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The id will not stand for a delay in
gratification. It always feels the tension of the unfulfilled urge.
Sigmund Freud
Human aggression is instinctual. Humans have not evolved
any ritualized aggression-inhibiting mechanisms to ensure the survival of the
species. For this reason man is considered a very dangerous animal.
konrad lorenz
Can you hear me now?
Verizon
Civilization slipped into its second dark age on an
unsurprising track of blood, but with a speed that could not have been foreseen
by even the most pessimistic futurist. It was as if it had been waiting to go.
On October 1, God was in His heaven, the stock market stood at 10,140, and most
of the planes were on time (except for those landing and taking off in Chicago,
and that was to be expected). Two weeks later the skies belonged to the birds
again and the stock market was a memory. By Halloween, every major city from
New York to Moscow stank to the empty heavens and the world as it had been was
a memory.
1
The event that came to be known as The Pulse began at 3:03 p.m.,
eastern standard time, on the afternoon of October 1. The term was a misnomer,
of course, but within ten hours of the event, most of the scientists capable of
pointing this out were either dead or insane. The name hardly mattered, in any
case. What mattered was the effect.
At three o'clock on
that day, a young man of no particular importance to history came
walking—almost bouncing—east along Boylston Street in Boston. His name
was Clayton Riddell. There was an expression of undoubted contentment on his
face to go along with the spring in his step. From his left hand there swung
the handles of an artist's portfolio, the kind that closes and latches to make
a traveling case. Twined around the fingers of his right hand was the
drawstring of a brown plastic shopping bag with the words small treasures printed
on it for anyone who cared to read them.
Inside the bag,
swinging back and forth, was a small round object. A present, you might have
guessed, and you would have been right. You might further have guessed that
this Clayton Riddell was a young man seeking to commemorate some small (or
perhaps even not so small) victory with a small treasure, and you would
have been right again. The item inside the bag was a rather expensive glass
paperweight with a gray haze of dandelion fluff caught in its center. He had
bought it on his walk back from the Copley Square Hotel to the much humbler
Atlantic Avenue Inn where he was staying, frightened by the ninety-dollar
pricetag on the paperweight's base, somehow even
more frightened by the realization that he could now afford such a thing.
Handing his credit
card over to the clerk had taken almost physical courage. He doubted if he
could have done it if the paperweight had been for himself; he would have
muttered something about having changed his mind and scuttled out of the shop.
But it was for Sharon. Sharon liked such things, and she still liked him—I'm
pulling for you, baby, she'd said the day before he left for Boston.
Considering the shit they'd put each other through over the last year, that had
touched him. Now he wanted to touch her, if that was still possible. The
paperweight was a small thing (a small treasure), but he was sure she'd
love that delicate gray haze deep down in the middle of the glass, like a
pocket fog.
2
Clay's attention was attracted by the tinkle of an ice cream truck.
It was parked across from the Four Seasons Hotel (which was even grander than
the Copley Square) and next to the Boston Common, which ran along Boylston for
two or three blocks on this side of the street. The words MISTER SOFTEE were
printed in rainbow colors over a pair of dancing ice cream cones. Three kids
were clustered around the window, bookbags at their feet, waiting to receive
goodies. Behind them stood a woman in a pants suit with a poodle on a leash and
a couple of teenage girls in lowrider jeans with iPods and earphones that were
currently slung around their necks so they could murmur together—earnestly, no
giggles.
Clay stood behind
them, turning what had been a little group into a short line. He had bought his
estranged wife a present; he would stop at Comix Supreme on the way home and
buy his son the new issue of Spider-Man; he might as well treat himself,
as well. He was bursting to tell Sharon his news, but she'd be out of reach
until she got home, three forty-five or so. He thought he would hang around the
Inn at least until he talked to her, mostly pacing the confines of his small
room and looking at his latched-up portfolio. In the meantime, Mister Softee
made an acceptable diversion.
The guy in the truck
served the three kids at the window, two Dilly Bars and a monster chocolate-and-vanilla swirl sof-serve cone for
the big spender in the middle, who was apparently paying for all of them. While
he fumbled a rat's nest of dollar bills from the pocket of his fashionably
baggy jeans, the woman with the poodle and the power suit dipped into her
shoulder bag, came out with her cell phone—women in power suits would no more
leave home without their cell phones than without their AmEx cards—and flipped
it open. Behind them, in the park, a dog barked and someone shouted. It did not
sound to Clay like a happy shout, but when he looked over his shoulder all he
could see were a few strollers, a dog trotting with a Frisbee in its mouth
(weren't they supposed to be on leashes in there, he wondered), acres of sunny
green and inviting shade. It looked like a good place for a man who had just
sold his first graphic novel—and its sequel, both for an amazing amount
of money—to sit and eat a chocolate ice cream cone.
When he looked back,
the three kids in the baggies were gone and the woman in the power suit was
ordering a sundae. One of the two girls behind her had a peppermint-colored
phone clipped to her hip, and the woman in the power suit had hers screwed into
her ear. Clay thought, as he almost always did on one level of his mind or
another when he saw a variation of this behavior, that he was watching an act
which would once have been considered almost insufferably rude—yes, even while
engaging in a small bit of commerce with a total stranger—becoming a part of
accepted everyday behavior.
Put it in Dark
Wanderer, sweetheart, Sharon said. The version of her he kept in his
mind spoke often and was bound to have her say. This was true of the real-world
Sharon as well, separation or no separation. Although not on his cell phone.
Clay didn't own one.
The
peppermint-colored phone played the opening notes of that Crazy Frog tune that
Johnny loved—was it called "Axel F"? Clay couldn't remember, perhaps
because he had blocked it out. The girl to whom the phone belonged snatched it
off her hip and said, "Beth?" She listened, smiled, then said to her
companion, "It's Beth." Now the other girl bent forward and they both
listened, nearly identical pixie haircuts (to Clay they looked almost like
Saturday-morning cartoon characters, the Powerpuff Girls, maybe) blowing
together in the afternoon breeze.
"Maddy?"
said the woman in the power suit at almost exactly the same time. Her poodle
was now sitting contemplatively at the end of its leash (the leash was red, and
dusted with glittery stuff), looking at the traffic on Boylston Street. Across
the way, at the Four Seasons, a doorman in a brown uniform—they always seemed
to be brown or blue—was waving, probably for a taxi. A Duck Boat crammed with
tourists sailed by, looking high and out of place on dry land, the driver
bawling into his loudhailer about something historic. The two girls listening
to the peppermint-colored phone looked at each other and smiled at something
they were hearing, but still did not giggle.
"Maddy? Can you
hear me? Can you—"
The woman in the
power suit raised the hand holding the leash and plugged a long-nailed finger
into her free ear. Clay winced, fearing for her eardrum. He imagined drawing
her: the dog on the leash, the power suit, the fashionably short hair . . . and
one small trickle of blood from around the finger in her ear. The Duck Boat
just exiting the frame and the doorman in the background, those things somehow
lending the sketch its verisimilitude. They would; it was just a thing you
knew.
"Maddy, you're
breaking up! I just wanted to tell you I got my hair done at that new .
. . my hair? . . . MY. . ."
The guy in the Mister
Softee truck bent down and held out a sundae cup. From it rose a white Alp with
chocolate and strawberry sauce coursing down its sides. His beard-stubbly face
was impassive. It said he'd seen it all before. Clay was sure he had, most of
it twice. In the park, someone screamed. Clay looked over his shoulder again,
telling himself that had to be a scream of joy. At three o'clock in the
afternoon, a sunny afternoon on the Boston Common, it pretty much had to
be a scream of joy. Right?
The woman said
something unintelligible to Maddy and flipped her cell phone closed with a
practiced flip of the wrist. She dropped it back into her purse, then just
stood there, as if she had forgotten what she was doing or maybe even where she
was.
"That's
four-fifty," said the Mister Softee guy, still patiently holding out the
ice cream sundae. Clay had time to think how fucking expensive everything
was in the city. Perhaps the woman in the power suit thought so, too—that, at
least, was his first surmise—because for a moment more she still did nothing, merely looked at the cup with its
mound of ice cream and sliding sauce as if she had never seen such a thing
before.
Then there came
another cry from the Common, not a human one this time but something between a
surprised yelp and a hurt yowl. Clay turned to look and saw the dog that had
been trotting with the Frisbee in its mouth. It was a good-sized brown dog,
maybe a Labrador, he didn't really know dogs, when he needed to draw one he got
a book and copied a picture. A man in a business suit was down on his knees
beside this one and had it in a necklock and appeared to be—surely I'm not
seeing what I think I'm seeing, Clay thought—chewing on its ear. Then the
dog howled again and tried to spurt away. The man in the business suit held it
firm, and yes, that was the dog's ear in the man's mouth, and as Clay continued
to watch, the man tore it off the side of the dog's head. This time the dog
uttered an almost human scream, and a number of ducks which had been floating
on a nearby pond took flight, squawking.
"Rast!" someone
cried from behind Clay. It sounded like vast. It might have been rat or
roast, but later experience made him lean toward rast: not a word
at all but merely an inarticulate sound of aggression.
He turned back toward
the ice cream truck in time to see Power Suit Woman lunge through the serving
window in an effort to grab Mister Softee Guy. She managed to snag the loose
folds at the front of his white tunic, but his single startle-step backward was
enough to break her hold. Her high heels briefly left the sidewalk, and he heard
the rasp of cloth and the clink of buttons as the front of her jacket ran first
up the little jut of the serving window's counter and then back down. The
sundae tumbled from view. Clay saw a smear of ice cream and sauce on Power Suit
Woman's left wrist and forearm as her high heels clacked back to the sidewalk.
She staggered, knees bent. The closed-off, well-bred, out-in-public look on her
face—what Clay thought of as your basic on-the-street-no-face look—had been
replaced by a convulsive snarl that shrank her eyes to slits and exposed both
sets of teeth. Her upper lip had turned completely inside out, revealing a pink
velvet lining as intimate as a vulva. Her poodle ran into the street, trailing
its red leash with the hand-loop in the end. A black limo came along and ran
the poodle down before it got halfway across. Fluff at one moment; guts at the
next.
Poor damn thing
was probably yapping in doggy heaven before it knew it was dead, Clay thought. He understood in some clinical way he was in
shock, but that in no way changed the depth of his amazement. He stood there
with his portfolio hanging from one hand and his brown shopping bag hanging
from the other and his mouth hanging open.
Somewhere—it sounded
like maybe around the corner on Newbury Street—something exploded.
The two girls had
exactly the same haircut above their iPod headphones, but the one with the
peppermint-colored cell phone was blond and her friend was brunette; they were
Pixie Light and Pixie Dark. Now Pixie Light dropped her phone on the sidewalk,
where it shattered, and seized Power Suit Woman around the waist. Clay assumed
(so far as he was capable of assuming anything in those moments) that she meant
to restrain Power Suit Woman either from going after Mister Softee Guy again or
from running into the street after her dog. There was even a part of his mind
that applauded the girl's presence of mind. Her friend, Pixie Dark, was backing
away from the whole deal, small white hands clasped between her breasts, eyes
wide.
Clay dropped his own
items, one on each side, and stepped forward to help Pixie Light. On the other
side of the street—he saw this only in his peripheral vision—a car swerved and
bolted across the sidewalk in front of the Four Seasons, causing the doorman to
dart out of the way. There were screams from the hotel's forecourt. And before
Clay could begin helping Pixie Light with Power Suit Woman, Pixie Light had
darted her pretty little face forward with snakelike speed, bared her
undoubtedly strong young teeth, and battened on Power Suit Woman's neck. There
was an enormous jet of blood. The pixie-girl stuck her face in it, appeared to
bathe in it, perhaps even drank from it (Clay was almost sure she did), then
shook Power Suit Woman back and forth like a doll. The woman was taller and had
to outweigh the girl by at least forty pounds, but the girl shook her hard
enough to make the woman's head flop back and forth and send more blood flying.
At the same time the girl cocked her own blood-smeared face up to the bright
blue October sky and howled in what sounded like triumph.
She's mad, Clay
thought. Totally mad.
Pixie Dark cried out,
"Who are you? What's happening?"
At the sound of her
friend's voice, Pixie Light whipped her bloody head around. Blood dripped from
the short dagger-points of hair overhanging her forehead. Eyes like white lamps
peered from blood-dappled sockets.
Pixie Dark looked at
Clay, her eyes wide. "Who are you?" she repeated . . . and then:
"Who am I?"
Pixie Light dropped
Power Suit Woman, who collapsed to the sidewalk with her chewed-open carotid
artery still spurting, then leaped at the girl with whom she had been chummily
sharing a phone only a few moments before.
Clay didn't think. If
he had thought, Pixie Dark might have had her throat opened like the woman in
the power suit. He didn't even look. He simply reached down and to his right,
seized the top of the small treasures shopping bag, and swung it at the
back of Pixie Light's head as she leaped at her erstwhile friend with her
outstretched hands making claw-fish against the blue sky. If he missed—
He didn't miss, or
even hit the girl a glancing blow. The glass paperweight inside the bag struck
the back of Pixie Light's head dead-on, making a muffled thunk. Pixie
Light dropped her hands, one bloodstained, one still clean, and fell to the
sidewalk at her friend's feet like a sack of mail.
"What the hell?"
Mister Softee Guy cried. His voice was improbably high. Maybe shock had
given him that high tenor.
"I don't
know," Clay said. His heart was hammering. "Help me quick. This other
one's bleeding to death."
From behind them, on
Newbury Street, came the unmistakable hollow bang-and-jingle of a car crash,
followed by screams. The screams were followed by another explosion, this one
louder, concussive, hammering the day. Behind the Mister Softee truck, another
car swerved across three lanes of Boylston Street and into the courtyard of the
Four Seasons, mowing down a couple of pedestrians and then plowing into the
back of the previous car, which had finished with its nose crumpled into the
revolving doors. This second crash shoved the first car farther into the
revolving doors, bending them askew. Clay couldn't see if anyone was trapped in
there—clouds of steam were rising from the first car's breached radiator— but
the agonized shrieks from the shadows suggested bad things. Very bad.
Mister Softee Guy,
blind on that side, was leaning out his serving window and staring at Clay.
"What's going on over there?"
"I don't know.
Couple of car wrecks. People hurt. Never mind. Help me, man." He knelt
beside Power Suit Woman in the blood and the shattered remnants of Pixie
Light's pink cell phone. Power Suit Woman's twitches had now become weak,
indeed.
"Smoke from over
on Newbury," observed Mister Softee Guy, still not emerging from the
relative safety of his ice cream wagon. "Something blew up over there. I
mean bigtime. Maybe it's terrorists."
As soon as the word
was out of his mouth, Clay was sure he was right. "Help me."
"WHO AM
I?" Pixie Dark suddenly screamed.
Clay had forgotten
all about her. He looked up in time to see the girl smack herself in the
forehead with the heel of her hand, then turn around rapidly three times,
standing almost on the toes of her tennies to do it. The sight called up a
memory of some poem he'd read in a college lit class—Weave a circle round
him thrice. Coleridge, wasn't it? She staggered, then ran rapidly down the
sidewalk and directly into a lamppost. She made no attempt to avoid it or even
put up her hands. She struck it face-first, rebounded, staggered, then went at
it again.
"Stop
that!" Clay roared. He shot to his feet, started to run toward her,
slipped in Power Suit Woman's blood, almost fell, got going again, tripped on
Pixie Light, and almost fell again.
Pixie Dark looked
around at him. Her nose was broken and gushing blood down her lower face. A
vertical contusion was puffing up on her brow, rising like a thunderhead on a
summer day. One of her eyes had gone crooked in its socket. She opened her
mouth, exposing a ruin of what had probably been expensive orthodontic work,
and laughed at him. He never forgot it.
Then she ran away
down the sidewalk, screaming.
Behind him, a motor
started up and amplified bells began tinkling out the Sesame Street theme.
Clay turned and saw the Mister Softee truck pulling rapidly away from the curb
just as, from the top floor of the hotel across the way, a window shattered in
a bright spray of glass. A body hurtled out into the October day. It fell to
the sidewalk, where it more or less exploded.
More screams from the forecourt. Screams of horror; screams of pain.
"No!" Clay
yelled, running alongside the Mister Softee truck. "No, come back and help
me! I need some help here, you sonofabitch!"
No answer from Mister
Softee Guy, who maybe couldn't hear over his amplified music. Clay could
remember the words from the days when he'd had no reason not to believe his marriage
wouldn't last forever. In those days Johnny watched Sesame Street every
day, sitting in his little blue chair with his sippy cup clutched in his hands.
Something about a sunny day, keepin' the clouds away.
A man in a business
suit came running out of the park, roaring wordless sounds at the top of his
lungs, his coattails flapping behind him. Clay recognized him by his dogfur
goatee. The man ran into Boylston Street. Cars swerved around him, barely
missing him. He ran on to the other side, still roaring and waving his hands at
the sky. He disappeared into the shadows beneath the canopy of the Four Seasons
forecourt and was lost to view, but he must have gotten up to more dickens
immediately, because a fresh volley of screams broke out over there.
Clay gave up his
chase of the Mister Softee truck and stood with one foot on the sidewalk and
the other planted in the gutter, watching as it swerved into the center lane of
Boylston Street, still tinkling. He was about to turn back to the unconscious
girl and dying woman when another Duck Boat appeared, this one not loafing but
roaring at top speed and yawing crazily from port to starboard. Some of the
passengers were tumbling back and forth and howling—pleading—for the
driver to stop. Others simply clung to the metal struts running up the open
sides of the ungainly thing as it made its way up Boylston Street against the
flow of traffic.
A man in a sweatshirt
grabbed the driver from behind, and Clay heard another of those inarticulate
cries through the Duck Boat's primitive amplification system as the driver
threw the guy off with a mighty backward shrug. Not "Rast!" this
time but something more guttural, something that sounded like "Gluh!"
Then the Duck Boat driver saw the Mister Softee truck—Clay was sure of
it—and changed course, aiming for it.
"Oh God
please no!" a woman sitting near the front of the tourist craft cried,
and as it closed in on the tinkling ice cream truck, which was approximately
one-sixth its size, Clay had a clear memory of watching the victory parade on
TV the year the Red Sox won the World Series. The team rode in a slow-moving
procession of these same Duck Boats, waving to the delirious multitudes as a
cold autumn drizzle fell.
"God please
no!" the woman shrieked again, and from beside Clay a man said, almost
mildly: "Jesus Christ."
The Duck Boat hit the
ice cream truck broadside and flipped it like a child's toy. It landed on its
side with its own amplification system still tinkling out the Sesame Street theme
music and went skidding back toward the Common, shooting up friction-generated
bursts of sparks. Two women who had been watching dashed to get out of the way,
holding hands, and just made it. The Mister Softee truck bounced onto the
sidewalk, went briefly airborne, then hit the wrought-iron fence surrounding
the park and came to rest. The music hiccuped twice, then stopped.
The lunatic driving
the Duck Boat had, meanwhile, lost whatever marginal control he might have had
over his vehicle. It looped back across Boylston Street with its freight of
terrified, screaming passengers clinging to the open sides, mounted the
sidewalk across and about fifty yards down from the point where the Mister
Softee truck had tinkled its last, and ran into the low brick retaining wall
below the display window of a tony furniture shop called City lights. There was
a vast unmusical crash as the window shattered. The Duck Boat's wide rear end {Harbor
Mistress was written on it in pink script) rose perhaps five feet in the
air. Momentum wanted the great waddling thing to go end-over-end; mass would
not allow. It settled back to the sidewalk with its snout poked among the
scattered sofas and expensive living room chairs, but not before at least a
dozen people had gone shooting forward, out of the Duck Boat and out of sight.
Inside Citylights, a burglar alarm began to clang.
"Jesus
Christ," said the mild voice from Clay's right elbow a second time. He
turned that way and saw a short man with thinning dark hair, a tiny dark
mustache, and gold-rimmed spectacles. "What's going on?"
"I don't
know," Clay said. Talking was hard. Very. He found himself almost having
to push words out. He supposed it was shock. Across the street, people were
running away, some from the Four Seasons, some from the crashed Duck Boat. As
he watched, a Duck Boat run-awayer collided with
a Four Seasons escapee and they both went crashing to the sidewalk. There was
time to wonder if he'd gone insane and was hallucinating all this in a madhouse
somewhere. Juniper Hill in Augusta, maybe, between Thorazine shots. "The
guy in the ice cream truck said maybe terrorists."
"I don't see any
men with guns," said the short man with the mustache. "No guys with
bombs strapped to their backs, either."
Neither did Clay, but
he did see his little small treasures shopping bag and his
portfolio sitting on the sidewalk, and he saw that the blood from Power Suit
Woman's opened throat—ye gods, he thought, all that blood—had
almost reached the portfolio. All but a dozen or so of his drawings for Dark
Wanderer were in there, and it was the drawings his mind seized on. He
started back that way at a speed-walk, and the short man kept pace. When a
second burglar alarm (some kind of alarm, anyway) went off in the hotel,
joining its hoarse bray to the clang of the Citylights alarm, the little guy
jumped.
"It's the
hotel," Clay said.
"I know, it's
just that. . .oh my God." He'd seen Power Suit Woman, now lying in
a lake of the magic stuff that had been running all her bells and
whistles—what? Four minutes ago? Only two?
"She's
dead," Clay told him. "At least I'm pretty sure she is. That girl . .
." He pointed at Pixie Light. "She did it. With her teeth."
"You're
joking."
"I wish I was."
From somewhere up
Boylston Street there was another explosion. Both men cringed. Clay realized he
could now smell smoke. He picked up his small treasures bag and his
portfolio and moved them both away from the spreading blood. "These are
mine," he said, wondering why he felt the need to explain.
The little guy, who
was wearing a tweed suit—quite dapper, Clay thought—was still staring,
horrified, at the crumpled body of the woman who had stopped for a sundae and
lost first her dog and then her life. Behind them, three young men pelted past
on the sidewalk, laughing and hurrahing. Two had Red Sox caps turned around
backward. One was carrying a carton clutched against his chest. It had the word
panasonic printed in blue on the side. This one stepped in Power Suit
Woman's spreading blood with his right sneaker and
left a fading one-foot trail behind him as he and his mates ran on toward the
east end of the Common and Chinatown beyond.
3
Clay dropped to one knee and used the hand not clutching his
portfolio (he was even more afraid of losing it after seeing the sprinting kid
with the panasonic carton) to pick up Pixie Light's wrist. He got a
pulse at once. It was slow but strong and regular. He felt great relief. No
matter what she'd done, she was just a kid. He didn't want to think he had
bludgeoned her to death with his wife's gift paperweight.
"Look out,
look out!" the little guy with the mustache almost sang. Clay had no
time to look out. Luckily, this call wasn't even close. The vehicle—one of
those big OPEC-friendly SUVs—veered off Boylston and into the park at least
twenty yards from where he knelt, taking a snarl of the wrought-iron fence in
front of it and coming to rest bumper-deep in the duck-pond.
The door opened and a
young man floundered out, yelling gibberish at the sky. He fell to his knees in
the water, scooped some of it into his mouth with both hands (Clay had a
passing thought of all the ducks that had happily shat in that pond over the
years), then struggled to his feet and waded to the far side. He disappeared
into a grove of trees, still waving his hands and bellowing his nonsense
sermon.
"We need to get
help for this girl," Clay said to the man with the mustache. "She's
unconscious but a long way from dead."
"What we need to
do is get off the street before we get run over," said the man with
the mustache, and as if to prove this point, a taxi collided with a stretch
limo not far from the wrecked Duck Boat. The limo had been going the wrong way
but the taxi got the worst of it; as Clay watched from where he still knelt on
the sidewalk, the taxi's driver flew through his suddenly glassless windshield
and landed in the street, holding up a bloody arm and screaming.
The man with the
mustache was right, of course. Such rationality as Clay could muster—only a
little managed to find its way through the blanket
of shock that muffled his thinking—suggested that by far the wisest course of
action would be to get the hell away from Boylston Street and under cover. If
this was an act of terrorism, it was like none he had ever seen or read about.
What he—they—should do was get down and stay down until the situation
clarified. That would probably entail finding a television. But he didn't want
to leave this unconscious girl lying on a street that had suddenly become a
madhouse. Every instinct of his mostly kind—and certainly civilized—heart cried
out against it.
"You go
on," he told the little man with the mustache. He said it with immense
reluctance. He didn't know the little man from Adam, but at least he wasn't
spouting gibberish and throwing his hands in the air. Or going for Clay's
throat with his teeth bared. "Get inside somewhere. I'll. . ." He
didn't know how to finish.
"You'll
what?" the man with the mustache asked, then hunched his shoulders and
winced as something else exploded. That one came from directly behind the
hotel, it sounded like, and now black smoke began to rise over there, staining
the blue sky before it got high enough for the wind to pull away.
"I'll call a
cop," Clay said, suddenly inspired. "She's got a cell phone." He
cocked his thumb at Power Suit Woman, now lying dead in a pool of her own
blood. "She was using it before . . . you know, just before the shit. .
."
He trailed off, replaying exactly what had
happened just before the shit hit the fan. He found his eyes wandering from
the dead woman to the unconscious girl and then on to the shards of the
unconscious girl's peppermint-colored cell phone.
Warbling sirens of
two distinctly different pitches rose in the air. Clay supposed one pitch
belonged to police cars, the other to fire trucks. He supposed you could tell
the difference if you lived in this city, but he didn't, he lived in Kent Pond,
Maine, and he wished with all his heart that he were there right now.
What happened just
before the shit hit the fan was that Power Suit Woman had called her friend
Maddy to tell her she'd gotten her hair done, and one of Pixie Light's friends
had called her. Pixie Dark had listened in to this latter call. After
that all three of them had gone crazy.
You're not
thinking—
From behind them, to
the east, came the biggest explosion yet: a terrific shotgun-blast of sound.
Clay leaped to his feet. He and the little man in the tweed suit looked wildly
at each other, then toward Chinatown and Boston's North End. They couldn't see
what had exploded, but now a much larger, darker plume of smoke was rising
above the buildings on that horizon.
While they were
looking at it, a Boston PD radio-car and a hook-and-ladder fire truck pulled up
in front of the Four Seasons across the street. Clay glanced that way in time
to see a second jumper set sail from the top story of the hotel, followed by
another pair from the roof. To Clay it looked as if the two coming from the
roof were actually brawling with each other on the way down.
"Jesus Mary
and Joseph NO!" a woman screamed, her voice breaking. "Oh NO, no MORE, no
MORE!"
The first of the
suicidal trio hit the rear of the police car, splattering the trunk with hair
and gore, shattering the back window. The other two hit the hook and ladder as
firemen dressed in bright yellow coats scattered like improbable birds.
"NO!" the
woman shrieked. "No MORE! No MORE! Dear GOD, no MORE!"
But here came a woman
from the fifth or sixth floor, tumbling like a crazy acrobat, striking a
policeman who was peering up and surely killing him even as she killed herself.
From the north there
came another of those great roaring explosions—the sound of the devil firing a
shotgun in hell—and once again Clay looked at the little man, who was looking
anxiously back up at him. More smoke was rising in the sky, and in spite of the
brisk breeze, the blue over there was almost blotted out.
"They're using
planes again," the little man said. "The dirty bastards are using
planes again."
As if to underline
the idea, a third monstrous explosion came rolling to them from the city's
northeast.
"But. . . that's
Logan over there." Clay was once again finding it hard to talk, and even
harder to think. All he really seemed to have in his mind was some sort of half-baked joke: Did
you hear the one about the [insert your favorite ethnic group here} terrorists
who decided to bring America to its knees by blowing up the airport?
"So?" the
little man asked, almost truculently.
"So why not the
Hancock Building? Or the Pru?"
The little man's
shoulders slumped. "I don't know. I only know I want to get off this
street."
As if to emphasize
his point, half a dozen more young people sprinted past them. Boston was a city
of young people, Clay had noticed—all those colleges. These six, three men
and three women, were running lootless, at least, and they most assuredly
weren't laughing. As they ran, one of the young men pulled out his cell phone
and stuck it to his ear.
Clay glanced across
the street and saw that a second black-and-white unit had pulled up behind the
first. No need to use Power Suit Woman's cell phone after all (which was good,
since he'd decided he really didn't want to do that). He could just walk across
the street and talk to them except he wasn't sure that he dared to cross
Boylston Street just now. Even if he did, would they come over here to
look at one unconscious girl when they had God knew how many casualties over there?
And as he watched, the firemen began piling back on board their
hook-and-ladder unit; it looked like they were heading someplace else. Over to
Logan Airport, quite likely, or—
"Oh my
God-Jesus, watch out for this one," said the little man with the mustache,
speaking in a low, tight voice. He was looking west along Boylston, back toward
downtown, in the direction Clay had been coming from when his major object in
life had been reaching Sharon on the phone. He'd even known how he was going to
start: Good news, hon—no matter how it comes out
between us, there'll always be shoes for the kid. In his head it
had sounded light and
funny—like the old days.
There was nothing
funny about this. Coming toward them—not running but walking in long,
flat-footed strides—was a man of about fifty, wearing suit pants and the
remains of a shirt and tie. The pants were gray. It was impossible to tell what
color the shirt and tie had been, because both were now shredded and stained
with blood. In his right hand the man held what looked like a butcher knife
with an eighteen-inch blade. Clay actually believed he had seen this knife, in
the window of a shop called Soul Kitchen, on his walk back from his meeting at
the Copley Square Hotel. The row of knives in the window (SWEDISH STEEL! the
little engraved card in front of them proclaimed) had shone in the cunning glow
of hidden downlighters, but this blade had done a good deal of work since its
liberation—or a bad deal of it—and was now dull with blood.
The man in the
tattered shirt swung the knife as he closed in on them with his flat-footed
strides, the blade cutting short up-and-down arcs in the air. He broke the
pattern only once, to slash at himself. A fresh rill of blood ran through a new
rip in his tattered shirt. The remains of his tie flapped. And as he closed the
distance he hectored them like a backwoods preacher speaking in tongues at the
moment of some divine godhead revelation.
"Eyelab!"
he cried. "Eeelah-eyelah-a-babbalah naz! A-babbalah why? A-bunnaloo
coy? Kazzalah! Kazzalah-CAN! Fie! SHY-fie!" And now he brought
the knife back to his right hip and then beyond it, and Clay, whose visual
sense was overdeveloped, at once saw the sweeping stroke that would follow. The
gutting stroke, made even as he continued his nuthouse march to nowhere through
the October afternoon in those flat-footed declamatory strides.
"Look
out!" the little guy with the mustache screamed, but he wasn't
looking out, not the little guy with the mustache; the little guy with the
mustache, the first normal person with whom Clay Riddell had spoken
since this craziness began—who had, in fact, spoken to him, which had
probably taken some courage, under the circumstances—was frozen in place, his
eyes bigger than ever behind the lenses of his gold-rimmed spectacles. And was
the crazy guy going for him because of the two men, the one with the mustache
was smaller and looked like easier prey? If so, maybe Mr. Speaking-in-Tongues
wasn't completely crazy, and suddenly Clay was mad as well as
scared, mad the way he might have been if he'd looked through a schoolyard
fence and seen a bully getting ready to tune up on a smaller, younger kid.
"LOOK
OUT!" the little man with the mustache almost wailed, still not moving
as his death swept toward him, death liberated from a shop called Soul Kitchen
where Diner's Club and Visa were no doubt accepted, along with Your Personal
Check If Accompanied By Bank Card.
Clay didn't think. He
simply picked up his portfolio again by its double handle and stuck it between
the oncoming knife and his new acquaintance in the tweed suit. The blade went
all the way through with a hollow thuck, but the tip stopped four inches
short of the little man's belly. The little man finally came to his senses and
cringed aside, toward the Common, shrieking for help at the top of his lungs.
The man in the
shredded shirt and tie—he was getting a bit jowly in the cheek and heavy in the
neck, as if his personal equation of good meals and good exercise had stopped
balancing about two years ago—abruptly ceased his nonsense peroration. His face
took on a look of vacuous perplexity that stopped short of surprise, let alone
amazement.
What Clay felt was a
species of dismal outrage. That blade had gone through all of his Dark
Wanderer pictures (to him they were always pictures, never drawings or
illustrations), and it seemed to him that the thuck sound might as well
have been the blade penetrating a special chamber of his heart. That was stupid
when he had repros of everything, including the four color splash-pages, but it
didn't change how he felt. The madman's blade had skewered Sorcerer John (named
after his own son, of course), the Wizard Flak, Frank and the Posse Boys,
Sleepy Gene, Poison Sally, Lily Astolet, Blue Witch, and of course Ray Damon,
the Dark Wanderer himself. His own fantastic creatures, living in the cave of
his imagination and poised to set him free from the drudgery of teaching art in
a dozen rural Maine schools, driving thousands of miles a month and practically
living out of his car.
He could swear he had
heard them moan when the madman's Swedish blade pierced them where they slept
in their innocency.
Furious, not caring
about the blade (at least for the moment), he drove the man in the shredded
shirt rapidly backward, using the portfolio as a kind of shield, growing
angrier as it bent into a wide V-shape around the knife-blade.
"Blet!" the
lunatic hollered, and tried to pull his blade back. It was caught too firmly
for him to do so. "Blet ky-yam doe-ram kazzalah a-babbalah!"
"I'll a-babbalah
your a-kazzalah, you fuck!" Clay shouted, and planted his left foot
behind the lunatic's backpedaling legs. It would occur to him later that the body knows how to fight
when it has to. That it's a secret the body keeps, just as it does the secrets
of how to run or jump a creek or throw a fuck or—quite likely—die when there's
no other choice. That under conditions of extreme stress it simply takes over
and does what needs doing while the brain stands off to one side, unable to do
anything but whistle and tap its foot and look up at the sky. Or contemplate
the sound a knife makes going through the portfolio your wife gave you for your
twenty-eighth birthday, for that matter.
The lunatic tripped
over Clay's foot just as Clay's wise body meant him to do and fell to the
sidewalk on his back. Clay stood over him, panting, with the portfolio still held
in both hands like a shield bent in battle. The butcher knife still stuck out
of it, handle from one side, blade from the other.
The lunatic tried to
get up. Clay's new friend scurried forward and kicked him in the neck, quite
hard. The little fellow was weeping loudly, the tears gushing down his cheeks
and fogging the lenses of his spectacles. The lunatic fell back on the sidewalk
with his tongue sticking out of his mouth. Around it he made choking
sounds that sounded to Clay like his former speaking-in-tongues babble.
"He tried to
kill us!" the little man wept. "He tried to kill us!"
"Yes, yes,"
Clay said. He was aware that he had once said yes, yes to Johnny in
exactly the same way back when they'd still called him Johnny-Gee and he'd come
to them up the front walk with his scraped shins or elbows, wailing I got
BLOOD!
The man on the
sidewalk (who had plenty of blood) was on his elbows, trying to get up again.
Clay did the honors this time, kicking one of the guy's elbows out from under
him and putting him back down on the pavement. This kicking seemed like a
stopgap solution at best, and a messy one. Clay grabbed the handle of the
knife, winced at the slimy feel of half-jellied blood on the handle—it was like
rubbing a palm through cold bacon-grease—and pulled. The knife came a little
bit, then either stopped or his hand slipped. He fancied he heard his
characters murmuring unhappily from the darkness of the portfolio, and he made
a painful noise himself. He couldn't help it. And he couldn't help wondering
what he meant to do with the knife if he got it out. Stab the lunatic to death
with it? He thought he could have done that in
the heat of the moment, but probably not now.
"What's
wrong?" the little man asked in a watery voice. Clay, even in his own
distress, couldn't help being touched by the concern he heard there. "Did
he get you? You had him blocked out for a few seconds and I couldn't see. Did
he get you? Are you cut?"
"No," Clay
said. "I'm all r—"
There was another
gigantic explosion from the north, almost surely from Logan Airport on the
other side of Boston Harbor. Both of them hunched their shoulders and winced.
The lunatic took the
opportunity to sit up and was scrambling to his feet when the little man in the
tweed suit administered a clumsy but effective sideways kick, planting a shoe
squarely in the middle of the lunatic's shredded tie and knocking him back
down. The lunatic roared and snatched at the little man's foot. He would have
pulled the little guy over, then perhaps into a crushing embrace, had Clay not
seized his new acquaintance by the shoulder and pulled him away.
"He's got my
shoe!" the little man yelped. Behind them, two more cars crashed.
There were more screams, more alarms. Car alarms, fire alarms, hearty clanging
burglar alarms. Sirens whooped in the distance. "Bastard got my sh—"
Suddenly a policeman
was there. One of the responders from across the street, Clay assumed, and as
the policeman dropped to one blue knee beside the babbling lunatic, Clay felt
something very much like love for the cop. That he'd take the time to come over
here! That he'd even noticed!
"You want to be
careful of him," the little man said nervously. "He's—"
"I know what he
is," the cop replied, and Clay saw the cop had his service automatic in
his hand. He had no idea if the cop had drawn it after kneeling or if he'd had
it out the whole time. Clay had been too busy being grateful to notice.
The cop looked at the
lunatic. Leaned close to the lunatic. Almost seemed to offer himself to
the lunatic. "Hey, buddy, how ya doin?" he murmured. "I mean,
what the haps?"
The lunatic lunged at
the cop and put his hands on the cop's throat. The instant he did this, the cop
slipped the muzzle of his gun into the hollow of the lunatic's temple and pulled the trigger. A great spray of
blood leaped through the graying hair on the opposite side of the lunatic's
head and he fell back to the sidewalk, throwing both arms out melodramatically:
Look, Ma, I'm dead.
Clay looked at the
little man with the mustache and the little man with the mustache looked at
him. Then they looked back at the cop, who had holstered his weapon and was
taking a leather case from the breast pocket of his uniform shirt. Clay was
glad to see that the hand he used to do this was shaking a little. He was now
frightened of the cop, but would have been more frightened still if the cop's
hands had been steady. And what had just happened was no isolated case. The
gunshot seemed to have done something to Clay's hearing, cleared a circuit in
it or something. Now he could hear other gunshots, isolated cracks punctuating
the escalating cacophony of the day.
The cop took a
card—Clay thought it was a business card—from the slim leather case, then put
the case back in his breast pocket. He held the card between the first two
fingers of his left hand while his right hand once more dropped to the butt of
his service weapon. Near his highly polished shoes, blood from the lunatic's
shattered head was pooling on the sidewalk. Close by, Power Suit Woman lay in
another pool of blood, which was now starting to congeal and turn a darker
shade of red.
"What's your
name, sir?" the cop asked Clay.
"Clayton
Riddell."
"Can you tell me
who the president is?"
Clay told him.
"Sir, can you
tell me today's date?"
"It's the first
of October. Do you know what's—"
The cop looked at the
little man with the mustache. "Your name?"
"I'm Thomas
McCourt, 140 Salem Street, Maiden. I—"
"Can you name
the man who ran against the president in the last election?"
Tom McCourt did so.
"Who is Brad
Pitt married to?"
McCourt threw up his
hands. "How should I know? Some movie star, I think."
"Okay." The cop handed Clay the
card he'd been holding between his fingers. "I'm Officer Ulrich Ashland.
This is my card. You may be called on to testify about what just happened here,
gentlemen. What happened was you needed assistance, I rendered it, I was
attacked, I responded."
"You wanted to
kill him," Clay said.
"Yes, sir, we're
putting as many of them out of their misery as fast as we can," Officer
Ashland agreed. "And if you tell any court or board of inquiry that I said
that, I'll deny it. But it has to be done. These people are popping up
everywhere. Some only commit suicide. Many others attack." He hesitated,
then added: "So far as we can tell, all the others attack." As
if to underline this, there was another gunshot from across the street, a
pause, then three more, in rapid succession, from the shadowed forecourt of the
Four Seasons Hotel, which was now a tangle of broken glass, broken bodies,
crashed vehicles, and spilled blood. "It's like the fucking Night of
the Living Dead." Officer Ulrich Ashland started back toward Boylston
Street with his hand still on the butt of his gun. "Except these people
aren't dead. Unless we help them, that is."
"Rick!" It
was a cop on the other side of the street, calling urgently. "Rick, we
gotta go to Logan! All units! Get over here!"
Officer Ashland
checked for traffic, but there was none. Except for the wrecks, Boylston Street
was momentarily deserted. From the surrounding area, however, came the sound of
more explosions and automotive crashes. The smell of smoke was getting
stronger. He started across the street, got halfway, then turned back.
"Get inside somewhere," he said. "Get under cover. You've been
lucky once. You may not be lucky again."
"Officer
Ashland," Clay said. "Your guys don't use cell phones, do you?"
Ashland regarded him
from the center of Boylston Street—not, in Clay's opinion, a safe place to be.
He was thinking of the rogue Duck Boat. "No, sir," he said. "We
have radios in our cars. And these." He patted the radio in his belt, hung
opposite his holster. Clay, a comic-book fiend since he could read, thought
briefly of Batman's marvelous utility belt.
"Don't use
them," Clay said. "Tell the others. Don't use the cell
phones."
"Why do you say
that?"
"Because they
were." He pointed to the dead woman and the unconscious girl.
"Just before they went crazy. And I'll bet you anything that the guy with
the knife—"
"Rick!" the
cop on the other side shouted again. "Hurry the fuck up!"
"Get under cover," Officer
Ashland repeated, and trotted to the Four Seasons side of the street. Clay
wished he could have repeated the thing about the cell phones, but on the whole
he was just glad to see the cop out of harm's way. Not that he believed anyone in
Boston really was, not this afternoon.
4
"What
are you doing?" Clay asked Tom McCourt. "Don't touch him, he might
be, I don't know, contagious."
"I'm not going
to touch him," Tom said, "but I need my shoe."
The shoe, lying near
the splayed fingers of the lunatic's left hand, was at least away from the
exit-spray of blood. Tom hooked his fingers delicately into the back and pulled
it to him. Then he sat down on the curb of Boylston Street—right where the
Mister Softee truck had been parked in what now seemed to Clay like another
lifetime—and slipped his foot into it. "The laces are broken," he
said. "That damn nutball broke the laces." And he started crying
again.
"Do the best you
can," Clay said. He began working the butcher knife out of the portfolio.
It had been slammed through with tremendous force, and he found he had to
wiggle it up and down to free it. It came out reluctantly, in a series of
jerks, and with ugly scraping sounds that made him want to cringe. He kept
wondering who inside had gotten the worst of it. That was stupid, nothing but
shock-think, but he couldn't help it. "Can't you tie it down close to the
bottom?"
"Yeah, I think
s—"
Clay had been hearing
a mechanical mosquito whine that now grew to an approaching drone. Tom craned
up from his place on the curb. Clay turned around. The little caravan of BPD
cars pulling away from the Four Seasons halted in front of Citylights and the
crashed Duck Boat with their gumballs flashing. Cops leaned out the windows as
a private plane—something midsize, maybe a Cessna or the kind they called a
Twin Bonanza, Clay didn't really know planes—came cruising slowly over the
buildings between Boston Harbor and the Boston Common, dropping fast. The plane
banked drunkenly over the park, its lower wing almost brushing the top of one
autumn-bright tree, then settled into the canyon of Charles Street, as if the
pilot had decided that was a runway. Then, less than twenty feet above the
ground, it tilted left and the wing on that side struck the façade of a gray
stone building, maybe a bank, on the corner of Charles and Beacon. Any sense
that the plane was moving slowly, almost gliding, departed in that instant. It
spun around on the caught wing as savagely as a tetherball nearing the end of
its rope, slammed into the redbrick building standing next to the bank, and
disappeared in bright petals of red-orange fire. The shockwave hammered across
the park. Ducks took wing before it.
Clay looked down and
saw he was holding the butcher knife in his hand. He had pulled it free while
he and Tom McCourt were watching the plane crash. He wiped it first one way and
then the other on the front of his shirt, taking pains not to cut himself (now his
hands were shaking). Then he slipped it—very carefully—into his belt, all
the way down to the handle. As he did this, one of his early comic-book efforts
occurred to him . . . a bit of juvenilia, actually.
"Joxer the
Pirate stands here at your service, my pretty one," he murmured.
"What?" Tom
asked. He was now beside Clay, staring at the boiling inferno of the airplane
on the far side of Boston Common. Only the tail stuck out of the fire. On it
Clay could read the number LN6409B. Above it was what looked like some
sports team's logo.
Then that was gone,
too.
He could feel the
first waves of heat begin to pump gently against his face.
"Nothing,"
he told the little man in the tweed suit. "Leave us boogie."
"Huh?"
"Let's
get out of here."
"Oh. Okay."
Clay started to walk
along the southern side of the Common, in the direction he'd been heading at three o'clock, eighteen minutes and
an eternity ago. Tom McCourt hurried to keep up. He really was a very short
man. "Tell me," he said, "do you often talk nonsense?"
"Sure,"
Clay said. "Just ask my wife."
5
"Where
are we going?" Tom asked. "I was headed for the T." He pointed
to a green-painted kiosk about a block ahead. A small crowd of people were
milling there. "Now I'm not sure being underground is such a hot
idea."
"Me,
either," Clay said. "I've got a room at a place called the Atlantic
Avenue Inn, about five blocks further up."
Tom brightened.
"I think I know it. On Louden, actually, just off Atlantic."
"Right. Let's go
there. We can check the TV And I want to call my wife."
"On the room
phone."
"The room phone,
check. I don't even have a cell phone."
"I have one, but
I left it home. It's broken. Rafe—my cat—knocked it off the counter. I was
meaning to buy a new one this very day, but. . . listen. Mr. Riddell—"
"Clay."
"Clay, then. Are
you sure the phone in your room will be safe?"
Clay stopped. He
hadn't even considered this idea. But if the landlines weren't okay, what would
be? He was about to say this to Tom when a sudden brawl broke out at the T
station up ahead. There were cries of panic, screams, and more of that wild
babbling—he recognized it for what it was now, the signature scribble of
madness. The little knot of people that had been milling around the gray stone
pillbox and the steps going below-ground broke up. A few of them ran into the
street, two with their arms around each other, snatching looks back over their
shoulders as they went. More—most—ran into the park, all in different directions,
which sort of broke Clay's heart. He felt better somehow about the two with
their arms around each other.
Still at the T
station and on their feet were two men and two women.
Clay was pretty sure
it was they who had emerged from the station and driven off the rest. As Clay
and Tom stood watching from half a block away, these remaining four fell to
fighting with each other. This brawl had the hysterical, killing viciousness he
had already seen, but no discernible pattern. It wasn't three against one, or
two against two, and it certainly wasn't the boys against the girls; in fact,
one of the "girls" was a woman who looked to be in her middle
sixties, with a stocky body and a no-nonsense haircut that made Clay think of
several women teachers he'd known who were nearing retirement.
They fought with feet
and fists and nails and teeth, grunting and shouting and circling the bodies of
maybe half a dozen people who had already been knocked unconscious, or perhaps
killed. One of the men stumbled over an outstretched leg and went to his knees.
The younger of the two women dropped on top of him. The man on his knees swept
something up from the pavement at the head of the stairs—Clay saw with no
surprise whatever that it was a cell phone—and slammed it into the side of the
woman's face. The cell phone shattered, tearing the woman's cheek open and
showering a freshet of blood onto the shoulder of her light jacket, but her
scream was of rage rather than pain. She grabbed the kneeling man's ears like a
pair of jughandles, dropped her own knees into his lap, and shoved him
backwards into the gloom of the T's stairwell. They went out of sight locked
together and thrashing like cats in heat.
"Come on,"
Tom murmured, twitching Clay's shirt with an odd delicacy. "Come on. Other
side of the street. Come on."
Clay allowed himself
to be led across Boylston Street. He assumed that either Tom McCourt was
watching where they were going or he was lucky, because they got to the other
side okay. They stopped again in front of Colonial Books (Best of the Old, Best
of the New), watching as the unlikely victor of the T station battle went
striding into the park in the direction of the burning plane, with blood
dripping onto her collar from the ends of her zero-tolerance gray hair. Clay
wasn't a bit surprised that the last one standing had turned out to be the lady
who looked like a librarian or Latin teacher a year or two away from a gold
watch. He had taught with his share of such ladies, and the ones who made it to
that age were, more often than not, next door to indestructible.
He opened his mouth
to say something like this to Tom—in his mind it sounded quite witty—and what
came out was a watery croak. His vision had come over shimmery, too. Apparently
Tom McCourt, the little man in the tweed suit, wasn't the only one having
trouble with his waterworks. Clay swiped an arm across his eyes, tried again to
talk, and managed no more than another of those watery croaks.
"That's
okay," Tom said. "Better let it come."
And so, standing
there in front of a shop window filled with old books surrounding a Royal
typewriter hailing from long before the era of cellular communications, Clay
did. He cried for Power Suit Woman, for Pixie Light and Pixie Dark, and he
cried for himself, because Boston was not his home, and home had never seemed
so far.
6
Above the Common Boylston Street narrowed and became so choked with
cars—both those wrecked and those plain abandoned—that they no longer had to
worry about kamikaze limos or rogue Duck Boats. Which was a relief. From all
around them the city banged and crashed like New Year's Eve in hell. There was
plenty of noise close by, as well—car alarms and burglar alarms, mostly—but the
street itself was for the moment eerily deserted. Get under cover, Officer
Ulrich Ashland had said. You've been lucky once. You may not be lucky
again.
But, two blocks east
of Colonial Books and still a block from Clay's not-quite-fleabag hotel, they were
lucky again. Another lunatic, this one a young man of perhaps twenty-five
with muscles that looked tuned by Nautilus and Cybex, bolted from an alley just
in front of them and went dashing across the street, hurdling the locked
bumpers of two cars, foaming out an unceasing lava-flow of that nonsense-talk
as he went. He held a car aerial in each hand and stabbed them rapidly back and
forth in the air like daggers as he cruised his lethal course. He was naked
except for a pair of what looked like brand-new Nikes with bright red swooshes.
His cock swung from side to side like the pendulum of a grandfather clock on
speed. He hit the far sidewalk and sidewheeled west, back toward the Common,
his butt clenching and unclenching in fantastic rhythm.
Tom McCourt clutched
Clay's arm, and hard, until this latest lunatic was gone, then slowly relaxed
his grip. "If he'd seen us—" he began.
"Yeah, but he
didn't," Clay said. He felt suddenly, absurdly happy. He knew that the
feeling would pass, but for the moment he was delighted to ride it. He felt
like a man who has successfully drawn to an inside straight with the biggest
pot of the night lying on the table in front of him.
"I pity who he does
see," Tom said.
"I pity who sees
him," Clay said. "Come on."
7
The doors of the Atlantic Avenue Inn were locked.
Clay was so
surprised that for a moment he could only stand there, trying to turn the knob
and feeling it slip through his fingers, trying to get the idea through his
head: locked. The doors of his hotel, locked against him.
Tom stepped up beside
him, leaned his forehead against the glass to cut the glare, and peered in.
From the north—from Logan, surely—came another of those monster explosions, and
this time Clay only twitched. He didn't think Tom McCourt reacted at all. Tom
was too absorbed in what he was seeing.
"Dead guy on the
floor," he announced at last. "Wearing a uniform, but he really looks
too old to be a bellhop."
"I don't want
anyone to carry my fucking luggage," Clay said. "I just want to go up
to my room."
Tom made an odd
little snorting sound. Clay thought maybe the little guy was starting to cry
again, then realized that sound was smothered laughter.
The double doors had ATLANTIC
AVENUE INN printed on one glass panel and a blatant lie—BOSTON'S FINEST
ADDRESS— printed on the other. Tom slapped the flat of his hand on the
glass of the lefthand panel, between BOSTON'S FINEST ADDRESS and a row
of credit card decals.
Now Clay was peering
in, too. The lobby wasn't very big. On the left was the reception desk. On the
right was a pair of elevators. On the floor was
a turkey-red rug. The old guy in the uniform lay on this, facedown, with one
foot up on a couch and a framed Currier & Ives sailing-ship print on his
ass.
Clay's good feelings left in a rush, and
when Tom began to hammer on the glass instead of just slap, he put his hand
over Tom's fist. "Don't bother," he said. "They're not going to
let us in, even if they're alive and sane." He thought about that and nodded.
"Especially if they're sane."
Tom looked at him
wonderingly. "You don't get it, do you?"
"Huh? Get
what?"
"Things have
changed. They can't keep us out." He pushed Clay's hand off his own, but
instead of hammering, he put his forehead against the glass again and shouted.
Clay thought he had a pretty good shouting voice on him for a little guy. "Hey!
Hey, in there!"
A pause. In the lobby
nothing changed. The old bellman went on being dead with a picture on his ass.
"Hey, if
you're in there, you better open the door! The man I'm with is a paying guest
of the hotel and I'm his guest! Open up or I'm going to grab a curbstone and
break the glass! You hear me?"
"A curbstone?."
Clay said. He started to laugh. "Did you say curbstone? Jolly good."
He laughed harder. He couldn't help it. Then movement to his left caught
his eye. He looked around and saw a teenage girl standing a little way farther
up the street. She was looking at them out of haggard blue disaster-victim
eyes. She was wearing a white dress, and there was a vast bib of blood on the
front of it. More blood was crusted beneath her nose, on her lips and chin.
Other than the bloody nose she didn't look hurt, and she didn't look crazy at
all, just shocked. Shocked almost to death.
"Are you all
right?" Clay asked. He took a step toward her and she took a corresponding
step back. Under the circumstances, he couldn't blame her. He stopped but held
a hand up to her like a traffic cop: Stay put.
Tom glanced around
briefly, then began to hammer on the door again, this time hard enough to
rattle the glass in its old wooden frame and make his reflection shiver. "Last
chance, then we're coming in!"
Clay turned and
opened his mouth to tell him that masterful shit wasn't going to cut it, not
today, and then a bald head rose slowly from behind the reception desk. It was
like watching a periscope surface. Clay recognized that head even before it got to the face;
it belonged to the clerk who'd checked him in yesterday and stamped a
validation on his parking-lot ticket for the lot a block over, the same clerk
who'd given him directions to the Copley Square Hotel this morning.
For a moment he still
lingered behind the desk, and Clay held up his room key with the green plastic
Atlantic Avenue Inn fob hanging down. Then he also held up his portfolio,
thinking the desk clerk might recognize it.
Maybe he did. More
likely he just decided he had no choice. In either case, he used the
pass-through at the end of the desk and crossed quickly to the door, detouring
around the body. Clay Riddell believed he might be witnessing the first
reluctant scurry he had ever seen in his life. When the desk clerk reached the
other side of the door, he looked from Clay to Tom and then back to Clay again.
Although he did not appear particularly reassured by what he saw, he produced a
ring of keys from one pocket, flicked rapidly through them, found one, and used
it on his side of the door. When Tom reached for the handle, the bald clerk
held his hand up much as Clay had held his up to the bloodstained girl behind
them. The clerk found a second key, used this one in another lock, and opened
the door.
"Come in,"
he said. "Hurry." Then he saw the girl, lingering at a little
distance and watching. "Not her."
"Yes, her,"
Clay said. "Come on, honey." But she wouldn't, and when Clay took a
step toward her, she whirled and took off running, the skirt of her dress
flying out behind her.
8
"She
could die out there," Clay said.
"Not my problem," the desk clerk
said. "Are you coming in or not, Mr. Riddle?" He had a Boston accent,
not the blue-collar-Southie kind Clay was most familiar with from Maine, where
it seemed that every third person you met was a Massachusetts expat, but the
fussy I-wish-I-were-British one.
"It's
Riddell." He was coming in all right, no way this guy was going to keep
him out now that the door was open, but he lingered a moment longer on the
sidewalk, looking after the girl.
"Go on,"
Tom said quietly. "Nothing to be done."
And he was right.
Nothing to be done. That was the exact hell of it. He followed Tom in, and the
desk clerk once more double-locked the doors of the Atlantic Avenue Inn behind
them, as if that were all it would take to keep them from the chaos of the
streets.
9
"That
was Franklin," said the desk clerk as he led the way around the uniformed
man lying facedown on the floor.
He looks too old
to be a bellhop, Tom had said, peering in through the window, and Clay thought
he certainly did. He was a small man, with a lot of luxuriant white hair.
Unfortunately for him, the head on which it was probably still growing (hair
and nails were slow in getting the word, or so he had read somewhere) was
cocked at a terrible crooked angle, like the head of a hanged man. "He'd
been with the Inn for thirty-five years, as I'm sure he told every guest he
ever checked in. Most of them twice."
That tight little
accent grated on Clay's frayed nerves. He thought that if it had been a fart,
it would have been the kind that comes out sounding like a party-horn blown by
a kid with asthma.
"A man came out
of the elevator," the desk clerk said, once more using the pass-through to
get behind the desk. Back there was apparently where he felt at home. The
overhead light struck his face and Clay saw he was very pale. "One of the
crazy ones. Franklin had the bad luck to be standing right there in front of
the doors—"
"I don't suppose
it crossed your mind to at least take the damn picture off his ass," Clay
said. He bent down, picked up the Currier & Ives print, and put it on the
couch. At the same time, he brushed the dead bellman's foot off the cushion
where it had come to rest. It fell with a sound Clay knew very well. He had
rendered it in a great many comic books as CLUMP.
"The
man from the elevator only hit him with one punch," the desk clerk said.
"It knocked poor Franklin all the way against the wall. I think it broke
his neck. In any case, that was what dislodged the picture, Franklin striking
the wall."
In the desk clerk's
mind, this seemed to justify everything.
"What about the
man who hit him?" Tom asked. "The crazy guy? Where'd he go?"
"Out," the
desk clerk said. "That was when I felt locking the door to be by far the
wisest course. After he went out." He looked at them with a combination of
fear and prurient, gossipy greed that Clay found singularly distasteful.
"What's happening out there? How bad has it gotten?"
"I think you
must have a pretty good idea," Clay said. "Isn't that why you locked
the door?"
"Yes, but—"
"What are they
saying on TV?" Tom asked.
"Nothing. The
cable's been out—" He glanced at his watch. "For almost half an hour
now."
"What about the
radio?"
The desk clerk gave Tom a prissy you-must-be-joking
look. Clay was starting to think this guy could write a book—How to Be
Disliked on Short Notice. "Radio in this place? In any downtown
hotel? You must be joking."
From outside came a
high-pitched wail of fear. The girl in the bloodstained white dress appeared at
the door again and began pounding on it with the flat of her hand, looking over
her shoulder as she did so. Clay started for her, fast.
"No, he locked
it again, remember?" Tom shouted at him.
Clay hadn't. He
turned to the desk clerk. "Unlock it."
"No," the
desk clerk said, and crossed both arms firmly over his narrow chest to show how
firmly he meant to oppose this course of action. Outside, the girl in the white
dress looked over her shoulder again and pounded harder. Her blood-streaked
face was tight with terror.
Clay pulled the
butcher knife out of his belt. He had almost forgotten it and was sort of
astonished at how quickly, how naturally, it returned to mind. "Open it,
you sonofabitch," he told the desk clerk, "or I'll cut your
throat."
10
"No
time!" Tom yelled, and grabbed one of the high-backed, bogus Queen Anne
chairs that flanked the lobby sofa. He ran it at the double doors with the legs
up.
The girl saw
him coming and cringed away, raising both of her hands to protect her face. At
the same instant the man who had been chasing her appeared in front of the
door. He was an enormous construction-worker type with a slab of a gut pushing
out the front of his yellow T-shirt and a greasy salt-and-pepper ponytail
bouncing up and down on the back of it.
The chair-legs hit
the panes of glass in the double doors, the two legs on the left shattering
through ATLANTIC AVENUE INN and the two on the right through BOSTON'S
FINEST ADDRESS. The ones on the right punched into the construction-worker
type's meaty, yellow-clad left shoulder just as he grabbed the girl by the
neck. The underside of the chair's seat fetched up against the solid seam where
the two doors met and Tom McCourt went staggering backward, dazed.
The
construction-worker guy was roaring out that speaking-in-tongues gibberish, and
blood had begun to course down the freckled meat of his left biceps. The girl
managed to pull free of him, but her feet tangled together and she went down in
a heap, half on the sidewalk and half in the gutter, crying out in pain and
fear.
Clay was standing
framed in one of the shattered glass door-panels with no memory of crossing the
room and only the vaguest one of raking the chair out of his way. "Hey
dickweed!" he shouted, and was marginally encouraged when the big man's
flood of crazy-talk ceased for a moment and he froze in his tracks. "Yeah,
you!" Clay shouted. "I'm talking to you!" And then, because it was
the only thing he could think of: "I fucked your mama, and she was one dry
hump!"
The large maniac in
the yellow shirt cried out something that sounded eerily like what the Power
Suit Woman had cried out just before meeting her end—eerily like Rast!—and
whirled back toward the building that had suddenly grown teeth and a voice and
attacked him. Whatever he saw, it couldn't have been a grim, sweaty-faced man
with a knife in his hand leaning out through a rectangular panel that had
lately held glass, because Clay had to do no
attacking at all. The man in the yellow shirt leaped onto the jutting
blade of the butcher knife. The Swedish steel slid smoothly into the hanging,
sunburned wattle beneath his chin and released a red waterfall. It doused
Clay's hand, amazingly hot—almost hot as a freshly poured cup of coffee, it
seemed—and he had to fight off an urge to pull away. Instead he pushed forward,
at last feeling the knife encounter resistance. It hesitated, but there was no
buckle in that baby. It ripped through gristle, then came out through the nape
of the big man's neck. He fell forward—Clay couldn't hold him back with one
arm, no way in hell, the guy had to go two-sixty, maybe even two-ninety—and for
a moment leaned against the door like a drunk against a lamppost, brown eyes
bulging, nicotine-stained tongue hanging from one corner of his mouth, neck
spewing. Then his knees came unhinged and he went down. Clay held on to the
handle of the knife and was amazed at how easily it came back out. Much easier
than pulling it back through the leather and reinforced particleboard of the
portfolio.
With the lunatic down
he could see the girl again, one knee on the sidewalk and the other in the
gutter, screaming through the curtain of hair hanging across her face.
"Honey," he
said. "Honey, don't." But she went on screaming.
11
Her name was Alice Maxwell. She could tell them that much. And she
could tell them that she and her mother had come into Boston on the train—from
Boxford, she said—to do some shopping, a thing they often did on Wednesday,
which she called her "short day" at the high school she attended. She
said they'd gotten off the train at South Station and grabbed a cab. She said
the cabdriver had been wearing a blue turban. She said the blue turban was the
last thing she could remember until the bald desk clerk had finally unlocked
the shattered double doors of the Atlantic Avenue Inn and let her in.
Clay thought she
remembered more. He based this on the way she began to tremble when Tom McCourt
asked her if either she or her mother had been carrying a cell phone. She
claimed not to remember, but Clay was sure one or
both of them had been. Everyone did these days, it seemed. He was just the
exception that proved the rule. And there was Tom, who might owe his life to
the cat that had knocked his off the counter.
They conversed with
Alice (the conversation consisted for the most part of Clay asking questions
while the girl sat mutely, looking down at her scraped knees and shaking her
head from time to time) in the hotel lobby. Clay and Tom had moved Franklin's
body behind the reception desk, dismissing the bald clerk's loud and bizarre
protest that "it will just be under my feet there." The clerk, who
had given his name simply as Mr. Ricardi, had since retired to his inner
office. Clay had followed him just long enough to ascertain that Mr. Ricardi
had been telling the truth about the TV being out of commish, then left him
there. Sharon Riddell would have said Mr. Ricardi was brooding in his tent.
The man hadn't let
Clay go without a parting shot, however. "Now we're open to the
world," he said bitterly. "I hope you think you've accomplished
something."
"Mr.
Ricardi," Clay said, as patiently as he could, "I saw a plane crash-land
on the other side of Boston Common not an hour ago. It sounds like more
planes—big ones—are doing the same thing at Logan. Maybe they're even making
suicide runs on the terminals. There are explosions all over downtown. I'd say
that this afternoon all of Boston is open to the world."
As if to underline
this point, a very heavy thump had come from above them. Mr. Ricardi didn't
look up. He only flapped a begone hand in Clay's direction. With no TV
to look at, he sat in his desk chair and looked severely at the wall.
12
Clay and Tom moved the two bogus Queen Anne chairs against the
door, where their high backs did a pretty good job of filling the shattered
frames that had once held glass. While Clay was sure that locking the hotel off
from the street offered flimsy or outright false security, he thought that
blocking the view from the street might be a good idea, and Tom had
concurred. Once the chairs were in place, they lowered the sun-blind over the
lobby's main window. That dimmed the room considerably and sent faint
prison-bar shadows marching across the turkey-red rug.
With these things
seen to, and Alice Maxwell's radically abridged tale told, Clay finally went to
the telephone behind the desk. He glanced at his watch. It was 4:22 p.m., a
perfectly logical time for it to be, except any ordinary sense of time seemed
to have been canceled. It felt like hours since he'd seen the man biting the
dog in the park. It also seemed like no time at all. But there was time,
such as humans measured it, anyway, and in Kent Pond, Sharon would surely be
back by now at the house he still thought of as home. He needed to talk to her.
To make sure she was all right and tell her he was, too, but those weren't the
important things. Making sure Johnny was all right, that was important, but
there was something even more important than that. Vital, really.
He didn't have a cell
phone, and neither did Sharon, he was almost positive of that. She might have
picked one up since they'd separated in April, he supposed, but they still
lived in the same town, he saw her almost every day, and he thought if she'd
picked one up, he would have known. For one thing, she would have given him the
number, right? Right. But—
But Johnny had one.
Little Johnny-Gee, who wasn't so little anymore, twelve wasn't so little, and
that was what he'd wanted for his last birthday. A red cell phone that played
the theme music from his favorite TV program when it rang. Of course he was
forbidden to turn it on or even take it out of his backpack when he was in
school, but school hours were over now. Also, Clay and Sharon actually encouraged
him to take it, partly because of the separation. There might be
emergencies, or minor inconveniences such as a missed bus. What Clay had to hang
on to was how Sharon had said she'd look into Johnny's room lately and more
often than not see the cell lying forgotten on his desk or the windowsill
beside his bed, off the charger and dead as dogshit.
Still, the thought of John's red cell phone ticked away in his
mind like a bomb.
Clay touched the
landline phone on the hotel desk, then withdrew his hand. Outside, something
else exploded, but this one was distant. It was like hearing an artillery shell
explode when you were well behind the lines.
Don't make that
assumption, he thought. Don't even assume there are lines.
He looked across the
lobby and saw Tom squatting beside Alice as she sat on the sofa. He was
murmuring to her quietly, touching one of her loafers and looking up into her
face. That was good. He was good. Clay was increasingly glad he'd run
into Tom McCourt . . .or that Tom McCourt had run into him.
The landlines were
probably all right. The question was whether probably was good enough. He had a
wife who was still sort of his responsibility, and when it came to his son
there was no sort-of at all. Even thinking of Johnny was dangerous. Every time
his mind turned to the boy, Clay felt a panic-rat inside his mind, ready to
burst free of the flimsy cage that held it and start gnawing anything it could
get at with its sharp little teeth. If he could make sure Johnny and Sharon
were okay, he could keep the rat in its cage and plan what to do next. But if
he did something stupid, he wouldn't be able to help anyone. In fact, he would
make things worse for the people here. He thought about this a little and then
called the desk clerk's name.
When there was no
answer from the inner office, he called again. When there was still no answer,
he said, "I know you hear me, Mr. Ricardi. If you make me come in there
and get you, it'll annoy me. I might get annoyed enough to consider putting you
out on the street."
"You can't do
that," Mr. Ricardi said in a tone of surly instruction. "You are a guest of
the hotel."
Clay thought of
repeating what Tom had said to him while they were still outside—things have
changed. Something made him keep silent instead.
"What," Mr.
Ricardi said at last. Sounding more surly than ever. From overhead came a
louder thump, as if someone had dropped a heavy piece of furniture. A bureau,
maybe. This time even the girl looked up. Clay thought he heard a muffled
shout—or maybe a howl of pain—but if so, there was no follow-up. What was on
the second floor? Not a restaurant, he remembered being told (by Mr. Ricardi
himself, when Clay checked in) that the hotel didn't have a restaurant, but the
Metropolitan Cafe was right next door. Meeting rooms, he thought. I'm
pretty sure it's meeting rooms with Indian names.
"What?" Mr.
Ricardi asked again. He sounded grouchier than ever.
"Did you try to
call anyone when all this started happening?"
"Well of
course!” Mr. Ricardi said. He came to the door between the inner office and
the area behind the reception desk, with its pigeonholes, security monitors,
and its bank of computers. There he looked at Clay indignantly. "The fire
alarms went off—I got them stopped, Doris said it was a wastebasket fire
on the third floor—and I called the Fire Department to tell them not to bother.
The line was busy! Busy, can you imagine!"
"You must have
been very upset," Tom said.
Mr. Ricardi looked
mollified for the first time. "I called the police when things outside
started . . . you know . . .to go downhill."
"Yes," Clay
said. To go downhill was one way of putting it, all right. "Did you
get an answer?"
"A man told me
I'd have to clear the line and then hung up on me," Mr. Ricardi said. The
indignation was creeping back into his voice. "When I called again—this
was after the crazy man came out of the elevator and killed Franklin—a woman
answered. She said . . ." Mr. Ricardi's voice had begun to quiver and Clay
saw the first tears running down the narrow defiles that marked the sides of
the man's nose. ". . . said . . ."
"What?" Tom
asked, in that same tone of mild sympathy. "What did she say, Mr.
Ricardi?"
"She said if
Franklin was dead and the man who killed him had run away, then I didn't have a
problem. It was she who advised me to lock myself in. She also told me to call
the hotel's elevators to lobby level and shut them off, which I did."
Clay and Tom
exchanged a look that carried a wordless thought: Good idea. Clay got a
sudden vivid image of bugs trapped between a closed window and a screen,
buzzing furiously but unable to get out. This picture had something to do with
the thumps they'd heard coming from above them. He wondered briefly how long
before the thumper or thumpers up there would find the stairs.
"Then she hung
up on me. After that, I called my wife in Milton."
"You got through
to her," Clay said, wanting to be clear on this.
"She was very
frightened. She asked me to come home. I told her I had been advised to stay
inside with the doors locked. Advised by the police. I told her to do the same thing. Lock up
and keep a, you know, low profile. She begged me to come home. She said
there had been gunshots on the street, and an explosion a street over. She said
she had seen a naked man running through the Benzycks' yard. The Benzycks live
next door to us."
"Yes," Tom
said mildly. Soothingly, even. Clay said nothing. He was a bit ashamed at how
angry he'd been at Mr. Ricardi, but Tom had been angry, too.
"She said she
believed the naked man might—might, she only said might—have been
carrying the body of a . . .mmm . . . nude child. But possibly it was a doll.
She begged me again to leave the hotel and come home."
Clay had what he
needed. The landlines were safe. Mr. Ricardi was in shock but not crazy. Clay
put his hand on the telephone. Mr. Ricardi laid his hand over Clay's before
Clay could pick up the receiver. Mr. Ricardi's fingers were long and pale and
very cold. Mr. Ricardi wasn't done. Mr. Ricardi was on a roll.
"She called me a
son of a bitch and hung up. I know she was angry with me, and of course I
understand why. But the police told me to lock up and stay put. The police told
me to keep off the streets. The police. The authorities."
Clay nodded.
"The authorities, sure."
"Did you come by
the T?" Mr. Ricardi asked. "I always use the T. It's just two blocks
down the street. It's very convenient."
"It wouldn't be
convenient this afternoon," Tom said. "After what we just saw, you
couldn't get me down there on a bet."
Mr. Ricardi looked at
Clay with mournful eagerness. "You see?"
Clay nodded again.
"You're better off in here," he said. Knowing that he meant to get
home and see to his boy. Sharon too, of course, but mostly his boy. Knowing he
would let nothing stop him unless something absolutely did. It was like a
weight in his mind that cast an actual shadow on his vision. "Much better
off." Then he picked up the phone and punched 9 for an outside line. He
wasn't sure he'd get one, but he did. He dialed 1, then 207, the area code for
all of Maine, and then 692, which was the prefix for Kent Pond and the
surrounding towns. He got three of the last four numbers—almost to the house he
still thought of as home—before the distinctive three-tone interrupt. A
recorded female voice followed. "We're sorry. All circuits are busy.
Please try your call again later."
On the heels of this
came a dial tone as some automated circuit disconnected him from Maine . . .if
that was where the robot voice had been coming from. Clay let the handset drop
to the level of his shoulder, as if it had grown very heavy. Then he put it
back in the cradle.
13
Tom told him he was crazy to want to leave.
For one
thing, he pointed out, they were relatively safe here in the Atlantic Avenue
Inn, especially with the elevators locked down and lobby access from the
stairwell blocked off. This they had done by piling boxes and suitcases from
the luggage room in front of the door at the end of the short corridor beyond
the elevator banks. Even if someone of extraordinary strength were to push
against that door from the other side, he'd only be able to shift the pile
against the facing wall, creating a gap of maybe six inches. Not enough to get
through.
For another, the
tumult in the city beyond their little safe haven actually seemed to be
increasing. There was a constant racket of conflicting alarms, shouts and
screams and racing engines, and sometimes the panic-tang of smoke, although the
day's brisk breeze seemed to be carrying the worst of that away from them. So
far, Clay thought, but did not say aloud, at least not yet—he didn't want
to frighten the girl any more than she already was. There were explosions that
never seemed to come singly but rather in spasms. One of those was so close
that they all ducked, sure the front window would blow in. It didn't, but after
that they moved to Mr. Ricardi's inner sanctum.
The third reason Tom
gave for thinking Clay was crazy to even think about leaving the
marginal safety of the Inn was that it was now quarter past five. The day would
be ending soon. He argued that trying to leave Boston in the dark would be
madness.
"Just take a
gander out there," he said, gesturing to Mr. Ricardi's little window,
which looked out on Essex Street. Essex was crowded with abandoned cars. There
was also at least one body, that of a young woman in jeans and a Red Sox sweatshirt. She lay facedown on the
sidewalk, both arms outstretched, as if she had died trying to swim, varitek, her sweatshirt proclaimed.
"Do you think you're going to drive your car? If you do, you better think
again."
"He's
right," Mr. Ricardi said. He was sitting behind his desk with his arms
once more folded across his narrow chest, a study in gloom. "You're in the
Tamworth Street Parking Garage. I doubt if you'd even succeed in securing your
keys."
Clay, who had already
given his car up as a lost cause, opened his mouth to say he wasn't planning to
drive (at least to start with), when another thump came from overhead, this one
heavy enough to make the ceiling shiver. It was accompanied by the faint but
distinctive shiver-jingle of breaking glass. Alice Maxwell, who was sitting in
the chair across the desk from Mr. Ricardi, looked up nervously and then seemed
to shrink further into herself.
"What's up
there?" Tom asked.
"It's the
Iroquois Room directly overhead," Mr. Ricardi replied. "The largest
of our three meeting rooms, and where we keep all of our supplies—chairs,
tables, audiovisual equipment." He paused. "And, although we have no
restaurant, we arrange for buffets or cocktail parties, if clients request such
service. That last thump . . ."
He didn't finish. As
far as Clay was concerned, he didn't need to. That last thump had been a
trolley stacked high with glassware being upended on the floor of the Iroquois
Room, where numerous other trolleys and tables had already been tipped over by
some madman who was rampaging back and forth up there. Buzzing around on the
second floor like a bug trapped between the window and the screen, something
without the wit to find a way out, something that could only run and break, run
and break.
Alice spoke up for
the first time in nearly half an hour, and without prompting for the first time
since they'd met her. "You said something about someone named Doris."
"Doris
Gutierrez." Mr. Ricardi was nodding. "The head housekeeper. Excellent
employee. Probably my best. She was on three, the last time I heard from
her."
"Did she
have—?" Alice wouldn't say it. Instead she made a gesture that had become
almost as familiar to Clay as the index finger across the lips indicating Shh.
Alice put her right hand to the side of her face with the thumb close to
her ear and the pinkie in front of her mouth.
"No," Mr.
Ricardi said, almost primly. "Employees have to leave them in their
lockers while they're on the job. One violation gets them a reprimand. Two and
they can be fired. I tell them this when they're taken on." He lifted one
thin shoulder in a half-shrug. "It's management's policy, not mine."
"Would she have
gone down to the second floor to investigate those sounds?" Alice asked.
"Possibly,"
Mr. Ricardi said. "I have no way of knowing. I only know that I haven't
heard from her since she reported the wastebasket fire out, and she hasn't
answered her pages. I paged her twice."
Clay didn't want to
say You see, it isn't safe here, either right out loud, so he looked
past Alice at Tom, trying to give him the basic idea with his eyes.
Tom said, "How
many people would you say are still upstairs?"
"I have no way
of knowing."
"If you had to
guess."
"Not many. As
far as the housekeeping staff goes, probably just Doris. The day crew leaves at
three, and the night crew doesn't come on until six." Mr. Ricardi pressed
his lips tightly together. "It's an economy gesture. One cannot say measure
because it doesn't work. As for guests . . ."
He considered.
"Afternoon is a
slack time for us, very slack. Last night's guests have all checked out, of
course—checkout time at the Atlantic Inn is noon— and tonight's guests wouldn't
begin checking in until four o'clock or so, on an ordinary afternoon. Which
this most definitely is not. Guests staying several days are usually here on
business. As I assume you were, Mr. Riddle."
Clay nodded without
bothering to correct Ricardi on his name.
"At
midafternoon, businesspeople are usually out doing whatever it was that brought
them to Boston. So you see, we have the place almost to ourselves."
As if to contradict
this, there came another thump from above them, more shattering glass, and a
faint feral growl. They all looked up.
"Clay,
listen," Tom said. "If the guy up there finds the stairs . . . I
don't know if these people are capable of thought, but—"
"Judging by what
we saw on the street," Clay said, "even calling them people might be
wrong. I've got an idea that guy up there is more like a bug trapped between a
window and a screen. A bug trapped like that might get out—if it found a
hole—and the guy up there might find the stairs, but if he does, I think it'll
be by accident."
"And when he
gets down and finds the door to the lobby blocked, he'll use the fire-door to
the alley," Mr. Ricardi said with what was, for him, eagerness.
"We'll hear the alarm—it's rigged to ring when anyone pushes the bar—and
we'll know he's gone. One less nut to worry about."
Somewhere south of
them something big blew up, and they all cringed. Clay supposed he now knew
what living in Beirut during the 1980s had been like.
"I'm trying to
make a point here," he said patiently.
"I don't think
so," Tom said. "You're going anyway, because you're worried about
your wife and son. You're trying to persuade us because you want company."
Clay blew out a
frustrated breath. "Sure I want company, but that's not why I'm trying to
talk you into coming. The smell of smoke's stronger, but when's the last time
you heard a siren?"
None of them replied.
"Me
either," Clay said. "I don't think things are going to get better in
Boston, not for a while. They're going to get worse. If it was the cell
phones—"
"She tried to
leave a message for Dad," Alice said. She spoke rapidly, as if wanting to
make sure she got all the words out before the memory flew away. "She just
wanted to make sure he'd pick up the dry cleaning because she needed her yellow
wool dress for her committee meeting and I needed my extra uni for the away
game on Saturday. This was in the cab. And then we crashed! She choked the
man and she bit the man and his turban fell off and there was blood on the side
of his face and we crashed!"
Alice looked around
at their three staring faces, then put her own face in her hands and began to sob. Tom moved
to comfort her, but Mr. Ricardi surprised Clay by coming around his desk and
putting one pipestemmy arm around the girl before Tom could get to her.
"There-there," he said. "I'm sure it was all a misunderstanding,
young lady."
She looked up at him,
her eyes wide and wild. "Misunderstanding?" She indicated the
dried bib of blood on the front of her dress. "Does this look like a misunderstanding?
I used the karate from the self-defense classes I took in junior high. I
used karate on my own mother! I broke her nose, I think . . . I'm sure .
. ." Alice shook her head rapidly, her hair flying. "And
still, if I hadn't been able to reach behind me and get the door open . .
."
"She would have
killed you," Clay said flatly.
"She would have
killed me," Alice agreed in a whisper. "She didn't know who I was. My
own mother." She looked from Clay to Tom. "It was the cell
phones," she said in that same whisper. "It was the cell phones, all
right."
14
"So
how many of the damn things are there in Boston?" Clay asked. "What's
the market penetration?"
"Given the large
numbers of college students, I'd say it's got to be huge," Mr. Ricardi
replied. He had resumed his seat behind his desk, and now he looked a little
more animated. Comforting the girl might have done it, or perhaps it was being
asked a business-oriented question. "Although it goes much further than
affluent young people, of course. I read an article in Inc. only a month
or two ago that claimed there's now as many cell phones in mainland China as
there are people in America. Can you imagine?"
Clay didn't want to
imagine.
"All
right." Tom was nodding reluctantly. "I see where you're going with
this. Someone—some terrorist outfit—rigs the cell phone signals somehow. If you
make a call or take one, you get some kind of a . . . what? . . . some kind of
a subliminal message, I guess . . . that makes you crazy. Sounds like science
fiction, but I suppose fifteen or twenty years ago, cell phones as they now
exist would have seemed like science fiction to most people."
"I'm pretty sure
it's something like that," Clay said. "You can get enough of it to
screw you up righteously if you even overhear a call." He was
thinking of Pixie Dark. "But the insidious thing is that when people see
things going wrong all around them—"
"Their first
impulse is to reach for their cell phones and try to find out what's causing
it," Tom said.
"Yeah,"
Clay said. "I saw people doing it."
Tom looked at him
bleakly. "So did I."
"What all this
has to do with you leaving the safety of the hotel, especially with dark coming
on, I don't know," Mr. Ricardi said.
As if in answer,
there came another explosion. It was followed by half a dozen more, marching
off to the southeast like the diminishing footsteps of a giant. From above them
came another thud, and a faint cry of rage.
"I don't think
the crazy ones will have the brains to leave the city any more than that guy up
there can find his way to the stairs," Clay said.
For a moment he
thought the look on Tom's face was shock, and then he realized it was something
else. Amazement, maybe. And dawning hope. "Oh, Christ," he said, and
actually slapped the side of his face with one hand. "They won't
leave. I never thought of that."
"There might be
something else," Alice said. She was biting her lip and looking down at
her hands, which were working together in a restless knot. She forced herself
to look up at Clay. "It might actually be safer to go after
dark."
"Why's that,
Alice?"
"If they can't
see you—if you can get behind something, if you can hide—they forget about you
almost right away."
"What makes you
think that, honey?" Tom asked.
"Because I hid
from the man who was chasing me," she said in a low voice. "The guy
in the yellow shirt. This was just before I saw you. I hid in an alley. Behind
one of those Dumpster thingies? I was scared, because I thought there might not
be any way back out if he came in after me, but it was all I could think of to
do. I saw him standing at the mouth of the alley, looking around, walking around
and around—walking the worry-circle, my grampa would say—and at first I thought
he was playing with me, you know? Because he had to've seen me go into
the alley, I was only a few feet ahead of
him . . . just a few feet . . . almost close enough to grab . . ." Alice
began to tremble. "But once I was in there, it was like . . . I dunno . .
."
"Out of sight,
out of mind," Tom said. "But if he was that close, why did you stop
running?"
"Because I couldn't
anymore," Alice said. "I just couldn't. My legs were like rubber, and
I felt like I was going to shake myself apart from the inside. But it turned
out I didn't have to run, anyway. He walked the worry-circle a few more times,
muttering that crazy talk, and then just walked off. I could hardly believe it.
I thought he had to be trying to fake me out. . . but at the same time I knew
he was too crazy for anything like that." She glanced briefly at Clay,
then back down at her hands again. "My problem was running into him again.
I should have stuck with you guys the first time. I can be pretty stupid
sometimes."
"You were
sca—" Clay began, and then the biggest explosion yet came from somewhere
east of them, a deafening KER-WHAM! that made them all duck and cover
their ears. They heard the window in the lobby shatter.
"My . . . God,"
Mr. Ricardi said. His wide eyes underneath that bald head made him look to Clay
like Little Orphan Annie's mentor, Daddy Warbucks. "That might have been
the new Shell superstation they put in over on Kneeland. The one all the taxis
and the Duck Boats use. It was the right direction."
Clay had no idea if
Ricardi was right, he couldn't smell burning gasoline (at least not yet), but
his visually trained mind's eye could see a triangle of city concrete now
burning like a propane torch in the latening day.
"Can a modern
city burn?" he asked Tom. "One made mostly of concrete and metal and
glass? Could it burn the way Chicago did after Mrs. O'Leary's cow kicked over
the lantern?"
"That
lantern-kicking business was nothing but an urban legend," Alice said. She
was rubbing the back of her neck as if she were getting a bad headache.
"Mrs. Myers said so, in American History."
"Sure it
could," Tom said. "Look what happened to the World Trade Center,
after those airplanes hit it."
"Airplanes full
of jet fuel," Mr. Ricardi said pointedly.
As if the bald desk
clerk had conjured it, the smell of burning gasoline began to come to them,
wafting through the shattered lobby windows and sliding beneath the door to the
inner office like bad mojo.
"I guess you
were on the nose about that Shell station," Tom remarked.
Mr. Ricardi went to
the door between his office and the lobby. He unlocked it and opened it. What
Clay could see of the lobby beyond already looked deserted and gloomy and
somehow irrelevant. Mr. Ricardi sniffed audibly, then closed the door and
locked it again. "Fainter already," he said.
"Wishful
thinking," Clay said. "Either that or your nose is getting used to
the aroma."
"I think he
might be right," Tom said. "That's a good west wind out there—by
which I mean the air's moving toward the ocean—and if what we just heard was
that new station they put in on the corner of Kneeland and Washington, by the
New England Medical Center—"
"That's the one,
all right," Mr. Ricardi said. His face registered glum satisfaction.
"Oh, the protests! The smart money fixed that, believe you m—"
Tom overrode him.
"—then the hospital will be on fire by now . . . along with anybody left
inside, of course . . ."
"No," Alice
said, then put a hand over her mouth.
"I think yes.
And the Wang Center's next in line. The breeze may drop by full dark, but if it
doesn't, everything east of the Mass Pike is apt to be so much toasted cheese
by ten p.m."
"We're west of
there," Mr. Ricardi pointed out.
"Then we're safe
enough," Clay said. "At least from that one." He went to
Mr. Ricardi's little window, stood on his toes, and peered out onto Essex
Street.
"What do you
see?" Alice asked. "Do you see people?"
"No . . . yes.
One man. Other side of the street."
"Is he one of
the crazy ones?" she asked.
"I can't
tell." But Clay thought he was. It was the way he ran, and the jerky way
he kept looking back over his shoulder. Once, just before he went around the
corner and onto Lincoln Street, the guy almost ran into a fruit display in front of a grocery
store. And although Clay couldn't hear him, he could see the man's lips moving.
"Now he's gone."
"No one
else?" Tom asked.
"Not at the
moment, but there's smoke." Clay paused. "Soot and ash, too. I can't
tell how much. The wind's whipping it around."
"Okay, I'm
convinced," Tom said. "I've always been a slow learner but never a
no-learner. The city's going to burn and nobody's going to stand pat but the
crazy people."
"I think that's
right," Clay said. And he didn't think this was true of just Boston, but
for the time being, Boston was all he could bear to consider. In time he might
be able to widen his view, but not until he knew Johnny was safe. Or maybe the
big picture was always going to be beyond him. He drew small pictures for a
living, after all. But in spite of everything, the selfish fellow who lived
like a limpet on the underside of his mind had time to send up a clear thought.
It came in colors of blue and dark sparkling gold. Why did it have to happen today, of
all days? Just after I finally made a solid strike?
"Can I come with
you guys, if you go?" Alice asked.
"Sure,"
Clay said. He looked at the desk clerk. "You can, too, Mr. Ricardi."
"I shall stay at
my post," Mr. Ricardi said. He spoke loftily, but before they shifted away
from Clay's, his eyes looked sick.
"I don't think you'll get in Dutch
with the management for locking up and leaving under these circumstances,"
Tom said. He spoke in the gentle fashion Clay was so much coming to like.
"I shall stay at
my post," he said again. "Mr. Donnelly, the day manager, went out to
make the afternoon deposit at the bank and left me in charge. If he comes back,
perhaps then . . ."
"Please, Mr.
Ricardi," Alice said. "Staying here is no good."
But Mr. Ricardi, who
had once more crossed his arms over his thin chest, only shook his head.
15
They moved one of the Queen Anne chairs aside, and Mr. Ricardi
unlocked the front doors for them. Clay looked out. He could see no people moving in either direction, but it
was hard to tell for sure because the air was now full of fine dark ash. It
danced in the breeze like black snow.
"Come on,"
he said. They were only going next door to start with, to the Metropolitan
Cafe.
"I'm going to relock the door and put the chair back in
place," Mr. Ricardi said, "but I'll be listening. If you run into
trouble—if there are more of those . . .people . . . hiding in
the Metropolitan, for instance—and you have to retreat, just remember to shout,
'Mr. Ricardi, Mr. Ricardi, we need you!' That way I'll know it's safe to open
the door. Is that understood?"
"Yes," Clay
said. He squeezed Mr. Ricardi's thin shoulder. The desk clerk flinched, then
stood firm (although he showed no particular sign of pleasure at being so
saluted). "You're all right. I didn't think you were, but I was
wrong."
"I hope I do my
best," the bald man said stiffly. "Just remember—"
"We'll
remember," Tom said. "And we'll be over there maybe ten minutes. If
anything goes wrong over here, you give a shout."
"All
right." But Clay didn't think he would. He didn't know why he thought
that, it made no sense to think a man wouldn't give a shout to save himself if
he was in trouble, but Clay did think it.
Alice said, "Please
change your mind, Mr. Ricardi. It's not safe in Boston, you must know that
by now."
Mr. Ricardi only
looked away. And Clay thought, not without wonder, This is how a
man looks when he's deciding that the risk of death is better than the risk of
change.
"Come on,"
Clay said. "Let's make some sandwiches while we've still got electricity
to see by."
"Some bottled
water wouldn't hurt, either," Tom said.
16
The electricity failed just as they were wrapping the last of their
sandwiches in the Metropolitan Cafe's tidy, white-tiled little kitchen. By then
Clay had tried three more times to get through to Maine: once to his old house, once to Kent Pond Elementary, where
Sharon taught, and once to Joshua Chamberlain Middle School, which Johnny now
attended. In no case did he get further than Maine's 207 area code.
When the lights in
the Metropolitan went out, Alice screamed in what at first seemed to Clay like
total darkness. Then the emergency lights came on. Alice was not much
comforted. She was clinging to Tom with one arm. In the other she was brandishing
the bread-knife she'd used to cut the sandwiches with. Her eyes were wide and
somehow flat.
"Alice, put that
knife down," Clay said, a little more harshly than he'd intended.
"Before you cut one of us with it."
"Or
yourself," Tom said in that mild and soothing voice of his. His spectacles
glinted in the glare of the emergency lights.
She put it down, then
promptly picked it up again. "I want it," she said. "I want to
take it with me. You have one, Clay. I want one."
"All right,"
he said, "but you don't have a belt. We'll make you one from a tablecloth.
For now, just be careful."
Half the sandwiches
were roast beef and cheese, half ham and cheese. Alice had wrapped them in
Saran Wrap. Under the cash register Clay found a stack of sacks with DOGGY BAG
written on one side and people bag written
on the other. He and Tom tumbled the sandwiches into a pair of these. Into a
third bag they put three bottles of water.
The tables had been
made up for a dinner-service that was never going to happen. Two or three had
been tumbled over but most stood perfect, with their glasses and silver shining
in the hard light of the emergency boxes on the walls. Something about their
calm orderliness hurt Clay's heart. The cleanliness of the folded napkins, and
the little electric lamps on each table. Those were now dark, and he had an
idea it might be a long time before the bulbs inside lit up again.
He saw Alice and Tom
gazing about with faces as unhappy as his felt, and a desire to cheer them
up—almost manic in its urgency—came over him. He remembered a trick he used to
do for his son. He wondered again about Johnny's cell phone and the panic-rat
took another nip out of him. Clay hoped with all his heart the damned phone was
lying forgotten under Johnny-Gee's bed among the dust-kitties, with its battery
flat-flat-flat.
"Watch this
carefully," he said, setting his bag of sandwiches aside, "and please
note that at no time do my hands leave my wrists." He grasped the hanging
skirt of a tablecloth.
"This is hardly
the time for parlor tricks," Tom said.
"I want to
see," Alice said. For the first time since they'd met her, there was a
smile on her face. It was small but it was there.
"We need the
tablecloth," Clay said, "it won't take a second, and besides, the
lady wants to see." He turned to Alice. "But you have to say a magic
word. Shazam will do."
"Shazam!"
she said, and Clay pulled briskly with both hands.
He hadn't done the
trick in two, maybe even three years, and it almost didn't work. And yet at the
same time, his mistake—some small hesitation in the pull, no doubt—actually
added to the charm of the thing. Instead of staying where they were while the
tablecloth magically disappeared from beneath them, all the place-settings on
the table moved about four inches to the right. The glass nearest to where Clay
was standing actually wound up with its circular base half on and half off the
table.
Alice applauded, now
laughing. Clay took a bow with his hands held out.
"Can we go now,
O great Vermicelli?" Tom asked, but even Tom was smiling. Clay could see
his small teeth in the emergency lights.
"Soon's I rig
this," Clay said. "She can carry the knife on one side and a bag of
sandwiches on the other. You can tote the water." He folded the tablecloth
over into a triangle shape, then rolled it quickly into a belt. He slipped a
bag of sandwiches onto this by the bag's carrier handles, then put the
tablecloth around the girl's slim waist, having to take a turn and a half and
tie the knot in back to make the thing secure. He finished by sliding the
serrated bread-knife home on the right side.
"Say, you're
pretty handy," Tom said.
"Handy is
dandy," Clay said, and then something else blew up outside, close enough
to shake the cafe. The glass that had been standing half on and half off the
table lost its balance, tumbled to the floor, and shattered. The three of them
looked at it. Clay thought to tell them he didn't believe in omens, but that
would only make things worse. Besides, he did.
17
Clay had his reasons for wanting to go back to the Atlantic Avenue
Inn before they set off. One was to retrieve his portfolio, which he'd left
sitting in the lobby. Another was to see if they couldn't find some sort of
makeshift scabbard for Alice's knife—he reckoned even a shaving kit would do,
if it was long enough. A third was to give Mr. Ricardi another chance to join
them. He was surprised to find he wanted this even more than he wanted the
forgotten portfolio of drawings. He had taken an odd, reluctant liking to the
man.
When he
confessed this to Tom, Tom surprised him by nodding. "It's the way I feel
about anchovies on pizza," he said. "I tell myself there's something
disgusting about a combination of cheese, tomato sauce, and dead fish . . . but
sometimes that shameful urge comes over me and I can't stand against it."
A blizzard of black
ash and soot was blowing up the street and between the buildings. Car alarms
warbled, burglar alarms brayed, and fire alarms clanged. There seemed to be no
heat in the air, but Clay could hear the crackle of fire to the south and east
of them. The smell of burning was stronger, too. They heard voices shouting,
but these were back toward the Common, where Boylston Street widened.
When they got next
door to the Atlantic Avenue Inn, Tom helped Clay push one of the Queen Anne
chairs away from one of the broken glass door-panels. The lobby beyond was now
a pool of gloom in which Mr. Ricardi's desk and the sofa were only darker
shadows; if Clay hadn't already been in there, he would have had no idea what
those shadows represented. Above the elevators a single emergency light
guttered, the boxed battery beneath it buzzing like a horsefly.
"Mr. Ricardi?"
Tom called. "Mr. Ricardi, we came back to see if you changed your
mind."
There was no reply. After a moment, Alice began carefully to knock
out the glass teeth that still jutted from the windowframe.
"Mr.
Ricardi!" Tom called again, and when there was still no answer, he
turned to Clay. "You're going in there, are you?"
"Yes. To get my
portfolio. It's got my drawings in it."
"You don't have
copies?"
"Those are the
originals," Clay said, as if this explained everything. To him it did. And
besides, there was Mr. Ricardi. He'd said, I'll be listening.
"What if Thumper
from upstairs got him?" Tom asked.
"If that had
happened, I think we'd have heard him thumping around down here," Clay
said. "For that matter, he would have come running at the sound of our
voices, babbling like the guy who tried to carve us up back by the
Common."
"You don't know
that," Alice said. She was gnawing at her lower lip. "It's way too
early for you to think you know all the rules."
Of course she was
right, but they couldn't stand around out here discussing it, that was no good,
either.
"I'll be
careful," he said, and put a leg over the bottom of the window. It was
narrow, but plenty wide enough for him to climb through. "I'll just poke
my head into his office. If he's not there, I won't go hunting around for him
like a chick in a horror movie. I'll just grab my portfolio and we'll
boogie."
"Keep
yelling," Alice said. "Just say 'Okay, I'm okay,' something like
that. The whole time."
"All right, but
if I stop yelling, just go. Don't come in after me."
"Don't
worry," she said, unsmiling. "I saw all those movies, too. We've got
Cinemax."
18
"I'm
okay," Clay shouted, picking up his portfolio and then putting it down on
the reception desk. Good to go, he thought. But not quite yet.
He looked
over his shoulder as he went around the desk and saw the one unblocked window
glimmering, seeming to float in the thickening gloom, with two silhouettes cut
into the day's last light. "I'm okay, still okay, just going in to check
his office now, still okay, still o—"
"Clay?"
Tom's voice was alarmed, but for a moment Clay couldn't respond and set Tom's
mind at rest. There was an overhead light fixture in the middle of the inner
office's high ceiling. Mr. Ricardi was hanging from it by what looked like a
drape-cord. There was a white bag pulled down
over his head. Clay thought it was the kind of plastic bag the hotel gave you
to put your dirty laundry and dry cleaning in. "Clay, are you all
right?"
"Clay?" Alice
sounded shrill, ready to be hysterical.
"Okay," he
heard himself say. His mouth seemed to be operating itself, with no help from
his brain. "Still right here." He was thinking of how Mr. Ricardi had
looked when he said I shall stay at my post. The words had been
lofty, but the eyes had been scared and somehow humble, the eyes of a small
raccoon driven into a corner of the garage by a large and angry dog. "I'm
coming out now."
He backed away, as if
Mr. Ricardi might slip his homemade drape-cord noose and come after him the
second he turned his back. He was suddenly more than afraid for Sharon and
Johnny; he was homesick for them with a depth of feeling that made him think of
his first day at school, his mother leaving him at the playground gate. The
other parents had walked their kids inside. But his mother said, You just go in there,
Clayton, it's the first room, you'll be fine, boys should do this part alone. Before
he did what she told him he
had watched her going away, back up Cedar Street. Her blue coat. Now, standing
here in the dark, he was renewing acquaintance with the knowledge that the
second part of homesick was sick for a reason.
Tom and Alice were
fine, but he wanted the people he loved.
Once he was around
the reception desk, he faced the street and crossed the lobby. He got close
enough to the long broken window to see the frightened faces of his new
friends, then remembered he had forgotten his fucking portfolio again and had to
go back. Reaching for it, he felt certain that Mr. Ricardi's hand would steal
out of the gathering darkness behind the desk and close over his. That didn't
happen, but from overhead came another of those thumps. Something still up
there, something still blundering around in the dark. Something that had been
human until three o'clock this afternoon.
This time when he was
halfway to the door, the lobby's single battery-powered emergency light
stuttered briefly, then went out. That's a Fire Code violation, Clay thought. I
ought to report that.
He handed
out his portfolio. Tom took it.
"Where is
he?" Alice asked. "Wasn't he there?"
"Dead,"
Clay said. It had crossed his mind to lie, but he didn't think he was capable.
He was too shocked by what he had seen. How did a man hang himself? He didn't
see how it was even possible. "Suicide."
Alice began to cry,
and it occurred to Clay that she didn't know that if it had been up to Mr.
Ricardi, she'd probably be dead herself now. The thing was, he felt a little
like crying himself. Because Mr. Ricardi had come around. Maybe most people
did, if they got a chance.
From west of them on
the darkening street, back toward the Common, came a scream that seemed too
great to have issued from human lungs. It sounded to Clay almost like the
trumpeting of an elephant. There was no pain in it, and no joy. There was only
madness. Alice cringed against him, and he put an arm around her. The feel of
her body was like the feel of an electrical wire with a strong current passing
through it.
"If we're going
to get out of here, let's do it," Tom said. "If we don't run into too
much trouble, we should be able to get as far north as Maiden, and spend
the night at my place."
"That's
a hell of a good idea," Clay said.
Tom smiled
cautiously. "You really think so?"
"I really do.
Who knows, maybe Officer Ashland's already there."
"Who's Officer
Ashland?" Alice asked.
"A policeman we
met back by the Common," Tom said. "He . . . you know, helped us
out." The three of them were now walking east toward Atlantic Avenue,
through the falling ash and the sound of alarms. "We won't see him,
though. Clay's just trying to be funny."
"Oh," she
said. "I'm glad somebody's trying to be." Lying on the pavement by a
litter barrel was a blue cell phone with a cracked casing. Alice kicked it into
the gutter without breaking stride.
"Good one,"
Clay said.
Alice shrugged.
"Five years of soccer," she said, and at that moment the streetlights
came on, like a promise that all was not yet lost.
MALDEN
1
Thousands of people stood on the Mystic River Bridge and watched as
everything between Comm Ave and Boston Harbor took fire and burned. The wind
from the west remained brisk and warm even after the sun was down and the
flames roared like a furnace, blotting out the stars. The rising moon was full
and ultimately hideous. Sometimes the smoke masked it, but all too often that
bulging dragon's eye swam free and peered down, casting a bleary orange light.
Clay thought it a horror-comic moon, but didn't say so.
No one had much to
say. The people on the bridge only looked at the city they had so lately left,
watching as the flames reached the pricey harborfront condos and began engulfing
them. From across the water came an interwoven tapestry of alarms—fire alarms
and car alarms, mostly, with several whooping sirens added for spice. For a
while an amplified voice had told citizens to GET OFF THE STREETS, and then
another had begun advising them to LEAVE THE CITY ON FOOT BY MAJOR ARTERIES
WEST AND NORTH. These two contradictory pieces of advice had competed with each
other for several minutes, and then GET OFF THE STREETS had ceased. About five
minutes later, LEAVE THE CITY ON FOOT had also quit. Now there was only the
hungry roar of the wind-driven fire, the alarms, and a steady low crumping
sound that Clay thought must be windows imploding in the enormous heat.
He wondered how many
people had been trapped over there. Trapped between the fire and the water.
"Remember
wondering if a modern city could burn?" Tom McCourt said. In the light of
the fire, his small, intelligent face looked tired and sick. There was a smudge
of ash on one of his cheeks. "Remember that?"
"Shut up, come
on," Alice said. She was clearly distraught, but like Tom, she spoke in a
low voice. It's like we're in a library, Clay thought. And then he
thought, No—a funeral home. "Can't we please go? Because this is
kicking my ass."
"Sure,"
Clay said. "You bet. How far to your place, Tom?"
"From here, less
than two miles," he said. "But it's not all behind us, I'm sorry to
say." They had turned north now, and he pointed ahead and to the right.
The glow blooming there could almost have been orange-tinted arc-sodium
streetlights on a cloudy night, except the night was clear and the streetlights
were now out. In any case, streetlights did not give off rising columns of
smoke.
Alice moaned, then
covered her mouth as if she expected someone among the silent multitude
watching Boston burn might reprimand her for making too much noise.
"Don't
worry," Tom said with eerie calm. "We're going to Maiden and that
looks like Revere. The way the wind's blowing, Maiden should still be all
right."
Stop right there, Clay
urged him silently, but Tom did not.
"For now,"
he added.
2
There were several dozen abandoned cars on the lower deck of the
span, and a fire truck with EAST BOSTON lettered on its avocado-green side that
had been sideswiped by a cement truck (both were abandoned), but mostly this
level of the bridge belonged to the pedestrians. Except now you probably
have to call them refugees, Clay thought, and then realized there was no them
about it. Us. Call us refugees.
There was still very
little talk. Most people just stood and watched the city burn in silence. Those
who were moving went slowly, looking back frequently over their
shoulders. Then, as they neared the far end of the bridge (he could see Old
Ironsides—at least he thought it was Old Ironsides—riding at anchor
in the Harbor, still safe from the flames), he noticed an odd thing. Many of
them were also looking at Alice. At first he had the paranoid idea that people
must think he and Tom had abducted the girl and were spiriting her away for God
knew what immoral purposes. Then he had to remind himself that these wraiths on
the Mystic Bridge were in shock, even more uprooted from their normal lives
than the Hurricane Katrina refugees had been—those unfortunates had at least had
some warning—and were unlikely to be capable of considering such fine ideas.
Most were too deep in their own heads for moralizing. Then the moon rose a
little higher and came out a little more strongly, and he got it: she was the
only adolescent in sight. Even Clay himself was young compared to most of their
fellow refugees. The majority of people gawking at the torch that had been
Boston or plodding slowly toward Maiden and Danvers were over forty, and many
looked eligible for the Golden Ager discount at Denny's. He saw a few people
with little kids, and a couple of babies in strollers, but that was pretty much
it for the younger set.
A little farther on,
he noticed something else. There were cell phones lying discarded in the
roadway. Every few feet they passed another one, and none were whole. They had
either been run over or stomped down to nothing but wire and splinters of
plastic, like dangerous snakes that had been destroyed before they could bite
again.
3
"What's
your name, dear?" asked a plump woman who came angling across to their
side of the highway. This was about five minutes after they had left the
bridge. Tom said another fifteen would bring them to the Salem Street exit, and
from there it was only four blocks to his house. He said his cat would be
awfully glad to see him, and that had brought a wan smile to Alice's face. Clay
thought wan was better than nothing.
Now Alice
looked with reflexive mistrust at the plump woman who had detached herself from
the mostly silent groups and little lines of men and women—hardly more than
shadows, really, some with suitcases, some carrying shopping bags or wearing
backpacks—that had crossed the Mystic and were walking north on Route One, away
from the great fire to the south and all too aware of the new one taking hold
in Revere, off to the northeast.
The plump woman
looked back at her with sweet interest. Her graying hair was done in neat
beauty-shop curls. She wore cat's-eye glasses and what Clay's mother would have
called a "car coat." She carried a shopping bag in one hand and a
book in the other. There seemed to be no harm in her. She certainly wasn't one
of the phone-crazies—they hadn't seen a single one of those since leaving the
Atlantic Avenue Inn with their sacks of grub—but Clay felt himself go on point,
just the same. To be approached as if they were at a get-acquainted tea instead
of fleeing a burning city didn't seem normal. But under these circumstances,
just what was? He was probably losing it, but if so, Tom was, too. He was also
watching the plump, motherly woman with go-away eyes.
"Alice?"
Alice said at last, just when Clay had decided the girl wasn't going to reply
at all. She sounded like a kid trying to answer what she fears may be a trick
question in a class that's really too tough for her. "My name is Alice
Maxwell?"
"Alice,"
the plump woman said, and her lips curved in a maternal smile as sweet as her
look of interest. There was no reason that smile should have set Clay on edge
more than he already was, but it did. "That's a lovely name. It means
'blessed of God.' "
"Actually,
ma'am, it means 'of the royalty' or 'regally born,' " Tom said. "Now
could you excuse us? The girl has just lost her mother today, and—"
"We've all lost
someone today, haven't we, Alice?" the plump woman said without looking at
Tom. She kept pace with Alice, her beauty-shop curls bouncing with every step.
Alice was eyeing her with a mixture of unease and fascination. Around them
others paced and sometimes hurried and often plodded with their heads down,
little more than wraiths in this unaccustomed darkness, and Clay still saw
nobody young except for a few babies, a few toddlers, and Alice. No adolescents
because most adolescents had cell phones, like Pixie Light back at the Mister
Softee truck. Or like his own son, who had a red Nextel with a ring-tone from The
Monster Club and a teacher workamommy who might be with him or might be
just about anyw—
Stop it. Don't
you let that rat out. That rat can do nothing but run, bite, and chase its own
tail.
The plump woman,
meanwhile, kept nodding. Her curls bounced along. "Yes, we've all lost
someone, because this is the time of the great Tribulation. It's all in here,
in Revelation." She held up the book she was carrying, and of course it
was a Bible, and now Clay thought he was getting a better look at the sparkle
in the eyes behind the plump woman cat's-eye glasses. That wasn't kindly
interest; that was lunacy.
"Oh, that's it,
everybody out of the pool," Tom said. In his voice Clay heard a mixture of
disgust (at himself, for letting the plump woman bore in and get close to begin
with, quite likely) and dismay.
The plump woman took
no notice, of course; she had fixed Alice with her stare, and who was there to
pull her away? The police were otherwise occupied, if there were any left. Here
there were only the shocked and shuffling refugees, and they could care less
about one elderly crazy lady with a Bible and a beauty-shop perm.
"The Vial of
Insanity has been poured into the brains of the wicked, and the City of Sin has
been set afire by the cleansing torch of Yee-ho-vah!" the plump
lady cried. She was wearing red lipstick. Her teeth were too even to be
anything but old-fashioned dentures. "Now you see the unrepentant flee,
yea, verily, even as maggots flee the burst belly of—"
Alice put her hands
over her ears. "Make her stop!" she cried, and still the ghost-shapes
of the city's recent residents filed past, only a few sparing a dull, incurious
glance before looking once more into the darkness where somewhere ahead New
Hampshire lay.
The plump woman was
starting to work up a sweat, Bible raised, eyes blazing, beauty-shop curls
nodding and swaying. "Take your hands down, girl, and hear the Word of God
before you let these men lead you away and fornicate with you in the open
doorway of Hell itself! 'For I saw a star blaze in the sky, and it was called
Wormwood, and those that followed it followed upon Lucifer, and those that
followed upon Lucifer walked downward into the furnace of—' "
Clay hit her. He
pulled the punch at the last second, but it was still a solid clip to the jaw,
and he felt the impact travel all the way up to his shoulder. The plump woman's
glasses rose off her pug nose and then settled back. Behind them, her eyes lost
their glare and rolled up in their sockets. Her knees came unhinged and she
buckled, her Bible tumbling from her clenched fist. Alice, still looking
stunned and horrified, nevertheless dropped her hands from her ears fast enough
to catch the Bible. And Tom McCourt caught the woman under her arms. The punch
and the two subsequent catches were so neatly done they could have been
choreographed.
Clay was suddenly
closer to undone than at any time since things had started going wrong. Why
this should have been worse than the throat-biting teenage girl or the
knife-wielding businessman, worse than finding Mr. Ricardi hanging from a light
fixture with a bag over his head, he didn't know, but it was. He had kicked the
knife-wielding businessman, Tom had, too, but the knife-wielding businessman
had been a different kind of crazy. The old lady with the beauty-shop curls had
just been a. . .
"Jesus," he
said. "She was just a nut, and I coldcocked her." He was starting to
shake.
"She was
terrorizing a young girl who lost her mother today," Tom said, and Clay
realized it wasn't calmness he heard in the small man's voice but an
extraordinary coldness. "You did exactly the right thing. Besides, you
can't keep an old iron horse like this down for long. She's coming around
already. Help me get her over to the side of the road."
4
They had reached the part of Route One—sometimes called the Miracle
Mile, sometimes Sleaze Alley—where limited-access highway yielded to a jostle
of liquor marts, cut-rate clothing stores, sporting-goods outlets, and eateries
with names like Fuddruckers. Here the six lanes were littered, if not quite
choked, with vehicles that had either been piled up or just abandoned when
their operators panicked, tried their cell phones, and went insane. The
refugees wove their various courses silently among the remains, reminding Clay
Riddell more than a little of ants evacuating a hill that has been demolished
by the careless passing boot-stride of some heedless human.
There was a green
reflectorized sign reading malden salem
st. exit 1/4 MI at the
edge of a low pink building that had been broken into; it was fronted by a
jagged skirting of broken glass, and a battery-powered burglar alarm was even
now in the tired last stages of running down. A glance at the dead sign on the
roof was all Clay needed to tell him what had made the place a target in the
aftermath of the day's disaster: mister
big's giant discount liquor.
He had one of the
plump woman's arms. Tom had the other, and Alice supported the muttering
woman's head as they eased her to a sitting position with her back against one
of the exit sign's legs. Just as they got her down, the plump woman opened her
eyes and looked at them dazedly.
Tom snapped his
fingers in front of her eyes, twice, briskly. She blinked, then turned her eyes
to Clay. "You . . . hit me," she said. Her fingers rose to touch the
rapidly puffing spot on her jaw.
"Yes, I'm
sor—" Clay began.
"He may be, but
I'm not," Tom said. He spoke with that same cold briskness. "You were
terrorizing our ward."
The plump woman
laughed softly, but tears were in her eyes. "Ward! I've heard a lot
of words for it, but never that one. As if I don't know what men like you want
with a tender girl like this, especially in times like these. 'They repented
not their fornications, nor their sodomies, nor their—' "
"Shut up," Tom said, "or I'll hit you myself. And
unlike my friend, who was I think lucky enough not to grow up among the holy
Hannahs and thus does not recognize you for what you are, I won't pull my
punch. Fair warning—one more word." He held his fist before her eyes, and
although Clay had already concluded that Tom was an educated man, civilized,
and probably not much of a puncher under ordinary circumstances, he could not
help feeling dismay at the sight of that small, tight fist, as if he were
looking at an omen of the coming age.
The plump lady looked
and said nothing. One large tear spilled down her rouged cheek.
"That's enough,
Tom, I'm okay," Alice said.
Tom dropped the plump
lady's shopping bag of possessions into her lap. Clay hadn't even realized Tom
had salvaged it. Then Tom took the Bible
from Alice, picked up one of the plump lady's be-ringed hands, and smacked the
Bible into it, spine first. He started away, then turned back.
"Tom, that's
enough, let's go," Clay said.
Tom ignored him. He
bent toward the woman sitting with her back against the sign's leg. His hands
were on his knees, and to Clay the two of them—the plump, spectacled woman
looking up, the small, spectacled man bending over with his hands on his
knees—looked like figures in some lunatic's parody of the early illustrations
from the Charles Dickens novels.
"Some advice, sister," Tom said.
"The police will no longer protect you as they did when you and your
self-righteous, holy-rolling friends marched on the family planning centers or
the Emily Cathcart Clinic in Waltham—"
"That abortion
mill!" she spat, and then raised her Bible, as if to block a blow.
Tom didn't hit her,
but he was smiling grimly. "I don't know about the Vial of Insanity, but
there's certainly beaucoup crazy making the rounds tonight. May I be
clear? The lions are out of their cages, and you may well find that they'll eat
the mouthy Christians first. Somebody canceled your right of free speech around
three o'clock this afternoon. Just a word to the wise." He looked from
Alice to Clay, and Clay saw that the upper lip beneath the mustache was
trembling slightly. "Shall we go?"
"Yes," Clay
said.
"Wow,"
Alice said, once they were walking toward the Salem Street ramp again, Mister
Big's Giant Discount Liquor falling behind them. "You grew up with someone
like that?"
"My mother and both of her
sisters," Tom said. "First N.E. Church of Christ the Redeemer. They
took Jesus as their personal savior, and the church took them as its personal
pigeons."
"Where is your
mother now?" Clay asked.
Tom glanced at him briefly.
"Heaven. Unless they rooked her on that one, too. I'm pretty sure the
bastards did."
Near the stop sign at
the foot of the ramp, two men were fighting over a keg of beer. If forced to
guess, Clay would have said it had probably been liberated from Mister Big's Giant Discount Liquor. Now it lay
forgotten against the guardrails, dented and leaking foam, while the two
men—both brawny and both bleeding—battered each other with their fists. Alice
shrank against him, and Clay put his arm around her, but there was something
almost reassuring about these brawlers. They were angry— enraged—but not crazy.
Not like the people back in the city.
One of them was bald
and wearing a Celtics jacket. He hit the other a looping overhand blow that
mashed his opponent's lips and knocked him flat. When the man in the Celtics
jacket advanced on the downed man, the downed man scrambled away, then got up,
still backing off. He spat blood. "Take it, ya fuck!" he yelled in a
thick, weepy Boston accent. "Hope it chokes ya!"
The bald man in the
Celtics jacket made as if to charge him, and the other went running up the ramp
toward Route One. Celtics Jacket started to bend down for his prize, registered
Clay, Alice, and Tom, and straightened up again. It was three to one, he had a
black eye, and blood was trickling down the side of his face from a badly torn
earlobe, but Clay saw no fear in that face, although he had only the
diminishing light of the Revere fire to go by. He thought his grandfather would
have said the guy's Irish was up, and certainly that went with the big green
shamrock on the back of his jacket.
"The fuck you
lookin at?" he asked.
"Nothing—just
going by you, if that's all right," Tom said mildly. "I live on Salem
Street."
"You can go to
Salem Street or hell, far as I'm concerned," the bald man in the Celtics
jacket said. "Still a free country, isn't it?"
"Tonight?"
Clay said. "Too free."
The bald man thought
it over and then laughed, a humorless double ha-ha. "The fuck happened?
Any-a youse know?"
Alice said, "It
was the cell phones. They made people crazy."
The bald man picked
up the keg. He handled it easily, tipping it so the leak stopped. "Fucking
things," he said. "Never cared to own one. Rollover minutes. The
fuck're those?"
Clay didn't know. Tom
might've—he'd owned a cell phone, so it seemed possible—but Tom said nothing.
Probably didn't want to get into a
long discussion with the bald man, and probably a good idea. Clay thought the
bald man had some of the characteristics of an unexploded grenade.
"City
burning?" the bald man asked. "Is, isn't it?"
"Yes," Clay
said. "I don't think the Celtics will be playing at the Fleet this
year."
"They ain't
shit, anyway," the man said. "Doc Rivers couldn't coach a PAL
team." He stood watching them, the keg on his shoulder, blood running down
the side of his face. Yet now he seemed peaceable enough, almost serene.
"Go on," he said. "But I wouldn't stay this close to the city
for long. It's gonna get worse before it gets better. There's gonna be a lot
more fires, for one thing. You think everybody who hightailed it north
remembered to turn off the gas stove? I fuckin doubt it."
The three of them
started walking, then Alice stopped. She pointed to the keg. "Was that
yours?"
The bald man looked
at her reasonably. "Ain't no was at times like this, sweetie pie. Ain't no
was left. There's just now and maybe-tomorrow. It's mine now, and if there's
any left it'll be mine maybe-tomorrow. Go on now. The fuck out."
"Seeya,"
Clay said, and raised one hand.
"Wouldn't want
to be ya," the bald man replied, unsmiling, but he raised his own hand in
return. They had passed the stop sign and were crossing to the far side of what
Clay assumed was Salem Street when the bald man called after them again:
"Hey, handsome!"
Both Clay and Tom
turned to look, then glanced at each other, amused. The bald guy with the keg
was now only a dark shape on the rising ramp; he could have been a caveman carrying
a club.
"Where are the
loonies now?" the bald guy asked. "You're not gonna tell me they're
all dead, are ya? Cause I don't fuckin believe it."
"That's a very
good question," Clay said.
"You're fuckin-A
right it is. Watch out for the little sweetie pie there." And without
waiting for them to reply, the man who'd won the battle of the beer keg turned
and merged with the shadows.
6
"This
is it," Tom said no more than ten minutes later, and the moon emerged from
the wrack of cloud and smoke that had obscured it for the last hour or so as if
the little man with the spectacles and the mustache had just given the
Celestial Lighting Director a cue. Its rays—silver now instead of that awful
infected orange—illuminated a house that was either dark blue, green, or
perhaps even gray; without the streetlights to help, it was hard to tell for
sure. What Clay could tell for sure was that the house was trim and
handsome, although maybe not as big as your eye first insisted. The moonlight
aided in that deception, but it was mostly caused by the way the steps rose
from Tom McCourt's well-kept lawn to the only pillared porch on the street.
There was a fieldstone chimney on the left. From above the porch, a dormer
looked down on the street.
"Oh, Tom, it's beautiful!”
Alice said in a too-rapturous voice. To Clay she sounded exhausted and
bordering on hysteria. He himself didn't think it beautiful, but it certainly
looked like the home of a man who owned a cell phone and all the other
twenty-first-century bells and whistles. So did the rest of the houses on this
part of Salem Street, and Clay doubted if many of the residents had had Tom's
fantastic good luck. He looked around nervously. All the houses were dark—the
power was out now—and they might have been deserted, except he seemed to feel
eyes, surveying them.
The eyes of crazies?
Phone-crazies? He thought of Power Suit Woman and Pixie Light; of the lunatic
in the gray pants and the shredded tie; the man in the business suit who had
bitten the ear right off the side of the dog's head. He thought of the naked
man jabbing the car aerials back and forth as he ran. No, surveying was
not in the phone-crazies' repertoire. They just came at you. But if there were
normal people holed up in these houses—some of them, anyway—where were
the phone-crazies?
Clay didn't know.
"I don't know if
I'd exactly call it beautiful," Tom said, "but it's still standing,
and that's good enough for me. I'd pretty well made up my mind that we'd get
here and find nothing but a smoking hole in the ground." He reached in his
pocket and brought out a slim ring of keys. "Come on in. Be it ever so
humble, and all that."
They started up the
walk and had gone no more than half a dozen steps when Alice cried, "Wait!"
Clay wheeled around,
feeling both alarm and exhaustion. He thought he was beginning to understand
combat fatigue a little. Even his adrenaline felt tired. But no one was
there—no phone-crazies, no bald man with blood flowing down the side of his
face from a shredded ear, not even a little old lady with the talkin apocalypse
blues. Just Alice, down on one knee at the place where Tom's walk left the
sidewalk.
"What is it,
honey?" Tom asked.
She stood up, and
Clay saw she was holding a very small sneaker. "It's a Baby Nike,"
she said. "Do you—"
Tom shook his head.
"I live alone. Except for Rafe, that is. He thinks he's the king, but he's
only the cat."
"Then who left
it?" She looked from Tom to Clay with wondering, tired eyes.
Clay shook his head.
"No telling, Alice. Might as well toss it."
But Clay knew she
would not; it was déjà vu at its disorienting worst. She still held it in her
hand, curled against her waist, as she went to stand behind Tom, who was on the
steps, picking slowly through his keys in the scant light.
Now we hear the
cat, Clay thought. Rafe. And sure enough, there was the cat that had
been Tom McCourt's salvation, waowing a greeting from inside.
7
Tom bent down and Rafe or Rafer—both short for Rafael—leaped into
his arms, purring loudly and stretching his head up to sniff Tom's carefully
trimmed mustache.
"Yeah, missed
you, too," Tom said. "All is forgiven, believe me." He carried
Rafer across the enclosed porch, stroking the top of his head. Alice followed.
Clay came last, closing the door and turning the knob on the lock before
catching up to the others.
"Follow along
down to the kitchen," Tom said when they were in the house proper. There
was a pleasant smell of furniture polish and, Clay thought, leather, a smell he associated
with men living calm lives that did not necessarily include women. "Second
door on the right. Stay close. The hallway's wide, and there's nothing on the
floor, but there are tables on both sides and it's as black as your hat. As I
think you can see."
"So to
speak," Clay said.
"Ha-ha."
"Have you got
flashlights?" Clay asked.
"Flashlights and
a Coleman lantern that should be even better, but let's get in the kitchen
first."
They followed him down the hallway, Alice
walking between the two men. Clay could hear her breathing rapidly, trying not
to let the unfamiliar surroundings freak her out, but of course it was hard.
Hell, it was hard for him. Disorienting. It would have been better if there had
been even a little light, but—
His knee bumped one
of the tables Tom had mentioned, and something that sounded all too ready to
break rattled like teeth. Clay steeled himself for the smash, and for Alice's
scream. That she would scream was almost a given. Then whatever it was,
a vase or some knickknack, decided to live a little longer and settled back
into place. Still, it seemed like a very long walk before Tom said, "Here,
okay? Hard right."
The kitchen was
nearly as black as the hall, and Clay had just a moment to think of all the
things he was missing and Tom must be missing more: a digital readout on the
microwave oven, the hum of the fridge, maybe light from a neighboring house
coming in through the window over the kitchen sink and making highlights on the
faucet.
"Here's the
table," Tom said. "Alice, I'm going to take your hand. Here's a
chair, okay? I'm sorry if I sound like we're playing blindman's bluff."
"It's all
r—," she began, then gave a little scream that made Clay jump. His hand
was on the haft of his knife (now he thought of it as his) before he even
realized he'd reached for it.
"What?" Tom
asked sharply. "What?"
"Nothing,"
she said. "Just. . . nothing. The cat. His tail. . . on my leg."
"Oh. I'm
sorry."
"It's all right.
Stupid," she added with self-contempt that made Clay wince in the
dark.
"No," he
said. "Let up on yourself, Alice. It's been a tough day at the
office."
"Tough day at
the office!" Alice repeated, and laughed in a way Clay didn't care for. It
reminded him of her voice when she'd called Tom's house beautiful. He thought, That's
going to get away from her, and then what do I do? In the movies the hysterical
girl gets a slap across the chops and it always brings her around, but in the
movies you can see where she is.
He didn't have to
slap her, shake her, or hold her, which was what he probably would have tried
first. She heard what was in her own voice, maybe, got hold of it, and
bulldogged it down: first to a choked gargle, then to a gasp, then to quiet.
"Sit," Tom
said. "You have to be tired. You too, Clay. I'll get us some light."
Clay felt for a chair
and sat down to a table he could hardly see, although his eyes had to be fully
adjusted to the dark by now. There was a whisper of something against his pants
leg, there and gone. A low miaow. Rafe.
"Hey, guess
what?" he said to the dim shape of the girl as Tom's footsteps receded.
"Ole Rafer just put a jump in me, too." Although he hadn't, not
really.
"We have to
forgive him," she said. "Without that cat, Tom would be just as crazy
as the rest of them. And that would be a shame."
"It would."
"I'm so
scared," she said. "Do you think it will get better tomorrow, in the
daylight? The being scared part?"
"I don't
know."
"You must be
worried sick about your wife and little boy."
Clay sighed and
rubbed his face. "The hard part is trying to come to grips with the
helplessness. We're separated, you see, and—" He stopped and shook his
head. He wouldn't have gone on if she hadn't reached out and taken his hand.
Her fingers were firm and cool. "We separated in the spring. We still live
in the same little town, what my own mother would have called a grass marriage.
My wife teaches at the elementary school."
He leaned forward,
trying to see her face in the dark.
"You want to
know the hell of it? If this had happened a year ago, Johnny would have been with her. But this
September he made the jump to middle school, which is almost five miles away. I
keep trying to figure if he would have been home when things went nuts. He and
his friends ride the bus. I think he would have been home. And I think
he would have gone right to her."
Or pulled his
cellphone out of his backpack and called her! the panic-rat suggested
merrily . . . then bit. Clay felt himself tightening his fingers down on
Alice's and made himself stop. But he couldn't stop the sweat from springing
out on his face and arms.
"But you don't
know," she said.
"No."
"My daddy runs a
framing and print shop in Newton," she said. "I'm sure he's all
right, he's very self-reliant, but he'll be worried about me. Me and my. My
you-know."
Clay knew.
"I keep
wondering what he did about supper," she said. "I know that's crazy,
but he can't cook a lick."
Clay thought about
asking if her father had a cell phone and something told him not to. Instead he
asked, "Are you doing all right for now?"
"Yes," she
said, and shrugged. "What's happened to him has happened. I can't change
it."
He thought: I wish
you hadn't said that.
"My kid has a
cell phone, did I tell you that?" To his own ears, his voice sounded as
harsh as a crow's caw.
"You did, actually.
Before we crossed the bridge."
"Sure, that's
right." He was gnawing at his lower lip and made himself stop. "But
he didn't always keep it charged. Probably I told you that, too."
"Yes."
"I just have no
way of knowing." The panic-rat was out of its cage, now. Running and
biting.
Now both of her hands
closed over both of his. He didn't want to give in to her comfort—it felt hard
to let go of his grip on himself and give in to her comfort—but he did it,
thinking she might need to give more than he needed to take. They were holding
on that way, hands linked next to the pewter salt and pepper shakers on Tom
McCourt's little kitchen table, when Tom came
back from the cellar with four flashlights and a Coleman lantern that was still
in its box.
8
The Coleman gave off enough light to make the flashlights
unnecessary. It was harsh and white, but Clay liked its brilliance, the way it
drove away every single shadow save for their own and the cat's—which went
leaping fantastically up the wall like a Halloween decoration cut from black
crepe paper—into hiding.
"I
think you should pull the curtains," Alice said.
Tom was opening one
of the plastic sacks from the Metropolitan Cafe, the ones with DOGGY BAG on one
side and PEOPLE BAG on the other. He stopped and looked at her curiously.
"Why?"
She shrugged and
smiled. Clay thought it the strangest smile he had ever seen on the face of a
teenage girl. She'd cleaned the blood off her nose and chin, but there were
dark weary-circles under her eyes, the Coleman lamp had bleached the rest of
her face to a corpselike pallor, and the smile, showing the tiniest twinkle of
teeth between trembling lips from which all the lipstick had now departed, was
disorienting in its adult artificiality. He thought Alice looked like a movie
actress from the late 1940s playing a socialite on the verge of a nervous
breakdown. She had the tiny sneaker in front of her on the table. She was
spinning it with one finger. Each time she spun it, the laces flipped and
clicked. Clay began to hope she would break soon. The longer she held up, the
worse it would be when she finally let go. She had let some out, but not nearly
enough. So far he'd been the one to do most of the letting-out.
"I don't think
people should see we're in here, that's all," she said. She flicked the
sneaker. What she had called a Baby Nike. It spun. The laces flipped and
clicked on Tom's highly polished table. "I think it might be . .
.bad."
Tom looked at Clay.
"She could be right,"
Clay said. "I don't like us being the only lit-up house on the block, even
if the light's at the back."
Tom got up and closed
the curtains over the sink without another word.
There were two other
windows in the kitchen, and he pulled those curtains, too. He started back to
the table, then changed course and closed the door between the kitchen and the
hall. Alice spun the Baby Nike in front of her on the table. In the harsh,
unsparing glow of the Coleman lantern, Clay could see it was pink and purple,
colors only a child could love. Around it went. The laces flew and clicked. Tom
looked at it, frowning, as he sat down, and Clay thought: Tell her to take it
off the table. Tell her she doesn't know where it's been and you don't want it
on your table. That should be enough to set her off and then we can start
getting this part out of the way. Tell her. I think she wants you to. I think
that's why she's doing it.
But Tom only took
sandwiches out of the bag—roast beef and cheese, ham and cheese—and doled them
out. He got a pitcher of iced tea from the fridge ("Still cold as can
be," he said), and then set down the remains of a package of raw hamburger
for the cat.
"He deserves
it," he said, almost defensively. "Besides, it would only go over
with the electricity out."
There was a telephone
hanging on the wall. Clay tried it, but it was really just a formality and this
time he didn't even get a dial tone. The thing was as dead as . . . well, as
Power Suit Woman, back there by Boston Common. He sat back down and worked on
his sandwich. He was hungry but didn't feel like eating.
Alice put hers down
after only three bites. "I can't," she said. "Not now. I guess
I'm too tired. I want to go to sleep. And I want to get out of this dress. I
guess I can't wash up—not very well, anyway—but I'd give anything to throw this
fucking dress away. It stinks of sweat and blood." She spun the sneaker.
It twirled beside the crumpled paper with her barely touched sandwich lying on
top of it. "I can smell my mother on it, too. Her perfume."
For a moment no one
said anything. Clay was at a complete loss. He had a momentary picture of Alice
subtracted from her dress, in a white bra and panties, with her staring,
hollowed-out eyes making her look like a paper-doll. His artist's imagination,
always facile and always obliging, added tabs at the shoulders and lower legs
of the image. It was shocking not because it was sexy but because it wasn't. In
the distance—very faint—something exploded with a dim foomp.
Tom broke the
silence, and Clay blessed him for it.
"I'll bet a pair
of my jeans would just about fit you, if you rolled up the bottoms to make
cuffs." He stood up. "You know what, I think you'd even look cute in
em, like Huck Finn in a girls' school production of Big River. Come
upstairs. I'm going to put out some clothes for you to wear in the morning and
you can spend the night in the guest room. I've got plenty of pajamas, a plague
of pajamas. Do you want the Coleman?"
"Just . . . I
guess just a flashlight will be okay. Are you sure?"
"Yes," he
said. He took one flashlight and gave her another. He looked ready to say
something about the small sneaker when she picked it up, then seemed to think
better of it. What he said was, "You can wash, too. There may not be a lot
of water, but the taps will probably draw some even with the power out, and I'm
sure we can spare a basinful." He looked over the top of her head at Clay.
"I always keep a case of bottled drinking water in the cellar, so we're
not short there."
Clay nodded.
"Sleep well, Alice," he said.
"You too,"
she said vaguely, and then, more vaguely still: "Nice meeting you."
Tom opened the door
for her. Their flashlights bobbed, and then the door shut again. Clay heard
their footsteps on the stairs, then overhead. He heard running water. He waited
for the chug of air in the pipes, but the flow of water stopped before the air
started. A basinful, Tom had said, and that was what she'd gotten. Clay also had
blood and dirt on him he wanted to wash off—he imagined Tom did, too—but he
guessed there must be a bathroom on this floor, too, and if Tom was as neat
about his personal habits as he was about his person, the water in the toilet
bowl would be clean. And there was the water in the tank as well, of course.
Rafer jumped up on
Tom's chair and began washing his paws in the white light of the Coleman
lantern. Even with the lantern's steady low hiss, Clay could hear him purring.
As far as Rafe was concerned, life was still cool.
He thought of Alice
twirling the small sneaker and wondered, almost idly, if it was possible for a
fifteen-year-old girl to have a nervous breakdown.
"Don't be
stupid," he told the cat. "Of course it is. Happens all the time.
They make movies of the week about it."
Rafer looked at him
with wise green eyes and went on licking his paw. Tell me more, those eyes
seemed to say. Vere you beaten as a child? Did you have ze sexual thoughts
about your mother?
I can smell my
mother on it. Her perfume.
Alice as a
paper-doll, with tabs sticking out of her shoulders and legs.
Don't be zilly, Rafer's
green eyes seemed to say. Ze tabs go on ze clothes, not on ze doll.
Vut kind of artist are you?
"The out-of-work
kind," he said. "Just shut up, why don't you?" He closed his
eyes, but that was worse. Now Rafer's green eyes floated disembodied in the
dark, like the eyes of Lewis Carroll's Cheshire cat: We're all mad here,
dear Alice. And under the steady hiss of the Coleman lamp, he could still
hear it purring.
9
Tom was gone fifteen minutes. When he came back, he brushed Rafe
out of his chair without ceremony and took a large, convincing bite from his
sandwich. "She's asleep," he said. "Got into a pair of my pajamas
while I waited in the hall, and then we dumped the dress in the trash together.
I think she was out forty seconds after her head hit the pillow. Throwing the
dress away was what sealed the deal, I'm convinced of it." A slight pause.
"It did indeed smell bad."
"While
you were gone," Clay said, "I nominated Rafe president of the United
States. He was elected by acclamation."
"Good," Tom
said. "Wise choice. Who voted?"
"Millions.
Everyone still sane. They sent in thought-ballots." Clay made his eyes
very wide and tapped his temple. "I can read miiiyyynds."
Tom's chewing
stopped, then began again . . . but slowly. "You know," he said,
"under the circumstances, that's not really all that funny."
Clay sighed, sipped
some iced tea, and made himself eat a little more of his sandwich. He told
himself to think of it as body gasoline, if that was what it took to get it
down. "No. Probably not. Sorry."
Tom tipped his own
glass to him before drinking. "It's all right. I appreciate the effort.
Say, where's your portfolio?"
"Left it on the
porch. I wanted both hands free while we negotiated Tom McCourt's Hallway of
Death."
"That's all
right, then. Listen, Clay, I'm sorry as hell about your family-"
"Don't be sorry
yet," Clay said, a little harshly. "There's nothing to be sorry about
yet."
"—but I'm really
glad I ran into you. That's all I wanted to say."
"Same goes
back," Clay said. "I appreciate the quiet place to spend the night,
and I'm sure Alice does, too."
"As long as
Malden doesn't get loud and burn down around our ears."
Clay nodded, smiling
a little. "As long as. Did you get that creepy little shoe away from
her?"
"No. She took it
to bed with her like . . . I don't know, a teddy bear. She'll be a lot better
tomorrow if she sleeps through tonight."
"Do you think
she will?"
"No," Tom
said. "But if she wakes up scared, I'll spend the night with her. Crawl in
with her, if that's what it takes. You know I'm safe with her, right?"
"Yes." Clay
knew that he would have been safe with her, too, but he understood what Tom was
talking about. "I'm going to head north tomorrow morning as soon as it's
light. It would probably be a good idea if you and Alice came with me."
Tom thought about this briefly, then asked,
"What about her father?"
"She says he's,
quote, 'very self-reliant.' Her biggest stated worry on his behalf was what he
rolled himself for dinner. What I heard under that is that she isn't ready to
know. Of course we'll have to see how she feels about it, but I'd rather keep
her with us, and I don't want to head west into those industrial
towns."
"You don't want
to head west at all."
"No," Clay
admitted.
He thought Tom might
argue the point, but he didn't. "What about tonight? Do you think we
should stand a watch?"
Clay hadn't even
considered this until now. He said, "I don't know how much good it would do. If a crazed mob
comes down Salem Street waving guns and torches, what can we do about
it?"
"Go down
cellar?"
Clay thought it over.
Going down cellar seemed awfully final to him— the Bunker Defense—but it was
always possible the hypothetical crazed mob under discussion would think the
house deserted and go sweeping by. Better than being slaughtered in the
kitchen, he supposed. Maybe after watching Alice get gang-raped.
It won't come to
that, he thought uneasily. You're getting lost among the
hypothetical, that's all. Freaking in the dark. It won't come to that.
Except Boston was burning to the ground
behind them. Liquor stores were being looted and men were beating each other
bloody over aluminum kegs of beer. It had already come to that.
Tom, meanwhile, was
watching him, letting him work it through . . . which meant that maybe Tom
already had. Rafe jumped into his lap. Tom put his sandwich down and stroked
the cat's back.
"Tell you
what," Clay said. "If you've got a couple of comforters I can bundle
up in, why don't I spend the night out there on your porch? It's enclosed, and
it's darker than the street. Which means that I'd likely see anyone coming long
before they saw me watching. Especially if the ones coming were phone-crazies.
They didn't impress me as being into stealth."
"Nope, not the creep-up-on-you
type. What if people came from around in back? That's Lynn Avenue just a block
over."
Clay shrugged, trying
to indicate that they couldn't defense against everything—or even very
much—without saying so right out loud.
"All right,"
Tom said, after eating a little more of his sandwich and feeding a scrap of ham
to Rafe. "But you could come get me around three. If Alice hasn't woken up
by then, she might sleep right through."
"Why don't we
just see how it goes," Clay said. "Listen, I think I know the answer
to this, but you don't have a gun, do you?"
"No," Tom
said. "Not even a lonely can of Mace." He looked at his sandwich and
then put it down. When he raised his eyes to Clay's, they were remarkably
bleak. He spoke in a low voice, as people do when discussing secret things.
"Do you remember what the cop said just before he shot that crazy
man?"
Clay nodded. Hey,
buddy, how ya doin? I mean, what the haps? He would never forget it.
"I knew it
wasn't like in the movies," Tom said, "but I never suspected the
enormous power of it, or the suddenness . . . and the sound when the
stuff. . . the stuff from his head . . ."
He leaned forward
suddenly, one small hand curled to his mouth. The movement startled Rafer, and
the cat leaped down. Tom made three low, muscular urking sounds, and Clay
steeled himself for the vomiting that was almost sure to follow. He could only
hope he wouldn't start vomiting himself, but he thought he might. He knew he
was close, only a feather-tickle away. Because he knew what Tom was talking
about. The gunshot, then the wet, ropy splatter on the cement.
There was no
vomiting. Tom got control of himself and looked up, eyes watering. "I'm
sorry," he said. "Shouldn't have gone there."
"You don't need to be sorry."
"I think if
we're going to get through whatever's ahead, we'd better find a way to put our
finer sensibilities on hold. I think that people who can't do that . . ."
He stopped, then started again. "I think that people who can't do that. .
." He stopped a second time. The third time he was able to finish. "I
think that people who can't do that may die."
They stared at each
other in the white glare of the Coleman lamp.
10
"Once
we left the city, I didn't see anyone with a gun," Clay said.
"At first I wasn't really looking, and then I was."
"You know why,
don't you? Except maybe for California, Massachusetts has got the toughest gun
law in the country."
Clay remembered
seeing billboards proclaiming that at the state line a few years ago. Then
they'd been replaced by ones saying that if you got picked up for driving under
the influence, you'd have to spend a night in jail.
Tom said, "If
the cops find a concealed handgun in your car—meaning like in the glove
compartment with your registration and insurance card—they can put you away for
I think seven years. Get stopped with a loaded
rifle in your pickup, even in hunting season, and you could get slapped with a
ten-thousand-dollar fine and two years of community service." He picked up
the remains of his sandwich, inspected it, put it back down again. "You
can own a handgun and keep it in your home if you're not a felon, but a license
to carry? Maybe if you've got Father O'Malley of the Boys' Club to cosign, but
maybe not even then."
"No guns might
have saved some lives, coming out of the city."
"I agree with
you completely," Tom said. "Those two guys fighting over the keg of
beer? Thank God neither of them had a .38."
Clay nodded.
Tom rocked back in his chair, crossed his
arms on his narrow chest, and looked around. His glasses glinted. The circle of
light thrown by the Coleman lantern was brilliant but small. "Right now,
however, I wouldn't mind having a pistol. Even after seeing the mess they make.
And I consider myself a pacifist."
"How long have
you lived here, Tom?"
"Almost twelve
years. Long enough to see Malden go a long way down the road to Shitsville.
It's not there yet, but boy, it's going."
"Okay, so think
about it. Which of your neighbors is apt to have a gun or guns in their
house?"
Tom answered
promptly. "Arnie Nickerson, across the street and three houses up. NRA
bumper sticker on his Camry—along with a couple of yellow ribbon decals and an
old Bush-Cheney sticker—"
"Goes without
saying—"
"And two NRA
stickers on his pickup, which he equips with a camper cap in November and takes
hunting up in your part of the world."
"And we're happy
to have the revenue his out-of-state hunting license provides," Clay said.
"Let's break into his house tomorrow and take his guns."
Tom McCourt looked at
him as though he were mad. "The man isn't as paranoid as some of those
militia types out in Utah—I mean, he does live in Taxachusetts—but he's
got one of those burglar alarm signs on his lawn that basically says DO YOU
FEEL LUCKY, PUNK, and I'm sure you must be familiar with the NRA's stated
policy as to just when their guns will be taken away from them."
"I think it has
something to do with prying their cold dead fingers—"
"That's the
one."
Clay leaned forward
and stated what to him had been obvious from the moment they'd come down the
ramp from Route One: Malden was now just one more fucked-up town in the Unicel
States of America, and that country was now out of service, off the hook, so
sorry, please try your call again later. Salem Street was deserted. He had felt
that as they approached . . . hadn't he?
No. Bullshit. You felt watched.
Really? And even if
he had, was that the sort of intuition that could be relied upon, acted
upon, after a day like this one? The idea was ridiculous.
"Tom, listen.
One of us'll walk up to this guy Nackleson's house tomorrow, after it's full
daylight—"
"It's Nickerson,
and I don't think that's a very smart idea, especially since Swami McCourt sees
him kneeling inside his living room window with a fully automatic rifle he's
been saving for the end of the world. Which seems to have rolled around."
"I'll do
it," Clay said. "And I won't do it if we hear any gunshots
from the Nickerson place tonight or tomorrow morning. I certainly won't
do it if I see any bodies on the guy's lawn, with or without gunshot wounds. I
watched all those old Twilight Zone episodes, too—the ones where
civilization turns out to be nothing more than a thin layer of shellac."
"If that,"
Tom said gloomily. "Idi Amin, Pol Pot, the prosecution rests."
"I'll go with my
hands raised. Ring the doorbell. If someone answers, I'll say I just want to
talk. What's the worst that can happen? He tells me to get lost."
"No, the worst
that can happen is he can shoot you dead on his fucking welcome mat and leave
me with a motherless teenage girl," Tom said sharply. "Smart off
about old Twilight Zone episodes all you want, just don't forget those
people you saw today, fighting outside the T station in Boston."
"That was . . .
I don't know what it was, but those people were clinically insane. You
can't doubt that, Tom."
"What about
Bible-Thumping Bertha? And the two men fighting over the keg? Were they
insane?"
No, of course they
hadn't been, but if there was a gun in that house across the street, he still
wanted it. And if there was more than one, he wanted Tom and Alice each to have
one, too.
"I'm thinking
about going north over a hundred miles," Clay said. "We might be able
to boost a car and drive some of it, but we might have to walk the whole way.
Do you want to go with just knives for protection? I'm asking you as one serious
man to another, because some of the people we run into are going to have
guns. I mean, you know that."
"Yes," Tom
said. He ran his hands through his neatly trimmed hair, giving it a comic
ruffle. "And I know that Arnie and Beth are probably not home. They were
gadget-nuts as well as gun-nuts. He was always gabbing on his cell phone when
he went by in that big Dodge Ram Detroit phallus of his."
"See? There you
go."
Tom sighed. "All
right. Depending on how things look in the morning. Okay?"
"Okay."
Clay picked up his sandwich again. He felt a little more like eating now.
"Where did they
go?" Tom asked. "The ones you call the phone-crazies. Where did they
go?"
"I don't
know."
"I'll tell you
what I think," Tom said. "I think they crawled into the houses and
the buildings around sundown and died."
Clay looked at him
doubtfully.
"Look at it
reasonably and you'll see I'm right," Tom said. "This was almost
certainly some sort of terrorist act, would you agree?"
"That seems the
most likely explanation, although I'll be damned if I know how any signal, no
matter how subversive, could have been programmed to do what this one
did."
"Are you a
scientist?"
"You know I'm
not. I'm an artist."
"So when the
government tells you they can guide computerized smart-bombs through bunker
doors in the floor of the desert from aircraft carriers that are maybe two
thousand miles away, all you can do is look at the photos and accept that the
technology exists."
"Would Tom
Clancy lie to me?" Clay asked, unsmiling.
"And if that technology
exists, why not accept this one, at least on a provisional basis?"
"Okay, spell it
out. Small words, please."
"At about three
o'clock this afternoon, a terrorist organization, maybe even a tinpot
government, generated some sort of signal or pulse. For now we have to assume
that this signal was carried by every cell phone operating in the entire world.
We'll hope that wasn't the case, but for now I think we have to assume
the worst."
"Is it
over?"
"I don't
know," Tom said. "Do you want to pick up a cell phone and find
out?"
"Touchy,"
Clay said. "That's how my little boy says touché." And please, God, how he's
still saying it.
"But if this
group could transmit a signal that would send everyone hearing it insane,"
Tom said, "isn't it possible that the signal could also contain a
directive for those receiving it to kill themselves five hours later? Or
perhaps to simply go to sleep and stop breathing?"
"I would say
that's impossible."
"I would have
said a madman coming at me with a knife across from the Four Seasons Hotel was
impossible," Tom said. "Or Boston burning flat while the city's
entire population—that part of it lucky enough not to have cell phones, that
is—left by the Mystic and the Zakim."
He leaned forward,
looking at Clay intently. He wants to believe this, Clay thought. Don't
waste a lot of time trying to talk him out of it, because he really, really
wants to.
"In a way, this
is no different from the bioterrorism the government was so afraid of after
nine-eleven," he said. "By using cell phones, which have become the
dominant form of communication in our daily lives, you simultaneously turn the
populace into your own conscript army—an army that's literally afraid of
nothing, because it's insane—and you break down the infrastructure. Where's the
National Guard tonight?"
"Iraq?"
Clay ventured. "Louisiana?"
It wasn't much of a
joke and Tom didn't smile. "It's nowhere. How do you use a homeland force
that now depends almost entirely on the cellular network to even mobilize? As
for airplanes, the last one I've seen flying was the little one that crashed on
the corner of Charles and Beacon." He paused, then went on, looking
straight across the table into Clay's eyes. "All this they did . . .
whoever they is. They looked at us from wherever it is they live and
worship their gods, and what did they see?"
Clay shook his head,
fascinated by Tom's eyes, shining behind his spectacles. They were almost the
eyes of a visionary.
"They saw we had
built the Tower of Babel all over again . . . and on nothing but electronic
cobwebs. And in a space of seconds, they brushed those cobwebs aside and our
Tower fell. All this they did, and we three are like bugs that happened, by
dumb dim luck alone, to have avoided the fall of a giant's foot. All this they
did, and you think they could not have encoded a signal telling the affected
ones to simply fall asleep and stop breathing five hours later? What's that
trick, compared to the first one? Not much, I'd say."
Clay said, "I'd
say it's time we got some sleep."
For a moment Tom
remained as he was, hunched across the table a little, looking at Clay as if
unable to understand what Clay had said. Then he laughed. "Yeah," he
said. "Yeah, you've got a point. I get wound up. Sorry."
"Not at
all," Clay said. "I hope you're right about the crazies being
dead." He paused, then said: "I mean . . . unless my boy . . .
Johnny-Gee . . ." He couldn't finish. Partly or maybe mostly because if
Johnny had tried to use his phone this afternoon and had gotten the same call
as Pixie Light and Power Suit Woman, Clay wasn't sure he wanted his son to
still be alive.
Tom reached across the table to him and
Clay took the other man's delicate, long-fingered hand in both of his. He saw
this happening as if he were outside his body, and when he spoke, he didn't
seem to be the one speaking, although he could feel his mouth moving and the
tears that had begun to fall from his eyes.
"I'm so scared
for him," his mouth was saying. "I'm scared for both of them, but
mostly for my kid."
"It'll be all
right," Tom said, and Clay knew he meant well, but the words struck terror
into his heart just the same, because it was just one of those things you said when there was
really nothing else. Like You'll get over it or He's in a better
place.
11
Alice's shrieks woke Clay from a confused but not unpleasant dream
of being in the Bingo Tent at the Akron State Fair. In the dream he was six
again—maybe even younger but surely no older—and crouched beneath the long
table where his mother was seated, looking at a forest of lady-legs and
smelling sweet sawdust while the caller intoned, "B-12, players, B-12!
It's the sunshine vitamin!"
There was
one moment when his subconscious mind tried to integrate the girl's cries into
the dream by insisting he was hearing the Saturday noon whistle, but only a
moment. Clay had let himself go to sleep on Tom's porch after an hour of
watching because he was convinced that nothing was going to happen out there,
at least not tonight. But he must have been equally convinced that Alice
wouldn't sleep through, because there was no real confusion once his mind
identified her shrieks for what they were, no groping for where he was or what
was going on. At one moment he was a small boy crouching under a bingo table in
Ohio; at the next he was rolling off the comfortably long couch on Tom
McCourt's enclosed front porch with the comforter still wrapped around his
lower legs. And somewhere in the house, Alice Maxwell, howling in a register
almost high enough to burst crystal, articulated all the horror of the day just
past, insisting with one scream after another that such things surely could not
have happened and must be denied.
Clay tried to rid his
lower legs of the comforter and at first it wouldn't let go. He found himself
hopping toward the inside door and pulling at it in a kind of panic while he
looked out at Salem Street, sure that lights would start going on up and down
the block even though he knew the power was out, sure that someone—maybe the
gun-owning, gadget-loving Mr. Nickerson from up the street—would come out on
his lawn and yell for someone to for chrissake shut that kid up. Don't make
me come down there! Arnie Nickerson would yell. Don't make me come down
there and shoot her!
Or her screams would
draw the phone-crazies like moths to a bug light. Tom might think they were dead,
but Clay believed it no more than he believed in Santa's workshop at the North
Pole.
But Salem Street—their block of it, anyway, just west of the town
center and below the part of Maiden Tom had called Granada Highlands— remained
dark and silent and without movement. Even the glow of the fire from Revere
seemed to have diminished.
Clay finally rid
himself of the comforter and went inside and stood at the foot of the stairs,
looking up into the blackness. Now he could hear Tom's voice—not the words, but
the tone, low and calm and soothing. The girl's chilling shrieks began to be
broken up by gasps for breath, then by sobs and inarticulate cries that became
words. Clay caught one of them, nightmare. Tom's voice went on and on,
telling lies in a reassuring drone: everything was all right, she would see,
things would look better in the morning. Clay could picture them sitting side
by side on the guestroom bed, each dressed in a pair of pajamas with TM
monograms on the breast pockets. He could have drawn them like that. The idea
made him smile.
When he was convinced
she wasn't going to resume screaming, he went back to the porch, which was a
bit chilly but not uncomfortable once he was wrapped up snugly in the
comforter. He sat on the couch, surveying what he could see of the street. To
the left, east of Tom's house, was a business district. He thought he could see
the traffic light marking the entrance into the town square. The other
way—which was the way they'd come—more houses. All of them still in this deep
trench of night.
"Where
are you?" he murmured. "Some of you headed north or west, and still
in your right minds. But where did the rest of you go?"
No answer from the
street. Hell, maybe Tom was right—the cell phones had sent them a message to go
crazy at three and drop dead at eight. It seemed too good to be true, but he
remembered feeling the same way about recordable CDs.
Silence from the
street in front of him; silence from the house behind him. After a while, Clay
leaned back on the couch and let his eyes close. He thought he might doze, but
doubted he would actually go to sleep again. Eventually, however, he did, and
this time there were no dreams. Once, shortly before first light, a mongrel dog
came up Tom McCourt's front walk, looked
in at him as he lay snoring in his cocoon of comforter, and then moved on. It
was in no hurry; pickings were rich in Malden that morning and would be for
some time to come.
12
"Clay.
Wake up."
A hand,
shaking him. Clay opened his eyes and saw Tom, dressed in a pair of blue jeans
and a gray work-shirt, bending over him. The front porch was lit by strong pale
light. Clay glanced at his wristwatch as he swung his feet off the couch and
saw it was twenty past six.
"You need to see
this," Tom said. He looked pale, anxious, and grizzled on both sides of
his mustache. The tail of his shirt was untucked on one side and his hair was
still standing up in back.
Clay looked at Salem
Street, saw a dog with something in its mouth trotting past a couple of dead
cars half a block west, saw nothing else moving. He could smell a faint smoky
funk in the air and supposed it was either Boston or Revere. Maybe both, but at
least the wind had died. He turned his gaze to Tom.
"Not out
here," Tom said. He kept his voice low. "In the backyard. I saw when
I went in the kitchen to make coffee before I remembered coffee's out, at least
for the time being. Maybe it's nothing, but . . . man, I don't like this."
"Is Alice still
sleeping?" Clay was groping under the comforter for his socks.
"Yes, and that's
good. Never mind your socks and shoes, this ain't dinner at the Ritz. Come
on."
He followed Tom, who
was wearing a pair of comfortable-looking scuffs, down the hall to the kitchen.
A half-finished glass of iced tea was standing on the counter.
Tom said, "I
can't get started without some caffeine in the morning, you know? So I poured
myself a glass of that stuff—help yourself, by the way, it's still nice and
cold—and I pushed back the curtain over the sink to take a look out at my
garden. No reason, just wanted to touch base with the outside world. And I saw
. . . but look for yourself."
Clay peered out
through the window over the sink. There was a neat little brick patio behind
the house with a gas grill on it. Beyond the patio was Tom's yard, half-grass
and half-garden. At the back was a high board fence with a gate in it. The gate
was open. The bolt holding it closed must have been shot across because it now
hung askew, looking to Clay like a broken wrist. It occurred to him that Tom
could have made coffee on the gas grill, if not for the man sitting in his
garden beside what had to be an ornamental wheelbarrow, eating the soft inside
of a split pumpkin and spitting out the seeds. He was wearing a mechanic's
coverall and a greasy cap with a faded letter B on it. Written in faded
red script on the left breast of his coverall was George. Clay
could hear the soft smooching sounds his face made every time he dove into the
pumpkin.
"Fuck,"
Clay said in a low voice. "It's one of them."
"Yes. And where
there's one there'll be more."
"Did he break
the gate to get in?"
"Of course he
did," Tom said. "I didn't see him do it, but it was locked when I
left yesterday, you can depend on that. I don't have the world's best
relationship with Scottoni, the guy who lives on the other side. He has no use
for 'fellas like me,' as he's told me on several occasions." He paused,
then went on in a lower voice. He had been speaking quietly to begin with, and
now Clay had to lean toward him to hear him. "You know what's crazy? I know
that guy. He works at Sonny's Texaco, down in the Center. It's the only gas
station in town that still does repairs. Or did. He replaced a radiator hose
for me once. Told me about how he and his brother made a trip to Yankee Stadium
last year, saw Curt Schilling beat the Big Unit. Seemed like a nice enough guy.
Now look at him! Sitting in my garden eating a raw pumpkin!"
"What's going
on, you guys?" Alice asked from behind them.
Tom turned around,
looking dismayed. "You don't want to see this," he said.
"That won't
work," Clay said. "She's got to see it."
He smiled at Alice,
and it wasn't that hard to smile. There was no monogram on the pocket of the
pajamas Tom had loaned her, but they were blue, just as he had imagined, and
she looked most dreadfully cute in them, with her feet bare and the pants legs
rolled up to her shins and her hair tousled
with sleep. In spite of her nightmares, she looked better rested than Tom. Clay
was willing to bet she looked better rested than he did, too.
"It's not a car
wreck, or anything," he said. "Just a guy eating a pumpkin in Tom's
backyard."
She stood between them, putting her hands on the lip of the sink
and rising up on the balls of her feet to look out. Her arm brushed Clay's, and
he could feel the sleep-warmth still radiating from her skin. She looked for a
long time, then turned to Tom.
"You said they
all killed themselves," she said, and Clay couldn't tell if she was
accusing or mock scolding. She probably doesn't know herself, he
thought.
"I didn't say
for sure," Tom replied, sounding lame.
"You sounded
pretty sure to me." She looked out again. At least, Clay thought, she
wasn't freaking out. In fact he thought she looked remarkably composed—if a
little Chaplinesque—in her slightly outsize pajamas. "Uh . . . guys?"
"What?"
they said together.
"Look at the
little wheelbarrow he's sitting next to. Look at the wheel."
Clay had already seen
what she was talking about—the litter of pumpkin-shell, pumpkin-meat, and
pumpkin seeds.
"He smashed the
pumpkin on the wheel to break it open and get to what's inside," Alice
said. "I guess he's one of them—"
"Oh, he's one of
them, all right," Clay said. George the mechanic was sitting in the garden
with his legs apart, allowing Clay to see that since yesterday afternoon he'd
forgotten all his mother had taught him about dropping trou before you did number
one.
"—but he used
that wheel as a tool. That doesn't seem so crazy to me."
"One of them was
using a knife yesterday," Tom said. "And there was another guy
jabbing a couple of car aerials."
"Yes, but . . .
this seems different, somehow."
"More peaceful,
you mean?" Tom glanced back at the intruder in his garden. "I
wouldn't want to go out there and find out."
"No, not that. I
don't mean peaceful. I don't know exactly how to explain it."
Clay thought he had
an idea of what she was talking about. The aggression they had witnessed
yesterday had been a blind, forward-rushing thing. An
anything-that-comes-to-hand thing. Yes, there had been the businessman with the
knife and the muscular young guy jabbing the car aerials in the air as he ran,
but there had also been the man in the park who'd torn off the dog's ear with
his teeth. Pixie Light had also used her teeth. This seemed a lot different,
and not just because it was about eating instead of killing. But like Alice,
Clay couldn't put his finger on just how it was different.
"Oh God, two
more," Alice said.
Through the open back
gate came a woman of about forty in a dirty gray pants suit and an elderly man
dressed in jogging shorts and a T-shirt with gray
power printed across the front. The woman in the pants suit had been
wearing a green blouse that now hung in tatters, revealing the cups of a pale
green bra beneath. The elderly man was limping badly, throwing his elbows out
in a kind of buck-and-wing with each step to keep his balance. His scrawny left
leg was caked with dried blood, and that foot was missing its running shoe. The
remains of an athletic sock, grimed with dirt and blood, flapped from his left
ankle. The elderly man's longish white hair hung around his vacant face in a
kind of cowl. The woman in the pants suit was making a repetitive noise that
sounded like "Goom! Goom!" as she surveyed the yard and the
garden. She looked at George the Pumpkin Eater as though he were of no account
at all, then strode past him toward the remaining cucumbers. Here she knelt,
snatched one from its vine, and began to munch. The old man in the gray power shirt marched to the edge of
the garden and then only stood there awhile like a robot that has finally run
out of juice. He was wearing tiny gold glasses—reading glasses, Clay
thought—that gleamed in the early light. He looked to Clay like someone who had
once been very smart and was now very stupid.
The three people in
the kitchen crowded together, staring out the window, hardly breathing.
The old man's gaze
settled on George, who threw away a piece of pumpkin-shell, examined the rest,
and then plowed his face back in and resumed his breakfast. Far from behaving
aggressively toward the newcomers, he seemed not to notice them at all.
The old man limped
forward, bent, and began to tug at a pumpkin the size of a soccer ball. He was
less than three feet from George. Clay, remembering the pitched battle outside
the T station, held his breath and waited.
He felt Alice grasp
his arm. All the sleep-warmth had departed her hand. "What's he going to
do?" she asked in a low voice.
Clay only shook his
head.
The old man tried to
bite the pumpkin and only bumped his nose. It should have been funny but wasn't.
His glasses were knocked askew and he pushed them back into place. It was a
gesture so normal that for a brief moment Clay felt all but positive that he
was the one who was crazy.
"Goom!" cried
the woman in the tattered blouse, and threw away her half-eaten cucumber. She
had spied a few late tomatoes and crawled toward them with her hair hanging in
her face. The seat of her pants was badly soiled.
The old man had spied
the ornamental wheelbarrow. He took his pumpkin to it, then seemed to register
George, sitting there beside it. He looked at him, head cocked. George gestured
with one orange-coated hand at the wheelbarrow, a gesture Clay had seen a
thousand times.
"Be my
guest," Tom murmured. "I'll be damned."
The old man fell on his
knees in the garden, a movement that obviously caused him considerable pain. He
grimaced, raised his lined face to the brightening sky, and uttered a chuffing
grunt. Then he lifted the pumpkin over the wheel. He studied the line of
descent for several moments, elderly biceps trembling, and brought the pumpkin
down, smashing it open. It fell in two meaty halves. What happened next
happened fast. George dropped his own mostly eaten pumpkin in his lap, rocked
forward, grabbed the old man's head in his big, orange-stained hands, and
twisted it. They heard the crack of the old man's breaking neck even through
the glass. His long white hair flew. His small spectacles disappeared into what
Clay thought were beets. His body spasmed once, then went limp. George dropped
it. Alice began to scream and Tom covered her mouth with his hand. Her eyes,
bulging with terror, peered over the top of it. Outside in the garden, George
picked up a fresh chunk of pumpkin and began calmly to eat.
The woman in the
shredded blouse looked around for a moment, casually, then plucked another
tomato and bit into it. Red juice ran from her chin and trickled down the dirty
line of her throat. She and George sat there in Tom McCourt's backyard garden,
eating vegetables, and for some reason the name of one of his favorite
paintings popped into Clay's mind: The Peaceable Kingdom.
He didn't realize
he'd spoken aloud until Tom looked at him bleakly and said: "Not
anymore."
13
The three of them were still standing there at the kitchen window
five minutes later when an alarm began to bray at some distance. It sounded
tired and hoarse, as though it would run down soon.
"Any
idea what that might be?" Clay asked. In the garden, George had abandoned
the pumpkins and dug up a large potato. This had brought him closer to the
woman, but he showed no interest in her. At least not yet.
"My best guess
would be that the generator at the Safeway in the Center just gave up,"
Tom said. "There's probably a battery-powered alarm in case that happens,
because of all the perishables. But that's only a guess. For all I know, it's
the First Malden Bank and T—"
"Look!"
Alice said.
The woman stopped in
the act of plucking another tomato, got up, and walked toward the east side of
Tom's house. George got to his feet as she passed, and Clay was sure he meant
to kill her as he had the old man. He winced in anticipation and saw Tom
reaching for Alice, to turn her away. But George only followed the woman,
disappearing around the corner of the house behind her.
Alice turned and
hurried toward the kitchen door.
"Don't let them
see you!" Tom called in a low, urgent voice, and went after her.
"Don't
worry," she said.
Clay followed,
worrying for all of them.
They reached the
dining room door in time to watch the woman in her filthy pants suit and George
in his even filthier coverall pass beyond the dining room window, their bodies broken into segments by Venetian
blinds which had been dropped but not closed. Neither of them glanced toward
the house, and now George was so close behind the woman that he could have
bitten the nape of her neck. Alice, followed by Tom and Clay, moved up the hall
to Tom's little office. Here the blinds were closed, but Clay saw the
projected shadows of the two outside pass swiftly across them. Alice went on up
the hall, toward where the door to the enclosed porch stood open. The comforter
lay half on and half off the couch, as Clay had left it. The porch was flooded
with brilliant morning sunshine. It seemed to burn on the boards.
"Alice, be
careful!" Clay said. "Be—"
But she had stopped.
She was just looking. Then Tom was standing beside her, almost exactly the same
height. Seen that way, they could have been brother and sister. Neither of them
took any pains at all to avoid being seen.
"Holy fucking
shit," Tom said. He sounded as if the wind had been knocked out of him.
Beside him, Alice began to cry. It was the sort of out-of-breath weeping a
tired child might make. One who is becoming used to punishment.
Clay caught up. The
woman in the pants suit was cutting across Tom's lawn. George was still behind
her, matching her stride for stride. They were almost in lockstep. That broke a
little bit at the curb when George swung out to her left, becoming her wingman
instead of her back door.
Salem Street was full
of crazy people.
Clay's first
assessment was that there might be a thousand or more. Then the observer part
of him took over—the coldhearted artist's eye— and he realized that was a wild
overestimate, prompted by surprise at seeing anyone at all on what he had
expected would be an empty street, and shock at realizing they were all them.
There was no mistaking the vacant faces, the eyes that seemed to look beyond
everything, the dirty, bloody, disheveled clothing (in several cases no
clothing at all), the occasional cawing cry or jerky gesture. There was the man
dressed only in tighty-whity undershorts and a polo shirt who seemed to be
saluting repeatedly; the heavyset woman whose lower lip was split and hung in
two beefy flaps,
revealing all of her lower
teeth; the tall teenage boy in blue jeans shorts who walked up the center of
Salem Street carrying what looked like a blood-caked tire-iron in one hand; an Indian
or Pakistani gentleman who passed Tom's house wriggling his jaw from side to
side and simultaneously chattering his teeth; a boy—dear God, a boy Johnny's
age—who walked with absolutely no sign of pain although one arm was flapping
below the knob of his dislocated shoulder; a pretty young woman in a short
skirt and a shell top who appeared to be eating from the red stomach of a crow.
Some moaned, some made vocal noises that might once have been words, and all
were moving east. Clay had no idea if they were being drawn by the braying
alarm or the smell of food, but they were all walking in the direction of
Malden Center.
"Christ, it's
zombie heaven," Tom said.
Clay didn't bother
answering. The people out there weren't exactly zombies, but Tom was pretty
close, just the same. If any of them looks over here, sees us
and decides to come after us, we're done. We won't have a hope in hell. Not
even if we barricade ourselves in the cellar. And getting those guns across the
street? You can forget that.
The idea that his
wife and son might be—very likely were—having to deal with creatures
such as these filled him with dread. But this was no comic book and he was no
hero: he was helpless. The three of them might be safe in the house, but as far
as the immediate future was concerned, it didn't look like he and Tom and Alice
were going anywhere.
14
"They're
like birds," Alice said. She wiped the tears from her cheeks with the
heels of her hands. "A flock of birds."
Clay saw
what she meant at once and gave her an impulsive hug. She had put her finger on
something that had first struck him as he'd watched George the mechanic follow
the woman instead of killing her, as he had the old man. The two of them
clearly vacant in the upper story, yet seeming to go out front by some unspoken
agreement.
"I don't get
it," Tom said.
"You must have
missed March of the Penguins," Alice said.
"Actually, I
did," Tom said. "When I want to see someone waddle in a tuxedo, I go
to a French restaurant."
"But haven't you
ever noticed the way birds are, especially in the spring and fall?" Clay
asked. "You must have. They'll all light in the same tree or along the
same telephone wire—"
"Sometimes so
many they make it sag," Alice said. "Then they all fly at once. My
dad says they must have a group leader, but Mr. Sullivan in Earth Science—back
in middle school, this was—told us it was a flock-mind thing, like ants all
going out from a hill or bees from a hive."
"The flock
swoops right or left, all at the same time, and the individual birds never hit
each other," Clay said. "Sometimes the sky's black with them and the
noise is enough to drive you nuts." He paused. "At least out in the
country, where I live." He paused again. "Tom, do you . . . do you
recognize any of those people?"
"A few. That's
Mr. Potowami, from the bakery," he said, pointing to the Indian man who
was wriggling his jaw and chattering his teeth. "That pretty young woman .
. . I believe she works in the bank. And do you remember me mentioning
Scottoni, the man who lives on the other side of the block from me?"
Clay nodded.
Tom, now very pale,
pointed to a visibly pregnant woman dressed only in a food-stained smock that
came down to her upper thighs. Blond hair hung against her pimply cheeks, and a
stud gleamed in her nose. "That's his daughter-in-law," he said.
"Judy. She has gone out of her way to be kind to me." He added in a
dry, matter-of-fact tone: "This breaks my heart."
From the direction of
the town center there came a loud gunshot. Alice cried out, but this time Tom
didn't have to cover her mouth; she did it herself. None of the people in the
street glanced over, in any case. Nor did the report—Clay thought it had been a
shotgun—seem to disturb them. They just kept walking, no faster and no slower.
Clay waited for another shot. Instead there was a scream, very brief, there and
gone, as if cut off.
The three standing in
the shadows just beyond the porch went on watching, not talking. All of the
people who passed were going east, and although they did not precisely walk in
formation, there was an unmistakable order about them. For Clay it was best
expressed not in his view of the phone-crazies themselves, who often limped and
sometimes shambled, who gibbered and made odd gestures, but in the silent,
ordered passage of their shadows on the pavement. They made him think of World
War II newsreel footage he'd seen, where wave after wave of bombers flew across
the sky. He counted two hundred and fifty before giving up. Men, women,
teenagers. Quite a few children Johnny's age, too. Far more children than old
people, although he saw only a few kids younger than ten. He didn't like to
think of what must have happened to the little guys and gals who'd had no one
to take care of them when the Pulse occurred.
Or the little guys
and gals who'd been in the care of people with cell phones.
As for the
vacant-eyed children he could see, Clay wondered how many now passing before
him had pestered their parents for cell phones with special ring-tones last
year, as Johnny had.
"One mind,"
Tom said presently. "Do you really believe that?"
"I sort
of do," Alice said. "Because . . . like . . . what mind do they have
on their own?"
"She's
right," Clay said.
The migration (once
you'd seen it that way it was hard to think of it as anything else) thinned but
didn't stop, even after half an hour; three men would pass walking abreast—one
in a bowling shirt, one in the remains of a suit, one with his lower face
mostly obliterated in a cake of dried gore—and then two men and a woman walking
in a half-assed conga line, then a middle-aged woman who looked like a
librarian (if you ignored one bare breast wagging in the wind, that was) walking
in tandem with a half-grown, gawky girl who might have been a library aide.
There would be a pause and then a dozen more would come, seeming almost to form
a kind of hollow square, like a fighting unit from the Napoleonic Wars. And in
the distance Clay began to hear warlike sounds—a sporadic rattle of rifle-or
pistol-fire and once (and close, maybe from neighboring Medford or right here
in Maiden) the long, ripping roar of a large-caliber automatic weapon. Also,
more screams. Most were distant, but Clay was pretty sure that was what they
were.
There were still
other sane people around these parts, plenty of them, and some had managed to get their
hands on guns. Those people were very likely having themselves a phoner-shoot.
Others, however, had not been lucky enough to have been indoors when the sun
came up and the crazies came out. He thought of George the mechanic gripping
the old man's head in his orange hands, the twist, the snap, the little reading
glasses flying into the beets where they would stay. And stay. And stay.
"I think I want
to go into the living room and sit down," Alice said. "I don't want
to look at them anymore. Listen, either. It makes me sick."
"Sure,"
Clay said. "Tom, why don't you—?"
"No," Tom
said. "You go. I'll stay here and watch for a while. I think one of us ought
to watch, don't you?"
Clay nodded. He did.
"Then, in an
hour or so, you can spell me. Turn and turn about."
"Okay.
Done."
As they started back
down the hall, Clay with his arm around Alice's shoulders, Tom said: "One
thing."
They looked back at
him.
"I think we all
ought to try and get as much rest as possible today. If we're still planning on
going north, that is."
Clay looked at him
closely to make sure Tom was still in his right mind. He appeared to be, but—
"Have you been
seeing what's going on out there?" he asked. "Hearing the shooting?
The . . ." He didn't want to say the screams with Alice there,
although God knew it was a little late to be trying to protect her remaining
sensibilities. ". . . the yelling?"
"Of
course," Tom said. "But the nutters went inside last night,
didn't they?"
For a moment neither
Clay nor Alice moved. Then Alice began to pat her hands together in soft,
almost silent applause. And Clay began to smile. The smile felt stiff and
unfamiliar on his face, and the hope that went with it was almost painful.
"Tom, you might
just be a genius," he said.
Tom did not return
the smile. "Don't count on it," he said. "I never broke a
thousand on the SATs."
15
Clearly feeling better—and that had to be a good thing, Clay
reckoned—Alice went upstairs to poke around in Tom's clothes for daywear. Clay
sat on the couch, thinking about Sharon and Johnny, trying to decide what they
would have done and where they would have gone, always supposing they'd been
fortunate enough to get together. He fell into a doze and saw them clearly at
Kent Pond Elementary, Sharon's school. They were barricaded in the gym with two
or three dozen others, eating sandwiches from the cafeteria and drinking those
little cartons of milk. They—
Alice roused him,
calling from upstairs. He looked at his wristwatch and saw he'd been sleeping
on the couch for almost twenty minutes. He'd drooled on his chin.
"Alice?" He
went to the foot of the stairs. "Everything okay?" Tom, he saw, was
also looking.
"Yes, but can
you come for a second?"
"Sure." He
looked at Tom, shrugged, then went upstairs.
Alice was in a guest bedroom that looked like it hadn't seen many
guests, although the two pillows suggested that Tom had spent most of the night
here with her, and the rumpled look of the bedclothes further suggested very
bad rest. She had found a pair of khakis that almost fit and a sweatshirt with canobie lake park written across the
front below the outline of a roller coaster. On the floor was the sort of large
portable sound system that Clay and his friends had once lusted after the way
Johnny-Gee had lusted after that red cell phone. Clay and his friends had
called such systems ghetto blasters or boomboxes.
"It was in the
closet and the batteries look fresh," she said. "I thought of turning
it on and looking for a radio station, but then I was afraid."
He looked at the
ghetto blaster sitting there on the guest room's nice hardwood floor, and he
was afraid, too. It could have been a loaded gun. But he felt an urge to reach
out and turn the selector-knob, now pointed at CD, to FM. He imagined Alice had
felt the same urge, and that was why she'd called him. The urge to touch a
loaded gun would have been no different.
"My sister gave
me that two birthdays ago," Tom said from the doorway, and they both
jumped. "I loaded it up with batteries last July and took it to the beach.
When I was a kid we all used to go to the beach and listen to our radios,
although I never had one that big."
"Me
either," Clay said. "But I wanted one."
"I took it up to
Hampton Beach in New Hampshire with a bunch of Van Halen and Madonna CDs, but
it wasn't the same. Not even close. I haven't used it since. I imagine all the
stations are off the air, don't you?"
"I bet some of
them are still on," Alice said. She was biting at her lower lip. Clay
thought if she didn't stop soon, it would begin to bleed. "The ones my
friends call the robo-eighties stations. They have friendly names like BOB and
FRANK, but they all come from some giant radio-computer in Colorado and then
get beamed down by satellite. At least that's what my friends say. And . . ."
She licked at the place she had been biting. It was shiny with blood just under
the surface. "And that's the same way cell phone signals get routed, isn't
it? By satellite."
"I don't
know," Tom said. "I guess the long-distance ones might . . . and the
transatlantic ones for sure . . . and I suppose the right genius could hack the
wrong satellite signal into all those microwave towers you see . . . the ones
that boost the signals along . . ."
Clay knew the towers
he was talking about, steel skeletons with dishes stuck all over them like gray
suckers. They had popped up everywhere over the last ten years.
Tom said, "If we
could pick up a local station, we might be able to get news. Some idea
about what to do, where to go—"
"Yes, but what
if it's on the radio, too?" Alice said. "That's what I'm saying.
What if you tune into whatever my"—She licked her lips again, then resumed
nibbling.—"my mother heard? And my dad? Him, too, oh yes, he had a
brand-new cell phone, all the bells and whistles—video, autodial, Internet
connection—he loved that puppy!" She gave a laugh that was both
hysterical and rueful, a dizzy combination. "What if you tune into
whatever they heard? My folks and them out there? Do you want to risk
that?"
At first Tom said
nothing. Then he said—cautiously, as if testing the idea—"One of us could risk it.
The other two could leave and wait until—"
"No," Clay
said.
"Please no,"
Alice said. She was almost crying again. "I want you both. I need
you both."
They stood around the radio, looking at it.
Clay found himself thinking of science fiction novels he'd read as a teenager
(sometimes at the beach, listening to Nirvana instead of Van Halen on the
radio). In more than a few of them, the world ended. And then the heroes built
it back up again. Not without struggles and setbacks, but yes, they used the
tools and the technology and they built it back up again. He couldn't remember
anywhere the heroes just stood around in a bedroom looking at a radio. Sooner
or later someone is going to pick up a tool or turn on a radio, he thought,
because someone will have to.
Yes. But not this
morning.
Feeling like a
traitor to something larger than he could understand, he picked up Tom's ghetto
blaster, put it back in the closet, and closed the door.
16
An hour or so later, the orderly migration to the east began to
collapse. Clay was on watch. Alice was in the kitchen, eating one of the
sandwiches they'd brought out of Boston—she said they had to finish the sandwiches
before they ate any of the canned stuff in Tom's closet-sized pantry, because
none of them knew when they'd get fresh meat again—and Tom was sleeping in the
living room, on the couch. Clay could hear him snoring contentedly away.
He noticed a few
people wandering against the general easterly flow, then sensed a kind of
slackening in the order out there in Salem Street, something so subtle that his
brain registered what his eye saw only as an intuition. At first he dismissed
it as a falsity caused by the few wanderers—even more deranged than the
rest—who were heading west instead of east, and then he looked down at the
shadows. The neat herringbone patterns he
had observed earlier had begun to distort. And soon they weren't patterns at
all.
More people were now heading west, and some of them were
gnawing on food that had been liberated from a grocery store, probably the
Safeway Tom had mentioned. Mr. Scottoni's daughter-in-law, Judy, was carrying a
gigantic tub of melting chocolate ice cream, which had covered the front of her
smock and coated her from knees to nose-stud; her chocolate-lathered face made
her look like Mrs. Bones in a minstrel show. And any vegetarian beliefs Mr.
Potowami might once have held were gone now; he strolled along noshing from a
great double handful of raw hamburger meat. A fat man in a dirty suit had what
looked like a partially defrosted leg of lamb, and when Judy Scottoni tried to
take it from him, the fat man hit her a vicious clip in the center of the forehead
with it. She fell as silently as a poleaxed steer, pregnant belly first, on top
of her mostly crushed tub of Breyers chocolate.
There was a great
deal of milling now, and a good deal of violence to go with it, but no return
to the all-out viciousness of the afternoon before. Not here, in any case. In
Malden Center, the alarm, tired-sounding to begin with, had long since run
down. In the distance, gunfire continued to pop sporadically, but there had
been nothing close since that single shotgun blast from the center of town.
Clay watched to see if any of the crazies would try breaking into any of the
houses, but although they occasionally walked on the lawns, they showed no
signs of graduating from trespass to burglary. What they did mostly was wander
around, occasionally trying to grab one another's food, sometimes fighting or
biting one another. Three or four—the Scottoni woman, for one—lay in the
street, either dead or unconscious. Most of those who had passed Tom's house
earlier were still in the town square, Clay guessed, having a street dance or
maybe the First Annual Malden Raw Meat Festival, and thank God for that. It was
strange, though, how that sense of purpose—that sense of flocking—had
seemed to loosen and fall apart.
After noon, when he
began to feel seriously sleepy, he went into the kitchen and found Alice dozing
at the kitchen table with her head in her arms. The little sneaker, the one she
had called a Baby Nike, was loosely clasped in one hand. When he woke her, she
looked at him groggily and clasped it to the
breast of her sweatshirt, as if afraid he would try to take it away.
He asked if she could
watch from the end of the hallway for a while without falling asleep again or
being seen. She said she could. Clay took her at her word and carried a chair
for her. She paused for a moment at the door to the living room. "Check it
out," she said.
He looked in over her
shoulder and saw the cat, Rafe, was sleeping on Tom's belly. He grunted in
amusement.
She sat where he put
the chair, far enough inside the door so someone who glanced at the house
wouldn't see her. After a single look she said, "They're not a flock
anymore. What happened?"
"I don't
know."
"What time is
it?"
He glanced at his
watch. "Twenty past twelve."
"What time did
we notice they were flocking?"
"I don't know,
Alice." He was trying to be patient with her but he could hardly keep his
eyes open. "Six-thirty? Seven? I don't know. Does it matter?"
"If we could
chart them, it might matter a lot, don't you think?"
He told her that he'd
think about that when he'd had some sleep. "Couple of hours, then wake me
or Tom," he said. "Sooner, if something goes wrong."
"It couldn't go
much wronger," she said softly. "Go on upstairs. You look really
wasted."
He went upstairs to
the guest bedroom, slipped off his shoes, and lay down. He thought for a moment
about what she'd said: If we could chart them. She might have something
there. Odds against, but maybe—
It was a pleasant
room, very pleasant, full of sun. You lay in a room like this and it was easy
to forget there was a radio in the closet you didn't dare turn on. Not so easy
to forget your wife, estranged but still loved, might be dead and your son—not
just loved but adored—might be crazy. Still, the body had its imperatives,
didn't it? And if there had ever been a room for an afternoon nap, this was the
one. The panic-rat twitched but didn't bite, and Clay was asleep almost as soon
as he closed his eyes.
17
This time Alice was the one who shook him awake. The little purple
sneaker swung back and forth as she did it. She had tied it around her left
wrist, turning it into a rather creepy talisman. The light in the room had
changed. It was going the other way, and diminished. He had turned on his side
and he had to urinate, a reliable sign that he had slept for some time. He sat
up in a hurry and was surprised—almost appalled—to see it was quarter of six.
He had slept for over five hours. But of course last night hadn't been his
first night of broken rest; he'd slept poorly the night before, as well.
Nerves, on account of his presentation to the Dark Horse comics people.
"Is
everything all right?" he asked, taking her by the wrist. "Why'd you
let me sleep so long?"
"Because you
needed it," she said. "Tom slept until two and I slept until four.
We've been watching together since then. Come down and look. It's pretty
amazing."
"Are they
flocking again?"
She nodded. "But
going the other way this time. And that's not all. Come and see."
He emptied his
bladder and hurried downstairs. Tom and Alice were standing in the doorway to
the porch with their arms around each other's waist. There was no question of
being seen, now; the sky had clouded over and Tom's porch was already thick
with shadows. Only a few people were left on Salem Street, anyway. All of them
were moving west, not quite running but going at a steady clip. A group of four
went past in the street itself, marching over a sprawl of bodies and a litter
of discarded food, which included the leg of lamb, now gnawed down to the bone,
a great many torn-open cellophane bags and cardboard boxes, and a scattering of
discarded fruits and vegetables. Behind them came a group of six, the ones on
the end using the sidewalks. They didn't look at each other but were still so
perfectly together that when they passed Tom's house they seemed for an instant
to be only a single man, and Clay realized even their arms were swinging in
unison. After them came a youth of maybe fourteen, limping along, bawling
inarticulate cow-sounds, and trying to keep up.
"They left the
dead and the totally unconscious ones," Tom said, "but they actually
helped a couple who were stirring."
Clay looked for the
pregnant woman and didn't see her. "Mrs. Scottoni?"
"She was one of
the ones they helped," Tom said.
"So they're
acting like people again."
"Don't get that
idea," Alice said. "One of the men they tried to help couldn't walk,
and after he fell down a couple of times, one of the guys who'd been lifting
him got tired of being a Boy Scout and just—"
"Killed
him," Tom said. "Not with his hands, either, like the guy in the
garden. With his teeth. Tore out his throat."
"I saw what was
going to happen and looked away," Alice said, "but I heard it. He . .
. squealed."
"Easy,"
Clay said. He squeezed her arm gently. "Take it easy."
Now the street was
almost entirely empty. Two more stragglers came along, and although they moved
more or less side by side, both were limping so badly there was no sense of
unison about them.
"Where are they
going?" Clay asked.
"Alice thinks
maybe inside," Tom said, and he sounded excited. "Before it gets
dark. She could be right."
"Where? Where are they going
in? Have you seen any of them going into houses along this block?"
"No." They
said it together.
"They didn't all
come back," Alice said. "No way did as many come back up Salem
Street as went down this morning. So a lot are still in Malden Center, or
beyond. They may have gravitated toward public buildings, like school
gymnasiums . . ."
School gymnasiums.
Clay didn't like the sound of that.
"Did you see
that movie, Dawn of the Dead?" she asked.
"Yes," Clay
said. "You're not going to tell me someone let you in to see it,
are you?"
She looked at him as
if he were nuts. Or old. "One of my friends had the DVD. We watched it at
a sleepover back in eighth grade." Back when the Pony Express
still rode and the plains were dark with buffalo, her tone said. "In that movie, all the dead
people—well, not all, but a lot—went back to the mall when they woke up."
Tom McCourt goggled
at her for a second, then burst out laughing. It wasn't a little laugh, either,
but a long series of guffaws, laughter so hard he had to lean against the wall
for support, and Clay thought it wise to shut the door between the hall and the
porch. There was no telling how well the things straggling up the street might
hear; all he could think of at the moment was that the hearing of the lunatic
narrator in Poe's "The Tell-Tale Heart" had been extremely keen.
"Well they did,"
Alice said, putting her hands on her hips. The baby sneaker flopped.
"Straight to the mall." Tom laughed even harder. His knees buckled
and he oozed slowly down to the hall floor, howling and flapping his hands
against his shirt.
"They died . . . ," he gasped, ". . .
and came back . . . to go to the mall. Jesus Christ, does Jerry F-Falwell.
. ." He went off into another gale. Tears were now running down his
cheeks in clear streams. He brought himself under control enough to finish,
"Does Jerry Falwell know heaven's the Newcastle Mall?"
Clay also began to
laugh. So did Alice, although Clay thought she was a little bit pissed off that
her reference had been greeted not with interest or even mild good humor but
outright howls. Still, when people started laughing, it was hard not to join
in. Even when you were pissed.
They had almost
stopped when Clay said, apropos of nothing, "If heaven ain't a lot like
Dixie, I don't want to go."
That set them off
again, all three. Alice was still laughing when she said, "If they're
flocking, then roosting for the night in gyms and churches and malls, people
could machine-gun them by the hundreds."
Clay stopped laughing
first. Then Tom stopped. He looked at her, wiping moisture out of his neat
little mustache.
Alice nodded. The
laughter had brought high color to her cheeks, and she was still smiling. She
had, at least for the moment, careened past pretty and into genuine beauty.
"By the thousands, maybe, if they're all going to the same place."
"Jesus,"
Tom said. He took off his glasses and began to wipe them, too. "You don't
fool around."
"It's
survival," Alice said matter-of-factly. She looked down at the sneaker
tied to her wrist, then up at the men. She nodded again. "We ought to chart them. Find out if they
're flocking and when they're flocking, If they're roosting and where
they're roosting. Because if they can be charted—"
18
Clay had led them out of Boston, but when the three of them left
the house on Salem Street some twenty-four hours later, fifteen-year-old Alice
Maxwell was unquestionably in charge. The more Clay thought about it, the less
it surprised him.
Tom McCourt
didn't lack for what his British cousins called bottle, but he was not and
never would be a natural leader. Clay had some leadership qualities, but that
evening Alice had an advantage beyond her intelligence and desire to survive:
she had suffered her losses and begun to move on. In leaving the house on Salem
Street, both men were dealing with new ones. Clay had begun to suffer a rather
frightening depression that at first he thought was just the result of his
decision—unavoidable, really—to leave his portfolio behind. As the night went
on, however, he realized it was a profound dread of what he might find if and
when he got to Kent Pond.
For Tom, it was simpler. He hated to leave Rafe.
"Prop the door
open for him," Alice said—the new and harder Alice, who seemed more
decisive by the minute. "He'll almost certainly be okay, Tom. He'll find
plenty of forage. It'll be a long time before the cats starve or the
phone-crazies work their way down the food-chain to cat-meat."
"He'll go
feral," Tom said. He was sitting on the living room couch, looking stylish
and miserable in a belted raincoat and trilby hat. Rafer was on his lap,
purring and looking bored.
"Yeah, that's
what they do," Clay said. "Think of all the dogs—the little ones and
the oversized ones—that are just going to flat die."
"I've had him
for a long time. Since he was a kitten, really." He looked up and Clay saw
the man was on the verge of tears. "Also, I guess I see him as my luck. My
mojo. He saved my life, remember."
"Now we're your
mojo," Clay said. He didn't want to point out that he himself had almost
certainly saved Tom's life once already, but it was true. "Right,
Alice?"
"Yep," she
said. Tom had found a poncho for her, and she wore a knapsack on her back,
although there currently was nothing in it but batteries for the flashlights .
. . and, Clay was quite sure, that creepy little sneaker, which was at least no
longer tied to her wrist. Clay was also carrying batteries in his pack, along
with the Coleman lantern. They had nothing else, at Alice's suggestion. She
said there was no reason for them to carry what they could pick up along the
way. "We're the Three Musketeers, Tom—all for one and one for all. Now
let's go over to the Nickle-bys' house and see if we can get some
muskets."
"Nickerson." He was still stroking the cat.
She was smart
enough—and compassionate enough, maybe that, too—not to say something like Whatever,
but Clay could see she was getting low in the patience department. He said,
"Tom. Time to go."
"Yeah, I
suppose." He started to put the cat aside, then picked it up and kissed it
firmly between the ears. Rafe bore it with no more than a slight narrowing of
the eyes. Tom put it down on the sofa and stood. "Double rations in the
kitchen by the stove, kiddo," he said. "Plus a big bowl of milk, with
the rest of the half 'n' half poured in for good measure. Back door's open. Try
to remember where home is, and maybe . . . hey, maybe I'll see you."
The cat jumped down
and walked out of the room toward the kitchen with its tail up. And, true to
its kind, it never looked back.
Clay's portfolio,
bent and with a horizontal wrinkle running both ways from the knife-slash in the
middle, leaned against the living room wall. He glanced at it on the way by and
resisted an urge to touch it. He thought briefly of the people inside he'd
lived with so long, both in his little studio and in the much wider (or so he
liked to flatter himself) reaches of his imagination: Wizard Flak, Sleepy Gene,
Jumping Jack Flash, Poison Sally. And the Dark Wanderer, of course. Two days
ago he'd thought that maybe they were going to be stars. Now they had a hole
running through them and Tom McCourt's cat for company.
He thought of Sleepy
Gene leaving town on Robbie the Robo-Cayuse, saying S-So l-long b-boys!
Meh-Meh-Mebbe I'll b-be back this w-w-way again!
"So long,
boys," he said out loud—a little self-conscious but not very. It was the
end of the world, after all. As farewells went, it wasn't much, but it would have to do. . . and as Sleepy
Gene might also have said, It sh-sh-sure beats a p-poke in the eye with a
ruh-ruh-rusty b-brandin'-arn.
Clay followed Alice
and Tom out onto the porch, into the sound of soft autumn rain.
19
Tom had his trilby, there was a hood on Alice's poncho, and Tom had
found Clay a Red Sox cap that would keep his head dry for a while, at least, if
the light rain didn't get heavier. And if it did . . . well, forage shouldn't
be a problem, as Alice had pointed out. That would surely include foul-weather
gear. From the slight elevation of the porch they could see roughly two blocks
of Salem Street. It was impossible to be sure in the failing light, but it appeared
completely deserted except for a few bodies and the food-litter the crazies had
left behind.
Each of them
was wearing a knife seated in scabbards Clay had made. If Tom was right about
the Nickersons, they would soon be able to do better. Clay hoped so. He might
be able to use the butcher knife from Soul Kitchen again, but he still wasn't
sure he would be able to use it in cold blood.
Alice held a
flashlight in her left hand. She looked to make sure Tom had one, too, and
nodded. "Okay," she said. "You take us to the Nickerson house,
right?"
"Right,"
Tom said.
"And if we see
someone on our way there, we stop right away and put our lights on them."
She looked at Tom, then Clay, with some anxiety. They had been over this
before. Clay guessed she probably obsessed the same way before big tests . . .
and of course this was a very big one.
"Right,"
Tom said. "We say, 'Our names are Tom, Clay, and Alice. We're normal. What
are your names?' "
Clay said, "If
they have flashlights like us, we can almost assume—"
"We can't assume
anything," she said restlessly, querulously. "My father says assume
makes an ass out of you and me. Get it, u and—"
"I get it,"
Clay said.
Alice brushed at her
eyes, although whether to wipe away rain or tears
Clay wasn't sure. He
wondered, briefly and painfully, if Johnny was somewhere crying for him, right
now. Clay hoped he was. He hoped his son was still capable of tears. Of memory.
"If they can
answer, if they can say their names, they're fine, and they're probably
safe," Alice said. "Right?"
"Right,"
Clay said.
"Yeah," Tom
agreed, a little absently. He was looking at the street where there were no
people and no bobbing flashlight beams, near or far.
Someplace in the
distance, gunshots popped. They sounded like fireworks. The air stank of
burning and char and had all day. Clay thought they were smelling it more
strongly now because it was wet. He wondered how long before the smell of
decaying flesh turned the fug hanging over greater Boston into a reek. He
supposed it depended on how warm the days ahead turned out to be.
"If we meet
normal people and they ask us what we're doing or where we're going, remember
the story," she said.
"We're looking for
survivors," Tom said.
"That's right.
Because they're our friends and neighbors. Any people we meet will just be
passing through. They'll want to keep moving. Later on we'll probably want to
hook up with other normal people, because there's safety in numbers, but right
now—"
"Right now we'd
like to get to those guns," Clay said. "If there are any guns to get.
Come on, Alice, let's do this."
She looked worriedly
at him. "What's wrong? What am I missing? You can tell me, I know I'm just
a kid."
Patiently—as
patiently as he could with nerves that felt like overtuned guitar-strings—Clay
said, "There's nothing wrong with it, honey. I just want to get rolling. I
don't think we're going to see anyone, anyway. I think it's too soon."
"I hope you're
right," she said. "My hair's a mess and I've chipped a nail."
They looked at her
silently for a moment, then laughed. After that it was better among them, and
stayed better until the end.
20
"No,"
Alice said. She made a gagging sound. "No. No, I can't." A louder
gagging sound. Then: "I'm going to throw up. I'm sorry."
She plunged
out of the Coleman's glare and into the gloom of the Nickersons' living room,
which adjoined the kitchen via a wide arch. Clay heard a soft thump as she went
to her knees on the carpet, then more gagging. A pause, a gasp, and then she
was vomiting. He was almost relieved.
"Oh
Christ," Tom said. He pulled in a long, gasping breath and this time spoke
in a wavering exhalation that was nearly a howl. "Oh Chriiiiiist."
"Tom," Clay
said. He saw how the little man was swaying on his feet and understood he was
on the verge of fainting. Why not? These bloody leavings had been his
neighbors.
"Tom!" He
stepped between Tom and the two bodies on the kitchen floor, between Tom and
most of the splattered blood, which looked as black as India ink in the
Coleman's unforgiving white glare. He tapped the side of Tom's face with his
free hand. "Don't pass out!" And when he saw Tom steady on his
feet, he dropped his voice a little. "Go on in the other room and take
care of Alice. I'll take care of the kitchen."
"Why would you
want to go in there?" Tom asked. "That's Beth Nickerson with her
brains . . . her b-brains all over . . ." He swallowed. There was an
audible click in his throat. "Most of her face is gone, but I recognize
the blue jumper with the white snowflakes on it. And that's Heidi on the floor
by the center island. Their daughter. I recognize her, even with . .
." He shook his head, as if to clear it, then repeated: "Why would
you want to?"
"I'm pretty sure
I see what we came for," Clay said. He was astounded by how calm he
sounded.
"In the kitchen?”
Tom tried to look
past him and Clay moved to block his view. "Trust me. You see to Alice. If
she can, you two start looking around for more guns. Shout if you hit paydirt.
And be careful, Mr. Nickerson may be here, too. I mean, we could assume he was
at work when all this went down, but as Alice's dad says—"
"Assume makes an
ass out of you and me," Tom said. He managed a sickly smile. "Gotcha." He
started to turn away, then turned back. "I don't care where we go, Clay,
but I don't want to stay here any longer than we have to. I didn't exactly love
Arnie and Beth Nickerson, but they were my neighbors. And they treated me a
hell of a lot better than that idiot Scottoni from around the block."
"Understood."
Tom snapped on his
flashlight and went into the Nickerson living room. Clay heard him murmuring to
Alice, comforting her.
Steeling himself,
Clay walked into the kitchen with the Coleman lantern held up, stepping around
the puddles of blood on the hardwood floor. It had dried now, but he still
didn't want to put his shoes in any more of it than he had to.
The girl lying on her
back by the center island had been tall, but both her pigtails and the angular
lines of her body suggested a child two or three years younger than Alice. Her
head was cocked at a strenuous angle, almost a parody of interrogation, and her
dead eyes bulged. Her hair had been broom straw-blond, but all of it on the
left side of her head—the side that had taken the blow which had killed her—was
now the same dark maroon as the stains on the floor.
Her mother reclined
below the counter to the right of the stove, where the handsome cherrywood
cabinets came together to form a corner. Her hands were ghost-white with flour
and her bloody, bitten legs were indecorously splayed. Once, before starting
work on a limited-run comic called Battle Hell, Clay had accessed a
selection of fatal-gunshot photos on the Web, thinking there might be something
he could use. There was not. Gunshot wounds spoke a terrible blank language of
their own, and here it was again. Beth Nickerson was mostly spray and gristle
from her left eye on up. Her right eye had drifted into the upper orbit of its
socket, as if she had died trying to look into her own head. Her back hair and
a good deal of her brain-matter was caked on the cherrywood cabinet against
which she had leaned in her brief moments of dying. A few flies were buzzing
around her.
Clay began to gag. He
turned his head and covered his mouth. He told himself he had to control
himself. In the other room Alice had stopped vomiting—in fact he could hear her
and Tom talking together as they moved
deeper into the house—and he didn't want to get her going again.
Think of them as
dummies, props in a movie, he told himself, but he knew he could never do
that.
When he looked back,
he looked at the other things on the floor instead. That helped. The gun he had
already seen. The kitchen was spacious and the gun was all the way on the other
side, lying between the fridge and one of the cabinets with the barrel sticking
out. His first impulse on seeing the dead woman and the dead girl had been to
avert his eyes; they'd happened on the gun-barrel purely by accident.
But maybe I
would have known there had to be a gun.
He even saw where it
had been: a wall-mounted clip between the built-in TV and the industrial-size
can-opener. They were gadget-nuts as well as gun-nuts, Tom had said, and
a wall-mounted pistol in your kitchen just waiting to leap into your hand . . .
why, if that wasn't the best of both worlds, what was?
"Clay?"
That was Alice. Coming from some distance.
"What?"
There followed the
sound of feet quickly ascending a set of stairs, then Alice called from the
living room. "Tom said you wanted to know if we hit paydirt. We just did.
There must be a dozen guns downstairs in the den. Rifles and pistols both.
They're in a cabinet with an alarm-company sticker on it, so we'll probably get
arrested . . . that's a joke. Are you coming?"
"In a minute,
hon. Don't come out here."
"Don't worry.
Don't you stay there and get grossed out."
He was beyond grossed
out, far beyond. There were two other objects lying on the bloody hardwood
floor of the Nickerson kitchen. One was a rolling pin, which made sense. There
was a pie tin, a mixing bowl, and a cheery yellow canister marked FLOUR sitting
on the center island. The other object on the floor, this one lying not too
distant from one of Heidi Nickerson's hands, was a cell phone only a teenager
could love, blue with big orange daisy decals plastered all over it.
Clay could see what
had happened, little as he wanted to. Beth Nickerson is making a pie. Does she
know something awful has started to happen in greater Boston, in America, maybe
in the world? Is it on TV? If so, the TV didn't send her a crazygram, Clay was
sure of that.
Her daughter got one,
though. Oh yes. And Heidi attacked her mother. Did Beth Nickerson try to reason
with her daughter before driving her to the floor with a blow from the rolling
pin, or did she just strike? Not in hate, but in pain and fear? In any case, it
wasn't enough. And Beth wasn't wearing pants. She was wearing a jumper, and her
legs were bare.
Clay pulled down the
dead woman's skirt. He did it gently, covering the plain working-at-home
underwear that she had soiled at the end.
Heidi, surely no older than fourteen and perhaps only twelve,
must have been growling in that savage nonsense-language they seemed to learn
all at once after they got a full dose of Sane-B-Gone from their phones, saying
things like rast and eelah and kazzalah-CAN! The first
blow from the rolling pin had knocked her down but not out, and the mad girl
had begun to work on her mother's legs. Not little nips, either, but deep,
searing bites, some that had driven all the way to the bone. Clay could see not
only toothmarks but ghostly tattoos that must have been left by young Heidi's
braces. And so—probably screaming, undoubtedly in agony, almost certainly not
aware of what she was doing—Beth Nickerson had struck again, this time much
harder. Clay could almost hear the muffled crack as the girl's neck broke.
Beloved daughter, dead on the floor of the state-of-the-art kitchen, with
braces on her teeth and her state-of-the-art cell phone by one outstretched
hand.
And had her mother
stopped to consider before popping the gun from its clip between the TV and the
can-opener, where it had been waiting who knew how long for a burglar or rapist
to appear in this clean, well-lighted kitchen? Clay thought not. Clay thought
there would have been no pause, that she would have wanted to catch up with her
daughter's fleeing soul while the explanation for what she had done was still
fresh on her lips.
Clay went to the gun
and picked it up. From a gadget-boy like Arnie Nickerson he would have expected
an automatic—maybe even one with a laser sight—but this was a plain old Colt
.45 revolver. He supposed it made sense. His wife might feel more comfortable
with this kind of
gun; no nonsense about making
sure it was loaded if the gun was needed (or wasting time fishing a clip out
from behind the spatulas or spices if it wasn't), then racking the slide to
make sure there was a hot one in the chamber. No, with this old whore you just
had to swing the barrel out, which Clay did with ease. He'd drawn a thousand
variations of this very gun for Dark Wanderer. As he'd expected, only one of
the six chambers was empty. He shook out one of the other loads, knowing just
what he would find. Beth Nickerson's .45 was loaded with highly illegal
cop-killer bullets. Fraggers. No wonder the top of her head was gone. The
wonder was that she had any left at all. He looked down at the remains of the
woman leaning in the corner and began to cry.
"Clay?"
That was Tom, coming up the stairs from the basement. "Man, Arnie had everything!
There's an automatic weapon that would have gotten him a stretch in
Walpole, I bet. . . . Clay? Are you all right?"
"I'm
coming," Clay said, wiping his eyes. He safetied the revolver and stuck it
in his belt. Then he took off the knife and laid it on Beth Nickerson's
counter, still in its homemade scabbard. It seemed they were trading up.
"Give me two more minutes."
"Yo."
Clay heard Tom
clumping back to Arnie Nickerson's downstairs armory and smiled in spite of the
tears still running down his face. Here was something he would have to
remember: give a nice little gay guy from Malden a roomful of guns to play
with, he starts to say yo just like Sylvester Stallone.
Clay started going
through drawers. In the third one he tried, he found a heavy red box marked
AMERICAN DEFENDER .45 CALIBER AMERICAN DEFENDER 50 ROUNDS. It was under the dishtowels. He put the box
in his pocket and went to join Tom and Alice. He wanted to get out of here now,
and as quickly as possible. The trick would be getting them to go without
trying to take Arnie Nickerson's entire gun collection along.
Halfway through the
arch he paused and glanced back, holding the Coleman lantern high, looking at
the bodies. Pulling down the skirt of the woman's jumper hadn't helped much.
They were still just corpses, their wounds as naked as Noah when his son had
come upon him in liquor. He could find something
to cover them with, but once he started covering bodies, where would it end?
Where? With Sharon? With his son?
"God forbid,"
he whispered, but he doubted that God would simply because he asked. He lowered
the lantern and followed the dancing glow of flashlights downstairs to Tom and
Alice.
21
They both wore belts with large-caliber handguns in the holsters,
and these were automatics. Tom had also slung an ammunition bandolier
over his shoulder. Clay didn't know whether to laugh or start crying again.
Part of him felt like doing both at the same time. Of course if he did that,
they would think he was having hysterics. And of course they would be right.
The plasma
TV mounted on the wall down here was the big—very big—brother of the one in the
kitchen. Another TV, only slightly smaller, had a multibrand videogame hookup
Clay would, once upon a time, have loved to examine. To fawn over, maybe. As if
to balance it off, a vintage Seeberg jukebox stood in the corner next to the
Nickersons' Ping-Pong table, all its fabulous colors dark and dead. And of
course there were the gun cabinets, two of them, still locked but with their
glass fronts broken.
"There were
locking-bars, but he had a toolbox in his garage," Tom said. "Alice
used a wrench to break them off."
"They were
cookies," Alice said modestly. "This was in the garage behind the
toolbox, wrapped in a piece of blanket. Is it what I think it is?" She
picked it up off the Ping-Pong table, holding it carefully by the wire stock,
and carried it over to Clay.
"Holy
shit," he said. "This is . . ." He squinted at the embossing
above the trigger-guard. "I think it's Russian."
"I'm sure it
is," Tom said. "Do you think it's a Kalashnikov?"
"You got me. Are
there bullets that match it? In boxes that match the printing on the gun, I
mean?"
"Halfa dozen. Heavy
boxes. It's a machine gun, isn't it?"
"You might as
well call it that, I guess." Clay flicked a lever. "I'm pretty sure
one of these positions is single shot and the other is autofire."
"How many rounds
does it fire a minute?" Alice asked.
"I don't
know," Clay said, "but I think it's rounds per second."
"Whoa." Her
eyes got round. "Can you figure out how to shoot it?"
"Alice—I'm
pretty sure they teach sixteen-year-old farmboys how to shoot these. Yes, I can
figure it out. It might take a box of ammo, but I can figure it out." Please
God don't let it blow up in my hands, he thought.
"Is something
like that legal in Massachusetts?" she asked.
"It is now,
Alice," Tom said, not smiling. "Is it time to go?"
"Yes," she
said, and then—perhaps still not entirely comfortable being the one to make the
decisions—she looked at Clay.
"Yes," he
said. "North."
"Fine with
me," Alice said.
"Yeah," Tom
said. "North. Let's do it."
GAITEN ACADEMY
1
When rainy daylight arose the next morning, Clay, Alice, and Tom
were camped in the barn adjacent to an abandoned horse-farm in North Reading.
They watched from the door as the first groups of crazyfolk began to appear,
flocking southwest on Route 62 in the direction of Wilmington. Their clothes looked
uniformly soaked and shabby. Some were without shoes. By noon they were gone.
Around four, as the sun broke through the clouds in long, spoking rays, they
began flocking back in the direction from which they had come. Many were
munching as they walked. Some were helping those who were having a hard time
walking on their own. If there were acts of murder today, Clay, Tom, and Alice
did not see any.
Perhaps half a dozen
of the crazies were lugging large objects that looked familiar to Clay; Alice
had found one in the closet of Tom's guest bedroom. The three of them had stood
around it, afraid to turn it on.
"Clay?"
Alice asked. "Why are some of them carrying boomboxes?"
"I don't
know," he said.
"I don't like
it," Tom said. "I don't like the flocking behavior, I don't like them
helping each other, and I like seeing them with those big portable
sound-systems least of all."
"There's only a
few with—" Clay began.
"Check her out,
right there," Tom interrupted, pointing to a middle-aged woman who was
staggering up Highway 62 with a radio/CD player the size of a living room
hassock cradled in her arms. She held it against her breasts as though it were
a sleeping toddler. Its power-cord had come
out of the little storage compartment in back and dragged beside her on the
road. "And you don't see any of them carrying lamps or toasters, do you?
What if they're programmed to set up battery-powered radios, turn them on, and
start broadcasting that tone, pulse, subliminal message, whatever-it-is? What
if they want to get the ones they missed the first time?"
They. The
ever-popular paranoid they. Alice had produced her little sneaker from
somewhere and was squeezing it in her hand, but when she spoke, her voice was
calm enough. "I don't think that's it," she said.
"Why not?"
Tom asked.
She shook her head.
"I can't say. Just that it doesn't feel right."
"Woman's
intuition?" He was smiling, but he wasn't sneering.
"Maybe,"
she said, "but I think one thing's obvious."
"What's that,
Alice?" Clay asked. He had an idea what she was going to say, and he was
right.
"They're getting
smarter. Not on their own, but because they're thinking together. Probably that
sounds crazy, but I think it's more likely than them collecting a big pile of
battery-powered FM suitcases to blast us all into loony-land."
"Telepathic
group-think," Tom said. He mulled it over. Alice watched him do it. Clay,
who had already decided she was right, looked out the barn door at the last of
the day. He was thinking they needed to stop somewhere and pick up a
road-atlas.
Tom was nodding.
"Hey, why not? After all, that's probably what flocking is: telepathic group-think."
"Do you really
think so or are you just saying that to make me—"
"I really think
so," he said. He reached out and touched her hand, which was now squeezing
the little sneaker rapidly. "I really really do. Give that thing a rest,
will you?"
She gave him a
fleeting, distracted smile. Clay saw it and thought again how beautiful she
was, how really beautiful. And how close to breaking. "That hay looks soft
and I'm tired. I think I'll take a nice long nap."
"Get down with
your bad self," Clay said.
2
Clay dreamed that he and Sharon and Johnny-Gee were having a picnic
behind their little house in Kent Pond. Sharon had spread her Navajo blanket on
the grass. They were having sandwiches and iced tea. Suddenly the day went
dark. Sharon pointed over Clay's shoulder and said, "Look! Telepaths!"
But when he turned that way, he saw nothing but a flock of crows, one so huge
it blotted out the sun. Then a tinkling began. It sounded like the Mister
Softee truck playing the Sesame Street theme song, but he knew it was a
ring-tone, and in his dream he was terrified. He turned back and Johnny-Gee was
gone. When he asked Sharon where he was—already dreading, already knowing the
answer—she said Johnny had gone under the blanket to answer his cell phone.
There was a bump in the blanket. Clay dove under, into the overpowering smell
of sweet hay, shouting for Johnny not to pick up, not to answer, reaching for
him and finding instead only the cold curve of a glass ball: the paperweight
he'd bought in Small Treasures, the one with the haze of dandelion fluff floating
deep down inside like a pocket fog.
Then Tom was shaking
him, telling him it was past nine by his watch, the moon was up, and if they
were going to do some more walking they ought to get at it. Clay had never been
so glad to wake up. On the whole, he preferred dreams of the Bingo Tent.
Alice was looking at
him oddly.
"What?"
Clay said, checking to make sure their automatic weapon was safetied—that was
already becoming second nature to him.
"You were
talking in your sleep. You were saying, 'Don't answer it, don't answer it.'
"
"Nobody should
have answered it," Clay said. "We all would have been better
off."
"Ah, but who can
resist a ringing phone?" Tom asked. "And there goes your
ballgame."
"Thus spake
fuckin Zarathustra," Clay said. Alice laughed until she cried.
3
With the moon racing in and out of the clouds—like an illustration
in a boy's novel of pirates and buried treasure, Clay thought—they left the
horse-farm behind and resumed their walk north. That night they began to meet
others of their own kind again.
Because this is
our time now, Clay thought, shifting the automatic rifle from one hand to
the other. Fully loaded, it was damned heavy. The phone-crazies own the
days; when the stars come out, that's us. We're like vampires. We've been
banished to the night. Up close we know each other because we can still talk;
at a little distance we can be pretty sure of each other by the packs we wear
and the guns more and more of us carry; but at a distance, the one sure sign is
the waving flashlight beam. Three days ago we not only ruled the earth, we had
survivor's guilt about all the other species we'd wiped out on our climb to the
nirvana of round-the-clock cable news and microwave popcorn. Now we're the Flashlight
People.
He looked over at
Tom. "Where do they go?" he asked. "Where do the crazies go
after sundown?"
Tom gave him a look.
"North Pole. All the elves died of mad reindeer disease and these guys are
helping out until the new crop shows up."
"Jesus,"
Clay said, "did someone get up on the wrong side of the haystack tonight?"
But Tom still
wouldn't smile. "I'm thinking about my cat," he said. "Wondering
if he's all right. No doubt you think that's quite stupid."
"No," Clay
said, although, having a son and a wife to worry about, he sort of did.
4
They got a road atlas in a card-and-book shop in the two-stoplight
burg of Ballardvale. They were now traveling north, and very glad they had
decided to stay in the more-or-less bucolic V between Interstates 93 and 95.
The other travelers they met—most moving west, away from 1-95—told of
horrendous traffic-jams and terrible wrecks. One of the few pilgrims who was
moving east said that a tanker had crashed near the Wakefield exit of 1-93 and
the resulting fire had caused a chain of explosions that had incinerated nearly
a mile of northbound traffic. The stench, he said, was like "a fish-fry in
hell."
They met more
Flashlight People as they trudged through the outskirts of Andover and heard a
rumor so persistent it was now repeated with the assurance of fact: the New
Hampshire border was closed. New Hampshire State Police and special deputies
were shooting first and asking questions afterward. It didn't matter to them
whether you were crazy or sane.
"It's just a new
version of the fucking motto they've had on their fucking license plates since
forever," said a bitter-faced elderly man with whom they walked for a
while. He was wearing a small pack over his expensive topcoat and carrying a
long-barreled flashlight. Poking out of his topcoat pocket was the butt of a
handgun. "If you're in New Hampshire, you can live free. If you
want to come to New Hampshire, you can fucking die."
"That's just . .
. really hard to believe," Alice said.
"Believe what
you want, Missy," said their temporary companion. "I met some people
who tried to go north like you folks, and they turned back south in a hurry
when they saw some people shot out of hand trying to cross into New Hampshire
north of Dunstable."
"When?"
Clay asked.
"Last
night."
Clay thought of
several other questions, but held his tongue instead. At Andover, the
bitter-faced man and most of the other people with whom they had been sharing
their vehicle-clogged (but passable) route turned onto Highway 133, toward
Lowell and points west. Clay, Tom, and Alice were left on Andover's main
street—deserted except for a few flashlight-waving foragers—with a decision to
make.
"Do you believe
it?" Clay asked Alice.
"No," she
said, and looked at Tom.
Tom shook his head. "Me either. I thought the guy's story had
an alligators-in-the-sewers feel to it."
Alice was nodding.
"News doesn't travel that fast anymore. Not without phones."
"Yep," Tom
said. "Definitely the next-generation urban myth. Still, we are talking
about what a friend of mine likes to call New Hamster.
Which is why I think
we should cross the border at the most out-of-the-way spot we can find."
"Sounds like a
plan," Alice said, and with that they moved on again, using the sidewalk
as long as they were in town and there was a sidewalk to use.
5
On the outskirts of Andover, a man with a pair of flashlights
rigged in a kind of harness (one light at each temple) stepped out through the
broken display window of the IGA. He waved to them in companionable fashion,
then picked a course toward them between a jumble of shopping carts, dropping
canned goods into what looked like a newsboy's pouch as he walked. He stopped
beside a pickup truck lying on its side, introduced himself as Mr. Roscoe Handt
of Methuen, and asked where they were going. When Clay told them Maine, Handt
shook his head.
"New Hampshire
border's closed. I met two people not half an hour ago who got turned back. He
said they're trying to tell the difference between the phone-crazies and people
like us, but they're not trying too hard."
"Did these two
people actually see this with their own eyes?" Tom asked.
Roscoe Handt looked
at Tom as though he might be crazy. "You got to trust the word of
others, man," he said. "I mean, you can't exactly phone someone up
and ask for verification, can you?" He paused. "They're burning the
bodies at Salem and Nashua, that's what these folks told me. And it smells like
a pig-roast. They told me that, too. I've got a party of five I'm taking west,
and we want to make some miles before sunup. The way west is open."
"That the word
you're hearing, is it?" Clay asked.
Handt looked at him
with mild contempt. "That's the word, all right. And a word to the wise is
sufficient, my ma used to say. If you really mean to go north, make sure you
get to the border in the middle of the night. The crazies don't go out after
dark."
"We know,"
Tom said.
The man with the
flashlights affixed to the sides of his head ignored Tom and went on talking to
Clay. He had pegged Clay as the trio's leader. "And they don't carry
flashlights. Wave your flashlights back and forth. Talk. Yell. They
don't do those things, either. I doubt the people at the border will let you
through, but if you're lucky, they won't shoot you, either."
"They're getting
smarter," Alice said. "You know that, don't you, Mr. Handt?"
Handt snorted.
"They're traveling in packs and they're not killing each other anymore. I
don't know if that makes them smarter or not. But they're still killing us, I
know that."
Handt must have seen
doubt on Clay's face, because he smiled. His flashlights turned it into
something unpleasant.
"I saw them
catch a woman out this morning," he said. "With my own eyes,
okay?"
Clay nodded.
"Okay."
"I think I know
why she was on the street. This was in Topsfield, about ten miles east of here?
Me and my people, we were in a Motel 6. She was walking that way. Only not
really walking. Hurrying. Almost running. Looking back over her shoulder. I saw
her because I couldn't sleep." He shook his head. "Getting used to
sleeping days is a bitch."
Clay thought of
telling Handt they'd all get used to it, then didn't. He saw Alice was holding
her talisman again. He didn't want Alice hearing this and knew there was no way
to keep her from it. Partly because it was survival information (and unlike the
stuff about the New Hampshire state line, he was almost positive this was solid
information); partly because the world was going to be full of stories like
this for a while. If they listened to enough of them, some might eventually
begin to line up and make patterns.
"Probably just
looking for a better place to stay, you know? No more than that. Saw the Motel
6 and thought, 'Hey, a room with a bed. Right up there by the Exxon station.
Only a block away' But before she got even halfway, a bunch of them came around
the corner. They were walking . . . you know how they walk now?"
Roscoe Handt walked
toward them stiffly, like a tin soldier, with his newsboy's bag swinging. That wasn't how the phone-crazies walked,
but they knew what he was trying to convey and nodded.
"And she . .
." He leaned back against the overturned truck and scrubbed briefly at his
face with his hands. "This is what I want you to understand, okay? This is
why you can't get caught out, can't get fooled that they're getting normal
because every now and then one or two of them has lucked into hitting the right
controls on a boombox and started a CD playing—"
"You've seen
that?" Tom asked. "Heard that?"
"Yeah, twice.
Second guy I saw was walking along, swinging the thing from side to side so
hard in his arms that it was skipping like hell, but yeah, it was playing. So
they like music, and sure, they might be retrieving some of their marbles, but
that's exactly why you have to be careful, see?"
"What happened
to the woman?" Alice asked. "The one who got caught out?"
"She tried to
act like one of them," Handt said. "And I thought, standing there at
the window of the room where I was, I thought, 'Yeah, you go, girl, you might
have a chance if you can hang on to that act a little while and then make a
break, get inside somewhere.' Because they don't like to go inside places, have
you noticed that?"
Clay, Tom, and Alice
shook their heads.
The man nodded.
"They will, I've seen em do it, but they don't like to."
"How did they
get on to her?" Alice asked again.
"I don't exactly
know. They smelled her, or something."
"Or maybe
touched her thoughts," Tom said.
"Or couldn't touch
them," Alice said.
"I don't know
about any of that," Handt said, "but I know they tore her apart in
the street. I mean literally tore her to pieces."
"And this
happened when?" Clay asked. He saw Alice was swaying and put an arm around
her.
"Nine this
morning. In Topsfield. So if you see a bunch of them walking up the Yella Brick
Road with a boombox that's playing 'Why Can't We Be Friends' . . ." He
surveyed them grimly by the glow of the flashlights strapped to the sides of his head. "I
wouldn't go running out yelling kemo sake, that's all." He paused.
"And I wouldn't go north, either. Even if they don't shoot you at the
border, it's a waste of time."
But after a little
consultation at the edge of the IGA parking lot, they went north anyway.
6
They paused near North Andover, standing on a pedestrian overpass
above Route 495. The clouds were thickening again, but the moon broke through
long enough to show them six lanes of silent traffic. Near the bridge where
they stood, in the southbound lanes, an overturned sixteen-wheeler lay like a
dead elephant. Orange pylons had been set up around it, showing that someone
had made at least a token response, and there were two abandoned police
cruisers beyond them, one on its side. The rear half of the truck had been
burned black. There was no sign of bodies, not in the momentary moonlight. A
few people labored westward in the breakdown lane, but it was slow going even
there.
"Kind of makes
it all real, doesn't it?" Tom said.
"No," Alice
said. She sounded indifferent. "To me it looks like a special effect in
some big summer movie. Buy a bucket of popcorn and a Coke and watch the end of
the world in . . .what do they call it? Computer graphic imaging? CGI? Blue
screens? Some fucking thing." She held up the little sneaker by one lace.
"This is all I need to make it real. Something small enough to hold in my
hand. Come on, let's go."
7
There were plenty of abandoned vehicles on Highway 28, but it was
wide-open compared to 495, and by four o'clock they were nearing Methuen,
hometown of Mr. Roscoe Handt, he of the stereo flashlights. And they believed
enough of Handt's story to want to be under cover well before daylight. They
chose a motel at the intersection of 28 and 110. A dozen or so cars were parked
in front of the various units, but to Clay they had an abandoned feel. And why
wouldn't they? The two roads were passable, but
only if you were on foot. Clay and Tom stood at the edge of the parking lot,
waving their flashlights over their heads.
"We're
okay!" Tom called. "Normal folks! Coming in!"
They waited.
There was no response from what the sign identified as the Sweet Valley Inn,
Heated Pool, HBO, Group Rates.
"Come on,"
Alice said. "My feet hurt. And it'll be getting light soon, won't
it?"
"Look at
this," Clay said. He picked up a CD from the motel's turn-in and shone the
beam of his flashlight on it. It was Love Songs, by Michael Bolton.
"And you said
they were getting smarter," Tom said.
"Don't be so
quick to judge," Clay said as they started toward the units. "Whoever
had it threw it away, right?"
"More likely just dropped it,"
Tom said.
Alice shone her own
light on the CD. "Who is this guy?"
"Honeybunch," Tom said, "you don't want to know." He
took the CD and tossed it back over his shoulder.
They forced the doors
on three adjoining units—as gently as possible, so they could at least shoot
the bolts once they were inside—and with beds to sleep in, they slept most of
the day away. They were not disturbed, although that evening Alice said she
thought she had heard music coming from far away. But, she admitted, it might
have been part of a dream she was having.
8
There were maps for sale in the lobby of the Sweet Valley Inn that
would offer more detail than their road atlas. They were in a glass display
cabinet that had been smashed. Clay took one for Massachusetts and one for New
Hampshire, reaching in carefully so as not to cut his hand, and saw a young man
lying on the other side of the reception counter as he did so. His eyes glared
sightlessly. For a moment Clay thought someone had put an oddly colored corsage
in the corpse's mouth. Then he saw the greenish points poking out through the
dead man's cheeks and realized they matched the broken glass littering the
shelves of the display cabinet. The corpse
was wearing a nametag that said my name
is hank ask me about weekly rates. Clay thought briefly of Mr. Ricardi
as he looked at Hank.
Tom and Alice were
waiting for him just inside the lobby door. It was quarter of nine, and outside
it was full dark. "How did you do?" Alice asked.
"These may
help," he said. He gave her the maps, then lifted the Coleman lantern so
she and Tom could study them, compare them against the road atlas, and plot the
night's travel. He was trying to cultivate a sense of fatalism about Johnny and
Sharon, trying to keep the bald truth of his current family situation front and
center in his mind: what had happened in Kent Pond had happened. His son and
his wife were either all right or they weren't. He would either find them or he
wouldn't. His success at this sort of semi-magical thinking came and went.
When it started
slipping, he told himself he was lucky to be alive, and this was certainly
true. What balanced his good luck out was that he'd been in Boston, a hundred
miles south of Kent Pond by even the quickest route (which they were definitely
not taking), when the Pulse happened. And yet he'd fallen in with good
people. There was that. People he could think of as friends. He'd seen plenty
of others—Beer-Keg Guy and Plump Bible-Toting Lady as well as Mr. Roscoe Handt
of Methuen—who weren't as lucky.
If he got to
you, Share, if Johnny got to you, you better be taking care of him. You just
better be.
But suppose he'd had
his phone? Suppose he'd taken the red cell phone to school? Might he not have
been taking it a little more often lately? Because so many of the other kids
took theirs?
Christ.
"Clay? You all
right?" Tom asked.
"Sure.
Why?"
"I don't know.
You looked a little . . . grim."
"Dead guy behind
the counter. He's not pretty."
"Look
here," Alice said, tracing a thread on the map. It squiggled across the
state line and then appeared to join New Hampshire Route 38 a little east of
Pelham. "That looks pretty good to me," she said. "If we go west
on the highway out there for eight or nine miles"—she pointed at 110, where both the cars and the tar were
gleaming faintly in a misty drizzle—"we should hit it. What do you
think?"
"I think that
sounds good," Tom said.
She looked from him
to Clay. The little sneaker was put away—probably in her backpack—but Clay
could see her wanting to squeeze it. He supposed it was good she wasn't a
smoker, she'd be up to four packs a day. "If they've got the way across
guarded—" she began.
"We'll worry about
that if we have to," Clay said, but he wasn't worrying. One way or
another, he was getting to Maine. If it meant crawling through some
puckerbrush, like an illegal crossing the Canadian border to pick apples in
October, he would do it. If Tom and Alice decided to stay behind, that would be
too bad. He'd be sorry to leave them . . . but he would go. Because he had to
know.
The red squiggle
Alice had found on the Sweet Valley maps had a name—Dostie Stream Road—and it
was almost wide-open. It was a four-mile hike to the state line, and they came
upon no more than five or six abandoned vehicles and only a single wreck. They
also passed two houses where they could see lights and hear the roar of
generators. They considered stopping at these, but not for long.
"We'd probably
get into a firefight with some guy defending his hearth and home," Clay
said. "Always assuming there's anyone there. Those generators were
probably set to come on when the county juice failed, and they'll run until
they're out of gas."
"Even if there
are sane people and they let us in, which would hardly be a sane act, what are
we going to do?" Tom said. "Ask to use the phone?"
They discussed
stopping somewhere and trying to liberate a vehicle (liberate was Tom's
word), but in the end decided against that, too. If the state line was being
defended by deputies or vigilantes, driving up to it in a Chevy Tahoe might not
be the smoothest move.
So they walked, and
of course there was nothing at the state line but a billboard (a small one, as
befitted a two-lane blacktop road winding through farm country) reading YOU ARE
NOW ENTERING NEW HAMPSHIRE and bienvenue!
There was no sound but the drip of moisture in the woods on either side
of them, and an occasional sigh of breeze. Maybe the rustle of an animal. They stopped briefly to read
the sign and then walked on, leaving Massachusetts behind.
9
Any sense of being alone ended along with the Dostie Stream Road,
at a signpost reading NH ROUTE 38 and MANCHESTER 19 MI. There were still only a
few travelers on 38, but when they switched to 128—a wide, wreck-littered road
that headed almost due north—half an hour later, that trickle became part of a
steady stream of refugees. They traveled mostly in little groups of three and
four, and with what struck Clay as a rather shabby lack of interest in anyone
other than themselves.
They encountered a
woman of about forty and a man maybe twenty years older pushing shopping carts,
each containing a child. The one in the man's cart was a boy, and too big for
the conveyance, but he had found a way to curl up inside and fall asleep. While
Clay and his party were passing this jackleg family, a wheel came off the man's
shopping cart. It tipped sideways, spilling out the boy, who looked about
seven. Tom caught him by the shoulder and broke the worst of the kid's fall,
but he scraped one knee. And of course he was frightened. Tom picked him up,
but the boy didn't know him and struggled to get away, crying harder than ever.
"That's okay,
thanks, I've got him," the man said. He took the child and sat down at the
side of the road with him, where he made much of what he called the boo-boo, a
term Clay didn't think he'd heard since he was seven. The man said,
"Gregory kiss it, make it all better." He kissed the child's scrape,
and the boy laid his head against the man's shoulder. He was already going to
sleep again. Gregory smiled at Tom and Clay and nodded. He looked weary almost
to death, a man who might have been a trim and Nautilus-toned sixty last week
and now looked like a seventy-five-year-old Jew trying to get the hell out of
Poland while there was still time.
"We'll be all
right," he said. "You can go now."
Clay opened his mouth
to say, Why shouldn't we all go on together? Why don't we hook up? What do
you think, Greg? It was the sort of thing the heroes of the science fiction novels he'd read as a teenager were
always saying: Why don't we hook up?
"Yeah, go on,
what are you waiting for?" the woman asked before he could say that or
anything else. In her shopping cart a girl of about five still slept. The woman
stood beside the cart protectively, as if she had grabbed some fabulous sale
item and was afraid Clay or one of his friends might try to wrest it from her.
"You think we got something you want?"
"Natalie,
stop," Gregory said with tired patience.
But Natalie didn't,
and Clay realized what was so dispiriting about this little scene. Not that he
was getting his lunch—his midnight lunch—fed to him by a woman whose
exhaustion and terror had led to paranoia; that was understandable and
forgivable. What made his spirits sink to his shoetops was the way people just
kept on walking, swinging their flashlights, and talking low among themselves
in their own little groups, swapping the occasional suitcase from one hand to
the other. Some yob on a pocket-rocket motorbike wove his way up the road
between the wrecks and over the litter, and people made way for him, muttering
resentfully. Clay thought it would have been the same if the little boy had
fallen out of the shopping cart and broken his neck instead of just scraping
his knee. He thought it would have been the same if that heavyset guy up there
panting along the side of the road with an overloaded duffelbag dropped with a
thunderclap coronary. No one would try to resuscitate him, and of course the
days of 911 were done.
No one even bothered to yell You tell im, lady! or Hey
dude, why don't you tell her to shut up? They just went on walking.
"—cause all we
got is these kids, a responsibility we didn't ask for when we can hardly
take care of ourselfs, he has a pacemaker, what are we supposed to do
when the baddery runs out, I'd like to know? And now these kids! You
want a kid?" She looked around wildly. "Hey! Anyone want a
kid?"
The little girl began
to stir.
"Natalie, you're
disturbing Portia," Gregory said.
The woman named
Natalie began to laugh. "Well tough shitl It's a disturbing-ass
world!" Around them, people continued doing the Refugee Walk. No one paid
any attention and Clay thought, So this is how we act. This is how it
goes when the bottom drops out. When there are no cameras turning, no buildings
burning, no Anderson Cooper saying "Now back to the CNN studios in
Atlanta." This is how it goes when Homeland Security's been canceled due
to lack of sanity.
"Let me take the
boy," Clay said. "I'll carry him until you find something better to
put him in. That cart's shot." He looked at Tom. Tom shrugged and nodded.
"Stay away from
us," Natalie said, and all at once there was a gun in her hand. It wasn't
a big one, probably only a .22, but even a .22 would do the job if the bullet
went in the right place.
Clay heard the sound
of guns being drawn on either side of him and knew that Tom and Alice were now
pointing the pistols they'd taken from the Nickerson home at the woman named
Natalie. This was also how it went, it seemed.
"Put it away,
Natalie," he said. "We're going to get moving now."
"You're
double-fuckin right you are," she said, and brushed an errant lock of hair
out of her eye with the heel of her free hand. She didn't seem to be aware that
the young man and younger woman with Clay were holding guns on her. Now people
passing by did look, but their only response was to move past the spot
of confrontation and potential bloodshed a little faster.
"Come on,
Clay," Alice said quietly. She put her free hand on his wrist.
"Before someone gets shot."
They started walking
again. Alice walked with her hand on Clay's wrist, almost as if he were her
boyfriend. Just a little midnight stroll, Clay thought, although he had
no idea of what time it was and didn't care. His heart was beating hard. Tom
walked with them, only until they were around the next curve he walked
backward, with his gun still out. Clay supposed Tom wanted to be ready to shoot
back if Natalie decided to use her little popgun after all. Because shooting
back was also how it went, now that phone service had been interrupted until
further notice.
10
In the hours before dawn, walking on Route 102 east of Manchester,
they began to hear music, very faint.
"Christ,"
Tom said, coming to a stop. "That's 'Baby Elephant Walk.' "
"It's what?"
Alice asked. She sounded amused.
"A big-band
instrumental from the age of quarter gas. Les Brown and His Band of Renown,
someone like that. My mother had the record."
Two men pulled even
with them and stopped for a blow. They were elderly, but both looked fit. Like a
couple of recently retired postmen hiking the Cotswolds, Clay thought. Wherever they are.
One wore a pack—no pussy day-pack, either, but the waist-length kind on a
frame—and the other had a rucksack hanging from his right shoulder. Hung over
the left was what looked like a .30-.30.
Packsack wiped sweat
from his seamed forehead with a forearm and said, "Your mama might have
had a version by Les Brown, son, but more likely it was Don Costa or Henry
Mancini. Those were the popular ones. That one"—he inclined his head toward
the ghostly strains—"that's Lawrence Welk, as I live and breathe."
"Lawrence
Welk," Tom breathed, almost in awe.
"Who?"
Alice
asked
"Listen to that
elephant walk," Clay said, and laughed. He was tired and feeling goofy. It
occurred to him that Johnny would love that music.
Packsack gave him a
glance of passing contempt, then looked back at Tom. "That's Lawrence
Welk, all right," he said. "My eyes aren't half-right anymore, but my
ears are fine. My wife and I used to watch his show every fucking Saturday
night."
"Dodge had a
good time, too," Rucksack said. It was his only addition to the
conversation, and Clay hadn't the slightest idea what it meant.
"Lawrence Welk
and his Champagne Band," Tom said. "Think of it."
"Lawrence Welk
and his Champagne Music Makers," Packsack said. "Jesus Christ."
"Don't forget
the Lennon Sisters and the lovely Alice Lon," Tom said.
In the distance, the
ghostly music changed. "That one's 'Calcutta,' " Packsack said. He
sighed. "Well, we'll be getting along. Nice passing the time of day with
you."
"Night,"
Clay said.
"Nope,"
Packsack said. "These're our days now. Haven't you noticed? Have a good
one, boys. You too, little ma'am."
"Thank
you," the little ma'am standing between Clay and Tom said faintly.
Packsack started
along again. Rucksack fell sturdily in beside him. Around them, a steady parade
of bobbing flashlight beams led people deeper into New Hampshire. Then Packsack
stopped and looked back for a final word.
"You don't want
to be on the road more than another hour," he said. "Find a house or
motel unit and get inside. You know about the shoes, right?"
"What about the
shoes?" Tom asked.
Packsack looked at
him patiently, the way he'd probably look at anyone who couldn't help being a
fool. Far down the road, "Calcutta"—if that's what it was—had given
way to a polka. It sounded insane in the foggy, drizzly night. And now this old
man with the big pack on his back was talking about shoes.
"When you go
inside a place, you put your shoes out on the stoop," Packsack said.
"The crazy ones won't take them, don't worry about that, and it tells
other people the place is taken and to move along, find another.
Saves"—his eyes dropped to the heavy automatic weapon Clay was
carrying—"Saves accidents."
"Have there been
accidents?" Tom asked.
"Oh yes,"
Packsack said, with chilling indifference. "There's always accidents,
people being what they are. But there's plenty of places, so there's no need for
you to have one. Just put out your shoes."
"How do you know
that?" Alice asked.
He gave her a smile
that improved his face out of all measure. But it was hard not to smile at
Alice; she was young, and even at three in the morning, she was pretty.
"People talk; I listen. I talk, sometimes other folks listen. Did
you listen?"
"Yes,"
Alice said. "Listening's one of my best things."
"Then pass it
on. Bad enough to have them to contend with." He didn't have to be
more specific. "Too bad to have accidents among ourselves on top of
that."
Clay thought of
Natalie pointing the .22. He said, "You're right. Thank you."
Tom said, "That
one's 'The Beer Barrel Polka,' isn't it?"
"That's right,
son," Packsack said. "Myron Floren on the squeezebox. God rest his
soul. You might want to stop in Gaiten. It's a nice little village two miles or
so up the road."
"Is that where
you're going to stay?" Alice asked.
"Oh, me and
Rolfe might push on a dight farther," he said.
"Why?"
"Because we can,
little ma'am, that's all. You have a good day."
This time they didn't
contradict him, and although the two men had to be pushing seventy, they were
soon out of sight, following the beam of a single flashlight, which
Rucksack—Rolfe—held.
"Lawrence Welk
and his Champagne Music Makers," Tom marveled.
" 'Baby Elephant
Walk,' " Clay said, and laughed.
"Why did Dodge
have a good time, too?" Alice wanted to know.
"Because it
could, I guess," Tom said, and burst out laughing at her perplexed
expression.
11
The music was coming from Gaiten, the nice little village Packsack
had recommended as a place to stop. It was not nearly as loud as the AC/DC
concert Clay had gone to in Boston as a teenager—that had left his ears ringing
for days—but it was loud enough to make him think of summer band concerts he'd
attended in South Berwick with his parents. In fact he had it in his mind that
they would discover the source of the music on the Gaiten town common—likely
some elderly person, not a phone-crazy but disaster-addled, who had taken it
into his head to serenade the ongoing exodus with easy-listening oldies played
through a set of battery-powered loudspeakers.
There was a
Gaiten town common, but it was deserted save for a few people eating either a
late supper or an early breakfast by the glow of flashlights and Coleman
lanterns. The source of the music was a little farther to the north. By then
Lawrence Welk had given way to someone blowing a horn so mellow it was
soporific.
"That's Wynton
Marsalis, isn't it?" Clay asked. He was ready to call it quits for the
night and thought Alice looked done almost to death.
"Him or Kenny
G," Tom said. "You know what Kenny G said when he got off the
elevator, don't you?"
"No," Clay
said, "but I'm sure you'll tell me."
" 'Man! This
place rocks!' "
Clay said,
"That's so funny I think my sense of humor just imploded."
"I don't get
it," Alice said.
"It's not worth
explaining," Tom said. "Listen, guys, we've got to call it a night.
I'm about kilt."
"Me too,"
Alice said. "I thought I was in shape from soccer, but I'm really
tired."
"Yeah,"
Clay agreed. "Baby makes three."
They had already
passed through Gaiten's shopping district, and according to the signs, Main
Street—which was also Route 102—had now become Academy Avenue. This was no
surprise to Clay, because the sign on the outskirts of town had proclaimed
Gaiten home to Historic Gaiten Academy, an institution of which Clay had heard
vague rumors. He thought it was one of those New England prep schools for kids
who can't quite make it into Exeter or Milton. He supposed the three of them
would be back in the land of Burger Kings, muffler-repair shops, and chain
motels soon enough, but this part of New Hampshire 102 was lined with very
nice-looking homes. The problem was, there were shoes—sometimes as many as four
pairs—in front of most of the doors.
The foot-traffic had
thinned considerably as other travelers found shelter for the coming day, but
as they passed Academy Grove Citgo and approached the fieldstone pillars
flanking Gaiten Academy's entrance drive, they began to catch up to a trio just
ahead: two men and a woman, all well into middle age. As these three walked
slowly up the sidewalk, they inspected each house for one without shoes placed
at the front door. The woman was limping badly, and one of the men had his arm
around her waist.
Gaiten Academy was on
the left, and Clay realized this was where the music (currently a droning,
string-laden version of "Fly Me to the Moon") was coming from. He noticed two other
things. One was that the road-litter here—torn bags, half-eaten vegetables,
gnawed bones—was especially heavy, and that most of it turned in at the gravel
Academy drive. The other was that two people were standing there. One was an
old man hunched over a cane. The other was a boy with a battery-powered lantern
parked between his shoes. He looked no more than twelve and was dozing against
one of the pillars. He was wearing what looked like a school uniform: gray
pants, gray sweater, a maroon jacket with a crest on it.
As the trio ahead of
Clay and his friends drew abreast of the Academy drive, the old man—dressed in
a tweed jacket with patches on the elbows—spoke to them in a piercing,
I-will-be-heard-all-the-way-to-the-back-of-the-lecture-hall voice. "Hi,
there! Hi, I say! Won't you come in here? We can offer you shelter, but more
importantly, we have to—"
"We don't have
to anything, mister," the woman said. "I got four burst blisters, two
on each foot, and I can hardly walk."
"But there's
plenty of room—" the old fellow began. The man supporting the woman gave
him a look that must have been unpleasant, because the old fellow stopped. The
trio went past the drive and the pillars and the sign on old-fashioned iron
S-hooks reading GAITEN ACADEMY EST. 1846 "A Young Mind Is A
Lamp In The Darkness."
The old
fellow slumped over his cane again, then saw Clay, Tom, and Alice approaching
and straightened up once more. He seemed about to hail them, then apparently
decided his lecture-hall approach wasn't working. He poked his companion in the
ribs with the tip of his cane instead. The boy straightened up with a wild look
as behind them, where brick buildings loomed in the dark along the slope of a
mild hill, "Fly Me to the Moon" gave way to an equally sluggish
rendition of something that might once have been "I Get a Kick out of
You."
"Jordan!"
he said. "Your turn! Ask them in!"
The boy named Jordan
started, blinked at the old man, then looked at the new trio of approaching
strangers with gloomy mistrust. Clay thought of the March Hare and the Dormouse
in Alice in Wonderland. Maybe that was wrong—probably it was—but he was
very tired. "Aw, they won't be any different, sir," he said. "They
won't come in. Nobody will. We'll try again tomorrow night. I'm sleepy."
And Clay knew that,
tired or not, they were going to find out what the old man wanted . . . unless
Tom and Alice absolutely refused, that was. Partly because the old man's
companion reminded him of Johnny, yes, but mostly because the kid had made up
his mind that no one was going to help in this not-very-brave new world—he and
the one he called sir were on their own because that was just how it
went. Only if that were true, pretty soon there wouldn't be anything worth
saving.
"Go on,"
the old man encouraged him. He prodded Jordan with the tip of his cane again,
but not hard. Not painfully. "Tell them we can give them shelter, we have
plenty of room, but they ought to see, first. Someone needs to see this. If
they also say no, we will indeed give up for the night."
"All right,
sir."
The old man smiled,
exposing a mouthful of large horse-teeth. "Thank you, Jordan."
The boy walked toward
them with absolutely no relish, his dusty shoes scuffing, his shirttail hanging
below the hem of his sweater. He held his lantern in one hand, and it fizzed
faintly. There were dark up-all-night circles under his eyes, and his hair
badly needed washing.
"Tom?" Clay
asked.
"We'll see what
he wants," Tom said, "because I can see it's what you want,
but—"
"Sirs? Pardon
me, sirs?"
"One
second," Tom said to the boy, then turned back to Clay. His face was
grave. "But it's going to start getting light in an hour. Maybe less. So
that old guy better be right about there being a place for us to stay."
"Oh, yes,
sir," Jordan said. He looked like he didn't want to hope and couldn't help
it. "Lots of places. Hundreds of dorm rooms, not to mention Cheatham
Lodge. Tobias Wolff came last year and stayed there. He gave a lecture on his
book, Old School."
"I read
that," Alice said, sounding bemused.
"The boys who
didn't have cell phones have all run off. The ones who did have them . .
."
"We know about
them," Alice said.
"I'm a
scholarship boy. I lived in Holloway. I didn't have a cell phone. I had to use the dorm mother's phone
whenever I wanted to call home and the other boys would make fun of me."
"Looks to me
like you got the last laugh there, Jordan," Tom said.
"Yes, sir,"
he said dutifully, but in the light of his fizzing lantern Clay saw no
laughter, only woe and weariness. "Won't you please come and meet the
Head?"
And although he had
to be very tired himself, Tom responded with complete politeness, as if they
had been standing on a sunny veranda—at a Parents' Tea, perhaps—instead of on
the trash-littered verge of Academy Avenue at four-fifteen in the morning.
"That would be our pleasure, Jordan," he said.
12
"The
devil's intercoms is what I used to call them," said Charles Ardai, who
had been chairman of Gaiten Academy's English Department for twenty-five years
and acting Headmaster of the Academy entire at the time of the Pulse. Now he
stumped with surprising rapidity up the hill on his cane, keeping to the
sidewalk, avoiding the river of swill that carpeted Academy Drive. Jordan
walked watchfully beside him, the other three behind him. Jordan was worried
about the old man losing his balance. Clay was worried that the man might have
a heart attack, trying to talk and climb a hill—even a relatively mild one like
this—at the same time.
"I never really
meant it, of course; it was a joke, a jape, a comic exaggeration, but in truth,
I never liked the things, especially in an academic environment. I might have
moved to keep them out of the school, but naturally I would have been
overruled. Might as well try to legislate against the rising of the tide,
eh?" He puffed rapidly several times. "My brother gave me one for my
sixty-fifth birthday. I ran the thing flat . . ." Puff, pant. "And
simply never recharged it. They emit radiation, are you aware of this? In
minuscule amounts, it's true, but still. . . a source of radiation that close
to one's head . . . one's brain . . ."
"Sir, you should
wait until we get to Tonney," Jordan said. He steadied Ardai as the Head's
cane slid on a rotten piece of fruit and he listed momentarily (but at an alarming
angle) to port.
"Probably a good
idea," Clay said.
"Yes," the
Head agreed. "Only . . . I never trusted them, this is my point. I was
never that way with my computer. Took to that like a duck to water."
At the top of the
hill, the campus's main road split in a Y The left fork wound its way to
buildings that were almost surely dorms. The right one went toward lecture
halls, a cluster of administration buildings, and an archway that glimmered
white in the dark. The river of garbage and discarded wrappers flowed beneath
it. Headmaster Ardai led them that way, skirting as much of the litter as he
could, Jordan holding his elbow. The music—now Bette Midler, singing "Wind
Beneath My Wings"—was coming from beyond the arch, and Clay saw dozens of
discarded compact discs among the bones and empty potato chip bags. He was
starting to get a bad feeling about this.
"Uh, sir?
Headmaster? Maybe we should just—"
"We'll be
fine," the Head replied. "Did you ever play musical chairs as a child?
Of course you did. Well, as long as the music doesn't stop, we have nothing to
worry about. We'll have a quick peek, and then we'll go over to Cheatham Lodge.
That's the Headmaster's residence. Not two hundred yards from Tonney Field. I
promise you."
Clay looked at Tom, who shrugged. Alice
nodded.
Jordan happened to be
looking back at them (rather anxiously), and he caught this collegial
interplay. "You ought to see it," he told them. "The Head's
right about that. Until you see it, you don't know."
"See what,
Jordan?" Alice asked.
But Jordan only
looked at her—big young eyes in the dark. "Wait," he said.
13
"Holy
fucking shit," Clay said. In his mind the words sounded like a
full-throated bellow of surprise and horror—with maybe a soupçon of outrage—but
what actually emerged was more of a whipped whimper. Part of it might have been
that this close the music was almost as loud as that long-ago AC/DC
concert (although Debby Boone making her sweet schoolgirl way through "You Light Up My Life" was quite
a stretch from "Hell's Bells," even at full volume), but mostly it
was pure shock. He thought that after the Pulse and their subsequent retreat
from Boston he'd be prepared for anything, but he was wrong.
He didn't think prep
schools like this indulged in anything so plebeian (and so smashmouth) as
football, but soccer had apparently been a big deal. The stands stacking up on
either side of Tonney Field looked as if they could seat as many as a thousand,
and they were decked with bunting that was only now beginning to look
bedraggled by the showery weather of the last few days. There was an elaborate
Scoreboard at the far end of the field with big letters marching along the top.
Clay couldn't read the message in the dark and probably wouldn't have taken it
in even if it had been daylight. There was enough light to see the field
itself, and that was all that mattered.
Every inch of grass
was covered with phone-crazies. They were lying on their backs like sardines in
a can, leg to leg and hip to hip and shoulder to shoulder. Their faces stared
up into the black predawn sky.
"Oh my Lord
Jesus," Tom said. His voice was muffled because one fist was pressed
against his mouth.
"Catch the
girl!" the Head rapped. "She's going to faint!"
"No—I'm all
right," Alice said, but when Clay put his arm around her she slumped
against him, breathing fast. Her eyes were open but they had a fixed, druggy
look.
"They're under
the bleachers, too," Jordan said. He spoke with a studied, almost showy
calm that Clay did not believe for a minute. It was the voice of a boy assuring
his pals that he's not grossed out by the maggots boiling in a dead cat's eyes
. . . just before he leans over and blows his groceries. "Me and the Head
think that's where they put the hurt ones that aren't going to get
better."
"The Head and I,
Jordan."
"Sorry,
sir."
Debby Boone achieved
poetic catharsis and ceased. There was a pause and then Lawrence Welk's
Champagne Music Makers once more began to play "Baby Elephant Walk." Dodge
had a good time, too, Clay thought.
"How many of
those boomboxes have they got rigged together?" he asked Headmaster Ardai. "And how did
they do it? They're brainless, for Christ's sake, zombies!" A
terrible idea occurred to him, illogical and persuasive at the same time.
"Did you do it? To keep them quiet, or. . .I don't know . . ."
"He didn't do
it," Alice said. She spoke quietly from her safe place within the circle
of Clay's arm.
"No, and both of
your premises are wrong," the Head told him.
"Both? I
don't—"
"They must be
dedicated music-lovers," Tom mused, "because they don't like to go
inside buildings. But that's where the CDs are, right?"
"Not to mention
the boomboxes," Clay said.
"There's no time
to explain now. Already the sky has begun to lighten, and . . . tell them,
Jordan."
Jordan replied
dutifully, with the air of one who recites a lesson he does not understand,
"All good vampires must be in before cockcrow, sir."
"That's
right—before cockcrow. For now, only look. That's all you need to do. You
didn't know there were places like this, did you?"
"Alice
knew," Clay said.
They looked. And
because the night had begun to wane, Clay realized that the eyes in all
those faces were open. He was pretty sure they weren't seeing; they were just .
. . open.
Something bad's
going on here, he thought. The flocking was only the beginning of it.
Looking at the packed
bodies and empty faces (mostly white; this was New England, after all) was
awful, but the blank eyes turned up to the night sky filled him with
unreasoning horror. Somewhere, not too distant, the morning's first bird began
to sing. It wasn't a crow, but the Head still jerked, then tottered. This time
it was Tom who steadied him.
"Come on,"
the Head told them. "It's only a short walk to Cheatham Lodge, but we
ought to start. The damp has made me stiffer than ever. Take my elbow,
Jordan."
Alice broke free of
Clay and went to the old man's other side. He gave her a rather forbidding
smile and a shake of his head. "Jordan can take care of me. We take care
of each other now—ay, Jordan?"
"Yes, sir."
"Jordan?"
Tom asked. They were nearing a large (and rather pretentious) Tudor-style
dwelling that Clay presumed was Cheatham Lodge.
"Sir?"
"The sign over
the Scoreboard—I couldn't read it. What did it say?"
"welcome alumni to homecoming
weekend." Jordan almost smiled, then remembered there would be no
Homecoming Weekend this year— the bunting on the stands had already begun to
tatter—and the brightness left his face. If he hadn't been so tired, he might
still have held his composure, but it was very late, almost dawn, and as they
made their way up the walk to the Headmaster's residence, the last student at
Gaiten Academy, still wearing his colors of maroon and gray, burst into tears.
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"That
was incredible, sir," Clay said. He had fallen into Jordan's mode of
address very naturally. So had Tom and Alice. "Thank you."
"Yes," Alice said. "Thanks. I've never eaten two
burgers in my life—at least not big ones like that."
It was three o'clock
the following afternoon. They were on the back porch of Cheatham Lodge. Charles
Ardai—the Head, as Jordan called him—had grilled the hamburgers on a small gas
grill. He said the meat was perfectly safe because the generator powering the
cafeteria's freezer had run until noon yesterday (and indeed, the patties he
took from the cooler Tom and Jordan had carried in from the pantry had still
been white with frost and as hard as hockey pucks). He said that grilling the
meat would probably be safe until five o'clock, although prudence dictated an
early meal.
"They'd smell
the cooking?" Clay asked.
"Let's just say
that we have no desire to find out," the Head replied. "Have we,
Jordan?"
"No, sir,"
Jordan said, and took a bite of his second burger. He was slowing down, but
Clay thought he'd manage to do his duty. "We want to be inside when they
wake up, and inside when they come back from town. That's where they go, to
town. They're picking it clean, like birds in a field of grain. That's what the
Head says."
"They were
flocking back home earlier when we were in Malden," Alice said. "Not
that we knew where home for them was." She was eyeing a tray with pudding
cups on it. "Can I have one of those?"
"Yes,
indeed." The Head pushed the tray toward her. "And another hamburger,
if you'd like. What we don't eat soon will just spoil."
Alice groaned and
shook her head, but she took a pudding cup. So did Tom.
"They seem to
leave at the same time each morning, but the home-flocking behavior has been
starting later," Ardai said thoughtfully. "Why would that be?"
"Slimmer
pickings?" Alice asked.
"Perhaps . .
." He took a final bite of his own hamburger, then covered the remains
neatly with a paper napkin. "There are many flocks, you know. Maybe as
many as a dozen within a fifty-mile radius. We know from people going south
that there are flocks in Sandown, Fremont, and Candia. They forage about almost
aimlessly in the daytime, perhaps for music as well as food, then go back to
where they came from."
"You know this
for sure," Tom said. He finished one pudding cup and reached for another.
Ardai shook his head.
"Nothing is for sure, Mr. McCourt." His hair, a long white tangle (an
English professor's hair for sure, Clay thought), rippled a bit in the mild
afternoon breeze. The clouds were gone. The back porch gave them a good view of
the campus, and so far it was deserted. Jordan went around the house at regular
intervals to scout the hill sloping down to Academy Avenue and reported all
quiet there, as well. "You've not seen any of the other roosting
places?"
"Nope," Tom
said.
"But we're traveling in the dark," Clay reminded
him, "and now the dark is really dark."
"Yes," the
Head agreed. He spoke almost dreamily. "As in le moyen âge. Translation,
Jordan?"
"The middle age,
sir."
"Good." He
patted Jordan's shoulder.
"Even big flocks
would be easy to miss," Clay said. "They wouldn't have to be
hiding."
"No, they're not
hiding," Headmaster Ardai agreed, steepling his fingers. "Not yet, at
any rate. They flock . . . they forage . . . and their group mind may break
down a bit while they forage . . . but perhaps less. Every day perhaps
less."
"Manchester
burned to the ground," Jordan said suddenly. "We could see the fire
from here, couldn't we, sir?"
"Yes," the
Head agreed. "It's been very sad and frightening."
"Is it true that
people trying to cross into Massachusetts are being shot at the border?"
Jordan asked. "That's what people are saying. People are saying you have
to go to Vermont, only that way is safe."
"It's a
crock," Clay said. "We heard the same thing about the New Hampshire
border."
Jordan goggled at him
for a moment, then burst out laughing. The sound was clear and beautiful in the
still air. Then, in the distance, a gun went off. And closer, someone shouted
in either rage or horror.
Jordan stopped
laughing.
"Tell us about
that weird state they were in last night," Alice said quietly. "And
the music. Do all the other flocks listen to music at night?"
The Head looked at
Jordan.
"Yes," the
boy said. "It's all soft stuff, no rock, no country—"
"I should guess
nothing classical, either," the Head put in. "Not of a challenging
nature, at any rate."
"It's their
lullabies," Jordan said. "That's what the Head and me think, isn't
it, sir?"
"The Head and I,
Jordan."
"Head
and I, yes, sir."
"But it is
indeed what we think," the Head agreed. "Although I suspect there may
be more to it than that. Yes, quite a bit more."
Clay was flummoxed.
He hardly knew how to go on. He looked at his friends and saw on their faces
what he was feeling—not just puzzlement, but a dreadful reluctance to be
enlightened.
Leaning forward,
Headmaster Ardai said, "May I be frank? I must be frank; it is the
habit of a lifetime. I want you to help us do a terrible thing here. The time
to do it is short, I think, and while one such act alone may come to nothing,
one never knows, does one? One never knows what sort of communication may flow between these .
. . flocks. In any case, I will not stand idly by while these . . . things .
. . steal away not only my school but the very daylight itself. I might
have attempted it already, but I'm old and Jordan is very young. Too young.
Whatever they are now, they were human not long ago. I won't let him be a part
of this."
"I can do my
share, sir!" Jordan said. He spoke as stoutly, Clay thought, as any Muslim
teenager who ever strapped on a suicide belt stuffed with explosives.
"I salute your
courage, Jordan," the Head told him, "but I think not." He
looked at the boy kindly, but when he returned his gaze to the others, his eyes
had hardened considerably. "You have weapons—good ones—and I have nothing
but an old single-shot .22 rifle that may not even work anymore, although the
barrel's open—I've looked. Even if it does work, the cartridges I have for it
may not fire. But we have a gasoline pump at our little motor-pool, and
gasoline might serve to end their lives."
He must have seen the
horror in their faces, because he nodded. To Clay he no longer looked like
kindly old Mr. Chips; he looked like a Puritan elder in an oil-painting. One
who could have sentenced a man to the stocks without batting an eye. Or a woman
to be burned at the stake as a witch.
He nodded at Clay in
particular. Clay was sure of it. "I know what I'm saying. I know how it
sounds. But it wouldn't be murder, not really; it would be extermination. And I
have no power to make you do anything. But in any case . . . whether you help
me burn them or not, you must pass on a message."
"To who?"
Alice asked faintly.
"To everyone you
meet, Miss Maxwell." He leaned over the remains of their meal, those
hanging-judge eyes sharp and small and burning hot. "You must tell what's
happening to them—to the ones who heard the infernal message on their
devil's intercoms. You must pass this on. Everyone who has had the daylight
robbed away from them must hear, and before it's too late." He passed a
hand over his lower face, and Clay saw the fingers were shaking a little. It would
be easy to dismiss that as a sign of the man's age, but he hadn't seen any
tremors before. "We're afraid it soon will be. Aren't we, Jordan?"
"Yes, sir."
Jordan certainly thought he knew something; he looked terrified.
"What? What's
happening to them?" Clay asked. "It's got something to do with the
music and those wired-together boomboxes, doesn't it?"
The Head sagged,
suddenly looking tired. "They're not wired together," he said.
"Don't you remember me telling you that both of your premises were
wrong?"
"Yes, but I
don't understand what you m—"
"There's one
sound-system with a CD in it, about that you're certainly right. A single
compilation disc, Jordan says, which is why the same songs play over and
over."
"Lucky us,"
Tom muttered, but Clay barely heard him. He was trying to get the sense of what
Ardai had just said—they're not wired together. How could that be? It
couldn't.
"The
sound-systems—the boomboxes, if you like—are placed all around the field,"
the Head went on, "and they're all on. At night you can see their little
red power lamps—"
"Yes,"
Alice said. "I did notice some red lights, I just didn't think anything of
it."
"—but there's
nothing in them—no compact discs or cassette tapes— and no wires linking them.
They're just slaves that pick up the master-disc audio and rebroadcast
it."
"If their mouths
are open, the music comes from them, too," Jordan said. "It's just
little . . . not hardly a whisper . . . but you can hear it."
"No," Clay
said. "That's your imagination, kiddo. Gotta be."
"I haven't heard
that myself," Ardai said, "but of course my ears aren't what they
were back when I was a Gene Vincent and the Blue Caps fan. 'Back in the day,'
Jordan and his friends would say."
"You're very old-school,
sir," Jordan said. He spoke with gentle solemnity and unmistakable
affection.
"Yes, Jordan, I
am," the Head agreed. He clapped the boy on the shoulder, then turned his
attention to the others. "If Jordan says he's heard it ... I believe
him."
"It's not
possible," Clay said. "Not without a transmitter."
"They are
transmitting," the Head replied. "It is a skill they seem to have
picked up since the Pulse."
"Wait," Tom
said. He raised one hand like a traffic cop, lowered it, began to speak, raised
it again. From his place of dubious shelter at Headmaster Ardai's side, Jordan
watched him closely. At last Tom said, "Are we talking telepathy
here?"
"I should guess
that's not exactly le mot juste for this particular phenomenon,"
the Head answered, "but why stick at technicalities? I would be willing to
wager all the frozen hamburgers remaining in my cooler that the word has been
used among you before today."
"You'd win
double burgers," Clay said.
"Well yeah, but
the flocking thing is different," Tom said.
"Because?"
The Head raised his tangled brows.
"Well, because .
. ." Tom couldn't finish, and Clay knew why. It wasn't different.
The flocking wasn't human behavior and they'd known it from the moment they'd
observed George the mechanic following the woman in the filthy pants suit
across Tom's front lawn to Salem Street. He'd been walking so closely behind
her that he could have bitten her neck . . . but he hadn't. And why? Because
for the phone-crazies, biting was done, flocking had begun.
At least, biting
their own kind was done. Unless—
"Professor
Ardai, at the beginning they killed everyone . . ."
"Yes," the
Head agreed. "We were very lucky to escape, weren't we, Jordan?"
Jordan shuddered and
nodded. "The kids ran everywhere. Even some of the teachers. Killing . . .
biting . . . babbling nonsense stuff. . . I hid in one of the greenhouses for a
while."
"And I in the
attic of this very house," the Head added. "I watched out of the
small window up there as the campus—the campus I love—literally went to
hell."
Jordan said,
"Most of the ones who didn't die ran away toward downtown. Now a lot of
them are back. Over there." He nodded his head in the general direction of
the soccer field.
"All of which
leads us to what?" Clay asked.
"I think you
know, Mr. Riddell."
"Clay."
"Clay, fine. I
think what's happening now is more than temporary anarchy. I think it's the
start of a war. It's going to be a short but extremely nasty one."
"Don't you think
you're overstating—"
"I don't. While
I have only my own observations to go on—mine and Jordan's—we've had a very
large flock to observe, and we've seen them going and coming as well as. . .resting,
shall we say. They've stopped killing each other, but they continue to kill
the people we would classify as normal. I call that warlike behavior."
"You've actually
seen them killing normals?" Tom asked. Beside him, Alice opened her pack,
removed the Baby Nike, and held it in her hand.
The Head looked at
him gravely. "I have. I'm sorry to say that Jordan has, too."
"We couldn't
help," Jordan said. His eyes were leaking. "There were too many. It
was a man and a woman, see? I don't know what they were doing on campus so
close to dark, but they sure couldn't've known about Tonney Field. She was
hurt. He was helping her along. They ran into about twenty of them on
their way back from town. The man tried to carry her." Jordan's voice
began to break. "On his own he might have gotten away, but with her. . .
he only made it as far as Horton Hall. That's a dorm. That's where he fell down
and they caught them. They—"
Jordan abruptly
buried his head against the old man's coat—a charcoal gray number this
afternoon. The Head's big hand stroked the back of Jordan's smooth neck.
"They seem to know their enemies," the Head mused.
"It may well have been part of the original message, don't you
think?"
"Maybe,"
Clay said. It made a nasty sort of sense.
"As to what they
are doing at night as they lie there so still and open-eyed, listening to their
music . . ." The Head sighed, took a handkerchief from one of his coat
pockets, and wiped the boy's eyes with it in matter-of-fact fashion. Clay saw
he was both very frightened and very sure of whatever conclusion he had drawn.
"I think they're rebooting," he said.
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"You
note the red lamps, don't you?" the Head asked in his carrying
I-will-be-heard-all-the-way-to-the-back-of-the-lecture-hall voice. "I
count at least sixty-thr—"
"Hush
up!" Tom hissed. He did everything but clap a hand over the old man's
mouth.
The Head looked at
him calmly. "Have you forgotten what I said last night about musical
chairs, Tom?"
Tom, Clay, and Ardai were standing just
beyond the turnstiles, with the Tonney Field archway at their backs. Alice had
stayed at Cheatham Lodge with Jordan, by mutual agreement. The music currently
drifting up from the prep-school soccer field was a jazz-instrumental version
of "The Girl from Ipanema." Clay thought it was probably cutting-edge
stuff if you were a phone-crazy.
"No," Tom
said. "As long as the music doesn't stop, we have nothing to worry about.
I just don't want to be the guy who gets his throat torn out by an insomniac
exception to the rule."
"You
won't."
"How can you be
so positive, sir?" Tom asked.
"Because, to
make a small literary pun, we cannot call it sleep. Come."
He started down the
concrete ramp the players once took to reach the field, saw that Tom and Clay
were hanging back, and looked at them patiently. "Little knowledge is
gained without risk," he said, "and at this point, I would say
knowledge is critical, wouldn't you? Come."
They followed his
rapping cane down the ramp toward the field, Clay a little ahead of Tom. Yes,
he could see the red power-lamps of the boomboxes circling the field. Sixty or
seventy looked about right. Good-sized sound-systems spotted at ten- or
fifteen-foot intervals, each one surrounded with bodies. By starlight those
bodies were an eye-boggling sight. They weren't stacked—each had his or her own
space—but not so much as an inch had been wasted. Even the arms had been
interwoven, so that the impression was one of paper dolls carpeting the field,
rank on rank, while that music—Like something you'd hear in a supermarket, Clay
thought—rose in the dark. Something else rose, as well: a sallow smell of dirt and rotting vegetables, with a
thicker odor of human waste and putrefaction lingering just beneath.
The Head skirted the
goal, which had been pushed aside, overturned, its netting shredded. Here,
where the lake of bodies started, lay a young man of about thirty with jagged
bite-marks running up one arm to the sleeve of his NASCAR T-shirt. The bites
looked infected. In one hand he held a red cap that made Clay think of Alice's
pet sneaker. He stared dully up at the stars as Bette Midler once more began
singing about the wind beneath her wings.
"Hi!" the
Head cried in his rusty, piercing voice. He poked the young man briskly in the
middle with the tip of his cane, pushing in until the young man broke wind.
"Hi, I say!"
"Stop it!"
Tom almost groaned.
The Head gave him a
look of tight-lipped scorn, then worked the tip of his cane into the cap the
young man was holding. He flicked it away. The cap sailed about ten feet and
landed on the face of a middle-aged woman. Clay watched, fascinated, as it slid
partially aside, revealing one rapt and blinkless eye.
The young man reached up with dreamy slowness and clutched the
hand that had been holding the cap into a fist. Then he subsided.
"He thinks he's
holding it again," Clay whispered, fascinated.
"Perhaps,"
the Head replied, without much interest. He poked the tip of his cane against
one of the young man's infected bites. It should have hurt like hell, but the
young man didn't react, only went on staring up at the sky as Bette Midler gave
way to Dean Martin. "I could put my cane right through his throat and he
wouldn't try to stop me. Nor would those around him spring to his defense,
although in the daytime I have no doubt they'd tear me limb from limb."
Tom was squatting by
one of the ghetto blasters. "There are batteries in this," he said.
"I can tell by the weight."
"Yes. In all of
them. They do seem to need batteries." The Head considered, then added
something Clay could have done without. "At least so far."
"We could wade
right in, couldn't we?" Clay said. "We could wipe them out the way
hunters exterminated passenger pigeons back in the 1880s."
The Head nodded.
"Bashed their little brains out as they sat on the ground, didn't they? Not a bad analogy.
But I'd make slow work of it with my cane. You'd make slow work of it even with
your automatic weapon, I'm afraid."
"I don't have enough bullets, in any case. There must be . .
." Clay ran his eye over the packed bodies again. Looking at them made his
head hurt. "There must be six or seven hundred. And that's not even counting
the ones under the bleachers."
"Sir? Mr.
Ardai?" It was Tom. "When did you . . . how did you first . . .?"
"How did I
determine the depth of this trance state? Is that what you're asking me?"
Tom nodded.
"I came out the
first night to observe. The flock was much smaller then, of course. I was drawn
to them out of simple but overwhelming curiosity. Jordan wasn't with me.
Switching to a nighttime existence has been rather hard for him, I'm
afraid."
"You risked your
life, you know," Clay said.
"I had little
choice," the Head replied. "It was like being hypnotized. I quickly
grasped the fact that they were unconscious even though their eyes were open,
and a few simple experiments with the tip of my cane confirmed the depth of the
state."
Clay thought of the
Head's limp, thought of asking him if he'd considered what would have happened
to him if he'd been wrong and they'd come after him, and held his tongue. The
Head would no doubt reiterate what he'd already said: no knowledge obtained
without risk. Jordan was right—this was one very old-school dude. Clay
certainly wouldn't have wanted to be fourteen and standing on his disciplinary
carpet.
Ardai, meanwhile, was
shaking his head at him. "Six or seven hundred's a very low estimate,
Clay. This is a regulation-size soccer field. That's six thousand square
yards."
"How many?"
"The way they're
packed together? I should say a thousand at the very least."
"And they're not
really here at all, are they? You're sure of that."
"I am. And what
comes back—a little more each day, Jordan says the same, and he's an acute observer, you may
trust me on that—is not what they were. Which is to say, not human."
"Can we go back
to the Lodge now?" Tom asked. He sounded sick.
"Of
course," the Head agreed.
"Just a second," Clay said. He knelt beside the young
man in the NASCAR T-shirt. He didn't want to do it—he couldn't help thinking
that the hand which had clutched for the red cap would now clutch at him—
but he made himself. Down here at ground level the stink was worse. He had
believed he was getting used to it, but he had been wrong.
Tom began,
"Clay, what are you—"
"Quiet."
Clay leaned toward the young man's mouth, which was partly open. He hesitated,
then made himself lean closer, until he could see the dim shine of spit on the
man's lower lip. At first he thought it might only be his imagination, but
another two inches—he was now almost close enough to kiss the not-sleeping
thing with Ricky Craven on its chest— took care of that.
It's just little, Jordan had said.
Not hardly a whisper. . . but you can hear it.
Clay heard it, the
vocal by some trick just a syllable or two ahead of the one coming from the
linked boomboxes: Dean Martin singing "Everybody Loves Somebody
Sometime."
He stood up, nearly
screaming at the pistol-shot sound of his own knees cracking. Tom held up his
lantern, looking at him, stare-eyed. "What? What? You're not going
to say that kid was—"
Clay nodded.
"Come on. Let's go back."
Halfway up the ramp
he grabbed the Head roughly by the shoulder. Ardai turned to face him,
seemingly not disturbed to be handled so.
"You're right,
sir. We have to get rid of them. As many as we can, and as fast as we can. This
may be the only chance we get. Or do you think I'm wrong?"
"No," the
Head replied. "Unfortunately, I don't. As I said, this is war—or so I
believe—and what one does in war is kill one's enemies. Why don't we go back
and talk it over? We could have hot chocolate. I like a tiny splash of bourbon
in mine, barbarian that I am."
At the top of the
ramp, Clay spared one final look back. Tonney Field was dark, but under strong
northern starlight not too dark to make out the
carpet of bodies spread from end to end and side to side. He thought you might
not know what you were looking at if you just happened to stumble on it, but
once you did . . . once you did . . .
His eyes played him a
funny trick and for a moment he almost thought he could see them breathing—all
eight hundred or a thousand of them— as one organism. That frightened him badly
and he turned to catch up to Tom and Headmaster Ardai, almost running.
16
The Head made hot chocolate in the kitchen and they drank it in the
formal parlor, by the light of two gas lanterns. Clay thought the old man would
suggest they go out to Academy Avenue later on, trolling for more volunteers in
Ardai's Army, but he seemed satisfied with what he had.
The gasoline-pump at the motor pool, the Head told them, drew from
a four-hundred-gallon overhead tank—all they'd have to do was pull a plug. And
there were thirty-gallon sprayers in the greenhouse. At least a dozen. They
could load up a pickup truck with them, perhaps, and back it down one of the
ramps—
"Wait," Clay said. "Before we start talking strategy, if
you have a theory about all this, sir, I'd like to hear it."
"Nothing so
formal," the old man said. "But Jordan and I have observation, we
have intuition, and we have a fair amount of experience between the two of
us—"
"I'm a computer
geek," Jordan said over his mug of hot chocolate. Clay found the child's
glum assurance oddly charming. "A total McNerd. Been on em my whole life,
just about. Those things're rebooting, all right. They might as well have software installation, please stand by blinking
on their foreheads."
"I don't
understand you," Tom said.
"I do,"
Alice said. "Jordan, you think the Pulse really was a Pulse, don't
you? Everyone who heard it. . . they got their hard drives wiped."
"Well,yeah,"
Jordan said. He was too polite to say Well, duh.
Tom looked at Alice,
perplexed. Only Clay knew Tom wasn't dumb, and he didn't believe Tom was that
slow.
"You had a
computer," Alice said. "I saw it in your little office."
"Yes—"
"And you've
installed software, right?"
"Sure,
but—" Tom stopped, looking at Alice fixedly. She looked back. "Their brains'?
You mean their brains'?"
"What do you
think a brain is?" Jordan said. "A big old hard drive. Organic
circuitry. No one knows how many bytes. Say giga to the power of a googolplex.
An infinity of bytes." He put his hands to his ears, which were small and
neatly made. "Right in between here."
"I don't believe
it," Tom said, but he spoke in a small voice and there was a sick look on
his face. Clay thought he did believe it. Thinking back to the madness
that had convulsed Boston, Clay had to admit the idea was persuasive. It was
also terrible: millions, perhaps even billions, of brains all wiped clean at
the same time, the way you could wipe an old-fashioned computer disc with a
powerful magnet.
He found himself
remembering Pixie Dark, the friend of the girl with the peppermint-colored cell
phone. Who are you? What's happening? Pixie Dark had cried. Who are
you? Who am I? Then she had smacked herself repeatedly in the forehead with
the heel of her hand and had gone running full tilt into a lamppost, not once
but twice, smashing her expensive orthodontic work to jagged pieces.
Who are you? Who
am I?
It hadn't been her
cell phone. She had only been listening in and hadn't gotten a full dose.
Clay, who thought in images rather than words a good deal of the
time, now got a vivid mental picture of a computer screen filling up with those words: WHO
ARE YOU WHO AM I WHO ARE YOU WHO AM I WHO ARE YOU who AM I who ARE
YOU WHO am I, and finally, at the
bottom, as bleak and
inarguable as Pixie Dark's fate:
SYSTEM FAILURE.
Pixie Dark as a
partially wiped hard drive? It was horrible, but it felt like the stone truth.
"I majored in
English, but as a young man I read a great deal of psychology," the Head
told them. "I began with Freud, of course, everyone begins with Freud . .
. then Jung . . . Adler . . . worked my way around the whole ballfield from
there. Lurking behind all theories of how the mind works is a greater theory:
Darwin's. In Freud's vocabulary, the idea of survival as the prime directive is
expressed by the concept of the id. In Jung's, by the rather grander idea of
blood consciousness. Neither man, I think, would argue with the idea that if all
conscious thought, all memory, all ratiocinative ability,
were to be stripped from a human mind in a moment, what would remain would be
pure and terrible."
He paused, looking
around for comment. None of them said anything. The Head nodded as if satisfied
and resumed.
"Although
neither the Freudians nor the Jungians come right out and say it, they strongly
suggest that we may have a core, a single basic carrier wave, or—to use
language with which Jordan is comfortable—a single line of written code which
cannot be stripped."
"The PD,"
Jordan said. "The prime directive."
"Yes," the
Head agreed. "At bottom, you see, we are not Homo sapiens at all.
Our core is madness. The prime directive is murder. What Darwin was too polite
to say, my friends, is that we came to rule the earth not because we were the
smartest, or even the meanest, but because we have always been the craziest,
most murderous motherfuckers in the jungle. And that is what the Pulse exposed
five days ago."
17
"I
refuse to believe that we were lunatics and murderers before we were anything
else," Tom said. "Christ, man, what about the Parthenon? What about
Michelangelo's David? What about that plaque on the moon that says, 'We
came in peace for all mankind'?"
"That
plaque also has Richard Nixon's name on it," Ardai said drily. "A
Quaker, but hardly a man of peace. Mr. McCourt—Tom—I have no interest in
handing down an indictment of mankind. If I did, I'd point out that for every
Michelangelo there's a Marquis de Sade, for every Gandhi an Eichmann, for every
Martin Luther King an Osama bin Laden. Leave it at this: man has come to
dominate the planet thanks to two essential traits. One is intelligence. The
other has been the absolute willingness to kill anyone and anything that gets
in his way."
He leaned forward,
surveying them with his bright eyes.
"Mankind's
intelligence finally trumped mankind's killer instinct, and reason came to rule
over mankind's maddest impulses. That, too, was survival. I believe the final
showdown between the two may have come in October of 1963, over a handful of
missiles in Cuba, but that is a discussion for another day. The fact is, most
of us had sublimated the worst in us until the Pulse came along and stripped
away everything but that red core."
"Someone let the
Tasmanian devil out of its cage," Alice murmured. "Who?"
"That need not
concern us, either," the Head replied. "I suspect they had no idea of
what they were doing . . . or how much they were doing. Based upon what
must have been hurried experiments over a few years— perhaps even months—they
may have thought they would unleash a destructive storm of terrorism. Instead
they unleashed a tsunami of untold violence, and it's mutating. Horrible as the
current days may now seem, we may later view them as a lull between one storm
and the next. These days may also be our only chance to make a
difference."
"What do you
mean, mutating?" Clay asked.
But the Head didn't
answer. Instead he turned to twelve-year-old Jordan. "If you please, young
man."
"Yes.
Well." Jordan paused to think. "Your conscious mind only uses a tiny
percentage of your brain's capacity. You guys know that, right?"
"Yes," Tom
said, a bit indulgently. "So I've read."
Jordan nodded.
"Even when you add in all the autonomic functions they control, plus the
subconscious stuff—dreams, blink-think, the sex drive, all that jazz—our brains
are barely ticking over."
"Holmes, you
astound me," Tom said.
"Don't be a
wiseass, Tom!" Alice said, and Jordan gave her a decidedly starry-eyed
smile.
"I'm not,"
Tom said. "The kid is good."
"Indeed he
is," the Headmaster said drily. "Jordan may have occasional problems
with the King's English, but he did not get his scholarship for excelling at tiddlywinks." He
observed the boy's discomfort and gave Jordan's hair an affectionate scruff
with his bony fingers. "Continue, please."
"Well. . ." Jordan struggled, Clay could see it, and
then seemed to find his rhythm again. "If your brain really was a
hard drive, the can would be almost empty." He saw only Alice understood
this. "Put it this way: the info
strip would say something like 2 percent in use, 98 percent
available. No one has any real idea what that ninety-eight percent
is for, but there's plenty of potential there. Stroke victims, for instance . .
. they sometimes access previously dormant areas of their brains in order to walk
and talk again. It's like their brains wire around the blighted area.
The lights go on in a similar area of the brain, but on the other side."
"You study this
stuff?" Clay asked.
"It's a natural
outgrowth of my interest in computers and cybernetics," Jordan said,
shrugging. "Also, I read a lot of cyberpunk science fiction. William
Gibson, Bruce Sterling, John Shirley—"
"Neal
Stephenson?" Alice asked.
Jordan grinned
radiantly. "Neal Stephenson's a god."
"Back on
message," the Head chided . . . but gently.
Jordan shrugged.
"If you wipe a computer hard drive, it can't regenerate spontaneously . .
. except maybe in a Greg Bear novel." He grinned again, but this time it
was quick and, Clay thought, rather nervous. Part of it was Alice, who clearly
knocked the kid out. "People are different."
"But there's a
huge leap between learning to walk again after a stroke and being able to power
a bunch of boomboxes by telepathy," Tom said. "A quantum leap."
He looked around self-consciously as the word telepathy came out of his
mouth, as if expecting them to laugh. No one did.
"Yeah, but a
stroke victim, even someone who has a bad one, is light-years different from
what happened to people who were on their cells during the Pulse," Jordan
replied. "Me and the Head—the Head and I—think that in addition to
stripping people's brains all the way to that one unerasable line of code, the
Pulse also kicked something on. Something that's probably been sitting inside
all of us for millions of years, buried in that ninety-eight percent of dormant
hard drive."
Clay's hand stole to
the butt of the revolver he had picked up off the floor in Beth Nickerson's
kitchen. "A trigger," he said.
Jordan lit up.
"Yeah, exactly! A mutative trigger. It never could have happened
without this, like, total erasure on a grand scale. Because what's emerging,
what's building up in those people out there . . . only they're no longer
people, what's building up is—"
"It's a single
organism," the Head interrupted. "This is what we believe."
"Yes, but more
than just a flock," Jordan said. "Because what they can do
with the CD players may only be the start, like a little kid learning to put
his shoes on. Think about what they might be able to do in a week. Or a month.
Or a year."
"You could be
wrong," Tom said, but his voice was as dry as a breaking stick.
"He could also
be right," Alice said.
"Oh, I'm sure
he's right," the Head put in. He sipped his spiked hot chocolate. "Of
course, I'm an old man and my time is almost over in any case. I'll abide by
any decision you make." A slight pause. The eyes flicked from Clay to
Alice to Tom. "As long as it's the right one, of course."
Jordan said:
"The flocks will try to come together, you know. If they don't hear each
other already, they will real soon."
"Crap," Tom
said uneasily. "Ghost stories."
"Maybe,"
Clay said, "but here's something to think about. Right now the nights are
ours. What if they decide they need less sleep? Or that they're not afraid of
the dark?"
No one said anything
for several moments. A wind was rising outside. Clay sipped his hot chocolate,
which had never been much more than tepid and was now almost cold. When he
looked up again, Alice had put hers aside and was holding her Nike talisman
instead.
"I want to wipe
them out," she said. "The ones on the soccer field, I want to wipe
them out. I don't say kill them because I think Jordan's right, and I don't
want to do it for the human race. I want to do it for my mother and my dad,
because he's gone, too. I know he is, I feel it. I want to do it for my friends
Vickie and Tess. They were good friends, but they had cell phones, they never
went anywhere without them, and I know what they're like now and where they're
sleeping: someplace just like that fucking soccer field." She glanced at
the Head, flushing. "'Scuse me, sir."
The Head waved her
apology away.
"Can we do
that?" she asked him. "Can we wipe them out?"
Charles Ardai, who
had been winding down his career as Gaiten Academy's interim Headmaster when
the world ended, bared his eroded teeth in a grin Clay would have given much to
have captured with pen or brush; there was not a single ounce of pity in it.
"Miss Maxwell, we can try," he said.
18
At four o'clock the next morning, Tom McCourt sat on a picnic table
between the two Gaiten Academy greenhouses, which had both sustained serious
damage since the Pulse. His feet, now wearing the Reeboks he'd donned back in
Malden, were on one of the benches, and his head lay on his arms, which rested
on his knees. The wind blew his hair first one way, then the other. Alice sat
across from him with her chin propped on her hands and the rays of several
flashlights striking angles and shadows across her face. The harsh light made
her look pretty in spite of her obvious weariness; at her age, all light was
still flattering. The Head, sitting next to her, only looked exhausted. In the
closer of the two greenhouses, two Coleman gas-lanterns floated like uneasy
spirits.
The Colemans
converged at the near end of the greenhouse. Clay and Jordan used the door,
although huge holes in the glass paneling had been opened on either side. A
moment later, Clay sat down next to Tom and Jordan resumed his usual spot next
to the Head. The boy smelled of gasoline and fertilizer, even more strongly of
dejection. Clay dropped several sets of keys on the table amid the flashlights.
As far as he was concerned, they could stay there until some archaeologist
discovered them four millennia from now.
"I'm
sorry," Headmaster Ardai said softly. "It seemed so simple."
"Yeah,"
Clay said. It had seemed simple: fill the greenhouse sprayers with
gasoline, load the sprayers into the back of a pickup truck, drive across
Tonney Field, wetting down both sides as they went, toss a match. He thought to
tell Ardai that George W Bush's Iraq adventure had probably looked equally
simple—load the sprayers, toss a match—and didn't. It would have been pointlessly
cruel.
"Tom?" Clay
asked. "You okay?" He had already realized that Tom didn't have great
reserves of stamina.
"Yeah, just
tired." He raised his head and gave Clay a smile. "Not used to the
night shift. What do we do now?"
"Go to bed, I
guess," Clay said. "It'll be dawn in another forty minutes or
so." The sky had already begun to lighten in the east.
"It's not
fair," Alice said. She brushed angrily at her cheeks. "It's not fair,
we tried so hard!"
They had tried
hard, but nothing had come easily. Every small (and ultimately meaningless)
victory had been the sort of maddening struggle his mother had called a Bolshie
shit-pull. Part of Clay did want to blame the Head . . . also himself,
for not taking Ardai's sprayer idea with a grain of salt. Part of him now
thought that going along with an elderly English teacher's plan to firebomb a
soccer field was a little like taking a knife to a gunfight. Still . . . yeah,
it had seemed like a good idea.
Until, that was, they
discovered the motor pool's gasoline storage tank was inside a locked shed.
They'd spent nearly half an hour in the nearby office, scrounging by
lantern-light through maddeningly unmarked keys on a board behind the
superintendent's desk. It was Jordan who finally found the key that unlocked
the shed door.
Then they discovered
that One would only have to pull a plug was not exactly the case. There
was a cap, not a plug. And like the shed in which the tank resided, the cap was
locked. Back to the office; another scrounge by lantern-light; finally a key
that did indeed seem to fit the cap. It was Alice who pointed out that since
the cap was on the bottom of the tank, assuring gravity-feed in case of a power
outage, they would have a flood on their hands without a hose or a siphon. They
spent an hour looking for a hose that might fit and couldn't find anything that
looked even close. Tom found a small funnel, which sent them all into moderate
hysterics.
And because none of
the truck keys were marked (at least in ways non-motor-pool employees could
understand), locating the right set became another process of trial and error.
This one went faster, at least, because there were only eight trucks parked
behind the garage.
And last, the greenhouses. There they discovered only eight
sprayers, not a dozen, with a capacity of not thirty gallons each but ten. They
might be able to fill them from the gasoline
storage tank, but they would be drenched in the process, and the result would
be a mere eighty gallons of usable, sprayable gas. It was the idea of wiping
out a thousand phone-crazies with eighty gallons of regular that had driven
Tom, Alice, and the Head out to the picnic bench. Clay and Jordan had hung in a
while longer, looking for bigger sprayers, but they had found none.
"We found a few
little leaf-sprayers, though," Clay said. "You know, what they used
to call flit-guns."
"Also,"
Jordan said, "the big sprayers in there are all full of weed-killer or
plant-food or something. We'd have to start by dumping them all out, and that
would mean putting on masks just to make sure we didn't gas ourselves or
something."
"Reality
bites," Alice said morosely. She looked at her baby sneaker for a moment,
then tucked it away in her pocket.
Jordan picked up the
keys they had matched to one of the maintenance pickups. "We could drive
downtown," he said. "There's a Trustworthy Hardware. They must
have sprayers."
Tom shook his head.
"It's over a mile and the main drag's full of wrecks and abandoned
vehicles. We might be able to get around some, but not all. And driving over
the lawns is out of the question. The houses are just too close together. There
are reasons everybody's on foot." They had seen a few people on bicycles,
but not many; even the ones equipped with lights were dangerous if ridden at
any speed.
"Would it be
possible for a light truck to negotiate the side streets?" the Head asked.
Clay said, "We could explore the possibility tomorrow night,
I suppose. Scout out a path in advance, on foot, then come back for the
truck." He considered. "They'd probably have all sorts of hose in a
hardware store, too."
"You don't sound
exactly jazzed," Alice said.
Clay sighed. "It
doesn't take much to block little streets. We'd end up doing a lot of
donkey-work even if we got luckier than we did tonight. I just don't know.
Maybe it'll look better to me after some rest."
"Of course it
will," the Head agreed, but he sounded hollow. "To all of us."
"What about the
gas station across from the school?" Jordan asked without much hope.
"What gas
station?" Alice asked.
"He's talking
about the Citgo," the Head replied. "Same problem, Jordan—plenty of
gasoline in the tanks under the pumps, but no power. And I doubt if they have
much in the way of containers beyond a few two- or five-gallon gasoline cans. I
really think—" But he didn't say what he really thought. He broke off.
"What is it, Clay?"
Clay was remembering
the trio ahead of them limping past that gas station, one of the men with an
arm around the woman's waist. "Academy Grove Citgo," he said.
"That's the name, isn't it?"
"Yes—"
"But they didn't
just sell gasoline, I think." He didn't just think, he knew. Because
of the two trucks parked on the side. He had seen them and hadn't thought
anything of them. Not then, he hadn't. No reason to.
"I don't know
what you—" the Head began, then stopped. His eyes met Clay's. His eroded
teeth once more made their appearance in that singularly pitiless smile. "Oh,"
he said. "Oh. Oh my. Oh my, yes."
Tom was looking
between them with mounting perplexity. So was Alice. Jordan merely waited.
"Would you mind
telling the rest of us what you two are communing about?" Tom asked.
Clay was ready to—he
already saw clearly how it would work, and it was too good not to share—when
the music from Tonney Field died away. It didn't click off, as it usually did
when they woke up in the morning; it went in a kind of swoop, as if someone had
just kicked the source down an elevator shaft.
"They're up
early," Jordan said in a low voice.
Tom gripped Clay's
forearm. "It's not the same," he said. "And one of those damned
ghetto blasters is still playing . . . I can hear it, very faint."
The wind was strong,
and Clay knew it was blowing from the direction of the soccer field because of
the ripe smells it carried: decaying food, decaying flesh, hundreds of unwashed
bodies. It also carried the ghostly sound of Lawrence Welk and his Champagne
Music Makers playing "Baby Elephant Walk."
Then, from somewhere
to the northwest—maybe ten miles away, maybe thirty, it was hard to tell how
far the wind might have carried it—came a spectral, somehow mothlike moaning
sound. There was silence . . . silence . . . and then the not-waking,
not-sleeping creatures on the Tonney soccer field answered in kind. Their moan
was much louder, a hollow, belling ghost-groan that rose toward the black and
starry sky.
Alice had covered her
mouth. The baby sneaker jutted upward from her hands. Her eyes bulged on either
side of it. Jordan had thrown his arms around the Head's waist and buried his
face against the old man's side.
"Look,
Clay!" Tom said. He got to his feet and tottered toward the grassy aisle
between the two shattered greenhouses, pointing at the sky as he went. "Do
you see? My God, do you see?"
To the northwest,
from where the distant groan had risen, a reddish orange glow had bloomed on
the horizon. It strengthened as he watched, the wind bore that terrible sound
again . . . and once more it was answered with a similar but much louder groan
from Tonney Field.
Alice joined them,
then the Head, walking with his arm around Jordan's shoulders.
"What's over
there?" Clay asked, pointing toward the glow. It had already begun to wane
again.
"It might be
Glen's Falls," the Headmaster said. "Or it might be Littleton."
"Wherever it is,
there's shrimp on the barbie," Tom said. "They're burning. And our
bunch knows. They heard."
"Or felt,"
Alice said. She shuddered, then straightened and bared her teeth. "I
hope they did!"
As if in answer,
there was another groan from Tonney Field: many voices raised as one in a cry
of sympathy and—perhaps—shared agony. The one boombox—it was the master, Clay
assumed, the one with an actual compact disc in it—continued to play. Ten
minutes later, the others joined in once more. The music—it now was "Close
to You," by The Carpenters—swooped up, just as it had previously swooped
down. By then Headmaster Ardai, limping noticeably on his cane, had led them
back to Cheatham Lodge. Not long after that, the music stopped again . . . but
this time it simply clicked off, as it had the
previous morning. From far away, carried across God alone knew how many miles
by the wind, came the faint pop of a gunshot. Then the world was eerily and
completely silent, waiting for the dark to give place to the day.
19
As the sun began to spoke its first red rays through the trees on
the eastern horizon, they watched the phone-crazies once again begin leaving
the soccer field in close-order patterns, headed for downtown Gaiten and the
surrounding neighborhoods. They fanned out as they went, headed downhill toward
Academy Avenue as if nothing untoward had happened near the end of the night.
But Clay didn't trust that. He thought they had better do their business at the
Citgo station quickly, today, if they intended to do it at all. Going out in
the daylight might mean shooting some of them, but as long as they only
moved en masse at the beginning and end of the day, he was willing to take that
risk.
They watched
what Alice called "the dawn of the dead" from the dining room.
Afterward, Tom and the Head went into the kitchen. Clay found them sitting at
the table in a bar of sunshine and drinking tepid coffee. Before Clay could
begin explaining what he wanted to do later in the day, Jordan touched his
wrist.
"Some of the
crazies are still there," he said. And, in a lower voice: "I went to
school with some of them."
Tom said, "I thought they'd all be shopping Kmart by now,
looking for Blue Light Specials."
"You better
check it out," Alice said from the doorway. "I'm not sure it's
another—what-would-you-call-it, developmental step forward, but it might be. It
probably is."
"Sure it
is," Jordan said gloomily.
The phone-crazies who
had stayed behind—Clay thought it was a squad of about a hundred—were removing
the dead from beneath the bleachers. At first they simply carried them off into
the parking lot south of the field and behind a long low brick building. They
came back empty-handed.
"That building's
the indoor track," the Head told them. "It's also where all the
sports gear is stored. There's a steep drop-off on the far side. I imagine they're
throwing the bodies over the edge."
"You bet,"
Jordan said. He sounded sick. "It's all marshy down there. They'll
rot."
"They were
rotting anyway, Jordan," Tom said gently.
"I know,"
he said, sounding sicker than ever, "but they'll rot even faster in the
sun." A pause. "Sir?"
"Yes,
Jordan?"
"I saw Noah
Chutsky. From your Drama Reading Club."
The Head patted the
boy's shoulder. He was very pale. "Never mind."
"It's hard not
to," Jordan whispered. "He took my picture once. With his . . . with
his you-know."
Then, a new wrinkle.
Two dozen of the worker-bees peeled off from the main group with no pause for
discussion and headed for the shattered greenhouses, moving in a V-shape that
reminded the watchers of migrating geese. The one Jordan had identified as Noah
Chutsky was among these. The rest of the body-removal squad watched them go for
a moment, then marched back down the ramps, three abreast, and resumed fishing
dead bodies out from under the bleachers.
Twenty minutes later the greenhouse party
returned, now spread out in a single line. Some were still empty-handed, but
most had acquired wheelbarrows or handcarts of the sort used to transport large
bags of lime or fertilizer. Soon the phone-crazies were using the carts and
barrows to dispose of the bodies, and their work went faster.
"It's a step
forward, all right," Tom said.
"More than
one," the Head added. "Cleaning house; using tools to do it."
Clay said, "I
don't like this."
Jordan looked up at him, his face pale and
tired and far older than its years. "Join the club," he said.
20
They slept until one in the afternoon. Then, after confirming that
the body detail had finished its work and gone to join the rest of the foragers, they went down to the fieldstone pillars
marking the entrance to Gaiten Academy. Alice had scoffed at Clay's idea that
he and Tom should do this on their own. "Never mind that Batman and Robin
crap," she said.
"Oh my, I always
wanted to be the Boy Wonder," Tom said with a trace of a lisp, but when
she gave him a humorless look, her sneaker (now beginning to look a bit
tattered) clasped in one hand, he wilted. "Sorry."
"You can go
across to the gas station on your own," she said. "That much makes
sense. But the rest of us will stand lookout on the other side."
The Head had
suggested that Jordan should stay behind at the Lodge. Before the boy could
respond—and he looked ready to do so hotly—Alice asked, "How are your
eyes, Jordan?"
He had given her a smile, once more
accompanied by the slightly starry look. "Good. Fine."
"And you've
played video games? The ones where you shoot?"
"Sure, a
ton."
She handed him her
pistol. Clay could see him quiver slightly, like a tapped tuning fork, when
their fingers touched. "If I tell you to point and shoot—or if Headmaster
Ardai tells you—will you do it?"
"Sure."
Alice had looked at
Ardai with a mixture of defiance and apology. "We need every hand."
The Head had given
in, and now here they were and there was the Academy Grove Citgo, on the other
side of the street and just a little way back toward town. From here the other,
slightly smaller, sign was easy to read: academy
lp gas. The single car standing at the pumps with its driver's door open
already had a dusty, long-deserted look. The gas station's big plate-glass
window was broken. Off to the right, parked in the shade of what had to be one
of northern New England's few surviving elm trees, were two trucks shaped like
giant propane bottles. Written on the side of each were the words Academy LP
Gas and Serving Southern New Hampshire Since 1982.
There was no sign of
foraging phone-crazies on this part of Academy Avenue, and although most of the
houses Clay could see had shoes on their front stoops, several did not. The
rush of refugees seemed to be drying up. Too early to tell, he cautioned
himself.
"Sir? Clay?
What's that?" Jordan asked. He was pointing to the middle of the
Avenue—which of course was still Route 102, although that was easy to forget on
this sunny, quiet afternoon where the closest sounds were birds and the rustle
of the wind in the leaves. There was something written in bright pink chalk on
the asphalt, but from where they were, Clay couldn't make it out. He shook his
head.
"Are you
ready?" he asked Tom.
"Sure," Tom
said. He was trying to sound casual, but a pulse beat rapidly on the side of
his unshaven throat. "You Batman, me Boy Wonder."
They trotted across
the street, pistols in hand. Clay had left the Russian automatic weapon with
Alice, more or less convinced it would spin her around like a top if she
actually had to use it.
The message scrawled
in pink chalk on the macadam was
KASHWAK=NO-FO
"Does that mean
anything to you?" Tom asked.
Clay shook his head.
It didn't, and right now he didn't care. All he wanted was to get out of the
middle of Academy Avenue, where he felt as exposed as an ant in a bowl of rice.
It occurred to him, suddenly and not for the first time, that he would sell his
soul just to know that his son was okay, and in a place where people weren't
putting guns into the hands of children who were good at video games. It was
strange. He'd think he had his priorities settled, that he was dealing with his
personal deck one card at a time, and then these thoughts would come, each as
fresh and painful as an unsettled grief.
Get out of here,
Johnny. You don't belong here. Not your place, not your time.
The propane trucks
were empty and locked, but that was all right; today their luck was running the
right way. The keys were hanging on a board in the office, below a sign reading
NO TOWING BETWEEN MIDNITE AND 6 AM NO EXEMPTIONS. A tiny propane bottle
dangled from each keychain. Halfway back to the door, Tom touched Clay's
shoulder.
Two phone-crazies
walked up the middle of the street, side by side but by no means in lockstep. One was eating
Twinkies from a box of them; his face was lathered with cream, crumbs, and
frosting. The other, a woman, was holding a coffee-table-size book out in front
of her. To Clay she looked like a choir-member holding an oversize hymnal. On
the front there appeared to be a photograph of a collie jumping through a tire
swing. The fact that the woman held the book upside down gave Clay some
comfort. The vacant, blasted expressions on their faces—and the fact that they
were wandering on their own, meaning midday was still a non-flocking time—gave
him more. But he didn't like that book. No, he didn't like that book at all.
They wandered past
the fieldstone pillars, and Clay could see Alice, Jordan, and the Head peering
out, wide-eyed. The two crazies walked over the cryptic message chalked in the
street—KASHWAK=NO-FO—and the woman reached for her companion's Twinkies.
The man held the box away from her. The woman cast her book aside (it landed
rightside up and Clay saw it was 100 Best Loved Dogs of the World) and
reached again. The man slapped her face hard enough to make her filthy hair
fly, the sound very loud in the stillness of the day. All this time they were
walking. The woman made a sound: "Aw!" The man replied (it
sounded to Clay like a reply): "Eeeen!" The woman reached for
the box of Twinkies. Now they were passing the Citgo. The man punched her in
the neck this time, a looping overhand blow, and then dove a hand into his box
for another treat. The woman stopped. Looked at him. And a moment later the man
stopped. He had pulled a bit ahead, so his back was mostly to her.
Clay felt something
in the sunwarmed stillness of the gas station office. No, he thought, not in
the office, in me. Shortness of breath, like after you climb a flight of stairs
too fast.
Except maybe it was
in the office, too, because—Tom stood on his toes and whispered in his ear,
"Do you feel that?" Clay nodded and pointed at the desk. There was no
wind, no discernible draft, but the papers there were fluttering. And in the
ashtray, the ashes had begun to circle lazily, like water going down a bathtub
drain. There were two butts in there—no, three—and the moving ashes seemed to
be pushing them toward the center.
The man turned toward
the woman. He looked back at her. She looked at him. They looked at each other.
Clay could read no expression on either face, but he could feel the hairs on
his arms stirring, and he heard a faint jingling. It was the keys on the board
below the NO TOWING sign. They were stirring, too—chittering against
each other just the tiniest bit.
"Aw!" said
the woman. She held out her hand.
"Eeen!" said
the man. He was wearing the fading remains of a suit. On his feet were dull
black shoes. Six days ago he might have been a middle manager, a salesman, or
an apartment-complex manager. Now the only real estate he cared about was his
box of Twinkies. He held it to his chest, his sticky mouth working.
"Aw!" the
woman insisted. She held out both hands instead of just one, the immemorial
gesture signifying gimme, and the keys were jingling louder. Overhead
there was a bzzzzt as a fluorescent light for which there was no power
flickered and then went out again. The nozzle fell off the middle gas pump and
hit the concrete island with a dead-metal clank.
"Aw," the
man said. His shoulders slumped and all the tension went out of him. The
tension went out of the air. The keys on the board fell silent. The ashes made
one final, slowing circuit of their dented metal reliquary and came to a stop.
You would not have known anything had happened, Clay thought, if not for the
fallen nozzle out there and the little cluster of cigarette butts in the
ashtray on the desk in here.
"Aw," the
woman said. She was still holding out her hands. Her companion advanced to
within reach of them. She took a Twinkie in each and began to eat them, wrappings
and all. Once more Clay was comforted, but only a little. They resumed their
slow shuffle toward town, the woman pausing long enough to spit a filling-caked
piece of cellophane from the side of her mouth. She showed no interest in 100
Best Loved Dogs of the World.
"What was that?"
Tom asked in a low and shaken voice when the two of them were almost out of
sight.
"I don't know,
but I didn't like it," Clay said. He had the keys to the propane trucks.
He handed one set to Tom. "Can you drive a standard shift?"
"I learned on
a standard. Can you?"
Clay smiled
patiently. "I'm straight, Tom. Straight guys know how to drive standards
without instruction. It's instinct with us."
"Very
funny." Tom wasn't really listening. He was looking after the departed odd
couple, and that pulse in the side of his throat was going faster than ever.
"End of the world, open season on the queers, why not, right?"
"That's right.
It's gonna be open season on straights, too, if they get that shit under
control. Come on, let's do it."
He started out the
door, but Tom held him back a minute. "Listen. The others may have felt
that over there, or they may not have. If they didn't, maybe we should keep it
to ourselves for the time being. What do you think?"
Clay thought about
how Jordan wouldn't let the Head out of his sight and how Alice always kept the
creepy little sneaker somewhere within reach. He thought about the circles
under their eyes, and then about what they were planning to do tonight.
Armageddon was probably too strong a word for it, but not by much. Whatever
they were now, the phone-crazies had once been human beings, and burning a
thousand of them alive was burden enough. Even thinking about it hurt his
imagination.
"Fine by
me," he said. "Go up the hill in low gear, all right?"
"Lowest one I
can find," Tom said. They were walking to the big bottle-shaped trucks
now. "How many gears do you
think a truck like that has?"
"One forward
should be enough," Clay said.
"Based on the
way they're parked, I think you're going to have to start by finding
reverse."
"Fuck it,"
Clay said. "What good is the end of the world if you can't drive through a
goddam board fence?"
And that was what
they did.
21
Academy Slope was what Headmaster Ardai and his one remaining pupil
called the long, rolling hill that dropped from the campus to the main road.
The grass was still bright green and only beginning to be littered with fallen
leaves. When afternoon gave way to early evening and
Academy
Slope was still empty—no sign of returning phone-crazies— Alice began to pace
the main hall of Cheatham Lodge, pausing in each circuit only long enough to
look out the bay window of the living room. It offered a fine view of the
Slope, the two main lecture halls, and Tonney Field. The sneaker was once more
tied to her wrist.
The others were in
the kitchen, sipping Cokes from cans. "They're not coming back," she
told them at the end of one of her circuits. "They got wind of what we
were planning—read our minds or something—and they're not coming."
Two more circuits of
the long downstairs hall, each with a pause to look out the big living room
window, and then she looked in on them again. "Or maybe it's a general
migration, did you guys ever think of that? Maybe they go south in the winter
like the goddam robins."
She was gone without
waiting for a reply. Up the hall and down the hall. Up and down the hall.
"She's like Ahab
on the prod for Moby," the Head remarked.
"Eminem might
have been a jerk, but he was right about that guy," Tom said morosely.
"I beg your
pardon, Tom?" the Head asked.
Tom waved it away.
Jordan glanced at his
watch. "They didn't come back last night until almost half an hour later
than it is right now," he said. "I'll go tell her that, if you
want."
"I don't think
it would do any good," Clay said. "She's got to work through it,
that's all."
"She's pretty
freaked-out, isn't she, sir?"
"Aren't you,
Jordan?"
"Yes,"
Jordan said in a small voice. "I'm Freak City."
The next time Alice
came back to the kitchen she said, "Maybe it's best if they don't come
back. I don't know if they're rebooting their brains some new way, but for sure
there's some bad voodoo going on. I felt it from those two this afternoon. The
woman with the book and the man with the Twinkies?" She shook her head.
"Bad voodoo."
She plunged off on
hall patrol again before anyone could reply, the sneaker swinging from her
wrist.
The Head looked at
Jordan. "Did you feel anything, son?"
Jordan hesitated,
then said, "I felt something. The hair on my neck tried to stand
up."
Now the Head turned
his gaze to the men on the other side of the table. "What about you two?
You were far closer."
Alice saved them from
having to answer. She ran into the kitchen, her cheeks flushed, her eyes wide,
the soles of her sneakers squeaking on the tiles. "They're coming,"
she said.
22
From the bay window the four of them watched the phone-crazies come
up Academy Slope in converging lines, their long shadows making a huge
pin-wheel shape on the green grass. As they neared what Jordan and the Head
called Tonney Arch, the lines drew together and the pinwheel seemed to spin in
the late golden sunlight even as it contracted and solidified.
Alice could no longer
stand not holding the sneaker. She had torn it from her wrist and was squeezing
it compulsively. "They'll see what we did and they'll turn around,"
she said, speaking low and rapidly. "They've gotten at least that smart,
if they're picking up books again, they must have."
"We'll
see," Clay said. He was almost positive the phone-crazies would go
onto Tonney Field, even if what they saw there disquieted their strange group
mind; it would be dark soon and they had nowhere else to go. A fragment of a
lullaby his mother used to sing him floated through his mind: Little
man, you've had a busy day.
"I hope they go
and I hope they stay," she said, lower than ever. "I feel like I'm
going to explode." She gave a wild little laugh. "Only it's them that's
supposed to explode, isn't it? Them." Tom turned to look at her and
she said, "I'm all right. I'm fine, so just close your mouth."
"All I was going
to say is that it'll be what it is," he said.
"New Age crap.
You sound like my father. The Picture Frame King." A tear rolled down one
cheek and she rubbed it impatiently away with the heel of her hand.
"Just calm down,
Alice. Watch."
"I'll try, okay?
I'll try."
"And stop with
the sneaker," Jordan said—irritably, for him. "That squelchy sound is
making me crazy."
She looked down at
the sneaker, as if surprised, then slipped it around her wrist on its loop
again. They watched as the phone-crazies converged at Tonney Arch and passed
beneath it with less pushing and confusion than any crowd attending the
Homecoming Weekend soccer match could ever have equaled—Clay was sure of that.
They watched as the crazies spread out again on the far side, crossing the
concourse and filing down the ramps. They waited to see that steady march slow
and stop, but it never did. The last stragglers—most of them hurt and helping
each other along, but still walking in those close groups—were in long before
the reddening sun had passed below the dormitories on the west side of the
Gaiten Academy campus. They had returned once more, like homing pigeons to
their nests or the swallows to Capistrano. Not five minutes after the evening
star became visible in the darkening sky, Dean Martin began singing
"Everybody Loves Somebody Sometime."
"I was worried
for nothing, wasn't I?" Alice said. "Sometimes I'm a putz. That's
what my father says."
"No," the
Head told her. "All the putzes had cell phones, dear. That's why they're
out there and you're in here, with us."
Tom said: "I
wonder if Rafe's still making out okay."
"I wonder if
Johnny is," Clay said. "Johnny and Sharon."
23
At ten o'clock on that windy autumn night, under a moon now entering
its last quarter, Clay and Tom stood in the band alcove at the home end of the
Tonney soccer field. Directly in front of them was a waist-high concrete
barrier that had been heavily padded on the playing-field side. On their side
were a few rusting music stands and a drift of litter that was ankle-deep; the
wind blew the torn bags and scraps of paper in here, and here they came to
rest. Behind and above them, back at the turnstiles, Alice and Jordan flanked
the Head, a tall figure propped on a slender rod of cane. Debby Boone's voice
rolled across the field in amplified waves of comic majesty. Ordinarily she would be followed by Lee Ann Womack
singing "I Hope You Dance," then back to Lawrence Welk and his
Champagne Music Makers, but perhaps not tonight.
The wind was
freshening. It brought them the smell of rotting bodies from the marsh behind
the indoor-track building and the aroma of dirt and sweat from the living ones
packed together on the field beyond the band alcove. If you can call that
living, Clay thought, and flashed himself a small and bitter inside smile.
Rationalization was a great human sport, maybe the great human sport,
but he would not fool himself tonight: of course they called it living.
Whatever they were or whatever they were becoming, they called it living just
as he did.
"What are you
waiting for?" Tom murmured.
"Nothing,"
Clay murmured back. "Just. . . nothing."
From the holster
Alice had found in the Nickerson basement, Clay drew Beth Nickerson's
old-fashioned Colt .45 revolver, now once more fully loaded. Alice had offered
him the automatic rifle—which so far they had not even test-fired—and he had
refused, saying that if the pistol didn't do the job, probably nothing would.
"I don't know
why the auto wouldn't be better, if it squirts thirty or forty bullets a
second," she said. "You could turn those trucks into
cheese-graters."
He had agreed that
this might be so, but reminded Alice that their object tonight was not
destruction per se but ignition. Then he'd explained the highly illegal nature
of the ammunition Arnie Nickerson had obtained for his wife's .45 fraggers.
What had once been called dumdum bullets.
"Okay, but if it
doesn't work, you can still try Sir Speedy," she'd said. "Unless the
guys out there just, you know . . ." She wouldn't actually use the word attack,
but had made a little walking motion with the fingers of the hand not
holding the sneaker. "In that case, beat feet."
The wind tore a
tattered strip of Homecoming Weekend bunting free of the Scoreboard and sent it
dancing above the packed sleepers. Around the field, seeming to float in the
dark, were the red eyes of the boomboxes, all but one playing without benefit
of CDs. The bunting struck the bumper of one of the propane trucks, flapped
there several seconds, then slipped free and flew off into the night. The
trucks were parked side by side in the middle of the
field, rising from the mass of packed forms like weird metal mesas. The
phone-crazies slept beneath them and so closely around them that some were
crammed up against the wheels. Clay thought again of passenger pigeons, and the
way nineteenth-century hunters had brained them on the ground with clubs. The
whole species had been wiped out by the beginning of the twentieth . . . but of
course they'd only been birds, with little bird-brains, incapable of rebooting.
"Clay?" Tom
asked, low. "Are you sure you want to go through with this?"
"No," Clay
said. Now that he was face-to-face with it, there were too many unanswered
questions. What they would do if it went wrong was only one of them. What they
would do if it went right was another. Because passenger pigeons were incapable
of revenge. Those things out there, on the other hand—
"But I'm going
to."
"Then do
it," Tom said. "Because, all else aside, 'You Light Up My Life' blows
dead rats in hell."
Clay raised the .45
and held his right wrist firmly with his left hand. He centered the gunsight on
the tank of the truck on the left. He would fire twice into that one, then
twice into the other one. That would leave one more bullet for each, if
necessary. If that didn't work, he could try the automatic weapon Alice had
taken to calling Sir Speedy.
"Duck if it goes
up," he told Tom.
"Don't
worry," Tom said. His face was drawn into a grimace, anticipating the
report of the gun and whatever might follow.
Debby Boone was
building to a big finish. It suddenly seemed very important to Clay that he
beat her. If you miss at this range, you're a monkey, he thought, and
pulled the trigger.
There was no chance
for a second shot and no need of one. A bright red flower bloomed in the center
of the tank, and by its light he saw a deep dent in the previously smooth metal
surface. Hell appeared to be inside, and growing. Then the flower was a river,
red turning orange-white.
"Down!" he
shouted, and pushed Tom's shoulder. He fell on top of the smaller man just as
the night became desert noon. There was a huge, whooshing roar followed by a
guttering BANG that Clay felt in every bone of his body. Shrapnel shot overhead. He thought Tom screamed
but he wasn't sure, because there was another of those whooshing roars and
suddenly the air was growing hot, hot, hot.
He seized Tom partly
by the scruff of the neck and partly by the collar of his shirt and began to
drag him backward up the concrete ramp leading to the turnstiles, his eyes
slitted almost completely shut against the enormous glare flowing from the
center of the soccer field. Something enormous landed in the auxiliary stands
to his right. He thought maybe an engine block. He was pretty sure the
shattered bits and twists of metal under his feet had once been Gaiten Academy
music stands.
Tom was screaming and
his glasses were askew, but he was on his feet and he looked intact. The two of
them ran up the ramp like escapees from Gomorrah. Clay could see their shadows,
long and spider-thin in front of them, and realized objects were falling all
around them: arms, legs, a piece of bumper, a woman's head with the hair
blazing. From behind them came a second tremendous BANG—or maybe it was
a third—and this time he was the one who screamed. His feet tangled and
he went sprawling. The whole world was rapidly building heat and the most incredible
light: he felt as if he were standing on God's personal soundstage.
We didn't know
what we were doing, he thought, looking at a wad of gum, a tromped Junior
Mints box, a blue Pepsi Cola cap. We didn't have a clue and we're going
to pay with our fucking lives.
"Get up!"
That was Tom, and he thought Tom was screaming, but his voice seemed to be
coming from a mile away. He felt Tom's delicate, long-fingered hands yanking at
his arm. Then Alice was there, too. Alice was yanking on his other arm, and she
was glaring in the light. He could see the sneaker dancing and bobbing
from its string on her wrist. She was spattered with blood, bits of cloth, and
gobbets of smoking flesh.
Clay scrambled up,
then went back to one knee, and Alice hauled him up again by main force. From
behind them, propane roared like a dragon. And here came Jordan, with the Head
tottering along right behind him, his face rosy and every wrinkle running with
sweat.
"No, Jordan, no,
just get him out of the way!" Tom yelled, and Jordan pulled the Head aside
for them, gripping the old man grimly around the waist when he tottered. A
burning torso with a ring in its navel landed at Alice's feet and she booted it off the ramp. Five years of
soccer, Clay remembered her saying. A blazing piece of shirt landed on the
back of her head and Clay swept it aside before it could set her hair on fire.
At the top of the
ramp, a blazing truck tire with half a sheared-off axle still attached leaned
against the last row of reserved seats. If it had landed blocking their way,
they might have cooked—the Head almost certainly would have. As it was, they
were able to slide past, holding their breath against billows of oily smoke. A
moment later they were lurching through the turnstile, Jordan on one side of
the Head and Clay on the other, the two of them almost carrying the old man
along. Clay had his ear boxed twice by the Head's flailing cane, but thirty
seconds after passing the tire they were standing beneath Tonney Arch, looking
back at the huge column of fire rising above the bleachers and center press box
with identical expressions of stupefied disbelief.
A blazing rag of
Homecoming bunting floated down to the pavement next to the main ticket booth,
trailing a few sparks before coming to rest.
"Did you know
that would happen?" Tom asked. His face was white around the eyes, red
across the forehead and cheeks. Half his mustache appeared to have been singed
off. Clay could hear his voice, but it sounded distant. Everything did. It was
as if his ears had been packed with cotton balls, or the shooter's plugs Beth
Nickerson's husband Arnie had no doubt made her wear when he took her to their
favorite target-range. Where they'd probably shot with their cell phones
clipped to one hip and their pagers to the other.
"Did you
know?" Tom attempted to shake him, got nothing but a piece of his
shirt, and tore it all the way down the front.
"Fuck no, are
you insane?" Clay's voice was beyond hoarse, beyond parched; it sounded baked.
"You think I would have stood there with a pistol if I'd known? If it
hadn't been for that concrete barrier, we would have been cut in two. Or
vaporized."
Incredibly, Tom began
to grin. "I tore your shirt, Batman."
Clay felt like knocking
his head off. Also like hugging and kissing him just because he was still
alive.
"I want to go
back to the Lodge," Jordan said. The fear in his voice was unmistakable.
"By all means
let us remove to a safe distance," the Head agreed. He was trembling
badly, his eyes fixed on the inferno rising above the Arch and the bleachers.
"Thank God the wind's blowing toward Academy Slope."
"Can you walk,
sir?" Tom asked.
"Thank you, yes.
If Jordan will assist me, I'm sure I can walk as far as the Lodge."
"We got
them," Alice said. She was wiping splatters of gore almost absently from
her face, leaving smears of blood. Her eyes were like nothing Clay had ever
seen except in a few photographs and some inspired comic art from the 1950s and
'60s. He remembered going to a comics convention once, only a kid himself then,
and listening to Wallace Wood talk about trying to draw something he called
Panic Eye. Now Clay was seeing it in the face of a fifteen-year-old suburban
schoolgirl.
"Alice, come
on," he said. "We have to go back to the Lodge and get our shit
together. We have to get out of here." As soon as the words were out of
his mouth, he had to say them again and hear if they had the ring of truth. The
second time they sounded more than true; they sounded scared.
She might not have
heard. She looked exultant. Stuffed with triumph. Sick with it, like a kid who
has eaten too much Halloween candy on the way home. The pupils of her eyes were
full of fire. "Nothing could live through that."
Tom gripped Clay's
arm. It hurt the way a sunburn hurt. "What's wrong with you?"
"I think we made
a mistake," Clay said.
"Is it like in
the gas station?" Tom asked him. Behind his crooked spectacles, his eyes
were sharp. "When the man and woman were fighting over the damn Tw—"
"No, I just
think we made a mistake," Clay said. Actually, it was stronger than that.
He knew they had made a mistake. "Come on. We have to go
tonight."
"If you say so,
okay," Tom said. "Come on, Alice."
She went with them a
little way down the path toward the Lodge, where they had left a pair of gas
lanterns burning in the big bay window, then
turned back for another look. The press box was on fire now, and the bleachers.
The stars over the soccer field were gone; even the moon was nothing but a
ghost dancing a wild jig in the heat-haze above that fierce gas-jet.
"They're dead, they're gone, they're crispy," she said.
"Burn, baby, b—"
That was when the cry
rose, only now it wasn't coming from Glen's Falls or Littleton ten miles away.
It was coming from right behind them. Nor was there anything spectral or
wraithlike about it. It was a cry of agony, the scream of something—a single
entity, and aware, Clay was certain of it—that had awakened from deep
sleep to find it was burning alive.
Alice shrieked and
covered her ears, her eyes bulging in the firelight.
"Take it
back!" Jordan said, grasping the Head's wrist. "Sir, we have to take
it back!"
"Too late,
Jordan," Ardai said.
24
Their knapsacks were a little plumper as they leaned against the
front door of Cheatham Lodge an hour later. There were a couple of shirts in
each one, plus bags of trail-mix, juice-boxes, and packets of Slim Jims as well
as batteries and spare flashlights. Clay had harried Tom and Alice into
sweeping their possessions together as quickly as possible, and now he was the
one who kept darting into the living room to steal looks out the big window.
The gas-jet over
there was finally starting to burn low, but the bleachers were still blazing
and so was the press box. Tonney Arch itself had caught and glared in the night
like a horseshoe in a smithy. Nothing that had been on that field could still
be alive—Alice had been right about that much, surely—but twice on their return
to the Lodge (the Head shambling like an old drunk in spite of their best
efforts to support him), they had heard those ghostly cries coming down the
wind from other flocks. Clay told himself he didn't hear anger in those cries,
it was just his imagination—his guilty imagination, his murderer's imagination,
his mass murderer's imagination—but he didn't completely believe it.
It had been a
mistake, but what else could they have done? He and Tom had felt their
gathering power just that afternoon, had seen it, and that had been only
two of them, just two. How could they have let that go on? Just let it grow?
"Damned if you
do, damned if you stand pat," he said under his breath, and turned from
the window. He didn't even know how long he'd been looking at the burning
stadium and resisted the urge to check his watch. It would be easy to give in
to the panic-rat, he was close to it now, and if he gave in, it would travel to
the others quickly. Starting with Alice. Alice had managed to get herself back
under some sort of control, but it was thin. Thin enough to read a
newspaper through, his bingo-playing mother might have said. Although a kid herself, Alice had managed
to keep herself shiny-side up mostly for the other kid's sake, so he wouldn't
give way entirely.
The other kid.
Jordan.
Clay hurried back
into the front hall, noted there was still no fourth pack by the door, and saw
Tom coming down the stairs. Alone.
"Where's the
kid?" Clay asked. His ears had started to clear a little, but his voice
still sounded too far away, and like a stranger's. He had an idea that was
going to continue for a while. "You were supposed to be helping him put
some stuff together—Ardai said he brought a pack over with him from that dorm
of his—"
"He won't
come." Tom rubbed the side of his face. He looked tired, sad, distracted.
With half his mustache gone, he looked ludicrous as well.
"What?"
"Lower your
voice, Clay. I don't make the news, I just report it."
"Then tell me
what you're talking about, for Christ's sake."
"He won't go
without the Head. He said, 'You can't make me.' And if you're really serious
about going tonight, I believe he's right."
Alice came tearing
out of the kitchen. She had washed up, tied her hair back, and put on a new
shirt—it hung almost to her knees—but her skin glowed with the same burn Clay
felt on his own. He supposed they should count themselves lucky that they
weren't popping blisters.
"Alice," he
began, "I need you to exercise your womanly powers over Jordan. He's
being—"
She steamed past as
if he hadn't spoken, fell on her knees, seized her pack, and tore it open. He
watched, perplexed, as she began to pull out the stuff inside. He looked at Tom
and saw an expression of understanding and sympathy dawning on Tom's face.
"What?"
Clay asked. "What, for chrissake?" He had felt an all too
similar exasperated annoyance toward Sharon during the last year they'd
actually lived together—had felt it often—and hated himself for having that pop
up now, of all times. But dammit, another complication was the last
thing they needed now. He ran his hands through his hair. "What?"
"Look at her
wrist," Tom said.
Clay looked. The
dirty piece of shoestring was still there, but the sneaker was gone. He felt an
absurd sinking in his stomach. Or maybe it wasn't so absurd. If it mattered to
Alice, he supposed it mattered. So what if it was just a sneaker?
The spare T-shirt and
sweatshirt she had packed (gaiten
boosters' club printed across the front) went flying. Batteries rolled.
Her spare flashlight hit the tile floor and the lens-cover cracked. That was
enough to convince Clay. This wasn't a Sharon Riddell tantrum because they were
out of hazelnut coffee or Chunky Monkey ice cream; this was unvarnished terror.
He went to Alice,
knelt beside her, and took hold of her wrists. He could feel the seconds flying
by, turning into minutes they should have been using to put this town behind
them, but he could also feel the lightning sprint of her pulse under his
fingers. And he could see her eyes. It wasn't panic in them now but agony, and
he realized she'd put everything in that sneaker: her mother and father, her
friends, Beth Nickerson and her daughter, the Tonney Field inferno, everything.
"It's not in
here!" she cried. "I thought I must have packed it, but I didn't! I
can't find it anywhere!"
"No, honey, I
know." Clay was still holding her wrists. Now he lifted the one with the
shoelace around it. "Do you see?" He waited until he was sure her
eyes had focused, then he flipped the ends beyond the knot, where there had
been a second knot.
"It's too long
now," she said. "It wasn't that long before."
Clay tried to
remember the last time he'd seen the sneaker. He told himself it was impossible
to remember a thing like that, given all that had been going on, then realized he could. Very clearly, too. It was
when she'd helped Tom pull him up after the second truck had exploded. It had
been dancing from its string then. She had been covered with blood, scraps of
cloth, and little chunks of flesh, but the sneaker had still been on her wrist.
He tried to remember if it was still there when she'd booted the burning torso
off the ramp. He didn't think so. Maybe that was hindsight, but he didn't think
so.
"It came untied,
honey," he said. "It came untied and fell off."
"I lost it?"
Her eyes, unbelieving. The first tears. "Are you sure?"
"Pretty sure,
yeah."
"It was my luck,"
she whispered, the tears spilling over.
"No," Tom
said, and put an arm around her. "We're your luck."
She looked at him.
"How do you know?"
"Because you
found us first," Tom said. "And we're still here."
She hugged them both and
they stood that way for a while, the three of them, with their arms around each
other in the hall with Alice's few possessions scattered around their feet.
25
The fire spread to a lecture building the Head identified as
Hackery Hall. Then, around four a.m., the wind dropped away and it spread no
farther. When the sun came up, the Gaiten campus stank of propane, charred
wood, and a great many burnt bodies. The bright sky of a perfect New England
morning in October was obscured by a rising column of gray-black smoke. And
Cheatham Lodge was still occupied. In the end it had been like dominoes: the
Head couldn't travel except by car, car travel was impossible, and Jordan would
not go without the Head. Nor was Ardai able to persuade him. Alice, although resigned
to the loss of her talisman, refused to go without Jordan. Tom would not go
without Alice. And Clay was loath to go without the two of them, although he
was horrified to find these newcomers in his life seemed at least temporarily
more important than his own son, and although he continued to feel certain that
they would pay a high price for what they'd done on Tonney Field if they stayed
in Gaiten, let alone at the scene of the crime.
He thought he might
feel better about that last at daybreak, but he did not.
The five of them
watched and waited at the living room window, but of course nothing came out of
the smoldering wreckage, and there was no sound but the low crackle of fire
eating deep into the Athletic Department offices and locker rooms even as it
finished off the bleachers above-ground. The thousand or so phone-crazies who
had been roosting there were, as Alice had said, crispy. The smell of
them was rich and stick-in-your-throat awful. Clay had vomited once and knew
the others had, as well— even the Head.
We made a mistake,
he thought again.
"You guys should
have gone on," Jordan said. "We would have been all right—we were
before, weren't we, sir?"
Headmaster Ardai
ignored the question. He was studying Clay. "What happened yesterday when
you and Tom were in that service station? I think something happened then to
make you look as you do now."
"Oh? How do I
look, sir?"
"Like an animal
that smells a trap. Did those two in the street see you?"
"It wasn't
exactly that," Clay said. He didn't love being called an animal, but
couldn't deny that was what he was: oxygen and food in, carbon dioxide and shit
out, pop goes the weasel.
The Head had begun to
rub restlessly at the left side of his midsection with one big hand. Like many
of his gestures, Clay thought it had an oddly theatrical quality—not exactly
phony, but meant to be seen at the back of the lecture hall. "Then what
exactly was it?"
And because
protecting the others no longer seemed like an option, Clay told the Head
exactly what they'd seen in the office of the Citgo station— a physical
struggle over a box of stale treats that had suddenly turned into something
else. He told about the fluttering papers, the ashes that had begun circling in
the ashtray like water going down a bathtub drain, the keys jingling on the
board, the nozzle that fell off the gas-pump.
"I saw
that," Jordan said, and Alice nodded.
Tom mentioned feeling
short of breath, and Clay agreed. They both tried to explain the sense of
something powerful building in the air.
Clay said it was how
things felt before a thunderstorm. Tom said the air just felt fraught, somehow.
Too heavy.
"Then he let her
take a couple of the fucking things and it all went away," Tom said.
"The ashes stopped spinning, the keys stopped jingling, that thundery
feeling went out of the air." He looked to Clay for confirmation. Clay
nodded.
Alice said, "Why
didn't you tell us this before?"
"Because it
wouldn't have changed anything," Clay said. "We were going to burn
the nest if we could, regardless."
"Yes," Tom
said.
Jordan said suddenly,
"You think the phone-crazies are turning into psionics, don't you?"
Tom said, "I
don't know what that word means, Jordan."
"People who can
move things around just by thinking about it, for one thing. Or by accident, if
their emotions get out of control. Only psionic abilities like telekinesis and
levitation—"
"Levitation?"
Alice almost barked.
Jordan paid no mind.
"—are only branches. The trunk of the psionic tree is telepathy, and
that's what you're afraid of, isn't it? The telepathy thing."
Tom's fingers went to
the place above his mouth where half of his mustache was gone and touched the reddened
skin there. "Well, the thought has crossed my mind." He paused, head
cocked. "That might be witty. I'm not sure."
Jordan ignored this,
as well. "Say that they are. Getting to be true telepaths, I mean, and not
just zombies with a flocking instinct. So what? The Gaiten Academy flock is dead,
and they died without a clue of who lit em up, because they died in
whatever passes for sleep with them, so if you're worrying that they
telepathically faxed our names and descriptions to any of their buddies in the
surrounding New England states, you can relax."
"Jordan—"
the Head began, then winced. He was still rubbing his midsection.
"Sir? Are you
all right?"
"Yes. Fetch my
Zantac from the downstairs bathroom, would you? And a bottle of the Poland
Spring water. There's a good lad."
Jordan hurried away
on the errand.
"Not an ulcer,
is it?" Tom asked.
"No," the
Head replied. "It's stress. An old . . . one cannot say friend . . .
acquaintance?"
"Your heart
okay?" Alice asked, speaking in a low voice.
"I
suppose," the Head agreed, and bared his teeth in a smile of disconcerting
jollity. "If the Zantac doesn't work, we may resuppose . . . but so far,
the Zantac always has, and one doesn't care to buy trouble when so much of it
is on sale. Ah, Jordan, thank you."
"Quite welcome,
sir." The boy handed him the glass and the pill with his usual smile.
"I think you
ought to go with them," Ardai told him after swallowing the Zantac.
"Sir, with all
respect, I'm telling you there's no way they could know, no way."
The Head looked a
question at Tom and Clay. Tom raised his hands. Clay only shrugged. He could
say what he felt right out loud, could articulate what they surely must know he
felt—we made a mistake, and staying here is compounding it—but saw no
point. Jordan's face was set and stubborn on top, scared to death just beneath.
They were not going to persuade him. And besides, it was day again. Day was their
time.
He rumpled the boy's
hair. "If you say so, Jordan. I'm going to catch some winks."
Jordan looked almost
sublimely relieved. "That sounds like a good idea. I think I will,
too."
"I'm going to
have a cup of Cheatham Lodge's world-famous tepid cocoa before I come up,"
Tom said. "And I believe I'll shave off the rest of this mustache. The
wailing and lamentation you hear will be mine."
"Can I
watch?" Alice asked. "I always wanted to watch a grown man wail and
lament."
26
Clay and Tom were sharing a small bedroom on the third floor; Alice
had been given the only other. While Clay was taking off his shoes, there was a perfunctory knock on the door, which the
Head followed without pause. Two bright spots of color burned high up on his
cheekbones. Otherwise his face was deathly pale.
"Are you all
right?" Clay asked, standing. "Is it your heart, after all?"
"I'm glad you
asked me that," the Head replied. "I wasn't entirely sure I planted
the seed, but it seems I did." He glanced back over his shoulder into the hall,
then closed the door with the tip of his cane. "Listen carefully, Mr.
Riddell—Clay—and don't ask questions unless you feel you absolutely must. I am
going to be found dead in my bed late this afternoon or early this evening, and
you will say of course it was my heart after all, that what we did last night
must have brought it on. Do you understand?"
Clay nodded. He
understood, and he bit back the automatic protest. It might have had a place in
the old world, but it had none here. He knew why the Head was proposing what he
was proposing.
"If Jordan even
suspects I may have taken my own life to free him from what he, in his boyishly
admirable way, regards as a sacred obligation, he may take his own. At the very
least he would be plunged into what the elders of my own childhood called a
black fugue. He will grieve for me deeply as it is, but that is permissible.
The thought that I committed suicide to get him out of Gaiten is not. Do you
understand that?"
"Yes," Clay
said. Then: "Sir, wait another day. What you're thinking of. . . it may
not be necessary. Could be we're going to get away with this." He didn't
believe it, and in any case Ardai meant to do what he said; all the truth Clay
needed was in the man's haggard face, tightly pressed lips, and gleaming eyes.
Still, he tried again. "Wait another day. No one may come."
"You heard those
screams," the Head replied. "That was rage. They'll come."
"Maybe,
but—"
The Head raised his
cane to forestall him. "And if they do, and if they can read our minds as
well as each other's, what will they read in yours, if yours is still here to
be read?"
Clay didn't reply,
only watched the Head's face.
"Even if they
can't read minds," the Head continued, "what do you propose? To stay
here, day after day and week after week? Until the snow flies? Until I finally expire of old age?
My own father lived to the age of ninety-seven. Meanwhile, you have a wife and
a child."
"My wife and boy
are either all right or they're not. I've made my peace with that."
This was a lie, and
perhaps Ardai saw it in Clay's face, because he smiled his unsettling smile.
"And do you believe your son has made peace with not knowing if his father
is alive, dead, or insane? After only a week?"
"That's a low blow," Clay said. His voice was not
quite steady.
"Really? I
didn't know we were fighting. In any case, there's no referee. No one here but
us chickens, as they say." The Head glanced at the closed door, then
looked back at Clay again. "The equation is very simple. You can't stay
and I can't go. It's best that Jordan go with you."
"But to put you
down like a horse with a broken leg—"
"No such
thing," the Head interrupted. "Horses do not practice euthanasia, but
people do." The door opened, Tom stepped in, and with hardly a pause for
breath the Head went on, "And have you ever considered commercial
illustration, Clay? For books, I mean?"
"My style is too
flamboyant for most of the commercial houses," Clay said. "I have done
jackets for some of the small fantasy presses like Grant and Eulalia. Some of
the Edgar Rice Burroughs Mars books."
"Barsoom!"
the Head cried, and waved his cane vigorously in the air. Then he rubbed his
solar plexus and grimaced. "Damned heartburn! Excuse me, Tom—just came up
to have a natter before lying down a bit myself."
"Not at
all," Tom said, and watched him go out. When the sound of the Head's cane
had gotten a good distance down the hall, he turned to Clay and said, "Is
he okay? He's very pale."
"I think he's
fine." He pointed at Tom's face. "I thought you were going to shave
off the other half."
"I decided
against it with Alice hanging around," Tom said. "I like her, but
about certain things she can be evil."
"That's just
paranoia."
"Thanks, Clay, I
needed that. It's only been a week and I'm already missing my analyst."
"Combined with a
persecution complex and delusions of grandeur."
Clay swung his feet
up onto one of the room's two narrow beds, put his hands behind his head, and
looked at the ceiling.
"You wish we
were out of here, don't you?" Tom asked.
"You bet I
do." He spoke in a flat and uninflected monotone.
"It'll be all
right, Clay. Really."
"So you say, but
you have a persecution complex and delusions of grandeur."
"That's
true," Tom said, "but they're balanced out by poor self-image and ego
menstruation at roughly six-week intervals. And in any case—"
"—too late now,
at least for today," Clay finished.
"That's
right."
There was actually a
kind of peace in that. Tom said something else, but Clay only caught
"Jordan thinks . . ." and then he was asleep.
27
He woke screaming, or so he thought at first; only a wild look at
the other bed, where Tom was still sleeping peacefully with something—a
washcloth, maybe—folded over his eyes convinced Clay that the scream had been
inside his head. A cry of some sort might have escaped him, but if so it hadn't
been enough to wake his roommate.
The room was
nowhere near dark—it was midafternoon—but Tom had pulled the shade before
corking off himself, and it was at least dim. Clay stayed where he was for a
moment, lying on his back, his mouth as dry as wood-shavings, his heartbeat
rapid in his chest and in his ears, where it sounded like running footsteps
muffled in velvet. Otherwise the house was dead still. They might not have made
the switchover from days to nights completely yet, but last night had been
extraordinarily exhausting, and at this moment he heard no one stirring in the
Lodge. Outside a bird called and somewhere quite distant—not in Gaiten, he
thought—a stubborn alarm kept on braying.
Had he ever had a
worse dream? Maybe one. A month or so after Johnny was born, Clay had dreamed he'd
picked the baby up from the crib to change him, and Johnny's chubby little body
had simply fallen apart in his hands like a badly put-together dummy. That one
he could understand—fear of fatherhood, fear of
fucking up. A fear he still lived with, as Headmaster Ardai had seen. What was
he to make of this one?
Whatever it meant, he
didn't want to lose it, and he knew from experience that you had to act quickly
to keep that from happening.
There was a desk in
the room, and a ballpoint pen tucked into one pocket of the jeans Clay had left
crumpled at the foot of the bed. He took the pen, crossed to the desk in his
bare feet, sat down, and opened the drawer above the kneehole. He found what he
was hoping for, a little pile of blank stationery with the heading GAITEN
ACADEMY and “A Young Mind Is A Lamp In The Darkness." on each sheet.
He took one of them and
placed it on the desk. The light was dim, but would serve. He clicked out the
tip of the ballpoint and paused for just a moment, recalling the dream as
clearly as he could.
He, Tom, Alice, and
Jordan had been lined up in the center of a playing field. Not a soccer field
like Tonney—a football field, maybe? There had been some sort of skeletal
construction in the background with a blinking red light on it. He had no idea
what it was, but he knew the field had been full of people looking at them,
people with ruined faces and ripped clothes that he recognized all too well. He
and his friends had been . . . had they been in cages? No, on platforms. And
they were cages, all the same, although there were no bars. Clay didn't
know how that could be, but it was. He was losing the details of the dream
already.
Tom was on one end of
the line. A man had walked to him, a special man, and put a hand over his head.
Clay didn't remember how the man could do that since Tom—like Alice, Jordan,
and Clay himself—had been on a platform, but he had. And he'd said, "Ecce
homo—insanus." And the crowd—thousands of them—had roared back,
"DON'T TOUCH!" in a single voice. The man had gone to Clay and
repeated this. With his hand above Alice's head the man had said, "Ecce
femina—insana." Above Jordan, "Ecce puer—insanus."
Each time the response had been the same: "DON'T TOUCH!"
Neither the man—the
host? the ringmaster?—nor the people in the crowd had opened their mouths
during this ritual. The call-and-response had been purely telepathic.
Then, letting his
right hand do all the thinking (his hand and the special corner of his brain
that ran it), Clay began to stroke an image onto the paper. The entire dream
had been terrible—the false accusation of it, the caughtness of it—but
nothing in it had been so awful as the man who had gone to each of them,
placing his open palm-down hand over their heads like an auctioneer preparing
to sell livestock at a county fair. Clay felt that if he could catch that man's
image on paper, he could catch the terror.
He had been a black
man with a noble head and an ascetic's face above a lanky, almost scrawny body.
The hair was a tight cap of dark ringlets cut open on one side by an ugly
triangular gouge. The shoulders were slight, the hips nearly nonexistent. Below
the cap of curls Clay quick-sketched the broad and handsome forehead—a
scholar's forehead. Then he marred it with another slash and shaded in the
hanging flap of skin that obscured one eyebrow. The man's left cheek had been
torn open, possibly by a bite, and the lower lip was also torn on that side,
making it droop in a tired sneer. The eyes were a problem. Clay couldn't get
them right. In the dream they had been both full of awareness yet somehow dead.
After two tries he left them and dropped to the pullover before he lost that:
the kind the kids called a hoodie (red, he
printed, with an arrow), with white block letters across the front. It had been
too big for the skinny body and a flap of material lay over the top half of the
letters, but Clay was pretty sure it said harvard.
He was starting to print that when the weeping started, soft and
muffled, from somewhere below him.
28
It was Jordan: Clay knew at once. He took one look back over his
shoulder at Tom as he pulled on his jeans, but Tom hadn't moved. Out for the
count, Clay thought. He opened the door, slipped through, and closed it
behind him.
Alice, wearing a
Gaiten Academy T-shirt as a nightgown, was sitting on the second-floor landing
with the boy cradled in her arms. Jordan's face was pressed against her
shoulder. She looked up at the sound of Clay's bare feet on the stairs and
spoke before Clay said something he might have regretted later: Is it the
Head?
"He had a bad
dream," she said.
Clay said the first
thing that came to him. At that moment it seemed vitally important. "Did you?"
Her brow creased.
Bare-legged, with her hair pulled back in a ponytail and her face sunburned as
if from a day at the beach, she looked like Jordan's eleven-year-old sister.
"What? No. I heard him crying in the hall. I guess I was waking up anyway,
and—"
"Just a
minute," Clay said. "Stay right there."
He went back to his
third-floor room and snatched his sketch off the desk. This time Tom's eyes
sprang open. He looked around with a mixture of fright and disorientation, then
fixed on Clay and relaxed. "Back to reality," he said. Then, rubbing
a hand over his face and getting up on one elbow: "Thank God. Jesus. What
time is it?"
"Tom, did you
have a dream? A bad dream?"
Tom nodded. "I
think so, yeah. I heard crying. Was that Jordan?"
"Yes. What did
you dream? Do you remember?"
"Somebody called
us insane," Tom said, and Clay felt his stomach drop. "Which we
probably are. The rest is gone. Why? Did you—"
Clay didn't wait for
any more. He hurried back out and down the stairs again. Jordan looked around
at him with a kind of dazed timidity when Clay sat down. There was no sign of
the computer whiz now; if Alice looked eleven with her ponytail and sunburn,
Jordan had regressed to nine.
"Jordan,"
Clay said. "Your dream . . . your nightmare. Do you remember it?"
"It's going away now," Jordan
said. "They had us up on stands. They were looking at us like we were . .
. I don't know, wild animals . . . only they said—"
"That we were
insane."
Jordan's eyes
widened. "Yeah!"
Clay heard footfalls
behind him as Tom came down the stairs. Clay didn't look around. He showed
Jordan his sketch. "Was this the man in charge?"
Jordan didn't answer.
He didn't have to. He winced away from the picture, grabbing for Alice and
turning his face against her chest again.
"What is
it?" Alice asked, bewildered. She reached for the sketch, but Tom took it
first.
"Christ,"
he said, and handed it back. "The dream's almost gone, but I remember the
torn cheek."
"And his
lip," Jordan said, the words muffled against Alice's chest. "The way
his lip hangs down. He was the one showing us to them. To them." He
shuddered. Alice rubbed his back, then crossed her hands over his shoulder
blades so she could hold him more tightly.
Clay put the picture
in front of Alice. "Ring any bells? Man of your dreams?"
She shook her head
and started to say no. Before she could, there was a loud, protracted rattling
and a loose series of thuds from outside Cheatham Lodge's front door. Alice
screamed. Jordan clutched her tighter, as if he would burrow into her, and
cried out. Tom clutched at Clay's shoulder. "Oh man, what the fuck—"
There was more
rattling thunder outside the door, long and loud. Alice screamed again.
"Guns!" Clay shouted. "Guns!"
For a moment they
were all paralyzed there on the sunny landing, and then another of those long,
loud rattles came, a sound like rolling bones. Tom bolted for the third floor
and Clay followed him, skidding once in his stocking feet and grabbing the
banister to regain his balance. Alice pushed Jordan away from her and ran for
her own room, the hem of the shirt fluttering around her legs, leaving Jordan
to huddle against the newel post, staring down the stairs and into the front
hall with huge wet eyes.
29
"Easy,"
Clay said. "Let's just take this easy, okay?"
The three of them
stood at the foot of the stairs not two minutes after the first of those long,
loose rattling sounds had come from beyond the front door. Tom had the unproven
Russian assault rifle they had taken to calling Sir Speedy, Alice was holding a
nine-millimeter automatic in each hand, and Clay had Beth Nickerson's .45,
which he had somehow managed to hold on to the previous night (although he had
no memory of tucking it back into his belt, where he later found it). Jordan
still huddled on the landing. Up there he couldn't see the downstairs windows,
and Clay thought that was probably a good thing.
The afternoon light in Cheatham Lodge was much dimmer than it should have been,
and that was most definitely not a good thing.
It was dimmer because
there were phone-crazies at every window they could see, crowded up to the
glass and peering in at them: dozens, maybe hundreds of those strange blank
faces, most marked by the battles they had been through and the wounds they had
suffered during the last anarchic week. Clay saw missing eyes and teeth, torn
ears, bruises, burns, scorched skin, and hanging wads of blackened flesh. They
were silent. There was a kind of haunted avidity about them, and that feeling
was back in the air, that breathless sense of some enormous, spinning power
barely held in check. Clay kept expecting to see their guns fly out of their
hands and begin to fire on their own.
At us, he
thought.
"Now I know how
the lobsters feel in the tank at Harbor Seafood on Twofer Tuesday," Tom
said in a small, tight voice.
"Just take it
easy," Clay repeated. "Let them make the first move."
But there was no
first move. There was another of those long, rattling thumps—the sound of
something being off-loaded on the front porch was what it sounded like to
Clay—and then the creatures at the windows drew back, as if at some signal only
they could hear. They did this in orderly rows. This wasn't the time of day
during which they ordinarily flocked, but things had changed. That seemed
obvious.
Clay walked to the
bay window in the living room, holding the revolver at his side. Tom and Alice
followed. They watched the phone-crazies (who no longer seemed crazy at all to
Clay, at least not in any way he understood) retreat, walking backward with
eerie, limber ease, each never losing the little envelope of space around him-
or herself. They settled to a stop between Cheatham Lodge and the smoking
remains of the Tonney soccer stadium, like some raggedy-ass army battalion on a
leaf-strewn parade ground. Every not-quite-vacant eye rested upon the
Headmaster's residence.
"Why are their
hands and feet all smudgy?" a timid voice asked. They looked around. It
was Jordan. Clay himself hadn't even noticed the soot and char on the hands of
the silent hundreds out there, but before he could say so, Jordan answered his own question.
"They went to see, didn't they? Sure. They went to see what we did to
their friends. And they're mad. I can feel it. Can you feel it?"
Clay didn't want to
say yes, but of course he could. That heavy, charged feeling in the air, that
sense of turning thunder barely contained in a net of electricity: that was
rage. He thought about Pixie Light battening on Power Suit Woman's neck and the
elderly lady who'd won the Battle of the Boylston Street T Station, the one
who'd gone striding off into Boston Common with blood dripping out of her
cropped iron-gray hair. The young man, naked except for his sneakers, who had
been jabbing a car aerial in each hand as he ran. All that rage—did he think it
had just disappeared when they started to flock? Well, think again.
"I feel
it," Tom said. "Jordan, if they've got psychic powers, why don't they
just make us kill ourselves, or each other?"
"Or make our
heads explode," Alice said. Her voice was trembling. "I saw that in
an old movie once."
"I don't
know," Jordan said. He looked up at Clay. "Where's the Raggedy
Man?"
"Is that what
you call him?" Clay looked down at his sketch, which he was still
carrying—the torn flesh, the torn sleeve of the pullover, the baggy blue jeans.
He supposed that Raggedy Man was not a bad name at all for the fellow in the
Harvard hoodie.
"I call him
trouble, is what I call him," Jordan said in a thin voice. He looked out
again at the newcomers—three hundred at least, maybe four hundred, recently
arrived from God knew which surrounding towns— and then back at Clay.
"Have you seen him?"
"Other than in a
bad dream, no."
Tom shook his head.
"To me he's just
a picture on a piece of paper," Alice said. "I didn't dream him, and
I don't see anyone in a hoodie out there. What were they doing on the soccer
field? Do they try to identify their dead, do you think?" She looked
doubtful at this. "And isn't it still hot in there? It must be."
"What are they
waiting for?" Tom asked. "If they aren't going to charge us or make
us stick kitchen knives in each other, what are they waiting for?"
Clay suddenly knew
what they were waiting for, and also where Jordan's Raggedy Man was—it was what
Mr. Devane, his high school algebra teacher, would have called an aha! moment.
He turned and headed for the front hall.
"Where are you
going?" Tom asked.
"To see what
they left us," Clay said.
They hurried after
him. Tom caught up first, while Clay's hand was still on the doorknob. "I
don't know if this is a good idea," Tom said.
"Maybe not, but
it's what they're waiting for," Clay said. "And you know what? I
think if they meant to kill us, we'd be dead already."
"He's prob'ly
right," Jordan said in a small, wan voice.
Clay opened the door.
Cheatham Lodge's long front porch, with its comfortable wicker furniture and
its view of Academy Slope rolling down to Academy Avenue, was made for sunny
autumn afternoons like this, but at that moment the ambience was the furthest
thing from Clay's mind. Standing at the foot of the steps was an arrowhead of
phone-crazies: one in front, two behind him, three behind them, then four,
five, and six. Twenty-one in all. The one in front was the Raggedy Man from
Clay's dream, his sketch come to life. The lettering on the front of the
tattered red hoodie did indeed spell out harvard.
The torn left cheek had been pulled up and secured at the side of the
nose with two clumsy white stitches that had torn teardrops in the
indifferently mended dark flesh before holding. There were rips where a third
and fourth stitch had pulled free. Clay thought the stitching might have been
done with fish-line. The sagging lip revealed teeth that looked as if they had
been seen to by a good orthodontist not long ago, when the world had been a
milder place.
In front of the door,
burying the welcome mat and spreading in both directions, was a heap of black,
misshapen objects. It could almost have been some half-mad sculptor's idea of
art. It took Clay only a moment to realize he was looking at the melted remains
of the Tonney Field flock's ghetto blasters.
Then Alice shrieked.
A few of the heat-warped boomboxes had fallen over when Clay opened the door,
and something that had very likely been balanced on top of the pile had fallen
over with them, lodging half in and half
out of the pile. She stepped forward before Clay could stop her, dropping one
of the automatic pistols and grabbing the thing she had seen. It was the
sneaker. She cradled it between her breasts.
Clay looked past her,
at Tom. Tom gazed back at him. They weren't telepathic, but in that moment they
might as well have been. Now what? Tom's eyes asked.
Clay turned his
attention back to the Raggedy Man. He wondered if you could feel your mind
being read and if his was being read right that second. He put his hands out to
the Raggedy Man. The gun was still in one of them, but neither the Raggedy Man
nor anyone in his squad seemed to feel threatened by it. Clay held his palms
up: What do you want?
The Raggedy Man
smiled. There was no humor in the smile. Clay thought he could see anger in the
dark brown eyes, but he thought it was a surface thing. Underneath there was no
spark at all, at least that he could discern. It was almost like watching a
doll smile.
The Raggedy Man
cocked his head and held up a finger—Wait. And from below them on
Academy Avenue, as if on cue, came many screams. Screams of people in mortal
agony. Accompanying them were a few guttural, predatory cries. Not many.
"What are you
doing?" Alice shouted. She stepped forward, squeezing the little sneaker
convulsively in her hand. The cords in her forearm stood out strongly enough to
make shadows like long straight pencil-strokes on her skin. "What
are you doing to the people down there?"
As if, Clay thought,
there could be any doubt.
She raised the hand
that still held a gun. Tom grabbed it and wrestled it away from her before she
could pull the trigger. She turned on him, clawing at him with her free hand.
"Give it
back, don't you hear that? Don't you hear?"
Clay pulled her away
from Tom. During all of this Jordan watched from the entryway with wide,
terrified eyes and the Raggedy Man stood at the tip of the arrow, smiling from
a face where rage underlay humor and beneath the rage was . . . nothing, as far
as Clay could tell. Nothing at all.
"Safety was on,
anyway," Tom said after a quick glance. "Thank the Lord for small
favors." And to Alice: "Do you want to get us killed?"
"Do you think
they're just going to let us go?" She was crying so hard it had
become difficult to understand her. Snot hung from her nostrils in two clear
strings. From below, on the tree-lined avenue that ran past Gaiten Academy,
there were screams and shrieks. A woman cried No, please don't please don't and
then her words were lost in a terrible howl of pain.
"I don't know
what they're going to do with us," Tom said in a voice that strove for
calm, "but if they meant to kill us, they wouldn't be doing that. Look at
him, Alice—what's going on down there is for our benefit."
There were a few
gunshots as people tried to defend themselves, but not many. Mostly there were
just screams of pain and terrible surprise, all coming from the area directly
adjacent to Gaiten Academy, where the flock had been burned. It surely didn't
last any longer than ten minutes, but sometimes, Clay thought, time really was
relative.
It seemed like hours.
30
When the screams finally stopped, Alice stood quietly between Clay
and Tom with her head lowered. She had put both automatics on a table meant for
briefcases and hats inside the front door. Jordan was holding her hand, looking
out at the Raggedy Man and his colleagues standing at the head of the walk. So
far the boy hadn't noticed the Head's absence. Clay knew he would soon, and
then the next scene of this terrible day would commence.
The Raggedy Man took
a step forward and made a little bow with his hands held out to either side, as
if to say, At your service. Then he looked up and held a hand out toward
Academy Slope and the avenue beyond. He looked at the little group clustered in
the open door behind the melted boombox sculpture as he did this. To Clay the
meaning seemed clear: The road is yours. Go on and take it.
"Maybe," he
said. "In the meantime, let's be clear on one thing. I'm sure you can wipe
us out if you choose to, you've obviously got the numbers, but unless you plan
to hang back at Command HQ, someone else is going to be in charge of things
tomorrow. Because I'll personally make sure you're the first one to go."
The Raggedy Man put
his hands to his cheeks and widened his eyes: Oh dear! The others behind
him were as expressionless as robots. Clay looked a moment longer, then gently
closed the door.
"I'm
sorry," Alice said dully. "I just couldn't stand listening to them
scream."
"It's okay,"
Tom said. "No harm done. And hey, they brought back Mr. Sneaker."
She looked at it.
"Is this how they found out it was us? Did they smell it, the way a
bloodhound smells a scent?"
"No,"
Jordan said. He was sitting in a high-backed chair beside the umbrella stand,
looking small and haggard and used-up. "That's just their way of saying
they know you. At least, that's what I think."
"Yeah,"
Clay said. "I bet they knew it was us even before they got here. Picked it
out of our dreams the way we picked his face out of our dreams."
"I didn't—"
Alice began.
"Because you
were waking up," Tom said. "You'll be hearing from him in the
fullness of time, I imagine." He paused. "If he has anything else to
say, that is. I don't understand this, Clay. We did it. We did it and
they know we did it, I'm convinced of that."
"Yes," Clay
said.
"Then why kill a
bunch of innocent pilgrims when it would have been just as easy—well, almost
as easy—to break in here and kill us? I mean, I understand the concept of
reprisals, but I don't see the point in this—"
That was when Jordan
slid off his chair and, looking around with an expression of suddenly
blossoming worry, asked: "Where's the Head?"
31
Clay caught up with Jordan, but not until the boy had made it all
the way to the second-floor landing. "Hang on, Jordan," he said.
"No,"
Jordan said. His face was whiter, shockier, than ever. His hair bushed out
around his head, and Clay supposed it was only because the boy needed a cut,
but it looked as if it were trying to stand on end. "With all the
commotion, he should have been with us! He would have been with us, if he was all right." His lips
began to tremble. "Remember the way he was rubbing himself? What if that
wasn't just his acid reflux stuff?"
"Jordan—"
Jordan paid no
attention, and Clay was willing to bet he'd forgotten all about the Raggedy Man
and his cohorts, at least for the time being. He yanked free of Clay's hand and
went running down the corridor, yelling, "Sir! Sir!" while
Heads going back to the nineteenth century frowned down at him from walls.
Clay glanced back
down the stairs. Alice was going to be no help—she was sitting at the foot of
the staircase with her head bent, staring at that fucking sneaker like it was
the skull of Yorick—but Tom started reluctantly up to the second floor.
"How bad is this going to be?" he asked Clay.
"Well . . .
Jordan thinks the Head would have joined us if he was all right and I tend to
think he's—"
Jordan began to
shriek. It was a drilling soprano sound that went through Clay's head like a
spear. It was actually Tom who got moving first; Clay was rooted at the
staircase end of the corridor for at least three and perhaps as many as seven
seconds, held there by a single thought: That's not how someone
sounds when they've found what looks like a heart attack. The old man must have
botched it somehow. Maybe used the wrong kind of pills. He was halfway down the hall when Tom cried out
in shock—"Oh my God Jordan don't look"—almost as if it were one word.
"Wait!"
Alice called from behind him, but Clay didn't. The door to the Head's little
upstairs suite was open: the study with its books and its now useless hotplate,
the bedroom beyond with the door standing open so the light streamed through.
Tom was standing in front of the desk, holding Jordan's head against his
stomach. The Head was seated behind his desk. His weight had rocked his swivel
chair back on its pivot and he seemed to be staring up at the ceiling with his
one remaining eye. His tangled white hair hung down over the chairback. To Clay
he looked like a concert pianist who had just played the final chord of a
difficult piece.
He heard Alice give a
choked cry of horror, but hardly noticed. Feeling like a passenger inside his
own body, Clay walked to the desk and looked at the sheet of paper that rested
on the blotter. Although it was stained with
blood, he could make out the words on it; the Head's cursive had been fine and
clear. Old-school to the end, Jordan might have said.
aliene geisteskrank
insano
elnebajos vansinnig fou
atamagaokashii gek dolzinnig
hullu
gila
meschuge nebun
dement
Clay spoke nothing
but English and a little high school French, but he knew well enough what this
was, and what it meant. The Raggedy Man wanted them to go, and he knew somehow
that Headmaster Ardai was too old and too arthritic to go with them. So he had
been made to sit at his desk and write the word for insane in fourteen
different languages. And when he was done, he had been made to plunge the tip
of the heavy fountain pen with which he had written into his right eye and from
there into the clever old brain behind it.
"They made him
kill himself, didn't they?" Alice asked in a breaking voice. "Why him
and not us? Why him and not us? What do they want?"
Clay thought of the
gesture the Raggedy Man had made toward Academy Avenue—Academy Avenue, which
was also New Hampshire Route 102. The phone-crazies who were no longer exactly
crazy—or were crazy in some brand-new way—wanted them on the road again. Beyond
that he had no idea, and maybe that was good. Maybe that was all for the best.
Maybe that was a mercy.
FADING
ROSES,
THIS
GARDEN'S OVER
1
There were half a dozen fine linen tablecloths in a cabinet at the
end of the back hallway, and one of these served as Headmaster Ardai's shroud.
Alice volunteered to sew it shut, then collapsed in tears when either her
needlework or her nerve did not prove equal to such finality. Tom took over,
pulling the tablecloth taut, doubling the seam, and sewing it closed in quick,
almost professional overhand strokes. Clay thought it was like watching a boxer
work an invisible light bag with his right hand.
"Don't make
jokes," Tom said without looking up. "I appreciate what you did
upstairs—I never could have done that—but I can't take a single joke right now,
not even of the inoffensive Will and Grace variety. I'm barely holding
myself together."
All right," Clay
said. Joking was the farthest thing from his mind. As for what he had done
upstairs . . . well, the pen had to be removed from the Head's eye. No way were
they going to leave that in. So Clay had taken care of it, looking away into
the corner of the room as he wrenched it free, trying not to think about what
he was doing or why it was stuck so fucking tight, and mostly he had succeeded
in not thinking, but the pen had made a grinding sound against the bone of the
old man's eyesocket when it finally let go, and there had been a loose, gobbety
plopping sound as something fell from the bent tip of the pen's steel nib onto
the blotter. He thought he would remember those sounds forever, but he had
succeeded in getting the damn thing out, and that was the important thing.
Outside, nearly a
thousand phone-crazies stood on the lawn between the smoking ruins of the soccer field and
Cheatham Lodge. They stood there most of the afternoon. Then, around five
o'clock, they flocked silently off in the direction of downtown Gaiten. Clay
and Tom carried the Head's shrouded body down the back stairs and put it on the
back porch. The four survivors gathered in the kitchen and ate the meal they
had taken to calling breakfast as the shadows began to draw long outside.
Jordan ate
surprisingly well. His color was high and his speech was animated. It consisted
of reminiscences of his life at Gaiten Academy, and the influence Headmaster
Ardai had had on the heart and mind of a friendless, introverted computer geek
from Madison, Wisconsin. The brilliant lucidity of the boy's recollections made
Clay increasingly uncomfortable, and when he caught first Alice's eyes and then
Tom's, he saw they felt the same. Jordan's mind was tottering, but it was hard
to know what to do about that; they could hardly send him to a psychiatrist.
At some point, after
full dark, Tom suggested that Jordan should rest. Jordan said he would, but not
until they had buried the Head. They could put him in the garden behind the
Lodge, he said. He told them the Head had called the little vegetable patch his
"victory garden," although he had never told Jordan why.
"That's the
place," Jordan said, smiling. His cheeks now flamed with color. His eyes,
deep in their bruised sockets, sparkled with what could have been inspiration,
good cheer, madness, or all three. "Not only is the ground soft, it's the
place he always liked the best. . . outside, I mean. So what do you say? They're
gone, they still don't come out at night, that hasn't changed, and we can
use the gas lanterns to dig by. What do you say?"
After consideration,
Tom said, "Are there shovels?"
"You bet, in the
gardening shed. We don't even need to go up to the greenhouses." And
Jordan actually laughed.
"Let's do
it," Alice said. "Let's bury him and have done with it."
"And you'll rest
afterwards," Clay said, looking at Jordan.
"Sure,
sure!" Jordan cried impatiently. He got up from his chair and began to
pace around the room. "Come on, you guys!" As if he were trying to
get up a game of tag.
So they dug the grave
in the Head's garden behind the Lodge and buried
him among the beans and tomatoes. Tom and Clay lowered the shrouded form into
the hole, which was about three feet deep. The exercise kept them warm, and
only when they stopped did they notice the night had grown cold, almost frosty.
The stars were brilliant overhead, but a heavy ground-mist was rolling up the
Slope. Academy Avenue was already submerged in that rising tide of white; only
the steeply slanted roofs of the biggest old houses down there broke its
surface.
"I wish someone
knew some good poetry," Jordan said. His cheeks were redder than ever, but
his eyes had receded into circular caves and he was shivering in spite of the
two sweaters he was wearing. His breath came out in little puffs. "The
Head loved poetry, he thought that stuff was the shit. He was . . ."
Jordan's voice, which had been strangely gay all night, finally broke. "He
was so totally old-school."
Alice folded him
against her. Jordan struggled, then gave in.
"Tell you
what," Tom said, "let's cover him up nice—cover him against the
cold—and then I'll give him some poetry. Would that be okay?"
"Do you really
know some?"
"I really do," Tom said.
"You're so
smart, Tom. Thank you." And Jordan smiled at him with weary, horrible
gratitude.
Filling in the grave
was quick, although in the end they had to borrow some earth from the garden's
nether parts to bring it up to dead level. By the time they were finished, Clay
was sweating again and he could smell himself. It had been a long time between
showers.
Alice had tried to
keep Jordan from helping, but he broke free of her and pitched in, using his
bare hands to toss earth into the hole. By the time Clay finished tamping the
ground with the flat of his spade, the boy was glassy-eyed with exhaustion, all
but reeling on his feet like a drunk.
Nevertheless, he
looked at Tom. "Go ahead. You promised." Clay almost expected
him to add, And make it good, señor, or I weel put a boolet in you, like a homicidal bandido in a Sam Peckinpah western.
Tom stepped to one
end of the grave—Clay thought it was the top, but in his weariness could no
longer remember. He could not even remember for sure if the Head's first name
had been Charles or Robert. Runners of mist curled around Tom's feet and
ankles, twined among the dead beanstalks. He
removed his baseball cap, and Alice took off hers. Clay reached for his own and
remembered he wasn't wearing one.
"That's
right!" Jordan cried. He was smiling, frantic with understanding.
"Hats off! Hats off to the Head!" He was bareheaded himself, but
mimed taking a hat off just the same—taking it off and flinging it into the air—and
Clay once more found himself fearing for the boy's sanity. "Now the poem!
Come on, Tom!"
"All
right," Tom said, "but you have to be quiet. Show respect."
Jordan laid a finger
across his lips to show he understood, and Clay saw by the brokenhearted eyes
above that upraised finger that the boy had not lost his mind yet. His friend,
but not his mind.
Clay waited, curious
to see how Tom would go on. He expected some Frost, maybe a fragment of
Shakespeare (surely the Head would have approved of Shakespeare, even if it had
only been When shall we three meet again), perhaps even a little
extemporaneous Tom McCourt. What he did not expect was what came from Tom's
mouth in low, precisely measured lines.
"Do not withhold
Your mercy from us, O Lord; may Your love and Your truth always protect us. For
troubles without numbers surround us; our sins have overtaken us and we cannot
see. Our sins are more than the hairs of our heads, and our hearts fail within
us. Be pleased, O Lord, to save us; O Lord, come quickly to help us."
Alice was holding her
sneaker and weeping at the foot of the grave. Her head was bowed. Her sobs were
quick and low.
Tom pressed on,
holding one hand out over the new grave, palm extended, fingers curled in.
"May all who seek to take our lives as this life was taken be put to shame
and confusion; may all who desire our ruin be turned back in disgrace. May
those who say to us, 'Aha, aha!' be appalled at their own shame. Here lies the
dead, dust of the earth—"
"I'm so sorry,
Head!" Jordan cried in a breaking treble voice. "I'm so sorry, it's
not right, sir, I'm so sorry you're dead—" His eyes rolled up and he
crumpled to the new grave. The mist stole its greedy white fingers over him.
Clay picked him up
and felt the pulse in Jordan's neck, strong and regular. "Just fainted.
What is it you're saying, Tom?"
Tom look flustered,
embarrassed. "A rather free adaptation of Psalm Forty. Let's take him
inside—"
"No," Clay
said. "If it's not too long, finish."
"Yes,
please," Alice said. "Finish. It's lovely. Like salve on a cut."
Tom turned and faced
the grave again. He seemed to gather himself, or perhaps he was only finding
his place. "Here lies the dead, dust of the earth, and here are we the
living, poor and needy; Lord, think of us. You are our help and our deliverer;
O my God, do not delay. Amen."
"Amen,"
Clay and Alice said together.
"Let's get the
kid inside," Tom said. "It's fucking freezing out here."
"Did you learn
that from the holy Hannahs at the First N.E. Church of Christ the
Redeemer?" Clay asked.
"Oh, yes,"
Tom said. "Many psalms by heart, good for extra desserts. I also learned
how to beg on street corners and leaflet a whole Sears parking lot in just
twenty minutes with A Million Years in Hell and Not One Drink of Water. Let's
put this kid to bed. I'm betting he'll sleep through until at least four
tomorrow afternoon and wake up feeling a hell of a lot better."
"What if that
man with the torn cheek comes and finds we're still here after he told us to
go?" Alice asked.
Clay thought that was
a good question, but not one he needed to spend a lot of time mulling over.
Either the Raggedy Man would give them another day's grace or he wouldn't. As
he took Jordan upstairs to his bed, Clay found he was too tired to care one way
or the other.
2
At around four in the morning, Alice bid Clay and Tom a foggy
goodnight and stumbled off to bed. The two men sat in the kitchen, drinking
iced tea, not talking much. There seemed nothing to say. Then, just before
dawn, another of those great groans, made ghostly by distance, rode in on the
foggy air from the northeast. It wavered like the cry of a theremin in an old
horror movie, and just as it began to fade, a much louder answering cry came
from Gaiten, where the Raggedy Man had taken his new, larger flock.
Clay and Tom
went out front, pushing aside the barrier of melted boom-boxes to get down the
porch steps. They could see nothing; the whole world was white. They stood
there awhile and went back in.
Neither the death-cry
nor the answer from Gaiten woke Alice and Jordan; they had that much to be
grateful for. Their road atlas, now bent and crumpled at the corners, was on
the kitchen counter. Tom thumbed through it and said, "That might have
come from Hooksett or Suncook. They're both good-sized towns northeast of
here—good-sized for New Hampshire, I mean. I wonder how many they got? And how
they did it."
Clay shook his head.
"I hope it was a
lot," Tom said with a thin and charmless smile. "I hope it was at
least a thousand, and that they slow-cooked them. I find myself thinking of
some restaurant chain or other that used to advertise 'broasted chicken.' Are
we going tomorrow night?"
"If the Raggedy Man lets us live through today, I guess
we ought to. Don't you think?"
"I don't see any
choice," Tom said, "but I'll tell you something, Clay— I feel like a
cow being driven down a tin chute into the slaughterhouse. I can almost smell
the blood of my little moo-brothers."
Clay had the same
feeling, but the same question recurred: If slaughtering was what they had on
their group mind, why not do it here? They could have done it yesterday
afternoon, instead of leaving melted boom-boxes and Alice's pet sneaker on the
porch.
Tom yawned.
"Turning in. Are you good for another couple of hours?"
"I could
be," Clay said. In fact, he had never felt less like sleeping. His body
was exhausted but his mind kept turning and turning. It would begin to settle a
bit, and then he'd recall the sound the pen had made coming out of the Head's
eyesocket: the low squall of metal against bone. "Why?"
"Because if they
decide to kill us today, I'd rather go my way than theirs," Tom said.
"I've seen theirs. You agree?"
Clay thought that if
the collective mind which the Raggedy Man represented had really made the Head
stick a fountain pen in his eye, the four remaining residents of Cheatham Lodge
might find that suicide was no longer among their options. That was no thought
to send Tom to bed on, however. So he nodded.
"I'll take all
the guns upstairs. You've got that big old .45, right?"
"The Beth
Nickerson special. Right."
"Good night,
then. And if you see them coming—or feel them coming—give a yell."
Tom paused. "If you have time, that is. And if they let you."
Clay watched Tom
leave the kitchen, thinking Tom had been ahead of him all the time. Thinking
how much he liked Tom. Thinking he'd like to get to know him better. Thinking
the chances of that weren't good. And Johnny and Sharon? They had never seemed
so far away.
3
At eight o'clock that morning, Clay sat on a bench at one end of
the Head's victory garden, telling himself that if he weren't so tired, he'd
get up off his dead ass and make the old fellow some sort of marker. It
wouldn't last long, but the guy deserved it for taking care of his last pupil,
if for nothing else. The thing was, he didn't even know if he could get up,
totter into the house, and wake Tom to stand a watch.
Soon they would have
a chilly, beautiful autumn day—one made for apple-picking, cider-making, and
touch-football games in the backyard. For now the fog was still thick, but the
morning sun shone strongly through it, turning the tiny world in which Clay sat
to a dazzling white. Fine suspended droplets hung in the air, and hundreds of
tiny rainbow wheels circulated in front of his heavy eyes.
Something red
materialized out of this burning whiteness. For a moment the Raggedy Man's
hoodie seemed to float by itself, and then, as it came up the garden toward
Clay, its occupant's dark brown face and hands materialized above and below it.
This morning the hood was up, framing the smiling disfigurement of the face and
those dead-alive eyes.
Broad scholar's
forehead, marred with a slash.
Filthy,
shapeless jeans, torn at the pockets and worn more than a week now.
HARVARD across the
narrow chest.
Beth Nickerson's .45
was in the side-holster on his belt. Clay didn't even touch it. The Raggedy Man
stopped about ten feet from him. He—it—was standing on the Head's grave, and
Clay believed that was no accident. "What do you want?" he asked the
Raggedy Man, and immediately answered himself: "To. Tell you."
He sat staring at the Raggedy Man, mute
with surprise. He had expected telepathy or nothing. The Raggedy Man
grinned—insofar as he could grin, with that badly split lower lip—and spread
his hands as if to say Shucks, 't'warn't nuthin.
"Say what you
have to say, then," Clay told him, and tried to prepare for having his
voice hijacked a second time. He discovered it was a thing you couldn't prepare
for. It was like being turned into a grinning piece of wood sitting on a
ventriloquist's knee.
"Go.
Tonight." Clay concentrated and said, "Shut up, stop it!"
The Raggedy Man
waited, the picture of patience.
"I think I can
keep you out if I try hard," Clay said. "I'm not sure, but I think I
can."
The Raggedy Man
waited, his face saying Are you done yet?
"Go ahead,"
Clay said, and then said, "I could bring. More. I came. Alone."
Clay considered the
idea of the Raggedy Man's will joined to that of an entire flock and conceded
the point.
"Go. Tonight.
North." Clay waited, and when he was sure the Raggedy Man was done with
his voice for the time being, he said, "Where? Why?"
There were no words
this time, but an image suddenly rose before him. It was so clear that he
didn't know if it was in his mind or if the Raggedy Man had somehow conjured it
on the brilliant screen of the mist. It was what they had seen scrawled in the
middle of Academy Avenue in pink chalk:
KASHWAK=NO-FO
"I don't get
it," he said.
But the Raggedy Man
was walking away. Clay saw his red hoodie for a moment, once again seeming to
float unoccupied against the brilliant mist; then that was gone, too. Clay was
left with only the thin consolation of
knowing that they had been going north anyway, and that they had been given
another day's grace. Which meant there was no need to stand a watch. He decided
to go to bed and let the others sleep through, as well.
4
Jordan awoke in his right mind, but his nervy brilliance had
departed. He nibbled at half a rock-hard bagel and listened dully as Clay
recounted his meeting with the Raggedy Man that morning. When Clay finished,
Jordan got their road atlas, consulted the index at the back, and then opened
it to the western Maine page. "There," he said, pointing to a town
above Fryeburg. "This is Kashwak here, to the east, and Little Kashwak to
the west, almost on the Maine-New Hampshire state line. I knew I recognized the
name. Because of the lake." He tapped it. "Almost as big as
Sebago."
Alice leaned
closer to read the name on the lake. "Kash . . . Kashwaka-mak, I guess it
is."
"It's in an
unincorporated area called TR-90," Jordan said. He tapped this on the map,
also. "Once you know that, Kashwak Equals No-Fo is sort of a no-brainer,
wouldn't you say?"
"It's a dead
zone, right?" Tom said. "No cell phone towers, no microwave
towers."
Jordan gave him a wan
smile. "Well, I imagine there are plenty of people with satellite dishes,
but otherwise . . . bingo."
"I don't get
it," Alice said. "Why would they want to send us to a no-cell zone
where everyone should be more or less all right?"
"Might as well
ask why they let us live in the first place," Tom said.
"Maybe they want
to turn us into living guided missiles and use us to bomb the joint,"
Jordan said. "Get rid of us and them. Two birds with one
stone."
They considered this
in silence for a moment.
"Let's go and
find out," Alice said, "but I'm not bombing anybody."
Jordan eyed her
bleakly. "You saw what they did to the Head. If it comes right down to it,
do you think you'll have any choice?"
5
There were still shoes on most of the stoops across from the
fieldstone pillars marking the entrance to Gaiten Academy, but the doors of the
nice-looking homes either stood open or had been torn off their hinges. A few
of the dead they saw littered on those lawns as they once more began their trek
north were phone-crazies, but most had been innocent pilgrims who had happened
to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. They were the ones with no shoes on
their feet, but there was really no need to look as far as their feet; many of
the reprisal victims had literally been torn limb from limb.
Beyond the
school, where Academy Avenue once more became Route 102, there was carnage on
both sides for half a mile. Alice walked with her eyes resolutely closed,
allowing Tom to lead her as if she were blind. Clay offered to do the same for
Jordan, but he only shook his head and walked stolidly up the centerline, a
skinny kid with a pack on his back and too much hair on his head. After a few
cursory glances at the kill-off, he looked down at his sneakers.
"There are
hundreds," Tom said once. It was eight o'clock and full dark, but they
could still see far more than they wanted to. Lying curled around a stop-sign
at the corner of Academy and Spofford was a girl in red pants and a white
sailor blouse. She looked no more than nine, and she was shoeless. Twenty yards
away stood the open door of the house from which she had probably been dragged,
screaming for mercy. "Hundreds."
"Maybe not that
many," Clay said. "Some of our kind were armed. They shot quite a few
of the bastards. Knifed a few more. I even saw one with an arrow sticking out
of his—"
"We caused this,"
Tom said. "Do you think we have a kind anymore?"
This question was
answered while they were eating their cold lunch at a roadside picnic spot four
hours later. By then they were on Route 156, and according to the sign, this
was a Scenic Turnout, offering a view of Historic Flint Hill to the west. Clay
imagined the view was good, if you were eating lunch here at noon rather than
midnight, with gas lanterns at either end of your picnic table to see by.
They had reached the
dessert course—stale Oreos—when a party of half a dozen came toiling along, all of them older folks. Three were
pushing shopping carts full of supplies and all were armed. These were the
first other travelers they had seen since setting out again.
"Hey!" Tom
called, giving them a wave. "Got another picnic table over here, if you
want to sit a spell!"
They looked over. The
older of the two women in the party, a grandmotherly type with lots of white,
fluffy hair that shone in the starlight, started to wave. Then she stopped.
"That's
them," one of the men said, and Clay did not mistake either the loathing
or the fear in the man's voice. "That's the Gaiten bunch."
One of the other men
said, "Go to hell, buddy." They kept on walking, even moving a little
faster, although the grandmotherly type was limping, and the man beside her had
to help her past a Subaru that had locked bumpers with somebody's abandoned
Saturn.
Alice jumped up,
almost knocking over one of the lanterns. Clay grabbed her arm. "Don't
bother, kiddo."
She ignored him.
"At least we did something?' she shouted after them. "What did
you do? Just what the fuck did you do?"
"Tell you what
we didn't do," one of the men said. The little group was past the scenic
turnout now, and he had to look back over his shoulder to talk to her. He could
do this because the road was free of abandoned vehicles for a couple of hundred
yards here. "We didn't get a bunch of normies killed. There are more of
them than us, in case you didn't notice—"
"Oh bullshit,
you don't know if that's true!" Jordan shouted. Clay realized it was the
first time the kid had spoken since they'd passed the Gaiten town limits.
"Maybe it is and
maybe it isn't," the man said, "but they can do some very weird and
powerful shit. You gotta buy that for a dollar. They say they'll leave
us alone if we leave them alone . . . and you alone. We say fine."
"If you believe
anything they say—or think at you—then you're an idiot," Alice
said.
The man faced
forward, raised his hand in the air, shook it in a combined fuck-off/bye-bye
gesture, and said no more.
The four of them
watched the shopping-cart people out of sight, then gazed at each other across
the picnic table with its intaglios of old initials.
"So now we
know," Tom said. "We're outcasts."
"Maybe not if
the phone people want us to go where the rest of the— what did he call
them?—the rest of the normies are going," Clay said. "Maybe we're
something else."
"What?"
Alice asked.
Clay had an idea, but
he didn't like to put it into words. Not at midnight. "Right now I'm more
interested in Kent Pond," he said. "I want—I need to see if I
can find my wife and son."
"It's not very
likely that they're still there, is it?" Tom asked in his low, kind voice.
"I mean, no matter which way things went for them, normal or phoner,
they've probably moved on."
"If they're all
right, they will have left word," Clay said. "In any case, it's a
place to go."
And until they got
there and that part of it was done, he wouldn't have to consider why the
Raggedy Man would send them to a place of safety if the people there hated and
feared them.
Or how, if the phone
people knew about it, Kashwak No-Fo could be safe at all.
6
They were edging slowly east toward Route 19, a highway that would
take them across the state line and into Maine, but they didn't make it that
night. All the roads in this part of New Hampshire seemed to pass through the
small city of Rochester, and Rochester had burned to the ground. The fire's
core was still alive, putting out an almost radioactive glow. Alice took over,
leading them around the worst of the fiery ruins in a half-circle to the west.
Several times they saw KASHWAK=NO-FO scrawled on the sidewalks; once
spray-painted on the side of a U.S. mailbox.
"That's
a bazillion-dollar fine and life in prison at Guantanamo Bay," Tom said
with a wan smile.
Their course
eventually took them through the vast parking lot of the Rochester Mall. Long before they reached
it, they could hear the over-amplified sound of an uninspired New Age jazz trio
playing the sort of stuff Clay thought of as music to shop by. The parking lot
was buried in drifts of moldering trash; the remaining cars stood up to their
hubcaps in litter. They could smell the blown and fleshy reek of dead bodies on
the breeze.
"Flock here
somewhere," Tom commented.
It was in the
cemetery next to the mall. Their course was going to take them south and west
of it, but when they left the mall parking lot, they were close enough to see
the red eyes of the boomboxes through the trees.
"Maybe we ought
to do em up," Alice proposed suddenly as they stepped back onto North Main
Street. "There must be a propane truck that isn't working around here
somewhere."
"Yeah,
baby!" Jordan said. He raised his fists to the sides of his head and shook
them, looking really alive for the first time since leaving Cheatham Lodge.
"For the Head!"
"I think
not," Tom said.
"Afraid of
trying their patience?" Clay asked. He was surprised to find himself
actually sort of in favor of Alice's crazy idea. That torching another flock was
a crazy idea he had no doubt, but . . .
He thought, I
might do it just became that's the absolute worst version of
"Misty" I've ever heard in my life. Twist my fuckin arm.
"Not that,"
Tom said. He seemed to be thinking. "Do you see that street there?"
He was pointing to an avenue that ran between the mall and the cemetery. It was
choked with stalled cars. Almost all of them were pointed away from the mall.
Clay found it all too easy to imagine those cars full of people trying to get
home after the Pulse. People who would want to know what was happening, and
if their families were all right. They would have reached for their car phones,
their cell phones, without a second thought.
"What about
it?" he asked.
"Let us stroll
down there a little way," Tom said. "Very carefully."
"What did you
see, Tom?"
"I'd rather not
say. Maybe nothing. Keep off the sidewalk, stay under the trees. And that was
one hell of a traffic jam. There'll be bodies."
There were dozens
rotting their way back into the great scheme of things between Twombley Street and the West Side Cemetery.
"Misty" had given way to a cough-syrup rendition of "I Left My
Heart in San Francisco" by the time they reached the edge of the trees,
and they could again see the red eyes of the boombox power lamps. Then Clay saw
something else and stopped. "Jesus," he whispered. Tom nodded.
"What?"
Jordan whispered. "What?"
Alice said nothing,
but Clay could tell by the direction she was looking and the defeated slump of
her shoulders that she'd seen what he had. There were men with rifles standing
a perimeter guard around the cemetery. Clay took Jordan's head, turned it, and
saw the boy's shoulders also slump.
"Let's go,"
the kid whispered. "The smell's making me sick."
7
In Melrose Corner, about four miles north of Rochester (they could
still see its red glow waxing and waning on the southern horizon), they came to
another picnic area, this one with a little stone firepit as well as picnic
tables. Clay, Tom, and Jordan picked up dry wood. Alice, who claimed to have
been a Girl Scout, proved her skills by making a neat little fire and then
heating three cans of what she called "hobo beans." As they ate, two
little parties of pilgrims passed them by. Both looked; no one in either group
waved or spoke.
When the wolf in his
belly had quieted a little, Clay said, "You saw those guys, Tom? All the
way from the mall parking lot? I'm thinking of changing your name to
Hawkeye."
Tom shook his head.
"It was pure luck. That and the light from Rochester. You know, the
embers?"
Clay nodded. They all
did.
"I happened to
look over at that cemetery at just the right time and the right angle and saw
the shine on a couple of rifle-barrels. I told myself it couldn't be what it
looked like, that it was probably iron fence-palings, or something, but. .
." Tom sighed, looked at the rest of his beans, then put them aside.
"There you have it."
"They
were phone-crazies, maybe," Jordan said, but he didn't believe it. Clay
could hear it in his voice.
"Phone-crazies
don't do the night shift," Alice said.
"Maybe they need
less sleep now," Jordan said. "Maybe that's part of their new
programming."
Hearing him talk that
way, as if the phone people were organic computers in some kind of upload
cycle, never failed to give Clay a chill.
"They don't do
rifles, either, Jordan," Tom said. "They don't need them."
"So now they've
got a few collaborators taking care of them while they get their beauty
rest," Alice said. There was brittle contempt on top of her voice, tears
just beneath. "I hope they rot in hell."
Clay said nothing,
but he found himself thinking of the people they had met earlier that night,
the ones with the shopping carts—the fear and loathing in the voice of the man
who had called them the Gaiten bunch. He might as well have called us the
Dillinger gang, Clay thought. And then he thought, I don't think
of them as the phone-crazies anymore; now I think of them as the phone-people.
Why is that? The thought that followed was even more uncomfortable: When
does a collaborator stop being a collaborator? The answer, it seemed to him, was when the
collaborators became the clear majority. Then the ones who weren't collaborators
became . . .
Well, if you
were a romantic, you called those people "the underground." If you
weren't a romantic, you called them fugitives.
Or maybe just
criminals.
They pushed on to the
village of Hayes Station and stayed the night at a tumbledown motel called
Whispering Pines. It was within sight of a sign reading ROUTE 19, 7 MI SANFORD
THE BERWICKS KENT POND. They didn't leave their shoes outside the doors of
the units they chose.
There no longer
seemed any need of that.
8
He was standing on a platform in the middle of that damned field
again, somehow immobilized, the object of every eye. On the horizon was the
skeletal shape with the blinking red light on top. The place was bigger than
Foxboro. His friends were lined up with him, but now they weren't alone.
Similar platforms ran the length of the open area. On Tom's left stood a
pregnant woman in a Harley-Davidson T-shirt with cutoff sleeves. On Clay's
right was an elderly gent—not in the Head's league, but getting there—with
graying hair pulled back in a ponytail and a frightened frown on his horsey,
intelligent face. Beyond him was a younger man wearing a battered Miami Dolphins
cap.
Clay saw
people that he knew among the thousands and wasn't surprised—wasn't that how
things always went in dreams? One minute you were phone-booth-cramming with
your first-grade teacher; a minute later you were making out with all three
members of Destiny's Child on the observation deck of the Empire State
Building.
Destiny's Child
wasn't in this dream, but Clay saw the naked young man who had been jabbing the
car aerials (now dressed in chinos and a clean white T-shirt), and the guy with
the packsack who had called Alice little ma'am, and the limping grandmotherly
type. She pointed to Clay and his friends, who were more or less on the
fifty-yard line, then spoke to the woman next to her . . . who was, Clay
observed without surprise, Mr. Scottoni's pregnant daughter-in-law. That's
the Gaiten bunch, the limping grandmotherly type said, and Mr. Scottoni's
pregnant daughter-in-law lifted her full upper lip in a sneer.
Help me! called
the woman on the platform next to Tom's. It was Mr. Scottoni's daughter-in-law
she was calling to. I want to have my baby the same as you!
Help me!
You should have
thought of that while there was still time, Mr. Scottoni's daughter-in-law replied, and Clay
realized, as he had in the other dream, that no one was actually talking. This
was telepathy.
The Raggedy Man began
making his way up the line, putting a hand over the head of each person he came
to. He did this as Tom had over the Head's grave: palm extended, fingers curled
in. Clay could see some sort of ID bracelet
flashing on the Raggedy Man's wrist, maybe one of those medical-alert things,
and realized there was power here—the light-towers were blazing. He saw
something else, as well. The reason the Raggedy Man could reach above their
heads even though they were standing on platforms was because the Raggedy Man
wasn't on the ground. He was walking, but on four feet of thin air.
"Ecce homo—insanus,"
he said. "Ecce femina—insana." And each time the crowd roared back "DON'T
TOUCH!" in a single voice, both the phone-people and the normies.
Because now there was no difference. In Clay's dream they were the same.
He awoke in the late
afternoon, huddled in a ball and clutching a flat motel pillow. He went outside
and saw Alice and Jordan sitting on the curb between the parking lot and the
units. Alice had her arm around Jordan. His head was on her shoulder and his
arm was around her waist. His hair was sticking up in back. Clay sat down with
them. Beyond them, the highway leading to Route 19 and Maine was deserted
except for a Federal Express truck sitting dead on the white line with its back
doors standing open, and a crashed motorcycle.
Clay sat down with
them. "Did you—"
"Ecce puer,
insanus," Jordan said, without lifting his head from Alice's shoulder.
"That's me."
"And I'm the
femina," Alice said. "Clay, is there some sort of humongous
football stadium in Kashwak? Because if there is, I'm not going near the
place."
A door closed behind
them. Footsteps approached. "Me either," Tom said, sitting down with
them. "I have many issues—I'd be the first to admit it—but a death-wish
has never been one of them."
"I'm not
positive, but I don't think there's much more than an elementary school up
there," Clay said. "The high school kids probably get bused to
Tashmore."
"It's a virtual
stadium," Jordan said.
"Huh?" Tom
said. "You mean like in a computer game?"
"I mean like in
a computer." Jordan lifted his head, still staring at the empty road
leading to Sanford, the Berwicks, and Kent Pond. "Never mind that, I don't
care about that. If they won't touch us—the phone-people, the normal people—who
will touch us?" Clay had never seen such adult pain in a child's eyes.
"Who will touch us?"
No one answered.
"Will the
Raggedy Man touch us?" Jordan asked, his voice rising a little. "Will
the Raggedy Man touch us? Maybe. Because he's watching, I feel him
watching."
"Jordan, you're
getting carried away," Clay said, but the idea had a certain weird interior
logic. If they were being sent this dream—the dream of the platforms—then maybe
he was watching. You didn't mail a letter if you didn't have an address.
"I don't want to
go to Kashwak," Alice said. "I don't care if it's a no-phone zone or
not. I'd rather go to . . . to Idaho."
"I'm going to
Kent Pond before I go to Kashwak or Idaho or anywhere," Clay said. "I
can be there in two nights' walk. I wish you guys would come, but if you don't
want to—or can't—I'll understand."
"The man needs
closure, let's get him some," Tom said. "After that, we can figure
out what comes next. Unless someone's got another idea."
No one did.
10
Route 19 was totally clear on both sides for short stretches,
sometimes up to a quarter of a mile, and that encouraged sprinters. This was
the term Jordan coined for the semi-suicidal dragsters who would go roaring
past at high speeds, usually in the middle of the road, always with their high
beams glaring.
Clay and the
others would see the approaching lights and get off the pavement in a hurry,
right off the shoulder and into the weeds if they had spotted wrecks or stalls
up ahead. Jordan took to calling these "sprinter-reefs." The sprinter
would blow past, the people inside frequently whooping (and almost certainly
liquored up). If there was only one stall—a small sprinter-reef—the driver
would most likely elect to weave around it. If the road was completely blocked,
he might still try to go around, but he and his passengers were more apt to
simply abandon their vehicle and resume their eastward course on foot until
they found something else that looked worth sprinting in—which was to say,
something fast and temporarily amusing. Clay imagined their course as a series
of jerks . . . but then, most of the sprinters were jerks, just one more pain
in the ass in what had become a pain-in-the-ass world. That seemed true of
Gunner, as well.
He was the fourth
sprinter of their first night on Highway 19, spotting them standing at the side
of the road in the flare of his headlights. Spotting Alice. He leaned
out, dark hair streaming back from his face, and yelled "Suck my rod,
you teenybop bitch!" as he slammed by in a black Cadillac Escalade.
His passengers cheered and waved. Someone shouted "Tell huh!" To
Clay it sounded like absolute ecstasy expressed in a South Boston accent.
"Charming"
was Alice's only comment.
"Some people
have no—" Tom began, but before he could tell them what some people didn't
have, there was a scream of tires from the dark not far ahead, followed by a
loud, hollow bang and the tinkle of glass.
"]esus-fuck,"
Clay said, and began to run. Before he had gotten twenty yards, Alice blew
past him. "Slow down, they might be dangerous!" he shouted.
Alice held up one of
the automatic pistols so Clay could see it and ran on, soon outdistancing him
completely.
Tom caught up with
Clay, already working for breath. Jordan, running beside him, could have been
in a rocking chair.
"What . . . are
we going . . . to do . . . if they're badly hurt?" Tom asked.
"Call... an ambulance?"
"I don't
know," Clay said, but he was thinking of how Alice had held up one of the
automatic pistols. He knew.
11
They caught up with her around the next curve of the highway. She
was standing behind the Escalade. It was lying on its side with the airbags
deployed. The tale of the accident wasn't hard to read. The Escalade had come steaming around the blind curve at
maybe sixty miles an hour and had encountered an abandoned milk tanker dead
ahead. The driver, jerk or not, had done well to avoid being totaled. He was
walking around the battered SUV in a dazed circle, pushing his hair away from
his face. Blood gushed from his nose and a cut in his forehead. Clay walked to
the Escalade, sneakers gritting on pebbles of Saf-T-Glas, and looked inside. It
was empty. He shone his light around and saw blood on the steering wheel,
nowhere else. The passengers had been lively enough to exit the wreck, and all
but one had fled the scene, probably out of simple reflex. The one who had
stuck with the driver was a shrimpy little postadolescent with bad acne scars,
buck teeth, and long, dirty red hair. His steady line of jabber reminded Clay
of the little dog who idolized Spike in the Warner Bros, cartoons.
"Ah you all
right, Gunnah?" he asked. Clay presumed this was how you pronounced Gunner
in Southie. "Holy shit, you're bleedin like a mutha. Fuckin-A, I
thought we was dead." Then, to Clay: "Whuttajw lookin at?"
"Shut up,"
Clay said—and, under the circumstances, not unkindly. The redhead pointed at
Clay, then turned to his bleeding friend. "This is one of em, Gunnah! This
is a bunch of em!"
"Shut up,
Harold," Gunner said. Not kindly at all. Then he looked at Clay, Tom,
Alice, and Jordan.
"Let me do
something about your forehead," Alice said. She had reholstered her gun
and taken off her pack. Now she was rummaging through it. "I've got
Band-Aids and gauze pads. Also hydrogen peroxide, which will sting, but better
a little sting than an infection, am I right?"
"Considering
what this young man called you on his way by, you're a better Christian than I
was in my prime," Tom said. He had unslung Sir Speedy and was holding it
by the strap as he looked at Gunner and Harold.
Gunner might have been twenty-five. His
long black rock-vocalist hair was now matted with blood. He looked at the milk
tanker, then at the Escalade, then at Alice, who had a gauze pad in one hand
and the bottle of hydrogen peroxide in the other.
"Tommy and Frito
and that guy who was always pickin his nose, they took off," the redheaded shrimp was saying. He expanded what
chest he had. "But I stuck around, Gunnah! Holy fuck, buddy, you're
bleedin like a pig."
Alice put hydrogen
peroxide on the gauze pad, then took a step toward Gunner. He immediately took
a step back. "Get away from me. You're poison."
"It's them!"
the redhead cried. "From the dreams! What'd I tellya?"
"Keep away from
me," Gunner said. "Fuckin bitch. Alla ya."
Clay felt a sudden urge to shoot him and
wasn't surprised. Gunner looked and acted like a dangerous dog backed into a
corner, teeth bared and ready to bite, and wasn't that what you did to
dangerous dogs when there was no other recourse? Didn't you shoot them? But of
course they did have recourse, and if Alice could play Good Samaritan to
the scumbag who had called her a teenybop bitch, he guessed he could refrain
from executing him. But there was something he wanted to find out before he let
these two charming fellows go their way.
"These
dreams," he said. "Do you have a . . . I don't know . . . a kind of
spirit guide in them? A guy in a red hoodie, let's say?"
Gunner shrugged. Tore
a piece off his shirt and used it to mop the blood on his face. He was coming
back a little now, seemed a little more aware of what had happened.
"Harvard, yeah. Right, Harold?"
The little redhead
nodded. "Yeah. Harvard. The black guy. But they ain't dreams. If you don't
know, it ain't no fuckin good telling ya. They're fuckin broadcasts. Broadcasts
in our sleep. If you don't get em, it's because you're poison. Ain't they,
Gunnah?"
"You guys fucked
up bigtime," Gunner said in a brooding voice, and mopped his forehead.
"Don't you touch me."
"We're gonna
have our own place," Harold said. "Ain't we, Gunnah? Up Maine, fuckin
right. Everyone who didn't get Pulsed is goin there, and we're gonna be left
alone. Hunt, fish, live off the fuckin land. Harvard says so."
"And you believe
him?" Alice said. She sounded fascinated.
Gunner raised a
finger that shook slightly. "Shut your mouth, bitch."
"I think you
better shut yours," Jordan said. "We've got the guns."
"You better not
even think about shootin us!" Harold said shrilly. "Whatcha think
Harvard would do to you if you shot us, you fuckin punkass shorty?"
"Nothing,"
Clay said.
"You
don't—" Gunner began, but before he could get any further, Clay
took a step forward and pistol-whipped him across the jaw with Beth Nickerson's
.45. The sight at the end of the barrel opened a fresh cut along Gunner's jaw,
but Clay hoped that in the end this might prove better medicine than the
hydrogen peroxide the man had refused. In this he proved wrong.
Gunner fell back
against the side of the abandoned milk tanker, looking at Clay with shocked
eyes. Harold took an impulsive step forward. Tom trained Sir Speedy on him and
gave his head a single forbidding shake. Harold shrank back and began to gnaw
the ends of his dirty fingers. Above them his eyes were huge and wet.
"We're going
now," Clay said. "I'd advise you stay here at least an hour, because
you really don't want to see us again. We're leaving you your lives as a gift.
If we see you again, we'll take them away." He backed toward Tom and the
others, still staring into that glowering, unbelieving bloody face. He felt a
little like the old-time lion-tamer Frank Buck, trying to do it all by pure
force of will. "One more thing. I don't know why the phone-people want all
the 'normies' in Kashwak, but I know what a roundup usually means for the
cattle. You might think about that the next time you're getting one of your
nightly podcasts."
"Fuck you,"
Gunner said, but broke his eyelock with Clay and gazed down at his shoes.
"Come on,
Clay," Tom said. "Let's go."
"Don't let us
see you again, Gunner," Clay said, but they did.
12
Gunner and Harold must have gotten ahead of them somehow, maybe by
taking a chance and traveling five or ten daylight miles while Clay, Tom, Alice,
and Jordan were sleeping in the State Line Motel, which was about two hundred
yards into Maine. The pair might have laid up in the Salmon Falls rest area, Gunner hiding his
new ride among the half a dozen or so cars that had been abandoned there. It didn't
really matter. What mattered was they got ahead of them, waited for them to go
by, and then pounced.
Clay barely
registered the approaching sound of the engine or Jordan's comment—"Here
comes a sprinter." This was his home turf, and as they passed each
familiar landmark—the Freneau Lobster Pound two miles east of the State Line
Motel, Shaky's Tastee Freeze across from it, the statue of General Joshua
Chamberlain in the tiny Turnbull town square—he felt more and more like a man
having a vivid dream. He didn't realize how little he'd expected to ever reach
home again until he saw the big plastic sof-serv cone towering over Shaky's—it
looked both prosaic and as exotic as something from a lunatic's nightmare,
hulking its curled tip against the stars.
"Road's pretty
littered for a sprinter," Alice commented.
They walked to the
side of the road as headlights brightened on the hill behind them. An
overturned pickup truck was lying on the white line. Clay thought there was a
good chance the oncoming vehicle would ram it, but the headlights swerved to
the left only an instant after they cleared the hilltop; the sprinter avoided
the pickup easily, running on the shoulder for a few seconds before regaining
the road. Clay surmised later that Gunner and Harold must have gone over this
stretch, mapping the sprinter-reefs carefully.
They stood watching,
Clay closest to the approaching lights, Alice standing next to him on his left.
On her left were Tom and Jordan. Tom had his arm slung casually around Jordan's
shoulders.
"Boy, he's
really comin," Jordan said. There was no alarm in his voice; it was just a
remark. Clay felt no alarm, either. He had no premonition of what was going to
happen. He had forgotten all about Gunner and Harold.
There was a sports car of some sort, maybe an
MG, parked half on and half off the road fifty feet or so west of where they
were standing. Harold, who was driving the sprinter vehicle, swerved to avoid
it. Just a minor swerve, but perhaps it threw Gunner's aim off. Or perhaps not.
Perhaps Clay had never been his target. Perhaps it was Alice he'd meant to hit
all along.
Tonight they were in
a nondescript Chevrolet sedan. Gunner was kneeling on the backseat, out the
window to his waist, holding a ragged chunk of cinderblock in his hands. He
gave an inarticulate cry that could have come directly from a balloon in one of
the comic books Clay had drawn as a freelance—"Yahhhhbh!"—and
threw the block. It flew a short and lethal course through the dark and struck
Alice in the side of the head. Clay never forgot the sound it made. The
flashlight she had been holding—which would have made her a perfect target,
although they had all been holding them—tumbled from her relaxing hand and
sprayed a cone of light across the macadam, picking out pebbles and a piece of
tail-light glass that glinted like a fake ruby.
Clay fell on his
knees beside her, calling her name, but he couldn't hear himself in the sudden
roar of Sir Speedy, which was finally getting a trial. Muzzle-flashes strobed
the dark, and by their glare he could see blood pouring down the left side of
her face—oh God, what face—in a torrent.
Then the gunfire stopped. Tom was screaming "The barrel
pulled up, I couldn't hold it down, I think I shot the whole fucking
clip into the sky" and Jordan
was screaming "Is she hurt, did he get her" and Clay thought
of how she had offered to put hydrogen peroxide on Gunner's forehead and then bandage it. Better
a little sting than an infection, am I right? she had said, and he had to stop the bleeding. He had to
stop it right now. He stripped off the jacket he was wearing, then the
sweater beneath. He would use the sweater, wrap it around her head like a
fucking turban.
Tom's roving
flashlight happened on the cinderblock and stopped. It was matted with gore and
hair. Jordan saw it and began to shriek. Clay, panting and sweating madly in
spite of the chilly evening air, began to wrap the sweater around Alice's head.
It soaked through immediately. His hands felt like they were wearing warm wet
gloves. Now Tom's light found Alice, her head wrapped in a sweater down to the
nose so that she looked like a prisoner of Islamic extremists in an Internet
photo, her cheek (the remains of her cheek) and her neck drowned in blood,
and he also began to scream.
Help me, Clay wanted to
say. Stop that, both of you, and help me with her. But his voice wouldn't come out and all he
could do was press the sopping sweater against the spongy side of her head,
remembering that she had been bleeding when
they had first met her, thinking she had been okay that time, she had been okay
then.
Her hands were
twitching aimlessly, the fingers kicking up little sprays of roadside dirt. Somebody
give her that sneaker of hers, Clay thought, but the sneaker was in her
pack and she was lying on her pack. Lying there with the side of her head
crushed in by someone who'd had a little score to settle. Her feet were
twitching, too, he saw, and he could still feel the blood pouring out of her,
through the sweater and over his hands.
Here we are at the
end of the world, he thought. He looked up in the sky and saw the evening
star.
13
She never really passed out and never fully regained consciousness.
Tom got himself under control and helped carry her up the slope on their side
of the road. Here were trees—what Clay remembered as an apple orchard. He
thought he and Sharon had come here once to pick, back when Johnny had been
small. When it had been good between them and there had been no arguments about
money and ambitions and the future.
"You're not
supposed to move people when they've got bad head-wounds," Jordan fretted,
trailing along behind them and carrying her pack.
"That's nothing
we have to worry about," Clay said. "She can't live, Jordan. Not like
she is. I don't think even a hospital could do much for her." He saw
Jordan's face begin to crumple. There was enough light for that. "I'm
sorry."
They laid her on the
grass. Tom tried to give her water from a Poland Spring bottle with a nipple
end, and she actually took some. Jordan gave her the sneaker, the Baby Nike,
and she took that, too, squeezing it, leaving smears of blood on it. Then they
waited for her to die. They waited all that night.
14
She said, "Daddy told me I could have the rest, so don't blame
me." That was around eleven o'clock. She lay with her head on Tom's
pack, which he had stuffed with a motel blanket he'd
taken from the Sweet Valley Inn. That had been on the outskirts of Methuen, in
what now seemed like another life. A better life, actually. The pack was
already soaked with blood. Her one remaining eye stared up at the stars. Her
left hand lay open on the grass beside her. It hadn't moved in over an hour.
Her right hand squeezed the little sneaker relentlessly. Squeeze . . . and
relax. Squeeze . . . and relax.
"Alice,"
Clay said. "Are you thirsty? Do you want some more water?"
She did not answer.
15
Later—quarter of one by Clay's watch—she asked someone if she could
go swimming. Ten minutes later she said, "I don't want those tampons,
those tampons are dirty," and laughed. The sound of her laughter was
natural, shocking, and it roused Jordan, who had been dozing. He saw how she
was and started to cry. He went off by himself to do it. When Tom tried to sit
beside him and comfort him, Jordan screamed for him to go away.
At quarter past two,
a large party of normies passed by on the road below them, many flashlights
bobbing in the dark. Clay went to the edge of the slope and called down to
them. "You don't have a doctor, do you?" he asked, without much hope.
The flashlights
stopped. There was a murmur of consultation from the dark shapes below, and
then a woman's voice called up to him, a rather beautiful voice. "Leave us
alone. You're off-limits."
Tom joined Clay at
the edge of the bank. " 'And the Levite also passed by on the other side,'
" Tom called down. "That's King James for fuck you, lady."
Behind them, Alice
suddenly spoke in a strong voice. "The men in the car will be taken care
of. Not as a favor to you but as a warning to others. You understand."
Tom grabbed Clay's
wrist with a cold hand. "Jesus Christ, she sounds like she's awake."
Clay took Tom's hand
in both of his own and held it. "That's not her. That's the guy in the red
hoodie, using her as a . . . as a loudspeaker."
In the dark Tom's
eyes were huge. "How do you know that?"
"I know,"
Clay said.
Below them, the
flashlights were moving away. Soon they were gone and Clay was glad. This was
their business, it was private.
16
At half past three, in the ditch of the night, Alice said:
"Oh, Mummy, too bad! Fading roses, this garden's over." Then her tone
brightened. "Will there be snow? We'll make a fort, we'll make a leaf,
we'll make a bird, we'll make a bird, we'll make a hand, we'll make a blue one,
we'll . . ." She trailed off, looking up at stars that turned on the night
like a clock. The night was cold. They had bundled her up. Every breath she
exhaled came out in white vapor. The bleeding had finally stopped. Jordan sat
next to her, petting her left hand, the one that was already dead and waiting
for the rest of her to catch up.
"Play the slinky
one I like," she said. "The one by Hall and Oates."
17
At twenty to five, she said, "It's the loveliest dress
ever." They were all gathered around her. Clay had said he thought she was
going.
"What color,
Alice?" Clay asked, not expecting an answer—but she did answer.
"Green."
"Where will you
wear it?"
"The ladies come
to the table," she said. Her hand still squeezed the sneaker, but more
slowly now. The blood on the side of her face had dried to an enamel glaze.
"The ladies come to the table, the ladies come to the table. Mr. Ricardi
stays at his post and the ladies come to the table."
"That's right,
dear," Tom said softly. "Mr. Ricardi stayed at his post, didn't
he?"
"The ladies come
to the table." Her remaining eye turned to Clay, and for the second time
she spoke in that other voice. One he had heard coming from his own mouth. Only
four words this time. '"Your son's with us."
"You lie,"
Clay whispered. His fists were clenched, and he had to restrain himself from
striking the dying girl. "You bastard, you lie."
"The ladies come
to the table and we all have tea," Alice said.
18
The first line of light had begun to show in the east. Tom sat
beside Clay, and put a tentative hand on his arm. "If they read
minds," he said, "they could have gotten the fact that you have a son
and you're worried to death about him as easily as you'd look something up on
Google. That guy could be using Alice to fuck with you."
"I know
that," Clay said. He knew something else: what she'd said in Harvard's
voice was all too plausible. "You know what I keep thinking about?"
Tom shook his head.
"When he was
little, three or four—back when Sharon and I still got along and we called him
Johnny-Gee—he'd come running every time the phone rang. He'd yell
'Fo-fo-me-me?' It knocked us out. And if it was his nana or his PeePop, we'd
say 'Fo-fo-you-you' and hand it to him. I can still remember how big the
fucking thing looked in his little hands . . . and against the side of his face
. . ."
"Clay,
stop."
"And now . . .
now . . ." He couldn't go on. And didn't have to.
"Come here, you
guys!" Jordan called. His voice was agonized. "Hurry up!"
They went back to
where Alice lay. She had come up off the ground in a locked convulsion, her
spine a hard, quivering arc. Her remaining eye bulged in its socket; her lips
pulled down at the corners. Then, suddenly, everything relaxed. She spoke a
name that had no meaning for them— Henry—and squeezed the sneaker one final
time. Then the fingers relaxed and it slipped free. There was a sigh and a
final white cloud, very thin, from between her parted lips.
Jordan looked from
Clay to Tom, then back to Clay again. "Is she—"
"Yes," Clay
said.
Jordan burst into
tears. Clay allowed Alice another few seconds to look at the paling stars, then
used the heel of his hand to close her eye.
19
There was a farmhouse not far from the orchard. They found shovels
in one of the sheds and buried her under an apple tree, with the little sneaker
in her hand. It was, they agreed, what she would have wanted. At Jordan's
request, Tom once more recited Psalm Forty, although this time he had
difficulty finishing. They each told one thing they remembered about Alice.
During this part of the impromptu service, a flock of phone-people—a small
one—passed north of them. They were noticed but not bothered. This did not
surprise Clay in the slightest. They were insane, not to be touched . . . as he
was sure Gunner and Harold would learn to their sorrow.
They slept away most
of the daylight hours in the farmhouse, then moved on to Kent Pond. Clay no
longer really expected to find his son there, but he hadn't given up hope of
finding word of Johnny, or perhaps Sharon. Just to know she was alive might
lift a little of the sorrow he now felt, a feeling so heavy that it seemed to
weigh him down like a cloak lined with lead.
KENT POND
1
His old house—the house where Johnny and Sharon had lived at the
time of the Pulse—was on Livery Lane, two blocks north of the dead traffic
light that marked the center of Kent Pond. It was the sort of place some real
estate ads called a "fixer-upper" and some a "starter
home." Clay and Sharon's joke—before the separation—was that their
"starter home" would probably also be their "retirement
home." And when she'd gotten pregnant, they had talked about naming the
baby Olivia if it turned out to be of what Sharon called "the feminine
persuasion." Then, she said, they'd have the only Livvie of Livery Lane.
How they had laughed.
Clay, Tom, and
Jordan—a pallid Jordan, a thoughtfully silent Jordan who now usually responded
to questions only if asked a second or even a third time—arrived at the
intersection of Main and Livery at just past midnight on a windy night during
the second week of October. Clay stared wildly at the stop sign on the corner
of his old street, where he had come as a visitor for the last four months. NUCLEAR
POWER was still stenciled there in spray-paint, as it had been before he'd
left for Boston. STOP . . . NUCLEAR POWER. STOP . . . NUCLEAR POWER. He
couldn't seem to get the sense of it. It wasn't a question of meaning, that
was clear enough, just someone's clever little political statement (if he
looked he'd probably find the same thing on stop signs all over town, maybe in
Springvale and Acton, too), but the sense of how this could be the same when
the whole world had changed—that eluded him. Clay felt somehow that if he
stared at STOP . . . NUCLEAR POWER with enough desperate intensity, a wormhole would open, some kind of sci-fi
time-tunnel, and he'd dive into the past, and all this would be undone. All
this darkness.
"Clay?" Tom
asked. "Are you all right?"
"This is my
street," Clay said, as if that explained everything, and then, without
knowing he was going to do it, he began to run.
Livery Lane was a
cul-de-sac, all the streets on this side of town dead-ending against the flank
of Kent's Hill, which was really an eroded mountain. Oaks overhung it and the
street was full of dead leaves that crackled under his feet. There were also a
lot of stalled cars, and two that were locked grille to grille in a strenuous
mechanical kiss.
"Where's he
going?" Jordan called behind him. Clay hated the fear he heard in Jordan's
voice, but he couldn't stop.
"He's all
right," Tom said. "Let him go."
Clay wove around the
stalled cars, the beam of his flashlight jigging and stabbing in front of him.
One of the stabs caught Mr. Kretsky's face. Mr. Kretsky always used to have a
Tootsie Pop for Johnny on haircut day when Johnny was Johnny-Gee, just a little
guy who used to yell fo-fo-me-me when the phone rang. Mr. Kretsky was
lying on the sidewalk in front of his house, half-buried in fallen oak-leaves,
and his nose appeared to be gone.
I mustn't find
them dead. This thought drummed in his mind, over and over. Not after
Alice. I mustn't find them dead. And then, hatefully (but in moments of
stress the mind almost always told the truth): And if I have to find one of them
dead. . . let it be her.
Their house was the
last one on the left (as he always used to remind Sharon, with a suitably
creepy laugh—long after the joke had worn thin, actually), and the driveway
slanted up to the refurbished little shed that was just big enough to park one
car. Clay was already out of breath but he didn't slow. He sprinted up the
driveway, kicking leaves in front of him, feeling the stitch starting to sink
in high up on his right side, tasting copper in the back of his mouth, where
his breathing seemed to rasp. He lifted his flashlight and shined it into the
garage.
Empty. Question was,
was that good or bad?
He turned around, saw
Tom's and Jordan's lights bobbing toward him down below, and shone his own on
his back door. His heart leaped into the back of his throat at what he saw. He
ran up the three steps to the stoop, stumbled, and
almost put his hand through the storm door pulling the note off the glass. It
was held by only a corner of Scotch tape; if they'd come along an hour later,
maybe even half an hour, the restless night wind would have blown it over the
hills and far away. He could kill her for not taking more pains, such
carelessness was just so Sharon, but at least— The note wasn't from his
wife.
2
Jordan came up the driveway and stood at the foot of the steps with
his light trained on Clay. Tom came toiling along behind, breathing hard and
making an enormous crackling sound as he scuffed through the leaves. He stopped
beside Jordan and put his own light on the scrap of unfolded paper in Clay's
hand. He raised the beam slowly to Clay's thunderstruck face. "I forgot
about her mother's fucking diabetes," Clay said, and handed over the note
that had been Scotch-taped to the door. Tom and Jordan read it together.
Daddy,
Something bad hapen as you porbly know, I hope your all right & get
this. Mitch Steinman and George Gendron are with me, people are going crazy
& we think its the cellphones. Dad here is the bad part, we came here
because I was afraid. I was going to break mine if I was wrong but I wasnt
wrong, it was gone. Mom has been taking it because you know nana is sick and
she wanted to keep checking. I gotta go Jesus I'm scrared, someone killed Mr
Kretsky. All kinds of people are dead & nuts like in a horra movie but we
heard people are getting together (NORMAL people) at the Town Hall and thats
where we are going. Maybe mom is there but jesus she had my PHONE. Daddy if you
get here okay PLEASE COME GET ME.
Your Son, John Gavin Riddell
Tom finished, then
spoke in a tone of kindly caution that terrified Clay more thoroughly than the
most dire warning could have done. "You know that any people who gathered
at the Town Hall have probably gone many
different ways, don't you? It's been ten days, and the world has undergone a
terrible convulsion."
"I know,"
Clay said. His eyes were stinging and he could feel his voice beginning to
waver. "And I know his mother is probably . . ." He shrugged and
flung an unsteady hand at the dark, sloping-away world beyond his leaf-strewn
driveway. "But Tom, I have to go to the Town Hall and see. They may have
left word. He may have left word."
"Yes," Tom
said. "Of course you do. And when we get there, we can decide what comes
next." He spoke in that same tone of awful kindness. Clay almost wished
he'd laugh and say something like Come on, you poor sap—you don't
really think you're going to see him again, do you? Get fucking real.
Jordan had read the
note a second time, maybe a third and fourth. Even in his current state of
horror and grief, Clay felt like apologizing to Jordan for Johnny's poor
spelling and composition skills—reminding Jordan that his son must have written
under terrible stress, crouched on the stoop, scribbling while his friends
stood watching chaos swirl below.
Now Jordan lowered
the note and said, "What does your son look like?"
Clay almost asked
why, then decided he didn't want to know. At least not yet. "Johnny's
almost a foot shorter than you. Stocky. Dark brown hair."
"Not skinny. Not
blond."
"No, that sounds
like his friend George."
Jordan and Tom
exchanged a look. It was a grave look, but Clay thought there was relief in it,
too.
"What?" he
asked. "What? Tell me."
"The other side
of the street," Tom said. "You didn't see because you were running.
There's a dead boy about three houses down. Skinny, blond, red backpack—"
"That's George
Gendron," Clay said. He knew George's red backpack as well as he knew
Johnny's blue one with the strips of reflecting tape on it. "He and Johnny
made a Puritan village together for their fourth-grade history project. They
got an A-plus. George can't be dead." But he almost certainly was. Clay
sat down on the stoop, which gave its old familiar creak under his weight, and
put his face in his hands.
3
The Town Hall was at the intersection of Pond and Mill streets, in
front of the town common and the body of water that gave the little village its
name. The parking lot was almost empty except for the spaces reserved for
employees, because both streets leading to the big white Victorian building
were jammed with stalled vehicles. People had gotten as close as they could,
then walked the rest of the way. For latecomers like Clay, Tom, and Jordan, it
was a slow slog. Within two blocks of the Town Hall, not even the lawns were
free of cars. Half a dozen houses had burned down. Some were still smoldering.
Clay had
covered the body of the boy on Livery Lane—it had indeed been Johnny's friend
George—but they could do nothing for the scores of swollen and putrefying dead
they encountered as they made their slow way toward the Kent Pond Town Hall.
There were hundreds, but in the dark Clay saw none that he recognized. That
might have been true even in daylight. The crows had put in a busy week and a
half.
His mind kept going
back to George Gendron, who had been lying facedown in a clot of bloody leaves.
In his note, John had said that George and Mitch, his other good friend this
year in the seventh grade, had been with him. So whatever had happened to
George must have happened after Johnny taped that note to the storm door and
the three of them left the Riddell house. And since only George had been in
those bloody leaves, Clay could assume Johnny and Mitch had gotten off Livery
Lane alive.
Of course assume
makes an ass out of you and me, he thought. The gospel according to Alice
Maxwell, may she rest in peace.
And it was true.
George's killer might have chased them and gotten them somewhere else. On Main
Street, or Dugway Street, maybe neighboring Laurel Way. Stabbed them with a
Swedish butcher knife or a couple of car aerials . . .
They had reached the
edge of the Town Hall parking lot. On their left was a pickup truck that had
tried to reach it overland and wound up mired in a boggy ditch less than five
yards from an acre of civilized (and largely deserted) asphalt. On their right
was a woman with her throat torn out and her
features pecked away to black holes and bloody ribbons by the birds. She was
still wearing her Portland Sea Dogs baseball cap, and her purse was still over
her arm.
Killers weren't
interested in money anymore.
Tom put a hand on his
shoulder, startling him. "Stop thinking about what might have
happened."
"How did you
know—"
"It doesn't take
a mind reader. If you find your son—you probably won't, but if you do—I'm sure
he'll tell you the whole story. Otherwise . . . does it matter?"
"No. Of course
not. But Tom . . . I knew George Gendron. The kids used to call him
Connecticut sometimes, because his family moved from there. He ate hot dogs and
hamburgers in our backyard. His dad used to come over and watch the Patriots
with me."
"I know,"
Tom said. "I know." And, to Jordan, sharply: "Stop looking at
her, Jordan, she's not going to get up and walk."
Jordan ignored him
and kept staring at the crow-picked corpse in the Sea Dogs hat. "The
phoners started trying to take care of their own as soon as they got back some
base-level programming," he said. "Even if it was only fishing them
out from under the bleachers and throwing them into the marsh, they tried to do
something. But they don't take care of ours. They leave ours to rot
where they fell." He turned to face Clay and Tom. "No matter what
they say or what they promise, we can't trust them," he said fiercely.
"We can't, okay?"
"I'm totally
down with that," Tom said.
Clay nodded. "Me
too."
Tom tipped his head
toward the Town Hall, where a few emergency lights with long-life batteries
still shone, casting a sickly yellow glow on the employees' cars, which now
stood in drifts of leaves. "Let's go in there and see what they left
behind."
"Yes, let's do
it," Clay said. Johnny would be gone, he had no doubt of that, but some
small part of him, some small, childish, never-say-die part, still continued to
hope that he would hear a cry of "Daddy!" and his son would
spring into his arms, a living thing, real weight in the midst of this nightmare.
4
They knew for sure the Town Hall was deserted when they saw what
had been painted across the double doors. In the fading glow of the
battery-powered emergency lights, the large, sloppy strokes of red paint looked
like more dried blood:
KASHWAK=N0-F0
"How far away is
this Kashwak place?" Tom asked.
Clay thought about
it. "I'd say eighty miles, almost due north. You'd take Route 160 most of
the way, but once you get on the TR, I don't know."
Jordan asked,
"What exactly is a TR?"
"TR-90's an
unincorporated township. There are a couple of little villages, some quarries,
and a two-bit Micmac rez up north, but mostly it's just woods, bear, and
deer." Clay tried the door and it opened to his hand. "I'm going to
check this place out. You guys really don't have to come if you don't want
to—you can be excused."
"No, we'll
come," Tom said. "Won't we, Jordan?"
"Sure."
Jordan sighed like a boy confronted with what may be a difficult chore. Then he
smiled. "Hey, electric lights. Who knows when we'll get to see them again."
5
No
Johnny Riddell came hurtling out of a dark room to throw himself into his
father's arms, but the Town Hall was still redolent of the cooking that had
been done on gas grills and hibachis by the people who'd gathered here
following the Pulse. Outside the big main room, on the long bulletin board
where notices of town business and upcoming events usually hung, perhaps two
hundred notes had been posted. Clay, so tense he was nearly panting, began to
study these with the intensity of a scholar who believes he may have found the
lost Gospel of Mary Magdalene. He was afraid of what he might find and
terrified of what he might not. Tom and Jordan retreated tactfully to the main
meeting room, which was still littered with the remains of the refugees who had
apparently spent several nights here, waiting for a rescue that had never come.
In the posted notes,
Clay saw the survivors had come to believe that they could hope for more than
rescue. They believed that salvation awaited them in Kashwak. Why that
particular townlet, when probably all of TR-90 (certainly the northern and
western quadrants) was dead to cell phone transmission and reception? The notes
on the bulletin board weren't clear on that. Most seemed to assume that any
readers would understand without needing to be told; it was a case of
"everybody knows, everybody goes." And even the clearest of the
correspondents had obviously been struggling to keep terror and elation balanced
and under control; most messages amounted to little more than follow the
Yellow Brick Road to Kashwak and salvation as soon as you can.
Three-quarters of the
way down the board, half-hidden by a note from Iris Nolan, a lady Clay knew
quite well (she volunteered at the tiny town library), he saw a sheet with his
son's familiar, looping scrawl and thought, Oh, dear God, thank you. Thank
you so much. He pulled it off the board, being careful not to tear it.
This note was dated: Oct
3. Clay tried to remember where he had been on the night of October 3 and
couldn't quite do it. Had it been the barn in North Reading, or the Sweet
Valley Inn, near Methuen? He thought the barn, but he couldn't be absolutely
certain—it all ran together and if he thought too hard about it, it began to
seem that the man with the flashlights on the sides of his head had also been
the young man jabbing the car aerials, that Mr. Ricardi had killed himself by
gobbling broken glass instead of hanging himself, and it had been Alice in Tom's
garden, eating cucumbers and tomatoes.
"Stop it,"
he whispered, and focused on the note. It was better spelled and a little
better composed, but there was no mistaking the agony in it.
Oct 3 Dear Dad,
I hope you are alive & get this. Me &
Mitch made it okay but Hughie Darden got George, I think he killed him. Me
& Mitch just outran faster.
I felt like it was my fault but Mitch, he said
how could you know he was just a Phoner like the others its not your fault.
Daddy there is worse. Mom is one of them, I saw
her with one of the "flocks" today. (That is what they call them,
flocks.) She doesnt look as bad as some but I know if I went out there she
wouldnt even no me and would kill me soon as look at me. IF YOU SEE HER DON'T
BE FOOLED, I'M SORRY BUT ITS TRUE.
We're going to Kashwak (its up north) tomorow or
next day, Mitch's mom is here I could kill him I'm so ennveous. Daddy I know
you dont have a cell phone and everyone knows about Kashwak how it's a safe
place. If you get this note PLEASE COME GET ME.
I love you with all my
Heart, Your Son, John Gavin Riddell
Even after the news
about Sharon, Clay was doing all right until he got to I love you with all
my Heart. Even then he might have been all right if not for that capital H.
He kissed his twelve-year-old son's signature, looked at the bulletin board
through eyes that had become untrustworthy— things doubled, tripled, then
shivered completely apart—and let out a hoarse cry of pain. Tom and Jordan came
running.
"What,
Clay?" Tom said. "What is it?" He saw the sheet of paper—a ruled
yellow page from a legal pad—and slipped it out of Clay's hand. He and Jordan
scanned it quickly.
"I'm going to
Kashwak," Clay said hoarsely.
"Clay, that's
probably not such a hot idea," Jordan said cautiously. "Considering,
you know, what we did at Gaiten Academy."
"I don't care.
I'm going to Kashwak. I'm going to find my son."
6
The refugees who had taken shelter in the Kent Pond Town Hall had
left plenty of supplies behind when they decamped, presumably en masse, for
TR-90 and Kashwak. Clay, Tom, and Jordan made a meal of canned chicken salad on
stale bread, with canned fruit salad for dessert.
As they were
finishing, Tom leaned over to Jordan and murmured something. The boy nodded.
The two of them got up. "Would you excuse us for a few minutes, Clay?
Jordan and I need to have a little talk."
Clay nodded. While
they were gone, he cracked another fruit salad cup and read Johnny's letter
over for the ninth and tenth times. He was already well on the way to having it
memorized. He could remember Alice's death just as clearly, but that now seemed
to have happened in another life, and to a different version of Clayton
Riddell. An earlier draft, as it were.
He finished his meal
and stowed the letter away just as Tom and Jordan returned from the hall, where
they had held what he supposed lawyers had called a sidebar, back in the days
when there were lawyers. Tom once more had his arm around Jordan's
narrow shoulders. Neither of them looked happy, but both looked composed.
"Clay," Tom
began, "we've talked it over, and—"
"You don't want
to go with me. Perfectly understandable."
Jordan said, "I
know he's your son and all, but—"
"And you know
he's all I've got left. His mother . . ." Clay laughed, a single humorless
bark. "His mother. Sharon. It's ironic, really. After all the worry
I put in about Johnny getting a blast from that goddam little red
rattlesnake. If I had to pick one, I would have picked her." There, it was
out. Like a chunk of meat that had been caught in his throat and was
threatening to block his windpipe. "And you know how that makes me feel?
Like I offered to make a deal with the devil, and the devil actually came
through for me."
Tom ignored this.
When he spoke, he did so carefully, as if he were afraid of setting Clay off
like an unexploded land mine. "They hate us. They started off hating
everyone and progressed to just hating us. Whatever's going on up there in
Kashwak, if it's their idea, it can't be good."
"If they're
rebooting to some higher level, they may get to a live-and-let-live
plane," Clay said. All of this was pointless, surely they both must see
that. He had to go.
"I doubt
it," Jordan said. "Remember that stuff about the chute leading to the
slaughterhouse?"
"Clay, we're
normies and that's strike one," Tom said. "We torched one of their flocks. That's strike two and
strike three combined. Live and let live won't apply to us."
"Why should
it?" Jordan added. "The Raggedy Man says we're insane."
"And not to be
touched," Clay said. "So I should be fine, right?"
After that there
didn't seem to be any more to say.
7
Tom and Jordan had decided to strike out due west, across New
Hampshire and into Vermont, putting KASHWAK=NO-FO at their backs— and
over the horizon—as soon as possible. Clay said that Route 11, which made an
elbow-bend at Kent Pond, would serve them both as a starting-point. "It'll
take me north to 160," he said, "and you guys can follow it all the
way to Laconia, in the middle of New Hampshire. It's not exactly a direct
route, but what the hell—you don't exactly have a plane to catch, have
you?"
Jordan dug
the heels of his hands into his eyes, rubbed them, then brushed the hair back
from his forehead, a gesture Clay had come to know well—it signaled tiredness
and distraction. He would miss it. He would miss Jordan. And Tom even more.
"I wish Alice
was still here," Jordan said. "She'd talk you out of this."
"She
wouldn't," Clay said. Still, he wished with all his heart that Alice could
have had her chance. He wished with all his heart that Alice could have had her
chance at a lot of things. Fifteen was no age at which to die.
"Your current
plans remind me of act four in Julius Caesar," Tom said. "In
act five, everyone falls on their swords." They were now making their way
around (and sometimes over) the stalled cars jamming Pond Street. The emergency
lights of the Town Hall were slowly receding behind them. Ahead was the dead
traffic light marking the center of town, swaying in a slight breeze.
"Don't be such a
fucking pessimist," Clay said. He had promised himself not to become
annoyed—he wouldn't part with his friends that way if he could possibly help
it—but his resolve was being tried.
"Sorry I'm too
tired to cheerlead," Tom said. He stopped beside a road-sign reading JCT
RT 112 MI. "And—may I be frank?—too heartsick at losing
you."
"Tom,
I'm sorry."
"If I thought
there was one chance in five that you had a happy ending in store . . . hell,
one in fifty . . . well, never mind." Tom shone his
flashlight at Jordan. "What about you? Any final arguments against this
madness?"
Jordan
considered, then shook his head slowly. "The Head told me something
once," he said. "Do you want to hear it?"
Tom made an ironic
little salute with his flashlight. The beam skipped off the marquee of the
Ioka, which had been showing the new Tom Hanks picture, and the pharmacy next
door. "Have at it."
"He said the
mind can calculate, but the spirit yearns, and the heart knows what the heart
knows."
"Amen,"
Clay said. He said it very softly.
They walked east on
Market Street, which was also Route 19A, for two miles. After the first mile,
the sidewalks ended and the farms began. At the end of the second there was
another dead stoplight and a sign marking the Route 11 junction. There were
three people sitting bundled up to the neck in sleeping bags at the crossroads.
Clay recognized one of them as soon as he put the beam of his flashlight on
him: an elderly gent with a long, intelligent face and graying hair pulled back
in a ponytail. The Miami Dolphins cap the other man was wearing looked
familiar, too. Then Tom put his beam on the woman next to Mr. Ponytail and
said, "You."
Clay couldn't tell if
she was wearing a Harley-Davidson T-shirt with cutoff sleeves, the sleeping bag
was pulled up too high for that, but he knew there was one in the little pile
of packs lying near the Route 11 sign if she wasn't. Just as he knew she was
pregnant. He had dreamed of these two in the Whispering Pines Motel, two nights
before Alice had been killed. He had dreamed of them in the long field, under
the lights, standing on the platforms.
The man with the gray
hair stood up, letting his sleeping bag slither down his body. There were
rifles with their gear, but he raised his hands to show they were empty. The
woman did the same, and when the sleeping bag dropped to her feet, there was no
doubt about her pregnancy. The guy in the Dolphins cap was tall and about
forty. He also raised his hands.
The three of them
stood that way for a few seconds in the beams of the flashlights, and then the
gray-haired man took a pair of black-rimmed spectacles from the breast pocket
of his wrinkled shirt and put them on. His breath puffed out white in the
chilly night air, rising to the Route 11 sign, where arrows pointed both west
and north.
"Well,
well," he said. "The President of Harvard said you'd probably come
this way, and here you are. Smart fellow, the President of Harvard, although a
trifle young for the job, and in my opinion he could use some plastic surgery
before going out to meet with potential big-ticket donors."
"Who are
you?" Clay asked.
"Get that light
out of my face, young man, and I'll be happy to tell you."
Tom and Jordan
lowered their flashlights. Clay also lowered his, but kept one hand on the butt
of Beth Nickerson's .45.
"I'm Daniel
Hartwick, of Haverhill, Mass," the gray-haired man said. "The young
lady is Denise Link, also of Haverhill. The gentleman on her right is Ray
Huizenga, of Groveland, a neighboring town."
"Meetcha,"
Ray Huizenga said. He made a little bow that was funny, charming, and awkward.
Clay let his hand fall off the butt of his gun.
"But our names
don't actually matter anymore," Daniel Hartwick said. "What matters
is what we are, at least as far as the phoners are concerned." He
looked at them gravely. "We are insane. Like you."
8
Denise and Ray rustled a small meal over a propane cooker
("These canned sausages don't taste too bad if you boil em up
ha'aad," Ray said) while they talked—while Dan talked, mostly. He began by
telling them it was twenty past two in the morning, and at three he intended to
have his "brave little band" back on the road. He said he wanted to
make as many miles as possible before daylight, when the phoners started moving
around.
"Because they do
not come out at night," he said. "We have that much going for
us. Later, when their programming is complete, or nears completion, they
may be able to, but—"
"You agree
that's what's happening?" Jordan asked. For the first time since Alice had
died, he looked engaged. He grasped Dan's arm. "You agree that they're
rebooting, like computers whose hard drives have been—"
"—wiped, yes,
yes," Dan said, as if this were the most elementary thing in the world.
"Are you—were
you—a scientist of some sort?" Tom asked.
Dan gave him a smile.
"I was the entire sociology department at Haverhill Arts and
Technical," he said. "If the President of Harvard has a worst
nightmare, that would be me."
Dan Hartwick, Denise
Link, and Ray Huizenga had destroyed not just one flock but two. The first, in
the back lot of a Haverhill auto junkyard, they had stumbled on by accident,
when there had been half a dozen in their group and they were trying to find a
way out of the city. That had been two days after the onset of the Pulse, when
the phone-people had still been the phone-crazies, confused and as apt to kill
each other as any wandering normies they encountered. That first had been a small
flock, only about seventy-five, and they had used gasoline.
"The second
time, in Nashua, we used dynamite from a construction-site shed," Denise
said. "We'd lost Charlie, Ralph, and Arthur by then. Ralph and Arthur just
took off on their own. Charlie—poor old Charlie had a heart attack. Anyhow, Ray
knew how to rig the dynamite, from when he worked on a road crew."
Ray, hunkered over
his cooker and stirring the beans next to the sausages, raised his free hand
and gave it a flip.
"After that,"
Dan Hartwick said, "we began to see those Kashwak No-Fo signs. Sounded
good to us, didn't it, Denni?"
"Yep,"
Denise said. "Olly-olly-in-for-free. We were headed north, same as you,
and when we started seeing those signs, we headed north faster. I was the only
one who didn't absolutely love the idea, because I lost my husband during the
Pulse. Those fucks are the reason my kid's going to grow up not knowing his
daddy." She saw Clay wince and said, "Sorry. We know your boy's gone
to Kashwak."
Clay gaped.
"Oh yes,"
Dan said, taking a plate as Ray began passing them around. "The President
of Harvard knows all, sees all, has dossiers on all. . . or so he'd like us to believe." He gave
Jordan a wink, and Jordan actually grinned.
"Dan talked me
around," Denise said. "Some terrorist group—or maybe just a couple of
inspired nutcases working in a garage—set this thing off, but no one had any
idea it would lead to this. The phoners are just playing out their part in it.
They weren't responsible when they were insane, and they aren't really
responsible now, because—"
"Because they're
in the grip of some group imperative," Tom said. "Like
migration."
"It's a group
imperative, but it ain't migration," Ray said, sitting down with his own
plate. "Dan says it's pure survival. I think he's right. Whatever it is,
we gotta find a place to get in out of the rain. You know?"
"The dreams
started coming after we burned the first flock," Dan said. "Powerful
dreams. Ecce homo, insanus—very Harvard. Then, after we bombed the
Nashua flock, the President of Harvard showed up in person with about five
hundred of his closest friends." He ate in quick, neat bites.
"And left a lot
of melted boomboxes on your doorstep," Clay said.
"Some were
melted," Denise said. "Mostly what we got were bits and pieces."
She smiled. It was a thin smile. "That was okay. Their taste in music
sucks."
"You call him
the President of Harvard, we call him the Raggedy Man," Tom said. He had
set his plate aside and opened his pack. He rummaged and brought out the
drawing Clay had made on the day the Head had been forced to kill himself.
Denise's eyes got round. She passed the drawing to Ray Huizenga, who whistled.
Dan took it last and
looked up at Tom with new respect. "You drew this?"
Tom pointed to Clay.
"You're very
talented," Dan said.
"I took a course
once," Clay said. "Draw Fluffy." He turned to Tom, who also kept
their maps in his pack. "How far is it between Gaiten and Nashua?"
"Thirty miles,
tops."
Clay nodded and
turned back to Dan Hartwick. "And did he speak to you? The guy in the red
hoodie?"
Dan looked at Denise
and she looked away. Ray turned back to his little cooker—presumably to shut it
down and pack it up—and Clay understood. "Which one of you did he speak through?"
"Me," Dan
said. "It was horrible. Have you experienced it?"
"Yeah. You can
stop it from happening, but not if you want to know what's on his mind. Does he
do it to show how strong he is, do you think?"
"Probably,"
Dan said, "but I don't think that's all. I don't think they can talk. They
can vocalize, and I'm sure they think—although not as they did, it would
be a terrible mistake to think of them as having human thoughts—but I don't
think they can actually speak words."
"Yet,"
Jordan said.
"Yet," Dan
agreed. He glanced at his watch, and that prompted Clay to look at his own. It
was already quarter to three.
"He told us to
go north," Ray said. "He told us Kashwak No-Fo. He said our
flock-burnin days were over because they were settin up guards—"
"Yes, we saw
some in Rochester," Tom said.
"And you've seen
plenty of Kashwak No-Fo signs."
They nodded.
"Purely as a
sociologist, I began to question those signs," Dan said. "Not how
they began—I'm sure the first No-Fo signs were posted soon after the Pulse, by
survivors who'd decided a place like that, where there was no cell phone
coverage, would be the best place on earth to go. What I questioned was how the
idea—and the graffiti—could spread so quickly in a cata-strophically fragmented
society where all normal forms of communication—other than my mouth to your
ear, of course—had broken down. The answer seemed clear, once one admitted that
a new form of communication, available to only one group, had entered
the picture."
"Telepathy." Jordan almost whispered the word. "Them. The
phoners. They want us to go north to Kashwak." He turned his
frightened eyes to Clay. "It really is a frigging slaughterhouse
chute. Clay, you can't go up there! This is all the Raggedy Man's
idea!"
Before Clay could
respond, Dan Hartwick was speaking again. He did it with a teacher's natural
assumptions: lecturing was his responsibility, interruption his privilege.
"I'm afraid I
really must hurry this along, sorry. We have something to show you—something
the President of Harvard has demanded we show you, actually—"
"In your dreams,
or in person?" Tom asked.
"Our
dreams," Denise said quietly. "We've only seen him once in person
since we burned the flock in Nashua, and that was at a distance."
"Checkin up on
us," Ray said. "That's what I think."
Dan waited with a
look of exasperated patience for this exchange to conclude. When it had, he
resumed. "We were willing to comply, since this was on our way—"
"You're going
north, then?" Clay was the one to interrupt this time.
Dan, looking more
exasperated now, flicked another quick glance at his watch. "If you look
at that route-sign closely, you'll see that it offers a choice. We intend to go
west, not north."
"Fuckin
right," Ray muttered. "I may be stupid, but I'm not crazy."
"What I show you
will be for our purposes rather than theirs," Dan said. "And by the
way, talking about the President of Harvard—or the Raggedy Man, if you
prefer—showing up in person is probably a mistake. Maybe a bad one. He's really
no more than a pseudopod that the group mind, the overflock, puts out front to
do business with ordinary normies and special insane normies like us. I
theorize that there are overflocks all over the world now, and each may have
put forward such a pseudopod. Maybe even more than one. But don't make the
mistake of thinking that when you're talking to your Raggedy Man you're talking
to an actual man. You're talking to the flock."
"Why don't you
show us what he wants us to see?" Clay asked. He had to work to sound
calm. His mind was roaring. The one clear thought in it was that if he could
get to his son before Johnny got to Kashwak—and whatever was going on there—he
might still have a chance to save him. Rationality told him that Johnny must be
in Kashwak already, but another voice (and it wasn't entirely irrational) said
something might have held up Johnny and whatever group he was traveling with.
Or they might have gotten cold feet. It was possible. It was even possible that
nothing more sinister than segregation was going on up there in TR-90, that the phone-people were just creating a rez
for normies. In the end, he supposed it went back to what Jordan had said,
quoting Headmaster Ardai: the mind could calculate, but the spirit yearned.
"Come this
way," Dan said. "It's not far." He produced a flashlight and
began walking up the shoulder of Route 11—North with the beam aimed at his
feet.
"Pardon me if I
don't go," Denise said. "I've seen. Once was enough."
"I think this
was supposed to please you, in a way," Dan said. "Of course it was
also supposed to underline the point—to my little group as well as yours—that
the phoners are now the ones with the power, and they are to be obeyed."
He stopped. "Here we are; in this particular sleep-o-gram, the President
of Harvard made very sure we all saw the dog, so we couldn't get the wrong
house." The flashlight beam nailed a roadside mailbox with a collie
painted on the side. "I'm sorry Jordan has to see this, but it's probably
best that you know what you're dealing with." He raised his flashlight
higher. Ray joined his beam to Dan's. They lit up the front of a modest
one-story wooden house, sitting neatly on a postage stamp of lawn.
Gunner had been
crucified between the living room window and the front door. He was naked
except for a pair of bloodstained Joe Boxers. Nails big enough to be rail
spikes jutted from his hands, feet, forearms, and knees. Maybe they were rail
spikes, Clay thought. Sitting splay-legged at Gunner's feet was Harold. Like
Alice when they met her, Harold was wearing a bib of blood, but his hadn't come
from his nose. The wedge of glass he'd used to cut his throat after crucifying
his running buddy still twinkled in one hand.
Hung around Gunner's
neck on a loop of string was a piece of cardboard with three words scrawled on
it in dark capital letters: JUSTITIA EST COMMODATUM.
9
"In
case you don't read Latin—" Dan Hartwick began.
"I
remember enough from high school to read that," Tom said. " 'Justice
is served.' This is for killing Alice. For daring to touch one of the
untouchables."
"Right you
are," Dan said, snapping off his light. Ray did the same. "It also serves as a warning to others. And they
didn't kill them, although they most certainly could have."
"We know,"
Clay said. "They took reprisals in Gaiten after we burned their
flock."
"They did the
same in Nashua," Ray said somberly. "I'll remember the screams until
my dyin day. Fuckin horrible. This shit is, too." He gestured toward the
dark shape of the house. "They got the little one to crucify the big one,
and the big one to hold still for it. And when it was done, they got the little
one to cut his own throat."
"It's like with
the Head," Jordan said, and took Clay's hand.
"That's the
power of their minds," Ray said, "and Dan thinks that's part of
what's sendin everybody north to Kashwak—maybe part of what kept us movin
north even when we told ourselves it was only to show you this and persuade you
to hook up with us. You know?"
Clay said, "Did
the Raggedy Man tell you about my son?"
"No, but if he
had I'm sure it would have been that he's with the other normies, and that you
and he will have a happy reunion in Kashwak," Dan said. "You know,
just forget about those dreams of standing on a platform while the President
tells the cheering crowd you're insane, that ending's not for you, it can't be
for you. I'm sure by now you've thought of all the possible happy-ending
scenarios, the chief one being how Kashwak and who knows how many other cell
phone dead zones are the normie equivalent of wildlife refuges, places where
folks who didn't get a blast on the day of the Pulse will be left alone. I
think what your young friend said about the chute leading to the slaughterhouse
is far more likely, but even supposing normies are to be left alone up
there, do you think the phoners will forgive people like us? The
flock-killers?"
Clay had no answer
for this.
In the dark, Dan
looked at his watch again. "It's gone three," he said. "Let's
walk back. Denise will have us packed up by now. The time has come when we've
either got to part company or decide to go on together."
But when you
talk about going on together, you're asking me to part company from my son, Clay thought. And that he would never do
unless he discovered Johnny-Gee was dead.
Or changed.
10
"How
can you hope to get west?" Clay asked as they walked back to the junction
sign. "The nights still may be ours for a while, but the days belong to
them, and you see what they can do."
"I'm
almost positive we can keep them out of our heads when we're awake," Dan said.
"It takes a little work, but it can be done. We'll sleep in shifts, at
least for a while. A lot depends on keeping away from the flocks."
"Which means
getting into western New Hampshire and then into Vermont as fast as we
can," Ray said. "Away from built-up areas." He shone his light
on Denise, who was reclining on the sleeping bags. "We set, darlin?"
"All set,"
she said. "I just wish you'd let me carry something."
"You're carryin
your kid," Ray said fondly. "That's enough. And we can leave the
sleepin bags."
Dan said, "There
are places where driving may actually make sense. Ray thinks some of the back
roads could be clear for as much as a dozen miles at a stretch. We've got good
maps." He dropped to one knee and shouldered his pack, looking up at Clay
with a small and bitter half-smile as he did it. "I know the chances
aren't good; I'm not a fool, in case you wondered. But we wiped out two of
their flocks, killed hundreds of them, and I don't want to wind up on one of
those platforms."
"We've got
something else going for us," Tom said. Clay wondered if Tom realized he'd
just put himself in the Hartwick camp. Probably. He was far from stupid.
"They want us alive."
"Right,"
Dan said. "We might really make it. This is still early times for them,
Clay—they're still weaving their net, and I'm betting there are plenty of holes
in it."
"Hell, they
haven't even changed their clothes yet," Denise said. Clay admired her.
She looked like she was six months along, maybe more, but she was a tough
little thing. He wished Alice could have met her.
"We could slip
through," Dan said. "Cross into Canada from Vermont or New York,
maybe. Five is better than three, but six would be better than five—three to
sleep, three to stand watch in the days, fight off the bad telepathy. Our own
little flock. So what do you say?"
Clay shook his head
slowly. "I'm going after my son."
"Think it over,
Clay," Tom said. "Please."
"Let him
alone," Jordan said. "He's made up his mind." He put his arms
around Clay and hugged him. "I hope you find him," he said. "But
even if you do, I guess you'll never find us again."
"Sure I
will," Clay said. He kissed Jordan on the cheek, then stood back.
"I'll hogtie me a telepath and use him like a compass. Maybe the Raggedy
Man himself." He turned to Tom and held out his hand.
Tom ignored it and
put his arms around Clay. He kissed him first on one cheek, then the other.
"You saved my life," he whispered into Clay's ear. His breath was hot
and ticklish. His cheek rasped against Clay's. "Let me save yours. Come
with us."
"I can't, Tom. I
have to do this."
Tom stood back and
looked at him. "I know," he said. "I know you do." He wiped
his eyes. "Goddam, I suck at goodbyes. I couldn't even say goodbye
to my fucking cat."
11
Clay stood beside the junction sign and watched their lights
dwindle. He kept his eyes fixed on Jordan's, and it was the last to disappear.
For a moment or two it was alone at the top of the first hill to the west, a
single small spark in the black, as if Jordan had paused there to look back. It
seemed to wave. Then it was also gone, and the darkness was complete. Clay
sighed—an unsteady, tearful sound—then shouldered his own pack and started
walking north along the dirt shoulder of Route 11. Around quarter to four he
crossed the North Berwick town line and left Kent Pond behind.
PHONE-BINGO
1
There was no reason not to resume a more normal life and start
traveling days; Clay knew the phone-people wouldn't hurt him. He was off-limits
and they actually wanted him up there in Kashwak. The problem was he'd
become habituated to a nighttime existence. All I need is a coffin and a
cape to wrap around myself when I lie down in it, he thought.
When dawn
came up red and cold on the morning after his parting from Tom and Jordan, he
was on the outskirts of Springvale. There was a little house, probably a
caretaker's cottage, next to the Springvale Logging Museum. It looked cozy.
Clay forced the lock on the side door and let himself in. He was delighted to
find both a woodstove and a hand-pump in the kitchen. There was also a
shipshape little pantry, well stocked and untouched by foragers. He celebrated
this find with a large bowl of oatmeal, using powdered milk, adding heaps of
sugar, and sprinkling raisins on top.
In the pantry he also
found concentrated bacon and eggs in foil packets, stored as neatly on their
shelf as paperback books. He cooked one of these and stuffed his pack with the
rest. It was a much better meal than he had expected, and once in the back
bedroom, Clay fell asleep almost immediately.
2
There were long tents on both sides of the highway.
This wasn't Route 11
with its farms and towns and open fields, with its pump-equipped convenience
store every fifteen miles or so, but a highway somewhere out in the williwags. Deep woods crowded all the way up
to the roadside ditches. People stood in long lines on both sides of the white
center-stripe.
Left and right, an
amplified voice was calling. Left and right, form two lines.
It sounded a little
like the amplified voice of the bingo-caller at the Akron State Fair, but as
Clay drew closer, walking up the road's center-stripe, he realized all the
amplification was going on in his head. It was the voice of the Raggedy Man.
Only the Raggedy Man was just a—what had Dan called him?—just a pseudopod. And
what Clay was hearing was the voice of the flock.
Left and right,
two lines, that's correct. That's doing it.
Where am I? Why
doesn't anybody look at me, say "Hey buddy, no cutting in front, wait your
turn"?
Up ahead the two
lines curved off to either side like turnpike exit ramps, one going into the
tent on the left side of the road, one going into the tent on the right. They
were the kind of long tents caterers put up to shade outdoor buffets on hot
afternoons. Clay could see that just before each line reached the tents, the
people were splitting into ten or a dozen shorter lines. Those people looked
like fans waiting to have their tickets ripped so they could go into a concert
venue.
Standing in the middle of the road at the point where the double
line split and curved off to the right and the left, still wearing his
threadbare red hoodie, was the Raggedy Man himself.
Left and right,
ladies and gentlemen. Mouth not moving. Telepathy that was all jacked up,
amped by the power of the flock. Move right along. Everyone gets a
chance to call a loved one before you go into the no-fo zone.
That gave Clay a
shock, but it was the shock of the known—like the punchline of a good joke
you'd heard for the first time ten or twenty years ago. "Where is
this?" he asked the Raggedy Man. "What are you doing? What the hell
is going on?"
But the Raggedy Man
didn't look at him, and of course Clay knew why. This was where Route 160
entered Kashwak, and he was visiting it in a dream. As for what was going on .
. .
It's phone-bingo, he
thought. It's phone-bingo, and those are the tents where the game is played.
Let's keep it moving, ladies and gents, the Raggedy Man
sent. We've got two hours until sunset, and we want to process as many of
you as we can before we have to quit for the night.
Process.
Was this a
dream?
Clay followed the
line curving toward the pavilion-style tent on the left side of the road,
knowing what he was going to see even before he saw it. At the head of each
shorter line stood one of the phone-people, those connoisseurs of Lawrence
Welk, Dean Martin, and Debby Boone. As each person in line reached the front,
the waiting usher—dressed in filthy clothes, often much more horribly
disfigured by the survival-struggles of the last eleven days than the Raggedy
Man—would hold out a cell phone.
As Clay watched, the
man closest to him took the offered phone, punched it three times, then held it
eagerly to his ear. "Hello?" he said. "Hello, Ma? Ma? Are
you th—" Then he fell silent. His eyes emptied and slackness loosened his
face. The cell sagged away from his ear slightly. The facilitator—that was the
best word Clay could think of—took the phone back, gave the man a push to start
him forward, and motioned for the next person in line to step forward.
Left and right, the
Raggedy Man was calling. Keep it moving.
The guy who'd been
trying to call his mom plodded out from beneath the pavilion. Beyond it, Clay
saw, hundreds of other people were milling around. Sometimes someone would get
in someone else's way and there would be a little weak slapping. Nothing like
before, however. Because—
Because the
signal's been modified.
Left and right,
ladies and gentlemen, keep it moving, we've got a lot of you to get through
before dark.
Clay saw Johnny. He
was wearing jeans, his Little League hat, and his favorite Red Sox T-shirt, the
one with Tim Wakefield's name and number on the back. He had just reached the
head of the line two stations down from where Clay was standing.
Clay ran for him, but
at first his path was blocked. "Get out of my way!" he shouted, but
of course the man in his way, who was shuffling nervously from foot to foot as
if he needed to go to the bathroom, couldn't hear him. This was a dream and
besides, Clay was a normie—he had no telepathy.
He darted between the
restless man and the woman behind him. He pushed through the next line as well,
too fixated on reaching Johnny to know if the people he was pushing had
substance or not. He reached Johnny just as a woman—he saw with mounting horror
that it was Mr. Scottoni's daughter-in-law, still pregnant but now missing an
eye— handed the boy a Motorola cell phone.
Just dial 911, she
said without moving her mouth. All calls go through 911.
"No, Johnny,
don't!" Clay shouted, and grabbed for the phone as Johnny-Gee began
punching in the number, surely one he'd been taught long ago to call if he was
ever in trouble. "Don't do that!"
Johnny turned to his
left, as if to shield his call from the pregnant facilitator's one dully
staring eye, and Clay missed. He probably couldn't have stopped Johnny in any
case. This was a dream, after all.
Johnny finished
(punching three keys didn't take long), pushed the SEND button, and put the
phone to his ear. "Hello? Dad? Dad, are you there? Can you hear me? If you
can hear me, please come get m—" Turned away as he was, Clay could
only see one of his son's eyes, but one was enough when you were watching the
lights go out. Johnny's shoulders slumped. The phone sagged away from his ear.
Mr. Scottoni's daughter-in-law snatched the phone from him with a dirty hand,
then gave Johnny-Gee an unloving push on the back of the neck to get him moving
into Kashwak, along with all the others who had come here to be safe. She
motioned for the next person in line to come forward and make his call.
Left and right,
form two lines, the Raggedy Man thundered in the middle of Clay's head, and
he woke up screaming his son's name in the caretaker's cottage as
late-afternoon light streamed in the windows.
3
At midnight Clay reached the little town of North Shapleigh. By
then a nasty cold rain that was almost sleet—what Sharon had called
"Slurpee rain"—had begun to fall. He heard oncoming motors and
stepped off the highway (still good old Route 11; no dream highway here) onto
the tarmac of a 7-Eleven store. When the headlights showed, turning the drizzle
to silver lines, it was a pair of sprinters running side by side, actually
racing in the dark. Madness. Clay stood behind a gas pump, not exactly hiding
but not going out of his way to be seen, either. He watched them fly past like
a vision of the gone world, sending up thin sprays of water. One of the racers
looked like a vintage Corvette, although with only a single failing emergency
light on the corner of the store to see by, it was impossible to tell for sure.
The racers shot beneath North Shapleigh's entire traffic-control system (a dead
blinker), were neon cherries in the dark for a moment, then were gone.
Clay thought again: Madness.
And as he swung back onto the shoulder of the road: You're a fine one to
talk about madness.
True. Because his
phone-bingo dream hadn't been a dream, or not entirely a dream. He was
sure of it. The phoners were using their strengthening telepathic abilities to
keep track of as many of the flock-killers as they could. That only made sense.
They might have a problem with groups like Dan Hartwick's, ones that actually
tried to fight them, but he doubted if they were having any trouble with him.
The thing was, the telepathy was also oddly like a phone—it seemed to work both
ways. Which made him . . . what? The ghost in the machine? Something like that.
While they were keeping an eye on him, he was able to keep an eye on them. At
least in his sleep. In his dreams.
Were there actual
tents at the Kashwak border, with normies lining up to get their brains
blasted? Clay thought there were, both in Kashwak and places like Kashwak
all over the country and the world. Business would be slowing down by now, but
the checkpoints—the changing-points— might still be there.
The phoners used group-speak telepathy to
coax the normies into coming. To dream them into coming. Did that make
the phoners smart, calculating? Not unless you called a spider smart because it
could spin a web, or an alligator calculating because it could lie still and
look like a log. Walking north along Route 11 toward Route 160, the road that
would take him to Kashwak, Clay thought the telepathic signal the phoners sent
out like a low siren-call (or a pulse) must contain at least three separate messages.
Come, and you'll
be safe—your struggle to survive can cease.
Come, and you'II
be with your own kind, in your own place.
Come, and you
can speak to your loved ones.
Come. Yes. Bottom
line. And once you got close enough, any choice ceased. That telepathy and the
dream of safety just took you over. You lined up. You listened as the Raggedy
Man told you to keep it moving, everyone gets to call a loved one but we've got
a lot of you to process before the sun goes down and we crank up Bette Midler
singing "The Wind Beneath My Wings."
And how could they
continue doing this, even though the lights had failed and the cities had
burned and civilization had slid into a pit of blood? How could they go on
replacing the millions of phoners lost in the original convulsion and in the
destruction of the flocks that had followed? They could continue because the
Pulse wasn't over. Somewhere—in that outlaw lab or nutcase's garage—some gadget
was still running on batteries, some modem was still putting out its squealing,
insane signal. Sending it up to the satellites that flew around the globe or to
the microwave relay towers that cinched it like a steel belt. And where could
you call and be sure your call would still go through, even if the voice
answering was only on a battery-powered answering machine?
911, apparently.
And that had almost
certainly happened to Johnny-Gee.
He knew it
had. He was already too late.
So why was he still
walking north through the drizzling dark? Up ahead was Newfield, not far, and
there he'd leave Route 11 for Route 160, and he had an idea that not too far up
Route 160 his days of reading road-signs (or anything else) would be done, so why!
But he knew why, just
as he knew that distant crash and the short, faint blare of horn he heard ahead
of him in the rainy darkness meant that one of the racing sprinters had come to
grief. He was going on because of the note on the storm door, held by less than
a quarter-inch of tape when he'd rescued it; all the rest had pulled free. He
was going on because of the second one he'd found on the Town Hall bulletin
board, half-hidden by Iris Nolan's hopeful note to her sister. His son had
written the same thing both times, in capital letters: PLEASE COME GET ME.
If he was too late to
get Johnny, he might not be too late to see him and tell him he'd tried. He might be able to hold on to enough of
himself long enough to do that even if they made him use one of the cell
phones.
As for the platforms,
and the thousands of watching people—
"There's no
football stadium in Kashwak," he said.
In his mind, Jordan
whispered: It's a virtual stadium.
Clay pushed it aside.
Pushed it away. He had made his decision. It was madness, of course, but it was
a mad world now, and that put him in perfect sync.
4
At quarter to three that morning, footsore and damp in spite of the
hooded parka he had liberated from the caretaker's cottage in Springvale, Clay
came to the intersection of Routes 11 and 160. There had been a major pileup at
the crossroads, and the Corvette that had gone racing past him in North
Shapleigh was now part of it. The driver hung out the severely compressed
window on the left side, head down and arms dangling, and when Clay tried to
lift the man's face to see if he was still alive, the top half of his body fell
into the road, trailing a meaty coil of guts behind. Clay reeled away to a
telephone pole, planted his suddenly hot forehead against the wood, and vomited
until there was nothing left.
On the other
side of the intersection, where 160 took off into the north country, stood the
Newfield Trading Post. A sign in the window promised CANDIES NATIVE SIRUP
INDIAN CRAFTS "NICK-NACKS." It looked as if it had been trashed as
well as looted, but it was shelter from the rain and away from the casual,
unexpected horror he had just encountered. Clay went in and sat down with his
head lowered until he no longer felt like fainting. There were bodies, he could
smell them, but someone had thrown a tarp over all but two, and at least those
two weren't in pieces. The joint's beer cooler was smashed and empty, the Coke
machine only smashed. He took a ginger ale and drank it in long, slow swallows,
pausing to belch. After a while he began to feel a little better.
He missed his friends
desperately. The unfortunate out there and whomever he'd been racing were the
only sprinters he'd seen all night, and he'd encountered no groups of walking
refugees at all. He'd spent the entire night with only
his thoughts for company. Maybe the weather was keeping the walkers inside, or
maybe now they were traveling days. No reason for them not to, if the phoners
had switched from murder to conversion.
He realized he hadn't
heard any of what Alice had called flockmusic tonight. Maybe all the
flocks were south of here, except for the big one (he assumed it must be a big
one) administering the Kashwak Konversions. Clay didn't much care; even alone
as he was, he would still take his vacation from "I Hope You Dance"
and "The Theme from A Summer Place" as a little gift.
He decided to walk
another hour at most, then find a hole to crawl into. The cold rain was killing
him. He left the Newfield Trading Post, resolutely not looking at the crashed
Corvette or the soaked remains lying beside it.
5
He ended up walking until nearly daylight, partly because the rain
let up but mostly because there wasn't much in the way of shelter on Route 160,
just woods. Then, around four thirty, he passed a bullet-pocked sign reading
ENTERING GURLEYVILLE, AN UNINCORPORATED TOWNSHIP. Ten minutes or so after that
he passed Gurleyville's raison d'être, such as it was—the Gurleyville Quarry, a
huge rock pit with a few sheds, dump trucks, and a garage at the foot of its
gouged granite walls. Clay thought briefly about spending the night in one of
the equipment sheds, decided he could do better, and pushed on. He had still
seen no pilgrims and heard no flockmusic, even at a distance. He could have
been the last person on earth.
He wasn't. Ten
minutes or so after leaving the quarry behind, he topped a hill and saw a
little village below. The first building he came to was the Gurleyville
Volunteer Fire Department (don't forget
the haloween blood drive read
the notice board out front; it seemed that no one north of Springvale could
spell), and two of the phone-people were standing in the parking lot, facing
each other in front of a sad-looking old pumper that might have been new around
the time the Korean War ended.
They turned slowly
toward Clay when he put his flashlight beam on them, but then they turned away to regard each other again. Both
were male, one about twenty-five and the other maybe twice that. There was no
doubt they were phoners. Their clothes were filthy and almost falling off.
Their faces were cut and scraped. The younger man looked as if he had sustained
a serious burn all the way up one arm. The older man's left eye glittered from
deep inside folds of badly swollen and probably infected flesh. But how they
looked wasn't the main thing. The main thing was what Clay felt in himself: that
same weird shortness of breath he and Tom had experienced in the office of the
Gaiten Citgo, where they'd gone to get the keys to the propane trucks. That
sense of some powerful gathering force.
And it was night. With
the heavy cloud cover, dawn was still just a rumor. What were these guys doing
up at night}
Clay snapped off his
flashlight, drew the Nickerson .45, and watched to see if anything would
happen. For several seconds he thought nothing would, that the strange
out-of-breath feeling, that sense of something being on the verge of
happening, was going to be the extent of it. Then he heard a high whining
sound, almost like someone vibrating the blade of a saw between his palms. Clay
looked up and saw the electrical wires passing in front of the fire station
were moving rapidly back and forth, almost too fast to see.
"Go-way
!" It was the young man, and he seemed to jerk the words out with a
tremendous effort. Clay jumped. If his finger had been on the revolver's
trigger, he would almost certainly have pulled it. This wasn't Aw and Eeen,
this was actual words. He thought he heard them in his head as well, but
faint, faint. Only a dying echo.
"You!. . . Go!"
the older man replied. He was wearing baggy Bermuda shorts with a huge brown
stain on the seat. It might have been mud or shit. He spoke with equal effort,
but this time Clay heard no echo in his head. Paradoxically, it made him more
sure he'd heard the first one.
They'd forgotten him entirely. Of that much he was sure.
"Mine!" said
the younger man, once more jerking the word out. And he did jerk it. His
whole body seemed to flail with the effort. Behind him, several small windows
in the fire station's wide garage door shattered outward.
There was a long
pause. Clay watched, fascinated, Johnny completely out of his mind for the
first time since Kent Pond. The older man seemed to be thinking furiously, struggling
furiously, and what Clay thought he was struggling to do was to express
himself as he had before the Pulse had robbed him of speech.
On top of the
volunteer fire station, which was nothing but a glorified garage, the siren
went off with a brief WHOOP, as if a phantom burst of electricity had
surged through it. And the lights of the ancient pumper— headlights and red
flashers—flicked briefly on, illuminating the two men and briefly scaring up
their shadows.
"Hell! You
say!" the older man managed. He spit the words out like a piece of meat
that had been choking him.
"Mynuck!"
the younger man nearly screamed, and in Clay's mind that same voice
whispered, My truck. It was simple, really. Instead of Twinkies, they
were fighting over the old pumper. Only this was at night—the end of it,
granted, but still full dark—and they were almost talking again. Hell, they were
talking.
But the talking was
done, it seemed. The young man lowered his head, ran at the older man, and
butted him in the chest. The older man went sprawling. The younger man tripped
over his legs and went to his knees. "Hell!" he cried.
"Fuck!" cried
the other. No question about it. You couldn't mistake fuck.
They picked
themselves up again and stood about fifteen feet apart. Clay could feel their
hate. It was in his head; it was pushing at his eyeballs, trying to get out.
The young man said,
"That'n . . . mynuck!" And in Clay's head the young man's
distant voice whispered, That one is my truck.
The older man drew in
breath. Jerkily raised one scabbed-over arm. And shot the young man the bird.
"Sit. On this!" he said with perfect clarity.
The two of them
lowered their heads and rushed at each other. Their heads met with a thudding
crack that made Clay wince. This time all the windows in the garage blew out.
The siren on the roof gave a long war-cry before winding down. The fluorescent
lights in the station house flashed on, running
for perhaps three seconds on pure crazypower. There was a brief burst of music:
Britney Spears singing "Oops! . . . I Did It Again." Two power-lines
snapped with liquid twanging sounds and fell almost in front of Clay, who
stepped back from them in a hurry. Probably they were dead, they should be
dead, but—
The older man dropped
to his knees with blood pouring down both sides of his head. "My
truck!" he said with perfect clarity, then fell on his face.
The younger one
turned to Clay, as if to recruit him as witness to his victory. Blood was
pouring out of his matted, filthy hair, between his eyes, in a double course
around his nose, and over his mouth. His eyes, Clay saw, weren't blank at all.
They were insane. Clay understood—all at once, completely and inarguably—that
if this was where the cycle led, his son was beyond saving.
"Mynuck!"
the young man shrieked. "Mynuck, mynuck!" The pumper's
siren gave a brief, winding growl, as if in agreement. "MYNU—"
Clay shot him, then
reholstered the .45. What the hell, he thought, they can only put me
up on a pedestal once. Still, he was shaking badly, and when he broke into
Gurleyville's only motel on the far side of town, it took him a long time to go
to sleep. Instead of the Raggedy Man, it was his son who visited him in his
dreams, a dirty, blank-eyed child who responded "Go-hell, mynuck" when
Clay called his name.
6
He woke from this dream long before dark, but sleep was done for
him and he decided to start walking again. And once he'd cleared
Gurleyville—what little of Gurleyville there was to clear—he'd drive. There was
no reason not to; Route 160 now seemed almost entirely clear and probably had
been since the nasty pileup where it crossed Route 11. He simply hadn't noticed
it in the dark and the rain.
The Raggedy Man
and his friends cleared the way, he thought. Of course they did, it's
the fucking cattle-chute. For me it probably is the chute that leads to the
slaughterhouse. Because I'm old business. They'd like to stamp me PAID and
stick me in the filing cabinet as soon as possible. Too bad about Tom and
Jordan and the
other
three. I wonder if they found enough back roads to take them into central New
Hampshire y—
He topped a rise and
this thought broke off cleanly. Parked in the middle of the road below was a
little yellow schoolbus with MAINE SCHOOL DISTRICT 38 NEWFIELD printed
on the side. Leaning against it was a man and a boy. The man had his arm around
the boy's shoulders in a casual gesture of friendship Clay would have known
anywhere. As he stood there, frozen, not quite believing his eyes, another man
came around the schoolbus's blunt nose. He had long gray hair pulled back in a
ponytail. Following him was a pregnant woman in a T-shirt. It was powder blue
instead of Harley-Davidson black, but it was Denise, all right.
Jordan saw him and
called his name. He pulled free of Tom's arm and started running. Clay ran to
meet him. They met about thirty yards in front of the schoolbus.
"Clay!"
Jordan shouted. He was hysterical with joy. "It's really you!"
"It's me,"
Clay agreed. He swung Jordan in the air, then kissed him. Jordan wasn't Johnny,
but Jordan would do, at least for the time being. He hugged him, then set him
down and studied the haggard face, not failing to note the brown circles of
weariness under Jordan's eyes. "How in God's name did you get here?"
Jordan's face
clouded. "We couldn't. . . that is, we only dreamed . . ."
Tom came strolling
up. Once again he ignored Clay's outstretched hand and hugged him instead.
"How you doin, van Gogh?" he asked.
"Okay. Fucking
delighted to see you guys, but I don't understand—"
Tom gave him a smile.
It was both tired and sweet, a white flag of a smile. "What computer-boy's
trying to tell you is that in the end we just didn't have any choice. Come on
down to the little yellow bus. Ray says that if the road stays clear—and I'm
sure it will—we can be in Kashwak by sundown, even traveling at thirty miles an
hour. Ever read The Haunting of Hill House?"
Clay shook his head,
bewildered. "Saw the movie."
"There's a line
there that resonates in the current situation—'Journeys end in lovers meeting.'
Looks like I might get to meet your kid after all."
They walked down to the schoolbus. Dan Hartwick offered Clay a tin of Altoids with a hand that was not quite
steady. Like Jordan and Tom, he looked exhausted. Clay, feeling like a man in a
dream, took one. End of the world or not, it was curiously strong.
"Hey, man,"
Ray said. He was behind the wheel of the schoolbus, Dolphins cap tipped back, a
cigarette smoldering in one hand. He looked pale and drawn. He was staring out
through the windshield, not at Clay.
"Hey, Ray, what
do you say?" Clay asked.
Ray smiled briefly.
"Say I've heard that one a few times."
"Sure, probably
a few hundred. I'd tell you I'm glad to see you, but under the circumstances,
I'm not sure you'd want to hear it."
Still looking out the
windshield, Ray replied, "There's someone up there you'll definitely not
be glad to see."
Clay looked. They all
did. A quarter of a mile or so north, Route 160 crested another hill. Standing
there and looking at them, his harvard hoodie
dirtier than ever but still bright against the gray afternoon sky, was the
Raggedy Man. Maybe fifty other phoners surrounded him. He saw them looking. He
raised his hand and waved at them twice, side to side, like a man wiping a
windshield. Then he turned and began to walk away, his entourage (his
flocklet, Clay thought) falling in to either side of him in a kind of
trailing Y Soon they were out of sight.
WORM
1
They stopped at a picnic area a little farther up the road. No one
was very hungry, but it was a chance for Clay to ask his questions. Ray didn't
eat at all, just sat on the lip of a stone barbecue pit downwind and smoked,
listening. He added nothing to the conversation. To Clay he seemed utterly
disheartened.
"We think we're
stopping here," Dan said, gesturing to the little picnic area with its
border of firs and autumn-colored deciduous trees, its babbling brook and its
hiking trail with the sign at its head reading IF YOU GO TAKE A MAP!
"We probably are stopping here, because—" He looked at Jordan.
"Would you say we're stopping here, Jordan? You seem to have the
clearest perception."
"Yes,"
Jordan said instantly. "This is real."
"Yuh," Ray
said, without looking up. "We're here, all right." He slapped his
hand against the rock of the barbecue pit, and his wedding ring produced a
little tink-tink-tink sound. "This is the real deal. We're together
again, that's all they wanted."
"I don't
understand," Clay said.
"Neither do we,
completely," Dan said.
"They're a lot
more powerful than I ever would have guessed," Tom said. "I
understand that much." He took off his glasses and polished them on his
shirt. It was a tired, distracted gesture. He looked ten years older than the
man Clay had met in Boston. "And they messed with our minds. Hard. We
never had a chance."
"You look
exhausted, all of you," Clay replied.
Denise laughed.
"Yeah? Well, we come by it honestly. We left you and took off on Route 11
westbound. Walked until we saw light starting to come up in the east. Grabbing
wheels didn't seem to make any sense, because the road was a freaking mess.
You'd get maybe a quarter of a mile clear, then—"
"Road-reefs, I
know," Clay said.
"Ray said it
would be better once we got west of the Spaulding Turnpike, but we decided to
spend the day in this place called the Twilight Motel."
"I've heard of
that place," Clay said. "On the edge of the Vaughan Woods. It's
rather notorious in my part of the world."
"Yeah?
Okay." She shrugged. "So we get there, and the kid—Jordan— says, 'I'm
gonna make you the biggest breakfast you ever ate.' And we say dream on,
kid—which turned out to be sort of funny, since that's what it was, in a
way—but the power in the place is on, and he does. He makes this
huge freakin breakfast. We all chip in. It's the Thanksgiving of breakfasts. Am
I telling this right?"
Dan, Tom, and Jordan
all nodded. Sitting on the barbecue pit, Ray just lit another cigarette.
According to Denise,
they had eaten in the dining room, which Clay found fascinating because he was
positive the Twilight didn't have a dining room; it had been your basic
no-tell motel straddling the Maine-New Hampshire state line. Rumor had it that
the only amenities were cold-water showers and hot-running X-ies on the TVs in
the crackerbox rooms.
The story got
weirder. There had been a jukebox. No Lawrence Welk and Debby Boone, either; it
had been stuffed with hot stuff (including "Hot Stuff," by Donna
Summer), and instead of going directly to bed they had danced—arduously—for two
or three hours. Then, before turning in, they had eaten another vast meal, this
time with Denise donning the chef’s hat. After that, finally, they had crashed.
"And dreamed of
walking," Dan said. He spoke with a beaten bitterness that was unsettling.
This wasn't the same man Clay had met two nights ago, the one who'd said I'm
almost positive we can keep them out of our heads when we're awake and We might
really make it, this is still early times for them. Now he laughed a little, a sound with no humor in it at
all. "Man, we should have dreamed about it, because we were. All
that day we were walking."
"Not quite all
of it," Tom said. "I had a driving-dream . . ."
"Yeah, you
drove," Jordan said quietly. "Only for an hour or so, but you drove.
That was when we also dreamed we were sleeping in that motel. The Twilight
place. I dreamed of the driving, too. It was like a dream inside of a dream.
Only that one was real."
"You see?"
Tom said, smiling at Clay. He ruffled Jordan's heavy pelt. "On some level,
Jordan knew all along."
"Virtual
reality," Jordan said. "That's all it was. Like being in a video
game, almost. And it wasn't all that good." He looked north, in the
direction the Raggedy Man had disappeared. In the direction of Kashwak.
"It'll get better if they get better."
"Sons of bitches
can't do it at all after dark," Ray said. "They have to go fucking
beddy-bye."
"And at the end
of the day, so did we," Dan said. "That was their purpose. To wear us
out so completely that we couldn't figure out what was going on even when night
came and their control slipped. During the day the President of Harvard was always
close, along with a good-sized flock, sending out that mental force-field of
theirs, creating Jordan's virtual reality."
"Must have
been," Denise said. "Yeah."
All this had been
going on, Clay calculated, while he had been sleeping in the caretaker's
cottage.
"Wearing us out
wasn't all they wanted," Tom said. "Even turning us back north wasn't
all they wanted. They also wanted us all together again."
The five of them had
come to in a tumbledown motel on Route 47— Maine Route 47, not too far
south of Great Works. The sense of dislocation, Tom said, had been enormous.
The sound of flockmusic not too far distant had not helped. They all had a
sense of what must have happened, but it was Jordan who had verbalized it, as
it had been Jordan who'd pointed out the obvious: their escape attempt had
failed. Yes, they could probably slip out of
the motel where they found themselves and start west again, but how far would
they get this time? They were exhausted. Worse, they were disheartened. It was
also Jordan who pointed out that the phoners might even have arranged for a few
normie spies to track their nighttime movements.
"We ate,"
Denise said, "because we were starving as well as tired. Then we went to
bed for real and slept until the next morning."
"I was the first
one up," Tom said. "The Raggedy Man himself was standing in the
courtyard. He made a little bow to me and waved his hand at the road."
Clay remembered the gesture well. The road is yours. Go on and take it. "I
could have shot him, I suppose—I had Sir Speedy—but what good would that have
done?"
Clay shook his head.
No good at all.
They had gotten back
on the road, first walking up Route 47. Then, Tom said, they'd felt themselves
mentally nudged onto an unmarked woods road that actually seemed to meander
southeast.
"No visions this
morning?" Clay asked. "No dreams?"
"Nope," Tom
said. "They knew we'd gotten the point. They can read minds, after
all."
"They heard us
yell uncle," Dan said in that same beaten, bitter tone. "Ray, do you
happen to have an extra cigarette? I quit, but maybe I'll take the habit up
again."
Ray tossed him the
pack without a word.
"It's like being
nudged by a hand, only inside your brain," Tom said. "Not at all
nice. Intrusive in a way I can't even begin to describe. And all this time
there was the sense of the Raggedy Man and his flock, moving with us. Sometimes
we saw a few of them through the trees; most times not."
"So they're not
just flocking early and late now," Clay said.
"No, all that's
changing," Dan said. "Jordan's got a theory—interesting, and with
some evidence to back it up. Besides, we constitute a special occasion."
He lit his cigarette. Inhaled. Coughed. "Shit, I knew there was a reason I
gave these things up." And then, with hardly a pause: "They can
float, you know. Levitate. Must be a hell of a handy way to get around with the
roads so jammed. Like having a magic carpet."
A mile or so up the
seemingly pointless woods road, the five of them had discovered a cabin with a
pickup parked in front. Keys in the truck. Ray drove; Tom and Jordan rode in
the truck-bed. None of them were surprised when the woods road eventually bent
north again. Just before it petered out, the navigation-beacon in their heads
sent them onto another, then a third that was little more than a track with
weeds growing up the middle. That one eventually drowned in a boggy patch where
the truck mired, but an hour's slog brought them out on Route 11, just south of
that highway's junction with 160.
"Couple of dead
phoners there," Tom said. "Fresh. Downed power-lines, snapped-off
poles. The crows were having a banquet."
Clay thought of
telling them what he'd seen at the Gurleyville Volunteer Fire Department, then
didn't. If it had any bearing on the present situation, he didn't see it.
Besides, there were plenty who weren't fighting with each other, and these had
kept forcing Tom and the others onward.
That force hadn't led
them to the little yellow bus; Ray had found it as a result of exploring the
Newfield Trading Post while the others were scrounging sodas from the very same
cooler Clay had raided. Ray saw it through a back window.
They had stopped only
once since then, to build a fire on the granite floor of the Gurleyville Quarry
and eat a hot meal. They had also changed into fresh footwear from the Newfield
Trading Post—their bog-slog had left all of them muddy from the shins down—and
had an hour's rest. They must have driven past Clay at the Gurleyville Motel
right around the time he was waking up, because they were nudged to a stop
shortly after that.
"And here we
are," Tom said. "Case almost closed." He swept an arm at the
sky, the land, the trees. "Someday, son, all of this will be yours."
"That pushing
thing has gone out of my head, at least for the time being," Denise said.
"I'm grateful for that. The first day was the worst, you know? I mean,
Jordan had the clearest idea that something was wrong, but I think all of us
knew it wasn't. . . you know, really right."
"Yeah," Ray
said. He rubbed the back of his neck. "It was like being in a kid's story
where the birds and snakes talk. They say stuff like, 'You're okay, you're
fine, never mind that your legs are so tired, you're deenie-cool.' Deenie-cool,
that's what we used to say when I was growin up in Lynn."
" 'Lynn, Lynn,
city of sin, when you get to heaven, they won't let you in,' " Tom
chanted.
"You grew up
with the Christers, all right," Ray said. "Anyway, the kid knew
better, I knew better, I think we all knew fuckin better. If you had
half a brain and still thought you were gettin away—"
"I believed as
long as I could because I wanted to believe," Dan said, "but in
truth? We never had a chance. Other normies might, but not us, not
flock-killers. They mean to have us, no matter what happens to them."
"What do you
think they've got in mind for us?" Clay asked.
"Oh,
death," Tom said, almost without interest. "At least I'll be able to
get some decent sleep."
Clay's mind finally
caught up with a couple of things and latched on. Earlier in the conversation,
Dan had said their normal behavior was changing and Jordan had a theory about
it. Just now he'd said no matter what happens to them.
"I saw a pair of
phoners go at each other not far from here," Clay finally told them.
"Did you,"
Dan said, without much interest.
"At night,"
he added, and now they all looked at him. "They were fighting over a
fire truck. Like a couple of kids over a toy. I got some of that telepathy from
one of them, but they were both talking."
"Talking?"
Denise asked skeptically. "Like actual words?"
“Actual words. The
clarity was in and out, but they were definitely words. How many fresh dead
have you guys seen? Just those two?"
Dan said, "We've
probably seen a dozen since we woke up to where we really are." He looked
at the others. Tom, Denise, and Jordan nodded. Ray shrugged and lit another
cigarette. "But it's hard to tell about the cause of death. They might be
reverting; that fits Jordan's theory, although the talking doesn't seem to.
They might've just been corpses the flocks haven't gotten around to getting rid
of. Body-disposal isn't a priority with them right now."
"We're their priority, and
they'll be moving us along pretty soon," Tom said. "I don't think we
get the . . . you know, the big stadium treatment until tomorrow, but I'm
pretty sure they want us in Kashwak before dark tonight."
"Jordan, what's
your theory?" Clay asked.
Jordan said, "I
think there was a worm in the original program."
2
"I don't
understand," Clay said, "but that's par for the course. When it came
to computers, I could use Word, Adobe Illustrator, and MacMail. After that I
was pretty much illiterate. Johnny had to walk me through the solitaire program
that came with my Mac." Talking about that hurt. Remembering Johnny's hand
closing over his on the mouse hurt more.
"But you know
what a computer worm is, right?"
"Something that
gets into your computer and screws up all the programs, right?"
Jordan rolled his
eyes but said, "Close enough. It can burrow in, corrupting your files and
your hard drive as it goes. If it gets into shareware and the stuff you send,
even e-mail attachments—and they do—it can go viral and spread. Sometimes a
worm has babies. The worm itself is a mutant and sometimes the babies mutate
further. Okay?"
"Okay."
"The Pulse was a
computer program sent out by modem—that's the only way it could work. And it's still
being sent out by modem. Only there was a worm in there, and it's rotting
out the program. It's becoming more corrupted every day. GIGO. Do you know
GIGO?"
Clay said, "I
don't even know the way to San Jose."
"Stands for
'garbage in, garbage out.' We think that there are conversion points where the
phoners are changing normies over—"
Clay remembered his
dream. "I'm way ahead of you there."
"But now they're
getting bad programming. Do you see? And it makes sense, because it's the
newest phoners who seem to be going down first. Fighting, freaking out, or
actually dropping dead."
"You don't have
enough data to say that," Clay replied at once. He was thinking of Johnny.
Jordan's eyes had
been bright. Now they dulled a little. "That's true." Then his chin
lifted. "But it's logical. If the premise is right—if it's a worm,
something actively burrowing deeper and deeper into the original programming—then it's every bit as logical
as the Latin they use. The new phoners are rebooting, but now it's a crazy,
uneven reboot. They get the telepathy, but they can still talk.
They—"
"Jordan, you can't
draw that conclusion on just the two I saw—"
Jordan was paying no
attention. He was really talking to himself now. "They don't flock like
the others, not as completely, because the flocking imperative is
imperfectly installed. Instead they . . . they stay up late and get up
early. They revert to aggression against their own kind. And if it's getting
worse . . . don't you see? The newest phoners would be the first ones to
get messed up!"
"It's like in War
of the Worlds," Tom said dreamily.
"Huh?"
Denise said. "I didn't see that movie. It looked too scary."
"The invaders
were killed by microbes our bodies tolerate easily," Tom said.
"Wouldn't it be poetic justice if the phone-crazies all died of a
computer-virus?"
"I'd settle for
aggression," Dan said. "Let them kill each other in one big battle
royal."
Clay was still
thinking about Johnny. Sharon too, but mostly Johnny. Johnny who'd written PLEASE
COME GET ME in those big capital letters and then signed all three names,
as if that would somehow add weight to his plea.
Ray Huizenga said,
"Isn't going to do us any good unless it happens tonight." He stood
up and stretched. "They'll be pushin us on pretty quick. I'm gonna pause
to do me a little necessary while I've got the time. Don't go without me."
"Not in
the bus, we won't," Tom said as Ray started up the hiking trail.
"You've got the keys in your pocket."
"Hope everything
comes out all right, Ray," Denise said sweetly.
"Nobody loves a
smartass, darlin," Ray said, and disappeared from view.
"What are they
going to do to us?" Clay asked. "Any ideas about that?"
Jordan shrugged.
"It may be like a closed-circuit TV hookup, only with a lot of different
areas of the country participating. Maybe even the whole world. The size of the
stadium makes me think that—"
"And the Latin,
of course," Dan said. "It's a kind of lingua franca."
"Why do they
need one?" Clay asked. "They're telepaths."
"But they still
think mostly in words," Tom said. "At least so far. In any case, they
do mean to execute us, Clay—Jordan thinks so, Dan does, and so do
I."
"So do I,"
Denise said in a small, morose voice, and caressed the curve of her belly.
Tom said, "Latin
is more than a lingua franca. It's the language of justice, and we've
seen it used by them before."
Gunner and Harold.
Yes. Clay nodded.
"Jordan has
another idea," Tom said. "I think you need to hear it, Clay. Just in
case. Jordan?"
Jordan shook his
head. "I can't."
Tom and Dan Hartwick
looked at each other.
"Well, one of
you tell me," Clay said. "I mean, Jesus!"
So it was Jordan
after all. "Because they're telepaths, they know who our loved ones
are," he said.
Clay searched for
some sinister meaning in this and didn't find it. "So?"
"I have a
brother in Providence," Tom said. "If he's one of them, he'll
be my executioner. If Jordan's right, that is."
"My
sister," Dan Hartwick said.
"My
floor-proctor," Jordan said. He was very pale. "The one with the
megapixel Nokia phone that shows video downloads."
"My
husband," Denise said, and burst into tears. "Unless he's dead. I
pray God he's dead."
For a moment Clay
still didn't get it. And then he thought: John? My Johnny? He saw the
Raggedy Man holding a hand over his head, heard the Raggedy Man pronouncing
sentence: "Ecce homo—insanus." And saw his son walking
toward him, wearing his Little League cap turned around backwards and his
favorite Red Sox shirt, the one with Tim Wakefield's name and number on it.
Johnny, small beneath the eyes of the millions watching via the miracle of
closed-circuit, flock-boosted telepathy.
Little Johnny-Gee,
smiling. Empty-handed.
Armed with nothing
but the teeth in his head.
3
It was Ray who broke the silence, although Ray wasn't even there.
"Ah,
Jesus." Coming from a little distance up the hiking trail. "Fuck."
Then: "Yo, Clay!"
"What's
up?" Clay called back.
"You've lived up
here all your life, right?" Ray didn't sound like a happy camper. Clay
looked at the others, who returned only blank stares. Jordan shrugged and
flipped his palms outward, for one heartbreaking moment becoming a
near-teenager instead of just another refugee from the Phone War.
"Well. . .
downstate, but yeah." Clay stood up. "What's the problem?"
"So you know
what poison ivy and poison oak looks like, right?"
Denise started to
break up and clapped both hands over her mouth.
"Yeah,"
Clay said. He couldn't help smiling himself, but he knew what it looked like
for sure, had warned Johnny and his backyard buddies off enough of it in his
time.
"Well get up
here and take a look," Ray said, "and come on your own." Then,
with hardly a pause: "Denise, I don't need telepathy to know you're
laughin. Put a sock in it, girl."
Clay left the picnic
area, walking past the sign reading IF YOU GO TAKE A MAP! and then
beside the pretty little brook. Everything in the woods was pretty now, a
spectrum of furnace colors mixed with the sturdy, never-changing green of the
firs, and he supposed (not for the first time, either) that if men and women
owed God a death, there were worse seasons of the year in which to pay up.
He had expected to
come upon Ray with his pants loosened or actually around his ankles, but Ray
was standing on a carpet of pine needles and his pants were buckled. There were
no bushes at all where he was, not poison ivy or anything else. He was as pale
as Alice had been when she plunged into the Nickersons' living room to vomit,
his skin so white it looked dead. Only his eyes still had life. They burned in
his face.
"C'mere,"
he said in a prison-yard whisper. Clay could hardly hear him over the noisy
chuckle of the brook. "Quick. We don't have much time."
"Ray, what the
hell—"
"Just listen.
Dan and your pal Tom, they're too smart. Jordy too. Sometimes thinking gets in
the way. Denise is better, but she's pregnant. Can't trust a pregnant woman. So
you're it, Mr. Artist. I don't like it because you're still holding on to your
kid, but your kid's over. In your heart you know it. Your kid is toast."
"Everything all
right back there, you guys?" Denise called, and numb as he was, Clay could
hear the smile in her voice.
"Ray, I don't
know what—"
"No, and that's
how it's gonna stay. Just listen. What that fuck in the red hoodie wants
isn't gonna happen, if you don't let it. That's all you need to know."
Ray reached into the
pocket of his chinos and brought out a cell phone and a scrap of paper. The
phone was gray with grime, as if it had spent most of its life in a working
environment.
"Put it in your
pocket. When the time comes, call the number on that slip. You'll know the
time. I gotta hope you'll know."
Clay took the phone.
It was either take it or drop it. The little slip of paper escaped his fingers.
"Get that!"
Ray whispered fiercely.
Clay bent and picked
up the scrap of paper. Ten digits were scrawled on it. The first three were the
Maine area code. "Ray, they read minds! If I have this—"
Ray's mouth stretched
in a terrible parody of a grin. "Yeah!" he whispered. "They peek
in your head and find out you're thinkin about a fuckin cell phone! What else
is anyone thinkin about since October first? Those of us who can still fuckin
think, that is?"
Clay looked at the
dirty, battered cell phone. There were two DYMO-tape strips on the casing. The
top one read MR. FOGARTY. The bottom one read PROP. GURLEYVILLE
QUARRY DO NOT REMOVE.
"Put it in your
fuckin pocket!”
It wasn't the urgency
of the command that made him obey. It was the urgency of those desperate eyes.
Clay began to put the phone and the scrap of paper in his pocket. He was
wearing jeans, which made the pocket a tighter fit than Ray's chinos. He was
looking down to open the pocket wider when Ray reached forward and pulled
Clay's .45 from its holster. When Clay looked up,
Ray already had the barrel under his chin.
"You'll be doin
your kid a favor, Clay. Believe it. That's no fuckin way to live."
"Ray,
no!"
Ray pulled the
trigger. The soft-nosed American Defender round took off the entire top half of
his head. Crows rose from the trees in a multitude. Clay hadn't even known they
were there, but now they scolded the autumn air with their cries.
For a little while he
drowned them out with his own.
4
They had barely started scraping him a grave in the soft dark earth
under the firs when the phoners reached into their heads. Clay was feeling that
combined power for the first time. It was as Tom had said, like being nudged in
the back by a powerful hand. If, that was, both the hand and the back were
inside your head. No words. Just that push.
"Let us
finish!" he shouted, and immediately responded to himself in a slightly
higher register that he recognized at once. "No. Go. Now."
"Five
minutes!" he said.
This time the flock
voice used Denise. "Go. Now."
Tom tumbled Ray's
body—the remains of the head wrapped in one of the headrest-covers from the
bus—into the hole and kicked in some dirt. Then he grabbed the sides of his
head, grimacing. "Okay, okay," he said, and immediately answered
himself, "Go. Now."
They walked back down
the hiking path to the picnic area, Jordan leading the way. He was very pale,
but Clay didn't think he was as pale as Ray had been in the last minute of his
life. Not even close. That's no fuckin way to live: his final words.
Standing at parade
rest across the road, in a line that stretched to both horizon-lines, maybe
half a mile in all, were phoners. There had to be four hundred of them, but
Clay didn't see the Raggedy Man. He supposed the Raggedy Man had gone on to
prepare the way, for in his house there were many mansions.
With a phone
extension in every one, Clay thought.
As they trooped
toward the minibus, he saw three of the phoners fall out of line. Two of them
began biting and fighting and tearing at each other's clothes, snarling what
could have been words—Clay thought he heard the phrase bitch-cake, but
he supposed it might just have been a coincidental occurrence of syllables. The
third simply turned and began walking away, hiking down the white line toward
Newfield.
"That's right,
fall out, sojer!" Denise yelled hysterically. "All of you fall
out!"
But they didn't, and
before the deserter—if that was what he was— had gotten to the curve where
Route 160 swept out of sight to the south, an elderly but powerfully built
phoner simply shot out his arms, grasped the hiker's head, and twisted it to
one side. The hiker collapsed to the pavement.
"Ray had the
keys," Dan said in a tired voice. Most of his ponytail had come undone,
and his hair spilled over his shoulders. "Somebody will have to go back
and—"
"I got
them," Clay said. "And I'll drive." He opened the side door of
the little bus, feeling that steady beat-beat-beat, push-push-push in his head.
There was blood and dirt on his hands. He could feel the weight of the cell
phone in his pocket and had a funny thought: maybe Adam and Eve had picked a
few apples before being driven out of Eden. A little something to munch while
on the long and dusty road to seven hundred television channels and backpack
bombs in the London subway system. "Get in, everybody."
Tom gave him a look.
"You don't have to sound so goddam cheerful, van Gogh."
"Why not?"
Clay said, smiling. He wondered if his smile looked like Ray's—that awful
end-of-life rictus. "At least I won't have to listen to your bullshit
much longer. Hop aboard. Next stop, Kashwak-No-Fo."
But before anyone got
on the bus, they were made to throw away their guns.
This didn't come as a
mental command, nor was their motor-control overridden by some superior
force—Clay didn't have to watch as something made his hand reach down and pluck
the .45 from its holster. He didn't think the
phoners could do that, at least not yet; they couldn't even do the
ventriloquism thing unless they were allowed to. Instead he felt something like
an itch, a terrible one, just short of intolerable, inside his head.
"Oh, Mary!"
Denise cried in a low voice, and threw the little .22 she carried in her
belt as far as she could. It landed in the road. Dan threw his own pistol after
it, then added his hunting knife for good measure. The knife flew blade-first
almost to the far side of Route 160, but none of the phoners standing there flinched.
Jordan dropped the
pistol he was carrying to the ground beside the bus. Then, whining and
twitching, he tore into his pack and tossed away the one Alice had been
carrying. Tom added Sir Speedy.
Clay contributed the
.45 to the other weapons beside the bus. It had been unlucky for two people
since the Pulse, and he wasn't terribly sorry to see it go.
"There," he
said. He spoke to the watching eyes and dirty faces—many of them mutilated—that
were watching from across the road, but it was the Raggedy Man he was
visualizing. "That's all of them. Are you satisfied?" And answered
himself at once. "Why. Did. He do it?"
Clay swallowed. It
wasn't just the phoners who wanted to know; Dan and the others were watching
him, too. Jordan, he saw, was holding on to Tom's belt, as if he feared Clay's
answer the way a toddler might fear a busy street. One full of speeding trucks.
"He said your
way was no way to live," Clay said. "He took my gun and blew his head
off before I could stop him."
Silence, except for
the cawing of crows. Then Jordan spoke, flat and declamatory. "Our way. Is
the only way."
Dan was next. Just as
flat. Unless they feel rage, they feel nothing, Clay thought. "Get
on. The bus."
They got on the bus.
Clay slid behind the wheel and started the engine. He headed north on Route
160. He had been rolling less than a minute when he became aware of movement on
his left. It was the phoners. They were moving north along the shoulder—above
the shoulder—in a straight line, as if on an invisible conveyor belt
running maybe eight inches over the dirt. Then, up ahead, where the road
crested, they rose much higher, to perhaps fifteen feet,
making a human arch against the dull, mostly cloudy sky. Watching the phoners
disappear over the top of the hill was like watching people ride the mild swell
of an invisible roller coaster.
Then the graceful
symmetry broke. One of the rising figures fell like a bird shot from a
duck-blind, dropping at least seven feet to the side of the road. It was a man
in the tattered remains of a jogging suit. He spun furiously in the dirt,
kicking with one leg, dragging the other. As the bus rolled past him at a
steady fifteen miles an hour, Clay saw the man's face was drawn down in a grimace
of fury and his mouth was working as he spewed out what was almost surely his
dying declaration.
"So now we
know," Tom said hollowly. He was sitting with Jordan on the bench at the
back of the bus, in front of the luggage area where their packs were stowed.
"Primates give rise to man, man gives rise to phoners, phoners give rise
to levitating telepaths with Tourette's syndrome. Evolution complete."
Jordan said,
"What's Tourette's syndrome?"
Tom said,
"Fucked if I know, son," and incredibly, they were all laughing. Soon
they were roaring—even Jordan, who didn't know what he was laughing at—while
the little yellow bus rolled slowly north with the phoners passing it and then
rising, rising, in a seemingly endless procession.
KASHWAK
1
An hour after leaving the picnic area where Ray had shot himself
with Clay's gun, they passed a sign reading
OCTOBER 5-15
COME ONE, COME
ALL!!!
VISIT
KASHWAKAMAK HALL
AND DON'T FORGET
THE UNIQUE "NORTH END"
*SLOTS
(INCLUDING TEXAS HOLD 'EM)
*"INDIAN
BINGO"
YOU'LL
SAY "WOW!!!"
"Oh my
God," Clay said. "The Expo. Kashwakamak Hall. Christ. If there was
ever a place for a flock, that's it."
"What's an
expo?" Denise asked.
"Your basic
county fair," Clay said, "only bigger than most of them and quite a
lot wilder, because it's on the TR, which is unincorporated. Also, there's that
North End business. Everyone in Maine knows about the North End at the Northern Counties Expo.
In its own way, it's as notorious as the Twilight Motel."
Tom wanted to know
what the North End was, but before Clay could explain, Denise said,
"There's two more. Mary-and-Jesus, I know they're phoners, but it still
makes me sick."
A man and a woman lay
in the dust at the side of the road. They had died either in an embrace or a
bitter battle, and embracing did not seem to go with the phoner lifestyle. They
had passed half a dozen other bodies on their run north, almost certainly
casualties from the flock that had come down to get them, and had seen twice
that number wandering aimlessly south, sometimes alone, sometimes in pairs. One
of the pairs, clearly confused about where they wanted to go, had actually
tried to hitchhike the bus as it passed.
"Wouldn't it be
nice if they'd all either fall out or drop dead before what they've got planned
for us tomorrow?" Tom said.
"Don't count on
it," Dan said. "For every casualty or deserter we've seen, we've seen
twenty or thirty who are still with the program. And God knows how many are
waiting in this Kashwacky place."
"Don't count it
out, either," Jordan said from his place beside Tom. He spoke a little
sharply. "A bug in the program—a worm—is not a small thing. It can start
out as a minor pain in the ass and then boom, everything's down. I play this
game, Star-Mag? Well, you know—I used to play it—and this sore sport out in
California got so mad about losing all the time that he put a worm in the
system and it took down all the servers in a week. Almost half a million gamers
back to computer cribbage because of that jamhead."
"We don't have a
week, Jordan," Denise said.
"I know,"
he said. "And I know they're not all apt to go wheels-up overnight . . .
but it's possible. And I won't stop hoping. I don't want to end up like
Ray. He stopped . . . you know, hoping." A single tear rolled down
Jordan's cheek.
Tom gave him a hug.
"You won't end up like Ray," he said. "You're going to grow up
to be like Bill Gates."
"I don't want to
grow up to be like Bill Gates," Jordan said morosely. "I bet Bill
Gates had a cell phone. In fact I bet he had a dozen." He sat up straight. "One thing I'd give a lot
to know is how so many cell phone transmission towers can still be working when
the fucking power's down."
"FEMA," Dan
said hollowly.
Tom and Jordan turned
to look at him, Tom with a tentative smile on his lips. Even Clay glanced up
into the rearview mirror.
"You think I'm
joking," Dan said. "I wish I was. I read an article about it in a
newsmagazine while I was in my doctor's office, waiting for that disgusting
exam where he puts on a glove and then goes prospecting—"
"Please,"
Denise said. "Things are bad enough. You can skip that part. What did the
article say?"
"That after
9/11, FEMA requested and got a sum of money from Congress—I don't remember how
much, but it was in the tens of millions—to equip cell phone transmission
towers nationwide with long-life emergency generators to make sure the nation's
ability to communicate wouldn't go to hell in the event of coordinated
terrorist attacks." Dan paused. "I guess it worked."
"FEMA," Tom
said. "I don't know whether to laugh or cry."
"I'd tell you to
write your congressman, but he's probably insane," Denise said.
"He was insane
well before the Pulse," Tom answered, but he spoke absently. He was
rubbing the back of his neck and looking out the window. "FEMA," he
said. "You know, it sort of makes sense. Fucking FEMA."
Dan said, "I'd
give a lot just to know why they've made such a business of collaring us
and bringing us in."
"And making sure
the rest of us don't follow Ray's example," Denise said. "Don't
forget that." She paused. "Not that I would. Suicide's a sin. They
can do whatever they want to me here, but I'm going to heaven with my baby. I
believe that."
"The Latin's the
part that gives me the creeps," Dan said. "Jordan, is it possible
that the phoners could take old stuff—stuff from before the Pulse, I mean—and
incorporate it into their new programming? If it fit their . . . mmmm, I don't
know . . . their long-term goals?"
"I guess,"
Jordan said. "I don't really know, because we don't know what sort of
commands might have been encoded in the Pulse. This isn't like ordinary computer programming in any
case. It's self-generating. Organic. Like learning. I guess it is learning.
'It satisfies the definition,' the Head would say. Only they're all learning
together, because—"
"Because of the
telepathy," Tom said.
"Right,"
Jordan agreed. He looked troubled.
"Why does the
Latin give you the creeps?" Clay asked, looking at Dan in the rearview
mirror.
"Tom said Latin's the language of justice, and I guess that's
true, but this feels much more like vengeance to me." He leaned forward.
Behind his glasses, his eyes were tired and troubled. "Because, Latin or
no Latin, they can't really think. I'm convinced of that. Not yet,
anyway. What they depend on instead of rational thought is a kind of hive mind
born out of pure rage."
"I object, Your
Honor, Freudian speculation!" Tom said, rather merrily.
"Maybe Freud,
maybe Lorenz," Dan said, "but give me the benefit of the doubt either
way. Would it be surprising for such an entity—such a raging entity—to confuse
justice and vengeance?"
"Would it
matter?" Tom asked.
"It might to
us," Dan said. "As someone who once taught a block course on
vigilantism in America, I can tell you that vengeance usually ends up hurting
more."
2
Not long after this conversation, they came to a place Clay recognized.
Which was unsettling, because he had never been in this part of the state
before. Except once, in his dream of the mass conversions.
Written across the
road in broad strokes of bright green paint was KASHWAK=NO-FO. The van rolled
over the words at a steady thirty
miles an hour as the phoners continued to stream past in their stately, witchy
procession on the left.
That was no dream,
he thought, looking at the drifts of trash caught in the bushes at the
sides of the road, the beer and soda cans in the ditches. Bags that had
contained potato chips, Doritos, and Cheez Doodles crackled under the
tires of the little bus. The normies stood here in a double line, eating
their snacks and drinking their drinks, feeling that funny itch in their heads,
that weird sense of a mental hand pushing on their backs, waiting their turns
to call some loved one who got lost in the Pulse. They stood here and listened
to the Raggedy Man say "Left and right, two lines, that's correct, that's
doing it, let's keep moving, we've got a lot of you to process before
dark."
Up ahead the trees
drew back on either side of the road. What had been some farmer's hard-won
grazeland for cows or sheep had now been flattened and churned down to bare
earth by many passing feet. It was almost as though there had been a rock
concert here. One of the tents was gone—blown away—but the other had caught on
some trees and flapped in the dull early-evening light like a long brown
tongue.
"I dreamed of
this place," Jordan said. His voice was tight.
"Did you?"
Clay said. "So did I."
"The normies
followed the Kashwak equals No-Fo signs, and this is what they came to,"
Jordan said. "It was like tollbooths, wasn't it, Clay?"
"Kind of,"
Clay said. "Kind of like tollbooths, yeah."
"They had big
cardboard boxes full of cell phones," Jordan said. This was a detail Clay
didn't remember from his own dream, but he didn't doubt it. "Heaps and
heaps of them. And every normie got to make a call. What a bunch of lucky
ducks."
"When did you
dream this, Jordy?" Denise asked.
"Last
night." Jordan's eyes met Clay's in the rearview mirror. "They knew
they weren't going to be talking to the people they wanted to talk to. Down
deep they knew. But they did it anyway. They took the phones anyway. Took em
and listened. Most of em didn't even put up a fight. Why, Clay?"
"Because they
were tired of fighting, I suppose," Clay said. "Tired of being
different. They wanted to hear 'Baby Elephant Walk' with new ears."
They were past the
beaten-down fields where the tents had been. Ahead, a paved byroad split off
from the highway. It was broader and smoother than the state road. The phoners
were streaming up this byway and disappearing into a slot in the woods. Looming
high above the trees half a mile or so farther on was a steel gantrylike
structure Clay recognized at once from his dreams. He thought it had to be some
sort of amusement attraction, maybe a Parachute
Drop. There was a billboard at the junction of the highway and the byroad,
showing a laughing family— dad, mom, sonny, and little sis—walking into a
wonderland of rides, games, and agricultural exhibits.
NORTHERN
COUNTIES EXPO
GALA FIREWORKS
SHOW OCTOBER 5TH
VISIT
KASHWAKAMAK HALL
THE "NORTH
END" OPEN "24/7" OCTOBER 5-15
YOU'LL SAY
"WOW!!!"
Standing below this
billboard was the Raggedy Man. He raised one hand and held it out in a stop gesture.
Oh Jesus, Clay
thought, and pulled the minibus up beside him. The Raggedy Man's eyes, which Clay
hadn't been able to get right in his drawing at Gaiten, looked simultaneously
dazed and full of malevolent interest. Clay told himself it was impossible for
them to appear both ways at the same time, but they did. Sometimes the dazed
dullness was foremost in them; a moment later it seemed to be that weirdly
unpleasant avidity.
He can't want to
get on with us.
But the Raggedy Man
did, it seemed. He lifted his hands to the door with the palms pressed
together, then opened them. The gesture was rather pretty—like a man indicating
this bird has flown—but the hands themselves were black with filth, and
the little finger on the left one had been badly broken in what looked like two
places.
These are the
new people, Clay thought. Telepaths who don't take baths.
"Don't let him
on," Denise said. Her voice was trembling.
Clay, who could see
that the steady conveyor-movement of phoners to the left of the bus had
stopped, shook his head. "No choice."
They peek in
your head and find out you're thinkin about a fuckin cellphone, Ray had said—had
almost snorted. What else is anyone thinkin about since October first?
Hope you're
right, Ray, he thought, because it's still an hour and a half until dark.
An hour and a half at least.
He threw the lever that opened the door
and the Raggedy Man, torn lower lip drooping in its constant sneer, climbed
aboard. He was painfully thin; the filthy red sweatshirt hung on him like a
sack. None of the normies on the bus were particularly clean—hygiene hadn't
been a priority since the first of October—but the Raggedy Man gave off a ripe
and powerful stench that almost made Clay's eyes water. It was the smell of
strong cheese left to sweat it out in a hot room.
The Raggedy Man sat
down in the seat by the door, the one that faced the driver's seat, and looked
at Clay. For a moment there was nothing but the dusty weight of his eyes and
that strange grinning curiosity.
Then Tom spoke in a
thin, outraged voice Clay had heard him use only once before, when he'd said That's
it, everybody out of the pool to the plump Bible-toting woman who'd started
preaching her End Times sermon to Alice. "What do you want from us? You
have the world, such as it is— what do you want from us?"
The Raggedy Man's
ruined mouth formed the word even as Jordan said it. Only that one word, flat
and emotionless. "Justice."
"When it comes
to justice," Dan said, "I don't think you have a clue."
The Raggedy Man
replied with a gesture, raising one hand to the feeder-road, palm up and index
finger pointing: Get rolling.
When the bus started
to move, most of the phoners started to move again, as well. A few more had
fallen to fighting, and in the outside mirror Clay saw others walking back down
the expo feeder-road toward the highway.
"You're losing
some of your troops," Clay said.
The Raggedy Man made
no reply on behalf of the flock. His eyes, now dull, now curious, now both,
remained fixed on Clay, who fancied he could almost feel that gaze walking
lightly over his skin. The Raggedy Man's twisted fingers, gray with dirt, lay
on the lap of his grimy blue jeans. Then he grinned. Maybe that was answer
enough. Dan was right, after all. For every phoner who dropped out—who went
wheels-up, in Jordan-speak—there were plenty more. But Clay had no idea how many
plenty more might entail until half an hour later, when the woods opened up
on both sides and they passed beneath the wooden arch reading WELCOME TO THE
NORTHERN COUNTIES EXPO.
3
"Dear
God," Dan said.
Denise
articulated Clay's own feelings better; she gave a low scream.
Sitting across the
narrow aisle of the little bus in the first passenger seat, the Raggedy Man
only sat and stared at Clay with the half-vacant malevolence of a stupid child
about to pull the wings off a few flies. Do you like it? his grin seemed
to say. It's quite something, isn't it? The gang's all here! Of course a grin like that could mean that
or anything. It could even mean I know what you have in your pocket.
Beyond the arch was a
midway and a batch of rides, both still being assembled at the time of the
Pulse, from the way things looked. Clay didn't know how many of the carny
pitch-tents had been erected, but some had blown away, like the pavilions at
the checkpoint six or eight miles back, and only half a dozen or so still
stood, their sides seeming to breathe in the evening breeze. The Krazy Kups
were half-built, and so was the funhouse across from it (WE DARE YOU TO ran
across the single piece of façade that had been erected; skeletons danced above
the words). Only the Ferris wheel and the Parachute Drop at the far end of what
would have been the midway looked complete, and with no electric lights to make
them jolly, they looked gruesome to Clay, less like amusement rides than
gigantic implements of torture. Yet one light was blinking, he saw: a
tiny red beacon, surely battery-powered, at the very top of the Parachute Drop.
Well beyond the Drop
was a white building with red trim, easily a dozen barn-lengths long. Loose hay
had been heaped along the sides. American flags, fluttering in the evening
breeze, had been planted in this cheap rural insulation every ten feet or so.
The building was draped with swags of patriotic bunting and bore the legend
NORTHERN
COUNTIES EXPO
KASHWAKAMAK HALL
in bright blue paint.
But none of
this was what had attracted their attention. Between the Parachute Drop and
Kashwakamak Hall were several acres of open ground. Clay guessed it was where
the big crowds gathered for livestock exhibitions, tractor-pulls,
end-of-fair-day concerts, and—of course—the fireworks shows that would both
open and close the Expo. It was ringed with light-standards and
loudspeaker-poles. Now this broad and grassy mall was crammed with phoners.
They stood shoulder to shoulder and hip to hip, their faces turned to watch the
arrival of the little yellow bus.
Any hope Clay had
harbored of seeing Johnny—or Sharon—was gone in a moment. His first thought was
that there had to be five thousand people crowded beneath those dead
light-standards. Then he saw they had spilled into the grassy parking lots
adjoining the main exhibition area as well and revised his estimate upward.
Eight. Eight thousand at least.
The Raggedy Man sat
where some Newfield Elementary School third-grader belonged, grinning at Clay
with his teeth jutting through the split in his lip. Do you like it? that
grin seemed to ask, and again Clay had to remind himself that you could read
anything into a grin like that.
"So who's playing tonight? Vince
Gill? Or did you guys break the bank and get Alan Jackson?" That was Tom.
He was trying to be funny and Clay gave him high marks for that, but Tom only
sounded scared.
The Raggedy Man was
still looking at Clay, and a little vertical crease had appeared in the middle
of his brow, as if something puzzled him.
Clay drove the
minibus slowly up the center of the midway, toward the Parachute Drop and the
silent multitude beyond. There were more bodies here; they reminded Clay of how
you sometimes found heaps of dead bugs on the windowsills after a sudden cold
snap. He concentrated on keeping his hands loose. He didn't want the Raggedy
Man to see his knuckles turn white on the wheel.
And go slow.
Nice and easy does it. He's only looking at you. As for cellphones, what else
has anyone been thinking about since October first?
The Raggedy Man
raised a hand and pointed one twisted, badly used finger at Clay. "No-fo,
you," Clay said in that other voice. "Insanus."
"Yeah,
no-fo-me-me, no-fo none of us, we're all bozos on this bus," Clay said.
"But you'll fix that, right?"
The Raggedy Man
grinned, as if to say that was right . . . but the little vertical line
was still there. As if something still puzzled him. Maybe something rolling and
tumbling around in Clay Riddell's mind.
Clay looked up into
the rearview mirror as they neared the end of the midway. "Tom, you asked
me what the North End was," he said.
"Forgive me,
Clay, but my interest seems to have waned," Tom said. "Maybe it's the
size of the welcoming committee."
"No, but this is
interesting," Clay said, a little feverishly.
"Okay, what is
it?" Jordan asked. God bless Jordan. Curious to the end.
"The Northern
Counties Expo was never a big deal in the twentieth century," Clay said.
"Just your standard little shitpot aggie fair with arts, crafts, produce,
and animals over there in Kashwakamak Hall. . . which is where they're going to
put us, from the look of things."
He glanced at the Raggedy Man, but the
Raggedy Man neither confirmed nor denied. The Raggedy Man only grinned. The
little vertical line had disappeared from his forehead.
"Clay, look
out," Denise said in a tight, controlled voice.
He looked back
through the windshield and stepped on the brake. An elderly woman with infected
lacerations on both legs came swaying out of the silent crowd. She skirted the
edge of the Parachute Drop, trampled over several prefab pieces of the funhouse
that had been laid out but not erected at the time of the Pulse, then broke
into a shambling run aimed directly at the schoolbus. When she reached it, she
began to hammer slowly on the windshield with filthy, arthritis-twisted hands.
What Clay saw in this woman's face wasn't the avid blankness he'd come to
associate with the phoners but terrified disorientation. And it was familiar. Who
are you? Pixie Dark had asked. Pixie Dark, who hadn't gotten a direct blast
of the Pulse. Who am I?
Nine phoners in a
neat moving square came after the elderly woman, whose frantic face was less than five feet from Clay's own. Her
mouth moved, and he heard four words, both with his ears and with his mind: "Take me
with you."
We're not going
anywhere you want to go, lady, Clay thought.
Then the phoners
grabbed her and took her back toward the multitude on the grassy mall. She
struggled to get away, but they were relentless. Clay caught one flash of her
eyes and thought they were the eyes of a woman who was in purgatory only if she
was lucky. More likely it was hell.
Once more the Raggedy
Man held out his hand, palm-up and index finger pointing: Roll.
The elderly woman had
left a handprint, ghostly but visible, on the windshield. Clay looked through
it and got rolling.
4
"Anyhow,"
he said, "until 1999, the Expo was no big deal. If you lived in this part
of the world and wanted rides and games—carny stuff—you had to go down to the
Fryeburg Fair." He heard his own voice running as if on a tape loop. Talk
for the sake of talk. It made him think of the drivers on the Duck Boat tours
in Boston, pointing out the various sights. "Then, just before the turn of
the century, the State Bureau of Indian Affairs did a land-survey. Everybody
knew the Expo grounds were right next door to the Sockabasin Rez; what that
land-survey showed was that the north end of Kashwakamak Hall was actually on
reservation land. Technically, it was in Micmac Indian territory. The people
running the Expo were no dummies, and neither were the ones on the Micmac
tribal council. They agreed to clean out the little shops from the north end of
the hall and put in slots. All at once the Northern Counties Expo was Maine's
biggest fall fair."
They had
reached the Parachute Drop. Clay started to jog left and guide the little bus
between the ride and the half-constructed funhouse, but the Raggedy Man patted
his hands on the air, palms-down. Clay stopped. The Raggedy Man stood up and
turned to the door. Clay threw the lever and the Raggedy Man stepped off. Then
he turned to Clay and made a kind of sweeping, bowing gesture.
"What's he doing
now?" Denise asked. She couldn't see from where she was sitting. None of
them could.
"He wants us to
get off," Clay said. He stood up. He could feel the cell phone Ray had
given him lying hard along his upper thigh. If he looked down, he would see its
outline against the blue denim of his jeans. He pulled down the T-shirt he was
wearing, trying to cover it. A cellphone, so what,
everybody's thinking about them.
"Are we going
to?" Jordan asked. He sounded scared.
"Not much
choice," Clay said. "Come on, you guys, let's go to the fair."
5
The Raggedy Man led them toward the silent multitude. It opened for
them, leaving a narrow aisle—not much more than a throat—from the back of the
Parachute Drop to the double doors of Kashwakamak Hall. Clay and the others
passed a parking area filled with trucks (new
england amusement corp. was printed on the sides, along with a
roller-coaster logo). Then the crowd swallowed them.
That walk seemed
endless to Clay. The smell was nearly insupportable, wild and ferocious even
with the freshening breeze to carry the top layer away. He was aware of his
legs moving, he was aware of the Raggedy Man's red hoodie ahead of him, but the
hall's double doors with their swags of red, white, and blue bunting seemed to
get no closer. He smelled dirt and blood, urine and shit. He smelled fermenting
infections, burned flesh, the spoiled eggwhite aroma of oozing pus. He smelled
clothes that were rotting on the bodies they draped. He smelled something else,
as well—some new thing. Calling it madness would have been too easy.
I think it's the
smell of telepathy. And if it is, we're not ready for it. It's too strong for
us. It burns the brain, somehow, the way too much current will burn out the
electrical system in a car or a—
"Help me with
her!" Jordan yelled from behind him. "Help me with her, she's
fainting!"
He turned and saw
that Denise had gone down on all fours. Jordan was on all fours beside her and
had one of her arms over his neck, but she was too heavy for him. Tom and Dan
couldn't get forward enough to help. The corridor
cutting through the mass of phoners was too narrow. Denise raised her head, and
for a moment her eyes met Clay's. The look was one of dazed incomprehension,
the eyes those of a slugged steer. She vomited a thin gruel onto the grass and
her head dropped down again. Her hair fell around her face like a curtain.
"Help me!"
Jordan shouted again. He began to cry.
Clay went back and
started elbowing phoners in order to get on Denise's other side. "Get out
of the way!" he shouted. "Get out of the way, she's pregnant, can't
you fools see she's preg—"
It was the blouse he
recognized first. The high-necked, white silk blouse that he had always called
Sharon's doctor shirt. In some ways he thought it was the sexiest garment she
owned, partly because of that high, prim neck. He liked her bare, but he liked
to touch and squeeze her breasts through that high-necked, white silk blouse
even more. He liked to bring her nipples up until he could see them poking the
cloth.
Now Sharon's doctor
shirt was streaked black with dirt in some places and maroon with dried blood
in others. It was torn under the arm. She doesn’t look as bad as some, Johnny
had written, but she didn't look good; she certainly wasn't the Sharon Riddell
who had gone off to school in her doctor shirt and her dark red skirt while her
estranged husband was in Boston, about to make a deal that would put an end to
their financial worries and make her realize that all her carping about his
"expensive hobby" had been so much fear and bad faith (that, anyway,
had been his semi-resentful dream). Her dark blond hair hung in lank strings.
Her face had been cut in a number of places, and one of her ears looked torn
half-off; where it had been, a clotted hole bored into the side of her head.
Something she had eaten, something dark, clung in curds to the corners of the
mouth he had kissed almost every day for almost fifteen years. She stared at
him, through him, with that idiotic half-grin they sometimes wore.
"Clay help
me!" Jordan almost sobbed.
Clay snapped back.
Sharon wasn't here, that was the thing to remember. Sharon hadn't been here for
almost two weeks now. Not since trying to make a call on Johnny's little red
cell phone on the day of the Pulse.
"Give me some
room, you bitch," he said, and pushed aside the woman who'd been his wife.
Before she could rebound, he slid into her place.
"This woman's
pregnant, so give me some fucking room." Then he bent, slipped Denise's
other arm over his neck, and got her up.
"Go on
ahead," Tom said to Jordan. "Let me in, I've got her."
Jordan held up
Denise's arm long enough for Tom to slip it over his own neck. He and Clay
carried her that way the final ninety yards to the doors of Kashwakamak Hall,
where the Raggedy Man stood waiting. By then Denise was muttering that they
could let her go, she could walk, she was all right, but Tom wouldn't. Neither
would Clay. If he let her go, he might look back for Sharon. He didn't want to
do that.
The Raggedy Man
grinned at Clay, and this time that grin seemed to have more focus. It really
was as though the two of them shared a joke. Sharon? he wondered. Is
Sharon the joke?
It seemed not,
because the Raggedy Man made a gesture that would have seemed very familiar to
Clay in the old world but seemed eerily out of place here: right hand to the
right side of his face, right thumb to ear, pinkie finger to mouth. The
phone-mime.
"No-fo-you-you," Denise said, and then, in her own voice:
"Don't do that, I hate it when you do that!"
The Raggedy Man paid
her no mind. He went on holding his right hand in the phone-gesture, thumb to
ear and pinkie to mouth, staring at Clay. For one moment Clay was sure he also
glanced down at the pocket where the cell phone was stowed. Then Denise said it
again, that horrible parody of his old routine with Johnny-Gee: "No-fo-you-you."
The Raggedy Man mimed laughing, and his ruined mouth made it gruesome. From
behind him, Clay felt the eyes of the flock like a physical weight.
Then the double doors
of Kashwakamak Hall opened on their own, and the mingled odors that came out,
although faint—olfactory ghosts of other years—was still an anodyne to the
stink of the flock: spices, jams, hay, and livestock. It wasn't completely
dark, either; the battery-powered emergency lights were dim, but hadn't yet
given out entirely. Clay thought that was pretty amazing, unless they had been
saved especially for their arrival, and he doubted that. The Raggedy Man wasn't
telling. He only smiled and gestured with his hands for them to go in.
"It'll be a
pleasure, you freak," Tom said. "Denise, are you sure you can walk on
your own?"
"Yes. I've just
got one tiny bit of business first." She drew in breath, then spit in the
Raggedy Man's face. "There. Take that back to Hah-vud with you,
fuckface."
The Raggedy Man said
nothing. He only grinned at Clay. Just two fellows sharing a secret joke.
6
No one brought them any food, but there were snack machines galore
and Dan found a crowbar in the maintenance closet at the huge building's south
end. The others were standing around and watching him pry open the candy
machine—Of course we're insane, Clay thought, we eat Baby Ruths for
dinner and tomorrow we'll have Pay Days for breakfast—when the music
started. And it wasn't "You Light Up My Life" or "Baby Elephant
Walk" coming out of the big speakers ringing the grassy mall outside, not
this time. It was something slow and stately that Clay had heard before,
although not for years. It filled him with sadness and made gooseflesh run up
the soft insides of his arms.
"Oh my
God," Dan said softly. "I think it's Albinoni."
"No," Tom
said. "That's Pachelbel. It's the Canon in D Major."
"Of course it
is," Dan said, sounding embarrassed.
"It's as if . .
." Denise began, then stopped. She looked down at her shoes.
"What?"
Clay asked. "Go on, say it. You're among friends."
"It's like the
sound of memories," she said. "As if it's all they have."
"Yes," Dan
said. "I suppose—"
"You guys!"
Jordan called. He was looking out one of the small windows. They were quite
high, but by standing on his tiptoes, he could just manage. "Come look at
this!"
They lined up and
looked out at the wide mall. It was almost full dark. The speakers and the
light-standards loomed, black sentinels against the dead sky. Beyond was the
gantry shape of the Parachute Drop with its one lonely blinking light. And
ahead, directly ahead, thousands of phoners had gone to their knees like
Muslims about to pray while Johann Pachelbel filled the air with what could
have been a substitute for memory. And when
they lay down they lay as one, producing a great soft swoop of noise and a
fluttering displacement of air that sent empty bags and flattened soda cups
twirling into the air.
"Bedtime for the
whole brain-damaged army," Clay said. "If we're going to do
something, it's got to be tonight."
"Do? What are we
going to do?" Tom asked. "The two doors I tried are both locked. I'm
sure that's true of the others, as well."
Dan held up the crowbar.
"Don't think so," Clay said. "That thing may work
just fine on the vending machines, but remember, this place used to be a
casino." He pointed to the north end of the hall, which was lushly
carpeted and filled with rows of one-armed bandits, their chrome muted in the
glow of the failing emergency lights. "I think you'll find the doors are
crowbar-resistant."
"The
windows?" Dan asked, then took a closer look and answered his own
question. "Jordan, maybe."
"Let's have
something to eat," Clay said. "Then let's just sit down and be quiet
for a little while. There hasn't been enough of that."
"And do
what?" Denise asked.
"Well, you guys
can do what you want," Clay said. "I haven't done any drawing in
almost two weeks, and I've been missing it. I think I'll draw."
"You don't have
any paper," Jordan objected.
Clay smiled.
"When I don't have any paper, I draw in my head."
Jordan looked at him
uncertainly, trying to ascertain whether his leg was being pulled. When he
decided it wasn't, he said, "That can't be as good as drawing on paper,
can it?"
"In some ways
it's better. Instead of erasing, I just rethink."
There was a loud
clank and the door of the candy machine swung open. "Bingo!" Dan
cried, and lifted his crowbar above his head. "Who said college professors
were good for nothing in the real world?"
"Look,"
Denise said greedily, ignoring Dan. "A whole rack of Junior Mints!"
She dug in.
"Clay?" Tom
asked.
"Hmmm?"
"I don't suppose
you saw your little boy, did you? Or your wife? Sandra?"
"Sharon,"
Clay said. "I didn't see either of them." He looked around Denise's
ample hip. "Are those Butterfingers?"
7
Half an hour later they had eaten their fill of candy and raided
the soda machine. They had tried the other doors and found them all locked. Dan
tried his crowbar and couldn't get purchase even at the bottom. Tom was of the
opinion that, although the doors looked like wood, they were very likely
equipped with steel cores.
"Probably
alarmed, too," Clay said. "Screw around with them too much and the
reservation police will come and take you away."
Now the other four
sat in a little circle on the soft casino carpeting among the slot machines.
Clay sat on the concrete, with his back against the double doors through which
the Raggedy Man had ushered them with that mocking gesture of his—After you,
see you in the morning.
Clay's thoughts
wanted to return to that other mocking gesture—the thumb-and-pinkie
phone-mime—but he wouldn't let them, at least not directly. He knew from long
experience that the best way to go after such things was by the back door. So
he leaned his head against the wood with the steel core hiding inside, and
closed his eyes, and visualized a comic splash-page. Not a page from Dark
Wanderer—Dark Wanderer was kaput and nobody knew it better than
him—but from a new comic. Call it Cell, for want of a better title, a
thrilling end-of-the-world saga of the phoner hordes versus the last few
normies—
Except that couldn't
be right. It looked right if you glanced at it fast, the way the doors
in this place looked like wood but weren't. The ranks of the phoners had to be
seriously depleted—had to be. How many of them had been lost in the
violence immediately following the Pulse? Half? He recalled the fury of that
violence and thought, Maybe more. Maybe sixty or even seventy percent. Then
attrition due to serious wounds, infection, exposure, further fighting, and
just plain stupidity. Plus, of course, the flock-killers; how many had they taken
out? How many big flocks like this one were actually left?
Clay thought they
might find out tomorrow, if the ones remaining all hooked up for one big
execute-the-insane extravaganza. Much good the knowledge would do them.
Never mind. Boil it
down. If you wanted backstory on the splash, the situation had to be boiled
down enough to fit on a single narrative panel. It was an unwritten rule. The
phoners' situation could be summed up in two words: bad losses. They looked
like a lot—hell, like a damned multitude—but probably the passenger
pigeons had looked like a lot right up until the end. Because they traveled in
sky-darkening flocks right up to the end. What nobody noticed was that there
were fewer and fewer of those giant flocks. Until, that was, they were all
gone. Extinct. Finite Buh-bye.
Plus, he thought, they've
got this other problem now, this bad-programming thing. This worm. What about
that? All in all, these guys could have a shorter run than the dinosaurs,
telepathy, levitation, and all.
Okay, enough
backstory. What's your illo? What's your damn picture, the one that's
going to hook them and draw them in? Why, Clay Riddell and Ray Huizenga, that's
what. They're standing in the woods. Ray's got the Beth Nickerson .45 with the
barrel under his chin and Clay's holding . . .
A cell phone, of
course. The one Ray lifted from the Gurleyville Quarry.
CLAY (terrified): Ray,
STOP! This is pointless! Don't you remember? Kashwak's a CELL DEAD Z—
No good! KA-POW! in
jagged yellow capitals across the foreground of the splash, and this one really
is a splash, because Arnie Nickerson has thoughtfully provided his wife
with the kind of softnosed rounds they sell on the Internet at the American
Paranoia sites, and the top of Ray's head is a red geyser. In the
background—one of those detailed touches for which Clay Riddell might have
become famous in a world where the Pulse never happened—a single terrified crow
is lifting off from a pine branch.
A damn good splash
page, Clay thought. Gory, sure—it would never have passed muster in the old
Comics Code days—but instantly involving. And although Clay had never said that
thing about cell phones not working beyond the conversion point, he would've if
he'd thought of it in time. Only time had run out. Ray had killed himself so
that the Raggedy
Man and his phoner friends
wouldn't see that phone in his mind, which was bitterly ironic. The Raggedy Man
had known all about the cell whose existence Ray had died to protect. He knew
it was in Clay's pocket . . . and he didn't care.
Standing at the
double doors to Kashwakamak Hall. The Raggedy Man making that gesture—thumb to
ear, curled fingers next to his torn and stubbly cheek, pinkie in front of his
mouth. Using Denise to say it again, to drive the point home: No-fo-you-you.
That's right.
Because Kashwak—No-Fo.
Ray had died for
nothing . . . so why didn't that upset him now?
Clay was aware he was
dozing as he often did when he drew inside his head. Coming uncoupled. And that
was all right. Because he felt the way he always did just before picture and
story became welded into one— happy, like people before an anticipated
homecoming. Before journeys end in lovers meeting. He had absolutely no reason
to feel that way, but he did.
Ray Huizenga had died
for a useless cell phone.
Or was it more than
one? Now Clay saw another panel. This one was a flashback panel, you could tell
by the scalloped edges.
CU on RAY'S hand,
holding the grimy cell phone and a slip of paper with a telephone number
scrawled on it. RAY'S thumb obscures everything but the Maine area code.
RAY (O.S.): When
the time comes, call the number on that slip. You'll know the
time. I gotta hope you'll know.
Can't call anybody from a cell in
Kaskwakamak, Ray, because Kashwak = No-Fo. Just ask the President of Hah-vud.
And to drive the
point home, here's another flashback panel with those scalloped edges. It's
Route 160. In the foreground is the little yellow bus with MAINE SCHOOL DISTRICT
38 NEWFIELD printed on the side. In the middle distance, painted across the
road, is KASHWAK= NO-FO. Once again the detail-work is terrific: empty
soda cans lying in the ditch, a discarded T-shirt caught on a bush, and in the
distance, a tent flapping from a tree like a long brown tongue. Above the
minibus are four voice-over balloons. These weren't the things they actually
said (even his dozing mind knew it), but that wasn't the point. Storymaking wasn't
the point, not now.
He thought he might know
the point when he came to it.
DENISE (VO.): Is
this where they—?
TOM (VO.): Where
they did the conversions, correct. Get into line a normie, make your
call, and when you head on up to the Expo flock, you're one of THEM.
What a deal
DAN (VO.): Why
here? Why not on the Expo grounds?
CLAY (VO.): Don't
you remember? Kashwak=No-Fo. They lined em up at the far edge of cell coverage.
Beyond here, nothing. Nada. Zip. Zero bars.
Another panel.
Close-up on the Raggedy Man in all his pestiferous glory. Grinning with his
mutilated mouth and summing everything up with one gesture. Ray had some bright
idea that depended on making a cell phone call. It was so bright he completely
forgot there's no coverage up here. I'd probably have to go to Quebec to get a
bar on that phone he gave me. That's funny, but what's even funnier? I took
it! What a sap!
So whatever Ray had
died for was pointless? Maybe, but here was another picture forming. Outside,
Pachelbel had given way to Fauré, and Fauré had given way to Vivaldi. Pouring
from speakers instead of boom-boxes. Black speakers against a dead sky, with
the half-constructed amusement rides in the background; in the foreground
Kashwakamak Hall with its bunting and cheap hay insulation. And as the final
touch, the little piece of detail-work for which Clay Riddell was already
becoming known—
He opened his eyes
and sat up. The others were still in their circle on the carpet at the north
end. Clay didn't know how long he'd been sitting against the door, but it had
been long enough for his ass to go numb.
You guys, he
tried to say, but at first no sound would come out. His mouth was dry. His
heart was pumping hard. He cleared his throat and tried again. "You
guys!" he said, and they looked around. Something in his voice made Jordan
scramble to his feet, and Tom wasn't far behind.
Clay walked toward
them on legs that didn't feel like his own—they were half-asleep. He took the
cell phone out of his pocket as he walked. The one Ray had died for because in
the heat of the moment he had forgotten the most salient fact about
Kashwakamak: up here at the Northern Counties Expo, these things didn't work.
8
"If it
won't work, what good is it?" Dan asked. He had been excited by Clay's
excitement, but deflated in a hurry when he saw the object in Clay's hand
wasn't a Get Out of Jail Free card but only another goddam cell phone. A dirty
old Motorola with a cracked casing. The others looked at it with a mixture of
fear and curiosity.
"Bear
with me," Clay said. "Would you do that?"
"We've got all
night," Dan said. He took off his glasses and began to polish them.
"Got to spin it away somehow."
"You stopped at
that Newfield Trading Post for something to eat and drink," Clay said,
"and you found the little yellow schoolbus."
"That seems like
a zillion years ago," Denise said. She stuck out her lower lip and blew
hair off her forehead.
"Ray found
the little bus," Clay said. "Seats about twelve—"
"Sixteen,
actually," Dan said. "It's written on the dashboard. Man, they must
have teensy schools up here."
"Seats sixteen,
with space behind the rear seat for packs, or a little light luggage for field
trips. Then you moved on. And when you got to the Gurleyville Quarry, I bet it
was Ray's idea that you should stop there."
"You know, it
was," Tom said. "He thought we could use a hot meal and a rest. How'd
you know that, Clay?"
"I knew it
because I drew it," Clay said, and this was close to true—he was seeing it
as he spoke. "Dan, you and Denise and Ray wiped out two flocks. The first
with gasoline, but on the second you used dynamite. Ray knew how because he'd
used it working highway jobs."
"Fuck," Tom
breathed. "He got dynamite in that quarry, didn't he? While we were
sleeping. And he could have—we slept like the dead."
"Ray was the one
who woke us up," Denise said.
Clay said, "I
don't know if it was dynamite or some other explosive, but I'm almost positive
he turned that little yellow bus into a rolling bomb while you were
sleeping."
"It's in
back," Jordan said. "In the luggage compartment."
Clay nodded.
Jordan's hands were
clenched into fists. "How much, do you think?"
"No way of
knowing until it goes up," Clay said.
"Let me see if
I'm following this," Tom said. Outside, Vivaldi gave way to Mozart—A
Little Night Music. The phoners had definitely evolved past Debby Boone.
"He stowed a bomb in the back of the bus . . . then somehow rigged a cell
phone as a detonator?"
Clay nodded.
"That's what I believe. I think he found two cells in the quarry office.
For all I know, there could have been half a dozen, for crew use—God knows
they're cheap enough nowadays. Anyway, he rigged one to a detonator on the
explosives. It's how the insurgents used to set off roadside bombs in
Iraq."
"He did all that
while we were sleeping?" Denise asked. "And didn't tell us?"
Clay said, "He
kept it from you so it wouldn't be in your minds."
"And killed
himself so it wouldn't be in his," Dan said. Then he uttered a burst of
bitter laughter. "Okay, he's a goddam hero! The only thing he forgot is
that cell phones don't work beyond the place where they put up their goddam
conversion tents! I bet they barely worked there!"
"Right,"
Clay said. He was smiling. "That's why the Raggedy Man let me keep this
phone. He didn't know what I wanted it for—I'm not sure they exactly think,
anyway—"
"Not like us,
they don't," Jordan said. "And they never will."
"—but he didn't
care, because he knew it wouldn't work. I couldn't even Pulse myself with it,
because Kashwak equals no-fo. No-fo-me-me."
"Then why the
smile?" Denise asked.
"Because I know
something he doesn't," Clay said. "Something they don't."
He turned to Jordan. "Can you drive?"
Jordan looked
startled. "Hey, I'm twelve. I mean, hello?"
"You've never
driven a go-kart? An ATV? A snowmobile?"
"Well, sure . .
. there's a dirt go-kart track at this pitch-n-putt place outside Nashua, and
once or twice . . ."
"That'll work.
We're not talking about very far. Assuming, that is, they left the bus at the
Parachute Drop. And I bet they did. I don't think they know how to drive any
more than they know how to think."
Tom said, "Clay,
have you lost your mind?"
"No," he
said. "They may hold their mass flock-killer executions in that virtual
stadium of theirs tomorrow, but we're not going to be part of it. We're
getting out of here."
9
The little windows were thick, but Dan's crowbar was a match for
the glass. He, Tom, and Clay took turns with it, working until all the shards
were knocked out. Then Denise took the sweater she'd been wearing and laid it
over the bottom of the frame.
"You
okay with this, Jordan?" Tom asked.
Jordan nodded. He was
frightened—there was no color in his lips at all—but seemed composed. Outside,
the phoners' lullaby music had cycled around to Pachelbel's Canon again—what
Denise had called the sound of memories.
"I'm okay,"
Jordan said. "I will be, anyway. I think. Once I get going."
Clay said, "Tom
might be able to squeeze through—"
Behind Jordan's
shoulder, Tom looked at the small window, no more than eighteen inches wide,
and shook his head.
"I'll be
okay," Jordan said.
"All right. Tell
it to me again."
"Go around and
look in the back of the bus. Make sure there's explosives, but don't touch any
of it. Look for the other cell phone."
"Right. Make
sure it's on. And if it's not on—"
"I know, turn
it on." Jordan gave Clay an I'm-no-dummy look. "Then start the
motor—"
"No, don't get
ahead of yourself—"
"Pull the
driving seat forward so I can reach the pedals, then start the
motor."
"Right."
"Drive between
the Parachute Drop and the funhouse. Go super slow. I'll run over some pieces
of the funhouse and they may break—snap under the tires—but don't let that stop
me."
"Right on."
"Get as close to
them as I can."
"Yes, that's
right. Then come around back again, to this window. So the hall is between you
and the explosion."
"What we hope
will be an explosion," Dan said.
Clay could have done
without this, but let it pass. He stooped and kissed Jordan on the cheek.
"I love you, you know," he said.
Jordan hugged him
briefly, fiercely. Then Tom. Then Denise.
Dan put out his hand,
then said, "Oh, what the hell," and enfolded Jordan in a bearhug.
Clay, who had never warmed very much to Dan Hartwick, liked him better for
that.
10
Clay made a step with his hands and boosted Jordan up.
"Remember," he said, "it's going to be like a dive, only into
hay instead of water. Hands up and out."
Jordan put
his hands over his head, extending them through the broken window and into the
night. His face underneath his thick fall of hair was paler than ever; the
first red blemishes of adolescence stood out there like tiny burns. He was
scared, and Clay didn't blame him. He was in for a ten-foot drop, and even with
the hay, the landing was apt to be hard. Clay hoped Jordan would remember to
keep his hands out and his head tucked; he'd do none of them any good lying
beside Kashwakamak Hall with a broken neck.
"You want me to
count three, Jordan?" he asked.
"Fuck, no! Just
do it before I pee myself!"
"Then keep your
hands out, go!" Clay cried, and thrust his locked hands upward.
Jordan shot through the window and disappeared. Clay didn't hear him land; the
music was too loud.
The others crowded up
to the window, which was just above their heads. "Jordan?" Tom
called. "Jordan, you there?"
For a moment there
was nothing, and Clay was sure Jordan really had broken his neck. Then he said
shakily, "I'm here. Jeez, that hurts. I croggled my elbow. The left
one. That arm's all weird. Wait a minute . . ."
They waited. Denise
took Clay's hand and squeezed it hard.
"It moves,"
Jordan said. "It's okay, I guess, but maybe I ought to see the school
nurse."
They all laughed too
hard.
Tom had tied the
bus's ignition key to a double line of thread from his shirt, and the thread to
the buckle of his belt. Now Clay laced his fingers together again and Tom
stepped up. "I'm going to lower the key to you, Jordan. Ready?"
"Yeah."
Tom gripped the edge
of the window, looked down, and then lowered his belt. "Okay, you got
it," he said. "Now listen to me. All we ask is do it if you can. If
you can't, no penalty minutes. Got that?"
"Yes."
"Go on, then.
Scat." He watched a moment, then said, "He's on his way. God help
him, he's a brave kid. Put me down."
11
Jordan had gone out on the side of the building away from the
roosting flock. Clay, Tom, Denise, and Dan crossed the room to the midway side.
The three men tipped the already vandalized snack machine over on its side and
shoved it against the wall. Clay and Dan could easily see out the high windows
by standing on it, Tom by standing on tiptoes. Clay added a crate so Denise
could also see, praying she wouldn't topple off it and go into labor.
They saw
Jordan cross to the edge of the sleeping multitude, stand there a minute as if
debating, and then move off to his left. Clay thought he continued seeing
movement long after his rational mind told him that Jordan must be gone,
skirting the edge of the massive flock.
"How long will
it take him to get back, do you think?" Tom asked.
Clay shook his head.
He didn't know. It depended on so many variables—the size of the flock was only
one of them.
"What if they
looked in the back of the bus?" Denise asked.
"What if
Jordy looks in the back of the bus and there's nothing there?" Dan
asked, and Clay had to restrain himself from telling the man to keep his
negative vibe to himself.
Time passed, giving
itself up by inches. The little red light on the tip of the Parachute Drop
blinked. Pachelbel once more gave way to Fauré and Fauré to Vivaldi. Clay found
himself remembering the sleeping boy who had come spilling out of the shopping
cart, how the man with him—probably not his father—had sat down with him at the
side of the road and said Gregory kiss it, make it all better. He
remembered the man with the rucksack listening to "Baby Elephant
Walk" and saying Dodge had a good time, too. He remembered how, in
the bingo tents of his childhood, the man with the microphone would invariably
exclaim It's the sunshine vitamin! when he pulled B-12 out of the hopper
with the dancing Ping-Pong balls inside. Even though the sunshine vitamin was
D.
The time now gave
itself up in what seemed quarter-inches, and Clay began losing hope. If they
were going to hear the sound of the bus's engine, they should have heard it by
now.
"It's gone wrong
somehow," Tom said in a low voice.
"Maybe
not," Clay said. He tried to keep his heart's heaviness out of his voice.
"No, Tommy's
right," Denise said. She was on the verge of tears. "I love him to
death, and he was ballsier than Lord Satan on his first night in hell, but if
he was coming, he'd be on his way by now."
Dan's take was
surprisingly positive. "We don't know what he might have run into. Just
take a deep breath and try to put your imaginations on hold."
Clay tried that and
failed. Now the seconds dripped by. Schubert's "Ave Maria"
boomed through the big concert speakers. He thought, I would sell my
soul for some honest rock and roll—Chuck Berry doing "Oh,
Carol," U2 doing "When Love Comes to Town" . . .
Outside,
nothing but dark, and stars, and that one tiny red battery-driven light.
"Boost me up
over there," Tom said, hopping down from the snack machine. "I'll
squeeze through that window somehow and see if I can't go get him."
Clay began,
"Tom, if I was wrong about there being explosives in the back of the
bus—"
"Fuck the back
of the bus and fuck the explosives!" Tom said, distraught. "I just
want to find Jor—"
"Hey!" Dan
shouted, and then: "Hey, all right! BABY-NOW!" He slammed one
fist against the wall beside the window.
Clay turned and saw
headlights had bloomed in the dark. A mist had begun to rise from the blanket
of comatose bodies on the acres of mall, and the bus's headlights seemed to be
shining through smoke. They flicked bright, then dim, then bright again, and
Clay could see Jordan with brilliant clarity, sitting in the driver's seat of
the minibus and trying to figure out which controls did which.
Now the headlights
began to creep forward. High beams.
"Yeah,
honey," Denise breathed. "Do it, my sweetheart." Standing
on her crate, she grabbed Dan's hand on one side and Clay's on the other.
"You're beautiful, just keep on coming."
The headlights jogged
away from them, now illuminating the trees far to the left of the open space
with its carpet of phoners.
"What's he
doing?" Tom almost moaned.
"That's where
the side of the funhouse takes a jog," Clay said. "It's all
right." He hesitated. "I think it's all right." If his foot
doesn't slip. If he doesn't mix up the brake and the accelerator,
run the bus into the side of the damn funhouse, and stick it there.
They waited, and the
headlights swung back, spearing the side of Kashwakamak Hall on the dead level.
And in the glare of the high beams, Clay saw why it had taken Jordan so long.
Not all of the phoners were down. Dozens of them—the ones with bad programming,
he assumed—were up and moving. They walked aimlessly toward any and every point
of the compass, black silhouettes moving outward in expanding ripples,
struggling to make their way over the bodies of the sleepers, stumbling,
falling, getting up and walking on again while Schubert's "Ave"
filled the night. One of them, a young man with a long red gash running across
the middle of his forehead like a worry line, reached the Hall and felt his way
along the side like a blind man.
"That's far
enough, Jordan," Clay murmured as the headlights neared the
speaker-standards on the far side of the open area. "Park it and get your
ass back here."
It seemed that Jordan
heard him. The headlights came to a stop. For a moment the only things moving
out there were the restless shapes of the wakeful phoners and the mist rising
from the warm bodies of the others. Then they heard the bus's engine rev—even
over the music they heard it—and the headlights leaped forward. "No,
Jordan, what are you doing?" Tom screamed.
Denise recoiled and would have tumbled off
her crate if Clay hadn't caught her around the waist.
The bus jounced into
the sleeping flock. Onto the sleeping flock. The headlights began to
pogo up and down, now pointing at them, now lifting briefly upward, now coming
back to dead level again. The bus slewed left, came back on course, then slewed
right. For a moment one of the night-walkers was illuminated in its four
glaring high beams as clearly as something cut from black construction paper.
Clay saw the phoner's arms go up, as if it wanted to signal a successful field
goal, and then it was borne under the bus's charging grille.
Jordan drove the bus
into the middle of them and there it stopped, headlights glaring, grille
dripping. By raising a hand to block the worst of the shine, Clay was able to
see a small dark form—distinguishable from the rest by its agility and
purpose—emerge from the side door of the bus and begin making its way toward
Kashwakamak Hall. Then Jordan fell and Clay thought he was gone. A moment later
Dan rapped, "There he is, there!" and Clay picked him up
again, ten yards closer and considerably to the left of where he'd lost sight
of the kid. Jordan must have crawled for some distance over the sleeping bodies
before trying his feet again.
When Jordan came back
into the hazy cone of radiance thrown by the bus's headlights, tacked to the
end of a forty-foot shadow, they could see him clearly for the first time. Not
his face, because of the backlighting, but the crazy-graceful way he was
running over the bodies of the phoners. The ones who were down were still dead
to the world. The ones who were awake but not close to Jordan paid no
attention. Several of those who were close, however, made grabs at him.
Jordan dodged two of these, but the third, a woman, got him by the tangled mop
of his hair.
"Let him
alone!" Clay roared. He couldn't see her, but he was insanely positive
it was the woman who had once been his wife. "Let him go!"
She didn't, but
Jordan grabbed her wrist, twisted it, went to one knee, and scrambled past. The
woman made another grab, just missed the back of his shirt, and then tottered
off in her own direction.
Many of the infected
phoners, Clay saw, were gathering around the bus. The headlights seemed to be
drawing them.
Clay leaped off the
snack machine (this time it was Dan Hartwick who saved Denise from a tumble)
and grabbed the crowbar. He leaped back up and smashed out the window he'd been
looking through.
"Jordan!"
he bawled. 'Around back! Get around back!"
Jordan looked up at
the sound of Clay's voice and tripped over something—a leg, an arm, maybe a
neck. As he was getting back up, a hand came out of the breathing darkness and
clutched the kid's throat.
"Please God,
no," Tom whispered.
Jordan lunged forward
like a fullback trying for a first down, pistoning with his legs, and broke the
hand's grip. He stumbled onward. Clay could see his staring eyes and the way
his chest was heaving. As he neared the hall, Clay could hear Jordan's sobbing
gasps for air.
Never make it, he thought. Never.
And he's so close now, so close.
But Jordan did make
it. The two phoners currently staggering along the side of the building showed
no interest in him at all as he lunged past them and around to the far side.
The four of them were off the snack machine at once and racing across the hall
like a relay team, Denise and her belly in the lead.
"Jordan!"
she cried, bouncing up and down on her toe-tips. "Jordan, Jordy, are you
there? For chrissake, kid, tell us you're there!"
"I'm"—he
tore a great gasp of breath out of the air—"here." Another whooping
gasp. Clay was distantly aware of Tom laughing and pounding him on the back.
"Never knew"—Whooo-oooop!—"running over people was so . .
. hard."
"What did you
think you were doing?" Clay shouted. It was killing him not to be able to
grab the kid, first to embrace him, then shake him, then kiss him all over his
stupid brave face. Killing him to not even be able to see him. "I said get
close to them, not drive right the fuck into them!"
"I did it"—Whooo-ooop!—"for
the Head." There was defiance as well as zbreathlessness in Jordan's voice now. "They killed the Head.
Them and their Raggedy Man. Them and their stupid President of Harvard. I
wanted to make them pay. I want him to pay."
"What took you
so long to get going?" Denise asked. "We waited and
waited!"
"There are
dozens of them up and around," Jordan said. "Maybe hundreds.
Whatever's wrong with them . . . or right. . .or just changing . . . it's
spreading really fast now. They're walking every which way, like totally lost.
I had to keep changing course. I ended up coming to the bus from halfway down
the midway. Then—" He laughed breathlessly. "It wouldn't
start! Do you believe it? I turned the key and turned the key and got
nothing but a click every time. I just about freaked, but I wouldn't let
myself. Because I knew the Head would be disappointed if I did that."
"Ah,
Jordy . . ." Tom breathed.
"You know what
it was? I had to buckle the stupid seatbelt. You don't need em for the
passenger seats, but the bus won't start unless the driver's wearing his.
Anyway, I'm sorry it took me so long, but here I am."
"And may we
assume that the luggage compartment wasn't empty?" Dan asked.
"You can assume
the shit out of that. It's full of what look like red bricks. Stacks and stacks
of them." Jordan was getting his breath back now. "They're under a
blanket. There's a cell phone lying on top of them. Ray attached it to a couple
of those bricks with an elastic strap, like a bungee cord. The phone's on, and
it's the kind with a port, like for a fax or so you can download data to a
computer. The power-cord runs down into the bricks. I didn't see it, but I bet
the detonator's in the middle." He grabbed another deep breath. "And
there were bars on the phone. Three bars."
Clay nodded. He'd
been right. Kashwakamak was supposed to be a cell dead zone once you got beyond
the feeder-road leading to the Northern Counties Expo. The phoners had plucked
that knowledge from the heads of certain normies and had used it. The
Kashwak=No-Fo graffiti had spread like smallpox. But had any of the phoners
actually tried making a cell-call from the Expo fairgrounds? Of course not. Why
would they? When you were telepathic, phones were obsolete. And when you were
one member of the flock—one part of the
whole—they became doubly obsolete, if such a thing was possible.
But cell phones did
work within this one small area, and why? Because the carnies were setting
up, that was why—carnies working for an outfit called the New England Amusement
Corporation. And in the twenty-first century, carnies—like rock-concert
roadies, touring stage productions, and movie crews on location—depended on
cell phones, especially in isolated places where landlines were in short
supply. Were there no cell phone towers to relay signals onward and upward?
Fine, they would pirate the necessary software and install one of their own.
Illegal? Of course, but judging by the three bars Jordan was reporting, it had
been workable, and because it was battery-powered, it was still workable.
They had installed it on the Expo's highest point.
They had installed it
on the tip of the Parachute Drop.
12
Dan recrossed the hall, got up on the snack machine, and looked
out. "They're three deep around the bus," he reported. "Four
deep in front of the headlights. It's like they think there's some big pop star
hiding inside. The ones they're standing on must be getting crushed." He
turned to Clay and nodded at the dirty Motorola cell phone Clay was now
holding. "If you're going to try this, I suggest you try it now, before
one of them decides to get in and try driving the damn bus away."
"I should have turned it off, but I
thought the headlights would go out if I did," Jordan said. "And I
wanted them to see by."
"It's okay,
Jordan," Clay said. "No harm done. I'm going to—" But there was
nothing in the pocket from which he'd taken the cell phone. The scrap of paper
with the telephone number on it was gone.
13
Clay and Tom were looking for it on the floor—frantically looking
for it on the floor—and Dan was dolefully reporting from atop the snack machine that the first phoner had just stumbled on
board the bus when Denise bellowed, "Stop! SHUT UP!"
They all stopped what
they were doing and looked at her. Clay's heart was fluttering high in his
throat. He couldn't believe his own carelessness. Ray died for that, you
stupid shit! part of him kept shouting at the rest of him. He died for
it and you lost it!
Denise closed her
eyes and put her hands together over her bowed head. Then, very rapidly, she
chanted, "Tony, Tony, come around, something's lost that can't be
found."
"What the fuck is that?' Dan
asked. He sounded astonished.
"A prayer to St.
Anthony," she said calmly. "I learned it in parochial school. It
always works."
"Give me a
break," Tom almost groaned.
She ignored him,
focusing all her attention on Clay. "It's not on the floor, is it?"
"I don't think
so, no."
"Another two
just got on the bus," Dan reported. "And the turn signals are going.
So one of them must be sitting at the—"
"Will you please
shut up, Dan," Denise said. She was still looking at Clay. Still calm.
"And if you lost it on the bus, or outside somewhere, it's lost for good,
right?"
"Yes," he
said heavily.
"So we know it's
not in either of those places."
"Why do we know
that?"
"Because God
wouldn't let it be."
"I think . . .
my head's going to explode," Tom said in a strangely calm voice.
Again she ignored
him. "So which pocket haven't you checked?"
"I checked every—"
Clay began, then stopped. Without taking his eyes from Denise's, he
investigated the small watch-pocket sewn into the larger right front pocket of
his jeans. And the slip of paper was there. He didn't remember putting it
there, but it was there. He pulled it out. Scrawled on it in the dead
man's laborious printing was the number: 207-919-9811.
"Thank St.
Anthony for me," he said.
"If this
works," she said, "I'll ask St. Anthony to thank God."
"Deni?" Tom
said.
She turned to him.
"Thank Him for
me, too," he said.
14
The four of them sat together against the double doors through
which they had entered, counting on the steel cores to protect them. Jordan was
crouched down in back of the building, below the broken window through which he
had escaped.
"What
are we going to do if the explosion doesn't blow any holes in the side of this
place?" Tom asked.
"We'll think of
something," Clay said.
"And if Ray's
bomb doesn't go off?" Dan asked.
"Drop back
twenty yards and punt," Denise said. "Go on, Clay. Don't wait for the
theme-music."
He opened the cell
phone, looked at the dark LED readout, and realized he should have checked for
bars on this one before sending Jordan out. He hadn't thought of it. None of
them had thought of it. Stupid. Almost as stupid as forgetting he'd put the
scrap of paper with the number written on it in his watch pocket. He pushed the
power button now. The phone beeped. For a moment there was nothing, and then
three bars appeared, bright and clear. He punched in the number, then settled
his thumb lightly on the button marked call.
"Jordan, you
ready back there?"
"Yes!"
"What about you
guys?" Clay asked.
"Just do it
before I have a heart attack," Tom said.
An image rose in
Clay's mind, nightmarish in its clarity: Johnny-Gee lying almost directly
beneath the place where the explosives-laden bus had come to rest. Lying on his
back with his eyes open and his hands clasped on the chest of his Red Sox
T-shirt, listening to the music while his mind rebuilt itself in some strange
new way.
He swept it aside.
"Tony, Tony,
come around," he said for no reason whatever, and then pushed the button
that called the cell phone in the back of the minibus.
There was time for
him to count Mississippi ONE and Mississippi TWO before the
entire world outside Kashwakamak Hall seemed to blow up, the roar swallowing
Tomaso Albinoni's "Adagio" in a hungry blast. All the small windows
lining the flock side of the building blew in. Brilliant crimson light shone
through the holes, then the entire south end of the building tore away in a
hail of boards, glass, and swirling hay. The doors they were leaning against
seemed to bend backward. Denise wrapped protective arms around her belly. From
outside a terrible hurt screaming began. For a moment this sound ripped through
Clay's head like the blade of a buzzsaw. Then it was gone. The screaming in his
ears went on. It was the sound of people roasting in hell.
Something landed on
the roof. It was heavy enough to make the whole building shudder. Clay pulled
Denise to her feet. She looked at him wildly, as if no longer sure who he was. "Come
on!" He was shouting but could hardly hear his own voice. It seemed to
be seeping through wads of cotton. "Come on, let's get out!"
Tom was up. Dan made
it halfway, fell back, tried again, and managed it the second time. He grabbed
Tom's hand. Tom grabbed Denise's. Linked three-across, they shuffled to the
gaping hole at the end of the Hall. There they found Jordan standing next to a
litter of burning hay and staring out at what a single phone call had done.
15
The giant's foot that had seemed to stamp the roof of Kashwakamak
Hall had been a large chunk of schoolbus. The shingles were burning. Directly
in front of them, beyond the little pile of blazing hay, were a pair of
upside-down seats, also burning. Their steel frames had been shredded into
spaghetti. Clothes floated out of the sky like big snow: shirts, hats, pants,
shorts, an athletic supporter, a blazing bra. Clay saw that the hay insulation
piled along the bottom of the hall was going to be a moat of fire before very
long; they were getting out just in time.
Patches of fire
dotted the mall area where concerts, outdoor dances, and various competitions had been held, but
the chunks of the exploding bus had swept farther than that. Clay saw flames
burning high in trees that had to be at least three hundred yards away. Dead
south of their position, the funhouse had started to burn and he could see
something—he thought it was probably a human torso—blazing halfway up the
strutwork of the Parachute Drop.
The flock itself had
become a raw meatloaf of dead and dying phoners. Their telepathy had broken
down (although little currents of that strange psychic force occasionally
tugged at him, making his hair rise and his flesh crawl), but the survivors
could still scream, and they filled the night with their cries. Clay would have
gone ahead even if he'd been able to imagine how bad it was going to be—even in
the first few seconds he made no effort to mislead himself on that score—but
this was beyond imagining.
The firelight was
just enough to show them more than they wanted to see. The mutilations and
decapitations were bad—the pools of blood, the littered limbs—but the scattered
clothes and shoes with nobody inside them were somehow worse, as if the
explosion had been fierce enough to actually vaporize part of the flock. A man
walked toward them with his hands to his throat in an effort to stem the flow
of blood pouring over and between his fingers—it looked orange in the growing
glow of the Hall's burning roof—while his intestines swung back and forth at
the level of his crotch. More wet loops came sliding out as he walked past
them, his eyes wide and unseeing.
Jordan was saying something. Clay couldn't hear it over the
screams, the wails, and the growing crackle of fire from behind him, so he
leaned closer.
"We had to do
it, it was all we could do," Jordan said. He looked at a headless woman, a
legless man, at something so torn open it had become a flesh canoe filled with
blood. Beyond it, two more bus seats lay on a pair of burning women who had
died in each other's arms. "We had to do it, it was all we could do. We
had to do it, it was all we could do."
"That's right,
honey, put your face against me and walk like that," Clay said, and Jordan
immediately buried his face in Clay's side. Walking that way was uncomfortable,
but it could be done.
They skirted the edge
of the flock's campground, moving toward the back
of what would have been a completed midway and amusement arcade if the Pulse
hadn't intervened. As they went, Kashwakamak Hall burned brighter, casting more
light on the mall. Dark shapes—many naked or almost naked, the clothes blown
right off them—staggered and shambled. Clay had no idea how many. The few that
passed close by their little group showed no interest in them; they either
continued on toward the midway area or plunged into the woods west of the Expo
grounds, where Clay was quite sure they would die of exposure unless they could
reestablish some sort of flock consciousness. He didn't think they could.
Partly because of the virus, but mostly because of Jordan's decision to drive
the bus right into the middle of them and achieve a maximum kill-zone, as they
had with the propane trucks.
If they'd ever
known snuffing one old man could lead to this . . . Clay thought, and then he thought, But how could
they?
They reached the dirt
lot where the carnies had parked their trucks and campers. Here the ground was
thick with snaking electrical cables, and the spaces between the campers were
filled with the accessories of families who lived on the road: barbecues, gas
grills, lawn chairs, a hammock, a little laundry whirligig with clothes that
had probably been hanging there for almost two weeks.
"Let's find
something with the keys in it and get the hell out of here," Dan said.
"They cleared the feeder road, and if we're careful I bet we can go north
on 160 as far as we want." He pointed. "Up there it's just about all
no-fo."
Clay had spotted a
panel truck with lem's painting and
plumbing on the back. He tried the doors and they opened. The inside was
filled with milk-crates, most crammed with various plumbing supplies, but in
one he found what he wanted: paint in spray-cans. He took four of these after
checking to make sure they were full or almost full.
"What are those
for?" Tom asked.
"Tell
you later," Clay said.
"Let's get out
of here, please," Denise said. "I can't stand this. My pants
are soaked with blood." She began to cry.
They came onto the
midway between the Krazy Kups and a half-constructed kiddie ride called Charlie
the Choo-Choo. "Look," Tom said, pointing.
"Oh . . . my . .
. God," Dan said softly.
Lying draped across
the peak of the train ride's ticket booth was the remains of a charred and
smoking red sweatshirt—the kind sometimes called a hoodie. A large splotch of
blood matted the front around a hole probably made by a chunk of flying
schoolbus. Before the blood took over, covering the rest, Clay could make out
three letters, the Raggedy Man's last laugh: HAR.
16
"There's
nobody in the fucking thing, and judging by the size of the hole, he had
open-heart surgery without benefit of anesthetic," Denise said, "so
when you're tired of looking—"
"There's another little parking lot down at the south end of the
midway," Tom said. "Nice-looking cars in that one. Boss-type cars. We
might get lucky."
They did, but not
with a nice-looking car. A small van with tyco
water purification experts was parked behind a number of the
nice-looking cars, effectively blocking them in. The Tyco man had considerately
left his keys in the ignition, probably for that very reason, and Clay drove
them away from the fire, the carnage, and the screams, rolling with slow care
down the feeder road to the junction marked by the billboard showing the sort
of happy family that no longer existed (if it ever had). There Clay stopped and
put the gearshift lever in park.
"One of you guys
has to take over now," he said.
"Why,
Clay?" Jordan asked, but Clay knew from the boy's voice that Jordan
already knew.
"Because this is
where I get out," he said.
"No!"
"Yes. I'm going
to look for my boy."
Tom said, "He's
almost certainly dead back there. I'm not meaning to be a hardass, only
realistic."
"I know that,
Tom. I also know there's a chance he's not, and so do you. Jordan said they
were walking every which way, like they were totally lost."
Denise said,
"Clay . . . honey . . . even if he's alive, he could be wandering around
in the woods with half his head blown off. I hate to say that, but you know
it's true."
Clay nodded. "I
also know he could have gotten out earlier, while we were locked up, and
started down the road to Gurleyville. A couple of others made it that far; I
saw them. And I saw others on the way. So did you."
"No arguing with
the artistic mind, is there?" Tom asked sadly.
"No," Clay
said, "but I wonder if you and Jordan would step outside with me for a
minute."
Tom sighed. "Why
not?" he said.
17
Several phoners, looking lost and bewildered, walked past them as
they stood by the side of the little water purification van. Clay, Tom, and
Jordan paid no attention to them, and the phoners returned the favor. To the
northwest the horizon was a brightening red-orange as Kashwakamak Hall shared
its fire with the forest behind it.
"No big
goodbyes this time," Clay said, affecting not to see the tears in Jordan's
eyes. "I'm expecting to see you again. Here, Tom. Take this." He held
out the cell phone he'd used to set off the blast. Tom took it. "Go north
from here. Keep checking that thing for bars. If you come to road-reefs,
abandon what you're driving, walk until the road's clear, then take another car
or truck and drive again. You'll probably get cell transmission bars around the
Rangeley area—that was boating in the summer, hunting in the fall, skiing in
the winter—but beyond there you should be in the clear, and the days should be
safe."
"I bet they're
safe now," Jordan said, wiping his eyes.
Clay nodded.
"You might be right. Anyway, use your judgment. When you get a hundred or
so miles north of Rangeley, find a cabin or a lodge or something, fill it with
supplies, and lay up for the winter. You know what the winter's going to do to
these things, don't you?"
"If the flock
mind falls apart and they don't migrate, almost all of them will die," Tom
said. "Those north of the Mason-Dixon Line, at least."
"I think so,
yeah. I put those cans of spray-paint in the center console. Every twenty miles
or so, spray T-J-D on the road, nice and big. Got it?"
"T-J-D,"
Jordan said. "For Tom, Jordan, Dan, and Denise."
"Right. Make sure you spray it extra big, with an arrow,
if you change roads. If you take a dirt road, spray it on trees, always on the
right-hand side of the road. That's where I'll be looking. Have you got
that?"
"Always on the
right," Tom said. "Come with us, Clay. Please."
"No. Don't make
this harder for me than it already is. Every time you have to abandon a
vehicle, leave it in the middle of the road and spray it T-J-D. Okay?"
"Okay,"
Jordan said. "You better find us."
"I will. This is
going to be a dangerous world for a while, but not quite as dangerous as it's
been. Jordan, I need to ask you something."
"All
right."
"If I find
Johnny and the worst that's happened to him is a trip through their
conversion-point, what should I do?"
Jordan gaped.
"How would I know? Jesus, Clay! I mean . . .Jesus!"
"You
knew they were rebooting," Clay said.
"I made a
guess!"
Clay knew it had been
a lot more than that. A lot better than that. He also knew Jordan was
exhausted and terrified. He dropped to one knee in front of the boy and took
his hand. "Don't be afraid. It can't be any worse for him than it already
is. God knows it can't."
"Clay, I . .
." Jordan looked at Tom. "People aren't like computers, Tom! Tell
him!"
"But computers
are like people, aren't they?" Tom said. "Because we build what we
know. You knew about the reboot and you knew about the worm. So tell him what
you think. He probably won't find the kid, anyway. If he does . . ." Tom
shrugged. "Like he said. How much worse can it be?"
Jordan thought about
this, biting his lip. He looked terribly tired, and there was blood on his
shirt.
"Are you guys
coming?" Dan called.
"Give us another
minute," Tom said. And then, in a softer tone: "Jordan?"
Jordan was quiet a
moment longer. Then he looked at Clay and said, "You'd need another cell
phone. And you'd need to take him to a place where there's coverage . . ."
SAVE
TO SYSTEM
1
Clay stood in the middle of Route 160, in what would have been the
billboard's shadow on a sunny day, and watched the taillights until they were
out of sight. He couldn't shake the idea that he would never see Tom and Jordan
again (fading roses, his mind whispered), but he refused to let it grow
into a premonition. They had come together twice, after all, and didn't people
say the third time was the charm?
A passing phoner
bumped him. It was a man with blood congealing on one side of his face—the
first injured refugee from the Northern Counties Expo that he'd seen. He would
see more if he didn't stay ahead of them, so he set off along Route 160,
heading south again. He had no real reason to think his kid had gone south, but
hoped that some vestige of Johnny's mind—his old mind—told him home lay in that
direction. And it was a direction Clay knew, at least.
About half a mile
south of the feeder road he encountered another phoner, this one a woman, who
was pacing rapidly back and forth across the highway like a captain on the foredeck
of her ship. She looked around at Clay with such sharp regard that he raised
his hands, ready to grapple with her if she attacked him.
She didn't. "Who
fa-Da?" she asked, and in his mind, quite clearly, he heard: Who fell?
Daddy, who fell?
"I don't know," he said, easing
past her. "I didn't see."
"Where na?"
she asked, pacing more furiously than ever, and in his mind he heard: Where am I now? This
he made no attempt to answer, but in his mind he thought of Pixie Dark asking, Who
are you? Who am 1?
Clay walked faster,
but not quite fast enough. The pacing woman called after him, chilling him:
"Who Pih' Da?"
And in his mind, he
heard this question echo with chilling clarity. Who is Pixie Dark?
2
There was no gun in the first house he broke into, but there was a
long-barreled flashlight, and he shone it on every straggling phoner he
encountered, always asking the same question, trying simultaneously to throw it
with his mind like a magic-lantern slide on a screen: Have you seen a boy? He
got no answers and heard only fading fragments of thought in his head. At the
second house there was a nice Dodge Ram in the driveway, but Clay didn't dare
take it. If Johnny was on this road, he'd be walking. If Clay was driving, he
might miss his boy even if he was driving slow. In the pantry he found a Daisy
canned ham, which he unzipped with the attached key and munched as he hit the
road again. He was about to throw the balance into the weeds after he'd eaten
his fill when he saw an elderly phoner standing beside a mailbox, watching him
with a sad and hungry eye. Clay held out the ham and the old man took it. Then,
speaking slowly and clearly, trying to picture Johnny in his mind, Clay said:
"Have you seen a boy?"
The old man
chewed ham. Swallowed. Appeared to consider. Said: "Ganna the wishy."
"The
wishy," Clay said. "Right. Thanks." He walked on.
In the third house, a
mile or so farther south, he found a .30-30 in the basement, along with three
boxes of shells. In the kitchen he found a cell phone sitting in its charging
cradle on the counter. The charger was dead—of course—but when he pushed the
button on the phone, it beeped and powered up immediately. He only got a single
bar, but this didn't surprise him. The phoners' conversion-point had been at
the edge of the grid.
He started for the
door with the loaded rifle in one hand, the flashlight in the other, and the cell phone clipped
to his belt when simple exhaustion overwhelmed him. He staggered sideways, as if
struck by the head of a padded hammer. He wanted to go on, but such sense as
his tired mind was able to muster told him he had to sleep now, and maybe sleep
even made sense. If Johnny was out here, the chances were good he was
sleeping, too.
"Switch over to
the day shift, Clayton," he muttered. "You're not going to find
jackshit in the middle of the night with a flashlight."
It was a small
house—the home of an elderly couple, he thought, judging by the pictures in the
living room and the single bedroom and the rails surrounding the toilet in the
single bathroom. The bed was neatly made. He lay down on it without opening the
covers, only taking off his shoes. And once he was down, the exhaustion seemed
to settle on him like a weight. He could not imagine getting up for anything.
There was a smell in the room, some old woman's sachet, he thought. A
grandmotherly smell. It seemed almost as tired as he felt. Lying here in this
silence, the carnage at the Expo grounds seemed distant and unreal, like an
idea for a comic he would never write. Too gruesome. Stick with Dark
Wanderer, Sharon might have said—his old, sweet Sharon. Stick with your
apocalypse cowboys.
His mind seemed to
rise and float above his body. It returned—lazily, without hurry—to the three
of them standing beside the Tyco Water Purification van, just before Tom and
Jordan had climbed back aboard. Jordan had repeated what he'd said back at
Gaiten, about how human brains were really just big old hard drives, and the
Pulse had wiped them clean. Jordan said the Pulse had acted on human brains
like an EMP
Nothing left but
the core, Jordan had said. And the core was murder. But because brains
are organic hard drives, they started to build themselves back up again.
To reboot. Only there was a glitch in the signal-code. I don't have proof, but
I'm positive that the flocking behavior, the telepathy, the levitation . . .
all that came from the glitch. The glitch was there from the start, so it
became part of the reboot. Are you following this?
Clay had nodded. Tom
had, too. The boy looking at them, his blood-smeared face tired and earnest.
But meanwhile,
the Pulse keeps on pulsing, right? Because somewhere there's a computer running on battery power, and it
keeps running that program. The program's rotten, so the glitch in it continues
to mutate. Eventually the signal may quit or the program may get so rotten
it'll shut down. In the meantime, though . . . you might be able to use it. I
say might, you got
that? It all depends on whether or not brains do what seriously protected
computers do when they're hit with an EMP.
Tom had asked what
that was. And Jordan had given him a wan smile.
They save to
system. All data. If that happens with people, and if you could wipe the phoner
program, the old programming might eventually reboot.
"He meant the
human programming," Clay murmured in the dark bedroom, smelling that
sweet, faint aroma of sachet. "The human programming, saved somewhere way
down deep. All of it." He was going now, drifting off. If he was going to
dream, he hoped it would not be of the carnage at the Northern Counties Expo.
His last thought
before sleep took him was that maybe in the long run, the phoners would have
been better. Yes, they had been born in violence and in horror, but birth was
usually difficult, often violent, and sometimes horrible. Once they had begun
flocking and mind-melding, the violence had subsided. So far as he knew, they hadn't
actually made war on the normies, unless one considered forcible conversion
an act of war; the reprisals following the destruction of their flocks had been
gruesome but perfectly understandable. If left alone, they might eventually
have turned out to be better custodians of the earth than the so-called
normies. They certainly wouldn't have been falling all over themselves to buy
gas-guzzling SUVs, not with their levitation skills (or with their rather
primitive consumer appetites, for that matter). Hell, even their taste in music
had been improving at the end.
But what choice
did we have? Clay thought. Survival is like love. Both are blind.
Sleep took him then,
and he didn't dream of the slaughter at the Expo. He dreamed he was in a bingo
tent, and as the caller announced B-12—It's the sunshine vitamin!—he
felt a tug on the leg of his pants. He looked under the table. Johnny was
there, smiling up at him. And somewhere a phone was ringing.
3
Not all of the rage had gone out of the phoner refugees, nor had
the wild talents entirely departed, either. Around noon of the next day, which
was cold and raw, with a foretaste of November in the air, Clay stopped to
watch two of them fighting furiously on the shoulder of the road. They punched,
then clawed, then finally grappled together, butting heads and biting at each
other's cheeks and necks. As they did, they began to rise slowly off the road.
Clay watched, mouth hanging open, as they attained a height of approximately
ten feet, still fighting, their feet apart and braced, as if standing on an invisible
floor. Then one of them sank his teeth into the nose of his opponent, who was
wearing a ragged, bloodstained T-shirt with the words HEAVY FUEL printed
across the front. Nose-Biter pushed HEAVY FUEL backward. HEAVY FUEL staggered,
then dropped like a rock down a well. Blood streamed upward from his ruptured
nose as he fell. Nose-Biter looked down, seemed to realize for the first time
that he was a second story's height above the road, and went down himself. Like
Dumbo losing his magic feather, Clay thought. Nose-Biter wrenched his knee
and lay in the dust, lips pulled back from his bloodstained teeth, snarling at
Clay as he passed.
Yet these two were an
exception. Most of the phoners Clay passed (he saw no normies at all that day
or all the following week) seemed lost and bewildered with no flock mind to
support them. Clay thought again and again of something Jordan had said before
getting back in the van and heading into the north woods where there was no
cell phone coverage: If the worm's continuing to mutate, their newest
conversions aren't going to be either phoners or normies, not really.
Clay thought that
meant like Pixie Dark, only a little further gone. Who are you? Who am I? He
could see these questions in their eyes, and he suspected—no, he knew—it
was these questions they were trying to ask when they spouted their gibberish.
He continued to ask Have
you seen a boy and to try to send Johnny's picture, but he had no hope of
an answer that made sense now. Most times he got no answer at all. He stayed
the next night in a trailer about five miles north of Gurleyville, and the next
morning at a little past nine he spied
a small figure sitting on the curb outside the Gurleyville Cafe, in the middle
of the town's one-block business district.
It can't be, he
thought, but he began to walk faster, and when he got a little closer—close
enough to be almost sure that the figure was that of a child and not just a
small adult—he began to run. His new pack began to bounce up and down on his
back. His feet found the place where Gurleyville's short length of sidewalk
commenced and began clapping on the concrete.
It was a boy.
A very skinny boy
with long hair almost down to the shoulders of his Red Sox T-shirt.
"Johnny!"
Clay shouted. "Johnny, Johnny-Gee!"
The boy turned toward
the sound of the shout, startled. His mouth hung open in a vacant gawp. There
was nothing in his eyes but vague alarm. He looked as if he was thinking about
running, but before he could even begin to put his legs in gear, Clay had swept
him up and was covering his grimy, unresponsive face and slack mouth with
kisses.
"Johnny,"
Clay said. "Johnny, I came for you. I did. I came for you. I came for
you."
And at some
point—perhaps only because the man holding him had begun to swing him around in
a circle—the child put his hands around Clay's neck and hung on. He said
something, as well. Clay refused to believe it was empty vocalization, as
meaningless as wind blowing across the mouth of an empty pop-bottle. It was a word.
It might have been tieey, as if the boy was trying to say tired.
Or it might have been
Dieey, which was the way he had, as a sixteen-month-old, first named his
father.
Clay chose to hang on
to that. To believe the pallid, dirty, malnourished child clinging to his neck
had called him Daddy.
4
It was little enough to hang on to, he thought a week later. One
sound that might have been a word, one word that might have been Daddy. Now
the boy was sleeping on a cot in a bedroom closet, because Johnny would settle there and because Clay
was tired of fishing him out from under the bed. The almost womblike confines
of the closet seemed to comfort him. Perhaps it was part of the conversion he
and the others had been through. Some conversion. The phoners at Kashwak had
turned his son into a haunted moron without even a flock for comfort.
Outside, under a gray
evening sky, snow was spitting down. A cold wind sent it up Springvale's
lightless Main Street in undulating snakes. It seemed too early for snow, but
of course it wasn't, especially this far north. When it came before
Thanksgiving you always griped, and when it came before Halloween you griped
double, and then somebody reminded you that you were living in Maine, not on
the isle of Capri.
He wondered where
Tom, Jordan, Dan, and Denise were tonight. He wondered how Denise would do when
it came time to have her baby. He thought she'd probably do okay—tough as a
boiled owl, that one. He wondered if Tom and Jordan thought about him as often
as he thought about them, and if they missed him as much as he missed
them—Jordan's solemn eyes, Tom's ironic smile. He hadn't seen half enough of
that smile; what they'd been through hadn't been all that funny.
He wondered if this
last week with his broken son had been the loneliest of his life. He thought
the answer to that was yes.
Clay looked down at
the cell phone in his hand. More than anything else, he wondered about that.
Whether to make one more call. There were bars on its little panel when he
powered up, three good bars, but the charge wouldn't last forever, and he knew
it. Nor could he count on the Pulse to continue forever. The batteries sending
the signal up to the corn-satellites (if that was what was happening, and if it
was still happening) might give out. Or the Pulse might mutate into no
more than a simple carrier wave, an idiot hum or the kind of high-pitched
shriek you used to get when you called someone's fax line by mistake.
Snow. Snow on the
twenty-first of October. Was it the twenty-first? He'd lost track of the
days. One thing he knew for sure was that the phoners would be dying out there,
more every night. Johnny would have been one of them, if Clay hadn't searched
and found him.
The question was,
what had he found?
What had he saved?
Dieey.
Daddy?
Maybe.
Certainly the kid
hadn't said anything even remotely resembling a word since then. He had been
willing to walk with Clay . . . but he'd also been prone to wandering off in
his own direction. When he did that, Clay had to grab him again, the way you
grabbed a tot who tried to take off in a supermarket parking lot. Each time
Clay did this he couldn't help thinking of a windup robot he'd had when he was
a kid, and how it would always find its way into a corner and stand there
marching its feet uselessly up and down until you turned it back toward the
middle of the room again.
Johnny had put up a
brief, panicky fight when Clay had found a car with the key in it, but once he
got the boy buckled and locked in and got the car rolling, Johnny had quieted
again and seemed to become almost hypnotized. He even found the button that
unrolled the window and let the wind blow on his face, closing his eyes and lifting
his head slightly. Clay watched the wind blowing back his son's long, dirty
hair and thought, God help me, it's like riding with a dog.
When they came to a
road-reef they couldn't get around and Clay helped Johnny from the car, he
discovered his son had wet his pants. He's lost his toilet
training along with his language, he had thought dismally. Christ on a crutch. And that turned out to be true, but the
consequences weren't as complicated or dire as Clay thought they might be.
Johnny was no longer toilet-trained, but if you stopped and led him into a
field, he would urinate if he had to. Or if he had to squat, he'd do that,
looking dreamily up at the sky while he emptied his bowels. Perhaps tracing the
courses of the birds that flew there. Perhaps not.
Not toilet-trained,
but housebroken. Again, Clay was helpless not to think of dogs he had owned.
Only dogs did not
wake up and scream for fifteen minutes in the middle of each night.
That first night they
had stayed in a house not far from the Newfield Trading Post, and when the
screaming started, Clay had thought Johnny was dying. And although the boy had
fallen asleep in his arms, he was gone when Clay snapped awake. Johnny was no
longer in the bed but under it. Clay crawled underneath, into a choking cavern
of dust-kitties with the bottom of the box spring only an inch above his head,
and clutched a slender body that was like an iron rail. The boy's shrieks were
bigger than such small lungs could produce, and Clay understood that he was
hearing them amplified in his head. All of Clay's hair, even his pubic hair,
seemed to be standing up straight and stiff.
Johnny had shrieked
for nearly fifteen minutes there under the bed, then ceased as abruptly as he
had begun. His body went limp. Clay had to press his head against Johnny's side
(one of the boy's arms somehow squeezed over his neck in the impossibly small
space) to make sure he was breathing.
He had dragged Johnny
out, limp as a mailsack, and had gotten the dusty, dirty body back onto the
bed. Had lain awake beside him almost an hour before falling soddenly asleep
himself. In the morning, the bed had been his alone again. Johnny had crawled
underneath once more. Like a beaten dog, seeking the smallest shelter it could
find. Quite the opposite of previous phoner behavior, it seemed . . . but of
course, Johnny wasn't like them. Johnny was a new thing, God help him.
6
Now they were in the cozy caretaker's cottage next to the
Springvale Logging Museum. There was plenty to eat, there was a woodstove,
there was fresh water from the hand-pump. There was even a chemical toilet
(although Johnny wouldn't use it; Johnny used the backyard). All mod cons,
circa 1908.
It had been
quiet time, except for Johnny's nightly screaming fit. There had been time to
think, and now, standing here by the living room window and watching snow skirl
up the street while his son slept in his little closet hidey-hole, there was
time to realize that the time for thinking was done. Nothing was going to
change unless he changed it.
You'd need
another cellphone, Jordan had said. And you'd need to take him to a place
where there's coverage.
There was coverage
here. Still coverage. He had the bars on the cell phone to prove it.
How much worse can
it be? Tom had asked. And shrugged. But of course he could shrug,
couldn't he? Johnny wasn't Tom's kid, Tom had his own kid now.
It all depends
on whether or not brains do what seriously protected computers do when they're
hit with an EMP, Jordan had said. They save to system.
Save to system. A
phrase of some power.
But you'd have to
wipe the phoner program first to make space for such a highly theoretical
second reboot, and Jordan's idea—to hit Johnny with the Pulse yet again, like
lighting a backfire—seemed so spooky, so off-the-wall dangerous, given the fact
that Clay had no way of knowing what sort of program the Pulse had mutated into
by now . . . assuming (makes an ass out of you and me, yeah, yeah, yeah)
it was still up and running at all. . .
"Save to
system," Clay whispered. Outside the light was almost gone; the skirling
snow looked more ghostly than ever.
The Pulse was different
now, he was sure of that. He remembered the first phoners he'd come upon who
were up at night, the ones at the Gurleyville Volunteer Fire Department. They
had been fighting over the old pumper, but they had been doing more than that;
they had been talking. Not just making phantom vocalizations that might have
been words, talking. It hadn't been much, not brilliant cocktail-party
chatter, but actual talk, just the same. Go away. You go. Hell you say. And
the always popular Mynuck. Those two had been different from the
original phoners—the phoners of the Raggedy Man Era—and Johnny was different from
those two. Why? Because the worm was still munching, the Pulse program was
still mutating? Probably.
The last thing Jordan
had said before kissing him goodbye and heading north was If you set a new
version of the program against the one Johnny and the others got
at the checkpoint, they might eat each other up. Because that's what worms do.
They eat.
And then, if the old
programming was there . . . if it was saved to the system . . .
Clay found his
troubled mind turning to Alice—Alice who had lost her mother, Alice who had
found a way to be brave by transferring her fears to a child's sneaker. Four
hours or so out of Gaiten, on Route 156, Tom had asked another group of normies
if they'd like to share their picnic site by the side of the road. That's
them, one of the men had said. That's the Gaiten bunch. Another had
told Tom he could go to hell. And Alice had jumped up. Jumped up and said—
"She said at
least we did something," Clay said as he looked out into the darkening
street. "Then she asked them, 'Just what the fuck did you do?'
"
So there was his
answer, courtesy of a dead girl. Johnny-Gee wasn't getting better. Clay's
choices came down to two: stick with what he had, or try to make a change while
there was still time. If there was.
Clay used a
battery-powered lamp to light his way into the bedroom. The closet door was
ajar, and he could see Johnny's face. In sleep, lying with his cheek on one
hand and his hair tousled across his forehead, he looked almost exactly like
the boy Clay had kissed goodbye before setting out for Boston with his Dark
Wanderer portfolio a thousand years ago. A little thinner; otherwise pretty
much the same. It was only when he was awake that you saw the differences. The
slack mouth and the empty eyes. The slumped shoulders and dangling hands.
Clay opened the
closet door all the way and knelt in front of the cot. Johnny stirred a little
when the light of the lantern struck his face, then settled again. Clay was not
a praying man, and events of the last few weeks had not greatly increased his
faith in God, but he had found his son, there was that, so he sent a
prayer up to whatever might be listening. It was short and to the point: Tony,
Tony, come around, something's lost that can't be found.
He flipped open the
cell and pushed the power button. It beeped softly. The amber light in the
window came on. Three bars. He hesitated for a moment, but when it came to placing the call, there was only one
sure shot: the one the Raggedy Man and his friends had taken.
When the three digits
were entered, he reached out and shook Johnny's shoulder. The boy didn't want
to wake up. He groaned and tried to pull away. Then he tried to turn over. Clay
wouldn't let him do either.
"Johnny!
Johnny-Gee! Wake up!" He shook harder and kept on shaking until the boy
finally opened his empty eyes and looked at him with wariness but no human
curiosity. It was the sort of look you got from a badly treated dog, and it
broke Clay's heart every time he saw it.
Last chance, he thought. Do
you really mean to do this? The odds can't be one in ten.
But what had the odds
been on his finding Johnny in the first place? Of Johnny leaving the
Kashwakamak flock before the explosion, for that matter? One in a thousand? In
ten thousand? Was he going to live with that wary yet incurious look as Johnny
turned thirteen, then fifteen, then twenty-one? While his son slept in the
closet and shat in the backyard?
At least we did
something, Alice Maxwell had said.
He looked in the
window above the keypad. There the numbers 911 stood out as bright and black as
some declared destiny.
Johnny's eyes were
drooping. Clay gave him another brisk shake to keep him from falling asleep
again. He did this with his left hand. With the thumb of his right he pushed
the phone's call button. There
was time to count Mississippi ONE and Mississippi TWO before calling in the phone's little lighted
window changed to connected. When
that happened, Clayton Riddell didn't allow himself time to think.
"Hey,
Johnny-Gee," he said, "Fo-fo-you-you." And pressed the cell
against his son's ear.
December
30, 2004-October 17, 2005 Center Lovell, Maine
~ ~ ~
Chuck Verrill edited the book and did a great job. Thanks, Chuck.
Robin Furth did
research on cell phones and provided various theories on what may lie at the
core of the human psyche. Good info is hers; errors in understanding are mine.
Thanks, Robin.
My wife read the
first-draft manuscript and said encouraging things. Thanks, Tabby.
Bostonians and northern New Englanders will know I took certain geographical
liberties. What can I say? It goes with the territory (to make a small pun).
To the best of my
knowledge, FEMA hasn't appropriated any money to provide backup generators for
cell telephone transmission towers, but I should note that many transmission
towers do have generator backup in case of power outages.
S.K.
Stephen King lives in Maine with his wife, the novelist Tabitha
King. He does not own a cell phone.