James Patrick Kelly UNDONE panic attack The ship screamed. Its screens showedMada that she was surrounded in threespace.Aswarm of Utopian asteroids was closing on her, brain clans and mining DIs living in hollowed-out chunks of carbonaceous chondrite, any one of which could have mustered enough votes to abolish Mada in all ten dimensions. "I’m going to die," the ship cried, "I’m going to die, I’m going to..." "I’m not." Madawaved the speaker off impatiently and scanned downwhen. She saw that the Utopians had planted an identity mine five minutes into the past that would boil her memory to vapor if she tried to go back in time to undo this trap. Upwhen, then. The future was clear, at least as far as she could see, which wasn’t much beyond next week. Of course, that was the direction they wanted her to skip. They’d be happiest making her into their great-great-great-grandchildren’s problem. The Utopians fired another spread of panic bolts. The ship tried to absorb them, but its buffers were already overflowing. Mada felt her throat tighten. Suddenly she couldn’t rememberhow to spell luck, and she believed that she could feel her sanity oozing out of her ears. "So let’s skip upwhen," she said. "You s-sure?" said the ship. "I don’t know if... how far? "Far enough so that all of these drones will be fossils." "I can’t just…I needa number, Mada." Aneedle of fear pricked Madahard enough to make her reflexes kick. "Skip!" Her panic did not allow for the luxury of numbers. "Skip now!" Her voice was tight asa fist. "Do it!" Time shivered as the ship surged into the empty dimensions. In threespace Madawent all wavy. Eons passed in a nanosecond, then she washed back into the strong dimensions and solidified. She merged briefly with the ship to assess damage. "What have you done?" The gain in entropy wasan ache in her bones. "I-I’m sorry, you said to skip so..." The ship was still jittery. Even though she wanted to kick its sensorium in, she bit down hard on her anger. They had both made enough mistakes that day. "That’s all right," she said, "wecan always go back.Wejust have to figure out whenweare. Run the star charts." two-tenths of a spin The ship took almost three minutes to get its charts to agree with its navigation screens – a bad sign. Reconciling the data showed that it had skipped forward in time about two-tenths ofa galactic spin. Almost twenty million years had passed on Mada’s home world of Trueborn, time enough for its crust to fold and buckle into new mountain ranges, for the Green Sea to bloom, for the glaciers to march and melt. More than enough time for everything and everyoneMadahad ever loved —or hated—to die, turn to dust and blow away. Whiskers trembling, she checked downwhen.What she sawmade her lose her perch and float aimlessly awayfrom the command mod’s screens. There had to be something wrong with the ship’s air. It settled like dead, wet leaves in her lungs. She ordered the ship to check the mix. The ship’s deck flowed into an enormous plastic hand, warmas blood. It cupped Mada gently in its palm and raised her up so that she could see its screens straight on. "Nominal, Mada. Everything is as it should be." That couldn’t be right. She could breathe ship-nominal atmosphere. "Check it again," she said "Mada, I’m sorry," said the ship. The identity mine had skipped with them and was still dogging her, five infuriating minutes into the past. There was no getting around it, no way to undo their leap into the future. She was trapped two-tenths of a spin upwhen. The knowledge was like a sucking hole in her chest, much worse than any wound the Utopian psychological war machine could have inflicted on her. "Whatdowedo now?" asked the ship. Mada wondered what she should say to it. Scan for hostiles? Open a pleasure sim? Cook a nice, hot stew? Orders twisted in her mind, bit their tails and swallowed themselves. She considered – briefly – telling it to open all the air locks to the vacuum. Would it obey this order? She thought it probably would, although she would as soon chew her own tongue off as utter such cowardly words. Had not she and her sibling batch voted to carry the revolution into all ten dimensions? Pledged themselves to fight for the Three Universal Rights, no matter what the cost the Utopian brain clans extracted from them in blood and anguish? But that had been two-tenths ofa spin ago. bean thoughts "Whereare you going?" said the ship. Mada floated through the door bubble of the command mod. She wrapped her toes around the perch outside to steady herself. "Mada, wait! I needa mission, a course, some line of inquiry." She launched down the companionway. "I’maDependent Intelligence, Mada." Its speaker buzzed with self-righteousness. "I have the right to proper and timely guidance." The ship flowed a veil across her trajectory; as she approached, it went taut. That wasDI thinking: the ship was sure that it could just bounce her back into its world. Mada flicked her claws and slashed at it, shredding holes half a meter long. "AndI have the right to bean individual," she said. "Leaveme alone." She caught another perch and pivoted off it toward the greenhouse blister. She grabbed the perch by the door bubble and paused to flow new aveoli into her lungs to make up for the oxygen-depleted, carbon-dioxide-enriched air mix in the greenhouse. The bubble shivered as she popped through it and she breathed deeply. The smells of life helped ground her whenever operation of the ship overwhelmed her. It was always so needy and there was only one of her. It would have been different if they had been designed to go out in teams. She would have had her sibling Thiras at her side; together they might have been strong enough to withstand the Utopian’s panic…no! Mada shook him out of her head. Thiras was gone; they were all gone. There was no sense in looking for comfort, downwhen or up. All she had was the moment, the tick of the relentless present, filled now with the moist, bittersweet breath of the dirt, the sticky savor of running sap, the bloom of perfume on the flowers. As she drifted through the greenhouse, leaves brushed her skin like caresses. She settled at the potting bench, opened a bin and picked out a single bean seed. Madacupped it between her two hands and blew on it, letting her body’s warmth coax the seed out of dormancy. She tried to merge her mind with its blissful unconsciousness. Cotyledons stirred and began to absorb nutrients from the endosperm.Abean cared nothing about proclaiming the Three Universal Rights: the right of all independent sentients to remain individual, the right to manipulate their physical structures and the right to access the timelines. Mada slowed her metabolism to the steady and deliberate rhythm of the bean — what Utopian could do that? They held that individuality bred chaos, that function alone must determine form and that undoing the past was sacrilege. Being Utopians, they could hardly destroy Trueborn and its handful of colonies. Instead they had tried to put the Rights under quarantine. Mada stimulated the sweat glands in the palms of her hands. The moisture wicking across her skin called to the embryonic root in the bean seed. The tip pushed against the seat coat. Mada’s sibling batch on Trueborn had pushed hard against the Utopian blockade, to bring the Rights to the rest of the galaxy. Only a handful hadmade it to open space. The brain clans had hunted them down and brought most of them back in disgrace to Trueborn. But not Mada. No, not wily Mada,Mada the fearless, Madawhose heart now beat but oncea minute. Thebean embryo swelled and its root cracked the seed coat. It curled into her hand, branching and rebranching like the timelines. The roots tickled her. Mada manipulated the chemistry of her sweat by forcing her sweat ducts to reabsorb most of the sodium and chlorine. She parted her hands slightly and raised them up to the grow lights. The cotyledons emerged and chloroplasts oriented themselves to the light. Madawas thinking only bean thoughts as her cupped hands filled with roots and the first true leaves unfolded. More leaves budded from the nodes of her stem, her petioles arched and twisted to the light, the light. It was only the light —violet-blue and orange-red— that mattered, the incredible shower of photons that excited her chlorophyll, passing electrons down carrier molecules to form adenosine diphosphate and nicotinamide adenine dinucleo... "Mada," said the ship. "The order to leave you alone is now superceded by primary programming." "What?"Theword caught in her throat like a bone. "You entered the greenhouse forty days ago." Without quite realizing what she was doing, Mada clenched her hands, crushing the young plant. "Iam directed to keep you from harm, Mada," said the ship. "It’s time to eat." She glanced down at the dead thing in her hands. "Yes, all right." She dropped it onto the potting bench. "I’ve got something to clean up first but I’ll be there in a minute." She wiped the corner of her eye. "Meanwhile, calculate a course for home." natural background Not until the ship scanned the quarantine zone at the edge of the Trueborn system did Mada begin to worry. In her time the zone had swarmed with the battle asteroids of the brain clans. Nowthe Utopians were gone. Of course, that was to be expected after all this time. But as the ship re-entered the home system, dumping excess velocity into the empty dimensions, Mada felt a chill that had nothing to do with the temperature in the command mod. Trueborn orbited a spectral typeG3V star, which had been known to the discoverers as HR3538. Scans showed that the Green Sea had become a climax forest of deciduous hardwood. Therewere indeed new mountains—knife edges slicing through evergreen sheets—that had upthrust some eighty kilometers off the Fire Coast, leaving Port Henoch landlocked.Arain forest choked the plain where the city of Blair’s Landing had once sprawled. The ship scanned life in abundance. The seas teemed and flocks of Trueborn’s flyers darkened the skies like storm clouds: kippies and bluewings and warblers and migrating stilts. Animals had retaken all three continents, lowland and upland, marsh and tundra. Mada could see the dust kicked up by the herds of herbivorous aram from low orbit. The forest echoed with the clatter of shindies and the shriek of blowhards. Big hunters like kar and divil padded across the plains. Therewerenew species as well, mostly invertebrates but also anumber of lizards and something like a great, mossy rat that built mounds five meters tall. Noneof the introduced species had survived: dogs or turkeys or llamas. The ship could find no cities, towns, buildings — not even ruins. There were neither tubeways nor roads, only the occasional animal track. The ship looked across the entire electromagnetic spectrum and saw nothing but the natural background. Therewas nobody home on Trueborn. And as far as they could tell, there never had been. "Speculate," said Mada. "I can’t," said the ship. "There isn’t enough data." "There’s your data." Mada could hear the anger in her voice. "Trueborn, as it would have been hadwenever even existed." "Two-tenths ofa spin is a long time, Mada." She shook her head. "They ripped out the foundations, even picked up the dumps. There’s nothing, nothing of us left." Madawas gripping the command perch so hard that the knuckles of her toes were white. "Hypothesis," she said, "the Utopians got tired of our troublemaking and wiped us out. Speculate. " "Possible, but that’s contrary to their core beliefs." Most DIs had terrible imaginations. They couldn’t tell jokes, but then they couldn’t commit crimes, either. "Hypothesis: they deported the entire population, scattered us to prison colonies. Speculate." "Possible, but a logistical nightmare. The Utopians prize the elegant solution." She swiped the image of her home planet off the screen, as if to erase its unnerving impossibility. "Hypothesis: there are no Utopians anymore because the revolution succeeded. Speculate." "Possible, but then where did everyone go?Andwhy did they return the planet to its pristine state?" She snorted in disgust. "What if," she tapped a finger to her forehead, "maybe we don’t exist. What if we’ve skipped to another time line? One in which the discovery of Trueborn never happened? Maybe there has been no Utopian Empire in this timeline, no Great Expansion, no Space Age, maybe no human civilization at all." "One does not just skip to another timeline at random." The ship sounded huffy at the suggestion. "I’ve monitored all our dimensional reinsertions quite carefully, and I can assure you that all these events occurred in the timeline we currently occupy." "You’re saying there’s no chance?" "If you want to write a story, why bother asking my opinion?" Mada’s laugh was brittle. "All right then.Weneed more data." For the first time since she had been stranded upwhen, she felt a tickle stir the dead weight she was carrying inside her. "Let’s start with the nearest Utopian system." chasing shadows The HR683 system was abandoned and all signs of human habitation had been obliterated. Mada could not be certain that everything had been restored to its pre-Expansion state because the ship’s database on Utopian resources was spotty. HR4523was similarly deserted. HR509, also known as Tau Ceti, was only 11.9 light years from earth and had been the first outpost of the Great Expansion. Its planetary system was also devoid of intelligent life and human artifacts – with one striking exception. NuevoLAwas spread along the shores of the Sterling Sea like a half-eaten picnic lunch. Something had bitten the roofs off its buildings and chewed its walls. Metal skeletons rotted on its docks, transports were melting into brown and gold stains. Once-proud boulevards crumbled in the orange light; the only traffic was windblown litter chasing shadows. Madawas happy to survey the ruin from low orbit. Acloser inspection would have spooked her. "Was it war?" "There may have been a war," said the ship, "but that’s not what caused this. I think it’s deliberate deconstruction." In extreme magnification, the screen showed a concrete wall pockmarked with tiny holes, from which dust puffed intermittently. "The composition of that dust is limestone, sand, and aluminum silicate. The buildings are crawling with nanobots and they’re eating the concrete." "Howlong has this been going on?" "Ata guess, a hundred years, but that could be off by an order of magnitude." "Who did this?" said Mada."Why? Speculate." "If this is the outcome ofawar, then it would seem that the victors wanted to obliterate all traces of the vanquished. But it doesn’t seem to have been fought over resources. I suppose we could imagine some deep ideological antagonism between the two sides that led to this, but such an extreme of cultural psychopathology seems unlikely." "I hope you’re right." She shivered. "So they did it themselves, then? Maybe they were done with this place and wanted to leave it as they found it?" "Possible," said the ship. Madadecided that she was done with NuevoLA, too. She would have been perversely comforted to have found her enemies in power somewhere. It would have given her an easyway to calculate her duty. However,Madawas quite certain that what this mystery meant was that two thousand millennia had conquered both the revolution and the Utopians and that she and her sibling batch had been designed in vain. Still, she had nothing better to do with eternity than to try to find out what had become of her species. a never-ending vacation The Atlantic Oceanwasnow larger than the Pacific. The Mediterranean Sea had been squeezed out of existence by the collision of Africa, Europe and Asia. North America floated free of South America and was nudging Siberia. Australia was drifting toward the equator. The population of earth was about what it had been in the fifteenth century CE, according to the ship. Half a billion people lived on the home world and, as far asMada could see, none of them had anything important to do. The means of production and distribution, of energy-generation and waste disposal were in the control of Dependent Intelligences like the ship. Despite repeated scans, the ship could detect no sign that any independent sentience was overseeing the system. Therewere but a handful of cities, none larger than a quarter ofa million inhabitants. All were scrubbed clean and kept scrupulously ordered by the DIs; they reminded Madaof databases populated with people instead of information. The majority of the population spent their bucolic lives in pretty hamlets and quaint towns overlooking lakes or oceans or mountains. Humanity had booked a never-ending vacation. "The brain clans could be controlling the DIs," said Mada. "That would make sense." "Doubtful," said the ship. "Independent sentients create a signature disturbance in the sixth dimension." "Could there be some secret dictator among the humans, a hidden oligarchy?" "I see no evidence that anyone is in charge.Doyou?" She shook her head. "Did they choose to live in a museum," she said, "or were they condemned to it? It’s obvious there’s no First Right here; these people have only the illusion of individuality. Andno Second Right either. Those bodies are as plain as uniforms – they’re still slaves to their biology." "There’s no disease," said the ship. "They seem to be functionally immortal." "That’s not saying very much, is it?" Mada sniffed. "Maybe this is some scheme to start human civilization over again. Or maybe they’re like seeds, stored here until someone comes along to plant them." She waved all the screens off. "I want to go down for a closer look. Whatdo I need to pass?" "Clothes, for one thing." The ship displayed a selection of current styles on its screen. They were extravagantly varied, from ballooning pastel tents to skin-tight sheaths of luminescent metal, to feathered camouflage to jumpsuits made of what looked like dried mud. "Fashion design is one of their principal past-times," said the ship. "In addition, you’ll probably want genitalia and the usual secondary sexual characteristics." It took her the better part ofaday to flow ovaries, fallopian tubes, a uterus, cervix, and vulva and to rearrange her vagina. All these unnecessary organs made her feel bloated. She saw breasts asa waste of tissue; she made hers as small as the ship thought acceptable. She argued with it about the several substantial patches of hair it claimed she needed. Clearly, grooming them would require constant attention. She didn’t mind taming her claws into fingernails but she hated giving up her whiskers. Without them, the air was practically invisible. At first hernew vulva tickled when she walked, but she got used to it. The ship entered earth’s atmosphere at night and landed in what had once been Saskatchewan, Canada. It dumped most of its mass into the empty dimensions and flowed itself into baggy black pants, a moss-colored boat neck top anda pair of brown, gripall loafers. It was able to conceal its complete sensorium in a canvas belt. It was 9:14 in the morning on June 23, 19,834,004 CEwhenMada strolled into the village of Harmonious Struggle. the devil's apple Harmonious Struggle consisted of five clothing shops, six restaurants, three jewelers, eight art galleries, a musical instrument maker,a crafts workshop, a weaver, a potter, a woodworking shop, two candle stores, four theaters with capacities ranging from twenty to three hundred and an enormous sporting goods store attached to a miniature domed stadium. There looked to be apartments over most of these establishments; many had views of nearby Rabbit Lake. Three of the restaurants—Hassam’s Palace of Plenty, The Devil’s Apple and Laurel’s – were practically jostling each other for position on Sonnet Street, which ran down to the lake. Lounging just outside of eachwere waiters eyeing handheld screens. They sprang up as onewhenMadahappened around the corner. "Good day, Madame.Have you eaten?" "Well met, fair stranger. Come break bread with us." "All natural foods, friend! Lightly cooked, humbly served." Madaveered into the middle of the street to study the situation as the waiters called to her. ~So I can choose whichever I want?~ she subvocalized to the ship. ~Inan attention-based economy,~ subbed the ship in reply, ~all they expect from you is an audience.~ Just beyond Hassam’s, the skinny waiter from The Devil’s Apple had a wry, crooked smile. Black hair fell to the padded shoulders of his shirt. He was wearing boots to the knee and loose rust-colored shorts, but it was the little red cape that decided her. Asshe walked past her, the waitress from Hassam’s was practically shouting. "Madame, please, their batter is dull!" She waved her handheld at Mada. "Read the reviews.Who puts shrimp in muffins?" The waiter at the Devil’s Apple wasnamedOwen.He showed her to one of three tables in the tiny restaurant. At his suggestion, Mada ordered the poached peaches with white cheese mousse, an asparagus breakfast torte, baked orange walnut French toast and coddled eggs. Owen served the peaches, but it was the chef andowner, Edris, whoemerged from the kitchen to clear the plate. "The mousse, madame, you liked it?" she asked, beaming. "It was good," said Mada.Her smile shrank a size anda half. "Enough lemon rind, would you say that?" "Yes. It was very nice." Mada’s reply seemed to dismay Edris even more.Whenshe came out to clear the next course, she blanched at the corner of breakfast torte that Madahad left uneaten. "Iknew this." She snatched the plate away. "The pastry wasn’t fluffy enough." She rolled the offending scrap between thumb and forefinger. Madaraised her hands in protest. "No, no, it was delicious." She could seeOwen shrinking into the far corner of the room. "Maybe too much colby, not enough gruyere?" Edris snarled. "But you have no comment?" "I wouldn’t changea thing. It was perfect." "Madame is kind," she said, her lips barely moving, and retreated. Amoment later Owen set the steaming plate of French toast before Mada. "Excuse me." She tugged at his sleeve. "Something’s wrong?"Heedgedawayfrom her. "You must speak to Edris." "Everything is fine. I was just wondering if you could tell mehow to get to the local library." Edris burst out of the kitchen. "What are you doing, beanheaded boy? Youare distracting my patron with absurd chitterchat. Get out, get out of my restaurant now." "No really, he..." But Owenwas already out the door and up the street, taking Mada’s appetite with him. ~You’re doing something wrong,~ the ship subbed. Madalowered her head. ~Iknow that!~ Madapushed the sliver of French toast around the pool of maple syrup for several minutes but could not eat it. "Excuse me," she called, standing up abruptly. "Edris?" Edris shouldered through the kitchen door, carrying a tray with a silver egg cup. She froze when she sawhow it was with the French toast and her only patron. "This was one of the most delicious meals I have ever eaten." Madabacked toward the door. She wanted nothing to do with eggs, coddled or otherwise. Edris set the tray in front of Mada’s empty chair. "Madame, the art of the kitchen requires the tongue of the patron," she said icily. She fumbled for the latch. "Everything was very, very wonderful." no comment Mada slunk down Lyric Alley, which ran behind the stadium, trying to understand how exactly she had offended. In this attention-based economy, paying attention was obviously not enough. There had to be some other cultural protocol she and the ship were missing. What she probably ought to do was go back and explore the clothes shops, maybe pick upa pot or some candles and see what additional information she could blunder into. But making a fool of herself had never much appealed to Madaasa learning strategy. She wanted the map,a native guide, – some edge, preferably secret. ~Scanning,~ subbed the ship. ~Somebody is following you. He just ducked behind the privet hedge twelve-point-three meters to the right. It’s the waiter, Owen.~ "Owen," called Mada, "is that you? I’m sorry I got you in trouble. You’re an excellent waiter." "I’m not really a waiter." Owenpeeked over the top of the hedge. "I’m a poet." She gave him her best smile. "You said you’d take me to the library." For some reason, the smile stayed on her face "Canwedo that now?" "First listen to some ofmy poetry." "No," she said firmly. "Owen, I don’t think you’ve been paying attention. I said I would like to go to the library." "All right then, but I’m not going to have sex with you." Madawas taken aback. "Really? Why is that?" "I’m not attracted to women with small breasts." For the first time in her life, Mada felt the stab of outraged hormones. "Come out here and talk to me." There wasno immediate break in the hedge, soOwenhad to squiggle through. "There’s something about me that you don’t like," he said as he struggled with the branches. "Is there?" She considered. "I like your cape." "That you don’t like." Heescaped the hedge’s grasp and brushed leaves from his shorts. "I guess I don’t like your narrow-mindedness. It’s not an attractive quality in a poet." Therewasagleam in Owen’s eye as he went up on his tiptoes and began to declaim: "That spring you left I thought I might expire And lose the love you left for me to keep. To hold you once again is my desire Before I give myself to death’s long sleep." H illustrated his poetry with large, flailing gestures. At "death’s long sleep" he brought his hands together as if to pray, laid the side of his head against them e and closed his eyes.Heheld that pose in silence for an agonizingly long time. "It’s nice." Mada said at last. "I like the way it rhymes." H sighed and went flat-footed. His arms drooped and he fixed her with an accusing stare. "You’re not from here." e "No," she said. ~WhereamI from?~ she subbed. ~Someplace he’ll have to look up.~ ~Marble Bar. It’s in Australia~ "I’m from Marble Bar." "No, I mean you’re not one of us. You don’t comment." At that moment,Mada understood. ~I want to skip downwhen four minutes. I need to undo this.~ ~.this undo to need I .minutes four downwhen skip to want I~ .understood Mada, As the ship surged through the empty moment that At ".comment don’t You .us of one not you’re mean I ,No" ".Bardimensions, threespace became as liquid as a Marble from I’m" ~.Australia in It’s .Bar Marble~ ~up look to have he’lldream. Leaves smeared and buildings ran Someplace~ .subbed she ~?from I am Where~ .said she ",No" ".here from nottogether. Owen’s face swirled. You’re" .stare accusing an with her fixed he and drooped arms His .flatfooted went "They want criticism," said Mada. 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Be ready to reclaim mass so you can the to go to like would I said I .attention paying been you’ve think don’t I ,Owen"resubstantiate the hull at mycommand." ,firmly said she ",No" "poetry myof some to listen First" "First listen to some ofmy poetry." "Goahead." Mada folded her arms across her chest. "Say it then." Owenstood on tiptoes to declaim: "That spring you left I thought I might expire And lose the love you left for me to keep. To hold you once again is my desire Before I give myself to death’s long sleep." H illustrated his poetry with large, flailing gestures. At "death’s long sleep" he brought his hands together as if to pray, moved them to the side of his head, e rested against them and closed his eyes.Hehad held the pose for just a beat before Mada interrupted him. "Owen," she said. "You look ridiculous." H jerked as if he had been hit in the head bya shovel. e She pointed at the ground before her. "You’ll want to take these comments sitting down." H hesitated, then settled at her feet. e "You hold your meter well, but that’s purely a mechanical skill." She circled behind him. "A smart oven could do as much. Stop fidgeting!" She hadn’t noticed the ant hills near the spot she had chosen for Owen.The first scouts were beginning to explore him. That suited her plan exactly. "Your real problem," she continued, "is that you know nothing about death and probably very little about desire." "I know about death." Owendrew his feet close to his body and grasped his knees. "Everyone does. Flowers die, squirrels die." "Has anyone you’ve ever known died?" H frowned. "I didn’t know her personally, but there was the womanwho fell off that cliff in Merrymeeting." e "Owen, did you havea mother?" "Don’t make fun of me. Everyone has a mother." Mada didn’t think it was time to tell him that she didn’t; that she and her sibling batch of a thousand revolutionaries had been autoflowed. "Hold out your hand." Mada scooped up an ant. "That’s your mother." She crunched it and dropped it onto Owen’s palm. Owenlooked down at the dead ant and then up again at Mada. His eyes filled. "I think I love you," he said. "What’s your name?" "Mada." She leaned over to straighten his cape. "But loving mewould bea very bad idea." all that is left Madawas surprised to find afew actual books in the library, printed on real plastic. A primitive DIhad catalogued the rest of the collection, billions of gigabytes of print, graphics, audio, video and VR files. None of it told Mada what she wanted to know. The library had sims of Egypt’s New Kingdom, Islam’s Abbasid dynasty and the International Moonbase—but then camean astonishing void. Mada’s searches on Trueborn, the Utopians, Tau Ceti, intelligence engineering and dimensional extensibility theory turned up no results. It was only in the very recent past that history resumed. TheDI could reproduce the plans that the workbots had left when they built the library twenty-two years ago, and the menuThe Devil’s Apple had offered the previous summer, and the complete won-lost record of the Black Minks, the local scatterball club, which had gone 533-905 over the last century. It knew that the name of the woman who died in Merrymeeting was Agnes and that two years after her death, a replacement baby had been born to Chandra and Yuri. They named him Herrick. Mada waved the screen blank and stretched. She could see Owen draped artfully over a nearby divan, as if posing for a portrait. He was engrossed by his handheld. She noticed that his lips moved as he read. She crossed the reading room and squeezed onto it next to him, nestling into crook in his legs. "What’s that?" she asked. H turned the handheld toward her. "Nadeem Jerad’s Burning the Snow.Would you like to hear one of his poems?" e "Maybe later." She leaned into him. "I was just reading about Moonbase." "Yes, ancient history. It’s sort of interesting, don’t you think? The Greeks and the Renaissance and all that." "But then I can’t find any record of whatcame after." "Because of the nightmares." Henodded. "Terrible things happened, sowe forgot them." "What terrible things?" H tapped the side of his head and grinned. e "Of course," she said, "nothing terrible happens anymore." "No. Everyone’s happy now."Owenreached out and pushed a strand of her hair off her forehead. "You have beautiful hair." Mada couldn’t even remember what color it was. "But if something terrible did happen, then you’d want to forget it." "Obviously." "Thewomanwho died, Agnes.No doubt her friends were very sad." "No doubt." Nowhewas playing with her hair. ~Good question,~subbed the ship. ~They must have some mechanism to wipe their memories.~ "Is something wrong?" Owen’s face was the size of the moon; Madawas afraid of what he might tell her next. "Agnes probably hada mother," she said. "Amomanda dad." "It must have been terrible for them." H shrugged. "Yes, I’m sure they forgot her." e Madawanted to slap his handawayfrom her head. "But how could they?" H gave hera puzzled look. "Whereare you from, anyway?" e "Trueborn," she said without hesitation. "It’s a long, long wayfrom here." "Don’t you have libraries there?"He gestured at the screens that surrounded them. "This is wherewekeep whatwe don’t want to remember." ~Skip!~Mada could barely sub; if what she suspected were true..... ~Skip downwhen two minutes.~ ~.minutes two downwhen Skip ~ .throat her down finger a sticking was someone She wrapped her arms around herself to like it ;sub barely could Mada ~!Skip~ "?there libraries have you Don’t" ".herekeep the empty dimensions from reaching for from way long ,long a It’s" .hesitation without said she ",Trueborn" "?anyway,the emptiness inside her. Was something from you areWhere" .look puzzled aher gaveHe"?they could how But" .head herwrong? from away hand his slap to wanted Mada ".her forgot they sure I’m, Yes" Ofcourse there was, but she didn’t expect to .shruggedHe".them for terrible been have must It" ".dad aandmomA" ".mother asay it out loud. "I’ve lost everything and all had probably Agnes" .next her tell might he what of afraid wasMada .moon the ofthat’s left is this." Owen shimmered next to her size of the was face Owen’s "?wrong something Is" ~!Quiet~ ~… mechanismlike the surface of Rabbit Lake. somehave must They".ship the subbed ~,question Good~ .hair her with playing "Mada, what?" said the ship. was he Now ".doubt No" ".sad very were friends her doubt no ,Agnes ,died who "Forget it," she said. She thought she could womanThe" ".Obviously" ".it forget to you’d then ,happen did terrible somethinghear something cracking when she laughed. if But" .was it color what remember even couldn’t evenMada Mada couldn’t even remember what color her hair was. "But if something terrible did happen, then you’d want to forget it." "Obviously." "Something terrible happened to me." "I’m sorry." Owensqueezed her shoulder. "Do you wantme to show you how to use the headbands?"He pointed at arack of metal-mesh strips. ~Scanning,~subbed the ship. "Microcurrent taps capable of modulating post-synaptic outputs. Ithought they were some kind of virtual reality I/O." "No."Mada twisted awayfrom him and shot off the divan. She was outraged that these people would deliberately burn memories. How many stubbed toes and unhappy love affairs had Owen forgotten? If she could have, she would have skipped the entire village of Harmonius Struggle downwhen into the identity mine.Whenhe rose up after her, she grabbed his hand. "I have to get out of here right now." She dragged him out of the library into the innocent light of the sun. "Waita minute," he said. She continued to tow him upOde Street and out of town. "Wait!"He planted his feet, tugged at her and she spun back to him. "Why are you so upset?" "I’m not upset." Mada’s blood was hammering in her temples and she could feel the prickle of sweat under her arms.~NowI need you,~she subbed. "All right then. It’s time you knew." She took adeep breath."Wewere just talking about ancient history, Owen.Doyou remember back then that the gods used to intervene in the affairs of humanity?" Owengoggled at her as if she were growing beans out of her ears. "Iama goddess, Owen,and I havecome for you. Iam calling you to your destiny. I intend to inspire you to great poetry." His mouth opened and then closed again. "Myworshippers call meby many names." She raised ahand to the sky. ~Help?~ ~Try Athene. Here’s a databurst.~ "To the Greeks, I was Athene," Mada continued, "the goddess of cities, of technology and the arts, of wisdom and of war." She stretched ahand toward Owen’s astonished face, forefinger aimed between his eyes. "Unlike you, I had no mother. I sprang full-grown from the forehead of my maker. I am Athene, the virgin goddess." "How stupid do you think I am?" He shivered and glanced away from her fierce gaze. "I used to live in Maple City, Mada. I’m not some simple-minded country lump. You don’t seriously expectme to believe this goddess nonsense?" She slumped, confused. Of course she had expected him to believe her. "I meant no disrespect, Owen. It’s just that the truth is..." This wasn’t as easy as she had thought. "What I expect is that you believe in your own potential, Owen.What I expect is that you are brave enough to leave this place and come with me. To the stars, Owen, to the stars to start anew world." She crossed her arms in front of her chest, grasped the hem of her moss-colored top, pulled it over her head and tossed it behind her. Before it hit the ground the ship augmented it with enough reclaimed mass from the empty dimensions to resubstantiate the command and living mods. Madawas quite pleased with the wayOwen tried – and failed—not to stare at her breasts. She kicked the gripall loafers off and the deck rose up beneath them. She stepped out of the baggy, black pants; when she tossed them at Owen, he flinched. Seconds later, they were eyeing each other in metallic light of the ship’s main companionway. "Well?" said Mada. duty Madahad difficulty accepting Trueborn as it nowwas. She could see the ghosts of great cities, hear the murmur of dead friends. She decided to live in the forest that hadonce been the Green Sea, where there wereno landmarks to remind her of what she had lost. She ordered the ship to begin constructing an infrastructure similar to that they had found on earth, only capable of supporting a technologically-advanced population. Borrowing orphan mass from the empty dimensions, it was soon consumed with this monumental task. She missed its company; only rarely did she use the link it had left her – a silver ring with a direct link to its sensorium. The ship’s first effort was the farm that Owen called Athens. It consisted of their house, a flow works, a gravel pit and a barn. Dirt roads led to various mines anddomed fields that the ship’s bots tended. Madahad it build a separate library, a little way into the woods, where, she declared, information was to be acquired only, never destroyed. Owen spent many evenings there. He said hewas trying to make himself worthy of her. H had been deeply flattered when she told him that, as part of his training asa poet, hewas to name the birds and beasts and flowers and trees of Trueborn. e "But they must already have names," he said, as they walked back to the house from the newly-tilled soya field. "The people whonamed them are gone," she said. "The names went with them." "Your people." Hewaited for her to speak. The wind sighed through the forest. "What happened to them?" "I don’t know." At that moment, she regretted ever bringing him to Trueborn. H sighed. "It must be hard." e "You left your people," she said. She spoke to wound him, since hewas wounding her with these rude questions. "For you, Mada."He let go of her. "I know you didn’t leave them for me."Hepicked upa pebble and held it in front of his face. "You are now Mada-stone," he told it, "and whatever you hit..." Hethrew it into the woods and it thwocked off a tree. "… is Mada-tree. We will plant fields of Mada-seed and press Mada-juice from the sweet Mada-fruit and dance for the rest of our days down Mada Street." He laughed and put his arm around her waist and swung her around in circles, kicking up dust from the road. She was so surprised that she laughed too. MadaandOwen slept in separate bedrooms, so she was not exactly sure how she knew that he wanted to have sex with her. He had never spoken of it, other than on that first daywhenhe had specifically said that he did not want her. Maybe it was the way he continually brushed up against her for no apparent reason. This could hardly be chance, considering that they were the only two people on Trueborn. For herself, Mada welcomed his hesitancy. Although she had been emotionally intimate with her batch siblings, none of them had ever inserted themselves into her body cavities. But, for better or worse, she had chosen this man for this course of action. Even if the galaxy had forgotten the revolution for two-tenths of a spin ago, it still called Mada to her duty. "What’s it like to kiss?" she asked that night, as they were finishing supper. Owen laid his fork across a plate of cauliflower curry. "You’ve never kissed anyone before?" "That’s whyI ask." Owenleaned across the table and brushed his lips across hers. The brief contact made her cheeks flush, as if she had just jogged in from the gravel pit. "Like that," he said. "Only better." "Doyou still think my breasts are too small?" "I never said that." Owen’s face turned red. "It wasacomment you made—or at least thought about making." "Acomment?" Theword comment seemed to stick in his throat; it made him cough. "Just because you make comment on some aspect doesn’t mean you reject the work asa whole." Madaglanced down the neck of her shift. She hadn’t really increased her breast mass all that much, maybe ten or twelve grams, but now vasocongestion had begun to swell them even more. She could also feel blood flowing to her reproductive organs. It was a pleasurable weight that made her feel light as pollen. "Yes, but do you think they’re too small?" Owen got up from the table and came around behind her chair. He put his hands on her shoulders and she leaned her head back against him. There was something between her cheek and his stomach. She heard him say, "Yours are the most perfect breasts on this entire planet," as if from a great distance and then realized that the something must be his penis. After that, neither of them mademuch comment. nine hours Madastared at the ceiling, her eyes wide but unseeing. Her concentration had turned inward. After she had rolled off him, Owen had flung his left arm across her belly and drawn her hip towards his and given her the night’s last kiss. Now the muscles of his arm were slack, and she could hear his seashore breath as she released her ovum into the cloud of his sperm squiggling up her fallopian tubes. The most vigorous of the swimmers butted its head through the ovum’s membrane and dissolved, releasing its genetic material. Mada immediately started raveling the strands of DNA before the fertilized egg could divide for the first time. Without the necessary diversity, they would never revive the revolution. Satisfied with her intervention, she flowed the blastocyst down her fallopian tubes where it locked onto the wall of her uterus. She prodded it and the ball of cells became a comma with a big head and a thin tail. An array of cells specialized and folded into a tube that ran the length of the embryo, weaving into nerve fibers. Dark pigment swept across two cups in the blocky head and then bulged into eyes. A mouth slowly opened; in it wasa one-chambered, beating heart. The front end of the neural tube blossomed into the vesicles that would become the brain. Four buds swelled, two near the head, two at the tail. The uppermost pair sprouted into paddles, pierced by rays of cells that Mada immediately began to ossify into fingerbone. The lower buds stretched into delicate legs. At midnight, the embryo was as big as a her fingernail; it began to move and so became a fetus. The eyes opened for afew minutes, but then the eyelids fused. MadaandOwenwere going to have a son; his penis was now a nub of flesh. Bubbles of tissue blew inward from the head and became his ears. Mada listened to him listen to her heartbeat. He lost his tail and his intestines slithered down the umbilical cord into his abdomen.As his fingerprints looped and whorled, he stuck his thumb into his mouth. Madawas having trouble breathing because the fetus was floating so high in her uterus. She eased herself into a sitting position and Owen grumbled in his sleep. Suddenly the curry in the cauliflower was giving her heartburn. Then the muscles of her uterus tightened and pain sheeted across her swollen belly. ~Drink this.~ The ship flowed a tumbler of nutrient nano onto the bedside table. ~The fetus gains mass rapidly from now on.~ The stuff tasted like rusty nails. ~You’re doing fine.~ When the fetus turned upside down, it felt like he was trying out a gymnastic routine. But then he snuggled headfirst into her pelvis, and calmed down, probably because there wasn’t enough room left inside her for him to make large, flailing gestures like his father. Nowshe could feel electrical buzzes down her legs and inside her vagina as the baby bumped her nerves.Hewas big now, and growing by almost a kilogram an hour, laying down new muscle and brown fat. Mada was tired of it all. She dozed. At six-thirty-seven her water broke, drenching the bed. "Hmm."Owen rolled awayfrom the warm, fragrant spill of amniotic fluid. "What did you say?" The contractions started; she put her hand on his chest and pressed down. "Help," she whimpered. "Wha...?"Owenpropped himself up on elbows. "Hey, I’m wet.How did I get …?" "O-Owen!" She could feel the baby’s head stretching her vagina in awaymere flesh could not possibly stretch. "Mada! What’s wrong?" Suddenly his face was very close to hers. "Mada, what’s happening?" But then baby was slipping out of her, and it was sooo much better than the only sex she had ever had. She caught her breath and said, "I have begotten a son." She reached between her legs and pulled the baby to her breasts. Theywere huge now, and very sore. "Wewill call him Owen," she said. begot AndMada begot Enos and Felicia and Malaleel and Ralph and Jared and Elisa and Tharsis and Masahiko andThemaand Seema and Casper and Hevila and Djanka and Jennifer and Jojo and Regma and Elvis and Irina andDeanand Marget and Karoly and Sabatha and Ashley and Siobhan and Mei-Fung and Neil and Gupta and Hansand Sade andMoonand Randy and Genvieve and Bob and Nazia and Eiichi and Justine andOzmaand Khaled and Candy and Pavel and Isaac and Sandor and Veronica andGaoand Pat and Marcus and Zsa Zsa and Li and Rebecca. Seven years after her return to Trueborn, Mada rested. ever after Madawas convinced that she was not a particularly good mother, but then she had been designed for courage and quick-thinking, not nurturing and patience. It wasn’t the crying or the dirty diapers or the spitting-up, it was the utter uselessness of the babies that the revolutionary in her could not abide. And her maternal instincts were often skewed. She would offer her children the wrong toy or cook the wrong dish, fall silent when they wanted her to play, prod them to talk when they needed to withdraw. Madaand the ship had calculated that fifty of her genetically-manipulated offspring would provide the necessary diversity to repopulate Trueborn. After Rebeccawas born, Madawasmore than happy to stop having children. Although the children seemed to love her despite her awkwardness,Mada wasn’t sure she loved them back. She constantly teased at her feelings, peeling away what she considered pretense and sentimentality. She worried that the capacity to love might not have been part of her emotional design. Or perhaps begetting fifty children in seven years had left her numb. Owenseemed to enjoy being a parent. Hewas the onewhom the children called for when they wanted to play. They came to Mada for answers and decisions. Mada liked to watch them snuggle next to him when he spun his fantastic stories. Their father picked them up when they stumbled, and let them climb on his shoulders so they could see just what he saw. They told him secrets they would never tell her. The children adored the ship, which substantiated a bot companion for each of them, in part for their protection. All had inherited their father’s all-but-invulnerable immune systems; their chromosomes replicated well beyond the Hayflick limit with integrity and fidelity. But they lacked their mother’s ability to flow tissue andwere therefore at peril of drowning or breaking their necks. The bots also provided the intense individualized attention that their busy parents could not. Each child was convinced that his or her bot companion had a unique personality. Even the seven-year-olds were too young to realize that the bots were reflecting their ideal personality back at them. The bots were in general as intelligent as the ship, although it had programmed into their DIs a touch of naiveté anda tendency to literalness that allowed the children to play tricks on them. Pranking a brother or sister’s bot wasa particularly delicious sport. Athens had begun to sprawl after seven years. The library had tripled in size and grown a wing of classrooms and workshops. A new gym overlooked three playing fields. Owenhad asked the ship to build a little theater where the children could put on shows for each other. The original house became a ring of houses, connected by corridors and facing a central courtyard. Each night MadaandOwenmoved to their bedroom in a different house. Owen thought it important that the children see them sleeping in the same bed; Madawent along. After she had begotten Rebecca,Madaneeded something to do that didn’t involve the children. She had the ship’s farmbots plow up a field and for an hour eachday she tended it. She resisted Owen’s attempts to name this "Mom’s Hobby." Mada grew vegetables; she had little use for flowers. Although she made a specialty of root crops, she was not a particularly accomplished gardener. She did, however, enjoy weeding. It was at these quiet times, her hands flicking across the dark soil, that she considered her commitment to the Three Universal Rights. After two-tenths of a spin, she had clearly lost her zeal. Not for the first, that independent sentients had the right to remain individual. Mada was proud that her children were as individual as any intelligence, flesh or machine, could have made them. Of course, they had no pressing need to exercise the second right of manipulating their physical structures – she had taken care of that for them.When they were of age, if the ship wanted to introduce them to molecular engineering, that could certainly bedone. No, the real problem was that downwhen was forever closed to them by the identity mine. How could she justify her new Trueborn society if it didn’t enjoy the third right: free access to the timelines? undone "Mada!"Owenwaved at the edge of her garden. She blinked; hewas wearing the same clothes he’d been wearing when she had first seen him on Sonnet Street in front of The Devil’s Apple – down to the little red cape. He showed her a picnic basket. "The ship is watching the kids tonight," he called. "Come on, it’s our anniversary. I did the calculations myself.Wemet eight earth years ago today." H led her to a spot deep in the woods, wherehe spread a blanket. They stretched out next to each other and sorted through the basket. There was a curley salad e with alperts and thumbnuts, brainboy and chive sandwiches on cheese bread.He toasted her with mada-fruit wine and told her that Siobahn had let go of the couch and taken her first step and that Irina wanted everyone to learn to play an instrument so that she could conduct the family orchestra and the Malaleel had asked him just today if ship wasa person. "It’s not a person," said Mada. "It’s aDI." "That’s what I said." Owenpeeled the crust off his cheese bread. "And he said if it’s not a person, howcome it’s telling jokes?" "It told a joke?" "It asked him, ‘Howcome you can’t have everything?’ and then it said, ‘Where would you put it?’" She nudged him in the ribs. "That sounds more like you than the ship." "I havea present for you," he said after they were stuffed. "I wrote you a poem." He did not stand; there were no large, flailing gestures. Instead he slid the picnic basket out of the way, leaned close and whispered into her ear. "Loving you is like catching rain onmy tongue. You bathe the leaves, soak indifferent ground; Whythen should I get so little of you? Yet still, like a flower with a fool’s face, Iopen myself to the sky." Madawas not quite sure what was happening to her; she had never really cried before. "I like that it doesn’t rhyme." She had understood that tears flowed from asadness. "I like that a lot." She sniffed and smiled and daubed at edges of her eyes with a napkin. "Never rhyme anything again." "Done," he said. Madawatched her hand reach for him, caress the side of his neck, and then pull him down on top of her. Then she stopped watching herself. "Nomore children." His whisper seemed to fill her head. "No," she said, "no more." "I’m sharing you with too many already." He slid his hand between her legs. She arched her back and guided him to her pleasure. Whenthey had both finished, she ran her finger through the sweat cooling at the small of his back and then licked it. "Owen,’ she said, her voice a silken purr. "That was the one." "Is that your comment?" "No." She craned to see his eyes. "This is my comment," she said. "You’re writing love poems to the wrong person." "There is no one else," he said. She squawked and pushed him off her. "That maybe true," she said, laughing, "but it’s not something you’re supposed to say." "No, what I meant was…" "I know." She put a finger to his lips and giggled like one of her babies. Mada realized then how dangerously happy she was. She rolled away from Owen; all the lightness crushed out of her by the weght of guilt and shame. It wasn’t her duty to be happy. She had been ready to betray the cause of those who had made her for what? For this man? "There’s something I have to do." She fumbled for her shift. "I can’t help myself, I’m sorry." Owenwatched her warily. "Whyare you sorry?" "Because after I do it, I’ll be different." "Different how?" "The ship will explain." She tugged the shift on. "Take care of the children." "Whatdo you mean, take care of the children? Whatare you doing?" Helunged at her and she scrabbled awayfrom him on all fours. "Tell me." "The ship says my body should survive." She staggered to her feet. "That’s all I can offer you, Owen."Mada ran. She didn’t expectOwen to come after her – or to run so fast. ~Ineed you.~ she subbed to the ship. "Substantiate the command mod.~ H was right behind her. Saying something Was it to her? "No," he panted, "no, no, no." e ~Substantiate the com...~ Suddenly Owenwas gone; Mada bit her lip as she crashed into the main screen, caromed off it and dropped like adead woman. She lay there for a moment, the cold of the deck seeping into her cheek. "Goodbye," she whispered. She struggled to pull herself up and spat blood. "Skip downwhen," she said, "six minutes." ".minutes six ,said she ",downwhen Skip" .blood spat and up herself pull to When threespace went went blurry, it struggled She .whispered she ",Goodbye" cheek her into seeping deck the of coldseemed that her duty did too. She waved her the ,moment a for there lay She .woman dead a like dropped and it off caromedhand and watched it smear. ,screen main the into crashed she as lip her bit Mada ;gone was Owen Suddenly ~ "You know what you’re doing," said the ...com the Substantiate~".no ,no, no" ,panted he ",No" ?her to it Was .somethingship. Saying. Her behind right was He ~.mod command the Substantiate~ .ship the to "What I was designed to do. What all my subbed she ~.youneed I~.fast so run to – her after come to Owenexpect didn’t Shebatch siblings pledged to do." She waved her .ran Mada ".Owen ,you offer can I all That’s" feet her to staggered She ".survivehand again; she could actually see through should body my says ship The" ".me Tell" .fours all on him from away scrabbleherself. "The only thing I can do." she and her at lungedHe "?doing you areWhat ?children the of care take ,mean you "The mine will wipe your identity. There doWhat." ".children the of care Take" .on shift the tugged She ".explain will shipwill be nothing of you left." The" "?understand don’t I " ".different be I’ll ,it do I after Because" "?sorry you are "And then it will be gone and the timelines Why" .warily her watched Owen. ">sorry I’m ,myself help can’t I" .shift her forwill open. I believe that I’ve known this was fumbled She .her madehadwho those of cuase the betrayed have would she easilywhat I had to do since we first skipped upwhen." How".do to have I something There’s" .happy be to duty her wasn’t iI .shame and "The probability was always high." said the guilt of weight the by her of out crushed lightness the all ,Owen from rolled Sheship "But not certain. .was she happy dangerously how then realized Mada .babies her of one like giggle "Bring me to him, afterwards. But don’t tell and lips his to finger a put She ".know I" "... Was meant I what ,No" "say tohim about the timelines. He might want to supposed you’re something not it’s but" ,laughing, said she ".true be may That"change them. The timelines are for the children, .her off him pushed and squawked She .said he ",else oneno is There" ".personso that they can finish the revol........... wrong the to poems love writing You’re" .said she ",comment my is This" .eyes his see to craned She ".No" "?comment your that Is" ".one the was That" .purr silken a voice her , said she ",Owen" "Owen," she said, her voice a silken purr. Then she paused. Thewoman shook her head, trying to clear it. Lying on top of her was the handsomest man she had ever met. She felt warmand sexy and wonderful. What was this? "I…I’m…," she said. She reached up and touched the little red cloth hanging from his shoulders. "I like your cape." ".minutes six ,said she ",downwhen Skip" .blood spat and up herself pull to Madawaved her hand and watched it smear in struggled She .whispered she ",Goodbye" cheek her into seeping deck the ofthreespace. cold the ,moment a for there lay She .woman dead a like dropped and it off "Whatare you doing?" said the ship. caromed ,screen main the into crashed she as lip her bit Mada ;gone was Owen "WhatI was designed to do." She waved; she Suddenly~...com the Substantiate~".no ,no, no" ,panted he ",No" ?her to it Wascould actually see through herself. "The only thing .something Saying. Her behind right wasHe~.modcommand the Substantiate~ can do." I .ship the to subbed she ~.you need I~ .fast so run to – her after come to Owen "The mine will wipe your identity. None of expect didn’t She .ran Mada ".Owen ,you offer can I all That’s" feet her toyour memories will survive." staggered She ".survive should body my says ship The" ".me Tell" .fours all on "I believe that I’ve known that’s what would him from away scrabble she and her at lunged He "?doing you are Whathappen since we first skipped upwhen." ?children the of care take ,mean you do What." ".children the of care Take" .on "It was probable." said the ship "But not shift the tugged She ".explain will ship The" "?understand don’t I " ".differentcertain." be I’ll ,it do I after Because" "?sorry you are Why" .warily her watched Owen. Trueborn scholars pinpoint what the ship did ">sorry I’m ,myself help can’t I" .shift her for fumbled She .her made had whonext as its first step toward independent sentience. those of cuase the betrayed have would she easily How".do to have I somethingIn its memoirs, the ship credits the children with There’s" .happy be to duty her wasn’t iI .shame and guilt of weight the by her ofteaching it to misbehave. out crushed lightness the all ,Owenfrom rolled She .was she happy dangerously It played a prank. howthen realized Mada .babies her of one like giggle and lips his to finger a put "Loving you," said the ship, "is like catching She ".know I" "... Was meant I what ,No" "say to supposed you’re somethingrain onmy tongue. You bathe..." not it’s but" ,laughing, said she ".true be may That" .her off him pushed and "Stop," Mada shouted. Stop right now!" squawked She .said he ",else one is There" ".person wrong the to poems love"Got you!" The ship gloated. "Four minutes, writing You’re" .said she ",comment my is This" .eyes his see to craned Shefifty-one seconds." ".No" "?comment your that Is" ".one the was That" .purr silken a voice her , said she ",Owen" "Owen,’ she said, her voice a silken purr. "That was the one." "Is that your comment?" "No." Mada was astonished – and pleased — that she still existed. She knew that in most timelines her identity must have been obliterated by the mine. Thinking about those brave, lost selves made her more sad than proud. "This is my comment," she said. "I’m ready now." Owencoughed uncertainly. "Umm, already?" She squawked and pushed him off her. "Not for that."She sifted his hair through her hands. "To be with you forever." © 2001 by James Patrick Kelly First published in Asimov's Science Fiction Magazine, June, 2001.