[29 oct 2001—scanned for #bookz]
[21 nov 2001—proofed and released as v1,
thanks Nadie]
Summary of Books One and Two
In The Summer Tree it
was told how Loren Silvercloak and Matt Sören, a mage and his magical source
from the High Kingdom of Brennin in the world of Fionavar, induced five people
from our own world to “cross” with them to Fionavar. Their ostensible purpose
was to have the five participate in the festivities attendant on the
celebration of the fiftieth year of the reign of Ailell, the High King. In
fact, there were darker premonitions underlying the mage’s actions.
In Brennin, a brutal drought was
afflicting the kingdom. Ailell’s older son, Aileron, had already been exiled
for cursing his father’s refusal to allow him to sacrifice himself on the
Summer Tree in an effort to end the drought.
In Fionavar, the five strangers
quickly found themselves drawn into the complex tapestry of events. Kim Ford
was recognized by the aged Seer, Ysanne, as the successor she had prophetically
dreamt. Kim was initiated into the knowledge of the Seers by the water spirit,
Eilathen, and presented with the Baelrath, the “Warstone” that Ysanne had been
guarding. Kim was also shown the Circlet of Lisen, a gem that shone with its
own light. The beautiful Lisen, a power of Pendaran Wood, had been the magical
source and the beloved companion of Amairgen Whitebranch, the first of the
mages. She had killed herself, leaping into the sea from her Tower, upon
learning that Amairgen had died. Ysanne told Kim the prophecy that accompanied
the Circlet: “Who shall wear this next, after Lisen, shall have the darkest
road to walk of any child of earth or stars.” Later, as a last gesture of
ultimate sacrifice on the eve of war, Ysanne, knowing Kim would have need of
the old Seer’s power in the days to come, used Lokdal, the magic dagger of the
Dwarves, to kill herself—but not before tracing a symbol on the brow of the
sleeping Kim, which action enabled her to make of her own soul a gift for
Kimberly.
Meanwhile, Paul Schafer and Kevin
Laine were initiated in quite a different way. Paul played—and lost—a night
game of chess with the High King in the palace of Paras Derval, during which an
unexpected bond of sympathy was forged between the two. The next morning he and
Kevin joined the band of the reckless Prince Diarmuid, Ailell’s younger son, in
a raid across the River Saeren to Cathal, the Garden Country. There, Diarmuid
achieved his intended seduction of Sharra, the Princess of Cathal. After the
company’s return to Brennin, they passed a wild night in the Black Boar tavern.
Late at night a song Kevin sang reminded Paul too acutely of the death in a car
accident of Rachel Kincaid, the woman he had loved. Paul, blaming himself for
the accident, which had occurred moments after Rachel had announced she was
going to wed someone else, took a drastic step: he approached the High King and
received Ailell’s sanction to sacrifice himself in the King’s stead on the
Summer Tree.
The next night, the glade of the
Summer Tree in the Godwood saw an epic battle. As Paul, bound on the Tree,
watched helplessly, Galadan the Wolflord, who had come to claim Paul’s life,
was opposed and driven back by a mysterious grey dog. The following night—Paul’s
third on the Tree—a red full moon shone in the sky on a new moon night, as
Dana, the Mother Goddess, granted Paul release from his guilt, by showing that
he had not, in fact, subconsciously willed the accident that had killed Rachel.
As Paul wept, rain finally fell over Brennin. Paul, though, did not die. He was
taken down from the Tree alive by Jaelle, the High Priestess of Dana.
Henceforth Paul would carry another name: Pwyll Twiceborn, Lord of the Summer
Tree.
By now it was clear that an epochal
confrontation was at hand: Rakoth Maugrim, the Unraveller, defeated a thousand
years before and bound under the great mountain, Rangat, had freed himself and
had caused the mountain to explode with a hand of fire to proclaim that fact.
His freedom was to have immediate
consequences for Jennifer Lowell, the fourth of the strangers. In Paras Derval
she had witnessed an unsettling incident during a children’s counting game. A
young girl, Leila, had “called” a boy named Finn to “take the Longest Road” for
the third time that summer. No one, not even Jaelle, who had also been
watching, knew exactly what that meant, though Jaelle was quick to enlist Leila
as an acolyte in the Temple. The next day, riding outside the town walls,
Jennifer met Brendel of the lios alfar—the Children of Light—and a party of his
people. She spent the night in the woods with them, and in the darkness they
were attacked. Concerned about the arrival of the five strangers, Rakoth
Maugrim had Galadan and Metran—the traitorous First Mage of Brennin—abduct
Jennifer. She was bound to the back of the black swan, Avaia, and borne north
to Rakoth’s fortress of Starkadh.
Meanwhile, the terrifying explosion
of the mountain had caused the death of the aged High King. This led to a tense
confrontation between Diarmuid and his brother, Aileron—who had been disguised
as Ysanne’s servant since his exile. The potentially violent situation was
ended by Diarmuid’s voluntarily relinquishing his claim to the throne, but not
before he’d received a knife in the shoulder, courtesy of Sharra of Cathal, who
had come to Brennin to seek vengeance on him for the deception that had led to
her seduction.
In the meantime, Dave Martyniuk, the
last of the five strangers, had been separated from the others in the crossing
to Fionavar. He ended up far to the north among the Dalrei, the “Riders,” on
the Plain, and found himself drawn into the life of the third tribe, led by
Ivor, their Chieftain.
Ivor’s young son, Tabor, fasting in
the forest for a vision of his totem animal, dreamt a seemingly impossible
creature: a winged, chestnut unicorn. Three nights later, at the edge of the
Great Wood, Pendaran, he met and flew upon this creature of his fast,
Imraith-Nimphais—a double-edged gift of the Goddess, born of the red full moon.
Meanwhile, Dave was escorted toward
Brennin by a party of Dalrei led by Ivor’s older son, Levon. The company was
ambushed by a great number of the evil svart alfar, and only Dave, Levon, and a
third Dalrei, Tore, survived by riding into the darkness of Pendaran Wood. The
trees and spirits of Pendaran, hating all men since the loss of the beautiful
Lisen of the Wood a thousand years before, plotted the death of the three men,
but they were saved by the intervention of Flidais, a diminutive forest power,
who claimed, among other things, to know the answers to all the riddles in all
the worlds, save one: the name by which the “Warrior” could be summoned. As it
happened, the search for this name was one of the tasks Ysanne had left with
Kimberly.
Flidais sent word to Ceinwen, the
capricious, green-clad goddess of the Hunt, who had taken a special liking to
Dave. The goddess arranged for the three friends to awaken safely on the
southern edge of the Great Wood in the morning.
She did more. She also caused Dave
to find a long-lost object of power: Owein’s Horn. Levon, who had been taught
by wise old Gereint, the blind shaman of his tribe, then found the Cave of the
Sleepers nearby—a cave wherein Owein and the kings of the Wild Hunt lay asleep.
The three friends rode south with
this knowledge to Paras Derval, in time to arrive for the first council of
Aileron’s reign. The council was interrupted twice. The first time, by the
arrival of Brock, a Dwarf from Banir Tal who knelt before Matt Sören—once King
of the Dwarves—and proffered the terrible tidings that the Dwarves, under the
leadership of two brothers, Kaen and Blod, had helped the Unraveller to free
himself by treacherously breaking the wardstone of Eridu, thus preventing any
warning of Rakoth’s stirring under the mountain. They had also found and
delivered to Rakoth the Cauldron of Khath Meigol, which had the power to raise
the newly dead.
In the midst of this terrifying
recitation, Kimberly suddenly saw—in a vision shaped by the Baelrath—Jennifer
being raped and tortured by Rakoth in his fortress of Starkadh. She gathered
Dave, Paul, and Kevin around her, reached out for Jennifer with the wild power
of her ring, and drew the five of them out of Fionavar back to their own world.
And so ended The Summer Tree.
The Wandering Fire picked up the story some six months later, in November and
back in Toronto, with Kimberly waiting for the dream that would give her the
Warrior’s summoning name. Jennifer, badly scarred in her soul and carrying the
child of Rakoth Maugrim—having vowed to give birth to that child as her answer
to the Dark—was brought early to her time by a sudden crossing back to
Fionavar. The crossing was achieved by Paul when the two of them were
threatened by Galadan, who had crossed to their world in pursuit of Paul.
In Fionavar, Jennifer’s child,
Darien, was left to be secretly fostered in the house of Vae and Shahar, the
parents of Finn—the boy called by the children’s counting game to “take the
Longest Road.” The only persons informed of the secret were the priestesses of
Dana, because Paul and Jennifer needed Jaelle’s magic to send them home.
The following spring Kim finally had
the dream for which she had been waiting. As a result, the five traveled to
Stonehenge where Kim raised the spirit of Uther Pendragon by the power of the
Baelrath and compelled him to name his son’s resting place. Kim then went
alone, by the magic she carried, to Glastonbury Tor and there—having first sent
the others ahead to Fionavar—she drew the Warrior, Arthur, from his rest by the
summoning name: Childslayer. The name was an echo of the sin Arthur had
committed in his youth after discovering his inadvertent incest with his
sister. Kim and the Warrior followed the others to Paras Derval.
An icy winter gripped Fionavar, even
as midsummer approached—a winter so terrible that Fordaetha, the Ice Queen of
Rük, was able to come as far south as Paras Derval. She almost killed Paul in
the Black Boar tavern before he succeeded in driving her back north. It was
decided in council that Jaelle and the mages and Kimberly would join with
Gereint, the old shaman, in an attempt to magically probe the source of the
killing winter—a necessary prelude to trying to end it.
In the meantime the dimensions of
Arthur Pendragon’s tragedy were beginning to take shape as it became clear (to
Brendel of the lios alfar, first of everyone) who Jennifer Lowell really was:
Guinevere, beloved of Arthur and of Lancelot. Marred by her suffering in
Starkadh, Jennifer withdrew to the sanctuary of Dana with Jaelle. It was Jaelle
who explained that Vae and Finn had taken Darien (who was growing with the
unnatural rapidity of all the andain—children of mortals and gods) to Ysanne’s
cottage by the lake. There, Darien, seeming now to be a child of five years
old, was growing up in the loving care of his foster mother and brother, who
were troubled by two things: a power which caused his blue eyes to flash red,
and an awareness that the child was drawn by voices in the storms of winter.
On the Plain the Dalrei were hard-pressed.
The winter had rendered the graceful eltor—the creatures the Dalrei hunted and
depended upon—awkward and ungainly in the snow, which made them easy prey for
Galadan’s wolves. Ivor—now Aven, or “Father” of all the Dalrei— had herded the
eltor down to the southeastern corner of the vast Plain, and there the gathered
tribes guarded them as best they could. Until one attack included great numbers
of the hideous urgach mounted upon six-legged monsters called slaug. Only the
intervention of Diarmuid of Brennin, with Dave and Kevin in his company, saved
the Dalrei from the first wave of the mounted urgach. And only the appearance
of Ivor’s son Tabor, riding Imraith-Nimphais, his deadly, winged mount with the
shining horn, saved them from the second, larger wave. Ivor was painfully aware
of the effect such flight had on Tabor, drawing him ever farther from the world
of men.
Shortly after, back in Brennin,
another new strand entered the Tapestry. At the urging of Levon, Ivor’s older
son—and having the reluctant agreement of Loren—Kim and Dave, the bearers of
what Levon thought to be the elements of an ancient verse that spoke of the
waking of the Wild Hunt, went with a number of companions to the place at the
edge of Pendaran Wood where the Cave of the Sleepers lay. The Baelrath
shattered the stone at the cave mouth and then Dave’s horn summoned forth Owein
and the seven kings of the Hunt. With the shadowy sky kings wailing “Where is
the child?” a child did, indeed, step forth to become one of the Wild Hunt: it
was Finn, and this was the Longest Road to which he had been called.
Most of the company, including
Shalhassan the Supreme Lord of Cathal, and Sharra, his daughter, who had
arrived from the south with reinforcements, made their way the next morning to
Gwen Ystrat, the province of the Goddess; partly to meet Gereint, the shaman,
there, partly in response to a report from Audiart, Jaelle’s second in command,
that the province was being beset by wolves. The company was led by the grey
dog that had saved Paul on the Summer Tree, and who turned out to be Cavall,
Arthur’s hunting dog. They passed into the province of the Mother amid ice and
snow on the day before Maidaladan—Midsummer’s Eve—with all the ancient, erotic,
blood magic such a night implied. That evening, with the aid of the other magic
wielders, Kim descended into the designs of Maugrim and found a clue that
enabled Loren to deduce that the winter was being shaped by Metran, the
treacherous mage, using the Cauldron of Khath Meigol, and basing himself on the
unholy island of Cader Sedat. Kim herself would have died in her quest, had she
not been saved by an unexpected source: Ruana of the Paraiko, one of the
Giants, the people who had shaped the Cauldron in the first place. They were a
race long thought to be dead and haunting the mountain passes with their “blood
curse.” Ruana reached Kim telepathically and told her that his people were
alive but were slowly being put to death—bloodlessly—by the urgach and svart
alfar.
The next day, during the wolf hunt,
Kevin—who had been feeling useless through all the combats—had nearly fatal
injury added to insult when he was gored by a white boar. He was saved by the
healing magic of the mages, but this last symbolic portent finally brought home
to him what his own fate and task were to be. Amid the unbridled eroticism of
Midsummer’s Eve in Gwen Ystrat (on a night when Prince Diarmuid told Sharra of
Cathal that he loved her), Kevin slipped away alone to the east and, guided by
Cavall in the snow, came to the cave of Dun Maura where he sacrificed his life
to the Goddess, that she might intercede and break the winter—thus enabling the
others to sail to Cader Sedat and battle with Metran.
In the meantime, Paul had remained
behind with Vae and Darien. Earlier that same day he had taken Darien to the
Summer Tree. His plan was to summon Cernan, the stag-horned god of the forests
(and Galadan’s father) to help accelerate Darien’s progression to his maturity—
a maturity desperately needed, for the ambivalent child was growing steadily in
power. As it happened, Darien needed no such aid in an oak grove on Midsummer’s
Eve. He propelled himself forward in years to much the same age as his brother
Finn had been before he left. Having overheard Cernan ask Paul why the child
had even been allowed to live, Darien departed, vowing to seek out his father,
Rakoth Maugrim.
Not long after, it was decided that
Diarmuid’s men, with Loren and Arthur and Paul, would sail for Cader Sedat.
Kimberly had remained in the east, with only Brock the Dwarf as her companion
on a journey to the mountain pass where the Paraiko were being slain. The two
of them had scarcely entered the mountains, however, when they were attacked
and captured by a band of brigands.
With Kevin’s sacrifice ending the
winter, war became a reality. From the borders of Daniloth, the Shadowland,
where dwelt the lios alfar, an army of the Dark was seen sweeping south toward
the Plain. Ra-Tenniel, Lord of the lios alfar, sent warning to the Dalrei. In
response, Ivor led his whole army—save for Tabor, left behind to guard the
camp—in a wild, full-tilt ride across half the length of the Plain to meet the
enemy by the banks of the Adein River. The battle that followed was on the
verge of being lost—despite the appearance of Ra-Tenniel and the lios
alfar—when Dave Martyniuk sounded Owein’s Horn to summon the Wild Hunt. The
kings of the Hunt, led by the child who had once been Finn, began slaughtering
the forces of the Dark—and then, without discrimination, those of the Light as
well. They were only diverted from their kill by the intercession of the
goddess Ceinwen. Much later, Dave awoke in the darkness on the mount beneath
which Ceinwen had gathered the dead, and she made love with him on the grass
that night.
Back in Brennin, on the morning
before the voyage to Cader Sedat, Jennifer emerged from the Temple at the
urging of Matt Sören. For the space of a single day she was reunited with
Arthur. Then, after the ship sailed she set out in turn, with only Brendel of
the lios alfar to accompany her, to watch for its return from the Anor Lisen:
the Tower at the westernmost edge of Pendaran Wood where Lisen, a thousand years
ago, had waited for Amairgen.
At sea, the ship Prydwen was attacked by a monstrous creature, the Soulmonger of
Maugrim. Amid the sound of unearthly music, Loren and Matt defended the ship
while Paul desperately sought the power to summon Liranan, the god of the sea,
to battle the monster. At the last instant he was reached by Gereint the
shaman, who had sent his soul traveling out to sea in search of Paul to give
him the aid that would make the summoning possible. Thus compelled, the sea god
came and drove the monster into the deeps, killing it—but not before Diarmuid
had leaped to the Soulmonger’s enormous head and plucked the white staff of
Amairgen Whitebranch from where it was embedded between its eyes.
And so two tragic mysteries were
made clear. Amairgen, who had disappeared after sailing for Cader Sedat a
thousand years ago, had evidently been slain by this creature. Even worse, the
music they had heard was the glorious singing of all the lios alfar who had set
sail west toward the hidden island the Weaver had shaped for them alone. Not
one of them had reached it in a thousand years; all had been slain in this
place.
With Arthur’s guidance and Loren’s
power the ship came to Cader Sedat. There they discovered that Metran had been
using his mage’s power, augmented by the Cauldron, to shape a death rain over
the eastern land of Eridu and was preparing to bring the rain westward over the
mountains. On that island a titanic mages’ battle was fought by Loren and Matt
against Metran, who was sourced in the power of a myriad of svart alfar
who—drained to death by the power he sucked from them—were being revived by the
Cauldron of Khath Meigol.
In the end Loren prevailed, killing
Metran and shattering the Cauldron, but only by drawing upon a depth of power
that also killed his source, Matt Sören.
In the aftermath of that duel, Paul
and Diarmuid followed Arthur into the Chamber of the Dead beneath Cader Sedat.
There they watched the Warrior wake Lancelot du Lac from his bed of stone to
join in the war against the Dark. And so all three members of that triangle
were now in Fionavar. Back in the shattered Hall of Cader Sedat, Lancelot’s
first action was to use his own particular gifts (exercised once before, in
Camelot) to bring Matt Sören back to life. Unfortunately, during the brief time
that Matt had lain lifeless, the bond of mage and source had been irrevocably
broken, and Loren Silvercloak had lost his magical powers. The Wandering Fire ended as the company prepared to leave the island and sail
back to war.
PART I—The Lost Kanior
Chapter
1
“Do you know the wish of your
heart?”
Once, when Kim Ford was an
undergraduate, young for university and young for her age, someone had asked
her that question over cappuccino on a first date. She’d been very impressed.
Later, rather less young, she’d often smiled at the memory of how close he’d
come to getting her into bed on the strength of a good line and a way with
waiters in a chic restaurant. The question, though, had stayed with her.
And now, not so much older but
white-haired nonetheless, and as far away from home as she could imagine being,
Kim had an answer to that question.
The wish of her heart was that the
bearded man standing over her, with the green tattoos on his forehead and
cheeks, should die an immediate and painful death.
Her side ached where he had kicked
her, and every shallow breath was a lancing pain. Crumpled beside her, blood
seeping from the side of his head, lay Brock of Banir Tal. From where Kim lay
she couldn’t tell if the Dwarf was alive or not, and if she could have killed
in that moment, the tattooed man would be dead. Through a haze of pain she
looked around. There were about fifty men surrounding them on the high plateau,
and most of them bore the green tattoos of Eridu. Glancing down at her own hand
she saw that the Baelrath lay quiescent, no more than a red stone set in a
ring. No power for her to draw upon, no access to her desire.
It didn’t really surprise her. The
Warstone had never, from the first, brought anything but pain with its power, and
how could it have been otherwise?
“Do you know,” the bearded Eridun
above her said, with harsh mockery, “what the Dalrei have done down below?”
“What? What have they done, Ceriog?”
another man asked, moving forward a little from the circle of men. He was older
than most of them, Kim saw. There was grey in his dark hair, and he bore no
sign of the green tattoo markings.
“I thought you
might be interested,” the one named Ceriog said, and laughed. There was
something wild in the sound, very near to pain. Kim tried not to hear it, but
she was a Seer more than she was anything else, and a premonition came to her
with that laughter. She looked at Brock again. He had not moved. Blood was
still welling slowly from the wound at the side of his head.
“I am interested,” the other man
said mildly.
Ceriog’s laughter ended. “They rode
north last night,” he said, “every man among them, except the blind ones. They
have left the women and children undefended in the camp east of the Latham,
just below us.”
There was a murmur among the
listening men. Kim closed her eyes. What
had happened? What
could have driven Ivor to do such a thing?
“What,” the older man asked, still
quietly, “does any of that have to do with us?”
Ceriog moved a step toward him.
“You,” he said, contemptuously, “are more than a fool. You are an outlaw even
among outlaws. Why should any of us answer questions of yours when you won’t
even give us your name?”
The other man raised his voice very
slightly. On the windless plateau it carried. “I have been in the foothills and
the mountains,” he said, “for more years than I care to remember. For all of
those years, Dalreidan is what I have offered as my name. Rider’s Son is what I
choose to call myself, and until this day no man has seen fit to question it.
Why should it matter to you, Ceriog, if I choose not to shame my father’s grave
by keeping his name as part of my own?”
Ceriog snorted derisively. “There is
no one here who has not committed a crime, old man. Why should you be
different?”
“Because,” said Dalreidan, “I killed
a mother and child.”
Opening her eyes, Kim looked at him
in the afternoon sunlight. There was a stillness on the plateau—broken by
Ceriog’s laughter. Again Kim heard the twisting note in it, halfway between
madness and grief.
“Surely,” Ceriog mocked, “that
should have given you a taste for more!” He flung his arms wide. “Surely we
should all have a taste for death by now! I had come back to tell you of women
and boys for sport down below. I had not thought to see a Dwarf delivered into
my hands so soon.”
He did not laugh again. Instead, he
turned to look down on the figure of Brock, sprawled unconscious on the
sun-baked stone of the plateau.
A sick foreboding swept over
Kimberly. A recollection, though not her own; Ysanne’s, whose soul was a part
of her now. A memory of a legend, a nightmare tale from childhood, of very
great evil done, very long ago.
“What happened?” she cried, wincing
with pain, desperate to know. “What did they do?”
Ceriog looked at her. They all did.
For the first time she met his eyes and flinched away from the raw grief she
read in them. His head jerked up and down convulsively. “Faebur!” he cried
suddenly. A younger light-bearded Eridun stepped forward. “Play messenger
again, Faebur. Tell the story one more time. See if it improves with age. She
wants to know what the Dwarves have done. Tell
her!”
She was a Seer. The threads of the
Timeloom shuttled for her. Even as Faebur began his flat-voiced recitation, Kim
cut straight past his words to the images behind them and found horror.
The background of the tale was known
to her, though not less bitter for that: the story of Kaen and Blod, the
brothers who had led the Dwarves in search, forty years ago, of the lost
Cauldron of Khath Meigol. When the Dwarfmoot had voted to aid them, Matt Sören,
the young King, had thrown down his scepter and removed the Diamond Crown and
left the twin mountains to find another fate entirely, as source to Loren
Silvercloak.
Then, a year ago, the Dwarf now
lying beside her, had come to Paras Derval with tidings of great evil done:
Kaen and Blod, unable to find the Cauldron on their own and driven near to
madness by forty years of failure, had entered into an unholy alliance. With
the aid of Metran, the treacherous mage, they had finally unearthed the
Cauldron of the Giants—and had paid the price. It had been twofold: the Dwarves
had broken the wardstone of Eridu, thus severing the warning link of the five
stones, and then they had delivered the Cauldron itself into the hands of their
new master, the one whose binding under Rangat was to have been ensured by the
linked ward-stones—Rakoth Maugrim, the Unraveller.
All this she had known. Had known,
too, that Metran had used the Cauldron to lock in the killing winter that had
ended five mornings ago, after the night Kevin Laine had sacrificed himself to
bring it to a close. What she hadn’t known was what had happened since. What
she now read in Faebur’s face and heard him tell, feeling the images like
lashes in her soul. The death rain of Eridu.
“When the snow began to melt,”
Faebur was saying, “we rejoiced. I heard the bells ring in walled Larak, though
I could not return there. Exiled in the hills by my father, I too gave thanks
for the end of the killing cold.” So had she, Kim remembered. She had given
thanks even as she mourned, hearing the wailing of the priestesses at dawn
outside the dark cave of Dun Maura. Oh,
my darling man.
“For three days,” Faebur went on, in the same detached, numb tones,
“the sun shone. The grass returned overnight, and the flowers. When the rain
came, on the fourth day, that too seemed natural, and cause for joy.
“Until, looking down from the high
hills west of Larak, I heard the screaming begin. The rain did not reach the
hills, but I could see herdsmen not far away on the slopes below, with their
goats and kere, and I heard them scream when the rain fell, and I saw huge
black blisters form and break on animals and men as they died.”
Seers could go—were forced by their
gift to go—behind the words to the images suspended in the coils of time. Try
as she might, Kim’s second, inner sight would not let her look away from the
vision caught in Faebur’s words. And being what she was, twinned soul with two
sets of memories, she knew more, even, than Faebur knew. For Ysanne’s childhood
memories were hers, and clearer now, and she knew the rain had been shaped once
before in a distant time of dark, and that the dead were deadly to those who
touched them, and so could not be buried.
Which meant plague. Even after the
rain stopped.
“How long did it last?” she asked
suddenly.
Ceriog’s harsh laughter told her her
mistake and opened a new, deeper vein of terror, even before he spoke. “How
long?” he snapped, his voice swirling erratically. “White hair should bring
more wisdom. Look east, foolish woman, up the valley of the Kharn. Look past
Khath Meigol and tell me how long it lasted!”
She looked. The mountain air was
thin and clear, the summer sun bright overhead. She could see a long way from
that high plateau, almost to Eridu itself.
She could see the rain clouds piled high east of the mountains.
The rain hadn’t ended. And she knew,
as surely as she knew anything at all, that, if unchecked, it would be coming
their way; Over the Carnevon Range and the Skeledarak, to Brennin, Cathal, the
wide Plain of the Dalrei, and then, of course, to the place where undying
Rakoth’s most undying hatred lay—to Daniloth, where dwelt the lios alfar.
Her thoughts, shrouded in dread,
winged away west, far past the end of land, out over the sea, where a ship was
sailing to a place of death. It was named Prydwen,
she knew. She knew the
names of many things, but not all knowledge was power. Not in the face of what
was falling from that dark sky east of them.
Feeling helpless and afraid, Kim
turned back to Ceriog. As she did, she saw that the Baelrath was flickering on
her hand. That, too, she understood: the rain she had just been shown was an
act of war, and the Warstone was responding. Unobtrusively she turned the ring
inward and closed her palm so it would not be seen.
“You wanted to know what the Dwarves
had done, and now you know,” Ceriog said, his voice low and menacing.
“Not all the Dwarves!” she said,
struggling to a sitting position, gasping with the pain that caused. “Listen to
me! I know more of this than you. I—”
“Doubtless, you know more, traveling
with one of them. And you shall tell me, before we are done with you. But the
Dwarf is first. I am very pleased,” said Ceriog, “to see he is not dead.”
Kim whipped her head around. A cry
escaped her. Brock moaned, his hands moved slightly. Heedless of risk, she
crawled over to help him. “I need clean cloths and hot water!” she shouted.
“Quickly!”
No one moved. Ceriog laughed. “It
seems,” he said, “that you haven’t understood me. I am pleased to see him
alive, because I intend to kill him with great care.”
She did understand and,
understanding, could no longer hate—it seemed that clear, uncomplicated wishes
of the heart were not allowed for her. Which wasn’t all that surprising, given
who she was and what she carried.
She could no longer hate, nor could
she hold back her pity for one whose people were being so completely destroyed.
But neither could she allow him to proceed. He had come nearer, had drawn a
blade. She heard a soft, almost delicate rustle of anticipation among the
watching outlaws, most of whom were from Eridu. No mercy to be expected there.
She twisted the ring back outward on
her finger and thrust her hand high in the air.
“Harm him not!” she cried, as
sternly as she could. “I am the Seer of Brennin. I carry the Baelrath on my
hand and a magegift vellin stone about my wrist!”
She was also hellishly weak, with a brutal pain in her side, and no
idea whatsoever of how she could hold them off.
Ceriog seemed to have an intuition
about that, or else was so goaded by the presence of the dwarf that he was
beyond deterrence. He smiled thinly, through his tattoos and his dark beard.
“I like that,” he said, gazing at
the Baelrath. “It will be a pretty toy to carry for the hours we have left
before the rains come west and we all turn black and die. First, though,” he
murmured, “I am going to kill the Dwarf very slowly, while you watch.”
She wasn’t going to be able to stop
him. She was a Seer, a summoner. A storm crow on the winds of war. She could
wake power, and gather it, and sometimes to do so she could flame red and fly
between places, between worlds. She had two souls within her, and she carried
the burden of the Baelrath on her finger and in her heart. But she could not
stop a man with a blade, let alone fifty of them, driven mad by grief and fury
and awareness of coming death.
Brock moaned. Kim felt his life’s
blood soaking through her clothing as she held his head in her lap. She glared
up at Ceriog. Tried one last time.
“Listen to me—” she began.
“While you watch,” he repeated,
ignoring her.
“I think
not,” said
Dalreidan. “Leave them alone, Ceriog.”
The Eridun wheeled. A twisted light
of pleasure shone in his dark face. “You will stop me, old man?”
“I shouldn’t have to,” Dalreidan
said calmly. “You are no fool. You heard what she said: the Seer of Brennin.
With whom else and how else will we stop what is coming?”
The other man seemed scarcely to
have heard. “For a Dwarf?” he snarled. “You would intercede, now, for a Dwarf?”
His voice skirled upward with growing incredulity. “Dalreidan, this has been
coming between us for a long time.”
“It need not come. Only hear reason.
I seek no leadership, Ceriog. Only to—”
“Only to tell the leader what he may
or may not do!” said Ceriog viciously. There was a frozen half second of
stillness, then Ceriog’s arm whipped forward and his dagger flew—
—over the shoulder of Dalreidan, who
had dived and rolled and was up again in a move the Plain had seen rehearsed
from horseback for past a thousand years. No one had seen his own blade drawn,
nor had they seen it thrown.
They did see it, all of them, buried
in Ceriog’s heart. And an instant later, after the shock had passed, they saw
also that the dead Eridun was smiling as might one who has found release from
overmastering pain.
Kim was suddenly aware of the
silence. Of the sun overhead, the finger of the breeze, the weight of Brock’s
head in her lap—details of time and place made unnaturally vivid by the
explosion of violence.
Which had come and was gone, leaving
this stillness of fifty people in a high place. Dalreidan walked over to
retrieve his blade. His steps were loud on the rocks. No one spoke. Dalreidan
knelt and, pulling the dagger free, cleaned it of blood on the dead man’s
sleeve. Slowly he rose again and looked around the ring of faces.
“First blade was his,” he said.
There was a stir, a loosening of
strain, as if every man there had been holding his breath.
“It was,” said an Eridun quietly, a
man older even than Dalreidan himself, with his green tattoos sunken deep in
the wrinkles of his face. “Revenge lies not in such a cause, neither by the
laws of the Lion nor the code of the mountains.”
Slowly, Dalreidan nodded his head.
“I know nothing of the former and too much of the latter,” he said, “but I
think you will know that I had no desire for Ceriog’s death, and none at all to
take his place. I will be gone from this place. I will be gone from this place
within the hour.”
There was another stir at that.
“Does it matter?” young Faebur asked. “You need not go, not with the rain
coming so soon.”
And that, Kim realized, brought
things back round to her. She had recovered from the shock—Ceriog’s was not the
first violent death she’d seen in Fionavar—and she was ready when all their
eyes swung to where she sat.
“It may not come,” she said, looking
at Faebur. The Baelrath was still alive, flickering, but not intensely so.
“You are truly the Seer of Brennin?”
he asked.
She nodded. “On a journey for the
High King with this Dwarf, Brock of Banir Tal. Who fled the twin mountains to
bring us tidings of the treachery of others.”
“A dwarf in the service of Ailell?”
Dalreidan asked.
She shook her head. “Of his son.
Ailell died more than a year ago, the day the Mountain flamed. Aileron rules in
Paras Derval.”
Dalreidan’s mouth crooked wryly.
“News,” he said, “is woven slowly in the mountains.”
“Aileron?” Faebur interjected. “We
heard a tale of him in Larak. He was an exile, wasn’t he?”
Kim heard the hope in his voice, the
unspoken thought. He was very young; the beard concealed it only partially. “He
was,” she said gently. “Sometimes they go back home.”
“If,” the older Eridun interposed,
“there is a home to go back to. Seer, can you stop the rain?”
She hesitated, looking beyond him,
east to where the clouds were piled high. She said, “I cannot, not directly.
But the High King has others in his service, and by the Sight I have I know
that some of them are sailing even now to the place where the death rain is
being shaped, just as the winter was. And if we stopped the winter, then—”
“—then we can end the rain!” a deep
voice rumbled, low and fierce. She looked down. His eyes were open.
“Oh, Brock!” she cried.
“Aboard that ship,” the Dwarf went
on, speaking slowly but with clarity, “will be Loren Silvercloak and my lord,
Matt Sören, true King of the Dwarves. If any people alive can save us, it is
the two of them.” He stopped, breathing heavily.
Kim held him close, overwhelmed for
an instant with relief. “Careful,” she said. “Try not to talk.”
He looked up at her. “Don’t worry so
much,” he said. “Your forehead will set in a crease.” She gave a little gasp of
laughter. “It takes a great deal,” he went on, “to kill a Dwarf. I need a
bandage to keep the blood out of my eyes, and a good deal of water to drink.
Then, if I can have an hour’s rest in the shade, we can go on.”
He was still bleeding. Kim found
that she was crying and clutching his burly chest far too hard. She loosened
her grip and opened her mouth to say the obvious thing.
“Where? Go where?” It was Faebur.
“What journey takes you into the Carnevon Range, Seer of Brennin?” He was
trying to sound stern, but the effect was otherwise.
She looked at him
a long moment, then, buying time, asked, “Faebur, why are you here; why are you exiled?”
He flushed but, after a pause,
answered, in a low voice.
“My father unhoused me, as all
fathers in Eridu have the right to do.”
“Why?” she asked. “Why did he do
that?”
“Seer—” Dalreidan began.
“No,” said Faebur, gesturing at him.
“You told us your reason a moment ago, Dalreidan. It hardly matters anymore. I
will answer the question. There is no blood on the Loomweft with my name, only
a betrayal of my city, which in Eridu is said to be red on the Loom, and so the
same as blood. It is simply told. Competing at the Ta’Sirona, the Summer Games,
at Teg Veirene a year ago, I saw and loved a girl from high-walled Akkai’ze, in
the north, and she . . . saw and loved me, as well. In Larak again, in the fall
of the year, my father named to me his choice for my wife, and I . .
. refused him and told him why.”
Kim heard sympathetic sounds from
the other Eriduns and realized they hadn’t known why Faebur was in the
mountains; nor Dalreidan either, for that matter, until, just now, he’d told of
his murders. The code of the mountains, she guessed: you didn’t ask.
But she had, and Faebur was
answering. “When I did that, my father put on his white robe and went into the
Lion’s Square of Larak, and he called the four heralds to witness and cursed me
west to Carnevon and Skeledarak, unhoused from Eridu. Which means”—and there
was bitterness now—“that my father saved my life. That is, if your mage and
Dwarf King can stop Rakoth’s rain. You cannot, Seer, you have told us so. Let
me ask you again, where are you going in the mountains?”
He had answered her, and with his
heart’s truth. There were reasons not to reply, but none seemed compelling,
where they were, with the knowledge of that rain falling east of them.
“To Khath Meigol,” she said, and
watched the mountain outlaws freeze into silence. Many of them made reflexive
signs against evil.
Even Dalreidan seemed shaken. She
could see that he had paled. He crouched down on his haunches in front of her
and spent a moment gathering and dispersing pebbles on the rocks. At length, he
said, “You will not be a fool, to be what you are, so I will say none of what
first comes to me to say, but I do have a question.” He waited for her to nod
permission, then went on. “How are you to be of service in this war, to your
High King or anyone else, if you are bloodcursed by the spirits of the
Paraiko?”
Again, Kim saw them making the sign
against evil all around her. Even Brock had to suppress a gesture. She shook
her head. “It is a fair question—” she began.
“Hear me,” Dalreidan interrupted,
unable to wait for her answer. “The bloodcurse is no idle tale, I know it is
not. Once, years ago, I was hunting a wild
kere, east and north of
here, and so intent on my quarry that I lost track of how far I had gone. Then
the twilight came, and I realized I was on the borders of Khath Meigol. Seer of Brennin,
I am no longer young, nor am I a tale-spinning elder by a winter fire
stretching truth like bad wool: I was there, and so I can tell you, there is a curse on all who go into that place, of ill fortune and death and
souls lost to time. It is true, Seer, it is not a tale. I felt it myself, on
the borders of Khath Meigol.” She closed her eyes.
Save us, she heard. Ruana. She opened her
eyes and said, “I know it is not a tale. There is a curse. I do not think it is
what it is believed to be.”
“You do not think. Seer, do you
know?”
Did she know? The truth was, she
didn’t. The Giants went back beyond Ysanne’s learning or Loren’s or that of the
Priestesses of Dana. Beyond, even, the lore of the Dwarves, or the lios alfar.
All she had was her own knowledge: from the time in Gwen Ystrat when she’d made
that terrible voyage into the designs of the Unraveller, shielded by the powers
of her friends.
And then the shields had fallen, she
had gone too far, has lost them and was lost, burning, until another one had
come, far down in the Dark, and had sheltered her. The other mind had named
himself as Ruana of the Paraiko, in Khath Meigol, and had begged for aid. They
were alive, not ghosts, not dead yet. And this was what she knew, and all she
knew.
On the plateau she shook her head,
meeting the troubled gaze of the man who called himself Dalreidan. “No,” she
said. “I know nothing with certainty, save one thing I may not tell you, and one
thing I may.” He waited. She said, “I have a debt to pay.”
“In Khath Meigol?” There was a real
anguish in his voice. She nodded. “A personal debt?” he asked, straining to
deal with this.
She thought about that: about the
image of the Cauldron she had found with Ruana’s aid, the image that had told
Loren where the winter was coming from. And now the death rain.
“Not just me,” she said.
He drew a breath. A tension seemed
to ease from within him. “Very well,” he said. “You speak as do the shamans on
the Plain. I believe you are what you tell me you are. If we are to die in a
few days or hours, I would rather do so in the service of Light than otherwise.
I know you have a guide, but I have been in the mountains for ten years now and
have stood on the borders of the place you seek. Will you accept an outlaw as
companion for this last stage of your journey?”
It was the diffidence that moved
her, as much as anything else. He had just saved their lives, at risk of his
own.
“Do you know what you are getting
into? Do you—” She stopped, aware of the irony. None of them knew what they
were getting into, but his offer was freely made, and handsome. For once she
had not summoned nor was she compelled by the power she bore. She blinked back
tears.
“I would be honored,” she said. “We
both would.” She heard Brock murmur his agreement.
A shadow fell on the stone in front
of her. The three of them looked up.
Faebur was there, his face white.
But his voice was manfully controlled. “In the Ta’Sirona, the Games at Teg
Veirene, before my father exiled me, I came . . . I placed third of everyone in
the archery. Could you, would you allow—” He stopped. The knuckles of the hand
holding his bow were as white as his face.
There was a lump in her throat and
she could not speak. She let Brock answer this time.
“Yes,” said the Dwarf gently. “If
you want to come we will be grateful for it. A bowman is never a wasted
thread.”
And so, in the end, there were four
of them.
Later that day, a long way west,
Jennifer Lowell, who was Guinevere, came to the Anor Lisen as twilight fell.
With Brendel of the lios alfar as
her only companion, she had sailed from Taerlindel the morning before in a
small boat, not long after Prydwen herself had dipped out of sight in
the wide, curving sea.
She had bidden farewell to Aileron
the High King, to Sharra of Cathal, and Jaelle, the Priestess. She had set out
with the lios alfar that she might come to the Tower built so long ago for
Lisen. And so that, coming there, she might climb the spiraling stone stairs to
the one high room with its broad seaward balcony and, as Lisen had done, walk
upon that balcony, gazing out to sea, waiting for her heart to come home.
Handling the boat easily in the mild
seas of that first afternoon, sailing past Aeven Island where the eagles were,
Brendel marveled and sorrowed, both, at the expressionless beauty of his
companion’s face. She was as fair as were the lios, with fingers as long and
slender, and her awakened memories, he knew, went back almost as far. Were she
not so tall, her eyes not held to green, she might have been one of his people.
Which led him to a strange
reflection, out among the slap of waves and the billow of the single sail. He
had not made or found this boat, which would ultimately be required when his
time came, but it was a trim craft made with pride, and not unlike what he
would have wanted. And so it was easy to imagine that they had just departed,
not from Taerlindel but from Daniloth itself. To be sailing west and beyond
west, toward that place made by the Weaver for the Children of Light alone.
Strange thoughts, he knew, born of
sun and sea. He was not ready for that final journey. He had sworn an oath of
vengeance that bound him to this woman in the boat, and to Fionavar and the war
against Maugrim. He had not heard his song.
He did not know—no one did—the
bitter truth. Prydwen had just set sail. She was two
nights and a dawn yet from the sound of singing in the sea, from the place
where the sea stars of Liranan did not shine and had not shone since the Bael Rangat.
From the Soulmonger.
As darkness came on that first
night, Brendel guided their small craft toward the sandy shore west of Aeven
and the Llychlyn Marshes and beached it in the gentle evening as the first
stars appeared. With the provisions the High King had given them, they made
camp and took an evening meal. Later, he laid out a sleeping roll for each of
them, and they lay down close to each other between the water and the woods.
He did not make a fire, being too
wise to burn even fallen driftwood from Pendaran. They didn’t need one, in any
case. It was a beautiful night in the summer shaped by Kevin Laine. They spoke
of him for a time as the night deepened and the stars grew more bright. They
spoke, softly, of the morning’s departures, and where the next evening would
see them land. Looking at the night sky, glorying in it, he spoke to her of the
beauty and the peace of Daniloth, and lamented that the dazzle of the stars was
so muted there since Lathen Mistweaver, in defense of his people, had made
their home into the Shadowland.
After that they fell silent. As the
moon rose, a shared memory came to both of them of the last time they had lain
beside each other under the sky.
Are you immortal? she had asked, before drifting to sleep.
No, Lady, he had answered. And had watched her
for a time before falling asleep himself, beside his brothers and sisters. To
wake amid wolves, and svart alfar, and red mortality in the presence of Galadan,
Wolflord of the andain.
Dark thoughts, and too heavy a
silence for the quicksilver leader of the Kestrel Mark. He lifted his voice
again, to sing her to sleep as one might a cherished child. Of seafaring he
sang, a very old song, then one of his own, about aum trees in leaf and sylvain
flowering in spring. And then, as her breathing began to slow, his voice rode
her to rest with the words of what was always the last song of a night:
Ra-Termaine’s Lament, for all those who had been lost.
When he finished, she was asleep. He
remained awake, though, listening to the tide going out. Never again would he
fall asleep while she was in his care, not ever again. He sat up all night
watching, watching over her.
Others watched as well, from the
dark edgings of Pendaran: eyes not welcoming, but not yet malevolent, for the
two on the sands had not entered the forest nor burned wood of the Wood. They
were very near, though, and so were closely observed, for Pendaran guarded
itself and nurtured its long hate.
They were overheard as well, however
low their voices, for the listening ears were not human and could discern
speech at the very edge of unspoken thought. So their names became known. And
then a drumming sound ran through that part of the Wood, for the two of them had
named their destination, and that place had been built for the one who had been
most loved and then most bitterly lost: Lisen, who would never have died had
she not loved a mortal and been drawn into war outside the shelter of the Wood.
An urgent message went forth in the
wordless rustle of leaves, the shadowed flicker of forms half seen, in a
vibration, quick as a running pulse, of the forest floor.
And the message came, in very little
time as such things are measured, to the ears of the only one of all the
ancient powers of the Wood who wholly grasped what was at work, for he had
moved through many of the Weaver’s worlds and had played a part in this story
when it first was spun.
He took thought, deliberate and
unhurried—though there was a surge in his blood at the tidings, and a waking of
old desire—and sent word back through the forest, by leaf and quick brown
messenger and by die pulse that threaded through the roots of the trees.
Be easy, he sent, cahning the agitation of
the Wood. Lisen herself would have made
this one welcome in the
Tower, though with sorrow. She has earned
her place by the parapet. The other is of the lios alfar and they built the
Anor, forget it not.
We forget nothing.
Nothing, rustled the leaves coldly.
Nothing, throbbed the ancient roots, twisted by long hate. She is dead. She need never have died.
In the end, though, he put his will
upon them. He had not the power to compel them all, but he could persuade,
sometimes, and this night, and for this one, he did.
Then he went out from the doors of
his house and he traveled at speed by ways he knew and so came to the Anor just
as the moon rose. And he set about making ready a place that had stood empty
for all the years since Lisen had seen a ghost ship passing and had leaped from
her high balcony into the darkness of the sea.
There was less to be done than might
have been supposed, for that Tower had been raised with love and very great
art, and magic had been bound into its stones that they should not fall.
He had never been there before; it
was a place too sharp with pain. He hesitated on the threshold for a moment,
remembering many things. Then the door swung open to his touch. By moonlight he
looked at the rooms on the lower level, made for those who had stood guard. He
left them as they were and passed upward.
With the sound of the sea always in
his ears, he climbed the unworn stone stairs, following their spiral up the
single turret of the Tower, and so he came to the room that had been Lisen’s.
The furnishings were sparse but exquisite and strange, Grafted in Daniloth. The
room was wide and bright, for along the western curve of it there was no wall;
instead, made with the artifice of Ginserat of Brennin, a window of glass
stretched from floor to ceiling, showing the moonlit sea.
There was salt staining the outside
of the glass. He walked forward and slid the window open. The two halves rolled
easily apart along their tracks into recesses hidden in the curving wall. He
stepped out on the balcony. The sea sound was loud; waves crashed at the foot
of the Tower.
He remained there a long time,
claimed by griefs too numerous to be isolated or addressed. He looked to his
left and saw the river. It had run red past the Anor for a year from the day
she had died, and it did so yet, every year, when the day came around again. It
had had a name once, that river: Not any more.
He shook his head and began to busy
himself. He pulled the windows closed and, having more than power enough to
deal with this, made them clean again. He slid them open a second time and left
them so, that the night air might come into a room that had been closed a
thousand years. He found candles in a drawer and then torches at the bottom of
the stairs—wood of the Wood vouchsafed for burning in this place. He lit the
torches in the brackets set into the wall along the stairwell, and then placed
the candles about the one high room, and lit them all.
By their light he saw that there was
a layer of dust on the floor, though not, curiously, on the bed. And then he
saw something else. Something that chilled even his wise, knowing blood.
There were footsteps in the dust,
not his own, and they led over to that bed. And on the coverlet—woven, he knew,
by masters of the art in Seresh—lay a mass of flowers; roses, sylvain,
corandiel. But it was not the flowers that held his gaze.
The candles flickered in the salt
breeze off the sea, but they were steady enough for him to clearly see his own
small footprints in the dust and, beside them, those of the man who had walked
into the room to lay those flowers on the coverlet.
And those of the giant wolf that had walked away.
His heart beating rapidly, fear
shadowed by pity within him, he walked over to that bright profusion of
flowers. There was no scent, he realized. He reached out a hand. As soon as he
touched them they crumbled to dust on the coverlet. Very gently, he brushed the
dust away.
He could have made the floor shine
with a trace assertion of his power. He did not; he never did in his own rooms
under the forest floor. Going down the stairs one more time, he found a sturdy
broom in one of the lower chambers and then, with strong domestic motions,
proof of long habit, Flidais swept out Lisen’s chamber by candlelight and
moonlight, to make it ready for Guinevere.
In time, for his was a spirit of
play and laughter even in darkest times, he began to sing. It was a song of his
own weaving, shaped of ancient riddles and the answers he had learned for them.
And he sang because he was filled
with hope that night—hope of the one who was coming, that she might have the
answer to his heart’s desire.
He was a strong presence and a
bright one, and there were torches and candles burning all through the Anor.
The spirit of Gereint could not fail to sense him, singing, sweeping the dust
with wide motions of the broom, as the shaman’s soul went past overhead,
leaving the known truths of the land to go spinning and tumbling out over the
never-seen sea, in search of a single ship among all the waves.
As the sun went down on their left
the following evening, Brendel guided the boat across the bay and past the
river mouth toward the small dock at the foot of the Tower.
They had seen the upper lights come
on as they swung into the bay. Now, drawing near, the lios alfar saw a portly,
white-bearded, balding figure, smaller even than a Dwarf, waiting on the dock
for them, and being of the lios alfar and more than six hundred years old
himself, he had an idea who this might be.
Gentling the small craft up to the
dock, he threw a rope as they approached. The small figure caught it neatly and
tied the end to a peg set in the stone dock. They rested there in silence a
moment, bobbing with the waves. Jennifer, Brendel saw, was looking up at the
Tower. Following her gaze, he saw the reflection of the sunset sparkle off the
curved glass beyond the parapet.
“Be welcome,” said the figure on the
dock in a voice unexpectedly deep. “Bright be the thread of your days.”
“And of yours, forest one,” said the
lios alfar. “I am Brendel of the Kestrel Mark. The woman with me—”
“I know who she is,” the other said.
And bowed very low.
“By what name shall we call you?”
Brendel asked.
The other straightened. “I am pied
for protection, dappled for deception,” he said reflexively. Then, “Flidais will
do. It has, for this long while.”
Jennifer turned at that and fixed
him with a curious scrutiny. “You’re the one Dave met in the woods,” she said.
He nodded. “The tall one, with the
axe? Yes, I did meet him. Green Ceinwen gave him a horn, after.”
“I know,” she said. “Owein’s Horn.”
To the east just then, under a
darkening sky, a battle was raging along the bloodied banks of the Adein, a
battle that would end with the blowing of that horn.
On the dock, Flidais looked up at
the tall woman with the green eyes that he alone in Fionavar had cause to
remember from long ago. “Is that the only knowledge you have of me?” he asked
softly. “As having saved your friend?”
In the boat Brendel kept silent. He
watched the woman reach for a memory. She shook her head. “Should I know you?”
she asked.
Flidais smiled. “Perhaps not in this
form.” His voice went even deeper, and suddenly he chanted, “I have been in
many shapes. I have been the blade of a sword, a star, a lantern light, a harp
and a harper, both.” He paused, saw something spark in her eyes, ended
diffidently, “I have fought, though small, in battle before the Ruler of
Britain.”
“I remember!”
she said, laughing now.
“Wise child, spoiled child. You liked riddles, didn’t you? I remember you,
Taliesin.” She stood up, Brendel leaped to the dock and helped her alight.
“I have been in many shapes,”
Flidais said again, “but I was his harper once.”
She nodded, very tall on the stone
dock, looking down at him, memory playing in her eyes and about her mouth. Then
there came a change. Both men saw it and were suddenly still.
“You sailed with him, didn’t you?”
said Guinevere. “You sailed in the first Prydwen.”
Flidais’ smile faded. “I did, Lady,”
he said. “I went with the Warrior to Caer Sidi, which is Cader Sedat here. I
wrote of it, of that voyage. You will remember.” He drew breath and recited:
“Thrice
the fullness of Prydwen
we went with Arthur, Except seven, none
returned from—”
He stopped abruptly, at her gesture.
They stood so a moment. The sun sank into the sea. With the dark, a finger of
wind arose. Brendel, watching, only half understanding, felt a nameless sorrow
come over him as the light faded.
In the shadows, Jennifer’s face
seemed to grow colder, more austere. She said, “You were there. So you knew the
way. Did you sail with Amairgen?”
Flidais flinched, as from an actual
blow. He drew a shaken breath, and he, who was half a god and could induce the
powers of Pendaran to accede to his will, said in a voice of humble supplication,
“I have never been a coward, Lady, in any guise. I sailed to that accursed
place once, in another form. But this is my truest shape, and this Wood my true
home in this first world of all. How should a forest warden go to sea, Lady?
What good would I have done? I told him, I told Amairgen what I knew— that he
would have to sail north into a north wind—and he said he would know where to
do so, and when. I did that, Lady, and the Weaver knows that the andain seldom
do so much for men.”
He fell silent. Her regard was
unresponsive, remote. The suddenly she said:
“I will
not allow praise to the men with trailing shields,
They know not on what day the chief arose,
When we went with Arthur of mournful memory—”
“I
wrote that!” Flidais
protested. “My lady Guinevere, I wrote that.”
It was quite dark now on the path,
but with the keen sight of the lios alfar Brendel saw the coldness leave her
face. Voice gentle now, she said, “I know, Taliesin. Flidais. I know you did,
and I know you were there with him. Forgive me. None of this makes for easy
memory.”
On the words she brushed past both
of them and went up the pathway toward the Tower. Over the darkened sea the
evening star now shone, the one named for Lauriel the White.
He had done it completely wrong,
Flidais realized, watching her walk away. He had meant to turn the conversation
to the name, the summoning name of the Warrior, the one riddle left in all the
worlds for which he had no answer. He was clever enough, and to spare, to have
led the talk anywhere he wanted, and the Weaver knew how deep his desire for
that answer was.
The thing he had forgotten, though,
was what happened in the presence of Guinevere. Even though the andain cared
little for the troubles of mortal men, how could one be sly in the face of so
ancient a sorrow?
The lios alfar and the andain, each
with his own thoughts, gathered the gear from the boat and followed her into
the Anor and up the winding stair.
It was strange, thought Jaelle, to
feel so uneasy in the place of her own power.
She was in her rooms in the Temple
in Paras Derval, surrounded by the priestesses of the sanctuary and by the
brown-robed acolytes. She could mind-link at a moment’s need or desire with the
Mormae in Gwen Ystrat. She even had a guest-friend in the Temple: Sharra of
Cathal, escorted to the doors, but not beyond, by the amusing Tegid of
Rhoden—who, it seemed, was taking his duties as Intercedent for Diarmuid with
unwonted seriousness.
It was a time for seriousness,
though, and for disquiet. None of the familiar things, not even the bells
ringing to summon the grey ones to sunset invocation, were enough to ease the
thoughts of the High Priestess.
Nothing was as clear as it once had
been. She was here and she belonged here, would probably have scorned any
request, let alone command, to be anywhere else. Hers was the duty and the
power, both, to shape the spun webs of Dana’s will, and to do so in this place.
Even so, nothing felt the same.
For one thing, hers also, as of
yesterday, was half the governing of Brennin, since the High King had gone
north.
The summonglass of Daniloth had
blazed yestereve— two nights ago, in truth, but they had only learned of it on
their return from Taerlindel. She had seen, with Aileron, the imperative
coiling of light in the scepter the lios alfar had given to Ailell.
The King had paused only long enough
to snatch a meal as he gave terse commands. In the garrisons, the captains of
the guard were mobilizing every man. It took very little time; Aileron had been
preparing for this moment since the day she had crowned him.
He had done everything properly. Had
appointed her with Gorlaes the Chancellor to govern the realm while he was away
at war. He had even paused beside her in front of the palace gates and quickly,
but not without dignity, besought her to guard their people as best her powers
allowed.
Then he had been up on his black
charger and galloping away with an army, first to North Keep to collect the
garrison there, and then north, at night, over the Plain toward Daniloth and
Dana alone knew what.
Leaving her in this most familiar of
places, where nothing seemed familiar at all.
She had hated him once, she
remembered. Hated them all: Aileron, and his father, and Diarmuid, his brother,
the one she called the “princeling” in response to his mocking, corrosive
tongue.
Faintly to her ears came the
chanting from the domed chamber. It was not the usual twilight invocation. For
eight more nights, until Midsummer’s moon was gone, the evening chants would
begin and end with the lament for Liadon.
And so much power lay in this, so
magnificent a triumph for the Goddess, and thereby for herself, as first High
Priestess in uncounted, unknowable years to have heard the voice from Dun Maura
cry out on Maidaladan, in mourning for the sacrifice come freely.
And with that, her thoughts circled
back to the one who had become Liadon: Kevin Laine, brought from another world
by Silvercloak to a destiny both dark and dazzlingly bright, one that not even
the Seer could have foreknown.
For all Jaelle’s knowledge, all her
immersion in the nature of the Goddess, Kevin’s had been an act so
overwhelming, so consummately gallant, it had irrevocably blurred the clarity
with which once she’d viewed the world. He was a man, and yet he had done this
thing. It was, since Maidaladan, so much harder to summon the old anger and
bitterness, the hate. Or, more truly, so much harder to summon them for
anything and anyone but Rakoth.
The winter was over. The summonglass
had blazed. There was war, somewhere north, in the dark.
And there was a ship sailing west.
That thought carried her back to a
strand of beach north of Taerlindel, where she had watched the other stranger,
Pwyll, summon and speak to the sea god by the water’s edge in an inhuman light.
Nothing was easy for any of them, Dana and the Weaver knew, but Pywll’s seemed
such a harsh, demanding power, taking so much out of him and not giving, so far
as she could see, a great deal back.
Him too she remembered hating, with
a cold, unforgiving fury, when she had taken him from the Summer Tree to this
very room, this bed, knowing that the Goddess had spoken to him, not knowing
what she had said. She had struck him, she remembered, drawing the blood all
men should give, but hardly in the manner prescribed.
“Rahod
hedai Liadon, ” the
priestesses sang under the dome, ending the lament on the last long, keening
note. And after a moment she heard Shiel’s clear voice begin the antiphonal
verses of the evening invocation. There was some peace there, Jaelle thought,
some comfort to be found in the rituals, even now, even in time of darkness.
Her chamber door burst open. Leila stood in the doorway.
“What are you doing?” Jaelle
exclaimed. “Leila, you should be in the dome with—”
She stopped. The girl’s eyes were
wide, staring, focused on nothingness. Leila spoke, in a voice tranced and
uninflected. “They have blown the horn,” she said. “In the battle. He is in the
sky now, above the river. Finn. And the kings. I see Owein in the sky. He is
drawing a sword. Finn is drawing a sword. They are—they are—” Her face was
chalk white, her fingers splayed at her sides. She made a thin sound.
“They are killing,” she said. “They
are killing the svarts and the urgach. Finn is covered in blood. So much blood.
And now Owein is—he is—”
Jaelle saw the girl’s eyes flare
even wider then, and go wild with terror, and her heart lurched;
Leila screamed. “Finn, no! Stop him! They are killing us!”
She screamed again, wordlessly, and
stumbling forward, falling, buried her head in Jaelle’s lap, her arms clutching
the Priestess, her body racked convulsively.
The chanting stopped under the dome.
There were footsteps running along the corridors. Jaelle held the girl as
tightly as she could; Leila was thrashing so hard, the High Priestess was
genuinely afraid she would hurt herself.
“What is it? What has happened?”
She looked up and saw Sharra of
Cathal in the doorway.
“The battle,” she gasped, fighting
to hold Leila, her own body rocking with the force of the girl’s weeping. “The
Hunt. Owein. She is tuned to—”
And then they heard the voice.
“Sky
King, sheath your sword! I put my will upon you!”
It seemed to come from nowhere and
from everywhere in the room, clear, cold, utterly imperative.
Leila’s violent movements stopped.
She lay still in Jaelle’s arms. They were all still: the three in the room and
those gathered in the corridor. They waited. Jaelle found it difficult to
breathe. Her hands were blindly, reflexively stroking Leila’s hair. The girl’s
robe was soaked through with perspiration.
“What is it?” whispered Sharra of
Cathal. It sounded loud in the silence. “Who said that?”
Jaelle felt Leila draw a shuddering
breath. The girl-fifteen, Jaelle thought, only that—lifted her head again. Her
face was splotchy, her hair tangled hopelessly. She said, “It was Ceinwen. It
was Ceinwen, High Priestess.” There was wonder in her voice. A child’s wonder.
“Herself? Directly?” Sharra again.
Jaelle looked at the Princess, who despite her own youth had been trained in
power and so evidently knew the constraints laid by the Weaver on the gods.
Leila turned to Sharra. Her eyes
were normal again, and very young. She nodded. “It was her own voice.”
Jaelle shook her head. There would
be a price demanded for that, she knew, among the jealous pantheon of goddesses
and gods. That, of course, was far beyond her. Something else, though, was not.
She said, “Leila, you are in danger
from this. The Hunt is too wild, it is the wildest power of all. You must try
to break this link with Finn, child. There is death in it.”
She had powers of her own, knew when
her voice was more than merely hers. She was High Priestess and in the Temple
of Dana.
Leila looked up at her, kneeling
still on the floor. Automatically, Jaelle reached out to push a snarl of hair
back from the girl’s white face.
“I can’t,” Leila said quietly. Only
Sharra, nearest to them, heard. “I can’t break it. But it doesn’t matter
anymore. They will never call them again, they dare not— there will be no way
to bind them if they do. Ceinwen will not intercede twice. He is gone, High Priestess,
out among the stars, on the Longest Road.”
Jaelle looked at her for a long
time. Sharra came up and laid a hand on Leila’s shoulder. The tangle of hair
fell down again, and once more the Priestess pushed it back.
Someone had returned to the dome. The
bells were ringing.
Jaelle stood up. “Let us go,” she
said. “The invocations are not finished. We will all do them. Come.”
She led them along the curving
corridors to the place of the axe. All through the evening chants, though, she
was hearing a different voice in her mind.
“There
is death in it.” It
was her own voice, and more than her own. Hers and the Goddess’s.
Which meant, always, that what she
said was true.
Chapter 2
The next morning at the greyest
hour, just before dawn, Prydwen met the Soulmonger far out at sea.
At the same time, on the Plain, Dave Martyniuk woke alone on the mound of the
dead near Celidon.
He was not, never had been, a subtle
man, but one did not need deep reserves of subtlety to apprehend the
significance of Ceinwen’s presence beneath him and above him on the green grass
tinted silver in the night just past. There had been awe at first, and a
stunned humility, but only at first, and not for very long. In the blind,
instinctive assertion of his own lovemaking Dave had sought and found an
affirmation of life, of the living, after the terrible carnage by the river.
He remembered, vividly, a moonlit
pool in Faelinn Grove a year ago. How the stag slain by Green Ceinwen’s arrow
had split itself in two, and had risen, and bowed its head to the Huntress, and
walked away from its own death.
Now he had another memory. He sensed
that the goddess had shared—had engendered, even—his own compelling desire last
night to reaffirm the absolute presence of the living in a world so beleaguered
by the Dark. And this, he suspected, was the reason for the gift she had given
him. The third gift, in fact: his life, in Faelinn that first time, then
Owein’s Horn, and now this offering of herself to take away the pain.
He was not wrong in any of this, but
there was a great deal more to what Ceinwen had done, though not even the most
subtle of mortal minds could have apprehended it. Which was as it should be,
as, indeed, it had always been. Macha knew, however, and Red Nemain, and Dana,
the Mother, most surely of all. The gods might guess, and some of the andain,
but the goddesses would know.
The sun rose. Dave stood up and
looked around him under a brightening sky. No clouds. It was a beautiful
morning. About a mile north of him the Adein sparkled, and there were men and
horses stirring along its bank. East, somewhat farther off, he could make out
the standing stones that surrounded and defined Celidon, the mid-Plain, home of
the first tribe of the Dalrei and gathering place of all the tribes. There were
signs of motion, of life, there as well.
Who, though, and how many?
Not all need die, Ceinwen had said to him a year ago,
and again last night. Not all, perhaps, but the battle had been brutal, and
very bad, and a great many had died.
He had been changed by the events of
the evening and night before, but in most ways Dave was exactly what he had
always been, and so there was a sick knot of fear in his stomach as he strode
off the mound and began walking swiftly toward the activity by the riverbank.
Who? And how many? There had been
such chaos, such muddy, blood-bespattered confusion: the wolves, the lios
arriving, Avaia’s brood in the darkening sky, and then, after he’d blown the
horn, something else in the sky, something wild. Owein and the kings. And the
child. Carrying death, manifesting it. He quickened his pace almost to a run. Who?
Then he had part of an answer, and
he stopped abruptly, a little weak with relief. From the cluster of men by the
Adein two horses, one dark grey, the other brown, almost golden, had suddenly
wheeled free, racing toward him, and he recognized them both.
Their riders, too. The horses
thundered up to him, the two riders leaping off, almost before stopping, with
the unconscious, inbred ease of the Dalrei. And Dave stood facing the men who’d
become his brothers on a night in Pendaran Wood.
There was joy, and relief, and all
three showed it in their own ways, but they did not embrace.
“Ivor?” Dave asked. Only the name.
“He is all right,” Levon said
quietly. “Some wounds, none serious.” Levon himself, Dave saw, had a short deep
scar on his temple, running up into the line of his yellow hair.
“We found your axe,” Levon
explained. “By the riverbank. But no one had seen you after . . . after you
blew the horn, Davor.”
“And this morning,” Tore continued,
“all the dead were gone, and we could not find you. . . .” He left the thought
unfinished.
Dave drew a breath and let it out
slowly. “Ceinwen?” he said. “Did you hear her voice?”
The two Dalrei nodded, without
speaking.
“She stopped the Hunt,” Dave said,
“and then she . . . took me away. When I awoke she was with me, and she said
that she had . . . gathered the dead.” He said nothing more. The rest was his
own, not for the telling.
He saw Levon, quick as ever, glance
past him at the mound, and then Tore did the same. There was a long silence.
Dave could feel the freshness of the morning breeze, could see it moving the
tall grass of the Plain. Then, with a twist of his heart he saw that Tore,
always so self-contained, was weeping soundlessly as he gazed at the mound of
the dead.
“So many,” Tore murmured. “They
killed so many of us, of the lios. . . .”
“Mabon of Rhoden took a bad shoulder
wound,” Levon said. “One of the swans came down on him.”
Mabon, Dave remembered, had saved
his life only two days before, when Avaia herself had descended in a blur of
death from a clear sky. He swallowed and said, with difficulty, “Tore, I saw
Barth and Navon, both of them. They were—”
Tore nodded stiffly. “I know. I saw
it too. Both of them.”
The babies in the wood, Dave was
thinking. Barth and Navon, barely fourteen when they died, had been the ones
that he and Tore had guarded in Faelinn Grove on Dave’s first night in
Fionavar. Guarded and saved from an urgach, only to have them . . .
“It was the urgach in white,” Dave
said, bitterness like gall in his mouth. “The really big one. He killed them
both. With the same stroke.”
“Uathach.” Levon almost spat the
name. “I heard the others calling him. I tried to go after him, but I couldn’t
get—”
“No! Not that one, Levon,” Tore
interrupted, his voice fiercely intense. “Not alone. We will defeat them
because we must, but promise me now that you will not go after him alone, ever.
He is more than an urgach.”
Levon was silent.
“Promise
me!” Tore
repeated, turning to stand squarely before the Aven’s son, disregarded tears
still bright in his eyes. “He is too big, Levon, and too quick, and something
more than both of those. Promise me!”
Another moment passed before Levon
spoke. “Only to the two of you would I say this. Understand that. But you have
my word.” His yellow hair was very bright in the sun. He tossed it back with a
stiff twist of his head and spun sharply to return to the horses. Over his
shoulder, not breaking stride, he snapped, “Come. There is a Council of the tribes
in Celidon this morning.” Without waiting for them, he mounted and rode.
Dave and Tore exchanged a glance,
then mounted up themselves, double, on the grey, and set out after him. Halfway
to the standing stones they caught up, because Levon had stopped and was
waiting. They halted beside him.
“Forgive me,” he said. “I am a fool
and a fool and a fool.”
“At least two of those,” Tore agreed
gravely.
Dave laughed. After a moment, so did
Levon. Ivor’s son held out his hand. Tore clasped it. They looked at Dave.
Wordlessly, he placed his own right hand over both of theirs.
They rode the rest of the way
together.
“Weaver be praised, and the bright
threads of the Loom!” venerable Dhira, Chieftain of the first tribe, said for
the third time.
He was beginning to get on Dave’s
nerves.
They were in a gathering hall at
Celidon. Not the largest hall, for it was not a very large assembly: the Aven,
looking alert and controlled despite a bandaged arm and a cut, much like
Levon’s, above one eye; the Chieftains of the other eight tribes with their
advisers; Mabon, Duke of Rhoden, lying on a pallet, obviously in pain, as
obviously determined to be present; and Ra-Tenniel, the Lord of the lios alfar,
to whom all eyes continually returned, in wonder and awe.
There were people absent, Dave knew,
people sorely missed. Two of the Chieftains, Damach of the second tribe and
Berlan of the fifth, were new to their titles, the son and brother,
respectively, of men who had died by the river.
Ivor had, to Dave’s surprise, left
control of the gathering to Dhira. Tore whispered a terse explanation: the
first tribe was the only one that never traveled the Plain; Celidon was their
permanent home. They remained here at the mid-Plain, receiving and relaying
messages through the auberei of all the tribes, preserving the records of the
Dalrei, providing the tribes with their shamans, and always taking command of
the gatherings here at Celidon. Always—even in the presence of an Aven. So it
had been in Revor’s time, and so it was now.
Checks and balances, Dave thought.
It made some sense in the abstract but did little to reconcile him now, in the
aftermath of battle, to Dhira’s quavering voice and laggard pace.
He had made a rambling, discursive
speech, half mournful, half in praise, before finally calling upon Ivor.
Levon’s father had then risen to tell, for the benefit of Ra-Tenniel, the story
of their wild, improbable ride—a night and a day across half the length of the
Plain—to just beat the forces of Maugrim to the river.
He had then deferred, with grace, to
the Lord of Daniloth, who in turn told of how he had seen the army of the Dark
crossing Andarien; how he had set his summonglass alight on Atronel, that it
might flare a warning in Paras Derval, had sent two messengers on the
magnificent raithen to alert the Dalrei, and, finally and most gallantly, had
led his own army out of the protected Shadowland to battle by the Adein.
His voice carried music, but the
notes were shaped by sorrow as he spoke. A very great many from Daniloth had
died, and from the Plain and Brennin as well, for Mabon’s five hundred men from
Rhoden had fought their way to the thick of the battle.
A battle that had seemed lost,
utterly, for all the courage on profligate display, until a horn had sounded.
And so Dave, who was Davor here on the Plain, rose at Ivor’s request and told
his own story: of hearing a voice in his mind reminding him of what he carried
(and in his memory it still sounded like Kevin Laine, chiding
him for being so slow), and then blowing Owein’s Horn with all the strength he
had left in that hour.
They all knew what had happened. Had
seen the shadowy figures in the sky, Owein and the kings, and the child on the
palest horse. Had seen them descend from a great height, killing the black
swans of Avaia’s brood, the svart alfar, the urgach, the wolves of Galadan . .
. and then, without pause or discrimination, without mercy or respite, turning
on the lios alfar and the men of the Plain and Brennin.
Until a goddess had come, to cry,
“Sky King, sheath your sword!” And after that only Davor, who had blown the
horn, knew anything more until dawn. He told of waking on the mound, and
learning what it was, and hearing Ceinwen warn him that she could not intercede
another time if he blew Owein’s Horn again.
That was all he told them. He sat
down. He had, he realized, just made a speech. Once, he would have been
paralyzed by the very thought. Now now, not here. There was too much at stake.
“Weaver be praised, and the bright
threads of the Loom!” Dhira intoned once more, raising both his wrinkled hands
before his face. “I proclaim now, before all of this company, that it shall
henceforth be the duty and the honor of the first tribe to tend that mound of
the dead with fullest rites, that it remain forever green, and that—”
Dave had had more than enough of
this. “Don’t you think,” he interrupted, “that if Ceinwen can raise the mound
and gather the dead, she can keep it green if she wants?”
He winced, as Tore landed a
punishing kick on his shin. There was a small, awkward silence. Dhira fixed
Dave with a suddenly acute glance.
“I know not how these matters are
dealt with in the world from which you come, Davor, and I would not presume to
comment.” Dhira paused, to let the point register. “In the same way,” he went
on, “it ill behooves you to advise us about one of our own goddesses.”
Dave could feel himself flushing,
and an angry retort rose to his lips. He bit it back, with an effort of will,
and was rewarded by hearing the Aven’s voice. “He has seen her, Dhira; he has
spoken to Ceinwen twice, and received a gift of her. You have not, nor have I.
He is entitled, and more than that, to speak.”
Dhira considered it, then nodded.
“It is so,” he admitted quietly, to Dave’s surprise. “I will unsay what last I
said, Davor. But know this: if I speak of tending the mound, it is as a gesture
of homage and thanksgiving. Not to cause the goddess to do anything, but to
acknowledge what she has done. Is that inappropriate?”
Which left Dave feeling sorry in the
extreme for having opened his mouth. “Forgive me, Chieftain,” he managed to
say. “Of course it is appropriate. I am anxious and impatient, and—”
“And with cause!” Mabon of Rhoden
growled, raising himself on his cot. “We have decisions to make and had best
get to them!”
Silvery laughter ran through the
chamber. “I had heard,” Ra-Tenniel said, amused, “of the urgency of mankind,
but now I hear it for myself.” The tenor of his voice shaded downward; they all
listened, entranced by his very presence among them. “All men are impatient. It
is woven into the way time runs for you, into the shortness of your threads on
the Loom. In Daniloth we say it is a curse and a blessing, both.”
“Are there not times when urgency is
demanded?” Mabon asked levelly.
“Surely,” Dhira cut in, as
Ra-Tenniel paused. “Surely, there are. But this must, before all else, be a
time of mourning for the dead, or else their loss goes unremembered, ungrieved,
and—”
“No,” said Ivor.
One word only, but everyone present
heard the long-suppressed note of command. The Aven rose to his feet.
“No, Dhira,” he repeated softly. He
had no need to raise his voice; the focus of the room was his. “Mabon is right,
and Davor, and I do not think our friend from Daniloth will disagree. Not one
man who died last night, not one of the brothers and sisters of the lios who
have lost their song, will lie ungrieved beneath Ceinwen’s mound. The danger,”
he said, and his voice grew stern, implacable, “is that they may yet have died
to no purpose. This must not, while we live, while we can ride and carry
weapons, be suffered to come to pass. Dhira, we are at war and the Dark is all
about us. There may be time for mourning, but only if we fight through to
Light.”
There was nothing even slightly
prepossessing about Ivor, Dave was thinking. Not beside Ra-Tenniel’s
incandescence or Dhira’s slow dignity, Or even Levon’s unconscious animal
grace. There were far more imposing men in the room, with voices more
compelling, eyes more commanding, but in Ivor dan Banor there was a fire, and
it was matched with a will and a love of his people that, together, were more
than any and all of these other things. Dave looked at the Aven and knew that
he would follow this man wherever Ivor asked him to go.
Dhira had bowed his head, as if
under the conjoined weight of the words and his long years.
“It is so, Aven,” he said, and Dave
was suddenly moved by the weariness in his voice. “Weaver grant we see our way
through to that Light.” He lifted his head and looked at Ivor. “Father of the
Plain,” he said, “this is no time for me to cling to pride of place. Will you
allow me to yield to you, and to your warriors, and sit down?”
Ivor’s mouth tightened; Dave knew
that he was fighting the quick tears for which he took so much abuse from his
family. “Dhira,” the Aven said, “pride of place is always, always yours. You
cannot relinquish it, to me or anyone else. But Dhira, you are Chieftain of the
first tribe of the Children of Peace—the tribe of the shamans, the teachers,
loremasters. My friend, how should such a one be asked to guide a Council of
War?”
Incongruous sunshine streamed
through the open windows. The Aven’s pained question hung in the room, clear as
the motes of dust where the slanting sunlight fell.
“It is so,” said Dhira a second
time. He stumbled toward an empty chair near Mabon’s pallet. Obscurely moved,
Dave began rising to offer his arm as aid, but then he saw that Ra-Tenniel,
with a floating grace, was already at Dhira’s side, guiding the aged chieftain
to his seat.
When the Lord of the lios alfar
straightened up, though, his gaze went out the western window of the room. He
stood very still a moment, concentrating, then said, “Listen. They are coming!”
Dave felt a quick stab of fear, but
the tone had not been one of warning, and a moment later he too heard sounds
from the western edge of Celidon—and the sounds were cries of welcome.
Ra-Tenniel turned, smiling a little,
to Ivor. “I doubt the raithen of Daniloth could ever come among your people
without causing a stir.”
Ivor’s eyes were very bright. “I
know they could not,” he said. “Levon, will you have their riders brought
here?”
They were on their way, in any case.
Moments later Levon returned, and with him were two more—a man and a woman—of
the lios alfar. The air in the room seemed brighter for their presence as they
bowed to their Lord.
For all that, they were hardly
noticed.
It was the third of the new arrivals
who claimed the absolute attention of every person in the room, even in the
company of the lios alfar. Dave was suddenly on his feet. They all were.
“Brightly woven, Aven,” said Aileron
dan Ailell.
His brown clothing was stained and
dusty, his hair tousled, and his dark eyes lay sunken in deep pools of
weariness. He held himself very straight, though, and his voice was level and
clear. “They are making songs outside, even now. About the Ride of Ivor, who
raced the army of the Dark to Celidon, and beat them there, and drove them
back.”
Ivor said, “We had aid, High King.
The lios alfar came out from Daniloth. And then Owein came to the horn that
Davor carries, and at the last Green Ceinwen was with us, or we would all have
died.”
“So I have just been told,” said
Aileron. He fixed Dave with a brief, keen glance, then turned to Ra-Tenniel.
“Bright the hour of our meeting, my lord. If Loren Silvercloak, who taught me
as a child, said true, no Lord of Daniloth has ventured so far from the
Shadowland since Ra-Lathen wove the mist a thousand years ago.
Ra-Tenniel’s expression was grave,
his eyes a neutral grey. “He said true,” he replied calmly.
There was a little silence; then
Aileron’s dark bearded face was lit by the brightness of his smile. “Welcome
back, then, Lord of the lios alfar!”
Ra-Tenniel returned the smile, but
not with his eyes, Dave saw. “We were welcomed back last night,” he murmured. “By
svart alfar and urgach, by wolves and Avaia’s brood.”
“I know it,” said Aileron, swiftly
changing mood. “And there is more of that welcome to come. I think we all know
it.”
Ra-Tenniel nodded without speaking.
“I came as soon as I saw the
summonglass,” Aileron went on after a pause. “There is an army behind me. They
will be here tomorrow evening. I was in Taerlindel the night the message was
sent to us.”
“We know,” Ivor said. “Levon
explained. Has Prydwen sailed?”
Aileron nodded. “She has. For Cader
Sedat. With my brother, and the Warrior, and Loren and Matt, and Pwyll also.”
“And Na-Brendel, surely?” Ra-Tenniel
asked quickly. “Or is he following with your army?”
“No,” said Aileron, as the two lios
alfar behind him stirred. “Something else has happened.” He turned then,
surprisingly, to Dave, and told of what Jennifer had said when Prydwen was out of sight, and what Brendel had said and done, and
where the two of them had gone.
In the silence that followed they
could hear the sounds of the camp through the windows; there were still cries
of wonder and admiration from the Dalrei gathered about the raithen. The sounds
seemed to be coming from far away. Dave’s thoughts were with Jennifer, and with
what—and who—she seemed to have become.
Ra-Tenniel’s voice slid into the
silence of the room. His eyes were violet now as he said, “It is well. Or as
well as could be in such a time as this. Brendel’s weaving was twined with hers
since the night Galadan took her from him. We may have greater need of him in
the Anor than anywhere else.”
Only half understanding, Dave saw
the diamond-bright lios alfar woman let slip a sigh of relief.
“Niavin of Seresh and Teyrnon the
mage are bringing up the army,” Aileron said, crisply coming back to solid
facts. “I brought almost all of my forces, including the contingent from
Cathal. Shalhassan is levying more men in his country even now. I have left
word that those should remain in Brennin as a rear guard. I came here alone,
riding through the night with Galen and Lydan, because I had to let the army
have some rest; they had been riding for more than twenty-four hours.”
“And you, High King?” Ivor asked.
“Have you rested?”
Aileron shrugged. “There may be time
after this meeting,” he said, almost indifferently. “It doesn’t matter.” Dave,
looking at him, thought otherwise, but he was impressed all the same.
“Whom did you ride behind?”
Ra-Tenniel asked suddenly, an unexpected slyness in his voice.
“Do you think,” Galen answered,
before Aileron could speak, “that I would let a man so beautiful ride with
anyone else?” She smiled.
Aileron flushed red beneath his
beard as the Dalrei burst into sudden, tension-breaking laughter. Dave,
laughing too, met Ra-Tenniel’s eyes—silver now—and caught a quick wink from the
lios alfar. Kevin Laine, he thought, would have appreciated what Ra-Tenniel had
just done. A sorrow, there. The deepest among many, he realized, with a twist
of surprise.
There was no time to even try to
deal with the complexities of that sort of thought. It was probably just as
well, Dave knew. Emotions on that scale, running so deep, were dangerous for
him. They had been all his life, and he had no room now for the paralysis they
caused, or the pain that would follow. Ivor was speaking. Dave forced his
thoughts sharply outward again.
“I was about to initiate a Council
of War, High King. Will it please you to take charge now?”
“Not in Celidon,” Aileron said, with
unexpected courtesy. He had recovered from his momentary embarrassment and was
once again controlled and direct. Not entirely without tact, however.
Dave, out of the corner of his eye,
saw Mabon of Rhoden nod quiet approval, and a look of gratitude suffused the
features of old Dhira, sitting beside the Duke. Dhira, Dave decided, was all
right after all. He wondered if he’d have a chance to apologize later, and if
he’d be able to handle it.
“I have my own thoughts,” the High
King said, “but I would hear the counsel of the Dalrei and of Daniloth before I
speak.”
“Very well,” said Ivor, with a
crispness that matched Aileron’s. “My counsel is this. The army of Brennin and
Cathal is on the Plain. We have Daniloth here with us, and every fit Dalrei of
fighting age. . . .”
Except for one, Dave thought involuntarily, but kept
silence.
“We are missing the Warrior and
Silvercloak and have no word from Eridu,” Ivor continued. “We know that there
will be no aid for us from the Dwarves. We do not know what has happened or
will happen at sea. I do not think we can wait to find out. My counsel is to
linger here only so long as it takes Niavin and Teyrnon to arrive, and then to
ride north through Gwynir into Andarien and force Maugrim into battle there
again.”
There was a little silence. Then,
“Ruined Andarien,” murmured Lydan, Galen’s brother. “Always and ever the
battleground.” There was a bittersweet sadness in his voice. Echoes of music.
Memories.
Aileron said nothing, waiting. It
was Mabon of Rhoden who spoke up, raising himself on his one good arm. “There
is good sense in what you say, Aven. As much good sense as we are likely to
find in any plan today, though I would dearly love to have Loren’s counsel
here, or Gereint’s, or our own Seer’s—”
“Where are they, Gereint and the
Seer? Can we not bring them here now—with the raithen, perhaps?” It was Tulger
of the eighth tribe.
Ivor looked at his old friend, worry
deep in his eyes. “Gereint has left his body. He is soul-traveling. He did not
say why. The Seer went into the mountains from Gwen Ystrat. Again, I know not
why.” He looked at Aileron.
The High King hesitated. “If I tell
you, it must not leave this chamber. We have fear enough without summoning
more.” And into the stillness, he said, “She went to free the Paraiko in Khath
Meigol.”
There was a babble of sound. One man
made the sign against evil, but only one. These were Chieftains and their hunt
leaders, and this was a time of war.
“They live?” Ra-Tenniel whispered
softly.
“She tells me so,” Aileron replied.
“Weaver at the Loom!” Dhira murmured,
from the heart. This time it didn’t sound inappropriate. Dave, comprehending
little, felt tension in the room like an enveloping presence.
“So we have no access to the Seer
either,” Mabon continued grimly. “And we must accept, given what you have said,
that we may never have her or Gereint or Loren again. We will have to decide
this using what wisdom we have among ourselves, and so I have one question for
you, Aven.” He paused. “What assurance do we have that Maugrim will fight us in
Andarien when we get there? Could his army not sweep around us among the
evergreens of Gwynir and so run south to destroy what we have left behind: the
mid-Plain here? The Dalrei women and children? Gwen Ystrat? All of Brennin and
Cathal, open to him with our army so far away? Could he not do that?”
There was total silence in the room.
After a moment, Mabon went on, almost whispering.
“Maugrim is outside of time, not
spun on the Loom. He cannot be killed. And he has shown, with the long winter,
that he is in no hurry this time to bring us to battle. Would he not glory and
his lieutenants exult to watch our army waiting uselessly before impregnable
Starkadh while the svarts and urgach and Galadan’s wolves were ravaging all we
loved?”
He stopped. Dave felt a weight like
an anvil hanging from his heart. It was painful to draw breath. He looked at
Tore for reassurance and saw anguish in his face, saw it mirrored deeply in
Ivor’s and, somehow most frighteningly, in the normally unreadable features of
Aileron.
“Fear
not that,” said
Ra-Tenniel.
A voice so very clear. Blurring
forever, Ivor dan Banor thought, the borders between sound and light, between
music and spoken word. The Aven turned to the Lord of the lios alfar as might
one desperate for water in a rainless land.
“Fear Maugrim,” said Ra-Tenniel, “as
must any who name themselves wise. Fear defeat and the dominion of the Dark.
Fear, also, the annihilation that Galadan purposes and strives for, ever.”
Water, Ivor was thinking, as the measured words flowed over him. Water, with
sorrow like a stone at the bottom of the cup.
“Fear any and all of these things,”
Ra-Tenniel said. “The tearing of our threads from the Loom, the unsaying of our
histories, the unraveling of the Weaver’s design.”
He paused. Water in time of drought. Music and light.
“But do not fear,” said the Lord of
the lios alfar, “that he will avoid a battle with us, should we march to Andarien.
I am your surety for that. I and my people. The lios alfar are out from
Daniloth for the first time in a thousand years. He can see us. He can reach
us. We are no longer hidden in the Shadowland. He will not pass us by. It lies not in his nature to pass us by. Rakoth
Maugrim will meet this army if the lios alfar go into Andarien.”
It was true. Ivor knew that as soon
as he heard the words, and he knew it as deeply as he had known any single
thing in all his life. It reinforced his own counsel and offered complete
answer to Mabon’s terrifying question, an answer wrought from the very essence
of the lios alfar, the Weaver’s chosen ones, the Children of Light. What they
were and had always been; and the terrible, bitter price they paid. The other
side of the image. The stone in the cup.
Most hated by the Dark, for their
name was Light.
Ivor wanted to bow, to kneel, to
offer grief, pity, love, heart’s gratitude. Somehow none of them, nor all of
them together, seemed adequate in the face of what Ra-Tenniel had just said.
Ivor felt heavy, clodlike. Looking at the three lios alfar he felt like a lump
of earth.
And yes, he
thought. Yes, he was exactly that. He was prosaic, unglamorous, he was of the earth, the grass. He was of the Plain, which endured, which
would endure this too if they proved equal to the days ahead, but not
otherwise.
Reaching back into his own history,
as Ra-Tenniel had just done, the Aven cast aside all thoughts, all emotions
save those that spoke of strength, of resistance. “A thousand years ago the
first Aven of the Plain led every Dalrei hunter who could ride into the woven
mists and the skewed time of Daniloth, and the Weaver laid a straight track for
them. They came out onto a battlefield by Linden Bay that would otherwise have
been lost. Revor rode from there beside Ra-Termaine across the River Celyn into
Andarien. And so, Brightest Lord, will I ride beside you, should that be our
decision when we leave this place.”
He paused and turned to the other
King in the room. “When Revor rode, and Ra-Termaine, it was in the army and at
the command of Conary of Brennin, and then of Colan, his son. It was so then,
and rightly so—for the High Kings of Brennin are the Children of Mórnir—and it
will be so again, and as rightly, should you accept this counsel, High King.”
He was utterly unaware of the
ringing cadences, the upwelling power of his own voice. He said, “You are heir
to what Conary was, as we are the heirs of Revor and Ra-Termaine. Do you accede
to this counsel? Yours is governance here, Aileron dan Ailell. Will you have us
to ride with you?”
Bearded and dark, devoid of
ornament, a soldier’s sword in a plain sheath at his side, Aileron looked the
very image of a war king. Not bright and glittering as Conary had been, or
Colan, or even as his own brother was. He was stern and expressionless and
grim, and one of the youngest men in the room.
“I accede,” he said. “I would have
you ride with me. When the army comes tomorrow, we set out for Andarien.”
In that moment, halfway and a little
more to Gwynir, a lean and scarred figure, incongruously aristocratic atop one
of the hideous slaug, slowed and then dragged his mount to a complete stop.
Motionless on the wide Plain, he watched the dust of Rakoth’s retreating army
settle in front of him.
For most of the night he had run in
his wolf form. In careful silence he had observed as Uathach, the giant urgach
in white, had enforced an orderly withdrawal out of what had begun as blind
flight. There had been a question of precedence there, to be resolved eventually,
but not now. Galadan had other things to think about.
And he thought more clearly in his
human shape. So a little before dawn he had taken his own form again and
commandeered one of the slaug, even though he hated them. Gradually through the
greyness of dawn he had let the army pass him by, making sure that Uathach did
not notice.
He was far from afraid of the
white-clad urgach, but he knew too little about him, and knowledge, for the
Wolflord, had always been the key to power. It mattered almost not at all that
he was reasonably certain he could kill Uathach; what was important was that he
understand what had made him what he was. Six months ago Uathach
had been summoned to Starkadh, an oversized urgach, as stupid as any of the
others, a little more dangerous because of quickness and size.
He had come out again four nights
ago, augmented, enhanced in some unsettling way. He was clever now, vicious and
articulate, and clad by Rakoth in white—a touch that Galadan appreciated,
remembering Lauriel, the swan the lios had loved. Uathach had been given
command of the army that issued over the Valgrind Bridge. That, in the
inception, Galadan had no quarrel with.
The Wolflord himself had been away,
engaged in tasks of his own devising. It had been he, with the knowledge that
came with being one of the andain, son of a god, and with the subtlety that was
his own, who had conceived and led the attack on the Paraiko in Khath Meigol.
If attack it could be called. The
Giants by their very nature had no access to anger or violence. No response to
war, save the single inviolate fact that shedding their blood brought down any
curse the injured Giant chose to invoke. That
was the true, the
literal concept of the bloodcurse; it had nothing to do with the superstitions
about roaming, fanged ghosts haunting Khath Meigol.
Or so the Wolflord had continually
reminded himself in the days he spent there while the Paraiko were penned like
helpless sheep in their caves by the svarts and urgach, breathing the clever,
killing smoke of the fires he’d ordered to be made.
He had only lasted a few days, but
the true reason was his own secret. He had tried to convince himself of what he
had told those he left behind—that his departure was dictated by the demands of
war—but he had lived too long and too searchingly to really deceive himself.
The truth was that the Paraiko
unsettled him deeply in some subconscious way his mind could not grasp. In some
fashion they lay in his path, huge obstacles to his one unending desire—which
was for annihilation, utter and absolute. How they could oppose him he knew
not, for pacifism was woven into their very nature, but nonetheless they
disturbed him and rendered him uneasy as did no one else in Fionavar or any
other world, with the single exception of his father.
So, since he could not kill Cernan
of the Beasts, he set about destroying the Paraiko in their mountain caves.
When the fires were burning properly and the svarts and urgach made
relentlessly aware of the need not to shed blood—as if they had to be reminded,
for even the stupid svarts lived in abject terror of the bloodcurse—Galadan had
withdrawn from the bitter cold of the mountains and the incessant chanting that
came from the caves.
He had been in east Gwynir when the
snow had, shockingly, melted. Immediately he had begun massing his wolves among
the evergreens, waiting for the word of attack. He had just garnered tidings of
his contingent slaughtered in Leinanwood by the High King when Avaia herself
had swooped, glorious and malevolent, to hiss that an army had issued forth
across the Valgrind Bridge, heading for Celidon.
At speed he had taken his wolves
down the eastern edge of the Plain. He had crossed Adein near the Edryn Gap,
unseen, unanticipated, and then, timing it flawlessly, had arrived at the
battlefield to fall on the exposed right flank of the Dalrei. He hadn’t
expected the lios to be there, but that was only a source of joy, a deepening
of delight: they were going to slaughter them all.
They would have, had the Wild Hunt
not suddenly flashed in the heavens above. Alone among the army of the Dark he
knew who Owein was. Alone, he grasped a hint of what had happened. And alone,
he comprehended something of what lay beneath the cry that stopped the killing.
Alone in that army he knew whose voice it was.
He was, after all, her brother’s
son.
There had been a great deal to
assimilate, and a very immediate danger as well. And through all the pandemonium
a thought, inchoate, little more than a straining toward a possibility, was
striving to take shape in his mind. Then, above and beyond all this, as if it
had not been enough and more than enough, there came an intuition he had
learned to trust, a vibration within the part of him that was a god, Cernan’s
son.
As the cold rage of battle passed,
and then the chaos of flight, Galadan became increasingly aware that something
was happening in the forest realm.
There was suddenly a very great deal
to consider. He needed solitude. He always needed that—as being nearest to his
long desire—but now his mind craved it as much as his soul. So he had detached
himself from the army, unseen in the dawn shadows, and he was riding alone when
the morning sunlight found him.
Shortly after sunrise he stopped,
surveying the Plain. He found it deeply pleasing to his heart. Except for the
cloud of dust, settling now, far to the north, there was no sign of life beyond
the insentient grass he did not care about. It was almost as if the goal for
which he had striven for past a thousand years had come.
Almost. He smiled thinly. Irony was
nearly at the center of his soul and would not let him dream for very long. The
striving had been too lengthy, too deeply ingrained, for dreams to ever be
remotely adequate.
He could remember the very instant
his designs had taken shape, when he had first aligned himself with the
Unraveller—the moment when Lisen of the Wood had sent word running through
Pendaran that she had merged her fate and given her love to Amairgen
Whitebranch, the mortal.
He had been in the Great Wood that
morning, ready to celebrate with all the other powers of Pendaran her slaying
of the man for his presumption in the sacred grove.
It had turned out otherwise.
Everything had.
He had gone into Starkadh, once and
once only, for in that place he, who was mightiest by far of the andain and
arrogant with that strength, had been forced to humble himself before an
obliterating magnitude of power. He had not even been able to mask his own mind
from Maugrim, who had laughed.
He was made to realize that he was
entirely understood and, notwithstanding that, had been accepted, with
amusement, as lieutenant by the Dark. Even though Rakoth knew precisely what
his own purposes were and how they differed from Maugrim’s own, it hadn’t
seemed to matter.
Their designs marched together a
very long way, Galadan had told himself, and though he was not—no one
was—remotely an equal to the Unraveller, he might yet, ere the very end, find a
way to obliterate the world Maugrim would rule.
He had served Rakoth well. Had
commanded the army that cut Conary off by Sennett Strand so long ago. He had
killed Conary himself, in his wolf shape, and he would have won that battle,
and so the war, had Revor of the Plain not come, somehow, impossibly soon,
through the mists of Daniloth to turn the tide of battle north to Starkadh
itself, where it ended. He himself, badly wounded, had hardly escaped with his
life from Colan’s avenging sword.
They had thought he’d died, he knew.
He almost had. In an icy cave north of the Ungarch River he had lain, bitterly
cold, nursed only by his wolves. For a very long time he’d huddled there,
damping his power, his aura, as low as he could, while the armies of the Light
held parley before the Mountain and Ginserat made the wardstones and then
shaped, with aid of the Dwarves, the chain that bound Rakoth beneath Rangat.
Through all the long waiting years
he had continued to serve, having made his choice and set his own course. He it
was who had found Avaia, half dead herself. The swan had been hiding in the
frigid realm of Fordaetha, Queen of Rük, whose icy touch was instant death to a
spirit less strong than one of the andain. With his own hands he had nursed the
swan back to health in the court of that cold Queen. Fordaetha had wanted to
couple with him. It had pleased him to refuse her.
His, too, had been the stratagem,
subtle and infinitely slow, whereby the water spirit of Llewenmere, innocent
and fair, had been lured into surrendering her most handsome swans. He had
given her a reason that sufficed: his earnest desire, in the identity he had
dissembled with, to bring swans north to Celyn Lake, on the borders of
devastated Andarien. And she had released her guardianship and had, all
unsuspecting, let him take them away.
He had only needed some of them: the
males. North, indeed, they had been carried, but far past Celyn into the
glacier-riven mountains beyond Ungarch, where they had been bred to Avaia.
Then, when they had died, she, who could not die unless slain, had coupled with
her children, and had continued doing so, year after year, to bring forth the
brood that had stained the skies on the evening just past.
The spirit of Llewenmere never knew
for certain what she had done or who, indeed, he really was. She may have
guessed, though, for in after years, the lake, once benign and inviting, had
turned dark and weedy, and even in Pendaran, which knew a darkness of its own,
it was said to be haunted.
It brought him no joy. Nothing had,
since Lisen. A long, long life, and a slow, single purpose guiding it.
He it was who had freed Rakoth.
Orchestrating, with infinite patience, the singling out and then the corruption
of the Dwarf brothers, Kaen and Blod; bringing into play the festering hatred
of Metran of the Garantae, First Mage of Brennin; and, finally, cutting off,
with his own sword, the hand of Maugrim when Ginserat’s chain could not be made
to break.
He had run then with Rakoth—a wolf
beside a cloud of malice that dripped, and would forever drip, black blood—to
the rubble of Starkadh. There he had watched as, inexorably, Rakoth Maugrim had
showed forth his might—greater here than anywhere in any of the worlds, for
here had he first set down his foot—and raised anew the ziggurat that was the
first and the last seat of his power.
When it reared upward again,
complete, even to the green flickering of its lights, an obliterating presence
among the ice, Galadan had stopped before the mighty doors, though they stood
open for him. Once had been enough. Everywhere else his mind was his own. In
one way, he knew, this resistance was meaningless, for Maugrim, in that one
instant a thousand years ago, had learned everything of Galadan he would ever
need to know. But in another way, the sanctity of his thoughts was the only
thing that had any meaning left for the Wolf-lord.
So he had halted before the doors,
and there had he received his reward, the offered image, never before seen,
never known, of Maugrim’s revenge against the lios alfar for being what they
were: the Soulmonger at sea. Waiting for the lios as they sailed west in search
of a promised world and destroying them, singly and in pairs, to claim their
voices and their songs as a lure for those who followed. All of those who followed.
It was perfect. It was beyond
perfection. A malevolence that used the very essence of the Children of Light
to shape their doom. He could never have bound to his service a creature so
awesome, Galadan knew. He could never even, for all his own guile, have thought
of something so encompassing. The image was, among other things, a reminder to
him of what Rakoth, now free again, was and could do.
But it was also a reward, and one
that had nothing at all to do with the lios alfar.
The vision had been clear in his
mind. Rakoth had made it clear. He had seen the Soulmonger vividly: its size
and color, the flat, ugly head. He could hear the singing. See the lidless
eyes. And the staff, the white staff, embedded uselessly between those eyes.
The staff of Amairgen Whitebranch.
And so, for the very first time, he
learned how that one had died. There was no joy. There could never again be
joy, he had no access to such a thing. But that day, before the open doors of
Starkadh, there had come an easing within him for a moment, a certain quiet,
which was as much as he could ever have.
Alone now on the Plain he tried to
summon up the image again, but he found it blurred and unsatisfying. He shook
his head. There was too much happening. The implications of Owein’s return with
the Wild Hunt were enormous. He had to find a way to deal with them. First,
though, he knew he would have to address the other thing, the intuition from
the Wood that went deeper than anything else.
This was why he had stopped. To seek
out the quiet that would allow the thing, whatever it was, to move from the
edge of his awareness to the center, to be seen.
For a while he thought it was his
father, which would make a great deal of sense. He never ventured near Cernan,
and his father had never, since a certain night not long before the Bael
Rangat, tried to contact him. But this morning’s sensation was intense enough,
so laden with overtones and shadings of long-forgotten emotions, that he
thought it had to be Cernan calling him. The forest was, somehow, part of this.
It had—
And in that instant he knew what it was.
Not, after all, his father. But the
intensity was suddenly explained, and more. With an expression on his face no
one living had ever been allowed to see, Galadan leaped from the back of the
slaug. He put his hand to his chest and made a gesture. Then, a moment later,
in his wolf shape, covering ground faster than even the slaug might, he set out
west, running as swiftly as he could, the battle forgotten, the war, almost.
West, to where lights were burning
and someone stood in the Anor, in the room that had been Lisen’s.
Chapter 3
They had been
climbing all morning, and the rough going was not made easier by the pain in
Kim’s side where Ceriog had kicked her. She was silent, though, and kept going,
head down, watching the path and the long legs of Paebur climbing in front of
her. Dalreidan was leading them; Brock, who had to be hurting far more than she
was, brought up the rear. No one spoke. The trail was difficult enough without
wasting breath on words, and there was, really, not a great deal to say.
She had dreamt again the night before,
in the outlaw camp not far from the plateau where they had been captured.
Ruana’s deep chanting ran through her sleep. It was beautiful, but she found no
comfort in that beauty— the pain was too great. It twisted through her and,
what was worse, a part of it came from her. There was smoke in the dream again,
and the caves. She saw herself with lacerations on her arms but, again, no
blood was flowing. No blood in Khath Meigol. The smoke drifted in the starlit,
firelit night. Then there was another light, as the Baelrath blazed into life.
She felt it as a burning, as guilt and pain, and in the midst of that flaming
she watched herself looking up into the sky above the mountains and she saw the
red moon ride again and she heard a name.
In the morning, heavily wrapped in
her thoughts, she had let Brock and Dalreidan make arrangements for their
departure, and in silence all morning and into the afternoon she had climbed
upward and east toward the sun.
Toward the sun.
She stopped abruptly. Brock almost
ran into her from behind. Shielding her eyes, Kim gazed beyond the mountains as
far as she could, and then a cry of joy escaped her. Dalreidan turned, and
Faebur. Wordlessly, she pointed. They spun back to look.
“Oh, my King!” cried Brock of Banir
Tal. “I knew you would not fail!”
Over Eridu the rain clouds were
gone. Sunlight streamed from a sky laced only with the thin, benevolent cirrus
clouds of a summer’s day.
Far to the west, in the spinning
place of Cader Sedat, the Cauldron of Khath Meigol lay shattered in a thousand
pieces and Metran of the Garantae was dead.
Kim felt the shadows of her dream
dissolve as hope flared within her like the brilliant sun. She thought of Kevin
in that moment. There was sorrow in the memory, there always would be, but now
there was joy as well, and a burgeoning pride. The summer had been his gift—
the green grass, the birdsong, the mild seas that had allowed Prydwen to sail and the men who sailed her to do this thing.
There was a keen brightness in
Dalreidan’s face as he turned back to look at her. “Forgive me,” he said. “I
doubted.”
She shook her head. “So did I. I had
terrible dreams of where they had to go. There is a miracle in this. I do not
know how it was done.”
Brock had come up to stand beside
her on the narrow trail. He said nothing, but his eyes were shining beneath the
bandage Kim had wrapped about his wound. Faebur, though, had his back to them,
still gazing to the east. Looking at him, Kim sobered quickly.
At length he, too, turned to look at
her, and she saw the tears in his eyes. “Tell me something, Seer,” he said,
sounding older, far, than his years. “If an exiled man’s people are all dead,
does his exile end or does it go on forever?”
She struggled to frame a reply and
found none. It was Dalreidan who answered. “We cannot unsay the falling of that
rain, or lengthen the cut threads of those who have died,” he said gently. “It
is in my heart, though, that in the face of what Maugrim has done no man is an
exile any more. Every living creature on this side of the mountains has
received a gift of life this morning. We must use that gift, until the hour
comes that knows our name, to deal such blows as we can against the Dark. There
are arrows in your quiver, Faebur. Let them sing with the names of your loved
ones as they fly. It may not seem like a true recompense, but it is all we can
do.”
“It is what we must do,” said Brock
softly.
“Easy for a Dwarf to say!” snarled
Faebur, rounding on him.
Brock shook his head. “Harder by far
than you could know. Every breath I draw is laden with the knowledge of what my
people have done. The rain will not have fallen under the twin mountains, but
it fell in my heart and it is raining there still. Faebur, will you let my axe
sing with your arrows in mourning for the people of the Lion in Eridu?”
The tears had dried on Faebur’s
face. His chin was set in a hard, straight line. He had aged, Kim thought. In a
day, in less than a day he seemed to have aged so much. For what seemed to her
a very long time he stood motionless, and then slowly and deliberately he
extended a hand to the Dwarf. Brock reached up and clasped it between both of
his own.
She became aware that Dalreidan was
looking at her.
“We go on?” he asked gravely.
“We go on,” she said, and even as
she spoke the dream came back, with the chanting and the smoke, and the name
written in Dana’s moon.
To the south and far below, the
Kharn River flashed through its gorge in the evening light. They were so high
than an eagle hovering over the river was below them, its wings shining in the
sunlight that slanted down the gorge from the west. All around them lay the
mountains of the Carnevon Range, the peaks white with snow even in midsummer.
It was cold, this high up and with the day waning; Kim was grateful for the
sweater they had given her in Gwen Ystrat. Lightweight and wonderfully warm, it
was a testimonial to the value accorded all the cloth arts in this, the first
of all the Weaver’s worlds.
Even so, she shivered.
“Now?” Dalreidan asked, his voice
carefully neutral. “Or would you like to camp here until morning?”
The three of them looked at her,
wailing. It was her decision to make. They had guided her to this place, had
helped her through the hardest parts of the climb, had rested when she had
needed to rest, but now they had arrived, and all the decisions were hers.
She looked past her companions to
the east. Fifty paces away the rocks looked exactly as they did where she was
standing now. The light fell upon them the same way, with the same softening as
evening came to the mountains. She had expected something different, some sort
of change: a shimmering, shadows, a sharpening of intensity. She saw none of
these, yet she knew, and the three men with her knew, that the rocks fifty
paces to the east lay within Khath Meigol.
Now that she was here she longed
with all her heart to be anywhere else. To be graced with the wings of the
eagle below, that she might sweep away on the evening breeze. Not from
Fionavar, not from the war, but far from the loneliness of this place and the
dream that had led her here. Within herself she reached for, and found, the
tacit presence that was Ysanne. She took comfort in that. She was never truly
alone; there were two souls within her, now and always. Her companions had no
such solace, though, had no dreams or visions to guide them. They were here
because of her, and only because of her, and they were looking now for her to
lead them. Even as she stood, hesitating, the shadows were slowly climbing the
slopes of the ravine.
She drew a breath and slowly let it
out. She was here to repay a debt, and one that was not hers alone. She was
also here because she bore the Baelrath in a time of war, and there was no one
else in any world who could make manifest the Seer’s dream she’d had, however
dark it was.
However dark. It had been night in
the dream, with fires in front of the caves. She looked down and saw the stone
flickering like a tongue of flame on her hand.
“Now,” she said to the others. “It
will be bad in the dark, I know, but it won’t be that much better in the
morning, and I don’t think we should wait.”
They were very brave, all three of
them. Without a word spoken they made room for her to fall into line after
Faebur, with Brock behind; and Dalreidan led them into Khath Meigol.
Even with the vellin shielding her
she felt the impact of magic as they passed into the country of the Giants, and
the form the magic took was fear. They are not ghosts, she told herself, over
and over. They are alive. They saved my life. Even so, even with the vellin,
she felt terror brushing her mind with the quick wings of night moths. The two
men and the Dwarf with her had no green vellin bracelets to guard them, no
inner voices to reassure, yet none of them made a sound and none broke stride.
Humbled by their courage, she felt her own heart flame with resolution, and as
it did the Baelrath burned brighter on her hand.
She quickened her pace and moved
past Dalreidan. She had brought them to this place, a place where no man should
ever have had to come. It was her turn to lead them now, for the Warstone knew
where to go.
For almost two hours they walked in
the gathering darkness. It was full night under the summer stars when Kim saw
smoke and the distant blaze of bonfires and heard the raucous laughter of svart
alfar. And with the brutal mockery of that sound she found, suddenly, that her
fears, which had walked with her until now, were gone. She had arrived, and the
enemy ahead of her was known and hated, and in the caves beyond those ridges of
stone the Giants were imprisoned and were dying.
She turned and saw by starlight and
the glow of her ring that her companions’ faces were grim now, not with strain
but with anticipation. Silently Brock unslung his axe, and Faebur notched an
arrow to his bow. She turned to Dalreidan. He had not yet drawn a sword or
unslung his own bow. “There will be time,” he whispered, answering her unspoken
question, scarcely a breath in the night air. “Shall I find us a place where we
can look?”
She nodded. Calmly, silently, he
moved past her again and began picking his way among the strewn boulders and
loose rocks toward the fires and the laughter. Moments later the four of them
lay prone above a plateau. Sheltered by upthrust teeth of rock, they looked
down, sickened, on what the glow of the bonfires revealed.
There were two caves set into the
mountainside, with high vaulted entrances and runic lettering carved over the
arches. It was dark in the caves and they could not see within. From one of
them, though, if they strained to hear past the laughter of the svart alfar,
they could make out the sound of a single deep voice chanting slowly.
The light came from two huge fires
on the plateau, set directly before each of the caves in such a fashion that
the smoke of their burning was drawn inward. There was another fire just over
the ridge east of them, and Kim could make out the glow and the rising smoke of
a fourth about a quarter of a mile away, to the northeast. There were no others
to be seen. Four caves then, four sets of prisoners dying of starvation and
smoke.
And four bands of svart alfar.
Around each of the bonfires below them, about thirty of the svarts were
gathered, and there were a handful of the nightmare urgach as well. About a
hundred and fifty of them, then, if the same numbers held true beyond the
ridges. Not a very great force, in truth, but more than enough, she knew, to
subdue and hold the Paraiko, whose pacifism was the very essence of their
being. All that the svarts had to do, under the guidance of the urgach, was
keep the fires burning and refrain from shedding blood. Then they could claim
their reward.
Which they were doing now, even as
she watched. On each of the pyres below lay the huge body, charred and
blackened, of a Paraiko. Every few moments one of the svart alfar would dart
close enough to the roaring flames to thrust in a sword and cut for himself a
piece of roasted flesh.
Their reward. Kim’s stomach heaved
in revulsion and she had to close her eyes. It was an unholy scene, a
desecration in the worst, the deepest sense. Beside her she could hear Brock
cursing under his breath in a steady invocation, bitter and heartfelt.
Meaningless words, whatever scant
easing they might afford. And the curses of the Paraiko themselves, which might
have been unleashed had any one of them been killed directly, had been
forestalled. Rakoth was too clever, too steeped in the shaping of evil, his
servants too well trained, for the bloodcurse to have been set free.
Which meant that another sort of
power would have to be invoked. And so here she was, drawn by a savesong
chanted and the burden of a Seer’s dream, and what, in the Weaver’s name, was
she to do? She had three men beside her, three men alone, however brave they
might be. From the moment she and Brock had left Morvran, everything in her had
been focused on getting to this plateau, knowing that she had to do so, with
never a thought until now about what she could do when she arrived.
Dalreidan touched her elbow. “Look,”
he whispered. She opened her eyes. He wasn’t looking at the caves or the fires
or the ridges beyond with their own smoke. Reluctantly, as always, she followed
his gaze to the ring on her own hand and saw the Baelrath vividly aflame. With
a real grief she saw that the fire at the heart of the Warstone was somehow
twinned to the hue and shape of the hideous fires below.
It was deeply unsettling, but when
had there been anything reassuring or easy about the ring she bore? In every
single thing she had ever done with the Baelrath there was pain. In its depths
she had seen Jennifer in Starkadh and carried her, screaming, into the
crossing. She had awakened a dead King at Stonehenge against his will. She had
summoned Arthur on the summit of Glastonbury Tor to war and bitterest grief
again. She had released the Sleepers by Pendaran on the night Finn took the
Longest Road. She was an invoker, a war cry in darkness, a storm crow, truly
that, on the wings of a gathering storm. She was a gatherer indeed, a summoner.
She was—She was a summoner. There was a scream, and then a raucous burst of
laughter down below. An urgach, for sport, had hurled a svart alfar, one of the
smaller green ones, onto the blazing fire. She saw, but hardly registered it.
Her eyes went back to the stone, to the flame coiled in the depths of it, and
there she read a name, the same name she had seen written across the face of
the moon in her dream. Reading it, she remembered something: how the Baelrath
had blazed in answering light on the night that Dana’s red full moon had ridden
through the sky over Paras Derval. She was a summoner, and now she knew what
she had to do. For with the name written in the ring had come knowledge that
had not lain in the dream. She knew who this was and knew, also, what the price
of her calling would be. But this was Khath Meigol in a time of war, and the
Paraiko were dying in the caves. She could not harden her heart, there was too
much pity there, but she could steel her will to do what had to be done and
shoulder the grief as one more among many.
She closed her eyes again. It was
easier in darkness, a way of hiding, almost. Almost, but not truly. She drew a
breath and then within her mind, not aloud, she said, Imraith-Nimphais.
Then she led her companions back
down and away from the fires to wait, knowing it would not be long.
Tabor’s watch was not until the end
of the night, and so he had been asleep. Not any more. She was in the sky over
the camp, and she had called his name, and for the first time ever he heard
fear in the creature of his fast.
He was wide awake, instantly, and
dressing as quickly as he could.
Wait, he sent. I do
not want to frighten them. I will meet you on the Plain.
No, he heard. She was truly afraid. Come now. There is no time!
She was descending, even as he went
outside. He was confused, and a little afraid himself, for he had not summoned
her, but even with that, his heart lifted to see the beauty of her as she came
down, her Horn shining like a star, her wings folding gracefully as she landed.
She was trembling. He stepped
forward and put his arms about her, laying his head against hers. Easy, my love, he sent, projecting all the
reassurance he could. I am
here. What has happened?
I was called by name, she sent, still trembling.
A shocked surge of anger ran through
him, and a deeper fear of his own that he fought to master and conceal. He
could conceal nothing from her, though, they were bonded too deeply. He drew a
ragged breath. Who?
I do not know her. A woman with white hair, but not
old. A red ring on her hand. How does she know my name?
His own hands moved ceaselessly,
gentling her. Anger was still there, but he was Ivor’s son and Levon’s brother,
both of whom had seen her, and so he knew who this was. She is a friend, he sent. We must go to her. Where? The wrong question, though it had to
be asked. She told him, and with the naming of that place fear was in both of
them again. He fought it and helped her do the same. Then he mounted her,
feeling the joy of doing so in the midst of everything else. She spread her
wings, and he prepared to fly— “Tabor!”
He turned. Liane was there, in a
white shift brought back from Gwen Ystrat. She seemed eerily far away. Already.
And he had not even taken flight. “I must go,” he said, forming the words
carefully. “The Seer has called us.”
“Where is she?”
He hesitated. “In the mountains.”
His sister’s hair, snarled in tangles of sleep, lay loose on her back. Her feet
were bare on the grass; her eyes, wide with apprehension, never left his own.
“Be careful,” she said. “Please.” He
nodded, jerkily. Beneath him, Imraith-Nimphais, restless to be gone, flexed her
wings. “Oh, Tabor,” whispered Liane, who was older than he but didn’t sound it,
“please come back.”
He tried to answer that. It was
important that he try; she was crying. But words would not come. He raised one
hand, in a gesture that had to encompass far too much, and then they were in
the sky and the stars blurred before their speed.
Kim saw a streak of light in the
west. She raised her hand, with the ring glowing on her finger, and a moment
later the power she had summoned descended. It was dark, and the clearing where
they waited was rough and narrow, but nothing could mar the grace of the
creature that landed beside her. She listened for alarms raised east of them
but heard nothing: why should a falling star in the mountains be cause for
concern?
But this was not a falling star.
It was a deep red through the body,
the color of Dana’s moon, the color of the ring she carried. The great wings
folded now, it stood restlessly on the stones, seeming almost to dance above
them. Kim looked at the single horn. It was shining and silver, and the Seer in
her knew how deadly it was, how far beyond mere grace this gift of the Goddess
was.
This double-edged gift. She turned
her gaze to the rider. He looked very much like his father, only a little like
Levon. She had known he was only fifteen, but seeing it came as a shock. He
reminded her, she realized abruptly, of Finn.
Very little time had passed since
the summoning. The waning moon had barely risen above the eastern reaches of
the range. Its silver touched the silver of the horn. Beside Kim, Brock stood
watchfully, and Faebur, his tattoos glowing faintly, was on her other side.
Dalreidan had withdrawn a little way, though, back into the shadows. She was
not surprised, though she sorrowed for that, too. This meeting would have to be
a hard thing for the exiled Rider. She’d had no choice though. Just as she had
none now, and there was deeper cause for sorrow written in the eyes of the boy.
He sat quietly, waiting for her to
speak.
“I’m sorry,” she said, and meant it
with all her heart. “I have some idea of what this does to you.”
He tossed his head impatiently, in a
gesture like his brother’s. “How did you know her name?” he asked, low, because
of the laughter nearby, but challenging. She heard both the anger and the
anxiety.
She shouldered her own power. “You
ride a child of Pendaran’s grove and the wandering moon,” she said. “I am a
Seer and I carry the Wandering Fire. I read her name in the Baelrath, Tabor.”
She had dreamt it too, but she didn’t tell him that.
“No one else is to know her name,”
he said. “No one at all.”
“Not so,” she replied. “Gereint
does. The shamans always know the totem names.”
“He’s different,” Tabor said, a
little uncertainly.
“So am I,” said Kim, as gently as
she could. He was very young, and the creature was afraid. She understood how
they felt. She had come crashing, she and her wild ring, into the midst of an
utterly private communion the two of them shared. She understood, but the night
of which she had dreamt was passing, and she didn’t know if she had time to
assuage them properly, or even what to say.
Tabor surprised her. He might be
young, but he was the Aven’s son, and he rode a gift of Dana. With calm
simplicity he said, “Very well. What are we to do in Khath Meigol?”
Slay, of course. And take the
consequences upon themselves. Was there an easy way to say it? She knew of
none. She told them who was here, and what was taking place, and even as she
spoke she saw the head of the winged creature lift and her horn begin to shine
more brightly yet.
Then she was done. There was nothing
more to tell. Tabor nodded to her, once; then he and the creature he rode
seemed to change, to coalesce. She was near to them, and a Seer. She caught a
fragment of their inner speech. Only a fragment, then she took her mind away. Bright one, she heard and, We
must kill, and
just before she pulled away, . . . only
each other at the last.
Then they were in the air again and
Dana’s creature’s wings were spread and she turned, killingly bright, to flash
down on the plateau and suddenly the servants of the Dark were not laughing any
more. Kim’s three companions were already running for their vantage point again
and she followed them as quickly as she could, stumbling over the rocks and
loose stones.
Then she was there and watching how
stunningly graceful death could be. Again and again Imraith-Nimphais descended
and rose, the horn—with a cutting edge now—stabbing and slashing until the
silver was so coated with blood it looked like the rest of her. One of the
urgach rose before her, enormous, a two-handed sword upraised. With the
preternatural skill of the Dalrei, Tabor veered his mount at full speed, up and
to one side in the air, and the sharp edge of the horn sliced through the top
of the urgach’s head. It was all like that. They were elegant, blindingly
swift, utterly lethal.
And it was destroying them both, Kim
knew.
A myriad of griefs, and no time to
deal with them: even as she watched, Imraith-Nimphais was soaring again, east
to the next bonfire.
One of the svart alfar had been
shamming death. Quickly it rose and began running west across the plateau.
“Mine,” said Faebur quietly. Kim
turned. She saw him draw an arrow and whisper something over its long shaft.
She saw him notch it to his bow and draw, and she saw the moonlit arrow,
loosed, flash into the throat of the running svart and drop it in its tracks.
“For Eridu,” said Brock of Banir
Tal. “For the people of the Lion. A beginning, Faebur.”
“A beginning,” Faebur echoed softly.
Nothing else moved on the plateau.
The fire still roared; their crackling was the only sound. Over the ridge a
distant screaming could be heard, but even as she picked her way down the loose
slope toward the caves those sounds, too, abruptly ceased. Kim glanced over,
instinctively, in time to see Imraith-Nimphais rise and flash north toward the
last of the bonfires.
Making her way carefully amid the
carnage and around the searing heat of the two fires she stopped before the
larger of the caves.
She was here, and had done what she’d
come to do, but she was weary and hurting, and it was not a time for joy. Not
in the face of what had happened, in the presence of those two blackened bodies
on the pyres. She looked down at the ring finger of her right hand: the
Baelrath lay quiescent, mute. It was not finished, though. In her dream she had
seen it burning on this plateau. There was more to come in the weaving of this
night. What, she knew not, but the workings of power were not yet ended.
“Ruana,” she cried, “this is the
Seer of Brennin. I have come to the savesong chanted and you are free.”
She waited, and the three men with
her. The fires were the only sound. A flaw of wind blew a strand of hair into
her eyes; she pushed it back. Then she realized that the wind was
Imraith-Nimphais descending, as Tabor brought her down to stand behind the four
of them. Kim glanced over and saw the dark blood on the horn. Then there was a
sound from the cave and she turned back.
Out of the blackness of the archway
and through the rising smoke the Paraiko came. Only two of them at first, one
carrying the body of the other in his arms. The figure that moved out from the
smoke to stand before them was twice the height of long-legged Faebur of Eridu.
His hair was as white as Kimberly’s, and so was his long beard. His robe, too,
had been white once, but it was begrimed now with a smoke and dust and the
stains of illness. Even so, there was a gravity and a majesty to him that
surmounted time and the unholy scene amid which they stood. In his eyes as he
surveyed the plateau Kim read an ancient, ineffable pain. It made her own
griefs seem shallow, transitory.
He turned to her. “We give thanks,”
he said. The voice was soft, incongruously so for one so enormous. “I am Ruana.
When those of us who yet live are gathered we must do kanior for the dead. If
you wish you may name one of your number to join us and seek absolution for all
of you for this night’s deeds of blood.”
“Absolution?” growled Brock of Banir
Tal. “We saved your lives.”
“Even so,” said Ruana. He stumbled a
little as he spoke. Dalreidan and Faebur sprang forward to help him with his
burden. “Hold!” Ruana cried. “Drop your weapons, you are in peril.”
Nodding his understanding, Dalreidan
let fall his arrows and his sword, and Faebur did the same. Then they went
forward again and, straining with the effort, helped Ruana lower the other
Giant gently to the ground.
There were more coming now. From
Ruana’s cave two women emerged supporting a man between them. Six, in all, came
out from the other cave, sinking to the earth as soon as they were clear of the
smoke. Looking east, Kim saw the first of the contingent from over the ridge
coming to join them on the plateau. They moved very slowly, and many were
supported and some were carried by others. None of them spoke.
“You need food,” she said to Ruana.
“How can we aid you?” ;
He shook his head. “After. The
kanior must be first, it has been so long delayed. We will do the rites as soon
as we are gathered.” Others appeared now, from the northeast, from the fourth fire,
moving with the same slow, strength-conserving care and in absolute silence.
They were all clad in white, as Ruana was. He was neither the oldest nor the
largest of them, but he was the only one who had spoken, and the others were
gathering around the place where he stood.
“I am not leader,” he said, as if
reading Kim’s thoughts. “There has been no leader among us since Connla
transgressed in the making of the Cauldron. I will chant the kanior, though,
and do the bloodless rites.” His voice was infinitely mild. But this, Kim knew,
was someone who had been strong enough to find her in the very heart of
Rakoth’s designs, and strong enough to shield her there.
He scanned the ranks of those who
had come. “This is full numbering?” he asked. Kim looked around. It was hard to
see amid the shadows and the smoke, but there were perhaps twenty-five of the
Paraiko gathered on the plateau. No more than that.
“Full numbering,” a woman said.
“Full.”
“Full numbering, Ruana,” a third
voice echoed, plangent with sorrow. “There are no more of us. Do the kanior,
top long delayed, lest our essence be altered and Khath Meigol shed its
sanctity.”
And it was in that moment that Kim
had her first premonition, as the dark webs of her Seer’s dream began to spin
clear. She felt her heart clench like a fist and her mouth go dry.
“Very well,” Ruana said. And then,
to her again, with utmost courtesy, “Do you want to choose someone to join with
us? For what you have done it will be allowed.”
Kim said shakily, “If expiation is
needed, it is mine to seek. I will do the bloodless rites with you.”
Ruana looked down on her from his
great height, then he glanced at each of the others in turn. She heard
Imraith-Nimphais move nervously behind her under the weight of the Giant’s
gaze.
“Oh, Dana,” Ruana said. Not an
invocation. The words were addressed as to a coequal. Words of reproach, of
sorrow. He turned back to Kimberly. “You speak truly, Seer. I think it is your
place. The winged one needs no dispensation for doing what Dana created her to
do, though I must grieve for her birthing.”
Again, Brock challenged him, looking
up a long way. “You summoned us,” the Dwarf said. “You chanted your song to the
Seer, and we came in answer. Rakoth is free in Fionavar, Ruana of the Paraiko.
Would you have us all lie down in caves and grant him dominion?” The passionate
words rang in the mountain air.
There came a low sound from the
assembled Paraiko. “Did you summon them, Ruana?” It was the voice of the first
woman who had spoken, the one from the cave over the ridge.
Still looking at Brock, Ruana said,
“We cannot hate. Were Rakoth, whose voice I heard in my chanting, obliterated
utterly from the tale of time, my heart would sing until I died. But we cannot
make war. There is only passive resistance in us. It is part of our nature, the
way killing and grace are woven into the creature that flew to save us. To
change would be to end what we are and to lose the bloodcurse, which is the
Weaver’s gift to us in compensation and defense. Since Connla bound Owein and
made the Cauldron we have not left Khath Meigol.”
His voice was still low, but it was
deeper now than when he had first walked from the cave; it was halfway to the
chanting that Kim knew was coming. Something else was coming too, and she was
beginning to know what it would be.
Ruana said, “We have our own
relationship with death, have had it since first we were spun on the Loom. You
know it means death, and a curse, to shed our blood. There is more than you do
not know. We lay down in the caves, because there was nothing else we could do,
being what we are.”
“Ruana,” came the woman’s voice
again, “did you summon them?”
And now he turned to her, slowly, as
if bearing a great burden.
“I did, Iera. I am sorry. I will
chant it in the kanior and seek absolution with the rites. Failing which, I
will leave Khath Meigol as Connla did, that the transgression might lie on my
shoulders alone.”
He raised his hands then, high over
his head in the moonlight, and no more words were spoken, for the kanior began.
It was a chant of mourning and a
woven spell. It was unimaginably old, for the Paraiko had walked in Fionavar
long before the Weaver had spun even the lios alfar or the Dwarves into the
Tapestry, and the bloodcurse had been a part of them from the beginning, and
the kanior which preserved it.
It began with a low humming, almost
below the threshold of hearing, from the Giants gathered around Ruana. Slowly,
he lowered his hands and motioned Kim to come forward beside him. As she did so
she saw that room had been made for Dalreidan, Faebur, and Brock in the circle
surrounding them. Tabor and his winged creature remained outside the ring.
Ruana sank to his knees and motioned
for Kim to do the same. He folded his hands in his lap and then, suddenly, he
was in her mind.
I
will carry the dead,
she heard him say
within. Whom would you give to me?
Her pulse was slowing, dragged by the low sounds coming from those
around them. Her hands shook a little in her lap. She clasped them together, very
tightly, and gave him Kevin and then Ysanne: who they were and what they had
done.
Ruana’s expression did not change,
nor did he move, but his eyes widened a little as he absorbed what she sent to
him, and then, within her mind, not speaking aloud, he said, I
have them, and they are worthy. Grieve
with me.
Then he lifted his voice in lament.
Kim never forget that moment. Even
with what followed after, the memory of the kanior stayed clear within her, the
sorrow and the cleansing of sorrow.
I
will carry the dead,
Ruana had said, and now
he proceeded to do so. With the textured richness of his voice he gathered them
both, Kevin and then Ysanne, and drew them into the circle to be mourned. As
the humming grew stronger, his own chanting twined through it and about it, a
thread on a loom of sound, names offered to the mountain night, and into the
ring began to come the images of the Paraiko who had died in the caves: Taieri,
Ciroa, Hinewai, Caillea, and more, so many more. All of them approached to be
gathered there, to stand in the place where Kim knelt, to be reclaimed for this
moment by the woven power of the song. Kim was weeping, but the tears of her
heart fell soundlessly, that nothing might mar what Ruana shaped.
And in that moment he went even
deeper; he claimed more. His voice growing stronger yet, he reached back
through the tumbling ribbon of years and began to gather the Paraiko from the
very beginning of days, all of them who had lived in their deep peacefulness,
shedding no blood, and had, in the fullness of their time, died to be mourned.
And to be mourned now, again, as
Ruana of Khath Meigol reached back for them, spreading the ambit of his mighty
soul to encompass the loss of all the dead amid the carnage and the fires of
that night. Kneeling so near, Kim watched him do it through her falling tears.
Watched him try to shape a solace for sorrow, to rise above what had been done
to them, with this majestic affirmation of what the Paraiko were. It was a
kanior of kaniors, a lament for every single one of the dead.
And he was doing it. One after
another they came, the ghosts of all the Paraiko in all the years, crowding
into the wide circle of mourning for one last time on this night of deepest
grief for deepest wrong done to their people. Kim understood, then, the source
of the tales of ghosts in Khath Meigol, for there were ghosts in this place when the kanior rites were done. And on this night
the pass in the mountains became a realm, truly, of the dead. Still they came,
and still Ruana grew, forcing his spirit to grow great enough to reach for
them, to carry them all with his song.
Then his voice went deeper yet, with
a new note spun within it, and Kim saw that one had come into the circle who
was taller than any Giant there, whose eyes, even from beyond the world, were
brighter than any other’s, and she knew from Ruana’s song that this was Connla
himself, who had transgressed in binding Owein, and again in making the
Cauldron. Connla, who had gone forth from Khath Meigol alone in voluntary exile
from his people—to be reclaimed on this night when every one of them was being
reclaimed and mourned anew.
Kim saw Kevin there, honored among
those gathered. And she saw Ysanne, insubstantial even among ghosts, for she
had gone farther away than any of them, had gone so far, with her own
sacrifice, that Kim scarcely grasped how Ruana had managed to bring even her
shadow back to this place.
And at length there came a time when
no new figures were drifting into the ring. Kim looked at Ruana as he swayed
slowly back and forth, his eyes closed with the weight of all he was carrying.
She saw his hands close tightly in his lap as his voice changed one last time,
as it went deeper yet, found access to even purer sorrow.
And one by one, into the humbling
amplitude of his soul, he summoned the dead svart alfar and the urgach who had
imprisoned his people and slain them and devoured them when they were dead.
Kim had never known an act to match
the grandeur of what Ruana did in that moment. It was an assertion, utter and
irrefutable, of his people’s identity. A clear sound in the wide dark of the
night, proclaiming that the Paraiko were still without hate, that they were
equal to and greater than the worst of what Rakoth Maugrim could do. That they
could endure his evil, and absorb it, and rise above it in the end, continuing
to be what they had always been, never less than such and never slaves of the Dark.
Kim felt purified in that moment,
transfigured by what Ruana was shaping, and when she saw his eyes open and come
to rest upon her, even as he sang, she knew what was to come and fearing
nothing in his presence she watched him lift a finger and, using it like a
blade, lay open the skin on his face and arms in long, deep cuts.
No blood flowed. None at all, though
the skin curled back from the gashes he had made and she could see the nerves
and arteries exposed within.
He looked at her. With no fear in her,
none at all, in a spirit of mourning and expiation, Kim raised her own hands
and drew her fingernails along her cheeks and then down the veins of her
forearms, feeling the skin slice open to her touch. She was a doctor, and she
knew that this could kill.
It did not. No blood welled from her
wounds either, though her tears were falling still. Tears of sorrow and now of
gratitude as well, that Ruana had offered her this, had been strong enough to
shape a magic so profound that even she, who was not one of the Paraiko, and
who carried grief and guilt running so deep, might find absolution in the
bloodless rites amid the presence of the dead.
Even as Ruana’s voice lifted in the
last notes of his kanior, Kim felt her gashes closing, and looking down on her
arms she saw the skin knit whole and unscarred, and she gave thanks from the
wellspring of her being for what he had given her.
Then she saw the Baelrath burning.
Nothing had ever been worse, not
even the summoning of Arthur from his rest in Avalon among the summer stars.
The Warrior had been doomed by the will of the Weaver to his long fate of
summoning and grief, to restitution through all the years and worlds for having
the children slain. She had shattered his rest with that terrible name cried
out upon the Tor, and her own heart had almost shattered with the pain of it.
But she had not shaped his doom; that had been done long ago. She and the
Baelrath had created nothing, had changed nothing. She had only compelled him,
in sorrow, to do what he was bound by his destiny to do.
This was different, and unimaginably
worse, for with the flaming of the ring the image of her dream was made real,
and Kim finally knew why she was here. To free the Paraiko, yes, but not only
for that. How could it have been so, in time of war, and being who she was? She
had come here drawn by the ring, and the Baelrath was a summoning power. It was
wild, allowing no compunction or pity, knowing only the demands of war, the
dictates of absolute need.
She was in Khath Meigol to draw the
Giants forth. In the most transcendent moment of their long history, the hour
of their most triumphant assertion of what they were, she had come to change
them: to strip them of their nature and the defenses that came with it; to
corrupt them; to bring them out to war. Notwithstanding the peace woven into
their essence. Notwithstanding the glory of what Ruana had just done, the balm
he had offered her soul, the honor he had bestowed upon her two loved ones
among the dead.
Notwithstanding everything. She was
what she was, and the stone was wild, and it demanded that the Paraiko be
undone so they might come to war against Maugrim. What they could do, she knew
not. Such healing clarity was not granted her. That would, she thought, with
corrosive bitterness, have made things too easy, wouldn’t it?
Nothing was to be made easy for
her—or for any of them, she amended inwardly. She thought of Arthur. Of Paul on
the Summer Tree. Of Ysanne. Of Kevin in the snow before Dun Maura. Of Finn, and
Tabor behind her now. Then she thought of Jennifer in Starkadh, and Darien, and
she spoke.
“Ruana, only the Weaver, and perhaps
the gods, know whether I will ever be granted forgiveness for what I now must
do.” After the sonority of the kanior her voice sounded high and harsh. It seemed
to bruise the silence. Ruana looked down on her, saying nothing, waiting. He
was very weak; she could see the weariness etched into his features.
They would all be ravaged by
weakness and hunger, she knew. Easy prey, the inward bitterness added. She
shook her head, as if to drive those thoughts away. Her mouth was dry when she
swallowed. She saw Ruana look at the Baelrath. It was alive, driving her.
She said, “You may yet wish you had
never chanted the savesong to bring me here. But it might be that the Warstone
would have drawn me to this place, even had you kept silent. I do not know. I
do know that I have come not only to set you free, but to bring you down, by the power I bear, to war
against Rakoth Maugrim.”
There was a sound from the Paraiko
gathered around them, but watching only Ruana, she saw that his grave eyes did
not change. He said, very softly, “We cannot go to war, Seer. We cannot fight,
nor can we hate.”
“Then I must teach you!” she cried,
over the grief rising within her, as the Warstone blazed more brilliantly than
it ever had before.
There was real pain. Looking at her
hand she saw it as within a writhing nest of flame, brighter than the bonfires,
too fierce, almost, to look upon. Almost. She had to look, and she did. The
Baelrath was her power, wild and merciless, but hers was the will and the
knowledge, the Seer’s wisdom needed to turn the power to work. It might seem as
if the stone were compelling her, but she knew that was not truly so. It was
responding—to need, to war, to the half-glimpsed intuitions of her dreams— but
it needed her will to unleash its power. So she shouldered the weight, accepted
the price of power, and looking into the heart of the fire enveloping her hand
she cast a mental image into it and watched as the Baelrath threw it back,
incarnate, suspended in the air within the circle of the Paraiko. An image that
would teach the Giants how to hate and so break them of their sanctity.
An image of Jennifer Lowell, whom
they knew now to be Guinevere, naked and alone in Starkadh before Maugrim. They
saw the Unraveller then, huge in his hooded cloak, faceless save for his eyes.
They saw his maimed hand, they watched him hold it over her body so that the
black dripping blood might burn her where it fell, and Kimberly’s own burning
seemed as nothing before what she saw. They heard Jennifer speak, so blazingly
defiant in that unholy place that it could break the heart to hear, and they
heard him laugh and fall upon her in his foulness. They watched him begin to
change his shapes, and they heard what was said and understood that he was
tearing her mind apart to find avenues for torture.
It went on a very long time. Kim
felt wave after wave of nausea rising within her, but she forced herself to
watch. Jennifer had been there, had lived through this and survived it, and the
Paraiko were being stripped of their collective soul through the horror of this
image. They could not look away, the power of the Baelrath compelled them, and
so she would watch it too. A penance, in the most trivial sense she knew.
Seeking expiation where none could possibly come. But she watched. She saw Blod
the Dwarf when he was drawn into the image, and she grieved for Brock, being
forced to see this ultimate betrayal.
She saw it all, through to the end.
Afterward, it was utterly silent in
Khath Meigol. She could not hear anyone breathe. Her own numbed, battered soul
longed for sound. For birdsong, water falling, the laughter of children. She
needed light. Warmer, kinder light than the red glow of the fires, or the
mountain stars, or the moon.
She was granted none of these.
Instead she was made conscious of something else. From the moment they had
entered Khath Meigol there had been fear: an awareness of the presence of the
dead in all their inviolate sanctity, guarding this place with the bloodcurse
that was woven into them.
Not any more.
She did not weep. This went too far
beyond sorrow. It touched the very fabric of the Tapestry on the Loom. She held
her right hand close to her breast; it was blistered and painful to the touch.
The Baelrath smoldered, embers seeming to glow far down in its depths.
“Who are you?” Ruana asked, and his
voice broke on the words. “Who are you to have done this deed unto us? Better
we had died in the caves.”
It hurt so much. She opened her
mouth, but no words came.
“Not so,” a voice replied for her.
It was Brock, loyal, steadfast Brock of Banir Tal. “Not so, people of the
Paraiko.” His voice was weak when he began, but grew in strength with every
word. “You know who she is, and you know the nature of what she carries. We are
at war, and the Warstone of Macha and Nemain summons at need. Would you value
your peacefulness so highly that you granted Maugrim dominion? How long would
you survive if we went away from here and were destroyed in war? Who would
remember your sanctity when all of you and all of us were dead or slaves?”
“The Weaver would,” Ruana replied
gently.
It stopped Brock, but only for a
moment. “So too would Rakoth,” he said. “And you have heard his laughter,
Ruana. Had the Weaver shaped your destiny to be sacrosanct and inviolate, could
you have been changed by the image we have seen tonight? Could you hate the
Dark as now you do? Could you have been brought into the army of Light, as now
you are? Surely this is your true destiny, people of Khath Meigol. A destiny
that allows you to grow when the need is great, however bitter the pain. To
come forth from hiding in these caves and make one with all of us, in all the
Weaver’s worlds afflicted by the Dark.”
He ended ringingly. There was
silence again. Then: “We are undone,” came a voice from the circle of the
Giants.
“We have lost the bloodcurse.” “And
the kanior.” A wailing rose up, heartrending in its grief and loss.
“Hold!” Another voice. Not Ruana.
Not Brock. “People of the Paraiko,” said Dalreidan, “forgive me this
presumption, but I have a question to ask of you.” Slowly, the wailing died
away. Ruana inclined his head toward the outlaw from the Plain. “In what you
did tonight,” Dalreidan asked, “in the very great thing you did tonight did you
not sense a farewell? In the kanior that gathered and mourned every Paraiko
that ever was, could you not find a sign from the Weaver who shaped you that an
ending to something had come?”
Holding her breath, clutching her
burned hand, Kim waited. And then Ruana spoke.
“I did,” he said, as a sigh like a
wind in trees swept over the bare plateau. “I did sense that when I saw Connla
come, how bright he was. The only one of us who ever stepped forward to act in
the world beyond this pass, when he bound the Hunt to their long sleep, which
our people called a transgression, even though Owein had asked him to do so.
And then he built the Cauldron to bring his daughter back from death, which was
a wrong beyond remedy and led him to his exile. When I saw him tonight, how
mighty he was among our dead, I knew that a change was come.”
Kim gasped, a cry of relief torn
from her pain. Ruana turned to her. Carefully he rose, to tower over her in the
midst of the ring. He said, “Forgive me my harshness. This will have been a
grief for you, as much as for us.”
She shook her head, still unable to
speak. “We will come down,” he said. “It is tune. We will leave this place and
play a part in what is to come. But hear me,” he added, “and know this for
truth: we will not kill.”
And with that, finally, words came
to her. She too rose to her feet. “I do know it for truth,” she replied, and it
was the Seer of Breenin who spoke now. “I do not think you are meant to. You
have changed, but not so much as that, and not all your gifts, I think, are
lost.”
“Not all,” he echoed gravely. “Seer,
where would you have us go? To Brennin? Andarien? To Eridu?”
“Eridu is no more.” Faebur spoke for
the first time. Ruana turned to him. “The death rain fell there for three days,
until this morning. There will be no one left in any of the places of the
Lion.”
Watching Ruana, Kim saw something
alter deep in his eyes. “I know of that rain,” he said. “We all do. It is a
part of our memories. It was a death rain that began the ruin of Andarien. It
only fell for a few hours then. Maugrim was not so strong.”
Fighting his weariness with a
visible effort, he drew himself up very straight.
“Seer, this is the first role we
will play. There will be plague with the rain, and no hope of return to Eridu
until the dead are buried. But the plague will not harm the Paraiko. You were
not wrong: we have not lost all of what the Weaver gave to us. Only the
bloodcurse and the kanior, which were shaped of the peace in our hearts. We
have other magics, though, and most of them are ways of dealing with death, as
Connla’s Cauldron was. We will go east from this place in the morning, to
cleanse the raindead of Eridu, that the land may live again.”
Faebur looked up at him. “Thank
you,” he whispered. “If any of us live through the dark of these days, it will
not be forgotten.” He hesitated. “If, when you come to the largest house in the
Merchant’s Street of Akkaize, you find lying there a lady, tall and slender,
whose hair would once have gleamed the color of wheat fields in sunlight . . .
her name will have been Arrian. Will you gather her gently for my sake?”
“We will,” said Ruana, with infinite
compassion. “And if we meet again, I will tell you where she lies.”
Kim turned and walked from the
circle. They parted to make way for her, and she went to the edge of the
plateau and stood, her back to everyone else, gazing at the dark mountains and
the stars. Her hand was blistered and painful to the touch, and her side ached
from yesterday. The ring was utterly spent; it seemed to be slumbering. She
needed sleep herself, she knew. There were thoughts chasing each other around
in her head, and something else, not clear enough yet to be a thought, was
beginning to take shape. She was wise enough not to strain for the Sight that
was coming, so she had walked toward darkness to wait.
She heard voices behind her. She did
not turn, but they were not far away, and she could not help but hear.
“Forgive me,” Dalreidan said, and
coughed nervously. “But I heard a story yesterday that the women and children
of the Dalrei had been left alone in the last camp by the Latham. Is this so?”
“It is,” Tabor replied. His voice
sounded remote and thin, but he answered the exile with courtesy. “Every Rider
on the Plain went north to Celidon. An army of the Dark was seen sweeping
across Andarien three nights ago. The Aven was trying to outrace them to the
Adein.”
Kim had known nothing of this. She
closed her eyes, trying to calculate the distance and the time, but could not.
She offered an inner prayer to the night. If the Dalrei were lost, everything
the rest of them did might be quite meaningless.
“The Aven!” Dalreidan exclaimed
softly. “We have an Aven? Who?”
“Ivor dan Banor,” Tabor said, and
Kim could hear the pride. “My father.” Then, after a moment, as the other
remained silent, “Do you know him?”
“I knew him,” said Dalreidan. “If
you are his son, you must be Levon.”
“Tabor. Levon is my older brother.
How do you know him? What tribe are you from?”
In the silence that followed, Kim
could almost hear the older man struggle with himself. But, “I am tribeless,”
was all he said. His footsteps receded as he walked back toward the circle of
Giants.
She was not alone, Kim thought, in
carrying sorrows tonight. The conversation had disturbed her, stirring up yet
another nagging thread at the corner of her awareness. She turned her thoughts
inward again, reaching for quiet.
“Are you all right?”
Imraith-Nimphais moved silently;
Tabor’s voice coming so near startled her. This time she did turn, grateful for
the kindness in the question. She was painfully aware of what she had done to
them. And the more so when she looked at Tabor. He was deathly pale, almost
another ghost in Khath Meigol.
“I think so,” she said. “And you?”
He shrugged, a boy’s gesture. But he
was so much more, had been forced to be so much more. She looked at the
creature he rode and saw that the horn was clean again, shining softly in the
night.
He followed her glance. “During the
kanior,” he said, wonder in his voice, “while Ruana chanted, the blood left her
horn. I don’t know how.”
“He was absolving you,” she said.
“The kanior is a very great magic.” She paused. “It was,” she amended, as the
truth hit home. She had ended it. She looked back toward the Paraiko. Those who
could walk were bringing water from over the ridge—there had to be a stream or
a well—to the others. Her companions were helping them. As she watched, she
began, finally, to cry.
And suddenly, astonishingly, as she
wept, Imraith-Nimphais lowered her beautiful head, careful of the horn, and
nuzzled her gently. The gesture, so totally unexpected, opened the last
floodgates of Kim’s heart. She looked up at Tabor through her tears and saw him
nod permission; then she threw her arms about the neck of the glorious creature
she had summoned and ordered to kill, and laying her head against that of
Imraith-Nimphais, she let herself weep.
No one disturbed them, no one came
near. After some time, she didn’t know how long, Kim stepped back. She looked
up at Tabor. He smiled. “Do you know,” he said, “that you cry as much as my
father does?”
For the first time in days she
laughed, and Ivor’s son laughed with her. “I know,” she gasped. “I know I do.
Isn’t it terrible?”
He shook his head. “Not if you can
do what you did,” he said quietly. As abruptly as it had surfaced, the
boyishness was gone. It was Imraith-Nimphais’ rider who said, “We must go. I am
guarding the camps and have been too long away.”
She had been stroking the silken
mane. Now she stepped back, and as she did so, the Sight that had been eluding
her, drifting at the edges of her mind, suddenly coalesced enough for her to
see where she had to go. She looked at the Baelrath; it was dulled and
powerless. She wasn’t surprised. This awareness came from the Seer in her, the
soul she shared with Ysanne.
She hesitated, looking up at Tabor.
“I have one thing more to ask of you. Will she carry me? I have a long way to
travel, and not enough time.”
His glance was distanced already,
but it was level and calm. “She will,” he said. “You know her name. We will
carry you, Seer, anywhere you must go.”
It was time, then, to make her
farewells. She looked over and saw that her three guides were standing
together, not far away.
“Where shall we go?” Faebur asked.
“To Celidon,” she answered. A number
of things were coming clearer even as she stood here, and there was urgency in
her. “There was a battle, and it is there that you will find the army, those
who survived.”
She looked at Dalreidan, who was
hesitating, hanging back. “My friend,” she said, in the hearing of all of them,
“you said words to Faebur this morning that rang true: no one in Fionavar is an
exile now. Go home, Dalreidan, and take your true name on the Plain. Tell them
the Seer of Brennin sent you.”
For a moment he remained frozen,
resisting. Then he nodded slowly. “We will meet again?” he asked.
“I hope,” she said, and stepped
forward to embrace him, and then Faebur as well. She looked at Brock. “And
you?” she asked.
“I will go with them,” he answered.
“Until my own King comes home I will serve the Aven and the High King as best I
can. Will you be careful, Seer?” His voice was gruff.
She moved closer and out of habit
checked the bandage she’d wrapped about his head. Then she bent and kissed him
on the lips. “You too,” she whispered. “My dear.”
At the very last she turned to
Ruana, who had been waiting for her. They said nothing aloud.
Then in her mind she heard him
murmur: The Weaver hold your thread fast
in his hand, Seer.
It was what, more than anything
else, she had needed to hear—this last forgiveness where she had no right to
any. She looked up at his great, white-bearded patriarch’s head, at the wise
eyes that had seen so much. And yours, she replied, in silence. Your thread, and that of your people.
Then she walked slowly back to where
Tabor waited, and she mounted behind him upon Imraith-Nimphais, and told him
where it was she had to go, and they flew.
There were hours yet before dawn
when he set her down. Not at a place of war but in the one place in Fion-avar
where she had known a moment’s peace. A quiet place. A lake like a jewel, with
moonlight glancing along it. A cottage by the lake.
He was in the air again, hovering,
as soon as she dismounted. He wanted to be back, she knew. His father had given
him a task and she had drawn him from it, twice now.
“Thank you,” she said. There was
nothing more she could think of to say. She raised a hand in farewell.
As he did the same she saw,
grieving, that the moonlight and the stars were shining through him. Then
Imraith-Nimphais spread her wings, and she and her rider were gone. Another
star for a moment, and then nothing at all.
Kim went into the cottage.
Leaning back against the railing of
the afterdeck, Paul watched Lancelot dueling with his shadow. It had been going
on for most of yesterday, from the time they sailed from Cader Sedat, and had
continued for much of this second morning and into the afternoon. The sun was
behind them now. Lancelot stood with his back to it and advanced and retreated
along the deck, his feet sliding and turning intricately, his sword a blur of
thrusts and parries, too fast to follow properly.
Almost every man on Prydwen had spent some time watching him, either covertly or, as
Paul was, with open admiration. He had finally begun to pick out some of the
disciplined patterns in what Lancelot was doing. And as he watched it go on and
on, Paul understood something else.
This was more than merely training
on the part of someone newly wakened from the Chamber of the Dead. In these
relentless, driven repetitions Paul had finally begun to see that Lancelot was
masking, as best he could, the emotions rising within himself.
He watched the dark-haired man go
through his systematic drills without fuss or wasted motion of any kind. Now
and always there was a quiet to Lancelot, a sense of a still pool wherein the
ripples of turbulent life were effortlessly absorbed. On one level it was
deeply reassuring, and that reassurance had been present from the moment he had
come among them, rising from his bed of stone to bring Matt Sören back from the
dead as well.
Paul Schafer was too wise, though,
for that to be the only level on which he perceived what was happening. He was
Pwyll Twiceborn, had spoken to gods and summoned them, had lived three nights
on the Summer Tree, and the ravens of Mórnir were never far from him. Prydwen was sailing back to war, and Lancelot’s training was apt and
fit for the role he would play when they landed again.
They were also sailing back to
something else, to someone else: to Guinevere.
In Lancelot’s compulsive physical action, however disciplined it might
be, Paul read that truth as clearly as in a book, and the themes of the book
were absolute love and absolute betrayal, and a sadness that could bind the
heart.
Arthur Pendragon, at the prow with
Cavall, gazing east, was the only man on the ship who had not taken a moment to
watch Lancelot duel his shadow’s sword. The two men had not spoken since
walking from the wreckage of Cader Sedat. There was no hatred between them or
even anger, or manifest rivalry that Paul could see. He saw, instead, a
guarding, a shielding of the self, a tight rein kept on the heart.
Paul remembered—knew he would never
forget—the few words they had spoken to each other on the island: Lancelot,
newly wakened, asking with utmost courtesy, Why
have you done this, my lord, to the three of us?
And Arthur, at the very end, the
last doorway of that shattered, bloody hall: Oh, Lance, come. She will be waiting for you.
No hatred or rivalry there but
something worse, more hurtful: love, and defenses thrown up against it, in the
sure foreknowledge of what was to come. Of the story to be played out again, as
it had been so many times, when Prydwen came again to land.
Paul took his eyes from that fluid,
mesmerizing form moving up and down the deck, repeating and repeating the same
flawless rituals of the blade. He turned away, looking out to sea over the port
railing. He would have to defend his own heart, he realized. He could not
afford to lose himself in the woven sorrow of those three. He had his own
burdens and his own destiny waiting, his own role to play, his own terrible
unspoken anxiety. Which had a name, the name of a child who was no longer a
child, of the boy who had taken himself, in the Godwood just a week ago, most
of the way to his adulthood and most of the way to his power. Jennifer’s son.
And Rakoth Maugrim’s.
Darien. He was not Dari anymore, not
since that afternoon by the Summer Tree. He had walked into that place as a
little boy who had just learned to skip pebbles across a lake and had gone
forth as someone very different, someone older, wilder, wielding fire, changing
shape, confused, alienated, unimaginably powerful. Son of the darkest god. The
wild card in the deck of war.
Random, his mother had called him,
knowing more, perhaps, than any of them. Not that there was reassurance in
that. For if Darien was random, truly so, he could do anything. He could go
either way. Never, Brendel of the lios alfar had said, never had there been any
living creature in any of the worlds so poised between Light and Dark. Never
anyone to compare with this boy on the brink of manhood, who was graceful and
handsome, and whose eyes were blue except when they were red.
Dark thoughts. And there was no
light, or approach to it, at the memory of Brendel, either: Brendel, to whom he
was going to have to tell, or stand by while others told the story of the
Soulmonger and the fate of all the lios alfar who had sailed west in answer to
their song since the Bael Rangat. Paul sighed, looking out at the sea curling
away from the motion of the ship. Liranan was down there, he knew, the elusive
sea god moving through his element. Paul had a longing to summon him again,
questions to ask, comfort, even, to seek, in the knowledge of sea stars shining
again in the place where the Soulmonger had been slain. Wishful thinking, that.
He was far too distant from the source of whatever power he had, and far too
unsure of how to channel that power, even when it was ready to hand.
Really, when it came down to it,
there was only one thing he knew for certain. There was a meeting in his
future, a third meeting, and it drifted through his sleep and his daytime
reveries. Along the very tracings of his blood, Paul knew that he would meet
Galadan one more time, and not again. His fate and the Wolflord’s were warp and
weft to each other, and the Weaver alone knew whose thread was marked to be cut
when they crossed.
Footsteps crossed the deck behind
him, cutting against the rhythm of Lancelot’s steady advance and retreat. Then
a light, utterly distinctive voice spoke clearly.
“My lord Lancelot, if it would
please you, I think I might test you somewhat better than your shadow,” said
Diarmuid dan Ailell.
Paul turned. Lancelot, perspiring
slightly, regarded Diarmuid with grave courtesy in his face and bearing. “I
should be grateful for it,” he said, with a gentle smile. “It has been a long
time since I faced someone with a sword. Have you wooden ones then, training
swords aboard ship?”
It was Diarmuid’s turn to smile,
eyes dancing under the fair hair bleached even paler by the sun overhead. It
was an expression most of the men aboard knew very well. “Unfortunately not,”
he murmured, “but I would hazard that we are both skilled enough to use our
blades without doing harm.” He paused. “Serious harm,” he amended.
There was a little silence, broken
by a third voice, from farther up the deck. “Diarmuid, this is hardly the time
for games, let alone dangerous ones.”
The tone of command in Loren
Silvercloak’s voice was, if anything, even stronger since the mage had ceased
to be a mage. He looked and spoke with undiminished authority, with, it seemed,
a clearer sense of purpose, ever since the moment Matt had been brought back
from his death and Loren had vowed himself to the service of his old friend,
who had been King under Banir Lok before he was source to a mage in Paras
Derval.
At the same time, the ambit of his
authority—of anyone’s, for that matter—seemed always to come to a sharp
terminus at the point where Diarmuid’s own wishes began. Especially this kind
of wish. Against his will, Paul’s mouth crooked upward as he gazed at the
Prince. Out of the corner of his eye he saw Erron and Rothe handing slips of
paper to Carde. Wagers. He shook his head bemusedly.
Diarmuid drew his sword. “We are at
sea,” he said to Loren with exaggerated reasonableness, “and at least a day’s
sailing, perhaps more, depending on the winds and our marginally competent
captain”—a fleeting glance spared for Coll, shiftless at the helm—“from
reaching land. There may never be a more felicitous occasion for play. My
lord?”
The last question was directed at
Lancelot, with a salute of the sword, angled in such a way that the sun glinted
from it into Lancelot’s eyes—who laughed unaffectedly, returned the salute, and
moved neatly to the side, his own blade extended.
“For the sacred honor of the Black
Boar!” Diarmuid said loudly, to whistles and cheers. He flourished his steel
with a motion of wrist and shoulder.
“For my lady, the Queen,” said
Lancelot automatically.
It shaped an immediate stillness.
Paul looked instinctively toward the prow. Arthur stood gazing outward toward
where land would be, quite oblivious to all of them. After a moment, Paul
turned back, for the blades had touched, ritually, and were dancing now.
He’d never seen Diarmuid with a
sword. He’d heard the stories about both of Ailell’s sons, but this was his
initial encounter at first hand and, watching, he learned something else about
why the men of South Keep followed their Prince with such unwavering loyalty.
It was more than just the imagination and zest that could conjure moments like
this out of a grim ship on a wide sea. It was the uncomplicated truth—in a
decidedly complex man—that he was unnervingly good at everything he did.
Including swordplay, Paul now saw, with no surprise at all.
The surprise, though thinking about
it later Paul would wonder at his unpreparedness, was how urgently the Prince
was struggling, from the first touch of blades, to hold his own.
For this was Lancelot du Lac, and no
one, ever, had been as good.
With the same economic, almost
abstract precision with which he had dueled his shadow, the man who had lain in
a chamber undersea among the mightiest dead in all the worlds showed the men of
Prydwen why.
They were using naked blades and
moving very fast on a swaying ship. To Paul’s untutored eye there was real
danger in the thrusts and cuts they leveled at each other.
Looking past the shouting men, he
glanced at Loren and then at Coll and read the same concern in both of them.
He thought about interceding, knew
they would stop for him, but even with the thought he became aware of his own
racing pulse, of the degree to which Diarmuid had just lifted him—all of
them—into a mood completely opposite to the hollow silence of fifteen minutes
before. He stayed where he was. The Prince, he realized, knew exactly what he
was doing.
In more ways than one. Diarmuid, retreating
before Lancelot’s blurred attack, managed to angle himself toward a coil of
rope looped on the deck. Timing it perfectly, he quick-stepped backward spun
around the coil, and, bending low, scythed a cut at Lancelot’s knees, a full,
crippling cut.
It was blocked by a withdrawn blade,
a very quickly withdrawn blade. Lancelot stood up, stepped back, and with a
bright joy in his dark eyes cried, “Bravely done!”
Diarmuid, wiping sweat from his own
eyes with a billowing sleeve, grinned ferociously. Then he leaped to attack,
without warning. For a few quick paces Lancelot gave ground but then, again,
his sword began to blur with the speed of its motion, and he was advancing,
forcing Diarmuid back toward the hatchway leading belowdeck.
Engrossed, utterly forgetful of
everything else, Paul watched the Prince give ground. He saw something else as
well: even as he retreated, parrying, Diarmuid’s eyes were darting away from
Lancelot to where Paul stood at the rail—or past him, actually—beyond his
shoulder, out to sea. Just as Paul was turning to see what it was, he heard the
Prince scream, “Paul! Look out!”
The whole company spun to look,
including Lancelot. Which enabled Diarmuid effortlessly to thrust his blade
forward, following up on his transparent deception—
—and have it knocked flying from his
hand, as Lancelot extended his spin into a full pirouette, bringing him back to
face Diarmuid but down on one knee, his sword sweeping with the power of that
full, lightning-quick arc to crash into Diarmuid’s and send it flying, almost
off the deck.
It was over. There was a moment’s
stunned silence, then Diarmuid burst into full-throated laughter and, stepping
forward, embraced Lancelot vigorously as the men of South Keep roared their
approval.
“Unfair, Lance,” came a deep voice,
richly amused. “You’ve seen that move before. He didn’t have a chance.” Arthur
Pendragon was standing halfway up the deck.
Paul hadn’t seen him come. None of
them had. With a lifting heart, he saw the smile oh the Warrior’s face and the
answering gleam in Lancelot’s eyes, and again he saluted Diarmuid inwardly.
The Prince was still laughing. “A
chance?” he gasped breathlessly. “I would have had to tie him down to have a
chance!”
Lancelot smiled, still composed,
self-contained, but not repressively so. He looked at Arthur. “You remember?”
he asked. “I’d almost forgotten. Gawain tried that once, didn’t he?”
“He did,” Arthur said, still amused.
“It almost worked.”
“Almost,” Arthur agreed. “But it
didn’t. Gawain could never beat you, Lance. He tried all his life.”
And with those words, a cloud,
though the sky was still as blue, the afternoon sun as bright as before.
Arthur’s brief smile faded, then Lancelot’s. The two men looked at each other,
their expressions suddenly unreadable, laden with a weight of history. Amid the
sudden stillness of Prydwen Arthur turned again, Cavall to heel,
and went back to the prow.
His heart aching, Paul looked at
Diarmuid, who returned the gaze with an expression devoid of mirth. He would
explain later, Paul decided. The Prince could not know: none of the others
except, perhaps, Loren could know what Paul knew.
Knowledge not born of the ravens or
the Tree but from the lore of his own world: the knowledge that Gawain of the Round
Table had, indeed, tried all his life to defeat Lancelot in battle. They were
friendly battles, all of them, until the every end—which had come for him at
Lancelot’s own hand in a combat that was part of a war. A war that Arthur was
forced to fight after Lancelot had saved Guinevere from burning at the stake in
Camelot.
Diarmuid had tried, Paul thought
sadly. It was a gallant attempt. But the doom of these two men and the woman
waiting for them was far too intricately shaped to be lifted, even briefly, by
access to laughter or joy.
“Look sharp, you laggards!” Coll’s
prosaic, carrying voice broke into his reverie. “We’ve a ship to sail, and it
may need some sailing yet. Wind’s shifting, Diar!”
Paul looked back, south and west to
where Coll’s extended arm was pointing. The breeze was now very strong, he
realized. It had come up during the swordplay. As he looked back he could
discern, straining, a line of darkness at the horizon.
And in that moment he felt the
stillness within his blood that marked the presence of Mórnir.
Younger brothers were not supposed
to ride creatures of such unbridled power. Or to sound or look as had Tabor
last night, before he took flight toward the mountains. True, she’d overheard
her parents talking about it many times (she managed to overhear a great deal),
and she’d been present three nights ago when her father had entrusted the
guarding of the women and children to Tabor alone.
But she’d never seen the creature of
his fast until last night, and so it was only then that Liane had truly begun
to understand what had happened to her younger brother. She was more like her
mother than her father: she didn’t cry often or easily. But she’d understood
that it was dangerous for Tabor to fly, and then she’d heard the strangeness in
his voice when he mounted up, and so she had wept when he flew away.
She had remained awake all night,
sitting in the doorway of the house she shared with her mother and brother,
until, a little before dawn, there had been a falling star in the sky just west
of them, near the river.
A short time later Tabor had walked
back into the camp, raising a hand to the astonished women on guard. He touched
his sister lightly on the shoulder before he passed inside, unspeaking, and
fell into bed.
It was more than weariness, she
knew, but there was nothing she could do. So she had gone to bed herself, to a
fitful sleep and dreams of Gwen Ystrat, and of the fair-haired man from another
world who had become Liadon, and the spring.
She was up with the sunrise, before
her mother even, which was unusual. She dressed and walked out, after checking
to see that Tabor still slept. Aside from those on guard at the gates, the camp
was quiet. She looked east to the foothills and the mountains, and then west to
see the sparkle of the Latham and the Plain unrolling beyond. As a little girl
she’d thought the Plain went on forever; in some ways she still did.
It was a beautiful morning, and for
all her cares and the shallow sleep she’d had, her heart lifted a little to
hear the birds and smell the freshness of the morning air.
She went to check on Gereint.
Entering the shaman’s house, she
paused a moment to let her eyes adjust to the darkness. They had been checking
on him several times a day, she and Tabor: a duty, and a labor of love. But the
aged shaman had not moved at all from the moment they had carried him here, and
his expression had spoken of such terrible anguish that Liane could hardly bear
to look at him.
She did though, every time,
searching for clues, for ways of aiding him. How did one offer aid to someone
whose soul was journeying so far away? She didn’t know. She had her father’s
love of their people, her mother’s calm stability, her own headstrong nature,
and not a little courage. But where Gereint had gone, none of these seemed to
matter. She came anyhow, and so did Tabor: just to be present, to share, in
however small a way.
So she stood on his threshold again,
waiting for the darkness to clear a little, and then she heard a voice she’d
known all her life say, in a tone she’d also known all her life, “How long does
an old man have to wait for breakfast these days?”
She screamed a little, a girlish
habit she was still trying to outgrow. Then she seemed to have covered the
distance into the room very fast, for she was on her knees beside Gereint, and
hugging him, and crying just as her father would have and, for this, perhaps
even her mother too.
“I know,” he said patiently, patting
her back. “I know. You are deeply sorry. It will never happen again. I know all
that. But Liane, a hug in the morning, however nice, is not breakfast.”
She was laughing and crying at the
same time, and trying to hold him as close as she could without hurting his
brittle bones. “Oh Gereint,” she whispered, “I’m so glad you’re back. So much
has happened.”
“I’m sure,” he said, in a different
voice entirely. “Now be still a moment and let me read it in you. It will be
quicker than the telling.”
She did. It had happened so many
times before that it no longer felt strange. This power was at the heart of
what the shamans were; it came with their blinding. In a very little time
Gereint sighed and leaned back a little, deep in thought.
After a moment, she asked, “Did you
do what you went to do?” He nodded.
“Was it very difficult?”
Another nod. Nothing more, but she
had known him a long time, and she was her father’s daughter. She had also seen
his face as he journeyed. She felt an inner stirring of pride. Gereint was
theirs, and whatever he had done, it was something very great.
There was another question in her,
but this one she was afraid to ask. “I’ll get you some food,” she said,
preparing to rise.
With Gereint, though, you seldom had
to ask. “Liane,” he murmured, “I can’t tell you for certain, because I am not
yet strong enough to reach as far as Celidon. But I think I would know already
if something very bad had happened there. They are all right, child. We will
have fuller tidings later, but you can tell your mother that they are all
right.”
Relief burst within her like another
sunrise. She threw her arms around his neck and kissed him again.
Gruffly he said, “This is still not
breakfast! And I should warn you that in my day any woman who did that had to
be prepared to do a good deal more!”
She laughed breathlessly. “Oh,
Gereint, I would lie down with you in gladness any time you asked.”
For once, he seemed taken aback. “No
one has said that particular thing to me for a very long time,” he said after a
moment. “Thank you, child. But see to breakfast, and bring your brother to me instead.”
She was who she was, and
irrepressible.
“Gereint!” she exclaimed, in mock
astonishment.
“I knew you would say that!” he
growled. “Your father never did teach his children proper manners. That is not
amusing, Liane dal Ivor. Now go get your brother. He has just awakened.”
She left still giggling. “And
breakfast!” he shouted after her.
Only when he was quite sure she was
out of earshot did he allow himself to laugh. He laughed a long time, for he
was deeply pleased. He was back on the Plain where he’d never thought to be
again, once having ventured out over the waves. But he had, indeed, done what
he’d set out to do, and his soul had survived. And whatever had happened at
Celidon, it was not too bad, it could not be, or, even weakened as he was, he would
have known from the moment of his return.
So he laughed for several moments
and allowed himself—it wasn’t hard—to look forward to his meal.
Everything changed when Tabor came.
He entered the mind of the boy and saw what was happening to him, and then read
the tale of what the Seer had done in Khath Meigol. After that his food was
tasteless in his mouth, and there were ashes in his heart.
She walked in the garden behind the
domed Temple with the High Priestess—if, Sharra thought to herself, this tiny enclosure
could properly be said to constitute a garden. For one raised in Larai Rigal
and familiar with every pathway, waterfall, and spreading tree within its
walls, the question almost answered itself.
Still, there were unexpected
treasures here. She paused beside a bed of sylvain, silver and dusty rose. She
hadn’t known they grew so far south. There were none in Cathal; sylvain was
said to flourish only on the banks of Celyn Lake, by Daniloth. They were the
flower of the lios alfar. She said as much to Jaelle.
The Priestess glanced at the flowers
with only mild attention. “They were a gift,” she murmured. “A long time ago,
when Ra-Lathen wove the mist over Daniloth and the lios began the long
withdrawal. They sent us sylvain by which to remember them. They grow here, and
in the palace gardens as well. Not many, the soil is wrong or some such
thing—but there are always some of them, and these seem to have survived the
winter and the drought.”
Sharra looked at her. “It means
nothing to you, does it?” she said. “Does anything, I wonder?”
“In flowers?” Jaelle raised her
eyebrows. Then, after a pause, she said, “Actually, there were flowers that mattered: the ones outside Dun Maura when the snow began
to melt.”
Sharra remembered. They had been
red, bloodred for the sacrifice. Again she glanced at her companion. It was a
warm morning, but in her white robe Jaelle looked icily cool, and there was a
keen, cutting edge to her beauty. There was very little mildness or placidity
about Sharra herself, and the man she was to wed would carry all his life the
scar of a knife she’d thrown at him, but with Jaelle it was different, and
provoking.
“Of course,” the Princess of Cathal
murmured. “Those flowers would matter. Does anything else, though? Or does
absolutely everything have to circle back to the Goddess in order to reach
through to you?”
“Everything does circle back to her,” Jaelle said automatically. But then, after a
pause, she went on, impatiently. “Why does everyone ask me things like that?
What, exactly, do you all expect from the High Priestess of Dana?” Her eyes,
green as the grass in sunlight, held Sharra’s and challenged her.
In the face of that challenge,
Sharra began to regret having brought it up. She was still too impetuous; it
often took her out beyond her depth. She was, after all, a guest in the Temple.
“Well—” she began apologetically.
And got no further. “Really!” Jaelle
exclaimed. “I have no idea what people want of me. I am High Priestess. I have
power to channel, a Mormae to control—and Dana knows, with Audiart that takes
doing. I have rituals to preserve, counsel to give. With the High King away I
have a realm to govern with the Chancellor. How should I be other than I am?
What do you all want from me?”
Astonishingly, she had to turn away
toward the flowers, to hide her face. Sharra was bemused, and momentarily
moved, but she was from a country where subtlety of mind was a necessity for
survival, and she was the daughter and heir of the Supreme Lord of Cathal.
“It isn’t really me you’re talking
to, is it?” she asked quietly. “Who were the others?”
After a moment Jaelle, who had, it
seemed, courage to go with everything else, turned back to look at her. The
green eyes were dry, but there was a question in their depths.
They heard a footstep on the path.
“Yes, Leila?” Jaelle said, almost
before she turned. “What is it? And why do you continue to enter places where
you should not be?” The words were stern, but not, surprisingly, the tone.
Sharra looked at the thin girl with
the straight, fair hair who had screamed in real pain when the Wild Hunt flew.
There was some diffidence in Leila’s expression, but not a great deal.
“I am sorry,” she said. “But I
thought you would want to know. The Seer is in the cottage where Finn and his
mother stayed with the little one.”
Jaelle’s expression changed swiftly.
“Kim? Truly? You are tuned to the place itself, Leila?”
“I seem to be,” the girl replied
gravely, as if it were the most ordinary thing imaginable.
Jaelle looked at her for a long
time, and Sharra, only half understanding, saw pity in the eyes of the High
Priestess. “Tell me,” Jaelle asked the girl gently, “do you see Finn now? Where
he is riding?”
Leila shook her head. “Only when
they were summoned. I saw him then, though I could not speak to him. He was . .
. too cold. And where they are now it is too cold for me to follow.”
“Don’t try, Leila,” Jaelle said
earnestly. “Don’t even try.”
“It has nothing to do with trying,”
the girl said simply, and something in the words, the calm acceptance, stirred
pity in Sharra as well.
But it was to Jaelle that she spoke.
“If Kim is nearby,” she said, “can we go to her?”
Jaelle nodded. “I have things to
discuss with her.”
“Are there horses here? Let’s go.”
The High Priestess smiled thinly.
“As easily as that? There is,” she murmured with delicate precision, “a
distinction between independence and irresponsibility, my dear. You are your
father’s heir, and betrothed—or did you forget?—to the heir of Brennin. And I
am charged with half the governance of this realm. And—or did you forget that
too?—we are at war. There were svart alfar slain on that path a year ago. We
will have to arrange an escort for you if you intend to join me, Princess of
Cathal. Excuse me, if you will, while I tend to the details.”
And she brushed smoothly past Sharra
on the pebbled walkway.
Revenge, the Princess thought
ruefully. She had trespassed on very private terrain and had just paid the
price. Nor, she knew, was Jaelle wrong. Which only made the rebuke more
galling. Deep in thought, she turned and followed the High Priestess back into
the Temple.
In the end, it took a fair bit of
time to get the short expedition untracked and on the road to the lake, largely
because the preposterous fat man, Tegid, whom Diarmuid had elected as his
Intercedent in the matter of their marriage, refused to allow her to ride forth
without him, even in the care of the Priestess and a guard from both Brennin
and Cathal. And since there was only one horse in the capital large enough to
survive martyrdom under Tegid’s bulk, and that horse was quartered in the South
Keep barracks on the other side of Paras Derval . . .
It was almost noon before they got
under way, and as a consequence they were too late to do anything at all about
what happened.
In the small hours of that morning,
Kimberly, asleep in the cottage by the lake, crossed a narrow bridge over a
chasm filled with nameless, shapeless horrors, and when she stood on the other
side a figure approached her in the dream, and terror rose in her like a mutant
shape in that lonely, blighted place.
On her pallet in the cottage, never
waking, she tossed violently from side to side, one hand raised unconsciously
in rejection and denial. For the first and only time she fought her Seer’s
vision, struggling to change the image of the figure that stood there with her
on the farther side. To alter—not merely foresee—the loops spun into time on
the Loom. To no avail.
It was to dream this dream that
Ysanne had made Kim a Seer, had relinquished her own soul to do so. She had
said as much. There were no surprises here, only terror and renunciation,
helpless in the face of this vast inevitability.
In the cottage the sleeping figure
ceased her struggling; the uplifted, warding hand fell back. In the dream she
stood quietly on the far side of the chasm, facing what had come. This meeting
had been waiting for her from the beginning. It was as true as anything had
ever been true. And so now, with the dreaming of it, with the crossing of that
bridge, the ending had begun.
It was late in the morning when she
finally woke. After the dream she had fallen back into the deeper, healing
sleep her exhausted body so desperately needed. Now she lay in bed a little
while, looking at the sunlight that streamed in through the open windows,
deeply grateful for the small grace of rest in this place.
There were birds singing outside, and the breeze carried the scent of flowers.
She could hear the lake slapping against the rocks along the shore.
She rose and went out into the
brightness of the day. Down the familiar path she walked, to the broad flat
rock overhanging the lake where she had knelt when Ysanne threw a bannion into
the moonlit waters and summoned Eilathen to spin for her.
He was down there now, she knew,
deep in his halls of seaweed and stone, free of the binding flowerfire,
uncaring of what happened above the surface of his lake. She knelt and washed
her face in the cool, clean waters. She sat back on her heels and let the
sunlight dry the drops of water glistening on her cheeks. It was very quiet.
Far out over the lake a fishing bird swooped and then rose, caught by the
light, flashing away south.
She had stood on this shore once,
most of a lifetime ago, it seemed, throwing pebbles into the water, having fled
from the words Ysanne had spoken in the cottage. Under the cottage.
Her hair had still been brown then.
She had been an intern from Toronto, a stranger in another world. She was
white-haired now, and the Seer of Brennin, and on the far side of a chasm in
her dream she had seen a road stretching away, and someone had stood before her
on that road. Sparkling brilliantly, a speckled fish leaped from the lake. The
sun was high, too high; the Loom was shuttling even as she lingered by this
shore.
Kimberly rose and went back into the
cottage. She moved the table a little to one side. She laid her hand on the
floor and spoke a word of power.
There were ten steps leading down.
The walls were damp. There were no torches, but from below the well-remembered
pearly light still shone. On her finger the Baelrath began to glow in answer.
Then she reached the bottom and stood in the chamber again, with its woven
carpet, single desk, bed, chair, ancient books.
And the glass-doored cabinet on the
farther wall wherein lay the Circlet of Lisen, from which the shining came.
She walked over and opened the
cabinet doors. For a long time she stood motionless, looking down at the gold
of the Circlet band and the glowing stone set within: fairest creation of the
lios alfar, crafted by the Children of Light in love and sorrow for the fairest
child of all the Weaver’s worlds.
The Light against the Dark,
Ysanne had named it. It
had changed, Kim remembered her saying: the color of hope when it was made,
since Lisen’s death it shone more softly, and with loss. Thinking of Ysanne,
Kim felt her as a palpable presence; she had the illusion that if she hugged
herself, she’d be putting her arms about the frail body of the old Seer.
It was an illusion, nothing more,
but she remembered something else that was more than illusory: words of
Raederth, the mage Ysanne had loved and been loved by, the man who had found
the Circlet again, notwithstanding all the long years it had lain lost. Who wears this next, after Lisen,
Raederth had said, shall have the darkest road to walk of any child of
earth or stars.
The words she had heard in her
dream. Kim reached out a hand and with infinite care lifted the Circlet from
where it lay.
She heard a sound from the room
above.
Terror burst inside her, sharper
even than in the dream. For what had been only foreknowing then, and so removed
a little, was present, now, and above her. And the time had come.
She turned to face the stairway.
Keeping her voice as level as she could, knowing how dangerous it would be to
show fear, she said, “You can come down if you like. I’ve been waiting for
you.”
Silence. Her heart was thunder, a
drum. For a moment she saw the chasm again, the bridge, the road. Then there
were footsteps on the stairs.
Then Darien.
She had never seen him. She endured
a moment of terrible dislocation, over and above everything else. She knew
nothing of what happened in the glade of the Summer Tree. He was supposed to be
a child, even though a part of her had known he wasn’t, and couldn’t be. In the
dream he had been only a shadowed presence, ill defined, and a name she’d
learned in Toronto even before he was born. By the aura of the name she had
known him, and by another thing, which had been the deepest source of her
terror: his eyes had been red.
They were blue now and he seemed
very young, though he should have been even younger. So much younger. But
Jennifer’s child, born less than a year ago, stood before her, his eyes uneasy,
darting about the chamber, and he looked like any fifteen-year-old boy might
look—if any boy could be as beautiful as this one was, and carry as much power
within himself.
“How did you know I was here?” he
said abruptly. His voice was awkward, underused.
She tried to will her heartbeat to
slow; she needed to be calm, needed all her wits about her for this. “I heard
you,” she said.
“I thought I was being quiet.”
She managed to smile. “You were,
Darien. I have very good ears. Your mother used to wake me when she came in
late at night, however quiet she was.”
His eyes came to rest on hers for a
moment. “You know my mother?”
“I know her very well. I love her
dearly.”
He moved a couple of paces into the
room but stayed between her and the stairway. She wasn’t sure if it was to keep
an exit for himself or block it from her. He was looking around again.
“I never knew this room was here.”
The muscles of her back were corded
with tension. “It belonged to the woman who lived here before you,” she said.
“Why?” he challenged. “Who was she?
Why is it underground?” He was wearing a sweater and trousers and fawn-colored
boots. The sweater was brown, too warm for summer, and too large for him. It
would have been Finn’s, she realized. All the clothing was. Her mouth was dry.
She wet her lips with her tongue.
“She was a very wise woman, and she
had many things she loved in this room, so she kept it hidden to guard them.”
The Circlet lay in her hand; it was slender and delicate, almost no weight at
all, yet she felt as if she carried the weight of worlds.
“What things?” said Darien.
And so the time, truly, was upon
them.
“This,” said Kim, holding it out to
him. “And it is for you, Darien. It was meant for you. It is the Circlet of
Lisen.” Her voice trembled a little. She paused. He was silent, watching her,
waiting. She said, “It is the Light against the Dark.”
Her voice failed her. The high,
heroic words went forth into the little chamber and fell away into silence.
“Do you know who I am?” asked
Darien. His hands had closed at his side. He took another step toward her. “Do
you know who my father is?”
So much terror. But she had dreamt
this. It was his. She nodded. “I do,” she whispered. And because she thought
she had heard a diffidence in his voice, not a challenge, she said, “And I know
your mother was stronger than him.” She didn’t, really, but that was the
prayer, the hope, the gleam of light she held. “He wanted her to die, so you
wouldn’t be born.”
He withdrew the one step he had
advanced. Then he laughed a little, a lonely, terrible laugh. “I didn’t know
that,” he said. “Cernan asked why I was allowed to live. I heard him. Everyone
seems to agree.” His hands were opening and closing spasmodically.
“Not everyone,” she said. “Not
everyone, Darien. Your mother wanted you to be born. Desperately.” She had to
be so careful. It mattered so much. “Paul—Pwyll, the one who stayed with you
here—he risked his life guarding her and bringing her to Vae’s house the night
you were born.”
Darien’s expression changed, as if
his face had slammed shut against her. “He slept in Finn’s bed,” he said
flatly. Accusingly.
She said nothing. What could she
say?
“Give it to me,” he said.
What could she do? It all seemed so
inevitable, now that the time had come. Who but this child should walk the
Darkest Road? He was already on it. No other’s loneliness would ever run so
deep, no other’s dangerousness be so absolute.
Wordlessly, for no words could be
adequate to the moment, she stepped forward, the Circlet in her hands.
Instinctively he retreated, a hand raised to strike her. But then he lowered
his arm, and stood very still, and suffered her to place it about his brow.
He was not even as tall as she. She
didn’t have to reach up. It was easy to fit the golden band over his golden
hair and close the delicate clasp. It was easy; it had been dreamt; it was
done.
And the moment the clasp was fitted
the light of the Circlet went out.
A sound escaped him; a torn,
wordless cry. The room was suddenly dark, lit only by the red glow of the
Baelrath, which yet burned, and the thin light that streamed down the stairs
from the room above.
Then Darien made another sound, and
this time it was laughter. Not the lost laugh of before, this was harsh,
strident, uncontrolled. “Mine?” he cried. “The Light against the Dark? Oh, you
fool! How should the son of Rakoth Maugrim carry such a light? How should it
ever shine for me?”
Kim’s hands were against her mouth.
There was so much unbridled torment in his voice. Then he moved, and her fear
exploded. It doubled, redoubled itself, outstripped any measure she’d ever had,
for by the light of the Warstone she saw his eyes flash red. He gestured,
nothing more than that, but she felt it as a blow that drove her to the ground.
Thrusting past her, he strode to the cabinet against the wall.
In which lay the last object of
power. The last thing Ysanne had seen in her life. And lying on the ground,
helpless at his feet, Kim saw Rakoth’s son take Lokdal, the dagger of the
Dwarves, and claim it for his own.
“No!” she gasped. “Darien, the
Circlet is yours, but not the dagger. It is not for you to take. You know not
what it is.”
He laughed again and drew the blade
from its jeweled sheath. A sound like a plucked harpstring filled the room. He
looked at the gleaming blue thieren running along the blade and said, “I do not
need to know. My father will. How should I go to him without a gift, and what sort
of gift would this dead stone of Lisen’s make? If the very light turns away
from me, at least I now know where I belong.”
He was past her then, and by the
stairs; he was climbing them and leaving, with the Circlet lifeless upon his
brow and Colan’s dagger in his hand.
“Darien!” Kim cried with the voice
of her heart’s pain. “He wanted you dead. It was your mother who fought to let
you be born!”
No response. Footsteps across the
floor above. A door opening, and closing. With the Circlet gone the Baelrath slowly
grew dim, so it was quite dark in the chamber below the cottage, and in the
darkness Kim wept for the loss of light.
When they came an hour later, she
was by the lake again, very deep in thought. The sound of the horses startled
her, and she rose quickly to her feet, but then she saw long red hair and
midnight black, and she knew who had come and was glad.
She walked forward along the curve
of the shore to meet them. Sharra, who was a friend and had been from the first
day they’d met, dismounted the instant her horse came to a stop, and enfolded
Kim in a fierce embrace.
“Are you all right?” she asked. “Did
you do it?”
The events of the morning were so
vivid that for a moment Kim didn’t realize it was Khath Meigol that Sharra was
talking about. The last time the Princess of Cathal had seen her, Kim had been
preparing to leave for the mountains.
She managed a nod and a small smile,
though it was difficult. “I did,” she said. “I did what I went to do.”
She left it at that for the moment.
Jaelle had dismounted as well and stood a little way apart, waiting. She looked
as she always did, cool and withdrawn, formidable. But Kim had shared a moment
with her in the Temple in Gwen Ystrat on the eve of Maidaladan so, walking
over, she gave the Priestess a hug and a quick kiss on the cheek. Jaelle stood
rigid for an instant; then, awkwardly, her arms went around Kim in a brief,
transient gesture that nonetheless conveyed a great deal.
Kim stepped back. She knew her eyes
were red from weeping, but there was no point in dissembling, not with Jaelle.
She was going to need help, not least of all in deciding what to do.
“I’m glad you’re here,” she said
quietly. “How did you know?”
“Leila,” Jaelle said. “She’s still
tuned to this cottage, where Finn was. She told us you were here.”
Kim nodded. “Anything else? Did she
say anything else?”
“Not this morning. Did something
happen?”
“Yes,” Kim whispered. “Something
happened. We’ve a lot to catch each other up on. Where’s Jennifer?”
The other two women exchanged
glances. It was Sharra who answered. “She went with Brendel to the Anor Lisen
when the ship sailed.”
Kim closed her eyes. So many
dimensions to sorrow. Would there ever be an ending?
“Do you want to go into the
cottage?” Jaelle asked.
She shook her head quickly. “No. Not
inside. Let’s stay out here.” Jaelle gave her a searching look and then,
without fuss, gathered her white robe and sat down on the stony beach. Kim and
Sharra followed suit. A little distance away the men of Cathal and Brennin were
watchfully arrayed. Tegid of Rhoden, prodigious in brown and gold, walked
toward the three of them.
“My lady,” he said, with a deep bow
to Sharra, “how may I serve you on behalf of my Prince?”
“Food,” she answered crisply. “A clean
cloth, and a lunch to spread upon it.”
“Instantly!” he exclaimed and bowed
again, not entirely steady on the loose stones of the shoreline. He wheeled,
and scrunched his way over the beach to find them provisions. Sharra looked
sideways at Kim, who had an eyebrow raised in frank curiosity.
“A new conquest?” Kim asked with
some of her old teasing, the tone she sometimes thought she’d lost forever.
Sharra, surprisingly, blushed.
“Well, yes, I suppose. But not him. Um . . . Diarmuid proposed marriage to me
before Prydwen sailed. Tegid is his Intercedent.
He’s looking after me, and so—”
She got no further, having been
comprehensively enveloped in a second embrace. “Oh, Sharra!” Kim exclaimed.
“That’s the nicest news I’ve heard in I don’t know how long!”
“I suppose,” Jaelle murmured dryly.
“But I thought we had more pressing matters to discuss than matrimonial
tidings. And we still don’t have any news of the ship.”
“Yes, we do,” said Kim quickly. “We
know they got there, and we know they won a battle.”
“Oh, Dana be praised!” Jaelle said,
suddenly sounding very young, all cynicism stripped away. Sharra was
speechless. “Tell us,” the High Priestess said. “How do you know?”
Kim began the story with her capture
in the mountains: with Ceriog and Faebur and Dalreidan and the death rain over
Eridu. Then she told them of seeing that dread rain come to an end the morning
before, of seeing sunshine to the east and so knowing that Metran on Cader
Sedat had been stopped.
She paused a moment, for Tegid had
returned with two soldiers in his wake, carrying armloads of food and drink. It
took a few minutes for things to be arranged in a fashion that, to his critical
eye, was worthy of the Princess of Cathal. When the three men had withdrawn,
Kina took a deep breath and spoke of Khath Meigol, of Tabor and
Imraith-Nimphais, of the rescue of the Paraiko and the last kanior, and then,
at the end, very softly, of what she and her ring had done to the Giants.
When she finished it was quiet on
the shore again. Neither of the other women spoke. They were both familiar with
power, Kim knew, in a great many of its shadings, but what she had just told
them, what she had done, had to be alien and almost impossible to grasp.
She felt very alone. Paul, she
thought, might have understood, for his too was a lonely path. Then, almost as
if reading her thoughts, Sharra reached out and squeezed her hand. Kim squeezed
back and said, “Tabor told me that the Aven and all the Dalrei rode to Celidon
three nights ago to meet an army of the Dark. I have no idea what happened.
Neither did Tabor.”
“We do,” Jaelle said.
And in her turn she told of what had
happened two evenings before, when Leila had screamed in anguish at the
summoning of the Wild Hunt, and through her link every priestess in the
sanctuary had heard Green Ceinwen’s voice as she mastered Owein and drew him
from his kill.
It was Kim’s turn to be silent,
absorbing this. There was still one thing left to be told, though, and so at
length she said, “I’m afraid something else has happened.”
“Who was here this morning?” Jaelle
asked with unnerving anticipation.
It was beautiful where they were
sitting. The summer air was mild and clean, the sky and lake were a brilliant
blue. There were birds and flowers, and a soft breeze off the water. There was
a glass of cool wine in her hand.
“Darien,” she said. “I gave him the
Circlet of Lisen. Ysanne had it hidden here. The light went out when he put it
on, and he stole Colan’s dagger, Lokdal, which le’d also had in the cottage.
Then he left. He said he was going to his father.”
It was unfair of her, she knew, to
put it so baldly.
Jaelle’s face had gone bone white
with the impact of what she’d just said, but Kim knew that it wouldn’t have
mattered how she’d told it. How could she cushion the impact of the morning’s
terror? What shelter could there be?
The breeze was still blowing. There
were flowers, green grass, the lake, the summer sun. And fear, densely woven,
at the very root of everything, threatening to take it all away: across a
chasm, along a shadowed road, north to the heart of evil.
“Who,” asked Sharra of Cathal, “is
Darien? And who is his father?”
Amazingly, Kim had forgotten. Paul
and Dave knew about Jennifer’s child, and Jaelle and the Mormae of Owen Ystrat.
Vae, of course, and Finn, though he too was gone now. Leila, probably, who
seemed to know everything connected in any way to Finn. No one else knew: not
Loren or Aileron, Arthur or Ivor, or even Gereint.
She looked at Jaelle and received a
look back, equally doubtful, equally anxious. Then she nodded, and after a
moment the High Priestess did as well. And so they told Sharra the whole story,
sitting on the shore of Eilathen’s lake.
And when it was done, when Kim had
spoken of the rape and the premature birth, of Vae and Finn, when Jaelle had
told them both Paul’s story of what had happened in the glade of the Summer
Tree, and Kim had ended the telling with the red flash of Darien’s eyes that
morning and the effortless power that had knocked her sprawling, Sharra of
Cathal rose to her feet. She walked a few quick steps away and stood a moment,
gazing out over the water. Then she wheeled to face Kim and Jaelle again.
Looking down on the two of them, at the bleak apprehension in their faces,
Sharra, whose dreams since she was a girl had been of herself as a falcon
flying alone, cried aloud, “But this is terrible! That poor child! No one else
in any world can be so lonely.”
It carried. Kim saw the soldiers
glance over at them from farther along the shore. Jaelle made a queer sound,
between a gasp and a breathless laugh. “Really,” she began. “Poor child? I
don’t think you’ve quite understood—”
“No,” Kim interrupted, laying an
urgent hand on Jaelle’s arm. “No, wait. She isn’t wrong.” Even as she spoke,
she was reliving the scene under the cottage, scanning it again, trying to see
past her terrified awareness of who this child’s father was. And as she looked
back, straining to remember, she heard again the sound that had escaped him
when Lisen’s Light had gone out.
And this time, removed from it, with
Sharra’s words to guide her, Kim heard clearly what she’d missed before: the
loneliness, the terrible sense of rejection in that bewildered cry wrung from
the soul of this boy—only a boy, they had
to remember that—who
had no one and nothing, and nowhere to turn. And from whom the very light had
turned away, as if in denial and abhorrence.
He’d actually said that, she
remembered now. He’d said as much to her, but in her fear she’d registered only
the terrible threat that followed: he was going to his father bearing gifts.
Gifts of entreaty, she now realized, of supplication, of longing for a place,
from the most solitary soul there was.
From Darien, on the Darkest Road.
Kim stood up. Sharra’s words had
crystallized things for her, finally, and she had thought of the one tiny thing
she could do. A desperate hope it was, but it was all they had. For although it
might still be proven true that it was the armies and a battlefield that would
end things one way or the other, Kim knew that there were too many other powers
arrayed for that to be a certainty.
And she was one of the powers, and
another was the boy she’d seen that morning. She glanced over at the soldiers,
concerned for a moment, but only for a moment; it was too late for absolute
secrecy, the game was too far along, and too much was riding on what would
follow. So she stepped forward a little, off the stony shoreline onto the grass
running up to the front door of the cottage.
Then she lifted her voice and cried,
“Darien, I know you can hear me! Before you go where you said you would go, let
me tell you this: your mother is standing now in a tower west of Pendaran
Wood.” That was all. It was all she had left: a scrap of information given to
the wind. After the shouting, a very great silence, made deeper, not broken, by
the waves on the shore. She felt a little ridiculous, knowing how it must
appear to the soldiers. But dignity meant less than nothing now; only the
reaching out mattered, the casting of her voice with her heart behind it, with
the one thing that might get through to him.
But there was only silence. From the
trees east of the cottage a white owl, roused from daytime slumber, rose
briefly at her cry, then settled again deeper in the woods. Still, she was
fairly certain, and she trusted her instincts by now, having had so little else
to guide her for so long; Darien was still there. He was drawn to this place,
and held by it, and if he was nearby he could hear her. And if he heard?
She didn’t know what he would do.
She only knew that if anyone, anywhere, could hold him from that journey to his
father, it was Jennifer in her tower. With her burdens and her griefs, and her
insistence, from the start, that her child was to be random. But he couldn’t be left so anymore, Kim told herself. Surely Jennifer would
see that? He was on his way to Starkadh, comfortless and lonely. Surely his
mother would forgive Kim this act of intervention?
Kim turned back to the others.
Jaelle was on her feet as well, standing very tall, composed, very much aware
of what had just been done. She said, “Should we warn her? What will she do if
he goes to her?”
Kim felt suddenly weary and fragile.
She said, “I don’t know. I don’t know if he’ll go there. He might. I think
Sharra’s right, though, he’s looking for a place. As to warning her—I have no
idea how. I’m sorry.”
Jaelle drew a careful breath. “I can
take us there.”
“How?” said Sharra. “How can you do
that?”
“With the avarlith and blood,” the
High Priestess of Dana replied in a quieter, different tone of voice. “A great
deal of each.”
Kim looked at her searchingly.
“Should you, though? Shouldn’t you stay in the Temple?”
Jaelle shook her head. “I’ve been
uneasy there these past few days, which has never happened before. I think the
Goddess has been preparing me for this.”
Kim looked down at the Baelrath on
her finger, at its quiescent, powerless flickering. No help there. Sometimes
she hated the ring with a frightening intensity. She looked up at the other
women.
“She’s right,” Sharra said calmly.
“Jennifer will need warning, if he is going to her.”
“Or comfort, afterward, if nothing
else,” Jaelle said, surprisingly. “Seer, decide quickly! We will have to ride
back to the Temple to do this, and time is the one thing we do not have.”
“There are a lot of things we don’t
have,” Kim amended, almost absently. But she was nodding her head, even as she
spoke.
They had brought an extra horse for
her. Later that afternoon, under the Dome of the Temple, before the altar with
the axe, Jaelle spoke words of power and of invocation. She drew blood from
herself—a great deal in fact, as she had warned—then she linked to the Mormae
in Gwen Ystrat, and in concert the inner circle of the
priestesses of Dana reached down into the earthroot for power of the Mother
great enough to send three women a long way off, to a stony shore by an ocean,
not a lake.
It didn’t take very long by any
measure of such things, but even so, by the time they arrived the gathering
storm was very nearly upon them all, and the wind and the waves were wild.
Even in the owl shape the Circlet
fitted about his head. He had to hold the dagger in his mouth, though, and that
was tiring. He let it drop into the grass at the base of his tree. Nothing
would come to take it. All the other animals in the copse of trees were afraid
of him by now. He could kill with his eyes.
He had learned that just two nights
before, when a field mouse he was hunting had been on the verge of escaping
under the rotted wood of the barn. He had been hungry and enraged. His eyes had
flashed—he always knew when they did, even though he couldn’t entirely control
them—and the mouse had sizzled and died.
He’d done it three times more that
night, even though he was no longer hungry. There was some pleasure in the
power, and a certain compulsion too. That part he didn’t really understand. He
supposed it came from his father.
Late the next night he’d been
falling asleep in his own form, or the form he’d taken for himself a week ago,
and as he drifted off a memory had come back, halfway to a dream. He recalled
the winter that had passed, and the voices in the storm that had called him
every night. He’d felt the same compulsion then, he remembered. A desire to go
outside in the cold and play with the wild voices amid the blowing snow.
He didn’t hear the voices anymore.
They weren’t calling him. He wondered—it was a difficult thought—if they had
stopped calling because he had already come to them. As a boy, so little time
ago, when the voices were calling he used to try to fight them. Finn had
helped. He used to pad across the cold floor of the cottage and crawl into bed
with Finn, and that had made everything right. There was no one to make
anything right anymore. He could kill with his eyes, and Finn was gone.
He had fallen asleep on that
thought, in the cave high up in the hills north of the cottage. And in the
morning he’d seen the white-haired woman walk down the path to stand by the
lake. Then, when she’d gone back in, he’d followed her, and she’d called him,
and he’d gone down the stairs he’d never known were there.
She’d been afraid of him too.
Everyone was. He could kill with his eyes. But she’d spoken quietly to him and
smiled, once. He hadn’t had anyone smile at him for a long time. Not since he’d
left the glade of the Summer Tree in this new, older shape he couldn’t get used
to.
And she knew his mother, his real
mother. The one Finn had told him had been like a queen, and had loved him,
even though she’d had to go away. She’d made him special, Finn had said, and
he’d said something else . . . about having to be good, so Darien would deserve
the being special. Something like that. It was becoming harder to remember. He
wondered, though, why she had made him able to kill so easily, and to want to
kill sometimes.
He’d thought about asking the
white-haired woman about that, but he was uncomfortable now in the enclosed
spaces of the cottage, and he was afraid to tell her about the killing. He was
afraid she would hate him and go.
Then she’d showed him the Light and
she’d said it was meant for him. Hardly daring to believe it, because it was so
very beautiful, he’d let her put it on his brow. The Light against the Dark,
she called it, and as she spoke Darien remembered another thing Finn had told
him, about having to hate the Dark and the voices in the storm that came from
the Dark. And now, astonishingly, it seemed that even though he was the son of
Rakoth Maugrim he was being given a jewel of Light.
And then it went out.
Only Finn’s going away had ever hurt
as much. He felt the same emptiness, the same hollow sense of loss. And then,
in the midst of it, because of it, he’d felt his eyes readying themselves to go
red, and then they did. He didn’t kill her. He could have, easily, but he only
knocked her down and went to take the other shining thing he’d seen in that
room. He didn’t know why he took it or what it was. He just took it.
Only when he was turning to go and
she tried to stop him did it come to him how he could hurt her as much as she’d
hurt him, and so, in that moment, he’d decided be was going to take the dagger
to his father. His voice had sounded cold and strong to his own ears, and he’d
seen her face go white just before he left the room and went outside and made
himself into an owl again.
Later in the day other people had
come, and he’d watched them from his tree in the woods east of the cottage.
He’d seen the three women talking by the lake, though he couldn’t hear what
they said, and he was too afraid, in the owl shape, to go nearer.
But then one of them, the one with
dark hair, had stood up and had cried, loudly enough for him to hear, “That
poor child! No one else in any world can be so lonely!” and he knew that she
was speaking of him. He wanted to go down then, but he was still afraid. He was
afraid that his eyes would want to turn red, and he wouldn’t know how to stop
them. Or to stop what he did when they were that way.
So he waited, and a moment later the
one with white hair walked forward a little, toward him, and she called out to
him by name.
The part of him that was an owl was
so startled that he flew a few wingbeats, out of sheer reflex, before he was
able to control himself again. And then he heard her tell him where his mother
was.
That was all. A moment later they
went away. He was alone again. He stayed in the tree, in the owl form, trying
to decide what to do.
She had been like a queen, Finn had
said. She had loved him.
He flew down and took hold of the
dagger again in his mouth, and then he started to fly. The part of him that was
an owl didn’t want to fly in the day, but he was more than an owl, much more.
It was hard to carry the dagger, but he managed it.
He flew north, but only for a little
way. West of Pendaran Wood, the white-haired one had said. He knew where that
was, though he didn’t know how he knew. Gradually he began to angle his flight
northwest.
He went very fast. A storm was
coming.
In the place where they were
going—all of them, the Wolflord running in his wolf shape, Darien flying as an
owl with a blade in his mouth, the three women sent from the Temple by the
power of Dana—Jennifer stood on Lisen’s balcony gazing out to sea, her hair
blown back by the freshening wind.
So still was she that save for the
eyes restlessly scanning the white-capped waves, she might have been the
figurehead at the prow of a ship and not a living woman waiting at the edge of
land for that ship to come home. They were a long way north from Taerlindel,
she knew, and a part of her wondered about that. But it was here that Lisen had
waited for a ship to return from Cader Sedat, and deep within herself Jennifer
felt an awareness, a certainty, that this was where she should be. And embedded
within that certainty, as a weed in a garden, was a growing sense of
foreboding.
The wind was southwest, and ever
since the morning had .turned to afternoon it had been getting stronger. Never
taking her eyes from the sea, she moved back from the low parapet and sat down
in the chair they had brought out for her. She ran her fingers along the
polished wood. It had been made, Brendel had said, by craftsmen of the Brein
Mark in Daniloth, long before even the Anor was built.
Brendel was here with her, and
Flidais as well, familiar spirits never far from her side, never speaking
unless she spoke to them. The part of her that was still Jennifer Lowell, and
had taken pleasure in riding horses and teasing her roommate, and had loved Kevin
Laine for his wit as well as his tenderness, rebelled against this weighty
solemnity. But she had been kidnapped after riding a horse a year ago, and Kim
was white-haired now and a Seer with her own weight to carry, and Kevin was
dead. And she herself was Guinevere, and Arthur was here, drawn back again to
war against the Dark, and he was everything he had ever been. He had broken
through the walls she had raised about herself since Starkadh, and had set her
free in the bright arc of an afternoon, and then had sailed away to a place of
death.
She knew too much about his destiny
and her own bitter role in that to ever truly be lighthearted again. She was
the lady of the sorrows and the instrument of punishment, and there was little
she could do, it seemed, about either of them. Her foreboding grew, and the
silence began to oppress her. She turned to Flidais. As she did, her child was
just then flying across the Wyth Llewen River in the heart of the Wood, coming
to her.
“Will you tell me a story?” she
asked. “While I watch?”
The one she’d known as Taliesin at
Arthur’s court, and who was now beside her in his truer, older shape, drew a
curved pipe from his mouth, blew a circle of smoke along the wind, and smiled.
“What story?” he asked. “What would
you hear, Lady?”
She shook her head. She didn’t want
to have to think. “Anything.” She shrugged. Then, after a pause, “Tell me about
the Hunt. Kim and Dave set them free, I know that much. How were they bound?
Who were they, Flidais?”
Again he smiled, and there was more
than a little pride in his voice, “I will tell you, all of what you ask. And I
doubt there is a living creature in Fionavar, now that the Paraiko are dead and
haunting Khath Meigol, who would know the story rightly.”
She gave him an ironic, sidelong glance.
“You did know all the stories, didn’t you? All of them, vain child.”
“I know the stories, and the answers
to all the riddles in all the worlds save—” He broke off abruptly.
Brendel, watching with interest, saw
the andain of the forest flush a deep, surprising red. When Flidais resumed it
was a different tone, and as he spoke Jennifer turned back to the waves,
listening and watching, a figurehead again.
“I had this from Ceinwen and Cernan
a very long time ago,” Flidais said, his deep voice cutting through the sound
of the wind. “Not even the andain were in Fionavar when this world was spun
into time, first of the Weaver’s worlds. The lios alfar were not yet on the
Loom, nor the Dwarves, nor the tall men from oversea, nor those east of the
mountains or in the sunburnt lands south of Cathal.
“The gods and the goddesses, given
their names and powers by grace of the Weaver’s hands, were here. There were
animals in the woods, and the woods were vast then; there were fish in the
lakes and rivers and the wide sea, and birds in the wider sky. And in the sky
as well there flew the Wild Hunt, and in the forests and the valleys and across
rivers and up the mountain slopes there walked the Paraiko in the young years
of the world, naming what they saw.
“By day the Paraiko walked and the
Hunt were at rest, but at night, when the moon rose, Owein and the seven kings
and the child who rode Iselen, palest of the shadow horses, mounted up into the
starry sky, and they hunted the beasts of woods and open spaces until dawn, filling
the night with the wild terrible beauty of their cries and their hunting
horns.”
“Why?” Brendel could not forebear to
ask. “Do you know why, forest one? Do you know why the Weaver spun their
killing into the Tapestry?”
“Who shall know the design on the
Loom?” Flidais said soberly. “But this much I had from Cernan of the Beasts:
the Hunt was placed in the Tapestry to be wild in the truest sense, to lay down
an uncontrolled thread for the freedom of the Children who came after. And so
did the Weaver lay a constraint upon himself, that not even he, shuttling at
the Loom of Worlds, may preordain and shape exactly what is to be. We who came
after, the andain who are the children of gods, the lios alfar, the Dwarves,
and all the races of men, we have such choices as we have, some freedom to
shape our own destinies, because of that wild thread of Owein and the Hunt
slipping across the Loom, warp and then weft, in turn and at times. They are
there, Cernan told me one night long ago, precisely to be wild, to cut across
the Weaver’s measured will. To be random, and so enable us to be.”
He stopped, because the green eyes
of Guinevere had turned back to him from the sea, and there was that within
them which stilled his tongue.
“Was that Cernan’s word?” she asked.
“Random?”
He thought back carefully, for the
look on her face demanded care, and it had been a very long time ago. “It was,”
he said at length, understanding that it mattered, but not why. “He said it
exactly so, Lady. The Weaver wove the Hunt and set them free on the Loom, that
we, in our turn, might have a freedom of our own because of them. Good and
evil, Light and Dark, they are in all the worlds of the Tapestry because Owein
and the kings are here, following the child on Iselen, threading across the sky.”
She had turned fully away from the
sea to face him now. He could not read her eyes; he had never been able to read
her eyes. She said, “And so, because of the Hunt, Rakoth was made possible.”
It was not a question. She had seen
through to the deepest, bitterest part of the story. He answered withwhat
Cernan and Ceinwen had said to him, the only thing that could be said. “He is
the price we pay.”
After a pause, and a little more
loudly because of the wind, he added, “He is not in the Tapestry. Because of
the randomness of the Hunt, the Loom itself was no longer sacrosanct; it was no
longer all. So Maugrim was able to come from outside of it, from outside of
time and the walls of Night that bind all the rest of us, even the gods, and
enter into Fionavar and so into all the worlds. He is here but he is not part
of the Tapestry; he has never done anything that would bind him into it and so
he cannot die, even if everything on the Loom should unravel and all our
threads be lost.”
This part Brendel had known, though
never before how it had come to pass. Sick at heart, he looked at the woman
sitting beside them, and as he gazed, he read a thought in her. He was not
wiser than Flidais, nor had he even known her so long, but he had tuned his
soul to her service since the night she’d been stolen from his care, and he
said, “Jennifer, if all this is true, if the Weaver put a check on his own
shaping of our destinies, it would follow—surely it would follow—that the
Warrior’s doom is not irrevocable.”
It was her own burgeoning thought, a
hint, a kernel of brightness in the darkness that surrounded her. She looked at
him, not smiling, not venturing so much; but with a softening of the lines of
her face and a catch in her voice that made him ache, she said, “I know. I have
been thinking that. Oh, my friend, could it be? I felt a difference when I
first saw him—I did! There was no one here who was Lancelot in the way that I
was Guinevere, waiting to remember my story. I told him so. There are only the
two of us this time.”
He saw a brightness in her face, a
hint of color absent since Prydwen had set sail, and it seemed to bring
her back, in all her beauty, from the realm of statues and icons to that of
living women who could love, and dared hope.
Better, far better, the lios alfar
would think bitterly, later that night, unsleeping by the Anor, that she had
never allowed herself that unsheathing of her heart.
“Shall I go on?” Flidais said, with
a hint of the asperity proper to an upstaged storyteller.
“Please,” she murmured kindly,
turning back to him. But then, as he began the tale again, she fixed her gaze
once more out to sea. Sitting so, she listened to him tell of how the Hunt had
lost the young one, Iselen’s rider, on the night they moved the moon. She tried
to pay attention as his deep cadences rode over the wind to recount how Connla,
mightiest of the Paraiko, had agreed to shape the spells that would lay the
Hunt to rest until another one was born who could take the Longest Road with
them—the Road that ran between the worlds and the stars.
However hard she tried, though, she
could not entirely school her thoughts, for the andain’s earlier explanation
had reached into her heart, and not just in the way Brendel had discerned. The
question of randomness, of the Weaver’s gift of choice to his Children, touched
Arthur’s woven doom with a possibility of expiation she’d never really allowed
herself to dream about before. But there was something else in what Flidais had
said. Something that went beyond their own long tragedy in all its returnings,
and this the lios alfar had not seen, and Flidais knew nothing at all of it.
Jennifer did, though, and she held
it close to her rapidly beating heart. Random,
Cernan of the Beasts
had said of the Wild Hunt and the choice they embodied. It was her own word.
Her own instinctive word for her response to Maugrim. For her child, and his
choice.
She looked out to sea, searching.
The wind was very strong now, and there were storm clouds coming up fast. She
forced herself to keep her features calm as she gazed, but inwardly she was as
open, as exposed, as she had ever been.
And in that moment Darien landed
near the rivet, at the edge of the trees, and took his human form again.
The sound of thunder was distant yet
and the clouds were still far out at sea. But it was a southwest wind that was
carrying the storm, and when the light began to change the weather-wise lios
alfar grew uneasy. He took Jennifer’s hand, and the three of them withdrew into
the high chamber. Flidais rolled the curved glass windows shut along their
tracks. They sealed tightly, and in the abrupt silence Brendel saw the andain
suddenly tilt his head, as if hearing something.
He was. The howl of wind on the
balcony had screened from him the alarms running through the Great Wood. There
was an intruder. There were two: one was here, even now, and the other was
coming and would arrive very soon.
The one who was coming he knew, and
feared, for it was his own lord, lord of all the andain and mightiest of them,
but the other one, the one standing below them at this moment, he knew not, nor
did the powers of the Wood, and it frightened them. In their fear they grew
enraged, and he could feel that rage now as a buffeting greater than the wind
on the balcony.
Be calm, he sent inwardly, though he was
anything but calm himself. I will
go down. I will deal with this.
To the others, to the lios alfar and
the woman he’d known as Guinevere, he said grimly, “Someone has come, and
Galadan is on his way to this place even now.”
He saw a look pass between the two
of them, and he felt the tightening of tension in the room. He thought they
were mirroring his own anxiety, knowing nothing of the memory they shared of
the Wolflord in a wood east of Paras Derval a little more than a year ago.
“Are you expecting anyone?” he
demanded. “Who would follow you here?”
“Who could follow us
here?” Brendel replied quickly. There was suddenly a new brightness to the
lios, as if he had shed a cloak and his true nature was shining through. “No
one has come by sea; we would have seen them—and how could anyone pass through
the forest?”
“Someone stronger than the Wood,”
Flidais replied, vexed at the hint of apprehension that reached his voice.
Brendel was already by the
stairwell. “Jennifer, wait here. We will go down and deal with this. Lock the
door after us, and open only to one of our voices.” He loosened his short sword
in its scabbard as he spoke, then turned to Flidais, “How long before Galadan
arrives?”
The andain sent the query out to the
Wood and relayed the answer back, “Half an hour, perhaps less. He is running
very fast, in his wolf shape.”
“Will you help me?” Brendel asked
him directly.
This was, of course, the question.
The andain rarely cared for the affairs of mortals, and even more rarely
intervened in them. But Flidais had a purpose here, his oldest, deepest
purpose, and so he temporized. “I will go down with you. I told the forest I
would see who this was.”
Jennifer had gone very pale again,
Brendel saw, but her hands were steady and her head very high, and once more he
marveled at her sheer, unwavering courage as she said, “I will come down.
Whoever is here has come because of me; it may be a friend.”
“It may not be,” Brendel replied
gravely.
“Then I should be no safer in this
room,” she answered calmly, and paused at the head of the curving stairs
waiting for him to lead her down. One more moment he hesitated, then his eyes
went green, exactly the color of her own. He took her hand and brought it to
his forehead and then his lips before turning to descend, sword drawn now, his
tread quick and light on the stone stairs. She followed, and Flidais behind
her, his mind racing with calculations, boiling over with considerations and
possibilities and a frantically stifled excitement.
They saw Darien standing by the river
as soon as they stepped out onto the beach.
The wind carried lashings of sea
spray that stung when they struck, and the sky had grown darker even in the
moments of their descent. It was purple now, shot through with streaks of red,
and thunder was rolling out at sea beyond the rising waves.
But for Brendel of the lios alfar,
who immediately recognized who had come, none of this even registered. Quickly
he spun around, to fling some warning to Jennifer, to give her time to prepare
herself. Then he saw from her expression that she didn’t need his warning. She
knew, already, who this boy standing before them was. He looked at her face,
wet now with ocean spray, and stepped aside as she moved forward toward the
river where Darien stood.
Flidais came up beside him, droplets
of spray glittering on his bald head, an avid curiosity in his face. Brendel
became aware of the sword he carried, and he sheathed it silently. Then he and
the andain watched mother and child come together for the first time since the
night Darien was born.
An overwhelming awareness filled
Brendel’s mind of how many things might lie in the balance here. He would never
forget that afternoon by the Summer Tree, and the words of Cernan: Why was he allowed to live? He thought of that, he thought of
Pwyll, far out at sea, and he was conscious every moment of Cernan’s son,
running toward them even now, as fast as the gathering storm and more
dangerous.
He looked down at the andain beside
him, not trusting the vivid, inquisitive brightness in Flidais’ eyes. But what,
after all, could he do? He could stand by, apprehensive and ready; he could die
in Jennifer’s defense, if it came to that; he could watch.
And, watching, he saw Darien step
cautiously forward away from the riverbank. As the boy came nearer, Brendel saw
some sort of circlet about his brow, with a dark gem enclosed within it, and
deep in his mind a chime sounded, crystal on crystal, a warning from memories
not his own. He reached back toward them, but even as he did he saw the boy
hold out a sheathed dagger toward his mother, and as Darien spoke, Brendel’s
memories were wiped away by the urgent demands of the present.
“Will you . . . will you take a
gift?” he heard. It seemed to him as if the boy were poised to take sudden
flight at a breath, at the fall of a leaf. He held himself very still and,
disbelieving, heard Jennifer’s reply.
“Is it yours to give?” There was ice
in her voice, and steel. Hard and cold and carrying, her tone knifed through
the wind, sharp as the dagger her son was offering her.
Confused, unprepared, Darien
stumbled back. The blade fell from his fingers. Aching for him, for both of
them, Brendel kept silence though his whole being was crying out to Jennifer to
be careful, to be gentle, to do whatever she had to do to hold the boy and
claim him.
There was a sound from behind him.
Quickly he glanced back, his hand gliding to his sword. The Seer of Brennin,
her white hair whipping across her eyes, was standing at the edge of the forest
east of the Anor. A moment later, his shocked eyes discerned the High
Priestess, and then Sharra of Cathal’s unmistakable beauty, and the mystery
cleared and deepened, both. They must have come from the Temple, by using the
earthroot and Jaelle’s power. But why? What was happening?
Flidais, too, had heard them come,
but not Jennifer or Darien, who were too intent on each other. Brendel turned
back to them. He was behind Jennifer, could not see her face, but her back was
straight and her head imperiously high as she faced her son.
Who said, small and seeming frail in
the wild wind, “I thought it might . . . please you. I took it. I thought. . .”
Surely now, Brendel thought. Surely she would ease the path for him now?
“It does not,” Jennifer replied.
“Why should I welcome a blade that does not belong to you?”
Brendel clenched his hands. There
seemed to be a fist squeezing his heart. Oh,
careful, he thought. Oh, please take care.
“What,” he heard Darien’s mother
say, “are you doing here?”
The boy’s head jerked as if she’d
struck him. “I—she told me. The one with white hair. She said you were . . .”
His words failed him. Whatever else he said was lost in the tearing wind.
“She said I was here,” his mother
said coldly, very clearly. “Very well. She was right, of course. What of it? What
do you want, Darien? You are no longer a baby—you arranged for that yourself.
Would you have me treat you like one?”
Of course he would, Brendel wanted
to say. Couldn’t she see that? Was it so hard for her?
Darien straightened. His hands
thrust forward, almost of themselves. He threw his head back, and Brendel
thought he saw a flash. Then the boy cried, from the center of his heart, “Don’t you want me?”
From his extended hands two bolts of
power flew, to left and right of his mother. One hurtled into the bay, struck
the small boat tied up to the dock, and blasted it into shards and fragments of
wood. The other sizzled just past his mother’s face and torched a tree at the
edge of the Wood.
“Weaver at the Loom!” Brendel
gasped. At his side, Flidais made a strangled sound and then ran, as fast as
his short legs could carry him, to stand beneath the burning tree. The andain
raised his arms toward the blaze, he spoke words too rapid and low to follow,
and the fire went out.
A real fire this time, Brendel thought
numbly. It had been only illusion the last time, by the Summer Tree. Weaver
alone knew where this child’s power ended or where it would go.
As if in answer to his thoughts, his
unspoken fears, Darien spoke again, clearly this time, in a voice that mastered
the wind and the thunder out at sea and the drumming, rising now from the
forest floor.
“Shall I go to Starkadh?” he
challenged his mother. “Shall I see if my father gives me a fairer welcome? I
doubt Rakoth will scruple to take a stolen dagger! Do you leave me any choice—Mother?”
He’s not a child, Brendel thought. It was not the words or the voice of
a child.
Jennifer had not moved or flinched,
even when the bolts of power flew by her. Only her fingers, spread-eagled at
her sides, gave any hint of tension. And again, amid his doubt and fear and
numbing incomprehension, Brendel of the lios alfar was awed by what he saw in
her.
She said, “Darien, I leave you the
only choice there is. I will say this much and nothing more: you live, though
your father wanted me dead so that you would never come into the Tapestry. I
cannot hold you in my arms or seek shelter and love for you as I did in Vae’s
house when you were born. We are past the time for that. There is a choice for
you to make, and everything I know tells me that you must make it freely and
unconstrained, or it will never have been made at all. If I bind you to me now,
or even try, I strip you of what you are.”
“What if I don’t want to make that
choice?”
Struggling to understand, Brendel
heard Darien’s voice suspended, halfway, it seemed, between the explosion of
his power and the supplication of his longing.
His mother laughed, but not harshly.
“Oh, my child,” she said. “None of us want to make it, and all of us must.
Yours is only the hardest, and the one that matters most.”
The wind died a little, a lull, a
hesitation. Darien said, “Finn told me . . . before . . . that my mother loved
me and that she had made me special.”
And now, as if involuntarily,
Jennifer’s hands did move, up from her sides, to clutch her elbows tightly in
front of her.
“Acushla
machree,” she
said—or so Brendel thought. She started to go on, then seemed to pull herself
up short, as on a tight, harsh rein.
After a moment she added, in a
different voice, “He was wrong . . . about making you special. You know that
now. Your power comes from Rakoth when your eyes go red. What you have of me is
only freedom and the right to choose, to make your own choice between Light and
Dark. Nothing more than that.”
“No,
Jen!” the
Seer of Brennin screamed, into the wind.
Too late, Darien’s eyes changed
again as the last words were spoken, and from the bitterness of his laughter
Brendel knew they had lost him. The wind rose again, wilder than before; over
it, over the deep drumming of Pendaran Wood, Darien cried, “Wrong, Mother! You
have it all wrong. I am not here to choose but
to be chosen!”
He gestured toward his forehead. “Do
you not see what I wear on my brow? Do you not recognize it?” There was another
peal of thunder, louder than any yet, and rain began to fall. Through it, over
it, Darien’s voice soared. “This is the Circlet of Lisen! The Light against the
Dark—and it went out when I put it on!”
A sheet of lightning seared the sky
west of them. Then thunder again. Then Darien: “Don’t you see? The Light has
turned away, and now you have as well. Choice? I have none! I am of the Dark
that extinguishes the Light— and I know where to go!”
With those words he reclaimed the
dagger from the strand before his feet; then he was running, heedless,
contemptuous of the ominous drumming in the Wood, straight into Pendaran
through the slashing, driving rain, leaving the six of them exposed on the
shore to both the storm which had come and the rawness of their terror.
Jennifer turned. The rain was
sheeting down; Brendel had no way to tell if there were tears or raindrops on
her face.
“Come,” he said, “we must go inside.
It is dangerous out here in this!”
Jennifer ignored him. The other
three women had come up. She turned to Kim, waiting, expecting something.
And it came. “What in the name of
all that is holy have you done?” the Seer of Brennin screamed into the gale. It
was hard to stand upright; they were all drenched to the bone. “I sent him here
as a last chance to keep him from Starkadh, and you drove him straight there!
All he wanted was comfort, Jen!”
But it was Guinevere who answered,
colder, sterner than the elements. “Comfort? Have I comfort to give, Kimberly?
Have you? Or any of us, today, now? You had no right to send him here, and you
know it! I meant him to be random, free to choose, and I will not back away
from that! Jaelle, what did you think you were doing? You were there in the
music room at Paras Derval when I told that to Paul. I meant everything I said!
If we bind him, or try, he is lost to us!”
There was another thing inside her,
at the very deepest place in her heart, but she did not say it. It was her own,
too naked for the telling: He is my Wild
Hunt, she
whispered over and over in her soul. My Owein,
my shadow kings, my child on Iselen. All of them. She was not blind to the resonances.
She knew that they killed, with joy and without discrimination. She knew what
they were. She also knew, since Flidais’ tale on the balcony, what they meant.
She glared at Kimberly through the
slashing rain, daring her to speak again. But the Seer was silent, and in her
eyes Jennifer saw no more anger or fear, only sadness and wisdom and a love she
remembered as never varying. There was a queer constriction in her throat.
“Excuse me.” The women looked down
at the one who had spoken. “Excuse me,” Flidais repeated, fighting hard against
the surging in his heart, straining to keep his voice calm. “I take it you are
the Seer of Brennin?”
“I am,” Kim said.
“I am Flidais,” he said,
unconscionably quick with even this casually chosen name. But he had no patience
left; he was near now, so near. He was afraid he would go mad with excitement.
“I should tell you that Galadan is very close to this place—minutes away, I
think.”
Jennifer brought her hands to her
mouth. She had forgotten, in the total absorption of the last few minutes. But
it all came back now: the night in the wood and the wolf who had taken her away
for Maugrim and then had become a man who said, She is still to go north. If it were not so, I might take her for
myself. Just
before he gave her to the swan.
She shuddered. She could not help
herself. She heard Flidais say, still for some reason addressing Kim, “I can be
of aid, I believe. I think I could divert him from this place, if I go fast
enough.”
“Well, then, go!” Kim exclaimed. “If
he’s only a few minutes—”
“Or,” Flidais went on, unable now to
keep the rising note from finally reaching his voice, “I could do nothing, as
the andain usually do. Or, if
I choose, I could tell him exactly who just left the glade, and who is here. ”
“I would kill you first!” Brendel
burst out, his eyes gleaming through the rain. A bolt of lightning knifed into
the roiling sea. There came another peal of thunder.
“You could try,” Flidais said, with
equanimity. “You would fail. And then Galadan could come.”
He paused, waiting, looking at Kim,
who said, slowly, “All right. What is it you want?”
Amid the howling of the storm
Flidais was conscious of a great, cresting illumination in his heart. Tenderly,
with a delicate ineffable joy, he said, “Only one thing. A small thing. So
small. Only a name. The summoning name of the Warrior.” His soul was singing.
He did a little dance on the wet strand; he couldn’t help himself. It was here.
It was in his hands.
“No,” said Kimberly.
His jaw dropped into the soaked mat
of his beard. “No,” she repeated. “I swore an oath when he came to me, and I
will not break it.”
“Seer—” Jaelle began.
“You must!” Flidais moaned. “You must tell me! It is the only riddle. The last one! I know all the other
answers. I would never tell. Never! The Weaver and all the gods know I would
never tell—but I must know it, Seer! It is the wish of my heart!”
Strange, fateful phrase crossing the
worlds with her. Kim remembered those words from all the years that had gone
by, remembered thinking of them again on the mountain plateau with Brock
unconscious at her side. She looked down at the gnomelike andain, his hands
writhing over and about each other in frantic, pleading desperation. She
remembered Arthur, in the moment he had answered her summons on Glastonbury Tor,
the bowed weight of his shoulders, the weariness, the stars falling and falling
through his eyes. She looked at Jennifer, who was Guinevere. And who said,
softly, but near enough so as to be heard over the wind and rain, “Give it to
him. Even so is the name handed down. It is part of the woven doom. Broken
oaths and grief lie at the heart of it, Kim. I’m sorry, truly.”
It was the apology at the end that
reached through to her, as much as anything else. Wordlessly she turned and
strode a little way apart. She looked back and nodded to the andain. Stumbling,
almost falling in his eagerness and haste, he trotted to her side. She looked
down on him, not bothering to mask her contempt. “You will go from here with
this name, and I charge you with two things. To never repeat it to a soul in
any world, and to deal with Galadan now, doing whatever must be done to keep
him from this Tower, and to shield the knowledge of Darien from him. Will you
do so?”
“By every power in Fionavar I swear
it,” he said. He could scarcely control his voice so as to speak. He rose up,
on tiptoe so as to be nearer to her. Despite herself she was moved by the
helpless longing, the yearning in his face.
“Childslayer,” she said, and
broke her oath.
He closed his eyes. A radiant
ecstasy suffused his face. “Ah!” he moaned, transfigured. “Ah!” He said no
more, staying thus, eyes closed, head lifted to the falling rain as if to a
benediction.
Then he opened his eyes and fixed
her with a level gaze. With dignity she hadn’t expected, so soon after his
exaltation, he said, “You hate me now. And not without cause. But hear me,
Seer: I shall do everything I swore to do, and more. You have freed me from
desire. When the soul has what it needs it is without longing, and so it is
with me now. From the darkness of what I have done to you there shall be light,
or I shall die trying to make it so.” He reached up and took her hand between
both of his own. “Do not enter the Tower; he will know if there are people
there. Endure the rain and wait for me. I shall not fail you.”
Then he was gone, running on stubby,
bowed legs, but fleet and blurred as soon as he entered the forest, a power of
Pendaran, moving into his element.
She turned back to the others,
waiting west of her, farther down the strand. They stood gathered together
under this fury of the elements. Something, an instinct, made her glance down
at her hand. Not at the Baelrath, which was utterly subdued, but at the vellin
stone about her wrist. And she saw it twisting slowly back and forth. There was
power here. Magic in the storm. She should have known it from the first rising
of the wind. But there had been no time to absorb or think about anything but
Darien from the moment Jaelle had brought them here. Now there was. Now there
was a moment, a still space amid the wild fury of the elements. She lifted her
eyes past the three other women and the lios alfar and, looking out to sea, she
saw the ship running helplessly before the wind into the bay.
Chapter 6
For a long time Coll of Taerlindel
at the helm of his ship had fought the wind. Tacking desperately and with a
certain brilliance across the line of the southwesterly, he struggled through
most of a darkening day to hold Prydwen to a course that would bring them
back to the harbor from which they had set out. Bellowing commands, his voice
riding over the gale, he kept the men of South Keep leaping from sail to sail,
pulling them down, adjusting them, straining for every inch of eastward motion
he could gain against the elements that were forcing him north.
It was an exercise in seamanship of
the highest order, of calculations done by instinct and nerve on the deck of a
wildly tossing ship, of raw strength and raw courage, as Coll fought with all
the power of his corded arms to hold the tiller against the gale that was
pulling the ship from his chosen path.
And this was only wind, only the
first fine mist of rain. The true storm, massive and glowering to starboard and
behind them, was yet to come. But it was coming, swallowing what was left of
the sky. They heard thunder, saw sheets of lightning ignite in the west, felt
the screaming wind grow wilder yet, were drenched by driving, blinding spray as
they slid and slipped on the heaving deck, struggling to obey Coll’s steadily
shouted commands.
Calmly he called out his orders,
angling his ship with consummate inbred artistry along the troughs and into the
crests of the waves, gauging the seas on either side, casting a frequent eye
above him to judge the filling of the sails and the speed of the oncoming storm.
Calmly he did it all, though with fierce, passionate intensity and not a little
pride. And calmly, when it was clear past doubt that he had no choice, Coll
surrendered.
“Over to port!” he roared in the
same voice he’d used throughout his pitched battle against the storm.
“Northeast it is! I’m sorry, Diar, we’ll have to run with it and take our
chances at the other end!”
Diarmuid dan Ailell, heir to the
High Kingdom of Brennin, was far too busy grappling with a sail rope in
obedience to the command to do much in the way of dealing with the apology.
Beside the Prince, soaked through and through, almost deafened by the scream of
the gale, Paul struggled to be useful and to cope with what he knew.
With what he had known from the
first rising of the wind two hours ago, and his first glimpse, far down on the
southwest horizon of the black line that was a curtain now, an enveloping
darkness blotting out the sky. From the pulsebeat of Mórnir within himself, the
still place like a pool in his blood that marked the presence of the God, he
knew that what was coming, what had come, was more than a storm.
He was Pwyll Twiceborn, marked on
the Summer Tree for power, named to it, and he knew when power of this
magnitude was present, manifesting itself. Mórnir had warned him but could do
no more, Paul knew. This was not his storm despite the crashing thunder, nor
was it Liranan’s, the elusive god of the sea. It might have been Metran, with
the Cauldron of Khath Meigol, but the renegade mage was dead and the Cauldron
shattered into fragments. And this storm far out at sea was not Rakoth
Maugrim’s in Starkadh.
Which meant one thing and one thing
only, and Coll of Taerlindel, for all his gallant skill, hadn’t a chance. It
was not a thing you tell a captain of a ship at sea, Paul was wise enough to
know. You let him fight, and trusted him to know when he could not fight any
longer. And after, if you survived, you could try to heal his pride with the
knowledge of what had beaten him.
If you survived.
“By Lisen’s blood!” Diarmuid cried.
Paul looked up— in time to see the sky swallowed, quite utterly, and the dark
green curling wave, twice the height of the ship, begin to fall.
“Hang on!” the Prince screamed
again, and clutched Paul’s hastily donned jacket with an iron grip. Paul threw
one arm around Diarmuid and looped the other through a rope lashed to the mast,
gripping with all the strength he had. Then he closed his eyes.
The wave fell upon them with the
weight of the sea and of doom. Of destiny not to be delayed or denied. Diarmuid
held him, and Paul gripped the Prince, and they both clung to their handholds
like children, which they were.
The Weaver’s children. The Weaver at
the Loom, whose storm this was.
When he could see again, and
breathe, Paul looked up at the tiller through the sluicing rain and spray. Coll
had help there now, badly needed help, in the muscle-tearing task of holding
the ship to its new course, running now with the full speed of the storm,
dangerously, shockingly fast in the raging sea, at a speed where the slightest
turn-big of the rudder could heel them over like a toy into the waves. But
Arthur Pendragon was with Coll now, balancing him, pulling shoulder to shoulder
beside the mariner, salt spray drenching his greying beard, and Paul
knew—though he could not actually see them from where he crouched in the shadow
of the mainmast—that there would be stars falling and falling in the Warrior’s
eyes as he was carried toward his foretold fate again, by the hand of the
Weaver who had woven his doom.
Children, Paul thought. Both the children they
all were, helpless on this ship, and the children who had died when the Warrior
was young, and so terribly afraid that his bright dream would be destroyed. The
two images blurred in his mind, as the rain and the sea spray blurred together,
driving them on.
Running before the wind, Prydwen tore through the seas at a speed no ship should have ever
been asked to sustain, no sails to endure. But the timbers of that ship,
screaming and creaking with strain, yet held, and the sails woven with love and
care and centuries of handed-down artistry in Taerlindel of the Mariners,
caught that howling wind and filled with it and did not tear, though the black
sky above might shred with lightning and the very sea rock with the thunder.
Riding the mad crest of that speed, the two men at the tiller fought to
hold their course, their bodies taut with the brutal strain. And then, with no
surprise at all, only a dulled, hurting sense of inevitability, Paul saw
Lancelot du Lac grapple his way to their side. And so, at the last, it was the
three of them: Coll conning his ship with Lancelot and Arthur at either side,
their feet braced wide on the slippery deck, gripping the tiller together, in
flawless, necessary harmony, guiding that small, gallant, much-enduring ship
into the bay of the Anor Lisen.
And, helpless to do so much as veer
a single point off the wind, onto the jagged teeth of the rocks that guarded
the southern entrance to that bay.
Paul never knew, afterward, whether
they had been meant to survive. Arthur and Lancelot had to, he knew, else there
would have been no point to the storm that carried them here. But the rest of
them were expendable, however bitter the thought might be, in the unfolding of
this tale.
He never knew, either, exactly what
it was that warned him. They were moving so fast, through the darkness and the
pelting, blinding sheets of rain, that none of them had even seen the shore,
let alone the rocks. Reaching back, trying to relive the moment afterward, he
thought it might have been his ravens that spoke, but chaos reigned on Prydwen in that moment, and he could never be
sure.
What he knew was that in the
fraction of splintered tune before Prydwen
splintered forever into
fragments and spars, he had risen to his feet, unnaturally surefooted in the
unnatural storm, and had cried out in a voice that encompassed the thunder and
contained it, that was of it and within it—exactly as he had been of and within
the Summer Tree on the night he thought he’d died—and in that voice, the voice
of Mórnir who had sent him back, he cried, “Liranan!”
just as they struck.
The masts cracked with the sound of
broken trees; the sides cracked, and the deck; the bottom of the ship was
gouged mercilessly, utterly, and the dark sea blasted in. Paul was catapulted,
a leaf, a twig, a meaningless thing, from the deck of the suddenly grounded
ship. They all hurtled over the sides, every man of what had been, a moment
before, Coil’s grandfather’s beloved Prydwen.
And as Paul flew, a split second in
the air, another fraction of scintillated time, tasting his second death,
knowing the rocks were there and the boiling, enraged, annihilating sea, even
in that instant he heard a voice in his mind, clear and remembered.
And Liranan spoke to him and said, I
will pay for this, and pay, and be made
to pay again, before the weaving of time is done. But I owe you, brother—the
sea stars are shining in a certain place again because you bound me to your
aid. This is not binding; this is a gift. Remember me!
And then Paul cartwheeled helplessly
into the waters of the bay.
The calm, unruffled, blue-green
waters of the bay. Away from the jagged, killing rocks. Out of the murderous
wind, and under a mild rain that fell gently down, bereft of the gale that had
given it its cutting edge.
Just beyond the curve of the bay the
storm raged yet, the lightning still slashed from the purpled clouds. Where he
was, where all of them were, rain fell softly from an overcast summer sky as
they swam, singly, in pairs, in clusters, to the strand of beach under the
shadow of Lisen’s Tower.
Where Guinevere stood.
It was a miracle, Kim realized. But
she also realized too much more for her tears to be shed only for relief and
joy. Too dense this weaving, too laden with shadings and textures and a myriad
of intermingled threads, both warp and weft, for any emotion to be truly
unmixed.
They had seen the ship cannon toward
the rocks. Then, even in that moment of realization and terror, they had heard
a single imperative crash of sound, halfway between thunder and a voice, and on
the instant—absolutely on the instant—the wind had cut out completely and the
waters of the bay had gone glassily calm. The men who manned Prydwen were spilled over the disintegrating sides of the ship into
a bay that would have destroyed them not two seconds before.
A miracle. There might be time
enough later to search for the source of it and give thanks. But not yet. Not
now, in this tangled sorrow-strewn unfolding of a long destiny.
For there were three of them, after
all, and Kim could do nothing, nothing at all to stop the hurting in her heart.
A man stepped from the sea who had not been on Prydwen when
she sailed. A man who was very tall, his hair dark, and his eyes as well. There
was a long sword at his side, and beside him came Cavall, the grey dog, and in
his arms, held carefully out before him, the man carried the body of Arthur
Pendragon, and all five people on the beach, waiting, knew who this man was.
Four of them stayed a little way
behind, though Kim knew how every instinct in Sharra’s soul was driving her to
the sea where Diarmuid was even now emerging, helping one of his men out of the
water. She fought that instinct, though, and Kim honored her for it. Standing
between Sharra and Jaelle, with Brendel a pace to the side and behind, she
watched as Jennifer moved forward through the gentle rain to stand before the
two men she had loved and been loved by through so many lives in so many worlds.
Guinevere was remembering a moment
on the balcony of the Tower earlier that afternoon, when Flidais had spoken of
randomness as the variable the Weaver had woven into his Tapestry for a
limitation on himself. She was remembering, as if from a place infinitely far
away, the explosion of hope in her mind, that this time might be different
because of that. Because Lancelot was not here, no third angle of the triangle,
and so the Weaver’s design might yet be changed, because the Weaver himself had
made a space in the Tapestry for change.
No one knew of that thought, and no
one ever would. It was buried now, and smashed, and gone.
What was here, in its stead, was
Lancelot du Lac, whose soul was the other half of her own. Whose eyes were as
dark as they had been every single time before, as undemanding, as
understanding, with the same pain buried in their depths that only she could
comprehend, only she assuage. Whose hands . . . whose long, graceful fighter’s
hands were exactly as they had been the last time and the time before, every
hurting time before, when she had loved them, and loved him as the mirror of
herself.
Whose hands cradled now, gently,
with infinite, unmistakable tenderness, the body of his liege lord, her
husband. Whom she loved.
Whom she loved in the teeth of all
the lies, all the crabbed, envious incomprehension, with a full and a
shattering passion that had survived and would survive and would tear her
asunder every time she woke again to who she had been and was fated to be. To
the memory and the knowledge of betrayal like a stone at the center of
everything. The grief at the heart of a dream, the reason why she was here, and
Lancelot. The price, the curse, the punishment laid by the Weaver on the
Warrior in the name of the children who had died.
She and Lancelot faced each other in
silence on the strand, in a space that seemed to the watchers to have somehow
been cut out from the ebb and flow of time: an island in the Tapestry. She
stood before the two men she loved, bareheaded in the falling rain, and she had
memories of so many things.
Her eyes went back again to his
hands, and she remembered when he had gone mad—truly so, for a time—for desire
of her and the denial within himself of that desire. How he had gone forth from
Camelot into the woods and wandered there through the turning of the seasons,
naked even in the wintertime, alone and wild, stripped to the very bone by
longing. And she remembered those hands when he was finally brought back: the
scars, cuts, scabs, the calluses, and broken nails, the frostbite from
scrabbling in the snow for berries underneath.
Arthur had wept, she remembered. She
had not. Not then, not until later, when she was alone. It had hurt so much.
She had thought that death would be better than that sight. And as much as any
other single thing, it had been those hands, the palpable evidence of what love
of her was doing to him, that had opened her own barricades and let him in to
the hearthside of her heart and the welcome so long denied. How could it be a
betrayal, of anyone or anything, to offer shelter to such a one? And to let the
mirror be made whole, that its reflection of the fire might show both of them
beside it?
Still she was silent in the rain,
and he, and nothing of this showed in her face. Even so, he knew her thoughts,
and she knew that he did. Motionless, wordlessly, they touched after so long
and yet did not touch. His hands, clean now, unscarred, slender and beautiful,
held Arthur in a clasp of love that spoke so deeply to her that she heard it as
a chorus in her heart, high voices in a vaulted place singing of joy and pain.
And in that moment she recalled
something else, and this he could not know, though his dark eyes might darken
further, looking into hers. She suddenly remembered the last time she had seen
his face: not in Camelot, or any of the other lives, the other worlds where
they had been brought back to the working of Arthur’s doom, but in Starkadh, a
little more than a year ago. When Rakoth Maugrim, breaking her for the pleasure
it afforded him, had ransacked the effortlessly opened chambers of her memories
and come out with an image she had not recognized, an image of the man who
stood before her now. And now she understood. She saw again the moment when the
dark god had taken this shape in mockery, in a defiling, an attempt to stain
and soil her knowledge of love, to besmirch the memory, sear it from her with
the blood that fell from the black stump of his lost hand, burning her.
And standing here by the Anor as the
clouds began to break up in the west with the passing of the storm, as the
first rays of the setting sun sliced through, low down over the sea, she knew
that Rakoth had failed.
Better he had not failed, a part of
her was thinking, ironic, detached. Better he had scorched this love from her,
made a kind of good from the abyss of his evil, freed her from Lancelot, that
the endless betrayal might have an end.
But he had not. She had only loved
two men in all her life, the two most shining men in any world. And she loved
them yet.
She was aware of the changing light:
amber, shades of gold. Sunset after storm. The rain had ended. A square of sky
appeared overhead, blue, toning downward toward the muted color of dusk. She
heard the surge of the surf, and the withdrawal of it along the sand and
stones. She held herself straight as she could, quite still; she had a sense
that to move, just then, would be to break, and she could not break.
“He is all right,” Lancelot said.
What is a voice? she thought. What is a voice that it can do this to us?
Firelight. A mirror made whole. A dream shown broken in that mirror. The
texture of a soul in four words. Four words not about her, or himself, not of
greeting or desire. Four quiet words about the man he carried, and so about the
man he was himself.
If she moved, it would be to break.
She said, “I know.”
The Weaver had not brought him to
this place, to her, to have him die in a storm at sea; too easy, that, by far.
“He stayed at the tiller too long,”
Lancelot said. “He cracked his head when we hit. Cavall led me to him in the
water.” As quietly as that, he said it. No bravado, no hint of drama or
achievement. And then, after a pause, “Even in that storm, he was trying to
steer for a gap in the rocks.”
Over and over, she was thinking. How many ways were
there for a story to circle back upon itself?
“He was always looking for gaps in
the rocks,” she murmured. She said nothing else. It was difficult to speak. She
looked into his eyes and waited.
There was light now, clouds breaking
apart, clear sky. And, suddenly, the track of the sunset along the sea, and
then the setting sun below the western clouds. She waited, knowing what he
would say, what she would say in response.
He said, “Shall I go away?”
“Yes,” she said.
She did not move. A bird sang behind
her, in the trees at the edge of the strand. Then another bird sang. The surf
came in and withdrew, and then it came in again.
He said, “Where shall I go?”
And now she had to hurt him very
badly, because he loved her and had not been here to save her when it happened.
She said, “You will know of Rakoth
Maugrim; they will have told you on the ship. He took me a year ago. To the
place of his power. He . . . did things to me.”
She stopped: not for herself, it was
an old pain now, and Arthur had taken much of it away. But she had to stop
because of what was in his face. Then after a moment she went on, carefully,
because she could not break, not now. She said, “I was to die, after. I was
saved, though, and in time I bore his child.”
Again she was forced to pause. She
closed her eyes, so as not to see his face. No one else, she knew, and nothing
else, did this to him. But she did it every time. She heard him kneel, not
trusting his hands any longer, and lay Arthur gently down on the sand.
She said, eyes still closed, “I
wanted to have the child. There are reasons words will not reach. His name is
Darien, and he was here not long ago, and went away because I made him go away.
They do not understand why I did this, why I did not try to bind him.” She
paused again and took a breath.
“I think I understand,” said
Lancelot. Only that. Which was so much.
She opened her eyes. He was on his
knees before her, Arthur lying between the two of them, the sun and its track
along the sea behind both men, red and gold and very beautiful. She did not
move. She said, “He went into this wood. It is a place of ancient power and of
hate, and before he went he burnt a tree with his own power, which comes from
his father. I would . . .” She faltered. He had only just now come, and was
here before her, and she faltered at the words that would send him away.
There was silence, but not for very
long. Lancelot said, “I understand. I will guard him, and not bind him, and
leave him to choose his road.”
She swallowed and fought back her
tears. What was a voice? A doorway, with nuances of light, intimations of
shade: a doorway to a soul.
“It is a dark road,” she said,
speaking more truth than she knew.
He smiled, so unexpectedly that it
stopped her heart for a beat. He smiled up at her, and then rose, and so smiled
down upon her, tenderly, gravely, with a sure strength whose only place of
vulnerability was herself, and he said, “All the roads are dark, Guinevere.
Only at the end is there a hope of light.” The smile faded. “Fare gently,
love.”
He turned with the last words, his
hand moving automatically, unconsciously, to check the hang of the sword at his
side. Panic rose within her, a blind surge.
“Lancelot!” she said.
She had not spoken his name before
that. He stopped and turned, two separate actions, slowed by a weight of pain.
He looked at her. Slowly, sharing the weight, with very great care, she held
out one hand to him. And as slowly, his eyes on hers and naming her name over
and over in their depths, he walked back, and took her hand, and brought it to
his lips.
Then in her turn, not speaking, not
daring to speak or able, she took the hand in which he held her own and laid
the back of it against her cheek so that one tear fell upon it. Then she kissed
that tear away and watched him go, past all the silent people who parted to
make way for him, as he walked from her into Pendaran Wood.
Once, a long time ago, he had met
Green Ceinwen by chance in a glade of the Wood by moonlight. Cautiously, for it
always paid to be cautious with the Huntress, Flidais had entered the glade and
saluted her. She had been sitting on the trunk of a fallen tree, her long legs
outstretched, her bow laid down, a dead boar lying beside her with an arrow in
its throat. There was a small pool in the glade, and from it the moonlight was
reflected back into her face. The stories of her cruelty and capriciousness
were legion, and he knew all of them, had started many of the tales himself, so
it was with extreme diffidence that he approached, grateful that she had not
been bathing in the pool, knowing he would very likely have died had he seen
her so.
She had been in a mood of catlike
languor that night, though, having just killed, and she greeted him with
amusement, stretching her supple body, making room for him beside her on the
fallen trunk.
They had spoken for a time, softly,
as befitted the place and the moonlight, and it had pleasured her to tease him
with stirred desire, though it was gently done, and not with malice that night.
Then, as the moon made ready to pass
over into the trees west of them and so be lost to that glade, Green Ceinwen
had said, lazily but with a different, more meaningful tone than hitherto,
“Flidais, little forest one, do you not ever wonder what will happen to you if
you ever do learn the name you seek?”
“How so, goddess?” he remembered
asking, his nerves bared suddenly by this merest, most idle mention of his long
desire.
“Will your soul not lie bereft and
purposeless should that day come? What will you do, having gained the last and
only thing you covet? With your thirst slaked will you not be stripped of all
joy in life, all reason to live? Consider it, little one. Give it thought.”
The moon had gone then. And the
goddess too, though not before stroking his face and body with her long
fingers, leaving him rampant with desire by the dark pool. She was capricious
and cruel, elusive and very dangerous, but she was also a goddess and not the
least wise of them. He sat in the grove a long time, thinking about what she
said, and he had thought about it often in the years that followed.
And only now, now that it had
happened, could he draw breath after breath that tasted of joy and realize that
she had been wrong. It might have been otherwise, he knew: gaining his heart’s
desire might indeed have been a blight, not this transcendent brightness in his
life. But it had fallen out differently; his dream had been made real, the
gapped worlds made whole, and along with joy Flidais of the andain now finally
knew peace.
It had come at the price of a broken
oath, he knew. He had some fleeting, distant sense of regret that this had been
demanded, but it scarcely even ruffled the deep waters of his contentment. And,
in any case, he had balanced those scales with an oath of his own to the Seer,
one that he would keep. She would see. However bitter her contempt for him now,
she would have cause to change before the story spun to its close. For the
first time, one of the andain would lend himself freely to the cause of the
mortals and their war.
Starting now, he thought, with the
one who was his lord.
He is here, the lone deiena in the tree above
him whispered urgently, and Flidais barely had time to register the sudden
easing of the rain and the passing of the thunder, and to fling the swift
mental call he’d decided upon, before there came a sound of something crashing
through the trees and the wolf had come.
And then, a moment later, Galadan
was there instead. Flidais felt light; he had an illusion that he could fly if
he wanted to, that he was only tied to the forest floor by the thinnest threads
of constraint. But he had cause to know how dangerous the figure standing
before him was, and he had a task to perform now, a deception to perpetrate on
one who had been known for a long time as the subtlest mind in Fionavar. And
who was also the lieutenant of Rakoth Maugrim.
So Flidais schooled his features as
best he could, and he bowed, gravely and low, to the one who had only once been
challenged in his claim of lordship over the elusive, estranged, arrogant
family of the andain. Only once—and Flidais remembered, very well, how
Liranan’s son and Macha’s daughter had both died, not far from here, by the
Cliffs of Rhudh.
What are you doing here? said Galadan in his mind.
Straightening, Flidais saw that the Wolflord looked lean and deadly, his
features tight with anger and unease.
Flidais clasped his hands loosely together
in front of his rounded belly. “I am always here,” he said mildly, speaking
aloud.
He winced, as a sudden knife of pain
slashed into his mind. Before speaking again he put up his mental barricades,
not displeased, for Galadan had just given him an excuse.
“Why did you do that?” he asked
plaintively.
He felt the quick probe bounce away
from his barriers. Galadan could kill him, with disturbing ease, but the
Wolflord could not see into his mind unless Flidais chose to let him in, and
that, at the moment, was what mattered.
Do not be too clever, forest one. Not with me. Why are
you speaking aloud, and who was in the Anor? Answer quickly. I have little time
and less patience. The
mind voice was cold and arrogantly confident, but Flidais had knowledge of his
own, and memories. He knew that the Wolflord was feeling the strain of being
near to the Tower—which made him more, not less, of a danger, if it came to
that.
Half an hour ago he would never have
done it, never have dreamt of doing it, but everything had changed since he had
learned the name, and so Flidais said, still carefully aloud, “How dare you
probe me, Galadan? I care nothing for your war, but a great deal for my own secrets,
and will certainly not open my mind to you when you come to me—in Pendaran, if
you please—in this fashion, and with such a tone. Will you kill me for my
riddles, Wolflord? You hurt me just now!” He thought he had the
tone right, grievance and pride in equal measure, but it was hard to tell, very
hard, given the one with whom he was dealing.
Then he drew a quiet, satisfied
breath, for when the Wolflord addressed him again it was aloud and with the
courtly grace that had always been a part of him. “Forgive me,” he murmured,
and bowed in his turn with unconscious elegance. “I have been two days running
to get here and am not myself.” His scarred features relaxed into a smile.
“Whoever that is. I sensed someone in the Anor, and . . . wanted to know who.”
There was some hesitation at the
end, and this, too, Flidais understood. In the cold, rational, utterly clinical
soul that was Galadan’s, the blinding passion that still assailed him in
connection with Lisen was brutally anomalous. And the memory of his rejection
in favor of Amairgen would be a wound scraped raw every time he neared this
place. From the new harbor of peace where his soul was moored, Flidais looked
at the other figure and pitied him. He kept that out of his eyes, though,
having no pressing desire to be slain.
He also had an oath to keep. So he
said, reaching for the right tone of casual appeasement, “I’m sorry, I should
have known you would sense it. I would have tried to send word. I was in the
Anor myself, Galadan I am just now leaving it.”
“You? Why?”
Flidais shrugged expressively.
“Symmetry. My own sense of time. Patterns on the Loom. You know they sailed
from Taerlindel some days ago, for Cader Sedat. I thought someone should be in
the Anor, in case they returned this way.”
The rain had stopped, though the
leaves overhead were still dripping. The trees grew too thickly to show much of
the clearing sky. Flidais waited to see if his bait would be taken, and he
guarded his mind.
“I did not know that,” Galadan
admitted, a furrow creasing his brow. “It is news and it matters. I think I
will have to take it north. I thank you,” he said, with much of the old
calculation in his voice again. Careful, very careful, not to smile, Flidais
nodded. “Who sailed?” the Wolflord asked.
Flidais made his expression as stern
as he could. “You should not have hurt me,” he said, “if you were going to ask
questions.”
Galadan laughed aloud. The sound
rang through the Great Wood. “Ah, Flidais, is there anyone like you?” he
queried rhetorically, still chuckling.
“There is no one with the headache I
have!” Flidais replied, not smiling.
“I apologized,” Galadan said,
sobering quickly, his voice suddenly silken and low. “I will not do so twice.”
He let the silence hold for a moment, then repeated, “Who sailed, forest one?”
After a brief pause, to show a
necessary flicker of independence, Flidais said, “The mage and the Dwarf. The
Prince of Brennin. The one called Pwyll, from the tree.” An expression he could
not read flashed briefly across Galadan’s aristocratic fece. “And the Warrior,”
he concluded.
Galadan was silent a moment, deep in
thought. “Interesting,” he said at length. “I am suddenly glad I came, forest
one. All of this matters. I wonder if they killed Metran? What,” he asked
swiftly, “do you think of the storm that just passed?”
Off balance, Flidais nonetheless
managed to smile. “Exactly what you think,” he murmured. “And if a storm has
driven the Warrior to land somewhere, I, for one, am going to look for him.”
Again Galadan laughed, more softly
than before. “Of course,” he said. “Of course. The name. Do you expect him to
tell you himself?”
Flidais could feel a bright color
suffuse his face, which was all right; let the Wolflord think he was
embarrassed. “Stranger things have happened,” he said stoutly. “Have I your
leave to go?”
“Not yet. What did you do in the
Anor?” A flicker of unease rippled through the forest andain. It was all very
well to have successfully dissembled with Galadan so far, but one didn’t want
to push one’s fortune by lingering too long. “I cleaned it,” he said, with an
edgy impatience he did not have to feign. “The glass and the floors. I rolled
back the windows to let air in. And I watched for two days, to see if the ship
would come. Then, with the storm, I knew it had been driven to land, and since
it was not here . . .”
Galadan’s eyes were cold and grey
and fixed downward on his own. “Were there not flowers?” he whispered, and
menace was suddenly a vivid, rustling presence where they stood. Feigning
nothing at all, his heart racing, mouth suddenly dry, Flidais said, “There
were, my lord. They . . . crumbled from age when I was dusting the room. I can
get more for you. Would you desire me to—”
He got no further. Faster than eye
could follow or most cunning mind anticipate, the figure in front of him melted
away and in its stead a wolf was there, a wolf that leaped, even in the instant
it appeared. With one swift, precisely calculated motion, a huge paw raked the
forest andain’s head. Flidais never even moved. He was cunning and wise and
surprisingly swift within his Wood, but Galadan was what he was. And so, an
instant later, the little bearded andain lay, writhing in genuine agony on the
sodden forest floor, holding both hands to the bloodied place where his right
ear had been ripped away.
“Live a while longer, forest one,”
he heard, through the miasma of pain flowing over him. “And name me merciful in
your innermost heart. You touched the flowers I laid in that place for her,”
the voice said, benign, reflective, elegant. “Could you really expect to have
been allowed to live?”
Fighting to hold consciousness,
Flidais heard, within his reeling mind, another voice then, that sounded near
and very far away, at one and the same time. And the voice said, Oh, my son, what have you become?
Wiping away blood, Flidais managed
to open his eyes. The forest rocked wildly in his vision, then righted itself,
and through the curtain of blood and pain he saw the tall, naked, commanding
figure and the great horns of Cernan of the Beasts. Whom he had called to this place
just before Galadan came.
With a snarl of rage mingled with
another thing, the Wolflord turned to his father. A moment later, Galadan was
in his human shape again, elegant as ever. “You lost the right to ask me that a
long time ago,” he said.
He spoke aloud to his father, a part
of Flidais noted, even as he himself had spoken aloud to Galadan, to deny him
access to his thoughts.
Majestic and terrible in his
nakedness and power, the god of the forests came forward. Speaking aloud, his
voice reverberating, Cernan said, “Because I would not kill the mage for you? I
will not make answer to that again, my son. But will ask you once more, in this
Wood where I fathered you, how have you so lost yourself that you can do this
thing to your own brother?”
Flidais closed his eyes. He felt consciousness slipping away, ripple by
ripple, like a withdrawing sea. But before he went out with the tide he heard
Galadan laugh again, in mockery, and say to his father, to their father, “Why
should it signify anything to me that this fat drudge of the forest is another
by-blow of your profligate seed? Sons and their fathers,” he snarled, halfway
to the wolf he could so easily become. “Why should any of that matter now?”
Oh, but it does, Flidais thought, with his last shred
of consciousness. Oh, but it matters so
much. If only you knew, brother! He sent it out to neither of the others, that thought.
Closely to himself he clutched his memory of the torched tree, and Darien with
the Circlet of Lisen on his brow. Then Flidais, having kept his oath, having
found his heart’s desire, was hit by another surge of pain and knew nothing
more at all of what his father said to his brother in the Wood.
In the east, at Celidon, the sun was
low in a sky unmarred by clouds or the hint of any storm as the army of Brennin
came at last to the mid-Plain. Galloping beside Niavin, Duke of Seresh, at the
front of the host, Teyrnon the mage, weary to the bone after three days of
riding, nonetheless managed to pull his chunky body erect in the saddle at his
first glimpse of the standing stones.
Beside him, his source chuckled
softly and murmured, “I was about to suggest you do that.”
Teyrnon glanced over, amused, at
Barak, the tall, handsome boyhood friend who was the source of his power, and
his good-natured face slipped easily into a self-deprecating grin. “I’ve lost
more weight on this ride than I care to think about,” the mage said, slapping
his still-comfortable girth.
“Do you good,” said Niavin of
Seresh, on the other side.
“How,” Teyrnon replied indignantly,
over Barak’s laughter, “can a complete scrambling of my bones possibly do me
good? I’m afraid if I try to scratch my nose I’ll end up rubbing my knee
instead, if you know what I mean.”
Niavin snorted, then gave way to
laughter of his own. It was hard to stay grim and warlike in the company of the
genial, unprepossessing mage. On the other hand, he had known Teyrnon and Barak
since they were children in Seresh, in the early days of Ailell’s reign, when
Niavin’s own father was the newly appointed Duke of Seresh, and he had little
concern about their capabilities. They would be very serious indeed when the
time called for it. And the time, it seemed, was upon them now. Riding toward
them from between the massive stones were three figures. Niavin raised a hand,
unnecessarily, to point for the mage’s benefit.
“I see them,” said Teyrnon quickly.
Niavin glanced over sharply, but the other man’s face had lost its open
ingenuousness and was unreadable.
It was probably just as well that
Niavin could not discern the mage’s thoughts. They would have worried him
deeply, as deeply as Teyrnon himself was troubled, by self-doubts and
diffidence and by one other thing.
Formally the two of them greeted
Aileron the High King, and formally they returned to him the command of his
army, in the presence of his two companions, Ra-Tenniel of the lios alfar, and
the Aven of the Plain, who had ridden out to greet the host of Brennin. As
formally, Aileron returned their salutations. Then, with the brusque efficiency
of the war king he was, he asked Teyrnon, “Have you been contacted, mage?”
Slowly Teyrnon shook his round head.
He had expected die question. “I have reached out, my lord High King. Nothing
from Loren at all. There is something else, though.” He hesitated, then went
on. “A storm, Aileron. Out at sea. We found it while we were reaching. A
southwest gale, bringing a storm.”
“That should not happen,” Ra-Tenniel
said quickly.
Aileron nodded, not speaking, his
bearded features grim.
“Southwest will not be Maugrim,”
Ivor murmured. “You have seen nothing of the ship?” he asked Teyrnon.
“I am not a Seer,” the mage
explained patiently. “I can sense, to some degree, an assertion of magic such
as this storm, and I can reach out to another mage across a fair distance. If
the ship had returned I would have found or been reached by Loren before now.”
“And so,” Aileron said heavily, “it
has not returned, or else Silvercloak has not returned with it.” His dark eyes
met those of Teyrnon for a long moment, as a late-afternoon breeze stirred the
grasses of the Plain all around them.
No one else spoke; they waited for
the High King. Still looking at Teyrnon, Aileron said, “We cannot wait. We will
push north toward Gwynir now, not in the morning as planned. We have at least
three hours of light by which to ride.”
Swiftly he explained to Niavin and
the mage what had happened in the battle two nights before. “We have been
handed an advantage,” he said grimly, “one not of our own doing, but by virtue
of Owein’s sword and Ceinwen’s intercession. We must turn that advantage to
good effect, while the army of Maugrim is disorganized and fearful. Weaver
knows what I would give to have Loren and the Seer with us now, but we cannot
wait. Teyrnon of Seresh, will you act as my First Mage in the battles that lie
before us?”
He had never been so ambitious,
never aimed half so high. It had been derided as a flaw when he was younger,
then gradually accepted and indulged as the years passed: Teyrnon was what he
was, everyone said, and smiled as they said it. He was clever and reliable;
very often he had useful insights into matters of concern. But the paunchy,
easy-smiling mage had never been seen—or seen himself, for that matter—as being
of real importance in any scheme of things, even in time of peace. Metran and
Loren were the mages who mattered.
He’d been content to let that be the
case. He’d had his books and his studies, which mattered a great deal. He’d had
the comfort of the mages’ quarters in the capital: servants, good food and
drink, companionship. He’d enjoyed the privileges of rank, the satisfactions of
his power, and, indeed, the prestige that went with both. Not a few ladies of
Ailell’s court had found their way to his bedroom or invited him to their own
scented chambers, when they would have scorned to look twice at a chubby
scholar from Seresh. He’d taken his duties as a mage seriously, for all his
genial good nature. He and Barak had performed their peacetime tasks quietly
and without fuss and had served unobtrusively as buffers between the other two
members of the Council of the Mages. He hadn’t begrudged that either. Had he
been asked, in the last years of Ailell’s reign, before the drought had come,
he would have numbered his own thread on the Loom as one of those that shone
most brightly with the glow of the Weaver’s benevolence.
But the drought had come, and Rangat had flamed, and Metran, who’d had wisdom once, as well
as cleverness, had proven himself a traitor. So now they found themselves at
war against the unleashed power of Rakoth Maugrim, and suddenly he, Teyrnon,
was acting First mage to the High King of Brennin.
He was also, or so the nagging,
unspoken premonition at the remotest turning of his mind had been telling him
since yesterday morning, the only mage in Fionavar.
Since yesterday morning, when the
Cauldron of Khath Meigol had been destroyed. He knew nothing specific about
that, nothing about any of the consequences of that destruction, only this
distant premonition, so vague and terrifying he refused to speak of it or give
it a tangible name in his mind.
What he felt, though, was lonely.
The sun had gone down. The rain had
stopped, and the clouds were scudding away to the north and east. The sky in
the west still held to its last hues of sunset shading. But on the beach by the
Anor Lisen it was growing dark, as Loren Silvercloak finished telling the truth
that had to be told.
When he was done, when his quiet,
sorrowful voice had come to an end, those gathered on the beach listened as
Brendel of the lios alfar wept for the souls of his people slain as they sailed
to their song. Sitting on the sand with Arthur’s head cradled in her lap,
Jennifer saw Diarmuid, his expressive features twisted with pain, turn away
from the kneeling figure of the lios and enfold Sharra of Cathal in his arms,
not with passion or desire but in an unexpectedly vulnerable seeking of
comfort.
There were tears on her own cheeks;
they kept falling, even as she wiped them away, grieving for her friend and his
people. Then, looking down, she saw that Arthur was awake and was gazing back
at her, and suddenly she saw herself reflected in his eyes. A single star, very
bright, fell across her reflection as she watched.
Slowly he raised a hand and touched
the cheek where Lancelot’s hand had lain.
“Welcome home, my love,” she said,
listening to the brokenhearted grief of the lios alfar who had guided her to
this place, hearing all the while, within her mind, the patient, inexorable
shuttling of the Loom. “I have sent him away,” she said, feeling the words as
warp to the weft of the storm that had passed. The story playing itself out
again. Crossings and recrossings.
Arthur closed his eyes. “Why?” he
asked, only shaping the word, not quite a sound.
“For the same reason you brought him
back,” she answered. And then, as he looked up at her again, she hurt him, as
she had hurt Lancelot: to do it and have it over and done, because he too had a
right to know.
So Guinevere, who had been childless
in Camelot, told Arthur about Darien, as the western sky gave up its light and
the first stars came out overhead. When she was done, Brendel’s quiet weeping
came also to an end.
There was a star in the west, low
down over the sea, brighter than all the others in the sky, and the company on
the beach watched as the lios alfar rose to his feet and faced that star. For a
long time he stood silent; then he raised both hands and spread them wide,
before lifting his voice in the invocation of song.
Rough at first with the burden of
his grief, but growing more crystalline with each word, each offering,
Na-Brendel of the Kestrel Mark of Daniloth took the leaden weight of his sorrow
and alchemized it into the achingly beautiful, tuneless notes of Ra-Termaine’s
Lament for the Lost, sung as it had never been sung in a thousand years, not
even by the one who had created it. And so on that strand at the edge of the
sea, under all the shining stars, he made a silver shining thing of his own out
of what evil had done to the Children of Light.
Alone of those on the beach below
the Anor, Kimberly took no comfort, no easing of pain, from the clear
distillation of the lament that Brendel sang. She heard the beauty of it,
understood, and was humbled by the grandeur of what the lios alfar was doing,
and she knew the power such music had to heal—she could see it working in the
faces of those beside her. Even in Jennifer, in Arthur, in stern cold Jaelle,
as they listened to Brendel’s soul in his voice, lifted to the watching,
wheeling stars, to the dark forest and the wide sea.
But she was too far gone in guilt
and self-laceration for any of that easing to reach through to her. Was
everything she touched, every single thing that came within the glowering ambit
of the ring she bore, to be twisted and torn by her presence? She was a healer
herself, in her own world! Was she to carry nothing at all but pain to those
she loved? To those who needed her?
Nothing but sorrow. From the
summoning of Tabor and the corruption of the Paraiko last night to her brutal
mishandling of Darien, this morning and then again this evening—when she hadn’t
even arrived in time to warn Jennifer of what was coming. And then, most
bitterly of all, the breaking of the oath she had sworn on Glastonbury Tor. Was
the Warrior’s portion of grief not great enough, she asked herself savagely,
that she’d had to add to it by bandying about the terrible name he was cursed
to answer to?
No matter, she swore, lashing
herself, that Guinevere had said what she had said, giving dispensation. No
matter how desperately they’d needed Flidais to aid them, to hold the secret of
Darien. They would not have needed that aid, or anything at all from him, had
she not presumed to send Darien to this place. She pushed her wet hair back
from her eyes. She looked, she knew, like a half-drowned water rat. She could
feel the single vertical crease in her forehead. It might, she thought
derisively, fool someone into thinking she was wise and experienced: that, and
her white hair. Well, she decided, trembling, if anyone was still fooled after
tonight, it was their own lookout!
A last long wavering note rose up
and then faded away as Brendel’s song came to an end. He lowered his arms and
stood silent on the strand. Kim looked over at Jennifer, sitting on the wet
sand with Arthur’s head cradled in her lap, and saw her friend, who was so much
more than that, motion for her to come over.
She took an unsteady breath and walked
across the sand to kneel beside them. “How is he?” she asked quietly.
“He is fine,” Arthur replied
himself, fixing her with that gaze that seemed to have no ending and to be
filled, so much of the time, with stars. “I have just paid a fairly mild price
for being a too-stubborn helmsman.”
He smiled at her, and she had to
smile back.
“Guinevere has told me what you had
to do. She says she gave you leave, and explained why, but that you will still
be hating yourself. Is this true?”
Kim shifted her glance and saw the
ghost of a smile tracing the edges of Jennifer’s mouth. She swallowed. “She
knows me pretty well,” she said ruefully.
“And me,” he answered calmly. “She
knows me very well, and the dispensation she gave you was also mine. The one
you know as Flidais was Taliesin once—we both knew him a very long time ago. He
is clearly part of the story, though I am not certain how. Seer, do not despair
of brightness flowering from what you had to do.”
There was so much comfort in his
voice, in the calm, accepting eyes. In the face of this it would be hubris,
mere vanity, to hold to her self-condemnation. She said, diffidently, “He said
it was his heart’s desire. The last riddle he did not know. He said . . . he
said he would make light from the darkness of what he had done or die trying to
do so.”
There was a little silence, as the
other two absorbed this. Kim listened to the surf coming in, so gentle now
after the wildness of the storm. Then they sensed rather than heard someone
approaching, and the three of them glanced up at Brendel.
He seemed more ethereal than ever in
the starlight, less tied to the earth, to the pull of gravity. In the dark they
could not see the color of his eyes, but they were not shining. He said, in a
voice like the whisper of the breeze. “My lady Guinevere, with your permission,
I must leave you now for a time. It is . . . it is now my task, over and above
all else I am afraid, to carry the tidings I have just heard to my King in
Daniloth.”
Jennifer opened her mouth to reply,
but another voice made answer to the lios alfar.
“He is not there,” said Jaelle, from
behind them. Her hard voice, usually so imperious, was muted now, more mild
than Kim had thought it could be. “There was a battle two nights ago by the
banks of the Adein, near Celidon. The Dalrei and the men of Rhoden met an army
of the Dark, and Ra-Tenniel led the lios alfar out of the Shadow land,
Na-Brendel. He led them to war on the Plain.”
“And?” It was Loren Silvercloak.
Kimberly listened as Jaelle,
stripped of her usual arrogance, told the tale of how Leila had heard the
blowing of Owein’s Horn, and seen the battlefield through Finn’s presence
there, and then how all of them in the Temple had heard Ceinwen intercede. “The
High King rode north in response to the summonglass the night Prydwen set sail,” she concluded. “They will all be on the Plain by
now, though what they will do I know not. Perhaps Loren can reach for Teyrnon
and answer that for us.”
It was the first time Kim could
remember that High Priestess speaking so to the mage.
Then, a moment later, she learned
that Loren wasn’t a mage any longer. And even as the tale was being told the
ring on her finger began to glow with returning life. She looked down upon it,
fighting hard against the now-instinctive aversion she felt, and within her
mind, as Loren and then Diarmuid spoke of Cader Sedat, an image began to
coalesce.
It was an image she remembered, the
first vision she’d ever had in Fionavar, on the path to Ysanne’s Lake: a vision
of another lake, high among mountains, with eagles flying over it.
Loren said quietly, “The circles, it
seems, have been made complete. It is now my task to go with Matt to Banir Lok,
to help him regain the Crown that he never truly lost, so that the Dwarves may
be brought back from the edge of the Dark.”
“We have a long way to go,” Matt
Sören said, “and not a great deal of time. We will have to set out tonight.” He
sounded exactly as he always had. Kim had a sense that nothing, absolutely nothing,
would ever make him other than he was: the rock upon which all of them, it
seemed, had rested at one time or another.
She looked at Jen and saw the same
thought in her face. Then she looked down at the Baelrath again and said, “You will not get there in time. ”
Even now, even after so much had
happened, it was with a deep humility that she registered the instant silence
that descended over those gathered there when the Seer within her spoke. When
she looked up, it was to meet the single eye of Matt Sören.
“I must try,” he said simply.
“I know,” she replied. “And Loren is
right as well, I think. It does matter, somehow, that you try. But I can tell
you you will not get there in time from this place.”
“What are you saying?” It was
Diarmuid who asked, his voice stripped of nuance as Jaelle’s had been, pared
clean to the simple question.
Kim held up her hand, so they could
all see the flame. “I’m saying I’ll have to go there too. That the Baelrath
will have to take us there. And I think all of us know by now that the Warstone
is a mixed blessing, at the very best.” She tried hard to keep the bitterness
from her voice.
She almost succeeded, too. But in
the stillness that followed, someone asked, “Kim, what happened in the
mountains?”
She turned to Paul Schafer, who had
asked the question, who always seemed to ask the questions that went below the
surface. She looked at him, and then at Loren, beside Paul, gazing at her with
the mix of gentleness and strength that she remembered from the beginning, and
then, most vividly, from the night they’d shared in the Temple, before Kevin
had died. Before she went to Khath Meigol.
So it was to the two of them, so
different yet so much alike in some inexplicable way, that she told the story
of the rescue of the Paraiko and what had followed. Everyone heard, everyone
had to know, but it was to Loren and Paul that she spoke. And it was to Matt
that she turned, at the end, to repeat, “And so you see what I mean: whatever
blessing I carry will not be unmixed.” For a moment he looked at her, as if
considering the point. Then his expression changed; she saw his mouth move in
the grimace that she knew to be his smile and heard him say wryly, “No blade I
have ever known to be worth anything at all has had only a single edge.” That was
all, but she knew those quiet words were all the reassurance she had any right
to seek.
Inclination matched training in the
High Priestess of Dana. And so Jaelle, cold in the falling rain, chilled by
what had happened with Darien and what was happening now, since the shipwreck,
showed nothing at all of her apprehension to anyone on the strand.
She knew, being what she was, that
it had been the voice of Mórnir that had thundered to still the waves, and so
her gaze was on Pwyll first, of all of them, when he came ashore. She
remembered him standing on another beach, far to the south, speaking with
Liranan in a perilous light that came not from the moon. He was alive, though,
and had come back. She supposed she was pleased about that.
They had all come back, it seemed,
and there was someone new with them, and it was not hard to tell, from
Jennifer’s face, who this was.
She had made herself cold and hard,
but she was not stone, however she might try to be. Pity and wonder had moved
her equally to see Guinevere and Lancelot stand together in the rain, as the
setting sun slanted through disappearing clouds low in the west.
She had not heard what they said to
each other, but the language of gesture was plain, and, at the end, when the
man walked away alone into the Wood, Jaelle found herself unexpectedly grieved.
She watched him go, knowing the history, not finding it hard at all to guess
what distancing quest Guinevere had now imposed upon her second love. What was
hard was to preserve her own necessary image of detachment—in the presence of
so many men, and in the turbulent wake of what had happened in the Temple
before she had taken Kim and Sharra away, with blood and the earthroot tapped.
She had needed the Mormae in Gwen
Ystrat to wield such a potent magic, and that meant dealing with Audiart, which
was never pleasant. Most of the time she could manage it without real trouble,
but that afternoon’s exchange was different.
She had been on dubious ground, and
she’d known it, and so had Audiart. It was beyond the irregular, bordering on a
real transgression for the High Priestess to be leaving the Temple—and the
Kingdom—even at a time like this. It was her sacred duty, Audiart reminded her,
along the mindlink the Mormae shared, to remain in the sanctuary, ready and
able to deal with the needs of the Mother, Furthermore, her second-in-command
did not scruple to point out, had not the High King charged her to remain in
Paras Derval and govern the country with the Chancellor? Was it not her further
duty to exploit this unexpected opportunity as best she could in the service of
their unwavering quest for Dana’s return to primacy in the High Kingdom? All of
this, unfortunately, was true. In response, all she could really do was pull
rank, and not for the first time. Not actually dissembling, she had drawn upon
the unease and restlessness she’d been feeling in the Temple and told the
Mormae, without amplification, that it was her judgment, as High Priestess,
that for her to leave at this time was according to the will of Dana—superseding
any traditions or opportunities for gain.
There was also, she had sent along
the mindlink, a very real urgency—which was true, as she had seen from Kim’s
white face and clenched hands as she waited tensely with Sharra under the dome,
oblivious to the closed exchange of the priestesses.
She had made that sending white-hot
with her anger, and she was, still, stronger than any of the others. Very well, Audiart had replied. If you must do this, you must. I will leave for Paras
Derval immediately to act as best I can in your absence.
This was when the real clash had
come, making what had gone before seem like a minor skirmish in a children’s
game.
No, she’d sent back, absolute firmness masking her inner
anxiety. It is my command, and so Dana’s,
that you stay where you are. It is only a week since the sacrifice of Liadon,
and the rites of response are not complete.
Are you mad? Audiart had replied, more nakedly rebellious than ever
before. Which of those chattering idiots,
those insipid nonentities, do you propose to have act in your stead in a time
of war?
A mistake. Audiart always let her
contempt and ambition show through too clearly. Sensing the response of the
Mormae, Jaelle drew a breath of relief. She was going to get away with it.
Every established pattern of precedent would have demanded that the Second of
the Mother come to Paras Derval to take charge in her absence. Had Audiart said
so quietly, with even the most cursorily assumed humility, Jaelle might have
lost this battle. As it was, she sprang to the attack.
Would you like to be cursed and cast out, Second of
Dana? she sent, with
the silken clarity she alone could command over the mindlink. She felt the
Mormae’s collectively indrawn breath at the unveiled threat. Dare you speak so to your High Priestess? Dare you so
denigrate your sisters ? Have a care, Audiart, lest you lose everything your
scheming has won you thus far!
Strong words, almost too strong, but she’d needed to throw them all off
balance for what she had to say next.
I
have chosen my surrogate, and the
Chancellor has been informed on behalf of the High King. I have this afternoon
named the newest member of the Mormae, and she stands beside me, robed in red
and opened now to the mindlink.
Greetings, sisters of the Mother,
Leila sent, on cue.
And even Jaelle, half prepared for
it, had been stunned by the vividness of her words.
On the strand beneath the Anor
Lisen, as the rain slowly came to an end and the sunset tinted the western sky,
Jaelle was remembering that vividness. It offered a confirmation of sorts for
her own instinctive actions and had served to still, quite effectively,
whatever opposition to her peremptory behavior might have been mounted in Gwen
Ystrat. Even so, there was something profoundly unsettling about the mixture of
child and woman in Leila, and her link to the Wild Hunt. Dana had not yet
chosen to reveal to her High Priestess any indication of what all this might
mean.
The voice of Loren Silvercloak, the
mage she had hated and feared all her life, brought her fully back to the
strand. She heard him reveal what had happened to him, and the triumph she
might once have felt at such a revelation of weakness was quite lost in a wave
of fear. They had need of Silvercloak’s power, and they were not going to have
it.
She’d hoped he might be able to send
her home. So far from the Temple she had no magic of her own, no way to get
back by herself—and, it now appeared, no one to help her. She saw the Baelrath
come to life on the Seer’s hand; then she heard where Kim was going with that
power.
She listened to Pwyll’s question—his
first words spoken since Prydwen had run aground and they’d come
ashore. She wondered about him, how one who could speak with the thundered
voice of the God could be so quiet and self-contained and then surface, when
his presence had almost been forgotten, with words that cut through to the
heart of what was happening. She was, she realized, a little afraid of him, and
her attempts to channel that fear into hatred or contempt were not really
working.
Once more she forced her mind back
to the beach. It was growing darker by the minute. In the shadows Diarmuid’s
fair hair was still bright, catching the last color of the western sky. It was
the Prince who spoke now.
“Very well,” he said. “It seems that
what we have been told is all we are going to learn. Let us be grateful to our
charming Priestess for such information as we do have. Now, Loren can’t reach
Teyrnon anymore. Kim, I gather, has had a vision of Calor Diman but nothing of
the armies. And Jaelle has exhausted her store of useful tidings.” The gibe
seemed reflexive, halfhearted; she didn’t bother to respond. Diarmuid didn’t
wait. “Which leaves us dependent,” he murmured, with what seemed to be a
genuinely rueful shake of his head, “upon my own less than exhaustive store of
knowledge about what my beloved brother is likely to do.”
In some inexplicable way, the glib
flow of words had a calming effect. Once more, Jaelle realized, the one she
used to dismiss as the “princeling” knew exactly what he was doing. He had
already decided, and now he was making the decision sound effortless and of
little consequence. Jaelle looked at Sharra, standing beside the Prince. She
wasn’t sure whether or not to pity her, which was another change: once she would
have had no trouble doing so.
“At a time like this,” Diarmuid
continued, “I can do no better than go back to my precocious childhood
memories. Some of you may have known patient, supportive older brothers. I have
been blighted sadly by the lack of such a one. Loren will remember. From the
time I was able to take my first stumbling steps in my brother’s wake, one
thing was manifestly clear: Aileron
never, ever, waited for me.”
He paused and glanced at Loren, as
if seeking his confirmation, but then continued in a voice from which the
flippancy was suddenly gone. “He will not wait now, nor could he, given where
we went. If he is on the Plain with the army and the lios with him, Aileron
will push for battle; I would stake my life on that. In fact, with your leave,
I will stake my life on it, and all of yours. Aileron will
take the fight to Starkadh as swiftly as he can, which to my mind means one
thing only.”
“Andarien,” said Loren Silvercloak,
who, Jaelle suddenly recalled, had taught both Diarmuid and his brother.
“Andarien,” the Prince echoed
quietly. “He will go through Gwynir to Andarien.”
There was a silence. Jaelle was
aware of the sea, and of the forest to the east, and, acutely now, of the dark
shape of Lisen’s Tower looming above diem in the darkness.
“I suggest,” Diarmuid went on, “that
we skirt the western edge of Pendaran, going north from here, angle up through
Sennett across the River Celyn to meet, if childhood memories have any merit at
all, with the army of Brennin and Daniloth and the Dalrei on the borders of
Andarien. If I am wrong,” he concluded, with a generous smile at her, “then at
least we will have Jaelle with us, to terrify whatever the fifty of us find
there.”
She favored him with nothing more
than a wintry glance. His smile grew broader, as if her expression had only
confirmed his statement, but then, in one of his mercurial changes of mood, he
turned and looked at Arthur, who had risen to stand.
“My lord,” said the Prince, with no
levity at all, “such is my counsel at this time. I will attend to any
suggestion you might make, but I knew the geography here, and I think I know my
brother. Unless there is something you know or sense, Andarien is where I think
we must go.”
Slowly the Warrior shook his head.
“I have never been in this world before,” Arthur said in his deep, carrying
voice, “and I never had a brother in any world. These are your men, Prince
Diarmuid. Number me as one of them and lead us to war.”
“We will have to take the women,”
Diarmuid murmured.
She was about to make a stinging
retort, but in that moment something very bright caught her eye, and she turned
to see the Baelrath on Kim’s finger burst into even more imperative flame.
She looked at the Seer as if seeing
her for the first time: the small slim figure with tangled hair, so improbably
white, the sudden appearance of the vertical crease on her forehead. Again, she
had a sense that there seemed to be burdens here greater than her own.
She remembered the moment she had
shared with Kim in Gwen Ystrat, and she wished, a little surprised at herself,
that there were something she could do, some comfort she might offer that was
more than merely words. But Jennifer has been right in what she’d said when
Darien had gone: none of them had any real shelter to offer each other.
She watched as Kim walked over to
Pwyll and put her arms around him, gripping him very hard; Jaelle saw her kiss
him on the mouth. He stroked her hair.
“Till next,” the Seer said, an echo,
clearly, of the world the two of them had left behind. “Try hard to be careful,
Paul.”
“And you,” was all he said.
The Priestess saw her walk over to
Jennifer then, and saw the two women speak, though she could not hear what they
said. Then the Seer turned. She seemed to Jaelle to grow more remote, even as
she watched. Kim gestured Loren and Matt to either side of her. She bade them
join hands, and she laid her own left hand over both of theirs. Then she lifted
her other hand high in the darkness and closed her eyes. In that instant, as if
a connection had been made, the Warstone blazed so brightly it could not be
looked upon, and when the blinding light was gone, so were the three of them.
When he woke it was quite dark in
the Wood. Putting a hand to his head, Flidais could feel that his wound had
healed. The pain seemed to be gone. So too, however, was his right ear. He sat
up slowly and looked around. His father was there.
Cernan had crouched down on his
haunches, not very far away, and was regarding him gravely, the horned head
held motionless. Flidais met the gaze for a long moment in silence.
“Thank you,” he said at length,
speaking aloud.
The antlers dipped briefly in
acknowledgment. Then Cernan said, also aloud, “He was not trying to kill you.”
Nothing has changed, Flidais thought. Nothing at all. It was too old a pattern, laid down
far too long ago, when both he and Galadan were young, for the anger or the
hurt to be strong. He said mildly, “He wasn’t trying not to, either.”
Cernan said nothing. It was dark in
the forest, the moon not yet high enough to lend silver to the place where they
were. Both of them, though, could see very well in the dark, and Flidais,
looking at his father, read sorrow and guilt, both, in the eyes of the god. It
was the latter that disarmed him; it always had.
He said, with a shrug, “It could
have been worse, I suppose.”
The antlers moved again. “I healed
the wound,” his father said defensively.
“I know.” He felt the ragged edge of
tissue where his ear had been. “Tell me,” he asked, “am I very ugly?”
Cernan tilted his magnificent head
in appraisal. “No more than before, “ he said judiciously.
Flidais laughed. And so too, after a
moment, did the god—a deep, rumbling, sensuous sound that reverberated through
the Wood.
When the laughter subsided, it
seemed very quiet among the trees, but only for those not tuned to Pendaran as
were both of these, the forest god and his son. Even with only one ear, Flidais
could hear the whispering of the Wood, the messages running back and forth like
fire. It was why they were talking out loud: there was too much happening on
the silent link. And there were other powers in Pendaran that night.
He was suddenly reminded of
something. Of fire, to be precise. He said, “It really could have gone worse
for me. I lied to him.”
His father’s eyes narrowed. “How
so?”
“He wanted to know who had been in
the Anor. He was aware that someone had. You know why. I said: only myself.
Which was not true.” He paused, then said softly. “Guinevere was, as well.”
Cernan of the Beasts rose to his
feet with a swift animal-lithe motion. “That,” he said, “explains something.”
“What?”
In response, Flidais was offered an
image. It was his father who was offering, and Cernan had never done him actual
harm, although, until just now, little good either. And so, in uncharacteristic
trust, he opened his mind and received the image: a man walking swiftly through
the forest with an utterly distinctive grace, not stumbling, even with the
darkness and the entangling roots.
It was not the one he’d expected to
see. But he knew, quite well, who this was, and so he knew what must have
happened while he lay unconscious on the forest floor.
“Lancelot,” he breathed, an
unexpected note, most of the way to awe, in his voice. His mind raced. “He will
have been in Cader Sedat. Of course. The Warrior will have awakened him. And
she has sent him away again.”
He had been in Camelot. Had seen
those three in their first life, and seen them again, without their knowing
him, in many of the returnings they had been forced to make. He knew the story.
He was a part of it.
And now, he remembered with a flash
of joy, like light in the darkness of the Wood, he knew the summoning name.
That, however, brought back the memory of his oath. He said, “The child is in
the Wood as well . . . Guinevere’s child.” And urgently, “Where is my brother
now?”
“He is running north,” Cernan
replied. For an instant he hesitated. “He passed by the child, not a hundred
yards away . . . some time ago, while you slept. He did not see or sense him.
You have friends in the Wood angry for your shed blood: he was offered no
messages. No one is speaking to him.”
Flidais closed his eyes and drew a
ragged breath. So close. He had a vision of the wolf and the boy passing by
each other in the blackness of the Wood in the hour before moonrise, passing by
so near and not knowing, not ever to know. Or
did they? he wondered.
Was there a part of the soul that reached out, somehow, toward possibilities
barely missed, futures that would never be, because of such a little distance
in a forest at night? He felt a stir of air just then. Wind, with a hint—only
imagined, perhaps—of something more.
He opened his eyes. He felt alert,
sharpened, exalted still, by what had come to pass. There was no pain. He said,
“I need you to do one thing for me. To help me keep an oath.”
The dark eyes of Cernan flashed with
anger. “You too?” he said softly, like a hunting cat. “I have done what I will.
I have healed the damage my son did. How many of the Weaver’s bonds would you
have me break?”
“I too am your son,” Flidais said,
greatly daring, for he could feel the wrath of the god.
“I have not forgotten. I have done
what I will do.”
Flidais stood up. “I cannot bind the
forest in a matter such as this. I am not strong enough. But I do not want the
child killed, even though he burned the tree. I swore an oath. You are god of
the Wood as well as the Beasts. I need your help.”
Slowly, Cernan’s anger seemed to
fade away. Flidais had to look up a long way to see his father’s face. “You are
wrong. You do not need my help in this,” the god said, from the majesty of his
great height. “You have forgotten something, wise child. For reasons I will
never accept, Rakoth’s son has been given the Circlet of Lisen. The powers and
spirits of the Wood will not harm him directly, not while he wears it. They
will do something else, and you should know what that is, littlest one.”
He did know. “The grove,” he
whispered. “He is being guided to the sacred grove.”
“And against what will meet him
there,” said Cernan, “what will meet him and kill him, I have no power at all.
Nor would I desire such power. Even could I do so, I would not intervene. He
should never have been allowed to live. It is time for him to die, before he
reaches his father and all hope ends.”
He was turning to go, having said
all he intended to say, having done the one thing he felt bound to do, when his
son replied, in a voice deep as tree roots, “Perhaps, but I think not. I think
there is more to this weaving. You too have forgotten something.”
Cernan looked back. There was a
first hint of silver in the space where they stood. It touched and molded his
naked form. He had a place where he wanted to be when the moon rose, and the
very thought of what would be waiting for him there stirred his desire. He
stayed, though, for one more moment, waiting.
“Lancelot,” said Flidais.
And turned, himself, to run with
that always unexpected speed toward the grove where Lisen had been born so long
ago in the presence of all the goddesses and gods.
In his anger and confusion, the
bitterness of rejection, Darien had run a long way into the forest before
realizing that it was not the wisest thing to have done.
He hadn’t intended to burn the tree,
but events, the flow of what happened, never seemed to go the way he expected
them to, they never seemed to go right. And when that happened, something else
took place inside of him, and his power, the change in his eyes, came back and
trees burned.
Even then, he’d only wanted the
illusion—the same illusion of fire he’d shaped in the glade of the Summer
Tree—but he’d been stronger this time, and uneasy in the presence of so many
people, and his mother had been beautiful and cold and had sent him away. He
hadn’t been able to control what he did, and so the fire had been real.
And he’d run into the shadows of the
Wood from what seemed to be the colder, more hurtful shadows on the beach.
It was quite dark by now, the moon
had not yet risen, and gradually, as his rage receded, Darien became
increasingly aware that he was in danger. He knew nothing of the history of the
Great Wood, but he was of the andain himself and so could half understand the
messages running through Pendaran, messages about him, and what he had done,
and what he wore about his brow.
As the sense of danger increased, so
too grew his awareness that he was being forced in a particular direction. He
thought about taking his owl shape to fly over and out of the forest, but with
the thought he became overwhelmingly conscious of weariness. He had flown a
long way very fast in that form, and he didn’t know if he could sustain it
again. He was strong, but not infinitely so, and he usually needed a cresting
tide of emotion to source his power: fear, hunger, longing, rage. Now he had
none of them. He was aware of danger but couldn’t summon any response to it.
Numbed, indifferent, alone, he
stayed in his own shape, wearing the clothes Finn had worn, and followed,
unresisting, the subtly shifting paths of Pendaran Wood, letting the powers of
the forest guide him where they would, to whatever was waiting for him there.
He heard their anger, and the anticipation of revenge, but he offered no
response to it. He walked, not really caring about anything, thinking about his
mother’s imperious, cold face, her words: What
are you doing here? What do you want, Darien?
What did he want? What could he be
allowed to want, to hope for, dream of, desire? He had only been born less than a year ago. How could he know what he wanted? He knew only
that his eyes could turn red like his father’s, and when they did trees burned
and everyone turned away from him. Even the Light turned away. It had been
beautiful and serene and sorrowful, and the Seer had put it on his brow, and it
had gone out as soon as it was clasped to him.
He walked, did not weep. His eyes
were blue. The half-moon was rising; soon it would shine down through spaces in
the trees. The Wood whispered triumphantly, malice in the leaves. He was guided,
unresisting, the Circlet of Lisen on his brow, into the sacred grove of
Pendaran Wood to be slain.
Numberless were the years that grove
had lain steeped in its power. Nor was mere any place in any world with roots
so deeply woven into the Tapestry. Against the antiquity of this place even
Mórnir’s claiming of the Summer Tree in the Godwood of the High Kingdom had
been but a blink of time ago—in the days when Iorweth had been summoned to
Brennin from over the wide sea.
For thousands upon thousands of years
before that day, Pendaran Wood had seen summers and winters in Fionavar, and
through all the turnings and returnings of the seasons this grove and the glade
within it had been the heart of the Wood. There was magic here. Ancient powers
slumbered beneath the forest floor.
Here, more than a thousand years ago
(a blink of time, no more), Lisen had been born in the rapt, silent presence of
all the powers of the Wood and the shining company of the goddesses whose
beauty had been hers from the beginning of her days. Here too had come Amairgen
Whitebranch, first mortal, first child of the Weaver not born of the Wood, to
dare a night in that grove, seeking a power for men that did not find its
source in the blood magic of the priestesses. And here had he found that power,
and more, as Lisen, wild and glorious, had returned to the violated glade of
her birth to slay him in the morning and had fallen in love instead, and so
left the Wood.
After that a great deal had changed.
For the powers of the grove, for all of Pendaran, time ran up to the moment she
had died, leaping from the balcony of the Anor, and then it moved forward more
slowly, as if weighted down, from that day.
Since then, since those
war-shattered days of the first coming of Rakoth Maugrim, only one other mortal
had ever come into this place, and he too was a mage, a follower of Amairgen,
and he was a thief. With guile and a cunning use of lore, Raederth the mage had
known exactly when it might be safe to enter Pendaran in search of the thing he
sought.
There was one day and one day only
in every year when the Wood was vulnerable, when it grieved and could not guard
itself. When the seasons came around to the day of Lisen’s leap, the river
running past the Anor ran red into the killing sea with the memory of her
blood, and all the spirits of the forest that could do so gathered at the foot
of the Tower to mourn, and all those that could not travel projected their
awareness toward that place, to see the river and the Anor through the eyes of
those assembled there.
And one year on the morning of that
day Raederth came. Without his source, casting no aura of power, he had entered
the sacred grove and knelt in the glade by the birthing place, and he had taken
the Circlet of Lisen that lay shining on the grass.
By the time the sun went down and
the river ran clear again into the sea, he had been running himself, for a
whole day without pause, and was very near to the eastern fringes of the
forest.
Pendaran had become aware of him
then, and of what he had done, but all the mightiest powers of the Wood were
gathered by the sea and there was agonizingly little they could do. They made
the forest paths change for him, the trees shift and close menacingly about the
fleeing man, but he was too near the Plain, he could see the tall grass in the
light of the setting sun, and his will and courage were very strong, greater
than those of any ordinary thief, and he made his way—though they hurt him,
they hurt him badly—out of the forest and away south again with a shining thing
held in his hands that only Lisen had ever worn.
So now it was with exultation, with
a fierce collective joy, that Pendaran became aware that the Circlet had come
home. Home and in pain, the spirits whispered to each other. It had to be in
agony, with its light extinguished on the brow of one who had torched a tree.
He would go mad and be flayed, mind and body both, before they released him to
death. So they vowed, one to another: the deiena to the leaves of the sentient
trees; the leaves to the silent powers and the singing ones; the dark,
shapeless things of dread to the old, unmoving, deep-rooted forces that had
once been trees and were now something more and intimately versed in hate.
For a moment the whispering stopped.
In that instant they heard Cernan, their lord. They heard him say aloud that it
was past time for this one to die, and they gloried in what he said. There
would be no staying them, no god’s voice to cry them off the
kill.
The sacrifice was led to the grove:
delicately he was guided, the forest paths made smooth and even for his tread;
and as he walked his doom was decreed, and it was decided who would effect it.
All the powers of the Wood were agreed: however bitter his sacrilege, however
sharp the desire to kill lay upon them, they would not themselves act against
one who wore Lisen’s Circlet about his head.
There was another power, though, the
mightiest of all. A power of earth, not of forest, not bound by the griefs and
constraints of the Wood. Even as Darien was being guided, unresisting, to the
sacred grove, the spirits of Pendaran sent down their summons to the guardian
who slept below that place. They woke the Oldest One.
It was very dark in the forest, but
even when he wasn’t in his owl shape he could see very well at night. In some
ways, in fact, the darkness was easier, which was another source of unease. It
reminded him, this affinity, of the night voices calling from the winter of his
boyhood and of how he had been drawn to them.
And that reminded
him of Finn, who had held him back, and told him he had to hate the Dark, and
then had left him alone. He remembered the day, he would always remember: the
day of his first betrayal. He had made a flower in the snow and colored it with
the power of his eyes.
It was quiet in the grove. Now that
he was here, the whisper of the leaves had died down to a gentle rustle in the
night. There was a scent in the air he did not recognize. The grass of the
glade was even and smooth and soft under his feet. He could not see the moon.
Overhead, the stars shone down from the narrow circle of sky framed by the
looming trees.
They hated him. Trees, leaves, the
soft grass, the spirits present behind the trunks of trees, the deiena peeking
through the leaves—all of them hated him, he knew. He should be terrified, a
part of him acknowledged. He should be wielding his own power to break free of
this place, to make them all pay in flame and smoke for their hate.
He couldn’t seem to do it. He was
tired and alone, and he hurt in ways he could never have expressed. He was
ready for an ending.
Near the northern edge of the glade
there was a mound, grass-covered, and upon it there were night flowers open in
the darkness. He walked over. The flowers were very beautiful; the scent of the
grove came from them. Carefully, so as to give no further injury or offense,
Darien sat down on the grass of the mound between two clusters of dark flowers.
Immediately there came a surging,
thrashing sound of fury from the Wood. He leaped to his feet, an involuntary
cry of protest escaping his throat. He’d been careful! He’d harmed nothing!
He’d only wanted to sit awhile in the starlit silence before he died. His arms
went out, openhanded, in a hopeless gesture of appeasement.
Gradually the sound faded, though
there remained, after it was gone, a kind of drumming, a rumbling, scarcely
audible, beneath the grass of the grove. Darien drew a breath and looked around
again.
Nothing moved, save the leaves
rustling slightly in the breeze. On the lowest branch of one of the trees of
the grove a small geiala perched, its soft furry tail held inquisitively high.
It regarded him with a preternatural gravity. Had he been in his owl shape,
Darien knew, the geiala would have fled frantically at first sight of him. But
he appeared harmless now, he supposed. A curiosity. Only a boy at the mercy of
the Wood—which was merciless.
It was all right, he decided, with a
kind of desperate acceptance. It was even easier this way. Everyone, from the
time of his first memories, had spoken to him of choice. Of Light and Dark, and
choosing between the two. But they hadn’t even been able to choose or decide
about him among themselves: Pwyll, who’d taken him to the Summer Tree, had
wanted Dari to be older, to come into this shape so he could come to greater
knowledge. Cernan of the Beasts had wanted to know why he’d even been allowed
to live. The white-haired Seer, fear in her eyes, had given him a shining
object of Light and had watched with him as it went out. Then she’d sent him to
his mother, who’d driven him away. Finn, even Finn, who’d told him to love the
Light, had gone away without a farewell to find a kind of darkness of his own,
in the wide spaces between the stars.
They spoke of choice, of his being balanced
between his mother and his father. He was too
finely balanced, he
decided. It was too hard for all of them and, at the last, for him. It was
easier this way, easier to surrender that need to decide, to give himself over
to the Wood in this place of ancient power. To accept his dying, which would
make things better for everyone. Dead, you couldn’t be lonely, Darien thought.
You couldn’t be this hurt. They were all afraid of him, afraid of what he might
do with the freedom to choose, of what he might become. They wouldn’t have to
be afraid anymore.
He remembered the face of the lios
alfar that last cold morning of winter by the Summer Tree—how beautiful and
shining he had been. And how afraid. He remembered the Seer with her white
hair. She’d given him a gift, which no stranger had ever done, but he’d seen
her eyes, the doubt and apprehension, even before the Light went out. It was
true: they were all afraid of what he would choose.
Except his mother.
The thought found him totally
unprepared. It hit with the force of revelation. She wasn’t
afraid of what he might do. She was the only one who hadn’t tried to lure him,
like the storm voices, or persuade him like the Seer. She had not tried to bind
him to her, or even suggest a path to him. She had sent him away because the
choice was his own, and she was the only one willing to allow that to be so.
Maybe, he thought suddenly, maybe she trusted him.
In the grove, in the darkness, he
saw the flowers on the mound where Lisen had been born, and he saw them clearly
with the night vision of his father, thinking of his mother as he did.
For some reason, then, he remembered
Vae and Shahar, the first mother and father he’d known. He thought about his
two fathers: the one, a helpless minor soldier in the army of Brennin, obedient
to the impersonal orders of the High King, unable to stay by his wife and sons
in the winter cold, unable to keep them warm; the other, a god and the
strongest god, shaper of winter and war. Feared, as he, Darien, was feared for
being his son.
He was supposed to choose between
them.
Looked at one way, there was no
choice at all to be made. His sight in the darkness, the fear he aroused, the
dying of the Light on his brow, all spoke to that. It was as if the choice had
already been made. On the other hand—
He never finished the thought.
“It
would please me if you pleaded for your life.”
If the rocks of the earth’s crust
could speak, they would have sounded like that. The words were a rumbling, a
sliding, as of gigantic stones lurching into motion, a prelude to avalanche and
earthquake.
Darien wheeled. There was a shape
darker than darkness in the glade, and there was a huge hole in the ground,
jagged and irregular, beside the creature that had spoken with the voice of the
earth. Fear leaped in Darien, primeval, instinctive, despite all his
resignation of the moments before. He felt his eyes explode to red; he lifted
his hands, ringers spread, pointing—
And nothing happened.
There came a laugh, deep and low,
like, a shifting of boulders long at rest. “Not here,” said the shape. “Not in
this grove, and not untutored as you are. I have your name, and your father’s.
It is clear what you might become; enough, even, to test me somewhat had we met
long after this. But tonight you are nothing in this place. You do not go
nearly deep enough. It would please me,” it said again, “to hear you plead.”
Darien lowered his arms. He felt his
eyes return to the blue he had from neither father nor mother, the blue that
was his own; perhaps the only thing that was. He was silent, and in that
silence he regarded what had come under the half-moon that rose at last above
the eastern trees to shine palely down.
It held to no fixed shape or hue.
Even as he watched, the creature oscillated ceaselessly through amorphous
forms. It had four arms, then three, then none. Its head was a man’s, then a
hideous mutant shape covered with slugs and maggots, then a boulder,
featureless, as the maggots fell back into the grass and the gaping hole beside
it. It was grey, and mottled brown, and black; it was huge. In all the blurred
shiftings of its shape it had two legs, always, and one of them, Darien saw,
was deformed. In one hand it carried a hammer that was the grey-black color of
wet clay and was almost as large as Darien himself.
Again it spoke, amid the suddenly
absolute, fearful silence of the forest, and again it said, “Will you not
plead, Circlet-bearer? Give me a voice to carry back to my sleep under stone. They
have asked me to leave you alive, tree-burner. They want your flesh and your
mind to flay when the Circlet is gone from your brow. I will offer you an
easier, quicker release, if you but ask for it. Ask, grove-defiler. Only ask;
there is nothing else you can do.”
The face was almost human now, but
huge and grey, and there were worms crawling over it, in and out of the nose
and mouth. The voice was the thickened voice of earth and stone. It said, “It
is night in the sacred grove, son of Maugrim. You are nothing beside me, and
less than that. You do not go nearly deep enough even to make me swing my
hammer.”
“I do, ” said another
voice, and Lancelot du Lac entered the moonlit grove.
They were sleeping on the beach just
south of the Anor. Brendel had disobeyed Flidais’ instructions to the extent of
going inside alone and bringing out blankets and bedding from the lower rooms
where Lisen’s guards had slept. He did not go upstairs again, for fear of once
more stirring Galadan’s awareness of that place.
On a pallet beside Arthur, a little
apart from the others, Jennifer lay in the motionless sleep of utter
exhaustion. Her head was on his shoulder, one hand rested on his broad chest,
and her golden hair was loose on the pillow they shared. Wide awake, the Warrior
listened to her breathing and felt the beat of the heart he loved.
Then the heartbeat changed. She
hurtled bolt upright, instantly awake, her gaze riveted on the high, watching
moon. Her face was so white it made her hair look dark. He saw her draw a shuddering,
afflicted breath. He felt it as a pain within himself.
He said, “He is in danger,
Guinevere?”
She said nothing at all, her gaze
never leaving the face of the moon. One hand was over her mouth. He took the
other, as gently as he could. It trembled like an aspen leaf in an autumn wind.
It was colder than it should ever have been in the mild midsummer night.
He said, “What do you see? Is he in
danger, Guinevere?”
“They both are,” she whispered, eyes
on the moon. “They both are, my love. And I sent them both away.”
He was silent. He looked up at the
moon, and he thought of Lancelot. He held one of Guinevere’s hands clasped
between both of his own broad, square ones, and he wished her peace and heart’s
ease with longing fiercer and more passionate than any he had ever felt for his
own release from doom.
“I go as deep as you,” said the tall
man quietly as he entered the glade. He had a drawn sword in his hand; it
shimmered faintly, catching the silver of the moon. “I know who you are,” he
went on, speaking softly and without haste. “I know you Curdardh, and whence
you come. I am here as champion of this child. If you wish his death, you will
have first to accomplish my own.”
“Who are you?” the demon rumbled.
The trees were loud again all around them, Darien realized. He looked at the
man who had come and he wondered.
“I am Lancelot,” he heard. A memory
stirred at the back of his mind, a memory of games-playing with Finn in the
winter snow. A game of the Warrior, with his King Spear and his friend, his tanist, Finn had said. First of the Warrior’s company, whose
name was Lancelot. Who had loved the Warrior’s Queen, whose name, whose name .
. .
The demon, Curdardh, shifted
position, with a sound of granite dragging over grass. It hefted its hammer and
said, “I had not thought to see you here, but I am not surprised.” It laughed
softly, gravel rolling down a slope. It shifted shape again. It had two heads
now, and both were demon heads. It said, “I will claim no quarrel with you,
Lancelot, and Pendaran knows that you lived a winter in a forest and did no
evil there. You will come to no harm if you leave here now, but I must kill you
if you stay.”
With an absolutely focused inner
quietude, Lancelot said, “You must try to kill me. It is not an easy task,
Curdardh, even for you.”
“I am deep as the earth’s core,
swordsman. My hammer was forged in a pit so deep the fire burns downward.” It
was said as a fact, without bravado. “I have been here since Pendaran was
here,” said Curdardh, the Oldest One. “For all that time I held this grove
sacrosanct, waking only when it was violated. You have a blade and unmatched
skill with it. It will not be enough. I am not without mercy. Leave!”
With the last rumbled command the
trees at the edge of the grove shook and the earth rocked. Darien fought to
keep his balance. Then, as the tremor came to an end, Lancelot said, with a
courtesy strangely, eerily befitting to the place, “I have more than you think,
though I thank you for the kindness of your praise. You should know, before we begin,
for we are going to do battle here, Curdardh, that I have lain dead in Caer
Sidi, which is Cader Sedat, which is the Corona Borealis of the Kings among the
stars. You will know that that castle lies at the axle-tree of all the worlds,
with the sea pounding at its walls and all the stars of heaven turning about
it.”
Darien’s heart was racing, though he
understood only a fragment of what he had heard. He had remembered something
else: Finn, who in those days had seemed to know everything there was in the
world to know, had told him that his mother had been a Queen. The knowledge
made everything even more confusing than it had been already. He swallowed. He
felt like a child.
“Even so,” Curdardh was saying to
Lancelot. “Even with where you have lain, you are mortal, swordsman. Would you
die for the son of Rakoth Maugrim?”
“I am here,” said Lancelot simply,
and the battle began.
Chapter 8
His secretary, Shalhassan of Cathal
decided, at about the same moment, had not been born for the military life.
Raziel on horseback was just a pale shadow—almost literally, in fact—of his
usual efficient self. Already the Supreme Lord had been forced to pause twice
in his dictation while Raziel rummaged frantically in his saddlebag to replace
a broken stylus. Waiting, Shalhassan ran his fingers through his long pleated
beard and scanned the moonlit road in front of his racing chariot.
They were in Brennin, on the road
from Seresh to the capital, riding by moonlight and at speed because war
demanded such things of men. It was a mild summer night, though the tail end of
a major storm had whipped through Seresh late in the day, when he and his
reinforcements from Cathal had crossed the river.
Raziel retrieved a stylus and
promptly dropped it, as he attempted to shift his grip on the reins of his
horse. Shalhassan betrayed not a flicker of response. With his feet firmly on
the ground, Raziel was quite good at what he did; Shalhassan was willing,
marginally, to allow him this deviation from absolute competence. With a wave
of his hand he dismissed his secretary to fall back into the ranks. The
dictation could wait until they reached Paras Derval.
They were not far away. Shalhassan
had a sudden vivid recollection of the last time he’d taken this road eastward
at the head of an army. It had been a winter’s day, diamond-bright, and he’d
been met in the road by a Prince in a white fur cloak and a white hat, with a
red djena feather, brilliant against the snow, for ornament.
And now, not two weeks later, the
snow was utterly gone and the glittering Prince was betrothed to Shalhassan’s
daughter. He was also away at sea; there had been no word in Seresh as to the
fate of the ship that had sailed for Spiral Castle.
There had been word
of the High King: he had ridden north at the head of the army of Brennin and
those of Cathal who were already there, in response to a summonglass calling
from Daniloth, the same night Prydwen had set sail. Shalhassan nodded
tersely to his charioteer and gripped the front rail more firmly as they picked
up speed. It was probably unnecessary, he knew. The odds were that he and this
second contingent were too late to constitute anything but a rear guard at this
stage, but he wanted to see Gorlaes, the Chancellor, to confirm that, and he
also wanted to see his daughter.
They went very fast in the
moonlight. A short time later he was in Paras Derval, and then he was being
ushered, travel-stained, allowing himself no luxury of time to change his
clothing, into the torchlit Great Hall of the palace where Gorlaes stood, one
dutiful step below the level of the empty throne. The Chancellor bowed to him,
the triple obeisance, which was unexpected and gratifying. Besides Gorlaes, and
a farther step below him, stood someone else who also bowed, as deferentially
though rather less ornately, which was understandable, given who it was.
Then Tegid of Rhoden, Intercedent
for Prince Diarmuid, told the Supreme Lord of Cathal that Sharra had gone away,
and stood flinching in anticipation of the explosion that had to come.
Inwardly, it did. Fear and a
towering rage exploded in Shalhassan’s breast, but neither found expression in
his face or bearing. There was ice in his voice, though, as he asked where and
with whom.
It was Gorlaes who answered. “She
went with the Seer and the High Priestess, my lord. They did not tell us where.
If I may say so, there is wisdom in both . . . in all three of them. I do not
think—”
He stopped short at a keen glance
from Shalhassan, whose gaze had quelled more formidable speakers than this one.
At the same time, Shalhassan was aware that his rage had already sluiced away,
leaving only the fear. He himself had never been able to keep his daughter
under control. How could he expect this fat man and the overextended Chancellor
to do better?
He also remembered the Seer very
well, and his respect for her went deep. For what she had done one night in the
Temple at Gwen Ystrat—knifing her way alone into the darkness of Rakoth’s
designs to show them the source of winter—he would always honor her. If she had
gone away it was to a purpose, and the same applied to the High Priestess, who
was equally formidable in her own way.
However formidable they both were,
though, he doubted they would have been able to stop his daughter from joining
them, if she’d decided that was what she wanted to do. Oh, Sharra, he thought. For the ten-thousandth time he wondered if he
had been wise not to remarry when his wife died. The girl had needed some sort of guidance, that much was more and more evident.
He looked up. Above and behind the
Oak Throne of Brennin, set high in the walls of the Great Hall were the
stained-glass windows of Delevan. The one behind the throne showed Conary and
Colan riding north to war. The light of the half-moon, shining outside,
silvered their yellow hair. Well, Shalhassan thought, it would be up to their
successor, the young High King, Aileron, to wage whatever war the northlands
would see now. The instructions were as he’d expected—as, indeed, they had to
be. He would have done exactly the same thing. The men of the second contingent
of Cathal, under the leadership of their Supreme Lord, were to remain in
Brennin, distributed as Shalhassan and Gorlaes deemed wisest, to guard the High
Kingdom and Cathal beyond, as best they could.
He drew his gaze slowly down from
the glory of the window. Looking at Tegid—a contrast worthy of an aphorism—he
said kindly, “Do not reproach yourself. The Chancellor is right—the three of
them will know what they are doing. You may join me, if you like, in
sympathizing with your Prince, who will have to deal with her from henceforth.
If we survive.”
He turned to the Chancellor. “I
would appreciate food, my lord Gorlaes, and instruction to my captains for the
quartering of my men. After that, if you are not weary, I wonder if we might
share some wine and a game of ta’bael? That may be the closest we two get to
war, it seems, and I find it soothes me to play at night.”
The Chancellor smiled. “Ailell used
to say the same thing, my lord. I will be glad to play with you, though I must
warn that I am an indifferent player at best.”
“Might I come watch?” the fat man
asked diffidently.
Shalhassan scrutinized him. “Do you
play ta’bael?” he asked dubiously.
“A little,” said Tegid.
The Supreme Lord of Cathal pulled
his sole remaining Rider backward, interposing it in defense of his Queen. He
favored his opponent with a glance that had made more than one man contemplate
a ritual suicide.
“I think,” he said, more to himself
than to either of the other two men, “that I have just been set up quite
royally.”
Gorlaes, watching, grunted in
commiseration. Tegid of Rhoden picked off the intervening Rider with his
Castle.
“Prince Diarmuid insists,” he
murmured, putting the captured piece beside the board, “that every member of
his band know how to play ta’bael properly. None of us have ever beaten him,
though.” He smiled and leaned back in his chair, patting his unmatched girth
complacently.
Studying the board intently,
searching for a defense to the two-pronged attack that would be unleashed as
soon as Tegid moved the Castle again, Shalhassan decided to divert some of his
earlier sympathy to his daughter, who was going to have to live with this Prince.
“Tell me,” he asked, “does Aileron
also play?”
“Ailell taught both his sons when
they were children,” Gorlaes murmured, filling Shalhassan’s wine flask from a
beaker of South Keep vintage.
“And does the High King also play
now at some rarefied level of excellence?” Shalhassan noted the hint of
exasperation in his voice. The two sons of Ailell seemed to elicit that in him.
“I have no idea,” Gorlaes replied.
“I’ve never seen him play as an adult. He was very good, when he was a boy. He
used to play with his father all the time.”
“He doesn’t play ta’bael anymore,”
said Tegid. “Don’t you know the story? Aileron hasn’t touched a piece since the
first time Diarmuid beat him when they were boys. He’s like that, you know.”
Absorbing this, considering it,
Shalhassan moved his Mage threateningly along the diagonal. It was a trap, of
course, the last one he had. To help it along, he distracted the fat man with a
question. “I don’t know. Like what?”
Pushing hard on the arms of his
chair, Tegid levered himself forward to see the board more clearly. Ignoring
the trap and the question, both, he slid his Castle laterally, exposing
Shalhassan’s Queen once more to attack and simultaneously threatening the Cathalian
Lord’s own King. It was quite decisive.
“He doesn’t like to lose at
anything,” Tegid explained. “He doesn’t do things when he thinks he might
lose.”
“Doesn’t that limit his activities
somewhat?” Shalhassan said testily. He didn’t much like losing, himself. Nor
was he accustomed to it.
“Not really,” said Tegid, a little
reluctantly. “He’s extremely good at almost everything. Both of them are,” he
added loyally.
With such grace as he could muster,
Shalhassan tipped his King sideways in surrender and raised his glass to the
victor.
.”A good game,” said Tegid genially.
“Tell me,” he added, turning to Gorlaes, “have you any decent ale here? Wine is
all very well, but I’m grievously thirsty tonight, if you want to know the
truth.”
“A pitcher of ale, Vierre,” the
Chancellor advised the page standing silently in the doorway.
“Two!” Shalhassan said, surprising
himself. “Set up the pieces for another game!”
He lost that one, too, but won the
third decisively, with immense evening-redeeming satisfaction. Then both he and
Tegid made cursory work of Gorlaes in two other games. It was all unexpectedly
congenial. And then, quite late at night, he and the Chancellor further
surprised themselves by accepting a highly unorthodox suggestion from the sole
member of Prince Diarmuid’s band remaining in Paras Derval.
What was even more surprising to
Shalhassan, ultimately, was how entertaining he found the music and the
ambience and the undeniably pert serving women in the huge downstairs rooms of
the Black Boar tavern and a smaller, darker room upstairs.
It was a late night.
If he did nothing further, Paul
thought, nothing at all from now until whatever ending lay waiting for them, no
one could tax him with not having done his share.
He was lying on the strand near the
river, a little apart, as usual, from all the others. He had lain awake for
hours, watching the wheeling stars, listening to the sea. The moon had climbed
as high as it could go and was westering now. It was very late.
He lay by himself and thought about
the night he had ended the drought and then about the predawn hour when he had
seen the Soulmonger and summoned Liranan, with Gereint’s aid, to battle
Rakoth’s monster in the sea. And then he let his mind come forward to the
moment, earlier this evening, when he had spoken with the voice of Mórnir, and
the sea god had answered again and stilled the waves to let the mariners of Prydwen survive the Weaver’s storm.
He had also, he knew, done something
else almost a year ago: his had been the crossing between the worlds that had
saved Jennifer from Galadan and allowed Darien to be born.
He wondered if those who came after
would curse his name for that. He wondered if there would be anyone to come
after.
He had done his part in this war. No
one could question that. Furthermore, he knew, no one but himself would even
think to raise the issue. The reproaches here, the sleeplessness, the striving,
always, for something more —all of it was internal, a part of
the pattern of his life.
The pattern that seemed woven into
what he was, even in Fionavar. It lay at the heart of why Rachel had left him,
it encompassed the solitariness Kevin Laine had tried so hard to break
through—and had, in some way Paul still hadn’t found time to assimilate.
But solitude appeared, truly, to be
bound into the tangled roots of what he was. Alone on the Summer Tree he’d come
into his power, and it seemed that even in the midst of a great many people, he
still came into it alone. His gift seemed profoundly secret, even from himself.
It was cryptic and self-contained, shaped of hidden lore, and solitary stubborn
resistance to the Dark. He could speak with gods and hear them but never move
among them, and every such exchange drew him farther away from everyone he
knew, as if he’d needed something to do that. Not feeling the cold of the
winter or the lash of the rain that had passed. Sent back by the God. He was
the arrow of Mórnir, and arrows flew alone.
He was, he realized, hopelessly far
from falling asleep. He looked at the half-moon, out over the sea. It seemed to
be calling him.
He rose, with the sound of the surf
loud in his ears. North, toward the Anor, he could see the shadows that were
the sleeping men of South Keep. Behind him the river ran west toward the sea.
He followed it. As he walked, the sand became pebbles and then boulders. He
climbed up on one of them by the water’s edge and saw, by moonlight, that he
was not the only sleepless person on the beach that night.
He almost turned back. But
something—a memory of another beach the night before Prydwen had sailed—made him hesitate, and then speak to the figure
sitting on the dark rock nearest to the lapping waves.
“We seem to be reversing roles.
Shall I give you a cloak?” It came out more sardonically than he’d intended.
But it didn’t seem to matter. Her icy self-possession was unsettlingly
complete.
Without turning or startling, her
gaze still on the water, Jaelle murmured, “I’m not cold. You were, that night.
Does it bother you so much?”
Immediately he was sorry he’d
spoken. This always seemed to happen when they met: this polarity of Dana and
Mórnir. He half turned to climb back down and away but then stopped, held by
stubbornness more than anything else.
He drew a breath and, carefully
keeping any inflection from his voice, said, “It really doesn’t, Jaelle. I
spoke by way of greeting, nothing more. Not everything anyone says to you has
to be taken as a challenge.”
This time she did turn. Her hair was
held back by the silver circlet, but the ends still lifted and blew in the sea
breeze. He could not make out her eyes; the moonlight was behind her, shining
on his own face. For a long moment they were both silent; then Jaelle said,
“You have an unusual way of greeting people, Twiceborn.”
He let out his breath. “I know,” he
conceded. “Especially you.” He took a step, and a short jump down, and sat on
the boulder nearest to hers. The water slapped below them; he could taste salt
in the spray.
Not answering, Jaelle turned back to
look out to sea. After a moment, Paul did the same. They sat like that for a
long time; then something occurred to him. He said, “You’re a long way from the
Temple. How were you planning to return?”
She pushed a loop of hair back with
an impatient hand. “Kimberly. The mage. I didn’t really think about it. She
needed to come here quickly, and I was the only way.”
He smiled, then suppressed it, lest
she think he was mocking her. “At the risk of being cursed or some such thing,
may I say that that sounds uncharacteristically unselfish?”
She turned sharply, glaring at him.
Her mouth opened and then closed, and even by moonlight he could see her flush.
“I didn’t mean that to sting,” he
added quickly. “Truly, Jaelle. I have some idea of what it meant for you to do
this.”
Her color slowly faded. Where the
moon touched it her hair gleamed with a strange, unearthly shading of red. Her
circlet shone. She said simply, “I don’t think you do. Not even you, Pwyll.”
“Then tell me,” he said. “Tell
someone something, Jaelle.” He was surprised at the intensity in his voice.
“Are you one to talk?” she shot back
reflexively. But then, as he kept silent, she added, more slowly and in a
different voice, “I named someone to act in my stead, but I broke the patterns
of succession when I did so.”
“Do I know her?”
She smiled wryly. “Actually, you do.
The one who spied on us last year.”
He felt the edge of a shadow pass
over him. He looked up quickly. No clouds across the moon; it was in his mind.
“Leila? Is it a presumption to ask
why? Is she not very young?”
“You know she is,” Jaelle said
sharply. Then, again as if fighting her own impulses, she went on. “As to why:
I am not certain. An instinct, a premonition. As I told you all earlier this
evening, she is still tuned to Finn, and so to the Wild Hunt. I am not easy
with it, though. I don’t know what it means. Do you always know why you do what
you do, Pwyll?”
He laughed bitterly, touched on the
raw nerve that had kept him awake. “I used to think I did. Not anymore. Since
the Tree I’m afraid I don’t know why I do any
of what I do. I’m going
by instinct too, Jaelle, and I’m not used to it. I don’t seem to have any
control at all. Do you want to know the truth?” The words tumbled out of him,
low and impassioned. “I almost envy you and Kim—you both seem so sure of your
places in this war.”
Her face grave, she considered that.
Then she said, “Don’t envy the Seer, Pwyll. Not her. And as for me . . .” She
turned away toward the water again. “As for me, I have been feeling uneasy in
my own sanctuary, which has never happened before. I don’t think I need be an
object of anyone’s envy.”
“I’m sorry,” he said, risking it.
And seemed to fail, as her glance
flashed swiftly back to him.
“That is presumption,” she said
coldly, “and unasked for.” He held her gaze, refusing to yield to it but
reaching, nonetheless, for something to say. Even as he did, her expression
changed and she added, “In any case, such sorrow as you might feel would be
balanced—overbalanced, in truth—by Audiart’s pleasure, did she learn of this.
She would sing for joy, and, Dana knows, she cannot sing.”
Paul let his mouth drop open.
“Jaelle,” he whispered, “did you just make a joke?”
She gestured in exasperation. “What
do you think we are in the Temple?” she snapped. “Do you think we stalk around
intoning chants and curses day and night, and gathering blood for amusement?”
He left a little silence before
answering, over the sound of the waves. “That sounds about right,” he said
gently. “You haven’t been at pains to suggest otherwise.”
“There are reasons for that,” Jaelle
shot back, quite unfazed. “You are sufficiently acquainted with power by now,
surely, to be able to guess why. But the truth is that the Temples have been my
only home for a long time now, and there was laughter there, and music, and
quiet pleasures to be found, until the drought came, and then the war.”
The problem with Jaelle, or one of
the problems, he decided wryly, was that she was right too much of the time. He
nodded. “Fair enough. But if I was wrong you must concede that it was because
you wanted me to be wrong. You can’t tax me with that misunderstanding now.
That’s one blade that shouldn’t cut both ways.”
“They all cut both ways,” she said
quietly. He had known she would say that. In many ways she was still very
young, though it seldom showed.
“How old were you when you entered
the Temple?” he asked.
“Fifteen,” she answered, after a
pause. “And seventeen when I was named to the Mormae.”
He shook his head. “That is very—”
“Leila was fourteen. She is only
fifteen now,” she cut in, anticipating him. “And because of what I did this
morning, she is of the Mormae now herself, and even more than that.”
“What do you mean?”
She fixed him with a careful regard.
“I have your silence on this?”
“You know you do.”
Jaelle said, “Because I named her to
act for me while I was away and in a time of war, it will follow, by the
patterns of Dana, that if I do not return to Paras Derval, Leila is High
Priestess. At fifteen.”
Despite himself, he felt another
chill, though the night was mild and the skies fair. “You knew this. You knew
this when you named her, didn’t you?” he managed to ask.
“Of course,” she said, with more
than a trace of her effortless scorn. “What do you think I am?”
“I don’t really know,” he said
honestly. “Why did you do it, then?”
The question was direct enough to
give her pause. At length, she answered, “I told you a few moments ago:
instinct, intuition. I have little more than those, much of the time, which is
something for you to consider. You were lamenting your lack of control just
now. Power such as ours is not so easy to manipulate, nor, in truth, should it
be. I do not command Dana, I speak for her. And so, it seems to me, do you
speak for the God, when he chooses to speak. You might give thought, Twiceborn
of Mórnir, as to whether control matters too much to you.”
And with the words, he was suddenly
on a highway in the rain again, hearing the woman he loved tax him with the
same cold flaw, hearing her announce that she was leaving because of it, unable
to find a place in him where need of her found a true voice.
He seemed to be on his feet,
standing above the Priestess by the sea. He wasn’t sure how that had happened.
He looked down and saw his hands clenched at his sides. And then he turned and
was walking away, not from the truth, for that came with him under the stars, but
from the icy green eyes and the voice that had spoken that truth here.
She watched him go, and surprised
herself with regret. She had not meant to wound. Dana knew, she’d intended to
hurt with so many things she’d said to him at one time or another, but not with
that last. It had been kindly meant, as much so as lay within her nature, and
instead she’d found a place where he was raw and vulnerable.
She should, she knew, keep that
knowledge in readiness for encounters to come. But sitting on the rock, thinking
back over what they each had said, it was hard to hold to such cold,
controlling thoughts. She smiled a little to herself at the irony and turned
back toward the sea—to see a ghost ship passing between herself and the setting
moon.
“Pwyll!”
She cried the name
almost without thought. She was on her feet, her heart pounding with terror and
awe.
She could not take her eyes from the
ship. Slowly it moved from north to south across her line of sight, though the
wind was from the west. Its sails were tattered and ragged, and the low moon
shone through them easily. It lit the broken masts, the shattered figurehead,
the smashed upheaval of the deck where the tiller was. Low down by the
waterline she thought she could see a dark hole in the side of the ship where
the sea must have rushed in.
There was no way that ship could
remain afloat. She heard Pwyll’s quick, running footsteps, and then he was
beside her again. She did not turn or speak. She registered the sharp intake of
his breath and voiced an inward prayer of relief: he, too, saw the ship. It was
not a phantom of her own mind, not a prelude to madness. Suddenly he extended
one hand, pointing in silence. She followed the line of his finger.
There was a man, a solitary mariner, standing near the prow of the ship
by the railing nearest to them, and the moon was shining through him as well.
He was lifting something in his
hands, holding it out over the side of the ship toward the two of them, and
Jaelle saw, with a second surge of awe, that it was a spear.
“I would be grateful for your
prayers,” said Pwyll. She heard a beat of unseen wings. She looked up and then
quickly back to him. She saw him step down off the rock where they stood.
And begin to walk across the waves toward the ship.
The provinces of Dana
ended at the sea. Nevertheless, thought Jaelle, the High Priestess.
Nevertheless. She closed her eyes for the first step, knowing she was going to
sink, and set out after him.
She did not sink. The waves barely
wet the sandals she wore. She opened her eyes, saw Pwyll striding purposefully
in front of her, and quickened her pace to catch up. She received a startled
glance as she came abreast.
“You may need more than prayers,”
she said shortly. “And invocations of Dana hold no sway at sea; I told you that
once before.”
“I remember,” he said, stepping a
little upward to clear an advancing wave. “Which makes you either very brave or
very foolish indeed. Shall we call it both?”
“If you like,” she said, masking an
unexpected rush of pleasure. “And accept that I am sorry if what I said before
caused you pain. For once, I hadn’t meant it.”
“For once,” he repeated dryly, but
she was finally beginning to catch the shifting tones in his voice, and this
was mild irony and nothing more. “I know you didn’t mean it,” he said,
negotiating a trough between waves. “I did that one to myself. I’ll try to
explain someday, if you like.”
She said nothing, concentrating on
moving over the water. The sensation was uncanny. Jaelle felt perfectly,
flawlessly balanced. She had to watch where they were going, and what the sea
was doing in front of them, but having done so, it was no trouble to skim along
the surface. The hem of her robe was wet; nothing more. If they hadn’t been
walking toward a ship that had been destroyed a thousand years ago, she might
even have found it pleasurable.
As it was, though, the closer they
came, the more eerily translucent loomed that hollow craft. As they came
alongside, Jaelle could clearly see the gaping holes torn in it at the
waterline, and in the exposed hold of Amairgen’s ship, the sea sparkled with
moonlight.
For such, of course, it was. There
was nothing else it could be, not in the bay of the Anor Lisen. She had
absolutely no idea what power kept it in the visible world, let alone afloat.
But she did know, beyond doubt, who the one mariner high above them had to be.
For a moment, when they stopped, standing upon the waves just below that tall,
ghostly figure, Jaelle thought about the power of love, and she did pray then,
briefly, for Lisen’s peace at the Weaver’s side.
Then Amairgen spoke, or what was
left of him spoke, after so long a death, with the moonlight shining through.
He said, in a voice like a deep-toned reed played by the wind, “Why have you
come?”
Jaelle felt herself rocked, her
balance slipped. She had expected—though she couldn’t think why—a welcome. Not
this cold, flat query. Suddenly the sea seemed terrifyingly dark and deep, and
land a long way off. She felt an impersonal hand on her elbow steadying her.
Pwyll waited until he saw her nod, before turning his attention back to the one
who had spoken from the deck above their heads.
She saw him look up at the mage
slain by the Soulmonger. Pale at the best of times, Pwyll was white and ghostly
himself in the long moonlight. There was no flicker of doubt in his eyes,
though, no hesitation in his voice as he made reply.
“We have come for the spear, unquiet
one. And to bring you the tidings you have sought this many a year.”
“Someone was in the Tower,” the
ghost cried. It seemed to Jaelle as if the wind lifted with the pain in the
words, the long burden of loss. “Someone was in the Tower, and so I am come
again, where I never came as living man, to the place where she died. Who stood
in that room to draw me back?”
“Guinevere,” said Pwyll, and waited.
Amairgen was silent. Jaelle was
aware of the rocking of the sea beneath her. She glanced down a moment and then
quickly back up: it had seemed to her, dizzyingly, that she’d seen stars below
her feet.
Amairgen leaned forward over the
railing. She was the High Priestess of Dana, and standing above her was the
ghost of the one who had broken the power of Dana in Fionavar. She should curse
him, a part of her was saying, curse him as the priestesses of the Goddess did
at the turning of every month. She should let her blood fall in the sea below
where she stood as she spoke the most bitter invocation of the Mother. It was,
as much as anything had ever been, her duty. But she could not do it. Such
hatred for his ancient deed was not within her tonight, nor would it ever be
again, she somehow knew. There was too much pain, too pure a sorrow here. All
the stories seemed to be merging into each other. She gazed up at him and at
what he held and kept silent, watching. He was foreshortened by the angle, but
she could descry his chiseled, translucent features, the long pale locks of his
hair, and the mighty gleaming spear he cradled in both his hands. He wore a
ring on one finger; she thought she knew what it was.
“Is the Warrior here, then?”
Amairgen asked, a breath on a moonlit reed.
“He is,” said Pwyll. And added,
after a moment, “So too is Lancelot.”
“What!”
Even in darkness and from where she
stood, Jaelle saw his eyes suddenly gleam like sapphires in the night. His
hands shifted along the spear. Pwyll waited, unhurried, for the figure above
them to absorb the implications of that.
Then, both of them standing on the
tossing waves beside the ship heard Amairgen say, very formally now, “What
tidings have you for me after so long?”
Jaelle, surprised, saw tears on
Pwyll’s face. He said, very gently, “Tidings of rest, unquiet one. You are
avenged, your staff has been redeemed. The Soulmonger of Maugrim is dead. Go
home, first of the mages, beloved of Lisen. Sail home between the stars to the
Weaver’s side and be granted peace after all these years. We have gone to Cader
Sedat and destroyed the evil there with the power of your staff held by one who
followed you: by Loren Silvercloak, First Mage of Brennin. What I tell you
tonight is true. I am the Twiceborn of Mórnir, Lord of the Summer Tree.”
There came a sound then that Jaelle
never forgot for what was left of her days. It came not from Amairgen but,
rather, seemed to rise from the ship itself, though no one at all was to be
seen: a high keening sound, twinned somehow to the slanting moon in the west,
balanced achingly between ecstasy and pain. She realized, suddenly, that there were other ghosts here, though they could not be seen. Others manned that
doomed ship.
Then Amairgen spoke, over the sound
of his mariners, and he said to Pwyll, “If this is so, if it has come to pass,
then in the name of Mórnir I release the Spear into your trust. But there is
one thing I will ask of you, one thing further that is needed before I can
rest. There is one more death.”
For the first time she saw Pwyll
hesitate. She didn’t know why, but she did know something else, and she said,
“Galadan?”
She heard Pwyll draw a breath, even
as she felt the sapphire eyes of the one who had found the skylore fix
themselves on her own. She willed herself not to flinch. She heard him say,
“You are a long way from your Temples and your thirsty axe, Priestess. Do you
not fear the killing sea?”
“I fear the Unraveller more,” she
said, pleased to hear her voice strong and unwavering. The killing sea, she registered, sorrowing: Lisen. “And
I hate the Dark more than I ever hated you, or any of the mages who followed
you. I am saving my curses for Maugrim, and”—she swallowed—“and I will pray,
after tonight, to Dana, for your peace and Lisen’s.” She ended, ritually, as
Pwyll had done. “What I tell you tonight is true. I am the High Priestess of
the Goddess in Fionavar.”
What have I said? she thought in bemused wonder. But she kept that, she hoped,
from her eyes. Gravely, he looked down upon her from the ruined ship, and she
could see, for the first time, something in him that went beyond power and
pain. He had been loved, she remembered. And had loved so much that it had
bound him in grief, beyond death through all the years, to this bay where Lisen
had died.
Over the sounds that came from the
torn hulk of his ship, Amairgen said, “I will be grateful for your prayers.”
Pwyll’s words earlier, she thought,
exactly his words. It seemed to her that this had become a night outside of
time, where everything signified, in some way or another.
“Galadan,” Amairgen repeated. The
wailing from the dark ship was louder now. Joy and pain, she heard them both.
She saw the moon shine through the sundered hulk. It was dissolving, even as
she watched. “Galadan,” Amairgen cried, one last time, looking down at the
Twiceborn as he spoke.
“I have sworn it,” said Pwyll, and
Jaelle heard, for the first time, a doubt in his voice. She saw him draw a
breath and lift his head higher. “I have sworn that he is mine,” he said, and
this time it carried.
“Be it so,” said Amairgen’s ghost.
“May your thread never be lost.” He was starting to fade; she could see a star
shine through him. He raised the spear, preparing to drop it over the side to
them.
The provinces of Dana ended at the sea; she had no power here. But she
was still what she was, and a thought came to Jaelle then, as she stood on the
dark waves.
“Wait!”
she cried, sharp and
clear in the starry night. “Amairgen, hold!”
She thought it was too late, he was
already so translucent, the ship so emphemeral they could see the low moon
through its timbers. The wailing of the invisible mariners seemed to be coming
from very far away.
He came back, though. He did not let
loose the spear, and slowly, as they watched, he took again a more substantial
form. The ship had gone silent, bobbing on the gentle swells of the bay.
Beside her, Pwyll said nothing,
waiting. There was nothing, she knew, he could say. He had done what he could;
had recognized this ship for what it was, had known the spear and ventured
forth out over the waves to claim it and set the mage free of his long,
tormented sailing. He had brought tidings of revenge, and so of release.
The other thing, what might happen
now, was hers, for he could not know what she knew.
The mage’s cold, spectral gaze was
fixed upon her. He said, “Speak, Priestess. Why should I hold for you?”
“Because I have a question to ask,
speaking not only for Dana but in the name of Light.” Suddenly she was afraid
of her own thought, of what she wanted from him.
“Ask it then,” Amairgen said, high
above.
She had been High Priestess for too
long to be so direct, even now. She said, “You were about to let go of the
spear. Did you think thus to be so easily quit of your task in carrying it?”
“I did,” he replied. “By giving it
into your custody with the Warrior in Fionavar.”
Summoning all her courage, Jaelle
said coldly, “Not so, mage. Should I tell you why?”
There was ice in his eyes, they were
colder than her own could go, and with her words there came a low, ominous
sound from the ship again. Pwyll said nothing. He listened, balanced on the
waves beside her.
“Tell me why,” Amairgen said.
“Because you were to give the spear
to the Warrior for use against the Dark, not to carry far off from the fields
of war.”
From the moonlit winter of his
death, the mage’s expression seemed acidly sardonic. “You argue like a
Priestess,” he murmured. “It is clear that nothing has changed in Gwen Ystrat,
for all the years that have run by.”
“Not
so,” said
Pwyll quietly, surprising both her and the mage. “She offered to pray for you,
Amairgen. And if you are able to see us clearly, you will know that she was
crying for you as she spoke. You will also know, better than I, what a change
that marks.”
She swallowed, wondering if she had
really wanted him to see that. No time to think about it.
Instead, she lifted her voice again.
“Hear me, Amairgen Whitebranch, long said to have hated Rakoth Maugrim and the
legions of the Dark more than any man who ever lived. The High King of Brennin
is riding from Celidon even now—so we believe. He is taking war to Maugrim in
Andarien again, as the High King did in your own day. We have as far to go as
the army does, and we are on foot. Neither the Warrior with his spear nor any
of us here by the Anor will be there in time. We have three days’ walking
through Sennett, perhaps a fourth, before we cross Celyn into Andarien.”
It was true. She had known it, and
Diarmuid and Brendel too. They’d had no other choices, though, once agreeing
that Aileron would be riding north from the battle he’d missed by Celidon. They
would simply have to walk, as fast and as far as they could. And pray.
Now they might have a choice. A
terrible one, but the times were terrible and it seemed as if she might be
charged with this part of their remedy.
“If what you tell me is true,” the
ghost said, “then, indeed, you have cause to fear. You had a question, though.
I have stayed for it. Speak, for courtesy will not hold me any longer in this
hour of our release.”
And so she asked it: “Will your ship
carry mortal men, Amairgen?”
Pwyll drew a sharp breath.
“Do you know what you are asking?”
Amairgen said, very softly.
It was cold now among the waves, in
the lee of that pale ship. She said, “I think I do.”
“Do you know that we are released
now? That tidings of the Soulmonger’s death mark our release from bondage in
the sea? And you would bind us longer yet?”
It had all become very hard. She
said, “There is no binding I have, mage. I have no power here, no hold upon
you. I have asked a question, nothing more.” She realized that she was
trembling.
For what seemed an interminable
time, the ghost of Conary’s mage was silent. Then, in a voice like a stir of
wind, he said, “Would you sail with the dead?”
The killing sea, she thought for the second time.
There was a marrow-deep fear within her, so far from the Temples she knew. She
masked it, though, and then beat it back.
“Can
we do so?” she asked.
“There are some fifty of us, and we must be at the mouth of the Celyn two
mornings hence.”
In front of them the timbers of the
ship showed black and splintered. There were broken shards at the waterline and
one vast, gaping hole where the sea was flowing in.
Amairgen looked down, his pale hair
ruffled by the night breeze. He said, “We will do this thing. For a night and a
day and a night we will carry you past the Cliffs of Rhudh into Sennett Strand
and men down again to where Celyn finds the sea. I will earn the prayers you
offered, High Priestess of Dana. And the salt of your tears.”
It was hard to tell in the thin
moonlight, and she was a long way below him, but it seemed to her there was
some kindness in his smile.
“We can carry you,” he said. “Though
you will see none of the mariners, and myself only when the stars are overhead.
There is a ladder aft of where you stand. You may both come aboard, and we will
moor the ship by the jetty at the foot of the Anor for your companions.”
“It is very shallow,” said Pwyll.
“Can you go so close?”
At that, Amairgen suddenly threw back his head and laughed, harsh and
cold in the darkness above the sea.
“Twiceborn of Mórnir,” he said, “be
very clear what you are about to do. There are no seas too shallow for this
ship. We are not here.
Nor will you be, when
once you stand upon this deck. I ask you again—would you sail with the dead?”
“I would, “said Pwyll calmly, “if
that is what we must do.”
Together the two of them walked
along the sea to where a rope ladder hung over the almost translucent side of
the rotting ship. They looked at each other, saying nothing. Pwyll went first,
entrusting his weight to the ladder. It held, and slowly he went up, to stand
at length upon the deck. Jaelle followed. It seemed a long way to climb, upon
nothing, to reach nothingness. She tried not to let herself think about it.
Pwyll reached out a hand for her. She took it, and let him help her onto the
deck. It held her weight, though looking down she could see right through the
planks. There were waves washing through the hold below. Quickly she looked up
again.
There seemed to be no wind suddenly,
but the stars were brighter where they stood, and the moon also. Amairgen did
not approach. He walked to the tiller and, with no one visible to aid him,
began bringing the ship in toward the dock.
No one visible, but all around her
Jaelle now heard footsteps, and then the creaking of the tattered sails as they
suddenly flapped full, though still she could feel no breath of wind. There
were faint voices, a thread of what might have been laughter; then they were
sailing toward the Anor. Looking to the land, she saw that all the others had
awakened by now and were waiting there in silence. She wondered if they could
see her and what she and Pwyll must look like, standing here; if they had
become as ghosts themselves. And what they would be when they stepped down off
this ship, if ever they did.
It did not seem that words were
necessary. Diarmuid, unsettlingly quick as he always seemed to be, had already
grasped what was happening. Amairgen gentled his ship to the foot of Lisen’s
Tower, a thing, Jaelle knew, that he had never done as a living man. She looked
over at him but could read nothing at all in his face. She wondered if she had
imagined the smile she thought she’d seen from below.
There was no more time for
wondering. The first of the men from the jetty were coming over the rail,
wonder in their eyes and apprehension in various measures. She and Pwyll moved
to help them. Last of all were Sharra, then Guinevere and Arthur; finally,
Diarmuid dan Ailell came aboard.
He looked at Pwyll, and then his
blue eyes swung to Jaelle to hold her with a long glance. “Not much of a ship,”
he murmured at length, “but I’ll concede it was fairly short notice.”
She was too strained to even try to
think of a response. He didn’t give her a chance, in any case. Bending swiftly,
he kissed her cheek—which was not, by any measure, something to be
permitted—and said, “Very brightly woven, First of Dana. Both of you.” And he
moved over and kissed Pwyll, as well.
“I didn’t know,” said Pwyll dryly,
“that you found this sort of thing so stimulating.”
And that, Jaelle decided gratefully,
would do for her response as well.
They were all on board now, all
silent among the tread of the invisible mariners, and the filling of sails that
should have been too tattered to fill, in a wind that none of them felt.
Jaelle turned to see Amairgen
walking slowly toward Arthur, the spear cradled in his hands. There was one
more thing to be done, she realized.
“Be welcome,” the dead mage said to
the Warrior. “Insofar as the living can be welcome here.”
“Insofar as I am living,” Arthur
replied quietly.
Amairgen looked at him a moment,
then sank down on one knee. “I have had charge, in this world, of a thing that
belongs to you, my lord. Will you accept the King Spear from my hands?”
They were moving out to sea,
rounding the curve of the bay, swinging north under the stars.
They heard Arthur say, simply, in
the deep voice that carried the shadings of centuries and of so many wars, “I
will accept it.”
Amairgen lifted the spear. Arthur
took it, and as he did, the head of the King Spear blazed blue-white for a
dazzling instant. And in that moment the moon set.
Guinevere wheeled abruptly as if
she’d heard a sound. In silence she looked back at the strand, and at the
forest beyond. Then, “Oh, my love,” she whispered. “Oh, my dear love.”
The battle had been going on for a
long time when Flidais finally reached the sacred grove. He was the last to
arrive, he realized. All the moving spirits of the Wood were here, ringing the
circle of the glade, watching, and those who could not travel were present as
well, having projected their awareness to this place, to see through the eyes
of those assembled here.
They made way for him as he
approached, though some more readily than others, and he registered that. He
was the son of Cernan, though. They made room for him to pass.
And passing through that shadowy
company he came to the very edge of the glade and, looking within, saw Lancelot
battling desperately by starlight for his life, and Darien’s.
Flidais had lived a very long time,
but he had only seen the Oldest One once before, on the night the whole of
Pendaran had gathered, as it had now, to watch Curdardh rise up from the riven
earth in order to slay Amairgen of Brennin, who had dared to pass a night in
the glade. Flidais had been young then, but he was always a wise, watchful
child, and the memory was clear: the demon, disdaining its mighty hammer, had
sought to smash and overwhelm the mind of the arrogant intruder who was mortal,
and nothing more, and could never resist. And yet, Flidais remembered, Amairgen
had resisted. With an iron will and courage that Cernan’s younger son had never
yet, in all the years that had spun between, seen surpassed, he had battled
back against the Oldest One and prevailed.
But only because he had help.
Flidais would never forget the
shocked thrill he’d felt (like the taste of forbidden wine in Macha’s cloud
palace, or his first and only glimpse of Ceinwen rising naked from her pool in
Faelinn Grove) at his sudden realization that Mórnir was intervening in the
battle. At the end, after Amairgen had driven back Curdardh, in the grey hour
before dawn, the God—asserting after, with the daunting authority of his
thunder voice, that he had been summoned and bound by Amairgen’s victory—sent
down a visitation of his own to the mortal, and so granted him the runes of the
skylore.
Afterward, Mórnir had had to deal
with Dana—which had occasioned a chaos among the goddesses and gods that,
Flidais thought, back in the glade again a thousand years later, had nothing
and everything to do with what was happening now. But two clear truths
manifested themselves to the diminutive andain as he watched the figures
battling here under the stars.
The first was that, for whatever
unknown reason—and Flidais was ignorant, as yet, of Lancelot’s sojourn among
the dead in Cader Sedat—the demon was using his hammer and his terrifying
physical presence as well as the power of his mind in this battle. The second
was that Lancelot was fighting alone, with nothing but his sword and his skill,
without aid from any power at all.
Which meant, the watching andain
realized, that he could not win, despite what he was and had always been:
matchless among all mortals in any and all of the Weaver’s worlds.
Flidais, remembering with brilliant
clarity when he had been Taliesin in Camelot and had first seen this man fight,
felt an ache in his throat, a tightness building in his broad chest, to see the
hopeless, dazzling courage being wasted here. He surprised himself: the andain
were not supposed to care what happened to mortals, even to this one, and
beyond that he was a guardian of the Wood himself and the sacred grove was
being violated by this man. His own duty and allegiance should have been as
clear as the circle of sky above the glade.
A day ago, and with anyone else
perhaps, they would have been. But not anymore, and not with Lancelot. Flidais
watched, keen-eyed by starlight, and betrayed his long trust by grieving for
what he saw.
Curdardh was shifting shape
constantly, his amorphous, fluid physicality finding new and deadly guises as
he fought. He grew an extra limb, even as Flidais watched, and fashioned a
stone sword at the end of it, a sword made from his own body. He challenged
Lancelot, backed him up to the trees at the eastern side of the glade with that
sword, and then, with effortless, primeval strength, brought his mighty hammer
swinging across in an obliterating blow.
Which was eluded, desperately, by
the man. Lancelot hurled himself down and to one side, in a roll that took him
under the crushing hammer and over the simultaneously slashing sword,
and then, even as he landed, he was somehow on his knees and lashing out
backhanded with his own blade—to completely sever Curdardh’s newest arm at the
shoulder. The stone sword fell harmlessly on the grass.
Flidais caught his breath in wonder
and awe. Then, after a moment of wild, irrational hope, he exhaled again, a
long sigh of sorrow. For the demon only laughed—unwearied, unhurt—and shaped
another limb from its slate-grey torso. Another limb with another sword,
exactly as before.
And it was attacking again, without
slackening, without respite. Once more Lancelot dodged the deep-forged hammer,
once more he parried a thrust of the stone sword, and this time, with a motion
too swift to clearly follow, he knifed in, himself, and stabbed upward at the
earth demon’s dark maggot-encrusted head.
That had to cause it
pain, Flidais thought, astonished, still, to find how much he cared. And he
seemed to be right, for Curdardh hesitated, rumbling wordlessly, before
sinuously beginning to change again: shaping this time into a living creature
of featureless stone, invulnerable, impervious to blade, wherever forged,
however wielded. And it began to track the man about the small ambit of the
glade, to cut him off and crush the life out of him.
Flidais realized then that he had
been right from the first. Every time Lancelot did damage, any kind of injury,
the demon could withdraw into a shape that was impregnable. It could heal
itself of any sword-delivered wound while still forcing the tiring man to elude
its dangerous pursuit. Even with the crippled leg, Flidais saw—ritually maimed
millennia ago to signify the tethering of the demon to guardianship of this
place—Curdardh was agile and deadly, and the glade was small, and the trees of
the grove around and the spirits watching there would not allow the man any
escape, however momentary, from the sacrosanct place he had violated. And where
he was to die.
He, and someone else. Tearing his
eyes away from the grueling hurtful combat, Flidais looked over to his right.
The boy, his face bone white, was watching with an expression absolutely
unreadable. As he looked at Rakoth’s son, Flidais felt the same instinctive
withdrawal he had known on the beach by the Anor, and he was honest enough to
name it fear. Then he thought about who the mother was, and he looked back
again at Lancelot battling silently in darkness for this child’s life, and he
mastered his own doubts and walked over the grass at the edge of the glade to
Darien.
“I am Flidais,” he said, thereby breaking
his own oldest rule for such things. What were rules, though, he was thinking,
on a night such as this, talking to such a one as this child was?
Darien moved sideways a couple of
steps, shying away from closer proximity. His eyes never left the two figures
fighting in front of them.
“I am a friend to your mother,”
Flidais said, struggling uncharacteristically for the right words. “I ask you
to believe that I mean you no malice.”
For the first time the boy turned to
him. “It doesn’t really matter,” he said, scarcely above a whisper. “You can’t
make any difference, can you? The choice is being taken away.”
Chilled, Flidais seemed to see him
clearly for the first time, suddenly aware in that moment of how young Darien
was, and how fair, and, for his vision was keen in the darkness, of how blue
the boy’s eyes were.
He couldn’t, though, however hard he
tried, escape the image of their crimson flashing on the beach and the blaze of
the burning tree.
There was a sudden loud rumble of
sound from the glade, and Flidais pressed quickly back against the trunk of one
of the trees. Not six feet away, Lancelot was retreating toward them, pursued,
with a sound like dragging scree, by the demon in its impervious rock shape. As
Lancelot drew near, Flidais saw that his whole body was laced with a network of
cuts and purpling bruises. Blood flowed freely from his left shoulder and his
right side. His clothing hung in tattered, bloodstained ribbons from bis body,
and his thick black hair lay plastered to his head. Rivulets of perspiration
ran continuously down his face. Every few moments, it seemed, he had to lift
his free hand, ignoring the wound, and claw sweat free from his eyes so he
could see.
Insofar as he could see at all. For
he was only mortal, and unaided, and even the half-moon had long since passed
out of sight to the west, hidden by the towering trees that ringed the glade.
Only a handful of stars looked down from above on this act of courage by the
tormented, scintillant soul of Lancelot du Lac—the single most gallant,
impossible act of courage ever woven into the Tapestry.
Bound by his own duty to the Wood
and by the power of that place, Flidais watched helplessly as the two of them
drew closer yet. He saw Lancelot, lithe and neat-footed, mastering pain and
weariness, drop to one knee, just out of reach of the advancing demon and,
lunging forward and down, level a scything blow of his sword at the demon’s
leg, the only part of the slate-grey rock shape that was not impervious to
iron.
But nimbly, for all its grotesque,
worm-infested ugliness, the demon of the grove spun away from the thrust. With
terrifying speed, he shaped a new sword arm and, even as the weapon coalesced,
launched a savage blow downward against the sprawling man. Who rolled, in a
racking, contorted movement, and thrust up his own bright blade to meet the
overpowering descent of Curdardh’s stone sword.
The blades met with a crash that
shook the glade. Flidais clenched his fists, his heart hammering, and then he
saw that even agamst this, even against the full brutal strength of the demon’s
arm, Lancelot had held firm. His blade did not break, nor his muscled arm give
way. The swords met and it was the stone that shattered, as Lancelot rolled
again, away from the edge of the glade, and scrambled, chest heaving
convulsively, to his feet.
With, Flidais saw, another wound. A
jagged fragment of the broken sword of the demon had cut him anew. His shirt
shredded to confining strips, Lancelot tore it off and stood bare-chested in
the middle of the glade, dark blood welling from a wound over his heart. He
balanced on the balls of his feet, his unflinching eyes on his adversary, his
sword held out once more, as he waited for Curdardh to come at him again.
And Curdardh, with the primeval,
pitiless, unwearied power of earth, came. Once more shifting shape, away from
the awkward though invulnerable guise of rock, once more it gave itself a
head—almost human it was, though with only a single monstrous eye in the center
from which black grubs and beetles fell like tears—and once more, most
terribly, it brought forth the colossal hammer from some place within itself.
Taking hold of it with an arm so brawny it seemed as thick around as Lancelot was
at the chest, the demon surged forward, seeming to cover the space of the glade
with one huge stride, and, roaring like an avalanche, brought the hammer
crashing down on the waiting man.
Who dodged yet again, though
narrowly, for the demon was brutally swift. Flidais felt the ground shake again
with the impact of the blow, and when Curdardh moved on, pursuing, always
pursuing, the watching andain saw a smoking hole in the scorched grass of the
glade where the hammer had fallen like doom.
On it went, on and on, till Flidais,
driving his nails unconsciously into the palms of his hands, thought that his
own heart would shatter from strain and weariness. Again and again Lancelot
eluded the ruinous hammer and the slashing swords the demon shaped from its own
body. Twice more the man succeeded in severing the arms that swung the stone
blades, and twice more he was able to leap in, with a shining grace worthy of
the watching stars, and wound Curdardh, once in the eye and then in the neck,
forcing it each time into the protective, recuperative shape of rock.
This gave some respite to the man,
but only a little, for even in that form the demon could attack, striving to
corner Lancelot against the impervious wall of the trees ringing the glade and
crush his life away against the dark, mottled mass of its body.
Once more an attack brought demon
and man near to where Flidais stood beside Darien. And once more Lancelot
managed to fling himself away. But this time his shoulder landed in one of the
smoking holes the hammer had gouged, and Flidais heard him grunt involuntarily
with pain, and saw him scramble, with an awkward desperation this time, away
from the renewed assault. He was burnt now, the andain realized, horror and
pity consuming his own soul.
He heard a strangled sound from
beside him and realized that Darien, too, had registered what had happened. He
looked over, briefly, at the boy, and his heart stopped, literally, for a
moment. Over and over in his hands Darien was twisting a bright dagger blade,
seeming almost oblivious to the fact that he was doing so. Flidais had glimpsed
a telling flash of blue, and so he knew what that blade was.
“Be careful!” he whispered urgently.
He coughed; his throat was dry. “What are you thinking of doing?”
For only the second time Darien
looked directly at him. “I don’t know,” the boy said, painfully young. “I made
my eyes red before you came . . . that is how I have my power.” Flidais fought,
successfully this time, to conceal his fear. He nodded. Darien went on, “But
nothing happened. The rock thing said it was because I did not go deep enough
to master it. That I had no power here. So I. . .” He paused and looked down at
the knife. “I thought I might . . .”
Through the black night, and through
the blackness of what was happening and the pity and horror he felt, Flidais of
Pendaran seemed to see, within his mind, a faint, almost illusionary light
gleaming in a far, far distance. A little light like the small cast glow of a
candle in a cottage window at night, seen by a traveler in a storm far from
home.
He said, in his rich, deep voice,
“It is a good thought, Darien. It is worthy of you, and worthy of the one who
is doing this for you. But do not do it now, and not with that blade.”
“Why?” Darien asked, in a small
voice.
“Once shall I tell you, and for your
ears only, and once is enough for those who are wise,” Flidais intoned,
reverting, if briefly, to his cryptic elusiveness. He felt a familiar rush of
pleasure, even here, even with what was happening, that he knew this. And that reminded him—past pleasure, reaching joy—of what else,
now, he knew. And remembering that, he remembered also that he had sworn an
oath earlier that night, to try to shape a light from the darkness all around.
He looked at Darien, hesitating, then said, quite directly, “What you are
holding is named Lokdal. It is the enchanted dagger of the Dwarves, give to
Colan dan Conary a long time ago.”
He closed his eyes for a moment, to
summon up the exact phrasing, given him by a wine-drowsy mage one spring night
seven hundred years ago beside an evening fire on the edge of the Llychlyn
Marsh. “Who strikes with this blade
without love in his heart,” said
Flidais, as the words came back, “shall
surely die. ” And
then he told the rest of it: “Who kills
with love may make of his soul a gift to the one marked with the pattern on the
dagger’s haft.” Potent words, and a deep-delved,
intricate magic.
Darien was looking down, gazing at
the traced pattern on the hilt of the blade. He glanced up again and said, so
quietly Flidais had to strain to hear him, “I wouldn’t wish my soul on anything
alive.” And then, after a pause, the andain heard him say, “My gift was to be
the dagger itself, before I was brought to this place.”
“A gift to whom?” Flidais asked,
though within himself he knew.
“To my father, of course,” said
Darien. “That I might find a welcome somewhere in the worlds.”
There had to be something to say to
that, Flidais was thinking. There had to be an adequate response, so much
depended on it. But he couldn’t think, for once. He couldn’t find words, and
then, suddenly, he didn’t have time for them either.
There came a rumbling crash from the
glade, louder than any before, and this time there was a resonance of triumph
within it. Flidais turned back just in time to see Lancelot hurtle through the
air, clipped by the very end of a hammer swing he’d not quite dodged. It would
have smashed the life from him had it hit more squarely. As it was, the merest
glancing blow had knocked him flying halfway across the glade, to a bruising,
crumpled landing beside Darien.
Curdardh, tireless, sensing an
ending at last, was advancing toward him again. Dripping blood, desperately
weary, his left arm now hanging uselessly at his side, Lancelot somehow, by an
effort of will Flidais could not even comprehend, dragged himself to his feet.
In the instant before the demon was
upon him he turned to Darien. Flidais saw their eyes lock and hold. Then he
heard Lancelot say quickly, in a voice drained of all inflection, “One final
cast, in memory of Gawain. I have nothing left. Count ten for me, then scream. And then pray to whatever you like.”
He had time for no more.
Sidestepping with a half-spin, he launched himself in another rolling dive away
from the murderous hammer. It smote the ground where he had stood, and Flidais
flinched back from the thunder of that stroke and the heat that roared up from
the riven ground.
Curdardh wheeled. Lancelot was on his feet again, swaying a little. The
demon made a loose, spilling sound and slowly advanced.
Flidais felt as if his heart was
going to tear apart in his chest even as he stood there. The ticking seconds
were the longest he had ever known in a long life. He was a guardian of the
Wood, of this grove, as much as was Curdardh. These two had defiled the glade! Three. He couldn’t look at Darien. The demon slashed with
his sword. Lancelot parried, stumbling. Five. Again Curdardh thrust with the
stone blade, the gigantic hammer held high, in readiness. Again the man
defended himself. He almost fell. Flidais suddenly heard a rustling of
anticipation in the leaves of the watching trees. Seven. Chained to silence, forced to bear witness, the
andain tasted blood in his mouth: he had bitten his tongue. Curdardh, fluid,
sinuous, utterly unwearied, moved forward, feinting with the sword. Flidais saw
the hammer rise higher. He lifted his hands in a useless, pitiful gesture of
denial.
And in that instant a sound such as
Flidais had never heard in all his years exploded from Darien.
It was a scream of anguish and rage,
of terror and blinding agony, torn whole and bleeding from a tortured soul. It
was monstrous, insupportable, overwhelming. Flidais, battered to his knees by
the pain of it, saw Curdardh quickly glance backward.
And Lancelot made his move. With two
quick strides and a straining upward leap he slashed his bright blade downward
with stupefying strength and completely severed the arm that he’d never been
able to reach until now.
The arm that held the monstrous
hammer.
The demon roared with shock and
pain, but even as it did, it was already causing itself to flow back over the
amputated limb, growing it again. Flidais saw that out of the corner of one
eye.
But he was watching Lancelot who had
landed neatly from his unbelievable blow, who had hurled his sword away from
him, toward Darien and Flidais, and who was bending now, breathing harshly,
over the hammer of Curdardh.
His left arm was useless. He wrapped
his right hand about the shaft and, groaning with the effort, fought to lift
it. And failed. The hammer was vast, unimaginably heavy. It was the weapon of a
demon, of the Oldest One. It had been forged in fires deeper than the chasms of
Dana. And Lancelot du Lac was only a man.
Flidais saw the demon shape two new
swords from its body. He saw it advance again, with a wet, gurgling sound of
rage and pain. Lancelot glanced up. And Flidais, on his knees, unable to move,
unable to so much as breathe, was given a new measure, in that moment, of the
magnitude of mortal man. He saw Lancelot will
himself—there was no
other word—to raise the black hammer with one hand.
And it moved.
The handle came off the ground, and
then, beyond comprehension, so did the monstrous head. The demon stopped, with
a grinding sound, as Lancelot, his mouth wide open in a soundless scream of
uttermost endeavoring, used the initial momentum of that lifting to wheel
himself through a full circle, his arm extended flat out, the muscles ridged,
corded, glistening, the hammer inexorably rising with the speed of his motion.
Then he let it fly. And that mighty
hammer, forged in downward-burning fires, thrown with all the passion of an
unmatched soul, smashed into the chest of Curdardh, the Oldest One, with a
sound like the earth’s crust cracking, and it shattered the demon of the grove
into fragments and pieces and shards, killing it utterly.
Flidais felt the silence as a weight
upon his life. He had never known Pendaran to be so still. Not a leaf rustled,
not a spirit whispered; the powers of the Wood lay as if enchanted in an awed
stupefaction. Flidais had a sense, absurdly, that even the stars above the
glade had ceased to move, the Loom itself lying silent and still, the Weaver’s
hands at rest.
He looked down on his own trembling
hands, and then, slowly, he stood up, feeling the motion like a returning into
time from another world entirely. He walked over, amid the silence, to stand by
the man in the center of the grove.
Lancelot had pulled himself to a
sitting position, his knees bent, his head lowered between them. His left arm
hung uselessly at his side. There was dark blood on the grass, and it was
welling still from half a dozen wounds. There was an ugly burn on his shoulder,
raw and blistered, where he had rolled in the scorching pit of a hammer blow.
Then Flidais, coming nearer, saw the other burn, and his breath lodged
painfully in his chest.
Where the man’s hand—once so
beautiful—had gripped the hammer of Curdardh, the skin of his palm was
blackened and peeled away in thick strips of violated flesh.
“Oh, Lancelot,” the andain murmured.
It came out as a croak, almost inaudible.
Slowly the man lifted his head. His
eyes, clouded with pain, met those of Flidais, and then, unbelievably, the
thinnest trace of a smile lifted the corners of his mouth.
“Taliesin,” he whispered. “I thought
I saw you. I am sorry—” He gasped and looked down at the seared flesh of his
palm. Then he looked away and continued. “I am sorry I could not greet you
properly, before.”
Flidais shook his head mutely. He
opened his mouth, but no words came. He cleared his throat and tried again,
formally. “It has been told for centuries that you were never matched in your
day of earthly knight’s hand. What you battled tonight was not mortal and should
never have been defeated. I have never seen a thing to match it and I never
will. What may I offer you, my lord Lancelot?”
The mortal eyes, holding his own,
seemed to grow clearer. “Your silence, Taliesin. I need your silence about what
happened here, lest all the worlds learn of my shame.”
“Shame?”
Flidais felt his voice
crack.
Lancelot lifted his head to gaze at
the high stars overhead. “This was single combat,” he said quietly. “And I
sought aid from the boy. It will be a mark against my name for so long as time
shall run.”
“In the name of the Loom!” Flidais
snapped. “What idiocy is this? What about the trees, and the powers of the Wood
that aided Curdardh and hemmed you in? What about this battleground where the
demon’s power was greater than anywhere else? What about the darkness, where it
could see and you could not? What about—”
“Even so,” murmured Lancelot, and
the little andain’s sharp voice was stilled. “Even so, I besought aid in single
combat.”
“Is that so terrible?” said a new
voice.
Flidais turned. Darien had come
forward from the edge of the glade. His expression was calm now, but Flidais
could still see the shadow of its contorted anguish when the boy had screamed.
“We both would have died,” Darien
went on. “Why is it so terrible to have asked that one small thing?”
Lancelot swung to look at him. There
was a moment’s stillness; then he said, “Save in one thing only, a love for
which I will make eternal redress, I have served the Light in everything I have
ever done. In that service, a victory won with a tool of the Dark is no victory
at all.”
Darien took a step backward. “Do you
mean me?” he asked. “A tool of the—”
“No,” Lancelot murmured quietly.
Flidais felt his cold fear coming back, as he looked at the boy. “No. I mean
the thing I did.”
“You saved my life,” Darien said. It
sounded like an accusation. He did not step forward again. “And you, mine.”
Quietly, still. “Why?” Darien shouted suddenly. “Why did you do it?”
The man closed his eyes for a
moment, then opened them. “Because your mother asked me to,” he said simply.
With the words Flidais heard a
rustling in the leaves again. There was an ache in his heart.
Darien stood as if poised for
flight, but he had not yet moved. “She knew I was going to my father,” he said,
less loudly. “Did she tell you? Do you know that you have saved me to do that?”
Lancelot shook his head. He lifted
his voice, though clearly it took an effort. “I have saved you to follow your
road.”
Darien laughed. The sound knifed
into Flidais. “And if it leads north?” the boy asked coldly, in a voice that
sounded older suddenly. “Due north to the Dark? To Rakoth Maugrim?”
Lancelot’s eyes were undisturbed,
his voice utterly calm. “Then it leads there by your choice, Darien. Only thus
are we not slaves: if we can choose where we would walk. Failing that, all is
mockery.”
There was a silence, broken, to
Flidais’ horror, by the sound of Darien laughing again, bitter, lonely, lost.
“It is, though,” said the boy. “It is all mockery. The light went out when
I put it on. Don’t you know that? And why, why should I choose to walk in any case?”
There was an instant of silence.
“No!” Flidais cried, reaching out to
the child.
Too late. Perhaps it had always been
too late: from birth, from conception amid the unlight of Starkadh, from the
time the worlds first were spun, Flidais thought, heartsick.
The eyes blazed savagely red. There
came a roaring sound from the powers of the Wood, a blurring of shapes in the
grove, and suddenly Darien was not there anymore.
Instead, an owl, gleaming white in
the darkness, darted swiftly down into the grass, seized a fallen dagger in its
mouth, and was aloft and away, wheeling out of sight to the north.
To the north. Flidais gazed at the
circle of night sky framed by the towering trees, and with all his soul he
tried to will a shape to be there. The shape of a white owl returning, flying
back to land beside them and turn into a child again, a fair child, with mild
blue eyes, who had chosen the Light and been chosen by it to be a bright blade
in the looming dark.
He swallowed. He looked away from
the empty sky. He turned back to Lancelot—who was on his feet, bleeding, burnt,
swaying with fatigue.
“What are you doing?” Flidais cried.
Lancelot looked down on him. “I am
following,” he said calmly, as if it were the most obvious thing imaginable.
“Will you help me with my sword?” He held up his mangled palm; his left arm
hung at his side.
“Are you mad?” the andain
spluttered.
Lancelot made a sound that managed
to be a laugh. “I have been mad,” he admitted. “A long time ago. But not now,
little one. What would you have me do? Lie here and lick my wounds in a time of
war?”
Flidais did a little dance of sheer
exasperation. “What role can you play if you kill yourself?”
“I am aware that I’m not good for
much, right now,” Lancelot said gravely, “but I don’t think these wounds are
going to—”
“You’re going to follow?” the andain interrupted, as the full
import of Lancelot’s words struck him. “Lancelot, he’s an owl now, he’s flying! By the time you even get out of Pendaran he will be—”
He stopped abruptly, in
mid-sentence.
“What is it? What have you thought
of, wise child?”
He hadn’t been a child for a very
long time. But he had, indeed, thought of something. He looked up at the man,
saw the blood on his bare chest. “He was going to fly due north. That will take
him over the western edge of Daniloth.”
“And?”
“And he may not get through. Time is
very strange in the Shadowland.”
“My sword,” said Lancelot crisply.
“Please.”
Somehow Flidais found himself
collecting the discarded blade and then the scabbard. He came back to Lancelot
and, as gently as he could, buckled the sword about the man’s waist.
“Will the spirits of the Wood let me
pass?” Lancelot asked quietly.
Flidais paused to listen to the
messages passing around them and beneath their feet.
“They will,” he said at length, not
a little surprised. “For Guinevere, and for your blood spilled tonight. They do
you honor, Lancelot.”
“More than I merit,” the man said.
He drew a deep breath, as if gathering reserves of endurance, from where,
Flidais knew not.
He scowled upward at Lancelot. “You
will go easier with a guide. I will take you to the borders of Daniloth, but I
have a condition.”
“Which is?” Always, the mild
courtesy.
“One of my homes lies on our way.
You will have to let me dress your wounds when we come there.”
“I will be grateful for it,” said
Lancelot.
The andain opened his mouth, a
cutting retort readied. He never said it. Instead, he turned and stomped from
the grove, walking north. When he had gone a short way he stopped and looked
back, to see a thing of wonder.
Lancelot was following, slowly, on
the dark and narrow path. All about him and from high above, the mighty trees
of Pendaran Wood were letting fall their green leaves, gently, on a night in
the midst of summer, to honor the passage of the man.
Chapter 10
She had flamed red to travel once
before, in her own world, not this one: from Stonehenge to Glastonbury Tor. It
was not like the crossings. Passing between the worlds was a coldness and a
dark, a time without time, deeply unsettling. This was different. When the
Baelrath blazed to let her travel, Kim felt as if she truly touched the
immensity of its power. Of her own power. She could blink distance to
nothingness. She was wilder than any other magic known, more akin to Macha and
Red Nemain in those hurtling seconds than to any mortal woman ever born.
With one difference: an awareness
harbored deep within her .heart that they were goddesses, those two, profoundly
in control of what they were. And she? She was
a mortal woman, only
that, and as much borne by the Baelrath as bearing it.
And thinking so, carrying her ring,
carried by it, she found herself coming down with Loren and Matt—three mortals
riding the currents of time and twilit space—onto a cleared threshold high up
in sharp mountain air. Before them, two mighty bronze doors towered in majesty,
worked with intricate designs in blue thieren and shining gold.
Kim turned to the south and saw the
wild dark hills of Eridu rolling away into shadow. Land where the death rain
had fallen. Above her, some night bird of the high places lifted a long lonely
cry. She listened to its echoes fading, thinking of the Paraiko moving, even
now, among those desolate tarns and the high-walled, plague-ravaged cities
beyond, gathering the raindead, cleansing Eridu.
She turned north. A gleam of light
from high above drew her eyes. She looked up, far up, beyond the grandeur of
the twinned doors of the Kingdom of the Dwarves, to see the peaks of Banir Lok
and Banir Tal as they caught the last light of the setting sun. The bird called
again, one long, quavering, descending note. Far off, there was another gleam,
as if in answer to the day’s-end shining of the twin peaks overhead. To the
north and west, higher by far than anything else, Rangat claimed the last of
the light for its own.
None of them had spoken. Kim looked
over at Matt Sören, and her hands closed involuntarily at her side. Forty years, she thought, gazing at her friend who had once been—who yet
was—the true King of the realm beyond these doors. His arms were spread wide,
hands open, in a gesture of propitiation and utmost vulnerability. In his face
she read, clear as calligraphy, the marks of longing, of bitterness, and
bitterest pain.
She turned away, to meet the eyes of
Loren Silver-cloak. In them she saw the burden of his own difficult, complex
grief and guilt. She remembered—knew that Loren had never forgotten—Matt’s
telling them all in Paras Derval about the tide of Calor Diman in his heart,
the tide he had fought ceaselessly for the forty years he’d served as source to
the one-time mage.
She turned back to the doors. Even
in the dusk she could make out the exquisite tracery of gold and thieren. It
was very quiet. She heard the thin sound of a pebble, dislodged somewhere and
falling. The twin peaks were dark now, overhead, and dark, too, she knew, would
be Calor Diman, the Crystal Lake, high and hidden in its meadow bowl between
the mountains.
The first stars appeared delicately
in the clear sky. Kim looked down at her hand: the ring flickered quietly, its
surge of power spent. She tried to think of something to say, of words to ease
the sorrows of this threshold, but she feared there might be danger in sound.
Beyond that, there was a texture, a woven weight to this silence that, she
sensed, was not hers to shoulder or to shoulder aside. It encompassed the spun
threads of the lives of the two men here with her, and more—the long,
many-stranded destiny of an ancient people, of the Dwarves of Banir Lok and
Banir Tal.
It went back too far beyond her,
even with her own twinned soul. So she kept her peace, heard another pebble
dislodged, another bird cry, farther away, and then listened as Matt Sören
finally spoke, very softly, never looking around. “Loren, hear me. I regret
nothing: not a breath, not a moment, not the shadow of a moment. This is truth,
my friend, and I swear it to be such in the name of the crystal I fashioned
long ago, the crystal I threw in the Lake on the night the full moon made me
King. There is no weaving the Loom could have held to my name that I can
imagine to be richer than the one I have known.”
He lowered his hands slowly, still
facing the awesome grandeur of the doors. When he spoke again, his voice was
rougher and even lower than before. “I am . . . glad, though, that the threads
of my days have brought me to this place again, before the end.”
Loving him, loving them both, Kim
wanted to weep. Forty years, she thought again. Something shone
in the depths of Loren’s eyes, shone as the twin peaks had with the last of the
sun. She felt a swirl of mountain winds on the high threshold, heard a sound
behind her of gravel sliding.
Was turning to see, when the blow
fell on the base of her skull and knocked her sprawling to the ground.
She felt consciousness sliding away.
Tried desperately to cling to it, as if it were a physical thing that could be
held, that had to be held. But, despairing, she
knew she was going to fail. It was going, sliding. Pain exploding in her head.
Blackness coming down. There were sounds. She could not see. She was lying on
the stony plateau before the doors, and the last thought she had was of brutal
self-mockery. Akin to the goddesses of war, she had imagined herself, only
moments ago. Yet, for all the arrogance of that, and for all the gifts of the
Seers that Ysanne had lavished upon her, she’d not been able to sense a simple
ambush.
That was her last thought. The very
last thing she felt, with a helpless terror that went beyond thought, was
someone taking the Baelrath from her hand. She tried to cry out, to resist, to
flame, but then it seemed as if a slow wide river had come and it carried her
away into the dark.
She opened her eyes. The room rocked
and spun, both. The floor dropped sickeningly away, then rushed precipitously
back toward her. She had a stupefying headache and, even without moving a hand to
feel it, knew she had to have an egg-sized lump on the back of her head. Lying
carefully motionless, she waited for things to settle. It took a while.
Eventually she sat up. She was in a
windowless chamber by herself. There was a pearly light, mercifully gentle, in
the room, though she couldn’t see where it was coming from: the stone walls
themselves, it seemed, and the ceiling. There was no door either, or none that
she could see. A chair and a footstool stood in one corner. On a low table
beside them rested a basin of water— which reminded her of how thirsty she was.
The table seemed a long way off, though; she decided to wait a few moments
before chancing that journey.
She was sitting—had been lying—on a
small bed at least a foot too short for her. Which reminded her of where she
was. She remembered something else and looked down.
The ring was gone. She had not
imagined that last, terrible sensation. She thought she was going to be sick.
She thought of Kaen, who was leader here, though not King. Kaen and his
brother, Blod, who had broken the wardstone of Eridu, who had found the
Cauldron of Khath Meigol and given it to Maugrim. And now they had the
Baelrath.
Kim felt naked without it, though
she still wore the belted gown she’d been wearing all day, from the time she’d
risen in the cottage and seen Darien. All day? She didn’t even know what day it
was. She had no idea of the time, but the diffused light emanating from the
stone had the hue of dawn to it. She wondered about that, and about the absence
of any door. The Dwarves, she knew, could do marvelous things with stone under
their mountains.
They could also, under Kaen and
Blod, be servants of the Dark such as Maugrim had never had before. She thought
about Lokdal and then, of course, about Darien: the constant fear at the
bedrock of everything. Apprehension mastered sickness and pain, driving her to
her feet. She had to get out! Too much was happening. Too much depended on her!
The surge of panic faded, leaving
her with the sudden grim awareness that without the Baelrath not much, in fact,
really did depend on her anymore. She tried to take heart from the simple fact
that she was still alive. They had not killed her, and there was water here,
and a clean towel. She tried to draw strength from the presence of such things:
tried and failed. The ring was gone.
Eventually she did walk over to the
low table. She drank deeply of the water—some property of the stone basin had
kept it chilled—and washed herself, jolted breathlessly awake by the cold. She
probed her wound: a bruise, large, very tender, but there was no laceration.
For small favors she gave thanks.
Things do happen, she remembered her grandfather
saying, in the days after her gran had died. We got to soldier on, he had said. She set her jaw. A certain resolution came back into her
grey eyes. She sat down in the chair, put her feet up on the stool, and
composed herself to wait, grim and ready, as the color of the light all around
gradually grew brighter, and then brighter still, through the hours of what had
to be morning outside, echoed by craft or magic or some fusion of both, in the
glowing of the stones within the mountain.
A door opened. Or, rather, a door appeared in the wall opposite Kim and then swung soundlessly outward.
Kim was on her feet, her heart racing, and then she was suddenly very confused.
She could never have explained
rationally why the presence of a Dwarf woman should surprise her so much, why
she’d assumed, without ever giving it a moment’s thought, that the females
among the Dwarves should look like . . . oh, beardless, stocky equivalents of
fighting men like Matt and Brock. After all, she herself didn’t much resemble
Coll of Taerlindel or Dave Martyniuk. At least on a good day she didn’t!
Neither did the woman who had come
for her. A couple of inches shorter than Matt Sören, she was slim and graceful,
with wide-set dark eyes and straight black hair hanging down her back. For all
the delicate beauty of the woman, Kim nonetheless sensed in her the same
resilience and fortitude she’d come to know in Brock and Matt. Formidable,
deeply valued allies the Dwarves would be, and very dangerous enemies.
With everything she knew, with the
pain in her head and the Baelrath gone, with the memory of what Blod had done
to Jennifer in Starkadh and the brutal awareness of the death rain unleashed by
the Cauldron, it was still, somehow, hard to confront this woman as an avowed
foe. A weakness? A mistake? Kim wondered, but nevertheless she managed a half
smile.
“I was wondering when someone would
come,” she said. “I’m Kimberly.”
“I know,” the other woman said, not
returning the smile. “We have been told who you are, and what. I am sent to
bring you to Seithr’s Hall. The Dwarfmoot is gathering. The King has returned.”
“I know,” said Kim, dryly, trying to
keep the irony out of her tone, and the quick surge of hope. “What is
happening?”
“A challenge before the Elders of
the Moot. A word-striving, the first in forty years. Between Kaen and Matt
Sören. No more questions; we have little time!”
Kim wasn’t good with orders. “Wait!”
she said. “Tell me, who . . . who do you support?”
The other woman looked up at her
with eyes dark and unrevealing. “No more questions, I said.” She turned and
went out.
Pushing her hair back with one hand,
Kim hastened to follow. They turned left out the door and made their way along
a series of ascending, high-ceilinged corridors lit by the same diffused
natural-seeming light that had brightened her room. There were beautifully
sculpted torch brackets along the walls, but they were not in use. It was
daytime, Kim concluded; the torches would be lit at night. There were no
decorations on the walls, but at intervals—random, or regulated by some pattern
she had no chance to discern—Kim saw a number of low plinths or pillars, and
resting on top of each of them were crystalline works of art, exquisite and
strange. Most were abstract shapes that caught and reflected the light of the
corridors, but some were not: she saw a spear, embedded in a mountain of glass;
a crystal eagle, with a wingspan fully five feet across; and, at a junction of
many hallways, a dragon looked down from the highest pedestal of all.
She had no time to admire or even
think about any of this. Or about the fact that the hallways of this kingdom
under the two mountains were so empty. Despite the width of the
corridors—clearly built to allow the passage of great numbers—she and the Dwarf
woman passed only a few other people, men and women of the Dwarves, all of whom
stopped in their tracks to gaze up at Kimberly with cold, repressive stares.
She began to be afraid again. The
art and mastery of the crystal sculptures, the casual power inherent in the
vanishing doorways and the corridor lighting, the very fact of a race of people
dwelling for so very long under the mountains . . . Kim found herself feeling
more alien here than she had anywhere else in Fionavar. And her own wild power
was gone. It had been entrusted to her, dreamt by a Seer on her hand, and she
had lost it. They had left her the vellin bracelet, though, her screen and
protection from magic. She wondered why. Were vellin stones so commonplace here
as to be not worth taking?
She had no time to think this
through either, no time, just then, for anything but awe. For her guide turned
a last corridor, and Kim, following her, did the same and stood within one of
the vast, arched entranceways to the hall named for Seithr, King during the
Bael Rangat.
Even the Paraiko, she thought, let
alone mortal men or the lios alfar, would be made to feel small in this place.
And thinking so, she came most of the way to an awareness of why the Dwarves
had built their Moot Hall on this scale.
On the level she and her guide were
on, there were eight other arched entrances to the circular chamber, each of
them as lofty and imposing as the one wherein she stood. Looking up,
dumbfounded, Kim saw that there were two other levels of access to the chamber,
and on each of these, as well, nine arches allowed entry into the prodigious
hall. Dwarves were filtering through all the arches, on all three levels. A
cluster of Dwarf women walked past, just then, pausing to fix Kim with a
collective regard, stern and unrevealing. Then they went in. Seithr’s Hall was
laid out in the manner of an amphitheater. The ceiling of the chamber was so
high, and the light all around so convincingly natural, that it seemed to Kim
as if they might, indeed, be outside, in the clear cold air of the mountains.
Caught in that illusion, still
gazing upward, she saw that there seemed to be birds of infinite variety
wheeling and circling in the huge bright spaces high above the hall. Light
flashed, many-colored, from their shapes, and she realized that these too were
creations of the Dwarves, held aloft and in apparent freedom of flight by a
craft or art beyond her comprehension.
A dazzle of light from the stage
below drew her eye, and she looked down. After a moment she recognized what she
was looking at, and as soon as she did, her gaze whipped back, incredulous, to
the circling birds overhead, from which the reflection of color and light was
exactly the same as it was from the two objects below.
Which meant that the birds, even the
spectacular eagles, were made not of crystal, as were the sculptures she had
seen in the corridors as they approached, but of diamond.
For resting on deep red cushions on
a stone table in the middle of the stage were the Diamond Crown and Scepter of
the Dwarves.
Kim felt a childish desire to rub
her eyes in disbelief, to discover if, when she took her hands away, she would
still see what she was seeing now. There were diamond eagles overhead!
How could the people who were able
to place them there, who wanted them there, be allies of the Dark?
And yet . . .
And yet from the real sky outside
these mountain halls a death rain had fallen on Eridu for three full nights and
days. And it had fallen because of what the Dwarves had done.
For the first time she became aware
that her guide was watching her with a cool curiosity, to gauge her response to
the splendor of the Hall, perhaps to glory in it. She was awed and humbled. She
had never seen anything like it, not even in her Seer’s dreams. And yet . . .
She put her hands in the pockets of her gown. “Very pretty,” she said casually.
“I like the eagles. How many of the real ones died in the rain?”
And was rewarded—if it really was a
reward—to see the Dwarf woman go as pale as the stone walls of Kim’s room had
been when she awoke at dawn. She felt a quick surge of pity but fiercely
suppressed it, looking away. They had freed Rakoth. They had taken her ring.
And this woman had been sufficiently trusted by Kaen to be sent to bring Kim to
this place.
“Not all the birds died,” her guide
said, very low, so as not to be overheard, it seemed. “I went up by the Lake
yesterday morning. There were some eagles there.”
Kim clenched her fists. “Isn’t that
just wonderful,” she said, as coldly as she could. “For how much longer, do you
think, if Rakoth Maugrim defeats us?”
The Dwarf woman’s glance fell away
before the stony rage in Kim’s eyes. “Kaen says there have been promises,” she
whispered. “He says—” She stopped. After a long moment she looked Kim squarely
in the face again, with the hardihood of her race. “Do we really have any
choice? Now?” she asked bitterly.
Looking at her, her anger sluicing
away, Kim felt as if she finally understood what had happened, what was still
happening within these halls. She opened her mouth to speak, but in the moment
there came a loud murmur from within Seithr’s Hall, and she quickly glanced
over at the stage.
Loren Silvercloak, limping slightly,
leaning on Amairgen’s white staff, was making his way behind another Dwarf
woman to a seat near the stage.
Kim felt an overwhelming relief:
only momentarily, though—for as Loren came to his seat she saw armed guards
move to take up positions on either side of him.
“Come,” her own guide said, her cool
detachment completely restored by the pause. “I am to lead you to that place as
well.”
And so, pushing back that one
aggravating strand of hair yet again, walking as regally and as tall as she
could, Kim followed her into the Moot Hall. Ignoring the renewed rustle of
sound that greeted her appearance, she descended the long, wide aisle between
the seats on either side, never turning her head, and, pausing before Loren,
chanced and succeeded in the first curtsy of her life.
In the same grave spirit he bowed to
her and, bringing one of her hands to his lips, kissed it. She thought of
Diarmuid and Jen, the first night they had come to Fionavar. Most of a long
lifetime ago, it seemed. She gave Loren’s hand a squeeze and then, ignoring the
guards, let her glance—imperious, she devoutly hoped—sweep over the assembled
Dwarves.
Doing so, she noticed something. She
turned back to Loren and said, softly, “Almost all women. Why?”
“Women and older men. And the
members of the Moot who will be coming out soon. Oh, Kim, my dear, why do you
think?” His eyes—so kind, she remembered them being—seemed to hold a crushing
weight of trouble within their depths.
“Silence!” one of the guards
snapped. Not harshly, but his tone meant business.
It didn’t matter. Loren’s expression
had told her what she had to know. She felt the weight of knowledge that he
carried come into her as well.
Women, and the old, and the
councillors of the Moot. The men in their prime, the warriors, away. Away, of course, at war.
She didn’t need to be told which
side they would be fighting on, if Kaen had sent them forth.
And in that moment Kaen himself came
forth from the far wing of the stage, and so for the first time she saw the one
who had unchained blackest evil in their time. Quietly, without any evident
pride or arrogance, he strode to stand at one side of the stone table. His
thick hair was raven black, his beard closely trimmed. He was slighter than
Matt or Brock, not as powerful, except for one thing: his hands were those of a
sculptor, large, capable, very strong. He rested one of them on the table,
although, carefully, he did not touch the Crown. He was clad unpretentiously in
simple brown, and his eyes betrayed no hint of madness or delusions. They were
meditative, tranquil, almost sorrowful.
There was another footfall on the
stage. Kim tore her eyes away from Kaen to watch Matt Sören step forward from
the near wing. She expected a babble of noise, a murmur, some level of
response. But the Dwarf she knew and loved—unchanged, she saw, always
unchanged, no matter what might come to pass—moved to stand at the other side
of the table from Kaen, and as he came there was not a single thread of sound
in all the vastness of Seithr’s Hall.
In the well of that silence Matt
waited, scanning the Dwarves assembled there with his one dark eye. She heard
the guards shift restively behind her. Then, without any fuss at all, Matt took
the Diamond Crown and placed it upon his head.
It was as if a tree in a dry forest
had been struck by lightning, so explosive was the response. Her heart leaping,
Kim heard a shocked roar of sound ignite the hall. In the thunder of it she felt
anger and confusion, strove to detect a hint of joy, and thought that she did.
But her gaze had gone instinctively to Kaen, as soon as Matt claimed the Crown.
Kaen’s mouth was crooked in a wry,
caustic smile, unruffled, even amused. But his eyes had given him away, for in
them Kim had seen, if only for an instant, a bleak, vicious malevolence. She
read murder there, and it knifed into her heart.
Powerless, a prisoner, fear within
her like a living, sharp-clawed creature, Kim turned back to Matt and felt her
racing heartbeat slow. Even with a Crown of a thousand diamonds dazzling upon
his head, the aura of him, the essence, was still a quiet, reassuring
certitude, an everlasting calm.
He raised one hand and waited
patiently for silence. When he had it, nearly, he said, “Calor Diman never
surrenders her Kings.”
Nothing more, and he did not say it
loudly, but the acoustics of that chamber carried his words to the farthest
corners of Seithr’s Hall. When their resonance had died away, the silence once
more was complete.
Into it, emerging from either wing
of the stage, there came some fifteen or twenty Dwarves. They were all clad in
black, and Kim saw that each of them wore, upon the third finger of his right
hand, a diamond ring gleaming like white fire. None of them were young, but the
one who came first was the eldest by far. White-bearded and leaning for support
upon a staff, he paused to let the others file past him to stone seats placed
on one side of the stage.
“The Dwarfmoot,” Loren whispered
softly. “They will judge between Kaen and Matt. The one with the staff is
Miach, First of the Moot.”
“Judge what?” Kim whispered back
apprehensively.
“The word-striving,” Loren murmured,
not very helpfully. “Of the same kind as the one Matt lost forty years ago,
when the Moot judged in favor of Kaen and voted to continue the search for the
Cauldron—”
“Silence!” hissed the same guard as
before. He emphasized the command by striking Loren on the arm with his hand,
not gently.
Silvercloak turned swiftly and fixed
the guard with a gaze that made the Dwarf stumble quickly backward, blanching.
“I am . . . I am ordered to keep you
quiet,” he stammered.
“I do not intend to say overmuch,”
Loren said. “But if you touch me again I will turn you into a geiala and roast
you for lunch. Once warned is all you will be!”
He turned back to the stage, his
face impressive. It was a bluff, nothing more, Kim knew, but she also realized
that none of the Dwarves, not even Kaen, could know what had happened to the
mage’s powers in Cader Sedat.
Miach had moved forward, the click
of his staff on the stone sounding loud in the silence. He took a position in
front of Kaen and Matt, a little to one side. After bowing with equal gravity
to each of them, he turned and addressed the assembled Dwarves.
“Daughters and sons of Calor Diman,
you will have heard why we are summoned to Seithr’s Hall. Matt, who was King
once here under Banir Lok, has returned and has satisfied the Moot that he is
who he claims to be. This is so, despite the passage of forty years. He carries
a second name now—Sören—to mark the loss of an eye in a war far from our
mountains. A war,” Miach added quietly, “in which the Dwarves had no proper
role to play.”
Kim winced. Out of the corner of her
eye she saw Loren bite his lower lip in consternation.
Miach continued in the same
judicious tones. “Be that as it may, Matt Sören it is who is here again, and
last night before the convened Moot he issued challenge to Kaen, who has ruled
us these forty years—ruled, but only by the support and sufferance of the
Dwarfmoot, not as a true King, for he has never shaped a crystal for the Lake
nor spent a night beside her shores under the full moon.”
There was a tiny ripple of sound at
that. It was Kaen’s turn to react. His expression of attentive deference did
not change, but Kim, watching closely, saw his hand on the table close into a
fist. A moment later, he seemed to become aware of this, and the fist opened
again.
“Be that as it may,” Miach said a
second time, “you are summoned to hear and the Moot to judge a word-striving
after the old kind, such as we have not seen in forty years—since last these
two stood before us. I have lived long enough, by a grace of the Weaver’s hand
upon my thread, to say that a pattern is unfolding here, with a symmetry that
bears witness to interwoven destinies.”
He paused. Then, looking directly at
Kim, to her great surprise, he said, “There are two here not of our people.
Tidings are slow to come across the mountains, and slower still to come within
them, but the Dwarves know well of Loren Silvercloak the mage, whose source was
once our King. And Matt Sören has named the woman here as Seer to the High King
of Brennin. He has also undertaken to stand surety with his life that both of
them will not wield the magics we know they carry, and will accept whatever
judgment the Dwarfmoot makes of this striving. Matt Sören has said this. I now
ask that they acknowledge, by whatever oath they deem most binding, that this
is true. In return, I offer the assurance of the Dwarfmoot, to which Kaen has
acceded—indeed, it was his suggestion—that they will be conducted safely from
our realm if such need be after the striving is judged.”
Lying snake, Kim thought furiously, looking at
Kaen’s bland, earnest expression. She schooled her features, though, placed her
ringless hand in the pocket of her gown, and listened as Loren rose from his
seat to say,
“In the name of Seithr, greatest of
the Dwarf Kings, who died in the cause of Light, battling Rakoth Maugrim and
the legions of the Dark, I swear that I will abide by the words you have
spoken.” He sat down.
Another rustle, quiet but
unmistakable, went through the Hall. Take
that! Kim thought as,
in her turn, she rose. She felt Ysanne within her then, twin soul under the
twin mountains, and when she spoke, it was with a Seer’s voice that rang out
sternly in the huge spaces.
“In the name of the Paraiko of Khath
Meigol, gentlest of the Weaver’s children, the Giants who are not ghosts, who
live and even now are cleansing Eridu, gathering the innocent dead of the
Cauldron’s killing rain, I swear that I will abide by the words you have
spoken.” More than a murmur now, an urgent cascade of sound. “That is a lie!”
an old Dwarf shouted from high up in the Hall. His voice cracked. “The Cauldron
we found brought life, not death!”
Kim saw Matt looking at her. He
shook his head, very slightly, and she kept quiet.
Miach gestured for silence again.
“Truth or lies will be for the Dwarfmoot to decree,” he said. “It is time for
the challenge to begin. Those of you gathered here will know the laws of the
word-striving. Kaen, who governs now, will speak first, as Matt did forty years
ago, when governance was his. They will speak to you, not to the Moot. You who
are gathered here are to be as a wall of stone off which their words will come
to us. Silence is law for you, and from the weight of it, the shape, the woven
texture, will the Dwarfmoot seek guidance for the judgment we are to make
between these two.”
He paused. “I have one thing, only,
left to ask. Though no one else has known a full moon night by Calor Diman, at
issue today is Matt Sören’s continued right to wear the Diamond Crown. In
fairness, then, I would ask him to remove it for the striving.”
He turned, and Kim’s eyes went, with
those of everyone else in the Hall to Matt, to discover that, having made his
initial point, he had already placed it again on the stone table between
himself and Kaen. Oh, clever,
Kim thought, fighting
to suppress a grin. Oh, clever, my dear
friend. Matt nodded
gravely to Miach, who bowed in response.
Turning to Kaen, Miach said simply,
“You may begin.”
He shuffled over, leaning upon his
staff, to take his seat among the others of the Dwarfmoot. Kaen’s hand, Kim
saw, had closed into a fist again, at Matt’s smooth anticipation of Miach’s
request.
He’s rattled, she thought. Matt has
him way off balance. She felt a quick rush of hope and confidence.
Then Kaen, who had not said a single
word until that moment, began the word-striving, and as he did, all Kim’s hopes
were blown away, as if they were wispy clouds torn by mountain winds.
She had thought that Gorlaes, the
Chancellor of Brennin, was a deep-voiced, mellifluous speaker; she had even
feared his persuasiveness in the early days. She had heard Diarmuid dan Ailell
in the Great Hall of Paras Derval and remembered the power of his light,
sardonic, riveting words. She had heard Na-Brendel of the lios alfar take
speech to the edge of music and beyond. And within herself, engraved on her
heart and mind, she held close the sound of Arthur Pendragon speaking to
command or to reassure—with him, somehow, the two became as one.
But in Seithr’s Hall within Banir
Lok that day she learned how words could be claimed and mastered, brought to a
scintillant, glorious apex—turned into diamonds, truly—and all in the service
of evil, of the Dark.
Kaen spoke, and she heard his voice
rise majestically with the passion of a denunciation; she heard it swoop
downward like a bird of prey to whisper an innuendo or offer a half-truth that
sounded—even, for a moment, to her—like a revelation from the warp and weft of
the Loom itself; she heard it soar with confident assertions of the future and
then shape itself into a cutting blade to slash to ribbons the honor of the
Dwarf who stood beside him. Who had dared
to return and strive a
second time with Kaen.
Her mouth dry with apprehension, Kim
saw Kaen’s hands—his large, beautiful, artisan’s hands—rise and fall gracefully
as he spoke. She saw his arms spread suddenly wide in a gesture of entreaty, of
transparent honesty. She saw a hand stab savagely upward to punctuate a
question and then fall away, open, as he spoke what he deemed to be—what he
made them believe to be—the only possible response. She saw him point a long
shaking finger of undisguised, overwhelming rage at the one who had returned,
and it seemed to her, as to all the others in Seithr’s Hall, that the
denouncing hand was that of a god, and it became a source of wonder that Matt
Sören had the temerity still to be standing upright before it, instead of
crawling on his knees to beg for the merciful death he did not deserve.
From the weight of the silence,
Miach had said, from the shape and texture of it, the Dwarfmoot would seek
guidance. As Kaen spoke, the stillness in Seithr’s Hall was a palpable thing.
It did have shape, and weight, and a discernible texture.
Even Kim, utterly unversed in reading such a subtle message, could feel the
silent Dwarves responding to Kaen, giving him back his words: thousands of
voiceless auditors for chorus.
There was awe in that response, and
guilt, that Kaen, who had labored so long in the service of his people, should
be forced yet again to defend himself and his actions. Beyond these two
things—beyond awe and guilt— there was also a humbled, grateful acquiesence in
the rightness and clarity of everything Kaen said.
He came one step forward from where
he had been standing, seeming with that small motion to have come among them,
to be one with all of them, to be speaking directly, intimately, to every
single listener in the Hall. He said: “It may be thought that the Dwarf beside
me now will see farther with his one eye than anyone else in this Hall. Let me
remind you of something, something I must
say before I end, for
it cries out within me for utterance. Forty years ago Matt, the sister-son of
March, King of the Dwarves, shaped a crystal for Calor Diman on a new moon
night: an act of courage, for which I honored him. On the next night of the
full moon, he slept by the shore of the Lake, as all who would be King must do:
an act of courage, for which I honored him.”
Kaen paused. “I honor him no more,”
he said into the silence. “I have not honored him since another thing he did
forty years ago—an act of cowardice that wiped away all memory of courage. Let
me remind you, people of the twin mountains. Let me remind you of the day when
he took the Scepter lying here beside us and threw it down upon these stones.
The Diamond Scepter, treated like a stick of wood! Let me remind you of when he
discarded the Crown he so arrogantly claimed just now—after forty
years!—discarded it like a trinket that no longer gave him pleasure. And let me
remind you”—the voice dipped down, laden, with marrow-deep sorrow— “that after
doing these things, Matt, King under Banir Lok, abandoned us.”
Kaen let the grim stillness linger,
let it gather full weight of condemnation. Said gently, “The word-striving
forty years ago was his own choice. The submission of the matter of the
Cauldron of Khath Meigol to the Dwarfmoot was his own decision. No one forced
his hand, no one could. He was King under the mountains. He ruled not as I have
striven to do, by consensus and counsel, but absolutely, wearing the Crown,
wedded to the Crystal Lake. And in pique, in spite, in petulance, when the
Dwarfmoot honored me by agreeing that the Cauldron I sought was a worthy quest
for the Dwarves, King Matt abandoned us.”
There was grief in his voice, the
pain of one bereft, in those long-ago days, of sorely needed guidance and
support. “He left us to manage as best we could without him. Without the King’s
bond to the Lake that has always been the heartbeat of the Dwarves. For forty
years I have been here, with Blod, my brother, beside me, managing, with the
Dwarfmoot’s counsel, as best I could. For forty years Matt has been far away,
seeking fame and his own desires in the wide world across the mountains. And
now, now he would come back after so long. Now, because it suits him—his
vanity, his pride—he would come back and reclaim the Scepter and Crown he so
contemptuously threw away.”
One more step forward. From his
mouth to the ear of their hearts. “Do not let him, Children of Calor Diman!
Forty years ago you decided that the search for the Cauldron—the Cauldron of
Life—was worthy of us in our time. In your service, following the decision the
Dwarfmoot made that day, I have labored all these years here among you. Do not
turn away from me now!”
Slowly, the extended arms came down
and Kaen was done.
Overhead, high above the rigid,
absolute silence, the birds fashioned from diamonds circled and shone.
Her chest tight with strain and
apprehension, Kim’s glance went, with that of everyone else in Seithr’s Hall,
to Matt Sören, to the friend whose words, ever since she’d met him, had been
parceled out in careful, plain measures. Whose strengths were fortitude and
watchfulness and an unvoiced depth of caring. Words had never been Mart’s
tools: not now, not forty years ago when he had lost, bitterly, his last
striving with Kaen, and, losing, had surrendered his Crown.
She had an image of how it must have
been that day: the young proud King, newly wedded to the Crystal Lake, afire
with its visions of Light, hating the Dark then as he did now. With her inner
Seer’s eye she could picture it: the rage, the anguished sense of rejection
that Kaen’s victory had created in him. She could see him hurling away the
Crown. And she knew he had been wrong to do so.
In that moment she thought of Arthur
Pendragon, another young King, new to his crown and his dreams, learning of the
child—incestuous seed of his loins—who was destined to destroy everything
Arthur shaped. And so, in a vain attempt to forstall that, he’d ordered so many
infants slain.
For the sins of good men she
grieved.
For the sins, and the way the
shuttling of the Loom brought them back. Back, as Matt had come back again
after so long to his mountains. To Seithr’s Hall, to stand beside Kaen before
the Dwarfmoot.
Praying for him, for all the living
in search of Light, knowing how much lay in the balance here, Kim felt the cast
spell of Kaen’s last plea still lingering in the Hall, and she wondered where
Matt would ever find anything to match what Kaen had done.
Then she learned. All of them did.
“We have heard nothing,” said Matt
Sören, “nothing at all of Rakoth Maugrim. Nothing of war. Of evil. Of friends
betrayed into the Dark. We have heard nothing from Kaen of the broken wardstone
of Eridu. Of the Cauldron surrendered to Maugrim. Seithr would weep, and curse us through his tears!”
Blunt words, sharp, prosaic,
unadorned. Cold and stern, they slashed into the Hall like a wind, blowing away
the mists of Kaen’s eloquent imagery. Hands on his hips, his legs spread wide,
seemingly anchored in the stone. Matt did not even try to lure or seduce his
listeners. He challenged them. And they listened.
“Forty years ago I made a mistake I
will not cease to regret for the rest of my days. Newly crowned, unproven,
unknown, I sought approval for what I knew to be right in a striving before the
Dwarfmoot in this Hall. I was wrong to do so. A King, when he sees his way
clear, must act, that his people may follow. My way should have been clear, and
it would have been, had I been strong enough. Kaen and Blod, who had defied my
orders, should have been taken to Traitor’s Crag upon Banir Tal and hurled to
their deaths. I was wrong. I was not strong enough. I accept, as a King must
accept, my share of the burden for the evils since done.
“The very great evils,” he said, his
voice uncompromising in its message. “Who among you, if not bewitched or
terrified, can accept what we have done? How far the Dwarves have fallen! Who
among you can accept the wardstone broken? Rakoth freed? The Cauldron of the
Paraiko given over unto him? And now I must speak of the Cauldron.”
The transition was clumsy, awkward;
Matt seemed not to care. He said, “Before this striving began, the Seer of
Brennin spoke of the Cauldron as a thing of death, and one of you—and I
remember you, Edrig; you were wise already when I was King in these halls, and
I never knew any evil to rest in your heart—Edrig named the Seer a liar and
said that the Cauldron was a thing of life.”
He crossed his arms en his broad
chest. “It is not so. Once, maybe, when first forged in Khath Meigol, but not
now, not in the hands of the Unraveller. He used the Cauldron the Dwarves gave
him to shape the winter just now past, and then—grief to my tongue to tell—to
cause the death rain to fall on Eridu.”
“That is a lie,” said Kaen flatly.
There was a shocked whisper of sound. Kaen ignored it. “You are not to tell a
pure untruth in word-striving. This you know. I claim this contest by virtue of
a breaching of the rules. The Cauldron revives the dead. It does not kill.
Every one of us here knows this to be true.”
“Do
we so?” Matt
Sören snarled, wheeling on Kaen with such ferocity that the other recoiled.
“Dare you speak to say I lie? Then hear me! Every one of you hear me! Did not a
mage of Brennin come, with perverted wisdom and forbidden lore? Did Metran of
the Garantae not enter these halls to give aid and counsel to Kaen and Blod?”
Silence was his answer. The silence
of the word-striving. Intense, rapt, shaping itself to surround his questions.
“Know you that when the Cauldron was found and given over to Maugrim, it was
placed in the care of that mage. And he bore it away to Cader Sedat, that
island not found on any map, which Maugrim had made a place of unlife even in
the days of the Bael Rangat. In that unholy place Metran used the Cauldron to
shape the winter and then the rain. He drew his unnatural mage-strength to do
these terrible things from a host of svart alfar. He killed them, draining
their life force with the power he took, and then used the Cauldron to bring
them back to life, over and over again. This is what he did. And this, Children
of Calor Diman, descendants of Seithr, this, my beloved people, is what we
did!”
“A lie!” said Kaen again, a little
desperately. “How would you know this if he truly took it to that place? How
would the rain have stopped if this were so?”
This time there was no murmuring,
and this time Matt did not wheel in rage upon the other Dwarf. Very slowly he
turned and looked at Kaen.
“You would like to know, wouldn’t
you?” he asked softly. The acoustics carried the question; all of them heard.
“You would like to know what went wrong. We were there, Kaen. With Arthur
Pendragon, and Diarmuid of Brennin, and Pwyll Twiceborn, Lord of the Summer
Tree, we went to Cader Sedat and we killed Metran and we broke the Cauldron.
Loren and I did it, Kaen. For the evil done by a mage and the evil done by the
Dwarves we made what recompense we could in that place.”
Kaen’s mouth opened and then closed
again.
“You do not believe me,” Matt went on,
inexorably, mercilessly. “You want not to believe, so your hopes and plans will
not have gone so terribly awry. Do not believe me, then! Believe, instead, the
witness of your eyes!”
And thrusting a hand into the pocket
of the vest he wore, he drew from it a black shard that he threw down on the
stone table between the Scepter and the Crown. Kaen leaned forward to look, and
an involuntary sound escaped him.
“Well may you wail!” Matt intoned,
his voice like that of a final judgment. “Though even now you are grieving for
yourself and not for your people to see a fragment of the broken Cauldron
return to these mountains.”
He turned back to face the
high-vaulted Hall, under the ceaseless circling of the diamond birds.
Again the shift in his speech was
awkward, rough. Again he seemed oblivous to that. “Dwarves,” Matt cried, “I
claim no blamelessness before you now. I have done wrong, but have made redress
as best I might. And I will continue to do so, now and forward from this day
until I die. I will bear the burdens of my own transgressions and take upon
myself as many of your own burdens as I can. For so must a King do, and I am
your King. I have returned to lead you back among the armies of the Light where
the Dwarves belong. Where we have always belonged. Will you have me?”
Silence. Of course.
Scarcely breathing, Kim strove with
all her untutored instincts to take its measure.
The shape of the silence was sharp;
it was heavy with unnamed fears, inchoate apprehensions; it was densely,
intricately threaded with numberless questions and doubts. There was more, she
knew there was more, but she was not equal to discerning any of it clearly.
And then, in any case, the silence
was broken.
“Hold!”
Kaen cried, and even
Kim knew how flagrant a transgression of the laws of the word-striving this had
to be.
Kaen drew three quick sharp breaths
to calm and control himself. Then, coming forward again, he said, “This is more
than a striving now, and so I must deviate from the course of a true
challenging. Matt Sören seeks not only to reclaim a Crown he tossed away, when
he elected to be a servant in Brennin rather than to rule in Banir Lok, but now
he also invites the Moot—commands it, if his tone be heard, and not only his
words—to adopt a new course of action without a moment’s thought!”
With every word he seemed to be
growing in confidence again, weaving his own thick tapestry of persuasive
sound. “I did not raise this matter when I spoke because I did not dream—in my
own innocence—that Matt would so presume. But he has done so, and so I must
speak again, and beg your forgiveness for that mild transgression. Matt Sören
comes here in the last days of war to order us to bring our army over to the
King of Brennin. He uses other words, but that is what he means. He forgets one
thing. He chooses to forget it, I think, but we who will pay the price of his
omission must not be so careless.”
Kaen paused and scanned the Hall for
a long moment, to be sure he had them all with him.
Then, grimly, he said, “The army of the Dwarves is not here! My brother has led it from these
halls and over the mountains to war. We promised aid to the Lord of Starkadh in
exchange for the aid we asked of him in the search for the Cauldron—aid freely
given, and accepted by us. I will not shame you or the memory of our fathers by
speaking overmuch of the honor of the Dwarves. Of what it might mean to have
asked assistance from him and to now refuse the help we promised in return. I
will not speak of that. I will say only the clearest, most obvious thing—a
thing Matt Sören has chosen not to see. The army is gone. We have chosen a
course. I chose, and the Dwarfmoot chose with me. Honor and necessity, both,
compel us to stay on the path we are set upon. We could not reach Blod and the
army in time to call them back, even if we wanted to!”
“Yes
we could!” Kim
Ford lied, shouting it.
She was on her feet. The nearest
guard shifted forward, but quailed at a paralyzing glare from Loren. “I brought
your true King here from the edge of the sea last night, by the power I carry.
I can take him to your army as easily, should the Dwarfmoot ask me to.”
Lies, lies. The Baelrath was gone.
She kept both hands in her pockets all the time she spoke. It was no more than
a bluff, as Loren’s words to the guard had been. So much was at stake, though,
and she really wasn’t good at this sort of thing, she knew she wasn’t.
Nonetheless she held her gaze fixed on Kaen’s and did not flinch: if he wanted
to expose her, to show the Baelrath that had been stolen from her, then let
him! He would have to explain to the Dwarfmoot how he got it—and then where
would his talk of honor be?
Kaen did not speak or move. But from
the side of the stage there came suddenly three loud, echoing thumps of a staff
on the stone floor.
Miach moved forward, slowly and
carefully as before, but his anger was palpable, and when he spoke he had to
struggle to master his voice.
“Bravely done!” he said with bitter
sarcasm. “A striving to remember! Never have I seen the rules so flouted in a
challenge. Matt Sören, not even forty years away can justify the ignorance
involved in your bringing an object into a striving! You knew the rules
governing such things before you had seen ten summers. And you, Kaen! A ‘minor
transgression’? How dare you speak a second time in a
word-striving! What have we become that not even the oldest rules of our people
are remembered and observed? Even to the extent”—he swung around to glare at
Kimberly—“of having a guest speak in Seithr’s Hall during a
challenge.”
This, she decided, was too much!
Feeling her own pent-up fury, rising, she began a stinging retort and felt
Loren’s punishing grip on her arm. She closed her mouth without saying a word,
though her hands inside the pockets of her gown clenched into white fists.
Then she relaxed them, for Miach’s
rage seemed to have spent itself with that brief, impassioned flurry. He seemed
to shrink back again, no longer an infuriated patriarch but only an old man in
troubled times, faced now with a very great responsibility.
He said, in a quieter, almost an
apologetic voice, “It may be that the rules that were clear and important
enough for all our Kings, from before Seithr down to March himself, are no
longer paramount. It may be that none of the Dwarves have had to live through
times so cloudy and confused as these. That a longing for clarity is only an
old man’s wistfulness.”
Kim saw Matt shaking his head in
denial. Miach did not notice. He was looking up at the lofty half-filled Hall.
“It may be,” he repeated vaguely. “But even if it is, this striving is ended,
and it is now for the Moot to judge. We will withdraw. You will all remain
here”—the voice grew stronger again, with words of ritual—“until we have
returned to declare the will of the Dwarfmoot. We give thanks for the counsel
of your silence. It was heard and shall be given voice.”
He turned, and the others of the
black-garbed Moot rose, and together they all withdrew from the stage, leaving
Matt and Kaen standing there on either side of a table which held a shining
Crown, and a shining Scepter, and a black sharp-edged fragment of the Cauldron
of Khath Meigol.
Kim became aware that Loren’s hand
was still squeezing her arm, very hard. He seemed to realize it in the same
moment.
“I’m sorry,” he murmured, easing but
not releasing his grasp.
She shook her head. “I was about to
say something stupid.”
This time the guards were careful
not to test Loren’s patience by intervening again. Indeed, all about the Hall
there was a rising swell of sound as the Dwarves, released from the bond of
silence that had held them during the striving, began animatedly to discuss
what had taken place. Only Matt and Kaen, motionless on the stage, not looking
at each other, remained silent.
“Not stupid at all,” said Loren
quietly. “You took a chance by speaking, but they needed to hear what you could
do.”
Kim looked over at him with sudden
dismay. His eyes narrowed at the sight of her consternation.
“What is it?” he whispered, careful
not to be overheard.
Kim said nothing. Only withdrew her
right hand slowly from its pocket, so that he could see what, clearly, he
hadn’t seen before—the terrible absence of fire, the Baelrath gone.
He looked, and then he closed his
eyes. She put her hand back in her pocket.
“When?” Loren asked, his voice thin
and stretched.
“When we were ambushed. I felt it
being taken. I woke this morning without it.”
Loren opened his eyes and looked at
the stage, at Kaen. “I wonder,” he murmured. “I wonder how he knew.”
Kim shrugged. It hardly seemed to
matter at this point. What mattered was that, as things stood, Kaen had been
quite accurate in what he’d told the Dwarves. If the army was west of the
mountains, there was nothing they could do to stop them now from fighting among
the legions of the Dark.
Loren seemed to read her thoughts,
or else they were his own as well. He said, “It is not over yet. In part,
because of what you did. That was brightly woven, Kimberly—you blunted a thrust
of Kaen’s, and you may have bought us time to do something.” He paused. His
expression changed, became diffident and strained.
“Actually,” he amended, “you may
have bought Matt time, and perhaps yourself. There isn’t much of anything I can
do anymore.”
“That isn’t true,” Kim said, with
all the conviction she could muster. “Wisdom carries its own strength.”
He smiled faintly at the platitude
and even nodded his head. “I know. I know it does. Only it is a hard thing,
Kim, it is a very hard thing to have known power for forty years and to have
none of it now, when it matters so much.”
To this, Kim, who had carried her
own power for only a little over a year and had fought it for much of that
time, could find nothing to say.
There was no time for her to reply,
in any case. The rustle of sound in the Hall rose swiftly higher and then, as swiftly,
subsided into a stiff, tense silence.
In that silence the Dwarfmoot filed
soberly back to their stone seats on the stage. For the third time Miach came
forward to stand beside Kaen and Matt, facing the multitude in the seats above.
Kim glanced at Loren, rigid beside
her. She followed the tall man’s gaze to his friend of forty years. She saw
Mart’s mouth move silently. Weaver at the
Loom, she
thought, echoing the prayer she read on the Dwarf’s lips.
Then, wasting no time, Miach spoke.
“We have listened to the speech of the word-striving and to the silence of the
Dwarves. Hear now the rendering of the Dwarfmoot of Banir Lok. Forty years ago
in this Hall, Matt, now also called Sören, threw down the symbols of his
Kingship. There was no equivocation in what he did, no mistaking his intention
to relinquish the Crown.”
Kim would have sold her soul, both
her souls, for a glass of water. Her throat was so dry it hurt to swallow.
Miach went on, soberly, “At that
same time did Kaen assume governance here under the mountains, nor was he
challenged in this, nor has he been until this day. Even so, despite the urging
of the Moot, Kaen chose not to make a crystal for the Lake or to pass a full
moon night beside her shores. He never became our King.
“There is then, over and above all
else, the Moot has decided, one question that must be answered in this
striving. It has long been said in these mountain halls—so long it is now a
catchphrase for us—that Calor Diman never surrenders her Kings. It was said
today by Matt Sören, and the Moot heard him say it before we came forth for the
judging. That, we have now decided, is not the question at issue here.”
Kim, desperately struggling to
understand, to anticipate, saw Kaen’s eyes flash with a swiftly veiled triumph.
Her heart was a drum, and fear beat the rhythm of it.
“The question at issue,” said Miach
softly, “is whether the King can surrender the Lake.”
The silence was absolute. Into it,
he said, “It has never happened before in all the long history of our people
that a King in these halls should do what Matt did long ago, or seek to do what
he strives for now. There are no precedents, and the Dwarfmoot has decreed that
it would be presumption for us to decide. All other questions—the disposition
of our armies, everything we shall do henceforth—are contained in this one
issue: who, truly, is our leader now? The one who has governed us forty years
with the Dwarfmoot at his side, or the one who slept by Calor Diman and then
walked away?
“It is, the Dwarfmoot decrees, a
matter for the powers of Calor Diman to decide. Here then is our judgment.
There are now six hours left before sunset. Each of you, Matt and Kaen, will be
guided to a chamber with all the tools of the crystal maker’s craft. You will
each shape whatsoever image you please, with such artistry as you may command.
Tonight, when darkness falls, you shall ascend the nine and ninety steps to the
meadow door that leads from Bank Tal to Calor Diman, and you shall cast your
artifices into the Crystal Lake. I will be there, and Ingen, also, from the
Moot. You may each name two to come with you to bear witness on your behalf.
The moon is not full. This is not properly a night for the naming of a King,
but neither has anything such as this ever confronted us before. We will leave
it to the Lake.”
A place more fair than any in all the worlds,
Matt Sören had named
Calor Diman long ago, before the first crossing. They had been still in the
Park Plaza Hotel: five people from Toronto, en route to another world for two
weeks of partying at a High King’s celebrations.
A place more fair . . .
A place of judgment. Of what might be final judgment.
Chapter 11
That same day, as the Dwarves of the
twin mountains prepared for the judgment of their Lake, Gereint the shaman,
cross-legged on the mat in his dark house, cast the net of his awareness out
over Fionavar and vibrated like a harp with what he sensed.
It was coming to a head, all of it,
and very soon.
From that remote elbow of land east
of the Latham he reached out, an old brown spider at the center of his web, and
saw many things with the power of his blinding.
But not what he was looking for. He
wanted the Seer. Feeling helplessly removed from what was happening, he sought
the bright aura of Kimberly’s presence, groping for a clue to what was
shuttling on the loom of war. Tabor had told him the morning before that he had
flown the Seer to a cottage by a lake near Paras Derval, and Gereint had known
Ysanne for much of his life and so knew where this cottage was.
But when he reached to that place he
found only the ancient green power that dwelt beneath the water, and no sign of
Kim at all. He did not know—he had no way of knowing—that since Tabor had set
her down beside that shore, she had already gone, by the tapped power of the
avarlith, to Lisen’s Tower, and from there that same night, with the red
flaming of her own wild magic, over the mountains to Banir Lok.
And over the mountains he could not
go, unless he sent his soul traveling, and he was too recently returned from
journeying out over the waves to do that again so soon.
So she was lost to him. He felt the
presence of other powers, though, lights on a map in the darkness of his mind.
The other shamans were all around him, in their houses much like his own, here
beside the Latham. Their auras were like the trace flickerings of lienae at
night, erratic and insubstantial. There would be no aid or comfort there. He
was preeminent among the shamans of the Plain, and had been since his blinding.
If any of them were to have a role yet to play in what was to come, it would
have to be him, for all his years.
There came a tapping on his door. He
had already heard footsteps approaching from outside. He quelled a quick surge
of anger at the intrusion, for he recognized both the tread and the rhythm of
the knocking.
“Come in,” he said. “What can I do
for you, wife of the Aven?”
“Liane and I have brought you a
lunch,” Leith replied in her brisk tones.
“Good,” he said energetically,
though for once he wasn’t hungry. He was also discomfited: it seemed that his
hearing was finally starting to go. He’d only heard one set of footsteps. Both
women entered, and Liane, approaching, brushed his cheek with her lips.
“Is that die best you can do?” he
mock-growled. She squeezed his hand, and he squeezed back. He would have
ferociously denied it, if pressed, but in his heart Gereint had long
acknowledged that Ivor’s daughter was his favorite child of the tribe. Of the
Plain. Of all the worlds, if it came to that.
It was to her mother that he turned,
though, to where he heard her kneel in front of him, and a little to the side.
“Strength of the Plain,” he said respectfully, “may I touch your thoughts?”
She leaned forward, and he raised
his hands to run them along the bones of her face. The touch let him into her
mind, where he saw anxiety, a weight of cares, the burdens of sleeplessness,
but—and he marveled, even as he touched her face—not even a shadow of fear.
His touch became, briefly, a caress.
“Ivor is lucky in you, bright soul. We all are. Luckier than we deserve.”
He had known Leith since her birth,
had watched her grow into womanhood, and had feasted at her wedding to Ivor dan
Banor. In those far-off days he had first seen a certain kind of brightness
shining within her. It had been there ever since, growing even stronger as her
children were born, and Gereint knew it for what it was: a deep, luminous love
that was rarely allowed to shine forth. She was a profoundly private person,
Leith, never given to open demonstration, not trusting it in others. She had
been called cold and unyielding all her life. Gereint knew better.
He drew his hands away reluctantly,
and as he did he felt the reverberations of war sweep over him again.
Diffidently, Leith asked, “Have you
seen anything, shaman? Is there something you can tell me?”
“I am looking now,” he said quietly.
“Sit, both of you, and I will tell you what I can.”
He reached out again, seeking
interstices of power along the webs of time and space. He was a long way off,
though, no longer young and but recently returned from the worst journeying of
his days. Nothing was clear, except for the reverberations: the sense of a
climax coming. And end to war, or an ending to everything.
He did not tell them that; it would
be needlessly cruel. Instead, he ate the lunch they had brought for him—it
seemed he was hungry, after all—and listened to the dispositions Leith had made
of resources within the crowded camp of women and children and the old. And
eight blind, useless shamans.
All through that day and the next,
as premonitions gathered more closely about him, Gereint sat on the mat in his
dark house and strove, whenever his waning strength allowed, to see something
clearly, to find a role to play.
Both days would pass, though, before
he felt the touch of the god, of Cernan’s offered gift of foreknowledge. And
with that voice, that vision, there would come a fear such as he’d never known,
not even out over the waves. This would be something new, something terrible.
The more so because it was not directed at him, with all his years, with his
long, full life behind him. It was not his price to pay, and there was not a
single thing he could do about it. With sorrow in his heart, two mornings
hence, Gereint would lift his voice in summons. And call for Tabor to come to
him.
Over the Plain the army of Light was
riding to war. North of Celidon, of the Adein, of the green mound Ceinwen had
raised for the dead they rode and the white magnificence of Rangat towered
ahead of them, filling the blue, cloud-scattered summer sky.
Every one of them was on horseback
save for a number of the Cathalians, racing in their scythe-wheeled war
chariots at the outer rim of the army. When the summonglass had flamed in
Brennin, Aileron had had too much need of speed to allow the presence of foot
soldiers. By the same token, throughout the long, unnatural winter, he’d been
laying his plans against such a time as this: the horses had been ready, and
every man in the army of Brennin could ride. So, too, could the men and women
of the lios alfar from Daniloth. And of the Dalrei there was not and never had
been any question.
Under the benevolent, miraculous sun
of summer returned they rode amid the smell of fresh grass and vibrant splashes
of wildflowers. The Plain rolled away in every direction as far as the eye
could follow. Twice they passed great swifts of eltor, and the heart of every
one of them had lifted to see the beasts of the Plain, released from the
killing bondage of snow, run free again over the tall grass.
For how long? Amid all the beauty
that surrounded them, that remained the question. They were not a company of
friends out for a gallop under summer skies. They were an army, advancing, very
fast, to the door of the Dark, and they would be there soon.
They were going
fast, Dave realized. It was not the headlong pace of the Dalrei’s wild ride to
Celidon, but Aileron was pushing them hard, and Dave was grateful for the brief
rest period they were granted midway through the afternoon.
He swung down off his horse, muscles
protesting, and he flexed and limbered them as best he could before stretching
out on his back on the soft grass. As Tore dropped down beside him, a question
occurred to Dave.
“Why are we
hurrying?” he asked. “I mean, we’re missing Diarmuid and Arthur, and Kim and
Paul . . . what advantage does Aileron see in pushing on?”
“We’ll know when Levon gets back
from the conference up front,” Tore answered. “My guess is that it’s geography
as much as anything else. He wants to get close to Gwynir this evening, so we
can go through the woods in the morning. If we do that, we should be able to be
north of Celyn Lake in Andarien before dark tomorrow. That would make sense,
especially if Maugrim’s army is waiting for us there.”
The calmness of Tore’s voice was
unsettling. Maugrim’s army:
svart alfar, urgach
upon slaug, Galadan’s wolves, the swans of Avaia’s brood, and Weaver alone knew
what else. Only Owein’s Horn had saved them last time, and Dave knew he didn’t
dare blow it again.
The larger picture was too daunting.
He focused on immediate goals. “Will we make the forest, then? Gwynir? Can we
get there by dark?”
He saw Tore’s eyes flick beyond him
and then the dark man said, “If we were Dalrei alone, we could, of course. But
I’m not sure, with all this excess weight of Brennin we’re carrying.”
Dave heard a loud snort of
indignation and turned to see Mabon of Rhoden subside comfortably down beside
him. “I didn’t notice any of us falling behind on the way to Celidon,” the Duke
said. He took a pull of water from his flask and offered it to Dave, who drank
as well. It was icy cool; he didn’t know how.
Mabon’s presence was a surprise of
sorts, though a happy one. The wound he’d taken by the Adein had been healed
last night by Teyrnon and Barak, after Aileron had finally let them make camp.
Mabon had flatly refused to be left behind.
Since the journey from Paras Derval
to the Latham where Ivor and the Dalrei had been waiting, the Duke seemed to
favor the company of Levon and Tore and Dave. Dave wasn’t displeased. Among
other things, Mabon had saved his life, when Avaia had exploded out of a clear
sky on that ride. Beyond that, the Duke, though no longer young, was an
experienced campaigner, and good company too. He had already established a
relationship with Tore that had the otherwise grim Dalrei joking back and forth
with him.
Now Mabon tipped Dave a
surreptitious wink and continued. “In any case, this isn’t a sprint, my young
hero. This is a long haul, and for that you need Rhoden staying power. None of
your Dalrei brashness that fades as the hours roll by.”
Tore didn’t bother to reply. Instead
he tore up a handful of long grass and threw it at Mabon’s recumbent figure.
The wind was against him, though, and most of it landed on Dave.
“I wish I knew,” said Levon, walking
up, “why I continue to spend my time with such irresponsible people.”
The tone was jocular, but his eyes
were sober. All three of them sat up and looked at him gravely.
Levon crouched down on his heels and
played idly with a handful of grass stems as he spoke. “Aileron does want to
make Gwynir by tonight. I have never been this far north, but my father has,
and he says we should be able to do it. There is a problem, though.”
“Which is?” Mabon was grimly
attentive.
“Teyrnon and Barak have been
mind-scanning forward all day to see if they can sense the presence of evil.
Gwynir would be an obvious place to ambush us. The horses, and especially the
chariots, are going to be awkward, even if we keep to the edges of the forest.”
“Have they seen anything?” Mabon was
asking the questions; Dave and Tore listened and waited.
“After a fashion, which is the
problem. Teyrnon says he finds only the tracest flicker of evil in Gwynir, but
he has a feeling of danger nonetheless. He cannot understand it. He does sense the army of the Dark ahead of us, but far beyond Gwynir. They are
in Andarien already, we think, gathering there.”
“So what is in the forest?” Mabon
queried, his brow furrowed with thought.
“No one knows. Teyrnon’s guess is
that the evil he apprehends is the lingering trace of the army’s passage, or
else a handful of spies they have left behind. The danger may be inherent in
the forest, he thinks. There were powers of darkness in Gwynir at the time of
the Bael Rangat.”
“So what do we do?” Dave asked. “Do
we have a choice?”
“Not really,” Levon replied. “They
talked about going through Daniloth, but Ra-Tenniel said that even with the
lios alfar to guide us, we are too many for the lios to guarantee that a great
many of us would not be lost in the Shadowland. And Aileron will not ask him to
let down the woven mist with the army of the Dark in Andarien. They would move
south the moment that happened, and we would be fighting in Daniloth. The High
King said he will not permit that.”
“So we take our chances in the
forest,” Mabon summarized.
“So it seems,” Levon agreed. “But
Teyrnon keeps saying that he doesn’t really see evil there, so I don’t know how
much of a chance we’re taking. We’re doing it, in any case. In the morning. No
one is to enter the forest at night.”
“Was that a direct order?” Tore
asked quietly. Levon turned to him. “Not actually. Why?” Tore’s voice was
carefully neutral. “I was thinking that a group of people, a very small group,
might be able to scout ahead tonight and see what there is to see.” There was a
little silence.
“A group, say, of four people?”
Mabon of Rhoden murmured, in a tone of purely academic interest.
“That would be a reasonable number,
I would guess,” Tore replied, after judicious reflection.
Looking at the other three, his
heartbeat suddenly quickening, Dave saw a quiet resolution in each of them.
Nothing more was said. The rest period was almost over. They rose, prepared to
mount up again.
Something was happening, though. A
commotion was stirring the southeastern fringes of the army. Dave turned with
the others, in time to see three strange riders being escorted past them to
where the High King was, and the Aven, and Ra-Tenniel of Daniloth.
The three were travel-stained, and
each of them slumped in his saddle with weariness written deep into his
features. One was a Dalrei, an older man, his face obscured by mud and grime.
The second was a younger man, tall, fair-haired, with a pattern of green tattoo
markings on his face. The third was a Dwarf, and it was Brock of Banir Tal.
Brock. Whom Dave had last seen in
Gwen Ystrat, preparing to ride east into the mountains with Kim.
“I think I want to see this,” said
Levon quickly. He started forward to follow the three newcomers, and Dave was
right beside him, with Mabon and Tore in stride.
By virtue of Levon’s rank, and the
Duke’s, they passed through into the presence of the Kings. Dave stood there,
half a head taller than anyone else, and watched, standing just behind Tore, as
the three newcomers knelt before the High King.
“Be welcome, Brock,” Aileron said,
with genuine warmth. “Bright the hour of your return. Will you name your
companions to me and give me what tidings you can?”
Brock rose, and for all his fatigue
his voice was clear.
“Greetings, High King,” said the
Dwarf. “I would wish you to extend your welcome to these two who have come with
me, riding without stop through two nights and most of two days to serve in
your ranks. Beside me is Faebur of Larak, in Eridu, and beyond him is one who
styles himself Dalreidan, and I can tell you that he saved my life and that of
the Seer of Brennin, when otherwise we would surely have died.”
Dave blinked at the Dalrei’s name.
He caught a glance from Levon, who whispered, “Rider’s Son? An exile. I wonder
who it is.”
“I bid you both welcome,” Aileron
said. And then, with a tightening in his voice, “What tidings beyond the
mountains?”
“Grievous, my lord,” Brock said.
“One more grief to lay at the door of the Dwarves. A death rain fell for three
days in Eridu. The Cauldron shaped it from Cader Sedat, and—bitter to my tongue
the telling—I do not think there is a man or woman left alive in that land.”
The stillness that followed was of
devastation beyond the compassing of words. Faebur, Dave saw, stood straight as
a spear, his face set in a mask of stone.
“Is it falling still?” Ra-Tenniel
asked, very softly.
Brock shook his head. “I would have
thought you knew. Are there no tidings from them? The rain stopped two days
ago. The Seer told us that the Cauldron had been smashed in Cader Sedat.”
After pain, after grief, hope beyond
expectation. A murmur of sound suddenly rose, sweeping back through the ranks
of the army.
“Weaver be praised!” Aileron
exclaimed. And then: “What of the Seer, Brock?”
Brock said, “She was alive and well,
though I know not where she is now. We were guided to Khath Meigol by the two
men here with me. She freed the Paraiko there, with the aid of Tabor dan Ivor
and his flying creature, and they bore her west two nights ago. Where, I know
not.”
Dave looked at Ivor.
The Aven said, “What was he doing
there? I left him with orders to guard the camps.”
“He was.” The one called Dalreidan
spoke for the first tune. “He was guarding them, and was going back to do so
again. He was summoned by the Seer, Ivor . . . Aven. She knew the name of his
creature, and he had no choice. Nor did she—she could not have done what she
had to do with only the three of us. Be not angry with him. I think he is
suffering enough.”
Levon’s face had gone white. Ivor
opened his mouth and then closed it again.
“What is it you fear, Aven of the
Plain?” It was Ra-Tenniel.
Again, Ivor hesitated. Then, as if
drawing the thought up from the wellspring of his heart, he said, “He goes
farther away every time he flies. I am afraid he will soon be like . . . like
Owein and the Wild Hunt. A thing of smoke and death, utterly cut off from the
world of men.”
Silence once more, a different kind,
shaped of awe as much as fear. It was broken by Aileron in a deliberately crisp
voice that brought them all back to the Plain and the day moving inexorably
toward dusk.
“We’ve a long way to go,” the High
King said. “The three of you are welcome among us. Can you ride?”
Brock nodded.
“It is why I am here,” said Faebur.
A young voice, trying hard to be stern. “To ride with you, and do what I can
when battle comes.”
Aileron looked over at the older man
who called himself Dalreidan. Dave saw that Ivor was looking at him too, and
that Dalreidan was gazing back, not at the High King but at the Aven.
“I can ride,” Dalreidan said, very
softly. “Have I leave?”
Abruptly, Dave realized that
something else was happening here.
Ivor looked at Dalreidan for a long
time without answering. Then: “No Chieftain can reclaim an exile within the
Law. But nothing I know in the parchments at Celidon speaks to what the Aven
may do in such a case. We are at war, and you have done service already in our
cause. You have leave to return. As Aven I say so now.”
He stopped. Then, in a different
voice, Ivor said, “You have leave to return to the Plain and to your tribe,
though not under the name you have taken now. Be welcome back under the name
you bore before the accident that thrust you forth into the mountains. This is
a brighter thread in darkness than I ever thought to see, a promise of return.
I cannot say how glad I am to see you here again.”
He smiled. “Turn now, for there is
another here who will be as glad. Sorcha of the third tribe, turn and greet
your son!”
In front of Dave, Tore went rigid,
as Levon let out a whoop of delight. Sorcha turned. He looked at his son, and
Dave, still standing behind Tore, saw the old Dalrei’s begrimed face light up
with an unlooked-for joy.
One moment the tableau held; then
Tore stumbled forward with unwonted awkwardness, and he and his father met in
an embrace so fierce it seemed as if they meant to squeeze away all the dark
years that had lain between.
Dave, who had given Tore the push
that sent him forward, was smiling through tears. He looked at Levon and then
at Ivor. He thought of his own father, so far away— so far away, it seemed, all
his life. He looked over and up at Rangat and remembered the hand of fire.
“Do you think,” Mabon of Rhoden
murmured, “that that small expedition we were planning might just as easily be
done with seven?”
Dave wiped his eyes. He nodded.
Then, still unable to speak, he nodded again.
Levon signaled them forward. Careful
of the axe he carried, moving as silently as he could, Dave crawled up beside
his friend. The others did the same. Lying prone on a hillock—scant shelter on
the open Plain—the seven of them gazed north toward the darkness of Gwynir.
Overhead, clouds scudded eastward,
now revealing, now obscuring the waning moon. Sighing through the tall grass,
the breeze carried for the first time the scent of the evergreen forest. Far
beyond the trees Rangat reared up, dominating the northern sky. When the moon
was clear of the clouds the mountain glowed with a strange, spectral light.
Dave looked away to the west and saw that the world ended there.
Or seemed to. They were on the very
edge of Daniloth: the Shadowland, where time changed. Where men could wander
lost in Ra-Lathen’s mist until the end of all the worlds. Dave peered into the
moonlit shadows, the drifting fog, and it seemed to him that he saw blurred
figures moving there, some riding ghostly horses, others on foot, all silent in
the mist.
They had left the camp at moonrise,
with less difficulty than expected. Levon had led them to the guard post manned
by Cechtar of the third tribe, who was not about to betray or impede the
designs of the Aven’s son. Indeed, his only objection had been in not being
allowed to accompany them.
“You can’t,” Levon had murmured very
calmly, in control. “If we aren’t back before sunrise, we will be captured or
dead, and someone will have to warn the High King. The someone is you, Cechtar.
I’m sorry. A thankless task. If the gods love us, it is a message you’ll not
have to carry.”
After that, there had been no more
words for a long time. Only the whisper of the night breeze across the Plain,
the hoot of a hunting owl, the soft tread of their own footsteps as they walked
away from the fires of the camp into the dark. Then the rustling sound of
grasses parting as they dropped down and crawled the last part of the way
toward the low tummock Levon had pointed out, just east of Daniloth, just south
of Gwynir.
Crawling along beside Mabon of
Rhoden, behind Tore and Sorcha, who seemed unwilling to allow more than a few
inches of space between them now, Dave found himself thinking about how much a
part of his reality death had been since he came to Fionavar.
Since he had crashed through the
space between worlds here on the Plain and Tore had almost killed him with a
dagger. There had been a killing that first night: he
and the dark Dalrei he called a brother now had slain an urgach together in
Faelinn Grove, first death among so many. There had been a battle by
Llewenmere, and then among the snows of the Latham. A wolf hunt in Gwen Ystrat,
and then, only three nights ago, the carnage along the banks of the Adein.
He had been lucky, he realized,
moving more cautiously forward as the moon came out from between two banks of
cloud. He could have died a dozen times over. Died a long way from home. The
moon slid back behind the clouds. The breeze was cool. Another owl hooted.
There were scattered stars overhead, where the cloud cover broke.
He thought of his father for the
second time that day. It wasn’t hard, even for Dave, to figure out why. He
looked at Sorcha, just ahead, moving effortlessly over the shadowed ground.
Almost against his will, a trick of distance and shadows and of long sorrow, he
pictured his father here with them, an eighth figure on the dark Plain. Josef
Martyniuk had fought among the Ukrainian partisans for three years. More than
forty years ago, but even so. Even so, a lifetime of physical labor had kept
his big body hard, and Dave had grown up fearing the power of his father’s
brawny arm. Josef could have swung a killing axe, and his icy blue eyes might
have glinted just a little—too much to ask?—to see how easily his son handled
one, how honored Dave was among people of rank and wisdom.
He could have kept up, too, Dave
thought, going with the fantasy a little way. At least as well as Mabon,
surely. And he wouldn’t have had any doubts, any hesitations about the
lightness of doing this, of going to war in this cause. There had been stories
in Dave’s childhood about his father’s deeds in his own war.
None from Josef, though. Whatever
fragments Dave had heard had come from friends of his parents, middle-aged men
pouring a third glass of iced vodka for themselves, telling the awkward,
oversized younger son stories about his father long ago. Or beginning the
stories. Before Josef, overhearing, would silence them with a harsh storm of
words in the old tongue.
Dave could still remember the first
time he had beaten up his older brother. When Vincent, late one night in the
room they shared, had let slip a casual reference to a railway bombing their
father had organized.
“How do you know about that?” Dave,
perhaps ten, had demanded. He could still remember the way his heart had
lurched.
“Dad told me,” Vincent had answered
calmly. “He’s told me lots of those stories.”
Perhaps even now, fifteen years
after, Vincent still didn’t know why his younger brother had so ferociously
attacked him. For the first time ever, and the only time. Leaping upon his
smaller, frailer older brother and punching him about. Crying that Vincent was
lying.
Vincent’s own cries had brought
Josef storming into the room, to block the light from the hallway with his
size, to seize his younger son in one hand and hold him in the air as he cuffed
him about with an open, meaty palm.
“He is smaller than you!” Josef had
roared. “You are never to hit him!”
And Dave, crying, suspended
helplessly in the air, unable to dodge the slaps raining down on him, had
screamed, almost incoherently, “But I’m smaller than you!”
And Josef had stopped.
Had set his gangly, clumsy son down
to weep on his bed. And had said, in a strained, unsettling voice, “This is
true. This is correct.”
And had gone out, closing the
bedroom door on the light.
Dave hadn’t understood any of it
then, and, to be honest, he grasped only a part of what had happened that
night, even now. He didn’t have that kind of introspection. Perhaps by choice.
He did remember Vincent, the next
night offering to tell his younger brother the story of the train bombing.
And himself, inarticulate but
defiant, telling Vince to just shut up.
He was sorry about that now. Sorry
about a lot of things. Distance, he supposed, did that to you.
And thinking so, he crawled up
beside Levon on the hillock and looked upon the darkness of Gwynir.
“This isn’t,” Levon murmured, “the
most intelligent thing I’ve ever done.” The words were rueful, but the tone was
not.
Dave heard the barely suppressed
excitement in the voice of Ivor’s son and, within himself, rising over his
fears, he felt an unexpected rush of joy. He was among friends, men he liked
and deeply respected, and he was sharing danger with them in a cause worthy of
that sharing. His nerves seemed sharp, honed, he felt intensely alive.
The moon slipped behind another
thick bank of clouds. The outline of the forest became blurred and indistinct.
Levon said, “Very well. I will lead. Follow in pairs behind me. I do not think
they are watching for us—if, indeed, there is anything there beyond bears and
hunting cats. I will make for the depression a little east of north. Follow
quietly. If the moon comes out, hold where you are until it is gone again.”
Levon slipped over the ridge and,
working along on his belly, began sliding over the open space toward the
forest. He moved so neatly the grasses scarcely seemed to move to mark his
passage.
Dave waited a moment, then, with
Mabon beside him, began propelling himself forward. It wasn’t easy going with
the axe, but he hadn’t come here to share in something easy. He found a rhythm
of elbows and knees, forced himself to breathe evenly and slowly, and kept his
head low to the ground. Twice he glanced up, to make sure of his orientation,
and once the thinning moon did slide out, briefly, pinning them down among the
silvered grasses. When it disappeared again, they went on.
They found the downward slope, just
where the trees began to thicken. Levon was waiting, crouched low, a finger to
his lips. Dave rested on one knee, balancing his axe, breathing carefully. And
listening.
Silence, save for night birds, wind
in the trees, the quick scurrying of some small animal. Then a barely audible
rustle of grass, and Tore and Sorcha were beside him, followed, a moment later,
as silently, by Brock and Faebur. The young Eridun’s face was set in a grim
mask. With the dark tattoos he looked like some primitive, implacable god of war.
Levon motioned them close. In the
faintest thread of a whisper he said, “If there is an ambush of any kind, it
will not be far from here. They will expect us to skirt as close to Daniloth as
we can. Any attack would pin us against the Shadowland, with the horses useless
among these trees. I want to check due north from here and then loop back along
a line farther east. If we find nothing, we can return to camp and play at dice
with Cechtar. He’s a bad gambler with a belt I like.”
Levon’s teeth flashed white in the
blackness. Dave grinned back at him. Moments like this, he decided, were what
you lived for.
Then the armed guard stepped into
their hollow from the north.
Had he given the alarm, had he had
time to do so, all of them would probably have died. He did not. He had no
time.
Of the seven men he stumbled upon,
every one was terribly dangerous in his own fashion, and very quick. The guard
saw them, opened his mouth to scream a warning—and died with the quickest blade
of them all in his throat.
Two arrows struck him, and a second
knife before he hit the ground, but all seven of them knew whose blade had
killed, whose had been first.
They looked at Brock of Banir Tal,
and then at the Dwarf he had slain, and they were silent.
Brock walked forward and stood looking
down at his victim for a long time. Then he stooped and withdrew his knife, and
Sorcha’s as well, from the Dwarf’s heart. He walked back to the six of them,
and his eyes, even in the night shadows, bore witness to a great pain.
“I knew him,” he whispered. “His
name was Vojna. He was very young. I knew his parents too. He never did an evil
thing in all his days. What has happened
to us?”
It was Mabon’s deep voice that
slipped quietly into the silence. “To some of you,” he amended gently. “But I
think we have an answer now to Teyrnon’s riddle. There is danger here, but not
true evil, only a thread of it. The Dwarves are sent to ambush us, but they are
not truly of the Dark.”
“Does it matter?” Brock whispered
bitterly.
“I think so,” Levon replied gravely.
“I think it might. Enough words, though: there will be other guards. I want to
find out how many of them there are, and exactly where. I also need two of you
to carry word back to the camp, right now.” He hesitated. “Tore. Sorcha.”
“Levon, no!” Tore hissed. “You
cannot—”
Levon’s jaw tightened and his eyes
blazed. Tore stopped abruptly. The dark Dalrei swallowed, nodded once, jerkily,
and then, with his father beside him, turned and left the forest, heading back
south. The night took them, as if they’d never been there.
Dave found Levon looking at him. He
returned the gaze. “I couldn’t,” Levon whispered. “Not so soon after they’d
found each other!”
Words were useless sometimes, they
were stupid. Dave reached forward and squeezed Levon’s shoulder. None of the
others spoke either. Levon turned and started ahead. With Mabon beside him
again, and Brock and Faebur following, Dave set out after him, his axe held
ready, into the blackness of the forest.
The guard had come from the
northeast, and Levon led them the same way. His heart racing now, Dave walked,
crouched low among the scented outlines of the evergreens, his eyes straining
for shapes in the night. There was death here, and treachery, and for all his
fear and anger, there was room within him to pity Brock and grieve for him—and
he knew he would never have felt either a year and a half ago.
Levon stopped and held up one hand.
Dave froze.
A moment later he heard it too: the
sounds of a great many men, too many to maintain an absolute silence.
Carefully he sank to one knee and,
bending low, caught a glimpse of firelight in the space between two trees. He
tapped Levon’s leg, and the fair-haired Dalrei dropped down as well and his
gaze followed Dave’s pointing finger.
Levon looked for a long time; then
he turned back, and his eyes met Brock’s. He nodded, and the Dwarf silently
moved past Levon to lead them toward the camp of his people. Levon fell back
beside Faebur, who had drawn his bow. Dave looped his hand tightly through the
thong at the end of his axe handle; he saw that Brock had done the same. Mabon
drew his sword.
They went forward, crawling again,
careful of their weapons, desperately careful of twigs and leaves on the forest
floor. With excruciating slowness Brock guided them toward the glow of light
Dave had seen.
Then suddenly he stopped.
Dave held himself rigidly still,
save for his own warning hand raised for Levon and Faebur behind him. Holding
motionless, hardly breathing, he heard the crunching footsteps of another guard
approach on the right, and then he saw a Dwarf walk past, not five feet away,
returning to the camp. Dave wiped perspiration from his brow and drew a long,
quiet breath.
Brock was slipping forward again,
even more slowly than before, and Dave, sharing a quick glance with Mabon,
followed. He found himself thinking, absurdly, about Cechtar’s belt, the one
Levon had wanted to gamble for. It seemed farther away than anything had any
right to be. He crawled, moving each hand and knee with infinite deliberation.
He hardly dared lift his head to look up, so fearful was he of making a sound
on the forest floor. It seemed to go on forever, this last stage of the
journey. Then, out of the corner of his eye, Dave saw that Brock had stopped.
Glancing up, he saw that they were within sight of the fires.
Dave looked, and his heart sank.
There was a huge clearing in Gwynir;
it seemed unnatural, man-made. He wondered, briefly, how it had come to be
there. But there were more pressing concerns than that. This was no raiding
party waiting for them, no delaying contingent readying a skirmish. There were
a great many watch fires in the clearing, the flames kept low to avoid
discovery, and around them, mostly sleeping, was the entire army of the Dwarves
of Banik Lok and Banir Tal.
Dave had a horrifying premonition of
the kind of havoc these fighters could wreak among Aileron’s horsemen. He
pictured the horses screaming, hampered and dangerous in the congested woods.
He saw the Dwarves, small, quick, deadly, far more courageous than the svart alfar,
slashing horseflesh and men amid the encircling trees.
He looked over at Brock, and his
heart ached for the transparent anguish he saw in the other’s face. Then, even
as he watched, Brock’s expression changed, and a cold hatred invested the
Dwarf’s normally kind features. Brock touched Levon on the arm and pointed.
Dave followed his finger and saw a
Dwarf beside the nearest of the fires, talking softly to three others, who then
ran off to the east, obviously carrying orders. The one who had spoken remained,
and Dave saw that he was bearded and dark, as were Brock and Matt, and that his
eyes were deep-set and hidden under an overhanging brow. He was too far away,
though, to make out anything else. Dave turned to Brock, his eyebrows raised in
a question.
Blod, Brock mouthed, not making a sound.
And then Dave knew. This was the one
they’d spoken of before, the one who’d given the Cauldron to Maugrim and had
been in Starkadh when Jennifer was taken there. He felt his own hatred rising,
his own eyes going flinty and cold, as he looked back at the Dwarf by the fire.
He tightened his grip on the axe.
But this was a reconnaissance, not a
raid. Even as he stared at Blod, hungering for his death, he heard Levon’s soft
whisper commanding them to turn back.
They never had a chance, though.
There came a sound to their right, a
loud crashing at the edge of the clearing, and then sudden hoarse shouts of
alarm very near them.
“Someone’s
here!” a
Dwarf guard screamed. Another one echoed the alarm.
Dave Martyniuk thought of his father
blowing up bridges in darkest night in a darkest time.
He saw Brock rise, and Levon,
weapons out.
He rose, hefting his axe. Saw
Faebur’s strung bow, and Mabon’s long sword glint in the red light of the fire.
For a moment he looked up. The moon was hidden, but there were stars up there
between the banks of clouds, high above the trees, the fires, high above
everything.
He stepped forward into the open, to
have room to swing the axe. Levon was beside him. He exchanged one glance with
the man he called his brother; there was time for nothing more. Then Dave
turned toward the roused army of the Dwarves and prepared to send as many of
them as he could into night before he died.
It was still dark when Sharra woke
on the deck of Amairgen’s ship. A heavy fog lay over the sea, shrouding the
stars. The moon had long since set.
She pulled Diarmuid’s cloak more
tightly about herself; the wind was cold. She closed her eyes, not really
wanting to be awake yet, to become fully aware of where she was. She knew,
though. The creaking of the masts and the flap of the torn sails told her. And
every few moments she would hear the sound of invisible footsteps passing:
mariners dead a thousand years.
On either side of her Jaelle and
Jennifer still slept. She wondered what time it was; the fog made it impossible
to tell. She wished that Diarmuid were beside her, warming her with his
nearness. She only had his cloak, though, damp with the mist. He’d been too
scrupulous of her honor to lie anywhere near her, either on the ship or, before
they’d boarded, on the beach below the Anor.
They had found a moment together,
though, after Lancelot had gone into the woods alone, in the deceptively
tranquil hour between twilight and full dark.
All tranquility was deceptive now,
Sharra decided, huddling under the cloak and the blankets they’d given her.
There were too many dimensions of danger and grief all around. And she’d
learned new ones with the tale Diarmuid had unfolded as they walked along the
northwest curving of the strand past the Anor, and saw—first time for both of
them—the sheer Cliffs of Rhudh gleam blood-red in the last of the light.
He had told her of the voyage in a
voice stripped of all its customary irony, of any inflections of mockery and
irreverence. He spoke of the Soulmonger, and she held his hand in her own and
seemed to hear, as backdrop to the musing fall of his voice, the sound of
Brendel singing his lament again.
Then he told her of the moment in
the Chamber of the Dead under Cader Sedat, the moment when, amid the ceaseless
pounding of all the seas of all the worlds, Arthur Pendragon had wakened
Lancelot from his death on the bed of stone.
Sharra lay on the boat, eyes closed,
listening to wind and sea, remembering what he’d said. “Do you know,” he’d
murmured, watching the Cliffs shade to a darker red, “that if you loved someone
else, as well as me, I do not think I could have done that, to bring him back
to you. I really don’t think I’m man enough to have done what Arthur did.”
She was wise enough to know that it
was a hard admission for him to make. She’d said, “He is something more than a
mortal, now. The threads of their three names on the Loom go back so far, intertwined
in so many ways. Do not reproach yourself, Diar. Or, if you must”—she
smiled—“do so for thinking I could ever love another as I do you.”
He had stopped at that, brow
furrowed, and turned to make some serious reply. She wondered, now, what it was
he’d been meaning to say. Because she hadn’t let him speak. She had risen up,
instead, on tiptoe and, putting her hands behind his head, had pulled his mouth
down so she could reach it with her own. To stop him from talking. To finally,
properly, begin to welcome him home from the sea.
After which, they had greeted each other properly, lying upon his cloak on that strand north
of Lisen’s Tower, slipping out of their clothes under the first of the stars.
He’d made love to her with an aching tenderness, holding her, moving upon her
with the gentle rhythm of the quiet sea. When she cried out, at length, it was
softly—a sound, to her own ears, like the sighing of a wave, a deep surging on
the sand.
And so it was all right, after a
fashion, that he did not lie with her when they came back to the Anor. Brendel
brought a pallet out from the Tower for her, and blankets woven in Daniloth for
Lisen, and Diarmuid left her the cloak, so she might have at least that much of
him next to her, as she fell asleep.
To awaken, not long after, along
with every one else on the beach, to see a ghostly ship sailing toward them,
with Jaelle aboard, and Pwyll, and a pale proud figure beside them both who
was, they gave her to understand, the ghost of Amairgen Whitebranch, beloved of
Lisen, dead these long, long years.
They had boarded that spectral ship
by starlight, by the cast glimmer of the setting moon, and unseen sailors had
brought it about, and they had begun moving north as a mist descended over the
sea to hide the stars.
Footsteps passed again, though there
was no one to be seen. It had to be close to morning now, but there was no real
way to tell. Try as she might, Sharra could not sleep. Too many thoughts chased
each other around and around in her mind. Amid fear and sorrow, perhaps because
of them, she felt a new keenness to all of her memories and perceptions, as if
the context of war had given an added intensity to everything, an intensity
that Sharra recognized as the awareness of possible loss. She thought about
Diar, and about herself—a solitary falcon no more—and found herself yearning,
more than she ever had before, for peace. For an end to the terrors of this
time, that she might lie in his arms every night without fearing what the mists
of morning might bring.
She rose, careful not to wake the
others sleeping beside her, and wrapping the cloak about herself she walked to
the leeward rail of the ship, peering out into the darkness and the fog. There
were voices farther along the deck. Others, it seemed were awake as well. Then
she recognized Diarmuid’s light inflections and, a moment later, the cold clear
tones of Amairgen.
“Nearly morning,” the mage was
saying. “I will be fading any moment. Only at night can I be seen in your
time.”
“And during the day?” Diarmuid
asked. “Is there anything we must do?”
“Nothing,” the ghost replied. “We
will be here, though you will not know it. One thing: do not, for fear of your
lives, leave the ship in daylight.”
Sharra glanced over. Arthur
Pendragon stood there as well, beside Diarmuid and Amairgen. In the greyness
and the mist, all three of them looked like ghosts to her. She made a sudden
gesture rooted in old, foolish superstitions, to unsay the thought. She saw
Cavall then, a grey shadow upon shadow, and in the fog he too seemed to belong
to some realm of the supernatural, terribly far from her own. From sunlight on
the waterfalls and flowers of Larai Rigal.
The sea slapped against the hull
with a cold, relentless sound, magnified in the fog. She looked over the rail
but couldn’t even see the waterline. It was probably just as well; one glimpse,
on first boarding, of water foaming through the shattered timbers of the ship
had been enough.
She looked back at the three men,
then caught her breath and looked more closely yet. There were only two of
them.
Arthur and Diar stood together, with
the dog beside them, but the ghost of the mage was gone. And in that moment
Sharra became aware that the eastern darkness was beginning to lift.
Peering through the grey, thinning
mist, she could now make out a long, low, rolling tongue of land. This had to
be Sennett Strand, of the legends. They had passed the Cliffs of Rhudh in the
night, and if her geography master in Larai Rigal had told true, and she
remembered rightly, before the day was out they would come to the mouth of
Linden Bay and see the fjords of ice and the vast glaciers looming in the
north.
And Starkadh: the seat of Rakoth Maugrim, set like
a black claw in the heart of a world of whitest light. She honestly didn’t know
how she was going to deal with looking upon it. It had as much to do with the
ice as with anything else, she realized, with how far north they were, in a
world so alien to one raised amid the gentle seasons of Cathal and the shelter
of its gardens.
Sternly she reminded herself that
they were not sailing to Starkadh or anywhere near it. Their journey would take
them back south down Linden Bay to the mouth of the Celyn River. There,
Diarmuid had explained, Amairgen would set them down, if all went well, in the
darkness before dawn tomorrow, bringing an end to this strangest of voyages.
It would have to be in darkness, she now realized, given what Amairgen had just
said: Do not, for fear of your lives,
leave the ship in daylight.
The mist was still rising, quickly
now. She saw a small patch of blue overhead, then another, and then,
gloriously, the sun burst into the sky over Sennett and the lands beyond.
And in that moment Sharra, looking
toward the morning, was the first to notice something about the strand.
“Diar!” she called, hoping she’d
kept the fear out of her voice.
He was still speaking to Arthur,
just along the rail, standing quite deliberately on a part of the deck where
the timbers had been completely torn away. He seemed to be suspended in air.
And she knew that below him, if she looked, she would see seawater rushing in
to swirl through the dark hold of Amairgen’s ship.
He broke off the conversation and
came over, quickly. Arthur followed.
“What is it?”
She pointed. By now the mist was
entirely gone from off the water and there was a great deal of light. Morning
in summer, bright and fair. She heard a babble of sound along the deck. Others
had seen as well. The men of South Keep were crowding to the rail, and other
hands were pointing to the same thing she was.
They were sailing along a green and
fertile coast. Sennett Strand had always been known (if she remembered her
lessons rightly) for the richness of its soil, though the growing season was
short this far north.
But Sennett had been ruined, as
Andarien beyond the bay had been, in the time of the Bael Rangat, despoiled by
a killing rain and then ravaged by Rakoth’s armies in the late days of the war
before Conary came north with the armies of Brennin and Cathal. Ruined and
emptied, both of those once-fair lands.
How then could they be seeing what
now they saw? A quilting of fields laid out under the blue summer sky,
farmhouses of stone and wood scattered across the strand, the smoke of cooking
fires rising from chimneys, crops flourishing in rich shades of brown and gold
and in the reddish hues of tall solais growing in row upon row.
Nearer to the ship, at the water’s
edge, as they continued north and the light grew clearer yet, Sharra saw a
harbor indenting the long coastline, and within that harbor were a score or
more of many-colored ships, some tall-masted with deep holds for grain and
timber, others little more than fishing boats to chance the ocean waters west
of the strand.
With a catch in her heart, as the
cries of wonder grew louder all about her, Sharra saw that the very tallest of
the ships carried proudly upon its mainmast a green flag with a curved sword
and a red leaf: the flag of Raith, westernmost of the provinces of Cathal.
Next to it she saw another tall
ship, this one flying the crescent moon and oak flag of Brennin. And the
mariners of both ships were waving to them! Clearly, from over the sparkling
water, came the sound of their greetings and laughter.
Beyond the ships the quayside
bustled with early-morning life. One ship was off-loading, and a number of
others were taking on cargo. Dogs and little boys careened about, getting in
everyone’s way.
Beyond the docks the town stretched,
along the bay in both directions and back up from the sea. She saw brightly
painted houses under slanting shingled roofs. Wide laneways ran up from the
waterside, and following the widest with her gaze Sharra saw a tall manor house
to the north and east with a high stone wall around it.
She could see it all, as they sailed
past the mouth of the harbor and she knew this town had to be Guiraut upon
Iorweth’s Bay.
But Iorweth’s Bay had been reclaimed
by the rising land hundreds and hundreds of years ago, and Guiraut Town had
been burnt and utterly razed to the ground by Rakoth Maugrim in the Bael
Rangat.
It was so full of life, so
beautiful; she suddenly realized that if she wasn’t careful she would weep.
“Diar, how has this happened?” she
asked, turning to him. “Where are we?”
“A long way off,” he said. “We’re
sailing through the seas this ship knew before she was destroyed. In the days
after Rakoth had come to Fionavar, but before the Bael Rangat.” His voice was
husky.
She turned back to look at the
harbor, trying very hard to deal with that.
Diarmuid touched her hand. “I don’t
think there is anything that endangers us directly,” he said. “So long as we
stay on the ship. We will return to our own seas, our own time, after the sun
has set.”
She nodded, never taking her eyes
from the brilliant colors of the harbor. She said, wonderingly, “Do you see
that ship from Raith? And the smaller one—over there—with the flag of Cynan?
Diar, my country doesn’t even exist yet! Those are ships of the principalities.
They only became a country after Angirad returned from the Bael Rangat.”
“I know that,” he said gently.
“We’re looking at a world that was destroyed.”
From over the water now she
recognized the sound of a t’rena, played high and sweet on the deck of the ship
from Cynan. She knew that music; she had grown up with it.
A thought came to her, born of the
ache lodged in her heart. “Can’t we warn them? Can’t we do something?”
Diarmuid shook his head. “They can’t
see us or hear us.”
“What do you mean? Can’t you hear
the music? And look—they’re waving to us!”
His hands were loosely clasped together
as he leaned on the rail, but the strain in his voice gave the lie to that
casualness. “Not to us, my dear. They aren’t waving to us. What they see isn’t
this broken hulk. They see a beautiful ship passing, with a picked crew from
Brennin. They see Amairgen’s mariners, Sharra, and his ship as it was before it
sailed for Cader Sedat. We’re invisible, I’m afraid.”
So, finally, she understood. They
sailed north along the line of the coast, and Guiraut Town disappeared from
sight, soon to disappear forever from the world of men, its brightness
remembered only in song. Soon, and yet long ago. Both. Loops in the weaving of
time.
The sound of the t’rena followed
them a long way, even after the town was lost behind the curve of the bay. They
left it, because they had no choice, to the fires of its future and their past.
After that the mood of the ship
turned grim, not with apprehension, but with a newer, sterner resolution, a
deeper awareness of what evil was, and meant. There was a harder tone to the
speech of the men on the deck, a crispness to the movements with which they
cleaned and polished their weapons, that boded ill for those who would seek to
oppose mem in what was to come. And it was coming, Sharra knew that now, and
she too was ready for it. Some of that same resolution had hardened in her own
heart.
They sailed north up the seaward
coast of Sennett Strand, and late in the afternoon, with the sun well out over
the sea, they came to the northernmost tip of Sennett and rounded that cape,
swinging east, and they saw the glaciers and the fjords, and the blackness of
Starkadh beyond.
Sharra gazed upon it and did not
flinch or close her eyes. She looked upon the heart of evil, and she willed
herself not to look away.
She could not, of course, see
herself in that moment, but others could, and there was a murmuring along the
ship at how fierce and cold the beauty of the Dark Rose of Cathal had suddenly
become. An Ice Queen from the Garden Country, a rival to the Queen of Rük
herself, as stern and as unyielding.
And even here, on this doorstep of
the Dark, there was a thing of beauty to be found. High above and far beyond
Starkadh, Rangat reared up, snow-crowned, cloud-shouldered, mastering the
northlands with its glory.
Sharra understood suddenly, for the
first time, why the conflict of a thousand years ago had come to be called the
Bael Rangat even though not one of the major battles had taken place by the
mountain. The truth was that Rangat loomed so imperiously high, this far north,
there was no place in these lands that could not be said to lie under the
sovereignty of the mountain.
Unless and until Rakoth defeated
them.
They sailed down the bay of a
thousand years ago under the westering sun. To the east they could see the
golden beaches of Andarien and, beyond them, a hint of a green fair land,
rising in gentle slopes toward the north. It would be dotted with strands of
tall trees, Sharra knew, and there would be deep blue lakes, sparkling in the
sun, with fish leaping from them in curved homage to the light. All gone, she
knew, all gone to dust and barrenness, to bleak highlands where the north wind
whistled down over nothingness. The forests were leveled, the lakes dry, the
thin grasses scattered and brown. Ruined Andarien, where the war had been
fought.
And would be again, if Diarmuid was
right. If, even now, Aileron the High King was leading his armies from the
Plain toward Gwynir, to come on the morrow through the evergreens to Andarien.
They too would be there, those on this ship, if Amairgen’s promise held.
It did. They sailed southeast down
Linden Bay, through the growing shadows of that afternoon and the long summer
twilight, watching the golden sands where Andarien met the bay gradually grow
dark. Looking back to the west, over Sennett Strand again, Sham saw the evening
star—Lauriel’s—and then, a moment later, the sun set.
And Amairgen was among them again,
shadowy and insubstantial, but growing clearer as the night deepened. There was
a cold arrogance to him and she wondered for a moment that Lisen had loved this
man. Then she thought about how long ago she had died, and how long he had
wandered, a ghost, loveless and unrevenged, through lonely, endless seas. He
would have been different, she guessed, when he was a living man, and young,
and loved by the fairest child of all the Weaver’s worlds.
A pity she could never have
expressed rose in her as she looked upon the proud figure of the first mage.
Later it grew too dark, and she could no longer see him clearly under the
starlight. The moon, thinning toward new, rose very late.
Sharra slept for a time; most of
them did, knowing how little rest might lie in the days ahead—or how much rest,
an eternity of it. She woke long before dawn. The moon was over the Strand, west
of them. They carried no lights on that ship. Andarien was a dark blur to the
east.
She heard low voices speaking
again—Amairgen, Diar, and Arthur Pendragon. Then the voices were gradually
stilled. Sharra rose, Diarmuid’s cloak about her in the chill. Jaelle, the High
Priestess, came to stand beside her, and the two of them watched as the Warrior
walked to the prow of the ship. He stood there—Cavall beside him, as ever—and
in the darkness of that night he suddenly thrust high his spear, and the head of
the King Spear blazed, blue-white and dazzling.
And by that light Amairgen
Whitebranch guided his ship to land by the mouth of the River Celyn where it
ran into Linden Bay.
They disembarked in the shallows by
that sweetest of rivers, which flowed from Celyn Lake along the enchanted
borders of Daniloth. Last of all to leave the ship, Sharra saw, was the one
they called Pwyll Twiceborn. He stood on the deck above the swaying ladder and
said something to Amairgen, and the mage made reply. She couldn’t hear what
they said, but she felt a shiver raise the hairs of her neck to look upon the
two of them.
Then Pwyll came down the rope
ladder, and they were all gathered on land again. Amairgen stood above them,
proud and austere in what was left of the moonlight.
He said, “High Priestess of Dana, I
have done as you bade me. Have I still the prayers you promised?”
Gravely, Jaelle replied, “You would
have had them even had you not carried us. Go to your rest, unquiet ghost. All
of you. The Soulmonger is dead. You are released. May there be Light for you at
the Weaver’s side.”
“And for you,” Amairgen said. “And
for all of you.”
He turned to Pwyll again and seemed
about to speak once more. He did not. Instead, he slowly lifted high both his
hands, and then, amid the sudden enraptured crying of his unseen mariners, he
faded from sight in the darkness. And his ship faded away with him, and the
crying of the mariners fell slowly away on the breeze, leaving only the sound
of the surf to carry its echo awhile from so far back in time.
In that place where the river met
the bay they turned and, led by Brendel of the lios alfar, who knew every slope
and shadow of this country so near his home, they began walking east, toward
where the sun would rise.
Chapter 12
“I will not go within,” Flidais
said, turning way from the mist. He looked up at the man standing beside him.
“Not even the andain are proof against wandering lost in Ra-Lathen’s woven
shadows. Had I any words left that might prevail upon you, I would urge you
again not to go there.”
Lancelot listened with that always
grave courtesy that was so much a part of him, the patience that seemed
virtually inexhaustible. He made one ashamed, Flidais thought, to be
importunate or demanding, to fall too far short of the mark set by that
gentleness.
And yet he was not without humor.
Even now there was a glint of amusement in his eyes as he looked down on the
diminutive andain.
“I was wondering,” he said mildly,
“if it were actually possible that you might run out of words. I was beginning
to doubt it, Taliesin.”
Flidais felt himself beginning to
flush, but there was no malice in Lancelot’s teasing, only a laughter they
could share. And a moment later they did.
“I am bereft neither of words nor
yet of arguments of dappled, confusing inconsequentiality,” Flidais protested.
“Only of time am I now run short, given where we stand. I am not about to try
to restrain you physically here on the borders of Daniloth. I am somewhat wiser
than that, at least.”
“At least,” Lancelot agreed. Then,
after a pause, “Would you really want to restrain me now, even if you could?
Knowing what you know?”
An unfairly difficult question. But
Flidais, who had been the wisest, most precocious child of all in his day, was
a child no longer. Not without sorrow, he said, “I would not. Knowing the three
of you, I would not constrain you from doing a thing she asked. I fear the
child though, Lancelot. I fear him deeply.” And to this the man made no reply.
The first hint of grey appeared in
the sky, overture to morning and all that the day might bring. To the west,
Amairgen’s ghostly ship was just then sailing north along Sennett Strand, its
passengers looking out upon a town given to the fire long ago, long since
turned to ashes and to shards of pottery.
A bird lifted its voice in song
behind them from some hidden place among the trees of the dark forest. They
stood between wood and mist and looked at each other for what, Flidais knew,
might be the last time.
“I am grateful for your guidance to
this place,” said Lancelot. “And for the tending of my wounds.”
Flidais snorted brusquely and turned
away. “Couldn’t have done the one without the other,” he growled. “Couldn’t
have guided you anywhere, let alone through the whole of a night, unless I’d
first done something about those wounds.”
Lancelot smiled. “Should I unsay my
thanks, then? Or is this some of your dappled inconsequentiality?”
He was, Flidais decided, altogether
too clever, always had been. It was the key to his mastery in battle: Lancelot
had always been more intelligent than anyone he fought. The andain found
himself smiling back and nodding a reluctant agreement.
“How is your hand?” he asked. It had
been by far the worst of the wounds: the palm savagely scored by the burning of
Curdardh’s hammer.
Lancelot didn’t even spare it a
glance. “It will do. I shall make it do, I suppose.” He looked north toward the
mists of Daniloth looming in front of them. Something changed in his eyes. It
was almost as if he heard a horn, or a call or another kind. “I must go, I
think, or there will have been no point in our having come so far. I hope we
meet again, old friend, in a time of greater light.”
Flidais found himself blinking
rapidly. He managed a shrug. “It is in the Weaver’s hands,” he said. He hoped
it sounded casual.
Lancelot said gravely, “Half a
truth, little one. It is in our own hands as well, however maimed they are. Our
own choices matter, or I would not be here. She would not have asked me to
follow the child. Fare kindly, Taliesin. Flidais. I hope you find what you
want.”
He touched the andain lightly on the
shoulder, and then he turned and after a dozen strides was swallowed up by the
mists of the Shadowland.
But I have, Flidais was thinking. I have
found what I want! The
summoning name was singing in his head, reverberating in the chambers of his
heart. He had sought it so long, and now it was his. He had what he wanted.
Which did not do anything to explain
why he stood rooted to that spot for so long afterward, gazing north into the
dense, impenetrable shadows.
It was only afterward, thinking
about it, that she consciously understood that this was something of which she
must have always been inwardly aware: the terrible danger that lay in wait for
her if she ever fell in love.
How else explain why Leyse of the
Swan Mark, fairest and most desired of all the women in Daniloth—long sought by
Ra-Tenniel himself, in vain—had chosen to abjure each and every such overture,
however sweetly sung, these long, long years?
How else indeed?
The Swan Mark, alone of the lios
alfar, had not gone to war. Dedicated in memory of Lauriel, for whom they were
named, to serenity and peace, they lingered, few in number, in the Shadowland,
wandering alone and in pairs through the days and nights since Ra-Tenniel had
led the brothers and sisters of the other two Marks to war on the Plain.
Leyse was one of those who wandered
alone. She had come, early of this mild summer’s dawning, to glimpse the muted
light of sunrise—all light was muted here—through the waters of the
upward-rushing waterfall of Fiathal, her favorite place within the Shadowland.
Though truly her favorite place of
all lay beyond the borders, north, on the banks of Celyn Lake, where the
sylvain could be gathered in spring by one who was careful not to be seen. That
place was closed to her now. It was a time of war outside the protection of the
mist and what it did to time.
So she had come south instead, to
the waterfall, and she was waiting for the sunrise, sitting quietly, clad as
ever in white, beside the rushing waters.
And so it was that she saw, just
before the sun came up, a mortal man walk into Daniloth.
She had a momentary spasm of
fear—this had not happened for a very long time—but then she relaxed, knowing the
mists would take him, momentarily, and leave him lost to time, no threat to
anyone.
She had an instant to look at him.
The graceful, slightly stiff gait, the high carriage of his head, dark hair.
His clothes were nondescript. There was blood on them. He carried a sword,
buckled about his waist. He saw her, from across the green, green glade.
That did not matter. The mist would
have him, long before he could cross to where she sat.
It did not. She raised a hand almost
without thought. She spoke the words of warding to shield him, to leave him
safe in time. And, speaking them, she shaped her own doom, the doom her inward
self had tried to avoid, all these long years, and had instead prepared, as a
feast upon the grass.
The sun came up. Light sparkled
gently, mildly, in the splash of the upward-running falls. It was very
beautiful. It always was.
She hardly saw. He walked toward her
over the carpet of the grass, and she rose, so as to be standing, drops of
water in her hair, on her race, when he came to where she was. Her eyes, she
knew, had come to crystal. His were dark.
She thought, afterward, that she
might have known who he was before he even spoke his name. It was possible. The
mind had as many loops as did time itself, even here in Daniloth. She forgot
who had told her that.
The tall man came up to her. He
stopped. He said, with deepest, gravest courtesy, “Good morning, my lady. I am
come in peace and trespass only by reason of utmost need. I must ask of you
your aid. My name is Lancelot.”
She had already given her aid, she
might have said, else he would not have walked this far, not be seeing her now.
He would be locked in a soundless, sightless world of his own. Forever. Until
the Loom was stilled.
She might have said that, were her
eyes not crystal— past that, even—brighter, clearer than she had thought they
could go. She might have, had her heart not already been given and lost even
before she heard the name, before she knew who he was.
There were droplets of water in her
hair. The grass was very green. The sun shone down gently through the shadows,
as it always did. She looked into his eyes, knowing who he was, and already,
even in that first moment, she sensed what her own destiny was now to be.
She heard it: the first high,
distant, impossibly beautiful notes.
She said, “I am Leyse of the Swan
Mark. Be welcome to Daniloth.”
She could see him drinking in her
beauty, the delicate music of her voice. She let her eyes slide into a shade of
green and then return to crystal again. She offered a hand and let him take it
and bring it to his lips.
Ra-Tenniel would have passed a
sleepless night, walking through fields of flowers, shaping another song, had
she done as much for him.
She looked into Lancelot’s eyes. So
dark. She saw kindness there, and admiration. Gratitude. But behind everything
else, and above it all, shaping the worlds he knew and woven through them all,
over and over, endlessly, she saw Guinevere. And the irrevocable finality, the
fact of his absolute love.
What she was spared—a dimension of
his kindness—was seeing in his calm gaze even a hint of how many, many times
this meeting had come to pass. In how many forests, meadows, worlds; beside how
many liquescent waterfalls making sweet summer music for a maiden’s heartbreak.
She was shielded by him, even as she
shaped her own warding, from knowing how much a part of the long three-fold
doom this was. How easily and entirely her sudden transfigured blazing could be
gathered within the telling, one more note of an oft-repeated theme, a thread
of a color already in the Tapestry. Her beauty deserved more, the incandescent,
crystalline flourishing of it. So, also, did the centuries-long simplicity of
her waiting. That too, by any measure, deserved more.
And he knew this, knew it as
intimately as he knew his name, as deeply as he named his own transgression
within his heart. He stood in that place of sheerest beauty within the
Shadowland and he shouldered her sorrow, as he had done for so many others, and
took the guilt and the burden of it for his own.
And all this happened in the space
of time it might take a man to cross a grassy sward and stand before a lady in
the morning light.
It was by an act of will, of
consummate nobility, that Leyse kept the shading of her eyes as bright as
before. She held them to crystal—fragile, breakable crystal, she was
thinking—and she said, with music in her voice, “How may I be of aid to thee?”
Only the last word betrayed her. He
gave no hint that he had heard the caress in it, the longing she let slip into
that one word. He said formally, “I am on a quest set by my lady. There will
have been another who came within the borders of your land last night, flying
in the shape of an owl, though not truly so. He is on a journey of his own, a
very dark road, and I fear he may have been caught within the shadows over
Daniloth, unknowing in the night. It is my charge to keep him safe to take that
road.”
There was nothing she wanted more
than to lie down again beside the rising, rushing waters of the falls of
Fiathal with this man beside her until the sun had gone and the stars and the
Loom had spun its course.
“Come, then,” was all she said, and
led him from that place of gentlest beauty and enchantment, in search of
Darien.
Along the southern margins of
Daniloth they walked side by side, a little distance between, but not a great
deal, for he was deeply aware of what had happened to her. They did not speak.
All around them the muted, serene spaces of grass and hillocks stretched. There
were flowing rivers, and flowers in pale, delicate hues growing along their
banks. Once he knelt, to drink from a stream, but she shook her head quickly,
and he did not.
She had seen his palm, though, as he
cupped it to drink, and when he stood she took it between her own and looked
upon his wound. He felt the pain of it then, seeing it in her eyes, more keenly
than he had when he’d lifted the black hammer in the sacred grove.
She did not ask. Slowly she released
his hand—did so as if surrendering it to everything in the world that was not
her touch—and they went on. It was very quiet. They passed no one else walking
as the went.
Once, only, they came upon a man
clad in armor, carrying a sword, his face contorted with rage and fear. He
seemed to Lancelot to be frozen in place, motionless, his foot thrust forward
in a long stride he would never complete.
Lancelot looked at Leyse, clad in
white beside him, but he said nothing.
Another time it seemed to him that
he heard the sound of horses rushing toward them, very near. He spun, shielding
her reflexively, but he saw no one at all riding past, whether friend or foe.
He could tell though, from the turning of her gaze, that she did see a company riding there, riding right through the two of them
perhaps, lost as well, in a different way, amid the mists of Daniloth.
He released his grip on her arm. He
apologized. She shook her head, with a sadness that went into him like a blade.
She said, “This land was always
dangerous to anyone other than our kind, even before Lathen Mistweaver’s time,
when these shadows came down. Those men were horsemen from before the Bael
Rangat, and they are lost. There is nothing we can do for them. They are in no
time we know, to be spoken to or saved. Had we space for the telling, I might
spin you the tale of Revor, who risked that fate in the service of Light a
thousand years ago.”
“Had we space for the telling,” he
said, “I would take pleasure in that.”
She seemed about to say something
more, but then her eyes—they were a pale, quiet blue now, much like the last of
the flowers they had passed—looked beyond his face, and he turned.
West of them lay a thicket of trees.
The leaves of the trees were of many colors even in midsummer, and the woods
were very beautiful, offering a promise of peace, of quiet shade, of a place
where the sunlight might slant down through the leaves, with a brook murmuring
not far away.
Above the southernmost of the trees
of that small wood, at the very edge of Daniloth, an owl hung suspended, wings
spread wide and motionless in the clear morning air.
Lancelot looked, and he saw the
sheath of a dagger held in the owl’s mouth glint with a streak of blue in the
mild light. He turned back to the woman beside him. Her eyes had changed color.
They were dark, looking upon the owl that hung in the air before them.
“Not this one,” she said, before he
could speak. He heard the fear, the denial in her voice. “Oh, my lord, surely
not this one?”
He said, “This is the child I have
been sent to follow and to guard.”
“Can you not see the evil within
him?” Leyse cried. Her voice was loud in the quiet of that place. There was music
in it still, but strained now, and overlaid by many things.
“I know it is there,” he said. “I
know also that there is a yearning after light. Both are part of his road.”
“Then let the road end here,” she
said. It was a plea. She turned to him. “My lord, there is too much darkness in
this one. I can feel it even from where we stand.”
She was a Child of Light, and she
stood in Daniloth. Her certainty planted a momentary doubt in his own heart. It
never took root; he had his own certainties.
He said, “There is darkness
everywhere now. We cannot avoid it; only break through, and not easily. In the
danger of this might lie our hope of passage.”
She looked at him for a long moment.
“Who is he?” she asked finally.
He had been hoping she would not
ask, for many reasons. But when the question came, he did not turn away.
“Guinevere’s child,” he said levelly, though it cost him something. “And Rakoth
Maugrim’s. He took her by force in Starkadh. And therein lies the evil you see,
and the hope of light beyond.”
There was pain now, overlying the
fear in her eyes.
And under both of those things, at
bedrock, was love. He had seen it before, too many times.
She said, “And you think she will
prove stronger?” Music in her voice again, distant but very clear.
“It is a hope,” he replied, gravely
honest. “No more than that.”
“And you would act and have me act
upon that hope?” Music still.
“She has asked me to guard him,” he
said quietly. “To see him through to the choice he has to make. I can do no
more than ask you. I have only the request.”
She shook her head. “You have more
than that,” she said.
And with the words she turned away
from him, leaving her heart. She looked at the motionless bird, child of Dark
and Light. Then she gestured with her long graceful hands and sang a word of
power to shape a space through which he could fly over the Shadowland. She made
a corridor for Darien, a rift in the mists of time that coiled through
Daniloth, and she watched with an inner, brilliant sight, as he flew north
along that corridor, over the mound of Atronel and beyond, coming out at length
above the River Celyn, where she lost him.
It took a long time. Lancelot waited
beside her, silent all the while. He had seen Darien”s flight begin, but when
the owl had gone some distance north over the many-colored leaves of the
forest, it was lost to his mortal sight. He continued to wait, knowing, among
many other things, that this was as far as he would be able to follow
Guinevere’s child, the last service he could offer. It was a sorrow.
He was conscious, as he stood beside
Leyse and the pale sun climbed higher in the sky, of a great weariness and not
a little pain. There was a fragrance in the meadow, and birdsong in the woods
nearby. He could hear the sound of water. Without actually being aware of
having done so, he found himself sitting upon the grass at the woman’s feet.
And then, in a trance half shaped by Daniloth and half by marrow-deep
exhaustion, he lay down and fell asleep.
When the owl had passed beyond the
northernmost borders of her land and she had lost him beyond the mist, Leyse
let her mind come back to where she stood. It was early in the afternoon, and
the light was as bright as it ever became. Even so, she too was very tired.
What she had done was not an easy thing, made harder for one of the Swan Mark
by the inescapable resonance of evil she had sensed.
She looked down upon the man, fast
asleep beside her. There was a quiet now in her heart, an acceptance of what
had come to her beside the waters of Fiathal. She knew he would not stay unless
she bound him by magic to this place, and she would not do that.
One thing, only, she would allow
herself. She looked at his sleeping face for a very long tune, committing it to
the memory of her soul. Then she lay down beside him on the soft, scented grass
and slipped her hand into his wounded one. No more than that, for in her pride
she would go no further. And linked in that fashion for a too-brief summer’s
afternoon, joined only by their interwoven fingers, she fell asleep for one
time and the only time beside Lancelot, whom she loved.
Through the afternoon they slept,
and in the quiet peace of Daniloth nothing came, not so much as a dream, to
cause either of them to stir. Far to the east, across the looming barrier of
the mountains, the Dwarves of Banir Lok and Banir Tal waited for sunset and the
judgment of their Crystal Lake. Nearer, on the wide Plain, a Dwarf and an
Eridun and an exile of the Dalrei reached the camp of the High King and were
made welcome there before the army set out for the last hours of the ride to
Gwynir and the eastern borders of this Shadowland.
And north of them, as they slept,
Darien was flying to his father.
They woke at the same time, as the
sun went down. In the twilight Lancelot gazed at her, and he saw her hair and
eyes gleam in the dusk beside him, beautiful and strange. He looked down at her
long fingers, laced through his own. He closed his eyes for a moment and let
the last of that deep peace wash over him like a tide. A withdrawing tide.
Very gently, then, he disengaged his
hand. Neither of them spoke. He rose. There was a faint phosphorescence to the
grass and to the leaves of the wood nearby, as if the growing things of
Daniloth were reluctant to yield the light. It was the same gleaming he saw in
her eyes and in the halo of her hair. There were echoes of many things in his
mind, memories. He was careful not to let her see.
He helped her rise. Slowly the glow
of light faded—from the leaves and the grass and then, last of all, from Leyse.
She turned to the west and pointed. He followed the line of her arm and saw a
star.
“Lauriel’s,” she said. “We have
named the evening star for her.” And then she sang. He listened, and partway
through he wept, for many reasons.
When her song was done she turned
and saw his tears. She said nothing more, nor did he speak. She led him north
through Daniloth, sheltered from the mist and the loops of time by her
presence. All the night they walked. She led him up the mound of Atronel, past
the Crystal Throne, and then down the other side, and Lancelot du Lac was the
first mortal man ever to ascend that place.
In time they came to the southern
bay of Celyn Lake, the arm that dipped down into Daniloth, and they went along
its banks to the north, not because it was quickest or easiest but because she
loved this place and wanted him to see. There were night flowers in bloom along
the shore, giving off their scent, and out over the water
he saw strange, elusive figures dancing on the waves and he heard music all the
while.
At length they came to the edge of a
river, where it left the waters of the lake, and they turned to the west as the
first hint of dawn touched the sky behind them. And a very little while later
Leyse stopped, and turned to Lancelot.
“The river is quiet here,” she said,
“and there are stepping stones along which you may cross. I can go no farther.
On the other side of Celyn you will be in Andarien.”
He looked upon the beauty of her for
a long time in silence. When he opened his mouth to speak he was stopped, for
she placed her fingers over his lips.
“Say nothing,” she whispered. “There
is nothing you can say.”
It was true. A moment longer he
stood there; then very slowly she drew her hand away from his mouth, and he
turned and crossed the river over the smooth round stones and so left Daniloth.
He didn’t go far. Whether it was an
instinct of war, or of love, or of the two bound into each other, he went only
as far as a small copse of trees on the banks of the river near the lake. There
were willows growing in the Celyn, and beautiful flowers, silver and red. He
didn’t know their name. He sat down in that place of beauty as the dawn
broke—dazzling after the muted light of the Shadowland—and he gazed out upon
the ruined desolation of Andarien. He looped his hands over his knees, placed
his sword where he could reach it, and composed himself to wait, facing west
toward the sea.
She waited as well, though she had
told herself all through the long night’s silent walking that she would not
linger. She had not expected him to stay so near, though, and her resolution
faltered as soon as he was not there.
She saw him walk toward the aum
trees and then sit down amid the sylvain she loved in her most cherished place
of any in this one world she knew. She knew he could not see her standing here,
and it was not easy for her to see clearly either, beyond the encircling
billows of the mist.
She waited, nonetheless, and toward
the middle of the afternoon a company of some fifty people approached from the
west, along the riverbank.
She saw him rise. She saw the
company stop not far away from him. Leading them was Brendel of the Kestrel
Mark, and she knew that if he looked to the south he would see her. He did not.
He remained with the others and
watched with the others as a woman, fair-haired, very tall, walked toward
Lancelot. It seemed to Leyse that the mists parted a little for her then—a
blessing or a curse, she could not say—and she saw Lancelot’s face clearly as
Guinevere came up to him.
She saw him kneel, and take her hand
in his good one, and bring it to his lips, the same as he had done with hers
when he had first approached her over the grass by Fiathal.
Yet not the same. Not the same.
And it came to pass that in that
moment Leyse of the Swan Mark heard her song.
She went away from that place,
walking alone, hidden by the screening of the shadows, and within her a song
was building all the time, a last song.
Along the riverbank farther west she
found, amid the willows and corandiel, a small craft of aum wood with a single
sail white as her own white robe. She had walked past this place a thousand
times before and never seen that boat. It had not been there, she realized. The
music of her song had called it forth. She’d always thought that she would have
to build her boat, when the time came, and had wondered how she would.
Now she knew. The song was within
her, rising all the while, shaping a sweeter and sweeter sadness and a promise
of peace to come beyond the waves.
She stepped down into the boat and
pushed off from the restraining shallows and the willows. As she drifted close
to the northern bank of the Celyn she plucked one red flower of sylvain and one
of silver to carry with her, as the music carried her and the river carried her
to the sea.
She did not know, and it was a
granting of grace that she was spared the knowing, how very much an echo this
too was of the story she had been brought into, how deeply woven it was into
that saddest story of all the long tales told. She drifted with the current
with her flowers in her hand, and at length she reached the sea.
And that craft, shaped by magic,
brought into being by a longing that was of the very essence of the lios alfar,
did not founder among the waves of the wide sea. Westward it went, and farther
westward still, and farther yet, until at length it had gone far enough and had
reached the place where everything changed, including the world. And in this
fashion did Leyse of the Swan Mark sail past the waters where the Soulmonger
had lain in wait, and so became the first of her people for past a thousand
years to reach the world the Weaver had shaped for the Children of Light alone.
Chapter 13
The sun had set and so the glow of
the walls had faded. Torches flickered in the brackets now. They burned without
smoke; Kim didn’t know how. She stood with the others at the foot of the
ninety-nine stairs that led to the Crystal Lake, and a feeling of dread was in
her heart.
There were eight of them there. Kaen
had brought two Dwarves she didn’t know; she and Loren had come with Matt; and
Miach and Ingen were present for the Dwarfmoot, to bear witness to the judgment
of Calor Diman. Loren carried an object wrapped in a heavy cloth, and so did
one of Kaen’s companions. The crystals—fruits of an afternoon’s crafting. Gifts
for the Lake.
Kaen had donned a heavy black cloak
clasped at the throat with a single brooch worked in gold, with a vein of blue
thieren that flashed in the torchlight. Matt was dressed as he always was, in
brown with a wide leather belt, and boots, and no adornment at all. Kim looked
at his face. It was expressionless, but he seemed strangely vivid, flushed,
almost as if he were glowing. No one spoke. At a gesture from Miach, they began
to climb.
The stairs were very old, the stone
crumbling in places, worn smooth and slippery in others, an inescapable
contrast to the polished, highly worked architecture everywhere else. The walls
were rough, unfinished, with sharp edges that might cut if not avoided. It was
hard to see clearly. The torches cast shadows as much as light.
The primitive stairway seemed to Kim
to be carrying her back in time more than anything else. She was profoundly
aware of being within a mountain. There was a growing consciousness of raw
power massed all about her, a power of rock and stone, of earth upthrust to
challenge sky. An image came into her mind: titanic forces battling, with
mountains for boulders to hurl at each other. She felt the absence of the
Baelrath with an intensity that bordered on despair.
They came to the door at the top of
the stairs.
It was not like the ones she had
seen—entranceways of consummate artistry that could slide into and out of the
surrounding walls, or high carved arches with their perfectly measured
proportions. She had known, halfway up, that this door wouldn’t be like any of
the others.
It was of stone, not particularly
large, with a heavy, blackened iron lock. They waited on the threshold as Miach
walked up to it, leaning upon his staff. He drew an iron key from within his
robe and turned it slowly, with some effort, in the lock. Then he grasped the
handle and pulled. The door swung open, revealing the dark night sky beyond,
with a handful of stars framed in the opening.
They walked out in silence to the
meadow of Calor Diman.
She had seen it before, in a vision
on the road to Ysanne’s lake. She’d thought that might have prepared her. It
had not. There was no preparing for this place. The blue-green meadow lay in
the bowl of the mountains like a hidden, fragile thing of infinite worth. And
cradled within the meadow, as the meadow lay within the circle of the peaks,
were the motionless waters of the Crystal Lake.
The water was dark, almost black.
Kim had a swift apprehension of how deep and cold it would be. Here and there,
though, along the silent surface of the water she could see a gleam of light,
as the Lake gave back the light of the early stars. The thinning moon had not
yet risen; she knew Calor Diman would shine when the moon came up over Banir
Lok.
And she suddenly had a sense—only a
sense, but that was a good deal more than enough—of how utterly alien, how
terrifying this place would be when a full moon shone down on it, and Calor Diman
shone back upon the sky, casting an inhuman light over the meadow and the
mountainsides. This would be no place for mortals on such a night. Madness
would lie in the sky and in the deep waters, in every gleaming blade of grass,
in the ancient, watchful, shining crags.
Even now, by starlight, it was not
easy to bear. She had never realized how sharp a danger lay in beauty. And
there was something more as well, something deeper and colder, as the Lake
itself was deep and cold. Each passing second, while the night gathered and the
stars grew blighter, made her more and more conscious of magic here, waiting to
be unleashed. She was grateful beyond words for the green shielding of the
vellin stone: Matt’s gift, she remembered.
She looked at him, who had been here on a night of the full moon, and had survived and been made
King by that. She looked, with a newer, deeper understanding, and saw that he
was gazing back at her, his face still vivid with that strange, glowing
intensity. He had come home, she realized. The tide of the Lake in his heart
had drawn him back. There was no longer any need to fight its pull.
No need to fight. Only judgment to
be endured. With so very much at risk here in this mountain bowl, most of the
way, it seemed, to the stars. She thought of the army of the Dwarves across the
dividing range of the mountains. She had no idea of what to do, none at all.
Matt came over to her. With a
gesture of his head, not speaking, he motioned her to walk a little way apart.
She went with him from the others. She put up the hood of her robe and plunged
her hands in the pockets. It was very cold. She looked down at Matt and said
nothing, waiting.
He said, very softly, “I asked you,
a long time ago, to save some of your words of praise for Ysanne’s lake against
the time when you might see this place.”
“It is past beauty,” she replied.
“Beyond any words I might offer. But I am very much afraid, Matt.”
“I know. I am, as well. If I do not
show it, it is because I have made my peace with whatever judgment is to come.
What I did forty years ago I did in the name of Light. It may still have been
an act of evil. Such things have happened before and will happen again. I will
abide by the judging.”
She had never seen him like this.
She felt humbled in his presence. Behind Matt, Miach was whispering something
to Ingen, and then he motioned Loren to approach, and Kaen’s companion,
carrying their crystals wrapped in cloth.
Matt said, “It is time now, I think.
And it may be an ending to my time. I have something for you, first.”
He lowered his head and brought a
hand up to the patch over his lost eye. She saw him lift the patch and, for the
first time, she caught a glimpse of the ruined socket behind. Then something
white fell out, and he caught it in the palm of his hand. It was a tiny square
of soft cloth. Matt opened it—to show her the Baelrath gleaming softly in his
hand.
Kim let out a wordless cry.
“I am sorry,” Matt said. “I know you
will have been tormented by fear of who had it, but I have had no chance to
speak with you. I took it from your hand when we were first attacked by the
doorway to Banir Lok. I thought it would be best if I. . . kept an eye on it
until we knew what was happening. Forgive me.”
She swallowed, took the Warstone,
put it on. It flared on her finger, then subsided again. She said, reaching for
the tone that used to come so easily to her, “I will forgive you anything and
everything from now until the Loom’s last thread is woven, except the wretched
pun.”
His mouth crooked sideways. She
wanted to say more, but there really wasn’t time. It seemed that there had
never been enough time. Miach was calling to them. Kim sank to her knees in the
deep, cold grass and Matt embraced her with infinite gentleness. Then he kissed
her once, on the lips, and turned away.
She followed him back to where the
others stood. There was power on her hand now, and she could feel it responding
to the magic of this place. Slowly, gradually, but there was no mistaking it.
And suddenly, now that it was hers again, she remembered some of the things the
Baelrath had caused her to do. There was a price to power. She had been paying
it all along, and others had been paying it with her: Arthur, Finn, Ruana and
the Paraiko. Tabor.
Not a new grief but sterner, now,
and sharper. She had no chance to think about it. She came up to stand beside
Loren, in time to hear Miach speak, with a hushed gravity.
“You will not need to be told that
there is no history for this. We are living through days that have no patterns
to draw upon. Even so, the Dwarftnoot has taken counsel, and this is what shall
be done, with six of us to witness a judgment between two.”
He paused to draw breath. There was
no stir of wind in the mountain bowl. The cold night air was still, as if
waiting, and still, too, were the starry waters of the Lake.
Miach said, “You will each unveil
your crystal fashionings that we may take note of them and what they might
mean, and then you will cast them together into the waters and we will wait for
a sign from the Lake. If there is fault found with this, speak to it now.” He
looked at Kaen.
Who shook his head. “No fault,” he
said, in the resonant, beautiful voice. “Let he who turned away from his people
and from Calor Diman seek to avoid this hour.” He looked handsome and proud in
his black cloak, with the golden and blue brooch holding it about him.
Miach looked to Matt.
“No fault,” said Matt Sören.
Nothing more. When, Kim thought, a
lump in her throat, had he ever wasted a word in all the time she’d known him?
Legs spread wide, hands on his hips, he seemed to be as one with the rocks all
around them, as enduring and as steadfast.
And yet he had left these mountains.
She thought of Arthur in that moment, and the children slain. She grieved in
her heart for the sins of good men, caught in a dark world, longing for light.
The question at issue, Miach had said in Seithr’s Hall, is whether the King can surrender
the Lake.
She didn’t know. None of them did.
They were here to find out.
Miach turned back to Kaen and
nodded. Kaen walked over to his companion, who held up his hands, the covered
crystal within them, and with a sweeping, graceful motion Kaen drew the cloth
away.
Kim felt as if she’d been punched in
the chest. Tears sprang to her eyes. Her breath was torn away and she had to
fight for some time before it came back. And all the while she was inwardly
cursing the terrible unfairness, the corruscating, ultimate irony of this—that
someone so twisted with evil, with deeds so very black laid down at the door of
his heart, should have so much beauty at his command.
He had shaped, out of crystal, in
miniature, the Cauldron of Khath Meigol.
It was exactly as she had seen it,
in her long, dark mind journey from the Temple in Gwen Ystrat. When she had
ventured so far into the blackness of Rakoth’s designs that she could never
have come back without Ruana’s chanting to shield her and give her a reason to
return.
It was exactly the same, but with
everything reversed, somehow. The black Cauldron she had seen, the source of
the killing winter in midsummer and then the death rain that had unpeopled
Eridu, was now a glittering, delicate, ineffably glorious thing of crystalline
light, even to the runic lettering around the rim and the symmetrical design at
the base. Kaen had taken the image of that dark, shattered Cauldron and made of
it a thing that caught the starlight as brightly as did the Lake.
It was a thing to be longed for, to
be heartachingly desired by every single one of the Weaver’s mortal children in
all the worlds of time. Both for itself, and for what it symbolized: the return
from death, from beyond the walls of Night, the passionate yearning of all
those fated to die that there might be a coming back or a going on. That the
ending not be an ending.
Kim looked at the Dwarf who had done
this, saw him gaze at his own creation, and understood in that moment how he
could have come to release Maugrim and surrender the Cauldron into his hand.
Kaen’s, she realized, was the soul of an artist carried too far. The search,
the yearning for knowledge and creation taken to the point where madness began.
Using the Cauldron would have meant
nothing to such a one: it was the finding
that mattered, the
knowledge of where it was. It was all abstract, internalized, and so
all-consuming that nothing could be allowed to stand between the searcher and
his long desire. Not a thousand deaths or tens of thousands, not a world given
over to the Dark or all the worlds given over.
He was a genius, and mad. He was
self-absorbed to the point where that could no longer be separated from evil,
and yet he held this beauty within himself, pitched to a level Kim had never
thought to see or ever imagined could be seen.
She didn’t know how long they stood
transfixed by that shining thing. At length Miach gave a small, almost an
apologetic cough. He said, “Kaen’s gift has been considered.” His voice was
husky, diffident. Kim couldn’t even blame him. Had she been able to speak,
that, too, would have been her tone, even with all she knew.
“Matt Sören?” Miach said.
Matt walked over to Loren. For a
moment he paused before the man for whom he had forsaken these mountains and
this Lake. A look passed between the two of them that made Kimberiy turn away
for a moment, it was so deeply private, speaking to so many things that no one
else had a right to share. Then Matt quietly drew the cloth from his own
fashioning.
Loren was holding a dragon in his
hands.
It bore the same relationship to
Kaen’s dazzling artistry that the stone door at the top of the stairs did to
the magnificent archways that led into Seithr’s Hall. It was roughly worked,
all planes and sharp angles, not polished. Where Kaen’s cauldron glittered
brilliantly in the starlight, Matt’s crafted dragon seemed dull beside it. It
had two great, gouged eyes, and its head was turned upward at an awkward,
straining angle.
And yet Kim couldn’t take her eyes
off it. Nor, she was aware, had any of the others there, not even Kaen, whose
quick chuckle of derision had given way to silence.
Looking more closely, Kim saw that
the roughness was entirely deliberate, a matter of decision, not inability or
haste. The line of the dragon’s shoulder, she saw, would have been a matter of
moments to smooth down, and the same was true of the sharp edge of the averted
neck. Matt had wanted it this way.
And slowly she began to understand.
She shivered then, uncontrollably, for there was power in this beyond words,
rising from the soul and the heart, from an awareness not sourced in the
conscious mind. For whereas Kaen had sought—and found—a form to give expression
to the beauty of this place, to catch and transmute the stars, Matt had reached
for something else.
He had shaped an approach—no more
than that—to the ancient, primitive power Kim had sensed as they mounted the
stairs and had been overwhelmingly conscious of from the moment they had come
into the meadow.
Calor Diman was infinitely more than
a place of glory, however much it was that. It was hearthstone, bedrock, root.
It encompassed the roughness of rock and the age of earth and the cold depths
of mountain waters. It was very dangerous. It was the heart of the Dwarves, and
the power of them, and Matt Sören, who had been made King by a night in this
high meadow, knew that better than anyone alive, and his Grafting for the Lake
bore witness to it.
None of them there could know it,
and the one man who might have told them had died in Gwen Ystrat to end the
winter, but there was a cracked stone bowl of enormous antiquity lying, even
then, beside a chasm in Dana’s cave at Dun Maura. And that bowl embodied the
same unthinking awareness of the nature of ancient power that Matt Sören’s
dragon did.
“You did this before,” said Miach
quietly. “Forty years ago.”
“You remember?” Matt asked.
“I do. It was not the same.”
“I was young then. I thought I might
strive to equal in crystal the truth of what I was shaping. I am older now, and
some few things I have learned. I am glad of a chance to set matters right
before the end.”
There was a grudging respect in
Miach’s eyes, and in Ingen’s as well, Kim saw. In Loren’s face was something
else: an expression that combined somehow a father’s pride, and a brother’s,
and a son’s.
“Very well,” Miach said,
straightening as much as his bent years would allow. “We have considered both
of your craftings. Take them and cast them forth, and may the Queen of Waters
grant her guidance to us now.”
Matt Sören took his dragon then, and
Kaen his shining crystal cauldron, and the two of them went, side by side, away
from the six who would watch. And they came, in the silence of that night,
under the stars but not yet the late-rising moon, to the shore of Calor Diman,
and there they stopped.
There were stars mirrored in the
Lake, and high overhead, and then a moment later there were two more shining
things above the water, as both Dwarves who had come to be judged threw their
crystal gifts in arcs out over the Lake.
And they fell, both of them, with
splashes that echoed in the brooding stillness, and disappeared in the depths
of Calor Diman.
There were, Kim saw with a shiver,
no ripples at all to ruffle the water and so mark the place where they fell.
Then came a time of waiting, a time
outside of time, so charged with the resonances of that place it seemed to go
on forever, to have been going on since first Fionavar was spun onto the Loom,
Kimberly, for all her dreaming, all her Seer’s gifts, had no hint of what they
were waiting to see, what form the Lake’s answer was to take. Never taking her
eyes from the two Dwarves by the water, she reached within and found her own
twin soul, searching for a reply to the question she could not answer. But
neither, it seemed, could the part of her that was Ysanne. Not even the old
Seer’s dreams or her own vast store of knowledge were equal to this: the
Dwarves had guarded their secret far too well.
And then, even as Kim was thinking
this, she saw that Calor Diman was moving.
Whitecaps began to take shape in the
center of the Lake, and with them there suddenly came a sound, high and shrill,
a wailing, haunted cry unlike anything she’d ever heard. Loren, beside her,
murmured something that must have been a prayer. The whitecaps became waves and
the wailing sound grew higher and higher, and then so too did the waves, and
suddenly they were rushing hugely from the agitated heart of the dark water
toward the shore, as if Calor Diman were emptying her center.
Or rising from it.
And in that moment the Crystal
Dragon came.
Understanding burst in Kimberly
then, and with it a sense, after the fact, as so many times before, that it
should have been obvious all along. She had seen the enormous sculpture of a
dragon dominating the entrance of Seithr’s Hall. She had seen Matt’s crafting
and heard what he and Miach had said to each other. She had known there was
more than beauty in this place. She had been aware of magic, ancient and deep.
This was it. This crystalline,
shimmering Dragon of the Lake was the power of Calor Diman. It was the heart of
the Dwarves, their soul and their secret, which she and Loren had now been
allowed to see. A fact, she was grimly aware, that made their deaths doubly
certain if Kaen should prevail in what was coming.
She forced her mind from that
thought. All around her everyone else, including Loren, had knelt. She did not.
Not clearly understanding the impulse that kept her on her feet—pride, but more
than that—she met the shining eyes of the Crystal Dragon as they fell upon her,
and she met them with respect but as an equal.
It was hard, though. The Dragon was
unimaginably beautiful. Creature of mountain meadow and the icy depths of
mountain waters, it glittered, almost translucent in the starlight, rising from
the agitated waves high above the kneeling figures of the two Dwarves on the
banks of Calor Diman.
Then it spread its wings, and
Kimberly cried aloud in wonder and awe, for the wings of the Dragon dazzled and
shone with a myriad of colors like gems in infinite variety, a play of light in
the meadow bowl of night. She almost did sink to her knees then, but again
something kept her on her feet, watching, her heart aching.
The Dragon did not fly. It held
itself suspended, half within the water, half rising from it. Then it opened
its mouth, and flame burst forth, flame without smoke, like the torches on the
walls within the mountain; blue-white flame, through which the stars could
still be seen.
The fire died. The Dragon’s wings
were still. A silence, cold and absolute, like the silence that might have lain
at the very beginning of time, wrapped the meadow. Kim saw one of the Dragon’s
claws slowly emerge, glittering, from the water. There was something clutched
in its grasp. Something the Crystal Dragon suddenly tossed, with what seemed to
her to be contemptuous disdain, on the grass by the Lake.
She saw what it was.
“No,”
she breathed, the sound
torn from her like flesh from a wound. Discarded on the grass, glinting, lay a
miniature crafting of a crystal dragon.
“Wait!” Loren whispered sharply,
rising to his feet. He touched her hand. “Look.”
Even as she watched, she saw the
Dragon of Calor Diman raise a second claw, holding a second object. And this
was a cauldron, of shining, scintillant beauty, and this object too the Dragon
threw away, to lie sparkling on the blue-green grass.
She didn’t understand. She looked at
Loren. There was a curious light in his eyes.
He said, “Look again, Kim. Look
closely.”
She turned back. Saw Matt and Kaen
kneeling by the Lake. Saw the Dragon shining above them. Saw stars, subsiding
waves, dark mountain crags. Saw a crystal cauldron tumbled on the grass and a
small crafted dragon lying beside it.
Saw that the dragon discarded there was not the one Matt had just offered
to the Lake.
And in that moment, as hope blazed
in her like the Dragon’s blue-white fire, Kim saw something else come up from
Calor Diman. A tiny creature exploded from the water, furiously beating wings
holding it aloft. A creature that now shone more brilliantly than it ever had
before, with eyes that dazzled in the night, no longer dark and lifeless.
It was the heart’s crafting Matt had
offered, given life by the Lake. Which had accepted his gift.
There was a flurry of motion. Kaen
scrambled forward on his knees. He reclaimed his cauldron. Rose to his feet,
holding it outstretched beseechingly. “No!” he pleaded. “Wait!”
He had time for nothing more. Time
ended for him. In that high place of beauty which was so much more than that,
power suddenly made manifest its presence for a moment only, but a moment was
enough. The Dragon of the Lake, the guardian of the Dwarves, opened its mouth,
and flame roared forth a second time.
Not up into the mountain air, not
for warning or display. The Dragonfire struck Kaen of Banir Lok where he stood,
arms extended, offering his rejected gift again, and it incinerated him,
consumed him utterly. For one horrifying instant Kim saw his body writhing
within the translucent flame, and then he was gone. There was nothing left at
all, not even the cauldron he had made. The blue-white fire died, and when it
did Matt Sören was kneeling alone, in the stunned silence of aftermath, by the
shore of the Lake.
She saw him reach out and pick up
the sculpted dragon lying beside him, the one, Kim now realized—seeing what
Loren had grasped from the first—that he had shaped forty years ago, when the
Lake had made him King. Slowly Matt rose to stand facing the Dragon of Calor Diman.
It seemed to Kim that there was a tinted brightness to the air.
Then the Dragon spoke. “You should
not have gone away,” it said with an ancient sorrow.
So deep a sadness after so wild a
blaze of power. Matt lowered his head.
“I accepted your gift that night,”
the Dragon said, in a voice like a mountain wind, cold and clear and lonely. “I
accepted it, because of the courage that lay beneath the pride of what you
offered me. I made you King under Banir Lok. You should not have gone away.”
Matt looked up, accepting the weight
of the Dragon’s crystal gaze. Still he said nothing. Beside her, Kim became
aware that Loren was weeping quietly.
“Nevertheless,” said the Dragon of
the Lake, and there was a new timbre in its voice, “nevertheless, you have
changed since you went from here, Matt Sören. You have lost an eye in wars not
properly those of your people, but you have shown tonight, with this second
gift, that with one eye only you still see more deeply into my waters than any
of the Kings of the Dwarves have ever done before.”
Kimberly bit her lip. She slipped
her hand into Loren’s. There was a brightness in her heart.
“You should not have gone away,” she
heard the Dragon say to Matt, “but from what you have done tonight, I will
accept that a part of you never did. Be welcome back, Matt Sören, and hear me
as I name you now truest of all Kings ever to reign under Banir Lok and
BanirTal.”
There was light, there seemed to be
so much light: a tinted, rosy hue of fiercest illumination.
“Oh,
Kim, no!” Loren
suddenly cried in a choked, desperate voice. “Not this. Oh, surely not this!”
Light burned to ash in the wake of
knowledge, of bitter, bitterest, recurring understanding. Of course there was light in the meadow, of course there was. She was here.
With the Baelrath blazing in wildest
summons on her hand.
Matt had wheeled at Loren’s cry. Kim
saw him look at the ring he had only just returned to her, and she read the
brutal anguish in his face as this moment of heart-deep triumph, the moment of
his return, was transformed into something terrible beyond words.
She wanted desperately not to be
here, not to understand what this imperative blazing meant. She was here, though, and she did know. And she had not knelt to the Dragon
because, somehow, a part of her must have been aware of what was to come.
What had come now. She carried the
Warstone again, the summons to war. And it was on fire to summon. To compel the
Crystal Dragon from its mountain bowl. Kim had no illusions, none at all—and
the sight of Matt’s stricken face would have stripped them away from her, if
she’d had any.
The Dragon could not leave the Lake,
not if it was to be what it had always been: ancient guardian, key to the soul,
heart-deep symbol of what the Dwarves were. What she was about to do would
shatter the people of the twin mountains as much and more as she had smashed
the Paraiko in Khath Meigol.
This crystal power of Calor Diman,
which had endured the death rain of Maugrim, would not be able to resist the
fire she carried. Nothing could.
Matt turned away. Loren released her
hand.
I
don’t have a choice! she cried. Within her heart, not
aloud. She knew why the stone was burning. There was tremendous power here in
this creature of the Lake, and its very shining made it a part of the army of
Light. They were at war with the Dark, with the unnumbered legions of Rakoth.
She had carried the ring here for a reason, and this was it.
She stepped forward, toward the
now-still waters of Calor Diman. She looked up and saw the clear eyes of the
Dragon resting upon her, accepting and unafraid, though infinitely sorrowful.
As deeply rooted in power as anything in Fionavar and knowing that Kim’s was a
force that would bind it and change it forever.
On her hand the Baelrath was pulsing
now so wildly that the whole of the meadow and all the mountain crags were lit
by its glow. Kim lifted her hand. She thought of Macha and Nemain, the
goddesses of war. She thought of Ruana and the Paraiko, remembered the kanior:
the last kanior. Because of her. She thought of Arthur, and of Matt Sören, who
stood, not far away, not looking at her, lest his expression plead.
She thought upon the evil that good
men had done in the name of Light, remembered Jennifer in Starkadh. War was
upon them it was all around them, threatening those living now, and all who
might come after, with the terrible dominion of the Dark.
“No,” said Kimberly Ford quietly,
with absolute finality. “I have come this far and have done this much. I will
go no farther on this path. There is a point beyond which the quest for Light
becomes a serving of the Dark.”
“Kim—” Matt began. His face was
working strangely.
“Be silent!” she said, stern because
she would break if she heard him speak. She knew him, and knew what he would
say. “Come here beside me! Loren! And Miach too, I’ll need you!” Her mind was
racing as fast as it ever had.
They moved toward her, drawn by the
power in her voice—her Seer’s voice—as much as by the burning on her hand. She
knew exactly what she was doing and what it might mean, knew the implications
as deeply as she had ever known anything at all. And she would shoulder them.
If it made her name a curse from now to the end of time, then so be it. She
would not destroy what she had seen tonight.
There was understanding in the
Dragon’s crystal eyes. Slowly it spread its wings, like a curtain of benison,
many-colored, glittering with light. Kim had no illusions about that, none at all.
The two Dwarves and the man were
beside her now. The flame on her hand was still driving her to summon. It was demanding that she do so. There was war. There was need! She met the
eyes of the Dragon for the very last time.
“No,” she said again with all the
conviction of her soul—both her souls.
And then she used the incandescent,
overwhelming blazing of the ring, not to bind the Dragon of the Dwarves but to
take herself away across the mountains, herself and three others with her, far
from that hidden place of starlight and enchantment, though not so far as she
had gone in coming there.
The Baelrath’s power was rampant
within her, flaming with the fire of war. She entered into it, saw where it was
she had to go, gathered and channeled what she carried, and took them there.
They came down, in what seemed to
all of them to be a corona of crimson light. They were in a clearing. A
clearing in the forest of Gwynir, not far from Daniloth.
“Someone’s
here!” a
voice screamed in strident warning. Another echoed it: voices of Dwarves from
the army Blod commanded. They had come in time!
Kim was driven to her knees by the
impact of landing. She looked quickly around. And saw Dave Martyniuk standing
not ten feet away from her with an axe in his hand. Behind him she recognized,
with an incredulity that bordered on stupefaction, Faebur and Brock, swords
drawn. There was no time to think.
“Miach!” she screamed. “Stop them!”
And the aged leader of the Dwarfmoot
did not fail her. Moving more swiftly than she had ever thought he could, he
stepped between Dave and the trio of Dwarves menacing him, and he cried, “Hold arrows and blades, people of the mountains! Miach of the Moot commands you, in
the name of the King of the Dwarves!”
There was thunder in him for that
one moment, a ringing peal of command. The Dwarves froze. Slowly Dave lowered
his axe, Faebur his bow.
In the brittle silence of the forest
clearing, Miach said, very clearly, “Hear me. There has been judgment tonight
by the shores of Calor Diman. Matt Sören returned to our mountains yesterday,
and it was the decision of the Moot, after a word-striving in Seithr’s Hall
between him and Kaen, that their dispute be left to the Lake. So did it come to
pass tonight. I must tell you that Kaen is dead, destroyed by the fire of the
Lake. The spirit of Calor Diman came forth tonight, and I saw it with my eyes
and heard it name Matt Sören to be our King again, and more: I heard it name
him as truest of all Kings ever to reign under the mountains.”
“You are lying!” A harsh voice intruded.
“None of this is true. Rinn, Nemed—seize
him!” Blod
pointed a shaking finger at Miach. No one moved.
“I am First of the Moot,” Miach said
calmly. “I cannot lie. You know this is true.”
“I know you are an old fool,” Blod
snarled in response. “Why should we let ourselves be deceived by that
children’s fable? You can lie as well as any of us, Miach! Better than any of—”
“Blod,” said the King of the
Dwarves, “have done. It is over.”
Matt stepped forward from the
darkness of the trees. He said nothing more, and his voice had not been loud,
but the tone of command was complete and not to be mistaken.
Blod’s face worked spasmodically,
but he did not speak. Behind him a swelling murmur of sound rushed backward
through the army to the ends of the clearing and beyond, where Dwarves had been
sleeping among the evergreens. They were sleeping no longer.
“Oh my King!” a voice cried. Brock
of Banir Tal stumbled forward, throwing down his axe, to kneel at Matt’s feet.
“Bright the hour of our meeting,”
Matt said to him formally. He laid a hand on Brock’s shoulder. “But stand back
now, old friend, there is a thing yet to be done.” There was something in his
voice that evoked an abrupt image, for Kim, of the iron lock on the door to the
meadow of Calor Diman.
Brock withdrew. Gradually the murmur
and the cries of the army subsided. A watchful silence descended. Occasionally
someone coughed or a twig crackled underfoot.
In that stillness, Matt Sören
confronted the Dwarf who had served in Starkadh, who had done what he had done
to Jennifer, who had been leading the Dwarves even now in the army of the Dark.
Blod’s eyes darted back and forth, but he did not try to run or plead. Kim had
thought he would be a coward, but she was wrong. None of the Dwarves lacked
courage, it seemed, even those who had surrendered themselves to evil.
“Blod of Banir Lok,” Matt said,
“your brother has died tonight, and your Dragon waits for you now as well in
judgment, astride the wall of Night. In the presence of our people I will grant
you what you do not deserve: a right to combat, and life in exile if you
survive. As atonement for my own wrongs, which are many, I will fight you in
this wood until one of us is dead.”
“Matt, no!” Loren exclaimed.
Matt held up one hand. He did not
turn around. “First, though” he said, “I would ask leave of those assembled
here, to take this battle upon myself. There are a very great many here who
have a claim upon your death.”
He did turn, then, and of all of
them it was to Faebur that he looked first. “I see one here whose face marks
him as an Eridun. Have I leave to take this death for you and in the name of
your people, stranger of Eridu?”
Kim saw the young man step forward a
single pace. “I am Faebur, once of Larak,” he said. “King of the Dwarves, you
have leave to do this for me and for all the raindead of Eridu. And in the name
of a girl called Arrian, whom I loved, and who is gone. The Weaver guide your
hand.” He withdrew, with a dignity that belied his years.
Again Matt turned. “Dave Martyniuk,
you too have a claim to this, for the sufferings of a woman of your own world,
and the death of a man. Will you surrender that claim to me?”
“I will surrender it,” Dave said
solemnly.
“Mabon of Rhoden?” Matt asked.
And Mabon said gravely, “In the name
of the High King of Brennin, I ask you to act for the army of Brennin and
Cathal.”
“Levon dan Ivor?”
“This hour knows his name,” Levon
said. “Strike for the Dalrei, Matt Sören, for the living and the dead.”
“Miach?”
“Strike for the Dwarves, King of the
Dwarves.”
Only then did Matt draw forth his
axe from where it hung by his side and turn again, his face grim as mountain
stone, to Blod, who was waiting contemptuously.
“Have I your word,” Blod asked now,
in the sharp, edgy voice so unlike his brother’s, “that I will walk safely from
this place if I leave you dead?”
“You have,” said Matt clearly, “and
I declare this in the presence of the First of the Dwarfmoot and—”
Blod had not waited. Even as Matt
was speaking, the other Dwarf had thrown himself sideways into the shadows and
hurled a cunning dagger straight at Matt’s heart.
Matt did not even bother to dodge.
With an unhurried movement, as if he had all the time in the world, he blocked
the flung blade with the head of his axe. It fell harmlessly to the grass. Blod
swore and scrambled to his feet, reaching for his own weapon.
He never touched it.
Matt Sören’s axe, thrown then with
all the strength of his arm and all the passion of his heart, flew through the
firelit clearing like an instrument of the watching gods, a power of ultimate
justice never to be denied, and it smote Blod between the eyes and buried
itself in his brain, killing him where he stood.
There were no shouts, no cheering. A
collective sigh seemed to rise and fall, within the clearing and beyond it, to
where Dwarves stood watching among the trees. Kim had a sudden image in that
moment of a spirit, bat-winged, malevolent, rising to fly away. There was a
Dragon waiting for him, Matt had said. Let it be so, she thought. She looked at
the body of the Dwarf who had savaged Jennifer and it seemed to her that
vengeance should mean more, somehow. It should be more of a reply, something
beyond this bloodied, torchlit body in Gwynir.
Oh, Jen, she thought. He’s dead now. I’ll be able to tell you that he’s dead.
It didn’t mean as much
as she’d once thought it would. It was only a step, a stage in this terrible
journey. There was too far yet to go.
She had no more time for thoughts,
which was a blessing and not a small one. Brock came rushing up to her, and
Faebur, and she was embracing them both with joy. Amid the steadily growing
noise all around, there was time for a quick question and answer about
Dalreidan, and for delighted wonder as she learned who he really was.
Then, finally, she was standing in
front of Dave, who had, of course, been hanging back, letting the others
approach her first. Pushing her hair from her eyes, she looked up at him.
“Well—” she began.
And got no further.
She was gathered in an embrace that
lifted her completely off the ground and threatened to squeeze every trace of
air out of her lungs. “I have never,” he said, holding her close, his mouth to
her ear, “been so happy to see anyone in all my life!”
He let her go. She dropped to the
ground and stumbled, gasping frantically for breath. She heard Mabon of Rhoden
chuckle. She was grinning like an idiot, she knew.
“Me neither,” she said, aware,
abruptly, of how true that was. “Me neither!”
“Ahem!” said Levon dan Ivor, with
the broadest stage cough she’d ever heard. They turned, to find him grinning as
much as they were. “I hate to intrude with petty matters of concern,” the
Aven’s son said, striving to sound sardonic, “but we do have a report to make
to the High King on tonight’s events, and if we’re to get back before Tore and
Sorcha raise a false alarm, we’d best get moving.”
Aileron. She’d be seeing Aileron
again too. So much was happening so fast. She drew a breath and turned, to see
that Matt had come over to her.
Her smile faded. In her mind, even
as she stood among the evergreens of Gwynir, she was seeing a Crystal Lake and
a Dragon rising from it, glittering wings spread wide. A place where she would
never walk again, under stars or sun or moon. She was a Seer; she knew that
this was so. She and Matt looked at each other for a long time.
At length, he said, “The ring is
dark.”
“It is,” she said. She didn’t even
have to look. She knew. She knew something else, too, but that was her own
burden, not his. She said nothing about it.
“Seer,” Matt began. He stopped.
“Kim. You were supposed to bind it, weren’t you? To bring it to war?” Only
Loren and Miach, standing behind Matt, would know what he was talking about.
Picking her words carefully, she said,
“We have a choice, Matt. We are not slaves, even to our gifts. I chose to use
the ring another way.” She said nothing more. She was thinking about Darien,
even as she spoke about choices, remembering him running into Pendaran, past a
burning tree.
Matt drew a breath, and then he
nodded slowly. “May I thank you?” he asked.
This was hard. Everything was hard,
now. “Not yet,” she said. “Wait and see. You may not want to. I don’t think
we’ll have long to wait.”
And that last thing was said in her
Seer’s voice, and so she knew it was true.
“Very well,” Matt said. He turned to
Levon. “You say you must carry word to the High King. We will join you
tomorrow. The Dwarves have gone through a time worse than any in all our days.
We shall remain by ourselves in these woods tonight and try to deal with what
has happened to us. Tell Aileron we will meet him here when he comes, and that
Matt Sören, King of the Dwarves, will bring his people into the army of the
Light at that time.”
“I will tell him,” said Levon
simply. “Come, Davor. Mabon. Faebur.” He glanced at Kim, and she nodded. With
Loren and Dave on either side, she began to follow Levon south, out of the
clearing.
“Wait!”
Matt cried suddenly. To
her astonishment, Kim heard real fear in his voice. “Loren, where are you
going?”
Loren turned, an awkward expression
investing his lined face. “You asked us to leave,” he protested. “To leave the
Dwarves alone for tonight.”
Matt’s grim face seemed to change in
the firelight. “Not you,” he whispered softly. “Never you, my friend. Surely
you will not leave me now?”
The two of them looked at each other
in that way they had of seeming to be alone in the midst of a great many
people. And then, very slowly, Loren smiled.
As they followed Levon out of the
clearing into the darkness of the evergreens, Kim and Dave paused for a moment
to look back. They saw Matt Sören standing with Brock on one side and Loren
Silvercloak on the other. Matt had placed his fingertips together in front of
his chest, with his palms held a little way apart—as if to form a mountain peak
with his hands. And one by one the Dwarves of the twin mountains were filing up
to him, and kneeling, and placing their own hands between his, inside the
sheltering mountain the Dwarf King formed.
In one way, Leila thought, listening
to the last notes of the morning’s Lament for Liadon, it had been easier than
she’d had any right to expect. She stood alone behind the altar, looking out
upon all the others, closest to the axe but careful not to touch it, for that
the High Priestess alone could do.
She stood closest, though. She was
fifteen years old, only newly clad in the grey of the priestesses, yet Jaelle
had named her to act in her stead while the High Priestess was away from Paras
Derval. Dun to grey to red. She was of the Mormae now. Jaelle had warned her
that there might be difficulties here in the Temple.
The fact that there hadn’t been, so
far, had a great deal to do with fear.
They were all a little afraid of
her, ever since the evening when, only four nights ago, she had seen Owein and
the Wild Hunt arrive at the battle by Celidon and had served as conduit for
Ceinwen’s voice to resound in the sanctuary, so far from the river where the
goddess was. In the super-charged atmosphere of war, that manifestation of her
own unsettling powers was still reverberating in the Temple.
Unfortunately it didn’t help much
with Gwen Ystrat. Audiart was another matter entirely. Three separate times in
the day and a half following Jaelle’s departure, the Second of the Goddess had
reached for Leila through the gathered Mormae in Morvran. And three times
Audiart had graciously offered to make her way to Para Derval to assist the
poor beleaguered child, so unfairly taxed with such a heavy burden in such a
terrible time.
It had taken all the clarity and
firmness Leila could muster to hold her back. She knew the issues at stake as
well as any of them: if Jaelle did not return, then Leila, named in a time of
war to act as High Priestess, would become
the High Priestess,
notwithstanding all the normal peacetime rituals of succession. She also knew
that Jaelle had been explicit about this one thing: Audiart was not to be allowed to come to the Temple.
During the last mindlink, the
evening before, diplomacy hadn’t worked at all. Jaelle had warned her it might
not and had told her what to do, but that didn’t make the doing any easier for
a fifteen-year-old, confronting the most formidable figure of the Mormae.
Nonetheless, she had done it. Aided
by the astonishing clarity—she even surprised herself with it—of her own mind
voice during the linkings and speaking as acting High Priestess, invoking the
Goddess by the nine names in sequence, she had formally ordered Audiart to
remain precisely where she was, in Gwen Ystrat, and to initiate no further
mindlinks. She, Leila, had far too much to do to tolerate any more of these
avarlith-draining communications.
And then she had broken the link.
That had been last night. She hadn’t
slept very well afterward, troubled by dreams. One was of Audiart, mounted on
some terrible six-legged steed, thundering over the roads from Morvran to seize
and bind her with cold curses from millennia ago.
There had been other dreams, having
nothing to do with the Mormae. Leila didn’t understand the way her own mind
worked, where her swirling premonitions came from, but they had been with her
all night long.
And most of them were about Finn,
which, since she knew where he really was and with whom he rode, became the
most unsettling thing of all.
Darien never even knew he’d been
frozen in time over Daniloth. As far as he was concerned, he’d been flying
north, the dagger in his mouth, all the while. It was evening and not morning
when he left the Shadowland and came out over Andarien, but he didn’t know the
geography here, so that didn’t concern him. In any case, it was hard to think
clearly in the owl shape, and he was very tired by now. He had flown from
Brennin to the Anor Lisen, and then walked to the sacred grove, and flown again
from there through an unsleeping night to Daniloth, and then through the whole
of yet another day to where he now was, heading north to his father.
Through the growing darkness he
flew, and his keen night sight registered the presence of an unimaginably vast
army gathering beneath him on the barren desolation of this land. He knew who
they were, but he didn’t descend or slow to take a closer look. He had a long
way to go.
Below him, a lean scarred figure
lifted his head suddenly to cast a keen glance at the darkening sky. There was
nothing there, only a single owl, its plumage still white despite the changed
season. Galadan watched it flying north. There was an old superstition about
owls: they were good luck or bad, depending on which way they curved overhead.
This one did not swerve, arrowing
straight north over the massing army of the Dark. The Wolflord watched it,
troubled by a nameless disquiet, until it disappeared. It was the color, he
decided, the strange whiteness at sunset over this barren desolation. He put it
out of his mind. With the snow gone, white was a vulnerable color, and more of
the swans were due to be coming back down from the north tonight. The owl was
unlikely to survive.
It almost didn’t.
A few hours later Darien was even
more tired than before, and fatigue made him careless. He became aware of
danger only an instant before the unnatural claws of one of Avaia’s brood
reached his flesh. He screeched, almost dropping the dagger, and veered sharply
downward and to his left. Even so, one claw claimed a half dozen feathers from
his side.
Another black swan swooped hugely
toward him, wings lashing the air. Darien wheeled desperately back to his right
and forced his tired wings into a steep climb— straight toward the last of the
three black swans, which had been waiting patiently behind the other two for
precisely this move. Owls, for all their vaunted intelligence, were fairly
predictable in combat. With a carnivorous grin the third swan waited for the
little white owl, keen to slake its continuous hunger for blood.
In Darien’s breast fear beat back
tiredness, and following upon terror came a red surge of rage. He did not even
try to dodge this last pursuing swan. Straight at it he flew, and an instant
before they collided—a collision that would surely have killed him—he let his
eyes burn as red as they could go. With the same blast of fire he had used to
torch the tree, he incinerated the swan.
It didn’t even have time to scream.
Darien wheeled again, fury pulsing within him, and he raked the other two swans
with the same red fire and they died.
He watched them fall to the dark
earth below. All around him the air was full of the smell of singed feathers
and charred flesh. He felt dizzy, suddenly, and overwhelmingly weak. He let
himself descend, in a slow, shallow glide, looking for a tree of any kind.
There were none. This was Andarien, and nothing so tall as a tree grew here,
not for a thousand years.
He came to rest, for want of a
better place, on the slope of a low hill littered with boulders and sharp-edged
stones. It was cold. The wind blew from the north and made a keening sound as
it passed between the rocks. There were stars overhead; low in the east, the
waning moon had just risen. It offered no comfort, casting only a chill, faint
illumination over the stony landscape, the stunted grass.
Darien took his own shape again. He
looked around. Nothing moved, as far as he could see in the wide night. He was
completely alone. In a gesture that had become a reflex in the past two days,
though he was unaware of that, he reached up to touch the stone set in the
Circlet of Lisen. It was as cool and dark and distant as it had been from the
moment he’d put it on. He remembered the way it had shone in the Seer’s hands.
The memory was like a blade, or the wound made by a blade. Either, or both.
He lowered his hand and looked
around again. About him, in every direction, stretched the desolation of
Andarien. He was so far to the north that Rangat was almost east of him. It
towered over the whole of the northlands, dominant and magnificent. He didn’t
look at the Mountain for long.
Instead he turned his gaze due
north. And because he was much more than mortal and his eyes were very good, he
could discern, far off through the moonlit shadows, where the stony highlands
reached the mountains and the ice, a cold greenish glow. And he knew that this
was Starkadh, beyond the Valgrind Bridge, and that he could fly there by
tomorrow.
He decided that he would not fly,
though. Something about the owl shape felt wrong. He wanted to hold to his own
form, he realized: to be Darien, whatever and whoever that might be, to regain
the clarity of thought that came in his human shape, though at the price of
loneliness. Even so, he would do it this way. He would not fly. He would go on
foot over the stones and the barren soil, over the ruin of this wasteland. He
would go, with an extinguished light upon his brow, bearing a blade in his hand
as a gift for the Dark.
Not tonight, though. He was much too
tired, and there was a pain in his side where the swan’s claw had caught him.
He was probably bleeding but was too weary to even check. He lay down on the
south side of the largest of the boulders—for such scant shelter as it might
offer from the wind—and in time he did fall asleep, despite his fears and
cares. He was young yet, and had come a long distance to a lonely place, and
his soul was as much overtaxed as his body was.
As he passed over into the far
countries of sleep, his mother was sailing in a ghostly ship down Linden Bay,
just beyond the moonlit western ridges of the land, toward the river mouth of
the Celyn.
He dreamt of Finn all night, just as
Leila did in the Temple, a long way south. His dream was of the last afternoon,
when he had still been small, playing in the yard behind the cottage with his
brother, and they had seen riders passing on the snow-clad slopes east of them.
He had waved a mittened hand, because Finn had told him to. And then Finn had
gone away after the riders, and then much farther than they had gone, farther
than anyone else, even Darien, even in dream, could go.
He did not know, huddled in the
shadow of a leaning boulder on the cold ground of Andarien, that he was crying
in his sleep. Nor did he know that all night long his hand kept returning to
the lifeless gem bound about his brow, reaching, reaching out for something,
finding no response.
“Do you know,” said Diarmuid, gazing east with an enigmatic expression, “this is almost
enough to make one believe in fraternal instincts, after all.”
Beside him on the banks of the River
Celyn, Paul remained silent. Across the northwestern spur of the lake the army
was coming. They were too far off yet for him to make out individual details,
but that didn’t matter. What mattered was that Diarmuid, for all the reflexive
irony of his words, had indeed been right.
Aileron had not waited, for them or
for anyone. He had carried this war to Maugrim. The army of the High King was
in Andarien again, a thousand years after it had last swept through these wild,
desolate highlands. And waiting for them in the late-afternoon light was his
brother, with Arthur and Lancelot and Guinevere, with Sharra of Cathal, and
Jaelle, the High Priestess, with the men of South Keep who had manned Prydwen, and with Pwyll Twiceborn, Lord of
the Summer Tree.
For what, Paul thought, that last
was worth. It didn’t, at the moment, feel like much. He should be used to this
by now, he knew: this sense of latency without control. Of holding power
without harnessing it. He remembered Jaelle’s words on the rocks, and he was
acutely aware that she was right—aware of how much his difficulties were caused
by his own overdeveloped need for controlling things. Particularly himself. All
of this was true; it made sense; he even understood it. It didn’t make him feel
any better, though. Not now, not so near to whatever ending lay in wait,
whatever future toward which they were toiling.
“He has the Dwarves with him!”
keen-eyed Brendel suddenly cried.
“Now that,” said Diannuid sharply,
“is news!”
It was. “Matt succeeded, then!” Paul
exclaimed. “Do you see him, Brendel?”
The silver-haired lios alfar scanned
the distant army. “Not yet,” he murmured, “but . . . yes. It has to be her! The
Seer is with the High King. No one else has her white hair.”
Paul looked quickly over at
Jennifer. She returned his glance and smiled. It was strange, he thought, in
some ways it was the strangest thing of all, how she could be at once so
different, so remote, so much Guinevere of Camelot, Arthur’s Queen, Lancelot’s
love, and then, a moment later, with the quickness of a smile, be Jennifer
Lowell again, sharing his own flash of joy at Kimberly’s return.
“Should we walk around the lake to
meet them?” Arthur asked.
Diarmuid shook his head with
exaggerated decisiveness. “They have horses,” he said pointedly, “and we have
been walking all day. If Brendel can see them, then the lios alfar in the army
can see us. There are limits, I’m afraid, to how far I will stumble over those
rocks in order to meet a brother who didn’t bother to wait for me!”
Lancelot laughed. Glancing over at
him, Paul was hit with a renewed sense of awe and, predictably, by another wave
of his own frustrated impotence.
Lancelot had been waiting for them
here, sitting patiently under the trees, as they had walked up along the river
two hours ago. In the gentle restraint of his greeting of Guinevere, and then
of Arthur, Paul had glimpsed again the depths of the grief that bound these
three. It was not an easy thing to watch.
And then Lancelot had told, sparely,
without inflection, the tale of his night battle with the demon in the sacred
grove for the life of Darien. He made it sound prosaic, almost a negligible
event. But every man and the three women there could see the wounds and burns
of that battle, the price he had paid.
For what? Paul didn’t know. None of
them did, not even Jennifer. And there had been nothing at all to be read in
her eyes as Lancelot told of freeing the owl in Daniloth and watching it fly
north: the random thread in this weaving of war.
A war that seemed to be upon them
now. The army had come closer; it was rounding the tip of Celyn Lake. Beneath
Diarmuid’s acerbic flippancy Paul could read a febrile tension building: the
reunion with his brother, the nearness of battle. They could make out figures
now. Paul saw Aileron under the banner of the High Kingdom, and then he
realized that the banner had changed: the tree was still there, the Summer Tree
for which he himself was named, but the moon above it was no longer the silver
crescent of before.
Instead, the moon above the tree was
the red full moon Dana had caused to shine on a new moon night—the Goddess’s
challenge to Maugrim and the challenge Aileron was carrying now, at the head of
the army of Light.
And so that army rode up around the
lake, and it came to pass that the sons of Ailell met again on the borders of
Daniloth, north of the River Celyn among the broad-leafed aum trees and the
silver and red flowers of sylvain on the riverbank.
Diarmuid, with Sharra holding him by
the hand, walked a little forward from the others, and Aileron, too, stepped
apart from the army he led. Paul saw Ivor watching, and a lios alfar who had to
be Ra-Tenniel, and Matt was there, with Loren beside him. Kim was smiling at
him, and next to her was Dave, a crooked, awkward grin on his face. They were
all here, it seemed, here on the edge of Andarien for the beginning of the end.
All of them. Or, not quite all. One was missing. One would always be missing.
Diarmuid was bowing formally to the
High King. “What kept you so long?” he said brightly.
Aileron did not smile. “It took some
doing to maneuver the chariots through the forest.”
“I see,” said Diarmuid, nodding
gravely.
Aileron, his eyes unrevealing as
ever, looked his brother carefully up and down, then said expressionlessly,
“Your boots seem seriously in need of repair.”
It was Kim who laughed, letting all
of them know that they could. Amid the release of tension, Diarmuid swore
impressively, his color suddenly high.
Aileron finally smiled. “Loren and
Matt have told us what you did, on the island and at sea. I have seen
Amairgen’s staff. You will know without my telling you how brightly woven a
journey that was.”
“You might tell me anyhow,” Diarmuid
murmured.
Aileron ignored that. “There is a
man among you I would greet,” he said. They watched as Lancelot stepped quietly
forward, limping very slightly.
Dave Martyniuk was remembering
something: a wolf hunt in Leinanwood, where the High King had slain the last
seven wolves himself. And Arthur Pendragon had said, a strangeness in his
voice, Only one man I ever saw could do
what you just did.
Now the one man was here, and
kneeling before Aileron. And the High King bade him rise and, gently, with care
for the other’s wounds, he clasped him about the shoulders as he had not
clasped his brother. Who stood a little way behind, a slight smile on his face,
holding the Princess of Cathal by the hand.
“My lord High King,” said Mabon of
Rhoden, stepping forward from the ranks of the army, “the daylight wanes, and
it has been a long day’s riding to this place. Would you make camp here? Shall
I give the orders to do so?”
“I would not advise it,” said
Ra-Tenniel of Daniloth quickly, turning from conversation with Brendel.
Aileron was already shaking his
head. “Not here,” he said. “Not with the Shadowland so near. If the army of the
Dark were to advance overnight we would have the worst possible ground for
battle, with the river behind us, and no retreat beyond it into the mist. No,
we will move on. It will not be dark for a few hours yet.”
Mabon nodded agreement and withdrew
to alert the captains of the army. Ivor, Paul noted, already had the Dalrei
mounted up again, waiting for the signal to ride.
Diarmuid coughed loudly. “May I,” he
said plaintively, as his brother turned to him, “be so bold as to entreat the
loan of horses for my company? Or did you want me to trundle along in your
wake?”
“That,” Aileron said, laughing for
the first time, “has more appeal than you know.” He turned to walk back to the
army but over his shoulder, as if offhandedly, added, “We brought your own
horse, Diar. I thought you would find a way to get back in time.”
They mounted up. Behind them, as
they left the river for Andarien’s stony ground, a boat was drifting gently
down the current of the Celyn. Within that craft Leyse of the Swan Mark was
listening to the music of her song, even as she came out upon the waves, to
follow the setting sun across the wideness of the sea.
Kim looked over at Dave for encouragement.
She didn’t really have a right to any support, but the big man gave her an
unexpectedly shrewd glance, and when she began picking her way forward and to
the left, to where Jennifer was riding, he detached himself from Ivor’s side
and followed her.
There was something she had to tell
Jennifer, and she wasn’t happy about it at all. Especially not when she thought
about the disastrous results of her sending Darien to the Anor two days ago.
Still, there was really no avoiding this, and she wasn’t about to try.
“Hi,” she said brightly to her
closest friend. “Are you still speaking to me?”
Jennifer smiled wearily and leaned
across in her saddle to kiss Kim on the cheek. “Don’t be silly,” she said.
“It’s not that silly. You were pretty angry.” Jennifer lowered her gaze. “I
know. I’m sorry.” She paused. “I wish I could explain better why I’m doing what
I’m doing.”
“You wanted him to be left alone. It
isn’t that complicated.”
Jennifer looked up again. “We have to leave him alone,” she said quietly. “If I’d tried to bind him we’d
never have known what he really was. He might have changed at any time. We’d
never have been sure what he might do.”
“We aren’t very sure now,” Kim said,
rather more sharply than she’d intended.
“I know that,” Jennifer replied.
“But at least he’ll do it freely, whatever he does. By his own choice. I think
that’s the whole point, Kim. I think it has to be.”
“Would it have been so terrible,”
Kim asked, not wisely, but she couldn’t
hold the question back. “if you had just told him you loved him?” Jennifer
didn’t flinch, nor did she flare into anger again.
“I did,” she said mildly, a hint of
surprise in her voice. “I did let him know. Surely you can see that. I left him
free to make his choice. I . . . trusted him.”
“Fair enough,” said Paul Schafer.
They hadn’t heard him ride up. “You were the only one of us who did,” he added.
“Everyone else has been busy trying to cajole him or make him into something.
Including me, I suppose, when I took him to the Godwood.”
“Do you know,” Jennifer asked Paul
suddenly, “why the Weaver made the Wild Hunt? Do you know what Owein means?”
Paul shook his head.
“Remind me to tell you, if we ever
have the time,” she said. “You, too,” she added, turning to Kim. “I think it
might help you understand.”
Kim was silent. She really didn’t
know how to respond. It was too hard, this whole question of Darien, and since
what she’d done, or refused to do, last night by Calor Diman, she no longer
trusted her own instincts about anything. Besides, this confrontation wasn’t why
she’d come over.
She sighed. “You may hate me after
all,” she said. “I interfered again, I’m afraid.”
Jen’s green eyes were calm, though.
She said, “I can guess. You told Aileron and the others about Darien.”
Kim blinked. She must have looked
comical, because Dave grinned suddenly, and Jennifer leaned across again to pat
her hand.
“I thought you might have,” Jen
explained. “And I can’t say you were wrong. By now he has to know. Arthur told
me that on the ship last night. I would have talked to him myself if you
hadn’t. It may affect his planning, though I can’t see how.” She paused and
then, in a different voice, added, “Don’t you see? The secret doesn’t matter
now, Kim. None of them can stop him from whatever he’s going to do—Lancelot
freed him from Daniloth yesterday morning. He’s a long way north of us now.”
Involuntarily, Kim’s gaze went out
over the land that stretched in front of them. She saw Dave Martyniuk do the
same. Wild and empty in the late-afternoon light, Andarien rolled away, all
stony hills and barren hollows, and she knew it was like this all the way to
the Ungarch River. To the Valgrind Bridge across that river, to Starkadh on the
other side.
As it happened, they did not have
nearly so far to go, themselves.
They were very close to the front of
the army, only a few paces behind Aileron and Ra-Tenniel, ascending a wide,
lightly sloping ridge with yet another bleak depression beyond. The reddened
sun was well over to the west and a breeze had come up, overture to twilight.
Then they saw the front-riding
auberei suddenly reappear on the crest of the ridge. The High King reached the
summit. He reined in his own black charger and froze, utterly still. They
topped the rise themselves, the four of them riding together for the first and
only time, and looked down onto a vast, stony plain and saw the army of the
Dark.
The plain was huge, easily the
largest expanse of level ground they’d yet reached in Andarien, and Paul knew
this was no accident of chance. He also guessed, as he tried to control his
accelerating heartbeat, that this would be the broadest such expanse in all the
land between here and the Ice. It had to be. With subtleties of contour and
land formation stripped away, less of Aileron’s training in war, little of his
life’s studies, could be drawn into play. The ridge upon which they now were,
looking down the gentle slope, was the only distinguishing feature in all the
level land to east or west. This would be a battle of force on force, with
nowhere to hide or seek advantage, where sheer numbers would tell the tale.
Between them and whatever lands lay
beyond was an army so huge it numbed the mind. It could scarcely be registered.
That was another reason why this plain had been chosen: nowhere else could such
obliterating numbers have been assembled to move freely without hindering each
other. Paul looked up and saw hundreds of swans, all black, circling ominously
in the sky over Rakoth’s army.
“Well done, Teyrnon,” the High King
said calmly. Paul realized with a shock that Aileron, as always, seemed to have
been prepared, even for this. The mage had been using his powers to sense
forward. Aileron had guessed the army was here; it was why he’d been so adamant
about not camping overnight against the mist of the Shadowland.
Even as he looked down, heartsick,
upon what lay waiting for them, Paul felt a quick pride in the young war king
who was leading them. Completely unruffled, Aileron took the measure of the
army he would have to somehow try to defeat. Without turning around, his eyes
ceaselessly scanning the plain below, he began to issue a string of quiet
instructions.
“They will not attack tonight,” he
said confidently. “They will not want to come at us up this ridge, and at night
they’ll lose the advantage of the swans’ eyes. We will have battle with the
sunrise, my friends. I wish we had some way of fighting them for control of the
air, but it can’t be helped. Teyrnon, you’ll have to be my eyes, for as long as
you and Barak can do so.”
“We can do so for as long as you
need us to,” the last mage in Brennin replied.
Paul noticed that Kim had gone pale
at Aileron’s last words. He tried to catch her eye but she avoided his glance.
He didn’t have time to find out why.
“The lios can help with that,”
Ra-Tenniel murmured. There was music in his voice still, but there was nothing
delicate about it anymore, nothing soothing. “I can post the most longsighted
among us up on this ridge to overlook the battle.”
“Good,” said Aileron crisply. “Do
that. Place them tonight to keep watch. They will stay there tomorrow as well.
Ivor, assign pairs of auberei to stay with each of the posted lios, to carry
their messages back and forth.”
“I will,” said Ivor simply. “And my
archers know what to do if the swans come too low.”
“I know they do,” said Aileron
grimly. “For tonight, all of you bid your men divide into three watches and
keep their weapons to hand when they rest. As for the morning—”
“Wait,” said Diarmuid, from beside
Paul. “Look. We seem to have a guest.” His tone was as effortlessly light as it
always was.
He was right, Paul saw. The red
light of the sunset picked out a single huge white-clad figure that had
detached itself from the heaving mass of the army on the plain. Riding one of
the monstrous six-legged slaug, it picked its way over the stony ground to a
position carefully out of bowshot from those watching on the ridge.
An unnatural stillness descended.
Paul was acutely aware of the breeze, the angle of the sun, the clouds scudding
overhead. He reached, a little desperately, for the place within himself that
would mark the presence of Mórnir. It was there, but faint and hopelessly far.
He shook his head.
“Uathach!”
Dave Martyniuk said
suddenly. It was a snarl.
“Who is he?” Aileron asked, very
calm.
“He led them in the battle by the
Adein,” Ivor replied, his voice thick with loathing. “He is an urgach, but much
more than that. Rakoth has done something to him.”
Aileron nodded but said nothing
more.
Instead, it was Uathach who spoke.
“Hear me!” he cried, his voice a
viscous howl, so loud it seemed to bruise the air. “I bid you welcome, High
King of Brennin, to Andarien. My friends behind me are hungry tonight, and I
have promised them warrior meat tomorrow and more delicate fare after that, in
Daniloth.” He laughed, huge and fell on the plain, the red sun tinting the
mocking white of his robe.
Aileron made no reply, nor did
anyone else on the ridge. In grim, repressive silence, stony as the land over
which they rode, they looked down upon the leader of Rakoth’s army.
The slaug moved restlessly sideways.
Uathach reined it viciously. Then he laughed a second time, and something in
the sound chilled Paul.
Uathach said, “I have promised the
svart alfar meat for tomorrow and offered them sport tonight. Tell me, warriors
of Brennin, of Daniloth, of the Dalrei, treacherous Dwarves, tell me if there
is one among you who will come down alone to me now. Or will you all hide as
the frail lios do, in their shadows? I offer
challenge in the presence of these armies! Is there one who will accept, or are
you all craven before my sword?”
There was a stir along the ridge.
Paul saw Dave, jaw clamped tight, turn quickly to look at the Aven’s son.
Levon, his hand trembling, had half drawn his sword.
“No!” said Ivor dan Banor, and not
only to his son. “I have seen this one in battle. We cannot fight him, and we
cannot afford to lose any man here!”
Before anyone else could speak,
Uathach’s coarse laughter spilled forth again, a slimy flood of sound. He had
heard.
He said, “I thought as much! Then
let me say one thing more to all the brave ones on that hill. I have a message
from my lord.” The voice changed; it became colder, less rough, more
frightening. “A year ago and a little more, Rakoth took pleasure in a woman of
your company. He would do so again. She offered rare, willing sport. Black
Avaia is with me now, to bear her back to Starkadh at his bidding. Is there one
among you who will contest against my blade Rakoth’s claim to her naked flesh?”
A sickness rose within Paul, of
revulsion and of premonition.
“My lord High King,” said Arthur
Pendragon, as Uathach’s laughter, and the howls of the svart alfar behind him,
rose and fell, “would you tell me the name of this place.”
Paul saw Aileron turn to the Warrior.
But it was Loren Silvercloak who
answered, a knowing sorrow in his voice. “This plain was green and fertile a
thousand years ago,” he said. “And in those days it was called Camlann.”
“I thought it might be,” Arthur
replied very quietly. Without speaking again he began checking the fit of his
sword belt and the tilt of the King Spear in his saddle rest.
Paul turned to Jennifer—to
Guinevere. What he saw in her face then, as she looked at the Warrior’s quiet
preparations, went straight to his heart.
“My lord Arthur,” said Aileron, “I
must ask you to defer to me. The leader of their army should fight the leader
of our own. This is my battle, and I lay claim to it.”
Arthur didn’t even look up from his
preparations. “Not so,” he said, “and you know it is not. You are needed on the
morrow more than any other man here. I told you all a long time ago, on the eve
of the voyage to Cader Sedat, that I am never allowed to see the end of things
when I am summoned. And the name Loren spoke has made things clear: there has
been a Camlann waiting for me in every world. This is what I was brought here
for, High King.”
Beside him, Cavall made a sound,
more whimper than growl. The red sun was low, casting a strange light upon all
their faces. Below them, the laughter had ended.
“Arthur, no!” said Kimberly, with
passion. “You are here for more than this. You must not go down there. We need all of you too much. Can’t you see what he is? None of you can fight him!
Jennifer, tell them it is foolishness. You must
tell them!”
But Jennifer, looking at the
Warrior, said nothing at all.
Arthur had finished his
preparations. He looked up then, straight at Kimberly, who had summoned him.
Who had brought him to this place by the binding of his name. And to her he
made reply, in words Paul knew he would never forget.
“How can we not fight him, Seer? How can we claim to carry our swords in the name of
Light, if we are cowards when we stand before the Dark? This challenge goes
further back than any of us. Further back, even, than I. What are we if we deny
the dance?”
Aileron was nodding slowly, and
Levon, and Ra-Tenniel’s eyes were bright with his agreement. Within his own
heart Paul felt some deep eons-old force behind the Warrior’s words, and as he
accepted them, grieving, he felt another thing: the pulsebeat of the God. It
was true. It was a dance that was not to be denied. And it seemed that it was
Arthur’s, after all.
“No,” said Guinevere.
Every eye went to her. In the
windswept silence of that desolate place her beauty seemed to burn like some
evening star brought among men, almost too fierce to look upon.
Motionless astride her horse, her
hands twisted in its mane, she said, “Arthur, I will not lose you again like
this. I could not bear it. Single combat is not why you were summoned, my love,
it cannot be why. Camlann or no, this must not be your battle.”
His face, under the greying hair,
had gone still. He said, “We are caught in a woven doom of no escape. You know
I must go down to him.”
There were tears welling in her
eyes. She did not speak, but slowly she shook her head back and forth in
denial.
“Whose place is it, then, if not
mine?” he asked, scarcely more than a whisper.
She lowered her head. Her hands
moved in a little helpless, trapped gesture of despair.
And then, without looking up, she
said, with sudden, terrible formality, “In this place and before these many
people my name has been besmirched. I have need of one who will take this
challenge upon himself and unmake it with his sword.”
And now she lifted her head, and now
she turned. To the one who had been sitting quietly upon his horse, not
speaking, not moving, waiting patiently for what he seemed to have known was
coming. And Guinevere said: “Wilt thou, who hast been my champion so many times
before, be so yet again? Wilt thou take this challenge in my name, my lord
Lancelot?”
“Lady, I will,” he said.
“You can’t!” Paul exclaimed, his
voice crashing into the stillness, unable to stop himself. “Jennifer, he’s
wounded! Look at his palm—he can’t even hold a sword!” Beside him someone made
a curious, breathless sound.
The three figures in the center of
the circle ignored him. Completely. It was as if he hadn’t even spoken. There
was another silence, laden with unsaid things, with so many layers of time. A
stir of wind blew Jennifer’s hair back from her face.
Arthur said, “My lady, I have known
too many things for too long to ever deny Lancelot’s claim to be your champion.
Or that, healthy, he is far more worthy than I to face this foe. Even so, I
will not allow it now. Not this time, my love. You have asked him, sorely
wounded, to take this upon himself, not for your sake, or his, but for mine.
You have not asked him in love.”
Guinevere’s head snapped back. Her
green eyes went wide and then they blazed with a naked, dazzling anger. She
shook her head, so fiercely that the tears flew off her face, and in the voice
of a Queen, a voice that froze and bound them into the power of the grief it
carried, she cried aloud, “Have I not, my
lord? And shall you tell me so? Would you tear open my flesh that all men here might probe
into my heart as Maugrim did?”
Arthur flinched, as if stunned by a
blow, but she was not done. With icy, relentless fury she said, “What man, even
you, my lord, dares in my presence to say whether I have
spoken in love or no?”
“Guinevere—” Lancelot began, but
quailed in his turn as her burning glance swung to him.
“Not a word!” she snapped. “Not from
you or anyone else!”
Arthur had slipped down from his horse. He knelt before her, pain raw
as a wound in his face. He opened his mouth to speak.
And in that moment, precisely then,
Paul became aware of an absence and he remembered the slight, breathless sound
at his elbow a moment before, a sound he’d ignored.
But there was no one beside him
anymore. He turned, his heart lurching, and looked north, along the
downward-sloping path to where Uathach waited on the stony plain.
He saw. And then he heard, they all
heard, as a ringing cry rose up, echoing in the twilight air between the armies
of Light and Dark:
“For
the Black Boar!” he
heard. They all heard. “For the honor of
the Black Boar!”
And thus did Diarmuid dan Ailell
take Uathach’s challenge upon himself, riding forth alone on the horse his
brother had brought for him, his sword uplifted high, his fair hair lit by the
sunset, as he raced toward the dance his bright soul would not deny.
He was a master, Dave knew. Having
fought beside Diarmuid at the winter skirmish by the Latham and then at the
wolf hunt in Leinanwood, he had reason to know what Aileron’s brother could do.
And Dave’s heart—halfway to his own battle fury—leaped to see Diarmuid’s first
swiftly angled engagement of the urgach.
And then, an instant later, battle
frenzy gave way to chilled grief. Because he remembered Uathach too, from the
bloody banks of the Adein in the first battle of Kevin’s spring. And in his
mind, replayed more vividly than such a memory should ever have been, he saw
Maugrim’s white-clad urgach swing his colossal sword in one scything blow from
the slaug’s saddle that had cleaved through Barth and Navon, both: the babies
in the wood.
He remembered Uathach, and now he
saw him again, and the memory, however grim, was less than the reality, far
less. By the light of the setting sun, in that wasteland between armies,
Diarmuid and his quick, clever horse met, with a thunder of hooves and a
grinding shock of blades, a foe that was too much more than mortal for a mortal
man to face.
The urgach was too large, too
uncannily swift despite his massive bulk. And he was shrewder than any such
creature could ever have been had it not been altered in some way within the
confines of Starkadh. Beyond all this, the slaug was a deadly terror in and of
itself. Constantly ripping with its curved horn, seeking the flesh of
Diarmuid’s horse, running on four legs and lashing out with the other two, it
was too dangerous for Diarmuid to do much more than evade, for fear that his
own mount would be gorged or trampled, leaving him helpless on the barren
ground. And because he couldn’t work in close, his slim blade could scarcely
reach Uathach—though Diarmuid was a perilously easy target for the urgach’s
huge black sword.
Beside Dave, Levon dan Ivor’s face
was white with affliction as he watched the drama below. Dave knew how
desperately Levon had wanted the death of this creature, and how adamant
Tore—who feared nothing else that Dave knew—had been in binding Levon by oath
not to fight Uathach alone.
Not to do what Diarmuid was doing
now.
And doing, despite the horror of
what he faced, with a seemingly effortless grace that somehow had, woven within
its movements, the unpredictable, scintillant wit of the man. So sudden were
his stops and starts, his reversals of direction—the horse seeming an extension
of his mind—that twice, within moments of each other, he managed to veer around
the slaug’s horn to launch brilliant slashing blows at Uathach.
Who parried with a brutal
indifference that almost broke the heart to see. And each time, his pounding
counterstroke sent Diarmuid reeling in the saddle with the jarring impact of
parrying it. Dave knew about that: he remembered his own first urgach battle,
in the dark of Faelinn Grove. He had barely been able to lift his arm for two
days after blocking one of those blows. And the beast he’d faced had been to
Uathach as sleep was to death.
But Diarmuid was still in saddle,
still probing for an opening with his sword, wheeling his gallant mount—so
small beside the slaug—in arcs and half-circles, random and disorienting,
calculated to the hairsbreadth edge of sword or destroying horn, seeking an
angle, a way in, a gap to penetrate in the name of Light.
“Gods, he can ride!” Levon
whispered, and Dave knew that there were no words of higher, more holy praise
that a Dalrei could ever speak. And it was true, it was dazzlingly true; they
were watching an exercise in glory as the sun sank into the west.
Then suddenly it became even more
than that—for again Diarmuid scythed in on Uathach’s right side, and again he
stabbed upward for the heart of the beast. Once more the urgach blocked the
reaching thrust, and once more, exactly as before, his counterstroke descended
like an iron tree falling.
Diarmuid absorbed it on his blade.
He rocked in the saddle. But this time, letting the momentum work for him, he
reared his horse upward and to the right, and sent his shining sword slashing
downward to sever the slaug’s nearest leg.
Dave began a startled, wordless cry
of joy and then savagely bit it back. Uathach’s mocking laughter seemed to fill
the world, and behind him the army of the Dark let loose a raucous, deafening
roar of predatory anticipation.
Too great a price, Dave thought,
hurting for the man below. For though the slaug had lost a leg, and so was much
less of a danger than before, Diarmuid’s left shoulder had been torn through by
a ripping thrust of the animal’s horn. In the waning light they could see his
blood flowering darkly from a deep, raking wound.
It was too much, Dave thought, truly
too inhuman a foe for a man to face. Tore had been right. Dave turned his head
away from the terrible ritual being acted out before them, and as he did, he
saw Paul Schafer, farther along the ridge, looking back at him.
Paul registered Dave’s glance, and
the pain in the big man’s expression, but his own mind was a long way off,
along the twisting paths of memory.
A memory of Diarmuid on the first
night they’d arrived. A peach! he’d said of Jennifer, as he bent to
kiss her hand. And then said it, and did it again, a few moments later,
swinging lazily through a high window to confound Gorlaes sardonically.
Another image, another extravagant
phrase—I’ve plucked the fairest rose in
Shalhassan’s garden—as
he rejoined Kevin and Paul and the men of South Keep from within scented Larai
Rigal. Extravagance always, the flamboyant gesture masking so many deeper
truths. But the truths were there to be seen, if one only knew where to look.
Hadn’t he shielded Sharra afterward, the day she’d tried to kill him in Paras
Derval? And then on the eve of the voyage to Cader Sedat he had asked her to be
his wife.
Using Tegid as his Intercedent.
Always the gesture, the deflecting
glitter of style, hiding what he was, at root, behind the last locked doorway
of his soul.
Paul remembered, hurting on that
windy rise of land, unwilling to look down again, how Diarmuid had relinquished
his claim to the throne. How in the moment when fate seemed to have come full
circle, when Jaelle had been about to speak for the Goddess and proclaim a High
King in Dana’s name, Diarmuid had made the decision himself, flippantly
speaking the words he knew to be right. Though Aileron had sworn he was
prepared to kill him just moments before.
There was a grinding of metal on
metal. Paul turned back. Diarmuid had somehow—the gods only knew what it must
be costing him—managed to circle in again close to the monstrous urgach, and
again he’d attacked, carrying the battle to his foe. To be beaten back one more
with a bone-jarring force that Paul could feel, even up here.
He watched. It seemed necessary to
watch: to bear witness and remember.
And one more set of memories came to
him then, as Diarmuid’s brave horse pirouetted yet again, just out of reach of
slaug horn and urgach sword. Images from Cader Sedat, that place of death at sea.
An island in all worlds and none, where the soul lay open, without hiding
place. Where Diar’s face, as he looked upon Metran, had shown the full,
unshielded passion of his hatred of the Dark. Where he had stood in the Chamber
of the Dead beneath the sea, and where—yes, there was a truth in this, a kernel, a clue—he had said to the Warrior, as Arthur
prepared to summon Lancelot and so bring the old, three-sided tragedy into the
world again: You do not have to do this.
It is neither written nor compelled.
And Paul glimpsed then, with a
shiver of primal recognition, the thread that led from that moment to this.
Because it was for Arthur and Lancelot, and for Guinevere, that Diarmuid, in
all the wild anarchy of his nature, had claimed this dance as his own.
It was against the weaving of their
long doom that he had defiantly rebelled, and had channeled that rebellion into
an act of his own against the Dark. Taking Uathach unto himself, that Arthur
and Lancelot, both, might go forward past this day.
The sun was almost gone. Only the
last long rays slanted low and red across Andarien. In the twilight the battle
seemed to have moved farther away, into a realm of shadows like the past. It
was very quiet. Even the loosely spilling, triumphant cries of the svart alfar
had ended. There were flecks of blood staining Uathach’s snowy robe. Paul
couldn’t tell if they were Diarmuid’s
or the urgach’s own. It didn’t seem to matter much: Diar’s horse, fiercely gallant but hopelessly
overmatched, was visibly tiring even as they watched.
Diarmuid backed it off a few paces,
to try to buy it a moment’s rest, but this was not to be allowed. Not in this
battle, with this foe. Uathach, not laughing now, grim death in his black
sword, came on, and Diarmuid was forced to cruelly spur his mount to motion
again. Amid the silence along the ridge, a single voice spoke.
“There is one chance, only, left for
him,” said Lancelot du Lac.
Only one man understood and made
reply.
“If you call it a chance,” Aileron
said, in a tone not one of them had ever heard him use before.
To the west, out beyond Linden Bay,
the sun went down. Paul turned instinctively and saw its last dying light touch
the face of the Princess of Cathal. He saw that Kim and Jaelle had moved to
either side of her. After a moment he turned back to the figures on the plain.
In time to see it end.
It was, on the whole, just a little
bit ridiculous. This ugly, hairy monster, oversized even for an urgach, was as
quick as he was himself. And it was swinging a sword that Diarmuid doubted he
could even have lifted, let along swung in those pounding, ceaseless blows. It
was cunning too, unnaturally, viciously intelligent. By Lisen’s river blood,
urgach were supposed to be stupid! Where, the Prince thought, absorbing another
blow like an avalanche on his sword, where was the sense of proportion in this thing?
He felt like asking the question
aloud, but survival had become a matter of meticulous concentration these last
few moments, and he had not breath to spare for even halfway witty remarks. A
shame. He wondered, hilariously, what Uathach would say to a suggestion that
this matter be settled with the gambling dice Diarmuid just happened to have in
his—
Gods! Even with a leg gone, the slaug, twice the size of his own tiring
horse, was death itself. With a movement of his sword as desperately swift as
any he’d ever made, Diarmuid managed to block a thrust of the animal’s ripping
horn that would have disemboweled his own mount. Unfortunately that meant—
He resurfaced in the saddle, having
passed clean under his horse on one side and up again on the other, with
Uathach’s annihilating slash a whistling sound in the darkening air where his
own head had been an instant before. He wondered if Ivor of the Dalrei
remembered teaching him how to do that so many years ago, when Diarmuid was a
boy summering with his brother on the Plain. So many years, but for some reason
it felt like yesterday, just now. Funny, how almost everything felt like
yesterday.
The sweep of Uathach’s last stroke
had swung the urgach, grunting, sideways in his saddle and carried the slaug a
few paces away with the shift of weight. Fresh, Diarmuid might have tried to
use that to renew some kind of attack, but his horse was sucking air with
desperate, heaving motions of its lathered flanks, and his own left arm was
gradually growing cold, a weakness spreading from the deep tear of the wound,
reaching across his chest.
He used the brief respite the only
way he could, to buy time for the horse. A handful of seconds, no more than
that, and it wasn’t enough. He thought of his mother then. And of the day his
father had died. So much seemed to have happened yesterday. He thought of
Aileron, and of all the things left unsaid in all the yesterdays.
And then, as Uathach turned the
slaug again, Diarmuid dan Ailell whispered to his horse one last time and felt
it steady bravely to the murmur of his voice. Within himself he let a calm take
shape, and from within that calm he summoned up Sharra’s face, through whose
dark eyes—doorways to a falcon’s soul—love had entered into him so
unexpectedly, and had stayed.
To carry him to this moment, her
image in his mind, and the certain, sustaining knowledge of her love. To carry
him forward across the darkened ground of that plain in Andarien, toward the last
thing he could do.
Straight at the slaug he rode, his
horse gallantly reaching for a last flourish of speed, and at the final second
he veered it sharply left and launched the sternest blow he could at Uathach’s
side.
It was blocked. He knew it would be;
they all had been. And now there came the huge, descending counterstroke of the
urgach’s sword. The one, like all the others, that would drive him, shuddering
back, when he parried it. That would numb his arm, bringing the inevitable end
that much nearer.
He didn’t parry it.
He wheeled his horse, hard, to gain
just a little space, so Uathach’s blade would not sever his body entirely, and
he took that terrible blow on his left side, just under the heart, knowing it
was the end.
And then, as white pain exploded
within him in the darkness, towering, indescribable, as his life’s blood
fountained to fall among the stones, Diarmuid dan Ailell, with the last
strength of his soul, almost the very last of his self-control, with Sharra’s face
before him, not Uathach’s, did the final deed of his days. He rose up above his
agony, and with his left hand he clutched the hairy arm that held that black
sword, and with his right, pulling himself forward, as toward a long-sought
dream of overwhelming Light, he thrust his own bright blade into the urgach’s
face and out the back of its head, and he killed it in Andarien, just after the
sun had set.
Sharra watched as though from very
far away. At the descent of dark, through a blurring mist of tears, she saw him
take his wound, saw him kill Uathach, saw the beautiful, rearing horse gored
hideously from below by the ripping horn of the slaug. The urgach fell. She
could hear screams of terror from the svart alfar, the scream of the dying
horse. Saw Diar fall free as the horse rolled on the ground and thrashed in its
death agony. Saw the enraged, blood-maddened slaug turn to rip the fallen man
to shreds of flesh. Saw a spear, its head gleaming blue-white, flash through
the dark and plunge into the throat of the slaug, killing it instantly. Saw
nothing after that but the man lying on the ground.
“Come, child,” said Arthur
Pendragon, who had thrown the King Spear in a cast almost beyond belief, in
this light and from so far. He laid a gentle hand upon her arm. “Let me lead
you down to him.”
She let him lead her down, through
the rainfall of her tears. She was aware, distantly, of utter confusion among
the ranks of the Dark. Terror at the loss of their leader. She was conscious of
people on horseback beside her, but not of who they were, save for Arthur, who
was holding her arm.
She went down the slope and rode
across the dark, stony ground and came to where he lay. There were torches,
somehow, all around them. She drew a choking, desperate breath and wiped away
her tears with the loose sleeve of the robe she wore.
Then she dismounted and walked over.
His head was cradled in the lap of Coll of Taerlindel, blood pouring and
pouring from the wound Uathach’s sword had made, soaking into the barren soil.
He was not yet dead. He breathed
with quick, shallow motions of his chest, but every breath sent forth another
torrent of his blood. His eyes were closed. There were other people there, but
it seemed to her that she and he were all alone in a wide night world without
stars.
She knelt on the ground beside him,
and something, the intuitive awareness of her presence, caused him to open his
eyes. By torchlight she met his blue gaze for the last time with her own. He
tried to smile, to speak. But at the last there was too much pain she saw, he
would not even be allowed this much, and so she lowered her mouth to his, and
kissed him, and said, “Good night, my love. I will not say goodbye. Wait for me
by the Weaver’s side. If the gods love us—”
She tried to go on, tried very hard,
but the tears were blinding her and stopping her throat. His face was
bloodless, bone white in the light of the torches. His eyes had closed again.
She could feel his blood pouring from the wound, saturating the ground where
she knelt. She knew he was leaving her. No power of magic, no voice of a god
could bring him back from where this silent, terrible pain was taking him. It
was too deep. It was final.
Then he opened his eyes, with a very
great effort, for the last time, and she realized that words didn’t matter.
That she knew everything he would ever want to say. She read the message in his
eyes and knew what he was asking her. It was as if, here at the very last, they
had moved beyond all need for anything but looking.
She lifted her head and saw Aileron
kneeling at Diarmuid’s other side, his face laid open as if by a lash,
distorted with grief. She understood something then, and could even find a
place within herself to pity him. She swallowed and fought past the thickness
in her throat to find words again: Diarmuid’s words, for he could not speak,
and so she would have to be his voice for this last time.
She whispered, “He wants you to set
him free. To send him home. That it will not have been done by the urgach’s
sword.”
“Oh, Diar, no!” Aileron said.
But Diarmuid turned his head,
slowly, fighting the pain of movement, his breathing so shallow it was hardly
there, and he looked at his older brother and he nodded, once.
Aileron was still for a very long
time, as the two sons of Ailell looked at each other by the flickering
torchlight. Then the High King stretched forth a hand and laid it gently
against his brother’s cheek. He held it there a moment, and then he looked at
Sharra with a last question, asking dispensation with his own dark eyes.
And Sharra reached for all the
courage that she had and granted it to him, saying, for herself and for Diar,
“Let it be done with love.”
Then Aileron dan Ailell, the High
King, drew forth his dagger from a sheath that hung down at his side, and he
laid its point over his brother’s heart. And Diarmuid moved one hand, and found
Sharra’s, and Aileron waited as he brought it to his lips one last time. He was
holding it there, and holding her eyes with his own, when his brother’s knife,
agent of love, set him free from his iron pain, and he died.
Aileron withdrew his blade and set
it down. Then he buried his face in his hands. Sharra could hardly see, she was
so blinded by her tears. It seemed to be raining everywhere, in that clear cool
starry evening over Andarien.
“Come, my dear,” said Jaelle, the
High Priestess, helping her rise. She was weeping. The Seer came up on the
other side, and Sharra went where they took her.
Diarmuid dan Ailell was borne back
in his brother’s arms from the place where he died, for the High King would
suffer no man else to do so. Across the stony plain Aileron carried him, with
torches burning on either side and all around. Up the long slope he went, the
body cradled against his chest, and men turned away their heads so as not to
have to look upon the face of the living brother as he bore away the dead.
They made a pyre that night in
Andarien. They washed Diarmuid’s body and clothed it in white and gold, hiding
his terrible wounds, and they combed his golden hair. Then the High King took
him up again for the last time and bore him to where they had gathered the wood
of the pyre, and he laid his brother down upon it, and kissed him upon the
lips, and withdrew.
Then Teyrnon, the last mage of
Brennin, stepped forward with Barak, his source, and with Loren Silvercloak and
Matt Sören, and all of them were weeping in the darkness there. But Teyrnon
thrust forth his hand and spoke a word of power, and a single shaft of light
flew forward from his fingers, blazing white and gold like the robes of the dead
Prince, and the pyre roared suddenly to flame, consuming the body laid upon it.
So passed Diarmuid dan Ailell. So
did his untamed brightness come in the end to flame, and then ash, and, at the
very last, in the clear voices of the lios alfar, into song under the stars.
A long way north of that burning,
Darien stood in the shadows below the Valgrind Bridge. It was very cold, here
at the edge of the Ice with the sun gone and no other living thing to be seen
or heard. He looked across the dark waters of the river spanned by that bridge,
and on the other side he saw the massive ziggurat of Starkadh rising, with
chill green lights shining wanly amid the blackness of his father’s mighty
home.
He was utterly alone; there were no
guards posted anywhere. What need had Rakoth Maugrim for guards? Who would ever
venture to this unholy place? An army perhaps, but they would be visible far
off amid the treeless waste. Only an army might come, but Darien had seen, as
he walked here, countless numbers of svart alfar and the huge urgach moving
south. There were so many, they seemed to shrink the vastness of the barren
lands. He didn’t think any army would be coming: not past those hordes he’d
seen issuing forth. He had been forced to hide several times, seeking shelter
in the shadows of rocks, swinging gradually westward as he went, so the legions
of the Dark would pass east of him.
He was not seen. No one was looking
for him, not for a solitary child stumbling north through a morning and an
afternoon, and then a cold evening and a colder night. With pale Rangat
towering in the east and black Starkadh growing more oppressively dominant with
every step he took, he had come at last to the bridge and crouched down under
it, looking across the Ungarch at where he was to go.
Not tonight, he decided, shivering,
his arms wrapped tightly about himself. Better the chill of another night
outside than trying to pass into that place in the dark. He looked at the
dagger he carried and drew it from his sheath. The sound like a harpstring
reverberated thinly in the cold night air. There was a vein of blue in the
sheath, and a brighter one along the shaft of the blade. They gleamed a little
under the frosty stars. He remembered what the little one, Flidais, had said to
him. He rehearsed the words in his mind as he sheathed Lokdal again. Their
magic was part of the gift he was bringing. He would have to have them right.
The metal of the bridge was cold
when he leaned back beneath it, and so was the stony ground. Everything was
cold this far north. He rubbed his hands on the sweater he wore. It wasn’t even
his sweater. His mother had made it for Finn—who was gone.
And not really his mother, either;
Vae had made it. His mother was tall and very beautiful, and she had sent him
away and then had sent the man, Lancelot, to battle the demon in the Wood for
Darien’s sake. He didn’t understand. He wanted to, but there was no one to help
him, and he was cold and tired and far away.
He had just closed his eyes, there
at the edge of the darkly flowing river, half under the iron bridge, when he
heard a tremendous reverberating sound as some mighty door clanged open far
above. He scrambled to his feet and peered out from under the bridge. As he
did, he was hit by a titanic buffet of wind that knocked him sprawling, almost
into the river.
He rolled quickly over, his eyes
straining up against the force of the sudden gale, and far overhead he saw a
huge, featureless shadow sweeping swiftly away to the south, blotting out the
stars where it passed. Then he heard the sound of his father’s laughter.
Anger, for Dave Martyniuk, had
always been a hot, exploding thing within himself. It was his father’s rage,
un-subtle, enormous, a lava flow in the mind and heart. Even here in Fionavar
in the battles he’d fought, what had come upon him each time had been of the
same order: a fiery, obliterating hatred that consumed all else within it. This
morning he was not like that. This morning he was ice. The coldness of his fury
as the sun rose and they readied themselves for war was something alien to him.
It was even a little frightening. He was calmer, more clearheaded than he could
ever remember being in all his life, and yet filled with a more dangerous, more
utterly implacable anger than he had ever known.
Overhead the black swans were
circling, crying raucously in the early morning light. Below, the army of the
Dark was gathered, so vast it seemed to blot out the whole of the plain. And at
their head—Dave could see him now—was a new leader: Galadan, of course, the
Wolflord, Not a blessing, Ivor had murmured, before riding off to receive
Aileron’s orders. More dangerous than even Uathach would have been, more subtle
in his malice.
It didn’t matter, Dave thought,
sitting tall and stern in his saddle, oblivious to the diffident glances he was
drawing from all who passed near to him. It didn’t matter at all who led
Rakoth’s army, who they sent against him: wolves, or svart alfar, or urgach, or
mutant swans. Or anything else, or however many. Let them come. He would drive
them back or leave them dead before him.
He was not fire. The fire had been
last night, when Diarmuid burned. He was ice now, absolutely in control of
himself and ready for war. He would do what had to be done, whatever had to be
done. For Diarmuid, and for Kevin Lane. For the babies he’d guarded in the
wood. For Sharra’s grief. For Guinevere and Arthur and Lancelot. For Ivor and
Levon and Tore. For the dimensions of sorrow within himself. For all those who
would die before this day was done.
For Josef Martyniuk.
“There is something I would ask,”
said Matt Sören. “Though I will understand if you choose to deny me.” Kim saw
Aileron turn to him. There was winter in the High King’s eyes. He waited and
did not speak. Matt said, “The Dwarves have a price to pay and atonement to
make, insofar as we ever can. Will you give us leave to take the center today,
my lord, that we may bear the main shock of whatever may befall?”
There was a murmur from the captains gathered there. The pale sun had just risen in the east
beyond Gwynir.
Aileron was silent a moment longer;
then he said, very clearly, so it carried, “In every single record I have ever
found of the Bael Rangat—and I have read all such writings there are, I
think—one common thread prevails. Even in the company of Conary and Colan, of Ra-Termaine
and fierce Angirad from what was not yet Cathal, of Revor of the Plain and
those who rode with him . . . even in such glittering company, the records of
those days all tell that no contingent of the army of Light was so deadly as
were Seithr and the Dwarves. There is nothing you might think to ask of me that
I could find it within me to deny, Matt, but I intended to request this of you
in any case. Let your people follow their King and take pride of place in our
ranks. Let them draw honor from his own bright honor and courage from their
past.”
“Let it be so,” said Ivor quietly.
“Where would you have the Dalrei, High King?”
“With the lios alfar, as you were by
the Adein. Ra-Tenniel, can you and the Aven hold our right flank between the
two of you?”
“If we cannot,” said the Lord of the
lios alfar, with a thread of laughter in his silvery voice, “then I know not
who can. We will ride with the Riders.”
He was mounted on one of the
glorious raithen, and so too, behind him, were Brendel and Galen and Lydan,
leaders of their marks. There was a fifth raithen, riderless, standing beside
the others.
Ra-Tenniel gestured toward it. He
turned to Arthur Pendragon, but he did not speak. It was Loren Silvercloak, no
longer harnessing a mage’s powers but still bearing a mage’s knowledge, who
broke the waiting silence.
“My lord Arthur,” he said, “you have
told us you never survive to see the last battle of your wars. Today, it seems,
you shall. Although this place was once called Camlann, it carries that name no
longer, nor has it for a thousand years, since laid waste by war. Shall we seek
to find good in that evil? Hope in the cycle of years?”
And Arthur said, “Against all that I
have been forced through pain to know, let us try.” He stepped down from his
horse and took the King Spear in his hand, and he walked over to the last of
the gold and silver raithen of Daniloth. When he mounted up, the spear blazed
for a moment with light.
“Come, my lord,” Aileron said, “and
my lord Lancelot, if you will. I bid you welcome into the numbers of Brennin
and Cathal. We will take the left side of this fight. Let us seek to meet the
Dalrei and the lios before the end of day, having curved our ranks inward over
the bodies of our foes.”
Arthur nodded, and so, too, did
Lancelot. They moved over to where Mabon of Rhoden was waiting, with Niavin,
Duke of Seresh, and Coll of Taerlindel, stony-faced, now leader of the men of
South Keep, Diarmuid’s men. Kim grieved for him, but there would be griefs and
to spare this day, she knew, and there might be final darkness for them all.
It seemed that they had said what
had to be said, but Aileron surprised her again.
“One thing more,” the High King
said, as his captains prepared to move off. “A thousand years ago there was
another company in the army of Light. A people fell and wild, and courageous
out of measure. A people destroyed now, and lost to us, save one.”
Kim saw him turn, then, and heard
him say, “Faebur of Larak, will you ride, in the name of the People of the
Lion, at the forefront of our host? Will you join with the Dwarves today, at
the side of their King, and will you take this horn I carry and sound the
attack for us all?”
Faebur was pale, but not with fear,
Kim saw. He moved his horse toward the black charger Aileron rode, and he took
the horn. “In the name of the Lion,” he said, “I will do so.”
He rode forward and stopped at
Matt’s left hand. On the other side of Matt, Brock of Banir Tal was waiting.
Kim’s mouth was dry with apprehension. She looked up and saw the swans circling
overhead, unchallenged, masters of the sky. She knew, without looking, how
utterly lifeless the Baelrath was on her hand. Knew, as a Seer knew, that it
would never blaze for her again, not after her refusal by Calor Diman. She felt
helpless and a little sick.
Her place would be here on the
ridge, with Loren and Jaelle and a number of others from all parts of the army.
She still had her training, and they
would have to deal with the wounded very soon.
Very soon indeed. Aileron and Arthur
galloped quickly off to the left, and she saw Ivor cantering to the right
beside Ra-Tenniel and the lios alfar, to join the Dalrei waiting there. Even at
a distance she could make out the figure of Dave Martyniuk, taller by far than
anyone around him. She saw him unsling an axe from where it hung by his saddle.
Loren came to stand beside her. She
slipped her hand into his. Together they watched Matt Sören stride to the front
of the host of the Dwarves, who had never fought on horseback and would not do
so today. Faebur was with him. The young Eridun had dismounted to leave his own
horse on die high ground.
The sun was higher now. From where
Kim stood she could see the seething army of the Dark carpeting the whole of
the plain below. To the left, Aileron raised his sword, and on the other side
the Aven did the same, and Ra-Tenniel. She saw Matt turn to Faebur and speak to
him.
Then she heard the ringing note of
the horn that Faebur sounded, and there was war.
Cechtar was the first man Dave saw
die. The big Dalrei thundered, screaming at the top of his voice, toward the
nearest of the urgach as the armies met with a crash that shook the earth.
Cechtar’s momentum and his whistling sword blow knocked the urgach sprawling
sideways in his saddle. But before the Dalrei could follow up, his mount was
viciously speared by the horn of the slaug the urgach rode, and as the grey
horse stumbled, dying, Cechtar’s side was exposed and a svart alfar leaped up,
a long thin knife in its hand, and plunged it into his heart.
Dave didn’t even have time to cry
out, or grieve, or even think about it. There was death all around him, bloody
and blurred. There were svart alfar shrieking amid the screams of dying men. A
svart leaped for his horse. Dave dragged a foot free of his stirrups, kicked at
it viciously, and felt the ugly creature’s skull crack under the impact.
Fighting for room to swing his axe,
he urged his horse forward. He went for the nearest urgach then, and every time
thereafter, with a hatred and a bitterness (cold, though, icily, calculating
cold) that drove him on and on, the head of his axe soon red and wet with
blood, as it rose and fell, and rose and fell again.
He had no idea what was happening
even twenty feet away. The lios alfar were somewhere to the right. He knew that
Levon was beside him, always, through everything that happened, and Tore and
Sorcha were on his other side. He saw Ivor’s stocky figure just ahead, and in
all that he did he fought to stay within reach of the Aven. Again, as in the
fight by the banks of the Adein, he completely lost track of time. His was a
narrowed maelstrom of a world: a universe of sweat and shattered bone, of
lathered horses and slaug horns, and ground slippery with blood and with the
trampled flesh of the dying and the dead. He fought with a silent savagery amid
the screams of battle, and where his axe fell, where the hooves of his horse
lashed out, they killed.
Time warped and twisted, spun away
from him. He thrust the axe forward like a sword, smashing in the hairy face of
the urgach in front of him. Almost in the same motion he drove the axehead
down, to bite through the flesh of the slaug it rode. He rode on. Beside him,
Levon’s blade was a whirling thing of ceaseless, glinting motion, a counterpoint
of lethal grace to Dave’s own driven strength.
Time was gone from him, and the
morning. He knew that they had been advancing for a time, and then later, now,
with the sun somehow high in the sky, that they were no longer pressing
forward, only holding their ground. Desperately, they strained to leave each
other enough room to fight, yet not so much space that the quick svart alfar
might slip between, to kill from below.
And gradually Dave began to
acknowledge, however hard he tried to block the thought, something that a part
of him had known the evening before, when first they’d topped the ridge and
looked down. It was the numbers, the sheer brutal weight, that would beat them.
It isn’t even worth thinking about,
he told himself, hammering the axe right through the blocking sword of an
urgach on his right, watching Tore’s sword slash into the creature’s brain at
the same moment. He and the dark Dalrei—his brother—looked at each other for
one grim instant.
There was time for no more than
that. Time and strength had rapidly become the most precious things in all the
worlds and were becoming more rare with each passing moment. The white sun
swung up the sky and paused overhead, balanced for an instant, as were all the
worlds that day, and then began sliding down through a bloody afternoon.
Dave’s horse trampled a svart alfar,
even as his axe severed the raking horn of a dark green slaug. He felt a pain
in his thigh; ignored it; killed, with a mighty blow of his fist, the
dagger-wielding svart that had slashed him. He heard Levon grunt with exertion,
and he wheeled just in time to crash his mount into the side of the slaug
menacing the Aven’s son. Levon dispatched the unbalanced urgach with a sweep of
his blade.
There were two more behind it, and
half a dozen of the svart alfar. Dave didn’t even have room to stay with Levon.
In front of him three more of the slaug pressed forward, over the body of the
one whose horn he’d smashed. Dave fell back a couple of paces, sick at heart.
Beside him, Levon was doing the same.
Then, disbelieving, Dave heard the
ceaseless shrieking of the svart alfar rise to a higher pitch. The largest of
the urgach advancing on him roared a sudden desperate command, and a moment
later, Dave saw a space suddenly materialize on his left, beyond Levon, as the
enemy fell back.
And then, even as it appeared, the
space was filled by Matt Sören, King of the Dwarves, fighting in grim,
ferocious silence, his clothing shredded, saturated with blood, as he waded
forward over the bodies of the dead to lead the Dwarves into the gap.
“Well
met, King of Dwarves!” Ivor’s
voice rose high over the tumult of battle. With a glad cry Dave thrust forward,
Levon just ahead of him, and they merged with Matt’s forces and began to
advance again.
Ra-Tenniel, dazzlingly swift on the
raithen, was suddenly beside them as well. “How are they doing on the left?” he
sang out.
“Aileron sent us this way. He says
they will hold!” Matt shouted back. “I don’t know for how long, though.
Galadan’s wolves are on that side. We have to break through together and then
circle back west!”
“Come on, then!” Levon screamed,
moving past them all, leading them northward as if he would storm the towers of
Starkadh itself. Ivor was right beside his son.
Dave kicked his own mount ahead, hastening to follow. He had to stay
close: to guard them if he could, to share in whatever happened to them.
He felt a wind suddenly. Saw a vast,
onrushing shadow sweeping across Andarien.
“Dear
gods!” Sorcha
cried, by Dave’s right hand. There came a tremendous roaring sound.
Dave looked up.
At dawn Leila woke. She felt
feverish and afraid after a terrible, restless night. When Shiel came to get
her, she told the other priestess to lead the morning chants in her stead. Shiel
took one look at Leila and went away without a word.
Pacing the narrow confines of her
room, Leila struggled to hold the images that were flashing into her mind. They
were too quick, though, too violently chaotic. She didn’t know where they were
coming from, how she was receiving them. She didn’t know! She didn’t want them!
Her hands were damp and she felt perspiration on her face, though the
underground rooms were as cool as they always were.
The chanting ended under the dome.
In the sudden silence she became conscious of her own footsteps, the rapid
beating of her heart, the pulsing in her mind—all seemed louder, more
insistent. She was afraid now, more so than she had ever been.
There was a tapping at her door.
“Yes!” she snapped. She hadn’t meant
to say it that way.
Timorously, Shiel opened the door
and peeped in. She did not enter the room. Her eyes grew wide at the sight of
Leila’s face.
“What is it?” Leila said, fighting
to control her voice.
“There are men here, Priestess.
Waiting by the entranceway. Will you see them?”
It was a thing to do, an action to
take. She brushed past Shiel, walking swiftly down the curving corridors toward
the entrance to the Temple. There were three priestesses and a dun-robed
acolyte waiting there. The doors were open, but the men waited patiently
outside.
She came to the threshold and saw
who was there. She knew all three of them: Gorlaes the Chancellor, Shalhassan
of Cathal, and the fat man, Tegid, who had been so much in attendance while
Sharra of Cathal had been here. “What do you want?” she said. Again her voice
was harsher than she meant it to be. She was having a hard time controlling it.
It seemed to be a bright day outside. The sun hurt her eyes.
“Child,” said Gorlaes, not hiding
his surprise, “are you the one who is acting as High Priestess?” “I am,” she
answered shortly, and waited. Shalhassan’s expression was different, more
quietly appraising. He said, “I have been told about you. You are Leila dal
Karsh?”
She nodded. Shifted a little
sideways, to be in the shade.
Shalhassan said, “Priestess, we have
come because we are afraid. We know nothing, can discover nothing. I thought it
was possible that the priestesses might somehow have tidings of what is
happening.”
She closed her eyes. Somewhere, at
some level, in the normal weaving of these things, this should be taken as a
triumph—the leaders of Brennin and Cathal coming to the sanctuary thus humbly.
She was aware of this but couldn’t summon up the appropriate response. It
seemed lifetimes removed from the brittle fevers of this day.
She opened her eyes again and said,
“I, too, am afraid. I know very little. Only that. . . something is happening
this morning. And there is blood. I think they are fighting.”
The big man, Tegid, made a rumbling
sound deep in his chest. She saw anguish and doubt in his face. For an instant
longer she hesitated; then, drawing a deep breath, she said, “If you like, if
you offer blood, you may enter within. I will share whatever I come to know.”
All three of them bowed to her.
“We will be grateful,” Shalhassan
murmured, and she could hear that he meant it.
“Shiel,” she said, snapping again,
unable not to, “use the knife and the bowl, then bring them to the dome,”
“I will,” Shiel said, with a
hardiness rare for her.
Leila didn’t wait. Another inner
vision sliced into her mind like a blade and was gone. She strode from the
doorway, stumbled, almost fell. She saw the frightened eyes of the acolyte, as
the young one backed away from her. Young?
a part of her mind
registered. The girl was older than she was.
Leila went on, toward the dome. Her
face was bloodless now. She could feel it. And could feel a dark, cold fear
rising within her, higher and higher all the time. It seemed to her that all
around her as she went, the sanctuary walls were streaming with blood.
Paul tried. He wasn’t a swordsman,
nor did he have Dave’s tremendous size or strength. But he had his own anger,
and courage to spare, sourced in a driven nature, infinitely demanding of
himself. He had grace and very fast reflexes. But swordsmanship at this level
was not a thing one mastered overnight, not matched against urgach and
Galadan’s wolves.
Through the whole of the morning,
though, he stayed in the heart of the battle on the western flank, fighting
with a passionate, coursing renunciation.
Ahead of him he saw Lancelot and
Aileron dismount, side by side, the better to wade, swords blurred with
intricate flashing speed, among the giant wolves. He knew that he was seeing
something never to be forgotten, excellence on a scale almost unimaginable.
Lancelot was fighting with a glove on his burned hand, that the hilt of his
sword might not dig into the wound. The glove had been white when the morning
began, but already the palm of it was soaked through with blood.
On either side of Paul, Carde and
Erron were fighting savagely, slashing through the svart alfar, battling the
wolves, holding back, as best they could, the terrible mounted urgach. And,
Paul was painfully aware, doing their best to guard him all the time, even as they
fought for their own lives.
He did the best he could. Bending on
either side of his horse’s neck to thrust and cut with the sword he carried.
Seeing a svart fall under one blow, a wolf draw back, snarling, from another.
But even as that happened, Erron had been forced to whirl, with his lithe
speed, to skewer another svart that had been leaping for Paul’s exposed side.
No time for gratitude to be
expressed, no time for any words at all. And only chance scattered seconds amid
chaos in which to reach within himself and vainly seek some clue, some
pulsebeat from the God, that might show him how to be more than a liability
here, more than a source of danger to the friends guarding his life.
“Gods!” Carde gasped, in one brief
respite some time later. “Why are the wolves so much worse than they were in
Leinanwood?”
Paul knew the answer to that. He
could see the answer. Ahead of them and to the right, lethally fluid in all his
movements, a palpable aura of menace hovering about him, was Galadan. He was
battling in his animal shape, providing the guiding spirit, malevolent and
subtle, for the onslaught of his wolves. For the whole of Maugrim’s army.
Galadan. Whom Paul had so arrogantly
claimed for his own. It seemed a mockery here, an act of fatuous hubris on the
part of someone who couldn’t even defend himself from the svart alfar.
In that moment, as he looked across
the surging crush of the battle, a space opened up in front of Galadan, and
then, with a hurtful twist of his heart, Paul saw grey Cavall move to confront,
for a second time, the wolf with the splash of silver between its eyes. Memory
slashed through Paul like a different kind of wound: a memory of the battle in
the Godwood that had served to foretell the war they were fighting now.
He saw the scarred grey dog and the
proud Lord of the andain face each other for the second time. Both were still
for a frozen moment, coiling themselves in readiness.
But there was to be no reprise of
that primal clash in the glade of the Summer Tree. A phalanx of mounted urgach
thundered into the space between wolf and dog, to be met with a ringing crash
of blades by Coll of Taerlindel and redheaded Averren, at the head of a score
of the men of South Keep: Diarmuid’s band. Fighting with a bleak savagery that
day, each of them driving back heart’s grief with the fury of war. Glad of the
chance to kill.
On either side of Paul, Carde and
Erron held their ground, covering his body as well as their own. The sight of
the Prince’s men struggling with the urgach just ahead decided him.
“Go join the others!” he shouted to
the two of them. “I’m no help here! I’m going back up on the ridge—I can do
more there!”
There was an instant to exchange a
glance with each of them, an instant to know it might be the last. He touched
Carde’s shoulder briefly, felt Erron’s hand grip his arm; then he wheeled his
horse sharply and cut away, racing back to the high ground, bitterly cursing
his uselessness.
To his left, as he rode, he saw
another pair of figures break free of the press, galloping back toward the
ridge as well. Angling his mount over, he intercepted Teyrnon and Barak.
“Where are you going?” he cried.
“Up above,” Teyrnon shouted, sweat
streaming down his face, his voice raw. “The fighting’s too congested. If I try
to throw a power bolt I’ll hit as many of our own men as theirs. And Barak is
hopelessly vulnerable when he has to source my magic.”
Barak was weeping with frustration,
Paul saw. They reached the slope and charged upward. At the top, a line of lios
alfar stood, scanning the stretch of the battle. Mounted auberei waited beside
them, ready to race down with word for the High King and his captains.
“What’s happening?” Paul gasped to
the nearest of the lios, as he dismounted and spun to look.
But it was Loren Silvercloak,
striding forward, who answered him. “Too finely balanced,” he said, his lined
features grim. “We’re being held to a standstill, and time is on their side.
Aileron has ordered the Dwarves to drive east, toward the Dalrei and the lios
alfar. He’s going to try to hold the western flank and half of the center
alone.”
“Can he?” Teyrnon asked.
Loren shook his head. “For a time.
Not forever. And see, the swans are telling Galadan everything we do.”
Down below, Paul could see that the
Wolflord had withdrawn to a cleared space toward the rear of the army of the
Dark. He was in his mortal shape again, and every moment another of the hideous
black swans would descend from the uncontested reaches of the air to give him
tidings and carry away instructions.
Beside Paul, Barak began to curse, a
stream of heartfelt, anguished invective. Below, to their left, a flash of
light caught Paul’s eye. It was Arthur, the King Spear gleaming in his hand,
guiding his magnificent raithen all along the line of battle on the western
flank, driving back the legions of Maugrim with the incandescent flame of his
presence, shaping a respite for the beleaguered men of Brennin wherever he
went. The Warrior in the last battle at Camlann. The battle he had not been
meant to see. And would not have seen, had not Diarmuid intervened.
Behind Paul the embers of the pyre
still glowed, and ashes drifted in the morning sun. Paul looked up: no longer
morning, he realized. Beyond the circling swans the sun had reached its zenith
and was starting down.
He jogged back toward the south. In
a cleared space a handful of people, Kim and Jaelle among them, were doing the
best they could for the wounded that the auberei were bringing up the ridge in
frightening numbers.
Kim’s face was streaked with blood
and sweat. He knelt beside her. “I’m useless down there,” he said quickly.
“What can I do?”
“You too?” she answered, her grey
eyes shadowed with pain. “Pass me those bandages. Behind you. Yes.” She took
the cloths and began wrapping the leg wound of one of the Dwarves.
“What do you mean?” Paul asked.
Kim cut the bandage with a blade and
fastened it as tightly as she could. She stood up and moved on, without
answering. Paul followed. A young Dalrei, no more than sixteen, lay in
breathless agony, an axe wound in his side. Kim looked down on him with
despair.
“Teyrnon!” Paul shouted.
The mage and his source hurried
toward them. Teyrnon took one look at the wounded boy, glanced briefly at
Barak, and then knelt beside the Dalrei. Barak closed his eyes and Teyrnon
placed his hand over the jagged wound. He spoke, under his breath, half a dozen
words, and as he did the wound slowly closed itself.
When he was done, though, Barak
almost fell, fatigue etched into his features. Teyrnon stood up quickly and
steadied his source.
“I can’t do much more of this,” the
mage said grimly, looking closely at Barak.
“Yes, you can!” Barak snapped,
glaring. “Who else, Seer? Who else needs us?”
“Go to Jaelle,” Kim said tonelessly.
“She’ll show you the ones who are worst off. Do what you can, but try not to
exhaust yourself. You two are all we have in the way of magic.”
Teyrnon nodded tersely and strode
off to where Paul could see the High Priestess, the sleeves of her white gown
pushed back, kneeling beside the figure of a crumpled lios alfar.
Paul turned back to Kim. “Your own
magic?” he said, pointing to the dulled Warstone. “What’s happened?”
For a moment she hesitated; then she
quickly told him the story of what had happened by Calor Diman. “I rejected
it,” she concluded flatly. “And now the swans have the sky to themselves, and
the Baelrath is totally dead. I feel sick, Paul.”
So did he. But he masked it and
pulled her to him in a hard embrace. He felt her trembling against his body.
Paul said, “No one here or anywhere
else has done as much as you. And we don’t know if what you did was wrong—would
you have gotten to the Dwarves in time if iu’d used the ring to bind the
creature in the Lake? It isn’t over, Kim, it’s a long way from over.”
From not far off they heard a grunt
of pain. Four of the auberei set down a stretcher they’d been carrying. On it,
bleeding from half a dozen new wounds, lay Mabon of Rhoden. Loren Silvercloak
and a white-faced Sharra of Cathal hurried to the side of the fallen Duke.
Paul didn’t know where to look. All
around them lay the dying and the dead. Below, on the plain of battle, the
forces of the Dark seemed scarcely to have diminished. Within himself the
pulsebeat of Mórnir seemed to faint as ever, agonizingly far. A hint of
something but not a promise; an awareness, but not power.
He cursed, as Barak had done,
helplessly.
Kim looked at him, and after a
moment she said, in a strange voice, “I just realized something. You’re hating
yourself for not being able to use your power in battle. You don’t have a power of war, though, Paul. We should have realized that before. I’m that kind of power, or I was, until last night. You’re something else.”
He heard a truth, but the bitterness
wouldn’t leave him. “Wonderful,” he snapped. “Makes me awfully useful, doesn’t
it?”
“Maybe,” was all she said. But there
was a quiet speculation in her eyes that calmed him.
“Where’s Jen?” he asked.
She pointed. He looked over and saw
that Jennifer, too, was dealing with the wounded as best she could. At the
moment she had just risen from someone’s side to walk a step or two north,
looking down over the battlefield. He could only see her in profile, but as he
gazed at her Paul realized that he had never seen a woman look as she did then,
as if taking the pain of all the worlds onto herself. In the manner of a Queen.
He never, ever, knew what made him
look up.
To see a black swan diving.
Soundlessly, a terror against the sky, razored claws extended straight for
Jennifer. Black Avaia, putrescent death in the air, returning to claim her
victim for a second time.
Paul screamed a warning at the top
of his voice and launched himself in a frantic sprint over the distance
between. The swan was a black projectile hurtling down with annihilating speed.
Jennifer turned at his cry and looked up. She saw, and did not flinch. She
grappled bravely for the slim blade they’d given her. Paul ran as he’d never
run before in all his life. A sob escaped him. Too far! He was too far away. He
tried, reached for speed, for more, for something.
A meaty stench filled
the air. A shrieking sound of triumph. Jennifer lifted her blade. Twenty feet
away, Paul stumbled, fell, heard himself screaming her name, glimpsed the
raking teeth of the swan—
And saw Avaia, ten feet above
Jennifer’s head, smashed into a crumple of feathers by a red comet in the sky.
A living comet that had somehow materialized, blindingly swift, to intersect
her path. A horn like a blade exploded into Avaia’s breast. A bright sword
smote at her head. The black swan screamed, in pain and terror so strident they
heard it on the plain below.
She fell, screaming still, at the
feet of the woman. And Guinevere walked over then, not faltering, and looked
down upon the creature that had delivered her unto Maugrim.
One moment she stood so; then her
own slim blade thrust forward into Avaia’s throat, and the screaming of the
swan came to an end, as Lauriel the White was avenged after a thousand years.
The silence on the ridge was
overwhelming. Even the tumult of war below seemed to have receded. Paul
watched, they all watched in awe, as Gereint, the old blind shaman, climbed
carefully down to the ground, to leave Tabor dan Ivor alone astride his winged
creature. The two of them seemed eerily remote even in the midst of so many
people, blood on his sword, blood on her deadly, shining horn.
The shaman stood very still, his
head lifted a little, as if listening for something. He sniffed the air, which
was foul with the corrupt odor of the swan.
“Pah!” exclaimed Gereint, and spat
on the ground at his feet.
“It is dead, shaman,” said Paul
quietly. He waited.
Gereint’s sightless eyes swung
unerringly to where Paul stood. “Twiceborn?” the old man asked.
“Yes,” said Paul. And stepping
forward, he embraced, for the first time, the old blind gallant figure who had
sent his soul so far to find Paul’s on the dark wide sea.
Paul stepped back. Gereint turned,
with that uncanny precision, to where Kim was standing, silent, inexplicable
tears streaming down her face. Shaman and Seer faced each other, and no words
at all were said. Kim closed her eyes, still weeping.
“I’m sorry,” she said brokenly. “Oh,
Tabor, I’m sorry.” Paul didn’t understand. He saw Loren Silvercloak lift his
head sharply.
“Was this it, Gereint?” Tabor asked,
in a strangely calm voice. “Was it the black swan that you saw?”
“Oh, child,” the shaman whispered. “For the love I bear you and all
your family, I only wish that it were so.”
Loren had now turned completely
away, staring north.
“Weaver
at the Loom!” he
cried.
Then the others, too, saw the
onrushing of the shadow, they heard the huge, roaring sound, and felt the
mighty buffet of the wind that had come.
Jaelle clutched at Paul’s arm. He
was aware of her touch, but it was at Kim that he looked as the shadow came
over them. He finally understood her grief. It became his own. There was
nothing he could do, though, nothing at all. He saw Tabor look up. The boy’s
eyes seemed to open very wide. He touched the glorious creature that he rode,
she spread her wings, and they rose into the sky.
He had been ordered to stay by the
women and children in the curve of land east of the Latham, to guard them if
necessary. It was as much for his sake, Tabor knew, as it was for their own:
his father’s attempt to keep him from leaving the world of men, which was what
seemed to happen whenever he rode Imraith-Nimphais.
Gereint had called for him, though.
Only half awake in that grey pre-dawn hour in front of the shaman’s house,
Tabor heard Gereint’s words, and everything changed.
“Child,” the shaman said, “I have
been sent a vision from Cernan, as sharp as when he came to me and named you to
your fast. I am afraid that you must fly. Son of Ivor, you have to be in
Andarien before the sun is high!”
It seemed to Tabor as if there was
an elusive music playing somewhere amid the ground mist and the greyness that
lay all about before the rising of the sun. His mother and sister were beside
him, awakened by the same boy Gereint had sent with his message. He turned to
his mother, to try to explain, to ask forgiveness. . . . And saw that it wasn’t
necessary. Not with Leith. She had brought his sword from their house. How she
had known to do so, he couldn’t even guess. She held it out toward him, and he
took it from her hands. Her eyes were dry. His father was always the one who
cried.
His mother said, in her quiet,
strong voice, “You will do what you must do, and your father will understand
since the message comes from the god. Weave brightly for the Dalrei, my son,
and bring them home.”
Bring them home. Tabor found it hard to frame words of his own. All about
him, and more clearly now, he could hear the strange music calling him away.
He turned to his sister. Liane was weeping, and he grieved for her. She had been hurt in Gwen Ystrat, he
knew, on the night Liadon died. There was a new vulnerability to her these
days. Or perhaps it had always been there and only now was he noticing it. It
didn’t really matter which, not anymore. In silence, for words were truly very
difficult, he handed her his sword and raised his arms out from his side.
Kneeling, his sister buckled the
sword belt upon him, after the fashion of the old days. She did not speak
either. When she was done, he kissed her, and then his mother. Leith held him
very tightly for a moment, and then she let him go. He stepped a little way
apart from all of them. The music had
gone now. The sky was brighter in the east above the Carnevon Range, in whose
looming shadows they lay. Tabor looked around at the silent, sleeping camp.
Then he closed his eyes and inside
himself, not aloud, he said: Beloved!
And almost before the thought was
fully formed, he theard the voice of his dreaming that was the voice of his
soul respond, I am
here! Shall we fly? I He opened his eyes. She was in the sky
overhead, more glorious to see than even innermost knowledge remembered her to
be. She seemed brighter, her horn more luminous, every time she came. His heart
lifted to see her and to watch her land so lightly at his side.
I
think we must,
he answered her,
walking over to stroke the glistening red mane. She lowered her head, so the
shining horn rested on his shoulder for a moment. I
think this is the time for which we were
brought together.
We shall have each other, she said to him. Come, I will take you up to the sunrise!
He smiled a little at her eagerness,
but then, an instant later, his indulgent smile faded, as he felt the same
fierce exhilaration surge through him as well. He mounted up upon
Imraith-Nimphais and even as he did, she spread her wings.
Wait, he said, with the last of his self-control.
He turned back. His mother and
sister were watching them. Leith had never seen his winged creature before, and
a far-off part of Tabor hurt a little to see awe in her face. A mother should
not be awed by her son, he thought. But already such thoughts seemed to come
from a long way away.
The sky was appreciably lighter now.
The mist was lifting. He turned to Gereint, who had been waiting patiently,
saying nothing. Tabor said, “You know her name, shaman. You know the names of
all our totem animals, even this one. She will bear you if you like. Would you
fly with us?”
And Gereint, as unruffled as he
always seemed to be, said quietly, “I would not have presumed to ask, but there
may yet be a reason for me to be there. Yes, I will come. Help me mount.”
Without being asked,
Imraith-Nhnphais moved nearer to the frail, wizened shaman. She stood very
still as Tabor reached down a hand, and Liane moved forward and helped Gereint
up behind Tabor.
Then it seemed that there was
nothing else to be said, and no time to say it, even if he could have managed
to. Within his mind, Tabor told the creature of his dream, Let us fly, my love. And with the thought they were in
the sky, winging north just as the morning sun burst up on their
right hand.
Behind him, Tabor knew without
looking, his mother would be standing, straight-backed, dry-eyed, holding his
sister in her arms, watching her youngest fly away from her.
This has been his very last thought,
his last clear image from the world of men, as they had sped through the
morning high over the rolling Plain, racing the rising sun to a field of war.
To which they had finally come, and
in time, with the sun high, starting over into the west. They had come, and
Tabor had seen a black thing of horror, a monstrous swan diving from the sky,
and he had drawn his sword, and Imraith-Nimphais, glorious and deadly, had
reached for even greater speed, and they had met the diving swan and struck her
two mortal wounds with shining blade and horn.
When it was over Tabor had felt,
just as he had before, each time they’d flown and killed, that the balance of
his soul had shifted again, farther away than ever from the world through which
the people all around them moved.
Gereint descended, unaided, and so
Tabor and Imraith-Nimphais stood by themselves among men and women, some of
whom they knew. He saw the blood dark on his creature’s horn, and heard her say
to him, in the moment before he formed the thought himself, Only each other at the last.
And then, an instant later, he heard
Silvercloak cry aloud, and he wheeled about and looked to the north, above the
tumult of the battlefield where his father and his brother were fighting.
He looked, saw the shadow, felt the
wind, and realized what had come, here, now, at the last, and knew in that
moment why he had dreamt his creature, and that the pending was upon them.
He did not hesitate or turn to bid
farewell to anyone. He was already too far away for such things. He moved hands
a little, and Imraith-Nimphais leaped into the to meet the Dragon.
The Dragon of Rakoth Maugrim in the
sky over Andarien.
A thousand years before it had been
too young to fly, wings too weak to bear the colossal weight of its body,
secret, most terrible of all Maugrim’s malevolent designs, it had been another
casualty of the Unraveller’s untimely haste at the Bael Rangat—his Dragon had
been able to play no part in that war.
Instead, it had lurked in a vast
underground chamber hollowed out beneath Starkadh, and when the end had come,
when the army of Light had beaten its way northward, Rakoth had sent his Dragon
away, flying with awkward, half-crippled motions, to seek refuge in the
northern Ice where no man would ever go.
It had been seen from afar, by the
lios alfar and the longsighted among men, but they had been too distant, still,
to discern it clearly or know what it was. There were tales told about it that
became legends in time, motifs for tapestries, for nightmares of childhood.
It had survived, nurtured through
the long, turning years of the Unraveller’s imprisonment, by Fordaetha, the
Queen of Rük, in her Ice Palace amid the Barrens. Gradually, as the years
passed and then the centuries, its wings grew stronger. It began to fly on
longer and longer journeys through that white and trackless waste at the roof
of the world.
It learned to fly. And then it
learned to harness and hurl forth the molten fire of its lungs, to send roaring
tongues of flame exploding amid the white cold, far above
the great ice floes that ceaselessly ground and crashed against each other.
Farther and farther it flew, its
great wings beating the frigid air, the flame of its breath luridly lighting
the night sky over the Ice where no one was there to see save only the Queen of
Rük from her cold towers.
It flew so high it could see, at
times, beyond the glacier walls, beyond the titanic prison of cloud-shouldered
Rangat, to the green lands far away in the south. It was all Fordaetha could
do, as the sweep of time pushed even the stars into newer patterns, to hold the
Dragon back.
But hold it she did, having power of
her own in the cold kingdom she ruled, and in time there came a messenger from
Galadan, the Wolflord, and the message was that Rakoth Maugrim was free, and
black Starkadh had risen anew.
Only then did she send it south. And
the Dragon went, landing in a space prepared for it north of Starkadh, and
Rakoth Maugrim was there. And the Unraveller laughed aloud to see the mightiest
creature of his hate now full grown.
This time Rakoth had waited, savoring
the malice of a thousand years, watching his own black blood fall burning from
where his severed hand had been. He waited, and in the fullness of time he made
the Mountain go up in flame, and he shaped the winter, and then the death rain
over Eridu. And only when these were ended did he let his army issue forth in
might, and only after that, saved for the very last, that its unforeseen coming
might shatter the hearts of those who would oppose him, he sent out his Dragon
to scorch and burn and destroy.
So did it come to pass the sun was
blotted out, and half the sky, over that battlefield in Andarien. That the
armies of Light and Dark, both of them, were driven to their knees by the
pounding force of the wind of the Dragon’s wings. That fire blackened the dry
ground of wasted Andarien for miles upon miles in a long, smoldering strip of
twice-ravaged earth.
And so, also, did it come to pass
that Tabor dan Ivor drew forth his sword, and the shining creature he rode
lifted herself, wings beating in a blur of speed, even into the fury of that
wind. They rose aloft, alone at the last, as both of them had known they would
be from the very first, and they hovered in the darkened air, shining, gallant,
pitifully small, directly in the path of the Dragon.
On the ground below, battered to his
knees by the wind, Ivor dan Banor looked up for one instant only, and the image
of his son in the sky imprinted itself forever onto the patterns of his brain.
Then he turned away and covered his face with his bloodied sleeve, for he could
not bear to watch.
High overhead. Tabor lifted his
sword to draw the Dragon toward him. It was not necessary, though; the Dragon
was already aware of them. He saw it accelerate and draw breath to send a river
of flame toward them from the furnace of its lungs. He saw that it was vast and
unspeakably hideous, with grey-black scales covering its hide and mottled
grey-green skin below.
He knew that there was nothing, and
no one, on the windswept ground below that could withstand this thing.
He also knew, with an exquisite,
quiet certainty—a last space of calm here in the teeth of the wind—that there
was one thing and one thing only they could do.
And there was only a moment, this
moment, in which to do it, before the Dragon’s flame burst forth to turn them
into ash.
He stroked her shining, glossy mane.
In his mind, he said, So here it is. Be
not afraid, my love. Let us do what we were born to do.
I am not afraid, she sent back in the mind voice
whose every cadence he knew. You have
named me your beloved, since first we saw each other. Do you know that you have
been mine?
The Dragon was upon them, blackness
filling the sky. There was a roaring, a deafening noise of wind pushed to its
outermost limits. Still, Imraith-Nimphais held steady before it, her wings
straining as fast they had ever gone, her horn a point of blinding light in the
roaring chaos of the sky.
Of course I know, Tabor sent to her, his last such
thought. Now come, my darling, we must
kill it as we die!
And Imraith-Nimphais forced herself
higher then, somehow, and forward, somehow, directly into the maelstrom of the
Dragon wind, and Tabor clung to her mane with all his might, letting fall his
useless sword. Above the Dragon’s path they rose; he saw it lift its head, open
its mouth.
But they were hurtling toward it,
angling downward like a shaft of killing light straight for the loathsome head.
Making themselves, the two of them, having only each other at the last, into a
living blade, that they might explode at this dazzling, incandescent speed, the
sharp horn shining like a star, right into and through the skin
and muscle, the cartilage and bone of the Dragon’s brain, and so kill it as
they died.
At the very edge of impact, the edge
of the end of all things, Tabor saw the Dragon’s lidless eyes narrow. He looked
down and saw the first tongue of the flame appear at the base of its gaping
throat. Too late! He knew it was too late. They were going to hit in time. He
closed his eyes—
And felt himself thrown free by
Imraith-Nimphais in a tumbling, spiraling parabola! He screamed, his voice lost
in the cataclysm. He spun in the air like a torn leaf. He fell.
In his mind he heard, clear and
sweet, like a bell heard over summer fields, a mind voice say in the purest
tones of love: Remember me!
Then she hit the Dragon at the apex
of her speed.
Her horn sheared through its skull
and her body followed it, truly a living blade, and just as Imraith-Nimphais
had shone, living, like a star, so did she explode like a star in her dying.
For the Dragon’s gathered fire burst within itself, incinerating the two of
them. They fell, burning, to the earth west of the battlefield and crashed
there with a force of impact that shook the ground as far east as Gwynir, as
far north as the walls of Starkadh.
And Tabor dan Ivor, thrown free by
an act of love, plummeted after them from a killing height.
When the Dragon came, Kim was beaten
to her knees, not only by the wind of its wings but by the brutal awareness of
her own folly. Now she knew why the Baelrath had blazed
for the Crystal Dragon of Calor Diman. Why Macha and Nemain, the goddesses of
war whom the Warstone served, had known that the guardian spirit of the Dwarves
would be needed, whatever the cost might be.
And she had refused. In her
arrogance, her own imposed morality, she had refused to exact that price from
the Dwarves, or to pay it herself. Had refused to accept, at the last test, the
responsibility of the Baelrath. And so now Tabor dan Ivor, hopelessly
overmatched, was rising into the sky, into the wind, to pay the price for her
refusal.
If he even could. If they weren’t all to pay that price. For the Dragon that was coming down upon them meant
the end of everything. Kim knew it, and so did every person on the ridge or on
the bloody plain below.
Stricken with a guilt that numbed
her senses, Kim watched Imraith-Nimphais fight desperately to hold her place in
the air against the annihilating whirlwind of the Dragon’s approach.
There was a hand gripping her
shoulder: Gereint’s. She had no idea how the old shaman knew what she’d done,
but nothing about Gereint could surprise her anymore. It was clear that he did
know and was seeking, even here at the end, to comfort her—as if she had any
claim, or right, to comfort.
Blinking tears from her eyes, she
saw the monstrous, jointed, grey-black wings of the Dragon pound the air. The
sun was lost; a huge, rushing blackness lay over the land. The Dragon opened
its mouth. Kim saw Tabor let fell his sword. And then, unbelieving, stupefied,
she saw the glorious creature he rode, gift of the Goddess, shining,
double-edged, begin to move forward into the maelstrom, straight toward the
obliterating vastness of the Dragon of Maugrim.
Beside her, Gereint was still on his
feet despite the force of the wind, stony-faced, waiting. Someone cried out in
fear and awe. The horn of Imraith-Nimphais was a dazzling thing of glory at the
edge of night.
And then it was a blur, moving almost too fast to be seen, as she
found, from somewhere in her being, an even greater, more defiant dimension of
speed. And Kim finally realized what was happening, and just how the price
would be paid.
“Teyrnon!”
Paul Schafer cried
suddenly, at the top of his voice, screaming it over the wind. “Quickly! Be ready!”
The mage threw him a startled
glance, but Barak, without questions asked, fought to his feet, closed his
eyes, and braced himself.
And in that instant they saw Tabor
thrown free.
Then Imraith-Nimphais met the Dragon
and a fireball exploded in the sky, too bright to look upon.
“Teyrnon!”
Paul screamed again.
“I see him!” the mage shouted back.
Sweat was pouring down his face. His hands were outstretched to their fullest
extent, reaching. Power surged from them in shimmering waves, as he struggled
to break the fall of the boy tumbling helplessly earthward from so high.
The Dragon crashed to the ground
with a sound like a mountain falling. All around Kim, people tumbled like
dominoes to the trembling earth. Somehow Gereint kept his balance, staying
upright beside her, one hand still on her shoulder.
And so, too, did Teyrnon and Barak.
But as Kim looked up, she saw that Tabor was still falling, if slowly, spinning
like some discarded toy.
“He’s too far!” Teyrnon cried in
despair. “I can’t stop him!” He tried, though. And Barak, shaking in every
limb, fought to source the magic that could break that terrible fall.
“Look!” said Paul.
Out of the corner of her eye Kim saw
a flashing movement on the plain. She turned. A raithen of Daniloth was
streaking westward over the ground. Tabor fell headfirst, slowed by Teyrnon’s
magic but unconscious, unable to help himself. The raithen shot over the ground
like a golden and silver brother of Imraith-Nimphais herself. On its back,
Arthur Pendragon let fall the King Spear and rose to stand in the stirrups. The
raithen gathered itself and leaped. And as it did, Arthur stretched forward and
up toward the boy spinning down out of the sunlight, and with his strong hands
he caught Tabor as he fell and cradled him against his chest as the raithen
slowed and stopped.
Racing in his wake, Lancelot leaned
sideways in his saddle and reclaimed the fallen spear. Then together the two of
them sped southward up the rise of land, to halt on the ridge where Kim stood,
and Gereint, and all the others watching there.
“He is all right, I think,” the
Warrior said tersely. Tabor was ash white but seemed otherwise unhurt. Kim
could see him breathing.
She looked at Arthur. There was
blood all over his body; one deep gash above his eye was bleeding freely,
partially blinding him. Kim moved forward and waited until he had handed Tabor
down to be taken by a great many hands; then she made Arthur dismount while she
tended his wound as best she could. She could see the ruin of Lancelot’s palm,
even through the glove he wore, but there was nothing, really, that she or
anyone else could do about that. Behind her, Jaelle and Sharra were dealing
with Tabor, and Loren had knelt beside Barak, who had collapsed. They would
recover, she knew. They both would, though Tabor would carry an inner wound
that only time might salve. If time were granted them. If they were allowed to
go forward from today.
Impatiently, Arthur endured her
ministrations. He was speaking constantly as she worked on him, relaying crisp
instructions to the auberei gathered around. One of them he sent to Ivor, with word
of his youngest son. Down on the plain the army of Light was battling again,
with a passion and hope that the afternoon had not yet seen. Glancing down, Kim
saw Aileron carving a lethal swath through the urgach and wolves with
Diarmuid’s men beside him, moving forward and to the east, struggling to link
with the Dwarves in the center.
“We have a chance now,” Teyrnon
said, gasping with fatigue. “Tabor has given us a chance.”
“I know,” said Arthur. He turned
away from Kim, preparing to race back down.
Then she saw him stop. Beside him,
Lancelot’s face had gone ashen, as pale as Tabor’s was. Kim followed their gaze
and felt her heart thud with a pain beyond words.
“What is it?” Gereint asked
urgently. “Tell me what you see!”
Tell him what she saw. She saw, at this moment, even as
hope seemed to have been reborn out of fiery death, an end to hope.
“Reinforcements,” she said. “A great
many, Gereint. A very great many coming from the north to join their army. Too
many, shaman. I think there are too many.” There was a silence on the ridge.
Then: “There must not be,” Gereint said calmly.
Arthur turned at the quiet words.
There was a passion in his eyes beyond anything Kim had seen there before. He
said, in echo, “You are right, shaman. There must not be.”
And the raithen leaped down the ridge, bearing the Warrior back to war.
For one second only, Lancelot
lingered. Kim saw him look, as if against his will, to Guinevere, who was
gazing back at him. Not a word was said between them but a farewell was in the
air, and a love that even now was still denied the solace and release of being
spoken.
Then he, too, drew his sword again
and stormed back to the battle down below.
Beyond the battlefield, north of it,
the plain of Andarien was lost to sight, dark with the roiling movements of the
advancing second wave of Rakoth’s army: a wave, Kim saw, almost as large as the
first had been, and the first had been too large. The Dragon was dead, but that
hardly seemed to matter. It had only bought them time, a little time, shaped in
fire to be paid with blood, but leading to the same ending, which was the Dark.
“Are we lost?” asked Jaelle, looking
up from where she knelt by Tabor.
Kim turned to her, but it was Paul
who made reply, among all the people gathered there.
“Perhaps,” he said, in a voice that
suddenly carried more than his own cadences. “It is likely, I’m afraid. But
there is one last random thread left for us, among all the weavings of this
day, and I will not concede dominion to the Dark until that thread is lost.”
Even as he spoke, Kim’s own
knowledge came sweeping over her, in an image like a dream. She looked at
Jennifer for an instant, and then her gaze went north, beyond the battlefields,
beyond the thunderous approach of Maugrim’s reinforcements—they had been seen now,
down below; there were cries of harsh, wild triumph rising everywhere—beyond
the blackened line of fire-ravaged earth that marked where the Dragon had
flown. Beyond all these, far, far beyond, Kim looked toward a place she’d only
seen in a vision given her by Eilathen, rising from his lake so long ago.
To Starkadh.
Chapter 16
The laughter had
frightened him. Darien passed a cold, fitful night, shot through with dreams he
could not remember when the morning came. With the sun came warmth; it was
summer, even here in the northlands. He was still afraid, though, and
irresolute, now that he had come to the end of his journey. When he went to
wash his face in the river the water was oily and something bit his finger,
drawing blood. He backed away.
For a long time he lingered there,
hiding under the bridge, reluctant to move. Movement would be such a decisive,
such a final thing. It was eerily silent. The
Ungarch ran sluggishly, without sound. Aside from whatever had bit him, there
was no sign of life anywhere. Not since the Dragon had passed away to the
south, a black shape in blackness. Not since the laughter of his father.
No birds sang, even on a morning in
midsummer. It was a place of waste, of desolation, and across the river stood
his father’s towers, challenging the sky, so black they seemed to swallow the
light. It was worse, somehow, in daylight. There were no obscuring shadows to
blunt the impact of Starkadh’s oppressiveness. Fortress of a god, with its
huge, brutal, piled stones, blank and featureless, save for a scattered handful
of almost invisible windows set far up. Crouching under the bridge, Darien
looked at the exposed path leading up to the iron doors, and fear was within
him like a living thing.
He tried to master it. To seek
strength from an image of Finn, a vision of his brother dealing with this
terror. It didn’t work; however hard he tried, he couldn’t even picture Finn in
this place. The same thing happened when he tried to draw courage from a memory
of Lancelot in the sacred grove. That didn’t help either; it couldn’t be
superimposed.
He stayed there, lonely and afraid,
and all the while, unconsciously, his hand kept returning to stroke the
lifeless gem upon his brow. The sun rose higher in the sky. To the east Rangat
gleamed, its upper shopes dazzlingly white, awesome, inaccessible. Darien
didn’t know why, but it was after he looked at the Mountain that he found
himself on his feet.
He walked out from his hiding place
to stand in the open under the brilliant sun, and he set foot on the Valgrind
Bridge. It seemed to him that the whole world for miles around reverberated to
the ringing of his tread. He stopped, his heart pounding, then realized that it
was not so. The sound was small and slight, as he was; its echoes were only
magnified in the chambers of his mind.
He went on. He crossed the River
Ungarch and stood at last before the doors of Starkadh. He was not seen, though
he was utterly unshielded there in the bleak flatness of that landscape: a boy
in an ill-fitting if beautifully knitted sweater with a dagger in his hand, his
fair hair held back by some circlet about his brow. His eyes were very blue in
the sunlight.
A moment later, they were red, and
then the boy had gone. An owl, white as the vanished snows, flapped swiftly
upward, to land on the narrow sill of a window slit, halfway up the black face
of Starkadh. Had that been seen, there would
have been an alarm.
It was not seen; there were no
guards. What need had there ever been for guards about this place?
In his owl shape, Darien perched
uneasily on the window ledge and looked within. There was no one there. He
ruffled his feathers, fighting back a stiffing apprehension, and then his eyes
flared again and he was once more in his own form.
He slipped cautiously down from the
window and so set foot at last in the fortress where he had been conceived. A
long, long way below, his mother had lain in a chamber deep in the bowels of
this place, and on a morning much like this one Rakoth Maugrim had come to her
and had done what he had done.
Darien looked around. It was as if
it was always night within these walls: the single window let in hardly any
sunlight. The daylight seemed to die where it reached Starkadh. A green, fitful
illumination was cast by lights set in the walls. There was an overpowering
stench in the room, and as Darien’s eyes adjusted to the baleful texture of the
light he was able to make out the shapes of half-consumed carcasses on the
floor. They were svart alfar, and their dead bodies stank. He understood,
suddenly, where he was and why there was a window here: this was the place
where the swans might return to feed. He remembered the smell of the ones he
had killed. It was all around him now.
The foul putrescence made him gag.
He stumbled toward the inner door. His foot squashed something soft and oozing
as he went. He didn’t look to see what it was. He opened the door and almost
fell into the corridor, gasping, heedless if he was seen.
And he was seen. A single urgach, massive and sharp-clawed turned, five feet away
from him. It grunted in disbelieving shock and opened its mouth to bellow an
alarm—
And died. Darien straightened. His
eyes receded back to blue. He lowered the arm he’d thrust forward at the urgach
and took a deep breath. Power coursed through him, triumphant and exhilarating.
He had never felt so strong. The urgach was gone; there was no sign it had ever
even been there! He had obliterated it with one surge of his power.
He listened for the sound of
footsteps. There were none. No alarm seemed to have been raised. It wouldn’t matter, Darien thought.
His fear had vanished. In its place
was a rushing sensation of might. He had never known how strong he was: he had
never been this strong. He was in his father’s fortress, the
place of his own conception. The hearthstone, then, of his own red power.
He was a worthy son, an ally. Even
an equal, perhaps. Bringing more than a Dwarvish dagger as a gift. He was
bringing himself.
In this place he could
blast urgach to nothingness with a motion of his hand! How could his father not
welcome him to his side in a time of war?
Darien closed his eyes, let his
inner senses reach out, and found what he was looking for. Far above him there
was a presence infinitely different from Darien’s awareness of urgach and svart
alfar all through the fortress, a presence unlike any other. The aura of a god.
He found the stairway and began to
climb. There was no fear in him now. There was power and a kind of joy. The
sheath of the knife gleamed blue in his hand. The Circlet was dull and dead.
His hand no longer went up to touch it, not since he’d killed the urgach.
He killed two more as he went up,
exactly the same way, with the same completely effortless flexing of his hand,
feeling the power course outward from his mind. He sensed how much more lay in
reserve. Had he known about this, he thought, had he known how to tap into this
power, he could have blasted the demon of the sacred grove into fragments all
by himself. He wouldn’t have needed Lancelot or any other guardian his mother
sent.
He didn’t even break stride at the
thought of her. She was a long way off and had sent him away. Had sent him
here. And here he was more than he had ever imagined he could be. He went up,
tireless, climbing stairway after twisting stairway. He wanted to run, but he
forced himself to go slowly, that he might come with dignity, bearing his gift,
offering all he was. Even the green lights along the walls no longer seemed so
cold or alien.
He was Darien dan Rakoth, returning
home.
He knew exactly where he was going.
As he climbed, the aura of his father’s power grew stronger with every stride.
Then, at the turning of a stair, almost the last, Darien paused.
A rumbling tremor rolled northward
along the earth, shaking the foundations of Starkadh. And a moment later there
came a cry from above, a wordless snarl of balked desire, of soul-consuming rage.
It was too great, too brutal a sound. It was worse than the laughter had been.
Darien’s surging hope quailed before the hatred in that cry.
He stood still, gasping, fighting
back the horror that rolled over him in waves. His power was still with him; he
knew what had happened. The Dragon was dead. The fall of nothing else in
Fionavar could have so shaken the earth. The trembling of the fortress walls
went on for a long time.
Then it passed, and there was
silence again, with a different texture to it. Darien stood rooted to the spot
where he was, and a thought born of lonely hope bloomed in his mind: He will need me even more now! The Dragon is lost!
He took one step upon the last
stairway, and as he did he felt the hammer of a god fall upon his mind. And
with the hammer there came a voice.
Come! Darien heard. The sound became his universe. It obliterated everything
else. The whole of Starkadh resonated to it. I am aware of you. I would see your face.
He wanted to go there, he had been
going there, but now his feet were independent of his will. He could not have
resisted however hard he tried, regardless of his rising power. In his mind,
with bitterest irony, he remembered his own arrogance of the moments before: an
equal to Maugrim, he had thought himself. There were no equals to Rakoth
Maugrim. And on that realization he ascended the final stair of Starkadh and
came out into a vast chamber, ringed about entirely with glass, though it had
seemed as black as all the other walls when viewed from outside. Darien’s mind
rocked and spun, dizzily, at the perspective of that window.
He was seeing the battle in
Andarien. Beyond those high windows of Starkadh, the battle plain far to the south
lay beneath his feet. It was as if he were flying over it: and a moment later
he realized that this was exactly so. The windows—by exercise of a power he
couldn’t even begin to fathom—were showing the vision of the swans circling
over Andarien. And the swans were the eyes of Maugrim. Who was here.
Who turned now, at last, huge,
mighty beyond the telling in this seat of his power. Rakoth Maugrim the
Unraveller, who had entered into the worlds from outside the walls of time,
from beyond the Weaver’s Halls, with no thread of Tapestry marked with his
name. Faceless, he turned from the window to the one who had come, who had
dared come, and Darien trembled then in every limb and would have fallen had
his body not been held upright by the red glance of Maugrim.
He saw the blood drip, black and
smoking, from the stump of his father’s hand. Then the hammer of before became
as nothing, nothing at all, as he felt his mind battered by the probing of the
Unraveller. He could not move or speak. Terror was a clawed thing in his
throat. The will of Rakoth was all about him; it was everywhere, driving,
pounding on the doors of his being. Demanding that he give way, hammering a
single question over and over again until Darien thought he would go mad.
Who are you? his father screamed soundlessly, endlessly, beating about
all the entrances to Darien’s soul. There was nothing at all Darien could do.
Except keep him out.
And he did. Motionless, literally
paralyzed, he stood in the presence of the darkest god in all the worlds and
held Maugrim at bay. His own power was gone; he could do nothing, assert
nothing. He was as nothing in this place, except for
one single thing. He was strong enough, as none anywhere in any world had ever
been, to hold to his mind in Starkadh: to keep his secret.
He could hear the question being
screamed at him. It was the question he had come here to answer, to offer the
knowledge as a gift. But because it was being demanded in this way, because
Maugrim would strip it from him as a rag from a wound, leaving him raw and
naked beneath, Darien said no within his soul.
Exactly as his mother had done
within these halls. Though she had not been as strong. She was only mortal, if
a Queen, and in the end she had been broken.
Or, not quite. You will have nothing of me that you do not take,
she had said to Rakoth
Maugrim. And he had laughed and set about taking everything from her. But he
had not. She had been open to him, utterly. Maugrim had stripped and ravaged
her soul, and when he was done he had left her, a broken reed, to be enjoyed
and killed.
But she had not been broken. Somehow
there had been a spar left in her soul to which the memory of love still could
cling, and Kimberly had found her holding to that spar and had brought her out.
To bear the child who stood here
now, refusing to surrender his mind or his soul.
Rakoth could kill him, Darien knew,
as easily as he himself had killed the urgach or the swans. But there was
something—he wasn’t sure what, but there was something saved
from the wreckage of his life in this resistance.
And then, as the Worldloom shuttled
slowly about the axis of that chamber, with everything, all of time, suspended
as in a balance, Maugrim stopped the whirlwind of his assault, and Darien found
that he could move, if he wished to, and could speak.
Rakoth Maugrim said, aloud, “Not
even Galadan, Lord of the andain, could hold his mind against my will in this
place. There is nothing you can do to me. I can end your life in ten thousand
different ways even as we stand here. Speak, before you die. Who are you? Why
have you come?”
And so, Darien thought, dazed, there
was still a way, still a chance. He thought he could hear respect, of a kind.
He had proved himself.
He was very, very young, and he had
no guidance here at all, and had not had any since Finn had gone away. He had
been rejected by everyone and everything, even by the light he wore upon his
brow. Cernan of the Beasts had asked why he’d been allowed to live.
Manning the walls of his mind,
Darien whispered, “I have come to offer you a gift.” He held out the sheathed
dagger, hilt foremost.
And even as he did the hammer
descended again, in an unspeakable, shocking assault upon his mind, as if
Maugrim were a ravenous beast raging about fragile walls, bludgeoning away at
Darien’s soul, screaming in fury at being denied.
But denied he was, for a second
time. And for a second time he stopped. He was holding the dagger, now, and had
unsheathed it. He had come nearer to Darien. He was huge. He had no face. The
talons of his one hand caressed the blue-veined blade. He said:
“I have no need of gifts. Whatever I
want, from today to the end of time and beyond, I shall be able to take. Why
should I want a bauble of the treacherous Dwarves? What is a blade to me? You
have one thing only that I desire, and I shall have it before you die: I
want your name.”
Darien had come to tell him. To
offer all he was and might be so that someone, somewhere, might be glad of his
presence. He could speak now. He could move, and see.
He looked beyond Rakoth, out the
windows of that place, and he saw what the black swans saw far to the south. He
saw the battlefield, with such clarity that he could make out individual faces
fighting there. His father had no face. With a shock of recognition he saw
Lancelot, battling with blood all over his hand, swinging his sword at the side
of a grey-bearded man who wielded a spear that shone.
Behind them, a phalanx of men, some
mounted, some on foot, were struggling to hold their ground against stupefying
numbers of the Dark. Among them—and Darien had to blink to be sure that he saw
true—a man he knew gripped a rusty spear he remembered: Shahar, his other
father. Who had been so much away, but who had swung him in the air and held
him when he’d come home. He was not a fighter, Darien could see that, but he
labored in the wake of his leaders with a desperate determination.
The vision shifted—the eyes of
another swan—and he saw the lios alfar beleaguered in another part of the
field. He recognized one of them from the morning beneath the Summer Tree.
There was blood in the silver hair.
Yet another perspective: a ridge of
land this time, south of the battlefield. And on the ridge stood his mother.
Darien felt, suddenly, as if he could not breathe. He looked upon her, from so
impossibly far away, and he read the sorrow in her eyes, the awareness of doom
descending.
And he realized, a white fire
igniting in his heart, that he did not want her to die.
He did not want any of them to die:
not Lancelot, or Shahar, or the grey man with the spear, not the white-haired
Seer standing behind his mother. He was sharing their grief, he realized; it
was his own pain, it was the fire running through him. It was his. He was one of them.
He saw the innumerable loathsome
hordes descending upon the dwindling army of Light: the urgach, the svart
alfar, the slaugs, all the instruments of the Unraveller. They were foul. And
he hated them.
He stood there, looking down upon a
world of war, and he thought of Finn. In the end, here at the very end, it came
back to Finn. Who had said that Darien was to try to love everything except the
Dark.
He did. He was one of that besieged
army, the army of Light. Freely, uncoerced, he finally numbered himself among
them. His eyes were shining, and he knew that they were blue.
And so there, in that moment, in the
deepest stronghold of the Dark, Darien made his choice.
And Rakoth Maugrim laughed.
It was the laughter of a god, the
laughter that had resounded when Rangat had sent up the hand of fire. Darien
didn’t know about that. He hadn’t been born then. What he knew, terrified, was that
he’d given himself away.
The window of the chamber still
showed the high ridge of land above the battle. It showed his mother standing
there. And Rakoth had been watching as Darien looked upon her.
The laughter stopped. Maugrim
stepped very close. Darien couldn’t move. Slowly his father raised the stump of
his severed hand and held it over Darien’s head. The black drops of blood fell
and burned on Darien’s face. He couldn’t even scream.
Maugrim lowered his arm. He said,
“You need not tell me anything now. I know everything there is to know. You
thought to bring me a gift, a toy. You have done more. You have brought me back
my immortality. You are my gift!”
It was to have been so, once. But
not like this. And not now, not anymore! But Darien stood .there, frozen in his
place by the will of Rakoth Maugrim, and heard his father say, “You do not
understand, do you? They were all fools, fools beyond belief! I needed her
dead, that she might never bear a child. I must
not have a child! Did
none of them see? A child of my seed
binds me into time! It puts my name in the Tapestry, and I can die!”
And then came the laughter again,
brutal crescendos of triumph rolling over him in waves. When it ended, Maugrim
stood only inches away from Darien, looking down upon him from his awesome
height, from within the blackness of his hood.
He said, in a voice colder than
death, older than the spinning worlds, “You are that son. I know you now. And I
will do more than kill you. I will thrust your living soul out beyond the walls
of time. I will make it so that you have never been! You are in Starkadh, and
in this place I have the power to do that. Had you died outside these walls I
might have been lost. Not now. You are lost. You have never lived. I
will live forever, and all the worlds are mine today. All things in all the
worlds.”
There was nothing, nothing at all,
that Darien could do. He couldn’t even move, or speak. He could only listen and
hear the Unraveller say again, “All things in all the worlds, starting with
that toy of the lios that you wear. I know what it is. I would have it before I
blast your soul out of the Tapestry.”
He reached forth with his
mind—Darien felt it touch him again—to claim the Circlet as he had claimed the
dagger and take it unto himself.
And it came to pass in that moment
that the spirit of Lisen of the Wood, for whom that shining thing of Light had
been made so long ago, reached out from the far side of Night, from beyond
death, and performed her own last act of absolute renunciation of the Dark.
In that stronghold of evil, the
Circlet blazed. It flared with a light of sun and moon and stars, of hope and
world-spanning love, a light so pure, so dazzlingly incandescent, a light so
absolute that Rakoth Maugrim was blinded by the pain of it. He screamed in
agony. His hold on Darien broke, only for an instant.
Which was enough.
For in that instant, Darien did the
one thing, the only thing, that he could do to manifest the choice he’d made.
He took one step forward, the Circlet a glorious radiance on his brow,
rejecting him no longer. He took the last step on the Darkest Road, and he impaled himself upon the dagger his father held.
Upon Lokdal, Seithr’s gift to Colan
a thousand years ago. And Rakoth Maugrim, blinded by Lisen’s Light, mortal
because he’d fathered a son, killed that son with the Dagger of the dwarves,
and he killed without love in his heart.
Dying, Darien heard his father’s
last scream and knew it could be heard in every corner of Fionavar, in every
world spun into time by the Weaver’s hand: the sound that marked the passing of
Rakoth Maugrim.
Darien was lying on the floor. There
was a bright blade in his heart. With fading sight he looked out the high
window and saw that the fighting had stopped on the plain so far away. It
became harder to see. The window was trembling, and there was a blurring in
front of his eyes. The Circlet was still shining, though. He reached up and
touched it for the last time. The window began to shake even more violently,
and the floor of the room. A stone crashed from above. Another. All around him
Starkadh was beginning to crumble. It was falling away to nothingness in the
ruin of Maugrim’s fall.
He wondered if anyone would ever
understand what had happened. He hoped so. So that someone might come, in time,
to his mother and tell her of the choice he’d made. The choice of Light, and of
love.
It was true, he realized. He was
dying with love, killed by Lokdal. Flidais had told him what that part meant,
as well, the gift he might have been allowed to give.
But he’d marked no one’s forehead
with the pattern on the haft, and in any case, he thought, he would not have
wanted to burden any living creature with his soul.
It was almost his last thought. His
very last was of his brother, tossing him among the soft banks of snow when
he’d still been Dari, and Finn had still been there to love him and to teach
him just enough of love to carry him home to the Light.
Cfiajrter 17
Dave heard the last scream of Rakoth
Maugrim, and then he heard the screaming stop. There was a moment of silence,
of waiting, and then a great rumbling avalanche of sound rolled down upon them
from far in the north. He knew what that was. They all did. There were tears of
joy in his eyes, they were pouring down his face, he couldn’t stop them. He
didn’t want to stop them.
And suddenly it was easy. He felt as
if a weight had been stripped away from him, a weight he hadn’t even known he
was bearing—a burden he seemed to have carried from the moment he’d been born
into time. He, and everyone else, cast forth into worlds that lay under the
shadow of the Dark.
But Rakoth Maugrim was dead. Dave
didn’t know how, but he knew it was true. He looked at Tore and saw a wide,
helpless smile spreading across the other man’s face. He had never seen Tore
look like that. And suddenly Dave laughed aloud on the battlefield, for the
sheer joy of being alive in that moment.
In front of them the svart alfar
broke and ran. The urgach milled about in disorganized confusion. Slaug crashed
into each other, grunting with fear. Then they, too, turned from the army of
Light and began to flee to the north. Which was no haven anymore. They would be
hunted and found, Dave knew. They would be destroyed. Already, the Dalrei and
the lios alfar were racing after them. For the first time in that long terrible
day, Dave heard the lios begin to sing, and his heart swelled as if it would
burst to hear the glory of their song.
Only the wolves held firm for a
time, on the western flank. But they were alone now, and outnumbered, and the
warriors of Brennin led by Arthur Pendragon on his raithen, wielding the
shining King Spear as if it were the Light itself, were cutting through them
like sickles through a field of harvest grain.
Dave and Tore, laughing, crying,
thundered after the urgach and the svart alfar. Sorcha was with them, riding
beside his son. The slaug should have been faster than their horses, but they
weren’t. The six-legged monsters seemed to have become feeble and purposeless.
They stumbled, careened in all directions, threw their riders, fell. It was
easy now, it was glorious. The lios alfar were singing all around, and the
setting sun shone down upon them from a cloudless summer sky.
“Where’s Ivor?” Tore shouted
suddenly. “And Levon?”
Dave felt a quick spasm of fear, but
then it passed. He knew where they would be. He pulled up his horse, and the
other two did the same. They rode back across the bloodied plain strewn with
the bodies of the dying and the dead, back to the ridge of land south of the
battlefield. From a long distance away they could see the Aven kneeling beside
a body that would be his youngest son. They dismounted and walked up the ridge
in the late afternoon light. A serenity seemed to have gathered about that
place.
Levon saw them. “He’ll be all
right,” he said, walking over. Dave nodded, then he reached out and pulled
Levon to him in a fierce embrace.
Ivor looked up. He released Tabor’s
hand and came over to where they stood. There was a brightness in his eyes,
shining through his weariness. “He will be all right,” he echoed. “Thanks to
the mage and to Arthur he will be all right.”
“And to Pwyll,” said Teyrnon
quietly. “He was the one who guessed. I would never have caught him, without
that warning.”
Dave looked for Paul and saw him
standing a little way apart from everyone else, farther along the ridge. Even now, he thought. He considered walking
over but was reluctant to intrude. There was something very self-contained,
very private about Paul in that moment.
“What happened?” someone said. Dave
looked down. It was Mabon of Rhoden, lying on a makeshift pallet not far away.
The Duke smiled at him and winked. Then he repeated, “Does anyone know exactly
what happened?”
Dave saw Jennifer coming toward
them. There was a gentle radiance in her face, but it did not hide the deeper
well of sorrow in her eyes. Before anyone spoke, Dave had an unexpected glimmer
of understanding.
“It was Darien,” said Kim,
approaching as well. “But I don’t know how. I wish I did.”
“So do I,” said Teyrnon. “But I
could not see far enough to know what happened there.”
“I did, ” said a third
voice, very gently, very clearly.
They all turned to Gereint. And it
was the old blind shaman of the Plain who gave voice to Darien’s dying wish.
In the soft light and the deeply
woven peace that had come, he said, “I thought there might be a reason for me
to fly with Tabor. This was it. I could not fight in battle, but I was far
enough north, standing here, to send my awareness into Starkadh.”
He paused, and asked gently, “Where
is the Queen?”
Dave was confused for a second, but
Jennifer said, “Here I am, shaman.”
Gereint turned to the sound of her
voice. He said, “He is dead, my lady. I am sorry to say that the child is dead.
But through the gift of my blindness I saw what he did. He chose for the Light
at the last. The Circlet of Lisen blazed on his brow, and he threw himself upon
a blade and died in such a way that Maugrim died with him.”
“Lokdal!”
Kim exclaimed. “Of
course. Rakoth killed without love, and so he died! Oh, Jen. You were right
after all. You were so terribly right.” She was crying, and Dave saw that
Jennifer Lowell, who was Guinevere, was weeping now as well, though silently.
In mourning for her child, who had
taken the Darkest Road and had come at last to the end of it, alone, and so far
away.
Dave saw Jaelle, the High Priestess,
no longer so coldly arrogant—it showed even in the way she moved—walk over to
comfort Jennifer, to gather her in her arms.
There were so many tilings warring
for a place in his heart: joy and weariness, deep sorrow, pain, an infinite
relief. He turned and walked down the slope of the ridge.
He picked his way along the southern
edge of what had been, so little time ago, the battlefield whereon the Light
was to have been lost, and would have been, were it not for Jennifer’s child.
Guinevere’s child.
He was wounded in many places, and
exhaustion was slowly catching up to him. He thought of his father, for the
second time that day, standing there on the edge of the battle plain, looking
out upon the dead.
But one of them was not dead.
Would the old estrangement never
leave him? Paul was wondering. Even here? Even now, in the moment when the
towers of Darkness fell? Would he always feel this way?
And the answer that came back to him
within his mind was in the form of another question: What right had he even to ask?
He was alive by sufferance of
Mórnir. He had gone to the Summer Tree to die, named surrogate by the old King,
Ailell. Who had told him about the price of power during a chess game that
seemed centuries ago.
He had gone to die but had been sent
back. He was still alive: Twiceborn. He was Lord of the Summer Tree, and there was a price to power. He was marked, named to be apart. And in this moment,
while all around him quiet joy and quiet sorrow melded with each other, Paul
was vibrating with the presence of his power in a way he never had before.
There was another thing left to
happen. Something was coming. Not the war; Kim had been right about that, as
she had been right about so many things. His was not a power of
war, it never had been. He had been trying hard to make it so, to find a way to
use it, channel it into battle. But from the very beginning what he’d had was a
strength of resistance, of opposition, denial of the Dark. He was a defense,
not a weapon of attack. He was the symbol of the God, an affirmation of life in
his very existence, his being alive.
He had not felt the cold of
Maugrim’s winter, walking coatless in a wild night. Later, his had been the
warning of the Soulmonger at sea, the cry that had brought Liranan to their
defense. And then again, a second time, to save their lives upon the rocks of
the Anor’s bay. He was the presence of life, the sap of the Summer Tree rising
from the green earth to drink the rain of the sky and greet the sun.
And within him now, with the war
over, Maugrim dead, the sap was beginning to run. There was a trembling in his
hands, an awareness of growth, of something building, deep and very strong. The
pulsebeat of the God, which was his own.
He looked down on the quiet plain.
To the north and west, Aileron the High King was riding back, with Arthur on
one side and Lancelot on the other. The setting sun was behind the three of
them, and there were coronas of light in their hair.
These were the figures of battle, Paul thought: the warriors in the service
of Macha and Nemain, the goddesses of war. Just as Kimberly had been, with the
summoning Baelrath on her hand, as Tabor and his shining mount had been, his
gift of Dana born of the red full moon. As even Dave Martyniuk was, with his
towering passion in battle, with Ceinwen’s gift at his side.
Ceinwen’s gift.
Paul was quick. All his life he had
had an intuitive ability to make connections that others would never even see.
He was turning, even as the thought flared in his mind like a brand. He was
turning, looking for Dave, a cry forming on his lips. He was almost, almost in
time.
So, too, was Dave. When the
half-buried feral figure leaped from the pile of bodies, Dave’s reflexes
overrode his weariness. He spun, his hands going up to defend himself. Had the
figure been thrusting for his heart or throat, Dave would have turned him back.
But his assailant was not looking to
take his life, not yet. A hand flashed out, precise, unerring, at this last
supreme moment, a hand that reached for Dave’s side, not for his heart or
throat. That reached for and found the key to what it had so long sought.
There was a tearing sound as a cord
ripped. Dave heard Paul Schafer cry out up on the ridge. He clawed for his axe,
but it was too late. It was much too late.
Rising gracefully from a rolling
fall ten feet away, Galadan stood under the westering sun on the bloodied
ground of Andarien, and he held Owein’s Horn in his hand.
And then the Wolflord of the andain,
who had dreamt a dream for so many years, who had followed a never-ending
quest—not for power, not for lordship over anyone or anything, but for pure
annihilation, for the ending of all things—blew that mighty horn with all the power
of his bitter soul and summoned Owein and the Wild Hunt to the ending of the
world.
Kim heard Paul shout his warning,
and then, in that same moment, all other sounds seemed to cease, and she heard
the horn for the second time.
Its sound was Light, she remembered
that. It could not be heard by the agents of the Dark. It had been moonlight on
snow and frosty, distant stars the night Dave had sounded it before the cave to
free the Hunt.
It was different now. Galadan was
sounding it: Galadan, who had lived a thousand years in lonely, arrogant
bitterness, after Lisen had rejected him and died. Tool of Maugrim, but seeking
ever to further his own design, his one unvarying design.
The sound of the horn as he sent his
soul into it was the light of grieving candles in a shadowed, hollow place; it
was a half-moon riding through cold, windblown clouds; it was torches seen
passing far off in a dark wood, passing but never coming near to warm with
their glow; it was a bleak sunrise on a wintry beach; the pale, haunted light
of glowworms in the mists of Llychlyn Marsh; it was all lights that did not
warm or comfort, that only told a tale of shelter somewhere else, for someone
else.
Then the sound ended, and the images
faded.
Galadan lowered the horn. There was
a dazed expression on his face. He said, incredulously, “I heard it. How did I
hear Owein’s Horn?”
No one answered him. No one spoke.
They looked to the sky overhead. And in the moment Owein was there, and the
shadowy kings of the Wild Hunt, and before them all, unsheathing a deadly sword
with the rest of them, rode the child on pale Iselen. The child that
had been Finn dan Shahar.
And who now was death.
They heard Owein cry in wild, chaotic ecstasy. They heard the moaning
of the seven kings. They saw them weave like smoke across the light of the sun.
“Owein,
hold!” cried
Arthur Pendragon, with all the ringing command his voice could carry.
But Owein circled over his head and
laughed. “You cannot bind me, Warrior! We are free, we have the child, it is
time for the Hunt to ride!”
And already the kings were swooping
down, wildly destructive, invulnerable, the random thread of chaos in the
Tapestry. Already it seemed their swords were shining with blood. They would
ride forever and kill until there was nothing left to kill.
But even in that moment, Kim saw
them falter, rein in their plunging, smoky steeds. She heard them lift their
ghostly voices in wailing confusion.
And she saw that the child was not
with them in their descent. Finn seemed to be in pain, in distress, his pale
horse plunging and rearing in the reddening light of the sunset. He was
shouting something. Kim couldn’t make it out. She didn’t understand.
In the Temple, Leila screamed. She
heard the sound of the horn. It exploded in her brain. She could hardly form a
thought. But then she understood. And she screamed again in anguish, as the
connection was made once more.
Suddenly she could see the battle
plain. She was in the sky over Andarien. Jaelle was on the ridge of land below,
with the High King, Guinevere, all of them. But it was to the sky she looked,
and she saw the Hunt appear: Owein, and the deadly kings, and the child, who
was Finn, whom she loved.
She screamed a third time, aloud in
the Temple, and at the summit of her mind voice in the sky far to the north:
Finn no! Come away! It is Leila. Do not kill
them! Come away!
She saw him hesitate and turn to
her. There was white pain, a splintering all through her mind. She felt
shredded into fragments. He looked at her, and she could read the distance in
his eyes, how far away he was—how far beyond her reach.
Too far. He did not even reply. He turned away. She heard Owein
mock the Warrior, saw the sky kings draw their burning swords. There was fire
all around her; there was blood in the sky, on the Temple walls. Finn’s shadowy
white horse bared teeth at her and carried Finn away. Leila tore desperately
free of whoever was holding her. Shalhassan of Cathal staggered back. He saw
her stride, stumble, almost fall. She righted herself, reached the altar,
claimed the axe.
“In the name of the Goddess, no!”
one of the priestesses cried in horror, a hand before her mouth.
Leila did not hear her. She was
screaming, and far away. She lifted Dana’s axe, which only the High Priestess
could lift. She raised that thing of power high over her head and brought it
crashing, thundering, echoing down upon the altar stone. And as she did she
cried out again, building with the power of the axe, the power of Dana,
climbing on top of them as upon a mighty wall to hurl the mind command:
Finn, I command you. In the name of Dana, in the name
of Light! Come away! Come to me now in Paras Derval!
She dropped to her knees in the
Temple, letting the axe fall. In the sky over Andarien she watched. She had
nothing left; she was empty, a shell. If this was not enough it had all been
waste, all bitterest waste.
Finn turned. He pulled his plunging
horse, fought her around to face Leila’s disembodied spirit again. The horse
reared in enraged resistance. She was all smoke and fire. She wanted blood.
Finn clutched the reins with both hands, battling her to a standstill in the
air. He looked at Leila, and she saw that he knew her now, that he had come
back far enough to know.
So she said, softly, over the mind
link they had shared, with no power left in her, only sorrow, only love, Oh, Finn, please come away. Please come back to me.
She saw his smoky,
shadowy eyes widen then, in a way that she remembered from before, from what he
once had been. And then, just before she fainted, she thought she heard his
voice in her mind saying one thing only, but the only thing that mattered: her
name.
There wasn’t even the tracest
flicker in her ring, and Kim knew that there wouldn’t be. She was powerless,
empty of all save pity and grief, which didn’t count for anything. A part of
her mind was savagely, despairingly aware that it was she who had released the
Hunt to ride, on that night at the edge of Pendaran. How had she not seen what
would come?
And yet, she also knew, without
Owein’s intercession by the Adein River, the lios and the Dalrei would all have
died. She would never have had time to reach the Dwarves. Aileron and the men
of Brennin, fighting alone, would have been torn apart. Prydwen would have returned from Cader Sedat to find the war lost
and Rakoth Maugrim triumphant.
Owein had saved them then. To
destroy them now, it seemed.
So went her thoughts in the moment
Finn pulled his white horse away from the others in the sky and began to guide
her south. Kim put her hands to her mouth; she heard Jaelle whisper something
on a taken breath. She couldn’t hear what it was.
She did hear Owein cry aloud,
shouting after Finn. The sky kings wailed. Finn was fighting his horse, which
had reacted to Owein’s cry. The horse was thrashing and bucking in the high
reaches of the air, lashing out with her hooves. But Finn held firm; rocking on
the horse’s back, he sawed at the reins, forcing her southward, away from the
kings, from Owein, from the blood of the coming hunt. Again Jaelle murmured
something, and there was heart’s pain in the sound.
Finn kicked at his balking horse.
She screamed with defiant rage. The wailing of the kings was like the howling
of a winter storm. They were smoke and mist, they had fiery swords, they were
death in the reddening sky.
Then the wailing changed. Everything
changed. Kim cried aloud, in helpless horror and pity. For in the distance,
west, toward the setting sun, Iselen threw her rider, as Imraith-Nimphais had
thrown hers, but not out of love. And Finn dan Shahar, flung free from a great
height, shadow and smoke no longer, becoming a boy again, mortal, even as he
fell, regaining his shape, recaptured by it, crashed headlong to the plain of
Andarien and lay there, very still.
No one broke this fall. Kim watched
him plummet to the earth and saw him lying there, crumpled, and she had a
vivid, aching memory of the winter night by Pendaran Wood when the wandering
fire she carried had woken the Wild Hunt.
Do not frighten her. I am here,
Finn had said to Owein,
who had been looming over Kim on his black horse. And Finn had come forward,
and had mounted up upon pale white Iselen among the kings and had changed, had
become smoke and shadow himself. The child at the head of the Hunt.
No more. He was no longer Iselen’s
rider in the sky, sweeping between the stars. He was mortal again, and fallen,
and very probably dead.
But his fall meant something, or it might mean something. The Seer in Kim seized upon an image, and she stepped
forward to give it voice.
Loren was before her, though, with the same awareness. Holding
Amairgen’s staff high in the air, he looked up at Owein and the seven kings.
The kings were moaning aloud, the same words over and over, and the sound of
their voices whistled like wind over Andarien.
“Iselen’s
rider’s lost!” the
Wild Hunt cried in fear and despair, and for all her sorrow, Kim felt a
quickening of hope as Loren cast his own voice over the sound of the kings in
the air.
“Owein!” he cried. “The child is
lost again, you cannot ride. You cannot hunt along the reaches of the sky!”
Behind Owein and his black horse the kings of the Wild Hunt were wheeling and
circling in frenzy. But Owein held black Cargail motionless over Loren’s head,
and when he spoke his voice was cold and pitiless. “It is not so,” he said. “We
are free. We have been summoned to power by power. There is none here who can
master us! We will ride and slake our loss in blood!”
He lifted his sword, and its blade
was red in the light, and he made wild Cargail to rear back high above them,
black as night. The wailing of the kings changed from grief to rage. They
ceased their frightened circling in the sky and drew their own grey horses into
place behind Cargail.
And so it was all meaningless,
Kim thought. She looked
from the Hunt away to the twisted body of Finn, where it lay crumpled on the
earth. It had not been enough. His fall, Darien’s, Diarmuid’s, Kevin’s death,
Rakoth’s overthrow. None of it had been enough, and it was Galadan, here at the
last, who would have his long desire. White Iselen, riderless, flashed in the
sky behind the riders of the Hunt. Eight swords swung free, nine horses lashed
out with their hooves, as the Hunt readied itself to ride through sunset into
the dark.
“Listen!” cried Brendel of the lios alfar.
And even as he spoke, Kim heard the
sound of singing coming over the stony ground from behind them. Even before she
turned she knew who it had to be, for she knew that voice.
Over the ruined plain of Andarien,
covering ground with huge, giant strides, came Ruana of the Paraiko to bind the
Wild Hunt as Connla had bound them long ago.
Owein slowly lowered his sword.
Behind him the kings fell silent in the sky. And in that silence they all heard
the words Ruana sang as he came near:
“The flame will wake from sleep,
The Kings the horn will call,
But though they answer from the deep
You may never hold in thrall
Those who ride from Owein’s Keep
With a child before them all.”
Then he was among them, chanting
still in the deep, tuneless voice. He strode to the forefront of the ridge,
past where Loren stood, and he stopped, looking up at Owein, and his chanting
ceased.
Then, in the wide silence, Ruana
cried, “Sky King, sheath your sword! I put my will upon you! And I am one whose
will you must obey. I am heir to Connla, who bound you to your sleep by the
words you have heard me chanting, even now.”
Owein stirred. He said defiantly,
“We have been summoned. We are free!”
“And I shall bind you back!” Ruana
replied, deep and sure. “Connla is dead, but the power of his binding lives in
me, for the Paraiko have never yet killed. And though we are changed now and
forever changed, that much of what we were I still command. You were only
released from your long sleep by the coming of the child. The child is lost,
Owein. Lost as he was lost before, when Connla first laid you to rest. I say it
again: sheath your swords! By the power
of Connla’s spell, I put my will upon you!”
For one moment, a moment as charged
with power as any since the worlds were spun, Owein was motionless in the air
above them. Then slowly, very slowly, his hand came down, and he laid his sword
to rest in the scabbard at his side. With a cold, sighing sound, the seven
kings did the same.
Owein looked down upon Ruana and he
said, half demanding, half in plea, “It is not forever?”
And Ruana said quietly, “It cannot
be forever, my lord Owein, neither by Connla’s spell nor by your place in the
Tapestry. The Hunt will always be a part of the Weaver’s worlds—all of them.
You are the randomness that makes us free. But only in binding you to sleep can
we live. To sleep only, Sky King. You will ride again, you and the seven kings
of the Hunt, and there will be another child before the end of days. Where we
will be, we children of the Weaver’s hand, I know not, but I tell you now, and
I tell you true, all the worlds will be yours again, as once they were, before
the Tapestry is done.”
His deep voice carried the cadences
of prophecy, of truth that had mastered time. He said, “But for now, here in
this place, you are subject to my will because the child is lost again.”
“Only because of that,” said Owein,
with a bitterness that cut through the air as keenly as his unsheathed blade
might have done.
“Only because of that,” Ruana agreed
gravely. And Kim knew then how narrow had been their escape. She looked to
where Finn had fallen and saw that a man had gone over to that place and was
kneeling beside the boy. She didn’t know, at first, who it was, and then she
guessed.
Owein spoke again, and now the
bitterness was gone, replaced by a quiet resignation. He said, “Do we go to the
cave again, Connla’s heir?”
“Even so,” Ruana replied from the
ridge, looking up into the sky. “You are to go there and lay you down upon your
stone beds again, you and the seven kings. And I will follow to that place, and
weave Connla’s spell a second time to bind you to your sleep.”
Owein lifted his hand. For a moment
he remained so, a grey shadow on a black horse, the red jewels in his crown
gleaming in the sunset. Then he bowed to Ruana, bound to the Giant’s will by
what Finn had done, and lowered his hand.
And suddenly the Wild Hunt was
flashing away, south toward a cave at the edge of Pendaran Wood, near to a tree
forked by lightning thousands and thousands of years ago.
Last of them all, riderless, Iselen
flew, her white tail streaming behind her like a comet, visible even after the
horses of the kings were lost to sight.
Dazed by the intensity of what had
just happened, Kim saw Jaelle going swiftly along the ridge to where Finn lay.
Paul Schafer said something crisply to Aileron and then set out after the High
Priestess.
Kim turned away from them and looked
up, a long way up, at Ruana’s face. His eyes were as she remembered: deeply,
quietly compassionate. He gazed down upon her, waiting.
She said, “Ruana, how did you come
in time? So narrowly in time?”
He shook his head slowly. “I have
been here since the Dragon came. I have been watching from behind—I would not
come nearer to war than that. But when Starkadh fell, when the war was over and
the Wolflord blew the horn, I realized what had drawn me here.”
“What, Ruana? What drew you here?”
“Seer, what you did in Khath Meigol
changed us forever. As I watched my people set out for Eridu, it came to me that
the Baelrath is a power of war, a summons to battle—and that we would not have
been undone by it as we had been only to journey east, away from war, to the
cleansing of the raindead, necessary as that might be. I did not think it was
enough.”
Kim said nothing. There was a
tightness in her throat. Ruana said, “And so I took it upon myself to come west
instead of east. To journey to wherever the war might be and so to see if there
was a truer part the Paraiko should play in what was to come. Something drove
me from within. There was anger in me, Seer, and there was hatred of Maugrim,
and neither of those had I ever felt before.”
“I know that,” Kim said. “I grieve
for it, Ruana.” Again he shook his head. “Grieve not. The price of our sanctity
would have been the Wild Hunt riding free, and the deaths of all living peoples
gathered here. It was time, Seer of Brennin, past tune, for the Paraiko to be
truly numbered among the army of Light.” “I am forgiven, then?” she asked in a
small voice. “You were forgiven in the kanior.” She remembered: the ghostly
images of Kevin and Ysanne moving among all the thronging dead of the Paraiko,
honored among them, reclaimed with them by the deep spell of Ruana’s song. She
nodded. “I know,” she said. Around the two of them there was silence. Kim
looked up at the grave, white-haired Giant. “You will have to go now? To follow
them to the cave?”
“Soon,” he replied. “But there is
something yet to happen here, I think, and I will stay to see.”
And with his words a dormant
awareness came back to life within Kimberly as well. She looked past Ruana and
saw Galadan on the plain, ringed about by a great many men, most of whom she
knew. They had swords drawn, and arrows trained on the Wolflord’s heart, but
not one of them moved or spoke, nor did Galadan. Near to the circle, Arthur
stood, with Guinevere and Lancelot. Off to the east, Paul Schafer, for whom
they were waiting, at the High King’s command, knelt by the body of Finn dan
Shahar.
When Leila lifted the axe, Jaelle
knew it. How could the High Priestess not know? It was the deepest sacrilege
there was. And somehow it didn’t surprise her at all.
She heard—every priestess in
Fionavar heard—when Leila slammed the axe down on the altar stone and ringingly
commanded Finn to come to her, a command sourced in the blood power of Dana’s
axe. And Jaelle had seen the shadowy figure of the boy on his pale horse in the
sky begin to ride away, and she saw him fall.
Then the lone Paraiko came among
them, and he put the binding of Connla’s spell upon the Hunt, and Jaelle saw
them flash away to the south.
Only when they were gone did she let
herself go west to where Finn lay. She walked at first, but then began to run,
wanting, for Leila’s sake, to be in time. She felt the circlet that held back
her hair slip off; she didn’t stop to pick it up. And as she ran, her hair
blowing free, she was remembering the last time this link had been forged, when
Leila in the Temple had heard Green Ceinwen turn back the Hunt by the bloodied
banks of the Adein.
Jaelle remembered the words she
herself had spoken then, spoken in the voice of the Goddess: There is a death in it, she had said, knowing it was true.
She came to the place where he lay.
His father was there already. She remembered Shahar, from when he had been home
from war in the months after Darien was born, while the priestesses of Dana,
privy to the secret, had helped Vae care for her new child.
He was sitting on the ground with
his son’s head in his lap. Over and over, his callused hands were stroking the
boy’s forehead. He looked up without speaking at Jaelle’s approach. Finn lay
motionless, his eyes closed.
He was mortal again, she saw. He
looked as he had back in the days of the children’s game, the ta’kiena on the
green at the end of Anvil Lane. When Leila, blindfolded, had called him to the
Longest Road.
Someone else came. Jaelle looked
over her shoulder and saw that it was Pwyll.
He handed her the silver circlet.
Neither of them spoke. They looked down at father and son and then knelt on the
stony ground beside the fallen boy.
He was dying. His breath was shallow
and difficult, and there was blood at the corners of his mouth. Jaelle lifted
an edge of her sleeve and wiped the blood away.
Finn opened his eyes at the touch.
She saw that he knew her. She saw him ask a question without words.
Very carefully, speaking as clearly
as she could, Jaelle said, “The Hunt has gone. One of the Paraiko came, and he
bound them back to the cave by the spell that laid them there.”
She saw him nod. It seemed that he
understood. He would understand, Jaelle realized. He had
been one with the Wild Hunt. But now he was only a boy again, with his head in
his father’s lap, and dying where he lay.
His eyes were still open, though. He
said, so softly, she had to bend close to hear, “What I did was all right,
then?”
She heard Shahar make a small sound
deep in his chest. Through her own tears, she said, “It was more than all
right, Finn. You did everything right. Every single thing, from the very
beginning.”
She saw him smile. There was blood
again, and once more she wiped it away with the sleeve of her robe. He coughed,
and said, “She didn’t mean to throw me, you know.” It took Jaelle a moment to
realize that he was talking about his horse. “She was afraid,” Finn said. “She
wasn’t used to flying so far from the others. She was only afraid.”
“Oh, child,” Shahar said huskily.
“Spare your strength.”
Finn reached up for his father’s
hand. His eyes closed and his breathing slowed. Jaelle’s tears followed one
another down her cheeks. Then Finn opened his eyes again.
Looking directly at her, he
whispered, “Will you tell Leila I heard her? That I was coming?”
Jaelle nodded, half blind. “I think
she knows. But I will tell her, Finn.”
He smiled at that. There was a great
deal of pain in his brown eyes, but there was also a quiet peace. He was silent
for a long time, having little strength left in him, but then he had one more
question, and the High Priestess knew it was the last, because he meant it to
be.
“Dari?”
he asked.
She found that this time she couldn’t even answer. Her throat had
closed completely around this grief.
It was Pwyll who spoke. He said,
with infinite compassion, “He too did everything right, Finn. Everything. He is
gone, but he killed Rakoth Maugrim before he died.”
Finn’s eyes widened at that, for the
last time. There was joy in them, and a grieving pain, but at the end there was
peace again, without border or limitation, just before the dark.
“Oh, little one,” he said. And then
he died, holding his father’s hand.
There was a legend that took shape
in after days, a tale that grew, perhaps, because so many of those who lived
through that time wanted it to be true. A tale of how Darien’s soul, which had
taken flight some time before his brother’s, was allowed by intercession to
pause in the timelessness between the stars and wait for Finn to catch up to
him.
And then the story told of how the
two of them passed together over the walls of Night that lie all about the
living worlds, toward the brightness of the Weaver’s Halls. And Darien’s soul
was in the shape he’d had when he was small, when he was Dari, and the eyes of
his soul were blue and Finn’s were brown as they went side by side toward the Light.
So the legend went, afterward, born
of sorrow and heart’s desire. But Jaelle, the High Priestess, rose that day
from Finn’s side, and she saw that the westering sun had carried the afternoon
well over toward twilight.
Then Pwyll also rose, and Jaelle looked
upon his face and saw power written there so deeply and so clearly that she was
afraid.
And it was as the Lord of the Summer
Tree, the Twiceborn of Mórnir, that he spoke. “With all the griefs and joys of
this day,” Pwyll said, seeming almost to be looking through her, “there is one
thing left to be done, and it is mine to do, I think.”
He walked past her, slowly, and she
turned and saw, by the light of the setting sun, that everyone was gathered on
the plain about the figure of Galadan. They were motionless, like statues, or
figures caught in time.
Leaving Shahar alone with his son
she followed after Pwyll, carrying her silver circlet in her hand. Above her
head as she walked down to the plain she heard the quick, invisible wings of
his ravens, Thought and Memory. She didn’t know what he was about to do, but in
that moment she knew another thing, a truth in the depths of her own heart, as
she saw the circle of men make way for Pwyll to pass within, facing the
Wolflord of the andain.
Standing beside Loren, with Ruana at
her other side, Kim watched Paul walk into the circle, and she had a sudden
curious mental image—gone as soon as it came to her— of Kevin Laine, laughing
carelessly in Convocation Hall before anything had happened. Anything at all.
It was very quiet in Andarien. In
the red of the setting sun the faces of those assembled glowed with a strange
light. The breeze was very soft, from the west. All around them lay the dead.
In the midst of the living, Paul
Schafer faced Galadan and he said, “We meet for the third time, as I promised
you we would. I told you in my own world that the third time would pay for
all.”
His voice was level and low, but it
carried an infinite authority. To this hour, Kim saw, Paul had brought all of
his own driven intensity, and added to that, now, was what he had become in
Fionavar. Especially since the war was over. Because she had been right: his
was not a power of battle. It was something else, and it had
risen within him now.
He said, “Wolflord, I can see in any
darkness you might shape and shatter any blade you could try to throw. I think
you know that this is true.”
Galadan stood quietly, attending to
him carefully. His scarred, aristocratic head was high; the slash of silver in
his black hair gleamed in the waning light. Owein’s Horn lay at his feet like
some discarded toy.
He said, “I have no blades left to
throw. It might have been different had the dog not saved you on the Tree, but
I have nothing left now, Twiceborn. The long cast is over.”
Kim heard and tried not to be moved
by the weariness of centuries that lay buried in his voice.
Galadan turned, and it was to Ruana
that he spoke. “For more years than I can remember,” he said gravely, “the
Paraiko of Khath Meigol have troubled my dreams. In my sleep the shadows of the
Giants always fell across the image of my desire. Now I know why. It was a deep
spell Connla wove so long ago, that its binding could still hold the Hunt
today.”
He bowed, without any visible irony,
to Ruana, who looked back at him unblinking, saying nothing. Waiting.
Once more Galadan turned to Paul,
and a second time he repeated, “It is over. I have nothing left. If you had
hopes of a confrontation, now that you have come into your power, I am sorry to
disappoint you. I will be grateful for whatever end you make of me. As things
have fallen out, it might as well have come a very long time ago. I might as
well have also leaped from the Tower.”
It was upon them, Kim knew. She bit
her lip as Paul said, quietly, completely in control, “It need not be over,
Galadan. You heard Owein’s Horn. Nothing truly evil can hear the horn. Will you
not let that truth lead you back?”
There was a murmur of sound, quickly
stilled. Galadan had suddenly gone white.
“I heard the horn,” he admitted, as
if against his will. “I know not why. How should I come back, Twiceborn? Where
could I go?”
Paul did not speak. He only raised
one hand and pointed to the southeast.
There, far off on the ridge, a god
was standing, naked and magnificent. The rays of the setting sun slanted low
across the land and his body glowed red and bronze in that light, and there was
a shining brightness to the branching tines of the horns upon his head.
The stag horns of Cernan.
Only an act of will, Kim realized,
kept Galadan steady on his feet when he saw that his father had come. There was
no color in his face at all.
Paul said, absolute master of the
moment, voice of the God, “I can grant you the ending you seek, and I will, if
you ask me again. But hear me first, Lord of the andain.”
He paused a moment and then, not
without gentleness, said, “Lisen has been dead this thousand years, but only
today, when her Circlet blazed to the undoing of Maugrim, did her spirit pass
to its rest. So too has Amairgen’s soul now been released from wandering at
sea. Two sides of the triangle, Galadan. They are gone, finally, truly gone.
But you live yet, and for all that you have done in bitterness and pride, you
still heard the sound of Light in Owein’s Horn. Will you not surrender your
pain, Lord of the andain? Give it over. Today has marked the very ending of
that tale of sorrow. Will you not let it
end? You heard the
horn—there is a way back for you on this side of
Night. Your father has come to be your guide. Will you not let him take you
away and heal you and bring you back?”
In the stillness, the clear words
seemed to fall like drops of the life-giving rain Paul had bought with his body
on the Tree. One after another, gentle as rain, drop by shining drop.
Then he was silent, having forsworn
the vengeance he had claimed so long ago—and claimed a second time in the
presence of Cernan by the Summer Tree on Midsummer’s Eve.
The sun was very low. It hung like a
weight in a scale far in the west. Something moved in Galadan’s face, a spasm
of ancient, unspeakable, never-spoken pain. His hands came up, as if of their
own will, from his sides, and he cried aloud, “If only she had loved me! I might have shone so bright!”
Then he covered his face with his
fingers and wept for the first and only time in a thousand years of loss.
He wept for a long time. Paul did
not move or speak. But then, from beside Kim, Ruana suddenly began, deep and
low in his chest, a slow, sad chanting of lament. A moment later, with a
shiver, Kim heard Ra-Tenniel, Lord of the lios alfar, lift his glorious voice
in clear harmony, delicate as a chime in the evening wind.
And so the two of them made music in
that place. For Lisen and Amairgen, for Finn and Darien, for Diarmuid dan
Ailell, for all the dead gathered there and all the dead beyond, and for the first-fallen
tears of the Lord of the andain, who had served the Dark so long in his pride
and bitter pain.
At length Galadan looked up. The
singing stopped. His eyes were hollows, dark as Gereint’s. He faced Paul for
the last time, and he said, “You would truly do this? Let me go from here?”
“I would,” said Paul, and not a
person standing there spoke to gainsay his right to do so.
“Why?”
“Because you heard the horn.” Paul
hesitated, then: “And because of another thing. When you first came to kill me
on the Summer Tree you said something. Do you remember?”
Galadan nodded slowly.
“You said I was almost one of you,”
Paul went on quietly, with compassion. “You were wrong, Wolflord. The truth is,
you were almost one of us, but you didn’t know it then. You had put it too far
behind you. Now you know, you have remembered. There has been more than enough
killing today. Go home, unquiet spirit, and find healing. Then come back among
us with the blessing of what you always should have been.”
Galadan’s hands were quiet at his
sides again. He listened, absorbing every word. Then he nodded his head, once.
Very gracefully, he bowed to Paul, as his father once had done, and moving
slowly he walked from the ring of men.
They made way for him on either
side. Kim watched him ascend the slope and then walk south and east along the
higher ground until he came to where his father stood. The evening sun was upon
them both. By its light she saw Cernan open wide his arms and gather his
broken, wayward child to his breast.
One moment they stood thus; then
there seemed to Kim to be a sudden flaw of light upon the ridge, and they were
gone. She looked away, to the west, and saw that Shahar, only a silhouette now
against the light, was still sitting on the stony ground with Finn’s head
cradled in his lap.
Her heart felt too large for her
breast. There was so much glory and so much pain, all interwoven together and
never to be untied, she feared. It was over, though. With this there had to
have come an ending.
Then she turned back to Paul and
realized that she was wrong, completely wrong. She looked at him, and she saw
where his own gaze fell, and so she looked as well, at last, to where Arthur
Pendragon had been standing quietly all this time.
Guinevere was beside him. Her
beauty, the simplicity of it, was so great in that moment, that Kim found it
hard to look upon her face. Next to her, but a little way apart and a little
way behind, Lancelot du Lac leaned upon his sword, bleeding from more wounds
than Kim could number. His mild eyes were clear, though, and grave, and he
managed to smile when he saw her looking at him. A smile so gentle, from one
unmatched of any man, living or dead or ever to come, that Kim thought it might
break her heart.
She looked at the three of them
standing together in the twilight, and half a hundred thoughts went through her
mind. She turned back to Paul and saw that there was now a kind of shining to
him in the dark. All thoughts went from her. Nothing had prepared her for this.
She waited.
And heard him say, as quietly as
before, “Arthur, the end of war has come, and you have not passed from us. This
place was named Camlann, and you stand living in our presence still.”
The Warrior said nothing. The heel
of his spear rested on the ground, and both of his broad hands were wrapped
about its shaft. The sun went down. In the west, the evening star named for
Lauriel seemed to shine more brightly than it ever had before. There was a
faint glow, yet, to the western sky, but soon it would be full dark. Some men
had brought torches, but they had not lit them yet.
Paul said, “You told us the pattern,
Warrior. How it has always been, each and every time you have been summoned.
Arthur, it has changed. You thought you were to die at Cader Sedat and you did
not. Then you thought to find your ending in battle with Uathach, and you did
not.”
“I think I was supposed to find it
there,” Arthur said. His first words.
“I think so too,” Paul replied. “But
Diarmuid chose otherwise. He made it become
otherwise. We are not
slaves to the Loom, not bound forever to our fate. Not even you, my lord
Arthur. Not even you, after so long.”
He paused. It was utterly silent on
the plain. It seemed to Kim that a wind arose then that appeared to come from
all directions, or from none. She felt, in that moment, that they stood at the
absolute center of things, at the axletree of worlds. She had a sense of
anticipation, of a culmination coming that went far beyond words. It was deeper
than thought: a fever in the blood, another kind of pulse. She was aware of the
tacit presence of Ysanne within herself. Then she was aware of something else.
A new light shining in the darkness.
“Oh,
Dana!” Jaelle breathed,
a prayer. No one else spoke.
In the east a full moon rose over
Fionavar for the second time on a night that was not a full moon night.
This time she was not red, not a
challenge or a summons to war. She was silver and glorious, as the full moon of
the Goddess was meant to be, bright as a dream of hope, and she bathed Andarien
in a mild and beneficent light.
Paul didn’t even look up. Nor did
the Warrior. Their eyes never left the other’s face. And Arthur said, in that
silver light, in that silence, his voice an instrument of bone-deep
self-condemnation: “Twiceborn, how could it ever change? I had the children
slain.”
“And have paid full, fullest price,”
Paul replied without hesitation.
In his voice, now, they suddenly
heard thunder. “Look up, Warrior!” he cried. “Look up and see the moon of the
Goddess shining down upon you. Hear Mórnir speak through me. Feel the ground of
Camlann beneath your feet. Arthur, look about you! Listen! Don’t you see? It
has come, after so long. You are summoned now to glory, not to pain. This is
the hour of your release!”
Thunder was in his voice, a glow as of
sheet lightning in his face. Kim felt herself trembling; she wrapped her arms
about herself. The wind was all around them, growing and growing even as Paul
spoke, even as the thunder rolled, and it seemed to Kim, looking up, that the
wind was carrying stars and the dust of stars past her eyes.
And then Pwyll Twiceborn, who was
Lord of the Summer Tree, turned away from all of them, and he strode a little
way to the west, facing the distant sea, with the bright moon at his back, and
they heard him cry in a mighty voice:
“Liranan, sea brother! I have called
you three times now, once from the shore, and once from the sea, and once in
the bay of the Anor Lisen. Now, in this hour, I summon you again, far from your
waves. In the name of Mórnir and in the presence of Dana, whose moon is above
us now, I bid you send your tides to me. Send them, Liranan! Send the sea, that
joy may come at last at the end of a tale of sorrow so long told. I am sourced
in the power of the land, brother, and mine is the voice of the God. I bid you
come!”
As he spoke, Paul stretched forth
his hands in a gesture of widest gathering, as if he would encompass all of
time, all the Weaver’s worlds within himself. Then he fell silent. They waited.
A moment passed, and another. Paul did not move. He kept his hands outstretched
as the wind swirled all around him, strong and wild. Behind him the full moon
shone, before him the evening star.
Kim heard the sound of waves.
And over the barren plain of
Andarien, silver in the light of the moon, the waters of the sea began moving
in. Higher and higher they rose, though gently, guided and controlled. Paul’s
head was high, his hands were stretched wide and welcoming as he drew the sea
so far into the land from Linden Bay. Kim blinked; there were tears in her
eyes, and her own hands were trembling again. She smelled salt on the evening
air, saw waves sparkle under the moon.
Far, far off, she saw a figure
shining upon the waves, with his hands outstretched wide, as Paul’s were. She
knew who this had to be. Wiping away her tears, she strained to see him
clearly. He shimmered in the white moonlight, and it seemed to her that all the
colors of the rainbow were dancing in the robe the sea god wore.
On the high ridge northwest of them,
she saw that Shahar still cradled his son, but the two of them seemed to Kim to
be alone on some promontory now, on an island rising from the waters of the
sea.
An island such as Glastonbury Tor
had once been, rising from the waters that had covered the Somerset Plain.
Waters over which a barge once had floated, bearing three grieving queens and
the body of Arthur Pendragon to Avalon.
And even as she shaped this thought,
Kim saw a boat coming toward them over the waves. Long and beautiful was that
craft, with a single white sail filling with the strange wind. And in the
stern, steering it, was a figure she knew, a figure to whom she had granted,
under duress, his heart’s desire.
The waters had reached them now. The
world had changed, all the laws of the world. Under a full moon that should
never have been riding in the sky, the stony plain of Andarien lay undersea as
far inland as the place where they stood, east of the battlefield. And the
silvered waters of Liranan had covered over the dead.
Paul lowered his arms. He said
nothing at all, standing quite motionless. The winds grew quiet. And borne by
those quiet winds, Flidais of the andain, who had been Taliesin once in Camelot
long ago, brought his craft up to them and lowered the sail.
It was very, very still. Then
Flidais stood up in the stern of his boat and he looked directly at Kimberly
and into the stillness he said, “From the
darkness of what I have done to you there shall be light.
Do you remember the
promise I made you when you offered me the name?”
“I remember,” Kim whispered.
It was very hard to speak. She was
smiling, though, through her tears. It was coming, it had come.
Flidais turned to Arthur and, bowing
low, he said humbly, with deference, “My lord, I have been sent to bring you
home. Will you come aboard, that we may sail by the light of the Loom to the
Weaver’s Halls?”
All around her, Kim heard men and
women weeping quietly for joy. Arthur stirred. There was a glory in his face,
as understanding finally came to him.
And then, even in the very moment it
appeared, the moment he was offered release from the cycle of his grief, Kim
saw that shining fade. Her hands closed at her sides so hard the nails drew
blood from her palms. Arthur turned to Guinevere.
There might have been a thousand
words spoken in the silence of their eyes under that moon. A tale told over so
many times in the chambers of the heart that there were no words left for the
telling. And especially not now. Not here, with what had come.
She moved forward with grace, with infinite
care. She lifted up her mouth to his and kissed him full upon the lips in
farewell; then she stepped back again.
She did not speak or weep, or ask
for anything at all. In her green eyes was love, and only love. She had loved
two men only in all her days, and each of them had loved her, and each the
other. But divided as her love was, it had also been something else and was so,
still: a passion sustaining and enduring, without end to the world’s end.
Arthur turned away from her, so slowly it seemed the weight of time itself lay
upon him. He looked to Flidais with an anguished question in his face. The
andain wrung his hands together and then drew them helplessly apart. “I am only
allowed you, Warrior,” he whispered. “We have so far to go, the waters are so
wide.”
Arthur closed his eyes. Must there always be pain? Kim thought. Could joy never, ever
be pure? She saw that Lancelot was weeping.
And it was then, precisely then,
that the dimensions of the miracle were made manifest. It was then that grace descended.
For Paul Schafer spoke again, and he said, “Not
so. It is allowed. I am deep enough to let this come to pass.”
Arthur opened his eyes and looked,
incredulous, at Paul. Who nodded, quietly sure. “It is allowed,” he said again.
So there was joy, after all. The
Warrior turned again to look upon his Queen, the light and sorrow of his days,
and for the first time in so very long they saw him smile. And she too smiled,
for the first time in so very long, and said, asking only now, now that it was
vouchsafed them, “Will you take me with you where you go? Is there a place for
me among the summer stars?” Through her tears Kim saw Arthur Pendragon walk
forward, then, and she saw him take the hand of Guinevere in his own, and she
watched the two of them go aboard that craft, floating on the waters that had
risen over Andarien. It was almost too much for her, too rich. She could
scarcely breathe. She felt as if her soul were an arrow loosed to fly, silver
in the moonlight, never falling back.
Then there was even more: the very
last gift, the one that sealed and shaped the whole. Beneath the shining of
Dana’s moon she saw Arthur and Guinevere turn back to look at Lancelot.
And she heard Paul say again, with
so deep a power woven into his voice, “It
is allowed if you will it so. All of the price has been paid.”
With a cry of joy wrung from his
great heart, Arthur instantly stretched forth his hand. “Oh, Lance, come!” he
cried. “Oh, come!”
For a moment Lancelot did not move.
Then something long held back, so long denied, blazed in his eyes brighter than
any star. He stepped forward. He took Arthur’s hand, and then Guinevere’s, and
they drew him aboard. And so the three of them stood there together, the grief
of the long tale healed and made whole at last.
Flidais laughed aloud for gladness
and swiftly drew upon the line that lifted the white sail. There came a wind
from the east. Then, just before the boat began to draw away, Kim saw Paul
finally move. He knelt down beside a grey shape that had materialized at his side.
For one moment he buried his face
deep in the torn fur of the dog that had saved him on the Tree—saved him, that
the wheel of time might turn and find this moment waiting in Andarien.
“Farewell, great heart,” Kim heard
him say. “I will never forget.”
It was his own voice this time, no
thunder in it, only a rich sadness and a very great depth of joy. Which were
within her too, exactly those two things, as Cavall leaped in one great bound
to land at Arthur’s feet even as the boat turned to the west.
And thus did it come to pass, what
Arthur had said in Cader Sedat to the dog that had been his companion in so
many wars: that there might come a day when they need not part.
It had come. Under the silver
shining of the moon, that long slender craft caught the rising of the wind and
it carried them away, Arthur and Lancelot and Guinevere. Past the promontory it
sailed, and from that solitary height Shahar raised one hand in farewell, and
all three of them saluted him. Then it seemed to those that watched from the
plain that that ship began to rise into the night, not following the curving of
the earth but tracking a different path.
Farther and farther it went, rising
all the while upon waters of a sea that belonged to no world and to all of
them. For as long as she possibly could, Kim strained her eyes to make out
Guinevere’s fair hair—Jennifer’s hair—shining in the bright moonlight. Then
that was lost in the far darkness, and the last thing they saw was the gleaming
of Arthur’s spear, like a new star in the sky.
No man living could remember a
harvest like the one that came to the High Kingdom at the end of that summer.
In Cathal, as well, the granaries were full, and the gardens of Larai Rigal
grew more extravagantly beautiful—drenched in perfume, riotous with color—each
passing day. On the Plain the eltor swifts ran over the rich green grass, and
the hunting was easy and joyous under the wide sky. But nowhere did the grass
grow so deep as on Ceinwen’s Mound by Celidon.
Even in Andarien the soil had grown
rich again—literally overnight, with the receding of the waves that had come to
bear the Warrior away. There was talk of settling there again, and in Sennett
Strand. In Taerlindel of the mariners and in Cynan and Seresh, they spoke of
building ships to sail up and down the long coast, past the Anor Lisen and the
Cliffs of Rhudh, to Sennett and Linden Bay. There was talk of many things as
that summer came to an end, words woven of peace and a quiet joy.
Through the first weeks after the
battle there had been little time to celebrate. The army of Cathal had ridden
north under their Supreme Lord, and Shalhassan had taken charge, with Matt
Sören—for the King of the Dwarves would not let his people rest until the last
of the servants of Maugrim were slain—of cleaning out the remnants of the
urgach and the svart alfar that had fled the Bael Andarien.
The Dalrei, badly ravaged by the
wars, withdrew to Celidon to take council, and the lios alfar made their way
back to Daniloth.
Daniloth, but no longer the
Shadowland. Two months after the battle that ended the war, after the Dwarves
and the men of Cathal had finished their task, men as far south as Paras Derval
had seen, on a night glittering with stars, a glow rise up in the north, and
they had cried aloud for wonder and joy to see the Land of Light regain its
truest name.
And it came to pass that in that
time, with the harvest gathered and stored, Aileron the High King sent his
messengers riding forth all through his land, and to Daniloth and Larai Rigal
and Celidon, and over the mountains to Banir Lok, to summon the free peoples of
Fionavar to a week of celebration in Paras Derval: a celebration to be woven in
the name of the peace won at last, and to honor the three who remained of Loren
Silvercloak’s five strangers, and to bid them a last farewell.
Riding south with the Dalrei to what
was to be his own party, Dave still had no clear idea of what he was going to
do. He knew—beyond even his own capacity to feel insecure—that he was welcome
and wanted here, even loved. He also knew how much he loved these people. But
it wasn’t as simple as that; nothing ever seemed to be, not even now.
With all that had happened to him,
the ways he had changed and the things that had made him change, the images of
his parents and his brother had been drifting through his dreams every night of
late. He remembered, too, how thoughts of Josef Martyniuk had been with him all
through the last battle in Andarien. There were things to be worked out there,
Dave knew, and part of what he’d learned among the Dalrei was how important it
was to resolve those tilings.
But the other thing he’d learned
here was joy, a richness of belonging such as he’d never known. All of which
meant that there was a decision to be made, and very soon—for it had been
decided that after the celebration week was over, Jaelle and Teyrnon, sharing
out the powers of Dana and Mórnir, would jointly act to send them home through
the crossing. If they wanted to go.
It was beautiful here on the Plain,
riding southwest over the wide grasslands, seeing the great swifts flash past
in the distance under the high white clouds and the mild end-of-summer sun. It
was too beautiful to be thinking, wrestling with the shadows and implications
of his dilemma, and so he let it slip from him for a time.
He looked around. It seemed that the
whole of the third tribe and a great many others of the Dalrei were coming
south with him at the High King’s invitation. Even Gereint was here, riding in
one of the chariots that Shalhassan had left behind on his way south to Cathal.
On either side of Dave, Tore and Levon rode easily, almost lazily, through the
afternoon.
They smiled at him when he caught
their eye, but neither had said much of anything on this journey: unwilling, he
knew, to pressure him in any way. But such a realization took him right back to
the decision he had to make, and he didn’t want to deal with that. Instead, he
let his mind return to images of the weeks gone by.
He remembered the feasting and the
dancing under the stars and between the fires burning on the Plain. A dance of
the ride of Ivor to the Adein, another of the courage of the Dalrei at
Andarien. Other dances, still, intricately woven, of individual deeds of glory
in the war. And more than once the women of the Dalrei shaped the deeds of
Davor of the Axe in battle against the Dark. And more than once, afterward, all
through the mild nights of that summer, with Rangat an unmarred glory in the
north, there had been women who came to Dave after the fires had died, for
another sort of dance.
Not Liane, though. Ivor’s daughter
had danced for them all between the fires, but never with Dave in his room at
night. Once he might have regretted that, found in it a source of longing or
pain. But not now, not anymore, for a great many reasons. Even in this there
had been a joy to be savored, amid the healing time of that summer on the
Plain.
He had been honored and
apprehensive, both, when Tore had come to him, a few weeks after the return to Celidon,
to make his request. It had taken a long night of rehearsal, with Levon
drilling him over and over and laughingly plying him with sachen in between
sessions, before Dave had felt ready to go stand the next morning, with
something of a hangover to complicate things, before the Aven of the Dalrei and
say what was to be said.
He’d done it, though. He’d found
Ivor walking amid a number of the Chieftains in the camp at Celidon. Levon had
told him that the thing was to be done as publicly as possible. And so Dave had
swallowed hard, and stepped in front of the Aven, and had said, “Ivor dan
Banor, I am sent by a Rider of honor and worth with a message for you. Aven,
Tore dan Sorcha has named me as his Intercedent and bids me tell you, in the
presence of all those here, that the sun rises in your daughter’s eyes.”
There had been a number of marriages
all over Fionavar that summer after the war, and a great many proposals were
done after the old fashion, with an Intercedent—an act of homage, in a real
sense, to Diarmuid dan Ailell, who had revived the tradition by proposing in
this way to Sharra of Cathal.
A number of marriages. And one of
them the third tribe celebrated not long after the morning Dave had spoken
those words. For the Aven had given his consent with joy, and then Liane had
smiled the secret smile they all knew so well and said, quite simply, “Yes, of
course. Of course I will marry him. I always meant to.”
Which was as maddeningly unfair,
Levon commented afterward, as anything his sister had ever said. Tore didn’t
seem to mind at all. He’d seemed dazed and incredulous all through the ceremony
in which Cordeliane dal Ivor had become his wife. Ivor had cried, and Sorcha
too. Not Leith. But then, no one expected her to.
It had been a wonderful night and a
wonderful summer, in almost every way. Dave had even ridden with the Riders on
an eltor hunt. Again, Levon had tutored him, this time in the use of a blade
from horseback. And one morning at sunrise Dave had ridden out with the
hunters, and had picked an eltor buck from a racing swift, and had galloped
alongside of it and leaped—not trusting himself to throw the blade—from his
horse to the back of the eltor, and had plunged the blade into its throat. He
had rolled, and risen up from the grass, and saluted Levon. And the hunt leader
and all the others had returned his salute with shouted praise and blades
uplifted high. A glorious summer, among people he loved, on the rolling Plain
that was theirs. And now he had a decision to make and he couldn’t seem to make
it.
A week later, he still hadn’t made
up his mind. In fairness to himself, there hadn’t been much time for
introspection. There had been banquets of staggering sumptuousness in the Great
Hall of Paras Derval. There had been music again, and of a different sort this
time, for the lios alfar were among them now, and one night Ra-Tenniel, their
Lord, had lifted his own voice to sing the long tale of the war just past.
Woven into that song had been a
great many things shaped equally of beauty and of pain. From the very
beginning, when Loren Silvercloak had brought five strangers to Fionavar from
another world.
Ra-Tenniel sang of Paul on the
Summer Tree, of the battle of wolf and dog, the sacrifice of Ysanne. He sang
the red moon of Dana, and the birth of Imraith-Nimphais. (Dave had looked along
the table then, to see Tabor dan Ivor slowly lower his head.) Jennifer in
Starkadh. Darien’s birth. The coming of Arthur. Guinevere. The waking of the
Wild Hunt, as Finn dan Shahar took the Longest Road.
He sang Maidaladan: Kevin in Dun
Maura, red flowers at dawn in the melting snow. Ivor’s ride to the Adein,
battle there, the lios coming, and Owein in the sky. The Soulmonger at sea, and
the shattering of the Cauldron at Cader Sedat. Lancelot in the Chamber of the
Dead. The Paraiko in Khath Meigol, and the last kanior. (Across the room, Ruana
sat by Kimberly and listened in an expressionless silence).
Ra-Tenniel went on. He encompassed all
of it, brought it to life again under the stained glass windows of the Great
Hall. He sang Jennifer and Brendel at the Anor Lisen, Kimberly with the
Baelrath at Calor Diman, Lancelot battling in the sacred grove, and Amairgen’s
ghost ship passing Sennett Strand a thousand years ago.
And then, at the end, in shadings of
sorrow and joy, Ra-Tenniel sang to them of the Bael Andarien itself: Diarmuid
dan Ailell battling with Uathach, killing him at sunset, and dying. Tabor and
his shining mount rising to meet the Dragon of Maugrim. Battle and death on a
wasted plain. And then, far off in an evil place, alone and afraid (and it was
all there, all in the golden voice), Darien choosing the Light and killing
Rakoth Maugrim.
Dave wept. His heart ached for so
much glory and so much pain, as Ra-Tenniel came to the end of his song: Galadan
and Owein’s Horn. Finn dan Shahar falling from the sky to let Ruana bind the
Hunt. And at the very last, Arthur and Lancelot and Guinevere sailing away in
gladness on a sea that seemed to rise until it reached the stars.
The tears of the living flowed
freely in Paras Derval that night, as they remembered the dead and the deeds of
the dead.
But it had been a week woven mostly
of laughter and joy, of sachen and wine—white from South Keep, red from Gwen
Ystrat—of clear, blue-sky days crammed with activity, and nights of feasting in
the Great Hall, followed, for Dave, by quiet walks beyond the tents of the
Dalrei outside the walls of the town, looking up at the brilliant stars, with
his two brothers by his side.
But to settle the matter that was in
his mind, Dave knew he needed to be alone, and so finally, on the very last day
of the festival, he slipped away by himself on his favorite black horse. He
looped Owein’s Horn, on its new leather cord, about his neck and set out to
ride, north and west, to do one thing and try to resolve another.
It was a route he had taken before,
in the cold of the winter snows at evening, when Kim had woken the Hunt with
the fire she carried, and he had summoned them with the horn. It was summer
now, end of summer, shading toward fall. The morning was cool and clear. Birds
sang overhead. Soon the colors of the leaves would begin to change to red and
gold and brown.
He came to a curve in the path and
saw the tiny jewel-like lake set in the valley below. He rode past on the high
ridge of land, noting the empty cottage far below. He remembered the last time
they had ridden by this place. Two boys had come out behind that cottage to
look up at them. Two boys, and both of them were dead, and together they had
acted to let all the peace of this morning come to be.
He shook his head, wondering, and
continued riding northwest, angling across the recently harvested fields
between Rhoden and North Keep. There were farmhouses scattered on either side.
Some people saw him passing and waved to him. He waved back.
Then, around noon, he crossed the
High Road and knew he was very near. A few minutes later he came to the edge of
Pendaran Wood, and he saw the fork of the tree, and then the cave. There was an
enormous stone in front of it again, exactly as there had been before, and Dave
knew who lay asleep in the darkness there.
He dismounted, and he took the horn
into his hand and walked a little way into the Wood. The light was dappled
here, the leaves rustled above his head. He wasn’t afraid though, not this
time. Not as he had been the night he’d met Flidais. The Great Wood had slaked
its anger now, the lios alfar had told them. It had to do with Lancelot and
Darien, and with the final passing of Lisen, the blazing of her Circlet in
Starkadh. Dave didn’t really understand such things, but one thing he did
understand, and it had brought him with the horn back to this place.
He waited, with a patience that was
another new thing in him. He watched the shadows flicker and shift on the
forest floor and in the leaves overhead. He listened to the sounds of the
forest. He tried to think, to understand himself and his own desires. It was
hard to concentrate, though, because he was waiting for someone.
And then he heard a different sound
behind him. His heart racing, despite all his inward preparation, he turned,
kneeling as he did so, with his head lowered.
“You may rise,” said Ceinwen. “Of
all men, you should know that you may rise.”
He looked up and saw her again: in green as she always was, with the
bow in her hand. The bow with which she’d almost killed him by a pool in
Faelinn Grove.
Not all need die, she had said that night. And so he’d
lived, to be given a horn, to carry an axe in war, to summon the Wild Hunt. To
return again to this place.
The goddess stood before him,
radiant and glorious, though muting the shining of her face that he might look
upon her without being stricken blind.
He rose, as she bade him. He took a
deep breath, to slow the beating of his heart. He said, “Goddess, I have come
to return a gift.” He held out the horn in a hand that, he was pleased to see,
did not tremble. “It is a thing too powerful for me to hold. Too deeply
powerful, I think, for any mortal man.”
Ceinwen smiled, beautiful and
terrible. “I thought you would come,” she said. “I waited to see. Had you not,
I would have come for you, before you went away. I gave you more than I meant
to give with this horn.” And then, in a gentler tone, “What you say is not
wrong, Davor of the Axe. It must be hidden again, to wait for a truer finding
many years from now. Many, many years.”
“We would have died by Adein without
it,” Dave said quietly. “Does that not make it a true finding?”
She smiled again, inscrutable, capricious.
She said, “You have grown clever since last we met. I may be sorry to see you
go.”
There was nothing he could say to
that. He extended the horn a little toward her, and she took it from his hand.
Her fingers touched his palm, and he did tremble then, with awe and memory. She
laughed, deep in her throat. Dave could feel himself flushing. But there was
something he had to ask, even if she laughed. After a moment, he said, “Would
you be as sorry to see me stay? I have been trying for a long time now to
decide. I think I’m ready to go home, but another part of me despairs at the
thought of leaving.” He spoke as carefully as he could, with more dignity than
he’d thought he possessed.
She did not laugh. The goddess
looked upon him, and there was a strangeness in her eyes, half cold, half
sorrowing. She shook her head. “Dave Martyniuk,” she said, “you have grown
wiser since that night in Faelinn Grove. I had thought you knew the answer to
that question without my telling it. You cannot stay, and you should have known
you cannot.”
Something jogged in Dave’s mind: an
image, another memory. Just before she spoke again, in the half second before
she told him why, he understood.
“What did I say to you that night by
the pool?” she asked, her voice cool and soft like woven silk.
He knew. It had been hidden
somewhere in his mind all along, he supposed. No man of Fionavar may see Ceinwen hunt.
That was what she’d said. He had seen her hunt, though. He had seen her kill a stag by the moonlit pool
and had seen the stag rise from its own death and bow its head to the Huntress
and move away into the trees.
No man of Fionavar. . . . Dave knew the answer to his dilemma
now: there was, had only ever been, one answer.
He was going home. The goddess
willed it so. Only by leaving Fionavar could be preserve his life, only by
leaving could he allow her not to kill him for what he had seen.
Within his heart he felt one stern
pang of grief, and then it passed away, leaving behind a sorrow he would always
carry, but leaving also a deep certitude that this was how it was because it
was the only way it could ever have been.
Had he not been from another world,
Ceinwen could not have let him live; she could never have given him the horn.
In her own way, Dave saw, in a flash of illumination, the goddess too was
trapped by her nature, by what she had decreed.
And so he would go. There was
nothing left to decide. It had been decided long ago, and that truth had been
within him all the time. He drew another breath, deep and slow. It was very
quiet in the woods. No birds were singing now.
He remembered something else then,
and he said it. “I swore to you that night, that first time, that I would pay
whatever price was necessary. If you will see it is as such, then perhaps my
leaving may be that price.”
Again she smiled, and this time it
was kind. “I will see it as such,” the goddess said. “There will be no other
price exacted. Remember me.”
There was a shining in her face. He
opened his mouth but found he could not speak. It had come home to him with his
words and hers: he was leaving. It would all be put behind him now. It had to
be. Memory would be all he had to carry back with him and forward through his
days.
For the last time he knelt before Ceinwen of the Bow. She was
motionless as a statue, looking down upon him.
He rose up and turned to go from
among the shadows and dappled light between the trees. “Hold!” the goddess said.
He turned back, afraid, not knowing
what, now, would be asked of him. She gazed at him in silence for a long time
before she spoke.
“Tell me, Dave Martyniuk, Davor of
the Axe, if you were allowed to name a son in Fionavar, a child of the andain,
what name would your son carry into time?”
She was so bright. And now there
were tears in his eyes, making her image shimmer and blur before him, and there
was something shining, like the moon, in his heart.
He remembered: a night on a mound by
Celidon, south of the Adein River. Under the stars of spring returned, he had
lain down with a goddess on the new green grass.
He understood. And in that moment,
just before he spoke, giving voice to the brightness within him, something
flowered in his mind, more fiercely than the moon in his heart or even the
shining of Ceinwen’s face. He understood, and there, at the edge of Pendaran
Wood, Dave finally came to terms with himself, with what he once had been, in
all his bitterness, and with what he had now become.
“Goddess,” he said, over the
tightness in his throat, “If such a child were born and mine to name, I would
call him Kevin. For my friend.”
For the last time she smiled at him.
“It shall be so,” Ceinwen said.
There was a dazzle of light, and
then he was alone. He turned and went back to his horse and mounted up for the
ride back. Back to Paras Derval, and then a long, long way beyond, to home.
Paul spent the days and nights of
that last week saying his own goodbyes. Unlike Dave, or even Kim, he seemed to
have formed no really deep attachments here in Fionavar. It was partly due to
his own nature, to what had driven him to cross in the first place. But more
profoundly it was inherent in what had happened to him on the Summer Tree,
marking him as one apart, one who could speak with gods and have them bow to
him. Even here at the end, after the war was over, his remained a solitary
path.
On the other hand, there were people he cared about and would miss. He tried to make a point of
spending a little time with each of them in those last days.
One morning he walked alone to a
shop he knew at the end of Anvil Lane, near to a green where he could see that
the children of Paras Derval were playing again, though not the ta’kiena. He
remembered the shop doorway very well, though his images were of winter and
night. The first time Jennifer had made him bring her here, the night Darien
was born. And then another night, after Kim had sent them back to Fionavar from
Stonehenge, he had walked, coatless but not cold in the winter winds, from the
heat of the Black Boar, where a woman had died to save his life, and his steps
had led him here to see the door swinging open and snow piling in the aisles of
the shop.
And an empty cradle rocking in a
cold room upstairs. He could still reach back to the terror he’d felt in that
moment.
But now it was summer and the terror
was gone: destroyed, in the end, by the child who’d been born in this house,
who’d lain in that cradle. Paul entered the shop. It was very crowded, for this
was a time of festival and Paras Derval was thronged with people. Vae
recognized him right away, though, and then Shahar did, as well. They left two
clerks to deal with the people buying their woolen goods and led Paul up the
stairs.
There was very little, really, that
he could say to them. The marks of grief, even with the months that had passed,
were still etched into both of them. Shahar was mourning for Finn, who had died
in his arms. But Vae, Paul knew, was grieving for both her sons, for Dari too,
the blue-eyed child she’d raised and loved from the moment of his birth. He
wondered how Jennifer had known so well whom to ask to raise her child and
teach him love.
Aileron had offered Shahar a number
of posts and honors within the palace, but the quiet artisan had chosen to
return to his shop and his craft. Paul looked at the two of them and wondered
if they were young enough to have another child. And if they could bear to do
so, after what had happened. He hoped so.
He told them he was leaving, and
that he’d come to say goodbye. They made some small conversation, ate some
pastry Vae had made, but then one of the clerks called upstairs with a question
about pricing a bale of cloth, and Shahar had to go down. Paul and Vae followed
him. In the shop she gave him, awkwardly, a scarf for the coming fall. He
realized, then, that he had no idea what season it was back home. He took the
scarf and kissed her on the cheek, and then he left.
The next day he went riding, south
and west, with the new Duke of Seresh. Niavin had died at the hands of a
mounted urgach in Andarien. The new Duke riding with Paul looked exactly as he
always had, big and capable, brown-haired, with the hook of his broken nose
prominent in a guileless face. As much as anything else that had happened since
the war, Paul was pleased by what Aileron had done in naming Coll to rank.
It was a quiet ride. Coll had always
been taciturn by nature. It had been Erron and Carde or boisterous, blustering
Tegid who had drawn out the laughter hidden in his nature. Those three, and
Diarmuid, who had taken a fatherless boy from Taerlindel and made him his
right-hand man.
For part of the way their road
carried them past towns they had galloped furiously through so long ago with
Diar, on a clandestine journey to cross Saeren into Cathal.
When the road forked toward South
Keep they continued west instead, by unspoken agreement, and early in the
afternoon they came to a vantage point from where they could look into the
distance at walled Seresh and the sea beyond. They stopped there, looking down.
“Do you still hate him?” Paul asked,
the first words spoken in a long time. He knew Coll would understand what he
meant. I would have him
cursed in the name of all the gods and goddesses there are, he had said to Paul very late one
night, long ago, in a dark corridor of the palace. And had named Aileron, which
was treason then.
Now the big man was slowly shaking
his head. “I understand him better. And I can see how much he has suffered.” He
hesitated, then said very softly, “But I will miss his brother all the rest of
my days.”
Paul understood. He felt the same
way about Kevin. Exactly the same way.
Neither of them said anything else.
Paul looked off to the west, to where the sea sparkled in the bright sun. There
were stars beneath the waves. He had seen them. In his heart he bade farewell
to Liranan, the god who had called him brother.
Coll glanced over at him. Paul
nodded, and the two of them turned and rode back to Paras Derval.
The next evening, after the banquet
in the Hall—Cathalian food that time, prepared by Shalhassan’s own master of
the kitchen—he found himself in the Black Boar, with Dave and Coll and all the
men of South Keep, those who had sailed Prydwen
to Cader Sedat.
They drank a great deal, and the
owner of the tavern refused to let any of Diarmuid’s men pay for their ale.
Tegid of Rhoden, not one to let such largess slip past him, drained ten huge
tankards to start the proceedings and then gathered speed as the night
progressed. Paul got a little drunk himself, which was unusual, and perhaps as
a result his memories refused to go away. All night long he kept hearing
“Rachel’s Song” in his mind amid the laughter and the embraces of farewell.
The next afternoon, the last but
one, he spent in the mages’ quarters in the town. Dave was with the Dalrei, but
Kim had come with him this time, and the two of them spent a few hours with
Loren and Matt and Teyrnon and Barak, sitting in the garden behind the house.
Loren Silvercloak, no longer a mage,
now dwelt in Banir Lok as principal adviser to the King of Dwarves. Teyrnon and
Barak were visibly pleased to have the other two staying with them, if only for
a little while. Teyrnon bustled happily about in the sunshine, making sure
everyone’s glass was brimming.
“Tell me,” said Barak, a little
slyly, to Loren and Matt, “do you think the two of you might be able to handle
a pupil for a few months next year? Or will you have forgotten everything you
know?”
Matt glanced at him quickly. “Have
you a disciple already? Good, very good. We need at least three or four more.”
“We?” Teyrnon teased.
Matt scowled. “Habits die hard.
Some, I hope, will never die.”
“They need never die,” Teyrnon said
soberly. “You two will always be part of the Council of the Mages.”
“Who is our new disciple?” Loren
asked. “Do we know him?”
For reply, Teyrnon looked up at the
second-floor window overlooking the garden.
“Boy!” he shouted, trying to sound
severe. “I hope you are studying, and not listening to the gossip down here!”
A moment later a head of brown
unruly hair appeared at the open window.
“Of course I’m studying,” said
Tabor, “but, honestly, none of this is very difficult!”
Matt grunted in mock disapproval.
Loren, struggling to achieve a frown, growled fiercely. “Teyrnon, give him the
Book of Abhar, and then we’ll see whether or not he finds
studying difficult!”
Paul grinned and heard Kim laugh
with delight to see who was smiling down on them.
“Tabor!” she exclaimed. “When did
this happen?”
“Two days ago,” the boy replied. “My
father gave his consent after Gereint asked me to come back and teach him some
new things next year.”
Paul exchanged a glance with Loren.
There was a genuine easing in this, an access to joy. The boy was young; it
seemed he would recover. More than that, Paul had an intuitive sense of the
rightness, even the necessity of Tabor’s new path: what horse on the Plain,
however swift, could ever suffice, now, for one who had ridden a creature of
Dana across the sky?
Later that afternoon, walking back
to the palace with Kim, Paul learned that she too would be going home.
They still didn’t know about Dave.
On the next morning, the last, he
went back to the Summer Tree.
It was the first time he’d been
there alone since the three nights he had hung upon it as an offering to the
God, seeking rain. He left his horse at the edge of Mórnirwood, not far (though
this he didn’t know) from the place of Aideen’s grave, where Matt had taken
Jennifer early one morning in Kevin’s spring.
He walked the remembered path
through the trees, seeing the morning sunlight begin to grow dim and
increasingly aware, with every step he took, of something else.
Since the last battle in
Andarien—when he had released Galadan from the vengeance he’d sworn and
channeled his power for healing instead, to bring the rising waters that ended
the cycle of Arthur’s grief—since that evening Paul had not sought the presence
of the God within himself. In a way, he’d been avoiding it.
But now it was there again. And as
he came to the place where the trees of the Godwood formed their double
corridor, leading him inexorably back into the glade of the Tree, Paul
understood that Mórnir would always be within him. He would always be Pwyll
Twiceborn, Lord of the Summer Tree, wherever he went. He had been sent back;
the reality of that was a part of him, and would be until he died again.
And thinking so, he came into the
glade and saw the Tree. There was light here, for the sky showed above the
clearing, mild and blue with scattered billowy clouds. He remembered the white
burning of the sun in a blank heaven.
He looked at the trunk and the
branches. They were as old as this first world, he knew. And looking up within
the thick green leaves, he saw, without surprise, that the ravens were there,
staring back at him with bright, yellow eyes. It was very still. No thunder.
Only, deep within his pulse, that constant awareness of the God.
It was not a thing, Paul realized
then, from which he could ever truly hide, even if he wanted to, which was what
he’d been trying to do through the sweet days of this summer.
He could not unsay what he had
become. It was not a thing that came and then went. He would have to accept
that he was marked and set apart. In a way, he always had been. Self-contained
and solitary, too much so: it was why Rachel had been leaving him, the night
she died on the highway in the rain.
He was a power, brother to gods. It
was so and would always be so. He thought of Cernan and Galadan, wondering
where they were. Both of them had bowed to him.
No one did so now. Nor did Mórnir
manifest himself any more strongly than through the beating of his pulse. The
Tree seemed to be brooding, sunk deep into
the earth, into the web
of its years. The ravens watched him silently. He could make them speak; he
knew how to do that now. He could even cause the leaves of the Summer Tree to
rustle as in a storm wind, and in time, if he tried hard enough, he could draw
the thunder of the God. He was Lord of this Tree; this was the place of his
power.
He did none of these things. He had
come for no such reason. Only to see the place for a last time, and to
acknowledge, within himself, what had indeed been confirmed. In silence he
stepped forward and laid one hand upon the trunk of the Summer Tree. He felt it
as an extension of himself. He drew his hand away and turned and left the
glade. Overhead, he heard the ravens flying. He knew they would be back.
And after that, there was only the
last farewell. He’d been delaying it, in part because even now he did not
expect it to be an easy exchange. On the other hand, the two of them, for all
the brittleness, had shared a great deal since first she’d taken him down from
the Tree and drawn blood from his face in the Temple with the nails of her
hand.
So he returned to his horse and rode
back to Paras Derval, and then east through the crowded town to the sanctuary,
to say goodbye to Jaelle.
He tugged on the bell pull by the
arched entranceway. Chimes rang within the Temple. A moment later the doors
were opened and a grey-robed priestess looked out, blinking in the brightness.
Then she recognized him, and smiled.
This was one of the new things in
Brennin, as potent a symbol of regained harmony, in its own way, as would be
the joint action of Jaelle and Teyrnon this evening, sending them home.
“Hello, Shiel,” he said, remembering
her from the night he’d come after Darien’s birth to seek aid. They had barred
his way then, demanding blood.
Not now. Shiel flushed at being
recognized. She gestured for him to enter. “I know you have given blood,” she
said, almost apologetically.
“I’ll do so again, if you like,” he
said mildly.
She shook her head vigorously and
sent an acolyte scurrying down the curved corridors in search of the High
Priestess. Waiting patiently, Paul looked beyond Shiel to his left. He could
see the domed chamber and—strategically placed to be visible—the altar stone
and the axe.
The acolyte came back, and with her
was Jaelle. He had thought he might be kept waiting, or sent for, but she so
seldom did what he expected.
“Pwyll,” she said. “I wondered if
you would come.” Her voice was cool. “Will you take a glass of wine?”
He nodded and followed her back
along the hallway to a room that he remembered. She dismissed the acolyte and
closed the door. She went to a sideboard and poured wine for both of them, her
motions brisk and impersonal.
She gave him a glass and sank down
into a pile of cushions on the floor. He took the chair beside the door. He
looked at her: an image of crimson and white. The fires of Dana and the
whiteness of the full moon. There was a silver circlet holding back her hair;
he remembered picking it up on the plain of Andarien. He remembered her running
to where Finn lay.
“This evening, then?” she asked,
sipping her wine.
“If you will,” he said. “Is there a
difficulty? Because if there—”
“No, no,” she said quickly. “I was
only asking. We will do it at moonrise.”
There was a little silence. Broken
by Paul’s quiet laughter. “We really are terrible, aren’t we?” he said, shaking
his head ruefully. “We never could manage a civil exchange.”
She considered that, not smiling,
though his tone had invited it. “That night by the Anor,” she said. “Until I
said the wrong thing.”
“You didn’t,” he murmured. “I was
just sensitive about power and control. You found a nerve.”
“We’re trained to do that.” She
smiled, though, and he realized she was mocking herself a little.
“I did my share of goading,” Paul
admitted. “One of the reasons I came was to tell you that a lot of it was
reflex. My own defenses. I wanted to say goodbye, and to tell you that I have .
. . a great deal of respect for you.” It was difficult choosing words.
She said nothing, looking back at
him, her green eyes clear and bright. Well, he thought, he’d said it. What he’d
come to say. He finished his wine and rose to his feet. She did the same.
“I should go,” he said, wanting to
be elsewhere before one of them said something that was wounding, and so
spoiled even this goodbye. “I’ll see you this evening, I guess.” He turned to
the door. “Paul,” she said. “Wait.”
Not Pwyll. Paul. Something stirred like a wind within him. He turned
again.
She had not moved. Her hands were crossed in front of her chest, as if
she were suddenly cold in the midst of summer.
“Are
you really going to leave me?” Jaelle asked, in a voice so strained he needed a
second to be sure of what he’d heard.
And then he was sure, and in that
instant the world rocked and shifted within him and around him and everything
changed. Something burst in his chest like a dam breaking, a dam that had held
back need for so long, that had denied the truth of his heart, even to this
moment.
“Oh, my love,” he said.
There seemed to be so much light in
the room. He took one step, another; then she was within the circle of his arms
and the impossible flame of her hair was about them both. He lowered his mouth
and found her own turned up to his kiss. And in that moment he was clear at
last. It was all clear. He was in the clear and running like his running
pulsebeat, the clear hammer of his heart. He was translucent. Not Lord of the
Summer Tree then, but only a mortal man, long denied, long denying himself,
touching and touched by love.
She was fire and water to his hands,
she was everything he had ever desired. Her fingers were behind his head, laced
through his hair, drawing him down to her lips, and she whispered his name over
and over and over while she wept.
And so they came together then, at
the last, the children of the Goddess and the God.
They subsided among the scattered
cushions and she laid her head against his chest, and for a long time they were
silent as he ran his fingers ceaselessly through the red fall of her hair and
brushed her tears away.
At length she moved so that she lay
with her head in his lap, looking up at him. She smiled, a different kind of
smile from any he had seen before.
“You would really have gone,” she
said. Not a question.
He nodded, still half in a daze,
still trembling and incredulous at what had happened to him. “I would have,” he
confessed. “I was too afraid.”
She reached up and touched his
cheek. “Afraid of this, after all you have done?”
He nodded again. “Of this, perhaps
more than anything. When?” he asked. “When did you. . . ?”
Her eyes turned grave. “I fell in
love with you on the beach by Taerlindel. When you stood in the waves, speaking
to Liranan. But I fought it, of course, for many reasons. You will know them.
It didn’t come home to me until you were walking back from Finn to face
Galadan.”
He closed his eyes. Opened them.
Felt sorrow come over to shadow joy. “Can you do this?” he said. “How may it be
allowed? You are what you are.”
She smiled again, and this smile he
knew. It was the one he imagined on the face of Dana herself: inward and
inscrutable.
She said, “I will die to have you,
but I do not think it need happen that way.”
Neatly she rose to her feet. He,
too, stood up and saw her go to the door and open it. She murmured something to
the acolyte in the corridor and then turned back to him, a light dancing in her
eyes.
They waited, not for long. The door
opened again, and Leila came in.
Clad in white.
She looked from one of them to the
other and then laughed aloud. “Oh, good!” she said. “I thought this might
happen.”
Paul felt himself flushing; then he
caught Jaelle’s glance and both of them burst out laughing.
“Can you see why she’ll be High
Priestess now?” Jaelle asked, smiling. Then, more soberly, added, “From the
moment she lifted the axe and survived, Leila was marked by the Goddess to the
white of the High Priestess. Dana moves in ways no mortal can understand, nor
even the others among the gods. I am High Priestess in name only now. After I
sent you through the crossing I was to relinquish my place to Leila.”
Paul nodded. He could see a pattern
shaping here, only a glimmering of it, but it seemed to him that the warp and
weft of this, followed back to their source, would reach Dun Maura and a
sacrifice made on the eve of Maidaladan.
And thinking of that, he found that
there were tears in his own eyes. He had to wipe them away, he who had never
been able to weep.
He said, “Kim is going home or I
would never say this, but I think I know a cottage by a lake, halfway between
the Temple and the Tree, where I would like to live. If it pleases you.”
“It pleases me,” Jaelle said
quietly. “More than I can tell you. Ysanne’s cottage will bring my life full
circle and lay a grief to rest.”
“I guess I’m staying, then,” he
said, reaching for her hand. “I guess I’m staying after all.”
She was learning something, Kim
realized. Learning it the hardest way. Discovering that the only thing harder
for her to deal with than power was its passing away. The Baelrath was gone.
She had surrendered it, but before that it had abandoned her. Not since Calor
Diman and her refusal there had the Warstone so much as flickered on her hand.
So, late last night, quietly, with no one else in the room, no one else to
know, she had given it to Aileron.
And he, as quietly, had sent for
Jaelle and entrusted the stone to the custody of the Priestesses of Dana. Which
was right, Kim knew. She’d thought at first that he would give it to the mages.
But the wild power of the Baelrath was closer, far, to Dana than it was to the
skylore Amairgen had learned.
It was a measure of Aileron’s
deepening wisdom, one of the marks of the changing nature of things, that the
High King would surrender a thing of so much power to the High Priestess and
that she would agree to guard it in his name.
And thus had the Warstone passed
from her, which left Kimberly, on this last afternoon, walking with her
memories amid the strand of trees west of Ysanne’s cottage, dealing with loss
and sorrow.
It should not be so, she told
herself sternly. She was going home, and she wanted to go
home. She wanted her family very badly. More than that, even, she knew it was
right for her to be crossing back. She had dreamt it, and so had Ysanne, in
those first days.
It is in my heart as well that there may be need of a
Dreamer in your world too, the
old Seer had said. And Kim knew it was still true. She had seen it herself.
So need and rightness had come
together with her own desire to draw her back. This should have made things
easy and clear, but it was not so. How, in truth, could it ever be, when she
was leaving so much behind? And all her thoughts and feelings seemed to be
complicated, made even more blurred and difficult, by the hollow of absence
within her when she looked at the finger where the Warstone had been for so
long.
She shook her head, trying to pull
herself out of this mood. She had so many blessings to count, so many riches.
The first, running deeper than anything else, was the fact of peace and the
Unraveller’s passing from the worlds, at the hands of the child whose name she
had dreamt before he’d even been born.
She walked through the green woods
in sunlight thinking of Darien, and then of his mother and Arthur and Lancelot,
whose grief had come to an end. Another blessing, another place where joy might
flower in the heart.
And for herself, she was still a
Seer, and she still carried, and always would, a second soul within her as a
gift beyond words or measurement. She still wore the vellin bracelet on her
wrist—Matt had refused, absolutely, to take it back. It would serve no real
purpose in her world, she knew, save for memory—which, in its own way, was as
good a purpose as any.
Deep in the woods alone, reaching
painfully toward an inner peace, Kim stopped and stood in silence for a time,
listening to the birds overhead and the sighing of the breeze through the
leaves. It was so quiet here, so beautiful, she wanted to hold this to herself
forever.
Thinking so, she saw a flash of
color on the ground off to her right and realized, even before she moved, that
she was being given a final gift.
She walked over, following, as it
happened, the steps that Finn and Darien had taken on their last walk together
in the depths of winter. Then she knelt, as they had knelt, beside the bannion
growing there.
Blue-green flower with red at its
center like a drop of blood at the heart. They had left it, that day, gathering
other flowers to take back to Vae but not this one. And so it had remained for
Kim to take it for herself, tears welling at the richness of the memory it
stirred: her first walk in this wood with Ysanne, looking for this flower; then
a night by the lake under stars when Eilathen, summoned by flowerfire, had spun
the Tapestry for her.
The bannion was beautiful,
sea-colored around the brilliant red. She plucked it carefully and placed it in
her white hair. She thought of Eilathen, of the blue-green glitter of his naked
power. He too was lost to her, even if she had wanted to summon him, if only to
bid farewell. Be free of flowerfire, now
and evermore, Ysanne
had said, at the end, releasing him from guardianship of the red Warstone.
The bannion was beautiful but
powerless. It seemed to be a symbol of what had passed from her, what she could
no longer do. Magic had been given to her that starry night by this lake, and
it had rested in her for a tune and had gone. It would be better for her, in
every way, to be in her own world, she thought, to be removed from the
sharpness of these images.
She rose and started back, thinking
of Loren, who had to be dealing with the same withdrawal. Just as, she realized
suddenly, Matt had dealt with it for all the years he’d spent in Paras Derval,
fighting the pull of Calor Diman. The two of them had come full circle
together, she thought. There was a pattern in that, more beautiful and more
terrible than any mortal weaving could ever be.
She came out from the trees and
walked down to the lake. It was slightly choppy in the summer breeze. There was
the hint of a chill; overture to the coming of fall. Kim stepped out onto the
flat surface of the rock that jutted out over the water, just as she had done
before, with Ysanne, when the Seer had summoned the water spirit under the
stars.
Eilathen was down there, she knew,
far down among his twining corridors of seastone and seaweed, amid the deep
silence of his home. Inaccessible. Lost to her. She sat on the stone and
wrapped her arms about her drawn-up knees, trying to number blessings, to shape
sadness into joy.
For a long time she sat there,
looking out over the waters of the lake. It had to be late afternoon, she knew.
She should be starting back. It was so hard to leave, though. Rising up and
walking from this place would be an act as lonely and as final as any she’d
ever done.
So she lingered, and in time there
was a footfall on the rock behind her and then someone crouched down by her
side.
“I saw your horse by the cottage,”
Dave said. “Am I intruding?”
She smiled up at him and shook her
head. “I’m just saying my goodbyes before this evening.”
“So was I,” he said, gathering and
dispersing pebbles.
“You’re coming home too? “
“I just decided,” he said quietly.
There was a calmness, an assurance in his voice she’d not heard before.
Of all of them, Kim realized, Dave
had changed the most here. She and Paul and Jennifer seemed to have really just
gone further into what they’d already been before they came, and Kevin had
remained exactly what he always was, with his laughter and his sadness and the
sweetness of his soul. But this man crouching beside her, burned dark by the
summer sun of the Plain, was a very far cry from the one she’d met that first
evening in Convocation Hall, when she’d invited him to come sit with them and
hear Lorenzo Marcus speak.
She managed another smile. “I’m glad
you’re coming back,” she said.
He nodded, quietly self-possessed, looking at her in a calm silence for
a moment. Then his eyes flickered with a certain amusement that was also new.
“Tell me,” he said, “what are you
doing on Friday night?”
A little breathless laugh escaped
her. “Oh, Dave,” Kim said, “I don’t even know when Friday night is!”
He laughed too. Then the laughter
passed, leaving an easy smile. He stood up smoothly and held out a hand to help
her up.
“Saturday, then?” he asked, his eyes
holding hers.
And bursting within her then like
another kind of flowerfire. Kim had a sudden feeling, a flashing certainty,
that everything was going to be all right after all. It was going to be much
more than all right.
She gave him both her hands and let
him help her rise.
Here ends
THE DARKEST ROAD
and with
it THE FIONAVAR TAPESTRY