Living Trust by L. Timmel Duchamp

On that gloomy February morning, Kate Abbotson’s personal phone woke her a scant ten
minutes before her alarm was programmed to. She had been dreaming that the misting system
in her vivarium refused to shut off.

The caller said, "This is Lady Godiva." Kate, slow to wake, pictured a woman seated on a horse,
naked under flowing, ankle-length hair. "Is this Kate? The thing is, it’s about Mike." Mike. Kate
snapped to. This was Godiva, the pop video artist whom her father had been seeing for about
two months. "Well, I’m sorry to have to tell you this. I really, really am. Like, I was sleeping when
some weird siren kind of alarm on Mike’s phone went off. It was about five to seven, I guess. I
rolled over to look at him, to see why he wasn’t doing something about the racket, and, well, he
was completely out of it. I mean, he was unconscious. His face looked terrible, and though his
heart was beating, he wasn’t breathing that I could tell. So I called 911 right away, and then did
artificial respiration until the paramedics came. He’s in an ambulance now, on his way to
Cedars-Sinai. I knew I should call you, but I didn’t have your number. Then I noticed that Mike’s
phone had a shortcut for you, which is how I reached you."

Kate sat up. Her hand was gripping the phone so hard her palm started to cramp. "Daddy?" she
said, just managing to get the word out. "Daddy’s . . . ?" She was shivering violently. Her mind
had totally blanked of everything but the vivid images Godiva’s words summoned up.

Godiva repeated everything, then said, "Kate, I’m sorry. I’m really, really sorry. I’m going to go to
the hospital, of course, myself, but since I’m not a relative, I don’t know if they’ll even let me near
him. But . . . is there somebody else I should call?"

"I’ll have to get down there right away," Kate said hoarsely. "It shouldn’t take me long." Her mind
zoomed into focus on the practical. There were commercial flights to L.A. from SeaTac every hour
of the day. Or would it be faster to charter a plane? She said, "I, I, I think my father would want
his attorney to be notified ASAP. But I’ll see to that myself." She was babbling, and there was
nothing more Godiva could tell her. Somehow she managed to thank the woman, say she’d see
her at Cedars-Sinai, and disconnect. She had to pee badly–her teeth were chattering partly from
that need and partly from the tension–but she input Matt Hull’s personal number immediately
anyway, and then, when she had him on the line, went into the bathroom, collapsed onto the
toilet seat and let loose with not only a stream of urine but a flood of diarrhea as well. She gave
him the news, indifferent to his hearing the racket she was making in the toilet. She thought
about how lucky it was that her father had gotten that implant set to trigger his phone alarm if
he stopped breathing or if his heart stopped beating. Obviously, if Godiva hadn’t woken up and
given him artificial respiration . . .

"An ambulance?" Matt said. "Does he have his security with him? And why the hell haven’t I heard
all this from them? Tell me again, Kate, exactly what Godiva said."

She repeated what little there was to tell. "What does it matter if his security is with him?" she said.
"Nobody’s going to be abducting him on a totally random 911 call."

"Abduction is the least of our worries," Matt said. "And short of his hemorrhaging severely, or going
into cardiac arrest, the orders to his security are that he’s to be brought home, to University
Hospital, pronto, without detours. Cedars-Sinai is one of the last places he should be going."

"For godsake, Matt, he stopped breathing! It’s possible he’s had a stroke! His father and his
grandfather both died of strokes!" Her father had made stroke research one of the biggest areas
of his philanthropy. She swallowed. "And everybody knows, with certain kinds of strokes, if they
inject that drug, you know the one I mean, within the first three hours, the damage can be
minimized. Of course he needs to be taken to the nearest decent hospital down there!"

"Kate, Kate, please. Get a grip. You don’t know the whole situation. What I want you to do is
give me five minutes–ten max–to see what’s what and make the necessary arrangements. And in
the meantime, if you’re not already dressed, will you please do that, and do what you have to
do to prepare yourself for whatever Mike is going to need of you. Okay, Kate? Will you do that?"

What the hell was going on? What wasn’t he telling her? "Ten minutes, max." She clung to the
promise. "And then I want some kind of explanation for why you think I should let you take that
kind of risk with my father’s life."

Shakily she put the phone down on the magazine table beside the toilet. The only thing that
made sense was her going to L.A. to be with him. Once he was admitted to the hospital they
weren’t going to say to the security guys oh sure, go ahead, just ship him up to Seattle. No.
Hospitals had rules and procedures they followed as long as they thought the patient was good
for the charges. And there was no bean-counting, rule-toting bureaucrat like a health-care
bureaucrat, for sure.

What was the weather in L.A., anyway? she wondered as she dithered over what to wear.
Somehow she managed to get herself into a T-shirt, jeans, thick cotton zippered sweatshirt, socks,
and boots. She carried the phone with her every step she took, as though she dared not be out
of arm’s reach of it. While she washed her face and brushed her teeth she thought about how
bizarre Matt and her father had gotten about security, and about all the arguments she’d had
with her father over her refusal to have the same kind of security he had. According to him and
Matt, she was a perfect mark for abduction. Didn’t she know that? Any lunatic might imagine
she’d be worth a cool billion–at least–to him. Not to mention the Spiters, who especially targeted
people like her and her father. She just wouldn’t be sensible about the matter. . . .

The phone chirped as she was tossing underwear and toiletries into an overnight bag. Matt said
he was just about ready to leave his house on Mercer Island. He had an L.A. colleague who owed
him a favor already on his way to Cedars-Sinai. And he’d located the security team and they
were on their way there, too. They said they hadn’t been on the scene because Mike had sent
them away with the car with orders to return at eight a.m. Which was so damned typical of old
Mike, wasn’t it. Anyway, Matt said, he had somebody locating her father’s pilot, with orders that
her father’s jet be ready to go. And finally, he’d had a little chat with the CEO of Best American
Health, Inc., which owned Cedars-Sinai. If everything went according to plan, her father would
be en route by the time Matt arrived at her place.

Matt was telling her something, but in code outside her level of access. When she tried
questioning him about why her father must be kept out of Cedars-Sinai and insisted that he
shouldn’t be taking that kind of risk with her father’s health, he said would she please calm
herself, that she didn’t know what she was talking about and her assumption that she did was
just making her hysterical, that if she’d just be patient he’d explain everything when he saw her.

Kate tucked her phone in her pocket and went out to the kitchen. She was more upset–if
possible–than before. She considered calling him back so she could yell and scream at him. She
even thought of calling up Cedars-Sinai to try to countermand Matt’s orders, but backed off it,
because her apparent out-of-loopness made her fearful of fucking up out of ignorance. She just
wanted to do something, something that would make the disaster go away. One of the J’s, she
saw, had made coffee. Joel, probably, since he’d left her bed before Godiva’s call woke her.
Shakily she poured herself a cup, then wandered through the house in search of either or both of
them. Cracking the door to Jeff’s room, she found that he was still sleeping. But then Joel was
always the first up. She tracked him to the vivarium, where he was doing pushups in the thin gray
light the many plants in the room tinted green. She set her barely sipped cup of coffee down on a
table and went and crouched near his head. He grinned at her. "Morning!" he gasped without
losing his rhythm.

Her eyes filled with tears. "It’s my Dad," she said tremulously. "He’s had a stroke or something."

"Oh, hey." Joel gracefully slung himself up into a crouch and put his thick, ropy arms around her.
His warm, caring solidity comforted her, though it didn’t make the great acidic pit of fear in her
stomach go away but rather made her tears start to flow. She thought, irrelevantly, of her father’s
first reaction to her decision to live with Joel. My God, I don’t believe it. You’re shacking up with
a guy who’s some kind of male version of a bimbo–right down to the blond hair and gold nose
rings? Shit, what kind of reflection is that on me? A woman’s supposed to go for men who’re like
her father! At least he’d stopped calling Joel a "bimbo," even if he did still joke about Joel’s
"babeness." (Hell, she joked about it herself.) "You want me to come to the hospital with you?"
Joel asked. "Just say the word and I’ll trade shifts with somebody."

Kate loosened her clutch on him and stepped back so that she could look at him. "Everything’s a
mess," she said, brushing her eyes with her sleeve. "My Dad’s in L.A. But his attorney has made
arrangements over my head to have Dad brought back up here, instead of being treated down
there."

"After a stroke? That sounds kind of . . . weird."

"Yeah," she said, and her fear fanned into a surge of anger. "Not that we know it’s a stroke, for
sure, just that Godiva found he’d stopped breathing and was in some kind of coma." Just saying
the words so overwhelmed her with fear again that her spurt of anger at Matt was damped.

The blue cursor appeared in her upper peripheral visual field and began its slow, constant blink.
Kate realized it must be eight. The blue cursor was set to start blinking at eight if she hadn’t
checked the day’s calendar and memoranda by then. Kate winked three times with her right eye
to bring up the calendar. Of course, she thought, this would have to happen on a really busy
day. She pulled back from Joel and took her phone from her pocket. "I need to call the office,"
she said.

She expected to get Voice Mail, but highly responsible Eric answered, and so she was able to
dump all of her schedule (except dinner with Marjorie) into his lap with the full expectation that
there’d be no repercussions. When she disconnected, Joel said, "Is there anything I can do?" His
big sweet baby blues regarded her with comforting concern.

Kate said, her voice barely steady, "You know, I keep thinking of how he was always telling me
that in spite of all the social instability, how wonderful it was that we were living now, because
science is so close to giving us unlimited lifetimes. I think he really thought he had all the bases
covered. His health was good, his body fit. Not like his father or grandfather. Constantly taking
Vitamin E, constantly grazing on fruits and vegetables for their beta carotene and potassium, I
mean you wouldn’t believe how much carrot-juice he drank, and as for potassium, hey,
potassium could have been his middle name, he had a real obsession about it, he practically
had grapes and bananas coming out of his ears. . . ." Thinking about her father making himself
carrot-juice cocktails three times a day pushed her over the line into Big-Time tears. It had to be
bad, if he was unconscious. She knew that. Damn Matt. Damn Matt for his obsessions with
security. Her Dad was too young to be having that kind of stroke. He was in good shape, too
good to have been at serious risk.. It just really wasn’t fair, just wasn’t fair at all. But then Daddy
himself would be the first to say fairness was a concept meaningful only to the weak.

***

Minutes after Matt handed her the medical and legal powers of attorney her father had assigned
to her for use in just such a situation, Kate met with her father’s primary physician, the head of the
neurosciences department at the UW medical school, and a specialist in neuromedicine chosen
by the head to attend her father. The docs weren’t happy that Matt had had her father moved
before he could be properly diagnosed. One member of her father’s security team was a
paramedic, Matt said. He’d worked for the Seattle Fire Department for ten years before going
into the security business (which he’d apparently done when the city had laid off half its
firefighters).

"If you’d allowed even one CT scan, we’d have a fighting chance," Jordan Bentoit, the stroke
specialist, said. "But given that all we have to go on is the sole fact that he’s unconscious . . ."

The way he shook his head sent Kate into a panic. "What are you saying? That he’s not going to
make it?" Bentoit shrugged. Kate glared at Matt. "If he dies because he didn’t get prompt
treatment, Matt, I swear to god I’ll–" She bit her lips to keep from delivering the threat. There was
no way she could accept the cockeyed story he’d given her–his explanation for why he’d had
the security team and the colleague who owed him a favor prevent any personnel at
Cedars-Sinai from getting near her father. Doctors, he said, were now numbered among the
ranks of other fallen middle-class folks who’d chosen to become Spiters. And her father, he
claimed, had been receiving death threats from doctors who held Michael Abbotson personally
responsible for putting them out of work, from other doctors who were afraid of being put out of
work once Abbotson Interactive Designs, Inc. had gotten around to modeling their specialties
and whose level of compensation had already dropped drastically, and from a variety of
medical personnel similarly impacted. Kate, hearing this, simply took her phone out of her pocket
and called L.A. information for the number of Cedars-Sinai. But then Matt had pulled a document
out of his attaché case, which the barest of glances that he allowed her revealed to be a living
trust with her father’s signature, explicitly stating that if he wasn’t in imminent danger of dying on
the spot, he was to be taken to University Hospital and treated there. He said he’d faxed a copy
of the document to the colleague he’d sent to Cedars-Sinai, "just to be sure they don’t try to
make an end-run around me. Now don’t yell at me, Kate. You don’t know the situation. And
that’s strictly because Mike didn’t want to worry you. Your ideas about the Hippocratic Oath are
a couple of thousand years old. At least one of these paragons of human morality took out a
contract on Mike and would be serving jail time right now but for the fact that Mike didn’t want
the publicity an arrest and trial would have generated." Though she didn’t buy into the paranoia
her father apparently shared with Matt, she had seen that although she held her father’s medical
power of attorney, her hands were tied by the living trust that rendered her helpless to oppose it.

Lee Park, the head, shot Bentoit a Look. "Let’s not be leaping to conclusions prematurely," he said
sharply. "Until we run some diagnostics, we won’t really know. And of course, we don’t know that
it’s a stroke. What we want to do now is have everything set to go on his arrival. I’ve ordered Life
Flight to copter him from Boeing Field; they’re already on site, standing by. And I’ve pre-empted
the one private bed we have in the Stroke Unit for him, and scheduled a run of diagnostics. I
want you to feel fully assured, Ms. Abbotson, that your father will be getting the very best care
possible."

One of her father’s companies owned his department. Of course he would have to say that, she
thought resentfully. She looked down the table at Penny Eliot, who had been largely silent. "You
know my father’s medical history better than anyone," Kate said. "What do you think?"

Penny looked grave. "This event, whatever it is, is completely unexpected. Mike, as you know, has
had free-radical-cleansing and deoxidizing nanocytes in circulation in his blood for five years now.
His blood pressure has been good. I would have said his cardiovascular outlook was excellent. Of
course, that doesn’t mean that he couldn’t have had a stroke. But given the paucity of
information to go on, I haven’t ruled out some sort of mass." She glanced at Park. "I would
suggest we review his past MRI and CT-scan records in the time we have before his arrival."

"A mass is extremely unlikely," Lee Park said coldly. "In the first place, when I spoke to the
paramedic with Mr. Abbotson on his plane, he reported that the patient is hypertensive. And in
the second place, Mr. Abbotson would no doubt have reported a variety of symptoms well
before the event if a mass were the cause of his unconsciousness."

Penny nodded. "I’m inclined to think so, too. But I want Kate to understand that we’re operating
in the dark until we’ve actually seen him."

Matt shoved his chair back from the table and stood up. "Kate, why don’t you and I go have
some coffee, maybe get some breakfast. There are a few things we need to discuss, and I’m sure
these folks will be better able to plan your father’s treatment if we’re out of the way."
Kate followed Matt out of the room. She’d never much liked him, but she’d never actively
disliked him, either–until now. He was her father’s oldest buddy. Her father’s business was his entire
law practice. It was time for her to demand a copy of the living trust he’d been waving in her
face earlier. Maybe there was nothing she could do now to help her father, but at least she could
get herself prepared for the possibility of doing something in the near, very near future.

***

Somehow the news sharks got hold of the story and began their siege at University Hospital even
before her father’s jet landed at Boeing Field. She and Matt decided between them that he
would deal with them. He was probably delighted to do so, Kate thought, probably thrilled at
the opportunity of playing the dude-in-the-know, the intimate, close adviser of the Great Man
(who might very well–story of stories–be dying). Kate wished him joy of it. Her job was to deal
with Penny Eliot and the specialists, make whatever medical decisions would have to be
made–and view the laserdisk her father had apparently made for her in case of such a situation
as this, which Matt had so thoughtfully brought with him.

Lee Park arranged for her to view the disk in the same conference room in which she and Matt
had met with the docs. Kate loaded the disk into the drive with deep trepidation. Her father
owned a vast empire and many, many secrets. She had made her discomfort with his empire and
secrets in every way plain to him when, on her graduation from college, he’d tried to draw her
into his business. Eventually, accepting her position, he’d settled a hefty trust on her with no
strings attached. But it would be like him, she thought now, to assume she could be emotionally
blackmailed into trying to attend to his interests at a time when he could not do so for himself.

His image came straight on, without introduction, two-dimensional but larger than life-sized on
the flat wall screen. "Hi, Kate," he said, smiling in one of his engagingly goofy looks. "If you’re
watching this, it must be because I’m either paralyzed and unable to speak, unconscious, or of
diminished capacity, due to a trauma or some other problem with my cerebral cortex. I have to
admit I can’t really imagine what you must be feeling now, so forgive me if I seem a little too
breezy. I don’t suppose you’ll be very surprised to find that I’ve got a variety of contingency plans
in place if any of a number of misfortunes strike. I know you’re seriously opposed to getting
involved in any of my business affairs, so I’ve mostly arranged to have other people deal with the
details, under Matt’s direction. But the fact is, you’re the only one I trust to carry out and make all
the big important decisions that might crop up, especially the personal ones. Which is why I’ve
got to burden you with my medical power of attorney." The image of her father leaned forward
and loaded a super-serious, sincere look, the kind he adopted for what he called "our deep-shit,
heart-to-heart mode." "Honey, my basic wish is that you use every resource available to keep me
going. Seriously. I don’t want the plug pulled. I have faith in those guys at University Hospital. Hell,
I’ve been paying their salaries for years, and they’ve got the best of reasons to think my
perpetuation is in their vital interest. I know, I know, I’ve talked with them about what’s likely,
and what’s possible, so I know that if I’m unconscious then the prognosis is really, really bleak."
Kate’s bowels clenched. That was new information. Shouldn’t the docs have warned her, right
from the start, if that was the case? "And cell damage in the brain," her father’s image said, "is no
joke. If my cerebral cortex is too damaged to ever recover, I want you to give Joshua Bledsoe the
okay to attempt cell regeneration using fetal tissue created from my DNA. Bledsoe has been
working on this for years, Kate, regenerating small, damaged sectors with great success. He’s
been doing incremental sorts of trials for the last couple of years. If there’s no hope for the
viability of my cerebral cortex, I want to be his first large-scale regeneration case."

Kate’s stomach, already tender, heaved so violently that she paused the file, staggered up from
the table, and sought a waste receptacle. They’d never discussed such things between them.
They’d never even discussed the ethics of conceiving children to be organ donors for parents or
siblings in dire need. To spring this on her, without first sounding her out . . . but of course, she
thought bitterly. He’d obviously been afraid to talk to her about it–afraid it might put him in the
position of knowingly asking her to do something she considered morally despicable.
Kate resumed the file. "Knowing you, you probably think this sounds selfish, Kate, but it’s not as
though I haven’t made one of the biggest contributions to Progress in the history of the world."
He grimaced. "Yeah, I know, you don’t believe in Progress the way I do. Still. I’ve done a lot, and
have a great deal more I want to do. The infirmity and vulnerability of the body is a hurdle–a
terrible hurdle, but, being a hurdle, not insurmountable." He drew a deep breath, as though
preparing her for more. "Kate, there’s something else. You’ll have to go to the House for it,
though. House will let you into the vault if you say, in your own voice, the password phrase,
`House, this is Kate. Tell me where the vault is and let me into it.’ In the vault you’ll find not only
the codes needed to access the entirety of my various business projects–which I’ve told Matt he’ll
have to go through you to get, and for which I’m hoping you’ll demand proof of necessity
before you hand anything over. But you’ll also find reports on a research project I’ve been very,
very privately supporting. Kate, no one knows about this project but the two teams I have
working independently on it. You know my faith in competition; well, I’ve set them up so that
each of the teams knows they’re working in competition against the other. The project they’re
working on ties in with Bledsoe’s regeneration project. I won’t explain more now, because it’s so
complicated. You need to see the reports in the order I’ve arranged them." Her father cleared his
throat and took a sip of water. "God, Kate, I’m so nervous you’ll disapprove of this and let me
down." And for a moment, he did look nervous. "Honey, please. Even if you have moral
reservations, please, please, honor my request. A miracle is at stake. A miracle for me–if it
works–and a miracle for the fate of the human species. Please, Kate. Please. Don’t let me down.
Not now, when I need your help so badly." Kate stared at the screen. Her father was actually
crying. Tears were streaming down his face. Kate stopped the file, popped the disk and pocketed
it. Crying. To manipulate her, goddamn it. Crying at the thought of his own mortality. Crying at
the thought of all his contributions past, present and future–to Progress.

Her own eyes were teary, her throat tight. "Way to go, Dad," she said angrily. But then the man, as
everyone had been claiming for years, was just a fucking genius.

***

On the same large flat wall screen, Penny Eliot and Jordan Bentoit showed her CT visuals of the
damage the stroke had done, mainly to the cortex. She could see for herself the big blot that
they called a hematoma, the main source of the bleed, in the thalamus. "The worst of it," Bentoit
said, "is the intracranial pressure caused by the hemorrhage and cerebral edema." He laid down
the light pen that he’d been using as a pointer and looked directly at her. "I must be frank. The
prognosis, without surgery, is certain death."

Kate flinched. He wasn’t pulling his punches, she had to give him that.

"The treatment options for this kind of stroke are limited. The main problem, as I said, is the
edema. He’s of course getting mannitol, which is an osmotic diuretic, intravenously, but edema is
a difficulty that the body itself still copes with the best."

"What about programming nanocytes to relieve the edema?" Kate asked.

Bentoit rolled his eyes. "Ms. Abbotson, I realize there’s a popular conception that nanocytes can
do anything you want them to, but I assure you that’s not the case with edema. No better than
drugs can."

A hot flush spread over Kate’s face. She would ask Jeff to explain. "And the surgery? Would that
also help relieve the edema?"

"Surgery would allow us to evacuate the hematoma itself, as well as assist with some drainage,
which, yes, can help somewhat to control the edema."

Kate caught Penny Eliot’s frown. "And the downside of surgery?" she said.

Bentoit shrugged. "Given our visualization techniques and what we can do with surgical lasers,
the odds are getting better all the time. Especially for someone as fit as your father. The downside
is that it’s difficult surgery because of the hematoma’s location. I’d give your father’s odds of
surviving it at 70-30."

"And you, Penny?" Kate said, aware that her father’s personal physician was still frowning. "What
do you think?" Penny’s quiet gray eyes glanced at Bentoit, then focused firmly on Kate’s face.
"Jordan is the expert here. I don’t know anything about odds, except that this kind of surgery is
highly risky, and it’s often the case that when surgery saves the patient’s life, it is at the cost of
setting neurological deficits." She paused, drew a deep breath, and added, "Unfortunately, I
concur with Jordan’s assumption that your father will not recover otherwise."

Neurological deficits. It was an abstract economic term, maybe, but it described the problem as
a form of debt no amount of money could ever pay off. Kate’s throat had gotten almost too dry
for speech. "You mean there’s little room for hope."

"I wouldn’t say that," Bentoit said sharply. "Seventy-thirty are not hopeless odds."

Kate registered the spatter of rain on the window behind her. She said, "When do you want to do
this?"

"Immediately." Bentoit shoved the consent form across the table at her.

There was a question Kate hadn’t asked. Now, she knew, was the time to ask it. But she also
knew what her father wanted: he had made that as plain as the rain on the other side of the
window. A certain kind of answer to the question might make her hesitate.

Without another word, Kate signed the form.

***

Ignoring the attendant seated on the other side of the bed (its head elevated a precise 30
degrees), Kate sat staring at her father’s slack, empty face, at the tubes and monitors, at the
restraints designed to keep him from injuring himself during a seizure. Seizures, apparently, were
common after strokes. Her father’s brain, Kate thought, must be in a state of confusion, perhaps
firing off neurons at random, certainly flooding itself with unwanted amino acids like glutamate,
an organism under attack striking out at random.

In the time remaining before he was taken away to be prepped, she talked to him. She stroked
his hand and spoke softly, steadily, about the minutiae of managing the current installation at
the S.A.A. (which she funded and managed), about their hikes the previous summer in the
Cascades, about her plans for a new garden. He looked strangely old lying there, as she had
never seen him. His long gray hair had tangled into a straggly, ratted mess that made her want
to run out and buy a brush so that she could straighten and smooth it out. Talking her already
hoarse voice into a whisper, she silently tried to convince herself that she was doing the right
thing.

Besides her anxiety about her father’s prognosis and her own possible obligations, she felt a
growing uneasiness about the hospital in general, and the specialist doctors in particular. (Penny
Eliot, whom she had known for years, she trusted.) She kept thinking about all that Matt had told
her about the many doctors with a violent resentment toward her father. Consciousness that the
entire Neurosciences Clinical and Research Division of the University of Washington Medical
School was a subsidiary of one of her father’s companies particularly bothered her. Matt claimed
her father had that going for him here–as opposed to any other clinical site. Kate wasn’t so sure,
though she could see that they might be worried that without her father the department would
be liquidated without a second thought.

Who was it who had told her that US-trained doctors were flocking to the southern hemisphere,
where technology hadn’t yet supplanted human expertise? Even as she whispered trivia at her
father, she wished they had talked about these issues, but even as she wished, knew that their
relationship might not have stood such a discussion. Her mind, now, was numb. She had given
the consent on automatic pilot. She knew she didn’t know what she was doing.

"Oh!" she gasped at the sudden flurry of spasms rippling over the right side of his face.

"Just a little electrical activity, Ms. Abbotson," the attendant said–officiously, Kate thought. As
though that "just" must obliterate any wild ideas she might foolishly begin to entertain out of the
appalling depths of her lay ignorance.

The door opened and three attendants charged in with a gurney. "We’ll have to ask you to
leave, Ms. Abbotson, so that we can get the patient down to surgery now," said one of them, a
woman in blue cap, pants, and gown who wore a black and silver stethoscope as if it were a
necklace. "I understand that Dr. Park has made an office available to you, if you decide you
want to wait out the surgery here in the hospital. In any case, he has your personal phone number
and will call you as soon as the surgery’s been done."

"Very well," Kate said, knowing they didn’t want to be shifting her father around and
maneuvering all his tech-attachments with her watching. She bent down and kissed his forehead.
"The Force be with you, Dad," she whispered into his ear. It had always been his favorite sendoff. If
anything could get through to him, that would.

***

When Marjorie Kinney lured her out of the hospital for a meal, Kate was surprised to find it was
already evening. To avoid the hordes of news sharks milling about in the lobby, they left through
a side door in the Health Sciences complex. "Both the J’s will probably be here by the time we get
back," Marjorie said as they crossed the street to the bus kiosk. "I’ve been in touch with them all
day, and both of them kept wondering if they should cut work, but I told them that I’d hardly
seen you at all, you’ve been so occupied."

Kate blinked, as though to clear a haze from her eyes. The soft mist felt startling and fresh on her
face. It was almost, she thought, like coming out of trance. "I’d just have felt guilty about them
missing work–and maybe even for ignoring them. They’re both really sweet, but they’re still, of
course, guys."

Marjorie gurgled her characteristically quiet, wry laughter. Suddenly self-conscious, Kate glanced
around, but saw no one who looked like a news shark anywhere in sight. Certainly they wouldn’t
be expecting to find her taking mass transit. A #43 bus pulled up. "This one goes to the U-District,"
Marjorie said. They boarded, and did not speak for the short ride to the Ave. "Jan’s Noodle House
okay?" Marjorie said as they deboarded.

It was half a block away. "Sure," Kate said, certain she wouldn’t be eating much anyway.

They ordered pad Thai, salads, and beer over the table’s intercom. "I have to say I’m pretty
confused," Marjorie said. "All the news nets say that your Dad was in L.A. at the time of his
stroke–with Lady Godiva, in fact. And the J’s say he was, too. So why isn’t he in a hospital down
there?"

Kate leaned her elbows on the smooth Formica surface of the table and scrubbed tiredly at her
face, as if dermal friction would make her mind work better. "I’m as confused as you are," she
said. "Basically, my Dad’s lawyer insisted that my Dad be treated only at University Hospital, and
since he had a legal document signed by Dad, none of us had any choice but to fly him up here."
Kate bit her lip. She wasn’t as confused as she had been; she had an idea that whatever secret
research projects he was funding had everything to do with it. "Matt says it’s all to do with
security issues. Some doctors, he claims, have become Spiters. And that there have been death
threats made against my father by some doctors in L.A."
Marjorie’s face went into overdrive. "That’s incredible," she said. "Of course he is rich, important
and famous, and there have always been crazies wanting to assassinate high-profile types for the
infamy. But doctors as Spiters . . ." She snorted. "That’s something else. I thought most of them had
investments keeping them in the middle-class, giving them too much to lose to think of Spite
killing."

"Yeah, me too."

"Speaking of famous people. It’s interesting, very interesting, that he was with Godiva. You’ve
never mentioned meeting her."

Kate took a long swallow of ice water. She’d been forgetting to drink water all day. "That’s
because I haven’t," she said. "He’d only been seeing her for about two months."

Marjorie chuckled. "Anyone else would have broken their necks at the chance to meet her. What,
did you want to wait to see first if it was going to last?"

Kate smiled faintly. "If I understand correctly, she saved his life with CPR."

Marjorie’s gaze held Kate’s. "The news sharks haven’t reported that. I guess that’s a lesson that
one shouldn’t judge the character of a music-video star by her work."

The mechanical server set the beer and food on the table and asked them if everything was all
right. The first bite of noodles sent a burst of saliva gushing into her mouth. Suddenly Kate was
ravenous. The hospital seemed another world, and her father’s request like a bad dream. Marjorie
was such a sensible, low-key person. Though she constantly worked indefatigably on high-intensity
creative projects, Kate had never seen her stressed in the ten years she had known her. Putting
anything into words for Marjorie almost required a calm, balanced perspective, since that was
the only sort of perspective Kate had ever known Marjorie to respond to. So as they ate, Kate
considered telling Marjorie everything that she knew. She tried to imagine what the words to
articulate it might be, tried to imagine feeling lucid and calm. But what she felt was numb,
exhausted, and close to tears. What she felt was betrayed and abandoned. What she felt was
nothing she could imagine expressing to Marjorie–yet. And so they just ate, and drank water, and
used the rest-room before returning to the hospital and the wired-up, still unconscious body of her
father.

***

Draining the hematoma, the docs told Kate, had saved her father’s life. But their chief concern
was cerebral edema. Soon, too, there would be the threat of arterial spasms and later, at the
end of the second week, the danger of a rebleed. But the worst of it was that her father
remained unconscious. He was alive, yes. His EEGs showed some electrical activity. But until he
woke up, they couldn’t gauge the extent of cell damage, which they could see on the scans, but
could not accurately assess.

Kate spent the first two days after the surgery in constant attendance at her father’s bedside,
talking and reading to him. But the medical team loudly seconded Matt’s urging that she
"conserve [her] energies" so that she would be "of use to [her] father over the long haul." They
warned her that she might have "significant, difficult" decisions ahead of her–while Matt
continually harried her to assume her "responsibilities"–meaning, assign him a complete power of
attorney to carry on business and provide him with codes her father kept in the vault in his house
that only she, now, had access to. Kate irritably put him off. But she did, after the first two days,
scale back her visits to just an hour or two three times a day.

Joel, Jeff, and Marjorie often sat with her when she visited her father, or sometimes visited him
themselves. At Marjorie’s suggestion, Kate made an audio tape of her own voice reading to him
that she had the staff play when she was absent. ("Who knows," Marjorie said. "The doctors sure as
hell don’t. Maybe just the sound of your voice–its idiosyncratic pitch and timbre and
rhythms–reaches him. If there’s only one chance in a thousand that it does, isn’t it worth doing?")
But much of the time when she visited she found herself getting to her feet and pacing. The sight
of him lying so thin and gray, so entangled in tubes and catheters and IVs, surrounded by some of
the very electronic equipment he himself had promoted, the thick white bandage on his head
stark and sterile, was in intolerable contradiction to the man she knew as her father. His very body
had become a stranger to her. It dawned on her that there was only a portion of him that she
even knew, or had ever clearly perceived, as himself, the part of him that meaningfully and
consistently projected a personality to her. It troubled her that she could match this unknown side
of him with the image on the laserdisk more than with anything in her memories. Gradually her
consciousness of the fact that he was sick and helpless and unable to appeal to her directly to
answer this lack of connection accreted into a lump of guilt lying uneasily at the bottom of her
stomach, a literal pain and aggravation that made it almost impossible for her to eat.

This sense of alienation from the man lying in the bed grew worse every time Matt questioned her
about the laserdisk. Repeatedly she retrieved it from her fanny-pack and resolved to watch it all
the way through, but each time the realization that she would have to deal with his blather
about his great contributions to Progress, about miracles and the fate of the human species, and
his goddam, manipulative tears at contemplating his own vulnerability, would freeze her
intention. And then Kate would inevitably get sidetracked, remembering his lectures to her
throughout childhood about autonomy and independence in rational, "full" human beings, his
insistence that people who couldn’t survive alone were not "full" adult human beings, that only
the "psychologically maimed and physically crippled" could not be expected to bear total
responsibility for everything that happened to them, and that those who could not should
understand that they weren’t "full" human beings and should be grateful for what they got, rather
than always demanding more. "It’s dog-eat-dog, Kate, and don’t ever forget it."

Later, of course, she’d argued with him, particularly when he began pointing to his own brother
as a prime example. "Every so-called ‘full’ human being has uncounted others bolstering them
up. That’s what privilege is, Daddy. And interdependence is the reason we have such a thing as
social organization, without which we wouldn’t have made it as a species at all. The modern
world never would have gotten built if it weren’t for the sweat and blood of all those who were
bolstering up your Great Men. You know who I mean. Slaves. Immigrant labor. The folks who built
the infrastructure ‘full’ human beings take for granted. And, above all, women, who’ve always
taken care of the most helpless section of the population."

Reviewing this old area of contention made the guilt–and the unspoken anger, which she could
share with no one–grow. The awful beeps of the monitor, the faint, high-pitched whine of
electronics, the nearly constant presence of a specialist RN wove a nightmare texture of routine.
She was a fraud–the tragic, concerned daughter to the media; the steadfast daughter to
Marjorie; and the loving, patient daughter to the J’s. The only "honest" speech she felt she could
own was in her head, to her father:

You took me by the hand, Daddy, leading me here, leading me there, showing me this wonder,
bestowing on me that. You opened my eyes to beauty and taught me to believe in hope and
love. I took all such gifts from your hand without once questioning your generosity, as instinctively
accepting them as a fledgling in a nest accepts into its open beak the constant stream of food its
parents provide. A gift is a contractual bond, you always said, teaching me about
deals-too-good-to-be-true as well as friendship. You lie there now, though so still and somehow
empty, claiming compensation at last, for all the years of love rendered with an open hand and
seldom-failing grace. And were you thinking, all along, that you were setting me up, to parlay
your relatively small stake into a monstrous gusher? You and your games, Daddy. Not once even
hinting we were playing this one. If you could speak now, you’d say it’s cut and dried, a question
of loyalty. Only you would be lying to us both. But then we never shared the same ethics, did we,
Daddy? And isn’t that a mystery.

But then she didn’t share the same morals or ethics with her mother, either. It had been hard after
the divorce. She’d chosen to live with her father for the school year and her mother during
vacations. It had been bad enough that her mother had resented her choice, but when she’d
been born again and remarried–to a very righteous fundamentalist–Kate began to experience
school vacations as descents into hell. Her mother had disowned her when the first of the J’s had
moved in. "You’re your father’s daughter, and no child of mine," she had said. "God is my witness,
I’ve tried. But now you’ve gone too far. My other children must know, even if you don’t, that this
kind of sin is not to be ignored." It had been three years since she’d felt as though she had more
than one parent.

On Day 4, staring at her father’s face, she thought she saw his eyelids flicker. "Did you see that,
Jean?" she asked the RN. "Is he waking up?" Her heart was pounding, her throat painfully tight.

"See what?"

Kate put her hands to her cheeks. The monitors showed no sign of change. Her father’s face
remained still. "I must have imagined it," she said. And wished as hard as she had ever wished
anything that he really had been waking up. It was her only way out from the mess he’d foisted
on her, his waking up. Either that, or his indisputable death. Which was something, she thought,
that didn’t bear even thinking about.

***

What news sharks considered newsworthy was always changing and seldom fathomable. These
days anything to do with Lady Godiva was newsworthy, as was anything to do with Mike
Abbotson. The two of them, paired, and involved in a "life-and-death" situation, including the
one giving the other CPR, constituted a dump of blood in the territorial waters in which the news
sharks swam. (Godiva apologized for her publicist’s breach of confidence every time she called
Kate.) Kate understood this. But she, unlike either her father or Godiva, had always considered
news sharks an irrelevance and nothing to do with her. While the precariousness of her father’s
health had increased her sense of them as irrelevant, it had at the same time stimulated them
into such a feeding frenzy that she was scarcely able to draw breath without having to worry
about its being noted and interpreted. Her duck out of a side door of the Health Sciences
complex on that first afternoon was her only successful evasion of them.

***

Kate had no choice but to agree to Matt’s putting all her transportation arrangements in the
hands of her father’s security team. Though they used three cars to play a shell game, because of
the number of news sharks involved, their success was limited. The S.A.A. was so swamped with
phone calls and news sharks hanging around its doors trying to interview anyone who knew Kate
that they were unable to get anything done. And both Jeff and Joel were hounded–in the role of
her "love interests," as the news sharks called them (just as they called her home her "love nest,"
where she scandalously lived with two lovers at once).

In the meantime Matt continually pressed her for a complete power of attorney to oversee the
empire. The Executive Group of AID, Inc., had a major decision looming, of whether their Public
Defender AI should feature a holographic image, be housed in an anthropomorphized
mechanical robot, or reside, simply, in a desktop unit. It was a matter not only of expense (since
the cheaper the cost per unit, the more pressure state legislatures would bring to bear on the
legal community to agree to the innovation), but of determining which image would make the
fairest impression on judges and juries. Her father rubber-stamped the Executive Group’s decisions
about 82.7 percent of the time; the choice was ultimately his, though, and his signature–and now
Kate’s, in legal lieu of his–was required for every major decision. Since Kate had no intention of
attending the competing project managers’ presentations or the Executive Group’s
decision-making session, Matt was insisting that she sign over at least that authority to him.

To take the heat off S.A.A. and the J’s, and to get Matt off her back, she finally agreed to cross to
the eastside and drive up to her father’s house. She would finish watching the laserdisk and
access the vault. And unless her father showed sudden signs of regaining consciousness, she
would stay there overnight. Though luxurious, the house had all the security advantages of a
military base. At the very least, it would–for a change–give her privacy and quiet.

So at 3:30 a.m., in the dead of night, Kate settled with pillows and sleeping bag into the back of
her father’s spacious van and managed to slip away without one news shark in pursuit. While the
driver and security escort sat in the front seat, chatting about the Sonics, Kate lay comfortably
cocooned, brooding. Earlier that night she had made the mistake of watching a CNN "Special
Report" on her father; it had so wound her up she hadn’t been able to sleep. She was disturbed
that they had somehow gotten hold of an old photograph of her father, mother, and herself at
age four. (Who could have provided it? Surely her mother wouldn’t have.) She was disturbed
that they had shown exterior shots of University Hospital, with the sound of a cardiac monitor
beeping in the background, and the narrator’s voice saying that the "fate" of Mike Abbotson was
"uncertain at best" and that the fate of his "empire" might well rest in the hands of his daughter,
Kate. But most disturbing were the verdicts of the opposing "experts" cited intermittently
throughout the piece–of the economist saying that "Mike Abbotson has done more than any
human being to accomplish, single-handedly, the elimination of the Labor Problem, and to make
the world more efficient than any utopian has ever dreamed possible," and of the sociologist
saying that "While the total globalization of the world economy had substantially diminished the
rewards of work, increased unemployment, and relegated most of the few middle-class workers
remaining into the poverty sector, Mike Abbotson has gone much farther, and has actually
destroyed any possibility of humans living off of their labor for very much longer. Machines
manufacture, machines design, machines teach, machines entertain, machines heal, machines
do the accounting and auditing, machines communicate, operate transport and provide
security. The only professional sectors of significant viability remaining are the legal and political
sectors, and it is only a matter of time before the courts will rule that lawyers cannot require
human administration of legal services. We have very nearly reached the stage of having only
investors and the unemployed. The politicians may serve the investors, but it doesn’t take a
financial wizard to see that when the unemployed become 85 percent of the population,
which–incredible as it may sound–has been predicted to happen within the next decade, there
will be such hell to pay that the current epidemic of Spite killing, street demonstrations, and
spontaneous mass looting plaguing us now will look like a poison ivy rash in comparison to the
metastasized skin cancer we’ll soon be facing."

Kate had known all her adult life that there was a serious problem with unemployment and
eternally sinking wages and an investment-driven economy. But she had never realized the extent
to which people credited her father with having, if not generated, certainly exacerbated this
problem. Her father had always claimed that freeing people from dependence on other human
beings and from the need to toil must be the first goal of a liberal. "Once we’ve achieved that
freedom," he said, "it will be obvious that the resulting wealth in time and resources can and
should be used for exploring the greatness and beauty of the human spirit." "But Daddy," Kate
once argued with him. "The people who own everything aren’t just going to let the people who
don’t live for free! If they can’t work, how will they live?" At which her father teased her for being
a "pessimist" with no "faith in human fairness and decency."

But she thought of all those doctors who, like university academics and primary and secondary
teachers, had had to go to the Third World for work because the machines that had taken over
in the First World were cheaper. Now, though, professors and primary and secondary teachers
were too expensive to be supported (at any price) anywhere, since canned, AI-directed distance
learning had taken over even in the Third World. Surely that meant that soon doctors would be
unwanted anywhere, as well (except, of course, by the very rich, like her father, who could afford
human-supplemented care).

The drumming of the rain on the van’s roof lulled Kate to sleep. She woke when the security
escort slid the side door open. She had been dreaming an ugly confrontation with her mother
over her father’s mechanically tended body. Something about God’s plan and how wicked
Kate’s loathing for shopping was because it wasn’t that she didn’t enjoy spending money and
acquiring things, but simply that she hated doing anything her mother liked doing.

"No one followed us into the mountain, Ms. Abbotson," the escort reported.

The air was shockingly frigid compared to Seattle’s. As Kate climbed out, she saw that snow
coated the van’s tires, and ice most of its exterior surfaces. She struggled into her parka, then
pulled on her gloves and led the way around the various parked vehicles to the garage’s inner
door. "A house without a front door," she thought of her father saying the first time he’d brought
her there. Of course there were doors on the upper levels of the house, but they weren’t easily
accessible as entrances. She’d thought he was joking when he’d told her he was buying a "small
mountain east of Stevens Pass." Even the richest man in the world couldn’t simply buy a
mountain, could he? But, of course, he could. An article on him in the New York Times Magazine
had suggested he’d chosen to build his house inside and atop a mountain simply to trump all the
previous generation’s software billionaires. "Privacy and security," he’d said. Now that Kate had
some idea of how murderously he was hated, she thought there must be some truth to both
explanations. In any case, the environmentally minded said that nothing justified his bulldozing
part of a mountain, no matter how kindly he intended to treat the mountain’s habitat after he’d
finished or how many grants he made to the Nature Conservancy.

Shivering and hugging herself, Kate faced the door, all too aware of her waiting audience.
"House, it’s Kate," she said.

"Welcome, Kate," said the smooth male voice her father had deliberately modeled on that of
Kubrick’s Hal. "How are you this morning?"

"Very cold, House," Kate said, "and impatient to get into the warm."

"Your father will be very sorry to have missed you, Kate."

"Yes, House. I’ve brought two guests with me, Joseph Gleason, who’s a security escort, and Jerry
Gwynn, who I’m sure you will recognize."

"I sympathize with your eagerness to enter, Kate. But I’m afraid I must request you to sing me a
few bars of your special magic song."

Kate hated this rigmarole when she was alone, but with an audience it was downright
humiliating. Lighten up, Kate, she could almost hear her father saying. He had always considered
it a moral offense not to appreciate "affectionate" humor, whether one was the butt of it or not.
Kate drew a deep, chilly breath and sang, hoarsely, desolately, hurriedly, and off-key. "I’m a little
teapot, short and stout; here is my handle, here is my spout. When I get all steamed up, hear me
shout: Just tip me over and pour me out."

A burst of canned applause filled the garage, and the door to the little vestibule that held,
simply, an elevator access, slid open. Kate entered, glanced at the embarrassed-looking men,
and said, "House, we want to take the elevator to the guest level." The doors slid shut and Kate
unzipped her parka and pulled off her gloves.

"Service level for me, Ms. Abbotson," Joe Gleason said. Kate flushed. Her father usually put such
"guests" on the service level, but though Kate knew the rooms there were perfectly adequate, it
embarrassed her to make such a distinction. "My supervisor told me a couple of the rooms there
have special accesses to the security monitoring system that aren’t in any of the guest rooms,
and since I’m here to protect you, I definitely need that access."

"Service level for me, too," Jerry Gwynn said. "I have some personal things in one of the rooms
there, since I live here when Mr. Abbotson’s in residence."

Worse and worse, Kate thought. She cleared her throat and said, just as the rear door slid
opened, "House, forget the guest level. Service level, please." She looked at Jerry and pulled the
weary muscles of her face into a smile. The doors slid shut. "You know the arrangements better
than I do. I’d appreciate it if you’d show Joe a room he could use and explain about how House
works." She looked at Joe. "And of course, if there’s anything I can help you with, just tell House.
There are speakers and mikes in every room, and if you ask it to, House will patch you through to
me."

"Real sci-fi stuff," Joe said, obviously trying hard not to smile. "Which is how my supervisor
described it, actually."

Not just his supervisor describes it that way, Kate thought, wondering if he’d been miffed when
he’d been told about House’s constant surveillance. Most guests hated it, even though her father
always assured them that House served, rather than spied, and wouldn’t divulge their secrets to
him or anyone else.

When the door slid open to the private level and Kate stepped out into the cathedral-ceilinged
foyer all chrome, cedar, and black and white marble, the familiarity of the surroundings and the
strangeness of her arriving there in her father’s indefinite absence wrapped her in an icy blanket
of shock. The cold reality of his absence here in the heart of his empire drove home the extremity
of the case far more than did the sight of him lying unconscious and hooked up to a hospital
unit. Walking through the immaculate rooms and halls, breathing the perfectly filtered, 68-degree
air, Kate felt like an intruder on her father’s privacy, as though it were viscerally wrong for her to
be making free with his house without his presence or knowledge. He had selected all the
furnishings and decor, had designed House’s functions and mechanical extensions with the
specific goal of eliminating the need for human maintenance. "The one thing a really rich person
should be able to buy is privacy pure and simple without having to sacrifice service. Until now,
service has been at the cost of privacy. House is the brilliant, elegant answer." But it meant that
every item brought into the house had to be identifiable to House and easily manipulable. Which
meant that service with privacy came at the price of a certain Spartan starkness.

Which her father claimed represented his aesthetic preference.

Kate left her overnight bag in her rooms and wandered out to the kitchen. Facing its bare black
marble counters and white ceramic tile floor, she looked around for the faintest trace her father
might have left behind–knowing, as she did so, that House would never tolerate so much as a
rinsed-out coffee mug sitting harmlessly in the sink. She recalled an underchef of a caterer her
father sometimes employed for dinner parties saying on the CNN Report that the kitchen of the
richest man in the world was "super-glitzy, but of little use to anyone interested in actually
cooking." And it was true, Kate thought, that the microwave and the freezer were the two most
important appliances in it. Lucky thing, she guessed, that he’d figured out how to enable House
to clean and pare fruits and vegetables and make all those potassium-rich juices that he was
always gulping.

Her eyes spied Cat’s empty water and food dishes on the far side of the enormous freezer. She
said, "House, where’s Cat?"

"Cat isn’t here. Your father took Cat with him."

Of course. Before going to L.A. he’d probably taken Cat to the office, to be petted and
pampered by his personal staff, who always cared for Cat when he was away. Kate rummaged
around in the cabinets for a bottle of water–half-expecting to be questioned by House about
what she was looking for–and was relieved when House kept silent.

She retreated to her rooms with the intention of getting a few hours’ more sleep. When she
entered the sitting room, House greeted her with "Query please, Kate: the object on the sofa."
Kate requested medium-low lighting and saw that the "object" was her overnight bag. She told
House so and instructed it not to dispose of it or attempt to clean it, then went into the bedroom
to the pale orange wicker chest of drawers and pulled out the first pair of sweatpants and
sweatshirt she found. "Oh really, Dad," she said as she got a good look at them. The sweatpants
were tan printed with pale orange triangles, and the sweatshirt was turquoise with tan stripes at
the cuffs and hem. When he’d furnished these rooms, he’d programmed his AI "decorator" to use
only Santa Fe colors and styles. When she’d brought a terrarium with a small rock waterfall that
helped her sleep and set it on a table in the bedroom, House had warned her and her father had
actually complained about it not "fitting," and lectured her about how the cacti and bromeliads
the AI had tastefully recommended looked "natural" in the setting! So were the sleeping clothes a
joke, or an attempt to get her to "fit" better in the rooms?

Impatiently, she threw the clothes aside and rummaged in the drawer for the plain black she
favored. Muttering to herself about how his allegiance to his AI programs had gone too far, she
suddenly, with a shock, remembered. Cold, stunned, she glanced around the room feeling as
though she’d never been there before. Except for the trickle of water cycling over rocks, there
was nothing of herself in this room, nothing of her father. It might as well be an upscale hotel
room. Shivering, she pulled on the black sweatpants and sweatshirt. She realized she wouldn’t be
going back to sleep after all. First a latte, she thought, and then the vault.

***

The lift took Kate down to the vault that was, according to House, below the utility level. "There’s
no button on the manual panel," Kate said to House. "Does that mean that if you crash while I’m
down there I’ll be trapped?"

"The vault has a clearly marked emergency exit," House said. "While the vault can be exited
without my assistance, it cannot be accessed manually, even by Mike himself."

The rear door opened on a short fluorescent-lit corridor. "Just like in the mad-scientist movies,"
Kate muttered.

"I didn’t process that, Kate," House said.

"Now where do I go?"

"To your right and around the corner, Kate, is Mike’s Top Secret Office. To the left you’ll find a
rest-room, bedroom, and small kitchen."

Kate walked the short distance to the end of the corridor. To her left, a heavy metal door slowly
opened. "House. Is this place supposed to be bombproof?"

"The vault has been constructed to be impervious to not only an EMP, but also percussive
explosives to 25 kilotons. It has its own air supply and ventilation system, as well as a year’s supply
of water and food for five persons."

"Five persons, hunh," Kate said, still hesitating at the threshold. "Can we guess who those five
persons might be? Somewhere in this Top Secret Office maybe there’s a Secret Decoder ring that
can give us the answers."

House ignored that. Kate drew a deep breath and went in. Discreet halogen lighting. Enormous
brilliant Persian carpets on a lustrous parquet floor, complemented by woven tapestries covering
every inch of the walls. A pair of red leather couches and matching recliners flanked by brass
halogen reading lamps. An enormous media center. And at the end of the room, a massive
mahogany desk. Kate was flabbergasted. Her father never went in for this style of décor. Stark,
functional monochrome was his thing. And he almost never sat at a desk. Desks were bad for
one’s back, he always said. Only grunge workers, tied to keyboarded monitors, needed to suffer
that torment.

"All right, House," Kate said as she approached the desk. "What is it I’m supposed to do now?"
"Hey, Kate, you there?" her father’s voice said as she sat down in the leather, high-backed swivel
desk chair. "So whaddaya think, kid, of my den?" The voice cracked up in giggles. "From my AI
designer? Not! Fact: I’ve pretty much duplicated–except for the halogen lamps, that is–a real VIP
bomb-shelter. Your assignment, kid, is to give me three good guesses as to whose."

Kate slammed her fist onto the desk top with such force that her eyes smarted with the pain.
"Goddam it, Daddy, I’m not playing your stupid, so-called fun games. And no, I’m not pretending
I can talk to you, when every nerve in my body tells me you’re lying unconscious in that fucking
stroke unit." Kate glared at the emptiness surrounding her. House’s voice, much less her father’s,
didn’t make a damned bit of difference. She was sequestered in a lifeless place, alone. And if he
thought–or rather had thought, when he made the program–that she was going to play his silly
games, he had another thing coming.

"Ready for guess number one, Kate? And remember, it has to be an intelligent guess."

"House," Kate said hoarsely, "get me the right program. My father’s had a stroke. There are things
he wants me to know, documents he wants me to have possession of. Help me bypass his
guessing game."

House said, "I cannot bypass the protocol in progress, Kate."

"Guess number one is wrong, Kate. Try again."

"Pablo Picasso," Kate said sarcastically.

"Guess number two is wrong, Kate. Third try’s the charm!"

"Gertrude Stein," Kate said indifferently.

"Wrong again! Kate, I bet you didn’t even try. Where’s your sense of fun? Someday you’ll realize
that your mother did you no favors teaching you contempt for fun, always encouraging you to
take yourself too seriously."

"Got me right where you want me, hey, Dad?" Kate said angrily over the voice’s continued
speech. "A captive audience that has to feel guilty for every twinge of irritation. Fun, right. And I
suppose you have it written in your will that everyone has to play silly children’s party games at
your graveside, instead of hearing the usual crap about life passing?"

"So, Kate, what can I do for you?" her father’s voice said, the cue, she thought, for selecting the
proper branch of the program’s tree. "If I’m dead, and you’re taking over, say ‘One.’ If I’m
unconscious with brain damage, say ‘Two.’ "

Despite her dread for what was coming, Kate felt relief that he’d dropped his inane bullshit. She
swallowed and said, "Two."

"Having selected Option Two, Kate, it’s likely I’ve either had a stroke or been in an accident. As
you know, because of my genetic predisposition to stroke, I’ve been doing a lot of research into
the subject. Of all conditions that could befall me, stroke is among the worst, because while it’s
trivial to regenerate ordinary tissue, neural tissue is special, in that its exact structure of
connections and patterns holds the key to memory and individual identity. If I’m lucky, I’ll escape
with enough of who I am to be able to achieve some kind of personal continuity. But that’s
probably something that can’t be determined before the replacement tissue is generated. As I’m
sure you probably know, given the special character of neural cells, new tissue can only be
generated by using fetal stem cells as starter cells. I’ve had a series of short videos made up for
you, explaining how it works. But for now, it’s enough for me to assure you that there’s a good
success rate in transplanting neuroepithelial cells to damaged brain sites where they can
integrate with the existing, healthy cells and differentiate into the appropriate types of neurons
and glia as needed. The neurology docs have probably already explained this procedure to you,
so my wanting you to arrange to have it done will come as no surprise. But Kate, there’s another
aspect of this that those docs won’t have told you about. The standard procedure would be to
wait until matching fetal tissue becomes available, and use that. When I first thought about all of
this a few years back, I came to loathe the idea of such important cells coming from just
anywhere. It’s true that the way in which the cells would be integrated and differentiated would
follow my own genetic mapping. I’ve heard plenty of arguments to the effect that the imported
tissue should be regarded as neutral, empty matter utterly pliant to the form its host gives it. But
the fact is, the scientists simply do not know. And given the uniqueness of the brain responsible for
most of the Progress of our day . . . well. I don’t want to risk it. My first thought was to ask you to
have an embryo made with my sperm. But the more I read and questioned scientists about the
matter, the more uneasy I became with the idea of using a foreign ovum, contributing its own
genetic material, particularly given that most of the genetic material governing the executive
brain functions is taken from the maternal chromosomes."

"Oh god, Dad, no," Kate said. "Don’t tell me you want me to get pregnant with . . ." Kate did not
finish the thought. It was absolutely unthinkable.

Her father’s voice did not take account of her interpolation. ". . . back in the nineties. These guys,
Surani and Keverne, made patchwork mouse embryos they called chimera, enabling them to
force the selection of paternal genes for brain cells. The result was super-stupid mice with
enormous heads perched on tiny bodies. The executive brain was underdeveloped, while the
limbic system, or hind brain, dominated. In short, they found the first evidence that paternal
genes contribute most to the primitive parts of the brain, and maternal genes to the cortex and
striatum. Later research by them and others gradually confirmed that this was true not only for
mice, but for most mammals–including humans." Kate listened to her father draw a deep breath.
"Honey, you can imagine how this blew me away. Maybe you remember my talking to you about
this? It was the second time you came to visit here, around the time I was having the guest level
decorated. Well of course, what it means is that all my genius comes from my mother’s genetic
contribution. But it also means that I can’t pass it on to a naturally produced child! You got your
higher brain functions from your mother, I’m sorry, so very, very sorry to say. As would any other
child of mine, were I to decide to have one. So. To make a long story short, I hired a couple of
research teams to work secretly–and separately–in competition–on finding a way to clone me
using only my own tissue. You know, using an ovum as an envelope for containing my genetic
tissue, but not recombining my chromosomes with the ovum’s. Well of course it had to be secret,
since all official institutions persist in refusing to lift the global ban on human cloning that
followed the Porta scandal. One would think the cloning would be easy to do, considering the
routineness of animal cloning. But the fact of the ban, and the tightness of research funding these
days, has meant that the teams I hired had to start from scratch. And of course since they’re
using my rather aged DNA, they have to deal with a certain number of transcription errors.
Interestingly, they each took a different approach. I have a number of video abstracts for you to
view. I think Team B is probably going to be the best bet, since it’s not long-term viability of the
fetus we’re interested in, but simply generating neuroepithelial cells. Since you’re listening to me
tell you all this, it means that their competitive research is still in progress, and that I haven’t
declared either team a winner. Which means, in turn, that you, Kate, will have to decide which
team is to make the embryo from which the stem cells are to be taken. The winning team will not
only have its research implemented–and tested on me, personally–but will also be awarded a
cool five mill that I have sitting in an escrow account in Seattle Pacific International Trust and
Investment."

Another deep breath. "Okay, Kate. I suggest you take a break now and then come back in a
while and ask House for the videos on stem cells and cloning. Later, after you’ve seen them, I’ll
tell you where to find the codes Matt is probably hounding you for."

Kate slumped down in the chair. Her body was so rigidly tense she was shaking.

***
Contrary to her father’s recorded advice, Kate did not take a break. She watched and listened
to and read every video and electronic document House provided. It was mid afternoon by the
time she’d finished, waking from a daze of engulfment into a sudden sharp awareness of hunger,
thirst, and aching muscles. Kate instructed House to prepare a disk with all the codes that were
solely in her father’s possession, then took the lift up to the private level. Though she knew House
was fully capable of heating up any number of a variety of frozen dinners, she rummaged in the
freezer herself. "Have I had any telephone calls?" she asked as she removed the foil wrapping
from a curried eggplant and rice dinner.

Matt, Marjorie, Jeff, and Joel had all called. No surprise. But Matt had called four times with
increasing urgency. Since Kate had told House to interrupt her only for a call from one of the
docs, she was sure Matt’s urgency involved either business or PR, neither of which struck her as of
any importance. Instead of returning the calls, she spoke–via House–to the driver and told him
she wanted to leave for Seattle at around three a.m.

After she ate the curry dinner she lay down in her room to take a nap. The Madrona Bitter she’d
drunk with the food should have knocked her out, but it didn’t. Though she managed to block
all thoughts about having to deal with the two competing research teams, other thoughts broke
the surface of her mind, dragging with them a host of memories. She recalled that visit her father
had mentioned, the occasion on which he said he’d told her about the "executive" functions of
the brain being transmitted only through maternal genes. She didn’t remember him explicitly
talking about that, but she did remember that it was during that visit that he’d announced he
would stop bugging her about getting involved in the business–and be conferring a billion-dollar
trust fund on her that would grant her financial independence. I have no choice but to accept
that you not only aren’t, but can’t be, a chip off the old block, he’d said. I can see some of me in
you, but you’re definitely your mother’s daughter, and there’s no getting around it. At the time,
the words had hurt because she knew that he loathed her mother and could only consider being
like her a terrible shortcoming. But she’d been thrown off by his magnificent gesture and had
thought that that was only his way of expressing his lingering disappointment that she would
never play the role of crown prince of his empire, disappointment that had finally been tempered
by acceptance. He had taught her to ignore "the negative." He had taught her to see the
positive wherever it showed up. So she had seen the positive, she had clutched the positive to
her as proof that he accepted–and loved–the person she had grown up to be, even if she wasn’t
exactly what he’d been hoping for. And she took every subsequent mention of her resemblance
to her mother as rhetorical teasing. Only now did she understand. She had always thought of
herself as her father’s (though not her mother’s) Good Daughter. Now she knew she might not
even have rated as the Good-enough Daughter.

All the time he’d been plotting to clone himself. Had he been intending at some later time to
raise a clone to maturity, to be his heir? It wasn’t unthinkable. The clone would have had his
brains, would have been everything he wanted in his offspring. The clone would have been
everything that she–having inherited her mother’s "executive" brain functions–was not. Lying
there, belching beer and curry, Kate grew utterly sick to her stomach. It was all too, too clear. He
had loved her as any dutiful father would, but as one stuck with a bad bargain. And so he’d
arranged to use her, second-rate but faithful offspring, to make everything come out right–as she,
in herself, was not, and could never, genetically, be.

***

As the van was crossing the Evergreen Point Floating Bridge, Kate sat up and called out to the
driver, "Take the Montlake Exit, Jerry. It’s about a quarter of a mile to the hospital. I want to go
straight there."

She hadn’t been able to sleep. What she wanted was to confront her father, to question him, to
argue with him, to yell at him. To let him know how much he’d hurt her–if such a revelation could
ever be made between them, which it couldn’t, given all their unspoken–unspeakable–rules.
Telling him he’d hurt her would be tantamount, in his eyes, to a confession of self-pity. That was
how they were, father and daughter. What she needed was reassurance. Or to be let off the
hook. Or to be understood. From or by him alone.

She could not imagine ever telling anyone else the things lying between them.

After checking her ID, the stroke unit’s single graveyard human, who did not know her, allowed
her into her father’s room. Her father’s nurse rose to his feet at her entrance. If he was surprised at
the hour of her visit, he didn’t show it, but simply said, when she requested she be left alone with
her father, that he’d be in the cafeteria getting a latte and would return when she had him
beeped.

Everything looked the same since her last visit. To all superficial appearances he might be frozen
in time. What could not be seen, though, was what was going on in his brain. Bledsoe talked
about waiting before launching into a regeneration project. But she knew, now, that her father
had intended her to get the cloning project started right away–in order to be able to provide
Bledsoe with stem cells when he decided they were necessary.

Necessary. Kate felt as though she were frozen in time–caught in a world like Alice’s, a world in
which it was impossible to make sense of "facts" and expressions of desire. Whatever cells they
used–a stranger’s or a clone’s–her father would likely no longer be the person he’d been. The
literature he’d had summarized for her had described only small-scale regeneration projects, in
which the cell damage had not caused unconsciousness, but only very specific sorts of
neurological "deficits." None of the cases involving unconscious patients resulted in a persistence
of any memory whatsoever following successful cell regeneration. Wasn’t memory the very core
particularity of who a person was? She might be persuaded to believe that the new
cells–especially if they were taken from a clone–might duplicate quirks of her father’s personality,
or even the full bloom of his acclaimed genius. But his consciousness, surely that wouldn’t be the
same? And would he not be like a child, emotionally, without the experience of a man’s life?

Kate bent close to his ear. "You say I owe this to you, Dad," she said, her voice almost a whisper.
"You say I owe it to you to keep your genius going. You gave me life, and now I should
reciprocate by giving you a new life that would be a truer immortality than that of having a son.
But you never asked me face-to-face, Dad. You never gave me a chance to decide whether I
wanted to be the one charged with the responsibility. Dad, the whole thing makes me sick. All
those embryos you’ve had those teams experiment with. All those chimeric clones that were too
grotesque to be allowed to grow. I don’t want anything to do with this scheme, Dad. It won’t
get me you back, unless it’s only a few cells that need regeneration, in which case Bledsoe can
get them legally, without burdening some woman with the need to plug into some other
woman’s uterus and carry the fetus around in a titanium carapace until it’s ready to be
harvested for its brain tissue. Oh, she’d be well-paid, I know. Better paid than any surrogate has
ever been. But don’t you see, the fact that you can buy such services doesn’t mean it’s morally
right. Women like that can’t afford to have children of their own. The economic state of affairs
accounts for the availability of such services. A state of affairs you’ve helped to create, however
much you disavow the consequences of your genius."

Genius. The word was bitter in her mouth. It was a word she’d been hearing all her life. First from
her mother–admiring, then sour, then finally sarcastic. From him. And from the world, either
sycophantic or hating. Presidents always liked to make some kind of reference to her father in
their speeches–as a mark of hope, as a symbol of all that was brightest and best in
twenty-first-century America. Sociologists always cited him as the fount of all the changes that
had destroyed the traditional fabric of postindustrial society. Most people, she thought, would
agree that such genius must be kept going, whatever the moral cost–and regardless of whether
the person named Mike Abbotson became another individual entirely. The world needed him
more than ever–or so the New York Times editorial had claimed two days after his stroke. It
needed his genius to see the world through to the new era, to ensure that the promise of his
achievements was not allowed to be swept away by the greed, indifference, and lack of
imagination now exploiting them.
"Tell me, Dad," Kate said, ignoring tubes and cables to lay her cheek next to his. "Do you have
some grand plan to make it all work? You’ve always gassed about the promise of a society free
from the obligation to labor, a society free from the necessity to toil. But when you achieved the
dirt cheap, truly universal medical system, when you eliminated the need for teachers in
educational systems, when you automated every aspect of farming, did making these things
cheap benefit anyone but people like yourself? The fact is, Dad, that it’s all just capitalist bullshit,
isn’t it? And so tell me, just what kind of genius is that? A genius that’s worth being kept going at
any price? A genius the world can’t live without? Sorry, Dad. I don’t buy it, I just don’t buy it at
all." His cheek was warm and living against hers. But she couldn’t sense him there, listening
behind the lax mask of his face. She sat up and dug a tissue out of her pocket to blow her nose
and wipe her eyes. "It’s you I love, Dad, not your genius. There’s a difference, you know. There’s a
big, big difference. To me, anyway." And the thought of seeing her father turned into a stranger
with whom she could have nothing but a genetic relation in common made her bowels writhe.

And yet to him, apparently, genetic relations were everything. Morality and ethics–and love–had
no place in his vision. Though she did not share her mother’s, she did have values. Humans, her
father always said, by definition could not betray their humanity. Anything they did was "human."
And anybody who denied that making war, killing, and even genocide were human was kidding
himself. Oh, how they had argued, he and she, father and daughter. And now, feeling the
warmth of his cheek against hers, she suddenly heard a voice in her mind–the voice that had
spoken to her in the vault, the voice of the image on the laserdisk, a voice she could not imagine
coming out of the lips now bereft of even the softest whisper–a voice only slyly resembling his:
accusing her of sour grapes. You think I should be satisfied with things as they are, satisfied to have
a daughter as loving as you’ve been. But your even thinking such a thing proves you are lacking,
proves that you’re simply piqued by my wanting the immortality my genius deserves. You’re just
proving your own weakness here, kid.

Hot tears overflowed Kate’s eyes, pooling wet and salty between his face and hers. "You’re
wrong, Daddy," she said brokenly into his ear. "Deep inside, I know you are! Why do you always
have to ridicule people for acting on moral bases? You’re asking me to coldly exploit life
itself–and individual lives–for a cold, instrumental end that is speculative, at best. I’d gladly raise
any child you left behind, I’d lavish on it all the love for you I have. But to merely reproduce an
executive organization of your brain? My god, Daddy! It appalls me that you don’t even love
your own, unique self, the person you are and the relationships that make you who you are,
enough to value it more than you value the executive organization of your brain! Stop trying to
hold me hostage to my love for you! Because I’m not, I promise you, not going to do something
that’s so obviously, terribly wrong! "

Kate sat up and wiped her face and blew her nose. For the first time in her life she wished she had
religion, wished she had it as powerfully as her mother did. The oughts of the situation would be
clear then, and the decision not hers to make. She stared through her still-flowing tears at her
father’s face. He would say she had no decision to make, that he had already made the decision
himself, while her mother would say that no decent person could be party to his monstrous
selfishness. But Kate felt guilty, treacherous. Whatever she did would be wrong in somebody’s
eyes. "Come on, Daddy, wake up, please," she cried at his stillness. "I don’t want to lose you!" For
the bottom line was, if he didn’t return to consciousness, she would lose him whatever choice she
made.

***

Kate grew obsessive about sitting with her father, to the point that she arranged to be assigned
a room to sleep in so that she would not have to leave the hospital to go home. Most of his care
was done by machines, but she asked his nurses to teach her how to help exercise and massage
his muscles. "Daddy, I’m here," she said to him every few minutes. She was annoyed and
embarrassed when she learned that the media were making a Major Production over her staying
in the hospital around the clock. Kate Desperate and Distraught one tabloid proclaimed on its
front page. Lady Godiva Out in the Cold claimed another, suggesting a link between Kate’s
moving into the hospital and Godiva’s "exile." Godiva told Kate over the phone that the main
reason she hadn’t visited was the media’s interest. Sitting beside her father, thinking about his
brief relationship with Godiva, Kate fantasized their having married before her father’s stroke,
and his having left all the regeneration arrangements to her. What would Lady have done in such
a situation? Surely anyone with a personal rather than a business relation with her father would
hesitate to put a stranger in his place. Imagine marrying one person and finding oneself in bed
with quite another, someone like a regressed-to-childhood adult. Divorce must be the certain
outcome of such a scenario. The stranger wouldn’t have his predecessor’s feelings for the spouse,
and the spouse would probably feel grief and anger at the loss of the predecessor’s love and full
selfhood.

Daughters, of course, could not divorce their fathers, even when they became strangers. She
would probably have become his mother, or his older sister, or governess. He’d remember
nothing of their having hiked together for years, of her having shoveled snow with him when she
was eight, or of the more than twenty birthdays’ worth of ties she’d given him over the years, still
hanging in his closet though never once worn since he never wore those kind of ties just as he
never wore suits.

"This is where I belong," she said whenever anyone tried to get her to leave the hospital for a
"breath of air" or a "change of scene." Jeff and Joel believed that her visit to her father’s house
had brought home the reality of the situation to her, and that her attendance on her father was
an attempt to deny it. Each of them suggested this in his own way, as though putting it into
words would give her permission to "let go." "He could still return to consciousness," was her reply.
"The doctors haven’t given up hope. I know they haven’t, or they would have started pushing for
regeneration of damaged cells." "But they also say there’s been substantial damage to the
cerebral cortex," they said, as though she had forgotten it. "The fact that he survived surgery
means there’s a chance," she said, clinging to what Bentoit had said before the operation.

Marjorie guessed there was something more than denial involved. "You’re clinging to a slim
possibility," she said as they were waiting for the elevator to take them to the Staff Lounge (where
they could have coffee with a lowered risk of encountering news sharks). "I can understand that.
But your desperation–" She put her arm around Kate’s shoulder and drew her close. "That’s new.
Since your trip into the mountains, in fact. I know you, Kate. And I know a few things about your
relationship with your father. It’s like he’s booby-trapped you, kid. I don’t know how, I don’t
know why. But I’d say that something in his house really got to you."

For a brief moment Kate was tempted to throw herself into Marjorie’s embrace and unload
everything. Marjorie wouldn’t judge her. Marjorie would understand. Marjorie would probably
even have a strong opinion, which she’d give, about what the right thing to do was. But Marjorie
would also pity her, would realize her father’s disillusionment in her, would discover this ugly
weakness. She could more easily tell the J’s–to whom she’d never once seriously criticized her
father–than Marjorie. Marjorie would understand the hurt as no one else could. And the hurt, then,
would become more real, once it was spoken aloud. Bad enough that she knew what he had
thought of her.

And so as they stepped into the elevator Kate said only that she had given Matt all her father’s
codes because she was tired of his pressuring her to attend an important board meeting and
make decisions in her father’s name. "Let him be responsible for the business when my father
wakes up. I know I can’t be." The elevator stopped to pick up somebody in a robot-driven
wheelchair, and the moment for confession was past. Kate talked instead about how, living in
the hospital, the world had shrunk and how that made her feel like a gigantic Alice who had lost
her perspective.

"Which is why you need to get out for a few hours," Marjorie said.

Kate said, "A latte will fix me up." And then asked Marjorie about her latest hypertext project (for a
client that was, incidentally, an Abbotson subsidiary corporation).
***

Three days after visiting her father’s house, Kate got a call from a man identifying himself as David
Hanson. She at first took him for a news shark who had gotten hold of her personal number. But
when he said that her father had told him that it would be she who must authorize the final
execution of the cloning project, she remembered his name. He was the scientist in charge of
Team B. When she asked how she could help him, he said, "Your father said to me that if a clone
were needed for its neural stem cells, you would be authorizing one of the teams to make the
clone for that purpose, thus determining the winner of the competition."

"You are premature, Mr. Hanson," Kate said coldly. "It is possible my father may recover
consciousness at any time."

"But I understand there has been considerable cell damage," Hanson said.

Kate’s jaw went rigid. "Oh? You think your source of information is better than mine?"

There was a pause. "I assume my source of information is the same as yours."

Kate glanced at her father’s slack, unconscious face. A spooky frisson rippled in chills over her
skin. It would have been simple enough for him to write a subroutine instructing House to call the
team leaders a given amount of time after dumping all that data on her. And it would have
been simple to include in such instructions a call to Matt Hull, asking him to update the team
leaders with hard medical data. Her grip on the phone tightened. "Mr. Hanson, I will be in touch
with you when I’m ready to discuss this. I advise you not call me unsolicited. Your position is
tenuous, to say the least." His ethical–legal–position. The statutes the cloning teams had been
violating were federal. She had only to turn the records House had stored somewhere over to the
FBI to entangle him in enough trouble to ruin his life for decades to come, even if he never faced
a federal felony charge and conviction.

Of course if she turned them in, her father would then be tarred with the same brush. That was
the researchers’ main protection, as it had always been.

After she slipped the phone back into her pocket, she stood up and told the nurse she was going
out for a latte. She was shaking with tension; she could even feel a tremor distorting her upper lip.
The nurse pretended not to notice. Lingering at the foot of the bed, staring at her father, Kate
silently addressed him. What else have you got rigged up to force an unwilling hand? Knowing
her father, it could be more videos, a visit from a confidant she knew nothing about, or some
concrete bribe or threat as incentive. Before the call she’d been merely guilty and anxious. Now
she was filled with dread. She suddenly knew what Hamlet must have felt like, haunted by the
ghost of his father.

The thought should have made her giggle, but she shivered, spooked to her soul by the
possibilities.

***

After the phone call from David Hanson, Kate, already fairly zoned out, moved into a state of
near-sleeplessness. When Joel, Jeff, and Marjorie each individually commented with concern on
her "edginess" and her marked alarm whenever she got a phone call, she excused herself as being
sleep-deprived. The places her mind went whenever she lay in the sleepless dark were so terrible
that she began to think longingly of going home to sleep, spooned against a comforting body
(Jeff’s was softer and therefore more comfortable, but he snored, as Joel never did, so she didn’t
exactly fantasize any particular one). She couldn’t go home, though. Something stopped her
every time she started getting serious thoughts about doing so. She knew she had to stay in the
hospital, near her father. She wasn’t sure why, except that she believed something terrible would
happen if she didn’t. And above all, she had to be instantly there if he woke. She needed him to
know that she really cared about him, even if she couldn’t execute his cloning plan. Since her visit
to his house she’d had a recurring dream in which he woke when she was off somewhere,
stranded in a cold, mountainous desert without a vehicle or phone or any means of travel but
her feet, and less than a liter of water and no food or a tent.

Finally Jeff brought her some melatonin and said he’d sit quietly beside her in the room she had
been given to sleep in. "What, and watch me not sleep?" she asked him. "Who knows? Maybe my
being there will help you sleep," he said lightly. When she neither answered nor smiled, he took her
hand and said slowly, soberly, "I wish I understood what was going on. Oh, not your need to be in
the hospital all the time. But there’s something else, I’m sure. Isn’t there anyone you trust enough
to talk to about it?"

His lushly fringed eyes gave her a slow blink. She saw him from a distance–maybe, she thought, as
other people saw him: his jeans and button-down shirt, his curly black beard and thick-lensed
horn-rimmed glasses, his Casio watch. He looked more like a philosopher than a cell biologist,
she thought. Her father had said, after Jeff had joined her and Joel, that all she needed now was
an "artiste" and an investment banker to represent a reasonable spectrum of American Manhood
in her "harem."

"I’m all right," she said, squeezing his hand. "Really, I am." But she took him up on his offer to stay
with her that night. She popped the melatonin tab and then invited Jeff to lie on top of the
covers to cuddle her. One thing, not surprisingly, led to another, and before they knew it they
were screwing. Though the melatonin conveniently kicked in after she’d had a couple of
orgasms, she woke an hour and a half later and was unable to go back to sleep. Her thoughts
were as bad as ever, but pressed up against Jeff’s back, listening to him snore, she felt less lost,
less alone. She realized, however, that she didn’t want to know Jeff’s–or anyone else’s–opinion of
the right thing to do. Whatever that was, it was irrelevant to her actual decision, and even if it
offered her agreement, would not be in the least bit comforting.

***

Kate had known all along that she was waiting rather than stalling or procrastinating. She
thought she was waiting for her father to regain consciousness. What she got on the twelfth day
after her father’s stroke, though, was a definitive crisis that put an end to the possibility of such
waiting.

The day started with a private conference with Lee Park. After getting her and himself coffee,
Park sat down behind his desk, planted his elbows on its surface, and steepled his long, slender
fingers a few inches from his mouth. He asked solicitously after her accommodations in the
hospital, then said, "It is my unpleasant responsibility to brief you on your father’s options at this
point." He cleared his throat. "We have, frankly, been waiting for the equivalent of a miracle, Ms.
Abbotson. All of the scans we’ve done have suggested that your father has sustained
considerable cell damage. As I’m sure you know, neural tissue simply does not repair itself. A small
degree of cell loss can sometimes be overcome by the forging of new neuronal pathways. But
the damage to your father’s brain is extensive."

Kate grew very, very cold. "You’re saying–what? That he is not coming out of this coma? Is that
what you’re saying?" And that you’ve known that all along.

Park’s lava-hard eyes met hers. "Not without a program of cell regeneration." Park broke his
steeple to lift his coffee mug to his lips. "Let me be frank," he said after he drank. "For Dr. Bledsoe
to carry out the procedure, he will need neuroepithelial stem cells. These can be found only in
fetuses. Cells taken from fully developed bodies are not as adaptable or resilient as fetal tissue,
which has a marvelous capacity for differentiating according to the needs of the host organ.
Now while the law permits individuals to conceive children for the sole purpose of cannibalizing
their organs after birth when the removal of such organs isn’t fatal, it does not permit individuals
to expressly grow fetal tissue for its instrumental use. Therefore by law we are required to wait
upon the happenstance of a miscarriage or abortion. Since these are both rare in the second
trimester, the wait can be lengthy."

While he had been speaking, Kate had wrapped her arms around her body. Her shivering was so
violent that she had to make a great effort to keep her teeth from chattering. The pieces of the
puzzle now fell neatly and harshly into place, and she saw the whole ugly picture. Her lips
quivering with tension, she held up her hand and said, "There’s no point in continuing this
discussion. I have no intention of trying to regenerate my father’s lost brain cells. You’ve just told
me that the loss has been massive. What that says to me is that the person my father was is
dead. Generating new brain cells won’t bring him back. It would only give me a stranger in his
place. Which sounds like a damned ghoulish thing to do, animating his body with a brand new
cerebral cortex."

Park stared at her as though he couldn’t believe he had heard correctly. "Ms. Abbotson!"
Nervously he fumbled with the knot in his tie. "Really, you must– I mean, of course it’s only natural
that you’re shocked by my explaining your father’s situation. Wrongly, this medical team has
assumed you understood it all along. But . . . I’m sure, on reflection, you will see that you must
carry out your father’s wishes. You see, Ms. Abbotson, our agreeing to his provisional plans for
using cloned fetal tissue was one of the conditions of his continuing, generous support of all the
department’s research projects. I have on more than one occasion given him my word that if
worst came to worst, I would do everything in my power to see to it that his genius continues.
And that requires that the regeneration be done, in order to give a second clone time to mature
into adulthood. Both teams A and B have begun work on the clones. A gestational surrogate has
been approached. All that is required is your go-ahead."

Every drop of saliva in Kate’s mouth and throat evaporated. She tried to speak, but managed
only a hoarse whisper. "You’re in on this insane conspiracy, too?"

Park spoke through suddenly tight lips. "Matt Hull assured me your father had arranged to explain
everything to you in the greatest detail. Ms. Abbotson, I think it best that he explain it all to you
himself. For there really is no choice in this matter. Legally, you are obliged to follow his living trust.
And morally–"

Kate interrupted. "And morally, you are–" but halted when a loud fast beeping filled the office.

Park swiveled to face the monitor on the table behind his chair and clicked on a flashing icon.
Text and numbers filled the screen. Park sprang to his feet. "Your father’s started a rebleed, Ms.
Abbotson. We’ll have to discuss this another time."

The dread rebleed! Kate followed Park out of his office and the neurosciences department into
the corridors of the hospital proper. Her heart raced with panic. Only when they entered the
Stroke Unit did she realize that a rebleed couldn’t do any more harm to him than he had already
sustained. Her father was gone. The body this man was rushing to attend was a collection of
organs that would never again be her father’s.

It would be best, she thought, if the rebleed caused him to flatline. Turning in her tracks, she left
the conspirators to their emergency and went to pack.

***

Only moments after Kate arranged her getaway with her driver and security, Penny Eliot phoned
her with a request to attend an emergency conference of her father’s medical team. Determined
to put an end to the charade, Kate agreed to the request. Though she had no illusions about any
of the docs on the team, she hoped the strength of her position would be clear enough to carry
her point.

Lee Park sat at the head of the table, but it was Eliot who summarized the situation, presumably
because Park knew he had lost Kate’s good opinion. As a result of the rebleed, Eliot said,
electrical activity in her father’s brain was minimal. The team–which now included Joshua
Bledsoe–advised a second round of surgery in order to maintain whatever healthy tissue there
might still be.

Kate interrupted the recital of technical details. "It’s always been my understanding that the
central nervous system drives all the vital functions of the body. If the full complement of
life-support equipment maintaining my father were removed, would his heart and lungs, for
instance, continue to function?"

Eliot bit her lip. Kate could see from the evasion in her face that she hated the question. "No,
Kate," she finally said, "they wouldn’t."

Which meant, Kate recalled from the summaries her father had provided her, that it was doubtful
that all the damaged tissue could be regenerated. Kate looked Eliot squarely in the eye. "Then
unhook the body. You know, and I know, that his brain is dead. There’s no point in continuing this
charade."

"You’re upset," Eliot said softly. "If this were any other case, I would do as you ask if it hadn’t been
done already. But in this case, it would be wrong. Your father’s instructions to me–and to Lee Park
and Joshua Bledsoe, as well–were explicitly clear."

Kate swept her a look of contempt. "My father is dead. And the only legitimate reason for
keeping the shell of his body even nominally working would be an intention to use his organs for
transplant. But that’s not the case here. Your reason–" and here she indicated all of the doctors
sitting at the table–"is to carry out a procedure you and I know doesn’t at this stage have a hope
of working. A procedure that I would, in any case, have opposed, since it would not have
prolonged my father’s life, but at best produced a bizarre amalgamation of an infant’s
personality with a middle-aged man’s body."

A long silence settled into the room, a virtual paralysis of time, in which the doctors all stared
down at their hands. Kate slammed her fist on the table. "Dr. Park," she said harshly. "Give me the
odds on whether all the most necessary cells in my father’s brain are able to be regenerated."

He stared at her. "You would have to ask Dr. Bledsoe that," he said, glancing sidelong at his
colleague.

"Dr. Bentoit!" Kate said. His look at her was openly hostile. "What are the chances that my father
will regain consciousness if you operate on him a second time?"

Bentoit looked at Park, who after a few seconds gave an almost imperceptible shrug, then
looked back at Kate. Dryly, softly, he said, "Without massive cell regeneration, the patient will
assuredly not regain consciousness."

Kate looked at Eliot. "Then the only thing we have to discuss is the removal of the life-support
equipment."

Park cleared his throat. "It seems we’re at a stalemate, then. The regeneration project cannot go
forward without your consent to surgery and the other necessary procedures. Perhaps I should
mention that Mr. Hull is prepared to go to court to see to it that Mr. Abbotson’s living trust is
honored." He looked coldly at Kate. "Given your opposition, it seems this will be necessary."

Kate rested her hands on the table and folded them tightly together. "I realize that in pursuing my
father’s scheme you all feel you’re fighting for your professional existence. But I wonder if you really
want to be exposed in such a dubious undertaking? You may not be implicated by my father’s
documents in your connection with the cloning project, but I’m sure the FBI will consider the
inferential evidence of your involvement sufficient for mounting a thorough investigation. Even if
a judge agrees to allow your chicanery with my father’s body, when the scheme fails–as you all
clearly know it will, and under the glare of the media’s brightest spotlight–the federal
investigation of the human cloning conspiracy will be all the more likely to go after you." She
looked at each of them in turn. "I suggest that you think about what you’re doing, rather than
adhere blindly to the previously determined plan. The fact of my opposition and my ability to
blow this thing wide open, and above all the fact that the rebleed absolutely negates the
ultimate feasibility of the regeneration project, should surely bring each of you to reconsider your
position–your legal if not ethical position."

Eliot rose to her feet. "You’re right, Kate. I was adhering to a promise. But the rebleed, as you say,
changes everything. If you’ll sign the release form, I’ll disconnect the life-support at once."

Penny Eliot, Kate thought, had the least to lose. The neuroscience docs, though, had the
existence of their entire department at stake (never apparently having considered that she might
have chosen to continue their funding).

Lee Park covered his eyes with his hand. "Divide and conquer," he said. "Which is what, Ms.
Abbotson, your father did to the medical profession as a whole."

And if it weren’t for that, this situation would never have arisen. Kate said, "Yes, Dr. Park, I know."
Her father’s illness had been an education. She no longer thought it so impossible to believe that
a doctor somewhere had taken a contract out on her father’s life.

"It would have made an interesting court case," Bledsoe said as Kate and Penny walked to the
door.

Kate turned and stared at him. "Interesting?" she said incredulously.

His smile was sharp and thin and slightly malicious. "To see whether the courts decided that a
body and its DNA, minus its original personality, has a continuous, legal reality. My guess is that
they would have ruled that it does."

"Let’s go," Kate said to Eliot, afraid the latter might start having second thoughts. She was glad
she’d had that cloning evidence with which to
threaten them. It would probably have gone the other way if she hadn’t.

***

Kate stood with her back to the bed as Eliot and the nurse disconnected the life-support
equipment. She tried to think calmly about her father, about all that they had shared, but
thoughts of what the success of his plans would have meant for her intruded, overwhelming her
with hurt and regret. She had disappointed him, in both his life and his death. She had failed his
genius, which somehow, it seemed, had become all that mattered to him. Genius was
something she did not understand, and it hadn’t been what she loved in him. On the contrary.

When Kate heard the heart monitor shift from a steady beep to an uninterrupted flat tone that
abruptly ceased, she faced the bed. At Kate’s request, the doctor and nurse left the room. Kate
went to the bed, leaned low and put her cheek against her father’s. "Goodbye, Dad. I did my
best. Not what you would have done, but I’m not you, or anything like you, as you’ve known for
a long time now." Kate straightened and looked down at him one last time. His face lay slack
and gray under the dazzling white bandage. Not his face at all, Kate thought. Just the remnant
of a person–a parent–to be respected for what it had been–a remnant to be left behind.

Kate went out into the corridor where Eliot waited. "Want to attend the press conference?" she
asked the doc. "To explain the rebleed and brain death?" Instead of Lee Park, she did not say.

"Certainly," Eliot said crisply. "But I hope you realize Matt Hull is probably going to want to kill us
both for this."

"It doesn’t take a genius to know that," Kate said, and then laughed a laugh so corrosively bitter
that she knew that Eliot could not possibly understand it.
But then Kate wouldn’t have wanted her to.