyard. “Because I can't get a job, any job, on Karnak. With no credits, I can't free-lance. If I could, no one could hire my services. So it's either off Kamak, or the Marines and off Kamak shortly. That's the choice.” “There has to be another one.' Her voice is matter-of-fact. So are her feelings, Martin can tell and she is as calm as her mother, the Iron Duchess, in telling a subject he is mistaken. Kryn will be Duchess, or more, Martin knows. “If you could be so kind. Lady Kryn Kirsten, as to suggest another alternative for your obedient subject, Martin Martel, I would be most deeply obliged. Particularly since my student status will be terminated rather shortly.” “How soon?” “Tomorrow ... today ... perhaps three days. The term is over, and the minimum guarantees of the Regency toward a Free Scholar have been met.” He looks down at the flat white of the marble pavement, then lifts his eyes to watch the dust devil in the far corner scatter a small heap of cone needles. The sunlight floods abruptly into the courtyard. “The climatizers succeed again,” the ex-Scholar remarks, “bringing light into darkness, except for a few of us.” “Martin!” He realizes that she wants to stamp her foot but refrains because the action would be unladylike. He chuckles, and the low sound eddies through the columns. The guard in the shadows, now that there are shadows with the full winter sunlight beaming down, edges forward. “What will you do?” Her question comes almost as a dismissal, an acceptance. “I don't look forward to spending five years in the ore mines . . . and I don't have the heroic build of the successful Imperial Marine. So I'm somewhat limited.” “You aren't answering the question.” “I know. You don't want to hear the answer.” “You could leave the Empire . ..” “I could. If I had the creds for passage. But no one can hire me to pay my way, except an outsider, and outsiders aren't allowed to downport here. And I don't have passage to the orbitport.” “I could help.” “I've already made arrangements.” “You didn't!” 'The Brotherhood is looking for comm specialists, so . . .” “But”—her voice sharpens—”that's treason.” “Not unless the Regent changes the law.” He ought to. Brotherhood is nothing but trouble. “Perhaps he will,” Martin supplies the follow-on to her thought. “But they do pay, and will clear me from Imperial space, if necessary.” “Why?” “Because, Lady Kryn Kirsten,” Martin answers the ques' tion she meant, “I came off the dole, and I will not spend five years at slave labor in the hope that a black mark will be lifted from my name.” “May be Da—, the Duke, I mean, could take care of that.” Martin refrains from trying to read her thoughts. “I doubt that even the Duke could remove the Prince Regent's Query. And why would he? For a penniless scholar who's attracted to the very daughter he's planning to marry into the Royal Family?” “Martin Martel! That's totally uncalled for.” How did he know? Never said . . . paracomm? “Realistic,” he says in a clipped tone, trying to allay her suspicions. “Duke of Kirsten holds the most powerful House on Kamak next to the Regent. What else?” So obvious, so obvious even to poor sweet Martin. He cannot keep the wince from his face. “Martin ... what, how do you know?” He reads thoughts, I know he does. How long? What does he really know? “Nothing that the gossip tabs haven't already spread. Nothing every student in the Commannex hasn't speculated.” Sweat, dampness, runs down Martin's back, with the perception that the guard is drawing his stunner, edging the setting beyond the stun range toward lethal. Martin concentrates on the energy flows in the stunner, puzzling how to divert them, to distract Kryn from her iron-cold purpose, to just leave without raising any more fear and suspicion. Aware of his sleeve wiping perspiration off his forehead, strange itself in the courtyard chill, he stammers. “Nothing . . , nothing more to be said. Lady Kryn, time to depart . . . fulfill my contract to the Brotherhood . , , and then if you hear of a newsie named Martel on a far planet ... think about corel” No .., no! Treason? Corel. Romance and flowers to the last. But a Duchess is as a Duchess does. Her hands touch the Stud on her wide belt, the stud that screams “emergency” to the guard. The tight-faced man in blue aims the stunner. Zinnnng! The strum of the weapon fills the courtyard. “I wish you hadn't, Kryn. Wish you hadn't,” mumbles Martin, knowing that he has bent the focus of the beam around him, knowing that such is impossible. The guard knows it also, looks stupidly down at the stunner, then raises it again, only to find that the blackclad student has disappeared, and that tears stream down the cheeks of the Lady Kryn Kirsten. Along the courtyard wall, behind the black marble bench, lit by the slanting ray of the afternoon sun, the dust devil restacks the pile of cone needles. IV Aurore No shadows has the noon; no darkness has the night, And no man wears a shade in that eternal light. The night has not a star; the sky has not a sun, Nor is there dusk nor dawn to which a man can nm. No breakers crash at night, nor fall on sand unlit. No lightning flares the dark where coming years might fit. No dawn will break like thunder; no eve will crash like surf, No shadows seep from tombs to mark its golden turf. And if that's so, then why does darkness stalk the sky, And only one god cast a shade to those who die, And only one god cast a shade for those who die? v The overhead is pale yellow. The color is the first thing he notices. That, and that he is on his back, stretched out on a railed bed of some sort. The second observation is that he wears a loose yellow robe, nothing more, that is hitched up close to his knees. There is no pillow, no sheeting, just a yielding surface on which he lies. He lifts his head, which aches with the pain he associates with stunners. Kryn's guard had missed, but not Boreas. “You'd think you'd learn, Martin,” he mutters. You'd think you'd learn, Martel He scans the room. No one else is present. The portal is shut. A single red light on the panel next to the portal is lit. The unlit light, he presumes, is green. The railing lowers with the touch of a lever, and Martin swings his legs over the edge and eases himself into a sitting position. Rubbing his forehead with his left hand, he continues the survey of his quarters. “Wonder if I'm being monitored.” Wonder if I'm being monitored. Besides the bed, there are two chairs, a low table rising out of the flooring between them, a higher bedside table, an opaqued window screen, and a closet. The sliding doors of the wardrobe/closet are half open, and Martin can see that his few belongings have been laid out on the shelves or hung up. The travelbag is folded flat on the top shelf, ' He shakes his head, winces at the additional pain the movement generates, and studies the room silently. No speakers, no inconsistencies in the walls that could conceal something. As he lowers himself to the floor the room wavers in front of his eyes. “Not again!” He recalls the paratest that led to his confinement, that test which seems so distant, even though just days past. Not again! The echo pounds into his skull. Slow step by slow step, he covers the meter or so from his bed to the wardrobe, putting each foot down carefully, unsure of his perceptions and his footing. By the time he puts out a hand to lean on the wall edge of the wardrobe, he is dripping sweat. He shivers. The robe, which had felt almost silky when he awoke, grits against his skin like sandpaper. Martin fingers the cuff, but the material still feels smooth to his fingertips. He shivers again, but ignores the chill to concentrate on the personal belongings laid out on the chest-level recessed wardrobe shelf. Two items leap to his eye. The first is the solidio cube of Kryn, which glows with a new inner light. The second is the Regent's Scholar belt clasp. Before, it had been a dull maroon. Now it glowers at him with a crimson malevolence. One hand against the wall, stilt propping himself up, the former scholar and present fugitive/prisoner checks the garments. The robes provided by the Brotherhood have all been replaced with simple pale yellow tunics and trousers, three sets, and two new pairs of soft brown formboots lie on the floor. After wiping his forehead with the back of his cuff, still looking silky and feeling gritty, he checks through the underclothes and folded personal items. Most are missing . . . anything that might have linked him to the Brotherhood or to his time as a Regent's Scholar, “But why leave the clasp?” But why leave the clasp? . . . leave the clasp . . . . . . leave the clasp . . . The room twists upside down, then right-side up, then upside down. Martin closes his eyes. The brochure he'd been studying before Boreas had stunned him had mentioned disorientation. But this wasn't disorientation. It verges on torture. He opens his right eye. The room is right-side up. He opens his left eye, and the room jumps to the left and stays in the same place, all at once, so that Martin sees doubled images. He concentrates on fixing the images into one, just that, keeping his visions of things firmly in place. The images merge. The sweat streams from his forehead again. Suddenly the floor looms in front of his face, and pain like fire screams from his nose. And darkness ... The overhead is still pale yellow, and his head still aches. So do his nose and a spot on his forearm. Again he is flat on his back on that same pallet, in the same hospital, if that is what it is. “Flame!” he mutters without moving his head. Flame! He closes his eyes and tries to think. He must be on Aurore. So why is it so painful? Aurore is a vacation spot, a wonderful place to visit, where sensuality has its social delights and where some people gain extra powers. So why is one Martin Martel having such difficulty? Too aware! The idea flashes into his thoughts. For whatever reason, his body is more sensitive to the environment. Eyes still closed, he begins to let his thoughts, his perceptions, check out his body, starting with his toes, trying somehow to dampen the ultrasensitivity, to dull that edge, to convince himself that such perceptions should be voluntary, not involuntary. He can feel the sweat again pour down his forehead, scented with fear, fear that he will not be able to regain control of his own body. Others do it, he thinks, suppressing the urge to talk aloud. The headache and the soreness in his nose and neck retreat-Martin opens his eyes. The room is a shade darker now, and yet the light levels from the walls have not changed, he realizes. He lifts his head slowly, turns on his side, and fingers the rail release. After a time, he again sits up, legs dangling over the edge of the bed, heels touching the cold metal of the lowered rail. He wills his vision to lighten the room. Nothing havens, He relaxes the iron control on his perceptions, The room wavers; his back itches; the soreness across the bridge of his nose throbs, the light intensifies. Martin clamps down on his control. Not a matter of will, but of control. Of perception. He experiments, trying to isolate one sense after another, until the room begins to waver. He lies down, lets himself drift into a sweating sleep. He dreams. Knows he dreams. He is on a narrow path, except there are no edges, no walls, and the path arcs through golden skies. In front of him is Kryn. Her golden eyes are cold, and her mouth is tight-lipped. Martin does not care, and yet he does. He takes a step toward Kryn, and another one. With each step he takes, she is farther away, though she has not moved. Soon he is running toward her, and she dwindles into the distance.... He sleeps and, presently, dreams. Again. Martin watches a mountain spire, covered with ice, which thrusts up from a floor of fleece-white clouds. A part of his mind insists that he watches a meteorological impossibility, but he watches. In the thin air above the peak, from nowhere appears a black cloud, modeled after the Minotaur. Across from the bull-cloud stands a god, male, heroic, clad in sandals and a short tunic. His crown is made of sunbeams, and it hurts Martin's eyes to look at his perfect face. Between the two arrives another, a full-bearded barbarian who carries a gray stone hammer, red-haired, bulky, fur cape flowing back over his shoulders. He sports leg greaves and a breastplate, both of bronze. Above the peak hovers another figure, which is present, but not. Martin strains to see, and after a time penetrates the ghostly details. She is slender, golden-haired, golden-eyed, and glitters. Beyond these details he cannot see, and his attention is distracted by the appearance of another god, also ghostly. Where the goddess is golden, the latecomer is black-shadowed. Unwanted, as well, because the three older golds strike. The barbarian throws his hammer; the sun-god Apollo casts a light spear; and the bull-god sends forth a black mist of menace. Precog? questions someone, somewhere, Perhaps. Martin loses his dream, drops into darkness. . . . . , and wakes screaming! The scream dies as he moves his head, discovers he is on his side, holding the railing of the bed. Discovers his fingers are sore. He releases his grasp, and knows he should be surprised. He is not. The metal is crushed, with eight finger impressions and two thumb holes clearly visible. Martin scrambles to his knees, ignoring the wavering effect, to study his handiwork. He grabs the railing in a new place, farther toward the foot of the bed, squeezes with all the force he can muster. His palms and fingers protest, but the metal does not yield. He lets go. Tears well up, sorrow and frustration. “Mad, I'm mad. Crazier than Faroh.” Mad, I'm mad, mad, mad. Crazier, crazier, than, than, Faroh, Faroh. He closes his eyes, presses balled fists against them to shut out the double echo, and the incredible flare of light that accompanies it. “You'll get used to it,” a calm voice comments. Martin hops around on his knees, feels awkward, embarrassed, and almost pitches over the side of the bed as the nausea strikes him in the pit of his stomach. The glare dies with the closing of the portal. The speaker looks like the sun-god of his dreams, with short and curly blond hair, even features, cleft chin, piercing green eyes, heroic body structure, wide shoulders and narrow waist, under a gold tunic and trousers. Martin nods for the man to continue. “You're going to have more trouble than the others. There are two reasons for that. The first is that you're an untrained, full-range esper, and fully masked. The second is that you have, shall we say, a certain potential.” The golden man clears his throat, and even that sounds oddly musical, matching the light baritone of his clear voice. “During the times ahead, for a while you'll know you're going mad, Martel. At times you will be. You have a great deal to learn. A great deal.” The speech bothers Martin, but he cannot pin down why. “Who are you?” Who are you? Martin winces. “You can either sync your thoughts to your speech or put a damper on them to eliminate the echo. The resonance makes any long conversations impossible, not to mention the headaches, until you get your thoughts under control. That's a function of the field, it tends to amplify stray thoughts and reflect them. Really only a nuisance, but without controls you could upset the norms and the tourists pretty strongly.” Norms? Dampers? Field? And what about the glare from outside? He settles on the simplest question, trying to block his own thoughts at the same time. “Is it that bright outside all the time?” “No. it isn't bright at all. Normally the intensity is about that of early morning on Karnak. Bright, but nothing to worry about.” “But. .. when you came in?” The golden man smiles. “It only seems bright to you. You don't see me at all. You're perceiving paranormally, and any light hurts your eyes. Except for the solidio cube, the belt clasp, and the port light, your room is totally dark. We've even screened out the glittermotes.” Martin gulps. “I'll put it another way. Off Aurore, you have to make a conscious effort to use esp. Here, you have to make a conscious effort not to. As 1 mentioned a moment ago, when you really weren't paying attention, you are a full-range esper, one of a double handful in the entire Empire. That's fortunate in ways I'll not explain, and unfortunate in others. Unfortunate because the Empire would want you dead off Aurore, and because your adjustment to Aurore will be difficult at best, assuming you do make it.” The golden man is lying. Martin cannot explain which statement is wrong, decides to let it go, and tries to keep his doubts about the man buried. “You're doubtful, Martel?” “Why do you keep calling me Martel?” “Because that's your real identification. Subconsciously you think of yourself as Martel, and not as Martin. I would advise you to cut some of the confusion short and go with Martel. That's an easy problem to solve,” When the other makes no move to leave, with the silence drawing out, Martin/Martel clears his throat. “Call me Apollo, i'm here because 1 can't resist danger, however removed, and because someday you might decide to help me.” Not exactly the most helpful answer, reflects Martin/ Martel, but it rings true. “What sort of help?” “I'd rather not say. You'll find out.” Another true statement, according to Martel's internal lie detector. There are too many fragments. Norms, glittermotes. strength he doesn't have, but has. Seeing in total darkness. . . He closes his eyes but wills himself to see. The room does not change, is still visible through closed eyelids. As he realizes he can see behind the half-closed doors of the wardrobe, he begins to itemize the small personal trinkets. He stops, half bemused, half frightened, when he realizes that Apollo has gone and that the portal had not opened. The ceiling begins to glow, shedding a real light. “Flame. Just beginning to tell the difference.” Just make it habit. The thought comes from far away. Apollo? A low note chimes, and the green light above the portal illuminates. Martel braces himself for the glare, but with his eyes slit, the increase is bearable. A thin older woman carries a small tray into the room. The mental static that surrounds her announces that she has some sort of shield or screen. She does not look at him. “Good morning. Is it morning?” Her face narrows. The frown, her black hair, and her thin eyebrows all combine to form a disapproving look. Martel studies her, decides she is younger than he thought. “It's morning. How do you feel?” Despite the mental screen, Martel can sense her puzzlement. “Confused,” he admits. “How long have 1 been here? Asleep?” “Two standard months. Not always asleep.” She puts down the tray and steps back, eyes taking in the bent metal railing. “What do you mean, not always asleep?” She backs farther away. “That's something the doctors need to discuss with you. I will see what can be done. You're not scheduled yet.” Martel frowns to himself. Not scheduled? Scheduled for what? Two months? From a stunner? Has he been here ever since Boreas stunned him? She drops a folder on the low table and scuttles for the portal. “If you read that, it will give the right perspective.” She darts out. The door irises shut, and the amber light replaces the green, but the ceiling glow remains, Apollo had said that using paranorm powers was easy. Martel reaches for the folder with his thoughts and is still surprised when it floats up from the table into his hands. The folder is not what he expected. Rather than a general brief, it is an excerpt from a technical article: “Dealing with Fullphase, Full Awakening of Paranormals in an Ultrastimulatory Environment,” selections from the full and uncompleted works of one Sevir Corwin, S. B„ P. D„ M. D.. S. P. N. P., etc. There is one introductory paragraph that catches Martel. Inasmuch as Dr. Corwin did not live to complete his work, and could not be consulted on the selections, the editor has attempted to include those portions most likely to help clinical personnel working in high-risk situations. Martel studies the folder. Cheap reproduction, right from an ordinary copy unit. More questions. He reads the entire folder. Twice, despite the odd turn of technical phrases, while he eats the fruit and the protein bar and the flat pastry that the aide has brought. Phrases ring in his thoughts. Ultrastimulatory environments can be dangerous for newly aroused paranorms. . . transition under sedation. , . subconscious realization. . . LR, for intervenors during I.P., . . . de facto ban on paranorm transfer to ultrastim (read Aurore) . . . He leans back on the pallet, closes his eyes, tries to list what he knows, tries to get it in some sequence, something that makes sense. item: He is considered paranorm. item: Paranorms arriving on Aurore are dangerous as flame, to themselves and to those around them. Item: Boreas has stunned him en route, under Brotherhood orders. Item: The Brotherhood definitely wants him on Aurore-item: For two months he has been out of his mind. Item: While dreaming, he had literally crushed a heavy steel railing. item: Apollo isn't afraid of Martel, item: The woman is. item: He is getting sleepy. Item: His last thought on the listing is Don't you ever team, Martel? Again, the dreams ,, , but more confused, this time, these times. He is floating above the same ice peak, but no one is around him, and there are no clouds, but the upper levels of the mountain are still in shadow. He turns to move closer to the peak, but from his left a golden thunderbolt blasts in front of him. On his right, a dark thundercloud materializes. He contemplates the needlepeak, waiting. . . ... and finds himself sitting at a table, across from a golden-eyed and golden-haired woman. She is speaking, but he cannot understand the words; though each is a word he knows, her sentences form a pattern and a puzzle he cannot assemble, and as he wrestles with each word the next catches him by surprise. Finally he nods, and looks past her over the railing toward the golden sands that slope down to the sea. He touches the beaker by his left hand. Jasolite. A jasolite beaker. Jasolite, jasolite... . . LIGHT! . . . .. . and he is strapped down on a cold metal table, under the pinpoint of a telescope. The telescope is gathering starlight, and that light is coming out of the pinpoint needle just above his forehead. He twists, but the heavy straps and metal bands do not bend. The light coming from the instrument bums his skin, and he wrenches his left hand free, then his right, and cups them under the enormous telescope to catch the torrent of light. But his hands overflow, and the burning light cascades over his palms and blisters his forehead. Finally he throws the light back into the telescope, which melts, collapsing away from him. Then he curls up on the metal table, and sleeps ... , . . and wakes in a lounge chair. For a long time, he is not certain if he is awake. A woman is stretched in the chair next to him, but he cannot turn his head. Perhaps he does not want to. He is near the sea. The salt tells him so, and the slow crashes of the breakers do not confuse him, not the way the words the unseen woman speaks do. She speaks slowly, and the words are in order, he knows. But some he hears twice, and some he loses because of those he hears twice. “. . . you, you, understand, stand, sedated, sedated. , . if, if . . . remember, remember. . . dream, . , dream. . .” The strain of pursuing the words presses him back into the lounge, and he lets himself float on the vibrations of the incoming breakers. “. . . god, god, you, you. . . forget, get, . .” The urgency of her tone chains him, whips across his cheeks like a blizzard wind, and he drowns in the sounds, drifting into a darkness. Thoughts boom like drums in the darkness, out of the black. This one troubles me. As welt he should. That upstart? Boom! Boom-boom! Each letter of each verbal thought brands his brain, and he screams, and screams ... He wakes. The clarity of his surroundings announces that he does not dream, and may not be drugged. Although his eyes focus on the pale yellow overhead, someone waits. Another woman. He knows without looking. Instead of sitting up and reacting, he remains motion- less, thinking. Deciding if he can sort out what he has dreamed from what he experienced under the sedation. Deciding that sorting can wait, and filing the memories in a corner of his mind for more scrutiny. His thoughts scan the room. The woman wears a mental screen. Both a laser and a full-range stunner are focused on him from the ceiling, and the thickness of the walls argues for a prison rather than a hospital. Idly Martel lets his perceptions change a few circuits in the laser and stunner to remove their immediate threat. Then he stretches, slowly, and begins to sit up. The woman is red-haired, and radiates friendliness. Martel notes that she has appeared in his dreams, and files the note. He senses that her friendliness is genuine, and lets himself smile. “I'm Rathe Firien, and I'd like to welcome you formally to Aurore. 1 suspect you know you've already been here for some time.” “Delighted,” responds Martel, with a twitch of his mouth preventing a full smile. “How long?” “Five standard months.” “Wonderful.” He puts his feet over the edge of the bed, lets them dangle, lets his mind range through the room again. The room is not the same one, but built like a Marine bunker, meter-thick plate behind the walls, and ferroplast behind that. He shakes his head. “Something the matter?” She is concerned. “No. Just a little amazed. Do you go to this extent for all paranorms?” She hesitates. “Special instructions, huh? From the Brotherhood?” “Brotherhood?” Confusion there. “Apollo?” he pursues. Fear, but validation. He decides to change the subject. “What's next on the agenda?” “For you?” Martel nods. “1 suppose you could get dressed. . .” She grins. “1 meant ,.. in general terms.” “Once you're dressed”—-and she grins again, and Martel cannot resist smiling back—”we'll get you out of here. Then we'll go over the things you need to do to get settled in.” Martel wraps the one-piece robe around him as he realizes that it has started to fall open, then relaxes. Obviously, the woman knows all about him. He shakes his head. “Does it always take this long?” “What?” “Getting adjusted, or whatever this process is called.” “For a paranorm it varies.” So many questions ... He gives up, and decides to work on one thing at a time. He stands up, feeling fit, stretches, and sees Rathe's mouth in an 0, suppressing a laugh. He suspects he has grown somehow, until he discovers he is floating a good ten centimeters off the floor, and lets himself down. “Sorry. Not used to this.” “I'll meet you outside. The fresher's next to the wardrobe. Touch the plates next to the portals to open them.” She leaves. Martel discovers that he does want a shower. After cleaning up, he pulls on one of the yellow tunic/trouser outfits and a pair of the formboots. He doesn't like the yellow. When he can, he will have to replace the clothes selected for him. Wonder of wonders, the outer portal opens at his touch, and Rathe Firien is waiting. Outside the portal is a balcony, and from it Martel can see a town spreading down a gentle incline toward the silver/green/ gold expanse that has to be the ocean. He still must squint against the unaccustomed strength of the light, indirect and unfocused as it is. A light breeze ruffles his hair, and he notes that it is neither warm nor cool, but bears a faint scent of pine. He is conscious of Rathe Firien, who has stepped back as he moves to take hold of the black iron railing. The roofs of Sybernal are white. Some sparkle; some merely are white. A wide dark swath of trees halfway between him and the sea breaks the intermittent pattern of roofs and foliage. Must be some sort of park. . . . some sort of park. . . He shakes his head, trying to remember to hang on to his control. “is something wrong?” asks the woman. “No.” He pauses. “The dark stretch there?” He points. “That's the Greenbelt It surrounds the coastal highway where it cuts through Sybernal.” “ 'Coastal, ' and not on the coast?” “it is, except in Sybernal. You can walk the Petrified Boardwalk there. You'll see.” Martel supposes he will. He studies the grounds beneath the balcony. The grass is nearly emerald-colored and short. Roughly half the trees are deciduous, which seems wrong. Why? He knows it is “wrong,” but also knows he is not thinking clearly enough yet to pose the question correctly, much less answer it. The streets are little more than paved lanes, suitable for walking and for the electrobikes he sees under a covered porch at the far end of the building. The square paved space in the middle of the lawn, he assumes, is a flitter pad, which would make sense for a hospital, or whatever institution he is confined in. “What's next?” he asks, “I've called a flitter.” “For what?” “So you can leave.” “Just like that?” “Do you want to stay?” She favors him with a half-smile, one that reminds him of the friendliness she radiates. “1 can't say that 1 do, but that's not the question. Don't 1 have to check out? Or see someone? Or sign something?” “That's been taken care of. You're ready to leave.” Taken care of. Right, You've been taken care of. And how! What's next? A quiet little trip to another secluded hideaway? “Just a flaming instant! Just what other little tricks do you all have planned? if I'd been hospitalized, or institutionalized, anywhere for this long, 1 couldn't possibly be let go the minute I woke up and the first pretty nurse to come along said, 'You. All right. You can leave now. ' “ He takes a deep breath. Rathe Firien just waits for him to continue. Her smile is even more amused. “Here I am, drugged, doped, and dreaming for months on end, and now—snap, bang, yes, sir, Mr. Martel, time to check out and get on with your business. Of course, we haven't told you where you are, why you've been here, how long you've been here, and where we want to take you. But let's get going? “Now! Just what the flame is going on in this place? And what's the sudden hurry?” He completes the last word with a slam on the iron balcony railing. The twinge that rips up his left arm reminds him that he is awake and that iron bars do not bend at his touch. He looks down at his wrist, uncovered and pale, and at the yellow cuff of the tunic. Both are too light. The woman stands just beyond his reach, waiting for him to insist on an answer. “I won't,” he whispers, understanding that his refusal only hurts himself. . . . won't, won't, won't. . . The day is still, and the breeze has died. The pine scent is gone, replaced with a heavier smell of flowers and freshly turned earth. A single bird chirp breaks the silence. Swallowing, he finally looks up. “Would you care to explain?” “if you'll listen.” Martel nods. “First, you're on Aurore. You know that. Nowhere else is like Aurore, and you don't seem to understand that. You're leaving because your mind is ready to cope with Aurore. With your background, the sooner you leave here the better. Besides, when He says you can go, you can go, I don't question Him, and neither should you. “It may be months before you understand why, but please take my word for it now. if you don't agree, you can always ask your questions later.” She purses her lips, licks the upper one with the pink tip of her tongue, and goes on. “For the time, being, please remember that you are totally responsible for the results of your actions, if you keep that in mind, you won't do too badly.” “Totally responsible for the results of my own actions?” “There are a few exceptions, but, yes, that's a fair statement. This isn't the time or the place to get into that discussion. Wait until you've had some time.” He senses bitterness behind her statement and refrains from pushing that line of questioning. “So what comes next? Where are we going, and why?” “On a quick aerial tour of Sybernal, to help you get your bearings, and then for something to eat. After that, I'll help you look into lodgings, though that's scarcely a problem.” Scarcely a problem? Then what is? He keeps the questions to himself and looks toward the flitter pad in reaction to the flup/swish, flup/swish of a descending flitter. Rathe Firien is already at the end of the balcony and headed down the wide stairs toward the lawn and the waiting aircraft. Martel misses seeing the incoming pilot, if there is one, because when he arrives, breathing heavily, Rathe is at the controls. “Whew! Out of shape.” “You'll recover, I'm sure,” she observes with a twist other lips. By now the flitter is airborne, and she begins her travelogue. “Sybernal is laid out like a half-circle around the bay, although it's really more of a gentle arc in the straight coastline than a true bay. Most of the beaches are straight, and those that do curve are generally perfect arcs. You can see the Greenbelt from here. That's the coast highway running through the middle.” Martel follows the direction of her free hand. As far as he can see, the so-called coastal highway, which rejoined the coastline south of Sybernal, has very little traffic on it. “Not much travel.” “Natives and norms don't travel that far or that much. The touries use flitters. This one belongs to Him, For special use. Now, on the beach side of the Greenbelt, that's where the plush houses and the better restaurants are. This side is the trade district, and closer to us is where most norms and natives live.” The flitter's nose swings northward. “There are a few large estates in the higher hills north of Sybernal. You can see the white there ... and there? The owners keep to themselves. For all 1 know, some may be gods or demigods.” “Doesn't anyone know?” asks Martel, aware that his voice carries a waspish note. “Doesn't the government keep track?” “Private property is private property, and trespassing is strictly forbidden.” Martel frowns. Rathe Firien's response doesn't exactly qualify as a direct answer. “l'm not sure 1 understand,” he finally says, pulling at his chin. “Let's just say that the right to privacy from one's fellows is fully respected here. Generally, even the gods leave you alone. So long as you don't hurt anyone else.” 'But-I'll explain later Right now you're getting a quick tour, remember?” Martel can sense her amusement, as well as an underlying sense of fear. He reflects, and decides that the feeling is not just fear. As the flitter cabin swirls around him he breaks off the mental stretching and concentrates on regaining his equilibrium. Aurore is going to take some getting used to, Martel, “Wouldn't gods have palaces on mountaintops?” The question sounds stupid even as he asks it, and he shakes his head. The pilot lets the question pass, and swings the flitter back toward the town. Martel studies the terrain beneath, in the distance to the southwest of Sybernal, a flash of light, brilliant red, catches his eye. He strains to make out the regular and angular shapes nearly on the horizon, shapes that seem familiar. His memory dredges up the map he had studied and supplies him with the answer—the shuttleport, one of only two on all Aurore. The flash has to have been an inbeacon call. A single highway, no bigger than the thin strip called the coastal highway, arrows away from the city-town of Sybernal toward the port. Martel cannot spot any traffic at all on the roadway to the shuttleport, and only a few dwellings lining it. The homes beneath the flitter cluster closer together the nearer to the center of Sybernal they are, Martel notes, although even those most closely packed have individual lawns and foliage surrounding them. For all the whiteness of the roofs, for all the emerald green of the grass, the gold-green sparkle of the sea, and the darker green of the trees, something is missing. Martel cannot decide what it is, but there is a subdued drabness about Sybernal as seen from the air, a certain lack of color. “There's the CastCenter, where you'll be working once you get fully adjusted.” “What?” Martel has not been following her gesture. “Over to the right. The circular building on the low hill with the roof grids? That's the CastCenter.” Martel picks out the structure, notes its position, slightly to the northwest of what would be the center of Sybernal if one were that clearly defined. If his estimate of distances is correct, he could probably walk the distance from the .farthest point in Sybernal to work in less than a stan. Sybernal is not exactly the largest of cities, not a booming metropolis, particularly after Karnak. But his briefings had indicated that Sybernal is by far the largest city on Aurore. He shakes his head again. He has questions, too many questions. “Not looking forward to work?” asks Rathe, apparently misinterpreting his headshake. “It's not that. It's just that I've got more than a little adjusting to do.” He turns away from her and stares out through the bubbled canopy toward the south, is it his imagination, or is there a snowcapped peak just over the horizon? He can feel that there ought to be just such a mountain, but is there? The land that stretches away from Sybernal toward the south lies in gently rolling hills, composed of roughly equal sections of cultivated fields, forest, and golden grass meadows. The emerald lawns of Sybernal are at odds with the golden field grass. Another contradiction, unless the city grass is an import. The air is clear, cloudless, yet the high golden haze, uniform from horizon to zenith, conveys an impression of mistiness. Martel knows that impression is false by the clarity of landmarks, such as the hills to the north, and the sharpness of the thin highways angling into the distances. They are nearly over the coastline now, and only faint traces of whitecaps streak the ocean. The breakers streaming into the beaches are sternly narrow. “We're going to land near the South Pier and have something to eat. I'll answer some of those questions you had, and then we'll look into housing for you.” “Oh. . , fine.” Fine, right, Martel? Not much in the way of formality here, is there? She eases the stick forward, and the flitter responds, dipping toward the pier. “Before we really get started. . - the first and most important point is to defer to the gods.” Martel sets the jasolite beaker down on the transparent tabletop. “Let's have that again. About the gods.” About the gods. He rubs his forehead at the mental echo- Any lapse of control has immediate results. “You're tired.” He hears .the concern in her voice and senses the compassion. He hates it, hates being pitied. He hated being understood when Kryn had felt sorry for him, and he hates it now. “Not tired. Careless. Go on. Why must one be so careful with the gods?” He picks up the beaker and takes another sip of the liqueur that warms his throat on the way down and seems to dull the ache in his head. Springfire, Rathe had called it. A stray glittermote, a shining black rather than the usual gold, settles on his shoulder, flickers twice, and vanishes. “You know about the gods, Martel. The ones like Apollo who can kill with a gesture, manipulate your feelings with a song, throw thunderbolts if they feel like it. . .” Martel looks away from her freckled face and east toward the incoming surf. According to his scattered knowledge, Aurore shouldn't have tides as substantial as it does. “Apollo can't do all that,” he mutters, not caring totally, but knowing that what he says is true. “No, probably not all that, but each god can do at least one thing out of the ordinary, and by that I mean beyond the normal range of esping. Now, technically speaking”—she stops to purse her thin lips before continuing—”there are distinctions between potentials, demigods, gods, and Elder Gods. For a newcomer, even as esper, all god types are dangerous.” Martel doesn't believe it, half doesn't care. But Rathe is so earnest, and he is expected to ask. He does. “Why?” “They all can tap the field, and that's an energy source not open to nongods, not even to you.” According to his chrono, it is approaching local midnight, but the light level has not varied. While the tables on the balcony are only half occupied, those who arc there keep their own schedules. Martel has observed three breakfasts, several midday meals, and after-dinner liqueurs delivered by servitors since he and Rathe had been seated so much earlier. “Does everyone keep their own schedule? ' “You weren't listening?” Another black glittermote settles on the pale gold collar stripe of Martel's tunic. “I am, and I was. So many things to ask.” “All right.” She sighs. “Yes. Everyone keeps his or her own schedule. How could it be otherwise? It's always day. Some stick to an arbitrary day/night schedule. Some follow standard imperial- Others take naps around the clock. Gods never sleep.” “Gods, gods, gods. All 1 seem to hear is about gods.” She sets her expression. “And it's all you will hear until you show some signs of understanding who they are and what they can do,” She is serious. Martel can tell. He spreads his hands in surrender, “So tell me about the gods.” “If I only could ..,” she starts. Martel opens his mouth. “No. Don't interrupt. Please. I'm not used to espers. Why you were assigned to me—Don't look into my thoughts. . . just listen.” He nods, seething at the idea that he would indiscriminately rummage through anyone's mind, wondering if he can, really can, at the same time. Rathe sips her own liqueur, looks out at the breakers, and begins to talk, the words falling in a rush. “Everyone says that Aurore is the home of the gods, and lets it go at that. Everyone thinks it's nice we don't have big government or much crime. Or that assassins can't even get off a shuttle here. Or imperial spies or agents. 1 guess it is. But no one mentions the other side of the cred. We don't have a choice. The gods do. We don't.” “What do you mean?” She goes on as if he has not spoken, “We don't have any police, you may have noticed. No courts. No written laws.” Martel has not noticed. The brochures and infopaks he had read hadn't mentioned this aspect of Aurore. “We have gods,” Rathe Firien pushes on, “and they punish criminals. Rather, the demigods do. if the demigods exceed their rights, they get punished. By the gods. Simple, Right?” “If you say so. But who judges the gods?” “Other gods, all of them, or so I've been told. But that really doesn't concern you.” “What does?” Rathe does not answer. Just shakes her head. Her short, fine hair fluffs out momentarily. With the light behind her, she seems to wear a crown, an image incongruous with the warmth and approachability she radiates. The warmth is why she has the job she does-Martel cannot think of anything to say, and the silence stretches out. As Rathe purses her lips prior to speaking an answer strikes Martel. “Severe punishment?” he asks. “Not necessarily severe, but certain. Unavoidable. Just.” “You didn't mention merciful.” “Mercy isn't the question. Justice is.” “But how?” 'The punishment fits the crime. Common thieves lose their right hand.” “That's punishment?” asks Martel, thinking about bionics and full-clone grafts. “It is when the nerves refuse to take a graft. Ever.” “Oh ... oh.” Martel understands. Anyone who can alter the nerve structure to such a degree, the chromosome patterns, has powers beyond the normal. “What about the more severe crimes?” “Most don't get committed. They screen all incomers. People who have committed minor crimes get blessed. Very few criminal types escape. That leaves crimes of passion, and even a lot of those are headed off. Gods can sense trouble, when they choose to.” “Total conditioning.” “Not exactly. Just if you're antisocial or antigod. And it's not really conditioning. An absolute prohibition locked into your soul. Or a compulsion. A pyromaniac can't touch matches. He couldn't even light a signal fire to save a life. A man with a violent temper can't raise his voice or lift a hand in anger .,. even to stop a beating or a theft.” Martel shudders. Imperial justice is bad enough. But an absolute justice? He shudders again. “It isn't bad. Really, it isn't. It works. You won't get cheated. You won't get mugged. Very civilized.” If it's so civilized, dear Rathe, why do you sound so bitter? He holds the thought to himself. “And everyone has a job, and is happy to have one.” She paused, then added, “Except mothers of small children.” “You will work, and you will be happy. Is that it?” “Not exactly, if you want to work without a blessing, you'll never draw attention, if you don't want to work, and don't cause problems and can pay your service taxes, that's fine, too. You can't expect to live off society.” Martel squeezes his lips together. Somehow, Aurore doesn't sound quite so ideal, quite the paradise he'd imagined. All this was just the first lesson. He drains the last of the Springfire. “What about the second lesson?” “You've already heard it. Two rules. Defer to the gods. Don't hurt anyone. That will cover most things. That and paying for what you use. That's it.” 'That's it? ' “Does there have to be anything else?” He thinks, looks out at the too-regular breakers, then back at the red-haired woman. “1 suppose not What if you hurt someone accidentally?” “if it's unforeseen and unintended, nothing, if you are careless, you'll be judged and punished.” Why do you know so much. Rathe? Why so much sadness beneath the friendly surface? She pushes a small infopak across the table to him. Against the transparency of the surface it hangs in midair, along with the two beakers. Martel ignores a faint bead of sweat on the woman's upper lip. The sea breeze has stopped momentarily. “Possible lodgings. Available singles. You can choose house, conapt, or room.” “What would you suggest?” “For you, I'd think a small house, as far away from others as possible. Until you have your mental defenses built.” “How could I pay for it? ' “No problem. The owner or seller knows you'll pay, and you're already on salary at the CastCenter.” Martel hadn't understood that section of his contract when it had been presented. . . why the pay had started when he arrived on Aurore, rather than when he started work. It made more sense now. But he felt guilty about the back pay, if there was any. “Back pay?” he ventured. “That's a crossover. Paid for your treatment.” It figured. He pushed the infopak back at Rathe. “Pick out some very small houses for us to look at.”' “I'll suggest several.” Rathe pointed out two in the hills behind Sybernal, and one south of the town/city. Martel didn't even leave the flitter for an inside view of the first two. In the end, he settled on the hillside guesthouse with the view of the sea. He liked the idea that by walking fifty meters up the hillside he could look down the other side at a sheltered bay. The landlady, a gray-haired woman of indeterminate age, Mrs. Alderson, offered no objection to Martel's immediate occupancy, and even supplied linens ... for a deferred payment. Rathe Firien pointed out the slight differences in the appliances, then sat on the bed as he unpacked his single bag. “Don't know why 1 bother,” Martel mutters as he hangs up the gold-and-white tunics and trousers that have been furnished for him. “The colors, you mean?” “Um-hmmm. Not mine.” “Yours is black.” “How did you know?” “You said so.” “When?” “When you were under treatment.” “What else did 1 say?” “Who's Kryn? ' “The girl I loved. The one I thought I loved.” “She love you?” “No.” Martel folds the collapsible savagely, jams it to the back of the high shelf at the back of the built-in wardrobe. “Don't ask met” he growls, afraid Rathe will ask more. Don't ask me! Don't ask me! He cannot block the thoughts. “I'd like to help.” Her voice is low, . , . have to help ... The thought fragment is clear. Martel turns toward Rathe, watches as she unbuttons her blouse, watches as she shrugs out of the tight trousers and stands, breasts firm, nipples erect, arms half outstretched, almost pleading. . - , please. . . have to. . . gods are Just. . . be merciful. . . Her eyes do not meet his, and he wants to turn away, to bury himself in the memory of Kryn, in cool blue, even she who held a hot stunner instead, he lets his thoughts enfold the red-haired woman, who knows him while he scarcely knows her, lets his mind fall around hers, trying to understand. As he takes a step toward her the pictures flood him, first one at a time, then in a tidal wave. A red-haired young woman, a girl, swimming with a friend, sunning themselves on a deserted beach with even waves, the friend of a young man. Blond, handsome. An insistent young man, with insistent hands, hands knowing of her desires and her resistance, trying to trigger the former and brush by the latter. Kissing, leading to touching, and her breaking away, out into the water, half laughing, half crying, half wanting, and half turning away. The man's reluctant acceptance. More pictures, blurring. Another scene, high above the sea, on a ledge over white cliffs, secluded. More kissing, more touching, and again the girl breaks away. This time the man grabs for her, tries to force her back into his arms. She half turns, falls. He falls onto her, breathing hard, and she kicks at him. His feet go out from under him, skitter on the white gravel, and he loses his balance, bounces, and falls. Falls out over the hard rocks and down, down onto the jagged edges and foam hundreds of meters below. . . his scream. . . her tears. . . barely started before the thunderbolt, the god appearing, sunhair so brilliant his features obscured ... his judgment ... seared into her thoughts ... Martel tries to break out of Rathe's thoughts, tries not to, all at the same time, understanding at first/second hand what she alluded to in mere words. Let the punishment fit the crime. Because she led on one who wanted her, who loved her in his own way, killed him, even accidentally, she had to pay, and pay, and pay, by easing the hurts of those who are lost, the Martels and who knew how many others, forever and ever and ever. . . world without end. He stands there, his body nearly next to hers, but not touching her naked skin, with his own tears and hers streaming down his cheeks, shaking, wanting to touch her, wanting her to hold him, and unable to bring about either. He touches her hands, finally takes them in his, holds her, and she presses against him, gently, undemandingly, and their cheeks touch, their tears meet. After a time he cannot measure, he lays her upon the low bed and holds her more tightly. Lips brush, and more, and they fold and enfold each other. After the instants, after the quiet, in the silence that is no longer empty, sleep finds them, finds her. In the day-lit time that seems like night, she tries to pull away, but asleep and awake all at once he will not let her go, strokes her short red-silk hair, touches her thoughts, touches the line of judgment within her soul and finds he cannot remove it, finds he can add something, a small something, restore a small sense of pride, and does. Holds her through the day that is morning. And sleeps. When he wakes, she is there, dressed, sitting at the foot of the bed. “Leaving?” She nods. Touches her fingertips to her lips, then to his forehead. She stands and leaves without a sound, having given, having received. Martel wants to cry, cannot, will not, and feels the shadow within him grow. After instants that feel tike hours, he rolls over, stares at the open doorway. More time passes before he sits on the edge of the bed, head down and resting in his palms. Should he have let her walk out? Martel stands and surveys the room, the empty shelves, the wardrobe where three outfits hang, the window that opens on the grassy hillside with its scattered pines and a single quince. Tell me now, and if you can, What is human, what is man? The lines of the old song. seem singularly appropriate, though he knows not why. He pulls on trousers, tunic, boots. The portal, which is really an old-fashioned doorway, beckons, and Martel follows it. On his right, as he goes out of his bedroom, is an even more expansive window that frames the hillside running down toward the coast road and the sea beyond. To the left is a set of louvered panels that screen off the small kitchen. Straight ahead are a settee, a low table, and two stretched-fabric chairs. Behind the arrangement of furniture is a dining area with another, higher table and four chairs. Walking around one of the fabric chairs, Martel stops in front of the window. “A long day. . “ A long day. .. He rubs his forehead. The control is not automatic yet, not on this, his first day of return to the land of the living. From five months of drugged existence to a friendly face, a warm person, who greets you in the most intimate way possible, and then feels she must walk out? Rathe Firien, Kryn or no Kryn, memories or not, will be part of his life. For now, for who knows how long. And who knows how long for anything? Martel holds two images up in his mind, compares. Kryn: long dark hair, light complexion, high-breasted, slender, blue girl. Mind and thoughts like a knife ready to cut. Fragile and strong as plasteel, uncertain, yet ambitious and ready and willing to stab for hers. Cold, and passionate. Set the record straight, Martel, You think she's passionate. He makes the mental correction with a half-smile. Rathe: short red hair, narrow-waisted and full-breasted, friendly, open, and vulnerable. Strong • . , he didn't know, but her mind said she was. Ambitious—no. How could anyone be ambitious with a compulsion like that laid across her soul? Passionate. . . yes, with reservations, He shakes his head. Are the gods really gods? Or men and women with larger-than-life powers playing god over a planet that wasn't really a planet? Playing with Martels and Rathes of Aurore, like toys in an endless game? Does he, Martel, really want to find out? And risk the outcome for himself, for Rathe, for Kryn? Does he have any choice? And what about Kryn? is she real or an inflated memory? Will she be part of the future? And Rathe? How long? How? He turns from the window. Reason would indicate that death either represents no state or a changed state, nothingness or somethingness, if you will. Humanoid cultures, almost universally, represent death as a dark and grasping figure, which does not follow logically, is there something about the source of this representation of which we are unaware? The Dark Side Sidney Derline. IX A glittermote lands on his left arm, the one sprawled out on the sand next to his head. Without looking up, he knows it is black. The black ones feel different, more attuned to him than the normal white or gold motes that seem to be everywhere. He leaves his head on the sand, eyes closed, lets the diffused warmth soak into his bare back. For whatever reason, he can get a light tan at any time of day or night. Logically, whether or not the field diffused light, the tanning effect should have been limited to the technical “day.” As with many things on Aurore, though, logic is wrong. Martel corrects himself: Apparently sound logic is wrong. Crunching sounds, footsteps, intrude. He lifts his head, rolls over and into a sitting position. A tall man, blocky, black-haired and dark-skinned, dripping ocean, walks from the foam at the water's edge straight up the beach toward him. The black glittermote stays perched on Martel's arm. A second mote appears next to the first. Martel half smiles ... the first time he had seen two together. Black ones, that is. So you're the one. Martel blocks the thoughts and answers, “The one what? ' “if you want to handle it this way, it's your choice.” The stranger stares at Martel, the sharpness of his study disconcerting. Martel stands and wishes he hadn't, as the other towers a full two heads taller. “Black glittermotes? Never seen any before. Must be something new, not that there hasn't been time for that.” Martel gathers his defenses, mental and physical. Will some sort of assault follow the verbal onslaught? “Who are you?” “Just a curious bit player. You can call me Gil Nash, if you want. it's close enough.” To what? thinks Martel, simultaneously blocking it from the other while drawing energy from somewhere, somehow. A small cloud of black glittermotes appears from nowhere, circles Martel, and a handful array themselves across his shoulders, their feather touch electric. “Don't draw any conclusions!” counters the tall man, back” ing up several steps. “I'm just watching.” Martel shakes his head to clear his sight from the momen” tary disorientation, focuses on the other's face as a stabilizer, finds himself reaching, evading the other man's sievelike screens, and picking up fragments, mostly images. A tall ice-pointed peak ... Apollo the sun-god. . . oceans and brass chains with links to dwarf a man, . . a sword that flames when drawn. . . a dark cloud that is a bull and a man and a god, . . Martel retreats from Nash's thoughts, finds he can see the energy of the man, his ties to the field. Those are what the lines of energy have to be. Nash retreats another step, far enough down the sloping beach that he and Martel are almost at equal eye level. “Take your time, Martel. You have forever, and they don't.” “What about you?” “Another century of causing tidal waves won't hurt, and that's what I'll get.” “What? And who are 'they'?” “It's a long story. But since the thunderbolts haven't hit yet, how about a drink?” Martel shrugs. None of what the crazy giant says makes sense, but maybe it would. What seems logical isn't. So what isn't might be. “My place is up the hill. All I've got is some local beer and Springfire.” He turns and digs his toes into the sand as he starts upward, mentally reaching out and letting the towel sweep itself off the sand and over his arm. “I'll take the beer. Springfire's the last thing I need at the moment.” Nash does not comment on the acrobatics of the towel, as if they were only expected. Either an esper or familiar with them, reflects Martel, letting his extended perceptions track the bigger man as he follows Martel out of the sand and onto the grassy hillside. The two chairs and table on the covered deck wait for them, as well as a beaker of Springfire and a frosted mug of beer. Martel gestures to one chair and seats himself in the other, the one closer to the door into the cottage. The nearly dry Nash, wearing only what seems a metallic loincloth, sinks into the chair, which bends, but does not give. Martel revises his estimate of the man's weight and strength up another notch. The other downs nearly a full liter in one gulp. “Not the best, but damned fine after all that salt water.” “Could you explain?” asks Martel. “None of this makes any sense. Black glittermotes, bit players, thunderbolts, chains, and drinking salt water” “Young one, when you've been around as long as me, you take things for granted, it all seems so simple. Some things I won't tell you, because you won't believe them, and my telling will make it even harder. That'd hurt me. So I won't tell. Some things you're about to learn and half believe, and those 1 will tell you. And some things you won't understand.” Martel waits, but the tall man, who physically does not appear more than a handful of years older than Martel, drains the rest of the mug. Martel refills it without leaving his chair. He does not like using so much esping, but has the feeling that the stranger might disappear if he takes his eyes off him. “I might, too—” the man grins—”but not quite yet. It's like this. First, the glittermotes. They're simple. They congregate around those who can or do tap the field. But in. . . say along while. . , I've never seen black. Only gold and white, Not even ... anyhow, that's the glittermotes. “Bit players, demigods, bystanders, all the same. Strong enough to endure, but not to influence the game. Once in a while, we can point things out to the new ones. That's you. My chains rattled free before they were supposed to, and 1 won't say how, on the condition 1 have a beer and a chat with you. No illusions about that. I'll be back throwing waves shortly.” Martel listens, trying to accept the information, to take what is offered and sort it out later. In the back of his mind, he senses a change in the weather, a storm brewing over the hills to the west. “You're educated. Talk about the chains of the sea. I've something to do with that. If you're in the chains of the sea, you drink salt water, and that doesn't do much for your thirst. Now ask why 1 don't try harder to get free of my chains. 1 do, every once in a while, for an adventure or two. But 1 don't stand up well against the storm-gods or their thunder- bolts, and they don't stand up well to the Elder Gods, which says where I stand in the grander scheme of things. You're different, or will be, once you get the hang of it. You've got some of them stirred up. Can't see why exactly. . . seem too peaceful to me.” Martel stands, the blackness boiling out of him like night, the glittermotes clinging to him like a shadow cloak. Explain! His command strikes the other like a whip. Young god .. - and the older gods fear you. You are not ready to face them. . . by their own laws they cannot strike you down. . , but will tempt you to your own destruction. . . or to attack them all. . . The perpetual day turns sudden dark, brooding smoke-yellow dusk, with the swiftness of a razor knife slicing day into night, and the thunder rolls in from the west and down the hillside like a war wagon to shake the cottage. The windows chatter with each quick drumroll. Gil Nash freezes whiter than the white roads to Aurore, whiter than the white roofs of Sybernal, whiter than the snows of winter and the sands of Sahara. Nash's eyes dart toward the clouds. Martel throws a mental shell around himself, trying to gather all the energy he can, but as he draws he feels the golden bolt descending from the clouds in a blaze. “Mr. Martel. . . Mr. Martel. . .” Coldness, wetness. . , water across his face. “What..,” He opens his eyes. He is sprawled on the deck on his back, looking up at the circular charred hole in the roof, and at the gray face of Mrs. Alderson. He checks himself over, lets his unsteady perceptions review his body. The report is sound. No overt injuries. He sits up, concentrating on keeping everything in focus. The chair where Nash has been sitting is a heap of ashes. The one where Martel sat is untouched. There is no sign of the demigod who called himself Nash, nor any remains. “Thought there weren't any thunderstorms on Aurore, Mrs. Alderson.” He sits up. “There aren't, less the gods are involved. You be messing with what you oughtn't, young man?” Probably, thinks Martel. “Don't think so, but the fellow 1 met at the beach may have been.” Martel stands up, uses the back of his hand to wipe the water off his forehead. The table lies on its side, the beaker next to it. The beer mug a glassy lump now, is coated with the ashes from the fired chair, and has rolled almost to Martel's feet. The landlady follows his glances, sees the melted mug, connects it with the ashes of the chair and the hole in the roof, and gasps. “Called himself Gil Nash. Swam out of the water and asked if he could have a beer. Didn't see any harm in it. He seemed nice enough.” “And that goes to show you, Mr. Martel, what happens on Aurore when strange people arrive from the sea. Like as not he was a ruined demigod trying to escape his just punishment. Lucky as not you're an innocent. Knowing mortals who help the wicked uns, the gods have no mercy on them.” Martel shakes his head slowly. No innocent, just fast enough with an energy screen. . . and yet. . . how long was he unconscious? Certainly long enough for anyone disposed to do him in to do so. What had Nash said? Tempting him to strike out? He shakes his head again, more violently. No striking out, period! “Luck, I guess,” he answers the waiting woman. “I'll pay, as soon as 1 can, for the damage. Not on purpose, but, as you said, 1 should have known better.” “No, Mr. Martel, How would you know, being new and all? it's not that i'm short on funds. You are, and I should have warned you. Just be a mite bit more careful what strangers you strike up with. Time comes and you'll sense the queer ones,” “I will. Certainly will.” He sweeps the ashes into a bag, where he deposits the lump of glass that had been a mug, and carries the bag out to the recycling pickup next to the coast road below Mrs. Alderson's house. By the time he climbs back up the long steps, she has rearranged the porch furniture and placed an- other chair next to the table. Except for the hole in the roof and a darker shade of decking where Nash's chair had been, the setting is again as it had been- Most people, reflects Martel, wouldn't see the difference unless they looked up. And who makes a habit of looking up? “Thank you again, Mrs. Alderson.” The words feel awkward, but he doesn't know what else to say. “No problem, Mr. Martel. We all have to get used to new places, now, don't we?” He nods, trying to repress a smile. Some individuals, like Mrs. Alderson, like Rathe Firien, have a down-to-earth friendliness that puts everything in perspective. Rathe .. . He purses his lips. “Do you have a directory? For Sybernal?” . “Aye, and so do you. Second drawer, under the vid.” She picks up her broom and with quick steps is halfway down the porch steps before he can speak. “Thank you again. I appreciate, I really do, your understanding,” She smiles. “Without that, wouldn't be much, would I? But you do be careful, Mr. Martel.” She turns, like a sprightly terrier, and marches back down to the main house. He shakes his head. Of course, she's right, Martel, He does not know if it is his thought or another's. It doesn't matter. The directory is in the second drawer under the vidfax, and he does find the listing: Firien, R„ NW of Sybernal. His fingers tap out the codes. There is no answer as the beeps pulse and pulse and pulse. “Not even an answer slot?” he mumbles. A check of the instructions reminds him that autoscreens are not available on Aurore. He tries again, but she is still not there. Next, he surveys the drawers in the small kitchen, mentally inventorying each utensil. He taps out the number again, and there is no answer. He reads the autochef manual, cover to cover, beginning with the installation date stamped inside the front fold and ending with the recipe for time-roasted scampig. Rather than try her number again, he looks for some cobwebs to dust, but his memory reminds him that Aurore has no spiders, and therefore no cobwebs. He keys Rathe's codes into the limited memory of his faxer, then jerks his hands off the access plate. Should he have let her go? No. Was he going to let her go? No. Thinking about it, he smiles. Listening to the soft chittering of birds through the open windows, the muted swash of the sea beyond the hill, and, feeling the sharp edge of the salt air, he smiles. The receive channel on the relay ship opens for nanounits. The monitor blinks green, signifying that the relay has been completed. The Brother at the controls touches one plate, a stud, begins the quick sequence to take the ship into underspace to wait for the next transmission. Once the small ship is underspace, he stabilizes the controls, touches the replay stud, and waits for the equipment to return the message to real time. The image on the screen is that of Brother Geidren, current domni of the Council. “By order of the Council, all Brothers and Sisters of the Order are hereby requested to give their full prayers to the Congregation of the Fallen One, in accordance with the Writ of Perception. “Though all will not be accomplished that might, though the hours of the very stars are numbered, still we persevere until each is weighed and numbered.” The screen blanks. The Brother frowns. Like all Brotherhood quicksends, it has a double message, and for the first time in many years, he does not understand the logic behind the second message. In effect, the Brotherhood is being disbanded, being told to join and fully support the Church of the Fallen God while continuing the basic goals of the Brotherhood. The relay pilot pinches his fat lips together. The command releases the ship to him, for whatever purpose, and the same effect apparently will take place through' out the Brotherhood. He rechecks the authentications, and taps a query into the sender. The whole idea of the message is absurd. There will always be a Brotherhood, Empire or no Empire. To go underground even more thoroughly has been expected since the ejection from the Empire, but to join such an offbeat group of lunatics as the Church of the Fallen One? He readies his ship for the real-space transfer to send his query. XI CASTCENTER—a simple bronzed plaque over the portal. Martel steps through. The foyer on the inside is small. Indirect yellowed lighting combines with the brown plasteel to convey a clean dingi-ness. The entry console is vacant, as are the two armless chairs across from it. Martel sits down, lets his perceptions range through the small building. There are, from what he can tell with a quick scan, three studios, several smaller rooms, four or five offices, a larger screening room, plus fresher facilities, editing rooms, and the reception area. He picks up three people in the entire circular building. One engineer, one caster, and one administrator. A man and two women. The administrator, female, is walking down the corridor toward Martel. Martel stands up. “You must be Martel. Certainly took your time in getting here.” He frowns. He is reporting eight weeks earlier than he has to. “Does everyone report early?” “I forgot.” The woman smirks. “You had adjustment problems.” She has sandy hair, cropped straight at chin level, and bangs that are trimmed squarely above her eyebrows. The washed-out gray of her eyes matches the gray tunic and trousers she wears. Martel wonders about her obnoxiousness, but answers evenly. “That's right. I had adjustment problems. But I'm here and ready to work.” She slouches into the lounger behind the console. “Aren't you the chiever-beaven Just like that.” Martel waits. “Sit down. Sit down. Farell's on the board, will be for the next two stans. Few comments from KarNews on the in-feed. That's about it. That's all it ever is, except for the specs and the logos, the gossip pieces, the once-in-a-god-year storm warning. Feed the touries their home-planet news. We handle Karnak.” Karnak? The one fax outlet on Aurore handling Karnak, and that's where the Brotherhood has placed him? He files the point for reference, and turns his attention to the woman. Her eyes are bright. Too bright. Cernadine. Do the demigods allow addiction? Why not? So long as it doesn't impair performance or hurt anyone else. Cernadine is safe and available. And explains the washed-out look in her eyes. “Fine. Farell's on the board. You are. . . ?” “Hollie Devero, at your service, Masterfaxer Martel.” Her mouth quirks upward even farther, then twitches into a thin line before she continues. “And how did a Regent's Scholar with a masterfax rating end up on Aurore, the punkhead of faxing?” “You seem to know all the answers. Since i'm not sure, you tell me.” “You're right. I do know full feed on you, Marty Martel. How you actually put a little love into a greeter's life, and how you really like to take long walks alone on the sands, and how you avoid people. And how the first things you bought were black tunics and trousers. And you had to special-order them!” She laughs and the sound is brittle. Martel bites his lip. No one should be greeted like this! No one? 'Then you know why I'm here.” Her voice loses its edge. “No. I don't. First new faxer in ten standard years, first one not even a Guild prentice, and the Guild approves you ... and no record marks.” Martel probes at the fringes of her thoughts, gently, uncertain how cernadine affects her sensitivity, unsure how sensitive she is. . . . say that? , . . Did /. , . what. . . Martel. . . the one. . . Her curiosity is building against the damping waves of the cernadine, but Martel senses she does not know what she has just said. How? Why? Someone else is walking down the corridor from control area—the engineer. Danger. Danger! Danger! DANGER! Martel strikes, lets his mind go in a blast of energy, lashing at the man in a way he only half believes. “Gods! No! . . /' The scream from inside and outside Hollie Devero catches at the edge of his attack, and he holds back the darkness. . . finds himself staring from a slumped position against Hollie's console at a man lying facedown, antique slug-thrower gripped in his hand. Martel knows the man is dying or dead. Maybe. “You ... you killed him ...” Tears, real tears, tears not from the cernadine, well from the corners of her eyes. Even from under the blanket of the drug, he feels the grief, her ties to the dying man. Can he do anything? Has he done too much? Martel sends his perceptions out, touches the heart, adds strength to the beat, oxygen, repairs a torn artery, a stripped vein, and, standing back in his mind and watching himself do the miraculous, finishes by rebuilding a damaged nerve chain. His knees wobble as he staggers up and over toward the now-unconscious man. His vision blurs momentarily as he bends to pick the slugger from a flaccid hand. He removes the shells and drops the empty weapon on the console. “You. . . owe. . . me. . . one. . . Hollie.” He sits down heavily, concentrating on breathing for himself, Half watches the woman as she kneels beside her lover. “1 thought you'd killed him.” “No.” / did, but I undid it, and flamed if I know how, “Why?” “Why, yourself? Why did”—and he picks the name out of her thoughts—”Gates want to kill me? Given the demigods, maybe you owe me two.” Her eyes widen. Her face crumples, gray to match her washed-out eyes. “Why? Why? Why?” Martel echoes her thoughts silently, blocking them as well. Gates Devero had been primed to explode as soon as one Martel, faxcaster, student. Brother, showed up at the CastCenter But the attempt had been direct. Too direct. Gates was supposed to fail- That meant Martel had been set up to kill the engineer, which meant. - - Martel shivered. He remembers something Rathe said. “The gods are jealous, Martel. Jealous.” “Jealous” seems an understatement. Martel finally answers the question Hollie asked. “Because he was supposed to fail, Hollie, because he was supposed to fail.” “Oh, gods, no! Why us?” “Not you. Me. Don't worry. You're safe. So's Gates. A second time would be too obvious.” For now. “Second time?” “Forget it. Just tell Gates he tripped.” Martel lurches to his feet, knees solid at last, picks the weapon off the console, and drops it into a pocket. “Tripped?” “Got any better ideas, smart lady?” His voice burns, and the anger in it turns the gray-faced administrator grayer. “But the gods. . .” Martel swallows, hard. Only the thoughts count. “Gates tripped, Hollie. That's all that happened.” And with that his thoughts follow, changing the pictures in her mind, then in Gates', Both would remember that Gates tripped. Martel is sure that the gods will know that the memories are false, should they check, but what really happened is erased, gone, except in his own mind. “In answer to your other question,” he goes on as if nothing has occurred, “I'm here—” “I don't need to know. I don't want to know.” “—because 1 was Queried by the Emperor and the Grand Duke of Kirsten.” Hollie turns her head from side to side, slowly, still on her knees by Gates. “And the only ambition 1 have is to get paid for being a faxer while I sort things out.” He looks at the time readout. Almost a full stan has passed since he walked into the CastCenter. One stan? One whole stan? He tightens his lips. Apparently his mental excursion into the physiology of one Gates Devero has taken longer than he has realized. “You'd better help Gates up,” he suggests mildly as he lets the engineer wake and groan. “By the way, am 1 expected to follow Farell?” “No. She'll brief you, give you a handful of procedures, and walk you through. Double duty for her. Double pay. Doesn't happen enough. So she won't mind.” Martel can tell her thoughts are on Gates, her genuine worry about the fall he has taken. Martel heads down the corridor toward the control center He scans Farell from outside the control room. She is dark-haired, from her own mental image relaxed, and, so far as he can tell, untrapped. He waits until she finishes the locals and is into the KarNews feed before opening the portal. “Martin Martel,” he announces quietly. “Swear I'd locked that.” He looks vacant. “Guess not.” She gives him a half-smile, accented by naturally red lips. “You're Giles' replacement. Our new wunder-kind from Karnak.” “Green from Karnak,” he admits, “and so far as faxing goes, green as gold. Lots of ratings, a few degrees, and no more than the minimum uncontrolled airtime.” “No illusions, at least.” She gives a fuller smile. Her arm sweeps the circular room, “This is it. All older than you or me. Just a reader-feeder op, with enough of us in it to assure the touries that they're seeing real, live people before they get the latest from home.” The control center is clean, and from his mental runover Martel knows that the equipment all works, everything except a disassembled line feed on the end of the counter where the portable faxers are lined up. “By the time, i'm Marta Farell. You ready to start, or is this just social?” “Ready to start. But let me get a few things straight before we start on technicals,” Martel gestures at the old but clean equipment ground them. “From what you just said, there's no local base to the operation. No, if you will, native support. Who foots the bill?” Marta pushes a loose strand of hair off her forehead, carefully pats it back into place. “Not much of a bill, really. We don't have any of the extras here. No image enhancers, no multijection feeds, no strictly outside faxers. We all do the outside work. Not really news usually, but the froth.” She shrugs. “Learn a lot about the basics here. That's all we've got.” “So it's a small bill. But who pays it?” Martel resists the urge to snap. Like everyone else Marta Farell seems to avoid straight answers. “You do. Partly. The rest is from fees and donations.” “Me? Fees?” “Wait...” Farell eases into the focal seat, uses the finger-touch controls, and settles herself into a position as the holo scanners focus on her. “That's the stan update from Karnak. I'm Marta Farell with CastCenter. . . official fax outlet for KarNews on Aurore. At the chime, stan time will be fourteen-thirty, Aurore Standard, imperial Central, Karnak Regent. “Next we'll be taking you with Gates Devero on a tour of the eastern beaches, and a look at a few out-of-the-way spots you may have missed.” Martel admires the way she slips into the local feed. He wonders if the Devero slot is a repeat. “Repeat?” “Right. Geared on the Karnak tourie. Run it twice a bloc month. Once you get the feel of things you'll be out there as well. Interests?” “Not using my full name,” slips out before he thinks. Flame! Why did you say that? Marta Farell only nods. “You a drinker, adventurer, a shopper, anything like that? Rockgrubber or sailor?” “Loner, I guess. Would a slot on places to really escape fly. really fly?” “Martel, we got more stans to fill than you dream, and you're only the fifth faxer for a round-the-clock operation. Even an extra half-stan slot a week would help.” “And who pays the bills, . /' “If you're that persistent about faxing, half my problems will be solved. All right. There's a standard ten percent deduction from all pay on Aurore. To pay for services. And we're a service. About one-tenth of one tiny percent goes to the four faxcenters. Mostly for power costs. The fees are from docuslots. The one that's running now was picked up by both KarNews and the MatNet on Halston. “One of mine ran prime on Tinhorn. You never know. We back-feed regularly, and sometimes they catch. You get two percent commission on the back-feed sales.” “What's the rate?” Martel doesn't have the faintest idea of what the majors would pay for a backwater documentary. “Average is maybe a hundred thousand credits a quarter-stan.” Martel figures. The faxer would get two thousand Imperial credits for each quarter-stan, or four thousand for a standard half-stan bloc. Two full blocs equaled his annual contract. There had to be a catch-”How many have you had picked up?” “in the past ten years, I've averaged three full blocs a year. That's the problem.” Farell turns in the seat, waiting as if to see whether he can solve the puzzle. He spreads his hands, admitting his bewilderment. “Really good faxcaster can buy out his contract in five years, with enough left for first-class passage anywhere. But you've got to be good, because we can't doctor the tape. Edit, yes, but no image enhancement, viewpoint realterations, threshold emotionals, none of the fancy techniques they taught you at the Institute.” “Why not?” Stupid question, Martel! Farell looks around the studio. “With what? We've got two portaunits that are up, and one that sometimes works.” She catches her breath and plunges into the next sentence, again unconsciously patting a stray hair back into place. “The reason why we don't have the latest equipment is that the Empire doesn't send it. We buy second-, third-hand. Besides, I doubt that propafax is wanted on Aurore. You'll notice that our relay doesn't carry the emotional bands.” Martel wants to ask why, but Marta Farell doesn't pause. “Don't ask. Just say it's not wanted.” “Stet.” It isn't all right, but what can he say? “Why don't the majors send their own teams?” “Expensive. Fuel costs once you break sub are twice any other planet in the Empire. Second, let's just say that outside fax teams aren't exactly welcome.” “Sort of like Imperial agents aren't welcome?” Martel asks with a grin. “Yes. Not something i'd advise smiling about.” Martel frowns, turns toward the monitor, rubs his forehead with the middle three fingers on his right hand. He senses the hostility his last remark has triggered. Why? Awfully sensitive. Just take over the shift and let her go. Right? Wrong, You don't even know the feed parameters. “is there a center manual and a set of engineering specs 1 could study?” he offers. The woman does not answer, walks over to the console, and pulls out two discs. “Here. Why don't you use the vidfax in the lounge, second port on the right as you leave. Ought to be able to go through those in a stan or two. Then I'll check you out on the system.” Martel feels her relief, but does not go into her thoughts to double-check. The control lock snicks into place as he steps out. There! Her thought is as clear as if she had spoken. Martel smiles. The lock had been engaged when he entered. Gates Devero, recumbent in a recliner, nods at Martel as he enters the blue-paneled lounge. “Martel -.. sorry I was so clumsy when you came in. Don't know what came over me. Really upset Hollie.” The younger man scans the room. Gates picks up the inquiring glance and answers. “She's left. Be back later. Getting me a coldpak for this flamed bruise.” The cheek below Devero's right eye shows the beginning of a dark blotch. “I hope it wasn't my fault, being later than you expected.” “No. Need another faxer. Understand your problem. You also carry a second-tech cert?” “Right.” “Good. We're only a Beta Class. Means you can handle swings by yourself, long as I'm on call. Better for everyone.” “Fine with me, once I know what's where.” Martel lifts the discs thrust on him by Marta Farell. “Where's the console?” “Corner.” Martel spots it before the engineer finishes his directions. “Not much,” Gates adds. “Dates from the First Republic.” Martel's mouth drops open. That would make the unit more than an antique. More like a museum piece. “Not really.” Gates smiles. “Just what it feels like. Older than anything else in the station. About a century old, if you don't count all the replacements. And don't believe everything I say. . .” Martel shakes his head, not fully listening to the engineer's patter, trying to remind himself to doubt things, not to be so flamed accepting. “. . . more than one way to do a story, make it good without all the fancy gear those Imperial automatons deck them- selves with. Hades! Done better stories myself. So's Hollie. We can't hold a pinlight to Farell or Boster. Probably not to you, if what the record says is true. Even half true.” “Don't believe all the records, either.” Martel forces a laugh. “I've had all the courses, but no experience.” “You'll get that quick here. Another thing those big flames on Karnak don't understand. Go there and hold faxers' disc-cases five years before you get a three-clip slot on your own. Farell'11 have you out doing half-stan slots in days. 'Course, she won't use it all. Rip you pretty good. But you'll learn.” Another voice, Hollie Devero's, breaks in. “She already has you out of the control center?” Her tone is pleasant. Martel automatically lets his perceptions check her over, but her pleasantness is genuine, as if her “forgetfullness” has taken fully. He hopes so. “Not exactly. She suggested that I learn the rules, procedures, and schematics.” “Funny, she is,” Gates comments. “Good editor, good teacher. Has to be, to get a dumb engineer like me to run sub. But sure doesn't want anyone in with her when it's hot. In the other studio, the one she uses to train, another story.” He shrugs. “All got problems. What's yours, Martel?” Martel returns the shrug. “I suppose my biggest problem is that the Regent and the Grand Duke Kirsten don't like me.” Gates claps his hands. “Bravo! A step ahead. Don't like most of us till after we get here. Why? Offend the Imperial pride? Student prank?” Martel fingers his chin before answering. “It has something to do with the Grand Duke's daughter.” “The goddesses will love you!” roars Gates Devero, breaking the laugh off sharply to touch his bruised cheek. “I didn't know he had a daughter. I'm sure he doesn't. Not one old enough, or young enough, for Martel.” Hollie's voice conveys absolute certainty. “But I went to the Institute with her,” protests Martel. “And why would the Duke ... and why all the bodyguards ...” Hollie shakes her head once. “I know what I know. There was no sign of a daughter ten years ago.” “But the Duke wouldn't chase me. Query me, and the Brotherhood wouldn't—” Martel breaks off, realizing his gaffe in referring to the Brotherhood, but neither seems to care, and the reference only succeeds in increasing Hollie's confusion. “Maybe he had her hidden away. Maybe ... well, the Duchess wasn't much for children.” “She went to school in New Augusta. Didn't come back until my second year at the Institute. That's when I met her.” “How long ago?” asks the woman. “About five years. I'd guess. You see, I only saw her in the corridors at first. I wondered who had the bodyguard with the matching colors. But it wasn't until the middle of my third year that we had a class together or I ever talked to her. Dr. Dorian warned me about her father, but I never really did much except talk to her.” I'll bet! The thought from Gates takes Martel off guard. “But she seemed to like you?” asks Hollie. “I thought so.” Gates shakes his head. “That's more than enough, Martel. The Dukes don't like Regent's Scholars until after they're rich or powerful. In this Empire, you don't marry into money.” “Especially with a mother like the Duchess,” adds Hollie. Especially her! The thought has a trace of bitterness, and a touch of nostalgia, but the deepest feeling is repugnance. Martel closes his eyes, trying to sort things out. Hollie was convinced that there is no Kryn, no daughter of the Grand Duke, and the strength of her feelings and even her surface thoughts show she knows something she is not telling and does not want to tell about the Duke. The depth of those feelings, which his perceptions can only sense generally, also tells Martel that she has buried those memories from herself, and especially from Gates. “Kryn didn't seem to care much for her mother,” Martel temporizes. “That must be it. Still. . . well, the Duke would act like that if he cared enough.” Which he didn't always. She waits a moment, then lifts her head. “Before you start studying all those discs from Marta, I have some forms for you to authorize. We need to report that you've started work.” Martel nods. The less he says the better. Hollie Devero marches out through the portal, expecting Martel to follow. Gates gives a half-wave, and Martel returns the gesture before hurrying after Hollie. As far as he can tell, their false memories have stuck. Now all he has to do is learn how to be a decent faxer, if he can avoid being distracted by all the contradictions that keep popping up. XII Despite the multiplicity of the theories regarding the “seeding” of the known Galaxy with so-called Homo sapiens, no satisfactory explanation exists which can adequately describe why so many human and humanoid cultures apparently began at the same absolute point in time, or why a number of humanoid remnants have been discovered on habitable planets with no evolutionary train which would have led to such beings. With centuries of concentrated archeology behind us, we have yet to discover any real traces, besides the so-called fleet anomalies, of a star-spanning civilization which predates our own. Yet the odds of two separately evolved humanoid races possessing genetic compatibility, let alone the hundreds with absolute interlockability, and the other handful which are close enough for sterile crossbreeding, are prohibitive. . . -One might as well leave it to the “will of God” as attempt any rational scientific explanation at this time. . . . —Essays Fr. Adis SterHillion New Augusta, 2976 XIII Martel watches the monitor of the direct feed from Karnak. The feed is a wasteout, and is displayed on the aux screen, because it features a ballad singer. A redisc of Gates Devero is the actual on-air program. Martel has seen Gates' tape twice, and three times would be too much. So he watches the unused feed from Karnak. Unusual as it is for him, he is tired, with another five stans left on his shift. The singer, a young man with kinky black hair, pointed mustache, and a fluorescent green bodysuit, warbles the words in a false tenor, thin but true. The song was old, Martel knew, a variant on words that predated the First Republic, which had predated the Empire by a good millennium. “. . . and where have all the poor men gone, Gone to slavers, every one. Ah, where will they ever turn, where will they ever turn?” Good Question. Where have all the poor men gone? On Karnak, the answer was simple enough. Gone to the sewers, the Brotherhood, before it was driven underground and off-Empire, or gone to the wellhouses. The Fuards make their poor cannon fodder. Who knows about the Matriarchy? Martel leans forward in the swivel to check the remaining run time against I. D. schedule. He wants to have everything ready, because he will have to give the I. D., with a cube scene of the ocean, voiced over, before switching to the upcoming news feed from Karnak. “The poor ye shall always have.” Wasn't that the antique quote? What about the poor on Aurore? Couldn't be as many, not with the nearly mandatory work ethic Rathe had pointed out. He smiles. Strong-willed lady. She knows more than he does. Even so, he has to discount all the hints that he is much more than a bright faxer with a bit of esp. More than that. . . absurd. Is it? Really? He pushes away the nagging question, decides to think about the poor. But he doesn't have the time, yet. With the units flicking off the downcount, he touches the feedmesh and begins to fade over the scene-cube. “CastCenter of Aurore. Path station from Sybernal. Gate Seven.” He drops his vocal an octave, easy enough for those with the right relaxation techniques, and begins the scene logo fade to prep the newsline. “Straight from Karnak, Imperial Regency News Central, comes the latest update. From Gate Seven, here's Fax Central.” As he completes his last word the switches to the outstation signal, an eight-frame of the Fax Central logo, and from that to the mainline cut, featuring the slim figure of Werl K'rio, silver-voiced and silver-clad. “Brief power failure at the Regent's Palace. . . described as not serious. Concerns that the Grand Duchess is failing. . . and a dedication.” Martel takes himself fully off-line, but continues to watch the story on the power outage at the Regent's Palace. No one could explain the failure of both the main and backup systems, and the outage lasted nearly a full stan. No details were forthcoming. A Regency spokesman dismissed the occurrence as “a freak happening.” Rumors of a strange appearance coincident with the blackout were dismissed by the Major Door-keeper as “absurd.” Have to wonder what was behind a power outage in the palace. What ambitious officer suffered an unfortunate accident? Or “perished” in protecting the Prince Regent? Someday, the mere tradition of the Prince Regent wouldn't be enough. Someday, someone like the Grand Duke would succeed. Wonder what that will do to the Empire? And Karnak? And Kryn? He shies away from the thought of her, grasps at the earlier questions, the one of the poor on Aurore. Had he ever seen any? He concentrates, trying to drag up memories of shabby clothes, a beggar on a comer, unshaven faces outside a crowd of touries or happy norms. Martel squints, looking through his console, but cannot drag up that kind of image. But there have to be poor on Aurore. Have to be! Where else would they be? Where would they be hidden away? Or is Aurore so prosperous or so conditioned that none are in need? Ding! The warning chime interrupts his mental search, reminding him that he has to go local. First, the I. D. and the logo. He'd dragged an old one from the cube library, featuring a woman who could have passed for a goddess—golden hair and golden eyes, and a voice that could have sold freezers on the poles of Tinhorn. The phrasing wasn't current, but complied with the stat requirements. The date on the cube made it over forty stans since it had been used last, but Martel's tests showed it was technically acceptable. Besides, it would be a nice change from the scenery that Marta Farell used. She'd said he could use whatever he wanted from the library, provided it wasn't sealed. Not that anyone would notice, not on his shift. Despite the eternal daylight of Aurore, most of the norms and all of the tourists stayed with standard Karnak time, which meant that Martel's shift ran through their “night.” Most faxviewers were touries, with a few norms. Martel wonders if he is a norm or a native. No one had ever described the difference, except Hollie Devero. “Natives understand Aurore, live with it. Norms don't. That makes Gates a native, and me a norm.” That was what she'd said, and it was all anyone had said to Martel, including Rathe. He refocused on the board in front of him, matching the frame counts, then precisely plugging in the I. D. cube. “The CastCenter of Aurore. Gate Seven. From Sybernal and for your information and your pleasure.” Even after forty standard years of storage, the cube fires a bolt, and then some. Martel wonders who she was, whether she will see the cube and not recognize the woman she once was. But his fingers are busy. As he feels the gut-level impact of the face and voice, he is already triggering the next program. Again he matches the frame count to perfection as he brings the title logo of the holodrama on line. A “romantic and escapist” plot, the summary had indicated, called Yesterday, the Stars, the drama featured a junior cruiser commander in the Imperial Fleet forced to choose between his career, which he loves, and a young Duchess, the woman he loves. The cube was on the list Marta had suggested as suitable for his time slot. For now, he was relying heavily on her guidance. Sooner or later, he'd have to strike out on his own, he supposed. Martel sets the warning chime and eases himself out of the control chair to head for the index for the station cube files. He hopes to find some more interesting I. D. spots, or some standard dramas that hadn't been faxed to gray oblivion. Buzz! The incoming fax line was lit, for the first time since he'd been doing night shifts. He leans over the console and taps the accept stud. “CastCenter.” The screen remains black, only the green light beneath blinking to indicate the caller remains on the circuit. “May I help you?” he tries again. “Do not show HER again. This time it is ignorance. Next time will indeed be blasphemy.” The low voice sounds feminine. “What?” The red light blinks that the connection has been broken. Martel touches the stud, frowning. Strange. Most strange. Buzz' Two in the same night? Incredible, when for months no one has faxed at all. He accepts the second call more tentatively. The caller is Malta Farell, disheveled hair pushed back off her forehead, a robe thrown around her shoulders, and close up to the screen, as if to block off the view into the rest of the room. Is there a faint golden glow visible over her shoulder? Martel wonders why anyone would need artificial light. He keeps his smile to himself. At least in private Marta is human, and in the hurriedly thrown-on robe, she even looks desirable. “That I. D., Martel? Has anyone faxed?” How did she know? “Uh. . . yes. Blind. Said if I ran it again, it would be—” “Blasphemy,” she finishes. “Right.” “That one's not sealed. Gates ran the other one like it once a couple of years ago, and the same thing happened. I didn't know we had another. Don't run it again. Or any other one that has Her on it. “Her?” “I think it was the Goddess in one of Her lighter moods. She probably wouldn't mind, but Her followers certainly do. I'll talk to you about it tomorrow.” As she reaches down to sign off, her eyes flicker to the side, and the robe parts slightly, enough to show that she had indeed thrown it on hurriedly. Strange. Why would Marta interrupt what she was obviously enjoying to warn you? The Goddess? What goddess? Ridiculous. “You're saying words like that too much.” His words echo in the empty control room. Obviously, some people take the god and goddess business seriously. Very seriously. He looks down at the small vidfax unit, but the amber light stays amber. No more calls. The poor? What about the poor? Do we always have them? And what does that have to do with “Her”? Just as he thinks he is learning something, another series of questions pops up. He pushes the poor out of his mind, and turns back to the index to see what else features the golden woman and to find another I. D., hopefully one that won't be classified as blasphemy by one cult or another. XIV The sand is warm, even without the directness of sunlight, and Martel turns over onto his stomach. Rathe lies facedown, her head on a small towel, her toes pointed at the thin line of foam where the wavelets break on the golden sands of the beach. She is relaxed, nearly asleep. Martel frowns, unable to forget the incident with the logo cube. Something about the goddess is familiar, but he cannot put his finger on it. Should you tell Rathe? He shakes his head and stretches, letting his weight sink farther into the clinging sand. He places his right arm across the middle of Rathe's back, just below her shoulder blades, and squeezes her gently. She turns her head on the towel and looks at him from sleepy eyes. “You had the late shift, and I'm sleepy. How come?” He shrugs, then grins as he realizes how meaningless the gesture is from someone lying on his stomach and half buried in sand. “Don't know. Guess I'm still trying to get used to this place.” He squeezes her again, and she squirms the few centimeters necessary toward him until their bare legs touch. “It's so peaceful here.” “Thanks to you,” he answers. “If you hadn't found the cottage ...” “But you chose it.” He does not answer, but squeezes her again, then closes his eyes, trying to let himself relax. When he wakes, Rathe is sitting cross-legged and spreading food from the basket she has brought. “You finally hungry, sleepyhead?” “Sleepyhead? You fell asleep first.” He props his chin up with both hands and grins at her. Rathe uses her left hand to tousle his short and curly black hair. Then she smooths the cloth on which she sits and gestures to the space across from her, palm upward. “Would you care to join me?” “I'd be honored.” First, he stands and brushes the clinging sand from his legs and arms. He sits across from her, his legs to one side, for he has never been comfortable in trying to sit cross-legged, and takes her left hand and touches his lips to it. “You're so gallant.” She pauses. “However, I am—” “Hungry,” he finishes. Not only is there Springfire, for him, but an assortment of cheeses, genuine wheat crackers, and two corn-apples. Martel strokes her calf, finishes by squeezing her knee gently, and then picks up the beaker of Springfire. “You have excellent taste.” “For you, anything.” She is so warm, so unlike. . . Kryn. . . the golden goddess. . . . Why does the goddess bother you, Martel? Martel holds back his frown and takes another sip of the Springfire as Rathe picks up one of the corm-apples and begins to cut it into slices. Before too long he will have to leave for the CastCenter, but he pushes the thought away. XV “And now, straight from Karnak, the day's wrap-up with Lorel Littul.” Snap. Tap. Tap. Ease the pressure up, and fade out. Martel's fingers dance across the board as the in-feed from Karnak blankets Aurore, letting the touries and the norms know how little had really happened with the Regency the day before. Outside the control room someone waits. Farell. Martel touches the stud that breaks the lock circuit, although as the fax manager and senior faxer, Marta Farell certainly could override the circuits at any time. “Greetings,” he offers. “Same to you, Martel. Have you thought about a cube project?” She sits on one of the low ledges beneath the storage lockers. “Hmm. I've thought about several. I guess I'm not too thrilled about any of the ideas. Every travelogue I could think of has been done, except maybe something on all of the out-of-the-way beaches—the unique ones—like the hidden sands under the White Cliffs, that sort of thing.” “Sands under the White Cliffs? I didn't know there were any.” She laughes, easily, and for an instant the tightness that usually surrounds her is gone. “That might be interesting, What else?” “People stories are always interesting. But outside of the gods, what people do here has so much less intrigue, so much less danger or strangeness, than on Karnak, or Tinhorn. People sail the seas, but the winds are so even that it's tame. We have no safaris, no treks across sandy deserts. . . are there even any deserts?” He waits, trying to provoke a reaction. Marta Farell stays within the tight shell of her professionalism, within the barriers that say “Do not touch!” to Martel, even without his mental probing. The quiet hum of the tie receiver is the only sound in the control center. Martel scans the monitors, the feed time remaining, before shifting his eyes back to Farell. “The unknown-beaches bit is a good long-term subject. The settings have to be perfect,” she comments, as if no time had passed since his last question. Martel nods, understanding what she is driving at. Off-worlders are treated to exotic fax scenes every day. So his beach story will have to be not only spectacular, but artistic as well, as artistry takes time. If it works, the royalties will be substantial, and deserved. “You're right about the human-interest angle, too,” adds Farell, “but you've sealed the problem.” “Of course,” Martel slips in, “there are always the gods.” “Not if you value your continued existence. And whether you do or not, remember that the gods may just decide to wipe out anyone who approves or contributes to a slot they didn't like. So forget it. Now.” Martel ignores the edge in Farell's voice, at the same time wondering. Jumpy about the gods. Why? What has she done? Another hidden story like Rathe's? He debates a gentle probe, then backs off. What right do you have to dig into people's thoughts? No better than these so-called gods if you do. “What about something the gods favor?” he pushes. “Anything concerned with the gods is dangerous!” “No. There have to be things they like.” “Name one.” “What about the postulant communities? Not on candidates or demigods or priests or priestesses,” he adds hurriedly, “but just on the community life, habits, what have you.” “I don't know, Martel.” “There's nothing in any of the back indexes on them, and there's nothing remotely resembling the subject on any of the closed lists.” “Look. You don't really know what you're talking about. Hasn't your lady friend, or someone, convinced you that meddling with the gods is dangerous? Especially dangerous for someone like you.” Here we go again. Someone like you. “Would you care to explain that?” Two black glittermotes pop into view above his left shoulder as he stands abruptly. Farell does not change position, but seems to withdraw against the storage lockers. Shrinks further into herself, and does not speak. “Everyone seems to think I'm different. And every time I question something, people back away. But they still don't answer. Except to tell me not to question, not to challenge. So answer that, Farell. If I'm more than the simple esper I think I am, what makes me so? Why does everyone think so? And what difference does it make? If the so-called gods are so flamed powerful and if I'm such a threat. . . Flame! It doesn't make sense. If I'm a threat, then they're not really that powerful. And if they're so almighty, then I'm no real threat. So answer that, Farell!” Martel can feel the thin edge within him, the one that separates him from the darkness beneath, blurring as the now-familiar tide of inner darkness rises. Suddenly he can see the two women that Marta Farell is. The first is a small, frightened girl, protected by a shell of professional competence. The second, not nearly so clear in focus, might better be called ... but Martel can find no words, no concepts. For the hidden Farell has a trace of wantonness, a trace of tomboyishness, an abiding warmth. . . ... and in the confusion, the dark side of his own self ebbs, and he wonders why he is standing and shouting, and why Marta Farell is merely waiting. And he laughs. “For an instant, I really got carried away. I'm sorry.” He takes one step toward her, stops as he sees her shrink away. Instead, he turns and reseats himself in the console chair. “Guess I got a little overwrought, a little carried away. Don't really understand why.” She shifts her weight, finally faces him head on. “Because you don't understand Them, and you won't really face what you are. And no one else can afford to help you out. The costs could be far too high. I know. I know. That's why I agreed you could work here. But even I didn't—” her voice breaks off, but Martel catches the last words as unspoken thoughts, expect this. - Martel shakes his head. Every answer creates more questions. He decides to return to the original discussion. “What about a slot on the postulant communities?” “Do you really understand how dangerous it is?” Her quiet voice has a touch of resignation, desperation. “No. But I'd like to try.” “That's obvious. If it goes right, you gain nothing. And if it goes wrong, a lot of people will suffer besides you.” Farell flips her thin legs and hips off the low ledge and alights lightly in front of the console. “But I doubt that will stop you. And, at this point, I'm not going to try to save you from yourself any longer.” Her voice drops. “Martel, please be careful.” She is out the port before he can answer. He rechecks the feed time, sets himself for the break and the return to local control. What was that all about? Careful about what? He shakes his head again. A story on the postulant communities can give him a better insight into the gods, into how much real control they have, into their powers, and into the fears that everyone seems to have buried within. We'll see, he promises. That's right, the 'answer comes, but Martel cannot say whether the second thought is his or another's. XVI Martel peers through the peephole, although he does not need to. Gates is busy with the equipment in the off-line studio. Marta Farell is on the board in the prime studio. While the prime studio portal is locked and that peephole closed, the mental static announces her presence. Martel shakes his head and tramps back down the narrow corridor to the lounge. He wants to run through some of the older I. D. 's, either to get some idea for new ones or to see if any appeal to him for his own programs. “You could use the fax console in the lounge.” His words are not addressed to anyone, since Hollie is busy in the front area, and the other two faxers, Dlores and Morgan, are out working on their own documentary projects. “The lounge console is serviceable, but without projecting the images full-length into the room, he will not be able to determine the technical quality of the cubes he wants to review. Still. . . what choice is there? His decision made, he pulls the index cube and places it in the console. He can use the screen for the first part, at least. About half the cubes are listed as technically deficient. Four have been deleted from the records, and only a faint hesitation marks their former existence. Since the index is merely a record, he wonders why all reference to those four was removed. From the entire cube, only six seem interesting from the three-line descriptions. Martel notes the key numbers in the console memory and returns the index to storage. “You work too hard. It won't do a bit of good.” Hollie Devero stands inside the portal, wearing a mint-green one-piece coverall. She is too thin to carry off an outfit that severe, and the brightness of her eyes, reflecting all too obviously her cernadine habit, accentuates her angularity and the plainness of the coverall. “Just trying to get a handle on what I'm supposed to be doing.” “You're not due in until the late swing, and it's barely twelve hundred.” Martel flicks off the screen. This is the first time Hollie has seemed friendly, and making an approach of sorts, yet. He swivels in the chair to face her, gestures to the vacant seat across from him. “Thank you.” Wonder what she is thinking. He touches the edge of her thoughts, recoils at the turmoil. Is that the cernadine? “Why do you take so much cernadine?” he blurts out, off his guard from the mental confusion he has touched. “If you're going. . . Flame! Try to be civil, Martel! Flame you anyway!” She has not seated herself. Rather, she draws back and puts both hands on the top of the chair. She leans forward. Martel smells the sour spice of the drug on her breath. He tilts back, trying not to seem too obvious. “Sorry. I'm not diplomatic. I don't know what came over me.” “You're right. You're not diplomatic. Flame! Everyone else knows. Why should you be any different? I take too much. Didn't use to. But that's my problem. It's not why I came in to see you, anyway.” She comes around the chair and plops herself into it, right across from him, oblivious to the strand of hair dangling in front of her right eye. “Malta's afraid of you. I'm not sure why, but you're the only one she's ever been scared of. That's in the ten years since we've been stuck here. Why?” Scared of me? Why? Martel shrugs, trying to think of an answer. “Is she? I thought she was very professional.” Hollie leans forward. “Believe me. She's scared of you. So am I, sort of. Except I don't matter.” . . . don't matter to anyone. . . Gates? Martel cannot ignore the stray thought fragment. He decides to change the subject. “You've been here ten years. Isn't that a little unusual?” “Not necessarily. Terms range up to forty-fifty years. Some people like it here.” But not me. . . not here. . . flamed cernadine ... “I didn't realize there were that many long-termers, particularly with such generous contracts. How did you get here, if I could ask. . .” He would ask! Busybody. Hollie crosses her amis, sits up squarely. “That's no secret. Gates supported the Popular Front on Nalia. Did so publicly, and the Regency felt embarrassed and suggested to MatNews that Gates shouldn't be welcome. The Matriarchy agreed. So. . . I came with him” . . . to this exotic stinkhole. The picture is clearer. Gates had somehow gotten tangled with Regency/Matriarchy politics, and Hollie had followed him. Now Hollie is hooked on cernadine, expensive as it is. That means that despite the lucrative possibilities for a first-class faxer on Aurore they'd never be able to leave. Not unless Hollie could kick her habit. Few do, because the addiction feeds on a poor self-image, not only physically but psychologically as well. In a word, cernadine makes the world seem more interesting and imparts an artificial sense of self-esteem to the user. A clink from down the hallway signals the opening of a studio portal. “You both from Nalia?” “No. Herdian.” “But how did you get involved with Nalia?” “MatNews covers the entire Matriarchy and reports on outsystem news.” “ 'Covers' is a good word,” interjects Gates from the entryway. “Like a nice warm blanket.” “I'm confused. What did your coverage on Herdian have to do with Nalia?” “Call it a matter of politics,” says Gates dryly. “Politics?” Martel asks lamely, knowing he should see the pattern Hollie and Gates are weaving. “You should know,” Gates returns with a smile. “From what I hear, you've had a bit of a brush with politics. One of the crew, I gather.” “Well. . . the Grand Duke didn't care much for me, but it wasn't for any great public display of courage.” Martel shifts his weight in the chair. Gates has moved across the lounge to the counter, onto which he levers his blocky body, equidistant from Hollie and Martel. “Not sure my stand on the Nalian Popular Front reflected courage. Not sure I would have said what I said if I'd realized the consequences. Always easier to be brave when you're dumb.” Hollie disagrees with the tiniest of headshakes. “Or young,” adds Martel. “But why would a comment by a faxer on Herdian upset the Regency enough for the Regent to pressure the Matriarch of Halston to have you removed? Isn't that a bit farfetched?” “I thought so at first. Of course, Herdian is the closest Matriarchy system to Nalia. Didn't think anyone would mind my comments all that much, though. Who listens to fax comments, anyway? But it turned out that the Matriarchy was behind the Popular Front, and all of a sudden that nearness became more important.” Martel shakes his head. “Wait a stan! Your government had you canned because you publicly endorsed what they were privately supporting?” “Right. Win some, lose some.” “I still don't understand,” protests Martel, half afraid that he does. “Let's put it another way. The Matriarchy wanted to destabilize the LandRight government, which was backed by the Regency. If they came out directly in support, then the Regency would have had a pretext to act directly against Halston. At that time, and even now, who wants to take on the Empire over a fifth-rate system?” “I understand the military aspect, but how did that affect you?” “If the Empire could prove the Matriarchy really was behind the Popular Front, then the Empire would have had the excuse to annex the entire Nalian system as a threat to its security. If they hadn't canned me once the Empire protested, then the Matriarch would be admitting she supported the Popular Front.” Martel shakes his head. Gates is talking about webs within webs as if they were real. “Still don't understand, do you?” rumbles Gates. “Look. Think of it this way. People never react to what's real. They react to what they want to believe. To what they believe they see or to what they want to see. What's real doesn't matter unless it coincides with their beliefs.” “So the Matriarchy kicked you out because of what they believed, rather than for what you'd done?” “More complicated than that, but that's basically it.” Martel frowns. “But why—” “Martel, do you work at being dense?” snaps Hollie. Nobody can be that stupid. . . what's he playing at? Why? . . . Questions about the cernadine. . . after what. . . deep agent ... godpawn? Martel spreads his hands helplessly. He has trouble following the flitting shifts in her thoughts, perhaps a result of the cernadine. “No, he's not,” says Gates. “We keep forgetting this is his first job, and right out of the Institute. And his exile was scarcely political.” Good green faxer. . . but is that all? “It's all new. Frankly, I've been trying to figure out the gods more than the politics.” Martel tries to reinforce Gates' point. Why do they both suspect you, Martel? Gates trying to warn me? Hollie's thought adds to Martel's concerns. “You want the off-line studio?” asks Gates. “I did have some prep I was working on.” “Fine. We're off.” Gates smiles, but the smile is perfunctory. He slides off the counter, and his boots hit the flooring with a muffled thud. “But—” “No problem. No problem,” interrupts the older man. “One thing, though. You might consider that everyone plays politics, even gods. You can't escape it.” Wish we could. Hollie jerks herself from the chair and follows Gates. Martel gets up from his own seat as the other two exit. How much you need to learn, Martel. And those who know don't tell. Martel belatedly realizes that his shields are down, that he still has not learned to keep his mental blocks in place automatically. How long have his thoughts been open to the world? He shrugs. Gates is right, you know. . . don't you? Gates is right. He deserves better than Aurore ... if he wants it. Martel sits down again, lets himself go limp, and extends his perceptions. Hollie and Gates are still in the front entryway. Hollie is shifting the console to full automatic, with the direct in-line straight to the live studio. Martel power-slips under her conscious thoughts, probes for the subtle weaknesses that must exist. They do. He inserts an idea, a prohibition, a small compulsion, and what others might call an optimistic feed loop, for want of a better term. The adjustments complete, he withdraws. Unless he has miscalculated, Hollie Devero will discover over the days and years abead that she needs less and less cernadine, if any. Hopefully, the gradual nature of the change will let her believe that the change is hers, not his. He takes a deep breath and climbs back to his feet. Each time, such extensions of his abilities take less and less effort. Each time, he has a better idea of what to do and how. Some things, Martel, some things you are learning. He picks up the cubes he needs and heads for the vacant studio, absently noting that Gates and Hollie have left the CastCenter. XVII According to the datacenter, three main religious orders maintain communities and worship centers in the hills above Pamyra—the Apollonites, the Ethenes, and the Taurists. The fourth major order, the Thoradians, has a small mission at Pamyra, but lists no main community anywhere. Martel frowns. Even before getting into the fieldwork, he is digging up as many questions as answers. And more questions are bound to follow. He tabs the numbers into his console, switches the fax from the datalink into the commlink, and begins his contacts. Father Sanders G'lobo of the Apollonites says yes, provided Martel faxes only the postulants themselves and the lay community, not the Brothers or sacred aspects. Sister Artemis Dian agrees, if no facial close-ups or religious scenes are faxed. Head Taurist Theseus politely explains that no internal faxshots of the community are permitted. The Thoradian Chief Missionary grants Martel permission to fax anything he can except the interior of the Smithhall, the place of worship. So when do you start? He blocks his own questions but nods to himself. Now ... before it's too late. Martel stands, leans over the console, and logs out. Theoretically, today is his “break” day, which gives him the time he will need before he is due back on the board. Tonight Gates will take his shift, and Hollie will probably use the time in the spare studio to edit her slot on crafts. Crafts? Who knows? Who knows if anyone will care about a bunch of worshipers and their offbeat gods? Martel represses a shiver. Maybe they'll care too much. He recalls the warning about the logo slot by the goddess. He pushes the uneasiness to the back of his mind and lifts the portafax unit. It will take several trips to load the flitter. Pamyra is two stans' flight time by the CastCenter flitter, and another half-stan beyond is his first stop, the Apollonite community. From the air the sunburst pattern is clear—radial lanes, yellow-paved, linked at the center where the temple stands, fan outward and cross regularly spaced and circular ways. The temple rises from the absolute center of the community to a pointed beacon fifty meters above-ground which pulses with a golden glow. The last circular lane marks the perimeter between the community buildings and the supporting lands, and on it is a row of low structures, some with pens attached. Martel circles the entire community twice, taking his wide-angle and pan shots, and ends them with a close-focused zoom in on the temple. He drops the flitter on the pad midway between the agricultural buildings and the temple. Father G'lobo, clean-shaven, tanned, silver hairs streaking his golden curls, and flowing pale yellow robes not quite covering his sandals, meets Martel as he begins to unload the portafax from the flitter. A sunburst, radiating a gentle light, hangs from a golden chain around the good Father's neck. “Greetings, in the name of Apollo,” offers G'lobo. Martel holds back a smile. Without probing, he can sense the priest's disapproval of his black tunic, trousers, and boots. “Greetings to you. Father, and my thanks, both for me and for those who will have a chance to glimpse the kind of life you offer the faithful and those who would join your Order.” Martel inclines his head in a gesture of respect. “What exactly do you have in mind, my son?” Martel finishes loading the next cube into the unit and adjusts the harness, ready to shoulder it. “Fairly standard approach. Father. Pan shots of the community; then a mixture of shots of the secular activities. . . what people do in the way of support activities—1 understand that the postulants do some crafts for the tourie trade—and perhaps a back shot or two over the shoulders of the novices of the other. . . Apollonites? Is that what those who are accepted are called?” G'lobo nods. “Like a shot of them, not their faces, but from behind, as they enter the temple, with perhaps an uptake into the beacon.” “Flame,” corrects the priest. “Would any of that be a problem?” asks Martel, still balancing the fax unit on his knee, his right foot resting on the landing strut of the flitter. “If that's all, it shouldn't be.” The older man pauses, then asks, “What do you expect to get from this? What's the real purpose of your visit?” Martel reflects. The question seems hostile, but Father G'lobo radiates no hostility, though he wears a mindshield. Shields do not block emotions, just thoughts. Martel calculates whether he should attempt to break through the shield, decides against it. “Twofold, I guess. First, no one has ever done a story on the religious communities. Not in any of the records. That makes it a possibility for a good story, and I need one. Second, I'm new. And I hope to learn something in the process.” G'lobo relaxes fractionally, though his professional smile has not varied an iota. “That seems reasonable. Please do not point your unit at any of the Brothers, the Apollonites wearing sunbursts like mine. If you feel it necessary to have some faces, a picture of a postulant or two, the ones in the plain yellow robes, would not be out of place.” Martel catches sight of a taller, more massively built Apollonite approaching. G'lobo turns toward the newcomer, his smile a shade broader. “Administrative duties call me, but Brother Hercles will be your guide and adviser.” Martel again inclines his head and looks up at the giant, who towers a full two meters plus. “Brother Hercles,” says G'lobo, “this is Faxer Martel from the CastCenter at Sybernal. He knows the guidelines, and I am sure he will do his best to follow them.” “Greetings,” Martel says quietly. “A pleasure to meet you. I've seen you on the fax.” Hercles' voice rumbles like a bass organ. “I will return to see you off,” adds Father G'lobo as he steps away toward the temple. “Where do you wish to start?” asks the giant. Martel hefts the fax unit into the shoulder harness. Be nice to have his muscles to carry this, he thinks. “I sort of thought we'd start with the outbuildings and work in, ending up with what shots I can take of the temple.” Before he finishes, Martel is talking to empty air and hurrying to catch up. The first place where the massive Apollonite halts is in the center of a narrow barn, filled with empty stalls. 'This is the sunram barn.” Martel does a quick once-over, then focuses on a single immaculate stall. “The sunrams?” “Out in the fields. Not far. Do you want to see them?” Actually, while a shot of the animals might round out the slot, Martel really wants faxtime of people. He nods. “Not far” turns out to be across two hills. Two yellow-robed novices and another Apollonite are watching the small flock. The animals, from their black hooves to their curling golden horns and thick yellow fleece, are spotless. As he moves closer to the sunrams Martel realizes the animals do not smell like normal sheep, but almost like flowers. He sniffs. Sniffs again. A clean smell. “Heather,” supplies Hercles. “A good smell.” The closer sunrams raise their heads at Martel's approach. He zooms in on the head of the nearest, narrowing in on the eyes. The eye itself contains a star-shaped pupil within the golden iris. He shifts focus from that ram to another, eating the golden grass. Neither, Martel realizes, tears at the roots the way many sheep and goats do. The way they chew isn't your subject, he reminds himself. Martel looks at his guide. “Some cube on the novices?” “I beg your pardon?” rumbles the giant. “According to father G'lobo, I cannot fax Apollonites, only the postulants and lay members of the community.” The herder Apollonite frowns as Martel speaks, but moves to one side before the guide gestures. Both novices are beardless. One is fresh from academics; the other shows gray in his brown hair, laugh lines radiating from his eyes. The golden wide-link chains around their necks are plain, without the sunburst. “Do you comb the sunrams every day?” asks Martel of the older novice at the same time as he splits the focus between the animal and the man. The novice's eyes run to the animal, back to the faxer, and Martel catches it all on the cube. The man shakes his head in agreement. “Are they easy to work with?” A more vigorous headshake. Martel angles in on the younger. “Do you like working with sunrams?” An almost shy smile and a headshake answer the question. The faxer fades from the man's face to a wide pan of the flock to the nearby hilltop, as yet uncropped, where the tall grass waves against the sky. “Thank you,” he tells the shepherd Apollonite. A fourth nod, curt, is the only response. Martel looks to his guide. “Vows of silence?” “No. Nothing to say. Chatter to mortals seems unnecessary when one has beheld the grandeur of God.” “How about the furniture operation?” Time to change the subject, Martel thinks. “The basket shop is closer.” “Fine. Then the furniture shop.” Once again, Martel finds himself trailing the fast-moving Apollonite. The double time march leads to another low building. Once inside, Martel sees why the term “basket shop” is inappropriate. On the left side of the building, nearly one hundred meters from one end to the other, stretch built-in bins, each filled with stacked and dried reeds, wickers, palms, and grasses. Across from the nearest set of bins are three rows of short tables. Perhaps twenty are occupied. Two Apollonites rove the aisles, offering advice, assistance. Martel concentrates his unit on the raw materials first, then on the building, and finally on the novices. Two young girls also silently weave wicker into larger baskets, but do not wear the pale yellow robes of the novices. “Lay members of the community?” Martel half points with his free hand. “Wards. Each community supports and aids and educates some who have no other resources, and who are too young or too disabled through no fault of their own to make their own way.” The answer raises another series of questions, which Martel chooses not to pursue, but files mentally as he focuses close-ups on the postulants. He follows the fax-ins of the younger men with shots of the girls, first of the redhead, then of the brunette. Neither is a beauty, but each has good features, a clear complexion, and a deftness in her hands. The redhead smiles broadly as she recognizes she is the object of the fax unit. Martel lingers on her smile before stopping. He unshoulders the unit to check the settings. Even the girls do not look at him. After a long moment, Martel reshoulders the fax unit. “Furniture shop?” This time the tall Apollonite waits for Martel to take a step before starting off with his ground-devouring strides. The furniture shop is housed in another low building like the basket-making facility, but instead of the smell of grass, and the smells of autumn, is filled with the scents of oil and wood. Again, along the left side of the interior are bin after bin of stacked woods stretching from one end to the other. A finished marwood chest gleams just inside the entrance. The black surfaces are so smoothly finished that even without wax, lacquer, or glaze, the wood reflects Martel and the Apollonite guide. Martel lets out a low whistle as he admires it and plays the faxer over it from every possible angle. “Fit for a king,” he murmurs. “Scheduled for the Matriarch of Halston,” says Hercles with a laugh. Among the workers are more Apollonites, heavy leather aprons over shortened yellow robes, than in the basket shop, and the novices all seem older. Martel faxes a simple inlaid game table, which, for all its simplicity, could have adorned any palace, any Duke's salon. Along with the close-ups of the novices, he adds several shots over the shoulders of the Apollonite craftsmen, careful not to appear too obvious about his intentions. From the carpentry and cabinet making, Martel is escorted to the weavers, where the golden wool is carded, stretched, treated, woven, and tailored; to the tannery; to the clinic, which is empty except for a young man who is having his left hand treated for a gash suffered in an orchard accident; to the recreation center; to one of the living quarters; to the empty dining hall being readied for the midday meal; and finally to the administration building. The total time on the cube reads out at close to three stans. That ought to be enough, Martel thinks, keeping the thought to himself as he follows Hercles back to his flitter. Father G'lobo, having torn himself away from his administrative duties, is waiting. “We're sorry you could not spend more time with us, Faxer Martel.” Martel doesn't believe a word of it, and the good Father's emotions show no sign of the regret he is expressing. “And so am I,” he responds in kind, “but it's been most interesting. I hope you enjoy the program once it's aired in final fax form.” “We'll be looking forward to that,” says G'lobo. Martel can sense the unease behind the statement, even though the priest's face carries the same warm and friendly smile. Martel racks the one used fax cube in the storage locker, reloads the unit, thumbs the locker shut, and sets the fax unit in place for the next series of aerial shots. As he settles behind the controls he looks up to see Father G'lobo and Hercles standing back by the admin building, apparently waiting for his departure. Father G'lobo had been waiting much closer when Martel had arrived, much closer. How about another kind of checklist? Martel asks himself, thoughts fully shielded. He lets his perceptions range through the start circuits, mentally tracking, searching ... and comes up with the “wrong” feeling. A small cartridge of something above the turbine blades, liquid. Concentrating, he extends his energies, lets his thoughts remove the liquid to a small space in the bottom of the flitter. With a touch of a stud he starts up, waves to the waiting Apollonites, and begins the short checklist. Shortly he lifts off, heading toward the Ethene community. Once in flight, he tries to analyze the captive liquid mentally, some sort of acid. Obviously placed to weaken the turbine blades, the acid would have loosened several blades at once, certainly exploding the engine, and possibly the whole flitter. Martel lets the liquid eat through the bottomplate and bleed away into the open air. What surprises will I get from the ladies? From the air, the Ethene community shows more of a grid system, with its lanes converging in a fan toward the temple on the hillside south of everything else. The simple white stone structure, half set into the hill, lies open in the center. Martel sees the sacred white flame from the air, takes the liberty of faxing it along with his other pan shots. Sister Artemis Dian, the very name a position title, waits by the landing pad. She wears a white metal circlet and a veil, seemingly thin, but totally concealing. From the golden hue of her hair and the curve of her calves, which show be- low the three-quarter length of her off-white robes, Martel guesses she is beyond first youth, but not too far. Either that or thoroughly rejuved. “Faxer Martel?” Well modulated, with a hint of throatiness, her voice does nothing to discourage his first impression. “The same. Greetings, Lady.” “Sister will do, and greetings to you.” “Greetings, Sister,” Martel corrected himself. “Anything I should know before we start?” “The Goddess watches over everything, and in her wisdom will correct all that goes amiss.” Translated loosely, Martel, if you blow it, you'll get fired on the spot with celestial fury. “I think I understand. Sister, and will follow your instructions to the letter.” Not to the spirit, however. The Ethene community, while laid out in a different physical pattern, bears remarkable similarity to the Apollonite village in the activities, the cleanliness, the sense of purpose and quiet. There is no furniture shop, but instead, a ceramic facility, and in place of the basket shop there is, surprisingly, the winery that produces the Springfire of which Martel has become so fond. Sister Artemis Dian is his guide through the entire tour, even to the front steps of the temple. “No farther,” she says in her controlled contralto. “Mind if I pan up the steps and to the mountain behind?” 'That would be acceptable.” The stroll back to the flitter is absolutely quiet, and the stillness seems to accentuate the weight of the fax unit on Martel's shoulders. Only the pad of feet and the swish of robes intrude. The Sister, like Father G'lobo, is mind-shielded. Her apparent young age, her young step, bother Martel, do not fit. She seems totally atease with him, but as if he is really not present. As he stows the used fax cube and reloads, as he resets the unit for aerial shots, she waits, far closer than the Apollonites had. Martel uses his extended perceptions to scan the flitter even before starting to climb back in. An aura of danger clings to the power cells. But why? Martel scans superficially, then deeply, before realizing that both original sets have been replaced with a new set, blocked somehow. If you touch the starter, all that power will turn on itself, fuse the cells. . . and boom. No more flitter, no more Martel, and no more Sister Artemis Dian. Ergo ... Sister Artemis Dian wasn't. Rather some poor flunky mind-washed into being a victim. Or. . . Martel doesn't like the second possibility. The “Sister” might be the goddess herself, able to shield herself from the fiery blast and point the finger at someone. Or claim that Martel had tried to defile the community. Martel was either a victim or a pawn. He didn't like the possibilities, and adjusted another strap, stalling and trying to think his way out of the situation. If he announced the problem, it would reveal abilities he really hadn't had the chance to develop fully and might open him to more scrutiny. Slowly, carefully, he lets his thoughts disconnect the leads to the power cells, and allows the power to bleed off into the field through a “channel” he opens, until the cells are totally inert. He finishes adjusting his harness, shifts his weight, and closes the canopy. Then, and only then, Martel touches the starter stud, and watches the “Sister” for a reaction. There is none, none that he can detect, either physically or mentally, as the flitter rises into the sky. He shivers, partly from the effort in supplying the current needed for the start through mental ability, and partly from the strain of the undercurrents he does not understand. He shakes his head. If everyone is so secretive about their religious communities, why haven't they all taken the stance of the Taurists and merely refused him permission to visit? He might have complained or even woven it into a faxcast, but nothing would have changed. The Thoradian mission would be the last stop, but before landing there, he wants to complete as much of his aerial flyby and faxshot pass as he can of the Taurist community. Every sense would have to be alert, with his mental perceptions spread as far as possible. If those who had welcomed him are trying to destroy him, what can he expect from those who declared themselves off limits from the beginning? Nothing. Where the Apollonite community was circular, and the Ethene a fan-shaped grid, the Taurist is rectangular, with black buildings, black-paved roads, and a central black square, in the center of which bums a strange black flame. No temple. And no interference. Martel rechecks the fax unit as he swings the flitter back toward the Thoradian mission. Where the other three communities had appeared regular from the air, and orderly, the Thoradians built wherever they pleased. Some of the buildings appear to have fallen roofs, and the outlying streets are grass-choked. No one waits at the landing stage. Martel dons the unit, seals the flitter, not that such a precaution has been helpful before, and starts out. Sunrams they have, unkempt and grazing around the outbuildings, but with normal, unstarburst pupils. The scent of fire and hot metal draw him to a plain, unpainted wooden building, in good trim, but obviously old, and weathered planking that has been replaced over the years, lending the walls a patchwork impression. Inside, two burly men, sweat pouring from foreheads into full red beards, beat out blades on the wide black anvils, totally oblivious to. Martel and his fax unit. Neither wears robes, but rather a short kiltlike battle skirt, with alternating leather and metal strips. Their upper bodies, outside of a reddish tan, leather aprons, and copper armbands and wristbands, are bare. Martel focuses in on their concentration, then onto the compact and unvarying flame over which they labor. He departs, apparently unnoticed. More shots of abandoned structures follow. Across the red stone lane from the log temple, distinguished from the other buildings by the symbol of the crossed graystone hammers, Martel finds a tall figure waiting for him. Like the others, the man is burly, muscular, tall, and dressed in battle kilt. In addition, a wolfskin cloak is thrown back over his shoulders, and hair curls from under a metal helmet decorated with twin ramhorns. From the leather loop circling his right wrist hangs the heavy graystone hammer. “So you're the one! Upstart they all question.” “Your pardon?” asks Martel. “Say they question. Fear what you may become. Nonsense. All of it. Thor fears none of it. Nor you. Nor what you become. Do you challenge the hammer and might?” Martel steps back. Thor? The so-called god himself? This barbarian rumbling gutturals? The hammer swings and is released skyward. A blaze of lightning follows, slashes into the suddenly dark sky. “Doubt not Thor! Unbeliever!” The voice bellows like thunder. Martel steps back another step, still faxing the entire incredible scene. 'That'll do. Teach them all,” rumbles the old warrior, and Martel can sense the age in the god, even though the figure and the voice are those of a man in his prime. The hammer screams back to the upraised arm, and yet another lightning bolt flares. Martel retreats another step, aware his hands are damp, but still recording. He stumbles, looks down to keep from letting the unit overbalance him, and when he looks up, Thor is gone. The red rock lanes are again deserted. Martel brings the fax unit to bear on the temple, zooms in the focus, and discovers that the doors which were open are now barred. No one stops him on his way back to the flitter, which is as he left it. Untouched. Martel is still shaking his head as he pilots the light craft back toward Sybernal, toward the CastCenter, hoping the scenes with the thunder-god are indeed in the cube. A small part of his mind hopes they are not, for if they are, he will use them. Must use them. XVIII Martel tenses. The quartered image stands out in front of the single flat wall of the CastCenter lounge—four separate scenes, and each with its own message. On the upper left graze a flock of sunrams, their fleeces glittering with lights of their own. On the upper right stretch long rows of golden vines, leaves half covering the ripening grapes. On the lower left extends a grass-choked pavement. Finally, on the lower right, an aerial shot of a black-walled, black-laned community. The music wells up, subsides. A selection from Winds of Summer. “The postulant communities of Aurore, as they present themselves to visitors, and to the universe. . . postulants to gods who are real, and who demonstrate their powers on an everyday basis. “Now .. . a first-time-ever look at the worshipers of the living gods of Aurore. . .” The four images fade into one—the sunspire of the temple of Apollo, which fades into the white marble of the Ethene temple, which fades into an aerial shot of the black flame in the black square of the Taurist community, and then to the closed and hammer-barred front view of the Thoradian mission under sullen clouds. “Not a bad intro, Martel,” says Marta Farell. Gates Devero nods in agreement, while Hollie makes no statement or gesture. Martel realizes his palms are damp, rubs them on his trousers as the cube continues running through the apparently innocuous activities of the Apollonite community, and then through a similar routine in the Ethene community. “Good shot of his expression ... really wrapped up in what he's doing.” What's he playing for? Martel picks up the thought from Marta. “Oohhh. . . the eyes on that sunram. . .” “Lot of contentment showing. . .” “. . . nice view of the reflection off the marwood chest. . .” Martel swallows, waiting for the transition from the light of the Ethenes to the aerial shots of the Thoradian mission. Apollo! “. . . so deserted. . . old. . .” The cut from the desolation focuses down a grass-choked lane and into the blacksmith shop, with the bearded barbarians pounding, pounding out blades, the metal glowing, the heat welling out. “. . . looks like a Darian view of Hades. . .” Don't like where this is going. That thought came from Marta Farell. From the focus on the blades the view shifts to the blank, concentrating faces of the smiths, oblivious to the watchers, robotic in their duties, and then cuts back away to the grassy pavement and what Martel had seen as he had walked through the nearly deserted community, ending up before the temple, its rough doors gaping. The god “Thor looms in the center of the scene, as if he had appeared from nowhere. “Doubt not Thor!” The fifth time through, Martel still marvels a bit at the swing of the magnificent graystone hammer, and the lightnings that follow, the clouds that roil in on cue from the thunder-god. “. . . don't believe it. . .” “. . . how. . . how did you do it?” Fry Martel, fry us all, if this screens. From the lightnings the fax zeroes back in on the empty square, then on the barred and closed temple, with its crossed graystone hammers. “The Taurist community, unlike the other three,” Martel's narrative rolls onward, “is closed to outsiders.” With only tile low thunder of the March of the Directorate by Pavenne as accompaniment, the aerial view of the Taurist community unrolls, concluding with the square of the black flame. “The postulant communities of the living gods, from light—” The fax shows the Apollonite sunram, golden spire in the backdrop, cuts to the golden iris of the ram's eye with the dark starburst pupil. That dark star grows and grows until the entire screen is black. “—to light—” The scene mists from black through gray to the open Ethene square and the steps leading up to the white marble temple of the goddess. “No farther.” The words of Sister Artemis Dian roll up over the track music, and the view pans up the temple and to the dark-shadowed point of the sacred mountain. Again ... the darkness expands lo encompass the entire holo image. “—to light—” With a quick slash view of the thunder-god's face, his lips caught twisted, the scene follows not the hammer but the lightning, on the upward stroke and the downward return. As the last lightning flash fades, the image fills with the dark clouds, which gray out and thin. “—to dark.” From the thinning gray of the clouds the view switches to the aerial vista of the Taurist community, laid out in black, the blackness of the lanes, the blackness of the buildings, emphasized by the filters. Martel has overlaid. Steadily the focus narrows until the only identifiable object is the black flame, within its black square and centered in the middle of the holo. The last measures of the March of the Directorate die away as the image blanks to black. “Flame!” mutters Marta Farell. “You trying a fancy form of suicide, Martel?” That from Gates. Hollie Devero shakes her head, slowly. Knew he was crazy. “But do you like it?” Martel asks, knowing the question is expected. He gets out of the narrow chair and stretches. Silence. “You know,” says Hollie quietly, “faxers have lost their minds for less than that.” “For what? Showing a few scenes of the communities?” “You're missing the point on purpose, Martel!” snaps Marta Farell. “Without a single negative word, without a single disparaging musical note, without a single scene of a suffering human being, you've painted the four prime gods of Aurore as petty and almost evil. And I don't want any part of it.” “How good is it?” counters Martel. “Good enough to have the entire CastCenter leveled if we run it,” retorts Hollie. “What if you credit me with exclusive production?” “Not good enough.” “All right. I'll can it.” “No.” Marta stretches. In her hand is a stunner. “Unload that cube. Now. Put it on the counter.” Martel steps toward the holojector, one step at a time, narrowing his thoughts, concentrating as he does. Hollie and Gates back away, trying to get to the side, as far from the line of fire as possible. Martel's thoughts touch Farell's, catch the low block there, and vault into her mind. . . . got to slop him. . . say so. . . so glorious. . . do what HE wants. . . Martel reaches the nexus he needs, touches the nerves. Marta Farell's knees crumple. Her eyes roll up and close, and she collapses in a heap. Martel lets himself go do in the same way, unaffected as he is. His thoughts reach out to seize Hollie and Gates Devero. Once all three are safely unconscious, Martel climbs to his feet, fingers the bruise on his forearm where it had collided with the leg of the lounger. He unloads the cube from the holojector and carries it into the control center, where a full-stan documentary on the wind dolphins of Faldarm is concluding. Martel keys the back-feed for Karnak, bringing the tie transmitter up full and alerting the Regency network that a new outprogram would be coming. He'd already done the attributions, foreseeing the reaction he has gotten. As soon as the documentary finishes and the I. D. spot plugs through, he will run Postulants of Aurore straight through. With the off-planet net, once the title line alone has run there is no way that Apollo and crew will dare to stop his cube. Not before the fact. Martel has his perceptions fully spread, but detects nothing out of the ordinary. He is banking on the fact that even the so-called gods of Aurore can handle only so many things at once, and that they do not expect him to take matters into his own hands so quickly. Just in case anyone thinks about mechanical niceties, he wipes the cube clean of fingerprints, as well as the feeding equipment. He makes most of the adjustments by thought alone. Once the cube runs through, without further instructions the console will pick up the KarNews feed. The details taken care of, once the cube begins he returns to the recording studio, drains the power from Malta's stunner and from the laser knife she also carries, and resumes the position the others had seen him fall into. He blocks off his conscious physical control and .waits. Waits until he feels someone shake him, slap him across the face. Hard. Flamed hard. Marta, of course. “Damn you! Damn, damn! Damn!” “Wha. . . stop. . . you. . . why. . . stun me. . ,” He lets the words stumble out. “Because I want to live. Because I want to get off this planet. Because you and your cutesy idea have ruined everything. Everything!” Martel shakes his head, realizes he is swallowing something. His blood. Marta's slap has apparently caused him to bite his cheek. He looks around. Gates, white-faced, is leaning over the counter. Hollie, leaning forward in her chair, is holding her head in her hands. “What happened? I went to get you the cube, just like you asked. Hollie and Gates saw me. You saw me. And you stunned me, even before I got there. Now you're slapping me, and screaming that it's all my fault. You're the one who's crazy! Flamed crazy!” “I didn't stun you. Someone else did, and they ran the cube. Ran it right out to all Aurore and back-fed to Karnak. There'11 be flame to pay. And it's all on your head.” “You're crazy! You said I could try the idea. I did. You said no. I agreed, and now it's on my head. Why me? I didn't do anything.” “You made the damned cube. You made a mockery out of the Taurists, and their unnamed god can't be pleased. If he doesn't get you, then Thor will, unless the others get to you first.” “But why? It isn't our fault somebody ran the cube.” Gates says nothing, but glares at Martel, and staggers out of the studio lounge, dragging Hollie by the arm. Marta Farell's eyes smoke. “You just might be right. And you might not. But I won't risk anyone else's life because of your stupidity. For the sake of everyone else. Martel, when you're on duty here, no one else is going to be here. Ever! You're perm night shift. Until you pack up and quit. Or until your brains, or whatever passes for brains, rot.” Martel lets a puzzled expression cross his face, as if he can't understand her hysteria. In fact, he has difficulty, although he can sense the emotional desperation welling from her. “That's starting right now! And while you're off duty, I'll do my best to see that no one comes close to you, especially no one from any faxcast center. But don't worry. You'll get full credit for this one. Every last credit from that docuslot is yours. Even the station's cut. It should make you wealthy. If you live to enjoy it.” Martel stands there. Marta marches toward the portal, then half turns. “You've got about a quarter-stan before we go local. Program's on the up sheet. If I ever talk to you again, other than by fax, and that's only when necessary, count yourself flamed lucky.” Marta is gone. From the lack of mental echoes, he can tell the entire CastCenter is deserted. “Some reaction. . .” he mutters. He had expected concern, but not the violent paranoia they'd all displayed. He shrugs, heals the cut inside his mouth, and heads for the on-line control center. He leaves his mental shields up. If half of what Marta has screamed is correct, he will need them. XIX Dull rumbles echo, bounce, skip like flat stones over the leaden surface. Green-golden water heaves itself at the rocky fingertip of land that seems to dive into the waves. The wind whips spray around the man standing atop the one boulder, black, that protrudes from the flat and bare rock. The atmosphere itself shrouds the dark clouds, sulfurs the honesty of rain with the false promise of the sunlight that never has been. Raindrops shatter as they strike the sea, fragment on crystal rocks, dissolve into the flanking beaches, nourish the high grasses on top of the cliffs above. The difference in the fate of each raindrop is not in the rain. Martel watches the sea, looks out across the surf that breaks below his feet and foams around his boulder perch. A golden streak of lightning flashes, flares, flashes down at an unbroken wave climbing above its sisters. Steam hisses, the sound audible to Martel though the crest is fully three kilos out. Standing on the wave, appearing from nowhere, is a figure dripping cobalt water, despite the greenness of the water above which he towers, bearing a trident. He strikes the water on which he stands, and from the strike rises blue lightning toward the clouds. Another golden bolt spears down. Hisses and steams. Haloes the sea-god. And another. In return comes a fainter blue upward strike. The trident whirls, and close upon the whirling rises a waterspout, not black-green, but brilliant blue, that hurls itself toward the low-hanging clouds. The clouds lift. The waterspout follows, howling. Another golden bolt strikes downward, then a shower, attacking the tower of water like the arrows of a besieging army. The tower quivers, wavers, and tilts. Drops in an instant waterfall into the sea. Within moments, the tattered fragments of the clouds are gone, and the waves subside, the air fresh with the memory of rain. In the distance, beyond the vision of most but clear to Martel, a pair of nymphs skates the breaksides of the remaining waves, their laughter chiming like the bells of holidays past. The empty quarter, the empty half, the empty outside of a full beaker. - . why are these the things he looks for? Really, it is a most unusual occurrence when analyzed—a storm to set the scene, followed by a short battle between Apollo the sun-god and the sea-god, completed with a musical finale of two nymphs with laughter. Now, hasn't that been your typical evening on your everyday deserted beach? Oh, yes, and add to the foregoing that evening isn't evening, but everlasting day, and that most beaches away from Sybernal, Pamyra, and Alesia are usually deserted, 0 expert on beaches. All quite understandable, since Sybernal had twenty kilos of perfect beach, and Pamyra another ten. The normal tourist is rich and sedentary or poor and transportationless. The twinge in his left leg reminds Martel that he has lost track of time. Again. The wetness of the quick rain has begun to fade with the return of full daylight, and the scent of spring fades into the perpetual golden haze that lies across the sky. The regular beat of waves against the stone point resumes. Martel frowns, concentrates, and a short cloak of darkness flows from his shoulders. With quick steps he crosses the flat green-gray stone, his feet leaving no trace on the damp rock. From the back of the small peninsula rises a cliff, the gray rock cleft in the middle. The cleft is filled with broken stone. Each boulder is roughly as wide as the armspan of an average man. None is smaller than a small table, and no sand cushions the space between the rectangular blocks. The sides of the cleft are smooth, and the gray-striped stone is scarred with black lines. Martel jumps from the top of the bottommost stone to the next one, zigzagging his way up the jumble toward the grassy plateau. By the time he reaches the short golden grass, the flitter he senses in the distance, coming south from Sybernal, should arrive. Piloted by Rathe Firien. Martel drops his shadow cloak even before his first step out onto the grass. Black enough for Rathe as he stands. Black trousers, tunic, belt, and boots. The old words rise into his thoughts and to his lips. “Tell me now, if you can, What is human, what is man. . .” He shakes his head, half aware that Rathe sees the gesture as she brings the flitter down, knowing also that she will not misinterpret, that she understands how he argues with himself. Crooked in her left arm as she swings from the flitter is a wicker basket, the kind made by the Apollonite postulants for the tourist trade, and which would be called old-fashioned almost anywhere else in the Empire of Man. “Flitter?” he asks, still in full stride toward her. “Clinic's. Slow time now, and it has been for weeks. Maybe the Fuardian-Halston thing. Who knows?” Rathe's red-silk hair is longer these days, covers her ears. With the length has come a slight wave, and a certain softness to her features. She sets the basket on the grass. From the top she brings forth a thin cloth, which she shakes out and spreads on the ground. The basket then goes in the middle. Rathe seats herself cross-legged and motions. “I know you're restless, but since I've brought you the picnic dinner I don't deserve, at least sit down and enjoy it with me.” “You don't deserve?” He sits down, not cross-legged but half lying on his left side. He props his head with his left hand and looks across the top of the basket at her freckled face. “To have dinner with one of Aurore's top faxcasters? Of course I don't deserve. And if all the rich norm ladies knew where you hid when you're not at the CastCenter, I'd never see you.” “Marta's blacked me.” “Oh, that. As long as He hasn't, I wouldn't worry.” Martel caught the anxiety beneath the bantering tone, the darkness behind the forced smile. “You caught the special on the postulants?” “No. But everyone's talking about it. Talking about how none of the other faxers are supposed to talk to you. I don't think it set well. Father H'Lerry is supposed to speak on it next service.” Rathe pursed her lips, returned her attention to the basket, from which she pulled a bottle of Springfire and two tulip glasses. “I hope he's generous,” Martel answers, forcing a chuckle that sounds hollow even to himself. He extends his arm for a glass. “Farell said it was on my head. Marta Farell, my dear supervisor.” How literally had Farell meant it? He blocks the thought automatically. Rathe licks her lips, twice catches her lower lip with her upper teeth, worries it, stares down at her half-filled tulip glass. Martel takes a small sip of the Springfire and waits. Rathe stares at the picnic basket. “You're worried.” She nods, without looking up. He can read exactly what she is thinking. . . . not kind to the gods. . . shows them spoiled. . . Thor . . . who am I to say. . . Martel. . . “You're thinking that I was foolish to fax it?” “Brave. And foolish. That's why I love you. For as long as I can.” From inside the basket she pulls a small package and thrusts it at him. “What?” “Open it. Please.” He sets his glass on a level spot in the short grass and avoids reading her thoughts so that the gift will be the surprise she intends. The belt, for that is what it is, uncoils from the wrappings, with the softness and jet-black of natural wehrleather. The buckle is pure silver, a simple triangle, yet hard. Martel frowns. The buckle alone, with its monalloyed silver, represents an enormous free credit balance. Neither is wehrleather native to Aurore or easy to come by. He gets up and kneels on both knees to don the belt, looking down at it, admiring the way it feels and fits, and the shine of the buckle, neither muted nor too bright. “You look so good!” “Thanks to you.” He grins, looking back down at the belt, then across to her. “Rathe. . .” His fingertips brush hers, link, and grasp her hand, draw her across the cloth to him, against him. Lips linger. A touch of salt, a warmth radiating from lip to cheek to. . . Yes. . . no. . . not now. . . later. . . he liked it. Martel cradles her face in both hands as he releases her, runs his fingertips down the side of her face. “You didn't need to.” “I know, but I wanted to.” Her eyes glisten even in the pervasive indirect light, and that alone tells him that she is pleased. “I'm hungry,” he announces, not only to change the subject but because the sudden growl of his gut has reminded him that he is. “Ha! Your stomach spoke first.” “I admit it. So what else is in the basket?” “Sea duck and kelip.” “Then serve, wench.” “Yes, Masterfaxer. At once, sir.” Rathe does not notice the dark cloud in the distance, toward the sacred mountain behind Pamyra. Martel sees the cloud, notes it, and concentrates on the sea duck. “Napkin?” “At once, sir! Here you go.” “More Springfire!” Rathe arcs the bottle across the cloth at him, but he catches it without spilling a drop. Inhales deeply of the aroma, lets it mingle with the scent of Rathe and the pinsting of the sea below. “The days of wine and youth Are days of love and truth. . .” Martel listens to the song, to the feelings behind the words, and to the hidden harmony that Rathe does not know she brings to the short song. “Martel.” She stares at him. He starts, realizing his cheeks are wet. “Must have gotten something in my eyes.” Martel, crying. . . see that? The wonder in her thoughts leeches the emotion cleanly from him. He picks up the tulip glass from the grass and takes a swig, a long pull to empty it. The distant cloud is no closer, but darker. Suddenly it disappears, and a chill breeze swirls the picnic cloth and is gone, and with it goes the sense of summer. “We'd better go.” Rathe nods. He folds the cloth while she puts the bottle and glasses away. Only crumbs from the sea duck and kelip remain, left for the shy dories, who will flutter down to feast once the flitter and the man and the woman have left. XX The myth of the “thousand ships” persists even in nontechnic cultures.... As a practical matter, less than seven hundred possible instances of space colonization fall within the pa- rameters outlined by Corenth. . . . The implications of a power which could scatter a fleet of one thousand warships of advanced design obviously render the whole question moot and leave unanswered the source of an unverifiable panhumanoid myth.... —In Search of the Thousand Ships Pier V. RonTaur Alphene, II, 3123 A. A. T. XXI The white-tipped peak juts through the white carpet of clouds like an imperfect obelisk, evenly lit and evenly shadowed at the same time. On the empty air, close enough to reach out and touch the impossibly knife-pointed tip of the mountain, sits a man clothed in a pale sunbeam-yellow tunic, leather sandals with the straps circling his crossed and perfect legs and ankles up to his knees, and wearing a crown of light that blurs his features. Across the peak from him stands a dark and cloudy figure, combining both the blockiness of a Minotaur and the indistinctness of a thunderstorm. At the third vertex of the imaginary triangle appears another figure, slender, tall, feminine, and ghostly, clad in white with long golden-blond hair flowing down her back. Martel puts another foot forward, takes another step upward through the cotton clouds, through the indistinctness, knowing the three figures above await him. Step, step, step. The fog swirls around him, parts in front of him, closes behind him. But it has no scent, no smell of salt and fish like sea fog, no smell of pine and rock like mountain fog, no sting of ice needles like arctic fog. His head breaks through, and he steps clear of the fog, standing on nothing at all, to face the trio. “Slow, Martel,” observes Apollo. The bull-god says nothing. The golden goddess turns her head toward Apollo. Martel cannot see her eyes. “Still. . . a slow demigod is better than no demigod.” Martel does nothing. Knows he should do something. Knows he does not know what he should do. He clenches his hands at his sides. “If I knew. . . if I only knew. . .” “But you don't, Martel. And you never will, not unless you accept that you are a god. Then you'll understand. Then you'll be just like us.” “Never! Never!” Martel throws himself at the brilliance of the sun-god. “Martel! No!” The scene dissolves around him. The white clouds flare red, fade into a backdrop of dark wood. He is half lying, half sitting on his bed, sweat dripping off his forehead. His left hand is falling away from Rathe's forearm. “You started talking in your sleep again, and you grabbed me. Hard. Screamed something about knowing, and never, never. . .” Her voice is filled with pain, as are her thoughts. Martel sees the dampness on her cheeks and looks down at the arm she cradles, strangely crooked, resting below her bare and full breasts. The quilt is wound around her waist and legs still. Her arm is broken. Control, Martel. When are you going to get control over yourself? “Let me see.” He runs his fingers over her skin, letting his awareness build, realizing the damage is worse than Rathe knows—both bones, blood vessels, ripped muscles. With a sudden jab at her thoughts, he takes them over, lets himself flow into her, trying to put her to sleep for what he has to do. Unlike the case with Gates Devero, this time he cares, and will spare Rathe the pain, if he can. In slow motion, as she loses consciousness, the pictures and words float past him. Item: “Pierce” and “gentle,” coupled with a black lamb frolicking across an unfenced clearing. The lamb jumps and does not land. In its place glares a black mountain ram, black lightning for horns. Item: A man dressed in black, standing silhouetted against the sea, wearing a cloak. The cloak whips around him, but there is no wind. Item: Two bodies moving as one upon a bed. Item: A man lying in a hospital bed, asleep, face contorted, one hand bending the metal railing that rings the bed. Item. . . item. . . item. . . item. . . Martel breaks out of Rathe's thoughts, stares down at the freckles on the tear-streaked face, at the closed eyes still tight-tensed, at the smooth skin, the light nipples, the short red-silk hair. His own cheeks are damp, he knows. He wipes the right side of his face with his upper right arm, still holding his unconscious lover, his unconscious greeter, and perhaps his unconscious conscience. Gently he moves, stretches her out on the bed, concentrates on the arm, straightens it, using his perceptions, and gets the bone ends aligned. Now, kneeling beside the bed, he thinks, his thoughts reaching out to repair the damage he has wrought, trying to mend nerves, to touch the right cells in the right way to heal what has brought the pain and the tears. Time stands silent as he works. He is done. And done, he lets go, feels himself sink toward the hard floor, exhausted. “Martel...” A cool hand touches his face. Rathe's. “The arm? How are you?” The words burst forth even as he tries to uncurl from the stiff heap he has become. “Sore, but just a little.” He heaves himself upward and sits on the edge of the bed next to her. Rathe pulls the quilt over her breasts, leaving her shoulders bare, and turns to face him. “Kiss me.” Warm lips, salty, and her eyelashes flutter against his closed eyes like butterflies. Butterflies, but Aurore has no butterflies, and the glittermotes are no substitutes. The quilt drops away as two bodies meet, hold ... and hold. Rathe sobs, buries her head against his shoulder, sobs once more, then again. Harder and quicker, the sad shudders mount. Martel finds himself aroused, hard against her softness, her sadness. Finds himself angry at his arousal. He takes her face, takes her lips, kisses her once, long, evenly, trying to add heat to the salty chill, draws her to him more tightly still. After a time, her shudders subside, and another motion begins, which he joins. And joins. And joins again. After the joinings comes sleep. He wakes first, leaves his arm around her, studies her body, from her full thighs through narrow waist to light-nippled and full breasts. . . smooth skin, creamy with the ubiquitous freckles of a true redhead. His eyes trace her features, the nose sharp enough for character but straight, the green eyes hidden under sleeping lids, the light eyebrows, the narrow lips that kiss so fully. She smiles, sleeping, and the happiness lifts a corner of the darkness from him. He thinks, finally reaches into her thoughts as narrowly as he can, makes a change, an adjustment. After a time, she wakes. She smiles again, then frowns. Starts to pull the dark green quilt over her, then lets it drop. “You like seeing me? You always have. Will you remember?” “Remember?” “Martel. Please. Be gentle. I'm not meant to sleep with gods. Not once we both know. I kept hoping you were just crazy, not divine. But you're not. It hurts too much to love you, and They'll just use me to hurt you. It's too hard. . .” “I know.” He could feel the tears well up in his eyes again. Why? Cried more in the last day than in my whole life. . . going to pieces? “I know you know. But that won't stop you. It can't. But it doesn't matter.” “What will you do?” “Now that I don't have to be a greeter?” He nods. “I don't know. Maybe I won't change. Maybe I will. It's nice to have the choice.” He lies back, watches as she stands, still naked. Drinks in each movement as she dresses. Against the dark panels of the bedroom her skin lends her the air of a classical statue. Her pale green tunic all in place, she comes over to the bed and sits down next to him. “In your own way, Rathe, dear, you're a goddess.” “Remember me that way. And don't fix my memories. Broken arms need to be fixed, but I am what I remember.” He turns his face toward her, arms reaching to enfold her. She plants a quick kiss on his forehead and ducks away under his arms. “Wouldn't be the same now.” She is gone through the portal. Martel lies propped on the bed for a time. Then he arises and heads to the ultrashower. He is scheduled for his usual night shift at the CastCenter, and lots of time for thought. XXII The sky outside the cottage grumbles. The room within is dark, dimmed by clouds, which are natural, and therefore rare. No artificial light, also rare on Aurore, or glittermotes, which are not, intrude. Though the comer where the vidfax is mounted gathers shadows, the man does not need light to see. He touches the address studs, and his fingers ran through the combination with the effortlessness of habit. For he knows the pattern by heart. By heart, he affirms. His hand hovers near the contact plate, ready to break the connection when she does not answer. “Greetings,” she says automatically, her eyes widening as she recognizes the caller on the screen. “Persistent, aren't you?” “Yes,” he admits, drinking in her green eyes and warm face. “ 'Persistent, ' I suppose, is as good a word as any.” He realizes her hair is longer now, as it could be after a standard year. “Foolish, and blind, too,” she says and he can sense the bitterness. He waits. “I hope this doesn't seal my death, dear one,” she continues conversationally, “but you're still acting human and refusing to face what you are. Still appearing on the nightly faxcast, as if it were common for a god to broadbeam the evening trivia. Still trying to persuade a very human woman that you are, too.” “Your death?” His words sound lame. “My death. Possibly. Possibly yours as well, although I doubt that for reasons I couldn't possibly explain.” She sighs. Loudly. “Don't you understand? They want you as a god. If you won't because of me, then They'll do away with me. . . or take all my memories. Do you want to take back everything you've given me? Do you want to become just like Them?” By now the tears are streaming down her face. “Let me have my memories, at least. Something. Go on and be what you are! You have all I can give. I can't be some god's plaything. And I won't! If I come back to you, then that's all I'll be. Don't you understand? Don't you?” He waits, again. “You could come and twist my thoughts, change me into a willing tool. But you don't. Does that make you good? Or just stubborn? Or waiting until later? “For my sake, if not for both of us, leave me alone. If you love me, if you ever loved me, please, please, let me be. If you care at all, let me alone. Let me have a memory. Before it's too late. . . already there's so little. I was stupid to fall in love with you, and you were stupid to give me back myself . . . and that's enough stupidity. . .” “All right. . .” His words sound unsteady to himself. He cannot speak more. Nods, reaches toward the contact plate, looks once again, only to see her looking down, and not at the screen. He presses the plate, and the screen blanks. His room is dark, though not so dark as previously. The storm clouds are dispersing. He walks out onto the covered porch, then down onto the hillside, where he stares into the distance toward a peak others cannot see. A peak called Jsalm. The sacred mountain. He shakes his head. Once. Violently. He turns, slowly, until he faces the small cottage. With deliberate and heavy steps he mounts the three risers to the porch, crosses it, and reenters the dwelling. A black glittermote circles the space where he had faced the distant peak before vanishing. The dories, tentatively, hop to the outer branches of the quince. The largest half-spreads her wings, then chitters a long note that echoes, that hangs on the hillside. XXIII The two figures could be meeting on a mountaintop, or on a sea bottom, or in a cloud of glittermotes that would drive a man mad, or in the pitch darkness of the caves deep beneath Pamyra. Instead, they stand on a ledge over the White Cliffs. You've bet too much on this one. Not yet. Oaks take longer to grow. So do the bristlepines, but they don't challenge. Just endure. He's young. So you doubt already? Sometimes, but not about the potential. A vision of black thunderbolts passes from the lighter to the darker. Strong enough to take us on? Never. Two words to avoid—”always” and “never.” If you fear, why encourage? I don't. Just watch. The lighter one laughs, a laugh that breaks like glass against the hard rock at his back. Before the shards can reach the breakers below, he shimmers like the sun Aurore never sees and launches himself like a sunbeam into an afternoon that is not and has never seen one. The darker one picks up a laugh crystal, studies it, ponders. In time, he, too, departs after his own way. Neither has noticed the white bird perched in the nearby tree, a white bird with golden eyes and dark pupils that reach back farther than any bird's should, windows into more than soul. In turn, the bird flutters off the bristlepine branch, lands lightly next to the laugh crystal that has begun to evaporate, cocks her head as if to catch something within the frozen sound as it vaporizes. Beneath the White Cliffs, a thousand meters below, the golden-green breakers crash, foam against sheer quartz, crash and foam, crash and foam, in even rhythm. The white bird, larger than a dove, for there are no doves on Aurore, and smaller than a raven, takes wing, and with effortless strokes clears the cliff edge, merges with a vagrant mist that has no business so high above the waves, and disappears. XXIV Martel leaves his own screen blank, but taps out the code for hers. He sighs, knowing there will be no answer. There never is, hasn't been for months. Instead, this time, a message flashes across the screen. FAXEE UNKNOWN. NO FORWARDING CODE. Martel disconnects, taps out the numbers again. He must have used the wrong code. How likely is that, Martel? He does not answer his own question, but looks across the room at the open window, and through it sees the light breeze fluff the hillside grass. Rathe moved? Impossible! Besides, changing location wouldn't change the code. Permanent residents kept their codes, unless they decided to delist. If she had delisted, the screen would have told him that and indicated that her personal code was unavailable. FAXEE UNKNOWN. NO FORWARDING CODE. The same message scripted out. “Two options,” he mutters under his breath, not liking either. Rathe has either emigrated off-planet, which is unlikely but possible, or she is dead. How long has it been? Martel breaks the connection and stares at the closer stretch chair, the creme one. The farther one, the black one, is where he usually sits. Black, that's your color, not that there's much black on Aurore. Martel picks up the faint hum of an electrobike on the coast highway, with the underlying whine that indicates it is climbing the gentle hill toward Mrs. Alderson's on its way into Sybernal. So what do you do now? You waited too long, Martel. He has two choices, either to see if he can track Rathe down or to finish cutting the strings right now. Three, you can also track her down and then cut the strings. Martel half smiles to himself. That makes the choice. He walks into the bedroom and sits on the end of the bed closest to the wardrobe. Off come the sandals and on go the black formboots. He stands up and checks his tunic and trousers. Clean enough. Four stans before he is scheduled on duty at the CastCenter, certainly enough time to get to where Rathe lives—used to live—and find out what he can. Is it really? he asks himself. If you walk, it will take nearly a stan to get there. More. She lives/lived north of Sybernal. “So what are you telling yourself? That you don't have time?” If you walk, he answers mentally. “So don't, is that it?” Instead of leaving through the front portal, he walks out the back way and marches over to the quince. The resident dorle chirps once and quiets as he approaches. You're crazy, Martel. “Absolutely, absolutely. But you knew that before I got here, didn't you? Doesn't everyone?” He is not certain whether he is answering himself or an intruder, but it does not matter. Concentrating on the blackness that is somehow related to the field and yet not a part of it, he thinks of flying, of wings, and of ravens, symbols of night, symbols of that darkness. The darkness enfolds him, washes over him, and where he stood hops a raven. His takeoff is awkward, but with each wingbeat his flight is steadier, and he remembers to climb into the wind as he circles upward. The southern rim of Sybernal stretches under his wings. He glides toward it, straight for an imaginary point directly over the CastCenter. Sybernal, roughly clam-shaped, arcs around the natural harbor, which is used mainly by pleasure craft and the few fishing vessels that challenge the gold-green seas. The ring closest to the sea is the constant-width beach, from which protrudes several points, including the North and South Piers. Behind the beach is the Petrified Boardwalk, and then the town houses of the permanent touries, interspersed with a sprinkling of restaurants and shops. Behind the narrow district of red and gold awnings and roofs that sparkle even without the direct lighting of a sun runs the Greenbelt, and through the middle of the Greenbelt the coastal highway marches. The trade district and the residences of most natives and norms are inland of the Greenbelt, and the most affluent of those who call Aurore home have their houses on the higher grounds west and north of the town. The poorest live closest to the trade district, where the light breezes seldom penetrate. Martel lifts his right wing, turns more toward the west in order to cross the CastCenter directly. From above the CastCenter, the five-unit complex where Rathe lives is northwest. He had located it after she left the last time, although he'd never been invited inside. How can you be someone's lover and never see where she lives? The question is just another he cannot answer. His perceptions fan outward, to sense the thermals, to soak up the feeling of being airborne, and sense a turbulence. Darkness that is not darkness looms before him, building as he flies toward the five-sided communal dwelling. Martel simultaneously leaves his perceptions extended and builds his shields, walls of darkness, his own darkness, behind them. While he can sense dories, sparrows, grimmets, and other birds flying well below him, the air at his altitude is clear. Reserved for the gods? Martel starts to shake his head, but stops as he realizes he has lifted his left wing and lost ten meters nearly instantly. BEAR OFF, SMALL BIRD! Martel blinks at the power of the command, surveys the sky, and extends his perceptions further. Directly ahead, and several hundred meters higher, circles an enormous eagle, a golden eagle, whose feathers glitter with the light of a sun. Martel draws upon his own depths, and the raven he is enlarges, with wingtips that would cover a small flitter. He climbs, wings beating, upon a thermal he has created, until he is level with the golden bird. So intent is he upon his efforts that he does not see the departure of the golden eagle. But when he reaches the point where the eagle had circled, the heavens are vacant, the skies absent any trace of the giant bird. Probing the air around him, Martel finds nothing. He circles, slowly losing altitude, extending his mental search until his probes touch the buildings below. . . . such an enormous black bird. . . . . . the black vulture of the gods. . . “Did you see that? “The big black one drove off the sun eagle.” . . . has to be an omen. . . god of darkness. . . Among the jumble of thoughts he can find no trace of the warm and friendly thoughts he seeks, no sign of the woman he has known. His shape retreats to the classical raven as he drops to the buildings below, where he alights in a fir next to the complex where Rathe lived. Her rooms are empty. That he can tell from a quick probe. Martel the raven launches himself from the branch toward the windowsill. He skids on the sill's smooth stone, flaps wildly for a moment to catch himself, and falls against the plastipane. “You see that clumsy bird, Armal?” What do you expect? Martel questions mentally, blocking the thought from any transmission. Perfection from an instant raven? He peers through the clear pane. Bare is the main room. Nothing remains, not even the floor covering. The ceramic floor tiles shimmer with the cleanliness of recent scrubbing. He casts his thoughts into the rooms, but the sterility blocks any attempt at linking anything in the four rooms to Rathe Firien. Martel casts farther. The man called Armal is the landowner and the landlord. Martel touches his mind, feels the strangeness, and enters his thoughts. Part of Armal's memories are gone. Martel can feel the void. There are no memories of the tenant in number four. None whatsoever. The raven who is a .man withdraws his probe and tries the woman who lives with Armal. A blowsy, wire-haired brunette originally from Tinhorn, she has no memories of Rathe either. Neither do the tenants in the other units, nor is there even a trace of such a memory in the scattered mental impressions of the guardhound. Martel turns his bird frame on the narrow ledge, forgetting he now possesses a tail. The long feathers brush the pane, and the thrust overbalances him into the thin air of the courtyard. “Skwawk!” Flame! He instinctively spreads his wings and beats his way out of the confined space. “Clumsiest bird I ever saw, Armal. Biggest, too. Except for that golden eagle the other day.” Martel knows the golden eagle, but short of tackling Apollo head on or sifting the minds of all Aurore one by one, what can he do? You waited too long, Martel ... too long if you reallycared. He does not answer himself, but flaps toward the trees in the Greenbelt. From there he can emerge as a man and walk to the CastCenter. XXV To whom do the beaches belong? They are the sea's, the sands', and the land's. They belong to the summer, the spring, and the fall, To winter, to joy, to heartbreak, and no one at all. The flitter, golden, with a rainbow sprayed across the lower fuselage, hovers over the beach grass at the edge of the sand, but the air from the ducts still swirls sand around the five who tumble out. First comes a tall man in khaki shorts and blouse, wearing a leather belt hung with all the implements of the overt and professional bodyguard. Next comes a woman, wrapped in a robe that billows around her, who keeps her balance despite the interference of the robe and the softness of the sand into which she jumps. An older woman, sharp-featured, with golden hair, and another man, younger, golden-skinned and blond, who also wears a beach robe, follow. Last is a heavyset man who floats to the sand rather than drops. Once the last has stepped away from the flitter, the aircraft rises and circles to set down on the plateau above the secluded beach and wait for the return trip to Sybernal. Secluded the beach may be, but not deserted, not as empty as the golden sands seem. Near the base of the cliff, south of where the beach party disembarked, crouches a bristlepine. On the clear limb that offers a view of the sands where the five set up their keeper, chairs, and umbrellas waits Martel. Today he is, a raven. Tomorrow, or yesterday, a man. But today, he has decided to watch the private party of Cordin D'Alamay, well-known wealthy businessman from Percoln, and rumored esper. Only rumored, for the gods of Aurore do not permit known espers to visit without preventive quarantine. Martel is not the only watcher. That he can tell from the number of glittermotes that flicker in and out over the surf and around a certain ledge even closer to the bathers than the bristlepine. D'Alamay gestures at one of the folded chairs, all of which are golden. The one on which his attention is riveted is the sole chair with the rainbow across the back. The sought-after chair rises from the pile, unfolds, and deposits itself on the sand facing the low surf. The heavy man wipes his sweating forehead with the back of his black-haired and tanned arm before dropping his bulk into the chair. “Very impressive.” The older woman, who shares the same eagle nose, narrow face, and approximate age, places her chair next to her brother's. “I didn't know you could handle objects that heavy.” “It's easier here.” He beckons to the other woman, who has stripped off the concealing beach robe to display a figure, barely covered, that would bring top prices at the Pleasure Mart of Solipsis. Not surprisingly, since that is where Cordin D'Alamay purchased her three-year contract. “Honey! You and Cort set up here.” Honey nods, and favors D'Alamay with professional smile number two—slight promise. Cort, the male counterpart of Honey, sets up his beach chair next to the older woman and Honey's next to D'Alamay. The bodyguard, impassive, surveys the surf, the cliffs, the sands, the skies, one right after the other. Atop the cliff, the flitter pilot also surveys the flat seas and the line of beach that stretches near level in both directions. D'Alamay takes another deep breath from deep within his chair. He looks at the sand in front of him. A small hill begins to grow. Soon the rough outlines of a classical-period castle appear, along with the return of perspiration to D'Alamay's forehead. Cort, sitting on the edge of his beach lounger, feet dug into the sand, purses his lips. “Whew!” he whistles. “Just like Castle D'Alamay.” The slumping of the sand into rougher outlines signals D'Alamay's shift of concentration. The heavy man's eyes settle on Honey, who views the sea from beside her lounger. His appraisal travels the length of her tanned body. Honey wears a minimal two-piece bathing suit, unlike the more conservative suit of Arabel, D'Alamay's sister. While most women of any age would be pleased with Arabel's figure and skin tone, Arabel chooses not to flaunt hers. Cort finds his job somewhat easier because Arabel is physically attractive. No matter that the figure and the skin tone represent the best from New Augusta's medical profession. A tenseness drops onto the beach, like an unseen dark cloud. The raven jerks his head from side to side, but can detect no new physical arrivals. More glittermotes flicker around the boulder behind the D'Alamay party and above the point where the waves begin to crest before they break. Honey. Come here! The mental command from D'Alamay is faint but clear. Honey's cold gray eyes glaze over momentarily, but she shakes her head, and the compulsion. Come here! “Whatever you're doing, Cordin stop it!” Her cold eyes again glaze over. “Remember who owns your contract.” D'Alamay smiles, showing too much tooth. Come here. Take off your suit. “No,” Honey says to the unspoken command. Her voice shakes. “I won't.” Perspiration beads on D'Alamay's forehead. Come here ..., take off your suit. Honey turns, takes one step toward D'Alamay, almost within his arm's reach. “No!” Yes! Now! ' “No. . .” Yes. Now, take it off. . . that's it. . . like that. . . Slowly, slowly. Honey's right hand reaches to the knot at the back of her neck. Jerkily her hand tugs at it. The cords loosen, and she lets the halter fall away into the breeze. Both arms drop to her sides. Now the bottom. . . • . . no. . . someone, please help me. . . please. . . no. . . Her hands go to the tops of her bikini briefs. CRACK! A single bolt of golden light strikes and the damp sand between D'Alamay and Honey, throwing D'Alamay out of his chair and tossing the bare-breasted woman several meters down the beach, almost to where the waves lap against the sand. “My god!” gasps Honey. “Damn!” That from Cort. But neither Cordin D'Alamay nor his sister says anything to the figure in the pale golden tunic, dark leather sandals, and sunburst crown. The god-figure stands where the light had struck. Ten meters away, the bodyguard clutches for his stunner. He is too late. The golden god points. Another flash of lightning, and the bodyguard is gone, only a glassy place on the sand and the offending stunner remaining to mark his presence. “Who are you?” snaps D'Alamay, now on his feet, but taking a step backward. The golden figure says nothing, just stares at D'Alamay, who pales. If you are mortal, you may not impose your mind upon others. if you seek godhood, you impose on mortals only at your own risk, challenging any god who may dispute you. Are you mortal? Or do you seek to be a god? “Nobody makes me choose! Stettin! Stettin! Flame him!” A narrow laser beam flares from the guard atop the cliff, but it bends away from its target. Again the golden man gestures. Again there is a brilliant flash of light, and this time nothing remains of the cliff guard or the flitter. D'Alamay's eyes dart from the golden crown of Apollo to the cliff and back. By the time his eyes have completed the traverse, the god is no longer there, but, instead, a whirlwind, a swirling maelstrom of dark gold and glittermotes twice the height of Cordin D'Alamay. “Scare tactics. . . scare tactics,” stammers the heavy man. Honey's eyes widen and widen, until they close, and she slumps to the sand. Arabel shrinks away from both her brother and the whirlwind while rooting herself deeper into her lounger. Oort stands and edges away, quickly backing down the beach toward the bristlepine, his eyes glancing from the whirlwind to D'Alamay and back again. “Cordin D'Alamay! You must choose what you will be!” The voice of the whirlwind sounds with the power of a grand orchestra and the focused intensity of a single note. D'Alamay shivers, shakes off the power of the whirlwind like a wet dog shaking off water, but takes a backward step. Is that a sea-goddess that the raven alone sees beneath the face of the breakers? Just beneath a cloud of glittermotes? Cort catches sight of something, someone, under those glittermotes and turns to face them. Honey stretches as if she is a child waking from a long sleep and looks at her outstretched legs for a time before getting up. Arabel sits silently. “Choose!” demands the whirlwind. D'Alamay shakes his head from side to side, violently. Never! “No one makes Cortin D'Alamay choose.” But he backs farther away from the golden swirl that had been a god and may still be. “You could run to the ends of Aurore and never escape your choice, and never escape the wind.” The man clenches his jaw and backpedals two more steps. “Can you outrun the wind?” rumbles the whirlwind. D'Alamay does not answer, retreats another step up the beach, his face whiter than before. His sister Arabel shudders in her chair, which, surprisingly, still sits where she placed it. The umbrella, unnecessary as it was, under which she sat lies a good hundred meters down the beach, even beyond the bristlepine whence watches the raven. The umbrella's fabric and struts twist and tangle among themselves. The woman called Honey stands above the high-water line of the sand and stares vacantly at the sea, a childlike look on her face. Cort, on the other hand, stares at a vision no one else can see and takes a step into the gently lapping water. “Can you outrun the wind?” whistles the whirlwind, its gold-and-black shape now less than twice the height of D'Alamay. “Are you a god? Or are you mortal?” D'Alamay backs away, almost falling in the soft golden sand. Cort takes another step into the water. Arabel shudders. Honey stares. The raven watches. D'Alamay keeps backing away from the pursuing cyclone, backing, stumbling, until his back is to the rock, the flat side of a cottage-sized boulder. Arabel will not look, but hunches, shivering, in her chair. Cort is now neck-deep in the water, still pushing toward a vision, his eyes bright, his progress steady. Honey is curled up on the sand, asleep, tears drying on her face. Three bell-like notes sound from the depths of the dark and gold twisting wind. Bong! Bong! Bong. ' “Choose what you are, what you will be!” “No! No, no, no. . .” “That is a choice,” roars the wind, and further words, if there are any, are lost in the shrieking whine as the whirlwind rises from the sand and into the golden-hazed sky. Silence holds, except for the ragged breathing of D'Alamay, the lapping of the sea on sand, the dry sobs of Arabel, and the sleep sounds of a grown-up child once called Honey. D'Alamay gulps a deep breath, and another. He concentrates on a small stone at his feet. Frowns, then scowls. His face reddens, moisture popping out on his forehead, but the stone does not move. “Gone ...” The heavyset man, who suddenly wears his skin like a loose cloak, looks up and across the beach. His steps thud as he wallows toward the sobbing heap that is his sister. Arabel does not look up as her brother stands over her, does not hear as he concentrates on her and finally mutters, “Gone, too. . .” The only other human figure on the beach is the sleeping figure of Honey, curled into a half-circle on the dry sand above the high-water line. D'Alamay's study turns toward the glassy patch of sand where his bodyguard had stood. The stunner lies where the guard dropped it. D'Alamay waddles toward the weapon, staggers once, stumbles twice, and drops down on his knees to cradle the stunner in both hands. His hands twitch, but he manages to lever the intensity setting up to lethal, and he looks squarely at the tip of the stunner before his thumbs press the firing stud. The raven yet observes, for he knows that more will occur. In time, less than a standard Imperial hour, two flitters set down on the hard wet sand by the sea. The first bears the green cross of the Universal Aid Society. A man and a woman from the UAS flitter place Arabel upon a stretcher, and the body of the man D'Alamay upon a second, and the stretchers within the aircraft. As they do so, a second man polices the beach and stacks all the chairs, the foodkeeper, and the tangled umbrella, plus the scattered clothes, in the cargo bin. The green-cross flitter lifts off toward Sybernal. The second flitter bears the sunburst of Apollo. The two Apollonites wake the woman/child Honey and gently escort her into their conveyance. It, too, lifts off, but heads southward toward Pamyra. The light dims on the narrow beach. Sudden thunderheads build offshore and above the beach. Rain, driving into the sand, pools, puddles, and runs back into the sea. Surf foams, pounds, rises, scours the upper beach, and subsides. The raven shakes himself, waits. Eventually, in less than a stan, the clouds break; the rain disperses; the surf lapses into a gentle lapping at the clean beach; and the eternal day returns to the again-pristine sands, which show no signs of footprints or human presence. The raven fluffs his wings, shakes himself again, spreads his wings, and departs. XXVI According to the universal time, Aurore Standard, it is 0600. Not that the clock matters on Aurore, but heredity and biology are stubborn. Martel knows that, knows they are the reasons why most businesses, except for entertainment, credit, and others catering to basic needs, are closed or part-staffed. He strides through the portal out of the CastCenter and down the glowstone steps two at a time onto the Petrified Boardwalk. Imported slab by slab, legend has it, it was carted all the way from Old Earth to appease an early demigod, Avihiro. Martel makes a two-hand vault up and sits on the low parapet, letting his feet dangle in midair above the sand, watching the ever-parallel waves hit the surf-break, climb, and crash down onto the straight lines of the beach. The waves are higher than normal tonight, if one can call very early morning night on the planet of eternal day. He takes a deep breath, lets it go with a long hiss which is lost, a hiss less than a transitory footnote against the text of sand, sea, and surf. A single figure retreats farther northward along the North Promenade of the boardwalk. Like Kryn? No. . . step's all wrong. . . why. . . why do you keep thinking about Kryn? He takes his eyes from the distant woman and looks down at the sand under his boots. Why? . . . You'll never see her again. . . remember, Martel, she didn't protest when the Grand Duke had you Queried. . . sorry, Martel, and what will you do? He looks up at the surf. Your unattainable bitch goddess. . . that's Kryn. . . that's why you lost Rathe. . . wouldn't give up your impossible image. Martel shakes his head. How could you ever believe you meant anything to her? Does it matter? Does it matter? The tight beam from Karnak has only opened the old doubts, the old questions. And the carefully phrased statements from New Augusta had only stirred the old confusions. “The Regent is dead. Long live the Emperor!” “Grand Duke Kirsten sits tonight at the foot of the Amber Throne, faithful to the Emperor, and faithful to the Regency, awaiting the decision of Emperor N'Troya.” That was what he, Martel the faxcaster, had announced to the tourists who wanted the news. The natives never watched faxnews. They didn't care that much about the rest of the Galaxy, and the gods knew it all before it happened. Or so it seems. Martel still doesn't understand the Regent's “accidental” death. Was it suicide? Was Duke Kirsten, or the Duchess, that power-hungry? What of Kryn? Who attacked Karnak? How? Why? . - . And what of Kryn? He frowns, for he has no answers. Something has happened in Karnak. Something like a black nuke cloud has appeared next to the Tree of the Regent at the daily Moment of Silence. The Guard Force attacked, and most of the park has been wiped out. An enormous crater remains. The dislocation destroyed the majority of the convenient power grids, and the weather system collapsed. A storm followed, the father of all storms, and the crater is now a lake. Fine enough, Martel reflects, if such an unforeseen catastrophe can be called fine. .. but who would dare? Has the Brotherhood reacted at last to the Edict of Exile? Has some Brother smuggled in a mininuke? Is the whole thing an enormous hoax? Martel shakes his head again. No one on Aurore seems to care. Not a single call back to the CastCenter. The whole report sinking into the pond of public unawareness like a stone cast that created no ripples. An accident with a hunting laser? Why would the Prince Regent suicide? Especially when the .old Emperor is nearing the' end. The Regency Fleets are on full alert, but no unknown ships have been detected in the entire Karnak system. No radiation has been detected in or around the lake that was the Regent's Park. Early reports mentioned a scorched faxtape recovered from the debris, but once it was turned over to the Grand Duke, all mention of it has been omitted. And on Aurore, no one seems to care. “No one cares,” mutters Martel, knowing the words, all too self-pitying, will become one with the sound of the all-too-regular surf. “The Regent suicides. The park is destroyed, and the reports drop into Aurore like a stone into the sea.” A faint sound of bells tinkles in the back of his mind. Martel jerks his head up, scanning both sides of the Petrified Boardwalk. He sees no one. The off-duty newsie lets his senses slide away from his body, extends his perceptions. Nothing, except the faint feeling of bells. Silver bells. Tiny bells. Just the feeling of-bells, and no sound of bells. He shakes his head. Ten standard hours the news has come in, and every stan since the first, it is the same pap. The Imperial Marine Twentieth has arrived in Karnak. All's well. The Fifth, Twelfth, and Eighth Fleets patrol the system. All's well. The Grand Duke assumes the duties as acting Regent. All's well. Power is restored. All's well. Sunrise occurs without incident east of Karnak the morning following the explosion. All's well. The Emperor confirms the Grand Duke as acting Regent. The Fleets return to standby alert. All's well. Martel frowns. Like flame all is well. He'd been suspicious years ago when the Regent's Palace had denied reports of a confirmed power failure. The two events should be connected, and Martel gropes for the time and the details. . . not that it matters. Or does it? A comer of his mind says that it is important. “A brooding philosopher, is that it?” With the words is the same feeling of bells, though her voice is low. He yanks his head away from the ocean view to the woman who stands by his shoulder. She is taller than he is, and her shoulder-length golden hair, eyes to match, and the intensity she conceals all remind him of Kryn. Yet Kryn's hair is black, he remembers. The woman is familiar. . . where has he seen her? “I take it that Kryn is your long- and forever-lost ladylove, Martel?” Who is she? How does she know? How had he missed her approach? “Who are you?” “I could be mysterious, but I won't. Call me Emily. It's not my name, but it will do for now.” “How do you know my name?” Martel feels the bells more strongly now, almost warning him. He pushes the feeling away. He needs to know more. “Who doesn't?” “And who is Kryn?” he bluffs. “Martel, I know everything about you. Including the fact that you're powerful and powerless, and friend to all and friend of none.” “Fancy words. . .” “. . . and you're appealing.” Despite the sincerity in her voice, Martel senses the mockery beneath, some of which is not directed at him. He acknowledges the unstated sarcasm, ignores it, and vaults down off the wall, even though he could appear more graceful with a mental push. He still dislikes using his powers for purely physical aids; three decades have not changed that. “Where to?” he asks. “Wherever. Until we sleep and wake again. I'm yours. Until then. I'm yours.” There is no mockery in that statement, no warning bells to accompany it. “All mine? Without reservations?” “All yours. Perhaps a reservation or two, though not likely to be the ones you'd normally get to.” Martel stops in midstride, looks the golden-haired woman straight in the eyes. She meets his glance without blinking, the black depths of her pupils seeming a thousand kilos deep and a thousand years old. “Who are you?” “I'm Emily. Tonight. Tomorrow ... who knows?” She laughs, and the laugh carries the sound of bells and hunting horns. “Emily. . . or Diana?” “There's a saying about gift horses. . .” “Flame ...” Martel turns and walks northward, vaguely conscious that the woman is matching him stride for stride. Her legs are longer than his, her steps effortless. At the North Pier he stops, wipes the sweat from his forehead. She stands there, smiling, cool, golden, as crisp as she appeared four kilos back down the Petrified Boardwalk. Martel chuckles. “You weren't offering a choice, were you?” He pauses. “All right, I'll take you up on it. Let's drink, and be merry. At the top of the North Pier tower there's a small restaurant . . . open all the time, and quiet. . . not that you don't know that already.” They are the only ones there, besides the host, who seats them at the table on the seapoint of the Star Balcony. The chairs are dark leather that matches the old wood of the circular brassbound table. Both the railing and the overhanging beams lower the light level of perpetual day to that of twilight on another planet. The damper chill of the air is a relief to Martel, who refuses to use his powers to alter his metabolism, and who wonders how Emily remains so cool, unless she is indeed tapping the field. If she is, her action is at such a low level as to be unnoticeable. Martel pushes away the thought that brings. He tries to push away the other thoughts as well, but they do not stay pushed. No one can sneak up on him. No one! But she has. No one can keep up with him for four kilos. But she has, and without breaking a sweat. Diana, not Emily, has to be the right name. And she is familiar, but he doesn't remember how, where, and he doesn't want to think about that now, either. “What's happening on Karnak, lady who knows everything?” As he finished the question, he lifts the glass, just delivered by the unsmiling and dark-skinned host, swallows, and lets the cold Springfire ease down the back of his throat. He would prefer it from a jasolite beaker, but jasolite beakers and old Anglish decor apparently do not go together. “You're right. They don't,” responds Emily/Diana/????, “but then the old Anglish never would have created an open and paneled balcony above the sea, either.” “Karnak?” prompts Martel, consciously shielding his thoughts and taking another sip of the Springfire. “You can take the student out of Karnak, but not Karnak out of the student. Isn't that how the saying goes? Karnak the soul of the Empire of Man. . . Karnak the Magnificent.” Her lips twist slightly as she finishes. Martel nods, looks away from the woman, all too conscious of the tanned body beneath the thin white chiton, of the fine-sculptured neck under the antique copper choker. The regular beat of the surf drops a level. Martel knows it will maintain the lower waves for several standard hours, unless a sudden storm comes up, or a flurry of so-called god waves. “Can you get there by candlelight?” he murmurs. “Yes, and back again.” He twitches. “I've studied you, Martel. Turned from your great ladylove Kryn, you did, to the words, to the dusty tapes of antiquity.” He pushes back his chair, puts both hands on the wide arm-rests. Emily raises a hand, and he feels a gentle force pushing him back into his seat. “You really are the bitch goddess. You really are.” “Did I say I wasn't?” She smiles. Martel likes the smile, drinks it in, and doesn't trust it. The candle on the table, dark green, square, winks out. Martel relights it with a thought, lets it bum, lets the flame flare, and squeezes it into a narrow column that flickers level with Emily's golden eyes, and turns the flame black. He relaxes his hold, and the golden-green flame returns to normal. “Very impressive for a nongod.” “Flame tricks, dear bitch goddess. What's happening on Karnak?” “You're the newsie. Tell me.” “You're the goddess. Tell me what's behind the news.” “Either an old, old god or a new god, and the gods themselves don't know.” “So the gods .are only gods. Is that it?” Martel again turns the candle flame black, this time to stay . . . at least until snuffed and relit. “Why do you fight everything, Martel? You could be a god, and you fight that. You could have light, and you fight that. You could have me, and you fight that. Some things are meant to be.” He looks up at Emily. Even though she returns the study, her eyes open, they are hooded. But her words ring true, like gold coins dropped on a stone table. Martel stands, walks around the table, and eases back the heavy chair for her. “Some things I don't fight. Not forever. Shall we go?” He reaches for her hand. The fires crackle, black flames licking from his arms and white from hers, twining in the space and instants before their fingers touch. A plain gold flitter crouches at the end of the pier, empty. They enter. The hillside villa is small, five rooms in all, with limited access. The cliffs to the back are impassable to any casual visitor, and the lawns and gardens to the front stretch into what seems an endless forest, though he can spot a trail several kilos beneath the villa. The master chamber opens to the south and to a vista including Sybernal. Martel takes another look at the sweeping emerald lawns that drop toward the distant town, toward the pine forests that seem to guard the grounds. Emily, or Diana, reappears at his elbow, still wearing die thin white chiton and antique necklace. She is barefoot, without the white leather sandals. “You're determined to waste all the time you have, aren't you?” “Me?” “You.” “Why did you find me?” “Why not? Opposites attract.” “Oh. I'm mortal, and you're a goddess? I wear black, and you wear white?” “Nothing that simple. You could be a god, but refuse. You could wear any color, but chose black, which is all colors or none. You could have any woman, but spurn them all.” “You make it sound so simple,” growls Martel, refusing to look at her, knowing that the minute he does he will want her. “Nothing's simple.” “You, Martel, assume that everything is linked. I'm not asking for the future. I want the now.” Her hand touches the back of his wrist. He can feel the electricity build in him, holds it to himself, holds back from looking away from the view of Sybernal. “You find me unattractive? Or are you afraid?” The oldest ploys in the universe. Of course she's attractive. And of course you're afraid. You're afraid of your own shadow, Martel, he thinks, not realizing that he has projected his doubts. Emily says nothing. Stands next to him, her fingers touching his hand, letting the breeze from the open vista wash over them. Goddesses don't need sashes or sills, do they, the half-thought strikes him, strikes him as tie feels his body responding to the desire Emily projects. Not .projects, just plain has. She wants him. Does he want her? Really want her? Does it matter? What about Rathe? Or Kryn? “... Then love the one you're with,” he murmurs, and turns toward Emily, golden Emily, gilded Diana, whose arms come around his neck, and whose lips meet his. Kryn, Rathe, Kryn ... he buries the names before they emerge as his hands tighten on the bitch goddess he holds, as he drops into the depths and the eternities she represents. He should feel sleepy, but doesn't, as they lie next to each other, hands touching, arms touching, legs touching. “What was she like, Martel?” Emily's voice is softer than he'd imagined it could be. “Who?” “Your lady Kryn.” “Bitch.” His voice is flat. “If you don't want to talk, you don't have to. Were you making love to me or to her?” “Suppose I say both and neither? Suppose I say her?” “Suppose you did. You still wanted me.” “Yes.” “Then that's enough for now. Now is all you have, Martel. Unless you stop fighting it, and become a god. Or recognize that you are.” “Do you want me just because I'm stubborn?” She laughs, and the silver bells ring in her voice and in his mind. “Touche.” The pines outside the marble pillars sigh with the breeze. Her hand leaves his, touches his bare shoulder, caresses the back of his neck. “Martel?” “Umm?” “Don't waste any more time.” He rolls on his side to face her, lets his eyes run over her slender body, over the high breasts of the huntress goddess, over the even golden skin. . . The second time is gentler. He awakes alone in the bed, scrambles to his feet. The villa is empty, except for the master chamber closet, where three identical white chitons hang, with three sets of identical white sandals beneath. In the bathing chamber, a heated bath steams as he opens the portal. A thick black towel is laid out. His tunic and trousers, immaculately clean, are hung next to the towel, with his boots beneath. Next to his clothes hangs also a black cloak, with an attached collar pin, a black thunderbolt that glistens. He uses his perceptions to probe the cloak and pin, but they are what they are, merely a cloak and a pin. He steps into the bath. Later, clad in his own clothes and the cloak he knows is a present from Emily, he walks out to the landing stage where the golden flitter waits, empty and door ajar. Now. . . he remembers where he has seen Emily. On the I. D. cube at the CastCenter, on that single cube that had brought the call of blasphemy and knocked poor Marta Farell right out of bed. Of course. The goddess in one of her playful moments. That is not quite right, he knows, but he shivers, and glances back at the white villa for a last look before he enters the flitter. XXVII A raven—consider the bird. Bulky, black-feathered, wings stubby for the size of its body, raw-voiced and scratchy-toned, if you will, a scavenger, an overgrown crow. And yet a raven is more than the sum of the description. Consider the raven, who stands for the darkness and destruction, who embodies all the forebodings of those who cannot fly, and who brings the night to day. Is then the eagle, who is also scavenger and predator, feathered and screeching in broad daylight, whose sole superiority over the raven is size, the better bird, the more magnificent symbol? Which would be the mightier were their sizes reversed? Could we accept all that the raven is. . . and grant him the wingspan of an eagle? Or is it that we who eat carrion do not like to be reminded of that and revere the predator who tears bloody meat from just-killed corpses? On planets where the sun kills and the night revives, which would be the better power symbol—eagle or raven? —Comparative Symbols Edwy Dirlieth Argo, A. D. 2356 XXVIII Taking the last steps two at a time, Martel reaches the top of the walk that leads to his cottage. Mrs. Alderson is asleep. That he can tell from the sense of quiet around the bigger house. The quince by the front portal of the cottage has finally decided to bloom, one of the few times since he arrived on Aurore. As he approaches the low stone slab that serves as porch, front stoop, and delivery area, he stops. Tucked into the portal is a white oblong. He leans forward and picks it up. The old-fashioned white paper envelope contains an equally antique handwritten letter. The name on the envelope is his and also handwritten, but he does not recognize the hand, though it does not belong to any of his ladies. Of that he is certain. He casts his thoughts around the cottage, but finds no one, no sense of lingering. That means the letter within the envelope was left or delivered while he was still at the CastCenter beaming forth his cubes of reassurance on behalf of Gate Seven. Martel frowns. He sniffs the envelope. The scent, faint indeed, and overlaid with the acridity of ship ozone, is feminine. Willing the portal to open rather than using his thumb, he steps inside. After debating whether to open the envelope immediately, he compromises and fills a beaker half full with Springfire before retreating to the rear porch to open and read the letter. Eridian/Halston Martel— I don't know whether you heard. Gates and I bought out our contracts and settled here. We never knew what you heard after Marta's “Edict.” For reasons you can understand, we were afraid to risk contacting you while we were still on Aurore. So this is sort of an apology, and a long-delayed thank you. Long-delayed because I realized my dreams were true. They weren't dreams at all. Gates had an accident last year. He was hit by a malfunctioning flitter and almost didn't make it. The doctor made a real fuss. They insisted Gates was fifty standard years younger than he is. His heart and arteries especially. The phrase that sticks in my mind is “almost as if his heart and aorta were rebuilt.” That's where the dreams come in. One dream I've had ever since you showed up at the CastCenter. Gates is pointing a needier at you. Stupid, I suppose, since Gates has never owned one. But you were throwing a black thunderbolt at him. Next thing, he's lying on the ground, and you are keeping him from dying. Don't ask me how. The neurotechs tell me that they aren't dreams. I either saw it or I believe I saw it. It doesn't make any difference which. For whatever reason, you saved Gates twice, in effect. I also wonder why I gave up cernadine. Your influence? As always, the questions are unanswered, and I don't expect a reply. You are what you are, and for that I am grateful now. I hope you stay that way. Your road is long, I know, and ' Gates and I, despite your gifts, will be dust long before you scale your heights. Hollie P. S. You're also the best faxer left on Aurore, whatever else you may be. Martel leans back in the chair, places the letter on the table, and picks up the beaker to take another sip of Springfire. A single chirp from the dorle in the back quince breaks the morning quiet. So your road is long, Martel. How long? He pushes his own question away and puts down the beaker without taking another sip. As he stands the breeze from his abruptness swirls the paper letter to the floor, half under the table. Martel leaves it there and paces to the window to look up the hill at the farthest pair of quince trees. “Even when you erase the footprints and change the memories. . . just like the song.” The words slip out before he thinks. He does not sing, but, instead, the words hang in the air next to him, glowing. / saw your footprints on the sand, Yesterday; I saw your smile so close at hand, Yesterday. Yet twenty years have come and gone, Since then; My hair has silvered from our dawn, Since then. And all my days have passed away, All my nights are yesterday. Martel does not look at the golden words he has wrought. Slowly they dim, and after a time the last yesterday fades. Only a single black glittermote circles his left shoulder. He remembers the letter and retrieves it from under the table, looks at it as if it represents a puzzle he cannot solve. Finally, he places it on the shelf next to the book of poems by Ferlinol. The thin white sheets of paper, with their message from Eridian and the past, fold in upon each other, glow briefly, darken, and stretch into a single black rose. Martel wipes his forehead and looks away from the flower that will outlast the cottage, and, perhaps, Martel himself. Always harder, isn't it, when you start to care again? He picks up the beaker from the table and downs the rest of the Springfire with a single gulp, ignoring the line of fire that sears his palate and flames down his throat. The dorle chirps once again from the quince. XXIX Some stores are open at all hours, and when Martel leaves the CastCenter, his steps bear him toward the southern edge of the merchants' district, toward Ibrahim's. He needs Springfire, perhaps some scampig, if Ibrahim has any today, and a few other, more common, items. Good thing you've got an autochef, Martel. Without it, the culinary monotony would have been unrelieved. The air is quiet on this morning of eternal day and becomes even more motionless as he enters the white-gray paved lanes that indicate the area where the natives, and Martel, shop. Aldus the bootmaker, oblivious to anyone, is letting down his awning as Martel approaches, scowling and wrestling with the heavy black iron crank. Martel waves. Aldus wipes the scowl from his face and, smiling a faint smile, waves back. Across the land and three shops down from the bootmaker's is the next open doorway. As he nears it Martel can already smell the aroma of liftea and freshly baked ceron rolls. The bakery must be new, since he does not recall it. Outside the fresh white walls and polished door he pauses, then decides to go inside. Entering, from the corner of his eye he sees an older woman, her brown hair shot with gray, disappear through a side door into another room, leaving only her son, a boy of perhaps eleven standard years, behind the counter where the just-baked ceron rolls are laid out. The liftea has been brewed in an enormous samovar that stands alone on the counter next to the baked goods. Neatly racked beside the tea machine is a tray of blue porcelain mugs, each facedown on a white linen napkin. “Good day, young man,” offers Martel. “Good day, sir. What would you like, sir?” The youngster smiles easily, and Martel smiles back. “Are the rolls as good as they smell?” “I like them, but we also have the plain ones on the other tray.” “If you like them,” says Martel with a laugh, “I'll have to try one, and a mug of the liftea.” He hands the boy his credit disc. “Oh, sir. I couldn't.” The boy looks away. “Why not?” “1... 1... just - . . well. . . ah. . .” His eyes are still fixed on the floor tiles. Flame! Flame! Flame! “My credit's good, young man, and I would rather be charged for it.” The boy finally recovers. “It would be our pleasure, sir.” “I'm afraid I'll have to insist. If people like me eat and don't pay, how would you and your family stay in business?” The boy's mouth drops open, only for an instant, but he takes the proffered disc and sets it in the reader, which transfers the small credit balance to the bakery. “Thank you, sir. I hope you like the ceron. It really is my favorite, except maybe for the spice sticks, and we don't have any of those this morning.” “Ceron it is.” He picks up one of the sticky rolls and takes a bite. The orange-and-spice taste is as good as the smell, and he finishes the roll in three quick bites. He wipes his fingers on one of the small square napkins laid out on the counter next to the mugs. The pungent liftea clears the slightly cloying aftertaste of the ceron from his mouth. Martel looks up from the mug to see a man half enter the bakery, then abruptly back out into the lane. Martel downs the last of the liftea and places the mug on the empty tray where, he presumes, it should go. “As good as you said,” he tells the boy, who is still alone in the room with him. “Thank you, sir. Have a good day.” “I suppose I will. You too.” Martel leaves the shop with a smile on his face. Ought to do that more often, Martel. You stay too much to yourself these days. He glances toward the bootmaker's shop, but the awning is fully down and extended, and Aldus has gone back inside. Should get another pair of boots one of these days, I suppose. The lane is deserted, except for two girls playing in the emerald grass next to the linen shop across from the bakery. The proprietor of the linen shop half steps out of her door, then darts back inside, as if she has forgotten something, Martel shrugs and resumes his walk toward Ibrahim's. A muted clanging becomes increasingly more insistent, and by the time he reaches the middle of the next row of small businesses, each with a low-fenced and trimmed side yard, the sound resembles an off-tune gong. Behind the grassy lawn that circles a single cormapple, a double door to a metalworking shed stands open, and through the open doors Martel can see two men wrestling with what seems to be a metal tank. For several units he stands and watches the two as they struggle to straighten the crumpled end of the tank. After the bent metal is smoothed, however, they apply the patch plate quickly, and the two lift the tank onto a small delivery wagon. Martel looks away from the shed to discover he is being studied by a small, wide-eyed girl who hangs over the half-story railed balcony. He looks back at her, directly. She continues her study. He smiles. Her dark brown eyes widen farther, if possible. “...oh...” The sound comes from behind him, from the metalworking shed, and he glances toward it. Standing frozen in the double doorway is one of the two men who had been working on the tank. The sleeveless tunic emphasizes his burliness and the bronzed nature of his skin. The man is black-haired, clean-shaven, and his mouth hangs open as he stares at Martel. For a long instant, the three of them stand locked in that triangle, unmoving. Martel breaks the pattern by grinning at the girl, who could not possibly stand taller than his waist. “Have a good day, young lady.” He waves and turns to continue his steps toward the food shop. “Bye-bye.” The girl's response drifts back. There is also the sound of air being exhaled, a deep breath, as if the metalworker had forgotten to breathe. Martel sees no one else in the two blocks before he reaches the food store. Ibrahim's shop is empty, except for the proprietor, who is seated, as he always is, in his dark brown tunic and trousers, on the high stool behind the counter. “Who's there?” “Martel. I need two bottles of Springfire, a few other things.” “Heard your beach story again the other day. I wish I could have seen it.” “Thank you.” Martel picks the Springfire out of the racks and sets both bottles on the counter, then checks the meat cooler for the scampig. He is in luck; several small fillets are available. He wraps them in the transparency and places the package next to the bottles. Taking a pear from the fruit section, he adds a scoop of rice which he bags, a box of noodles, and a scattering of vegetables, all of which he has wrapped into a single package. At last, he stands before the counter. “What's this?” asks the shopkeeper as his fingers flicker over the package of combined and mixed fresh vegetables. “Mixed-up vegetables. Just charge me for whatever's the most expensive. That would be the garnet beans.” “The whole thing is thirty-five credits, sir.” “That's fine, lbrahim. Run it through.” “Yes, sir.” The entire order will fit in the collapsible pack Martel unrolls from his belt pouch. He packs the items as lbrahim feeds his credit disc into the reader and transfer system. As Martel lifts the pack to his back he sees a young woman, blond, green-eyed, heavyset, and wearing a burgundy overtunic, peer in the doorway and immediately back away. “Have a good day,” Martel says as he leaves the counter, placing the credit disc back in his pouch. “You, too. I'll be listening tonight.” Not that the poor bastard could do otherwise, Martel, not both blinded and blessed for his sins. “You're probably one of the few natives who do listen, lbrahim, one of the very few. Take care.” Not that he has much choice there, either. “Thank you, sir.” Martel pauses in the entranceway and looks back up the lane. As far as he can see, no one has set foot on the stones of the pavement, no one at all. Should you remove Ibrahim's blindness? You could, you know. Martel looks down at the white-gray stones underfoot, then back up the deserted lane. Finally he shakes his head. Apollo would just reblind him, and, besides, where would you shop then, without everyone running away? He sets his steps toward the south, toward the isolated house and cottage beyond Sybernal. His paces are not light, but they are quick, and eat away the distance. XXX The man—who wonders whether he is—sits under the covered porch. He glances up at the wooden planks over his head, lets his eyes trace out the old, old wood from the newer old wood. To the eye, the difference is not great, though he can sense the lack of harmony that the best carpentry cannot fully disguise. Smoothing the sundered patterns would be easy enough, Like melding into the flowing day-to-day existence of Aurore. Like forgetting dark-haired girls with golden eyes, or fire-haired women with green eyes, or demigods cast back into the sea. “Except—” The words break as he stands, stretches. “Except what, Martel?” he snaps at himself. Except you're a lousy forgetter. Shaking his head, he picks up the cup from the low table and gulps down the last of the yasmin tea. He wears only a pair of black shorts, and is barefoot and clean-shaven. His heavy steps thud as he crosses the porch. The cup floats from his hands and stacks itself in the cleaner. He continues on into his sleeping quarters. In the wardrobe are three dusty pale yellow tunics, with matching trousers, kept to remind him, and three sets of matching black tunics and their trousers. Martel pulls on the nearest set of black pants, then the black tunic and the black belt. He sits in midair and pulls on the heavy black boots. At one end of the closet is the black cloak. He has not worn it since it was given to him, but it repels the dust and is as fine as the day Emily left it in her villa for him. He looks at the belt, with the triangular silver buckle that is his only ornamentation. You wear the belt but not the cloak. Rathe, not Emily. What does that mean? He frowns, gathers a hint of darkness around him, and, his dressing done, strides from the sleeping room back into the main room of the cottage. The darkness, and the power it represents, both are things apart from the golden energy field of Aurore. Just as you're a thing apart? Come off it, Martel. He shakes his head again. Harder. On Aurore, how can you tell what you believe from what is real? Or from what some god would have you believe is real? He stretches out his left arm, palm open and upward, and inhales, leaving his senses to take in the faint tang of the ocean beyond the hillcrest, to take in the subdued chitter of the dorles in the quince trees. In his open palm shimmers a black oval, a miniature doorway to ... where? Martel is not sure, releases his mental grasp on the cold depths, and lets the blackness vanish. Is it real? Or illusion? Real, he decides. For the hundredth time or so. There is a feel to power, and an absolute feel to absolute power. Call it certainty, reflects Martel. He gestures toward the inside wall, the blank one, letting his fingers trace a figure. From his hand flows the stuff of darkness, outlining a crude figure, something not seen in the indirect and omnipresent lighting of Aurore. “Shadow, shadow, on the wall, Who casts the longest shade of all? Is it death; or yet desire? Is it night, tamed by fire? “Who's the man who lights the lamp And calls the storm that brings the damp? Which the god who blocks the sun And fills the rivers in their run? “Call the hammer, call the lightning. . .” He closes his mouth. The old words have power still, lifting him into the role, letting him imagine he is a god. Not now. Not yet. Not ever. And yet. . . Who can say “ever” or “never” and know? Really know? Martel shrugs. The shadow vanishes from the wall, the only remnant the small cloud of black glittermotes that hovers above Martel before winking out. One touches down on Martel's left shoulder, clings. Letting his perceptions slide around the corner from where he stands, he checks the timer above the autochef. Time to leave for the CastCenter. Walking will give him the time to think over the puzzles. Don't you just like to walk? Admit it, Martel. Do you really think then? He leans to touch the light panel on his way out, cannot quite reach it, and turns it off with a mental tap. Another black glittermote appears and settles on his right shoulder, paired nearly invisibly on the black of his tunic opposite the other mote. As he heads down the steps to the coast highway, a dorle chitters once. He knows not why, but Rathe comes to mind. Rathe? Why do you keep thinking about her? She left. You didn't search, not really. Short strides, quick strides, untiring strides bear him toward Sybernal, toward the CastCenter. She called you a god, and you let her go. A quick glance toward the flat surface of the ocean tells him that the waves, long and sleek in their golden greenness, are flatter than usual. Why are you so hung up on this esper crew that calls themselves gods? Talented, yes. Gods, no. Right? The air seems a shade more golden, along with the calm, and the highway is deserted. Like when Rathe found you the cottage? Stop it! Do you love her? Honestly? ' No. Like her? Respect her? Yes. His dialogue with his unseen devil or conscience is brought to a halt with his perception of the sheer raw energy ahead. His legs keep pumping as he quick-steps up the paved highway and over the gentle hilltop. Just over the crest sits the doctor/god Apollo in an insubstantial chair. The four legs of the chair are yellow snakes. The back is composed of two fanned dragon wings. Beneath his golden ringlets Apollo's face is expressionless. At his right foot lies the body of a man. . . young, dark-haired, facedown. Dead. By his left quivers a redheaded woman, sobbing silently, dryly. Rathe. Rathe. “Balance, Martel. You do not understand the need for balance. Power must be balanced with the understanding of its impact on mere mortals. Belief is more powerful than power.” Apollo tells the truth as he sees it, Martel knows; his words ring like a flat carillon. Martel gathers his darkness around him, bemused as the clouds of black glittermotes appear from nowhere. “Before you try to employ that energy, Martel, be so kind as to observe.” Martel nods, reaching out a thin thread of thought to reassure Rathe. Apollo outlines a golden square in the air. Colors swirl and resolve into a picture. Martel watches, a comer of his mind still occupied with the huddled figure that is Rathe Firien, as the small drama comes to an end. Rathe is helping another of Apollo's would-be demigods become accustomed to Aurore. Except ... except this time she does not offer her body and soul. Does not. Does not humble herself. The man, pursuing, strikes out with all his mental force. . . and the force misses Rathe and rebounds upon him. Partly, Martel surmises, because Rathe is wearing the same shielding as when she first met him, partly because the man is a lower-level esper, and partly because. . . Martel wonders if along with his physical gifts he had given her some shields of her own. In the picture conjured by Apollo, the last scene shows Rathe looking down at a body, the same body that lies at Apollo's feet. “You see, Martel, what you have done.” I? Come off it, you pious fraud! Martel twists raw hunks of power, not from the energy field of Aurore, from his own depths, and marshals it within. You cannot harm me, Martel. “No! . . . No. - .” murmurs a small voice. Martel looks at his former lover and holds his energies. “Why not?” he temporizes. “Because—” Her statement is never completed, for Apollo touches her, and she is gone. A flash Of flame, and she is gone. . . - you'll be like him. Those were her last thoughts, and they fade into the golden haze. Martel hesitates. Looks at Apollo, standing yellow-bright, smirking, daring Martel to strike. Martel gathers his darkness even tighter into himself. . . and walks around the chair with the flickering legs, around the smirking god, and begins to trot toward Sybernal. Step, step, step, step. - . and wipe your cheek. Step, step, step. Wipe. Step, step, step. . . She asked you not to. But Rathe is gone. For what? Gone in flame because of a mad god. And he, Martel, had not seen it coming. Had not seen the total disregard, the snuffing out of a vital woman, snap. Had not believed power so cavalierly used. But she asked you not to. Rathe had not asked for help, had not begged for anything . . . just for Martel not to attack Apollo. And not because she feared Martel would be hurt. “Because you'll be like him.” That was what she'd said. Martel shudders even as he keeps trotting. Are all gods like that? Isn't everyone with power? Kryn. Lovely Kryn, having her guards fire on a lonely Martin Martel just because he'd been discovered to have esper potential. The Grand Duke, who ruled high in Karnak, throwing the Imperial Marines after a solitary student who had displeased his daughter. Emily, the carnal goddess, taking what she wanted and leaving. No good-bye. Just the power to arouse and take and discard. And leave a black cloak as a thank-you. Is that what becoming a god of Aurore means? Does it have to mean that? Step, step, step. He lets his pace slow to a quick walk as he crosses the “official” southern boundary of Sybernal, where the Petrified Boardwalk begins. The refrain from the Heroes' Song echoes in his thoughts: Tell me now, and if you must, That a man's much more than dust. If Aurore is light, if Apollo is the sun-god. . . no god will I be. Not by choice, nor by accident. Not now, not ever. Stuffing the swirling energies, the black fires, deep inside himself, Martel touches the CastCenter entry plate. “Martel, evening shift.” That's right. Evening, evening in youth. Evening in full light. Why not? Light is a lie, promising everything and signifying nothing. XXXI A small, dark-haired girl stands on a half-story balcony and looks to the south. She inclines her head slightly, as if bowing to an unseen presence, then lifts it and stares into the south-em distances. “Derissa?” She ignores the call and continues to watch the southern heavens, and their eternal gold. “Derissa!” The girl makes the sign of the inverted and looped cross and walks back into her bedroom to obey her mother's call. . . . Up the lane, behind closed doors of a workroom, the bootmaker Aldus labors over a pair of black formboots. He checks the seams of the left upper, squinting as he draws the black leather next to his eye. He nods and puts it down, begins to check over the right upper. The door opens behind him. “How are you doing, dear?” “So far, so good.” “Your supper's ready.” “I'll be there in a moment, as soon as I check this one over.” “You've checked, and checked, and checked.” “It has to be perfect.” “Would He know the difference?” “No, probably not, but you never know. And I would. Unlike some of Them, He pays, and pays what they're worth. Almost, anyway.” The bootmaker does not lift his eyes from the black leather. After a time, the woman looks away, shakes her head silently, and retreats to the kitchen. . . . On a golden sand beach, across the Middle Sea, a boy, playing on the sheltered beach under the cliff on which his parents' house rests, scoops up a handful of sand for his castle. The dark glitter catches his eye. In among the golden and silver grains of sand are black ones, sands so black that each grain seems to absorb the light, but glistens all the same. He begins to separate the black grains from the silver and gold ones, until at last he has a small handheld heap of mostly black and glittering sand. “Morn! See what I found!” His mother wades in from the low surf to meet him in the ankle-deep water. “See! See how shiny it is!” “Pierre, put that sand down. The black ones are dangerous.” “But why?” “Put it down. All of it.” “I want to know why.” “When you're older, I'll tell you. Put it down.” “But why?” “I told you it was dangerous. When you are older, I will tell you why. Now. . . put. . . it. . . down!” “All right.” He throws the black glimmerings into the water lapping around his anides. “All right, but you'd better tell me. You promised. You promised.” “I will. I will. Now. . . let's see if you can still float on your back.” . . . In the secret hollowed-out space beneath the old stone house, they begin to gather. By ones, by twos, the figures drift in and take their places in the small chapel, until the requisite score has assembled. The man in the brown robe finally approaches the cube, black on all sides, on which stands a single black candle. He does not light it. “Oh, hear our prayers, undeclared God of Night. God of Darkness, deliver us from Light.” “Hear our prayers.” “Oh, hear our songs, God of the Evening, God of Blackness.” In time, up wells the familiar refrain: “. . . And the Hammer of Darkness will fall from the sky; The old gods must fly, and the summer will die. . ,” The black candle remains unlit on the black stone cube. “Deliver us from Light; deliver us from the flame of our oppression, from eternal day that lets us rest not, nor slumber. Hear us, and deliver us, thy servants, from the bondage of eternal brilliance. . .” XXXII For the third day running, the waves break over the top of the golden sand beach, and the biting spray reaches over the bill-crest and down to the porch where Martel sits. As all mortals do, his landlady, Mrs. Alderson, had succumbed to time, even though her life had been prolonged a great deal more than she had expected. For reasons unknown to Martel, who remains uninterested in the finer details of cellular biology, his attempts to rejuvenate the gray-haired woman failed, though she was unaware of his efforts. Surprisingly, her testament, last declared less than a standard year after he had come to live in the small cottage, had offered him the right to buy either the cottage or the house, or both. With the continuing royalties from his reruns—both Forgotten Beaches of Aurore and Postulant Communities of Aurore are a steady source of income—he purchased both and rented the house out, preferring to stay in the cottage. The present occupants of the house are a middle-aged couple on sabbatical from the University of Karnak. Most of Martel's renters have been outsider norms. Those who decide to stay move elsewhere. Martel shakes his head. The mannerism is unnecessary, he knows, but he enjoys hanging on to some of his useless habits. Martel sniffs the air, and the salt tang reminds him of the waves whose muffled crashes he can hear from the other side of the hill. The continuing waves are unnatural, even on Aurore. After three days, they are not likely to disappear, not until they achieve their purpose. Another challenge? Or annoyance? He rises, his face clear, eyes hooded, dark. A stocky man, modest in height, black-haired, lightly tanned, apparently in the health of first maturity. His steps are heavy, but they have been heavy since youth, as he descends the three steps from the porch to the hillside. He walks up the grassy slope to the top of the hill that overlooks the small bay. At the crest he pauses. The spray flings itself upward in misty patches, glistening in the indirect light that gives the breakers themselves a threatening yellow look. From his vantage point he can see the outward path of at least one riptide. He shrugs as he starts down the hillside, the shadows gathering around his black-clad form. A dorle chitters at him, but wings over and glides across the hilltop to perch in one of the quinces and to wait. Any close observer would note that Martel's feet do not quite touch the grass over which he marches and that there is no direct light to cast the shadows that trail him. From the grass that does not bend under his tread to the sand that does not receive his footprints he heads straight toward the waters, and they part around him. He walks through gold-green breakers as if they are not there, and the waters crash over the places where he has been without touching him. Overhead, a white bird with deep golden eyes and black pupils circles, then vanishes. His head beneath the water's surface, he follows the line of the sloping beach at least a kilo outward. By now the waves are nearly a hundred meters over his head, yet his hair is still in place, and he moves, bone-dry, over the seabed sands. At the edge of the rocky shelf he stops, knowing that beneath his feet is the beginning of a slope that will drop nearly a kilo in several hundred meters. By rights, that for which he searches should be near. Out into the nearby waters he casts his thoughts, and on the first cast snares nothing. Nor on the second. Nor on the third. Some little patience has evolved in his years of avoiding what others regard as inevitable, and he changes his cast, refocuses his thoughts, and tries again. And again. At last, a glimmer, a slight tug. That is enough, and he turns his steps southward, paralleling the dropoff, striding quickly, as if the water were not surrounding him. Above the sea the white bird, golden-eyed, circles, following his general track. A giant sea eagle, spotting the smaller avian, stoops to kill, and is brushed aside with a sudden gust of wind. The eagle tries again and is again brushed aside, and circles in confusion before deciding on the easier prey of a flying ray. In midskim from wavetop to wavetop the ray twists. But the intended evasion is too late, and the eagle flaps heavily toward his cliff eyrie with his meal. Circling still, the white bird follows Martel. As Martel proceeds toward his objective the clear water becomes less clear, and then even less so, until eyesight becomes useless. Martel is untroubled and unaffected and disappears into the cloud of sediment and suspended sand. A few hundred strides farther on, he halts. The suspended material whirls from an ever-expanding pit. Although Martel cannot see, he knows that at the center of the pit is a restrained and chained demigod. One suffering the punishment of a major god, and perhaps, placed in such a way as to infuriate the not-quite-major goddess who rules the shallows. Should he free the chained demigod, the one creating the turbulence in his twin efforts to escape the eternal chains and to fight off the minions of Thetis? If he frees the unknown demigod, both may turn on him. The former because only by subduing Martel can he return to the good graces of those who chained him. By now Martel has discovered that the demigod is male and that his principal tool is the fire of lava. In turn, Thetis may attack because Martel will have intruded and robbed her of her due. She would have all thrown to her serve her, for at least a time. Martel steps forward and descends through the swirls of boiling water and glass rain, down until the only light is the heat that surrounds the captive, light that is dimmed a fraction of a meter from its source. For though the eternal chains are metal, no heat will melt them, no superhuman strength rend the unseamed black links which, no matter how deep the chained one melts away the rock, stretch yet deeper into the depths. Do not free me unless you will .pay the price. Martel snorts at the contradiction. Any being who can free the demigod must have power superior to his. Martel smiles, faintly, knowing the other cannot sense his humor, gathers further his own darkness, his own chill depths, and touches one link, then the other chain. The metal draws back from his touch, glistens more blackly, if possible, then fades and is gone. Martel gestures, and the water is crystal-clear again. Of the eternal chains there is no sign. The onetime captive, dressed in skintight red, reaches forth across the water he has warmed to grasp the man in black. As he does his arms lengthen impossibly. Those arms burn, and the water vaporizes away from them. Fool! Instead of turning away, Martel glides forward into the heat, into the grasp of Hades, lets the would-be god of fire enfold him. No! For now Martel holds the other's arms, more tightly than the eternal chains, for yet a moment before he releases the one in red. He steps away and points. With the shadow he dispatches through the water goes the one in red, wrapped for delivery to the Sacred Peak. Was that wise, Martel? Still in the depths hollowed by the demigod of fire, Martel looks up the green-glass side of the submarine amphitheater to the one who addressed him. • Thetis? Who else? Your pardon, but the unnaturalness of the waves beckoned. He walks up the glass-smooth slope that would be impassable for most, as if walking up a sheer glass incline a hundred meters undersea and remaining totally dry were not at all unusual. Thetis, at home, in her ocean, is not dry. Rather, the water enfolds her, and her clear green hair flows over her naked shoulders, front and back, like a cloak. In her right hand is a small trident. Her left is open, empty, as Martel approaches. The unnaturalness was meant to call you. So I waited. To see what you would do: And? Why did you not destroy him? He would have done that to you. And give them a reason? Your refusal to accept godhood on their terms is reason enough. Martel shrugs, smiles a small smile. But I would not give them reason were I in their place. That is what is important. She lifts her trident halfway. Do not, dear Thetis. For I love the sea, and I would grieve. You mock me. You mock the gods. No. The energy gathers around the green goddess. Martel gathers his darkness, the black from the depths out and beyond the field, out and beyond Aurore. The cold and the fire and the remoteness invest him. No longer a mere human figure, no longer merely immortal, he stands apart. The water draws farther back from him, as if in fear. The sand under his feet shrinks from the soles of the black boots. His eyes are the depths of the places where there are no stars, the distances from whence stars cannot be seen, and his eyes. . . they bum. They burn black, with a light that casts shadow across the entire seabed. A light where there should be no light, and a shadow where none should be. Still is the sea, and awful. The trident drops, and with it the bare knee, followed by the inclined head. For all this, Thetis, for all this, dear lady, no more am I god than this water, or that boulder. She shivers, though she is not cold. God of darkness, god of night, that you endure where light reigns, that you are, that you triumph, means there are no gods. Not as you would call them. Martel nods, releases his hold on the darks and on the depths. That may be. I am no god. Only a man who knows more than many, and a little more than some. No. Her thought bears sadness. Not just man. Thinking so will bring sorrow to you, to all who surround you. More sorrow than you have experienced. Already you ignore the tears. Is it not so? He does not answer, except with a short furrow of his brows. Thetis belts the small trident, blows Martel a kiss, one that crosses the water between them and caresses his forehead. If not god, accept what you are, Martel. He salutes the departing sea-goddess with an upraised hand, and, in turn, directs his steps toward the shoreline. The sea is flat, motionless yet as he emerges, and as his black boots touch the sand. The air is quiet, and hawks, the dories, and the golden sea eagles all perch where perches each, waiting. When his last step clears the water, when he turns and again salutes the mistress of the sea, only then do the gentle waves resume, the sea breezes flow, and the sea birds fly. Martel realizes his cheeks are wet, not from the water, for no water has touched him. In response, he presses lips to fingertips and breathes the kiss back across to the sea, back to Thetis. XXXIII Help! Martel stumbles, trying to pinpoint the direction of the thought, looking around, glancing up toward the shore and the Petrified Boardwalk. A scattered handful of people—mostly natives—make their way through the fully lit and evening streets of Sybernal. Not a one of the three within ten meters of Martel has even flinched. Despite the faintness of the thought, the aura of the plea is familiar. He cocks his head, trying to remember, to make a comparison. Not poor lost Rathe, for even the desperation of the thought holds a hardness that Rathe would never possess. Why dig that up? She's gone. Gone. Martel trots to the next comer, peering around it. No one notices him in the Street of Traders, not even the old man whose boot store is yet open with its green awning overhanging the public way. Martel darts into the narrow lane around the comer from the bootery, gathers his shadows about him, and rises into the light. He does not notice the looped sign the bootmaker traces in the air as the black raven circles up from the lane, nor the averted glance of the young girl whose balcony he passes as he flaps awkwardly northward, from where he thinks the plea for help has come. Martel! God of the Darkness! Save me! Martel's wings miss a beat, and he loses altitude, then converts his drop into a dive, wings folded. For the desperate prayer has indeed come from the CastCenter. The locked portals open at his touch. Already the center feels empty, devoid of life. Martel's thoughts precede his body through the corridors toward the main control center. An aura of power is fading, an aura that Martel recognizes, from the control room, where Martel knows he will find what he does not want to see. In the center, in the open space before the console, which is slaved to remote and broadcasting an opera from Karnak, on that open floor are three objects. The first is a sheet of golden parchment, scrolled, on which a name appears. The name is Martel. The second is a pile of heavy gray ashes, greasy in appearance, spilling across a golden starburst that has been etched into the permaplast flooring. A starburst, Martel knows, that had not been there the day previous. The third item, collapsed in and around the ashes, is a pale golden one-piece coverall. There may be other small objects, such as a sunburst pin, a thin golden chain, mixed in the ashes as well, but Martel does not touch anything. Except for the sheet of parchment, which he stoops to pocket. Martel gestures. The darkness swirls over the control room, and the floor is as it was, unmarked. Ashes, coverall, objects, all are gone, taken into the darkness. From darkness she came, and unto darkness will she go, now and forever. The cold knot inside Martel does not dissolve, but reaches to chill his fingers, numb his thoughts. “Flame!” Darkness has fire, also, and that will I claim, for those who are mine, and those who claim me. Martel stands, letting time swirl around him, then clamps himself back into reality. He leaves without touching anything, departs as he came, and even young Alsitar, who is rushing through the main portal in response to the automatic alarm and who passes the one who was called God of Darkness as He steps outside the portal, even Alsitar does not see what he sees. For Martel wills it otherwise. Believing in a god who will not accept divinity is obviously a dangerous business, reflects Martel. He shivers as his feet carry him along the Petrified Boardwalk. He strides down the boardwalk until it becomes a patch along the back of the beachline, until Sybernal is behind him, until the roofs are less than smudges on the southern horizon. Then he takes out the golden parchment scroll with the sunburst in the upper right corner. Until what is proper is done, the followers of those who challenge shall suffer, for an undeclared god is no god, and blasphemy is death. Martel shakes his head. Rathe he could understand. But Marta Farell? Does Apollo really think this would force him to take them all on? Won't it? Yes, but not yet. Not now. Ever? He touches the parchment with shadow, and it is no more. For a time he regards the ocean in the perpetual light that could be morning or evening, and is both and neither. At last he turns back to the south. Where his feet touch the sand, each quick step leaves a black print, each grain of once-golden sand now the color of the space between galaxies. The line of jet footprints on the shimmering golden sands points toward a distant cottage that has become emptier by the absence of one who never lived there, and never would have. Soon a storm will rise and scatter the dark grains. After that storm, or the next, or the following, some child will look at a black grain and wonder. For all know that the sands of Aurore are golden, and there is no black sand. XXXIV Rathe? Should he re-create her? The odds are good that he can duplicate her essence. Are they? He twirls the beaker that contains the last of the second bottle of Springfire he has consumed since he began the debate with himself. Would she be Rathe? Even if I caught everything? Remembered it all? He looks from his chair on the porch up the hillside. The topmost quince is dying, he can tell. Why don't you rejuve the quince? Re-create it? Plants don't rejuve. Then re-create it. It wouldn't be the same quince. Might as well plant another. He sips what should be the next-to-last sip from the beaker. Through two bottles the questions have not changed. Neither have the answers. And Rathe? Would your creation be the same? Could you bear not to make changes? Even if you didn't, would she be the same? He does not answer the questions. Instead, his sip becomes a gulp as he downs the last drops of the Springfire from the jasolite beaker. “Flame! Flame! Flame!” Even as he stands and gathers the darkness to him, even as he hurls the beaker into the flooring with enough force to shatter it and embed the crystal shards into the wood, he knows the answer. Rathe is dead. Dead is dead. No miraculous re-creation will restore the woman who loved him. All you'll have is a duplicate doomed to repeat the mistakes of the real Rathe. A pale copy without the fire of the original. A living doll without the soul of the only Rathe who lived. “A pale copy? Sure. Just a pale copy! And what are you, Martel? A pale protoplasmic copy of distant ancestors who screwed around!” Say what you will. . . dead is dead. “Easy enough to say. Easy enough to think. But you're alive.” Exactly. “You can throw your thunderbolts. You can summon the eternal darkness. You can heal the sick. You can walk on air and on water. So why can't you create a new Rathe?” You can. You just can't bring back the old. “So why don't you?” The darkness freezes with the question, and even outside the cottage the breeze stills and the dories quiet. Because she's not strong enough. Because you'd destroy her again. “Me? You wonderful subconscious, tell me again I destroyed her.” Didn't you force her to leave and not protect her? Martel does not answer himself in the quiet and dark that wait for his decision. Do you want to spend every moment guarding her from Apollo? Can you make her a goddess? And if you could, would she be Rathe? “Flame!” His breath comes out in a long hiss, and the silence is broken. Outside, the two dories in the nearest quince chitter. The low waves in the bay across the hill swish once more, and the breeze ruffles his short hair. The darkness ebbs beneath the moment. At last, he looks down and wills away the crystal shards in and on the floor. The polished wood returns to an unblemished state as the scratches erase themselves. Although there is another bottle of Springfire in the cooler, he will not need it. Not today, not tonight, though they are one and the same on Aurore. Even gods, even you, have limits, Martel. He would cry, but cannot, as he looks to the hillcrest and the twilight that will be centuries in coming. Instead, he stares at the dying quince. XXXV Time, like a loose-flowing river, does not, will not, flow the same for all individuals, neither mortals nor immortals. That thought flits through his mind as he takes quick step upon quick step along the narrow pathway that leads toward a white villa. Technically, the answer is simple. Technically, the answer is not an answer, but chance. Chance alone seems to determine who lives and who dies. Some mortals become gods, and no scientist can determine why. An increasing number of mortals, even within the Empire, do not age, or age far less quickly than others. “Miracles?” he mutters as the path begins to rise. Any demigod on Aurore can return youth to a mortal, at least in body. But whether the youth remains so for more than a few years depends again on the individual. “My individual?” he asks the trail, both recalling and try- ing to forget the lady upon whom he had bestowed the gift, recalling also how he had hoped she would remain beautiful in her own way beyond her fame. Beyond her time? That time was so short. Had he only made the effort . . . had he made the effort he had not, for the reasons he can understand but not accept. Will you ever accept them? Will you ever fight the gods for one individual? You can't fight them all. Won't you have to, sooner or later? Perhaps. But not for one individual. Then for what? For what, for whom, will you fight, Martel? He turns himself away from the question, lets the day enfold him, lets himself be one with the trees, the golden grass, the scrub thistles, and the meadow flowers ... with the dorles, with the white birds that dip their beaks into the clear brooks beyond his sight. The key is mind over matter, but not the mind of thought. Rather the mind of the mind. He frowns. Is he rationalizing, once again, his feeling of desertion toward Rathe? Mind over matter, indeed. He concentrates on his pace. Quick step, quick step, and the trail unrolls before him, stretching into the low hills, beckoning him away from Sybernal. Most of the pines, wide-trunked and long-needled, whisper in the afternoon day, murmur in the perpetual breeze that cools these hills to the north of Sybernal, and hint at the power that naps in the scattered villas that nestle on the few cleared hillsides. Martel wipes his forehead on his short black sleeve, halts where the path forks, and casts his thoughts down both hard-packed trails. Why are they hard-packed? No sign anyone uses them. The right-hand path dips down toward a brook, perhaps a hundred meters beyond what he can see directly with his eyes, and leads another kilo before ending in a small parklike clearing. Although his perceptions relay no structure to him, the impression is of a small freehold left to the elements, but tidied occasionally by a passing demigod. He casts his thoughts out along the left path, resuming his rapid pace before evaluating what he perceives. Others may be monitoring him. That he assumes from the feather-light tendrils of power that flicker in and out of his awareness, particularly when the breeze dies to a mere ghost. Not that you mind, Martel. He stops and studies the hillside to his left, the abrupt clearing that slants down the slope the length of three tall pines before the old trees close in. Old trees. . . not many young ones, nor any dead ones. . . and what does that tell you, Martel? How old are the pines? Or the few deciduous trees that mingle with them? Martel shakes his head, once, quickly. The faint scent of the pines and the swish of their boughs as the breeze picks up are saying something, trying to tell him something important. What, he cannot decide. He kicks a rock, scarcely more than a pebble. He watches as it skids down the trail before bouncing sideways and disappearing into the golden grass that he thinks of as native. This high in the hills the emerald grass of Sybernal has not penetrated, except within some estates. Yet the trees are Arth-type. Another tendril of power, stronger, flickers over him, dismisses him, and moves on. Martel leaves his shields fully in place and smiles as the thin probe withdraws. The prober lies along way from the path upon which he stands and does not recognize that Martel's shields conceal his darkness. But then, sentry duty is boring for most sentries in most times and places. Martel gives the clearing beside the trial a last look before he continues onward. The scene is not quite idyllic. From between the golden grasses peer crimson flowers, while a few scattered scrub thistles ring the far edge just inside the pines. Order. . . very definitely ordered, Martel. The pines are all healthy. Massive. Tall. Mature, but not old, though their size lends that impression. No gnarled branches or fallen or rotten trunks detract from the evidence of strength. He cannot recall any such evidence of decay during his entire hike from the outskirts of Sybernal. “The trees militant,” he says with a low laugh, and picks up his pace as the trail narrows and begins to turn back on itself. He cannot explain, but in their own way the pines remind him of soldiers. The chitter of a lone dorle rises over the swish of the pine branches. Otherwise the trail is silent, as it has been all along. “Wild chase, after something that. . .” He does not finish the sentence, for his perceptions catch the power somehow trapped on the far side of the particular hill his trail circles. Power. . . always power. . . nowhere on Aurore it doesn't show up, sooner or later. No. . . you draw power like a lightning rod. Is the thought his? It does not matter, and he proceeds along the trail until it straightens at the other side of the hill. A stone wall, the first thing he has seen that shows lack of attention, appears on the right-hand side of the trail, which has widened into a grass-covered path. The path meanders along the flat between two low hills. On the left continues the hill Martel has been circling, pine-covered and silent. On the right is what he seeks. While he cannot see directly beyond the stone wall, even though several stones have toppled out of the top row and down next to the wall, he knows that behind the remaining stones are tree gardens. Behind the gardens are emerald-green lawns that rise to formal gardens and to a white villa. Both the grounds and the villa broadcast an air of desertion, and emptiness that stretches impossibly far back in time. Since Martel has visited that villa, he knows the impression is false, strong as it is, overpowering as it threatens to become with each step he takes toward the shambling graystone wall. To the sense of desertion, underneath it, nearly lost in the mental patina of age that the wall and the estate behind it radiate, clings a sense of danger, and of power. Tend to be synonymous on Aurore. . . danger and power do. Martel ignores the estate, for he has found it, found it deserted. He is not disappointed. Rather. . . relieved. And why might that be? “I don't have to answer that,” he mumbles to himself. The clear path beckons, and with it his apprehensions. Brushing them aside, he marches down the grassy trail that soon becomes a wider lane next to the tumbled stone wall. With each step the unseen tension tightens, although he sees nothing in front of him. His vision is limited because both lane and wall curve gently to the right. After another quarter-stan, three separate chitters form a dorle on the far side of the wall, and after another two kilos, he sees the fountain. As he nears the circular basin the feeling of danger mounts. Strangely, the fountain operates, for all the desertion, for all the apparent lack of life. The water does not spray from the single stone figure on the square pedestal in the middle of the deep basin, but from jets around the young man, lending the statue a curtain of mist. Likewise, all the mist falls within the basin, whose black depths stretch toward the center of Aurore. Though the statue is that of a young man, handsome, in a simple tunic and trousers, much like Martel's, his face is contorted in agony. Martel stands at the edge of the fountain, understanding all too well both the agony and the danger. He probes, lets his thoughts enfold the statue, and draws from the darkness that he knows will always be near him. Raising his left hand, he gestures. For an instant, a shadow passes over the statue. When it has fled, the curtain of mist remains, but the figure is gone. Martel nods. While he hopes the other will be wise enough not to return, or not to repeat his folly in another way, the irony is all too striking. Saved him from what might have happened to you. . . right, Martel? He takes a last look at the fountain, at the jets of mist and water concealing nothing, then at the wall, and finally behind the stones at the unkempt emerald grass, the straggling gardens, and at the empty rooms and columns. He stares at his feet. After a time, he turns to retrace his steps back toward Sybernal, back along a trail he has aheady trod once without understanding why. This time, occasionally, he whistles. XXXVI Should be evening. Or twilight. Beneath his feet the golden sands stretch down to the waters of the circular bay. The golden green of the water touches the sand with a gentle swish-swash, swish-swash. It is always twilight beneath the waters, Martel. The answering thought is faint but clear. He looks around the bay, but no one else is present. When he first moved into the cottage, picnickers and others from Sybernal often swam in the clear waters. Over the years, its popularity has declined, and now no one comes. No one comes, except Martel, although the waters are as clear as ever, and the sands are as warm and golden as always. With a shrug, he walks into the waters, which part around him, flowing, encircling, but not touching him. Thetis joins him as he reaches the underwater shelf where the depths begin. The green gown flows around her like water, like liquid flame, and she bears no trident. Not this time. Her hands are open and empty. Have you come to walk with me? Seemed like a good idea. Don't ask me why. Her fingertips reach out to touch his, and the warmth sends a jolt through him. She laughs. I'm not cold-blooded, Martel. Even my mermaids are warm and loving, for all their tails and scales. He shakes his head, mentally contrasting the goddess beside him to Rathe. . . both full-bodied, but one he pictures, holds in his mind, as red, and Thetis is green, cool and green, goddess of the sea. . . . and capable of storms and cruelty. . . like the sea? He feels her stiffen at his unguarded thought, but her fingertips remain with his. Aren't we all? He nods, not looking at her, bat aware that she is one of the few goddesses he overtops, one of the few he can physically look down at. Ahead, rising out of the silver sands, sands unmarked by any marine growth, stands a rock cube, each pink face smooth stone, polished and glistening. Not exactly natural. No. This is my park, if you will. Hand in hand, they climb on steps of nothing until they stand on the flat top of the cube. Martel looks up. The surface of the ocean is at least fifty meters above, and it is indeed twilight where he stands. Twilight, and it will come in turn for Aurore. Thetis shivers, and disengages her hand from Martel's, turns to face him. You could be more terrible than Apollo. Me? Me? Good old Martel the wishy-washy? Who has yet to really lift a hand? She takes both his hands in hers. Apollo does not know what suffering is. You suffer, and do not know how to grieve. And when you have suffered enough, all Aurore will grieve. Martel shakes his head again, strongly enough to fluff his hair out, but he does not remove his hands from hers. Thetis drops her eyes to the pale pink of the rock underfoot. You will be so powerful that nothing can touch you, nor your heart, except as you wish. You will have everything, and nothing. And you? Thetis does not look up, but shivers again. And you? Martel presses. When you are done, I will have only what you leave me, and a leaden shield, gray in color. Unlike some that I know. And for all his strength. . . Thetis is sobbing silently, refusing to look up to Martel. He frowns. None of what she has said makes any sense, any sense at all. . . . a leaden shield, gray in color? . . . Whose strength?. . . Her arms drop from his hands, and she steps back and stares squarely into his eyes, her own gray eyes clear, while the tears stream down her face. They stand there silently, both dry, yet deep in the shallows of the sea. They stand there, neither moving. Let us suffer together, Martel, for I see what lies before us both. Even with a companion, no one will bear what you must. And I must lose all. So let us join before we separate, for you must give me what is demanded, and I must leave you to the far future. She steps to him, and her arms draw him down, and the green water flames that have covered her are no more, and her mouth is warm on his in the twilight that cannot elsewhere be found on Aurore. His arms encircle her, and he tries to forget, for a moment, the ones in red, and the ones in white and blue, and to feel the cool warmth of the green goddess and the heat of her sadness, though he understands not the reasons. He will, he knows. . . . for the son will be carried on the shield of the past, and the father on the shield of the future. . . His fingers dig into the warm skin of her shoulders as he tries, as he succeeds in blocking away the certainty of her visions, for he knows, whatever she has seen, it will be. And he does not want to know. Not now. And the green flame and the black flame twine in the twilight of the shallow depths of the green-golden sea, and the fires within both hold back the past and the future. For now. XIXXVI From his small table overlooking the Great East Beach of Sybernal, Martel can sense a wave of energy approaching the establishment. Should you make it harder for him? Why not? he answers his own question. With that, he wraps the darkness around him tightly enough that only the closest observer would see him, or sense his presence. He waits, cradling the untouched beaker of Springfire. Steps, on the wooden entryway leading to the bar, tap lightly, are misleading, for the man who strides in with a slight wobble to his step is tall, a full head taller than the man who sits shrouded in black. You expected something of the sort, Martel. But from a mere demigod? He shakes his head. The newcomer sits on a high stool at the bar and orders. “Cherry Flare.” He does not look around the room, but Martel can feel his energies probing. Martel lets the tendrils of power slide over him, nonreacting, and waits. He takes a small sip from his beaker. Outside, the regular waves crest, break, foam, and subside, one wave after the other. Crest, break, foam, and subside, and each time the golden-green water slips back under the crisp foam of the incoming breaker like black ice under lace. The man at the bar, the one wearing peach trousers and tunic offset with a crimson sash, the one with the tight-curled blond hair, taps his glass on the counter. “Another Cherry Flare. 'Nother Cherry Hare.” Martel takes another sip from his beaker. The liqueur warms the back of his throat as he swallows. “ 'Nother Cherry Flare!” Martel says nothing as the lady keep refills the younger man's glass. “You! You in the corner! What do you think?” Martel raises his eyebrows and says nothing. “I asked you what you thought!” “I wasn't thinking, friend. I was listening and looking at the waves.” “Asked you what you thought!” Martel sets his beaker on the table. “So tell me what you think!” demands the man in peach. “I'd like to hear what you think, friend.” The word “friend” is clearly a courtesy. “Think you sit there. Sit there like one of those useless gods. Dare me to say what I think.” Martel shrugs. “I'm no god. Think what you want.” He looks down at the beaker. “No difference. Gods or no gods. Too many gods. Too many demigods. Never know where they are. Never know where they are.” He gulps the remainder of the second Cherry Flare as if the liquor were water. Thud! He slams the heavy glass on the bar. “Cherry Flare! Let's have another, lady!” This time the woman replaces his glass with a full one almost before he has completed his demand. “You!” he shouts at Martel. “Think I'm crazy. So do the gods.” Martel takes another sip from his beaker. How will he play this out? “The gods. Too many gods. Too careless. Careless, and care less about us.” He laughs at his pun. “Treat us like dirt. Dirt!” The heavy glass, still nearly full, comes down on the bar, but the speaker is oblivious to the liquor that slops onto the wood. The keep hesitates, leans toward a concealed button, her blue eyes narrowing. “Let him talk, Sylvia,” suggests Martel. “Very good. Let me talk. Talk about every rich norm that comes to be a god. Throws creds like light. And what we get? Nothing. Nothing but bowing and scraping, and having our brains scrambled every time we think wrong.” Not much finesse here, Martel. Does Apollo need finesse? he responds to his own question. Martel gestures for the other to continue. “Even the Regent, bitch she is, doesn't follow you in and out of bed, day on day, waiting, bounding till you think wrong.” “Neither do the gods,” snaps Sylvia. “Worse!” The peach-dressed man hops off the stool, well balanced despite the slur in his speech, and wheels toward Martel. His right hand blurs as it slashes down through the heavy wood seat of the adjoining barstool. For an instant the two halves of the barstool balance, teetering in midair. Then both sides crash to the floor. “Ha!” The man vaults more than a meter into the air and onto the flat surface of the bar itself. “Behold the remains of Lendi the Terrible! Bar tricks! Once I could do that to any man. But here. . . here. . . one can do nothing. Nothing!” Sylvia retreats to the far comer of the bar, away from the splash of light that sweeps out from the peach-clothed man who bestrides her bar. “Magnificent show,” comments Martel dryly, “Lendi, or whatever your real name is. Apollo at his cruelest has a sense of restraint and drama. You're merely burlesquing the whole business.” Martel finally stands, and as he speaks the darkness rises from the wood surrounding him, draws in from the comers of the room to confer a solidity upon him that leaves Lendi a tinsel shape. “You mock me. Therefore, you mock the gods.” Stars comiscate from the ends of Lendl's peach-lacquered fingertips. “I mock no one. I merely state what is obvious. Those who consider truth mockery only mock themselves.” “Meet your end, unbeliever!” The tinsel stars at his fingertips turn brighter before they arc toward Martel. Another one sent for an ordeal. . . or to test you, Martel. Martel smiles, and, seeing that smile, Sylvia makes a sign, that of the looped and inverted cross, and shudders in her corner. Lendi, lost in his madness, straightens his right arm and flings a blaze of fire at the shadowed figure that is Martel. The missile, though brighter than the smaller stars that die in the darkness around Martel, slows, dims, and flickers out long before it crosses the short distance to Martel. A second, even brighter, starbolt flares toward Martel, and, in turn, extinguishes itself. Lendi drags forth another from the field of Aurore. In turn, Martel reaches for a certain energy, turns it to twist and isolate Lendi from his energies. He steps toward the star-thrower. “Do you believe in darkness, Lendi the Terrible? Have you seen sunset in a shadow?” The darkness crashes like a wave, like a falling cliff, over the demigod. As it flows back to the place from which it rose, it carries the paralyzed demigod, lacquered fingers and starbolts included, back with it, back into the depths of time and space. Releasing his hold on that comer of the universal darkness, Martel sits back down at his table and studies the flattened waves as they break up on the Great East Beach. He sips the last of the Springfire. As an afterthought, he touches Sylvia's thoughts and removes the memory of a peach-and-crimson-clad demigod. That loss of memory will protect her and confound Apollo. For it has to be Apollo or the Smoke Bull who sends such emissaries. He lifts the empty jasolite beaker, knowing Sylvia will refill it, waiting for the warmth of the Springfire to drown the memories that the demigod has raised. . . again. So easy to strike out. . . but you don't combat fire with fire . . . not unless you want to burn both out. Still, you remember, don't you, Martel? He nods to his own thoughts and takes a sip from the latest beaker Sylvia has placed before him. The images flash across the dark screen within his mind. Kryn, who was spark, and Rathe, who was fire, and Thetis, who is sea, and Emily, who is deceit, and more, and Apollo, who is the cruelty of desert sun, and. . . and. . . He sips the Springfire, and lets the darkness curl around him, settle deeper within. XXXVIII As he walks to the exit portal Martel can sense the morning shift, engineer and faxer, at the other entrance, the land-side one, waiting for the clearance that he has left. “For all they see. I'm a myth, a creation of the nightly fax show. Martel the mysterious, featured on Path Seven and seen occasionally in Sybernal, if the rumors can be believed.” The words sound hollow, and he blocks away the memories that accompany them. . . along with one name. Farell. . , Marta Farell. Someday you'll have to repay that one. Someday—but not till the time comes. He touches the plate and steps out into the eternal day of Aurore, though the standard clock indicates it is not quite dawn on Aurore or Karnak Imperial. He pauses. Someone else is waiting. “Emily. . . what a pleasant surprise.” Martel almost laughs as he discovers his voice has involuntarily blunted the sarcasm he meant. “I thought I would let you recover on your own. You do insist on doing things your way.” “And you are so different?” She smiles, and the expression is warm. “We are alike in some ways.” He nods. “But to what do I owe this unexpected courtesy?” Goddess or not, as a woman she had approached, and it is to that approach he intends to respond. “That's what I'd hoped for,” she replies to his unthought words. The sound and thought of silver bells tinkle in his head. He pushes them away, knowing he does not want to, and takes her arm, tanned lightly, as always. 'The North Pier restaurant again?” “Not this time.” She points to a flitter landing a hundred meters up the Petrified Boardwalk. “Not unless you miss the high cuisine terribly.” Martel reflects. If he is condemned, he might as well enjoy it. For some reason, the image of Marta Farell flickers through his mind. “Your fault, but not totally,” agrees Emily. Martel reinforces his blocks, not only frustrated at her knowing his every thought, but also angry at his own carelessness. “Not exactly friendly.” “Neither is snooping.” She squeezes his hand. “I wasn't snooping. You were broadcasting, and there is a difference.” He lets the outer barriers drop. What difference will it make? The flitter looks the same, even after, what—fifty standard years? Just like Emily. “And just like you, Martel. The world changes around you, and yet you really don't notice it. You decry the gods, and the number of demigods that Apollo and the Smoke Bull are raising, but you're the most visible god of all.” He thinks about protesting the charge, but lets it drop. “That's part of what makes you fascinating. Why do you think the royalties on your shows are so high? Not that they're not good, you understand, but how many gods in the universe are faxers? “And why do you think Apollo is so ambivalent about you? At the same time you oppose him, you're supporting the whole idea of the gods by your own actions.” She smiles and gestures toward the open door of the flitter. He returns the gesture. “After you, lovely lady.” She inclines her head, hesitates, then steps inside. Martel slides in next to her. The door swings shut behind him, and the flitter, with neither at the controls, lifts. “Why is there no one who will enter the CastCenter while you're there? Don't tell me it's because of a generation-old edict of a defunct center chief. That provides the excuse. Working with, or loving, gods is dangerous, Martel. You know it, and so do they.” “So why am I with you?” “Because. . . but that's beside the point. I won't answer that question until you're willing to. Until you're honest with yourself, totally honest, no one else can afford to be. In the meantime, I will take what we can both afford.” Her left hand touches his right, squeezes it, and her right reaches for his left shoulder, draws him toward her, across the golden upholstery. Martel holds back momentarily, then lets himself slide into her, lips meeting, his arms encircling her. The flitter shivers, shaking them. Martel lets his lips break free. “I can't seem to concentrate on two things at once.” As she struggles from half under him her laugh chimes with the bells he has heard before only in thought. Or has he? He dredges his memories for. . . what? . . . as she concentrates on her mental control of the aircraft. Presently he recognizes the villa. While the surrounding trees may be taller, little else has changed. “It shouldn't have. Except for caretaking, I haven't been here since you were last here.” The words ring true, and that truth disturbs him. Why? How could a goddess be interested in a mere mortal? One who shies away from even considering a trip toward godhood? . Emily frowns, but says nothing as the flitter descends toward touchdown. “This time, the dinner choice, and it will be dinner, is mine. I'm sure you'll enjoy it.” As she finishes the last word, as if on cue the flitter settles onto the landing stage, and the door swings open. No footman, no liveried functionary, waits as she alights. Yet the white marble columns hold the aura of expectation, as if an Imperial ball is about to occur. Through the atrium, where not a speck of dust clings to the polished floors or to the classical columns, and through the center courtyard where the light-fountain plays in the circular basin surrounded by white flowers, she leads Martel. Only the swish of her sandals, the pad of his boots, and the splash of the fountain break the silence. On the open portico is a table, linened, in gold and crystal and set for two. He bows to her. She acknowledges the bow with a faint smile. “If you will be seated. . .” “But how can I be seated and seat you, as is proper?” “You can't. I intend to serve you, and serve you I will.” He sits, again disturbed, unable to put his finger on the reasons for his unease. Were Emily out to destroy him, she would not have proceeded so. His reasoning is flawed, he knows, but true all the same. Emily does not intend him harm. Far from it. Not tonight. First is the salad, of greens sprinkled with crushed nuts. The greens are the end shoots from the yanar tree, of which there are only a handful growing at the mist line, so it is said, on less than a dozen peaks of Aurore. The nut he does not recognize, though it brings out every spice-mint nuance of the yanar tips. “A local variety of an old Home nut.” Martel nods. He can expect no less. Still ... something about the dinner nags at him. “Why did you invite me to dinner?” “Always direct, dear Martel.” She laughs, and the sound warms him. He fights the sensation. “But if I told you, it would destroy the effect.” “And you're as evasive as ever.” “There's an old saying, 'Ask me no questions, and I'll tell you no lies. ' “ Martel studies her, realizes that her gown is cut lower than he remembers, that she wears nothing beneath. Before he can speculate further, she is up. “The main course.” She disappears, to return moments later with two gossamer-thin plates, one of which she places before Martel. The porcelain catches Martel's attention even more than the golden fish that is reputed to taste more delicate than the Emperor's cultured game trout. The porcelain is A'Mingtera, of which no complete set is known to exist. Beside the golden fish is a thin slice of something in a light brown sauce, which Martel samples. Slightly bitter, but with a bubbling tang. “Try the fish first.” He does, and understands the use of the thin brown mushroom, which amplifies the delicacy and .sensation of the golden fish. Even so far, goddess or not, the meal is extreme, and carries a meaning beyond seduction, though that will come, he knows, and as he knows he wants her. Desirable as she is, sitting across from her ... Martel blocks the thought before it surfaces. “You're upset?” “Confused.” She finishes a last bite and wipes her lips with the silken napkin. “Confused about you, about me,” he goes on. “Any god on Aurore would be flattered by all this, all that you could offer. Why me?” From the glint in her eyes he realizes he has not been the only one. “No,” she confirms. “What choice do I have when you turn away from me and from what you are?” Her voice is soft, with the touch of bells in it, and totally at odds with the hint of anger he has seen buried within her. “Let's pretend I don't know anything about you, which I don't,” says Martel, in an effort to retrack the conversation. “Where did you grow up and when did you discover—” “That I was what I was? At least, you didn't ask how old I am.” She pauses. “Let's just say I grew up very young long enough ago for me to be uncertain about the details.” She takes a sip of the wine, neither white nor rose, but some of both and better than the best of either. Martel lifts his glass to her, sips silently. How little we know. How little we need to know comes her answering thought. The portico is off the bedroom Martel has been in once before. He slips to his feet and she to hers, and they move around the linen and gold and crystal, and the white fire from her and the black from him touch and join. And join. And join. A black shadow, more like smoke, in the upper branches of the nearby bristlepine thins and fades. A yellow eagle hawk in the sky above circles, circles, and is gone. This time, Martel wakes first, or Emily has let him wake first. He looks over her body, tanned, smooth as if in the first flush of young womanhood, with the high breasts, narrow waist, fine features, and high cheeks under closed eyes. Though her hair is all golden blond, and her genes would show the same, he knows, now, that she was born with black hair like Kryn. He imagines that, changes a feature in his mind. . . and cold like ice cascades down his spine. He shakes his head violently. Kryn is on Karnak, the Viceroy after long positioning to succeed the Grand Duke, while Emily has been on Aurore for too long. He also realizes another thing. Emily has never been young. Not in eons, perhaps longer. While she plays at youth, she does not love as if she were ever young, as if she had ever been fully human. And that is why he misses Rathe, why he misses Kryn, though Kryn, he knows full well, stands at the beginnings of power, at the base of ambition that will grow. Somewhere within her, he hopes with a certain sadness, she will remember being young and in love. Perhaps. If she ever really was. The cold thought is his own. Emily is awake and studying him, in turn. “And perhaps you're right. Again,” she says, but her hands draw him back to her, and he does not resist. Nor is he young, either, as the fires fight and join. XXXIX Martel's long strides carry him up the coastal highway. The dorles chitter from the quinces and from the zebrun trees that line the empty highway. Though he cannot hear it yet, he knows an electrobike ap- proaches from the south, purring behind him toward the common destination of Sybernal. Likewise, he can sense the group of young natives, perhaps five or so, who are gathered on the lane that leads to the CastCenter. The sky is clear, as clear as it ever is under the omnipresent golden haze of the field, and the faint scent of trilia is carried from the hills on the light breeze. Martel frowns. His stride breaks momentarily. The youngsters are waiting for him. From his present distance he can sense no malice, no negative feelings, except a faint fear, combined with curiosity. But waiting for you, Martel? He shrugs and picks up his stride, letting the frown fade away. Martel could avoid the group that awaits him, but then he would not have a clear picture of why they are interested in him, interested enough to wait, and knowledgeable enough to know where to wait. From a distance he can only touch the clearest of surface thoughts, and certainly not what is behind such thoughts. Besides, their actions will tell as much as their thoughts. More, if the gods are involved. As his steps take him into Sybernal, into the long, narrow Greenbelt that surrounds the highway, he reaches out again to the young natives, but the picture is no clearer. Again he shrugs. Finally he tops the little hill that leads down to the lane which, in turn, leads back up to the CastCenter. . That's HIM! Three of the male students wear the gold-and-white-striped tunics of the Sybernal Academy. One, the youngest and shortest, steps forward to block Martel's path. Martel stops, waits. The stillness draws out. Martel smiles faintly, but says nothing, remains motionless. “Honored Sir, are. . . are You. . . the One?” “The one what?” answers Martel. “The One. . . One. . .” stammers the boy. The top of his red hair is level with Martel's shoulder. The Dark One. . . God of Night. . . God of Shadows. . . GOD, why me? Why. . . Martel looks at the others. The five, three adolescent boys and two girls, fidget, wanting to move close enough to hear his answer, but wanting to back off at the same time. Martel does not answer, and instead takes his time to run his eyes over the entire group, one by one, letting himself pick up thoughts from each. . . . he's strange. . . expected the question. . . Elson not forceful enough. . . little coward. . . Dark, and the black. . . like a shadow. . . why did we listen? What if He is? Thought it was a joke, but. . . so dark. . . moves like a shadow... Silly. . . boys. . . all that way. Just has to look mysterious, and they shiver. . . Doesn't look old. Darfid says the records don't tell ... centuries. . . years. . . all the same. . . Martel lets his eyes flick back over the six again. No mental sign of who, or which god, has put them up to their question. How do you answer them, Martel? You're no god. . . why give Apollo the satisfaction? Either way? He frowns. They draw back, even Elson, the questioner who has blocked his path. “A name is only what others want you to believe.” He pauses, hoping that the pause will let the meaning sink in. “I am what I am, not what others would have you believe.” Martel smiles. “And a pleasant evening to you all.” Now let Apollo figure that out! He steps around Elson and breaks into his quick stride toward the CastCenter at the end of the lane. Evening? What did he mean by that? “But there isn't any evening here,” protests one of the Academy students. “So. . . you have to have evening before night. Before it gets dark,” snaps the older girl, a rail-thin brunette. “You didn't get an answer, Elson! You failed!” “No! He gave you an answer. He really did. Don't! Don't hit me!” Martel lifts a comer of darkness from beneath the light and flicks it toward the youngsters. “What's that?” “He's gone!” “Where? He was just walking away.” “That couldn't have been a shadow. . . could it?” “Look! Up there!” An enormous raven/night eagle circles overhead, low, glittering black, dripping shadows, dives away, and disappears behind the low hill on which the CastCenter sits. “See!” answers Elson. “If that isn't an answer, then what is?” . . . what is. . . The thought echoes in eight minds, and Martel senses that one is not his or the youngsters'. He emerges from behind an ancient pine, certain that no one has seen his descent, and enters the empty CastCenter. On time. Again. XL The hillcrest is bare. Bare except for the grass, and for the view of the lands leading northward to Sybernal and south toward the sacred peak. Bare except for the man in black who stands looking southward down at the bay. The time is midnight, Aurore, and midnight, Karnak Standard, but irrelevant, since the eternal light varies only with the weather. Tonight there are no clouds, only the normal sea breeze. So now she's the Viceroy? The Grand Duke, the acting Viceroy, is dead, and the Regent's Guard has hailed the Lady Kryn as Viceroy. Not as acting Viceroy, but Viceroy. The Third, Fifth, and Seventh Fleets have also acclaimed her. New Augusta has accepted the inevitable and confirmed her position. Martel draws a dark square in the air, concentrates, and is rewarded with an image of the black-haired woman, dressed in the blue and gold he has remembered for so long. Shaking his head, he releases the picture, and it dissolves into a swirl of black glittermotes. Emily? This time his headshake is more violent. Her soul is cold. So. . . are not the souls of all gods cold? You could become a god. With that thought, his eyes lift toward the peak Jsalm. Though it lies beyond the reach of unaided vision, he can see its dark bulk and ice-tipped summit, can see the figures in the air above its needled tip. So. . . Martel. . . you cannot have Kryn, for she has obtained what she has sought and will not relinquish the power and the glory that is Karnak. And you cannot have Rathe, for she is dead. Dead because of your carelessness. Or your unwillingness to make any commitment to anything. Have it either way. And you do not want Emily, or to be a god. He turns his eyes from Jsalm toward the grass at his feet, then back to the gentle waves in the bay below the hillside. The nip of the salt air reminds him of Thetis. Thetis? He laughs. No. Though a lady she certainly is. Then what do you want? Kryn. . . and to be me. He turns to face the other way, down the hillside at the cottage, and at the quinces. What are you, Martel? What are you that makes you want what you cannot have and turn from what you are? The thought is not his, but echoes as if from a great distance. He frowns, wondering who had been monitoring his private soliloquy, and as his eyebrows furrow, the breeze dies, and the air stills. / am what I am, and I will have what I want. ' How, pray tell? He laughs, and the laugh echoes across the hillside, down toward the cottage on one side and toward the bay on the other. In the bay, the sound freezes the waves, holds the pair of dorles in midflight, and ripples the beach like an earthquake. Darkness wells, and spreads, and for kilos around, night falls. At last, Martel speaks aloud, and the words rumble like thunder as they roll outward over the lands from his mouth. “Time! Time is mine, and so is the night. Day will end, must end. And at that time comes night. Enjoy your days in the sun you cannot see, for though centuries pass, though the sons of those centuries pass, I will wait, and remember. Remember till the day when night will fall, and so will you!” This time, this one time, Martel does not release his darkness to let it disperse. Instead, he lets it break, in waves, away from him, and in breaking that dark washes around Aurore so that all on Aurore behold a moment of night. That darkness flies across Sybernal, across Jsalm, across Pamyra, on across the White Cliffs, across a certain white villa, across beaches, and across vacant golden waters. That instant of night wings over the lands and waters like a night eagle whose shadowed pinions cover but briefly the ground beneath. In certain streets of Sybernal, men crouch. Some make an obscure sign dating from the depths of history; others gape. Still others fail to notice, and others observe the strange darkness and dismiss its significance. Such it is. So has it always been. Some notice. Some do not. Some are pleased. Some are not. By the time the light returns to the empty hilltop, Martel has returned to his cottage. Returned smiling, though that smile would chill most and leave their souls frozen hulks. Outside, it is still night, despite the light of eternal day, although the clocks state it is night. On Karnak, the Viceroy sleeps. Part II The Coming of the Hammer XLI The Lady dreams. For now, to call her Lady is sufficient. She is that, and more. In her dream, she falls down a long, black tunnel, shot with streaks of white. As she drops she passes point rainbows of light, all the colors she can see, and colors besides those. Colors she once could see, but knows she can no longer distinguish. She reaches out to touch the sides of the tunnel, but they retreat from her clutching fingers. The Lady wants to cry, but knows she must not, knows she should remember why, but cannot. She wakes. . . alone. . . in a dimly lit room. To call her chamber a small hall would be more precise. Shuddering at the all-too-familiar dream, she sits up. “It's been a while,” she murmurs, checking the time, “a long while since the last time.” “Dreams of the tunnel?” inquires her diary from the bedside table. “Yes, it has been. Nine years, eleven standard months, roughly.” “I wonder what crisis is coming,” she says softly. The diary does not answer. The Lady resettles herself on her pillows and pulls the silksheen cover up over her shoulders, though she is not cold. She avoids thinking about the two questions the dream has returned to her thoughts, and after some time passes into a hot and dreamless sleep. XLII Tap, tap. The sound raises Martel from his study of the small beaker, which is empty, and the bottle of Springfire, which is full. Tap, tap. He sighs, replaces the bottle on the keeper shelf, and closes the appliance. Martel decides not to probe, hoping the intruder will leave. While the visitor does, he leaves a package. By the time Martel reaches the front portal and opens it, no one is there. An electrobike is purring back toward Sybernal. An envelope lies squarely on the top step. Martel purses his lips. When was the last time he saw an honest envelope? From Hollie? Sometime in the days of the old Empire of Man? Before the fall of the Prince Regent? Before his former ladylove who wasn't seized the reins of power .. . he shunts that thought away, regards the envelope. Finally he bends and picks it up. A large envelope, to say the least, so white that the paper, parchment really, nearly blinds. His name in flowing script assures him that he is the recipient. Martel, it reads, and across from the name, in the same black ink, is a thunderbolt, stylized, but a thunderbolt nonetheless. He probes the inside with his perceptions, but only inert material rests there. Closing the portal, he returns to the main room, and to the table with the beaker. Can it be from his latest tenants? Unlikely, for neither could write in such a flowing hand. He knows this, though he has seen neither write. From the chief at the CastCenter, the latest of the more than several dozen for whom he has theoretically worked the “night” shift over the centuries? Also unlikely. He sniffs, holds the envelope up, trying to see if some perfume clings to it. For the hand proclaims that a woman wrote his name. Emily? He shakes his head. He cannot imagine the writing of a goddess, or the reasons why she would take the time to write. He holds the envelope, hesitates, puts it down on the table, and stands there. Why are you afraid? You, the dark shadow of Aurore? Not denying his fear, he walks around the table, stares out the window at the nearest quince tree, the latest of the generations he has planted, and down at the main house, rebuilt last year for the fiftieth time since he purchased it from Mrs. Alderson's estate. After all the years, why now? He knows the answer. He has felt it on the wind, and in his probes of what lies beyond the energy field that is Aurore. “There is a season. . .” And after the season of light comes the season of change. Has he not said so himself? He replaces the beaker on its shelf and walks back to his sleeping room, toward the wardrobe and the black tunics and trousers. He dons tunic, then trousers, and for the first time in many years, instead of the plain black belt, puts on the one with the triangular silver buckle. The black boots follow. Fully dressed, he walks back to the table, regards the envelope. After a time, he picks it up and touches the flap, which unseals at his touch, as he knew it would. Three holos tumble out on the table, all landing face up. Rathe Firien, snub-nosed, red-haired, full-breasted under the clinging tunic, and friendly, the warmth obvious, as if the holo had been canned the day before. Marta Farell, not the stern-faced CastCenter chief, but smiling as if to welcome her lover, and wearing a golden gown. And. . . at the end, Kryn Kirsten, daughter of the Grand Duke, golden-eyed and black-haired, in tunic and trousers of blue shot with threads of gold. Slim like a bitch goddess, and bitchlike in her own way. A narrow slip of parchment remains in the envelope. Martel leaves it there as he studies the pictures. Two dead women, one who loved him, and one who hadn't Both dead because of him. And a third, possibly the most powerful person in the Empire of Light, immortal and yet not a goddess, and not on Aurore. The enigma he has not seen in more than a millennium, her holo in with that of two dead women. An obvious conclusion to be drawn, one meant to be drawn. But why now? And by whom? Underlying all was the assumption that he would care, that he had to care, that he could care. The three-dimensional images looking up from the table asked a question, too. Two of them, at least, and Martel dislikes the question. Is he going to let someone else die, as he has the other two, because he will not listen? Or is someone using the question to force you to act? Does it matter? He shrugs, not sure that it does. Who knows him well enough to ask the question in such a knifing way? Emily. She is the only answer. She is the goddess Dian, but Emily will do. Has always done between them. He takes the narrow slip from the envelope, reads it. The No-Name. 2200. My love. Her love? He tosses that question into his mental file with all the other unanswered questions he has ignored over the centuries, knowing that it cannot stay ignored, not this time. He looks down at the images of the three women, all beautiful in their own way, all intelligent, and, in their own way, all dead to him. If you believe that, Martel, you're crazier than Thor. He wonders who expressed the thought, then realizes it is his own, not letting him lie to himself this time. The stars have changed, and his time has come round at last, rough beast, and it may be time to slouch forward. . . he does not finish the thought, but, instead, fingers the slip and lets it burst into flame. The ashes are light and drift from his fingertips into the still air of the room and slowly toward the floor. Martel locks the rear portal onto the porch, as well as the front as he leaves, for the first time since he originally entered the cottage with Rathe Firien. He will not be back soon. The three holos gaze adoringly at the wooden beams of the ceiling above the table, and the black thunderbolt on the envelope protects them. A man who is no longer just a man, clad in two black cloaks, one fabric, one shadow, strides along the coast path toward Sybernal, and those who see him do not. But they shiver as he passes, not knowing why. XLIII In the strictest sense of the word, the old Empire of Man “fell” with the death of the Regent and the succession of the Grand Duke of Kirsten. Practically speaking, however, the impact was the permanent division of the Empire. Both the “eastern” Empire, ruled from New Augusta by the Emperor, and the “western” Empire, ruled from Karnak by the Viceroy, claimed to be only parts of the new Empire of Light. In a strange way, the claims were true. In the millennium that the Empire of Light existed, never did either ruler contest a prior claim of the other, nor was there a recorded instance of the fleets of one firing upon the fleets of the other. To the Viceroy, of course, most credit should be given. Never before or since in human history has a ruler endured, not only relatively sane, but apparently young and healthy, for a millennium. During the same period, there were twenty- four Emperors, five palace revolts, and three lineal changes associated with the Emperors of New Augusta. . . . —Basic Hist-Tape Hsein-Fer Karnak 4413 XLIV The golden goddess glitters. Glitters as she walks, glitters as she never glittered before, and the words she has not spoken dance across the dull air to shimmer from the darker corners created by her very presence in Sybernal. Seldom has she donned her aspect so blatantly in the city of gold sand beaches and eternal sunlight that comes from no sun and turns the seas golden-green at all hours. Seldom has she been seen in recent centuries, not since she was rumored to have consorted with the god who is and never was. Yet she is, and she glitters as she walks from the Petrified Boardwalk down a narrow lane toward a narrower staircase. The women turn away without looking, and the men look and turn away, wishing they dared to look longer, but knowing that she has chosen the dark god, the one no one dares mention, and been rejected. Inside the No-Name, a man dressed in black sits alone at a table. The row of tables nearest his is vacant, and the bar is slowly emptying. No one wears black in Sybernal, no one of Aurore, not without tempting the gods or the dark one, and the man in black does both. A rumormonger who has seen better times mutters, “The Emperor kills the truth,” before collapsing on the hardwood counter, and, yes, it is real hardwood, genuine steelbark from Sylvanium, that counter of the nameless bar where the media downers congregate, where they ignore the one called Martel who sits among them, where they tempt fate and gods by remaining in his presence. Martel knows the collapsed one could not have been a good newsie, not after spouting such garbage. The news itself kills truth, for the news media can never encompass all that happens and, by omission, present only a scattering of accurate facts sufficient to kill the truth. Rulers, among them Emperors and Viceroys, merely use the media's reported facts to ensure that the truth remains dead and buried. In waiting, Martel has drunk too much Springfire, more than anyone should drink, he knows, and particularly more than he should drink. Still, he hesitates to change his metabolism to bum it off. . . yet. “Martel. . .” The voice has a golden sound, but its fullness cannot quite hide the trace of silver bells beneath. He turns and looks through the glitter. Even without the coruscating auras, the veil of glittermotes, and the projected sensuality, she is still impossibly impressive. Her natural, but genetically back-altered, golden hair streams over her shoulders like a cloak. The golden ruby of her lips and the clean lines of her still- and forever-young face combine with her tan and slenderness to strike a silence deeper than that at the bottom of the well of souls. Martel, wishing again he could have remained merely a newsie, but knowing she had indeed sent him the three holos, ignores the temptation to see her as she wishes and concentrates on her as she is. Physically, of course, there is no difference, but, without all the attributes, she stands before him as a collection of clashing traits—the face of a girl with eyes that have seen Hell, the figure of a virgin with the body posture of experience, a complexion that demands dark hair with golden. “Emily, Queen of Harlots and Whore of Gods, nice of you to pay your respects.” “Martel, your words have been nicer. Not to mention your actions.” The two newsies closest to the arched doorway scuttle through it and up the stairway into the light. Another crouches in the corner of his solitary booth. Martel readjusts his metabolism, holds back the churning in his stomach, and wipes the instant sweat boils off his forehead as his system bums off the poisons he has so recently drunk from the jasolite beaker. “That was then. When I was young and did not know you weren't, and when I had not learned the price. Not that I have yet paid it, but I will. Oh, I will.” “Not that one, I hope.” She turns. Martel watches, not quite ready to follow, not quite rid of the Springfire toxins. The golden girl turns up her glitter, spraying the room with the hope that kills. The single woman, a caster from Path Five, sees that false hope and hates. Hates instantly, and dies nearly as instantly. Martel reaches out with a twist of thought and readjusts her thoughts before her death is final, before she knows she has died. But he leaves the hatred. That is a personal matter. Wiping off the last of the sweat-poison boils with a towel flown from across the bar, he stands away from his table and strides through the sparkling motes left by the golden girl, letting them cloak his black tunic and trousers for the instants before they understand what he is and expire. Like a knife of night he cuts through the residues of the worthless hope left by Emily as he tracks her from the No-Name. On the long beach called Beginning he finds her. On Aurore any beach can be a beginning, for it is on the beach that most who would be gods find their calling. There are no shadows on the beach. He ignores his thought and lets his steps take him to Emily, who watches the waves break, who holds her cloak of glittermotes to call attention and repel it. His own shield of darkness wraps around him tighter than his cloak. The breeze swirls his black hair into patterns no geometrician would dare probe, but he ignores it. “Still the same stolid Martel,” observes Emily, releasing her cloak of lightmotes back into the field. Martel looks through her shallow/deep gold eyes. Why did all those who merely accepted godhood have eyes, eyes that miss nothing but understand nothing? Maybe that is the answer, he thinks. “A thousand years, and you still think about eyes and philosophy?” “How many thousand and you still don't?” he counters. Shielded or unshielded makes no difference. Her powers have not grown. Martel stands fractionally above the soft sand that would climb into his boots, given half a chance. The nouveaux riches of the Empire flock to Aurore to lie on the beaches, to tan, and to let the sand drift over and about them, hoping the god field would select them. And Martel stands above the sand, well above the salt. “Philosophy is a substitute for power, or a rationale for not using it.” “Did you intrigue me out here just to insult me?” Martel knows he should have waited until Emily made her offer, whatever it is. But the time has passed, long passed, for him to take matters on her terms. You think so? Martel does not answer. Emily gathers back her light cloak and draws upon the field. She expands until she is half again Martel's height, until she has a fistful of small lightnings within her right hand, until dark clouds swirl over the beach called Beginning. Martel ignores the temptation and watches the always regular breakers coasting in to foam up on the square-lined beach that stretches kilos north and south. The lightnings flash, and Martel accepts them, one by one, without flinching, without injury, and without expression. From the depths of the field building around Emily comes the roaring whistle of tormented air emerging onto the sands into a sandspout that bears down on Martel. The winds die as they strike Martel, and the sands slough away. Emily makes no other moves and says nothing. Martel is determined not to speak again. Locking his time sense into a trance, he waits, personal defense screens alerted, only half conscious of his immediate surroundings as he feels the planet turn, if Aurore indeed is a planet, a fact contested by approximately 49.49567 percent of the physical scientists in the Empire to have studied Aurore. Alone in his time-slowed thoughts, Martel again senses the wrongness of the beach, that wrongness he has glimpsed so many times before in passing, whether gathering background cubes for the CastCenter, or cloud-diving, or just in walking the Petrified Boardwalk. Waiting for Emily, he ponders. Pondering, he waits. Multiple drains on the field around him prick his alert screens, and Martel flashes directly into double-speed awareness, without shifting a single muscle. Item: Five full foci surround him. Item: Emily hovers outside the pentagonal force lines. Item: Sixteen standard hours have elapsed. Item: All five of the foci circling him are asexual. Never has Martel experienced an asexual focus. Theoretically, the user is either ancient or alien, but while alien gods are possible in theory, Martel has never run across one. Therefore, either the foci are ancient human-derived gods or artificial. As a practical matter, neither is likely to be a danger, and Martel returns to normal awareness, increasing his circulation level to lessen the possibility of physical stiffness. He blinks. While he can sense the five foci, he can see none, only Emily hovering at an angle, her eyes shielded by her customary veil of glitter, emotions cloaked in a jangle of discordant projections. Lust rolls in so strongly the beach air reeks of rancid trilia blossoms, so pungent that Emily would have cast a double shadow on any other planet. Martel does not move. “You still believe in all that ethical restraint,” Emily notes as she touches down several body lengths in front of him. “No. Or not exactly. I don't like being pushed into making decisions.” “Apollo wagered that you would break the elementals.” “And you bet I wouldn't?” Emily makes a curious gesture in the air, and the five foci are reabsorbed into the field. “You know, you do believe in ethical restraint. One woman, one god, one set of beliefs, and that's what They're fearing.” Martel looks away, back at the thin edge of foam that coasts into the beach ahead of the waves. Finally he speaks. “Why now?” “You've given Them a millennium. Isn't that enough?” Since Emily never quite tells the whole truth, Martel makes the necessary translation. Apollo has finally decided that Martel is no danger and is moving against him. Either that, or Emily has decided that Apollo is no danger to Martel and is pressing Martel. “Not necessarily.” Emily takes a step sideways, toward the water. Martel casts around, but, outside of a few norms farther up the beach, they are alone. No gods or demigods are standing by. “Why don't you go to Karnak, Martel?” suggests Emily. “Why Karnak?” Why indeed Karnak? Is she playing to your curiosity, Martel? Or trying to get you off Aurore, and away from the field? Before he has finished the thought, the girl who glitters has bent the field and is half Aurore away, or playing with the dolphins in midocean, or reporting to Apollo. He can go to Karnak or he can stay on Aurore. That is not the question, but then, it never has been. XLV “Shuttle from the Grand Duke Kirsten now arriving at port ten. Passengers from Tinhorn, Accord, and Sahara. Grand Duke Kirsten at port ten.” One would have thought that the Viceroy would have retired the Grand Duke before having the former pride of the transport liners relegated to backwater runs. One might have thought, unless one knew the Viceroy. Even so, before long the Grand Duke would be scrap or an outsystem tramp with a new name. Eventually, another Grand Duke Kirsten of the Imperial Western Flag Fleet would be built and christened—the fifth of the same name—and the cycle would repeat. In the meantime, the fourth Grand Duke carries passengers on the Karnak-Tinhorn-Sabara-Acconi quadrangle, and often carries far less than a full complement, for the schedule is more important than the profit, the regularity a quietly impressive reinforcement of Viceregal power cheaper than corresponding calls by appropriate fleets. Not that the fleets do not call. . . just that they call less frequently, but just as impressively as ever. The first shuttle's passengers file down the sloping corridor toward the clearance officers and their fully instrumented cubicles. One customs inspector fingers his power spray syringe, reviewing the small holo of a black-haired man with a young face and deep eyes, a face that seems to cast a shadow even through the holo cube. His partner should steer the man toward his station. Then it will be his job to complete the operation. The killer, for that is an accurate description of his profession, paid as he is by the Assassins' Guild of Karnak, relaxes as he sees the man approach, mentally measures the distance between the unsuspecting traveler and his inspection console, and flexes his arm to ensure the proper function of the syringe hidden within his sleeve. The victim wears black except for a silver triangle mounted on the plain black metal buckle of his black belt. He carries no luggage, not even a small carrying case or the effects pouch of a postulant. The false inspector feels a twinge of unease, but stifles it with a cheerful call. “This way, honored sir.” The traveler in black turns his gaze on the assassin, and the look alone sends a chill down the professional killer's spine, for the look is simply an acknowledgement of what is. Nearly convulsively the assassin triggers the syringe. For the first time in years, if ever, an assassin's weapon fails, but the Guild insists on backup plans, and the man's hands flick to the clearance lights: green for clear, red for danger—smuggling, weapons, or attack. Even while his hands are triggering the switch that will bring a red light while alerting the guards in the overhead blisters, he reaches for his own stunner, a special model designed to bum out enough nerves to render the question of survival academic. The clearance light turns green, and the traveler turns to move through the opening portal to the open shuttle terminal, to Karnak itself. Frantically the assassin jerks the stunner from inside the hidden pouch, levels it, and squeezes the firing stud. No energy flows from the circular tubes pointed at the back of the departing man in black, but the jolt to the killer's arm is enough to slam his fingers apart and let the fused hand weapon clatter on the hard flooring. Though his arm looks intact, he cannot feel anything below the elbow. The sound of the dropped stunner echoes through the rest of the receiving tunnel. Three red lights blink on in the consoles above, one in each guard blister. The energy-concentration detectors focus on the heat of the discarded stunner, but the guards zero in on the figure standing above the weapon. The assassin bites hard on a back tooth, one designed in a special way, but before the nerve poison can take full effect he collapses under three separate stun beams, one from each overhead blister. The remaining travelers gingerly step around the twitching body, avoid looking down, and make their declarations to the other two customs officials. The man in black does not look back. After a time, the assassin's body is still, and, shortly, is removed. Three disposal units roll from a recess in the tunnel wall. The body is lifted into the first. The second sterilizes the floor and surrounding area. The third does nothing. The last of the passengers from the Grand Duke steps around the three metallic units and presents her declaration to the sole customs officer left. By the time the clearance light has flashed green, the tunnel is empty, and the guards in their blisters have punched the standby studs, to wait for the next arrivals. XLVI May the wind rise in dusty rooms, rooms for sex and sensuality, and let us not call either a sin, for sinning is a term implying an absolute morality, and the gods of the Empire, the gods of Aurore, accept no morality and know no absolutes. While they know no absolutes, they know well the power of belief in absolutes, and revel in that power. While the winds of sex and not-sinning spin in quiet circles, rise and die, rise and die in polished sheets and damp skin, in eternal light and in eternal darkness, and in the grubby universe in between, the gods of Aurore gather upon the holy peak Jsalm. Some glitter, like Emily, and some, like the Smoke Bull, wrap misty darkness around themselves like a cloak. Each has an individual aspect and an energy presence, but what these gods that are, beings that were, do with their appearance with the light and power they draw from the field matters little. That they have all met on the sacred peak in person is what matters, for it was in the time of the immortal Viceroy's grandfather before the Empire of Man became the Empire of Light that they last gathered. Two have often met, perhaps three, even five, but never have all met since that time. Apollo flares and bends the light around him, and the Smoke Bull snorts and casts little rings of darkness at the feet of those who manifest them. “Martel has left,” announces Apollo. “Karnak,” verifies the winged siren Direne, and the gods who are close enough to their maleness bend toward the lure of her voice. Another goddess closes her eyes, thinks of her son, and wonders how soon before she will behold a leaden shield. “I must think,” thunders the hammer-thrower. “Think. . - think while you can, old throwback to antiquity,” murmurs the Goat, his red eyes laughing at the prospect of chaos. “Remember,” adds Apollo, “he is still the undeclared god, and the hope of the hopeless, and all that implies.” . . . and all that implies. . . The thought hangs over Jsalm long after the congregation has departed, long after they have turned their thoughts to the future, all but two, whose thoughts are on the past, and what it means. XLVII Martel wanders down the long parade of Emperors, past the glittering lights of the Everlight Palaces, past the modest coolights of the Longlife Homes, past even the Mausoleums of Remembrance, as the promenade narrows to a boulevard to an avenue to a street to a lane and to less than an alley among the hulks of empty walls. One fully intact structure still stands, but the steps to the temple are barred by a laser screen. Organized religion has been banned on Karnak since the Great Upheaval, the greatness of that catastrophe attested to by the fact that not even the Empire dares to raze the temple of the Black One, only spend gigawatts of hard-earned power to shield the black marble columns with a robe of death-light. The teletales of the sweepers flicker, throwing amber flashes on the tumbled walls outside the laser beams. “Do I dare to touch the strings of time. . . to taste the tartness of the lime. . . to think no thoughts in rhyme.” Martel stops. The words are in a tongue too old for even the databanks of the sweepers, and besides, the wench is not dead, but the ruler of the sweepers. He studies the walls of fire before the temple and sighs. “ 'Tis hardest to refrain, and therein lies the paradox. . . just a chatty old man you are, Martel, obsessed with your words, and knowing words are enough, and yet not enough.” He stares at the temple another long moment, then ignores the bones that crunch beneath his feet as he approaches the light knives that have claimed so many over the past millennium. “Just a gesture, for old times' sake,” he says, knowing that the banks of recorders will relay it all to the Viceroy of Karnak. Wrapping the darkness tighter about him, he bends and picks up a jawbone, several teeth still intact, and thrusts it through the weaving net of lasers. The bone and teeth vanish in an acrid puff of smoke. Martel withdraws his untouched arm and black sleeve. As the flashing of the teletales begins to build, the one who calls himself Martel strides into the shadows dripping from the shattered walls of the ancient dwellings that surround the Black One's temple. He is gone, gone even from the wide-angle, time-perfected spyeyes of the teletales. XLVIII The Viceroy watches the scene from the third teletale disc, and although the angle differs, the picture is the same. The stocky figure in black, white bone in the left hand, thrusts through the laser screens with a puff of smoke. The bone is gone, but he withdraws his untouched hand and arm and disappears into the shadows. None of the teletales have been able to catch the man's face. “Tell me what you saw, Forde,” commands the actual and titular ruler of Karnak, planet of long life and capital of the Western Reaches of the Empire of Light. “I saw what you saw. Lady,” answers the man in red, who has begun to resign himself to a drastic reduction in his life expectations. She purses her lips, then laughs. “Forde, you please me. That is one answer which I might accept.” Forde bows. Tall as he is, overtopping the slender figure worn by the Viceroy, he is all too aware of how appearances deceive, all too aware his continuation rests on a patience that can be as short-lived as a laugh. “You may go.” Forde bows again, and strides for the portal. The Viceroy lifts her finger, then lowers it. Forde's second in command would have tried to answer the question. Better a clever schemer who knows his limits than an ambitious power-grabber who recognizes neither limits nor gods. The man in black seemed familiar, whether she could see his face or not, and that bothers the Viceroy. The color black has unpleasant associations, reminding her of matters better left forgotten. She represses a shudder. Perhaps she can again forget. Perhaps. She touches the arm of the high chair that is not quite a throne. “Query?” The well-modulated voice of the databanks forms in the empty space in front of her. She could use her screen faster than the vocal mode, but she isn't in the mood. Or she could link directly with the system, but that is not called for at the moment, she feels. Besides, she wants to be alone with her thoughts, and with the direct link she certainly does not feel alone. “Linkage probabilities between the man in black at the temple of the Black One and the code file Interest Black'?” The Throne Room is silent. “Linkage between the recently observed man in black and the Black One variable, depending on validity of Kyre-Brackell hypothesis and associated Auroran phenomena. Range from thirty percent to eighty percent. “Linkage between man in black and code file Interest Black' approaches unity. “Linkage between the Black One and code file cannot be calculated. “Further query?” The Viceroy purses her lips once more. Why would there be any linkage between the man in black and the Black One? But why would her sources on Aurore merely have suggested her agents assassinate the man in black? How had he managed the failure? For that alone he deserved to live, at least until she could discover if he had a certain method for beating the Guild. That she could use. She frowns. Why was his bearing familiar? At last, she shakes her head. Maybe the familiarity was only an illusion, a similarity to someone else. XLIX Rydal and Commoron drift across the Lake of Dreams in a swanboat, a common swanboat with second-degree time-stretching and pleasure-lifting intensifiers. They thus prolong each instant into hours, trying to grasp the feeling of eternal life and youth. The swanboats on the Lake of Dreams are all the two will know of long life or of centuries as frequent as sunrises. Rydal and Commoron are poor, limited to extensive wardrobes, limited in travel to the grand city of Karnak, limited to one “now,” waiting for a death that will arrive long before the Viceroy has skimmed another millennium down the timetrack. “I saw a streak of black along the far shore.” “No one walks that shore, Commoron. That's from the ruins of death.” “That's why I noticed it.” “You shouldn't be noticing such things now.” “Why doesn't the Viceroy,” persists Commoron, “just level the Black One's temple?” She finishes with the symbol of the looped cross. “Because,” answers her lover, the poor Rydal, “the Black One remains trapped within the temple, like you're trapped within my boat.” Rydal ignores the fact that the swanboat is not his, as youths have done in all times and in all cultures. “No one wears black on Karnak,” Commoron muses. “Then you didn't see a streak of black,” he responds, before kissing her hand and drawing her to him. The swanboats, including the one containing Rydal and Commoron, circle the Lake of Dreams on their preprogrammed patterns, twining their intricate paths for poor lovers clutching a moment out of time. And yet. . . do those poor lovers know something in their blindness? They do not. It only seems so, particularly to gods who are searching for humanity in a race that has never really had it. Martel knows about the swanboats and favors them with a glance as he walks the ruinshore side of the Lake of Dreams, the side he had never walked as a student. He inhales the too-strong scent of trilia and novamella that crosses the water from the pleasure groves on the opposite side, beyond the dreaming couples in the swanboats. Too much of a scent, like too much power, often has the wrong effect. He smiles at the thought, but the smile is not a pleasant one, for his eyes are cold. The Viceroy's Palace is at the far end of the lake, where the dark water lightens into the brilliant blue bay and where the sun always shines, even when it has set. The swanboats do not go nearly that far, milling around as they do near the end of the Avenue of Emperors, not nearly far enough from a small square and a jet-black temple that has resisted a millennium and more of the Empire's best weapons. The temple is guarded only because it could not be destroyed, not without taking most of the city with it, and neither the Regent nor the Grand Duke had wished that, not when the Park of Summer had already been destroyed by the Dark One and the Tree of Darkness. The Dark One has not been seen since, excepting reports that He has reappeared on Aurore and will return to His true believers. Or reports that he has appeared on Tinhorn, or Mardreis, or Sileorn, or any one of a hundred worlds outside the mainstream of the Empire. In the interim, neither age nor weapons have changed the temple, and the faithful still worship, though no litany exists, nor any true priests. Martel knows these facts and quickens his pace. The Viceroy is waiting. L The Viceroy has a name, not that anyone has dared to use it since the Great Upheaval. She is addressed as “Lady” and other honorifics by those who must answer to her, and in other terms by those who do not. She bites her lower lip as she gazes from her window at the morning light playing upon the blue waters of the great Lake of Dreams. The fallen one, the man in black who is more than he seems,