Damia
by
Anne MccAffrey
Of all
the Rowan's children,Damia was the most brilliant,the most
difficult,the
loneliest,and the one who had inherited the greatest
Talent.It
was obvious from childhood that she was going to be
a
Prime,with all the honours,burdens and strains of that elite
class.Her
one friend was Afra-older,wiser,Talented in his own
way,but
-belonging'almost exclusively to the Rowan and the
workings
of Callisto Station.
As
Damia grew up,her Talent became almost too strong to control,
and the
solution was seperation-from her parents,from Callisto,
from
her beloved Afra.Sent to the distant planet of Deneb,to her
strange
and gifted grandmother,Damia began the training necessary
to turn
her into a Prime of extraordinary gifts-a Prime who could
connect
the minds of approaching aliens through space,some of whom
threatened
to totally destroy the worlds of the Nine Star League.
One of the world's leading science
fiction writers, Anne McCaffrey
has won
the Hugo and Nebula awards for science fiction. Brought up in
the
U.S. and now living in Ireland, she is the creator and bestselling
author
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Afra felt his sister's mental touch and
told his mother that
Goswina
had returned to Capella. Cheswina
regarded her six-year-old
son
with her ineffable serenity.
`Thank you, afra. You always could hear farther, and Goswina
better,
than the rest of us. But don't
intrude,' his mother added, as
afra
jiggled about in his eagerness to make contact with his beloved
sister. `Capella Prime will wish to debrief her on
her training at
Altair
Tower.
You may continue with your exercises.'
But Goswina's excited about
something. Something that has to do with ME! afra insisted, for he
wanted
to make sure that his mother heard him.
`Now, afra,' and his mother waggled a
stern finger at him, `you've
got a
tongue AND a voice. Use them. No-one is to accuse this family
of
bringing up a discourteous and ill-mannered Talent. You have your
lessons
and you are not to `path your sister until she comes in that
door.'
afra scowled because, when Goswina came in the door, he wouldn't
need to
`path her.
`You won't ever be chosen for Tower duty
if you cannot obey,'
Cheswina
went on. `Please assume a cheerful
face.' If afra had heard
those
admonitions once, he had heard them several thousand times. But
he
stifled his vexation because what he wanted more than anything else
in the
world was to be in a Prime Tower, part of the vast FT&T network
that
handled communications and transportation between the star systems
that
comprised the Federation.
His parents and his older brother and
sisters were either part of
or
working towards being in that great network.
The family were also lucky enough to live
in the Tower Complex.
As a baby, he had been lulled to sleep by
the throb of the
enormous
generators with which the Prime Talent made the gestalt to
perform
her miracles of transportation. His
first mental effort at
fourteen
months had been a cheerful greeting to Capella's Prime who had
taken
the professional name of her posting.
Although she had been
addressing
the Earth Prime with her `good morning', afra had heard her
voice
so clearly in his mind that he had responded.
His parents had
been
shocked by his impudence.
`He was not impudent at all,' Capella had
reassured them with one
of her
rare laughs. `It was really quite
charming to be greeted by a
sweet
chirping "good morning".
Quite sweet. We will encourage
such a
strong
young Talent.
Though it would be as well if you can
make him understand that he
is not
to interrupt me.' Cheswina was a T-8 telepathic sender and her
husband,
Gas Lyon, a T-7 kinetic. Every one of
their children had
Talent
but afra's was not only apparent early but was also the
strongest,
possibly even a double - telepath and teleport. This did
not
keep his parents from being considerably embarrassed by their
youngest
son's precocity.
So they immediately initiated gentle
methods of curbing him
without
inhibiting his potential Talent.
Either father, mother or Goswina, the
eldest sibling, had to be
sure to
awaken before afra did and curb a repeat of that performance.
For several months, this was a splendid
new game for the toddler:
to see
if he could wake up first so he could chirp `good morning' to
the
velvet voice that invaded his mind. . .
Capella. Whoever was
minding
him that morning had to engage his attention in an alternative
occupation
- like eating. For young afra loved to
eat.
Not that it showed. Like the rest of his family, he was a
healthy
but
lean baby; ectomorphic with the sort of energy levels that burn up
calories. Placing a msk or a piece of fruit in his hand
would
instantly
divert him. As most tots, he had a very
short attention span
and
these ploys worked until he was old enough to understand that his
`good
mornings' should be limited to his immediate family.
Goswina, a loving and caring sister, had
not an ounce of meanness
in her
temperament and never found this duty a chore.
She adored her
clever
brother and he reciprocated so warmly that a strong tie was
established
between them.
The mental exercises his Gossie used to
divert her lively brother
had a
salutary effect on her own Talent and she was upgraded to a T-6
by the time she was sixteen. That made her eligible for the
special
training courses that Earth Prime Reidinger initiated on
Altair.
This was a very mixed blessing, for
sixteen-year-old Goswina had
developed
such a deep attachment for a T-5, Vessily Ogdon, that both
families
had earnestly discussed a possible alliance.
However, Goswina
was
asked to put aside her personal plans for the chance to participate
in the
Altair course. Only afra knew how
painful that choice was for
his
sister. Once Gas Lyon invoked family
honour, she had complied,
demonstrating
an obedience that seemed genuine - except to her brother
who
howled loudly at Goswina's departure.
afra missed his slender, gentle sister
dreadfully. Altair was so
very
far away that he could not maintain the light mental touch that
reassured
him through his daily trials.
afra was not a natural conformist and
trouble seemed to seek him
out at
school, and even at home. He was not as
biddable as his brother
and
sisters had been and his parents found his impetuosity and often
`wild',
or `aggressive' behaviour a trial.
Aware of young afra's problems, the
Capella stationmaster,
Hasardar,
tactfully had the boy doing small `jobs' for him, jobs which
the
worried parents could not take exception to as they were aimed at
developing
his potential.
afra willingly did the `errands',
delighted to be considered - for
once -
capable of doing something properly.
One of these errands took him to a large
freighter with a packet,
requested
by the captain. afra was agog with the
prospect of actually
meeting
spacemen. He'd seen ships come and go
from Capella all his
short
life but had never actually encountered off-worlders.
As he trotted up to the open hatch, he
saw big burly space-tanned
men,
lounging within. He also heard a babble
of sound which made no
sense
at all to his ears. His mind, however,
translated the meaning.
`This is no place for leave, boys. Straight as dies, these folk.
Methody believers, and you know what that
means.' `Sure, Chief, no
hanky-panky,
no funsies, no drink, no smokings. Hey,
what's coming
here? A pint-sized greenie!
Don't they grow `em a decent size?' `Ah,
it's a kid.' And one of
the men
swung down the ramp, grinning. `Good
morning,' he said in good
Basic.
afra stared up at him.
`You got a package for the captain,
boy? Stationmaster said he'd
have it
hand-delivered.' afra continued to stare, extending the package
with
both hands, puzzled by the strange words and especially by the
description
of himself.
`What does "pint-sized greenie"
mean, please, sir?' afra flinched
at the
laughter from the lock and then from the angry glare the chief
directed
at his crewmen.
`Don't be offended, laddie,' the chief
said in a kind tone. `Some
spacers
have no manners. You understand more
than Basic?' afra wasn't
sure what
response to make. While he knew some
people could not `path,
he
didn't know that there were many different forms of language in the
galaxy.
However, as his family would expect him
to give a courteous answer
to a
friendly question, he gave a nod.
`I understand what you say,' afra
replied. `I don't understand
"pint-sized
greenie" The chief hunkered down, being conscious that it
was
wise not to offend locals, even a kid.
And a kid would be more
likely
to repeat what had been said to the stationmaster. It was also
smart
for freighter crews to be on the best possible terms with Tower
stationmasters.
`It's like this, lad,' and he rolled back
his sleeve, showing a
brown-skinned
arm, then he pointed to afra's hand.
`My skin is brown,
your
skin is green. I'm a brownie,' and he
ignored the hoots from his
crew,
`and you're a greenie.
Just a matter of what colour we got born
with. Now, "pint-sized"
means
small, and I'd be gallon-sized, `cause I'm much bigger. Get me?'
`More
like barrel, Chief!' one of the crew chortled, again using the
different
sounds though his mind made the comment clear to afra.
afra cocked his head at the chief,
noticing other differences
between
himself, a Capellan, and these visitors.
The man had brown
skin,
streaky grey hair and brown eyes. He
was the widest man afra had
ever
seen, with forearms twice the size of his father's, or even
Stationmaster
Hasardar.
`Thank you for explaining to me,
Chief. It was kind of you,' afra
said,
giving a respectful bow.
`No problem, lad. And here's something for your trouble,' the
chief
said, reaching for afra's right hand and closing the fingers
around
a metallic object. `Put that by for a
rainy day. If it rains
on
Capella.' afra looked at the round object, `pathing from the chief
that
this was a half credit, a reward for delivering the package. He
had
never seen credit coins before and he liked the feel of its edges
in his
palm. He gleaned from the chief that a
`tip' was normal
procedure
so he bowed again.
`Thank you, Chief. It was kind of you.' II r `Tell you one
thing,
they
teach manners on this planet,' the chief said in a loud voice,
trying
to overwhelm the rude comments his crewmen were making about
afra's
courtesies.
afra didn't catch the meanings behind
some of the strange words.
`Off you go, lad, before you become
contaminated by this sorry lot
of
spacers. Ain't any of you guys got some
couth? Back inside, the
lot of
you. You've had your smoking time.' As
afra trotted across the
plascrete
back to the stationmaster, he decided that he wouldn't tell
anyone
about the coin. It had been given him
in return for completing
his
errand. It was for him, not Stationmaster
Hasardar who had said
nothing
to him about collecting any sort of payment or to expect a tip.
If Goswina had been home, he would have
confided in her as a
matter
of course, but his other sisters considered him a nuisance and
his
brother, Chostel, felt that he was too old to associate with kids.
So afra decided he didn't need to say
anything about his coin. He
would
save it, but not for a rainy day. When
it rained on Capella,
no-one
went anywhere.
This was yet another occasion when afra
found himself deprived by
Goswina's
absence. And, now that she had returned
to Capella, he
simply
had to renew contact as soon as he could.
So, despite his
mother's
stricture, he reached out his mind to his sister in the main
Tower
building.
Not now, afra, Capella said but not
unkindly as his mind linked to
Goswina's
in their conference mode.
Oh, mercy, afra, not now, was the
simultaneous message from a
mortified
Goswina.
Fearful that his parents might receive
official reprimands from
the
Prime herself, afra shrank away and coiled so tightly into his own
mind
that he genuinely didn't `hear' Goswina until she opened the door
of
their quarters an hour later.
OH, GOSSeE, afra cried, tears of joy
streaming down his face, as
he
jumped into her arms.
Theirs was not a physically demonstrative
family, as much because
they
enjoyed a sufficient mental rapport that touch was redundant as
because
tactile contact between Talents allowed deeper readings,
sometimes
an inadvertent invasion of the private mind.
Today, Goswina ignored such
considerations as she hugged her young
brother
tightly. Through that close contact,
she also managed to
convey
many things such a reserved girl would find difficult to say out
loud.
afra caught rapid shifts through scenes
of her landing on Altair,
the
forested mountains behind the Port City, the raw look of the
Altairian
Tower, the faces of her fellow students in a hectic montage,
with
one face dominating the group, rapidly scrolling through the
school
room sessions, meals, the room Goswina had shared with two
girls,
then pausing at a musical interlude which was abruptly deleted,
overlaid
with her excitement at returning to the home she had missed,
and her
Vessily.
I missed you terribly, afra.
More than you missed Vessily?
As much, though not quite the same way,
afra, and Goswina's gentle
thought
teased him. But it was a splendid
trip. I met so many
marvellous
people. And oh, afra, how you'll love
the Rowan when you
meet
her. She said that she would consider
you when you have finished
your
training, because you are my brother and because we two knew our
temperaments
weren't complementary. But I told her
that you would be
because
you're so clever and understanding. I
missed you terribly,
afra. Just wait till you see the trees they have
on Altair. Whole
forests
of trees, darling . . . big trees and
small ones, different
shades
of green and blue and many different shapes of trunk, branch and
leaf
All of them fragrant. Altair's not as
large as Capella but it is
a good
place. I did so well in my course that
Capella said that she
will
definitely place me in this system, and, as she held afra from her
to peer
into his face, `to work in a Capellan Tower.
Did you `Aloud, please, afra,' she said,
hearing her mother come
into
the room.
know that Stationmaster Hasardar gave me
some special training,
after
school hours? He said I had Tower potential,
too!' He offered
that
praise as a homecoming present for her, but he didn't mention the
credit
coin aloud. Or even in his mind.
`How very good of Hasardar. How clever of you, afra dear,' she
said,
releasing him from her embrace and rising to greet her mother
more
formally. `Mother, Capella was very
pleased both with my course
of
study on Altair and with the report Siglen of Altair sent her of
me.'
Cheswina smoothed her daughter's hair in a brief, loving gesture
and
smiled `You bring honour to our family' `afra will bring more,
Goswina
said, looking fondly down at him.
`That remains to be seen,' Cheswina said,
her expression bordering
on the
severe, for she did not believe that it was right to praise a
child
for what he or she could be expected to do.
Reward should never
be a
consideration of effort.
However, Goswina did merit some special
indulgence for having
brought
honour to the family so her favorite dishes were served at
dinner
that evening and she'd be allowed a visit from Vessily Ogdon.
On returning from his Tower shift that
evening, Gas Lyon smiled in
benign
approval at his daughter. When everyone
had eaten a sufficiency
of the
excellent meal, he handed her an official note. He contained
his
pride as his overjoyed firstborn communicated to everyone at the
table
that Capella had appointed her to the staff of the southern
Tower,
one of the busier local FT&T facilities.
That means you're going away again! afra cried out in distress.
Silly!
I won't be so far that we can't keep in touch all the
time. `Forgive me, Father, Mother,' Goswina added
hastily, blushing
for
such a gross social lapse, `but afra was so disturbed `afra must
learn
to control his feelings,' Gas Lyon said, bending a stern gaze on
his
youngest. `Tower staff must always
contain their emotions. To
splash
about personal reactions exhibits a woeful absence of discipline
and an
abysmal lack of courtesy and consideration.
I'll have no child
of mine
so ill-mannered. One can never learn
respect too early in
life.'
Later, dear. Goswina shot the very
private thought tightly to
her
brother, so fast her parents would not have caught it, being less
telepathically
Talented than herself. But she had to
do something to
relieve
the woeful expression on afra's face and unwind the tension of
his
small thin body. Shrivelled by the
parental disapproval, he had
curled
in on himself, arms clasped tight across his chest, head down.
Prior to her course at Altair, she would
never have dared even
think
of criticizing her parents. She didn't
entirely approve of
Altair's
social manners but she had also seen a different sort of
society
that apparently worked quite well.
And afra was so very sensitive to his
father's disapproval and,
sometimes,
very privately, Goswina thought her parents could be a
trifle
more lenient and understanding.
After all, he was the most Talented of
them all and needed extra,
specially
astute handling.
`Now, now,' Gas Lyon said, realizing that
perhaps he had been too
severe
with afra, `I know you meant neither disrespect nor
disobedience,
afra. Tonight is a time for rejoicing.'
His soft words
and
gentle tone, as well as the shaft of love and reassurance directed
at his
son, had the desired effect on afra and he was soon smiling when
Goswina
began her almost day-by-day account of her Altairian sojourn.
afra also `heard' unfinished sentiments
and, once, caught her
remembered
alarm. He fervently hoped that her
`later' would come soon
so he'd
find out all those bits and pieces she left out of the public
recital.
`Later' was going to really be `later'
for Vessily Ogdon arrived
at the
door, on time as usual, palpably eager to see his betrothed.
afra didn't like staying in the same room
with Vessily and Goswina
because
he was acutely aware of their attachment.
Since Vessily was a
T-5 and
even older than Goswina, afra thought that he ought to know how
to
control himself. He was amazed that his
father didn't say anything
about
leaking emotions to Vessily.
As afra retired to his room, he heard the
depth of Vessily's
discontent
with Goswina's posting to the Southern Station. But he
heard
Goswina's telepathic reassurance - and Gas Lyon who was
chaperoning
the couple, said nothing about that! -
afra was also vexed
to hear
Goswina say exactly the same things to Vessily that she'd said
to him
- only her tone was much different.
afra puzzled over that. How could the same words sound so
different
coming from the same mind? Goswina
loved him, but he knew
that
she also loved Vessily. afra understood
that everyone should have
love
enough to give special friends, even many special friends.
Goswina loved him and she had a special
tone for him, but she also
loved
Vessily - and hadn't wanted to leave Capella for Altair because
of
Vessily, or so she'd said out loud - and she had another special
tone
for Vessily. That was very strange, and
afra went to sleep
pondering
that mystery.
Goswina kept her word to him, even if
`later' was the next morning
at
first light. He woke the moment he felt
her mind brush his. Of
course,
she no longer slept in with him as she had when he was a baby,
but her
room was adjacent to his. As had long
been their custom, he
put his
hand up on the wall that separated them, knowing that she did
the
same thing. Not that they needed
contact but it was a friendly
remnant
of childish habit.
What bothered you, Gossie, that you couldn't tell Father and
Mother? He shot her a glimpse of the scene of her
panicky flight to
the
parking lot.
Well, it wasn't anything -- Huh? That's not what you really
think.
Well, one evening, we got permission to
go to a concert in Altair
Port. She showed him a picture of them all driving
off together but
she was
still concealing something. You don't
need to know every cross
on the
Ts and the dots on the Is, afra.
Sorry!
It's just that Altairian concerts are
different from ours. And I
don't
mean the music they played. I mean,
they have a much more
flamboyant
way of performing.
How?
Since his encounter with the freighter chief, afra had taken
every
opportunity his duties afforded him to meet other crews, with
their
variety of skin shades and physical attributes. He also liked
hearing
the different languages, and the odd things crews said from
time to
time, most of which he didn't exactly understand. It was often
hard to
find someone willing to explain variations to his enquiring
mind. Some Talents had a way of wriggling past
public shields to the
real
truths but he didn't expect to be able to do that for some years
to
come. Now that Goswina was back, maybe
she'd tell him. But he
wouldn't
interrupt her with his questions now.
They are. . . far more demonstrative than we would be, and i6
-r afra could tell that she was carefully
editing the thoughts she
let him
see. She was falling into his parents'
habit of `protecting'
him. He wasn't a sissy. He was over six - nearly seven.
No, you're not a sissy, afra, and you're
a very clever nearly
seven
or Hasardar wouldn't let you run errands for him. It was an
adult
concert, Affie, and not something you would understand or enjoy.
afra caught her mental disgust. It's not as ?f I'd start acting
like a
nutty Altairian, Gossie.
Please let me see!
Oh, don't push me around, afra. I have absolutely no intention of
contaminating
an impressionable young mind like yours.
I said, and Goswina's mental touch
unexpectedly firmed against
him,
don't probe, or I won't tell you anything else.
afra projected compliance because he
couldn't bear for Goswina to
shut
him out and not tell him the exciting thing that was at the edge
of her
mind.
So Goswina did tell him about her dismay
at what she would only
term a
lewd public display of affection, her mind so tightly shielded
that he
couldn't catch a glimpse of what had made her leave the concert
arena
so abruptly.
afra hadn't heard `lewd' before but it
couldn't be an acceptable
word,
considering the way she coloured it in her mind - a slimy muddy
yellow
brown.
The music had been wonderful. Music always is, Goswina continued,
and
then they had to spoil it. The Rowan
left with me. I was glad
because
she was much too young to see that sort of thing, even if it is
her
native planet and she might be accustomed to such displays. That's
when I
found out that she was the reason so many Talents were invited
to go
to Altair.
You see, the Rowan is really a Prime so
of course she couldn't
leave
Altair, what with the way space travel sickens Primes, soFT&T set
up the
course to introduce possible Tower crew to her, when she's old
enough
to have her own Prime Tower.
You didn't get space sick, did you? afra would have been
disgusted,
even with his beloved Gossie, if she had.
Of course not, but I'm a T-6. The sickness only affects Primes.
All of us on the course thought the Rowan
was just a T4.
Goswina's thought brightened with delight
at having been the first
to
learn the truth. She's not much younger
than I am but ever so much
stronger.
She's being trained in her duties by
Siglen, just as our Capella
was.
I suppose all Primes were young once,
like the Rowan, Goswina
added
thoughtfully. She's an orphan. All her family, everyone who
knew
her, were killed in an avalanche when she was only three years
old. They said that the whole planet heard her
crying for help.
Goswina did not add the other things
she'd heard about how Siglen
had
behaved at that time because it wasn't proper to criticize a Prime
for any
reason whatsoever. But the Rowan is
very strong, and so
clever,
and generous, and brave. I could never
have done what she did
when
those awful boys attacked us.
ATTACKED YOU? There're indent gangs on Altair?
So that was what
Goswina
hadn't told the parents. Not that afra
blamed her. They'd've
been
very upset at the insult to their daughter and there could have
been
embarrassing repercussions. What sort
of a barbaric place is
Altair?
Now, afra, it isn't barbaric. It's really very - very
sophisticated;
much more worldly than Capella is with no Method to
guide
them. And I wasn't hurt. I was scared. Anyway, the Rowan took
care of
them. afra could hear something akin to
righteous satisfaction
tingeing
Goswina's thoughts. She just flicked
them out of the way as
we'd
brush sandflies and without any gestalt to help her. Then, cool
as you
please, she ordered a cab and we got back safely to the Tower
complex.
That's when I told her all about you.
Me?
Yes, dearest brother of them all,
you. Because your minds will
match. I just know they will. afra heard her hand slap the wall for
emphasis. And she has promised me that she will see
that you take the
course
at Altair too, when you're old enough.
She will? But I'd have to be away from you afra, dearest, Talents
like us
aren't more than a thought away.
I couldn't think at you when you were on
Altair.
Well, I'm home now. . . and the Southern Station is well within
your
range, brother dear. Now, it's time for
us to be up. And for you
to
study hard so you'll be ready when the Rowan needs you.
As afra grew up, that promise began to
assume more and more
significance
- mainly as the passport off Capella and the strict,
almost
stifling, code of conduct expected of him by his parents. His
interactions
with freighter and passenger crews, with occasional
visitors
whom Hasardar had him conduct from their personal capsules to
the
Tower, had broadened his experience of different cultures and
systems.
He encountered the gallon-sized brown
chief on a regular basis
over
the next nine years. Chief Damitcha
liked the odd dignity of the
`pint-sized
greenie', though that description rarely crossed the chiefs
mind
after he learned afra's name. It was
Damitcha who introduced afra
to the
art of paper-folding, origami, which had been part of his
ancestors'
culture.
afra had been fascinated to see
Damitcha's thick fingers
deliberately
and delicately creasing, folding and producing the most
elegant
creatures, objects and flowers from coloured sheets.
`Old fashioned sea sailors used to carve
things in their off-duty
hours,'
Damitcha explained, deftly making a bird he called a heron,
with
outstretched wings, long legs and neck.
`Scrimshaw, they called
it. Have museums of the stuff on old Earth and I
seen it once on leave
there. But spacemen gotta watch weight and so
paper's perfect. Beats
the
hell outa watching fractiles or such like.
Keeps my fingers supple
for
finicky board repairs, too.' When afra begged to be taught how to
do
origami foldings, Damitcha produced an instruction tape for him and
even
gave him several sheets of his special coloured papers.
afra told Goswina about this hobby but
Goswina was so involved
with
being a new Tower technician and wife that her response was more
automatic
than enthusiastic: all part of her detachment from her
previous
ties. afra did understand that she had
other claims on her
time,
that she still loved him but that working in the Tower was far
more
exciting than listening to her little brother.
Hasardar was
handier
and could be relied on for approval and amazement at what afra
could
create out of a sheet of paper. He
pinned samples of afra's
handiwork
on his bulletin board and took the manipulable ones home to
amuse
his children.
On his next trip into Capell, Damitcha
presented afra with a box
of
origami papers, all sizes and many beautiful shades and patterns.
He brought historical tapes about
Oriental arts and even a small
paper
book on Japanese brush calligraphy.
As afra grew older, and assumed other
duties, Damitcha would join
him in
Hasardar's office for chats, for meal breaks, for long evening
discussions. So afra learned far more details about other
systems than
were
taught in his classroom.
Damitcha retired from active service with
the freighting company
and,
though he frequently sent messages to his `pint-sized greenie' to
which
afra usually responded, the boy did not find another so
congenial. The curiosity that Damitcha had generated in
the young afra
would
never fail and the boy continued to make far more contact with
other
cultures than his parents knew, or would consider advisable for
their
impressionable son.
However, that same curiosity troubled
afra for it made him
uncomfortably
aware that he found great interest in matters his family
considered
quite trivial or useless. afra spent
hours in his early
teen
years examining his inner self, trying to find the flaw in him
that
wanted more than he could have on Capella; that was fascinated by
`other
worldly notions'; that resented the loving supervision of his
parents
and the path they had chosen for him to follow.
The fact that he knew they loved him
burdened him in his striving
to be
different. Their main concern was to
keep the family's honour
unsullied,
which meant adhering to proven ways.
With their love,
wisdom
and (they thought) insight into the characters and abilities of
their
children, Gas Lyon and Cheswina were convinced that they knew
what
was best. Especially for afra.
From Goswina on down, his siblings were
quite willing to have
their
lives ordered by their parents. As
minor Talents, they each
moved
serenely into secure careers in the service of FT&T and that was
as far
as any of them looked. Goswina's happy
marriage and her skills
as a
technician made her conclude that following parental example would
also lead
afra to happiness. So she did not
understand his rebellion,
nor
that he had been exposed to different standards over the years.
Certainly his interest in `other worldly'
things extended to
unusual
species, like the barque cats on the liner Bucephalus.
Damitcha had told him about these strange
space-faring variants of
Terran
felines.
`We don't have one, but next time the old
Buc cradles down here,
ask the
chief - a woman named Marsha Meilo - if you can see theirs.
They gotta new litter but - sorry lad,
they're not planet beasts.
They stay in space.' afra looked up
`barque cat' and the screen
showed
the current prize-winning sire, Garfield Per Astra, a
magnificent
beast of tawny brown with his undercoat a tan, with black
stripes,
and face markings that made him look both benign and
exceedingly
wise. His eyes were yellow, like
afra's, but that wasn't
what
endeared him to the boy as much as his air of arrogant
independence
did.
There were many halos of the unusually
marked felines, long
histories
of their pedigrees, breeding and nurture, their deftness in
finding
tiny holes in hulls and giving warning to the crew, their
almost
incredible talent for survival in space wrecks. FIND THE BC!
was the motto of every space salvage
group. Any vessel harbouring
a
barque cat would have BC ABOARD in huge letters in various positions
on the
hull.
The next time the Bucephalus rocked into
a Capellan cradle, afra
deserted
his immediate task and was in the group hovering by the crew
gangway.
`Whatcha got, kid?' a spaceman asked,
noticing afra, who was
almost
dancing about in his anxiety to get someone's attention.
`Chief Damitcha of the freighter Zanzibar
gave me a message for
your
Chief Marsha Meilo.
The crewman vacillated between annoyance
and curiosity.
`Yeah?
What's the message?' `I'm to give it to her,' he said.
`Oh, he did, huh? Didn't know he knew -- What's the matter,
kid?'
For
afra had just seen the barque cat who strolled indolently to the
gangway
to peer out in as supercilious a manner as the highest Methody
preacher
`Oh, that's Treasure Island Queen,' and the crewman's pride in
the
beast was obvious.
afra extended his hand to the cat, for
they were on a level,
Treasure
on the ship and afra on the ground. The
crewman kicked his
hand
away and afra jumped back in alarm and hurt.
`Sorry, kid, we don't like our barquie
picking up any planetary
germs. No touchee.
Just lookee. She is a beauty,
ain't she?' and the
crewman,
rather ashamed of his defensiveness, hunkered down to pet the
cat.
afra, hands clasped tightly behind his
back, could not tear his
eyes
off the sleek and elegant creature.
Treasure, luxuriating in the
crewman
5 caresses, murmured her appreciation and turned her
aristocratic
face towards the wide-eyed boy.
`Hmmmmrow!' she said, plainly addressing
afra.
`Hey, kid, you rate. She don't usually speak to landlubbers.'
afra
listened with all his heart and heard the satisfaction of
Treasure's
mind for the caresses she was enjoying.
Delicately she sniffed, as much in afra's
direction as in general
at the
atmosphere of Capella, but he took it as a personal accolade and
desperately
wanted to be able to stroke her, to have such a lovely
creature
for his own.
You are the most beautiful creature I
have ever seen, afra dared
to say.
Mmmmmmrow! Mmmmmrrr!
There seemed to be no mental equivalent
for that except pleasure.
Abruptly she leaped away from the door
and out of his sight. Just
then a
group of uniformed men and women emerged and quickly the crewman
gestured
for afra to make himself scarce as he stood to attention,
saluting
those who filed out of the ship.
afra mulled over that incident for
several days before he asked
Hasardar
about barque cats.
`Them?
Well, for one thing, they're not allowed planetside.
Those spacers keep them pretty much to
themselves. Oh, they trade
them
between ships, to avoid inbreeding `Inbreeding?' `Too close a
blood
tie - weakens the strain, they say.' afra didn't have a chance to
ask
more questions. He knew without asking
that his parents would not
permit
him to have any kind of an animal. Not
in the Tower enclosure.
But that didn't keep him from checking
with all the bigger ships
to see
if they had barque cats. Spacemen were
only too happy to brag
about
their beasts and if afra couldn't touch, he could admire, and
`path
them. Mostly they responded, which
tickled him and actually
improved
his relations with all ships' crews.
`That yellow eyed
greenie
that the barquies talk to' became his informal designation in
Capella
Port. His fascination with the animals
helped ease his
loneliness
and he studied pedigrees, and asked questions of any barque
cat
crew, until he probably knew the lineage and distribution of the
animals
as well as any spacefarer. His most
precious treasure was a
packet
of holographs of various dignified barquies given him by their
proud
owners.
But, as afra grew older and his Talent
strengthened, he became
less
tolerant of the parochial attitudes of his parents despite his
love
for them. Reared as he had been to
restrain his emotions, he
mentally
chafed against the loving bonds and the parental assumption
that he
would be delighted to take a place - more exalted than theirs
as a
T-4 which they did not resent - in Capella Tower.
By his fifteenth year, he had begun to
find ways of sliding away
from
his family's supervision - first mentally when he attended the
Capella
training sessions and met Talents from nearby systems. Then,
physically,
when he would clandestinely join his student friends in the
few
innocent and mild diversions available on his Methodistic planet:
diversions
his peers regarded as kid stuff. Then,
psychologically,
when he
had the chance to add more adult tapes and disks to those
Damitcha
had given him. He learned vicariously
what `diversions' could
he had
on other planets. He began to
appreciate just how
unsophisticated
Capella was, how narrow its moral code, how much more
diverse
and rich other lifestyles were.
He knew, as all Talents did, that the
Rowan had left Altair to
become Prime
on the new FT&T installation on Callisto, Jupiter's moon.
He heard, for he made certain that he
did, of all the personnel
shifts
and changes required to suit the Rowan.
Older members of the
Capella
team criticized her for such vacillation.
`Much too young to be made a Prime. That needs a mature, stable,
responsible
personality. What is FT&T coming
to?' was the consensus.
No-one mentioned what was so obvious to
afra: that there were far
too few
Prime Talents to wait until the Rowan was `old' enough whenever
that
would be - to accede to a Prime's duties.
afra was also perversely excited by such
reports of hiring and
firing. That sort of thing never happened on
Capella.
Once drafted to the Tower, that's where a
Talent stayed - until he
or she
retired after a suitable length of service.
Young afra, now an apprentice in
Capella's Tower, was in a
position
to learn that the Rowan had a powerful thrust, never dumped
capsules
into cradles, hadn't damaged cargo or passengers, and
expedited
both in- and out-system traffic, despite the handicap of
great
Jupiter occluding Callisto at irregular intervals.
Of all the Talents surrounding the young
afra, only Hasardar
seemed
to appreciate his restless disquiet.
Yet afra could not bring
himself
to apply even to him for advice on how to break out of the
stultifying
future that had been arranged for him.
When he gained manly status at sixteen,
he felt it was time to
remind
Goswina about the Rowan's promise.
`Oh, afra dear, you are only sixteen,'
and though afra could not
doubt
that she still loved him, he felt that she regarded him as little
more
than a child. Certainly he was no
longer as important a love for
her. But a mother should favour her sons above a
brother. Which,
sadly,
he had to accept, knowing more of human relationships than he
had ten
years before.
`Callisto's one of the most important
stations in the Federation,'
Goswina
went on, her thought backing up a tone that said she didn't
feel he
should complain about his obvious future.
`Besides, now that
the
Rowan has her own Tower, they don't give the courses at Altair any
more.'
`But you've heard how often staff gets changed at Callisto. And
you said
that I'd complement her. You must
remember that, Goswina!
Maybe it's me she's looking for.' Goswina
gently smiled at her
brother's
fervour. `Now, dear, I hear that
Ementish will retire in two
years. You'd do very well in that posting. In the meantime, I'll see
if you
can't work at one of the southern subsidiary links. You'd be
young
to be on your own in some of those isolated waystations, but
you'd
be getting such good practice at catching and sending.
`Sending drones?' afra was
contemptuous. He'd been catching
drones
at Hasardar's bequest for two years.
The novelty had long since
worn
off. For his dear Goswina to recommend
such a posting was a blow
to his
self-esteem.
He was a T-4, `path and `port. He could do better than that for
himself.
`You did rather let the family down, you
know, Affie,' she went
on,
sweetly chiding. `Father expected you
to get highest honours, not
just a
mere First ---` `Mere First?' afra was appalled for he had
worked
very hard to achieve that standard. No
student in his year had
been
given a highest honours degree and he had been one of only three
Firsts. But, once again, he sensed that her deeper
thoughts were
distracted
by what scholastic achievements her young sons were likely
to
make. `Thanks,' afra said, trying not
to sound bitter and, before
she
could ask him to mind his nephews, excused himself from her neatly
kept
house.
So he began to look at the other job
opportunities for T-4s. As
all his
training, all his background had been to prepare him for the
Tower,
he was woefully short of the requirements for other sorts of
assignments
and would have to go through an apprentice year to refocus
his
Talent. Besides which, he wanted to get
off Capella.
He toyed with the idea of asking
Capella's help: she was always
pleasant
to him when he encountered her in the Complex gardens or in
the
leisure facilities. But Capella might
think him ungrateful,
wanting
to leave his native planet, and his request would most
certainly
embarrass his family.
His chance came when he heard that the
Rowan had fired yet another
T-4
from Callisto Station. It took every
bit of credit he had in the
meagre
personal account he had started with Damitcha's coin to courier
his
profile to Callisto in the mailbag. He
had spent almost a full day
to
compose the accompanying note, and several hours before he was
satisfied
with the slanting lines of his calligraphy, much influenced
by
Damitcha's book. The note was brief
enough, mentioning only that
his
sister Goswina remembered the Rowan most fondly from the course at
Altair
and would the Rowan consider his application to Callisto Tower.
He endured suspense greater than when he
had awaited his test
results
and he'd thought that period had been nearly insupportable. He
figured
that he couldn't expect an answer for several days, despite the
speed
with which FT&T mail packets were flipped about the galaxy.
Therefore, he was totally surprised when
Hasardar called him on
the
vid.
`You've lucked out, lad,' Hasardar said,
waving a red transport
chit,
the kind that meant priority handling.
`Soon's you can throw some things
together, you're to find a
capsule
to fit your long bones.' `A capsule?
Where'm I being sent?'
`Callisto,
you lucky dog. The Rowan's looking for
a T-4
and you're to get a trial.' afra stared
at Hasardar, momentarily
paralysed
by news he had candidly never thought to receive.
`You're to go to Callisto, afra?' his
mother demanded in a feeble
tone,
as stunned as he was.
Having had no inkling as to the nature of
the stationmaster's
call,
afra had not activated a privacy setting so his parents had heard
every
word.
`Yes, indeed, Cheswina,' Hasardar
repeated, rather surprised by
the
Lyon family's muted reaction to their son's great good fortune,
`afra's
been ordered to Callisto.' `But how would Callisto have known
of
afra?' Gas asked, staring at his son as if the young man had changed
shape.
afra affected a shrug, keeping a very
tight control on his
thoughts
even though he knew his father couldn't, as well as wouldn't,
stoop
to probing.
`Maybe the Rowan Prime remembered her
promise to Goswina,' afra
said,
delighted that his voice didn't crack with excitement. `Which is
very
good of her, you must admit. A promise
made a decade ago. Who'd
expect
a Prime to remember?' He knew he was babbling as much from
jubilation
as a sudden fright that, in surprise, his parents might deny
him the
right to go.
`A Prime is exactly the person who would
remember,' his father
told
him reproachfully. `Our family is
indeed honoured. But didn't I
hear
that you were to be assigned to a substation?
I know you're being
considered
as a replacement for Ementish in our Tower?' There was a
wistful
emphasis on the possessive pronoun.
`Father, I can hardly refuse to go to
Callisto, can I?' afra said,
pretending
a reluctant obedience to a Prime directive, but he could
scarcely
shout out his inner joy when his parents were so distressed at
his
news. `I must gather travel
necessities.' `Come when you're ready,
afra. You can be despatched any time in the next
hour,' Hasardar said.
`It is only an interview,' he added
tactfully and disconnected.
Cheswina was trying hard to control her
dismay at the prospect of
her
youngest child's abrupt departure. She
did not feel that afra was
ready
to meet the world on his own, though she had started looking for
a
suitable wife for him.
There were plenty of girls who'd look
favourably on her tall thin
son
because he was T-4.
Gas Lyon rose from the breakfast
table. `I am deeply concerned,
afra,
about your being sent to such an unstable Tower situation.' `It
is just
an interview,' afra said, reinforcing his aura of dutiful
compliance.
`I have heard,' Gas Lyon continued, both
expression and mind
radiating
an anxiety that even a T-1O would have sensed,-`that the
Rowan
is a very difficult Prime to work with.
Her station personnel
are
constantly being changed. You would be
foolish to risk
`Humiliation?'
and afra hooked the unspoken word out of Gas Lyon's
mind. `Father, there would be no shame, or blame,
if the Rowan did not
find me
acceptable.' afra felt every fibre of his being denying his
words,
every ounce of his strength shielding his true thoughts from his
distraught
parents. `There would, however, I feel,
be an implied
insult
if I didn't at least appear for this interview. I will pack a
few
things --.` Indeed there was little in his room that he could not
leave
behind - with the exception of his halos of barque cats, his
origami
flock, his supply of paper and Damitcha's book. -- and report
as requested
to the Rowan on Callisto. It is so
generous of her to
remember
her promise to Goswina.' Before his control on his real
feelings
weakened, afra strode from the room. As
he tossed a change of
clothing,
Tower shoes, halos, origamis and the book into a carisak, he
probed
deftly at his parents. His father was
clearly stunned and most
perturbed,
uncomplimentarily concerned that his youngest could handle
the
courtesies involved. His mother's mind
was running about in
circles;
would afra present himself properly, would he be restrained
and
mannerly, would this Rowan person appreciate that he came from a
good
family and had been raised to the high standards demanded of Tower
personnel,
would he afra closed the sack and returned to say farewell
to his
parents. This moment was far harder for
him than he -realized
especially
when he wished so fervently that he would not be back in the
few
days his parents felt he'd be gone.
-`I shall bring honour on the family
name,' he said to his father,
lightly
touching Gas Lyon's chest over his heart.
`Mother, I shall be
extremely
well-behaved,' and he caressed her cheek softly.
His throat suddenly closed and he felt an
unexpected burning
behind
his eyes. He hadn't anticipated such a
reaction when he had
wanted
so desperately for so long to leave home.
Much too abruptly for
courtesy,
he flung himself out of the house and strode as fast as his
long
legs would take him to the personnel launch cradles of the
station.
He'd seen the procedure often enough to know exactly what to do.
The personnel carrier was comfortable
enough; certainly, no
different
from any of the drills or the few short distances he'd been
teleported.
A T- 10 he knew checked him, grinned as
he closed and locked the
cover,
slapped it in casual farewell and only then did afra remember
that he
hadn't contacted Goswina.
Gossie afra! You have a genius for picking the most awkward
moments
- Gossie, I'm going to Callist afra, Capella's firm mental
voice
interrupted him then, on the count of three .
. . I wish you
good
luck, afra.
The next moment he knew he was being
`ported across the incredible
spatial
distance to Callisto. That didn't take
as long as he had
somehow
assumed it would. He was aware of the
`portation, the
sensation
of disorientation that he knew he was expected to feel.
Small wonder Primes, being so sensitive,
had problems even on
passenger
liners. He was certainly aware when the
changeover was made,
when
Capella released his capsule into the Rowan's control.
afra?
Did you tell your sister that the Rowan kept her promise?
The Rowan's mental tone, so different to
Capella's, to anyone
else's
he had ever encountered in his lifetime, chimed silverly in his
mind. The contact had a brilliance, a vivacity,
and a resonance which
immediately
enthralled him.
I told her I was coming to Callisto.
Well, you're here. Come to the Tower. You are welcome, afra. A
silvery
laugh shivered in his mind. You know, I
think Goswina was
right. We'll see.
The cover was unlocked and a rather
anxious looking man, wearing
stationmaster's
tabs on his collar, extended a hand.
`afra?
Brian Ackerman.' The man's anxiety began to fade as they
clasped
hands. `Capella grows `em long, doesn't
it?' he said, grinning
as afra
got to his feet, standing centimetres taller than the stockier
stationmaster.
`The Rowan can play games but don't let
`em get to you, huh?' he
added
in the tight low tones that suggested to afra that Brian had his
mental
shields in place to deliver that brief advice.
afra nodded soberly and followed the
stationmaster to the Tower.
It was only then that he noticed, and
swallowed against his
surprise,
that Callisto Tower was a domed facility.
In fact, a
combination
of domes plus the big ship launch area with cradles that
ranged
from the single he'd been landed in to the immense complex metal
affairs
that accommodated large passenger liners or naval vessels.
Above them loomed Jupiter. afra controlled the instinct to hunch
away
from the giant planet. No doubt he
would get accustomed to its
dominating
presence.
He also found himself breathing
shallowly, and controlled that
reaction
as well: there was plenty of air on this moon.
`You get used to it,' Brian Ackerman said
with a grin.
`Is it that obvious?' afra asked.
Brian grinned. `Everyone feels the old man and, sometimes, the
whole
alien feel' - he made a sweep of his arm to include the domes
`can
really get to the planet bred.' They had reached the facility by
then, a
Tower more by grace than fact for there was only the one raised
section
that could be termed a tower. The
administrative building was
compact,
three storeyed, the only windows the clear plexiglas that
wrapped
around the tower portion, giving the Prime three hundred and
sixty
degrees of visibility.
Lights under the fascia boards of the
roof beamed down on the
plantings,
counterfeiting sunlight enough to encourage growth.
Luminous Jupiter's light did not support
earth vegetation. To
afra's
surprise, he saw a small copse of trees at the back of the
terrain-hugging
residence off to the right of the Tower complex.
`The Rowan's,' Brian said, noticing his
glance, and then palmed
the
door open. `She lives here. Primes don't travel much, you know,
but
she's good about sending us downside on leave Inside the main room,
consoles
and work tables were placed along the walls, neat enough now
as
personnel were apparently closing down operations. There was a buzz
of
friendly chat and considerable interest in Ackerman's companion.
afra caught mental buzz that identified
him as the Capellan T-4.
No longer a pint-sized greenie, afra
thought very quietly and
grinned.
If he suited the Rowan, he might even be
able to see old Damitcha
who had
retired downside to Kyoto.
Vague reassurances were aimed in his
direction, some of them
wistful,
some of them pessimistic about his chances but there were
smiles
enough to make him feel welcome.
`You were the last shipment in today,'
Brian said.
`Coffee?' `Coffee?' afra was
surprised. That was a caffeinated
substance
which was, of course, unavailable on Capella.
Something to do with the expense of
it. `I wouldn't mind a cup.'
He
fished that phrase out of Brian's mind `D'you like it black, white,
sweetened?'
`How do you like it?' `Never had any?' `No,' and afra
smiled
ruefully `Well, try it black and see if you like it. Then we
can add
milk and sweetener to your taste.
afra was trying not to probe around for
the Prime. There were so
many
people milling about, some of them flustered with the day's tasks,
some
hoping to leave for home pretty soon, that he wondered if she were
down
here. No-one matched the vivid mental
picture Goswina had given
him so
long ago. Then he realized that the
Rowan would be ten years
older
and more mature than that mischievous girl.
Just as Brian handed him a mug with an
opaque black liquid, he
knew
the Rowan was in the room. He turned
slightly to his left,
towards
the beverage dispenser which Brian had just left. Three
people,
a man and two women, were serving themselves.
afra's attention
fell on
the slenderer female figure, a mane of unexpectedly silver hair
falling
to her shoulders although her face was young, and oddly
attractive
though not in a classic style of beauty.
He felt the first spurt - and ruthlessly
suppressed that sense of
strong
affinity.
Although the girl wasn't very tall and
had a pale, rather than
slightly
greenish skin tone, she had the lean look of a Capellan. But
there
was no doubt in his mind that she was the Rowan.
Full marks to you, Goswina's brother
afra, she said and, audibly
excusing
herself from her companions, she jerked her head towards the
steps
to the Tower level. If you'll join me?
Her very casual manner was quite a change
from Capella's
formality.
I had my craw full of protocol and
elaborate convention on Altair,
afra. I run a Tower, not a tea party. I also don't usually `path
conversations. For Goswina's brother I'll make an exception
today.
He followed her up the winding metal
steps, a bit surprised that
she
didn't have a ramp as Capella did.
`You'll find I'm not at all like Capella,
or Siglen, or any of the
other
Primes you might have met.
`Capella's the only one I've ever met.
They were in the Tower room now, with her
conformable couch, the
various
monitors and consoles that were standard furniture for a
Prime's
domain. Great Jupiter was visible, and
the stark moonscape
beyond
theFT&T domes. The Rowan gestured
for him to take the seat by
the
auxiliary console. Then she leaned back
against the outer wall and
cocked
her head. He felt no contact from her
mind but, unless he was
completely
mistaken, there was a bond growing between them. He hoped
so for
he had never met anyone like her before - so radiant, so vital,
so
vivid. Strength was an almost visible
aura about her. And his
father
had always maintained that Primes contained themselves?
`I'd take you for Goswina's brother. You've the look of her.
Sort of.' She smiled, an expression that only increased his
attraction
for her. `What did they say when you
got my message?' `They
were
surprised. Then my father said that a
Prime would remember a
promise.
`Ah!' Her grin was mischievous. `So your family didn't know you
had
applied to me directly?' afra shook his head, unable, however, to
break
eye contact. So he gave a rueful shrug
and attempted a
self-deprecating
smile.
`Aren't you supposed to take up a
position at Capella Tower?'
`When
Ementish retires.' Her grey eyes danced.
`And that fills you
with so
much elation that you had to give me first refusal?' `Capella
is a
good planet ---` `Goody good, I'd've said .
afra cocked an eyebrow at her
qualification. `When we took the
Tower
course, I met Talents from other systems.
He shrugged again, not
willing
to belittle his home world.
`And you wanted to see more of the
galaxy?' `One doesn't see much
of the
galaxy as a T-4 in a Tower but I thought that it might be . . .
challenging to spend some time
elsewhere.' She gave him a curious
look.
`What are those odd shapes in your
carisak?' It was the last
question
he expected of her but he also realized that the Rowan would
be
unpredictable.
`Origami. The ancient art of
paper folding.' Not at all certain
he
should act brashly, he `ported his favorite swan - in a silvery
white
paper - into his hand and offered it to her.
With a wondering smile on her face, she
took it from him, turning
the
bird this way and that, delicately opening its wings.
`How charming! And you just fold paper into that shape.' `What's
your
favorite colour?' he asked.
`Red.
Crimson red!' He extracted a red sheet from his supply and,
when he
had it in his hands, he rapidly folded a flower which he
offered
her with a little bow.
`Well, that's not a mental exercise at
all, is it?' she said,
examining
the flower. `Flip, flop and you've got
a small masterpiece.
Is that what people do on Capella for
entertainment?' -afra shook
his
head. `A freighter chief named Damitcha
taught me - while Goswina
was on
Altair. I missed her, you see. Origami helped.' The Rowan's
expression
altered to one of compassionate apology - and he felt the
lightest
mental touch, reinforcing It.
`She missed you, too, afra. I heard all about you.' `And you
remembered
your promise.' `Not quite, afra,' she said, propelling
herself
towards her chair and whirling around to seat herself.
`Because there's no course on Altair any
more and you're already
trained. So let's see if Goswina was right, that our
minds will
complement
each other in the running of this Tower!' She let him hear
what
she then said. Reidinger, I've found me
another T4. afra of
Capella. He folds paper!
Which is at least original. And he keeps halos of barque cats.
So she'd seen those, too, in her mental
sorting of his belongings.
ROWAN!
afra winced as the bellow singed his mind
edges. The Rowan
grinned
mischievously at him and signalled that he wasn't to mind the
noisiness.
Well, he can't be any worse than the one
who was certain that
Jupiter
would fall on her. Or that absolute
dark from Betelgeuse who
couldn't
take the least bit of teasing. Much
less that martinet you
thought
was just the sort to steady me while I was learning my job!
No, this time, Reidinger, I get to pick
one. And that's that!
Then she winked at afra. `I had an illegal barque cat once. I
named
him Rascal and he was but the ungrateful feline deserted me on
the
liner that brought me here.' She gave a little shrug and a wry
grin. `Not that I blamed him the way I carried
on.' `They hear us, you
know,'
afra said, thinking that a safe enough remark.
She looked surprised. `I suspected Rascal did. We enjoyed a
friendly
empathy but has one spoken to you?' `Hmmmmm-rowwww!' The Rowan
threw
back her head and laughed with delight.
`You're one up on me then, afra.' `Not
for long, I think,' he
replied,
pure relief at surviving these initial moments, jolting the
uncharacteristic
retort from mind to mouth.
She laughed again, idly swinging the
chair from side to side.
`Shall we keep score?' `How much can I
lose before you fire me out
of
here?' He didn't believe it was himself answering a Prime like this.
`Well, I just don't know, afra. The problem hasn't come up
before,
she said, winking. `The others have
been such blockheads, they
couldn't
have capped a phrase if I'd handed them the hat! And,' she
waggled
a finger at him, `if you hold your own against Reidinger when
he vets
you, you'll do yourself a favour there, too.
Enough of this!
I'll show you your quarters.' She slid
gracefully to her feet and
beckoned
him to follow. `We're off for the next
six hours, you know,
so
there's time for you to settle in before the station's operational
again. Then we'll just see how good Goswina's
little brother afra is!'
by two
conformable chairs and a rather battered low table.
Callisto personnel had better quarters
than afra expected for a
moon
installation. He was frequently told
that Callisto had been
state-of-the-art
when it was constructed eight years ago.
Every new
safeguard
device since then was immediately incorporated into
Callisto's
dome. FT&T was not risking its
Callisto Prime, and her
station
crew benefited.
Married personnel had quarters with their
own garden and
recreational
area under their secondary dome. Single
staff had two
room
apartments plus a large dining and recreational lounge. A
well-fitted
gymnasium centre used by everyone occupied another
secondary
dome, reached by a short tunnel, though the locks on both
ends
were standing open. The Tower facility,
small capsule cradles
plus
the generators, underground fuel tanks, main water storage was
mainly
underground with access in a third small dome: the passenger and
naval
vessel size cradles under a fourth with airlocks and auxiliary
tunnels
to the main facilities.
The Rowan's private residence with its
small copse and garden, off
to one
side of the main complex, was under a fifth while the main dome
offered
primary shielding to all. Emergency
upright shelters were
strategically
situated in case of a major strike penetrating the first
and
second domes and each living unit automatically sealed and had
emergency
oxygen supplies for twenty-four hours - the maximum time
estimated
for help to arrive from other stations in the system.
afra found his apartment more than
adequate, even to an imitation
fire on
a hearth in the lounge room, flanked To one side of the mantel
was a
complicated orological device that displayed Earth time and
Callisto's
time in terms of revolutions about its primary, and a second
orrery
depicting Callisto's orbit around immense Jupiter as well as the
erratic
orbits of the other moons. If he read
it correctly, he had
another
five hours and fifteen minutes before he should report back to
the
Tower.
Although there were cupboards, shelving
for tape, vids,
gamescreens,
and far more closets than he needed for his one pitiful
carisak,
there was plenty of space for other furniture, suggesting he
could
make his own choices of additional pieces.
The ubiquitous communications desk was
exceedingly well appointed
with a
patently brand new console and auxiliaries.
When he turned it
on, an
introductory message filled the screen, inviting him to initiate
personal
codes and install any programs. He was
informed that he had a
monthly
limit of free calls to his home system, that he could order
necessities
from Earth on the weekly supply drones at no cost or
immediately
at a special rate for FT&T employees.
Facetiously keying a
query
on his credit balance, he gasped in surprise at the amount of
draw he
was permitted for an out-of-system transfer, the allowance
provided
for redecorating and furnishing his quarters, and how to
obtain
downside authorization and credit facilities for FT&T personnel.
`Another matter no-one ever explained to
me,' he murmured. `Or
maybe
the parents expected to manage my credit for me, too.
He placed the barque cat halos on one
shelf above the console and
his
flock of origamis on the next, fussing over their placement. He
leaned
the calligraphy book against the side of the third shelf and
snorted. Well, he suspected that he'd find plenty to
fill out those
shelves.
He investigated the bathroom, noticing
the warning of daily
personal
water allotment, peeked into the tiny refreshment cabinet
which
included many exotic choices for a Capellan Methody lad, and went
on into
the sleeping room. The bed was as firm
as he liked it and big
enough
for several bodies the size of his.
That opened up another
vista
for him, heretofore scrupulously unmentioned, even if his parents
had
been considering the stabilizing influence of a nice girl for him.
He grinned. Earth was not that far away and Brian Ackerman had
mentioned
that downside trips were possible.
Tempting!
Then he noticed the second orological
display.
`They don't risk your forgetting the time
around here, do they?'
Even in
this privacy, he felt a trifle silly talking to himself. `I
need
some music.' `If you will name your preferences, these can be
supplied
on a select or random basis,' said a velvet alto which could
be
either male or female.
Delighted to have a voice address in-room
system, afra rattled off
a list
of his favorites and the soft string instrumental opus began the
moment
he paused to decide what else he'd like to have on tap.
`Thank you.' `Courtesy is not required.'
`It was where I was
reared,'
afra replied bluntly.
`Is a response required?' `It would be
appreciated. I promised my
parents
to remember my manners.' Then he covered his mouth against a
laugh. All those drills on courtesy and he had a
v.a. system to use
them
on? Even Goswina wouldn't be amused by
the irony.
`Thank you,' the alto voice responded.
`You're welcome,' afra said.
Then he noticed the time he'd been
wasting. He dumped the
remainder
of the carisak's contents on the bed and, taking his kit,
clean
clothes and station shoes, went to the bathroom for a quick
shower
before his first experience of duty on Callisto.
Fortunately for his performance that day,
afra could handle all
Tower
procedures with routine efficiency, almost without thinking about
the
intricacies required, but he had never worked at even half the pace
required
of Callisto personnel.
We are the main forwarding facility, the
Rowan sent him -halfway
through
the hectic period. We handle more
traffic -than any other
Tower. You're doing fine. Don't fret. I don't think
we'll wear you
down
today.
Huh!
afra restricted comment to that one challenging monosyllable
and
kept right on working. It was
exhilarating, to say the least, for
his
duties as the Rowan's second were to be sure of the orderly flow of
destination
placements, weights of cargo whether animate or inanimate,
and
special instructions from the tertiary rank.
Cargo-handlers (7s and 8s of kinetic
Talent) who took travel
documents
from cargo pods of all sizes, single and double personnel
capsules,
and the various larger transit vessels, `lifted' them into
the
Tower for sorting according to priority.
lOs scurried about the
landing
field making certain all relays arrived in good condition, and
always
checking animate cargos. Inside the
Tower, 6s and 5s assigned
priorities
and found destination coordinates.
Brian Ackerman made sure there were no
delays in those duties and
established
that everything afra, in turn, passed up to the Rowan was
in
order, and kept the flow smooth -to the Prime.
On a busy day, and Callisto was always
busy, afra, as the T-4, was
also
required to reduce the burden on the Prime by expediting any
inanimate
cargo to reserve her capability for heavier, delicate and
animate
transfers.
afra could gestalt with the generations,
albeit without the same
range
and strength as the Rowan. He had
always secretly felt that he
had
more range than he'd ever been permitted to use on Capella - if
only
because he felt he could. afra was also
too well disciplined a
Talent
to be foolishly overconfident. But,
working with the Rowan, he
became
aware of a sense of extended resources and deeper strengths
which
he had never experienced working with any other Talent. It was
as if
the Rowan added a new dimension to his Talent.
And that, my dear Afra, is exactly how it
should feel between
Prime
and her backup, the Rowan said in between shifting two heavy
freighters. If it isn't there to begin with, it won't
come, not for
all the
wishing in the world.
That was enough to give afra a second
wind for - the pace was
beginning
to get to him. Inhaling deeply, he
carried on.
When the last drone had been spun out to
its destination and the
generator
gauges on his board dropped down to zero, afra was too
expended
momentarily to move. The muscles along
his back ached and he
had a
mild throbbing at his temples. Then he
grinned to himself. He'd
survived.
He hadn't made a single error - that he
could think of. He felt
someone
standing beside him and craning his head to the right, saw the
Rowan
grinning at him. Lightly she touched
his shoulder, just enough
for him
to sense a mental flavour of deep green and mintiness from her.
`We did good work today.' Then one of her
arched black eyebrows
lifted
sardonically, `That is, if you can keep up this sort of pace.
`Try me,' afra said, taking up the
challenge. `Just try me.
`You just bet I will,' but her grin got
broader and her eyes
twinkled. `C'mon, I owe you a cup of coffee. Anyone want to go
downside? We're in occlusion.' chorus of `I do' and
waving hands
answered
that A offer.
`Grab what you need and find a capsule,'
the Rowan said. `I won't
send
you down yet, afra. But plan on next
full occlusion. Reidinger
wants
to interview you.
Oh,' when she felt him tense, `don't
worry about him.
I,' and she jerked her thumb at her
chest, `say who works in my
Tower.'
Lightly she climbed back up into the Tower and, although the
generator
gauges did not so much as flicker, afra could see the
capsules
arrowing away from Callisto in Earth's direction.
You've seven to catch down there,
Reidinger, she said.
THEY'RE NOT SCHEDULED, was the roar from
the Earth Prime.
Let your apprentices catch. My crew need the downside time.
So, how did that Capellan manage? Reidinger added and his words
echoed
in afra's mind, confusing the Capellan until he realized that
the
Rowan was backfiring the conversation.
Capella would never have
done
that, afra thought, astonished, and held his breath for her reply.
He held up well today. I'll give him a three-month trial.
Not before I've seen him, you won't!
Sure thing, and the Rowan's tone was not
only saucy but very
confident.
Most of the Tower personnel disappeared
when the Rowan made her
transportation
offer. Only Brian Ackerman remained,
discussing a few
matters
quietly with Joe Toglia. afra continued
to sit where he was.
He
felt drained and even the few steps to the beverage dispenser
seemed
too far but he could certainly use a caffeine boost.
Then he saw one cup move under the spout,
the dark liquid splash
in and
move aside for a second cup to be filled with sugar and milk
added. As the cups made their way to his station,
the Rowan came down
the
stairs again.
`Thanks,' he said with a wry grin of
appreciation as she
approached. She caught the back of a chair and, hauling
it behind her,
sat
down beside him. He lifted his cup and
she touched hers to it in
the
traditional fashion. `Thanks a lot,
Rowan She gave him a sideways
glance. `Couple of things we got to straighten
between us right away,
afra. Just let me know when you need a boost and
tell me when you've
foozied. I prefer to correct as soon as
possible. Understand that and
-we
could make a good team.
afra nodded his agreement, mentally too
tired to project -after
all the
exercise he'd had the past six hours.
She continued to sit and
sip at
her coffee, the silence between -them comfortable. In fact,
afra
did not remember being so comfortable with anyone else before
except
with Goswina when he was a boy. And
before, he added deep in
his
mind, Goswina went to Aitair. By the
time they had finished their
drinks,
he felt somewhat restored. The Rowan
recognized it, too, her
grey
eyes sympathetic.
`Take a long nap, now, afra. Let your brain idle,' she said,
rising
and replacing the chair. Then she left
the Tower.
afra took her advice. Nor was that the only time he did so.
He was in the Tower for five weeks before
Reidinger contacted him
directly,
though not in the bull roar he invariably used in his
exchanges
with the Rowan. At that, the strength
of Reidinger's
powerful
touch direct to his mind was sufficient to dismay afra. He
had
never encountered such a dense mind before.
Capella had been firm
and
strong but nothing compared to Peter Reidinger, the third of that
name to
be Earth Prime. The Rowan was very
strong, with hints of a
substance
equal to Reidinger's but never displayed.
But afra was now
familiar
enough with the Rowan to be comfortable, if still in awe.
Reidinger was different. He was the most powerful man in Federal
Teleportation
and Telepathic. And on his approval, no
matter what the
Rowan
had said, depended afra's continued appointment to Callisto
Tower. However, afra managed a creditable, he
thought, response, calm,
unflustered,
and above all, mannerly. His parents
would have been
proud
of him.
Atta boy, afra, the Rowan said when
Reidinger's presence had
withdrawn. He loves to dominate. Has most of FT&T scared witless
saves
him a lot of trouble to have instantaneous obedience but it can
be
inhibiting. You just carry on as you
did and don't let him fluster
you. Remember, and here the Rowan allowed a
wicked chuckle to weave
into
her tone, he doesn't scare me and if I want you, I'll have you.
Tell you what, afra. Before he can bellow at you - and he will
present
him with one of your origamis. . . say
a bull in full bellow!
A scarlet bull. Take the wind out of his sails.
Distract him and you'll have the upper
hand.
Are you sure the upper hand is good for a
lowly T4
from Capella?
The Rowan projected an even more
malicious grin.
Sweet-talking words is for a woman:
standing your ground is a male
prerogative.
In retrospect, it was not Reidinger who
awed afra in point of
fact, but
the sheer size of the Blundell building, surrounded by the
immense
cargo and passenger terminals, cradles and auxiliary
structures. afra stood by the personnel capsule in which
the Rowan had
sent
him from Callisto and gawked.
TheFT&T complex was larger than the
capital
of Capella. Beyond it stretched the
commercial and residential
towers
of the largest single metropolis of the Central Worlds, receding
into a
distance his eyes could not adequately measure.
He was, however, aware of air tinged with
an unknown odour which
his
mind told him must be `brine' since theFT&T complex bordered an
ocean.
`afra of Callisto Station?' He whirled
and saw a youth in the
uniform
of an FT&T apprentice, a stocky lad with oddly flecked green
eyes,
dark hair and a fresh complexion.
`Yes,' and he echoed the acknowledgement
telepathically, testing
the
messenger.
The boy grinned and held up his hand in
the formal greeting
between
Talents. `Gollee Gren. I'm supposed to be a T-4.
`On escort duty?' afra smiled back,
remembering his service in the
same
capacity on Capella.
`When no-one else is available,' Gollee
said, not the least bit
disconcerted
by such duties. `This way. You've got to clear security
and
that takes time.
Even when it's obvious who I am?
Gollee shrugged, his grin droll. `Don't be offended.
They even go through the rigmarole for
visiting Primes.' `Don't
lay it
on too thick, Gollee. Primes don't
visit.' `Well, you know what
I
mean. Even T-2s get the treatment. No-one gets into the Great God
Reidinger
without clearance.' Gollee had gestured towards the airy
shell
of concrete and plasglas that formed the entrance to the huge
Blundell
FT&T Agency Headquarters.
It did take time to clear security,
scanners, retina search,
personal
interviews - though it was clear they had afra's dossier on
screen
as he was interviewed. afra was tempted
to remark that a
telepathic
check from any T-3 or 2
would allay any suspicions, but the
attitudes of the T-8s
processing
him suggested he'd better not interrupt the process with an
impertinence. The security guards did not have his height
but
outweighed
him by many kilos. They were especially
concerned about his
origami
and subjected it to so many tests that afra was alarmed that
they'd
ruin the little gift.
`Surely you realize that it's only folded
paper? Here!' He tore a
sheet
from the pad on the desk and with practised skill, folded a
replica. `See?' The guards `saw' but were palpably
unimpressed with
his
dexterity, though Gollee was.
Eventually they had to concede that
it
posed no threat.
Finally the security badge was grudgingly
handed over.
With a mental sigh of relief, Gollee led
him towards the bank of
grav
lifts.
Gollee punched an intricate code, his
fingers flashing so fast
afra's
eyes could not follow nor was he able, in that instant, to read
Gollee's
suddenly shielded mind.
They're even stricter about that, Gollee
said in an apologetic
tone. I've only just been assigned to guide duty
and they really do
mind-burn
anyone who disobeys or bends the drill.
`They would have to, of course, Prime
Reidinger being so important
to
Central Worlds,' he added aloud and motioned for afra to step with
him
into the programmed shaft. `How long
have you been doing that
paper-folding?
You made it look so easy.
The upward motion was unusually rapid for
a grav shaft.
`Basically origami is easy. Once you get the hang of it.
`Where'd you learn? Is it a Capellan thing?' `No, it originates
from a
place called Japan.
`Oh, in the Pacific Ocean somewhere.' `So
I understand.' Then,
suddenly,
a narrow aperture opened into which the current pulled them.
The access snapped shut behind them. Gollee grinned at afra's
reaction.
`No way you can get into the Prime's
quarters without the right
clearance. The entire building is shielded and sealed
especially this
part.'
`I don't think I'd like to live like that.' `We never will.
We're not Primes.' A second, more
generous opening appeared and
remained
long enough for afra and Gollee to step out into the lobby
which
was elegantly decorated in soft greens and comfortable seating.
Fractiles were displayed on a corner
screen and soft music fell
pleasantly
on the ear. Gollee made for the door -
the least ornate of
several
opening on to the lobby - to his left.
`Stand square,' Gollee murmured as they
reached the door which
then
slid into the wall. They walked across
a second lobby and to the
centre
door in its wall. `You're on your own
from here but I'll be
waiting
to guide you back.
Good luck.' His expression suggested that
afra needed all he could
command.
afra squared his shoulders and eyed the
solid wood panels and
remembered
the Rowan's advice. Would security have
informed Prime
Reidinger
about a red paper bull and spoiled his gambit?
The door slid
open to
admit him into the spacious suite occupied by Peter Reidinger.
`Come in, come in,' and the powerful
mental voice was just as
powerful
and intimidating in its audible mode as its owner was
physically
impressive.
`Thought you might like this, sir,' afra
said, advancing quickly
toward
the semi-circular desk behind which Reidinger sat. It was a
case of
moving swiftly or having his knees knock treacherously. He was
glad
that his hand didn't shake as he leaned across the wide desk and
placed
the delicate red bull in front of Earth Prime.
Surprised by both approach and gift,
Reidinger regarded the little
figure. Then he threw his head back and roared with
laughter.
`A bull by all that's holy! A bull!
Horns, snout and . ` With
one
long and surprisingly well-shaped finger, Reidinger prodded the
bull to
a side view, `and balls!' He guffawed again.
`That
white-haired
bug-eyed Altairian loon suggest it?' `She's not bug-eyed,'
afra
replied, indignant at such a description of the Rowan whom he
considered
rather beautiful in an unusual way. And
when Reidinger
regarded
him in amused surprise, `And no loon either.' The Rowan had
said he
must stand up to Reidinger. He wouldn't
have done so for his
own
sake but he certainly would for hers.
Reidinger smiled enigmatically, leaned
back in his conformable
chair,
and steepled his fingers. afra did not
like the knowing way
Reidinger
eyed him and stiffened, tightening his shields - in case it
would
do him any good in the presence of this man.
`You were raised on Capella, afra Lyon,'
Reidinger said, his face
suddenly
expressionless, his hooded eyes inscrutable.
`Which is noted
for its
adherence to the manners other worlds ignore.
Manners which
are not
ignored in my Tower, I might add.' afra inclined his head at
this
tacit reassurance of his mental privacy.
`The Rowan did suggest a red bull,' he
said then, with a slight
smile,
aware now that Reidinger certainly displayed bullish
characteristics.
With index finger and thumb, Reidinger
picked the bull up by one
horn
and examined it closely. `Origami!' he
said suddenly. `I've
heard
of it but not actually seen examples.
Show me how you did this!' `Paper?'
Reidinger opened drawers,
frowning
more deeply as he discovered nothing but paper's technological
replacements.
`Paper!' Suddenly pads, flowered and
pastel stationery, and large
sheets
of transparent plastic, littered the pristine surface of
Reidinger's
desk. `Pick.' Testing the various
weights, afra found one
that
would crease well, thin enough to fold easily but not tear. He
squared
it off and folded one corner away from him to the top, running
a
finger to form the first crease.
Reidinger's eyes never left his
hands
until he deposited a small pale blue cow beside the horned bull.
`And an udder, by all that's holy!'
Reidinger slapped both hands
down
flat on his desk, the breeze blowing the little cow over and
sending
the bull backwards. Tenderly, Reidinger
righted the blue cow
and
drew the bull back to its original position.
`Where'd you learn
how?'
`The chief on a freighter that regularly cradled at Capella.
He's retired now and lives in Kyoto,
Japan, in the PacI know where
it
is. Been there yet?' Reidinger cocked
his head at afra.
`No, sir.
Reidinger widened his eyes. `Don't you want to?' `Yes, sir, when
I I Now
afra faltered. Not quite brash enough
despite the apparent
success
of this interview to commit himself to future plans.
Reidinger leaned back again, eyeing him speculatively.
Then he gave a bark of laughter, shifting
his weight so that the
chair
assumed an upright position.
`If you've managed to endure five weeks
with that white haired,'
and
Reidinger grinned unrepentantly, `grey eyed --- bird-like
Altairian,
I suspect you'll stay the distance.
In fact . . .` Then Reidinger caught himself up, cancelling that
start
with a flick of his fingers. He stood,
a massive figure,
big-boned
and muscular, his eyes on a level with afra's despite the
Capellan's
unusual height. He extended his hand,
palm upwards, across
the
desk to afra in a clear command for tactile contact.
It was most unusual but afra responded
without hesitation though
he could
not stifle his gasp at the shock of rippling power and how
much
Reidinger learned of him in that split second's contact.
My little loon's lonely in her Tower,
afra Lyon of Capella And
Reidinger's
tone was as gentle as the hint in the words.
afra was overcome with confusion. None of the exhaustive homilies
on
etiquette from his family covered this contingency.
`Be her friend, too, afra,' Reidinger
added in a brisk,
business-like
tone as if he were recommending a particular brand of
technology
so that afra almost wondered if he'd mistaken that quick
mental
message. `Now, get out of here and let
me get back to work.' He
settled
back into his chair and swung it to the consoles that were
ranked
behind his desk. `Gren's to take you
into the city,' he added
without
looking around. `You won't survive
comfortably on Callisto
with a
bed, two sagging chairs and a battered table.
Spend some of the
money
FT&T's paying you on yourself for a change.' Respectfully, afra
bowed
and, turning around, left the room. In
the lobby, Gren sprang to
his
feet, his whole body expressing concern and interest. His face
broke
into a smile.
`You survived?' `The bull did it!' Gren's
smile broadened.
`Clever that. Ooops.
In
alarm, afra watched as Gren's eyes suddenly crossed and, as
suddenly,
refocused. Gren shook his head and
swallowed. `I wish he
wouldn't
do that to me,' but then he looked at afra and his grin
returned. `I'm under orders, no less, to take you
anywhere in the city
you
want to go.' He winked and afra caught a tinge of sheer sensuality
from
Gren which made him blink. Gren was his
age but had obviously not
had the
strictures of Method to inhibit physical experiences. `You've
got a
two-day leave of absence. So,' and he
gave an impudent bow,
`what's
your pleasure, T-4 afra?' `Mercantile, I think,' afra said,
gratefully
seizing that opportunity. `And
something to eat.'
`Stomach's
settled, huh?' Gollee's knowing look was sympathetic.
They retraced their way, Gollee informing
afra that his security
clearance
was valid for his lifetime. Gollee took
him to the T- 10
clerk
who stored such badges and then down to the ground floor where he
ordered
transport for them.
afra's first contact with the metropolis
remained a series of
brilliant
impressions: the staggering choice available in the furniture
showrooms
(he surprised himself by choosing simple things, reminiscent
of
homely Capellan counterparts), linens in plain shades, rugs in
geometric
designs, rather plebeian lamps (from the look on Gollee's
face)
and two lovely Asian vases filled with flowers held in stasis
forever
at their peak, book tapes by the gross (titles he'd only heard
of) and
two paintings, both antique but pleasing to him. (Gollee tried
to
steer him towards modern artists but afra found them too frantic in
design,
material and colour.) In clothing, he allowed Gollee to guide
him,
for the youth's own dress was quietly elegant and well made.
For someone who had never had more than
three tower jump suits and
one
good outfit, afra enjoyed buying apparel that subtly diminished his
alien
complexion and accentuated his broad shoulders and erect carriage
while
imparting a stylish bulk to his lean frame.
He liked the look of
some of
the trendy boots and had a pair fashioned, while he and Gollee
watched,
in the size, colour and style of his choice.
When Gollee realized that this was a
major shopping effort, he
called
theFT&T cargomaster and arranged for a pod and cradle number to
which
all afra's purchases could be sent, and transported back to
Callisto
on the next shipment, or whenever afra came to the end of his
credit.
Then, clad in a new outfit of dark green,
soft leatherene boots
and a
fashionable tunic and trouser combination, afra invited Gollee to
take
him to a mid-range eating place where they would replenish lost
energy.
`I know just the place,' Gollee
announced, with another of his
reckless
winks. Shortly they were seated at a
table in an eating house
with a
pleasant ambience. There was soft
music, subdued lighting,
excellent
appointments and a discreet menu which appeared in the top of
their
table as soon as they were seated.
The selection was literally other-worldly
for it listed dishes
from
every one of the Central Worlds. Gollee
appeared to be far more
sophisticated
than his years for he rattled off a description of items
which
afra had never heard of. afra tried not
to let his ignorance or
confusion
show. Then Gren held up a hand to
beckon an attendant.
As the man came in answer to the summons,
Gren looked earnestly at
afra.
`I know some of the specialties of this
restaurant that I think
you
might like.' `We-ell.' Gren's self-assurance and the good natured
way in
which he had steered afra throughout the day easily convinced
afra to
accede. He gave a rueful smile.
`I haven't had much experience with
off-world dining.
The waiter regarded afra in surprise
while Gollee's encouraging
smile
became very worldly indeed.
`One man's homeworld is another's tourist
spot. My friend is in
from
Capella. How about serving us a platter
of dainties that'd tempt
him to
appreciate Terran cuisine?' The attendant seemed reluctant. `Is
Luciano
on today?' `Luciano?' That did impress the man.
`The very same.' Gollee nodded
pleasantly, as if discussing menus
with
Luciano was a habit. `Would you tell
him that the G-man is
showing
a friend of his boss about this also and we need to consult.'
The
waiter raised his eyebrows.
`G-man? I've heard about you.'
He
gave a
hitch to the white apron tied about his loins.
`I'll tell him
you're
in again.' Luciano himself appeared between the platter of
dainties
and the soup. He gave afra a friendly
nod as Gollee
introduced
him.
At that moment, afra had a mouthful of an
unexpectedly peppery
savoury
and just caught himself resorting to telepathy to answer. He
flapped
his hands, first indicating his busy mouth and then giving the
concerned
chef the `OK' sign `Spicy? Not spicy
enough? Too spicy?'
Luciano
asked with professional concern.
`Too spicy, I'd say,' Gollee suggested
with a laugh. `I'm
accustomed
to your brand of seasoning but afra must think he's being
poisoned. Look at his face and how his eyes are
watering.' The arch
look on
Luciano's face startled afra so much that he ventured to
splutter
around his mouthful: `No! No!
`itS great. I like . . . spices.
Luciano was instantly mollified. `Ah, a man with educated
tastes.'
`Not only that, Luciano,' Gren said, grinning with sheer
malice,
`he got the al' man by the balls and had him laughing.' Gren
shot
the astounded afra a conspiratorial wink, `And that's no bull, my
friend.'
`You did that?' Clearly afra had ascended ranks in Luciano's
estimation. `To the great man?' And the fiery Italian
gestured in the
direction
of the distant Blundell complex.
afra washed the rest of his mouthful down
with water -so that he
could
remedy this slightly skewed version of the morning's business.
`It was just a short interview ` he
began.
`With Prime Reidinger, which he survived
unscathed,' Gren said,
nodding
his head up and down, his eyes wide with admiration. `afra
made
him a gift and got him to laugh.' `The great man laughed?' Luciano
awarded
afra a respectful glance.
`And,' Gollee paused significantly,
`Reidinger immediately gave
him a
two-day leave. I'm to see this tourist
doesn't get into trouble
his
first time on Earth.' `Ah, how wise of you to bring him here to
eat,
Gollee,' Luciano said, beaming with approval.
`And you have a
formidable
guide, afra,' he said, meaning to reassure, `for this one
knows
the very best places to go for whatever pleasures you might
desire.'
Luciano winked, setting one thick index finger to the side of
his
nose. `You're -in the best hands with
this one. Have no fear. No
worries. Gollee will see you truly enjoy your first
visit to this al'
Earth.'
afra was startled, not only by the Italian's remark but also by
the
underlying nuances which were exceedingly sensual.
`You bet,' Gollee responded, grinning
with an anticipation which
afra
sensed was as sensual as Luciano's.
`Best way ever devised by the kindly gods
to relieve the pressures
to
which man' - and it didn't take much Talent for afra to guess that
Gollee
made regular use of that relief -`is exposed.
What with one
thing
and another, afra's had a tense and pressured day. Don't you
worry,
afra. I know just the place.' `And you
will need to eat
properly
to enjoy yourself to the fullest,' Luciano said, rubbing his
hands
together briskly.
He extended one towards afra politely in
reassurance. `I will
make
sure that your energy level is sufficient to sustain you.' In
order
to mask his agitation, afra hastily bent over the appetizer
platter,
pretending to concentrate on his next selection. He certainly
couldn't
let Gollee see how much the innuendoes had disturbed him. He
knew
that Terran customs concerning sexual relations were considerably
more
relaxed than Capella's but to discuss such a topic over a meal, a
meal
which was going to be designed to stimulate and support the
activity,
was a shock. Yet both Gollee and
Luciano seemed to consider
it the
normal conclusion to a stressful day.
`And I have a very special wine `We're
underage,' afra protested
feebly.
`Of course, I know,' and Luciano spread
his arms in a gesture of
complete
understanding. `We have a very good
stock of grape juice.'
And he
cocked a wink at Gollee who grinned broadly back at him.
When the `grape juice' was presented - in
ordinary water glasses
afra
realized that it was unlike any fruit juice he had ever tasted,
filling
his mouth with a rich tartness and expanding in the most
pleasant
way to the back of his throat and into his stomach. But, as
he had
also never tasted wine, he was unaware of what had actually been
served.
Gradually, as the meal progressed and he
and Gollee ate through
the
various delicious portions presented to them, he noticed that he
was
visibly relaxing. And, where at first
the thought of losing his
virginity
had troubled his conscience, he began to see that if both
Gollee,
who was his age, and Luciano who was quite mature, considered a
visit
to a pleasure house an appropriate part of the day's
conviviality,
he ought not - out of courtesy - object to his host's
plans
for him. Then, too, Reidinger had
assigned Gollee as his guide
and
Gollee had mentioned that he often did escort visitors. Surely it
would
be churlish of afra to affect prudery.
afra flushed suddenly at
the
memory of Reidinger's `pathed comment.
Surely . . . He put that
thought
sternly from him. Perhaps it would be
the better part of
discretion
to relieve his tensions here on Earth so that he could
return
to Callisto with no lingering stress.
So, when the meal was finished and the
last glass of grape juice
drained,
afra had no compunctions about falling in with the next item
on
Gollee's hospitable and helpful agenda.
When afra's guide led him
to a
large, well-maintained building in a discreetly park-like suburb,
he was
no longer the least bit apprehensive.
The ambience of the
interior
was welcoming and Gollee was greeted warmly, afra as well. He
didn't
even cavil when asked to undergo the obligatory physical scan
and
permitted a blood sample to be taken from his earlobe. He didn't
even
blush when required to place his ID disk in the processing slot so
that
his last anti-fertility jab could be noted.
But then, Gollee was
chatting
away with the proprietor during these preliminaries so afra
could
hardly protest a routine which was not at all intrusive, but
mutually
protective.
The choosing of a partner was also
mutual, not that afra noticed,
but he
was rather surprised when five attractive women approached him,
smiling
agreeably, and conversation was initiated.
When the Coonie
wandered
into the lounge and right up to afra, he was charmed.
`This can't be a barque cat!' he
exclaimed.
`No, indeed, it can't,' laughed the
tallest of the five girls who
wore
dark curly hair in a close crop to her well-shaped skull. She had
unusually
pale blue eyes which fascinated afra for he'd never seen the
like. `This is a Coonie cat: the nearest we
surface dwellers have to
barquies. They're not quite as intelligent,' at which
point the Coonie
growled
a protest, delighting afra, `but they've qualities of their
own.
Amos, this is afra. afra, meet Amos.' To the Capellan's
surprise,
the
Coonie immediately jumped in his lap and, standing up on his hind
legs,
put his paws on afra's jaw and sniffed his mouth.
`You've made a friend!' the girl said,
genuinely impressed. `Amos
has
standards.' afra wasn't certain how to react until he saw the
approval
in Gollee's expression. And when Amos
jumped down again and
wandered
out of the room, Kama of the pale blue eyes, moved just close
enough
to afra so that their legs touched.
Somehow there was a transition from the
pleasant lounge and verbal
sparring
with Kama seated so enticingly close, to a private room. When
it
became apparent to her that afra wasn't at all sure how to proceed
once
they were alone, she became quite supportive.
`I'm your first? Well, the important thing is to do what
comes
naturally,'
she said, gently massaging the tense muscles along his
shoulders. `My first time was special for me. I could do no less for
you,
especially,' she added with a throaty chuckle, `when Amos approved
of
you.' afra's nerves made the first attempt more of a disaster than a
release. Kama gave him the most tender of smiles and
suggested that
they
just relax side by side and become more accustomed to each other.
She also kept running her hands about his
body with feathery
delicate
touches so that very shortly he was ready to make a second
attempt.
Not only was that eminently successful
for both of them but afra
was
totally aware that her ecstasy was as genuine as his. That spurred
him on
to further efforts with Kama impressed by his stamina as well as
his
ingenuity.
When they woke a languorous time later
with the room still dark,
afra
shyly asked if her cooperation was limited by time or deed.
`Not with you, my dear,' Kama replied and
energetically pulled him
to her,
`not ever with you!' * * * When he returned to Callisto, he was
both
refreshed and exhausted, and stumbled into his quarters, falling
over
the packages that littered the lounge, and even the bedroom.
The orrery warned him he had only five
hours before he was on duty
again. He told himself to wake up in four so he
could wash and find
something
more appropriate than the glad rags he shucked any which way
as he
made for his bed. He had also shucked a
great many inhibitions
though
it actually took some time for him to determine which ones.
During that work period, he discovered
just what a temper the
Rowan
had. He was so aghast at a PRIME in a
tantrum that he was beyond
surprise. Familiarity with Callisto Tower allowed him
to react
automatically
to the minor crisis, soothing the Rowan and flicking the
required
placement into her lap in the Tower.
Then he initiated the
defence
he had effectively used to blot boredom and proceeded with the
transfers
in his usual calm and imperturbable fashion.
Only when the Tower closed down hours later,
did he realize that
everyone
else's nerves were frazzled.
`How do you do that, afra?' Brian asked
him when the Rowan had
stormed
off to her own quarters, raw emotions swirling after her.
`Do what?' afra asked, looking up from
the bird he was folding.
His hands and fingers were as deft as
usual.
`Ignore her when she's broadcasting like
that?' afra looked up
with a
grin. `It certainly puts us on our
toes.' There was no way he
would
admit that he had been stunned by her temperamental display. He
had
also been more fascinated than disturbed by it.
Brian gulped. `Is that why she does it?' afra shrugged, opening
the
little blue bird's wings.
`She's the Prime. She can do what she pleases.
Brian frowned. `She always does,' he said sourly, and i went
back to
sort out the mess of flimsies, pencil files and wayflippies
that
littered his desk. `At least it was all
cargo.' Busy with
unpacking
his new possessions, afra missed the first tentative knock on
the
door to his quarters. But a mental
presence then impinged on his
awareness
so he heard the second rap.
`Come,' he called out, `lifting' two
cartons away from the door so
that it
could swing open.
It did, slowly, and he was astonished to
see the Rowan peeking
around
the door, as if unsure of her welcome.
`Come in, come in,' he said, `whisking'
wrappings and styro
packing
pellets into an empty box and closing its flaps.
The Rowan slid in and closed the door
behind her, regarding him
with
grey eyes wide and worried.
`What's wrong?' Her colour was wrong and
her manner a dramatic
contrast
from the virago who had stormed out of the Tower a scant hour
past.
`I want to apologize to you, afra,' she
said in a muted voice.
`She's a lonely lonely girl.' afra
quickly hid this recall of
Reidinger's
unvoiced assessment.
`Because I can take downside leave and
you can't?' He couldn't
feel
her reading him nor would he breach Talent ethics by attempting to
read
her - in a remorseful mood or not.
`I think that was at the bottom of it,'
she said and sighed deeply
as she
sank into one of the huge lounge pillows that he had just
unpacked. Then she shook her head savagely: `No, it
wasn't. I must be
honest
with you if we're to continue as a viable team.' She locked her
grey
eyes on his yellow gaze. `You've lost a
certain tension. I
can't.'
She held up her hand when he opened his mouth.
`Reidinger's
approved
of you, you know.' `I didn't.' She gave a little shrug that
was
more a twist of her shoulders than a lift.
`You wouldn't have been
returned
here if he hadn't.' `I thought Primes made their own choices .
. . and afra grinned at her.
She managed a weak smile but her body lost
much of its tension.
`I didn't even have to argue with him.'
`He liked the bull!' There
was a
genuine smile on the Rowan's narrow face now.
She craned her
neck up
to look at him and he courteously dropped to a sitting position
on the
new table he had assembled.
`He liked the touch of square balls and
that, she pointed her
finger
at him, `was your idea!' `But it was your idea to distract him
with an
origami.' Her grin broadened. `But you
still had to take the
initiative
and you did.' afra cocked his head at her.
`Were you
listening?'
Eyes wide with denial, she shook her head vigorously, her
loose
and slightly damp hair clinging to her cheek until she pulled it
away
and tossed the strands back. `Not me.
I suppose if I really needed to, I could
get into Reidinger's
lair. But I would certainly have to have a very
good excuse.
I see you put your downtime to good use,'
she added, changing the
subject
as she looked about her with interest in his purchases.
afra managed to control a rush of blood
to his face, thinking of
how he
had spent some of that time. `Yes,
well,' and he `lifted' over
an as
yet unopened parcel, `I didn't bring much with me, you know `I do
`And I
seem to have all kinds of allowances for the transfer so . . .`
He used
his strong hands to fracture the seal and brought out the lamp,
crafted
like one of his origami herons in a delicate ceramic. `I
couldn't
resist this . . .` He held it up and
she responded with
generous
compliments.
`What else did you get? Besides' - and her smile was mischievous
-`reams
of origami papers?' She helped him unpack the rest of his
purchases
and approved of the disposition of furniture and furnishings.
`Would you care for something to drink or
eat?' he asked her,
finally
recognizing the onset of hunger and thirst in himself now that
the
day's demands had eased.
`No, not tonight, I think, afra. If you would be kind enough to
join me
tomorrow evening, I would be glad of your company.' She threw
back
her head, making eye contact. `I'm a
good cook.' The Rowan was
subdued
the next morning but her work was steady and her manner much
improved
over the day before. Still, by the end
of the shift, afra
steeled
himself against the Rowan reneging on dinner.
He was positively startled when she
asked: `Is six too early?'
afra
shook his head. `No, not at all.' His
eyes lit appreciatively.
`Can I bring anything?' The Rowan gave
him a deep smile. `Some
origami
paper, as I know I won't be robbing you.' With a wad of various
colours
and sizes of paper, afra paused nervously outside her quarters.
He took a deep breath and pressed his
hand against the door plate.
Come, the Rowan said and the door slid
open.
afra took one step inside and went no
further as he took in the
Rowan's
spacious quarters. He had been more
than pleased with his
rooms
but this - this was palatial!
Of course, she was a Prime and less than
this sort of luxury would
have
been insulting. Nevertheless, his eye
was drawn here and there by
the
clever disposition of sculpture, paintings and the style of the
furnishings. She had simple but extremely elegant taste.
And, judging by the subtle aroma that
drifted across the lounge
area,
that extended to her cooking. He took a
deep breath.
`Smells great!' `Tantalizing, huh?' the
Rowan called, ducking to
peer at
him from the kitchen hatch. `It ought
to taste even better
than it
smells,' she added and beckoned him to join her.
She had three pots simmering on the
hob. She pulled a spoonful
from
one and turned towards afra.
`Taste?' afra self-consciously bent down
to sip from the proffered
spoon. Mischievously the Rowan drew the spoon back,
slowly enough that
afra at
first didn't catch on to her ploy. He
made to grab her wrist
but
pulled back, shocking that he would ever accidentally touch a
Talent,
especially a Prime, without invitation.
The Rowan caught both look and feeling. `So serious!' she noted
sadly. `Do young Capellans ever have fun?' afra
felt his cheeks redden
as
memory sprung unbidden. The Rowan's
smile fell and she forced the
spoon
into his hand.
`I've never done it before, Rowan,' afra
blurted out in apology,
both
for his dalliance and the broadcast of it in her company. `I - it
. . .`
he struggled for composure, `I mean, I had dinner with Gollee
Gren,
he's a T-4, my age. They seemed, I mean
- they acted as if
that's
what everyone does on Earth. Gollee -
Luciano - and I really
did
feel stressful. I do feel much less
taut today. I - I hope I
worked
well-' A suddenly magical smile pulled at the Rowan's lips. `I
shall
also hope you performed well last night.' Her smile deepened as
he
gasped in shock at her reply. `Well, I
hope so for your sake, Afra.
And hers.' She turned back to the stove
and stirred one pot
vigorously. `First times are special.' She cocked her
head at him. `I
was
eighteen and he was special, too.' With an abrupt frick of her
hand,
she turned off the heat and began ladling the food into serving
bowls. She gestured to Afra to take two and led the
way to the dining
room
with the other two.
Seated, she explained the dishes. `Sort of a smorgasbord of
Chinese
food - ginger beef, chicken cashew, kung pao chicken and-' she
crinkled
her nose at the last dish, finishing conspiratorily,
`-something
frozen from the BX.' `And you did this since the generators
shut
down,' Afra protested, amazed that a Prime would go to such effort
for a
T-4.
The Rowan dismissed that consideration
with a wave.
`Minutes! Lusena . . .` Her voice
trailed off `A friend?' Afra
asked
to end the uneasy silence that filled the room.
`The only mother I remember,' the Rowan
replied. She tipped her
head in
a shrug. `And more than a mother.
Have you ever lost someone close to you?'
Afra shook his head,
wishing
for something to divert her sad shift of mood.
`No. But I
cried
for nights when my sister-' He broke off too late and regarded
the
Rowan sheepishly. `I was only six and
she and I always enjoyed a
special
rapport. I forgave you taking her from
me when she said that
you'd
save a place for me.' The Rowan grinned.
`Goswina called up the
image
of such a charming little boy. And she
was so anxious not to
sully
family honour because we both knew we could not work together. I
did
sense that your family would have been so pleased had we come to
terms.'
Her grin turned mischievous again. `I'd
always wanted a little
brother. You seemed perfect for the role.' `Green
skin
notwithstanding?'
Rowan laughed. `Skin's only the outer
layer, Afra.'
She
reached up to ruffle his hair. Caught
off guard by such an
intimate
gesture, Afra nearly ducked away but then submitted meekly to
the
fondling: quite different to Kama's.
`Sorry to maul you about,
Afra. I realize that Capellans are too Methody to
indulge but I don't
think
you're as Methody as you were.' She cocked a knowing eyebrow at
him and
he managed to suppress a blush, if only to thwart her
intention. `Rebellious yet collected, controlled,
studious,
clever-fingered,
quick-minded, slyly humorous, openly amusing.
The
many
faceted Afra.' Abruptly she altered mood again. `I'm glad that
Goswina
mentioned you. We work well together.'
Then she compressed her
lips,
scowling until he looked at her, wondering what he had done
wrong. Her grey eyes pierced him.
`Afra, mostly I need a friend.' She
preempted his hasty
assurances. `I can't leave Callisto. I can never conduct my own
search
for a mate. I have to wait to see what
Reidinger finds to send
me.'
She grimaced, quite distorting her beauty.
Then, as she flicked
her
long silver hair to her back, she added, `That I have to accept as
part
and parcel of being a Prime but I have to have one friend.' She
regarded
him steadily.
Afra had never experienced such an
onslaught of emotions before.
His face went numb and his mind raced in the
tightest possible
confused
circles, hoping she wouldn't probe at such a delicate moment.
The Rowan was offering a deeper
relationship than any he had ever
had
with another human being, even with Goswina.
Less than Reidinger
had
hinted at but, for many reasons, more than Afra had any right to
expect. A Prime was begging him to drop the careful
choreography of
acquaintance
in the hopes of the most miraculous of friendships.
Slowly, dropping his mental shields, Afra
extended his hand to
her,
palm up. The Rowan looked at it,
catching her breath and
appearing
for a long moment as if she would retreat further into
herself. Impulsively Afra grabbed her hand. She jerked at the touch,
then
made her fingers unclench.
What would you have me do, my
friend? Afra asked across this
tactile
bonding, tighter than mere telepathy.
Slowly the Rowan relaxed
and
slowly her marvellous smile lit her face to beauty.
Afra made his bow deep and
respectful. He doubted she ever made
amends
to any of the other Tower personnel.
A Prime and the second in command of a
Tower needed to cultivate
their
rapport - a rapport which must develop and intensify. To what
degree? Afra wondered, once again recalling
Reidinger's remark. Was
that
behind the Rowan's apologetic behaviour?
In the seconds it took
to
complete the bow, Afra decided it would be very unwise to
anticipate. The Rowan was a lonely person but not
necessarily lonely
for
him, in spite of what Reidinger tacitly suggested.
Over the next few years, by a serendipity
Afra never quite
understood,
the relationship between the Rowan and himself deepened but
never
in quite the direction Reidinger would have preferred. Their
professional
rapport was shortly so fine-tuned that even the other
Tower
staff knew that Afra was the aide she had been searching for.
On the emotional level, Afra became
increasingly able to gauge the
Rowan's
moods and, if necessary, would warn the Tower personnel to slap
up
their shields and endure.
He could sometimes turn her state with an
adroit pressure of
positive
reassurance. Sometimes he couldn't and
the tension in the
Tower
would become thick enough to cut. Once
or twice, when he felt
she had
gone beyond the bounds of permissible emotional display, he'd
reprimand
her, in kindly tone, heavy with surprise at her lack of
control:
though he hated to borrow any of his parents' attitudes.
On those few occasions when he did
reprimand her, her turbulence
would
generally abate to a tolerable fury.
As stationmaster, Brian Ackerman suffered
more than anyone else.
When he threatened to quit, Afra would
appeal to Reidinger. Of
course,
Afra never `heard' what Earth Prime said to the Rowan but she
would
be reasonably docile for the next week or so.
Callisto was, in many ways, far more
difficult a Tower than any
other,
including Earth's. So there was greater
pressure on its Prime
and
Tower staff. Some lower T ratings
weren't sufficiently flexible
and
were replaced but gradually, over the next few years, a balance was
achieved
and maintained. Afra also suggested a
roster of temporary
replacements
when some key personnel reached an overload point. As a
T-4 in
gestalt with the station's generators he was able to, and did,
send
people downside for a few days' relief though, generally, the
Rowan
would oblige even if she was in a bad mood.
Since Afra could `port himself with an
assist from the station's
generators,
he availed himself of those periodic longer occlusions when
great
Jupiter, or several of the smaller moons, made traffic in or out
of
Callisto impossible. That was when he
learned more of the planet of
his
ancestors.
The first visit he made, however, was to
Damitcha in his forest
retreat. Though the old chief was genuinely delighted
to see his young
friend,
his mind wandered and, even during the brief stay, Damitcha
became
confused, thinking he was in Capella Port, or Betelgeuse, and
wondering
how Afra came to be so far from his home system.
More frequently, Afra accepted Gollee
Gren's company on tours of
the
pleasure houses that abounded in the immense and sprawling capital
of
Central Worlds. These excursions were
both relief and tantalizing
for
Afra. He met many lovely women, skilled
and innocent, but none of
them
could hold his interest very long. He
returned most often to the
calm
and understanding Kama - even if she teased him that he came more
to
dally with Amos, the Coonie, than with her.
But she knew that he
found
solace in her company and she would arrange her time so that they
could
spend days together if he asked.
Back at the station he and the Rowan
would engage in elaborate
games,
sometimes play-fighting with all the ferocity of mates.
Sometimes, when the mood threatened to
turn intimate, the Rowan
would
break away, hiding her head from the hurt she had imposed upon
him.
Afra's stern Methody upbringing helped
him to school his
expressions
and turn his words to safer stances.
Their relationship evolved into something
approaching elder
sister-little
brother but with an intimacy such blood affiliations
could
not attain. Afra, for his part, found
it easier to accept that
role
than the young lover of an older woman.
The Rowan used her
greater
age on him unmercifully until the two finally grew tired of it,
dropping
the petty bickering for the silence of dear companions.
Perhaps following the dictum that familiarity
breeds contempt, the
Rowan
took increasingly to spending most of the station down-time in
his
company. Afra, for his part began to
accept the gender differences
between
them in an attempt to aid him in his dealings with his less
cerebral
relationships. If Kama guessed, she
never mentioned it.
Nor did the Rowan ever seek to find out
more about Afra's
`downside'
friend.
That consideration only underscored
Afra's comprehension of the
Rowan's
loneliness which tore at him viciously, sometimes at the
expense
of his seeking out Kama. His deep
compassion for the Rowan
constantly
teetered on the verge of offering to provide her physical as
well as
mental comfort. He fought within
himself over the fear that by
not
providing her with a physical bond he was denying her the lover she
so
desperately wanted. But he feared more
the consequences of his
being
wrong: of robbing the Rowan of the only person to whom she could
spill
her soul in an attempt to provide her with someone with whom she
could
share her life. And, deep within
himself, Afra feared that
perhaps
she would accept; for he did not want to be the youngster in
his
love, he desired to be the consoler, the anchor for a young spirit
blown
by the winds of life.
But, as her loneliness manifested itself
more frequently, Afra
began
to hope that she might turn to him.
Certainly he was the most
likely
candidate in the galaxy, even if he 7' knew that she could not
requite
his abiding love for her.
Unconsciously, he sought alternative
solutions to the Rowan's
agoraphobia,
a problem that seemed to affect all Prime Talents, of
being
unable to teleport without violent reactions.
After her first
space
voyage, the Rowan had arrived at Callisto Station in a near
catatonic
state.
While Afra knew that Callisto, also, had
had the same violent
reaction
to space travel, he wondered if there might not be a cure,
especially
for one as young as the Rowan was. If,
he reasoned, the
Rowan
could escape Callisto Station and `bring Mohammed to the
Mountain'
she would at least have the opportunity to dabble without it
being
immediately known to all her fellow workers.
So he suggested
that
she try to overcome her space phobia by making small ventures off
the
surface of Callisto in a special capsule, cushioned against any
movement
and opaqued from any source of exterior light or view. With
his
mind to minimize the act of `portation, the Rowan tried to
neutralize
her agoraphobia. Gradually, she was
able to endure being
`ported
beyond Callisto for short periods.
Afra did not dare force the exercises.
Then the eighth planet of hot Deneb,
bombarded by an alien task
force,
made contact with Callisto for desperately needed medical
personnel
to cope with the plagues spurted from space at the colonial
planet. And the mind that made contact was male,
young, powerful and
unattached.
When the Rowan proposed a mind-merge to
defeat the invaders in
Deneb's
skies, Afra was both elated and wary.
But the mind-merge with Jeff Raven,
successful as it was in
destroying
the intruders, was not sufficient to induce the Rowan to
leave
Callisto and join this potent young male on his home planet. Her
despair
hit a paralysing nadir so deep that Afra, and Brian, feared for
her
sanity.
Afra's rage on learning that Reidinger
wanted to use the affair as
a way
of breaking the Rowan's phobia surprised everyone in its
intensity. Reidinger in particular had come to consider
the young
Capellan
of a placid temperament.
While he put his anger on hold with the
appearance of the very
distraught
Rowan, he intended to do battle again with Reidinger as soon
as
possible, after all, he had been handling the situation quite
adequately,
damn it!
The day was draining, more from the
tragic air of the Rowan than
the
efforts of moving cargo. At the end of
it, as Afra considered how
best to
help his Prime, a young man in plain travel gear arrived in the
control
room.
`You come up in that last shuttle?'
Ackerman asked the stranger
politely. Afra lost the answer as he scrutinized the
man. He was
tired
but carried himself with a composed air marred only by a slight
wistfulness
and a greater nervousness.
`Hey, Afra, want you to meet Jeff Raven.'
Ackerman's voice called
him
back to awareness. Raven, Afra noted to
himself. Deneb, another
part
responded coolly. Deneb here? Afra had trouble believing it:
Primes
did not travel.
Jeff Raven's eyes met his.
`Hello,' Afra murmured, rueful that his
introspection had betrayed
him.
`Hello,' Raven returned, his grin
altering imperceptibly.
Afra kept his expression fixed but he
knew. He flicked his gaze
away,
unsure of his continued control.
What the hell is happening down
there? asked the Rowan with a
tinge
of her familiar irritation. Why . . . ?
And then, in violation of all her own
rules, she was there,
standing
in the middle of the room. She flicked
a quick glance to Afra
who
jerked his head in the direction of Jeff Raven.
Deneb stepped to her side and gently
touched her hand.
`Reidinger said you needed me.' Reidinger
said you needed me, the
words
rang through Afra's mind like bells. He
watched closely as the
Rowan
reacted. Well inside his shields,
half-ecstatic, half-destroyed,
Afra
thought: Give her the care she needs!
Give her what she will not
take
from me!
And then the two Talents left, making
their way up the stairs to
the
Rowan's once lonely Tower. Afra broke
the awed silence of the
other
station crew by grabbing a cake from the box in Ackerman's
motionless
hand.
Eyes watering with the conflicting
emotions that tore at him, Afra
called
out: `Not that that pair needs much of our help, people, but we
can add
a certain flourish and speed things up!' Over the next few days
Afra
spent his free time adjusting to the fact that he no longer needed
to
worry or hope that the Rowan might one day come to him for more than
verbal
comfort. Then he recognized, with
growing anxiety, that despite
all his
hopes and fears the Rowan was stuck in a terrible limbo: loving
but
unable to be in the arms of her lover.
Jeff Raven had shown that
Prime
Talents could cross the void of space without the terrible
disorientation
that Siglen's travel trauma had imposed on all her
charges
but the Rowan still had to conquer that imposition in herself.
Afra was delighted, if exhausted, when
the Rowan awoke him early
one
morning to demand his aid in overcoming the neurosis. As much as
he
wanted to help her immediately, he recommended that she rest first
and
start the new attempt the next morning.
With two hours before Callisto cleared
Jupiter's shadow and the
station
could begin its workday, Afra gently nudged the Rowan's capsule
out,
using his gestalt with the station generators to push it slowly
into a
Mars orbit.
Afra was delighted when he heard the
Rowan's sour comment.
I can't just sit here in the cradle
You're not, you know, he told
her. You're hovering near Deimos.
She panicked and Reidinger screamed at
him but it was worth it.
Afra was sure that in time he could help
her break her fear for he
perversely
determined that, now she had found her mind-mate, she was
going
to be free to be with him on Deneb.
When Afra brought her capsule back to the
station and palmed open
its
door, he took her hand and pumped her energy levels back up. He
was
careful to get his shields back up before she could read him: not
just
because he did not want her to know his plans but also because he
still
was not completely sure of his emotions.
You don't need to treat this as so
commonplace an occurrence, you
know,
she said with some asperity Why not? It
should be! He returned
with a
smug grin.
She pinched him. Yaw!
He sidled away from her.
His pleasure was short-lived,
however. The next morning, when the
Rowan
thought of going to Earth, he balked.
`We've got some pretty heavy stuff to shift,' he warned her. But
she
glared at him and Afra found himself wondering if he could endure
her
during the necessary adjustment period.
The Rowan told the staff
they
could prepare for the day's work without him or her, then glared
at him.
`I want to go back to Deimos again. Now!' `As you wish.' Afra
gave in
gracefully. Gently he pushed her back
out close to Mars'
largest
moon.
Is Earth visible from this position? she asked him.
He rotated the capsule and told her how
to use the controls to get
a
magnified view of Earth and its Moon.
But the blackness was too much for her
and, the moment he caught
the
explosion of fear, he yanked her back.
Easy, Rowan! he said, soothingly. But
her reactions were so
strong
that they disturbed Jeff Raven way out on Deneb.
Scared me half to death, you did! Raven told her.
Jeff, Afra replied with some fear of
reproach, she's all right.
Afra added to the strength of his
response by initiating a
metamorphic
massage to the Rowan to reduce her tension.
Inwardly he
was
angered: what was blocking her so much?
Was he trying to inhibit
her? Was he rushing her in order to threaten her
resolve? Afra
detested
even the thought that such petty jealousies could lurk in his
heart.
I want her to be happy, he told himself
sternly. I will be
happier
if the Rowan is happy.
The day passed uneasily, with Afra
walking a tightrope for fear of
setting
the Rowan off. But she worked more like
an automaton, neither
jocular
nor snappish. They were just closing
down the board for the
day
when an emergency cargo signal came through.
Some Fleet nerd to judge by the ID --
Brian Ackerman started
sourly. Silence spread among the rest of the crew
until Afra turned to
the
personal capsule. Jeff Raven stepped
out, tossed everyone a jolly
salute
and charged up the Rowan's Tower two steps at a time.
`There's nothing on this list we can't
handle ourselves!' Afra
exclaimed,
thrusting the cargo manifest back into Ackerman's
outstretched
hand. `Get those generators back on
line!' `But, Afra-'
Ackerman
began pleadingly.
`No buts!' Afra's yellow eyes burned
hot. `We will not disturb
them.'
He gestured peremptorily around the control room. `Have Mauli
and
Mick report here, they've worked with me before.' `Yes, but only
when
the Rowan was in gestalt, too,' Ackerman complained.
Don't task me, Brian, Afra snapped back,
his normal aplomb shaken
enough
that he `pathed. He jerked his head in
silent apology, adding
aloud:
`We owe them this much.' Ackerman sighed deeply, nodded in
agreement. He turned to the others standing around the
control room.
`You heard the man, people! We've got work to do!' He grinned
conspiratorially
at the tall Capellan.
`Just don't try to resign because I'm
bullying you!' Afra teased,
waggling
a finger.
`Wouldn't dream of it!' Brian responded
heartily. `Now, here's
the
first load `That's the last load,' Brian said, handing the
datasheets
to the Capellan. `Afra? The last load.' `Oh? Yeah,' Afra
looked
up wanly, limply taking the sheets.
Beyond him, Mauli and Mick
reeled
slightly in their seats. He walked over
to them slowly.
`Mauli?
Mick?' He looked down at them.
`Last one.' The twins
slowly
rose to their feet, swaying. Afra
grabbed their hands,
apologizing.
`Tactile contact will make it easier.
Fortunately it was a small cargo
lighter. Afra suspected that
Brian
had saved it especially. With a great
effort the three heaved
the
empty ship back to Earth orbit.
Hey!
Watch it! Reidinger swore,
steadying the tumbling ship as
it
popped into orbit just above the Earth's atmosphere. Any closer and
you
would have drenched Sri Lanka!
Afra ignored the comment, as they had
done throughout the day in
their
contacts with Earth Prime. The excuse
given out was that the
Rowan
was furious with Reidinger and not talking to him. The Rowan had
never
done that before but Afra was sure she would be amused by the
ruse
when he had a chance to explain it later.
`Afra-' -we can't do this again,' Mauli
and Mick told them in
their
twin-speak.
Afra gave them a long searching look before
he nodded rueful
acceptance.
`We've got a passenger liner due through
tomorrow, anyway,
Ackerman
confided, the next day's cargo manifest on his screen.
`You're beat, I'll tell the Rowan in the
morning.
Afra shook his head. `No, I will.' He looked around the control
room at
the exhausted crew. `Thank you.' Then
he went around the room,
shaking
the hands or patting the shoulder of each and every person.
`And please thank those outside who
helped us today. I'm sure the
Rowan
will thank you, too `They didn't do it for her,' Brian muttered
under
his breath. Afra did not hear him.
Afra knocked louder on the Rowan's door
in his fourth attempt to
rouse
the pair the next morning. He had slept
soundly but had woken
quite
early, nervously considering how to admit his weakness to the
Rowan
when Callisto Station had to go to work.
There was that large
passenger
liner which, no way, could he and the twins `port. He tried
through
the commsystem to rouse them again. No
luck.
For a long time Afra stood at the door,
fists clenched, breathing
deeply
as he considered the impropriety of the next logical act.
Finally, as softly as he could, he
`pathed to the two forms
inside.
I do beg your pardons!
A series of emotions and feelings washed
over him: restfulness,
satiation
Rowan! You're broadcasting -- He caught
snippets of her
rousing
Jeff, his tired response as he told her it was his day off and
her
gentle admonition that yesterday had been his day off.
She's right! Afra called desperately, adding by way of caution,
Reidinger
doesn't know you're here Why not? was
Jeff s half-amused
response.
He's not . . . Afra faltered, better tell them later. He's in a
very
touchy mood. As Afra expected, the
Rowan, always very diligent,
was
ready to get to work but, to his surprise, Jeff held her back, all
ready
to rebel for another day off.
With all respect, Rowan, Raven, he
remarked, falling back on the
courtesy
his parents had drilled into him, we managed well enough
yesterday
but there's a passenger carrier coming in that requires the
Rowan's
gentle touch.
Even that polite statement was received
rebelliously by Jeff Raven
who
insisted on a half-hour hold while he and the Rowan broke their
fast. When they'd eaten, they didn't exactly race
to the Tower where,
reluctantly,
he returned to his responsibilities on Deneb.
Afra's mood
was
mixed as he tried to be understanding of their need for each other
and
control his resentment of being unthinkingly abused.
But his silent dedication and that of the
rest of the staff were
well
repaid in the Rowan's gentle smile, easy manner and efficient work
throughout
the week. Afra was disconcerted that he
had to pace himself
and the
others gingerly to allow them to rebuild the stamina they had
squandered
in their support of the Rowan's day of rest.
So it came as somewhat of a surprise when
the Rowan, on the fifth
day
after Raven's joyful appearance, psychically screamed. JEFF RAVEN!
What's the matter, Rowan?
He's gone. His touch is gone!
Instantly Afra rushed up the
stairs
to her Tower. Her panic had reached
down through Afra to Brian
Ackerman
and Bill Power who followed the Capellan into the Tower.
We'll link! Afra told the frightened Rowan.
She opened to them, Afra marshalling the
others in a mental
pyramid
with her as the apex and calling up the full power of the
station's
six generators. After a horrifically
long moment, a panicked
Rowan,
terror-stricken, turned to him. `He
isn't there! Surely he's
heard
us!' Afra had never expected that he would have to be the
comforter
of a bereaved Rowan. He had survived
the stress of her
meeting
Jeff Raven, falling instantly in love with the man's
charismatic
personality: he had accepted that he would remain on the
outside
of that relationship in the role of supportive friend,
steadfast
companion. But how could he possibly
cope with a bereft and
doubly
desperate woman who had lost her soul's mate?
The Rowan needed
his
aid, now. He extinguished his fear,
took the initiative and
reached
for her hands.
`Breathe more slowly, Rowan,' he ordered
her in tones he forced to
be
calm. `There can be many reasons .
Rowan?
Afra squeezed her hands reassuringly at
the faint call: `You see,
I told
you . The Rowan jerked her hands out of
his. `That's not Jeff!
Yes?
Come at once! Jeff needs you!
Afra saw her determined expression and
caught her arm as she
started
out of her chair. He could not imagine
her trying the jump to
Deneb
after her black terror in viewing the Earth.
`Now, wait a
moment,
Rowan.
`You heard!' She returned in resolute
tones. `He needs me! I'm
going!'
I want a wide open mind from everyone on Station! she added
mentally,
circumventing Afra. Then she was not
there, in the Tower,
but
settling in the launch.
Where's my linkage, Afra?
Afra's hands were tightly, painfully clenched
to his sides. Must
I lose
you, too? The painful whimper came from
the depths of his soul.
He realized that if he did not refuse
her, if he provided her the
jump
power to Deneb and she died, he would have as good as killed her
with his
bare hands.
Afra, do it now! the Rowan shouted. If Jeff needs me, I must go!
Do it before I realize what I'm doing!
Rowan, you can't attempt . . . The thought jerked out of him.
Don't argue, Afra. Help me!
If I've been called, I must go!
Afra turned slowly in the high lonely
Tower to gaze down at the
sealed
capsule and his beloved friend inside.
I'll be waiting for her at the usual
point. . . came that faint
firm
mind-tone. Afra recognized its
essential femininity, its
assurance
of the transfer and its over-riding anxiety for Jeff Raven.
That confident assurance decided him,
though logic informed him
that
Jeff's was the only powerful mind Deneb had so far produced. As
he
released his fists and assembled the psychic power of the station,
the
Rowan gripped his psyche strongly, bringing him tightly into the
merge.
It was as if she was convinced that if
she held him so tightly he
could
not resist or alter it. She was
wrong. Afra allowed himself a
moment's
amazement to realize that he could resist her, could stop this
transfer.
Then the coordinates were in her mind and
she pressed against the
generators
and, with his sudden willing cooperation, was gone.
Long after the generators wound down to
silence, Afra Lyon stood
in the
lonely high Tower of the Rowan, tears streaking his face as he
worried
and wondered and prayed as he had never done before that the
Rowan
was safe, that she could help her beloved and that he had not
made
the wrong decision in sending her to Deneb VIII.
His tears had dried, his fears had seeped
away, and he had somehow
fallen
into the Rowan's chair when he heard a soft step behind him.
`Afra?' It was Brian Ackerman. He came around to stand in front
of him
and then gripped his shoulder to make him attentive. `Can you
hear
her?' 8o Afra drew a deep breath, gently flicked off the
stationmaster's
grip and stood up. He shook his
head. `No, I can't.'
Ackerman
winced and closed his eyes for a moment against what must now
be
done. `You'll have to tell Reidinger.'
He spoke carefully, weighing
the
impact on the tall Capellan.
I know.
The voice of Earth Prime startled them both.
To Afra only, he said, I owe you a great
debt, bold Lyon.
And a myriad of images followed that
thought: Reidinger knew that
Afra
had run the station the day Jeff Raven came through; he knew of
Afra's
valiant efforts to cure the Rowan of her claustrophobia; he
guessed
Afra's role in maintaining the balance of her sanity; guessed
his
role and power in the Rowan's trip to Deneb.
Sadly the Earth Prime
added,
I may have to draw deeper into your debt.
And Reidinger shared
the
fear that Jeff Raven would not live, offering Afra the position of
the
Rowan 5 comforter and Jeff Raven's surrogate.
You have always
loved
her, I know, Reidinger added with flashes of sexual intensity
Angrily,
Afra shook his head. You cannot even
begin to understand!
And Afra found himself locked tight
against a powerful mind, a
mind
which could have picked clean his darkest secrets. No, my friend,
I
do. In my fashion, and Afra perceived a
sincere fatherly interest,
more
tender than ever imagined, locked deep within Reidinger's gruff
exterior,
I love her too!
Afra sensed a change in Reidinger's
thinking. But you, my
impetuous
friend, I fear for you. It was one
thing to be little
brother
to the virgin queen and attentive courtier to the royal couple.
But some alternative might be needed to
anchor her sanity. You
are
there and already have her trust and appreciation Although Afra had
always
known how ruthless Reidinger could be in the care and
maintenance
of FT&T and his precious Primes, this half-formed
suggestion
made him more amused than indignant.
Especially as they
didn't
even know for certain that contingency plans were needed.
There could be any number of reasons why
Jeff Raven had been
unavailable
to the Rowan: though it was rather difficult to find a
logical
one.
With all respect, sir, we don't need to
go into that just yet, I
think.
You know something I don't? Reidinger seemed to leap on him.
No, but I refuse to be negative. Especially where the Rowan's
concerned.
Do
you know how valuable that girl is?
ToFT&T?
Don't roar at me, Capellan Lyon!
Then abruptly his mind-tone altered to
one of immense and
incredulous
belief. She did it. She pulled him back, though I can
sense
only the most delicate of flickers. She
knows she's saved his
life.
A wave of relief that was close to
orgiastic surged through Afra
at that
report. He had to grip the arms of the
chair to keep his
balance,
so intense was his sense of reprieve from disaster. He knew
that
Reidinger shared his reaction.
Thank God, if you believe in one, for
that mercy.
I do, I will. My gratitude for sharing the news. You will keep
us
informed of the conditions on Deneb?
Of course! Reidinger said reassuringly.
By way of parting, he
shot,
And Afra, I'll want you to retest when all this is over. You
can't
be merely T4 with all the shenanigans you've enacted lately. T-3
at the least so I'm upgrading you. And paying you accordingly,
starting
today. He chuckled. We'll argue over back pay later.
Afra started to protest the unexpected,
and possibly undeserved
promotion. But to argue with Earth Prime?
Reidinger's laugh cut through that
thought.
Please!
Argue! You need the practice! Then, including Ackerman
back in
his conversation, Reidinger added, I think it best that we all
pretend
I don't know where the Rowan is. Afra
was perplexed by that.
Let's just say that I've got games of my
own to play, young Lyon.
Until I tell you, the Rowan is not to
know we talked. If she
contacts
you, behave accordingly. And then he
was gone.
Brian and Afra exchanged surprised
looks. `Well, you know he
likes
to play his games, Afra,' Brian said first.
Afra nodded, brows furrowed. `We will tell the others that he
doesn't
know and we'll continue as we did when they had their day off.'
Two
days later the Rowan contacted him late at night.
Afra was surprised that he could receive
her, even with the
gestalt
of her generators over that distance.
Maybe he was
legitimately
a T-3. He didn't mention that as he
carefully made a note
of the
supplies she requested.
I may have to break them into smaller
parcels than usual, Rowan,
he said
when he examined the complete list.
That's all right. The generator here can't handle too much,
the
Rowan
replied forgivingly, then added, How are you holding up? I don't
know
how long I'll have to stay here on Deneb to be sure Jeff s going
to
recover completely from his shrapnel wounds.
Bet he'll watch where he steps from now
on.
Does Reidinger know where I am?
Afra chuckled. We're doing well enough.
Generator three has
magically
developed a glitch which has reduced `your' ability to handle
heavy
traffic.
Oh, Afra! Thank you! Across the
light-years, Afra felt the
gentle
caress of a grateful friend. He thanked
Reidinger's God for
deliverance
from a less appealing role.
* * * In another few days, Afra heard
from Reidinger; the contact
announced
by a deep chuckle echoing in his mind.
I singed her ears off, Afra! But she gave as good as she got and
begged
me to send you a couple of T-2s.
Reidinger's `voice' took on a
different
tone. Who do you want?
Afra shrugged. If it's all
the same with you, we're doing well
enough
just now. Just keep our loads like this
and we'll manage.
Reidinger snorted. I just finished telling her I wouldn't have
her
burnt out catching cargo unaided, do you think I'm fool enough to
burn
out her best man?
Afra was not aware that Reidinger was
broadcasting until Brian
Ackerman
turned to him with a grin of agreement.
Sadly, Reidinger added, I myself am too
busy to handle the
increased
load of Callisto so I'm sending you a pair of T-2s.
I'm sure you'll treat them well.
How's the Rowan, Reidinger? Brian asked, boosting himself off
Afra.
Don't you ever tell her, Reidinger
returned with that incredible
tenderness
that so surprised the two stationers, but I think she's
doing
just fine! He paused. Oh, and by the way, do you want to switch
brands
of whisky this year?
Brian Ackerman's eyes widened in
amazement; it was well-known that
when he
used to threaten to resign from Callisto Station on a yearly
basis,
he was bribed to remain with a case of his favorite tipple but
it
never once occurred to him that Earth Prime knew that!
Uk, no, I've gotten rather used to the
Paddy's now, Brian managed
to
respond. Beside him, Afra doubled over
in a laughing fit.
Torshan and Saggoner duly arrived and the
Tower staff, worked just
slightly
ragged in keeping with a cunning plan laid down by Brian and
carried
through by Afra, were more than pleased to have their aid.
Although there were several teething
troubles, the calm
togetherness
of the loving pair of T-2s and Afra's demanding
performance
standards soon had the station operating at nearly peak
efficiency
within the week.
The routine was set in the next week and
by the third week the
station
personnel had nearly forgotten life under the Rowan. It was
shattered
when a personal capsule arrived unheralded in a cradle.
Belay that! Afra called to a cargo handler who nearly crushed it
with the
capsule scheduled for that cradle. Afra
was hot with anger at
the
near catastrophe. Who the hell put that
capsule- he began and then
touched
the mind inside it. ROWAN!
Pandemonium broke out as the rest of the
station heard his mental
shout. Suddenly everyone `ported in around her,
patting her, talking
to her,
hugging her. The Rowan turned bright
red in the face of such
open
affection. Afra sent a personal message
on a tight beam to
Torshan
and Saggoner to explain the sudden disruption of his usually
orderly
station. They accepted his explanation
calmly, saying that
they
would work around the celebration.
The next day's work, due to the Rowan's
return, progressed with an
incredible
ease. Afra had forgotten how effortlessly
she handled even
the
heaviest loads.
Once the work was finished, Afra was
contacted by the Rowan.
I need to talk to Reidinger, she told
him, almost daring him to
challenge
her.
Is that wise? Afra replied, fretting that, somehow, she had
discovered
Reidinger's duplicity.
He can't be that bad! she responded, adding that Reidinger had no
call to
be angry over her absence.
Afra responded diplomatically but
somewhat defensively on behalf
of
Reidinger.
He gained a lot more than I risked, she
told him.
Afra examined her carefully, noting the
faint augmentation to her
aura. His eyes narrowed. Was she putting on weight?
No, at least not
without
good cause. I know, he responded
warmly. Did the Rowan know
her
condition?
Probably not since she'd had other
concerns to divert her from
noticing
a physiological change.
I'd like to surprise the old geezer, she
continued.
Geezer?
Afra spluttered, thinking that she was due for a few
surprises
herself, especially as she'd never been able to meet
Reidinger
face to face.
You've contacts at Earth Prime
Headquarters. Can one of them
sneak
me in without having to announce my arrival?
The question startled him so he continued
to banter with her while
thinking
furiously under tight shields. First
he'd have to warn
Reidinger,
and then Gollee, but he did assure the Rowan that he knew
someone
who might do him a favour. He begged a
few minutes to arrange
matters.
Reidinger? Afra called in the tightest telepathic shaft he could
manage.
Who'?
was the gruff response. This
better be good.
Hurriedly, Afra explained.
And it was good enough for he could
`hear' Reidinger's grin quite
plainly. Excellent!
I have to talk to her anyway and it'll be better
if she
thinks she's got me at a disadvantage.
Here's what we do Afra absorbed the
instructions with a growing
sense
of betrayal. Reidinger perceived that
and broke off. Afra, you
know
that I want the best for her. She needs
a father figure, someone
to
rebel against. And I need her spirited,
rebellious. We all do.
Privately, Afra remained unconvinced but
he couldn't quarrel with
Reidinger. And it might just have a beneficial effect
on the Rowan's
growing
recklessness. Now that she could travel
without ill effect,
who
knew to what lengths she might take her new freedom?
Thank you, Reidinger said, I'll tell
Gren.
Afra turned his attention back to the
Rowan. Well, Gollee's
agreed
to my especial request to escort my anonymous young friend as
far as
he's able but security has to be placated.
He'll meet you at the landing field
entrance.
Reidinger must have been listening
discreetly to Afra's answer,
for
Afra caught him swearing. Keerist! Security!
I'll have to warn them or my security
beams'll fry her when she
jumps
in!
Afra turned hastily to call out to the
Rowan but she was already
gone. Angrily, he growled, Reidinger!
Like gold dust, lad, Earth's Prime Talent
called back gently.
I'll treat her like she was my own
blood. Uh-oh!
She's here! Reidinger faded out, and came back with: I meant to
tell
you - will tell you later Afra did not hear from Reidinger until
the
next morning as he was finishing his usual skimpy breakfast.
`Altair?' Afra shouted aloud when
Reidinger told him of his
assignment
for the Rowan. HOW COULD YOU?
I had to! Reidinger retorted sharply.
Afra, who had spent years
learning
to read emotion, caught an undertone of pain in Earth Prime's
voice. It was the pain of command, the malaise that
comes from having
made
too many disagreeable decisions; also, very deep, was the pain of
a
person who was just plain old. Afra hastily
accessed his data
console's
readout on Reidinger - he was approaching his one hundred and
tenth
birthday.
Afra considered telling Reidinger of the
real reason for his anger
at the
Rowan's reassignment but decided against it: the Rowan and Jeff
Raven
had the right of making that disclosure.
Besides, Afra chided
himself,
he was not sure that the Rowan was pregnant.
Nor that the
child
would be a boy and very talented.
Besides, Reidinger added in a very small
tone, I had to free you
and
Ackerman to perform a very special mission.
Don't you think Callisto's been disrupted
enough without removing
us? Afra returned tartly. He frowned at himself, both annoyed and
amazed
that he could react to the man who was, for all intents and
purposes,
Federal Telepath and Teleport.
I wouldn't dream of moving either of
you! Reidinger responded.
However, I have to think of the future
beyond me and, frankly,
while
Jeff Raven's a good man, he does not have the skills required to
run a
Prime station. I want youAfra was ahead
of him. Me? To teach
the
Rowan's husband? Has it occurred to you
that the man might not
even
want me around his wife? Let alone
himself and his children?
It has, Reidinger responded sadly. And I think it would be the
greatest
of catastrophes.
Afra spluttered, spreading his hands in
dismay. While he would be
deeply
saddened, he could not see how his personal feelings would
amount
to a catastrophe.
Reidinger made it clear to him. What good are they to me if they
can
only work together? Do you honestly
think that the Rowan would
choose
a man so petty? Come, you know she
almost chose Stop! Afra
called,
eyes closed painfully. The Rowan is my
friend and more. I
love
her like a sister. If her happiness
requires that I step out of
her
life, then not you, nor theFT&T nor anyone will stop me!
So you'll run away at the slightest
possible excuse, will you?
Reidinger hurled in response. Green by colour, green by nature,
is that
it, Capellan? Are you afraid to look
upon their love? Do you
love
her so little that you cannot welcome her husband with open arms?
I never said that! Afra returned heatedly, yellow eyes flaring.
I will gladly work with Jeff Raven. He's a remarkable man and he
well
suits the Rowan. But you must
understand, there are secrets,
things
the Rowan and I have shared that that may make it very difficult
for him
to work with me.
Give it a try, then, Reidinger said. If it doesn't work out,
we'll
try something else. But don't prejudge
the man already have,
Afra
returned with a grin. She's chosen him
which makes him special.
Besides which, the man has such a way
with him, he can charm
anyone.
Reidinger's response was laughter. As he charmed even Earth
Prime? Afra was astonished that Reidinger grasped
that hidden
qualification. I have always thought that you were a wise
perceptive
lion. Just think of this assignment as another way
in which you help
the
Rowan - as well as FT&T The interview was over, Reidinger's mind
faded
out but not without a final warmth and an ill-concealed ache.
The interview left Afra mentally drained
and emotionally confused.
He had liked what he saw of Jeff Raven
and could not but rejoice
that
the Rowan had finally met her mate. It
gave him hopes that
perhaps
someday he too could be so happy. But
he had not lied to
Reidinger
when he fretted that his brotherly intimacy with the Rowan
could
prove a source of friction between himself and Jeff Raven.
Brian Ackerman buzzed his commlink. `Afra, where's the Rowan?' In
response,
Afra downed his breakfast, tossed the container towards the
dishwasher
and jumped to the Control Room. Brian
started irritably
with
Afra's arrival.
`Her replacement's due in soon,
Brian. Better let everyone know.'
`Replacement?'
Ackerman echoed in his confusion.
A newly painted personal capsule appeared
in the nearest cradle.
Afra?
Here, Afra responded, sending a mental
image. And Jeff Raven
appeared
in the room.
`I'm sorry we didn't have time to talk
the last time I was here,'
Jeff
Raven said to him, extending a hand, his wide smile as charismatic
as
ever. His face still bore the marks of
his recent near-fatal
accident,
but the vigour of the man was restored.
`But I guess we'll
have
plenty of time now to correct that.' Bracing himself, Afra took
the
hand and returned the firm grip with one of his own. Feeling the
generous
surge of gratitude and respect before the clasp was broken,
Afra
could reply with complete honesty. `I
look forward to it.' Jeff
turned
around the room nodding at those he knew and smiling at those he
did
not.
`If you haven't guessed yet,' Afra said
to the Tower at large,
`this
is Jeff Raven who's here to replace the Rowan.
She's been upgraded to a whole planet,
her native Altair.' He did
not
have to tell them that Siglen was no more.
`Afra,' Jeff called politely, `a word
with you.' Afra approached
and
Jeff looked around the room critically.
`Let's talk in the Tower.
When they entered, Jeff looked around
it. `At least there are two
couches,'
he remarked cryptically. Then he looked
at the Capellan.
`If we're going to work together, there's
something we must clear
u' Afra
raised a hand, forestalling him, having already prepared for
the
worst. `I can leave. Reidinger'll get you a replacement easily.
There's a very good T-4 at Blundell,
Gollee Gren: you may even
have
met him. You two'd probably work quite
well together-' Hold on!
Jeff Raven broke through his apologetic
dissembling. He regarded
Afra
searchingly for several moments. Then
he grabbed him, hugged him
tightly,
thumping him on the back with sturdy fists.
Thank you! Afra
was
confused. Thank you for her sanity, for
her happiness, for
everything! I couldn't exactly convey all of that
downstairs when we
shook
hands --- not with everyone wide open for input -`Wh-what?' `I
think
she would have gone insane if not for you, Afra Lyon,' Jeff said
aloud. `You weathered her rantings and 9' ravings,
her tantrums, her
fears
and always you were there to give her the support she needed.' He
paused,
drew another breath, `While I was convalescing on Deneb, she
was
forever talking of family - even if mine is a bit overwhelming in
the
close quarters we had to share - but, whenever she thinks of
family,
your face comes to her mind.' Jeff grabbed Afra's forearm,
reinforcing
what he was saying. Then he shook his
head, giving one of
his
lopsided grins. `Look, Afra, you are
her family, but when we make
our
union formal, would you do me the honour of standing to my right as
my best
man?' Afra took an involuntary step backwards as the words sank
in. He slipped out of Raven's grasp. He swallowed, found words.
`I guess I've been over-reacting but I've
been afraid that you
might
resent my relationship with the Rowan.' He bowed deeply. `I see
that I
was unutterably at fault.' He straightened, nodding to Jeff
Raven's
tight smile.
`You must understand that . . . over the years here well, we've
become
attached . . . not really involved, but
emotionally attached in
a
special way. I know she regarded me as
the brother she never had.'
Hesitantly
he licked his lips. `To be perfectly
honest, Raven, had you
not
appeared, I was perfectly willing-' Jeff held up a hand. `I know,'
he said
softly, `and I thank you.' Seeing Afra's puzzled look, his
expression
turned rueful. `Your hesitation only
confirms what we both
know
now - she was never the right person for you.
I don't know how I
got so
lucky. I devoutly hope that one day you
will know the intensity
of the
bond we share.' His smile altered to one of sadness.
`Unfortunately, not many of my relations
survived and all my
remaining
sisters and older cousins are already committed so you can't
marry
into my family.' Jeff shifted his position and drew a breath.
`Sometimes I babble too much, or so my
mother tells me. I'll give
you a
chance to answer me: are you willing, as brother by bond, to
stand
with me when I exchange vows with the Rowan?' A slight grin
played
across Afra's face but he bowed again, deeply.
`The greatest
honour
that you - both could bestow on me.' `Then why the grin?' `Well,
you are
planning on uniting soon, aren't you?' Jells answer was
preempted
by Ackerman's call.
Afra!
We've got cargo to move or we'll be
backlogged for a week!
`That was really why I asked you up
here,' Jeff said. Afra was
confused
until Jeff added, `I've never run a station before. I want
you to
know that whatever you say, I'll do.
I consider myself your pupil.' With a
wink, he added, `I'm under
orders
from herself to trust you completely.
I believe her exact words were: "Do
what Afra says and don't mess
up!"
When Afra looked sceptical, Jeff gave him
a pleading look. `Very
well,
Jeff, as we're under her orders.' Afra made for the door `Where
are you
going?' `To the Control Room,' Afra explained.
`Only the Rowan
works
up here.
`I'll get lonely,' Jeff responded in mock
serious tones. He waved
a hand
at the second chair that had been installed for the duration of
Torshan
and Saggoner's Primacy. `Why not stay
here with me? There're
two
feeds and it'll be easier.' `My consoles at the Control Room are
programmed
for my particular duties,' Afra explained.
`I'll learn the running of a station
quicker the sooner I
understand
your duties as well as my own,' Jeff responded.
He waved Afra to come back to the centre
of the room.
`Do what you can now and we'll have the
technicians rig up more
consoles
here.' Afra was reluctant. `Wouldn't it
be more efficient to
have
the Prime and all the station crew in one room?' Afra's eyes
bugged
out, Raven was practically quoting him!
`The Rowan never
thought
so.' Afra temporized.
`Hmm,' Jeff mused, `probably safer for
the rest of you, given her
volatile
nature.' He cast a telling glance at Afra.
`And you would never think to argue with
her. But my dear love is
not
here now and she said to listen to you in all things. So tell me,
Afra of
Capella, what do you think of consolidating the station's
operations?'
A slow smile spread across Afra's face.
Ackerman,
initiate
the Epsilon Plan!
Are you serious? Ackerman 5 response was incredulous with
excitement.
Please, was Jeff Raven's response. If it is a plan to consolidate
operations,
I can think of nothing more dear to my heart.
Immediately! And Ackerman was gone, bustling off to set up a plan
he and
Afra had lusted over for many years.
Epsilon is the Greek symbol used to
calculate efficiency, Afra
said in
reply to Jeff's unspoken question. He
tapped a console. You
have
just ingratiated yourself for ever to Brian by making his dearest
wish
come true.
`The first cargo is a freighter, Prime,'
Afra said aloud.
`The data is on your number two console.'
Within a week an
ecstatic
Ackerman reported a 20 per cent increase in the station's
throughput. Afra noticed that the Callisto crew were
eager to aid Jeff
Raven
in any way at all. His easy manner,
willingness to cut
administrivia
to its least parts, and his relationship with the Rowan
all
served to cement their devotion to him.
Jeff took a break at the sixth day to
visit the Rowan at her
Altairian
Tower.
`Will you be arranging for the ceremony?'
Afra asked with studied
nonchalance
as Jeff prepared to leave.
`There's no rush,' Jeff replied
absently. Afra grew silent.
Ready!
Jeff called.
Then he was gone and the generators wound
down while the off shift
crew
raced to perform the little maintenance that was necessary.
Afra was rather pleased, two days later,
when Raven returned with
an
incredulous look on his face.
`You knew!' he accused Afra. `You knew and you didn't even tell
me!'
His eyes narrowed. `How did you know?'
`I've been her friend for
eight
years, Jeff,' Afra responded evenly, not showing a trace of the
smugness
he felt. `There's a slight variation in
her that I was able
to
perceive.' `Who else knows?' Afra shook his head. `No-one.' He
looked
apologetic. `I would have told you but,
after all, it isn't
precisely
the sort of information one lobs off the way one launches
cargo.
`But she didn't even know, until last
week, or so she told me.
And she told me as soon as she
suspected.' Jeff gave him a
scrutinizing
look, leaving unvoiced his amazement that Afra should know
such an
intimate fact.
Afra was by that time well enough attuned
to Jeff Raven that he
held up
his hands in protest. `An intimate
fact, yes, but I've had to
become
very much aware of the Rowan on both the mental and physical
levels
for the last eight years. I'm delighted
that the perception is
verified.'
He said that last with some stiffness of manner.
Jeff sighed and nodded. `Sorry.
I think I know my mate
intimately
but I also know, and accept, that there are many levels of
intimacy,
my good friend!' His grin dissolved Afra's coolness.
`Are you glad it's a boy?' Jeff stared at
him, astounded. `I
didn't
know -` and he shook his head in bemusement, `and I don't think
the
Rowan does either that our child is male.
I never realized that
you're
a precog, too.
Afra shrugged. `I'm not, but the child is a boy. Or did you want
a
daughter? I could be wrong.
Jeff gave Afra a slow grin. `I haven't yet learned to cope with
my
lovely Rowan. I'll hope you're
right. I'll need more time before I
have to
deal with a miniature Rowan. Though it
could be fun. How
about
you? Game for a repeat?' Afra grinned
back. `I don't see as I
have
the option. I'm in too deep to change.'
At that Jeff chuckled,
throwing
an arm around the tall Capellan's bony shoulders. `So what
happened
here while I was away, eh, Afra?' Afra!
Raven called at the
beginning
of his third week as Callisto Prime, there's a T4 here!
Afra popped up to the rearranged
Tower. He still had misgivings
over
the appearance of the revamped Tower.
Wires ran all over the place and were a
potential danger to the
unwary
but Ackerman cheerfully assured him that was to allow the Tower
to be
rearranged to the Rowan's old style if suddenly required.
`We'll have the new ducts laid in the
next downshift,' the
stationmaster
added.
`Ah,' Afra was unruffled, `Jeff Raven,
meet Gollee Gren, T-4.
Jeff nodded politely to Gollee who seemed
to have lost his usually
glib
tongue in the presence of a man who was becoming a living legend.
`Glad to meet you,' he said absently,
turning back to the
Capellan. He very pointedly raised an eyebrow at Afra.
`You're not going to be here for the rest
of your life, Jeff,'
Afra
began diplomatically. `At which point
you will probably want to
know
that you can work with another T-4.
Besides, Gollee needs the
training.'
Afra grinned maliciously when Gollee opened his mouth to
protest,
a response not lost on Jeff Raven.
`I see,' Jeff said noncommittally but it
was obvious to Afra how
little
he liked the notion.
Afra sighed. `The best way to prove you've learned something is
to
teach.' Jeff eyed him thoughtfully.
`The Rowan never mentioned this
aspect
of your personality.' `The Rowan never asked me to train her,
either,'
Afra replied with a saccharine smirk.
He wasn't sure which
reaction
pleased him more: Jeff's or Gollee's. He
stepped away from
the
second couch. `I'll be within call here
if either of you need me,'
he
added with an overly courteous bow to both as he waved a reluctant
Gren to
take the seat and tapped a display.
`First launch is
Earthward,
Reidinger to catch As he had hoped, Gren's mischievous
stance
matched Jeff Raven's `homeboy' nature perfectly. By the end of
the day
the two were working the station's cargo effortlessly.
During the next several months, life at
Callisto Station devolved
into
steady easy routine with Gren and other Talents arriving at
scheduled
times to work with the Denebian to broaden his ability to
handle
gestalt with different personalities.
Afra and Ackerman noted
that
Jeff worked best with Gren, a report which Reidinger received with
a
grunt.
I've been hoping to find a use for that
one! Reidinger exclaimed.
What, met someone you can't handle? Afra asked, amused.
I seem to have a problem with T4s and
-35, Reidinger replied
imperturbably. It'd worry me except there're so many of
them I can
fire
`em when I please.
Afra refused to rise to the bait.
The Rowan's return to Callisto Station
five months later as a
visit
turned into a permanent reassignment the instant Reidinger
learned
that she was pregnant. Reidinger singed
Afra's mental `ears'
when he
admitted that he had known of the pregnancy.
Well, f I can't
trust
you, I'll have to set up my own spy.
Afra was genuinely pleased to have the
Rowan back at Callisto.
While he had enjoyed working with Jeff Raven, he had to admit to
himself
that perversely he found greater comfort in his link with the
unpredictable
Rowan.
`Oh, by the way, Afra, the Rowan's been
pestering me to ask you
something,'
Jeff said abruptly one evening as the station closed down.
`Oh, what?' `If you'll stand as l.p. to
our son?' `ElI Pee?' `Yes,
loco
parentis. Admittedly it's a Denebian
custom but, considering the
hazards
on my planet,' and Jeff's grin was rueful, `it ensures that
someone
whom the parents of a child trust will oversee its upbringing.
The Rowan liked the idea as being much
more personal than being
made
Ward of the Planet. We'd both be glad
if you would be willing to
stand
in an l.p. capacity for our child.' Afra was deeply touched and
it was
several seconds before he could speak.
`Nothing is going to
happen
to you!' Jeff silenced him with a gesture.
`We certainly don't
plan on
it but-' `And you've a planet full of relatives ` afra hedged.
`They're there, of course, but it's the
Talent aspect of our child
that we
both want to sustain, Afra, and no-one on Deneb's got much
Talent
training. I know you are critical of
the way you were reared on
Capella,
but I can say with objectivity that you've a large advantage
in such
training over me. And, besides, the
Rowan and I agreed on you,
Afra.'
Jeff's blue eyes were frank. He quirked
his head, his
characteristic
smile beginning to tug at his mouth.
`What do I tell
her?'
Afra smiled a soft sad smile. `Tell her
that I would be a bad
choice:
if something happened to either of you I would surely be dead
beforehand.'
Jeff laughed. `Don't be morbid. You're not precogging
again,
are you?' When Afra vigorously denied that, he was audibly
relieved. `Besides, I've firsthand experience of how
good an
instructor
you are, you know.' Afra bowed deeply, once more falling
back on
ingrained courtesies to respond. `Jeff
Raven, please tell your
lovely
wife that I am deeply honoured and will be glad to serve in loco
parentis
to any children of yours and to the best of my ability.' Jeff
gave
him a curt satisfied nod and a hearty clout on the shoulder. The
Denebian
never learned the non-tactile etiquette of Talents but
somehow,
such familiarity from Jeff never offended.
`Good! It's
settled,
then. Now, tell me, what do you know of
babies?' It turned
out
that Afra knew quite a lot about babies, having dealt with his
sister's
children on several occasions and having even minded the
Ackerman
kids when Brian and his wife needed a night off.
At the end of their chat, Jeff sighed
deeply. `You will let me
know if
the Rowan's keeping something from me, won't you?' `Are you
going
somewhere?' Afra asked, startled.
`Yes, hadn't you heard?' Jeff's attitude
was ingenuous surprise.
`Apparently Reidinger's decided to get
his own back by making me a
sort of
roving Prime.' He drew up to his full height and made a mock
bow.
Afra laughed. `Remember when the Rowan told you Reidinger'd take
it out
of your hide?' Jeff shrugged, his expression comical. `For a
worthy
cause.' Then he winked, his expression turning slightly
malicious. `He might as well make use of my ability to
travel. I'm
the only
Prime who can zip about as it pleases me.' `Why don't you
challenge
Reidinger to travel now we all know that Siglen imposed the
neurosis?'
Jeff gave Afra a long hard look, his eyes sparkling with
mischief. `I really should, shouldn't I? The old sly geezer.
He'd probably growl something about
teaching old dogs new tricks.'
`I
think,' Afra said in a slow thoughtful tone, `that I'm just as glad
Reidinger
can't. His mental bark is bad enough!
I'd hate to know he could `port wherever
he wished and chew me out
face to
face.' Jeff cocked one eyebrow and grinned with deliberate
malice. `Oh, well, you could always bull your way
through.
Afra blinked, gawped and then burst out
laughing at Jeff's sly
reminder.
`And he still has both bull and cow on
his desk,' Jeff added. `I
think
if you had to, you'd give as good as you got.
Another reason why
we want
you as l.p.
for our son. Say, you can't, by any chance, hear the baby, can
you?'
`No.' Afra's response was definite and a little bit sad.
The birth of Jeran Raven was a cause for
joyous celebration
throughout
Callisto Station and beyond. Everyone
under the domes heard
the
healthy mental cry of the baby as it was born and the communal
welcome
added to the gentle ambience from the three adults present at
the
delivery.
Attentive Primes also heard it; Afra had
to carefully supervise
the
removal of kilos and kilos of rare flowers, sent by an ecstatic
Peter
Reidinger, from the Gwyn-Raven quarters.
The arrival of floral
offerings
almost undid the careful schedule Afra and Brian had worked
out to
keep Callisto operating with a reduced workload while their
Prime
had limited capability.
afra was working late, catching up on the
rescheduling when the
door
buzzer to his quarters rang. `Come!' He
rose and strode to greet
his
guest at the door. It was Jeff's
mother, Isthia Raven. Afra had
seen
her about the station during the last days of the Rowan's
confinement
but had purposely not intruded upon her.
`You have not come to see the child, Afra
Lyon,' Isthia began
immediately.
`I've been busy and had no wish to
disturb him or his parents . .
.` Afra hesitated slightly, not certain
how to address this
blue-eyed
lady with a cap of crisp black curls.
`You may certainly call me Isthia.' Afra
inclined his head.
`Rowan told me about you, how closely you
work together.' She
looked
at him keenly. `Are you afraid of
newborns, then?' Afra
laughed.
`Hardly.
When would it be convenient for me to come? Rowan seems
to need
a lot of rest these days.' `She does, but you are always
welcome.
Come this afternoon and get it over
with.' `I scarcely consider it
an
obligation to be "got over Afra said.
Isthia gave him another of her searching
looks. `No, I don't
think
you would. But you are down as loco
parentis and you haven't so
much as
cast an eyeball over my grandson. Yet
you and the Rowan have
been
very close.' `Not,' and Afra felt it advisable to reassure her on
that
score, as close as she and Jeff, if that is what you're worried
about.'
Isthia regarded him with wide-eyed surprise.
`I'm not the
least
worried about it now that we've met for it is quite plain to me
that
you are an honourable person.
`00 Afra gave a slightly impudent bow
which she dismissed with an
irritated
wave. `Are all Capellans so inhibited?'
`All Capellans are
raised
to be courteous under any conditions.
Isthia gave a bark of laughter. `Good shot.
We Denebians tend to
speak
our minds.' `I'd noticed. It makes a
nice change.' `Well, I can
see why
the Rowan and Jeff rely so much on you.
I just wanted to be
certain
myself that you'd be suitable as a default parent.' `Is that
what all
this is about?' `Of course,' Isthia replied stoutly. `I like
a man
who doesn't balk at taking difficult paths or walking tightropes.
But you could be easier on yourself now
and then.' Mildly
surprised
at the line this conversation was taking, Afra looked at her
quizzically.
`Don't try that on me, young man,' Isthia
commanded, eyes
twinkling
to remove the sting. `You must come to
Deneb some time. Let
your
mind rest from your very strenuous labours.' `It would be my
pleasure. Yours must be a fascinating world to develop
such amazing
Talents.'
`Develop Talent? Oh, I suppose so.
Afra was nonplussed by her casual
dismissal. He sensed that she
had
considerable Talent herself though Jeff had never mentioned that
she'd been
tested. If her attitude was indicative
of the general
population,
it was no wonder Jeff and Rowan worried about Jeran's
potential
Talent.
`Come to think on it,' and Isthia's
expression altered suddenly to
that
curious blankness that Afra had been taught heralded a
precognitive
episode, `you will come to Deneb . . .`
She hesitated as
her
eyes, suddenly clouded, rested unseeing on his face. A chill
raised
gooseflesh on his arms. ` -. . to rest
your mind and renew
life.'
Abruptly she shook her head, eyes clearly blue again. `Did I go
off
just then?' `I didn't notice anything,' Afra said smoothly, as much
because
of her earlier dismissal of Talent, as because her clairvoyancy
genuinely
had startled him. He felt uncomfortable
with such cryptic
talk. `May I offer you refreshment ?` `That would
be very pleasant.
You don't happen to have tea, do you?'
she asked wistfully.
`China or Indian?' `Indian,' she said, a
hopeful smile on her
face.
`Earl Grey or Darjeeling?' `Darjeeling,'
she replied with happy
relief. `Marvellous institution, tea. A man who serves tea is certain
to be
an asset to the Raven clan.' `I beg pardon?' `Well, you did agree
to
stand in loco parentis for Jeran, so you are, in effect, bound to
the
Raven clan.' Afra was puzzled but caused the kettle to boil before
he
looked back at Jeff Raven's indomitable mother. `If this is some
form of
ritual bonding . . .` Some pioneer
planets had revived rather
barbaric
customs.
`No, no ritual. Just acknowledgement of fact,' Isthia responded.
The kettle whistled.
Tea-making, on the other hand, did
require certain minor rituals
which
Afra dutifully observed, patently to Isthia Raven's delight. And
for the
rest of the visit they exchanged pleasantries.
Afra found himself waxing effusive in the
presence of this
remarkable
woman and was genuinely unhappy when she took her leave.
`Oh, we'll talk again, Afra, she warned
him. Be certain of it!
`And when are you coming to visit your
new responsibility? Not to
mention
his mother. She's fretting that her
maternity is repulsive to
y)
Never! The response flew out of Afra
before he could control the
impulse.
Isthia merely smiled. `She'll be glad to hear that.
Jeff Raven insisted on helping Afra and
the Callisto Station
whenever
he was available while the Rowan was on maternity leave.
However, she became quite agitated when
he protested her return to
the
Tower a scant ten days after her labour.
Arrgh!
It was my body that strained, not my mind! she said in a
fine
fume over his protests. Men!
However, with Jeran not yet established
on a regular sleeping
cycle,
the Rowan was apt to tire easily or be forgetful. It was a
`memorable'
period, as Isthia later commented. Afra
and Isthia spent
much
time together, volunteering for baby detail, merely chatting or
playing
bridge with the Ackermans, a game which both Afra and Isthia
had
missed sorely in the past.
Jeff was surprised when Reidinger
summoned him to Earth for a
conference.
`Why can't he just `path me?' Raven
complained to Afra when the
formal
message was received.
`I suspect he has his reasons,' Afra
responded soothingly,
expression
carefully neutral. `Do be sure to say
hello to Gollee when
you're
down there.' `And Luciano! Ye
gods! What food!' Jeff licked
his
lips in anticipation. `Be certain, I
will!' Hours later he
returned. You knew!
Jeff swore at him.
Reidinger is one hundred and ten, you've
been trained on Tower
procedures,
you work like a maniac, you know every Prime there is, I
thought
it rather obvious. It was just a
question of timing, was
Afra's
phlegmatic reply.
You didn't tell her, did you? Jeff asked with some alarm.
Of course not! There are certain surprises that must be
personally
delivered, Afra replied in a pointed reminder to the
knowledge
of the Rowan's pregnancy.
`Good!
I can't wait to see her face!' And Jeff jumped to the
Rowan's
quarters to spread the glad word.
Brian Ackerman had watched the whole
exchange from a considerate
distance
but his curiosity overwhelmed him when Raven departed.
`What was that all about?' he asked. Afra shrugged
noncommittally. `Good news?' Earth Prime! The mental seepage from the
Rowan's
mental exultation vibrated through every mind on the station.
`You could say that,' Afra said with a
slight smirk. Then he
added
thoughtfully, `You know, the Rowan usually shields and we've not
had
much "noise" from young Master Jeran but he sleeps most of the
time. But hadn't we better get the bright boys
working on a way to
shield
infantile babble emanating from the Rowan's place?' Ackerman
took on
an abstracted look which turned puzzled.
`He's not loud enough
to
worry about. Oh, yes, she's not likely
to stop with just one, is
she? I remember her telling me she wanted a large
family. Of course,
she may
change her mind. My wife did but, yeah,
maybe we ought to look
into
the problem before it becomes one.' Ackerman jotted a quick note
down on
his ever-present pad.
Six months and two days later, late one
night as Afra was just
about
to give up on an intricate origami dinosaur he had been trying to
create
for young Jeran, his buzzer beeped.
`Come!' he called, half-irritated,
half-relieved at the
distraction.
It was Brian Ackerman. Afra greeted him with a ready smile.
`You're here to tell me they've got the
mental shielding
prepared?'
Afra asked suavely as he passed a cup of soothing tea to the
greying
Ackerman.
Ackerman looked startled. `No, I was saving that for tomorrow,'
he
allowed with a groan. `Jeff Raven asked
me to drop by.' `Whatever
for?'
`Well, he should be-' The door chime interrupted him.
Jeff Raven apologized profusely to the
two men for such a late
night
meeting. `It's the only time I can be
sure she isn't listening
in.
`Why?' Afra asked carefully.
Jeff raised an eyebrow. `Well, I've something to ask you and it's
difficult
to leave her what with the way she's been acting lately.
She's asleep right now with Jeran on her
lap.' `So?' Afra refused
to be
drawn. `The way she's been acting and
her sleepiness are
perfectly
normal, you know.' Jeff gave Afra a second keen glance. `I
wasn't
talking about . -- Oh, no! It's much too soon.
`That isn't why you're here?' Afra asked,
annoyed with himself for
assuming
the reason for Jeff's visit.
`Not exactly but I'll take the bad with
good. Well, is she or
isn't
she? And cut that guff about there
being some things that are
announced
privately!' `Well --- But Afra felt Jeff reach for the
truth.
`One day I'm going to throttle my
mother.' `Isthia?' Brian asked,
apprehensively
for he respected the woman and knew that Jeff did.
`My mother's been filling my wife with
some nonsense about sibling
bonding. It was why Mother insisted on freshening
every year.' Jeff
did not
approve of either theory or practice.
`Is it a boy or girl,
Afra?'
`A girl.' `So she figured out how to achieve that, too?'
Conflicting
emotions of exasperation and respect crossed Jeff's mobile
face. Then his expression altered to worry. `What I came to discuss
with
you is a very private `path I had from my mother. She wants me to
come to
Deneb to check out an unusual happening.
She thought she felt
something,
a presence.
`Wasn't the Rowan fretting about some
malign presence just before
she
gave birth to Jeran?' Afra enquired.
Jeff nodded. `She, my mother and Elizara.
Mother thinks she's
experienced
the same phenomenon again.' Jeff shook his head. `I got no
glimmer.'
`How can we help?' Brian asked.
`I don't know,' Jeff replied
worriedly. `But I felt I'd better
put you
on the alert. My mother's not one to
cry "wolf" even if she
hasn't
fine-tuned her Talent yet. Only women
on Deneb have caught the
trace
of whatever it is.
Considering the Rowan's sensitivity, she
might just get another
jolt
from it. That's why Isthia warned
me. To let me know. We all
know
that that woman of mine can go off half-cocked from time to time
and
pregnant women are notorious for it.' The other two men exchanged
looks
so pained that Jeff Raven laughed.
`Just restrain her from doing
something
impetuous right now - especially now - but I've got to get
back to
work.' `You'll be on Earth, won't you?' Ackerman wondered.
`Maybe.
It's hard to tell. I've been
doing a lot of hopping
about in
my role as their apparent.' He looked gratefully at the
Capellan. `It was most shrewd of you to have me work
with Gollee Gren
before
this was announced, we make a great team.' Ackerman nodded
knowledgeably. `He doesn't talk much but he hears a lot,
this Capellan
Lyon of
ours.' Jeff slapped his knees and rose from the couch. `So, do
I have
your word?' io6
`Certainly,' Ackerman said affably,
rising also.
Afra was more hesitant. `There are some secrets best left with
their
owners.
Jeff inclined his head in respect of the
sentiment. `I'll trust
your
judgement, Afra.' Jeff's presentiment was accurate. Barely a week
had
passed before the Rowan presented herself to her second-in command
and the
stationmaster, requiring teleportage to Deneb.
Ackerman took the lead. `Now, look, Rowan, Mauli will do anything
you ask
but I'm damned if Afra and I will take the responsibility for
you
two, and Jeran, baring off to Deneb without at least checking with
Jeff.'
Despite the Rowan's threats, the two were adamant that she check
with
her husband first. In a huff the Rowan
did so. Brian Ackerman
wondered
if he'd been set up for a quick game of `good cop, bad cop'
when
Raven, dutifully informed, acceded to her request. He caught a
hint of
amusement beneath the Capellan's cool exterior.
`Why'd she take Mauli and not Mick as
well?' Brian grumbled as the
generators
wound down from the kick they had imparted to push the Rowan
and
crew out to Deneb.
`Mauli's female, Afra said, adding when
Brian almost snarled at
him,
`remember that Jeff said the trace Isthia heard was only audible
to
women. And it may well be that Mauli's
unique echo ability will
give
the Rowan greater range in hearing whatever it is that's
traceable.'
`A sex-linked calling?' Ackerman was dubious.
`It is possible,' Afra replied, adding
subliminal images of
maternal
instincts.
`Like Jeff said, Isthia doesn't call
"wolf".' Brian wasn't too
happy.
Afra shook his head. `No.
I'd be happier if it was a wolf.' He
turned
away, heading off toward his quarters.
`Where are you going?' Ackerman wanted to
know.
`To rest,' Afra called over his
shoulder. `I rather think we'll
need
it.' He was right. The next day the
Rowan was back but Jeff Raven
was off
cajoling and collecting Fleet scouts to assess the threat that
the
Rowan, Mauli and the other sensitive women on the planet had
`heard'
approaching Deneb. Jeff, risking his
life in a little scout
vessel,
made a visual contact with the alien spaceship. That was
sufficient
for the Rowan to put Callisto Station on Yellow Alert. With
his
urging and the support of Mick and Brian Ackerman, Afra
unconditionally
informed the Rowan that he would be watching and
listening
if she would take a much needed rest.
Several hours later, Jeff Raven's
explosive mental WOW!
went through the station like a bolt of
lightning. Afra and
Ackerman
discreetly listened in on the ensuing conversation with the
Rowan
who had been roused by the cry. Jeff
could now report that what
the
Rowan had named `Leviathan' - the huge and very alien ship carved
out of
an immense asteroid - was on direct course to Deneb and that the
intent
of its `Many' mind was nothing less than the conquest of Deneb
VIII
and perhaps as much as the destruction of the human species
altogether.
Afra interjected a comment once in the
telepathic conversation,
not
only to make a well-intentioned point but also to assure himself
that he
could `reach' Jeff at that distance.
The Rowan quite rightly insisted on going
out to the threatened
planet
where she could focus and merge all local Talents should such a
measure
be needed. Afra left unspoken his
concerns for Jeran; such a
psychic
storm would have untold ill-effects on the young mind. The
Rowan
apparently had no fear for herself at all.
Afra need not have
worried:
Reidinger absolutely prohibited it, reminding the Rowan of the
dangers,
pointing out that her quarters were the only ones currently
shielded
against psionic backlash (Brian had managed that without even
telling
Afra). So Afra exercised his right to
be in loco parentis for
Jeran
much sooner than he ever expected to.
Young though Jeran was, his mind
responded to Afra's and he was
quite
content to sit in the Capellan's lap watching origami birds and
fish
and animals appear.
When Jeran advanced from clapping and
laughing with delight to
reaching
out with unskilful grasp to gain possession of the fragile
creations,
Afra patiently taught him how to use just his forefinger and
thumb
to hold the origami. And when Jeran
fell asleep in his arms,
Afra
found that trustfulness particularly appealing. He regretted
having
to transfer the soft warm body to its crib.
The stress which the rest of the Tower
personnel had so skilfully
controlled
with the Rowan present rose significantly as they allowed
their
concern over the severity of the onslaught to leak into the open.
A tray containing cups of steaming liquid
appeared in the Control
Room. Afra sniffed enquiringly and smelled only
the best of coffees
and
teas, superior in quality and freshness to any available on the
station.
Compliments of Luciano! Gollee Gren said, a chuckle of delight at
his
surprise in his `pathing. As long as I
can and you need, there'll
be
non-stop refreshments at Callisto Station!
The broad band statement was answered
from everyone on the station
with a
welling of profound gratitude.
The refreshments were devoured and Gren
had to make replenishments
twelve
times during the course of the vigil as this time Callisto,
Earth,
Betelgeuse, Altair, Procyon and Capella all stood ready to
support
beleaguered Deneb.
Reidinger's orders came up electronically
at light speed rather
than
instantaneously via telepathy. Afra
discerned why as soon as he
read
them. He approved of Reidinger's plan
but it was dangerous to
split
the Talented forces in the path of the enemy.
It was a gamble.
Afra worked diligently to ensure that the
staff of Callisto
Station
was properly briefed and rested. Even
so, the tension built
acutely
as the events around Deneb were relayed throughout the Nine
Star
League.
`Hey, that thing has slowed.' Jeff's voice, relayed
telepathically,
was linked over the station's commsystem.
It's going
to go
into orbit around Deneb !` `Why?' That was the voice of Isthia
Raven,
being echoed again by the comm telepath.
`I will not believe
its
intentions are pacific!' Afra heartily agreed.
The Leviathan had
passed
through ten Welcome & Identify beacons, breached the mine field
laid
out beyond Deneb's heliopause and sent out destroyers to engage
the
Fleet.
`No, certainly not in that orbit, was
Jeff Raven's droll response.
`Just far enough away for its missiles to
be effective and too far
for any
retaliation from the ground - if we had any missiles of any
kind.
Ruddy bitches are going to pound the hell
out of us again!' No,
they're
not! Everyone in the Control Room
started when Reidinger's
emphatic
tones burst forth. Angharad Gwin-Raven,
the A focus is yours.
Gather it! Jeff Raven, collect the B focus.
Prepare!
Afra!
The mental `voice' of Jeff Raven contacted him with a firm
grip as
he contacted the male minds that were his strike force. The
Rowan
would be gathering every female Talent in her focus.
Here, Afra responded calmly, letting `go'
of his mind at Jeff's
touch.
Good!
Raven returned with a sense of relief.
I cannot get ``I
Gren to
respond at this distance. Jeff's voice
held a note of tension
in it.
Don't worry, Afra hastily assured him and
simultaneously sent out
mental
alerts to Gren and Ackerman who were standing by. We've built a
pyramid,
with you at the apex.
Slowly at first, then with increasing
speed, Afra felt the lesser
Talents
of the solar system aligning themselves behind himself, Gollee
and
Ackerman. He was aware of a mental
engorgement, passing through
him to
Jeff, as if he himself had swelled to the size of a small moon.
Callisto and Earth are with you, Afra
sent, passing forward a
mental
baton which was the combined will of all the male Talents that
Earth, Callisto
and all the planets of the solar system could muster.
Betelgeuse joins the Prime.
Procyon is on line.
Capellan men send greetings and are ready
for the merge.
Altair here.
And far out at Deneb, Jeff Raven found
himself the centre of a
maelstrom
of power. The timing was perfect, for
as the Rowan-focus had
finished
pulverizing the minds of the `Many', it was time for the
Raven-focus
to shove Leviathan to its doom.
NOW!
Jeff Raven called and every kinetic male Talent was united
in full
gestalt with all available generators in the Nine Star League
to
divert Leviathan to a new trajectory straight to the huge star that
was hot
Deneb.
That's what we should have done with the
first attackers, the
Raven-merge
said.
We did warn them! The Rowan-merge replied.
And then, job completed, energies spent,
the two foci of massed
minds
fell apart to their constituent pieces.
Collectively the personnel at Callisto
Station gave an exhausted
groan,
many falling over at their posts, sapped of all energy. The
generators,
suddenly freed of their load, whirled up to over speed and
circuit
breakers tripped them out.
Jeff Afra managed to find enough energy
to call. He was not sure
he heard
a reply, like a man shouting across a windy field. Reidinger,
the
generators have all dropped out. We're
all shagged here, but
nothing
that a day's rest won't cure.
I'll tell him, Gollee Gren sent back with
overtones of a yawn.
`Keerist! I don't want to do that again!' Brian Ackerman swore.
Afra toggled the all-call on the station
commsystem.
`Get to bed, people, rest. We're shutting down for the next
twenty-four
hours. Maintenance crew, work it out so
that the
generators
are ready to go on-line by then.' Brian looked over at him
and
grinned. `Afra Lyon!
I think that's the first time you've ever
made a command
decision!'
Afra was too tired to respond.
The Defence of the Denebian Penetration,
as that act of alien
aggression
came to be called in the popular press, was the last act of
FT&T
under the auspices of Peter Reidinger.
The stress had been almost too much for
him and Jeff Raven's
stellar
performance had opened any door that had previously remained
closed
to the Denebian's good nature and steady charm.
`Not,' Reidinger growled, `that I won't
keep an eye on you!' That
problem,
however, was not the least one to be considered with the
successful
defence. The one that concerned Afra
the most was one that
caused
him considerable anxiety because he didn't know if he was
misinterpreting
some very odd remarks Jeran was making.
And it was
some
weeks before he finally figured out where the toddler's
observations
came from and arranged to meet with Raven to discuss it.
`You're tense and your shields are
wobbly,' Jeff said as soon as
he met
Afra in his office - once Reidinger's lair on Earth. `What is
wrong?'
`It's your daughter.' Jeff's eyes widened.
Afra went on
quickly,
`With all the energies flowing through the Rowan during the
Defence,
I think your daughter has been affected.' `How bad?' Jeff
asked,
face gone pale.
`Oh, not bad!' Afra replied, sounding
very positive. `It's just
just
that I've heard Jeran talking to her.
`Already?' Jeff was astonished. He sent a quick tight band to his
mother.
Yes, was Isthia's considered opinion, I'd
say Afra is right.
I wasn't too sure of it when Angharad was
still on Deneb but if
Afra's
noticed the phenomenon, I accept his opinion.
How is it
manifested?
On rather an infantile level, Afra said
wryly, but there is a
mental
contact between the two children. Jeran
doesn't quite
understand
what's fretting her but he knows she's not happy `in there'.
He doesn't know how to answer. How could he?
Afra added.
Jeff was thoughtful. The baby's reacting to the stress the Rowan
felt? So we have to tell him what to tell her,
carefully censored for
a
foetal mind? Afra nodded.
I can see why you didn't want to upset
Angharad. She exhausted
most of
her reserves in the Merge. I wouldn't
want her stressed right
now.
Jeff's grin was rueful. `Yes, it could be disconcerting to have
your
toddler suddenly tell you that your daughter's unhappy where she
is.
`I have a suggestion,' Afra went on,
`which I've already discussed
with
Elizara as the Rowan's obstetrical adviser.
Jeran's merely repeating the baby's
anxiety. Let's have him "4
make a physical contact. At a moment when the Rowan is distracted
and
won't either inadvertently curb the link or physically prevent it.'
It
should work, Isthia remarked when he had finished.
Though I've never heard of a sibling
talking to a foetus. Could
we
please have Elizara in on this conference?
When the practitioner joined them, she
suggested that while
foetuses
were not normally aware at this stage of gestation, she'd rule
nothing
out in the case of Angharad Gwyn-Raven.
There was a tremendous amount of raw
power coursing through the
Rowan's
mind, strong as that is, Elizara said thoughtfully. After all,
I was
part of it. I didn't think of such a
side-effect but there
certainly
could be a leakage into the physical.
An unborn child would
assuredly
be vulnerable in this trimester and could become charged.
Isthia's tone reflected her concern. I feel that Afra's
suggestion
should be implemented as soon as possible and, preferably,
without
Angharad's knowledge.
Indeed, especially without her awareness, Elizara agreed.
`It might not be a bad time for an
official acknowledgement of
your
union,' Afra suggested subtly.
`Official?' Jeff made a face.
Yes, Jeff Raven! Marry the girl! Isthia shot back across the
stars.
It hardly seems necessary to go through
an official
acknowledgement
at this late date, Mother!
To you but not to her. The force of Isthia's reply rocked Jeff
back in
his seat. He turned to Afra, a slow
grin forming. `Still
willing
to be best man?' Jeff wanted Deneb, Reidinger wanted Earth and
the
Rowan got Callisto as the site of the wedding.
Jeff had to give in
to the
political overtones of this, the first union of two Primes.
`Much though I hate it, it's a great
chance to cement certain
alliances
firmly with the Gwyn-Raven dynasty' Reidinger had fought
bitterly
to have the brief ceremony held on Earth.
And, indeed, the
Rowan
was sorely tempted. But that would have
allowed FT&T too free a
hand
with invitations, whereas limiting guests to space available in
the
Tower Compound restricted the numbers to a manageable quantity.
She also didn't want just anyone `porting
in on them on what ought
to be a
private and personal occasion. Fortunately,
Rowan had more
cooperation
than she expected. It took the best
efforts of Jeff,
Isthia,
Afra, and Elizara to soothe Reidinger's vociferous protests.
Elizara might have had a private word
with her great-grandfather
because,
suddenly, he subsided in his efforts to get the Rowan to
Earth. Afra told the Rowan that it was only because
he had promised
Reidinger
that every angle of the ceremony would be taped `I know it
doesn't
matter on Earth,' Isthia had said as a final argument, `but
some
purists might fault a bride who is not only pregnant but has a
child
old enough to be ring-bearer.
Afra instantly assumed the task of
instructing the `ringbearer'
With a
gentle but firm pressure, he also told Jeran that he could
reassure
his sister and how to send such a mental message.
`You tell her that she's quite safe now,
and that you'll protect
her,
too.' With brows knitted in concentration, Jeran repeated that
message,
taking some comfort in it himself Like I take care of the
origami? he asked.
Afra had hunkered down to his level so child and
man
were nearly on the same level.
`As gently as you take care of the
origami,' Afra said, and
reinforced
that message mentally. Jeran's brow
cleared and he beamed
at
Afra, his mind as tranquil as it was determined to perform his two
tasks
perfectly.
The ceremony was simple but
poignant. Because the `old man'
Reidinger
- could not be present to give her away, Gollee Gren, as his
representative,
lent his physical presence while Reidinger did the
talking.
`As usual,' Gollee had said with a
malicious smile.
Reidinger might not have been there in
person but his inescapable
mental
presence was felt by all who were.
Mauli, Elizara, Rakella, Besseva, Torshan
and Captain Lodjyn of
the
scout that had carried Jeff on his close reconnoitre of the
Leviathan,
all were happy to be the Rowan `5
attendant-witnesses. Afra felt quite nervous in his place of
honour
as groom's man and he had a right to be.
He had assiduously
studied
and performed all the traditional duties of best man, relieving
the
bride and groom of most worries in preparing for the event.
Ackerman headed the groom's men who
included Bill Powers, Chief
Medic Asaph
and Admiral Tomiakin.
Jeff paused dramatically when it came
time to say `I do', a
twinkle
in his eyes until he had the Rowan glaring fiercely at him in
alarm.
Reidinger broke the tableau, swearing
sotto voce `It's a bit late
now for
cold feet! If you don't marry her, I
will!' Jeff paused long
enough
to give the old Earth Prime a hefty mental buffet, then turned
back to
the Rowan. The adjudicator coughed
delicately, repeating `Do
you
wish to form a permanent union with this woman?' `I most certainly
do!'
Jeff said in a clear firm voice that carried throughout the dome.
`And you, Angharad Gwyn, do you wish to
form a permanent union
with
this man?' The Rowan cocked a head at Jeff but could not bring
herself
to drag the scene out. `With all my
heart, I do.' Just at that
moment,
as Jeff and Angharad bent to seal the ceremony with a kiss,
Jeran
slipped from Isthia's loose hand and rushed to cling to his
mother,
hand upraised.
Good boy! Isthia sent to the youngster in a tight shield.
Talk to her, say hello to your sister!
Elizara gave an approving wink, then
cocked her head as if
listening. Eyes widening in astonishment, she
nodded. She caught
Afra's
rapt expression, traced it to the eldest Rowan child and raised
her
eyebrow provocatively at him. Afra
acknowledged it with the merest
flick
of an eyebrow.
Jeff and Angharad, locked in a kiss made
more special by the
moment,
knew nothing of the tight psychic interchange.
The navy had a special surprise as they
made their way to the
reception,
a double line of uniformed men forming a bridge of steel
with
their archaic, polished swords.
Elizara caught up with Afra at the
reception. `It worked, you
know.'
`Yes, I thought I felt her accept Jeran.
`Nevertheless an in utero link is most
remarkable. It's been just
a
concept.
`Till now.' Afra grinned. `My sister tried some sort of pre-natal
reassurance
but she would never admit to me just how successful she
was. Do you think it will comfort the child now?'
`I felt her relax,'
Elizara
said, smiling tenderly, then added more briskly, `Let's hope
the
Rowan never realizes how dangerous that merge might have been for
her
daughter. She'd never forgive herself. At least,' and Elizara's
smile
turned mischievous. `At least today she
had her mind on other
matters
and may never realize what was achieved.' She gave a girlish
giggle
which surprised Afra who had always found the practitioner the
model
of decorum. Then a thought distracted
her. `Now all we have to
worry
about is the effect on the two children!' `They'll surely be
closer
than usual,' Afra replied.
`Which will please the Rowan, I know, but
what about future
siblings? We can't be sure we can mind-bond every
child the Rowan
has.'
`Why would we need to? The
circumstances are unlikely to be
repeated,'
Afra said blithely and gave a diffident shrug.
One final surprise crowned the event, at
least from the Rowan's
viewpoint. The liner which had brought so many notables
to Callisto
for the
ceremony had been the same one which had transported her from
Altair
to Jupiter's moon. It wasn't until Jeff
had carried his
officially
acknowledged mate back to their quarters, that the
significance
became apparent.
`WHAT is that?' Jeff demanded, pointing
to a large spotted furry
lump in
the middle of their bed.
The lump stirred, extended limbs, yawned
widely, showing long
white
fangs, and then deigned to regard the intruders with vivid eyes.
`Rascal?
Rascal!' the Rowan cried, her voice incredulous, her
expression
joyful.
`It's some rascal all right,' Jeff
replied tartly, `and it'll get
out of
my bed immediately. I have other plans
`You don't understand,
Jeff,
it's Rascal, my barque cat!' And the Rowan plunked herself down,
reaching
out to tickle the chin of the beautiful beast.
`Oh, Rascal,
you've
come back to me.' `Mmmmrrrow!' said Rascal conversationally. He
then
graciously accepted her homage.
`Come, Jeff, pet him. Make him feel welcome.' `Frankly, I don't
wish to
make-' `Jeff Raven!' And the Rowan gave him a thoroughly
indignant
glance. `Barque cats are special. We're honoured -by his
presence.
`We are?' To keep peace on such an
important night, Jeff did as
the
Rowan asked. Then she did as he asked
and Rascal learned to find
somewhere
else, safer, to spend his nights.
Her face displaying a look of surprise
and disappointment, Damia's
baby
legs gave out from underneath her and she plopped on to her
dry-padded
bottom. For a moment she considered
crying but the
disdainful
look from Rascal assured her that he would provide no
sympathy. Now why had she been standing, anyway? she mused.
Year-old
Damia's
thoughts were not coherent for any great length of time and she
often
found herself wondering what she had been thinking of moments
before. Missing.
Something was missing. A faint
shadow of the frown
she had
seen her mother use so effectively - her mother! That was it!
No mother nearby!
Damia pushed off the ground and stood,
wobbling to survey her
realm. She tottered slightly as she turned her
head. Aside from the
towering
form of Rascal, Damia sighted no other living form. No ankles
or warm
kneecaps ùentered her view.
Determinedly she raised a foot to
step
forward only to lose her balance with an inelegant wobble and
return
unceremoniously to the floor.
Well!
She had the Rowan's indignant tone down pat but still
hadn't
managed to convince her mouth to form more than `gab'. On all
fours
she crawled towards the doorway.
ùRascal deftly interposed his elegantly
marked body, whiskered
nose
stopping just short of her own. Had she
been older she would have
recognized
the barque cat's expression as identical to the old British
Bobby's:
"ella, `ella, `ella! Where do we
think we're going then?'
However,
it was obvious that the cat stood between her and her
objective. She backpedalled and worked her way around
the cat only to
have it
deftly interpose itself between her and the door again. Damia
gave a
squeal of indignation, dropped her head, and butted against the
barque
cat. The cat out-massed her; she wound
up slipping on the
carpet. Damia continued pushing for several seconds
before she
realized
that she was making no progress.
She backed up and took stock of the
situation. She determined to
stand
up in the hopes of outrunning Rascal, especially as the barque
cat
stood conveniently close to provide a prop to raise herself up.
Pleased with her solution, she reached
forward for the cat but
Rascal
refused to cooperate, sagging out from under her hand.
It was too much, Damia adjusted her
squeal of rage upward into an
interminable
bawl. Her aggravation was such that she
failed to notice
the
approach of ankles.
`Damia?' A tenor voice murmured. `Shh!
Your mother's having a
nap!' A
mental image brushed her mind of her mother curled up on the
bed,
covered by a blanket much like the one that usually covered her.
Nap?
Mothers no nap! Damia does! she thought.
Astonishment rippled at her, followed
closely by sardonic humour.
Tired mothers nap.
Damia not nap now. Damia play now. The other mind registered
reluctance. Damia persisted. Please?
Not so loud, child, the other mind chided
gently. You'll wake
your
mother up. There was a gentle concern
in the other's voice.
Who you?
Afra.
A face descended into view. Damia squiggled backwards on her
bottom
and regarded it. Blond hair, blond
eyebrows, green skin, yellow
eyes
blinked at her, lips upturned in a smile.
Afra, she thought to
herself,
fixing the face and the name together in her mind, adding them
to the
others she knew: mother, father, jer, cer, tanya, grandmother.
Afra sensed curiosity from the baby. At her age, coherent thought
was
intermittent and, as she had yet to talk, not vocalized but he
`touched'
more in her mind than he expected.
`It's been a rough day at work for your
mother and me, Afra told
her
soothingly. `We ran extra shifts to get
the local defence net into
place. Your father's stuck down on Earth tonight.'
He laughed. `So I
came
over to see if I could lend a helping hand.' A light tan Coonie
with
dark brown face markings crossed in between them, casting a
critical
eye towards Damia. Haughtily it decided
that Damia was
neither
threat nor food and turned to Afra with a chatter of sound.
Afra reached down and gave it a friendly
pet. Damia absorbed this
and
reached a hand out. Unlike the rascally
Rascal, this large furry
thing
bent into her feeble efforts.
Encouraged, Damia continued as the
Coonie
swaggered back and forth, demandingly.
The first raccoon-type
beast
had been a gift from Kama to Afra, to give him something to care
for on
Callisto. Others had admired the
creature and, obtaining
permission
from the Rowan to import `a few' more, several families in
the
compound now enjoyed their endearing antics.
Rascal
condescendingly
tolerated their presence in his established haunts,
like
the Gwyn-Raven house.
`Ringle likes you,' Afra told her, then
sighed. `Now what should
I do
with you, minxlette? Your mother really
needs the rest.' He
turned
his head towards the doorway. He looked
back to her again with
a
smile. `How about you and I play
together for a bit?' Damia greeted
the
suggestion with a delighted burble and held up her chubby arms to
this
new playmate.
`She's much more articulate than either
Jeran or Cera at the same
age,'
Afra told the Rowan one night two months later as he passed an
evening
in the Gwyn-Raven quarters. The two
older children were
happily
doodling crayon scrawls on a large piece of paper spread across
the
floor. Damia was asleep, cradled in his
lap.
`Articulate? She won't talk for another six months!' `But I can
isolate
definite concepts in her mind and hear sounds that are almost
words,'
Afra replied equably. `You know, like
the shorthand speech
Jeran
and Cera have developed, not quite standard Basic but certainly
real
communication.
The Rowan placed a hand lightly on his
shoulder and chuckled.
`This child of mine has bewitched you,
Afra.' She shook her head.
`When she starts to talk, even baby talk,
I'll know.' The Rowan
frowned,
wrinkled her nose with a dismayed sniff.
`Sorry, I didn't
catch
her in time and you've just been anointed.' Afra looked down at
the
sleeping form, whose face took on the drowsy smile of a baby who
has
relieved an uncomfortable hydrostatic pressure.
`Won't be the first time.' The Rowan
laughed, shaking her head.
`You should be having children of your
own, Afra.' He cocked his
head at
her. `In my own time.' `But you'd make
such a marvellous
father.
You shouldn't be limited to l.ping. Just look at how Damia
succumbs
to your charm,' and the Rowan indicated her sleeping daughter.
`I can't get her to do that. You didn't "encourage" this nap,
did
you?'
she said in a half-accusatory voice.
`Heavens, no,' Afra replied, raising his
hands to protest his
innocence. Everyone in the Tower had been made aware of
how the Rowan
felt
about any subtle mental control of her children. They were to
grow up
as normally as possible, with no mental tamperings, until
Talent
manifested itself in the due course of their development. That
all
three children were potentially high Talents had been established
at
their births but the Rowan didn't want their abilities forced, as
hers
had been.
The Rowan gave him a suspicious glare.
`Honest, Rowan!' Candidly Afra thought
that a little adroit mental
control
might minimize the problems she'd been having with Damia but
she was
the parent. And Damia was definitely
cut from a different
mould
than her older brother and sister. `You
saw yourself how Rascal
and the
Coonies wore her out playing.' The Rowan had to admit that.
`Will they survive her, I wonder?' `They
survived Jeran and Cera.
Actually, I think they have more fun with
Damia. She's more
inventive.'
She had laughed as much at Damia chasing barque cat and
Coonies
as Afra had. Damia had been so intent
on catching one or the
other
and all had eluded her until she'd collapsed in fatigue. Now the
Rowan
snorted in amusement at the recollection.
`Shhhh!
You'll wake her.' He peered down at the beautiful face of
the
sleeping child.
Jeff Raven `ported himself into the
room. Afra looked up in
greeting
while the Rowan gave him a frosty glare.
The Rowan had definite views about Talent
protocol.
`Use the door!' the Rowan said, reproving
him.
`That would've roused the baby,' Jeff
replied, unrebuked. `She is
asleep,
isn't she?' When Afra nodded, he let out a sigh of relief.
`This one's worse than the other two,
All: she has the uncanniest
knack
for waking up only on those nights we're shagged.' Jeff looked at
his
lifemate. `Let's take a breather after
this one? OK, love?
We need sleep.' The Rowan shook her head
-vigorously. `I want a
big
family, Jeff. I know what it's like to
be lonely.' Jeff scowled in
pretend
horror. `What? Greedy?
Three bonuses aren't enough?' FT&T
substantially
rewarded Talents who produced offspring, in hopes of
increasing
the numbers of the Talented throughout the League.
Afra absorbed their repartee like a moth
circling a candle: eager
for the
warmth but fearful of the flame.
Within this circle, he enjoyed family
life - however vicariously
and
coveted these evenings, secure in the affection of both the Rowan
and
Jeff: the sort of family life that he had never had, never imagined
was
possible.
Jeran and Cera paused long enough in
their mildly competitive
application
of colour to blank paper to smile at their father. He
patted
them affectionately, for Jeff had no trouble being demonstrative
with
his children. Then he became the host,
offering to top up glasses
before
he poured one for himself and settled next to the Rowan on the
circular
couch.
`Has David calmed his Administration
down?' Rowan asked.
Jeff gave a shrug. `I sincerely hope so. Van Hygan and that
ordnance
fellow proved - to me, at least - that the factories are
working
overtime to turn out the components, that the Fleet is
scheduled
to move as soon as they have sufficient units, so it's only a
matter
of time before Betelgeuse, too, is securely ringed with early
warning
devices.' `Which leaves Altair, Capella, and all the systems in
between
still struggling?' `That's it,' Jeff said with a sigh, and he
sipped
his wine.
`Not that there's been a peep on any DEW
unit.' His knee started
jiggling,
an indication of inner anxiety. The
Rowan laid a hand on it
and
Jeff gave her a sheepish grin, instantly covering her hand with
his.
Afra looked away, suffering a pang of
jealousy for the bonding
between
his two best friends. Yet, if after
long lonely years and
vicissitudes,
these two had found each other, perhaps he shouldn't give
up
hope. Kama had certainly indicated
often enough her willingness to
be more
than bedmate and sometime confidante.
He liked her, but his
affection
for her was a dull gleam beside the radiance that suffused
Jeff
and the Rowan. He stared down at
Damia's small face, trying to
imagine
the features older, the mind mature.
Detachedly he wondered
what
her life would be like, who she would marry, which Tower she would
run
(for he was certain she had Prime potential), whether he would have
the joy
of bouncing her babies on his knee.
Would she be a handful
like
her mother or would she take after her father and he a biddable
child
like Cera and Jeran? Afra was willing
to bet the former - with
suitable
individualized embellishments - but he was now deftly
accustomed
to handling the Rowan's outbursts with a carefully
controlled
silence. But here now was this wondrous
baby, just
beginning
her life and she was sleeping on his lap!
Afra marvelled
that
any soul could be so trusting of him.
As he had told both Jeran
and
Cera, when they had been babies sleeping on his lap, I love you,
little
darling!
`Afra!' The Rowan's voice broke his
reverie. For a moment he
feared
that she had `heard' him but he gathered by her tone that,
instead,
she had been trying to gain his attention.
She was standing,
hands
reaching down towards baby Damia. `I'll
take her. It's time she
was
properly put to bed.' Afra was reluctant to yield her. `If you
pick
her up, she'll wake,' he said. `Then
goodness knows how long
it'll
be before you get her to sleep again with her batteries partly
charged.'
The Rowan wearily conceded his point.
`Just this once, `port her to bed.' The
Rowan's expression altered
and
anger clouded her eyes.
`Mra, you know . --` `I think Afra's right. Or have you
forgotten
how long it took you last night -`She had a touch of colic,'
the
Rowan said by way of excuse.
`She doesn't tonight, and she's asleep,'
Afra said. `We've a
heavy
schedule tomorrow. She's so soundly
asleep she won't even know
she's
been shifted.' The Rowan hesitated, torn between stated ethic and
opportunity
`Just this once?' And Jeff added his encouragement: the
warm
look in his eyes and the slightly sensual curve to his smile
suggested
to Afra, as well as to the Rowan, what plans her husband had
in mind
for her. `And, appreciating your
scruples in the matter, my
love,
I'll `port her.' She wavered lust long enough and suddenly the
warm
weight of the sleeping child was lifted from Afra's lap as Jeff
took
advantage of her hesitation.
`I'd better make sure . . .` the Rowan said and hurried from the
room
but, as Jeff and Afra grinned at each other, neither heard any
loud
protest from the `ported sleeper.
Jeff clapped his hands together,
attracting the attention of the
older
two. `C'mon, put your crayons away.
Bedtime.' Without protest, Jeran and Cera
broke off their activity
and
began to stuff their colours back into the box. They were already
dressed
in their nightclothes and each with solemn expression held out
a hand
to their father to be led away to their cots.
`Say good night to Afra.' "Night,
Afra,' the two chorused
dutifully.
`Sleep well, Jeran, Cera,' he replied
politely.
`Thanks, Unk,' Jeff said with a grin as
he led his children off.
Afra finished his wine, somewhat
regretting the absence of Damia
on his
lap. She was a great leg warmer. Sighing, he rose and made his
way
back to his own quarters. He treasured
these evenings for they
anchored
his soul and countered the depression he often felt for not
being
able to establish a similarly satisfying `marriage of true minds'
for
himself.
Over the years he had consoled himself
with being the brother the
Rowan
had lost in that avalanche, keeping philia and eros separate. He
had
also come to recognize the unexpected reward of his upbringing on a
Methody
world, despite its legacy of emotional control and detachment.
Although he had learned to break out of
the rigid undemonstrative
demeanour
that his parents had instilled in him and could, on occasion,
express
his emotions, that early training kept his unrequited love for
the lonely
Rowan separate from his affection for Angharad GwynRaven.
The tense atmosphere of the busiest Tower
in the League was no
place
for a person to act like a pressure vessel.
So, with Kama for
his
sexual needs, the Rowan for his intellectual comfort and Gollee
Gren
for his still irrepressibly rebellious nature, Afra managed to
keep
himself balanced.
Afra could tell by the way the Rowan
walked into the Tower that
she'd
had another bad night with Damia who was teething. With Jeff on
his
annual Tower Inspections throughout the Nine Star League, the Rowan
was
having a spate of unrelieved childcare.
Some of her personnel,
Afra
included, devoutly hoped that this would certainly delay, if not
deter
her, from considering a fourth pregnancy, which was on her
agenda,
if not on Jeff's. The Rowan's first
priority ought to be a
smooth-functioning
Callisto Tower.
`Bad night?' Afra asked sympathetically.
The Rowan rolled her eyes. `The other two weren't like her at
all,'
she said, a hint of despair in her voice.
`My firstborn was like her,' Brian
Ackerman added, handing the
Rowan
the sheaf of flimsies for the morning's outgoing traffic. `One
night I
caught myself holding Borrie at arm's length and screaming at
him to
shut up.' Brian scratched behind his left ear, embarrassed to
relate
that reaction. `She'll grow out of it,
Rowan. You'll see.'
`But
when?' The Rowan's tone was both wistful and rueful. `Will I last
long
enough?' `Ah, it seems a long time when you have to go through
it,'
Brian said with the encouraging, slightly patronizing smile that
the
survivor will give the victim. `But it
won't be long now.' `Why
don't
you have Tanya cope with her tonight?' Afra asked. The very
competent
T-8 who managed the pre-school creche had established a good
rapport
with Damia who napped quite easily when required to do so under
her
care. One of the other mothers had
suggested, within Afra's
hearing,
that perhaps the Rowan, being so highstrung, was unconsciously
stimulating
her daughter into these wakeful nights.
The Rowan rolled her eyes
expressively. `I couldn't do that,
Afra. Tanya has to cope with her all day
long. I can't ask her to
take
night-duty as well.' `Ask,' suggested Afra.
`She can only say no
`I
don't wish to make her feel she has to because I can't cope.' There
was a
slightly hysterical edge to the Rowan's voice.
`What about a pukha?' Afra suggested.
The Rowan stared as if she couldn't
believe her ears.
`My daughter is perfectly normal. She is not the least bit
traumatized.'
`I didn't mean to imply she was,' Afra said at his
calmest
because he could see the dangerous glint in her eyes. `But
pukhas
do soothe the restless child.?
`She's teething, I said.' `Gotta better
idea,' Brian said, hoping
to
divert the brewing of a Rowan-storm.
`We don't have any live
traffic
this ( morning. Nothing Afra and me
can't handle.' Somewhat
gingerly,
he took the Rowan by the arm and turned her back towards the
Tower
door. `Also, right now Damia' 5
Tanya's responsibility, all legit, no
favours required. So, you
go get
yourself six good hours of sacktime until the outer system stuff
comes
through. Right?' Almost magically, the
fury went out of the
Rowan
and she put her hand on Brian's shoulder, expressing her
heartfelt
relief at his entirely sensible suggestion.
`Oh, could I?' Quick to take advantage of
her compliance, Afra
made a
shooing gesture, and `pathed her a firm nudge, planting the
image
of her stretched out on her bed, her hands folded virginally
across
her chest `Don't lay me out quite yet, please,' she replied with
some
asperity but then she managed to grin.
Before I change my mind,
she
added to Afra and half-ran out of the Tower and down the link to
her
quarters.
Afra followed her mental touch until the
door to her shielded
house
closed behind her, but he had no doubts that she made her way
straight
to her bed. He'd been maladroit to
bring up the subject of a
pukha
for Damia but he hated to see the Rowan so dragged out. She'd
handled
alien monsters with less strain. He set
the remote alarm to
ring in
her room in six hours and then went up to the Tower room to
start
the day's business.
There was indeed nothing that he and
Brian couldn't handle with
full
gestalt and a little assistance from the higher T-ratings in the
Tower. Sometimes he wondered why so many single
cargo pods were
routed. It'd take less time and effort to link
same-destination
packages
together and flick `em out in one lot.
Afra made a note to
suggest
the idea to Jeff on his return to Earth.
Some four hours into Rowan's respite,
Tanya contacted him.
Afra, the Rowan didn't by any chance remove
Damia from daycare,
did
she?
No, Tanya. Why? Afra felt the first
spurt of panic.
Damia isn't anywhere in the creche. She was asleep in her cot
when I
last looked.
Did you ask Jeran and Cera?
Oh, them! Tanya's tone was disgusted.
They told me she went out
waving
her wand.
Hold it a moment, folks, and Afra spoke
to everyone in the Tower,
missing
person problem.
Damia?
Brian asked and groaned. Why did
kindly notions dissolve
into
disasters? Can't you spot her, Afra?
If you'll give me the quiet to do
so. Afra had already begun to
cast
his mind about. He could usually `hear'
her infantile stream of
consciousness
anywhere. Whether or not he could trace
her wherever she
had got
to in the compound was another matter.
He'd better or the
Rowan
would skin him for garters. Afra
started at the daycare rooms,
casting
about the main compound.
Then Brian and Joe Toglia came stamping
up the stairs to the Tower
and
began flicking on the screens to interior monitors, examining one
area
after another of the four domes that comprised the station. The
screens
showed no small figure trundling about.
`How long's she been walking?' Brian
asked Afra.
`Long enough to be pretty good at it.'
Cursing under his breath,
Brian
programmed a decko of the tunnel links.
There were so many
places
that could shelter a small body from the optical sensors.
`She's not tall enough to reach the
doorplates, is she?' asked
Joe,
thumbing through views of the basement levels of the supply
section.
`Wait a minute! And, with sudden inspiration, Afra leaned across
the
console and accessed the remote in his own quarters. And there
Damia
was, toddling about his living-room after Ringle and two other
Coonies,
trying to bean them with the dowel-wand in her hand. `And
that's
how she activated the doors . - waving
her wand!' Afra `ported
into
the room, sweeping the stray child into his arms.
`Al'a!
Al'a!' she squealed with delight, patting his face with
her
free hand and waving her `wand' furiously with the other. He
carefully
unwrapped her fingers from the dowel before she stuck it in
his
eye.
`Damia shouldn't leave Tanya!' he said,
knowing how futile
scolding
this imp could be. Merrily she grinned
up at him, her huge
blue
eyes rounder than ever with her excitement.
`Al'a!
Al'a?' She began to squirm free, `Ingul, Ingul,' and she
twisted
her head to find Ringle, arching her back to get free.
`No Ringle now, Damia. I'm taking you back to Tanya.
`Tan'a?
Tan'a.' That name emerged as a sort of guttural grunt and
the
twisting became more violent. `No,
Tan'a.
Ingul.
Wan Ingul.
`Not now, baby!' Bearing in mind the
Rowan's dislike of exposing
her
children to Talented actions, he secured her writhing form in his
arms
and walked her back to the creche where an anxious Tanya waited at
the
door.
`Ingul, Ingul,' Damia was saying over his
shoulder, suddenly
ceasing
to fidget. `Ingul. Goo Ingul.' Turning his head, Afra saw
Ringle
dutifully following him.
`How could she have got out, Afra?' Tanya
said in a near wail as
she
reached out to relieve Afra of his burden.
`She had a wand, a dowel stick with a
star on the end of it,' Afra
told
her.
`And used that to activate the
doorplates?' Tanya was amazed.
`The little minx. Well, I'll get Forrie to touch code them
tomorrow.
She won't try that one on me again.
Where's the Rowan?' Tanya anxiously
looked across the compound.
Afra could well imagine how she had
dreaded confronting an irate
mother,
especially a Prime, whose child she had just misplaced. Damia
tried
to launch herself head down out of Tanya's arms, both arms
reaching
for Ringle who had entered the creche.
Deftly, Tanya righted
the
child, placed her on her feet so that she could reach Ringle who
scampered
off, Damia following as fast as she could churn her short
legs.
`The Rowan arrived this morning looking
like hell warmed over,'
Afra
began.
`She did look exhausted when she dropped
the children off,' Tanya
remarked,
and made a rueful noise with her lips.
`So we sent her back home for some
rest. Afra did not mention his
abortive
mention of acquiring a pukha for Damia, though these `comfort
toys'
could be programmed for any number of responses to soothe a
fretful
child.
`Tanya, how do you get Damia to take her
naps?' The girl regarded
him
with surprise. Not for the first time
Afra thought that she was
little
more than a child herself, for all he knew she was twenty-nine.
She was a daintily made girl, all brown:
brown eyes, brown hair,
light
brown skin, with small hands and feet.
If Gollee Gren hadn't
expressed
an interest in her, Afra would have been tempted to try his
luck.
`Well,' and Tanya pointed to the rocking
chair just visible in the
nap
alcove, `if she won't settle, I rock her and sing a lullaby. She
goes
right to sleep for me.' She caught her lip with her teeth, looking
sheepish,
and fluttering one hand in dismay. Afra
could `hear' her
distress
at seeming to criticize her Prime.
`Just a lullaby?' `Just a lullaby,' she
replied firmly. `You know
how the
Rowan feels about mental coercion.
Actually, any song will do
the
trick. I use different ones so I don't
get bored.' `I know how the
Rowan
feels but what she doesn't know, won't hurt,' Afra said, having
come to
a decision.
The Tower demanded some adjustment to her
directive.
He called Ringle to him. `And it will sure help all of us.' Brown
eyes
widening, Tanya's jaw dropped in consternation. `Afra, I don't
think
we should.' `We both know that a mild therapeutic post-hypnotic
suggestion
doesn't in the least inhibit the developing mind of the
Talented
child,' Afra said as he reached down to stroke the obedient
Ringle.
Trotting up behind him came a giggling
Damia, dark curls bouncing
on her
shoulders. So Afra captured his victim
and asked Tanya to teach
him the
tune and the words. By the time he had
learned them and
implanted
the command in Damia' 5 mind, she had yawned herself to sleep
in his
arms.
`I'll send Forrie to change the ps, Afra
said and went whistling
back to
the Tower, crisis over. At least, he
amended privately, this
one.
When the Rowan, much refreshed, returned
to the Tower, everyone
was
very careful not to think of the morning's brief crisis. And Afra
waited
for an opportune moment to suggest a sure-fire remedy for Damia'
nocturnal
restlessness.
Brian listened, his mouth slightly ajar,
as Afra recounted a
totally
fictional account of how his sister, Goswina, had dealt with
his
sleepless nephew`A rocking chair?' the Rowan asked in surprise.
`Rocking chair,' Afra said and implanted the appropriate image in
his
mind for her to see. Then set it
moving, and placed a Rowan and a
Damia
in it. `Between the motion of the
chair, the repetitive rhythm
in his
mother's reassuring voice, my nephew was soon fast asleep.' `I'm
willing
to try anything. But I don't know any
lullabies. Jeran and
Cera
never needed any.' `I know a good one,' Brian said. `My mother
used to
say how often she had to rock me when I was teething.' In a
rather
strong baritone voice, he launched into a rendition of an
ancient
folk tune about what a daddy would buy his ll'l baby if it
would
hush.
Afra countered with Tanya's `Rock-a-bye
baby'. `That one was a
sure-fire
sleep-inspirer.' What's going on in the Tower?
asked Jeff
Raven. It is working hours.
Sony, boss, Afra said with absolutely no
remorse.
Ready, my lovely? Jeff asked the Rowan, we have some paying
customers.
And, instantly and of one mind, Callisto
Tower turned into a
smooth
functioning facility.
`Wanna play,' Damia told her two
siblings. They were all in their
home
play-room while their mother was in the kitchen, preparing lunch.
Jeran and Cera were building a complex
structure of blocks. Damia
had been
in a corner crooning to herself as she trotted her herd of
ponies
about an obstacle course and in and out of their stable. The
intense
silence of her siblings' concentration attracted her.
`G'way,' Jeran told her.
`Y'g'way,' Cera added, waving her sister
off.
`Wanna play,' Damia repeated. Then changed her tactics. `Can't I
play
with you?' Jeran blinked at her, recognizing grown-up syntax for
their
parents never used baby-talk. `No,
Damia,' for he could speak
just as
good grown-up as she could, `Cera and I are playing together.'
He
waved towards her corner. You play with
your horses.' `Ponies,'
Damia
corrected him absently in a vague hope of provoking further
attention
from her brother. But Cera nudged him,
indicating a block in
her
hand and, in their private garble, requesting his opinion on its
placement.
Recognizing the futility of enticing them
from their game, Damia
turned
away. She looked at the corner where
her toys were strewn. She
thought
of calling Rascal who always came to her, or the Coonies but
she'd
already spent half her morning with them.
`Bored!
I'm so bored!' She looked about her.
The baby gate
blocked
her exit from the play-room. But that
was the way out, to more
exciting
play. She walked over to it, examining
it carefully. She had
watched
her mother putting it up many times now and observation had
shown
her how it worked. The gate was braced
in place by a simple
lever
that locked down. A simple jerk up
would release the brace and
the
door could be pulled aside or knocked over.
Normally Damia could
do
nothing with the information she had acquired because the lever was
on the
outside which she could not reach.
Today, however, her mother
had
inadvertently reversed the gate and the lever was inside.
Tentatively, more from curiosity than
plan, Damia tapped the
lever. It jerked up and the baby gate fell softly
on to the carpet in
the
hallway.
Jeran heard the noise and looked around
at her. `Damia ha'guh.'
Cera
added, scowling, `Dam ha!' Against this censure, Damia could not
bring
herself to explain that she'd only touched it: getting it to drop
out of
the door was an accident. However, the
gate was down, Jeran and
Cera
wouldn't play with her, but Afra would.
He always did. She would find Afra.
Safety was a paramount consideration on
Callisto Station and
reigned
over security. Consequently all doors
were the automatic
sliding
type, with ultrasound sensors. Early in
Jeran's babyhood, the
Rowan
had ordered the sensors raised so that the boy could not leave
the
house. Jeran never wanted to, nor did
Cera. As the Rowan hadn't
heard
about Damia's adventure with her `wand', it hadn't occurred to
her to
alter the sensors to touch-control plates.
All Damia had to do was find something
long enough for her to
break
the circuit.
A long stemmed flower from the dry
arrangement on the hall table,
acquired
by climbing up on a chair and removing a suitable one from the
vase,
made a good substitute for her wand.
The door slid politely out
of her
way Every dome had a hallway where the personnel tubes connected
and
where elevators, freight and human, expelled their cargo. Below
ground
were the powerplants, hydroponics garden, life support,
recycling
machinery, gravity generators - all the equipment required to
keep
Callisto Station operating. Also in the
basement were the
long-term
survival units awaiting a catastrophic disaster.
The personnel tubes were plasglas
covered, allowing personnel
access
between the four lesser domes. Along
the tubes were personal
safety
capsules to guard against the unlikely event of a pressure
breach.
Damia had travelled all the tubes but
always in the company of
adults. Now she spent many moments carefully
considering each tube.
With a determined look plastered over her
misgivings, she started
off
down her chosen tube.
She stopped several times to look back
yearningly towards her home
but
always she trudged onward. She had
chosen correctly: the tube
opened
up on to the large park that was the `doorstep' for Callisto
Quarters.
To her right was the large gymnasium with
its indoor pool, to her
left
the two-storeyed Married Quarters and straight on, through the
park
with its dwarf trees, was the three-levelled Bachelor Quarters.
As most of the residents were indoors,
eating or involved in other
chores
while Jupiter occluded Callisto, no-one happened to notice her
progress.
`Afra!' she cried in cheerful
anticipation, toddling as fast as
her
slender legs could carry her.
However, she had left her long stemmed
flower behind her and had
nothing
close to hand to trip the sensor.
She grew quite frustrated, poking at the
undemonstrative door,
jumping
up and down, hand above her head, trying to reach the plate.
Afra!
Afra? she said, unaware that, in
her anxiousness to
contact
him, she used an ability that she ought not to have discovered
so
prematurely. She had also launched her
mental call into his
quarters,
not realizing that Afra was lunching with Brian, nor that
she'd
have needed more `volume' to reach him.
However, she did startle
Ringle
awake.
With an understanding chitter of
acknowledgement, the Coonie
started
towards the door. As the Coonies all
needed access to the park
for
their toilet, maintenance had equipped them with ultrasound
collars. Ringle walked up to the door, paced by it
and it opened.
`Afra!' Damia entered jubilant and halted
her headlong progress
into
the room when only Ringle greeted her.
`Afra?
Afra, play with me!' She toddled off to find her playmate,
not
noticing that the door silently closed behind her, having been open
long
enough for any animal to exit.
`Where is Afra?' she asked Ringle who had
followed her in her
perambulation.
Ringle chittered, turning away from her
and pacing towards the
kitchen. He was always hungry and Damia had given him
sufficient
tidbits
on previous visits here to allow him to hope for more.
Emergency! the Rowan `pathed on the widest band possible.
She stood on her front steps, the baby
gate dangling from one
hand. Damia's got out. I don't know where she's got to.
I've checked every remote screen and
there's no sign of her How
long's
she been gone? Afra was the first to
ask.
How do I know? the Rowan exclaimed, half despairing, half angry.
I was getting lunch. She'd been safely in the play-room with
Jeran
and Cera who, in their fashion, and that was added in a terse
tone,
have no idea where their sister went.
Jeran said she knocked the
gate
down.
Remembering all too well Damia's tendency
to seek him out, Afra
replied. If you haven't seen her on the remotes, then
I've a good idea
where
she might be.
Relieve my mind? the Rowan asked cryptically.
Afra had no trouble seeing her tapping
her foot with impatience.
My place.
How in the world would she get there?
Walked, was Afra's laconic answer.
I'll meet you there. And the Rowan's tone was severe.
Afra `ported himself from Brian's dining
area to his living-room
and
sure enough, Damia was busy feeding Ringle leftovers from his
refrigerator. She was convulsed with the giggles because
Ringle was
`washing'
each handful before he popped it into his mouth.
The Rowan arrived only a moment later,
anger and relief warring
for
dominance. But Damia's laughter was
infectious and, as Afra saw
the
Rowan's expression soften, he allowed himself to grin.
Suddenly aware of observation, Damia
swivelled about.
`Afra!' Abandoning Ringle, she raced to
him, only then aware of
her
mother. She teetered to a stop, her
expression one of total
innocence. `The gate fell over, Mommy. Honest it did. They never
play
with me and I was bored! Afra always
plays with me.' Grabbing his
hand,
Damia tilted her head up. `Don't you,
Afra?' He squatted down to
her
level. `I do when it is the time to
play, Damia. But you must
wait
for me to come. Do you understand? You mustn't come looking.'
She
nodded solemnly, one hand bringing her comfort finger to her mouth.
The Rowan hunkered down, too, her eyes on
a level with her
fractious
daughter. `You know you're not supposed
to wander around the
station,
Damia. Don't you?' Damia shook her
head. `I wanted to play.
Jeran and Cera won't play with me. Ever.' She tried to squeeze a
tear
out of her eyes.
`How'd you get in?' Afra asked, knowing
that Damia was trying the
wrong
tactics on her mother.
`Ringle let me in!' Damia pointed to the
Coonie who was now
finishing
his impromptu meal.
Afra and Rowan exchanged surprised looks.
`Ringle heard me,' Damia went on, `he let
me in.' `How could he do
that?'
Rowan asked Afra then looked accusingly at her daughter. `You
must
tell the truth, Damia.' `I tell the truth,' and Damia's face began
to
contort as a prelude to tears over such adult intransigence.
`If Ringle heard her, he'd come to the
door,' Afra said quickly,
to
forestall Damia's tearful reaction.
`His collar would open the
door. It'll close automatically.' The Rowan let
out a long,
exasperated
sigh and gathered her daughter in her arms.
`All right,
Damia. Now don't cry. But you mustn't run about the compound on your
own. Promise, you won't leave the house without
someone with you?'
Clinging
to her mother in an excess of contrition, Damia vigorously
nodded
her head.
`Now, your lunch is ready, young lady,' the Rowan said, hoping
that
she had made her point without frightening her wayward child.
`Ringle's had his, and I'll go back to
mine, Afra said, ushering
the two
out of his apartment. And I'll get a cat-flap
put in my door.
Damia's too big to crawl through one of
those.
There was relative peace for a few
weeks. Afra was not the only
one
nervously anticipating the next Damianism.
As it happened, there was a great deal of
traffic in that morning,
heavy
stuff that needed careful handling.
Tanya's frantic cry for help
was
therefore not welcome to anyone in the Tower.
I can't stop Damia, Afra, the girl
cried. And I know the Rowan's
terribly
busy but I'm afraid Damia will hurt someone Afra signalled for
Joe
Toglia to take over as he spun his chair over to the nearest free
monitor
and called up the remote in the daycare centre. He could see
Tanya,
cowering by the communitas the other children cringed under the
small-scale
furniture. Jeran and Cera serenely
played some intricate
game
while a stream of toy bits and parts, and occasionally something
heavier,
was rained at them by an enraged Damia who was blubbering in
fury.
`Play with me! Look at me! Talk to me!'
she was screaming. As
soon as
she exhausted the objects on the shelf beside her, she moved to
the box
of connectable shapes. Fortunately her
aim was skewed or - and
Afra
couldn't quite believe this - Jeran and Cera were deflecting the
projectiles,
for most items dropped well short of targets who blithely
ignored
her.
Instantly Afra `ported the box out of
reach and, when she squealed
in
outrage, cleared the next likely ammunition out of range.
No, Damia, he said in as disapproving a
tone as he had ever used
with
her. That is not allowed.
`They won't talk to me!' Damia cried,
sobbing with frustration.
`S'not fair! They never talk to me!
They never play with me.'
Then
she ran to the pile of things that had fallen short of their mark
and
would have pelted Jeran and Cera with them if Afra had not made a
clean
sweep. `And that's not fair, Afra. That's not fair at all!'
Tanya!
Afra called. Grab that little minx and make her take a nap!
Damia, you will go with Tanya this
instant and stop making such a
display
of bad manners. Such a temper for
someone who will run a
Tower! He was slightly appalled to hear one of his
mother's favorite
admonitions
emerge from his lips.
To his amazement, Damia gulped back the
next of her indignant sobs
and
submitted to Tanya's ministrations.
She was asleep before Tanya got through
the first verse.
Jeran and Cera continued their game as if
nothing had happened.
`I think, Rowan, that you had better
speak to Jeran and Cera,'
Afra
told her when Jupiter occluded Callisto and everyone could take a
break.
`Why?
What have they done?' So Afra explained the scene in the
daycare
room. `It's my opinion that they do
that deliberately, knowing
it will
upset her. She does indeed feel left
out.' The Rowan
considered
this, slightly defensively. `They have
this bonding. And
Damia
is much younger. -`That doesn't give
them the right to exclude
her,
especially when they do it deliberately.' -`She shouldn't lose her
temper
that way.' The Rowan set her mouth firmly.
`She's constantly
demanding
attention.' `Perhaps, but Jeran and Cera could include her in
their
games once in a while. You know they
never do. And don't tell
me they're
more advanced. Damia's advanced, too.
The Rowan had to admit that, for Damia's
vocabulary was at least
as
extensive as her siblings', and certainly her small muscle control
was
excellent. So she did have a talk with
her elder children, quietly
and
positively, and, after they had listened attentively to her, they
had one
of their short-speak conversations that so excluded her she
experienced
reluctant sympathy for her youngest.
`We will teach Damia to play one of our
simpler games, Mother,'
Jeran
said in his prosaic way. `That should
satisfy her.' The Rowan
told
Afra later that it had been all she could do to keep from giggling
at his
pomposity.
`You see, then, Damia had a valid
complaint,' Afra said.
`Yes, she did,' and then the Rowan sighed
deeply. `I want all my
children
to love and understand each other.' Afra gave a derisive
snort. `Wait till they're old enough, my dear. Right now, they're
cruel,
heartless, mean little monsters. Rowan
gave him a startled
stare. `Well, they are, but I'm sure they'll grow
out of it.
Tanya contacted the Tower ten days later
- tactfully waiting until
the
break.
`Jeran and Cera played a new game with
Damia, and with half the
other
children,' she told the Rowan, trying very hard not to laugh.
`Then why-' `Because the game was
colour-oriented,' and now Tanya
did
burble with laughter. `Your three are
green and the others are a
sort of
pied-piper of whatever other colours were left in the
water-paints. I can't get nine children clean by myself so
could
parents
be excused for fifteen minutes?
Fortunately it is a water soluble
emulsion. And they did take
their
clothes off first.' That mischief had not originated with Damia
but she
did her own variation several days later when she tried to
paint
Rascal and every Coonie in the compound.
This time with an
oil-based
paint she had evidently found where the maintenance man had
left it
while he ate lunch.
Everyone was annoyed with her for that
one and the Rowan insisted
that
she help the owners clean their pets' fur.
She also insisted that
everyone
let Damia know how much they disapproved.
`Maybe she'll come to realize that she
could hurt the animals with
a trick
like this. They've feelings, too.'
Damia was indeed much
chastened
by human censure but neither Rascal nor any of the Coonies
seemed
to avoid her. In fact, there were half
a dozen who would
happily
throng to her at her peculiar warbling whistle. During the
outdoor
activities that Tanya conducted every afternoon, Damia was
usually
surrounded by the pets while she waited for her turn. As her
brother
and sister could ignore extraneous matters, Damia could inhabit
a world
that consisted of herself and the animals.
One afternoon, while others were gathered
around Tanya, Damia was
cajoling
her four-footed cohorts to try and catch the ball on a string
that
she was dragging behind her as she ran pell-mell around the park.
She ran out of breath by the pool door
which someone had left
slightly
ajar.
She peered inside. This pool was much much larger than the one
in
her
house where she often swam with her parents.
While she knew that
the
pool was here, she'd never had occasion to visit it. And, at this
time of
the day, it was empty. Suddenly Ringle
batted her string ball
through
the door, on to the tiled surface around the pool. The string
whipped
out of her hand and Ringle triumphantly carried it off down the
pool
side.
`Ringle, that's not playing the game,'
she said, running after
him. But the soles of her sandals were slick and
she skidded, her feet
going
out from under her. She fell heavily on
her shoulder and tipped
over
into the pool with a huge splash.
She was competent enough in water not to
panic, and surfaced. The
Coonies
shrieked at the top of their lungs and Rascal, who'd been the
last
one in the pool, responded by throwing himself into the water,
raising
a wave that hit her right in the face, swamping mouth and nose.
She started to choke, couldn't get her
breath and became
frightened.
Afra!
Help me! she cried, flailing her
arms about in panic,
trying
to reach the pool ledge. The Coonies, m
trying to reach her,
got in
her way and she went under the water.
The next thing she knew, hands were
dragging her to the surface,
hauling
her from the pool, pounding her back to open her airways.
It's all right, baby, it's all
right. Afra's here, and she was
held
against a wet but reassuring human body.
DAMIA!
cried her mother and suddenly the Rowan was there,
reaching
to take her from Afra, holding her so close that Damia was
amazed
to discover that her mother could tremble.
She could `feel' her
mother's
fear and that so shattered her confidence that she burst into
tears.
It took time to calm her down, calm the
Rowan down, dry soaking
Coonies
and Rascal, and then more time for Damia to insist that it had
not
been their fault. The door had been
open and she had slipped on
the wet
edge.
`But you know you're not supposed to go
into a pool room without
someone
with you, Damia,' her mother said, with an edge to her voice
that
Damia now recognized as disapproval.
`And Coonies do not
constitute
someone else!' `I wasn't going swimming, Mommy, I was
playing
with my friends.' Over her head, the Rowan looked hopelessly up
at Afra
who was wringing out his shirt. `She's
never in the wrong, is
she?'
`Actually,' and Afra paused to towel his sopping hair, `she often
isn't. She's simply inquisitive, inventive,
isolated.' `Well, I'm
doing
something about that!' the Rowan said, `with or without Jeff
Raven's
complete cooperation. Damia needs a
companion.' Afra managed
to hide
his grimace in the towel and then stopped rubbing his hair as
he
reviewed her phrasing.
`With or without Jeff's complete
cooperation'? He dropped the
towel
and stared at her.
`Angharad Gwyn-Raven, do you mean what I
think you mean?' She gave
him a
wide-eyed stare of innocence, still rocking her daughter. `I
want my
children to have a happy childhood, and not feel excluded or
forced
to play with animals.' `Damia loves the Coonies.' `Exactly! I
want
her to have a brother to love.' When told of the afternoon's
escapade,
Jeff sighed deeply. `She's like me at
the same age. Mother
couldn't
keep me in the yard with a logging chain.' `So how did she
keep
track of you?' Jeff grinned in reminiscence.
`Dad was good at
training
animals ` He laughed when he saw the exasperated expression on
the
Rowan's face. `. . . He sicked a wolf
bitch on me as guardian.
She followed me everywhere and if she
thought I was likely to get
in
trouble, she'd trip me up, knock me down, sit on my back and howl.
Sometimes she was bowling a long time but
I didn't come another
cropper
even if my knees and ribs were always bruised from being
knocked
flat by 30 kilos of white wolf.' `Barque cats and Coonies are
sufficient
livestock in a dome.' `Oh, I know that.
Merely apprising
you
that Damia' 5
escapades follow a well-established
genetic pattern.' `We can't
have
more animals but we can provide her with another sort of suitable
companion,'
the Rowan went on, bringing the conversation neatly to
where
she wanted it.
`I gather that you are in the process of
providing that
companion,'
Jeff remarked with a bite in his tone.
The Rowan took a backwards step,
nervously biting her lip. `How
did you
know?' `It's been what? Two
months? It shows.' Jeff returned.
He stepped forward, laid a hand on her
belly. `How did you do
it?'
The Rowan dipped her head. `A lady must
keep some secrets. It's
a boy,
you know.' `To give Damia someone to care for.' `Beside Afra,'
the
Rowan added.
`Her affection for him is natural. He's family.' `But she called
him,
not me.
Jeff perceived her conflict. `And how many times have you
impressed
upon the children that they are not to call you when you're
in the
Tower?' The Rowan slumped disconsolately.
`But I have to make
them
understand that.' `I agree. So Afra
becomes the next best person
to turn
to. Let us be thankful that he is also
willing and extremely
able. We might even get him to like the feel of
trusting young arms
about
his neck enough to do something about starting his own family.'
`Your
last effort at matchmaking did not work?' The Rowan was secretly
pleased. `You should leave matchmaking to the women
of your family,
love.'
`I don't recall any efforts on your part.' `I've yet to meet a
woman
good enough,' the Rowan said brusquely.
When Jeff raised an
eyebrow
in turn, she added, `Afra should have someone really special.
I owe so much of my happiness to him.'
Her pregnancy was not going
well. She had managed to endure three months of
morning sickness,
clinging
to the consolation that those symptoms would gradually ease.
But they persisted; her waspishness grew
to uncontrollable
proportions,
her ankles hurt abominably and she was absolutely
convinced
that the gravity in Callisto Station was set too high. She
blamed
everyone in sight for her condition, including Brian Ackerman
who
defused it with his best `would that it were true' look, but
especially
Damia for her requirement of a little brother and Jeff for
not
stopping her in her wilful theft of his sperm.
Her condition established a vicious cycle
where her temper would
set off
the children and depress the station staff such that her temper
would
get worse and so the effect would escalate.
By the sixth month
of her
pregnancy, the staff was completely gaunt-faced and jittery.
What she absolutely hated, and could not
admit to herself, was the
fact
that Afra would not get irritated with her no matter how irascible
she
became. She longed for the chance to
rant at him so desperately
that
she knew it was completely irrational.
He was nearly obsequious
in his
genuine concern for her and always caringly thoughtful of her
needs and
condition.
In her pregnancy with Damia and Cera
before her, Afra had always
been
willing to take the children off her hands so that she might rest
as best
she could in her condition.
This time, however, she was unwilling to
let Damia out of her
sight,
letting, instead, the elder two stay with `Uncle Afra', Afra
took
the whole situation phlegmatically which irritated the Rowan
because
it did not irritate him. He even went
to the extreme of
getting
Damia's solemn promise to be extra careful of her mother in her
gravid
state, a promise which the child carried out faithfully until
the
Rowan shrieked at her one day as she attempted to serve breakfast
in
bed. After that Damia became a sullen,
dispirited child prone to
unprovoked
fits of crying.
But a prolonged sulk was not in Damia's
nature. Heartened by the
solicitous
nature of the Coonies and by Rascal's steadfast loyalty, she
took to
exploring the nooks and crannies of Callisto Station escorted
only by
the felines.
She was not `heard' by anyone as she
traipsed about on her great
adventures
because she had learned of necessity to shield herself from
the
Rowan, projecting a totally false image of her surroundings:
generally
her own room.
So while her ailing mother thought her
safely playing at home, she
conducted
her personal rebellion. She loved the
personal safety pods
the
most. These lined the corridors and
subterranean ways of Callisto
Station,
provided against catastrophic pressure loss.
Gaining entrance
was
easy: she merely walked up to one and the translucent panel slid
open. Inside there were marvellous accoutrements:
a plush seat with
all
sorts of computer controls adorning a keypad, a computer ready to
aid her
in any emergency and room enough for her coven of Coonies.
Best of all, the computer would carefully
and patiently explain
every
aspect of the capsule until she had it memorized. She would play
in
these for hours; Damia Queen of Space, Damia Space Police, Damia
Rescue
Run.
At the end of every game, where Coonies
played medics, pirates,
injured
and police at her whim, Damia would carefully peer outside her
capsule
and, the coast clear, quietly exit it, carefully closing the
door
and observing the green `A-OK' light.
Then, depending on the hour
and her
hunger, she would either return to the Rowan's quarters or
traipse
on to the next capsule and the next game.
Her discovery of the cargo cradles at the
base of the Tower was an
eye-popping
revelation. She scrunched herself tight
up against the
corridor
wall, watching in awe as the cradles magically filled and
emptied
again as cargo was shunted back and forth to the large
composite
ships waiting patiently in orbit above for their cargo to be
marshalled
and the Rowan to push the result off to its destination
planet.
Cargo capsules were long and box-like,
exactly the same as those
used on
ships and trains for surface transport on worlds. Passenger
capsules
were different and came in many shapes and sizes. All had
airlocks
at various strategic locations and most had view panels. But
most
intriguing to Damia were the personal safety pods which blistered
the
sides of the larger passenger transporters.
She was sufficiently sensitive
psychically to know that the
capsules
were being manipulated by various Talents in the Tower. Once,
with a
thrill of recognition, she felt Afra's sure mental touch as a
string
of passenger capsules were separated and landed in individual
cradles. Small domes enclosed them and soon
maintenance personnel were
busy,
working around them.
`That Altairian freighter's late!' the
Rowan snapped at Afra up in
her
Tower. The expedient of reducing the
gravity on Callisto had eased
the
weight on her swollen feet but did nothing to alleviate her temper.
Afra turned carefully to face her, eyes
showing the strain of his
mental
manipulations.
`There's a problem in the life support
system of the passenger and
crew quarters,'
he explained. He closed his eyes in
concentration,
something
he normally did not require and looked back up at her.
`Powers is handling it.
`We're going to blow the whole day's
schedule!' the Rowan replied
in what
was nearly a wail. She directed her
frustration solidly at
Afra.
`No, we're not.' Brian Ackerman returned
steadily, relieving Afra
of the
brunt of the Rowan's ill-will. `I've
already worked around the
problem. I've got a fifteen minute window before
things start piling
up.'
Afra considered that and nodded.
`Should be about `5' right.' He
sent a
thought to Powers. `Bill says it'll be
tight but he'll push for
it.'
`In the meantime, Rowan, while it's not normally your task, if you
could
pull apart that Procyon composite that'll keep Afra free to
stitch
together the Altairian.
The Rowan started to protest but Ackerman
gave her such a pleading
look
that she relented. `Where're the
sheets?' `On two.' The Rowan
turned
to her second console and, referring to it, commenced to pull
the
capsules off the Procyon ship Lysis.
The passenger capsules called to
Damia. They screamed of
adventure,
of far off places, of Damia Star Guard.
She glanced
backwards
at the cats for support, ignored Rascal's counsel of caution,
and
proceeded boldly forward towards the tunnel leading to the first
passenger
capsule.
Bill, Bill, she'll blow a fuse if it's
not ready! Ackerman sent
privately
to the Assistant Supercargo.
Powers' response was laced with
strain. We're pushing it now,
Brian.
In the Tower, unseen, Ackerman nodded
approvingly.
Just keep it up.
Damia marched unconcerned by techs and
maintenance personnel on
her way
to the passenger capsule. The cats
followed her at a discreet
distance,
blended into the landscape in the way of all cats.
One of the shipboard personnel looked at
her and mistook her for a
passenger
`You'd best get back aboard, little lady,' he told her
politely.
`I don't know how,' Damia replied.
The technician took pity on her, no
matter that the station
personnel
were throwing a fit, and led her aboard the passenger
capsule.
`You know your way from here?' he asked,
worried that he would
lose
too much time if he had to search out her parents.
`Oh, yes!' Damia responded, eyeing one of
the safety capsules
eagerly. Damia Space Guard on a real spaceship!
`Have a good journey!' the tech called as
he left.
`Thank you, I will!' Damia said as she
had heard Tower personnel
do so
many times. The tech left, shaking his
head at the excellent
manners
of the child.
Quickly, Damia scampered into a personnel
capsule, holding the
door
open long enough for all her feline entourage to enter. When the
door
closed, the capsule activated.
`Wollen Sie des Hilfr?' the computer
asked politely.
`What?' Damia had never encountered any
language other than Basic.
`How may I help you?' the computer
replied, shifting languages.
`Oh, I know what to do.' The response
fell into one of many
distressed
voice ranges the computer was programmed to detect. It set
its
System Alert flag. Had the passenger
capsule been attached to the
composite
ship, a ship-wide alarm would have been sounded. As it was,
the
circuit was broken and would remain so until the capsule was
connected
with the ship.
Hurry, Bill, hurry! Ackerman called urgently. Afra must have
picked
up a bit of spill from his message for the Capellan raised an
eyebrow. She's got that ship all put back together
again and she's
looking
for something else to throw!
Done!
Powers said proudly. Beside Afra
the display board
chirped,
red lights turned green.
`The Altairian's ready, Rowan,' Afra
informed her, mentally
casting
a call to the generator technicians to prepare for the load.
He glanced at a clock; Powers had left
five seconds to spare.
`About bloody time!' the Rowan
snarled. `Wait a minute, the
ship's
not together yet!' I'm taking care of that now, Afra responded
calmly.
Privately, however, he was irritated that
the Rowan would choose
to
misinterpret his statement. She knew
that he still had to stitch
the
ship together. He lifted the first
capsule from its cradle but
paused,
there was something familiar about it.
I'll do it! the Rowan snapped waspishly, snatching the capsule
brutally
from his mental `hands' `Bumpy ride, Captain,' Ackerman warned
on his
comm link.
All three capsules were slapped on the
stern of the Altairian
freighter
at once by the Rowan in her temper.
`Ready for boost,' the Rowan announced.
`Red light! Red light!' the captain shouted over his comm link.
But it was too late, the generators rose
to a shriek and suddenly
Afra!
A terrified voice cried from the void.
Damia!
Afra's response was immediate, with a speed he had never
needed
before, he lurched for the fleeting child, twisting the Rowan's
thrust
and snatching Damia from the pod.
`Emergency!' Ackerman snapped.
`Kill the generators!' Get that
ship
back! the Rowan cried, flailing to
maintain her grasp on the
massive
freighter.
Afra!
Damia wailed.
I'm here! Afra called. Come here,
baby. And there she was,
falling
into his arms. He grabbed her, clutched
her fiercely.
`Afra!' Ackerman shouted, pointing to the
Rowan. The Rowan was
slumped,
knuckles white as she strained by sheer power of will to hold
the
hurtling ship. With a cry of fear, Afra
launched every ounce of
his
mental powers to one mind: Jeff, help!
And then he was there, a reassuring
presence surrounding them all,
body
almost visible in the room.
Damia's safe! Help the Rowan! Afra
cried, sagging to the floor,
his
arms lapping Damia's fright-stiffened body.
I'm here, luv. Let me in to help! Jeff
called from across the
void to
Earth.
Ackerman watched amazed as near visible
forces flickered through
the
Rowan and once again she and Jeff Raven joined souls.
`Gods above!' a voice crackled hoarsely
through the comm link.
`In-again-out-again-gone-again
Finnegan! What did you do with
us?'
Ackerman looked out above the Tower and saw the Altairian hovering
in
view. He let out a deep ragged sigh.
`All I can say is that I'm glad it worked out all right,' Captain
Leonhard
of the Altairian freighter said as the situation was explained
to
him. `As far as my passengers know, we
had a shipboard
malfunction.'
`You're very kind, Captain,' Jeff Raven replied with
sincere
gratitude. They were in a shielded
conference room in the
bowels
of Callisto Tower. Ackerman and Afra
were also seated around
the
table. The Rowan and Damia were at
home, both recovering from the
traumatic
incident.
`However, it worries me some - what would have happened if your
wife
had not kept "touch" with my ship?' Jeff? The touch of his
mother's
mind distracted him as he prepared an answer.
`Excuse me,' Jeff told the captain,
closing his eyes to indicate
that he
was `pathing to someone. I gather you
heard it, too?
The whole galaxy heard that shriek. What happened? Isthia asked
as calm
as ever. Jeff sketched her the complete
details quickly. Afra
pulled
her off the ship? Isthia exclaimed as
Jeff finished.
What surprised me most was that he
could! I don't know whether or
not
it's good that she obeyed our injunction that she doesn't bother
her
mother in the Tower. This was the
moment she should have.
A two year-old child, even your Damia,
would not understand such
distinctions,
Isthia replied in a sad tone, then she continued more
briskly. What is surprising is how Afra got all that
power to make the
save. You say he nearly knocked the ship out of
Rowan's hands?
it Jeff Raven frowned. I hadn't thought of that. He brushed
frathers. He wants to know what would have happened f
the Rowan had
lost
her grasp on his ship.
What will you tell him?
The truth, of course, Jeff responded
promptly.
That his ship would have been lost in limbo for all time? I don't
think
that's something you want known.
No, it's not, Jeff said grimly. I'll tell him that we would have
gone
looking for him instantly.
That's clever and very true! His mother's tone became thoughtful.
Should I come? Angharad seems unusually distraught, not that I
don't
think I'd be in a similar situation.
I'm forever thankful I had
a
planet on which to raise you lot.
This pregnancy has got her down, Jeff
said, allowing his mother to
see the
anxiety he took great pains to hide from everyone else. But
not
quite as much as Damia appealing to Afra in extremis .
That's not quite it, I think, Isthia
remarked in an enigmatic
fashion
that Jeff did not have time to query for, beside him, the space
captain
coughed politely. We'll take this up
later. The frathers are
hackling.
Well, don't you get upset, dear, Isthia
said in farewell.
`Staff interruption,' Jeff remarked by
way of apology to the
waiting
captain. `As to your question: why we'd
initiate a search
immediately.
The captain heaved a sigh of relief. `That's good to know.' `And
remember
that we've never lost a ship,' Ackerman added jovially. `You
can't
say that about the old reaction drive days when I dunno how many
ships
went missing.
Never heard from again.' `No,' the
captain responded, shaking his
head,
and glad he lived when ships could expect safe transfer, `I
suppose
you can t.' He rose. `I've taken up too
much of your valuable
time.'
He nodded at Raven and the others. `I
don't like interrupting a
Tower's
busy schedule longer than necessary but I had to clarify the
problem
in my own mind. The passengers, you
know, will need
reassurance.'
`Of course they will,' said Jeff, rising to grip the
captain
5
hand firmly, `and please convey the
Tower's apologies for that
minor
glitch.
`Minor?' Ackerman muttered under his
breath as the door closed
behind
the captain. `Minor? With one generator seized up and cargo to
be
cleared up all over the place?' `Be grateful the damage can be
cleared
up, Brian,' was Jeff's last comment on the incident.
Pleading extreme exhaustion, Afra took
the rest of the day off.
The curious chittering of Coonies greeted
him as he entered his
quarters. He smiled wanly at the anxious expressions
on their masked
faces
as they pressed in on him.
Had Damia sent them to him? No matter, he appreciated their
company
which, since Damia had monopolized them as playmates, he had
little
of.
But he didn't have the energy to respond
to their overtures and
dropped
down on to the wide couch to stare unseeing at the fireplace.
He was exhausted, but that was not why he
needed time off. You
could
have killed her!
He shouted at himself in white hot
rage. Do you realize the awful
risk
you took, grabbing at her? And grabbing
at a child instead of the
ship
which was equally at risk?
The door chimed. `Come in, Jeff,' Afra called, knowing beyond
prescience
whose hand was on the buzzer.
Jeff Raven, slightly haggard underneath
his outward diffidence,
entered
Afra's apartment airily, noted the collection of Coonies and,
receiving
a gesture from the Capellan, took a seat in a chair opposite
him.
`I know why you're here,' Afra said
quietly. Without any regard
for
etiquette he summoned the nearest piece of paper to him - oddly it
was a
sheet of fine origami paper and a pen.
He scrawled a date, a
short
sentence and signed it without any change in outward temperament.
`Here.' Jeff raised an eyebrow, examined
the message, balled the
paper
up and threw it across the room. The
Coonies took it as a toy
and
commenced to dribble it about the apartment.
`I've had enough guff from a distraught
wife and hysterical
daughter. I'm not about to tolerate nonsense from you,
too, Afra.'
`But I
broke the most important law of Tower protocol - I interrupted a
thrust
and nearly caused the loss of a passenger ship.' Jeff stopped
him
with a look. `Saving my daughter in the
process.' `But what if you
hadn't
been able to retrieve the Altairian . .
.` Afra persisted.
`We did but if you hadn't hauled Damia,
she would have been very
dead.'
Jeff shuddered uncontrollably at that thought and saw that Afra
had
blanched to a grey.
`If I hadn't encouraged her to use the
Coonies and Rascal as
playmates,
she wouldn't have taken to wandering about `So it's the
Coonies'
fault, too?' Jeff asked amused.
`No, I'm at fault,' Afra said, unwilling
to unload responsibility.
`Oh?
And you led her to believe that the passenger capsule was a
good
place to play with the Coonies? C'mon,
Afra, let's permit a
little
common sense to infiltrate the breast beating.' `No matter,' and
Afra
dismissed his arguments with a chop of one hand, `the fact is that
I broke
the gestalt with the Rowan - I could have killed her and still
not
saved Damia!' Afra's control broke with those last words, his voice
rising
in self-contempt and loathing.
Jeff waited for the yellow-eyed Capellan
to collect himself.
`Have you thought to wonder where you got
the strength to do what
you
did?' `Where? What-?' Afra broke off,
his eyes widening in
surprise.
He looked to Jeff who nodded in slow
affirmation.
`Consider what would have happened if
Damia had tried the jump
blind
without your aid.' Afra did and his skin blanched pure white.
`I came here to thank you for saving my
daughter's life,' Jeff
said
slowly, `even if you had to get a two year old to help you save
herself. And those bloody Coonies.' He paused,
watching those same
animals
playing soccer with crumpled paper. He
let out the rest of his
held-in
anger. `I most certainly did not come
here to listen to silly
twaddle
about who's guilty for what and who's responsible for
everything
else in this system!' He launched himself out of his chair
suddenly,
clasping Afra tightly by the shoulder, shaking him firmly in
emphasis.
`You're family, man, right or wrong, up
or down, in or out. Get
it? Now, what have you got to drink? I'm parched,' Jeff grinned at
him. `All that fast talking with Captain
Leonhard.' Afra instantly
rose. `I could make some tea or coffee?' Jeff
cleared his throat
noisily. `Surely you've something stronger,
Afra? Or maybe I should
start
sending you a case or two the way Reidinger did for Brian.
Though I've known a time or two when
there's been some pretty good
rotgut
available on this station.
From the kitchen, Afra produced a clear
bottle containing a clear
liquid.
`I use it for colds. It's effective.
`Well, I felt damned near frozen today
for a few seconds there,'
Jeff
remarked. He downed half a glass and
his eyes bulged. `First
class,'
he managed to say on a forcefully expelled breath. He waggled
the
bottle at Afra. `You need some, too.
`No,' and Afra shook his head, making a
cup of a soporific tea
that
had often soothed jangled nerves. The
rotgut was too much of a
stimulant
in his present condition.
They arranged themselves in the high
chairs surrounding the
bar-height
kitchen table.
`Have you eaten?' Afra asked as his
manners continued to surface
out of
the reaction to the day's trials.
`No, have you?' Afra had to think for
some moments before shaking
his
head.
`Let me,' Jeff offered, noting the
other's exhaustion and added
with a
grin, `I'm not a bad cook!' `Chinese doesn't take much time,'
Afra
suggested.
`Rowan got you on that cuisine, too,
huh?' Jeff said.
Then he shook his head. `Actually, I think I'll have dinner sent
up, if
you don't mind.' Afra looked puzzled.
`Luciano has obliged me
on
several occasions.' `He has?' Afra was surprised. `Though I wonder
about
rich food on my stomach - it hasn't settled yet ---` `I'll
advise
Luciano to prepare something restorative for nerve and mind.'
Jeff
sent a quick mental cast to Gollee Gren back on Earth, who had the
good
sense to swallow his curiosity and promised to expedite the
request.
`While we're waiting,' Jeff continued,
`we can talk about our
problem
child.' `She didn't mean t(H' Jeff raised a hand. `I know
that.'
He sighed, an admiring look on his face.
`She's very much like
her
mother, you know.' `But different.
`The Rowan can't handle her,' Jeff
remarked almost rhetorically.
`Nor can Tanya.' `Are you suggesting some
hypnotics?' Afra
wondered.
They had used only the most subtle
hypnotic suggestions to keep
Damia
from becoming completely unmanageable.
Afra had instigated the first. This successful implant had been
followed,
always with Jeff Raven's full knowledge and approval, by
others,
but only after certain restrictions became necessary. As today
had
proved, Damia appeared to be one jump ahead of everyone's estimate
of her
capabilities. She was also growing
increasingly resistant to
the
more `delicate' suggestions and, with the Rowan firmly opposed to
`tinkering'
with her children, stronger impositions would be
noticeable.
Jeff sensed Afra's uneasiness and shook
his head firmly.
`No, I don't think hypnotics are the
solution.' Jeff? Isthia
Raven's
`voice' distracted him.
`Mother, I'm here with Afra,' Jeff
responded, speaking aloud for
Afra's
benefit and echoing telepathically Hello, Afra. Isthia
responded,
widening her telepathic `voice' to include him. Are you
recovering
from that remarkable rescue?
Somewhat, Afra replied. He had long since given up at pretence
when
dealing with the Raven matriarch.
Except that he's torturing himself with
guilt in the process, Jeff
added.
Tut!
Isthia chided. Guilt's for small
souls, Afra. Your
immediate
response was nothing short of heroic and I won't allow you to
escape
that designation. I'm sure Jeff agrees.
Oh, I do, but he won't. He's threatened to resign.
Nonsense!
You are not Tower, Isthia Raven, Afra
replied, rousing from his
lethargy. You cannot be expected to know that I broke
one of the
strongest
rules of Tower procedure Saving a child?
Priorities always
supersede
mere procedure.
There was such a trenchant criticism in
her retort for bureaucracy
that
Afra had to grin. At least you heard
the child.
Damia did not call the Rowan, Afra
replied glumly.
And how is Angharad? As if in answer to Isthia's question, the
station's
generators screamed to full power, crescendoed, then rose
again
to another crescendo and another as cargoes were hurled
rapid-fire
to their destinations.
I'd say she's decided to work off fright
and anger constructively,
Jeff
responded mildly. He winced at the
shriek of the generators as
they
hit launch peak. Fortunately Ackerman's
giving her cargo. At
that,
some of the fragile goods are going to be worthless.
Oh dear!
Isthia's response included a soft caress of
understanding. What do you plan to do?
Afra and I were just discussing that,
Jeff replied. We've ruled
out
more hypnotics.
Good.
I doubt they'll work, the child's too quick. Across the
light-years,
Isthia frowned. What alternatives have
you considered?
None, yet, Jeff replied. We were going to try the full stomach
method
of meditation. Then I'll have to see
what the Rowan wants.
She may not want me, after this, Afra
said dispiritedly.
Stop it, Afra Lyon! Isthia shot back hotly. Mind you, not even
Angharad
will tolerate your wallowing in such a slough of
self-recrimination. Isthia paused briefly. Well, now, maybe a good
yell
will shock you back into appropriate manners, you Methody
Capellans
being so fierce about proper conduct.
But then, Angharad's
not
likely to consider protocol more important than her daughter's
life.
Afra was dumbfounded. But I nearly lost that Altairian freighter.
If Jeff hadn't. Lord above! He's really
into this guilt trip,
isn't
he? Jeff Raven demanded
rhetorically. If it would make you feel
any
better, I'm perfectly willing, as head of FT&T, to dock your annual
salary
for whatever amount you feel will compensate us for your
interference
with the conduct of traffic on this route.
But, as Earth Prime, I'm obliged to point
out to you, Afra Lyon,
that
it's highly unlikely that Angharad Gwyn-Raven will accept your
resignation. Jeff paused to regard Afra's unyielding
expression and
sighed
in exasperation.
Isthia sighed, like an echo of her
son. I'd thought that years of
exposure
to Reidinger and Angharad would have eroded your Methody
upbringing. What is it offenders have to wear on
Capella? Sackcloth
and
ashes.
Afra shook his head, then propping it
into his hands, made a
deliberate
effort to break out of the fugue which tormented him.
Of course, actually, as Earth Prime, I'm
not supposed to interfere
with
local Tower discipline so I won't.
That is, said Isthia, no further than
you've already done.
Listen to the generators, Afra, and Jeff
grinned. She's working
it all
out of her system. Maybe you should,
too. No?
I guess that's only sensible. You're shagged.
Afra, dear, Isthia put in, I love you
incredibly but you really
must
pull out of this negativity. It simply
doesn't suit you.
Then she grew thoughtful and added, No, you're fighting something.
. . resisting with every ounce of your
mind. That's why you're
displaying
so much negative emotion, isn't it?
Afra blinked. He had not actually been indulging in self-pity, or
- the
notion amused him - wearing mental sackcloth and ashes. In fact,
he
wondered that Jeff had not perceived what did, terribly, worry him.
Now that he had shown Damia how to use
her innate telekinesis, he
had
opened an avenue of escape for her that would lead to far worse
expeditions
than today's. He'd already done the
Gwyn-Ravens
irreparable
harm with that in utero link between Jeran and Cera: the
link
which caused that pair to so isolate themselves from Damia that
she was
excluded from any natural relationships with them, an outcast
within
the family unit that should have sustained her. She was also
the
youngest of the pre-school children but so much more advanced than
the
nearest child in age that she had no suitable playmates. If there
had
been even one station child who'd been compatible, he knew that
Damia
would have been content and certainly less trouble-prone. Afra
groaned,
shaking his head in his hands.
What is it? Jeff asked.
The Rowan will not like it, Afra
responded obliquely.
His shielding was sufficient to keep
long-eared Isthia from
penetrating
his tired mind. Or perhaps she had
arrived at a similar
conclusion.
Aha!
she cried triumphantly.
I know that sort of an `aha' from you,
Mother and it means trouble
for
someone, Jeff said with a groan not unlike Afra's.
Wearily Afra explained. I was thinking that most of Damia's
problems
would be solved if she had other Talented children nearer her
age and
accomplishment. She is the youngest in
daycare by over a year.
If she had a human playmate her own age -
I don't want her down on
Earth,
Jeff began, and the only place where there' re more is-. He
stopped
short and regarded Afra solemnly.
You're right, the Rowan
won't
like it. Not at all.
But she must see the sense of it, Jeff,
Isthia said. This isn't
the
first time Damia has instinctively appealed to Afra as a source of
reassurance
and assistance. He can't be bailing her
out of every
little
scrape. Or if he does- Isthia kindly
left the thought unspoken
but
Afra could still see the Rowan's desperate lunge to grip the
Altairian
freighter and could imagine what would have happened had not
Jeff
Raven been there to help her prevent the freighter from plunging
into
the void unguided.
`How do you feel about this, Afra?' Jeff
asked the tall Capellan
softly.
Afra's response was a long time
coming. `It is not what I feel
that
matters, Jeff. It is what is best for
Damia.' `It'll be hard on
all of
us,' Jeff said in response to Afra's unspoken plaint. Mother,
not a
word of this to anyone!
Particularly not within Angharad's
hearing. Thank goodness she's
involved
in slinging cargo about the galaxy, Isthia replied. There are
quite a
few Talented children nearby. And a
shower of second and third
cousins
who could be . -- if anyone bothered to
show them a thing or
two. I'll see what can be contrived here on
Deneb. Especially if
Damia's
just become kinetically active. More to
Afra than to Jeff, she
added,
I promise that I will help this difficult grandchild of mine
whom
you find so adorable.
With strong and sensitive fingers, Jeff
massaged deep into the
Rowan's
neck, kneading out the worst of the knots in her tense muscles
late
that night.
`If it hadn't been for Afra!' she
exclaimed. `Oh! That's it,
right
there!' She swivelled her neck to aid his efforts.
`Ah.' She pulled away from his grasp,
taking his hands in hers and
gently
squeezing them. `Oh, thank you! That's much better.
`Anything to oblige,' Jeff replied with a
slight bow as he sat on
the
edge of the bed. The Rowan was below
him on the floor, tucked
between
his legs. She jumped up, brushed his
forehead with a kiss,
then
dragged him up as well.
Jeff responded with a firm hug and a
tender expression.
The Rowan stopped him with a stern
expression and a finger on his
lips.
To his puzzled expression she said:
`Let's talk in the kitchen.'
She
turned and, fingers twined with his, dragged him after her by the
hand.
The kitchen presented two good places to
sit: the barstools and
counter
near the stove and the larger circular table where they usually
ate (or
tried to) breakfast with the kids. Jeff
raised an eyebrow
enquiringly
at his love but she resisted his gentle probe until she
dropped
into one of the seats surrounding the kitchen table.
`Jeff, I'm scared,' the Rowan began. `If it hadn't been for Afra,
we
might have lost Damia completely.' `The ship was going to Altair,
luv,
not the Horsehead Nebula,' Jeff chided her gently. `They would
have
brought her back.' `What if she had panicked?' The Rowan wrung her
hands
together. `What if Afra hadn't been
there? Hadn't handled her
kinetic
thrust? She could have been lost for
ever.' She flung out her
hands
despairingly.
Jeff captured one in both of his,
stroking her palm gently with
his
fingers. He smiled up at her. `But she wasn't, luv Afra caught
her.'
Her answer came in a sob. `He did,
didn't he? Why didn't she
call
me?' Her eyes watered. `Oh, Jeff, am I
such a terrible mother?'
`No!'
Jeff's answer was emphatic, firm.
`Then why didn't she call to me?' the
Rowan cried. She pulled her
hand
out of his.
`You were too intent, Rowan. You had a freighter to `port-' `So
did
Afra!' she broke in. `He had that load
too! But she called to
him,
not me!' Again she pulled her hand free to wave it over her head
in more
wild gesturing.
`Rowan, love, who knows what goes on in
the mind of a two-year-old
child -
especially Damia's.' `She's almost three!' the Rowan corrected
him
almost absently.
Jeff shook his head. `No matter, she reacted out of panic, called
to the
first person to come to her mind. At
least, she's learned not
to
bother you when you're working.' `You see, I am a terrible mother!'
she
wailed.
Jeff let out a hot hiss of breath and
turned away, angry with the
Rowan
for her futile outburst of self-contempt.
`Well, it's certain that you're not doing
your new son much good,
getting
yourself all rolled up like this,' he remarked when he had
schooled
his emotions. `Damia's a spirited child
which makes her a
handful.'
He grinned, flicking a finger accusingly in her direction.
`If I recall correctly, you were just
about the same age when you
startled
a whole planet which is much more than your daughter's done.
The Rowan blinked and managed a small
chagrined smile. `Our
situations
were somewhat different but I take the point.' Then she
sighed
in despair. `Only I have no trouble
coping with Jeran and Cera
`Who
are even-tempered to the point of being phlegmatic and totally
engrossed
in their small selves to the exclusion, I might add, of their
younger
sister. Damia, on the other hand,
requires the same delicate
understanding
you received from Lusena. But we don't
have a Lusena
here,
who can devote every waking hour to the care and companionship of
our
Damia. Who is, it has been pointed out
to me, very much like her
mother. Opposites attract, luv, and alikes set
sparks. And, in
turning
to Afra in time of crisis, Damia's only following her mother's
good
example, isn't she?' He waggled his finger at her. `Imitation is
the
sincerest form of flattery.
Rowan drew breath to contradict, then let
it out in a long
defeated
sigh. Their eyes locked and a long
silence ensued. `If it
happened-'
she began.
`It'll happen again,' Jeff finished, nodding. `We may not be so
lucky
the next time.
`What can we do?' Jeff was a long time
forming an answer and, when
he did,
his voice was rueful. `For all my
fingers in Talent pies, I
haven't
been able to find a T-6 nanny. And I've
offered all kinds of
enticements.'
`You didn't tell me Jeff rolled his eyes at her
vehemence. `We'd need someone anyway with the new one
on the way. And
come
on, luv, after today, you wouldn't have complained if I had found
someone
suitable.' He exhaled and made a less palatable suggestion.
`We could try hypnotic`No!' the Rowan's
response was emphatic. `I
will
not have my children tampered with!' Jeff continued down the list
of
possibilities. `What about a pukha?'
`Damia has not been orphaned .
.
`She has been through a rather traumatic
experience `She doesn't
need a
pukha. She's got a mother and a father
. . -` `Remotes, then?
There're some excellent robotic-' `A
robot minding Damia?' Rowan
was
horrified. `A thing with no sensitivity
Why even a pukha would be
preferable!'
"Bots can't be distracted from the job they're programmed
for. Then Jeff shrugged that notion aside before
the Rowan gathered
her
contradiction. `I admit the notion
doesn't appeal to me but-'
`Hideous
notion!' `There is one possible alternative,' Jeff began,
careful
to sound tentative.
`What?' `It worked with me, Jeff began,
judiciously choosing his
words,
`though even a whole planet might not be large enough. We could
ask
Mother to take all three of them.
At least until you've delivered this
child.' `What? Admit to all
Deneb
and the Nine Star League that I can't look after my own
children?'
`No, admit to the Nine Star League that you are having a bad
pregnancy,
yet you honour your commitment as Prime.
But, because your
children
are special, you are willing to sacrifice your daily contact
with
them to ensure that they grow up as happily as possible,' Jeff
corrected
her. `Besides,' he continued on a fresh
breath, `what do you
care
for the opinion of others as long as the children are happy?' `But
your
mother can't possibly-' `It's not just mother who'd be involved
but my
brothers, sisters, cousins and nieces,' Jeff corrected. `They'd
all be
ecstatic. It'd be a good thing for
Deneb. You know how many
undeveloped
Talents you found in the city. Even
young as our kids are,
they've
had more training than anyone there.
Deneb's been reorganizing
- give
the planet examples of Talented children to stimulate interest
in that
natural resource. And,' Jeff added,
reaching over to pat her
belly
lovingly, `you'll be able to concentrate on him wholeheartedly.'
`Maybe
if I hadn't-' `You got pregnant for Damia, if you recall,' Jeff
gently
reminded her. `Mother would be over the
moon. And Ian's a good
lad:
he'd certainly be happy to have nephews and nieces to play with!'
The
Rowan had to smile at the incongruity of a seven year-old uncle.
Ian was the last born of Isthia Raven and
the first baby the Rowan
had had
a chance to handle. She could in fact
visualize him as a good
companion
for six-year-old Jeran who was much too preoccupied with a
sister
fifteen months his junior.
`Jeran could do with an older brother and
I'm sure Ian would be
glad to
oblige,' Jeff remarked, neatly accessing the Rowan's thoughts.
`Jeff-' the Rowan began in preparation
for a protest.
He raised a hand to forestall her then
placed it over hers.
`Sleep on it, love.' Gently he led her
from the kitchen to their
bedroom.
In bed, the Rowan rolled over. `Jeff?' `Mmm?' `Don't mention this
to
Afra, just yet.' `Of course not, not until you've made up your
mind,'
Jeff responded ingenuously.
As the week progressed and the ripples
from Damia's `accident'
spread
throughout the Nine Star League, with shipments late or lost,
the
Rowan found it increasingly harder to resist the suggestion.
`It's just that it's so unnatural!' the
Rowan railed late one
night
to her husband. Eyes tear-rimmed, she
turned to him. `Why can't
I look
after my own daughter?' Jeff patted her soothingly. `Hush, luv,
you
could, if you'd nothing else to do with your time. But look at the
demands
on you. Three highly Talented children,
another on the way,
long
hours in an FT&T Tower.' `But I don't want to be like Siglen Jeff
regarded
her with astonishment, then laughed, rocking her in his arms.
`Luv, you're no more like Siglen than
. . . than Brian Ackerman's
a
Reidinger clone. Sometimes, when I
think how that woman repressed
you,
babied you, gifted you with a load of rubbishy phobias, I wonder
you've
turned out as well as you have,' Jeff exclaimed. He cradled her
possessively.
`You've chosen not to repress or
overprotect your children and
they're
really rather marvellous. It's just
that,' he added ruefully,
`a
young Gwyn-Raven marvel is a handful for anyone!' The Rowan sighed
in
agreement.
`And you've three handfuls with a fourth
on the way.' Jeff moved a
hand to
rub her belly soothingly. `And then
there's this disturbing
report
from Elizara.' `Hmm?' The Rowan stirred uneasily at the change
of
topic. `Oh? That, well, yes, she mentioned something about
anomalies
in my latest lab results.' `Oh?' `7' The Rowan dismissed
them. `Elizara said she'd come back to me. It does happen.
`I'd really rather know a.s.a.p' Jeff
said with gentle insistence.
`I can't think why,' and he grinned, `but
you're very important to
me.' He
draped an arm about her shoulders and peered down at her
half-hidden
face.
She gave him a long, enigmatic look out
of the corner of her eye.
`I could . . .` she hesitated, `take a leave of absence from the
station!'
Before he recovered from his surprise, she added, `Afra could
take
over with you to give him a hand with the live and heavy stuff.'
The
suggestion bowled Jeff over.
Sympathetically he drew her against
him as
he mulled it over, digesting the notion - and also the Rowan's
reason
for making such a drastic proposal. He
knew how important the
Callisto
post was to her. And, in the normal way
of things, she ran it
faultlessly. He'd seen Reidinger's private notes about
her management.
The Altairian freighter episode was
unique in every way. He could
feel
through her that he had delayed an answer long enough to cause her
to
fret.
`You could. You're entitled to leave,' and he stroked her hair,
grinning. `None of us Primes take even a quarter of
the leave we're
allowed. I could transfer Saggoner and Torshan here
. . . And, with
the
index finger of his free hand, he prodded the bedspread, miming the
moves
he would have to make. Then he
frowned. `Of course, they've
become
indispensable to Altair and that system hasn't got DEW yet .
Gollee could be spared to assist Afra
here . . .` His voice
dropped
out while he considered the ramifications.
Then he made
eye-contact
with the Rowan and tightened his arm about her. `There's
another
possible solution. Mother!' The Rowan
poked at him in disgust,
physically
and mentally because he was concealing something. `Your
mother
can't run a Tower.' `No,' and Jeff's grin was wide if the sense
of him
was tentative, almost wary, `but she sure raises kids well.'
`After
all she's had to raise? You'd saddle
her with Damia ?` `And
Jeran
and Cera,' and Jeff was dead serious now.
`If Damia has learned
to
`port, that pair are too competitive not to mimic the kid sister's
trick.'
The Rowan's expression mirrored the fearful tension Jeff could
feel in
mind and body. `We're so far from Deneb
-` the Rowan began
defensively. Abruptly she gave him a sharp poke in the
diaphragm that
made
him grunt: her look altered as she jabbed him again, harder.
`You devious unrepentant dark! That was all pretence about
shifting
T-ratings. You had this in mind all
along!
You're no better than Reidinger now
you're Earth Prime.
The Callisto Station runs best through
me. . . even when I'm
spewing
my guts with morning sickness.' Jeff coughed delicately.
`Actually, the highest efficiencies and
throughput were achieved
when I
was Prime.' The Rowan glared at him, words unneeded. Jeff
shrugged.
`Well, you could run Earth!' `Jeff!' she
growled, launching
herself
on top of him. The Rowan broke off the
ensuing play fight with
a
groan. She pushed herself away from
him.
`Are you OK?' Jeff asked solicitously for
her complexion had
turned
an odd grey.
The Rowan nodded raggedly. `Uh, our little one decided to join in
the
fun.' `I'm calling Elizara,' Jeff said in tones that brooked no
argument. `And the children are going to Deneb.' When
the Rowan
started
to protest, he held up a hand.
`This pregnancy is not proceeding
normally and I won't risk losing
you.'
Elizara arrived so promptly that, despite the Rowan's
protestations
that Jeff was being overprotective, she was alarmed.
Elizara immediately reassured both
parents that the child was not
under
any stress.
`You are,' she said, pointing an accusing
finger at the Rowan.
`I've checked, and double checked, the
lab reports of your latest
tests. You have developed what's known as
gestational diabetes,
Rowan.'
`Diabetes?' Jeff sat down heavily on the bed beside his wife,
drawing
her into his arms as if his protection would mitigate the
illness.
`It's not uncommon in pregnancies, though
it usually manifests
itself
in the first or second. The condition
passes when the baby is
born.'
She was readying a hypospray as she spoke.
`This injection
should
balance your glucose levels.' `But I've always been so healthy.
I've had three easy pregnancies ---` The
Rowan was stunned.
Elizara nodded. `So you have. This time
you're not. You will
have to
watch your diet and your workload.
Stress must be reduced or
you can
do yourself, and the child, serious harm.' She turned to Jeff.
`I know that Callisto Station is a vital
link in the FT&T network,
but I
have to insist that the Rowan's schedule is lightened.
`As of right now,' Jeff said and he
`pathed through the
restriction
to Afra and Brian Ackerman.
Elizara caught and held the Rowan's
gaze. `Right now, Rowan?' She
nodded,
no longer able to deny the consuming weariness she had
struggled
to ignore. She lay back on the pillows
and wanted to weep.
`Oh, Jeff. I'm so sorry.' `Sorry?
What for?' Jeff enfolded her
in his
arms, alarmed to see tears streaming down her face. `Not your
fault,
luv, that your body's done gone and let you down. Mind you,
there're
not many pregnant women who could hold a megatonne freighter
in
sheer determination not to let it drop forever out of sight. Not to
mention
all the other minor little crises you seem to deal with every
day.
Then, too,' and his grin turned to sheer
mischief as he realized
that
sympathy was not helping, `if you'd allowed me to produce this
embryo
in the time-honoured fashion He cocked his head, hoping that
he'd
taken just the right teasing note with her.
She stopped crying and glared at
him. `You can't blame the whole
thing
on me! Sperm's sperm no matter how I
acquired it.' Then she
caught
his expression and began to giggle.
`Oh, all right. I did do
this on
my own and I'm paying for it! And it is
my fault. But you
wouldn't
help me. Damia is such a caring
child. Look how she treats
Rascal
and the Coonies `Paints them pretty colours `But she cleaned
them
up. She just wants what Jeran and Cera
already have: a sibling to
care
for and play with.' `And you're having your own way, and now we'll
take
over,' he said, squeezing her affectionately and rubbing his cheek
against
hers. `But we'll get you sorted
out. We'll make sure that you
get
lots of rest, all the best exercise, he sniggered suggestively,
`and no
hassles.' `The children?' she asked almost fearfully, though
she
`felt' that he had also taken that decision from her.
`Are going to Deneb. I've already talked with Mother and she's
got
some ideas that ought to solve her problems and our problems.
And,' he paused significantly, pulling
back enough to catch her
eyes
with his, `you'll agree to give yourself a long break before you
ask me
politely and in the normal fashion - for another baby.' He eyed
her
sternly `Oh, I will!' the Rowan replied, earnestly wide-eyed. `I
will!
Afra caught up with Jeff Raven. Brian Ackerman was right behind
him. `She will be all right, won't she?' `Elizara
told you
everything?'
Jeff asked, allowing Afra to `see' the concern he had kept
from
the Rowan. `She must keep her
metabolism balanced. Elizara had a
private
word with me before she went back to her clinic.
Rowan did not wait long enough between
pregnancies to get her
metabolism
back to normal. If we keep her occupied
with a decent
workload,
less than she does normally but enough to keep her pride
intact,
and if we keep her emotions in check - you know better than I,
perhaps,
how unstable her emotions have been in this pregnancy ` He
grinned
as Afra rolled his eyes expressively and Brian exhaled a long
and
hard-used sigh.
-- then she should be fine.' `What'll
happen next time?' Ackerman
asked
sceptically.
Jeff nodded. `Elizara has hopes.
Nothing can be done now but
afterwards
there are treatments which can prevent a recurrence.'
Ackerman
looked dubious. `I thought that another
pregnancy would
always
cause permanent diabetes.' `Used to,' Jeff said. `But Elizara
assures
me that this is no longer so. He
regarded them thoughtfully.
`The children are going to Deneb. We'll have to do that quickly.'
He
looked directly at Afra.
`If it's to be done, `were better swiftly
done,' Afra said,
agreeing
and forcing a grin from Jeff at the misquotation.
`Today.
Brian and I can organize transport.' `Sure, sure thing,'
Brian
answered, wondering why he was being seconded to an unenviable
chore,
but Afra would have his own reasons.
`I'm not sure what tack to take in
breaking the news to Damia,'
Jeff
said, twisting his mouth in dismay.
`The poor little thing's been
so
subdued lately.' `I'd be surprised if she wasn't,' Afra said. `How
did you
get the Rowan to capitulate the children away?' `That freighter
debacle
helped almost as much as realizing she's risking the baby if
she
doesn't take care,' Jeff said. `I just
don't want Damia connecting
her
disobedience with her summary exile.' `Why will she? If Jeran and
Cera
are to go with her,' Afra asked.
`Emphasize that the Rowan's sick
- which
Damia certainly senses already. Jeran
and Cera probably do,
too.
They may be self-involved but they're not
insensitive to their
surroundings.
`No, they're not.' In fact, Tanya had
told Jeff how agitated the
pair
had been following the freighter episode.
And they had known that Damia had been in
trouble.
They'd even spontaneously involved her in
more than one game in
daycare. `When?' Jeff asked, his decision made.
`Today,' Afra responded immediately.
`Isn't that precipitous?' Jeff worried
about the Rowan 5
reaction to what seemed, even to him,
like an almost indecent
haste.
`Your mother is ready and waiting,' Afra
added, giving Raven the
distinct
impression that Afra had been in private collusion with her.
Jeff Raven sighed, nodding and thinking
of all the matters
awaiting
his attention back on Earth. `Very
well.
Let's do it today then.' Damia had
practised very hard at being
good
for two whole days. Tanya collected her
in the morning because
Damia
already knew that Mother was very tired and was resting all day
in
bed. Damia wondered if something was
wrong with the Tower. Mother
never
stayed away from there for very long.
So, because Daddy had said
that
Damia must be quiet, she expanded that request to include her
hours
at the daycare. Occasionally she would
glance around to be sure
that
Tanya noticed how well she was behaving.
She had not meant to cause trouble; she
had just got frightened
when
the ship lurched so suddenly. Her
voyages had always gone
smoothly. Then she had `felt' her mother involved in
the lurching and
she
became afraid that Mommy was mad at her.
So, she'd had to call
Afra
for help. She was sure that he would explain
to Mommy and then
everything
would be all right.
But everything was still not right; Damia
suppressed a momentary
surge
of anger at Afra for not making everything better.
Damia?
Someone `called' to her.
Afra! It was Afra!
She turned around. `Afra!' she called aloud, rising to run over
to
him. She knew she was supposed not to
`call' rather than speak but
she
could not help a little hopeful echo.
Afra?
Afra squatted down and hugged the small
child.
`You've come to play with me because I've
been very good and
quiet,'
she cried in happy expectation. She
gave him a coy, beguiling
look,
blue eyes peering up through jet black hair, trying to think
which
game she could involve Afra in.
`Tanya said you have indeed been quiet
and well mannered,' Afra
replied. `So if we can play something while I talk
with you Happily
Damia
led him over to her corner, a small hand wrapped around his big
finger. `We can play station,' she decided, having
discarded several
other
possibilities as they walked. `I'll be
the Prime and you be my
twic.
`Twic?' `Two-I-C?' Damia tried again.
Afra chuckled. `Second-in-command!
Certainly,' he gave her a
mock
bow from his cross-legged seat on the floor, `your wish is my
command.
Damia placed her hands on her hips and
cocked her head at him
irritably. `Afra!' `What?' Damia waggled a finger at
him. `You know.
Now play right.' Afra obliged, working up
a manifest of cows, cats
and
clam chowder for their first load. They
did three loads before
Afra
decided that she was sufficiently relaxed.
`Where's the next load?' Damia asked, a
pout at the ready.
`How would you like to be a load? A proper one, just like those
you've
seen leave the station.' Damia hesitated, not sure she really
wanted
to play in the pods right now. `You'll
have a proper carisak to
take on
board for your trip.' `Trip?' Damia was not enthusiastic but
she
knew she could trust Afra. If he felt
she should be a proper load
`Jeran
and Cera will be going too.' Damia was not happy about that.
She'd rather do something that they
didn't. They were so mean
about
sharing with her - though they'd been much nicer the past two
days.
`Are you?' she asked, looking up
hopefully but Afra shook his
head. `Then I don't want to.' `Ah, but you see,
your grandmother has
especially
invited you to come. You'll like her.'
Suddenly sensing
that
Afra was not playing the sort of game she liked, Damia threw
herself
at him, clutching his neck fiercely with her arms. `I want
you!'
Afra gently disengaged her, his hands wrapped around her tiny
waist,
holding her from him so that he could keep eye-contact as well
as
reinforce his words through touch.
`Damia, you need to go on this
trip,'
he said in his gentlest, most persuasive tone.
`Your
grandmother
has made such special arrangements for you.' He ignored her
pout. `You'll have cousins your own age. . . cousins who'll include
you in
all their games. Indeed, knowing you,
you'll probably be
leader.'
`I would?' Damia was captivated by that prospect. Being
youngest,
she wasn't allowed to lead anything here.
`You'll have a whole planet to play on,
not a bunch of domes that
restrict
you to one measly play area and dank tunnels.' `But I like the
tunnels
`That's only because you haven't seen the wonders of a planet
that
your Uncle Ian-' `Uncle?' She wrinkled her nose in perplexity.
`Your Uncle Ian. He's seven.' `He's not my age then. He's older
than
Jeran.' She frowned suspiciously at him.
`Who's my age?' Afra
laughed
because he hadn't enquired about such details.
`Well, there're
so many
I quite forget who's who and how old but your grandmother will
introduce
you.
She's waiting for you, you know, on
Deneb. Where your father
lived
as a child.' `I'm staying here,' Damia declared stoutly, crossing
her
arms over her chest in bold emphasis.
`Which toys do you want to bring?' Afra
asked, looking around at
the pile.
`Why can't I stay here?' Afra considered
his next argument.
`Well, you know that your mother's not
well?' When Damia nodded,
her
little face assuming a solemn expression, he went on, `It's because
of your
brother to be.' `I'm going to have a brother?' Damia brightened
considerably.
Afra nodded wisely. `Don't tell your mother I said so, but yes.'
`Will
he play with me?' `I imagine so,' Afra returned. `Are you going
to be
nice to him?' Damia did not commit herself immediately. `Will he
play
with me like Jeran plays with Cera?' `That depends on you,' Afra
replied,
giving her a quizzical look. `If you
love him like Jeran
loves
Cera then he'll play with you the same way.
`I'll love him!' Damia declared
excitedly. `When am I going to
see
him?' `Well, he hasn't been born yet-' `You mean he's in Mommy's
belly?'
Afra nodded. `And she's got to get him
out?' Afra nodded
again. `Is that why we're going to Gran?' Again
Afra nodded. `Then
why
didn't you say so?' Afra, who had already had experience with her
precocity,
wondered why he had tried the oblique approach with her.
`We started to play a game of stations,
remember?' he said,
teasingly. `Let's gather your toys.
`Don't my cousins have toys?' `Yes, but
surely you'll want to
share
yours with them?' `I guess so, if they're going to play with me,'
Damia
replied cheerfully.
Damia's mood changed perceptibly when it
was time to strap down in
the
personal capsule. `I don't want to go
by myself,' she cried to
Afra. Jeff Raven, lips drawn thin in tight
control, stood close by.
`Daddy, make Afra come with me?' `No,
honey,' Afra told her.
`I've got to stay here with your mother.'
He picked her up and set
her
beside her brother and sister, strapping her in against her
squirming.
`I don't want to go!' she declared.
What about your brother? Afra asked her privately.
Don't want a brother! I want you!
She shot back so strongly that
Afra
was startled by her vehemence.
The `noise' attracted the Rowan who
`ported in the direction of
her
daughter's `voice' Damia? What's
wrong? What's going on here?'
she
demanded. Her eyes widened as she took
in the tableau.
`Jeff!
Not yet! It's too soon!' `Luv,
you should be resting.'
`You
weren't going to let me say goodbye?' the Rowan cried.
Jeff took her hands in his, shaking his
head. `You're not saying
goodbye. You're saying bon voyage. The children will only be in
Deneb. You can hear them no problem.' `Jeff!' she
started, accusingly.
She saw Afra. `You!
You're in it too!' `Rowan-' Afra started,
stepping towards her,
arm
outstretched beseechingly.
`No!' `Mommee!' Damia cried, struggling
against her straps.
`Oh Jeff, how could you?' the Rowan
gasped.
And then Damia disappeared out of her
straps and into Afra's arms.
The Rowan's eyes widened in shock as she
saw her youngest
disappear,
then her jaw dropped as she saw where she reappeared. She
turned to
Jeff, hurt amazement on her face.
`She's got the hang of it, hasn't she?'
Jeff told her quietly.
`What if she were to jump into the
vacuum?' The Rowan blinked,
wetted
her lips and looked back to her daughter, speechless.
Say goodbye to your mother, Damia, Afra
said on the tightest
mental
band he could exercise, and with such authority that he felt her
objections
melting in the absence of any option.
He took her to her
parents.
And my brother? Damia begged in what Afra knew was a last ditch
delaying
tactic.
Very quietly, he said, without letting up
on his authority.
Damia stretched from his arms to wrap her
own around her mother's
neck. `I'll be good, Mommy,' she promised,
planting a pair of wet lips
firmly
on her mother's cheek.
`For my brother.' The Rowan hugged her
back, suppressing the agony
of
separation. Any weakness on her part
would undo all the preparation
Afra
had managed. `I'm only just a thought
away, Damia dear.' `Even in
the Tower?'
Damia asked anxiously.
The Rowan closed her eyes briefly against
that soft query.
`I promise, darling, that while you're
away - and, if you're a
good
girl - you can even speak to me in the Tower.' `Oh!' Damia's voice
was
charged with relief and she smiled broadly.
`Daddy, too?' `If you
remember
that we might be too busy to talk long,' Jeff said, holding up
a
warning finger.
`Afra?' `Well, minxlette, I'm not as good
at long distance as your
parents
are, but I'll listen real hard.' `I'll call real big.' Then she
squirmed
to be released from Afra's restraint.
He sensed what she wanted to do and let
her down. She put her
hands
on her mother's abdomen and said with an amazingly narrow shaft
of
thought, I'll be the best sister anyone's ever had. Her face
radiated
a contentment that he had never seen on her face since her
baby
days.
To his intense surprise, Afra became
aware that neither the Rowan
nor
Jeff had heard Damia's promise. He was
more relieved than ever
that
she'd be away from the hazards of a domed station.
`Now,' he said, taking charge of matters
again, `let's just get
you
settled,' and he picked her up and started to settle her back into
the
capsule.
`When can we go?' Jeran demanded with a
flavour of impatience for
all
this delay Cera glared briefly at Damia.
`As soon as I'm feeling better, your
father and I will come visit
. . .`
the Rowan began, speaking to forestall tears, so she was
grateful
for the suggestion Afra `pathed to her, ` .
. . and see you
being
the leader of all your new friends ` But she fully intended to
tell
him just what she thought of his part in this hasty exile of her
children.
`Will you visit me too, Afra?' Damia
demanded.
`Of course,' he replied, `we're to play
stations, aren't we?' As
the
capsule closed, her submission vanished.
`No!
NO!' she shrieked, voice muffled inside
the capsule.
Damia!
Jeff had been ready for such a reverse and he clamped such
a hold
on her mind that she was rendered powerless.
Afra!
Afra! I want to stay! Please?
I'll be good.
Ready the generators, Jeff ordered the
Tower personnel.
Afra?
The generators rose in pitch.
Be good now, sweetheart! Afra felt her fear, like an icicle
against
his heart but he firmed his mind against her plea, trying to
deny
how treacherous she must perceive him.
Aaaffffrrra! The squeal of the generators rose to a crescendo.
The capsule disappeared. The generators wound back down.
They're here! the distant voice of Isthia informed them calmly.
My, can she scream!
Afra let out a long-held breath in a
ragged sigh.
The Rowan threw herself into Jeff's arms,
weeping bitterly. `I
feel the
most complete traitor,' she cried.
`You're not the only one,' Jeff replied,
noticing the haggard look
on
Afra's face. `But we had to. You know that.' `I do, but oh, Jeff!'
Suddenly
the Rowan looked up, her expression radiant, despite the tear
stains. `I can hear her!
I can still hear her!' Afra turned
away. `I can't!' And he
`ported
himself back to his resoundingly lonely quarters, hearing
Damia'
s prattle echoing from every corner.
It had taken Deneb seven years to recover
from the Beetle attack.
City was a thriving centre for the whole
planet which now had two
other
metropolises: Riverside and Whitecliff.
Both were seaports
located
close to extensive mining operations on the other continents.
Roads were still mostly the illusion of
roads elsewhere in the
Nine
Star League, but sea-going vessels plied a great trade on the high
seas
and railroads connected smaller villages along the coastline to
the
larger cities.
Deneb's Tower was located at the same
site the Rowan had renovated
so many
years ago and it was near here that Isthia and the Raven clan
had
their town dwelling.
This was built around the original
smaller house that had
partially
survived the Beetle bombardment. Wings
had been added on as
the
Raven clan grew and expanded. These now
enclosed a large central
garden,
perfect for a play area.
The dwelling was on a large parcel of
land, with hills rising
through
forest to one side, farm land and barns on another two and the
City
skyline visible in the distance.
Many lessons had been learned since the
Expansion from Earth.
Denebians, indeed all colonists, had a
greater feel of husbandry
for the
land than had early Earth dwellers.
Forests had been marked off as reserves
for oxygen generation,
mines
were always tunnelled when bacteria leeching techniques were not
viable,
and, most importantly, the clean quiet flitter for medium and
long
distances had replaced noxious internal combustion-powered,
wheeled
vehicles. Shorter trips made use of
small, sturdy and
tractable
ponies who thrived on the rough grazing and wandered
unchecked
in small herds.
Deneb, and all colony worlds, started
life indebted for the large
cost of
the initial colonization of the planet.
As such, all colony
worlds
sought rapidly to provide export goods while at the same time
limiting
imports to the bare essentials. The
best export items were
those
that commanded the greatest prices for the least effort to ship.
Rare or high quality finished goods,
objects d'art, music,
literature
all fitted the category perfectly.
Knowledge and useful new
engineering
techniques, patentable to the planet of origin, were even
more
exportable but much rarer - the great engineering solution of one
planet
was often inapplicable on another. Raw
materials, valuable but
bulky,
were a poor last choice of a cash-starved colony.
Talent, particularly those rare people
who could hurl objects
through
the depths of space instantaneously, was the greatest boon to a
colony's
cash flow. Talent was in short supply
everywhere and in every
kind,
from the metal finder who could locate high grade ore precisely
and
perform remote assays which would cost a regular crew millions of
credits
and years of time in scant seconds, to the electronic
specialist
who could detect faults in circuitry by its `feel' The Raven
clan
had produced a number of such Talents but, until the Penetration
had
tapped these hidden resources, such natural abilities had gone
relatively
untrained. The Rowan had identified
some useful faculties
besides
the medical Talents of Asaph and Isthia's sister, Rakella, when
she'd
had to rebuild the Tower in the days after Jeff's accident.
Sarjie had a metal affinity which she now
used in the rich
Benevolent
Mines that supplied much of Deneb's cash balance. Morfanu
had
been struggling to manage kinetic Talent and had been tested as a
T-3. He now handled most of the FT&T
transfers to the planet, though
he
needed assistance.
Besseva was telepathic but her range was
limited.
Of the untrained Talent of Deneb, Isthia
Raven was the strongest
but she
knew herself that she dabbled in too many things to perfect
one. So, to bring her grandchildren here in the
safest possible
fashion,
she had assembled everyone on Deneb known to be Talented.
She'd hovered so closely in Morfanu's
mind when he `caught' the
capsule
from Callisto, that he'd had to kick her shins to divert her.
It took no Talent at all to hear Damia
bawling or the fierce
remonstrations
of her brother and sister.
`Why are you crying? You're perfectly safe! And it's your fault
Mother
and Father sent us away!' irs NOT! IT'S
NOT! Damia was as loud
mentally
as physically.
No, it's not, Grandson Jeran. I, your grandmother, specifically
invited
Damia, and you and your sister, to come live with me on Deneb.
To Isthia's relief, Damia's bowling
abated.
I had to argue long and hard with your
parents to allow this
visit. Now, are we going to start off on the right
foot by being
pleasant,
or do I send away the ponies I brought for you to ride home
on?
Ponies?
Damia asked, now merely sniffling.
Ponies?
And Cera showed a glimmer of interest.
What kind of
ponies? The kind Damia's always playing with? Her tone was scornful
as well
as sceptical and her sudden very private aside to her brother
on this
matter caused Isthia some concern. That
bond she and Afra had
initiated
was far stronger than she'd been given to understand.
Why don't you all put on your best faces
and party manners, and
we'll
see, shall we? Damia? I've told everyone about you and how
wonderfully
well-mannered you all are. Don't
disappoint me. Isthia
employed
the same positive tone she had always found useful in dealing
with
her dozen children.
These three, after all, were also
Ravens. Are you ready?
She motioned for her son, Ian, to stand
beside her. He'd been
jiggling
with impatience to see his nieces and nephew.
Being the youngest in his family, he
envisioned the fun he'd i86
have bossing someone around the way his
older siblings had bossed
him.
The capsule split, the top rising upwards
to reveal the inside.
Isthia was relieved to see that, while
not beaming, Damia was
attempting
to smile around her wide-eyed curiosity.
`Welcome to Deneb,' Ian piped up on cue,
he looked to each one in
turn,
`Jeran, Cera, Damia. I'm Ian, your
uncle.' He did not giggle but
his
eyes were bright with suppressed laughter.
He swept an arm back to
his
mother in continuation of his carefully rehearsed greeting. `And
that's
Morfanu who `ported you here, and your Great Aunt Rakella, and-'
`Ponies?'
Cera said, looking accusingly at Isthia, `you promised ponies
`We
did, didn't we?' Isthia said mildly when Ian looked at her for
guidance. He hadn't introduced half those he was
supposed to. `As
promised,
ponies,' and she nodded to Ian.
Grinning from ear to ear because he could
get to show off so soon,
Ian
`called' the ponies from where they browsed on the grass growing
among
the cradles. Obedient to the summons,
they trotted to him while
the
children, still in the capsule, stared with wide open mouths and
eyes at
the little troop.
Damia was out of the capsule like a shot,
Jeran and Cera not a
split
second behind her. But Damia stopped
just short of the first
pony,
taking in his flaxen mane and tail which Ian had plaited that
morning,
the darker `beer' of his hide, his dainty hooves, his bright
black
eyes, alert with interest.
`Just hold out your hand - flat so
Jupiter can't catch your
fingers
- and let him sniff you,' Ian instructed.
`What's this one's name?' Cera asked,
already holding her hand out
to the
lighter-coloured mare nearest her.
`And this one?' Jeran asked, wanting his
answer from Ian before
Cera
had hers.
`The mare is Birdie, Cera, and, Jeran,
your gelding is Cricket,'
Ian
said, genuinely enjoying his role.
If Afra had been told about the ponies,
Jeff, Isthia remarked to
her son
later that night when her grandchildren had finally been put to
bed,
there'd've been no fits on leaving.
I forgot you still had to use those
wretched beasts, Jeff said
ruefully
for he had stopped riding the moment he had learned how to
teleport
accurately. Afra will be immensely
relieved. He was talking
about
sending out a Coonie or two to keep her from being too lonely.
Thank you, no. There's enough livestock to be cared for about the
place. As it is, it took a lot of persuasion to get
Damia to sleep in
her bed
instead of out in the paddock with Jupiter.
Jeff chuckled. Jupiter?
Yes, Damia was so pleased by that. She has a remarkable
appreciation
of her environment, doesn't she?
Anyway, reassure
Angharad
that all's well.
I will, but I may not mention that she's
been displaced by
runty-legged
manure-makers.
The Rowan knew that the children had
arrived safely and were
settling
in but she'd given himself and Afra such a bollocking for the
way
they had practically abducted her children that he decided not to
risk
another storm.
She was resting now, more deeply than she
had in many months.
That was something he wouldn't mention
though he was intensely
glad to
see how effective the lifting of her maternal burden had been.
Those run legged manure makers are the
best possible antidote for
unsealed
kids. Damia had firm control over Jupe
in about five minutes.
Cera wasn't all that pleased with the
effect of a long ride on her
tender
behind but Besseva slathered her with an appropriate salve.
Jeran's being pompous. He's so much like your father at moments!
Jeff chuckled because he knew exactly
what his mother meant. Then
I shall
expect to see him much improved when we get a chance to visit.
Ah, about that! Leave it a while.
Angharad really oughtn't to
travel
- too much stress. And let the children
settle in completely.
Rhodri and Ian took half a dozen tapes
which I'll get Morfanu to
zip off
to you. That should reassure you both.
I am, I am, Mother, and can't thank you
enough for pitching in
like
this.
Oh, I had my reasons.
But when Jeff probed to find out what
they were, Isthia refused to
admit
him.
Besseva, noting Isthia's smug grin,
raised her eyebrows
enquiringly.
`I've reassured the doting papa that his
little ones are safely
asleep
in their cots,' Isthia said and resumed her smile slightly.
`We're going to have to watch that
youngest one,' Besseva said.
`Oooh, but she's powerful.' `Hmmm, yes.
`But really, Isthia, aren't they a bit
young?' `Not at all,'
Isthia
replied stoutly. `They'll have fewer
inhibitions.' `And get
into
more trouble, too.
`Besseva, we've got to develop our own
Talents, and that requires
Talent. One blind man can't lead another
effectively.' `But they're
children!'
Besseva's voice rose slightly in protest and Isthia,
mentally
and physically, shushed her.
Ian was working in the corner, giving his
niece's saddle a good
soaping
to soften the leather.
`And a little child shall lead them,'
Isthia said, her eyes
sparkling.
`You are the absolute end, Isthia Raven.
`On the contrary, I'm the beginning,'
Isthia replied.
`And, if I'm going on as I mean for them
to begin, I'm going to
need a
good night's sleep.' She gave a gusty sigh.
`Why do children have the reserves of
energy people my age so
desperately
need?' `Huh!' Besseva said in contradiction to that
complaint.
Lying in a new bed into which she had
been tucked by her
fascinating
grandmother, Damia was still reviewing all the wonderful
things
that had happened since the capsule had opened. Being on Deneb
was
much better than hearing Daddy talk about it.
And why hadn't he
ever
mentioned that Deneb had ponies? She
sighed and, to make sure he
was all
right, she `reached' to touch Jupiter.
He'd stopped eating and
was
idly flicking his tail, as much to discourage the minute
nightfliers
from settling on Birdie's head as to keep them off himself.
His mind was drowsy with sleep.
Just like Rascal's when he was curled up
on her bed. Was Rascal
missing
her? Damia wondered. He'd have no-one to sleep with. A sad
feeling
made her throat constrict. Poor
Rascal! Maybe, just tonight,
Daddy
would let him sleep on the foot of their bed.
She loved having a
pony
but a pony couldn't sleep at the foot of her bed and she missed
the
comforting presence.
`Mrrow?' came a plaintive call from
outside her door.
Damia had been given a proper bed without
railings.
She crawled out from under the covers and
opened her door.
`Mrrr?' `Who are you?' Damia called
sleepily. A large orange and
white
cat marched into the room, rubbing himself against her leg. `Oh,
you're
beautiful.' Though the animal was as tall as her waist, Damia
hoisted
him into her arms, once again exerting kinetic energy without
realizing
what she'd done in her wish to do what she needed. `There,'
she
said, `9' glared ferociously at Damia so that she knew she'd suffer
his
retribution, too, if she tried any of her tricks.
Damia was far too entranced with her new friends to think of any
`tricks'. She listened, very carefully, to the
instructions Linna
Maybrick
gave the class - hearing it on two levels - and sometimes
puzzling
at the contradictions.
But when she saw the others obeying what
was said aloud, she
followed
their example.
At the morning break, she let Jorg lead
the way to the playground
where
the four tablemates played together, climbing all over the
`mountain'
and down into the `tunnels' and swinging over the rivers'
and
revelling in noise and happy dirtinesses, for the play area was
dirty
and full of shavings.
Linna Maybrick, their teacher, watched
carefully from the doorway.
Alla climbed to the top of the `mountain'
and hesitated for a
moment
at the top of the slide down for it was, for a child, a huge
drop. One of the more aggressive older boys was
behind her and he lost
patience,
giving her a push on her way. His
thrust was off-centered
and
caught Alla just as she was bent to sit on the slide. Thrown
off-balance,
she teetered to one side, a two-metre free-fall to the
playground
below.
Alla screamed. Damia, who had been waiting at the bottom, gave a
horrified
shout, then `concentrated'. Linna, who
had started running
the
moment she saw the boy shove Alla, came to an abrupt halt as the
little
girl bounced gently on to the hard ground.
Damia rushed over to
her
friend and helped her up.
`Are you OK?' Alla nodded shakenly. `I got pushed.' Then she
cocked
her head. `Did you do that?' Damia
turned suddenly shy. If she
admitted
to doing any `tricks' she wouldn't be able to ride Jupe. `Do
what?'
she asked ingenuously.
Alla narrowed her eyes at Damia. `Well, someone did something.
Jorg, who had watched the whole incident
wide-eyed, looked at
Damia
critically. `You're not from here.' `I
am, too. I live with my
grandmother
and my uncle.' She pointed towards Ian who was playing with
older
boys on an adjacent field. Jorg peered
in the direction but his
eyes
were suspicious when he turned back to her.
`I know about the Ravens. My dad says they're all FT&T freaks.'
Damia
didn't know the word `freak' but she did know FT&T. Everyone she
knew
worked for FT&T and were proud of it.
`Why, thank you very much,' Damia said
while Alla gawked at her in
stunned
surprise.
So did Jorg, having anticipated a far
different response to the
insult.
`But you're a freak!' he shouted and she
picked up on the
pejorative
this time.
`There's no need to shout,' Damia said,
dismally aware that the
three
of them were suddenly the centre of attention.
Abruptly Jeran and Cera made their way
through the tight knot of
children.
`Who called my sister a freak?' Jeran
demanded, fists clenched at
the
ready. Beside him, Cera assumed a
similar stance. Jorg nervously
retreated.
`Actually, he said I was an FT&T
freak, Jeran,' Damia replied,
worried
lest her brother realize she'd done something that could be
accounted
a `trick' even if it had saved Alla from injury.
Jeran frowned intently at his sister for
a moment and then,
bracing
himself again, unerringly settled on Jorg as the culprit. But
the
recess bell sounded and Jorg was the first one into the school.
Back in class, Jorg quickly spread the
rumour that Damia was a
freak. She felt miserable, especially as Alla
wouldn't even look
across
the table at her. On the other side,
Jenifer's grin turned
slightly
malicious and she kept staring at Damia.
When Isthia collected her after school,
she naturally asked how
Damia
had liked her first day at school, and was taken aback by the
fierce
answer.
`I hate it. I'm not going back.' On the flitter ride to the Raven
compound,
Isthia deftly drew out the reason for Damia's discontent.
She was both saddened and angered that
her grandchild had had such
an
unfortunate encounter on her very first day.
`Jorg is wrong. You are not a freak,' Isthia assured her, `even
an
FT&T freak. And you were very quick
about saving your friend from
injury.'
`She's scared of me now and Jenifer just stares at me,
grinning!'
`Stare back at her and I'd suggest you give Alla a little
time to
get over being rescued. She must have
been surprised to bounce
on the
ground when she expected to crash.' Damia considered that.
`Yes, I guess she was more surprised than
anything else. Least
she
wasn't hurt.' Isthia ruffled her hair affectionately. `That's
right.'
Damia regarded her grandmother solemnly.
`Then rescuing Alla
isn't a
real trick and I can still ride Jupiter?' The incident, as
embellished
by Jorg, set Damia apart from the others and while in time
even
Jorg was glad of her unprejudiced use of Talent to protect her
playmates
from the worst ravages of the playground, Alla was willing
only to
be her acquaintance. The lack of a
close friend disturbed
Damia
and worried Isthia. To compensate, the
youngster would often
accept
greater challenges in school and, at home, would often take off
on
Jupiter for lengthy adventures.
I fear she is a solitary soul, Isthia
remarked in a conversation
with
her parents.
That's not a Raven trait! Jeff, who had always had a pack of boys
to lead
on excursions, replied.
No, its more apt to be a Greyn trait, I'm
afraid, the Rowan said
bitterly. I thought that it was just being Ward of the
Planet and
having
much older foster siblings, but perhaps it is a personality
thing.
You bestow your affections frugally,
Angharad dear, Isthia said
gently,
but where you do you are selfless.
But I was so lonely! the Rowan cried. I didn't want Damia to be
lonely,
too.
It may be in Damia's nature to be
solitary, Isthia replied.
But she's not lonely. There's Jupiter to ride about on, most of
the
workdogs when they're free, and Marmalade on her bed at night.
She's not lonely. She does have companions at school even ,f
she
hasn't
established a true-blue friendship.
That'll probably take a
little
more time.
Well, maybe she'll be happier for a
brother.
How are you feeling? Isthia asked hopefully.
The Rowan responded with a mental
sigh. Jeff added, She hates to
admit
it but she's been doing much better since the children left.
Isthia could feel the mental nuzzle Jeff
sent to his love. She
can
concentrate on growing this new one, can't you, luv?
I should be able to manage as much as you
did, Isthia! the Rowan
complained
guiltily Ah, yes, but I was not running a power Tower nor
was my
husband absent all day long on another world.
Then again, as
soon as
my el&st was able, I had him minding babies. Your Jeran's a
solidly
responsible boy, Angharad, and I love him dearly but he's not
quite
ready to baby-sit Dam:a.
The Rowan chuckled at the thought of the
self-contained Jeran
trying
to handle his wild-mooded sister. Well,
maybe he'll be able to
sit for
this one.
Damia awoke with a gasp. Someone was crying. Someone felt bad.
Instinctively, with a sense of compassion
which was fundamental to
her
nature, Damia reached out to calm the person.
Her mental `hand'
stretched
far, farther than she actively remembered.
Whoever was
crying
was upset because it was cold and wet and had been warm just a
few
moments ago. Something rough was
rubbing against it.
It's a towel! Damia exclaimed as she identified it. It's all
right,
you'll be warm and dry in a moment!
The someone was awestruck.
It's all right, Damia repeated soothingly. You'll be all right
now.
The someone was calmed, felt sleepy. Warm and sleepy.
Damia continued to send soothing
thoughts, herself growing drowsy
in her
efforts to send the other to sleep.
She yawned, turned over and drifted off.
`I've never seen anything like it!'
Elizara exclaimed to Jeff
Raven
as they took a late celebratory libation, `That child was all set
to cry
his lungs out and then-' Her eyes narrowed suspiciously. `Did
you do
anything?' `Me? No,' Jeff replied,
confused. `I had thought it
was
you. It certainly wasn't the Rowan.'
`No!' Elizara agreed. `Not
under
anaesthetic.' `Will it take her long to recover from the
Caesarean?'
Jeff asked, the thoughts turning from his newest son to his
greatest
love.
Elizara shook her head, grinning. `This isn't Deneb where some of
your
obstetrics are still pretty archaic.
Microlaser surgery heals seamless. She'll be fine in three to
four
days.' She raised a cautioning hand.
`But it will be months
before
the abdominal muscles recover from the intrusion.' `So if it
wasn't
you, it wasn't me and not the Rowan, who?' Jeff, reassured,
returned
to the original topic.
`Afra?' Elizara shook her head. `It was a female touch.
`Then it was Damia!' Jeff announced
firmly. `That little minx!'
`Really,
doting Daddy,' Elizara said in one of her rare moments of
mischief,
`isn't that a long way for such a young child?' Jeff shook
his
head slowly, his smile rueful. `I don't
think any place is a long
way
where Damia's emotions are concerned.' For the first few months of
young
Larak's life, both his mother and father `felt' his sister touch
his
mind, causing him to smile.
`Has to be wind,' Brian replied
sceptically when the Rowan
remarked
on her daughter's range.
Afra would smile. `She promised she'd be the best sister ever.
`It's not as if he has much conversation,
Afra,' Brian protested.
`Ah, the heart needs no words,' Afra
replied and, with a totally
uncharacteristically
dramatic gesture, placed his hand on his heart.
Then he picked up the colourful origami
birds he was arranging as
a
mobile for Larak and, with delicate movements, tied them to the
string
harness.
Brian shot the Rowan a puzzled look
before he left the Tower.
However, at some point in Larak's first
year, Damia found out that
Alla
loved ponies as much as she did, and the two became inseparable.
The incidence of contact diminished
slightly but occasionally, and
for no
apparent reason, Larak would giggle.
His laughter was so
infectious
that he could set off anyone else in the house. But every
time
his parents, or Tanya or Afra, tried to explain these bursts of
hilarity,
they found nothing, not even Rascal, to account for them.
`Damia checking in,' became the standard
explanation.
`A merry child,' his mother said, `is a
double delight.' Afra
forebore
to mention that Damia had been a merry child, too. But he did
not
object to merry Larak and he had become adjusted to the lack of
Damia
in his life.
`He's here!' Damia cried excitedly,
turning to her teacher `My
brother's
here!' `Shush, Damia,' the teacher scolded, for the girl was
old
enough to respect classroom manners.
`Continue with your studies.
You can see him after school.' Damia
fidgeted her way through
school
and burst out to the waiting area.
Rakella was there.
`Isthia sent me,' she said, grinning at
Damia's radiating
excitement. All the girl knew was that she would be
seeing her beloved
brother. Today, even Jupiter was cast in shadow. Damia hopped into
the
flitter, practically `pushing' Rakella to exceed the speed limits
in the
built-up area. She bubbled all the way
back to the Raven
compound
and burst out of the flitter almost before Rakella had set it
safely
on the ground.
`Where is he?' she called excitedly, but
unerringly she headed
toward
the kitchen, slamming open the door.
She stood there a moment.
`Larak!' What young Larak saw was a
slender figure a head taller
than
himself with sparkly blue eyes and long black hair.
What Damia saw was a splendid dark-haired
brother. She held out a
hand
entreatingly, sensing his sudden shyness.
Cautiously, the toddler took it.
`Now that you're here, c'mon!' Damia
cried. `I've so much to show
you and
tell you - She started for the back door, all but dragging him
after
her.
`He's only a baby,' Isthia began,
laughing at Damia' 5
single-mindedness but the girl's
enthusiasm was contagious and
Larak
didn't so much as hesitate a step.
He happily followed his magical
sister. `Oh, let them go!' Isthia
said
when someone moved as if to stop her.
`She'll take good care of him. It's what she's waited for for so
long,
isn't it?' `All I can say is, thank goodness Jupiter's too placid
to buck
any more.' Damia had planned for Larak to meet Jupiter first
but
they were halfway to the paddock when she began to feel a
reluctance,
a hanging back on her little brother's part.
Looking anxiously over her shoulder, she
saw him staring wide-eyed
at the
wide-spreading branches of the nearest tree.
He certainly
hadn't
seen the ponies sheltering under it.
Damia was utterly charmed
by his
reaction. What fun it was going to be
to show her little
brother
everything she knew and loved about Deneb.
She looked down at
him.
`That's a good tree, isn't it,
Larak? Bigger'n anything in the
park at
Callisto.' "Listo?' Larak asked, his expression dissolving into
worry.
`Who needs `Listo when they're on Deneb,'
Damia said, quite
forgetting
her own recalcitrance, but she had imbued her reply with
such
enthusiasm that her brother's face altered to a happier mode,
though
he kept staring up at the tree.
Abruptly, her original plan to
introduce
him immediately to Jupiter underwent a selfless change.
`D'you wanna know something, Larak,' she
whispered
conspiratorially
to him, `I've got a special spot right at the top.
Wanna see?' Big-eyed, Larak could not
find a voice to speak and
mutely
nodded.
`Come on!' Damia replied, waving an
arm. She was up three
branches
before she looked back and saw Larak standing still on the
ground,
looking up at her with a puzzled expression.
`Ooops, sorry!' Damia clambered back
down, lifted him up to the
first
branch, pushing on his bum until he was firmly perched on it and
then
scrambled up beside him.
`You've never done this before, have
you?' Larak shook his head.
`Uhuh, `Mia.' Damia giggled. `Damia, not `Mia. Try it.' Larak
worked
his tongue but only got out: "Mia' again.
Damia shrugged it
off. `You can try again later.
Let's climb!' It was quickly apparent to
her that his legs did not
have
the length of hers and, while the branches of the tree shot out of
the
trunk at steppable intervals, her small brother would have trouble
continuing. So, since they were high enough up in the
tree not to be
visible
to anyone, she `lifted' them both to the top to her special
spot,
just where the branches narrowed to diameters that would not
support
even her slight weight. Then she parted
the branches to give
her
brother the full view of the realm they surveyed.
Pointing out features - where Alla lived,
where she had found a
brookside
cave she'd show him in the morning, the Tower which was
conspicuous
on the horizon, the smudge of the City - she finally ran
out of
breath and looked at him hopefully.
`Isn't Deneb great?' Larak gave her an
adoring look. `Great !' He
managed
the `t' as a separate syllable and grinned at his success.
I love you, Damia sent shyly in the quiet
`voice' she had
addressed
him in for the past year.
Larak's eyes widened, first in fright
then in recognition.
His face burst into a beaming smile. Love you, Damia!
* * * `They're inseparable!' Linna
complained. `She cries and he
just
sits there, weeping silently. Which
frankly I find harder to
endure
than her bowling. Put them together and
they're sweetness and
light.
`Didn't we `go through the same thing
with Cera and Jeran?' Isthia
asked
the concerned teacher.
Linna nodded. `Yes, we did but the solution was to hold Jeran up
a bit
for Cera to catch up. But that won't
work with Damia and Larak.
She's too smart to be held back - she
really should be encouraged
to go
forward at her own speed.' `Is Larak bright enough to catch up?'
`He's
bright but, really Isthia, it would be most unwise to force his
pace to
accommodate her. That sort of
individualized instruction
simply
isn't possible in a classroom environment !` `Not in a classroom
environment,
eh?' Isthia repeated thoughtfully.
`Isthia Raven, what are you thinking of?'
Linna demanded in her
best
teacher's voice.
Isthia was impervious since she'd taught
Linna the trick.
`And you do agree that there are now
twelve other youngsters in
this
school district that have Talented leanings?' Linna didn't quite
grimace,
and her sniff wasn't exactly disapproving, but her eyes were
sad. `The freaks.' `FT&T freaks,' Isthia
corrected her.
`Where do children learn such words?'
`I'm sure I don't really
need to
tell you that, Linna, but I am thinking that it's about time we
let our
freaks get what they deserve here on Deneb.' `Not that special
school
you've been trying to wrest out of the Education Committee?'
`Don't
you agree it's needed?' Isthia retorted.
`The Education
Committee's
not the only one to complain about lack of funds but they
sure
tie the purse strings when I advance the notion that a little
expenditure
now on proper training and we'd have marketable assets to
improve
our economy.
`Our economy?' Linna echoed weakly. `What about our sanity?'
`Linna
Maybrick, are you trying to tell me that Talented children are
more
difficult to teach than regular children?' `Oh cripes, no!
Children are impossible without
exception,' Linna responded
emphatically. `But how will you get permission? And the specialized
teachers?'
Isthia cleared her throat. `Each one,
teach one,' she said
cryptically,
and bent a fond eye on Damia who was patiently showing her
small
brother how to hold a crayon.
Linna never did hear how Isthia got round
the objections of the
Education
Committee but somehow the Council found enough money to pay
the
salary of a T-4 teacher whom Earth Prime had located for them, and
Isthia
Raven agreed to underwrite his living accommodation. `So we
saved a
little on salary,' Isthia told her sons and daughters. She
also
reorganized living space in the Raven compound to house the
Denebian
Special School for the Talented until the construction of the
permanent
facility in five years' time, at which point the Education
Committee
should have the funds to build it. `I
had to compromise,'
Isthia
Raven said when Jeff and the Rowan came to visit their children,
`but it
could be worse.' Jeff rather thought she got what she deserved.
`You said "If you want it done
right, do it yourself!" once too
often,
Mother!' The school was understaffed, the new teacher overworked
but
Isthia worked as hard as he did. `And
learned more, she said. `I
just
wish I had had the opportunity I'm providing my grandchildren.'
Damia
loved it because it meant that she and Larak could share classes.
In fact, she had to teach him several
subjects, including
mathematics.
She got to be quite good at mathematics
herself from such
exercise.
Larak was not her only pupil, nor were
only Talented children
entered
in the school but Isthia chose a careful mix from families
whose
views did not run to `freaks' or fear of Talent. Children from
Larak's
age to sixteen, who would be physically and mentally challenged
by the
opportunity of `unstructured' classes were asked to enrol.
So Damia found herself learning to
control her temper at the
difficulty
some older students had in learning what she had to teach
and her
jealousy at younger students who stamped their feet at her
`slow'
pace.
It was the sort of school only a gifted
computer could plan for:
with
students and classes to mix and match in such complex calculations
that it
yielded a doctorate for the T-4 in record time. Physical
therapy
and physical exercise, mental therapy and mental calisthenics
all
vied with the more regular curricula of other schools.
Damia learned quickly the fallacy of
judging a person on the
colour
of skin, the condition of body or the attractiveness of face.
She also learned, just as quickly, the
art of moving cargo
containers,
juggling bricks and reading waybills, much to the amazement
of her
teachers.
Cooperation was a primary requirement for
all Talented people:
civil
discord was something intolerable in one with Talent.
Damia's favorite sport was team
dodgeball. It was played both
strictly
with Talented children and with mixed groups of Talented and
non-Talented
children.
The rules were simple: if you were tagged
by the ball, you were
out. The object of team dodgeball was to have at
least one team member
not
tagged out at the end of the game. The
Talented members of the
team
were permitted to 1) gain control of the ball by superior strength
of
mind; 2) pull themselves or pull their teammates out of the way of
the
ball. There were, however, limits to a
`port: a Talent was not
allowed
to lift a non-Talented teammate higher than three feet off the
ground,
or more than two feet laterally, or outside the playing field.
Games with only Talented players were
brilliant displays of
unexpected
lifts or the wild orbiting of the foam ball as players
jockeyed
for its possession. Games with mixed
teams were perhaps less
showy
but more fun for the non-Talented and exceedingly good exercise
for the
gifted. However, particularly in mixed
dodgeball, score was
kept
with one point for each team member still left when the other
teams
were eliminated. The size of the teams
was arbitrary: some very
small
teams won more regularly, even on points, than larger ones.
There were two unbreakable rules in team
dodgeball: no player
should
be injured, and teams had to be evenly mixed boy-girl,
Talented-non-Talented.
Damia grew closer and closer to her little brother, always
wanting,
but never quite achieving, the amazing rapport which Jeran and
Cera
shared. She would brag immensely about
their combined
capabilities
and Jeran, who had grown rather less tolerant of his
youngest
sister as he grew older, would always take special pains to
prove
to her just how wrong she was. By the
time Damia was nine and
Larak
nearly seven, the rivalry had grown to full scale war.
`My little brother's better than your
little sister!' Damia would
taunt
Jeran, who, being older, would invariably agree: `Yeah, Larak's
better
than Damia any day!' To which Damia could only shriek with
anger.
Jeran had just reached puberty and had
started to notice girls in
a different
light so having one so truculent was particularly annoying
to him.
`Larak and I can beat any four of your
friends!' Damia declared
one day
`Cannot!' Cera rejoined, coming to the defence of her adored
older
brother.
`Can too!
`Prove it!' Cousin Channa challenged.
Damia paused, not expecting this
tack. `All right, dodgeball.
Who's your fourth?' Jeran's mouth
fell. He floundered for a
suitable
way out of the challenge but Channa was Marci's best friend
and Jeran
just had to make Marci notice him. The
trouble was that
Channa
was not all that good in dodgeball, being only moderately
Talented
and massively clumsy. Worse, the
obvious choice of partner
for
Channa was Teval, her current male interest, and Teval was not only
not
Talented but an incredibly gawky adolescent.
`Fourth?' Jeran taunted. `You said you could beat us all!' `We
can!'
Damia returned, chin jutting defiantly.
`All the cousins!' `How
many
teams?' Jeran demanded.
`One team!' Larak put in. And so the lines were drawn.
The time was after school and the place
was in the field beyond
the
river boundary of the Raven compound.
`It'll be a slaughter!' Teval declared
from the sidelines.
Not being a member of the Raven clan, he
was excluded from the
tournament
but invited by Channa who hoped to impress him with her
abilities.
`I hope no-one gets hurt,' Marci Kelani,
standing beside him, said
nervously.
`No way.
Just little Damia's pride!- Teval chuckled.
`The others are OK but she's a little
busy britches.' She had
tutored
him in language class the year before and he had failed to
respond
to all her best efforts, refusing to learn from a `little
girl'. From the corner of her eyes, Marci gave him
an appraising look
and,
with a flick of her eyes heavenward, decided she did not like what
she saw
in the boy.
Out in the centre of the field, Jeran
looked around at his team of
twenty-one
cousins with concern. Some of them were
a bit too happy to
team up
against Damia and Larak. He swallowed
nervously. `Are you
sure
you still want to do this?' Damia rose above the doubts she felt
because,
absolutely, there was no way that she could salvage any pride
if she
backed down in front of everyone.
Steadfastly she nodded her
head. `We're sure. Why? Are you scared?'
Jeran licked his lips but
shook
his head. `You can call quits any
time.' He pulled out the
little
foam ball. As usual it had a dye bag
inside it so that anyone
hit
would be marked with a fluorescent orange dye that washed off.
`Shall we flip for possession?' `Smallest
team always gets
possession!'
Damia declared hotly and somewhat scornfully that her
brother's
understanding of the rules was faulty.
Jeran let the ball
go,
Damia `caught' it and let it hover between them. With a
contemptuous
mental `nudge' Damia burst the dye bag.
A splurt of dye
filled
the air.
`GET READY!' she yelled. `On three!
One! Two!
Three!' Ready, Larak? she shot at him.
If the answering thought wobbled a bit,
the boy's face was as
determined
as hers. Ready, Damia.
The ball became a vibrating blur which
flew in an intricate
pattern
at the waiting throng of cousins. Damia
knocked out three with
the
first pitch, then lost control for a moment as the remainder
reacted
and wrested it from her grasp. The bag
came back firmly at her
but she
`ported out of its way and shifted her power to Larak who, to
the
chagrin of the older players, looped it back around in a tight arc.
Two more defenders were knocked out.
`She's good,' Marci noted from the
sidelines. Alla, Damia's
friend,
rode up on her brown pony. The moment
she pulled him up, he
dropped
his head to graze. `Is she all right?'
she asked Marci.
Teval snorted. `Little brat! They'll
show her, that's for sure!'
But the
cousins were faring badly: in two separate passes Damia and
Larak
had managed to knock out two more, leaving only fourteen on the
opposite
side.
The cousins were forced to switch
completely to the defensive,
hoping
to tire the two youngest. They didn't
attempt to `take' the
ball,
only to dodge it without being blopped.
The tactic began to take
its
toll for both Damia and Larak were soon panting and sweating
profusely
in their efforts to keep the ball both in the air and
vibrating
with the special effort that kept it out of the `reach' of
the
other cousins.
Three more cousins were knocked out in
the five minutes it finally
took
for Larak and Damia to lose `control' of the ball. Heedless of
the
danger, Larak dropped to the ground, panting.
`Larak?' Damia called, turning to
him. She started towards him.
`They're finished!' Teval cheered
triumphantly from the sidelines.
The ball, now in the hands of the
remaining cousins, hurled
unerringly
towards the prone form of the panting boy.
But the light
ball
was thrust upwards and just over Larak.
`Oh, good, Damia! Good!' Alla cried from the sidelines.
Damia took another step towards her
little brother.
`Come on, Larak,' she called
encouragingly. The others scooped
the
ball back up from the dip it had taken after Damia had diverted it
and
brought it back around in a circle.
`I'm tired!' Larak gasped to his sister as she approached him.
`Perfect, two targets together!' Teval
chortled.
Damia helped Larak up to his feet. `Should we quit?' she asked
him. Larak shook his head feebly, drawing away
from her to stand on
his own
feet. Damia looked about her, saw the
incoming ball and batted
it
aside with a mental `frick' `Give up?' one of cousins called out
hoarsely.
`No way!' Damia returned. She zoomed the ball at the speaker.
Either he didn't see it or he, too, was
tired but the ball caught
him
squarely in the chest.
`This is going to go on for ever,' Marci
moaned.
`Why don't they quit?' She waved a hand
at the remaining cousins.
`Quit?
Against a little girl?' Teval sneered. `They just need a
hand.'
He picked up a small rock.
`Teval, no!' Marci cried but the rock was
launched right at
Larak's
unprotected head.
`Damia!' Alla screamed, throwing herself
at Teval.
Turning at Alla's shout, Damia saw the
rock and flung herself at
Larak,
arms outstretched. She pushed him out
of the way but the rock
caught
her squarely at the base of the skull.
She fell silently to the
ground. Spun about by the force of his sister's
arms, Larak whipped
around
and screamed when he saw her lying there, her head bleeding
profusely. Damia!
Jeran was running as fast as he could
towards her when the dye
ball
bit him. It flicked past him and hit
all the remaining cousins
with
such blinding speed that no-one was spared.
Then it made a
spiralling
loop before it slammed into the vengeful smile on Teval's
face.
* * * It was dark. The air was bad. Her head felt awful and They
were
trying to get her. Damia moaned
silently as she struggled away
from
the dark and back towards the light.
But They would not let her.
They tried to keep her down. They chittered at her, not like
Coonies,
but like evil scraping claws on harsh metal.
They were after
her.
They wanted revenge. They tried to suck her out of her body,
tried
to eat her soul. Damia whimpered in
fear, searching blindly for
something,
someone. There! Far away, far, far away, like a beacon! A
blip of
light. She lost sight of it, searched
for it, drew it to her,
crawled
towards it. There!
They were afraid of the light, it scared
them. If she could just
get to
the light! The light! The soul-eaters would never get her if
she
could just get to the light. She cried
to the lighthouse, cried to
the
keeper. The beacon flared, light
streamed steadily towards her.
She was getting nearer or had the
lighthouse moved to her? Damia
did not
know, did not care. The light bathed
her, burnt the
soul-eaters
and the lightkeeper soothed her with warm words and his
warm
light.
`Depressed skull fracture,' a voice
mumbled in the distance.
Damia ignored it, wanting to bat it away
with her hands but she
was so
weak, so weak from crawling.
`Will she be all right?' a tenor voice
asked worriedly.
The lightkeeper! She heard his voice! She willed her lips to
form a
smile. See! I've found the light, see?
`Look!' It was another voice, one she
felt she should know, a kind
voice. `She's smiling!' The voice approached, beams
of kindliness
washed
over her. `Oh, Damia, you're going to
be all right!
Sweetheart, you'll be all right!' The
mumbler coughed. `We'd
better
let her rest. I'll have the nurse look
in on her later' `I'm
staying
here,' the lightkeeper responded sharply in tones that brooked
no
argument. A hand touched hers and she
felt the warm yellow glow
light
its way up her arm, fill her body and knew that the lightkeeper
had
found her, had driven away the soul-eaters.
And she remembered
that
the lightkeeper had a name. Afra?
I'm here, the lightkeeper whispered. Rest, Damia.
The hand let go and the darkness crept
into the shadows of her
sight. Afra!
The hand grabbed her again, light flared
and banished the
darkness. I'm here, love! Rest. I'm here, there's
nothing to worry
about.
A smile formed on her lips and she rolled
over, small soft tanned
paw
still in Afra's warm rough green hand.
`Afra!' It was dark, Damia awoke with a
start.
`Here.' Her hand was squeezed gently by
his bigger one.
`Rest.
It's night.' Damia went to sleep, secure in the soft
mental
touch of the yellow-eyed Talent.
The bright sun of morning woke her. Damia turned in her bed,
scanned
the room and was startled to find no-one there. She
double-checked
frantically. When the door opened she
nearly jumped
with
fright.
It was Isthia. `Ah, you're awake!' `Where's Afra?' `He went
back.'
Isthia caught her expression. `He was
burnt out, sweetie, and
desperate
to give your mom the good news.' Damia started at Isthia's
choice
of words: burnt out.
`We've all been worried,' Isthia went on,
not noticing her
granddaughter's
reaction. She shook her head. `Your father and mother
were
frantic. They've been here but Afra
stayed. You seemed calmer
when he
was in the room.' `He had the light,' Damia murmured,
incredibly
drowsy but she forced herself to get the words out. `Can he
come
back? Would he come if you said I
needed him? He hasn't visited
Deneb
but half a dozen times in all the years we've been here.' Isthia
clucked
at her. `Afra's been very good to come
as often as he has,
Damia. He has other friends to visit than young
girls who make
impossible
challenges.
`Was not impossible! Neither Larak nor I had been hit when Teval
threw
that stone!' `He's not likely to throw another,' Isthia said, her
expression
grim.
`Why, what did you do to him?' Damia
asked with a certain
understandable
vindictiveness in her voice.
Isthia shrugged. `I did nothing. Didn't have to,' and she let a
smile
twitch at her lips. `I wouldn't have
thought a foam ball could
be
flung that hard.' `Who?' `Larak, of course.' `You see, it wasn't an
impossible
challenge. It's so good to make Jeran
eat crow .
`You eat your meal, young woman, or
you'll find me an unpleasant
challenge!'
Isthia said and set down the tray she was carrying.
When Damia had finished the light meal,
she lay back, wondering if
she
dared ask for Afra again.
Oh, she's all right, Damia heard her
grandmother saying,
projecting
tremendous relief. And, fortunately,
all she understands
about
that wretched game as that she and Larak won.
She hasn't an inkling of what that
exhibition demonstrated of her
potential.
How could she? and Damia recognized the weaker voice of her aunt
Rakella. Not even Jeff could explain it and Angharad
still doubts it.
Afra had a theory, and Damia heard her
grandmother mulling it over
in her
mind before she projected her answer.
He thinks that Damia is a
catalyst:
she steps up anyone else's ability.
Afra says that's what
she did
when he rescued her from the capsule that time. THAT was why
the
power surged in the Tower: Damia tapped it.
He didn't and neither
did
Angharad.
A Talent with an extra gear? Rakella asked.
Something like that.
Then both voices drifted out of her
`hearing' and she drifted off
to
sleep again.
A week after Damia was allowed back to
school, she had an
unexpected
visitor. She was in her room wondering
if she dared sneak
out and
visit Jupe when she heard Isthia's voice giving directions:
`Her
room is the one at the end, on the left.
I'll bring down some
drinks
later.' Whoever it was paused for a long while at her door.
`Well?' Damia called, her curiosity
overwhelming her.
Teval's head slowly peered around the
door. If the light wasn't
deceiving
her, his nose was thicker and there were discoloured patches
and
barely healed cuts on his face.
`Damia?' `What do you want?' she
demanded, suddenly deciding
boredom
was better than this guest.
Teval shook his head, entering the
room. A heavy schoolbag swung
from
one hand, nearly dragging the carpet.
`I've been assigned to teach you
self-defence,' he said, looking
miserable.
`I can learn that watching a tape!'
`You've also got to pass a
practical
so I got assigned as your mat partner.
aNother thing; you're
supposed
to be my teacher.' `Your teacher?' `Remedial language,' he
mumbled,
blushing in his misery. `I failed my
exams.' He held out the
text-tape.
That didn't surprise her but she decided
it wasn't fair to kick
someone
when he was down. Damia upended the
bag. `Am I supposed to
teach
you all these, too?' `Not exactly. I've
got to bring you your
homework
assignments and help you catch up on what you've 55
He looked sheepish. `You're taking almost all the same stuff I
am,
except maths and language and you're way ahead of me there.' `What
if I
don't want you?' `You've no choice, Damia Gwyn-Raven!' Isthia
called
from beyond the door, entering the room with a tray of beverages
and a
light snack in her hands. She put the
tray down and looked at
her
granddaughter critically.
`Actually, you do,' she corrected herself. `If you don't take
Teval
Rieseman here as your tutor and you don't tutor him on those
subjects
assigned, we will have no choice but to release him from the
Special
School.' Damia looked horrified. `Expel
him?' Isthia nodded.
`Fighting is against school rules,' she
said sternly. `He threw
that
rock without any provocation whatsoever.
By rights he should
already
be expelled. But someone intervened on
his behalf' Both Teval
and
Damia were surprised. `Who?' they
asked, almost in unison.
`Afra Lyon.' `Afra?' Damia was confused,
almost angry. How could
Afra do
that? Didn't he know that this was the
boy who had tried to
hurt
her Larak? That he'd cracked her skull?
Then she knew that, of course, Afra had
known the whole thing. So
why?
`Why?' Teval beat her in asking the
question. `I thought he was
her
uncle.' `He used to be my special friend!' Damia exclaimed
heatedly,
glaring fiercely at her grandmother to answer the question.
Isthia handed her a note. Damia opened it, turned it around,
frowned,
turned it over and finally looked up at Isthia.
`I can't read it.' She handed it back to
Isthia. Isthia glanced
at
it. `I can't read it either.
Perplexed, Teval leaned over and looked
at the writing.
`That looks like the printing in some old
books my grandfather
used to
have. He was Russian, I think.
`What's it say?' Teval lifted his
shoulders with an indifference
that
didn't match the emotions which Damia suddenly felt roiling in his
mind. `I don't know! My family was killed by the Beetles. I only
recognized
the script, not the words.' Damia could feel the pain
emanating
from him and, while she had always thought Teval was a dark,
in that
unguarded instant she learned that she had misjudged him badly.
He'd had a little sister, just about the
same age as Larak, when
the
Beetles came: he'd had a mother and father, and the Russian
grandfather. Now he lived with an uncle who worked too
hard to have
much
time for his nephew. It was like Afra
to know more about Teval
Rieseman
than she, Damia Gwyn-Raven, had bothered to find out in the
years
they'd spent as classmates.
`Why don't we study Russian as your language?'
she suggested
gently. `Then we'll find out what this message says.
It took them many months and they were
good friends, but still not
without
their quarrels, when they finally translated the one-line
message. It read: `Friends don't fight with rocks.'
`Let's go hunt
Beetle
junk!' Damia suggested one day to Larak as Deneb VIII sweltered
in an
unusual heat wave.
`Uncle Rhodri said he'd found all the
near stuff.' Larak, at
eight,
sometimes questioned his sister. But it
was so hot, he didn't
like
the idea of hunting Beetle metal. It
stank and, if you touched
it, it
went `sting-pzzzt'. He hated the feel.
`I need new stirrup leathers and that
takes cash. Uncle Rhodri
pays
good for Beetle metal. And I don't have
enough money.
Grandmother's stingy.' `I'll lend you my
cash,' Larak said, more
so that
he wouldn't have to go hunting than because he was generous.
`No, Larak, that's very nice of you but
I'd rather spend money
I've
earned. And, besides, if we keep
sitting here, Gran'll discover
another
nice cool job for us.' She could see that that appealed to her
brother. They'd already been nabbed for some dirty,
dusty garden
chores.
`But we're not supposed to hunt Beetle
metal unless we tell Uncle
Rhodri.'
`We'll tell him when we find it so he can send the `copter to
collect
it,' she replied.
`Do I get to ride in the `copter again?'
Larak began to be
enthusiastic
now. He'd been allowed to ride back in
the big navy
vehicle
the last time they'd found some Beetle metal.
He was going to
learn
how to fly a `copter when he grew older.
`If we find metal, you might, Damia
replied, not specifically
promising
the treat but she saw the anticipatory shine of her brother's
eyes. `OK, here's what we do . .
It was, after all, easy to slip out of
the compound, even with
backsacks
carrying `provisions'. She'd got
handlights as well as food
and
made Larak roll up a blanket though he'd protested that it was too
hot to
need a blanket.
`Well, we might lust need to stay the
night,' Damia said in
explanation. `I've food enough. And the forest's always cooler' Larak
agreed,
though he demurred when she wanted him to bring a shirt, too.
`Against branch lash,' she said
curtly. `Now, go get ready. And
be
quiet. You know what long ears Gran has
and we don't want her
stopping
us with more jobs to do.
Meet me at the paddock.' So Larak went
`quietly' to gather the
things
his sister wanted him to get. Larak
liked being with Damia.
Which was more than he could say about
the company of his older
brother
and sister. For all his efforts, Larak
had never been able to
establish
a good rapport with his older brother.
He had astutely
identified
Cera as the source of his older brother's apathy. Since
Damia
was a lot of fun to be with, he'd given up on the other two.
Anyway, Jeran was now on a probationary
assignment to Deneb Tower,
taking
on-the-job training and Cera, moping about the place without
him,
was no fun to be around at all.
They met at the paddock where the ponies
drowsed in the heat of
the
afternoon.
`Now, we know there's nothing to the
east, south or west of us
because
Uncle Rhodri says those directions are all clear of
sting-pzzzt,'
Damia said, `so we'll go north, through the woods, which
will be
cooler. No-one's really done much that
way. Not even Jeran
when he
organized his search party.' She was slightly contemptuous
because
Jeran had been so sure that he'd find tonnes of the stuff.
So, let's be off!' Taking Larak's hand,
she struck off across the
paddock,
and into the first of the trees.
They were panting from the heat but the
moment they got in the
shade,
they could feel an appreciable difference in the torrid heat of
the
day.
`Hey, it's cooler,' he exclaimed,
delighted.
`Told you it would be. Come on!' Damia led on, weaving her way
due
north, with little variation despite the press of trees. She
signalled
their first break when they crossed one of the logging roads.
Revived by the rest and drinks from their
travel bottles, they
continued.
Larak would have liked to stop longer and
enjoy the coolness but
Damia
insisted that they wouldn't find any Beetle metal this close to
the
compound. And no Beetle metal meant no
`copter ride. Larak got to
his
feet and trudged along behind her When they came to a brook,
gushing
down a rocky bed, Larak did insist that he had to cool himself
down. So they shucked out of their clothes and
splashed about in the
pool.
Damia shared out one of their sandwiches
and ordered him to fill
his
canteen again.
Shortly after they resumed their march,
they broke through the
forest
into a lovely mountain pasture. They
quartered this because
Damia
thought it the very spot where Beetle metal might have dropped.
Then she had to explain to Larak, once
more, how their mother and
father
had destroyed the Beetle ships, breaking them open and
scattering
the pieces far and wide, thus saving the whole world, and
beyond.
By then they had reached forest again
and, of course, had to sit
to
enjoy the coolness, have a cool drink, eat a few biscuits. The sun
was
lowering but Damia knew they had a good few hours of daylight.
`We'll find a cave, with a stream,' Damia
told her brother as he
gamely
plodded on behind her. `We'll have a
great night out.' `When'll
we find
Beetle metal?' Look asked plaintively.
`Why, we could trip over it any time
now."
`I don't want to trip over it.' `Well,
then, let's just
concentrate
on locating some good sting-pzzzts, huh?' Obediently Larak
cast
his mind about and that kept him occupied until the blister on his
left
heel began to do the stinging.
`I gotta stop, `Mia. I gotta blister.' `We'll stop when I've
found
us a cave and a stream so you can stoop that blister cool,' Damia
said,
with a patient sigh over Larak's blister She hoped he could hang
on a
while longer. She had no idea how far
they had tramped but it
wasn't
far enough for they hadn't found Beetle metal yet. She was
determined
to find some. Meanwhile, raising her
forearm, she rubbed
her
forehead dry of sweat and, shifting her backpack, went on.
Larak was a real trooper, she thought,
when she saw him limping
though
he didn't complain. He was the best
brother. She was getting a
bit
anxious about a suitable camping site.
Uncle Rhodri had taught all
his
young relatives basic woodsman ship when he'd organized his Beetle
metal
hunts.
They found the stream first so Damia
suggested that Larak take off
his
boots - the cold water would ease his blister - and they'd walk
upstream
until they found a campsite. Maybe not
a cave, but a nice
clearing.
By the time Larak had slipped and fallen
into the stream four
times,
and bruised his toes, he was ready to quit just when they
rounded
a bend and found that an old rockslide had indeed formed a sort
of
cave.
`What if there're animals?' Larak
protested nervously, peering
into
the shadowed opening.
Damia had not considered that aspect and
was miffed.
Uncle Rhodri had shown them tapes of all
the animals on Deneb,
mainly
small, but some had poisonous bites.
Some nocturnal species could be most
unpleasant, trying to creep
into a
camper's sleepsac. But they only had
blankets with them.
Nevertheless, caution was advisable. She pulled the handlight
from
her belt and shone it into the cave.
Carefully, she looked in every
corner. `See? Nothing there!
Now, let's get this camp organized. I'll get us firewood, you can
set out
our supper.' The first attempt at fire starting did not go
well. They had built it in the cave, which
immediately filled with
smoke. So, against Damia's better judgement, they
built another fire,
in
front of the cave. Soon they had a good
roaring blaze going. And
none
too soon for night had fallen and the woods closed in about them,
with
only the gap above the stream to let in starlight.
So they happily munched on the rest of
their sandwiches before
Damia
grandiosely extracted a half sack of marshmallows from her sack,
scrupulously
divying them up. Larak limped over to a
sapling to pull
long
enough branches to roast the marshmallows on.
`Now,' Damia said, dropping her voice
into the creepiest tone she
could
affect, `all we need is a good ghoulie story!' Just then her
marshmallow
fell off her stick. `Rats!' `Rats
aren't very ghoulie!'
Larak
complained.
`Of course they're not. I said "rats" because I lost my
marshmallow.
`I'll tell you a story,' Larak declared
and launched into the
telling
of the Headless Horseman which had scared him the first time
he'd
seen the tape. Larak was a good
story-teller so Damia didn't mind
hearing
it again.
Towards the end of his recitation, her
attention wandered and her
eyes
darted to the edge of the dark. A light
night breeze had come up
and
there was an odd scraping sound: a dim memory tugged at her.
`Now, you tell me one!' Larak demanded
when he had finished.
`Soul-eaters,' Damia muttered to herself,
for the scraping noise
reminded
her of her nightmare terror.
`Soul-eaters? What are they?' Larak's eyes grew round.
`Nothing.' Damia gave a convulsive
shudder. She really didn't
want to
remember that awful dream.
`No, tell me!' `That's too scary and it's
not a story. I'll think
of
another one, a better one.' `No, I want to know about soul-eaters,'
Larak
insisted `Where did you hear about them?' Damia shook her head.
`I didn't hear. They came after me.
`Sure!' Larak snorted derisively.
`When I was hit on the head,' Damia
continued, more to herself.
She sat on her haunches, not really
wanting to, but nevertheless
reconstructing
her recollection. `It was dark. They were darker.
They chittered like beetles on the
outskirts and they tried to
drag me
away.' Her voice went shrill and she gripped her arms about her
knees.
`They were going to get me, to eat my
soul! Chittering,
chittering!'
She had dropped her voice, not as part of a story-teller's
effect,
but because she was succeeding in scaring herself with the
memory.
`Damia!
Stop it! You `re scaring me!'
Larak threw his arms
around
her, his mouth trembling, his eyes watering with nervous tears.
`Damia?
Tell me this is a story. Tell me
there aren't any
soul-eaters
out here!' But Damia had triggered the recollection and was
trapped
in it, talking her own way out as she had struggled in the
dream. `They got me by the foot, then slithered up
my leg, and always
making
this awful chittering. I could just
make out a light. I knew
that if
I could only reach the light, I'd be safe.
But they kept
holding
me back; they got my other foot and then I saw the light-'
`Light?'
She didn't register the pure panic in Larak's voice, didn't
see
what he was doing. `Then, I reached the
light and Afra had it! He
turned
them away! Turned them back! He scared them with his light and
then he
touched me with it and-' Her eyes refocused and she shook her
head,
shielded her eyes. There was much too
much light, illuminating
the
cave behind her, the clearing around her.
`Larak?' Larak was at
the
edge of the clearing, a burning faggot in one hand, spreading the
flame
to every dry branch and root he could find.
To make enough light
to keep
the soul-eaters at bay.
Larak!
More scared than singed, Angharad, Isthia
assured her
daughter-in-law
when the situation was finally under control.
Overhead
a
water-carrying `copter made another pass at the remains of the forest
fire. We pulled them out as soon as Damia's scream
woke us. She was
too
disoriented to `port.
What caused the fire? Jeff wanted to know.
Larak.
He used a firebrand to light the forest. Said something
about
soul-eaters and light. He was scared
witless. Isthia replied.
He's sleeping now.
And Damia? another voice, which Isthia placed as Afra's, asked
with
some strain.
She's all right, Isthia quickly reassured
him. What time is it on
Callisto?
Early, Jeff said with some acerbity.
I was awake. Couldn't sleep, Afra replied and a mental yawn
followed. I'll turn in now. Rowan, Jeff, Isthia.
Isthia felt Afra's
touch
fade out.
Well!
the Rowan declared tetchily.
When is that child going to
stop
playing her `tricks'? I really don't
want Ezra learning from that
sort of
example.
I think she's been well and truly
frightened, luv, was Jeff s
verdict.
I would remind you, Angharad, Isthia
said, her tone stern, that
Damia
didn't start the fire: Larak did. She
has always looked out for
her
younger brother and protected him. Or
have you forgotten the
incident
with the stone?
Anyway, Jeff interposed quickly, she's
due to start Tower training
so
she'll be too tired for night-time treks.
How far did you say she
hiked? Isthia detected a note of admiration in her
son's tone.
Once she learns how to `port over
distance, the Rowan said
thoughtfully,
she could actually commute from here to Earth everyday.
Just as you do, Jeff I'm not sure the
galaxy is soft once Damia
learns
how to `port distances.
The Rowan mulled that over. Well, I do feel that now is the time
for
Damia to return to Callisto and start using some of the skills
she's
learned. Isthia, we've impinged on your
good nature far too long
Nonsense,
Angharad. It's been - educational,
Isthia responded with a
chuckle. Because of Damia, and Jeran and Cera and
Larak, I got the
Special
School I wanted and Deneb is now actively looking for Talents
to
train.
Was that your reason for offering to take
my children? the Rowan
asked. She'd always known that Isthia had had some
devious reason.
Not the main one, Angharad. There was Ian to be considered, too,
you
know.
Jeff guffawed. And he's tested out a T4.
You did well by the
brother!
What do you test out these days,
Isthia? the Rowan asked.
I've never really wanted to know, Isthia
replied smoothly.
Best leave with honours even, luv, Jeff
said.
But I think it is time for us to give
Damia the benefit of working
in a
busy Tower environment. Know that I -
we - are deeply grateful to
you,
Isthia. And the Rowan was entirely
sincere in that.
Isthia gracefully accepted the thanks for
she was as fond of the
mother
as she was of the daughter.
She's starting to sprout since you were
last here, Isthia told
them.
So soon?
Jeff mentally counted on his fingers.
Let's say that she's germinated, then,
and should shortly sprout,
Isthia
amended her original statement.
Are there any suitable candidates
there? Jeff wondered.
T-is? The Rowan's tone was
frankly contemptuous.
Love, when a woman's fancy turns to men
she does not always stop
to
check their pedigree, Jeff remarked carefully.
Isthia could feel
the
Rowan's cheeks redden across the light-years.
There are no candidates here, Jeff,
Isthia said in response to the
original
question. In fact, with Larak here it's
as well you consider
bringing
Damia home.
Both parents were shocked.
Goodness! Isthia chuckled. You two
think the worst things!
I meant that Damia would be ambivalent
about dating a boy if it
might
compromise the special relationship she and Larak have for each
other. Tsk!
Tsk!
I take your point, Jeff said, somewhat
abashed. It would be
easier
for her first romance if she did not have to worry about the
jealousy
of her little brother.
Exactly, Isthia replied.
Jeff made his mind up. Very well, send her back when term is
over. I'll arrange for her continued education
here. Not that it will
be as
good as what she could get on Deneb, of course, he added with a
wink in
his `voice' Of course!
It was only after contact was broken that
Isthia recalled what she
had
wanted to ask Jeff. Or rather
Afra. To intercede on her behalf
with Capella
to find a high T-rating who would teach on Deneb. There
was
something positive to be said for a Methody upbringing. She hoped
that a
little more Methody might rub off Afra on to Damia when she
returned
to Callisto. Isthia was rather sure that
he'd have a hand in
her
education. From comments that Jeff had
dropped and her own
observations
of Angharad, Afra was likely to have taught her the
self-control
she'd needed to run Callisto Tower as efficiently as she
did. Jeff had provided the emotional security
Angharad required.
Isthia sighed, remembering his father and
wishing, as she often
did,
that Jerry was still alive. But he
wasn't and she was. And this
wasn't
furthering the aims she had set herself for next year: delving
more
deeply into metamorphic manipulation.
Unfortunately, Capellans
didn't
believe in that.
The hands which were thrust into Afra's
view were no longer those
of a
small child but were still slender, graceful just like their
owner.
`What do you think?' Damia asked, turning
her hands palms up and
palms
down for his inspection. Afra looked up
from where he had been
kneeling,
into the intense blue eyes in an oval face framed by long
raven-black
hair.
Damia had let her hair go long in the
four years since she had
returned
from Deneb.
`Think of what, witch?' he asked,
flicking to her back the one
strand
of white that emphasized the blackness and lustre of her hair.
`This!' Damia stretched to her full
height, running hands
alongside
her body. It was only then, with the
girl standing boldly
upright,
one leg slightly before the other, that Afra realized she was
not
wearing her swimsuit.
She quirked an eyebrow at him
provocatively, daring him to look
away. Afra responded by scrutinizing her body
carefully from graceful
neck,
to firm breasts, to graceful hips, sculpted legs and finally to
delicately
boned long toes.
`You're maturing nicely, Damia,' Afra
told her when his inspection
brought
him back up to her eyes. He patted the
water beside him.
`Water's warm.
Clothing in the gymnasium at Callisto
Station was strictly
optional
and decorative rather then veiling.
Damia stamped a foot and squealed,
`No! The tan!
Afra, the tan!' Afra looked back at her
body. He cocked his head:
it was
slightly darkened. He put a green arm
up next to hers and shook
his
head. `Not my shade, I think.
Damia let out a screech of
indignation. Afra!' She stamped her
foot so
hard that her breasts shook.
Afra gave her a teasing smile. `Yes?' She pulled a bottle off the
nearby
deck chair and handed it to him. `Will
you put this on me?' she
asked,
her tone turning sweet. `I don't want
to lose what little tan
I've
got.
Afra took the bottle of before-swim tan
lotion and eyed the
adolescent
carefully. He sniffed the bottle, put a
little on one
finger
and rubbed with his thumb. `How much
and where?' `Just enough
to get
me oily and everywhere, of course.
Her tone was just short of patronizing.
Afra obliged, starting with her
backside. `Your hair will get
oily.'
`I don't care! I'll wash it later.' She
lifted it out of his
way
with a hand. She twisted her head back
slightly to watch his
expression. It annoyed her that he merely laved her down
gently,
working
from shoulder to buttocks to ankles with no change of
expression. Her eyes twinkled in anticipation when it
was time to do
her
front but Afra was just as careful and just as nonchalant when he
lathered
her breasts as when he lathered her nose.
Still, he did avoid one area. Damia coughed discreetly `You
missed
a spot.' Without batting an eye, Afra oiled up his hands and
dutifully
went over the indicated zone. `I guess
you'll wash that,
too.'
To her intense pique, Damia blushed.
Afra avoided her face until she had
recovered, spending the time
ostensibly
fumbling with the bottle's top. He
hefted the closed bottle
and,
with a gesture, asked, `Put it back over there?' `Oh, sure,' she
replied
absently. She patted her firm belly for
attention. `Do you
think
Amr will like it?' `Your belly? I can't
see particularly why,'
Afra
said, peering wistfully to the empty pool beside him.
`Afra!
Not my belly! The muscles! Look!' And she tensed,
revealing
an exceedingly well muscled body, with abdominal muscles
showing
clearly under soft tanned skin.
`Nice,' Afra replied absently. `Let's swim!
`Oooh!
I should know better than to try to compete against a pool
with
you!' And with that she dived in.
Hours later, she appeared in his
apartment. `What do you think?'
she
asked, twirling around to let the skirts of a diaphanous purple
evening
dress swirl about her. She had done her
hair up in a bun, with
her
witch's streak spiralling around the outside.
Long dark lashes
accentuated
piercing blue eyes. Dimples formed
around her mouth as it
curved
gently in a smile.
`I think,' Afra said as he strode into
the living room with his
dinner,
`that you were taught to knock.' Damia pouted but her eyes
twinkled
mischievously.
Afra knew that look. `You know how your parents feel about you
`porting
around the station.' `Are you going to tell?' Afra shook his
head
immediately. `I told you when you
returned that you were welcome
any
time, anyhow. The door is even keyed to
your retinal pattern.' He
gave
her a measuring glance. `But it is good
manners to knock.' He put
his
plate down on the coffee table and gestured at her dress. `I do
like
it, you know.' `It's for our date tonight.' `Date?' `Me and Amr'
`Sweet
sixteen is a good age to start dating.
Where are you going?'
Damia's
face fell. `Well,' she hedged, fishing
in a rush, `Amr's
picking
me up at Earth Station.' `So this is not merely a fashion
parade. Do your parents know?' `They won't have t.
`What are you hiding from them now?' Afra
asked with some
exasperation. Damia pursed her lips, bowed her head. Afra took in the
look
and let out a sigh. `A special boy?'
`He's not a boy! He's
eighteen
- almost! she responded hotly. `I've been seeing him for
months
now.
Tonight's special.' `So I had gathered,'
Afra replied softly.
Damia stared at him. `You're not angry?' `That you're ready to
become
a woman? Why should I be?' His detached
response perturbed her.
Afra was aware of that but ignored
it. Damia's affection for him
had
blossomed quickly into an infatuation as puberty changed her from
girl to
young woman. Afra respected that and
handled the change in the
intensity
of her emotions as best he could but refused to release the
storm
that would surely strike if he made any overt acknowledgement of
it. It took a supreme effort on his part as he
recognized how much joy
he took
in her presence but he refused to abuse and relinquish his
position
as her best friend and confidant.
`Will you `port me to Earth then?' she
asked him flatly, eyes
flaring.
`You'll be careful-' `I know what to
do! she shouted back.
Before she could draw breath to berate
him further, she was on the
steps
at the entrance of Earth Station.
`Hmmph! That showed him.
Call me when you want to come home, Afra
sent along with a special
stamp
that Damia had come to accept as a quick } peck on her forehead.
Despite herself, she smiled fondly.
Damia had met Amr at Luciano's when Uncle
Gollee had had to cancel
a lunch
date. Amr Tusel, with swarthy good
looks and a ready smile,
had
proudly informed her that he was a T-9 and training to be a
stationmaster. Damia, too worried that she would frighten
him away,
had not
revealed her own Talent but professed astonishment at his
prowess.
At eighteen it would be a while before a
T-9 would assume
stationmaster
duties. They had spent that whole first
night dancing,
and Amr
had walked her back to Central Station which despatched people
to any
part of the world. His consideration
and his kindness had
impressed
her but their first kiss had her toes curling and her body
flooded
with emotions she had not felt so intensely ever before.
Since then, Damia had established that
they would meet at Earth
Station
because (truthfully) it was closer to home for her. They had
seen
each other for over six months, catching films, tri-vids,
cavorting
at amusement parks and dancing the night away.
As time
passed,
they spent more time engaged in passionate embrace than in
conversation.
Several times in the past weeks Amr had
had to break out of their
passion
for fear that they would violate the few remaining blue laws.
He had not figured out who she was,
having never seen the lofty
Jeff
Raven nor any of the Gwyn-Raven clan, but Amr had figured out that
she was
young and a virgin.
With a sense of honour and a Talented
compassion, he had surmised
that he
was being considered for that most delicate of consummations.
The prospect had frightened him and for a
while they did not see
each
other. When he relented, Damia had
grown reticent in her own
right
and it was only with a loud and lengthy argument that she finally
set the
date.
Being dormed at Trainee Quarters, Amr had
no room of his own for
such an
assignation and Damia had dodged the possibility of using her
house
by saying that her parents were always around and that would
inhibit
her.
The hotel was just across the
street. Damia had left an overnight
bag at
Earth Station several weeks before when she had first made up
her
mind and had retrieved it before she met Amr.
He approached her with a smile on his
lips and gave her a quick
kiss. He stood back, taking in her appearance and
shaking his head in
admiration. `You are beautiful, Damia.' He took her bag
from her,
waving
her onwards with a hand. `Lead on,
fairest of Venus's
daughters!'
Amr conducted the course of the evening.
They checked in,
left
their bags with the bellhop, asking them to be taken to their
room. Dinner, a full course menu, was first,
followed by a leisurely
stroll
and then the dance floor.
They danced until the DiscoTech was
reluctantly closed.
The last dances were slow ones and
Damia's passions had been
aroused. The urgency abated slightly on the trip up
to their room but
Amr
teased her back into passion.
Passion was not new to Damia: she and Amr
had spent many evenings
locked
in tight embraces but always before she had broken free when her
passion
threatened to overwhelm her. It had
been incredibly
frustrating. Tonight Damia felt free to unleash her full
emotions.
Gently Amr drew her into his arms,
sliding them down her stately
shoulders
to her delicate waist. He pulled her
body close to his as
they
kissed with rising passion. As passion
rose, their clothing fell.
Soon they were on the bed, Amr running
crafty hands all over her
body
and Damia lost in a shower of feeling that threatened to drown
her. As her passion peaked for the third time,
Amr gently entered her.
At first Damia was too distracted by all
the other sensations of
her
body to notice. She froze for a moment
when she did, looking up at
him
with a frightened expression but Amr smiled tenderly through his
passion
and gently flexed his flanks.
Damia moaned, grabbed him tightly,
wanting him in her.
In her ecstasy she opened herself up,
pulled him along and they
rose
and rose, crashed, rose again and again.
You're Talented! Amr cried through his passion. Damia heard the
accusation
in his tone, unwillingly offered to stop but Amr thrust
himself
deeper in her, thrust his tongue into her mouth, crying: No!
Oh gods, no! I've never felt this before!
They continued, Damia reviving Amr's
flagging passions until they
were
both afloat on a wave of emotion, drained, recharged, sizzling
electric
ecstasy pounded over them, through them, around them wave
after
wave. The exertions and emotions
finally were too much for Damia
and she
drifted languorously from orgasm to sleep.
Damia awoke with Amr's eyes glittering on
her, following the line
of her
body like daggers. She was sore, sore
in places she had never
known
she had. Muscles she had only just
discovered registered their
abuse
with loud flares of pain as she moved one leg in front of the
other.
`Do it again, please?' Amr's voice was
hoarse, small.
`Oh, it was great!' Damia answered. Amr moved an arm to encircle
her but
Damia moved - painfully away. `I'm too
sore, Amr. Too tired.
None of the tapes mentioned that.' `Nor
what you've done to me,'
he
replied, eyes dull.
Anger crept into them. `Have you no notion of what you've done to
me?'
His fingers clenched into fists. Tears
welled in his eyes, tears
of
anger, of honour lost, of despair. `Do
you?' His voice grew louder
until
he was shouting: `Do you? Do you? Whore, slut! Bitch!' With a
look of
pure terror he caught his hand mid-stroke as it moved unwilled
to
strike at her.
Afra!
Damia cried in despair.
She disappeared as Amr fought to produce
an apology.
Gone, he closed his eyes and cried softly
in deep sobs, curled
into a
foetal ball.
Nothing was mentioned about hating after
loving! Damia sobbed to
Afra as
he finished towelling her off and pulled her into his arms to
wrap
the towel around her. She rested her
head on his chest and
bawled. It was so.
. so. . . and then he screamed
at me!
You were careful, weren't you? Afra asked her, keeping his tone
calm
and soothing.
Of course I was careful! I've had the implant for months now!
Damia retorted angrily. Afra pushed himself away from her, tilted
her
head up so her eyes met his.
`Damia, you kept your shields up, didn't
you?' Afra asked.
`Shields? Afra, we made love!' Afra's expression altered, pain
flickered
across his face.
`You were in a hotel?' Damia nodded
dully. `The one across the
street
from Central?' She nodded again.
What room number?
Afra!
she protested.
We have to know how Amr's handling this,
he said, then
strengthened
his `pathing. Gollee, we've got an
emergency.
A muffled response came back to him. Afra made a face.
I need you to look after a T-9, Amr
Tusel. He's over at the
Excelsior. Afra paused, his face expressionless as he
looked down at
Damia. I think he's been burnt out.
Gollee Gren became instantly alert. I'll handle it, Afra.
`Burnt out?' Damia echoed aloud. `Afra, he was fine!' `Was he
fine
when you left him, Damia?' Afra asked her softly. `Did you guard
your
Talent when you made love?' Damia was devastated. `Nobody told
me!' `I
did,' Afra said quietly, lips thin. `I
said, be careful.' `I
thought
you meant-' Damia broke off, finally absorbing the enormity of
her
recklessness. `Will he be all
right? Will he recover?'
`Possibly,'
Afra hedged. But she cocked her head at
him challengingly.
`Probably not,' he admitted, recognizing
the morality involved.
`Oh, Afra!' Damia wailed, throwing
herself in his arms.
I'll never love again!
`I wouldn't say "never",
Damia,' Afra said at his driest.
He picked her up and carried her over to
the couch. `Just never
be so
careless ever again.' He placed her beside him on the couch,
cradling
her torso with his arms. `Love, Damia,
but be caring and
careful
with it.
No, I'll never love again, Damia mumbled
earnestly as her `voice'
faded
with fatigue. Afra made no reply,
holding the youngster until
she
drifted into sleep. Then, very
carefully, he insinuated a tendril
of
thought to ease her pain.
Afra was aware of Damia's gaze before he
opened his eyes.
He looked down at her, still resting on
his chest and met her
piercing
blue eyes. He gave her a slight
smile. `Bet your muscles are
sore.'
Damia snorted. `From sleeping this way
or from before?' `Both.'
Damia
regarded him for a long moment, then admitted: `It could have
been
you-' Afra silenced her with a finger to her lips. `Don't.' She
examined
the finger critically, then ducked away from it to kiss it,
smiling
up at him. The smile faded.
`Have you heard about Amr?' Afra nodded
solemnly. `He's resting
now, in
hospital.' He looked down at her. `I
will teach you control.'
Damia
bit her lip. `Would I have done that to
you, if we had-' Afra
shook
his head. `We didn't, Damia.' `It could
have been you!' The
admission
was torn from her lips. She buried
herself against his
chest. `Oh, Afra, don't you love me?' Afra cradled
her head tenderly
to his
chest.
`I wanted to, you know,' Damia went on,
implacably young and
naive. `I tried-' `I know,' Afra soothed.
She pulled her head back against his hand
to look him in the eyes.
`You knew? And you didn't . . . And
I And Amr?' she spluttered,
growing
furious.
Again Afra put a finger to her lips but
Damia wrapped her teeth
about
it, biting hard. Her eyes locked on his
as she bit harder and
harder
but Afra's expression didn't change.
When she tasted salty
blood
in her mouth, Damia spat the finger out.
Tears dripped out of Afra's eyes as he
coldly examined the
bleeding
teeth marks.
`I'm glad it hurt!' Damia said, hot with
fury, with embarrassment,
with
guilt.
Afra flicked his eyes to her. `That isn't what hurts, Damia.' She
broke
free of his grasp angrily, strode to the bathroom, pulled on one
of his
long shirts, grabbed a first aid box and threw at him on the way
out,
`Here! That's for your hand. I can't do anything for your
heart.'
The door, being automatic, would not slam but Damia kicked it
with a
resounding thud to achieve the same effect.
`A word with you, young miss!' The tight
voice of Gollee Gren
shocked
Damia so much she jumped.
`Gollee!
What are you doing here?' she asked, looking around the
lounge
at Callisto Station. `It's not Dad-'
Then she remembered.
`Amr?' `He's all right.' Gren dismissed
the issue. He grabbed
her,
dragged her over to a booth, sat down beside her. `Just what do
you
think you are doing, anyway?' `What do you mean?' Gren swore.
`After all he's done for you. He's covered up for your "tricks",
he's
watched over you, lied and you - you're not even worth your name!'
`Who?'
Damia cried in confusion.
`Who?' Gren snorted. `Trust you to not know! Don't you think?
Don't you see?' He shook his head in a
vain attempt to throw off
his
anger. It did not work. He let out a deep breath. `I got the
pictures
back from medics.' He nodded to emphasize his point. `He said
that
one of the Coonies had bit him but I know those marks. Even when
you try
to bite his hand off he protects you!' `afra?' Damia exclaimed.
`He doesn't even know I exist! That cold-blooded green-skinned
yellow
eyed-' She searched for further epithets, found none,
`Capellan!'
`You don't think about anyone but yourself, do you?' Gren
snapped
back.
`Damia, Damia, poor Damia!' He narrowed
his eyes critically at
her.
`Well, what about Afra?
How do you think he felt when his best
friend's daughter comes on
to
him? Don't you know what you did?' `He
turned me down!' Damia
exclaimed,
wondering how Gren could have known that and amazed at
herself
for blurting out such an unsavoury episode.
`You were as obvious as the sun! He had no choice, even if he had
wanted
to!' Gren said hotly. `But that's
nothing.
To punish him for it you go off and maim
some poor-' `THAT'S NOT
TRUE!'
Damia shouted at the top of her lungs, tears of rage rolling
down
her cheeks.
`Isn't it?' Gren asked quietly.
`Think carefully before you
answer,
Damia Gwyn-Raven. And when you are
done, you go to him and you
ask him
very politely to teach you control.' `I won't!
Never!' She was
so
furious she whispered, visibly trembling to suppress the things she
wanted
to do, could do to her accuser `Your parents don't know about
that
night, or Amr, Damia grinned. `That's
normal!' he said, speaking
as low
and as intensely. `Yet.' He rose,
turning back to her in
parting. `Now, you apologize to him and you learn
from him how to
control
yourself.' `Or you'll do what?' Damia sneered tauntingly.
Gren looked her over critically. `I won't tell your father.' And
he
stomped off leaving Damia to wonder why that promise struck her as
so
sinister.
`Larak!' Damia cried joyfully, running to
embrace her brother.
`Whatever are you doing here?' `Afra sent
for me,' Larak told her,
hugging
her happily.
He shook his head. `I hadn't realized that Mom and Dad took his
advice
so seriously.
`Your voice!' Damia declared, recognizing
differences over the
past
year. `You've grown.
`I'm not a little boy any more, Damia,'
Larak replied, his voice
now
deepened with adolescence. `I've put on
three inches in seven
months! I'll catch up with you soon!' Damia
laughed. `And pass me
out,
I'm sure!' She pursed her lips. `Why
did Afra send for you?'
`Didn't
he tell you?' `We're not exchanging confidences these days.
Damia's response was curt, blocking any
further conversation.
Larak ignored the implied
injunction. He blew out his breath.
`That's new. I thought Afra was your extra special friend.' `I've
grown
out of such a childish dependence.' Larak gave her an appraising
look
which turned into a different sort of look.
He nodded
appreciatively. `If you weren't my sister, I'd ask you for a
date!
I'm not the only one who's grown up!'
Damia shook her head.
`Thank you. I'm not much into dates now, though.' `Poor men!'
Larak
exclaimed. He hefted his carisak.
`Well, lead on! I'm starving!' Brian Ackerman caught them up in
the
canteen. Larak waved a fork at him
agreeably, his mouth working
through
an overlarge hunk of food.
Ackerman shook his head at the change in
the young man. `I nearly
didn't
recognize you!' `Even with the typical Raven features? I'm
hurt!'
Larak had the same easy camaraderie his father possessed. Brian
recalled
with surprise that he had known Jeff Raven for over twenty
years
now and the Rowan for slightly longer.
At seventy-five, Ackerman
was
beginning to feel his morning exercises but beyond that, and going
totally
grey, he felt himself to be much the same man as the one who
had met
Jeff Raven those many years ago. And
the one who had, in
desperation,
sent his resignation to Peter Reidinger because he could
not
cope with the young Rowan. The thought
of the Rowan made him flick
his
eyes at Damia. Her features were a
delicate blur of the best of
the
Rowan and the best of Raven but she favoured more her mother in
moods,
temperament and emotion.
Yes, a lot like her mother, Ackerman
decided, only more powerful.
He wondered if the Rowan was really aware
of her daughter's
psychic
potential. He had his suspicions but
Jeff had tactfully kept
his
counsel on that score.
`What brings you here?' Damia asked with
an unspoken accusation in
her
tone.
`I've got new station assignments,'
Ackerman replied.
`Station assignments?' Larak was startled. `Aren't we a bit too
young?'
`That's never stopped you before!' Ackerman exclaimed, a smile
forming
on his lips. He nodded at the
youngster.
`I've read your transcripts, Larak. You're going to be a great
twic
some day!' `Twic?' Larak was puzzled, Damia startled.
Ackerman nodded at her. `It was a name your sister coined, stands
for:
second-in-command. Only she saw 21C and
pronounced it twic.' He
paused. `Afra must've liked it because he's used it
ever since and
it's stuck.'
Larak turned a fond look at his sister but Damia looked as
though
the words offended her. `So, what's
up?' Larak asked, ignoring
his
sister's expression.
`Altair's up,' Ackerman replied, turning
to Damia and winking at
her. `You're assigned there for six months, to
work with Torshan and
Saggoner. I think Earth Prime's doing what Reidinger
did to him
starting
you on a round of Towers to give you experience.' `Gren put
you up
to this, didn't he?' Damia asked, her eyes snapping with blue
sparks,
Ackerman recoiled from the verbal onslaught, confused.
`Huh?' `Where did these
"assignments" originate?' she demanded.
`Headquarters, on Earth, where else?'
Ackerman returned,
remembering
belatedly how poor the Rowan's manners had been when she
was
angered by something.
What's up? he asked himself. `You've
done very well here, Damia.
But it's time for you to get about more.'
He recoiled a bit at the
anger
she didn't quite suppress.
`When?' Her question was delivered in a
flat tone but both men
could
sense the tension within her.
Ackerman blinked. `I guess you can go as soon as you like,
Damia,
but
there's no exact date given.' `Well, I suppose I should be grateful
for
time to pack,' she said in a bitter tone.
`Ah, you just got in, didn't you, Larak,'
Brian began, trying to
rescue
himself. It was rather like those times
when the Rowan had been
in a
right snit and no one knew why.
`Yes, I did,' and Larak fell quickly in
with Brian's obvious ploy.
`Haven't even seen my mother yet. Found Damia and she suggested I
might
be hungry. Larak's ingenuous grin
flashed at Brian. `Have I got
an
assignment in that pack?' Brian ruffled the flimsies. `Yes, you do,
actually,'
and he extracted the right one. `You're
here for six
months,
working with Afra-' `So he had to get rid of me first?' Damia
asked
in a sullen tone.
`Afra has nothing to do with
assignments,' Brian said, puzzled by
her
attitude. Why, when she was a baby,
she'd followed Afra around
like
one of his Coonies.
Ackerman shook his head. `He doesn't know they've come in, much
less
who's been assigned where. I don't
think he'll like it much,
though.'
Ackerman looked at his watch and rose.
`I'd better log these
in
officially, kids. I'll see you two
later?' `Certainly!' Larak
called
back.
Afra had heard the news that evening and
was not pleased.
When he met Gollee Gren at Luce's
restaurant, he started right in.
`What's the idea behind sending Damia to
Altair?' `She needs the
experience,'
Gollee said simply, flagging down a waiter.
`Please tell
Luce
that Afra's here.' The waiter looked dubious.
`Afra?' He looked
at the
Capellan who nodded politely `Afra of Callisto Tower,' Gren
amended. `Luce'll know what to do.
`Chef Luciano is a busy man-' `Who'll be
very upset if I have to
tell
him myself.' Gollee whipped his napkin from his lap and made to
rise.
`I will tell him.' The waiter rushed off.
`New man.' Gren frowned. `He'll learn.' Afra shook his head. `I
haven't
been here that often recently' `Tell me about it!' Gollee
snorted.
`Tell me about Altair.' `She's got to
have a lot more experience
before
she's ready to run her own Tower,' Gren said, then paused as
Afra
realized what he meant.
`A new Tower? Where?' With more and more systems joining the Nine
Star
League - which had far more than Nine Stars in it now - there was
incredible
pressure on F T & T to expand their facilities.
`Aurigae,' and Gollee made a face. `They've got ores every system
will
buy. They already have credit by the
pod load. They want a T-i
yesterday. But Jeff won't overload her until he's sure
she's ready for
that
kind of responsibility.' `She's got the capability.' `She doesn't
have
the self-control,' Gren said and his eyes were hooded with
disapproval. Afra arched an eyebrow and he shrugged, then
admitted
with a
sigh, `It's also because of the incident-' `Jeff hasn't heard,
has
he?' `Not from my lips,' Gren assured him.
`And no, I don't think
he
has. Amr's getting therapy and the
prognosis is good, but he won't
ever
make stationmaster. He also has no idea
who she really is. So
when
Jeff was wondering where to send her, I admit I suggested that she
fill
the Altairian spot, with an eye toward Aurigae. It's preferable
to her
being at Blundell.' `Hmm, yes, she was dating the boy for six
months.
They did a lot of dancing. Someone's sure to remember her face if
she
starts going out and about on Earth again.' `I also think working
with
Torshan and Saggoner will be good for her.
Jeff's objective, but
the
Rowan' 5 not.' Afra pursed his lips, nodded.
`Yes, that's a
factor,
too.
Damia's always been Rowan's sore
spot. It's been pretty intense
at
times in the Tower during Damia's apprenticeship. I don't know how
much of
that is their personalities clashing.
Even so, she'll learn
more
control.' `Oh, indeed she will. She's
scheduled to go to Capella
after
Altair,' and Gollee's smile was malicious.
`She'll learn
control.'
`Don't be so hard on the child, Gollee.
She's only sixteen
and in
an act of passion it's hard enough for anyone to control
themselves.
`We manage!' Gren protested.
Afra agreed with a nod, adding, `But
we're not sixteen.' Then he
deliberately
changed the subject. `How's Tanya?
And the kids?' `The kids are great!'
Gollee returned promptly.
`And Tanya?' Gren smiled, having lined
Afra up for that. `She's
even
better.' `Your daughter, she's what - twelve?' Gren groaned.
`Thirteen and boy trouble already.' He
sighed, reflectively. `In
fact, I
had a long talk with her after `Good idea,' Afra agreed
quickly.
`I can't figure out why the Rowan
neglected-' Gren began in
protest.
`I don't think she did. I think Damia simply didn't hear, Afra
cut
in. `Cera had no problem.' `Cera's
overcontrolled,' Gren remarked.
`Would she?' `The Rowan mentioned Cera
had reached an
understanding.
A nice lad, she says, a `Jeff Raven's own
population explosion.
You watch over all of them, don't you?'
Gollee said, amused. `But
Damia
more than the rest.' Afra shrugged.
`She's so much like the
Rowan,
it comes naturally.' Afra furrowed his brows.
`But Aurigae?
That's going to be a tough Tower to run.'
`Who knows? Your Damia
may
well have found herself a soul mate before she gets to Aurigae,'
Gollee
said cheerfully.
The food arrived, along with an ecstatic
Luciano, and the subject
of
Damia and Aurigae was not renewed.
Iota Aurigae was a blaze at zenith, to
Damia's left, glinting off
her
personal capsule. Capella's light, from
the right nadir, was a
pulsing
blue-white. Starlight from the Milky
Way bathed her, too, but
the
only sound was her even breathing as she allowed her mind to open
fully
to the mindless, echo-freedom of deep space.
It was as if she could feel the separate
cerebral muscles
relaxing,
expanding, as her tall slender body went gradually limp. She
enjoyed
these moments of total mental relief from the stresses of
Aurigae
Tower. But her purpose in these jaunts
had a more important
application
than a mental vacation for herself: she must also be
certain
that no unwelcome visitors approached the Nine Star League from
deep
space beyond Iota Aurigae, the furthest human colony from Earth.
Eventually the League would have
sufficient sentries to ring the
heliopause
of every one of its member star systems.
But the effective warning system evolved
by the combined effort of
Fleet
and Commercial Engineers was expensive, and time-consuming to
manufacture,
and almost as tedious to install when completed since each
network
had to be designed for the star system it would protect. Since
the
Beetles had twice tried to penetrate Denebian space, that star
system
had been first to receive heliopausal sentinels. Despite the
fact
that the home system was already festooned with sophisticated
sensors
and listening devices in swarms about each of the inner planets
and a
gigantic listening mechanism on Neptune, Terra received the
second
system.
Over the next fifteen years, devious
politicking, strikes,
ultimatums
and power plays by nervous administrators on the other
Systems
- Altair, Capella, Betelgeuse and Procyon - were frequent: each
Star
determined to have equal safeguards against alien incursions. As
the
newest, and least populated, of the colonies, Iota Aurigae relied
on
Damia's weekly reconnaissance.
Which suited both the Aurigaens and Damia
perfectly.
Perhaps that was why she so enjoyed the
independent, reckless
spirit
of Aurigaens. They didn't give a damn
about their `perilously'
unprotected
status. They were arrogantly confident
of their own
resources
and besides, wasn't Deneb on the far side of the galaxy from
Aurigae?
Most of the energetic, hard-working
colonists did not really have
time to
worry about something that `might' happen.
Then, too, after nearly twenty years, the
memory of the Deneb
Penetration
had faded from active memory into a tale to frighten
children
with. Damia often wondered how many
people - with the
exclusion
of all Denebians - remembered just how nearly the Nine Star
League
had come to being overrun by the hive species.
Certainly,
during
her childhood on Deneb, that lesson was reinforced time and time
again. And, regularly, the matter of adequate
warning systems still
exercised
the Fleet, Nine Star League Senior Senators - of all species
- and
all members of the Federated Telepath and Teleportation System.
Much as Damia liked Aurigae's raw and
ruthless ways, she did find
the
utter peace of deep space an anodyne to the constant demands of her
position
as FT&T Prime. While gradually
Aurigae was beginning to
supply
all agricultural needs and even manufacture needed parts for its
technologies,
she still had to haul in significant quantities of food
stuffs
and a multitude of the bits and pieces that Aurigae did not have
the
time or facilities to manufacture for itself More to the point, she
had to
send off immense loads of the raw ores, minerals and rare earths
which
made the Aurigae colony valuable, and affluent: commodities that
in the
main went into the manufacture of the low-pulse radar warning
systems
for other star systems.
Initially there'd been trouble with the
Colonial Council in
accepting
Damia who'd been eighteen when her parents had judged her
ready
to assume FT&T responsibilities.
She'd been furious with the implied
criticism that she, a
Gwyn-Raven,
of a family that already boasted four Primes, was too
immature
to handle a Tower. Worse, she had
caught just a trace of
anxiety
in her father's mind that she was too flighty to settle down to
the
hard and tedious work of a Prime.
So she'd shown them all her mettle in her
first three months'
trial
in Aurigae Tower. She'd mentally
cajoled or bullied the Tower
staff
into line in the first week and had never lost so much as a
single
shipment nor bounced a cargo, no matter how heavy or awkward.
Settling her staff so quickly had been a
minor personal triumph
for
Damia, since her own mother had juggled Tower personnel for nearly
five
years before she'd been satisfied.
Occasionally, even Damia's resilient mind
felt the strain and
required
respite from the insistent murmur of broadcasting thought that
beat,
beat, beat like a tinnitus in her brain.
Ironically, because she
had
done so well, Aurigaens now tended to take her for granted, to
assume
the fast and faultless service she rendered in her gestalt with
the
mighty dynamos of the Tower.
With a frick of a finger, Damia screened
out the over-brilliant
starlight
and opened her eyes. The softened
stargleams, points of gem
fire in
the black of space, winked and pulsed at her.
Idly, she
identified
the familiar patterns they made, these silent friends.
Somehow the petty grievances that built
up inside her were gently
dispersed
as the overwhelming impersonality of cold nothingness brought
them
into proper perspective.
She could even forget her present
preoccupation for a moment:
forget
how lonely she was; how she envied Larak, his loving, lovely
wife
and their new son; envied her mother the company of her husband
and
children; envied the Rowan Afra -- Afra!
What right had he to
interfere,
to reprimand her!
His words still seared.
`You've been getting an almighty
vicarious charge out of peeking
in on
Larak and Jenna. Scared Jenna out of
her wits, lurking in her
mind
while she was in labour! You leave them
both alone!' Damia was
forced
to admit that such an intrusion had been the most shameless
breach
of good manners. But how had Afra known? Jenna hadn't even
been
aware until the split second when Damia had felt, as its mother
did,
the despairing birth howl of Jenna's son.
Unless Larak had caught
her as
she withdrew from Jenna's mind and told him.
She sighed. Yes,
Larak
would have known she was eavesdropping.
Though he was the only
T-3
among her brothers and sisters, he had always been extremely
sensitive
to her mind touch. How often she and
Larak had been able to
overwhelm
any combination of others, even when Jeran and Cera had
teamed
up with Talented cousins against them.
Damia had never tried to
analyse
the trick, but, somehow, she could switch into a higher mental
gear,
doubling the capability of other minds within her focus.
Afra's scorching rebuke had come as an
intense humiliation: one of
several
she had suffered from him. The worst of
that was that
invariably
Afra had been correct. Well, better by
that yellow-eyed,
green-skinned
T-3 Capellan than her father, acting in his capacity as
Earth
Prime.
She rather hoped that her father had not
learned of that appalling
breach
of T-etiquette.
Odd, though, she hadn't heard as much as
a whisper from Afra since
then. It must be over seven months. He had listened in as she'd
apologized
to both Jenna and Larak, and then silence.
He couldn't be
that
angry with her. Or maybe he could. Afra's Methody upbringing
made
him a martinet on points of etiquette.
Damia diverted her thoughts away from
Afra, and went through the
ritual
of muscle relaxation, of mental wipeout.
She must be back in the Tower very
soon. In a way, the fact that
she
could handle Prime duties with no higher ratings than a T-6 to
assist
had certain disadvantages. The Tower
staff could handle only
routine
planetary traffic, but she had to be on hand for all
interstellar
telepathic and teleportation commerce.
It would be wonderful to have a T-2, or
even a T-3, to share her
duties:
someone who could understand.
Not someone - be honest with yourself out
here in space, Damia.
Some man. Only men shy away from you as if you'd developed
Lynx-sun
cancers. And the only other unmarried
Prime was her own
brother,
Jeran.
Come to think about Jeran, the smug tone
of his recent
mind-touches
as they exchanged cargoes and messages between Deneb and
Aurigae
undoubtedly meant that he had found a likely mate, too. When
the
Denebians paused to use their wits instead of their muscles, they
discovered
in themselves strong embryo Talents.
Like her father, Jeff
Raven,
or, more to the point, her grandmother, Isthia, who had waited
until
her forties to make use of powerful innate Talent.
It was no consolation to Damia that her
mother, in a rare example
of
maternal solicitude, had warned her of this intense, feminine
loneliness
which she, too, had experienced.
But Jeff Raven had appeared to breach the
Rowan's Tower and the
Rowan
had at least had Afra's company Afra!
Why did her mind keep
returning
to him?
Damia realized that she was grinding her teeth. She forced
herself
through the rituals again, sternly making specific thought
dissipate
until her mind drifted. And, in the
course of that aimless
drifting,
an aura impinged on her roving consciousness.
Startled - for
nothing
could be coming in from that quarter of space - she tightened
her
mind into a seeking channel.
An aura!
A mere wisp of the presence of something.
Something . alien!
Alien!
Damia recomposed herself. She disciplined
her mind to a
pure,
clear, uncluttered shaft. She touched
the aura. Recognition of
her
touch! Retreat - return!
The aura was undeniably alien, but so
faint that she would have
doubted
its existence except that her finely trained mind was not given
to
error.
An exultation as hot as lust caused her
blood to pound in her
ears. She was not wrong. The trace was there. And
it wasn't Beetles!
Taking a deep breath, she directed an
arrow-fine mental shout
across
the light-years, nadirward, to the Earth Prime Tower in the
squat
Blundell building which housed the administrative centre of
Federated
Teleport and Telepath.
I've caught something out here, Earth
Prime!
Aurigae Prime, damn it, control. Control, girl! Jeff replied,
keeping
his own mental roar within tolerable bounds.
Sony, but I'm aimed directly at you,
Damia replied without real
contrition. Her father was capable of deflecting her
most powerful
thrust.
Thank all the gods for that mercy. So what have you caught?
specify!
His tone was official.
I can't be more specific. The alien aura is barely detectable,
coming
from four light-years galactic north-northeast, Sector 2.
I arrowed in once I heard the trace and
it responded.
It responded? And four light-years out?
Damia, where are you?
Jeff s tone was suspicious.
Slightly bond Aurigaen heliopause, she
replied, hoping that her
father
had no way of judging just how far she actually was. I'm
resting.
Just how far are you from your
Tower? Jeff demanded, more irate
father
than Earth Prime.
Only a light-year.
Leaving the Tower with only a T-6 in
control? I thought we'd
instilled
more common sense than that in your head!
Let's not get too cocky, Damia. Those hey-mad colonists are
having
a bad effect on you.
Damia chortled. And here I thought the opposite was well
reported. Damia knew perfectly well that her father
would have heard
about
her exploits with carefully chosen, energetic and chauvinistic
young
engineers and miners.
But none of them had been the least bit
Talented so her affairs
had not
harmed them. She'd never been able to
forget Amr Tusel. If
some of
her partners thought she would favour their shipments over
others
because of her liaisons, they were soon disabused of the notion.
In her Tower she scrupulously adhered to
FT&T's business.
You are at least discreet, Jeff admitted,
but don't change the
subject. Resting is good, but you can achieve as much
rest beyond
Aurigae's
moons as you can a light-year out and not risk being
irretrievable.
Privately, Damia admitted that his point
was well taken.
I wouldn't have impinged on that aura if
I was only beyond the
moons,
Dad. Aren't we supposed to discover
visitors, and she added a
mental
grin for her description, before they reach the hello pa use?
All right, all right, Jeff said, but
Damia knew she hadn't
convinced
him. Show me, he added, his tone
reproving.
She allowed his mind to join with hers as
she led him directly to
the
alien trace. The aura was palpable but
so far away that only the
extraordinary
perception of two powerful minds could sense it.
I sense anticipation, curiosity,
surprise, Jeff told his daughter
thoughtfully
as he withdrew from the tight focus.
And caution, too.
Whatever it is, is approaching our
galaxy. Damn, why couldn't we
have at
least a few peripheral sentinels for you beyond Aurigae.
Mechanicals would be no good in this
instance, Damia declared,
irritated
by the inference that devices would be more useful than she
could
be.
That's true enough, though the safest
procedure is for mechanicals
to
inform humans.
So I've stolen a march on those much
vaunted DEWs. And I can find
out a
helluva lot more than they could. Damia
couldn't resist
reminding
her father of that.
Not at any time personally endangering
yourself, Prime, Jeff
replied,
colouring the official concern with personal.
Of course not, Damia replied, fully
confident in her own
abilities. But if I can establish some kind of
communication with
these
visitors, I'll need someone to take over my Tower. Like Larak.
I can't spare Larak immediately. He's training a T-3 to augment
old
Guzman at Procyon Tower. The old fellow
tends to fall asleep and
great
tact is required to keep from irritating or humiliating Guz,
neither
of which temper keeps Procyon operating smoothly.
I thought you'd a dozen good T-2s coming
along, Damia replied, for
she
kept informed of all matters concerning Talents.
I do, but there isn't a team working
smoothly enough yet to take
over on
such short notice. I'll send you
Afra. He'd be better anyhow.
Because Afra was involved with the Deneb
Penetration?
Damia asked, slightly supercilious. And you don't think I'd know
Beetle
stink after a childhood on Deneb?
Jeff chuckled. Yes, I suppose you'd have learned that, too.
Well, I'd rather wait until Larak's free if it's only a question
of a
few weeks. We've time in hand, I think,
before the alien vessel
gets
anywhere near Aurigae's heliopause. And
you know how Mother hates
being
deprived of Afra, Damia added, not quite leeching all the rancour
from
her voice.
Damia!
and Jells tone crackled with disapproval. I thought you'd
grown
out of that bit of childishness.
Furthermore, I will not
tolerate
such disrespect of your mother, least of all from you. He
paused,
leaving Damia in no doubt of his anger, a palpable bridge of
tension
between them despite the enormous distance that physically
separated
them. By rights, I ought to saddle you
with some T-2s and
let you
sweat out their learning.
Thank you, no, Dad. Not under the present circumstances.
And Damia did not bother to hide her
dismay at his suggestion.
Unfortunately the most useful pair are
twins and as you never got
on
terms with the way Jeran and Cera operated, I doubt you'd establish
a
rapport with them either.
Sometimes, Dad, I don't think you like
me.
Of course, I do, Damia, and a swelling of
love, affection and
approval
laved her, as your father. But, and now
Jeff s voice turned
droll,
as Earth Prime, I'm as aware of your strengths as your
weaknesses. You operate far more effectively with T-3s
and under. I
just
don't happen to have any T-3s but your brother. There was a note
of
wistfulness in her father's voice that Damia understood all too
well,
to both her amusement and chagrin.
Your dynastic plans will bear better
fruit with Jeran, you know.
He's been awful cocky lately. Only don't let him settle for
anything
less than a T4.
She grinned to herself at her father's
startled pause.
You haven't been eavesdropping again,
have you, Damia?
She parried that surprise with a quick,
After Afra reamed me for
that
with Jenna? Not bloody likely.
Oh, so it was Afra. Your mother thought it might have been
Isthia. Your grandmother had a rare Talent for
knowing when one of her
charges
was up to mischief The trouble with telepaths is that sometimes
they
think too much, she remarked acidly, infuriated afresh to realize
that
her mother also knew of that incident.
Damia!
Jeff's tone was unusually severe.
Better than anyone else
in this
galaxy, your mother understands your Tower isolation.
Is that why she handed me over to Isthia
to raise? Damia flashed
back.
To give you a soft ambience when you were
too damned precocious to
appreciate
the dangers of living in the Callisto dome.
And I know you
remember
Afra hauling you out of a freighter a split second before your
mother
was about to launch it to Altair.
Damia did remember but she didn't like to
and she hated for her
father
to bring it up.
Furthermore, and she had to set her teeth
as her father continued
on that
tack, let me try to seal it into your stubborn head that it was
I who
insisted that you go to your grandmother on Deneb, not your
mother,
and it was Afra you were clinging to like a barnacle when it
came
time to be put in the capsule for the trip.
Right now Damia
particularly
didn't like to be reminded of that fact, not when Afra's
silence
had lasted seven months. Her father
sighed, abruptly breaking
off
that familiar lecture. You and your
mother are so much alike.
Damia snorted. She was not the least bit like her mother.
There was absolutely no resemblance
between them. She was Jeff s
daughter
from her slender height to her black hair and vivid blue eyes.
Jeran, yes, and Ezra, too, took after the
Rowan. But not she. Of
course,
her mother had an exceedingly strong and diverse psionic Talent
or she
wouldn't be Callisto Prime, but Damia felt that she was just as
strong,
and she had the added advantage of that catalytic ability as
well.
Well, Jeff was saying in a resigned tone,
you'll see it one day,
my
dear, and I, for one, will be immensely relieved. Your mother and I
love
you very much and we're damned proud of the way you've been
managing
Aurigae Tower. Professionally I have no
quibbles with you.
Damia basked in her father's praise. He didn't give it lightly.
I'll send Afra on directly, he added,
spoiling her pleasure. I
can
trust his impartiality, and to Damia's amazement, her father
chuckled.
She stabbed at his mind to find the basis
for the amusement, but
met a
blankness as her father had turned his mind to some other
problem.
`Impartiality? Afra?' The sound of her own voice in the little
personal
capsule startled her.
What on Earth was that supposed to
mean? Why would Afra's
impartiality
be trusted - above hers - in identifying or evaluating an
alien
aura?
But Afra was to come to Aurigae.
After he had broken contact with Damia,
Jeff did not immediately
turn to
other problems. He mulled over the
subtler aspects of that
vivid
contact with his daughter.
Damia's mind was as brilliant as Iota
Aurigae, and right now
blazing
with excitement over the contact. He
didn't like her
recklessness
but, in this instance, he could only be relieved that she
had
been in position to catch the aura.
Odd that she could still be so angry
about being sent to Isthia.
Odder still, that she could still deny
that it had been Afra she'd
clung
to, and cried for, not her mother.
Jeff knew very well that, once Damia had
settled in with her
grandmother
and her cousins, she'd been extremely happy and benefited
tremendously
by the Special School for Talent that Isthia had set up.
Jeff sighed. The decision to send Damia to Isthia had been one of
the
hardest had ever had to make, personally and professionally. But
she'd
come early into her extraordinary mental powers, frightening
everyone
on the station with her antics and incredibly dangerous use of
telekinesis. Only Afra had any control over her and even
his patience
had
ended with her capsule stunt.
Under Isthia's calm, unruffled
discipline, and with a huge planet
to roam
in and myriads of cousins to keep tabs on her, Damia had
learned
how to use her Talent without abusing it, herself, and anyone
in her
immediate vicinity. She became
sincerely fond of her
grandmother
and would obey Isthia where she argued every request from
her
parents, especially her mother. Strange
that it was the Rowan whom
Damia
still blamed for fostering her.
Rowan, Jeff called out to Callisto Tower
and sensed that his wife
was
resting as the interchanges on Callisto's cargo cradles filled from
Earthside.
Her mind linked with his gladly, just as
if they hadn't
breakfasted
together on Callisto a few hours earlier.
I've a message of extreme importance to
impart to you, luv. Open
to me.
Damia's made contact with an alien
aura? The fleeting maternal
concern
was quickly supplanted by professional curiosity as the Rowan
scanned
Damia's recent experience beyond Aurigae.
Of course Afra goes.
I can't think of anyone better. Her tone was slightly ironic
until
she caught the thought that Jeff tried to lose. But why on Earth
Damia
would think that you can't assign Afra wherever he's needed, I
just
don't understand. Oh, well. I don't understand that child. I'll
take a
pair of those T-2s you're training until he comes back. Twins,
huh?
Well, Mauli and Mick have been a superb
team, and Jeran and Cera
accustomed
me to fraternal language. She added
with a sigh, I'll miss
him.
You always do, Jeff replied teasingly, to divert the Rowan from
scanning
the recent conversation too deeply, Good thing I trust that
yellow-eyed
Capellan -- Jeff Raven, there has never been an improper
thought
between Afra and myself even before you lurched in from Deneb
Jeff
laughed and she sputtered at him indignantly.
Actually, she continued, it'd be a relief
for me to know that
Afra's
out with Damia. I really do worry that
she might get besotted
with
one of those brawny Aurigaen types she plays about with.
The last thing Afra'd do is interfere
with her pleasures.
The Rowan let out an exasperated
sigh. But those pleasures do
nothing
to relieve her loneliness. Sometimes .
I know, said her husband with
considerable sympathy and then his
tone
hardened. She wouldn't BE lonely if she
hadn't been so
heavy-handed
with every other high T young male She resents our
matchmaking
as much as I resented Reidinger's.
There's no guarantee she won't find a
Denebian, too, you know,
Jeff
replied, allowing his voice to become so lascivious that the Rowan
pretended
shock. When can you spare Afra from
doing your work?
Afra?
Doing MY work? Just wait till
you get home. And she
pretended
to ignore his response to that threat.
Afra?
Jeff requires your attention.
Jeff caressed her with a genuinely
affectionate thought before he
felt
Afra's mind touch his.
Are you sure you're still only a
T-3? he asked, surprised at the
firmness
in the Capellan's contact.
I'm in gestalt, after all, Afra replied,
adding a mental shrug at
Jeff's
surprise. What else could you expect
after twenty years of
proximity
to two of the strongest Talents in explored space? It's no
wonder
I've learned a few tricks from the pair of you. From the
expression
on Rowan's face, I'd hazard that Damia has lately been
discussed. What's she up to now?
Damia had just returned to Aurigae when
she heard the Rowan giving
the
Tower official warning of the transmission of a personal capsule.
Afra?
Damia exclaimed, reaching back along her mother's touch to
Callisto.
Damia!
Afra said warningly but too late.
Without waiting for the Rowan to launch
the capsule towards
Aurigae,
Damia blithely drew the carrier directly from Callisto,
ignoring
her mother's stunned and angry reaction to such bad manners.
Damia regretted her impulsiveness
immediately. But Afra's capsule
was
opening and he was swinging himself out.
She could not have missed
his
trenchant disapproval if she'd been a mere T-15. He stood, looking
down at
her though she was tall enough to look most men in the eye, as
imperturbable
as ever. As aloof and contained as
always. Did Afra
never
alter? Did he never give vent to his
feelings? Did he have any?
Unfair of her for she knew he did - even
if he seemed to expend
most of
them on barque cats and Coonies. She
really shouldn't have
snatched
his carrier from her mother: that had been childish and she so
wanted
Afra to notice how well she managed Aurigae Tower with a minimum
of
Talented staff and a maximum of efficiency.
She sighed for she knew
she
hadn't impressed Afra at all.
Instinctively, she straightened as if to
minimize the difference
in their
heights. Even so, she still only came
to Afra's shoulder.
`You will apologize to your mother,
Damia,' Afra said, his
unexpectedly
tenor speaking voice a curious echo of his quiet mental
tone. `Isthia taught you better manners even if we
never could.
`You've been trying to lately, though,
haven't you?' The retort
came
out before she could stop it. Why did
she always feel like an
errant
child in Afra's presence? Even when she
wasn't at fault.
He cocked his head to one side and
regarded her steadily.
She sent a swift probe which he parried
easily.
`You were distressing Jenna
unnecessarily, Damia. She appealed to
me
because she did not wish Jeff to know of your indiscretion.
`She chose well.' Damia was so appalled
at the waspishness of her
tone
that she extended her hand to him apologetically.
She could feel him throw up his mental
barriers and, for a second,
she
wondered if he might refuse what was, after all, the height of
familiarity
between telepaths. But his hand rose
smoothly to clasp
hers,
lightly, warmly, leaving her with the essential
cool-green-comfortable-security
that was the physical/mental
double-touch
of him.
Then, with a one-sided smile, he bowed to
indicate he was
flattered
by the compliment of touching but allowed a recollection of
herself,
clad only in dypers, cross his public mind.
She made a face at him and substituted
Larak's son.
Afra blandly put `her' back beside her
nephew.
`All right,' she laughed. `I'll behave.' `About time,' he said
with an
affable grin. `Now apologize to your
mother.
Damia made a face but she sent a suitably
contrite message to the
Rowan
who accepted it with only a modicum of disapproval. When she had
done
that, Damia saw Afra looking about him.
He would have seen
Aurigae
through the perceptions of herself and Keylarion, her T-6.
The Tower occupied a position beyond the
edges of, and on a height
above,
the sprawling colony town which had been built on both sides of
the
river that flowed into Aurigae's southern sea several kilometres
beyond. A fine straight road linked Tower and town,
but there was
little
traffic on it now in the early evening.
Unlike other Towers, there was no staff
compound, for most of the
Talents
preferred quarters in the nearby town.
So, late in the evening there weren't
even any ground vehicles
about
the Tower buildings and only the two personal capsules in the
cradling
yard. The sweet-scented breeze sweeping
down from the high
snowy
mountain range was lightly moist and the atmosphere had a high
oxygen
content, exhilarating him. Afra took a
deep breath and exhaled.
`It's a lovely world you have here,
Damia.' She smiled up at him,
her blue
eyes brilliant under the fringes of long black lashes.
`Yes, isn't it? Young and vigorous. Come
see where I live. And
see how
well all the Coonies have adapted to Aurigae.' She led the way
from
the landing stage to her dwelling.
Her house, a cantilevered affair on
several levels, perched on the
high
plateau above the noisy metropolis. Its
randomly sprawling
newness
had a vitality which the planned order of both Earth and his
native
Capella lacked. Afra found the view
stimulating.
`It is, isn't it?' Damia agreed,
following his surface thought.
Then she directed his mind to her day's
discovery, giving the
experience
exactly as it had happened to her.
`And the touch is unlike anything I've
ever encountered.' `You
certainly
didn't expect it to be familiar, did you?' Afra asked in dry
amusement.
`Just because they originate in another
galaxy doesn't mean they
can't
be humanoid, and thus somewhat familiar,' she replied.
`Dreamer They both heard an excited
chatter as they started up the
last
flight of shallow steps to the main entrance to her quarters. She
grinned
over her shoulder at Afra.
`They know you're here,' she said just as
a tumble of brightly
furred
bodies squeezed out of their special door, sorting into five
separate
entities. Squealing and clicking with
delight, they swarmed
up
Afra's long legs - one Coonie making a splendid leap from the top
step
directly to his chest. Laughing, Afra
reached up to keep the
daring
Crisp from losing her grip on the smooth fabric of his tunic.
Meanwhile, arthur scrambled to his
shoulder, twining his banded
tail
around Afra's neck, just as Merry arrived on the other shoulder
and
Priss and Scrap argued with each other for Afra's crooked right
arm.
Merry was disgusted and leapt to Damia's
shoulder, scolding her
siblings
impartially as she proprietorially threaded her tail about
Damia's
neck.
`Aurigae' 5 unscrewed all their training,
too,' Afra remarked as
he carried
his squirming load into the house.
But his smile took the sting from his
words. `I'm positive that
Crisp
and arthur have put on kilos since they left Callisto.
`They've filled out a lot. The hunting's good,' Damia said.
`They're foraging?' Afra was both
surprised and pleased.
Coonies were infinitely adaptable which
was why they fared well
wherever
they were raised. This litter had been
born on Callisto under
Damia's
bed, if Afra remembered correctly. They
had always been
Damia's
but had included him in their exuberant affections.
I`Daily, or should I say nightly? What they don't eat they
deposit
very carefully in my bathtub - where it's easy to clean up.'
Damia
made a face. `Are you hungry?
I've probably interrupted your normal
shift.' `Oh, don't go to any
trouble
for me,' he said, settling on the long deep couch in the living
area so
that he could pet the Coonies who rapturously exposed their
white-furred
bellies for his special attentions.
`No trouble at all,' Damia replied. Mischievously she kinetically
started
several cooking operations at the same time, each one a dish
which
she knew Afra particularly enjoyed. For
quite a few minutes, the
kitchen
was full of flying utensils, condiments and raw materials being
processed.
`Always the thoughtful hostess,' he said,
graciously inclining his
head. `How fast is this alien closing on Aurigae?'
`Give me a break,
Afra! I only know it's there! How could I possibly judge relative
speed? I've got to establish some frame of
reference.
`Well, you've always been precocious.' He
had to duck a vegetable
peeling
which she flung at him in her pique.
He neatly launched it into the disposal
unit. `Seriously, Damia,
how
long do you think you'll need?' Appeased by a reasonable request,
she
considered. `I should have some idea of
relative speed in a week
or so.
Maybe even sooner, but I doubt it.'
Absently fondling soft, silky
Coonie
bodies, he watched her as she ended the telekinetic preparatory
ballet
of edibles, and began to sample what she was cooking, corrected
seasonings
and added final ingredients. Like most
T- is, she enjoyed
manual
work and kept her house without relying on the mechanicals which
most
households considered essential. In a
very short time, she
prepared
a perfectly cooked, attractively presented meal at which he
glanced
casually, seemingly reluctant to disentangle his hands from the
Coonies'
playful paws and teeth.
`Scatter, kids,' Damia said, firmly
Separating the little animals
from
their willing victim.
With startled squeaks, the Coonies fled
from the couch to
positions
where they turned to glare in her direction, muttering Coonie
imprecations. Afra glanced at her, his eyebrows raised in
mild rebuke.
`They had a good romp with you,' she
said, `but I went to a lot of
trouble
to give you a decent meal and I don't like my efforts wasted.'
She sat
down across from him, plate in hand.
`Your efforts are not wasted,' he said,
putting his fork in the
crispy
ginger chicken served with mangetout.
`Tasty enough.' Damia made a face at
him. "`Tasty enough?"' She
mimicked
him. `Can't I ever impress you?' she
asked, half-wistful,
half-sharp.
`Why should you want to at this late
date?' he asked, amiably.
`I've never forgotten our introduction.'
And he grinned.
`Oh, that!' As always, that reminder
caused her to flush.
`It's not fair of you to continually
bring that up. So I smiled
at you
until Elizara took me from you and then began to bawl my eyes
out. I was hardly aware of what I was doing, now
was I? a bare hour
born.'
`My dear Damia,' and he chuckled appreciatively, `you have
always
been aware of your effect on an audience.
He bowed his head towards her. `But let us attend to the business
at
hand. How can I help you? Shall I take over the regular Tower
workload
and leave you free for surveillance?' `I think you'll have to.
When I got back in from resting, before
mother despatched you,
Federated
Mines and Ores notified me of intent to forward nine drones
to the
refinery on one of Betelgeuse's outer planets.' `Nine shouldn't
be a
problem with David to catch,' Afra replied.
Damia rolled her eyes. `Big daddies, every one of them, not those
small
interstellar drones you and Mother play with.' `The big ones?'
And
Afra regarded her with some concern.
`And they expect you to
manage
such mass with only a Damia grinned with satisfaction at his
response. `I always do manage, you know,' she said
with considerable
pride.
`Still jump-starting other people's
Talents?' `There's nothing
wrong
with that, Afra, if it helps me spin off the workload they expect
of me.'
Afra leaned forward, lightly touching his finger to her hand.
`There's such a thing as being too
stiff-necked proud, Damia.
Especially as you might put your T-6 at
risk of burnout. Did you
think
of that?' `Yes, I have, but Keylarion is sturdy. She doesn't
have
much finesse but she sort of sets her heels down and pushes.'
Damia
gave a little laugh. `We might need
more generators if this
traffic
in big daddies continues.
`Earth Prime has the right to know when
his people are
overloaded.'
Damia found it difficult to evade Afra's yellow eyes.
`I would have mentioned it if the heavy
traffic keeps up, Afra.
I'd thought of insisting on the linked
pod configuration you
initiated,
but it's more a question of mass than convenience. Up tilt
some
dark thought of the big daddies, Keylarion and I have been able
for all
they've asked.' `At least you had sense to ask for help today,'
Afra
said, and then shook his finger at her, simulating censure. I
think
I'll recommend that you're allowed a T-4 Ah ah, Damia,' and held
his
finger in a sterner pose, `I'll have made the recommendation if I
judge
the traffic requires it.
You won't have to admit you're unable to
handle it.' `I am able to
handle
it,' and she jerked her chin up in challenge.
`Indeed, but not if you've got to play
sentinel, too. I should
imagine
that your staff will give a collective sigh of relief to know
you're
being reinforced.' Looking down to artistically rearrange the
vegetables
on her plate, she found that Afra was, as usual, correct in
his
supposition. The tip of his finger
touched her chin and, with a
deft
kinetic tilt, he made her look him in the eye.
tHis mind touch was so sympathetic and
understanding that she
smiled
ruefully.
`I don't have a big staff,' she admitted,
adding hastily, `but we
really
do work well together. And I haven't
heard so much as a wisp of
complaint
at the workload.' `Then you've a good loyal group who will be
delighted
to see me appear in the Tower to help one and all move those
ponderously
packed pachydermical projectiles. When
we've done that,
your
retiring in your capsule for a spot of peace and quiet will seem
quite
in order. Right?' `As always, Afra.
He regarded her steadily. `Is that so hard to take from me,
Damia?'
She mushed up the vegetables on the end of her fork and replied
honestly. `No, not from you, Afra. Never from you. You don't
change,'
she added, rather more tartly than she intended.
He grinned at her. `Good old reliable Afra, consistent and
constant.
She wrinkled her nose at him,
experiencing an odd twinge of regret
for his
flippant self-description. `You're not
that old.' `No,
actually
I'm not,' he said enigmatically and served himself a second
helping
from her pots and pans.
That pleased her and she rediscovered her
appetite.
Having Afra recommend what she herself
hadn't wanted to request
restored
her self-confidence. She was
exceedingly glad to have Afra
here
just now, and not merely to help her shift cargo that was
beginning
to tax her strength, but because she was still absorbing the
effect
of touching that alien aura. She was
excited, too, that she,
Damia
Gwyn-Raven, should establish such a first contact. Almost as if
it had
been preordained - though she had never succumbed to the
immature
curiosity that sometimes preoccupied lesser Talents to seek
hints
of their future from clairvoyants.
`You know,' she began, wanting to clear
the air between them
completely,
`you were right to call me to task for "tasting" Larak and
Jenna. But I did want to know how a lasting love
feels in the mind.
So I'll recognize it when it
happens. And what it's like to give
birth.'
Afra raised an eyebrow quizzically.
`And `Apart from the pain,
I guess
it's rewarding enough.' `You don't sound too sure.
Damia cocked her head and traced an
involved pattern on the table
with
her index finger.
`I suspect the firsthand experience is
more intense, no matter how
deeply
one scans.
A trace thought behind her shield,
triggered by her observation,
sent a
stab of apprehension through Afra that he barely managed to
contain. She was unconsciously censoring, and it had
to do with the
alien
aura and with her own desire for the experience of motherhood.
But trace thought it was, and he had only
that nana-second
impression,
tantalizing, terrorizing.
`You're young yet, Damia,' he said,
keeping his voice light, `and
it's
really important for you to consolidate your abilities as a Prime
before
you have conflicting loyalties.
You know how hard it was for your mother
to juggle Prime duties
and
motherhood.' Damia cast him a jaundiced glare.
`Not that old
homily
again,' she said in disgust. `From
Mother and Isthia it's bad
enough,
but not you. And why does it seem to
affect women more than
men? Look at Larak: he's got Jenna and he's two
and a half years my
junior!'
`Cera's not involved ---` `Oh yes, she is, even if he's not
very
Talented. Oh, is that news to you?' She
was pleased to surprise
him.
Restlessly, she launched herself
physically from the table in one
lightning
move, startling the Coonies who had been nestling in one of
the
lounge chairs.
`Cera could always keep her own counsel,'
Afra replied.
-`Why is it that Primes have such a hard
time, Afra? We can do so
much
more than . . .` She discontinued that
thought for one of the
strictest
precepts of her upbringing was to avoid the arrogance of
ability
`Compensation,' Afra said in the languid drawl he reserved for
these
moods of hers. `There are some
experiences in life which are
worth
waiting for.' She whirled, scowling at him, looking even more
lovely
than ever. `So I should just wait in my
Tower? As Mother did?
Passive?' Afra let out a roar of laughter
that startled Damia as
much as
it did the Coonies. He laughed until
his eyes were tearing.
`My dear Damia, there is nothing passive
about you, or don't you
remember
how you dismissed young Nicoloss `Nico!
That adolescent
mess!'
`He's a good reliable T-5 and he's a superb second at
Betelgeuse.
`David's welcome to him!' Damia's eyes
flashed blue sparks of
outrage.
`Well, now, girl, you know you need a
steadying hand `Oooooh!
Steadying hand . . . I'll steady you . . .` and Damia lifted her
right
hand.
Well acquainted with Damia's tendency to
dramatize, Afra deposited
Crisp
in her open palm. Crisp blinked and
cheeped in surprise.
`Ah, yes, I see I was mistaken,' Afra
said as she closed her
fingers
reassuringly about the Coonie, drawing it in to her breast.
`YOU have the steadying hand.' She
regarded him darkly, tapping
her
foot, her lips compressed.
It
had become second nature, Afra decided, to deal with Damia's
moods. To be sure, they were more complex since she
became interested
in the
opposite sex - or, to be precise, the lack of partners,
steadying
or otherwise. These times tried his resolve
despite the fact
that
his diversions were usually effective.
One day he might graduate
from
the avuncular stance he had had to adopt and be able to give free
expression
to his deep-hidden desire. But, from
the day that Damia's
imminent
puberty had forced him to realize how much she meant to him,
he had
given a great deal of thought to the variables and knew that he
could
only wait. It was hard. Certainly as hard as it was for Damia
to
watch others pairing off, achieving the enviable total rapport that
telepaths
enjoyed, and for which she was so eager.
Her very brilliance
and
beauty caused many otherwise willing mates to shy away Nicoloss
being
only the latest one of a long line. At
least she had never
repeated
the Amr tragedy. Usually she would talk
herself out of these
libidinous
moods but tonight Afra sensed a new pulse that was dangerous
in its
intensity.
`Is that why you so eagerly await the
arrival of the aliens?' Afra
said in
his soft drawl, deliberately leeching all emotion out of his
words. `On the extremely unlikely chance they're
biologically
compatible? Do you envision your soul mate winging
across the void to
you?'
Her eyes dilated in anger and the hand caressing Crisp stilled.
`That was unworthy of you, Afra,' she
said in a hoarse whisper.
He knew that, but the thought was better
aired between them where
`it
couldn't fester in her mind. He
inclined his head in apology
`Better
get some sleep, Damia. We're pushing
big daddies tomorrow,' he
said
gently and gave her a little mental shove towards her bedroom.
She scowled, still smarting from his
facetious observation but
allowed
herself to be swayed by the nudge.
`Well, you know what a romantic I am,
Afra,' she said with a
rueful
grin and hitched Crisp to her shoulder where the Coonie had
snuggled
happily against her neck.
`And I do need my sleep. That contact was quite a high.
No action without a reaction, after all,'
she added in a
philosophical
tone but the sadness in her smile touched Afra to the
heart.
He nodded understandingly, keeping a
tight grasp on his emotions.
Again Afra caught the unmistakable and
unconscious suppression of
a
thought within the maelstrom of her weariness.
As Damia turned, she made a sweeping
gesture at the other Coonies
and,
with squeals of delight, they erupted out of the chair and
scurried
after her.
Afra dared not relax until he was certain
Damia was fully asleep.
So he tidied away the remains of their
meal, filled the Coonies'
water
and dry feed dishes, and then watched the sunset turn the plateau
a deep
tangerine before diminishing in the west.
Brooding over the
nuances
of the evening's conversation, he waited until the roiling
activity
of Damia's mind subsided into the even beat of sleep. Then
he,
too, went to bed.
To his surprise and delight, Scrap and
arthur appeared in his room
to sit
on his bed, clearly awaiting his company for the night. He was
touched
by their presence and settled himself down quickly, performing
the
obligatory caresses until they arranged themselves against him.
Comforting creatures to have. Not what he really wanted but
better
than nothing. Carefully, just as he was
on the edge of sleep,
he
reinforced his mental screens so that none of his longing for Damia
would
escape. He wondered, in that honest
interval between
consciousness
and dreaming, if he would have enough strength left to
cope
with a third generation of such women.
The next day, Damia introduced Afra to
her Tower personnel.
Keylarion was visibly relieved to see him
for he had been her
training
mentor at Callisto. How Damia managed
with only seven in
staff,
and all under T-8 apart from Keylarion, Afra could not imagine.
Yet they had; there were no complaints
from the Aurigae
Management.
Which, in point of fact, being so new a
colony, could not have
afforded
the rates a large number of high Ts commanded in FT&T He
perceived
that Damia was popular with her staff, male and female. The
T-9
stationmaster, Herault, was infatuated with her, a condition of
which
Damia was clearly unaware while Afra picked it up instantly. But
then,
he knew the signs so well. It was also
apparent to Afra that
Inane
of them realized that Damia's catalytic gift boosted their
performance
levels above their T-designation. He
was relieved that she
had
finally learned not to reveal that aspect of her Talent. It had
taken
him long enough to get that message through her Talented skull.
`I've got the placements for the big
daddies, Damia,' Herault
said,
shaking his head. `And they've
instructed us to pick `em up at
the
mines again.' Damia nodded curtly to Herault, pursing her lips in
annoyance
over that as she glanced over at the generator boards where
Xexo
was monitoring their performance.
`We'll have full power in another ten
minutes. The two spot's
going
to need servicing soon, Damia,' the T-8 engineer said, shaking
his
head at the unwelcome necessity.
`Blast!' Damia allowed her anger to
show. Afra could scarcely
blame
her. With what she had to teleport,
she'd need all four
generators
giving her top power. `And they're too
broke to buy me a
spare.
`Backtrack a moment,' Afra said, holding up a hand.
`You have to pick up the cargo at the
mines?' `We have to,' Damia
said
with a meditative shrug and a gamine grin.
`They don't possess a
land
vehicle strong enough to transport them even the short distance
from
the mines.' She jerked her thumb over her shoulder in the general
direction
of the rugged foothills behind the town.
`Nonsense,' Filomena, the T-9 expeditor,
said sharply, `they don't
want to
gouge ruts out of their new roads which they didn't construct
correctly
to carry the heavy loads they ought to have known they'd have
to
transport.
This IS a mining planet!' afra regarded
damia sternly. `They're
abrogating
FT&T regulations . . `I know that,'
Damia responded tartly,
`but,'
and she sighed, `I can try to oblige them and save a lot of
hassle
- which transport would be-' `To say nothing of the wear and
tear on
you and your staff-' `Afra! This is my
Tower and I'm running
it my
way.' Afra inhaled deeply. It was
improper for him to challenge
Damia
in her own Tower. He exhaled, lifting
his hands in a gesture of
yielding. `I just hope that Aurigae appreciates
you. All of you.' At
that
instant both Damia and Afra heard the generators reach their peak.
`Well, folks, let's speed the daddies on
their way while we're
fresh
and eager. It's also morning on
Betelgeuse so David'll catch
efficiently. Afra?' And she led the way into the Tower.
To his surprise, a second conformable
chair stood next to hers,
complete
with a secondary board, screens and a terminal.
`Thank you,' he said as he settled
himself.
`You deserve no less,' she said at her
sweetest and he curbed an
impulse
to `see' what she was up to.
`Placements!' Both Tower screens showed
the huge ore pods,
dwarfing
the men on the ground in the mine yard, and even the heavy
cranes
and flatbeds that had helped load them.
Beneath the picture were the coordinates
for delivery at
Betelgeuse's
outer planet.
Betelgeuse Tower, Aurigae here, she said, observing protocol.
Damia?
Morning, replied David of Betelgeuse.
The refineries have
been
screaming for this shipment.
You're likely to have a hernia bringing
`em in, Damia said.
Too much for you, darling? David asked archly. Afra knew the
older
Prime enjoyed taunting Damia.
Not for me, she replied, projecting a
broad and confident grin.
Ready?
Damia!
Afra sent the warning on a tight shaft, having heard just
that
tone of voice from her mother.
Don't Afra. You'll spoil my fun!
Damia shot back and began the
lift. Because he'd been forewarned by her mental
tone, Afra was ready
to
follow her mind to the immense drones in the yard and felt himself
strengthened,
by the incredible catalytic link she could establish.
Effortlessly they `ported the first big
daddy towards its
destination.
What under the stars are those Aurigaens
trying to prove?
David exclaimed and both of them heard
him work to receive her
`port.
Your principals were screaming for the
shipment, weren't they?
Damia's voice was smooth and silky with
satisfaction.
Ready number two?
Ready when you are, and there was
determination in David's voice.
By the ninth `port, Afra knew himself to
be tiring and wondered at
the
energy Damia exuded.
That is the last of such weights I will
accept from Aurigae, David
said. And I'm registering a complaint against the
mines with Earth
Prime. I can't imagine why you haven't, Damia.
I don't mind cooperating with management
and industry but nine of
those
is stretching both of us. Do not, I
repeat, do not accept such
monsters
again. Why, I could shift a battle
fleet more easily.
Damia's grin at irritating David altered
to a frown and Afra
sensed
her sudden apprehension.
A random remark, and those daddies would
weigh the same. You've
had
your fun. Leave it, Afra shot at her.
`You do have coffee here, don't you?' he
asked, looking about the
Tower.
Two steaming cups and a plate of energy
biscuits appeared and one
cup
horned in on Afra, the plate following it.
`You're guest,' she said with an
unrepentant grin and a shrug of
her
slim shoulders. `I don't have enough
staff to adhere to strict
protocol.'
Refreshed, they were shortly ready to `port and receive
incoming
cargo, none of which was anywhere near the weight or mass of
the
morning's first delivery. Damia worked
without affectation, Afra
was
pleased to note: a Prime in easy command of her skills. There was
an
excellent harmony with every one of her staff.
Aurigae was a more
than
adequate testing ground for Damia.
Afra wondered if she'd been apprised that
she would succeed Guzman
at Procyon
when the old Prime was finally persuaded to step down.
Despite her youth, FT&T would have
insisted on his retirement if
they'd
known how frail the old man was but Jeff Raven, and others,
conspired
to deceive the administration. And
they'd continue to do so
as long
as necessary.
Shortly, all the incoming loads had been
cradled and the light
afternoon
traffic processed. Damia, her eyes
glinting with mischief,
slid
out of the conformable chair and signalled for Afra to take her
place. When the focal Talent of the gestalt went
from one to the
other,
not even a half beat of the pulse of the Aurigaen Tower was
missed. Damia used the Tower exit to reach her
capsule and informed
Afra of
her departure. He let up on the gestalt
long enough for her to
`port
her own launch before he picked it up again.
She was gone too
quickly
for him to keep even the most negligible of contacts with her.
So much for that notion. However, her absence would permit Afra
to use
gestalt to communicate with Jeff should he need to. The Tower's
work
proceeded smoothly. There was, in fact,
rather more traffic than
Damia
had anticipated, but no more big daddies, though several medium
drones
of refined material had to be despatched to various
destinations. Inbound supplies arrived sporadically but
nothing that
an
experienced T-3 couldn't handle.
However, number two generator was
definitely
ailing and Afra was concerned. Xexo
tinkered and fiddled
with it
whenever he could but the machine needed more than adjustments.
Fortunately, Damia would not require full
station power to assist
her
comings and goings so, once the day's work was done, Xexo could
begin
to dismantle it.
In terms of intergalactic distances, the
aliens approached at the
proverbial
snail's pace: by interstellar references, incredibly fast.
Such a feat argued for a highly
sophisticated technical species.
On the evening of the eighth day, Damia
returned from her quest,
bursting
with news. She `ported herself from her
capsule right into
the
lounge area where Afra was amusing the Coonies.
`I made individual contact,- she
cried. `And what a mind!' She
was far
too excited to notice Afra's flare of apprehension. He told
himself
this was just Damia being her usual melodramatic self. `And
what a
surprise he got, she went on.
From the first words out of her mouth,
Afra knew that the mind was
male.
`Really?' and he injected genuine
interest into his response. `A
Prime
Talent?' `I can't assess his abilities.
He's so . . .
different,' she exclaimed, her eyes
shining and her mental aura
dazzling
with her success. `He fades and then
returns. The distance
is
still immense, of course, and there isn't much definition in the
thoughts. We can only deal in abstracts.' She laughed
tiredly. `As
scientists
have often maintained, I made a start by reciting the
periodic
table of chemicals and basic atomic structures to establish at
least
some level of communication.
`Surely an intergalactic ship would
utilize a more sophisticated
source
than atomic power?' `I'm sure it would have to, to travel such
distances,'
and Damia threw herself on the long couch, pushing back her
long
hair in a tired gesture before she let her hand drop bonelessly to
the
cushioning. `I can't be bothered at
this stage of interaction to
deal
with minor details.' `Minor details?' `Oh, don't fuss, Afra,' she
said
irritably. `Considering our space
travel experts postulate drives
as far
beyond fusion as the wheel from mixed fuel space drives, we can
posit
that they would have to have developed an efficient drive. At
least I
could project mutually understood abstracts.
I'm exhausted. I
haven't
had this sort of a workout since Larak and I played dodgeball
against
all the cousins.
Let me grab a little nap before I contact
Dad.' `Xexo's patching
that
ailing generator.' Damia scowled, then shrugged off that
complication.
`All the more reason for me to have an
hour's snore.' `You don't
snore,'
Afra said firmly, giving her a mock stern glare.
She managed a grin for his loyal denial.
Afra waited until she relaxed into
sleep. Putting ethics aside,
he
tried to reach this experience in her mind, below the emotional
level,
only to find himself overwhelmed by the subjective. Damia was
indulging
in a high emotional kick! He recognized
that she had every
reason
to be proud of herself in establishing any sort of contact with
an
alien but he was afraid for her, with a fear deeper than any he had
ever
touched personally or vicariously.
Afra withdrew, troubled. Crisp and Merry crawled over to him,
whining
softly as if they felt his concern.
Soothing them, he managed
to
disperse his presentiment.
He let her wake up naturally and was
proud of her now calm and
balanced
mind. As she `reached' Jeff, she was
totally the Prime,
giving
a considered and professional report of the contact. Not a
trace
of the excitation Afra had probed coloured her thoughts. When
she had
finished `pathing, Jeff inserted a private query for Afra but
he
could only confirm Damia's report.
He saw no point to mention vague
forebodings but he dId mention
the
matter of overweight drones. Jeff had
received a formal complaint
from
David of Betelgeuse and there was to be an official protest from
FT&T
to Aurigae Miners.
The next day, Damia tossed off the few
live `portations and
departed
for her surveillance. And Afra
contained his presentiments.
She returned so shining from the second
session of communication
that
Afra had to clamp an icy hold over his mental reactions.
`We're making great progress in
conceptualizations,' she told
Afra,
pirouetting with abandon into the lounge and flopping on to the
long
couch, her eyes glowing. One long
tress, half black hair, half
white,
fell across her flushed face.
`Such as?' he enquired in a politely
interested tone. She was so
absorbed
by her accomplishment that she didn't react to his ironic
tone.
`Once past simple atomic weights, we've,'
the pronoun, an
innocuous
detail in itself, raised Afra's hackles, `gone on to solar
systems. His has twelve planets and two asteroid
belts.' `What sort of
planet
does his species inhabit?' Damia shot him a quick glance, then
laughed
uneasily.
`That's strange. We didn't establish that.' `And how did you
answer
his query about Aurigae?' She was more alert now and her eye
contact
was wary.
Then she grinned cockily. `I gave the same detail he did.
Without, dear Arra,' her use of her baby
name for him underlined
her
impudence, `disclosing any more than the number of planets, moons
et
cetera. I'm not a fool!' She hauled
herself out of her
semi-recumbent
position and made a show of tossing her hair back.
`You've never been a fool, Damia,' Afra
replied coolly.
`Nor am I catechizing you. I cooked dinner tonight.' `Did you?'
and she
seized on that topic with obvious relief.
`You're a better
cook
than any other man I know.' Afra decided that she had redeemed her
use of
`Arra' with that unsolicited praise.
One day, maybe, they'd
confront
each other as functioning adults . . .
Ruthlessly he
suppressed
the eros and reinstated the philia and began to serve her a
much-needed
meal.
The third morning, as Damia sat in the
Tower, she worked with such
haste
that Afra was obliged to reprimand her.
She gaily corrected
herself,
making far too negligent a response.
Then, eagerly she
propelled
herself out to make the rendezvous.
When she returned that
evening
so tired that she reeled into the room, Afra took command.
`I'm going with you tomorrow, Damia,' he
said firmly.
`What for?' She glared at him from the
couch into which she had
sunk. `I'd know the sting-pzzzt of Beetles. And there isn't even a
trace
of that about Sodan.' `Sodan?' Damia flushed at the crack in his
voice
but did not evade eye contact with him.
`That's how he
identifies
himself.
Furthermore, I inserted the concept of
other sentient life forms
and he
denied knowledge of any.' Afra decided not to challenge that
information. `What do you mean by the sting-pzzzt of
Beetles? The
Deneb
Penetration happened before you were even conceived.' She rose
and
came to sit at the counter where Afra was fixing their dinner
plates,
she gave a casual shrug. `When we were
exploring around
Grandmother's
farm, we often found bits and pieces of Beetle metal.
Uncle Rhodri was still paying by the
weight for their junk.' She
gave
Afra a teasing grin. `It made a
comfortable addition to the
measly
pocket money Isthia allowed us. Larak
and I decided that there
was
sting-' now she wet the tip of one finger and placed it on the
counter
surface, making the `pzzzt' sound, `-in Beetle metal. There's
no
sting-pzzzt about Sodan.' She sounded entirely confident.
It disturbed Afra to know that this
entity had a name.
It made the alien seem
amiable/approachable. Nor could Afra
quite
reason
away the unusual lilt with which Damia spoke the name.
`Fair enough,' Afra said, with an
indifference he didn't feel as
he
passed her a plate. `However, the lack
of stingpzzzt is not going
to
reassure Earth Prime. Tomorrow take me
along for the ride.
There'll be no need to introduce me. All I need to do is confirm
your
sense of the aura.
I certainly wouldn't want to jeopardize
whatever rapport you've
managed
to build. He'll never realize I've been
there.' afra yawned.
`Why are you tired?' `I've been
stevedoring all day,' he said with
a
malicious grin.
`How?
Who?' Damia demanded, indignantly.
`There was nothing
urgent
on the schedule when I went off.' `No, there wasn't, but there
was a
minor mine disaster where the Tower could assist. Then a delayed
shipment
of spare parts was signalled in from Procyon, and a freighter
with
some perishables and a covey of prospective immigrants came
through.'
`Damn them! They were taking advantage
of you, Afra! Towers
have
protocol to avoid collisions and confusions.
Especially on
inbound
`ports. Unscheduled shipments ` Then
she stopped for he was
grinning
at her. She let out a gusty sigh. `I know.' She waved her
hand
irritably. `Phrases out of mother's
mouth. But Afra waggled a
finger
at her. `You set the precedent at
Aurigae Tower, Damia, by
being
so cooperative that miners and shippers assume that you're ready,
willing
and able when need arises.' `This smells heavenly,' she said
artlessly
as she loaded her fork.
`Hah!' Afra said, refusing to be
diverted.
`And it is,' she said through her first
mouthful. `Lovely
seasoning.
`Thank you. By the way, that crew of yours is really excellent.
Even the generator behaved. Have some chopped fruit. Takes the
edge
off that pepper.
They ate companionably, though Damia's
appetite seemed to be
affected
by her fatigue for she usually went for seconds of one of his
special
meals. She did ask for details of the
mine problem - a line of
ore
carts had slipped off the cable, causing an obstruction in the
shaft
which Afra and the Tower folk were able to shift so there was no
significant
loss of time. When he asked her what
else she had
discussed
with Sodan, she had trouble formulating sentences despite a
resurgence
of animation Ion that subject.
`Don't stand on ceremony with me, Damia,
Afra said when she didn't
even
have the energy to groom Merry when the animal brought her the
brush. `Here, I'll do Merry. You go to bed. Sleep well.
Such exhaustion for one so vibrantly
healthy worried Afra even
more
than her emotional involvement with this Sodan entity. It no
longer
mattered that the intruder was unrelated to the species that had
attacked
Deneb; he was a menace in himself.
The next day, after `porting out
medium-sized drones of refined
ores,
Damia told Keylarion to inform any callers that the Tower was on
hold
for repairs to the generator that Xexo now said were critical.
Then she and Afra settled into their
personal capsules. Afra
followed
Damia's thrust and held himself silent as she reached the area
where
she could touch the aura of Sodan. To
his relief, Damia had no
hesitation
when Afra asked permission to establish a light link in her
mind. So she carried them both to the alien
ship. As soon as the
alien
touch impinged on Afra's awareness, much was suddenly clear to
him:
much seen, and worse, much unseen.
What Damia could not, would not, or did
not see justified Afra's
nagging
presentiment of danger. Nothing out of
Sodan's mind was
visible:
and nothing beyond his public mind was accessible. The alien
had a
powerful mentality.
As a quiescent eavesdropper, Afra could not
probe, but he widened
his own
sensitivity to its limit and the impressions he received served
to
increase his intuition of danger.
There was absolutely no comparison
between Sodan and the Deneb
invasion
species. Damia was correct in that evaluation. One
impression
which surprised Afra was that of an almost interminable
journey. And excitement at an end in sight. Yet how Afra could grasp
that
concept from a mind that did not yet speak in a known language, he
did not
know. But those were the impressions he
grasped.
Damia would not expect Afra to linger
once he had satisfied his
stated
errand. But, fascinated by the contact,
he did linger,
discovering
other unsettling aspects. Sodan's mind,
undeniably
brilliant,
was nevertheless augmented.
Afra couldn't perceive whether Sodan was
the focus for other minds
on the
ship or in gestalt with the ship's power source. Straining his
nerves
and senses to the limit without revealing his presence, Afra
tried
to pierce the visual screen or, at least, the aural one. All he
received
was a low stereo babble of mechanical activity, and the burn
of
heavy elements, the latter sufficiently disturbing in itself. Yet
how did
a species without a visual faculty function on such a
sophisticated
level? To be sure, antennae of various
sorts relayed a
tremendous
amount of information to an intelligent mind: sensors and
optics
imitated vision but it was the sight of stars that had lured
Mankind
into space. What had been this alien's
goad to cross
intergalactic
space?
Worried and frustrated, Afra withdrew,
leaving Sodan and Damia to
exchange
abstracts that, to him, were also the ploys of emotional
attraction. He returned to Aurigae and sought the Tower
couch. He
felt
completely drained by the brief jaunt.
That was in itself
unnerving. He'd planned to contact Larak on Procyon
without having to
gestalt. But he knew that was impossible just
then. Carefully
assuming
a light tone, he asked Keylarion to bring a generator on line
for
him.
`We've three if you need them,' the T-6
replied helpfully.
`No, one's enough.' And Afra hoped that
it would be.
For a T-3, one should be sufficient. He scrubbed at his face
while
he watched the gauge on number one generator climb to sending
level. It was not, Afra assured himself, that Damia
had deliberately
concealed
anything in her reports to him or to Jeff: she was entirely
unaware
that her usually keen perceptions were fuddled and distorted by
the
fatigue levels caused by contact with this alien.
And Damia had been spending hours dealing
abstracts at Sodan? He
exhaled
noisily and wondered if a cup of coffee would have a reviving
effect. But the needle reached the required level
even as Keylarion
verified
readiness to him.
Even with the gestalt, `pathing to Larak
was an effort.
Larak, Afra called, leaning heavily into
the power and projecting
his own
mental/physical concept of Larak to aid him in reaching the
boy's
mind.
Man, you're beat, Larak answered, his
touch sharp, clear, green.
Larak, relay back to Jeff that this
SodanIt's got a name?
It's got more than that and Damia is
responding on a very high
emotional
level, Afra sighed heavily. This entity
has no resemblance
to the
Deneb Penetration species. No Beetle
sting What? Oh, yeah, I
remember. Larak's projection of a grin was oddly
comforting to Afra.
But there's something very insidious
about this Sodan individual.
A few moments in its company and I'm so
shagged that I needed
gestalt
to reach you.
You?
That was enough to remove the grin from Larak's voice.
Please inform Jeff that I consider this
situation of a highly
volatile
- and possibly dangerous - nature. I
want you out here as
soon as
possible on any pretext so I can get through to Earth Prime
without
requiring either Damia or gestalt. And-
Afra paused to
emphasize
the next request, please ask both Jeff and the Rowan to
remain
available to me on demand.
What has my darling sister found this
time! Larak responded with
an
impressed whistle.
Get Mick and Mauli to push you out here
as soon as you can relay
that
message, huh, Larak, like a good lad?
Coming, Larak responded crisply.
Afra leaned back in the couch and flicked
off the generator. The
exchange
had taken no more than thirty seconds: not long enough for
Keylarion
to take particular note or even log it into the station
records. Not that Damia would check the station log
if she returned:
she'd
be too tired, he thought grimly. How
did that entity cause such
enervation? Why?
Afra brooded. Perhaps he was
being over-sensitive
because
Damia was so absorbed by this contact.
He had half-hoped, when
Jeff
told him to go to Aurigae, that he might have a chance to attract
Damia
as he had so long wanted to do. Perhaps
he was acting
prematurely
to call Larak in. Perhaps he could
handle the Sodan mind
himself.
No, Afra told himself candidly, not when
you're reduced to a limp
rag
after a vicarious touch. And not with
the competition Sodan was
providing.
Hey, Afra, what does a guy have to do to
get your attention? was
Larak's
cheery greeting as he bounced up the Tower steps.
His energy seemed almost obscene to the weary T-3.
`Knock twice!' Afra replied but he
grinned gratefully as he
extended
his hand to the visitor. The vigour
which Larak exuded was as
much a
restorative as the infectiousness of his smile. The resemblance
between
Larak and his sister was pronounced, even to having the Gwyn
slash
of white in the same position on their black-haired heads.
Larak was not quite as tall as his sister
who was unusually tall,
and
more slightly built than his brothers.
But he had full measure of
the
Raven charm and Afra found the energy to return the boy's smile.
Hands now touching, Afra conveyed the one
impression he had not
included
in the broadcast.
Damia's infatuated with this peculiarly
dangerous alien?
Larak murmured, surprised, and looked
hard into Afra's eyes.
`Wouldn't you know she'd have weird and
exotic tastes!' He let his
lips
turn down sympathetically. Why can't
she pick on the home-brewed?
He cocked his head at Afra.
Afra felt it expedient to ignore that
comment. `A very dangerous
alien,
unfortunately. Do you remember that old
scare tale about
soul-eaters?'
Larak rolled his eyes wide. `You just
bet I do. Damia
terrorized
me into starting a forest fire with that tale of hers. Wait
a
minute. You think this alien's a
soul-eater?' Larak was almost
indignant
at the notion. `Hey, Afra, that was kid
stuff.' `I can't
think
of another analogue. I spent no more
than ten or fifteen
seconds,
in a light secondary link, and I had to use gestalt to reach
you at
Procyon.' `That's not good,' Larak said.
`That's very bad.
What's wrong with Damia? Doesn't she realize. . . No, obviously
she
doesn't.' Larak slid into the second conformable couch, his eyes
flickering
as he considered and discarded thoughts.
`Damia mentioned the residue you two felt
from Beetle artifacts.
There's something comparable to your
sting on board Sodan's
vessel.
And it's not comfortable.' `Fissionables?'
Larak asked.
Afra shook his head. `It is very alien. I couldn't define it.'
`Can
Damia?' Afra grimaced. `She's involved
in translating abstracts.'
`Those'll
be a great help if he plans to blow us up.' Larak tensed.
`What has she said about us? The League?' `From what she reports,
she's
been discreet.' `That's a mercy.' Afra could sense that Larak's
flippancy
disguised a concern for Damia as deep as his own. Larak had
always
been closest to her. `I wouldn't mind
what they discussed,' he
said,
`but Sodan leaves her so drained.' `New kind of weapon - total
enervation
before annihilation?' `That's not as outrageous as you
think,'
Afra said grimly.
`There's a tremendous power source in the
ship `There'd have to be
to push
it between galaxies `But that's all I could sense. Beyond the
public
mind, I met an impenetrable wall.
Granted, Damia `5 much
stronger
than I am `But she hasn't tried?' Afra frowned, and rising,
began
to pace restlessly back and forth in the narrow Tower.
Larak held Afra's glance, and then
sighed.
`But there's been no overt act of
aggression?' `That depends on
what
you call "aggression". I
believe that Sodan is subtly trying to
destroy
Damia in the process of this peaceful exchange of culture and
information. In my lexicon, eroding her mental capability
is an
assault
with intent to maim or kill.' He saw that remark succeeded in
arousing
all Larak's natural fraternal concern and protectiveness. `I
could
be overreacting. I'm no pre-cog but
there are instances in which
one
doesn't need to be to guess intent.
Judge for yourself when you
see
Damia this evening.' Larak did not bother to shield his anger. `I
will
but I've never seen you overreact, Afra.
Apart from the danger to
my
sister, just how close is this Sodan to Iota Aurigae? Close enough
to
recognize this system as Damia's point of origin?' Afra managed a
wry
grin. `You're a real Tower-man, Lar.'
Larak gave a quick
unhumorous
grin. `A Gwyn-Raven, body, blood and
brain!' `Logically,'
Afra
continued, `we have to allow him the same sophistication in
monitoring
devices as he has in travel capability.
So he's certain to
detect
sufficient activity on this planet to attract,' and Afra paused,
searching
for the appropriate phrase, `his attention.
Since a high
tech
society gobbles ores, minerals and rare earths at phenomenal
rates,
it is reasonable to assume that he's crossed to our galaxy to
find
new sources.
`Are we assuming aggression where none
exists?' Larak asked,
playing
devil's advocate.
Afra paused, `We could be. The Beetles made their plans
exceedingly
clear but they might be exceptions to the rule of peaceful
exploration. Only I cannot get it out of my mind that the
Sodan is
deliberately
depleting Damia `5 energy to reduce her ability to defend
herself. And I've never had such a presentiment of
danger before - not
even
when I was mind-merged with the Rowan-focus over Deneb.' `If we
must
eradicate the threat this Sodan entity poses, I'd say it would be
wiser
to do it now, rather than later when he's closer to this system,'
Larak
replied, pressing his lips tight against that expedient. `Should
we call
for naval backup?' `Ha! Sodan'd be
orbiting Aurigae before the
Fleet
would bestir itself to action,' Afra replied derisively.
`Especially right now,' and Larak's grin
was amused, `when they're
investigating
the nibbles at Procyon's DEW system.
`What?' Afra stared at Larak, struck by a
horror of several Sodans
converging
on the Nine Star League.
Larak was delighted at the effect of that
casual statement.
`They're keeping it to a need-to-know
basis but don't worry. So
far
it's been limited to unidentifiable impingements,' and Larak shook
his
head vigorously to reassure the Capellan, `and neither the scouts
nor all
that sensitive instrumentation has revealed anything in the
least
bit hostile. Those sentinels are
sensitive enough to be set off
by
spaceflot or cometaries. This Sodan's
modus operandi seems to be
entirely
different. We Talents destroyed the
Beetles more or less by
ourselves. I think we can handle this mental giant.
Afra gave a mirthless laugh. `We'll be lucky if we can.' He
nodded
briskly when Larak regarded him with astonishment. `Oh, yes,
that
mind is incredibly powerful.
Not at all like the Beetles where there
were only sixteen control
beings
that had to be diverted. And, if he has
been insidiously
reducing
Damia's strength or getting past her shields .
-` Afra
paused,
adding very softly, his yellow eyes clouded, `he could quite
possibly
destroy us.' `Let's get Dad and Mother in on this,' Larak said
in
sudden resolution.
Together the two soberly presented their conclusions
to Jeff and
the
Rowan.
Surely if you were an alien contacted by
a strong mentality, you
would
exercise caution in revealing details?
the Rowan suggested. I
would,
if I met a mind in outer space.
You did, Jeff reminded her, and I was
very friendly indeed.
Jeff If this Sodan is draining Damia, he
means her, and us, no
good,
Jeff went on, speaking in an official tone.
We are agreed that
Afra
does not cry panic unnecessarily so we must act on his
recommendations
and now, before this entity gets close enough to
investigate
the Aurigaen system. Especially before
he discovers the
Aurigaen
system and the rich lodes on that planet.
I'm also keenly
aware
of how little defence Iota Aurigae has against space attack.
You concur with Afra that he's
prospecting for new sources of raw
materials? the Rowan asked, in a tone of indecision.
That's our main push in finding new
planets, isn't it? Larak said
If
Damia is as exhausted as you suggest, Afra, how can we use her as
focus? In the first place, she's not likely to
agree to take
aggressive
action against an entity she considers friendly.
She spoke as Damia's mother, not Callisto
Prime.
No, she's not, Afra said sourly.
And yet we need to use her link to his
mind to make our own
contact. There's also the point that, Jeff continued,
not at all
liking
the expedient, if we do discover, and prove to her, that this
Sodan
entity is truly dangerous, to her, to Aurigae, to us, that we may
need
her catalytic ability to increase our defence against him.
Each day Damia returns to Aurigae a
little more tired than the
previous
one, Afra said slowly. I was
immeasurably drained after only
a few
moments in link. That's never happened
to me before.
I think Afra's correct to call him a
soul-eater, Larak put in.
There's no such thing, the Rowan said
sharply.
I don't know what else to call him that's
as accurate, Afra said.
Or how else to describe the effect he has
on her.
In any case, Jeff said firmly, I find it
disturbing to think of
her
immense natural energy being depleted.
Highly unlikely. The Rowan bristled with indignation.
Let us conclude this swiftly, Larak
cautioned them.
Damia's returning and. WOW!
Is she dragging!
Afra suppressed annoyance that the
curious childhood link between
sister
and brother gave Larak the edge in sensing her return. But, as
Afra
reached out to touch her mentally, her aura was very dim indeed.
He concentrated on the lightning debate
that Jeff, Rowan and Larak
carried
on, as decision and strategy were settled in the moment before
Damia's
capsule landed in its cradle.
`Larak, I couldn't believe I felt your
touch,' she cried happily
as she
saw her brother, the picture of casual relaxation, perched on
the
edge of the console.
`Believe it, sister dear, your favorite
bra is here,' he said,
rising
to embrace her. `This alien sure has
got you wrapped up and
tied
like a present. See how the mighty have
fallen.' When Damia
flushed,
Larak roared with laughter. `I've got
to meet a guy who can
do this
to my sister.' `Really, Larak, how puerile!
You obviously have
no
conception of what a momentous occasion this is. I've always felt
that I
was given unusual strengths and abilities for a special reason,'
Damia
said, her eyes shining, `and now I know what it is!' `The whole
planet
will know in a moment if you don't reduce your output,' Afra
said
sharply, to give Larak a chance to control his shock at her
extraordinary
remark.
With some resentment, Damia dampened down
her emotional
outpouring.
`I suppose you arrived with an appetite
like a mule,' she said
with
some resignation.
Larak's expression was a study of
innocent hurt.
`I'm a growing boy, and while you're out
courting, Afra's getting
overworked,
leaner and hungrier.
Damia looked guiltily at Afra.
`You do look tired,' she said with
concern. `Let's all push over
to the
house and have dinner. Larak, why are
you here?' `Oh, Dad wants
Afra to
pinch-hit on Procyon. Those two Ts
who're buffering Guzman are
down
with one of the local viruses and traffic is backing up. You know
we have
to jolly Guzzle along but he hasn't much stamina these days.
He's complained that I'm too young for
such responsibility,' and
Larak's
grin was pure malice. `Say, what's this
alien ship of yours
like? Crew or full automation for a void trek?'
Hand poised over the
cooking
dials, Damia hesitated.
She regarded her brother with a blank
expression.
`Oh, you men are all alike. Details, details!' `Details like that
may
bore you, sister heart, but they fascinate me.
But if you want to
continue
on the abstract level, let me catch such mundane details for
myself.'
`You can't reach that far.' To Afra her tone was protective as
well as
defensive.
`Let me hop a ride with you tomorrow,
then.' Larak snagged a raw
vegetable
stick from the crisper and seemed more interested in its
taste
than her agreement.
Damia hesitated, looking for support from
Afra, who shrugged `why
not' as
he followed Larak's example and savoured a crunchy white root
with a
slightly aniseed flavour. She caught no
more than that from
Afra's
mind when she sent a swift probe. And,
he was certain, no more
than
that from Larak's if she tried her brother.
Even as close as they
were,
her probe was a poor imitation of her customary mental dig.
`C'mon, sis, what's to be coy for?' `I'm
not being coy!' Her
temper
flared in irritation, then subsided.
`It's just that just that
. . .
these are very delicate stages in establishing a rapport
`Delicate? Rapport?' Larak blurted out, staring at her
as if he
couldn't
believe his ears. `You're making a
first contact, not a first
date! That is, if it's even marginally humanoid.
`His is a true mind, brilliant,
powerful,' she said haughtily.
`The form is immaterial.' `Oh?' Larak's
mobile face expressed
extreme
doubt.
`Never thought you'd fall for the
cerebral type, Damia, not the
way
you've developed.' He eyed her, not as a brother, but as an
interested
male.
Damia reddened, half with fury and
indignation, and half with a
sudden
virtuous embarrassment for her brother's accurate jibe.
`Ever since you and Jenna propagated a
child, you've turned
insufferable! Why, if I hadn't been out here, we wouldn't
have been
warned
at all.' `Warned?' Afra leapt on the choice of word. Perhaps
she was
not as completely bedazzled as they'd thought.
`Of this momentous occasion,' she went
on, oblivious to the
implication. `You've touched Sodan, Afra. Don't you agree that his
feat of
crossing to another galaxy is momentous?' `Yes, it is,' Afra
said
tactfully. `Only a brilliant mind could
accomplish such a feat.'
Damia
caught an undertone he wasn't quick enough to suppress. `Oh,
you! You're jealous! Jealous?' Damia eyed Afra closely, plainly
struggling
with this new dimension to her oldest ally.
`And you're also letting dinner burn,'
Larak said, pointing to a
sizzling
pan.
`Don't either of you know better than to
distract a cook with
stupid
questions?' she demanded, quickly shifting the pan. `It's a
mercy
nothing is burned!' She served them, irritated that her dinner
was not
as perfect as usual, and the two men could think of no way to
break
the strained silence, especially as both had to concentrate on
maintaining
a convincing level of trivial surface thoughts. They
hardly
needed to use such a subterfuge because Damia went off into a
private
reverie, ignoring them completely.
Finally, Larak pushed back his plate,
having finished every scrap
on his
plate and what was left over in the pans.
`Even with half your mind on what you're
doing, sis, you're a
great
cook,' Larak said, wiping his mouth and sighing with repletion.
`So!
This Sodan entity is clearly not a new reconnaissance device
of the
Deneb Beetles?' Larak looked from Damia to Afra who shook his
head
quickly in denial.
`No question of that,' Afra replied. `Totally different mentality
---` he
ignored Damia's snort, `and vehicle.
There is an impression of immense
distances traversed, far longer
than
the twenty years since the Deneb Entanglement.' Larak whistled
appreciatively,
as if this was news to him.
`You didn't happen to catch any details
about propulsion and power
which
my sweet sister would not deign to notice?' `No, actually, for
there
were no obvious visual images to be sensed and I was only
concerned
with identification.
Clearly this entity isn't a Beetle.
`Stop calling Sodan an
"entity",' Damia said.
`That's rude. And
he has
eyes,' she added defensively. `We've
discussed the concept of
sight. You must take into consideration that he is
also in control of
the
ship, and the drain on his energies to reach me as well as manage
ship
function and crew is enormous. It
certainly is on me.' `Yeah.
You could do with some beauty sleep,
sis,' said -Larak.
`Thanks muchly,' she said, bridling.
`Children! Cut it out!' Afra intervened out of habit.
Larak and Damia glared at each other, but
the long habit ùof
obeying
Afra held.
I`Get to bed, the pair of you,' he
added. `Snarling at each other
in the
worst example of sibling rivalry I've seen since you graduated
from
Isthia's fosterage,' and now he gave ùDamia his full disapproval.
`Makes me wonder how your father dared
install you as Aurigae
Prime.
`If there's anything that annoys me more
than Larak acting
fraternal,
it's you, Afra, being avuncular.' She spoke coolly, but her
flare
of temper had been controlled.
Afra shrugged, relieved that his
diversion had worked before Larak
inadvertently
disclosed to Damia why he was fielding these particular
queries.
`At least this avuncular entity has sense
enough to go to bed when
he's
out on his feet,' he murmured. As he
passed Larak, the boy
winked.
The next morning at breakfast, no-one
looked particularly rested
by a
night's sleep. Afra kept a surface
rumble going on his mind to
mask
both tension and anxiety. Larak
delivered a running monologue
about
his son's developing intelligence and Jenna's maternal charms.
Damia was also closely shielding. When the three reached the
Tower,
Damia took the most cursory glance at station business, noting
that
cargo was light and the few messages were standard communications.
`I'll take you out now, Larak, and then
you'll be free to handle
the
afternoon despatches.' `Fine. Dad wants
Afra on Procyon as soon as
I've
taken over from him.
Damia hesitated, then jutted her chin
out. `I suppose you want to
come
along again, too,' she said, flinging the challenge at Afra who
merely
shrugged.
`I wouldn't mind another gawk. Fascinating mind,' Afra said
casually. He was intensely grateful to whatever quirk
had prompted her
to make
such an offer. He'd thought he'd have
to surreptitiously
follow
Damia and Larak. With such distances to
travel, he'd been
nervous
of losing even their combined touch.
`You two get settled. I can follow if Damia's leading,' Afra
said,
boosting the generators to their peak.
Xexo had got the ailing
one
back on line, for which Afra was extremely grateful.
As Damia and Larak left the Tower for
their capsules, he contacted
Jeff
and the Rowan to stand by, then settled into his own shell,
reassured
by their sustaining presence in his mind.
Is there any possible chance we're wrong
about Sodan's intentions,
or the
depth of Damia's emotional commitment?
the Rowan asked
hopefully.
Less and less, Afra told her grimly. We'll know soon for certain.
Larak needled her last night. She'll have to check to make sure
he's
wrong about Sodan.
Then Afra touched Damia and Larak, and
all three went the mere
half
light-year further to the ship, and Sodan.
You have rested well and are strong
today, was the cool greeting
after an
instant's welcoming flash.
Damia instinctively covered against the
discovery of her
co-riders,
but the greeting stuck in her mind. She
could not escape
the
inference that Sodan was displeased with her strength, yet a tinge
of
relief coloured that fleck of thought.
You come nearer to physical contact with
us every day, she began.
Us?
Sodan queried.
My planet, my people me.
I'm only interested in you, he replied.
Damia was unable to censor from Afra and
Larak the pleasure she
felt in
that qualification. That is between us
but my people will be
interested
in you, she said adroitly.
There are many people on your
planets? he asked.
Planet.
Doesn't your sun have several
lift-supporting satellites?
That is why I must know more about your
physical requirements,
Sodan,
Damia replied smoothly. After all, my
home world may not have
the
proper atmosphere.
My physical needs are admirably sustained
by my ship, Sodan said
brusquely,
with the slightest of emphasis on the second word.
It was the Rowan who caught the
infinitesimal break in his
shielding,
and simultaneously all four minds stabbed at the gap to
widen
it. Sodan, torn by this powerful
invasion, lashed back in
self-defence
with a vicious blow at Damia who, he thought, had
perpetrated
the onslaught.
No!
No! Not I, Sodan, she
shrieked. Larak, what are you doing?
Struggling frantically, Afra tried to
become the focus of the
other
minds, only to find himself caught in Larak's mind with the Rowan
and
Jeff, as the curious bond between brother and sister snapped into
effect.
He must be destroyed before you, Damia,
the Larak-focus said,
tingeing
its inexorable decision with the regret it felt.
No!
I love him. His mind is so
brilliant, cried Damia, pitting
her
strength against her peers to defend her lover.
The Larak-focus staggered, unable to
prosecute their attack
against
such a combination.
Damia, he is only a mind!
Stunned, Damia hesitated, and the Larak-focus plunged forward
again,
battering against Sodan's shielding.
Only mind? she gasped, begging Sodan to deny it.
Why no vision? Why no sound? He is only
a brain, devoid of all
except
remembered emotion. He is slowly
depleting your strength so
that he
is free to attack this system. You are
its only defence. Did
you
never realize that? Feel the dangerous
substances this ship
carries? Is that customary for a peaceful exploratory
expedition?
You're against me, against me. No-one wants me to be happy, cried
Damia,
suddenly aware, terribly aware of her loving blindness. He
loves
me. I love him.
If he has nothing to hide, he will reveal
his reason for crossing
the
void, the Larak-focus said, implacably intent.
Is it truly peaceful? Or is it acquisitive? Why do we search out
new
worlds? Or is it because his galaxy is
so depleted that he must
search
elsewhere for the rare metals that are required for more vessels
like
his?
Reassure me, Sodan, Damia pleaded,
desperately, hopefully. Tell
them
you come in peace? To find other
sentient beings, to establish
friendly
relations?
For what seemed an eternity, Sodan
hesitated.
If I could, I would, he said softly and
with honest regret.
Like a vengeful blade, her mind, freed
from the infatuation which
Sodan
had artfully fostered and, strengthened by her righteous
indignation,
launched itself with the others to destroy the aggressor.
For Damia could now comprehend Sodan's purpose and knew his
disembodiment.
The battle was waged in the tremendous
space between two
heartbeats. Sodan, his mind fortified by the exotic
power of his ship,
was
stronger than their conservative estimates.
Almost negligently, he
held
the Larak-focus at bay, his mind laughing at what he considered
their
puny efforts.
Then, the veil of her romantic illusions
stripped from her
perceptions,
Damia increased her pressure and aligned herself with the
Larak-focus. Sodan called for more power within
himself. The
scorching
blaze that fed through Damia's resurgent and catalytic mind
flashed
through and stripped him bare, lashing beyond to trigger the
metallic
structure of the ship into instability.
Involuntarily, and
for a
microsecond, the Larak-focus caught a glimpse of what Sodan had
been.
Once, generations ago, embodied, he had
breathed an alien air,
propelled
his curious body along alien roads; until his brain had been
chosen
to undertake the incredible enterprise of crossing the galactic
rift.
In my fashion have I loved you, he cried
to Damia as he felter
reach
the fuel mass. But you never really
loved me, he added with
intense
surprise as her mind, vulnerable in the instant of that massive
thrust,
was open to him. And he shall not have
you!
With his last strength, Sodan sent out
one final mental flare just
as the
ship exploded.
Even as Damia felt herself blacking out
from the tremendous
battering,
she frantically tried to deflect that shaft.
As a kingpin flattens a row of its
fellows, so Sodan's blast,
striking
through the Larak-focus, caused a wave of mental agony to roll
backwards
to Aurigae where station personnel grabbed at their skulls in
anguish
and all four generators seized up in overload; to Earth and
Callisto
where T-ratings cringed in pain and on to Procyon where old
Guzman's
valiant heart stopped. Horrified crews
found Jeff Raven and
the
Rowan unconscious in their Tower couches and sent for Elizara and
her
teams. Jeran on Deneb had certainly
been aware of an incredible
psionic
backlash. He was hastily summoned to
Earth since FT&T command
devolved
to him in the emergency. Jeran took
time to assure himself
that
with sufficient rest his parents would recover, then he officially
informed
the Nine Star League of the event. He
was requested to join,
and
`port units of a Fleet squadron to Aurigae.
In his turn, he sent
for his
grandmother, asking Isthia to bring the specialists she had
trained
to revive over stressed Talents. With
Elizarars help, he and
Isthia
were able to extract gently from Jeff's taxed mind the position
of the
three personnel shells.
As the Fleet squadron neared the relevant
spatial coordinates,
Jeran
and Isthia on board the flagship could `hear' nothing. Then the
ship's
sensitive equipment located the three capsules.
It is possible, Isthia said, trying to be
positive in the absence
of any
mental aura from the shells, that all three are in very deep
shock. The power in Dam ia's final thrust!
Damia cannot be dead. Jeran allowed himself the luxury of
believing
in his grandmother's optimism. We
cannot lose her! He had
forced
himself to accept other losses. Sodan
may have been powerful
but is
there a T-rating in the galaxy who didn't feel her hit him?
`Ah!' Isthia gave a sharp gasp. I have them. And she signalled
for
Jeran and her team to assist, leaning into the ship's engines to
`port
the capsules aboard.
`Damia's alive,' Jeran cried in relief,
having made that his first
priority. I thought I felt them all die.
`Afra lives, too, but he's very
faint. Larak . . . and Isthia's
voice
faded. Why did the focus have to snap
through him?
They opened Afra's capsule first, and
sighed with pity at the lean
form
drawn up in the foetal position of complete withdrawal. Jeran
thought
his heart would break, remembering the vibrant man who had been
as much
a part of his life and learning as his parents.
`He's so badly hurt, Isthia. Can we save him?' Should we -. .
:f he'll be psionically numb for the rest
of his life? he asked
on the
tightest possible band.
Isthia raised her eyebrows in a scathing rejection
of that
suggestion. `I've pulled minds back from worse than
this, Jeran
Gwyn-Raven. Move aside.' With a touch skilled and
delicate, she put
her
hands on Afra's temples. Jeran saw her
eyes cloud with anxiety.
She sighed, for a brief moment depressed
by her examination. His
dominant
desire is death. Which is so totally
unlike Afra that I shall
ignore
it. I don't intend that he should
succumb to death right now.
However, his life force is critically low
and must be carefully
revived.'
She gave rapid mental orders to the medics standing by so
that,
within seconds, Afra was receiving emergency injections and two
highly
skilled metamorphic practitioners began the routines that had
once
restored her son, Jeff, from a nadir that bordered extinction.
Afra'll need some subtle encouragements,
Jeran, to overcome that
death
wish. Divorce your emotions, Isthia
told him sharply. Put your
fingers
over mine. Help me reach him.
We have to reverse that wish before it
succeeds.
Jeran gave himself a stern shake and,
holding his breath, placed
his
fingers lightly over Isthia's at Afra's temples.
He let his mind be guided by hers in the
gentlest of probes,
ignoring
the mental anguish they experienced at having to touch so torn
a
mind. Uppermost was the thought that
both Larak and Afra had shared:
Sodan
striking at them and Damia, exhausted, trying to block his final
shaft.
He'll kill her! He'll kill her! was the
repeated cry of terror,
a
curious melding of both Larak and Afra, swirling in the pain of
Afra's
mind. No, Damia! Don't try!
I waited too long. No, Damia!
You'll be killed. You mustn't. Why did I wait so long?
Too
long.
No, Damia. Don't try . . . and the sequence
was repeated.
Damia lives! Damia lives! Isthia
accepted the fact that Afra
would
not care to live if he thought Damia was dead.
But she was alive
and he
must be convinced of this'.
She urged Jeran to reinforce her
message. He provided a baritone
level
to her soprano chant. Damia lives. Damia lives, Afra. Damia
lives!
Damia lives? Damia lives, Damia lives.
The response was the
merest
whisper of hope from an overtaxed psyche.
Isthia caught Jeran's eyes, hope widening
hers.
Yes, that's exactly what he needed to
know. Let's reinforce it.
Together they repeated their encouraging
litany. Afra, Damia
lives.
She rests. She waits for you. Damia
lives, Afra.
She waits for you.
Sleep, Afra, Isthia added then with the
most delicate urgency.
Sleep and rest. Damia lives.
Damia lives? Damia lives? Damia lives!
With a shudder, Afra's subconscious
finally accepted that
reassurance. His body relaxed from its foetal curl.
For one terrifying moment, he was
absolutely still. Gasping,
Isthia
dipped way down into the suddenly tranquil mind before she
realized
that Afra had merely slipped into deep sleep.
`He's badly hurt, Isthia admitted sadly
as they watched the medics
wheel
Afra away to a tightly shielded room where no mental noise could
intrude. `But he'll live.' Jeran did not try to read
whatever
reservations
she might entertain.
They opened Damia's capsule
together. She lay on her side,
looking
very young, but there were marks that showed the effects of
that
meeting of minds. She had bitten
through her lower lip; a trickle
of
blood had made a scarlet line across her cheek. Her face was
streaked
with tears. Her fingernails had cut
into her palms when she
had
clenched her fists. Her closed eyes
looked bruised by deep and
dark
circles.
With great compassion, Isthia turned the
girl on to her back and
laid
both hands lightly on Damia's temples.
I can't reach them. I can't get there in time. I hurt.
I've got
to
try. I burn. Oh, will I lose them both?
Isthia could hear the
words,
a faint loop of thought in the deepest recesses of a scorched
and
overstretched mind.
With a sigh of relief, Isthia straightened.
She's badly burned? Jeran asked anxiously, having waited outside
Isthia's
contact but aware it had been made.
Scorched, overstretched right now, and
deeply hurt. Damia `5
been reduced, Isthia remarked ruefully,
in the terrible way that
only
the very bright and very confident can be diminished.
Diminished? Jeran was both Prime and brother at that moment.
In pride and self-confidence, Isthia
qualified with a sad smile.
Her Talent is far too robust to suffer
any permanent effect. Her
ego,
however, will. She'll never forget that
she underestimated Soda
n's
potential danger because she became infatuated with her perception
of him.
For all of that, if she hadn't touched
him first, where would we
be with
such a menace zeroing in from space?
That's the Prime in you speaking, Isthia
said, but her tone was
complimentary. Although let's hope that eventually Damia
can see this
incident
from that perspective. Right now she'll
grieve terribly
because
her lapse in judgement caused Larak's death and has seriously
injured
Afra.
But, Isthia, once the attack on Sodan
began, nothing could have
saved
Larak as focus-mind. Death is far
kinder than being burned out.
She's not to blame for that.
Isthia shook her head sadly. She'll never see it that way.
But I devoutly hope that it never occurs
to her that, in the final
moment,
instinct overrode reason and it was Afra she struggled to save.
Afra?
What the hell? Jeran stared at
her blankly before he
followed
her thought to its conclusion. Sodan
tried to kill Afra?
Wasn't he aiming at the entire focus?
Not from what I gathered from Jeff and
Rowan.
Isthia signalled to the medics to
administer deep-sleep drugs and
intravenous
nourishment to Damia.
With great reluctance then, they turned
to Larak's shell.
Because they had to, they opened it and
saw with some little
relief
that there was no mark of the violence of his death on the young
face. A curiously surprised smile lingered on his
lips.
Isthia turned away in tears and Jeran,
too numbed by the total
tragedy
to display his own sorrow, put his arm around her to lead her
away.
`Prime,' the captain of the ship said
respectfully when they
entered
the control room, `we have located the debris of the alien
ship. Permission to recover the fragments?'
`Permission granted.
Isthia and I will return to the
Tower. Signal when you're ready
to be
`ported, Captain.' `Very good, sir,' the captain said and
stiffened
to a rigid attention. The unashamed
tears in his eyes and
his
very crisp salute expressed wordlessly his pride, his sympathy and
his
sorrow.
Struggling against a will determined to
keep her asleep, Damia
fought
her way to semi-consciousness.
`I can't keep her under. She's resisting,' a remote voice rang in
peals.
As distant as the sound was, like a far
echo in a subterranean
cavern,
each syllable fell like a hammer on her exposed nerves.
Sobbing, Damia struggled for
consciousness, sanity, and a release
from
this agony. She couldn't seem to
trigger the reflexes that would
divert
pain, and an effort to call Afra to help her met with not only
the
resistance of increased agony but a vast blackness. Her mind was
as
stiff as iron, holding each thought firmly to it as though
magnetized
in place.
`Damia, do not reach. Do not use your mind,' a gentle voice said
in her
ear. She recognized the voice as
Isthia's and her grandmother's
presence
restored her wavering sanity. She felt
the touch of Isthia's
cool
capable hands on her forehead.
Damia opened her eyes and tried to focus
on the face above her.
With trembling, weak hands she pressed
Isthia's fingers against
her
temples in an unconscious plea for relief of pain.
`What happened? Why can't I control my mind?' Damia cried, tears
of
weakness streaming down her face.
`You rather stretched yourself,
destroying Sodan,' Isthia said.
`But you did get him, you know.' `I can't
remember,' Damia
groaned,
blinking away tears so she could at least see clearly.
`Every rating in FT&T does.' `Oh, my
head. It's all blank and
there's
something I've got to do, Isthia.' Damia tried to rise but,
though
Isthia exerted little pressure, she sank weakly back into the
bed. `I've got something I must do only I can't
remember what it is.'
`You
did do what you must, dear, I assure you.
But you've suffered a
tremendous
trauma, and you must rest,' Isthia said, her voice in the
croon
that had soothed Damia as a rebellious child.
Cool hands stroked
her
face and she welcomed the relief for her skin felt so hot and hard.
Each caress seemed to lessen the terrible
pain inside her skull.
`I'm putting you back to sleep now,
love,' and Damia felt the
coolness
of an injection pop into her arm.
`We're very proud of you
but you
must sleep. Only sleep can heal your
mind.' "Great nature's
second
course, that knits the ravelled sleeve of care." What's
knitting,
Isthia? I've never known.' Even Damia
recognized that she
was
babbling as the cool scalliony taste in her throat heralded the
spread
of the drug.
Again, after what seemed no passage of
time at all, Damia was
inexorably
forced to consciousness by her indefinably relentless need.
`I can't understand it,' came Isthia's
voice. This time it did
not
reverberate across Damia's pained mind like tympani in a closet.
`That last dose was enough to put a city to
sleep.' `She's
worrying
at something and probably won't rest until she's resolved it.
Let's wake her up and find out.' The
second voice was masculine
and
sounded vaguely familiar, also vaguely annoyed. With a grateful
smile,
she labelled it `Dad'. She felt her
face gently slapped and,
opening
her eyes, saw her father's face swimming out of an indistinct
background.
`Dad,' she pleaded, not because he had
slapped her but because she
had to
make him understand.
`Dear Damia,' he said with such loving
pride that she almost lost
the
tenuous thought she tried to hold.
Her body strained with the effort to
reach out only a few inches a
mind
that once had blithely coursed light-years, but she soon managed
to
communicate her crime.
Larak and Afra! They were ahead of me in the focus. I killed
them
when I had to destroy Sodan. I must
have killed them because I'm
still
alive!
Behind Jeff she heard her mother's cry
and Isthia's exclamation.
`No, no,' Jeff said gently, shaking his
head. He placed her hands
on his
forehead to let her feel the honesty of his denial. `You're not
at
fault, dear Damia. Yes, you drew power
through the Larak-focus to
destroy
Sodan and succeeded. Only you were
capable of such a
magnificent
thrust! Furthermore, without you to
throw us into high
gear,
Sodan could have destroyed every Prime in FT&T.
And that's the truth your mother will
verify.' Damia heard the
Rowan
murmur affirmatively.
`But I can't hear anything right now,'
and in spite of herself,
Damia
felt her chin quiver and tears of pure terror welled out of her
eyes. `Have I lost my mind?' to `Of course you
haven't,' and the
elbowed
Jeff her hair back from her flushed and tear-stained face.
`You saved us, you know. You really did.' Isthia moved the Rowan
gently
but firmly to one side.
`You must go knit some more sleeves of
ravelled care, Damia,'
Isthia
said with therapeutic asperity. `You
knit like this,' and she
inserted
a visual demonstration of the technique of knitting into
Damia's
mind. It was an adroit gambit, designed
to fragment
concentration
but Damia saw it for the evasion it was.
`I must be told all that happened, she
demanded imperiously. A
wisp of
memory nagged at her and she caught it.
`I remember. Sodan
made
one last thrust at us. She closed her
eyes against that recall,
remembering
too, that she had tried to intercept it and, `Larak died,'
she
said in a flat voice. `And Afra. I couldn't shield in time.'
`Afra
lives,' the Rowan said in a steady voice.
`But Larak doesn't. Why Larak?' Damia demanded, desperately
striving
to uncover what she felt they were still hiding from her.
`Your brother was the focus, Damia,' the
Rowan said softly,
knowing,
too, that Damia would never absolve herself of Larak's death.
`Afra was supposed to be the focus, being
the experienced mind,
but the
old bond between you and Larak snapped into effect. You tried
to
shield Larak but he couldn't draw sufficient help from you. Your
father
and I also tried to support him but he was the focus. Without
you to
help, we couldn't even have cushioned Afra in time. Sodan's was
truly a
powerful mentality.' Damia looked from her mother's face to her
father's
and knew that they spoke the truth. But
a reservation hovered
in
their eyes and their manner.
`You haven't told me everything,' she
said, fighting both immense
fatigue
and the drugs.
`All right, sceptic,' Jeff said, lifting
her into his arms.
`Though there's nothing wrong with your
hearing so why it hasn't
been
assailed by his snores, I do not know.
Everyone else is using ear plugs,' he
added as he carried her down
a dim
hall.
Pausing at an open door, he swung her so
she could see into the
room. A night light hung over the bed,
illuminating Afra's quiet face,
deeply
lined with fatigue and pain.
Denying even the physical evidence, Damia
reached out, touching
just
enough for reassurance the distressed mental rumble that meant
Afra
inhabited his body.
`Damia!
Don't do that!' Jeff roared, hurting more than her ears
as he
bore her back down the hall to her room.
`I won't again but I had to,' she sobbed,
her head ballooning with
agony.
`And we'll make sure you don't until your
mind is completely
healed. Out you go, missy,' and she was powerless
against the three
minds
that reinstated the welcome oblivion of sleep.
An insistent whisper nibbled at the
corners of her awareness and
roused
Damia from restorative sleep. Cringing
in anticipation of the
return
of pain, she was mildly surprised to feel only the faintest
discomfort. Experimentally, Damia pushed a depressant on
the ache and
that,
too, disappeared.
Unutterably pleased by her success, she
sat up in bed.
It was night and the gentle breeze wafted
scents which she
recognized
as Denebian. She stretched until a
cramp caught her in the
side.
Heavens, hasn't anyone moved me in months? she asked herself,
noting
that her mental tone was firm. She lay
back in bed,
deliberating. Poor Damia, she said in a self-derisive
tone, ever since
that
encounter with that dreadful alien mind, she's been nothing but a
T4. T-9?
T-3? Damia tried out the
different ratings for size and
then
discarded them all, along with her melodrama.
You idiot. You'll
never
know till you try.
Tentatively, without apparent effort, she
reached out and counted
the
pulses of another - no, two other sleepers.
Afra's was the faint
one. But, Damia realized in calm triumph, it was
there. Which brought
her up
sharp against the second fact.
She slid from her bed to stand by the
window. Sometime during her
last
deep slumber, she - and Afra - had been moved to Deneb, to her
grandmother's
forest retreat. This room looked out on
to the back of
the
clearing in which the house stood.
Beyond the lawn of ever grass,
beyond
the bank of the ttn, - where the forest began her the trail led
And
stopped when she saw the white oblong.
Instinct told her that
Larak
was buried there and the thought of Larak buried and his touch
forever
gone broke her. She wept, biting her
knuckles and pressing her
arms
tightly into her ribs to muffle the sound of her mourning.
Out of the night, out of the stillness,
the whisper that had
roused
her tugged at her again. She stifled
her tears to listen,
trying
to identify that sliver of sound. It
faded before she caught
it.
Resolutely now, she laid her sorrow
gently in the deepest part of
her
soul, a part of her but apart for ever.
No matter what Jeff and
the
Rowan said, she had caused Larak's death, and maimed Afra. Had she
been
less preoccupied, less self-centred, she would not have been
dazzled
by the fancy that Sodan was her Prince Charming, her knight in
cylindrical
armour.
Such a spoiled child she'd been:
egotistical, arrogant, proud,
making
demands she had no right to request, wanting privileges she had
not
earned, rewards she was too immature to appreciate The whisper
again,
fainter but somehow surer. With a
startled cry of joy, Damia
whirled
from her room, running on light feet down the hall. Catching
at the
door frame to break her headlong flight, she hesitated on the
threshold.
She caught her breath as she realized
that Afra was sitting up.
He was looking at her with a smile of
disbelief on his face.
`You've been calling me,' she whispered,
half questioning,
half-stating.
`In a lame-brained way,' he replied with
a wry half-smile.
`I can't seem to reach beyond the edge of
the bed.' `Don't try.
It hurts,' she said quickly, stepping
into the room to pause shyly
at the
foot of the bed.
Afra grimaced, rubbing his temples. `I know it hurts but I can't
seem to
find any balance in my skull,' he confessed, his voice uneven,
worried. `Even as a child, I always had that.' `May
I?' she asked
formally,
unexpectedly timid with him.
Closing his eyes, Afra nodded.
Sitting down as if her slender frame
might jar the bed, Damia
lightly
laid her fingertips to his temples, and touched his mind as
delicately
as she knew how. Afra stiffened with
pain and Damia quickly
established
a block, regardless of the cost to her own recent recovery.
She drew away the pain, laying in the
tenderer areas a healing
mental
anaesthesia. Jealously, she noticed
someone else had been
tending
the damage.
Isthia.
. . has. . . a. . .
delicate. . . touch, too. He sent
the
thought with deliberate and slow care.
`Oh, Afra,' Damia cried for the agony the
simple phrase cost him.
`You aren't burned out. You're no lame-brain either. As if!
would let you be. You'll be just as strong as ever. I'll help.'
Afra
leaned forward, his face close to hers, his yellow eyes blazing.
`You'll help?' he asked in a low intense
voice as he searched her
face. `How, Damia?' Her fingers plucking shyly and
nervously at his
blanket,
Damia could not look away from an Afra who had altered
disturbingly. Damia tried to fathom the startling change
in this
familiar
figure. Unable to resort to a mental
touch, she saw afra for
the
first time with only physical sight.
And he was suddenly very
different. Very masculine! That was it.
Mi at once, Afra appeared startlingly
male to her.
She was appalled to think that she had
blundered about so, looking
for a
mind that was superior to hers: a mind that demanded her respect
and
admiration, that could lead hers, and support her with sure
understanding
and empathy. And that mind had always
been available!
Every time she had needed it - on Deneb,
on Callisto, everywhere
she'd
ever been. Only she hadn't looked for
it.
`Damia?
Speechless?' Afra teased her, his smooth tenor voice
tender.
She nodded violently as she felt his warm
fingers closing around
her
nervously plucking hand. Immediately
she experienced a profoundly
sensual
empathy.
`Why, you wanted me even then, on
Callisto, when you denied me?
Didn't you? You just waited - and waited .
. . Whatever for?
I've always needed you, Afra!
Always!
Why do you think I've been so lonely?' The words burst
from
her.
With a low triumphant laugh, Afra pulled
her into his arms,
cradling
her body against his and settling her head against his
shoulder.
`Familiarity breeds contempt?' he asked,
mocking her gently with
her own
words `And how could you - a T-3. . .
manage to mask she went
on,
fuelling her indignation.
`Familiarity also bred certain skills,
Damia.' And he chuckled,
holding
her firmly despite her half-hearted attempt to struggle free.
But he was physically stronger than she
imagined, delighted by
that as
well.
`You and that aloof attitude of
yours. When you wouldn't take me
on
Callisto I was sure it was Mother-' `Your mother was no more for me
than
Sodan was for you,' Afra said, his eyes stern as she stared up at
him,
shaken by his harsh tone.
His expression altered again, his arms
tightened convulsively as
he bent
his head and kissed her with an urgent, lusty eagerness.
`Sodan may have loved you, in his
fashion, Damia,' Afra's voice
said in
her ear, `but mine will be far more satisfying for you.
Trembling, Damia opened her mind to Afra
without a single
reservation.
Their lips met again as Afra held her
tightly in what shortly
became
far more than a mere meeting of minds.
3" Damia roused the morning, aware
first of having slept very
deeply. Then of feeling unusually refreshed, relaxed
and
self-satisfied. Having established those states, she was
abruptly
aware
of what had transpired the previous night.
And sat up in the bed Curled on his side
and still sound asleep
was
Afra, his long arms dangling over the edge of the bed. She
couldn't
see his face but she gave him just the briefest mental touch
and
sighed with relief: his mind-tone had noticeably improved
overnight.
That can be a fringe benefit of loving,
you know, said Isthia in a
whispery
mental voice.
Grandmother! Even as Damia bridled at Isthia's amused
observation,
she also noted that receipt of the carefully tendered
message
caused her mind no pain.
I would have had to be mute or dead not
to hear the way you two
were
vibrating. Isthia kept her `voice'
quiet but Damia could not miss
the
amused quality of it.
The two of us? Then Afra's able to `path?
Well, let's just say that there are
certain emotions that
broadcast
in spite of themselves. Just let him
find his own balance.
Isthia appeared in the doorway, a cup in
each hand.
Entering the room quietly, she gave Damia
one cup and then went to
the
other side of the bed, to scrutinize Afra's sleeping face. Damia
bristled
possessively Down, girl, Isthia said with an ironic smile, I'm
on your
side. Afra has been special to me, too,
for vastly different
reasons.
Damia wanted to discover them but Isthia
waggled a finger at her
the
moment she felt Damia's pressure.
Don't, Damia. Enough that I'm on your side.
Damia tried a different tack. What did you mean then?
Let him find his own balance?
Isthia's expression became rueful. I couldn't help overhearing
your
very creditable offer to him last night.
But that won't be
needed. Nor any notion of yours to sacrifice
yourself to restore him.
Now, now, don't hackle at me. Professionally, I've every reason
to
believe that he'll make a full recovery, given time and plenty of
quiet. That's one reason I convinced your parents
to let me bring you
both
here to Deneb. Callisto's far too
frenetic a place for mental
convalescents.
Any Tower would be, Damia thought, and
sipped at the hot brew,
eyeing
her grandmother speculatively Then what did you mean - you're on
my
side?
Isthia regarded her with exaggerated
incredulity. You mean, you
think
you can jump from mooning over that Sodan character to a liaison
with
Afra and not expect repercussions?
It's NOT a liaison. It's a bonding! Damia said in an unequivocal
tone. You should know that Isthia held up one hand
in rebuke. I
closed
my mind when I realized which way your .
. . ah suddenly
discovered
rapport was heading. I do practise
discretion as well as
metamorphics,
you know.
Mother will object. Damia gritted her teeth. During last night's
passionate
consummation, she certainly had had no time to consider
`repercussions'
Well, she has had Afra's support for many years and
she'll
be annoyed at having to replace him but I suspect you'll find
that
your father might have more cogent objections.
Dad?
Why should he mind? He's far
more likely to suggest that
Afra
will be just the stabilizing influence I need!
Possibly.
Damia frowned, regarding her grandmother
with apprehension.
Isthia had a habit of predicting
reactions.
How could they object to Afra? They both know him so well.
And he's a T-3.
He's also nearly a quarter of a century
your senior.
Don't put it like that, Isthia. It's not as if age makes that
much
difference for Talents! Damia was
openly scornful. I know Mother
won't
like it.
Isthia perched on the low chest, sipping
her drink.
Nonsense, although you may hear words
like `backlash',
`martyrdom',
`self sacrifice', `compensation'.
You'll improve your
position
if your attitude towards him is devoid of guilt or the least
tinge
of reparation for the Sodan disaster.
Damia flinched, hunching against the pain of that reminder.
Sorry, love, Isthia shot back in sincere
apology.
Do they hate me? For not saving Larak?
Slipping off the chest, Isthia embraced
Damia in tender, loving
arms. No, love.
No-one hates or blames you for that.
Nothing could have saved Larak. Unfortunately!
I will never, never, NEVER, let anyone
else be focus!
Damia said resolutely.
The focus-mind is always at risk in a
merge, Damia love, and never
is a
long time. Don't store guilt for future
use.
Afra stirred and Isthia rose to her feet.
Get him out of that bed and to my kitchen
table. He hasn't eaten
properly
since we got him here. And you've both
got to start moving
about
on your own. Now mind, no mental games
until I give the
go-ahead! Isthia stood, but her piercing gaze and
stern face stressed
that
prohibition, and the force of the tone she used, no longer a
whisper,
set Damia's mind to throbbing: the clearest possible
demonstration
of her invalid state. Then her whisper
returned. I
shouldn't
even be talking to you like this now, but you're able for
short
distances and I wanted to clear the air privately, she added as
she
left the room then.
Mulling over what Isthia had said, Damia
watched as her lover
restlessly
turned on to his back, and flailed an arm against her. That
woke
him and he shot upright in the bed, anxious eyes seeking hers, a
hesitant,
shy smile on the lips that had tantalized her the night
before. She found herself blushing and evaded his
gaze. Giving
herself
a stern shake, she lifted her head and met his eyes.
Damia blushing? he teased her, lifting his hand to caress her
cheek
in a lingering fashion.
`You're not supposed to `path, Afra,' she
scolded, more because
his
`tone' was so weak compared to the mental touch he had always
projected.
His expression altered subtly and his
hand dropped to her bare
shoulder.
My love, I will do what I can with what I
have, and his tone
chided
her. And what I have is much better
this morning, thank you.
`Thank you!' he added aloud and, tilting
his head, kissed her
pursed
lips.
The intimate touch was shatteringly
electric and once again swept
away any
half-formed resolution of circumspect behaviour while Isthia
was in
range.
Hold breakfast, she managed to convey to
Isthia on a tight
thought.
Was that Afra's soft chuckle for her
willing compliance in her
mind or
Isthia's for their delay?
`Actually, it's lunch,' Isthia said
blandly when they finally did
appear
in the kitchen. It was a very pleasant
room, south-facing, with
windows
that opened on to the front with a view of the lane that wound
through
the forestry to the major link road with Deneb City. Isthia
preferred
to know who was approaching her retreat so that she could
take
evasive action if necessary. When she
had begun a profound
enquiry
into metamorphic treatments, she had needed such a refuge. She
had no
neighbours nearer than sixty kilometres and that family had
absolutely
no Talent.
With the courtesy that was second nature
to him, Afra settled
Damia
into a chair at the long table that was work-space as well as
dining
surface. Then, turning his chair around
he sat, his arms
crossed
on its back. He didn't appear to be
watching Isthia intently
but
Damia knew that he was. Of Isthia's
earlier observations, Damia
had
only told him that Isthia had said she was on their side.
One of his eyebrows had quirked slightly
and his lips had twitched
but he
didn't make any further comment. With
Isthia's emphatic ban on
`pathing,
Damia did not try to `hear' what thoughts had crossed his
mind.
As Isthia served them coffee, she wondered
how her mother and
father
handled that intimate aspect of their life together. She knew
they
always kept a light touch but, in each other's minds constantly?
Of course, right now, even the most
delicate link could
exacerbate.
But she could watch him, learn every
subtle nuance of his body
language:
had Afra always had such an expressive face?
Droll,
humorous,
pensive, observant? Though he was
listening to Isthia, he
winked
at her, `I think you two are now able to handle your own
convalescence,'
Isthia was saying, ladling one of her hearty soups into
bowls. She brusquely waved Damia back into her
chair when she started
to rise
and help.
`I've laid in plenty of supplies. Damia, you are not to "reach"
for
anything yet. Use the communit,' and
she grinned as she pointed to
the
unobtrusive set in one corner of the big room.
`Prosaic, I know,
and
nowhere near as swift as "lifting" something but, if I feel either
of you
"lifting" anything, I'll slap you back into deep sleep again.
Your minds have to rest to recuperate,
have to be free of even the
pulse
of other minds. You won't be bothered
by casual visitors because
this
place is known to be off-limits and I've made it plain that I'll
flay
anyone who disturbs you. Anything you
should require,' and her
tone
suggested that she'd be surprised if she hadn't anticipated every
need,
`can be delivered.' Afra nodded, glancing at Damia to be sure she
was as
obedient. `What I don't know is how
long we'll be convalescing.
I have absolutely no idea how much time
has already elapsed.
Damia winced at even that tactful
reference and, her appetite
abruptly
disappearing, she put down her spoon.
Isthia gave one of her evasive
sniffs. `Sleep,' and she bent a
stern
look on both Damia and Afra, `was the best remedy. You've been
kept
quiescent - when we could-' and there was an element of
exasperation
in her manner as she pinned Damia with her stare, `for
sixteen
days.' `Oh!' Isthia laid a comforting hand on Damia's head as
she put
her own bowl on the table and sat down beside her
granddaughter.
Afra gave an odd chuckle. `No wonder my legs are rubbery.' Isthia
gave
one of her sniffs. `A great wonder
you've been able for
anything!'
He refused to rise to the jibe.
`Mother and Dad?' Damia asked anxiously,
irritated that it was
only
now that she thought to enquire.
`I kept them asleep for four days. You deflected a lot of that
final
thrust, Damia, and saved them from the worst of it. Believe me,
you
did,' Isthia added when Damia seemed to droop further, remembering
who she
hadn't been able to save.
`Who ran FT&T then?' Afra asked in a
brisk tone.
`Jeran?' Isthia nodded. `With Cera.
They made a formidable
team.'
Afra chuckled. `I expect they did. So long as they didn't
noticeably
improve on what Rowan and Jeff can do.' `Some detractors,'
Isthia
said with a snort of disapproval, `feel that the Gwyn-Ravens
have
far too much power in FT&T chain of command.' `Then let them breed
up
their own Prime Talents,' Afra replied abruptly. `Meanwhile, they
should
be immensely grateful that Jeffs planned for every contingency.
Who's working Callisto with the
Rowan? Gollee?' When Isthia
nodded,
he shrugged. `In that case, I have no
need to hurry back.
Frankly, this will be the first proper
holiday I've had, bar the
occasional
weekend, since I had the gall to apply to the Rowan
twenty-eight
years ago.
Damia stared at him, appalled. `Twenty-eight?' Afra regarded her
levelly. `That's right, love. That's how long I've been Towered. Not
that I
minded, for I'd nothing else to do with my spare time.'
`Nothing?'
asked Isthia sardonically `Nothing,' he said, giving her the
same
level regard, `that mattered. Unlike
you dilettantes, we Tower
folk
become dedicated-' `I'd call it enslaved,' Isthia said with a sour
look.
`Inseparable from the needs and deeds of
our particular Tower.
`Who's managing Aurigae?' Damia asked in
a guilty panic.
Isthia chuckled, her eyes sparkling. `They're going to appreciate
you
when you return, Damia!' `They do want me back? I will go back?'
She
hadn't quite dared to ask yet.
`Since they have to tailor their exports to
the abilities of a
young
T-4
`Who?' Damia was abruptly jealous of
anyone taking over her Tower,
however
briefly.
`Oh, Capella lent a promising trainee:
your oldest nephew, I
believe,
Afra; your sister Goswina's son `Veswind?' Afra was mildly
surprised. `Yes, I suppose he is old enough for
responsibility.
Gossie would be pleased. I wonder she never mentioned it.' `They
wouldn't,
would they?' Isthia said in a mildly barbed voice.
`No, come to think of it,' Afra replied and
broke off a piece of
bread
to soak up the soup juices at the bottom of his bowl.
`How soon?' Damia asked Isthia.
`How soon what?' `How soon can I go back
to work?' Eyebrows raised
quizzically,
Isthia favoured her granddaughter with a very long and
piercing
look. Then sent a mental probe that
made Damia gasp with
pain.
`When you no longer have that sort of
reaction, my dear. I
repeat,
since you have a hard time absorbing the information, you'll
both
recover, and with no reduction in potential.
But it will take
time,
peace, quiet and no messing about.' Isthia waggled a finger first
at her
granddaughter.
`Have I made myself plain?' Damia
swallowed, her head throbbing.
`Completely.' Immediately she felt a
kinder touch and the
throbbing
was reduced to a minor ache.
`Have I made myself plain to you, too,
Afra?' Isthia now turned on
Afra
who had gone slightly paler. `Yes, I
see I have. Now, will you
both
stop worrying about the galaxy and eat my nourishing soup? You
need to
reintroduce your abused stomachs to real food instead of
nutrient
sprays. I've prepared a diet sheet
which,' and again she
pinned
them with her forceful stare, `you will both follow
assiduously.'
When they nodded meekly, she went on.
`I'll leave tomorrow since a third party
is unnecessary or should
be. You certainly are adult enough, Afra, as
well as old enough to
admit,
and yield, to your current physical and mental disabilities.'
She
gave a sniff. `And to bore each other
in close proximity. Nothing
like
that to demonstrate compatibility.' `Grandmother!' Damia cried in
protest
for she knew that Afra and she were already bonded.
`Damia, stop doodling and start
eating. You'll have more soup,
Afra,'
she said in one of her quick shifts of mood.
`When you've finished, I suggest that a
gentle walk about the
cabin
will be about all the physical activity you'll be able for today.
THEN,' and she shook a stern finger at
each, `you will rest in the
porch
hammocks so I'm sure that you are resting.' `No quarrel there,'
Afra
said with a droll grin of apology to Damia.
`Hear me, Damia? Give him a chance to regain his strength!'
`Grandmother!'
`Don't grandmother me, young woman.
Learn the joys of
anticipation!'
A slight shake of Afra's head cooled Damia's heated
response. And the warm look in his yellowy eyes
promised her that he'd
make it
all up to her later.
`It is peaceful here,' Afra said as he
and Damia obediently took
their
stroll. He had linked his warm long
fingers in hers and such
tactile
contact was unusually reassuring, and curiously satisfying.
Almost as good as the now forbidden
mental link would be.
Especially since the touch-sense of Afra
had taken on an added
dimension
- no longer merely cool-green-comfortable-secure: a vibrancy
threaded
through the cool-green, and `comfortable' had definitely
lazy-sensual
elements, while `secure' had intensified into a deeply
rooted
foundation that could never be attacked Occasionally Afra's long
thigh
brushed against her leg, and their bodies swayed together, to
touch
at the hip, while her shoulder often encountered his arm.
Damia took in little of their
surroundings during that slow
saunter:
she just revelled in the purely physical contact with a subtly
altered
Afra. She still couldn't believe her
stupidity. But then,
Afra'd
always been part of her life: how could she have known he'd
assume
such a vital role in the rest of her life?
She refused to
consider
problems. Nothing must mar this
tranquil moment.
They rounded the corner of the cabin and
made for the short flight
of
stairs to the veranda where two hammocks swung idly in the afternoon
breeze. The few stairs put an unexpected strain on
her thighs. She
thought
of the big daddies she had once so effortlessly transported.
Well, she'd do them again! She was even panting a bit when they
reached
the porch. So was Afra so she didn't
feel quite so decrepit.
But this was a splendid spot for napping, shaded as it was from
the
direct rays of the sun.
Afra held the cords of one hammock while
she eased herself into
it. Then he bent and, at the last moment,
altered his target and
kissed
the side of her neck.
`Your mouth, love, is far too inviting,'
he said with a low laugh
and set
her hammock to rocking.
`Why are the swings set so far
apart? I want to keep in touch,'
she
complained, extending her arm as far as it would go towards him.
He laughed as he settled himself and,
with one quick push, set his
hammock
into a gentle swing.
`We're to rest, remember, love? And since I want nothing more
than to
be rested ---` and he laughed softly, suggestively, `I'll
obey.'
Surprising her, Afra began to hum a melody she faintly
recognized. And hearing it, she fell asleep.
Afra almost botched his attempt to invoke
that old
preconditioning:
in the first place, he couldn't sing and laugh at the
same
time and then, when Damia's breathing obediently slowed to a sleep
rhythm,
he was both surprised and gratified that that old trigger still
worked.
He let the lullaby die away, watching
Damia's face which still
showed
the marks of her ordeal and grief. He
hadn't liked to see her
so
painfully thin, either, but Isthia's threatened diet ought to repair
that
damage. He wished he could restore her
as easily as he had put
her to
sleep.
He sighed, and clasped his hands behind
his head, shifting his
gaze to
the cabin's incredibly serene setting.
Gradually he became
aware
of discrete sounds; Isthia moving about inside; insect and bird
song
drifting from the trees; the soughing of the breeze. He was also
calm
within himself for the first time in years: perhaps, he amended,
in his
adult life. Certainly since Damia's
ripening sexuality had
stunned
him - what was it, only seven years ago?
Last night had been completely
unexpected: a boon he could never
have
anticipated - a boon which might yet cause him more anguish than
he had
already endured.
And yet, this time Afra Lyon had no
intention of standing
patiently
by and permitting Damia's incredible gift of love to be
wrenched
from his grasp.
Hadn't she come to him of her own volition? Seen him with eyes no
longer
clouded by old perceptions and the anathema of `familiarity'?
And her dear nonsense about sharing her
mental strength with him?
Well, he'd just see if that was ever
needed! How devoutly he
hoped
that Isthia's prognosis was correct!
Keeping up with Damia would
require
Afra Lyon in top form.
On the other hand, Damia might have
turned to him as an anodyne to
the
devastating experience of misjudging Sodan, and Larak's loss. They
had
been so close, those two. Had she
turned to her oldest and most
trusted
friend only for solace? No, Afra told
himself, he had not
misjudged
the look on Damia's face, the amazement in her eyes as she
had
really looked at him, Afra Lyon, the way her hands had caressed him
were
revelations for them both. She had
undergone a shift, a
realignment
of senses, a translation of preconceptions that had been
far-reaching.
That he had shifted from old family
friend to potential lover
years
before was immaterial: in her eyes, she herself had made the
final
adjustment to accepting the steadfast and silent love he had for
her.
Afra smiled wryly. He had stunned Damia with his mention of
twenty-eight
Towered years. But his love had to face
the fact that he
was
twenty-four years her senior. Rowan
would mention it and possibly
Jeff. He did wonder how they were going to receive
the news. He could
hear
the Rowan roaring - she'd have to break in a new assistant unless
she
could persuade Gollee to stay. Or
install Veswind?
Would she be willing for another from the
Lyon line?
Afra smiled again as he remembered how
often Jeff had teased him
about
starting his own family. Jeff had never
had Damia in mind for
Afra's
mate but would he really object? Damia
was younger by over two
decades
but how much could that matter?
Especially now that Damia had gone
through such a tempering and
maturing
crisis. Afra saw it in the lingering
sadness in her eyes,
heard
it in her subtly altered voice, felt it in her abandoned response
to
their impassioned consummation. He
wished she had not been
subjected
to such a harsh, unforgiving, sacrificial rite of passage.
He could have wished it had been easier
on her - but surely both
Rowan
and Jeff would recognize her new maturity.
Afra shifted
restlessly,
his thoughts turning to the unexpected victim.
Dear, dear
Larak! That vibrant, amiable, loving boy, gone in a
flash of alien
anger. Afra forced himself to face that hideous
moment, if only to
defuse
the emotional burden, but his mind refused to focus. In fact,
it hurt
- Afra, came Isthia's admonition, don't think about that yet.
You can't alter what has happened He
didn't try to reach her
telepathically,
just let his reply sit in his public mind.
I must,
however,
confront what did happen and sort it out for peace of mind.
Not now, not today or for several weeks
to come, Isthia replied,
and
what she did next, Afra never knew, but sleep overcame him. To
achieve
the restoration of her patients, Isthia wouldn't cavil at
planting
a few irresistible suggestions of her own.
`Tomorrow you can catch your own,' Isthia
told them as she served
them a
dinner of fish, tiny vegetables and a salad of mixed greens,
`and
scavenge your greens from my garden. I
ask only that you eat
everything
you catch and pick. You know the drill
on Deneb, Damia.'
`Waste
not, want not,' Damia dutifully chanted as the delectable odour
of the
pan-fried fish made her mouth water.
`Fish is brain food,
Afra,'
she added pedantically.
`High protein, low fat. Is there a limit on a day's catch?'
Isthia
snorted. `Of course not. I stocked the lake myself so it's not
part of
the official resources.' Damia leaned across the table to Afra,
her
eyes dancing with mischief, `That means that Isthia reserves the
right
to fish the lake to herself. Deneb
can't use it in time of
famine.
`Deneb hasn't endured a famine, has it?'
Afra was astonished
enough
to stop eating.
`Of course not,' Damia said.
`Famine and planetary emergency.
`Such as the Beetles?' Afra asked.
`Exactly,' and Isthia looked slightly
grim, `first they filled our
lakes
with contaminants, then they blasted them dry. Took years to get
our
reservoirs rebuilt and full. So a
fish-stocked lake can be
considered
a natural resource and could be added to planetary food
reserves. Fortunately, I made sure I had a few perks.'
`This isolated
site is
one?' Afra asked.
`Took me nearly a year to find exactly
the right land when the
grant
was bestowed,' Isthia said, `but it's worth every bit of the fuss
it
caused.' `Fuss? With all you've done
for Deneb?' Damia said,
indignant.
`That's why there was so much fuss,'
Isthia replied and related to
them
the struggles she had had with local and central administration,
builders,
naturalists, as well as medical boards which did not want her
so far
from population centres. `I was blocked
on minor points for
nearly
another two years. But I got the place
I wanted, where I wanted
it, and
no-one can revoke my title to it, nor my heirs' `What do we
fish
for?' Afra asked.
`Rainbow sparklers,' Isthia replied. `Bait your hooks and throw
`em
in. The fish eventually get
interested.' `It's a novel idea to
catch
one's dinner, too,' Afra added.
`You can, though, can't you? It's not something Capellans are
against?'
Damia asked, realizing how little she really knew about Afra
Lyon.
`No,' he assured her with a grin,
`nothing in my upbringing
prevents
me from fishing for food.' `I'll show you the lake after we
eat. There'll be light enough,' Isthia said. `In fact watching the
sunset
there can be rather spectacular.' And that evening Deneb put on
quite a
display for them.
The lake was reached by a narrow track
that threaded its way
through
a thick stand of Denebian softwoods: single trunk spires with
short,
full-leaved branches. The lake, dewdrop
in shape, was
deceptively
large for Isthia led them out at its narrow end where the
tributary
stream flowed down from the hills to their right.
`I've constructed a perch,' Isthia said,
directing them along the
bank to
their left where several large flat black rocks formed an
irregular
bench.
Some sort of spidery multi-legged insects
skimmed across the lake
and
occasionally an aquatic denizen broke the surface into ripples,
snagging
the water runner. Sleepy avian and
nocturnal bug noises
punctuated
the evening air as they seated themselves.
Afra threw a jacket across Damia's
shoulder, for the air at the
lakeside
was chillier than at the protected cabin.
She leaned into his touch, avid for
physical contact. He settled
his arm
about her shoulders and drew her against him as if this casual
sort of
contact was long established.
Afra was having no trouble, she thought,
with their new
relationship. His fingers pressed against her arm and she
glanced at
him,
suspicious that he was disobeying Isthia.
He bent his head towards her.
`A touch is just a touch, Damia love, he
said quietly, s6 don't
get
fussed. More than you, I can't afford
to risk the healing process.
Damia shot a quick look at her
grandmother who was sitting, with
the
discretion of a duenna, at the opposite end of the rock couch.
Isthia gave every evidence of ignoring
them. Which, Damia
realized,
was probably genuine. Isthia would hate
having to leave this
place
with its ensured solitude. She must
remember to thank her for
that
sacrifice.
`Sacrifice,' Damia thought, her heart
heavy. So many little
things
reminded her of Larak. Once again
Afra's fingers took a new
hold on
her arm and she shook her head of such wounding reflections.
`See!' Isthia pointed at the cloud
formation now tinged with a
delicate
shade of peach as the sun began its final descent behind the
hills.
So they watched, awed by the beauty, by
the silence of the wood
and
lake about them, a reverence for the display and for the
tranquillity
of the night to come. When the last
colour faded from
cloud
and sky, Isthia sighed, a sound of intense satisfaction, and
rose.
`Don't stay too long. There's a chill in the night air, she said,
and thrusting
one handlight at them, she departed, playing hers on the
track
as she made her way back to the cabin.
For Damia, who had always been physically
restless, this sort of
inactivity
was novel, yet she would not have broken the quiet mood for
anything
on any world she had ever trod. What
was even more amazing
was
that she was sharing - truly sharing - this magical serenity with
Afra.
From the corner of her eye she snuck a
peek at him and saw, in the
crepuscular
twilight, that he reflected her own tranquillity. Why had
she
never noticed what a strong profile he had: a high straight
forehead,
a straight nose jutting at a fine angle, the generous gap
between
nose and upper lip, and the strong well-modelled wide mouth,
the firm
chin and jawline. He had nice ears,
too. But there were
undeniable
flecks of white in his blondy hair. Not
much, but
noticeable.
Self-consciously, she fingered back the
white-flecked lock that
always
fell across her face.
`I've got more white hair than you,' she
remarked.
`But not in the same number of years,
love,' he replied equably.
`Is that going to matter?' she asked
anxiously.
He looked down at her, smiling at her
concern. `It oughtn't but
it's
bound to come up. Does my seniority
bother you?' `You're always
"Afra"
to me,' she said, surprised at how she identified him within
herself.
He chuckled. `As you have always been inimitably "Damia" to me.
D'you know? I heard you protest your birth.' `That's not fair!'
She did
not like him to remind her of moments like that.
`When does "fair" enter into
any relationship? Suffice it to say,
that I
have known you since the first breath you drew and, strangely
enough,
it makes you dearer to me.' The look in his yellowy eyes, the
tenderness
in his mouth, the appeal in even the way his shoulders
inclined
towards her, and Damia had to admit that she could have no
objection
to what lay behind that soft declaration `Oh, Afra! Why did
you wait
so long?' His lips turned up and his eyes danced. `I had to.
Until you were ready to look at Afra.'
With such laughter in his
eyes
and mouth, he had a careless boyishness about him that cancelled
further
discussion of age.
Larak had been little more than a boy at
his death.
Unbidden, the comparison had crossed her
mind.
Afra's hand covered hers instantly. `I can see that you're
thinking
sad thoughts again, love. What this
time? Tell me!' Damia
smiled
ruefully up at him. `As I told you all
my small troubles?' `I'm
able
for the big ones now.
`I keep thinking of ` She faltered.
`Larak,' and his fingers caressed her
gently. `I think of him a
lot
myself Damia burrowed her head into his shoulder, hooking one hand
about
his neck as she had done so often as a child.
But it was not as a child that she clung
to him now.
`I'm told such pain eases with time,' he
said quietly, `and there
has not
been enough of that between us and his death.' Damia sat
upright. `Who is taking care of Jenna right now?' Her
tone was
stricken
for she had been thinking more in terms of her own grief and
loss
from this wretched Sodan affair.
`Isthia can tell us . . . no, don't reach,' he said and Damia let
out an
exasperated sigh. `We'll go and ask.'
`It takes getting used
to,
this limitation,' she replied caustically `In a good cause, love,'
he said
and, smoothly rising from the warm rock, pulled her to her
feet.
`Jenna?' Isthia said, surprised at the
question when they returned
to the
cabin. `Jeran sent Ezra to her, but she
has a big family and
they're
Talented enough to give her comfort and sufficient solace to
ease
her heart.' Isthia's expression altered to one of amusement.
After all, she has not only her son but
also another child on the
way.'
Damia stared at her grandmother. `Oh!'
she exclaimed
indignantly.
`Larak didn't? Why, he's . . .` She
stopped short. `Under the
circumstances,
I guess I'm glad. Lord, but we
Gwyn-Ravens are prolific
`Tell
me about it,' and Isthia threw her head back and howled with
laughter. `Remember, separate rooms tonight.
I'm not going to explain that to your
parents, Damia!' When Isthia
entered
Deneb Tower, her grandson Jeran had just finished with the
incoming
traffic.
`How are they?' he asked urgently, rising
from his conformable
chair
and embracing her. She rather liked his
strong young arms about
her:
made her remember Jerry.
`They will both recover completely,' she
said, and then gave him a
warning
glare, `if they are allowed to recover at their own rate. No
unexpected
visits, no shafts of enquiry, no exercise of `path or `port
whatever!'
`How's Damia taking that kind of a prohibition?' Jeran
asked,
raising his eyebrows.
Isthia considered, careful not to let any
of her more recent
conclusions
be accessed by her clever Prime grandson.
`Better than
you'd
expect,' she replied, with just a slight emphasis on the pronoun.
`Of course, once she regains her health-'
`What?' Jeran's
exclamation
of alarm was genuine.
`Oh, she's battered physically as well as
psychically, Jeran. And
genuinely
distraught about Larak. It'll all take
time Jeran frowned.
`How long?' Now an FT&T Prime spoke
`As long as it takes, said
Isthia
with a shrug. `I'd like to reassure
Jeff and Rowan-' she added,
gesturing
towards the board.
`Certainly,' Jeran said, stepping well
away from the conformable
chair. `It's break time for me anyway. Will you be going right back?'
`Heavens,
no,' and Isthia grinned as she settled into the chair. `When
I meant
no mental exertion, I meant none, which includes me leaking
metamorphic
theory all over them. Physically,
they're well able to
take
care of themselves, and each other.' She shook her head, thinking
of how
true that was and trying very hard not to chuckle at her private
merriment. `You're stuck with this white man's burden
again `Never
stuck,
Gran, glad to have you any time.
Isthia snorted, knowing perfectly well
that Jeran was rapidly
reviewing
how to conduct his current affair with his grandmother in the
same
house. `Or, I can always move into
Kantria's digs. Yes, that
makes
sense and she's on the outskirts of the City anyway. Do be
tactful
and ask her first, Jerry.' She laughed as she caught the
quickly-suppressed
ripple of consternation from Jeran as he hurriedly
closed
the shielded door behind him. That
should divert him
sufficiently
from speculating further about his sister and Afra Then
she
settled back in the chair and, picking up the pulse of the
generators,
sent her mind ranging the long distance to Callisto.
Isthia?
the Rowan caught her up immediately and did not moderate
her
understandable anxiety. Damia was
foremost in her mother's mind.
They're both well and they will both
recover, Rowan.
Mother?
Instantly Jeff's mind joined the link.
Without loss?
Afra's recuperation worried Jeff more but
only because he felt
Afra
had been in more jeopardy than his daughter.
I don't foresee any diminishing in either
mind. As I told you,
rest
from any mental stress, plenty of sleep and solitude will cure
them.
Relief flowed from them to her and back
again.
Any idea when their cures will be complete? Jeff the Prime spoke.
I haven't a clue, Isthia blithely
reassured them and felt their
misgivings. Heavens, I've never treated such
overextended minds
before. Metamorphically, Damia buffered Afra and you
two cushioned her
even as
she blocked and destroyed Sodan.
There was a brief pause. Does she blame herself for not saving
The
Rowan's voice faltered.
Yes, but that was inevitable and we
cannot spare her that grief.
You will be surprised when you do see
her, and Isthia was rather
glad
there was no-one in the Tower room to see her smile. She liked
and
admired her son's mate.
It was scarcely Angharad's fault that she
had overcompensated her
children
for the vicissitudes of her early childhood.
Surprised? Jeff asked.
Agreeably, Isthia replied. She might as well predispose them.
The incident has matured the girl.
Rite of passage? Jeff asked.
A rocky grievous one, to be sure, but
considering Damia's 33i
personality,
only that sort of experience would produce the proper
tempering.
Aren't you being hard on Damia? the Rowan began.
I'm being objective, I assure you. You should be grateful for her
fortitude
and resilience. She could have been
consumed and broken.
But she is well? She will recover?
Given time. No more headaches, Angharad, or lapses of
concentration? Isthia asked, skilfully diverting the
contact into a
new
channel.
No, because we ve cut down the traffic,
Jeff replied brusquely.
Sometimes FT&T expects too much of
its Primes.
Both of us, and he sent his mother a
rueful grin, are letting our
assistants
handle inanimate stuff. Gives them a
feeling of
accomplishment
and us a brief respite. And Aurigae got
their ears bent
for the
sort of loads they were having Damia `port.
She's not to do
that
again. You did say that Afra's going to
be all right?
Isthia chuckled. Oh, you'll notice a change in him, too.
All for the good. Then, before her inner amusement broke
through,
she
hastily ended the contact. Goodbye
now. Jeran wants his chair
back. I'll keep you informed.
Because they were so isolated and because
they had been in the
habit
of being wide-open in every sense to each other, Damia and Afra
both
experienced the first tendrils of query.
Damia censored the incident. Afra ignored it. Neither mentioned
it;
Damia because she wasn't going to get caught twice the same way;
Afra
because he didn't trust his mind.
Not only had Isthia left them a diet
sheet - easily digestible
foods
at first, graduating to some of her more esoteric and exotic
combinations
- but also she had left them a work sheet.
As her note
reminded
them, the cabin was not automated.
`Nothing to tax your energies but light
chores to keep the place
ticking
over and to combat boredom.' `I'm not sure that I like her
going
on about boredom,' Damia told Afra as they looked over the
roster.
Afra's eyes gleamed, but his finger
running down her cheek took
the
sting out of his words. `We both know
our quick-silver Damia,
restless,
curious -`I need rest,' and Damia pretended a haughty air,
`and I
got an overdose of curiosity too recently to indulge in another.
I shall vegetate, right along with you,
Afra Lyon!' `We are not
precisely
vegetating, love,' Afra said and demonstrated.
They were, however, scrupulous about
doing the various tasks
Isthia
had set: keeping the cabin neat and clean, tending the garden
planted
around it, weeding the vegetable plot, reinforcing the guard
fencing
to prevent forest Damia's eyes widened in protest. `But you
are
respected life from browsing the young plants, and fishing. The
lake
was stocked with many tasty varieties.
Damia liked fishing, liked the excuse to
sit beside Afra,
shoulders
and legs touching as they sat on the bank waiting for the
sparklers
to rise to the bait. The enforced
idleness of angling
permitted
Damia to satisfy her insatiable interest in every facet of
her
lover's childhood and early training, though she forcefully
denounced
such heartlessness.
`I guess I was a lot luckier in my
parents than I knew,' Damia had
to
admit when he had finished with his early childhood trials.
`Even being sent away as an infant to
Deneb?' Afra asked, his eyes
intent
on her expression She grimaced with chagrin.
`Yes, I was a
right
wagon, wasn't I?' `Heavy duty big daddy wagon.' `You don't have
to
agree!' `Why not? I knew what you admit
to.' `But you're not
supposed
to agree!' Afra chuckled. `If it's
true, why not? It's
perspective
that counts, love. It isn't that I
don't know your faults
as I
have tried to admit to mine - it's that I love you more because of
them.'
`Love me for my faults? How stupid!'
`Should I ignore them
because
I love you?' `Well .
`Nonsense. It's those odd quirks of yours that are endearing, not
your
very stellar qualities which I respect and admire. That could get
tedious
`You mean, boring?' Damia suggested, eyeing him speculatively
`No,
tedious, because then I'd have to watch everything I said and did,
trying
to be equally respectable and admirable.' and admired.' `By
you?'
His soft voice was entreating and his look made her melt.
`I think,' she said in a deliberate way,
playing with the long
fingers
that held one of her hands captive, `that I have always admired
and
respected you, Afra. You always
listened to me, even when I was a
baby. You always made me feel as if you had time
for no-one else in
the
Tower.' `That's true enough, love.
`Did you love me then as a baby?' Damia
could not quite erase the
wistfulness.
`I loved you as a baby, but as a man
loves an adorable, winsome
child. I love you now as a man loves a vibrant,
talented, sexually
aware
young woman.
`Love me then, do.
At first, they kept about the house. Afra taught Damia how to do
complicated
origami until she was almost as fast fashioning them as he
was. She taught him - or tried - to ride ponies
from the small herd
that
often drifted to the lake in the evening.
He had to keep his long
legs
either drawn up, nearly under his knees, or straight out on either
side of
the pony or they would drag on the ground.
Damia found either
position
hilarious but mastered her mirth rather than prejudice Afra
against
the ponies as transportation.
As physical strength returned, they
ranged wider; in part in
response
to the list of Isthia's chores. She was
keeping track of some
Earth
species which had been judiciously added to Deneb's ecology. One
such
species were breeding pairs of raptors which had been established
in the
rough hills above her cabin. Isthia
wanted to check on the
nests
and the success rate of fledging. With
her maps and backpacks of
food
and trail supplies, Damia and Afra took advantage of a fine bright
morning
to accomplish that task.
`You have the longest legs,' Damia told
him, somewhat admiring
them, lightly
haired, well-shaped, sinewy and tanned from long sunning.
`Nice knees.' `I can say the same of
yours, love,' he responded
equably.
`Can't I ever get a rise out of you?'
`Oh, you do indeed,' Afra
said
mischievously, `you do indeed.
`I
didn't mean that! But you never lose
your temper, or is that
your
Methody upbringing?' `Losing one's temper over a trifle would
definitely
be considered unmannerly,' he replied.
`Maybe I'm the one who should have been
raised by your parents,'
she
said with some exasperation.
`No, love, no!' he replied so fervently
that she turned to look at
him
over her shoulder and managed to collide with a tree. `Are you
hurt?'
`What? From that little bump?' she
demanded, annoyed with
herself
for being so clumsy. The sapling had
caught her from cheek to
knee
and the impact had stung. She rubbed
herself fiercely, gave the
tree a
pat. `I probably hurt it far
worse. Look, I've taken off all
its new
growth!' `Hmmm, so you have. Let's hope
Isthia does not
intimately
know every tree she planted.' Damia watched her way after
that,
wondering just how the bruises would come up.
But shortly she
was far
more interested in the beautiful landscape for they had left
the
sheltering belt of forestry and were out on the rough hillsides,
stepping
from rock to grassoid clump, or cutting through a bracken-like
vegetation
which, bruised by their hiking boots, gave off a pungent
astringent
odour.
They rested often, in deference to slack
muscles and their
convalescent
state, but by midday had reached the craggy outcroppings
where
the raptors had nested. Using the
high-power binoculars, Afra
located
the right cliff and the first nest `No birds, no egg shells.
Is that good?' He passed the glasses to
her `We might try looking
at the
base of the cliff,' she said after a careful sweep. `Seems to
me the
raptors clear the debris from the nest.' They had to climb over
uneven
ground to reach their objective but found nothing beyond
fragments
of shells and bones, many of those cracked for the marrow.
They pushed on to examine the other four
nests Isthia had listed
and
found two more before they came across a gushing mountain stream
where
they decided to eat their lunch. They
had appetite for
everything
they'd thought to bring, washed down by the clear cold water
of the
creek.
Then they went on, still climbing up the
tumbled greystone cliff.
When they finally came out on the height,
Damia paused and,
shielding
her eyes, turned slowly, taking in the panorama below and
almost
all around them.
`It's breathtaking,' Afra said. `I'd forgotten there could be so
much
world to see from one spot.
`It's a far cry from Callisto, that's for
sure, Damia replied.
`And yet,' she added loyally, `I'm fond
of that moon!
All the world I knew until I . . .` she cut off, frowning.
`What's wrong?' She was turned towards
the rise beyond the saddle
on
which they stood. She bit her underlip,
puzzled, twitching her
shoulders
restlessly.
`There shouldn't be any more. There shouldn't be any more here.
`Any more what?' `Well, I've got to go
see, don't I?' she said
enigmatically.
`See what, Damia? I can't read your mind, you know.' `You
don't
really
want to, Afra, but you'd best come see.' She started scrambling
up the
steep rock face and gestured for him to follow.
`what should! be looking for?' he asked tactfully.
`You should be sensing it,' she replied,
her tone almost angry.
`Beetle stuff. Don't you feel the `Sting-pzzzt?' he asked, half
amused.
`Yes,' and she was very angry, `the
sting-pzzzt. It's very loud.'
Afra
paused, trying to sense what she did.
`I hear insects buzzing.'
`No,
you feel Beetle metal. Look around, do
you see any insects up
this
high?' Now that Damia had mentioned it, he didn't, but she was
setting
quite a pace and he had to work to keep up with her. When they
reached
the top of the next rise, he looked about him expectantly but
Damia
turned right and started purposefully up the next slope and
abruptly
halted, staring at a groove in the fine grey granite - a
groove
that was not natural and from which protruded a ragged shaft of
metal.
The buzz that Afra had thought insectoid
was louder, and every
breath
he drew had a sharp metallic taste to it.
`Sting-pzzzt is really accurate, he said,
gazing down at the
artifact. Then he paced it out, along the impact split
in the rock.
`Fifteen metres visible.' He knelt down
and, somewhat gingerly,
poked
his finger at the nearest surface.
`Part of a hull?' `Looks like it,' Damia
replied, beginning to
take an
interest in it. `Pitted. I didn't think there'd be anything
left to
find. My Uncle Rhodri spent the last
nine years of his life
tracking
pieces down.' `This is a rather inaccessible spot,' Afra
observed.
Damia sighed. `We'd better get back and report this.' `Why? It's
been
here twenty-odd year' `One reports finds like this. And it's
awfully
near the fourth raptor nest.' `There'd be a problem?' Damia
shot
him an irritable glance. `Can't you
taste it in the air? Feel
it? Can you imagine what effect it would have on
hatchlings?' `There
is
one?' He curbed a growing irritation with her cryptic remarks. `I
may
have helped blast Beetles out of the sky but that contact was at an
exceedingly
long range.' `Well, there's nothing long range about the
way
this metal affects me,' she replied tersely and started to climb
down. `I can't get away from here fast enough.'
`Oh, is that what's
wrong
with us?' `Yes, indeed!' She snapped that out, almost spitting
the ds
at him. `Let's get away from here!' Her
tone was desperate.
He bit back an angry comment about how
fast she'd climbed to get
to the
artifact. Damia did not slow her
descent until they were back
at the
stream, panting for breath and sweating with exertion.
`I think that's far enough,' she said in
gasps and flopped down by
the
stream, to splash water on her face and neck and then grinning with
a
return of good humour, at him.
They both drank deeply, washing the
metallic aftertaste out of
their
mouths.
`Why did you let me eat all my lunch?'
Damia asked.
`I'm starving.' `I saw some berry
bushes,' Afra suggested.
`Hmm.
Good idea. Sorry about the
temper, Afra, but Beetle metal
really
agitates.' `What I find amazing is that it retains that effect
so
long.' Damia grinned. `Uncle Rhodri was
determined to find out why.
He wasn't sure if it was caused by
emanations of the alien ore or
vibrations
induced by the Beetles for defence. He
suspected the latter
since
it would be very difficult for attackers to approach the vessel
when
grounded.' `What was his final conclusion?' `Oh, he died before he
arrived
at one. High Command took over the
project. They're still
here. They're the ones I'll call when we get back
to the cabin.
C'mon.
Though Afra did not protest the brisk
pace Damia set back to the
cabin,
they were both exhausted when they got to the clearing. Afra
paused
long enough to get a drink but Damia went immediately to the
communit
and dialled the number.
`Damia Raven-Lyon,' she said to his
astonishment and delight,
`I've
found an artifact, buried in the hills above Isthia Raven's
cabin.'
She gave them the coordinates from Isthia's map. `Yes, it's
still
emanating. Couldn't leave the area fast
enough. You could land
a vtol
on the saddle below it. Yes, about
fifteen metres long, maybe
more. It buried itself into the ravine. Looks like hull.' She
grimaced. `Feels like hull. Yes, of course, we'll be here.' Afra
handed
her a cool juice drink as she replaced the handset.
`Damia Raven-Lyon?' he asked softly as he
slid an arm about her
shoulders
to pull her close.
She gave him a sideways glance, her blue
eyes sparkling in her
tired,
sweaty face.
`Well, it'll be obvious!' An officer rang
through, requesting
permission
to land at the cabin clearing. On the
porch to greet him,
Damia
and Afra saw the giant removal unit, the jagged hull piece
suspended
from massive cables, as it thumped ponderously east towards
the
naval research facility. One of the
escort vehicles peeled off and
landed.
`That was a grand find,' the
lieutenant-commander said, beaming
from
ear to ear as he presented himself and saluted smartly. `Thought
we'd
gathered up all the debris. Let us know
if you find anything
else,
will you?' Damia felt a convulsive shudder go down her backbone.
`We certainly will. Don't want so much as a sliver of that stuff
nearby.'
`How do you mitigate the effect, Commander?' Afra asked.
`What effect, sir?' The man was
surprised. `Oh, you'd be Talented
then.'
He gave them a slightly patronizing smile.
`Doesn't affect us
types
at all. But I'd heard it can be pretty
potent for sensitives.'
Fortunately
he turned away then, and trotted back to his skycar.
`The nerve ---` Damia began. `Potent for sensitives Indeed.'
Afra
chuckled. `At least we know we're
sensitive again.
Damia blinked. `I hadn't thought of that aspect.' Then her face
brightened. `D'you think that means we're healed?' `On
our way to it,
certainly.;
The dreaming began that evening. And,
at first, Damia did
ascribe
it to the alien metal. Yet these
weren't nightmares: more
pictures
imposed on her dreaming mind, a kaleidoscope of images. She
didn't
wake in an uneasy state of mind, but she could vividly recall
the
night's fantasies.
She did get in touch with Isthia,
mentioning the Beetle find and
its
effect on them.
`I would say that you are healing
well. Don't rush it, Damia.
Too much is at stake.' `We've been here
seven weeks.' `Bored yet?'
`Grandmother! I'm not bored. D'you want us to go back and see what
effect
the Beetle fragment had on the last nest on your list.
`Hmmm.
Yes, there could be problems.
Leave it until the next
good
rainstorm, let that taint wash away. You
don't need alien
pollution
at your stage of repair.' `Are you so eager to get back to a
Tower,
Damia?' Afra asked when she broke the contact.
She chuckled. `No, I'm not. Nor am I
bored. Isthia say `I heard
her-'
`Afra!' Concerned, Damia seized at his shoulder.
`I'm not deaf and Isthia was perfectly
audible without any
"sensitive"
assistance.
After two weeks of nightly episodes,
Damia was getting worried.
Her uncle had never been able to explain
how the Beetle metal
could
continue to emanate but he had insisted that all fragments be
contained
in shielded bunkers with six-foot walls of the toughest
plascrete. He had recommended that those with any
vestige of Talent be
barred
from the research compound. But the substance
of her nocturnal
images
held neither threat nor malice. In
fact, they seemed to repeat
in a
pattern, unusual enough in itself, and gradually the pattern
became
so predictable that Damia could step from one sequence to the
next .
as if she were turning pages.
Easing from their bed early one morning,
Damia slipped to the
kitchen
and dialled Isthia's number. Her
grandmother was an early
riser. Contact came on the third ring.
`Grandmother, did Uncle Rhodri ever
discover a long term
contamination
from Beetle metal?' `What do you mean exactly?' To Damia,
her
grandmother sounded so casually alert that she felt no further
reluctance
in bringing the phenomenon up.
`I've had dreams for the past two weeks,
ever since that hull
piece
was found, only they're not threatening, or evil, or particularly
unnerving. They are repetitions of the same images.
`What images?' And again Isthia's
detached query suggested to
Damia
that the phenomenon might not be limited to herself.
`I get a pleasant setting, then figures -
too distant and fussy to
be
described - coming up a long road to another group of six figures.
Both sets sit down.
The atmosphere is peaceful and it seems
to be as if the two groups
are
talking. Then the visitors, for that is
the impression I get of
them,
turn and go back the way they came to what looks like a vessel of
some
kind.' `What kind?' `I can't discern that, Isthia. I just
identify
it as a vehicle. An opening appears and
the visitors go in
it.
Then everything starts all over
again. Now, tell me that other
people
are having this same dream?' `I am,' Afra said, having entered
the
kitchen quietly.
`Afra says he is.' `That doesn't surprise
me, Damia. What does
surprise
me is that you two would be among those contacted.' `Those?
How widespread is this?' Damia wasn't
certain whether she was
relieved
or annoyed.
Isthia chuckled. `This time it's not just the females who're
getting
it.' `WHAT?' Damia beckoned urgently for Afra to come closer so
he
could hear what Isthia was saying.
`Well, your Uncle Ian as well as Rakella
and Besseva have been
having
much the same nightly visitations.
Yours are the clearest.'
`You
said "contact" a minute ago?' `I did, and that's what I think it
is now
that you've amplified what the others only guessed.' `I'm not
sure I
like this,' Damia said, noticing that her hand was beginning to
tremble. Afra put his arm about her waist, and the other
hand on her
shoulder,
steadying her.
She leaned back against him. `What does Jeran think?' `Ah, that's
it. Jeran isn't included in the chosen,' Isthia
said. `Of course, he
spends
most of his free time with a blonde he's courting.' `He's
serious?'
`I suspect so. When Jeran makes up his
mind, he's
unswervable.'
`Have you asked him to try?' `To dream requires sleep,'
Isthia
said pointedly.
Afra smothered his laugh in Damia's loose
hair, pressing his face
against
her neck which he then nibbled. She
jerked her shoulder,
giving
him a hiss to behave. He was totally
unrepentant.
`So what do we do? Have you told my parents?' `Hmmm, no, not
yet.
It's been too nebulous.' `I can also hear
what the Rowan and Jeff
would
say, Afra remarked, projecting his voice so Isthia heard him,
`about
a third Denebian Penetration.' `It's not penetration,' both
Damia
and Isthia said together.
`Really?' Afra regarded his lover with
quickened interest.
`An interesting reaction.
`Plainly dream-generated,' Isthia
added. `Look, since you've been
having
these visitations, and clearer ones than anyone else, I think
I'll
join you there, if you don't mind .
`If you wouldn't be bored sis the jibe.
`My dear, boredom has a certain appeal
for one who has never known
what it
was. Now, go get me some fresh fish for
lunch.' She broke the
contact.
`I'm not sure I like this,' Damia said,
replacing the handset.
`Why?' And Afra turned her around in his
arms, to hold her
comfortingly
against him. `I had no impression Damia
could not
recognise
danger or menace or jeopardy. As you
did, I had the feeling
of
visitation, a peaceful one.' Cushioned against her lover's body,
Damia
sagged against him, unconsciously seeking reassurance which he
willingly
gave.
`I'm not sure I'm up to another visitor,'
she said glumly.
She gave a second convulsive
shudder. `The last one cost us too
much.'
`What? My brave Damia sidestepping a
challenge?' `Your cautious
Damia
not rushing in, blind,' and her tone was sardonic.
`Let's see what Isthia says. Meanwhile, I could use some coffee,
and
maybe even some breakfast before we go fish for her lunch?' `You're
trying
to make light of this whole thing,' Damia accused, pushing away
from
him.
He disclaimed that immediately. `Far from it. The prudent would
examine
the whole imposed dream sequence with an open mind `If we're
allowed
. ù` Almost absently, Damia began to
prepare the coffee and
other
elements of a breakfast.
`We must be, if we've had the clearest
dreams `But they began the
night
we found that Beetle artifact `They did at that,' and Afra
frowned
over the coincidence as he took the skillet from her hand and
started
cooking the eggs. `We'd best weed that
front bed, too, or
Isthia
will have words about negligence.' It afforded Damia some relief
to yank
out weeds and fork up the soil to be sure she'd got the root
systems
as well. And, although Damia enjoyed
fishing, today it was
only a
way to pass time until Isthia came. As
is sometimes the case
when
one doesn't care, the fish bit well and they landed ten good-sized
white-bellies
before they realized they had more than enough. When
Isthia
arrived with both Ian and Rakella, they had just enough.
Afra hadn't seen Ian for quite a few
years and he was surprised at
how
much the young man resembled his older brother. Though he had not
quite
the same forceful personality, he had sufficient of the
inimitable
Raven charm.
`Niece, you've improved past all
recognition,' he said, dropping
the
flat black carrying case to warmly embrace Damia. After giving her
a
rib-cracking hug, he held out a hand to Afra.
His eyes were somewhat
paler a
blue than Jeff's but as full of vitality, good humour and
delight
in their company.
`I second that,' Rakella said, kissing
Damia's cheek.
`You were in a woeful state when you got
here. I helped nurse
you, or
did Isthia ever bother to mention that?' She did not bear much
resemblance
to her older sister, Isthia, but the family stamp was in
the set
of her eyes and her generous mouth.
`For that, my deep gratitude,' Damia
said, `for I've no
recollection
of much beyond the most thundering headache imaginable.'
Isthia
clapped her hands sharply together four or five times - claps
which
Damia heard echoing in her skull and proceeded to order them to
gather
at the dining table.
Damia noticed that she was also doing a
quick check of her
premises
as she shooed them into the dining-room.
`White gloves, Grannie?' `I wouldn't need
them,' Isthia replied
blithely. `Look, Ian has some sketches to show
you. See if you
recognize
anything from them.
`They're pretty vague,' Ian said,
obediently opening the portfolio
he had
brought with him. He slid pencilled
drawings out, across the
sleek
surface of the table, so that some faced Afra and others Damia.
`I don't always sketch what I dream but,
by the fourth or fifth
repetition,
I felt I had to.' Damia held up one, showing the long road
and the
two blurs of figures. `That's exactly
what I see, only, there
are at
least twenty figures advancing and only six receiving, as it
were.'
`Six?' Isthia looked pleased. `That's
us, counting in Besseva
who
couldn't come today.' `And we're all high Talents, aren't we?'
Damia
said, glancing at her grandmother for reassurance. Isthia gave a
wave of
her hand, dismissing Damia's self-doubt.
`Why isn't Jeran affected?' Ian asked
and, when Isthia smothered a
laugh,
he added. `Oh, I suppose that would
affect his judgement, if
not his
receptivity' `So what exactly is this?' Damia asked almost
petulantly.
`Has it anything to do with that nibbling
on the DEW net off
Procyon?'
Afra asked, startling Damia.
`What nibbling?' Afra regarded her
steadily for a moment. `Larak
mentioned
it. The Fleet had been sent to
investigate and found
nothing.'
`From Procyon to Deneb is a long distance, Ian said
thoughtfully. Damia caught her breath.
`True, but longer distances have been
covered recently,' Afra
replied
and Isthia nodded.
`And with devastating effect,' Damia
said, feeling a tense anger
and
denial building in her.
`Is it wrong to suppose that all . . . ah .
. . visitors have to
be
unfriendly?' Afra asked calmly, reaching under the table to put a
steadying
hand on Damia's leg.
`We've had more of the one than the
other,' Isthia replied mildly.
`I'd certainly prefer that Deneb wasn't
always the target.' `It
wasn't,'
Damia said in a flat hard voice.
`Two out of three are not good odds,'
Rakella said drily, `but are
we sure
what these dreams mean? That there's
some other species out
there,
asking to visit?' Isthia gave her sister a sharp look. `Is that
how
you'd put it?' `I think I would,' Rakella said after considering
her
reply. `The dreams have not been
threatening. They have been
quizzical. Yes, that's the word I want, quizzical. Like neighbours
who do
not wish to intrude but would like to make friends.
`I find myself in agreement with that,'
Afra said.
`And I,' said Ian.
Damia stared at the sketch, at the clump
of figures struggling up
the
hill towards those waiting at the summit.
She waved at the drawing. `I don't know if I want to understand
that. I don't know if I'm afraid of what we will
discover.' `That, at
least,
is honest,' Isthia said but there was approval in her
expression.
`Only a fool doesn't learn by mistakes,'
Damia said in a bitter
tone
and felt Afra's fingers tighten, this time warningly, on her
thigh. `Well, we should profit by my mistake in
this. They seem to be
offering
something, too.
`On the contrary, Damia, Sodan offered
nothing. And he took
subtly
and brutally - all your energy, your strength, and your
perception,'
Afra said, his tone very gentle, his eyes entreating her
forgiveness
for his candid words.
She stiffened, catching her breath until
she could not deny the
love,
encouragement and understanding which flowed into her mind from
all
those around the table.
Afra's fingers dug into her thigh,
rousing her from her bleakness.
`And my brother,' she added. `Why should we believe this - this
intruder
is any different?' `Well, for one thing, whoever they are have
had the
courtesy to request admission into this system,' Isthia said.
`That's my interpretation of the dream
sequences.
`Who - what - are they?' Damia asked bluntly.
`We'd all like some reassurance on that
score,' Isthia said. `On
the way
out here, Ian, Rakella and I worked out a plan. Ian's willing
to be
subject and Rakella and I will implant a response to the dream
sequence
which ought to give our visitors - not invaders, I think - an
answer
to their query Damia regarded her young uncle with admiration
and
some consternation. He was by no means
as strong a Talent as she
was,
nor had he spent much time developing his innate Talent. But she
held
back her protest. She had no wish to
tempt a repetition of the
Sodan
affair. She did give Isthia a long and
worried look.
`Shouldn't we inform Earth Prime?' she
asked.
`I'd rather we had something more
concrete than a nebulous pattern
of
dreams,' Isthia replied. `Jeff's still
trying to calm everyone
down,'
and then she laughed, `and help Cera deal with the Procyons who
feel
she is far too young to be responsible for that system `Cera's the
most
responsible of us all,' Damia said indignantly.
`Exactly,' Isthia said, smiling at her
granddaughter. `But you
can
quite appreciate why we must be circumspect with this latest-' She
jiggled
her hand, searching for the appropriate word.
`Flap?' Afra suggested blandly `Flap'll
do. There're only the six
of us,
having the dreams. Now if more had been
involved - even just
Jeran-'
`Good al' prosaic Jeran,' Ian said disparagingly and Damia
suppressed
a giggle.
`Isn't he just,' Isthia said at her
mildest. `At any rate, until
I feel
we have sufficient evidence to require an alert of any degree, I
think
we keep this among ourselves.' She sent a querying look around
the
table. `Very well then.
We'll proceed with Plan A. And when is
lunch going to be ready?'
Of them
all that evening, Ian seemed the most relaxed as he submitted
to the
hypnotic session, woke, joked that he didn't remember a thing,
and ate
a huge supper, consumed most of a bottle of Isthia's treasured
pre-Beetle
vintages before taking himself off to his bed.
During the
afternoon,
Afra and Damia had brought two conformable chairs into Ian's
room
where Isthia and Rakella could be comfortable during their vigil.
Damia had been generous to her own wine
glass at dinner but she
found
it difficult to relax once she and Afra had gone to bed. She
couldn't
find a comfortable position though she tried several as
surreptitiously
as possible, not wanting to rouse Afra.
`I can't sleep either,' Afra said, though
even his quiet tone
startled
her in the dark room. He turned her on
to her back and
gathered
her into his long body. `Shall I sing
you a lullaby?' `I'm
not a
baby any more, to be lulled asleep by a song, she protested but
she did
not resist his comfort and settled her head on his chest.
To her surprise, not only did he begin to
sing softly but also he
rocked
her gently against him. And, before she
could protest his
nonsense,
her eyes got too heavy to remain open and her mind darkened
responsively.
This time she seemed to be awake even as she started the
visitors'
dream
sequence. And Ian's drawings became
part of it - part of it,
expanded
by it and interpreted in it.
The long uphill road was a dark one, many
stars above it, passing
by in
an endless stream. A small globe
appeared and the visitors
abruptly
stopped their upward progress.
Then, very carefully, several visitors
picked the globe up and put
it to
one side for it apparently impeded their forward progress. Then
the
file of visitors became twenty separate figures: long, thin, with
spindly
anterior segments which propelled them and upper extremities
which
were held forward in entreaty. The
dream seemed endless to the
sleeping
Damia and she felt exhausted by its length, fervently wishing
for
action. There had been some before.
The visitors had reached the top of the
hill and met the six.
The six also extended long, thin limbs
but, though they advanced a
few
steps towards the visitors, no real progress seemed to be made in
establishing
a contact.
Contact!
Damia woke with a start, sitting bolt upright in the
bed.
What is it, Damia? Afra asked her, and the question was
repeated
by
Isthia.
We aren't making contact. They wish to make contact.
Then she covered her face with her hands
and dropped her head to
her
bent knees, shuddering violently. She
felt Afra's arms enfolding
her and
she leaned into his protective clasp.
`It's all right, Damia,' Isthia said, gliding
into the room.
`What did Ian dream? Did your plan work?' Afra asked her.
`I don't know yet, she said, sitting down
on the side of the bed
and
stroking her granddaughter's hair.
`It's all right, pet.
`I'm not a child any more, Grandmother,'
Damia murmured and gave
one
last shudder before she looked up.
`It's contact they want, though. Afra?' He shook his head. `I
only
dreamt the usual sequence.
When Ian finally woke the next morning,
he had done no more than
that. `I tried, Mother,' he said ruefully. `I knew I had something to
tell
them all night long but I couldn't get a word in edgewise.' Damia
felt
close to panic and that must have shown in her face for both
Isthia
and Afra moved to touch her reassuringly.
`I don't want this,' she told them, `I
don't want any part of it.'
Then,
before she could see the pity in their faces, she slammed out of
the
house and down the narrow track to the lake.
She had been sitting for a long time in
her favorite fishing site
before
Afra joined her. She could hear him
coming, `heard' his
anxiety,
too.
`I'm a coward, Afra,' she murmured when
he reached her spot. He
hunkered
down beside her and his `concern' was a shield between her and
the
reality she wanted to escape.
`No, but you're understandably
cautious. I think we ought to
inform
Jeff, especially when you had such a definite response.
`It was Ian who was supposed to get
one. I'd rather it was he,
anyway. I didn't handle the last one very well.'
`Isthia doesn't want
you to
handle this one at all,' Afra said, a little ripple of amusement
in his
voice.
Surprised, she looked up at him. `And?' `Despite what you may
think
of your initial attempts at establishing contact with an alien
life
form, you handled the actual link extremely well.' `You have the
nerve
to tell me that?' Shock poured through her and she stared at Afra
as if
she had learned nothing of the man in the past two months.
`Telling the truth doesn't require nerve,
love,' he said with a
little
laugh. `The problem lay in Sodan and
his long-term plans, not
in your
management.
`I don't believe what I'm hearing.
`You should,' Afra said blandly. `You had bridged a communication
gap and
had established frames of reference.
You've always had that
gift. Look at how well you get on with barque
cats, Coonies and the
pony. Not to mention how good you were at
teaching. Or have you
forgotten
Teval Rieseman?' "`Friends don't throw rocks"!' `These may be
friends. And you have to learn their language to
translate their
message.
Damia took in a long breath, held it,
seeking that younger
so-self-confident
self. Sodan had damaged more of her
essential being
than
she'd realized.
`He has certainly robbed you of
self-esteem and confidence,' Afra
said. `I'd hate to think he'd won on that vital
count.' She stared at
him,
her beloved with whom she had shared so much, and here he, Afra
the
cautious Capellan, was suggesting that she -`You're the only one of
us who
could make the contact they wish-' `But-' `I'm serious, Damia,'
and
Afra nodded his head urgently, `you're the only one capable of
doing
it.' `Only if you're with me `That plea came out of her mouth
before
she could stop it.
`I'd insist on inclusion.' I'll be
coming, too, Isthia said.
Are we allowed to think again? Damia asked sarcastically I
applaud
it.
Was that what your clapping meant? Afra asked as he locked eyes
with Damia.
They were both answered by Isthia's
laugh.
I had to be certain you'd obey my
injunction, so I added a
deterrent. Please come back to the house, Damia,
Afra. Her request
bore no
hint of command.
Sighing at the inevitable, Damia got to
her feet and, with Afra's
long
fingers twined in hers, made her way back to the house.
`Are we telling Earth Prime now?' Damia
asked as they joined
Isthia
in the kitchen. Neither Rakella nor Ian
were present.
`No, not yet.
`Is that wise, Isthia?' Afra asked.
Isthia leaned forward across the table,
still littered with Ian's
sketches. `Look, you two, I have survived two
invasions of a highly
inimical
force, bent on total destruction. I do
believe I can tell the
difference
when - ah - visitors do come in peace.' `Remembering that
the
reason for most stellar travel is to provide colonists and mineral
wealth
for the explorers?' Damia asked cynically.
`I don't have much precognitive Talent,'
Isthia surprised them by
saying,
`but what I have is straining to make that contact. Ian's
dream
last night did have one positive result,' and she flicked one of
the
drawings on the table towards them, `if you'll notice the stars?'
Damia
drew the sheet towards her, frowning, for the seemingly random
scatter
of stars gradually became familiar to her.
`These are the constellations above Deneb
!` `Exactly. And this
globe
has protuberances suspiciously like the DEW sensors beyond the
heliopause.'
`Oh,' and Damia's single syllable came out on a long sigh
of
denial `That's not so far to take a personal capsule. Is it?'
Isthia
asked softly.
`No,' Afra replied equably. `Damia went much further than the
heliopause
to reach the Sodan entity.
`I'm not sure,' and Damia spaced her
words carefully, `that I
could
go that far again.' `Ah, but you won't be going by yourself,
pet,'
Isthia said comfortably.
`I shouldn't be going at all.' `That's
why you must,' Afra said,
gently
pushing his index finger into the soft part of her arm. She
felt
not only the vibrancy of cool-green but a resolution she could not
fight. She'd been terribly wrong once, and Afra had
suffered. Afra
and
Larak. She must trust Afra now if his
feeling was that strong.
Isthia was shaking her head slowly. `I wish we had a reliable way
to
convey a response.
`What do you mean, Isthia?' Afra asked.
`I mean, I send a message by Ian and
Damia gets the answer.
`Send the question by Damia then.' `If
Damia doesn't mind ` Isthia
looked
hopefully at her granddaughter and Damia conceded gracefully.
`Then we'll try it tonight.' `Why wait
until tonight?' asked Afra.
`Sleep seems to be the vector,' Isthia
said.
Afra chuckled. `Then Damia can go to sleep.
`I what?' Afra rose,
took
Damia by the hand and, with a perplexed Isthia following, stalked
out to
the corner of the porch where the hammocks swayed gently in the
breeze.
Afra sat Damia down in one, picked her
feet up and motioned for
her to
get comfortable while he set the hammock swaying.
`I can put Damia to sleep any time,' he
said, grinning broadly.
`Now, wait a minute-' but Damia's protest
was cut off as Afra
began
to croon the same song he'd sung her to sleep with the night
before. She had no choice in the matter but her last
outraged thought
was
that she'd settle this with him when next she was awake.
The sequence started instantly, only this
time Damia took control
and, as
the visitors made their way up the hill, she separated a figure
from
those at the top and walked it down towards the visitors. She
stopped
it at the globe. Then, beckoning
broadly to them, she urged
them to
follow her back up the hill. She was
then back at the start of
the
dream and repeated her reassurance, to be sent back to the
beginning
at which point she was becoming rather annoyed that they
couldn't
get so simple a message.
She woke up grumpy, her head foggy with
sleep.
`Afra Lyon, you stop doing that to me,'
she said, shaking a finger
under
his nose.
`Works, though, doesn't it?' He was not
the least bit repentant.
`How?' asked Isthia, mystified, but she
regarded Afra with
considerable
respect.
`Goes back to when Damia wouldn't sleep
at night.
The daycare Talent and I used a prudent
post-hypnotic suggestion
and,
with a bit of rocking and a line or two of a lullaby, Damia would
drop
off to sleep just fine for her mother' `And it has lasted this
long?'
Damia was incredulous.
`I've proved it. Mind you,' and Afra's voice held the note
that
meant
he was teasing, `I wish I'd been fore thoughtful on other
matters.
`As well you weren't,' Damia said
direfully.
He helped her up out of the hammock and
hugged her.
`So, tell us what happened?' Isthia
asked, getting back to the
more
important matter.
`I told them we'd meet them at the DEW,
and indicated that we'd
welcome
them. That's what you wanted, wasn't
it?' Isthia nodded her
enthusiasm. `Now, do we get Jeran 5
assistance?' `We'd have to explain
everything,' Damia said with an
exaggerated
groan. `You know how Jeran is. A, B, C and D!' `Damia,
did you
feel threatened by the dream?' Afra asked, no hint of levity in
his
expression.
`No.
I'd like to believe Isthia's intuition is correct.' `Like to
believe?'
Isthia asked.
Afra held up his hand. `That's fair, Isthia.
`I suppose so. Well, let's tell Ian and Rakella. We'll need
their
help anyway.' The one vehicle at Deneb Tower which could carry
three
long bodies was a medium-sized rescue pod with four conformable
seats. It had probably been left behind by a liner
for its engine was
missing
but it still had working directional thrusters. They put in
fresh
oxygen tanks and dusted down the console, rather pleased to have
a
vehicle that had standard communications as well as a viewplate and
external
sensors. Jeran was not on duty, which
was no problem as Ian
and
Rakella knew how to run up the generators.
Damia could feel her
palms
sweating and her stomach was griping badly as she settled herself
into
her chair, Isthia on one side, Afra just behind her.
`I'll make the lift,' Isthia said,
settling her hips deeper into
the
seat. `You're completely cured, Damia,
but you save your strength
for the
contact.' Damia had a moment of panic for that decision, but
Isthia
had never lied to her and probably wasn't now.
It just would
have
been so reassuring to push off again, as she used to do so
blithely.
You could now, too, love, said Afra in a
fine thin tone.
He reached forward to give her shoulder a
reassuring squeeze.
Relax!
She was quivering with tension and forced
herself to unwind. She
could,
however, sense the rising keen of the generators and felt Isthia
tense
as she waited for exactly the right mo She launched them, a good
strong
thrust that Damia could objectively admire.
It was good to be
in deep
space again. And then the pod's proximity
alarm beeped
urgently.
`Bring up the screen, Damia, Afra said,
leaning forward to peer
over
her shoulder, `There it is!' cried Isthia, unnecessarily pointing,
her
expression exultant.
`It' was not a large ship, which
immediately encouraged Damia to
believe
in amicable motives. `It' was also a
deep-space craft, having
the
usual haphazard design of ships that were never intended to land.
It did have what looked very much like
weaponry: wide-mouthed
orifices
that were stained with old fires and long snouts pointing
outwards
and looking effective.
Ian, turn off the DEW, Isthia said. We don't want the Fleet
charging
out here and blowing us and our visitors up.
Yes, that bunch
of
toggles under the red rimmed glass panel.
Turn `em all off. The
disconnection
won't show up for an hour or two.
At which time we'll know one way or the
other `I think I have to
go to
sleep again,' Damia said drily.
`Will just the song do it, Afra? These seats aren't made for
rocking.'
`I could rock the pod,' offered Isthia.
`We'll try without that, thank you,' Afra
said and, with his hand
on
Damia's shoulder, began to sing the potent lullaby.
She knew she was shaking her head as
sleep once more claimed her.
The pattern was gone. Instead she was inside the other ship,
looking
out at her tiny cargo pod. This time
other figures were
clearly
visible and they were definitely alien.
Despite their unusual appearance, she
could sense no danger,
nothing
`heavy', only relief. The `visitors'
looked to be tall though
she had
no gauge by which to compare them, save the bulky equipment.
They did not sit, but stood on the three
rear appendages, stubby
legs
which ended in splayed feet with three thick `toes'. The upper
limbs
had five longer digits, one on each side of a squat `palm' and
three
along its top. The heads were long,
tapering to what appeared to
be a
muzzle but she could not see a mouth.
One eye of a composite
nature
crowned the thick `head'. There seemed
to be dorsal ridges
along
the backbone. Maybe one of the three
feet was actually a caudal
appendage.
Their skin or pelt, she couldn't discern
which, was sleek and
varicoloured,
ranging from greys through green, brown and a slaty blue.
Some were definitely taller than others
but she didn't think the
smaller
ones were immature or of another sex.
Instantly her dream self turned towards a
flat surface, set at a
distance
above the deck. This surface abruptly
lit up and images began
to
form. More of this species, racing to
enter what she had to
identify
as shuttles.
These took off into space and she watched
them link up with larger
versions
of the ship she was dreaming on. In a
massed array, this
fleet
left its orbit, obviously in battle readiness.
To her shock, she saw their objective: a
Beetle Hive Sphere. She
watched
the battle, saw `her' ships being destroyed, saw the Hive
Sphere
send its fighters out, watched them being destroyed and then,
with
great relief, saw the Hive ship suddenly explode, sending huge
chunks
spinning off, sometimes colliding with `her' ships and
demolishing
them.
Abruptly those scenes segued into huge
fragments turning end over
end
against . -- Suddenly the background
changed and it was the
Denebian
system from which the twisted detritus escaped.
Then all the dream figures turned inwards
to face her and she was
overwhelmed
with a sense of urgency, of interrogation, of fear.
In
yet another wrench of perspective, she was back in the pod,
crying
out.
`They know about the Beetles. I saw them destroy a Hive. Then
there
was all this debris spinning in space, away from Deneb.' She
turned
first to Isthia and then to Afra for a reassuring interpretation
of what
she'd seen.
`Are they warning us then?' asked Isthia.
`No, they know we've been attacked and
survived, as they have
survived,'
Damia said, choosing her words slowly.
`Then what do they want of us now?'
Isthia wanted to know.
`Just don't put me back to sleep again,'
Damia said flatly,
rubbing
at her temples.
`It seems an admirable way of
communicating between species,' Afra
said,
teasingly, but he patted her arm sympathetically.
`The universe doesn't have to be full of
species who are
inimical,'
Isthia said. `Perhaps what these folk
need are allies
against
the Hives. We've survived an attack so
we'd make good allies.'
`They've
certainly gone to great lengths to explain,' Damia admitted.
She was beginning to believe that Isthia
could be right. Her mind
had not
been overwhelmed or raped during this closer encounter. They
had
managed to convey vital information.
`Isthia, can you put me into a hypnotic
sleep?' Afra asked. `I
was
part of both mind-merges: the first Rowan focus, and then the
B-Raven
section that sent the Hive Sphere into the sun. I can at least
give
them our battle account.' Then he settled himself in the
conformable
and linked his hands across his thin waist.
Damia had an impulse to protest but
Isthia unfastened her safety
harness
and drifted to Afra, holding herself down with one hand while
she
placed the other firmly on his left temple.
Afra seemed to
collapse
into sleep.
She turned to look out at the visitors'
ship, now noticing how
pitted
its surface was, how worn and scratched the symbols on what she
took to
be its bow. There were other ideograms
elsewhere, some more
legible
than others. A complicated language
rendered in bars and dots
and
occasionally cross strokes. Not as
complex as some of Earth's
oriental
scripts, if that was the right word for them.
`How long did I sleep that last time,
Isthia?' `About half an
hour. I didn't think to time it,' she said,
floating back to her own
chair. `Fascinating. Absolutely fascinating.' Then she let out a big
sigh. `I suspect my son is going to be vastly
annoyed with his old
mother,'
and the eyes she turned on Damia hadn't the slightest gleam of
repentance. `I really should have taken training much
earlier. I
could
have been Deneb's Prime.' Damia regarded her grandmother with
wonder,
`We tend not to make the most of our chances,' she went on.
Extending a hand, she lightly touched
Damia's arm.
`Make the most of yours, dear child. But then, you are, aren't
you?'
`Do you think they are emissaries of an altruistic species?' `I'm
quite
attached to that notion,' Isthia said comfortably. `I wish we'd
thought
to bring some provisions.' Damia laughed.
`This was sort of a
scramble. Oh ho!' Her throat went too dry for more
words and she could
only
point at the vessel which was clearly moving under power.
`Let's get out of its way,' Isthia said
and frantically reached a
hand
out to Damia.
Damia, following Isthia's thought, pushed
the pod back so
forcefully
that the vessel became only a darkness.
`Not that far `It's following us,' Damia
decided after a moment's
observation. `What is Afra telling them to do?' `Come on
in, the
water's
fine,' Isthia replied facetiously.
`This must be the right way to handle
this.
`I thought it was, too.
`This time it is right, Damia.' `Yes, it
is,' Afra said, though
his
words were slightly slurred. `At least
I have extended the
invitation. I've no gauge to guide me but they appeared
to be amazed
at how
we conduct our battles. I think that's
a good impression to
give
them `Now, what do we do?' Damia asked, watching as the alien
vessel continued
to close with them.
`Now, we inform Earth Prime that we have
concluded opening talks
with an
alien species,' said Afra so calmly that Damia knew he was very
nervous.
Deneb Prime Jeran gave them a prolonged
demonstration, at the top
of both
lungs and mind, of what they might expect from Earth Prime.
The local Fleet Commander appeared at the
Tower, apoplectic to
have
found an alien ship orbiting the planet when the warning system
hadn't
so much as burped.
I TOLD YOU WHY IT IS NECESSARY TO PURSUE
THIS COURSE OF ACTION,
Afra
roared with such vehemence that Isthia and Damia regarded him with
astonishment. Cut off in mid-spate by Afra's
uncharacteristic bellow,
Jeran
glared at the Capellan.
`You had no authority to do so,' Jeran
said in a terse tone,
clipping
his words; expression and stance illustrating his indignation.
`He obeyed me,' Isthia said calmly and
took the conformable seat.
Ian and Rakella were still backed in the
corner where they had
retreated
from Jeran's angry harangue.
Somewhat to her surprise, Damia could
regard the scene with
objective
detachment - or perhaps, she amended, she was merely too
stunned
by the whole episode to be able to react.
Jeran turned on Isthia. `Grandmother,' he began.
`Did you bother to inform Jeff or have
you just been enjoying this
exhibition
of vituperation too much?' Isthia had a distinct gift for
putting
people in their places.
`I have first,' Jeran said in a loud voice,
enunciating very, very
clearly,
`to ascertain just what has transpired before I can send a
rational
report. They,' and he jerked his head
at his uncle and
great-aunt,
gave me some boodle-hoop about dreams and being called.
Dreams, and his scorn would have
scarified a lesser personality
than
Isthia Raven, `hardly constitute an intelligent reason for
admitting
strangers past our perimeter defences.' `The dreams
constituted
a contact which cleverly surmounted a language barrier,'
Afra replied,
`and provided us with sufficient information to wish to
investigate
more thoroughly, up to and including personal
confrontation.'
Jeran stared at him, his nostrils flaring, fists on his
belt,
one foot tapping as he struggled to leash his temper.
`Between Isthia, Afra and myself,' Damia
said coolly, rather
delighted
to see her phlegmatic brother moved to temper, `you must
admit,
Jeran, that we would have experience in recognizing threat.
This species does not pose one. In fact, hostility is furthest
from
their thoughts. Their worlds have
suffered from Hive attacks.
They urgently desire to know how we
repelled the Leviathan.' `As I
was
part of that assault, I explained how we contrived,' Afra went on
conversationally. `The Mrdinis were very impressed that we had
needed
no
recourse to armaments to destroy it.' Jeran rolled his eyes, noting
the
distraught expression on the commander's face.
`That was even
stupider,
Afra.
Giving away information about our defence? That's the most
horrendous
breach of security that --- that - Words failed him.
WE'RE COMING IN, and Jeff's words rang in
everyone's ears. Damia
had to
blink, because her father's bellow did not reverberate in her
head. She glanced anxiously at Afra who closed one
eye in reassurance.
You see, you can even take my son's
bellow without wincing, Isthia
said in
a finely-tuned thought. I did make one
slight error though,
and
Damia and Afra turned to her in surprise for her expression was
fleetingly
rueful. I set a sending constraint in
your minds so you
wouldn't
inadvertently `path, but I didn't restrict receiving. Never
thought
you would be in receipt of anything.
Everyone knew not to
`path
you until I gave permission.
So that's how we were able to receive the
Mrdinis' dreams, Damia
said
and hid her smile behind her hand. How
reassuring to know that
you can
be fallible, Grandmother.
The opposite would make you unbearable,
Afra added with no
rancour.
`I simply don't understand your reasoning
in this,' Jeran was
saying,
`any of you. Especially you, Damia,
since you nearly-' WE
WON'T
GO INTO THAT,JERAN! Jeff's forceful
words echoed and Jeran bowed
his
head, scowling blackly at the floor, around him, at anything but
his
sister.
Jeran didn't have to say it out loud,
Damia thought bleakly,
though
she was grateful to her father for stopping him.
The Mrdinis are an entirely separate
affair, Isthia said gently.
Entirely, Afra added and twined his
fingers in hers.
Damia shifted restlessly, knowing that
Jeran would not be the last
to
remind her of that Sodan stupidity.
When Afra also edged slightly
in
front of her, Damia realized his intention.
It wouldn't be the
first
time he had protected her from her father's censure but this time
she
would take her fair share so she eased forward to close the gap.
Abruptly the largest cradle in the Tower
yard held one of the fast
Fleet
courier vessels and the orbital alarms indicated the emergence of
four
large ships in space above them.
`They are upset,' Isthia murmured,
grinning.
Damia envied her grandmother that superb
self-confidence but,
oddly
enough, she began to feel more positive about her part in this
encounter.
Wearing a ferocious scowl, Jeff `ported
into the Tower, the Rowan
beside
him. The next few seconds were full of
such heated exchanges of
accusation,
refutation and explanation that Rakella, never a strong
Talent,
folded against Ian, moaning.
`Oh, do cool it, Jeff,' Isthia said
commandingly, her blue eyes
flashing
with a reciprocal outrage. `I most
certainly do want you and
the
Rowan to enter into discussion with the Mrdinis. That's what
they're
here for. Both Afra and Damia support
my evaluation that these
are
allies, not aggressors. We exhibited
reciprocal good faith by
inviting
them within our defences.' `That's why I'm raging, Dad.
Letting aliens into Deneb's skies is
totally irrational!' Jeran
exclaimed,
gesturing wildly. `We haven't yet got
over the psychic
scars
of the Beetle Penetration and then my grandmother-' `One unarmed
vessel? One small unarmed vessel is no threat. It is usually regarded
as an
emissary,' Isthia replied, her patience fraying. `Oh, do be
sensible,
Jeff.' `Sensible is using the channels and procedures that
are set
up to deal with occurrences of this sort, Mother,' Jeff began,
his
temper only just contained.
`Wait a moment, Jeff,' the Rowan said
thoughtfully, `Isthia may
have
acted impetuously but I can sense the Mrdinis.
They are very
open. I'm not getting a shred of hostility from
their minds and
there's
certainly nothing "heavy" on this alien ship.' Her glance slid
across
Damia and back to Jeff. `I'd know,' she
added gently, putting
her
hand on Jeff's arm so that the contact would emphasize the
impressions
she had lust gained from her mental probe.
Jeff regarded his wife for a long moment
and then the anger seemed
to
drain out of him. He gestured to Jeran
to relax and smiled
reassuringly
at the pallid Rakella whom Ian was supporting.
`Who made first contact?' he asked,
looking from his mother to
Afra
and then Damia, where his gaze lingered.
`We all had contact,' Isthia said,
`though Damia's was the
clearest.
Jeff nodded, accepting the statement
without challenge.
`I put a restraint on them `pathing,'
Isthia went on, in a
slightly
apologetic tone, `but I forgot to inhibit receipt.
Damia would, of course, be both more
receptive and more vulnerable
in
post-convalescence.' Isthia shrugged.
`After two weeks of nightly
dream
sequences, I had to accept the fact that the pattern could not be
random,
had to be an imposition. I couldn't
establish a source for it.
I was more than surprised when first
Rakella, Besseva, then Ian,
and
finally Damia and Afra informed me that they were also receiving
similar
sendings.' Jeff turned to Jeran expectantly: his eldest son
shook
his head.
`I can't imagine why Jeran didn't
receive, too,' Isthia remarked
drolly. `But he didn't. We six got together, to compare notes, and
tried
to figure out a response to what was patently a friendly
overture. Damia volunteered.' When the Rowan looked apprehensive,
Isthia
raised her hand in a placating gesture, I would scarcely undo
the
patient work of several months, Angharad.
Knowing the martial
mind, I
decided that we'd check as far as we were able to. The Fleet
takes
so long to mobilize, doesn't it! So we
made visual contact,
established
communications and extended an invitation to the
emissaries. Now you, Fleet and the League can handle
future
negotiations.'
She let out a sigh as she propelled herself out of the
chair. `Now, it's been a busy few hours and I look
forward to some
unstructured
sleep. Come, Damia, Afra! We'll all rest better back at
the
cabin. I don't want you exposed to the
emotional levels that will
shortly
be rampant around here.' Then she turned to Ian and Rakella.
`You two come as well. You look as shagged as I feel. See you
later,
dears,' she said, blithely flinging her fingers at Jeff and the
Rowan.
`Come on!' and she imperiously gestured
for obedience to her
orders.
`Dad, Mother,' Damia said with a
tentative farewell smile.
As soon as Isthia had admitted to
fatigue, Damia had felt it
creeping
along her nerves. Not disastrously,
merely informing her that
rest
was a good idea. Swift on that thought,
she felt Afra's agreement
and
they both `pathed back to the cabin's main room. Isthia, Ian and
Rakella
arrived more prudently on the lawn and joined them inside.
`Plainly you've recovered when you can
`port that neatly,' Isthia
said
with an approving nod. `Now, what shall
we have for lunch?' Jeff
and the
Rowan asked permission to join them late that evening.
`Damia, Afra, we've got to whip up a
meal,' Isthia said with a
show of
energy. `Neither of them have eaten all
day.
I wonder if we have anything left after
that mountain Ian and
Rakella
put away at noon.' Damia scurried about the kitchen, checking
what
was available, remembering that her father was only out of temper
when he
was hungry. He may have absolved them
of an impulsive act in
contacting
the Mrdinis, but she was certain that some reckoning was
due.
Jeff doesn't hold grudges, love, afra
murmured, winking at her.
`Shall I uncork some of that excellent
mountain white of yours,
Isthia?'
Isthia grinned. `Clever Afra.' Five
minutes later, the two
Primes
arrived on the lawn and, daringly, Damia `felt' for their mood.
Both her mother and father were tired but
their public thoughts
were
tinged with a satisfaction that bordered triumph.
`Well?' Isthia said, handing each a glass
of the chilled white
wine as
they reached the porch. She gestured
for them to be seated
while
Damia offered the small hot pastries she had managed to prepare.
Jeff took a sip of the wine, smiled and
nodded appreciatively at
his
mother.
`One of these days, Isthia Raven, you're
going to land out on a
limb I
can't get you off of,' he said and then he relented.
Isthia looked smug. `I told you they were not hostile.
Did you have pleasant dreams?' she added
slyly.
Jeff laughed and even the Rowan began to
smile.
`A novel but effective means of
communication. You should be
astonished
to learn, Mother, that we also got Commander Curran in on
one
conference. . . with Rowan doing the
hypnotic link.
The Rowan chuckled. `I don't know who was more surprised, him,
me
or
them. But the conference sank all his
irs, ands and buts.' `So you
can now
support our contention of their peaceful intentions?' Isthia
asked.
`Indisputably,' Jeff said, leaning back
in his chair.
`Commander Curran will so inform High
Command and put forth an
urgent
request for priority conferences.' Then Jeff looked keenly at
Damia. She returned his gaze calmly, keeping a firm
grip on her
emotions
and hectic thoughts.
`They asked for you, Damia.' `It's too
soon . . .` the Rowan
began.
`No, it isn't,' Isthia said, smiling to
soften her contradiction.
`There's nothing wrong with Damia's mind,
I assure you. She is
completely
recovered. So is Afra.' Damia glared at
her grandmother for
the sly
smile on her face.
`I'm relieved to hear that the Rowan
began again and then broke
off,
staring at her daughter.
Damia felt her mother's mental `nudge',
verifying Isthia's medical
clearance,
felt her mother's inability to get past her shields, `heard'
her
mother's annoyance alter to irritation.
`Possibly you will also be relieved,'
Afra said as he moved to
stand
behind Damia, his hands lightly clasping her shoulders. She
could
feel the intensity of his emotions and knew that he had opened
his
mind, and his heart, to the two Primes.
` to know that Damia and I
enjoy a
meeting of minds.' Her mother turned white and her hands
grasped
the arms of her chair as she stared back at them. Damia
received
a shaft of denial coloured by a sense of betrayal before the
Rowan
exerted a clamp on her emotions. Her
father did not have quite
so
violent a reaction but surprise was uppermost in his mind, and
consternation,
before he closed off.
`The bonding is remarkably complete,'
Afra went on in his quiet
voice. Only Damia knew that he was trembling, for
she could feel it
through
his hands on her shoulder.
Once she would have been defiant and hurt
that her parents had
shut
their minds to her. `Though I have
known my own heart on this
score
since Damia returned from Deneb, I could do nothing until she
recognized
in me a genuine suitor.' `I do not feel alone any more,
Mother,'
Damia said with gentle intensity.
`Please understand that.
You should understand that!' `But with
Afra?' cried the Rowan.
To everyone's amazement, Jeff started to
chuckle, rubbing the side
of his
face in a restless gesture and shaking his head. Then his
chuckle
became more relaxed and his shoulders shook with genuine mirth.
`How often, Rowan dear, have we told Afra
that he should form an
alliance?
How often have we tried to find the right
person for him?
Not to mention trying to pair Damia off
to any young, and Jeff
emphasized
the adjective, `Talent we could find.
Come, now, Rowan love,' and he leaned
across the distance that
separated
them, `it's a surprise, even a bit of a shock, but who better
than
Afra? If you consider it objectively?'
Jeff rose then, and took
the few
steps to the couple.
He kissed his daughter in the most
benevolent fashion though he
also
subjected her to the most intense probe.
Then he embraced them both warmly, his
blue eyes sparkling with a
mixture
of amusement, surprise and Damia noted with intense gratitude
acceptance.
`Mother?' she asked, timidly extending a
hand in the Rowan's
direction.
`I just don't understand it, the Rowan
said, not looking at
anyone. `I've known Afra for twenty-eight years and
I never expected .
. .` She halted. A rueful look crossed her face and, with a
huge
sigh,
she regarded them. `Afra, you have
always been part of our
family,
a cherished friend. But it's going to
take me a little while
to get
used to thinking of you as a son-in-law.' `Well, don't make a
big
thing of it, Angharad,' said Isthia, who had maintained a tactful
silence
long enough.
`You certainly know that Afra doesn't
jump into things `Oh, but he
does,
and has,' the Rowan replied, jerking her chin up and reminding
Afra of
exactly how he had come to Callisto Tower.
Then, with a
characteristic
twitch to her shoulders, she began to relax.
`It'll
still
take some getting used to. And,' she
frowned with some
petulance,
`I'll have all the bother of training a new assistant. I'm
not
sure I'll forgive you for that, Damia.' `I thought Gollee Gren was
working
out well for you, Afra said.
`Oh, well enough,' and the Rowan
dismissed that notion with a
flick
of her hand, `but he's just not you!' `I could remain at
Callisto,'
Afra offered and Damia caught her breath, not finding that
solution
palatable at all for reasons she could not immediately
identify.
`No, no,' and Jeff waved that aside, and
he began to pace up and
down
the porch. `Afra and Damia have to stay
here with the Mrdinis so
he
couldn't come back to Callisto for a while anyhow: at least not
until
verbal communications have been established between our species.
You work far better with Gollee than you
know, luv. Once you
accept
that the appointment is permanent, you'll relax into a good
partnership. Have you any more of those hot pastries,
Damia? I'm
starved. Never thought sleeping half the day would
increase my
appetite.'
He turned his charismatic grin impartially on all.
`Oh, you!' his wife said, exasperated as
well as out manoeuvred.
If the subsequent excellent meal had its
moments of tension,
Isthia
deftly turned the conversation back to the Mrdinis and how to
improve
communication with them.
`Always supposing that I'm not kicked out
of my Tower for this,'
Jeff
said.
`They couldn't, could they?' Damia asked,
appalled at the thought.
`Not likely,' Isthia said tartly. `They need him, and you all,
too
much.' `Well, getting Curran on our side is a distinct advantage,
considering
his initial reaction at Deneb Tower,' Jeff replied.
`There'll be the usual bureaucratic
waltzing about,
throat-clearing,
data-collecting, hemming-hawing, all that fugue,' he
went
on, pushing back from the table, tilting his chair on to its back
legs,
and ignoring his mother's disapproving glare.
`However, their
final
analysis will have to be that getting a powerful ally in the
Mrdinis
compensates for any eccentricities.' `Remember to mention,'
Isthia
said with one of her enigmatic smiles, `that the Mrdinis made
the
initial contact. And, by the way, did
you find out why the Mrdinis
approached
the Denebian system?' `Yes,' replied Jeff, his expression
lighting
with a grin.
`Remember in the initial battle how we
flung the one ship back the
way it
had come? As a warning? Well, Mrdinis had been monitoring the
Leviathan,
to be sure it wasn't headed in the direction of their
colonies
- and they've been extremely candid about how many they have
and
what systems they've explored - so they saw the ship return. Which
evidently
those ships don't do.' `That made the Mrdinis very interested
in
whoever had been so bold,' said the Rowan, her eyes gleaming as she
took up
the tale. `They took a fix on the
Leviathan's course and
direction
but had to return to their home planet for instructions and
provisions. The instructions took longer than the
provisioning,' and
she
grinned maliciously. `I suspect there
might also have been a
perfectly
understandable reluctance to annoy a species that could lob
back a
Beetle scout ship.' `Which is one reason why they were hanging
about
beyond the heliopause when they found the DEW devices, Jeff went
on. `They weren't even sure they'd got to the
right place because, at
first,
they couldn't find any trace of the Leviathan.
In their
lexicon,
Hive ships are invariably victorious.' He turned to Damia and
Afra.
`It was your discovery of the Beetle hull fragment, and then its
transportation
back to the City, that registered on their equipment.
They've been probing every planet in the
system: probes that were
too
small to register on the DEW net, but sensitive enough to pick up
traces
of Beetle metal.' `So that wretched artifact prompted the
dreams,'
Damia said.
`Exactly. So the Mrdinis broadcast to this area, hoping to make
contact
with minds that were, as they put it, sensitive to and repulsed
by
Beetle metal.' `We were so lucky to be able to turn that Leviathan
from
Deneb,' the Rowan said, shaking her head at the narrowness of that
escape.
`But we'll make that extremely clear when
we speak to the League,'
Jeff
went on. `The Mrdinis gave us chapter
and verse on Beetle
colonization
procedures: brutal. If we hadn't held
. . .` He reached
out,
cupping the Rowan 5
silvered head with a grateful and
affectionate hand. `The Beetles
are
compulsive colonizers, driven by the fact that the queens tend to
massacre
each other, the winner devouring the eggs of the loser. To
prevent
that, Hive ships leave the home world - and the Mrdinis are
still
trying to locate that system - and find likely worlds. First,
scouts
are sent off to locate planets. On
finding one, ships are
despatched
to `prepare' the planet for occupation, which means, ridding
the
surface of any other life-forms. The
Beetles are basically
vegetarian. The initial force lands and begins digging out
caves for
the
Mothers' eggs. When the Hive ship
arrives at the prepared planet,
the
ships transfer the eggs to the caves: then they are free to repeat
the
process. When that planet can support
no further Hives, the Mother
ship is
stocked up with appropriate workers, and they go on the prowl
again. According to the Mrdinis, there are far too
many Mother ships
roaming
in space. The incredible part is that
the Nine Star League has
only
had the one incursion.
`That's not good news,' Isthia said.
`Not at all,' Jeff replied. `We've been far too complacent and
our
luck could run out anytime. That's one
reason the Mrdinis had been
so
urgently trying to warn us, despite their apprehension about our
abilities. The Deneb DEW net is all well and good, they
tell me, but
we all
know that not all the League systems are protected.' He frowned,
ducking
his head as he paused in reflection.
`You know, Damia, Afra,
there's
no reason you two couldn't as easily work with the Mrdinis
language
people on Aurigae as here on Deneb .
`First, we have to get League permission,
Jeff,' the Rowan
reminded
him.
He waved aside that contingency. `I only need to get a few
sensitive
senators to sleep with the Mrdinis and we'll get some
immediate
action.' `Senators?' Isthia gaped at her son, her eyes bright
with
merriment, `Sleeping with Mrdinis?
Jeff, you are the living end!
`So long as I'm still living in the end,
I don't care what it
takes
to get the necessary done. But we can't
have a weak link in the
defensive
chain and a T-4 isn't sufficient to protect Aurigae.'
`Remember
that nibble at the DEWs in Procyon, was that the Mrdinis?'
Afra
asked.
`I haven't established that yet, Afra,'
Jeff replied, `but it
certainly
wasn't the Beetles. They'd've just
plunged through the
system.'
`Dad,' Damia began hesitantly, `there's no chance, is there,
that
the Leviathan could have got a message back to other Hives when
Mother
and you destroyed it?' Jeff shook his head and gave a cynical
laugh. `You mean, like "stay away from here -
bad vibes"?' As she
nodded,
the Rowan answered with a shake of her head.
`No, we had the
minds
paralysed and nothing left the Leviathan when the Raven-merge
plunged
it into the sun. The Mrdinis believe
that the Beetles are
fearless.
They are also numerous.' Her expression
turned grim.
`Their basic drive is
species-propagation, nothing more.
Jeff turned to Afra. `Your account of our self-defence made a
tremendous
impression on them, and reinforced their desire for an
alliance
with us.' `Oh?' `They've been battling the Beetles' incursions
for a
long time - how long we haven't established yet - but a long
time. So far they've found only one effective way
to destroy a
Leviathan,'
Jeff replied, `and that at great loss of life.
It involves
suicidal
missions of cruiser-class ships diving into the Hive and
blowing
it up. They have to send as many as
forty such ships in the
hope
that one will survive to penetrate the Mother Hive. That's why
they
want desperately to know how we effected such a kill.' Jeff
grinned.
`Yes, it worked that one time,' Afra
began.
`If necessary it will work again,' Jeff
said. `The Beetles have
no imagination. They just keep on repeating what they've
done before.'
`Nothing
succeeds like success?' asked Isthia drolly.
`Theirs or ours?' the Rowan
responded. `Successful or not, I
really
wouldn't like to have to make a career of merges that
exhausting.'
`Wouldn't be exhausting now, luv,' Jeff said in an offhand
manner. `We've three times as many top Talents now
as we had then.' He
snapped
his fingers carelessly. `We could take
out as many Leviathans
as we
needed to.' `Jeff!' the Rowan exclaimed in rebuke.
`How much mental power do the Mrdinis
have?' Afra asked, curious.
`They understand mind power, but I don't
think they are developed
enough
for a mind-merge or a focus,' Jeff said.
`They have been
successful
with one or two other species in dream communications. We
seem to
be the most advanced species they have met.
That's another
reason
for their jubilation. And, frankly,
mine. I welcome,' and when
Damia
felt his eyes on her, she was aware of his compassion, `the
chance
to make contact with an alien species.
I will have no hesitation in recommending
to the League that we
move
forward to an alliance with no hesitation and great haste. We are
aware
of the dangers of the Beetles and we cannot be complacent behind
the
DEW.' He let his chair down with a thump and stretched his hand
across
the table to Damia. `You're needed at
Aurigae, daughter.
It's also a very handy place to send the
Mrdini delegation for
language
study. And,' then he flashed her a
grin, `I'm not as
hard-hearted
as that old geezer Reidinger was. Afra
can keep you
company
`Father,' Damia began formally with a twitch to straighten her
shoulders,
`why would the League trust me with Aurigae?' Jeff Raven
blinked
in surprise. `Why shouldn't they?' Then
he gave her one of his
lopsided
grins. `The miners have been griping
over your absence
something
fierce.' Damia felt her mother's touch, gentle but
authoritative.
`I think Damia is concerned with the
report on Sodan, Jeff,' the
Rowan
said.
`Oh,' was Jeff's response, his blue eyes
clouded and his face
expressionless
as he said, `Earth Prime reported to the Nine Star
League
that Aurigae Prime contacted an alien ship and, on discovering
its
hostile intentions, requested sufficient Prime assistance to
destroy
the intruder, an action that took the life of Larak
Gwyn-Raven-'
He paused and both he and the Rowan looked towards the
peaceful
spot where their son was buried `-and severely injured Damia
Gwyn-Raven
and Afra Lyon.' With an abrupt change, Jeff regarded his
daughter
with his usual charm. `Why?' Damia
faltered, as much because
she
felt the ache of Larak's loss as because she didn't want to admit
how
Jeran's remark in the Tower had affected her.
`Jeran,' the Rowan said cryptically and
Jeff nodded with
understanding. `You two have never quite mended your
sibling quarrels,
have
you? Well, Jeran is only human Isthia
rolled her eyes. That is
still
debatable.
`And you did,' the Rowan said bluntly,
`run roughshod over his
authority
by contacting the aliens without notifying him.' `We didn't
know
where he was,' Isthia said slyly `Oh?' Jeff asked and, as he
regarded
his mother, his eyes became intensely blue.
Grinning, she waggled a rebuking finger
at him. `Let's not try
that on
your mother, dear.
Jeff threw back his head and
laughed. `I shouldn't, should I?'
`You're
nearly as arrogant and audacious as Pete Reidinger was, Jeff
Raven,'
Isthia went on.
`He is not,' the Rowan said loyally.
`Not around me, he isn't,' Isthia said.
Earth Prime, and Jeran's formal address
reached all the telepaths,
you are
requested to return to Deneb Tower.
Fleet and League
representatives
are urgently requesting transfer to Deneb to discuss
the'
alien situation.
With a sigh, Jeff heaved himself to his
feet, extending a hand to
the
Rowan to help her to rise.
`No rest for Earth Prime, arrogant or
audacious,' he said, putting
on an
air of martyrdom and letting his back sag as if he supported an
unmerciful
burden. `Will you two be ready to go
back to Aurigae
tomorrow?'
he asked in a serious tone.
`Yes, of course,' Damia said, nodding her
head just as Afra,
beside
her, murmured agreement. His fingers
squeezed her.
`Excellent.' Jeff bent to kiss his
daughter's cheek, then slapped
Afra's
shoulder with every evidence of his usual affection for the
Capellan. `That'll soothe ruffled feelings:
Gwyn-Ravens nobly respond
to the
demands of their League!' In taking her leave, the Rowan gave
Damia a
brief caress on the cheek, her grey eyes thoughtful. `It will
take
time, you know,' she said, twitching her eyebrows in annoyance.
She turned to Afra. `Gollee Gren is good but he just doesn't
have
your
subtlety.' She sighed. `But I'll
manage.
Jeff laughed, gave his mother a swift hug
and kiss, and, folding
both
arms about his wife, `ported out of the kitchen.
`Show-off,' Isthia muttered before she
turned to regard Damia and
Afra
with a speculative gaze. `Wriggled your
way out of that one,
didn't
you? Nothing like an emergency to get a
family to close the
gaps,
is there?' `Isthia,' Afra said, drawling her name reprovingly,
his
expression amused, `if Jeff is arrogant and audacious, what are
you?'
`An interfering mater familias,' Isthia retorted with an
unrepentant
grin. `I'll clear up here. You two have a lot to organize
before
the morning, as well as getting a good night's rest.' `I can
always
try a lullaby,' Afra said and ducked away as Damia swung at him,
only
half in play.
He continued on out of the kitchen, down
the corridor to their
room
and she followed.
`Afra, is there any way of cancelling
that dratted command?' she
asked. `It could become exceedingly awkward.'
`Why?' and Afra's yellow
eyes
danced with amusement.
`It's been exceedingly useful of late.'
Then his expression
altered
to one of sudden and delighted comprehension as he sent a quick
probe
which Damia, laughing, did not resist.
In a swift stride, he closed the gap
between them, pulling her
into
his embrace with one arm while he laid the other hand on her
abdomen. `So!
How could I have missed this?' Shyly she smiled as she
looked up
at him. `Too many lullabies.' Supremely
content, she nestled
against
him.
They were turned towards the window from
which she could see
Larak's
grave.
`Can we call her Laria?' she asked
softly.
Afra held her more tightly, opening his
mind as completely as she
had
hers in this special moment, letting her see how long he had
yearned
for a child of his body - for her child; the blazing joy that
burned
through him for the gift of her love, for the new life within
her,
for the end of his solitude. For all
this new and unexpected joy,
and a
restatement of the devotion that was so strong a bond now between
them. Within him now swelled the resolve to manage
a third generation
of
Rowan women.
`I'm glad we have a meeting of minds on
that score,' she murmured.
And because she felt his urgency rise to
hers in that deserving
and
marvellous moment, their agreement was shortly expressed in another
fashion,
immensely satisfying to both.
THE END