I. Kolyma labor camp, sometime during World War
II
"Korolev."
D 327 did not look around. He was
busy. His joints grated together, his ligaments groaned as he lifted
the pickax over his head–a motion as fast as he could manage, yet so
terribly slow, slower even than the last time, which had been slower
in turn than the time before that; then he released his breath and
with it the tension, and the will, so that his arms fell forward and
allowed the tip of the pick to glance across the jagged face of the
wall. A few greasy-black chips pattered his shoes. The fall of the
pick almost balanced in joy the inevitable ordeal of lifting, but
not quite, so D 327’s misery accumulated in minute increments like
the drift of slag in which he stood ankle-deep. He knew that none of
the other workers, spaced five paces apart down the length of the
tunnel, were faring any better. They had been ordered to dig for
gold, but he knew this tunnel held no gold; this tunnel was the
antithesis of gold; the gold had been pried from its workers’ teeth
and chased from their dreams; and his pick was as soft and blunt as
a thumb. He raised it again, and tried to lose count of how many
times he had done so.
"Korolev."
D 327 tried to focus his attention not
on the lift and fall, lift and fall of his triple burden, arm and
pick and arm, but on the slight added weight in his right jacket
pocket–an imagined weight, really, so coarse and mostly air was the
bit of bread he had palmed from poor Vasily’s plate at midday.
Vasily had collapsed at just the right time. Later, and Vasily would
have used that crust to swipe even the shine of food from the tin
plate, would have thrust it into his mouth with his last dying
breath. Sooner, and the guard would have noticed the remaining food
and snatched it away. Guards starved less quickly in the Kolyma than
the prisoners, but all starved. A dozen times D 327 had come
deliriously close to eating his prize, but each time he had
refrained. Many of his fellow prisoners had forgotten how to savor,
but he had not. After supper would be best: Just before sleep, as he
lay with his face to the barracks wall, the unchewed food in his
mouth would add warmth and flavor to oblivion.
"Korolev."
The voice was cold and clear and
patient, an electronic pulse against the rasps, clinks, drips, and
scuttles of the tunnel. What word, in this hole, could bear such
repetition? Only a name, like God, or Stalin.
"Korolev."
I heard that name often at the
Institute, D 327 thought. Often in my presence others said that
name. A response was expected, assumed; was only just. Down fell the
pick, clatter and flake; he turned, half afraid of seeing nothing in
the light of his carbide lamp.
Instead he faced an infinitude of
stars.
"Come down from your orbit, Comrade
Korolev. Come down to Earth, that a mere mortal may speak with
you."
The stars were printed on a sheet of
glossy paper: a page. A hand turned the page, to a cutaway diagram
of a tapered cylinder like a plump bullet. Inside its shell flowed
rivers of arrows. At that moment, more clearly even than he
remembered his own name, Sergei Korolev remembered
another’s.
"Tsiolkovsky," he said.
"Your memory is excellent, Comrade
Korolev." The man who had held the open book before Korolev’s face
reversed it and examined it himself. He wore a full-dress officer’s
uniform, and two soldiers flanked him. "Exploration of Cosmic
Space with Reactive Devices, by Konstantin Tsiolkovsky.
Published 1903. And did the czar recognize his genius? Fah! If not
for the Workers’ Revolution, he would have died of old age still
wiping the snot of schoolboys in Kaluga." He sighed. "How often we
visionaries labor without recognition, without thanks."
"It is a shame, Citizen General. I am
sad for you."
The officer snapped the book shut
one-handed. In the dim light of Korolev’s helmet gleamed the brim of
the officer’s cap, the golden eagle’s wings, and the rifle barrels
of the soldiers on each side. "You flatter me, Korolev. I am only an
engineer like yourself. And henceforth you may call me Comrade
Shandarin, as you would have before your crimes were exposed and
punished." He surveyed the meager rubble beneath Korolev’s feet.
"Your service here is done. From today you serve the Motherland in
other ways. You will join me in my work."
Korolev was not attentive. Just as the
mere sight of food could flood his mouth with saliva and his stomach
with growling, raging juices, the glimpse of Tsiolkovsky’s diagrams
had released a torrent of images, facts, numerals, terms, all
familiar and yet deliciously new. Apogee and perigee. Trajectory and
throttle. Elevation and azimuth. Velocities and propellants and
thrust. He was trying to savor all this, and this man Shandarin was
distracting him. "And what work is that–Comrade?"
Shandarin laughed, a series of sharp
detonations in the tunnel. "Why, what a question. The work your
Motherland trained you to do, of course. Do you think your skills as
a gold miner are in demand?" He reached into his brass-buttoned coat
(and one part of Korolev, eternally cold in his thin and tattered
parka, noted how the coat retained the smooth, unwrinkled drape of
great comfort and thickness and weight) and pulled out a folded
sheaf of papers that he handed to Korolev. "The chief problem," he
said, as Korolev exulted in the glorious feel of paper, "is
distance, of course. The German rockets have a range of hundreds of
kilometers, but are thousands of kilometers possible? Not all the
Motherland’s enemies are her neighbors. The V-2 achieves altitudes
greater than eighty kilometers, more than sixteen times the height
of your GIRD-X; our new rockets must fly even higher than the
Germans’." Korolev leafed through the papers. His blisters smeared
the charts and graphs no matter how much care he took. Shandarin
continued: "So our rockets must somehow better the Germans’
twenty-five thousand kilograms of thrust, and by a wide margin at
that. This requires drastic innovations in metallurgy or design, if
not both–Comrade, are you listening?"
Korolev had turned one of the charts
on its side, so that the rocket’s arc swept not from right to left,
but upward in a languid, powerful semicircle, as if bound for . .
.
His thumb left a red star in its
path.
"I am listening," Korolev said,
"and so is everyone else." He was aware of fewer noises, fewer
motions, from the other miners, and some of the Institute’s concern
for security had returned to him, along with an echo of his voice of
command. "In my day," Korolev continued, "such talk was
classified."
Shandarin shrugged, grinned. "I am
speaking only to you, Comrade," he said. He inclined his head
backward, toward the soldiers, and said, "We may speak freely before
cretins," then flicked a gloved finger toward the miners, "and even
more so before dead men." He slid a page from Korolev’s hands and
held it up for all to see, turned completely around, waved the sheet
a little so that it fluttered. No miner met his gaze. He turned back
to Korolev. "Shall we go?" He feigned a shiver. "I am not so used to
the cold as you."
In 1933, after the GIRD-X triumph,
after the vodka and the toasts and the ritual congratulations from
Comrade Stalin (delivered in great haste by a nearsighted bureaucrat
who looked as if he expected rockets to roar out of the doorways at
any moment), Korolev and his mentor Tsander, who would die so soon
thereafter, had left their joyous colleagues downstairs and taken
their celebration aloft, clambered onto the steep, icy rooftop of
the Moscow office building that housed the State Reaction Scientific
Research Institute. To hell with the vodka; they toasted each other,
and the rocket, and the city, and the planet, with a smuggled and
hoarded bottle of French champagne.
"To the moon!"
"To the sun!"
"To Mars!"
They ate caviar and crabmeat and
smoked herring, smacked like gourmands and sailed the empty cans
into orbit over the frozen streets of the capital. Never, not even
in the Kolyma, had Korolev so relished a meal.
He remembered all this, and much more,
as he sat beside Shandarin in the sledge that hissed away from the
snow-covered entrance of Mine Seventeen. He burned to examine the
papers, but they could wait. He folded them and tucked them into his
worn and patched jacket, through which he almost could have read
them had he wanted to. As Shandarin regarded him in silence, he
pulled the crust of bread from his pocket and began nibbling it with
obvious relish, as if it were the finest delicacy plucked from the
ovens of the Romanovs. He settled back, closed his eyes, and in
eating the bread relived the bursting tang of the caviar, the
transcendent release of the launch, the blanketing embrace of the
night sky that no longer danced beyond reach. In this way he
communed with his former self, who dropped gently down from the
rooftop of the Institute and joined him, ready to resume their great
work, and the sledge shot across the snow as if propelled by
yearning and fire.
II. Baikonur Cosmodrome, September
1957
Awakened by the commingled howls of
all the souls in Hell, a startled Evgeny Aksyonov lifted the curtain
of his compartment window and looked out onto a circus. Loping
alongside the train was a parallel train of camels, a dozen or more
of the gangling beasts, their fencepost teeth bared as they yelped
and brayed and groaned, lips curled in great ropy sneers. Bulging
gray sacks jogged at their flanks, and swaying atop each mount was a
swarthy, bearded rider in flowing robes, with a snarl to rival that
of his camel.
So this is Kazakhstan, thought
Aksyonov, who before this trip never had been farther east than the
outskirts of Moscow, the home of a maiden aunt who baked fine tarts.
He breathed the choking dust and coughed with enthusiasm; he was too
young to be uncomfortable. One of the camel drivers noticed him
gawking, grinned, and raised a shaggy fist in a gesture so rude that
Aksyonov hastily dropped the curtain and sat back, fingering his own
suddenly inadequate beard. He rummaged in his canvas bag for the
worn copy of Perelman’s Interplanetary Travels, which he
opened at random and began to read, though he could have recited the
passage with his eyes closed. He soon nodded off again, and in his
dreams he was a magnificent bronze fighter of the desert, who
brandished a scimitar to defy the rockets that split the
sky.
No conductor, no fellow passenger
disturbed his sleep, for Evgeny Aksyonov was bound for a place that
did not officially exist, to meet a man who officially had no name.
Access to such non-places and non-people was strictly regulated, and
so Aksyonov was the only passenger aboard the train.
"Come," the soldier on the platform
said, after he peered from Aksyonov’s face to his photo and back
again just enough to make Aksyonov nervous. "The Chief Designer
expects you."
For fifteen minutes or more, he drove
Aksyonov along a freshly paved highway so wide and straight it
seemed inevitable, past a series of construction sites where the
hollow outlines of immense buildings rose from pits and heaps of
dirt. Gangs of workers swarmed about. Atop one pile of earth, three
armed soldiers kept watch: the men swinging picks below must be
zeks, political prisoners, the Motherland’s most menial
laborers. A gleaming rail spur crossed and recrossed the road, and
Aksyonov began to brace himself for each intersection, because the
driver did not slow down. Some completed buildings looked like
administrative offices, others like army barracks. Behind one
barracks were more inviting dwellings, a half-dozen yurts. A couple
of Kazakh men were in the process of rolling a seventh into place,
as if it were a great hide-covered hoop.
The driver abandoned Askyonov without
speech or ceremony at the concrete lip of a kilometer-wide pit.
Aksyonov looked down sixty meters along the steep causeway that
would channel the rocket blasts. He shivered and retreated from the
edge of the launch pad, a tremendous concrete shelf hundreds of
meters square. No amount of rocket research would make him fond of
heights. Above him soared three empty gantries, thirty-meter talons
that would close on the rocket and hold it fast until
liftoff.
Hundreds of workers dashed about the
pad. Some drove small electric carts, some clambered along scaffolds
that reached into the tips of the gantries and the depths of the
pit. Among them were many Kazakh men, distinguishable even at a
distance by their felt skullcaps. Amid all this activity, Aksyonov
tried to look as knowledgeable and useful as possible while he
guarded his luggage and felt homesick.
As he considered getting out his book,
he was jolted nearly off his feet by a voice that boomed and echoed
from everywhere: to left, to right, the pit, the sky.
"Testing. Testing. One two three.
Tsiolkovsky Tsiolkovsky Tsiolkovsky."
Then came several prolonged and
deafening blasts, like gusts into a microphone. Aksyonov clapped his
hands over his ears. No one else in the whole anthill took any
visible notice of the racket.
"Hello. Hello. Hello." The words
rolled across the concrete in waves and rattled Aksyonov to the
bone. "Can you hear me? Eh? Hello? I’m asking you–you there with the
beard. Yes, you, the one doing no work. Can you hear me?"
Aksyonov released his ears and looked
about the launch pad. Unsure where to direct his response, he waved
both hands high above his head.
"Good," the voice said. "Wait there.
I’ll be right up–" The next words were swallowed in a spasm of
rattling coughs that echoed off the sides of the pit and seemed to
well up from the earth itself. Aksyonov covered his ears again. In
mid-cough, the amplification stopped, and all that fearsome
reverberation contracted to a single small voice that hacked and
cleared its throat far across the concrete pad.
Aksyonov turned to see a man step out
of an elevator set into one of the support pillars. The man walked
toward Aksyonov, swabbed his mouth with a handkerchief: heavy-set,
fiftyish, with low, thick eyebrows and a brilliant gaze. He wore an
overcoat, though the day was warm for autumn.
"You are Aksyonov," he said, hand
extended. He said it as if he had reviewed a list of names in the
elevator, and had selected just the right one for the job; if he had
said Dyomin or Pilyugin or Molotov, Aksyonov would have answered to
it just as readily, then and forever. "My name is Sergei Korolev,"
the older man continued, "but you are unlikely to hear that name
again. Here I am only the Chief Designer, or the Chief. Welcome to
Baikonur Cosmodrome."
Aksyonov made a little bow, just more
than a nod. He had rehearsed his opening and was quite proud of it.
"I am honored to meet the man who designed the first Soviet
rocket."
"And I am honored to meet the designer
of our future ones," Korolev replied. "In collaboration, of course.
Space is a collaborative effort, like a nation, or a cathedral. Come
with me, please," he added over his shoulder, for he already was
well on his way across the pad. Aksyonov grabbed his bags and
scrambled to catch up.
"I regret that I have no time to give
you a tour of the facility, nor a proper interview. Can you
recognize a lie when you hear one? What I just told you was a lie.
Truthfully, I do not regret it at all, for I am glad finally to be
busy with this launch of the Fellow Traveler–you read the
brief I sent you, yes? Yes. Instead of the usual formalities, you
will accompany me on all my rounds in the coming week, from this
moment. Will this be satisfactory?"
"Very much so, Comrade Korolev. Er,
Comrade Chief."
"Simply Chief will do. Hello, Abish,
you mad Kazakh, please keep it out of the pit, will you?" he cried
to a waving, grinning man who whizzed past in an electric cart. "You
come from the Academy with the highest recommendations, Comrade
Aksyonov. So high that you actually had a choice of postings, and
choice is a rare thing in this new century. Tell me, why did you
choose Baikonur? Do you nurse some abiding love for
sand?"
"Primarily, Comrade–er, Chief–I came
here to work with you." He awaited some response, got none, and went
on. "Also, Comrade Shandarin’s design group involves–well, let us
say much more conventional applications of rocketry? Your work at
Baikonur, what little I could learn of it, seemed much more
interesting."
"I understand," the Chief said. He led
the way down a metal spiral staircase that clamored at every step.
"Comrade Shandarin is like the old Chinaman, who lobs arrows of
flying fire at the Mongols. The firepower is greater and greater,
but still the Mongols keep coming." At the foot of the reverberating
stairs, he turned back and stared at Aksyonov’s luggage. "What in
the hell are all these things you carry around with you?"
Aksyonov stopped. "Ah, just some . . .
just my luggage, Chief." The older man’s gaze was unreadable. "My
clothes, and books . . . and some personal items . . ." He
faltered.
After some thought, the Chief grunted
in mingled assent and surprise and said, "Books are useful." Turning
to the parking lot, he swept one arm back toward the launch pad.
"Consider this a personal item, too."
As the two men approached, a large
soldier bounded from a car, threw open the back door, and stood at
attention. In one hand he held a book, his place marked with an
index finger.
"Thank you, Oleg," the Chief said, and
followed Aksyonov in. "Oleg here is reading his way through all the
major published works on rocketry and interplanetary travel. What do
you think of the Goddard, Oleg?"
"Very interesting, Chief," the soldier
said, as he cranked the ignition. Aksyonov studied the man’s thick,
shaven neck.
"It is a directed reading," the Chief
continued. He pulled a slide rule and a slim notebook from his coat.
The shadows of the gantries swept across his face as the car circled
the parking lot. "If I must live with an armed escort, I will at
least be able to converse civilly with him."
"Would you like to converse now, Chief
?" the driver asked.
"No, thank you," said the Chief. His
fingers danced across the numbers as Aksyonov looked out the back
window at the receding claws of the pad.
III. Baikonur Cosmodrome, 4 October
1957
"Ten."
Ten seconds to go, and no work left to
be done. Wonderful, wonderful. Korolev stretched out his legs
beneath the scarred wooden desk, pulled the microphone forward, and
relaxed as he counted down to zero.
"Nine."
A hundred meters away from this
steel-encased concrete bunker, Korolev’s voice must be booming
across the launch pad. Only the topmost fifteen meters of Old
Number Seven would be visible above the icy white fog vented
from its liquid-oxygen tanks. Korolev had watched it through every
periscope, from every angle, until his cheeks ached from squinting.
Now he attempted to watch nothing. His subordinates glanced up from
their consoles and radar screens sweaty and white-lipped, like men
ridden by nightmares. Let them worry. It was part of the
learning experience. Korolev was done with worries–for eight more
seconds, anyway. Then the next trial would begin, but in the
meantime he would savor his triumph like a crust of
bread.
"Eight."
Just weeks before, Comrade Khrushchev
had given the go-ahead for an orbital satellite launch–a launch that
would impress the world (so he said) with the fearsome might of the
Soviet intercontinental ballistic missile. Ha! As if Washington were
as easy to reach as orbit. The Party Chairman had played right into
the Chief Designer’s hands.
"Seven."
Granted, Old Number Seven was a
remarkable design achievement. Twelve small steering rockets and
four strap-on boosters surrounded a central core with twenty
separate thrust chambers. The metallurgists, wringing their hands,
had told Korolev that his project was doomed, that any single rocket
of Soviet make would shatter well before it reached four hundred and
fifty thousand kilograms of thrust. Very well, Korolev said: How
about two dozen, three dozen smaller rockets clustered together? The
union is greater than the individual; was this not the essence of
Communism?
"Six."
For hours, Khrushchev and the members
of the Politburo, who knew as much about rocketry as any equivalent
number of camels, had scampered about the launch pad like Siberian
peasants on the loose in Red Square. They wanted to touch
everything, like children; Korolev had to be stern with them. And
they asked childish questions: How much does it weigh? How fast does
it go? How high will it fly? The answers made them even more
excited, and Khrushchev was the most excited of all. "This is a
great work you do, Comrade Korolev!" he kept saying. The man’s cigar
ashes were everywhere, and Korolev had not seen his favorite tea
glass since.
"Five."
Comrade Shandarin’s objections, though
they went unheeded at the Kremlin, were sound. What good was an ICBM
that took hours to fuel and launch? One so large that it could be
moved only by railway? One that could not maneuver itself to its
target, but had to be guided by human controllers on the ground?
Worst of all, from Shandarin’s standpoint, only the northeastern
corner of the United States had anything to fear from Old Number
Seven. "Comrade," he intoned, "there are precious few military
targets in Maine." The restless old Chinaman could hear the Mongols
laughing.
"Four."
Just a week before, young Aksyonov, at
the close of a routine meeting, had loitered about with the
constipated expression that signified an important question welling
up inside. "Chief, I am confused," the young man said. "The field
marshal keeps referring to Old Number Seven as a ballistic
missile. Perhaps I am wrong, Chief, but–is Old Number Seven
not a rather inefficient design for a ballistic missile?"
"Three."
Korolev had beamed at the young man,
leaned forward and said, "I do not think that a fair assessment,
Comrade Aksyonov. I think it would be more accurate to call Old
Number Seven a shitty design for a ballistic
missile."
"Two."
"But," Korolev continued, "it will
make a marvelous booster rocket to send men into space."
"One.
"Ignition!"
And so a new star blossomed in the
Central Asian desert and rose into the heavens, and even over the
thunderous roar of the rockets the others in the command bunker
heard the Chief as he threw his head back and laughed.
IV. Steppes north of Baikonur,
February 1961
Aksyonov stood beside the Chief, their
elbows touching, twin binoculars raised. An eagle wheeled across
Aksyonov’s portion of sky, and he instinctively turned his head to
keep it in view, then caught himself and swung back to focus on the
orange parachute as it grew larger and larger–though not quite so
large as expected.
Aksyonov lowered his binoculars and
checked his map, but the Chief needed no confirmation. "Our peacock
has flown off course," he muttered, and rapped twice on the roof of
the cab.
The truck roared forward, jolted along
the frozen ruts of the dirt lane, and the swaying engineers in the
back held on as best they could. Across the vast fields to right and
left, toy-sized trucks and ambulances raced alongside. A flock of
far-distant sheep surged away from an oncoming truck; the wind
carried the honks and bleats for kilometers. Streams of vehicles
converged on the drifting orange blossom that was Pyotr
Dolgov.
The Chief was on good terms with each
of the prospective cosmonauts at Star City, knew their names and
families and hobbies and histories, knew in fact everything in their
dossiers (and KGB dossiers omitted nothing). The Chief had selected
these men from thousands of candidates, in consultation with
Khrushchev and, seemingly, half the Politburo; and despite all this,
Aksyonov was convinced that the Chief never liked Pyotr
Dolgov.
The cosmonaut would sit in the commons
for hours waxing his absurd mustache and bragging to everyone about
his sexual exploits and his skydiving expertise. "More than five
hundred jumps, my friends, and not so much as a sprained ankle. You
see this little pocket volume of Lenin? I collect them, just to have
something to read on the way down. After the chute is open, there is
nothing else to do, you see? Eventually I will have read all the
great man’s works between earth and sky! How many scholars can say
as much?" And so on and so on, as the other cosmonauts hooted and
jeered throughout. The Chief, shambling through the commons with a
fresh sheaf of problems under his arm, would glare at him, and say
nothing.
Yet Dolgov was the obvious man to test
the East’s ejection system, and such a test must be done without
delay, if what the Chief read in the KGB reports, and in Life
magazine, were to be believed. Woe indeed, that long, dry, cold
spring, if the Chief caught someone taking a break to smoke a
cigarette or place an idle telephone call or, worst of all, take a
nap. "Do the Americans and the Germans shirk their jobs, down there
in the tropics?" he would yell, waving the latest publicity
photographs of the seven toothy spacemen. (The Americans surely
would send the first dentist into space.) The Chief found this
strange, perpetually sunny launch site, this Cape Canaveral Florida,
a locale as exotic as Mars or the moon; to him it was always "down
there in the tropics." So Dolgov was hustled through his training,
and the final test was scheduled for late February.
The experiment was simple. Dolgov,
suited up, was strapped into a prototype ejection seat inside a
full-size mock-up of the East craft. Then the mock-up was carried
aloft in the cargo bay of one of the big Antonov transports.
Thousands of meters above the steppes, the capsule was shoved
without ceremony out the back of the plane. Once clear, Dolgov
pressed the "eject" button. Very simple. Also lunatic, but the
schedule at Baikonur Cosmodrome made generous allowances for
lunacy.
Dolgov had summed up the procedure:
"You feed me to the plane, and the plane shits me back
out!"
The Chief had winced, and then nodded
his head.
The Chief’s truck was not the first to
arrive that afternoon. A gaggle of engineers all tried to climb over
the tailgate together, and the Chief, impatient, gestured for
Aksyonov to help him over the side. The rippling parachute danced
sideways, but was anchored by the prone figure on the
ground.
A pale soldier with a rifle jogged up
to the Chief and said: "It’s bad, Comrade Designer. Perhaps you
should wait for the–" The Chief, of course, was already past, and
Aksyonov checked his stride a bit so as not to outpace the
Chief.
Dolgov lay on his back, arms and legs
sprawled as no living man would willingly lie. His helmet, its
faceplate shattered, rested at a crazy angle on his shoulders yet
still was bolted to the suit.
The Chief stared down at the body and
said, "We are fools before men and before God."
Doctors arrived, circling somewhat to
maintain a respectful distance from the Chief, and confirmed the
obvious: Dolgov’s neck was broken. He had done no reading on the way
down.
"His helmet must have struck the hatch
upon ejection," Aksyonov said, for he felt he should say something.
"He knew the risks," he added.
"Not as well as you, my friend, and
certainly not as well as I." The Chief’s voice was deceptively
quiet. By now dozens of others had gathered. They looked sick,
ashen, aghast, but the Chief’s face was taut with fury. Slow and
gentle in his rage, he knelt on the frozen ground, reached past the
doctors, grasped Dolgov’s outflung hands, and folded the arms across
the orange chest so that Dolgov seemed to grasp the chest straps of
his parachute.
"Better that way," the Chief
grunted.
He turned and walked back toward the
truck, into the cold wind, Aksyonov close behind. As he walked, the
Chief pulled from his bulky jacket his notebook and a ball-point
pen, shook the pen to get it going (it was of East German make), and
began to write, pen plowing across the page, line after line. As he
wrote, the Chief stepped over gullies and around rocks without
stumbling or looking up. A marmot scampered across his path,
practically underfoot. The Chief kept writing.
At the end of the lane, where the
earth was permanently churned by the wide turns of tractors, the
pale soldier had found a use for his rifle: He held it up
horizontally, like a cattle gate, to keep three shriveled peasant
women at bay. As the Chief approached, the eldest called: "What is
wrong, Comrade? What’s all the fuss?"
The Chief replied as he passed,
without looking up or ceasing to write: "I just broke a young man’s
neck, Madam, with a slide rule and the stroke of a pen."
The old woman instantly crossed
herself, then realized her error and clapped her hands to her face;
but Aksyonov and his Chief could not care less, and the soldier was
intent on the romping parachute, as rapt and wide-eyed as a
child.
V. Baikonur Cosmodrome, 12 April
1961
Frustrated with merely adjusting and
rearranging his stubborn pillow, Aksyonov began, shortly past one
a.m., to give it a sound thrashing. He pummeled it with his fists,
butted it with his head, and slung it into the corner. Aksyonov sat
up, sighed, and amused himself for a few minutes by twisting locks
of his hair into intricate braids with his left thumb and
forefinger, then yanking them free with his right hand. "I am
insane," he said aloud. He threw back the bedcovers and swung his
bare feet onto the never-warm wooden floor of the
cottage.
The snores droning through the hallway
suggested Aksyonov was alone in his sleeplessness. Trousers, shoes,
jacket, cap; he imagined they were the bright orange flight suit,
the asphalt spreader’s boots, the leaden bubble of the helmet. He
made final adjustments to this fancy (to be sure of the
oxygen-nitrogen mix) before he stepped boldly onto the back porch,
arms raised in triumph, to claim the concrete walkway and the dusty
shrubbery in the name of World Socialism.
Shaking his head at his foolishness–an
option young Gagarin, suited up, alas would not have–Aksyonov
strolled into the yard. He briefly mistook, for the thousandth time,
the horizonal glow of the launch pad for the dawn of a new day.
Aksyonov felt his internal compass corkscrew wildly. He closed his
eyes and gulped the chill air, hoped to flood himself with calm, but
instead thought of a rocket sucking subzero broth from a
hose.
Across the garden, a light burned in
the kitchen window of the Chief’s equally nondescript cottage.
Aksyonov walked toward it, since he had nowhere else to walk, and as
he neared he became absurdly furtive, stepping with great care,
raising his knees high like a prancing colt in zero gravity. He
crept into the bushes alongside the house and peered over the sill.
As a child, Aksyonov had longed to be a spy; he enjoyed, for
example, covertly watching his secretly Orthodox grandfather in
prayer. One day he gave himself away with a loud borscht-fed belch,
infuriated his grandfather, and launched a family crisis . . . but
the Chief, he saw, was just reading.
The harsh fluorescent light accented
the frostbite scars on the Chief’s face–a sign, too, of his
weariness. As usual, his right hand supported his chin; his left
index finger guided his eyes across and down the page of his
notebook. At his elbow were a plate of cheese curds and a full glass
of tea from which no steam rose. The Chief turned the page, read,
turned another. Nothing worth watching; why, then, was Aksyonov so
fascinated? Why did he feel such comfort, knowing the Chief Designer
sat up late in a lighted kitchen, reading? The Chief’s finger moved
as methodically as his pen, line after line after–he looked up, not
toward the window but toward the back door, and Aksyonov ducked
beneath the sill. He heard the scrape of a chair, and heavy
footsteps. A wedge of light sliced across the grass.
The Chief whispered: "Gagarin?
Hsst! Hello?"
After a pause, as Aksyonov held his
breath, the Chief peered around the corner of the house at his
assistant crouched in the shrubbery.
"Ah, it’s you," the Chief said. "Good.
Now perhaps I can get some work done, in this winter resort for
narcoleptics."
Aksyonov was brushing leaves and twigs
from his sleeves, trying to formulate an explanation to himself that
also would pass muster with the Chief, when his superior reappeared.
He strode from the house with the notebook under his right arm as
his left arm fought for position inside his bulky jacket, which he
wore outdoors in all weathers; Aksyonov figured it weighed at least
as much as a flight suit. "Now then," the Chief said, and shepherded
Aksyonov across the yard by the elbow. "Let us suppose, for the sake
of argument and for our sanity, that all goes well in the morning.
Gagarin goes up, he orbits, he comes down, he talks to Khrushchev,
he talks to his mama, he is the good Russian boy, yes? Yes. Fine.
All well and good. Still he is just Spam in a can."
"Spam, Chief ?"
The Chief waved his hand. "An American
delicacy packed in cans, like caviar. I have read too much
Life, perhaps. Stop interrupting. I mean that if good Russian
boys like Gagarin are ever to orbit anything other than the Earth,
they will need a craft better than that hollowed-out Fellow
Traveler over there. They will need to be able to maneuver, to
rendezvous with each other, to dock, and so on. Now interrupt
me. What modular structure for this new craft, this Union
craft, best would combine the strengths of our current craft with
the terrible necessities of . . ."
For more than an hour the two men
tromped across the yard, sometimes talked simultaneously and
sometimes not at all, sometimes walked shoulder to shoulder and
sometimes stalked each other like duelists, and they snatched
diagrams from the air, and chopped them in the grass, and bickered
and fought and hated one another and reconciled and embraced and
bickered again, all beneath a brilliant starry sky at which they did
not even glance; and when they tired, having solved nothing and
having discovered about a dozen fresh impossibilities to be somehow
faced and broken, they collapsed onto the back porch steps in giddy
triumph and elation, and then Aksyonov said, "This is not my
cottage."
The Chief looked around. "Nor mine,"
he said.
Heaped about the porch were bouquets,
mostly frugal carnations, brought the previous day, in wave after
wave, by dimpled envoys of the Young Communists League.
"This is Gagarin’s cottage," Aksyonov
whispered. The windows were dark. In the absolute silence: a faint
snore.
"At seven last evening I marched over
here and ordered him to go to bed and get a good night’s sleep," the
Chief murmured, eyes wide, "and he has the nerve to do exactly
that." He heaved himself off the steps, rubbed the small of his
back, stooped and raked the dirt with his hands. "Help me," he
whispered, and began to load his pockets with pebbles.
Aksyonov dropped to hands and knees.
"You’re right, Chief. Why should we stay up all night, and do all
his worrying for him?" He added, under his breath: "The
bastard."
Incredibly, there was Gagarin, out
cold, his outline visible in the darkened room thanks to the radium
dial of the bedside clock. The two engineers danced back a few paces
from the cosmonaut’s window and began peppering the pane with
handfuls of shot. Was the man deaf, or made of stone–a peasant boy
already gone to monument? Ah, there’s the light. Crouched behind
Gagarin’s complementary black government sedan, which he could drive
from the middle of nowhere to the edge of nowhere and back again,
his tormentors watched the young hero of the Motherland raise the
sash, poke out his head, look around.
Gagarin whispered: "Chief
?"
No reply, and so the sash came down,
and the light went off. The two ruffians stood up, turned solemnly
to each other, and began to sputter and fizz with suppressed
laughter. Aksyonov drew in a deep breath, and the Chief said, with
quiet gravity: "As I prepared to leave the cottage, Gagarin said he
had two last questions for me. One, was it not true that he could
take a couple of personal items aboard, up to about two hundred
grams? Yes, I told him, of course, perhaps a photograph or the like.
Then, he made a request. Do you know what that boy wanted to carry
into orbit tomorrow? Can you imagine? One of my writing
pens."
"Did you give him one?"
The Chief’s face spasmed. "Go to bed,
Aksyonov," he said.
Aksyonov did, and behind him the Chief
Designer leaned on the government-issue sedan and gazed at Yuri
Gagarin’s darkened bedroom window.
VI. Sunrise One, 12 October
1964
A planet rolled aside to reveal a
star, and was itself revealed, lighted as if from within: storm
systems roiled; mountain snowfields sparkled; a checkerboard of
collective farms wheeled past the window, proof from space that
Communism had changed the Earth. Orbital sunrise was the spectacle
of a lifetime, yet Cosmonaut Aksyonov was distracted throughout.
Cosmonaut Aksyonov was upside down.
Should he say something? He knew that
at four hundred kilometers above the earth’s surface the term
"upside down" was meaningless, but the sensation persisted. Even
with his eyes closed he felt inverted, as if all the blood was
rushing to his head. Surely Yegorov’s countless sensors, which
studded every crevice and cranny of Aksyonov’s body, would detect
such a thing? For a moment, Aksyonov fancied that the doctor was
aware of his upside-downness and just hadn’t said anything, to spare
Aksyonov’s feelings. After all, reorienting himself, swapping ends,
would be impossible for any of the three crewmen in this cramped
space. Here there was even less room to maneuver than in the back
seat of that ridiculous Italian car in which Aksyonov had ridden
three abreast with these very men a month before, on a futile
midnight jaunt to Tyuratam for vodka. Even with the ability to
unstrap himself and float, could the middle person suddenly cry,
"Switch!" and reverse himself at will? No, if Aksyonov was upside
down, he would have to stay that way until re-entry. And if he was
not upside down, but merely insane, then he might stay that way a
lot longer, but he tried not to think about that.
"Looks like a slight anomaly in the
saline balance," Yegorov said, as he peered at his hand-sized lab
kit. The doctor sounded very proud of his salty blood. He had poked
and prodded himself with sensors and needles and probes ever since
reaching orbit, but found himself lamentably normal–until this final
pinprick of blood, which Yegorov had flipped from his finger like a
tiny red berry, finally yielded something unearthly, if tedious.
Well, fine, Comrade Doctor, Aksyonov wanted to say, why do all your
little tests not tell you that we’ve been upside down for the past
two hours? Because if Aksyonov was upside down, then Yegorov and
Novikov must be upside down as well. The thought did not console
him.
"How do you feel, Comrade Aksyonov?"
Novikov asked.
"I am fine," Aksyonov
replied.
The pilot smiled in reply and returned
his attention to the sealed tube of black currant juice that drifted
between his outstretched hands. In space as on Earth, Novikov
thrilled at small things. Back at the cosmodrome, he had been aghast
at Aksyonov’s ignorance of Kazakh food. He had prepared for the
reluctant engineer lamb strips and noodles, which he called besh
barmak, and poured him a foamy mug of fermented kumiss.
"You will enjoy space more," the pilot had said, "if you experience
more of Earth beforehand. Drink up. It’s mare’s milk, but what do
you care? We are young yet. Drink." Now Novikov was engrossed with
the plastic tube, which he batted first with his right hand, then
his left, as if he were playing tennis with himself, and the tube
tumbled first one way, then another. Aksyonov was fairly certain of
the tube’s movements to left and right, but what of "up" and "down"?
Was the tube, end over end over end, ever truly upside down? Or was
it right side up the whole time, as the rest of the capsule revolved
around it? Aksyonov wanted to throw up.
"If you aren’t going to drink that,
how about passing it over?" asked the jolly doctor, who probably
wanted to test the effects of black currant juice on his saline
levels. "Here you go," replied the equally jolly pilot. He lifted
his right hand to let the tube pass beneath it on its way across
Aksyonov’s chest. The doctor caught it and said, "Thanks." He popped
the lid with his thumb and squeezed it to release a shivering blob
of juice. The doctor let go of the tube (which began a slow drift
back across the cabin in response to the slight push of his hand
upon release), and brought both hands together to clasp the juice at
its middle, mashing the blob until it divided, cell-like, into two
separate jellies. The doctor raised his head from his couch and
allowed one of them to float into his mouth. He licked his lips and
said, "Mmm," and nudged the other blob toward Novikov. It drifted
across Aksyonov’s chest like a dark cloud above a picnic, and was
gobbled in its turn; the pilot flicked out his tongue like a frog to
catch it.
And these were grown men!
"Would you like some currant juice,
Comrade Aksyonov?"
"No, thank you." His mouth tasted like
kumiss.
"Water?"
"Coffee?"
"Orange juice?"
"Apple, perhaps?"
"Thank you, I’m not thirsty. Thanks
all the same." He envisioned a head-sized glob of vomit bouncing
about the cabin as its three captives flinched and moaned beneath,
like schoolchildren trapped in a room with a bat. Aksyonov took deep
breaths of the canned air and tried to focus on the fireflies
outside the window.
"Comrade Aksyonov has the
spacesickness," Yegorov murmured, as if he and Novikov were
exchanging confidences.
"I do not!" Aksyonov cried.
"You have lain there like a fish for
an hour," the doctor continued. "Pulse rate normal, respiration
normal, eye movements slightly accelerated but otherwise normal, you
check out normal on all my readouts, and frankly you look like
hell."
"Everybody gets it," Novikov said.
"Titov, Nikolayev, Popovich, Bykovsky, Tereshkova–all had it, in
some degree or other."
"Gagarin, too?" Aksyonov
asked.
"No, Gagarin didn’t get
it."
"Do you have it?"
"Ah, no, actually I don’t. But I’ve
been a pilot for years, you know. Fighter training and so
on."
"I have it a little, I think," Yegorov
said. "Just some giddiness. The Americans have reported it, too. We
think it may have something to do with the effect of weightlessness
on the inner ear." The doctor had published a number of important
papers on the inner ear, and Aksyonov was surprised he had waited so
long to bring up that remarkable organ. "Do you feel disoriented,
spatially confused in any way?"
"Yes," Aksyonov sighed. "I feel as if I’m upside
down. I have trouble focusing my eyes. The instruments swim around a
little when I try to read them. And I’m a bit queasy as
well."
"Are you going to throw up?" Novikov
asked.
"No!" Aksyonov retorted, and began to
feel better.
"This is very interesting," Yegorov
said, making notes. "You must report all your symptoms as they
occur."
"I am not reporting, I am
complaining," Aksyonov said. "And yet I am a crew member aboard the
world’s first three-man spacecraft, on the highest manned orbit in
history. Forgive me, comrades."
Even as he said it, he winced to call
the Sunrise a "three-man spacecraft." It was the same old
East capsule minus reserve parachute and ejection system, a risky
modification that left just enough room to wedge in a third narrow
couch. No room for pressure suits, either, so they all wore grey
coveralls, paper-thin jackets, and sneakers. "A shirtsleeve flight,"
Khrushchev had called it, when he presented his demands to the Chief
at the Chairman’s Black Sea villa the summer before.
The Chief’s rage had percolated all
the way back to Baikonur; by the time he relayed his orders to
Aksyonov, he was in a near-frenzy, stomping about the design lab and
slamming his fist on the work tables to punctuate his denunciations.
"So now we must suspend work on the Union, delay all our
progress toward the moon, so that Khrushchev can taunt the
Americans, ‘Ha ha! Your Gemini sends up two men, but our
Sunrise sends up three! We win again!’ " Pencils and rulers
rattled as the great fist came down.
Aksyonov shook his head over the
sketches. "It will be three brave cosmonauts who will board this
craft," he said.
"Not three cosmonauts at all," the
Chief replied. "I have not yet told you the worst part. The
Sunrise will carry aloft one trained cosmonaut and two
untrained ‘civilians’–one a doctor, one a scientist or engineer.
This way Khrushchev can brag of the first scientific laboratory in
space. He said, ‘If you cannot build this for me, if you cannot
continue to advance our glorious space program, then I assure you
that Comrade Shandarin can.’ " The Chief paced back down the table
to brood over the diagrams. "But what engineer, I ask you, would be
noble and courageous and foolish and short enough to climb into such
a bucket without a rifle at his back?"
At that moment, Aksyonov knew his
answer. He had seen the Chief shudder at the mention of Shandarin’s
name. But Aksyonov spent a week working up the nerve to pass his
answer on to the Chief, and then another couple of weeks persuading
him.
The same evening the Chief finally
relented, Aksyonov helped him write a long and detailed letter to be
sent by special courier to the Politburo member most familiar with
the Baikonur program–the former Kazakhstan party secretary, Comrade
Brezhnev. The report detailed Comrade Khrushchev’s increasing
interference with the Soviet space program, and implied (without
quite saying so) that ignominious disaster loomed if more rational
and far-sighted leaders did not intervene. While the Chief
laboriously pecked away at the final draft, for even his
two-fingered typing was superior to Aksyonov’s, the Motherland’s
newest cosmonaut sketched a cartoon called "How To Send A Bureaucrat
Into Orbit." It showed Khrushchev being shoehorned into a cannon
with a crowbar.
"Look out there," Novikov
said.
The Sunrise’s porthole twinkled
with hundreds of tiny lights, each lasting less than a second. A
shimmering envelope of ice crystals surrounded the hurtling
spacecraft.
"I heard and read descriptions of the
fireflies," Aksyonov said, "but I never dreamed how beautiful they
are."
"Are you still upside down, Comrade?"
the doctor asked him.
Aksyonov laughed. "Yes, but if you can
stand it so can I. If I were not as upside down as you two, I would
not be here, would I?"
"Well, the Chief will turn us all
upside down," Novikov said, "if we don’t get some more chores done
before we fly back into radio range. We have transitional spectra to
photograph, ion fluxes and background radiation to measure, and of
course spontaneous greetings to prepare for our Olympic team in
Tokyo. Yegorov, perhaps you and our topsy-turvy friend could
rehearse the script while I see to these instruments."
"Right away, Comrade. Let me just
finish these medical notes. . . ."
Aksyonov squinted at Yegorov’s writing
hand. "Comrade Doctor," he said. "Is that the pen you typically use
for note-taking? In zero gravity, it seems prone to
skip."
Yegorov stopped writing, opened his
mouth, closed it again, and cast Aksyonov a sheepish glance. "This
is not my usual pen, Comrade. I borrowed it for the flight. It is
one of the Chief’s pens."
His crewmates regarded the doctor for
a few seconds. Then Novikov chuckled and reached into a pocket.
"Don’t be ashamed, Comrade Doctor. Look. I myself asked for one of
the great man’s handkerchiefs."
After a pause, pilot and doctor both
looked at the engineer who lay between them.
"For my part," Aksyonov said, "I have
a note he gave me just before launch." He pulled the small square of
paper from his jacket and began to unfold it. "I see no harm in
sharing it with you–"
Novikov tapped his hand.
"No, Comrade," he said. "That note is
for you, and not for us. Maybe at some point we will need to hear
it, and then you may read it to us, but not now. Not now. Now we
have our orders, Comrades. Shall we get to work?"
VII. Sunrise Two, 18 March
1965
"I can’t do it. Come in, Baikonur. I
can’t do it."
"Leonov, this is the Chief. What did
you say? Please repeat."
"I can’t get back into the airlock,
Chief."
"Explain."
"My pressure suit, sir. It has
swollen, as we expected, because of the unequal stresses on the
materials . . . but it has swollen much more than we anticipated, in
only a ten-minute spacewalk. I didn’t realize how much, until just
now, when I tried to bend to enter the hatch. It’s becoming rigid,
Chief, like a suit of armor, or a statue. Please advise."
"I understand, Leonov. This is an
inconvenience, nothing more. Have you tried to maneuver with the
handholds? Grasp them and haul yourself forward headfirst. Stretch
out and pull yourself along like a log. I know it’s awkward, but
clipping the television camera to the hull was awkward, too,
remember?"
"All right. I will try,
Chief."
"You’re doing fine, Leonov. You have
executed a flawless extra-vehicular activity. Your suit may be
stiff, but you are more free at this moment than any other man who
has ever lived, and we all envy you, Leonov. Report when you are
ready. Baikonur out."
"Uh, Baikonur, this is Leonov. Come
in, Baikonur. Come in, Chief."
"Yes, Leonov, this is the Chief. What
news?"
"No news yet, Chief, I’m still trying.
It’s hard, because my arms are getting stiff, too, but I’m trying.
Chief, could you perhaps keep talking? It helps me focus. Believe it
or not, there are a lot of distractions up here. I keep wanting to
look at the Earth, at the clouds over the Volga. Or the other way,
at the blackness–although it’s really a dark blue, and it’s
beautiful too, in its own way. If you keep talking, Chief, it will
help keep me on task."
"Why, Leonov. Am I such an evil boss
that you fear my wrath even five hundred kilometers above? Everyone
in the control room is smiling and nodding his head, Leonov, so
everyone here agrees with you. I am quite the dictator, I see. Well,
I will try to mend my ways. When you return I will be a new man,
yes? Yes. I will be only the proud uncle to my young friend Leonov.
How are you doing, Leonov?"
"I’m still trying, Chief. Keep
talking."
"Leonov, do you remember when I came
to your cottage last night to tell you to go to bed? I also told you
that we cannot foresee every problem on the ground, that your job
and pilot Belyayev’s job is to step in to deal with the problems
that we haven’t foreseen down here, and that we have complete faith
in your abilities to do this. Well, here is just such a problem as I
was talking about, Leonov. This is the unforeseen that was foreseen.
And there you are to solve it for us. How are you doing, Leonov?
Please report."
"Chief . . . I’m still out here, and I
don’t think the handholds will be much use. It’s not just that I
can’t bend in the middle; my arms and legs are sticking out, too,
and the hatch is only a meter wide. And the suit is stiffening even
as we speak. Maneuvering is like trying to swim without moving my
arms and legs. Please advise."
"Thank you, Leonov, we better
understand your situation now. We will advise you in a moment. Just
now I am going to speak with your pilot, all right? I will switch
over very briefly, then confer with my comrades in the control room,
then come back to you. If you like, you may admire the Volga. You
will be able to describe it all the more vividly when you
return."
"All right, Chief."
"Baikonur out. . . . Sunrise
Two, this is the Chief. Come in, Sunrise Two."
"Chief, this is Sunrise Two. Do
you want me to go out and get him?"
"Negative, Belyayev, negative. You are
to stay inside until you receive contrary orders from me. I cannot
have both my cosmonauts waltzing together outside the craft until we
are sure we can get both of you back inside. Do you understand,
Belyayev?"
"I understand, Chief. What shall I
do?"
"Do as you are doing, and carry out
your orders, and prepare yourself to exit if I say the word.
Baikonur out."
"Leonov, this is the Chief. Any
progress?"
"No, Chief . . . but the sunlight on
the Black Sea is remarkable."
"And so are you, friend Leonov, and so
are you. Listen, Leonov, we have found a way to make your pressure
suit a bit more manageable. Your current air pressure reading is
six. If you begin to lessen the air pressure, you should gain some
flexibility. Do you understand, Leonov?"
". . . Uh, Chief, I do understand, but
my pressure’s already pretty low relative to the inside of the
capsule. How much lower can I go without some real trouble when I
get back in? I won’t be much good to the mission if I get the bends,
Chief."
"That is true, Leonov, but we have
work for you to do inside. We don’t pay you to loiter out there and
watch the clouds all day. And Comrade Belyayev is lonely for your
company."
"I don’t like this, Chief."
"Nor do we, friend Leonov, nor do we.
But you have counted the minutes as attentively as we have, have you
not?"
"Yes, Chief."
"And you have noted your oxygen supply
as well, correct?"
"Yes, Chief."
"And do you have any alternate courses
of action to propose at this time?"
"No, Chief."
"Very well, Leonov, begin to adjust
your–"
"Chief."
"I am here, Leonov."
"Is this a group recommendation, Chief
? A consensus? Or is it your personal recommendation?"
". . . It is my personal
recommendation, Leonov. This is the course of action I would take
were I in your place. It is the recommendation of the Chief
Designer."
"Thank you, Chief, I will do it.
Adjust pressure to what level?"
"No target level. Adjust as slowly, as
gradually as possible, all the while trying to flex your arms and
legs and bend your waist. We want you through the lock with the
highest suit pressure possible. Understood?"
"Understood, Chief. Beginning to
reduce suit pressure . . .
"Five and a half, no good, continuing.
. . .
"Five, I do see some improvement in
mobility, Chief, repeat, some improvement, but I am still a slow old
man up here, continuing. . . .
"Four and a half, I’m doing my best,
trying to wedge myself in there, but I can’t . . . can’t quite . . .
shall I continue this, Chief?"
"Continue."
"Continuing to reduce pressure. . . .
Four point twenty-five, I really am not liking this, Chief, I
really–Chief ! My head and shoulders are inside, I’m pulling myself
along, I’m turning around in the airlock–I’m in, Chief ? I’m in, in!
Hurrah!"
"Excellent, Leonov! Excellent! Can you
hear our applause? Well done!"
"Shit, that was close. I beg your
pardon, Chief. Closing airlock. Preparing to equalize pressure. . .
."
"Any problems to report, Leonov? How
are you feeling?"
"No problems, Chief. But Belyayev said
I smelled pretty ripe when I came in."
"Chief, Lyosha here has not sweated so
much since his last physics exams."
"He just completed his most difficult
physics exam, friend Belyayev, and he passed it with honors.
Congratulations, Leonov."
"Only because you helped me through,
Chief."
"Well, I know all about such things,
you see. I move like an old man every day. And now, I think, I will
let one of these younger fellows talk to you a while, about how we
are to get you fellows home again. Chief out."
VIII. Baikonur Cosmodrome, 12 January
1966
Vasily!
Alive! Here! How–?
"Oleg, stop the car! Stop the car, I
said!"
After a moment’s hesitation, Oleg
braked and steered to the shoulder, just beside the ditch that
separated the highway from the railroad track and the featureless
warehouses beyond. Korolev was out the door before the car quite
stopped; he lurched, off balance, until the world quit moving,
nearly toppling into the ditch. Some engineer he was, to forget his
physics like that.
"Chief, what is it?" Aksyonov called.
"What’s wrong?"
Ignoring him, Korolev trotted to catch
up with the shuffling column of zeks being herded, single file, back
toward the launch pad from which he had come. He felt slow, clumsy,
like a runner in a nightmare. His legs moved as if knee-deep in
roadside slush, though the ground was grey and bare. In this barren
land, snow was as rare as rain.
"Chief ! Hey!" Car doors slammed.
"What’s going on?"
Vasily was dead, surely. Had to be. No
man could survive, what–twenty years in the Kolyma? Even if he were
such a wonder man, he would be no good to work an outdoor
construction detail in a Kazakhstan winter. And Vasily had been at
least ten years Korolev’s senior to begin with. Thus Korolev
reasoned as he quickened his pace, his heart racing. "Vasily!" he
cried. "Wait!"
He started to identify himself, then
wondered: Had he ever told Vasily his name? Would Vasily remember
his number? Oh luckless day! No matter, no matter, surely Vasily
would recognize him–unless eating utterly could transform a man.
"Vasily!"
One of the guards at the rear of the
line turned and raised a hand in warning. "No closer!" he cried.
None of the fifty-odd prisoners looked around; all curiosity had
been scoured from them, Korolev knew, long long ago. The other guard
unstrapped his rifle.
"Halt the line!" boomed Oleg, as he
sprinted past Korolev. "It is the will of the Chief Designer! Halt
the line!"
The first guard blew a whistle, and
the prisoners immediately looked like men who had not walked or
moved in years, who had aged in all weathers beside the road, and
who would not deign to fall even when they died.
Puffing, Korolev leaned on Aksyonov’s
shoulder.
"Chief, please. How many more heart
attacks do you want? Calm down."
Hands on hips, glaring downward at
them, Oleg was trying to intimidate the guards. "Do you have a man
named Vasily in this detail?"
The guards, impervious, shrugged. "How
should we know, Comrade?"
Oleg began to pace the line, calling
the name at intervals. Korolev shook his head. The fortunate man
obviously had no experience with political prisoners–himself
excepted, of course. "Let’s follow Oleg," Korolev told Aksyonov.
"Slowly, mind you–slowly."
"That was my plan," Aksyonov
said.
Korolev couldn’t remember now whether
the face he had seen from the car window had been in the back of the
line, the front, or the middle (or in a cloud? a clump of weeds?),
so he peered at all the faces as he overtook them. So far no
glimmer, no trace, no Vasily; but as he walked on, another, more
terrible recognition dawned. These men all looked alike. The vacant
stares, the beards, the scars and creases of misery–they could all
be brothers. How would anyone be able to distinguish among
them?
Korolev stopped at the head of the
line, smiled weakly at the guard he faced there, then looked back
along the column. "I am sorry," Korolev said. "Do you all
understand? I am genuinely sorry. My friends, I think I will rest a
moment." With the help of Aksyonov and Oleg, he lowered himself onto
the weedy rim of the ditch, as weary as the engines of the
stars.
"Carry on," Oleg barked, and at the
whistle the sad processional shuddered into motion again. The guards
eyed Korolev as they passed. He heard them begin to mutter about how
nutty the scientists get, with their heads in outer space all the
time. Korolev started to laugh, then was seized with his worst
coughing fit of the day.
"I will bring the car," Oleg
said.
When the coughs had passed, Korolev
glanced sideways at Aksyonov. "Your Chief is a wreck," he said. "Do
you want a transfer?"
"Sure, Chief, send me to the moon.
Who’s this Vasily?"
Korolev shook his head, drew his coat
a bit closer around him. "Someone I knew many years ago. In the
camps."
"The Kolyma."
"Yes. He collapsed at mealtime, was
dragged away. I got a piece of his bread, and enjoyed it. Maybe I’m
guilty for that, I don’t know. I assumed he was dead. I suppose he
is dead. Yes, I’m sure he is."
"He died, you lived. That’s nothing to
feel guilty about, Chief. Have you brooded about Vasily all this
time?"
Korolev smiled. "Comrade, I had not
thought about Vasily once, not in twenty years, until a few moments
ago in the car. And then it all came back. Like a comet that has
been away for so long that no one remembers it, eh? Yet all the
while it is on track out there, makes its great loop, comes round
again. As dependable as Oleg, here. Yes, thank you, Oleg. No, stay
put, we’ll be right over. Aksyonov."
"Yes, Chief ?"
"Listen to me. Tonight I go to Moscow,
back into the hospital. I hope to be back in a week, maybe two. The
Health Minister has scheduled an operation for me, a hemorrhoid
operation. I’ve had problems down there."
"Is it serious?"
"Serious. It’s my ass, isn’t it? Yes,
my ass is serious. Stop interrupting. Do you still have your copy of
Tsiolkovsky’s book, of Exploration of Cosmic
Space–"
"–with Reactive Devices, yes,
Chief, you know I do."
"While I am gone, I want you to read
it over again. Every word of it. Study every diagram. Read it as if
it were the first time, as if there were no satellites, no Gagarin,
no spacewalk, no cosmonauts, and see where your ideas take you. And
I, I will do the same. For I have been too old lately, Aksyonov, and
turning you old along with me, I’m afraid; but when I return, we
will talk about all these new wonders we have envisioned, and we
will savor the sky and be astonished again."
IX. Moscow, 14 January 1966
The Health Minister enjoyed one last
cigarette as he leaned against the wall opposite the scrub room.
Down the darkened corridor toward the elevators huddled the doctors
and nurses who would assist him. They murmured among themselves. One
or two looked his way, then avoided his glance.
No doubt they dreaded performing under
the scrutiny of the Motherland’s most honored physician, and so
sought to encourage each other. They did not know their patient’s
name, but they knew they had not been whisked here after hours to
work on any mundane Party apparatchik. They knew that Chairman
Brezhnev himself awaited the outcome of the operation; the Health
Minister had told them this at the briefing, to impress upon them
the importance of this hemorrhoidal procedure, and the honor of
their participation in it.
As he watched them now, the Health
Minister smiled and shook his head with fond indulgence, smoke
pluming. These hard-working men and women did not realize it, but he
already had made up his mind to be lenient with them. They would be
unusually nervous, with good reason, and he would make allowances
when writing his report. He was a servant of the State, yes, but he
was also a human being; he could understand, even forgive, the
frailties of others; he prided himself on this trait, one of his
most admirable and practical. He took a final pull, crushed the butt
into his coffee cup, and sighed with satisfaction. Too bad these
Winstons were so hard to find. . . .
The doctors and nurses now approached
him as a shuffling unit, little Dr. Remek in the lead. Stepping away
from the wall, the Health Minister, who had been the third tallest
dignitary on the reviewing stand at the 1965 May Day parade, drew
himself to his full height and smiled down at them. "Are we all
ready to wash up, Comrades? Our patient should be prepared by
now."
Dr. Remek cleared his tiny throat. He
sounded like a noisemaker blown by an asthmatic child. "Comrade
Minister, my colleagues and I . . . with all due respect, sir . . .
we would like to recommend that . . . that, the gravity of the
situation being what it is, that you, or, that is, we, take the
added precaution of, of . . ."
"I am waiting, Dr. Remek," the
Minister murmured. His eyes had narrowed during this
preamble.
Remek turned to the others with a look
of despair. One of the nurses stepped forward and said:
"Comrade Minister, we request that Dr.
Vishnevskiy be included on this surgical team."
"Vishnevskiy," the Minister repeated.
He should have guessed. The others fidgeted. The nurse (whose name
escaped him; he would look it up later) maintained her defiant gaze.
"And what could young Dr. Vishnevskiy contribute to these
proceedings?"
Now they all found voices.
"He has performed dozens of these
operations."
"His technique is flawless, Comrade
Minister, you should see him at work."
"He has not been so . . . burdened
with administrative duties in recent years as you, Comrade
Minister." That was Remek, the toad.
"And surely the welfare of this
patient, so vital to the interests of the Revolution, warrants the
collaboration of all the finest doctors on the
staff."
The Health Minister smiled and raised
a hand. "I thank you all for your counsel. It has been duly noted,
and will not be forgotten. I cannot detail my reasons for not
calling upon Dr. Vishnevskiy–for much of the material that crosses
my desk, as you know, is classified–but suffice to say that security
issues were among my considerations. Besides. My
understanding is that young Dr. Vishnevskiy’s surgical
technique, however flashy and attention-getting, may be somewhat
impaired after the dinner hour. Thank you all again for your
concern. After you . . . comrades."
The team trudged into the scrub room
like a detail of zeks. All avoided the Health Minister’s gaze except
for that one nurse, whose glance was not only contemptuous but
dismissive. Fighting his anger, the Minister took a deep breath and
consoled himself with the thought that the upstart Vishnevskiy would
share none of the credit for this service to the Revolution. No,
this personal friend of Brezhnev, this most laudable Communist,
would receive a most singular honor: His operation would be
personally performed by a full, sitting member of the Politburo. The
Health Minister pushed forward, and behind him the swinging doors
repeatedly clapped.
The sirens grew louder as Vishnevskiy
and his friend the music critic, the last to leave as usual,
bantered outside the opera.
"No, no, you will go before I do, my
friend," the music critic said. "The moon will need surgeons long
before symphonies, and a critic? If we know what’s good for us, we
critics will all stay down here, where there’s so much more to
criticize."
Vishnevskiy guffawed and clapped his
friend on the back. "Well said, well said, but surely musicians,
writers, artists of every stripe should be among the first to walk
the lunar landscape. Who better to relay its wonders to the rest of
us? The job must not be left to the television cameras, of that I’m
sure. The mind reels at the thought."
"We have visitors," said the music
critic, suddenly grave.
Roaring up the circular drive were
four police motorcycles, sirens wailing. They wheeled to a halt in
the gray slush at the foot of the grand staircase.
"Dr. Vishnevskiy?" one of the officers
called.
"Yes," he stated. His shoulder ached
beneath the clamp of his friend’s hand, but he was nonetheless
grateful for it.
"You are urgently needed in the
operating room, Comrade Doctor. We are here to escort
you."
The music critic slumped in relief,
and Vishnevskiy exhaled a roiling cloud of breath.
"I thank you, Comrades," he said. "I
am ready to go."
Poor Remek, talking so fast he
practically stuttered, briefed him through the intercom as he
lathered his arms. Vishnevskiy wasted no time asking questions,
enough time had been wasted already, but he wondered: How the hell
had intestinal cancer been mistaken for hemorrhoids? And why hadn’t
they halted the procedure, called for help and more equipment,
instead of hacking around in him for hours? Then Remek started
babbling about the importance to the State of the poor soul on the
table, and Vishnevskiy had his answer.
"The Minister," he snarled.
The damned fool didn’t even have the
nerve to look up as Vishnevskiy ran into the operating room, though
all other heads turned. His run to the table became a trot, then a
walk, as he looked at the Health Minister, who moaned softly as he
worked, and at the others, bloody hands at their sides. Vishnevskiy
looked at the patient, closed his eyes, and controlled himself
before he opened them again. He reached up and ripped off the
mask.
"I do not operate on dead men," he
said.
Outside, alone and glad of the cold,
Vishnevskiy looked up and thought, ah moon, what do you know of
slaughter, and pride, and folly? Better we should stay where we
are.
X. Baikonur Cosmodrome, February
1966
At first, Aksyonov pretended he didn’t
hear the knocking. He figured it was only Shandarin again, with a
freshly typed sheet of demands. Shandarin liked to deliver his memos
in person so that he could watch his team leaders read them, gauge
their reactions, and satisfy himself that his wishes were clear.
They were clear to Aksyonov even before the first memo, clear at
least from the afternoon of the Chief’s funeral, when Shandarin had
left the Kremlin wall in Brezhnev’s limousine.
The Chief’s plan for tanker craft
carried into orbit by Old Number Seven had been scrapped. Not
spectacular enough, not decisive enough, for Shandarin (and not,
presumably, for Brezhnev either). Instead, Shandarin’s own giant
Proton, designed to carry hundred-megaton warheads, would
blast cosmonauts into a loop around the moon in October 1967; the
Proton’s as-yet theoretical descendant, Shandarin’s cherished
G-1, would launch the redesigned Union spacecraft toward a
moon landing the following year. As for the Chief’s meticulous
series of incremental test flights to check out the new
Union’s capabilities one at a time, Shandarin had crossed out
most of them, so that a totally revamped craft could be shot into
orbit in a year–or less.
When Aksyonov first realized the
enormity of what the Chief’s successor intended to do, he was too
dumbfounded even to be angry. Instead he laughed. Chuckling,
Aksyonov spun the dossier down the conference table, so that pages
whirled out of the folder like petals, and said,
"Impossible."
The folder stopped in front of
Shandarin, who sat at the far end of the long table, in what he had
wrongly assumed was the Chief’s chair. (The Chief had paced during
meetings, never sat anywhere, and where the others sat, or whether
they sat at all, had never been among his concerns.) "Impossible?"
Shandarin snorted. "What nonsense. Have you forgotten, Comrade?
Artificial satellites are impossible. A manned spacecraft in orbit
is impossible. We have done the impossible for years, Comrade
Aksyonov. Now we will do it faster and more efficiently, that’s
all."
Aksyonov drew from his wallet a
clipping from the January 16 edition of Truth. Already two
such clippings had fallen to pieces in his hands from repeated
unfolding and reading and folding again; fortunately, old
Truths were not hard to find, even at Baikonur. "You read
this tribute to the Chief upon his death, did you not, Comrade
Shandarin?"
"Of course I read it. You wave it at
me every three days; how could I fail to have read it?"
"To my knowledge," Aksyonov continued,
"this was the first time the Chief’s name ever appeared in print.
Think of that. For twenty, no, thirty years he was the guiding
genius of the Soviet space program–even before the government knew
it had a space program. Yet how many Soviets knew his name?
How many of the disciples who worked beside him every day knew his
name? How many of the cosmonauts who entrusted their lives to him
knew his name? And did the Chief care? Did he mind that he was a man
without a name?"
"What is your point, Aksyonov? I have
work to do today, if you do not."
"I am making no point, Comrade
Shandarin. You are the man who makes points–very clear and
unequivocal points. No, I just wonder whether your goal is to put a
man on the face of the moon, or to put your name on the front page
of Truth, and how many of us nameless men you will sacrifice
to get it there."
Shandarin stood, smiled, gathered his
papers, and slowly walked the length of the table. He patted
Aksyonov on the shoulder, leaned forward until their noses
practically touched, and said in a warm and fatherly voice, "Not so
very many years ago, I commanded a far more efficient operation,
where I occasionally had my workers shot for insolence."
"How strange, then, that you didn’t
shoot the Chief when you had the chance," Aksyonov replied, "since
he always knew you to be a tyrant and a fool. I am surprised you
were not strong enough to bury his body in the snow of the gulag,
and lead us all into space on your own."
And so Aksyonov felt no real reason to
answer the door. He just sat on the swaybacked couch, read the
clipping again, and let the man knock. Knock, knock! Yet this didn’t
sound like Shandarin’s impatient rap, nor the idiot pounding of the
KGB. This was the gentle, incessant knock of someone who would stand
there on the porch of the cottage until doomsday, secure in the
faith that his knocking was not in vain. Growling, Aksyonov kicked
through the litter of dirty clothes (what was the point of laundry
now?) and flung open the door.
A woman.
A wide, heavy-set, attractive woman of
about fifty, graying hair tied behind in a youthful braid. Large
nose and deep brown eyes. She cradled in her arms a bulky cardboard
box bound with masking tape. Behind her, at the foot of the drive,
Oleg stood at attention beside the car.
Aksyonov blinked at both of them in
wonderment.
"Comrade Aksyonov? I apologize for
disturbing you so late, but I must return to Moscow tonight. I am
Nina Ivanovna Korolev. Sergei Pavlovich’s wife. The Chief’s
wife."
"His wife!" Aksyonov
exclaimed.
She stooped and set the box onto the
porch at his feet. Straightening, she smiled a thin, sad smile. "You
need not struggle to conceal your astonishment, Comrade. I know that
my husband never spoke of me here. Far safer, he said, to keep his
family as secret as possible."
"His family!" Next the sun and the
moon would wrestle for dominion of the sky.
"I am sure I know much more about you
than you about me, Comrade Aksyonov. My husband spoke of you
whenever he came to Moscow. He said he had more faith in you than in
any rocket he had ever designed." She nodded at the box and said,
"These are a few of his personal effects. I am sure he would have
wanted you to have them."
"Personal effects," Aksyonov said,
slumped against the doorway. He felt increasingly redundant in this
conversation. "Please, forgive my manners, Nina Ivanovna. Won’t you
come inside, out of the cold? Oleg, you come, too. Please, I will
brew some tea–"
She shook her head. "I am sorry, but I
must go. The helicopter waits. Goodbye, Comrade Aksyonov. Thank you
for your help to my husband." She moved with remarkable grace for a
large woman, and was halfway down the steps before he could
react.
"Wait!" he cried.
She did, though she did not look
around. She faced the frozen yard, and trembled.
"Please, I don’t understand. There’s
so much I want to ask you, about your family, and about the Chief–I
mean, about Sergei Pavlovich. He was such a tremendous influence on
me, you see, on so many of us, and I know so little about him. So
little. Next to nothing, really. And I could tell you things. I
could tell you what he was like here, what he used to do and say,
how the cosmonauts all venerated him, you have no idea. You should
know all this. Come inside, please. We have so much to talk
about–"
"We have nothing to talk
about," she said as she faced him. "Don’t you see? Can’t you imagine
how difficult it was for me to come here? To see this place that
destroyed my husband–that destroyed me? Year after year after year,
Comrade Aksyonov, about once a month, with no warning whatsoever, my
telephone would ring, and I would answer it immediately, for our
apartment is small and I sleep but lightly, and then I would go
downstairs and watch my husband climb out of a car full of
soldiers–so slowly, oh, so slowly he moved, like an old, old man–I
never saw him when he wasn’t exhausted. He and I would sit at the
foot of the stairs and talk for an hour or more, until he had
gathered the strength to climb to the bedroom and go to sleep. And
the next morning the car full of soldiers would still be out there,
and it would take him away again. Back to this place. Back to all of
you. Do you understand, Comrade Aksyonov, why I do not rush to
embrace you now?" She walked a few paces into the yard, then added:
"When my husband was sent to Siberia, so many years ago, I was like
a madwoman. I thought he was lost to me, that he would be in prison
for the rest of his life. And I was right, Comrade, I was
right."
"Your husband was a free man,"
Aksyonov said.
"I have no control over what you
believe," Nina Ivanovna said. She nodded toward the package on the
porch. "I have given you all that I can give you. And now I must go
home."
She walked to the car, where Oleg held
open the passenger door. Just before she stepped inside, she called
out, "Try to get some sleep, Comrade Aksyonov. My husband always
worried because you worked so late."
Aksyonov knelt beside the package,
rubbed his hands across the smooth surfaces of tape, looking for a
seam, as the car sputtered to life and Oleg and Nina Ivanovna drove
away. He never saw either of them again.
XI. Baikonur Cosmodrome, 24 April
1967
Aksyonov would not have thought it
possible: Somehow the two soldiers who flanked the control-room
door, already as erect and expressionless as twin gantries, managed
to snap to attention as the prime minister walked in. Every
controller, engineer, and technician in the room stood as well,
though they had not been trained in it and were far less impressive
than the soldiers.
The prime minister wore a
well-tailored black suit that looked nondescript beside the uniform
of his escort, General Zeldovich, who was splendid in medals and
buttons and epaulets. The prime minister nodded at everyone and
patted the air. With a collective exhalation, everyone sat and
returned to their tasks, except for Aksyonov and Shandarin, who
joined the dignitaries in the back of the room.
Aksyonov was aware of the sweaty moons
beneath his own arms, of the hair he had neither washed nor combed
in more than a day, and he cursed himself for such thoughts. What
must poor Novikov look like at this moment? Novikov, who had cooked
him besh barmak; Novikov, who had told him it was no dishonor
to be sick in space; Novikov now was in an orbital hell,
somersaulting in vomit and terror.
"This is a great honor, Comrade Prime
Minister," Shandarin said, and shook his hand a bit too vigorously.
"Your historic contribution to this mission will do wonders for
Comrade Novikov’s performance."
"Whatever I can do to help, Comrade,"
the prime minister said, and gently freed his hand. He surveyed the
descending tiers of desks and instrument panels, the vast display
screens on the far wall, the litter of sandwich wrappers and tea
glasses underfoot, the samovar in the corner. His nose wrinkled
slightly: The sweat of unwashed men, Aksyonov wondered, or the far
worse stink of desperation? "Please show me to my microphone, and
tell me the current situation," the prime minister said. "In
layman’s terms, mind you."
Shandarin rolled his own plush chair
back over Aksyonov’s toes and gestured for the prime minister to
sit. He had cleared his work station of everything but a microphone
and a small gold-plated bust of Lenin, which the prime minister
pushed aside to open his leather briefcase. Shandarin glanced at
Aksyonov, who recited on cue:
"Comrade Novikov is in his eighteenth
orbit of the Earth. Because of a failed solar panel, his craft is
critically low on electrical power, so that most of its automatic
systems are inoperable. He has attempted for some time to manually
orient the craft for re-entry, thus far without success. Even now we
are talking him through the process."
The prime minister had opened a manila
file folder containing many closely typed pages. Aksyonov edged
closer, tried to read over the prime minister’s shoulder. "About an
hour ago," Aksyonov continued, "Novikov spoke to his wife on the
radio. Understandably, she was quite upset."
The prime minister glanced around at
the general, his papers poised. "The woman we passed in the
corridor?"
The general nodded.
"I assumed she was one of the female
cosmonauts," the prime minister said.
The general looked uncomfortable and
said, "No, Comrade." All the other women cosmonauts-in-training had,
of course, been sent home after Valentina Tereshkova landed safely
four years earlier. Tereshkova herself had been sent on a worldwide
lecture tour, her three-day space career at an end.
"Good," the prime minister said. "I
had wondered at such a womanly outburst from a trained pilot." The
general tugged at his white mustache as if to say yes, yes, just so.
"Proceed, Comrade."
"One more thing, Comrade Prime
Minister," Aksyonov continued. "The craft’s shortwave radio failed
very early in the flight. We have been using the craft’s
ultra-shortwave backup radio, but because electrical power is in
such short supply, even that is beginning to fade. Much of your
message to the cosmonaut, in short, may be lost in static and
garble."
The prime minister smiled for the
first time. "You may know quite a lot about spaceflight, Comrade,"
he said, "but I know a good bit about speeches. And I assure you,
the individual sentences are never as important as the cumulative
whole–as Comrade Castro has demonstrated, eh, Comrade General?" He
and the general chuckled, and Shandarin, after a pause, joined them.
Aksyonov did not. He was scanning the text of the prime minister’s
welcome-home address to honor Jakov Novikov, in which each reference
to the cosmonaut as "he" and "his" had been amended, in a neat and
precise hand, to "you" and "your." Then the prime minister laid his
hand across the sheet.
"Do you have any questions, Comrade
Prime Minister?" Shandarin asked.
"Just one," the prime minister said,
looking at Aksyonov. "Does Novikov’s wife have reason to
weep?"
Shandarin opened his mouth to reply,
but Aksyonov was quicker. He said: "The Union One is out of
control."
The prime minister, the general,
Shandarin, all regarded him. The whole room was hushed by this
heresy, though none but the nearest tier of controllers could have
overheard.
Several tiers below, one man read
aloud a list of numbers for another man to double-check. The numbers
were long, with many decimal places, and their progress was slow.
"Let’s just start over," one of the men said.
"I see," the prime minister said, as
he rubbed his eyes. He swiveled to face forward, squared the edges
of his speech, and said, "I am ready, Comrade."
Glaring at Aksyonov, Shandarin flipped
a switch at the base of the prime minister’s antiquated desk
microphone and adjusted his own compact headset, which had been
deemed too complicated for the visitor. "Speakers, please,"
Shandarin said.
Amplified static filled the room.
Aksyonov sat at his reassuringly cluttered station and focused on
the blinking dot that marked Novikov’s position on a world map–as if
the cosmonaut’s border crossings, one every few minutes, mattered to
him now.
"Union One, this is Baikonur.
Union One, this is Baikonur, can you hear me, Union
One?" More static. "Union One, this is Baikonur. Please
respond if you can hear me, Union One."
More static, then: "I’m doing it, I’m
doing it, but it doesn’t work. Do you hear me, Baikonur? It doesn’t
work!" More static.
Shandarin raised his eyebrows at the
flight director, who said, "We asked him to try the automatic
stabilizers again."
Aksyonov shook his head. How many
different ways could a man push the same button?
"Union One, this is Baikonur.
We hear you, and we continue to work on the problem. But now we have
another visitor for you, Union One, a very important visitor
who wants to speak with you. Here beside me is the prime minister of
the Soviet Union. Do you understand, Union One?"
More static. Then: "The prime
minister?"
"Yes, Union One. I ask for your
attention. The next voice you hear will be that of the prime
minister, with a personal message of tribute." He nodded at the
prime minister, who nodded in return, leaned close enough to the
microphone to kiss it, and shouted:
"Greetings, Jakov Novikov, loyal son
of our Motherland, wonderful Communist, courageous explorer of
space, comrade in arms, and friend. . . ."
Responding to Shandarin’s signals,
Aksyonov and the team leaders joined him and the general in the back
of the room.
"Obviously Novikov will be unable to
maneuver the craft into the best trajectory for re-entry," Shandarin
said. "The best he can do is turn the craft so that the heat shield
faces the Earth, and then fire the retro-rockets.
Discussion?"
Everyone spoke at once, and after one
loud instant muted themselves so as not to disturb the prime
minister.
"That’s suicide–"
"It’s such a narrow window, he’ll
never–"
"He’ll be so far off course, God knows
where he’ll end up–"
"He’ll have no way to control the spin
as he comes down–"
"You all have considered this outcome
already, I see," Shandarin said. "Have you also thought of other
options? Perhaps Novikov should press every button in the craft
another hundred times, until the radio dies, and we all go
home?"
No one replied. A couple of the men
shook their heads. All looked pale and sick.
"Aksyonov, you are
uncharacteristically silent. What do you say?"
"I just broke a young man’s neck,
Madam, with a slide rule and the stroke of a pen."
"What?"
Aksyonov pressed the heels of his
hands to his forehead. "I am talking to myself, Comrade. I
apologize. But much as I hate to admit it, I must agree with you. I
see no other option."
"We’re trusting to blind luck!" one
man said.
"Perhaps so," Shandarin retorted, "but
all the luck in orbit has run out. If any luck remains for this
flight, Novikov must find it on re-entry."
The flight director lighted a
cigarette and ticked off items on his fingers. "Solar panel down.
Shortwave radio down. Stabilizers down. Thrusters down. Suppose the
retro-rockets are down, too? And the parachute, for that
matter?"
"And the ejection seat?" the general
added.
The others looked at the floor.
"Comrade General," Aksyonov said, as gently as he could, "on
Union One there is no ejection seat. You approved the design
yourself, Comrade General."
The general began to curse, and the
others returned to their stations. Shandarin gripped Aksyonov’s
upper arm so tightly that the younger man winced.
"I will not forget your support,"
Shandarin said.
Aksyonov wrenched himself
free.
The prime minister glanced up from his
text, then faltered before he found his place again. "In all future
generations, your name will summon the glory of our great Socialist
country to new feats–"
Then Novikov’s voice, the voice of a
man roused from a long trance, ripped from the speakers:
"What is this bullshit? God damn! God
damn! Baikonur! Baikonur! This is Union One. Help me,
Baikonur!"
The prime minister sat frozen, mouth
agape. Shoving past Aksyonov, Shandarin switched on his headset.
"This is Baikonur, Union One. Explain yourself, Union
One!"
"Explain myself? Explain myself ! Shit
shit shit!" More static. "Don’t you understand? You’ve got to do
something. I don’t want to die. Do you hear me, Baikonur? I don’t
want to die!"
A fresh burst of static obliterated
his next words, but Aksyonov, like everyone else in the room,
recognized their rhythms; he himself had sobbed just as
uncontrollably at the Chief’s funeral.
The cosmonaut’s despair seemed to yank
something vital from Shandarin. He swayed forward like a falling
tree, slammed his hands onto the desktop, and leaned there, looking
at nothing.
With a trembling hand, the general
switched off the prime minister’s microphone. "Perhaps under the
circumstances," he began.
"Yes, of course," the prime minister
said, as he swept up his papers and his briefcase. He stood so
clumsily that the swivel chair toppled over. The guards, staring at
the loudspeakers, paid the prime minister no heed as the general
hustled him out the door.
Shandarin slumped against the console.
Still Novikov continued to sob. Three dozen faces looked up at
Shandarin. Several were streaked with tears.
Aksyonov couldn’t stand it. "Say
something!" he hissed. "Reassure him. Tell him we have a
plan."
He shook Shandarin once, twice. Then
he slapped him, a blistering crack that affected Shandarin not at
all.
"I . . . I can’t . . . I don’t. . . ."
Shandarin’s voice was a ghastly, slurred imitation of
itself.
The flight director cried, "For God’s
sake, talk to him!"
Aksyonov strode to the prime
minister’s microphone, switched it on, and said:
"Novikov. Novikov. Think of the
Chief."
Amid the static, a small voice. ". . .
What. . . ?"
Absolute silence in the control
room.
"The Chief, Novikov. What would the
Chief do?"
". . . The Chief . . ."
"This is Aksyonov. You remember me,
eh? Your upside-down engineer friend? You piloted me into orbit,
Novikov, and brought me safely down again, and I complained the
whole way–you did it, Novikov. We did it. You and me and the doctor,
and the Chief. Do you remember?"
"Yes . . . yes, Comrade . . . I
remember."
"Listen to me, Novikov. We have a
plan, a plan I believe the Chief would approve of. But first, I want
to read you something. You remember the note I carried into space?
The note the Chief gave me just before launch? You told me then that
I shouldn’t read you the note until the proper time had come. Well,
I have the note with me now, Novikov. I have carried it in my pocket
ever since. Let me unfold it now. . . . Here is what it says,
Novikov. It says, ‘My friend, I am good at spacecraft design because
I know just what cosmonauts feel like. I too have been alone and
frightened and very far from home, and surrounded by the cold. Soon
you will know how this feels, as well. But I survived, my friend,
and so will you, and we will continue to design great things
together. Signed, the Chief.’ Do you understand, Novikov? The Chief
knows exactly how you feel."
A long silence. Aksyonov watched the
blinking dot approach Africa. One of the team leaders thrust a
printout under his nose and whispered, "The nineteenth orbit is
coming up. It’s his last chance to–" Aksyonov waved him
away.
The cosmonaut spoke. "The Chief . . .
is dead."
"Do you really believe that, Novikov?
Do you really for a moment believe that?"
More static, then Novikov slowly and
soberly replied: "No, Comrade. No, I don’t."
Aksyonov dragged the microphone with
him as he sat on the floor. He no longer could see the map, just the
Chief’s face, laughing in the darkness outside Gagarin’s cottage. "I
don’t either, Novikov," Aksyonov said, and raked the tears from his
eyes. He smiled at the men to left and right who passed him
calculations and tissues. "Now listen to me carefully. Here’s what
we are going to do. . . ."
***
The Union One plunged through
the atmosphere, tumbled end over end like a boy who has lost his
sled halfway down the hill, its useless parachute a braided rope
behind.
The final intelligible radio
transmission from its pilot was not the despairing
you are guiding me wrongly, you are
guiding me wrongly, can’t you understand
reported by a U.S. intelligence
officer years after the fact, but in fact a later message, a
three-word scrap:
Chief is here
Some who have heard the tape do not
believe, and say these are not the words.
But the cosmonauts–they
believe.
XII. Baikonur Cosmodrome, 22 August
1997
"Excellent!"
"Wonderful!"
"Good job, Peace!"
Cheers, applause, shouts reverberated
through the control room. People hugged, kissed, pounded one another
on the back.
One of the small, short-haired
women–Lyudmilla? No, Lyudmilla had vacationed in Prague, and now
sported a half-dozen earrings in her right ear, all the way up, like
the spiral in a notebook–one of them, anyway, was swept into the air
by that oaf Atkov, who did not even know how to use a slide rule.
They kissed with a smack audible over the din, and then Atkov
handed her to the next man, Serebrov? Shatalov? One of the
newcomers. She kissed him, too, and squealed like a
child.
Aksyonov watched, and said nothing.
The engineers were due some good news, some release, and he supposed
he could suffer their enthusiasm. For a while.
Aksyonov stood alone on the topmost
row at the back of the room, hands clasped behind. He stood rigid,
head tilted. At his left elbow was the big standing model of the
Peace, its core module likewise tilted, a few degrees off
true.
The official mission control room for
the Peace was outside Moscow, of course, in the complex named for
the Chief. But the entire Russian space program had been on red
alert since the June 25 collision–especially Baikonur, where Earth’s
lone space station had been designed and built.
Onscreen, the three crewmen–Solovyev,
Vinogradov, and Mike the American–crouched over their instruments.
The image was blurred, but they obviously were grinning like NASA
chimps. Mike the American held up both his thumbs as he grimaced, as
if being tortured. This was for television’s benefit. Yet the crew
had reason to be happy, of course. Askyonov looked at his watch. For
another few seconds.
"Confirmed, Moscow," Solovyev said,
his voice fractured by static. "All electrical circuits working
fine. The new hatch is a success. Repeat, a success. Full power is
restored."
A new round of cheers and shrieks in
the control room. Aksyonov’s lips moved as he counted. Eight. Five.
Three. Tolubko strode up the stairs toward him, smiling behind her
headset microphone, her heavy eyebrows a single dark swath across
her pretty face. He nodded at her, then clapped his hands once,
twice, solid reports. He would have clapped a third time, but the
room was already silent.
"Gentlemen and ladies," he called out.
"To your tasks, please." He disdained the public-address system. His
reedy quaver was embarrassing enough these days without
amplification. Yet he was heard. Look how they bustled into
position. The workaday murmur resumed. The party was
over.
Sometimes they forgot that Askyonov’s
role here was purely sentimental, purely ceremonial. Sometimes
Aksyonov forgot it himself. Why did his colleagues always jump when
he so much as lifted an eyebrow? He would never understand it, no,
not if he lived to be two hundred, and had helped build twenty-five
space stations, flying all the flags of the world.
"Moscow wants you to say a word,"
Tolubko said.
Surprised, Aksyonov picked up and put
on his headset, which he had wrenched off in a brief moment of
jubilation. He cast an inquiring glance at Tolubko. She nodded and
mouthed, "You’re on."
"Comrades on Peace, this is Aksyonov,"
he said. He saw Tolubko frown at "comrades," but he couldn’t devote
the short remainder of his life to preventing Tolubko’s frowns,
could he? "You have done well. You have made history,
comrades, with your indoor space walk." Why did they look so
blurred? It was his eyes, Tolubko had assured him. Yet another body
part failing. "But now we down here must make some history of our
own, if this station is to become fully functional again. Stand by,
please. Aksyonov out."
Why bother? He lacked the Chief’s
eloquence; he always had. Suddenly weary, he peeled off the headset.
Tolubko nodded at her second, Merkys, who nodded in turn and began
rattling off suggestions to Moscow, reading from a clipboard that
others kept sliding papers onto. Aksyonov set down the headset, too
close, it happened, to the edge of the desk. His hand shot out to
catch it, but missed. The little plastic hoop tumbled to the floor.
A dart in his shoulder; he had strained himself again. Tolubko
crouched to retrieve the headset, her skirt riding up, and stood
beside him again, reminding him anew that she was taller than he
was. She touched his arm.
"Evgeny?" she murmured. "Are you all
right?"
"I am fine," he said. He knew he
didn’t sound convincing. He leaned on the back of a chair. "I am a
man of iron, my dear." He nodded toward the model. "It is the Peace
that is falling apart. Worry about her."
"The Peace has power again. Your turn
now. Go to bed, Evgeny. Get some rest. Come back fresh tomorrow,
when we’re ass-deep in crises again." Her smile was an older woman’s
smile, knowing and known. "We won’t repair everything while you’re
gone. I promise."
As she spoke, she nudged him toward
the exit, her arm around his shoulders, and Aksyonov let her. He did
not appreciate being lectured, however gently, but he granted
Tolubko many liberties. He knew she realized this, took advantage.
What of it? The young had the advantage already.
"I think the Georgians are coming by
tomorrow," Tolubko continued, as they neared the door. "You should
look nice for them. Put on your other shirt."
"The hell with the Georgians,"
Aksyonov said. He halted, and Tolubko walked just a little past
before compensating. "Don’t tell me about the Georgians. If the
Georgians hadn’t charged us the moon for that automated guidance
system, Moscow wouldn’t have made us steer the cargo ship in by hand
in the first place. No wonder we knocked the station half out of
orbit." He waved at the men on the screen. "It ought to be Georgians
up there, treading water. Putting out fires." He faltered, snorted.
"Georgians!"
Tolubko was smiling. He
flushed.
"You have heard all this before," he
muttered. "Why don’t you interrupt?"
She squeezed his arm. "You told me
once, ‘No one learns anything by interrupting.’ "
"I tell you many things," he said.
"You don’t have to listen."
The guard held the door open, waiting.
He looked terrified–whether of the old man, or of the young woman,
Aksyonov couldn’t tell. Maybe he feared being blamed for everything
that had happened to the Peace this summer, from the collision
onward. The guard in the back of the room, yes! He did it! That was
no unreasonable fear in the Soviet Union, or in Yeltsin’s Russia,
either.
"Tolubko," Merkys called. "Come look
at these figures, will you?"
"Be right there," she called. "Good
night, Evgeny." He hesitated, and she pushed, so slightly it was
almost a telepathic pulse. "Good night." She squeezed his arm
again before striding away. He did not allow himself to watch the
back of her head, the sway of her skirt. Ah, Evgeny, he thought.
Once you laughed at such follies. Now you, too, are a foolish old
man.
As he passed, the guard asked, "May I
radio for an escort, sir?"
"No," he replied, more harshly than he
meant.
"As you wish, sir. Good night,
sir."
He wanted to say something friendly,
to make the guard feel better, but could think of nothing. Was this
the guard with the young son, the boy with the scar? Fathers love to
be asked about their children. Or was that one of the other guards?
Oh, the hell with it. The door had closed anyway, and Aksyonov was
alone in the corridor.
As he walked the winding incline he
had walked for so many years, Aksyonov passed through three sets of
guards and five sets of scanners and ignored them all. The guards
saluted, and the scanners beeped, so he must have measured up to the
Platonic Aksyonov of their memories. Or close enough.
Between checkpoints, his footsteps
echoed in the dim, deserted halls. The darkness was a budget-cutting
measure. Lights were more critical in orbit, and so four-fifths of
the overheads in the old sector, mostly used for storage, had been
switched off. Aksyonov’s colleagues didn’t mind. Hadn’t Gorbachev,
as a farewell gesture, built them a grand new entrance, with a new
elevator bank? No longer any need to pass through this back way,
this tilted maze, to reach the surface. Why not leave it to the
rats?
But Aksyonov was never in a hurry to
reach the surface. He didn’t like elevators, either, not since
Sunrise One. And he was secretly pleased to walk through
space that others shunned. For people claimed strange experiences
down here, in the old sector. To have seen people who, in the next
instant, weren’t there. To have heard voices. The guards had
petitioned for fewer checkpoints, consolidated shifts. (And,
needless to add these days, more money.) Everyone was uneasy–except
the scanners, which never saw anything odd, and Aksyonov, who had
roamed these corridors for decades, and who wasn’t about to stop
now. He hated agreeing with the scanners on anything.
He was walking a little faster
these days, though. For the exercise.
He passed the last checkpoint and
emerged into a full-face breeze on the north side of the windswept
plaza, in front of Brezhnev’s hideous cafeteria. Aksyonov stood in
the round mouth of the tunnel, breathed deeply, and stretched his
arms, his habit whenever reaching the surface. A foolish habit;
there was just as much room for stretching underground. He swung his
arms back and forth, hugged himself three times, clap clap clap. Too
cloudy for stargazing, but the night was warm, and the breeze was
pleasant with the distant scents of wild onions and new-mown hay–a
reminder, Aksyonov realized with a scowl, that there had been no
launches in, how long? In the old days there was a fine, constant
stench. He ripped a tuft of grass from a crack in the pavement, let
the blades sift through his fingers. The weeds beneath the plaza
survived every attempt at eradication. One night Aksyonov would camp
out here, and watch them grow.
He walked across the deserted plaza,
his footsteps still echoing. An acoustical trick. His path took him
past that rare thing in the former Soviet Union, a new statue. Hands
on hips, a rolled blueprint under one arm, Sergei Korolev stood
stiff-legged and looked at the sky. As Aksyonov approached, he
thought once again: a poor likeness. It favored Lenin. As how could
it not? The sculptor had done only Lenins for thirty
years.
As he approached the marble Chief, he
began to smell the flowers. More than usual, judging from the smell
and from the dark heaps at the base of the statue. At dawn the
Kazakhs would clear away the oldest bouquets, but enough would
remain to give the plaza its only color, its only
mystery.
The Kazakhs picked up just the
flowers, and left the rest. Space photos clipped from magazines and
crudely framed. Children’s plastic toy rockets. Boxes of the shoddy
East German pens the Chief had used–as if he had had much choice.
About once a month, Aksyonov fetched a crate from the cafeteria and
collected them all, carried them to the lost and found. A silly
chore, beneath his dignity; he could easily ask the Kazakhs to do
it, or anyone else at the complex, for that matter. But Aksyonov had
never spoken to anyone at Baikonur about this–this
whatever-it-was–this shrine. And he never intended to. Not
even to ask who in the devil kept piling up the stuff in the first
place. One toy space station, he knew, he had carted away at least
three times.
No one ever offered to help him,
either.
As Aksyonov passed the statue, he saw
a new shape on the ground. What–? He stopped and gaped, sucked in
his breath.
The shape reared up, and Aksyonov
cried out. A man was scrambling to his feet.
"Apologies, good sir," the man said,
in Kazakh. "I did not mean to frighten. My apologies."
The man already was trotting away,
dusting himself. He might have looked back once, but then he was
lost in the darkness of the plaza.
Exhaling, willing his heart to slow,
Aksyonov peered at the base of the statue. Had the man left some
token of esteem? Aksyonov was quite sure he had interrupted
something.
Had the man really been on his knees,
prone on the pavement, facing the statue? Had he really been in the
Muslim attitude of prayer?
Aksyonov hurried across the pavement
to the blank-faced Khrushchev block that housed his rooms. On the
stoop, he fumbled for his keys.
Aksyonov had read that in Paris,
grieving tourists piled sentimental litter atop the graves of movie
actors and pop stars. One expected such things of Paris.
But this was Baikonur, sobersided
Baikonur. There were no tourists, no adolescents here. The
cosmonauts, yes, they were a superstitious, childish lot, always had
been–the stories they brought back from the Peace, well! Really. But
the engineers, computer programmers, astrophysicists,
bureaucrats?
Absurdity–the Chief a pop
star!
Unlocked, the door proved to be stuck,
as usual; he shouldered it open. Another dart of pain.
Who prays to a pop star?
He closed the door behind him and
groped for the switch. With typical foresight, Khrushchev’s
electricians had placed the switch more than a yard away from the
door, and at a peculiar height. It was always a bit of a
search.
The cafeteria light was easier to
find. Once, Aksyonov, restless in the middle of the night, had
walked into the darkened cafeteria, flipped on the light, and
startled a group of fifteen or so engineers, all young, huddled
around a single candle at a corner table. They looked stricken. A
dope orgy, was Aksyonov’s first thought. Thrilled and mortified, he
fumbled an apology, turned the light back off, and left, never to
raise the subject with anyone. It was none of his business. He never
asked Tolubko what it was that she whisked off the table, and hid in
her lap. It had looked, fleetingly, like a photograph.
Aksyonov did not encourage his
colleagues to share the details of their personal lives. Only the
details of the projects they were working on. And they did that, he
was sure.
Pretty sure.
Where was that damn light? His
fingernails raked the plaster.
A space program as jihad.
Imagine.
When they pray to the Chief, does he
answer?
He answered Novikov.
"Novikov," Aksyonov muttered. Old men
were allowed to talk to themselves, weren’t they? "I put the Chief
in Novikov’s head! Just to calm him down, make his last moments less
horrible. If anyone helped him, it was not the Chief. It was I. I,
Aksyonov."
His hands slid all over the wall. This
was embarrassing. Would he have to call someone, to cry out,
Tolubko, please come over here, turn on my light for me? She’d think
it a ruse, a ploy to entice her into bed. He laughed, then began to
cry. He would never find the light. He was an old, old man, and
there was no light. He leaned against the wall and slid down. He sat
on the floor, sobbing in the darkness.
Stop it, Aksyonov. Stop it.
He closed his eyes, wrapped his arms
around himself, clutched himself. He felt the trembling worsen. He
bit his lip, fought a scream.
He was not alone in the
room.
This was helpful, a fact to hold. The
trembling in his arms gradually eased, and he relaxed his grip. His
upper arms and his fingers were sore. Stiff tomorrow. He breathed in
through his nose, out through his mouth, as his mother had taught
him long ago. He did not open his eyes, but he knew that if he did .
. .
He knew.
"Ah, Chief," Aksyonov said. "Lurk
around here all you wish. I will never worship you. I know you too
well, and I love you too much."
He woke up, sitting against the wall.
He ached everywhere. The lights were on, and it was night outside.
Beside him was the telephone table. Good; it was sturdy enough. He
hauled himself up, holding on, groaning only a little. He stood,
rubbed his arms and legs, wondered why on earth he had fallen asleep
in such a position. He answered himself, I am an old man, and then
sought other problems. With some trouble and trembling he unbuttoned
his shirt, absently switched on the drafting-table lamp. He looked
down at his designs and was immediately engrossed, lost in his work
even as he sank into the creaking chair.
And if while working he sometimes
vocalized his thoughts, as if comparing notes, airing ideas–yes,
even arguing–with an old friend, well, what of it? He was no
cultist, no kneeling Kazakh. He was an engineer.
"Here’s the problem, Chief," Aksyonov
murmured. "Here, this is the best design for the solar
arrays, in terms of fuel efficiency. Mounted like so, on the service
module. So far, so good. But there are other considerations. For
example . . ."
Aksyonov’s papers slid one over the
other. His chair creaked. Tight-lipped, with ruler and pen, he drew
a true line. He laid his plans all through the night, until dawn.