Barbara Hambly
[02 jun 2001 –
scanned for #bookz, proofread and released – v1]
[thanks to
tai-pan-up for the proofreading help!]
"HAS THE ARCHMAGE
RETURNED?"
The
wizard Thirle looked up sharply at Caris' question, strongly reminding the
young man of a fat gray field rabbit at the crack of a twig. Then he relaxed a
little. "Not yet." He picked up the garden trowel he'd dropped when
Caris' shadow had fallen over him on the brick steps of his house, where he had
been kneeling. He got to his feet with the awkward care of the very fat and
dusted off his black robe. "Can I help you?"
Caris
hesitated, his right hand resting loosely around the hilt of the sword thrust
through his frayed silk sash. He cast a quick glance at the doorway of the
house next door. Like all the houses on the Mages' Yard, it rose tall, narrow,
and cramped‑looking from the flagstones of the little court, dingy with
age and factory soot. Two or three of the other sasenna, the archaic order of
sworn warriors, lingered, waiting for him on the steps. Like him, they were
clothed in the loose black garments of their order, crisscrossed with sword
sashes and weapons belts; and like him, they were sweaty, bruised, and
exhausted from the afternoon's session with the swordmaster. He shook his head,
and they passed into the shadows of the carved slot of the doorway.
"I
don't know." He turned back to Thirle, noting automatically, as a sasennan
must, the tiny details‑the sweat on his brow, the twitch of his earth‑stained
fingers‑and wondered what it was that troubled him. "That is . .
."
The
look of preoccupied nervousness faded from the fat man's eyes, replaced by
genuine concern. "What is it, lad?"
For a moment, Caris debated about simply shrugging the problem off,
pushing it aside as he had pushed it aside last night, and returning to the
only matters which should concern the sasennan; serving his masters the mages
and bettering his own skills in the arts of war. "I don't know whether I
should be asking this or not," he began diffidently. "I know it isn't
the Way of the Sasenna to ask‑a weapon asks no questions of the hand that
wields it. But . . ."
Thirle
smiled and shook his head. "My dear Caris, how do we know what the dagger
thinks when it's sheathed, or what swords fear in the armory when the lights
are out? You know I've never approved of this business of the sasenna being‑being
like those machines that weave cloth and spin thread in the mills, that do one
job only and don't care what it is."
Under
the warm twinkle in his eyes Caris relaxed a little and managed a grin at
Thirle's heresy.
Of
the dozen or more houses around that small cobble-stoned court on the edge of
the ghetto of the Old Believers, only eight actually belonged to the Council of
Wizards; of those, three were rented out to those‑mostly Old Believers‑who
were willing to live near wizards. Few mages cared to live in the city of
Angelshand. Of those few, Caris had always liked Thirle.
The
Archmage, Caris' grandfather, had been absent since Caris had come out of the
morning's training. If he did not return before dinner, there was little chance
Caris would be able to speak with him until tomorrow.
It
was not the Way of the Sasenna to fear, and Caris did not think he could endure
another unsleeping night with the secret of his fear gnawing his heart.
But
having spent the last five years in rigorous training of muscle and nerves, he
was uncertain how to speak of fear. Nervously, he ran his scarred fingers
through his short‑cropped blond hair, now stiff with the drying sweat of
training. "I don't know whether I should speak of this," he said
hesitantly. "It's just that‑A weapon wasn't always what I was."
He struggled with himself for a moment, then asked, "Is there any way that
a mage can lose his magic?"
Thirle's
reaction was as unexpected as it was violent. A flush of anger mottled the fat
cheeks and layers of chin. "No!" He almost shouted the word. "We
are born with powers, some greater, some lesser. They are like our flesh, like
our souls."
Confused at this rage, Caris began, "Not even . . ."
"Be
silent!" Thirle's face had gone yellow as tallow now with fury. "You
might have been mageborn to begin with boy, but your powers never amounted to
anything. There's no way you could know about power. You are forbidden to speak
of it. Forbidden!" he added furiously, as Caris opened his mouth to
explain.
To
be sasenna is first to serve; when, after three years' grueling training in the
arts of war and the sneakier deaths of peacetime, Caris had made the last
decision of his life, he had sworn his warrior's vows to the Council of
Wizards. The vows held good. He closed his mouth, willing himself not to feel
the scathe of astonished hurt, and made himself incline his head.
His
hands shaking, Thirle picked up his trowel and watering can and hurried through
the door of the house, slamming it behind him. Standing on the step, Caris
observed that the little wage had been so agitated that he'd left half his
beloved pot‑plants, which clustered the step and every windowsill within
reach, unwatered. Across the city, the big clock on the St. Cdr fortress began
striking five. Caris would have less than an hour for dinner before going on
duty in the refectory when the wages ate.
Confused, Caris moved down the step with the sasennan's lithe walk. He
felt shocked and stung, as if he had been unexpectedly bitten by a loved old
dog; but then, he reflected a little bitterly, it was not the Way of the
Sasenna to pat even a loved and toothless old dog without one hand on one's
knife. He made his way to the house next door that was shared by the novice
wages and the sasenna of the Council with the frightening chill that lay in his
heart unassuaged.
It was years since Caris had even thought of himself as mageborn. He was
nineteen, and for five years he had given himself, heart and soul, to the Way
of the Sasenna. But he had originally entered it, as many mageborn did, only as
the gateway to greater learning which had never materialized.
His powers, he knew, had never been much‑a sharpness of sight in
the dark and a certain facility for finding lost objects. In his childhood he
had desperately wanted to become a wage and to take the vows of the Council of
Wizards in order to serve and be with his grandfather, who even then had been the
Archmage. From studying the Way of the Sasenna as a means to an end, it had
become an end in itself; when he had realized, as he eventually had, that his
powers were insufficient to permit him to become a wizard, he had remained as a
sasennan. When it had come time to take his warrior's vows, it was to the
Council that he had taken them.
Was that why Thirle had refused to reply? he wondered. Because Cans,
having what he had, had turned from it?
It might have explained his refusal to answer, but, thought Caris uneasily,
it did not explain the note of fear in his voice.
At
dinner that night Thirle was absent‑odd, for though the wizards in
general ate plainly, the little botanist was still very fond of the pleasures
of the table.
There
were seven wizards and two novices who lived in the Court. The fourteen sasenna
who served them regularly traded off dinner duty, some serving, some standing
guard, as there were always sasenna standing guard somewhere in the Yard‑a
few still sleeping, or just waked and ready to go on night watch. Though few of
the thieves and cutpurses that swarmed the dark slums of Angelshand would go
near the Yard, the mageborn had long ago learned that it never paid to be
completely unguarded.
A
little uneasily, Caris noted that the Archmage had not yet returned. His place
at the high table had been taken by the Lady Rosamund, a beautiful woman of
about forty, who had been born Lady Rosamund Kentacre. Her father, the Earl
Maritime, had disowned her when she had sworn the vows of the Council of
Wizards‑not, Caris had heard rumored, because in doing so she had
revealed herself to be mageborn in the first place, but because the vows
precluded using her powers to benefit the Kentacre family's political
ambitions. Undoubtedly the Earl had known‑his daughter had been nearly
twenty when she had sought out the Council‑and had probably arranged to
have her secretly taught in the arts of magic by one of the quacks or dog
wizards who abounded in such numbers in any major city of the Empire. But for Lady
Rosamund, the half‑understood jumble of piesog, hearsay, and garbled
spells used for fees by the dog wizards had not been enough. To obtain true
teaching, she must take the Council Vows, the first of which was that she must
never use what she had learned either to harm or to help any living thing.
"He should never have gone without a guard," she was saying, as
Caris bore a tray of duck and braided breads up to the high table.
Beside her, the thin, tired‑looking Whitwell Simm protested,
"The Regent wouldn't dare . . ."
"Wouldn't he?" Cold fire sparked in her green glance. "The
Prince Regent hates the mageborn, and always has hated us. I'm told that the
other night, after a ball in the city, he was getting into his carriage when an
old man, a shabby old dog wizard, accidentally brushed up against him on the
flagway. Prince Pharos had two of his sasenna hold the old man while he almost
beat the poor wretch to death with his cane. The rumors of what goes on in the
dungeons of the old Summer Palace, which he has taken for his own, are a
scandal. He is as mad as his father."
"The
difference being," remarked Issay Bel‑Caire on her other side,
"that his father is not dangerous, except perhaps to himself."
At
the foot of the table, the two novices‑a short, redhaired girl of
seventeen or so and a creamily dark, thin girl a few years older‑said
nothing, but listened with uneasy avidity, knowing that this was not merely
gossip, but something which could easily affect their lives. Near them old Aunt
Min, the most ancient of the mages who dwelt in the Yard, sat slumped like a
little black bag of laundry in her chair, snoring softly. With a smile of
affection for the old lady, Caris woke her gently up; she lifted her head with
a start and fumbled at the tangle of her eternal knitting with hands as tiny
and fragile as a finch's claws, muttering to herself all the while.
Whitwell
Simm said, "Even if the Prince hates us, even if he believes our magic is
nothing but charlatanry, like that of the dog wizards, you know he'd never dare
to harm the Archmage. Neither the Council nor, as a matter of fact, the Church,
would permit it. And we don't know that Salteris has gone to the Palace . .
."
"With
the Regent's sasenna everywhere in the city," retorted Lady Rosamund
coolly, "it scarcely matters where he goes. Prince Pharos is a madman and
should have been barred from the succession long ago in favor of his
cousin."
Issay
laughed. "Cerdic? Maybe, if you want quacks and dog wizards like Magister Magus ruling the Empire."
Her
ladyship's aristocratic lip curled at the mention of the most popular
charlatan in Angelshand, but she turned her attention to her plate with her
usual air of arctic self‑righteousness, as if secure in the knowledge
that all opposing arguments were specious and deliberately obstructive.
Caris,
clearing up the plates afterwards and getting ready for the one last training
session with the other sasenna which the incredible length of the midsummer
evenings permitted, felt none of the wizards' qualms for his grandfather's
safety. This was not so much because he did not believe the mad Regent capable
of anything‑by all accounts he was‑but because Caris did not truly
think anyone or anything capable of trapping or harming his grandfather.
Since
Caris was a child, he had known Salteris Solaris as his grandfather, a
mysterious man who visited his grandmother's farm beyond the bounds of their
Wheatlands village, sometimes twice in a summer, sometimes for the length of a
winter's storm. He had known that afterwards his mother's mother would sing at
her household tasks for weeks. The old man's hair had been dark then, like that
of Caris' mother‑Caris took after the striking blond beauty of his slow‑moving,
good‑natured father. But Caris had the Archmage's eyes, deep brown, like
the dark earth of the Wheatlands, the color of the very old leaves seen under
clear water, tilted up slightly at their outer ends. For a time, it had seemed
that he had inherited something else from him besides. When he had taken his
vows as sasennan to the Council, it had been with the aim of serving the old
man as a warrior, if he did not have the power to do so as a wizard. Only
lately had it come to him that there would be a time when it would not be the
old man who was its head.
Caris
was too much a sasennan even to think about his grandfather, or the secret fear
which he had carried within him, during that evening's training. With the
endless, tepid twilight of midsummer filtering through the long windows of the
training floor on the upper storey of the novices' house, the swordmaster put
the small class through endless rounds of practice sparring with split bamboo
training swords. Ducking, parrying, leaping, pressing, and retreating under the
continuous raking of barked instruction and jeers, in spite of five years of
hard training Caris was still sodden with sweat and bruised all over by the
time he was done, convinced he'd never be able to pick up a sword again. He
was familiar with the sensation. In that kind of training, there was no room
for any other thought in the mind; indeed, that was part of the training—to
inculate the single‑mindedness critical to a warrior, the hair‑trigger
watching for the flick of an opponent's eyelid, the twitch of the lip or the
finger, that presaged a killing blow . . . or sometimes the sense of danger in
the absence of any physical sign at all.
By the time it was too dark to see, it was past ten o'clock, and Caris,
exhausted, stumbled with the other sasenna back downstairs to bathe and collapse
into bed. It wasn't until he was awakened by he knew not what in the tar‑black
deeps of the night that he remembered his grandfather and what he had wanted to
ask of him, and by then it was too late.
His magic was gone.
Long before, Caris had given up his belief in his magic. Only now, lying
in the warm, gluey blackness, did he understand how deeply its roots had run
and how magic had made the skeleton of his very soul. Without it, life was
nothing, a hollow, gray world, not even bitter. It was as if all things had
decayed to the color and texture of dust‑as if the color had been bled
even from his dreams.
He had heard the mages speak in whispers of those things by which a
mage's power could be bound‑spell‑cord and the sigils made of iron,
gold, or cut jewels, imbued with signs that crippled and drained a wizard's
powers, leaving him helpless against his foes. But there was nothing of that in
this terrible emptiness. His soul was a mold with the wax melted out, into
which no bronze would ever be poured‑only dust, filling all the spaces
where the magic had been.
He
would have wept, had the Way of the Sasenna not forbidden tears.
Unable
to bear the hot, close darkness of the sasenna's dormitory another moment, he
pulled on his breeches and shirt and stumbled downstairs to the door. The Way
of the Sasenna whispered to him that he ought also to put on his boots and his
sword belt; but with the loss of his magic, all things else seemed equally
trivial and not worth the doing. The fresher air out on the brick steps revived
him a little. Across the narrow, cobblestoned Yard, he could hear the sleepy
twittering of birds under the eaves of the houses opposite. Among the squalid
alleyways of the Old Believers' ghetto, a cock crowed.
Thirle
had said that it could not happen‑ever. But it had happened to him last
night, a few moments' sickening waning that had wakened him, his heart pounding
with cold terror. It was something he knew even then should not happen, as
Thirle had said . . . And now magic was gone completely.
He leaned against the carved doorframe, hugging himself wretchedly,
wondering why he could feel almost nothing, not even real grief‑just a
kind of hollowness that nothing, throughout the length of his life, would ever
again fill. Looking across to the tall, narrow windows of his grandfather's
little house, he wondered if the old man had returned. The windows were dark,
but that would not necessarily mean he was asleep‑he often sat up reading
without light, as the mageborn could do. Perhaps he would know something Thirle
did not.
But
at the same time, it seemed pointless to speak of it now. Gone was gone. Like
his long‑departed virginity, it was something, he told himself, that he
would never recover. To the west, a drift of noise floated from the more
populous streets of Angelshand, from the bawdy theaters on Angel's Island near
the St. Cyr fortress, and from the more elegant gaming halls near the Imperial
Palace quarter. Carriage wheels rattled distantly on granite pavement; voices
yelled in all‑night taverns.
Almost
without thinking of it, Caris found himself descending the brick steps, feeling
for the purse in his breeches pocket, knowing he was going to go over to the
Standing Stallion and get drunk.
Get
drunk? He
stopped, surprised and disgusted with himself. There was no stricture against
the sasenna drinking. If need arose, Caris could hold his own against most of
his mates when they went to the taverns; but on the whole, he preferred to
remain sober. It was the Way of the Sasenna to be ready to fight at all times,
and Caris had never believed in blurring that edge.
But
now none of it seemed to matter. He was dimly aware that what he wanted was not
the wine, but the numbing of his awareness of grief, and he knew also that it
would do him more harm than good. But, after a moment's hesitation, he sighed,
not even caring that he was unarmed and hadn't put on his boots, and continued
down the stairs.
As
his bare foot touched the uneven cobbles of the court, he heard Thirle's voice
cry desperately. "NO!"
Five
years of training had inculcated into Caris the automatic reaction of drop and
roll for cover until it was instinct. But now he stood, paralyzed like a
stupid peasant, in the waxy moonlight at the foot of the step as the fat black
shape of the wizard came stumbling out of a nearby alley, aptly named Stinking
Lane. He saw the man's round moonface clearly and the shocked panic in his eyes
as Thirle began to run clumsily across the court, arms outspread like a bird's
wings for balance.
From the darkness on the opposite side of the Yard, Caris heard the crack
of a pistol.
Thirle rocked back sharply at the impact of the bullet, his feet flying
out from under him as he flopped grotesquely on the stones. A dark shape broke
cover from the shadows on the opposite side of the court, running toward
Thirle, toward the mouth of Stinking Lane behind him, a black cloak covering
him like a wing of shadows. All this Caris watched, but all of it, including
the fact that he knew Thirle was dead, was less to him than his grief for the
loss of his magic. None of it mattered‑none of it had anything to do with
him. But deep within him shock and horror stirred‑at what was happening
and at himself.
In a daze of anger, he forced himself to run, to intercept that fleeing
black figure. He'd gone two steps when the digging bite of the cobbles on his
bare feet reminded him belatedly that he had neither boots nor weapons.
Cursing the carelessness and stupidity that seemed to be upon him tonight, he
flung himself to one side into the black pocket of shadow between the novices'
house and Thirle's. From across the court, he caught the flash of a pistol shot.
Splinters of brick exploded from the corner of the house, so close to his
face that they tore his cheek. He knew it would take his man some moments to
reload and knew he should dart out and take him then‑but he hesitated,
panic he had never known clutching at his belly. He heard feet pounding the
cobbles and forced himself to stumble upright, to race in pursuit, but his legs
dragged as if tangled in wet rope. It meant nothing to him. His soul had turned
as sterile and cold as the magicless world around him. It would be easier to
stop now, shrug, and go back to bed, Thirle's body would still be there in the
morning. Dully angry at himself, he made himself run. For five years, in spite
of exhaustion, occasional illness, and injuries, he had made himself pick up
the sword for training, but forcing himself now was more difficult than it had
ever been. In some oblique corner of his mind, he wondered if this were a spell
of some kind, but it was unlike any spell he had ever known.
His
steps slowed. The fugitive leaped over Thirle's body and vanished into the
utter blackness of Stinking Lane. Caris dodged sideways, pressing against the
house wall and slipping forward to the corner, knees flexed, ready to drop if
that hand with its pistol appeared around the edge. The two shots had been so
close together that the killer must have had two weapons‑both empty now‑and
possibly he had a third. Through Caris' thin shirt, he felt the roughness of
the coarse‑plastered wall and the dampness that stuck the thin fabric to his
ribs with sweat. He found he was exhausted, panting as if he had run miles.
He reached the mouth of the lane and looked around.
He
saw nothing. No light‑no walls‑no sky. There was only a black and
endless hollow, an abyss that seemed to swallow time itself, as if not only the
world, but the universe, ended beyond the narrow band of pallid moonlight that
lay on the cobbles beneath his feet.
Terror
tightened like a garrote around his throat. He had not felt that hideous,
nightmare fear since he had waked in the night as a small child to see the
gleam of rats' eyes winking at him in the utter dark of the loft where he
slept. Staring into that emptiness of endless nothing, he felt horror pressing
upon him, horror of he knew not what‑the whisper of the winds of eternity
along his uncovered bones. He pressed his face to the stone of the wall,
squeezing his eyes shut, unable to breathe. He felt in danger, but his
training, like his magic, had deserted him; he wanted to run, but knew not in
which direction safety would lie. It was not death he feared‑he did not
know what it was.
Then
the feeling was gone. Like a man dreaming, who feels even in sleep the
refreshing storm break the lour of summer heat, he felt the hideous weight of
hopelessness lift from him. Still pressed to the chill stone of the wall, Caris
felt as if he had waked suddenly, his heart pounding and his breathing
erratic, but his mind clear. His magic‑that trace of intense awareness
that all his life had colored his perceptions‑had returned. With it came
a moment's blinding fury at himself for being so child‑simple as to
wander abroad unarmed and barefoot.
His knees felt weak at the thought of what he knew he must do. It took
all his will to force himself to move forward again, crouching below eye level
though he knew that the man with the pistols was gone. It was the Way of the
Sasenna never to take chances.
Cautiously,
he peered around the corner into the alley.
Filtered
moonlight showed him the moss‑furred cobbles, the battered walls of the
houses, and the glitter of noisome gutter‑water in the canyon of dark.
There was a puddle right across the mouth of the lane, too wide to jump, but
there were no prints on the other side.
Caris
turned back to where Thirle lay like a beached and dying whale in the silver
wash of the faint starlight. Lights were going up in the houses around the
Yard, and voices and footsteps made a muffled clamor on the edges of the
darkness. As he reached Thirle's side, Caris saw the dark glitter that covered
all the breast of his robe. With a guttural gasp, the fat man's body twitched,
lungs sucking air desperately. Caris fell to his knees beside him, and for one
moment the dark, frantic eyes met his.
Then Thirle whispered, "Antryg," and died.
"The police must be fetched."
The Archmage Salteris Solaris, kneeling beside Thirle's body, made no
reply to the words of the skinny old swordmaster, who stood in the little
cluster of men and women, Old Believers and novices, all clutching
bedclothes about them and looking down at the body with the wild eyes of those
startled by gunshots from sleep. Caris, kneeling beside him, looked from the
corpse's eyes, staring blindly now at the faint pearliness of false dawn
visible between the crowding black angles of the roofs, to the thin, aquiline
features of his grandfather. The old man's white brows were pinched down over
the bridge of his nose, and there was grief in his eyes for the loss of one he
had known for so many years—grief and something else Caris could not
understand. The old man glanced up at the crowd behind them and said "Yes‑perhaps."
The Lady Rosamund, standing fully dressed even to the hyacinth stole of a
Council member‑a mark of rank that the Archmage seldom wore sneered. As
the scion of one of the noblest houses in the land, she had little use for such
bourgeois institutions as the Metropolitan Police. "The constables will
find some reason to wait until light to come."
Salteris'
thin mouth twitched in a faint smile. "Very likely." He looked back
down at the plump heap of black robes. In the soft glow of bluish witchlight
that illuminated the scene, hanging like St. Elmo's fire above his high,
balding forehead and flowing white hair, the muscles of his lean jaw tightened.
Something twisted inside Caris, and he put out a hand to touch the old
man's square, slender shoulder in comfort, but he remembered that he was
sasenna and stopped himself with the gesture unmade. He was used to death, as
the sasenna must be. He had killed his first man at fifteen; the schools of the
sasenna were given prisoners condemned to die by the Emperor or the Church, for
even in peacetime, they said, the sword blade must learn the taste of flesh. As
the sworn weapon of the Council of Wizards, he would have cut Thirle's throat
himself, had they ordered it. But still, it had been many years since anyone he
had known personally had died. A little to his shame, he found that the
training had not changed that shocked grief of loss, and anger stirred in him
that anyone would cause the Archmage pain.
Salteris
stood up, his black robes falling straight and heavy around his thin form. For
all his snow‑white hair, for all the worn fragility that had begun to
come over him in the last few years, he took no hand to help him. "We
should get him inside," he said softly. He looked over at the two sasenna
who had been on patrol duty that night. When they opened their mouths to
protest that they had been in the alleys on the far side of the Yard, he waved
them quiet. "It was no one's fault," he said gently. "I believe
Thirle was killed only because he was in the man's way as he fled ‑perhaps
because Thirle saw him and would give the alarm."
"No,"
a cracked, thin old voice said from the darkness of Stinking Lane. "You forgot
about the Gate‑the Gate into the Darkness‑the Gate of the Void . .
."
Salteris'
head turned sharply. Caris stepped forward in a half‑second of reflex,
readying himself to defend his grandfather, then relaxed once more as he
recognized the voice. "Aunt Min?"
From
the shadows of Stinking Lane, the bent form of the old lady who had once been
known throughout the Council as Minhyrdin the Fair hobbled determinedly, her
black robes coming untucked from her belt and dragging in the puddles, her
workbasket with its everlasting knitting dangling haphazardly at her side. Half‑exasperated,
half‑concerned for the old lady, Caris hurried forward to take her
fragile arm.
"You shouldn't be up and about, Aunt Min. Not tonight . . ."
She
waved the remark fussily away and twisted her head on her bent spine to look up
at Salteris and Lady Rosamund, who had also come to her side. "There is
evil abroad," she piped. "Evil from other worlds than this. Only a
curtain of gauze separates us from them. The Dark Mage knew . . ."
Salteris
held up his hand quickly against that name, his silky white brows plunging
together. Caris glanced quickly from him to Aunt Min, who had returned to
fussing with the trailing strands of her knitting, and then back. "Other
worlds?" he asked worriedly. His eyes went unwillingly to the dark maw of
the alley, an uneven agglomerate of dim stone angles, with the gutter picking
up the quicksilver light of the sky like a broken sword blade. "But‑but
this is the world. There is no other. The Sun and Moon go around us . . ."
Salteris
shook his head. "No, my son," he said. "They've known for years
now that it is we who go around the Sun, and not the Sun around us, though the
Church hasn't admitted it yet. But that is not what Aunt Min means." He
frowned unseeing for a moment into the distance. "Yes, the Dark Mage
knew." His voice sank to a whisper. "As do L" He put his arm
around the old lady's stooped shoulders. "Come. Before all else, we must
get him inside."
They
sent one of the night‑watch sasenna‑the only two sasenna to be
dressed‑for a physician. Rather to Caris' surprise, it was less than a
half‑hour before he arrived. In the low‑roofed closeness of the
Archmage's narrow study, Caris was telling Salteris, Lady Rosamund, and old
Aunt Min of what he had seen‑the pistol‑shots, the chase, the
terrible Gate of Darkness‑when he heard the swift tap‑tap of hooves
in the Yard and the brisk rattle of what sounded like a gig. He was surprised
that any citizen of Angelshand would come to the Mages' Yard during the dark
hours, and even more so when the man entered the study. He had expected
Salteris to send for a healer of the Old Believers, whose archaic faith was
still more than a little mixed with wizardry. But the man who entered wore the
dapper blue knee breeches and full‑skirted coat of a professional
of the city.
"Dr. Narwahl Skipfrag." Salteris rose from the carved ebony
chair in which he had been sitting, extending a strong, slender hand. The physician
took it and inclined his head, his bright blue eyes taking in every detail of
that small room, with its dark ranks of books, its embryos bottled in honey or
brandy, and its geometric models and crystal prisms.
"I came as quickly as I could."
"There was no need for haste." Salteris gestured him to the chair
that Caris brought silently up. "The man was killed almost at once."
One of Skipfrag's sparse, sandy eyebrows tilted sharply up. He was a tall
man, stoutish and snuff‑colored, with his hair tied back in an oldfashioned
queue. In spite of the fact that he must have been wakened by Salteris'
messenger, his broad linen cravat was neatly tied and his shirtruflies
unrumpled.
"Dr. Narwahl Skipfrag," Salteris introduced. "Lady
Minhyrdin, Lady Rosamund‑my grandson Caris, sasennan of the Council, who
witnessed the shooting. Dr. Narwahl Skipfrag, Royal Physician to the Emperor
and my good friend."
As
a sasennan should, Caris concealed his surprise. Few professionals believed in
the power of wizards anymore, and certainly no one associated with the Court
would admit to the belief these days, much less to friendship with the
Archmage. But Dr. Skipfrag smiled, and nodded to Lady Rosamund. "We have
met, I think, in another life."
As
if against her will a slight answering smile warmed her ladyship's mouth.
Slumped
in her chair, without raising her eyes from her knitting, Aunt Min inquired,
"And how does his Majesty?"
Skipfrag's
face clouded a little. "His health is good." He spoke as one who
remarks the salvage of an heirloom gravy boat from the wreck of a house.
Lady
Rosamund's full mouth tightened. "A pity, in a way." Salteris gave
her a questioning look, but Skipfrag merely gazed down at his own broad white
hands. She shrugged. "Good health is no gift to him. Without a mind, the
man is better dead. After four years, it is scarcely likely he will reawaken
one morning sane."
"He
may surprise us all one day," Skipfrag remarked. "I daresay his son
thinks as you do."
At
the mention of the Prince Regent, Lady Rosamund's chilly green eyes narrowed.
"It
is about his son, in a way," Salteris cut in softly, "that I asked
you here, Narwahl. The man who was killed was a mage."
The
physician was silent. Salteris leaned back in his chair, the glow of the
witchlight gleaming above his head and haloing the silver flow of his long hair.
For a time he, too, said nothing, his folded hands propped before his mouth,
forefingers extended and resting against his lips. "My grandson says that
he heard Thirle cry `No!' at the sight of a man standing in the shadows on
this side of the court‑the man who shot him, fleeing to the alley across
the yard. Caris did not see which house the killer stood near, but I suspect it
was this one."
The
bright blue eyes turned grave. "Sent by the Regent Pharos, you mean?"
"Pharos has never made any secret of his hatred for the
mageborn."
"No,"
Dr. Skipfrag agreed and thoughtfully stared into the witchlight that hung above
the tabletop for a moment. He reached out absentmindedly toward it and pinched
it, like a man pinching out a candle‑his forefinger and thumb went
straight through the white seed of light in the glowing ball's heart, the black
shadows of his fingers swinging in vast, dark bars across the low rafters of
the ceiling and the book‑lined walls. "Interesting," he
murmured. "Not even a change in temperature." His blue eyes returned
to Salteris. "And that's odd in itself, isn't it?"
Salteris
nodded, understanding. Caris, standing quietly in a corner, as was the place of
a sasennan, was very glad when Lady Rosamund demanded, "Why? Few believe
in our powers these days." There was bitter contempt in her voice.
"They work in their factories or their shops and they would rather believe
that magic did not exist, if they can't use it to tamper with the workings of
the universe for their personal convenience."
Softly, the Archmage murmured, "That is as it should be."
The
deep lines around Skipfrag's eyes darkened and moved with his smile.
"No," he said. "Most of them don't even believe in the dog wizards,
you know. Or they half believe them, or go to them in secret‑the dog
wizards, the charlatans, the quacks, who never learned true magic because they
would not take Council vows, so all they can do is brew love‑philters and
cast runes in some crowded shop that stinks of incense, or at most be like
Magister Magus, hanging around the fringes of the Court and hoping to get
funding to turn lead into gold. Why do you think the Church's Witchfinders
don't arrest them for working magic outside the Council vows? They only serve
to feed the people's disbelief, and that is what the Witchfinders want.
"But the Regent . . ." He shook his head.
Through the tall, narrow windows at the far end of the room, standing
open in the murky summer heat, the sounds of the awakening city could now be heard.
Caris identified automatically the brisk tap of butchers' and poulterers'
wagons hastening to their early rounds, the dismal singsong of an itinerant
noodle vendor, and the clatter of farm carts coming to the city markets with
the morning's produce. Dawn was coming, high and far off over the massive
granite city; the smell of the river and the salt scent of the harbor came to
him, with the distant mewing of the harbor birds. At the other end of the
table, Salteris was listening in ophidian silence. Aunt Min had every
appearance of having fallen asleep.
Skipfrag sighed, and his oak chair creaked a little as he stirred his
bulk. "I was his Majesty's friend for many years," he said quietly.
"You know, Salteris, that he was always a friend to the mages, for all he
held them at an arm's length for political reasons. He believed‑else he
would never have raised the army that helped you defeat the Dark Mage
Suraklin."
Salteris did not move, but the witchlight flickered with the movement of
his dark eyes, and something of his attitude reminded Caris of a dozing hound
waked at an unfamiliar footfall.
"Pharos'
hatred of you is more than disbelief," Skipfrag went on quietly. "He
blames you for his father's madness."
Lady
Rosamund waved a dismissive hand. "He was hateful from his boyhood and
suspicious of everything."
"Perhaps
so," Salteris murmured. "But it is also true that, of late, the
Regent's antipathy toward us has grown to a mania. He may fear me too much to
move against me openly‑but it is possible that he would send an
assassin." His dark eyes went to Skipfrag. "Can you find out for me
at Court?"
The
physician thought for a moment, then nodded. "I think so. I still have
Pharos' ear and many other friends there as well. I think I can learn
something."
"Good."
Salteris got to his feet and clapped Skipfrag lightly on the arm as the big man
rose, dwarfing the Archmage's slenderness against his blue‑coated bulk.
Caris, hurrying before them to open the outer door, saw in the watery dawnlight
outside that Thirle's blood had already been washed from the cobbles in front
of Stinking Lane; the puddles of water left by it were slimy and dismal‑looking.
The swordmaster and the two novices still stood on the brick steps of the
novices' house, talking quietly, all three wrapped in bedgowns, though, Caris
noticed, the swordmaster had her scabbarded blade still in hand, ready for
action.
It
occurred to him suddenly to wonder, as he watched Salteris usher the physician
over to his waiting gig, what Thirle had been doing abroad at that hour of the
night at all? For that matter, what had Rosamund been doing up; she had been
fully dressed, her hair not even crumpled from the pillow, so she must have
been so for some time. He glanced back into the room behind him. Aunt Min, too,
was dressed, though her thin, straggly white hair was mussed‑but of
course, reflected Caris, with rueful affection for the old lady, it always was.
Had
they all, like himself, been restless with the damp warmth of the night?
Tepid
dawn air stirred in his close‑cropped, fair hair and stung the tender
cuts on his cheek, where the assassin's bullet had driven brickchips into his
face. The day was beginning to blush color into the houses opposite, the black
half‑timbering of their shabby fronts taking on their daytime variation
of browns and grays. The jungly riot of Thirle's pot plants was wakening to
green in daylight their owner would never see.
Down
in the Yard, Skipfrag was climbing into his gig, adjusting his voluminous coat
skirts and gathering the reins of the smart bay hack that stood between the
shafts. Salteris stood beside the horse's quarters, talking quietly to him.
The physician's voice came clearly to Caris where he stood on the steps.
"It's best I was gone. My reputation as a physician might carry off
experiments with electricity, but it would never recover, if word got around I
believed in magic. I'll learn for you what I can—do what I can, at Court. Until
then, watch yourself, my friend."
Salteris
stepped back as Skipfrag turned the gig. The iron wheels clattered sharply on
the stones. Then the Emperor's physician was gone.
The
Archmage stood still for some time after Skipfrag was gone. The brick steps
were cool under Caris' bare feet, and the dawn air stirred his torn and muddied
shirt. He looked down at his grandfather in the paling light of the Yard and
noted again how the old man had aged in the eighteen months since Caris had
taken his vows and come to live at the Mages' Yard. When he had last seen the
Archmage before that time before he had gone into training in the Way of the
Sasenna‑the old man had had a kind of wiry strength for all his age. Now
he seemed like antique ivory worn to the snapping‑point. With a sigh, the
old man turned back, stopped, and looked up when he saw Caris on the steps.
"What did Aunt Min mean?" Caris asked softly. "About other
worlds? About the Void and the Gate in the Void?" He came down the steps
and offered the old man his steadying hand. "Are there worlds, besides
this?"
This time Salteris took the hand. The cold, thin fingers felt delicate as
bird bone. Not a big man, Caris was conscious as he had never been before that
he stood slightly taller than the Archmage, this gentle old grandfather who had
once lifted him up in childhood. Though it was not his way to think much about
the passage of time, he felt its fleeting shadow brush his thoughts. He was
silent as he helped the old man to the top of the steps.
As they stood there together, the Archmage was quiet, too, considering,
as he often seemed to do, what he could say to one who did not have the
training in magic ever to understand fully.
Then he nodded. "Yes," he said quietly. "And I very much
fear that what you saw, my son, was a Gate such as Aunt Min described‑a
Gate through the Void that separates world from world."
Caris stammered, "I‑I've never heard of such a thing."
A faint smile flicked those thin lips. "Few have," the Archmage
said softly. "And fewer still have crossed that Void, as I have‑once‑and
walked in a world on its other side." For a moment, the dark eyes seemed
to gaze beyond him, as if they saw past the stones of the Yard, past the dawn
sky, past the cosmos itself. "As far as I know, only two men in this world
have ever had an understanding of what the Void itself is, how it works, and how
to touch and feel it, to see across it to its other side. One of them is dead .
. ." He hesitated, then sighed again. "The other one is Antryg
Windrose."
"Antryg?"
Caris murmured. "Thirle said that name . . ."
Salteris
glanced at him quickly, and the long white eyebrows quirked up. "Did
he?" A moment's doubt crossed the dark eyes, then he smiled. "He
would have, if he thought‑as I do‑that some danger might be coming
to us from across the Void. Antryg," he repeated, and Caris felt a
stirring in his memory, like an old story overheard in childhood.
"Antryg," Lady Rosamund's derisive voice echoed behind them.
Caris
turned. Darkly beautiful, she stood in the doorway of the house behind them,
her slender white hands folded around the buckle of her belt, her dark curls
lying thick on her shoulders like a careless glory of raven flowers.
Memory
seemed to filter back to him of things spoken across him, without his
understanding, by the mages. "He was a wizard, wasn't he?"
"Is,"
the Archmage said. He shifted his dark robes up on his thin shoulders, and his
eyes, again, seemed to look out across time.
"A
dog wizard." Lady Rosamund's voice could have laid frost‑flowers on
glass. "Forsworn of his vows and no more than the dog wizards who peer
into treacle and asses' dung for the secrets of gold and immortality at the
bidding of any who'll pay."
"Maybe,"
Salteris said softly. "Except that he is, beyond a doubt, the most
powerful mage now living. Thirteen years ago, he was the youngest member ever
elected to the Council of Wizards‑three years later he was expelled from
the Council, stripped of his rank, and banished for meddling in the quarrel
between the Lords of the Wheatlands and the Emperor. Since that time, he has
been reinstated and banished again, and I and the other mages have had occasion
to hunt him half across the face of the world."
Caris
frowned. Half‑recalled childhood memories ghosted into his mind, framed
in amber hearthlight‑the Archmage sitting beside the brick chimney oven
of Caris' grandmother's house, and beside him the tall, thin young man he'd
brought with him, gravely constructing a pinwheel by the light of the kitchen
fire, or telling horrific ghost stories in a deep, extraordinary voice that was
beautiful and flamboyant as embroidered brocade.
"Is he evil?" Caris did not remember evil.
Salteris
thought for a moment, then shook his head. "I don't think so. But his
motives have always been obscure. No one has ever, as far as I know, been able
to tell what he would do, or why. He is, as I said, more powerful than any mage
now living, including myself. But his mind is like a murky and bottomless well,
into which all the wisdom of the ages and all the accumulated trivia of several
universes have been indiscriminately dumped. He is both wise and innocent,
incredibly devious and hopelessly scatterbrained, and by this time, I fear,
quite mad."
Lady
Rosamund shrugged with the grace that only years with a deportment master
could impart. "He has always been mad."
"True."
A smile flicked across the old man's face. "But the problem with Antryg is
that no one has ever been able to tell just how mad." Then the lightness
died from his eyes. "And for the past seven years he has been a prisoner
in the Silent Tower, whose very stones are spelled against the working of
magic. After that long, held prisoner by the Church and separated from the
magic that is the core of any wizard's being, I can only hope that Antryg
Windrose is still sane enough to help us. For I fear that, if we are dealing
with some threat from another world than our own, we may need his help very
badly."
**ERROR:
UNRECOGNIZED CONDITION IN BINARY TREE STRUCTURE
OK >
"Binary
tree?" Joanna Sheraton groaned. "I just corrected the goddam binary
tree."
Patiently, she typed:
> SEARCH: TREE. DATA.O
OK >
> EXECUTE TIGER.REVH
A moment later, green letters materialized on the gray of the screen:
**ERROR:
UNRECOGNIZED CONDITION IN BINARY TREE STRUCTURE "CORRECT AND RE‑TRY:
OK >
"I'll
give you an unrecognized condition," she muttered. She scanned up the
screen, looking for anything else in the miles of data that could conceivably
be preventing the running of the program. "Well, what's wrong with it? You
didn't like my tone of voice? I didn't say `Mother, may I'?" She tried
again:
]SEARCH:
TREE.DATA.O
OK
> EXECUTE 11GER.REV8
**ERROR.
UNRECOGNIZED CONDITION IN BINARY TREE STRUCTURE
"CORRECT
AND RE‑TRY:
OK >
"You
know, I'm getting very tired of your OK." She pushed the soft tangle of
her shoulder‑length, too‑curly blond hair from her eyes and reached
for the much‑thumbed program that rested on top of the precarious stacks
of printouts, manuals, schematic drawings of Tiger missiles, and scrawly
handwritten ads for the in‑plant newspaper, the San Serano Spectrum, that
heaped the desk on all sides of the keyboard. "And I'm also getting very
tired of you," she added, scanning the long, cryptic columns on the
screen. "You're supposed to be the hottest mainframe west of Houston, you
know. We shouldn't have to play Twenty Questions in binary every time I want to
run a . . ."
Her hand froze in mid‑gesture.
There was someone out in the hall.
But
when she listened, she heard nothing but the faint hum of air conditioning.
Even the massive radios of the janitorial staff, which generally drove her to
take long walks to the coffee machines in the far corners of Building Six, had
ceased, she realized, some time ago.
It occurred to her that it must be very late.
Security, she
told herself and turned back to the monitor.
She didn't believe it.
She'd worked enough overtime, running analyses of missile test‑flight
results, to know well the sounds of the security staff as they patrolled the
corridors. That swift, breathing rush of light footfalls outside her cubicle
had nothing in common with the familiar hobnailed tread and jingle of keys.
With reflex reassurance, part of her said, If it isn't Security, Security
will take care of it. Another part, with equally reflex dismissal, added, Don't
be silly. It was probably some poor technician wandering around looking for
the john or for a coffee machine that still had coffee—or what passed, at San
Serano, for coffee—in it at this hour, whatever this hour was.
It was nothing to worry about.
Nevertheless, Joanna worried.
She was a small girl, with
an air of compact sturdiness to her despite her rather delicate build. Ruth,
the artist who lived downstairs from her, was of the often‑expressed
opinion that Joanna could be beautiful if she'd take the time, but Joanna had
never seen the point of taking the time—or anyway not the hours a day Ruth put
into it. Now she soundlessly hooked the toe of her sneaker under the pull of
the desk drawer and slid the metal bin open far enough to allow her to dip into
her mailsack of a purse and produce a hammer.
Then
she sat still and listened again. This time she heard nothing.
It
occurred to her that she had a throbbing headache. It must be after ten, she
thought—there had still been people around when she'd started working on the
program for analyzing the Tiger missile test results for next week's Navy
review. There was no telling how much longer she'd...
Her eyes sought the green luminosity of the clock.
2:00 A.M.
Two!
She could have sworn it wasn't later than ten—well, eleven, since the janitors
had gone home.
No
wonder I have a headache, she thought, and ran her hands through the feathery tangle of her hair.
She recalled vaguely that she'd been too busy to eat dinner; in any case, she'd
long ago given up buying the overpriced slumgullion doled out by the junk
machines in the breakroom to those who worked on after regular hours. That was
the tricky thing about the whole San Serano Aerospace Complex she had learned.
The cool, even, white lights never varied; the unscented air never altered its
temperature; and as a result no one ever had a very clear idea of what time it
was.
But two in the morning . . .
Without
warning, a wave of despair crept over her, filling the farthest corners of her
tired soul like cold and greasy dishwater. The uselessness of it all suddenly
overpowered her—not only getting the program to run, or the tedious
documentation that would have to follow, or the fact that the data was going to
have to be altered tomorrow in any case. Her whole life seemed suddenly to open
before her in a vista of uselessness, an empty freeway leading nowhere.
It
was strange to her, for she had, since she left her mother's house, been pretty
content with her solitary life. Maybe that was one of the things wrong with
her, she reflected. She knew herself to be far less good with people than she
was with machines—no matter what you looked like, a computer would never laugh
at you behind your back. Computers never expected you to be capable of things
you had not been taught to do, or cared one way or the other what you did in
your spare time.
She was familiar with the vague sense of an obligation to be other than
she was—to be more like her bright and sociable co‑workers—but she had
never experienced this hollow, gray feeling of the futility of either staying
as she was or changing to what she ought to be.
The
image of Gary Fairchild returned to her mind—handsome, smiling, and enamored.
Her loneliness seemed suddenly overwhelming, her vacillations over his constant
request for her to move in with him suddenly petty and futile. Why not? she
thought. If this is all there is ever going to be . . . Maybe
everybody's right about living with someone, and I'm wrong . . .
Yet
the thought of giving up what she had filled her with the dread of some
inevitable doom.
Within
her, a small voice struggled to insist, In any case there isn't anything
you can do about it at two in the morning. Tomorrow I'll see him
....
As
swiftly as it had come, the dull sense of hopeless grief ebbed away. Joanna
blinked, rubbed her eyes, and wondered with the calm detachment that had
gotten her into trouble in the past, What the hell was that all about?
The
thought that she had, for one second, seriously been planning to accede to
Gary's next demand that she live with him made her shudder. She might, she
knew, be the sort of mousy little woman men never went out with, sealed like an
anchoress in a chapel with a pile of books, computers, and cats, but it was
preferable to the struggle between her conscientious efforts to please Gary,
her boredom with watching TV in his enormous, gray‑upholstered party
room, and her sneaky sense that she'd rather be by herself, reading. It was
not, she knew, the way she ought to act or feel about the man who loved her.
But shame her though it did, it was how she felt, despite all her efforts to
convince herself otherwise.
I
must be hungrier than I thought, she reflected. They say low blood
sugar can make you depressed—they didn't mention it could make you
suicidal. With a sigh, she began backup procedures, to save what she'd done for
tomorrow. At this point, she knew, she would make more errors through sheer
exhaustion than she would correct. She chucked the floppies on top of the
general heap. Her co‑workers never believed her when she said that she
located things in the heaps of printouts, programs, floppies, data, reports,
management bulletins, journals, and ads on her desk by the oil company
principle of geological stratification. They were all mystified by it—Joanna
herself would scarcely have been surprised to find trilobites in the bottom
layer.
It
was only when she stood up that she remembered the stealthy footfalls outside
her cubicle.
Don't
be silly, she told herself again. San Serano is a security installation.
The idea that anyone could get in without being checked out by the guards
is ridiculous.
But somehow, she felt unconvinced.
She
patted the pockets of her faded jeans for her car keys, dug her purse—an
enormous accessory of Hopiweave and rabbit skins bulging with rolled‑up
printouts, computer journals, and an incredible quantity of miscellaneous
junk—out of the desk drawer, and made a move to slip the hammer back into it.
Then she hesitated. She'd feel awfully silly if she met a guard or a co‑worker—what
co‑worker's going to be around at 2:00 a. m.?‑walking down the
corridor with a hammer in her hand. But still . . .
You
are twenty‑six years old, she told herself sharply. The odds against your
meeting the boogieman in the corridors of the San Serano Bomb and Novelty Shop
are astronomical.
So
were the odds against meeting a mocking and judgemental coworker, but she
compromised by sliding the hammer into her purse with the handle sticking out.
Then, soundlessly, she pushed open the cubicle door and stepped into the
corridor.
Somehow, the bright lighting of the corridors made her uneasiness worse.
The doors of the other cubicles she passed and the typing bullpen were wells of
eerie, charcoal half‑light, the machines all sleeping in unearthy
silence. Corridors leading to the test labs on the other side of the building
made ominous echo tunnels which picked up the padded swish‑swish of Joanna's
sneakers on the dark‑blue carpet, incredibly loud in that brilliantly lit
silence. Once or twice she glimpsed the industrialstrength cockroaches who
lived in such numbers in the warm mazes of the backs of the equipment in the
test labs, but that was the only other life she saw.
Then light caught her eye.
She stopped. Not the even white illumination of the fluorescents . . . Candlelight?
No more than a finger‑smudge of gold reflection against the metal
molding of the half‑open door of the main computer room.
Fire? she thought, her pace quickening. The main computer room contained
a lot of printout bins. The mainframe, a Cray the size of a Cadillac, the
biggest defense computer west of Houston, could be tapped into by any of the
desk stations, but there was a lot of work in the computer room itself. There
was no smoking in the room, but one of the yobos on the janitorial staff might
have dropped a cigarette into a trash bin, though the light looked too small
and too steady for a fire.
It was, as she had thought, a candle. An old‑fashioned tin
candleholder, rested on a corner of the monitor desk. A gold edge of light
danced over the dark edges of the three massive monoliths of the Cray, over the
huge six‑foot graphics projection monitor screens and the smaller CRTs
and keyboards. As she came up the slight ramp which raised the level of the
room above the subfloor wiring, the single red eye of the power‑light
regarded her somberly beside that seed of anachronistic brightness.
Now
what the hell was a candle . . . ?
It
was her natural nervous timidity which saved her. She knew she hadn't heard the
man behind her, but it was as if, half‑ready, she felt the dark shape
loom up behind her a moment before hands closed around her throat. Certainly
her hands were there, clutching at the long, cold fingers as they tightened;
she cow‑kicked back and up, half‑conscious of her foot tangling
with fabric.
The
grip loosened and fumbled; the gray, buzzing roar which had filled her
ears and the terrible clouded feeling in her head abated for one instant, and
she whipped her right hand down to the hammer ready in her purse. There was
breath, hot against her temple, and the smell of woodsmoke, old wool, and
herbs in her nostrils. She struck back over her left shoulder with all her
strength.
Then she was falling. Her head struck the floor, hard under the thin,
coarse nylon of the rug. She had a last, confused glimpse of the candle propped
before the monitor, of a shadow bending over her—of something else on the wall
. . .
She came to choking on ammonia. Her flailing fist was caught in a large,
black hand, her scream was nothing more than a wheezing croak.
The face bending over hers focused—worried, black, and middle‑aged.
"You all right, miss?"
She blinked, her heart hammering and her whole body shaking with an adrenaline
rush that nearly turned her sick. The upside‑down beam of a flashlight at
floor level gleamed brassily off a security badge and made dark lines along the
regulation creases of the guard's light‑blue shirt as he helped her to
sit up.
"Did you get him?" she asked confusedly.
"Who?"
Her hands fumbled under the tangle of her blond hair, to feel the bruises
on her throat. She swallowed, and it hurt. Her head ached—she realized she was
lucky she'd hit the slight give of the raised floor and not the cement subfloor
beneath. "Somebody was in here. He grabbed me from behind . . ." She
looked back at the desk. The candle was gone.
The guard removed a walkie‑talkie from his belt. "Ken? Art here. We've got a report of an intruder in
Building Six, near the main computer room." He turned back to her.
"Did you get a look at him?"
She
shook her head. "He was taller than me . . ." She stopped herself
ruefully. Everyone was taller than she. "But I think I heard him walking
in the hallways earlier."
"What time?" he asked.
"About two. I—I saw a light in here."
"And
he attacked you with this?" The guard held up the hammer, protected from
his hand by a handkerchief and gripped by the very end of the handle.
Joanna
blushed. "No," she said, feeling very foolish. "I had that in my
purse."
The
guard cast a startled glance at her purse, then saw the size of it and nodded
at least partial understanding.
"I
sometimes carry one when I know I'm going to be working overtime," she
hastened to fib, because she generally carried one as a matter of course.
"For walking across the parking lot." This wasn't as odd as it
sounded—San Serano was situated in the dry chaparral hills beyond Agoura, as
deserted an area as you could get that close to L.A. Though parking lot crime
was generally limited to the more ostentatious vehicles—'Vettes, Porsches, and
four‑wheelers—being looted or stolen outright, it was still a spooky walk
across the enormous paved emptiness late at night.
The
guard's walkie‑talkie crackled. He listened, then said, "We've
called out extra people. They'll be here to search the plant in about twenty
minutes. He's not going to get away."
But
that was, in point of fact, precisely what he did do. Joanna sat in the guard
shack—actually a modest cement‑block building near the plant's main gate
on Lost Canyon Road—drinking tea and feeling conspicuous and hideously
embarrassed, listening to the reports come in and answering questions put to
her by the guard. Every door and entrance to Building Six was checked, and
found to be inviolate. The building itself was methodically quartered by teams
of security officers, and nothing was found.
At
four, Joanna went home. She'd toyed with the notion of calling Gary, because
the idea of returning to her apartment in Van Nuys alone tonight was somehow
frightening, but she discarded it. This late, Gary would argue that she should
come and spend the night with him, since his house was just over the hill, and
she was in no mood for the "But why don't you want to?" argument that
she knew would follow. Why she didn't want to was a question she'd never been
able to answer to either Gary's satisfaction or her own—it was too often easier
to consent than to explain.
In
the end, the guards walked her out to her solitary old blue Pinto sitting in
the parking lot, and she drove down the dark canyons to the freeway and the
brighter lights of the Valley. She wasn't sure just why the thought of going
home alone would frighten her. When she reached it, the place was quiet and
normal as ever; but when she finally slept, toward six, it was not restful
sleep.
No trace of an intruder was ever found.
CHAPTER
III
The silent tower stood
ten miles from the ancient royal city of Kymil, separated from it by the sheet‑steel
curve of the River Pon, and by the silver‑and‑green patch‑work
of the Ponmarish, where sheep and pigs foraged among the boggy pools and town
children hunted frogs in the long summer evenings. As Caris and his grandfather
crossed the long causeway toward the old city gates of Kymil in the hush of the
endless dusk, farmers and the river‑trade merchants who made the money of
the town drew aside from the sight of the old man's long black robes, making
the sign against evil. The folk of Kymil had long memories and reason to fear
the mageborn, even Salteris Solaris.
From
the causeway, Caris could see the Tower, lonely on its hill; a finger raised in
warning.
A warning, certainly, that no mage ever forgot.
A
stage line ran between Angelshand and Kymil; though, like the Old Believers,
the wages did not travel by stage, it meant that the roads were good. Two
nights on the road, Caris and his grandfather had lodged in peasant huts, and
once in the self‑consciously rustic country villa of a wealthy merchant
from Angelshand who had conversed with earnest condescension all through dinner
about "the hidden strength of these ancient beliefs," and whose
daughters had stolen downstairs after the household had gone to bed to ask
Salteris to read their fortunes in the cards. Two nights they had slept under
the stars. Caris worried that, in spite of the warmth of the fading summer, a
chill might have settled into the old man's bones. Still, Salteris was tough.
Like most sasenna, Caris slept only lightly, and when he had wakened in the
night, it had always been to see Salteris sitting in silent meditation, gazing
at the stars.
At
the highest point of the causeway, Caris paused to shift his knapsack across
his shoulders. Around the feet of the raised roadway and along the walls, just
out of reach of the marshpools, were the hovels of the poor, built each spring
when the waters went down and abandoned with their winter rising. Now children
in rags were playing in between the sorry little huts, shouting and throwing
pebbles at one another; a religious procession appeared, en route from one of
the numerous shrines which dotted the marshes, and a whiff of incense and the
sweetness of chanting rose to where he and his grandfather stood. People in the
shantytown below paused to bend a knee to the gray‑robed priests, as did
halfnaked boatmen from the river and a scarf vendor decorated like a Yule tree
with his wares; a merchant crossing the causeway behind them, in his sober blue
broadcloth coat and breeches, did likewise, and Caris felt the man's eyes on
his back when neither he nor Salteris made this sign of subservience to the
Church's will.
"We can stay at the House of the Mages in the city tonight,"
Salteris remarked, looking out past the marshes to the silence of the pale
hills beyond. The hills marked the edge of the Sykerst, the empty lands that
stretched eastward two thousand miles, an eternal, rolling plain of grass.
"Nandiharrow runs it—the Old Faith has always been strong in this city,
and many of those who came here twenty‑five years ago for the trial of
Suraklin found welcome enough among them to make it their home."
A touch of wind moved across the hills, murmuring among the willows at
the level of their feet and bringing the wild scents of distance and hay.
"Suraklin was tried here?"
"Indeed, my son." The old man sighed. "Tried and
executed." The breeze flicked at his white hair, he gazed into those
undefinable distances, with no elation for the memory of his ancient triumph.
"I didn't know," Caris said softly. "I thought, since the
Emperor presided over it—the Prince, then—it must have taken place in Angelshand."
A wry expression pulled at the corner of the old man's mouth. "It is
difficult to try someone for the misuse of his wizardry in a city where few
believe in it," he said. "Suraklin was known in Kymil. Even those who
did not think that his powers stemmed from magic dared not cross him." He
nodded out towards the silent hills. "His Citadel stood out there. They
have thrown down the standing‑stones that marked the road that led there,
at least those that were visible from the city; the Citadel itself was razed,
and its very stones we calcined with fire. The Tower .
In
the blue‑gray softness of the dusk, Caris saw the old man's white brows
draw down, bringing with them a whole laddering of wrinkles along his high
forehead.
"The Silent Tower had stood there of old, but we strengthened its
walls —I and the other members of the Council. We put our spells into its
stones, spells of nullification, of void. We fashioned the Sigil of Darkness
from the signs of the stars and the Seal of the Dead God, which binds and cripples
a mage's power, and that we placed upon the doors, so that no mage could pass.
In the Silent Tower Suraklin awaited his trial. From it he was taken to his
death."
He turned away. "Come," he said quietly. "It is not good
to talk of such things." And he led the way along the dusty causeway
toward the square, gray gates of the city.
They
passed the night in the House of the Mages, a big, rambling structure in the
heart of Kymil down near the river. Like most buildings in Kymil, it was built
of wood; unlike most, it was fancifully decorated, with odd carvings and
archways, small turrets and little stairways leading nowhere, balconies whose
railings were carved into intricate openwork filigrees of flowers and leaves
overlooking miniature gardens no larger than a single flowerbed, but so thick
with vines that their small central fountains could scarcely be seen. Most of
the buildings in Kymil, Caris noticed, were rather plainly built, and often
garishly painted, pink or daffodil or a hard phthalo blue. One, near the gates
as they entered the town, was illustrated in a wealth of architectural detail
that the building itself did not possess—colonnades, friezes, facades,
balconies, and marble statuary in niches, all painted in careful detail upon
its flat wood sides. None of them appeared to be much more than twenty years
old.
"That
wasn't Suraklin's doing, was it?" he asked later that night of Le, second‑in‑command
of the small troop of sasenna attached to the House of the Mages.
The
dark, blade‑slim woman nodded. "There was a deal of destruction
wreaked in the town when the mages broke his power," she said. "Other
houses were destroyed later and were found to have the Dark Mage's mark in
them, drawn on a wall or a doorpost." She glanced across at him out of jet‑bead
eyes under her short crop of dark hair, then up at the head of the hall, where
the mages of the house were talking quietly over their after‑dinner wine.
The four or five sasenna who had table service that night were moving quietly
about in the dim candlelight, clearing up. There was rumored to be a poker game
starting up in the barrack‑quarters, but, like those they had sworn to
serve, Caris and Le had lingered over a last cup of wine to talk before going
to investigate.
"But
what would it matter, after Suraklin was dead?" Caris was familiar with
the principle of wizards' marks, though to make one was far beyond his
rudimentary powers.
Le
shook her head. "They say they weren't only to guide him there and let him
enter where he'd been before. They say that, through the marks, he could
influence the minds of those who were much near them; sway them to his thoughts
from afar; sense things through them, even, in his dreams. It might be only
stories, for folk feared him enough to believe anything of him, but then again
"Did you ever see him?"
The full mouth curved, but the expression
could hardly be termed a smile. They were sitting at one of the long refectory
tables in the lower part of the hall, the last of the sasenna to leave; at the
other low table, parallel to theirs like the arms of a U below the main board
where the wages sat, and nearer the vast, empty darkness of the fireplace, a
couple of novices discussed spells with the earnestness of new explorers in
some strange and wonderful world. The novices' table would be the more comfortable
in the winter, but in the summer, with the diamond‑paned casements that
punctuated the length of the room thrown open to let in the milky warmth of the
hay‑smelling night, there was no comparison.
"I
only saw him the once," Le said. "I was eight. I saw him die and saw
what was left of his body strung up and burned. The Church's Witch finders
wanted to have him burned alive, but your friend the Archmage . . ."She
nodded towards the head table, where Salteris sat, slender hands folded,
fingers extended against his lips, nodding gravely to something the big, stout,
graying wage Nandiharrow was saying. ". . . wouldn't have it. The Church
has no jurisdiction over those that have sworn their vows to the Council and,
though they needed the Church's might to subdue him, the Church would not be
given the right to kill a mage—any mage." She pushed the sleeves of her
loose black jacket upon her arms, and Caris saw, with some envy, the scars of
half a dozen fights in a white zigzag over the fine, hard muscle of her
forearms. "But as for Suraklin, I doubt it made any difference to him by
that time. I don't know what the Council and the Witchfinders and the Prince
did to him, but I remember he came to the block broken, stumbling, and silent.
He never so much as raised a hand against the headsman's sword."
Her words returned to Caris'
mind the next morning as he and the Archmage left through the Stone Road Gate
and took the track that wound toward the hills. In the marshes near the town, the
road was well repaired and used; down in the lowlands, all around them, men
and women were cutting hay from the common lands of the city corporation,
carting it in wheelbarrows or on their backs to the higher ground to dry, their
voices and laughter rising from all around like the cries of unusually noisy
marsh birds. But away from the town, the road quickly dwindled to a narrow
track; though it saw some use, Caris could tell that it had been long since
much traffic had passed over it. As they passed into the green, silent folds of
those treeless hills, he saw where huge standing‑stones had once lined
its sides, but had been thrown down and were now half‑buried in the long
summer grass.
"This was the road to Suraklin's Citadel?" he asked softly,
unwilling to break the hush of the hills.
The old man seemed to wake from some private meditation at the sound of
Caris' voice. "Yes, it led to his fortress. But the road was older than
he—these stones were cracked with a thousand winters before ever he made people
curse them as his."
Caris frowned, looking at the fallen menhirs. Another such line ran near
Angelshand, mile after mile of ancient stones, standing like sentries in the
deep grass, guarding what had long been forgotten. The Devil's Road, they
called it. "What were they?" he asked, but his grandfather, relapsing
into thoughts of his own, only shook his head.
On the hill to their left, the Silent Tower rose, dark‑gray against
the wind‑combed emerald silk of the grass that lapped against them on all
sides.
Caris
saw now that it was more than the single finger of stone he had seen from the
causeway. A curtain wall surrounded it, pierced by a single gate; the
portcullis was down, unusual for daytime; through it, he saw what looked like a
small monastic barracks. People were moving about inside, some in the black
uniforms of sasenna, others, with the shaven heads of priests, in white. Near
the gate, he got a glimpse of someone robed like a monk, but in flame‑red
rather than gray, the staff of a wizard in his hand. One of the Church Wizards,
the Red Dogs. For the first time he felt uneasy at the thought of entering
those walls.
"It's all right," Salteris said softly. "They don't see us
yet."
They
stood within full view of the gate, but Caris knew better than to question the
Archmage's statement. From his robes the old man drew a small wash‑leather
bag and, opening it, tipped a little ball of what looked like hard‑baked
dough onto his palm.
"This
is a lipa, " he said. Looking more closely, Caris saw that it was, in
fact, made out of dough. Runes had been scratched into it with a pin or a fine
stylus, covering its surface with an almost invisible net of tracery.
"Keep it where you can get to it. Should any harm befall me, or should you
and I be separated for more than three hours, burn it. The other mages will
come." He pulled shut the strings of the bag again and handed it to Caris,
never taking his eyes from the gates of the Silent Tower.
He started
to move off again, but Caris held him back, troubled. "If Antryg's a
prisoner, he can't work magic against you, surely?"
Salteris
smiled. "Antryg is the least of my worries at the moment. No, he cannot
work magic in the Silent Tower—but then, neither can I. Once within its walls,
I will be only an old man, alone among people whose relations with the mageborn
have always been at best a guarded truce. There has been no trouble between the
Church and the Council of Wizards since Isar Challadin's time—but the Church
is old. They watch and they wait." His dark eyes warmed with wry
amusement. "I should not like to be the first one to hear of a surprise
attack."
Caris looked back along the deserted, perfectly straight road and felt
again how isolated the Silent Tower was in these empty hills. Le's words of
last night returned to him—how the Church Witchfinders had wanted to burn the
Dark Mage alive, and how Salteris had refused to give them the power of life
and death over any mage, even the most evil. The Church might say that it
forgave, but he knew that it never forgot.
He tucked the lipa into the purse at his belt, and they resumed their
walk up the narrow track to the Tower compound. As they approached the
gatehouse with its shut portcullis, Caris mentally reviewed the location of
every weapon from his sword and the garrote in his sleeve to the hideout dagger
in his boot. Glancing back, he saw that, beyond the turning where that track
left the straight, ancient path, the old road was almost completely eradicated
by grass. Where it passed over the crest of the next hill, he could see that
the stones along its verges still stood.
His eyes went to the old man who walked at his side, trying to picture
him as he had been twenty‑five years ago, when he had led the Council
against the Dark Mage. He had been Archmage even then, for he had come young to
his power and to the leadership of the Council. His hair would have been black,
Caris thought, and the silence that coiled like a serpent within him not so
deep. The lightness in him that Caris remembered from before his grandmother's
death five years ago would still have been there; the capacity for teasing and
jokes that he had loved so well had not yet been replaced by that glint of
irony in his eye.
The Bishop of Kymil met them at the gate. She was a tall woman in her
fifties who had never been pretty. Her head was shaved, after the fashion of
the Church. Heavier than she appeared at first glance, she was robed in velvet
of ecclesiastical gray with the many—handed Sun of the Sole God like a splash
of blood on her shoulder. As she held out a hand in greeting to the Archmage,
she looked him over with a fishy, blue‑gray eye. "My lord
Archmage."
Looking past her into the court as the gates were opened, Caris wondered
how many of the Church's sworn sasenna were stationed there. Le had said that
five of the sasenna from the House of Mages were on Tower duty at a time—Caris
guessed there were at least twenty sasenna in and around the small, dreary yard
now. The two Red Dogs he had glimpsed stood quietly behind their ecclesiastical
mistress, observing him and Salteris with cool, fanatic eyes. The Church called
them hasu, the Bought Ones—bought from Hell by the blood of the saints and the
Sole God. The less refined among the mages used the feminine form of the word hasur—which
had its own connotations.
"My lady Bishop." Salteris bowed. They touched hands, a formal
contact of two fingers quickly withdrawn.
"You wrote that you wished to see the man Antryg Windrose?"
The
warriors fell in around them as they crossed toward the tower itself. The place
stank of a trap, of the crosscurrents of formality covering the resentments and
envy the Church held against the only group ever successfully to defy their
law; Caris was conscious in his bones of the portcullis sliding shut behind
them. A quick look around showed him that escape from the compound would be
difficult; no building was close enough to the curtain wall to allow a jump
from roof to battlement, and in any case the drop on the other side was far
enough to make breaking a leg a virtual certainty. The air here felt hot and
still between high walls of parched gray stone, a bleak and cheerless place in
contrast to the hills beyond. The sasenna moved about with somber faces, like
most Church sasenna only one step from becoming monks. It was not the Way of
the Sasenna to feel pity, but Caris felt it now for anyone who would be held
prisoner here for the rest of his life.
At a
sign from the Bishop, the captain of the Tower unlocked the massive iron
fastenings of the Tower door. It swung open to reveal a dense mouth of shadow,
cold even in summer. On the door's inner side, just above the lock, Caris could
see an iron plate fastened. Affixed to it was a round plaque of lead, about the
size of an Imperial eagle coin and incised and inlaid in some design that
lifted the hair from his neck. In spite of himself, he turned his head away,
abhorrence clutching at his belly, as if a rat had crawled over his flesh. As
his head turned, he saw his grandfather flinch from it also, averting his eyes.
The two Church wizards did not even come near.
He
did not need to be told what it was. It was the Sigil of Darkness of which his
grandfather had spoken, the Seal of the Dead God, which bound a wizard's power
like a chain of despair. As the guard carried it away from the door to allow
the Archmage to enter, Caris felt for the first time the true power that lay in
the walls of the Silent Tower. He knew in himself that not all the harsh
discipline of the sasenna could have induced him to touch that Sigil or any
door that it sealed, no matter what was at stake. His own powers of magic were
small and, he suspected miserably, failing; but through them he felt its
influence as they entered those cold blue shadows, with an oppressive sense of
horror lurking in the smoke‑stained, windowless stone walls. What they
must be to his grandfather's greater powers he loathed to think. He understood
then why his grandfather had said that he hoped that, after seven years of it,
Antryg would still be sane.
At the end of a cold, bare passage was a large guardroom, smoky, dark,
and close‑feeling in the smoldering glare of torches. The tower was
windowless, the air freshened by some hidden system of ventilation that did not
work particularly efficiently. They ascended an enclosed stone stair, the
treads worn into a long hollow runnel in their center, slippery and
treacherous. The two Church sasenna who followed them bore torches. Looking up,
his hands pressed to the walls for support on the age‑slicked stone
steps, Caris could see the low roof entirely crusted with soot.
Owing to the tapering of the Tower, the room above was smaller; but
though cluttered and untidy, it was clean, lacking even the stench of the
guardroom. All around the walls, boxes had been piled to form crude shelves for
the books that filled the place; more books were heaped on the floor in the
corners and along the back of the small table that stood against the wall. The
tops of these barely cleared the disordered piles of papers burying most of the
table's surface; among them Caris could see a pot of ink and a vast number of
broken quills, magnifying glasses, yellowing scientific journals, an armillary
sphere, two astrolabes and the pieces of three more mingled with the component
parts of elaborate mechanical toys. About a dozen cups, scattered through the
colossal litter, contained the moldering remains of cold tea. Among the papers,
he saw scribbled mathematical formulae and the complicated patterns of the
Magic Circles, drawn as if the artist had been memorizing them by rote,
although he could use none of them; with them were sketches—a leaf, a bone, the
Bishop, the stars at certain times of winter nights, or simply the single many‑branched
candlestick that reared itself amid the confusion with its long stalactites of
guttered wax.
The Bishop stood for a moment in the doorway, looking around the
appallingly untidy room with pinched disapproval on her flat, potato like face.
Then she said to her guards, "Fetch him down."
They
turned towards a door that would lead, Caris guessed, to another dark seam of
stair and a yet smaller, windowless room above. Almost against his will, he
felt a twinge of anger at this final violation of the prisoner's privacy. But
before the guards could reach it, the door was flung open from the other side,
and Antryg Windrow strode into the room in a tattered swirl of mismatched
robes.
"My
dear Herthe!" Passing between the startled guards as if they had been
invisible, he seized and shook the Bishop's hand with old‑fashioned
cordiality and genuine delight. "How good of you to call! It's been what?
Six months? Seven months? How's your rheumatism? Did you take the herbs I
prescribed?"
"No!"
The Bishop pulled her hand away irritably. "And no, it's no better. I've
brought . . ."
"You
really ought to, before it comes on to rain tonight. Salteris!" He turned
and checked his stride for a moment, looking into Salteris' face with startled
gray eyes behind his thick‑lensed spectacles. Then he stepped forward and
clasped the Archmage's hand. "I haven't seen you in—oh, five years?"
Tall,
thin, no longer young, Antryg Windrose had a beaky face in which all the
individual features seemed slightly too large for the delicate bone structure,
surrounded by a loose mane of graying brown hair and a straggly beard like
frost‑shot weeds that had been trailed in ink. Crystal earrings glinted
in it like the snagged fragments of broken stars; half a dozen necklaces of
cheap glass beads flashed tawdrily over the open collars of an assortment of
ragged, scarecrow robes and a faded shirt. Behind the thick spectacle lenses,
his wide gray eyes were bright, singularly gentle, and not sane. It must have
been months, if not years, since he had seen anyone but the Tower guards, but
there was neither reproach nor self‑pity in the deep, extravagant voice
Caris remembered so vividly. It was as if, for him, time had ceased to have
meaning.
"Quite
that," agreed Salteris with a gentle smile, though Caris, watching him,
thought he glimpsed a kind of wary scrutiny as the Archmage met the mad
wizard's eyes.
Antryg
cocked his head to one side like a stork's as he returned the old man's gaze;
then he turned away. For all his gawkiness, he moved with the light, random
swiftness of a water strider on a hot day.
"And—Caris,
isn't it? Stonne Caris, your daughter T'helida's boy? You probably won't
remember me. You were only about six at the time."
Caris found himself saying, "No, as a matter of fact, I remember you
very well."
The disconcerting gray eyes flared a little wider, suspicion and wariness
that could have been real or feigned in their demented depths. "Indeed?
The last time someone said that to me, I ended up having to leave Angelshand in
a hurry." He glanced over at Salteris. "Will you stay to tea? and
you, too, my dear Herthe . . ." The Bishop stiffened, evidently not liking
being called so casually by her first name by a man who was her prisoner.
". . .and these gentlemen too, of course." He gestured toward the
guards and moved over to the hearth where a kettle bubbled on the small fire.
In spite of the fact that it was still summer, the fire was not uncomfortable.
The tower was damp, and its shadows cold—little of the sun's warmth penetrated
from the outside.
"Is this purely a social call, Salteris?" Steam rose in a
mephitic veil around his face as he tipped the kettle into a chipped
earthenware teapot on one corner of the raised brick hearth. "Or is there
something I can do for you? Within the limits imposed by circumstances, that
is." There wasn't a trace of sarcasm in his voice—he might have been
speaking of a prior engagement rather than imprisonment for life. He stood up
again, all his tawdry beads rattling. "I'm afraid all I can offer you is
bread and butter. I keep ordering caviar, and it never comes."
The prelate looked affronted, but Caris saw the corners of his grandfather's
mouth tuck up in an effort to suppress a smile; at the same time, he was aware
that the Archmage had relaxed. "Bread and butter will be quite acceptable,
Antryg."
Antryg turned to extend the invitation to the Bishop's guards; but, at a
signal from her, they had stepped into the black slot of the doorway. With a
shrug, he took a piece of paper at random from the mess on the table, lighted a
corner of it in the fire, and proceeded to kindle the half-burned candles in
their holder to augment the sooty torch‑ and firelight of the dim room.
"My lady," Salteris said quietly, "may I have your leave
to speak to this man alone?"
The Bishop's pale, protuberant eyes grew hard. "I would rather not,
my lord. Too often there has been collusion between the mageborn. And my
predecessor told me that this man was once your pupil—that it was only through
your intercession that he was placed here at all and not executed. As chief
prelate of the Empire I cannot . . ."
"She doesn't trust you, Salteris." Antryg sighed, shaking his
head. He blew out the half‑burned paper and dropped it back onto the
table. "Well, never mind."
The
Archmage had already taken one of the two chairs at the cluttered table; Antryg
offered the other one first to the Bishop, who refused it indignantly, then to
Caris, as if he had been a visitor in his own right and not merely the sasennan
of the Archmage. Refused on both counts, he took it himself, setting his teacup
precariously on top of a pile of papers. "What did you want to see me
about?"
"The Void," Salteris said softly.
The candlelight flashed sharply across Antryg's spectacles with his
sudden start, his hand arrested mid‑motion. "What about the
Void?"
"Can you sense it? Feel it?"
"No." Antryg set his cup down.
"You used to be able to."
"Outside, yes. In here, I can no more sense the Void than I can feel
the weather. Why do you ask?"
Salteris folded his hands and rested his extended forefingers against his
lips. "I have reason to believe that someone from another universe passed
through it and killed Thirle in the Mages' Yard. Shot him," he went on, as
Antryg's look of grieved shock reminded Caris that he, too, must have known and
liked the little herbalist, "Though, when the ball was drawn, it was
unlike any pistol ball any of us have seen."
Caris
frowned suddenly in the reddish, springing shadows. "And there was no
smell of powder," he said. "No smoke, though it was a still
night."
"Curious," Antryg remarked softly.
"Caris
here saw something that sounds like the Gates that Suraklin used to open in the
Void," the Archmage went on. "Aunt Min thought so, too. Are there
wages in other worlds beyond the Void, Antryg, who could open the Void and come
here to work mischief?"
"Oh,
I should think so." Antryg looked down into his tea. Salteris was watching
that strange, expressive face as the steam laid a film over the thick rounds of
the spectacle lenses; but Caris, watching the long fingers where they rested on
the teacup's chipped pottery side, saw them shake. "It doesn't necessarily
mean he—"
He
broke off suddenly, and Salteris frowned, his white eyebrows plunging down
sharply over his nose. "He what?"
"He what?" Antryg looked up at him inquiringly.
"The
fact that the intruder came through the Void doesn't necessarily mean
what?"
Antryg
frowned back, gazing for a long moment into Salteris' eyes. Then he said,
"I haven't the slightest idea. Did you know that all the wisdom in the
cosmos can be found written in magical signs on the shells of tortoises? One
has to collect and read an enormous number of tortoises in order to figure it
out, of course, and they have to be read in the correct order, but somewhere
here I have a collection of tortoise‑rubbings . . ."
"Antryg,"
Salteris said reprovingly, as his erratic host made a move to search the jumble
of shelves behind him. The madman turned back to regard him with unnerving
intentness.
"They don't like to have rubbings taken, you know."
"Quite
understandable," Salteris agreed soothingly. "You were saying about
the Void?"
"I wasn't saying anything about the Void," Antryg protested.
"Only that, yes, some of the worlds one can reach by passing through it are
worlds wherein magic can exist. In others it does not. And there is continual
drift, toward the centers of power or away from them. So, yes, a mage from
another world could have opened a Gate in the Void last week and come through
for purposes of his own."
"I thought you claimed you could not feel the Void." Caris
stepped forward, into the circle of the candelabra's light. "How do you
know it was last week?"
Antryg regarded him with the mild, startled aspect of a melancholy stork.
"Obviously you came here as soon as you knew the problem involved the
Void. It's a week's walk from Angelshand to Kymil—unless you took the
stage?" He glanced inquiringly at Salteris, who sighed patiently and
shook his head.
"Purposes of his own," the Bishop said suddenly. Like Caris,
she had remained in the denser shadows at the edges of the room. Now she came
forward, her thick face congealing with suspicion. "What purposes?"
"What purposes did you have in mind?" Antryg dug a long loop of
string from beneath the general litter on the table; the multiple shadows of
the candle flame danced over his long, bony fingers as he began constructing a
cat's cradle.
The Bishop's wary glance slid from him to the Archmage. "To bring
abominations into this world?"
Salteris looked up sharply. "Abominations?"
"Had you not heard of them, my lord Archmage?" Her gruff voice
grew silky. "All this summer there has been a murmuring among the villages
of strange things seen and heard and felt. In Voronwe in the south a man was
seen to go into his own house in daylight and was found there an hour later,
torn to pieces; in Skepcraw west of here there has been something like a
sickness, where the hay has been left to rot in the fields while the people of
the town huddle weeping in the Church or else drink in the tavern, not
troubling to feed either themselves or their stock. We have sent out the
Witchfinders, but they have found nothing . . . ."
Salteris
frowned. "I had heard rumor of this. But it has nothing to do with
Thirle's murder or the opening of the Void."
"Hasn't it?" the Bishop asked.
"I
scarcely find it surprising that you've found nothing," Antryg remarked,
most of his attention still absorbed by the patterns of the string between his
hands. "Old Sergius Peelbone, your Witchfinder Extraordinary, is looking
for someone rather than something— if he can't try it for witchcraft and burn
it, it doesn't exist. Besides, Nandiharrow and the others at the House of the
Mages would have known if unauthorized power were being worked in the land—and
in any case, there are sufficient evils and wonders in this world, without
importing them from others. Could I trouble you . . . ?" He held out his
entangled hands to her and waggled his thumb illustratively.
Irritated,
she yanked the string from his fingers and hurled it to the floor. "You
are frivolous!"
"Of
course I'm frivolous," he replied mildly. "You yourself must know how
boring gravity is to oneself and everyone else. And I really haven't much
opportunity to be anything else, have I?" He bent to pick up the string,
and the Bishop, goaded, seized him by the shoulder and thrust him back into his
chair.
"I warn you," she said grimly. "I can have you . . ."
"You
can not!" cut in Salteris sharply. "He is the Church's prisoner, but
his person is under the jurisdiction of the Council of Wizards to which he made
his vows."
"Vows that he foreswore!"
"Does
a priest who sins pass from the governance and judgment of the Church?"
Salteris demanded. For an instant their gazes locked. The wizard was like an
old, white fox, slender and sharp as a knife blade against the Bishop's
pig-like bulk. But like a pig, Caris knew, the Bishop was more intelligent and
more dangerous than she seemed; here in the Tower, Salteris, like Antryg, was
at her mercy.
"A
priest's sins concern a priest alone," the Bishop said softly. "A
wizard who foreswears his vows not to meddle in the affairs of humankind
endangers not only all those he touches, but all those he encourages to follow
his example. He can not only be a danger, but he can teach others to be a
danger, and if we cannot trust the mageborn to govern their own . . ."
"Can
you not?" Salteris replied in a voice equally low. Deep amber glints shone
catlike in his eyes as they bored into hers. "Were it not for the mageborn
on the Council, it would be Suraklin who rules this city, and not
yourself."
"Suraklin
was defeated by the army led by the Prince."
"Without
us, his precious army would not so much as have found the Citadel. Suraklin
would have led them like sheep through the hills and, in the end, summoned the
elemental forces of the earth to swallow them up. By our dead that day, by this
. . ." With a swift move Salteris flung back the long sleeve of his robe.
Age‑whitened scars blotched his arms, beginning like a sleeve, four
inches below his elbow and, Caris knew, covering half his chest. ". . . I
have earned the right to say what shall be done with a man who has taken Council
vows."
He turned suddenly back to where Antryg was calmly drinking his tea and
taking no further interest in the discussion of those by whose whim he would
live or die. "Antryg," he said. "Has there been movement through
the Void in these last weeks?"
"There must have been, mustn't there, if you've seen an
intruder," Antryg said reasonably. He swirled his cup in his hand and
gazed down into its dregs. "Do you realize the spells on this tower affect
even the tealeaves?"
"I think you're lying," the Archmage said softly.
Antryg raised his head, startled. "I swear to you I haven't gotten a
decent reading in seven years."
Salteris rested his slender hands among the junk on the table and looked
for a long moment down into the madman's wide, bespectacled, gray eyes. "I
think you're lying, Antryg," he repeated. "I don't know why . .
."
"Don't you?" Their gazes held, Salteris' wary and speculative,
Antryg's, suddenly stripped of the mask of amiable lunacy, vulnerable and very
frightened. The Archmage's glance slid to the Bishop, then away, and something
relaxed in the set of his mouth. He straightened up and stood for a moment
looking down at the seated man. Light from the candles in their holder, clotted
with stalactites of years' worth of dribbled wax, glinted on the round lenses
of Antryg's spectacles and caught like droplets of yellow sunlight in the
crystal of his earrings.
Then abruptly Antryg got to his feet. "Well, it's been very pleasant
chatting with you, but I'm sure we all have things to do." With manic
briskness he collected teapot and cups, stacked them neatly in one corner of
the table, and piled papers on top of them. "Herthe, why don't you put a
division of your guards at the Archmage's disposal? I'm sure they'll come in
handy. Salteris . . ." He looked away from the Bishop's goggling
indignation to his former master, and the madness died again from his eyes. In
a sober voice he said, "I think the first place you should look should be
Suraklin's Citadel. You know as well as I do that it was built on a node of the
lines. If there is some sort of power abroad in the land, signs of it will show
up there."
Salteris
nodded. "I think so, too."
For a moment the two wizards faced one another; in the silence between
them, Caris was again made conscious of how quiet the Tower was. No sound
penetrated from the outside, save a soft, plaintive moaning of wind in the
complex ventilation; no light, no warmth, no change. Antryg was not a young
man, but he was not old, and Caris was aware that mages could live to fantastic
ages. Was this room and the one above it all the world he could look forward to
for the next fifty years? In spite of himself, in spite of what he now knew
about Antryg, he felt again a stab of pity for that tall scarecrow, with his
mad, mild eyes.
Salteris said, "Thank you, Antryg. I shall be back to see you,
before I leave Kymil."
Antryg smiled like a mad elf. "I shall see what I can do about
getting us caviar by then. Come any day—I'm generally at home between two and
four." He thought about it for a moment, then added, "And at any
other time, of course."
"Are you?" asked Salteris, in a voice so low that Caris,
startled, was barely sure he heard the words. Then the old man turned and,
followed by the Bishop and his sasennan, descended the blackness of the narrow
stair to the guardroom below.
It
wasn't until they were again on the ancient road, shadowed now by the gray,
unseasonable clouds that were riding up from the river to cover the town with
the soft smell of coming rain, that Caris said, "He was lying."
The Archmage glanced over at him and raised one white brow.
Caris
jerked his head upward, toward the clouds. "He said that he could no more
sense the Void than he could the weather. But the first thing he said to the
Bishop was that it would rain tonight."
With
a brisk jingling of harness, shockingly loud in the wind‑murmuring
quiet, the Bishop's carnage passed them by, returning to her palace in Kymil.
Counting her outriders, Caris noticed that Herthe had left the two Red Dogs
back at the Tower. Through the thick glass of the windows, he caught a glimpse
of the lady herself, fretfully rubbing her aching joints as the badly sprung
vehicle jolted over the unpaved way. The Bishop did not even spare a glance to
the old mage and his sasennan walking in the long grass at the road's verge.
Salteris sighed and nodded. "Yes. I feared it was so. He's hiding
something, Caris; he knows something, or there is something he will not
speak." The wind made its soft, thrumming thunder in their ears and lifted
the long white hair from his shoulders. The waning daylight glinted in the
sepia depths of his eyes.
Caris
was silent for a time as they walked on through the dusk. He thought about the
practiced ease with which the mad wizard had sparked the tensions between
Bishop and Archmage, to make them turn upon one another and cease questioning
him. Antryg had said it had been five years since they'd met—Caris wondered how
he had known the suspicion would be so easy to arouse, for that touchiness of
temper was something which had grown in the old man more recently, he thought,
than that. But then, Antryg had known Salteris well.
He glanced back at the windowless tower, its surrounding buildings hidden
again by the hills, a single warning finger lifted against the twilight
milkiness of the sky. Then he dug in his purse for the lipa and returned it to
the Archmage. He was plagued by the odd sixth sense that the sasenna develop,
the feeling that there was coming a time when the old man was going to need it
badly.
The silence after
the print‑run finished was like the drop of a cleaver. Joanna looked up,
startled as if by a noise.
But
the only noise in the cubicle now was the faint, self‑satisfied hum of
the air conditioner.
Around her, Systems felt suddenly, terrible empty.
In something like panic her eyes jerked to the clock.
6:45.
Her breath leaked away in a small sigh. Not so very late.
You
can't keep doing this, she told herself, shoving off with one sneakered foot against the filing
cabinet and coasting in her wheeled swivel chair to the printer to tear off the
long accordion of green‑and-white paper. The data's going to come in
from the SPECTER tests this week, and everybody in the plant is going to be
working insane overtime. You can't refuse to do the same on the grounds that
you're afraid of the boogieman.
She
didn't even look at the graph as she folded it and stashed it on top of the
stratified layers of junk on her desk. Her small hands were perfectly steady
as she punched through backup and shut down, but she was wryly conscious that
she performed the activity in record time.
You
can't keep doing this, she repeated to herself. It's been almost two weeks. Even if they
didn't find him, nobody could live in hiding in this building for that long.
And they've been over it a dozen times.
But
as she stashed her copy of Byte and the massive roll of printout from
one of her own programs that she'd sneaked in to run on the Cray, her fingers
touched the smooth handle of the hammer that she always carried with her these
days. Once or twice in the last ten days, particularly when she was working
late, she had had the feeling of being watched, and it came unbidden to her
mind that there were a vast number of places in Building Six where someone
could hide. The Analysis and Testing building was two stories high, but in most
places it had only one floor. Above the labs and test bays loomed a vast loft
of space crossed by catwalks where someone could lurk for hours unseen. Joanna
knew it well‑she had been tempted, over and over, to go there during the
periods of gray and causeless depression that had come to her in the last few
days, and only her fear of what she might meet there had kept her away. But
Digby Clayton, the Programming Department's resident crazy, frequently went
there to meditate—and have visions, so he said—and a number of people in the
Art Department claimed to have gone up there and made love at ten‑thirty
on a Tuesday morning unnoticed.
It
wasn't the only place, either, she thought, stepping resolutely into the well‑lit
blankness of the empty hall. The garage where they kept the fork lifts and
electric trucks was accessible from a door near the supply offices. With a
pocketful of change, you could live indefinitely from the junk machines—until
malnutrition caught up with you, anyway, she added with an inner grin, in spite
of her fears. And in the teeth of the much‑vaunted security system,
thefts had, as the guard said, proceeded regularly—everything from paper clips
to computer components to telephone equipment by the metric ton. It would be
easy to hide out there and wait . . . .
For what? Joanna
demanded sensibly of herself and, with some effort, prevented her step from
quickening. If the man was a thief, he'd have gotten himself out the same
way he got in—never mind what it was—and be long gone. Nobody in his right mind
would hide out in San Serano for a week just to jump out and strangle people.
But nobody in his right mind would climb to the top of a University bell
tower to take potshots with a scope‑sighted rifle at passers‑by,
either, her mind retorted, or murder perfectly innocent, semiretired
rock'n'roll stars just to say they'd done it, or do any of the other gruesome
things that had made the headlines within her memory.
You're paranoid, Joanna.
Who told you I was, and why? she retorted jokingly, and glanced once again over her
shoulder.
It was like scratching a mosquito bite, she thought—something that didn't
help, that you shouldn't do, but you couldn't stop.
Uneasiness stalked her, like the faint sound of her sneakers on the
carpet. She found herself increasingly loath to pass the darkened openings of
rooms and hallways on both sides of the lighted corridor, though she was not
certain what it was that she feared to see.
At
the junction of the main corridor she stopped, hiking her heavy purse up onto
her shoulder and pushing her soft, unruly hair out of her face. Around her, the
plain pastel walls were decorated with walnutframed blowups of some of the
more scenic photographs of the San Serano plant, dramatic in its barren
backdrop of chaparral hills and clumps of twisted live oak, the grass either
the white‑champagne of summer or the exquisite emerald velvet of winter
rains. The shots, Joanna was always amused to notice, were carefully set up to
exclude the parking lots, the barbed wire, and the bluish blanket of Los
Angeles smog in the background.
Down the dim hallway to her right was the main computer room.
The
lights there were still on, though she could hear no voices. No shadow moved
across them to blot the sheen of them on the metal of the doorframe. She'd been
in the room almost daily since the assault, but there had always been people at
the monitors and graphics printers connected to the enormous mainframe, and
she had had deadlines prodding at her back. A half‑memory from that night
tugged at the back of her mind like a temptation she could not quite
define—some unchecked incongruity that she had not spoken of to the guards
because it was too absurd, and she had feared their laughter, but she wanted to
verify it in her own mind.
It
took more determination than she thought it would to make herself walk down the
unlit hall toward the glow of the doorway. Knowing herself to be timid and
passive by nature, her very reluctance made her go on.
The
trouble is, she
thought wryly, stepping up the slight ramp and into the clean‑lit, cold
vastness of the room, you can't always tell what fears are irrational
and what are only improbable. It would certainly help if this were a movie—I
could listen for the creepy music on the sound‑track to warn me whether
I'm making a stupid mistake or not.
The
computer was still up. In good lighting it was beautiful, its tricolored bulk
looming like the Great Wall of China amid a tasteful selection of add‑ons,
which included four input desks, several banks of additional memory, and two
six‑by‑six‑foot color monitors capable of forming the most
exacting of projections. Digby Clayton assured her that Pac‑Man played on
such a monitor was a truly visceral experience.
A
blue‑gray polyester blazer hung neatly over the back one of the chairs,
and Joanna identified it, with a slight sinking of the stomach, as Gary
Fairchild's. Better, she thought, to get this over quickly before he returned
and asked her what she was doing here. She did not precisely know herself and she
was never good at explaining things to people, particularly to Gary.
She
walked a little ways into the room, and knelt on the floor in approximately the
place she'd been thrown. Her memory of what she was seeking was a little
clearer from down here, as if she'd left it like a contact lens on the carpet.
She'd seen the candle in its anachronistic holder, the candle of which the
guards had found no sign, sitting in front of the nearest monitor. A
precaution, they'd said, against turning on the lights and possibly alerting a
passing guard—but a flashlight would have served better, she thought, as she
had thought then. There had been a black shadow descending upon her as her own
mind darkened and, at the last moment, that glimpse of something on the wall.
From her angle near the floor she narrowed her eyes, finding the place.
Of course there was nothing there now.
She got to her feet again, feeling a bit silly. Brushing off the knees of
her jeans, she walked to the spot. It had been a mark, she remembered, like a
Japanese pictograph, but definitely not Japanese, about eight inches about her
own eye‑level and a foot to the left of the doorframe. It had been clear
and sharply defined, but somehow unreal, like a spot of light thrown from a
stray reflector rather than anything actually written there. She'd only had a
glimpse of it, a sidelong flicker from the corner of her eye as she fell, and
the memory of it was fogged by panic and terror. In any case, there was
certainly no sign of it now.
She put the side of her face to the wall and peered sidelong at the spot,
hoping to see something from the different angle, as sometimes could be seen
with glass.
Still nothing.
Mentally she shook herself. The janitors would have washed the wall since
then, if nothing else, she told herself, or—did the janitors wash the walls
here? Probably—the computer room was a favorite showplace of the front‑office
boys. Or maybe there had never been anything in the first place.
Alfred Hitchcock's profile? she wondered frivolously. George Lucas'
signature of THX1138? The footprint of a giant hound?
When someone yelled "Boo!" behind her, she nearly jumped out of
her skin. A week of the jitters had, however, schooled her reflexes—her hand
was in her purse and gripping the handle of the hammer before she had
completely swung around enough to recognize Gary Fairchild.
"Hey, calm down," he said, with his deprecating smile.
"Did I scare you?"
She
was trembling all over, but, rather to her surprise, her voice came out level
and very angry. "Why? Wasn't that the idea?"
He
looked confused and taken aback. "I‑uh‑Don't get mad. I mean ‑you
know." That explained, he hastily changed the subject. "Were you looking
for me?"
It
was in her mind to say, Why would I look for someone who'd play
juvenile tricks like that? but there was no point in getting into a fight
with Gary. He'd only hang onto her, apologizing like hell for days, until she
got tired enough to forgive him. Instead she said, "No, I came back in the
hopes of catching the criminal when he returned to the scene of the
crime."
Nonplussed, Gary said, "But that was days ago, babe. You don't think
he's lurked around here all this time?"
With a mental Oi, veh, Joanna said, "Joke, Gary."
Obediently, he gave a hearty laugh. Regarding him—white jeans, Hawaiian
shirt bulging just slightly over conscientiously built‑up muscles and an
equally conscientious tan—Joanna wondered if she'd even like him, if she met him
for the first time now.
In spite of two years of dating him, she had her own suspicions about
that.
"Besides,"
she added, surreptitiously sliding the handle of her hammer back into her purse
under the heavy wads of printouts, a brush, a mirror, pens, notebooks, screw‑cap
boxes, and a collapsible cup, "he might have come back. Whatever he was
out to steal . . ."
"Babe,"
said Gary patiently, "what could he have stolen from here that he couldn't
have gotten easier from the storage bays? Computer stuff is easier to rip off
from there, before it's been dedicated—safer, too, because if it hasn't been logged
in, nobody would even know it's gone."
This,
Joanna knew, was true. She had her own theories about how Gary would know it.
In her idle moments she had a habit of thumbing through the mainframe, breaking
into files which the management of San Serano confidently assumed were hidden
under their secret passwords; and she knew that, as a result of switching over
to a new computerized system, the invoices were in a hopeless tangle. It was
one of the things that had troubled her from the first about the guard's glib
theory that she'd surprised and been surprised by a thief.
Her own alternative theories weren't particularly pleasant ones.
"I'll
be done here in a few minutes, Joanna," Gary said after a few moments.
"I can walk you out. Maybe we can stop someplace . . ."
She
shook her head. "Thank you, but that's okay." She might be nervous
about walking those empty corridors alone; but in her present uneasy mood, she
knew Gary would be no improvement on imaginary maniacs. "I'll see you
tomorrow, okay?"
He
stepped forward and put his hands on her waist in the confident expectation of
a kiss which, after a microsecond's hesitation for no particular reason other
than that she simply didn't feel like kissing him, she gave him. As usual, he
overdid it. "You are coming out to my place this weekend, aren't
you?" he asked. "Everybody from the department will be there."
Reason enough to avoid it, she thought and vacillated, "I don't know, Gary . .
."
"I've got four new games for the computer, some good beer—even wine
if you like that stuff—plus the new jet system in the jacuzzi, and some real
nice . . ." He mimed blowing smoke in an elaborately silly euphemism for
smoking pot.
Joanna sighed. So in addition to the boring middle‑management types
Gary hung around with, there would be drunk, stoned, boring middle-management
types. On the other hand, she never went to parties, but she knew parties were
the sort of thing people were supposed to enjoy. "It's a long drive,"
she began.
"Only ten minutes past here," he pointed out. "Most of the
folks are coming up in the afternoon. We can sit by the pool, catch some rays,
turn the speakers up full‑blast . . . . What's the point of living clear
the hell out here if you can't make a little noise now and then?" He
repeated what Joanna had always guessed was the line fed to him by the real
estate man who'd sold him the place. Since she knew Gary's taste in music ran
to heavy‑metal bands like Havoc and Fallen Angel, the prospect was
getting less and less appealing all the time.
"The new graphics system I've got on the games computer is fabulous,"
he urged. "Please," he added, seeing her unmoved even by this. He
flashed her a nervous grin that she had never liked and that had increasingly
begun to irritate her. "Hey, you're my sweetheart, remember? The love of
my life . . ." He drew her to him for another kiss. "I just wish we
could be together . . . ."
"Gary." With sudden firmness that was less determination than
simple weariness, she wriggled free of his indecisive embrace. "If you ask
me to live with you one more time I really will quit speaking to you. I told
you I don't know . . ."
"But why not, babe?" he asked, reproach in his big brown eyes
and a suspicion of a whine creeping into his voice. "It isn't like your
apartment is great or anything. You'd be closer to work here and not have to
drive all that way; and you'd save on rent money. You know I'll always love
you, babe . . ." She suspected he'd heard that line on TV. "Come
Saturday, anyhow—see the place now that I've got the new computer stuff in. Are
you doing anything else on Saturday?"
She
wasn't, but hemmed, not sure how she should be reacting. "I don't know,
Gary. I may be going out with some friends . . ."
"Invite 'em along," he offered. "Who are they? Anyone from
here?"
Not
feeling up to more flights of invention, Joanna sighed, "All right, I'll
be there." His brown eyes warmed and his smile returned full‑wattage.
"That's
great, babe," he beamed. "Hey, are you doing anything else right now?
I'll be done with this program in about fifteen minutes . . . ."
Joanna
hesitated for a moment, wondering if she'd indulged in enough selfish behavior
and ought to keep him company, even though it would probably involve dinner
afterwards . . . and dinner at some coffee shop, at that. For all the money he
made, Gary didn't believe in spending more than he had to on anyone but
himself. But there was no guaranteeing how long any program would take to
run—she was used to playing "Another five minutes" for up to an hour
and a half at a time. "I don't think so," she said. "I'm going
to go home, take a very long bath, and go to bed. I'll see you tomorrow."
Ignoring his protesting, "Aw, babe . . ." she hiked her monstrous
purse up over her shoulder and reciprocated his rather wet and amorous farewell
kiss, more out of a sense of duty than enjoyment. Duty, she reflected later,
walking down the dim hallway toward the bright rectangle of the main corridor
ahead, not so much to Gary as to all those years of being pointed at as the
School Nerd. She was conscious, as she walked, of a feeling of relief and
wondered how she could ever have been in love with Gary Fairchild.
If
it had been love, she thought, and not just the sexual glitter that
surrounds the passage from virgin to nonvirgin. He had been, almost literally,
the first man who had ever taken notice of her in her shy and bookish life.
When she had first come to work at San Serano two years ago, Gary had asked her
out, first to lunch and later to dinner, and had taken her home one night to
the high tech Westwood apartment he'd been staying in that year.
He
had always wanted her to live with him. Lately, he had begun to pester her
about it, Joanna suspected, because he was thirty‑four and reaching the
age when he felt he ought to be living with somebody. He had bought the house
in the expectation of it—or anyway, that was what he'd told her. But then, Gary
was seldom completely honest, particularly if he thought he could drum up pity.
She sighed again, turning along the bright expanse of corridor. Twice in
the last week, she had been plagued by the same queer, terrible feelings of
hopeless depression which had come upon her on the night of the assault; at
those times, she had found herself considering marriage to Gary, not because
she loved him or even cared very much about him, but because she felt hopeless
about her future to the extent that she did not much care what she did. Those
depressions frightened her, chiefly because some small, sane part of herself
realized that, in the grip of one, she had no real concern whether she lived or
died—that if one came upon her while driving down the freeway, she would
literally not bother to get out of the way of the other cars. The thought of
living with Gary, she knew, was a little like that.
The rest of the time, she wondered what her life would be like now if she
had moved in with him when first he had asked.
Well, for starters, she thought, you wouldn't be working here. And the
reason you wouldn't be working here is because pool, jacuzzi, video room, an IBM‑AT
with 60 megabytes and $200,000 house in the hills notwithstanding, Gary would
have driven you to leave him within two months by his assumption that he could
interrupt whatever you were doing to keep him company, and you'd have quit your
job and moved to another town.
Or else, she thought with a shiver, you'd be so chicken of change you'd
still be with him.
And abruptly, the corridor lights went out.
Joanna stopped and swung around, feeling that the blood in her veins had
turned to water. In brownish gloom, the corridor stretched empty behind her.
Far back at the rear of the building, she could see the yellow glow of crossing
hallway lights—ahead of her, the corridor stretched for another twenty yards or
so, to the dim illumination around the corner that led toward the hall to the
main lobby. Just this section, she thought. Just a fuse . . .
Terror breathed over her, like the wind from a half‑open door that
looked into the pits of eternity, unreasonable, shocking; she had to fight it
to keep from breaking into a panic run. It's just the lights going out, she
told herself, it's stupid to be afraid . . . .
Down some hallway to her left, she heard the stealthy slip of footfalls.
Gary, she
thought, hoping against hope, but knew that Gary never walked with that effort
at silence. She hastened forward, her heart pounding, her hand sliding down to
the handle of the hammer again, knowing it would do her no good. There was
something else here, something past ordinary fear, a terrible knowledge that
hummed over her screaming nerves.
Do I run? she
wondered. Or is this just what it's like to go insane? Were the depressions
just a foreshadowing?
But now the end of the corridor lay in darkness. The next section of
cross‑corridor must have gone out as well, she thought; but even as the
idea went through her mind, she knew that no fuse failure could have produced a
darkness like that. There was nothing beyond that darkness. She could not see
the crossing wall with its bland photos of San Serano, only a shadow that
seemed to have no end, as if she were looking into a starless night sky through
a tube. Her reason told her it was a trick of the shadows, but her whole soul
cried out against taking a further step toward that darkness.
Don't be silly, she told herself, sweat suddenly chilling her throat and clammy on her
temples. There's nothing to be afraid of in the dark
But
there was. Was that movement, far off‑farther off that could possibly be
real, at the end of that corridor of darkness that could not actually exist?
The glance of shadow along the fold of a robe, like a stirring of wind in the
darkness‑a breath of a smell she could not identify, but which shot her
with an adrenaline injection of unthinking horror.
She turned right down a corridor, trying to remember how the other halls
joined up to the one that would get her to the main lobby. .
This is silly, she told herself, hastening her
steps as much as she could while trying to keep them soundless. Why am I
having a nightmare when I don't remember falling asleep?
The
corridor plunged on, dim and uncrossed, to the far reaches of the test bays.
Without
even questioning what she did or why, she opened the only door on that whole
unbroken length, slipped inside and shut it behind her. It was a janitor's
closet, smelling of ammonia and mildewing mopheads; as she shut herself in, the
diffuse glow from the one‑sixthpower lamps in the hall glanced briefly
off a black, chitinous shape that retreated with offended haste beneath the
baseboard. Even her old hysterical terror of roaches didn't trouble her now.
She pulled the door shut and held fast to the inner knob in the darkness.
She could hear something in the hall.
It
was hard to analyze, though she'd gotten good at identifying the minutest
sounds from her months of living alone. Waking at night, she could track her
way through her apartment with her ears‑that was the refrigerator, that
was the television antenna wire moving across the roof in the wind.
That soft, slurring sound outside now was like a stealthy footstep, but
subtly different from those she knew. Fabric, she thought, remembering the
heavy tangle of robe as she'd kicked at her assailant last week . . . . In the
silence she wondered about the ears listening out there, and if they could hear
the wild hammering of her heart.
Evil
surrounded her, breathing and waiting, and she had backed herself into this
corner in the stupid hope that it would pass. She heard the padding tread‑walk,
walk, halt. Walk, halt.
Does it know that I'm here?
There
was a louvered grille in the lower part of the door to let in air and a feeble
bit of light. Something blocked the louvers, some shadow. Under her hands, the
doorknob moved testingly.
Her teeth and hands shut so tightly her bones ached. Terror jammed like a
knot of unscreamed sounds in her throat, and she thought she could smell
through the grille the faint, familiar odor of her earlier terror; the pungency
of woodsmoke‑permeated wool and the lingering cold scent or feeling that
she could not define. The knob moved again, and she held tight to it, willing
whatever was outside to think it was locked. Later she would find the gray
plaid of her shirt soaked with sweat, but she had no consciousness of it now,
nor of anything but a hideous dread. She knew if she had any courage at all,
she should fling open the door, face what was outside, and see the intruder.
What, after all, could he do to her in a public place like San Serano with help
within easy call? But her resolve drained from her and a small, sane voice at
the back of her mind whispered to her, If you do that you will die.
She wondered how she knew that, or if it was a common delusion. But her
knowledge of it was so strong that she knew that nothing could have induced her
willingly to open that door.
Filtered yellow light returned to the louvers. Whatever had blotted them
was gone.
It is still in the hall, she thought‑waiting for me. Waiting for me
to think it's safe, to put my head out and look.
What?
What?
How long she stood
in the smelly darkness she didn't know. Her legs
began to shake, and dizziness swept over her. There's
a fifty foot walk
down this hall, around the corner to the next big
corridor, and up along
that to the lobby, she thought. Her knees were trembling so badly
she
wondered if she'd be able to run.
Of course you won't run, the cool part of her mind said. You've already made
your reputation with the Man Who Wasn't There‑not a fingerprint in sight
and nothing but a few bruises which could have come from anywhere to prove
there ever was such an intruder. They never found the place where he got in.
What are you going to tell them if you go pelting into the lobby full‑tilt
and screaming?
Yesterday upon the stair
I
met a man who wasn't there. He wasn't there again today.
1 wish that man would stay away.
It
took all the courage she had to open the door. The corridor was dim, innocuous,
and totally empty. A few yards away the main hall crossed it, brightly lit as
always and ordinary as only an aerospace building can be.
She
managed to walk to the lobby. But she did it very swiftly and drove down the
hill toward Van Nuys at breakneck speed through the darkness, to stare
uncomprehendingly at the television set until it was dawn and she finally dared
to turn out the bedroom lights.
CHAPTER
V
Stonne Caris
remained among the sasenna at the house of the Mages for
nearly a week. He trained with them, morning and afternoon, and enjoyed the
chance to hone his skills with a new master's teaching and fresh opponents. One
summer evening, all of the sasenna of the town, whether of the Mages, the
Church, or the few nobles who kept permanent seats in the district and were wealthy
enough to retain their own troops, went on a training hunt in the marshes.
Caris had drawn to run with the wolves and dodged in and out among the boggy
pools, accounting for four of his pursuers from ambush before Le struck him
down from behind. They all returned to the city bruised, battered, and
plastered with mud, to celebrate with much beer their joint funeral.
In
that week he had a casual affair with a tavern girl, one of the few who did not
open wide, kitten eyes at him and breathe, "You serve the mages? Is it
true that . . ." and produce some fantastic piece of sexual practice rumor
ascribed to wizards. It was short‑lived, though he was fond of her; they
quarreled during one of those strange, aching episodes of depression, when his
magic deserted him, quarreled stupidly, as if they could not help it. Coming
down from her rooms, he heard her crying behind her shut door; but in the
strange colorlessness of the world, he saw no reason to go back to comfort her.
Afterward, ashamed of the senselessly cruel way he had acted toward her, he
felt it was too late.
His
grandfather he rarely saw. He knew the Archmage was frequently at the episcopal
palace, far grander than the one attached to the St. Cyr fortress in
Angelshand, for the Bishop of Kymil was the chief prelate of the Empire. At
other times he knew the old man was simply abroad in the countryside, tracing
the stories of strange happenings and abominations which seemed to haunt the
surrounding villages like restless ghosts. One night by the fire in the small
sasenna barracks of the House, Le spoke of things seen, heard, or rumored seen
and heard‑flopping white shapes glimpsed between the birches of the woods
by a home‑going farmer or the herd of sheep found slaughtered with marks
upon them no dog could have made or the three people who went mad in the bright
sunlight of an open field near Poncross.
"Could
that be connected with Suraklin's Citadel?" Caris asked her the next
morning, while they wandered off‑duty under the vast brick arches of the
town's grimy central market.
Around
them a hundred stalls sent up a conflicting cacophony of smell and noise, the
heavy scents of violets and roses vying with the halfspoiled meat and cheese
of the venders and the overwhelming stink of fish. Chocolate candy from
Angelshand, fine cottons from the mills of Felleringham and Kymil itself,
daggers, shoebuckles, cheap tin or porcelain pots of cosmetics, something
advertised as Electrical Hair Cream, clocks the size of a child's hand, silk
and delicately fragranced tea brought on caravans and ships at huge cost from
distant Saarieque anything could be had in that huge and gloomy emporium. They
had bought rolls hot from the baker with primrose‑yellow summer butter
dripping from them and ate them as they roved among the stalls.
Le
shrugged and took another bite of her roll. "Not that I ever heard,"
she said. With her short‑cropped black hair and broken nose, she looked
like a skinny teenage boy in her black jacket, trousers, and deadly, curving
sword. "The fortress was razed by the wizards and the Emperor's Heir. All
that's left are a few crumbled walls and a hole in the earth, far out in the
hills."
"Will you ride out there with me?"
The
lieutenant hesitated, as everyone, Caris had noticed, hesitated when it came to
mention of the Dark Mage or anything he had touched. Then she nodded. "As
long as we're back by four." They had duty that night, and Le, Caris knew,
had a girlfriend of her own.
Once
it passed the feet of the Silent Tower, the road to Suraklin's Citadel was
lined once more with the standing‑stones so hateful to the memories of
those who dwelled in Kymil; it lacked even the pale traces of occasional
commerce. Once or twice Caris, simply to test his own skills, tried to find
signs that his grandfather had passed that way‑as he knew that at some
time in the last few days he had‑but saw nothing. It took a powerful
sasennan indeed to track a wizard. The road itself, overgrown to little more
than a notch running through the round‑backed green hills that crowded so
close on all sides, ran perfectly straight, scaling the flanks of hills it
could easily have gone around, or, on one occasion, climbing to the crest of a
green for from which Caris could see all the rolling, silent land beneath and
the faint arrow of the road pointing inexorably away to vanish into the green
wastes of the Sykerst, the empty lands to the east.
Wind
thrummed in his ears and stirred his soft, fair hair and the mane of his horse;
cloud shadows moved like torpid and amorphous ghosts across the land. The
silence oppressed him. "It can't be this far, surely." For aside from
the perfectly straight track of the old road, there was no sign that habitation
had ever touched these bleak lands.
"It's
a few hills over." Le, usually as calmly matter‑of‑fact as a
pistol ball, did not raise her voice against that windswept hush. "You
can't see it until you're nearly on top of it."
Caris shivered. He was conscious of how small he and the woman were in
these hills, two black‑clad forms in that empty silence. He looked around
him for he knew not what. Old spells still clung to the land, the Dark Mage's
might lingering in the stones. Squinting into the wind, he could see where
another line of standing‑stones crossed the far hills. Antryg had said to
the Archmage that the Citadel was a node in the lines. The rudimentary stumps
of Caris' own slight magic could sense the movement of power along this ancient
road, and he realized that the Citadel had been built by some people far
earlier than Suraklin along one of the energy‑tracks that crisscrossed
the earth.
The mages called them paths or lines or leys. Few understood what they
were, and none knew why they existed. But exist they did‑straight lines
of energy along which magic could move, linked in some vast, unknowable grid.
All magic‑and all life, in some ways, the Archmage had told him once,
back in the days when he had hoped to be a mage himself‑was connected
through them. The House of the Mages in Kymil lay in the line of this one‑undoubtedly
the Mages' Yard in Angelshand did the same with the line of stones called the
Devil's Road. He felt, like a brush of wind, the touch of that moving power in
his soul as he clucked to his horse and rode on.
The Citadel of Suraklin lay in the midst of a cup‑shaped valley
among the hills. Judging by the extent of the ruined walls, Caris could see
that in its day it had been a great place indeed, yet he completely believed
what Salteris had said‑that without the help of the wizards, the troops
of the Emperor's Heir, twenty‑five years ago, would have wandered
helplessly around the hills, unable to locate it, until the dark and nameless
magic of that evil wizard had overtaken them. Though Suraklin had been dead
these twenty‑five years, some terrible spell of concealment clung about
the place, and Caris literally was unaware that he was near it until Le called
out, "Caris, watch out!" He woke from some momentary private daydream
to find himself a yard from the vine‑covered brink of an enormous pit,
in the midst of a sprawling network of fallen stones that covered half a
square mile of ground.
"It
takes me that way sometimes, too." She rode up beside him as he cautiously
kneed his horse to the very edge of the chasm. "Be careful the ground isn't
too good here." She glanced around her, her hand straying instinctively
to the hilt of her sword.
The
horses, knee‑deep in the tangle of vines that cloaked much of the ruins
of the Citadel like a rotting shroud, were clearly nervous as well. Caris felt a
good deal of sympathy for the beasts' sentiments as he listened for some sound
in the windless hush or scanned the skeleton outlines of stone walls still
visible‑hall, tower, workrooms outlined like the broken bones of a half‑eaten
carcass. Weeds forced apart broken pavingstones in what had been a vast court
and lay in traceried circles of stringers. But mostly the ground had been torn
open by the cumulative wrath of the wizards of the earth, and the pits which
had underlain the Citadel gaped bare.
"They
must have feared him," he said softly, "to leave no place where one
course of stones stands upon another."
Le's
curving mouth tightened. "You didn't live in these parts when his power
covered the land," she said. "They said his ears were everywhere, and
there was no telling who might be his agent; I know for a fact my uncle
Welliger was involved in one of the attempts to contact the Archmage, with men
he trusted‑his own kinsfolk and his wife's, all men who'd had their goods
taken or some member of whose family disappeared. But Welliger went blind
before he could set out for Angelshand."
An
odd gust belied in Caris' black jacket, flattened the thin shirt beneath
against his ribs, then dropped to stillness again. Cloud shadows walked over
the sun. Looking down into the pits, he could see down a number of levels, with
shattered doorways with ivy and weeds. A tumble of white stones lay at the
bottom like knocked‑out teeth. It had been his grandfather's wrath that
had called down the lightning to blast this pit his might which had turned the
tide against the cold evil that had so long festered here. It was hard to
imagine it of the slender, quiet man who was his grandfather.
Like
the final echo of the Dark Mage's decaying spells, wind sighed again in the
nodding weeds. And without knowing quite how, Caris knew that someone was
coming.
He
glanced sideways at Le. She started to speak of something else, oblivious, and
he signaled her silent. Though she was the elder and higher ranked, she obeyed
his sign. They dismounted and led their horses down a crumbled ramp to what had
been a shallow cellar, the only cover in that blasted ruin. After a few
moments, Caris heard what had only whispered in his mind‑the soft swish‑swish
of hooves in the tangling vines and voices which, in spite of their
involuntary hush, sounded loud in the still air that hung over the Citadel.
A
man's said, "Our men have followed him here thrice this week, my
lord."
"So."
That, too, was a man's, though higher and cold as the touch of metal on bare
flesh. Caris was aware of Le's quick glance. Silent as a cat, he slipped
forward, up the half‑ruined ramp to the edge of the cellar pit. Lying
flat in the wiry brambles, he could look along the ground to where the newcomers
sat their horses at the edge of the ruins. "One may ask for what purposes.
Abominations multiply in the lands . . ."
Somewhat diffidently, the first speaker, a middle‑aged man in the
plain gray breeches and narrow‑cut gray coat that Caris recognized with
sinking heart as the uniform of the Witchfinders, said, "The abominations
have been seen for weeks, my lord; since long before the Archmage came to
Kymil."
"He is a mage," the second man said. He turned his head.
Against the summer sky, Caris recognized the ascetic profile and scant gray
wisps of hair under the widebrimmed shadow of the hat. It was Sergius Peelbone,
Witchfinder Extraordinary to the Church. He felt something chill along his
veins.
Peelbone went on, almost disinterestedly, "They say that the mages
could move along the energy‑lines at their will, traveling hundreds of
miles in a day, to do a deed in Kymil when they had been seen that morning in
Angelshand. And certainly it will be difficult for him to prove that he has not
done so, particularly if it can be shown that he has been to this place."
He scanned the desolation which lay about him. A scud of wind flicked the
standing weed stalks by the broken stones, and his horse flung up its head with
a nervous start. The Witchfinder's powerful hand twisted, dragging cruelly on
the heavy bridle bit to force the beast to stillness. Even at that distance,
Caris could see the smudge of blood that dripped to the grass.
"My lord," ventured the other Witchfinder, "it was the
Archmage himself who brought about the ruin of this place and brought the Dark
Mage down in defeat. It could be argued . . ."
"Anything can be argued," Peelbone said. "The old legends
speak of the power of this place, before the Dark Mage raised his walls here;
the old spells that linger are themselves enough to tempt in his dotage the
mage who battled them in his youth. That, and the growing number of
abominations in the land, should be enough to convince the Regent to give us
the power we need, Tarolus‑the power to put them all under arrest and to
extirpate the heresy of witchcraft from the Empire."
The
two horses moved off through the ruins. Caris slid cautiously down to where Le
waited, her hand over her mare's muzzle, her dark eyes hard. Caris found
himself chilled all over with rage, both at the slandering of Salteris and at
the calm deliberation with which Peelbone had spoken. As sasennan of the
Council, he was powerless to do anything, for a weapon does not strike in
anger, but he said softly, "Let's go. The Archmage should know about
this."
They
moved silently through the trenches of the broken cellars, leading their
horses as far as the nearest ridge before mounting. Even so, as Caris glanced
back at the silent ruins of the Dark Mage's Citadel, he could have sworn that
the taller of the two mounted figures below turned to watch them as they
disappeared over the hill.
"My lord! My lady! Please stop!"
Caris
drew rein at the cries, looking down at the three or four men and women who
came scrambling up the weedy, overgrown side of the marsh causeway from below.
His horse, even before these people appeared, threw up its head with a snort,
and Caris saw the white rim of fear around its eyeball. He cast a quick, semi‑automatic
glance down the other side of the raised roadbed, making sure it was not
an ambush of some kind. There was no reason for it, but it was not the Way of
the Sasenna to take chances. Then he and Le reined a step nearer to the panting
farmers who came stumbling to their side.
"You
are sasenna," the man gasped‑little more than a boy of sixteen,
stripped to his breeches for the haying, without stockings or shoes, his bare
calves plastered in bog mud. "You must help us! Please! There's a thing‑a
thing in the marsh . . ."
"We
can't stop," Le said coldly. "We are sasenna‑we cannot strike
without the command of our masters . . . ."
Caris held up his hand and leaned from the saddle. "What is
it?"
"An
evil‑an abomination . . ." One of the women, stout and fortyish,
with her voluminous skirts tucked up to reveal legs as muddy as the boy's,
grabbed at the bridle of Caris' horse. The gesture made him nervous, even
though he knew there was no ambush planned. "Oh, dear God, it's got
Shebna!"
"Caris
. . ." Le said warningly as Caris dropped from the saddle and pulled his
sword sheath from his sash. "It is not for us . . ."
"My
grandfather would command me to help them," Caris said. "I know it.
He's the head of the Council . . . ."
Le's
voice was sharp, "That decision is not yours to make!" Technically,
he knew she was right; the anger in her voice stemmed from her own indecision.
"Your sword is not your own to draw."
One of the women sobbed, "Oh, please!"
An older man shouted, "Look, you heartless bitch . . ."
Caris
caught that man by his bony shoulder. "No," he said. "She's
right, but I'm coming anyway. Le‑get the Archmage or Nandiharrowor
anyone." Hands were tugging at his sleeves, the faces all around him
tallowy with terror and panic under the smearing of mud. He felt his own heart
begin to pound with the rising lift toward battle. "Go on," he added
as Le hesitated, her instincts to help warring with a lifetime of discipline in
her sharp‑boned face. He was turning back to the farmers before she had
even lashed her horse to gallop away. "Where is it?"
It interested him to see how well his own training held. In spite of the
cold excitement that surged through him, he found himself able to think clearly
as they led him to the edge of the road and down the steep bank to the watery
tangle of willows in the marshes below. For five years he had trained to become
sasennan, yet now he was aware, with knife‑blade clarity of thought,
that, for all his training, he had never yet truly fought for his own life. The
Empire was at peace; unlike many sasenna, he didn't seek brawls in taverns.
Beside him, one of the women was sobbing, "It's the curse of the Dark
Mage! He's left his curse upon the land! His devils are buried in the
pools . . . ."
The smell of the marsh and the thick humming of the gnats that swarmed
where the sunlight struck the scattered pools brought back to Caris his own
childhood days of slogging after his parents at haying. His sword‑sheath
carried loose in his left hand, he cursed the head‑high grasses that
forced him to continually occupy his right hand in pushing a path‑if
there was an abomination here, the instants occupied in grabbing for his sword
hilt might cost him or one of the people with him their lives.
"It's a devil," gasped the older man who had cursed at Le, his
breath rasping with the effort of keeping up. "It's the Bishop we must be
sending for, and the Witchfinders . . . ."
"Tell her to bring a sword, then," Caris snapped, still annoyed
with him. "I may need . . ." His words ended in a gasp, as he stepped
into the open shade of the willows.
The
rank, standing sweet‑hay had been cut for a little way along one side of
a broad pool whose clouded brown waters showed how vast a thing had heaved
itself up from their depths. The stubble, the felled hay even the leaves
of the willows above‑were all dappled with the crimson brightness of
splattered blood; it lay in little swirls in the water around the crushed
skulls of the two men who sprawled on its verge. The thing on the far bank of
the pool was holding a third person‑a girl of thirteen or so‑between
its pad‑fingered paws, her cracked skull still between its dripping
mandibles. Blood overlay the reddish, tripy folds of its massive body like a
glittering slime. At the sound of Caris' sword sliding from the sheath, it
raised its crayfish head, rubbery, semitransparent pendules swinging his way
for an instant; then, before Caris' shocked mind had a chance to do more than
stare, it struck.
For
all its size, it moved hideously fast. The water of the pool erupted in a surge
of mud on both sides as it plowed through; Caris, used to the onrush of a man,
had only time to gauge the paws and the stumpy, squamous, green‑blotched
tail before it was on him. Though his mind screamed to know what it was and
from what obscene depth of insane horror it had risen, as sasennan his business
and his training were simply to deal with it as an objective threat, a
challenge like any other. That training saved him, letting him time the thing's
incredible rush and spring aside, cutting down at the slender neck that
connected that sagging, squidlike head to the rugose mass of body. The thing
was turning even as he sprang, and the sword sliced through the dangling,
stumpy tentacles that surrounded the mouth‑or what might have been the
mouth. Clear slime burst over him from the wounds, and the putrid fetor of the
thing nearly made him gag as he twisted aside again and cut at the paddy,
grasping, knotted paws.
His
feet skidded in the mud. He was peripherally aware that, save for himself and
the creature, whatever it was, the glade was deserted‑the peasants had
very sensibly fled. They're unarmed, he thought, desperately evading
another lurching lunge, and God knows, even armed and trained, how can I
touch this thing? Its long arms outreached him, and it moved with a horrible
speed. His sword came down on the thin wrist and jarred on the bone‑the
blade that could cut off a man's leg with a single swipe. He felt the vibration
of it through the bones of his arms to his shoulders, as if he had struck an
iron bar; it crossed his mind to wonder if it had bones as he leaped aside. He
splashed knee‑deep in the muddy water and wondered, with sudden horror as
the tepid liquid slopped over the tops of his boots, if there were more like
this, buried in the immemorial black mud of the pool.
Something
turned and rolled underfoot, and he staggered, hacking at the thing and trying
to splash back to firmer ground. It was before him, churning in the shallows
like an enormous cow, throwing filthy water up over his face, and he realized
he was being driven. The water slowed his movements; his wet garments tangled
stickily to his limbs. He cut at the grabbing paws again and opened one of them
to the bone, but the sword jarred, unable to sever, and stinking, ochre slime
leaked down the striated arm to pool like oil on top of the water. He sprang
back and stumbled; something underfoot held for an instant, then shattered. His
foot dropped into some cavity below and broken branches gouged his ankle
through the boot leather. The next second, mud covered, slime‑dripping
paws closed bone‑breakingly around his shoulders.
Waist‑deep
in water, pinned and nearly suffocated by the thing's stench, his hand fumbled
for a dagger, even as he knew his own short life was over. He felt the massive
strength of the thing tearing him free of the pool's bottom, lifting him toward
the dripping beak, the slime running hotly down over his face as he tried to
strike upward . . . . Then with a lurch the thing staggered, and the hideous
vise of its grip slackened. Caris twisted and fell; mud half blinded him, but
he saw the haft of one of the haymakers' pitchforks standing upright in the
thing's back, flung at the last second by someone on the bank. As the creature
tried to paw it loose, Caris rolled clear, scrambling desperately through the
heaving waters that were now tobacco‑colored with a mixture of blood and
mud. There were people on the shore, many people . . . . He had a clouded
impression of Le, of the Bishop Herthe standing in open‑mouthed shock,
and of the Archmage.
Salteris' voice cut like cold acid through his thickening senses.
"Get out of the water!" The creature whirled and came slavering after
him once more. Brown ooze streamed from it; the pitchfork bobbed and jerked in
its back. Caris, still somehow clutching his sword, half crawled, half threw
himself up on the bank among the damp, rank pads of the bloody hay. There was
no time to get to his feet to run‑he rolled over and over, inland, until
he fetched up with a bruising wallop against the roots of a tree.
Thus he saw Salteris stride forward, his empty hand upraised. In the
frame of silver hair, the thin features were very white, the dark eyes wide and
somehow inhuman, calling down power as he had called it down against Suraklin.
There was a leap and a crackle from the clear sky overhead, the harsh sizzle
and stink of ozone, and thunder like a hand slamming Caris' ears. Blue in the
daylight, lightning struck the brown waters of the pool. The creature was still
knee‑deep in them. For an instant, it seemed that the bolts crawled up
over the whole of that hunched, hideous form. Then the thing convulsed, bending
backwards, all the remaining, pendulous tentacles round its head stiffening out
for an instant in a hideous corona around the flabby, desperately working mouth.
The stench clutched Caris' throat and belly, even as the thing sprang and
twisted, the pool waters heaving up around it in a brown and filthy wall.
Then
it was rolling slightly, like a foundered boat, the muddy blobs of its feet
sticking up above the slopping water and the tentacles of its head slowly
relaxing in death. The pool was filled with crawling currents of nameless
fluids and stank like a cesspit.
Caris
buried his face in his arms, fighting the desperate sear of nausea in his
throat. The frog‑smelling hay scratched his face, and his wet clothes and
dripping hair were suddenly cold on his clammy flesh as the battle‑rush
ebbed from him like blood from a severed artery. He was aware of the aching
bruises on his shoulders, the sting of air through his torn shirt and jacket,
and the excruciating ache of his right ankle. It was only gradually that it
sank in upon him that he was still alive.
Footsteps
approached. His every sinew protested as he did it, but as a sasennan must, he
rolled over to meet what might be another attack with a drawn sword.
It
was Le, as he had known it would be, and with her the boy who had guided him to
the place and who, he suspected, had thrown the pitchfork which had distracted
the monster's attention and saved his life. They helped him to his feet, Caris
almost unable to stand with the violence of the reaction. He freed himself from
their grip and picked up his sword, which was covered, like his clothes, with
an unspeakable coating of mud and slime. Dripping like a halfdrowned sewer rat,
he somehow walked by himself to the edge of the pool.
The
Bishop Herthe stood there in the midst of her sasenna, still openmouthed with
horror. Against the gray of her velvet robes, her potatolike face looked
pallid and boiled with shock.
On
the churned and muddy brink, the Archmage Salteris gazed at the obscene thing
still bobbing and wallowing in the pool. His white brows were drawn over his
nose, his dark eyes not only baffled, but deeply troubled. Their expression
changed to one of concern as Caris came near him. "Are you all right, my
son?"
Caris
nodded. He looked for some moments at the thing in the pool, thinking
unbelievingly, I fought that, and wondering how he had dared. It
was over twice the size of a horse. His whole body was one vast pain his soul,
too, with the shaken reaction to that single second when he had looked down the
thing's pulsating throat and had known he would die. Shakily, he started to
draw another deep breath. But this close, the stench was enough to make him change
his mind. "What was it?" The old man shook his head. "I don't
know, my son," he said softly. And then, even more quietly, he added,
"But I have a suspicion who might."
CHAPTER
VI
They found Antryg in
the guardroom on the lowest level of the Tower, sparring with
the captain of the Tower guards with split bamboo training swords.
The
journey to the Tower from the marsh had restored the Bishop to her usual
equilibrium‑she had begun quarreling with Salteris before they were
halfway there. As he leaned against the stone arch that led into the guardroom
from the passage, Caris could hear them at it still. Before him, in the jumpy
light of a dozen torches, shadows looming huge on the fire‑dyed wall, he
could see the forms of Antryg and the captain circling like cats. The captain's
loose black jacket and the shirt beneath and Antryg's trailing robes and beard
were blotched with dark patches of sweat; their wet faces caught the yellow
glare of the light as if they'd just doused themselves in a rain barrel.
The
mad wizard, Caris was interested to note, didn't wear his spectacles for the
bout, but he moved unerringly and with a dancer's grace. Caris had worked with
the captain of the Tower once in the previous week; he was a huge Church
sasennan, taller even than Antryg, fat and flexible and capable of crushing an
opponent beneath the weight of his rush. Perhaps because of Antryg's madness,
Caris had not expected the skill with which the wizard sidestepped and
returned.
Looking
at that odd face in its streaming tangle of hair, the gray eyes wide and intent
with calm madness, Caris had the suspicion that, on the training floor, the mad
wizard would be his master.
Behind
him, he was aware of the Bishop's harsh whisper, "I cannot permit
it," and the impatience in Salteris' voice.
"You
needn't fear I will abet his escape."
"Needn't
I?" Without turning his head, Caris could almost see the slitting of those
shallow blue eyes. "He was your pupil, Salteris Solaris. It was only
through your intercession that he was not killed, as he should have been, for
meddling in the affairs of men at the time of the uprising in Mellidane. The
Council of Wizards exist solely on the sufferance of the Church, a sufferance
which depends upon our trust in you to regulate the teaching and practice of
your arts and to keep those arts from ever touching the general life of
humankind‑ever. Look that you do not find the Church's might turned
against you, as it turned five hundred years ago at the Field of
Stellith."
"You dare . . . "
There
was a note in his grandfather's voice Caris had never heard before. He swung
around with such sharpness that every pulled muscle of his back twisted with a
red stab of pain. The old man's eyes blazed with wrath and infuriated pride,
looking amber as a wolf's in the firelight. His anger was like the molten core
of a star sinking inward upon itself, swallowing both light and time. The
Bishop fell back a pace before that sudden fury, her heavy face yellow with
fear. In almost a whisper, the Archmage said, "You dare to threaten
me?"
Her own anger kindling, the Bishop snapped, "I dare to threaten any
who would break the vows that hold all things in order!"
Salteris opened his mouth in rage to reply, but Antryg's voice cut in
reasonably, "In that case, we'll let you handle things the next time an
abomination appears in the hay marsh." He had materialized without a sound
at Caris' elbow, still holding his bamboo training sword. Sweat dripped from
the end of his long nose and shone on his bare forearms as he drew the remains
of a red Church wizard's cloak over his shabby robes.
The Bishop turned furiously on him. "What do you know of it?"
she demanded, catching a tattered handful of his robe. Her face was scarlet
with anger, as happened when one had been publicly driven to fear. Antryg shook
back his sleek‑matted hair and put on his spectacles, blinking at her
from behind them in mild surprise.
"There must have been an abomination, mustn't there, for you to come
in force like this to see me, and so urgently that Caris wasn't even able to
change his clothes," he said. Caris, a little surprised, looked down at
his dark clothes, still caked with the residue of mud and slime, though he had
washed it from his face and hair and hands. "Whatever Caris did battle
with, it was certainly in a marsh, and that marsh must be one of the hay
marshes around the town. I'm surprised at you, Herthe‑you're usually so
good at the obvious."
He
started to turn away. With angry violence, the Bishop seized his scarecrow
robes and pulled him back to face her. The torchlight gleamed on her shaven
skull and in her small, porcine eyes. "Beware, Antryg," she warned.
"Beware
of what?" he asked reasonably. "I'm safe behind the walls of this
Tower. It's you who have to deal with the things. Would you hold this?" He
offered her the long hilt of the bamboo sword still in his hand. Surprised, she
took it, releasing her hold on his robes to do so. He said, "Thank
you," and vanished into the darkness of the narrow stair.
Her
face flushed, the Bishop moved to follow, but Salteris laid a staying hand on
her beefy shoulder. "No," he said softly. "It would do little
good, with you there."
"We can compel him . . ."
The
Archmage's voice was suddenly harsh. "No member of the Church‑none‑has
the right to lay hands upon one who has sworn the vows to the Council of
Wizards."
"The
case is different!" the Bishop declared furiously. "The abominations
. . ."
"The case is not different!"
For
a long moment they stood, staring into one another's eyes. Caris felt the heat
of the old man's pride and wrath again, as if he stood near the door of a
stove, but hidden now, heat without light. The Bishop's heavy mouth set. Then,
as if he realized where they were, without magic in the Church's power, the old
man turned suddenly away. "Come, Caris. There is little to be learned
here. But I tell you this, Herthe of Kymil. Should you or Peelbone and his
Witchfinders or anyone else move against Antryg Windrose or any Council wage
without my leave, I shall learn of it, and then . . ." His voice sank, and
the dark brown of his eyes seemed to glint again with an amber flame, ". .
. you will have to deal with me."
It
was only when they were walking down the hill in the lingering blueness of the
summer dusk that Caris dared to speak. The Archmage was walking very swiftly,
his black robes billowing about him. Caris' hurt ankle jabbed him at every
step; but, after five years of training, neither that nor the bone‑weariness
of stiffening muscles troubled him as much as that terrible silence that still
hung about Salteris like the darkness of stormclouds.
As they reached the foot of the tower hill, Caris asked, "Why?"
The old man glanced testily at him. Then, seeming to see him for the
first time, he slowed his steps. "Are you all right, my son? I'd forgotten
you were hurt . . . ."
Caris
shook his head impatiently. "Why did you defend him? He knows more than
he's telling. If they can compel him to speak . . ."
Salteris
sighed. "No. For one thing, he's tougher than he looks, our madman, and
far more clever. We could never be sure we were getting the truth, if in fact
he is even aware of it himself. For another . . ." He paused, staring back
at the darkness of the Tower against the milky twilight sky. "They are
only waiting for that. The Bishop and Peelbone it is their chance, to
establish their jurisdiction over us, to gain a precedent. That is why, above
all other things, I must be careful with Antryg."
As in another life, Caris remembered the sharp noon sunlight on the
desolation of the Citadel and the Witchfinder Peelbone's thin cold voice in the
silence. "Could Antryg be responsible for the abominations?" he
asked.
Salteris walked on in silence for a few moments more, his white brows
drawn together, and the look on his face was one of utter bafflement such as
Caris had not seen him wear in years. "I don't know," he said at
last. His soft boots scuffed the long grass that overgrew the edges of the
broken pavement of the ancient road. "I don't see how he could, and
I…" He hesitated, then shook his head. "But I am unfamiliar with
these things. Though I have crossed the Void, I have not the sense of it that
Antryg has‑or had." His thin mouth hardened for a moment with
something like annoyance. "It might be that they come through the Void ‑and
then again, he could be creating them in some fashion. But in either case, he
can neither work magic nor touch the Void from within the Tower. Else he would
have escaped long ago."
"Would he?" Caris asked suddenly. He halted, hooking his hands
through his sword belt, and looked at the old man doubtfully. "A room with
an open door is not a cell."
There was a long silence. In the old man's face was the nearest thing
Caris had ever seen to surprised enlightenment. Then he nodded slowly to
himself. "Trust a sasennan," he said softly after a moment. "The
best place to hide is in plain sight‑I had almost forgotten that Antryg
was always a genius at that. If he has found some way of working magic from
within the Tower, its walls would prevent any other mage from knowing it."
As if another thought crossed his mind, he frowned again and shook his head.
"No‑it is impossible."
"Is it?" Caris persisted. The discipline of the Way of the
Sasenna made him unwilling to contradict the Archmage, but something about the
dusk and his own stretched weariness lessened between them the barrier raised
by years and his vows. As a child, he had trailed gamely after the old man
while his grandfather searched for yarrow in the marshes, and had asked
whatever he thought. In a curious way, he felt the echo of that old intimacy.
"You said yourself there are things about the Void you don't understand.
Perhaps he does. Could he be creating these things, instead of summoning them
through?"
As
they walked on, the old man said thoughtfully, "They say Suraklin could
summon the elemental spirits and bend them to his bidding‑mould clothe
them in flesh of his own devising, so that they could tear and hurt with their
uncontrolled anger, instead of just knocking on walls or throwing pots as they
usually do. But if that were the case," he continued, as Caris offered him
his hand to help him down a stream cut which gouged the road, "I would not
have been able to slay the thing as I did."
"How
did you slay it?" His grandfather's scarred arm felt strangely light and
fragile in his grip as he helped the old man up the broken stones and cracked
hunks of old pavement. Now at the end of summer, the stream which had cut the
road had long since dried‑the mud at the bottom bore the marks of the
constant trickle of feet, coming and going to the Tower.
The
memory of the old man's dark, inhuman eyes as he summoned the lightning seemed
as impossible to him as the white heat of his pride and anger against the
Bishop had been‑as, indeed, was the knowledge that it had been he who had
led the assault on the Citadel.
The old man smiled. "With electricity."
"Electricity?" Caris' dark brows dove down over his nose.
His
grandfather's smile widened. "This looks like a good place," he
remarked, and led the way off the road, between two of the fallen menhirs, his
robe slurring softly in the open grass beyond. Limping a little, Caris
followed, as he used to follow in his childhood, not asking where they went or
why. They passed along a little gully between the round backs of the hills. The
dusk closed around them like veils of smoke colored silk.
"Dr.
Narwahl Skipfrag has been experimenting for some years with electricity,"
Salteris continued, as he picked his way along some unseen track in the deep
grass. "It was his experiments, in fact, which first led him to speak with
me‑though of course we had met at the Imperial Palace in Angelshand.
During the conflict with Suraklin, the Prince Hieraldus and I became friends.
When he succeeded his father and became Emperor he patronized us as much as
the Church and his reputation would allow, and I came to know a good many of
the Court. Narwahl was the Emperor's physician, then as now, but he's also a
scientist. At first, he thought magic might be some type of electricity, and it
was thus that he and I came to speak."
They
crossed the stream bed again‑or perhaps a different one; this one had
water in it, nearly choked in a brambly tangle of wild roses, around which the
last bees of the evening swarmed drunkenly. As he helped the Archmage up the
far bank, Caris reflected that he must have picked up his minute knowledge of
the countryside around Kymil during the days of the war against Suraklin‑he
certainly seemed to know every dip and gully of these silent hills. Following
along in the old man's tireless footsteps, Caris felt ashamed, not only of his
stiff and aching muscles, but of the queer dread he felt in this haunted land.
With the starry darkness, the memory of the abomination returned disturbingly
to his mind. It had come from nowhere, and he was too aware that there was
nothing to prevent the coming of another.
For five years, Caris had trained as a sasennan, a strenuous life, but
uncomplicated. Now, moving through the dreamlike landscape of the summer dusk,
he felt as if he trod the borders of a land he did not know, fighting unknown
things with weapons which would have as little effect upon them as his sword
had had upon the swamp thing's iron bones. Ashamed of his uneasiness he might
be, but nevertheless he felt glad the Archmage was with him in the blue and
trackless emptiness through which they passed.
Salteris moved his fingers, seeming to pluck a raveled thread of light
from the air, and cast it before him to float like a glow worm along the ground
a little ahead of their feet. "According to Narwahl, electricity can be
conducted by water, in the same way that it is conducted by metal; and, moreover,
metal or water will prevent the possibility of electricity grounding harmlessly
away into the earth. Lightning, he says, is only electricity in its natural
form." The same wry, astringent smile touched his lips. "I shall have
to write to him and tell him of the successful demonstration. He will be
pleased."
"And the abomination?" Caris asked.
The old man sighed, the smile fading from his face like the last fading
of the daylight.
"Yes," he said softly. "The abomination."
For a time they walked in silence, Caris thinking again of that tall,
gawky lunatic in his tattered robes and ink‑stained beard and of the
bright gray gaze behind those heavy lenses. Would a man who had been a prisoner
for seven years retain that odd, buoyant calm? The scant experience of his own
nineteen years gave him little help. Smelling now the late summer headiness of
the night, feeling the touch of straying breezes on his face, he doubted it.
Like the breath of a ghost, the memory of the fading of his powers brushed him,
the dust‑colored uncaring and the terror he felt, knowing that those
spells of fading would recur, as they were recurring more and more often. In
the end, his powers would never return. Could one whom his grandfather had
called the most powerful wage in the world have endured that loss?
Could
that, in its turn, have driven him mad?
Or
had he never suffered it?
Caris
turned to look back over the hills, where the dark shape of the windowless
Tower bulked against the sky.
"Here
we are." Salteris gestured, and a clinging frost of light momentarily
edged the deep blueness of a little hollow among the hills. A standing‑stone
had once been planted there, but had fallen long ago and now lay cocooned in
wild ivy and bramble. In the lee side of one crowding hill a thicket of laurel
and hawthorn rustled with the quick nervousness of birds' wings; on the
opposite hillslope, gentler and stretching off into a vague space of dusk that
rose toward the deeper twilight of the sky, rabbits paused in their grazing to
look down at the brief network of diamonds that the Archmage had cast. Then the
swift glow faded, and with it the ravelly blue phosphorescence that had guided
their feet. Caris made his way carefully to the fallen stone and sat on the
bare place at its end.
"We
will wait here," Salteris' voice said out of the shadows, "until full
darkness covers the land."
His
shape melted from the gloom; his face and the silky white mane of his hair were
one large blur, his hands, two small ones at his dark sides. "And then, my
son, we will return to the Silent Tower, and I will speak to Antryg Windrow
myself."
He
settled quietly at Caris' side. From somewhere about his person, he drew his
worn black gloves, stitched with shabby bullion on their backs, a present from
the Emperor, before imbecility had claimed the man. He began to put them on,
then changed his mind and tucked them instead into his belt.
"Are you cold?" Caris asked, and the old man shook his head.
"Only
tired." He undid the small satchel at his belt and took from it bread,
cheese, and two small green apples, which he divided with his grandson. Though
it was not the Way of the Sasenna to eat on duty‑and Caris considered
himself on duty‑he accepted the food gratefully.
Ruefully,
the Archmage went on, "And you must be in far worse caw than I, my son. I
apologize, but I must speak to Antryg alone, without the Bishop present, and it
must be soon. If he knows something about the abominations, I must learn it,
before the Witchfinders take it for their excuse to destroy us all. You heard
them today . . . ."
Caris
paused in wolfing down his supper to stare at him in surprise. "I
did," he said, "but I had no idea you were there."
"I
wasn't." The old man smiled. "But a mage can listen along the energy‑trails‑and
I have been particularly watchful of Peelbone lately." He sighed and
stroked the velvet‑soft leather of the gloves at his belt. "It is an
old trouble." He sighed. "And the reason, indeed, for the Council
vows‑the underpinning of the Church's whole attitude toward magic and
toward the dog wizards. No society, they say, can exist with both magic and
industry‑technology‑the use of tools and machines. It takes so
little magic to ruin the balance of a machine, my son; and magic can be worked
by so few. For thousands of years, power lay in the hands of those who were
powerful mages themselves, or who could afford to hire them. It was in those
years that the Silent Tower was built, and for that reason. It was then that
all the binding‑spells were wrought, great and small‑from the Sigil
of Darkness and other things like it which are utterly abominable to the
mageborn, down to the little ones which make this or that thing na‑aar—metaphysically
dead and impervious to magic—like the pistols and crossbows of the
Witchfinders, so that no mage can fox their aim or cause them to misfire, and
such things as spell‑cord and spancels. But it was all politics. The
people were no better for it."
He sighed again. "The Sole God of the Church is not the god of the mageborn,
Caris. As sasennan of the Council, you do not make the signs of obeisance in
the presence of holy things. In time, the Church raised its own corps of
wizards‑the hasu‑and used their magic to defeat the wizards in a
long war which ended on the Field of Stellith, five hundred years ago. And they
were aided by other mages, not of the Church, but who could see that, in that,
the Church was right; the privileges of the few had to be curtailed for the
rights of the many. That is the reason for the Council Vows.
"And since that time . . ." He shrugged. "I fear they were
right. Humankind now has great new looms and gins to weave its cloth, in the
factory towns of Kymil and Parchasten and Angelshand. They talk about making
engines that will go from the power of steam to work them one day. There are
new sorts of farm machines to sow the seed better than a man scattering it
broad‑cast from a sack, and engines to harvest and thrash the grain‑who
knows, one day they may find a way to power them by steam as well. They have
ships built light and strong enough to race the wind that can make the voyage
to Saarieque and the East in sixty days, to make men's fortunes in silk and tea
and the emeralds of the Isles."
"But
that isn't all!" Caris broke in, distressed at the sadness in the old
man's voice. "There is more in the world than‑than money in the pockets
of the merchants and machines to make things to sell! Isn't there?"
And
for a time, only the sweet hush of the long evening answered him ‑the
sleepy twilight cry of whippoorwills from the boggy ground near the stream, the
strange, half‑hurtful stirring of the earth‑magic whispering up
out of the ground beneath the grass. He felt, even with his own small and, he
suspected, fading resources, the magic all around him, alive and vibrant, and
wondered how, even for the good of everyone in the world, it could be for a
moment denied. The knowledge that one day soon he would lose it was like the
knowledge that he would one day die.
"There
is," the old man said finally. "The will‑the fire‑the
striving. They deny it and claim that it does not exist, until all those who
listen come to believe it and do not know how to name it once they feel it
quicken in themselves, except by such names as `foolishness,' and `insanity,'
and 'badness."'
"And Suraklin?"
Caris
spoke the name softly, within these hills that had been Suraklin's; within
sight of the Tower where the Dark Mage had once been chained to await his
death. Salteris, an almost invisible shape in the dusk, sighed again, and the
last light caught one thread of silver in his hair. It was a long time before
he replied.
"Suraklin
was the last of the great ones," he said, "the last of the wizard‑kings,
born long after his time with the will and the strength to dominate. So much of
his power came from the fact that most of those who obeyed him, through fear
and, yes, through love, refused to believe that this magic truly existed. And
his magic was the greatest‑truly the greatest. I knew it. He would have
been Archmage, were it not that the others in the Council distrusted the
depthless darkness of his soul."
He
turned and faced Caris in the intense, phthalo darkness of the summer night,
his eyes nothing but shadows under the star‑edged dome of his bald
forehead. "That is why I fear now," he said softly. "Antryg
Windrow was Suraklin's student."
For
a time Caris could only stare at him, aghast and silent. For a week he had
lived clove to the legends that surrounded the Dark Mage; the memory of
Suraklin clung to the land like a decaying ghost. It was hard enough to believe
there were people alive who had known him, though Caris knew his grandfather
must have. That the mad, oddly charming prisoner in the Silent Tower had been
his pupil . . . . He stammered, "But‑the Bishop said he was yours."
"I
found him two years after the breaking of Suraklin's Citadel," Salteris
said. "He was hiding in a monastery in the Sykerst. Nineteen years old; no
older than you are now, my son, and already a little mad. I taught him, yes,
though he had very little to learn. We traveled together for many years, both
then and after he was elected to the Council, but always I had the sense in him
of hidden pockets of darkness, buried so deep maybe he was unaware of them
himself. There was a time when I loved him as a son. But I never underestimated
him."
"Then
don't do so now," Caris said, looking over at the old man's dim shape in
the gloom with a sudden qualm of fear. "Don't meet him alone."
Salteris shook his head. "In the Tower he is not dangerous."
"You can't know that."
"Caris . . ." The gentle voice was at once amused and
reproving, as it had been when Caris was a child. "Are you now going to
protect me? Even if Antryg is the cause of the abominations—even if it was he
who shot Thirle as he fled back through the Void‑I doubt he would harm
me. In either case, I do need to speak to him alone."
"The guards won't let you in."
White teeth caught the gleam of the stars as Salteris grinned. "The
guards won't see me. No magic is possible within the walls of the Tower itself,
but I can still weave illusions in the court." He got to his feet and
shook the bread crumbs from his robe. "Come and watch me."
Even two years of service to the Council of Mages had not quite prepared
Caris for the Archmage's entry into the Silent Tower. The guards who raised the
portcullis greeted them respectfully as they stepped from the darkness.
Salteris apologized to the captain and said that he had discovered something
while crossing the hills which made it imperative that he speak with Antryg Windrose
once again. The captain twisted the spiked ends of his red mustache, his eyes
glinting like agate in the uneasy saffron torchlight beneath the gate.
"I'm sorry, m'lord," he said at last. "It's forbidden to
speak to him without the Bishop present, and those are my orders."
"Very well," said Salteris quietly. "Be so good as to send
for her."
The captain opened his mouth to speak, but something about the frail old
man before him made him close it again. He turned abruptly and bellowed into
the watch chamber just within the portcullis, "Gorn! Get out and get a
horse saddled." He turned back to Salteris. "It'll be a time ‑she's
had a good hour's start."
"I
understand," replied the old man, inclining his head. "Believe me,
captain, if it were a matter which could wait until morning I would certainly
not put her Grace to this inconvenience."
The
captain grunted and scratched his huge paunch through his loose, dark jacket.
For all his faintly slovenly air, Caris noted the polish of the captain's well‑worn
sword belt and the oiled gleam of the scabbard thrust through it. The blade
within, he guessed, would not be one dulled with neglect. "Well, it's a
nuisance all around. There's wine in the guardhouse . . ."
"Perhaps."
Salteris favored him with a chilly smile. "But there is also tobacco
smoke, for which I wouldn't trade the smell of the summer night. We shall do
well here, until it gets too cool." He took his seat on a stone bench just
within the heavy portcullis, where the watchroom door threw a luminous bar of
shifting apricot torchlight across the intense blue gloom under the gatehouse.
"As you please," the big
man said. "If there's anything you want wine or food or tea or whatever
just give a shout for it. And you‑" he added to the young man who
appeared in the passage, leading a rat‑tailed roan gelding, "‑make
it smart, hear? If you catch her Grace on the road, it'll be one thing; but if
she's sat down to her dinner already, we're all of us going to be what she eats
for dessert. Now off you go."
The
hooves thudded on the road, and a faint whiff of dust blew back from the
darkness. Then, with a rattle of weight, chain, and counterwheel, the
portcullis rumbled slowly down. The gate was dragged shut behind it and the
small bar put into its slots; the captain's huge back blotted the rosy
watchroom light for a moment, and then was gone into the smoke and frowsy
within. In the resulting pocket of utter darkness under the gatehouse, Caris
took a seat beside his grandfather on the bench. Through the lighted door, he
could see the big man settle himself at one end of the rough wooden tables and
pull a quart tankard to him, grumbling as someone shoved him his cards.
He
was changing his seat, Caris realized, to watch them unobtrusively through the
door.
"Very
good," Salteris' voice murmured, pitched for Caris' ears alone. "We
should have over an hour until the Bishop arrives." He folded his slender
hands and settled his back against the stones of the wall behind him, like a
man making himself comfortable for a long siege. In the guardroom, someone
threw down his cards and cursed richly‑there was laughter and profanity‑sprinkled
banter. The captain threw back his head to join in, but Caris was aware of the
tiny glint of his sidelong glance.
He pulled a bit of chamois and an oilcloth wrapped in a rag from his belt
purse and set to work getting the mud and dried slime out of the crannies of
his sword hilt. Beside him, his grandfather murmured, "How are you at the
courtly art of conversation, my son?"
Caris
glanced over at him, startled, and again caught the quick glint of the old
man's smile in the gloom.
"Do
you think you could carry on half of a conversation, as if I were here?"
"You mean, just talk to the air?"
"That's
right. It needn't be animated just do as you are doing and, every now and
again, address a remark my way or reply to one that I might make if I were
here. Don't look into the guardroom," he added, sensing that the young man
was about to cast a glance at the captain; Caris looked quickly down again,
concentrating his attention upon the brasswork of the pommel instead.
"Will that serve?" Caris asked softly. "You're in the
light . . ."
"And he shall see me in the light," Salteris replied, his voice
equally low. "It's one of the dead giveaways of illusions, if the person
next to one takes no notice of it. I shouldn't be long."
"But—‑"
"I'll be all right," he said softly. "I need you to cover
my tracks while I'm gone. I should be able to handle Antryg, even if, as I
suspect, he is not quite so powerless within the Tower as he would have us
believe."
"But the Sigil? The Sign of Darkness?"
Salteris smiled. "I shall be able to deal with the Sigil of
Darkness. Just stay here, my son, and talk‑don't chatter, it looks
unnatural‑and I shall be back within half an hour. If I am not . .
." He hesitated.
"What?"
"If I am not," he went on, his voice suddenly deadly serious,
"don't risk trying to deal with Antryg yourself. Get the other mages and get
them at once. " He moved to rise.
Caris had to prevent himself from calling attention to them by catching
his sleeve. Instead he breathed, "Wait." The Archmage stood poised,
like a dark ghost just beyond the edge of the light. "Will you leave me
the lipa?"
Salteris thought about it for a moment, then shook his head. "I fear
I cannot. For if my worst fears are realized, I may need it myself."
Then he was gone.
Caris sat in silence for a time, belatedly aware that, with his usual
ease, Salteris had duped him into staying out of danger. Perhaps, for some
reason, he really had wanted to meet Antryg with no witnesses present perhaps
it was only out of consideration for Caris' weariness and injuries, though,
Caris told himself stubbornly, they weren't much. In any case there was no way
he could follow now without giving the game away; he had to fight the impulse
even to look, knowing the captain would be watching him from the door. In the
soft twilight of the hills, the Archmage had made light of the peril into which
he walked; it was only now that Caris understood that his grandfather, too,
knew it for what it was.
But
having seen the abomination in the marsh, the old man considered the knowledge
Antryg might hold worth the risk of‑what?
Caris did not know.
He
realized he had been silent too long. No conversationalist even with someone
who was present, he stammered, "Uh‑did I ever tell you about the
time cousin Tresta and I stole the town bull?" and turned with what he
hoped was naturalness to the empty place at his side. Beyond, the small square
of the yard lay under a thin wash of starlight, the cracks between the
flagstones like a thin pattern of spiderweb shadow. He could see the door of
the Tower clearly, with its two black‑clothed sasenna side-by‑side.
His small magical powers permitted him to see in the dark after a fashion; he
glimpsed a drift of shadow that must be Salteris near the wall. One of the
guards at the Tower door sneezed violently as the old man's shadow passed
before him; the other, startled, jumped. Caris was not sure, but thought he saw
the heavy door open a crack. In the utter darkness of the slit; white hair
gleamed like a slip of quicksilver‑then nothing. He did not even see the
door close, but when he blinked, he saw that it was closed.
He
recalled the Sigil of Darkness and shivered. Evidently, he thought, there was
some way of dealing with it‑at least of getting in. If Salteris knew,
there was the possibility that Antryg Windrose might, also.
Remembering
what he was supposed to be about, he said quickly, "That's very
interesting—uh—grandfather. How did Narwahl Skipfrag get interested in
electricity?"
Yet
his apprehension did not fade. It ebbed for a few moments, then grew again‑not
his own fear of detection, but something else, something he did not understand
that prickled along his nerves, a sudden uneasy fear that brushed his neck like
wind from a door which ought to be locked. It was something he had felt before,
somewhere‑some evil . . . . He was aware of an odd stirring in the back
of his mind, neither nervousness nor fear, but akin to both, a sense of magic
and a danger that could not be met with a sword . . . .
Something
moved in the archway of lapis darkness that led into the court. Lines of shadow
from the stretched ropes of the counterweights brushed blackly across the red
robes of one of the hasu as he entered the dark gatehouse at a rapid walk.
Caris
bit his tongue, forcing himself to remain still. Being mageborn, the hasu would
see that he was alone on the bench; but then, the hasu did not know that there
was supposed to be anyone else there. Caris knew he teetered on the edge of
discovery‑in his finger‑ends he was ready to explain or to fight.
Robes crimson in the gold glare of the watchroom torches, shaven head catching
an edge of the sherry‑colored light, the young hasu stood beside the
captain's chair, speaking rapidly, worriedly, to the captain, glancing about
him, as if he scented danger but knew not where to look for it.
He feels it, too, Caris thought suddenly. The foretaste of unknown fear blossomed within
him. The darkness in the corners of the court seemed to ripple, like sunlight
on the open plains in burning heat. He felt again the cold touch of the
unreasoning terror that had come over him in the Mages' Yard, as he had gazed
into the black eternities that lay beyond the threshold of the world as he knew
it, as if those abysses lay suddenly within reach of his hand.
He realized, suddenly, what was happening within the Tower.
It was as if the ground had opened beneath him, plunging him into an icy
stream. He was on his feet, rage and fury igniting in him. "No!"
The captain swung around, and in his eyes Caris saw the Archmage's carefully
wrought illusion fail and crumble. The big man lunged to the door, brushing
aside the slighter form of the hasu‑"Where . . ."
Caris was already running across the court, his sword in his hand.
"It's a trap! Antryg trapped him!"
Wolf‑swift for all his great bulk, the captain of the Tower
overtook him even as the guards seized him at the Tower door. Heedless, Caris
twisted against their grasp.
"Let me in! The Archmage went in there, he tricked you . . ."
Close to the door the feeling was stronger, the cold breath of the Void like a
death‑spell whispering in his heart. The stupid, stubborn look on the
guards' faces infuriated him. "Don't you understand? He thought Antryg was
lying out of fear of the Bishop. Can't you feel it? Antryg wanted him
alone!"
The hasu came panting up beside him, sweat glittering like a film of
diamonds on his shaven forehead. "The strangeness in the air . . ."
he began uncertainly, too young to trust in his own judgment.
"Let me into the Tower!"
For an instant the captain glared at him, gauging him with eyes like dark
pebbles of onyx. Then abruptly he snapped at the guards, "Open it."
"But . . ."
"Open it, you fools!" he bellowed. "He's the Archmage‑you
wouldn't have seen him if he'd kicked you in passing!"
The
breath of the Void seemed everywhere now, stirring and whispering in the night
as one man removed the dark Sigil from the door and the other twisted the iron
key in the lock. Looking back over his shoulder at the courtyard, Caris seemed
to see flickering patches of darkness where no shadow should lie, swimming in
the air of the court; the guards in the circular chamber at the Tower's base
were clamoring with the edginess and anger of frightened men as Caris plunged
impatiently through. Terror of the blackness of the Void and terror of what he
would find pressed upon him, thicker than the darkness, as he plunged up the
narrow, tenebrous spiral of the stair. He shouted, "Grandfather!"
and his voice roared back at him in the strait of the walls. "Grandfather
. . ."
A
hideous darkness filled Antryg's study, like a wavering cloud. Like a cloud,
Caris could see through its edges and make out, as if through moving gauze, the
shapes of the book‑littered table, the overturned chair, and his
grandfather's bullion‑embroidered glove lying on the corner of the small
hearth. Through that darkness, the candles still burned, but the flame was a
bleached and sickly white that shed no illumination into the heart of that well
of black space that stretched into a falling eternity of nowhere. Far, far
along the darkness, he thought he saw a dim figure fleeing, a stir of movement
in those terrible depths. The darkness was already beginning to dissipate at
its edges, clearing like smoke into the air; the black eye of its center retreated,
farther and farther along that distance that never seemed, in all its endless
plunge of miles, to reach the opposite wall.
Caris cried again, "No!"
His
sword was in his hand as he plunged after that retreating shape into the
darkness, and the cold abyss swallowed him up.
The night was soft
as silk and warm as bath water. The stars, Caris saw, were the ones he knew.
The brilliant Phoenix‑star lay on the edge of the dark circle of hills,
calling to its mate a quarter of the way up the sky. The tip of the Scythe
still pointed to the inner and unmoving heart of the heavens. The air was dry
and sweet with the scent of warm dust, underlain by some metallic tang that
caught his throat.
He,
at least, was safe.
For
a long time, his awareness consisted of only that. Kneeling in the thin, dry
grass, he fought the wave of shakiness that threatened to wring his meager
supper from his guts. It was more than just the utter terror of that long, half‑falling
run through cold and sightless chasms and that terrible disorientation and the
horror of knowing that he could well be lost forever, without even hope of
dying, more than the sickening aftermath of fear‑induced exertion that
had spurred his final, desperate run toward the retreating starlight at the end
of the closing tunnel of eternity. He was more weary than he had ever been in
his life. His exhaustion after fighting the abomination‑had that only
been this morning?‑seemed petty and laughable now, for then he had been
in a world he knew, surrounded by people of whose reactions he could be sure.
Then the Archmage had been with him.
He wanted nothing more than
to lie where he was and sleep for a week. But it is the Way of the Sasenna to
rise and go on.
He
managed to raise his head.
The crest of the hill upon which he lay cast a black semicircle of shadow
in the dell beneath. Beyond its edge, the smudgy light of a newly risen three‑quarter
moon lay upon the thin grass of the opposite hillslope, turning it the color of
pewter, and illuminated the bizarre figure of Antryg Windrose, standing above
the body of a young man sprawled at his feet.
Aware
that he himself lay just below the crest of the hill, and therefore in its
concealing shadow, Caris very slowly rolled a few turns down the hill to the cover
of a prickly leaved bush whose scent told him it was a kind of sage. As his
eyes grew accustomed to the denser shadows, he saw that the hill slope was
dotted with such plants.
The climate was warm enough, he thought, for spices of this kind to grow
wild, as they did in the deserts far to the south‑east of Kymil, on the
road to Saarieque. By the stars, they were further south from Kymil. The
Archmage had spoken of other worlds lying beyond the Void. Would they have the
same stars?
It
didn't matter. The Way of the Sasenna was not to ask questions, but to perform
one's task. His sword, miraculously, was still in his hand. Keeping his head
down, he crawled downslope to the next sage bush, as Antryg knelt beside the
young man's body and passed his hand gently over the dirty, twig‑entangled
mop of fair hair, feeling the temples and then the pulses of the throat. The
young man was nearly naked, but for a pair of extremely short drawers‑natural
enough, in a climate as warm as this‑and sandals on his feet.
The
young man stirred and flailed with one hand, which Antryg caught by the wrist.
The wizard's voice was clearly audible to Caris in the stillness of the night.
"Are you all right?"
Are
we in our own world after all? Caris wondered confusedly. Surely the inhabitants of
another would not speak our tongue? But in his heart he knew they were no
longer where they had been. Perhaps Antryg only expected a reply because he was
mad. But when the young man spoke, it was not in the language of Ferr, but in
some other whose meaning Caris heard in his mind, as one hears the voices of
people in dreams; and he understood that Antryg was using some kind of spell of
understanding, whose field extended far enough to touch him here.
The
young man said, "Huh? Sweet Holy Christ, who the hell are you?"
"Are you all right?" Antryg repeated.
"Jesus,
no." The young man made an unsuccessful effort to sit up, and Antryg put a
hand under his arm to assist him. The stranger's voice was slurred, as if with
drink or drugs‑small wonder, Caris thought, that he does not notice that
Antryg is not speaking his tongue. "Somebody must have spiked hell out of
that punch." He blinked dazedly up at the wizard, taking in the long,
unruly mane and straggly beard, the ragged robes and crystal earrings. Then he
giggled. "Hell, I must be stoneder than I thought. You come out of the
punchbowl like all the rest of the stuff I been wing?„
"No,"
admitted Antryg. "I'm a wizard from another universe, and I'm here to save
your world‑and mine, I hope‑from a terrible fate. Can you sit
up?"
The young man laughed again and shook his head. "Crazy."
"Yes, I am crazy, too." Antryg helped him to his unsteady feet,
the young man hanging on the wizard's shoulder, still giggling vapidly.
"Man, you're about the solidest hallucination . . . . That must be
some dope." He threw a friendly arm around Antryg's shoulders. "My
name's Digby‑Digby Clayton. C'mon back to the party, man, have a
drink."
Silently, Caris followed them.
From the shadows of the higher ground, he watched them as they found a
pale track of dust, which broadened quickly as it turned around the side of the
hill to join a dark, smooth roadbed. At some distance along the road, he could
see a house, an L‑shaped building lying in a pool of brilliance in the
darkness, illuminated with blazing light‑far too bright and far too
steady for firelight. It was like the brilliance of magic, but Caris sensed it
could not be. Stunted and rudimentary as his own small powers were, he knew
that there was no magic in this world. This sensation was not like the
prickling weight of the spells that deadened the enclave of the Tower or the
hollow, gnawing grief of those times in which his powers faded. Here it simply
did not exist.
Yet magic would have been the only way to explain the house that lay
before him in the island of yellow‑white glare. In a courtyard behind it
lay a huge pool of water, its turquoise reflections playing over the stone and
glass of the house walls and the dark plants that grew around the low wall
surrounding the court. People moved about on the sides of the water or swam in
it like seals‑men and women, naked save for bits of glaringly bright‑colored
cloth, drinking and eating and shouting at one another to be heard over the
raucous, pounding music which seemed to come from no source, but which hung
over the house and grounds and hills around like the pall of carrion stench.
From the hillside, Caris calculated his cover as his quarry and his
drunken host passed through a little iron gate in the low wall to the court. The
wall was stone block to half its insignificant height, and iron spindles the
rest. The unkempt juniper hedge surrounding it on the outside offered
unpromising protection; but, by the look of it, most of the people in the court
were far too drunk to pay much attention. The brightness of those lights would
blind them to movement in the surrounding darkness.
He had sheathed his sword, but carried the sheath loose in his hand in
preparation for battle. He now hooked it to the back strap of his harness and, flattening
to his belly, crept down the hill.
Down
near the house, the noise was incredible; the heavy, thumping rhythm of the
music vibrated in his bones. The air was rank with the sickly odor of spilled
beer and the queer, sweetish scent of burning marijuana, such as peasants in
the villages smoked when they couldn't get gin. But there was gin‑or
liquor of some kind‑in appalling abundance here; and by the way everyone
laughingly accepted what Digby was saying, they had all evidently taken
advantage of that fact to the fullest. "This is a hallucination, a
genuine, bona fide hallucination," he was announcing over and over
at the top of his voice to those few interested enough to come over and listen.
Antryg, Caris could see, was looking about him in fascinated delight.
But
for the lack of magic, Caris would have thought the mad wizard had somehow led
him through into the Realms of Faerie. The courtyard was an unreal paradise of
brilliant light and velvet shadow, of glaring colors, sparkling water, and
smooth, bare, golden flesh. Clouds of steam rose from a smaller pool, which
bubbled like a cauldron where a man and two women sat dreaming in its warmth.
Now that he was closer, Caris could smell the odd, almost metallic tang of the
waters, and see the clumps of clothing strewn at random all around the inside
limits of the court. He could hear scraps of conversation as well; but, though
Antryg's spell of languages gave him understanding of what he heard, it
made no sense, even taking into account the thoroughgoing insobriety of the
speakers‑software and graphics, special effects and video, carburetors,
microwaves, and Republicans. Through an enormous wall of glass, Caris could see
into the dimness of the house, where people sat clumped around square, dark
screens upon which images moved, some of them the shadows of people, like
living paintings, others mere collections of swiftly flowing colored dots.
Abandoned drinks, bits of food, and the spilled ruin of liquor were everywhere,
along with discarded shoes and boots and clothing; and over all was the
sourceless, screaming throb of music.
A
woman was hanging onto Antryg's arm, her billowy red robe falling open to
reveal great amounts of seal‑sleek charms. "So you're a friend of
Digby's?" she giggled.
"No, actually, I'm a wizard from another universe." Antryg
pushed his spectacles up a little more firmly on the bridge of his beaky nose
and regarded her with polite interest.
"You
mean like Middle Earth and all that?"
Caris
had never heard of Middle Earth. By the look in his eyes, neither had Antryg,
but he smiled widely, his teeth gleaming in the tangle of his beard, and
agreed, "Yes."
She
moved nearer to him, molding her ample form to his bony one. "Far
out."
He considered the remark for a moment and informed her factually,
"Well, in terms of the ultimate centers of power, less far out than this
one."
"Is he friend of yours, Digby?" A woman's voice, speaking close
to where Caris crouched, was so quiet it was only because of its nearness that
he heard at all. It took his attention, because it was the only sober one he
had so far heard. Moving his head a little, Caris could see the speaker
standing in an opening formed by a sliding panel in the glass wall, next to
Digby, who was supporting himself valiantly against it. A small girl with fair,
bushy curls framing the thin bones of her face, she held a thick roll of
greenish papers in one hand. Unlike anyone else in the court, she was watching
Antryg with wary suspicion in her brown eyes.
"No, Joanna," Digby slurred happily. "Like I said, he's a
hallucination. He just walked right out of this big hole in the air." He
took a long swig from a glass in his hand, throwing his whole body into the
gesture; the rippling reflections from the pool shone damply on the bulge of
his soft little paunch. "You know Gary's looking for you."
"I know," the girl said tiredly. "That's why I'm down here
talking to you. My program has an hour and a half to run yet, and he's gone to
look for me in the computer room."
"Oh," Digby vaguely said, clearly not even hearing the sharp
fragment of buried anger in the girl Joanna's voice. Across the court, the
woman in red was leading the bemused‑looking Antryg into the darkness of
the other wing of the house, laughing and saying, "Come show me some magic
. . ."
Antryg paused in the doorway, looking around at that garish and noisy
scene with his usual expression of pleased interest, like some mad saint with
his ink‑stained beard and tattered robes. Near him, Caris was aware of
the girl Joanna watching Antryg with the same wariness that he himself felt,
sensing, as none of the others seemed to, that something was amiss. But it was
his own eyes, across the teeming chiaroscuro of the courtyard, that Antryg, for
one instant, met. Then a hand reached out from the darkened room behind him and
drew him inside.
Caris
knew he had been seen.
Perhaps, he thought, Antryg had known all along that he had been
followed; perhaps, in that chaotic darkness, he had heard Caris' stumbling
steps at his heels. Perhaps this was the reason he had let himself be led to
this strange place—so that going inside, he would leave his watchdog to guard
the front entrance, while he glided out the back.
Lying in the heavy scents of the prickling juniper, with the dried slime
that crusted his torn jacket scratching the wounds on his arms, Caris felt a
sudden chill in spite of the evening's warmth. The nightmare run through
darkness had terrified him; the echoing depths of nothingness had seemed populated
by vast presences and by chaotic horrors, beside which the abomination in the
swamp seemed friendly, solid, and familiar; but it came to him now that the
dark figure of the wizard whom he had followed was, in fact, his only link with
his own world. To lose him would not only mean losing all chance of finding his
grandfather‑it would mean being stranded in this insane, magicless, noisy
world forever, with no way to return to that which he knew.
Cautiously, Caris moved to circle the house, counting exits.
Of these there were appallingly many. There were dozens of windows, some
of which he tested and found impossible to open sufficiently to pass a body,
while others would have admitted a horse. There were outbuildings, smelling of
strange things, and a vast number of big, metal machines which were obviously
conveyances and whose wheels had left tracks on the soft dust of the drive,
though there was neither sign nor smell of a horse anywhere. More magic?
thought Caris, puzzled, in this magicless world? To the south, over the
hills, there was a glare in the sky, filling the whole southeastern quarter of
the horizon with its reddish reflection, like a mechanical dawn.
Silent
as the drift of shadow, he returned to the house, testing, checking. Garden
doors led out onto a path that trailed through the straggly dust of the hills
toward the dim shape of a shed, far up the nearest rise; pausing beside them,
Caris heard voices raised in argument, the blond-haired woman Joanna's and a
man's, slurred with liquor and self‑pity.
"I'm sorry about what I said, Joanna, okay? I didn't mean it . . .
."
"Didn't
you? You may be the only man who's ever wanted me and you may very well be the
only man who ever will, but I don't really care to have that pointed out in
front of people that I work with."
"I
mean‑you know . . ." Although, looking through the half‑open
doors, at the young woman's rather plain face, with its awkward nose and the
first fine scratches of crow's‑feet around the brown eyes, Caris could
believe that was true, still he felt a stab of the uncomfortable feeling that
he was seeing injustice done. It didn't help to recall his own stupid and
meaningless cruelty to the girl from the tavern, earlier in the week.
"Hey,
I'm sorry, babe. How many times do I got to say it?"
The
dim lights of the room picked out the man's shape, nearly nude, like most of
the people there, his muscular body speckled with droplets of water from the
courtyard pool. The woman, as he had seen in the courtyard earlier, was one of
the few people clothed‑unbecomingly, Caris thought‑in the faded
blue trousers that seemed to be uniform for such men and women who wore
anything beyond a few bright bits of cloth and a close‑fitting white
upper garment, which showed off the figure of a diminutive houri.
Her voice was cool and precise, "You can say it as many times as you
need to in order to feel that you've made some kind of amends. But it will all
be entirely for your own benefit."
"What's that supposed to mean? You're my sweetheart, babe, I love
you."
"If you didn't keep making fun of me to your other friends, I'd find
that a whole lot more convincing."
It was strange, thought Caris as he moved soundlessly on
through the dust‑smelling night, that the quarrels and griefs of those
who peopled this alien world should be so similar to those he knew in his own.
The house was two story’s tall in its main portion, one story at the wing
into which Antryg had gone. Most of its windows, Caris had ascertained, looked
inward toward the court, and the doors leading outside could all, he estimated,
be seen from the roof of the farthest eastward end ‑if the stars were
right it was east, anyway‑of the low wing. Judging by their reactions to
Antryg's alien garments, none of the revelers should comment, even if they did
see Caris sitting on the roof; in any case the projecting cornices of the house
should hide him.
One of the metal vehicles stood near enough the wall to give him footing.
Its springs gave slightly with his leap, and his back muscles and bruised ankle
cried out against the jarring scramble for footing. The roof itself had only a
shallow slope, like the houses in Mellidane that knew no snow. In the dark, he
felt its surfaces to be some kind of granulose shingle, firm and silent beneath
his boots. Crouching, he moved along the edge, where the walls would take his
weight and keep the beams from creaking within. Just below the spine of the
roof crest, he stretched himself out, achingly glad to be able to rest and
chiding himself for that unsasennanlike gratitude. On one side lay the darkness
of the hills, the few windows throwing small squares of yellow light to gleam
on the shiny metal of the vehicles or pick threads of sherry‑colored grass
through the soft haze of the dust. On the other lay the court, the music rising
up like the blaze of colored light to the watching stars, and drifts of
conversation floating above it like isolated wafts of perfume:
".
. . so you could boot it warm, but every time you booted it cold you got a B‑DOS
error . . ."
"Hell, you think that's bad? They had the whole fiber optic Cray
mainframe disappear in pieces from Alta Clara . . ."
"I swear to God the guy swings both ways . . ."
". . . working until two in the morning. You'll never get her to
believe it, but she's the sharpest programmer at San Serano."
"You expect Gary to know the difference between auslese and
Thunderbird?"
". . . superhero and a mercenary, but in his secret identity he
writes children's books . . ."
"Digby might be right about there being a Bermuda Triangle in Building
Six. Sometimes that place feels so creepy."
"I never found it creepy, but there are times there when I get just
about suicidal."
"If I worked for Eraserhead Brown, I'd be suicidal, too . . .
."
Exhausted,
Caris felt himself slipping into the trap of relaxing and knew he must not
yield to the weariness of his body. He toyed with the idea of trying to steal
some of the food that was in such abundance down there, but knew it was too
dangerous. Antryg, he thought, might be waiting for just such a distraction.
Occasionally,
the vehicles would arrive or depart, powered, it seemed, by some internal
force. Growling with throaty violence, with their yellow headlamps blazing like
eyes and a thin cloud of stinking smoke puffing from their tails, they reminded
him of flatulent, metallic beasts. Several times he saw red lights moving in
the starry darkness of the sky, accompanied by a far‑off bass roar that
shook his bones, but no one in the court paid the slightest hued. Such matters,
then, must be commonplace in this universe. But he flinched every time such a
creature passed.
And
above the pain of his wounds, the ache of his muscles, the weary confusion held
at bay only by the years of discipline in the Way of the Sasenna, and his
growing fear, was the single thought: I must not let him escape.
A
dim light appeared in the large window of the second‑story room in the
main wing. It had been cast not by any light in the room, but by the reflection
of a hallway light when the door was opened. Caris froze into stillness, for
the window was directly opposite where he lay; with the room in darkness, he
would be perfectly visible to anyone who came to the window.
But
it was only one of the revelers, looking vaguely about him as he polished his
spectacles‑Caris was amused to see that with all their wonders, these
people still wore spectacles, some of them no different than Antryg's‑on
the hem of the close‑fitting, short‑sleeved black shirt that he
wore. The light from the door picked up strange silver runes written across the
chest as he replaced the light frame of wire and metal on his long nose.
The man gazed around him for a moment at the darkened room, with its
banks of metal boxes with tiny red eyes glowing in their blank faces; their
small, dark screens looked like polished beryl. Then he turned back, not to the
door itself, but to the doorframe. With a gesture that reminded Caris curiously
of the mages, he brushed the narrow molding of wood with his fingertips . . . .
A woman's voice said softly, "It was you . . . ."
He swung sharply around as a second shadow in the doorway appeared, and
Caris recognized the woman Joanna.
A glimpse of crimson down in the court drew Caris' eye. It was, he saw,
the woman in the red robe again, but of Antryg there was no sign. Cursing his
inattention, Caris waited until the two people in the semidarkness of the
upper room were both turned from the window, then slid soundlessly down the
rough shingles and dropped, catlike, to the nose of the metal vehicle below and
thence to the ground.
There was no one, now, in any of the rooms of that low wing.
The uninitiated imputed to the sasenna fearsome powers of profanity when
they are in their rage. But the sasenna did not curse in true rage oaths, like
complaints and tears, wasted time and only served to cloud the mind.
There was no time for them now, if he was not going to be left in this
world forever.
That afternoon, he recalled, he had thought that he had never had to
fight for his life before. He realized now, that he had never had to track,
hunt, and watch for his life, and he stood in danger of failing, with
consequences beyond his power to imagine.
With painstaking care, he cast for sign all around the house. Even with
his slight abilities to see in darkness, it was not easy, and he found nothing‑no
track, no sign, beyond the circle of the house‑lights' glow, to mark the
mad wizard's passing. Antryg was a mage and had, like all those who took
Council vows, been trained as sasenna. Having watched him fight, Caris knew
that, unlike many wages, he had not let that training sleep.
Caris
moved as close to the house as he dared and began a second cast. The track of
Antryg's soft boots would be distinctive among the sharp, bizarre patterns of
the shoes of this world; all around the hard black pavement where the vehicles
stood was a belt of dust and weeds. A long drive ran out toward the main road,
but Caris had watched it from the roof and had seen nothing on it but the
coming and going of vehicles.
There
was a path, leading out into the hills, toward what looked like a deserted
stable or shed, nearly a mile away. Surrounded by the moldering remains of
fallen fences, it stood dark and untenanted at the crest of a hill overlooking
the house itself. But by the dust at the head of the path, he saw that it was
regularly used by a single type of footprint‑someone ran there and back,
wearing cleated shoes, almost daily. But there was no mark in the starlit dust
of the wizard's boots, nor of the faint slurring that the hem of a robe would
cause.
Caris was beginning to feel frightened.
Once,
close to the road, a vehicle leaving the house in a great jerking roar of
wheels and smoke nearly ran him over, its yellow headlights sweeping him as he
ducked into the coarse sagebrush for cover. Casting for sign on the hillslope
near the iron courtyard gate through which Digby Clayton and Antryg had
originally passed, he heard the stifled giggles of a courting couple in the
weeds, and a girl's voice called out, "Is somebody there?" After that
Caris moved back farther from the house again, his unease increasing with the
latening movement of the stars. Detection now would mean questions and delay,
and delay was what he could not afford. Weariness was closing in on him, the
ache in his body exacerbated by a longing for sleep; soon it would begin to
impair his survival instincts. If Antryg passed through the Void again before
he found him . . .
And
suddenly, he felt it again‑the queer terror, the sense, almost the smell,
of worlds beyond worlds, the vibration of abyssal winds in his bones. The Void
had been opened.
Panic
touched him, with the knowledge that this was his last chance and he hadn't the
slightest clue what to do . . . .
Where?
he thought
desperately, his frantic gaze sweeping the hills in the thin moonlight.
There was a man, walking swiftly along the path to that distant shed.
It
was the bespectacled reveler from the upper room‑the one who had been
speaking to Joanna in the half‑dark. The moonlight caught faintly on the
strange metallic runes that marked his garment and on his spectacle lenses as
he paused and looked back at the house with an attitude of bemused delight.
And
as he moved on, with that gawky walk that was somehow light and graceful as a
dancer's, Caris realized who he was.
What
had Salteris said? The sasenna knew that the best place to hide was in plain
sight, and Antryg had always been a genius at it. There had been enough stray
clothing lying around the house for him to find garments that fitted his tall
skinny frame; without the beard and with his long hair cut, Caris had not
recognized him among the others, and had gone off searching the hills, as
Antryg had intended.
Anger surged through him, fed by fears, by his shame at feeling fear, and
by his rage at having been duped. It drowned his weariness and his dread of
passing through the Void once more, drowned everything but his determination
for revenge.
Starlight flashed on glass as Antryg turned his head. He quickened his
long stride, and Caris, knowing he had been seen, threw caution to the winds
and flung himself forward, summoning the reserves of his strength. The wrenched
and stiffened muscles of his ankle screamed at him as he crashed through the
dry sage and dust of the unfamiliar ground.
Antryg, instead of running away, turned and headed for the shed. Caris
knew it then‑the shed itself contained the gate into the Void. Antryg was
closer to it than he, with longer legs and fresher strength. Battle rage
flooded Caris as he ran. With a sweep he drew his sword from where it hung upon
his back . . . .
The inside of the shed was an echoing well of darkness. The night was too
deep for him to see even a little of the place as it should have been broken
partitions, fallen beams, the dismantled metal bones of the strange self‑moving
machines, and the stinks of oil and dust. But the crumbling lintels framed a
hollow, a chasm in which there was neither light nor time‑only the
endless, amorphous stirrings of the winds that drifted between universes.
With a yell of rage that did not quite succeed in purging the terror from
his heart, Caris flung himself once again into the dark.
Joanna
woke up in darkness.
For an instant she remembered nothing, except that she was cold, sore,
and terrified of something she could not recall. The surface she lay upon was
unfamiliar, narrow, and hard; under her bare arms she felt tightstretched,
satiny upholstery. She drew a breath and choked with the bruised ache in her
throat.
Terror returned with an almost physical nausea.
She thought illogically, The marks on the wall!
There
had been one in the computer room in Building Six, when she'd been assaulted by
the Man Who Wasn't There.
He
wasn't there again today . . . . The tall, thin, bespectacled form, the brush of long
fingers over the doorframe of the upstairs room at Gary's‑the sign that
had appeared beneath that butterfly touch, like light shining onto the wood
rather than any mark‑
She
had known him, of course‑Digby's mysterious hallucination, defrocked and
debearded. It had been the robe that had touched her memory at the party. Was
that why he'd changed his clothes?
Joanna didn't know what was going on, but she wanted no part of it.
Had
he left, after she'd spoken to him in Gary's upstairs room? She had the
impression that he had, but her memory was clouded, events telescoping and
confused. She'd come up to collect her program and leave, not wanting to put up
with Gary whining at her heels for the rest of the evening, resolving even to
unplug her phone when she got home, as Gary made up in persistence what he lacked
in tact . . . .
He'd been there when she'd come in, she remembered, and she had known him
then as Digby's hallucination. Stepped out of a hole in the air...
The
same black hole of darkness she had seen in San Serano?
She
thought that he'd left, that she'd been sitting alone in front of Gary's big
mm, waiting for the modem buffers to spit the last information out from the
Cray at San Serano. Had he come back later, or . . . ? She couldn't remember.
Only the sudden, terrible grip of hands around her throat, the hideous gray
roaring in her ears, the drowning terror . . .
And here.
Cautiously, she moved her legs. She was still dressed as she had been at
Gary's, in jeans, a white tank‑top, and sneakers. The idea that she had
been unconscious in someone else's power made her shudder with loathing, but
she could detect no bruises anywhere other than on her neck. Shrinking with
inner dread, she put her hand carefully down over the edge of the narrow cot
upon which she lay‑like a child, she realized ruefully, who knows the
boogieman waits under the bed . . . .
But she only encountered the floor‑stone, and very cold.
Stone? she
thought. She sat up, fighting a slight qualm of sickness as she did so, and
groped at the sides of what she thought was a cot and which turned out to be a
daybed, the eighteenth‑century ancestor of the chaise lounge. At one end
was a chairlike back, heavily carved; there was more carving on the tops of the
thing's cabriole legs. Feeling along the floor beside it, she reached the
familiar, enormous lumpiness of her purse and breathed a sigh of relief.
Although whoever had brought her here could have gone through it ....
Her digging fingers came in contact with her miniature flashlight. She
switched it on, and the yellow light wavered wildly over the room with the
shaking of her hand.
She thought, Oh, Christ, in a kind of frightened despair. The room
was stone, small and windowless, like the turret chamber of a castle‑or
like somebody's idea of one. The daybed with its frivolous gilded scrollwork
and rose‑colored cushions struck her as a sinister incongruity, and she
muttered, "Kinky," to herself as she got to her feet. She sat down
again, quickly, a little surprised at the weakness and nausea that the heroines
of movies never seemed to suffer after a violent assault.
The room had one door. It was only a few steps away and, not very
surprisingly, bolted from the outside.
Joanna went back to the daybed and sat down again. Her knees felt weak.
Don't panic, she told herself. Whatever
you do, if you panic, you won't be able to do anything. But her mind kept
screaming at her, Why me?
Figure that out later, she told herself firmly, fighting not to think about the
implications that she had been stalked. She dug through the contents of her
purse, and her hand closed around the reassuring smoothness of her hammer. She
set it beside her and checked out the rest‑Swiss Army knife, several tin
and plastic boxes, a measuring tape, scissors, calculator, wallet, checkbook,
keys, notebook, mirror, spare toothbrush, tube of sunscreen, collapsible
drinking cup, Granola bars, rubber bands, safety pins, a lipstick that she'd
never used, a package of Kleenex, a sewing kit, a bundle of plastic‑coated
wires she'd gotten from plant maintenance, three and a half pairs of earrings,
and two floppy disks.
She selected the hammer and the Swiss Army knife, opened the screwdriver
blade, and returned once more to the door.
It was designed to open inward. The hinges were the pin type, though
massive and, by the look of them, forged of iron rather than steel. Joanna
frowned as she shined the beam of the flashlight over them, recognizing the
anachronism but unable to account for it. She knew the recreational
medievalists of her acquaintance made their own chain mail, but their own door
hinges?
Doubtfully,
she cast the light around the room once more. Of course, Southern California
was rife with old stone buildings, if you knew where to look for them, but . .
.
Later,
she told
herself again. Right now the object is to get the hell out of here. Carefully,
she began to work the knife's screwdriver blade in beneath the hinge pin . . .
And stopped, at the soft snick of the door bolt being slid back.
She
had heard no footfall; but then, she had no idea how thick the walls or door
might be. Thick, she thought, for she had heard nothing at all‑no traffic
sound, not even the subsonic vibration of trucks, no airplane roar, and no
tread of footfalls elsewhere in the building. Adrenaline surging through her
like fire, she stepped back to where the door would hide her, hammer in hand,
heart pounding, but feeling queerly calm. Her last thought was, He's very
tall, I'll have to strike high.
The door opened.
He
was ready for her, catching her wrist on the downswing and ducking aside,
though she heard him gasp as the hammer glanced off his bony shoulder. Like
most women who have had little to do with men, she was shocked at the strength
of his hands. He knew the tricks too; his arms moved and twisted with hers as
she tried to drive her wrist against the weak joint of the thumb to break his
hold, and he turned his body to block the knee she drove at his groin. The
struggle lasted only seconds. Then something drove into his back from the dark
door like a striking puma. A slamming foot behind his knee made his legs
buckle. She heard him gasp again and looked up as the newcomer to the fray
seized a handful of his hair, pulled his head back, and laid the edge of a
knife to his throat.
Joanna
pulled away from the suddenly opened grip.
"Are you all right?" The young man barely glanced at her as he
spoke. In the skewed glare of the flashlight, his startlingly handsome face
looked drawn with strain and exhaustion, lead‑colored smudges of
weariness around the tip‑tilted dark eyes.
"I think so," gasped Joanna.
He
jerked the knife roughly against the thin skin above his prisoner's jugular.
His voice was thick with rage. "What have you done with the
Archmage?"
The kneeling man remained immobile between them, sweat shining on his
face and trickling along his exposed throat. "Nothing," he whispered.
"Caris, listen . . ." His breath stopped with a quick, faint draw; a
thread of blood started from under the blade.
"I've listened to you enough, Antryg Windrose." To Joanna, the
young man said, "There's a silk cord tied around under my belt. Take it
and bind his hands."
"Caris, no." The older man's lips barely moved as he spoke.
"You have to get out of here. There's danger . . ."
Joanna's hands were moving quickly, picking apart the knots of the cord.
The young man's clothing was black, oddly reminiscent, like the curved sword
stuck through his sash, of samurai or martial arts gear, though creased, torn
in places, and stained with caked mud and slime. Her first thought that she had
somehow been caught up in some kind of role‑playing event faded when she
saw that, under the torn jacket and shirt, Caris' biceps and pectorals bore a
collection of really shocking abrasions and bruises.
She pulled the silk cord free from the crossed sword sash and leather
dagger belt. "Look," she said shakily, "thank you and all that‑really,
thank you very much‑but could you please tell me what the hell is going
on?"
Caris' knee dug viciously into Antryg's back. "This man is a
renegade wizard," he said. "He has caused evils and abominations to
appear; for what he has done I should kill him here and now."
Joanna, pausing in the act of tying Antryg's hands, said,
"HUNH?"
"Caris, I had nothing to do with your grandfather's
disappearance."
"Then
how do you know he disappeared?"
"Look,"
Antryg said, turning his head a little against the grip on his hair to meet his
captor's eyes. "There isn't time for this. There is danger coming, an
abomination beside which the thing you fought in the swamp is as nothing."
"How do you . . .
"1 know it!" he insisted furiously. Then, more quietly, "Please
believe me." His long hands caught Joanna's as she tried to put the cord
around them, staying her, but without force. "I surrender to you, I'll be
your prisoner, do with me whatever you want to‑but get out of
herel"
Joanna
could feel his hands, where they touched hers, shaking. It didn't prove
anything; hers were still trembling from the exertion of the fight, and she
didn't currently have a knife at her throat. But in the silence that followed
his words, she could feel a strange, louring threat, a dread that she had known
before in the too‑silent corridors of Building Six‑a sense of evil,
beyond anything she had encountered or could imagine. Beside that amorphous
darkness, mere human kinkiness and even quasi‑medieval murder cults
seemed oddly petty.
She
said softly, "Look, I don't know what's going on but‑I think he's
right."
Caris glanced sharply at her, but only said, "Draw my sword."
Joanna
obeyed. Whatever the scenario was, it was pretty clearly being played for
keeps. There was something living and hateful in the silence that kept her from
simply saying, "Count me out of this dungeon thanks," and walking out
the door. As she had at San Serano, she felt again that outside the room lay,
not death, but something worse whose nature she could scarcely even conceive.
Caris
made sure the sword was ready to hand before he took the knife from his
prisoner's throat. "Get up. If you try any tricks, I swear I will feed you
your own heart."
Antryg
got to his feet, wiping the trickle of blood from his neck. The tension in him
was palpable; fear, thought Joanna, yet she had no sense that he was afraid of
Caris, in spite of the fact that the younger man had come within a millimeter
of slitting his throat. He whispered, "Stay here," and made a move
towards the door, as if to check the corridor. Caris' swift, small gesture with
the sword halted him again, and he regarded the young warrior in irritated
frustration.
Knowing
there was only one way out of this fox‑goose‑corn conundrum,
Joanna said, "I'll look," though her stomach curled with dread at the
thought of facing whatever might be in the corridor. Part of her insisted that
this was absurd, but some deeper part, the part that had cowered in fear in the
janitor's closet at San Serano, knew that Antryg was right and that Caris was a
stubborn fool not to flee from the darkness that she could sense was gathering
somewhere nearby.
Hefting
the hammer that she knew would be utterly useless, she peeked around the
doorframe.
The
corridor stretched away in darkness to her right, unbroken, impenetrable, and
hideously ominous. To her left, she thought there were doors, and beyond them,
some sense of openness, of moving air. The fear was to her right‑abomination,
Antryg had said. There was no sound, and she felt she would have preferred
anything to that unspeakable, waiting silence.
She ducked swiftly back into what had become a haven of safety. By the
flashlight‑glare, Antryg looked deathly white and Caris, his fair hair
falling into his eyes, like a man grimly fighting his instinct to flee. She
swallowed hard. "There's nothing moving out there."
"Good," Antryg murmured. In spite of the fact that he was
officially a prisoner, he seemed to have effortlessly taken over the
expedition. "Joanna, I'm going to have to ask you to douse that light, if
you can."
Joanna, who had picked up her flashlight from where it lay on the floor
behind the door, looked up at him, startled, and met only grave inquiry in his
gray eyes.
"There is a way of putting it out, isn't there?"
Verisimilitude? she wondered. But he was frightened‑she knew it, could feel it‑frightened
beyond the point where any role player would forget the bounds of a non‑industrial
persona and simply say, Shut off the flashlight.
Seeing the doubt in her eyes, he added, "I can see in the dark‑so
can Caris a little, can't you?"
Caris nodded‑it was clearly not something that he even thought much
about.
For the first time in that bizarre sequence of events, Joanna felt that
she had just stepped off an edge somewhere, into waters deeper than she knew.
Up until that moment, she had been sure, not of what was happening, but of the
kind of thing it must be. Now for the first time, she doubted, and the
doubts opened an abyss of possibilities whose mere existence would have been
terrifying, had she believed in them. Later, she told herself again.
Shouldering her heavy purse, she took a hesitant grip on the belt loop of
Antryg's jeans and switched off the light.
Darkness swooped down upon her like a terror‑bird. Her instinct was
to shrink against someone for the reassurance that she was not alone, but
Antryg had twice tried to strangle her, had kidnapped her from Gary's house,
and brought her to this place. She knew she could not afford to tie up Caris'
sword arm, even if he'd be chivalrous enough to let her, which she was pretty
sure he wouldn't. So she only tightened her hold on the narrow loop of denim
and tried to keep her breathing steady.
Antryg's hand touched hers and gave it a quick, comforting pat in the
darkness, as if he sensed her fear; then he led the way forward, out into the
haunted hall.
To Joanna's infinite relief, they turned left, moving swiftly and surely.
Once, putting out her left hand, she felt the cold, uneven stone of a wall and
guessed that, see‑in‑the‑dark or not, Antryg was probably
using the wall as a guide. Caris' shoulder brushed her bare arm, and the
coarse, quilted, black cotton of the jacket was warm against her skin; she
could hear the soft rustle of cloth and the creak of leather as that gorgeous
young man turned periodically to look back. Once she herself risked such a
glance and wished she hadn't.
It's
only darkness, she
told herself, the same as the darkness in front of you. Nothing is nothing. But
it wasn't. Why it should seem so dense and terrifying she did not know, nor
why, seeing nothing, she should have the sense that it stirred, as if with some
passing form that even light would not have unmasked. When I get out of
this, she thought, wherever the hell I am, I'm taking the first bus hack
to Van Nuys, 1 am finding a new apartment, changing my telephone number, and
looking for another job, if necessary . . . .
But
Antryg knew her now. And Antryg was one of them, whoever they were. Was
this, she wondered suddenly, just a put‑up part of the game? Was he
leading her through darkness to something worse, phase two of some elaborately
choreographed nightmare?
It
was more logical than what she feared, in some far‑back corner of her
heart, might be going on.
Something
stirred in the darkness. A wind touched her hair, blowing from behind them‑a
queer, cold smell that she vaguely recognized and which filled her with unnamed
terror. She glanced back over her shoulder again and thought she saw, far back
in the black depths behind them, some blur of luminosity which illuminated
nothing. At the same moment Caris whispered, "Antryg . . ."
Antryg's
bare, sinewy arm went around her shoulders, drawing her against him, and she
felt by the movement of his body that he had shoved Caris ahead of them. He
whispered, "Run!" There was a frantic fear in his voice that
could not have been counterfeited; she felt, rather than saw, Caris start to
run.
She had no idea how long they ran, nor when the ground beneath her feet
changed from stone to earth, and from earth to the silky drag of grass. She
stumbled and was hauled forward by main force, gasping for breath and
exhausted, her mind blurred by panic of whatever it was that lay behind them.
Sometime in that darkness, she was aware that the graveyard fetor that had so
unreasonably terrified her had changed to wind and the thick headiness of cut
hay; she stumbled repeatedly on the uneven slopes of the ground, trying to
match her stride with the much longer one of the man whose powerful arm pushed
her inexorably on. Through her terror, she became dimly aware of a dividing
horizon between dark earth and dark sky. Then she stumbled, and fell into a
final and deeper darkness.
It was just before dawn when she woke. She stirred, and sneezed. The air
was thick with the fragrance of hay, with the smell of water and cows, with the
twitter of whippoorwills, and with the incessant, peeping chorus of small
frogs. For a blank moment, she wondered where she was. Her throat ached with
bruises, and her body was stiff with the last, desperate run of the night. She
was starvingly hungry.
Looking up, she could see Antryg sitting with his back to a haystack an
object which Joanna had never seen in her life outside of pictures, but which
was indubitably a haystack. His long legs were drawn up, his arms rested across
his bony knees, and he contemplated the glowing eastward sky with a look of
meditative calm. Beyond him, Caris lay asleep, like an exhausted god, his sword
still under his limp hand.
All around them, the world was bathed in the unearthly blue glow of
predawn. Joanna sat up, scratching the straw from her hair. She felt a little
cold, shaken, and very unreal. The hills behind them were still shrouded with
the clear, purple darkness of the last of the night, but the waters of the
marsh that lay in a series of crisscrossed hollows below them and to their left
were already picking up the quicksilver brightness of the sky. There was no
freeway roar, no growl of jets, not even the faroff moan of a train whistle.
The sky was uncrossed by powerlines and, though it was late August, untainted
by smog.
"Are you cold?" Antryg asked her, and she shook her head.
"Not very."
He smiled and touched the t‑shirt he wore‑black, with the
silver‑foil logo of last year's Havoc concert inscribed blazing across
the chest. She recognized it as belonging to Tom Bentley, the department's
would‑be heavy‑metal rocker. "If I'd known I might have to
share, I'd have picked up something more substantial," he apologized.
Then, following her glance to the sleeping Caris, he added, "It hardly
seemed fair to escape while he was asleep, at least this time. He would have
stayed awake to stand over me if he could; the last twenty‑four hours
haven't been his fault. In any case I wanted to see the sun rise. I haven't
seen that in a long time."
Without
the beard that had hidden most of his face when she'd first seen him at the
party, he looked, not precisely younger, but more ageless. Joanna guessed his
age at about forty, though his hair‑an unruly mop, even when whacked off
to less than half of its former length‑was faded and streaked with gray,
like frost‑killed weeds. Behind the spectacles, his gray eyes were
intelligent, a little daft, and at the same time very gentle. In spite of the
bruises on her wrists left by his grip in last night's struggle and the crushed
ache of her windpipe, Joanna felt her fear of him subside.
"Look," she said, sitting up cross‑legged and shaking the
last of the hay out of her hair. "Would it be too much to ask what the
hell is going on?"
He regarded her for a moment with wary suspicion in those wide, oddly
intent eyes. "Don't you know?"
She sighed. "If I knew, I wouldn't have been scared as spitless as I
was last night."
He
folded his long hands and looked down at the twined fingers for a moment‑mottled
with ink, she saw, and, in the slowly growing dawnlight, very white, as if he
had spent years without seeing sun. "I suspect you would have been even
more so," he said gently. "But it doesn't matter."
"Where
are we?" She looked around her at the silent fields and dovecolored
pools. "And why have you been stalking me? What kind of crazy game was all
that supposed to be last night?"
He tilted his head to one side. "Have you been stalked?"
"I
don't know what else to call your‑your hunting me in the halls at San
Serano."
"It
is no game." Stiffly, Caris sat up and threw a quick, resentful glance at
Antryg. Sullenly, he wiped his sword on his jacket and then sheathed it with a
vicious snick. Pushing his blond, rumpled hair out of his eyes, he looked over
at Joanna. "It is hard for you to understand, since there is no magic in
your world. But you have been brought over into our world, into the Empire of
Ferryth, for what purposes I don't know, by this man. He is Antryg Windrose, a
renegade wizard, and I am sworn by my vows to the Council of Wizards to bring
him to justice for the evil he has done."
Joanna stared at him for a long moment. "You're crazy," she
said.
"No,
I'm crazy," Antryg disagreed mildly. "Caris is only confused. And I'm
afraid he's right about your not being any longer in your own world. Doesn't
the mere smell of the air convince you?"
Joanna
hesitated. There were plenty of places in the San Joaquin Valley, for
instance, or up north, where smog was seldom smelled‑but not, she had to
admit, in the summer. And in any case, if she'd been out long enough to be
taken there . . . She dug in her purse and found her watch. The readout flashed
to the touch of a button‑August 30, the day after Gary's party. She
dropped it back into the general confusion of the purse and tried to make the
times fit. Unless it was like one of those Mission Impossible stories in
which dates had been meticulously rejiggered to convince someone it was last
week or next week . . .
The countryside might have been somewhere in California's Central Valley,
from what she could see of it‑marshy hayfields before them, silent green
hills behind, and the long brown curve of a river in the distance‑except
there were no mountains, not even as a far‑off blue line against the sky.
Beside her, her kidnapper and her rescuer were talking softly. The
younger, in spite of his dark and battle‑shabby warrior's outfit, was
handsome with the Nordic gorgeousness of a prince of fairy tales, save for a
straight scar about an inch and a half long that marked a cheekbone straight
out of a TV commercial for designer jeans. The scar disturbed Joanna, partly
because it was the kind of thing that anyone could have had corrected by
plastic surgery‑and partly because, in spite of her guess at Caris' age
as being less than twenty‑one, it looked to be several years old. The
jocks she had met had given Joanna a deep distrust of young men that good‑looking,
but Caris lacked the egocentricity she had so often encountered in the self‑proclaimed
hunks. It was as if his appearance was entirely peripheral to some greater
force that dominated his life.
He was saying, "Why did you bring her to this world?"
Antryg, folding his long arms comfortably around his drawn‑up
knees, considered the matter gravely for some moments and replied, "I
can't imagine. Perhaps Joanna could tell us? Joanna . . . ?"
Annoyed, Caris caught the wizard's shoulder as he started to turn toward
her and pulled him back. "Don't play innocent. First you murder Thirle‑then
you kidnap the Archmage‑now this woman. I want to know why."
"I must admit to some curiosity about that myself," Antryg
remarked, disengaging his arm from the younger man's crushing grip with no apparent
effort. "I should imagine poor Thirle was murdered simply because he had seen
the Gate through the Void‑or perhaps because he saw who it was who came
out."
"Others
saw the Gate," said Caris. "I, for one."
"You
didn't know what it was, nor its implications."
"Aunt
Min did. My grandfather did."
"But
by that time, there were other witnesses. It was not simply a matter of
silencing one. Joanna my dear, why would someone‑let's call it me for
talking purposes‑have kidnapped you?" He turned those gentle,
luminous eyes upon her. "Who and what are you?"
"Be
careful," Caris cautioned, as Joanna drew breath to reply. "He's
completely mad, but he's clever. He may have brought you here to learn
something from you."
"I
don't know what," Joanna said, looking in puzzlement from the young man's
onyx‑dark eyes to the inquiring, bespectacled gray ones. "Even if he
wanted a computer programmer for some reason, the woods are full of better ones
than I am. But I've been stalked for a week or more . . ." She turned back
to Antryg. "What were the marks you made on the walls? You made one at the
house, and there was one at San Serano, the night you tried to strangle me
there."
"I assure you, my dear," Antryg protested, "It wasn't
me."
"And
it wasn't you who has been causing the abominations to appear?" Caris
demanded sarcastically. "Or who spirited my grandfather away?"
"Of course not."
"His glove was in your room. I saw it there."
"He left it when he visited me earlier in the week."
"He had them with him that evening! I saw them!"
"Both of them?"
"You
are lying," Caris said, and his dark‑brown eyes were narrow with
suspicion and anger. "As you have been lying all along."
"Well,
of course I've been lying all along," the wizard argued reasonably.
"If the Bishop or anyone else had suspected what happens when the Void is
breached . . ."
"What happens?"
Antryg
sighed. "It is where the abominations come from," he said. "When
a gap is opened in the Void, the whole fabric of it weakens, sometimes for
miles around. Yes, I knew that someone was moving back and forth across the
Void for months before Thirle was killed. Not every time, but sometimes, when
it was breached, a hole would open through to some other world, neither yours
nor mine, and something would wander through. Sometimes to die, without its
proper food or protection against unfamiliar enemies, sometimes to find
what food it could. I was aware of it, but could do nothing about it, since I
could not touch the Void from within the Tower."
"Ha!"
Caris said scornfully.
Unperturbed,
Antryg went on. "I knew that eventually such a weakening had to take
place within the walls of the Tower itself. I could only wait . . . I suppose,
if I hadn't been mad already, the waiting would have driven me so."
"You
knew this," Caris said softly. "You knew where the abominations came
from and yet you did not tell the Archmage of it?"
"What
could he have done about it?" Antryg demanded with a sudden, desperate
sweep of his arm. "He couldn't have stopped it. And they would only have
chained me, to prevent my escape. I'd been in that Tower seven years, Caris. I
haven't seen sunlight since before you were sasennan."
Joanna looked up sharply, hearing it then. The word sasennan came to her
mind as weapon, but with a suffix connoting humanness. She understood, for the
first time, that the words that she had heard in her mind were not the words
that they spoke. She knew, then, that she had passed into some other world,
alien to her own.
The brightness of the sunlight of which he had spoken suffused the sky
and all the lands around them with pastel glory, flashing like sheet glass on
the waters of the mores below. Gray and black geese rose from the rushes in a
wimmering flurry of wings. Joanna wasn't sure, but they looked an awful lot
like the pictures she'd seen of the extinct Canada goose.
For a long moment she wanted to do nothing except curl up in a fetal
position and hide. She felt bleak, sick, and frightened, as hopeless as she had
felt when, as a child, she had walked for the first time into a new classroom
filled with strangers. She cried, "Why did you bring me here?"
Caris and Antryg fell silent, hearing in her words the frantic demand,
not for information, but for comfort.
It was Antryg who spoke, gently, without the indignant protest with which
he had answered the sasennan. "I'm sorry, my dear. But truly, it was
someone else."
"Can you take me back?"
He was silent for a long time. Then he said, "I'm afraid not. Even
as Caris knows that I can't work magic here, because the other mages will know
I've escaped and be listening for me, feeling for me along the lines of power
that cover the whole of the earth in their net, so I cannot touch the Void now.
The‑the one who did kidnap you knows you're gone.
That one will be
waiting for me to touch the Void again, to find me‑to destroy me and you
and all of us."
Joanna
looked up miserably into the odd, beaky face in its mane of graying hair and
noticed for the first time how deep the lines were that webbed around the
enormous gray eyes, running down onto the delicate cheekbones like careless
chisel scratches and back into the tangled hair.
Sarcastically,
Caris said, "Very plausible. Except that, if you did not kidnap her, who
did? Even my grandfather, the Archmage, knew little about the Void and its
workings; according to him, there was no one else." He got to his feet,
and walked around to where Joanna huddled in the hay, feeling empty and
suddenly chilled. His hand was warm on her bare shoulder. "Don't worry.
We'll take him to the House of Mages in Kymil. If necessary Nandiharrow, the
Head of the House, will send for the Witchfinders. What he has done has put him
outside all protection of the Council. We'll make him tell what he has done with
the Archmage and when we find him, the Archmage will send you home."
It took them until
after dark to reach the city of Kymil.
It
was one of the longest days Joanna had ever spent‑literally; she guessed
that Kymil lay well to the north of Los Angeles, but, even though the summer
solstice was passed, the days were still very long. Well before the sun was in
the sky, they began walking through the luminous world of predawn to which
Joanna had always preferred another two hours' communion with her pillow. It
had been considerably longer than seven years, she realized somewhat
shamefacedly, since she had seen the sun rise.
Antryg
was like a child taken into the country for the first time, stopping to
contemplate cattails in the marshes below the road or to watch the men and
women at work cutting hay. If nothing else could have convinced her that she
had truly fallen through a hole in the space‑time continuum, Joanna
thought with a strange sense of despair, the sight of those peasants at work
did. No role player, no matter how dedicated, was going to get out of bed at
the crack of dawn and do hard labor in the coarse, awkward, bundly clothes they
wore.
But in her heart she needed no convincing. She knew where she was.
"Do you want some sunscreen?" she asked Antryg as they stopped
on a wooden bridge over the shining counterpane of marsh and hay meadow to
watch the first hard lances of sunlight smite the water beneath them like a
sounding of trumpets. "Something to keep you from sunburn?" She dug
in the capacious depths of her bottomless bag.
"Thank you." He studied the crumpled tube gravely. "After
seven years of living in the dark like a mushroom, right now I'd welcome any
kind of natural sensation, but I'm sure I won't feel that way at the end of the
day."
Oddly
enough, Joanna felt more at ease and able to talk to Antryg, her kidnapper,
than to her rescuer. Part of this stemmed from her distrust of extremely good‑looking
men, part from the fact that Antryg was sublimely relaxed about being a
prisoner, far more so than Caris was about having one. Possibly, she thought
frivolously, that was simply because he'd had years of practice at it. As she
replaced the tube in her bag, Joanna found several Granola bars and offered
them to her companions. Caris devoured his like a wolf, but Antryg divided his
with the sasennan. "After yesterday, I'm sure he needs it more than I
do," he said, as Caris suspiciously took the solidified mass of nuts and raisins
from his hand.
"Why?" Joanna asked, glancing curiously from the wizard to the
warrior. "What happened yesterday?"
"There
was an abomination in the marsh," Caris replied, almost grudgingly. He
touched the rip in the shoulder of his jacket and shirt, under which the
bruised flesh had turned almost as black as the torn fabric. He glanced across
at Antryg as they resumed their walking, the bridge sounding hollowly with
their footfalls. "He knew it was there."
"Of
course I knew it was there," Antryg responded. "I'd felt the opening
of the Void, and you could hardly have gotten bruised that way brawling in a
pothouse."
Caris' dark eyes narrowed. "You have an explanation for
everything."
Antryg
shrugged. "It's been my misfortune to be a good guesser. Would it alleviate
your suspicions any if I didn't have an explanation?" He gravely handed
the crumpled Granola wrapper back to Joanna. "Tell me one thing, Caris.
Who were the other mages abroad the night Thirle was killed?"
The
young warrior shifted the scabbard that he held loose and ready in his left
hand. "How do you know there were any, if it wasn't you who . . . ?"
"Another guess. Was your grandfather one of them?"
"No."
Caris glanced sidelong at the wizard, his eyes filled with suspicion. After a
moment, he said, "Lady Rosamund." and paused, with a sudden frown.
"What is it?"
He
hesitated a moment, then shook his head. "Nothing. Just that . . . She was
up and dressed, literally moments after the shots were fired. Aunt Min's hair
was flattened and mussed, as if she'd just risen from her bed. It was as if
Lady Rosamund had been up some time before."
"Even as you
were," Antryg remarked softly, and Joanna saw the young man look swiftly
away. "What wakened you?"
"Nothing,"
Caris said, his voice curt. "Dreams. Nothing that has to do with Thirle's
death."
"Oh,
everything has to do with everything." Antryg smiled, shoving his big
hands into the pockets of his jeans and kicking at a pebble with one booted
foot. "It's one of the first principles of magic."
Joanna
looked doubtfully up at him. "By magic, do you mean like pouf‑you're‑gone
magic?"
He grinned. "Yes‑in fact, pouf‑you're‑gone is
precisely the question of the moment."
"Then why . . ." She hesitated, then went on. "This is
going to sound really stupid, but why don't you use magic to escape?"
Caris looked indignant at the question and started to gesture with his
sword; Antryg's grin, like that of a slightly deranged elf, widened.
"Well, two reasons. I believe I can convince Nandiharrow and some of
the other mages of the Council to believe my side of the story and, at the
moment, I feel I'd be safer as a prisoner of the Council than a fugitive from
the Church, which has its own mages. At least the Council will listen to me.
And then," he added, more gravely, "if I used magic to escape, the
other mages, be they Church or Council, would be able to track me through it
eventually."
"You're forgetting the third reason," Caris said grimly.
"If you try to escape I will kill you."
"No," Antryg said mildly, "I wasn't forgetting," and
Joanna had to turn away to smother a grin.
In contrast to the silent and preoccupied Caris, Antryg had a voracious
interest in everything and anything and was, for all his talkativeness, a good
listener. Joanna had never been at ease with men; but as they walked along the
highroad that ran above the marsh, she found herself telling him, not only
about computers and soap operas and the Los Angeles freeway system, but about
her mother, Ruth, the cats, and Gary.
"Ali, Gary," he said. "The one with the cruel
streak."
She shrugged, guessing he'd been one of the large number of people who'd
overheard Gary's remarks about her. "He probably just thought he was being
funny."
"I'm sure he did," the wizard said, polishing the spectacles on
the hem of his t‑shirt. "And that is the worst thing which can be
said about him."
It was, but it surprised her a little that anyone, particularly any man,
would see it as she did.
The sun rose to noon, and Caris negotiated with some of the hay cutters
to buy a portion of their bread and ale, which the three ate sitting on a half‑rotted
willow log beside one of the gnat‑swarming mores. Joanna found the bread
harsh and strong‑tasting and sprinkled through with grain hulls and
specks of dirt. So much, she thought, picking a morsel of grit from
between her teeth, for the good old days of the old mill by the
stream. "Can't you do anything about this?" she inquired,
glancing up at Antryg, who was contentedly downing his share of the ale.
"I mean, you're a wizard‑you should be able to turn this into quiche
lorraine."
"It doesn't work that way." Antryg half turned to offer the
flask to Caris, who, even when eating, stood behind him, one hand never far
from the hilt of his sword. Caris shook his head, and the wizard passed it to
Joanna. The ale was sweeter than the beer she was used to and considerably
above the California limitations on alcohol content. "I could use magic to
convince you that you were eating quiche; but when all was said and done, it
would be bread in your stomach; and when the spell wore off, you'd still have
sand in your teeth. There are wizards and spells which can convert one thing to
another‑real bread into actual quiche or into gold, for that matter‑but
they require so much power and take so much strength from the one who casts
them that it's really simpler just to change millers."
"Not
to mention," Caris said quietly from behind them, "that such meddling
in even the smallest of human affairs is forbidden."
"Well,"
Antryg agreed blithely, "there is that."
Caris'
face darkened with disapproval, and Joanna, glancing sideways at Antryg, caught
the flicker of his smile and wondered suddenly how much of what he said he
believed‑and how much was simply to get a rise out of his captor.
They
had come, Caris said at one point during the long afternoon, from the far
southeastern corner of the Ponmarish, where it touched the hills of the
Sykerst. It was a long walk up the southward road to the gates of the city.
There were few peasants in this portion of the marsh, and what few there were,
Joanna noticed, worked hard and closer together than their tasks warranted.
They appeared nervous, glancing over their shoulders. Poaching hay illegally? she
wondered. On the lookout for the hay police? But by that time she was too
exhausted and footsore to ask. The daylong walk, though it was not fast, was
extremely tiring. She was a thin girl, but she had done no more strenuous
walking in the last several years than was necessary to get from her car in the
San Serano parking lot to her office, and by the end of the afternoon she felt
a kind of wondering resentment about Caris' tireless, changeless stride.
Antryg, she noticed, was more considerate‑perhaps because it had been
years since he, too, had done any great amount of travel. Caris only fretted
and muttered that they would not reach the city before dark.
And
it was, in fact, long after darkness had settled on the land that they walked
through the sleeping streets of the warm, flat, mosquitohumming city, with its
carved wooden balconies and brick‑paved alleys that smelled of sewage and
fish. The city was walled on its land side, though, in the flickering red
torchlight of the enormous gateway, Joanna had gotten the impression that the
gates themselves hadn't been closed in years. Caris roused a sleepy gatekeeper
and rented a torch, which illuminated the tepid darkness of the narrow streets
along which they passed. Down a side lane Joanna glimpsed the bent form of an
old man, whose elaborately braided hair and beard would have trailed to his
knees had the complicated loops of braid been undone, pushing a cart while he
shoveled up the copious by‑products of what was obviously a horsedependent
civilization. For the rest, the streets were quiet at this hour Kymil, thought
Joanna, scarcely qualifying as the Las Vegas of the Empire of Ferryth.
The House of the Mages lay a moonlit chiaroscuro of ice‑gray and
velvet black, gargoyle‑decorated balconies and windows unlighted and
silent, like an anesthetized dragon. Under the carved wooden turrets of the
main door, a bonfire had been kindled on the flagway, and four sasenna sat
around it, muttering amongst themselves and glancing worriedly about them at
the dark.
In
the mouth of the narrow lane, Caris stopped and swiftly doused his torch in a
convenient rain barrel. Antryg, too, had flattened into the shadows along the
wall. For a long moment, they looked out into the dim and mingled glows of
moonlight and firelight in the square. Then Caris said softly, "Those are
Church sasenna."
Antryg nodded, his spectacles gleaming dimly with the reflected
brightness. With a slight gesture, he signaled them back into the alley;
Joanna, mystified, followed him and Caris as they wove through a noisome alley
where pigs grunted down below the cellar gratings of the narrow houses and
around to another side of the square.
There was a smaller side door there. In that, too, armed men sat waiting,
huddled more closely about the brazier of coals than the balmy night demanded.
Caris glanced up at the tall wizard, his eyes suddenly filled with concern. In
an undervoice softer than the murmur of the winds from the marshes, he
breathed, "There are no lights in the house."
"Not even in the sasenna's quarters," Antryg murmured in reply.
Moonlight touched
the tip of his long nose and made a fragile halo of the ends of his hair as he
put his head a little beyond the dense shadows in which they stood, then drew
it back. Beside them, Joanna could feel, as if she touched the two men, the
tension that went through them as they found their common enemy guarding the
doors of the house.
Caris
said, "It's a good guess there aren't guards inside, then." He
glanced around at the black cutouts of oddly shaped roofs against the velvet
sky. "No wonder the neighborhood's so silent. They can't have . . ."
He hesitated.
"You
yourself said that the danger of the abominations abrogated my right to
protection by the Council," Antryg murmured, leaning one hand against the
coarse, dirty plaster of the nearest wall and looking out into the silent
square. "Perhaps the Church came to the same conclusion?"
"Come
on," the sasennan said quietly. "We can get over the wall of the
garden court‑it backs onto the next alley."
That,
Joanna thought wryly a few moments later, had to be one of the Great Traditions
of literature and cinema: "We can get in over the wall." Staring up,
appalled, at the seven‑foot paling of reinforced cedar and pine, she felt
the sensation of having been cheated by three generations of fictional heroes
and heroines who could effortlessly scramble up and over eight‑foot,
barbed wire fences without breaking sweat or scraping off their shirt buttons
as they bellied over the top.
And
more than that, she felt weak and stupid, as she had all the way through high
school, laboring wretchedly along in the distant wake of the class jocks and
wishing she were dead.
"There's
a footing shelf on the inside where the beam holds the palings," Antryg
whispered. "Caris, you go up first and I'll lift her to you."
Caris,
no more than an indistinct shape in the revolting darkness of the alley, turned
his head sharply, and Joanna saw the silvery glint of narrowed eyes.
"I'm
not going to run from you the minute you're occupied going up the wall,"
the mage added impatiently. "As much as you do, I've got to find out
what's happened."
Caris
started to make a reply to this, then let out his breath unused. Without a
word, he turned, took a running start at the wall, and used it as a momentum to
spring for the top and carry himself over.
"How
did you know there was a footing on the beam?" Joanna asked as she
approached the base of the wall and saw the sasennan's catlike silhouette
crouched against the slightly paler darkness of trees and roofs. "Another
lucky guess?"
"No. Up until seven years ago I was a‑well, not perfectly
respected member of the community of wizards." The moonlight checkered
through the trees beyond the garden wall and silvered the lenses of his specs
and the foil HAVOC on his t‑shirt. His hands on her waist were large and
warm and, as she recalled them on her wrists when they'd struggled,
surprisingly strong for his rather gawky appearance. "Up you get."
Joanna
had always hated heights, hated exercise, and hated having to do things she
couldn't do. Her hands scraped and driven through with splinters, she hauled
herself gasping to the top of the wall, half‑expecting Caris' mockery,
even as the young man steadied her over. But he simply helped her down,
following like a stalking cat into the pungent, laurelscented darkness of the
tiny garden. A moment later, the wall vibrated softly under Antryg's weight,
and he dropped like a spider at their side.
"Can we risk a light?" he breathed as they entered the dark
arches of a very short wooden colonnade that bounded the garden. "The
nearest door's around the corner. That should be the barracks in through
there."
Caris nodded. Joanna was about to dig into her purse to proffer a match
when Antryg made a slight movement with his hand and opened it, releasing a
tiny ball of bluish light which rose from his palm and floated a few feet in
front of him, about the level of his chest. His grin at the look on her face in
the faint phosphorescence was like that of a pleased imp.
Joanna said softly, "I'm not even going to ask." She had, she
realized, just seen magic.
"That's just as well. Nobody's ever come up with a satisfactory answer,
except the obvious one."
"In here," Caris murmured from the blackness of a small, half‑open
door.
Through an open archway to her right, Joanna had a glimpse of a vast
room, with moonlight flooding through long windows to lie like sheets of white
silk over a disorder of upended trestle tables and fallen benches. In the room
to which Caris beckoned them the disorder was worse. All along its narrow
length, furniture had been tipped over, books pulled from the shelves that
lined one wall, and strange brass instruments, sextants, astrolabes, celestial
globes‑had been hurled to the floor and lay like twisted skeletons,
glinting faintly in the moonlight. The line of wooden pillars that bisected the
narrow room and supported an even narrower gallery above it threw bizarre
shadows on the intricate inlay of the cabinets that shared with the bookcases
the long inner wall.
"It's the Church, all right," Caris muttered soundlessly as he
tiptoed the length of the disordered room, opening and closing cabinets as he
went. "Only they would have destroyed like this."
The ball of witchlight drifting along before his feet, Antryg picked his
way after the sasennan through the mess, turning over the torn and scattered
volumes. "They' were in a hurry," he murmured. He paused to stoop,
and Joanna saw, by the dim pallor of the witchlight, the black stains of tacky‑dry
blood on his fingers. "Nandiharrow," he whispered. "Now I wonder
why . . . ?"
Caris turned from one of the cabinets, a pistol in his hand pointed at
Antryg's chest. "Come over here," he said.
Antryg stood perfectly still for one moment, and Joanna prudently moved
to Caris's side to be out of any possible line of fire.
"And don't think you can fix the aim on it, or cause it to
misfire," the sasennan went on. "It's na‑aar. Joanna, there are
chains in the cabinet behind me‑get them out."
Joanna's liking for the mad wizard caused her to hesitate for only a
moment before obeying. The chains were light, iron rather than steel, and
equipped with bracelets and locks.
"Look," Antryg argued, "this isn't necessary."
"Put your arms around the pillar there. Joanna . . ."
Keeping
warily out of firing line, she fitted the heavy manacles around Antryg's wrists
and pushed them shut. They locked with a cold click. Caris came over and checked
them briefly, then nodded to himself, satisfied.
"Caris, don't be a fool . . . ."
"I'm
not being a fool." The sasennan stepped quietly away from him, his pistol
still trained on Antryg's chest. "And I am not sure whether my duty does
not lie in killing you here and now. I don't know what happened, but the mages
in Angelshand and other places have to be warned . . . ."
"You
are being a fool if you think that, even traveling by fast horse, you could
warn them in time," Antryg retorted. "The Church has mages who may
swear they don't communicate by scrying‑stones, but we all know they do.
If the Bishop has gotten permission from the Regent to order the arrest of the
mages, it's because she has convinced him that your grandfather somehow
spirited me away from the Tower for sinister plots of his own. That order will
apply everywhere in Ferryth. You know Herthe. You know she'll have no
compunction about violating every Church rule about the use of magic for what
she considers a righteous cause."
"Little suspecting," Caris said softly, "that it is the
other way around."
He stepped forward
and put the pistol barrel to Antryg's temple. "Was that your intention all
along? To use the Bishop as cat's‑paw to dispose of the other wizards,
once you had made sure my grandfather wouldn't be there to stop her? Or was
that only fortuitous circumstance? Was that why you were so unconcerned about
being my prisoner? Why you wanted so desperately to get us away from where I
found Joanna‑from where you were holding the Archmage . . . ?"
Antryg,
his head trapped between the gun muzzle and the turned wood of the pillar to
which he was chained, gazed straight ahead of him; but in the faint witchlight
Joanna could see the sweat that suddenly beaded his face. "I had nothing
to do with it."
The
gun lock clicked, loud in the darkness, as Caris thumbed back the hammer.
"Where is my grandfather?"
"They'll be in here in a minute asking you that," the wizard
said calmly, "if you pull that trigger. And I'm certainly not going to be
able to tell them."
For a long, frozen second Joanna held her breath, knowing that, frustrated,
furious, and at sea in a wholly unprecedented situation, Caris would have liked
nothing better than simply to pull the trigger in revenge for Antryg's having
put him in such a position. Under the film of sweat, moonlight, and travel
grime, she saw the young sasennan's jaw muscles harden and heard the deep
rasping draw of his breath. Then he lowered the pistol, still breathing hard,
and looked uncertainly towards the window, where the reflected firelight from
the gates outside stained the bull's‑eye glass.
Only Joanna saw Antryg briefly close his eyes with relief.
"Look, Caris," she said diffidently. "I don't know whether
I get a vote in this or not, but if all the wizards have been arrested, and if
your grandfather's gone, he is my only way of getting back home." Caris
turned towards her, his agate‑brown eyes glinting with the intolerant
impatience of a strong man listening to the specious arguments of the weak, but
Joanna took a deep breath and went on, "I don't know too much about the
Church here, but I think, if the Church gets its hands on him, you may never
locate your grandfather, either. I mean, if I were the Church and I'd just
busted every wizard in the country, I wouldn't try too hard to get the Archmage
back into action."
There was a long silence while Caris thought about that, and then
something changed in his eyes. "No," he said quietly. "You're
right, Joanna‑however it came about, it's an opportunity the Church won't
let pass by." He was quiet for a moment more. Joanna guessed that, for all
his skill as a line fighter, he had never been required to think out the larger
strategies for himself. He sighed and rubbed the inner corners of his eyes with
his free hand, and some of the desperate tension relaxed from his broad
shoulders.
"I'm sorry," he added quietly. "This world must be almost
as bad for you to be stranded in as yours was for me."
Almost! thought
Joanna, with indignant astonishment. It isn't my world that has the
Inquisition and ankledeep horse manure in the street! Of course, she added
ruefully, we do have the bomb and the 405 Freeway . . . .
"It's just that . . ." he began‑and stopped himself
abruptly from admitting to an exhaustion that it was not the Way of the Sasenna
to take into consideration and a love for the old Archmage that it was not the
Way of the Sasenna to feel. After a moment he said, "I think the best
thing we can do now is to go to Angelshand. The other members of the Council .
. ."
"Have either been arrested or are hiding in the deepest holes they
can find," Antryg finished. The hammered iron of the chainlinks made a
soft clinking against the wood of the pillar as he clasped his big hands around
it, almost encircling it with the span of his fingers. "The Bishop will
have sent word to the Bishop of Angelshand. They'll have the Regent's consent
to the arrests by the first post."
"Then we shall go to the Regent," Caris said stubbornly.
"Narwahl Skipfrag is a friend of Grandfather's. He can get the Regent's
ear long enough for me to explain the truth of what happened. And after that,
the Witchfinders may have you, for all of me."
"Ah," murmured the mage, leaning against the pillar. "But
what is the truth?"
Caris'
face hardened in the zebra moonlight. "The truth," he returned,
equally quietly, "is what the Witchfinders will have out of you." He
turned to Joanna and handed her the pistol. "Watch him," he said.
"I'm going to have a look around before we leave." Turning, he strode
away down the long moonlit room and out into the darkness of the refectory
beyond.
Antryg
sighed and rested his forehead against the pillar, rubbing his long fingers, as
if to banish the ghost of some old pain.
As
well as she could, keeping the pistol in hand, Joanna righted one of the
chairs, heavy black oak with waffle‑crossed straps of leather nailed for
a seat, and found a cushion in a corner to put on it to sit down. Her legs were
immediately enveloped in a vast rush of pins and needles, and she felt she
never wanted to stand up again. After a moment, she asked curiously, "If
you're a wizard, can't you just break the locks?"
He looked up at her with a tired smile. "I could," he said.
"That is, I could open them‑they aren't na‑aar, metaphysically
dead, like the pistol. But the Church has its wizards, too. By this time, they
will know I am free and they will be listening, smelling the air for magic,
like the terwed‑weeds beneath the sea that scent the tiniest ripple of
the passing fish that are their prey. They would know and they would come. And
then, too . . ." He paused, thought about it, and let the sentence go
unfinished.
Very gingerly, Joanna folded her legs up under her‑at five‑feet‑almost
tall, no chair was particularly comfortable without an accompanying footstool.
"But weren't you their prisoner before?"
"I was the Council's prisoner, in the custodianship of the Church.
The Archmage . . ." He hesitated on the title, then went on, "The
Archmage fought for my life."
"Caris' grandfather?"
He nodded. "Salteris Solaris, yes."
She frowned a little, her dark, feathery brows pulling together over her
nose. "The one you made away with?"
"I did not make away with him, " Antryg insisted doggedly. "I
never saw him. He never came there." But he looked away from her as he
spoke.
There followed a long silence. In the balmy warmth of the night, she
wasn't cold, but all the cumulative aches of the day were beginning to stiffen
her unaccustomed muscles, and she had a headache from hunger ‑bread,
cheese, and beer ten hours ago didn't, she reflected, have a great deal of
staying power. It was Sunday night. Well, she sighed inwardly, you didn't
want to go to work on Monday and here you are. But even as she smiled to
herself, she shivered.
She hadn't wanted to go to work Monday because she had known that she was
being stalked. And here she was, with the stalker‑where? And more than
that . . .
"Why?" she asked softly. "Why me? I've asked you that
before . . . ."
Antryg looked over at her again and smiled gently. "My dear
Joanna," he said, "if I knew that, I would feel a good deal
happier."
Then suddenly he raised his head, listening to the silence of that hushed
and darkened house. "What . . ." Joanna began, and he raised his
fingers for silence. Strain her ears as she would, she could hear nothing but
the faint sough of the leaves of the courtyard trees beyond the arched door
and, from somewhere far‑off over the wall, the dismal singsong of a
kindling‑seller's cry. The faint, bluish gleam of Antryg's witchlight
died, and, like nocturnal hunters encouraged by the death of the light, the
shadows seemed to creep forward around them.
In
a voice no louder than the brush of a scrap of silk over footworn stone, Antryg
whispered, "The Witchfinders."
Joanna
knew better than to try projecting a sound that soft‑she slid from her
chair as noiselessly as she could and stood near enough to him that she could
smell the lingering scents of hay and last night's cigarette smoke in his
clothes. "I don't hear anything." She did not even vocalize the
sounds, but he breathed a reply.
"At
the far side of the house. They have Caris. There will be a key in the top
drawer of the desk‑Nandiharrow always kept it there."
Joanna
hesitated. She had, after all, heard nothing herself. Caris would kill her if
she let herself be tricked, particularly by something this simple. Presumably,
someone like Sam Spade could just narrow his eyes and snarl confidently,
"You're lying, Merlin," but Joanna had never figured out how to
intuit that accurately. Trying to pitch her voice as soundlessly as she could,
she asked, "Why would the Witchfinders want Caris?"
He
closed his eyes and rested his forehead against the wooden pillar, listening to
sounds that, try as she would, she could not hear. "They want the
Archmage. They think he knows . . . Get the key!" he urged, with soundless
urgency, his gray eyes opening wide, and added, when Joanna wavered, "I
swear it isn't a trick! Caris . . ."
She
held up her hand for silence, as he had done, and whispered, "I'll see.
He
opened his mouth protestingly, but she had already turned away, and he knew
better than to make any further sound.
It
was perhaps that which half convinced her, even before she slipped into the
darkness of the refectory across the court and heard the soft voices there. An
inveterate reader of spy novels, she followed every halfremembered precept,
moving along the wall so that floorboards would not creak, not to mention there
being less chance of tripping over miscellaneous furniture along the wall. A
nervous, orange reflection of firelight outlined a door behind what must have
been the high table and picked out the shining lip of a turned‑wood bowl
and the metal edge of a tankard, fallen amid a great red stain of dried wine.
She caught an indistinct murmur of sound, fought back her instincts to hurry
and tested every step. By the time she reached the doorway she could make out
the voices.
"My
grandfather had nothing to do with his escape! He would have prevented it if he
could!"
"Either
the Sigil of Darkness works or it doesn't, boy," a thin, cold voice said,
chill and poisonous as crimes committed for righteousness' sake. "If
Antryg Windrose had the ability to spirit the Archmage away, the Archmage would
have been able to prevent him from doing so."
Very
cautiously, Joanna lowered herself to her hands and knees, so as to be below
eye level, carefully keeping the pistol she held from knocking against the
floor, and peeked around the edge of the door. After the soft, moony radiance
in the refectory, the low redness of the hearth fire seemed bright. The room
had clearly been the library; its half‑emptied shelves were littered with
torn and fallen books, and others lay thrown in the corners or had been heaped
in the fireplace to provide such dim illumination as the room had. Caris was
tied to a high‑backed chair of spindled wood before the low blaze. Even
in the wickering light, Joanna could see the fresh bruise livid on his cheek
and the blood on his lip. His sword and three daggers glinted on the table
behind them. Beyond, in the shadows, stood three sasenna in somber variations
of Caris' torn and stained black uniform. Like a shadow himself against the
firelight, a thin man stood in a narrow‑cut gray suit, his lank gray hair
falling down over a turned‑over collar of white linen. His hands were
behind his back small, hard, lean hands, white as the bands of his cuffs and,
like them, dyed red with the gory light of the flame. When he turned his face
sidelong to the fire, Joanna caught a glimpse of lean, regular features that
indicated he had probably been handsome in his youth, before the habit of self‑righteousness
had bracketed the thin lips with lines of perpetual disapproval. Another man in
a similar suit of close‑fitting gray stood beside him; it was to him that
first one said softly, "When he tells us where the man Antryg is, take two
of the sasenna and kill him. We can't afford these waters muddied."
The other man nodded, as if agreeing that, yes, mad dogs ought to be
killed; an agreement that was self‑evident. "And him?"
The Witchfinder glanced casually back at Caris. "Oh, him too, of
course‑but after we've learned where Salteris might be. We have most of
the great ones, save that one alone‑if this boy is his grandson, we may
be able to use him as bait."
It was not so much the words he said that affected Joanna, but the way
they were spoken, the soft, insidious voice calmly matter‑of‑fact,
as if it were not people at all of whom he spoke. As soundlessly as she could,
she backed away, more afraid of being detected and of having that voice speak
to her than she had been of anything, even of waking up in the darkness with
the print of the strangler's hands on her throat.
Antryg was watching the door with concern in his eyes when she glided
back in. The tension relaxed from his shoulders when he saw it was she, but he
neither sighed nor, she noticed, moved his hands from where they had been, lest
the links of the chain make even the slightest noise. If he, a wizard, could
hear the voices on the other side of the refectory, it stood to reason he
feared that there were Church wizards there, too, listening for any untoward
sounds. After a moment's debate, she shoved the heavy pistol into her purse and
slung the unwieldy bag up onto her shoulder again. As she gentled the drawer
from the desk, she wondered whether Caris would tell them—or would he realize
that, once that soft‑voiced man got his hands on Antryg, Caris would
never have the chance to find out where the Archmage was or what, if anything,
Antryg had done with him?
She
came back, key in hand, and touched her finger to her lips for silence. Then
she pulled Antryg's t‑shirt up over his head and down his arms, to muffle
the iron of the lock as she twisted the key. She gestured toward the door and
looked a question.
"Peelbone," he breathed, with almost telepathic quiet.
"Witchfinder Extraordinary‑special branch of the Church." His
hands freed, he pulled the t‑shirt into place and shook his hair back,
crystal earrings glinting in the moonlight, and straightened his specs.
"An ideal man for his job but gets invited to very few dinner parties‑not
that he would ever accept, mind you. I wonder why it is that dyspepsia and
righteousness go so often hand‑in‑hand?"
"Perhaps
it's what they mean when they say that virtue is its own punishment?"
returned Joanna, equally soundlessly, following Antryg through a small door
partially shielded by a torn curtain and into a ransacked workroom.
The
room faced opposite the direction of the moon and was almost completely
lightless; a droplet of luminescence no bigger than an apple seed floated like
a firefly behind Antryg's shoulder, edging his long, nervous hands and
preposterous nose in a thin slip of silver as he moved from cupboard to
cupboard.
"As
I thought," he whispered. "The Bishop's guards came through and
sacked the place but didn't take anything away. Afraid to, probably. I wonder
the Witchfinders had the nerve to enter the place when they heard Caris moving
about." As he spoke, he was drawing things from cupboards‑two
packets of powders, a mechanical implement that looked like a wind‑up
toy, and a small box tied tightly shut. Joanna, nervously aware that the small
room constituted a cul‑de‑sac and the one window was far too narrow
to admit even her, kept glancing over her shoulder into the barred and dappled
shadows of the study beyond.
"We
have to help him," she whispered, forgetting entirely that Antryg had
every reason not to do so.
"If
he's in the hands of the Witchfinders that goes without saying," he
replied, the seed of light warming infinitesimally as he bent over the
clockwork mechanism, disconnecting a gear and rod arrangement.
Joanna
peered worriedly past his shoulder at it. "What is it? It looks like the
innards of a clock."
"It
is. Like most mages, Nandiharrow was interested in other things besides pure
magic‑whatever that may be. This is actually a musicbox mechanism run by
a clock spring. . .
You didn't happen to bring along my chains, did you, my dear?"
Joanna
shook her head, mystified; he tched under his breath as if she'd forgotten to
bring money on a shopping trip and handed her a rag from a corner of the bench.
She paused for a moment, hating the silent checkerwork of moonlight and shadow
in the room outside and sensing through her skin the shortness of time. Having
come in and found Caris, the Witchfinders would be fanning out through the
building; it was only a matter of time until she and Antryg were discovered.
Moving as quickly as she could without making any noise, she stepped over to
the chair where she'd been sitting and where she had put the chains, covered
them with the rag, and brought them in, cushion and all. As she did so, she
felt, more than heard, the muted tread of approaching feet on the refectory
floor, and it was all she could do to keep from breaking into a run back to the
workroom.
"They're coming," she breathed.
He nodded and moved soundlessly to the far wall, passing his hand swiftly
down it as she had seen him do in Gary's computer room when the wizard's mark
swam into brief, silvery life under his sensitive fingers. This time it was no
mark that appeared, but a slit of still deeper black in the shadows. He pushed gently,
and a segment of the wall fell back; the tiny light that burned above his head
drifted forward to illuminate a very narrow flight of worn and mended steps. He
paused, then handed her the clockwork, packets, and box; and to her speechless
horror, he turned swiftly and vanished back into the darkness of the study. A
moment later he was back beside her, shoving a small wash‑leather bag
into the pocket of his jeans.
"What is it?" she whispered as he led her into the secret
stair.
"Money," he breathed. "Nandiharrow always cached the House
funds under the bottom shelf of the bookcase. We'll need it come morning."
"For what?" They were ascending the stairs‑wood, like
everything else in that rambling house, and so narrow there was not even enough
slack to creak under their weight.
"Breakfast,
of course. I'm starving. Do you have anything like thread or string about you,
my dear?"
Silently,
Joanna fished into her purse and produced her sewing kit; Antryg swiftly
unraveled about five feet of thread and tied one end to the middle of the
chain, the other to some projection of the clockwork mechanism he had taken.
Very carefully he cranked it tight. Joanna could hear the swift firm stride
somewhere below now; she shivered.
"Right,"
he whispered. "Would you take the chains down a few steps, my dear? Thank
you. Just set them down on the step." He made an adjustment on the
clockwork, stood up, and held out his hand to her. She came back to him,
careful not to step on the taut thread, and picked up her purse where she'd
left it beside him. The weight of it reminded her of the pistol‑he could
have easily taken it and used it against her, but the thought didn't seem to
have crossed his mind. He pushed open another panel in the blackness, and then
they were in a long upstairs colonnade, with moonlight slanting through a
series of windows that barred the wall to their right in molten silver and lay
like pearl stepping‑stones along the worn oak of the pegged floor.
Antryg
shut the panel behind them; Joanna thought it blended invisibly with the
linenfold of the walls, but in the uncertain light, it was difficult to tell
where even unhidden doors lay. Taking her hand, he led her with that same
catfooted tread along close to the wall. They were halfway down the hall when
Joanna heard, faint but audible, the soft bump and clink of the chain.
"The
secret stair's like a sound tunnel," Antryg whispered as they reached the
far end of the gallery. "You can't tell where the noise is coming from.
The music box pegs should pluck at the taut thread intermittently enough to
keep them looking awhile yet."
"How
do you know about all this?" Shifting the weight of her purse, always
considerable and now aggravated by five pounds of metaphysically dead iron,
Joanna followed him down a broad flight of steps at the end of the hall, toward
a darkness like a velvet well beneath.
"I
told you, I used to stay in this house all the time. There are few enough of
the mageborn in the world these days‑whatever we think of one another, we
are all acquainted." He halted again, this time in the embrasure of one of
the stairway windows; for a moment Joanna could see him, like a gangly black
spider against the light that picked a steely line along his spectacle‑frames
and made the lenses gleam like opal when he turned his head. She saw the glint
of something in his hands and realized it was the box he'd taken from the
workroom.
"It's fortunate for us," he went on, still in that soft,
subvocal whisper, "that since I cannot use my own magic, I can borrow
someone else's. There." He pocketed something‑Joanna could see that
it was the string that had tied the lid shut. "Whatever you think is
happening," he went on softly, "don't turn aside‑just follow
me. All right?"
She
nodded and took a deep breath. "All right."
He
smiled at her in the moonlight in a way that made her remind herself firmly
that he was the villain of the piece. "Good girl." Turning, he hurled
the box outside into the darkness of the garden. Then he caught her hand and
started to hasten silently down the stairs.
They
had gone three steps when Joanna heard it, and her heart caught and twisted
within her. Shocking in the alien night, Gary's voice had a frantic note to it
that would have brought her up short but for the insistent drag of that
powerful hand on her wrist. "Joanna! Joannal"
There was some kind of commotion below‑she heard Caris' voice cry
"No!" and the scuffing crash of something falling. Antryg halted
short, forcing her to stop, as two men in the black uniforms of sasenna raced
past the foot of the stairs. A second later, she heard the crashing of their
feet in the garden outside; already Antryg was dragging her down the stairs,
and she was stumbling to keep up with his longer stride.
In the ransacked library, Caris was struggling wildly against his bonds,
desperation and fury in his face. "Grandfather's out there!" he
shouted, as Antryg scooped one of the daggers from the table. "I have to .
. . !"
"It's a Crier." Red light slipped along the blade as the wizard
slashed the bonds; he caught Caris by his torn jacket and sword belt as the
young man lunged for the garden doors. "An illusion of summoning‑Come
on!"
"But . . ." Shaken Caris might have been, but not so shaken
that he forgot to snatch his weapons from the table as they passed.
"It's true, I heard Gary's voice," Joanna panted. They were
already on the run for the window. Footfalls pounded behind them on the oak of
the corridor floors. Antryg kicked open the leaded casement of the window and
swung through; Joanna scrambled next, still hanging onto her purse, and
dropping a surprising distance into a pair of strong hands.
Antryg was already hauling her back into the shiny, green‑black
thicket of a camellia bush as Caris dropped from the window; in the tepid night
air, the scent of the waxy white blossoms hung thick around them. Caris ducked
back to join them, still shoving a last dagger into his boot, the bruise on his
face showing up horribly against the exhausted grayness of his skin. Joanna
thought about going over the fence again, and her every stiff and aching muscle
whined in protest, but the thought of the cool, self‑righteous voice of
the Witchfinder brought the cold sweat of fear to her face. Remembering it and
those chilled and empty eyes, she no longer questioned how an animal could bite
off a foot to escape a trap.
Caris
whispered, "They're outside, waiting for us to come over." Indeed,
beyond the garden wall, she could hear men shouting in the street. With his
teeth, Antryg ripped a corner from one of the sacks of powder and dumped a
little into his palm, then did the same with the other. Shoving the sacks into
the pocket of his jeans, he pulled a camellia from the dark shrubs around them
and ground the white blossom into the mixture.
With
a quick glance back at the window above them, he threw the blossom over the
fence. Just as it crested the top of the wood, it burst into violent flame.
Shouting rose beyond the palings and from the room they had just left. As
Antryg dragged her away Joanna could see the sasenna who had run past the base
of the stairs leaning from the window, pointing excitedly at the fireball.
Running feet pounded the pavement outside the fence.
Very
calmly, Antryg opened a small door that led back into the house and led the way
at a swift walk down a short, darkened hall, across the ghostly moonlight of a
rather bare reception room, and out one of the great doors and into the street
outside.
There
were no guards. Their abandoned brazier still flickered on the pavement, but
Joanna could see them pelting around the corner towards the smoldering glare,
their huge, jumping shadows thrown on the tall primrose and blue fronts of the
houses opposite. His arm protectively around Joanna's shoulders, Antryg walked
unhurriedly across the cobbled square and on into the concealing darkness of
the nearest lane, with Caris trailing silently at his heels.
"You're a
fool." Caris cast a nervous glance around the eating house of the Bashful
Unicorn as a stout, red‑faced serving‑woman in a greasy apron
brought a platter of stew and breads to the table. "We could have been
long on the road by this time."
"No
matter how quickly we'd gotten on the road, the patrols looking for us would
have been mounted." Antryg gravely poured ale from the earthenware jug for
the three of them, the grimy, orange glow of the solitary lamp overhead
glancing along his spectacles. "Even the ones who remained behind to
search the quarter of the Old Believers, under the impression that they'd be
likelier to shelter fugitive mages, would never dare risk being caught in a
tavern, should their captain ride by." He raised his dented tankard in a
toast. "Confusion to our common foe."
Caris paused, tankard in hand. "Have we one?"
"I'm
sure we do, if we look hard enough." The mage smiled. "Or should we
say, "To the Emperor's good health'?"
Across
the dining room, a well‑heeled young man in a mint‑green satin
court coat slumped forward across the table amid empty bottles and glasses; the
two painted strumpets with him instantly ceased their uproarious appreciation
of his jokes and got down to the serious business of relieving him of his
valuables. In the street outside, the first clattering of the market carts and
the crowing of cocks in a thousand backyard hen coops could be heard.
Caris drained his mug in silent disapproval. Joanna, sitting between the
two men on the hard, backless bench, mopped her bread in the stew. Worried as
she was about remaining in Kymil after daybreak, she could not help being glad
Antryg had vetoed immediate flight on the grounds that they wouldn't get any
breakfast.
From
their escape from the House of the Mages, Antryg had led them, illogically
enough, to an all‑night public bathhouse. "Who'd think of looking
for fugitives from the Witchfinders in the public baths?"‑an
argument Joanna found cogent and Caris dismissed as utterly frivolous. Emerging
clean, shampooed, and gasping from the cedar‑lined sweatbox with its
bubbling tub, Joanna found a bundle of secondhand petticoats, blue skirt, pink
bodice, and shift that Antryg had acquired from an old clothes dealer next
door. "There must be more old clothes dealers in the quarter of the Old
Believers than in the rest of the city put together," Caris had told her,
when they'd met Antryg in the tavern, the sasennan looking uncomfortable and
not very convincing in a peasant's knee breeches, woolen stockings, and coarse
smock. "They all go into the trade and stay open till all hours."
Antryg
had been waiting for them, his graying hair close‑curled with dampness,
resplendent in a much‑mended shirt of ruffled lawn that was far too big
for him and a rusty black court coat whose silver bullion embroidery had long
since been picked out. He'd retained the jeans and harness boots he'd picked up
at the party and had added to his crystal earrings an assortment of gimcrack
bead necklaces and a cracked quizzing glass. "You might be prepared to take
the road like a wolf in winter," he added, gesturing with his tankard at
Caris, "but I'm not, and Joanna certainly isn't. By daybreak, the men who
have been out combing the roads will be tired, and there will be enough people
about so that we won't draw too much attention to ourselves."
Caris
glanced at Antryg's attire, sniffed, and said nothing. Joanna had the distinct
impression that Caris knew very well he was no longer the leader of the
expedition, but wasn't entirely sure either how this had come to pass or what
to do about it. Antryg was, nominally at least, still his prisoner‑only
with the Council of Wizards gone or in hiding, there was nowhere Caris could
take his prisoner for the moment. There was a good deal of dour frustration in
his mien as he watched the wizard spooning honey onto bread.
"Very
useful stuff, honey," Antryg was saying. "Did you know the Mellidane
scholars make a decoction of it to preserve embryos for study, as well as use
it as a base for poultices?" He cocked his head a little, considering the
thick, liquid‑amber stream dripping from the spoon. "The ancient
Saariens said it was the tears of the goddess Helibitare and mixed it with
myrrh and gold and offerings‑and it has other uses as well. You're aware,
of course, that the guards at the city gates will be looking for the Archmage's
sasennan who slew the abomination in the swamp? And they'll certainly be
looking for that."
Caris
shied back from the touch of Antryg's finger as the mage flicked the purpling
bruise on his cheek. "My cloak has a hood."
"And
terribly convincing in midsummer it is, too." The mage sighed, sliding a
few spare rolls into the capacious pockets of his coat.
"Did you really?" Joanna looked a little shyly up at Caris,
remembering the mottled, hideous bruises she had seen on his chest and arms
through the torn cloth of his jacket. "Slay it?" It felt strange to
say. Nobody she had ever known had ever killed anything larger than a cockroach‑or
admitted to doing so, anyway.
"Not really," the sasennan said, pausing in his rapid and
efficient consumption of a hunk of beef. "My grandfather slew it. He
caused lightning to strike the water of the swamp‑lightning that is in
truth electricity . . . . Do you have electricity, in your world?" he
added.
"Sure." Joanna dished herself out a second platter of stew and
picked the trailing ends of her bodice lacings out of the gravy. The food made
her feel much better, as had the bath. She had been twenty‑four hours
without sleep, much of it on her feet, either running or walking. It occurred
to her suddenly to wonder whether Antryg had taken that into account in his
erratic choice of a hiding place. "Our whole world runs on electricity‑everything's
powered by it, just about. Lights, radio, television, computers, you name it."
"That music?" Caris asked, a little sourly.
"Particularly music‑although, mind you, I think it's an insult
to Johann Sebastian Bach to call that stuff music. But we won't go into that.
The instruments are electric; they're electronically synthesized and electronically
recorded and played back. The only human things involved are the group who
plays and the guy who wrote it, and even those are being computerized these
days."
Across the room the two sluts rose and departed, leaving their incapacitated
Romeo amid the beer mugs. The moving gust of air from the opening door made the
brownish shadows jump over Caris' elegant cheekbones and nose as he glanced
automatically up to make sure no one else entered. It was gray dawn outside,
lightening towards day. Though reeking of garbage and horses, the air smelled
fresher than the dark and beery frowsy inside.
"Record . . ." He looked back at her dubiously. "So that
it can be reproduced at any time, you mean?"
Joanna nodded. "But you have the same thing. The‑Crier, did
you call it?" She glanced across at Antryg in time to see him cache the
squat black bottle of gin he'd ordered in one of his copious coat pockets.
"Not really," the wizard said. "The Crier doesn't record a
sound, but an emotional reaction which you associate with sound, in much the
same way the spell of tongues allows you to understand what I'm saying now.
There are other spells which reproduce sound‑Screamer and terror spells‑fairly
simple, really. Have you a screw‑cap jar with a wide mouth in that bag of
yours, my dear?"
Joanna wordlessly produced one. Antryg cast a quick glance to make sure
the proprietress wasn't looking, then began spooning honey into it. He went on,
"Caris heard his grandfather's voice calling for help, didn't you, Caris?
Whereas you, Joanna, heard‑your lover's?"
The word took her by surprise; her reaction to it, even more so. She had
always subconsciously thought of Gary as "boyfriend"‑a somewhat
childish word never adequately replaced in adult parlance. She wondered, a moment
later, why her first impulse had been to shy away from the use of the word
lover‑in the physical sense, that was what he had been. But she
understood for the first time that she did make the distinction, and the
distinction was a critical one.
Gary, she thought, a little sadly, would never be anything but a
"boyfriend."
He probably wouldn't even realize yet that she was gone, she reflected
later, as they left the inn with the first brightness of the day dispersing the
gloom in the lanes. Her car would still be at his place. Possibly he'd deduced‑although
privately she didn't consider Gary capable of deductive reasoning‑that
she'd gone home with someone else.
As
she remembered his words about his being the only man who'd want her, the
thought pleased some small, vindictive corner of her heart. Thus he might not
find it odd she didn't answer her telephone all day yesterday, which was
Sunday. It was only when he went to work today, smugly counting on meeting her
at the office and offering her a ride to his place to pick up her car‑with
the obligatory Let's have dinner and Why don't you spend the
night thrown in‑would he realize she was, in fact, missing. He might
spend another day or two trying to reach Ruth before that jet‑propelled,
stainless steel butterfly remembered to listen to her answering machine, called
him back, and they figured out that nobody had seen Joanna since Saturday
night.
It was a slightly unnerving thought.
The
air outside was fresher, reviving her and chasing the insistent cobwebs of sleepiness
from her brain. The night had never really cooled off; the morning, already
sticky‑warm, though the sun was not yet in the sky, promised hot. It was
in her mind that now would be the ideal time to make her escape from Antryg‑except
that, in this world, there was nowhere for her to go. It was rather like trying
to escape from a rowboat in the middle of an ocean‑her options were
limited. The best she could do, she thought, was stay with the wizard and his
captor and hope they could locate the Council‑or, at worst, talk Antryg
into sending her back himself.
Once
outside the inn, Antryg turned, not toward the lane upon which it stood, but
into the smelly little alleyway which ran between it and the bathhouse. Caris
followed, clearly uneasy, because, in his peasant clothes, he couldn't openly
have a weapon in hand. The pistol was concealed under his smock, available, but
awkward to get at. Joanna, holding up her skirts from the mud, brought up the
rear, reflecting that all the swashbuckler films she'd seen had apparently
forgotten to mention certain facts of life, like pig dung in the lanes and the
general awkardness of petticoats.
In the alley, Antryg unscrewed the cap from his jar of pilfered honey,
tore pellets from the bread he'd pocketed, and, with the assistance of a little
of the mud and offal liberally available underfoot, created half a dozen
disgustingly convincing pustules to cover the bruise on Caris' face. "I
don't suppose you could manage to drool and stagger a bit?" he asked
judiciously, producing the gin bottle from another pocket. Its reeking
contents, dumped over the sasennan's clothes, totally drowned the smell of the
honey. Caris only looked indignant. "I didn't think so. Pity the rag shop
didn't have sasennan's gear to fit Joanna‑then she could have carried
your sword openly instead of bundling it up as it is."
Joanna glanced at the big, sloppy bundle which contained her own clothes,
sneakers, and bulging purse, Caris' torn and shabby black uniform and boots,
and a couple of hooded cloaks which could double as light blankets, should the
weather turn cool. It was tied loosely onto a pole, which concealed the long, hard‑edged
shape of Caris' sword, but it still didn't look particularly convincing.
"We could always say they belonged to my brother," she pointed out.
"The Witchfinders only think they're looking for one person, or at most
two, or . . . Could you pass yourself off as a free sasennan?"
"A free sasennan is a contradiction," Caris said, turning away
from trying to catch a glimpse of his reflection in a nearby rain barrel.
"There are no free sasenna. The Way of the Sasenna is to serve. We are the
weapons, no more, of those who hold our vows."
Joanna shouldered the long bundle and followed the two of them from the
alley and into the lane once more. Flies were already beginning to buzz around
the greenish scum in the gutters; Caris waved furiously at them as they hummed
around the fake sores on his face.
"But
what about you?" she asked.
His back stiffened. Momentarily he forgot that he was supposed to be a
pox‑ridden drunk. "My masters are and always will be the Council of
Wizards," he said. Under the dirty slime, his face was cold and proud as
Athenian marble. "My grandfather is not dead . . . ."
"Isn't he?" Antryg asked softly.
Caris halted and turned to face the wizard in the lead‑colored
shadows of the lane. "If he were," he said with equal quiet,
"there is only one way that you could know it, Antryg Windrose."
"Is there?" The mage tipped his head on one side, his gray eyes
suddenly very weary behind their heavy specs. "He was my master, Caris;
we traveled together for many years. Don't you think I would know?"
The sasennan's voice had an edge to it like chipped flint. "He was
not your master," he said softly. "Suraklin was your master."
"So he was." Antryg sighed, turning back to the lane. "So
he was."
They
moved out into the main street. Though it was fully light now, the sun had not
yet risen above the roofs of the houses; the gold brilliance of it flashed from
the slates of the roofs, but the lanes themselves were like canals of still,
blue shade. Rather to Joanna's surprise, since it couldn't have been more than
five in the morning, the lanes were crowded, men, women, and small children
jostling along the herringbone brick cobbles between the wooden houses. Some,
in the dark livery of servants, carried market‑baskets; tiny children and
old men in rags held out skinny hands to them and whined for alms. A few of the
women were better dressed, strolling with their maids and looking about them,
as Joanna was doing, savoring the glory of sun flashing from the wings of the
pigeons that circled overhead and the sweet, wild scent of the hay marsh that
blew in over the stinks of the waking town. But most of those abroad on the
street, roughly dressed and still‑faced, hurried drearily along with the
stride of those whose sleep has been insufficient and who care nothing for the
beauty of a day which will not be theirs.
They
turned a corner into the main thoroughfare of Kymil. The clattering of wheels
and hooves which Joanna had heard far‑off grew louder, and the slanting
sunlight sparkled on the broad street before her, the tepid air redolent with
the smell of horses. Carts in incredible numbers clattered by, laden with
produce or rickety coops of chickens; butchers' wagons darted between them, as
if trying to outpace pursuing swarms of flies; drays of sand or beer barrels
rumbled heavily on the cobbles. Just ahead of them, Joanna saw a little boy
with a broom dart out into the street to sweep a path through the accumulated
muck for a couple of well‑dressed ladies. One of them flung the boy a
coin, which he caught like a Cubs outfielder jumping for a pop fly.
Joanna
stood still upon the flagway, the bundle forgotten on her shoulder, staring
around her in a kind of amazement. Yesterday's walk through the countryside and
last night's brush with Church authorities and magic had not prepared her for
the thoroughly prosaic scene before her. Antryg paused beside her, causing
Caris to turn back toward them suspiciously, but the wizard only asked,
slightly amused, "What is it?"
She
shook her head. The truth sounded silly, but she said, "I sort of expected
it to be . . . more medieval."
Antryg
grinned, comprehending her surprise and appreciating her rueful self‑amusement
at her assumptions. "Not the sort of place you expected to find wizards
in, is it?"
Joanna looked around her again. Down the lane to their left, massive,
dreary brick factories crouched against the shining gold of the sun‑shot
river; a group of little girls in patched dresses moved past like a school of
fish and, with unwilling haste, joined the throng of men and women milling
toward the factory gates. Beside her, Caris said, "It is why wizards are
forbidden to touch human affairs‑so that we can have such a world."
He shrugged, clearly ill at ease in his peasant clothes without a weapon in his
hand. "Come."
As they moved down the street, Joanna cast a last glance back at the
tired‑looking children shuffling toward the factory gates.
"Flax mills," Antryg said softly, falling into step at her
side. "They'll work till seven or eight tonight, to take advantage of the
daylight. At twopence a week, the owners find it cheaper than hiring men. And
then, running a machine doesn't require strength."
Looking up, she saw in his face the tired bitterness of one who sees
suffering which he cannot alleviate and from which he has, by fate, been
exempted. Thinking of those hurrying, tiny forms, she knew exactly how he felt.
He went on, "This is their technology, their industry for the betterment
of all. To have no magic in politics, in industry, or in trade, to make no
exceptions for the few at the expense of the many . . . For this world, we have
forfeited what we are and could be."
"What you could be," Caris cut in frostily, "is what your
master was—a despot who ruled this town by fear for years and who instilled in
you the power to do the same."
Antryg sighed, his hands buried in the pockets of his preposterous coat,
the lines of his face settling into an expression that aged him‑the
weight of too great a knowledge of human sorrow. "Yes," he agreed,
his voice quiet. "But I've never seen that technology or this progress
they keep talking about has helped those who must feed its machines. Yours is a
world of technology, Joanna; it lies on the other side of a night of time which
our eyes can't pierce from here. Is it worth it?"
Joanna
was silent for a time, her skirt‑entangled steps quick to keep pace with
the longer strides of the men, fishing through the dim memories of a period in
history which had always bored her. "If you mean, does it get
better," she said slowly, "yes. But that's six, seven generations
down the line. And it gets worse."
"Much
worse?" His voice was the voice of a man asking after the fate of his own
children, not the sons of men and women three generations away whom he would
never know.
"I think so."
The
long, sensitive mouth twisted; he walked along in silence, while the morning
brightened and bells all over the city began to ring for the first church
services of the day. A couple of country girls passed them, their skirts hiked
up to reveal tattered petticoats underneath. One carried a bucket of milk on
her head, the other a tray of fish that could be smelled across the street;
neither girl looked particularly well‑fed. At the end of the broad
street, Joanna could see the glint of sunlight on the gray, bulky towers of the
city gates and the flash of steel pikes and helmets in their deep arched
shadow.
"I
suppose there's a certain economy to it," said Antryg at last. "To
sacrifice seven or eight generations for the betterment of ten, or twelve, or a
hundred."
The
children of the last generations of downtrodden factory fodder, Joanna thought,
had invented the atomic bomb. She said quietly, "Maybe not even
that."
His
glance was puzzled and worried‑not understanding how, she thought, but
understanding what. They were entering the jostling crowds of the square, where
half a dozen streets and alleys met before the gate. The din of hawkers, wagon
wheels, crossing sweepers, and soldiers calling back and forth was tremendous
and masked the soft, deep richness of his voice from any but her ears alone.
"Sometimes
I think it would have been better had I not been born with the powers of a
mage," he said quietly. "I see what is happening and I know I am
neither intellectually nor thaumaturgically equipped to remedy it. I know that
those great, awful laws should apply to all, without exception. And yet, in
individual cases‑it seems different then."
Without warning, the strange despair that Joanna had felt two or three
times in the last weeks washed over her heart. He was right, she thought ‑not
only about his world, but about her own. She felt suddenly isolated by the
pointlessness of it all. This world, working to become what hers suddenly
seemed to her to be‑colorless, alienated, so impersonal that she herself
could disappear and it would be days before her closest friend and her
boyfriend‑she shied again from thinking of him as her loverknew she was
even gone . . . .
Though
the warm brilliance of the daylight did not fade, it seemed as if all color,
all animation had been drained from it, turning it into a tawdry carnival of
pointless despair. Ahead of them, the city gates reared up at the end of the
street, a clumsy monolith of dingy stone surmounted by a tarnished clock and
cones of moldering slate. All the weariness of the last twenty‑four hours
descended crushingly on her shoulders. She could see the sasenna standing in
the gatehouse shadows now, their black uniforms bearing the red sun‑seal
of the Church; with them were men in the gray, straitlaced clothing of the
Witchfinders. She remembered the man Peelbone, and sudden panic clutched her
heart.
But
before she could speak, Caris balked and drew back suddenly into the mouth of a
narrow lane. Under the grime and faked sores, she saw his handsome face had
turned pale. His voice was breathless, "I don't like it.
Joanna shook her head, glad her own terrors were vindicated by the
instincts of the warrior.
"We can hide in the quarter of the Old Believers," Caris went
on hoarsely. "They'll know who I am."
"Don't be silly." Antryg ducked into the lane at his side.
Joanna could see his face, like the younger man's, suddenly clammy with
moisture. "Not finding us on the roads, they'll concentrate on the ghetto
now." There was something else in his voice, something that she didn't
bother to identify through that queer feeling of panic.
Caris went on, his voice stumbling, "We can't escape. They have the
Council; they're destroying all the wizards. We could have gotten out‑I
was going to use a spell to make them ignore us‑it was one of the few
magics I could do. But now . . ." He paused, his breath coming fast, as if
he fought a panic of his own. "Let's go back." He started to move
down the lane, and Antryg caught his arm in that surprising grip.
"No," the mage said.
Furious, Caris dragged at his smock for his pistol; Antryg caught his
other hand.
"It's left you, hasn't it?" he said softly. "Your
magic."
Caris' eyes shifted. "No. Now move or I’ll…
"You'll what?
Shoot me? Fifty feet from the guards at the city gate?" They stood nearly
breast to breast, the warrior in his filthy smock staring into the mage's
bespectacled eyes in baffled, unreasoning rage. Then his mouth twisted, and his
hand plunged for the knife in his boot. Joanna, watching, felt queerly distant
from both of them, as if it were all happening to strangers and there would be
no consequences. She wondered if the stew at the inn had given her dysentery
and these were its opening stages, wondered if she would die of it and, if she
died, if she would care. But even as Antryg caught Caris's knife hand, a cry in
the street behind them snagged at her attention, though it, like everything
else, seemed unimportant now.
Looking
out, she saw that a lady, in a spell of crooked humor, had flung a halfpenny
for one of the little crossing sweepers under the hooves of an oncoming dray.
The boy had made an ill‑timed dive for the coin and was now sitting on
the edge of the flagway, clutching his bleeding leg and screaming while the
drayman shouted at him and passersby turned aside unheeding.
Something
within her told Joanna that she should feel something, do something, but it was
as unreal as a scene on television. Her head felt strange, as if with hunger,
though she had a weird sense that she could eat for hours without filling the
gray emptiness of her soul.
At
the gates, the sasenna had closed around a young man in the long black gown and
braided hair of an Old Believer.
Caris,
looking dully past Antryg's shoulder, said, "It's Treman. One of the mages
. . . It'll never work! We'll be taken . . . ."
"We
won't," said Antryg quietly, seizing the young sasennan by the shoulder
and steering him out of the alleyway, "because we're not using magic to
get by the guards. Don't you understand? You're not the only one whose magic
has left you. You're not the only one who feels this despair."
Caris blinked at him, struggling in his mind. "What?"
Antryg
hauled the young man's arm around his shoulder. "Lean on me," he said
softly. "You're drunk."
"It'll never . . .
"I'll knock you over the head and carry you if you don't do as I
say."
Caris
made one indignant move to struggle, then shook his head, as if he suddenly
realized the perilous stupidity of such a display of temper. He slumped against
the taller man's shoulder, his head lolling. "I‑I don't know what's
come over me," he whispered. Joanna, clutching the bundle that now looked
more than ever unmistakably sword‑shaped, fell into step on his other
side. "It's as if ‑ . . .”
"I
don't either," said the mage softly, "but whatever it is, it has come
over the guards, too."
"It
can't have." Caris managed a convincing stagger, and clutched at the
mage's arm. "It's only because my magic is fading. It's been fading for
weeks. It hasn't anything to do with anyone else."
As
they approached the shadows of the gate, Joanna felt almost ill with despair,
knowing they would be searched. Even if the Inquisition did not take her, it
would certainly take her companions. She would be left stranded in this world,
with its filth and peril, unable to make her living, unable to return home . .
. Tears of fright and misery blurred her vision. She felt an almost
uncontrollable urge to break away and bolt back to the sheltering shadows of
the alleyways, and only some small, illogical corner of her that trusted
Antryg's judgment kept her moving toward the massed sasenna in the echoing,
stony darkness of the gate.
They
were still gathered around the man Treman, who was looking terrified and at the
same time in the grip of listless apathy. With a sudden oath, one of the guards
struck him across the face. The other guards, watching this scene, paid scant
attention to the cart and foot traffic clattering in and out of the gates
behind them. The shadows were cold; by contrast, the sun on the causeway
beyond, when the three fugitives reached it, was oppressively hot. Gnats hummed
drearily over the marshes; the sun was blinding on the water. Joanna, Antryg,
and Caris were some hundred feet beyond the gates before Joanna even realized
they had successfully escaped the town.
"You feel it, too, don't you, Joanna?" Antryg asked quietly, as
they lost themselves among the shuffling crowd of the city's poor who came and
went on the marsh road, to cut hay or fish for their food among the pools.
"And have done so for the last several weeks."
Joanna nodded, puzzled that he should know. Caris, the gates safely past,
removed his arm from Antryg's shoulders and took the bundle of weapons from
Joanna. He remained walking between them, looking baffled and strained.
Antryg went on, "I don't suppose that woman back there would ever
have thrown a coin under the horses' feet that way‑even if the thought
had crossed her mind; either inherent decency or, at the very least, fear of
what her friends would think of her would have stayed her hand. Ordinarily the
boy would have had more sense than to go after it and more skill than to get
trampled." He looked from one to the other of them, his head cocked to one
side, like a gray stork's. "Don't you see?"
A passing troop of mounted sasenna kicked dust over them; it clung like
flour to their sweaty faces. Joanna saw one tired‑looking old farm woman
who barely raised her head as the riders bore down on her; and the boy
who was with her saw them coming for some moments before rousing himself to
pull his mother out of the way. Joanna shook her head, feeling strangely
isolated and uncaring.
"It
eats life," the wizard said softly. "It eats magic. It leeches the
lifeforce, the energy that holds all life together, from every living thing
and leaves in its place only the weary wondering of where it has gone."
"What
does?" Caris asked, a kind of fear struggling against the uncaring
dullness in his eyes.
"That," Antryg said, "is what I mean to find out."
CHAPTER
XI
They traveled for
three days, through the green and empty hill country that Caris called the
Sykerst, and into the farmlands beyond.
The
queer, terrible sense of deadness did not pass off until sometime after noon of
the first day. Joanna, asleep in the shelter of the last haystack of the
lowlands before the high ground began, felt the fading in her confused dream of
being married to Gary, of protesting, But it was all a mistake! I don't want
to be married to anybody, and of Gary's smug expression as he said, I'm
sorry, babe, but you did marry me . . . . As if a fever had been lifted
from her, she wept. She felt a hand, large but very light of touch, brush her
hair comfortingly as she sank into deeper sleep.
Later,
as they resumed their walk through the stuffy, clinging heat of the last of the
day, she asked Antryg, "Did it affect your magic, as it did that of
Caris?"
"I
felt it," he admitted, producing three apples from the pockets of his
trailing coat‑skirts and tossing two of them to his companions as they
walked. "It didn't bleed all the hope from me‑madness has certain
advantages."
Joanna
frowned up at him. "You mean magic is‑is predicated on hope? Because
I felt, more than anything, that was what was taken from me‑the hope of
anything."
He
regarded her with quirked eyebrows for a moment, surprised by her
understanding. "Hope," he said, "and belief in life. We move blindly
from second to second through time. Hope, and magic, both involve the casting
forward of the soul. In a way, both magic and hope are a kind of madness."
"Madness
also has the advantage," Caris said, shifting the set of the pistol belted
under his faded peasant smock, "of cloaking things which you find it more
convenient not to explain‑like the fact that you knew of the coming of
the abominations, and why you, of all wizards, don't lose your powers to this .
. . whatever it is."
"Handy,
isn't it?" Antryg grinned, pleased. He finished devouring the core of his
apple and flicked the stem into the nodding weeds of the roadside ditch.
"Couldn't have happened better if I'd caused it myself."
Caris'
coffee‑brown eyes narrowed, and Joanna had to look away and purse her
lips tightly against an involuntary smile.
"The
thing that worries me," the wizard went on after a moment, "or one of
the things that worry me about that, is that it happens everywhere. What about
the children in the factories? There are enough accidents without that‑uncaringness."
Joanna,
who had lived all her life in a world poised a button push away from
destruction, shivered. "Come to think of it," she said after a moment,
"where I work‑if they don't can me for being absent without calling in‑on
the days this whatever‑it‑is happened, there would always be
zillions of stupid errors in documentation and programs."
"Documentation?"
Joanna
hesitated, wondering how she could best explain computers to a wizard, much
less to one from a world that had only begun connecting electricity with
lightning. But no one, she reasoned, who wasn't interested in everything would
have become a wizard in the first place; so she launched ahead and for several
miles expounded upon the intricacies of programming, languages, CP/M pixels,
ROM, RAM, mainframes, micros, hard disks, and floppies, while the dove‑colored
summer evening darkened to ultramarine and the dry‑grass sweetness of the
hill winds tugged at her hair.
"You
are saying, then, that these‑these computers‑think?" Caris
asked doubtfully. He had abandoned his guarding position at Antryg's back and
walked now at Joanna's side, the bundle of their possessions still over his
shoulder and the butt of the pistol visible against his hardmuscled belly
through the half‑open smock. He sounded worried.
Joanna
shook her head. "They can be programmed to reproduce many of the processes
of linear thinking," she said, kicking aside an encumbering fold of her
petticoat which persisted in tangling around her ankles. "That is, any
chain of thought can be broken down into a hundred tiny yes‑or‑no
decisions‑if A, then go to B, if not A, then go to C, and C will tell you
what to do from there."
Caris frowned, puzzled, but Antryg said, "Rather like a music box‑either
a key is struck or it's silent‑or the punched cards they rig in automatic
series to change the weft patterns in jacquard looms."
"Since
computers work very fast‑and we're talking a hundredth or thousandth of a
second here‑" She shied from explaining nanoseconds to people who,
she was fairly sure, didn't work habitually in units smaller than hours. "‑it
has the appearance of operating like thought. But for the most part, they'll do
exactly what you tell them to. It's both the advantage and the disadvantage of
computers. You always know where you are with a computer, unlike a person‑but
they don't care what they do. They'll sit there printing out gibberish for
hours, if you make the wrong request, give away state secrets to anyone who
asks, or help you steal, if you know the right entry code‑and any good
hacker can break an entry code."
"Steal?"
The sasennan's frown deepened. As soon as it had begun to grow dark, he had
paused by one of the thin streams that trickled down from the hills, had washed
the counterfeit sores from his face, and had rid himself of the faint, pale
stubble of his beard with a razor from his belt purse. In the lingering dusk,
the dark circles around his eyes had deepened almost to bruises. Joanna
wondered if he had slept when they had taken refuge in the haystack for a few
hours' rest or if he thought it behooved him still to keep an eye on Antryg.
"I thought you said those things were only boxes that did not
move."
She shrugged. "They don't have to. It's all done over the telephone.
Everything in our civilization is. A friend of mine at San Serano broke the
ordering and shipping codes on the San Serano mainframe; I suspect he also used
telephone modems to break the shipping codes on some of the companies that use
computerized ordering systems where we get our supplies. Now and then I'll be
thumbing through the mainframe and find somebody's put through an
order from San Serano for some kind of equipment‑like extra disk drives‑and
then later find that the order has been pulled from the file. When an order's
pulled from a computer file, it's gone; it's as if it never existed. It's only
light, after all‑and when light's gone it leaves no tracks. Presumably,
using modems, the record of the transaction can be removed from the shipper's
files as well. That way Gary can walk off with an extra disk drive‑or a
whole computer, if he wanted to‑and nobody's the wiser, because there's
no record of the thing ever having existed."
The affronted morality of years of warrior discipline was in Caris'
voice. "He is a thief without even the courage of a common burglar,"
he said.
Joanna nodded in agreement. They stepped down into the weed‑grown
roadside ditch to let a shepherd and his flock pass them, a bleating, jostling
confusion of wool and dust. "Except that he'd say that the companies have
a profit margin for theft included in their annual budgets, so nobody's really
losing anything."
"Except
Gary himself." Hands in his pockets, shirt ruffles like a shabby flower in
the evening gloom, Antryg turned away from his delighted contemplation of the
interplay between sheep and dogs to regard his companions. "And what he
loses is the part of himself that honors the rights of others and honors his
own integrity."
"Gary,"
Joanna said after a moment, "wouldn't really understand that integrity‑which
is free, and therefore cheap‑isn't worth a two‑thousand‑dollar
disk drive." She stepped back into the smelly dust cloud that hung over
the road, kilting up her skirts into her belt as she had seen the farm women
do, and resumed her tired walk north.
Much later, when Joanna looked back on those few days, it was with a kind
of mild surprise at herself for the ease with which she slipped into
companionship with both captor and captive. Timid by nature, she had always
harbored an uneasy distrust of men, regarding them as an alien species who
dealt with women in the relationship of users and used. But neither of the two
men seemed to regard her as anything other than a comrade on the road, Caris
because he was too single‑mindedly intent on watching Antryg, and Antryg
because it would never have occurred to him to deal with anyone except on that
person's own terms.
"I don't know what game he's playing," Caris said, as he and
Joanna shared a bucket of wash water drawn from the horse trough of the posting
house stable where the three of them had slept the night. "He could
perfectly well have escaped last night." He folded up his shaving razor
and returned it to his belt purse, then doused the water angrily over his face
and head and shook out his wet, fair hair. Joanna, at Caris' instructions, had
gamely taken a shift at watch the previous night and had fallen asleep ten
minutes into it; Caris, she knew, had waked, sat in the dark hayloft for half
an hour in pistol‑clutching surveillance on the sleeping Antryg, and had
dropped off as well. Antryg had waked both of them at dawn.
Joanna
tried but failed to stifle her grin. "But he would have missed
breakfast," she said, providing what Antryg's explanation would surely be.
All she got from the disgruntled Caris was a sour look.
"He
has his own reasons for wanting to go to Angelshand." His glowering eyes
sought the tall, loose‑limbed form of the wizard as it emerged from the
back door of the posting inn, half a loaf of rye bread and a hunk of cheese in
hand. Then he wiped his hands on the coarse linsey‑woolsey of his peasant
smock, its sleeves turned up to reveal the old, white scars which cris‑crossed
his muscular forearms, and brushed away a stray bit of hay. Joanna had quickly
discovered that hay was surprisingly persistent stuff. "It's easy to
believe in his innocence," he said after a moment. "I did, myself, if
for no other reason than that he seems too scatterbrained to be devious. But
he brought you here for a reason, Joanna, and it may be that he only appears so
docile because he hasn't had the opportunity to carry you off."
As
Antryg came up to them, Joanna was obliged to press her hand over her mouth to
keep from laughing at the mental picture of the bespectacled wizard in his
billowing, too‑large black coat dashing away on foot across the hills
with her thrown like a movie heroine over his shoulder. Caris, to judge by his
expression, did not share her amusement.
In
the dry warmth of the morning, the smell of the new‑baked bread the wizard
carried was almost painful and the drift of scent from the doors of the posting
house kitchen like a glimpse of heaven. Caris had relieved him of what little
money was left of Nandiharrow's small hoard, but it only amounted to a few
coppers; Antryg had earned supper last night, breakfast this morning, and a bed
in the hayloft of the stables by telling fortunes in the posting house, to
Caris' considerable disgust.
"Lady Rosamund was right," he had said bitterly, watching the
wizard bent over the fat palm of a merchant who had come in on the mailcoach.
"A dog wizard!"
Dog wizard or not, Joanna thought the following evening, it did pay for
supper, and she privately considered that it ill‑behooved Caris to
complain about it.
The day had been an exhausting one. Though she was gradually getting
used to walking all day, she still felt stiff and tired and miserably footsore.
Her face, arms, and shoulders were sunburned. The situation was not helped by
sleeping in hay for the past two nights. Thank God, she thought, with a twinge
of amusement at herself, I don't have allergies ‑that's probably
something selected against in the evolution of heroines. Though the hills of
the Sykerst were empty, tenanted only by sheep, the road was fairly well‑traveled,
with pack trains carrying clay down to the pottery works in Kymil and farm
carts from the lowlands beyond. At long intervals, the mailcoach would clatter
past in a huge cloud of choking dust, an enormous vehicle drawn by a six‑horse
hitch, rattling with brass and glass windows and crammed with passengers‑farmers
in serge, black‑clothed clerks in wide‑brimmed hats, or harassed‑looking
women of the poorer classes in faded print gowns and bonnets. Sometimes a
carriage would pass them, with a coachman on the box and a couple of footmen
hanging on behind, or small, lightly slung chaises, with postillions riding the
horses instead of driving them.
Only
once had they left the road, when a company of sasenna had ridden by, clothed
in smart black uniforms braided in gold and heavily armed. As they'd climbed
back onto the road again, Caris said, "The Prince Regent's men."
"Are
you surprised?" Antryg asked, dusting off his velvet coat skirts. They had
taken refuge in the shadows of one of the spindly clumps of birches which were
beginning to grow with greater and greater frequency beside the road as it came
down off the bare backbone of the hills and wended its way toward the farming
and woodland country closer to Angelshand. "He has always hated the mages;
it shouldn't come as a shock that he's sent his private bodyguard to join the
hunt."
Caris'
beautiful lips set into a grim line, and he felt for the reassurance of the
pistol in his smock. Further down the road, a farmer and his young wife were
trying to coax their donkey out of the ditch into which they'd scrambled for
safety at the troop's approach. Joanna was interested to notice that others
beside the mageborn had reason to fear the Regent's men.
Seated
now with her back to the stone chimney breast of the posting house, she watched
Antryg peer with his cracked old quizzing glass at the dregs of a dowager's
tea. The smoky shadows of the lamplight played unsteadily over his features and
put a flickering embroidery of shadow on the woman's round cheeks from the lace
flaps of her cap. Behind them, the other passengers of the mail coach crowded
in an interested knot, drinking their evening ale and listening with the
surreptitious fascination that even nonbelievers have in the words of oracles:
Joanna couldn't hear what Antryg was telling the woman, but a stout man in a
suit of darkblue superfine who seemed to be her husband laughed and said,
"Mind, Emmie, you're not believing all that wizardy twiddle, are
you?"
"
'Tisn't twiddle." The woman took the teacup from Antryg and held it defensively
to her pouter‑pigeon bosom, as if the future itself, and not merely its
reflection, were held within its leaves.
Another
man in a farmer's rough smock laughed. "Pshaw!" Joanna had seen the
word written in novels of the British variety but had never actually heard
anyone say it. "I went to one of them wizard fellows once . . ."
"What?" a red‑cheeked girl teased him. "For a love‑drop?"
The
man blushed. "As happens, yes," he admitted and then grinned, showing
broken and yellow teeth. "And damned if the girl didn't throw her cap
after some other fellow."
"Perhaps the other fellow'd been to a better wizard?" Antryg
suggested.
"That's what they
all say."
"Suraklin
. . ." began a thin, middle‑aged clerk.
Emmie's husband, snorted, his round jowls
pouching out over a high muslin cravat. "Suraklin won't more than a clever
businessman who poisoned where he couldn't bribe or scare. He made the best of
luck that fell his way, that's all, and fools called it magic. If you'll look
into all those cases of people going blind or falling down the stairs or
whatever they were supposed to have done, you'll find that none of it could be
proved."
And that," Antryg said quietly, coming over
to Joanna with a tankard of beer in each hand, "was his strength, you
know. For the most part, people didn't believe in his powers—and it was never
anything you could lay hand to."
"Like this whatever‑it‑is," Joanna
agreed. She looked
up at him in the sooty shadows outside the circle of lamplight around the table, her brow puckering with
frustration. "There isn't even a name for it."
Which makes it all the harder to believe that something is actually
happening." He settled on the
bench at her side. Caris had already retired to the stables to sleep.
The casement windows of the post house were open to the azure deeps of
the night, and suicidal swarms of moths, millers, and gnats hovered around each
of the room's dozen or so smoky and stinking lamps. Joanna added a few more
notes to her mental list of items left out of swashbuckler movies. It crossed
her mind to be glad, if she had to be kidnapped for reasons unknown and haled
all over the countryside in a parallel universe, she was there in the summer
when the windows could be open to let the smoke and the smells escape.
"Which is perhaps," Antryg went on,
handing her the tankard, "precisely what someone is counting on."
"Hunh?"
Both you and Caris assumed it was some problem of
your own—doubtless each of these people did as well." He gestured towards the fat squire and his
wife, the farmer couple, and the two or three laborers, like a Hogarth print in
sepia and gold, laughing over some joke in the chiaroscuro of the
lamplight. "It's another dubious
advantage of being mad," he added.
"I understand that what is in my head is real, at least to
me."
Joanna considered him for a moment, watching the jump of shadows over the extravagant curves of his lips, nose,
and hair. "Are you mad?" she
asked after a moment. Everyone says so, but—I haven't seen it."
"Haven't you?" His gray eyes sparkled appreciatively. "All
the experts have said so for the last twenty‑five years—but I was always
unbalanced. Light‑minded, Suraklin used to say, as though gravity were
some kind of virtue. And for years I believed it was. I did try to take it all
seriously, to become what I thought he wanted me to be . . ."
It was the first time Joanna had heard the Dark Mage spoken of with
something other than loathing and fear. Curious, she asked, "Did you love
him?"
Antryg turned his head a little to regard her with something like surprise
at her understanding. "Oh, yes. I was halfway between being his slave and
his son, from the time I was nine and my powers began to come. They came early.
I understand now that he would have taken me by force had seduction not served,
but it did. There was nothing I would not have done for him, except give up
what I was . . . and for a time I did my best to do even that." His eyes
were not on her now, nor on the cavernous gloom of the big room, with its
bumbling shadows and the half‑seen glint of the copper pan bottoms on the
walls. He seemed to be gazing into some private seeing‑glass of memory
and, she thought, observing the sudden dip of wrinkles across his brow, not
much liking what he saw.
"What
finally turned you against him?"
He shook his head, and there was distant sadness in his voice. "I
never turned against him." He leaned back against the stone of the chimney
breast behind them; the shadows obscured his odd, craggy‑boned face, save
for the spark on one corner of his spectacles and the star‑glint of an
earring. "I fled from him and hid, but there was not a night that I did
not feel him seeking me through my dreams. Even after Salteris found me, years
later, and told me he was dead . . ." He paused, then sighed heavily.
"I'm told he had that effect on many people. But I did love him. I suppose
that's what made it all the worse."
Joanna was silent. As if that brown‑velvet voice, with its
flamboyant richness, could weave for her the smoke‑visions that he
himself saw, she had a momentary glimpse of a skinny and overgrown boy moving
hesitantly in the old man's terrible shadow, trying to kill what he was in
order to be what he was told he ought to be. Like a glass sliver caught in a
garment, she felt the unexpected stab of her own years of torn striving to
conform to the fashions and morals of a peer group she despised.
Not knowing quite why, she asked, "Was he good to you?"
The
fervid edge of the light outlined the arched nose as he turned to look at her
and gleamed opaque on a circle of glass. "Not really. Obsessive people
seldom are. And his obsessions grew with the years, until every instance in
which I could not be what he wanted me to be, every mistake I made, every day I
played truant to go running to the hills or read poetry, was an insult to
him."
The
squire and his lady were making their way up the creaky wooden stairs to bed,
their shapes wobbling huge in the reflection of a bedroom candle. The little
clerk called for a final round of beer. A beefy young laborer with curly hair
looked up and waved to Antryg to come back to them. The mage smiled ruefully at
Joanna.
"Funny,"
he said, "if you're a mage, they always ask you to read the future, as if
knowing it will help. I think three‑fourths of all prayers prayed are for
two and two not to equal four." He set his empty tankard on the hearth and
got to his feet. Joanna rose to stand beside him, her head, as usual, barely
coming up to the topmost tarnished silver button on his threadbare coat.
She glanced up at him curiously, remembering her own fears, doubts, and
half‑conviction at San Serano that she was either insane or in terrible
trouble. Why she felt concerned for him or felt this strange kinship with him,
she wasn't sure; he was, she reminded herself, the storm center of terrible and
inexplicable events, the man who had brought her to this place, who had twice
tried to strangle her, and who wanted her for some strange purposes of his own‑the
only man, at the moment, who could return her to the world she knew. Yet she
found herself asking, "Have you ever prayed that?"
"Oh, frequently," he murmured, half to himself, she thought, as
much as to her. "Frequently. Would you like me to tell your fortune?"
Joanna hesitated, knowing she was already too taken in by the daft warmth
of his charm. Then from the yard came the swift clatter of hooves and the
jingle of accoutrements, and Antryg turned swiftly, gray eyes wary, as the
first of the sasenna entered the posting house.
They wore the gold‑trimmed black livery of the Prince Regent, the
braid glittering in the darkness like ropes of fire. Joanna had already
identified the sounds in the yard as that of a coach, and a fairly substantial
one, and was fading as inconspicuously as she could toward the rear door of the
posting house. It was only as she reached it that she realized that Antryg had
moved back again to the shadows of the bench by the hearth, unable to call her
back to him. She got a glimpse of his wide, warning eyes as her hand pressed
the latch.
Gloved fingers closed like a metal clamp over her wrist. She whirled,
fighting a gasp of shock as a big, iron‑faced woman in the black clothes
of the Prince's sasenna pushed her back into the room. She stumbled and spun
around in time to see among the black‑and‑gold sasenna and the
cluster of crimson‑liveried servants at the post‑house door a man
who could only be the Prince.
"She
was sneaking out the back," her captor said briefly.
The
Prince's queer, pale‑blue eyes glistened in the shadow. "Was she,
indeed?" His voice was soft and rather shrill; none of those at the tables
dared move or call to themselves that odd, flickering gaze. The silence that
had fallen was absolute, save for the desperate burr of a moth's wings against
the hot glass of the lamp.
"A guilty conscience, child?"
Joanna
tried to back away and met the hard‑muscled shape of the female guard.
The ebony satin of the Prince's coat was so heavily laced with gold that it
seemed to glitter like black flame as he minced forward over the dirty straw of
the floor. For all his diminutive prettiness, as he came close and put one
small, moist hand under her chin, Joanna could see that, beneath the layer of
cosmetics, his skin was coarse, pale with the pallor of one who has been weeks
without sunlight or change of air. The carefully curled golden hair was limp
and thin; the skin around the skyblue eyes was painted to cover not only the
fact that he was on the wrong side of thirty, but the ravages of sleeplessness
and debauchery. In spite of the rouge that coated them, she could see his lips
were chapped with nervous biting.
Any
other man so dressed and so affected would have appeared ridiculous, but for
those eyes.
She became aware that she was trembling.
His
thumb and crooked forefinger tightened on her chin. Beneath their curled
lashes, his eyes never touched hers. "Answer me, sweetheart."
Sweat
crawling down her back beneath her peasant bodice, Joanna said, "I wasn't
trying to run away, your‑" What was the proper title for a prince?
"‑your Grace. Not from you, anyway. I‑I'd had a quarrel with
someone here, that's all, and wanted to get out." Not a very good story,
she knew, nor, she was afraid, very convincingly told, but it was the best she
could do on the spur of the moment. One of the sasenna sniggered. The Prince
smiled, and his hand stole like a slug down the side of her neck.
"A
quarrel? With a pretty wench like you? How very tasteless of them."
Instinctively
she stepped back, loathing his touch, and his small hand snatched with the
nervous quickness of a child playing jacks, seizing a handful of her shift and
bodice at the shoulder. Joanna wondered desperately how far she should let
this go and how much trouble they'd all be in if she struck him; but at that
instant Antryg rose from his seat in the corner and drawled, "Oh, come,
Pharos, you know you haven't any use for a woman."
There
was a half beat of shocked, utter silence, as if someone had switched off the
sound. Then the Prince threw Joanna from him, his indrawn breath of rage like
the hiss of a snake. In a swooping flurry of gold‑laced coat skirts and a
blazing galaxy of diamond buttons, he strode across the room to where two of
his men had already sprung to seize the wizard by the arms. Completely
forgotten, Joanna faded back at once into the shadows. But though she knew that
Antryg had bought her escape‑time at who knew what cost, she could not
bring herself to flee.
Had
it not been for the utter silence, the Prince's voice would not have been
heard, a hoarse whisper that shook with rage. "You dare . . ."
His
arms pinned by the Prince's guards, Antryg did not struggle, but Joanna saw in
the firelight the gleam of sweat along his jaw. For an instant the Prince
stood, speechless‑then he reached out and, with a hideous, gentle
deliberateness, removed the spectacles from Antryg's face. The glass and wire
rattled sharply as he flung them to the stone of the hearth. Then he held out
his hand, and a crimson‑liveried servant put into it a leather riding‑whip.
No one in the inn so much as breathed.
The Prince struck twice, with vicious deliberation, across his defenseless
victim's face. On the second blow, Joanna heard the Prince make a little sound
in his throat, a whimper of satisfaction or some private, inner pain which
sickened her. His hand came back for a third blow. She glimpsed in his eyes the
lusting flicker of madness and knew he would go on with the flogging until he
lost his already‑slipping hold over himself. The candlelight caught the
dark ruby gleam of blood on the leather and pouring down Antryg's still face.
She thought blindly, I should run . . . he's doing this so 1 can run .
. . . But when she did take a step, it was forward, not back . . . .
The third blow never fell. In the midst of his backswing, the Prince
gasped, and his body convulsed as if he had been kicked in the stomach. The
whip clattered on the hearthstones as the slender black form doubled over,
hands clutching at the barley‑gold curls as if to root out an invisible
axe blade sunk in his skull. One of the sasenna holding Antryg's arm released
his grip to catch his master before he toppled. Chaos erupted as the others
crowded forward. To the man on his other side, Antryg said sharply, "Fetch
a basin! He's going to be sick in a minute!" and the man made a dash for
the kitchen.
Antryg scooped up his cracked spectacles and was fitting them back to his
nose as he crossed the room, unnoticed in the fearful hullabaloo.
"Let's
go," he said softly. Taking Joanna's arm, he led her through the unguarded
back door and out into the moonlight of the yard.
"What
did you do?"
"Migraine
headache. Psychotics often suffer from them." The greenish eyes of the
horses flashed at them in the darkness of the stables as Antryg scrambled
halfway up the ladder to the loft. "Caris!"
"Here."
Joanna
spun around, her heart in her throat‑the sasennan faded from the
blackness of a nearby stall. Antryg jumped from the ladder, landing with light
springiness on the ground; the wan moonlight turned black the blood running
down from the opened flesh of his face and caught in the fracture of his left
spectacle lens like a skeleton star.
Caris,
Joanna saw, was armed, not only with the pistol, but had his sheathed sword grasped
lightly in his left hand, ready to draw and fight. The small bundle of their
belongings was strapped to his back. He must have been ready, she realized,
from the moment the Prince's sasenna rode into the inn yard.
"Was
it the Regent?" he demanded softly, as Antryg led them down the nearly dry
stream bed that ran behind the inn. Shouts and neighs and the rattle of gear
were already rising into the dark stillness of the hills. Antryg nodded.
"He
took a fancy to our Joanna‑he might have anyway, even had she not tried
to slip out the back. She couldn't have known he'd have the place surrounded
before going in. He's suspicious of everyone and sees plots in everything and,
as Emperor in all but name, he can do pretty much as he pleases. My only fear
was that he'd recognize me when he took my specs off." He paused and
raised his head over the edge of the stream‑bank, ridiculously like a
lanky, nervous setter dog in long grass. "Ah, good."
Encouraged,
Joanna stood up beside him. Down in its nook in the hills beside the road, the
posting house was still visible, but the moving lights that had begun to circle
away from it were returning, like indecisive fireflies.
"They're turning back?" Joanna whispered disbelievingly.
"For
the moment. There, look . . ." A single horseman went streaking away down
the road toward Kymil; a moment later, a second thundered westward toward
where Parchasten lay in the fertile valley of the Glidden beyond. "Now
what we've got to do is get as far away from this place as we can, as fast as
we can, and keep away from the road."
"I
don't understand." Caris scrambled after him up the stony bank of the
stream, giving a hand to Joanna, who followed, cursing the custom of the
country that decreed that all women should burden themselves with trailing
masses of skirts. "Why aren't they pursuing tonight?"
"Because
Pharos suspects a trap‑some plot to lure his men away into the
countryside while he's attacked at the post house. I suspect the Bishop
summoned him with a claim that there's a plot of wizards afoot. He won't be
terribly surprised to have stumbled into one."
"It's
what I'd suspect," Joanna added thoughtfully, "from the way you
deliberately baited him at the inn. But‑would he have recognized you
without your specs?"
"He
might have." Joanna had retrieved her purse from Caris' pack, and Antryg
accepted the handful of Kleenex she dug from it, mopping gingerly at the blood
on his face. They were moving down through the dense shadows of the hills,
where the starlight glittered faintly on stream water only deep enough to soak
Joanna's cowhide peasant boots and make the hem of her skirts slap wetly
against her ankles, no matter how much she tried to hold it clear.
"Wizards don't wear specs‑we work our healing spells on ourselves
from a very early age. My eyes started to go within weeks of being put in the
Tower. I have no doubt, if I hadn't been mageborn, I'd have been blind as a
mole from the age of ten."
He paused, looking back. A fold of hillside hid them now from the inn,
but faintly Joanna could hear the commotion that drifted on the darkness.
"By morning he'll have reinforcements from Kymil and Angelshand both
combing the countryside. I know these hills."
"As Suraklin's student," Caris said dryly, "you
would."
"Perhaps,"
Antryg agreed equably. "But as with fortunetelling, it's just as well for
all of us that I do. Be careful here, Joanna‑the rock is slippery."
Balancing carefully, her purse heavy on her shoulder and her bunched
skirts held in her hand, Joanna stepped forward, and the strong, light hand
from the darkness steadied her. "By the way," she said softly,
"thank you."
Behind her, Caris said, "He went to the trouble of bringing you to
this world, Joanna‑he wasn't about to risk losing you to the Prince
Regent."
In the utter gloom of the hill shadows, Antryg's grin sparkled as
brightly as the starlight on his earrings. "That's my Caris," he
remarked affectionately and led the way once more into the darkness of the
hills.
They fled like foxes in hunting country, through a nightmare of blind
exhaustion deeper than anything Joanna had yet known. From the sheep pens and
roadside ditches of the hills, Antryg led them, doubling on their tracks and
changing direction frequently, down to the woodlands and thickly settled farms
of the valley of the Glidden. Her body ached for sleep and her ankles and shins
stabbed with pain at every step, but Joanna struggled to keep up with her two
companions, miserable with the guilty conviction that she was slowing them down
and terrified that, losing them, she would be stranded in this world forever.
Having walked all day, they kept moving through the night hours and on into
morning, dodging, hiding, and listening for the quick rattle of hooves or the
thrashing of bodies through the hedgerows.
At
mid‑morning, that strange, bleak emptiness struck again, bleeding what
little energy was left from Joanna's soul. In her despair, she toyed with the
notion of leaving Caris and his mad prisoner and seeking some way home on her
own, but her saner self knew it was folly. Fear of the Regent and the memory of
the cold‑voiced Peelbone kept her moving. They were in the farm country
then, hiding among the hedgerows and fields of standing crops, and even Joanna
was aware that, during that time of gray sickliness, the hay makers they
glimpsed in the meadows slacked their efforts and fell to quarreling over the
whetstones and tools, while the storm clouds gathered in luring masses in the
sky. The spell lasted until noon. By that time, Joanna suspected, the damage
had been done. She wondered about what the effects of such a spell would be in
her own world, on trigger‑happy street‑punks, on politicians, or on
the men responsible for the thousand dull and niggling safety regulations
concerning nuclear power plants and chemical waste.
Late
in the day, they rested, exhausted and oppressed by the breathless heat of the
coming storm, on an islet in a sluggish stream that Caris identified as the
Shan. Antryg had gathered herbs from the waterside to make a poultice for the
whip cut on his face and had fallen asleep between the roots of a willow tree,
his head on his rolled‑up coat. Caris slumped against the tree trunk
beside him, leaning his face in his hands; by the time Joanna came back from
the edge of the water, where she'd gone to dash a handful of it on her face,
the sasennan, too, was asleep.
For
a moment she stood looking at the both of them, elder and younger. Caris had to
be at the end of his rope physically, she thought, studying his drawn young
face in the watered‑silk dappling of the willow's green shade, to
conquer his nervousness about sleeping in the open. Antryg . . .
Under
the poultice, she could see that the whole side of Antryg's face was a swollen
and gruesome bruise. Oddly enough, though she was normally squeamish, this didn't
sicken her or make her look away. She felt only compassion for the pain he must
be in, guilt that he'd taken it for her sake, and . . .
.
. . And something, she told herself, that kidnapped damsels had no business
feeling for the villain of the piece.
He
knows more than he's telling, she reminded herself. He's going to Angelshand
for some reason of his own. It had not escaped her that, for all his
lightweight chatter, Antryg had never again mentioned the place in the hills
near Kymil in which Caris had found her. He had, as Caris had pointed out, led
them away from it as quickly as he could. Was that out of fear of what lurked
there or simply fear of what Caris, if he investigated the place, would find?
With
a sigh, Joanna walked to Caris and gently removed the pistol from his slack
hand. He didn't stir; only his breathing and the warmth of his flushed face
told her he was still alive at all. Weary as she was, she couldn't bring
herself to break that sleep.
I
can stay awake for a little while, anyway, she thought, sitting down cross‑legged in a
tangle of skirts and feeling the now‑familiar agony of pins and needles
through her thighs and calves. Somewhere upstream, the moving water clucked a
little against the overhanging weeds and cresses of the bank. Sunlight lay like
scattered pennies over her tattered blue skirt and damp, rumpled hair. She
looked down again at Antryg, curled up like a child beside her, his long,
straggly, gray‑brown hair hanging in his eyes.
Why had he said to Digby, . . . to save my world, and yours,
too, I hope, from a terrible fate? What fate?
This emptiness, this vampiric draining of life?
The Industrial Revolution that was rapidly overtaking these people like a
sooty and impersonal flood?
Some mad notion of his straying wits?
Or something else?
Upstream there was the sharp, startled flurry of a frightened bird, and a
horse's indignant snort.
Joanna felt her insides shrivel.
As
quietly as she could, she tightened her grip on the pistol and sank to her
belly, to crawl under the tangle of vines along the top of the bank. Brambles
scratched her elbows and snagged her skirts and hair, and she hoped to hell she
hadn't just taken refuge in a giant thicket of poison ivy. Angling her eye to a
break in the bushes, she saw him‑a black‑clothed sasennan bearing
the crimson sunburst of the Church. He and his horse were nearly invisible in
the sun‑splattered shade of the opposite bank.
Behind her, she heard a man say softly, "That's them."
Turning her head slowly as little as she could for fear of rustling the
vines which covered her, she looked back. A sasennan and another man in the
close‑cut gray coat of the Witchfinders emerged on foot from the green
laurel thickets of the little island; the sasennan was leading two horses. As
they stood for a moment looking down at the sleepers, the Witchfinder murmured,
"It's the Archmage's sasennan. He escaped from Kymil by magic three days
ago. Whatever plot is afoot, the Archmage is in it, all right. Peelbone will be
pleased."
He
took a pistol from the holster on his saddle tree.
Two
thoughts chased one another very quickly through Joanna's mind: This isn't
any of my business! I was kidnapped and I don't want to play, and
immediately thereafter, cold and calm, The man in gray has only a pistol. His
shoulders were broad over a slim waist. They made an ideal target as he turned
to fetch something from his saddlebags. Joanna heard the jingle of chain.
You'll
have to break cover a second before you pull the trigger, she thought, as if it were
something she was only reading about. Another part of her was wailing in panic,
What if I miss?
The
adrenaline pumping in her veins almost made her sick. Just lie here quiet
and they might overlook you . . . .
And they might not.
The
sasennan walked to the bank of the stream, saying back over his shoulder,
"So will his Grace." He signaled. Joanna heard the quick splash of
hooves in the stony stream bed as the mounted sasennan on the other side began
to cross.
"There was a girl with him, wasn't there?"
The
heat in the thicket clung on her sweating face like glue, the green, musty
smell of the brambles smothering. She felt queerly estranged from herself,
aware of the five pounds of dead iron in her aching hand and ridiculously
conscious that having it meant there was no excuse she could give herself later
for not using it. Why does it have to be me?
She
rose to her knees in the tangle of the vines, held the pistol in both hands,
straightened her elbows and took long enough, as every Western she had ever
read recommended, to be sure of her aim, and fired at a range of less than a
dozen feet.
The
kick of the gun jarred slammingly in her wrists and shoulders; the huge cloud
of black smoke coughed forth from the muzzle burned in her lungs and eyes. The
coppery stink of new blood exploded over the still air as the man in the gray
coat was flung forward against his horse, the beast plunging in wild panic. At
the same instant, Caris rolled, swinging his sword free of the scabbard which
had lain, even in sleep, under his hand, and was on the unmounted sasennan
before Joanna could have sworn he was even awake.
The
sasennan crossing the stream was down off his own terrified horse with trained
and deadly speed. Joanna, her pistol discharged, saw him coming for her with
drawn sword and knew his intent was to kill. As in a nightmare, she feinted a
lunge for one tree and dove to the cover of another. The man pursued, sword
upraised and bright. Her unaccustomed skirts tangled in her legs, and brambles
caught her ankles as she plunged across the small clearing toward the slumped
form of the Witchfinder, her heart hammering with frenzy. I must
succeed‑I can't let him touch me‑I must finish this . . . . His
grabbing hand pinched the flesh of her arm, then fell away. She threw herself
on the sprawled body of her first victim, thrusting it aside to fumble the
pistol with its blood‑sticky butt from underneath, just as the sasennan's
shadow covered her.
She
swung around, rising to her knees, pistol in hands. Mottled sun seared along
the downswinging arc of the sword. There wasn't time to duck‑every second
of time felt queerly compressed . . . .
She
pulled the trigger. Blood spouted out onto her face as the ball plowed upwards
through the man's body, only feet away. She flung herself aside to avoid the
body as it collapsed on top of her, and fell over the Witchfinder's body. She
raised herself on one numbed arm in time to see Caris pull his dripping blade
from his dead assailant's still‑standing corpse.
Start to finish, the whole fight couldn't have taken eight seconds.
The
smell of blood was everywhere. Joanna wiped at the hot, thick stream of it on
her chin and felt the sticky gouts of it in her hair. Both wrists felt numbed
and broken; so did some part of her within.
As
a gray wave of dimness blurred her sight, she wondered detachedly which she
would do first‑throw up or faint.
"Joanna?"
A deep voice penetrated blurrily through the grayness; strong, light hands
pulled her to her feet, lifting her with effortless strength. There was the
scratching slash of a passing branch against her bare arm, then the sudden
coolness of river water flowing all around her.
She
started to say, "What . . . ?" A hand pinched her nose shut and she
was thrust bodily under the water, then dragged up again, gasping and dripping,
her head suddenly clear.
She
shoved back her soaked hair and saw Antryg standing waist‑deep in the
water beside her. His soaked shirt was stuck to his body, his eyes worried
behind the cracked lenses of his specs. "Are you all right?"
Joanna
nodded. The water had rinsed away the blood on her face and hair. She felt
breathless, as if she had been awakened suddenly from sleep. Shakily, she
managed a reassuring grin and asked, "Does this mean I'm now a member of
the Church?"
The
worry dissolved into a sparkle of humor in his eyes. Solemnly, he dipped a
handful of water and dumped it over her head. Not jesting, he said softly,
"I'm afraid it does mean that you've been baptized, Joanna. Naturally, I
can't say I'm sorry you did it‑but I'm sorry that you had to."
"It's okay." Her voice sounded weak and thready to her own ear.
From the bank, she heard Caris say harshly, "Come on!"
Antryg
laid a gentle hand against her dripping hair, anxiously studying her face. She
would have liked to hold him‑to hold someone‑and cry with the
sudden, sick confusion in her, but the calm part of her mind knew Caris was
right. The shots would have roused the whole woods. So she only nodded in
answer to Antryg's unspoken question and said, "Thank you."
He
helped her to the bank. Caris, both reloaded pistols in his belt and his sword
in his hand, stood scanning the woods around him, remote and beautiful and
inscrutable as ever.
It was only that night, after a nightmare day of stumbling flight and of
hiding from patrols that seemed suddenly everywhere, that what had happened on
the island became truly real to her. For a long time she lay awake in the half‑filled
hayloft where they had taken refuge, listening to the approaching rumble of
thunder and the restless, gusty unevenness of the rain. Her wrists ached, but
it was nothing to the hideous memory of panic and the kinetic recollection of
that first jet of blood dousing her face. On television, she had casually
watched hundreds of people allegedly die. None of it was anything like this.
She thought, I have killed a man, and only belatedly
remembered that she had killed two.
She knew Antryg was asleep. She cringed from waking him, partly because
she knew he was exhausted, partly . . . She did not know why, save that she had
never shared grief and fear with anyone, and didn't know how to go about it.
Caris was awake, and she stifled her sobs as best she could, lest he hear.
But after a long time his voice said softly from the utter blackness,
"Joanna?"
There was the crunch of hay, and its warm smell as it shifted. Then the
warm, dry touch of the sasennan's hand on her shoulder.
"Are you all right?"
That
Caris would have been concerned came as a surprise to her. She sniffled,
swallowed, and hoped her tears wouldn't be apparent in her voice. "You
probably think this is stupid," she began and cursed the betraying tremor
of her vocal chords. "But‑how old were you, the first time
you killed somebody?"
There
was a long silence, filled only with darkness, rain, and the green smell of the
hay.
"Fifteen,"
Caris said at last. "It's the first thing you do in training, you know.
The man's tied up. They don't start you on criminals free to fight back until
your second or third year of training. But, they say, a weapon must know the
taste of blood from the first."
"Oh," Joanna whispered soundlessly.
She
thought it was all Caris would say. It was no wonder, she thought wretchedly,
that her own inarticulate scruples sounded ridiculous to that beautiful young
man. But when Caris spoke again, she realized the long delay had been because
the sasennan was inept with words; not wanting to hurt her, he had paused long
to choose what he would say with care.
"But I had never killed a man before in a true fight‑a fight
for my life, one that was not in training. We're trained to be ready for it,
but . . . it really seldom happens." There was another long silence. Then
he said, "Do you know what the Witchfinders would have done‑to me
and to Antryg, and probably to you as our accomplice?"
Joanna shook her head.
Caris told her, in a wealth of clinical detail that made her almost
physically sick.
"A weapon that thinks is a flawed weapon, Joanna," he said
softly. "You had to do what you did. You didn't take two lives, you saved
two, probably three‑probably a lot more. I have to get Antryg alive to
the Regent, not as his accomplice in some plot the Witchfinders are accusing us
of, but free and on my own terms, as proof of the truth. Sometimes you can't
think too much. Only do what you need to do."
And in those words Joanna took a certain amount of comfort, at least for
as long as she remained awake.
CHAPTER
XII
The lowing of a cow
woke Caris, to the clinging, tepid HEAT of morning.
Last night's storm had cooled the air enough to permit sleep after the killing
exhaustion of the last twenty‑four hours; but with the new sun, the rain
was evaporating in clammy dampness which made his rough peasant clothes and
coarse stockings stick to his body like an evil fairy's garment of itches.
He
lay in the hay for a few moments, looking at his two companions in flight.
He
had never expected the girl Joanna to be still with them after four days. What
he had seen of her world and what she had told him and Antryg during the first
day's walk to Kymil had made him doubt her abilities to keep up with them.
Caris had been raised in the Way of the Sasenna, and, from what he had seen and
heard, hers was a world in which machines, like the cars and computers of which
she had spoken, had taken over both the work that strengthened the body and the
entertainment that sharpened the wits. She was shy and, he suspected, more
used to speaking to these computers than to people; but it had surprised him
that she bad not panicked yesterday. If asked beforehand, he would have laid
money against her having the nerve to pull the trigger.
And, he reflected ruefully, lost it.
Curled
up on the hay, she looked thin and even smaller than usual. They had gotten rid
of her bloodstained peasant clothing, and she looked like a little boy in her
scruffy blue jeans and creased and filthy tank‑top, with hay caught in
her feathery blond curls. Her arms and shoulders were brown and sunburned,
covered with scratches and insect bites. For all her small size, weariness had
printed lines on her face that even sleep couldn't erase, and she looked older
than her age, which she had said was twenty‑six, and very alone.
A
little ways from her, Antryg lay with his head on his rolled‑up coat. His
cracked spectacles rested in the hay nearby and the strings of cheap glass
beads around his throat caught slivers of hurtfully bright gold sunlight that
streamed through the cracks in the barn walls. Under the unruly tousle of his
hay‑flecked hair, the bruises on his face already looked less swollen
than they had. They were turning black; Caris had spent the last five years of
his life training to be sasennan and had an intimate acquaintance with bruises;
he knew they must hurt like the devil. He'd taken a swordcut on the cheek in
his first year of training and he remembered that the pain had dogged even his
sleep.
And
well served, too,
he thought bitterly. He sat up and shook as much hay as he could out of his
smock. Like the pain of a burn, his anger returned to fuel his strength. For
what he has done to my grandfather for what that disappearance
did to all the mages . . .
Outside, the cow lowed again. Raised to the rhythms of farm and village
life, Caris recognized the pain in the sound. The beast was stray, he thought,
and needed to be milked. The gray deadness that had gripped the countryside
yesterday morning had left its effects; not a cowman between here and
Parchasten had remembered to close his gates. All afternoon and evening, they
had been seeing strayed beasts in the half‑cut hay meadows and standing
corn. Now that he thought about it, Caris looked around the barn. The storm, he
thought, would have ruined the best part of the haying. It was late enough in
the summer that this barn should have been full‑stocked. He frowned to
himself at the recollection of something the Bishop of Kymil had said regarding
farms let fall to rot.
But a cow in milk is a cow in milk, and the bread that he and Antryg had
variously pocketed during the last, distant supper at the roadhouse had long
since been eaten. Casting a glance behind him at the sleepers, Caris slipped
his scabbarded sword into his sash, ready to draw and fight, and moved
cautiously to the door.
His first glance around, as he opened it a crack, showed him that the
woods onto which the barn faced were deserted. His trained mind toyed with the
idea of a trap, with the cow as bait, then dismissed it. Anyone who knew they
were there could simply have come in and overpowered them, exhausted as they
were, or simply burned the barn over their heads.
It was only at his second glance that he truly saw the cow.
She was standing a few yards from the rickety doors of the barn, and
Caris did not even need his farm background to know there was something
terribly wrong with her. She stood broadside to him, weaving on her feet; her
white and cream hide was sunk over her broad pelvis and barrel ribs as if with
long sickness, but the green stains of grass smudged her legs. She had been out
to pasture. Caris pushed the door gently open and walked toward her. There was
no sign of ambush or threat from the woods, but the sixth sense of a sasennan
screamed at him of danger . . . .
Then
she turned her head and forequarters toward him. Caris felt the vomit rise to
burn his throat and the sudden chill of sweat stick his coarse clothing to his
back.
There was an abomination fastened leechlike to the cow.
It
was unlike the one he had seen in the marsh, but he knew it for nothing that
existed in this world. It dangled, swollen, from the beast's shoulder like a
monstrous tick, mottled green‑black and purple and longer than a man's
forearm. By the swelling under the hide where it was attached, Caris knew there
was at least four inches of head buried under the skin.
The
cow lowed again and stared at him with sunken and pain‑glazed eyes. Caris
gritted his teeth‑sick as the thought made him, he knew he could never
leave an animal to suffer in that fashion.
He
looked quickly about. It was broad daylight now‑early, by the elongated
indigo shadows. The patrols would be checking every building they found. In a
little pile of rubbish by the door, he found some old tools, including a couple
of broken scythe handles and half‑rotted leather straps. With one of the
straps, he tied a bunch of hay onto the end of a handle; with the flint and
steel no sasennan is ever without, he lighted this makeshift
torch and advanced, rather queasily, upon the cow and its horrible parasite.
The poor beast flinched a little from the pale brightness of the fire, but was
too exhausted to flee. Caris gingerly gripped her horn and brought the burning
end of the torch to the parasite's slimy back.
Like
a tick, it twitched revoltingly; then it backed slowly out of the wound and
dropped to the ground with a horrible squishing sound.
Clotted
with blood and flesh, its head was almost indistinguishable equipped, Caris
thought, with at least three mouths, mandibled like an ant's, but infinitely
more hideous. For an instant, the mouths worked with an unspeakable chewing
motion. Then the head swung around, and Caris leaped back as the thing writhed
like a snake on the trampled grass and launched itself, with incredible speed
for something so puffed, at Caris' groin.
As
with the thing in the marsh, Caris' body thought for him. He struck at the
thing with all the force of his arm, using the side of the torch like a bat.
The mandibled mouth clamped around the wood; the tiny, lobster like claws
grappled, and the thing lunged up the handle toward his chest. Horror‑sickened,
Caris flung the torch from him and ran; he heard the thing's body thump
soddenly against the door as he slammed it shut.
"Antryg!"
Renegade, devious, and student of Suraklin he might be, but he had spoken of
the abominations as if he knew them. At least he would know what to do.
The
wizard sat up, blinking, already fumbling his spectacles onto his lacerated
face. He took one look at Caris and asked, "Where?" without bothering
to ask what. Like a gawky heron, he unfolded to his feet and strode past Caris
to the door to peer through the cracks. After a long pause, he held up a
cautionary hand and pushed open the door slightly. Through it, Caris could see
the cow lying on her chest, too exhausted to flee or even to stand. The
parasite had returned to her, now hanging from her throat. Flies were already
swarming over the first gaping wound its exit had left.
Caris was aware that he was shaking.
Antryg's voice was deep and oddly comforting in the hot, umber gloom of
the barn. "There's nothing we can do for her now, except put her out of
her pain, and I'm not sure it would be safe to get close enough to do that
silently."
Quietly, Joanna joined them at the door. She made a small noise of utter
revulsion in her throat at the sight of the parasite, but nothing more.
"It's an abomination," Antryg murmured to her, "a thing that has
come through a weakening in the Void when a gateway was opened. Or, more
likely, it was a parasite on something that came through."
She took another cautious look, around him at the cow. "The original
host could have died almost immediately," she said thoughtfully. "Who
knows‑maybe its parasites started off small and something in this universe
made them grow."
The remark baffled Caris, but Antryg nodded as if he understood. There
was a fleeting appearance of kinship between them, with their blue jeans and
white shirts, their tangled, curly hair, and their sunburned faces. After a
moment, the wizard walked back into the darkness of the barn, his white shirt a
blur in the gloom. Caris saw what had not been apparent last night; the
building had two doors, one facing toward the woods, through which they had
come the previous night, and the other facing out into a lowland hay meadow.
Green sweetness and a sharp square of primrose light breathed into the dim barn
in a rush as Antryg pushed open one leaf of the vast portal. The meadow had
only been partly cut; cows stood in the long, lush grass that ran down to a
stream deep in cresses and ferns. When the wind shifted, Caris could hear another
cow groan in feeble agony.
Antryg
murmured, "As I thought."
Past
the stream, the dark tangle of a quickset hedge marked the road; Caris
shivered. He had not thought it so close, and wondered how obvious the barn
was from it. Quietly he joined the wizard by the door. "We haven't time
for this," he said softly. "We have to leave this place."
"Don't
be silly." Antryg drew him back into the protective shade of the barn. He
pushed his specs a little further up the bridge of his long nose with one bony
forefinger, wincing where the metal of the earpiece touched the bruised mess of
his temple. "We have to know at least a little of how to deal with the
things. Look at how those cows are moving. They're all infected. It's more than
likely the things are in the woods as well." He walked back to the piled
hay where he had slept, unrolled his coat, and put it on, the worn velvet
rumpled and covered with shreds of hay.
Joanna
had remained by the door to the meadow. She was looking out with what might
have been nauseated fascination or what might have been simple watchfulness,
for it was only by close scrutiny that someone might be seen on the road on the
other side of the hedgerow. Caris followed Antryg back toward the door to the
woods, but caught him by the sleeve when he made to go through it. For once, he
did not fear the wizard making a break for it. Indeed, he suspected that,
unless Antryg was playing a very deep game, Antryg would not try to escape
until they reached Angelshand itself. But the thought of stepping outside,
where the dying cow and her hideous vampire still lay joined in the brightness
of the morning sunlight, made his nape crawl.
Gently,
Antryg shook loose the grip. He slipped through the open door, stepped quickly
to where the torch lay guttered out in the dust, retrieved it, and returned.
Neither cow nor parasite moved. His hair shadowing his eyes in the early light,
Antryg undid the strap, shoved a little more hay under it, and cinched it tight
again. He looked up at Caris. "Either come with me or lend me your
sword."
The
descent into the hay meadow was closer to the hell of the Church's Sole God
than anything Caris had yet experienced in his life. He had been trained in the
Way of the Sasenna, taught to face and fight and kill any man or woman living.
But in the last weeks, he had faced, not man or woman, but things he had never
prepared for: the mewing abomination in the marsh; the hideous, icy fall
through the blowing darkness that lies between universes; and the ghastly
uncertainties of trying to operate by the Way of the Sasenna without a master
to command him. To fight even a monster was one thing; to walk through a plague
of lethal and filthy parasites was something for which neither he nor his
masters had ever thought to prepare him.
The
meadow was full of the abominations.
What
little wind there was set from the woods; it was only when he and Antryg were
in the long grasses of the meadow itself that the smell of blood came to Caris'
nostrils. With it came a foul, half‑familiar pungency he did not know,
but which nauseated him. There were half a dozen cows in the meadow, drawn
there to drink at the spring. Every one bore at least one parasite; some poor
beasts had two or three, hanging like swollen, slimily gleaming bolsters from
their sides or throats or lying draped over them, if they lay in the grass. The
parasites themselves were anywhere above a foot in length; one, twitching over
the heaving side of a yearling calf, was nearly four feet long.
In his rough smock and coarse canvas breeches, Caris had never felt so
unprotected in his life. Horror and revulsion made him queasy, but he heard
Antryg, peering through the quizzing glass at that sunken body with its hideous
burden, murmur, "Fascinating."
Around the stream, the long, rank grasses thrashed with their squirmings.
Antryg raised his head, curious. "There seem to be a lot of them down
there."
A sharp rustle in the meadow to their left made Caris swing around, his
sword in his hand; his mouth felt dry with fear. "Let's go back . . .
."
Antryg, torch in hand, advanced, wading through the deep ferns toward
the stream.
Caris had only an instant's glimpse of the abomination in the ferns
before it struck. It was three feet long and launched itself at Antryg like a
striking cobra; Caris' sword was whining through the fetid air while his mind
was still identifying what it was that he struck. His blade caught the thing in
the middle of its swollen body, checking the strike as it fell in two pieces;
Antryg stepped lightly back as the head and struck at him again, bouncing
short, like a hellish ball, its spined mouth snapping. Grayish slime from the
split abdomen stank as it pooled in the grass; Caris whirled in horror as the
whole meadow around them erupted suddenly into a sea of frantic thrashings.
It seemed as if every filthy creature in that abominable meadow was
galvanized into abrupt and greedy life. From every point of the compass, there
were wallowing and lunging toward the two humans. From the hay barn at the top
of the meadow, Caris heard Joanna's entirely unnecessary warning scream.
The abomination feeding on the calf pulled its filthy, puerperal head
from the wound and struck at Caris in a streaming splatter of blood and fluid
from a distance of only feet. Caris moved his sword to strike but the thing
caught the blade itself, wrapping tiny, hideous claws around it, dragging it
down with its huge weight. Reflex made Caris drop the blade and spring back,
remembering how its fellow had lunged up along the torch; an instant later he
cursed himself for dropping the weapon. Antryg's powerful hand closed around
his arm and the two of them fled through the long grass of the meadow, both
knowing it was only a question of instants before that wallowing circle of
creatures closed around them . . . .
But they did not. They fell to feeding, instead, on the split carcass of
the dead parasite. Halfway back to the barn, Antryg and Caris stopped, panting,
to look back and saw nothing of the dead abomination and the stinking pool of
slime around it but a writhing, struggling mass of slimy purple backs.
Something
brushed Caris' ankle, and he sprang aside with a shuddering gasp. It was a
foot‑long abomination, plowing through the grass like a determined maggot
toward the others. Caris' whole body was shaking with something more terrible
than cold, but Antryg stood, his head a little on one side, watching.
"Caris,
I think we've been snubbed," he remarked. Swinging the burnt out torch, he
walked back up towards the barn.
It
was only when they were very near it that Caris realized that Joanna was not
alone.
There
was a wagon and team tied up at one side of the barn. A man in the green livery
of a coachman was on the box; a footman, carrying a long, old‑fashioned
pike, stood beside it, nervously watching the meadow. Caris stopped in his
tracks, feeling for his missing sword and cursing himself again for dropping
it. But in any case, fighting would be hopeless. From the shadows of the barn,
he saw Joanna wave, beckoning. In the gloom behind her, steel flashed.
Antryg
laughed suddenly, and said, "Well done!" He strode forward, leaving
Caris either to abandon his captive or follow. He had to run to catch up.
The
man standing beside Joanna in the dense shade of the barn was wearing armor of
the sort not seen in centuries‑a suit of plate that covered the wearer
from head to foot. The steel was ornamented with scallop and mille fleur,
bright with gilding, and every inch overwritten with spells and proofs against
the workings of the rival champion's wizard. It was, in fact, the product of
the last days before the battle of the Field of Stellith‑massive, proof
against both crossbow and heat‑spell, and weighing well over a hundred
pounds.
Only
the helm of this archaic marvel was missing. From the enormous shoulders, with
their cresting and giltwork, rose a head of startling modernity. The young
man's round cheeks and a slight double‑chin gave an indication of what
sort of form lay beneath all that ensorcelled steel. His hazel eyes were bright
with interest and meticulously painted; the soft, dark‑brown curls
clustering around his face showed an expert's assiduous hand in their
arrangement.
The
emblem on the massive breastplate was that of the royal house of the Emperors
of Ferryth.
It
was not the Way of the Sasenna to acknowledge lordship, other than of one's own
master, not even the highest, but Caris bent his head respectfully and said,
"Lord Cerdic."
The young man waved away the gesture of respect with one massively mailed
hand. "That was brave‑incredibly brave." He looked from the
desperately thrashing meadow to Caris and then to Antryg. "Do I guess
correctly that you are the mage my cousin's men have been combing the
countryside for?"
Caris frowned disapprovingly, but Antryg nodded. "At your humble
service," he said, with a glint in his gray eyes. "If it please your
Grace, I shall keep my name to myself."
"Of course," Prince Cerdic said hastily. "Of course. I
would never dream of asking such a thing of the mageborn." His painted
hazel eyes returned to the field again, and concern creased his open brow.
"What have you decided about them, my lord? My peasants came to me begging
my help. I put this thing on‑it's been standing in a corner of Devilsgate
Hall for centuries‑and came down to have a look at them, though deuce
knows what I'd have done if I'd fallen over out there in it."
"When were they first seen?" Antryg asked.
Cerdic shook his head. "Three, four days ago one of my cowmen
reported finding one‑a little one, no bigger than a sausage‑on a heifer
up in the high pastures near the Devil's Road. He got it to back out with a
torch, then it struck at him, and he ran away; fire didn't seem to bother it.
When they started showing up on the herds, we tried poison, and that doesn't
slow them down, either. Perhaps, if your lordship used magic . . ."
Caris glanced sidelong at his so‑called prisoner, with spiteful
satisfaction. Antryg pushed up his spectacles, like a man who is stalling for
time to explain why he has appeared at an evening function in a morning coat.
"Well, there is
a reason I can't use magic," he said apologetically. "And in any
case, it would take‑"
Still
leaning against the jamb of the barn door, Joanna turned her head from the
thrashing grasses of the meadow to ask, "What kind of fire did you
use?"
Cerdic
raised his plucked brows. "What other kinds of fire are there, my dear?
Fire is fire."
"If
fire was fire," Joanna pointed out, a little diffidently, "you'd be
able to temper sword steel in the kitchen stove. Have you tried destroying them
with condensed fire, as in a kiln? The hottest kind of kiln you have . .
."
"That
would be a limekiln," provided Antryg thoughtfully. "They have steel
hearths hotter in Parchasten, where they can get the coke . . . ."
"But
we do have a limekiln," Cerdic said eagerly. Then his face fell. "But
as for getting them in it‑we could only bait one or two at a time, and
then they mightn't respond, if the bait was inside the kiln." He glanced
hopefully at Antryg. "Unless there were some kind of a summoning spell?"
Antryg
sighed. "I'm afraid the abominations wouldn't be the only things such a
spell would summon."
"And
we wouldn't have time," Joanna put in and nodded toward the horrible
movement in the meadow outside. "The things seem to be multiplying pretty
fast."
"We
may have less time than we think." Antryg shoved his hands in his jeans
pockets and cocked his head to one side. "It all depends on whether
they're ticks or maggots, you see."
The
remark made no sense to Caris, but Joanna went white with horror. Feeling a
little as he did when talking to his grandfather, Caris demanded, "What
difference does it make?"
The
wizard shrugged. "The most attractive thing that can be said for a
tick," he responded, "is that it isn't going to turn into anything
else that might have wings."
Caris
stared at him in shock; the idea that the abominations might metamorphose had
never occurred to him. Cerdic whispered numbly, "Mother of God . . ."
He swallowed hard. "But if you will not use magic‑if poison won't
work‑"
Caris'
eyes went to the wizard's face, reading the struggle obvious there as he tried
to figure some way of using his powers without summoning down the Council or
the Church dogs, as well. Cerdic was watching him intently, and Caris wondered
if he could use this unwillingness to turn the Prince from Antryg's ally to his
own.
Then
Joanna asked, "What would you need for a spell?"
Antryg
shook his head. "Something to draw them. They came like ants after sugar
to the body of the dead one. I'd probably send out some kind of an illusion of
its smell to draw them to the limekiln. Once they were inside it could be
fired."
"We've
tried using blood," Cerdic added, clanking forward and awkwardly folding
his arms. "Two or three came to it, but the poison didn't stop them. We
used plagueroot‑the most virulent poison there isquarts of it. The smell
alone should have killed them."
"Try
mercury or arsenic," Joanna said. "They're metals. No matter what
kind of organisms the things are, a heavy metal should at least slow them down.
Whatever they smelled in the dead abomination must be a concentrate of
something from the cow's blood, to bring them so fast that they ignored
everything else."
Caris shook his head. "One of them attacked me within feet of the
carcass."
"Did it?" Antryg inquired suddenly. "As I remember, it
attacked your sword. Which, of course, was smeared with fluid from the thing's
body. It didn't leap after you, once it had the sword. And I'll tell you
something else. Whatever they look for in blood, I think they also look for it
in earth. At least the stream bank was all chewed with the things tunnelings."
"A trace mineral?" Joanna suggested thoughtfully. She scratched
at a fragment of hay in her hair‑very different, suddenly, Caris thought,
from the painfully shy girl who had accompanied them up from Kymil. She was
not, after all, merely a talker to machines, and he wondered suddenly if it was
this quality, this knowledge, for which Antryg had kidnapped her. "Blood
is mostly water, salt, proteins, and some trace minerals and it carries oxygen.
Obviously it isn't water they want or they'd have been in the stream itself. It
might be nitrogen . . . ."
"Cerdic." Antryg turned to the Prince, who had stood throughout
this with a look of mystification on his round, perspiring face. "Did
there used to be a salt lick down by the stream?"
The young man looked blank. "Dashed if I know. Does it matter?"
"A salt lick?" Joanna asked, puzzled.
"Yes‑a natural outcropping of salt in the ground. There's a
trampled patch on the bank that looks as if it's where the cattle regularly
came down . . . ."
At the Prince's signal, the coachman jumped down from the wagon and
approached, casting a wary look at Antryg and a disapproving one at Joanna's
jeans‑clad legs. "Oh, aye," he said, when asked. "That's
what the cows were doing in the meadow in the first place, after that good‑for-nothing
Joe left the field gates open day before yesterday. The cowman drives 'em down
there regular, and a job he has keeping 'em out of the hay."
"Well,"
said Antryg simply, "the lick's gone, now. The whole bank's tunneled
in."
"That's
probably when they started feeding on the cows," Joanna said. She turned
back to the baffled‑looking Cerdic. "I think that's your answer,"
she said, and abruptly, as if she heard and feared the quiet authority in her
own voice, her old shyness returned. Diffident but resolute, she continued,
"Heavily concentrated salt‑as much of it as you can get with enough
water to make it liquid and as much mercury and arsenic as you have. If it
doesn't kill them, it should slow them down enough to be shoveled into the
limekiln."
Cerdic
caught her hand between his two massively mailed ones and said what no knight in
gilded armor ever said to any lady of any legend. "My dear girl, you're a
genius!"
Joanna
blushed furiously and shook her head. "It just took breaking it down into
subroutines," she explained self‑deprecatingly. "I meanthat's
how all programmers think."
The Prince frowned. "Programmer‑is that a sort of
wizard?"
Antryg,
seeing Joanna's confusion overcoming her, put a comforting arm around her
shoulders and said, "Yes. And now," he added gravely, "I hope
you mean to arrest us, because that would mean we could stop running and have
some breakfast."
With
equally sober mien, the Prince began to bow, and Caris, the coachman, and
Antryg all barely caught him in time, before he overbalanced in the weight of
the armor. He substituted a graceful gesture of his arm. "My lord
wizard," he said, "please consider yourself under arrest."
"So what happens now?"
Antryg
turned from the long rectangle of the window's shadowy luminescence. Far off,
a line of smoke marked the first of the limekilns firing up.
"It
seems to have worked," he said and smiled a welcome as Joanna gathered up
the handfuls of green sprig‑muslin skirts and petticoats and rustled her
way across the parquet of the drawing room floor. The rooms the Prince had
given them at Devilsgate Manor looked east over a short stretch of informal
garden to the woods; at this hour, though the greenery outside was still
spangled with the last brightness of the evening sun, the rooms themselves were
growing dim. "And he was quite right, my dear. It was a stroke of genius,
subroutines or no subroutines."
Joanna
shook her head again, as self‑conscious over the praise as she was over
the ribbon‑edged flounces and low‑cut neckline of her gown. She
still wondered who the Prince was in the habit of keeping spare gowns around for.
"It comes from breaking everything down for programming," she said.
"Talking to a machine, you have to think like one ‑choose one
alternative or the other, decide A on what grounds, decide B on what grounds,
if not B, what's C . . . everything in a million little increments." She
made a move to sit on the edge of a nearby chair back and gave it up as the
unwary move earned her a poke under the ribcage from the boning in the gown's
bodice. "It may be slower than talking to a person; but if you do everything
right, you always know where you are."
His gray eyes were kind as he heard the years of buried uncertainties in
her words, but he only said, "A little like magic, then. To weave a spell,
one must know everything about the object of the spell. Thank you," he
added softly, "for taking over there. Because you did keep me from having
to make a very awkward choice."
Joanna blushed, confused and embarrassed by praise. Fed, washed, and
rested, clothed in a gown far more elegant and twice as uncomfortable as her
former peasant disguise, she still found herself aching from the hardships of
flight. Her wrists still hurt from the kick of the pistol, reminding her of
what she had done not forty‑eight hours before. That, like the cumulative
exhaustion, was something she knew already would take more than a few hours'
rest to cure. In a sense it would never be cured‑it would always remain
something she had done.
Antryg, she was glad to see, looked better also. He'd acquired a clean
ruffled shirt, though he still wore his long‑skirted velvet coat and borrowed
jeans. The wound on his face was visibly less raw than it had been.
"Any programmer could have figured it out," she protested
again. "And you were right‑we had no idea of what those things could
or might turn into." She hesitated. "And we have no guarantee there
won't be others, do we?"
He shook his head‑there passed across the back of his eyes some
haunted darkness of knowledge, as if he guessed unthinkable possibilities. His
voice was very low. "No."
"What happens now?"
Antryg sighed and seemed to brush aside the half‑contemplated horrors.
"I suppose I could read the cards to find out," he said. "Though
the cards are a bit dangerous in themselves."
"Because
you can be traced by the Council?"
"No‑they're no more magic than dreaming is, really. But the
cards have a nasty habit of telling one things one doesn't really wish to
know."
Joanna leaned against the opposite jamb of the tall windows and ran her
hand down the smooth, gilded molding. "But then you can prepare for
catastrophe, if one's coming up."
"Perhaps‑unless, like war or jealously, it's the preparation
which triggers it. It's easier to let go and deal with things as they
arise."
"Maybe," she said, with a rueful smile. "But letting go of
things and letting events take their course has always been the hardest thing
for me to do." She shook her head, the damp, trailing ends of her hair
brushing against her bare shoulders, brown and then white with the changed neckline.
"It probably sounds pretty stupid, because I know there's something
terrible going on, something evil, but all I really want is out."
He smiled. "It isn't stupid," he said gently. "From time
to time, I find myself wishing I were back in the Tower, not
because it was comfortable ‑which it wasn't‑but because it was
peaceful, and all my things are there, and I was safe."
She remembered her thought on the island, just before she pulled the
trigger‑If I didn't have a gun, I wouldn't have to do
this.
"Are we safe?" she asked.
He considered the matter. "I shouldn't think so," he replied
judiciously after a moment. "I'm certainly not, and you . . ." There
was a long pause, during which, looking up into those mild gray eyes, she noted
that they were in truth a very gray blue, flecked with white and hazelyellow
which gave them their silvery cast. There was a triangular pucker of skin, like
a small V, among the crisscrossed wrinkles below the left one.
He sighed and said, half to himself, "I wish I knew."
Joanna
reflected that she was beginning to feel like the poor schlemiel in North
by Northwest, kidnapped and halled all over the countryside, being shot at
by strangers without any idea of what was happening, and on top of it all . . .
There was, she realized, another part to that analogy.
For a long time, their eyes held.
She
thought, with a curious sense of shock that was not surprise, I expected
it to be different than this. For a time it seemed to her that neither of
them breathed‑that it was impossible that the only point of contact
between their two bodies was where her petticoats brushed against his booted
ankle in a froth of voile. Part of her mind was saying in its usual cool and
practical tones, This is ridiculous. I don't do things like this‑while
another part said, I want him.
For
a time the sooty‑gray shadows of the empty drawing room were like
completely still water, fathoms deep and silent but for the distant chatter of
the birds outside. The smell of the woods, of grass damp from last night's rain
and of the far‑off acrid smoke of the burning kilns, came to her through
the open windows, mixed with the faint scent of soap from his flesh and hair.
He stood so still that one facet of the crystal earring he wore held a gleam of
the last light from outside like a tiny mirror, steely and unmoving in the
deepening gloom; the only thing that stirred was the white rim of light on the
ruffs of his shirt with the rise and fall of his breath.
Everything seemed incredibly clear to her, but without pattern. It had
nothing in common with her encounters with Gary and her nervous weighing and
reweighing of pro and con. She only knew that she wanted him and knew, looking
up into the wide, black pupils of his eyes, that he wanted her.
He turned abruptly, almost angrily, away and walked from the windows
into the twilight cavern of the room. "I will not do this," he said
softly. She could hear the faint tremor of his deep voice. "You are dependent
on me and under my protection in this world. I won't take advantage of
that."
His back was to her, the diffuse whiteness of the fading day putting a
sheen like pewter on the velvet of his shoulders. She knew well enough that he
was conscious of her eyes upon his back. She was aware of her own feelings less
clearly, shocked and appalled, not by them, but by their strength. Nothing she
had ever experienced with Gary, not even sex, came anywhere near this need‑not
to have, but to give.
After a moment he turned and walked silently from the room.
"You can't pretend you don't know what he's done!" Caris swung
around in his pacing to face the Prince behind his inlaid fruitwood desk.
"It is he and not the Church or the Inquisition of your cousin who is the
true enemy of the Council!"
Prince Cerdic was silent. His round, smooth, white hands with their old‑fashioned
rings of gold and rose crystal were folded on the parquetry before him, his
painted mouth settled and still. His study, with its old fashioned linenfold
paneling and coffered ceiling, looked north; through the tall windows, Caris
could see in the distance against the milky twilight sky the first tall
outliers of the Devil's Road itself, crowning the bare top of the hill‑standing‑stones,
such as had guarded the way from Kymil to the Silent Tower long before either
city or Tower had been built. Yet the long, silent line of stone sentries led
from nowhere to nowhere, traversed only by the wind and by the queer,
traveling energies of the earth that only the mages felt.
Caris was coming to see that it was no accident that Prince Cerdic, out
of all the manors available to the Imperial Family, had chosen this as his
principal seat. Doggedly, he went on, "It is Antryg who kidnapped the
Archmage and who gave the Church and the Witchfinders their chance to announce
that the mages were plotting against the Empire‑gave them their chance to
arrest the mageborn without fear of reprisals! Maybe he did it for that reason‑maybe
for others. He is responsible for the abominations‑"
"There's nothing to show that," the Prince protested.
"Then how has he known where they would be? How does he make guesses
about what they are or could become?"
The
Prince still said nothing, only sat, among his gold and shellwork incense‑burners,
while the images of the twenty‑one Old Gods watched his round, pink satin
back. Like many converts, Prince Cerdic was more devout than most Old Believers
Caris had met; he was the only one the young man had seen who had statues of
the Old Gods, instead of the elaborate calligraphy talismans of their names
pasted to the walls with which most Old Believers contented themselves. As he
had told the Prince about the abomination in the swamp, about his grandfather's
revelations on the fallen stone, and about seeing the old man's glove in Antryg's
room as the mad wizard vanished through the Void into that other bizarre and
terrible world, he felt the eyes of those small idols upon him ‑dog‑headed
Lancres, Tambet with the baby Signius at her breast, Kahieret the God of the
Mages with his stork's head rising from the long black robes of a wizard, the
horned Dead God wrapped in his burial shroud . . . .
"I
need an introduction to the Court," Caris said quietly. "If I bring
Antryg to your cousin the Regent openly before witnesses‑if I am able to
leave freely‑the Witchfinders cannot deny either his capture or his
confession. They are not interested in truth, but only in what story will best
serve their ends; allow them simply to destroy Antryg, and we will never find
the Archmage, nor restore the Council's power."
Cerdic
rubbed his smooth chin with one lace‑gloved hand. "But maybe he is
telling you the truth," he said. "The mageborn understand so much
more of what is going on than mere mortals like you and me . . . ."
"The
fact that they do does not mean he speaks the truth!" Caris almost
shouted. "He keeps claiming that the one who has done this evil, who
steals the life from the souls of the land, who calls the abominations through
the Void, and who kidnapped the Archmage and brought the woman Joanna here is
not him, but someone else. But according to the Archmage, there is no one else
with that understanding of the Void!"
The
light of the dozen candles illuminating the opulent study flickered in a rim of
fire over the embroidery that laced the Prince's carnationcolored coat. Behind
him, on the shelves with the idols of the Old Gods, Caris could see old and
crumbling tomes of magic. Some he recognized from his grandfather's study in
the Mages' Yard; others he knew only by the sneers of the Council wizards,
volumes of piesog and earth‑magic and granny‑lore, the compendia of
every quack and dog wizard for five hundred years. The Prince moved
uncomfortably in his velvet chair, his diamond earrings casting a sprinkle of
brightness over his shoulders and his pink‑and‑white cravat.
"In the first place, I'm not sure either my introduction or my
patronage would do your cause any good," he said. "My cousin has
always been insanely suspicious of everyone. Of late, those suspicious have
begun to turn against me as well. It's one reason I'm here and not at Court,
doing what I can to help the mageborn. He has me watched in the capital. It's
absurd, because technically I am his heir, but I was beginning to fear for my
safety.
"But in any case . . ." He frowned and smoothed the lace of his
glove. "It is not for us to judge the mageborn. They were our first
priests, servants of the Old Gods. They still commune with their ancient
powers, beyond the ken of you and me."
Impatiently, Caris began, "That's nonsense! There aren't more than a
handful of mages who are Old Believers."
"No matter what they call them," Cerdic said gravely, "the
powers they exercise are still the powers of the Old Ones. It is not for any
mere mortal to disturb the great webs of destiny, not even for motives which
they themselves deem laudable. They say my uncle, the Emperor, had a great deal
of respect for Suraklin and went to his prison cell many times to visit him
after he was taken; but still, he took it upon himself to destroy a mage, and
great evil fell upon him after."
"Twenty years later?"
The Prince's soft mouth pursed, giving his otherwise open countenance a
mulish appearance. Caris, though he knew this young man was the second heir to
the Realm after the mad Regent, was conscious of an overwhelming desire to
knock that pomaded head against the wall.
"He ought never to have meddled in the Dark Mage's affairs. Woe
comes to them who hold the mageborn in light regard."
Caris
was beginning to understand the viewpoint of those nobles who preferred the
Regent Pharos' sadistic madness to this kind of blind obstinacy. Antryg, he
realized, knew how to pick his friends.
Slowly,
he said, "Woe certainly came to those who held Suraklin in light regard.
But that didn't mean that he should not have been stopped. And Antryg is his
student, his heir, and privy to all his black arts."
Cerdic
leaned across the variegated inlay of the desk surface, to catch Caris' hand.
There was that maddening, ethereal kindness in his eyes as he said earnestly,
"That is only what you believe, as an outsider looking in."
"I
am not . . ." began Caris indignantly, pulling his hand away, but Cerdic's
soft, rather high voice rode right over his words.
"It
is not ours to judge‑not yours, as a sasennan sworn to serve, and not
mine, though I am of high rank in the things of this world. Ours is only to
serve the mageborn in whatever way we can. I have put a light carriage, a
phaeton, at Lord Antryg's disposal, with letters of credit for changing horses
from here to Angelshand."
"WHAT?!"
For
one instant, behind the gentle and eager convert to the ways of the mages,
Caris saw in the Prince's face the stubborn pique of one who has never been
crossed in his life.
"Whether
he takes you with him is up to him, not you," the Prince said stiffly, and
something in his voice reminded Caris suddenly that at Devilsgate, he was
entirely in this young man's power. "So I suggest that if you have no
respect for your betters in the affairs of air and darkness, you had better
cultivate it."
Caris
left the study, furious with the Prince's blind stubborn faith and with his own
lack of finesse in not sounding out the ground before putting Cerdic on his
guard. As he crossed the tall ceilinged hall and ascended the graceful oval of
the stair to the higher floor, it occurred to him that he had put himself into
a dangerous position indeed. There was nothing to prevent Cerdic from
imprisoning him somewhere in the house until after Antryg was long gone‑err,
for that matter, turning him over to the Witchfinders, though he was unlikely
to do that, simply because Caris might then help them to locate Antryg.
The
upper part of the house was in darkness. The thought crossed his mind that
Cerdic need not have imprisoned him‑he need only have delayed him in that
stupid interview while Antryg drove the Prince's phaeton off into the night.
Swiftly,
he ducked into the room allotted him. His peasant clothes were still there‑he
had exchanged them for the plain, brown suit of a servant or upper‑class
tradesman provided for him by the Prince's staff and his weapons were where he
had hidden them in the canopy of the old‑fashioned bed, including the
sword which he had retrieved from the meadow after the abominations had, as
Joanna predicted, been lured away. He checked the pistol‑it was still
loaded. Though it was forbidden to bear weapons into the presence of a member
of the Imperial Family, he had kept a hideout knife in his boot. He checked it,
shoved the pistol into the pocket of his short coat and, sheathed sword in
hand, strode soundlessly from the room.
He
found Antryg sitting in the darkness of the drawing room of the suite allotted
to their use. His own mageborn sight picked out the tall, gawky form, sitting
in a chair near the window, dealing cards from one of the Prince's tarot decks
in silence onto a small ormolu table before him. There was something in the
tired angle of those bony shoulders that made Caris think he had been there
some time.
Though the sasennan made no sound and there was only darkness in the hall
behind him, Antryg said, without turning his head, "Come in, Caris. Are
you prepared to leave tonight?"
Caris tipped his head to one side, suspicious. "You're deigning to
grant me a place? Or do you just need someone to look after the horses?"
"Well, yes." A stray flick of the last daylight winked from
spectacle lenses and what might have been the glint of his half‑malicious
grin. The long hands moved palely in the dark; the soft pat of cards on
parquetry was clearly audible in the still blueness of the room. "And
then, I doubt I could persuade Joanna to‑err‑fly with me unless you
were there."
"And her feelings concern you?"
"Oddly
enough, yes." The wizard's voice was carefully uninflected. "It's
very difficult to carry off a young lady by violence and manage a team of
horses, too‑at least, I suppose an experienced person could do it, but we
should probably attract a good deal of attention. The Regent is on his way
here, you know."
Caris frowned and strode forward a step, then paused. "How do you
know? He was on his way to Kymil."
"I expect he turned back at the roadhouse, or perhaps the Bishop and
the Witchfinders met him halfway." Antryg tapped the spread of the cards.
Caris could see over his shoulder the king of pentacles reversed, the eight of
wands, the five of swords, the lovers . . . . "And he's going to be
married," he added thoughtfully. "Strange sort of thing for Pharos to
do, considering, but it does explain a good deal." Puzzled, Caris was
about to ask, Like what? when, with a flick of his fingers, the mage
tossed a seventh card down on the reading‑death reversed.
"Interesting."
Caris
looked down at the cards in silence. As with the vision of wizards in
darkness, he saw them without color, shadowless and strange. The Council wages,
the academic wages, seldom used the cards, considering them the type of low‑class
cantrip dealt in by gypsies and dog wizards, but in the darkness he found their
arcane shapes disturbing. He asked hesitantly, "Death reversed is . . .
life?"
Antryg shook his head, and said softly, "No. It is stagnation."
His
long, light fingers gathered the cards and shuffled them restlessly; Caris
could see that his eyes were shut. He laid the six cards with the deftness of a
faro dealer in their ancient shape and sat for a long time gazing down at them
in the darkness. Looking over his shoulder, Caris saw in the center the hermit
crossed by the Dead God, whose sign marked the Sigil of Darkness, flanked by
emperor and priest, the knight of swords, and the queen of wands. The signs
meant nothing to Caris, but he felt the flinch of Antryg's body through the
chair back upon which his arm rested; after a moment, he heard the wizard's
breath go out in a sigh.
Then
the wizard flicked a seventh card from the deck and sat looking at it for some
time. From the open windows, Caris heard the voices of the grooms in the stable
yard below, calling to one another as they harnessed the horses.
At
last Antryg whispered, "So," and got to his feet. Even in the darkness,
his face looked strained and more tired than Caris had ever seen him.
"It's time we went." Quietly, he left the room.
Caris
looked back at the cards, their queer forms as troubling as the voices of
things supposed to be dead. The seventh card lay among them —a dead man pierced
with ten swords, lying alone in the cold darkness of coming night.
Moonlight streamed
between the standing‑stones of the Devil's Road, bleaching them where it
struck or pitting them with inky shadow, like an endless row of broken and
rotting teeth. Antryg drew rein beside a fallen one to whose lower extremity
earth still clung. The pit where it had until recently been planted was a torn,
black hole in the long grass. Looking back along the line of them, Joanna saw
how straight they ran, to the top of a distant hill, and down into the unknown
night beyond.
The
mage said softly, "Hold the horses, would you, Caris." The sasennan,
after a moment's hesitation, leaped down from the groom's perch on the back of
the phaeton and obeyed.
For
all Antryg was still officially Caris' prisoner, Joanna reflected, smiling a
little to herself as the mage sprang down from the high‑wheeled carriage,
at the moment he was the nearest thing to a master the young warrior had.
After
a few seconds' hesitation, Joanna gathered up her voluminous skirts and the
shawl the Prince had lent her and clambered carefully down after him. Her
interview with Antryg in the dimness of the drawing room at Devilsgate had left
her shaken, not only by the violence of her own feelings, but by their
inappropriateness to everything she had liked to think about herself. She had
the sensation of being suddenly in deeper than she had thought, part of her
wanting to unfeel what she felt for him and, more, to unknow what it was like
to feel. It was that part, perhaps, which in Antryg wanted the safety of the
Tower. Down to the taproots of her intellect, she knew that both her friendship
and her desire for him were alike utterly stupid‑not to mention, she
added, that none of this was really any of her business. When she went back to
her own world it wouldn't matter ...
Except
that it did.
He
was moving along the double line of the stones, his spectacles and the strings
of cheap glass beads around his neck winking palely in the ghostly light.
As
when she had killed the two sasenna on the island, she had the feeling of
having crossed some line which could not be recrossed. Having seen color, she
thought, she would never again be content with black and white.
No
wind stirred the long grasses in the shallow dip of ground through which the
Road ran; the moon, waxing toward full, outlined not only the stones, but every
silken length of grass‑blade in sharply contrasting edges of silver and
ink. There was a chill on the air, and Joanna hugged her shawl about her; the
Prince, a chivalrous young man, had also provided half a dozen dresses for her
to wear on the road. Antryg turned at the sound of her step and waited for her,
the moonlight picking up a queer, silvery sheen on his outsize black coat. Most
of her life, she thought, as she came to his side, she had felt uncertain of
her welcome. That, too, had changed.
"What are you looking for?" she asked.
He
pointed to the ground. In a week, the resilience of the grass had nearly
covered them, but the weight and size of the tracks had left their mark in the
soft earth. She frowned, studying them, trying to decide what animal could have
made them, and looked at last, puzzled, back at Antryg's beaky face in the
moonlight.
He
shook his head. "I don't know, either," he said. "But you can
see they start here, as if they walked out of a door, then pass close to that
fallen stone. The thing must have been massive, whatever it was. Cerdic tells
me these high woods are not much frequented, having a bad name in the district.
It's very probable its carcass is still rotting up there, while the parasites that
lived on it or in it crawled away looking for better fare."
Joanna
shivered. A stray touch of wind stirred the thick, fair tangle of her hair; she
jumped as if at the brush of a hand. "A week ago," she said after a
moment. "That was when . . ." She hesitated. "How far away does
the Void weaken when it's open?"
"Generally
only a few hundred yards," Antryg replied softly. "But it was open on
one of the energy‑lines. All things travel along the lines, resonating
forward and back; in the old times wages could speak along them or travel down
them from node to node, covering hundreds of miles in a day." He turned
his head, looking out along the silent Road with its waving, undisturbed grass.
The pale light touched the dark blotch of the bruise on his face and glinted in
his crystal earrings. "On certain nights of the year, the peasants still
drive their herds along them, you know, in commemoration of the Dead God,
though they've forgotten why he died. But for the most part they are shunned,
as the mages are shunned. No man will summon the voices of the air, if they do
not speak personally to him."
He
reached out and took her hand with a half‑unthinking intimacy; she was
conscious of the bigness of the bones beneath the flesh, and the deft lightness
of his touch. After a pace or two, she stopped, and he halted and looked at
her, his eyes colorless in the moonlight.
"Antryg," she said, "why are you going to
Angelshand?"
He
hesitated for a long time before replying, his face, which could be so
dissimulating, tense with an expression of struggle, as if he debated within
himself what he might safely say. Then, bringing out the words with care, he
said, "I need to speak to certain members of the Council of Wizards."
Joanna stood for a moment, not certain what to say. It was the first time
he had answered her, she thought, without evasion, but it was not what she had
expected him to say. "But most‑or all‑of them are under
arrest."
He nodded. "There is that," he agreed, as if she had said, Most
of those telephone calls are toll numbers.
"About this‑this fading? Or what really happened to the
Archmage?" After a long moment, she collected enough nerve to add,
"About whatever it is you‑or someone else‑needs or wants me
for?"
In the long silence that followed, Joanna could hear one of the carriage
team blow softly through its nostrils and heard the faint, bell‑like
jingle of harness brasses as it tossed its head. The long, odd curves of
Antryg's mouth tightened; for a time, she thought he would not answer her or
would turn away, as he so often did, with some bit of informational persiflage
about ancient cults or botanical lore. But he finally said, "About
something which happened twenty‑five years ago."
"What?"
"Ah," he whispered, and the old warm, half‑demented grin
flicked suddenly at the corner of his lips again. "If I knew that, I
wouldn't have to ask them."
He started to move back to the carriage, but Joanna tightened her hand
around his to hold him still. The bones of his fingers felt large and clumsy
entwined with hers and only thinly covered with flesh; through them she was
aware of him, blood and sinew and bone.
She
said, "I don't understand."
"Don't
you?" he asked gently. The ghost of his smile warmed a little.
"That's good."
He
was not, she sensed, jesting. It came to her again that she was a fool to trust
him and an even bigger fool to care for him; for good or ill, she would return
to her own world, and it would be as if he were dead and all of this had never
happened. Still, when he hesitated to put his arm around her shoulders against
the thin chill of the evening, too clearly remembering the interview at
Devilsgate, she stepped into the circle of his warmth and slid her own arm
around his waist. There was a good deal of comfort in the feel of the ribs
beneath the worn velvet and the slight, steady movement of his breathing.
They
walked back along the Road to where Caris stood beside the carriage in the
brown livery of a groom. Even in the distance, he looked disapproving, his arms
folded and tension radiant in his stance.
"Joanna,"
Antryg said quietly as they neared the spiky shadows of the carriage and the
dark horses cropping the long grass in the moonlight. Even pitched low, for her
ears alone, his voice was startlingly beautiful, at odd variance with his
eccentric appearance. The fractured lens of his spectacles caught the light
like a broken star as he looked down at her. "I have no right to ask you
to trust me; in fact it would be an insult to your intelligence to do so, but .
. . please believe that I won't let you come to harm."
"I've
always believed that," she said. They stopped beside the tall conveyance,
with Caris still keeping his distance beside the horses' heads. Antryg put his
hands to her sides to help her up onto the high step; she shook back the thick
masses of her blond hair and looked up into his face again. "Will you
return me to my own world?"
His
eyes evaded hers. After a long moment, he said, "When I can." He
helped her up. She caught the high brass hand railings around the blue leather
tuck‑and‑roll of the seats and stood for a time looking down on him
in silence.
Then
he said, "I can't tell you the truth, Joanna . . . and God knows I've lied
to you enough. All my life I've trusted too easily. I can't risk doing so
now."
He
climbed up beside her and gathered the reins in his sure, strong grip. Caris,
who had watched this fete a fete with deep suspicion, stepped back from the
horses' heads and sprang up to his high perch behind as they started forward.
For a long time, Joanna sat quietly, hanging onto the sides as the phaeton
jarred over the rough ground toward the road. She wondered why she had the
impression that Antryg was as appalled by his own reactions to that evening's
interview as she was by hers‑that, like her, he found himself trusting
against his every better judgment. And she wondered, as the carriage rattled
into the haythick warmth of the still night, what reason Antryg had to think he
ought to fear her.
It
took them a day and a night and part of the next day to reach Angelshand, a
journey which left Joanna, unused to unsprung, horse drawn conveyances, cursing
the man who hadn't been born yet to invent shock absorbers and almost wishing
they had walked. Angelshand was a far larger city than Kymil; from miles away
that morning, she had seen the dirty pall of its factory smoke and, when the
wind set off its harbor with the cool salt freshness of the sea, had smelled
the fetor of its slums. They approached it through a sprawling network of
outlying villages and graceful manor houses set in walled parks. Closer in, the
phaeton mingled with a rattling press of city bound traffic, passing through
dreary streets of crumbling tenements and the ugly brick edifices of the
riverside factories. At Joanna's request, Antryg had taught her the rudiments
of driving a team of horses on the country roads, but he took the reins back
now; as Kymil's had been, the streets of Angelshand were deep in manure and
crowded with drays and carts of all description, driven with a disregard for
human safety which appalled even Joanna's Los Angelino soul.
They passed over the arches of a crowded bridge to cross the nose of an
island that lay like an overcrowded houseboat in the middle of the Glidden
River‑like the he de la Cite in Paris, Joanna guessed, the medieval
heart of the town. All the buildings of Angelshand were built of the iron‑gray
local granite, giving an impression of darkness and weight absent in the
largely wooden city of Kymil; on Angel's Island, the soot of ages added to the
somber hue. The thick, stumpy towers of a fortress glowered above an assortment
of crumbling gambrel roofs and gargoyle gutters, like an ogre's frowning brow;
elsewhere, beyond, she thought she saw the spires of a church.
"St. Cyr fortress." Caris nodded towards those ancient walls.
"The residence of the Bishop of Angelshand‑and the prison of the
Inquisition." He glanced up ahead of him at Antryg in the driving seat,
unconcernedly steering the team around a mender of tin cups who'd set up shop
in the middle of the lane and the elegant carriage whose owner had pulled up in
the stream of traffic to watch him. In Caris' eye Joanna saw the speculation
and wariness with which he'd regarded the mad wizard in the Ponmarish around
Kymil and she felt a qualm of unease.
The
truce was over. They had reached their goal. From here they would pursue their
own purposes once again. At the thought of Caris turning Antryg over to the mad
Regent, she shivered, though she knew that, for all his care of them both,
Antryg had never proven his innocence of kidnapping both the Archmage and her.
He had, beyond denying categorically that he'd had anything to do with any of
it, offered no alternative account of his activities, and Joanna was
uncomfortably aware that his protestations of complete ignorance were lies.
She
glanced up at him now, as he guided the horses through the tightpacked traffic
and indescribable clamor of the bridge from the island to the more stylish
districts on the far bank. The din on the bridge was hellish, the clatter of
iron‑shod wheels on granite cobbles striving with the shrieks of ragged
beggars, scarf sellers, match hawkers, flower girls and noodle vendors. The
sidewalks were crowded with liveried servants and monks in gray, with Old
Believers in their black robes and macram braids, townsmen in coarse browns and
blues, fierce‑looking sasenna, and whores in bright chintz, painted to
within an inch of their lives. The air was rank with the stink of horse
droppings and the fetid odor of the murky river below. Beside her Antryg was
rubbernecking like a delighted tourist.
He had, she remembered, been a prisoner for seven years.
It
took them an hour and more, but eventually he managed to steer them away from
the clotted slums and markets of the riverside and toward the more fashionable
districts nearer the Imperial Palaces to the north. Knowing she wasn't likely
to get an answer that meant anything to her, Joanna refrained from asking their
destination. Caris kept silent as well, as much, she suspected, from a desire
to remain quiet and have Antryg forget he was there until he was ready to take
action as from the fact that, for the moment, there was absolutely no action he
could take.
In
any case, Antryg seemed to know where he was going; but then, Antryg generally
did.
She
was still a little surprised when he drew rein in an elegant square; she had
been half expecting him to go to some shady acquaintance in the city's
underworld for shelter. But this was clearly one of the best neighborhoods of
the city. Tall townhouses of graceful, if narrow, proportion looked onto a
central square of park, where little girls in miniature gowns and corsets
walked under the eye of their governesses. Two other carriages were already
drawn up, unmarked and with closed curtains, their coachmen wearing plain
livery. Antryg grinned and shook his head as he helped Joanna down from the
high step.
"Hasn't
changed a bit, I see," he commented, as he led the way up the imposing
flight of marble steps. To the footman in flamingo livery who opened the door
he said, "Send someone down to hold our horses and tell Magister Magus
that the greatest dog wizard in the world is here to see him."
Without
batting an eye, the footman murmured, "Yes, sir," and stepped aside
to let them in.
"Magister
Magus?" Caris sounded scandalized as a second footman escorted them up a curving
staircase with graceful iron balustrades and into a drawing room opulently
furnished in rose, gold, and black. "That charlatan! That‑that
toadstone‑peddler!"
"What, haven't you been here before?" There was a twinkle of
deep mischief in Antryg's eyes. The only other occupant of the drawing room, a
handsome if zaftig woman, brutally corsetted into yards of lilac faille,
regarded them for a moment and then turned away with a sniff at the sight of
Caris' plain livery and Antryg's shabby coat, crystal beads, and bruised face.
Looking around her, Joanna noticed that, for all its rather pseudooriental
finery, its pink‑and‑black tufted carpets, and statues in rose
agate and alabaster of the Old Gods, everything in the drawing room was of the
highest quality and obviously expensive. Peddling toadstones, she surmised, was
clearly something that paid extremely well.
"Certainly not!" Caris sounded as if Antryg had asked him that
question about a leather bar. "This is . . ."
The word `disgusting' was obviously on his lips, but Antryg finished the
sentence with ". . . Far handsomer than your grandfather's, isn't
it?"
The young man's eyes narrowed. His voice was very quiet as he said,
"You should be the last one, wizard, to talk to me about my grandfather."
But for just a moment, Joanna had the feeling that a good deal of Caris'
annoyance stemmed from just that comparison.
After a few moments, the inner doors of the room opened to the sound of a
softly tapped bronze gong. In a vast waft of fragipani incense, another woman
emerged from them, also middle‑aged and dressed in what Joanna guessed to
be several thousand dollars worth of brocade and rosepoint lace. She leaned on
the arm of a slender, graceful man, whose black velvet robe bore as its sole
adornment an emblem, rather like an ankh, of silver literally crusted with
diamonds, which hung at his breast. This might have had a religious
significance, but Joanna, studying the room, was rather more inclined to
believe he'd chosen the combination to match his hair, which was black streaked
through with silver, like frosted ebony. His voice, as he spoke to the lady,
was low, trained, and extremely beautiful.
"So
you see, there is nothing for you to trouble yourself about, Countess,"
he was saying. "I have seen in your future a young man to whom you were
spiritually connected in a former life. Whether it is the young man who now
troubles you, or one more fit than he, only time and the gods will reveal. As
for your husband, do not worry. Only have faith, and these things will even
themselves out, as ripples do upon the lake of time."
Raising
one slender, white hand, adorned with a solitaire ruby the size of a man's
thumbnail, he made a sign of benediction over the Countess' head. She sank
gracefully to one knee, and kissed his hand; then, rising, she drew her veils
over her face and at least a foot and a half of high‑piled hair and was
gone.
Turning
to the other lady, Magister Magus said, "My dear Marquise." His eyes,
Joanna saw, were the clear green of alexandrite or peridot, deep‑set and
penetrating under silver‑shot black brows. "I can see that your
heart is troubled, that you are faced by a situation in which you are caught
between two alternatives. But a part of that trouble lies in the fact that
today is the Day of Ill‑Fortune for you, under the star of Antirbos. It
is not a day upon which any advice would bring you good. Go home, then, and to
your chamber. Eat only a light supper, drink a single glass of wine, and read
and meditate, thinking pure thoughts to combat the leaden influence of the
Black Star which weights your heart. If your grief is still with you on the
morrow, return to me then."
Joanna
privately considered this dismissal rather brusque‑after all, there was
no telling how long the poor Marquise had been waiting‑but, like the
Countess, she curtsied reverently and kissed the Magus' hand. "From
you," she murmured‑somewhat fatuously, Joanna thought “even silence
is good advice. It is all exactly as you say."
Soberly,
he conducted her to the door. In a rustle of patchouli and petticoats, she
descended the steps, while Magister Magus stood with his arms outspread to
touch the sides of the doorway, still as a dark image of ebony and diamond,
until the building vibrated softly with the closing of the outer doors.
Then,
with a billowing sigh, he pushed the doors to and turned. White teeth flashed
beneath his dark mustache. "Antryg, you old faker, where'd you spring
from?" He caught the tall wizard in his arms, and the two hugged one
another, laughing, like long‑parted brothers. "Greatest dog wizard
in the world indeed! A fine thing to say in the house of Magister
Magus!"
"Well,
you're the one who said I had it in me," Antryg retorted with a grin.
Then, soberly, he laid one hand on Magister Magus' shoulder, gestured with his
quizzing glass, and intoned, "As for your husband, fear not. I see in your
future a man, handsome and well‑favored, who will treat you with the
kindness that a lady of your goodness and exalted destiny deserves. The River
of Eternity flows past many shores, and fish of all descriptions glide in its
waters. Sometimes its currents are rough, sometimes they are smooth . . .
."
The
dog wizard laughed at the imitation with genuine delight. "It pays the
bills, my friend‑it pays the bills." He frowned suddenly. "But
what are you doing here? Don't tell me it's you they've been looking for?"
"Well,"
Antryg admitted, "they are looking for me—the Council for getting out of
the Tower, and the Regent for insulting him on the road, and the Church . . .
Why?"
Magister
Magus shook his head. "God only knows‑and maybe the Prince Regent.
But a week ago Sunday, every Council wizard in the town was dropped on by the
Witchfinders, backed up with the Prince's men. They went through the Yard like
reapers through corn. I was ready to run; but if I'd been caught running,
they'd have asked why." He shuddered, then chuckled ruefully. "Too
frightened to run. I'm told even Cerdic cleared out of town." He glanced
at Caris, still in his rust‑colored groom's livery, and back to Antryg
with one brow raised. "A bodyguard? A sasennan?"
"In
a manner of speaking." Antryg grinned. "I see trade hasn't been
hurt."
"You
call only two clients not hurt? Antryg, this place is generally full! They
arrive as soon as they wake up‑which is about three in the afternoon‑and
sit here until dark, just waiting to give me money for telling them what they
want to hear. I'm almost as popular as a first‑class hairdresser! This is
the first day anyone's come in a week. The Court's like a bunch of children
when someone's told nursie about the games behind the barn."
He
sighed, and all the verve seemed to go out of him, leaving him just a thin
little man in his elaborate robe and diamond chain, stressed, weary, and very
frightened.
Quietly, Antryg asked, "And has your magic faded?"
Magister Magus' head came up with a snap.
"Oh, yes," Antryg said softly. "As I could have been a
very good dog wizard, you could have been one of the finer Council wages, if
you had had the teaching."
The
dog wizard sniffed. "Much good my powers would have done me then," he
muttered. "And my teaching was good enough. But for God's sake, Antryg,
don't let that about! As I see it, my only defense against the Witchfinders is
that they think I'm a complete fake. That's enough to make a cat laugh, isn't
it?" he added bitterly. "I advertise powers they don't think I've got
to make my living, and you . . ." He frowned again. "But you were
always different, weren't you? How do you know . . ." His words caught a
little, then he went on, ". . . about what's been happening to my powers?"
"What?"
Antryg's voice was low in the incense‑laden hush of the overdecorated
room. "Three, four times in the last week and a half and twice or three
times before that?"
Magister
Magus was staring at him, as his own clients must stare when he revealed some
private secret, deduced, as Joanna had seen Antryg deduce them when he was
telling fortunes on the road, from the stain on a glove or the nervous shift of
the eyes.
"It's happened to all the wizards, Magus‑and to all people,
hasn't it?"
The dapper little man shook his head disbelievingly, "Last week the
Countess said . . . And the quarrels they've been having . . . Senseless,
stupid! One woman said she seemed to wake out of a trance, with a knife in her
hand, stealing toward her husband's room. Oh, she hates him, yes, but . . . she
feared she was going out of her mind . . . ."
"Perhaps she was," Antryg murmured. "Perhaps it was only
despair. It is sapping all life, all energy, drawing away both strength and
hope for . . . what? I don't know what it is or how it's being done or why. But
I know that it is being done. Do you know who's escaped the Church's net?"
"What?" Caught in the frightening vision of the fading of both
life and magic, it took Magus an instant to realize his friend had changed the
subject again.
"Rosamund? Aunt Min? Old Whitwell Simm? It's an interesting
thing," Antryg added, half to himself, "that they're making the
distinction not of who has powers, but who can use them effectively‑the
Council wages, in fact. I wonder whose decision that was?"
The dog wizard shook
his head. "God only knows," he repeated. "It must be all of
them, mustn't it? Because if any one of the great ones escaped, it would stand
to reason he'd rescue the others, wouldn't he?" He led the way through an
impressively carved ebony door into a perfectly ordinary dining room and
stripped off his velvet robe and pectoral as he went, to reveal beneath them
the neat, dark‑blue breeches, sober waistcoat, and white shirtsleeves and
stockings of a city professional.
"Yes,"
Antryg agreed mildly, taking the soft velvet weight of the robe to hold for
him, "so it would."
On
his way to the sideboard for a glass of the wine that stood in the cooler
there, the dog wizard paused and regarded Joanna curiously, then came back to
her, his dark brows drawn down slightly over his aquiline nose.
"Please
excuse me, my dear," he said after a moment's scrutiny. "I'm usually
good at guessing someone's trade, if they have one. That so‑called groom
of yours is obviously a sasennan, for instance." Caris, in the doorway,
stiffened a little, indignant. "Your demeanor clearly marks you as possessing
a trade, my child, and an income of your own, but I cannot for the life of me
determine what it is. Do you mind my asking?"
Confused
and slightly embarrassed, Joanna admitted, "Computer systems
designer."
"And upon that," Antryg took up, with a smile at Magus' baffled
look as he took the wineglass from Magus' hand and gave it to Joanna,
"hangs a tale indeed."
"Joanna."
Startled, she sat up in bed, her blond hair hanging in her eyes; the
faint scratching noise she had attributed to rats came again from the door. She
realized it was the more quiet alternative to knocking and scrambled through
the gauzy white curtains which acted as an effective mosquito netting in a
world whose wire‑drawing technique did not yet extend to window screens.
"Who is it?" Somewhere in the humid darkness beyond the tall windows,
a clock chimed three; down in the street, a distant, dreary peddler's voice
was singing a song about matches.
"Caris."
The moon had set long ago. In Angelshand there was no such thing as the
reflected glow of streetlights from outside‑there wasn't a streetlight in
the whole city‑and the only light in the room came from a tiny seed of
fire in an amber glass night lamp on the washstand. By its minute glow, she
located the nightrobe the Prince had included in her luggage, an amazing
confection of gauze and lace, and went to unbrace the chair from the door.
He was standing in the hall outside. The tall, narrow house was silent,
save for the soft, sonorous breathing of her host, which could be heard through
the open door of his bedchamber next to hers. Caris was dressed, as usual, in
the plain livery of a servant, but all of the costume he wore at the moment
were the breeches, shirt, and stockings, all creased as if he had slept in
them. His blond hair was ruffled from a pillow‑she remembered how he had
sat silently watching her and the two wages, as Antryg and Magus had exchanged
stories and reminiscences until the small hours, and had then followed Antryg
silently up to the attics to sleep.
"May
I come in?"
She
stepped aside. She knew that a month ago she would never have done so, even if
he had rescued her from an evil wizard's clutches‑but a month ago,
she hadn't killed two men.
And
oddly enough, in the last several days, a little to her own surprise, she had
come to like the sasennan. She had formerly been slightly afraid of that
silent, beautiful young man, distrustful of the scorn she was sure he felt for
her plainness and inexperience. But like Antryg, Caris took people exactly as
he found them; if he had not expected her to be able to climb walls and evade
armed troops, neither had he assumed she would fail. It was she, she realized,
who had held prejudiced expectations of him; but unlike Antryg, he wasn't the
sort of man you could apologize to for it.
"Joanna," he said softly, "I need your help."
She
said nothing. She knew‑or hoped, anyway‑that she wouldn't act like
one of those whining and putty‑willed movie heroines who took pots shots
at the hero because of a desperate attachment they had formed for the villain,
but she had hoped also that she wouldn't be asked to choose.
That,
too, she thought, had been a stupid hope. Whether she wanted to or not, she was
in a game for keeps; the riddles locked up behind Antryg's mad gray eyes and
lunatic smile affected the fates of both worlds, hers, perhaps, more than
Caris'. After a long moment, she found herself asking, "What do you want
me to do?"
From
his pocket, Caris brought out a creased scrap of paper. In the floating ochre
light she saw it was a map. Though one house was marked, there was no number‑that
was another modern innovation that Angelshand lacked.
"I
suspect Antryg is going out soon as it's light," the warrior said softly.
"He came to Angelshand for purposes of his own. I can't afford to lose him
now. But I must get in contact with Dr. Narwahl Skipfrag. He's the only friend
the Council has at Court, the only one to whom the Regent might listen. He's a
friend of my grandfather's‑a scientist, but one who believes there is
something more to magic than hocus‑pocus and dog wizardry."
He
held out the paper to her. She took it, stiff and heavy‑feeling in her
cold fingers.
"Tell
him what happened and where we are. Tell him that I need an introduction to the
Court and that I have Antryg Windrose, if not my prisoner, at least in my
sight. Tell him what happened to my grandfather."
She
set the paper on the washstand. "I'll tell him your grandfather
disappeared," she said slowly, "but to be literally truthful, I don't
know what happened to your grandfather‑and neither do you."
Caris'
mouth tightened a little, and the brown eyes in their wells of shadow seemed to
harden to agate.
Slowly,
a little gropingly, Joanna went on, "I don't know anything, really‑only
what I've been told, either by you or by Antryg. All I want to do is get the
hell out of this mess and go home . . . ." She broke off again, something
strange stirring in her heart, because it wasn't, entirely, all she wanted . .
. .
"And I tell you this," Caris said quietly. "That Antryg
stalked you, and Antryg went to that house where he left his mark upon the wall
to find you, and Antryg brought you here, for purposes of his own; and from
that I collect that, unless we find my grandfather, unless we free the Council
from persecution, you will never return to your home. Do you understand
that?"
After a long moment Joanna sighed, and said softly, "Yes."
Caris stood for a time, looking down at his hands where they rested over
the hilt of his scabbarded sword, thrust through the sash tied incongruously
over his servant livery. Then, not so harshly, as if he, too, were fumbling for
the right words, he said, "I am not asking you to do him harm. Whether
harm comes to him . . . it could from any number of sources. But I must know
what he plans in Angelshand and I must not let him out of my sight. You are the
only one I can count on. May I do so?"
Knowing he was right, wretchedly glad that it was no worse, Joanna nodded
miserably. With a deep bow, Caris faded into the darkness of the hall. She
stood still for a few moments with her hands resting on the satiny wood of the
doorframe, wishing she knew, if not what to do, at least what to feel. Though
the attic stairs ran close to her room, she did not hear his soundless tread as
he ascended.
As Caris had guessed they might be, both he and Antryg were gone from the
house by the time Joanna woke. She had breakfast with Magister Magus, during
which a solemn manservant in a truly startling livery of rose‑hued plush
announced that the Marquise of Inglestoke had arrived and awaited audience, and
left him probing philosophically for the pursuit of his trade.
Although
Antryg's spell of languages allowed her to understand and be understood, Joanna
had no idea of the written word. Caris, aware of that, had drawn his map to
Narwahl Skipfrag's house on Cheveley Street in careful detail, and she had no
difficulty finding the place. It was about two miles from the square where
Magister Magus had his lodgings, through crowded streets of shop fronts,
offices, and squares of tenement lodgings where coster‑mongers yelled
their wares from handcarts and beggars whined to the passers‑by; but
having walked almost eighty miles in the last week, Joanna found the distance
no concern.
It
was only when she was within half a block of the place that she saw that two
sasenna guarded its door.
She
halted on the pavement, looking up the short flight of granite steps to the
narrow frontage of the house. She shifted her purse on her shoulder, slipped
the map from the pocket of her voluminous skirt and checked it, and counted
doors from the corner‑but in her heart, she knew the guarded door was
Narwahl Skipfrag's. He was a friend of the wizards; the black livery of the
sasenna was of the soft samurailike cut of the Church sasenna, and she could
see the sun emblem of the Sole God like gory flowers upon their shoulders.
For
their benefit, she looked up and down the street again, sighed, and shook her
head, then walked away down the flagway, still gravely studying her map.
At the corner, she turned and shoved the map into her purse. This was a
larger street, bustling with foot and carriage traffic and redolent of horse
droppings, garbage, and flies. Across the lane a furniture mender had moved
most of his shop out onto the flagway to take advantage of the forenoon sun; a
noodle shop run by a couple of braided‑haired Old Believers released
clouds of steam into the air and Joanna shuddered, thinking what the heat must
be like inside. She walked along the pavement until she found the narrow mouth
of the alley and, with a slight feeling of trepidation, picked up her skirts
and turned into that blue and stinking canyon.
As
she had suspected from the layout of Magister Magus' house, the houses of this
row all had little yards behind them‑by the smell of it, with the privy
up against the back fence. Garbage choked the unpaved lane; nameless liquids
reduced the dirt underfoot to nauseous slime. Against the faded boards of the
fences, the red wax of the Church's seal stood out brilliantly and saved her
even the trouble of counting back gates.
She
glanced up and down the alley and put her eye to a knothole in the rickety
gate. There was no one in the narrow little yard, but, as on the gate, she
could see the Church's seal had been affixed to the back door at the top of its
little flight of steps. She tested the gate, pulled her Swiss Army knife from
her purse, and slipped it under the seal, breaking it from the wood; then she
pushed the gate softly open and went in.
The
house stood silent. Empty, she thought‑but in that case, why post guards?
The
only friend the wizards had at Court, she thought. The Regent had turned back,
returning to Angelshand, perhaps‑going to visit Cerdic, certainly . . .
Caris had said he was growing increasingly paranoid . . . .
She was aware of her heart beating achingly as she mounted the steps and
leaned over to look through the window beside the door.
She saw a library, shadowy and barely visible giving an impression of
comfortable, old‑fashioned chairs and a heavy chimney breast with carving
over it. No fire‑but then in summer there wouldn't be.
Joanna took a deep breath, formulated her cover story about a dying
sister who must see Dr. Skipfrag or perish, and thrust her knife under the wax
of the seal. It cracked clear; she found her wallet, extracted a credit card,
and used the thin, hard plastic to raise the latch.
The house was empty. She knew it, standing in the brown dimness of the
hall. Carefully, she untied and removed her low‑heeled shoes, cursed her
yards of petticoat as she gathered them in hand to keep from knocking over
furniture, and moved as soundlessly as she could along the wall toward the
stairs.
In the bedroom on the second floor, she found a ruffled bed, the covers
flung back but the creased sheets long cold. A drawer was open in the top of
the highboy; peering into it, Joanna could see that something had been taken
hastily from it scattering cravats and gloves. On the marble top of the highboy
a few grains of black powder were scattered, and the experience of the last
week had taught Joanna the look and smell of oldfashioned black gunpowder.
Silently, she ascended the next flight of steps.
From uncurtained windows, a whitish light suffused the attic; the trapped
heat of days made the room stuffy. The smell of old blood nearly turned her
sick. It was splattered everywhere, turned dark brown now against the white
paint of the walls and the pale plaster of the ceiling; little droplets of it
had dripped back onto the pooled and rivuleted floor. For some reason, the
sight of it brought back to her the memory of how hot the sasennan's blood had
been, splattering against her face; she shut her teeth tightly against a clench
of nausea.
The
calm part of her that could analyze program glitches at three in the morning
and that told her it was stupid to fall in love with a middleaged wizard in
another universe asked, What the hell could have caused this?
Curious,
she took a step forward. She drew back her stockinged foot immediately as it
touched something sharp. She saw it was a small shard of broken glass. When she
bent to pick it up, she saw there were others, sparkling in the wan light on
the bloodstained floor and, she noticed, embedded here and there in the walls,
as well. She held the shard up to the light. It was edged with old blood.
With
a nervous shake of her hand she threw it from her. She didn't know why,
but there was something in the touch of it that filled her with loathing
and with fear. There wasn't a great deal of glass‑not more than one
smashed beaker's worth‑but it was widely scattered. Picking her way
carefully, she crossed the room to the laboratory tables beneath the dormer windows
on the other side.
It
had been a long time since she'd taken her Fundamentals of Electricity course
in college, but she recognized most of what she saw there primitive cell‑batteries
with their lined‑up dishes of water, a vacuum pump, and crudely insulated
copper wire. An iron‑and‑copper sparking generator sat in the midst
of a tangle of leads, and a glass Volta pistol gleamed faintly in the sunlight
on a corner of the table. Other objects whose use she did not know lay among
the familiar, archaic equipment convoluted glass tubing and little dishes of
colored salts. At the back of the litter sat a seamless glass ball,
silvered over with what looked like mercury, gleaming evilly in the diffuse
light. Joanna shrank from touching it, repelled without knowing why. Above the
table, in the middle of the whitewashed wall, was the fresh scar of a bullet
hole; beside her hand, the wooden table's edge was also freshly scarred, as if
someone had smashed a glass vessel against it in a rage.
Her first thought was, Antryg would know what happened.
Her
second, as she heard the soft jostle of an unwary step of booted feet somewhere
in the house below her was, I have no line of retreat
They'll
have seen the broken‑off seals, she thought, even as she scanned the low ceiling for a
trap door to the roof. There was none. The windows might have been made to open
once upon a time, but they had long since been barred to prevent the ingress of
thieves. She thought, There's a wardrobe in the bedroom‑they might
pass me by and I could get out behind them . . . She had to fight
with everything in her to walk, silently and carefully, instead of
running to the stairs.
It
cost her her escape. The two sasenna and the man in the gray garb of a
Witchfinder had just reached the second floor as she came silently around the
corner of the narrow stair.
CHAPTER
XIV
"Where are your
friends, girl?"
Joanna
did not look up. The Witchfinder Peelbone's eyes, like his voice, were thin,
pale, and very cold and filled her with the panicky sensation that he knew
everything about her; she kept her gaze down on her hands, which lay like two
detached white things on the grime‑impregnated table top before her. She
could feel her heart hammering against her ribs beneath the blue striped cotton
of her boned bodice and the crawl of panic‑sweat down her back, but some
small voice in her mind kept repeating, Don't say anything. He can use
anything that you say, but he can't use your silence.
"We
know you have them." She heard, rather than saw him rise from his big,
carved chair on the opposite side of the table and heard the rustle of his
clothes as he came around toward her. The room was windowless and lit by
sconces backed by metal reflectors, one on either side of his chair; his shadow
passed in front of one. When he stood beside her in the heat of the room, she
could smell his body and the sweat in his clothes. She knew he was going to
touch her; but even so, she flinched when he seized her hair and forced her to
look up at him. "That's an expensive dress," he said quietly, and she
hated the feel of his hand moving in her hair. "And your hair is clean.
You spent last night somewhere. Answer me!"
His
hand tightened, twisting at her hair unmercifully. She had forgotten from her
grade school days how painful it was to have one's hair pulled. She forced
herself to look up into that narrow, handsome face, with the eyes of colorless,
austere brown under colorless brows, gritting her teeth against the
wrenching pain.
If
I don't say A, he can't say B, she thought desperately. She had always used silence
as a weapon in arguments and had found it an effective one against everyone
from her mother to Gary. There was a spy novel, she remembered, wherein someone
had sat through hours of interrogation in silence . . . .
She
remembered what Caris had told her about the Inquisition's methods and felt
sick with fear at the thought.
The grip released suddenly, pushing her away with force enough to rock
her on the backless wooden stool where she sat. She caught her balance and
looked up at the Witchfinder again, trying desperately not to feel like a
sulky, defiant child, trying not to think beyond the moment. The cold eyes
stared into hers; she was reminded of a shark's eyes, with no more humanity in
them than two round circles of metal.
"Such silence can't spring from innocence, I think," Peelbone
said softly. "Very good‑we know you are guilty of something. The
only question is‑what?"
She remembered him saying, We can't afford these waters
muddied. She would ultimately be guilty, she knew, of whatever was
convenient for them, even as they would sooner have killed Caris, back at
Kymil, rather than risk him cluttering up their case with truth. When she said
nothing, she saw the long, bracketing lines around his mouth move a little,
like snakes, with irritation.
He raised one white forefinger. Joanna heard the guard behind her stool
step forward and didn't resist when she was pulled to her feet; she was
fighting a desperate terror, wondering how much they knew already and
whether, if they searched her purse, they'd be able to backtrack to Magister
Magus' house from Caris' map. She thanked the guardian god of wizards that
she'd put the map in her purse instead of her pocket there was so much other
junk in there that it could easily be passed over.
The guard held her arms behind her, a hateful grip and terrifyingly
strong. She expected Peelbone to strike her, as he had struck Caris back in
Kymil. All her life she had managed to avoid physical violence of any kind, and
the very unfamiliarity of being touched and handled added to her dread. But the
Witchfinder studied her in silence for a few moments, then almost casually
reached forward and ripped open her bodice, revealing the thin, sweat‑soaked
muslin of the shift beneath.
"Child," he said quietly, "if I had you stripped naked and
thrown into the room where the rapists are kept chained, it would not in any
way impair your ability to tell us about your friends an hour later." His
disinterested eyes moved to the grinning guard. "Now take her away."
It
took everything she had to bite back the desperate impulse to cry Wait . . .
as the guard pushed her out of the room and into the torchlit hall.
Her jaw set, she kept her eyes straight ahead of her, forcing herself not to
see the leers of the two other guards out in the hall or hear their comments;
she saw only the smokestains on the stone arches of the low ceiling and how the
shadows of the torches jerked and quavered in the drafts that came down from
the narrow stairways to the guardrooms above. The St. Cyr fortress, at the tip
of the island which the city of Angelshand had long since outgrown, was an
ancient one, and its very walls stank of the lives that had rotted to their ends
there.
The
cell to which they took her was a dank and tiny stone closet that smelled like
a privy. By the light of the torch that burned smokily in a holder near the low
door, Joanna could see that it had only one other human occupant, not counting
roaches of a size and arrogance to make the San Serano orthoptera blush with
shame‑an old woman, wearing the remains of the black robes of a mage or
an Old Believer, who sat huddled in the corner as Joanna was pushed inside and
the heavy wooden door closed behind her. The woman barely looked up as the
heavy bolts were shot outside. Joanna, trembling, stood for a few moments at
the top of the short flight of steps down into the room.
I
can't cry now, she
told herself desperately, her throat suddenly gripped by a surge of betraying
pain and her eyes hot. It would weaken her, she knew; unless she kept keyed to
this point, she could never face the Witchfinder in silence for the second
interview she knew was coming. But neither Antryg nor Caris knew where she was‑and
even if they did, they would be unable to rescue her. I never wanted
this, she thought, I never asked for this! I was hauled here . .
. .
Antryg had said, You are in this world under my protection . .
. .
Her
legs felt weak as she descended the few steps. Raised in the protection of a
technological society and under the enormous bulwark of Constitutional Law,
flawed though it might be, she had never before found herself in the position
of being so utterly without recourse. Her aloneness terrified her. Even if she
told them everything they wanted to know and betrayed Antryg, Caris and poor,
cowardly, charming Magister Magus to torture and death, she had the horrible
certainty that it would not help her. She could not explain how she herself
came to this world. She was their accomplice against her will. She had done
murder . . . .
You
didn't panic then, she told herself grimly, and it saved you. For God's sake don't panic
now.
A
faint snore made her look down. The old woman, thin and fragilelooking, was
curled up in the corner, sleeping with the light sleep of the very aged. As she
watched, Joanna shuddered to see an enormous roach emerge from a crack in the
stone wall and make its unconcerned way down the old woman's shoulder. Her hand
cringing from the task, Joanna leaned down and swept the thing away with such
violence that it shot across the tiny cell and hit the opposite wall with an
audible crack.
The
old woman's faded blue eyes opened and blinked up at her under lashes gone
white as milk. "She was only walking, after all," she said in a
reproving voice. And, when Joanna blinked, confused, the old lady shook her
head and gestured with one trembling finger at the other wall, where the
enormous insect was just disappearing through a crack. "Not doing
harm."
Joanna swallowed queasily.
"They don't eat much," the old lady added, "and nor do I‑so
it's not that they're taking aught from me." She squinted up at Joanna's
sickened face. "Were you raised in privies, likely you'd be loathly,
too."
"Sorry," Joanna said and then, knowing what the old lady
obviously expected, she turned toward the departed cockroach.
"Sorry," she said, more loudly, and the old lady nodded her
satisfaction.
For a long moment, those pale, ancient eyes looked up at her in silence;
rather gingerly, Joanna gathered up her skirts and sat in the filthy straw
beside her. "I'm Joanna Sheraton," she said, and the old woman
nodded.
"Minhyrdin the Fair they call me. Are they arresting the dog wizards
now, too? For you're none of the Council's."
Joanna shook her head. "No‑at least, I don't know. I'm not a
mage at all."
The old woman clucked to herself. "Never say so, child; they'll put
you in with the street girls or the murderesses, instead of in those cells
built to hold the mageborn. They took away my knitting . . . ." She looked
fussily around her, as if half expecting to find it hidden under the straw.
Joanna shivered and paranoically checked the straw around her skirts, hating
the thought that one of the old lady's pet roaches might be crawling in her
several layers of petticoat.
You are going to be raped, tortured, and killed, she thought, and you're
worrying about bugs in your skirts? Tears of wretchedness and fear lay very
close to the surface, but she couldn't keep from smiling with wry irony at her
own capacity for the trivial.
"How did you come here, then?" the old lady asked, as if they'd
met by chance at a Mendelssohn recital.
Joanna folded her arms around her knees, finding a curious easing of her
fears in talking. "I was trying to see Dr. Narwahl Skipfrag," she
said. "But I‑I think he's dead, isn't he? Someone was killed
there." She shivered, remembering that gruesome scene. "In the attic‑there
was blood splattered everywhere, even on the ceiling. That must have been the
arteries. It must have happened days ago but the place still stank of it. The
Witchfinder's men . . ." She swallowed. The bruises their grip had left
were beginning to ache on her arms.
"It
was‑it was done by magic, wasn't it? There was broken glass scattered on
the floor and embedded in the walls . . . ."
"Ah,"
Minhyrdin the Fair whispered. She folded her little hands and rocked back and
forth; the few wisps of her thinning white hair swished against her sunken and
withered cheeks. "So," she murmured to herself, "he's at his
tricks again."
"Who?" asked Joanna shakily, looking over at her.
"Suraklin."
She stopped rocking, but frowned off into the distance, as if trying to
remember something. "Suraklin," she said again. "The Dark Mage.
He'd call them up, spirits, elementals‑hate and rage and destruction‑and
clothe them in what flesh he chose. He'd cast a handful of pebbles into the
whirlwind; and like a whirlwind, they'd grow, till they ripped the flesh from
the bone‑or fling a handful of water into it, and those drops would
multiply, whirling and tearing, till they drowned a man . . . ."
With
horrible clarity, Joanna remembered the freshly chipped edge of the wooden
table and the nearness to hand of the glass beakers. Easy enough, she thought,
appalled, to seize and smash a vessel and fling the shards . . . .
Joanna whispered, "Suraklin is dead."
"Oh,
yes." The woman began rocking again, her little hands folded on her knees
and her tiny, pointed chin resting on the knotted fingers. "Dead . . .
dead . . . for all that poor boy of his drove himself mad swearing he wasn't.
But where's he been, eh? Just tell me that."
"Antryg?"
asked Joanna, reflecting that Antryg wasn't the only one to be disordered in
his wits.
"No!"
The old woman looked at her impatiently. "We all know where he's been,
meddling and wandering. Suraklin. He's been dead these twenty‑five years,
but where's he been, if he hasn't, eh?" And she resumed her rocking once
more, like a lonely child. When she spoke, her voice had the curious, far‑off
note of a child's telling a story or a dream. "He wanted to live forever,
Suraklin; he hated the thought that he'd die. He ruled all those around him,
twisted them all to his will. But he knew he'd die, and it would all fall
apart. All fall apart . . .
Joanna
frowned, remembering what Antryg had said in the moonlight of the Devil's road.
"Is that what happened twenty‑five years ago, then?"
"Twenty‑five
years ago it was," the old woman murmured, "And the Prince Hieraldus,
that was so handsome, and the Archmage, and all the Council of Wizards riding
south, with the Witchfinders in arms because they'd been claiming for years it
never existed, and the Church lending its hand to us . . . . Ah, those were the
days," she sighed. "Terrible days. The Church and the Witchfinders,
they gave us help, but they never forgave us, they never forgave."
No,
thought Joanna. How could they, after years of denying your existence and
then having to ask your help? She rested her forehead on her knees, her
tired mind trying to fathom the strange whirlpool of darkness into which she
had been drawn‑kidnap, and flight; the agonizing kick of the pistol
against her wrists and the spurt blood on her face; the crawling abominations
in the meadow; Antryg's eyes in the wan gray afternoon light . . .
It had been on her lips a dozen times in the last week to ask him, as she
had asked that first morning, Why?
I can't tell you the truth and I don't wish to lie to you. I've done that
enough.
He had stalked her at San Serano‑he had come to Gary's, knowing
somehow that she was there.
How? She wondered. He had said, I have always had the misfortune
to be a good guesser.
How had he known about the abominations? What had happened to Caris'
grandfather the Archmage, who had vanished into the darkness of the Void with
Antryg and who had not emerged from the other side? What did he know about that
queer and terrible deadness, that sapping of the life of the world?
She wondered if it would be easier if the mere thought of him didn't
shake the bones of her body.
You are in this world under my protection . . . .
As if a blanket of terror had been flung over her head, black darkness
fell upon the cell, and the air outside in the corridor was split by a scream
of such dreadful agony that Joanna felt as if her liver and lights were trying
to leap out her throat.
A second scream followed the first, footfalls thundered, and somewhere a
man cried out in terror. The door shook as a running guard blundered into it
with a rattle of weaponry; involuntarily, Joanna clutched at the dark bundle of
rags beside her, clinging to the frail bones beneath, her heart pounding in her
ears so that the hammer of the blood almost sickened her. As if in a nightmare,
through a shimmering darkness, she thought she could dimly see the torch,
still burning, though its flame was like a wan scrap of white silk,
illuminating nothing. Other voices sounded in the corridor, shouts of terror
and alarm; under the screaming, Joanna thought the whole St. Cyr fortress was
up in arms, blundering in that terrible darkness.
Toward
what?
"Joanna!"
Cumulative
stress, terror, and weariness broke inside her; she flung herself to her feet
with a sob and threw herself to the door. In blind darkness, she groped at the
barred Judas . . . "Antryg, get me out of here!"
"Get
back from the window. I can't touch the door‑it's spelled‑put your
hand up‑gently . . . ."
Through
the rusted iron of the peephole's crosspiece, she felt the prick of a sword
against her fingers. Sliding her hand carefully up the blade, she felt a metal
ring with a key on it. Fumblingly, she groped at the side of the door she
thought she remembered the keyhole was on. It wasn't. Another scream rent the
palpitating air, raising the hair on the back of her neck.
"What is it?" she gasped.
"It's
a Screamer, a terror‑spell‑it's not going to last and neither is
the darkness, so hurry!"
A
splinter ran into her questing fingers‑she disregarded it, guided the key
into the lock, and wrenched the heavy mechanism over. Some how that deep,
extraordinary voice defused the dread of the dark, reduced the cries of grief
and anguish to what they were‑noises‑and made her expel her breath
in a shaky laugh. "I thought you couldn't use magic . . ."
"I
can't‑this is courtesy of Magister Magus, and he's probably taken to his
heels by this time."
She
slipped through the half‑opened door and felt the familiar strength of a
bony arm in the worn velvet sleeve around her waist, dragging her along the
corridor in the blackness. Already, shapes were coming faintly clear to her
eyes‑men running here and there, the torches burning like shreds of
fluttering cloth. Another scream rent the air, horrifying with all the
despairing pain of torture and grief.
"We
can't . . ." she began, trying to stop, remembering old Minhyrdin the
Fair.
"Yes
we can. Now run!" Inexorably, he dragged her on. She could see him dimly
now, the beaky face colorless in its tangled frame of graying brown hair, the
spectacles beginning to catch the renewing light of the torches. He held a
sword in his free hand, undoubtedly taken from one of the blinded guards. His
longer strides made her stumble; he hauled her up a twisting spiral of stone
stair and through a guardroom that seemed filled with men blundering about,
weapons in their hands, not certain which way to go‑shadows against a
deeper darkness, their voices a clamor of terror and uncertainty.
"It's
a curse!" "It's the mages!" "The Archmage . . ."
"Where's it coming from?" "This way, you fools!"
Feeling as if she fled in a dream, Joanna gasped, "The others . . ."
"They'll
have to do what they can!" They were in the open court, the darkness
mingling into a raw and clammy fog that chilled her to the bone through her
ripped dress. Parties of men were running everywhere, pikes and swords and
crossbows in their hands; but with belated caution they were already running
down toward the court.
The last scream died, and the darkness faded, just as they reached the
gate.
Antryg dashed straight to the sentry in the gatehouse, pointed back
across the court, and gasped, "In the guardroom . . ."
The man, involuntarily, turned his head to look, and the wizard's knobby
fist, weighted with the pommel of his sword, smashed across his temple, even as
the two guards who had been beside the gate came running toward him. Antryg
caught the first man's descending halberd on the back of his blade, wrenching
it up and stepping in under it to kick the man full, hard, and agonizingly in
the groin; he was turning toward the second before the first man even hit the
pavement. The courtyard behind them echoed with the clatter of boots‑city
guards, Church sasenna, and, Joanna saw, the Regent's men also, in their gold‑braided
black uniforms.
As if they'd rehearsed it, the instant the guard in the gatehouse had
fallen, Joanna sprang to pull the pistol from his belt. It was doublebarreled.
She knew, if she tried to hit Antryg's current opponent, she would just as
likely hit Antryg, so she swung around and fired at the closest of the black‑clothed
sasenna rushing toward them out of the fog in the court. Nobody fell, but the
lead men flinched and ducked; Antryg was beside her, his blade bloodied to the
hilt, shouting, "RUN!"
She gathered up her skirts and ran. She was aware that he was not with
her, but couldn't look back‑only at the gray arch of fog ahead of her,
beyond the stone, shadow, and portcullis ropes. It was as if she ran in a
dream, adrenaline scorching her veins and her heart hammering at her that she
had to escape‑that after this, the consequences of capture would be
unthinkable. .
She
smelled the stagnant little moat that blocked the landward side of St. Cyr from
the rest of the old island part of the town; her stockinged feet thumped
hollowly on the silly little wooden drawbridge. Ahead of her, buildings bulked
in the fog, old‑fashioned architecture and slanted roofs mingling with
the squarer lines of buildings a century or more old and already fallen into
decay. Looking back, she caught the flash of Antryg's descending sword blade in
the gatehouse and saw him pelting toward her through the shadows, a last
frantic run as the portcullis, its counterweight ropes slashed, rumbled
downward . . . .
Joanna
felt as if her heart had stopped. Had it been a free drop, he could never have
made it, but the geared wheels, even rolling loose, slowed the fall of those
tons of iron just enough. He flung himself down and rolled, the weighted iron
teeth of the grillwork gate grinding into their slots inches behind his body.
Then he was on his feet and running toward her again, the ridiculous skirts of
his too‑big coat billowing behind him like a cloak. His face, she
noticed in the fog, was as white as his shirt ruffle.
Men
were crowding up against the portcullis, trying vainly to lift it without the
counterweights. Pistols were thrust through the lowered grille; there was a
deafening roar and a stench of black powder as Antryg reached her and caught
her arm. Together they made a dash across the small, cobbled square. The rough
paving‑stones gouged her feet and the puddles soaked and chilled them
through her thin stockings, but she scarcely noticed. Three men started to run
down the steps of a tavern toward them, waving sticks. From the portcullis
behind them, Joanna heard the whap of a crossbow firing and from the corner of
her eye saw the bolt of it bury itself with hideous force in the tavern's wall.
The three men flung themselves flat, and Antryg dragged her into the noisome
mouth of the nearest alley.
Voices
were echoing behind them in the square, dimmed and muffled by the fog, which
was growing thicker, drifting clammily between the somber buildings and
limiting their visibility to a few feet. Holding up her skirts with one hand
and thanking all the Fates that watch over heroines that she'd had, by this
time, plenty of practice fleeing in petticoats, Joanna stumbled along after
Antryg as he walked rapidly down the slimy mud of the lane. The first jet of
strength that had carried her over the drawbridge was fading. She felt weak and
suddenly cold.
He
ducked through a back gate into a narrow yard which, by the smell of it, was
used promiscuously as a toilet facility by the entire overcrowded tenement it
served, led her across it, through a dark doorway into what had once been the
lower hall of some great house and was now the black and gloomy bottom floor of
tenement lodgings, and out again through the front door onto the street. The
fog seemed, if anything, thicker there. Holding her arm, he led her across a
narrow, cobbled street, dodging aside as the shape of a horse‑drawn
vehicle of some kind loomed suddenly out of the gray mists, and then into
another alley beyond. She heard voices shouting from somewhere and the clash
of weapons, and all she could think was, We can't get caught. We can't get
caught . . . .
"Here."
Antryg stopped. It seemed they were alone in a tiny bubble of solitude and the
stink of rotting fish which permeated the mud underfoot. He seemed to see for
the first time her torn bodice and disheveled hair, and a small, upright line
that could have been pain or anger appeared between his brows. "Did they
hurt you?"
Joanna shook her head. "Just threatened real good."
A
corner of his mouth quirked at that, but his eyes remained grave, as if he
guessed that, had she been hurt, she would have been too ashamed to admit it.
"You're sure?"
Why this concern for her true feelings should make her throat hurt with
the urge to cry again, she didn't know‑possibly because he was the first
not to take her brusque, "I'm fine," at face value, possibly simply
because she was cold, frightened, and overwrought. She nodded, and he seemed to
accept that. He pulled a tattered silk handkerchief from his pocket and wiped
his swordblade with it, then sheathed it in the scabbard that was thrust, as
Caris bore his when battle was at hand, through a sash at his waist. It made a
sharp angle under the voluminous skirts of his coat. He took the pistol gently
from her hand, checked it, and handed it back; then he stood for a moment
looking down at her.
She thought he had been going to say something else, but he did not. It
was coming to her that she was still alive and, at least for this second and
possibly the next two, safe. It was against considerable odds that they both
weren't lying dead in the shadows of the St. Cyr gatehouse. He put his hand up
to touch her hair; then, as if half‑doubtful of the wisdom of his action,
bent and kissed her lips.
And he was right, she thought, to doubt. The kiss was probably intended
to last much less time than it did. On the road their bantering had
occasionally edged on flirtation, but he had been careful never to be alone
with her, and for this she was, in a way, grateful. But now she was only aware
of her own desperate need to hold him, all the terrors and dread of the last
six hours swelling to bursting point within her, tightening her grip around his
ribcage, the lock of the pistol she still held pressing awkwardly against
his back, until she could feel every edge of shirt‑ruffle and every
button through her sweat‑soaked shift and into her icy flesh. She was
aware of his body against hers, holding her up as her knees shook, of the
softness of the worn velvet under her hands, of the warmth of his breath on her
cheek, and of her passionate desire to press her face to his shoulder and weep.
She
tore her mouth free of his. She found she was breathing hard, trembling even as
he was. She thought, This is crazy! But their eyes lingered, with a desperate
knowledge that both of them were well aware verged on madness. Then he caught
her hand and led her swiftly in the murk.
"Nothing
quite so useful as a good fog," he said after a few moments. "They
said that the Archmage Elsheiyin used to summon fog by combing her hair, but
most people need water of some kind. Suraklin could do it with water dipped up
in his hand. Mind you, it isn't easy to summon one this early in the
year."
"Did Magister Magus do this?"
He
shook his head. "No, this is mine. Tinkering with the weather is
relatively safe because it's so difficult to detect. Magus is probably home
under his bed by this time. No mage likes to get too close to St. Cyr, and he
had to be almost up under the gatehouse to cast the darkness and the screams.
To do him credit, he stayed much longer than I'd have thought."
"What
would you have done, if he hadn't agreed to help you?" Joanna asked, as
they dodged across what appeared, in the clammy mists, to be a small courtyard,
where the ghostly forms of men and women crowded in house doorways around
mephitic braziers of coals amid a strong stench of smoke and gin.
"Given
him a case of itches that would have worn out his fingernails for
scratching," Antryg replied promptly, and Joanna, in spite of herself, the
danger, and the fact that a moment ago she'd been perilously close to exhausted
tears, was shaken with the giggles.
"We've
got to get off the island," he added. "It's small enough that the
Church's soldiers and the Regent's can quarter it between them. I was surprised
to see the Regent's men; he must have returned to Angelshand. They'll know
these alleys better than the Church sasenna will." He stopped, turning his
head to listen in the fog, his hand tightening on Joanna's arm. She sensed
shapes moving against the darker bulk of an almost unseen building and felt a
sudden qualm of terror of being caught in the open, fog‑cloaked though it
might be. It was late afternoon, and the vapors were suffused with a thin gray
light; shapes within them shifted, dark and indistinct . . . .
Silently,
Antryg melted back into a doorway to let them pass. Like the faint drip of
water, their footsteps tapped away into the distance. Above the stench of
greasy cooking and stale urine in the doorway around them, Joanna could smell
the murky river somewhere close by. She shivered, the pistol feeling suddenly
heavy in her grip. The wizard's hand was very warm where he patted her back
through the thin, sweat‑damp muslin of her gown. Like a pair of ghosts,
they stepped from the doorway again and drifted through the vaporous dimness
toward the chuckle of the water. It occurred to Joanna that, whatever the
reason Antryg had kidnapped her‑if he had kidnapped her‑she seemed
to have thrown in her lot entirely with him now. There was no longer whatever
alternative course Caris could offer. If she—
In
the darkness of an alley to their right, a sword clanked on stone. Antryg
whirled, his hand going to his sword hilt. At the same instant, Joanna saw in
the black, eyeless socket of a doorway to their right the shadows solidify into
the shapes of men with swords. She hadn't even the span of an intaken breath to
cry a warning. Antryg, alerted by some sixth sense that he'd walked into
crossfire, was already turning back as the weighted pommel of a sword cracked
down on the back of his head.
In a telescoping instant of time, Joanna was perfectly well aware that
she was unable to carry him as he crumpled down against her; she was also aware
that she had only one shot in her pistol and that, if she fired it now into the
thick of the half‑dozen sasenna closing in on them from the mouth of the
alley opposite, she might buy herself the time to flee. Instead, she swung
around on the man in the doorway as he pointed his crossbow down at the
wizard's crumpled body on the wet cobblestones and cried, "Don't!"
Iron hands seized her from behind, dragging her back against an iron body
as hard fingers wrenched the pistol from her grip. She knew it was useless to
struggle, so she didn't. Looking up, she saw the red‑haired sasennan
who'd caught her at the posthouse on the Kymil road, the captain of the
Regent's guards.
"It's them, my
lord." The captain of the prince's sasenna spoke softly in the black arch
of the stone doorway. "We brought them here as you said, instead of back
to St. Cyr."
"Very
good, Joris," the Regent's shrill, edgy voice replied. "Keep the men
within call." A ripple of gold flashed in those inky shadows. Then the
Prince stepped into the room, into the dim circle of the charcoal brazier's
softly pulsing glow. "And I warn you, wizard," he added, his words
brittle as chipped glass, "at the first sign of trouble from you, Kanner
has orders to kill the girl."
Thanks,
Joanna thought
tiredly, fighting tears of sheer exhaustion and fear. The guard who stood
beside the chair of ebony and ormolu where she had been tied didn't even move
his head at the sound of his own name; his dark eyes wavered from her no more
than did the barrel of his pistol. His uniform was crimson, though he moved
with the quick‑footed grace of the inevitably black‑clothed
sasenna. His face was a mass of scars and old angers. Joanna looked away from
him, shivering. She could not seem to stop shaking with cold, wretchedness, and
fear. She felt, as Antryg had once said, a weak longing for the relative safety
of the roachinfested cell in the St. Cyr fortress. At least, the Witchfinders
were bounded by a sort of law‑if nothing else, their self‑deceptive
righteousness might keep them from the baser forms of cruelty. Looking into
the Prince's mad eyes, she knew that what he would do would be done without
compunction, for his own pleasure.
Here‑wherever
this small stone chamber was, at the foot of its twisting stair‑they
were entirely in his power.
She
had thought Antryg was still unconscious, chained by his wrists between the two
pillars which supported the central groinings of the ceiling. But he raised his
head groggily at the Prince's words, sweat shining along jaw muscles tense with
pain. "The girl has nothing to do with this, Pharos," he said.
"She's only my servant. She knows nothing of any of this. I forced her to
accompany me."
"And
took two cuts with my whip out of indifference to her fate?" The Prince
walked slowly over to Joanna and caught her chin with one small, black‑gloved
hand as she tried to shrink away. His pale‑blue gaze traveled over her
throat and half‑bared bosom; his mouth widened a little, but what was in
his eyes could never have been called a smile. Terrified and loathing him,
Joanna felt, as she had with the Witchfinder, that her best defense lay in
silence. She met his eyes; it was the Prince who looked quickly away.
He turned back to Antryg. The wizard had gotten his feet under him,
taking some of the strain of his unsupported weight from his stretchedout
arms. His face was chalky with exhaustion and running with sweat in the hot
closeness of the little room; Joanna could see the shift of his knuckles where
he held the manacle chains, trying to ease the cut of the bracelets in his
wrists. The chains were twisted through with thin red silk ribbon,
incongruously gray‑spell‑cord, she recognized from Magister Magus'
description. More of it was twined around the ropes that held her own wrists to
the arms of the chair.
Though he was weaving a little on his feet, Antryg's gray eyes were calm.
Through his open shirt, Joanna could see the steady rhythm of his breath. If he
was even half as afraid as she was, he hid it well.
The Prince asked softly, "Who are you?"
Antryg sighed, and some of the tension seemed to drain from his body.
"Antryg Windrose," he said.
The chill, pale‑blue eyes narrowed. "So." For a long
moment the Prince remained still, studying the form chained between the pillars
in the ruddy, reflected glare of the brazier. Joanna could see the lines of
sleeplessness on his face beneath a thick coating of rice powder and rouge; the
dark rings of bister and fatigue made the queer eyes even paler. The Prince wet
his lips, as if he feared the wizard, even chained and helpless, and had to
nerve himself to approach. Then he stepped forward and, as he had before,
reached up one gloved hand and carefully removed Antryg's spectacles from his
face. Antryg flinched a little as the metal temple piece nicked the bruises,
but his eyes never left Pharos' face.
The Prince folded up the spectacles and set them on the narrow ledge of
the pillar's capital beside him. The firelight slid along the soft black
leather of the gloves as he put out his hands to frame the wizard's face
between them, shoving back the loose lion's mane of graying hair to outline the
delicate bones and wide, lunatic eyes.
"So,"
he said again. He stepped back. "Is what the Bishop of Kymil said about
you true?"
Antryg
tipped his head a little to one side. Without the cracked mask of the
spectacles, his gray eyes looked even wider and strangely luminous in the dark
smudges of fatigue. "Oh, probably not," he said mildly. "How
much of what is said about you is true?"
The
white gleam of teeth showed, very briefly, with the parting of the painted
lips. "Everything," the Prince whispered. "I could flog you to
death, you know, just to see how long it would take a wizard to die under it.
No one would know. My palace‑" He gestured to the dark room around
them and the shadowy, convoluted vaults overhead "‑stands in its own
grounds, away from the main Palace and away from that stinking rabble of
wizards my father used to surround himself with. Away from prying eyes, away
from people spying on me, trying to kill me‑yes, even my saintly cousin
Cerdic!‑whispering among themselves that I'm mad. Of course I'm mad! My
father is, isn't he? And I am his true son . . ." His voice sank even
lower, so that Joanna, watching that slender black figure, barely heard.
"Aren't I?"
Antryg
said, his tone quiet and conversational, "You would know more of that than
I, Pharos. But being quite mad myself, I wouldn't hold madness against you; one
sometimes does it in mere self‑defense, you know."
The
Prince's glance cut sharply up to Antryg's eyes for the first time.
"What?"
"Goes mad."
The
beauty of that deep voice seemed to calm the Prince; for some moments the blue
eyes held the gray.
"Yes,"
Pharos said slowly. "Sometimes one must‑go mad‑or die. They
said that you were mad." His glance shifted away again, as if he could not
bear to show even that part of himself to another human being for more than a
second or so.
Antryg
nodded. Still low, still soothing, he said, "It was‑the only thing
that I could do at the time."
"Is
it true that you've been a prisoner of the Church for seven years? That you
were condemned to death?"
The
harsh, metallic voice was uninflected, impossible to second‑guess. Antryg
said, "Yes," and the Prince looked back at him again, suspicious,
waiting for something. The wizard went on, "The rebels were my friends.
The Emperor's dragoons had no right to do what they did. Not to the children. I
thought that the Emperor . . ." He paused, for a long moment, then shook
his head, weary, defeated by the old memories. "Yes, I was imprisoned
under a commuted sentence of death."
"And
the Archmage helped you escape?"
"No."
Joanna saw Antryg's hands tighten again on the chains, holding himself upright
against fatigue, shock, and the sick aftereffects of a really appalling crack
on the head. In the dead‑still, heated air, she could smell the musky
stink of the Regent's perfume and the faint sourness of sweat from the guard
Kanner, who stood beside her, silent as a statue, so close she could see the
runes of na‑aar written on the pistol barrel. Antryg moved his head a
little, shaking aside the sweat‑dampened ends of his long hair, where
they clung in little circles to his temples and cheeks. "I escaped when
the Archmage disappeared, but I had nothing to do with his disappearance, nor
he with my escape. He had neither the intent nor the desire to set me free."
"No," the Prince murmured. "He knew our fat Bishop well‑he
knew the Witchfinders‑he knew me. If he had helped you escape, it would
have been far better done, wouldn't it? Not leaving you wandering the roads
like a vagabond, nor leaving the other members of the Council to take the
Church's wrath unaided. And you‑you would have risked your life to rescue
more than a chit of a girl. You can tell me nothing of them, can you?"
Antryg shook his head exhaustedly, the fatigue telling on him, sapping
his strength. His voice remained calm, low and weary with memory and
hopelessness. "I haven't seen any of them in seven years."
"Then why did you come to Angelshand?" the Prince asked, his
voice soft now, evil as the Witchfinder's and infinitely more deadly.
"Surely, if you are a fugitive from the Council as you say, you would have
run in the opposite direction?"
Antryg turned his face away. The gold light of the brazier shining
through the damp, thin fabric of his shirt outlined his body as he drew a deep
breath, then let it out, struggling, as Joanna had seen him on the road,
between trust and silence. Then he looked back at the Prince, his deep voice
still level but desperation in his eyes. "I have to reinstate myself
somehow," he said quietly. "I can't go on like this. Not for the rest
of my life. I'm a wizard, Pharos, and I haven't been able to touch that
reservoir of power within myself for seven years. Even now I can't use it, for
they would find me through it‑the Witchfinders, the Church mages. I need
to speak to them . . . ." He broke off, gazing into the Prince's face, the
dark lines of strain suddenly cut deep in the discolored flesh around his eyes,
hardening and aging them.
The
Prince said nothing for a time, but stood with his gloved hands clasped
together, an oily gleam of moisture glazing his maquillage and a sprinkle of
reflected flame dancing over the bullion lace at his wrists as he shivered, as
if with sudden chill. At last he whispered, "Is it real? This this magic.
This mumbo‑jumbo—old women calling the weather among the fallen stones on
the hills, things that mumble in the crypts, men who can summon storms by
looking into a bowl of water‑is it real? Not just stories with which to
frighten us into obedience as children? Not just charlatans like those fakers
my cousin fills his house with? Not just hags deluding themselves from their
own helplessness?"
"No," Antryg murmured. "No, it's real."
The
Prince stepped close to him, his voice hoarse with fear to believe. "Show
me."
Antryg's
fingers moved, brushing the spell‑ribbon that knotted through his chains.
"You've taken care to see that I couldn't," he said softly.
"Surprising care, for a man who believes it's all mumbo jumbo and granny‑rhymes.
And, as I've said, I would not, even if you released me. They are seeking me‑they
would find me through it; and believe me, Pharos, I fear them more than I fear
you."
"The
Church dogs?" Pharos sniffed with scorn touched by the bravado of one half‑afraid
himself. "I gave the Church their mandate to act, when they said there was
a plot by the Archmage and the Council. I can take it away again. I could
protect you."
"Not
from the Council." Antryg looked down at the Prince, the top of whose
golden curls came barely to his lips. "I don't know how many of them
managed to escape from St. Cyr this afternoon, but you never had them all, did
you?"
Suspicion
flared again in the Prince's mad eyes. "What do you know of it?"
The
chains clinked faintly as Antryg shrugged. "If you had," he said
simply, "you wouldn't still be afraid. And you are afraid."
The
Regent stood for a moment, his face averted. In the absolute stillness, Joanna
could hear how shaky was the draw of his breath. There was a cracked note to
his shrill voice as he called out suddenly, "Joris!"
The
captain of his sasenna, the tall, heavy‑boned, red‑haired woman who
had captured them, emerged from the utter darkness of the hall.
"You
haven't touched magic for seven years," the Prince said softly. "You
couldn't have, not from the Tower, not as their prisoner." He signaled to
the woman Joris.
Taking
a key from the nail beside the door, she crossed into the dim circle of the
firelight and unlocked the shackles from Antryg's wrists. For a moment, Joanna
thought the wizard would collapse without the chains to hold him up, but he only
leaned against one of the pillars, rubbing the flesh of his bony wrists where
the metal had scraped the skin off it. At a nod from the Regent, Kanner stepped
aside, though he did not put down his pistol. Joris came over to Joanna's chair
and untied the ropes that held her. When the sasennan left, the big guard
remained, his pistol still at the ready, silent as a sword.
During
all this, Pharos stood with his hands folded in front of his breast, palms and
fingers locked and pressed together so tightly that Joanna could see the
knuckles bulge and work through the soft kid of the gloves. His eyes, when in
their restless flickering Joanna could glimpse them, had lost their malice and
were haunted and anxious; he caught Joris by the arm as she moved toward the
door. "Be ready," he said softly, and the woman nodded briefly. She
stepped back through the door into darkness, but in that darkness a shadow
moved, and Joanna caught the gleam of pistol barrels, leveled at Antryg's
heart.
After a long moment, the Prince began, "I need . . ." He
stopped, standing close to Antryg, closer than Joanna would have found comfortable,
the closeness of intimacy; but still he did not look at the wizard. It had
undoubtedly been a long time, Joanna thought suddenly, since this dainty, evil
little man had said, I need to anyone.
He swallowed hard and tried again. "Narwahl," he said quietly.
His voice was very different now from the arrogant and perverted Prince who had
held them at his mercy. Caris had said Skipfrag was the Regent's friend. There
was a terrible tension in the Prince's words as he tried to speak calmly of
that friend's death. "The neighbors heard a shot and then a shrieking like
all the souls of the damned. They found . . ." He paused, unable to go on.
"I know what they found," Joanna said. "Broken and
shattered glass. And blood all over everything‑the floor, the walls,
everywhere."
The Regent glanced to where she still sat in the carved ebony chair to
which she had been tied. The corners of his mouth twitched. "Ah, yes. You
were there, weren't you? At least, that's what Joris tells me the Church
sasenna said." He took from one pocket a handkerchief‑black, she
noted. All his linen was black, an affectation that reminded her irresistibly
of a Hollywood pimp. With the care of one long used to working around makeup,
he wiped his face, and she saw that his hand shook.
"I never knew he was associated with mages," he began again in
a strained voice. "The Witchfinders said they found evil things and
evidente of some horrible, angry spirit in his workroom. They asked me to order
the house put under seal. I think they wanted to see who would come for
them."
Joanna
sniffed. "They would. All he was doing was experimenting with electricity.
Peelbone would burn the inventor of the clock for daring to interfere with the
Sole God's prerogative of determining time."
"Perhaps,"
Antryg said quietly. He took his spectacles from their ledge and seated himself
carefully at the base of one of the pillars, wincing a little as he folded his
long arms around his drawn‑up knees. "But the fact remains that
someone broke into his workroom. And I suspect, from what you two say, that it
was someone who could summon and control elementals, give them body and
form." He cocked his head up at the Regent. "Is that why you fear the
Council?"
The
Prince stood looking down at him for a moment, holding back that last
surrender, that last admission. He drew a short, sharp breath that hissed
through his nostrils and looked away. Joanna could see his mouth work for a
moment. Then, as if he were aware of it, he pressed his hand to his lips,
forcing it still. When he took his hand away, his fingers were shaking. "I
don't know," he whispered wretchedly. "They are the ones who‑who
are supposed to have power. When the Bishop of Kymil said there was a plot and
asked for my sanction to investigate it, I thought . . ." He took a deep
breath, like a man fighting to steady himself against some terrible strain.
"I do not know who it is I have to fear," he said at last. "I
only know that, if you have been a prisoner these seven years, Antryg Windrose,
it cannot be you."
Antryg
said nothing, waiting in silence while the Prince considered what he could say.
After a moment, Pharos went on, still in that hoarse, frightened whisper,
"And you are a mage. It is why I ordered my men to bring you here when
they caught you, instead of turning you back to the Witchfinders. Since Herthe
told me you had been a prisoner in the Tower, unable to work magic, I knew that
I had to find you. You are the only one I can speak to, the only one it is safe
to speak to‑if it is safe‑of certain things."
The
wizard's deep, beautiful voice was gentle and unalarming in the buried
stillness of the firelit stone room. "What things?"
The
Prince drew another deep breath and was quiet a moment, sorting his thoughts;
even his restlessly twisting little hands grew still, clasped before him.
"It was‑balderdash," he said at last. "I was always told
that. Magic. My father . . ." He swallowed. "He‑he favored the
wizards, but he kept them all at arm's distance. My tutor never approved. I
thought his favor was excessive; certainly I never thought their powers were
any more real than those cheapjack toadstone‑peddlers or the granny‑wives
who claim they can put a bad word on someone's cow. They spoke of powers, but
they never did anything at all. Even now, I don't know if I'm mad or sane,
whether this is part of the old madness or some new twist."
Gently
leading him, Antryg looked up at him and asked, "What?"
The
Prince paced a few steps, then turned back again, some of the tension easing
out of his body with a kind of hopeless inner surrender. When he spoke again,
his voice was deliberately matter‑of‑fact. "About three months
ago, I fell in love with a boy in the household of the Duke of Albrete‑an
enchanting youth, amber and alabaster, with skin so clear you could trace the
path of a swallow of wine down his throat. Elfwith was his name‑not that
it matters, and I certainly didn't expect to remember it three months
afterwards. I probably wouldn't, except for what happened to him." He
stilled in his pacing and swallowed again, looking down at Antryg, who sat
unmoving at the base of the pillar, the tawny light playing restlessly across
his absurd, bespectacled face.
"He‑died.
I'd asked him to go up to my rooms and given orders for the guards in the
secret staircase to let him pass‑even the secret stair into the room is
guarded. I was delayed by a matter of state‑those wretched ambassadors
from Senterwing about that brainless bitch I'm to marry. All very secret."
Antryg nodded. Joanna remembered, sometime on the carriage journey,
Caris saying the wizard had read that marriage in a spread of cards. She felt
very little surprise, even in the face of what she knew about the Prince's
preferences, in hearing that it was true.
"Well, Elfwith came hurrying down to the guard on the secret stair,
saying he thought there was someone in my rooms. They turned out and searched,
they said‑I heard all this later‑but there was no sign of anyone
having been there. So Elfwith went in to wait. And I found him, an hour and a
half later, dying‑dying horribly in my bed, his limbs covered with sores,
eaten with them. If it was a sickness, it was nothing Narwahl had ever seen,
but he claimed there was no poison that could do it, either. I swore him on his
life to secrecy, because there was the boy's family to consider as well. Of
course the bedding was all burned, but there was no other case of such a
sickness ever reported anywhere, before or since. I know that, for Narwahl
looked in every book and journal he possessed.
"Then‑it might have been two weeks later‑I was sleeping
. . ."
"Alone?" Antryg inquired, and Pharos managed an ironic smirk.
"You don't think I ever let myself fall asleep in the presence of
those stupid little creatures, do you? I send them away. Lately I've kept Kanner
in my room when I sleep, though I didn't do so then. He's very loyal to me. He
was sasennan until he lost his hearing through a fever. I know that, when
sasenna become flawed, they're supposed to kill themselves, I suppose he's
added the flaw of cowardice to that of deafness, but I've made it worth his
while. I find having a deaf servant supremely useful. In any case, I woke up‑I
don't know why‑it might have been a dream. I dream . . ."
He
paused again, then visibly shied from the subject, like a nervous horse, and
resumed his pacing. His gestures, repeated in vast, amorphous shadows on the
wall at his back, moved as if they would shape the scene from air. "The
bed curtains were open a little, and I could see part of the paneling of the
wall by the light of the night lamp. There was a shadow on it, clearly thrown,
but huge, distorted‑the long robe of a mage. I saw him move his hand,
doing something at the lamp table I thought. I cried out for the guards; but
when they came in‑nothing. There was no one there, nor was there a way he
could have left; the corner he was in is near the outside wall, and there was
no possibility of a secret passage, even if I had not had the room sounded a
dozen times. I had the water in the pitcher that stood on that table given to
one of the palace dogs. It seemed all right at the time, but the dog died four,
five days later. Too long for poison, much too long. And yet . . ."
He
pressed his hand to his mouth again, a nervous gesture, to still or to hide the
unsteadiness of those too‑full, painted lips. "I couldn't tell anyone
after that, you see," he went on, a little thinly. "There was no
proof. They would have mocked me if I'd said I thought it was magic, as they
mocked me when . . ."
He
caught himself up again, over some old memory, and went hastily on, "They
would have said I was mad, as they did before. And I am mad. But not‑not
mad in that way. Not until now. Twice I've waked in the night and heard
knocking somewhere in the room‑it's vanished when I called the guards;
and after the second time, I had Kanner in the room with me and at least one
other guard. I don't even know whether I really heard it the second time or not‑I
was dreaming‑I don't know."
He
ran his hands through his barley‑gold hair, twisting the careful curls
awry; in the firelight, the muscles of his long, narrow jaw quivered with the
violence of their compression.
"I
fought against it for a long time," he said at length. "I did not
believe in magic, but‑I think someone is trying to kill me through its
use. Is this possible?"
He turned back to look at Antryg, hungry desperation in his eyes.
After
a long moment, the mage nodded. With a movement oddly graceful for one so
gawky, he got to his feet, still steadying himself against the pillar, and put
a gentling hand on the Prince's shoulder. "How long since the last
attempt?"
"If
it was an attempt," Pharos whispered. "It was only knocking . . .
."
"It
was an attempt," Antryg said, and there was no doubt in his voice.
"How long?"
"Two‑three
weeks. Shortly before‑shortly before the Bishop of Kymil sent word that
she had uncovered a plot of the Council of Mages against the Church and against
the Realm. I issued jurisdiction for their arrest. Then, two days later,
Narwahl . . ."
As
if quieting the hysterics of a child, Antryg closed his hands around the
Prince's trembling fingers. It occurred to Joanna to wonder whether Pharos had
seen that attic room, sprayed with fresh blood and glass.
"And
you went to Kymil?" Antryg asked, and the Prince nodded. "To find out
what Herthe knew?"
"Yes." The Prince nodded again, his voice a little stronger, a
little steadier. "Herthe and her guards came and met me at the posthouse.
She told me who you were. I knew then I had to find you, get to you before the
Witchfinders did. I knew you were the only one who couldn't have done it, who
couldn't possibly be in on it. She spoke of abominations in the land and said
that it seemed likely you were coming to Angelshand. I made some excuse, turned
back, and ordered my men to search for you, find you before the Church could
have you killed. I thought you might have gone to Devilsgate, to take refuge
with that stupid, saintly hypocrite Cerdic . . . ." A flash of vicious
bitterness surfaced in his voice, like the glint of paranoia that suddenly
gleamed in his narrowed eyes at the mention of his cousin's name. Antryg said
nothing, and Joanna, who had been thoroughly charmed with the Regent's cousin,
likewise refrained from adding her two cents to the conversation at this point.
After a moment, the madness faded from Pharos' eyes, and with it, his
hard‑held calm. He swallowed; his voice came out small and cracked with
strain. "I came back here today. But it was as if‑as if from the
time I spoke to Herthe, the morning after I met you in the posthouse, I knew it
was hopeless. It seemed to me then that I could see my whole future, and it was
empty‑that I was mad, like my father." He faltered, then went on,
"And in time I would become an imbecile like him. Even though these things
I feared had no existence, they would destroy me, and there was nothing to do,
nowhere to come, except back here to my death. I tried having the Council mages
imprisoned, but the Church has its mages, too. And there's still tonight to
sleep through‑"
His
voice broke suddenly, as if weight had been put on a flawed beam; his breath
hissed, and he stood for a moment, shivering in silence and, Joanna realized,
shame at his fears.
Very
gently, his hands still in the Prince's convulsive grip, Antryg said,
"Here?"
When
Pharos glanced sharply at him, Antryg went on, "I take it this is the
dungeon under the original part of the old Summer Palace."
The
Prince's lips moved in a quirk that might have been a smile; he glanced down at
the big hands he still held and released them. As if aware of the wreck he'd
made of his coiffure, he put up one gloved hand to straighten a snail‑shell
curl. "Yes. I've taken it over for my own. It's sufficiently isolated in
the grounds to keep gossip mongers away when I want a little private
sport."
"Is there anywhere else you could sleep?"
"Would it make a difference?"
"It
might," Antryg said mildly. "If you were more superstitious, you'd
probably have thought yourself of the possibility that there's a wizard's mark
in your rooms."
There were seven of them.
Wearing a ruffled shirt and breeches fetched by Joris from the wardrobes
of the Prince's pages ("I'm tired of walking around looking like I've just
escaped from the cover of a historical romance!") Joanna followed Antryg
and the Prince up several flights of stairs, passing from the ancient stonework
of the dungeons to the renovated rococo grace of the Prince's palace above. It
was now quite dark outside, but the Prince's private apartments blazed with the
light of a thousand candles and lamps; as they moved from room to brilliantly
lit room, followed by Joris, Kanner, and two other guards, it occurred to
Joanna that the Regent was probably terrified of the dark.
The
warm brilliance of the candles, so different from the hard and prosaic
electricity Joanna had grown up with, lent a curiously dreamlike air to those
rooms, with their shell‑shaped curlicues of gold and scarlet, their
delicate furniture, and their sinuous marbles. In his shabby black coat,
spectacles, and quizzing glass, Antryg moved through them like some daft
Victorian ghost hunter, tapping at the chinoiserie of the panels and calling
the marks, one by one, to faint and glowing life.
One
mark, on the ancient stonework behind the paneling itself, was extremely old,
readable only when Antryg pressed his hands to the painted wood. Another made
him smile. "I wonder what the mage Nyellin was doing here? It's six
hundred years old‑nothing to do with you, Pharos‑but she did have
rather a reputation as a meddler herself."
His
hand brushed the scarlet‑lacquered wood between the bedroom windows.
Under his fingers, another mark appeared, only to be seen from the corner of
the eye‑a chance glimmer of candlelight, floating, it seemed, above or
below the actual surface of the panel, as if someone had scribbled with a
finger on the air in light.
Joanna
remembered, with an uneasy chill, the sign on the wall of the main computer
room at San Serano, seen past the dark shadow of the strangler's shoulder; she
remembered also the darkness of Gary's upstairs room and the red reflection of
computer lights off Antryg's spectacles as he'd brushed his hand, just so,
along the wall by the door.
I can't tell you the truth and I don't wish to lie to you . . . .
You are in this world under my protection . . . .
"A
wizard's mark will call him to it," Antryg explained over his shoulder to
the Prince, who followed, cautious as if the marks themselves could kill.
"He can find it, wherever he is, and go to it. If the mark is strong
enough, he can use it to influence things near it, even when he is not present,
sometimes even work certain spells through it without being there."
He
stood for a long time, staring at the paneling between the windows, where the
mark had glimmered so briefly to life. Then he sighed and shut his eyes.
The Prince glanced nervously over his shoulder. "What is it?"
Antryg
turned away and touched briefly the elaborate marquetry dressing table that
stood beneath the mark. A branch of candles in the twining shapes of naked
goddesses stood on it and beside them a pitcher of creamy, rose‑colored
porcelain, half‑filled with water. "The mark is less than two months
old," he said quietly. He looked suddenly very tired, his mouth taut and a
little white, as if he had drunk some bitter and poisoned brew. "This one‑"
He crossed to the door of a dressing room and brushed a faint, brief shimmer of
sign from its topmost panel, "‑about ten years. Both by the same
wizard."
"Who?" demanded the Prince, and Antryg shook his head.
"The
second mark would reinforce the influence of the first," he went on,
staring up at the place where the mark on the door had been. "But ten
years ago . . ." He paused, his eyebrows drawn together over the absurd
beak of his nose. "Ten years . . ."
"What is it?"
Antryg
looked back at the Prince and shook his head. "I don't know," he
said. "These have always been your rooms?"
"Yes.
Since first I was given my own establishment when I was eighteen. I am thirty‑five
now and I assure you, my lord wizard, that no wage has been in here to make
that first mark since they have been mine."
"Knowing
how you've kept yourself guarded, I'd say I believed you," Antryg said,
"except, of course, that one obviously was."
"They
were always about the Court, of course," Pharos said. "My father . .
."
He hesitated.
"Exactly,"
Antryg said quietly. "Your father. And Cerdic later. I know your father
had a good deal to do with Salteris, as Head of the Council." Listening,
Joanna wondered if she detected the faintest of flaws in Antryg's voice when he
spoke the Archmage's name. "Do you know who else?"
The little man shook his head. "I didn't want to know. I considered
it—" He licked his lips, shying again from the subject, and then simply
concluded, "I didn't want to know."
Antryg was silent for a long time, his arms folded, his head down, and
his strange, wide, light‑gray eyes distant with thought. From somewhere,
Joanna heard a clock speak eleven silvery chimes and felt all the deathly
weariness of the day closing in on her‑flight, fear, and sudden, starving
hunger.
Then the wizard sighed and pushed up his spectacles to rub his eyes.
"It's very late now," he said, "and Joanna and I both are very
tired. At least I am and, if she isn't, I suggest you hire her as your
bodyguard. Unless you're going to lock us away for good, Pharos, there are two
things that I'd like to ask of you in the morning. Three things, actually,
counting breakfast. Can your cook make muffins?"
It was the first time Joanna had seen Prince Pharos laugh, the pale,
pretty face and sinful eyes screwing up in genuine amusement. "My dearest
Antryg," he said, laying what Joanna privately suspected of being an
overly friendly hand on the wizard's arm, "if the muffins are not to your
satisfaction, I give you full permission to flog the cook. He won't quit, I
assure you; he'd never relinquish his position as my cook. It's far more
than his reputation would be worth."
"Excellent." Antryg smiled and pushed his spectacles up on the
bridge of his nose with one bony forefinger. "The second is that I'd like
you to send for the contents of Narwahl Skipfrag's laboratory, and the third .
I'd like to look at your father's rooms."
"By
the way," said Joanna quietly, "I never had a chance to say thank you."
Antryg,
sitting in the dark window embrasure of the room the Prince had given him, up
under the eaves of the Summer Palace's mansard roof, looked around at her and
smiled. A flicker of bluish light appeared in the air of the room between him
and the door where she stood; it floated, like a negligent firefly, over to the
exquisite ormolu table in the room's center and came to rest on the wick of one
of the unlit candles there. His voice was deep in the gloom. "I ought to
say it was my pleasure, but diving under that portcullis‑I can only think
of two times I've been that frightened in my life. It is my pleasure," he
added, "that we're both alive."
"I wouldn't say pleasure so much as stunned surprise." She
crossed the room to him, and he drew up his feet on the window seat to make
room for her. Through the open casement, she could smell the smoke from the
lamps and torches of the guards in the courtyard three stories below and, when
the wind shifted, the thick green smells of the palace park. "Decent of
the Prince to send us up supper."
"Considering what it took to get lobster patties at this hour,"
Antryg agreed. "No matter what the muffins are like for breakfast, I shall
have to lie and say I like them. Such a cook ought never to be flogged more
often than is necessary, as the Prince says, to keep him smart."
Joanna chuckled. "Not to mention the clothes," she added,
touching the high, pleated collar of the pageboy's shirt she wore. "He
sent me up a gown for tomorrow. I'm wondering where the hell he got it."
"Possibly one of his boyfriends . . ."
She poked him reprovingly in the knee with her foot and laughed. "Is
one of the mages trying to kill him?"
"Oh, yes.”
"To put Cerdic on the throne?"
"If I were the sort of mage who routinely meddled in human
affairs," the wizard said gravely, "it's what I'd do."
She remembered Cerdic's enthusiastic and unquestioning welcome of Antryg
because he was a mage and the blind acceptance of the inherent rightness of
wizards, started to speak, then was silent. For a moment, she contemplated that
long, peculiar profile in the bluish glow of the witchlight, noticing how the
reflections of the fires in the courtyard below touched hard little glimmers in
the steel of his spectacle frames and the dreamy grayness of his eyes. He
looked a little better than he had, less strained and gray, but the nervous
energy that had gotten him through the last several hours was fading, even as
it was for her. He looked tired and very vulnerable, sitting with his knees
drawn up in the window seat, and she had to resist an overwhelming impulse to
put out her hand and touch his arm.
Slowly,
she said, "Are we dealing with several problems here or just one? The
fading and the abominations‑but you said you were coming to talk to some
member of the Council? and there's the Archmage . . . . And poor Caris‑whatever's
happened to him?"
A
smile tugged briefly at Antryg's lips in the wan luminescence of the witchlight.
"I imagine poor Caris is still waiting for me outside a vacant building
on the south side of the river. He's very patient when he's on a trail."
"One
of these days," Joanna said severely, "Caris is going to murder you‑and
not because of his grandfather, either."
"Of
course," Antryg said. "That's been the‑" He stopped
himself as Joanna's eyebrows came together, then went on quickly, "He's
come very close to it twice. As for what we're dealing with here . . ." He
shook his head. "There seem to be a lot of events unrelated to one another,
except by juxtaposition in time‑Narwahl's death, your kidnapping, the
Prince's marriage . . ."
"Or
things that happened twenty‑five years ago," she said, remembering
the old woman in the prison. At his tricks again, that one had said,
rocking back and forth, and for the dozenth time Joanna found herself reminded
that what Suraklin had known, Antryg undoubtedly knew. There was no way he
could have murdered Narwahl‑on the night of the physician's death, as far
as Joanna could calculate, they had all been sleeping in the hayloft of some
posting inn on the Kymil road.
She
wondered suddenly whether an examination would reveal wizards' marks in that
stuffy, blood‑smelling room.
She
was aware that Antryg had fallen silent and was looking at her with wary
uncertainty in his eyes.
"How
did you know I was there, by the way? Thinking about it, I was desperately glad
to see you, but I don't think I was surprised; and now I realize I should have
been."
"Not
really." His earring winked in the tangled mane of his hair as he turned
his head. "I was looking for mages, remember. Considering the current
situation, the logical place to look was St. Cyr. I was loitering around
inconspicuously outside when they brought you in. I assume Caris sent you to
Narwahl's."
"How
did . . . T" she began, and then remembered saying to the Prince that she
knew what the neighbors had found in that hideous upper room.
. . . Or could he?
"Will
that screw you up?" she asked after a moment. "All the mages getting
away from St. Cyr‑or did they all get away?"
He
shook his head. "I imagine most of them did. I've spoken to Pharos about
releasing the others. There will be time enough to find them and to speak to
them, after I've seen the Emperor's rooms."
"Will
having them loose increase your danger?" she asked, and he shook his head
absently. "Then you know which one to be afraid of?"
He
looked quickly at her, his eyes suddenly wide in the dim gleam from the court
below, as if he had suddenly seen that he'd walked into a trap. But it wasn't a
trap, she thought, baffled; she had sensed him holding her at arm's length,
picking his way carefully over conversationally shifty ground. He was braced
for something, she knew, but she only asked, "Why are you afraid of
me?"
He
started to say something, then checked himself; for some moments, the little
room under the eaves was quiet, save for the noises that drifted up from the
court below through the opened casements and the faroff creak of some servant's
foot elsewhere in the palace. Then he changed his mind and said, "Like the
Prince, I'm afraid of a good many things. I've spent most of my life terrified
of a man who's been dead for years."
He
got to his feet and helped her to hers. The vagrant foxfire drifted after them
as he led her to the door. She paused in its darkness, looking up at him,
knowing he was evading her and coming up with an uncomfortable number of
reasons why. But none of them accounted for the care he'd taken of her, none of
them accounted for risking his life that afternoon to save her from the
Inquisition.
She
said, "I get the feeling that there's a pattern here somewhere‑as
you said, some connection between the fading and the abominations and between
Narwahl's death and the Archmage disappearing and my being kidnapped. It's all
subroutines of a program I can't see. I understand the kind of thing you hope
to learn from seeing Narwahl's experiments though they looked to me like
perfectly straightforward let's‑make‑electricity stuff‑but
what do you hope to learn from seeing the Emperor's rooms?"
He
shook his head. "Confirmation, perhaps, of a theory I have." He
leaned against the doorframe, the will‑o'‑the‑wisp light
edging hair and spectacles and the curlicue line of shirt‑ruffles with
their snagged tangle of quizzing glass and beads. "And maybe the answer to
something that's puzzling me very much."
She didn't really expect an answer, but asked, "What?"
After a long moment's hesitation, Antryg seemed to come to some decision
within himself. "Why they would send him mad, instead of killing
him."
At
two in the morning the terrible, draining deadness began again and tortured
Joanna's exhausted dreams with visions of old Minhyrdin until dawn.
"They said it
was a judgment, you know." The prince regent's pale, shifty eyes flicked
from the parklike vistas of topiaried garden visible to both sides of the open
coach back to the man and woman opposite him on the white velvet carriage seat.
The deadness that had lasted until almost dawn had left its marks on him,
adding to the keyedup, exhausted nervousness of the previous night. His full‑lipped
red mouth twitched as he explained, "for his sympathy to the mages."
"I
wouldn't say sympathy was your father's outstanding characteristic at my
trial," Antryg mused. "Hanged, drawn, sliced, and broken‑it was
years before I could contemplate chicken marinara, not that I was given the
chance to, mind you. But then, he never did like me. How did it happen?"
Pharos
shook his head. "Would to God we knew," he said, quite simply.
"He woke that way one morning four years ago. He . . ." He swallowed,
wiped his moist hands on a black silk handkerchief, and tucked it back up among
the sable festoons of his sleeve lace. "We didn't know whether it would go
as suddenly as it had come‑we still don't, but back then we hoped more
than we do now. He used to try and talk then, or at least it looked like
talking. In the first day or so, I sometimes thought he knew me. Now . .
." He looked away again, over the sun‑splashed morning beauty of
those manicured lawns and carefully pruned groves. Then his glance, half‑embarrassed
and half‑warning, returned unwillingly to Joanna. "When you see
him," he said carefully, "you must remember that he is a very sick
man."
Joanna guessed what he meant and suppressed a qualm of apprehensive
disgust. It interested her that he would feel enough concern for his father‑who
couldn't possibly have cared one way or the other‑to warn her against
showing repugnance. And afraid as she had once been of him, she now felt oddly
sorry for this bejeweled little pervert.
Antryg
asked, "Who were the wages who were habitually admitted to his rooms? Who
would have had access to his bedroom, for instance?"
"No
one," Pharos said promptly. "Well, they might have entered there from
the rest of the suite. Rosamund Kentacre‑her father dragged her there for
him to convince her not to take the Council vows. Thirle, I believe . . ."
"Minhyrdin?"
Pharos
sniffed. "That senile crone? My father's interests were in magic, not
particularly in those who worked it or who were at one time able to work it.
The members of the Council were admitted‑Salteris, of course, Lady
Rosamund, Nandiharrow, Idrix of Thray, and Whitwell Simm, and you."
"Not
me," Antryg said. "Well, once, after I'd been elected to the Council,
I had to be presented formally to him. But as I said, he never liked me."
He frowned a little. "During the Mellidane Revolts, I had the impression I
was not precisely entrapped, but certainly maneuvered. He can't have been that
ignorant of what was going on. But I never understood why. From my little
acquaintance with him, he was perfectly capable of it, of course . . . ."
"Did
you know him before . . . ?" began Pharos, then stopped himself.
"No, you couldn't. You were Suraklin's student. Perhaps that was the
reason." The dappling sunlight passed like a school of shining fish over
his bright hair as the carriage moved through a grove of maples whose leaves
were already edging with blood‑red autumn flame. It was difficult to
believe that beyond the park walls in three directions stretched the sprawling
gray city, the dingy factories, and the crowded wharves of Angelshand.
The
strain and tiredness were apparent in the Prince's voice as well as his face.
Joanna heard the harsh, shaky shrillness of last night still there, held
rigidly in check, as it had been, she thought, for weeks‑perhaps for
years. After a moment, he went on, "He never would have handed down a
judgment like that before‑before he rode with the Archmage to Kymil, you
know. He‑changed afterwards."
"If
he saw anything of Suraklin's Citadel," Antryg murmured, "it would be
surprising if he hadn't."
"No." The Prince's voice sank. "Sometimes he spoke of it‑of
the things Suraklin kept in darkness, things that he bred or called up, things
that he fed on the blood from his own veins . . . ."
Beside
her, Joanna felt Antryg flinch at some memory, but he said nothing. Back in
Kymil, she'd noticed the old, tiny scars that marked the veins of his arms like
a junkie's tracks.
"But
I hated him for it," Pharos continued, "as much as I had loved him
before. And I did love him. It's strange to say, but since he has become an
imbecile, oddly enough, I love him now." He swallowed and passed his hand
over his mouth, a nervous gesture. He spoke from behind the white, delicate
fingers with their bitten nails, as if from behind a barrier. "They said
of Suraklin that he had a terrible, almost unbelievable influence over the
minds of all who had to do with him. They said he could break anyone's mind to
his bidding, if given his chance . . . . But looking back, I realize it was
only the things that he'd seen . . "
His voice faltered. Feeling Antryg's eyes on her, Joanna turned her head
and caught again the wariness and fear that lurked in the watergray depths.
After a moment, Pharos went on, his words coming rapidly to cover old guilts.
"But I was only a child and a fanciful one‑I understand that now.
It must have been only that I was ten . . ."
"You were ten?" Joanna had been watching Pharos, but the note
in Antryg's voice drew her eyes, as if he had shouted the words instead of
whispering them almost inaudibly. There was shock on his face, as if he had
been physically struck‑shock and a terrible intentness that Joanna was at
a loss to understand.
Pharos nodded, too sunk in private nightmares to notice the wizard's
reaction to his words, the presence of the coachman on the box, Kanner on the
footman's stand, the scrunch of the horses' hooves and the carriage wheels on
the gravel path, or Joanna. Hands pressed to his mouth, he stared out ahead of
him with the glittering gaze of madness.
"What happened?" Antryg whispered, leaning gently forward to
take the Prince's hands. He drew them down, denying Pharos that hiding place,
and asked again, "What was it that happened twenty‑five years ago
when you were ten?"
"Nothing." The Prince shut his eyes, squeezing the painted lids
together like a child hoping desperately to deny the reality of what he was
helpless to fight. "That's it‑nothing happened."
"Except that you went mad."
"I was a child." The words came out as if strained by main
force from a throat so constricted it barely passed the air of life to his
lungs. "There was nothing I could do, no one even that I could tell. I
used to dream about him, after he came back, and in my dreams . . ." He
broke off again, his hands trembling violently in Antryg's sure, light grip.
The mage said nothing, but his wide eyes were filled with horror, grief, and
enlightenment‑not for the Prince's sake, but as if, looking into the
younger man's madness, he had seen the terrifying reflection of his own.
Blurtingly,
the Prince sobbed, "In my dreams he was not my father!" Tears tracked
down through the heavy paste of makeup; he wrenched his hands from Antryg's and
fumbled for his handkerchief again, his body racked by tremors of grief and
horror he could not stop. "I was only ten," he repeated, "and
there was no one I could tell; they wouldn't believe me. But for years, I
believed that the wizards had somehow stolen my father and put someone else in
his place. And afterwards, when I realized it couldn't possibly be true‑when
I realized it was all charlatanry and faking‑I hated them for that! God,
how I hated them!"
Bitterness
scorched his voice. As if something had broken in him, and he could not stop,
he continued to sob, thrusting Joanna's comforting hand roughly away and
huddling in his corner of the carriage, fighting alone for control over
himself, as he had always fought alone. Antryg, perhaps understanding that the
Prince would take comfort from a man that could not be taken from a woman,
moved over beside the Regent and put his hands on those quivering black satin
shoulders; though the touch seemed to calm the Prince, the tears would not stop
flowing‑a reservoir of them, dammed for years.
As
for Antryg, his face was that of a man who has spoken a spell‑word in
jest and seen hell open before his eyes.
"He
changed," the Prince whispered wretchedly. "How could I ever trust?
There were other things to it . . . ."
"I'm
sure there were," Antryg murmured, as if he spoke to himself of some
hideous vision that only he could see.
"But
that was the source of it. I'd loved my father, and they took that from me
forever. In dreams . . ." With a final sob, the Regent sat up and made a
clumsy effort to mop his face. "Curse it, there's the Palace."
With
some startlement, Joanna saw that they had almost reached the gilt‑tipped
gates of the Imperial Palace's marble forecourt. His hands shaking, Pharos
wiped with his black silk handkerchief at his smeared cheeks. "I must look
like some sniveling girl."
Antryg
managed to grin, the enlightenment and the horror alike gone from his eyes,
except for their shadow lurking somewhere far down in the water‑gray
depths. "I'm sure your father won't care."
From
the short flight of marble steps, guards in white and gold were descending to
meet the carriage as the shadows of the Palace's vast wings enfolded them. Rows
of eastward‑facing windows blazed with the reflected sun, and the gilded
spines of the roofs sparkled like a frieze of fire.
The
bitter rictus of a smile pulled the Prince's mouth, "No‑not that he
cares about anything. But . . ." The expression softened. Joanna saw that
the Regent had spoken the truth; whatever hatred and fear he had borne his
father through his adolescence and early manhood, the love of his childhood had
been able to reassert itself since their roles had been reversed, since he had
now become the stronger, and since his father was dependent upon him for care.
"And
if any of the servants comments," Antryg added cheerily, as the footmen
stepped forward in matched unison to let down the carriage step, "you can
have him flogged."
The Prince shot him a devil's grin as they descended. "Ah, you know
how to gladden a man's heart," he retorted. Joanna followed them, wizard
and prince, up the palace steps.
From what he had said last night, Joanna had expected Antryg to make a
careful investigation of the Emperor's rooms; but either he had misled her or
something had caused him to change his mind. The Emperor Hieraldus occupied a
suite of rooms on the third floor of the north wing, reached by a small
stairway from the State Rooms on the second. "One of my less creditable
ancestors furnished them to house his mistress," the Regent explained
sotto voce as he opened a painted panel in the gilded oak wainscoting by the
fireplace of what was referred to as the Emperor's withdrawing room‑a
chamber the size of some barns Joanna had slept in during the course of the
last two weeks. "He had the stair built‑it's overlooked by the guard
outside the door there. Father and Grandfather both used the rooms as their
private living quarters, since they're more comfortable than the State
Rooms."
Antryg looked around the huge withdrawing room, with its stately dark
furniture and elaborate tapestries. "In the wintertime, I should imagine
it would be difficult to find anything less comfortable. Your father always
lived upstairs, then?"
The Prince nodded. Since his breakdown in the carriage, much of his suave
deadliness had deserted him; Joanna, though she knew he was perverted, mad, and
cruel‑though the bruises of his whip had not yet faded from Antryg's face‑found
herself almost liking as well as pitying him. As she followed mage and Regent
up the narrow stair, holding up the inevitable voluminous ecru petticoats, she
shook her head at herself. First you fall in love with Antryg,
she thought, and now you like the Regent. I see you're batting a
thousand on this trip.
"He
is looked after constantly," she heard Pharos say as he turned the gold
knob of the door at the top of the flight. It was typical of the Palace, Joanna
thought, that even the doorknob was a minor work of art, with gilded scrollwork
and a tiny cloisonne painting of mythical gods disporting themselves among
giggling nymphs. "None of his attendants have reported anything
amiss."
"No," Antryg said, almost absently. "No, they
wouldn't."
His
examination of the rooms was almost cursory. Chamber after delicate chamber
was crammed with all the beautiful things a man with unlimited wealth and good
taste could accumulate, from delicate clocks to exquisite paintings, oppressive
with the trapped, unventilated heat of early autumn, and pervaded with the
sick, musty odor of a body that had ceased to look after itself.
The
Emperor himself, led out by a careful and cheery attendant, did not shock
Joanna nearly so much as she had been afraid he would. He was only a man of
about her father's age, his scanty white hair clean and combed, his tidy
clothes, apart from fresh food smears down his plain, dark waistcoat, speaking
worlds of diligent and neverending care on the part of his guardians. His mouth
hung slightly open, and he stared straight ahead of him with blank eyes that
barely tracked movement, but Joanna, who usually felt unease bordering on
revulsion in the presence of the crippled or retarded, was a little surprised
to find in herself nothing but an overwhelming sense of pity.
"Were
the rooms marked?" she asked as they descended the steps once more, with
courtiers bowing to them when they passed through the State Rooms and headed
once more toward the courtyard where the carriage waited.
Antryg
glanced at her, as if startled from a reverie of his own. "Oh, yes.
"Did it confirm your hunch?"
He
hesitated, and she sensed he was trying to decide whether to tell the truth or
to formulate some other evasion, and suppressed a strong desire to shake him.
At length he said, rather carefully, "No, it didn't. I'd thought that the
rooms would have been marked to‑to do that to him by means of a spell. I
don't think that was the case."
"Then what did happen?"
With
his usual care, he helped her up into the carriage again and swung up to settle
himself beside her; the Prince looking rather pensive, was handed in by his
footmen, and the carriage started off again. "I'm not sure," Antryg
replied, a trifle too airily.
"Look," Joanna began, exasperated, but Pharos cut her off.
"Is
he in danger?"
"I
don't think so," Antryg said. "Not as long as you're alive, at any
rate. Whoever wants you out of the way doesn't want to contest the issue of the
succession yet. The Regency will do."
"Of
course," Pharos said thinly. "There would be civil war before the
nobles would assent to dear Cousin Cerdic being crowned, unless he had a nice,
long Regency to get them used to the idea. I take it that is the plot?"
"Something
of the kind, yes." Antryg's long fingers steepled over his chest. He had,
she noticed, acquired a chain of sapphires and gold, a gift from the Prince
that stood out like Faberge work against dime store finery among his other
tawdry necklaces. His voice was light, but his eyes, Joanna saw, were still deeply
troubled, as if the information the Prince had supplied him, which had meant so
little to her, had given him an answer to questions he did not want to
understand. Typically, he pursued another subject. "Who knew of your
marriage?"
Pharos sniffed. "Few enough."
"Did Narwahl?"
"He was my physician." The blue eyes narrowed within their
discolored sockets. "Of course he knew. You're not saying it was because
of that knowledge that‑that he was killed?"
Antryg was silent for a moment, studying the Prince's face, as if calculating
what would be best to say. Then he said gently, "I doubt it. I think he
was killed because of what he was doing in his experiments. The intruder was
standing beside his worktable when Narwahl surprised him . . . ."
Pharos, who had been looking out across the park toward a miniature
pavilion beside a toy lake, whirled with the suddenness of a mad dog, suspicion
and rage blazing in his eyes. Before he could speak, Joanna, familiar by now
with Antryg's Holmesian reasoning, said hastily, "He'd have to have been.
The pistol ball was lodged in the wall just above the worktable."
"Of course," Antryg said, a little surprised the point would
need further elucidation and blithely oblivious to how close he'd come to a
quick trip back to St. Cyr. "At fifteen feet in the dark, Narwahl's shot
could have gone wide, even if he wasn't shooting at a mage‑and even in
broad daylight at half the distance, the mageborn are notoriously hard to
hit."
"So he could have told any one of the mages about the
marriage," Pharos said, after a moment, his mouth suddenly wry with
distaste. A mad flicker of suspicion danced like flame in the back of his eyes
for a moment, and he added, "He could have been in a string with them too,
couldn't he? All of them‑Cerdic, the Council . . . ."
"In
that case, it's hardly likely they'd have killed him."
The
carriage drew to a stop before the old Summer Palace, on the far side of the
grounds from the vast Imperial edifice. In the daylight, Joanna could see no
sign of its greater age, except perhaps in the somewhat irregular lines of its
facade. Like the greater Imperial Palace, this smaller building was faced with
mellow, red‑gold stone and trimmed with white marble. The statues of its
niches were made of several particolored stones which reflected the Regent's
more outre tastes.
Only
inside, as they left the classical symmetry of the entrance rooms, did the
building's age become evident. Though no architect, Joanna sensed that the
lower ceilings and rambling, irregular layout of the inner rooms bespoke tastes
less self‑consciously elegant than those which had renovated the older
palace in the classical style. As they moved down a long, narrow gallery, her
eye was arrested by an occasional pointed arch or deeply coffered ceiling.
They
ascended two or three steps to another hall and from there climbed an old‑fashioned,
enclosed staircase to the attics in the original wing of the building. "My
men brought Narwahl's equipment here, just as it was," the Prince said as
they paused before a thick nine‑panel door into one of the attic rooms.
"I also obtained your reticule, my dear Joanna‑though the
Witchfinder wasn't pleased to give it up. It contained devilish things, he
said."
"Floppy
disks?" Joanna asked, puzzled at this construction of the diabolical.
"To
the pure, all things are pure," Antryg remarked, in Magister Magus' best
soothsayer voice, "and to the unimaginative, all things are devilish."
The
Regent sniffed. "Evidently most of the wizards in Peelbone's custody
escaped in the confusion you caused. He suspects deep plots."
Antryg's
hand moved for the door handle, and the Prince's small, white fingers touched
his frayed sleeve ruffle. The blue eyes gleamed strangely in the gray‑white
light of the outer attic's small, round windows.
"And
so help me, if by some chance he is right," Pharos added softly, "you
will long for the death my father ordered for you as a man in the desert longs
for water. Do you understand?"
Antryg
was silent for a moment, like a man standing with one foot in a trap not yet
sprung. Afraid of the Prince's suspicions? wondered Joanna, prey to the now‑familiar
sensation of being torn between her affection for him and her better judgment.
Or of something else?
In
the end he said nothing, but silently turned, opened the door, and ducked under
its low lintel to enter the attic beyond.
Dust
sparkled faintly in the still air of that long, low‑ceilinged room. The
place reminded Joanna uncomfortably of the other attic from which they had
taken these things, with ceiling and walls splattered with their creator's
blood. This room was over twice as long, its far end heaped up with a vast
tangle of heavy furniture in dark wood, with closed chests and occasional bolts
of thick cloth whose nap and weave were unsuited to the stiff lines of current
fashion. The inner walls and ceiling were plastered coarsely; the outer one,
in which the three square, high windows were set, was the raw stone of the old
Summer Palace. Against this wall stood a table, jammed with the gleaming,
Frankensteinian coils of Narwahl's experiments, the archaic workmanship of the
components making wonderful the prosaic collection of resistors and connectors.
On one corner, her purse lay like a dead and lumpy dog.
Walking over to the table, Joanna began to check the equipment over. It
was, as far as she could tell, as it had been in Narwahl's laboratory. She
traced the leads and grounding wires, set up the tall sparking rods and the
hand‑crank generator. Amid the chaos, the queer, shining sphere that had
caught her attention before seemed to gleam with a baleful halfluminescence
that made her uneasy.
Beside her, she was aware of Antryg's silence. She glanced back and saw
that his eyes had been drawn to the sphere; there was recognition in them and
an uncomfortable enlightenment, but no surprise.
"What is it?" She pushed aside her pink silk sleeve flounce,
whose laces had become entangled in a switch. "All the rest of this I
recognize . . . ."
"Do you?"
She nodded. "My whole world runs on electricity." Her fingers
traced the sinuous glass curve of a Volta pistol and brushed the awkward brass
vacuum pump, but she found herself shying from the evil refulgence of that
quicksilver sphere. "Hardware was never my field, but I know enough about
it not to electrocute myself changing the chips on a breadboard‑and Gary
is a hardware man. So I know what Narwahl was doing. But that‑that thing
. . ."
As with her bizarre depressions, before she had realized they were
something thrust upon her by an outside force, she found herself unwilling to
speak of the loathing she felt for it. What has no name isn't real, she
thought. She looked for confirmation of her repulsion in the wizard's eyes.
"Yes,"
Antryg said softly. He pushed up his spectacles and came forward to where she
stood beside the table. "Yes, it is evil. An implement of forbidden magic.
Making such spheres is forbidden; passing on to others the knowledge of their
making is punishable by the Council by death."
"Why?"
Even as she asked, she wondered why she wasn't startled to hear it.
"It
is called a teles." Antryg's long, light fingers brushed the gleaming
surface of the ball. "They have many uses. Suraklin used them . . .
." He hesitated on his ancient master's name, and an expression flickered
through his eyes of some old horror, as if he had unexpectedly touched an
unhealed wound in his mind. He recovered quickly and went on, "Suraklin
linked them into the energy‑lines and used them to extend his power over
territory beyond his line of sight. He could control . . ." He hesitated
again, frowning, and then glanced at the prince who stood in silence, framed in
the attic doorway. Kanner, as always, loomed like a crimson shadow in the half‑light
of the hall beyond. "By the way, Pharos, what is the longitudinal
coordinate of the palace?"
"What?"
The Prince
stared at him as if he had taken leave of his senses ‑which, of course,
Joanna thought with irrelevant frivolity, he had, but that had been a long time
ago.
"The
longitudinal coordinate of the palace. Because, if I recall correctly, the
energy‑line marked by the Devil's Road runs through Angelshand, with a
crossing‑node of the Kymil line at the old stone circle on Tilrattin
Island up the river. Suraklin . . ." He fell silent again, his hand
resting on the side of the silvery teles ball. The high, sharp sunlight glinted
on the fractured lens of his spectacles and touched Joanna's fingers on the
table without warmth.
"Suraklin," Pharos echoed. "Always, we return to the Dark
Mage."
Antryg's
eyes flicked back to the prince. In them she saw again that braced look, as if
he knew he walked among his foes. With a forced lightness he said, "Well,
Suraklin wasn't the only one who knew how to make them, of course."
"Presumably," Pharos said softly, "he taught you."
"Oh,
yes," Antryg agreed equably. "But it's a tedious and exhausting
process. One's laid up for weeks afterward. Suraklin mostly used old ones that
others had made centuries before. This one's very old." Joanna shivered
as he picked it up, handling it with the tips of his fingers. "Suraklin
had some that were thousands of years old and that had been absorbing power
from the wages who touched them until they almost had voices of their own. No
one really understands them well. Suraklin certainly didn't. But then, he used
a lot of things he didn't understand properly. It was," he added, with a
sudden hardness in his voice, "one of the things which made him so
dangerous."
Pharos'
voice was suspicious. "But how did Narwahl come to have one? My father . .
." He stammered on the words lightly. "They should have been
destroyed when Suraklin's power was broken."
"Indubitably."
In a billow of coat skirts Antryg turned with swift, sudden lightness and
hurled the teles at the stone wall like a volleyball center spiking down over
the net. Joanna flinched with the involuntary reaction as one flinches in the
quarter‑second between the dropping of a light bulb and its explosion on
a concrete floor, but the teles did not break. It hit the stone with a queer,
terrible ringing noise and bounced sharply back into Antryg's hands. The
ringing seemed to vibrate horribly on in Joanna's skull. "If you can
figure out a way to destroy a teles, the Council will be delighted to hear
about it. And in any case, this one may not have been one of Suraklin's. My
guess is that Narwahl got it from Salteris. According to Caris, they were
friends. Obviously, if Narwahl told Salteris enough for him to use electricity
against the abomination at Kymil, Narwahl was using Salteris' help and advice
for‑what?"
"Experiments with the effects of electricity on magic?" Joanna
guessed. She touched the concave metal bed in which the teles had rested.
Copper wires led out of it, their ends twisted, showing they had been joined to
other leads. "Does electricity have an effect on magic?"
"I haven't the faintest idea." Antryg set the teles back in its
bed and looked over the tangle of wires and resistors with interested eyes.
"I shouldn't think so. I've worked magic during lightning storms; and, according
to the scientific journals I've read, not only is lightning electricity, but
the air is charged with it at such times." He tracked a pair of wires to
the generator and experimentally turned the crank.
"Hold on," Joanna said. "That's not connected to anything
yet." She found the leads to the sparking rods and twisted the wires in
pairs. Pharos, who had remained warily in the doorway, stepped forward, but
drew back again as Antryg started turning the small generator crank. She saw
the fear and suspicion on the Regent's face, as thin trails of purplish
lightning began to crawl up the rods, and said, "It isn't magic, your
Grace. If I turned the crank, or if you did, it would act the same. Here."
She pushed up her sleeve flounces and took over in mid‑turn from Antryg,
feeling the stiffness of the crank as more and more power built up. Ghostly in
the diffuse sunlight of the attic, the lightning continued to spark.
"Don't touch it," she added quickly, as Antryg advanced a cautious
finger towards the rods. "You'll get a hell of a shock."
She let the crank go. The iron‑wrapped wheel whirled itself to a
halt.
"So
what was he trying to do?" Pharos advanced warily into the room once more.
"Use electricity in some way to contain magic or protect against it? Make
a shield of this tame lightning through which magic could not pass?"
Antryg,
his hands in his jeans pockets, shook his head. "Salteris would have been
the first one to tell him it wouldn't work as a protection," he said.
"In fact, if you stood in a field like that and I was a mage who wished
you dead, Pharos, it would be the simplest thing in the world to turn that tame
lightning inward on you. Joanna . . ."
She
paused in the act of tracking the compression on the vacuum pump.
"What does it look as if he was doing?"
She
shook her head, puzzled. "I don't know, but it sure as hell appears that
he was running electricity either into or out of the teles. Look." She
held up the wires from the teles' dish. "That means the teles is either
conductive or is itself the source of electricity. Is it?"
"Not
that I've ever heard," Antryg said, studying the wires emerging from the
generator, then looking thoughtfully back at the teles.
Her
fingers shrinking a little from touching the thing, Joanna lifted the teles
from its metal bed. Aside from feeling slick and queerly cold, there was
nothing untoward about it. She set it aside and examined the connections.
"That's funny. The ground wire here's a closed loop‑as if it was
grounding into itself" Frowning, she replaced the ball, then untwisted the
generator wires from the sparking rods and connected the teles to the rods.
Not much to her surprise, nothing happened.
"Closed
system," she said simply. "Read only. Nothing going in, so nothing's
coming out. Electricity isn't created out of nothing‑all power has to
come from somewhere."
"A
sound metaphysical and magical surmise as well," Antryg agreed quietly.
"But on the other hand . . ." He reached forward and brushed his
fingers along the oily‑looking, slightly phosphorescent surface of the
ball.
Joanna
felt it as clearly as a sudden drop in temperature‑like the heroine of The
Wizard of Oz, as if she had wakened after the magic and color into a gray
world of black‑and‑white. She felt sick and utterly weary, uncaring
about what they were doing, hating Antryg for his lies to her, for his
evasions, and for what he had done to her. He had brought her here and taken
advantage of her dependence on him. He would keep her there, stranded in this
filthy, dreary world in which she had no place . . . .
The
rods began to spark. Lightning crawled up them, faster and stronger than
before, bright enough to illuminate Antryg's strange, angular face as he stood
looking down on them, his earrings flashing like diamonds in the suddenly
sickened light of the gray sun.
"Stop
it!" Joanna said, suddenly furious at him for doing this to her to satisfy
some stupid academic curiosity of his own. "Turn it off. . . ." Some
part of her was screaming, This is important! This is the key to it
al!l But smothered in the effects of the experiment, she scarcely cared.
Pharos
pressed his hands to his eyes. "So this was it!" His voice shook.
"In these past weeks‑the morning I spoke to Herthe at the posthouse and
last night‑I thought it was only me! Only some new phase of my
madness!"
"No."
Antryg jerked free the ground wire, which ran so oddly from the teles back into
itself. The lightning died on the rods; and like a cloud from the face of the
sun, the cold grief lifted from the room. "The lifeenergy was being
drained from you, Pharos‑as it was being drained from everyone. Not
enough to kill, but only enough to maim in a way for which there is no
word."
Eerily, phosphorescent light continued to gleam for a time from the teles
itself, shining wanly up through Antryg's fingers where he rested them on the
silvery ball. His eyes were focused on some endless distance. Though Joanna could
not understand what it was that he saw, she shivered at the reflection of
dread, grief, and a knowledge that he did not want that she saw in his eyes.
"It was the whole course of Narwahl's experiments, I think," he
went on after a moment, speaking as if to himself, his voice nearly unheard in
the stillness of that sunwashed, enormous room. "It was for this that he
was killed‑not because he'd discovered how electricity might affect
magic, but because he had discovered how to use magic to draw off the life‑energy
which fills all the earth and use it to create electricity."
"But why?"
Joanna tucked her feet up under the voluminous masses of her rose and cream
petticoats to sit cross‑legged on the thronelike oak chair Antryg had
fetched for her out of the tangle at the far end of the attic. "Why
electricity?" Her eyes went from the enigmatic snarl of glass, copper, and
iron on the table to the ridiculous and equally enigmatic face of the man
perched on the corner of the worktable beside her.
The
Prince had gone, though his guards remained inevitably within call outside the
door. A footman in the Prince's ruby livery had brought them lunch, which lay
in a picked‑at ruin on the tray on the floor at Joanna's side. Antryg had
barely touched it or spoken.
Twice
while she was eating the honeyed ham and comfits, Joanna had been aware of him
watching her, as he had watched her in the silvery moonlight of the Devil's
Road and again that morning in the Prince's carriage. Evasive he had always
been, but the closer they had come to Angelshand the closer they had drawn to
the dark heart of the tangle of riddles surrounding them, the more pronounced
that wariness, that fear, had become.
Studying
his preposterous profile against the flat brightness of the windows, she
wondered for the thousandth time why.
Was
it because he knew her expertise lay in matters technological and he knew she
would eventually scent through his lies and evasions to the mystery's real
heart? But though she had a sense of pattern, a feeling that events connected,
she had no idea what the heart of it all was.
The
Prince's upcoming marriage, the attempts on his life, and Cerdic's stubborn
attachment to the mages seemed to form one subset; the abominations, the
original murder of the mage Thirle, and the fact that someone was going back
and forth across the Void formed another. Her own kidnapping and that of the
Archmage seemed linked in time, but not in any other way. The recurrent theme
of madness‑the prince's, Antryg's, the Emperor's‑seemed broken by a
hiatus of over twenty years. Like Ariadne's thread, the glittering trail of
wizards' marks ran through the dark labyrinth, but it seemed to lead nowhere.
As a programmer, used to breaking all situations down into manageable subsets,
she found that this computerlike logic failed her when it came to working in
the other direction.
Or
was Antryg's fear of her, she wondered, simply because he feared to trust? He
had trusted, he said, once too readily and once too often. Did he fear to care
for her, as she feared her caring for him, because of the power such caring
gives?
Maybe,
she thought, if she were better with people than she was with programs and
machines, she'd be able to tell whether he was lying or telling the truth. But
in a sense, she felt that he had always done both.
Still he did not answer her, and she said quietly, "It would help if
you'd trust me."
She saw the quick shiver that went through him, succeeded immediately by
the wry flicker of his grin. "Believe me, Joanna, it would help if I could
trust anyone. But I'm like Pharos‑afraid the person I hire to protect me
is the one who's been trying to kill me all along."
She frowned, hearing some note in his voice. "Is someone trying to kill
you?"
He regarded her with surprised gray eyes. "Of course, my dear.
Caris, for one . . ."
"He isn't the one you're thinking of, however," she said.
Though he did not reply, he seemed to withdraw a little into himself again, not
willing to give anything away. "You said you wanted to find out from the
Council of Wizards what happened twenty‑five years ago. Was whatever it
was connected with why the Prince went mad? It happened at the same time. But
if it was hereditary, from his father . . ."
He shook his head. "The Prince went mad because he could not accept
the fact that two and two equal four," he said gently. "Even as I
did. As for his father . . ." He looked away from her, his eyes suddenly
shadowed again with horror and grief. "That is another matter."
"But it connects somewhere, doesn't it?" The pearl rosettes of
her sleeve bows glimmered softly as she folded her arms. "And it connects
with the fact that someone's been moving back and forth across the Void to get
something from my world, something that needs electricity to operate. They
heard about Narwahl's experiments with the teles . . ." She paused,
frowning, and pushed at the corner of the tray at her feet with one slippered
toe. "But why didn't they steal the teles when they killed him?"
"Obviously,
because they had one of their own." He unfolded his thin legs and hopped
lightly to the floor, pacing with his hands thrust deep in the pockets of his
trailing black coat. "More than one, since the power seems to be drawn
from such an enormous area. Suraklin used to link them in series to increase
their power, and presumably that's what's being done here. What runs on
electricity in your world?"
Joanna
half‑laughed, reminded absurdly of her mother's request that she
"explain this computer stuff to me."
"God‑What doesn't? Television . . ."
"It
needs a transmitter as well as a receiver," the wizard objected. Joanna
had explained to him some time ago the intricacies of television, though the
ramifications of game shows and televised pro football had eluded him.
"And no wizard with a good scrying‑crystal would need one."
"Not
unless he'd become secretly addicted to Gilligan's Island reruns,"
Joanna agreed. She started to lean back in the chair, then sat hastily up as
the bodice boning poked her under the arm. "Same argument puts the kibosh
on telephones. A factory, maybe? It would have a hell of an economic advantage
over waterpower."
"With
a supply of raw materials coming in, it would be a bit tricky to hide."
Antryg paused in his pacing, toying thoughtfully with his gimcrack necklaces.
"Could
they use magic to hide it?" Joanna suggested. "No," she answered
herself almost at once, "because such generation of the electricity kills
magic, doesn't it? Or could that be what they're trying to do? Cripple
everyone's magic permanently? So whatever they're doing, they won't be found
out?"
"It's
a possibility." Antryg frowned. "And very like him, now that I think
of it."
"Like who?"
He
hesitated. "Whoever's doing this‑whoever it is. He‑or she‑is
very clever . . ." His frown suddenly deepened, and Joanna would have
given much to know whether what he next said was his true thought or something
to turn her from the subject. "Cripple everyone's power? Or drain it‑and
use it?"
She
was silent for a moment, struck by the monstrousness of the implication.
"Could they?" She remembered suddenly Caris' bitterness over losing
his powers and Magister Magus' fears. It crossed her mind to wonder where Caris
was now and what he'd been doing since . . . was it really only the night
before last?
"I
don't know." Antryg came over beside her and rested his long hands on the
elaborate poppy‑head finials of the tall chair back. "But power does
move along the energy‑lines. If it can be channeled into a central point
. . ." Then he shook his head. "But I don't see why electricity."
"No?"
Joanna turned in the chair to look up at him, and the boning of her bodice
stabbed her sharply again. "Ever since we talked at Devilsgate and you
said spells were similar to programming, I've been wondering. Would it be
possible to program a computer to do magic? A big one, like a Cray, that
reproduces all the functions of the human brain?"
"Reproduces the functions of the human brain," the mage echoed
softly. He was silent for a long time then, his gray eyes staring off into some
inner distance. What he saw there Joanna could not guess, but his eyes slowly
widened, as if they looked upon some unimaginable nightmare. So he had looked,
she realized, that morning in the Prince's coach, when he had learned or
guessed what it was that had happened twenty five years ago that had driven
both himself and the Prince into the comforting refuge of madness. "Dear
God . . ."
"What is it?" She half rose; her hand on his velvet sleeve
seemed to pull him from some private hell‑vision of that final
revelation. His eyes returned to hers, like the eyes of a man newly come from
some other world to find all things in this one not as he had left them. "Tell
me!"
Their gazes locked; in his she saw the struggle of fear and trust, unwilling
love, and the knowledge that he should not, must not, give to her more than he
had. Then he looked away. "I‑I don't know," he lied.
"You've spoken of programs which can write, draw, and project events which
can lie, even, about their own existence!"
"That's not what I meant!" When he tried to turn away, she
caught a handful of frayed lapel, the velvet soft as moleskin in her fist.
"You've known something all along, something you've been lying about . .
."
"It's nothing," he said, his voice a little breathless.
"It may not even be true‑much of what I fear isn't, or so they keep
telling me. What functions of thought can a computer reproduce?"
"Not a computer." Joanna released her hold on him and rose from
the chair herself, standing separated from him by the width of its thickly
carved, black oak back. "A program. A series of subroutines, done infinitely
fast. A computer can't perceive patterns, but it can recognize them, if it
breaks them down line by line. It's why programmers think the way they do. You
say magic is predicated on visualization and hope. With a computer, that's
graphics and statistical projection, since a computer doesn't care what should
or shouldn't exist. But to write a series of programs that complex, you'd need
a programmer who was also a wizard ‑or a programmer and a mage working
together. Which you aren't likely to find in either of our worlds."
She
stopped. They stood for a moment, looking at one another. In a hard‑hearted
and detached corner of her mind, she suddenly knew how Antryg had felt when he
had seen whatever hideous realization had been reflected in the Prince's
madness. Her own enlightenment beat upon her mind, as if she had walked from
darkness into the agonizing glare of a magnesium flare.
Looking up into his face, she saw that he knew she'd guessed.
"You aren't likely to find it in either of our worlds," she
repeated softly, "unless a mage came across the Void and kidnapped a
programmer."
"Joanna . . ." There was neither surprise nor innocence in his
face.
"And
got her to trust him," she went on, and her voice suddenly shook. He had
said, I will not take advantage of you . . . . She saw now that
he had been like a cardsharp who passed the deal, using that, too, to gain her
trust. Anger hit her‑at him and at herself for falling for him, for
caring. He had used her, played upon her sympathy for him and her dependence on
him, as Gary had done years ago. He had seen her with Gary at the party. He
must have known exactly what to do to gain first her trust and then her love.
Her hand closed around the chair's carved finial until the edges of the wooden
leaves dug painfully into her fingers. Her voice in her own ears sounded cold
and distant, like someone else's.
"Or was there some other reason you brought me here?"
He
said nothing, but there was despair in his eyes, the wreckage of all his hopes.
She
turned and left the attic, each step that earned her through the old door and
past the guard in the corridor seeming like a separate action, unconnected with
any before or after. He neither called nor tried to follow as she walked down
the stuffy enclosure of the stair and away through the quiet vistas of the
palace rooms, her mind blank of thought and bitter confusion in her heart.
"Joanna!"
In
contrast to the strength of the butter‑colored sunlight on the lawn, the
shade of the grotto where Joanna sat was like dark indigo. She wasn't sure how
long she'd been sitting‑not long, she thought. The shadows of the marble
statues lining the lawn‑heroes in archaic armor overwritten, as Cerdic's
had been, with protective runes or the old, strange, animalheaded gods‑hadn't
lengthened much. She looked around at the whisper; but in the shade of the
artificial bower's pink marble columns and twining roses, she saw nothing until
Caris moved.
"Caris!"
She untucked her feet from beneath her petticoats and sprang up. The sasennan
had gone back to the matte, dark, flowing coat and trousers of his vocation,
his long sword held ready in its scabbard in his left hand. Confused and shaken
by her realization of what Antryg wanted of her and by the violence of her own
feelings, she found herself suddenly weak with relief at knowing she was not,
after all, utterly without options.
In the time she had been sitting here, it had dawned on her how
absolutely in the wizard's power she was. She had always known she depended on
him, but now it had come to her that she could not leave him, even if
she were willing to risk being stranded forever in a world that was at best
miserably filthy and inconvenient and at worst perilous even to those who knew
what they were doing in it. There was nowhere in this world for her to go and
certainly nowhere that Antryg couldn't talk the Prince into sending men to find
her.
She felt ridiculously like bursting into tears, but Caris, she knew,
wasn't the sort of young man who could cope with lachrymose females. Instead
she took a deep breath and said, "You're all right."
He nodded. The smoke‑colored shadows didn't hide the marks of
strain and sleeplessness on his face. Some irreverent part of her came within
an ace of asking him, How long did you wait outside that vacant
building? but she pushed that thought away.
"We've been seeking you in a scrying‑crystal," he said.
"It wouldn't work while you were with Antryg, but when you were at a
distance from him . . ."
"We?" she demanded. "The mages who escaped from St. Cyr .
. ."
"The rest of them were released this morning," the sasennan
said. "But I . . ."
"That was Antryg's doing," she said and frowned, puzzled.
"Though I don't see why."
"He is closing in on his goal," a quiet voice said from the
rose‑hung shadows of the pillars. "And perhaps he fears what some of
them might say of him, should his name arise."
In the fawn‑spotted, green gloom a shadow emerged from the deeper
shadows, a slender old man of medium height, his tall forehead laddered with
wrinkles and his long white hair hanging to square, narrow shoulders clothed in
the black of a wizard's robe. His eyes were the same dark coffee‑brown as
Caris', with the same slight tilt to the corners. Joanna knew at once who he
had to be.
She stammered, "Your‑I'm sorry, but I'm a stranger here, and
this sounds really stupid, but I don't know whether I'm supposed to genuflect
or kiss your ring, and I've never figured out how to curtsy in these
damn skirts." She kicked aside the intrusive petticoats and stepped
forward to take his strong, slender hand and to be greeted by the winter
sunlight of his smile.
"Then we'll take your greeting as read," he said. "Caris
told me of you. I must say I am both astounded and relieved beyond expression
to see you alive, free, and‑in possession of your own mind."
She stared at the Archmage in shock. "What?"
Dourly, Caris remarked, "I gather Antryg lost no time in getting on
the good side of the Regent."
"The Regent needed his advice," Joanna said. "He needed a
wizard who couldn't possibly have done magic in the last seven years."
"A convenient, if specious, argument," Salteris said dryly.
"Antryg has been coming and going from the Silent Tower as he pleases for
some months now."
"I‑wondered
about that." She stepped back and gestured the old man to the marble seat
she had been occupying, a carved bench the size‑and function, she
suspected‑of a love seat, embellished at both ends with cupids and
wreaths of carved roses the size of cabbages. Neither it, nor the marble
statues in the gardens, she had noticed, bore the usual festoons of bird
droppings; the Prince's predilection for flogging his servants evidently had
certain valuable side effects beyond his ability to get lobster patties for his
guests in the middle of the night. "That is‑Antryg always seems to
know more than he should and he can't be that good a guesser."
"No."
The old man gently shook off Caris' efforts to help him down and seated himself
at Joanna's side. "He is in precisely the position of a doctor who doses a
man's coffee with poison and then claims a miracle cure for producing the
antidote‑a favorite dog wizard trick. And Pharos, I fear, has placed his
trust in him, to the exclusion of every wage who has been abroad in the world.
In many ways, Pharos is as credulous as his cousin, though far more dangerous.
I am only pleased, my child, to see you safe."
"Believe
me, the feeling's more than mutual." She glanced up at Caris, who stood
quietly at his grandfather's back. "I'm glad he found you safe."
"I
did not find him," the sasennan corrected her. "He found me. No one
finds the Archmage unless he wills it."
"But
where were you?" She looked back at the old man. "Did . .
." But she found herself almost unable to speak Antryg's name.
He
must have sensed it, for the dark, severe eyes softened with pity and
understanding. "Lost," he said. "I don't know‑the spell
was one of confusion. I wandered for days, it felt like, but I had no way of
telling how many, for there was neither day nor night where I was. Only darkness
. . ." He shook his head. "I don't know. I escaped, but it has left
me exhausted."
Quietly,
Caris asked, "Could he have pushed you into the Void itself? To wander
between worlds?"
Salteris passed a hand over his brow and shook his head. "I don't
know. Suraklin had a black crystal with a labyrinth inside. He could trap a
soul within it, to wander forever in the lattices of a gem small enough to pick
up in his hand."
"And Antryg was Suraklin's student," Joanna murmured, remembering
the teles, the elementals that had slain Narwahl Skipfrag, and the abominations
. . . .
The Archmage's dark eyes rested on her for a moment. Then he sighed.
"No," he said softly. "No‑it is worse than that. Antryg .
. ." He hesitated, folding his hands with his forefingers extended against
his lips, his deepset eyes gazing out into the sunlit vistas of the garden beyond
the shadows. "My child, I fear that Antryg Windrose has not existed for a
long time."
She didn't know why her eyes burned or her throat seemed to constrict
with grief; it was grief, she understood, for someone she had never known. In
the silence, she could hear the twitter of sparrows marking out their
territories among the trees and the far‑off clatter of carts beyond the walls
of the palace parkland in Angelshand, a quarter‑mile away. Words drifted
through her mind:
He could break
anyone's mind to his bidding . . . He wanted to live forever . . . . . .
Where's he been, if he hasn't? . . . I felt him in dreams . . .
Even
before the Archmage spoke again, she knew what he was going to say.
"Suraklin
had worked for a long time on the notion of taking over the minds of
others," the old man said. "With his slaves, of course, he controlled
their minds with his own; those under his influence did as he bade them and
were his eyes and ears, without thinking to ask why, and his influence was
incredibly strong. That is why I said I am glad to see you still capable of
leaving Antryg's side. But he wanted more than that." The old man sighed,
his thin mouth taut and rather white, as if sickened by some unshared knowledge
whose bare bones only he would reveal, not out of secretiveness, but out of
mercy. "He took the boy Antryg, the most powerful child adept he could
find. He taught him everything he himself knew, like a man furnishing a house
with his own things . . . ."
"No!"
Joanna pulled her mind from the hideous picture that swam there unbidden of a
gawky, thin‑faced, frightened boy staring with hypnotized gray eyes into
the terrible yellow gaze of the old man. Intellectually she knew that she had
never truly known Antryg. Why did it cross her mind that the nervous, gentle
man, the man who had whispered, "I will not do this . . ." and turned
away, rather than take her in his arms when she could not have afforded to say
no, even had she not consented, had been in fact that boy and not the mage who
had raped him of mind and body so that he could go on living in his stead.
"Oh, Christ, no."
"I'm sorry," the wizard said softly.
She
pressed her hands to her mouth, suddenly trembling, remembering the soft force
of Antryg's lips on hers. It was Suraklin who had kissed her, an ancient
intelligence in stolen flesh. She thought how close she'd come to lying with
him on the road from Kymil to Angelshand and felt almost ill.
Slim
and strong, the hand of the Archmage rested upon her arm. "When Caris told
me you were with him, I was afraid. I know how strong a hold Suraklin could
take, even over those he did not fully possess." He glanced back toward
the irregular roof line of the Summer Palace, visible over the sun‑spangled
trees. "I fear he has the Prince's trust already; he will consolidate that
hold in whatever way he can."
Sick
with disgust, she recalled the mage's mock flirtation with Pharos; a game, she
could have sworn at the time. But then, she could have sworn that Antryg's care
for her was genuine and not simply the means to some other end.
"Antryg
said . . ." She hesitated. It was not, she knew now, Antryg who had
spoken. "He said he had loved Suraklin. Was that true?"
"That
Antryg loved him?" Salteris nodded. "Yes, very probably. Suraklin had
that talent of winning the hearts of those who came in contact with him. Their
loyalty to him was unquestioning, almost fanatical, even in the face of
evidence that he was not what he said he was."
Joanna blushed, not, she knew, because she had trusted Antryg, but
because there was some large portion of her which cared for him still or, she
thought, confused, cared for the man who'd sat by her in the roadside inns and
who'd talked with her on those long, weary afternoons on the road about
television and computers and friends he'd met during the Mellidane Revolts, the
man who'd stood so close to her in the dimness of the drawing room at
Devilsgate. Why did she feel it was so absolutely impossible that that man was
the Dark Mage?
His
voice quiet in the gloom of the arbor, Salteris went on. "That was the
thing I never understood, after I found Antryg in the monastery, years after
the destruction of Suraklin's citadel‑his story that he had fled shortly
before the Imperial armies gathered. But I thought . . ." He sighed again
and shook his head.
"Twenty‑five years ago," Joanna said suddenly.
"What?"
The Archmage raised his head sharply, an amber glint flickering in the onyx
depths of his eyes.
"Antryg said he‑he had to ask some member of the Council about
something that happened twenty‑five years ago."
"So." The old man nodded. "He feared someone else might
have seen or known or guessed. And if he found them, if he learned that anyone
had seen Antryg make a final visit to Suraklin before the execution . . ."
The dark eyes narrowed. "And did he?"
Joanna shook her head. "He never found another member of the Council‑or
at least, not that I knew of. Pharos told him that his father had seen
something or knew something after the taking of Kymil which changed him; and
that seemed to horrify Antryg. But later . . ." She shook her head.
"I don't understand."
"If I were trying to bring the mad Prince under my influence,"
Caris sniffed, "and learned his father knew anything, had any suspicion
which he might have passed along, I'd be horrified, too."
"Maybe," Joanna said slowly. "He did say the Emperor never
liked him. Somebody‑I forget who‑told me the Emperor visited
Suraklin several times during his trial. Do you think he could have recognized
him in Antryg? Or suspected, at least? Because he did sentence him to death
seven years ago."
The old man sighed bitterly. "And I, to my sorrow, had the sentence
commuted. But as Archmage of the Council, I could not permit the Emperor, the
Church, or anyone else to hold the power of life and death over any Council
mage, be he never so forsworn of his vows. At the time, I believed that that
was all there was." He frowned into the distance again, all the parallel
lines of that high forehead seeming to echo and reecho his speculations and
his grief. "Hieraldus was a brilliant man and a perceptive one. He would
have felt the similarity. So did I, once or twice, at first. But I put it down
to the fact that for many years the boy Antryg had been virtually Suraklin's
slave. After that . . ." He shook his head, and a stray fragment of
sunlight turned the edge of his long hair to blazing silver against the black
of his robe. "Perhaps elements of Antryg's original personality survived‑enough
to keep those who knew him from suspecting the change. No one but Suraklin had
really known him well‑and then, of course, he was always known to be
mad."
"Useful,"
Caris sneered.
Joanna
remembered the shadows of the roadhouse hearth and Antryg's lazy smile over
the tankard of beer. I never knew him, she thought. I only
knew the lie. Why do I grieve for the lie?
"Was he?" she asked. "Mad, I mean."
"The
original Antryg?" Salteris shrugged. "Who knows? He may have become
unbalanced by the struggle against Suraklin's will. Afterward, the reputation
was Suraklin's shield and cloak, an armor fashioned to resemble vulnerability.
I pitied him, but never suspected‑until he struck." The old man's
mouth tightened again, all the delicate muscle of cheek and jaw springing into
prominence under the silky cloak of white hair. She understood then that hers
had not been the only trust, the only love, betrayed.
"Where
is he?" Caris' eyes sought the clustering turrets of the Summer Palace.
"I
left him in the attics of the old wing." She looked down at her hands,
folded among the silly profusion of ruffle and lace in her lap. "He ‑He
and I looked over Narwahl Skipfrag's equipment. I don't suppose I told him
anything he didn't already know. He's going to program a computer to do magic.
With a big enough computer, the scope of the subroutines would be infinite. I
think . . ."
She
hesitated, then went on, ashamed at how nearly she'd fallen for something that
now seemed so obvious. "I think the scenario he planned to use was that
some other evil wizard‑the one he said had kidnapped you and me and tried
to murder the Regent and all the rest of it‑was doing it, so why didn't I
help him steal equipment and work out programs as a countermeasure. At least
that would be the logical course of action. He was working up to it very
gradually, winning my trust . . . ." She swallowed, her throat hurting
again at the loss of that gentle consideration with which he had, she now
knew, baited his trap. "If I hadn't guessed, I probably would have done
it."
Cool
and very strong, Salteris' thin hands closed over hers. "It is perilously
easy to come to care for one upon whom one is utterly dependent," he said.
"Particularly if he has gotten you out of danger‑which he did,
didn't he?"
She
remembered the vicious whine of Pharos' riding whip in the darkness of the inn
and the heartbreaking exhaustion of that last desperate run through the muddy
lanes around St. Cyr‑remembered, too, Antryg's arms, surprisingly strong
around her, and the desperate hunger of his mouth on hers in the fog‑bound
isolation of the alley. She felt hot all over with shame.
The
old man's voice was like a gentle astringent. "He miscalculated your
strength, child, and your wits‑but it is as well you left him when you
did. Because he would not have stopped with simply winning your . . ."
He paused, and Joanna finished for him cynically, "Heart?"
"Confidence,
I was going to say. He could have gone into your mind you would have let him‑and
used your knowledge of—computers?" He pronounced the alien word
hesitantly.
Joanna
nodded. "Not only computers‑systems and program design. That's my
job. It's what I do."
"He could have used your brain, your knowledge, like a tool, even as
he could have used your body."
She glanced up quickly at that, sensing different meanings behind the
phrase, but Salteris' dark gaze was already fixed again on the distant vista of
parterre and statues and on the far‑off glint of the roofs of the
Imperial Palace, which rose like a mellow sandstone cliff beyond the trees.
"As
he used me," he murmured. "I was the one who originally told him of
Narwahl's experiments with the teles, little suspecting that the dozen or so
teles never found of Suraklin's hoard had been hidden away by him." He
shut his eyes for a moment, bitter grief deepening the lines already graven in
the soft flesh of the lids. "Narwahl was my friend," he added in a voice
barely to be heard. "It seems that in striving after justice, I have done
naught but ill." The narrow, sensitive mouth quirked, and he glanced
beside him at Joanna again, the bitterness of wormwood in those deep eyes.
"Like you, I have been victim to that accursed charm."
She
put her hand over his, feeling the warm flesh, thin as silk over the knobby
shapes of knuckles and tendon. Archmage though he was, she felt in him suddenly
only an old man who knew himself responsible for his dear friend's murder. She
hoped he knew nothing of the blood‑splattered attic with its tiny shards
of glass; but she also knew that the hope was impossible, since he was the
Archmage.
"I'm
sorry," she said, and some of the bleak horror faded from the old man's
eyes.
"We have both been his dupes," he said gently.
Joanna
shook her head. "All I've lost is some illusions," she replied.
"Not‑not anyone I know." Only someone I hoped to know. And
the hope, she reflected wryly, was my problem.
His
fingers tightened over hers, remarkably strong for so old a man's.
"Come," he said and rose to his feet, the long, dark robe falling
straight about him. "It's best we find him, before he learns that I've
escaped and am here."
The
Summer Palace was curiously quiet as they approached it; the Regent's high,
harsh voice was audible from the terrace, but his words were indistinct with
distance. Like three ghosts, they moved through the shrubbery, which, in
accordance with the Prince's Gothic tastes and desire for privacy, grew closer
around the walls than the formal vistas of topiary which surrounded the new
Palace. Away from the graceful symmetry of its remodeled facade, all pretense
of the building's modernity faded. The stable and kitchen courts were even to
Joanna's untrained eye a jumble of styles and periods, mansard roofs crowding
comfortably shoulder to shoulder with the oddly angled gambrels and projecting
upper story’s of the Palace's earlier incarnations. "Won't someone ask us
what we're doing here?" she inquired, glancing uncertainly at Caris' dark
uniform and sword and at the old man's flowing dark robes.
They
paused in the gloom of a grove of cypresses opposite the round, gray turret of
the stable tower. Through the tower's broad gate the stable court was visible;
grooms in the Prince's flame‑colored livery were working with neat
efficiency to harness a pair of coal‑black horses to a light carriage of
some kind. At Joanna's side, Salteris murmured, "I scarcely think
so," and made a small gesture with one hand.
The
nearer of the two horses, which had been standing quietly up until that
instant; flung up its head in panic. A stableboy caught too late at the bridle,
and the beast reared, frightening its harness‑mate. Men began to run from
all directions under the shouted orders of the gray‑haired coachman in
his gold‑and‑crimson braid. "Stay close to me," the
wizard admonished. With Caris glancing watchfully in all directions and Joanna
holding up the voluminous handfuls of her beruflled skirts, they calmly crossed
the drive and passed unseen by the shouting confusion around the carriage.
"It's
always easier to enter a house through the servants' quarters," the old
man said softly, "provided you know what you're doing." The oppressive
heat of steam and the damp smells of soap and linen enveloped them as they
passed into the shadows of the brick laundries on the far side of the court.
Salteris turned unerringly along a brick‑paved corridor with a low,
groined wooden ceiling, under which the day's heat collected with the mingled
smells of smoke, cooking meat, and spices from the kitchens beyond. A man
started to emerge from an archway of reflected daylight to their right. Joanna,
startled, paused in her stride, but the old man beside her only flicked a
finger; from the room beyond came a crashing noise that made the servant turn
hastily back, yelling "Not that way, you stupid jolterheadl"
Something
stirred in Joanna's consciousness. A dark, cold feeling of half‑familiar
strangeness, like an unheard sound, seemed to go through her, and she was aware
of the sudden hiss of Caris' breath beside her. Salteris checked his steps in
the narrow seam of the kitchen passage, his dark eyes narrowing and a flame
seeming to spark suddenly in their depths . . . .
Joanna
identified where she'd first felt that queer, haunted sense of terror a split‑instant
before Caris and his grandfather's glances met.
Then they all began to run.
There
was a backstairs at the end of the corridor, leading to apartments in the old
wing. Salteris, dark robe billowing about his thin limbs, led them unerringly
to it, across an unused state chamber with its ancient linenfold and gilded
coffer and up the stairs to the attic; Joanna followed in a susurrus of silk
taffeta. The memory of the blood‑splattered attic in Narwahl's house and of
Minhyrdin the Fair mumbling, He'd call them up, spirits, elementals leaped
to her mind. Panic chilled her heart as she realized that Antryg had electrical
equipment at his disposal.
But
when they burst past the startled guard into that vast room, nothing met their
eyes‑nothing, hanging dark and shimmering where the sunlight had been, as
if a hole had been opened in the fabric of the world and the night,
momentarily, allowed to breathe through. It grew smaller and smaller, like a
shrinking bubble of darkness, even as they watched, seeming to retreat without
ever reaching the far wall. Along it, Joanna thought she could see something
moving.
Salteris
strode forward and Joanna reached involuntarily to catch the black fabric of
his sleeve. The smells of woodsmoke and herbs came to her from it as he turned,
as they had come from Antryg's‑the smells of wizardry that had smothered
her at San Serano, with the strangler's grip around her throat. She gasped,
"Don't . . . !"
At
the same moment, Caris shoved her roughly aside, his sword whining from its
sheath. "We'll lose him!" The wind of the Void lifted his blond hair
back from his forehead, and anger blazed in his eyes. For a terrifying instant,
Joanna saw that her choice was either to fling herself willy‑nilly after
them into whatever second gap in the Void Salteris should open or to be trapped
in this world, with neither good wages nor evil to help her, forever . . . .
She
gritted her teeth and tightened her grip on her gathered‑up petticoats,
ready to run. But Salteris did not move. He only stood watching as the hideous
black shimmer of the Void faded and vanished.
"No,"
he said. His voice echoed queerly in that enormous room, with its jumble of
antique furniture and the sun glinting harshly on the glass tubes and copper
wires coiled beneath the window. He turned back to consider them‑Joanna
in her ruffled and borrowed gown, and Caris with his sword half‑drawn,
his eyes the eyes of a hawk stooping to its prey. "No. I know where he has
gone, my children. I read the marks of Suraklin that guide him like candles
through the darkness." As if he guessed her fears from her grim eyes and
braced chin, he smiled and, reaching out, gently touched Joanna's cheek.
"I will not leave you alone here, child. Indeed," he added quietly,
"when I cross the Void to trap him, I shall need you both."
CHAPTER XVIII
When they reached
gary's house in Agoura, they found it empty and silent. Just as well, thought
Joanna, watching Caris make a rapid, wary circuit of the den, kitchen, and
party room, naked sword blade in hand. The last thing she wanted at the moment
was even to see Gary, let alone explain to him where she'd been for the last
two weeks and who Caris and the Archmage were.
Letting
herself in with the hideaway key, she had a strange sense of deja vu, like the
dreams she occasionally had of being in grade school again with her adult
knowledge and experience. Some of it was simply aesthetic‑her eye, used
for weeks to rococo curves and molded plaster ceilings, found the high tech
starkness of the place alien and strange, and her lungs gagged on the
quality of the September air. But it was emotional as well‑a sense of
reality‑poisoning that was increased by the impersonality of the house,
the party room with its ugly, comfortless couches and prominent television set.
Everything around her seemed almost audibly to speak Gary's name.
For
no reason, she remembered the ragged little mill girls in Kymil, hastening
through the silent glory of late summer dawn, and the bitter, weary pity on
Antryg's face as he'd asked, "Is it worth it?"
"It's
all dead," Caris said softly. He came back from the big glass‑and-chrome
kitchen, sword still in hand, cautiously touching television, bar, and couches
in passing. "I mean‑it never was alive." He paused, his dark,
beautifully shaped brows drawn down over his eyes with puzzlement as he looked
at Joanna. "What is it all made of?"
"Plastic, mostly." She shoved her hands into her jeans pockets
and looked around her at the house, realizing at last what it was that had
chiefly bothered her about Gary. "It's cheap, and it'll do."
"But
it isn't‑it isn't right, " the sasennan insisted.
Salteris,
who had been standing by the patio doors, gazing thoughtfully out at the smog,
let fall the drapes and turned back. "I doubt one person in ten notices,
anymore," he remarked, almost casually. "People get used to things.
In time, they cease to remember and don't miss what they've forgotten they
had." He came back to where Joanna stood, once again in the well‑worn
comfort of jeans and t‑shirt, and said, "The mark is upstairs,
isn't it?"
The
mark was at Salteris' own eye level. He brushed his hand along the wood, as
Antryg had done on the white, curlicued paneling of the Emperor's suite. Like
a glowing pixel, the scribble of light seemed to float up out of the depths of
the grain. The wizard stood for a long time gazing at it; even when it faded
again, as it did almost at once, he did not move, but remained, as if he could
read it still.
"Was
that the mark," he asked her at last, "that you saw in San Serano?
In the great computer room there?"
"I
think so," she said hesitantly. She pushed back her unruly blond hair from
her face, trying to remember something beyond the terror, the queer, smoky
smell of the robes, and the scorch of a man's breath on her temple.
"His
influence can be incredibly strong upon the minds of those who know him,"
the old man murmured. Sharply through the curtains, a scissor edge of late
sunlight rimmed his angular profile, so like Caris', and haloed the free‑floating
strands of his silver hair. "And even those who do not know him yet‑the
mark influences their minds, as if he spoke to them when their thoughts were
elsewhere. The mark prepares the way. I see his influence in your eyes
still."
She
looked away, feeling her face go blotchy red with shame that he should guess.
"You
do not want to believe entirely ill of him," Salteris continued gently.
"You search for the reasons he did what he did, motives to make his use of
you other than what it was. It says better of you than it does of him."
Her
throat tight and aching as if she had screamed her heart out, she stood staring
at the silent red eyes of the IBM in its bank of 20‑megabyte disk drives.
"I
know, Joanna." The slender, powerful hands rested on her shoulders.
"Even now, even knowing what I know through the memory of the grip of his
mind upon mine, even knowing I must meet him again, it is my instinct to trust
him. That is the terror‑and the strength‑of his spell."
Caris
turned sharply from examining the neat shelves of additional ROM and backup
floppies, the sunlight slicing through the single chink of curtain bursting
against the brass of dagger hilt and buckle. "Must you meet him?"
"He
has not yet been here." The old man folded his hands in the sleeves of his
robe. "He will come to this, his mark."
"Why?"
The
dark gaze rested gently on her for a moment before the Archmage replied.
"Perhaps
there is something here he wants," he said. "Perhaps‑for very
little, if any, magic operates here, and it is hard to say‑perhaps
because he will sense you near it. But he will come‑he must. And I must
meet him."
Caris asked softly, "Alone?" In the inflection of his voice,
Joanna could hear that he already knew his grandfather's reply.
Salteris sighed and folded his hands before him, forefingers pressed to
his lips. At length he said, "Caris, I am sure of myself. To introduce a
second factor, even one that I trust implicitly, as I trust you, would be to
increase the danger."
"But your magic doesn't operate here," Caris began
protestingly.
"Neither does his."
"But he is twenty years younger than you and a half afoot taller! He
can . . ."
"My son," the old man said, with a smile, "do you think me
that defenseless?"
Caris said nothing.
"And then, someone must stay with Joanna." The dark gaze moved
thoughtfully to her in the close, hot gloom of the computer room. "I do
not think he will pass me unseen, but he might. If he does, he must not be
allowed to speak to her."
Neither Caris nor Joanna spoke; but judging by the sasennan's face, he
wasn't any more thrilled with the idea than she was.
More gently, Salteris went on, "You stand in grave danger still,
Joanna. Even knowing what you know, you want to trust."
She looked away again. Hating herself, she nodded. Dark and compelling,
the old man's glance went to his grandson. "If you cannot prevent him from
speaking to her in any other way, kill him." He turned and walked to the
window, flinging back the curtain to admit a drench of harsh and smog‑stained
afternoon light. Beyond the window, the hills that hid San Serano bulked in the
haze, and between them, like a gun sight, stood the dusty little shed in which
they had stepped from the dark of the Void.
"I
will wait for him there," he said. "He is sly. . . ." He lifted
his thin, white fingers at the intake of Caris' protesting breath. "He
will not speak with me, if you are near. He has reason to fear you, my son.
Trust me." He looked back at them, the hot sunlight outlining the worn
contours of his face, suddenly very fragile‑looking in his faded black
robe. "I know what it is that I do."
The
light had shifted again to the sharp‑edged champagne brilliance of the
long Southern California afternoon when Antryg came walking over the hills.
Caris
and Joanna were in the computer room, where they had been since Salteris left
them, alternately speaking of what had passed since they'd parted at Magister
Magus' and watching for movement in the parched ochre vastness of grass and
dust.
Caris
had turned from the window to regard Gary's monstrous new IBM among its red‑eyed
banks of monitors and surge suppressors, as he had done at intervals, all
afternoon. After some moments, he said, "This is the thing that is your
life and the life of all your world? The machine that thinks like a man?"
"Not
like a man." Joanna folded up her legs to sit cross‑legged on the
corner of the computer table, the weary portion of her mind that was not trying
desperately to avoid thinking of Antryg taking considerable comfort in the
freedom of jeans. He is walking into a trap, part of her said, and she
pushed the treacherous impulse to care aside. "Computers can arrive at the
same conclusions a person can, with the same kind of logic people are capable
of, when they aren't hoping that two and two won't equal four . . . ." She
paused, then went on. "But not like a man." She reached for the
switch on the main terminal. "Would you care to try?"
He
stepped back hastily and shook his head. Then, seeing her startled expression,
he flushed a little and explained, "It is not the Way of the Sasennan. We
are trained to be what we are, and to do what we do. All this‑" He
gestured around him at the high tech fixtures of the house, the soft hum of the
air conditioner, and the alien richness of the world, "It is not supposed
to matter to the sasennan. We are weapons, honed to a single end. That is
all."
She
remembered Kanner‑remembered, also, Caris' uneasiness at operating
without a master, or with only the dottily masterful Antryg to give him orders.
In his own way, she realized, Caris was as bad with people as she.
Curious,
she said, "But you were mageborn. You were going to be a wizard. Isn't
that just the opposite?"
He
hesitated, as if it were something he had never quite articulated to himself,
let alone anyone else. As he always did when he was trying to say what he
really meant, he spoke slowly. "It is, and it isn't. As a mage, one can't
give oneself to any of it, either. They say neither the mage nor the sasennan
drinks the world's wine, as street‑warriors and dog wizards do. So it
isn't‑" He shook his head. "It isn't safe to sniff at the
fumes. At least," he added more hesitantly, "it isn't safe for me.
To be what we are, and only what we are, to put everything into
that, is what hones us to a killing edge. Anything else is a softening."
"The
more you do, the more you do." Joanna sighed. He had a point. It was a
definite changing of mental gears to go from dealing with computers to dealing
with people, particularly after she'd been programming for hours or days at a
time. And indeed, most of the time she did feel more at ease dealing with her
IBM than she did dealing with Gary or with any other human being . . . at
least, until recently.
Antryg . . .
Not Antryg, she told herself wretchedly. Suraklin. Suraklin.
Caris turned suddenly. Though he did not speak, Joanna was on her feet
and at his side, looking out toward the tiny, ragged outline of the shed.
In the fulvous sunlight, Salteris stood in front of the shed, unmoving
save for the wind stirring his black robes and silky hair. After what seemed
like a long moment, Antryg came into view above the tawny crest of the hill.
He had changed back into the jeans and scruffy t‑shirt in which she
had first seen him, here in this house. The slanted afternoon light caught the
silver‑foil HAVOC across his chest; though she knew it was only the name
of a rock group, the word had a grim significance to her, knowing what she now
knew. His cracked spectacles glinted as he held out his hand to the unmoving
Archmage and took a step closer to him. Joanna thought he spoke; but at this
distance, it was impossible to tell.
She could not see whether the old man replied. In her heart she knew her
fears should be for Salteris' safety rather than Antryg's.
After a moment, the younger wizard stepped forward and bending his tall
form, embraced the old man. After brief hesitation, Salteris' arms came up to
return the embrace. Antryg led him gently into the shed.
Beside her, Joanna heard Caris whisper, "No . . ."
She
caught him by the arm as he turned away. "He said he had to meet him
alone." She was aware her hand shook.
"He
also said that the one thing he feared was Antryg's charm." He stepped
back from Joanna, the first true kinship she had ever seen for her in his face.
"I know. I‑when I first met him, I trusted him. And I've had to
fight all this time to keep from trusting him again. I know." He nodded
towards the silent shed in the puma‑gold emptiness of the hills.
"Are you coming?"
The
air in the patio was hot, in spite of the cooling proximity of the pool. From
the iron gate that looked out into the hills, they saw Antryg emerge from the
shed and stand for a time, his back leaned against the splintery wood, his head
bowed in exhaustion. Caris glanced quickly at Joanna, fear in his eyes; when
they looked again, the mad wizard was gone.
Caris, at a dead run, reached the hill long before Joanna did.
Parching
and oppressive, the heat of the afternoon seemed to have imbued itself into the
coarse wood of the shed, along with the stinks of dirt and old oil slowly
baking in the summer silence. Pierced by splinters of blinding light from the
chinks in the walls, the shed's darkness defeated Joanna's eyes as she stepped
through the open door, but it seemed to her that she already knew what she
would find inside.
The
Archmage Salteris lay in a corner, behind a crazy pile of splintered plywood
and the dismembered parts of a car. He had been laid out carefully, a small,
frail form under his black robes. There was dust in his white hair. His eyes
had been closed, and his mouth, also, though his face was still a hideous
mottled gray‑blue with strangulation. Even with the merciful masking of
the shadows, Joanna could not deceive herself that he might be somehow revived.
She had killed two men. She knew what death looked like now.
The
unbearable brilliance of a crack of sunlight outlined Caris' face in gold as he
knelt beside the corpse. He stared out straight ahead of him, his face blank
with a kind of shock. He had relied on the old man, Joanna realized, as much as
he had loved him. His rage at Antryg had come as much from fear of losing
Salteris' support as it had been from his fanatical loyalty. He had been able
to believe in his grandfather's disappearance, she remembered, but not in his
death. He had made himself a weapon for those slender, blue‑veined hands.
It had always been inconceivable to him that they would one day fall slack.
His
face inhumanly calm and still, Caris lifted one of those hands, limp now as a
bundle of jointed sticks. He turned it over to look at the white fingers and
palms, then laid it as it had been, back upon the breast.
Tenderly, still with
that odd, almost wondering numbness, he brushed aside the white silk of the
hair and looked for a time at the bruises on the colorless, creepy flesh of the
throat.
Joanna
thought it was only some final seeking for contact with the old man he had
loved, until she heard him whisper, "Why? Was your trust in him so great
that you didn't even struggle when you felt his hands around your throat? Could
he do even that to you?"
Then
suddenly he doubled over, as if some poison, drunk unnoticed, had finally taken
grip. The big, well‑shaped hands pressed his face, and shudder after
silent shudder of grief racked through his body. He twisted aside from the hand
Joanna tried to lay on his back and knelt in the stifling dust, hands pressed
to his face as if he could squeeze all tears, all sound, all feeling back
inside of him, as it was the Way of the Sasennan to do. Barred with sunlight,
Salteris' distorted face seemed strangely calm, as if he knew that none of
this, nor any further machinations of the Dark Mage, concerned him any longer.
After a long time, Joanna asked, "What can we do?"
Joanna heard Antryg's light footfall in the party room an hour and a half
later. Outside the kitchen windows, the afternoon light had slanted further,
then taken on the curious crystal quality of evening, as the wind moved the
smog further east. She had been sitting and staring out at the changes of the
light since returning to the house. She felt empty and cold inside, as if some
final illusion had collapsed; her thoughts seemed to have slipped into read‑only
mode, going round and round until they were exhausted, without producing
anything except that, like Caris, she must do what she must do.
But when she heard the footfalls that she knew for Antryg's, it felt as
if everything within her were passed suddenly through a wringer.
She heard him pause in the party room. Forcing a calm upon herself she
had never known she possessed, she got to her feet, walked to the stove, and
poured the water she had heated in the teakettle over the combination of
instant coffee and crushed sleeping pills in the cup on the counter. She took a
deep breath and conjured again for herself the vision of Salteris' dead,
swollen face in the brown gloom of the shed. Then she picked up the cup and went
into the party room.
He was standing near the curtained glass of the doors, looking sick unto
death.
The naturalness of her own voice astounded her. "Did Salteris find
you?"
He looked up at the sound of her voice, and some expression‑shock, dismay, despair of a situation that was
hopeless—superseded the misery and exhaustion on his face. He shut his eyes for
a moment, fighting some terrible inner weight which seemed to have descended on
his wide, bony shoulders, and whispered hopelessly, "You came with
him?" Then, realizing that he should not even know of Salteris' presence
in this world, he looked at her again and added, "Salteris?"
"He
brought me back here," Joanna said. "He came to me in the garden‑he
said he had to speak to you. He didn't say why. We went up to the attic but you
had gone. So I asked him to bring me back, and he did."
He
closed his eyes momentarily. The lines around them looked as if they'd been put
in with a chisel in the discolored flesh. He said, "I wouldn't have left
you."
"I didn't know that."
He
looked so shaken, so drained of all his usual ebullience, that it was
absolutely natural that she should hand him the coffee. She had to force her
hand to it, force herself to look into his face as she did it, telling herself
he was Suraklin. Suraklin! He drank it without a word, grateful for the warmth
of it. After a moment he said, "Thank you." Going to the couch, he
sat down as if he had only just recalled that it was possible to do so.
He
ran his fingers through his graying hair and seemed to pull himself together.
"I'm sorry," he said. "I didn't mean to leave you long‑not
even this long. I should have returned earlier than this." He swallowed,
and she saw the muscles of his jaw harden for a moment. "And Pharos would
have looked after you, kept you safe. But there was something here I had to
find."
She
remained standing in front of him, her arms folded and her heart hammering, but
her whole body feeling strangely numb. "And did you?"
He shook
his head, a small gesture, defeated. "No." He looked down, turning
the remains of the drugged coffee in his big hands, staring down into the dregs
as he had once studied tea‑leaves in the posthouses to buy them supper.
He asked carefully, "Did Salteris say where he had been?"
"No," Joanna said. "And frankly, I didn't care."
He
looked up at her quickly, that look she had seen before, with the ruin of all
that he had ever sought or hoped in his eyes.
"I
don't want anything further to do with this," she said, fighting to keep
the tremor out of her voice. "I only wanted to come home, to get out of
whatever is going on. You said once . . ." Her voice faltered. "You
said once you'd see I came to no harm. If you meant that, just leave me alone.
All right?"
He said
nothing for a time, but their eyes held, and for a long moment she had the
impression that he wavered on the brink of telling her the truth, of stepping
beyond that self‑imposed wall and trusting her, as it was still her
instinct, fight it though she might, to trust him. Then he sighed, and in an
almost soundless voice, agreed. "All right."
She
couldn't help herself. "Will you be all right?" What a stupid question,
she told herself an instant later.
He managed the ghost of his old warm, half‑demented smile.
"Oh, yes." He set the cup down at his side. "As long as I stay a
step ahead of the Council. As long as I can . . ." He paused and shook his
head, as if trying to clear it. "I'm sorry, Joanna. But the mark on the
wall. .the mark on the wall . . ."
Then he slumped sideways and was asleep.
CHAPTER
XIX
It was long after
dark when he awoke. Joanna was still sitting on the curiously comfortless gray
chair beside the couch, her mind blank, her body and bones cold with
exhaustion. She almost literally could not believe that she had awakened that
morning in the old Summer Palace at Angelshand or that it was only fourteen or
fifteen hours ago that she had sat in the Regent's carriage, while he had wept
as he'd spoken of his father. It was as if it had happened to someone else.
And
in a way, she thought, it had.
The
heat of the day had passed off. The party room was dim, illuminated only by
the reflected yellow glare of the kitchen's lights. Through the open glass
doors of the patio, the smell of chlorine came in off the pool with the warmth
of the tepid night.
She
saw Antryg stir, fighting his way to the surface of the dark well of his
dreams, saw him try to move, and saw how his breath stopped, then quickened
when he realized that he could not.
His eyes opened, and he looked up into her face.
"I'm sorry, Antryg." Oddly enough, she meant it.
He
made a quick motion and ceased at once. His wrists and ankles were knotted
tight with the plastic‑wrapped wire Joanna had carried in her purse and
which she'd gotten, weeks ago, from the telephone man at San Serano. With weary
irony, she remembered thinking at the time that it would come in handy. More
than that, Joanna realized, recalling her own first experience with
barbiturates, he must be prey to the grandmother of all headaches. The eyes
that stared up into hers were dark with despair and terror, but showed no
surprise.
"Caris
is summoning the Council," she said quietly. "Salteris had something
called a lipa in his robes."
His
head dropped back onto the cushions of the couch. She saw the shudder that went
through him; but curiously, as he closed his eyes, what was in his face was a
kind of relief.
"Why?" she asked. "Who were you expecting?"
The
bruised eyelids moved a little, but did not open. He whispered,
"Salteris."
Bitter
heat went through her as she remembered how the old man had embraced him, just
before he'd led Salteris into the shed. Her voice shook. "You know as well
as I do that Salteris is dead."
His eyes opened again and looked up into hers. "You saw?"
"I didn't actually see you strangle him, no‑but we saw
enough."
The breath went out of him in a sigh. Two and two, Joanna thought numbly,
once again and inevitably equal four. She went on, "But he told us."
His head turned so sharply that he flinched, and the color drained from
his face. In the sidelong light that came from the kitchen, she could see the
sweat gleam clammily on his cheeks and the bridge of that absurd nose.
"Told you what?"
"Who you are."
"Who I . . . ?" His eyes widened, as he understood.
"No," he said softly. "Joanna, no."
"He had no reason to lie."
"He had every reason! Joanna, don't you understand? When Suraklin escaped for
the last time from the body he was born in‑the body that the Archmage and
the Council slew and burned in Kymil twenty‑five years ago‑it was
not my being, not my body, that he stole for his escape."
"Then why did he teach you everything he knew?"
"I was his chosen victim, yes," Antryg said quietly, and she
could hear the desperation buried under the forced calm of his voice.
"Although I didn't know what was intended for me, I suspected‑I
don't know what. It all became tangled with dreams and madness in the years I
lived in hiding, knowing he was dead and feeling his mind seeking mine in my
dreams. It's why I had to find a member of the Council in Angelshand to confirm
what I feared, though I already knew it to be true‑to find where he'd
been, who he'd been, all those years. For I knew he was alive. In nightmares,
I'd see someone I knew looking at me with Suraklin's eyes . . . . And then, in
the Silent Tower, he came to me, and I knew him."
"Who?" Joanna demanded, closing her mind furiously against what
she knew to be a trap.
"Suraklin," Antryg said softly. "Salteris."
"You expect me to believe that?" Panic made her hands tremble,
and she closed them tightly on one another against the arm of the couch.
"You expect me to trust your word, after you've lied and evaded me‑"
"I had to!" Antryg cried desperately. He twisted against his
bonds, then shuddered and went white again, to lie still, teeth clenched, until
the nausea passed. "He had an accomplice in this world, Joanna. I knew
that much from the marks on the walls here and at San Serano. None knows better
than I the terrible strength of the hold he has on the minds of others. And I‑I
was afraid it was you."
She looked away from him, understanding suddenly why he had feared her;
why he had feared even more the attraction that she knew he had felt toward her.
Suraklin's gift was to win the trust of others, she thought. No wonder Antryg
would mistrust even his love for her‑if he was telling the truth.
"I wanted to trust you," he went on. "I couldn't. I didn't
dare. If he even suspected I'd guessed he was still alive, he would have
hidden, gone underground in some other body, as he did before. I'm only a man,
Joanna‑one of the very few left who knew him, who might be able to
recognize him. And in this vampire state, going from body to body, he is
deathless. He had to be stopped . . . ."
"And
you're saying that's why you killed Salteris." She shifted her feet
beneath her in the chair. Somewhere outside in the night, a warm stir of wind
brought her the far‑off sounds of the Ventura Freeway and the distant
boom of a plane heading into Burbank. "Because Suraklin had taken over his
body."
"No."
The crumpled, weary lines around his eyes darkened with something deeper than
horror or grief. "I killed Salteris because Suraklin had departed from his
body. Don't you see? The body he first stole, the one in which he escaped from
Kymil, was the Emperor's. As Emperor, he ruled Ferryth for twenty‑one
years. Only Pharos guessed, and Pharos was a child and could do nothing‑could
not even dare believe what his heart told him was true, that his father had
ceased to be his father. As the Emperor, he tried to have me executed after the
Mellidane Revolts‑and maybe it was he who pushed me into aiding the
rebels in the first place. I don't know. But four years ago, he left the
Emperor, left him mindless as he is now, to take over Salteris' mind and body,
to become Salteris‑and he left Salteris today, to go on to someone else.
I killed Salteris . . ." He forced his voice steady, against the sudden
stress of fatigue and grief. "I killed him because I had loved him,
because he had been my master, and my friend. I could not bear to leave him as
the Emperor is, a mindless, imbecile shell, cared for by others. And except for
leaving Suraklin to begin with, it was the hardest thing I have ever
done."
Like
a litany, she whispered, "I don't believe you. They told me . . ."
"Suraklin
told you,"
Antryg insisted desperately. "He had to discredit and kill me. He left one
of his gloves in my room, the first time he visited me, and by sleight of hand
got Caris to believe he had them both with him. He never came into my rooms the
second time, never entered the Tower at all. He couldn't have touched the Void
from within its walls; no one could, unless it was opened just outside. But he
made Caris think he had by a spell of illusion, and if the Void had not
weakened enough for me to escape then, Caris or the Bishop or the Witchfinders
would have killed me that night, as he'd intended they should. He cannot afford
to leave me alive. You must believe me, Joanna. Please believe me . . . ."
"Shut
up!" She turned her face away, panic struggling to the surface of her
heart. If you cannot prevent him from speaking to her, kill him, Salteris
had said. Because she would hear the truth, she wondered, or because she would
want to believe the lie?
She heard the rustle of his body as he tried to move again; then it
stilled. His voice, when he spoke, was rapid, as if he knew his time were
running out.
"He wanted to live forever. From a goal, it became an obsession with
him. He had the magic by which he dominated the minds of others; he used spells
to break down his own mind, his personality, into thousands of small cells‑subroutines,
you call them‑as if he visualized and formed by magic a duplicate of his
personality, which he put into the mind and body of another. I had to learn who
it was he'd taken to flee Kymil the first time after his defeat. Until this
morning, I didn't know who. And until this afternoon, when you said computers
can reproduce the human brain, I didn't know what his ultimate intentions
were."
"A computer," Joanna said quietly. She turned back and looked
at the tall, gawky form in faded jeans and black‑and‑silver t‑shirt,
lying on the couch with his tawdry beads glinting in the reflected light.
"Not program a computer to do magic‑program a computer to be a mage.
And use the teles to feed it electricity."
"At the cost of the life of your world and mine. At the cost of that
dreadful pall of colorless grief, of unliving and uncaring, that will cover
both our worlds when the computer is ready to run. And no one will understand
quite what they are paying, or why. In a generation or two, they will not even
remember what it was like before."
Something
Salteris had said in this room caught at Joanna's mind. Past the open patio
doors, she could see the dark shed against the black of the evening sky where
Caris sat alone with the lipa, the summoning‑spell, and with the
Archmage's cold body. She felt a queer stirring along her nerves, the half‑sensation
of fear and cold, and knew that somewhere close the Void was being opened.
"Just
because you're telling me this now," she said softly, "doesn't mean
you're not Suraklin."
The
muscles of his bare arms moved again as he twisted against the wires.
"Joanna, I swear it," he said softly. "What can I say to make
you believe me?"
"Nothing,"
she said. "Because if you are Suraklin, you would say anything. Even . .
." She shut her mouth on the words, Even that you love me. After a
moment she went on, "Salteris said Suraklin had the gift of making others
trust him."
"I see he was right," Antryg said bitterly.
Joanna
felt herself grow red. "He didn't give me lies and half‑truths and
evasions."
"He told you a lie that was consistent from beginning to end,"
the mage retorted. His breath was fast and uneven. Like her, he could sense the
movement in the darkness outside. "Joanna, I followed Suraklin's mark to
this place, to the room where I first met you, upstairs here. Later, when I
felt the Void opening again, I followed him back and found you in whatever
hideout in the hills of Kymil he'd brought you to after his accomplice had
kidnapped you from here. I didn't know what he'd done with you before, if
anything. For all I knew, you could be his slave as well. And
then," he said, "at Devilsgate . . ."
She thrust aside the memory of the cobalt dimness of the drawing room,
her overwhelming need for him, and the softness of that velvet voice in the
gloom. "I don't want to talk about Devilsgate," she said stonily.
"I was a fool. . . ."
"As was I," he murmured. "I saw in the cards there that
you would betray me. The sixteenth card, the Dead God‑the sign they put
on wizards to cripple their power when they lead them out to execution. In
spite of that I wanted to trust you and found myself doing so, although I knew
it was insane. I have always trusted too easily. I could not risk it."
"And I," Joanna said quietly in the darkness, "I can't
risk this."
He lay silent then, the kitchen light shining on the sweat on his face
and on the lenses of his specs. He stared at the ceiling. Gary, Joanna found
herself thinking, would have been gazing accusingly at her; she pushed the
comparison from her mind. The fact that Antryg had never shown her anything but
caring, kindness, and, she suspected, love, the fact that he had risked his
life to save her from the Regent and the Inquisition, and the fact that she
loved him did not alter the fact that he was Suraklin, the Dark Mage. Or‑was
he?
It
was not a case of two and two equaling four, but rather a hellish quadratic
equation, in which there were two equally correct answers and no way to choose
between them. Either everything Salteris had said was a lie or everything
Antryg had said was. There must be some logical way to learn the truth, she
thought, but she could not arrive at one. She wished desperately that she were
better at understanding people or that she had more data.
In the darkness outside, she was aware of movement, and dread chilled her
like the onset of fever.
"Joanna," Antryg said quietly, and under the forced calm of his
deep voice she heard the tremor of his panic. "I can't prove any of this
to you. I know I can't. And it is unfair to ask anyone to make a choice based
only on the heart. But you are in danger, too." He shook aside the
dampened ends of his hair, where they clung to his bony temples and the last
bruised remnants of the Regent's whip marks.
"Suraklin left Salteris' body. He can only have taken over someone
else's‑at a guess, the accomplice in this world who's been doing his
programming for him. The accomplice would have met him at the shed ‑the
shed's marked with his sign as well, you know‑when Suraklin guessed
Salteris would be more good to him dead than alive, if I'd get the blame for
his imbecility as well as the Emperor's. But Suraklin wanted you for something.
He stalked you in San Serano‑he had his accomplice kidnap you from here
and came here to get you, to bring you to that hideout of his, wherever it was.
And it's my guess he still wants you."
"Of course," Joanna said, fighting the fear his words brought
and her anger at the thought of how easily her fears were manipulated. "He
might want me enough to save me from the Regent, or break me out of the
Inquisition's prison . . ."
His eyes met hers in the darkness. "You know perfectly well why I
saved you."
She turned away. Her voice shook again. "I don't," she said.
"That's the whole point. I don't know."
In the hot, gluey darkness outside, the patio gate creaked. Antryg's head
came around quickly, and she saw the track of sweat along the high cheekbone.
Low and very rapidly he said, "Let me go, Joanna. Please. When they're
gone, he'll come back for you, whoever he is now . . . ."
"You're trying to scare me into releasing you. ‑
"I'm
trying to save you, dammit!" He wrenched his arms furiously against the
binding wires. In the patio, Joanna could see nothing in the dark, but thought
she heard the slur of homespun robes against the stiff leaves in the planters
and the pat of quiet feet on cement. Desperately, he said, "Joanna,
they'll kill me . . . ."
His
eyes changed, looking past her to the doors. Joanna turned her head. Caris
stood framed by the night, his face, for all its dust‑covered exhaustion,
set and queerly serene, but much older, a man's face, not a youth's. His naked
sword blade flashed coldly in his hand. Behind him, nearly invisible in their
dark robes against the darkness, she sensed others. From that shadowy
assemblage, a woman stepped, tall and beautiful in her sable garments, the
silver embroidery of the hyacinth stole she wore a pin‑prick of reflected
light beneath the loose curls of her dark hair.
"Joanna,"
she said softly. "I am Lady Rosamund Kentacre. In the name of the Council
of Wizards, I thank you for what you have done."
Beside
her, Joanna was aware of Antryg looking at the Council with the face of a man
who knows that nothing he can say will save him.
"Caris
told us what happened," the mage said, still in that low, sweet voice
that, underneath its beauty, was colder than an assassin's knife. "On
behalf of the Council, I can only ask your pardon for the fact that you were
drawn into the affairs of wizards. I promise you, for whatever it is worth,
that this man will be punished, not only for what he has done to you, but for
what he has tried to do to both our worlds."
Caris
stepped forward, his dark eyes remote, stern, and curiously peaceful for all
their weariness. He was once more a weapon of the Council; he had fulfilled his
mission and encompassed his revenge. He had returned to being what he was,
something Joanna knew already that she would never do. Three other mages
stepped forth from the darkness behind him‑all young men, strong, and
grim‑looking. Two of them wore the blood‑colored robes of the
Church wizards, and Joanna guessed that peace had been made with the Bishop and
the Witchfinders.
Her
stomach felt cold at the thought that it would be Peelbone who presided over
Antryg's questioning. With the Council and with Caris' account of Salteris'
murder, the Regent would not protect him. She remembered the sudden iciness of
those evil blue eyes and the shrill voice saying in the dimness of the attic, You
will long for the death my father ordered for you . . . .
In
a kind of daze, she stepped aside, and the mages untwisted the wire bonds from
Antryg's booted ankles and pulled him to his feet. He looked deathly white. He
knew as well as Joanna did what waited for him on the other side of the Void. I
want to be done with this, Joanna desperately thought, sick and wretched,
knowing that whatever the necessity for destroying Suraklin, this would always
remain something she had done. I want this to be over . . . .
Lady
Rosamund had turned back to the patio doors. Beyond them, Joanna could see
forms moving, the stray glint of light on the pool, pale hands uplifting and
with laborious concentration making the signs necessary to open one last time
the gate in the darkness which separated world from world, time from time. Wind
moved the gray draperies and lifted back the dark sleeves from Rosamund's arms.
It touched Joanna's cheek and stirred in the graying mane of Antryg's hair.
Queer and cold, the smell of the Void filled the room with the terror of the
haunted abyss. She thought, but wasn't sure, she heard Antryg whisper
despairingly, "No . . ."
Beyond the doors lay nothing, an empty gulf of blackness, as if, beyond
the frame of curtain and glass, all the universe fell away.
Caris turned his head. For a moment his eyes met Joanna's. Through the
wall of his grief, which was already transmuting into a desperate perfectionism
of his warrior's vocation, she saw the last glimmer of his regret‑regret
at leaving her, perhaps his only nonsasennan friend, and at leaving the
possibilities of the strange affairs of the world beyond the perfections of the
killing arts. Joanna realized she would never see Caris again. When the Void
closed up this final time, it would all be gone‑the beauty of dawn on the
marshes of Kymil, the twisting, cobbled streets of Angelshand, Magister Magus,
and the poor, mad Regent . . . .
With a violent wrench, Antryg twisted free of his guards and made a last,
desperate run for the room's other windows. He didn't make two strides. Caris
and the mages fell upon him like dogs, bringing him to the floor. Caris' sword
flashed as he raised it and brought the weighted pommel down on Antryg's skull
with a crack Joanna felt in the roots of her teeth. Then they dragged him to
his feet again, still struggling, though he couldn't have been more than half‑conscious.
In a chill voice Lady Rosamund said, "Bring him." Caris and the
Church mages half dragged, half carried him through that terrible door and out
into the eternal darkness that lay beyond.
From where she stood in the doorway, it seemed to Joanna that she could
see them for a long time, vanishing down the endless corridor to nothing. She
saw a last glint of light on Antryg's spectacles‑or perhaps it was only the
glimmer of the water in the swimming pool. The air around her was warm again.
The wound in the night was healed.
Only
what they had been and what they had done remained, tracked indelibly like
footprints across her soul.
She
realized it was Wednesday. She'd have to go to work in the morning and unravel
the hideous mess left by her disappearance.
It was only then that she shed tears.
She
knew she could have lain there on the couch where Antryg had been bound and
wept all night from weariness, self‑hatred, and the stress of shock after
shock. But the detached part of her mind told her it was God knew how late
already, and Gary would be coming. Of all the people in the world, the last one
she wanted to see, to deal with now, was Gary. The thought of listening to that
whining self‑pity nearly nauseated her.
If
only she'd had some proof, she thought, weary at last to numbness. One clue,
one way or the other . . .
Antryg
could have figured it out. She recalled the blithe, Holmesian quickness of his
deductions. It has been my misfortune to be a good guesser .
. . . Except, of course, if Antryg were really Suraklin, he'd lie.
But the memory of Holmes' name triggered another thought.
She
shook her head, telling herself that, for better or worse, it was over. What she
wanted to do was useless. But in spite of that conviction, she felt the sudden
lurch of her heart as she realized that there had, in fact, been a way to tell.
As
she had felt on the island, with the pistol heavy in her hand, she had the
sensation of not wanting to know, of wanting to be powerless because then
nothing would be expected of her. After a long time, she mounted the stairs to
the computer room again.
Only
the small orange lights of the surge suppressors and backup batteries
illuminated the darkness, with the ruby gleam of power lights and the green
luminosity of the clock. She stood for a long time, looking at the doorframe
where Suraklin's mark was. When she had first seen Antryg at the party, she
remembered, he had brushed his fingers along the wall, not making the mark, but
calling it forth, as Salteris had done only a few hours ago. She'd seen Antryg
do the same in the hot, smelly closeness of the rooms upstairs in the Imperial
Palace‑God, had that been only this morning?‑and the Prince's rooms
last night. The memory was very clear. All her memories of him were. Antryg in
his long, black coat and shabby ruffles, passing his hands in wide sweeps over
the lacquered paneling, until his fingers paused on one spot or another . . .
Except
for one deliberately placed high up, the marks had all been at only slightly
different heights. Hadn't Conan Doyle written in A Study in Scarlet that
a man will mark a wall at his own eye level?
With
terrible vividness, she saw Salteris in this room again, calling forth
Suraklin's mark‑at the level of his own eyes, six inches below the level
of Antryg's.
It
proves nothing, she
thought desperately. If he'd thought about it, Suraklin could have
made his mark at the level of his chin . . . .
But
other memories crowded back of hands strong around her throat and the hot stir
of breath against her temple at San Serano‑and then of how, in the alleys
near the St. Cyr fortress, panting and exhausted in the silence of the
enclosing fog, she'd had to reach up even to put her arm around Antryg's neck
so that their mouths could meet.
The man who'd attacked her at San Serano was a shorter man.
Through
the open window, she heard the scrunch of tires on gravel. Headlights tracked
across the drive, and the barred shadows of the iron fence chased each other
over the flickering surface of the pool.
Gary,
she thought,
sickened with a bitter distaste. She could hear his voice now: Hey, babe,
you can stay here if you want, you know . . . .
All
she wanted was to be alone and to cry for hours, not knowing what it was that
she'd done.
The Void was closed.
She would never know for sure if Antryg had told the truth or lied.
No, she thought. If Antryg told the truth‑if he was not Suraklin that
uncaring deadness would return, to drain the life and hope from the world. And
by that time, Antryg would be dead. She pushed aside the hideous details Caris
had once given her. On the other hand, it might be that Antryg's‑or
Suraklin's‑death would prevent that from ever happening.
She was back to the quadratic equation again, with positive and negative
solutions, and no way of telling which was which.
He would have come back to this world, she thought, to find Suraklin's
computer, and the teles relays which powered it.
Or, she thought, to find another dupe.
She hated to leave the darkened sanctum of the computer room. She felt
safe in the fortress of those tiny, steady lights, as she always had. They were
idiots savants, but in their inhuman way far more reliable than anyone she'd
ever met . . .
. . . If it was inhuman reliability she wanted, that is. If all she
wanted to get out was what she herself had put in.
She heard Gary moving around downstairs and knew she had to go.
Done
is done, she
thought. If Antryg was Suraklin, she had just saved the world.
If he wasn't . . .
There
was nothing, literally nothing, that she could do.
Quietly,
she descended the stairs.
Gary
was sitting at the kitchen table, a glass of red wine before him, the glare of
the electric light shining harsh and yellow on his soft brown hair and catching
like blood in the highlights of the wine. His elbows were propped on the table,
his hands folded before his chin, and his forefingers extended against his
lips.
Joanna
stopped in the doorway, her first thought only that Gary hated wine.
She
wondered where she had seen that forefingers‑extended gesture before.
Then he looked up at her with an ironic half‑smile.
"Joanna,
my dear," he said. "I see you've returned. You should probably
telephone your friend Ruth. She's been pestering the police of three states to
distraction."
She thought, Oh, God.
And for a moment it was just that.
The
only answer to two and two seemed to be four, and she understood then why the
Prince Regent had gone mad at the age of ten.
Praying
she was wrong, knowing she was right, she was perfectly sure where she'd heard
that alien, unGarylike speech pattern and seen that gesture. She knew then why
she had been stalked and kidnapped, why Gary had insisted she come to his
party, where Suraklin was getting his computer, who his accomplice had been,
and what had happened to that accomplice when Suraklin had gained what he
needed.
She
said something‑she didn't know what. She felt numb and halfdrowned in
implications that were pouring into her mind like the sea pouring over a
cracked wall; her mind revolved back on itself in a single phrase: Oh, God‑oh
God ohgod . . .
And
she knew that Antryg, beyond any ability of hers to find or save, had
been right.
The
same personality she had known as Salteris‑the one who was, she
understood now, the Dark Mage Suraklin‑was looking at her out of Gary
Fairchild's eyes.
A car swept by on
victory boulevard, with a rising roar, then a soft swish of retreating tires.
One of the piles of cats on Joanna's mangy fake‑fur bedspread stretched a
hind leg, shook its head, and settled back to sleep. Bright in the darkness of
the room, the glowing green list on the monitor screen reached its end: ZYMOGEN
ZYMOLOGY ZYMOSIS ZYMOTIC ZYMURGY OK > .
Joanna
sipped her tea, and stared at the screen for some moments in silence.
She thought, Scratch one.
With
the calm persistence of one who works with computers, Joanna hit the reset key
and began again, opening the modem, dialing up the communications directory,
hitting the S on the menu to call up the San Serano mainframe. When the carrier
tone whined, she punched in, not her own user number, but Gary's, tracked down
out of the membership directory.
PASSWORD? swam into the screen.
She hit the break key, and typed BABY.
It was a long shot, one of several breaker programs she'd devised to keep
herself amused while waiting for the engineering department to bring in test
results when she was working overtime at San Serano. In spite of the fact that
the computer at San Serano contained classified information and was allegedly
protected, breaking into it was relatively simple. Once into the computer itself,
she had only to get into whatever files Gary was using to program Suraklin's
mind, memories, and magic, preparing them for later transfer to whatever
computer it was he'd stolen, piece by piece, by breaking shipping codes‑the
computer that would be fed by the teles relays.
She
took a sip of her tea, scarcely noticing that the liquid, dark and strong as
coffee, had long gone cold. The green glow of the clock proclaimed it to be
3:48 A.M. She'd have to be up at seven, if she were going into San Serano to
report.
Gary
said he'd covered for her with management, creating a tale of family emergency.
His questions to her regarding her actual whereabouts and activities for the
last two weeks hadn't been particularly convincing, but it had confirmed in her
mind that he didn't suspect she knew. They were the questions she'd have
expected him to ask, the questions she'd have wondered if he didn't. He'd even
pestered her to stay with him‑for the sake of appearances, she hoped,
though it had taken all her selfcontrol to conceal the loathing and terror she
felt, looking into those ironic dark eyes.
I
doubt one person in ten notices . . . Salteris‑Suraklin‑had said. In time,
they cease to remember and don't miss what they've forgotten they had . . . .
She
wondered why she hadn't realized then that there was something wrong or guessed
it when Salteris had gotten them into the Summer Palace by terrifying the
Prince's horses, injuring them and undoubtedly earning a flogging for the
innocent grooms. Antryg would never have been that careless of the safety of
others.
Around
her, the bedroom of her little apartment was silent. The cats slept again
across the foot of the bed like a carelessly dropped fur coat; the dark leaves
of the plants glistened with the yellow reflections of the street lamps
outside. No breeze fingered the curtain of the open windows. In the dimness,
the flashing of the green cursor on the CRT seemed very bright.
Program
Baby didn't take long to run. When it finished, the words PASSWORD INADMISSIBLE
were still shining on the screen, the cursor flashing expectantly.
Joanna
sipped her tea again and stared at the screen. She was beginning to have a bad
feeling about this. Getting another user's number was easy enough‑it was
getting the password that went with the number that was the hard part. The
files had to be there‑there was no other computer large enough to which
Gary would have access and on which he could devise programs for something as
complicated as all of a wizard's mind, all of his knowledge, all of his
personality, and his magic. It would also be child's play for Gary to write
these programs so that they would lie about their own existence, assign larger
numbers of bytes to other programs on the directory so that the discrepancy of
available space would pass unnoticed. Joanna had similar files of her own in
the mainframe. To get into them required a password of up to eight characters,
and therein lay the hacker's problem.
Joanna's
first hacker program consisted of all words in a standard directory of up to
eight letters. In spite of the vast number of random combinations of 26 letters
plus 10 digits available, most users selected some easily remembered English
word as their password, and the program was written to try them all in
succession, with the sublime, uncaring patience of a machine. In her spare
hours at San Serano, it had gotten her into any number of classified defense
files which the United States government and San Serano's management fondly
believed to be secure.
That
in itself took several hours. Her second program was the contents of a
"What to Name the Baby" book, since most users had a tendency to
select names as passwords‑that of a wife, lover, child, or dog. She had a
third, with those random proper nouns culled from popular culture: Tardis,
Gandalf, dilithium, Yoda, Mycroft.
If not A, go to B.
She rubbed her eyes, dialed into San Serano, and punched through Gary's
number. The green letters inquired, PASSWORD? and she hit the break key and ran
in that third hacker program. As the pixels shimmered across the screen, she
massaged the stiffened muscles of the back of her neck, praying this one would
work. She'd calculated that trying all combinations of 36 to the eighth power,
at the some ten tries per second of which her small desk computer was capable,
could take, 3,265,173.5040 days, or roughly eight thousand years. Usually she'd
hit pay dirt before that time, but even if it was weeks, she had no way of
telling how many days Antryg had left to live.
When she thought about what she knew she had to do, she was perfectly
well aware that she was terrified. Throughout the dark hours of the night,
since her return from Gary's, intermittent rushes of adrenaline had coursed
through her, making her shiver as only social encounters and conversations with
her mother or Gary had done, up until two weeks ago.
Caris had told her once that for all his training in the killing arts, he
had never, up until a few weeks before, used his skills to protect his own
life. Joanna knew nothing about heroism or rescues, but she did know about the
patient phlegmatism of computers. As with the problem of the abominations in
the meadow, her mind was breaking her task into manageable subroutines.
First, she thought, get the contents of Suraklin's files.
Then
stick close enough to Gary to follow him through the Void. Magic wouldn't work
on this side of it. He had to go back through. She remembered Antryg's words
about Gary's still needing her and shivered. Getting through the Void might be
easier than she was prepared to think about at the moment.
Then—Caris?
Scarcely likely. The Prince? She shuddered again, recalling the evil glint of
those pale eyes. For all his paranoia, he had put his trust once, hesitantly,
in Antryg. He would never forgive the violation of that trust.
She
pushed the panic urge to hurry to the back of her mind. First things first. You
can't get to C until you've gotten A and B out of the way. Part of her wailed, But
they'll torture him, and the cool, semicomputerized portion of her brain
retorted that there was nothing to do but what she was doing. Hurrying would
only make it last at least fifty percent longer.
She
hit the reset button, opened the modem, dialed, and selected the S for San
Serano from the menu. When the carrier tone whined, she punched in Gary's user
number and stared at PASSWORD? flicking into life at the center of the screen.
Her finger touched the break key, to interrupt function so she could run the
main hacker program through.
I
can't do anything else, she told the sudden, anxious misery in the pit of her
stomach. It could take days‑breaking into the files of an employee at
San Serano whom she'd idly suspected‑correctly‑of being a CIA
employee had taken weeks.
Antryg was in the hands of the Witchfinders. He didn't have weeks.
Whether
Antryg had killed Salteris or left him alive, imbecilic as the Emperor was,
he'd been extremely lucky that Caris hadn't cut his throat on the spot.
Perhaps that's what Suraklin had been angling for.
There's
nothing else I can do, Joanna told herself again. It will take the time it
takes. There are other preparations I have to make in the meantime. If I'm too
late . . .
With
sinking heart, she knew she almost certainly would be. There were
2,821,109,907,456 possible combinations of eight letters and digits. Even
subtracting the some 60,000 entries from the dictionary breaker program and the
baby‑name program combined, the number remained astronomical . . . and
that was only the eight‑letter combinations. It could conceivably be
smaller. Eight was only the outside limit.
Then she thought, Suraklin has eight letters.
So does Salteris.
She hit the escape key, and typed, SURAKLIN.
PASSWORD INADMISSIBLE.
She
muttered a word she'd picked up from Caris and tried again.
SALTERIS.
PASSWORD
INADMISSIBLE.
It
had been, she thought, too easy. But the ebb of the rush of hope was hurtful,
more so than if she had simply put through the hacker program and gone to bed.
Her throat aching, she thought, I can't be too late to save him. I
can't. . . .
The
cursor blinked at her in the gloom. Across the room, the window was no longer
black, but a sickish gray, surrounded by a frame of inky shadow. The tepid air
felt clammy and close. She was sorry she had hoped. She had been a fool‑as
Antryg was a fool. Magic was predicated upon hope, he had once said. And it was
upon hope, upon life, that the Dark Mage's computer would feed, draining the
life of the world.
Joanna
frowned to herself, something snagging in the back of her mind. She looked back
at the screen. She had one more try at manually breaking into the password,
before turning it over to the hacker program, and it occurred to her there was
one other eight‑letter combination someone connected with Suraklin might
use.
She typed in, DARKMAGE.
The
screen went blank, the green shadows of the letters fading sharply out. Then in
the middle of the darkness blossomed the words:
WELCOME TO THE SAN SERANO COMPUTER
Her
breath went out in a shaky sigh. Her hand a little unsteady with tiredness, she
hit the printer switch. The machine hummed to life with a faint, preliminary
whirr.
She
glanced at the clock again. It was nearly six‑time enough to start that
long line of subroutines toward a goal too frightening to think about whole.
She typed, PRINT FILES, drained the remains of her cold tea, stood up achingly, and headed for the shower. Behind her, the printer chattered to itself in the darkness.