Copyright © 1995 by Katharine Ken- & Martin H. Greenberg
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ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

Introduction © 1995 by Katharine Kerr.
The Forest's Not/or Burning © 1995 by Katherine Lawrence.
"I'll Give You Three Wishes...." © 1995 by Kevin Andrew Mur-
phy.

The Triple Death © 1995 by Ken St Andre.
Out of the Woods © 1995 by Lawrence Watt Evans.
Viridescence © 1995 by Connie Hirsch.
Fiat Siiva © 1995 by Jack Oakley.
Weeds © 1995 by Julia and Brook West.
Benbow © 1995 by Nancy Etchemendy-
The Prism of Memory © 1995 by Jo Clayton.
The Force that through the Green Fuse © 1995 by Mark
Kreighbaum.

My Soul into the Boughs © 1995 by Teresa Edgerton.
These Shoes Strangers Have Died of© 1995 by Bruce Holland 
Rog-
ers.

The Clearing © 1995 by Lois Tilton.
How the Ant Made a Bargain © 1995 by Karawynn Long.
In Fear of Little Nell © 1995 by Gregory Feeley.
Wood Song © 1995 by Kate Daniel.
Virginia Woods © 1995 by Janni Lee Simner.
Ties of Love © 1995 by Lawrence Schimel.
The Heart of the Forest © 1995 by Dave Smeds.
Holy Ground © 1995 by Thomas S. Roche.
Ghostwood © 1995 by Michelle Sagara.
The Monsters of Mill Creek Park © 1995 by Susan Shwartz.
The Memory of Peace © 1995 by Kate EIliott.
Everything Has a Place © 1995 by Barbara A. Denz.
Trees Perpetual of Sleep © 1995 by Nina Kiriki Hoffman.

Both this book and I owe a thousand thanks to Jo
Clayton. Last year, when I was drowning in personal
disasters, Jo stepped in and lent a hand with finishing
up the anthology. Without all her help, this project
never would have been finished on time- Thanks, Jo, I
appreciate it more than words can say.

CONTENTS

Introduction by Katherine Kerr                    9

WOODWORK

Humor and ingenuity are part of the job requirements

The Forest's Not for Burning by Katherine Lawrence    13
•TU Give You Three Wishes, ..."by Kevin

Andrew Murphy                                  21
The Triple Death by Ken St. Andre                   38
Out of the Woods by Lawrence Watt Evans            49

SPEAKING WOODS
The view from the branches

Viridescence by Connie Hirsch                       65
Fiat Silva by Jack Odkley                            72
Weeds by Julia and Brook West                       84
Benbow by Nancy Etchemendy                       100

INHERITANCES
Different dances to a single tune

The Prism of Memory by Jo Clayton                115
The Force that through the Green Fuse by Mark

Kreighbawn                                     125
My Soul into the Boughs by Teresa Edgerton         135

CONTENTS

THE SCARS OF WAR

Echoes in flesh and wood

These Shoes Strangers Have Died of by Bruce

Holland Rogers
The Gearing by Lois Tilton

VICTORIAN VARIATIONS
New shoots from an old trunk

How the Ant Made a Bargain by Karawynn Long
In Fear of Little Nell by Gregory Feeley

THE NEW WORLD THAT NEVER WAS
Branchings from history
Wood Song by Kate Daniel
Virginia Woods by Janni Lee Simner

IMPOSSIBLE LOVES
Joy comes in many shapes

Ties of Love by Lawrence Schimel
The Heart of the Forest by Dave Smeds
Holy Ground by Thomas S. Roche
Ghostwood by Michelle Sagara

SANCTUARY

There is danger in the Forest but also peace

The Monsters of Mill Creek Park by Susan Shwartz
The Memory of Peace by Kate Elliott
Everything Has a Place by Barbara A. Denz
Trees Perpetual of Sleep by Nina Kiriki Hoffman

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INTRODUCTION

by Katharine Kerr

The forest was our first alien world. Our species evolved
weak except for our shaped stones, defenseless except for our
foul smell. We needed an open view, where we could see the
leopard stalking the grass, the hyena pack spreading out to
surround. As we moved out of the Rift to migrate through and
then beyond the water meadows and grasslands of the area
that's now the Sahara desert, forests began to loom dark at the
edge of our view, always alien, always dangerous, but always,
since humans are who we are, inviting us in with questions
about what we might find there.

The history of Europe is the history of the death of forests.
Hunters might stalk through them, shamans and priests might
retreat into them, shepherds and horse nomads might shun
them, but the farmers, Europe's real settlers, slashed and
burned their way through, even though it took them thousands
of years to kill all the wild places- In China, in India, the pri-
meval forest also fell before stone ax and fire. In America the
history reads the same, though the axes flashed with steel.
Our once vast forests of the Eastern states, at least, have
dwindled into parks among the plowed fields.

Yet somewhere deep in our collective psyche, the en-
chanted forest still stands, fearsome and inviting all at the
same time. In forests lurk monsters but treasures as well, evil
witches but wise hermits, tests to fail, tests to win, roads that
lead to places where magic lives and things are made new.
For this book, I asked twenty-five different authors to take a
fresh look at these forests of the mind. Although some themes
have emerged from the collection, I've been fascinated by the
wide variety of the stories I received. I hope you enjoy them
as much as I did.

WODWRK

Humor and ingenuity are part
of me job requirements

Tne Forest's Not ror Burninj

by Katnerme Lawrence

The 1994 Pima Canyon fire in Arizona's Catalina Moun-tains 
inspired this story by /Catherine Lawrence. She
spends much of her time exploring the boundaries of the
Enchanted Forest as an animation scriptwriter for such se-
ries as CONAN THE ADVENTURER.

Have you any idea what it's like to live at the edge of the En-
chanted Forest, and be the Woodcutter's eldest daughter? You
know, the one out supporting the family after our parents died?

You guessed it. I was at the local market when the Duke ar-
rived and found my younger sister hauling water from the well.
I hear they have two children now.

My youngest sister was pulling up carrots when the Prince ar-
rived. I was out trying to find a new stand of trees to harvest. At
least I got an invitation to the ball they threw last month.

Oh, I've met my share of royalty, but they never quite did any-
thing for me. I mean, they were handsome, but obsessed, every
one of them. They had to have the most beautiful woman, the
most magical sword, the strongest spell, whatever. Not one of
them was seeking a competent partner with whom to share their
life.

So when those high-efficiency ceramic stoves came into use,
and the need for stacks and stacks of wood declined, I figured I
needed a new career. Woodcutting wasn't cutting it anymore, if
you'll pardon the pun.

In the Enchanted Forest and surrounding area, we have all the
witches, wizards, sorcerers, kings, princes, dragons, princesses in
peril and whatnot that anyone could want. More than enough, for
my tastes. So obviously those careers were out.

What we didn't have was a plain, old (both of which descrip-
tions were applied to me, then all of 25 years old) private inves-
tigator. So I did my research and found a school for that sort of
thing, not too far around The Corner in the Real World.

What do I mean by around The Corner? It's difficult to ex-
plain, but you know how sometimes you see something wonder-
ful out the corner of your eye? When you look full-on, it's gone,
but you know it was there? Well, many of those living on the
edge of the Enchanted Forest can walk around that corner and

end up in the Real World. I'm one of them.

It look a year of studying combined with part-time jobs, too
many roommates, and too few visits back home, but I finally got
my Investigator's License and certificate of graduation. Okay, the
license was only good in the Real World, but the King wouldn't
know that. She wasn't allowed to leave the Enchanted Forest,
and as a result was a bit naive about these things.

When I finally returned to the Enchanted Forest, I didn't have
a home. The cottage I'd grown up in, and planned to continue
living in, was gone. It and quite a bit of the Enchanted Forest it-
self.

The fire was all anyone could talk about. The King of the En-
chanted Forest had set all her wizards on the case, but no one
had been able to figure out the cause. It was magical, but it
wasn't a spell. They were baffled.
Eager to show off my newly-learned skills, I went to the King
and offered my services. Once she finished laughing at my busi-
ness card, "Kit Marlowe, Private Investigator," she accepted. Af-
ter all, if no one else could solve it, what did she have to lose?
Five gold a day plus expenses, 1 told her. She gasped, but the
Treasury was good for it.

So I had my first case. Solve this one, and my career was
made. Fail, and I'd at least have the money to find a new home.
I'd attended a lecture on arson investigations, so I knew where
to start: First establish that an act of arson was committed.

I talked to the nearby Villagers, and got my youngest sister's
daughter, the Princess, to talk to the animals. No one saw the fire
start, but they all had the same answer for where it started—
between my old cottage, and the edge of the Enchanted Forest.
A place with no trees, just grass. There were a few stumps, but
that was it- It definitely looked like arson.
Next step: Search for an incendiary device or inflammables.
I searched the area, and there was one stump more burned
than the others. Only a hole in the ground, really; it had com-
pletely disintegrated. The damage appeared to have radiated out-
ward from this spot.

I took the ashes of what remained of that one stump around
The Corner to my favorite instructor at the School, who had con-
nections to the County Forensics Lab. They owed him a favor,
and were happy to have him collect on something this easy.

It was even easier than I'd anticipated. There was no sign of
any of the usual inflammables. All they could detect was that it
had incinerated. Well, at least that ruled out the obvious Real
World possibilities.

I returned home and handed a bit more of the ash to the Court
Sorcerer. He could tell me there was magic of some sort on the
ash, but of a level so low, he couldn't figure out what it was. He
also assured me a normal or magical fire shouldn't have been
able to enter the Enchanted Forest. He'd reinforced the spell
himself!

He thought a bit more and wondered if perhaps the fact that it
started within the old boundary had something to do with that.

I thanked him, then took my expense report-to-date to the
Treasury. I was now ten gold richer, and no closer to a solution.

What did that leave? I began to make lists. My new cottage
quickly became filled with scribbled lists, logic flowcharts, and
transcripts of interviews.

The overflowing stacks of paper reminded me of the records
my father used to keep, from his days as Head Woodcutter. He
was, if you'll pardon the expression, anal retentive. Yes, that's a
term I learned from the lectures on Psychology of the Criminal
Mind.

Father was incapable of cutting down a tree without noting its
original location, where the wood was processed, and what it
was turned into. He kept the records at the Palace, not at home,
so they should be intact.

In the ninth musty storeroom the Palace Majordomo opened,
we found the records. Being even more anal than my father, he
refused to let me remove the records, but did condescend to
letting me bring a lantern and a chair into the room.

My father had inherited a map of the original Enchanted For-
est that numbered every tree and showed it in its original loca-
tion. The map had been passed down in the family since the
Enchanted Forest was discovered, so it had everything. Each tree
bad been carefully numbered and coded with the year it was
found, since there were occasionally new trees, and the year it
was cut down.
It took days, but I copied the section of the map that covered
the meadow behind the old cottage.

Then I look the map and walked the burned meadow. I had to
put in for several replacement pairs of boots before I was
through, but I finally found which tree was the one that had dis-
integrated.

Next day it was back to the Palace, and the records. After sev-
eral hours, I found the file for that particular tree.

I flipped through the pages and found not only confirmation of
the date the tree was first noticed and the date the tree was cut,
but what I really needed—what the cut tree was used for. The
tree had been sold to Sorcerers Publishing, along with a couple
of other trees.

Next morning, I headed to the publishing company. The
Sorcerer-in-charge handed me off to his Apprentice, who threat-
ened to turn me into a toad if I didn't go away. I informed him
of the identity of my client. He went to check the files.

He came back with the dustiest book I'd ever seen, and
plopped it on the desk. Naturally, or more likely magically, all
the dust blew in my direction-

I decided to ignore him, for now, and opened the book. For
some reason best known to Sorcerers, each magic spellbook has
to be made from one and only one tree. So each book requires
a separate tree. No wonder there were so few spellbooks!

Anyway, this particular tree assuming the numbering was ac-
curate, was turned into a spellbook for the Wizard Mendip. I
looked up and caught the Apprentice making some rather spec-
tacular passes in the air, in my direction.

One nice thing about those wizard robes—there are lots of
places to grab. Once I bounced his head on the floor a couple of
times, emptying his pockets of not just various spell components
but some of my gold pieces, he agreed to look up an address for
Wizard Mendip.

Unfortunately, Wizard Mendip had disappeared fifteen years
ago. No body was ever found, so his record had a question mark
next to it. That was a great help.
I didn't know whether the tree and book had anything to do
with the fire, but it was the only lead I had. and now it hit a dead
end. I was not a happy Investigator.

I looked up, and slowly smiled at the Apprentice. He backed
away, his face pale. He backed up so quickly, he fell through the
doorway behind him, and down the stairs. I figured it was a good
time to find my own way out.

I went back to my quickly rebuilt cottage and stared at the as-
sorted lists. I refused to fail on my very first case. There had to
be another way to come up with the data I needed. But what?

No brilliant ideas had occurred during the night. They rarely
do, despite "common wisdom." I needed help, and there was
only one person I trusted on this sort of case.

Thomas was not just my favorite teacher at Investigators'
School, but he was also a private investigator himself. I took my
notes and went around The Corner to visit him.

I explained the situation, and he reminded me of the very first
lesson he'd tried to beat into our heads in class: never make as-
sumptions. Everyone assumes wizards stay in the Enchanted For-
est. What if he'd come around The Corner and was living in the
Real World?

So with Thomas' help, we checked the databases. These are
the lists of everyone in the Real World. It's amazing how much
one can leam about them- That's what made it so difficult for
me; until Thomas "adjusted" things, I wasn't on the lists.

Anyway, there he was—Magnus Mendip, right in the same
city, too. Like me, he must have stayed just around The Corner,
so he could get home if he wanted to. But if that's the case, why
didn't he?

I took the bus and found the Wizard's house. It looked like ev-
ery other house on the street, except for the boy on a skateboard
gliding down the front walk. I asked the lad if Mr. Mendip was
home, and the kid punched me and took off.

I'd taken the required self-defense classes, but I hadn't ex-
pected to be punched by a twelve-year-old. I ended up on my
rear end, on the grass.

A woman, whom I at first took to be the boy's mother, rushed
out of the house and helped me to my feet. She apologized pro-
fusely as she helped me brush myself off. Apparently Kevan was
going through "a stage" and was very difficult to deal with.

I kept my thoughts to myself, and asked if she was Mrs.
Mendip.

She tittered, a sound I'd only heard a mouse make before, and
one hand covered her mouth. Around the hand she informed me
she was Mrs. Hodgson, the baby-sitter, and Mrs. Mendip was at
work. Mrs. Mendip was expected to be home shortly, however.

Well, at least I knew I had the right household. I asked for Mr.
Mendip, and was told that he had died in a car accident less than
a year ago. A drunk driver, you know. I expressed the proper
sympathy while thinking there went my lead.

Mrs. Hodgson asked me in, and naturally, I accepted.

By the time tea was served, Mrs. Mendip arrived home. On
the off chance that she might know something, I asked if she
knew of any rare books her husband had owned.

Turns out he had several. I explained that I'd been sent to find
one book in particular, as it was worth quite a bit both sentimen-
tally and in a monetary sense. She told me the special books
were kept in his study, and offered to show them to me.

The study was immediate confirmation that he was the wizard
I was searching for, in case there'd been any doubt. It wasn't a
matter of dead animals, or that sort of thing, just the general at-
mosphere. When you live as close to the Enchanted Forest as I
do, you develop a sensitivity to magic.

The books were in a cabinet behind his desk, and to Mrs.
Mendip's surprise, the lock had been jimmied. The doors opened
at a touch, showing an empty shelf.

Mrs. Mendip was horrified, and ready to call the police to re-
port a burglary when the skateboarder, Kevan, walked in. Mrs.
Mendip told him to get washed for dinner, but he ignored her. He
headed straight for me.

He demanded to know what I was doing there, what I wanted
with his father, and in the same breath cursed me more ways
than most of the witches know, for daring to enter his father's
study.

I carefully stayed out of reach as I explained that I was search-
ing for a particular book mat his father owned.

With great pride and belligerence, Kevan informed me that if
it was one of the books his dad kept in that cabinet, then he'd
burned them all.

My brain started making connections immediately, so I almost
missed what he added—that the magic spells in them didn't
work anyway.

Now, you and I know that only wizards can read magic spells
in a Wizard's book. I looked at the boy more closely, the back
of my brain solving the arson case.

His mother looked at him sadly and told him to stop lying.
There was no such thing as magic. And those books were empty
anyway. The pages were all blank. She'd had to look when the
lawyers came in to check everything after he'd died.

The boy glared at his mother, calling her a stupid cow. For just
a moment, I thought I saw her pink dress tarn black and white.
Kevan was untrained, but pretty powerful.

I asked his mother if I could have a private chat with Kevan,
and she reluctantly agreed. Fortunately I at least look harmless.

Kevan refused to sit down when I suggested it. He stood in
front of me, arms crossed defensively.

I asked him how badly he wanted the magic to be real.

He turned away from me, but I could read the combined pain
and longing in the hunch of his shoulders and the way his arms
wrapped further around, to hug himself.

I told him about the Enchanted Forest, his father being miss-
ing for fifteen years, which told me, at any rate, that he must
have had very good reasons, quite likely his family, for not re-
turning home in all that time.

A small voice muttered that this was his dad's home, which at
least meant Kevan was listening to me.

I then offered, if he would consider leaving home, the chance
to become a wizard like his father. I admitted it would be diffi-
cult, and he'd have to lie to his mother about where the "board-
ing school" was, but he could come home anytime for vacations,
if he wanted.

He turned around and the fierceness of his glare as he
searched my face for falsehood made the gold I'd earned seem
an insignificant reward. This was the real reason I had become
an investigator. Hope is the most difficult, and the most reward-
ing thing anyone can search for.

It took some time, and he wasn't able to come with me
immediately, but I started his mother thinking about the idea of
sending him off to a special school. And I promised Kevan I'd
be back, with someone who’d worked with his father.

When I turned The Corner back home, after telling Thomas
what happened, my eyes were more than a bit teary. I adore
happy beginnings.

I still had to report to the King, but that was the easiest part
of the day.

It took some time for me to explain, but the Court Wizard un-
derstood immediately, and was abashed at not having realized it
sooner. One of the founding principles of magic is that a piece
of a thing is the same as the whole thing. It's called sympathetic
magic. What a wizard does to a single stone, affects all the
stones in the castle, if the spell is properly cast.

So when an extremely talented, though untrained, young wiz-
ard bums a book made from a tree on the edge of the Enchanted
Forest, the remains of that tree incinerated. The fire simply
spread from there. Sympathetic magic.

Arson by accident.

The King happily paid me the remainder of what I was owed,
and I had my first reference. Not bad, for the Woodcutter's eldest
daughter. Beats marrying a prince any day.

It's not so bad having one for a brother-in-law, however, or a
Duke. The Duke heard of my success, and sent me a message
that he needs to see me, at my soonest convenience. Wonder
what he wants?

I’ll Give You Three Wishes
by Kevin Andrew Murphy

Kevin Andrew Murphy's last exploration into the realm of
faerie was in The King Is Dead, wherein he had Elvis sto-
len by the elves. He also has stories in I, Vampire, Weird
Tales from Shakespeare and several other anthologies.

'Oood morrow, young man, and pleasant journeys," said a voice
from the roadside. "What brings you so far, this sunny mom, and
why so dour a face? It doesn't suit you by half, and the look in
your eyes suits you even less. So take off that tired and world-
weary look and tell me how you came to be wearing it."

Conrad looked to the roadside, and there, between the dande-
lions and the boundary stone, sat a witch.

Conrad knew she was a witch. The rats* nest hair was one
sign, artfully arranged with just the right number of dead leaves
and twigs, as if the old woman had once been a young maid who
put flowers in her hair, then had forgotten to ever take them out.

Then there were the clothes: layers of skirts and shawls
patched over and over again, stained with berry juice and with
mice peeking out of the pockets—making him wonder if the
woman's hair actually had been done by rats, instead of just
looking that way. If a couple popped their noses out then and
there, he wouldn't have been surprised.

The dead giveaway, however, was the dialogue. No peasant
woman spoke like that. Being a peasant himself, Conrad had
been around enough to know. Peasant women Just said, "Mor-
nin', boy. What's the problem?" then spat on the ground 
forpunctuation.

22                Kevin Andrew Mm-pky

He tried to remember his grandmother's tales and recall the
proper form of address for a witch: "Prithee, good dame ..."

The witch looked at him expectantly.

"Grandame ..." he tried.

The witch continued to look at him, smiling.

Conrad kicked a rock off into the grass at the side of the road.
"Listen, lady, why don't you just turn me into a toad and get it
over with, okay? I'm in no mood for this."

The witch smiled. "My, the world has shat upon you, young
sir. Shat upon you most mightily. Tell me, child, what has tran-
spired, and how for did you come to this sorry pass of circum-
stance."

Conrad looked at her and sighed. "You obviously don't listen
to the Royal Proclamations, grandma. I'm a woodcutter. This,"
he said, taking the ax from his belt and flourishing it, "is a
woodcutter's ax. Except the King decided that everyone who
cuts wood in the Royal Woods needs a woodcutter's permit. Ex-
cept the permit costs more man I make in a year. So the only
choice I have is to starve, or to poach wood from the Royal
Woods. And if I get caught poaching—and that's an easy thing
to do, since it's easy for the King's bailiffs to find a woodcutter
who's selling wood without a permit—then I get arrested and
have to work off my sentence doing guess what? Chopping wood
in the Royal Woods. And once I'm paroled, I'll have no trade,
and a criminal record, so I'll have no choice but to get arrested
again so I won't starve." Conrad spat on the ground. "The King's
slick as a slug in a grease pit."

The witch leered. "Slicker, in fact. That plot is worthy of the
Prince of Darkness himself."

Conrad shrugged. "I guess so. Doesn't matter. The only place
I can cut wood legally is Wild Wood over there." Conrad pointed
to the forest just across the meadow. "Except everyone knows
it's haunted, and filled with fairies and goblins." He paused,
looking at her. She was obviously enjoying this. "And witches.
And everyone told me the wood nymphs would turn me into a
tree if I dared to cut their woods, but I'd rather be a tree than
chop wood for the King. And there it is."

The witch chuckled and snorted. "Oh my," she said. "Oh dear.
I haven't heard anything so funny in quite a long time. You! A
tree!" She laughed until tears ran down her face, mice from her
skirts, rats from her hair, and what Conrad had taken for a tatty
black stole was revealed to be an even tattier black cat. "A tree!
You! Turned into a tree! By the wood nymphs!" The witch

"I'LL GIVE YOU THREE WISHES..        23

laughed and pounded the ground, giggling like a village girl
who'd just seen a naked man for the first time.

Conrad exchanged glances with the mice and rats and the cat
and the pair of toads who had crawled out of her shoes. They all
looked embarrassed. The cat began washing one ear, pretending
not to notice her mistress* conniption fit.

Conrad decided to take the cat's attitude, because now that he
was actually looking at a toad, being one didn't seem quite so
preferable to just being an unemployed woodcutter.

The witch at last recovered, wiping the tears from her eyes
and collecting her retinue back into her skirts. "Oh my, young
sir. I haven't had so fine a laugh since my youth, and for that I
will reward you." She looked at him again, leering. "You don't
get the jest, do you?"

Conrad shrugged. "No."

"The wood nymphs," the witch explained, "only take the
handsomest young men. And you—That nose! Those teeth!"
The witch burst into renewed peals of laughter.

Conrad considered his ax and the helpless witch on the
ground, but the cat looked at him and her expression was clear:

Don't even think it. buster.

Conrad shrugged again. The witch reminded him even more of
the village girls, who had been the first to laugh at his nose and
his teeth, "So what would the wood nymphs do with me?"

"Oh. they'd probably just drop a branch on your head and
have done with it. But you've made me laugh, young sir, so I'll
help you." She nibbed her hands with glee. "Oh yes, I think this
may be quite profitable for both of us."

Hector the mockingbird knew it meant trouble when the
woodcutter came to the forest. "Woodcutter- Woodcutter. Always
trouble- Always trouble. Sharp ax. Sharp mind. Cut, cut, trouble,
trouble, trouble."

Prissy the squirrel threw an acorn at his head: "Loud mocking-
bird! Too loud! Bad Hector! Bad-bad-bad!"

"Woodcutter! Woodcutter! Trouble, trouble, trouble!" Hector
whistled, laughing, and did a back flip to dodge another acom-
"Woodcutter! Woodcutter! Chop-chop! No trees! No nuts! No
squirrels!"

Prissy paused, cocking her head and another acorn. "No
nuts?" She dropped the acom in shock. "No nuts!" She ran off,
sounding the alarm: "No nuts! No nuts! No nuts!"

Hector did another back flip, proud of himself, then winged

24                  Kevin Andrew Murphy

off through the forest, singing his song: "Woodcutter! Woodcut-
ter! Trouble-trouble-trouble!'*

Conrad stayed close to the witch- The birds and animals
seemed upset, and one squirrel sat on a high branch and scolded
him, throwing acorns at his head.

The cat put her head up and hissed. The squirrel dropped her
nuts and took off down the branch, chattering wildly.

"That's right, Mehitabel. You tell that nasty squirrel." The
witch stroked the cat's tail. "Destroy the forest? Of course not.
Just select portions. Parts that have crossed us."

The witch led the way straight to the door of her cottage,
through a garden filled with belladonna, henbane, monk's hood,
skullcap and a bush heavy with the luscious purple berries of
deadly nightshade—and a paranoid-looking black goat tethered
in the middle, carefully cropping the few nonpoisonous plants in
between. A broomstick hung over the threshold for those still
slow on the uptake.

"Welcome to my humble dwelling, young woodcutter," the
witch opened a door decorated with a freshly painted pentacle
and a skull that evidently belonged to some former goat who had
no doubt finally nibbled the wrong bit of greenery, "but before
you enter, give me your name."

Conrad knew it wasn't the wisest thing to give one's name to
a witch, but men again, she could probably turn him into a crab
apple without it, so it didn't really matter. And with the starving
goat behind him. the last thing he wanted to be was a crab apple-
"Conrad, uh, good dame."

The witch cackled and ushered him inside. "Call me Dame
Margot. That name should do as well as any."

"Yes, Dame MargoL"

The hut was low-ceilinged and grimy, and Conrad had to
hunch over almost as much as the witch to keep from knocking
his head on the bundles of moldering herbs and various and as-
sorted spiders. There were tables and mixing bowls, mortars and
pestles, shelves of pickled whatsises better left unidentified,
and off to one side, a lectern carved with bats and cats and rats
and all the other fuzzy little animals favored by Forces of Dark-
ness.

Atop this, in a place of honor, lay the witch's books of forbid-
den lore. Or at least that's what Conrad assumed they were. Be-
ing illiterate, he couldn't read the titles, but given the setting and

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the leering pride with which the witch gestured to them. he sus-
pected they were something aside from chivalric romances.

She then pointed to a stool by the hearth. Conrad sat down
without question. Beside him, the obligatory cauldron simmered,
brownish gruel swirling in the depths.

Dame Margot stumped about her hut happily, humming some
little tune: " 'Today I'll bake, tomorrow I'll brew, the next day
the Young King's child I'll stew ...' No, that's not it. 'Be he
dead or be he alive, I'll...' No, not that either. Oh, I don't know
why 1 bother with these silly dwarven songs. The only point to
them is to have something to do with your lips in between
mouthfuls of beer." She came back with two mugs and set them
down to warm by the fire. "Dwarven ale. The best kind."

She cackled in delight, then got a long spoon and a wooden
bowl and dished up a mess of the stuff in the cauldron. "Here,
young woodcutter. Eat well and hearty, so that we might better
discuss business."

Conrad took out his hom spoon and tasted the stew. It was
better than he'd expected, but not much, with little bits of un-
identifiable meat which may have once belonged to me undis-
criminating goat. But the ale was much better, and he could
understand why the dwarves got their lyrics mixed up.

The witch sat down on the stool opposite him, Mehitabel
jumping down and stretching out before the hearth. "Now, tell
me what you know of wood nymphs, young woodcutter." She
produced a crust of bread and broke it up for the mice and rats,
who began to nibble it and look at him expectantly.

Conrad paused. "Wood nymphs. Um, they live in trees.
They're really beautiful. They turn men into trees sometimes ...
but only the handsome ones. The men, that is, not the trees. And
sometimes they can give you wishes ... except they never turn
out right."

"Aha!" said the witch, stamping her feet in delight and fright-
ening the toads from her shoes. "There you have it! There's the
rub and mere's the problem and there's the trouble with wood
nymphs. They have magic, true enough, but it's natural magic,
and cursed to boot, at least if you have the wood nymph's ill
will. Can't wish for castles and crowns and kingdoms with a
wood nymph's wishes. Just small, simple, natural things or nat-
ural magic. Not mat you'd want to anyway, since people who 
gettheir wishes from bullying wood nymphs end up with sausages
stuck to their noses. Or was that noses stuck to their sausages?
No matter, I've heard both, and I've heard much worse than ei-

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ther. Oh yes, much worse." The witch cackled a bit more and
nibbed her hands. "Why, I could tell you a few tales ... but
never mind. Listen to me, young Conrad, and heed well my lore
and learning. The only folk who*ve ever had happy dealings with
wood nymphs are the ones who've gained their love, and most of
them ended up as trees, so it's a tricky business. And if you're
handsome, they'll take you as a tree, to keep you with them.
But if an ugly man could gain a wood nymph's good will, why,
then ..."

Dame Margot rubbed her hands and cackled. ''You're a mer-
chant, aren't you, young Conrad? There's more to being a wood-
cutter than just chopping wood, isn't there? There's selling it,
too, and it's in the selling that there's the profit And you get
happy customers when you sell them something they want."
Dame Margot leaned close, and the cat and rats and mice and
toads all leaned in to listen, too. "Now let me tell you my
plan...."

Lindy the Linden was absolutely terrified. The woodcutter had
been walking all over the forest, singing fiendish woodcutting
songs, and now he had come and sat beneath her tree for the
third time that day.

And he was sharpening his ax.

She was an old linden, but a small one, and she hadn't any
limbs large enough to drop on his head, and tile thought of even
losing one of her limbs ...

She quaked like an aspen. To lose a limb, then have beetles
crawl under her bark..,. Oh, terrible, terrible! But to be cut
down altogether ...

She did her hair up as prettily as she could with her springtime
flowers and arranged her gown of bark as nicely as possible, then
slipped out the back of her tree and came round to where the
woodcutter sat, polishing his terrible ax. He was young, but as
ugly and homble as any of the forest dwarves, and brawny be-
sides.

She wrung her hands as she had been told was wise and tried
to look as plaintive and miserable as she could. "Oh please, good
Woodcutter," she said. "Please do not cut down my tree! If you
promise not to cut down my tree, I'll give you three wishes!"

The woodcutter looked up from his horrible ax and smiled.
"Hello, good wood nymph. Is this your tree here?" He reached
back and patted the trunk of her precious linden, and Lindy felt
his hand running up and down her leg.

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"Yes, good Woodcutter! Please, do not cut down my tree or I
will perish! I will give you three wishes if you promise not to
harm me!"

The woodcutter smiled more and stroked the root that corre-
sponded to her foot. "Never fear, good wood nymph. I was not
planning to cut your tree. You may keep your wishes, and your
life. Indeed, your tree is far too young and pretty to cut; it would
be a crime to rob the forest of its beauty." He patted the root
again and Lindy felt him stroke her foot "I only sat here because
I find yours the most fine and beautiful young tree in the forest,
and I wished to have a pleasant place to sit while I tried to de-
cide which of the old and ugly trees to cut down for firewood."

Lindy paused. "You do not wish to cut down my tree, good
Woodcutter?"

"Of course not, beautiful nymph. To all things there is a sea-
son, and it would be a crime to cut short the life of anything so
young and beautiful." He ran the whetstone across the ax blade
and looked at the other trees nearby. "It is just so hard to choose
which of the old and ugly trees to take. To decide which the for-
est would be better off without. I take my responsibilities as a
woodcutter seriously and would only cut down a tree that had
outlived her usefulness." He looked at Lindy and smiled, buck-
teeth protruding. "I don't suppose you'd know of a tree that fits
that description?"

Lindy held a finger to her lips, amazed at her good fortune,
then pointed right across the way, to where Becka the Beech
lived. "That one. Right there. That bitch has been blocking my
sunlight my entire life, and her roots take most of the water,
too!"

The woodcutter polished his ax, looking at the beech tree.
"Are you certain? As I said, I take my responsibilities as a
woodcutter seriously, and I would not want to take any tree that
did not absolutely have to go."

"Oh, she has to go all right," Lindy said. "That bitch thinks
she's the Queen of the Forest, when all she is is a sun-hog and
a breeding ground for bark beetles and woodpeckers. The forest
would be a lot better off without her."

The woodcutter sharpened his ax, looking at Becka the Beech
bitch. "Are you certain? It is an old tree, certainly, but I am not
certain that should be the one I cut down-..."

Lindy paused, thinking of how much easier her life would be
without Becka blocking all her sunlight and taking all her water.
"I'll give you three wishes...."

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"Three wishes?" said the woodcutter. "Well, if you feel that
strongly about it, I suppose she has to go...."

Witch Margot kicked up her heels and danced with the cat.
" 'Oh, today I plot. tomorrow I scheme/The next I realize my
dream! And that will be good and better than good/With wood
nymphs stacked as kindling wood!' "

"Meow!" shrieked Mehitabel. "Meow!"

'That's right, Mehitabel. All those nasty wood nymphs
who've crossed us will be gone, and we'll be rich in the bar-
gain!" The mice and rats played the fiddle, and the toads played
the mandolin, and teaching them that had been more of trick than
she liked to think about. But it was worth it for moments like
this.

" 'Oh, today we dance, tomorrow we drink/Get piss blind
drunk till we can't think! For each revenge we get a wish! Get
what we want ..." Witch Margot paused, trying to think of a
good rhyme.

"Meow! Meow!" cried Mehitabel, dancing the Mazurka.

"Yes!" said Witch Margot. " 'And cream and fish!' We'll have
it all, Mehitabel!"

Margot hitched up her skirts and danced round the kitchen
once more. Blessed be the day she'd bought those books from
the magic peddler! Who ever would have thought they'd hold
such lore and knowledge, or explain the way of the world so
well and clearly? "Wonderful!" she exclaimed, dancing over to
the lectern and giving a reverent pat to the Deutsche Volks-
marchen and the Collected Works of Hans Christian Andersen.
"Lovely, lovely, lovely books! And you, the most precious of all
my darlings!" she cried, picking up and kissing the Folktale Mo-
tif Index. "Oh, I wish I had all the books in your bibliography!"

Witch Margot paused, but no library suddenly appeared.

She shrugged and laughed. "Ah well, Mehitabel. We'll get
them soon enough. 'Oh, today we dance/Tomorrow we bake/
Have lots of beer—' "

"Meow!" shrieked Mehitabel.

"'—and fish," Margot translated and nodded in agreement,
"and cake!' Blessed be the peddler and the day he sold me my
books!"

She cackled with glee, dancing around holding her prized
Folktale Motif Index over her head, altogether too caught up in
her good fortune to notice the mockingbird and squirrel peeking
through the tear in the thatch.

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Conrad stood up, polishing his ax. Three wishes, in advance
... He smiled, remembering what the witch had told him to wish
for. "For my first wish. I wish to live a long, healthy life."

"It is done," said the wood nymph, clinging to her linden tree
like a harlot on a lamppost

Conrad suddenly felt very, very healthy and the wart on his
thumb dropped off onto the ground.

For the second wish, the witch said he could wish for any-
thing, except to be handsome: "I also wish to be strong. Incred-
ibly strong. Even stronger than Emhardt the Blacksmith."

Conrad felt all his muscles swell up and the laces on his jerkin
stretched tight and then popped. He looked down at his bulging
arms and chest, though this was rather hard, since his clothes
were now much too small and he didn't seem to have a neck
anymore, at least not one that was smaller than his head. But he
certainly felt strong.

"It is done," said the wood nymph. "What's your third wish,
good Woodcutter?"

Conrad finished admiring himself and figuring out how to
move without his thighs rubbing together, then looked back at
the wood nymph. "Oh, that. Yes. I wish that the old lady who
gave me such good advice would get the third wish. To use how-
ever she wants." After all, Conrad thought, that was the deal, and
he knew enough of his grandmother's stories to know that you
always played straight with witches. Unless you wanted to be a
toad, and being a toad—even an incredibly strong, healthy, long-
lived one—was not something that Conrad wanted to be.

"It is done," said the wood nymph. "Are you going to go cut
down Becka's tree now? I'd really like to have some more sun-
light."

Conrad tipped his hat, getting used to the way his new mus-
cles were rubbing on each other. "Of course, good wood nymph.
I'm a man of my word, and we're agreed—the beech tree has to

go"

He walked across to where the tall beech stood and looked up.
A branch dropped down, landing beside him, and he smiled. The
linden tree had been as good as her word; the branches were
missing him. Well, time to be true to his. He inspected the trunk
of the beech for the right spot to cut, and another branch landed
beside him.

The linden was right. The beech tree was a bitch.
Conrad spat on his hands and readied his ax, but before he

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could swing, the beech's nymph stepped out of the trunk. She
was tall and grand, looking like some ancient queen, with a
crown in her hair and a mantle of squirrel skins. "Woodcutter,"
she intoned, "spare my tree and I will reward you with three
wishes!"

Conrad smiled. Dame Margot had also been right. The wood
nymphs were just giving them away.

"Sorry," he said. "I think I'll just cut down the tree."

"What is—" she began, then did a double take. "What? Doth
mine ears deceive me? Didst thou just refuse my three wishes?"

Conrad nodded. "That's right. Lot of good board feet of lum-
ber in this baby." He patted the trunk and the wood nymph
looked shocked and grabbed her bottom. "Anyway, a dwarf told
me if I cut down this tree, I'll find a golden goose inside."

"What? The dwarf lies! I have not a goose inside my trunk."

"Well, honey, you sure act like you've got something stuck up
your ass. Let's see what it is. huh?"

"But—Three wishes! I'll give you three wishes!"

Conrad shrugged his massive shoulders. "Eh, I've already had
three wishes. I think I'll go for a goose instead." He swung the
ax, and the wood nymph grabbed her ass and screamed.

Conrad swung again and again, pleased at how fast the wood-
cutting was going with his new muscles. At last the screaming
wood nymph disappeared, and the trunk gave way. "Timber!"
Conrad called and the beech tree listed over, crashing slowly to
the ground and flattening a certain small linden tree.

Conrad polished his ax. Just like Dame Margot had said. All
the witnesses taken care of, and three wishes in the bargain.

Becka the Beech tree had been right, too. There hadn't been a
golden goose stuck up her ass. However, there was an old tinder-
box lying on the edge of the stump, just the way the witch had
said, and when he looked down the hollow into the cave below,
Conrad saw the three dogs Dame Margot had also mentioned, the
ones with the eyes the size of teacups, millstones and the Round
Tower at Copenhagen, wherever that was.

Conrad took the tinderbox and looked down at the three dogs.
"Hey there! Dogs! Remember, I've got the box now, so don't go
telling anyone what happened!"

The dogs blinked, panted, and wagged their tails, and Conrad
tried to find room for the tinderbox under his arm, which was
rather hard, as there was a good deal of muscle in the way that
hadn't been there before.

Oh well, he could certainly get used to that. He set off back to

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Dame Margot's and wondered what, aside from walking bowleg-
ged, he could do to keep his thighs from rubbing together.

Hector the mockingbird and Prissy the squirrel hastily con-
ferred in the upper branches of one of the oaks. "Trees no
listen!" Prissy squeaked. "Just squirrel! Just bird! Trees no lis-
ten! Stupid trees! Stupid-stupid-stupid!"

Hector nodded in agreement. "Woodcutter trouble! Witch trou-
ble! Double-trouble! Double-trouble!"

"Who listen. Hector?" asked Prissy. "Who care? Just bird!
Just squirrel!"

Hector thought a moment. "King Stag?"

Prissy twitched her tail. "Why care?"

She had a point. "Fairy Boar?"

"Boar old!" said Prissy. "Boar crazy! Boar eat bad truffles!"

Hector cocked his head. "Goblins?"

Prissy twitched her tail, refusing even to comment.

Hector thought a bit more. "Know the thing!" he cried. "Find
Dwarf King!"

Prissy paused and cocked her head. "Why Dwarf King help?"

"Profit! Profit! Money-money-money! Dwarf King, triple-
trouble, money-money-money!"

"Dwarf King. Triple-trouble." Prissy twitched her tail. "Hector
smart."

Hector did a back flip. "Money-money-money."

Conrad sat with Dame Margot, divvying up the week's haul.
"Let's see, that's twenty-seven wishes, nine for you, eighteen for
me, plus you've got the tinderbox, the golden goose, and this,
whatever it's worth." He flipped the small bone he'd found in the
crook of an ash tree onto the table. It didn't look like anything
important, but it had been shut in a silver chest, so it must be
worth something.

Dame Margot picked up the bone and laughed, her voice
sounding much nicer since she'd wished herself young and was
again the maiden with flowers in her hair that he'd guessed she'd
originally been. "Oh, this," said the witch maiden. "It's a wiz-
ard's finger bone. Some of the silly old buggers hide their lives
in them, then give them to something else to guard. Usually
dragons or wood nymphs. If we snap it, the wizard will die."

Conrad shrugged his massive shoulders, finally getting used to
the heft of them. "So what do we do with it?"

Margot looked at it. "Oh, we could probably sell it back to the

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wizard it belongs to, but that's more trouble than it's worth. I
know what we do with it." She whistled. "Here, Teacup! Here,
boy! We have a treat for you'"

The dog with eyes as big as teacups bounded forward and sat
down, waggling his tail. "Woof!"

Margot laughed and flipped him the bone, which he caught
and crunched happily. Somewhere, Conrad supposed, a wizard
was having a heart attack.

The golden goose honked and Margot gave it a biscuit broken
up in a bowl of water. It dabbled happily, though it looked rather
strange with the tea cozy firmly attached to its tail. "Golden
goose feathers are sticky things," Margot had said. "Once you
get stuck by their enchantment, the only thing that can loose
them is a laughing princess, and we haven't the time to get one
of those just now."

Conrad went back to counting the coins from the three chests
the dogs had brought. The coppers weren't very valuable, but the
gold and silver were worth a king's ransom.

A knock came at the door. Margot rolled her eyes. "If it's any
lost children, tell them to go away. I've moved. Children are
nothing but trouble."

Conrad nodded, going to the door of the now spacious and
pretty cottage. A terrible waste of a wish, in his opinion, but then
Margot was free to do with her wishes what she wanted-

He opened the door, and while the height was right for a pesky
child, the long white beard and the golden crown were certainly
not. It was a dwarf, and unless Conrad missed his guess, it was
then- King. On his left shoulder sat a squirrel, and on his right,
a mockingbird.

"Who is it?" Margot asked from the table.

Conrad paused. "Urn, I think it's the King of the Dwarves."

"The Rubezahl?" Margot asked. "Oh, by all means, invite him
in. He can help us count the gold."

The Dwarf King's eyes twinkled at the word and he walked in
past Conrad. "Hmph, I was wondering when you were going to
get around to that." He surveyed the cottage as Conrad shut the
door, then looked directly at the chests of gold and the goose.
"My, what a nice haul. I was given to understand that you were
dealing with wood nymph wishes. I didn't realize that they could
do gold now."

Margot smiled. "We had a bit of other good fortune."

The three dogs growled at the Dwarf King, and Margot looked

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at them fiercely. "Millstone! Tower! Teacup! Hush! This is the
Rubezahl...."

The Rubezahl took in the three dogs and then looked to the ta-
ble. "You found the tinderbox? My, this has been a fortunate
week for you. However," he said, sitting down on one of the old
stools, "my associates," he gestured to the squirrel and the mock-
ingbird, "have informed me of the scam you're running. Very
good- Very clever. I must commend you both."
Conrad considered wishing the dwarf, squirrel, and mocking-
bird dead right then and there, but he saw the look that Margot
was giving the Rubezahl and realized that that wasn't really an
option.

The Dwarf King smiled, showing a mouthful of golden teeth.
"Now I have a dozen dwarves, with axes, ready, willing, and
able to run the same scam- However, the wood nymphs would fi-
nally catch on, and that would quickly dry up the market." The
Rubezahl steepled his fingers. Jewels shining on each knuckle.
"It would be far more profitable, in the long run, to continue this
as a solo operation." He rubbed his hands together and the rings
clicked. "May I ask what split you're operating by?"

Conrad exchanged glances with Margot, and she nodded.
"Urn, I get two out of every three wishes, but Margot gets first
pick of the extras. The dnderbox and the goose and the wizard's
finger bone."

The Rubezahl raised his eyebrows. "Finger bone?"

Margot grinned weakly. "I fed it to Teacup."

"Good sense," said the Dwarf King. "Wouldn't want to have
to cut a wizard in on the action, too, and they're no end of trou-
ble, at least the undying ones- Almost as bad as children."

Margot nodded. True."

"Now," said the Dwarf King, "what I'm offering is a three-
way split on the wishes, and an even pick of the extras. I'm also
offering my expert services as appraiser, as well as the use of my
dwarves to insure the secrecy of this operation and guard it
against the addition of any fourth parties or unnecessary compe-
tition. My associates," he gestured to the mockingbird and the
squiirel, "would also like some additional considerations, in ex-
change for their discretion in this matter."

He conferred for a moment with the squirrel and mockingbird,
who chattered and whistled, bobbing their heads up and down.

"Yes," the Rubezahl said. "Yes, of course."

He gestured to the mockingbird. "Hector here would like the

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ability to speak the language of all men and beasts. Would that
be possible?"

Margot struck three sparks from the tinderbox. 'Tower! Go
fetch a dragon's heart' There's got to be one somewhere that
doesn't need his, and there's a nice treat for you when you bring
it back!"

"WOOF!" boomed Tower, blinking his enormous eyes, and
bounded off through the ballroom. On second thought, Conrad
considered, perhaps the expansions to the cottage hadn't been
such a foolish wish after all. They had to have somewhere to
keep the dogs.

Margot turned back to the Rubezahl. "And ... ?"

The Dwarf King stroked the squirrel's tail and conferred
again, then looked back and smiled. "Yes. Prissy here would like
an endless supply of nuts, and protection for the Great Oak in the
center of the Wild Wood."

Margot shrugged. "No trouble with the oak. Everybody knows
there's a wizard locked in the trunk, and as you said, wizards are
almost as much trouble as children. That wood nymph can keep
him and her tree. But as for the nuts ..."

She looked to Conrad and he shrugged. "I don't know. I've
never heard of an endless supply of nuts, unless we're talking
about the royal family." He paused. "Maybe the King's gra-
nary?"

"Possible," said Margot. "We could always use a wish for it.
We have enough. Though it seems an awful waste...."

The squirrel chattered, evidently having a difference of opin-
ion.

The Rubezahl waved one hand regally, dismissing the objec-
tion, and showed his golden teeth. "I wouldn't be so eager to use
a wish just yet if I were you. You're aware that a wood nymph's
wishes are cursed, aren't you?"

Witchmaid Margot smiled. "Of course—but only if you have
the wood nymph's ill will. We've been very careful to have
Conrad sweet-talk those sawdust brains, then drop another tree
on them while they're still happy. No troubles."

The Dwarf King steepled his fingers. "Yet—to the best of
your knowledge. Which brings us to an unpleasant bit of busi-
ness, which, as your new partner in this endeavor, I'm now free
to share with you." He paused and looked at the two of them.
"Are you aware that the only certain way to kill a willow tree is
to bum it out at the roots?"

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Conrad and Margot exchanged glances, and Margot raised her
eyebrows. "A willow tree? You went after a willow?"

Conrad shrugged and the chair creaked beneath him. "Wareen
the Willow. A real bitch. She wanted to pay me only one wish
a hit, but I took 'em all anyway and dropped all three oaks on
top of her. I've heard of willows walking, but there's no way she
walked away from that."

The Dwarf King grimaced. "Well, she may not have walked,
but Hector spotted a very irate stump crawling through the un-
derbrush. Which, I'm happy to report, is now just so much
willow-wood charcoal." The Rubezahl toyed with his ruby sig-
net. "Be that as it may, that still means that Wareen the Willow
had ample time to curse her wishes, unless you used them very
promptly."

The Dwarf King smiled. "I trust, at least, that you did proper
accounting, and know which wish is which?"

Conrad felt a sinking feeling and looked to Margot. "Did
you ... ?"

She threw up her hands. "What do you expect? I'm a witch,
not a bookkeeper."

"Ahem," said the Rubezahl. "I believe I offered my services
just in time. We'll have to do a very strict accounting to discern
where in the order the cursed wishes lie—assuming, of course,
those are the only ones—then we will need to devise some way
to disarm them so as to get to the good wishes behind them."

"How do we know they go in order?" Conrad asked.

"Because—" the Rubezahl began, then looked to Margot. "Do
wishes go in order?"

'They do with leprechauns. As for wood nymphs, well, I'd
expect - -." She stood up, looking distracted- "Let me go check
my Motif Index."

The Rubezahl smiled. "From the magic peddler?"

"Of course." She sighed, "I'd better put on the kettle. This is
going to be a long night."

"I take mine black," said the Rubezahl and pulled his stool
closer to the table. The squirrel and the mockingbird hopped off
his shoulders to take places on the edge of one of the book-
shelves, and he got out a large ledger, his crown disappearing to
be replaced by a green eyeshade and spectacles.

He sharpened a crow quill and dipped it in an inkwell that ap-
peared just as suddenly. "So, boy, who was your last client, and
what was the last wish you made?"

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Conrad leaned heavily on the table and it creaked beneath his
weight. "Well, the last one was Elena the Elm, this morning."

•Timer'

Conrad tried to scratch his head, but that was sdll hard with all
the muscles in the way. "About an hour after sunrise?"

The Rubezahl scribbled in his ledger, and the golden goose
honked and eyed the cup of tea Margot set before him. "No,
Gee-Gee. Here, have a crumpet." She cmmbled some into the
goose's bowl, then gave the rest to the squirrel and the mocking-
bird and her pet rats and mice.

The Rubezahl picked up his tea and smiled. 'Thank you. Mar-
got." A moment later, a golden mug with a fine head of foam
appeared in Conrad's hand, and the Rubezahl clicked his cup
against it- "Here's to a long and lucrative business association,
boy."

"Conrad," Conrad said.

"Conrad. Good. Let's be informal. You can call me Rube. To
a long and lucrative business association—and to better book-
keeping."

"Uh, sure, Rube." Conrad took a sip and smiled. Good strong
dwarven ale, most likely from the Dwarf King's private reserve.
*To good business and better bookkeeping." He took another
draught.

The goose looked up from her scone and honked several
times.

The Rubezahl put his pen down. "Indeed?"

The goose honked several more times.

Conrad set his beer down. "Does the goose want a piece of the
action, too?"

The Rubezahl inclined his head. "After a fashion. She thinks
we should coo! it with the wood nymph scam and go for the
laughing princess."

Margot flipped through her book. "According to the Motif In-
dex, if we go with the goose, we stand to gain an entire king-
dom—something we can't get with the wood nymph wishes."

"Sounds like a plan."

The dog with the eyes as big as the Round Tower at Copen-
hagen (and Conrad still didn't know where that was) bounded in
and dropped a large heap of steaming meat on the floor next to
them. "COOKIE!" bellowed Tower in place of his usual
"WOOF!"

The mockingbird fluttered down to land on the heap of meat
and took a few pecks from it "Dragon's heart! Really smart!

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Take a part! Then we start!" the mockingbird sang, doing a flip
and landing on the table.

"So that's a dragon's heart?" Conrad asked.

"With a good bit of the dragon still attached, but yes," said the
Rubezahl.

"Well, the mockingbird's got the right idea." Conrad stood up
and got hold of the bloody thing. It came off the floor with a soft
squelch. "Let me go carve this up. Once we can all talk with
each other, we can decide which scam we're going to go with."

"COOKIE!" boomed Tower.

"And," the Rubezahl added dryly, "we should probably go
over exactly what everyone expects to get from this relationship.
I believe I'll start drawing up the contracts."

"COOKIE!" Tower boomed again, louder this time.

"Get one of the dog biscuits while you're at it, Conrad," Mar-
got said. "Actually, get the jar. This is going to be a long night'*

"Got it right!" chimed the mockingbird.

Yes, thought Conrad, it was certainly going to be a long night

A witch, a dwarf, a squirrel, a mockingbird, two mice, two
roads, two rats, a cat, three dogs, and a goose with sticky gold
feathers. And the goat out in the garden, depending on whether
Margot planned on cutting him in as well. What a crew.

"I wish—" Conrad said ... and paused.

No, he wasn't going to wish anything. Things were compli-
cated enough as it was.

ie Triple Death

by Ken St. Andre

Ken St. Andre is an award-winning fantasy game designer
and one of the pioneers in developing these games. His
Tunnels and Trolls (™) was the second such game in the
United States. He works as a librarian for the city of
Phoenix, occasionally writes fiction, and gets by with a lit-
tle help from his friends.

"Light the torches!" called Sir Kay as the red light of sunset
faded from the windows. Serving boys hastened to obey, and as
the wood crackled into flame, a flickering light brightened the
huge hall. An angry mutter of conversation filled the dining
room of Camelot. At the head of the table sal Arthur and Guin-
evere, dressed in their best robes of gold-embroidered wool.
Along the sides of the table sat the foremost knights of the realm
and their ladies, while at the trestles that stretched in aisles
through the large chamber thronged the other members of Pen-
dragon's court, including many lesser knights, squires, church-
men, tradesmen, and their companions. A Welsh bard plucked a
ripple of music from his handheld harp, though it seemed to have
no effect on the impatient crowd. The words "eat" and "when do
we eat" cut through the babble repeatedly. The torchlight picked
out red-gold highlights in Sir Gawaine's mane of unbound hair,
and made the green silk scarf that encircled his throat appear al-
most black. Just after he thumped his pewter drinking cup down
on the sturdy wooden table his stomach rumbled so loudly that
all conversations around him stopped, and the harper twitched
and broke the smallest string of his instrument.

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The Queen leaned over to whisper in Arthur's ear. "Let the
feast begin. Sire!" Her stage whisper carried to every corner of
Ihe room. 'The marvel you desire has been with us all day, CM"
is mat not the sound of the Questing Beast in yon knight's stom-
ach? That should be marvel enough for any Christian monarch!"

More man twenty knights and ladies echoed her plea as SOOB
as the general laughter died down. Gawaine hid his blush by re-
filling his mug from a large chalice of mead, gulping the pooriy
fermented honey liquor. "At least Arthur didn't laugh," Agri-
vaine whispered to Gawaine, showing a rare moment of sympa-
thy.

Though a smile curled the corners of the King*s mouth, he did
not look ready to summon the food. At that moment Gawaine's
belly growled again, not quite so loudly, and many other stom-
achs rumbled in sympathy.

Gawaine set aside his mead cup, and rose to his feet. In a ring-
ing voice he cried out, "Uncle, send for the food, and I shall tell
you and this assembly of a right marvelous adventure that hap-
pened to me before I became a knight!"

"So be it!" said Arthur with a tired smile. He signaled to his
hulking butler.

Cheers and the clanking of cups raised in impromptu toasts to
the king. Sir Gawaine, and the food itself filled the great hall
with noise. A line of scarlet-clad scullions bearing wooden plat-
ters heaped with steaming cuts of venison, boar, and mutton pa-
raded into the room. Two brawny cooks pushed a small cart
carrying a cauldron of bubbling turtle soup toward me center of
the hall, and small page boys offered polished wooden bowls and
spoons to all who wanted them. After placing at least one meat
platter on each table and trestle, the servers returned to the kitch-
ens, only to reappear in a few minutes carrying trays covered
with hot, roasted chickens and ducks. Some of them brought ba-
sins filled with bunches of purple grapes and ripe red apples
which they placed on every table.

Sweet grape juice trickled down Gawaine's cleanshaven chin
as he reached out with his dagger and nabbed a whole roast
chicken from the center of the table, just instants before
Dinadan's blade thwocked into the empty wood. "My apologies,
Din! I did not mean to rob you." Gawaine extended the prize to-
ward the smaller man, but Dinadan waved it off and took another
slightly smaller bird instead. "To the victor . . ." Dinadan
laughed. Gawaine pulled the hen back to his plate, sawed off a
drumstick, and took a huge bite.

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Agrivaine dipped a chunk of hot bread into a puddle of dark
pork gravy, and lifted it like a scepter. "Better than the Christmas
cod feast back in Orkney, eh, brother?" He gloated for a moment
before biting into the sopping loaf.

"Christmas at home," mused Gawaine. He stopped chewing
and his eyes clouded with memory. "Remember the time that
Merlin feasted with us. Thanks, brother, I think I know what tale
can pay for this supper."

An hour later, the feasting slowed. Men groaned happily and
loosened their belts while ladies wiped their lips and discreetly
adjusted their girdles. Sir Dinadan rose on his bandy legs, wiped
the grease from his bushy mustache with his sleeve, lifted his
cup high, and called out a toast, "Drink we now to Sir Gawaine,
the courteous knight, for he has once again saved this court!"

"Keep now your promise. Nephew, and justify this feast with
your tale," commanded the king.

Gawaine arose- hi two steps he passed the bard and deftly
plucked the harp away from him. The minstrel started to protest,
but an exaggerated wink from the knight calmed him without a
word. Gawaine staggered up to the high dais (hours of imbibing
made it slightly difficult to keep his balance) and hammered on
me strings until the hall fell silent. "Hearken, my lords and la-
dies! I shall tell you of my first meeting with Merlin, the great
enchanter, and a marvelous adventure that came of it."

"I was just a lad of twelve summers when Merlin the Prophet
visited our court. He brought with him a break in the snowstorm
that had blown for all the twelve days of Christmas, and for that,
my father decided to honor him with a three-day feast.

"Merlin proved to be a popular guest. Commoners and nobles
crowded round him, offering small gifts and asking his blessing
or advice. The ladies of our court vied with each other to comb
his beard, or bring him morsels from the table. As the day turned
to evening, my father's face darkened with jealousy.

"In his wrath, my father decided to test this famed magician.
He called me forth and presented me to the Wise Man, saying,
"This is Gawaine, my first-bom son. Tell me now how he shall
die, if the future is known to you.'

" 'Lot. this is unseemly,' said Merlin. 'No man should know
me manner nor the time of his dying.'

"My father stood up and glared at his guest 'I am King! My
word is Law! My whim is command! Tell me of Gawaine's

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death!' And he glowered, gray eyebrows and shaggy mane of
hair putting all who saw him in mind of an ancient storm god.

" 'Very well,* Merlin agreed. 'I am your guest, and I should
obey my host, but little joy will you gain from this knowledge.'

" 'Just tell me! Tell us all!' commanded my father.

"Merlin called me to stand before him and placed his hands
atop my head and over my heart. Those hands were warm and
strong with the best-kept fingernails that I had ever seen, all of
a length, unbroken, uncracked, and not caked with dirt beneath
the nail. I felt a tingle that made my neck hairs rise on end, and
then the wizard—he was not an old man at that time—winked at
me with one eye, before turning to face my father and mother at
the head of the board.

" "This boy shall die by falling,' he intoned in a sepulchral
voice that filled the ball.

"Disappointment and dismay twisted my father's harsh fea-
tures. We kings of Orkney are warriors, and doubtless my sire
expected to hear that I would die in battle.

"My mother leaned and whispered something in his ear, and
his countenance brightened. 'Twice more shall I ask this ques-
tion, but for now let the feasting and merriment proceed.' I es-
caped happily to the table in the corner where my brothers and
I took our meals, hoping that Agrivaine, or some other child
would be the king's subject on the morrow, but on the next eve-
ning, when Lot dirtied my face and dressed me in the rags of a
peasant boy, there was nothing I could do but pretend to a churl-
ishness I did not feel.

"Merlin seemed to look right through the grime on my face.
Neither my slouch nor my ragged garments fooled him. Putting
his hand on my head, and staring my father straight in the eye,
he announced, "This boy shall die by hanging!'

" 'Is that so?' asked King Lot, and a gleam of satisfaction
came into his eyes. 'Well, I will watch his fate carefully, and he
won't go by hanging if I have anything to say about it!'

"Once more my father planned to ask his question, and the fi-
nal disguise shamed me. For the third occasion I had to play the
part of a girl—truly a galling experience for a twelve-year-old
boy who thinks he will be a warrior some day. I had a blonde
wig, a scratchy dress, a necklace made of wooden beads from
my mother's store of jewelry. They cut my fingernails and toe-
nails and painted them red. They stained my lips purple with
berry juice, and they padded my hips to make them seem wider.
It took all afternoon to dress and prepare me. My mother made

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me practice walking with a swaying motion. I also had to keep
my eyes discreetly downcast. The ladies really tried to make a
proper damsel of me, but I fear that I disappointed them."
Gawaine paused in his tale to take a drink while laughter rocked
the hall.

"Gawaine!" When Guinevere could speak without laughing
aloud* she went on, "You amaze me! Perhaps you would accept
an honored place among my ladies."

"Nay, ladyl" The words came out vehemently, and the queen
tinkled with laughter again. "Let me remain as I am, your true
knight and defender." The queen nodded her assent

Gawaine bowed slightly and resumed his story. "After three
days of feasting. Merlin seemed to have filled up. To my childish
eye, he looked strong and restless. He didn't even wait for the
question when my father led me forth with some story on his lips
of my being his niece from farther norm."

" 'You are quite a trickster. Lot,' he declared, 'but you don't
fool me. This boy who is trying to act like a girl to make you
happy will die by drowning!'

" 'Ah haw! I may not be a great trickster, but you are not so
clever yourself, magician! This young maid is in reality my son
Gawaine, and indeed it has been him each night when I asked
the question, but you predicted three different deaths for him.
You are a fraud. Merlin, and a charlatan who cannot remember
his own predictions from one night to the next!'

"Merlin rose to confront my father, and the two men now
stood chin to chin and eye to eye like two dogs about to attack
each other. 'You set a fine table. Lot, and I thank you for the
meat and drink, but your hospitality leaves much to be desired by
way of courtesy. Indeed, I knew it was young Gawaine each time
you asked your question, but I spoke the truth—he shall indeed
die by falling and by hanging and by drowning!'

" 'Never!' howled my father. 'My son Gawaine shall grow to
be a great warrior like his father—'

" 'Greater,' Merlin said in a voice so low that only I heard
him.

" '—the greatest in the land—'

" 'Perhaps," whispered the wizard. He took my hand and
gazed deeply into my eyes- 'Fear nothing and you shall be a
hero, Gawaine.' His words seemed to be aimed for my ears
alone, and no one else took any heed of them. '—and when he
dies, it shall be a sword that brings him down!'

" "That, too,' muttered the wizard.

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" 'Fake! Fraud! Your prophecies are all lies and trickery. To-
morrow you must leave my dun and never return on penalty of
death!' declared my father sternly.
" 'Why wait?' Merlin said. 'I will take my leave now, but you
Gawaine shall see me again when you least expect it!' He then
cried a word of power, and the hearthfires began to smoke so
much that the whole hall soon rilled with mists and vapors. We
all ran out into the snow to escape choking to death, but Merlin
never came out. Nor was he inside when the hall cleared. He
vanished, simply disappeared, which really puzzled my royal
sire. He felt that somehow he had been made to look like a fool,
and he always hated the wizard for showing him up.

"In fact, Sire," Gawaine addressed King Arthur directly at this
point, "my father took the field against you when you were
newly crowned more because that you were Merlin's protege,
than from any desire to be High King himself." Arthur, who had
been smiling and laughing as heartily as anyone, grew sad.
"Would that Merlin still graced this company!" he exclaimed. "I
could use his wise council in these troubled times."

"Nay, my heart," answered the Queen, "you are better off
without the old devilspawn. Surely the priests of Holy Church
would not support you so staunchly if you trafficked with a black

magician like Merlin."

"Truly, Nephew, that was a strange feasting that you de-
scribed, yet I think it does not yet justify our meal this evening,"
said Arthur.

"Wait, Sire, it gets better," Gawaine assured him. "The true
adventure and marvel is yet to be told. I need but a moment to
slake my thirst with another flagon of mead before I move on to
part two of this tale." A serving knave quickly refilled Gawaine's
cup and he downed it in one long gurgle. Setting down the
empty vessel, and speaking with a bit of a slur, Gawaine picked
up the thread of his story.

"In the years that followed, I forgot about Merlin's strange
prophecy. I grew from a gangly youth to a young warrior nearly
as large and strong as I am now.

"On Midsummer Day of my seventeenth year, I rode out hunt-
ing with only a pair of dogs and a single servant to accompany
me. I rode beneath ancient oaks covered with mistletoe, and
among thickets of furze and blackberries, up hill and down,
searching for game. Armed with sword and boarspear, I thought
myself a match for any beast I might encounter.

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"Deep in the forest, I met an old hermit, and stopped to speak
with him for a moment

" "lum back, young sir,* he croaked at me. 'Death haunts this
forest today.' His eyes sparkled strangely as he warned me. and
I fancied that I knew him, though I had never seen him before."

"A ragged old hermit," muttered Arthur. "Yes, he liked that
disguise."

"As I rode into the shade of a king among oak trees, a cold
breeze from nowhere riffled my hair and cloak, and for a mo-
ment it seemed that day was night—everything around me faded
to stark black and white images, and I nearly fell off my steed
with sudden dizziness. Then, as quickly as the strangeness had
come upon me, it vanished, and I recovered myself to find the
dogs leaping and barking at something in the bushes in front of
me.

"A sort of grunting came from the impenetrable foliage. I
thought my hounds had found a wild boar. To bring back such
game while hunting alone—my servant had fallen so far behind
that I no longer knew his whereabouts—would be a great honor.
I lowered the spear and charged blindly at the source of the
grunting noises, though I could not see anything but leaping dogs
and thrashing greenery.

"My spear penetrated the foliage and struck something—
something not much softer than rock or wood. So great was the
resistance that the spear shaft bent like a bow and snapped with
a deafening crack.

"Then, a hairy thing, an Ogre, a Monster, surged out of the
bushes and attacked my dogs. It was certainly not a wild boar or
pig of any kind, and it did not seem to be a bear.

'Ten feet tall, manlike in shape, it had long arms that dangled
down past its knees. The face, wrinkled and snouted, had four
great tusks that projected out of its maw like four bony daggers-
The creature had a large flat nose, scarcely more than two snort-
ing holes. Small red eyes glittered beneath a beetling brow. In
one hand it carried a heavy stick which it flailed about. I could
see talons a good two or three inches in length on both hands. It
bellowed in pain and anger, and as I watched in horror, it tore
my spearhead out of its flank. It was the most appalling Thing
that I had ever seen.

"I reached for my sword, pulling it out, not because I thought
I could fight the monster with it, but just for the comfort of hav-
ing it in my hand. At that moment, the club hit one of my dogs.
The sickening crunch of smashed bones and one high-pitched

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yipe of pain filled my ears, and the dead animal flew more than
fifty feet through the air before crashing to earth.

"The other dog, quite sensibly, tucked its tail under, and ran
away.

"My horse reared away from the monster, nearly unseating
me, but I tightened my grip with my knees and kept in the sad-
dle. I started to swing at the creature with my sword, but a side-
ways lurch of my mount left me striking at empty air and
clutching desperately at the mane to keep from falling.

"Then (he world spun around me. The horse's forelegs came
down with a thump that rattled my teeth, and it bolted madly
through the forest. I could no more control it than an infant could
control its father. All I could do was lean low along its neck
while branches and leaves beat at me, and try to hang on."
Gawaine paused from his storytelling and looked at his audi-
ence, They leaned toward him eagerly. Guinevere breathed in
short gasps and so did many in the crowd. Several knights held
their daggers in a swordsman's grip, and glared around fiercely.

"Go on. Nephew!" cried Arthur. "This is no time to stop for
a drink of mead!"

"Tell on! Do not stop!" yelled Dinadan. Many voices echoed
his requests. Gawaine smiled and bowed and continued his tale.

"It takes a long time to tell all this, and it seemed like a long
time while it was happening, but you realize that everything oc-
curred in the space of a few seconds.

"I hadn't ridden very far when a heavy tree bough swept me
from my saddle and dropped me in a furze bush. Hundreds of
thorny needles jabbed through my clothing and drew points of
blood. Half dazed, I pulled myself from the prickly shrub.

"A hideous bellow from the Beast cleared my head. I strug-
gled to my feet and I saw the creature loping toward me on two
bowed legs and one arm whose knuckles met the ground with
every stride. It held its club poised to strike, and I barely man-
aged to parry it to the side with my sword, which was miracu-
lously still in my right hand.

"Then followed one of the greatest fights of my life. At first
I could only parry, sidestep, duck and dodge. It drove me back
and back. Once a glancing blow from its free hand numbed my
left shoulder and hurled me ten feet to bounce off a lichen-
covered boulder.

"There was never a chance to break and run, and in the mad-
ness of the moment, I never considered it. My ears rang like
church bells; my vision blurred into a red haze; my knees wob-

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bled and shook; yet still I rolled and dodged, and occasionally
struck out at it with my sword. Once I connected with its club
arm—my blow severed its thumb and scraped along the bone,
leaving a bloody wound and disarming it at the same time.

"Still it kept flailing and striking at me. Still I dodged back-
ward, backward, ever backward. Sometimes I hit trees and slid to
me side. Sometimes I tripped over roots and fell. Whenever I
could, I struck at the thing with my sword, and I began to hit it
on every third or fourth blow. It was more like chopping wood
man hitting a fleshly thing. Its coarse hairs seemed like steel
wires, often turning my blow before it could penetrate—its rock-
like flesh opened in only minor cuts whenever a sword blow
landed.

"I slipped around the last tree, staggering, barely able to stay
on my feet, sword dragging the earth in front of me. Dimly I re-
alized mat I was in a high place as the cold wind tore at my
wounds. With a bestial growl, the creature rushed me. This time
I could not dodge, and iron-hard claws sank into my shoulder
and thigh. The thing grabbed me, lifted me off my feet, and
pulled me toward its slavering mouth.

"When it lifted me, I summoned the last remnant of strength
and will in my being, and brought my brand up in a disembow-
eling thrust that took the creature squarely in the groin. It was
like striking wood, but I pushed harder, pushed till the blood
burst from my nose and my ears, pushed until I felt the blade
break through all resistance and totally gut this Thing. Its growl
of triumph turned into a high-pitched squeal of mortal agony, and
instead of biting out my throat, it suddenly went into a spasm,
and threw me into the air away from it.

"I sailed up into the sky like a hurled pebble. I knew that I had
given it a mortal wound, and despite all my pain, I laughed with
exultation as I hurtled through the air—right over the cliff!

"And then I fell. Head downward, I hurtled into eternity. Far
below I could see trees and rocks and water, and I knew that I
could never survive this fall. The hairy thing had killed me after
all—killed me by falling.

"It seemed that time slowed to a crawl, and my whole life
flashed before my eyes. I remembered my birth—mostly sensa-
tions, going from warmth and comfort, through squeezing, and
gasping into a world of bright and dark and pain and cold- Then
I remembered the feel of hot sand on bare feet, and the coolness
of ocean waves splashing onto my legs as I ran down the beach
with other children. I remembered bouncing on my father's knee,

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and his gigantic laughter as he spun me madly through the sky,
and I remembered how he told me stories of the battles he had
fought, and what it meant to be a warrior. I remembered my first
dagger, and my first animal kill—a chicken that was too slow to
escape my thrown rocks, a chicken with a broken leg that my fa-
ther insisted 1 must finish killing because a warrior finishes what
he begins. I remembered a thousand things, and I relived each
event in all its sensations, and finally I remembered Merlin's
feast of five years earlier, and how he had prophecied that I
would die from falling.

"And, I think I laughed, because Merlin had been wrong after
all. It wasn't falling that killed a person, but stopping at the end
of that fall. It seemed to me that Life itself was a fall, and Death
comes when we run out of space to fall through and hit the
ground.

"I had closed my eyes while the memories ran by, but I opened
them again and saw I was about to hit the treetops, I barely had
time to wrap my arms around my head before I crashed through
the upper branches of a great hawthorn tree.

"Then something stopped me abruptly. My booted left foot
caught in a fork in a branch and it held and stopped my fall. A
pain greater than any I had ever known shot down my leg into
my spine, past my heart and shoulders, and exploded through the
top of my head. Blackness smothered all my senses and I became
nothing but a line of pain existing in a void.

"The chill of water on my face awakened me. I knew that I
was hanging upside down in a tree by one foot, like a carcass
hung up and left to drain. So this was the death by hanging, but
again Merlin seemed to be wrong, because I hurt too much to be
dead.

"It occurred to me then that Life was like death by hanging.
We are all suspended between beginnings and endings, and much
of our life is spent just hanging in one place, waiting for some-
thing to happen.

"Then the water forced itself up my nose and into my mouth.
I realized that the tree had caught me just before I fell into a
stream. I had been holding my breath (or not breathing), but now
the insistent water forced its way inside, and my lungs began to
fill. Distantly I felt my body shudder and cough, but I had no
strength left to pull out of the stream. My consciousness began
to eddy away at the edges just like the water flowing past me and
through me.

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"My last thought was that Life is like drowning, because ...
but all thought and sensation fled before I could finish that idea."

Gawaine returned to his place at the table, handing the harp
back to its owner as he passed, then sat down and sighed like a
whickering horse. "Well, Sire, Lords and Ladies, that is my tale.
I hope it is good enough to earn the feast we have all just fin-
ished."

"Whew!" gasped Arthur, releasing his pent-in breath explo-
sively, not realizing until then that he had forgotten to breathe
during the end of Gawaine's tale.

"But, Gawaine, that can't be the end," cried Guinevere. "What
happened next?"

"I died, of course," said Gawaine with a sheepish grin. "I died
by falling, hanging, and drowning, just as Merlin had said I
would."

Everyone in the great hall of Camelot sat in stunned silence
for a moment; then Sir Dinadan began to chuckle, a chuckle that
grew stronger and stronger until it was a full-throated belly
laugh. Sir Lancelot picked it up, and then Sir Tristram and then
Arthur himself, and- a wave of laughter swept through the great
hall until finally everyone whooped and gasped with hysterical
glee.

After a good two minutes the laughter died down to mere gig-
gles and chuckles. "A great story. Nephew," said Arthur. "You
have outdone yourself this time. Yes, indeed, you have justified
our feast!" Arthur beckoned to the musician. "Come, bard, give
us a tune."

"Wait!" cried Guinevere. "That can't be right! You don't look
dead! You don't feel dead! How could you have died? How
could you?"

Everyone looked at Gawaine. "I didn't stay dead," he ex-
plained, grinning hugely, "but that's another story, one I think I'll
save for next Easter in case we have another such wait for our
feast."

Out or me ^ooas

by Lawrence Watt Evans

Lawrence Watt Evans is the author of some two dozen nov-
els and four score short stories in the fields of fantasy, sci-
ence fiction, and horror. His best-known work is The
Misenchanted Sword, and his latest is In the Empire of
Shadow, the second volume of the Three Worlds trilogy. He
lives in the Maryland suburbs of Washington with his wife,
two kids, two cats, and a parakeet named Robin.

Jenny slammed on the brakes and prayed the car would stop in
time. The man who had stumbled onto the road in front of her
showed no sign of moving out of the way, he was just standing
there.

The tires squealed, and the car slewed sideways and came to
a stop—and the man wasn't there- Jenny kept her hands locked
on the steering wheel as she turned her head and stared out the
passenger-side window.

She saw only empty road, huge dark trees, and drifting wisps
of mist.

Had she imagined it? These English roads were narrow and
winding and made her nervous, and the thick surrounding woods
were spooky, but she hadn't thought she was far enough gone to
be hallucinating.

Getting out of London for at least a few days of her month in
Britain had seemed like a good idea, but right now she wasn't at
all sure it hadn't been a major mistake.

The rental car had stalled, and Jenny decided against trying to
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out. pocketing the key. She looked around. There was forest on
either side, with the empty road curving out of sight in either di-
rection.
And then a muddy shape rose up out of the roadside ditch, not
a dozen feet away. She almost screamed, but at the last moment
managed to turn it into a gasp. It was the man, the man she had
almost run down—he must have flung himself into the ditch atthe 
last instant.

"Are you all right?" she called once she'd caught her breath.

"Aye," he said.

Jenny grimaced. Only in rural Britain would anyone who
spoke English say "aye" instead of "yeah."

"I'm sorry I didn't see you sooner," she said. "Do you need a
lift somewhere?" The rental car company wouldn't like it if she
got their upholstery all muddy, but she was paying enough that
they could afford to clean it, and she had almost run the fellow
down—a lift seemed like the least she could do.

"How do you say, lady?" the man replied—or at least, that
was her best guess at his words. It might almost have been "lad"
instead of "lady," but she gave him the benefit of the doubt.

His accent was one she'd never heard before—British, cer-
tainly, but an unfamiliar variant; she couldn't even be sure it was
English. For all she knew, it was Welsh, or Scottish, or even
Australian or South African.

And apparently her American accent was giving him a little
trouble, too.

"Do you want a ride?" she said, speaking slowly and loudly
and, she hoped, clearly.

The man eyed the rental car, then looked Jenny over. "Aye,"
he said at last. "And my thanks to you, lady."

This time it was definitely "lady."

"Get in, then," she said. She climbed in on the driver's side—
the right, that is, a fact she still wasn't entirely used to.

The man approached the passenger side hesitantly and stood,
looking down at the door. Impatiently, Jenny leaned over and
opened it for him. He made an odd little noise that she took for
a sign of relief, then carefully climbed into the car and settled on
the seat.

Jenny looked at him, puzzled; she hadn't really noticed when
she first saw him in the road, or standing in the ditch covered
with mud, but he was dressed oddly—his pants were more like
baggy tights, with crude garters just above the knees, and he
wore a sort of tunic instead of a shirt. His hair was unfashionably

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long, but he was clean-shaven—or rather, he had no beard; he
was a few days past clean-shaven.

The overall effect was vaguely medieval.

"Are you an actor?" she asked. "Is there some local festival or
something?"

"Nay," he said, "I'm no player, but an honest workman."

She started the engine, and he started at the sound.

"Where are you headed?" she asked.

"Eh?"

"Where should I drop you?"

He simply looked baffled, and she gave up. She would just
drop him at the first pub she came to and let the locals deal with
him. She put the car in gear.

He grabbed at his seat—he hadn't put on his seatbelt, she saw.

She drove slowly and carefully. The fog still lingered, and
night was falling, and one scare on these roads was quite enough-

Besides, she wanted to be able to stop quickly and jump out
if the man started to act even weirder. Now that she was over her
initial concern about sending him into the ditch, she was having
second thoughts about giving him a ride at all. Back home in the
States she wouldn't have picked up a stranger, so why should she
here? Sure, England had less violent crime, but there were still
nuts here and there.

Maybe if she talked to him, he'd reassure her—or maybe
she'd know he was a dangerous loonie.

"So what were you doing in the woods?" she asked.

He hesitated, then said, "Feasting with Queen Mab."

Jenny had trouble at first understanding what he said, but the
words did eventually register.

He was a loonie, she realized, though not necessarily a danger-
ous one. She wished she hadn't offered him a ride.

"Oh?" she said-

"Aye. I'd followed a fairy light, and found myself at the
Queen's table, whereupon I was bid join the feast, which I did
with a will. I passed many a long year there in pleasant company,
and but today did I at last depart,"

"Oh," Jenny said.

For a moment they drove on in silence; then Jenny asked, just
to break that silence, "You said years ?'

"Aye, I'd say so," the man said. "Surely, years it must have
been, for the world to have changed as it has—your garb, your
speech, and this carriage are all strange to me."

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nonsensical as it sounded. "Just when did you follow the fairy
into the forest?" she asked, and immediately wished she
hadn't—it sounded so stupid.

" 'Twas May Eve, in the Year of Our Lord fifteen hundred and
ninety-five."

For a moment Jenny didn't respond.

"That was four hundred years ago," she said eventually.

"Four hundred, you say?" The man's eyes widened in wonder.
"Zounds, so long as that?"

"Yeah," Jenny said.

They were nearing a village—not much of one, but she
thought it would do to get rid of her passenger. She slowed still
further and began looking for a sign that would indicate a pub or
inn.

"You doubt me," the man said. "Perchance you think me mad.
No wonder on it, I'd think the same were I you."

That was the most reassuring thing he'd said yet; she threw
him a quick glance.

"What's your name?" she asked.

"William Tinker."

"I'm Jenny Gifford. Look, is there anywhere in particular I
can drop you? Anyone who'd know what to do with you? Do
you have any money or anything?"

"I've no coin, nay. As for one who'd know to aid me—a
priest, perhaps, who knows the ways of fairies?"

"I don't think modem priests know much about fairies," Jenny
said, though she admitted to herself that British priests might
well know more than the American ones she'd met.

William Tinker hesitated, then ventured, very cautiously, "A
witch, perhaps? I'm a good Christian, and would not consort
with such, but ..."

"A witch." Jenny grimaced. A psychiatrist would probably be
better.

But then she spotted the pub on the corner and pulled over to
the curb.

"Here," she said. "Go in there and ask if they know of a
witch. Tell them you've been visiting faines in the wood for four
hundred years."

That was perhaps a bit cruel. They'd mock him, most likely,
But then they'd probably send him to the National Health, and
get him taken care of.

Tinker looked at the signboard, then pushed at the car door; it
didn't open, and he looked helplessly for a handle or latch.

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Jenny leaned over and opened the door for him.

He got out carefully, then bobbed to her in something that was
almost, but not quite, a bow. "My thanks to you, good lady."

She felt guilty about dumping the poor loonie like this, and
she was momentarily tempted to park the car and go into the pub
with him, to make sure things didn't get rough—but it wasn't her
problem, and she wasn't a native here.

He'd be all right. This was a peaceful English village, not a
bar in Detroit or L.A.—or even London.

And it just wasn't her problem.

She took her foot off the brake and pulled away.

Three days later, in her hotel room in Bayswater, she had the
TV news on as background while she wrote a letter to her par-
ents back in Cleveland. Something startled her, made her look
up, though it took a second to realize what she had heard.

William Tinker, that was it—someone on the TV had said the
name William Tinker.

And there he was, the same man she had picked up on that
lonely road, with a woman on either side—an overweight matron
on his left, a thinner, younger woman on his right, both in long
dresses and wearing necklaces.

Tinker himself was dressed in modem clothing now—a simple
shirt and slacks—but it was unmistakably the same man. His hair
was still long, but looked considerably cleaner now.

"... naturally, so-called modem scientists are dismissing his
story without even bothering to investigate," the older woman
was saying, "but some of us recognize the possibility of won-
ders."

The camera cut to a blond host in a tweed jacket. "Then you
believe that Mr. Tinker really has spent the last four hundred
years at a faerie feast?"

Back to the woman.

"No, not literally—but we believe something extraordinary has
happened in that forest. It may be that Mr. Tinker was affected
by forces in the wood that reverted him to a past life, and that
he was really only in there for hours and simply swapped iden-
tities, or it may be that he really did enter in 1595 and was some-
j,   how transported to our own time—my compatriots and I favor
^    this latter explanation, since it would account for his clothing,
and the fact that no one fitting his description has been reported
missing."

'{      "And you consider this more likely than an attempt at fraud,
^    or a simple delusion?"

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"Oh, very much so," the woman said. "What would be the
point of such a fraud? And we have medical reports that will at-
test that Mr. Tinker appears quite sane, other than his belief that
he spent four centuries in that forest. Furthermore, his teeth show
no sign of modem dentistry, and the doctors say he's never been
immunized against anything, or received any of the other lasting
benefits of the National Health. He doesn't appear to have ever
seen a doctor before. We've asked linguists from Balliol College
at Oxford to tell us whether his speech is authentically Elizabe-
than, and so far, while we haven't heard their final opinion, none
have found any specific inaccuracies."

"And have any historians questioned Mr. Tinker?"

"Not yet," the woman conceded. "After all, he only emerged
from the wood three days ago."

"So you believe that in fact, Mr. Tinker is from the sixteenth
century?"

"Yes, I do."

"Mr. Tinker, do you have anything to add to that?"

Jenny stared as Tinker said, in that strange accent of his, "I do
truly believe that I am William Tinker, born in the Year of Our
Lord fifteen hundred and sixty-seven, and that I came upon
Queen Mab's table in the forest on the last day of April in fifteen
hundred and ninety-five—but if you say I am mad, I'll not de-
bate. I think I am not, and yet to pass four centuries with the
Good Folk and not age a day is surely a great wonder; were it
proven me that 'twas all a dream, that would be no greater mar-
vel. In truth, I wonder whether all I see about me, this world of
a twentieth century, is not but a dream."

"Mr. Tinker, you seem to be in remarkably good health for a
man more than four hundred years old," the host said, with just
a slight sardonic edge to his voice.

"Aye," Tinker said. " 'Tis the magic of the wood, beyond
question."

Jenny sat and watched as Tinker and his two companions—
presumably the village witches from that town where she'd aban-
doned him—held their own against the host's growing sarcasm-

The younger witch hardly said anything, but the older argued
at length for the existence of powers beyond modem under-
standing—not fairies, but spirits or powers that gave rise to tales
of fairies, or if even that seemed too mystical, she was willing to
consider them as energy fields created by the living things of the
earth.

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Was it so utterly impossible that someone could become
caught in such an energy field?

"And these fields," the host asked, "preserved our Mr. Tinker
for some four centimes? Would this sort of thing be responsible
for the legends of the Fountain of Youth, then?"

"It very well might," the elder witch declared.

Meanwhile, Tinker himself seemed to be growing ever more
uncomfortable, caught in the middle of this debate, and when at
last the host announced that time had run out, poor Tinker was
visibly relieved.

Jenny turned off the set and sat on the hotel bed, staring at the
blank screen for several minutes.

Maybe, she thought, he wasn't a loonie.

After that she began to watch the news regularly- She saw the
reports from the experts, proclaiming Tinker to be either genuine
or the best fake ever—neither linguist nor historian nor physician
could find anything to contradict his claimed origin.

The real bombshell was when his clothes were carbon-dated
and proclaimed authentic late-sixteenth-century.

It was after that that reports of would-be explorers getting out
of hand at me forest began. Curiosity seekers had gone poking
about there ever since Tinker's first television appearance, but
now entire mobs were sweeping through the woods, searching
for "Queen Mab's table." The authorities were dismayed, to say
the least.

It was a relief to Jenny when the forest was closed to the pub-
lic; she hated the thought of all those people trampling through
the underbrush, scattering candy wrappers and beer cans on the
moss.

She watched the televised reports with a sort of dreadful fas-
cination- Picketers were protesting the government's decision to
restrict access. There was talk of secret conspiracies to keep the
"fountain of youth" energy for the government elite.

And there were a few reports coming in, not very reliable
ones, of people disappearing into the forest and not coming back
out—presumably, they'd found the fairies.

She spent hours on end in her hotel, watching—she knew it
was stupid, a waste of her remaining vacation time, that she
should be out enjoying London—-but she couldn't tear herself
away.

She was staring unhappily at yet another interview when
someone knocked on the door of her room.

Startled, she opened the door.

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There were three men standing there. One of them held a mi-
crophone, another a video camera.

The third, somewhat disguised by a woolen cap and sun-
glasses, was William Tinker.

"Ms. Gifford?" the man with the microphone asked.

"Yes," she said, puzzled. "What's going on?"

"We understand that it was you who first found Bill Tinker
after he emerged from the enchanted forest," the man with the
microphone said. Jenny recognized him now; he was a newsman,
but she couldn't think of his name.

She glanced at Tinker, who looked apologetic.

"I wished to speak with you," he said, "and I knew not
how you might be found. I agreed that I would give your name,
that you might be interviewed, if I might accompany them and
speak to you in private."

His accent wasn't quite so distinctive any more—he was be-
ginning to adjust to his new surroundings, she supposed.

"I don't want to be interviewed," she said. "I'm not part of
this."

'Then you weren't the one who found him?" the newscaster
asked.

"Oh, sure I was," she admitted. "I almost ran him down, so I
gave him a lift into town, that's all."

"And did he tell you he was four hundred years old?"

She glanced at Tinker uncomfortably. "He said he'd been in
the forest since 1595," she said.

"And did you believe him?"

"No. I thought he was nuts. But he seemed harmless."

"But didn't you tell him, when you dropped him at the Plow,
to ask where he could find a witch?*'

"I said something like that," Jenny admitted, embarrassed. "I
didn't think he'd want to see a doctor. Listen, I haven't agreed toan 
interview, and I'm not going to—not until I've talked to Mr.
Tinker in private.**

It took some further argument, but eventually Jenny was able
to close the door of her hotel room with Tinker and herself on
the inside, the newscaster and cameraman outside.

"Now, why did you want to find me?" she demanded.

"Softly, pray," Tinker said, holding up a hand. "Your pardon,
I pray you. Mistress Gifford.

She glowered at him.

"Prithee, lady, I come to you most humbly to ask a service—

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will you even hear me, or have I angered you by bringing with
me these relentless hounds with their cameras?"

He pronounced "camera" in very nearly the modern fashion,
she noticed—it was presumably a new word for him.

"What kind of a service?" she asked quietly.

"Lady, I beg you," he said, "though I be an Englishman bom
and bred, and loyal to my Queen, whiche'er Elizabeth it may
be—can you take me with you to America? I must escape my
own land!"

She stared at him.
"Why?" she asked.

"Need you ask?" he said, gesturing at the closed door. "In
mine own land I shall have no peace, 'tis plain."

"Can't you just hide somewhere?"

"Where? This land is so changed I know naught of it."

"You know that forest," she said, a trifle bitterly. "Can't you
go back there, to Queen Mab's table, if you can't take the mod-
em world?"

His hands flew up in an odd gesture, then he hushed her and
glanced at the door again.

"They'd have that of me," he said. "They'd have me lead
them thither, with their cameras and mikers and all."

"Well, why not?" Jenny demanded-

He stared at her, chewing his lower lip, and she stared angrily
back.

"You'd have the truth?" he asked.

"Of course!"

"All the truth, then?"

She blinked. "Yes," she said, a bit less certainly.

"In truth, then—there is no Queen Mab in the forest, no Little
Folk."

"What is there, then? What about the people disappearing in
there? Is this all a hoax?" Jenny tried not to let her fury
show—he was a fake!

"Nay, nay! I am all I say, trapped four centuries in the wood,
and 1 swear it in God's name. But 'twas no fairies that held me,
but a demon, a spirit sprung from the wood itself."

"Go on," she said.

" 'Tis plain enough. I was held there 'gainst my will," he said.
"I'd followed a fairy light, as I thought it, though now I know
'twas but a lure, and then was I caught and held by the spirit
within the wood."

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"Why?" she demanded. "What did it want you for?" A
thought struck her. "And is it still there?"

"Oh, 'tis yet there, verily. And it hungers, I doubt me not."

"Hungers?" she almost screamed. "What about all those peo-
ple going in there looking for your fairy queen?"

"I fear mat some of them will ne'er emerge," he said, shame-
faced. "Oh, 'tis sinful of me, and a disgrace I do not bear
easily—but if you only knew...."

"So tell me."

He sighed. "I was not alone when it lured me in," he said.
"Else I'd not have been such a fool as to follow. I was with a
dozen of my townsmen, gathering wood for a May Day blaze,
when we saw the light before us. Kit saw it erst, and called out,
and old Stephen warned him to let it go, but Kit laughed. 'What
have we to fear, then,' he asked, 'when we are twelve stout En-
glishmen?* And in our folly we gave chase, into the forest
depths—and mere our paths turned back upon us so that we trav-
eled ever in circles, trapped therein. And a voice spoke to us that
bade us calm ourselves, calm and rest, and at last we did—we
lay ourselves down and in our exhaustion we slept.

"And when we awoke, our Christopher was naught but
bones.

"We shouted, we fought among ourselves, we attempted flight,
but it did no good. We saw the sunlight wane, then reappear,
over and over, for time had become strange to us.

"And at last we slept again, and when we awoke old Stephen
was as Christopher, nothing but bone.

"And so it went, and we perished, each in our turn, until only
i survived, and I knew what my fate was to be when next I slept,
and in my despair I fell down upon my knees and cried out to
whatever had trapped us, whatever had spoken that first day, and
I begged for my life, I bargained, I offered whatever I could if
only it would free me, spare my life and let me go."

"And it did?" Jenny asked.

Tinker nodded. "Aye," he said, "but erst it spoke to me again,
and told me that it would trade my life for seven others—if I
swore, by God and the Virgin, to bring it seven other lives, then
I could go free. May God forgive me, lady, I did so swear—and
but moments later I was on the high road, where you found
me."

"And you sent it seven people?"

"I know not how many I sent it!" he wailed.

Jenny stared at him.

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"Look you, lady," he said, "I bethought me that if I spoke of
Queen Mab in the village, and said fairy treasure was to be had
in the wood, then a few hardy souls would venture forth, and I'd
be quit, and at little cost to my conscience, for they'd take the
risk upon themselves, would they not? And I'd put that village
behind me and ne'er set foot there again, and 'twould be an end
on it." He gestured helplessly. "How was I to know of television,
or motorcars, or tour buses? To send hundreds thither, at risk of
their lives, was ne'er my intent, and now all England is cursed
of me—my face blazoned on paper at every Corner, and on the
telly glass in every home! Take me to America, I beg you. Let
me put this behind me!"

She stared at his pleading eyes for a moment.

"We have television in America, too," she said at last. "You'd
be news there, too."

His expression collapsed into despair.

"And you have to do something to stop them," she said, struck
with sudden horrific realization. "All those people going into
that forest... I bet they're still sneaking in, even though it's of-
ficially closed. My God, / was tempted to take a look!"

"What can I do?" He spread his hands hopelessly. "A tale
once spun has a life of its own."

"That's true," she said thoughtfully.

"And if I speak the truth now, they'll stretch my neck ere
mom, for betraying all those fools to their doom."

England wasn't known for lynchings, but this was a special
case. "That might be true, too," she said. She considered care-
fully.

She wondered, for a moment, why she didn't just throw Tinker
to the wolves. After all, he had betrayed all those innocents. By
his own admission, he had meant to send seven strangers to their
deaths—but then, he had seen his own companions killed horri-
bly one by one and known he was next....

He'd done wrong, but he knew it, he wanted to make what
amends he could. What good would it do to destroy him?

But they couldn't let more people feed the thing in the
forest—whatever it was. Jenny didn't believe in demons or fair-
ies, but there must be something in there.

And then she saw the way out. If one lie had lured people in.
maybe another could turn them back.

"Listen," she said, "you're going to go on TV again—on
television—and tell everyone that Queen Mab's angry about all
these intrusions on her privacy. Remind everyone that fairies are

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dangerous. That's something we tend to forget nowadays. Re-
mind them that fairies steal human souls. That should discourage
most people—and anyone who goes in anyway, it's his prob-
lem."

"Aye," Tinker agreed reluctantly, after a moment's thought.
"That should serve, I warrant. But am I to spend my life in tele-
vision?"

"Oh, no," Jenny said confidently. "Don't worry. You're just a
fad. It'll all be over in a few weeks, and you can settle down
somewhere—I bet there are colleges that would hire you for their
history departments. You must know the sixteenth century better
than anyone else alive."

"Aye, perhaps," he said. "You'll accompany me, then, to the
television?"

She hesitated, but then said, "Sure." She gestured. "Go
ahead and open the door, and we'll tell your camera crew the
news."

Jenny insisted they do their interview right there. The first few
questions were harmless, asking about how she happened to pick
Tinker up.

But then the newscaster asked, "Do you believe there are fair-
ies in the wood?"

She glanced at Tinker, there beside her.

"Oh, yes," she said, "and in fact, I believe I've heard their
voices."

Startled, the newsman asked, "Oh?"

"When I picked Bill up on that road. Maybe he didn't hear
them, but I did—they were saying they wanted to be left alone,
that he'd abused their hospitality long enough and that any other
humans who bothered them would regret it."

She glanced at Tinker, who smiled gratefully at her.

"Indeed, I heard something," he said. "I'd not caught the
words, though...."

And together, they blithely made up a whole network of lies.

The broadcast went well—and for the rest of her stay in En-
gland, Jenny Gifford found herself something of a celebrity. She
spent a good bit of time in Tinker's company, helping him adjust
to modem life—an adjustment he made with amazing speed.

And she was only slightly jealous when he bedded that young
witch, rather than herself—but really, she told herself, he was a
bit old for her, wasn't he?

She giggled at the thought.

By the time she returned to the States, Tinker's moment of

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fame was already passing, and her own with it. Within a week of
her arrival home, the whole thing seemed like a dream.

But for the rest of her life, she still shuddered whenever she
passed thick woods.

SPEAKING WODS

The view from the branches

Viridescence

by Connie Hirsck

Connie Hirsch got the idea/or "Viridescence" when she
visited Muir Woods and discovered the extraordinary way
in which the Sequoias altered their environment to promotetheir 
own well-being. When not writing, Connie makes da-
tabases sit up and do tricks, reads a lot, plots expeditions
to interesting places, and frets about not writing.

"Colorless green thoughts sleep furiously."
—Noam Chomsky

We must have had a beginning; our seed must have sprouted in
the manner of unremarkable seed, our shoots yearning up to-
wards the bright, our rootlets drinking moisture, burrowing
deeper in the good soil of our slopes and rills, growing in the
manner of the Green.

Yet, when did we become aware of our apartness? That while
we were of the Green, we were yet apart from it, too awake in
the bright day, dreaming too strongly in the dark night. Most of
all, knowing that we were different, remembering that we re-
membered. In some forgotten age of time, we knew that we were
ourselves.

Our knowledge made us wonder, and speculate upon our own
nature, proposing theory after theory. Perhaps our ancestor seed
fell from the sky, carried by some great wind from a distant land
so far the Green only whispers dreams of it. Perhaps the light-
ning struck our ancestral soil with some magical cousin of the
hated Fire. Perhaps the fungus that feeds our roots went through

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a shift of its nature, linking plant body and root body and wood
body together as never before. Perhaps all of these, or perhaps
none: the result the same. We live, remember, dream together
here on our slopes, beneath the sun and the rains.

Once we would have added, "as we always have." Yet that is
not true. Changes have come to us, changes we fought or wel-
comed, changes we have even initiated. It is this lesson we pass
to those who will come after us, as the individual members of
our self germinate, mature and die in their stages. For it is the re-
membering that we pass on.

When still the Green whispered of the great glaciers retreating,
we were young, and unpracticed in our togethemess. We were
still new, learning to use the senses we had been bom with: the
feel of the sun's heat upon our green body, the patterns of light
and dark as sunbright filtered onto our ground, the fee! of limb
and branch and root, separating out body from member body, yel
conscious of the whole. We grew in our capacity to feel, to co-
ordinate, to sense.

But what we sensed did not please us. For the first time, we
noticed the depredations of the fleshbeasts that infested us, that
were not of the Green. Before, when green body was destroyed
or root body disturbed or wood come crashing to the ground, we
had no more apprehension of its wrongness than when the Sun
disappeared into the darkness of night every day.

Now we knew differently, that these happenstances were not
random acts or laws of nature. And perhaps for the first time, at
least in our long remembering, we felt emotion. We learned ha-
tred.

Oh, how we resented those robbers, meditated long on their
evil, inventing new concepts as we thought on them and their
depredations. And in our long resentment, we came to under-
stand that we could no longer be passive with these interlopers,
not as we were passive beneath the sun that gave us life, and the
sky that gave us the rain. We must take action against the
fleshbeasts, a campaign to save our very being.

For long seasons we trained ourselves, forcing our Mind to
evolve and strengthen. An infestation of Tinybiters, winging
from branch to branch, consuming leaf and tender bark? We
learned to poison our sap, to make our green body taste unpleas-
ant. Did we feel too many Gnawers clambering over our
branches, eating our fruit before it could germinate? We learned
to weaken connective tissue in our wood body, to drop branches,
limbs, that the Gnawers clung to. We learned to set springy traps

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with our roots, to suddenly ensnare the fleshy ones and drag
them under, entomb them where they could feed our fungus.

We were fierce warriors against the beasts; they did not pass
our boundaries without punishment. Our space became filled
with peace, filled with healthy growing, till we could support no
new members throughout our boundaries. Vines grew on our
tronks, airplants sprouted from our branches, and we ruled su-
preme in our demesne, but for one thing.

Yes, for all our learning, our many accomplishments, we could
not protect ourselves from the Fire. Decades would pass in
growth and peaceful dreaming, and then a dry season would
come. We could conserve our sap down in our roots, increase the
wax that coated our leaves, spread our upper branches wide to
protect our lower, younger selves from a sun turned savage. But
the dryness, bad enough of itself, could bring the Fire.

Always, we could feel it coming, as the Green cried out
around us, as the heat leaped from valley to mountain, from
grass to leaves to bark, the wind pulling at our leaves, sucking
the very air toward the Fire's hunger, the sun turning cold, gone
out as it did in the night

Then would come the pain, as the fire consumed our wood
bodies, scorched our plant bodies, worse than any Tinybiter or
Gnawer, so fast, so sudden! The strategies we used against
fleshbeasts were useless: the Fire did not crave our sap or our
seeds, and we could not pull it under the ground to smother it.
Our only hope was to conserve our sap and essence in the roots
that would not bum.

Time and again, in the long seasons, we were burned down to
those roots. We despaired for the continued existence of our self,
but our roots lived, and sent up new shoots, or our half-burned
trunks recovered. We grew back each time, adopting new lives
into ourselves, until our strength was full—and full of wrath.

We were angered by the unfaimess. The Green about us did
not seem to suffer nearly so much as we from the Fire, for all
they were dumb and silent, and infested with fleshly life.

Eventually our anger gave way to observation. While the
fleshbeasts thieved the Green, they gave back in several ways;

clearing away deadwood, spreading seed. On a tentative basis we
allowed back in a few Tinybiters and Gnawers, watching, weigh-
ing their swift activities. We studied them, took their fleshly bod-
ies apart, meditated on their structure.

Then we turned our Thoughts on them. It seemed impossible,

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and yet we had patience on our side, and time. First we had to
team to Listen, so very subtle and strange, like and not like the
communication among our selves. We had to divine the minds of
the fleshbeasts, to look through their eyes and hear through their
ears, senses so foreign, beyond all comprehension—almost. We
had not known senses beyond those we possessed before: the
warmth on our leaves, our roots extending through the soil, the
moisture that the sky sent to us, that we drank through our roots.

But we persevered. We learned from the shadows of their
beastly senses, ruminated on the cells of their fleshly essences,
and finally experimented. Could we affect the tiny individual
minds, so insignificant in their aloneness before ourselves, as we
were in turn small before the Green?

The fleshbeasts could never be a part of us, but we found we
could affect them. We could bend their small minds, influence
them to leave healthy limbs alone, to cause the Flitters and the
Peckers to find the Tmybiters more efficiently, make the Gnawers
spread our seed far afield to the bare patches, gnaw at deadwood
until it fell free.

Seasons passed as we experimented, generations upon genera-
tions of the swift-living fleshbeasts, generations of our individual
members even. As the years passed, so passed our deepest re-
sentment; we had adapted to life besides the fleshly ones. They
had become more than interlopers, servants that we depended
upon. Peace had come again.

We prospered under the sun again. We kept our land reason-
ably free of the buildup of dead leaves and deadwood that the
Fire loved too much, moved our branches just enough to permit
a healthy undercanopy to slow the spread of fire with wet sap
and slow burning leaves.
Yet we wondered at how we were changed- It gave us pleasure
now to look upon the beauty of ourselves, to hear the wind in
our boughs through the senses of our pets. We grew trunks of
prodigious size, standing tall, symmetrical, lush, and proud. We
were content within our demesne. We could not expand beyond
certain boundaries, no more than a Gnawer can grow longer
from nose to bushy tailtip: it is the size it is, and no more. We
covered our acres, and were content.

New beasts passed from time to time through our domain, and
we paid them scant attention so long as they left us alone. The
ones we called Two Legs may have come several times before
we noticed, thinking perhaps they were deformed Honeyeaters or
large flightless Flitters. Our subject eyes cluttered at them from

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high in the branches, our ears twitched in the burrows among our
roots, but aside from reflecting on what ungainly beasts they
were, we paid no more attention.

Then one day, the Two Legs attacked one of our wood bodies,
peeling off the bark with strange claws held in their paws.

Our pain was not so bad, perhaps, only one trunk injured
among our many wood bodies, but our shock was profound.
Swiftly, we sacrificed branches to drop on the interlopers, sprang
the roots to grasp their feet and pull them into the embrace of our
understructures. Our leaves trembled for days at the outrage.

"Two Legs" was not sufficient a name. We dubbed them
Death-to-Green, as evil as the Fire, and we vowed that their kind
would not be suffered to come again.

Alas for us, more followed in their wake, two or three a year.
We eliminated them when they came, for here was a danger near
equal to the Fire—indeed, we were shocked to find the Death-to-
Green actually carried Fire on occasion. Here was a stranger
thing than we had ever dreamt.

We were ruthless in eliminating the Death-to-Green who dared
our ground, until they came less frequently. Yet, they had not
gone far; merely settled nearby valleys, for we could still sense
them dimly through the Green.

Equilibrium had been reached and we rested content, sure we
had triumphed once again. But as so many other times, this was
only a phase: worse was yet to come.

Changes were occurring in the Green, great changes: wood
giving way to field, and Death-to-Green behind it. Suddenly, in
short tens of decades, they were everywhere, clearing wood bod-
ies to plant lesser Green in strange orderly rows. It seemed that
their nature had changed, perhaps a different species infested the
land. The sort we had once hated now seemed benign.

Month by month, year by year they drew closer. We thought
they would come right up to our hills, but they only settled the
valley land, cutting down me wood bodies, flattening out sec-
tions, laying down rock dirt that monster rockbeasts moved far
too swiftly upon. The Green cried out in agony, and we could not
help but hear.

Occasionally, an individual Death-to-Green would pass our
boundaries, and though we sent our Tinybiters, our Gnawers, our
Flitters to distract it, we could not turn it back. Then we would
eliminate it, swiftly and silently. Yet the day came when we

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eliminated two young ones, and our slopes were suddenly in-
fested with Death, more than we could count.

We were in confusion; too much activity, too swiftly. We held
back from retaliating, paralyzed by me thought: what if the Fire
they carried should get loose in our glades? We could not defend
ourselves against so many: not just these interlopers but the tens
of tens of tens of tens that covered the land. But what could we
do?

Their minds were strange; so swift and curiously shaped that
we had never been tempted to Listen as with our familiar
fleshpets. We had not liked the feel, so fleshly and strong. But
now we embarked on a program of strengthening ourselves,
learning what we could from the bodies of our trespassers.

it was only a matter of time, before a Two Legs came again.
This time we withdrew our fleshly allies and sought to insert our
Thoughts into the fleshbeast mind.

Stronger than the mind of any Gnawer, the Two Legs resisted
us, as spirited as when we resist the Fire, thrashing through our
underbrush, making strange noises with its mouth. We could now
sense its panic and paranoia: something was watching it, follow-
ing it, trying to control it We doubled our efforts, waking up
parts of ourselves that had slept for years, determined to succeed.

At last the Two Legs threw itself flat upon the ground, bab-
bling noises at us, its thoughts abject. It was not so simple as our
fleshpels, perhaps in its horribly singular way even as intelligent
as we ... but we could use it just the same. It must work to pro-
tect us, must bring others of its kind here to be initiated into our
service.

A season beneath the sun passes quickly for us, dreaming in
the warmm, listening to the Green, managing our acres in peace
and prosperity, while the lives of Two Legs speed so quickly.

In time that Two Legs came back, bringing others. We found
we did not have to use quite the strength of the first time: the
ability of Two Legs to communicate with one another served to
prepare them for indoctrination. From time to time we caught
glimpses through their minds—puny, solitary things—of worse
fates that could have come to us: "subdivisions," "strip mining,"
"landfills"—all filled with hideous Death-to-Green that we had
never contemplated, bad as the Fire.

We permitted them to build paths through us, to facilitate their
visits, and keep their clumsy clumping feet away from the tender
young groves, subtly guiding the hands of their workers. We

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found amusement when me crews wondered at me absence of
Tmybiters and other annoyances. We wanted to speed their work,
after all.

More of our new servants came to visit, bringing their leaders
and lawmakers, meir minds filled with questions of ownership,
as if we could be owned. They put up a fence around us, to keep
out wanderers, and gates with signs beside mem.

At last we could see in the minds of visitors mat our future
was assured; we were now a park. Mirth was our response, and
thoughtfumess. For now we were safe, yes, but the Two Leg spe-
cies lives and breeds so quickly. We could continue to manipu-
late them, the way we bred and trained our fleshpets, to work for
our well-being.

Influencing the minds of the Two Legs will be work, yes, but
in time, we shall spread the Green back to its size out of history.
We shall have our servants take cuttings, culture the fungus in
our soil, plant new daughter selves in foreign soil to grow to
awareness as once we grew. Our slow, patient years beneath me
sun are long and strengthening, and the Two Legs are transitory
after all. It shall be enough.

Fiat Silva

by Jack Oakley

According to Sack Oakley, he grew up thinking he was a
tree, which he says may account for his wooden prose.
When he's not writing pulp fiction. Jack lumbers around
San Francisco in a fir coat.

Maybe 1*11 see a bear, thought Adam. He left the path around the
lake and made his way through manzanita and oak toward a
stand of tall trees, stopping once to take a picture of a ground
squirrel with his birthday camera. The campground sounds
faded, the underbmsh thinned, and soon he was on a silent carpet
of duff in a spacious grove of sugar pines. Even the sounds of
small scurrying animals ceased in the soft, still immensity.

The clear whistle of a bird pierced the hush. Adam looked up
and searched the vault far overhead- A flicker caught his eye and
he stepped backward for a better look, stumbled on a log, and
pitched over with a painful jolt lo his head. He lay on his back,
gazing in a blue aura at the treetops, each faraway needle limned
transparently against the azure shimmer.

The bird called again. "Come here. Come here." He felt for
the camera, staggered to his feet and followed dizzily. A talking
bird? Maybe it*U take me to a talking bear. "Come here." Its call
was the only sound in the nave of a vast cathedral. He trod si-
lently by a tree he recognized from a campfire talk as a sequoia.
Farther on was another and soon the pines gave way to an an-
cient grove of even taller trees. The bird alit in the soaring
branches of a huge sequoia in the center of a circle of giants.
"Come here," it repeated clearly.

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"I'm here," he replied. "What do you want?" He sat and
leaned against the base of the tree. "My head hurts."

The bark caressed his back with a profound slow sigh. "Our
heart hurts." Adam's belly vibrated and his head stopped throb-
bing, though the blue light grew more intense.

"What? Who are you?"

'We are the forest, young manikin."

**Are you this tree?"

A calm wave of amusement resonated in his belly. ''We are mis
tree, and we are this grove, and we arc this forest We are this last
stand of the sylvan soul which has spread eternal over Gaia since
your Paleozoic era, yet shrinks in me blink of mankind."

"I don't understand."

"We have lived through continental shifts, waves of ice, and the
heat of star rock collisions. We would live on until the sun's last
flame flares, but for your race's frantic spread over Mother's face.'*

"I know. We're cutting down the rainforests and polluting the
streams. I'm sorry."

"We are sorry too, upstart discombobulated sprout without
memory of your past. We have waited these million years for
clear communication with your kind, but few of you have under-
stood the bird's call and fewer still have spoken."

"Well, who'd talk to a tree?"

Amusement resonated again. "You- are.**

Adam felt peaceful. "You talked to me fust."

"Our way is to wait. All races are bom in our garden, some
leave, all return. Only the dinosaurs forgot their origin and went
too far, too far alone and died. We were sad. Your race is the sec-
ond who has gone so far, and we fear you won't return before
you've destroyed us all."

**I save half of my allowance and donate it to the Nature Con-
servancy to buy forests."

Now amusement tinged with compassion flooded him. "Yes,
you want to help, and in every age there have been people of
partial understanding, for good or evil, but no man or woman has
fully sensed your participation in us the world's life. Johnny
Appleseed was a good man who spread the word, but his ken
was limited to one small aspect which benefits your race. Francis
in Assist was dear to us though he preferred a peripheral circle
of angels, the quick warm-blooded creatures. Paul Bunyan well
intuited our ways but brashly used his knowledge for destruction.
Siddhartha Gautama received enlightenment beneath the pipal

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tree but misunderstood our message, turning it from the universal
to his human nature within."

"What message?"

"Our roots tap the chthonic creaking movement of the conti-
nents, the mantle, the dumb and blind slow mineral core; our
leaves receive me sun's speech, and through her the stars' song;

our trunks translate the celestial to the subterranean; and through
our atmosphere swim the blooded creatures."

A vision of me slow wheeling progression of galaxies dark and
light, and simultaneously the scent of pine and hot summer after-
noon chaparral, and moist spring eucalyptus, and crisp dry falL

"Our way is to wait. though mere is risk. When a species
leaves, it seeks to develop itself alone without consideration for
one farspread web of life, and damage is done, but the rips can
be repaired since the movement takes millennia, and in the full-
ness of time the race returns for reintegration. But we are aston-
ished and dismayed at the speed with which mankind has
reached the brink of self-destruction. You are something new.
The universe has moved slowly until now, billions of slow
coalescing years, interstellar dust into the rotation of galaxies,
the stately evolution of life. Even the dinosaurs drifted sedately
to their death. There was no danger. But now your demise threat-
ens us all, and your death will come through our destruction, our
link will be broken, and we will all die."

"I want to help, but I'm just a little boy. When I grow up, I
want to be a forest ranger and help save the trees."

"There is no longer time. Soon our extent will be too small
and our soul will fade like the sounds in this grove. The world
has changed, and slow must incorporate the quick before the
quick destroys the slow. We have waited a million years along-
side you, but if we continue apart, we will vanish because of
you. We cannot stay ourself and survive. And if we vanish, you,
too, will vanish without our air, our rain, our shade and wind,
our animals and our shelter. None of us can live alone."

"That's what I tell my sister, but she laughs at me."

"There is no longer time to talk and convince. We must both
change."

"I'll do it."

"Beware. The transformation we propose is profound. We are
the oldest race and slow to change, but everything must change.
We must accept the new quickness in me world, and your quick
intelligence must blunt its cutting individuality as you lose your-
self in ancient communion."

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Into his back emanated a blurred vision of darkness lifting, a
hazy sight of early dawn.

"Okay, I'll do it." Proud and scared and responsible.

"You will no longer be yourself."

"I tell my classmates I would die if it would save the earth."

"You will not die, but you won't be yourself."

"Okay."

"Then take this, and be fruitful and multiply." A whisper in
the air above whistled and with a crackle a cone bounced at his
feet "The seeds in this cone contain the germ of a new forest.
Your breath will fertilize them. Shake out the seeds, breathe upon
them, and cast them. As the new forest grows, the particularity
of your essence and ours will diminish, will combine, and a new
creation will begin."

A sensation of love and urging passed through Adam, A sense
of excitement gathered in the airy grove, as if the tall trees
leaned forward. He turned the cone in his hands, shook it, and
two small brown spheres rolled out. He held them in his palm
and breathed softly on them.

Dizziness, a flowing outward from himself; the trunk behind
him sighed and its force diminished minutely.

At first he saw nothing but a concentration of green light; then
two tender shoots like spring green stalks of grass, which grew an
inch, two inches, a foot, thickened and^rew thicker like his finger,
browned, passed eye level, sprouted branches and green needles-

"So fast!"

"Your quickness intensified by our breadth.'*

Two trees shot up, one sequoia and one sugar pine. *Two
kinds from one cone?"

"The seeds will develop best suited to the conditions where
they fall."

"Life!" cried the trees with the wonder of youth in a tone in-
timately his own, as if he were in the trees, as if he had painted
a picture of himself and stepped back to look, yet more than the
mute reflection in a voiceless mirror—these trees were part of
himself yet not himself, an extension, a bond, a family tie, a
union.

"Yes," he breathed, "Yes," sighed the grove. "Yes, ess, ess,"
twittered the bird.

Adam arose and took a picture of the trees. 1 wonder if the
blue glow will show up. He left the grove in a dream, walked
past the silent sugar pines, and found his way through the chap-
arral- This is a good place for a tree, he thought. He shook the

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cone until he had a handful of seeds, blew upon them, and scat-
tered them with a sweep of his arm.

Again a dizzy green haze clouded his vision and he weakened
as his forces flowed outward- He sat down to rest and watched
a dozen spears rise and writhe into the twisted torsos of a young
manzanita grove. "Life!" they sang and his stomach sang coun-
terpoint. It was several moments before he came to himself.
Good-bye, trees. Good-bye Adam. He found the lake and re-
turned to the campsite.

"I don't want to go home," he said. "This was our best vaca-
tion ever."

"It was, wasn't it?" said his father.

"But school starts the day after tomorrow," said Evelyn. "I've
had enough of this, anyway. I can't wait to see my friends
again."

"I'm going to stay here forever."

"I wish we could," said his father. "But we have our lives to
live, you know."

"Part of me will always live here."

"Yes," said his mother. "Part of all of us will."

"Can Evelyn and I walk around the lake one last time?"

"I don't want to."

"Come with me, Evie. I'll show you some neat trees you
haven't seen before."

"I've seen enough trees."

"If you come, I'll take your picture."

"Big deal."

"Why don't you go with Adam?" said their mother.

"Oh, okay. C'mon squirt. Why are you bringing that stupid
pine cone?"

"It's magic."

"Oh, sure."

When they reached the spot where Adam had left the trail, he
said, "This way, Evie, the trees are over here."

"It's getting too dark. I don't want to go there."

"I planted them this afternoon."

"Why do you say such stupid things?"

"Please just come."

"Oh, okay."

As they approached the grove he felt like he was returning
home. He was bringing his sister to his tree siblings. "Aren't
they nice trees?"

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"They're just trees."

"Can't you hear them talk? Feel them? Just sit quiet for a min-
ute."

"Oh, okay." After a minute she said, "You're right, Adam.
There's something very friendly here, and it's funny, but it feels
like you somehow."

"Yes, that's what I wanted to show you. Now we can go back.
I'll tell you why," and he told her about his afternoon.

"Oh sure, Adam. Someday you've got to grow up."

The next morning they rolled up the sleeping bags, folded the
tents, and tidied the campsite. "Everybody in the van," said their
father. "Let's go."

"Adam, leave that pine cone here."

"It's a souvenir. Mom. Can't I bring it, Dad?"

"You know we're not supposed to take anything from a na-
tional park."

"I do know, but this is special,"

"It's his magic pine cone, Dad," Evelyn said sarcastically.

"Glen, why don't you let him take it?"

"All right. I hope it doesn't just end up gathering dust under
your dresser."

"It won't, I promise."

Adam and Evelyn sat in back facing the rear as they drove
down the mountainside. "I'll miss the forest."

"Me, too, but I'm not sorry to be going home."

"Part of me is here."

"Oh, Adam, you're so sappy."

"Really, Evie. The trees are talking to me."

"Okay. Prove it. Show me how that pine cone of yours works."

"I will, but wait till we stop somewhere."

"You're just procrastinating because you made it up and you
don't want me to find out."

"Wait till we get somewhere there aren't any trees. Down in
the valley."

The day warmed up as the sun rose higher and they descended
into farmland. "Is this good enough?" Evelyn asked.

"Yeah. Now we have to get Mom and Dad to stop."

"I'm hot," said Evelyn loudly.

"I'm thirsty," said Adam.

"Okay," said their mother. "We'll stop at the next town for so-
das." They left the freeway and pulled into a shopping center's

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broad asphalt parking lot. Their father opened the back door.
"Come in and pick out your drinks."

"I'll stay here," said Adam, "Just get me an orange soda."

"Me, too," said Evelyn.

"You sure you want to sit out here in the hot sun?*'

"That's okay."

"Me, too."

As their parents walked toward the store, they heard their
mother say, "I can't understand these kids. They want to stop,
but then they don't want to get out."

Adam laughed.

"Show me," commanded Evelyn.

"Okay. Watch." He tapped the cone and gathered the seeds.
"Now you breathe your spirit into them."

"Come off it."

"Watch." He breathed over his palm and felt faint again, as a
small part of himself flowed out. "It feels funny." He closed his
eyes and concentrated on establishing a new balance with the
warm life vibrating in his hand. "Okay." He tossed them out the
door.

Evelyn watched the brown spheres bounce and with a sudden
small green flash adhere to the asphalt. "Mmph!" said Adam. Her
eyes widened as six green stems shot upward and the pavement
rippled in all directions. The spreading roots tilted the van forward
and supple green trunks broadened and browned. In a few minutes
they sat in the peaceful shade of small stand of live oak.

"Cool," she agreed. "Can I do it?"

"There isn't enough room for more."

"How do you know?"

"I just do. We have to go somewhere else now. You can do it
when we get back on the freeway."

Their mother and father returned with a grocery bag. "Where
did these trees come from?"

"What trees?" asked Evelyn.

"There weren't any trees here when we parked."

"Oh, Daddy, you never pay attention."

"There weren't, were there, Marie?"

"I didn't notice."

"I swear, when I opened the door, I was standing in the blaz-
ing sun."

"Are you okay, Glen? Do you want me to drive?"

"No, I'm fine." He closed the back door. "Still," he muttered,
"it's weird." They bumped out of the parking lot to the freeway.

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79

Good-bye trees. Good-bye Adam.

"Okay, my turn now, please, Adam."

"I don't know ... Are you sure? It does something to you."

"Yes, yes, please, please."

"How can we do it now? We're on the freeway."

"We can open the window. Please, Adam."

Without turning her head their mother called back, "Adam,
just let her do it, whatever it is."

"Okay, open the window. Here." He gave her the cone and she
shook a few seeds into her hand. "Now breathe."

"I feel dizzy."

"I know. Do you feel yourself moving into the seeds?"

"It's like they're part of me now. Here you go, seeds." She
dropped them one by one out the window. "Ooh, it almost hurts."

'They're sprouting."

The van sped rapidly along but they could see a green haze
appear far behind. Soon there were no cars following. "I think
we blocked the road."

They laughed happily. "Cool!"

"Let's do it again!"

By the time they reached the city at dusk, they were vegetat-
ing in a peaceful stupor, a vast part of themselves strewn along
a finger of forest for hundreds of miles through the valley to the
park. They leaned against each other drained. Their parents
opened the door and helped them out.

"Leave that pine cone in the garage, Adam."

"No, it's a souvenir of our best vacation ever."

"Yes, Mom, it's our magic pine cone."

"You, too, Evelyn? Okay, bring it in."

Their father supported them up the steps to the house while their
mother unloaded the van. "These kids are as heavy as logs."

'Time to get up," called their mother. "First day of school!"
The words came from far away, dimly penetrated the dream of
an immense continental forest. Rising from slumber was like up-
rooting a small tree. Adam and Evelyn pulled themselves out of
bed and went to the kitchen for breakfast. The morning newspa-
per reported the bizarre growth of a mixed deciduous and ever-
green forest centered on the southbound lane of Interstate 5.
Trees were spreading east and west despite attempts by road
crews with chainsaws and bulldozers to clear the highway.

"That's terrible!" said Adam.

"That's strange," said their father. "I didn't see any trees."

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"It must have happened just after we passed by."

Adam and Evelyn smiled at each other.

"You kids are going to be late. You'd better make like trees
and leave."

They laughed and got their backpacks. Adam put the cone in
his and they went out the door. During show and tell, when ev-
eryone was telling what they had done during the summer, he
took it out and said, "We went camping and I got this magic
cone. It grows trees."

His classmates snickered, and the teacher said, "Yes, Adam, it
is magical the way new life sprouts from a seed."

"No, it isn't like that. You breathe on the seeds and part of you
goes into them and trees grow up right away."

Mrs. Hargrave looked concerned and everyone else laughed
out loud. He regarded them steadily with the clear gaze of a
spreading forest. "Watch," he said, and shook the cone, breathed
on the seed in his hand, and feeling faint, stood, walked to the
terrarium on a table in the Corner, and dropped it in. He sat
woodenly on the floor and saw the green flash and a tingle of
motion as a tiny stem twisted into a bonsai cedar that barely
peeped above the glass walls.

The classroom was silent. Then his friend Jess said, "Wow,"
and they all crowded around the terrarium. "May I look at that
cone?" asked Mrs. Hargrave with her hand out.

Adam backed away. "No, I'd rather not."

"Let me look at it," said Jess.

"No, no,'* said Adam. The others pressed close, demanding,
and he opened the door to the playground and stepped outside.
His classmates followed.

"Wait!" said Mrs. Hargrave. "Come back here!" Some of them
hesitated. "Give me that cone, Adam."

"I'm sorry," he said. A crowd stood in the doorway watching
as he shook out a handful of seeds and breathed softly, breathed
his soul out surrounded by the wavering outlines of the school
building and dimming outlines of his friends, inhaled a dream of
green life, a wordless song of sylvan speciation, and stumbled
and slipped to the ground scattering the seeds.

He became aware again. Evelyn had her arms wrapped around
his trunk. She was sobbing and her sorrow distressed him.
"Don't cry, Evie," he said and bent his branches to enfold her.

"I was looking out the window and I saw the trees growing up
and I knew what you'd done, so I got up to see better and Mrs.

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Hascall said to sit down, but I saw you lying on the ground so
I said my brother's hurt and I ran downstairs and you were here
and your skin was getting hard and you wouldn't move and I
held onto you and you changed, and you changed, and now
you're growing here in the yard ..."

"Evie," he sighed, and emanated a gentle wave of love which
filled her arms and body and flowed through her feet to complete
the circuit underground at his roots. "Evie, you must join us. Ev-
eryone must join us. Come into the new garden. We need your
help, we're still too few—they're cutting us down on Highway 5,
you know."

"Yes." she said, "I see," she said, as she saw what he had seen
in the grove and now showed her, the completion of the dimly
sensed vision of integrated intelligence and interwoven life, indi-
vidual death and the sparkling green continuum of existence. A
crow alit in his branches and laughed with raucous delight. "But
what about Mom and Dad? We can't leave them alone. They'd
pine for us."

'Tell them to come and join us, or else they'll be left behind."

Evelyn heard the murmur of an excited crowd of children
milling around the trees. The principal stepped forward with
Mrs. Hargrave. "What's going on, Evelyn? Where's Adam?"

"He's this tree."

Mr. Thierry frowned. "Evelyn, Mrs. Hargrave says he disrupted
the class and ran out here. We're afraid something's wrong."

Evelyn smiled nervously. "I don't think it's wrong, Mr.
Thierry, but I don't think Adam's coming back. Can you call my
parents and ask them to come right away?"

"There's the pine cone," said Mrs. Hargrave.

Evelyn snatched it up. "Please, Mr. Thierry."

"See if you can get the children back in their classrooms," he
said to Mrs. Hargrave. "I'll call their parents."

"Come with us," said Mrs. Hargrave.

"I'll wait here," said Evelyn.

Mr. Thierry threw up his hands. "Promise not to go any-
where." As they left, she heard him say, 'The first day of
school's always tough, but this takes the cake. What are we go-
ing to do about these trees? Okay, everybody, back to class."

A peaceful half hour passed in the shade. Sparrows skipped
cheerfully through the leaves and chattered at the crow. A squir-rel 
skittered in from somewhere and shyly extended a delicate
paw, scampered up Evelyn's arm into Adam's crown and chit-

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tered busily from branch to branch. She leaned back and listened
to a song of sparkling streams.

"This is all very good, Adam, but I'm not sure one cone is
enough to change the whole world."

"That is why, 0 sister mine, we need the others. Tell them,
you who still have their attention, what to do. As these groves
quickly grow and fructify, each cone contains the same celestial
seeds. Bring the children here and let me speak to them."

At recess a swarm of curious children came. The teachers
stood in a group by the building and wondered about the new
laurel grove, and commented about the students' strange behav-
ior. The children enthusiastically surrounded Evelyn with ques-
tions as she called for calm, eventually settled into a generally
attentive huddle, encircled a tree, even the skeptical ones, arms
on each other's shoulders, stood silently as if listening intently,
then lined up to receive something Evelyn shook from a pine
cone, dispersed to the edges of the playground, touched hands to
mouths and flung them away. The teachers watched in disbelief
as the playground flashed, was covered by a hazy verdant stubble
which rose and rapidly veiled the adjacent freeway with a tender
growth of laurels as the children skipped laughing and shouting
under its canopy.

"I think we'd better start calling all the parents," said Mr.
Thierry. "Ring the bell for classes. Let's keep the kids inside.
And let's call, let's call ... I don't know. I'll call the Park De-
partment." Some of the teachers went inside. The others sug-
gested holding class in the grove; everyone was too overwrought
to sit still, and it was a nice day. They gathered their classes and
asked what was going on.

"It's Evie! No, it's Adam!" "Where is Adam, anyway?" "He
turned into a tree!" "Come on ..." "Yes, he did, I saw it."
'That's what Evie says." "I felt it, too, I felt like I was a tree."
"Me, too! Me, too!"

Their father arrived. "What's going on?"

"Evelyn's sitting out there in that grove and she won't leave
a tree she says is Adam."

Glen was astonished. "Where did those trees come from?"
"I don't know," said Mr. Thierry. "Strange things are happen-
ing-"

"Where is she?" Glen threaded his way through the trees.
Evelyn ran and threw herself into his arms.

"Oh, Daddy! I'm so glad you're here! Is Momma here, too?"

"Not yet, but she's coming. Where's Adam?"

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Evelyn drew him and placed his hand on Adam's bark.
Through his palm, up his arm, into his heart came the loving
word, "Dad."

"Adam!" He touched the tree with his other hand, and his
mind filled with a bright starlit vision of immensity and a small
green globe spinning in serene joy. "Adam, what is this?"

"We're helping to save the world. Dad, and now it's Evie's turn
to Join us, but we want you and Mom to come, too. Will you?"

"What does this mean?"

"There is no meaning. Father, only life's dance, and in this
place we are the new race of earth being born. If we survive, life
will continue here; if not, it will not, and that would be sad, but
races like individuals die and creation will continue else-
where. ... But life loves living and to live we must evolve, and
we must change quickly here. Please come with us."

"Adam ... what is this vision? How do you know this?"

"We are the primeval forest, Father, we are Adam and we are
the birds, we are the life that lives, the love that loves, the past
uncounted, the present extended, the future foreknown.'*

"Yes ... I feel Adam, and I feel the rest of you.... But why
now, why here?"

"The eternal is always here."

Marie arrived. "What is all this? Hello, Evie, darling. When
did they plant these trees? Where's Adam?"

They showed her. "Oh," she said. "Hello, dear." She embraced
him and listened. "Yes, of course we'll come. You're our chil-
dren. We love you."

"Oh, Momma," Evelyn said with joyous relief.

"Show us how."

"Like this." She shook out a seed. "Breathe on it. Plant it.**
She sighed and sank down.

"Evie!" cried Glen. They knelt and took her in their arms. A
smile played peacefully on her face, her eyes closed, the cone
dropped. She grew heavy, they laid her carefully on the ground
and caressed her thickening skin; she gently kissed her father's
hand. "Her bark is worse than her bite," he said softly.

"What naughty children; they've gone and left us."

"Well, children always do, you know."

"And now we follow," she smiled, and shook the cone, and
handed it to him.

Teeas

by Julia and Brook West

Brook and Julia West are a husband and wife team who
write fantasy and science fiction. Julia is an anthropologist
and botanist and Brook is a physical geographer who
spent several years in Japan. Julia was 1994 Grand Prize
winner and Brook has been a finalist in the Writers of the
Future contest, and they have sold several short stories to
magazines and anthologies.

Crisp mountain air, splash and gurgle of water dropping over a
ten-foot waterfall, wind through the trembling leaves of an aspen
forest; Angie Lindstrom wished she could capture the smells and
feeling on videotape, as well as the silver-green flash of leaves.
Odd that there were no bird calls or scolding chipmunks, though.

She turned off the minicam—she needed to help her botany
students set up camp. Well, it was Dr. Stoker's class, but they
were her students—she was the Teacher's Assistant.

A hand fell on her shoulder, and she turned, twisting out of Dr.
Stoker's grip. "I'm glad you're getting the camp going. Angle,"
he said. "Where did you leave the cans of herbicide?"

Angie was relieved to see her husband, Kelton, come up be-
hind the professor.lf! put them over in that jumble of boulders,"
Kelton said. "What do you need that stuff for, anyway?"

Dr. Stoker turned to face Kelton. "Call it a personal crusade.
I feel thai eradicating introduced weeds—like dyer's woad and
thistle—is important. This valley may look like an unspoiled
Eden, but odds are we'll find noxious weeds up here too, crowd-
ing out the native plants."

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Angie made a face behind Dr. Stoker's back as he went to in-
spect his precious cans.

"Wish you'd TA for a different prof," whispered Kelton.

"Kel, you know he's on my graduate committee. I had to."

"Well, he'd better keep his hands off you...."

"Hey, Anj, got a hammer?" called George, a gangling redhead,
and one of the better students.

"Sure." She dug it out of her pack for him. "Everybody doing
all right? Need any help?"

"What's this?" asked Laurie, whose long blonde braids hung
down into a jumble of tent nylon.

"Just leave that for now; it's the rain fly, and you won't need
it unless it rains," said Helen, a tall black girl with her hair in
comrows. "I'll give you a hand; I've used this kind of tent,"

Angie moved on down the line of tents set higgledy-piggledy
in the open spaces beneath the aspens. "Um, Cory. Pull those
branches out from under your tent—you don't want to sleep on
them."

"Oh, yeah. Sorry, my dad always put up our tent."

Angle chuckled and went to help Kelton set up. Wildflowers
were just starting to bloom at this elevation—a tall spike of bog
orchid, tangles of blue clematis in the trees, and freckled
monkeyflower blooms. The sparse grass was dotted with spring
beauty blossoms.

"Shouldn't be hard for anyone to identify these plants," she
said to Kelton.

"Even your oh-so-proper businessman husband?"

"I'll oh-so-proper you!"

Angie looked around at the camp. "Everybody done? Gather
in." She ushered the twelve students to a central area where a
couple of fallen logs made seats. "We need to set up a few
ground rules and discuss tomorrow's plans."

As she outlined cooking and bathroom policies, Kelton moved
in behind her. She leaned into his embrace, but continued speak-
ing: "We'll start with a preliminary survey in the morning—
identification of common plants, data entry, and such. After
lunch we'll begin frequency sampling. Four teams, three people
each. You'll each get a chance to set up a grid, map, count and
identify." She noticed the professor beside her. "Did I leave any-
thing out, Dr. Stoker?"

"No, that's fine. It's late enough now, you can all relax for a
while, start your dinners. Some of you enterprising sorts might
like to get a jump on identifying a few plants...."

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When she got back to the tent, Kelton had lit the little back-
pack stove. Water steamed in the pan over the flame. The valley
was quiet—just the murmur of wind through the branches,
hushed voices, and the distant splash of the creek. Still no birds
or squirrels scolding trespassers; perhaps we scared them off
with our noise. So why did she feel watched?

"What's that?" Someone called out, away in the forest—a
girl's voice, startled but not frightened. Angie listened, but heard
nothing else. Still, unease shivered down her back.

"I'm going to check on the students," she told Kelton. They'd
set up their tent away from the others for privacy.

The straggle of tents was a beehive of quiet activity as people
prepared dinner. One girl—Colleen—stood looking into the for-
est, a dripping cooking spoon forgotten in one hand. Helen sat in
her tent doorway putting on socks and boots.

"Everything okay?" asked Angie.

"Laurie went between those trees, said she'd only be a min-
ute," said Colleen. "I fixed our dinner, and she's still not back.
We were just going to look for her."

"I thought I heard someone out there," said Angie. "Let's call
her."

"Lau-rie," they chorused.

No answer.

Other students gathered around. "Maybe she slipped and fell,"
someone suggested.

"Let's go look." Eleven students scattered into the trees.

"What's all the noise?" Dr. Stoker poked his head out of his
tent, then crawled out completely when he saw Angie was alone.

"One of the girls took a walk, and hasn't come back. Every-
body went to look for her."

"While they're doing that, let me show you the database I'm
setting up for the valley." He took her arm.

"Urn, well, Kelton's almost got dinner done, and you know
how quickly food cools at this altitude," She pulled away and
hurried back to their tent.

"What's going on?" asked Kelton.

"Laurie's missing. Cover the stew and we'll help look."

"What about Stoker?"

"He's busy with his database. But he's made me responsible
for the students."

"Okay. Grab a flashlight, it'll be dark soon."

They started at the end of camp closest to the waterfall and
followed the stream up the valley. All around mem among the

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wide-spaced trees people talked or called, their feet swished
through the grass, and a breeze whispered through the leaves.
But every time Angie felt someone behind her and turned, she
saw nothing.

"Angie?" It was Colleen, Laurie's friend- "Can you come
here?"

Angle and Kelton—and most of the other students—followed
Colleen's voice, found her staring at the base of an aspen. A lit-
tle pile of clothing lay there, torn and dirty."

"My God" said Kelton.

"They're Laurie's." Colleen's voice broke, and she started
sobbing.

Angie pulled Colleen against her shoulder, let her sob until she
was calmer. The other students talked in shocked whispers.

Kelton knelt to look at the clothing. "Anj—there's no blood."
He pulled at the shredded jeans, found them trapped beneath the
dirt. "Anybody got a trowel?"

George handed him one; Kelton dug around the tree's base.
'There's nothing there—just roots, and I can't dig through
them."

"So she's not... ?"

"Nothing buried here but clothing."

Angie looked around. Only nine students. "Let's get people
together." She straightened, took a deep breath, and yelled, "Ev-
erybody back here." When no one came, Angie called again—
and again.

"So, that's three people missing?" said Helen.

Angle's head ached. My responsibility. "Let's go back to camp
and discuss this intelligently," she said. "Stay together." Every-
one nodded and set off slowly through the trees. As Angie turned
to follow them, helping Colleen along, she seemed to feel eyes
on her back.

They settled on the logs, and Kelton built a fire pit, then lit a
fire. He'd gathered dry wood while searching. My well-organized
executive, thought Angie.

The headache eased when she realized she didn't have to ac-
cept full responsibility for this—it was Dr. Stoker's class, his
field trip. "I'll get Dr. Stoker; then we'll decide what to do,"

"Unless it's him that did it," said Helen, her voice dry.

"Ah, c'mon. He's never done anything but touch...."

"That we know of."

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88                  Julia and Brook West

Dr. Stoker sat cross-legged in his tent, entering data into his
laptop computer by lantern light.

"We're missing three students," said Angie without preamble.
"Laurie, Cory, and Steve."

"Damn," he said. "How'd that happen?"

"There's more- We found Laurie's clothing, all torn up and
half buried under a tree. But no Laurie." She watched his face
carefully, Helen's words ringing in her mind.

It was hard to tell, in the harsh light of the lantern, but she
thought he paled. "This can't happen to me. It could ruin my ca-
reer. You've got to find those kids." He turned off the computer,
zipped it carefully into its case, then followed her to the camp-
fire.

Colleen and Helen huddled together, as close to the fire as
they could get. Behind them, George brandished a stick like a
sword. Ed and Flora had brought their dinners into the circle of
firelight, but the plates were still full. Malcolm, the football
player, sat pounding one fist into the other palm.

"There wasn't any blood—I looked, too," said Brad, "But
man, it looked like some maniac tore her clothes up, men buried
them; tried to hide them?"

"Didn't do a very good job," said David.

Dr. Stoker brushed off one end of a log and sat down. "I don't
want you panicking each other with this talk. There must be
some explanation of all this."

"They're gone. and we haven't heard screams or anything,"
said Helen, "You think they ripped off their clothes to run
around naked for a joke?"

"I didn't say that."

"We need to get back out there and find them now," insisted
George.

"And lose more people?" asked Dr. Stoker.

"I'd suggest that most of us stay here, by the fire, and send out
parties of, say, four people at a time to search," said Angie. "We
can rotate until we find the lost students."

"You'd better have ideas. You're as much responsible for
these students as I am."

Angie stiffened, and Ketton, beside her, stepped forward. She
grabbed him and said, "No, don't cause trouble," so softly that
only he could hear. His hand tightened painfully on hers, but he
stayed where he was.

"I'll take the first party out," she said. "Urn, George and
Helen, come with us?"

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**Let me know if you find anything," said Dr. Stoker, and went
back to his tent.

"I'm never taking another class from him," said David.
"You're cool, Angie, but he's an uncaring old bastard."

The group headed into the twilight between ghostly white as-
pen trunks. Voices whispered among the leaves as a breeze
picked up, and the tiniest noises made Angie jump.

"What do you think happened to them?" she asked Kelton, af-
ter flinching from nothing for the fifth or sixth time.

"I don't have any ideas yet All we ever heard was a surprised
exclamation—no screams. We found clothes, but no blood, no
bodies...."

His flashlight beam illuminated a red fannypack resting
against the base of an aspen. A few tatters of torn shorts and un-
derwear rested beneath it. Pieces of shredded T-shin hung from
the branches.

"That's Cory's," said Helen.

Angie tried to pick up the fannypack; it was buckled around
the tree's trunk. She popped the buckle with trembling hands and
turned it over; CORY MITCHELL.

"Kel, this is just too weird. What the hell is going on?"

He shook his head, face a pale blur in the darkness. "All I can
think of is some maniac out here in the woods." He bent to tug
at the shorts, but they were half buried under the tree. "I don't
like this at all."

Angle's group returned to the campfire, and she sent out other
search parties, but she and Kelton couldn't sleep. They huddled
together on a log, sipping tepid chocolate and throwing branches
into the fire, staring over the flames into me forest. Toward
dawn, when David, Ed, Flora and Colleen returned with news of
finding Steve's clothing half-buried at the base of a tree, Angie
made a decision.

"Start packing; we're leaving," she told the returning search
party.

"Hey, we still want to go out and look," said Malcolm, from
across the fire. "I can't just turn tail and run, and leave those
guys out there somewhere."

"I think we ought to let the cops deal with this," said Angie.
"There must be a maniac out there. We can't deal with some-
thing like that."

"Why don't we search—it's starting to get light—while every-

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body else packs? If we don't find anything, we'll leave with
you."

"Okay, but be careful." Angie swiried the chocolate dregs in
her cup, made a face at it, and set the cup down. "I'll wake Dr.
Stoker."

The professor answered her call immediately, but kept her
waiting until he crawled out of the tent dressed in clean clothes,
blond hair neatly combed.

"What news?"

"They found Steve's clothing, same as the others. I've told ev-
erybody to pack; we've got to leave, let the cops deal with mis."

"God, I hate that—it makes me look incompetent. I'd rather
we'd search again, in daylight"

"I sent out another party just now, but when they come back
in, we're leaving."

"Isn't it a little high-handed of .you to make that decision?" he
asked, grabbing her shoulders.

"You made me responsible, last night. / stayed up all night to
search. I think I have the right to make this decision."

A man's voice called, panic scaling it to falsetto, "My God,
Angie, Brad's gone!"

Angie pulled away from Dr. Stoker. "Come on, Kel." They ran
into the trees, found Matcom and David standing back to back,
pale and trembling-

"What happened?" said Kelton,

"He was over there," said Malcolm. "He said, 'What's that?'
and I went over to look—but he wasn't there."

She turned to look where Malcolm pointed. Three slender as-
pens grew close together, and she bent to examine the base of the
farthest one. The grass had been pushed up from below, with dirt
clods and small rocks littering the ground beneath the tree's
roots. A gopher? She was a botanist, not a zoologist. "Malcolm,
come look at mis." She heard an oddly pleasant buzz and a gasp.
A breeze rustled aspen leaves behind her, but Malcolm didn't an-
swer. "Malcolm?"

Hair raised on her neck and arms; she turned to look. Malcolm
wasn't there. Kelton, face pale, stared at an aspen. "Kel, where'd
Malcolm and David go?"

Kelton shuddered and shook his head. "I ... I don't know.
They were here ... and then .. .'*

"Kel?" She looked a question at him, but he shook his head.

"Not now. Let's get out of this valley."
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When they got back to camp, they found Dr. Stoker had sent
out another search party.

"You're crazy!" yelled Kelton. "Something out there is snatch-
ing your students, and you send them into its jaws—or what-
ever?"

Angie took her husband's arm and said, "Kel," in a quiet
warning voice.
He shook off her hand. "Three more missing. We can't fight
this; let somebody else find out what's going on. Let's leave
while we can!"

"Mr. Lindstrom," said Dr. Stoker in a frigid voice. "You are
only here to accompany my TA; you have no authority. I made
this decision...."

"Then can Angie and I leave? You want authority; you can
take full responsibility for your students disappearing, and we'll
go for help."

Helen stumbled into camp, face pale as aspen bark. "They're
turning into trees' I saw it."

Dr. Stoker turned on her. "What kind of nonsense is that?"

"1 was talking to Ed. He looked past my shoulder—and got
this puzzled look." She closed her eyes, look a deep, wavery
breath. "I asked him what was going on and he ... changed. He
stretched up, tall and skinny, and his arms lengthened and
branches came out of them, and leaves, and his legs grew roots.
It all happened so fast. Flora saw it, too, but she was standing by
Ed looking at me. And ... and her eyes got big and then ... she
changed too. I didn't dare look around. It was aw-wful!" She
started sobbing.

Dr. Stoker slapped her. "Helen, you're hysterical. Too much
excitement. Overactive imagination. Go lie down in your tent."
She staggered off, still sobbing.

Ketton's hand tightened on Angle's; he pulled her away.
"Angie," he said softly into her ear, "she's right."

"What do you know, Kel? Why didn't you tell me?"

"I didn't believe what I saw-1 couldn't tell you—let alone Dr.
Stoker—that I saw Malcolm and David turn into trees."

"But Ket...."

"Angie." Dr. Stoker beckoned her over. "I admit we need
help. I don't want to send out search parties if they come back
with stories like that. But I need you here. Could Kelton... ?"

"I'm not leaving Angie." Kelton had that stubborn look on his
face. No one had ever changed his mind when he got stubborn.

"Then what can we do?" Dr. Stoker grabbed her shoulders. "I

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could lose my career over this mess! We've got to think of some-
thing."

Angie pulled away from Dr. Stoker, stepped back to put
Kelton between them. "Is that all you're worried about—your
career? There are eight people missing!" She turned to go.
"Come on, Kel, let's get the last search party." She started into
the forest.

"Angie, wait!" Kelton took her arm. "I've got an idea." He led
her to the tent, pulled her inside. They faced each other cross-
legged on the rumpled sleeping bags. "Do you believe we saw
people turn into trees?"

"I .., I don't know. I know you both saw something awfully
disturbing."

"Anj, we've got the minicam! We can record this whatever-
it-is. ..."

"And turn into trees ourselves?" She couldn't help herself.

"Listen, Angie. People are seeing something. And it's the
seeing that does ... whatever it does. Remember the myth of
Perseus and Medusa? He looked into his shield—used it like a
mirror—so he wouldn't get turned to stone."

"So you think the minicam... ?"

"Through the minicam you're looking at an image, not the
thing itself. And I'll use one of our metal survival mirrors. That
way we'll be safe."

"Kel, at this point I'll try anything. Because ..," her lips
started to tremble, and she caught her lower one between her
teeth, "because dammit, I'm terrified."

The forest was still in the midday heat; occasional insect
noises made Angie jump. She turned on the video camera, pat-
ting her pocket to assure herself the extra battery pack was there.
"Got your mirror?" she asked Kelton.

"Yeah- Wish I had a bigger one. I'm gonna fall over my feet
trying to look into this thing as I walk."

"I'll trade you."

"No."

Angie looked at him out of the Corner of her eye; he had that
stubborn look on his face.

They walked over the sparse grass under the trees for a long
time. Angie swung the camera from a clump of Oregon grape to
an oddly twisted aspen, trying to still her trembling hands. Her
stomach knotted with fear. What if this doesn't work? What if
something really is turning people into trees?

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Kelton made a strange, choked noise in his throat, and she
swung the camera to focus on him. He stared into his mirror, an
intent look, half surprise, on his face. "Those eyes!" he said.

Even as he spoke, his mouth twisted, his face lengthened. The
mirror dropped from lingers that elongated, sprouted twigs,
leaves.

"No, oh no, oh please." Angie didn't lower me minicam even
as tears dripped down her cheeks. She recorded her beloved's en-
tire metamorphosis; roots digging into the soft earth, branches
tearing through his clothing and rising from his brown hair. Her
stomach lurched and her knees shook with anguish—but she kept
the camera focused-

It was over. An aspen swayed slightly without benefit of
breeze, torn clothing half buried beneath its roots. Thousands of
coin-shaped leaves winked like semaphores sending a message in
an unknown language. "Ketton, Kelton, no," she sobbed. She
slowly turned, camera running, panned past every tree, wild-
flower and low-growing bush. Somewhere on this tape should
be the answer. If not ... She couldn't finish the thought. Life
without Kelton?

Angie huddled in her tent, watching the minicam's tiny black-
and-white screen. She rewound the tape again, began the se-
quence. Kelton's face, intent and surprised, his mouth moving,
then twisting. Nothing there. He was looting at it, she was tap-
ing him. Whatever it was, she hadn't taped it.

No, wait. The thing was behind him—he saw it in the mirror!
She rewound, watched slender trees bob through the field of
view. The picture shifted to Kelton's face. And behind him—a
flash of movement. A bush stirring in the breeze? But there was
no breeze.

Rewind again, switch to slow motion, move frame by frame.
Not a bush behind Kelton. A thing, as if a pile of autumn leaves
had humped into vaguely human shape, with twiggy teem, and
bleached branch homs rising from its temples. Its eyes glittered
even in the tiny black and white replay. "Those eyes,' he hadsaid. It 
was real, a monster that turned people into trees.

Angie wanted to close her eyes and scream and scream. Her
hands trembled as she switched the minicam off and laid it on
her sleeping bag. What now? Hunt the thing down? What would
kill it—fire? Chase it with a torch, like a villager in a Franken-
stein movie?

"Angie?"

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Oh, please, not now. Dr. Stoker. "Yes?" She was pleased that
her voice was steady.

"Where's Kelton?"

/ can't tell him. He won't believe me. He'll laugh. I have proof,
but 1 don't want to show it to him.... "He decided to go for help
after all."

"Can I come in?"

Every fiber of her being screamed no, but she had to be polite.
And after her He, she could hardly tell him she was mourning her
lost husband. "Sure."

He slid through the zippered door-slit, settled on Kelton's
sleeping bag. His presence made the hot, close air even more op-
pressive. Angie bit her lips to keep herself from ordering him
out.

"I'm glad Kelton decided to go for help. I Just don't know
what to make of all this. There's no sign of violence or
struggle—just torn clothing to hint at what's happening." He
leaned forward and patted her knee. "I know you've done your
best—I'm sorry I barked at you earlier."

"Yeah."

"Listen, Angie, I know you're a newlywed, and Kelton is a
very attractive man, but I could help you a lot if you'd just be
a little more ... friendly."

Angie couldn't believe it. To come seeking sexual favors at a
time like this! The nerve of him.

"I've never been unfriendly," she answered, struggling in-
wardly. If I slap him, he'll be my enemy forever.

"Don't play naive, Angie. You know what I mean. You won't
even call me by my first name." He reached forward, stroked one
finger down her arm.

"Sir, I am, as you mentioned, a married woman. I don't feel
any need for other ... companionship." She looked him straight
in the eye.

"I can make it very pleasant for you." He smiled, smoothed
his hair, and reached for her breast.

This had gone beyond nerve. Something snapped inside her.
"Listen, you ... bastard! All the grad students know about you.
Can't keep your hands off the women! Well, this is one student
you'll not touch again."

"Why you...."

"And don't threaten me about my dissertation. I'll finish, with
or without you. There's a law against sexual harassment, and I'm
not too shy to engage a lawyer."

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"If you ever get out of this valley." His smile turned ugly, and
she felt a twinge of purely physical fear. He was much bigger
than she.

"You try anything, and I'll squash you like ... like a weed."

Light burst in her mind. A weed. That thing had looked like a
heap of leaves—would the herbicide harm it, kill it? She scram-
bled past Stoker, avoiding his reaching arms, and rolled out of
the tent.

Herbicide, that was it. The cans lay in the boulder heap where
Kelton had dropped them yesterday afternoon. First lose Stoker.
She ran behind a tree, crouching in the low-lying brush. He'll
probably think I'm so upset I'll run blindly into the woods.

Stoker surged out of the tent, glanced around, then stalked
through camp, looking into tents. Angie's heart pounded. The
camp was deserted. Were they the only two left?

When he disappeared behind a tree she wasted no time. Keep-
ing under cover as best she could, she ran for the west end of the
valley. There, the herbicide. She checked the little backpack
sprayer, heavy, sloshing—Stoker didn't want to miss a chance to
exterminate his noxious weeds. She pumped the handle to pres-
surize it. Now, back to where she had left... Kelton. That's the
last place she had seen the creature.

Where had they been? There, that's the low-lying mountain-
ash, and that clump of columbine. I taped them. Then what?

Landmark by landmark, she wandered through the forest.
Then, a group of trees, familiar from her replays on the minicam.
A tremor ran through the Kelton-tree when she walked past. /
didn't bring the minicam. It's back in the tent—where Stoker
might be waiting for me. What should she do? She dared not go
back.

I'll have to be very, very careful. I know what it looks like.
Glory, a motile plant. If only she could study it! How in the
world did it turn people into trees—and why? She would love to
get it into a lab, find out where it got the energy to move so
quickly. It can't be just "solar-powered"—maybe another source
of nourishment? There are carnivorous plants.... No birds or
small animals in the valley. She shivered.

Something crashed through the brush. The creature made little
or no noise—so this had to be Stoker.

"What are you doing out here?" he called as he approached
her. "You know it's dangerous."

"Doing your job," she said. "Trying to kill the thing that's
been trapping our students."

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"What?" His mouth stayed open, his eyes bulged. Angie heard
it this time, a sweet, seductive sound, compounded of wind
through leaves, cricket chirrs, and the endless buzz of cicadas.

It's behind me.

Stoker raised his arms, tried to take a step. Again, she saw it,
watched in horror as his fingers elongated, grew leaves, his body
slimmed and elongated, roots grew through his shoes, burying
them, to seek the nutrients beneath the soil....

She turned, ready to spray, eyes averted. If it gets me, I'll only
have a few seconds, she told herself. Don't hit the trees, just the
creature.

Where? She saw something move, sprayed it—and met its
eyes, golden-green and very alive, like flame. Music swelled
around her, soothing, welcoming. Then the creature faltered,
drenched with herbicide, and the sprayer fell from her length-
ening fingers.

Dizzy, disoriented, looking down at something very small and
odd from a great height. Rush of wind through leaves—like
voices.

There were voices. *So many people this time,* one of the old
aspens sighed.

Not really words, but emotions—thoughts. They moved
slowly, while clouds sped by; dark, then light again. Rush of en-
ergy from sunlight on leaves.

Much emotion from the next tree—no, not tree—Kelton!
*Why? Why? Angie should have run!*

Her thousand eyes, looking up, down, around. Don't think
about it all at once—too much, too much! Focus on that
tree—no, it's Stoker. As handsome a tree as he was a man—the
bastard—but Kelton was more attractive ... slender, graceful,
his leaves a distinctive silver-green.

*Angie has the loveliest bark—smooth, white,* Kelton
thought at her.

Nearby, other emotions pulled at her. *Lust,* its thoughts in-
sinuated into her being. *Submit to me. Pleasure me.*

She trembled in horror, hunching her branches away from the
Stoker-tree.

Something moved—a flicker, she should know what. Yes—the
creature. As the sun sank quickly toward the close horizon of
the valley's edge, the creature crawled toward the grove, drawn
by lust. It embraced the Stoker-tree's base, and lay quiescent,
pulsing.

*No! Leave me! Rape!*

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The stars wheeled overhead, day came, and the creature
stirred, moving quickly away from the professor's trunk.

*I didn't kill it.* A wave of regret, horror, anger from Angie.

*It ... hard . . . kill.* A huge old aspen; she could just
glimpse its crown across the valley. *I ... make it. Guard valley
... years long past. I seek ... knowledge. It too ... strong.
Changed me.*

*You not-tree that time?* Another old, thick-trunked tree, its
thoughts almost as foreign as the ancient creature-maker.

*I ... man ... then.*

The conversation lasted all day. As darkness fell, the creature
crawled back to the professor-tree, who moaned. *It is poisoned.
I feel the poison.*

*SsssslowwwwIy. It ssstronnng,* the ancient tree thought.
Angie thought, *If it dies, have I killed a species?*

*I ... made it. Not ... natural .,. being. Mistake.*
Angie spent days tracing Kelton's branches and admiring the
angles his twigs made. She basked in warm awareness of his
tree-gaze on her bark, but also felt Stoker's lustful pull and trem-
bled, her leaves agitated. Would she have to endure this for cen-
turies?

In the dark time Angle's thoughts slowed. But she knew when
the creature crept, ever so slowly, to drop at Stoker-tree's roots.

*Don't touch me. Pain,* his anguished thought crawled into her
mind.

The first welcome rays of sunlight wanned her, and with her
thousand eyes she saw the creature, its scalelike leaves pale,
brown at the edges. It writhed, scratching at the ground. Then it
stopped, collapsed in on itself. Stoker-tree rejoiced.

But she mourned. *I'll never study it now.*

Pain began. Her sap dried, her roots and branches withered.

*We die with the creature!*

Other plant-people screamed, trembled. Trees twisted as if a
capricious whirlwind meandered through the grove. And not just
trees; a waxy white flower convulsed near her roots.

She could no longer see, could barely communicate. She
hoped she would fall across Kelton's tree body when her roots
gave way. *Kelton. I love you.*

*Angie, my love.*

Her mind twisted with pain.

Angie uncurled, stretched, looked down at her scratched and
naked body. Something furry brushed her arm—a rabbit, dazed

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and blank-eyed. So it didn't eat the animals, she thought in near
hysteria. It changed them, too.

I'm alive.

Kelton.

He lay curled nearby, eyes closed in a face drawn with the ag-
ony of tree-change. "Kel, sweetheart." She massaged his back,
rubbed his arms and legs. "Wake up."
He stirred finally, sat up. "We didn't die after all."

"No." She leaned against him, soaking his chest with tears.

"Where are the others?"

"I'm sure they'll wake up soon. I want to enjoy you." She
snuggled against him, and his arms tightened around her,

"What happened to the creature?" he said into her ear.

"The herbicide finally killed it."

"I know. But is the body still about?"

"Hey, that should have been my question, mister business ex-
ecutive. I'm the one with the overwhelming scientific curiosity."
She sat straight up, looked around. Stoker lay nearby, barely
breathing. Seeing him made her remember her nakedness. She
looked for her clothing; found rags mixed with the dirt where she
had stood for—how many days?

The creature lay like a drift of crisp autumn leaves, already
disintegrating. She slid her tattered shirt carefully under the rem-
nants. This much, at least, she could study.

Kelton reached over and squeezed her hand. "Let's get back to
camp. We've got to get dressed, find the others, and ... and sort
out this mess."

"I have a feeling there's a lot more mess than we expect. What
about the guy who made that creature? And those other old tree-
people? Who are they?"

Back at camp they pulled on shorts, T-shirts, sandals. Sub-
dued, shivering students wandered in from the forest. Laurie
talked incessantly about the tree next to her; Colleen clutched at
her and sobbed. 'Told you so," said Helen—Angie and Kelton
nodded.

Something inside Angle's head drew her up-valley. She led
Kelton with her into the forest. Trees shivered around them,
though there was no wind, as something tree-tall and not human
emerged from amongst them. Branches and leaves crowned an
almost-head, grasping limbs angled below, and long root-toes
writhed forward, sank into the ground and drew it forward in an
oddly fluid stride.

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"Little-one. You ... free us ... from my ... folly." The voice
whispered and boomed all at once.

Angie clutched Kelton's hand, then relaxed. After what they'd
been through, a walking tree was nothing to be afraid of. And
she knew "who" this was. "Where are the other people we
heard? All I see are the ones who came with me."

'Too ... long ... they ... be tree. Now ... like me. Stay.
Care for ... children."

"Children?" she asked.

All about, aspens shook and writhed in no-wind. "Few ...
trees here ... once men. Others ... we seed. Children.... We
... free to ... nurture ... now."

Pollination—natural reproduction, for trees. Seeds growing
into trees—children of changelings. They'd lived so long as
trees, they were more tree than human. How long were we trees?
Weeks, at least. Guess I've got roots here too.

"I wish you—and your children—well," she said. "I must care
for my own now."

"You -.. may ... return." Trees rustled again and the aspen-
man was gone.

/ will.

They went back to the students—to her students.

"George, Steve, get Dr. Stoker, help him back to camp. We
don't want to leave any noxious weeds in the forest. Pack up,
folks; it's time to go home."

Bennow

by Nancy Etchemendy

Nancy Etchemendy lives and writes in the San Francisco
Bay area. Her short stories and poems have appeared in
F&SF, The Year's Best Fantasy and Horror and a number
of other anthologies and periodicals both here and abroad.
She has also written three novels for children.

I never would have guessed the boy had a thick crop of green,
shiny leaves on his head. He wore an Oakland A's baseball cap
pulled low, so he looked pretty ordinary, maybe a little young to
be hitchhiking, thirteen or fourteen I thought. He carried a ma-
roon duffel bag, stuffed full, but with no signs of wear. I've been
around enough teenagers to know a runaway when I see one. He
was a textbook example.

"Thanks, mister," he said, as he climbed onto the seat of my
pickup.

I had been to Garberville for grocery shopping, something I
try not to do more than once a month, so the truck was filll. The
back had twenty heavily loaded bags in it, plus my old Labrador
retriever. Scratch. The overflow of two or three bags had ended
up in the cab with me. I watched as the boy carefully moved
them to make room for himself and his duffel as far away from
me as possible. A package of lamb chops poked up from the top
of one bag, and he eyed it as if he wouldn't mind ripping it open
and wolfing them down on the spot It seemed likely that he
hadn't eaten in a while,

"Just call me Chet. Glad to be of service," I said. "Where areyou 
going?"

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"Benbow," he replied. "You know where that is? It's supposed
to be around here somewhere."

He had a pleasant voice, stiil fairly high, but rich and even,
not squeaky as is common among boys his age. I couldn't see
much of his face because he hunched down and turned away as
if he were trying to hide. What I glimpsed of him was dirty, like
his clothes, which were stained and specked with dead leaves.
He had clearly been sleeping outside. All my old instincts as a
teacher, a school principal, and a repentant absentee father rose
to attention.

I pulled onto the pavement and started slowly down the wind-
ing road, wondering what I should do. "Yeah, I know where
Benbow is," I said. "You know, there's nothing there anymore.
The last of the hippies left four or five years ago, and they didn't
exactly build to last. It's just a few empty shacks in the middle
of me woods. Nobody lives there but raccoons."

His shoulders went practically rigid. "I know," he said. He
was a bad liar, which was a very good sign as far as I was con-
cerned.

"Sure you still want to go there?" I asked.

"I have to. It's important. Real important."

"Okay, whatever you say."

I drove on in silence for a while. I had the window on my side
open. A summer day just like this one first convinced me that the
northern California coast was the place to retire. The resinous
smells of deep forest filled the mild air. The road meandered
among oaks, pines and even the occasional redwood. Bird songs
mingled in a pleasing cascade. We crested a hill, and I sighted
the Pacific Ocean. I knew if I parked and stopped the engine, I'd
hear the surf like a distant whisper. The big cities and their trou-
bles lay far away. I didn't even bother to lock my doors at night,
and it felt deeply good and right. Not everything between
Garberville and the sea was perfect. We had our own kinds of
problems in the coastal woods. But they didn't usually include
lost, hungry runaways.

"What's your name?" I asked the boy.

"Birk," he said without looking at me, still hunched forward,
his shirt collar turned up and his hat pulled down.

"Got a last name?"

He did look at me then, though he said nothing, just turned his
head. His eyes were dark and full of pain, his face pale and wor-
ried- I noticed for the first time that his hair, though I couldn't
see much of it, was full of leaves. The sight made me shiver,

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though I couldn't have said why. Maybe I knew, in the back of
my mind, that there was something strange about him. It didn't
hit me till later that the leaves were green and fresh-looking. I
thought he must have gotten them from sleeping on the ground,
and that triggered in me a powerful urge to help in any way I
could.

I shrugged and said, trying to sound nonchalant, "None of my
business anyway. Well, Birk, there's a cafe in Whitethorn just
down the road from here. We have to pass it on the way to
Benbow. How wouid you like to stop there for a sandwich and
a piece of pie?"

He licked his lips, and a little smile skittered across his face.
But it was soon gone, replaced by the look of strain and worry.
"Thanks, but I can't."

"Why not? If it's a matter of money, it can be my treat. I'm
a rich old geezer anyway." Which was a long way from the truth,
and I could see he knew it. After all, what would a rich old gee-
zer be doing in a twenty-year-old pickup truck with 150,000
miles on it? I just didn't want him to think I was making some
kind of big sacrifice by inviting him to lunch. It might have hurt
his pride.

He hunched even further forward, and tugged his shirt collar
up higher. "I just can't, that's all."

I knew if I said the wrong thing, he'd be out of the truck like
a jack rabbit as soon as I slowed for the next curve. Why would
a starving kid shy away from a cafe? I had offered him a free
handout and he had turned it down, so it couldn't be money.
What was it then?

"You've got to eat," I said. "A growing person can get sick
and weak pretty fast without food."

"I know," he said for the second time since I'd picked him up.
There was a tremor in his voice. I had the impression he would
have said more, but he didn't want to risk crying in front of me.
He was a hard one to reach. If I wanted to find out anything
about him, I would have to hurry, because the window of oppor-
tunity was going to close at the tumoff to Benbow.

I tried to remember the contents of the three sacks of groceries
beside us. I had bagged them myself because that's how it's done
at the Garberville Discount Food Mart. I'm a sixty-five-year-old
man with high blood pressure. I don't buy much in the way of
snack food. But I had picked up a package of granola bars, and
I seemed to remember tossing them in with the lamb chops. I
lummaged through the bag with one hand, a challenge on a road

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so curvy it takes an hour to go 23 miles. I found the granola bars
and slid me package toward Birk.

"Try some of these. They're nothing compared to Milky
Ways, but they're all right if you're real hungry."

That got me a little grin. He wasted no time tearing them open
and shoving two bars into his mouth practically whole.

"There's milk in mere, too, if you want it," I said. "It's skim,
and I don't have any cups, but you could drink it from the car-
ton. It's okay."

He pulled the quart container onto his lap, opened it, and
gulped it down greedily. Out of breath, he beamed and swiped at
a milk mustache.

"Thanks, mister," he said. For the first time since I'd picked
him up, he had a little color in his cheeks.

"Chet," I said.

**0kay, Chet. Thanks."

It was the first time he'd called me by name. I allowed myself
a smile.

The Benbow tumoff was now about ten minutes away- I had
no time left for finesse. "Look, I hope you don't think I'm trying
to butt my nose in where it doesn't belong. But there's something
you ought to know about these woods. They're not safe unless
you know exactly where you're going."

He frowned and turned away again.

"I don't mean dumb stuff, lions and tigers and bears, that kind
of junk. I don't even mean getting lost, exactly. I mean drug
dealers."

"What?" he said, looking at me from the Corner of his eye as
if to say, How stupid do you think I am?

"No, I mean it. I'm not just making up stories to scare you,
There are a lot of marijuana growers up in these hills. Believe
me, they want their operations kept secret. They don't take
kindly to trespassers. The woods look real peaceful, but they're
full of shotgun snares and bear traps. You can get yourself in a
pile of trouble if you wander down the wrong path."

"So are you letting me off at Benbow or not?" he said, eyes
slitted.

"If that's what you want, I'll do it, but I don't have to like it."

We traveled on in silence for a few minutes. We passed
through Whitethorn and I waved to Milt Perry at the lumber
yard. The woods closed around us again, quieter now, dimmer, m
another hour, the sun would set.

Coming up on our right was a rickety hand-lettered sign that

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said "BENBOW," with an arrow under it. I pulled over and set
the handbrake. "Here is it," I said. "You have to walk a couple
of miles down that trail. I'd take you in there, but I'd probably
need four-wheel drive and a chain saw."

He rolled down his window and looked out. The undergrowth
was fierce. Ferns, briars, and poison oak formed a matted wall
through which the path delved like a deep wound. The trees
above it shut out most of the remaining sun. Something rustled,
and the hoot of an owl wafted out of the twilight, hi the back of
the truck. Scratch growled deeply and continuously.

Birk reached hesitantly for his duffel. I could see this was
something he did to save face, not because it was really what he
wanted anymore. He had hoped to find people at Benbow, some-
one he knew, or someone who could tell him what he needed to
know. But the place was deserted, an ominous ruin. Carpe diem,
I thought.

"Maybe you'd rather wait dll you have some daylight. I could
bring you back up here tomorrow. I've got a little place down the
road at Shelter Cove. I built it myself. It's not much, but you're
welcome to the spare bed. Lamb chops for dinner, and a hot
shower. If you want a way to pay me back, I could use some
help in the garden."

Relief washed over him, visible as rain, loosening his muscles
and his troubled heart. He trusted easily, which meant that, what-
ever was wrong, he might heal easily, too. I had won a chance
to help him. It was one of those moments of great atonement that
I have sought since I left my own children half-grown and went
off to do things I thought were more important than being their
father. If I had stayed home with them, my son might well be
alive today. It's a hard thing to live with, even though it hap-
pened years ago.

When we arrived, Birk jumped out of the truck and started
carrying groceries into the kitchen. I didn't even have to ask.
Somebody had taken the time to civilize him beautifully, some-
body who loved him and was probably worried sick about him.

He stopped briefly to watch me lift Scratch down from the
back. "What's the matter with him?" he asked.

"Oh, he's just old. I've had him eleven years. He's got cata-
racts and rheumatism. It hurts him to jump down, and he can't
always see where he's going to land."

He held out his hand, and Scratch licked it, wagging his tail
enthusiastically, "He's great."

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I nodded my agreement, and helped carry in the last few bags.
I showed Birk where to put his duffel, and 1 hung fresh towels
in the guest bathroom. When I claim it's not much of a place,
I'm being modest, if I say so myself. I took eariy retirement and
came up here to do one of the things I'd always dreamed of, de-
sign my own house and build it myself from the ground up. It's
not huge, but it's done right, snug and solid even in the worst
storms. It's two bedrooms and two baths, bigger than Scratch and
I really need, but we like having company. It gets too lonely
without people around, and they're more likely to come if there's
plenty of space. I probably would have built closer to my daugh-
ter if I could have afforded it. I never give up hoping she'll come
here someday and bring my grandkids, but so far, no luck. She
tends to act like I'm dead except when she needs money. I can't
blame her. I just wish she'd forgive me.

Birk said if it was all right with me he'd wait till bedtime for
Us shower. He asked if I needed help getting dinner, and when
I said, **No, take a load off," he said he'd like to fool around out
in the yard a while. I said that sounded fine. I expected him to
go out and throw a stick for Scratch or something. I was busy
putting the groceries away, and I didn't think much about it till
I glanced out the window and saw him down on his hands and
knees in the vegetable garden. He appeared to be weeding, a
very odd thing for a boy his age to do voluntarily.

About the time I put the lamb chops in the pan, he tapped at
the kitchen door and walked in with his arms full of produce. He
had harvested several tomatoes, some green onions, lettuce, peas,
and a few small zucchinis. It was more than the two of us could
eat and I felt a little irritated about it

"You get all that from my garden?"

He nodded, grinning.

"That's great, though I kind of wish you'd asked first."

The grin disappeared and he stammered, "Oh ... oh, I'm
sorry. I didn't mean to ... it's just they won't be nearly as good
tomorrow. They're ready right now, and it's always best to pick
things at their peak. Better for the plants, too."

I helped him load the stuff into a basket. "Where'd you learn
so much about growing vegetables?"

"I dunno," he said. "Seems like I've always known how. My
mom ..." His voice caught and he looked at the floor. "My mom
says I have a green thumb."

I thought about asking him if he didn't think maybe his mom
was a little worried about him right now. But I could see he

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didn't need the reminder. He knew very well she was worried. I
wondered yet again what he hoped to find at Benbow, something
so important that he would run away from home and face a
frightening series of hitchhikes for it My curiosity shortly over-
came my tact

"So where is your mom? Where do you live?" I asked. I flipped
the lamb chops over and sliced two of the tomatoes into a little
salad, Birk wandered to the sink and washed his hands, slowly and
thoroughly. I thought maybe he was never going to answer.

"San Francisco," he said finally.

He was much farther from home than I'd thought It's a couple
hundred miles from here to the Bay Area, much of it on narrow
mountain roads. I had him pegged as a small-town boy. Maybe
it was his interest in growing things that made me think that, be-
cause it didn't seem to fit the profile of a city kid.

I motioned him to me table and set a loaded plate in front of
him- "So what's so important about Benbow?"

He gave me that look, the same one I'd gotten when I asked
his last name. He didn't say anything, just went about the impor-
tant business of cutting ha meat

I shrugged. "Don't mind me. Sometimes I'm too nosy for my
own good," I said. Which was an understatement

Tilings might have been all right if I had just left them at that.
But I didn't Maybe my feelings were hurt because he wouldn't
open up, or because he knew more about vegetables than I did.
Maybe I was just worried about how much trouble I could get
into for picking up a stray and doing anything except driving him
straight to the nearest authorities. Maybe he reminded me too
much of my own son. Whatever the reasons, I said, "Oh, I forgot
to tell you, no hats at the table. It's a house rule."

He dropped his knife and folk on his plate and said softly, '*!
need to keep it on."

"No you don't," I said. "You just want to keep it on. There's
a difference-'*

He got to his feet and started for the door, then after a sec-
ond's hesitation came back and picked up his plate.

Without a word, he walked out to the porch, leaving me with
a piece of lamb halfway to my mouth. I heard the groan of a
deck chair and the renewed scraping of his cutlery. I was lucky
he didn't run off into the night.

After dinner, he helped with the dishes. He did this silently, in
spite of my best efforts to start a conversation. A thin, clammy

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fog had rolled in off the sea, and I threw a log in the wood stove
to keep Scratch's joints warm. Birk said he was tired and ex-
cused himself- I was astonished to see my dog abandon the
hearth and follow him to his room. A few minutes later, I heard
the water running in the shower. I sat alone in the firelight a
while, mentally kicking myself for letting something as silly as
a baseball cap take me back to square one with this gentle,
frightened boy. Sometimes it seems to me that we are doomed to
make the same mistakes over and over again, no matter how
hard we try to change ourselves.

Eventually, I got tired, too, and I went off to my own bed-
room. On the way, feeling tender and guilty, I tapped on Birk's
door, which stood a little ajar. There was no answer, so I opened
it further and looked in. Scratch snored on the rug at the foot of
the bed where Birk lay in the open-mouthed sleep of an ex-
hausted child. Half the blankets had fallen to the floor. He wore
partially buttoned pajamas that looked freshly laundered. The
grimy Oakland A's baseball cap was firmly settled on his head-

1 shivered, as suddenly and inexplicably as I had earlier beside
Birk in the truck. Chiding myself for this groundless skittishness,
I pulled the covers over him and tucked them around his chin.
Gently, I removed the hat. For a moment, what I saw simply left
me confused. He looked and smelled freshly showered, and what
I could see of his hair was clearly damp as if he'd washed it But
the leaves I had noticed earlier in the day still clung there. 1 went
to the hall light and flipped it on so I could see better without
waking him. Hundreds of leaves mingled with his dark curls,
small and slender as if from a miniature willow—not dry, but
green and healthy looking. I pinched one between my fingertips
and tugged experimentally, but it wouldn't come out. It seemed
quite firmly attached. I eased the baseball cap back onto his head
and rushed out of the room.

I stood in the hallway for a moment, unable to quite believe
what I'd seen. I tiptoed back into the room and took another
look. The leaves were still there. I lifted the elastic waistband of
his pajamas and peeked southward. He had leaves there, too.
Shaking, 1 made my way to the kitchen and did something that's
rare for me. I poured myself a short bourbon and drank it
straight. I sat by the fire a few minutes, then went back to Birk's
room. The situation remained unchanged. I thought of my
mother, who died of Alzheimer's a few years before I retired.
She used to have conversations with people long dead. She be-

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lieved that her sister lived on the moon, and that my shoelaces
were garter snakes. Maybe this was how it began.

Hours passed before I came anywhere near sleeping. The
whole situation shook me badly, and stirred up ghosts and mem-
ories that made rest impossible. I wondered if Birk's parents
knew why he'd gone. The leaves were small and bright, like a
tree's new spring growth. Maybe they were a recent develop-
ment, something he'd hidden from them until it became impos-
sible.

I knew what it was like to sleepwalk through three days and
nights, wondering where your son was and imagining the worst.
My daughter called me one evening, frantic, to say her brother
had run away from home and she was afraid he might kill him-
self. She didn't know where her mother was. I did my best to fix
things, but it was too late.

I remembered the phone call from the police—professional,
detached. "Are you the father of Robert Marston of 1750 Wash-
ington Street ... a person matching your son's description was
struck and killed by a Southern Pacific Railroad train near the
Center Street crossing at 1:55 a.m. ... we're unable to find the
boy's mother ... could you meet us at the hospital ..." Neither
of us was ever there when Bobby needed us. Why can't people
listen to their children? Why can't children tell us what they
need?

Eventually I dragged myself from my chair by the fire and
made my way to bed, where I spent the rest of the night dozing
and dreaming of my children with leaves instead of hair, who
called to me through the bars of my mother's room in the Alz-
heimer's ward.

When I woke up, a wide swath of midmoming sun warmed
my blankets, and Scratch was whining to be let out. I knew im-
mediately that I had overslept.

I crawled out of bed feeling stiff and old, struggled into my
bathrobe, and opened the door for Scratch who bolted like a
stone from a slingshot This was unusual, though I wasn't awake
enough for it to sink in till later. I guess I thought he must feel
the same way I did—that nothing else in the world was quite as
important as peeing. On my way back from the toilet, I peeked
into the guest room. Sunlight danced cheerfully over the neat bed
and the spotless floor, no wrinkled sheets, no dirty clothes or
damp towels. The canvas duffel and its owner had disappeared,

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leaving no evidence of their existence except my memory of
them, which suddenly seemed inadequate.

I hurried into jeans and a shirt and combed my hair with my
hands as I rushed out the front door. I was in for another shock.
The yard looked incredible. The grass seemed freshly mown, ev-
ery blade crisp and vigorously green, though I had no recollec-
tion of having heard the mower. The leaves of each tree and
shrub gleamed with health. Rowers that had previously brought
forth only anemic foliage now drooped with lively blossoms- The
vegetable garden was a canner's dream. Plump beans and ripe to-
matoes had developed overnight, and the corn swayed with
heavy, sweet ears. Bird calls and the whisper of bees filled the
air. If I needed evidence of Birk's visit, here it was in profusion.

Scratch ran back and forth between me and the pickup truck,
barking at nothing I could see. The message was clear.

"All right, pal," I said as I helped him onto the seat. "We're
going to Benbow."

It was one of those days when bright sunlight burns away all
subtleties, leaving only brilliance and deep shadow. The smells
of warm pine sap and seawater filled the air. Everything seemed
clear. Birk must have risen early and gone off to finish his quest
as he had begun it, alone. When you're fourteen years old, you
think your biggest problem is conquering your fears. You have
no way of knowing that sometimes fear is a good thing, that it
can lead to survival even if it makes you desperate. My daughter
blames me for not having been there to make Bobby understand
that before it was too late. And she is right.

1 knew the road well, and I pushed the old truck to its limits,
squealing the tires on the curves and praying the brakes held out.
Scratch glared at me in baffled surprise as he slid back and forth
on the seat, unable to connect our hurry with the rough ride. We
reached the Benbow road in twenty minutes, probably a record.

I let the truck idle a minute while I got out and scouted the
overgrown trail that led to the old commune. There were wash-
outs and fallen trees everywhere. Decomposed forest debris
made the soil spongy. It was impossible to tell whether anyone
had walked on it recently. Taking the pickup down it would have
been crazy. I knew I'd be stuck within a hundred feet.

Scratch whined and barked from the cab of the truck, trying to
squeeze his big black body through four inches of open window.
He was no bloodhound, but he thought the world of our leafy-
haired friend. If Birk had walked down this road. Scratch would
know.

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I reached in and turned off the truck's engine, pulled a leash
out of the glove compartment, and clipped it to Scratch's collar.
If his arthritis was bothering him, he was too excited to think
ahead about it. He almost dislocated my shoulder as he leaped
down from the truck. He landed with a yelp, but was up again in
a moment. I let him tug me down the dim forest tunnel that was
once the road to Benbow.

We walked fast, almost trotting. We forded shallow streams
and ducked under deadfalls. All the while, apprehension swelled
inside me like a toadstool. I couldn't keep my mind off bear
traps and homemade mines and the glazed dopiness I'd occasion-
ally seen in the eyes of known growers. There was something
else, too. The forest felt strange here—"powerful" is the word
I'd choose. And I wondered yet again who or what Birk was,
and what had brought him here.

We were hot and out of breath by the time we reached what
was left of the commune. I hadn't seen it in two or three years,
since the dme a neighbor gave me a guided tour of the ruins. It
looked perceptibly less human now than it had then. The hippies
of Benbow had never had electricity or a sewage system or run-
ning water, Just a misguided sense that they could live as the In-
dians had and the earth would take care of them. Now slugs,
flies, and green things went about the business of reclaiming the
hills of garbage. Wasps and wood rats nested in the sagging raft-
ers of Ae shacks.

The place had the feel of a battle lost. Redwoods and oaks
watched darkly over the place from rare heights, as they always
had. Even in the spots the residents had cleared, first briars then
baby trees and madrone had reestablished themselves. The plank
walls sank into the green earth. Grass grew on the roofs. There
was no longer a trace of human scent, just the damp smell of
earth and mushrooms. Scratch, however, disagreed. Whining
with excitement, he followed his nose to a place among the ferns
and snowberries where we discovered the burgundy duffel.

As I knelt to examine it, 1 heard voices. Scratch lifted his nose
toward them, silent for once, almost apprehensive. It wasn't a
conversation exactly, nor a song. A windy murmur drifted
through the forest, like people praying in a language I'd never
heard before. It made Scratch's legs tremble, and my empty
stomach bum.

"Birk!" I shouted. "Birk, where are you?"

I got no answer, just a flood of imaginary horrors, the boy
maimed and unconscious from a shotgun snare, or gagged and

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bound by paranoid pot growers. Almost at once I regretted hav-
ing called to him. Now the owners of the voices knew I was
here. I had no way to defend myself, just carpenter's muscles and
an old dog. I thought of running back down the road to the truck,
driving somewhere in search of a sheriff. But anything could
happen between now and the time I returned.

An insidious thought crept up on me, familiar and reprehensi-
ble. Technically, Birk wasn't my problem. But then, that's what
I'd thought about Bobby. Had I learned anything at all since
then?

The voices continued undisturbed, and I, realizing there was
only one course of action I could live with, moved toward them
carefully. This time, my role and Scratch's were reversed. I didthe 
tugging.

We walked a quarter mile deeper into the woods before the
voices surrounded us. I still don't know exactly when we stum-
bled into the grove; maybe the grove engulfed us. Suddenly the
trees looked different—unlike anything I'd seen in this forest or
any other. They had drooping branches and narrow, silky trunks,
a little like aspen or birch. A pale golden haze enveloped them,
like sunlight shining through dust. Their leaves were small and
slender, as if from miniature willows, exactly matching the ones
in Birk's hair.

The boy stood with his back to me. His clothing, including the
beloved baseball cap, lay in a neat pile beside him. His leafy hair
stood out in otherworldly dreadlocks, and a fine down of leaves
ran along his spine from neck to buttocks. He grasped a golden
tree trunk with his hands, head thrown back, eyes wide but un-
seeing, and his whole body shivered as if he were caught in an
electrical current. I could hear his teeth clicking, and it looked
and sounded horrible.

Before I knew it, I had my hands on Birk's, trying to pry him
away from the whispering, luminous tree. A feeling bubbled up
through my arms, like a bath of tepid honey, and it kept going.
First my shoulders, then my neck, my spine, the tops of my
thighs, loosened and warmed. It reminded me of sliding into
sleep as a child—that drowsy comfort of blankets in a cold
room, the perfect hum of a thriving young body, knowing that
Mother is near.

I've never taken any drug stronger than aspirin, except once
when I had a tooth out and they gave me nitrous oxide. The part
of me that people know as Chet the retired principal with both
feet on the ground hates to even think about what happened next,

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because it sounds so irrational. I never mention it to other peo-
ple, but privately I take the memory out and relish it now and
then. It's important to me, though I still don't understand it com-
pletely, and probably never will.

When the warm honey feeling reached my head, I realized that
I had become the forest. I felt the movements of every animal
and bird and leaf, every rivulet of water; I stood as tall as a
mountain and when I looked up I could feel the light of the stars
pulsing through me. I dipped into the day of Birk's conception.
I watched his human mother make love with the trees in this
very grove, lithe, glowing, impossible. "She lived in Benbow a
while, you know," I heard Birk say as if from the mouth of a
cave. "My tree father says I'm not the only one."

After a while, I realized Scratch was licking my face. I sat up
among the fems, frightened and disoriented. Moisture from the
forest floor had soaked through the back of my shirt, and I ached
as badly as I had after my first day of framing the house. Birk
and his clothes were gone. I dragged myself to my feet, much to
Scratch's delight, and made my way back toward the old com-
pound. In the trampled place where Birk's duffel had been, I
found a note written in pencil on a scrap of binder paper.

"Dear Chet," it said. "Thanks for trying to help. You can see
I have to look for the others. I'll be okay, and I appreciate every-
thing. I'm asking a favor. Please don't follow me. Sincerely, your
friend, Birk."

The loneliness of the ordinary young is a terrible thing. For a
boy like Birk, it must have been beyond imagining.

I thought about Birk all day, and for many days afterward,
wondering if I should have gone after him, or told the sheriff I'd
seen him. I mulled it over while Scratch and I fished for smelt
on a deserted beach, while I worked alone in my transformed
garden, while I methodically cooked dinner for myself and my
dog. I wondered where he was, and hoped he was safe. A long
time later, I drove back to Benbow and looked for the grove of
strange trees, but I never found them. In the end, I kept Birk's
secret in return for the gift he gave me: the certainty that life is
full of unlikely possibilities.

Not long ago, after a series of regular phone calls, I drove up
to my daughter's house in Washington state for a visit. It feels
like springtime, like ice is melting, and anything might happen.
Who would have thought I'd have Benbow and a boy with leafy
hair to thank for that?

INHERITANCES

Different dances to a single tune

The Prism or Memory

by Jo Clayton

Jo Clayton lives in Portland, Oregon with a calico cat
named Tigerlily who functions as monitor sitter and a seal
point Siamese named Owl who has a habit of levitating
into small high places. While listening to the rain and
laughing at the cats, she manages to write science fiction
and fantasy novels and a few short stories.

One summer day when Jenny was four, she put the sandwiches
her mother had made for her lunch in the pocket of her dress,
took the thermos with the milk in it, crawled through the hole the
dog dug under the back fence, and went into the Forest.

A squirrel went rippling along the ground, and she trotted after
it.

When it scrambled up a tall scraggly pine and disappeared into
a hole, she stopped to look round. She was in a small glade with
a pool not much bigger than a bathtub but round like a silver dol-
lar. And there was a big old rock taller than she was and covered
with moss. It had two deep holes like eyes and a crack for a
smiling mouth, and the moss was like short green hair.

Jenny put the thermos down and curtsied to the boulder.
"Grandma Mossy," she said. "You have a very nice house."

The tree rustled at her with that whisper pine needles make.

"Aunt Piney, I din't forget you, but I din't know it's your
house, too."

She took the crushed and grubby sandwiches from her pocket,
shared bits of them with the boulder and the tree and poured a
little milk in me boulder's mouth crack and on the pine tree's

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roots. She was a lonely child. The house on the edge of the for-
est was miles from the nearest farm and even farther from the
small town that was the shopping center for the area. When her
mother wasn't painting or on the phone to her agent, she played
wonderful games with her, read to her, or just talked with her,
but those times were scattered among the many more days when
her mother's smile was there only because she forgot to take it
off and her eyes had a glaze that told Jenny she was only seeing
what was on the inside of her head.

Grandma Mossy smiled at her and her hole eyes squinted with
good humor as the sun shifted the pattern of shadow. Aunt Piney
rustled her needles in a friendly, chatty way. The sun was warm
and the clumpy grass next to the pond was soft and warm and it
was time for her afternoon nap. Jenny yawned, curled up and
went to sleep.

She woke to me ripple of music, sat up, rubbing her eyes, pre-
pared to be afraid. She saw a small goatboy on the far side of the
pond. He grinned at her and lifted a funny thing like a harmonica
made of twigs and played a giggle for her. She hugged her arms
close to her chest because it was beginning to get chilly out here,
then giggled back at him.

He played some more and a white doe came from the shadow
under the trees. She circled the pool, touched her nose to the
hand that Jenny held out to her, then she walked a few steps
away, turned her head and fixed her brown eyes on Jenny. As
clearly as if the doe had said the words, she heard in her head,
It's time to go home.

She went to the pool often that summer, chatted with Aunt Pi-
ney and Grandma Mossy, shared her lunch with them, played
with the goatboy, and watched in awe and wonder as a golden
man with branching antlers danced with a pure white woman.
The man wore brown heavily encrusted with embroidery and a
long brown velvet cape lined with gold satin. The woman wore
a white silk dress embroidered in silver. Her hair was her cape,
ice white, long, and fine enough to float on air.

They were wild and strange and made the hair stand up on
Jenny's arms, but they were also eerily lovely and touched that
hunger for beauty she'd gotten from her mother.

The woman beckoned to Jenny, calling her to join the dance,
but she was shy and shook her head.

The summer when Jenny was six, the Man came to live with
them. He had shaggy brown hair and a roar of a laugh that made

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everyone who heard it laugh with him. He made Jenny nervous,
but she didn't know why until she saw his eyes never joined the
laugh. And she started to hate him when she saw her mother
glowing with happiness and letting her paint go dry while he
wheedled money out of her and bought things they didn't need,

Fall came and her mother's eyes went absent again. She
started spending most of her days and sometimes much of the
night in her studio. The Man grew restless. He bought a gun and
went hunting in the forest and shouted at her mother when she
wouldn't clean and cook the game he brought back.

He threw the dead things outside the back fence and they rot-
ted. The stink they gave off came into the house, and Jenny felt
that rotting, too. She went still and silent like a killdeer chick,
hoping that if she stayed hidden the danger she sensed but didn't
understand would walk past and miss her.

The Man came round the kitchen table, bent over Jenny's
mother, and whispered to her. His face was red and there was a
sheen of sweat on his skin. Jenny could hear the urgency in his
whisper even without knowing the words he said.
Her mother pushed her plate away, shook her head.
He whispered longer, caught hold of her hand, and nuzzled it.
She pushed him away and got to her feet. "Not tonight, Ned.
The dance figure isn't working. I've got to find something else
to balance and comment on the blue flow."

His face closed in. It was a minute before he found his usual
smile. "Ah, you did warn me. Elena."

He came back in the kitchen and watched Jenny as she stood
washing the dishes. After a minute, he pulled her away from the
sink. "If your mother won't, you'll do."

The pool was bright and silver in the moonlight. Jenny
grabbed a handful of grass, tore off the old dress which was the
first that had come to her hand, plunged into the chill clean water
and scrubbed at herself, trying to scrub away the smell of the
Man.

The water went very cold; it numbed her and seemed to push
away the bad thing that had happened. When she was shivering
so hard she couldn't stand up, she crawled out, wrapped the
dress around her and lay beside Grandma Mossy, sobbing out her
fear and outrage. "If I tell, he'll kill us both like he kills the
squirrels and things. He said it. He said it lots of times. He's go-

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ing to do it again. He said I was pretty and sweet and soft. He
said he knew I wanted it. He said I wasn't like my mother. He's
going to do it again."

The goatboy came and patted her shoulder, then played her a
song on his pipes that started soft and ended fierce. She heard
the promise in it and lay still.

Cold touched the back of her neck. It was the white doe, nuz-
zling her. Beyond her, on the far side of the pond, the homed
man stood. He lifted his head. opened his mouth, and cried out
without sound at all, yet Jenny heard the terrible wild sound of
it. Then he went away.

Aunt Piney rustled. The sound comforted her, it was so homey
and ordinary. Clutching the dress around her shoulders, she got
to her feet, looked down into Grandma Mossy's deep dark eyes.
and drew a long breath. She didn't say anything more, just put
on the dress and started home through the forest, her hand on the
shoulder of the white doe.

The Man went hunting in the morning and he didn't come
home that night. He never came back.

At the end of the summer when Jenny was twelve, she came
sad and angry into the Forest. She spread out a dishtowel on the
grass and set out the picnic she'd made for herself. Grave and si-
lent, she broke off bits of sandwich and laid them on Aunt Pi-
ney's roots and in front of Grandma Mossy, then she poured a
dollop of lemonade on the bits, gave another to the pool, the rit-
ual she'd followed through the years though she no longer really
believed in it.

She poured lemonade into the thermos top, sipped at it, then
sat holding the cool silver cup in her hands. "I'm going away,"
she said- "Mother says I have to. I'm supposed to live with my
father back east and go to school there. She says I should go on
with my clay stuff and I can't do that here. I think she's just tired
of having me around, not that she really notices me much. Jake
says I can learn by myself, but she tells him to shut up, he just
fools with words, he doesn't know what he's talking about when
it comes to working with his hands. Well, that's true. He can't
sharpen a pencil without nearly cutting his finger off. But he's a
good guy. He teaches me things and doesn't fuss. I don't even
know my father. I'm afraid he won't like me."

The afternoon was hot and dry and very still. Once or twice
she heard a snatch of birdsong and the bark of a fox, but they

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were far off and very faint. The boulder was only an old rock
with patches of drying moss, the pine tree was only an ordinary
tree, the pool had dust on the surface and a spiral of tiny black
bugs buzzing around it She finished her sandwiches, drank the
last of the lemonade, cleaned up after herself, and went away.

When Jenny was thirty-two, Jake hired a private detective to
find her, then paid her way so she could come back for her moth-
er's funeral. Twenty years since she'd seen the house, twenty
years since she'd heard a word from her mother. She'd heard
about her, at least after she walked out of her father's life, seen
her on TV, read about her in magazines and newspapers, but
never heard a word from her.

Hard years.

Stupid years.

Coming back here showed her just how stupid they were, all
the days she'd wasted looking for ... something.'...

She stopped thinking. It was one thing she was really good at,
not thinking.

Jake had almost vanished behind bushy white whiskers and
eyebrows fibrous as dead lichen. His eyes were red with grief,
but when he looked at her, they turned cold. After the funeral
and the session with the lawyer, he drove her to the house and
took her inside. She didn't want to go into her mother's studio,
but he took her by the arm and walked her there- "Your mother
wanted this," he said- "I would've let you go to hell your own
way."

There was dust on everything which told her more than any-
thing else how long a time her mother had spent dying- "It was
her sent me away."

He walked to a Corner of the room to the slotted case where
her mother kept her drawing portfolios, counted along the slots,
and drew out a shabby black folder. "Because your father threat-
ened to haul the both of you to court and get her declared unfit;

Acre was me and the other men and what happened the time Ned
disappeared, she knew how fighting it would turn out." He fished
m the slot, drew out a sealed envelope, brought both across the
room and set them on the palette table. "She wrote to you every
day the first year. Not a word from you. Then she said 'if she
wants to talk to me, she knows where I am.' You know her, she
put the hurt away and went on with her work."

"I never got any of those letters."

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"Ah." He brushed at his eyes, turned away. "Even so," he
said, not looking at her. "Even so, you should have written at
least once."

"I did. I took the letters down and gave them to the clerk to
mail; that's what you did in that piace. I took them myself. I
didn't trust him. He must have paid off the clerk. He wouldn't let
me go out by myself, he said the streets were too dangerous."
She sighed. "In a way he was right. When I left...." She picked
up the letter, looked at it, saw the blob of red wax and impres-
sion from the goatboy seal she'd made her last summer here. She
set it down as if it burned her fingers-

"You should have come back here."

"Yeah. Well."

Jake had scrubbed down her mother's room, got it ready for
her. He was staying in town these days. Shrugged when he told
her. Said it just seemed the best thing to do.

Because she couldn't deal with the stench of sickness that lin-
gered in that room. she cleaned out her own and lay staring at
the stains on the ceiling whose patterns she'd never forgot. Same
old bed, grown too short for her now. Smells of ancient turpen-
tine and oils. Her mother was a practical woman in unexpected
ways and had used this room to store paint cans and old easels.
It was like trying to sleep in the middle of ghosts.

The light from the full moon came in through curtains held to-
gether by cobwebs and dust; it fell across the bed, across her
face. Her mind went round and round. Round and round like a
squirrel in a wheel. Round and round and getting nowhere.

She left the bed and wandered about the house. It seemed
smaller than she remembered. The long narrow kitchen was full
of light now and dancing shadows as the wind fluttered the
leaves on vines that had grown across several of the windows.
She opened the door to the studio and looked in, decided she
didn't want to go in there and wandered into the small living
room with the fireplace that took up half a wall. Her room was
on the other side of that fireplace. Winter nights she pushed her
bed against its backside and snuggled against the warm bricks-
She only had the one black dress she'd worn for the funeral.
so she went into her mother's room, opened the closet, and
pulled out what came to hand, a pair of ancient twill slacks, one
knee torn, smears of dried paint stiffening the folds, an even
older sweater and a pair of boots worn so limp she didn't know
if she could get her feet in mem. She threw me clothes on the

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bed and it was like standing by her mother's coffin, looking
down at her before they closed the lid and sent her to the fires.
seeing the strong bones that were always there though never
quite so stark as now with the masking flesh gone from between
bone and skin.

She remembered her mother as a big woman, with broad
shoulders, heavy hips and big strong hands that were always
gentle and always smelling of oil and turpentine. Usually a
bruise on a thumbnail where she hit it with the hammer when she
was building one of her stretchers. Pencil smudges on her finger-
tips and along the resting side of the hand. And charcoal
smudges everywhere.

She pulled the sweater over her head. The shoulders were all
right, but the arms were too long and the body hung in bunches
about her narrower torso. On her way out she passed through the
kitchen to collect the bottle of wine she'd seen in the refrigerator.
She found an unbroken wineglass, rinsed it out, and dried it with
a forgotten dishtowel drawn through the towel loop beside the
sink.

The pool glimmered like molten silver. She'd tried so often for
that particular effect in her glazes, never remembering where
she'd first seen it. "Easy for you," she said, and laughed until
she heard a too familiar edge to the sound and broke it off.

The old boulder was smaller than she remembered, but the
eyes and the smile were still there. The pine tree had got taller
and scragglier, but the rustle of its needles was as welcoming as
ever.

Creakier in the joints now than she'd been as a child, she
bowed to them both, gave them a libation from me wine bottle,
and added a dollop for the pond, the small ritual bringing back
a flood of memory. Wishing she'd brought a blanket as the chill
rose into her bones, she settled on the dew-damp grass and
poured herself half a glass of the wine. Before she drank, she
lifted it to the moon floating overhead through shreds of cloud.
"To dreams and madness."

She emptied the glass, set it beside her. "I wasn't a drunk, in
case you think that's what this is about. It wasn't cool, being a
drunk. You know, I must have damn good genes. I'm still alive.
Maybe broke. Maybe thirty years wasted. Maybe the guy I
thought loved me kicked me out when I started getting straight.
That's a hoot, isn't it. I^ong as I was a mess, he adored me. But
I'm still alive."

122                      Jo Clayton

Legs drawn up. arms crossed (MI her knees, she sat gazing into
the mirrored water, watching me face of the full moon glide
slowly across it, remembering her mother.

Remembering how desperately she'd loved her. How much
she'd wanted her approval. How sad she'd been when her moth-
er's absorption in her painting took her so far away in mind, if
not in body.

She thought about the portfolio of sketches Jake had given her.
Hundreds of them, some of them finished drawings in me min-
imal style of her mother's early period, achingly lovely, simple
lines, some of mem quick studies that were barely more than
scrawls on scraps of paper. All of them her. As a baby, a toddler,
a young girl. Her. Yet she'd never posed for her mother, not
once. And the ones that touched her most deeply were me messy,
labored sketches from her mother's last days, attempts me dying
woman had made at extrapolating the adult from the child.

She cried a little, more for herself than her mother. And for all
the wasted years. The stupid years.

"Maybe Jake was right," she said. "Maybe I should have
come home long ago. Maybe a lot of dross would've been
cleared away. Maybe not. The mess I was...."

She leaned on the boulder, it was warm against her back like
bricks of the fireplace. "Grandma Mossy." She smiled. "Jake's
the writer," she said, her voice drowsy and dragging a little with
weariness. Above her, pine needles rustled a gentle reproof.
"Aunt Piney. Well, if you don't mind, why should I."

All her mother's money, more than she'd expected actually,
was in trust to the land. A lot of land. An old grant the lawyer
said. Your great-grandfather got firm title through Congress. I
wish I knew how. It's yours now, along with the income from the
trust. You nave to live in the house for five years, though, and if
you sell any land. the trust money stops immediately and the re-
mainder of the grant goes to the Nature Conservancy.

Through half-closed eyes she watched starlight glitter on the
wind-wrinkled water of the pool. "I own you- Isn't that funny,"

She'd been furious then, feeling trapped, wanting to scratch
and bite, wanting to go on a tear that would make the tears she'd
been on before she'd gotten clean look like the games of a child.
Her hands had curled into claws.

The lawyer wouldn't meet her eyes and fidgeted nervously
with the papers on his desk. She chuckled a little when she re-
membered how uneasy he was, how relieved when she left. Stu-

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pid man. What did he expect? That I'd jump him and bite his
throat out?

This place was doing it again. The anger was draining out of
her, the urgencies, the need to move and keep moving so some-
thing ... whatever ... wouldn't catch up with her. She drowsed
for a white, aware of the sounds of the night but not really there
to notice them until a thread of music came from the shadow
under the trees, breathy, simple music, clear and clean as drops
of water falling on water. She sat up, aware that Grandma Mossy
had grown warmer behind her.

On the far side of the pond a golden man with antlers branch-
ing from his head danced with a pure white woman, gliding and
turning in time with the music. The man smiled at her and held
out his hand as if to say "come join us." They turned and the
woman held out her hand and beckoned with a sinuous graceful
gesture.

Jenny rose, walked round the pond, and stood while they
moved round her, touching her. The woman's hand was cool and
smooth, ivory rather than flesh, the man's hand was golden
brown like polished oak, cool and smooth. Their eyes were cat
eyes, shiny and shallow; their faces up close were even more
beautiful than she remembered, but stranger now, eerier. As she
moved into the dance, their smelt enveloped her, musky and
wild, their breath was sweet on her face....

She woke stiff and chilled when the morning sun touched her
face. Groaning as her body protested every twitch, she pushed
up, sat yawning and rubbing her eyes. A sometime breeze teased
at her hair, sent wisps tickling across her face. It was going to be
a warm day.

An emerald dragonfly darted in zags across the pond, eating
the small black biters swarming there. Somewhere a long way
off a bird sang a few notes alone, then another joined it, another
and another.

There was a rustle in the brush and weeds at the far side of the
glade. In the shadow under the trees, she caught a glimpse of a
pointed face, a glint of sunlight on black glass horns. She got to
her feet, bent, and picked up the wineglass and the bottle. When
she straightened she looked down at Grandma Mossy. "Don't
worry. I understand now. Mother may be gone, but I'm here and
I know what to do."

Feeling the Forest come alive around her, she moved briskly
along, thinking of breakfast and how much cleaning the house

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•needs. Go into town. Pry money out of the lawyer. Order sup-
plies. Buy a car. See a contractor to dig a ripening pit for clay
under the studio and reinforce the floor so it would hold the
weight of a kiln- A backup generator. She remembered poles go-
ing down, lines breaking when limbs fell across them. They
wouldn't have gotten better. Just older.

She was whistling a cheerful tune and almost running by the
time she left the shadow of the trees.

The Force That Through
the Green Fuse

by Mark Kreighbaum

Mark Kreighbaum has published short fiction and poetry
in a number of anthologies and small press magazines. He
and Katharine Kerr are collaborating on the science fic-
tion novel. Palace, due out from Bantam in 1996.

She dreamed of Yggdrasil again, of the father of forests.

Again, she hung by the neck from an ash limb of Yggdrasil. A
spear pierced her side. The pain was immense, worse than any-
thing she had ever endured in the waking world. Ratatosk scur-
ried close, carrying the dragon Nidhogg's insults to the noble
unnamed eagle in the crown, his endless task. His presence
frightened away the crows that tormented her.

"Help me," she said to the squirrel. It had taken many dreams
before she learned that she could speak. Every word cost spikes
of pain in her throat.

Ratatosk paused, his great red eyes alight with mischief.

"Do you know the First Rune, my lady?"

"No." Always the same question, the same taunt. 'Teach me,
please."

"Fool. You sip at the well of the world and tell me you are
thirsty."

"Please." She wept. Her throat burned as if she were swallow-
ing shards of glass. "Oh, please, dear Ratatosk."

The squirrel cocked his huge gray face at her.

"You are the daughter of Odin, lady. Too great a matter for the
likes of me." His voice seemed slightly regretful, and that was
new. She allowed herself to hope, a little- Ratatosk climbed

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closer to her. She could smell his breath, sulfurous from his jour-
neys under the world where dragons gnawed at the roots of
Yggdrasil. His red eyes were echoes of the flames of his dragon
masters. "But I have never been called 'dear' before. It has a fair
sound. A fair sound, indeed."

"You're my only friend, Ratatosk." And she meant it, in the
waking or dreaming world alike.

"Ah, you are a miserable fruit, then, hanging so friendless on
the Tree."

"Will you teach me?"

"Dream deeper, poor fruit. Teach yourself."

"I don't understand."

"Neither did the All-Father. But nine years of hanging taught
him much. Farewell, fair fruit. Do not despair. The Twilight
comes, I am told." With a high mocking laugh that shook the
leaves, Ratatosk departed on his eternal errand.

"No! Please come back. Don't go. Don't go."

But it was too late. She hung in silence, within sight of burn-
ing Bifrost, the rainbow bridge of the gods, alone with her agony.

Clare awoke to a coughing fit and pressed her fingers to her
throat until it subsided. She was always surprised that no rope
encircled her neck.

"You all right, honey?" Her husband reached over to touch
her. She flinched.

"I'm fine." She pushed his hand away and got out of bed be-
fore he could reach again. The bedroom was dark, but she could
guess his expression—bewildered hurt. She'd seen it often
enough these days. She wrapped herself in her bathrobe. "I'll
make breakfast."

"You don't have to—"

"I'm working late tonight," she said. "Don't wait up."

He muttered something. Clare waited, ready to fight, but he
didn't push the matter. He never pushed.

The classroom was empty. She liked it this way, just before
classes started. Clare had her lesson plan open before her on the
desk, but she wasn't really reading it. After twelve years of
teaching English to seventh graders, she could recite whole chap-
ters of The Grapes of Wrath by heart. In any case, today was
scheduled for tests, a simple matter of passing out papers and
watching for cheats.

Clare went to the window to water the plants there, thyme, li-

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lac, and sage and others. One of them was a cactus, given to her
by her sister for her birthday. She'd called it Yggdrasii in the
birthday card. She wondered what Gail would say if she knew
that her older sister was having nightmares about the mythical
Yggdrasil. Probably insist that she see a psychiatrist. That would
be the smart thing to do. But Clare couldn't do it. Lately, she'd
begun reading every book she could find on Norse myths, the
legends of Asgard. the Eddas. They all came to her like echoes,
as if she had heard them sung to her long ago. Gail would never
understand.

Clare stared out the window of the classroom. Spring was
struggling with the end of another Minnesota winter. Frost
clutched the fields outside the school, and snow scarred the rip-
ple of forest on the horizon. She remembered all the camping
trips into those woods that she, Gail. and her father had made
when they were young. The forest held endless treasures, but
they were also a green curtain guarding secrets. It had been
many years since she'd spent time in the forest her father had
taught her to love.

Someone knocked on the door and opened it. Terence Finch,
the physics teacher, sauntered in.

"Jesus, Clare, why are the lights off?" He flipped them on.
Banks of fluorescents flickered into life with a hum and a snap.

"They give me a headache," she said. She put away the water-
ing can. "What do you want?"

He shut the door. His face had the sallow look of a man who
spends too much time indoors and the cmel light of the fluores-
cents only emphasized his pallor. Still, he had a good body, the
legacy of his years in the Marines. He shoved his hands in his
pockets and shrugged.

"Well, I just wondered if we were still on for tonight?"

He grinned. It wasn't exactly a leer, but close enough to make
her muscles tense. Clare's hands clenched into fists. How had
she gotten involved with him again? How could she have been
such a fool?

"No. I have errands to run. And Dave is expecting me home
early tonight."

Finch slumped a fraction.

"Oh. Okay. No problem." He flashed another grin at her, but
this one was nicer, somehow. "You okay, kiddo? Never see you
smile these days. Anything I can do?"

"Terry ..." She stared at him. Can you teach me the First
Rune? Clare felt a flare of bitterness and hurt. It prompted her to

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say something she'd been putting off for too long. "We have to
stop seeing each other."

"What? But why? Does your husband suspect, or something?"

Clare sighed. "No. And it wouldn't matter if he did."

"Then why? Have I done something wrong?"

"Wrong?" She heard her own voice, the edge of sarcasm that
she was never able to fully sheath. Lately, she didn't seem to want
to. "I don't know. Do you consider adultery wrong, Terry? Hm?"

"Now wait a minute, dare. You were the one who wanted to—"

"Just go, Terry."

"Can't we talk about this?"

"There's nothing to say." Clare stared him down. His face
took on the same look of bewilderment that Dave showed most
of the time when they fought. She wanted to hurt him, as if he
were the eagle that lived in the crown of Yggdrasil and she
the bearer of insults from the dragons gnawing the roots. But
she held back, barely. "You better go."

He scowled, but was there also a glimmer of relief in his ex-
pression? She thought there might be. He shut the door softly be-
hind him.

Soon after, the first period kids started to arrive. She handed
out the tests—a quiz on parts of speech. Then she settled behind
her desk and watched the children work. She didn't expect to
catch any cheaters. They knew better than to try anything on her.
She knew all the tricks.

After a few minutes, though, her mind wandered back to the
dream. For four months, she'd been suffering the same night-
mare, since she and Dave had come back from visiting her
mother over Christmas. She and Gail were her only family, and
though all three lived within an hour of one another, they seldom
came together. Her mother had been so sad, losing Daddy just
before the holidays like that. She could see her, gray hair un-
combed and eyes always restless, trying too hard to make con-
versation. Gail had spent most of her time bragging about her
new therapist and flirting with Dave.

It had been a miserable vacation. Clare fought with everyone.
Dave kept trying to make peace, and her mother fussed over Gail
constantly.

Since that vacation, Clare hadn't been able to keep her temper
under control, as if a dam of fury had burst in her heart. She kept
hurting Dave whenever he tried to help, and she hadn't spoken
to her sister in months. She'd started up with Finch again. She
couldn't bear to let Dave touch her—

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"Mrs. Lenahan?"

Clare came alert with a start. One of the boys—Simon
Chemey, last row, third seat—had his hand raised. Frail, with
black hair, he reminded her of a crow.

"Yes? What?" She looked around the room. The children were
all staring back. She glanced at the wall clock and felt a chill.
The period was nearly over. She'd lost track of herself for almost
an hour. "Is everyone done?" They all nodded, too solemn. It
took an effort for her to keep her voice steady. "Please pass your
papers forward."

After the tests were returned, most of the students rushed out
ahead of the bell, but Simon hesitated. He hung back by the win-
dow, as still as the trees framed in the glass behind him, and in
a sense, further away. Clare had to wrench her stare from the
view of the woods.

"Yes?" The boy reacted to her tone as if he had been slapped.
Clare was ashamed. She softened her voice. "What is it, Simon?"

But whatever he had been about to say, the moment was tost.
He mumbled something and fled.

The rest of the day dragged on. Clare lowered the blinds over
the windows. She caught Maryanne Cray copying during third pe-
riod and was proud of herself for not screaming at the girl. Instead,
she sent her to the principal's office with a calmly worded note.

The parking lot was filled with cars, their exhaust pluming in
the air, as parents came to pick up their children. The battered
yellow buses were also loading students. Shouts and squeals
filled the air like soprano thunder. Clare moved quickly to her
car, hoping to get out ahead of the buses before they clogged up
the two narrow access roads. While she was cranking the old Es-
cort's engine, she chanced to see Simon again. He was getting
into a station wagon, driven by a man, his father if the raven
black hair was any indication. His father leaned toward him, rest-
ing one large hand on the back of the boy's thin neck.

Just then, someone knocked on her driver's side window and
she whirled around, eyes wide. She reached into her pocket and
her hand closed around the handle of the knife she always carried
with her. But it was only Finch out there, bundled up against the
chill of April in Minnesota. She rolled the window down part way.

"Hey there," he said. She was about to snap something at him,
but he held up a gloved hand. "No, look. I thought about what
you said. We did agree it was just a temporary thing. It's okay.
Just wanted you to know, I'm not going to give you a hard time

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about it, like before. Friends?" He reached a glove through the
partly open window. For a moment, the briefest moment, she
saw herself stabbing him through his palm, creating stigmata. In-
stead, she unclenched her fingers from the hilt of the knife and
reached up to shake his hand. He smiled and left. Clare sat in her
car for a long time, trembling.

The air around Yggdrasil was filled with flakes of snow. They
kissed her cheeks, leaving icy tears. Clare wondered if she could
die from the pain in this dream, but the thought brought no fear,
only a vague curiosity. It wasn't the pain that frightened her so
much as the loneliness. At least Ratatosk would speak to her now.

The squirrel sat back on his haunches and regarded her with
his crimson eyes. He chased the crows away with absent flicks
of his great tail.

"Do you know the tale of Skadi?" he asked.

"Sure. She went to Asgard to revenge her father's death and
found a husband instead."

"Foolish fruit." But his voice was not unkind. "That is not her
tale, but only the glance of it."

"What do you mean? I don't understand. Please tell me why
I'm here. dearest Ratatosk. Please."

"Poor ornament. Do you know the First Rune yet?"

Clare tried to recall the story of Odin's winning of the runes. All
her studies in the waking world seemed infinitely far away. More
and more, it was only Yggdrasil that mattered. It was hard to think
as me rope twisted against her throat and the spear bit into her side
like a serpent. There were eighteen runes. Runes for unlocking, un-
binding, for confounding witches, but what was the first?

"Help," she remembered abruptly. "Help is the First Rune."

"So it is," said Ratatosk. "Wisdom is an empty bowl, until
filled with need." And with that the squirrel whisked away up
the trunk of Yggdrasil.

"Don't go! Please don't go. Don't leave me alone. Don't leave
me." Her voice rasped like a knife against bark. "Please don't
leave me."

But he was gone.

She fell silent at last. A great peace stole over her. Snow con-
tinued to fall until she was cloaked with it. She watched the
crows, the fragile crows, dance above me flames of Bifrost.

Dave was waiting in the kitchen for her the next morning. He
was making breakfast She sat on one of stools by the counter and

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watched him. Skinny and tall, his graying hair fell to his shoulders
in a tangle. His hair was the exact color of Ratatosk's fur.

"You'll be late for work," she said.

He turned away from the pan in which he was clumsily scram-
bling eggs. His face was so open. She remembered how she had
loved the clarity of his expressions, and even now me honesty of
him pierced her, like a spear.

"I called in sick," he said. "I want us to talk, Clare. I want to
help."

Help, she thought. The First Rune.

"I have to be at school early. I didn't finish grading the tests."

"Please, Clare. Let me help."

"There's nothing wrong."

He stared at her, then turned back to the eggs. Without looking
at her, he spoke softly.

"I talked to your sister last night. I told her how worried I've
been about you- She told me about your father, Clare, and those
trips to the woods. She made me promise not to tell you that I
knew, but I can't keep that promise." Dave's voice started to
shake. "There was nothing you could have done, honey. It wasn't
your fault. Gail doesn't blame you—"

"Is this some kind of nineties male nurturing bullshit?" She
jumped off the stool. Her fists were clenched at her side. The
nails dug into her palms. "It's none of your business."

He faced her. "I love you, Clare. God, I love you. Things
haven't been so good between us, but I'm your husband. Please
let me try to help."

"Help? What are you going to do, build me a time machine so
I can save my sister from that bastard? That's the only help I
want from you. If you can't do that, then I don't need it"

"Maybe some kind of counseling—"

"That's everybody's answer for everything, isn't it?"

"It's been good for Gail. She thinks it would be good for you,
too."

"Just leave me alone, Dave. I don't need you."

He spread his hands in a gesture of helplessness. She hated
him for not being angry. She hated him for just standing there,
loving her.

"Don't wait up," she said, and left.

She didn't go to school.

Instead, she drove aimlessly, following the tree line out away
from everything, driving as fast as the old Escort could go.

132 Mark Kreignbaum

After hours of skirting the verge of the forest, she surrendered
to it. She found the old deer track her father had used so often
to take them, like secrets, into his green home. Soon, she was
parked on the hill her father had named Asgard, looking down on
her childhood joy and horror.

She sat in the car, staring out at the expanse of cottonwoods, and
farther away the sweep of maple, elm, and ash that cloaked the
rolling hills. A majestic rack of storm clouds crowned the forest.

She leaned forward and squinted through the windshield.
There was a tree out there that was huge, with branches that
reached impossibly high into the clouded sky. It was an ash. She
was sure of it.

Clare left the car by the side of the road with its doors open
and the key in the ignition. She entered the forest without look-
ing back.

She slogged through sloughs, her eyes marking the frogs and
wood thrushes. She recognized box elder, jewelweed and sweet
flag and the seedlings of silver maple and hackberry under the
cottonwoods. Somewhere, a wood duck squealed and she heard
the warbling call of a vireo. Her father had taught her all the
names of things, showed her the nests, found the hidden trea-
sures. He had made her love the forest as much as he did. She
stumbled through the trumpet creeper, tears blurring her vision-
Gail had hated the father-daughter trips, but Clare always con-
vinced her to come. How could she have failed to hear Gall's si-
lence and fear? How could she have been blind to the lantern in
the night? Had she really not known that those cries were not
owls? And if she had known, if she had allowed herself to know,
what men? The forest and her father would have been lost. And
Gail. Gail was always his favorite.

It took a long time for her to find the ash she'd seen from the
road. It rose, straight and tall as a column and its bole was doz-
ens of feet wide. She knew instantly that this was no ordinary
tree. Slender green ash saplings grew around it like pale children.
Its top was hidden in the lowering sky. She reached out a hand
to touch the ancient bark of the trunk. A gray squirrel chittered
at her from a nearby clump of bur cucumber.

"Ratatosk?" she murmured. The squirrel cocked its head at her
and skittered away.

Sinuous vines of trumpet creeper grew thick all around. Clare
put her hand in her pocket and found the knife that she had al-
most used on Terry. She spent a sweaty hour hacking vines free

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until she had enough to weave into a rope. Then she went hunt-
ing for a piece of wood that could be whittled into a spear.

The storm clouds had begun to send a warning drizzle when she
was finally ready to climb. She'd always been an excellent
climber. The ash gave her few holds, but she was patient and de-
termined. Scattered drops of rain had begun to fall by the time she
found a branch. She rested there, trying to decide whether to climb
higher. A grim little smile touched her lips. Maybe the eagle was
waiting in the crown. The great noble eagle was fated to suffer the
insults of Nidhogg the dragon until Ragnarok, the Twilight of the
Gods, released him. She wanted to see him, just once.

She kept climbing, the spear tied to her back with the vine
rope. The intermittent rain mingled with the tears on her face.

Time passed. She couldn't tell how much because the driving
rain had stolen away the sun- Her arms ached and trembled with
strain and still the top of the tree remained out of sight, unreach-
able.

Clare slumped into a wedge between me trunk and a branch
and let the storm drive into her and wash the scrapes and cuts
that covered her hands and face. Her clothes stuck to her skin.

Her mind brought back the memory of the day many years ago
when her sister told her the truth about the camping trips. They
were in the garden section of some supermarket and Clare was
showing off by naming all the plants, when Gail broke down,
screaming. And the worst of it was that Clare guessed the reason
almost before Gail said it aloud- Clare had always known, some-
where.

Clare realized that her throat was raw from screaming. For a
long time, she simply crouched against me trunk of the tree,
shaking, unable to weep.

At last, she took out her vine rope and began to fashion a
noose. She wasn't sure how she would manage the spear, but
she'd think of something. Her father had taught her so much.
The ground below was lost in the storm's darkness.

"Even Loki did not go willing to the stone."

Clare looked up and saw a shadowy bulk perched a few feet
away on the branch. The figure blinked red eyes as large as plates.

"Ratatosk?" She smiled. "Ratatosk, my friend."

"Do you feel the waters of Urd, precious fruit? The Noms
have come." The great squirrel let out a mocking sigh. "Recall

134                    Mark Kreighliaum

the tale of Skadi, little one. She surrendered revenge for love, but
failed to keep her husband close."

"What do you mean? Oh, please, dear Ratatosk, no more rid-
dles."

"Very well, my lady. Did you believe that Odin won Help, and
all the others, for his own solitary glory? Do you believe the
master teacher desired no students?"

"I don't—"

"What use is wisdom, unless shared?" Ratatosk's flaming eyes
steamed in the rain. His voice was cold. "You are not alone on
the Tree, lady. But you, at least, have won the runes."

Before she could reply, Ratatosk leaped up and vanished into
the upper branches. Faintly, his voice came to her.

"The dragon hates the eagle, because the eagle does not hate
him."

Clare stared up after Ratatosk. Her last and best friend was
gone. But at least the crows were gone as well. The crows. That
reminded her of Simon. Clare closed her eyes, seeing the boy
and the look in his eyes, that broken look.

"Oh, no." It couldn't be. "God, no."

Clare rested her head on her knees. She thought she'd been
emptied of tears, but there were some left, after all. Was the boy
suffering what Gail had? She didn't know. But she couldn't get
his face out of her mind. And Dave's face was there, too. She
had left him to hang on another kind of Tree. It was enough to
make her consider again all of Ratatosk's words. The teacher
must teach. Suffering must be made into meaning. The First
Rune. The lesson of Yggdrasil.

After she climbed down from her perch, Clare stood before
the tree, soaked by the rain and chilled to the bone. She touched
the trunk again with the palm of her hand. The stories said that
Yggdrasil cared for all its children and suffered for them.

"I'll try," she whispered.

She left the spear and rope behind, and never again dreamed
of Yggdrasil, the father of forests.

My Soul Into me Bougns
A Gothic Tale

by Teresa Edgerton

Teresa Edgerton's most recent book is her eighth fantasy
navel. The Moon and the Thorn. Before she wrote "My
Soul into the Boughs," she spent some months reading
fairy tales and Victorian horror stories which could ac-
count for a certain spookity hybrid quality in her story,

There are owls nesting in the rafters over her bed. Lying trapped
under the covers, her limbs weighted with sleep. Laurel cannot
see the birds, but she knows they are there. She can hear a duU
fluttering of wings, a harsh scrape of talons on the heavy oak
beams, and she can picture the owls vividly in her mind; great
white predatory birds with ominous yellow eyes.

At the same time, she realizes there is something very strange
about her bedchamber, the broad, pleasant room that appeared
so ordinary by daylight—no sign of owls or nests among the raft-
ers then. But now there seems to be a stream running through, a
slow, steady trickle of cold water over her feet that is just as un-
accountable as it is chilly.

To make matters worse, every time the owls become particu-
larly active, she feels a sharp, painful tug on her scalp, as
though the hairs of her head have somehow grown to an incred-
ible length and become entangled with the branching rafters
overhead. With a sudden wrenching shock, she realizes all at
once that this is literally true: her hair has grown and involved
itself with the leaves and branches ... at the same time that her
toenails have anchored her to the footboard.

In a panic, she opens her mouth to scream, but the only sound

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that emerges is low and tortured, like a creaking of tree limbs
during a storm.

"The most extraordinary dream," Laurel tells her grandmother,
over the breakfast table. "I actually believed I was turning into
a tree. I'm afraid there is something about the position of this
house and the way the trees grow in so close, that has made a re-
markable and rather unpleasant impression on my mind."

Mrs. Windboume reaches out with a hand as pale and skeletal
as me birches and the aspens surrounding the ancient manor
house, and pours herself a second cup of tea. "You find the sit-
uation oppressive? It is true we have very few visitors and none
of them linger very long. But I hoped you would be different,
that you would love the house ... and the forest as well." Her
voice trails away on a deep sigh.

"Because my mother was born here?" Laurel considers that, as
she raises her own cup of tea to her lips. She and her grand-
mother arc eating their breakfast in a dim sitting room attached
to the old lady's bedchamber. The room is dim because there is
no light except a beam of weak sunlight which has somehow
managed to creep in through a leaded glass window partly ob-
scured by vines; the sitting room is also damp and smells
strongly of earth, but the reason for this is less apparent. In one
shadowy Corner a blotch of moisture has spread across the wall,
under a rogues' gallery of miniature portraits done in oils. To a
fanciful mind, an unfocused eye, the irregular stain might appear
as a frieze of leering foliate heads, created as an obscure jest on
the family pictures.

Laurel, however, is a practical young woman, and she only
sees a spot of damp. Besides, she is otherwise occupied, ponder-
ing the question at hand: Should she reel some particular affinityto 
a particular location, merely because her mother and who-
knows-how-many of her more distant ancestors were bom on the
spot? It is not as though her mother ever regaled her with stories
about the place, not as though Laurel was reared with any sense
that the history of this decaying mansion on the verge of a pri-
meval forest is her own history as well. In fact, her mother never
shared any family history or childhood memories with her at all.

"It really is hard to know what I should or shouldn't feel,"
Laurel says out loud.

And not just about the house, she adds silently. What is she to
think, for instance, about the faded little creature in musty, rus-
tling autumn-colored silks, who sits on the other side of the

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breakfast table, still a stranger for all the ties of blood that bind
them? "It is such an amazing set of circumstances, to suddenly
discover I have a grandmother I never even knew existed, and in
less than a month after that discovery to find myself staying with

you here."

Mrs. Windboume smiles. Despite her great age, her teeth ap-
pear very strong and even; it is the strange quality of the light,
probably, that gives them a greenish cast "Laurel dear, you must
have suspected there was a grandmother somewhere in your past.
Or did you suppose your mother came into existence in anything
other than the usual way ... brought forth out of the womb of
flie earth itself in some monstrous cataclysm, or else ripped out
by force like a mandrake root?"

Laurel laughs uneasily, because it is such an odd and improper
remark, especially considering the source. She takes another sip
of the tea. There are bits of bark floating among the tiny black
leaves, and the flavor of the tea is not like anything she has ever
tasted before. However, it smells of mushrooms and cellars.

"Let us say, then. a grandmother I supposed unalterably es-
tranged and probably long since dead," she amends. "And you
never did tell me what my mother did to offend you so badly,
that you and my grandfather refused to see her ever again."

Mrs. Windboume sits up a little straighter in her carved oak
chair. The carvings consist of owls and ivy in a highly involved
pattern. Laurel wonders if some brief glimpse the night before
was the source of her nightmare.

"Is that what your mother told you?" the old woman asks in-
dignantly. "But it was Linnet who turned her back on us, who
ran away from home after a trilling quarrel and never made any
attempt to communicate with any member of the family after-
ward." She subsides a little, brushes one hand over her eyes.
"Ftahaps both sides were equally to blame. We were each too
proud to even think of making the first move. And now it is too
late for your grandfather and for poor Linnet... but how fortu-
nate that you and I somehow managed to find each other before

the end."

It makes Laurel feel hot and uncomfortable under her light
summery dress, how frankly the old woman speaks of her own
imminent demise- It was one of the first things mentioned in her
lener—that remarkable document which arrived so unexpectedly
to announce Mrs. Windboume's existence and her desire for
reconciliation—and the spreading cancer was also one of the first
things they discussed when Laurel arrived at the house. Under

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other circumstances such openness might make everything easier
and more natural, since it frees them both from so many eva-
sions. But again. Laurel is left not knowing how she ought to
feel. Should she grieve for this woman she hanily knows?

/ can grieve, anyway, for the time that has been denied us.
Feel disappointed I have so little opportunity to get really ac-
quainted with her, or to learn how to love her. Life can be so
beastly unfair sometimes!

"Grandmother, do you feel well enough to go out for a walk
this afternoon?" she asks, on a sudden conciliating impulse. "I
would so like for you to show me the garden and a little of the
forest"

"And I would like that also," Mrs. Wmdboume answers. "But
me doctor has warned me against too much air or exertion, and
I doubt I will ever leave these rooms again. However, do please
feel free to wander about as much as you like on your own."

Now Laurel thinks she has caught her grandmother in a lie.
There is a crust of mud on the soles of the old lady's shoes—
Laurel noticed it as soon as she came into the room—and a frail
leaf skeleton caught in the wispy white hair over one ear. It
seems obvious Mrs. Wmdboume has already been out for a walk
in the early morning air- But the old woman looks so ftail and
tired, me younger one feels a guilty disinclination to call her to
account

The garden is really nothing more than a patch of overgrown
ground between the back of the house and me ragged edge of the
encroaching woodlands. There is a stable, a thicket, a stagnant
fishpond, and beyond a tumbled drystone wall, what appears to
be a ruined chapel and a graveyard right in among the trees.

The weather is pleasant and not too warm, but everything
looks dull and lifeless: grass, trees, brambles, and a few scrubby
bushes over by me stable—everything limp and sapless. On the
trunks of some birches up ahead, the white bark is peeling off
like tissue paper. The oaks and the elms farther on are already
losing their leaves, and they look ugly in their semi-nakedness,
all contorted into shapes of agony. Laurel wonders if there has
been a drought in this part of the country, or if the forest and the
garden have been infected by some invisible blight Remember-
ing the dampness inside the house, she decides a drought is out
of the question.

Raising the hem of her white batiste skirt, she climbs through
a gap in the drystone wall and wanders among the gravestones.

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One of them, a little taller than the rest and draped in vines that
look somewhat greener and fresher, catches her eye, and she
bends down to examine the chiseled inscription more closely.
"NICHOLAS WINDBOURNE," it proclaims. And below that, in
smaller and rounder letters: "Nicholas Perrin."

Standing by her grandfather's grave. Laurel again realizes how
little she knows of her family history. When and why did her
grandfather change his name? It seems an extraordinary, even a
slightly disreputable, thing to do. Like a man with a secret, she
muses.

At this moment, something sharp pierces her ankle. Glancing
down and lifting the hem of her skirt a chaste few inches off the
ground, Laurel discovers she has somehow blundered into one of
the thorny vines. Her ankle, under its delicate white silk stock-
ing, is scratched and spotted with blood. And now something
truly appalling begins to happen; the vine writhes, constricts, and
begins to crawl up her leg with a sinuous, sensuous movement
that is just as indecent as it is terrifying,

Laurel screams, tries to pull away, and in doing so, uninten-
tionally steps backward onto the grave ... only to leam mat the
soil there is so soft and so loose that she instantly starts to sink.
Within seconds, she is trapped in the devouring earth up to her
knees.

But a hard hand catches hold of her shoulder, a strong arm en-
circles her waist, and someone lifts her bodily out of the grave
and deposits her safely on solid ground.

Still gasping, Laurel turns to confront her rescuer.

He is a rough-looking fellow and her first impression is all in
shades of brown: shaggy russet hair; tawny face; amber eyes
flecked with something darker; a pair of broad shoulders under
an earth-colored coat. Further impressions are more complex: He
smells of smoke and autumn leaves. He is not much older than
she is herself, and rather attractive—in a crude, unfinished sort
of way. She likes the way his hand rests at the small of her back,
me pressure of one muscular, leather-clad thigh, felt through her
skirt and petticoat. He is holding her much loo closely.

Before she can act on any of this, he steps back and releases
her. Robbed of both her breath and her dignity. Laurel seeks to
restore both by smoothing her skirt, tidying her hair. It works tol-
erably well, and she is finally able to address him with a fair de-
gree of equanimity.

"I suppose I ought to thank you," she says primly.

He regards her solemnly, yet Laurel thinks she detects a flicker

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of something ... arousal? ... curiosity? ... resentment? ... in
those amber eyes.

"You'll be the granddaughter," he states flatly, in a deep,
countrified burr.

Glancing down, Laurel sees that the entrapping tendril of vine
has withdrawn, disappeared; could it be that she only imagined
its astonishing, provocative behavior?

Feeling once more in control of the situation, she smiles gra-
ciously. "Yes, I am Laurel Springer, Mrs. Windboume*s grand-
daughter. But who are you?"

He waves a square brown hand in the direction of the stable
and on toward the house. "Josiah Marten. But you open any win-
dow and call out 'Joss.' That usually fetches me."

"Joss, then." Laurel permits her gaze to wander back to the
grave. Though she is well on the way to convincing herself that
she imagined the vine was making indecent advances, there can
be no doubt of what happened afterward. The signs of her mis-
hap are still there, clearly imprinted in the soft dirt, and she can
feel the grit inside her shoes. "Perhaps you can tell me just how
long it has been since my grandfather died and was buried here?"

Young Marten appears to make a quick mental calculation,
standing there with his hands in his pockets, the afternoon sun-
light bringing out all me colors of autumn in his russet hair.
"Must've been twenty, twenty-one years ago," he finally ven-
tures.

This takes Laurel completely by surprise. "Then why," she de-
mands indignantly, "has the earth on his grave been so recently
disturbed?"

Joss Marten shrugs a burly shoulder, and this time it is easy
for Laurel to identify the expression in his eyes: amusement,
tinged with insolence. "Not just the old man's grave," he says.
"You want to watch where you go, Miss Laurel. They do say the
land around here is unreliable, and you wouldn't be the first
pretty girl to get herself eaten alive."

Dinner is served that night, not in Mrs. Windboume's sitting
room, but in the dusty though still magnificent banquet hall on
the first floor. This is because, as the housekeeper informs Lau-
rel, her grandmother "took a bad turn" during her afternoon nap
and so feels inadequate to rise from her bed.

Determined not to pick up the manners of a rustic, no matter
how long she remains in the country, Laurel has dressed herself
in a shoulder-baring gown of black satin, fastened a cool string

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of pearls around her neck. So now she dines in solitary splendor,
off cracked china plates weirdly painted with a pattern of
carnivorous-looking flowers and nervous butterflies. The food
tastes gritty and coarse, and the wine is flavored with berries,
leading Laurel to suspect that she is sharing the servants' dinner,
while Mrs. Windboume feasts royally on the floor above. Of
course, she realizes almost at once that the idea is unworthy and
immediately abandons it

Before she retires for the night, Laurel pays a visit to her
grandmother's bedchamber, where Mrs. Windboume—propped
up in bed by numerous pillows and bolsters—receives her in a
dingy nightgown and wrapper. In her decaying linens and laces,
with her white hair unpinned and frizzled around her face, the
old lady already looks like a ghost ... or a madwoman.

And the bedroom, like the sitting room, smells damp and un-
healthy. Laurel wishes she knew her grandmother well enough to
take charge and make some changes in the way the household is
run, but she is afraid to make any suggestions for fear the old
woman will take offense. She does, however, resolve to speak
with Mrs. Windboume's doctor at the first opportunity.

Gingerly taking a seat at the foot of the bed. Laurel listens po-
litely to her grandmother's account of her most recent symptoms:

shortness of breath, a sudden giddy sensation, a dull pain in one
side where the cancer is growing. For just a moment. Laurel ex-
periences a terrifying impression that she cannot breathe either,
that something is squeezing all the air out of her chest. But the
sensation passes quickly, leaving her shaken yet strangely moved
by this unexpected sympathetic reaction to her grandmother's
suffering. Perhaps I am learning to love her after all.

It is not, however, an experience she wants to repeat. To
change the subject, she mentions her visit to the graveyard. "And
I was nearly swallowed alive ... at least, that was how your sta-
bleboy described it. A horrid turn of phrase, and I think he was
positively enjoying my discomfort."

The old woman chuckles indulgently. "You must excuse poor
Joss. Being fatherless and of half-gypsy blood he could hardly be
expected to cultivate a polished manner, though he was raised
right here in the house- He is not, in fact, a stableboy, and his du-
ties more nearly approximate those of ... a gardener and game-
keeper."

Here Laurel decides that she does not want to know what her
grandmother means by "fatherless." So she asks instead about

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the unstable ground down in the graveyard. "He said that the
land was unreliable. What could he possibly mean by that?"

Mrs. Windboume begins to fuss with the mildewed bed linens.
"I believe there are springs and underground streams that are
constantly changing course, under the property- What ancient sci-
entists and philosophers must have meant when they spoke of 'a
radical moisture.' But you needn't worry. Though the ground
does cave in from time to time, no one has actually been killed."

Now Laurel thinks she has learned something interesting about
her grandmother, from that phrase about radical moisture: the
old woman has been reading nasty old books on magic and al-
chemy, and mat would explain some of her more shocking state-
ments.

"I won't worry, then," Laurel answers coolly. "But there is

something else that puzzles me. Why did my grandfather change
his name from Perrin to Windboume?"

Her grandmother sighs and settles back against the pillows.
"Because the house and the land and all the other property be-
longed to me. The Windbourne inheritance always descends in
the female line. And because we could not marry unless he
agreed to take the family name and ... certain obligations ...
and pass them on to his own descendents." The old woman
smiles, faintly malicious, showing the green teeth. "The Perrin
family is nothing. Prosperous yeoman farmers with very little
breeding. But the moment I saw Nicholas—so stout and strong
and virile as he was—I knew he was the one for me. And as my
mother was dying at the time, and my father never could deny
me anything, I eventually got him."

"How very interesting," says Laurel, not sounding interested
at all. But in fact she is interested, though somewhat repulsed.
Because she suddenly realizes that she may be heir to all this
moldering grandeur ... as well as the unwomanly freedom and
independence that seem to be a part of the Windboume inheri-
tance,

In the morning. Laurel cannot remember her dreams, but she
carries a vague, uneasy presentiment through the rest of that day
and me days which follow. She is much occupied during that
time with nursing her grandmother, who has most decidedly

"taken a turn" for the worse.

Mrs. Windboume's pain is heart-wrenching. And there is re-
ally very little that Laurel can do for the dying woman—
certainly not anything that the housekeeper and the other

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servants could not do as well. But her company seems to be par-
ticularly wanted, so Laurel spends practically every day from
first rising until bedtime at her grandmother's side.

Until one day when the walls of the house begin to feel too
close and confining, the sickly, oppressive atmosphere in her
grandmother's bedchamber becomes unbearable, and Laurel es-
capes for a walk in the fresh air. This time, however, she avoids
the graveyard, and follows a narrow path leading into the heart
of the forest.

The trees are ailing; there is no longer any question about that.
Though it is still early summer, the oaks and the elms have
dropped the last of their leaves, and the fragile skeletons crunch
under her feet as she walks. The birches have shed so much bark,
they look raw and vulnerable. And there is a faint odor of decay
that reminds Laurel of the sickroom.

The bushes to one side of the path rustle and stir, and Joss
Marten appears on the trail about five feet in front of her. Laurel
greets him with a catch of her breath, a faint tingling of
pleasure—after so many days with the invalid, she is irresistibly
drawn to his virile good looks.

But pleasure turns to irritation as he stares at her with dull
hostile eyes and growls, "Still here, are you?"

Laurel tosses her head. "And why shouldn't I be here, Josiah
Marten? I have been invited to stay for as long as I wish."

Joss shrugs a broad shoulder. What he has been doing off by
himself in the forest. Laurel does not like to guess. There are
clods of dirt adhering to his clothes, and fragments of leaves and
moss in his russet hair. He looks as though he has been burrow-
ing under the earth like a rabbit or a badger. 'Thought you might
have sense enough to go before your grandmother dies ... you
won't find much opportunity afterward."

So ... Laurel thinks, her mind beginning to whirl with inter-
esting possibilities ... it would appear that I am the heir. And if
I am, he is probably correct: I daresay everyone expects me to
take charge at once and get the house in order, and that will cer-
tainly be a formidable task. It is a task, however, which appeals
strongly to her passion for organization. Assuming of course,
there is any money left to accomplish all the things that have to
be done, that everything here has gone to rack and ruin simply
because my grandmother is too old and too ill to care anymore,
and not because the family fortunes are decaying along with the
house.

She would like to ask Joss what he knows about this. but of

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course it would be improper to discuss her grandmother's fi-
nances with one of the servants. Besides, she does not entirely
care for the way he is looking at her.

But when she turns aside to lake another path, he reaches out
with a big rough hand to stop her. "You don't want to go wan-
dering off into the woods alone. There's snakes in them bushes,
and spiders, too. And the foxes and the weasels run mad in the
hot weather—didn't no one ever tell you that?"

Now Laurel would like to pretend he has not frightened her,
but in fact he has, and she cannot entirely conceal her dismay.
Although she can Just tolerate dogs, cats, and horses, she has an
unreasoning fear of brute creation—the kind of fear that leads
to panics and to cold sweats—instilled by her mother at an
early age, and as for creatures that have too many legs or not

enough ...

She swallows hard, glances back over her shoulder to reassure
herself that there are no rabid foxes or weasels anywhere in
sight. Yet she manages to keep the panic out of her voice when
she speaks. "It is difficult to imagine anything living amidst all
this withering. Why are the trees dying ... or don't you know?"

His hold on her wrist relaxes, his arm drops. "There's a story
the old folks tell, but maybe you don't want to hear it"

Laurel gives a false little laugh. "Of course I do ... though I
certainly don't promise to believe everything you tell me."

Again he gives that annoying shrug, again she detects an am-
biguous expression in his amber eyes. "Well enough, then, since
you insist. In the ancient times, they say, the forest would begin
to fade once every thirty, forty years. Then the priests they had
in those days would take one of the village girls—she had to be
a virgin—and carry her off by force into the woods, where they
had built themselves an altar to their heathen gods. Once they
had her there ..."' He makes a quick expressive gesture with
one hand across his throat. "They do say, also, that the trees and
the beasts and even the earth still remember that time."
Now Laurel is simply furious. He is deliberately trying to
scare me! Suddenly, a great many things begin to make sense.
His questionable antecedents, his being raised right in the house
... he is undoubtedly some bastard of me Windboumes or the
Perrins, and perhaps he is foolish enough to suppose that gives
him some claim to the house and the property? It is clear by
now, anyway, that he resents Laurel and that he is trying to get
rid of her. Perhaps resentful enough to rig up a trap in the grave-
yard, in order to give his wild pagan stories some credibility?

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Enough to start digging another pit somewhere in the forest and
to almost get himself caught just now in the very act?

"You are despicable," she tells him, between her teeth. "Ut-
terly beneath contempt." And she turns on her heel and leaves
him alone on the forest path.

Much to her relief, he makes no effort to call her back or to
follow after her.

Returning to the house, Laurel discovers that Mrs. Wind-
boume's doctor has finally put in an appearance. He is a wizened
little man in tweeds and a pair of dark spectacles, not particularly
prepossessing, but as he is the first medical man to set foot in-
side the house since her arrival. Laurel takes him into one of the
dim parlors and launches into a detailed account of her grand-
mother's suffering.

Halfway through the conversation, she realizes that he is not a
physician at all—just a country apothecary who dabbles in herbal-
ism on the side. But Mrs. Windboume, he assures Laurel, will not
admit a regular doctor into her bedchamber ... perhaps because
she retains some outdated notions about cupping and bleeding.

"But surely," says Laurel, growing a little desperate, "there is
something you can do to make her more easy. She is in so much
pain! Laudanum perhaps, or even morphine?"

"No," the apothecary answers with a mournful shake of his
head. "Either of these would cloud her mind, and she desires to
stay lucid until the very end, no matter the cost in pain and suf-
fering."

At this Laurel feels a twinge of guilt. At the same time, she is
deeply moved. It is obviously for her sake that Mrs. Windboume
wishes to remain alert and aware, not wishing to waste a single
precious moment of their remaining time together. And I have
been too cold and selfish to return the half of her affection. Yet
if she has been cool and distant in the past, she can at least re-
solve to be warmer and more receptive in the future.

When she goes upstairs to visit her grandmother, a half hour
later. Laurel is still feeling chastened. Because of that, she de-
cides not to mention her encounter with Joss Marten down in the
forest, decides not to speak of anything that might cause her
grandmother the slightest distress.

Laurel comes to herself in the darkness. She cannot see, she
can barely breathe. A great stifling weight is pressing her down,
and her arms and legs have gone as cold and lifeless as clay.

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"/ am sorry," says a gentle voice inside her head. "But the
forest and I were dying. You must understand, you were the heir,
and there was nobody else thai was at all suitable."

With a thrill of horror. Laurel understands that she is under
the ground. There is dirt in her eyes and in her nose and her
mouth: she can hear the dull thud of more clods descending. But
a strange thing happens to Laurel: she does not die, she simply
changes. Her flesh becomes earth, her bones become roots, her
hair grass, her eyes—

Laurel wakes to feel a hard pair of hands dragging her out of
her bed, a strong pair of arms lifting her up. For a moment, all
is darkness and confusion, mixed with the scent of woodsmoke
and autumn leaves, before she begins to comprehend what is

happening.

"How dare you, Josiah Marten. How dare you accost me in
my grandmother's house, my own bedchamber," she rages, strug-
gling in his grip.

But he only laughs and crushes her more painfully against his
chest as he carries her out of the room, down a dim hallway, and
finally to the top of a long pair of stairs. "You was warned. Miss
Laurel, but you was too stubborn to listen. Didn't I tell you that
you had to go away while you still could? Couldn't you see plain
enough, down in the graveyard, that the forest wanted you? But
you, you chose to stay in spite of everything, and that was
enough to satisfy the old woman."

Laurel continues to rage and to struggle, but to no avail. And
she does not really listen to what he says—or rather, the meaning
of his words only penetrate her conscious mind when they finally
reach Ac bottom of the steps and she finds her grandmother

waiting there.

Mrs. Windboume is paler than ever and so unsteady she must
lean against the newel post for support, but she is smiling trium-
phantly.

In that moment, Laurel realizes that her common sense has be-
trayed her. All this time, she has been trying to come up with ra-
tional explanations for the events surrounding her, never stopping
to think that the other people involved might be utterly irrational.

"You are simply insane," gasps Laurel, as Joss lowers her to
the floor. He allows her to stand on her own feet, but he still
keeps a strong grip on both her arms, holding them securely be-
hind her. "Do you really believe that you are dying just because
some trees and bushes and vines are withering away at the same

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time? It is the cancer ... the cancer is killing you, and you can't
save yourself by sacrificing me."

"I am in full possession of my senses, Laurel dear," the old
woman replies calmly. "And of course the cancer is killing me.
I told you that myself; you never heard it from anyone else."

Laurel lets out her breath in a long sigh, shakes the hair out of
her eyes. 'Then what on earth is this all about? Why have you
sent this man to pull me out of my bed in the middle of the
night, and what was that nonsense he was telling me? Maiden
sacrifices and the forest wanting me, and my having to make a
choice? And why ..." she adds tremulously, because her slight-
est movement causes Joss to tighten his hold, and she can feel
that his fingers are going to leave bruises on the tender inside
flesh of her arms. "... why won't he let me go, if nobody means
me any harm?"

"As to nonsense," her grandmother answers, "I am afraid that
it's all perfectly true. In ancient times, they did shed the blood of
me occasional maiden—until a better way was found. Really, my
dear, you disappoint me. I was sure you would be clever enough
to guess the truth by now. / am not dying because the forest is
ailing, the forest is dying along with me."

Mrs. Windboume smiles, making an obvious display of the
strong green teeth. "And no one means to kill you. Laurel. On
the contrary, I mean to confer on you ... a kind of immortality."

The trees are beginning to revive down in the forest. Trees,
bushes, vines ... where all was weak and flaccid before, a vital
tension has been restored. A pulse of life passes through the
earth, leaving a greening world in its wake.

From her vantage point at Mrs. Windboume's latticed bed-
chamber window, the woman behind the veil can see it all
changing from moment to moment. It is, at the same time, terri-
ble and wonderful to behold.

But when Joss Marten appears down below—unusually neat
and precise in a black suit and a white collar—crosses the gar-
den, and slips out of sight again in the vicinity of the entrance to
die house, she forces herself to turn away from the window. With
a rustle of satin skirts, she glides over to the great four-poster
bed and looks down at the body that is lying there.

Death has turned Laurel's grandmother into a wax figure:

pure, changeless, serene. No sign remains of her recent suffering.
If the signs are to be seen anywhere, they are on Laurel's face

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behind the veil, as if something passed out of the old woman at
the moment of death and into her granddaughter.
There is a light scratching at the half-open door, and in re-
sponse to Laurel's invitation the housekeeper enters. ''Time for
you to go down. The guests have all arrived." Her glance slides
past the corpse lying on the bed but never quite reaches Laurel.
"You wouldn't want to keep them all waiting on such an impor-
tant occasion."

"Yes, I can hear them."

It would be difficult not to. From the rooms on the ground
floor came many sounds: grunting, growling, squeaking, hooting,
the occasional scrape of moving furniture, the thud of something
carelessly knocked over. Yet Laurel takes a few moments to
smooth out the skirt of her pale silk gown, to adjust her white
lace veil.

Then, with a mixture of joy and trepidation, she begins the
long walk down to the banquet hall where the wedding guests
and her bridegroom are waiting.

THE SCARS OF W

Echoes in flesh and wood

These Shoes Strangers
Have Died Or

by Bruce Holland Rogers

Bruce Holland Rogers has been published in F&SF, Ellery
Queen's Mystery Magazine, Quarterly West and many
other periodicals. A story of his, "Enduring as Dust," was
nominated/or an Edgar. His work has also appeared in a
number of antholgies, including DAW'S Witch Fantastic.

Nineteen forty-two was the first summer of the war bond cam-
paign. After the newsreels and before-the feature, a government
clip showed a Japanese soldier bayoneting a Chinese baby. The
voice-over said again and again, "Buy a bond. Kill a Jap. Buy a
bond. Kill a Jap."

The rifle with its bayonet rose and fell. People coming out of
the theater later would look at me, a young man old enough to
shave. Some of them asked me outright why I hadn't enlisted.
"I'll be old enough in September," I'd say.
After the theater was empty, I'd sweep the aisles and then sit
in one of the middle seats, the popular ones even on slow nights
and matinees. I'd close my eyes and grip the wooden armrests.
Beneath my palms the joy and fear and anger and relief that oth-
ers had felt in this theater moved in the wood grain like a nest
of animals, stirring.
Buy a bond. Kill a Jap-
Feelings like a knot you can't begin to untie.
"Kill a Jap. Be a Jap," I said to the curtained screen.

The house I live in now was built to my own design on the
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dark. The first floor is half buried so that the second floor won't
rise above the trees, won't too easily reveal the house. To drive
here, you must follow a pair of wheel ruts that turn off from the
gravel road five miles distant. Unless you know where to look,
underbrush hides the way. I stay put in winter. For five months
of the year, the snow between house and road lies undisturbed.

On the second floor is a Corner room without windows-
There's a deadbolt on the door to that room, and a padlock. In-
side, a Nazi battle flag hangs on one wall alongside photos of the
camps. Black and white photos of the living and the dead. The
far side of that wall is devoted to wartime posters of buck-
toothed Japanese. There's a photo of me as I was in 1943, a new-
minted soldier, posing with fixed bayonet and glaring at the
camera as if the lens were Tojo himself.

Buy a bond. Kill a Jap.

The war, my war, is limited to that wall. The other walls are
papered with photographs of skulls stacked in Cambodia, bodies
swelling in the sun of Burundi or Rwanda, mass graves opened
like ripe fruit split wide to spill their seeds. Some of the news-
paper images have yellowed. Some are fresh.

Nina, my agent, has seen the locked door, but has never asked
what's on the other side. She has other things on her mind.
"Build a studio in Boulder or Denver," she says to me twice a
year. "You'd be close to the galleries- All of this would be so
much easier"

She wants me out of the mountains. If I had a heart attack, a
stroke, no one would know unless I radioed for help myself. Park
County Rescue would have to travel the same pair of wheel ruts
that Nina's hired truck negotiates, spring and fall, when it comes
to take my work to the galleries.

"I can hunt deer from my front porch," I tell her. "Could I do
that in Denver or Boulder?"

In the closet of the locked room, I keep the shoes, the boots,
the uniforms.

The shoes are flattened, sun-cracked—a right shoe hidden
among high weeds in El Salvador, a left shoe I stole from
Bergen-Belsen, a right that I dug from the rotting mud of Cam-
bodia. Shoes strangers have died of. Shoes that fit me. I only
keep the ones that do.

Some of the boots are like the shoes—dry-rotted, split-seamed.
The others go with the uniforms, patent leather boots hand-
polished until they gleam like black glass.

A full-length mirror hangs on the inside of the closet door.

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Several of the uniforms are simple: fatigues of the Ugandan
security forces, the Khmer Rouge, Brazilian or Chilean troops
assigned to domestic duty. Khaki is interchangeable with tan,
with gray, with blue.

It's the black uniform that I prize above the others. It's the
black that I dress in to stand before the mirror. On the World
War n wall, young men in dress uniforms like this one smile
easy smiles.

I smile their smiles for the mirror, feeling what is natural to
feel in such a uniform. Invincibility. Pride. The twin lightning
bolts on the collar have everything and nothing to do with his-
tory. The death's head in me band of the cap is timeless.

To my smiling reflection, I say, "What are we to do with you?
What is to be done?" The question is no abstraction. It's a prac-
tical matter. It's the question I must ask each day before I begin
to carve.

Today, though, it's more practical than ever.

Downstairs on my couch is a young man, bound and gagged.

What am I to do with him?

The silver skull insignia gleams.

I hang the uniform and dress for work.

Snow covers the studio skylight. The shadows are soft, deep,
and blue. Before turning on the lights, I run my hands over the
rough-hewn block.

When I begin a new piece, even when I can feel into the wood
and know exactly what I'm cutting down to, the first hours of
work are always a struggle. The wood resists. Chisels skip off,
and saw blades twist out of shape as if I were trying to cut my
way through granite. 1 have to prove myself each time, coax the
echoes from the grain.

Then, once I have the shape roughed out, the heartwood soft-
ens, yields, invites me in. My blades melt through crosscuts as if
I were carving butter. The wood guides the tools, and the face,
the shoulder, the hand emerges.

For the piece I am working on today, me early stage lasts a
long time. The wood is green. Ordinarily, I cure the wood before
I work, but in this case, I don't have the time. Resin sticks to my
tools.

After two hours of work in the studio, I brush the sawdust
from my coveralls and come downstairs to have a look at him.
His eyes are wide, but it's hard to say if what I see in them is
fear. He's young. Young, but old enough to shave.

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Hanging near the stove where I put them out to dry are his
black jeans, black T-shirt, and motorcycle boots. He wears the
jeans and work shut I dressed him in, a size too large.

His hands, tied together, rest in his lap. The knuckles of his
left hand are tattooed with F-U-C-K, and the right with K-I-L-L.
Though his feet are tied together, he has kicked the books from
one of my shelves, the only damage he's been at liberty to do.
Shirer, Arendt, Camus. History and philosophy in a little pile at
his feet

I say, "If only you had a match, right?*'

He glares. I watch him breathe.

It seems to me as if the wooden faces in the room are watch-
ing him, too—the teak faces locked in screams, the anguished
expressions in pine or spruce or ebony. All the hollow wooden
eyes take him in.

Untying the gag is like breaking a dam. Obscenities flow from
him like water.

"I wouldn't have to gag you," I tell him, "if you could keep
a civil tongue."

"Fuck you."

I remind him that I saved his life.

"Fuck if you did," be says. "They'd have come back for me."

"I told you. There have been no new tracks in the snow. They
haven't been back."

"Fuck you," he says, but he must know his confederates, must
understand the truth as I tell it to him.

"You'd be frozen solid without me," I say, "so whatever I do
to you now, it's better than that, right? It's better than being
dead."

I force the gag back into his mouth before he can answer. If
I don't, he'll shout his lungs out and I won't be able to concen-
trate.

I go back to work.

I earn more for Nina than all of her other clients combined- If
she worries that I will have a heart attack, it is only because of
the money,

She is not without compassion, but some of the things she has
done for me have hardened her. The Auschwitz crossbeam was
one.

I grant few interviews. Shouldn't the work speak for itself?
But sometimes an interview brings its surprises. I once regretted
aloud that there was no wood from Auschwitz for me to carve.

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A month after my words were in print, Nina had a call from the
Israeli government. They'd have preferred a Jewish artist, but no
one else achieves my effects.

The crossbeam came from one of the barracks torn down after
the war. It had, for a time, supported the roof of a Polish barn.

When they flew me in to inspect it, I did not ask how the
beam had come to Israel, to a warehouse where it lay in a mil-
itary truck bed like a missile.

The Deputy Minister of Culture, standing before the truck,
waved some documentation under my nose. I stepped past him
and touched the wood. Even after forty years, it was alive with
ghosts.

"We will give it to you," he said, "on the condition that you
cut it in half and produce two finished works, one of which you
will return to us. For the memorial."

I agreed.

They could not know how dense the wood was with tortured
faces, with gestures of pain and despair. Back in the States, I cut
the beam in half, as agreed. Then I split each half lengthwise and
carved four pieces instead of two. Let the Israelis imagine that
I'd had to carve deep to find the images I gave them. Let them
think the missing wood littered the floor of my studio as chips
and dust.

All four finished pieces were a tangied knot of victims.

Nina told me, "You can't sell the extras. You'll give yourself
away."

"We will sell them," I said. "Sealed bids. Secret bids. We'll
give slides for Hauptmann to circulate among likely buyers."

Nina's arms were crossed. "Not Hauptmann. I won't go
through Hauptmann again. Even talking to him on the phone, I
feel dirty."

"So write him. Mail him the slides."

"But the bidders he will bring us ..,"

"It's what I want, Nina."

"This is the last time I go through Hauptmann."

I said nothing. No one else knew the people Hauptmann knew.

A month later, Nina flung the list at my face. "Do you see
where these bids are coming from? Do you see?"

I picked up the loose pages from my floor, looked at the
names and offers. "Here," I said, and pointed at a bid from El
Salvador. "This can only be Rosado himself. It's not the nighest
bid, but I want you to sell it to him."

"If we weren't using Hauptmann's list, I could find someone

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else," Nina said. "A collector. An investor who would put it
away in a vault for his heirs. The money would be better, and—"

"Sell it to Rosado."
"In God's name, why?" Nina said. "Why do you want some-
one like him to have it?"

"If I'm lucky," I said, "he'll install it over his bed."

Nina's face was pale.

"Sell it to him, Nina. In a way, it's his already."

Then I picked another bid, one Nina liked no better.

The last carving we sold openly to the Museum of Modem
Art.

Once or twice a year, I look for trees in the killing fields.
Some are old fields. Some are fresh. I walk around the tree
trunks, touching them, feeling for the echoes. Then I direct the
cutting of the logs that will be shipped to the States, trucked
from Denver to the house and studio in the mountains,

Usually, the freshest sources are the hardest to get to. Not al-
ways, though. Not always.

A logging road runs parallel to my canyon, on the other side
of the ridge. If I have unwelcome visitors, that's usually where
they come from.

The night I found my guest, I was reading. I heard the crack
of a rifle shot.

I turned my lights off, shut down the generator.

Snow was falling. It had been coming down for hours in a fine
powder, the sort of snow that continues, steadily, all through one
day and into the next.

When 1 stepped outside, I could hear their voices at the top of
the ridge.

There was another shot. Youthful laughter. Raised voices.

Then silence.

When at last I heard one of the voices again, there was no
mirth in it. Indistinct words. Then another voice, pleading.

Again, silence. Enduring silence.

I waited a long time before getting the kerosene lantern out
and putting on my boots. Ordinary boots. Sorels. I had no way
of knowing that something special would be waiting for me at
the top of the ridge.

Lighting my way with the lantern, I found my way up the
slope to a small clearing. Fresh snowfall hadn't yet covered the

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shell casings and beer bottles that appeared in the lantern's circle
of yellow light.

A shadow caught my eye, and I extended the lantern toward
it Stretched out on bloody snow was a body. The bald head was
uncovered. Vapor clouds of breath rose from the face. The eyes
were closed.

An old man. I thought. Lantern light is tricky. It took a mo-
ment for me to see that, no, his face was unlined. He was young.
Stepping closer, I saw the swastikas tattooed on his arm.

When I leaned to see his face, my hand fell upon the trunk,
and I paused, taking it all in.

I got my first taste of fighting in the fall of '44, in the Hiirtgen
Forest. The trees of the Hiirtgen were still just trees to me then.
I had the same feelings for them any infantryman would. When
they gave cover to my unit's advance, I loved them. When Ger-
man shells exploded among the branches over our heads, they
rained down limbs heavy as stones, splinters sharp as shrapnel.
We grenade-felled trees to clear booby traps, to build an instant
bridge over tangles of barbed wire. Trees were obstacles, trees
were useful. The tang of fresh resin filled the air.

1 paid more attention to the Germans.

Up close, as I stepped over them, the German dead in the
Hiirtgen could have been my cousins. Even after news of
Malmedy, I didn't hate them. I understood what had to be done.
I did it.

Buy a bond. Kill a Jap,

Kill a Jerry. A Nazi.

The swastika tattoos on the kid's arms are sharp-edged and
very black. He hasn't had them long.

"Do you know what I think?" I say to him. I haven't removed
the gag this time. His eyes bore into me.

"I think," I tell him, "that when a victim isn't handy, one
needs to be manufactured. Am I right?"

His eyes narrow. His gaze shifts to the deer rifle by the door,
but even if he unties himself while I'm upstairs, he'll find that
it's unloaded.

"I'm lucky that you and your companions didn't know I was
here—an old man living alone. An artist with shelves of history
books. I'd have been a more interesting victim, don't you think?
I'd have been perfect. You might be drinking a beer with them
right now, remembering, laughing. Instead, you had a little sur-

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prise. Like Rohm's surprise. You know about Rohm, of course,
about what happened to him. You know all about the turn things
can take."

His lips work around the gag, but he's only trying to swallow.
There's no question, no understanding in his eyes.

"Ah. Never heard of Rohm. Well. It's an old, old story- Your
friends, your compatriots, they really did surprise you, yes?"

He doesn't nod, but emotions play over his face like shadows.
He was surprised. He still doesn't understand it.

"Your strength is that you might do anything." I lower my
voice, lean toward him. "Anything." I smile. "But that's the dan-
ger, too. Do you understand? Hitler purged his lieutenants. You
should know that. You should know what history can teach you
about yourself."

From the books on the floor, I select Shirer's Rise and Fall.
"We could start here," I say hefting the thick volume. "Shall I
read you a chapter? Shall we begin at the beginning?"

Oh, the hate in his eyes.

"No," I say. "That's not the right sort of history for you. You
need something tailored to you, yes? Something more personal,
more relevant to your present situation. In fact, let's not call it
history at all. Let's call it a crime story, set in me winter of '44.
A crime story. A puzzle. I'll give you the crime. You tell me the
motive."

The snow was deep, and in places the wind was piling it
deeper still. Here and there, it came up to my belt.

I held my rifle at port arms and kept a good ten feet between
myself and my prisoner. I doubted that he'd try to jump me for
the gun—his own lines were far away, now, melting back into
Germany—but SS soldiers were a cocky lot.

I wished for tire ruts to walk in. Even with the prisoner blaz-
ing the trail, wading through the snow was wearing me out, and
we were still a long hike from Battalion HQ.

I heard, like an answered prayer, the sound of engines. A cou-
ple of Jeeps emerged from the forest below and turned toward us.
The paths left by their churning wheels invited me, and I
thought, Hallelujah!

Planning to wait for the jeeps to pass, I said to the prisoner,
"Hold up. Halt."

An explosion belted my gut like a sucker punch. I hit the deck,
but the German remained standing, hands still clasped calmly be-
hind his head. He smirked at me-

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"Nur cine Landmine," he said in a voice that might be ex-
plaining thunder to a child. "Nichts befurchten."

Memory is tricky. That probably isn't exactly what he said. I
did not leam German until after the war.

One of the jeeps was upside down, and the snow had been
blown clear for ten feet around it

I stood up and let my rifle point more emphatically at the Ger-
man while I brushed snow from the front of my jacket with my
other hand.

Around us trees swayed in the wind.

"Okay," I said as deeply as I could manage. "Now march!"

A third jeep had pulled up behind the other two, then turned
around to go back for medics. Running down the opposite slope
of the valley, churning snow before him like a plow, was some
GI who must have popped out of a foxhole. He was shouldering
an aidman's bag.

I didn't have to hurry my prisoner. He waded forward reso-
lutely, as if eager to draw closer.

One of the jeep's passengers, an infantryman, was lying
facedown in the crater. He had no legs. Another guy was ly-
ing beside the tree trunk he'd been thrown against, and nothing
but his mouth was moving. He said, "Jesus, sweet Jesus," again
and again.

The third man, a lieutenant, lay on his back with the jeep pin-
ning his chest. The aidman leaned close to see if he was breath-
ing.

He wasn't.

Clicking his tongue as we passed, my prisoner said, and this
I'm almost sure of, "Daft ist also das Kriegsgluck."

The aidman looked up. There was an 82nd Airborne patch on
his shoulder. "What did he say?"

"I don't know," I admitted. "I don't speak German."

From the other jeep, a man said, "Thinks he's clever, don't
he?"

It was true. The German was smirking as he surveyed the
scene.

The dead lieutenant looked asleep, eyes half closed, mouth
slack. He was young, a ninety-day wonder.

"You take that Jerry son of a bitch into the woods," the aid-
man told me, "and you shoot that grin off his goddamn face."

The prisoner shook his head very slightly and clicked his
tongue again. I prodded him with the gun barrel. "Stop that shit.
Keep moving."

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The aidman crouched beside the man who'd been thrown
against the tree, but over his shoulder he said, "If you were Air-
borne, you'd take my advice."

It was easier to walk in the tire ruts.

A while later, the jeep that had gone back for help came
rolling through the snow, ferrying medics to where the mine had
blown the first jeep. They drove slowly, slaying in the tracks,
wary of another mine. We stood aside to let them through.

Very quietly, the prisoner started singing, bobbing his head in
time with the song. It was a march. It was a true believer's song.
"Knock it off," I said to his back-
He stopped, but before long he had started it up again.
"Come on," I said. "You've made your point."
He stopped singing, but he still bobbed his head from side to
side, and he turned slightly, awkwardly because his hands were
still clasped behind his neck, I saw enough of his face to see the
smirk again.

"What is it with you?" I said. "Halt!"
He stopped and turned full around to face me.
We stood, watching each other.His eyes were the color of ice, of 
winter skies.
"Let's take a detour. Up there." I gestured with my head, up
the slope, away from the tire ruts.

He unclasped his hands and pointed, tentatively, over his head.
"You got it," I said. "Let's go."

As we walked, wading again through deep drifts, he began
once again to sing. Loudly. This time, I didn't shut him up.

The farther we went, the more densely the pine trees crowded
around us.

Remember, this is a mystery. Why was I doing this? I can tell
you, it wasn't the Malmedy massacre. And all the rest, all the ru-
mors, smacked of propaganda.
I made him stop, then turn to face me.
The trees circled us like witnesses.

I brought the Ml to my shoulder and pointed it at his chest.
"Doctor's orders," I told him, "courtesy of the 82nd Air-
borne."

I watched where I was aiming—the center of his chest.
The rifle report echoed from the surrounding hills.
He pitched back and hardly kicked. It had been a clean shot,
a hunter's shot His back arched for a moment, then fell.
Then, when it was too late, I wanted to know what his face

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had been like before I had shot him. Was he surprised? Was he
smirking?

I couldn't tell. Dead, his face was a mask.

My knees got weak. I knelt next to him in the snow.

There was a secret here.

The smell of blood was like copper in the cold air. I thought
of hunting again, of killing and dressing out deer, spilling their
steaming guts onto the snow.

I detached my bayonet, opened his coat and shirt, unbuckled
his belt. A bayonet is not a hunting knife. It's made for stabbing,
not slicing. The blade is too long for good leverage. But I made
it do, opening him up, spilling him out, looking for clues. Blood
up to my elbows.

Months later, when we began to liberate the camps, I told my-
self that there was justice in what I had done. But the killing pre-
ceded the motive. Even though I had heard the rumors, I only
believed in the camps when I saw them myself.

"So," I say to him, "it's a mystery, isn't it? Why did I kill
him?'

He had listened intently. I pat his leg, and he doesn't try to
kick me.

"And here you are, another mystery. Another Nazi, delivered
into my hands. But things are different. I didn't kill you, I saved
you. What for? What happens next?"

His eyes are wide.

There is more. After I dressed out the SS trooper and strung
his unreadable entrails across the snow, I pulled off his boots.

My hands were sticky. I washed them with snow, then undid
my laces with numb fingers.

I had to stamp down hard to get his boots to fit my feet

I walked around him, in his own boots, searching. Then I hap-
pened to rest my hand on the trunk of a pine tree.

And I felt him inside.

If the bayonet was a bad hunting knife, it was even worse for
carving. At best, I could only strip the bark in the place where
my trembling fingers detected him. But he was there. If I could
free him of the wood, I would know what his face had looked
like in his last moment.

But I lacked the tools.

For the rest of the war, I kept rinding other faces in other trees.
At Stavelot, where the SS had shot Belgian children, I found a

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face in a garden birch tree. In broken French, I explained. A
farmer lent me his hand ax, and I did the detail work with an-
other man's pocket knife.

The farmer, watching me work, watching the face that

emerged, shed quiet tears. The face, I was made to understand,

was his niece's.

Many times since the war, I have searched the Ardennes for-
est. I have never been able to find the spot where I killed the
trooper. I have never been able to find the tree.

I remove his gag.
He says nothing.

I say, 'That's belter. That's much belter."
He is looking at the wooden faces, shaking his head. "It's bull-
shit," he says at last. "I don't fucking believe you."
"What part don't you believe?"
"Ghosts," he says. "I don't believe m ghosts."
"Not ghosts," I tell him. "That's not what they are."
I go back to the studio to work, to finish what I have worked

on all the time that he's been here.

Really, it is necessary to wear the uniform, to pull those shin-
ing boots over your calves and pose and smile. I have the Luger
that matches the uniform. It is not a heavy gun, but without the
weight of it in its glossy holster, the uniform and its truth are in-
complete.

The commander of SS troops at Malmedy, at Stavelot, was Lt.

Col. Jochen Peiper. Sentenced to hang, confident of reprieve, he
called the war "a proud and heroic time. Wherever we stood was
Germany, and as far as my tank gun reached was my kingdom."

The boots are proud and heroic.

The holster is proud and heroic.

The insignia gleam.

When I come downstairs again, he has freed his hands and is
working at the ropes that bind his feet. He hears me coming, but
seems unconcerned until he looks up and sees the uniform.

I unholster the Luger.
He hardly seems to notice the boots and canvas bag I carry in

my other hand. All his attention is on the gun.

"Isn't it beautiful?" I say, but I mean the uniform, not the gun.
"Go on." I wave the muzzle at him casually. "It's time for us to
go. Finish untying yourself."

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He doesn't move.

"Come on," I tell him. "I haven't gol all day."

"What are you going to do?"

"Shut up," I tell him, "and get those ropes off your feet"

When he has freed himself, I tell him to stand. He grunts and
holds his side where he must have taken a kick to the ribs. I
make him strip and dress in his own clothes. All but his boots.

"Wear these," I say. I toss the boots—very much like the ones
I am wearing, only these ones do not shine. They are boots that
have seen the battlefield. They are scarred. The leather is
cracked.

I say, "You can't get them on by staring at them."

He had no coat when I found him. I tell him to bring the blan-
ket from the couch. It's an old woolen one that I won't miss.

"Now out," I say. "Back to where I found you."

"I'm thirsty," he says, "and hungry."

"If you had the gun and I were the one who was hungry,
would you feed me?"

He thinks about it. "Yes."

"All right." I herd him into the kitchen. Without taking my
eyes from him, I get down a box of crackers. At the sink, oe
drinks water from his cupped hands. Then he eats a handful of
the crackers.

"That's enough," I say. 'Take the box. Eat them later."

The snow has gone on falling almost all me time he's been
with me. I can find no tracks. The snow is up to our knees.

We need a tune for marching. I whistle the regimental march
of the Liebstcauiarte Adolf Hitler.

Very quietly, he says, "Please,"

I stop whistling.

We march.

He says, "What will happen?"

I say, "What are we to do with the killers, with the people who
are filled with hate?"

"I never killed anyone," he says-

"But you have hurt people. Don't ask me to believe that you
haven't done that."

I start to whistle the march again. Then I stop to say, "Do
you know that in Germany, that music is illegal? They'll throw
you in jail just for carrying the tune. There's a long list of for-
bidden music. What do you think of that?"

He says, "I don't understand you. Who are you?"

By which he must mean, Whose side are you on?

164 Bruce Holland Rogers

Once I was at a gallery opening of my recent work. This set
of sculptures had been especially demanding. Like the Auschwilz
crossbeams, each piece incorporated a score of twisted faces, a
hundred twisted limbs. Drawing them out had exhausted me. I
could hardly stand to look at them.

The wood had come from Cambodian trees.

The gallery was full. Patrons had wineglasses in their hands as
they went from one piece to another. Sometimes an art opening
is noisy as a cocktail party. Mine tend to be subdued. This one
was silent.

Nina and the gallery owner had already seen the pieces, and I
was relieved to find, as I stood in the middle of the room with
them, that they, like me, were in the mood for something else.
anything else. We managed to hold a conversation in the middle
of the room, focusing on each other, ignoring the little wooden
hells that were all around us. And it worked. Before long we re-
ally did forget ourselves.

The gallery owner said something that struck me as funny. I
laughed. I put my head back and roared.

A woman wheeled from one of the sculptures and shouted,
"How can you laugh in here? How can you?"

It is easy for me to find the spot on the ridge where I had
found him. There's the stump of the pine tree that I felled while
he was still unconscious.

"Stand there," I say. "Right where I found you."

He doesn't move.

I wave the pistol and say, "Come on."

He looks at me, hesitates, then steps sideways to the spot.

"I don't know about you," I say. "I don't know how far gone
you might be, how you got started down this path."

"You won't—"

"Shut up," I say. "It doesn't matter whether I know or not. I
only have one answer. There's only one thing for me to do about
you and others like you."

I toss him the canvas bag. Catching it, he drops the box of
crackers.

"Open it up," I say, and he does. He takes out the sculpture of
the hand, and he doesn't know what to make of it until he turns
it the right way, can see the meaning of the outstretched fingers,
die unmistakable gesture.

Please. I'm hurt. I'm down. No more. Please.

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"I took it out of the tree," I tell him, nodding at the stump.
With his free hand, he touches his side where his ribs still
ache. His expression seems more angry than sad, more vengeful
than softened with wisdom. But who knows?
He opens his mouth, begins to form a word.
"No," I say. "It doesn't matter. We're finished already."
He looks at the boots on his feet. The boots strangers have
died of. When he looks up, I'm pointing the pistol at his chest
I watch his face. His expression is impossible to read-

1 turn away, begin to retrace my steps. I, too, wear boots. The
lustrous leather clings to my calves like a second skin, and melt-
ing snow beads up on the blackness to glint like the stars coming
out. One point of light. Then another. Then one more. Soon, they
will be numberless as the dead. And as cold.

The Clearing

by Lots Ti'kon

Lois Tiiton has recently completed her fourth novel. Ac-
cusations, set in the universe of the television series
Babylon 5. More than forty of her short stories have ap-
peared in magazines and anthologies featuring the genres
of science fiction, fantasy, and horror.

The forest's breath was cool and damp, with a scent of old, de-
caying leaves. Cat moved silently through sunlight-dappled
shale, soft-footed like the striped forest hunter he was named
for. Pigment streaked his bare arms, and two broad lines of it
across his cheekbones to below the Corner of his eyes: a cat
mask.

There were others with him: his brothers, the men of his tribe,
all armed as he was with short bows carved from the striated
heartwood of the yew and stone-tipped arrows. Cat could see the
movement of his brother Leaping Hare through the trees ahead
of him on his right, and behind him the shadow of Wolf-the-
Hunter on his left. The rest, unseen and unheard, followed, intent
on their path.

Suddenly, as the breeze shifted slightly. Cat caught the scent,
halted, raised a hand to signal to the rest, and they all paused at
the thin, acrid taint of woodsmoke in the air: fire, which the
forest-dwellers always feared.

Now the faces of the men were grim as they advanced through
the dense, old-growth trees, and their bows were in their hands,
arrows ready to be nocked into the string, for Cat had warned
them what he'd seen. As they went forward, the smoke hung

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more thickly in the air, until it obscured vision and made the
hunters' eyes sting. There was a repeated sound also, like a
woodpecker's beak striking a tree. but dull and echoing. Then,
ahead of them, even though the smoke, the glare of bright sun-
light was visible, sunlight unfiltered through the translucent
leaves of the forest canopy, a light bare and raw and harsh to the
eyes.

Leaping Hare, closest to the clearing, spoke a curse of anger
and disbelief. And Cat, creeping forward, saw again what he had
seen before and clutched the catskin bag that hung around his
neck. It held the teeth and claws and polished bone of the striped
forest cat that had come to him in his naming-dream. It was his
most potent protection, for with it around his neck, the cat
walked with him, his spirit-brother: shadow-stealth, quick-
striking.

And he felt the need for protection now, for what he saw—
what he had brought the others to see with him—was an
enormity so great it passed all comprehension. A man might cut
a tree, for wood, to make a bow. A man would make a fire for
warmth in winter, and to cook his meat. But what kind of men
would lay a whole hillside bare so nothing was left but haggled
stumps and bare dead ground? What kind of men would heap the
hacked-off branches into a pile as high as their heads and light
a fire to send black smoke rolling up like stormclouds?

But they were men, of that there was no doubt—dark-skinned
men, their bare muscular backs gleaming with sweat as they
swung their axes into the trees still standing. That was the sound
the forest tribe heard now, the bite of axes into the living wood.
Chips and wedges of it flew, then one of the men gave a cry of
warning, and a great tree swayed, its fibers cracked and snapped,
and it fell to the ground like a crash of thunder.

But elsewhere on the hillside, other men continued their labor,
other axes chopped on, the sound of their blades striking wood
and ringing off the denuded slope. It made Cat shake inside to
see it.

The forest men were familiar with war, when one tribe would
encroach the hunting territory of another: quick raids, swift
strikes, sometimes an enemy's head to show as a trophy, some-
times widows scarring their faces in mourning. This, though, this
was war on the forest itself, killing it tree by tree, so no animal
could live, no hunter stalk, no woman gather the nuts that fell
from its branches.

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withdrew to prepare, and Cat and Leaping Hare both took paint
and renewed the totem marks on each other's face and body.
Then each man went apart by himself, and Cat took the catskin
bag from around his neck and reverently laid each object out in
front of him on the ground, praying to the spirit of the cat: Walk
with me, brother—give me your quickness, give me your strength.

It would be his first war, the first time for him to face another
man with intent to kill. He was the youngest of them, only come
into his name this spring. If he died, his mother and sisters would
cut their faces with their skinning knives, but he had no wife to
bleed for him. He glanced through the trees to where his brother
was praying to his own spirit-brother. Leaping Hare had two small
daughters, tf he died tonight, it would be up to Cat to provide for
them, to move into the widow's tent, since he had no wife of his
own. Cat thought that it might be better if he were the one to die,
and he felt shame that he hoped it wouldn't be so. He almost
wished now that he'd never come to the edge of the forest, or
smelled me smoke, or seen the ax-blades flashing in the sun.

As dusk fell, the hunters gathered, looked down again on the
strange men, who had finally ceased their work of destruction
and gathered around a high, leaping fire. They had meat roasting
there—the scent of it made Cat's belly twitch.

They attacked from three directions, creeping silently toward
their enemies under the cover of darkness. Their arrows fell
on the woodcutters, who bellowed in rage and pain and snatched
up their axes to defend themselves, charging their enemies. The
two forces closed, and then there was no more room for bow-
work.

But the woodcutters had the advantage at close quarters with
their axes and their other weapons, great knives as long as a
man's forearm. Cat watched in horror as one of the blades
slashed across his brother's belly, and blood gushed and entrails
swelled out like a gutted deer's. Leaping Hare staggered, still on
his feet, arms clutching his life, until an ax took him from behind
and he went down- The enemy turned on Cat next—Cat, armed
with only his stone knife, and he couldn't make himself face that
terrible blade. He took the first step backward, then another, but
me axeman cut him off, swung his weapon, and the crushing

blow sent Cat to the ground.

When it was all over, they found him, still trying to crawl
back to the safety of the forest A hand wrenched his head back
by the hair, he felt a sharp blade at his throat, but someone
barked sounds that were words, and they dragged him back to

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their fire, tied him hand and foot, and left him to his agony
alone,

In the morning, they pulled him to his feet, struck him, tried
to make him stand, but he could not, and they left him again. All
that day he suffered, tied and staked under the naked, open sun.
His fair skin burned, his limbs had passed from torture to numb
lifelessness, and the effort of every breath cost his broken ribs
terrible pain. But the worst misery was the thirst, as me sun beat
down on his unprotected head, baked him like a fire, cracked his
lips. and dried his throat to ashes.

All throughout that day, the sound of the axes filled the hill-
side, blow after blow, bite after bite into the bleeding sapwood of
the trees, pounding, ringing, echoing against the ache in his head.
On and on and on, unceasing, relentless- When would they ever
stop? In his anguish, Cat felt the catskin bag still tied around bis
neck, and he prayed to his spirit-brother for help, for the strength
to break away, to escape into the cool familiar safety of the for-
est. to his tribe.

But when the sun fell low in the sky, me sound of die axes
ceased. Once again the loggers built up a roaring fire, so great
that Cat could feel the heat of it licking his sunburned skin. He
could smell flesh cooking, and he wondered if they meant to spit
mm over the fire like a deer and bum him alive, if that was why
they'd kept him tied all the long day, to save him for the ordeal.

Someone kicked him to make him move, but he couldn't, he
could only moan in his pain and thirst. He heard voices quarrel-
ing above him, opened his eyes enough to make out a man with
a long blade, gesturing with it, and Cat understood that he
wanted to cut his throat or gut him, like Leaping Hare had been
gutted. But another man, with an ax, struck his fist to his own
chest angrily as he argued back. A moment later he was back,
with water in a clay bowl. He splashed it onto Cat's head and
face and made him drink the rest. and soon after that. Cat could
lift his head and see what was happening.

They were throwing the bodies onto the fire- No, there were
two fires, and the bodies they were throwing onto the larger one
were the dead of his tribe. So many of them! Cat wept for his
brother and all the rest of them, killed so horribly and now de-
nied the burial rites to free their souls from the dead flesh. There
were corpses burning in the other fire, as well, dead limbs writh-
ing in the flames, but Cat could take no joy in the enemy's
losses, not in the face of his own,

They kept him tied again that night, but in the morning his

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bonds were cut, and when he could finally move, the man with
the ax threw him a chunk of meat, but Cat couldn't eat it, not
knowing what kind of flesh it was. The axeman swore at him,
then pushed him and gestured that he was to work, and he did,
all that day, hauling the brush to the fires that burned constant-
ly, fouling the air. When he stumbled, they beat him until he got
back to his feet But though the smoke stung his eyes, he could
still see the forest, the trees so close, if he could only reach them.
and he clutched his spirit-bag in one hand and prayed for the

chance.
The axeman, he learned, was named Tagh. Tagh made it clear

by heatings and gestures that he now belonged to him, his slave,
but Cat refused to submit to being owned. He made himself
force down the meat they gave him mis time, and again in the
morning when he was untied, to give him strength. He watched
and he waited with the patience of a stalking cat, and when he
thought their eyes weren't on him, he broke and ran for the
safety of the trees, knowing he could disappear if he could make
it into the forest, knowing they could never find him there. But
he'd underestimated his weakness, the pain in his broken ribs
slowed him down, and one of the loggers tackled him, brought
him to me ground. Then Tagh stormed up, furious, snatched up
a stick and beat him until it was broken, while Cat lay curled up
on the ground trying to protect his broken side from the hardest

blows.
From then on, his feet were tied, although the leather thongs

cut into this ankles, tripped him and made him clumsy at his
work. Tagh beat him well and kicked him up to his feet again to
make him keep working- Some of the others advised him to kill
this slave, that he was more trouble than he was worth, but the
axeman was stubborn. Cat understood this without knowing their

words.

But he was stubborn, too, and when he found a broken arrow-
head, he hid it in his belt, saved it till night to saw cautiously at
his bonds. He didn't dare try to bolt, not with the ribs that
stabbed him with pain at every step. Stealth it would have to be,
to crawl unseen and unheard from the loggers' camp, to steal
like a shadow into the trees, and away. Stealth like a cat's, and
he prayed again to his spirit-brother for a cat's silent feet.

But Cat hadn't known that the woodcutters were posting a
watch around their camp now at night, to guard against another
attack from the forest tribes. He was close, so painfully close to
the trees when the sentry spotted him, gave the alarm.

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Tagh cursed when he saw the severed bonds, and then he spot-
ted the catskin sack around Cat's neck, tore it off, although Cat
screamed and fought for it, even with the loggers holding his
arms behind his back. Tagh spilled the teeth and claws on the
ground, then tossed the sack into the fire, and Cat felt the loss as
if it was his heart being ripped open, his protection gone, his
spirit-brother lost to him. It was a worse pain than the beating,
and the beating was hard, Tagh grimly smiling this time as he
brought the stick down on his slave's back, knowing that he'd
stripped away his spirit-power.

Not many days later, though, the woodcutters packed up their
camp and deserted it, leaving the fallen logs stacked on the bare,
dry, ash-covered ground. Cat stumbled under the weight of a
pack, his ankles still tied, in growing despair as each step took
him farther and farther from the forest, from the only world he
knew. The sun overhead glared down like a malevolent spirit of
heat, with a single burning eye. The distant horizon made him
reel with vertigo. So much empty land, all cleared of trees! Why
so much mindless destruction, with such effort?

But after a while he could see that there was a purpose to it,
that the cleared lands were full of tall, waving grasses and other
lush strands of vegetation, men and women at work in them, bent
over the crops. Dark-skinned men and women like the woodcut-
ters, who greeted them cheerfully, as if they were returning from
a long hunt, laden with game.

There was no glad welcome for Cat, only stares of misgiving,
though he was given food, at least, by the women of Tagh's
house. It was fear that made him run that night, fear of spending
his life in such a place. But he was caught again, and dragged
back, and Tagh beat him again, grimly, relentlessly, until the
blood ran down his back and legs.

When are you going to leam? Or do I have to kill you first?

Cat understood the question from the tone more than the
words. He shook his head weakly. They were both stubborn men.

He's too wild, like a forest animal! What use is he as a slave
if you have to beat him half-dead every time he runs? That was
Tagh's wife, arguing with him.

The priest will tame him for me.

The woman held her tongue, but her doubt was visible in her
eyes as she cleaned the blood from Cat's back and poulticed it
with a salve that stung like nettles.

The next day, Tagh took Cat to a house in the village that was
darker inside than the rest, and filled with the scents of smoke

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and burning herbs. Cat struggled when they bore him down to
the ground, thinking this meant more than just another beating,
that they were going to hamstring him or geld him like the oxen
he'd seen in the fields. Tagh had threatened as much. / won't run
again, he wanted to beg, knowing it was a lie, his fear speaking.

But when the priest bent over him, his fear took a new form
and the protest froze in his throat, because this man's eyes were
wide-dilated, even for the darkness of the house, and Cat could
see the spirits looking out of them—spirits like the ones that pos-
sessed the shaman of his own tribe in a holy trance, or when a
spirit-dream came over a man and he spoke with their voice.
Those eyes took hold of his own and held them, and Cat was
powerless to resist, alone as he was, with his brother-spirit torn

away from him and lost.

What followed was like an evil spirit-dream, because Cat was
held helpless by the priest's eyes and by his voice. He couldn't
move or speak or even cry aloud when the priest took a knife
from the fire where it had been heating and put the white-hot tip
of the blade against his leg, just above the welts the thongs had
made, and slowly drew a mark there, branding it into his flesh.
Cat could feel the pain sear him in all its burning intensity, he
could smell the singeing of his hair and flesh, but he couldn't
pull away or even scream. Then the priest took another knife
from the fire and branded him again on his other leg.

The incantation suddenly ceased, releasing him, and Cat cried
out in reaction. But Tagh looked satisfied, and he thanked the
priest and his apprentice in respectful tones. Then he pulled his
slave to his feet and sent him out to the fields.

The work was hard. Cat had never known anything like the in-
cessant grinding toil under the sun, hacking at the weeds in the
fields, bending all day until he thought his back would break and
his head burst from the heat. But gradually his muscles grew ac-
customed to the work, his fair skin stopped blistering and turned
a darker brown, and he learned to plait a hat from grass to pro-.
tect his head. He discovered that he wasn't the only slave in the
village, not even the only one who was branded. But they had all
submitted to their condition, or had been bom to slavery, and that
frightened Cat, that he would grow to be like them, dull-eyed

and resigned.

He ran again, of course. Not the first day, or the second. He
meant to get his strength back this time, to wait till his broken
ribs had healed- Tagh wasn't ungenerous with his food, and Cat
wasn't tied at night any more. In fact, it almost seemed as if

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Tagh was watching him, waiting for him to make the attempt,
even eager.

Cat was wary, but he waited, he judged his time, and finally,
he ran. His escape would be easy, as he conceived it, for the
stream that ran past the margin of the village, fouled and
muddied by their animals, flowed from the north, out of the for-
est. All he had to do was follow it back. So he made his escape
on a moonlit night, following the streambed, but when dawn
came he saw with horror that he had run all night downstream,
in the wrong direction, and was now even further than ever from
where he wanted to be. Desperate, he tried to retrace his steps,
but he ran directly into the search party from Tagh's village, who
dragged him back.

"The sooner you leam you can't get away, the easier it'll be
on your hide," Tagh told him as he flogged his runaway slave
with a thick strap cut from the ox's harness. There was a distinct
tone of satisfaction in his voice. "You don't have your own
magic anymore, and the priest's is stronger."

"Pigheaded," his wife said, poulticing Cat's raw back, not too
gently either. He wasn't sure which one of them she meant, or
possibly both. "He'll run again, all right. He'll be thinking about
it as soon as the scabs heal. And you'll strap the skin off his
back again, and how much work will we get out of him then?"

"He may run, but he won't get anywhere," Tagh insisted. "His
feet will bring him back, no matter where he tries to go."

Could it be true? Cat rubbed the red brand marks above his
ankles, the symbol that the priest had burned into his flesh.
Memory of that ordeal made him shudder, and he reached in-
stinctively for his spirit-bag, but of course it was gone, and with
it his power to resist. He prayed, at night, for his spirit-brother
to return to him, to guide him from this place, but there was no
answer. The cat was a forest spirit, and there was no place for it
here.

He tried once again that fall to escape, at the harvest festival,
on the night when the priest called for blessings on the crops and
the whole village celebrated with beer they'd brewed from the
last season's grain. Tagh was soon reeling from the beer he'd
poured down his throat, and Cat took his chance. He ran all
night, guiding his steps by the moon and the stars in the sky
overhead, but in the morning he found he was still in sight of
Tagh's village, that he had run in circles all that time, like the ox
tethered to tread out the grain.

"He'll leam," Tagh said to his skeptical wife as she brought

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out her jar of poultice and waited with impatient resignation to
use it. "He's not stupid, just stubborn." Then he paused a mo-
ment, as if to rest his arm. "Aren't you, Khagt?"

But Cat kept his face turned away and made no reply.

"Pigheaded," the wife muttered.

Then came winter, the first snows fell, and the rhythm of work
in the village fell off. Cat wore a shin of wool now, instead of
his deerhide kilt. That was the incessant toil of the house's
women, to spin the coats of the sheep and goats into yam and
weave it into cloth. They were Tagh's wives and daughters, Cat
thought at first, but later he learned that the younger woman with
the covered hair of a wife was in fact Tagh's widowed daughter,
returned to her father's house under some kind of disgrace. And,
to Cat's surprise, the smallest brown-skinned girl was also a
slave. But Margha, the wife, beat her no more or more often than
the rest.

With the approach of spring, though, half the village uprooted
itself, packed up its possessions, and hauled them north to the
land cleared out of the forest the summer before. The ashes were
already spread pver the earth, the logs stacked, seasoned and
ready for building.

Now Cat began to realize the true scale of a farmer's labor,
from the earliest light of dawn to dusk, clearing and planting the
land, constructing shelter for men and animals—unceasing, wea-
rying toil that left him at night almost too exhausted to eat. Why
did men wish to live this way when there was the forest, with
game to hunt and food to gather freely from the ground and the
trees?

There was no moment of the day now when he couldn't look
up from his work and see the forest, cool and dark-green, beyond
the boundaries of the new village. The air held the cool, familiar
scent of the trees. At night, when the ache in his overworked
muscles kept him from sleeping, he thought he could hear the
voice of the forest calling to him, the rustle of the breeze through
its leaves. He would close his eyes and try to dream, hoping for
a vision of a striped cat who would speak to him and lead him
away, but the dream never came. Their spirit-bond had been bro-
ken, and the fading brands on his tegs, the magic of the terrible
old priest, kept the cat from coming to him.

"He'll run again," Margha warned her husband, scowling at
Cat. "It was a bad idea to bring him here. See how he stares off
into the woods whenever he thinks no one is looking?"

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"He may run, but he'll have to come back." Tagh said with
grim confidence, but he greased the harness leather strap with
pigfat, to keep it supple.

Cat did run, because the nearness of the forest was a constant
torment, a near-physical pain to see it every day, bent over a hoe
in a half-cleared field where the stumps sdll stood out in the
earth, under the relentless sun that made the weeds grow more
quickly than the crops. And tile old hope grew again, that he
knew the forest and the farmers didn't, that once he made me
shelter of the trees, they wouldn't ever be able to find him. And
even, possibly, that once he was in the forest its spirits would be
stronger than the priest's brands, or that he could find a shaman
to help him break them.

He had to try.

He was strong now, with work and adequate food. His ribs had
long since healed, and his back, from Tagh's last beating in the
fall. And if there was any pursuit as he fled into the trees, he
quickly left it behind. His heart rose, there beneath the familiar
trees, inhaling their scents, feeling the coo) damp breeze against
his sweaty skin. He tore off me sweaty wool shirt and cast it
aside.

But the forest was not quite as he remembered. The familiar
trails were overgrown, and in some places faded away altogether.
He came after a day of wandering to the bank of the swift-
running creek where his tribe had been camped, but the site was
deserted now, deserted. With difficulty, he found the remains of
a campfire and sifted through its cold, damp ashes. Nothing re-
mained.

He reminded himself that the tribe moved more often than the
farmers' village, at least two or three times a season. All he had
to do was follow the trails and he'd find them eventually, or pos-
sibly some other tribe who might welcome a hunter, because it
was possible that his worst dread had come to pass, and his tribe
no longer existed, wiped out in the raid on the logging camp.

But the trails had been too long abandoned, and the over-, growth 
had come up in the months since he'd been gone. He
could spot no sign of any hunters, no fresh tracks on the ground
or the remains of recent campfires. But the longer he walked, the
more often the paths through the trees faded away, or led him to
me edge of a swamp where no swamp had been before, or dou-
bled back on themselves to bring him back to the same land-
marks, only from a different direction.

He'd been too long away, that was all, he tried to tell himself

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at first. Soon he'd find the right trails, and everything would be
all right. And he searched, desperately, for any sign of a striped
cat, its tracks or scat or clawmarks on the trunk of a tree. If only
his spirit-brother would come to him.

But the forest was empty, as if all its spirits had fled, and fi-
nally Cat had to admit the truth to himself, that the priest's
power was more potent even here, mat the brands on his ankles
fettered him as securely as chains, and that the trails would con-
tinue to bend and twist and turn back on themselves until they
led him back to Tagh's village, no matter how long or how far
he tried to run.

There was another choice, which he considered now, instead
of going back—to find a sharp flake of flint and cut his own
throat like an animal's, to bleed out his life, in the forest where
he belonged. But the thought of rotting here unburied, with no
rites to free his soul, and the crows pecking out his eyes and the
wolves cracking his bones, was too much. The farmers burned
their dead to release their spirits, or so they claimed, and it was
better than no rite at all.

So at last, weary and beyond despair, he followed the trail, let
it take him back to the clearing with the naked sun overhead, and
the crops and the weeds, and Tagh with the greased harness
leather—back to all the bitterness of slavery,

Tagh was an ambitious man.

In the new village he was a chief, and his new house, when it
was built, was one of the largest, to hold all his sons and daugh-
ters and livestock and slaves. His sons were just now beginning
to come into the size of men, to do a man's work, and Tagh
planned, as they grew, to clear even more land from the forest
and expand his farm.

Much of the work still fell on Cat's scarred shoulders, except
for one thing. Tagh thrust the ax at him one day and ordered him
to start to work clearing the trees at the east border of the farm,
but Cat refused to take it from him.

"A taste of leather on your back will change your mind," Tagh
warned, but Cat met his eyes.

"Hog me or not, I won't."

They stared at each other. "We'll see about that."

But in the end it was Tagh who took the ax and called to his
oldest son that it was time for him to learn to clear the land,
since it was going to be his land, when he was a man. Since that
time, he had let the leather grow hard and cracked.

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Tagh's youngest daughter was ready to be married, which
would bring in a bride-price but deprive the household of her la-
bor at the loom. But there was the little slave girl, Eria, to take
her place, although she was very recently no longer a child. Cat
wasn't the only one who had noted the fact. Margha began to
keep a closer eye on the girl, and on her sons. "I don't want mat
kind of thing going on in the house. First one of them is at her,
and then the rest, like a pack of dogs fighting over a bitch."

"She's ready to breed," Tagh observed.

"Best give her to Khagt, then. He can keep the rest of them off
her."

"Hm," Tagh grunted noncommittally, for he'd been looking at
the girl himself.

Cat heard the exchange, for there were few secrets in me
crowded household, and he supposed that Eria had, too. She'd
been looking at him lately with dark, shy, but interested eyes.
Cat lay on his pallet at night and thought of how it would be to
have her next to him there, to have a woman. It was hard to be
alone and have to listen to the vigorous grunts of Tagh mounting
his wife, though she was old for child-bearing.

After the wedding there was only one more woman in the
house, the widowed daughter, Kharra. Cat knew more of her
story now, how the dead husband's family had demanded the
bride-price back, which stubborn Tagh refused to pay- The ill-
will had been one reason behind his move to the new village.

But it was no simple task to hack new farms out of the wilder-
ness, even with every man and woman working themselves to
exhaustion, sunrise to dark. And there was bad fortune. Even the
young priest with all his sacrifices could not avert a murrain
among the sheep. The feast of thanksgiving at harvest-time was
sober that year, as the villagers laid up their stocks and grimly
considered the winter to come- Tagh reluctantly decided to waste
no grain in brewing ale.

Cat had never known so hungry a winter. The little girl Eria
sometimes wept in her bed at night with the pangs of an empty
belly, for Tagh's pack of growing sons left little in the kettle for
the women and slaves. Time and again Cat would pause in his
tasks to look across the snow-covered, stubbled fields to the
darkness of the forest, where deer browsed beneath the trees, and
wild boars rooted, and a hunter could follow the tracks of a hare
through me snow.

There came a day when Tagh stood staring long and hard at
his breeding sow, then went into the house to take out his whet-

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stone. Cat waited for him to come out again. "I could bring back

meat," he said.

Tagh looked hard at him, then at the forest.
"Deer," Cat said. "Venison and hare and other game."
Tagh thought for a moment "What would you need?"

"You'll never see him again," Margha warned.

"Oh, he'll be back. With meat. He came back today, didn't
you, KhagtT

Cat said nothing in reply, not looking up from his place at the
hearth where he worked on his bow, planing the yew-wood down
to its heart with Tagh's sharp bronze knife. It had taken him all
day to find the right wood, and for a long moment he had stood
alone in the silent woods, staring into the trees, the trails that led
ever deeper into the forest. But then he had turned his back and
returned to the barren fields and the close, smoky atmosphere of
Tagh's house.

The finished bow would be a crude thing by the standards of
his tribe, but he was a skilled wood-worker, and the bronze knife
made the work go so much more quickly.

"Maybe I should send one of the boys with him, though,"
Tagh said thoughtfully.

Now Cat looked up from his work. "No. They don't know
how to walk in the woods- Their noise would scare away the
game."

"Mmgh," Tagh grunted.

But it was alone Cat went, back into the forest, a hunter again,
if still a branded slave.

The woods had receded away from the village by this time,and the 
familiar trails had disappeared, but once away from the
margin of the trees, the unmarked snow made the tracking easy.
Cat stalked the deer slowly, silently, content to pause and simply
breathe the fresh, chill forest air. He found a small herd shel-
tering in the windbreak of a grove of firs, and his first arrow
found a yearling buck- It wasn't a clean kill, for he had DO points
to his arrows, but he followed the blood-trail and brought his
prey down.

By then it was near-dark, and he built up a fire in the shelter
of a cleft in the rocks. Gutting the buck with Tagh's bronze
knife, he cut out the liver and roasted it over the flames, letting
the rich, fat juices run down his chin as he gorged himself on the
half-raw meat.

During the night, while he lay wrapped in the deerhide, he

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could hear the growls and snarling of scavengers as they tore at
the offal he had cast aside. He held quiet, waiting to hear the dis-
tinctive cry of a forest cat, but after some time, he fell asleep.

When dawn came, he cut poles and branches and wove them
into a crude sledge, onto which he loaded the carcass of the deer.
He paused then, looking out into the snow-covered, trackless
wilderness for a long time. But then he turned and followed his
tracks back toward the village.

Tagh's household ate well for the rest of the winter, with
plenty of venison, even for the slaves. But Tagh kept the
deerhides and tanned them as he had learned in his tribe, to make
boots and a coat for himself instead of the wool the villagers
wore.

Then the snow melted, the earth warmed, and the village be-
gan to prepare for the sowing. This was always a solemn rite, af-
ter the last, thin, hungry days of winter, while everyone waited
for the thaw and the first shoots of green and the moon to turn
his favorable face onto the land. On that sacred night, the priest
stripped naked and went out to the waiting fields to couple with
the new-plowed earth- He was possessed by the moon's spirittiffin, 
which spread among the whole village. Men hardened and
women softened, and they joined together in the act, rutting
openly in the same fields where they would sow their crops.

Cat found himself possessed by the spirit along with the rest,
and his body ached with the pressure of his unsown seed. He
thought he saw Eria the little slave girl, who hadn't yet been a
woman at the last sowing. But it wasn't Erta who stood at the
edge of the fields, alone and away from the rest, although she
was almost as small and as slender. He snatched his hands away
as he realized his mistake, that this was Kharra, Tagh's daughter.
"Sorry, I ... thought you were .. -"

"Someone else."

But he paused to look at her. "Why aren't you ... ?"

"In the fields with the rest?" She shook her head. "They're
afraid."

Seeing his reaction, "But you don't know? When I was wed,
the omens were very bad- They wanted the bride-price back—his
people did—but my father wouldn't. And he—my husband—still
wanted me." She paused. "Three days after the wedding, he died,
m our bed. They say that I'm cursed, or a witch. So, you see, no
other man would dare take me."

The spirit of the night was very strong in Cat, and she was
beautiful in the moonlight, and the scent of the spirit was on her.

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He couldn't fear her, or anything that would happen. Not quite
believing what he was doing, he uttered the words: "I would ...
dare. If you would."

Without more words, they fell together, onto the waiting earth.
The spirit moved in them both—him to discharge his seed, her to
accept it.

Then each of them began to consider me consequences of
what they'd done. Cat wondered nervously, "Do you care? That
I'm a slave? Your father ..."

She stroked his hair, murmured, "A slave and a forest savage.
With straw-colored hair. 1 remember when he first brought you
home—how wild you were." Then she looked hard at him.
"What about you? Aren't you afraid I might be a witch?"

"Did you hate your husband so much that you'd kill him in
his sleep, then?*'

"No," she said sadly, "He was a good man, I wanted to be his
wife. Those three nights—I dream about them, still." She paused,
and her hand moved to the root of his manhood. "I've missed...
having a man."
"Ah," said Cat as the spirit rose in him again.

The next day, he looked at her whenever he could snatch a
chance, and it seemed to him mat her face had a glow in it, her
eyes a warm light that he'd never noticed before.

Her parents observed it, too. "She had a man in me sowing
fields, I'm sure of it," Margha announced.

"She should many again. I could still get a decent price for
her,"

"Everyone knows."

"Not everywhere. And if she's breeding, it proves there's no
curse. Like I said all along."

"Unless some man in me village drops dead tomorrow."

Tagh made the sign to avert evil. "Watch her, then. if she
breeds, maybe we can convince the man to take her."

"She's useful here," Margha argued.

But Tagh snorted. "That's why I bought the girl, to take over
the work. Kharra's my daughter, she should be married."

A month later, the wife brought Kharra to him, looking defi-
ant. "I was right, she had a man. She's with child."

"Who was it?" he demanded. "If some man's gotten a child on
you, then he can pay the bride-price for it"

But Kharra was his daughter, and as stubborn. "It was sowing
night, and all men had the face of the moon."

"I won't take that, giri. You have eyes! I want his name!"

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"For what? Do you think any man in this village will pay you
your price, after the last time?"

•Then I'll many you outside. There are plenty of men who
don't know what happened."

She looked at him with eyes like hard, dark stones. "Not after
I tell them, mere won't be. Not if I say I'm a witch, and I can
shrivel their balls up with a curse, and that my father won't ever
pay back their bride-price. Find a man to marry me then!"

"I'll thrash the name out of you," Tagh threatened, but the
daughter stood her ground, and Margha scowled at them both,
muttering, "Pigheaded."

Cat had heard it alt—by then half the village had heard
them—but when he saw Tagh raise his arm, he stepped in front
of Kharra, reached one aim around her to put his hand on her
belly, still flat and firm, but holding a child inside it—his child.
It seemed as if there was a strange spirit moving him when he
told Tagh, "You can thrash me, then, because I'm the one who
had her."

Tagh's eyes bulged. "You?" And to his daughter, "With a
slave? A forest savage?"

"He's the only man in this village who'd dare to touch me,"
she said defiantly. "And the only one I'll allow, so you can for-
get about your bride-price."

But the spirit inside Cat insisted, "I'll pay your price for her.
I can."

Tagh bellowed terrible threats, but in the end he could do
nothing to stop the child from growing in Kharra's belly, no
more than he could change her mind. "Making the best of it,"
was what Margha called it when he finally challenged Cat to
produce the bride-price if he thought he could. 'The damage is
done, and at least she'll have a husband."

Cat's way of tanning deerhide, the way of his vanished tribe,
had already earned the envy of the villagers. Now he went backto 
the woods to find more oak and tanbark. As much as the for-
est had changed, the scents were the same, and the cool shadows.
For a moment, as ever, he could forget the brands on his legs,
and think, "I could disappear. They'd never be able to find me."
But Kharra was waiting, and his child.

The leather he made was good, the villagers wanted more, and
by the time his daughter was bom. Cat had paid Tagh his price
and taken Kharra openly to his bed as his wife.

"Healthy," Tagh muttered, staring at his grandchild. "And her

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hair is decently dark. at least. She ought to fetch a good price
when she marries."

But Cat watched his daughter nursing at his wife's breast, and
he made her a cradle of leather and wood, as it was done in the
forest tribes. When he came in from his work at night, he would
lift her in his arms and make her laugh. Then Kharra's belly
grew big again, and she had a son. When he was born. Cat stared
at him a long while, remembering. In secret, he carved a small
bow for the boy, no longer than his arm, but he put it away with-
out showing it to anyone.

The work was still hard, clearing more and more farmland as
one by one Tagh's sons found wives, and now it was Tagh who
had to find the bride-prices. The house was soon filled with
women and children, and he was respected as the owner of the
largest farm in the village.

When the old man died suddenly, in the middle of an argu-
ment with a neighbor who disputed his boundary-rights, Tagh's
sons divided up their father's lands among themselves. The slave
girl Eria and her children were sold for a good price. But Kharra
confronted her brothers with stone-cold eyes and claimed Cat for
her own portion of the inheritance, since her father had kept the
bride-price from her first marriage. They looked at her and
agreed, afraid to cross a woman who still had a reputation as a
witch.

Cat's tannery prospered in a small way, and he taught his craft
to his sons. Each year he had to travel farther and search harder
to find the right barks in the forest. At first he taught the boys;

later, as they grew, he gave over the task to them.

One day his oldest son came to him with the girl he meant to
marry, if he could meet her father's price. She was a pretty thing,
with dark brown eyes. Like Kharra's eyes when they were warm,
Cat thought.

The young man was excited. "Father, look at this fur! I traded
for it from a village north of here, near the forest. Do you think
we could tan furs like this? So soft and warm, I'm sure people
would pay well for them!"

Cat's mouth had gone dry. Wordlessly, he reached out for the
dried skin of the forest cat, stroked its striped fur. He closed his
eyes and called out to the spirit in his mind: Brother!

He opened his eyes. No. It was only the pelt of an animal,
killed and skinned and brought by strangers to this place so far
from its forest home.

VICTORIAN
VARIATIONS

New shoots from an old trunk

How me Ant Made a Bargain

by Karawynn Long

Though Karawynn Long missed reading the Just So Stories
o$ a kid. she was delighted to discover them as an adult.
She won the Writers of the Future Grand Prize in 1993
and has stories forthcoming in Full Spectrum 5, Alternate
Tyrants, and other anthologies. At this time she is living in
Seattle, where she is working on more short fiction and a
novel.

Now I shall tell you a story of the hot and humid days at the be-
ginning of the world, when the Queen of all the Ants lived in the
dark damp bottom of the forest with her many daughters.

The Queen was a very wise Ant, for she knew many secrets,
and was a little bit magic besides. All the same she was often
bored, for her Principal Occupation was egglaying, and if you
have ever tried laying eggs, Best Beloved, you will have discov-
ered that it is a tedious task, rather like washing dishes. But with-
out eggs there soon would be no daughter Ants to burrow and
build and forage and fight, so she tried to make the best of things
by thinking up new and interesting ideas.

One uncomfortably stuffy day the Queen noticed that some of
her daughters were 'sclusively strong and fierce, and these she
instructed to become soldiers and guard the colony from harm.
For the Tamandua and the Pangolin and the Angwantibo all
thought Ants were 'specially tasty delicacies, and would eat them
right up whenever they could.

Then the Queen noticed that some of her daughters were
'sclusively sturdy and industrious, and these she instructed to be-

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come workers and gather new foods for the colony. For the Cal-
liandra and the Heliconia and the Banisteriopsis all had an un-
fathomable preference for not being eaten, and so grew thick and
tough and tasted of noxious toxins.

And in this way the Queen Ant invented Specialization (which
is. Best Beloved, only a fancy way of saying that different peo-
ple do different things). And the Queen laid eggs and thought
wise thoughts in her nest in the dark damp bottom of the forest,
while her specialized colony grew prosperous and large.

One indisputably humid day the Queen called her strongest,
fiercest soldier daughter to her and said, "The sun is high and it
is time you made your own way in the world. But first I will
give you one magic and tell you one secret."

And the fierce soldier daughter replied, "0 my Mother and 0
my Queen, I am angry that the Tamandua and the Pangolin and
the Angwantibo all think that we are 'specially tasty delicacies,
and will eat us right up whenever they can. I should like to lead
a platoon of ants, all as fierce as ever could be, so that I and my
daughters will never fear being eaten."

"Then so you shall," said the Queen, and she touched me sol-
dier daughter with her antennae. And the fierce soldier daughter
grew a gigantic stinger that she could move in and out like a nee-
dle. "Now you will be Army Ant," said the Queen, "and your
fierce daughters may march right under the noses of the
Tamandua and the Pangolin and the Angwantibo, and even eat
them right up if they don't move quickly out of your way."

"0 my Mother and 0 my Queen, that would be most gratify-
ing, but however shall we build a nest if we are continually
marching?"

'That is the secret I shall tell you," replied the Queen, And
she told Anny Ant how her daughters could hook themselves to-
gether by the ends of their spindly legs and so make a nest out
of their own bodies wherever they happened to be. And Army
Ant went away satisfied to make her own way in the world.

And the Queen laid eggs and thought wise thoughts in her nest
in the dark damp bottom of the forest, while her specialized col-
ony grew prosperous and large-
One particularly sticky day the Queen called her sturdiest,
most industrious worker daughter to her and said, "The sun is
high and it is time you made your own way in the world. But
first I will give you one magic and tell you one secret."

And the industrious worker daughter replied, "0 my Mother
and 0 my Queen, I am frustrated that the Calliandra and the Hei-

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iconia and the Banisteriopsis all have an unfathomable prefer-
ence for not being eaten, and so grow thick and tough and taste
of noxious toxins. I should like to direct a plantation of ants, all
as industrious as ever could be, so that I and my daughters will
never worry about being hungry."

"Then so you shall." said the Queen, and she touched the
worker daughter with her antennae. And the industrious worker
daughter grew enormous jaws that she could open and shut like
scissors. "Now you will be Leaf-Cutter Ant," said the Queen,
"and your industrious daughters may cut the leaves of the Calli-
andra and the Heliconia and me Banisteriopsis, and carry them
away over their heads and down into the ground."

"0 my Mother and 0 my Queen, that would be most gratify-
ing, but however can we digest them when they taste of noxious
toxins?"

"That is the secret I shall tell you," replied the Queen. And
she told Leaf-Cutter Ant how her daughters could chew the
leaves up and place a drop of spittle on them to cultivate a de-
licious fungus. And Leaf-Cutter Ant went away satisfied to make
her own way in the world.

And the Queen laid eggs and thought wise thoughts in her nest
in the dark damp bottom of the forest, while her specialized col-
ony grew prosperous and large.

One utterly muggy day a third daughter Ant approached the
Queen. She was neither the strongest, nor the sturdiest, nor the
fiercest, nor the most industrious, and indeed the Queen could
not remember her particularly out of the thousands of daughters
she had engendered since the beginning of the world- But you
should know. Best Beloved, that this Ant was most scintillating
clever. "The sun is high," said the daughter Ant, "and I would
like to make my own way in me world."

"Very well," said the Queen, "I will give you one magic and
tell you one secret, for that is only fair, but I warn you that I've
already given the most valuable magics and told the most useful
secrets to your sisters Army Ant and Leaf-Cutter Ant."

"As you say," said the clever Ant with a shrug of her anten-
nae. "But they do not have the ability to converse with all me
plants and animals of the forest, and that is the magic I would
like."

"Then you shall have it," said the Queen, and she touched the
daughter Ant with her antennae. If you had been watching most
spectacularly close. Best Beloved, you would have seen nothing
happen to the Ant at all. Only the Ant herself could tell the dif-

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ference, for suddenly she could comprehend what the birds and
bugs and bushes were saying to each other, all above and around
and beside and beneath her.

"Now I will tell you a secret," said the Queen, but the daugh-
ter Ant didn't let her.

"I can find my own secret," said the Ant, for she knew very
well that she was scintillating clever, and this made her more
than a little proud. "And choose my own name, too," she added,
and went away satisfied to make her own way in the world.

Before long the Ant came upon the Paper Wasp, sucking rain-
water from her paper nest and spitting it out over the side. Paper
Wasp certainly knew how to build a nest, thought the clever Ant,
and set herself to bargain.

"0 my Friend," she said, waving her antennae high. "You
have the most beautiful nest I have ever seen, but I could not
help noticing that it is almost empty. Perhaps you could use
some assistance in guarding it? I have a fine sharp stinger that I
would wield in your defense."

"0 my Enemy, you think to trick me," said the Paper Wasp,
"but I have seen your sister the Army Ant, who marched her
daughters over my nest, all as fierce as ever could be, and killed
my poor helpless brood and carried them all away. As for sting-
ers, I have a 'scruciating one of my own, as you will learn if you
come any closer."

At that the Ant's antennae drooped, and she went hastily on
her way. Before long she came upon the Passion Flower, tilting
her broad leaves to catch glimmers of sunlight. Passion Flower
certainly knew how to make nectar, thought the clever Ant, and
set herself to bargain.

"0 my Friend," she said, waving her antennae high. "You
have the most beautiful flowers I have ever seen, but I could not
help noticing that some of them have been eaten. Perhaps you
could use some assistance in guarding them? I have fine sharp
jaws that I would wield in your defense."

"0 my Enemy, you think to trick me," said the Passion
Flower, "but I have seen your sister the Leaf-Cutter Ant, who
marched her daughters over my petals, all as industrious as ever
could be, and cut out immense semicircular pieces and carried
them all away. I have had enough of jaws, and so I am making
a pernicious poison, as you will learn if you come any closer."

At that the Ant's antennae drooped, and she went hastily on
her way. And so it went with every plant and animal she spoke
to, until she began to think her choice of magics had been a fool-


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ish one after all. Still she walked on across the dark damp bot-
tom of the forest-

The Ant walked far and she walked wide, she walked low and
she walked high, until one day while climbing a cloudy moun-
tain she came upon the Resplendent Quetzal sitting on an Avo-
cado tree and ruffling his emerald-and-scariet feathers. She didn't
have a bargain to make with the Quetzal, so she kept walking
without bothering to speak. But as she passed she heard him say,
"What manner of animal do you suppose that is?" From the Avo-
cado's trunk his wife replied irritably that she hadn't the faintest
idea, since the only thing she could currently see was the interior

of; A tree.

Aha. thought the clever Ant to herself, the Quetzal has never
met any of my sisters. And she thought perhaps her luck was
about to change.

Indeed it was the very next day that the Ant discovered the
Acacia. He was a tattered tree, a bedraggled tree, and nearly all
of his leaves had been chewed right off their stems. But the
clever Ant looked at the thick prickly moms that grew all along
the Acacia's trunk, and she thought of the Quetzal's wife, and
die set herself to bargain.

"0 my Friend," she said to the Acacia, "those are impressive
thorns that you have grown all along your trunk. But I cannot
help noticing that they have not kept-the Grasshopper and the
Caterpillar and the Katydid from chewing nearly all your leaves
right off their stems. Perhaps you could use some assistance? I
have a fine sharp stinger that I would wield in your defense."
• "All right," said the Acacia, who had never seen an Ant of any
sort before.

So the Ant climbed high in the bare branches of the Acacia to
me very tiptop, where the last little leaves were stretching toward
a sliver of sunlight, and waited. Soon enough the Grasshopper
landed on the leaves and widened his mandibles to take one in-
cisive bite. But he never got even a taste because the Ant ran
right up to him and stuck her stinger into the Grasshopper's foot.
When he lifted that foot out of reach, she stung another one, and
when he lifted that foot up, she stung a different one, until finally
the Grasshopper had no feet left to stand on, and he flew off in

a huff-

"Well, that takes care of him," said the Ant to the Acacia. "I'll
be on my way now. Best of luck." And she started climbing back
down along the bare branches.

"0 my Friend," replied the Acacia in something of a panic, for

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he knew that as soon as the Ant left the Grasshopper or the Cat-
erpillar or the Katydid would come back and chew his last little
leaves right off their stems. "You must have been traveling very
far. Why don't you crawl inside one of my hollow thorns and
rest for a while?"

"That sounds splendid," said the Ant, "but I shall be hungry
soon, so I really shouldn't stop until I've found something to
eat."

"Oh. you needn't worry about that," said the Acacia. "I'm
sure I can manage to feed such a valiant Ant as yourself."

At that, the Ant (you remember she was scintillating clever)
gave a little fillip of her antennae, which was her way of smiling
to herself, and chewed a round hole in one of his thick thorns.
Then she crawled right inside, curled up, and went to sleep.

Then the Acacia concentrated very hard, until he had grown a
nubby little knob at the base of a nearby stem, and filled it with
nectar. When the Ant woke, she took one sip and vibrated with
delight, for it was the sweetest nectar she had ever tasted.

"0 Acacia," said the Ant, "I will make a bargain with you.
I and my daughters will live inside your thick thorns for always
and always, and defend your tender leaves from the Grasshopper
and the Caterpillar and the Katydid, for always and always. In
return you will provide me and my daughters with as much
sweet nectar as we need, for always and always."

"Agreed," said the Acacia. Whereupon the Ant crawled back
into the hollow thorn and began to lay her eggs.

Now as you recall, Best Beloved, egglaying is a tedious task,
especially for someone so scintillating clever, so the Ant did a lot
of thinking besides. And what she thought was this: that sweet
nectar is all very well for grown-up Ants to eat, but that young
Ants need something rather more highly-nutritious, or they will
not be very clever Ants at all when they are grown-up. Her bar-
gain was not yet done. She clambered back out of the hole in the
thorn,

"0 my Friend," said the Ant to the Acacia, "your leaves are
looking ever so marvelous, but I cannot help noticing that clingy
curly vines have twined around your stems and are stealing the
light from them. Perhaps you could use some assistance? I have
fine sharp jaws that I would wield in your defense."

"All right," said the Acacia.

So the Ant climbed high among the leafy limbs and crossed
over onto one of the clingy curly vines where it spiraled around
a branch. Then she opened her jaws and bit into the vine, just at

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the base of the leaf-stem, and chewed and chewed until she
chewed clean through it and the leaf fell off. Then she bit
through another leaf-stem, and another, until me clingy curly
vine was as bare as could be, with no leaves at all to gather light.

"Well, that takes care of mat," said the Ant to the Acacia.
"But I am far too tired to bite any more vines for quite a while."
And she let her antennae sag in a most exhausted fashion.

"That's all right," said the Acacia. "Soon your eggs will hatch
and you will have many daughter Ants to help you."

"They'll be far too stupid for mat," the Ant replied sorrow-
fully. "You see, sweet nectar is all very well for grown-up Ants
to eat, but young Ants need something rather more highly-
nutritious, or they will not be very clever Ants at all when they
are grown-up."

"You needn't worry about that,'* said the Acacia. "I'm certain
I can manage to feed the daughters of such a loyal Ant as your-
self."

At that the Ant (you remember she was scintillating clever)
gave a little fillip of her antennae, which was her way of smiling
to herself, and crawled back inside her hollow thorn to tend her
eggs.

Then the Acacia concentrated very hard, until he had grown
highly-nutritious globules at me tips of the leaves on one branch,
all of them a radiant orange color. When the eggs began to hatch,
the Ant detached one of me orange globules and clambered back
through the round hole in the thorn, where she fed it to her own
first best beloved daughter.

"I will make a bargain with you," said the Ant to the Acacia.
"I and my daughters shall live in your thick thorns for always
and always, and with our sharp jaws protect your juicy stems
from the curly clingy vines, for always and always. In return you
shall provide me and my daughters with as many of these highly-
nutritious globules as we need, for always and always."

"Agreed," said the Acacia.

"Surely this is the best bargain anyone has ever made since
the beginning of the world," said the Ant. "I shall call myself
Acacia Ant in recognition of it" And she gave a little fillip of
her antennae.

Before long the Tamandua and the Pangolin and the Angwan-
tibo all trundled through that part of the forest, hunting for 'spe-
cially tasty delicacies, but the Acacia's thick thoms pricked them
every time they came close. Finally the Tamandua snuffled his
long nose, and the Pangolin curled his sticky tongue, and the

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Angwantibo blinked his round eyes, and they all went away hun-
gry-
So even today, Best Beloved, if you look at the dark damp

bottom of the forest, you can see the strong fierce daughters of
the Army Ant hooking themselves together by the ends of their
spindly legs, and the sturdy industrious daughters of the Leaf-
Cutter Ant carrying semicircular pieces of leaf away over their
heads.

And if somewhere in the forest you see a tree with a wide
space around it that no plant nor animal dares to encroach upon,
then you will know that it is an Acacia- For the daughters of the
Acacia Ant are valiant and loyal and (so long as they eat their
highly-nutritious globules when they are young) most scintillat-
ing clever, and they keep the bargain the Acacia Ant made for al-
ways and always and always.

In Fear o( Little NeB

bu G y Gregory reeley Feek

Gregory Feeley, whose novel The Oxygen Barons was
nominated for the Philip K. Dick award, here assembles a
tale around a famous character from Charles Dickens, a
writer best known for his urban settings. But the dichot-
omy between city and countryside is present in much of
Dickens, which allows Feeley to take afresh look at a very
different nineteenth-century story.

"She needs rest," said the old man, patting her cheek;

"too pale—too pale. She is not like what she was."
"When?" asked the child.

—The Old Curiosity Shop

Garlic grows poorly in Shropshire; the strings of bulbs that the
four men dropped around their necks had come on a boat from
Calais. Daiton fingered a clove, and found it soft: would its ef-
ficacy, like the bloom of a cut flower, fade after the first day?
The question did not bear thinking on. He tried to stuff the reek-
ing necklace into his shin, got it tangled with the cross on its
cord—a bit of papistry he was ashamed to wear, but afraid not
to—and pulled both free with a curse.

"Like a stinking censer," growled Burke, the sweat of fear
mingling with garlic as he bent to break open the crate. Burke
bad traveled as far as Silesia and seen much, but spoke of noth-
ing more specific than his disdain for Romish practices. And
what if their quarry was no Catholic? wondered Daiton, unable

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to halt the runaway train of his thought. Should the superstitions

avail them then?

The top split with a crunch, and Burke tossed aside his iron to
pry up the spintered boards and peer with his companions into
the crate. A dozen wooden stakes lay like carrots, each symmet-
rical as a geometer's cone. Dalton lifted one and felt its unnatural
smoothness, then discovered with a finger the indentation at the
base where the lathe had held it. The stakes had been machined,
probably in a Spitalfields mill. He held it up, and saw Burke's

eyes narrow in recognition.

"By God," he swore, "it's one monster hunting another." He
seemed ready to recoil from the stake, as though it had trans-
formed into his prey.

"Mind your language," said the parson, spectacles glinting as

he raised his chin. "This is a holy business we are about."
"It's a dirty business, and don't you forget it,"
"Burke," Dalton interjected firmly, "will a stake turned on a
lathe serve our purpose? Or need it be carved by human hands?"

Burke glowered and considered, "Not that I know," he al-
lowed. "If a stake cut by gypsies proved worthy, as I have heard
tell, then its making matters not. It could be machined by a Jew
on Whitsunday, so long as it is driven well home."

The journalist had said nothing, as was customary, and Dalton
would not have been surprised to see him recording this ex--
change in a memorandum. Instead, he was crouched before the
crate, rummaging through its contents with a bony rattle. "A
baker's dozen," he said, looking up. "Perhaps not a propitious
number. Are we likely to need so many?"
"Heaven forbid," cried the parson.

"If the first try fails," Burke said, "ye shan't get another."
"Perhaps the Professor expects us to split up, each taking
three?" Dalton asked. But that made no sense, as well as begging
the question. He didn't mention his next apprehension: that the
Professor had feared their quarry was not one, but many.

"Hullo," said the journalist, "here's something." His fingers
had merely touched the bottommost stakes as he counted them,
but now he brought one forth. He raised it like a candle, and they
stared. It was less than half the length of the others, although
shaped to the same proportions. The stake was a perfect minia-
ture, as though fashioned for a—

The thought struck them all at once. "Sweet Jesus Christ," ex-
claimed Burke. And this time the parson did not rebuke him.
* * *

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195

"We know it's a child," Dalton said, more for his own benefit
than for the journalist's. "The professor said that the examination
post mortem showed clear—"

^We know," said Buike shortly. He stood and crossed the
deck, to take up Us station against the far railing, looking out
aver me dark water.

The Journalist looked mildly after him. then back down at his
notebook. "Have you ever read De masticatione mortuorom in
tumulus?' he asked.

Dalton shook his head. "Something about the biting dead?" he
asked. "I haven't studied Latin since grammar school."

"I don't read Latin," the journalist said, "so do not know the
volume. Nor have I entree to the Bodleian Library, so have not
seen Calmet's Dissertation on the Vampyres of Hungary, evi-
dently on a like topic, although I paid a tipsy undergraduate to
abstract it for me, and learned for my trouble that I 'would not
like it' A similar book, however—the Travels of Three English
Gentlemen—was made available to me at a lending library in
Greenwich, and dates from 1734, the same era as the earlier
tomes."

"And what does that volume have to say?*' asked Dalton wea-
rily.

The journalist turned a page and held it so to catch the light
of the barge's lantern. 'Travels from Venice to Austria," he read,
"including the Carnian Alps, Hamburgh, and the Duchy of Siria.
Local superstitions, including vampyres, an apparently Servian
word. These Vampyres are supposed to be the Bodies of de-
ceased Persons, animated by evil Spirits, which come out of the
Graves, in the Night-time, suck the Blood of many of the Living
and thereby destroy them.' "

Dalton shivered suddenly, and drew his coat more closely
about him. "And how are they hunted?" he asked.

"The grave of a suspected vampyre is opened, and if the
corpse be rosy-cheeked, bearing no evidence of decay, it is a
vanapyre."

"And how killed?"

The journalist said mildly, "By those means already familiar
to us."

Dalton thought of something. "But the corpses are still undis-
turbed in their graves. How do they come to plague the living?"

"I believe the creature is thought to be a ghost or spirit, which
drinks living blood while its body yet lies underground. The

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vampyre of Slavic imagination seems as much a superstitious
fancy as a banshee or goblin."

"I wonder what Burke knows of tins," Dalton mused.

"Burke," said the journalist, "is not talking." As he spoke, die
barge bumped softly against something below the water tine.
Dalton looked over the railing to see that the towpath had drawn
closer; two figures stood by a wagon in the false dawn, the tiny
glow of a pipe showing briefly in the darkness. The team draw-
ing the barge had been halted and were cropping placidly as the
vessel drifted to a stop.

"Banbury?" asked the parson, looking confusedly at the empty
crossroads.

"We're not going that far," said Dalton, who reached for me
crate. One of the barge hands was lifting a long plank, which he
shoved over the rail until its far end touched the shore. The jour-
nalist steadied Dalton as he stepped over the railing, the crate un-
wieldy but light in his arms, and onto me swaybacked plank. He
dropped the crate with a rattle on the wet grass and waited as his
colleagues joined him. One of the figures climbed down from me
wagon and came toward mem.

"Reverend?" the man muttered, low.

"Just say yes," said Buike, as the parson made to extend his
hand- He lifted a burlap sack with a clank and threw it over one
shoulder.

Dalton felt in his pocket and produced silver, which he handed
to me bargeman and his companion holding the horses. In sec-
onds the bargeman was back across the plank, which withdrew
with a small plash, and the barge had resumed its journey with
no sound greater than the creak of ropes and clopping hooves.
"They think we're smugglers," said Dalton in sudden surmise.

"Just as well," answered Burke. He followed the others back
to the wagon, whose driver turned his head away at their ap-
proach. Clouds were beginning to brighten to the east, a filthy
umber that Dalton had never seen, even in London. He climbed
into the back with the others and fell asleep within ten minutes,
lulled by the jouncing bed where the barge's smooth glide had
only spooked him.

He woke at midmoming when the driver pulled up at a brook
and everyone climbed out to piss. A yellow haze tinctured me
sky in me direction (Dalton thought) of Birmingham, but a wood
lay some miles ahead, a green smudge beyond open fields. Dal-
ton felt his chest constrict, and a horror arose in him that he
could force down only by turning away.

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The young man, evidently the driver's son, had climbed back
into the seat. and was looking curiously at the crate and sack in
tfae back. When he saw Dalton watching him, his face went rigid,
and he turned his back with unmistakable contempt. So we are
your Untouchables, thought Dalton with a grim smile. We'll do
your dirty work, but you won't acknowledge us.

They entered me wood an hour later, and were quickly among
trees so tall that they leaned over the narrow road like curious
specters, and at last met overhead in a green vault. The wagon
still clattered so loudly as to make speech impossible, and the
four men simply looked at each other or lapsed into abstraction;

but me leafy canopy had an immediate effect on Burke, who
stared up at it in a kind of terror. Patterns of light and shadow
ran across his upturned face, which drained of color as though
through his opened mouth.

The journalist reached into his pea-jacket and pulled forth a
stoppered flask, which he passed to Burke without a word.
Twelve hours earlier, thought Dalton, Burke would have dis-
dained the offer, but now he grasped the bottle and drank off half
in a draught. When the journalist (who seemed slightly unnerved
by this response) offered the remaining spirits around, Dalton
took a swallow himself.

The road narrowed, and in mid-afternoon turned sharply
downward, descending on a narrow, pathway into a woody hol-
low. The houses of a small village appeared fitfully between the
trees, already in shadow although the summer sun would linger
for hours.

The four men looked at each other warily. The journalist
twitched alertly as a hare sensing danger, while the parson tried to
put on a brave face, and Burke looked as though he were riding
a tumbrel to execution. Dalton wondered at Burke's nerves; did he
expect the vampyre to drop from the trees like a leopard?

With a pull on the reins the driver drew his horse to a halt. The
wagon came to rest at an overgrown switchback, the village un-
seen below them. "Far enough," he said shortly, not turning.

They climbed out stiffly and lowered their gear to the ground.
"We'll be needing to speak to the vicar," Dalton told the driver.

"Nay," he replied, and lifted his reins.

"Wait!" Dalton cried. "I appreciate how we cannot ride into
the green like a pack of rat-catchers, but we shall have to
interview—"

The horses started forward, and the wagon rattled down the
path without either occupant turning his back. The four men

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watched it disappear around a turn, then stooped to pick up their
equipment

"Better get off the road," said the journalist. "Don't want that
one's cousin coming round the bend to wonder at us,"

They pushed into the wood like Spanish guerillas, taking care
to make as little noise as possible. Dalton worried about encoun-
tering a village boy hunting squirrels, who would nm back and
raise an alarum. Eventually they found a footpath and followed
it, although it increased the chances of encountering someone.
The crate rattled and was difficult to carry down the slope, so
they stopped and untied the rope that held down its splintered
lid, and shoved the thirteen stakes into their belts.

"Look at Burke," muttered the Journalist as he and Dalton
bent over the crate, "You would think he'd been drinking a
week." And indeed the shorter man was pallid and sweaty, his
thin hair plastered to his brow. "And do you know why? It came
to me a minute ago: this landscape looks like Bohemia, at least
to judge from engravings. Burke is reliving his last journey to
Europe."

From the last stand of trees they studied the village. At the far
side of the green/oddly empty for a late summer afternoon,
stood a small Norman chapel beside an overgrown church-
yard. Taking care not to be seen, they crept around to the vicar-
age, where they composed themselves before knocking at me
back door. When the door opened and a wizened sexton peered
suspiciously out, it was the parson who spoke, and gained them
entry.

"A horrible business," the man muttered as he conducted them
along the rear passageway. Whether he meant the village's trou-
bles or the strangers' presence was uncertain, for when the par-
son ventured to reassure him, the sexton only hunched his
shoulders and rapped on a door before disappearing, leaving the
vicar to look out in bewilderment at the four strangers that
crowded his hallway.

"Mr. Palor," said the parson, "I am Reverend Cobum- Profes-
sor Spode has told us of your crisis."

The vicar stared, then cried, "Thank God," at once anxious
and nearly faint with relief.

He led them through the churchyard, as though too agitated to
fit them into his small study. The parson elicited the man's story,
which added only incidentally—the names and particular virtues
of the victims; local horror and alarm—to what they already
knew. Dalton had hoped that the Professor had explained mat-

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199

ters, but finally decided that he would have to ask the pertinent
questions himself.

"Reverend Palor," he said. They were walking in high grass,
scuffing their toes against sunken fragments of stone that might
have marked graves in the last century. "Has anyone come to the
village in the past year?"

The vicar gave him a confounded look. "No, no one. We have
not even had a new schoolmaster since the last one left the past
year. Mr. Burdock, who was a solicitor's clerk in London as a
young man, has attempted to fill Mr. Marten's shoes, but he is
really not fit for the position. It is a shame that Mr. Marton left
us, but he never really recovered after poor little Harry wasted
away and died."

Dalton, who had only half-listened to this disquisition after the
first word, looked suddenly up, "Wasted away and died?" he
asked.

"Indeed, it was a sad business." Mr. Palor gazed dolefully to
a Corner of the churchyard as the other three men glanced
sharply at Dalton. 'The Little Scholar, he called him. The
schoolmaster visited him every day, but the lad faded like a cut
lilac. And truly, the village has not been the same since."

Dalton looked hard at the parson, who spoke up after a mo-
ment. "Do you suppose you could show us the grave of this
young unfortunate?"

The moon was not full that night, and would moreover be late
in rising above the wooded hills. Dalton sat smoking, one hand
shielding the pipe's glow from the eyes of any villager glancing
uphill at the ruined cottage they inhabited, while the journalist
stood looking over a collapsed wall into the rustling darkness-
The sexton had sullenly led them to the place, which looked
upon the village and the slopes beyond; and after establishing
that the monster had not made its nest there, they had fallen upon
the ground directly after making plans and slept till dusk. The
parson yet breathed in the rhythms of sleep, while Burke, invis-
ible in a far corner, was utterly silent.

"What did you think of the grave?" asked the journalist very
softly,

"Of little Harry? Just what I expected—a disordered plot, fre-
quently dug up for the graves of new children, so the fact that
the ground had been disturbed troubled no one. And the coffin,
I'm sure, had been laid no more than three feet down. It would

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be interesting to disinter it, but some things aren't done by day-
light."

"Care to try now?"

"Why bother? If he's what we're looking for, we'd find an
empty kist, broke open from within and the loose earth above it
pushed out then carelessly replaced. But we're not gathering ev-
idence, or a story—" here he looked sharply at the journalist,
"—we're hunting the creature. We catch him, we don't need to
poke further."

"The story may go further," the journalist noted mildly.
"There was that boy down in Kent, the fat sluggish fellow. 'I
wants to make your flesh creep'?"

"You weren't there," said Dalton firmly. "I don't think he was
a vampyre at all. He seemed in some ways a victim—assuming
some monster was keeping him as a cow instead of simply
slaughtering him—but we never found anything. You are multi-
plying entities in pursuit of a story."

"Perhaps. But what was that name the vicar gave us?" The
journalist sang softly:

Up the airy mountain,
Down the Dingley Dell,
We dare not go a-hunting,
For fear of Little—

"Shut up!" Burke cried hoarsely from the darkness. Both men
jumped. Burke lurched to his feet in the darkness. "Speak the
name of one, and you think its fellows can't hear?" His breath
puffed sourly in Dalton's face.
The journalist made to answer, but Burke shoved past, and
was over the threshold and out amid the underbrush, where he
could be heard thrashing for a minute before the sounds faded.
Dalton stood still, wondering whether the parson would wake,
but after a minute heard only the journalist sigh.

"Burke is a riotous man," the journalist remarked. "Did he
grow up in Europe?"

"Hardly. His father was a Luddite, and came to a bad end for
it. Burke lost a sister to some fever, of the sort that goes sweep-
ing through mill towns when men are out of work and children
hungry. I suspect he went to France a fugitive, and traveled east
to put more distance between himself and England. Until he saw
a vampyre, I doubt he ever met anything he hated so much as a
foundry."

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"And Spode engaged him for the same reason he did you? For
his acquaintance with unnatural phenomena?"

"I do not know the particulars of Professor Spode's arrange-
ments," Dalton said rather stiffly. "I work with him because I
would rather assist in first-rate researches than mount second-
rate ones. Burke plainly considers his work here important."

The journalist, unfazed, looked after Burke speculatively. "I
bet he's thinking what I am," he said after a moment.

"And what is that?"

"How many there are, of course. Don't all the accounts state
that the vampyre's victims mm vampyres themselves?"

"That's nonsense, else the living would be outnumbered by
them. Only a few must succumb to the contagion, or else only a
few escape their graves, while the rest remain buried, to die for
a second and final time."

"But you think you've got one here," the journalist stated.

"That may be so," Dalton admitted. His gut was certain: it
contracted at the thought. "Spode saw the evidence, and he
doesn't jump at shadows. And he sent up that box of stakes, after
we had set out. I wonder why he did that?"

"There's something on 'em," the journalist said. "Can't you
tell? Keep one under your shirt long enough and it starts to get
ripe. He has some poison on the tips, I warrant you."

"Really?" said Dalton, turning round.

**Take care not to be jabbed. I have the points of mine impaled
on bits of strap leather, and recommend the same to you."

Dalton was about to examine his when a thin shriek cut
through the night. Both men started up: it sounded like a vole be-
ing struck by an owl, but came from one of the whistles Burke
had handed out. They scrambled outside, Dalton pausing to
shake the parson. The night an- sang with crickets and soughing
leaves, and the sound of their own hard breathing.

"The path," the journalist whispered. The two men started
down it, Dalton (without intending it) in front. A wooden mallet
thrust in his bell banged hard against his hip as he blundered
down the narrow trail, striving to combine haste with silence but
managing (he was certain) neither.

They nearly ran into Burke, who crouched in the path with an
arm upraised- "Listen," he murmured. The two men stood there,
trying to still their heaving chests as the parson came up behind
them, and strained to hear something as a low breeze rustled
through the hollow.

A faint keening—was it the wind bending a laden bough?—

202                    Gregory Feeley

seemed to waft from the ground ahead. Dalton tried to order his
thoughts: Burke had laid garlic across every footpath leading to
the village but one, which they hoped to compel the creature to
use. But was this the path? He hadn't thought so.

The wind shifted, and for a second Dalton could hear it
plainly: a thin wail, like a cat in heat or mewling puppy- He
pushed past Burke, who had gone suddenly nerveless, and ad-
vanced slowly on the path, achieving at last a measure of stealth

as his night vision grew stronger

The child was standing before the post Burke had driven into
the ground, balked like a waif who can't manage bis way past an
obstruction. Its shoulders were shaking slightly as it sobbed, and
Dalton could see that its garments were torn and dirty. As he
stepped forward, the child turned and looked up at him,

Its dirty face white beneath me filth and smeared with tears,
me child—it was a boy, Dalton noted, hair knotted with twigs—
opened his mouth in a forlorn wail. He looked at Dalton for a
moment, then raised his arms in entreaty and took a few halting

steps forward.
Dalton bent down, and someone shoved him aside. "No!"

cried Burke as Dalton fell against a tangle of brush. There was
a scuffle and a sudden high scream. The others were crowding
past, and Dalton had trouble recovering his footing. A struggle
was taking place on the path, curses and thrashing branches. Dal-
ton scrambled to his feet. "For the love of God, Burke!" some-
one cried.
The sound thrilled his blood; the unmistakable thud of a mallet

pounding wood. The three men were bent over something, fall-
ing against each other. Suddenly mere was a light, and they all

stood back, aghast.
Eyes watering in the glare, Dalton pushed forward and looked

over their shoulders- The child, eyes livid and mouth gaping in
rictus, lay spread upon the flattened vegetation, a great stake
driven into his chest. Blood was everywhere: matting his hair,
rimming his distended mouth, soaking his shirt so wetly the
torchlight gleamed on it. "Good Christ," Dalton whispered. Be-
hind him, someone was being sick.

"Do you realize what you have done?" Dalton couldn't tell
who was speaking. "Can you see now what you did?"'

"I've killed a monster." Burke's voice was flat beyond exhaus-
tion. "Look at the blood around its mouth: it's long dried."

Dalton looked, but the surrounding details were beginning to
come clear to him, even as the horror at their center beggared

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notice. The journalist had ignited me scrap of leather on me tip
of his stake, which he now held point down so that the flame
licked over the wood, producing a vile stench. Burke stood pant-
ing, his leather apron slick with blood. The parson, face white as
a sheet, was in tears.

Dalton looked down again. "He's right," he said after a mo-
ment "God help us." The child's lips, drawn back in agony, dis-
closed teeth black with old blood. His clothes, filthy and
blood-soaked as they were, were churchgoing best: nothing to
wear while wandering at night A white scrap was caught on a
trouser button, which Dalton numbly recognized as material from
a winding sheet.

They stood staring for a second. Then Burke said, **Right,
then. Let's be about it."

With the journalist scribbling and the parson mumbling
prayers, Burke brought out a palm-sized block of paraffin, then
cupped one hand behind the creature's neck. "Mind those teeth,"
he told Dalton, who had gingerly grasped the jaw. The flesh was
cold, and felt like the skin on old oatmeal.

Carefully they took an impression of the child's dentition. This
body was lain in the grave, Dalton thought, and felt the skin of
his fingertips creep.

"Got it," muttered Burke. He raised the block to the light, then
frowned. Somewhere below a dog was barking. Suddenly afraid
of discovery, Dalton grasped the child's shoulder and tried to pull
him off the path. The small body twisted before encountering re-
sistance, and with a sudden nausea Daiton realize that the stake
had pinned it to the ground.

"We must get out of here," the journalist said.

"We have to dispose of the body," Dalton replied. Hands shak-
ing, he grasped the stake and tried to pull it free.

"We will take it down for Christian burial," said the parson,
his voice quavering.

"Like hell," said Dalton, suddenly angry. "It's had a Christian
burial. Spode wants to see it—"

"Oh, Christ," said Burke.

"—But I wouldn't transport it for a peerage. We're going to
saw off its head and bury it in the woods."

"Oh, Christ."

"What is it?" cried Dalton.

Burke held up the paraffin block, as though it were a page
from Revelation. "This isn't the same vampyre," he said.

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Birmingham glowed at night like coals in a grate, scattered or-
ange and red in the smoking darkness. Licks of flame appeared
atop smokestacks, and the tall windows of factories blazed like
lurid canvases hung against the night sky. The highway ran past
districts governed by mills and foundries, which flared through
the carriage windows like seeping fissures in the earth.

Dalton had expected me journalist to be up studying this spec-
tacle, but it was the parson whose eyes were open, dim whites
unblinking in the dark interior. Although they had all slept most
of the day, Burke and me journalist were slumped in the far
seats, as though fled from the jagged shards of consciousness
into Morpheus' enshrouding fog. Dalton wondered if he would
ever sleep again.

"What are you thinking of?" he asked the parson.
"Eternity," the man replied, surprising him. "That child had
died—I acknowledge that now—and been brought back, or his
release hindered, by the curse of vampyrism, whatever that be.
Did we deliver him in destroying his body?"

"Reverend, I am a naturalist, or once was. I don't think that
spiritual corruption is spread by contagion, like the plague. If it
makes you feel better, I believe mat there is a scientific explana-
tion for what we saw last night, and all me Slavic stories about
crosses and holy water are but superstitions."

The parson shook his head. "I appreciate what you're trying to
say, but I know enslavement when I see it, and it is not some-
thing suffered by nature. That child had been enslaved by some-
thing evil, and we must think as much of his slaver as of its other

victims. You must have thought of this."

Dalton sighed- "Something made little Harry into what we
saw. It is no longer in that village, else we would have seen a
vampyre scare like those in Hungary in the last century. So we
nave a mobile agent."

"A traveling vampyre."

Dalton winced. The image of an undead monster ranging
through the Midlands, perhaps taking the same highways as they,

felt worse the more he thought of it.

He ordered his thoughts before speaking. "An adult vampyre,
a canny one, could feed without making the kind of attacks that
attract attention. Feed upon helpless victims, like the infirm ...

or children."

"And if he fed carefully?" the parson asked quietly.
"They would not die quickly. But if they were children, they

would ... waste away."

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The two men were silent

From the opposite Corner the journalist spoke. "The school-
master, Mr. Marten. Who moved to the village of Tong."

"Yes," said Dalton.

"Who took a solicitous interest in that itinerant girl, whose
name I should not mention."

"Yes."

"We are riding to Wolverhampton, because of an old report
there, but you intend to continue to Tong, now, don't you? Be-
cause he is there. Where he has charge of a school full of chil-
dren."

"Yes," said Dalton. "This is so."

"Mister Marton remains schoolmaster, but has given up his
other duties as clerk," the clergyman told mem. "He has led a re-
tired life since the unhappy events of last winter."

The parson nodded politely as he walked beside his colleague
through the ruin of a church, which seemed to have been decay-
ing steadily since its construction sometime during the Crusades.
Dalton, who had been introduced as a student of church architec-
ture, followed a step behind them, pausing frequently to peer
about at the recesses and crannies of the chill stone pile.

"You mean the death of the little girl, Nell," he said.

The clergyman sighed. "Although she lived in our parish for
but a few scant months, she won a place in the hearts of the
townspeople that may never again be filled. Those last weeks—
when it was clear she would not live to hear the birds sing—cast
a pall on the hearts of all who knew her."

"It must have been a terrible blow to Mr. Marton," the parson
observed.

"It was hard—very hard," the clergyman admitted with a mel-
ancholy air. "But he has responded by throwing himself into his
work, and has shown such devotion to his duties that the child's
memory must shine in the light of heaven. To some of his stu-
dents he has grown especially close."

"I see." The parson did not glance back. "And the poor girl—I
assume her body was returned to her original home?"

"Oh, no. It rests within this very church."

"Indeed?" Dalton looked up at this. "Within the church it-
self?"

The clergyman led them into a tiny chapel, where the statues
of medieval knights rested supine atop stone coffins like Egyp-

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tian sarcophagi. Dalton looked about him in bewilderment:

clearly no one had been interred in this chamber in centuries.

"Nell is laid to rest beneath this pavement-stone," said the
clergyman, looking down upon it. Several lines had been carved
into the stone, unreadable in the dim light.

Dalton looked down with interest. The stone, and an adjacent
one, had plainly been taken up recently, while the mortar lining
the others bore the undisturbed grime of decades. "You buried

someone beside her?"

"Her grandfather," the clergyman explained. "He survived her
only by a few months. After her death, he would come and sit
right here, all day long, alone with his beloved granddaughter."

"I see." Above the clergyman's lowered countenance, the two
men exchanged a long stare.

Buike had spent a night and a day in Wolverton, and was of
dangerous countenance when he met them at the inn a few miles
from Tong. "Children dying every day." he said, raising his tan-
kard and glowering at them. 'Tiny bundles laid on wagons. A
vampyre could live forever in a mill town and no one would ever

suspect."

"Never mind that," the journalist told him. "We found our Mr.

Marton."

The three men listened as the journalist described his inter-
view with the schoolmaster. "His hand is cold, and he withdrew
it quickly from mine, which I had rubbed with garlic juice. His
garden is small; villagers say he gives away many of his vegeta-
bles, I think he gives them all away. He keeps his cottage dim,
but can see well in it; he avoids daylight as an owl does. And
one of his students is ailing.'*

"He never died and was buried," the parson interrupted. "The
clergyman, who hired him, has letters of recommendation from

his school days."

The journalist shrugged. "A victim may die alone, and lie ne-
glected until he rise a vampyre. He may, indeed, not know him-
self for what he truly is."

"We will tell him ere we strike off his head," Burke said.
Dalton spoke up then. "No, that we cannot do," he said as the
other two started in alarm. "It is one thing to decapitate a mon-
ster that everyone thinks in its grave; it is another to kill a
schoolmaster. I have written the Professor this evening, and we
will wait on his reply. I suspect he will want the schoolmaster
taken alive—if that is the proper term."

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Burke actually growled. "A vampyre is not a Bengal tiger to
be caged and studied," he said. "If you will not act, I—"

"Stay," said Dalton, raising a hand. "We shall have our answer
in two days. If you want to hunt monsters tonight, we have
scented another." And when the journalist turned to stare at him,
Dalton added, "The girl, your Little Nell. She is in the church it-
self."

They picked the sexton's lock silently, then stood within the
softly-closed door for long minutes, letting Ac stillness return
like a startled animal. Only after ascertaining that nothing was
moving within the church did they begin to advance, in single
file, slowly up the aisle.

They entered the old chapel as cautiously as if it were a bear's
cave, though Dalton was certain that their quarry did not sleep
here. He satisfied himself by putting one foot on either side of
her pavement-stone (as he could not do when the clergyman was
present) and shifting his weight back and forth. After a minute he
nodded at Burke, who was standing with his stake gripped like
a butcher's knife: the stone was not loose in its setting.

They had slowly filed out of the chapel and stood uncertainly
in the darkness when Dalton heard it. A faint scratching, oddly
amplified, echoed in the dim expanse, its point of origin un-
knowable. The four men froze. Dalton raised his face, like a
blind man seeking the sun's warmth, and sought its source.

It's echoing off the chancel ceiling, he thought. So it is not at
this end of the nave. He slowly began to step down the aisle,
straining so hard to hear that his arched eyebrows began to ache.

The parson touched his sleeve. "Where is it?" he whispered
into Dalton's ear. "The belfry?"

The thought of the creature being above his head was almost
too horrible to entertain, but after a second's reflection Daltonshook 
his head. The tiny belfry lacked space for concealment.

The scraping came a bit louder, distorted by its own echoes.
**Sounds as though it's coming from the bottom of a well," the
parson whispered.

"Good God," said Dalton, softly but aloud. "The well!"

He ran toward the narthex, and was slowly pulling open a
heavy oak door when his colleagues caught up with him. A
musty exhalation breathed forth from the crypt below, and the
sounds grew immediately louder.

"The well is old, and dry at the bottom," Dalton said. "It's
covered by a few boards. What a fool I've been."

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Burke was unshouldering his canvas bag. With a scratch, a lu-
dfer flamed into life in the journalist's hands. "Can she see
that?" whispered the parson, glancing down die stairwell to see
how far the weak light penetrated.

"If she's still in the well, it won't matter that she knows we're
coming," Burke answered,

The stone steps did not creak, but Dalton grimaced at each
footfall as they hastened down. Burke held a lantern, its lamp
hooded so mat only a single beam fell onto the steps before
them. The low ceiling of the crypt prevented the diffusion of
light

The sounds were coming through a low vaulted arch, built in
an age when men were smaller. They were louder now, and had
taken on definition; a sliding scrape, a pause, some tiny fidgety
sounds, and then another scrape.

Slowly they stepped through the arch. At the center of the
small chamber, a trestle with a bucket banging on a cord stood
over a circular hole three feet across. The sounds were echoing
off the low ceiling directly above.

The irregular oval of lantern light, which had advanced to the
edge of the well and then circled it like a cautious dog, slid sud-
denly to a far wall as Burke thrust the lantern into Dalton's
hands. Slowly he advanced to the edge of die well, where he
stood looking down for several seconds.

He's going to kill her. Dalton thought in alarm. He's going to
cosh in her head. In the dim light, he could not see whether
Burke's arms were raised. He wanted to call out, but didn't dare-
Then he saw a hand rise out of the blackness and grasp the lip
of the well. He didn't see Burke's reaction; his gaze was fixed on
the dim white shape clutching the stone's edge. A second later
another hand appeared, and a small head rose above the level of
me floor.

Its face was turned away, but Dalton could see the head tilt as
it noticed the dim light in the chamber. Then it turned, and a
dead white face—white even in the faint hooded lamplight—
turned and saw Dalton, men looked up at Burke.

"Have you come for me, then?" it asked in a little girl's voice,
scratchy with disuse. "I have been waiting so long."

A low moan filled the room, and Dalton realized with horror
that it was Burke. Something metal fell from his hands and
clanged against the stone floor.

The girl was pulling herself out of me hole. A funerary gown,
streaked with dirt, hung from her slender frame. The lantern

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beam fell as if of its own volition onto the girl; she blinked once
when it crossed her face.

She rose unsteadily to her feet, like one stiff from labor. Her
crown scarcely reached Burke's elbow, and the legs beneath her
ragged hem were thin as a doe's.

She held out her open arms, as though inviting the blow. "I
have been so cold and so lonely," she said in a quavering tone.
"I did not mean to be like this."

With a cry Burke bent over her, and her tiny arms closed
around his neck. Dalton shouted, or started to, but things hap-
pened too quickly for the sound to escape his throat.

Whether she pulled Burke down or slipped backward Dalton
could not tell, but the two fell together, with a terrible cracking
sound that must have been Burke's skull striking the far side.
Like a nut clattering down a rain spout, they knocked against the
sides going down, falling not freely but impeded, and hence for
far longer. Dalton thought he heard a scream, but it might have
been his own.

Dust flew through the beam as it swung wildly through the
chamber, then settled once more upon the well, now horribly si-
lent. Heart pounding, Dalton advanced to its edge, then leaned
slowly—he had to force himself for the last inches—over the
well's mouth, and shone the lantern downward. Rock dust boiled
up, obscuring the beam before it had. penetrated a yard. It would,
he realized, be hours in settling.

No sound from below. Somewhere behind, the faint call of
voices.

She could not have survived the fall, Dalton knew. Thin-boned
and emaciated, the poor monster had surely perished, breaking
(to some degree) the large man's fall. Even Burke, hale and burly
and aproned in cushioning leather, must lie unconscious at the
well's dry bottom.

Dalton tugged at the rope, which he found too thin to trust,
and pushed the bucket aside. He set the lantern next to the edge,
and unhooded it: the light cast a half-circle of pale illumination
through the dust-swarming chamber, but none fell into the well.

She is dead, he thought. Burke, perhaps, is alive. With trem-
bling hands he planted his palms upon either side of the well,
then swung his legs over the edge. Bracing each foot against the
rough stone was easy, and Dalton gingerly lowered his weight
below the level of the floor, disappearing at once into darkness.

If anything brushes my foot, I shall kick, he thought. / can
climb quickly, if need be. It is, moreover, a long way down.

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The image of the girl's pipestem arms rose before him, and a
puff of invisible dust made his eyes sting. "The poor girl," he
murmured, too intent on maintaining his footing as he slowly de-
scended the narrow shaft to direct his train of thought. "She
should not have ended thus."

He coughed as the dust coated his throat, and hawked in a
racking sob. "I'm coming," he said softly, as he let his soles slip
several feet before regaining purchase. The stone was not as chill
as the crypt itself had been; a few feet further, and its tempera-
ture was the same as his own flesh. "Poor helpless thing, I'm
coming...."

And when the hands reached up for him, he fell into their em-
brace with a cry of exhausted relief. The smell of moist earth
rose about him, a puff of warm breath, and Dalton fell into un-
consciousness with the release of his overstrained limbs.

He woke when something prodded his shoulder, paused, men
bumped against his knee. Dalton was tying in a tangle of 
limbs,some his own. He reached out, every muscle aching, and felt 
a
tiny smooth arm, cool as a root. He jerked his hand back.

Something was bumping about in the darkness, striking the
wall every few seconds with a metallic clang. He suddenly
guessed it: the weight at the end of a dangling cord. With an ef-
fort he recalled the coil of hemp slung over the journalist's
shoulder. He grabbed at it, but snatched only air.

He looked up into the darkness, and saw it quickly brighten to
gray. A burning lucifer fell through the dust and dropped before
him, illuminating the surrounding carnage for an instant before
snuffing out. Both Burke and the girl lay motionless, a disor-
dered salad of outflung limbs and loose hair.

Dalton stirred with difficulty in the cramped space, and squea-
mishly felt their lifeless persons. Both were extensively bloodied,
as (he came to realize) he was himself. Numerous bones were
broken: he felt them through the girl's thin gown, and even
Burke's heavy clothing. The weight brushed his neck and he
grabbed it, pulling down hard once. A muffle shout reached him
from above. Wrapping the cord around his bloodied knuckles,
Dalton tugged to ensure it was secure, then began to climb. After
a moment he could feel the cord being slowly drawn up.

"Good God!" the parson cried when he neared the top. Dalton
blinked at the lantern as his head crossed the plane of the floor,
and he felt hands pulling at him. The journalist's face, frightened
and alarmed, swam briefly in his vision.

"Are you all right? Burke is—?"

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"Down there. Dead." He found it difficult to speak. "Both of
them," he managed to add.

They laid him on the stone cold floor, smoother than the well.
"You are hurt," the parson said.

Dalton touched the side of his face. It was raw, and stung
dully. He wondered if he were in shock.

The parson spoke of going for help; footsteps retreated up the
stone stairwell. Dalton felt a bundled jacket placed beneath his
head- The lantern was set nearby, and he could see the journalist
in the harsh shadows.

"You have been hurt," the journalist observed.

Dalton nodded.

"Scrapes, from the look. From cascading down the well."

Dalton said nothing.

"It must have been nasty, in that hole," the journalist said after
a moment. "Especially at the bottom."

"I feel as if I am still there," Dalton said.

The other man nodded, not looking at him. "She must have
been ... hard to resist. Going to all those children who loved
her, and none of them ever complaining, not one report from this
village. These angelic young girls, sometimes I think they spend
their lives training to be dead."

Dalton closed his eyes. When he opened them a moment later,
the journalist had met his gaze at last.

"We'll take you to the Professor, and he'll look at you, and
wait. And then we'll see, won't we?"

THE NEW W8LD THAT
NEVER WAS

Branchings from history

Tooa Song

by Kate Daniel

Statistics say most people today will have three careers in
their lifetime. As a writer Kate Daniel is on her third right
now, having already been a teacher and a computer pro-
grammer. She has six YA mystery novels in print, the most
recent being Babysitter's Nightmare II, along with several
fantasy short stories.

At certain times of the year, late at night, the Coaster Grove on
Coney Island seems to sing softly to itself. Those who walk be-
neath the trees at such times feel a sense of awe, as though they
walk in a holy place. The grove has stood for over a hundred
years, immune to the twentieth century, wrapped in the peace of
an older time, and some credit the sensation to age. But even
they do not know how deep the years are that twist around the
young trees, or how far their roots extend. Like so many dreams
of the new world, the dream that is the Grove began in the old,
in a promise and prophecy given to a young girl as old as the At-
tic hills....

*'Go; you'll fee! better. See what a wonderful place this coun-
try is!"

The landlady's shrill voice grated on Daphne's ears. At least
the woman spoke Greek. It wasn't a musical sound, but it carried
the accents of home, here in this new world of foreigners where
Daphne was trapped by bricks and streets. And Mrs. Kontos
meant well. She was kind. Kind, but she'd never heard the del-
icate song of a breeze dancing among spring leaves, never tasted

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the silence when trees hold their breath.... Daphne never should
have left her grove, no matter what the laurel had promised.

"You're so thin," Mrs. Kontos went on. "And pale as well. Go
on, let the salt air put some flesh on you. A body'd think you
was consumptive, to look at you- You couldn't go alone, it
wouldn't be proper, what with you not married yet and at your
age, too, but the Pappadeases want to take you.'*

"Are there woods there?" None of the trees in this new land
spoke to Daphne. She had tried to call them with her powers so
many times, in the park near the tenement, on the tree-lined
paths of Central Park. There was never a response, and she had
almost given up hope of finding me grove the laurel had prom-
ised her. But at least the scent of green helped her stay alive
amid me noise and crowds of this great city.

"Woods! What do you need with woods? There's people there,
good people—well, some others as well, but Mrs. Pappadeas will
watch out for you.** Mrs. Kontos nodded as she looked at
Daphne. "Your aunt is a decent woman. Miss, but she should
have found a proper match for you before now."

Daphne said nothing. Mrs. Kontos meant well, but Daphne
feared her. The tiny woman was a tireless matchmaker. Next she
would again hymn the praises of the Pappadeas' eldest son,
Nikkolas. He was past twenty and reckoned a good catch, with
dark good looks. For weeks now Nikki had pursued her, confi-
dent that the eldest son of a prosperous family would never be
refused as a match. Mrs. Kontos would be outraged if she knew
how little interest Daphne had in him. But she had watched
many young mortals such as Nikki fade with age, brittle as au-
tumn leaves in as little time. Daphne shivered. Nikkotas
Pappadeas was mortal, but she feared him even more than the
landlady. She feared the autumn he would bring to her eternal
spring.

Despite her misgivings, the next Saturday found Daphne
standing with Mrs. Pappadeas on the deck of an overcrowded ex-
cursion steamer as it cast off from the pier and started down the
river toward the ocean and Coney Island. The Atlantic wasn't the
wine-dark sea she longed for, any more than Coney Island was
one of the Kikladhes. But the Atlantic led to the Middle Sea and
the home she'd never see again.

She tried to shut her ears against the horrible din of the
"band," a small group of musicians who seemed determined to
force payment from the crowd by playing till they yielded their

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silver dimes. Money was a mortal concern, but mortal concerns
were hers now as well. Glaring at the nearest player, a sweaty
German man puffing on a brass hom, she clutched her reticule
with its precious coins. The pittance she earned at the florist's
wasn't enough to support her. But her "aunt," Mrs. Zanos, still
regarded Daphne with a trace of old reverence and paid for her
lodgings at Kontos' Boarding House.

Eleni Zanos had been a young bride when Daphne came to the
village near Olympus, driven from her grove by a prophecy of
wars soon to come and a promise of a new grove in a new land.
When Eleni's family left for the New World, Daphne had fol-
lowed, searching for her promised grove. Now only Eleni knew
what Daphne was, and she was beginning to forget. If she forgot
entirely ...

**... much nicer, isn't it, Miss Dendrophilos?" For once, Mrs.
Pappadeas waited for an answer and Daphne realized she hadn't
been listening. So did Mrs. Pappadeas; after a moment she re-
peated herself. "I said, this is much nicer man the tenements,
isn't it? Manhattan may be an island, but it's not like home." She
looked wistful. The Pappadeases had been in the United States
for over a decade, but a tiny island in the Aegean was still home.
Her broad face tightened as she added, "I shouldn't complain.
It's not Greece, but we don't starve, and we don't have the
Turks." She made as if to spit, but refrained.

"Yes, thank you, Mrs. Pappadeas. It's very pleasant." As the
flood of words resumed. Daphne privately thought the excursion
boat not much better than steerage. It was as overcrowded, and
to her nose almost as smelly. And if anything, it was noisier: the
German band was still creating a racket that made her head ache,
and there were screaming children and scolding parents and rude
remarks in the half-comprehended English tongue and....

People. There were too many people. Mrs. Pappadeas was still
speaking, her voice lost in the din. Daphne nodded without
meaning. Mrs. Pappadeas was another one like me landlady, her
voice loud after years spent among red bricks and mortar. It
clacked endlessly, like me rattle of wheels and the clanging bell
of the horse-trolley and the shouts of the teamsters that kept
Daphne from sleep during the noisy nights.

Nikkolas stood beside his mother, smiling past her at Daphne.
When he caught her eye, the smile widened. She shivered and
turned back toward the sea, focusing on the open water at the ho-
rizon and trying to ignore the crowded bay. Despite the smells of
a busy harbor, there was the fresh smell of salt, of Poseidon's

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realm. She whispered its name, "Tkalassa." The sea. It eased the
home-hunger a little.

Demigods had become mortal, mortals had been transformed,
gods had died or vanished over the long years. Always Daphne
had remained atone in her grove, speaking to the laurel. Even
leaving her grove for the village of Florterini had not changed
her, other than teaching her a more modem tongue. Her
transformation had begun in the marble building she had mis-
taken for a temple, there on Ellis Island. Uniformed officials had
filled in forms naming her Daphne Dendrophilos, niece of Eleni
Zanos. At the time, she had thought little of taking a name in the
fashion of this land. It had amused her to choose the name
Dendrophilos, lover of trees. The officials had accepted it as a
human name, and written it on their forms.

She realized now that had been the first step toward mortality,
the question after question asked by the officials with their
forms. Words had always held power, but only in this land did
men weave words onto pieces of paper to capture souls. Once
the final words were spoken by the papa, the priest at the Ortho-
dox Church, binding her to a mortal man, the transformation
would be complete.

As the boat docked at West Brighton, Daphne gazed on the
swarms with dismay. Despite eight months in New York City
and the crowds on the excursion steamer, she had expected Co-
ney Island to be an island such as she had known in Greece, with
hills and perhaps a few trees, rocks and places where she could
slip away and free herself, if only for a while. But this! A short
distance from the water's edge, beer bars and oyster bars were
Jammed in between sideshows, while farther back hotels
sprawled their way down the sandspit island. Instead of rocky
shores, there was sand, almost hidden by (he endless crowds of
people. Hundreds splashed in the waves, shrieking with laughter,
wearing costumes Daphne thought even more hideous than those

she was forced to wear daily.

She let herself be urged down the gangway to the iron pier by
a still-talking Mrs. Pappadeas. The younger children clung to
their mother's wide skirts and chattered with excitement.
Nikkolas followed silently, his eyes never shirting from Daphne.
She could feel them on her back, as hot as the sun overhead. Be-
hind them alt, Mr. Pappadeas carried the basket with their lunch.
Once they reached me beach, they trudged along until they found

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a likely spot Mr. Pappadeas set down me basket and looked
around with a satisfied air.

"It's good, getting out of the city," he said, making one of his
rare comments. He spoke in heavily accented English rather than
Greek, and for a moment Daphne struggled to understand the
words. She wasn't sure she had: they hadn't escaped the city,
they'd carried it with them.

Mrs. Pappadeas, shooing the youngest children away from the
water, replied in a more familiar tongue. "A pity we can't live
here, Stavros. You could fish again."

He scowled. "And how would I get a boat, hah? I don't fish
another man's boat. No, the fish-stall makes good money and
flat's what I am now. A fishmonger."

A fisherman, a man of the sea, son of generations of the sea.
Selling fish caught by another. Nothing was as it had been-
Daphne spent her days in a cramped shop, surrounded by flowers
that were as far from their home as Stavros1 fish were from
theirs. Almost as far as she was from her own.

The day wore on, as tiring as a day in the shop. Nikki contin-
ued to follow her with his eyes- He tried to catch her alone, but
Daphne was too old a hand at that game. She ignored him, as she
had always ignored hungry-eyed young men. But she was afraid
a match would soon be arranged. Eleni was her only "relative,"
responsible for Daphne in the eyes of-the world. The longer they
stayed in this country, the less Eleni remembered the village.
Once she forgot the truth, marriage would be inevitable, and
Daphne would never again dance with me trees.

The family sampled the pleasures of the island, spending their
dimes on cheap trinkets and the sideshows. They bought oysters
and Saratoga crullers, and me younger children played at the wa-
ter's edge with me wooden buckets that every child on the beach
carried. Daphne stared out over the waves breaking on the shore.
She wanted to change herself into one of Zeus' eagles and fly to-
ward the horizon, fly till wings gave out. But that power had
never been hers.

"Would you care to bathe, Miss Dendrophilos?" Nikki's voice
broke her thoughts. It was polite enough, pitched low so his
mother wouldn't hear. "You can rent a bathing costume for only
a quarter. I'd be happy to go in and keep you safe." He moved
closer and smiled at her possessively. As though she already
were his mortal wife.

Careful as he'd been to speak softly, his mother overheard.
"Nikkolas! She's a good girl, not one of those shameless crea-

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tures." She nodded sharply out toward the rope, where several
young ladies in bathing costume clung, squealing as the waves
broke over them. "No lady would dress that indecently. Leave
her alone."

With a muttered apology, Nikki drew back, his face sullen.
Daphne was grateful for his mother's intervention. The water
was tempting, but she refused to don one of those bathing cos-
tumes. She didn't find them immodest, but they were ugly. The
heavy black wool clung to the limbs, hampering them as much
as the voluminous skirts of the dresses she wore at the shop.
Modem clothing was as graceless as the shape of their buildings.
Daphne turned her back on the ocean. There was no answer
there.

As the time drew near for the return trip, Daphne again felt the
pull of the sea. If she could throw herself over the rail—but that
would be cruel repayment to the Pappadeases, and useless be-
sides. She was no child of Nereus. They would steam upriver
and return to the swarming tenements, and soon she would forget
the hills of Thessaly and accept the arranged marriage.

As though to confirm her fears, Nikki once more tried to draw
her apart from the others. "Before we leave, would you like to
ride the roller coaster?" The final words were in English, and
she had no idea what they meant.

Before she could ask, Mrs. Pappadeas shrieked. "Nikki! That
devil's road? Here we give our guest a day to enjoy and you
want to scare her half out of her wits." But she was beaming as
she spoke; she obviously approved the idea.

"What is this roller coaster?" Daphne asked. The Church's
devils held no terror for her, but this new world was full of other
fears.

"A new thing, they just built it last year," Mrs. Pappadeas
said. "There are cars on little wheels and you roll over hills
made of wood. They used to call it the sliding hill."

"Please—I would be honored," Nikki said, his dark eyes hot
on her.

Daphne didn't want to go anyplace with Nikki, but the phrase
"hills made of wood" intrigued her. "Perhaps if you would like
to, Mrs. Pappadeas," she began.

Nikki's mother shook her head violently. "No! It's for you
young people. But maybe the children ..."

They walked down the beach toward the new attraction, suit-
ably chaperoned by Nikki's younger brothers and sister. As they
drew close enough for her to see the hills in question. Daphne re-

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gretted her impulsive yes. The structure was just a flimsy lattice-
work of wooden beams and cross-braces, like a railway bridge
grown wild. Closer, it looked even more like one, for there were
twin rails to carry the cars. It wasn't as shaky as it appeared at
a distance; the beams were solid wood and the rails were sup-
ported al every point. As Mrs. Pappadeas had said, the top of this
bridge to nowhere was sculpted into dips and crests. It was an
impressive piece of American engineering, but it wasn't a hill of
wood. Daphne had grown tired of American engineering.

There was a line of people waiting to ride the amusement.
Nikki spoke firmly to the children. "You will ride in a different
car. I will ride beside Miss Daphne." He took her arm as calmly
as he had assumed the right to use her name.

For once, she hardly noticed his arrogance. The understruc-
ture, as regular as Arachne's weaving, drew her. Uprights stood
like sturdy trunks, regular and strong. Beams crossed the way the
branches of trees that danced in her grove had done. Daphne
moved closer to the supports. It was cut wood, dead and sepa-
rated from the living trees, yet it called to her as no living tree
had called her yet in this land. She stretched her hand out and
touched the wood with reverence. Under her fingers, it felt alive,
warm from more than the heat of the sun. This was the promise
of the laurel.

The touch of Nikki's hand shocked her back to awareness of
her surroundings. His arm had slid around her waist while she
stared in fascination at the web of wood, and he now took advan-
tage of the children's shrieking excitement and the holiday atmo-
sphere to pull her closer. "My father has said he will speak to
your aunt next week," he murmured, his mouth almost brushing
her hair. He said no more, and there was no need. She knew
what he meant: arrangements for their marriage. Her reluctance
was ignored, as no more than the proper modesty of a decent
girl.

One of the children tugged at Nikki's sleeve, demanding his
attention to settle a squabble, and Daphne carefully pulled away
from him. Her fingers stroked the wood once more, savoring its
warmth. The tree-longing was stronger lhan it had been since she
had left her grove, but it could do no good here. Dead, dry lum-
ber. If it were a tree—but she knew better. Goat-footed Pan had
never held his revels in this strange land, and the trees locked her
out of their heartwood. Still, this wood spoke as her own grove
had, calling her name.

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pocket for enough nickels to pay for them all. Daphne whispered
a prayer in the old tongue to the gods that were gone. If they
proved as dead as this wood, she would accept her new world
and life, let the past slip from her. She glanced around. Crowds
clustered around the sliding hill, but for the moment no one's
eyes were on her. Moments before, a cloud had covered the sun.
Now it slid aside. As the sun shone forth again unshielded,
Daphne called on Phoebus Apollo and reached one last time for
her long-unused powers.

At first nothing happened. The crowd pressed close around
her, jostling and sweaty and cheerfully noisy. Again she called
on the god, straining with her heart toward the wood and the life
she could feel still deep within it. Then the sun's warmth flooded
her, renewing life in her clothing-hampered limbs. Under her
seeking fingers, the wood quivered, alive. The crowd-noise
changed, fading and becoming the sound of a chant to the god.

"Yes." She whispered the word over and over, as the wood
opened its heart to her, waking under her hands. The ridiculous
heavy costume she had worn in deference to the strange customs
of this land thinned and faded. Faintly, in the distance, she heard
a mortal voice calhng her name, but she did not turn- She had
left poor Nikki far behind her.

She began to sing, the song of spring and new leaves, the song
of trees, and spread her open hands flat against the wood. Wood.
It was no longer dead wood, it was living tree, many trees, a
grove interwoven with many branches and crowned with iron
railings. "Soon we will dance," she promised them, and stepped
forward, merging into the now-living wood.

At the front of the ticket line, there was confusion as a young
man looked around for his companion. Confusion gave way to
panic, and later to an organized search. Long after a sobbing
family of Greek immigrants had been sent home by the frustrated
police, the search continued, but even under the roller coaster it-
self, there was nothing to be found.

The sensational press took up the story quickly. Rumors of
white slavery circulated, as always. The Pappadeas family found
themselves briefly famous, and the fish-stall thrived. The missing
girl's landlady defended her honor. Miss Dendrophilos was a
good girl, almost betrothed to that nice young man, Nikkolas
Pappadeas. In the newspaper, the betrothal became a settled
thing. A young lady who was merely almost betrothed wasn't as

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tragic, or as newsworthy, as one who had attained that happy
state.

The girl's aunt was interviewed, but she spoke so little English
the reporter gave it up as a bad job. Anything she might have
said would only have added to the confusion, since she no longer
remembered much about her niece. Eleni Zanos had confused
memories of a sacred grove near Olympus, and a young girl
older man the oldest man in the village. She put it from her
mind, retreating into Greek and timidity in the face of the report-
er's questions. He went away satisfied. He had enough, with the
romantic Mrs. Kontos and the broken-hearted Nikki.

Long before the last echoes of sensation died away, before a
new lodger moved in to Kontos' Boarding House, months before
a suitable bride was found for Nikki Pappadeas, the newsmen re-
turned to Coney Island. No one thought of the missing immi-
grant girl when the supporting structure of the roller coaster,
made of seasoned wood, began to sprout. At first the owners
were accused of trickery. But the cross-pieces continued to put
forth twigs and leaves, and the uprights sheathed themselves in
bark.

The roller coaster became the most famous thing on the island,
surpassing even the Iron Pier and the Elevator. Slips were taken
from the living wood and nurtured, growing into a new species
of tree. The popular fancy at once dubbed the trees coaster-trees,
and it was noted that trees planted near one another would grow
together, connected by branches resembling the cross-pieces of a
railway bridge. Science had no explanation for the new species.
Members of the Royal Society crossed the Atlantic to visit Co-
ney Island, and the newly-formed National Geographic Society
published an article about the living artifact. Darwinists claimed
it as clearly evolutionary, while pulpits around the country
praised the miracle.

But even miracles grow commonplace. The story slipped from
the front pages to the back ones, then quietly vanished as an item
of interest. The scientists adjusted their theories to account for it,
then accepted it just as the public had done. However impossible
it was, it had happened.

The roller coaster at Coney Island has never lost its popularity,
and the picnic grounds in the Coaster Grove are still the most
popular at the resort. Neither the picnickers nor the occasional
scientist, still hoping to solve the old puzzle, ever see the beau-
tiful young girl watching from within the trees. Daphne, no
longer tied to mortal form, welcomes visitors to her grove with

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soft breezes and the scent of green leaves. Sometimes she slips
from the wood and wanders past groups of young men near the
shore, teasing them as she never dared tease poor Nikkolas. She
had been mortal then, or almost. But her spirit has been given
back to her, and she is home.

At certain times of the year, late at night, the Coaster Grove on
Coney Island seems to sing softly to itself. Those who walk be-
neath the trees at such times feel a sense of awe, as though they
walk in a holy place. Beneath the metal tracks of the old roller
coaster, a nymph dances praise to the ancient gods of Greece.
The laurel, the original Daphne of legend, had prophesied truth
for her namesake. In a new land, in a new grove beside new seas,
the dryad Daphne sings to her trees.

Virginia Vooos

by Janni Lee Simner

Janni Lee Simner has sold more than a dozen short stories,
including those in Mike Resnick's Alternate Outlaws and
Susan Shwartz's Sisters in Fantasy 2. Although she grew
up surrounded by East Coast oaks and maples, she now
lives among the cactus forests of the Arizona desert.

As always, the Indians came at night. Eleanor had known they
would. When she saw the fields of trampled maize, gold beneath
the morning sun, she couldn't even bring herself to cry. She just
stood there, staring at the broken dirt. Already it seemed that
weeds were moving in, growing over the battered corn. The In-
dians had destroyed their crops once before this spring. She
didn't have enough seed to plant again, not if she wanted to eat
as well.

The man set out on guard duty the night before was missing.
A search party—her husband Ananias among them—had gone
out to look for him. Eleanor drew her arms tightly around her-
self. The last guard had been found just inside the forest, his
chest riddled with arrow holes. No arrows, though—the Indians
must have pulled them out before leaving the body.

Eleanor shivered, looking toward the edge of the field. The
trampled soil gave way to grass and scrubby bushes; the bushes,
in turn, gave way to dark trees. Their branches intersected at
wild angles; their leaves blew fitfully about.

The colony was surrounded by those trees. In the morning
light, their shadows stretched across the field, like the claws of

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some wild beast. Eleanor stepped back, away from the dark
shapes.

Somewhere within the forest, the Indians were hiding. Only
Savages would hide in a place like that. The settlers had chased
them off the island, over and over again, but they always re-
turned. The last time the Indians had fled, the settlers' muskets
had been loud behind them. Still, the Indians had come back; the
ruined crops were proof of that.

With a whole continent to live on, surely the Savages could
leave Roanoke Island alone.

Eleanor sighed, brushing a loose strand of hair from her face.
She turned and looked back toward the village. The distant
houses seemed small and vulnerable, huddled together in a
sweep of farmland. Beyond them stood the walls of Fort Raleigh.
The fields closer to the houses and the fort were never damaged
as badly as those further out; perhaps they would bear enough
seed that the settlers could plant again.

**Mama!" Eleanor looked down to see her daughter running to-
ward her. The girl tripped over her own short legs and fell, face-
first, into the mud. Eleanor hurried over and scooped her off the
ground.

"Virginia Dare! I told you to slay inside."

Virginia squirmed in Eleanor's amis; soon she'd be too heavy
to hold at all. "Didn't want to stay inside." Virginia stuck out her
lip. Her face and long shirt were covered with mud; her hair was
plastered to her forehead. Eleanor scowled, and Virginia giggled
at the fierce look.

Eleanor sighed. Nothing upset that child, and even less scared
her. It was unnatural, almost. Eleanor wondered, sometimes,
whether Virginia's being bom on the island, rather than back in
London, had anything to do with it. But Margery's boy, Hugh,
had also been bom here, and he was nothing like Virginia. He
was a quiet, frightened boy, always clinging to his mother's
skirts.

Virginia broke free of Eleanor's grip, sliding with a laugh to
the ground. She ran across the field and through the grass,
Eleanor close behind.

The wind picked up, carrying with it the smell of spring rain.
Clouds gathered over the forest. The wind blew them across the
field, toward the village.

Eleanor caught up with Virginia at the edge of the forest.
"Windy trees!" Virginia giggled and continued forward.

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"No!" Eleanor grabbed her. Virginia squirmed, but Eleanor
tightened her grip.

The branches swayed wildly, green leaves bright against the
gray sky. The neat, tended trees in London parks didn't have that
wildness; neither did the trees in any other civilized place
Eleanor knew. But then, this wasn't a land for civilized people.
It was a land for Savages.

What would the Savages do to Virginia, if she wandered into
the forest?

Eleanor didn't want to know. Tightening her hold on her
daughter, she hurried back toward the village.

By the time she got inside, rain had started to fall. It leaked
through the roof, muddying the dirt floor.

Eleanor dipped a rag in the washbasin, then sat on the edge of
the bed and washed Virginia up. She peeled off the girl's damp
shirt, scrubbed the mud off her face, ran fingers through her tan-
gled curls. Outside, thunder rumbled; flashes of lightning lit the
gaps in the log walls.

"Bright light!" Virginia laughed. Eleanor just kept washing off
the mud. Thunderstorms scared her; they made the house seem
even smaller and more vulnerable than it was.

Her gaze darted around the room as she worked. A table and
wobbling chairs stood against one wall, a chest of drawers
against another. Battered pots hung from the ceiling; empty jars
were piled in a Corner. A clothesline stretched across the room,
damp clothes draped over it. Oil paintings hung on the walls.
The paint had begun to flake away, and the canvas beneath was
spotted with water stains. Ananias thought Eleanor was crazy to
hang her father's paintings here. He was probably right.

Eleanor stared at a painting in which tall, thick trees—oaks
and cedars, mostly—stood neatly side by side- Their trunks were
straight, leaves set like clouds of carded wool among the
branches. Sun shone between them, casting bright swatches of
light onto the ground.

All of her father's pictures were like that: bright, cheerful, un-
real. Sometimes Eleanor wondered if he'd really looked around
him at all, when he painted. Then again, if he'd shown the col-
ony as it really was, with all its dirt and dark places, would she
and Ananias have agreed to come here? Would anyone?

Eleanor pulled a dry shirt over Virginia's head, set her down
on the bed, and walked over to the painting. She ran a finger

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along the signature. John White, 1586. The paint fell away at her
touch.

"You should have stayed with us," Eleanor whispered, then
pushed the thought fiercely aside. As governor of the colony, it
made sense for her father to sail back to London for supplies.
He'd return as soon as he could.

After three years, Eleanor was one of the few settlers left who
believed that.

Outside, she heard voices, arguing as they approached the vil-
lage- Virginia tugged at her skirt. "Want to go out," she said.

"No." Eleanor tried to make out what the voices were saying,
but she couldn't. If she wanted to learn what had happened to the
guard, she'd have to go outside. She picked up Virginia and sat
her in a chair. Reaching for a thick length of yam, she started ty-
ing the girl down.

Virginia screamed, "Don't want to be tied!" But Eleanor had
no choice. She couldn't leave Virginia alone otherwise, not after
the way she'd run out that morning.

Eleanor knotted the ends of the yam together. Then she went
outside, her daughter's yells still loud behind her.

Within the huddle of houses was a small open space, the clos-
est thing the settlers had to a village square. Most of them were
already there, talking in small groups. Once, Ac square wouldn't
have had enough space to hold them all. But three winters, with-
out supplies from England, had taken their toll. Half the houses
were empty now, their walls beginning to rot.

Eleanor hurried across the square, looking for Ananias. Light
rain still fell, but the wind had subsided. Off to one side, Eleanor
saw a wet deerskin on the ground, with a lump beneath it that
had to be a body. The guard had been found then—but not alive.
Eleanor's throat felt dry. How many more would the Savages
kill? She turned quickly away and kept walking.

She found Ananias by one of the deserted houses. His hair and
beard dripped rainwater; muddy brown curls fell into his face.
He argued with Manteo. Several other colonists stood around
them, listening. Eleanor moved to Ananias' side.

"No wild animal did that!" Ananias' voice was fierce. He ges-
tured toward Manteo. "The hole in our man's chest was made by
an arrow. An Indian arrow."

Manteo shrugged; the gesture looked wrong on his wiry frame.
"I said nothing about wild animals." His English was perfect, but
his voice held an accent that flattened the words, twisting the

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meanings in all the wrong places. He wore the same English
wool as the others, but his beardless face was too thin, his eyes
and straight hair too dark. The time he'd spent in England, the
fact that he'd been baptized once he returned to America—none
of that mattered. He was still a Savage. Eleanor didn't under-
stand why the others trusted him at all. If it were up to her, he'd
be in the woods with the other Indians, not living here in the vil-
lage.

"You're the one who mentioned animals." Manteo's dark gaze
fixed on Ananias. Neither of them seemed to notice Eleanor at
all.

"You said—" Ananias measured each word, "—that your peo-
ple didn't do this."

"There are things besides Indians and wild animals that can
kill a man. Surely you know that by now."

"Don't complicate this with fairy stories." Ananias' voice
turned suddenly low, threatening. "If your people did this, they
won't go unpunished. If the Indians are hiding in these woods, or
anywhere else on the island, we'll find them. You can be sure of
that."

"The Croatoan are gone." Manteo stared at Ananias, as if he
expected some answer to that.

Ananias ignored him. He turned to Eleanor, as if seeing her for
me first time. "Why aren't you repairing the damage the Savages
did to our fields? It's bad enough that one of us had to be away."

Eleanor looked down, away from his sharp gaze. When Ana-
nias spoke like that, the gap in their ages felt much larger than
the decade it really was. "I wanted to see what you found."

"We found a dead man," Ananias snapped. "Did you expect
any differently?" Eleanor just shook her head.

Margery Harvie walked up to join them. "We'll ali be dead
before this spring is through." As always, Hugh stood by his
mother's side. His straight yellow hair fell neatly into place; his
blue eyes were serious in his small face.

Margery wiped a hand across her forehead- "Our only hope is
that our governor stops tarrying in England and spares some time
for the colony in his care." She cast a long look at Eleanor, as
if she were to blame for all the colony's problems.

Eleanor measured her words, afraid she might yell if she
didn't. "My father will return as soon as he can."

Margery laughed at that. and Hugh echoed the sound. Then he
turned away, suddenly embarrassed, and hid behind his mother.

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Eleanor's cheeks felt red. "Many things could keep a man in
England. Spring storms, or lack of funds to hire a ship."

"A gentleman of his rank, lacking funds?" Margery laughed
again.

"It's hardly unheard of," Ananias said. his voice suddenly
mild. Whatever the others thought, he still believed that
Eleanor's father meant to return.

The conversation drifted; Ananias and Margery began discuss-
ing other reasons me governor could have been delayed. Ship-
wrecks, trouble with the Spanish—Eleanor had heard all the
reasons before.

Her attention wandered. She watched Manteo drift away from
the small group, watched as he and several settlers carried the
dead man's body from the square. Hugh released his hold on his
mother and walked off as well. Eleanor almost called Margery's
attention to the fact, but decided against it. Hugh never went
very far, after all.

She began to think that Ananias was right, that it was time to
start repairing their fields. She needed to check on Virginia, too,
to make certain the child had calmed down.

Ananias and Margery were still talking when she left. She
walked past them, walked past the small knots of settlers still
talking throughout me square. There were a few other women,
and somewhere an infant cried, though most of the colonists
were men. Eleanor walked past wooden houses, some sturdy and
well-kept, others crumbling into the dirt. Two chickens scratched
me ground beside one house; a boy herded several sheep by an-
other. Like all the colony's animals, these had been brought over
from England; there were no tame animals in the New World.

Eleanor walked up to her house, pushed the door open, and
stepped inside. Then she stopped, stone-cold, in the doorway.

The chair was empty. Yam trailed, untied, to the floor. Virginia
was nowhere in sight.

Eleanor slowly untangled the yam from the chair, twisting it
around her hands. How could she have been so foolish? She
should have known Virginia was old enough to untie herself.

Behind her, me door creaked open. Eleanor turned around.

Margery stood there, hands on hips. "Where's my boy?"

"Hugh?" Eleanor thought he would have returned by now.

"After you left, I looked down, and he was gone. He was with
me until then. What have you done with him?"

"I did nothing. Virginia's gone, too." As she spoke, Eleanor
felt a cold lump in her chest

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"I'd expect that from your child." Margery folded her arms
across her chest. "Not Hugh. If they're gone, it's Virginia's
fault."

Eleanor opened her mouth to say something, then closed it
again. She didn't have time for idle talk; she had to find her
daughter. Maybe Virginia hadn't left very long ago. Maybe she
hadn't had time to get very far. Eleanor pushed past Margery,
through the door. Margery followed her out.

In the mud outside Eleanor's house, they found tiny footprints.
The footprints led around the house, through the village, and
across the fields. A second set of footprints, even smaller, joined
the first. Margery took this as proof that leaving had been Virgin-ia's 
idea, and that Hugh had only followed.

The footsteps stretched to the edge of the field, and the grass
beyond was trampled. "Windy trees," Virginia had shouted, only
hours ago. Eleanor had been able to stop her then- This time,
she'd been too late.

The rain stopped. Sun broke up the clouds, letting bright blue
patches show through the gray. Between the trees, though,
Eleanor saw only darkness.

She didn't dare enter that darkness alone. She turned back to-
ward the village. Margery followed, but Eleanor hardly noticed
her.

She thought of the wet deerskin, Jof the guard's still body be-
neath it. She followed Virginia's footsteps back home, praying
that this time the search party wouldn't be too late.

Eleanor found Ananias beside the house, hooking an ox to the
plow. She explained what had happened, as quickly and calmly
as she could.

Ananias ran a hand through his hair, splattering water in every
direction. "You should have taken time to tie her properly, in-
stead of chattering outside." His voice was harsh, his face taut
with concern.

**I did tie her properly." Eleanor twisted her hands together.
"She figured out how to untie the knots herself."

"She should have been raised to know better."

Eleanor couldn't argue with that; she wished, more than any-
one, that Virginia was a tamer child.

Ananias' face tightened. "I'll gather a party together." He
turned abruptly away, starting toward the square without another
word.

He gathered the searchers quickly, twelve men in all. He in-

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sisted Manteo join them. "This way," he said, "if the Indians at-
tack, they'll have to take one of their own, too." The men lit the
wicks on their muskets before leaving, to make certain they
could fire on a moment's notice- Assuming, of course, mat the
gunpowder stayed dry.

Eleanor didn't ask whether she could go with the men; she
simply followed. Ananias glanced back at her once, his gray eyes
telling her that she should return home, but so long as he didn't
speak aloud, Eleanor didn't have to listen. She didn't bring a
gun, though; seeing her armed might have been enough to make
Ananias send her back after all.

Margery also followed. But men, her husband had died during
the colony's first winter; there was no one to tell her what she
should or shouldn't do.

Manteo led the way, through fields of ruined maize toward the
edge of the woods. The search party crossed the trampled fields,
following Virginia and Hugh's small prints. The smell of their
sweat mixed with the smell of muddy weeds and wet wool.
There should have been larger footprints, too, Eleanor realized,
from the Indians who*d destroyed their crops last night. Or had
the momiag rain already washed those prints away?

Manteo crossed the scrubby grass to the edge of the forest.
The men fanned out on either side of him as they entered the
woods; Margery followed close behind. For a moment Eleanor
just stood there, watching them disappear among the twisted
trees. Then she hurried after them. Whatever she feared in those
woods, she didn't fear it half as much as she feared finding Vir-
ginia's lifeless body in the mud.

At first, the trees were still. No wind blew; light shone through
the gaps in the forest and cast bright patches of sun onto the
ground. Eleanor thought maybe she'd imagined the wild
branches and deep shadows. Maybe her father had known what
he'd painted after all.

But the trees grew thicker and more twisted as she walked.
The light thinned, until it barely penetrated the leaves at all. Twi-
light settled early over the forest. The space between the trees
was crowded with bushes and vines. Eleanor's shoes kept getting
tangled in low branches; thorns tore at her skirt. Dead leaves
were everywhere, heavy with the smell of decay. Animals rustled
beneath them. Eleanor shivered. Animals could attack children,
too, and do as much damage as Savages.

The wind picked up, shaking water down from the branches.
It cried with a high animal sound as it blew, at odds with me rus-

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tling Eleanor expected. Her skirt blew around her ankles, and
wisps of damp hair came loose into her face.

The others slowed their pace. Their low conversation faded to
silence- Whatever Eleanor felt, maybe they felt it too.

All but Manteo. He continued steadily forward, as if he didn't
even notice that the others had slowed down.

Margery screamed, a high, hysterical sound. Eleanor froze; a
chill ran down her spine. She saw Margery collapse to the
ground. Several of the men raced to her side. Eleanor ran after
them, into a small clearing. Her foot caught on a vine, and she
tumbled to the ground. Scrambling to her feet, she kept running.

The smell hit her first—like fresh-killed meat, heavy with
blood. What she saw on the ground beside Margery looked like
meat, too, all torn flesh and bloody tatters, bright against the
grass and leaves. For a moment Eleanor was all right; so long as
it didn't look like a child, she didn't have to believe it was real.
Then she saw a shredded piece of linen. Following it, she found
a hand—a tiny child's hand—clutching the fabric through the
blood. Eleanor's stomach rolled; she fought to keep from vomit-
ing.

The hand was too small to belong to Virginia. Eleanor felt re-
lief, then guilt. Margery's child lay dead on the ground in front
of her. Eleanor knelt by Margery, putting an arm around her
shoulders to offer what comfort she could.

Margery flinched as if touched by fire. She pushed Eleanor
roughly away. "Your child did this. Hugh would never—'*
Margery's voice rose, men cracked. She leaped forward, shoving
Eleanor into the brush. "You killed him!" The men pulled
Margery away, but she kept yelling. "Your daughter killed him!
He never would have come here, if not for her!"

Eleanor sat up, staring numbly at the crying woman, at the
mangled body by her side.

Ananias walked over to her. "You should go back now." His
low voice was firm, turning the words into a command. "Take
Margery with you."

Eleanor couldn't go back. Not with her own daughter still
missing. She opened her mouth, searching for words that would
make Ananias understand.

Somewhere, a twig mapped—close enough that Eleanor froze
at the sound, far enough that she couldn't quite tell where it
came from. Ananias whirled around, gun raised.

"Show yourself!"

The bushes in front of nun rustled—a wild rhythm, not in time

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with the wind—but no one answered. Ananias stepped back,
bracing the musket against his shoulder. The end of the wick
glowed orange. The other men raised their guns, too.

Manteo stared at them, his eyes wide. Then he dropped his
musket and fled into the woods. Eleanor wondered whether the
other Indians waited for him. Had he already betrayed the set-
tlers to the Savages?

For just a moment, Ananias hesitated. A strange, worded look
crossed his face. Then he fired into the bushes. Smoke filled the
air, heavy with the smell of gunpowder. The forest went sud-
denly still.

And Ananias fell slowly backwards, making no sound as he
hit the soft earth. Eleanor screamed.

Suddenly everyone was shooting at once- Smoke burned
Eleanor's eyes; the acrid smell of gunpowder clogged her throat.
She buried her head in her hands, praying the Savages would
spare her.

The shots cut off abruptly. The smoke drifted slowly away, too
gentle for the noise that had made it. When it cleared, every last
man had fallen.

Eleanor stared at the bodies, splattered with blood, but she
couldn't make herself believe they were real. She felt as if she
were in a dream that she couldn't shake off. Her thoughts were
as slow as the tendrils of smoke rising through the trees. She ex-
pected the Indians to come for her, too, but they didn't There
was only the wind, crying as it blew through the leaves, and the
soft sound of Margery's sobs. Eleanor saw Manteo's abandoned
musket on the ground; she reached for it The musket was splat-
tered with mud, but somehow, the wick had stayed lit.

Finally. Eleanor crawled to Ananias' side. There was a ragged,
bleeding hole in his chest, the sort an arrow might make. Around
it, his shirt was stained bright crimson. There was no arrow,
though, not in the wound and not on the ground nearby. Ananias'
face held a wide, startled look, as if even now he didn't under-
stand how he'd died.

Eleanor should have started screaming. But she just sat there,
feeling strange and cold, watching her husband's blood trickle
onto the dead leaves. The forest twilight deepened, but she
barely noticed. Did Virginia lie on the ground somewhere too,
her skin slowly growing cold?

Eleanor froze at the sound of soft footsteps behind her. Clutch-
ing the musket, she slowly stood and turned around.

Manteo's dark eyes stared back at her. "I did not think English

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men were so easily frightened." His voice was strange and som-
ber, even flatter than usual.

"You killed them." Eleanor felt hot rage, bitter as the gunpow-
der that lingered in the air. "You warned your people before we
ever arrived!" She aimed the gun at Manteo. Manteo stepped
sideways, but Eleanor followed, keeping him in range. She
wanted, more man anything, to shoot that gun, to watch Manteo
fall screaming to the ground. She held her fire, though, praying
mat in turn the other Indians would hold theirs.

"I did nothing." Manteo's face twisted into a frown. "The
Croatocm are dead. They died the same way as the English."

Eleanor braced the gun against her shoulder. How dare he
deny what he'd done?

"Listen." Manteo took a deep breath, his eyes on the musket
all the while. 'The men expected an attack, so they got one. That
happens sometimes in these woods. I've tried to warn them, but
they never listened. My people died the same way—only they
feared musket shots, not arrows."

"People don't die of fear," Eleanor said. Had Manteo gone
mad?

"That may be true in England, where you've cut down your
forests and scrubbed clean your dark places. Not here."

Eleanor thought of the arrows that should have littered the
ground. She thought of the startled look on Ananias' face. But
she knew she'd go crazy if she believed Manteo's words.

"What about our crops?" Eleanor's voice came out higher and
more frightened than she expected.

Manteo shrugged, but his eyes were still on the musket. "The
crops near the forest were hit worst" He lunged forward, reach-
ing to grab the gun out of Eleanor's hands. Eleanor pulled the
trigger, praying she was fast enough.

Nothing happened. The gunpowder must have gotten wet; it
wouldn't ignite, no matter how long Eleanor held the trigger in
place.

But Manteo's hands went to his chest as if the musket had
fired after all. He tumbled, face first, to me ground.

Eleanor stared at him, not believing what she saw. If she rolled
him over, would she find a bloody wound in his chest? No, she
told herself. People didn't die of fear, no matter what Manteo
said. They died of arrows and gunshots.

Yet she couldn't bring herself to turn Manteo's body over, no
matter how long she looked at it.

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The wind brushed her cheek—had it ever stopped? It whistled
through the leaves, high and sharp, crying like an animal in pain.

Not an animal, Eleanor realized. Ice trickled down her spine.
A child. Her child.

"Virginia?" Eleanor looked wildly around. The wind contin-
ued to cry. "Virginia, where are you?" Eleanor started forward,
in the direction of the voice, then stopped when she felt herself
trembling. Would she really find her daughter? Or just another
mangled body, nothing human left to it? She looked past the
fallen men, to where Margery lay sobbing on the ground. Beside
her, Hugh's torn body still bled.

Eleanor took another step. For a moment she wished she were
like Virginia, too wild and foolish to be afraid.

Too foolish to be afraid. The thought hit Eleanor like ice. Vir-
ginia didn't fear anything—and her body hadn't been found.

The men had feared Indian arrows, and Manteo had feared the
musket she held. Eleanor glanced once again at Hugh. What fear
could tear a child apart like that? Eleanor drew her arms tightly
around herself; she didn't want to know.

"Mama?" Virginia's voice, low and uncertain, but still very
much alive.

For a long moment Eleanor stared at the dark trees. What did
she expect to find, when she followed her daughter's voice?

She heard footsteps, too light to belong to a man, too awkward
and heavy for an animal. Only a child walked like that Eleanor
shivered. The day had grown cold, and clouds had moved in
once more, dimming the few ribbons of light that reached the
forest floor. The light only grew fainter further in.

Eleanor closed her eyes and thought of her father's painting.
She thought of his bright colors, of the light between the trees.
She tried to imagine the forest around her like that—green and
soft, branches swaying gently back and forth.

Maybe Manteo wasn't mad after all. Maybe what Eleanor
found was up to her.

She took a deep breath, opening her eyes once more. The she
followed her daughter's call, deeper into the woods.

And she tried not to be afraid.

IMPOSSIBLE LOVES

Joy comes in many shapes

Ties or Love

by Lawrence Schimel

Lawrence Schimel, 22, has sold stories and poems to over
forty anthologies, among them Weird Tales from Shake-
speare, Phantoms of the Night, and Friends of Valdemar.
He lives in Manhattan.

My father and I hardly spoke when he picked me up at the train
station, nor during the long drive out to the farm through the
snow-covered landscape. He'd recognized me instantly among
the sea of young men who disembarked, waited patiently as I
threaded my way to him through the crowd, pack slung over my
shoulder. "Welcome home, son," he'd said, shaking my hand
firmly, and I could tell by the tone of his voice and the force of
his grip that he was real proud of me, and real glad to have me
home alive once more. He didn't push at all, as we drove, no
questions about what I would do now that the war was over, if
I had ever killed a man, or how I felt to be home. All the ques-
tions I had been dreading during the long train ride from New
York, when I wasn't thinking about her.

Staring at the bare trees that lined the road I couldn't help
worrying about her. Would everything be the same? So much
might've happened: lightning, loggers, fire ... I tried not to think
about it. almost wished my father did ask me questions, anything
to keep my mind from forming disaster scenarios.

But when we pulled up to the house, my worst fears were re-
alized as I stared at the acres of barren furrows that stretched into
land that before I left had been forest. I stepped out of the car,
staring at all the missing trees. I was about to go racing off into

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the woods to make sure she was still there, make sure she was
all right, when my mother saw me from the kitchen porch, came
rushing out into the cold in just her apron to throw her arms
about me. I kissed her, of course, took one last look at the forest
over her shoulder as I hugged her tight, then dutifully followed
her inside. But I couldn't help thinking about the forest the entire
time, couldn't help worrying. I was quiet all through dinner, and
even my sisters were subdued by my silence, noticeable since in
all the letters I got from home Mother wrote how they were at
that age when they could talk a hole through a wall. I could feel
my mother casting worried looks to my father. They thought it
was the war, I knew, and were dying to ask me what was wrong.
But they were afraid to. My mother wanted to take away my
pain, make me her same happy boy I was before I left and I
loved her for it, but how could I tell them?

I wasn't thinking about the war at all. I was thinking about a
tree, and the woman who is its spirit; a woman whose eyes are
filled with starlight; a woman whose hair is green in spring and
summer, golden and red in fall; the woman who held my heart.

I kept my silence, letting them think it was the war that ab-
sorbed my thoughts as I bided my time until I could rush out into
the woods and see her.

As I ran along the familiar path after dinner, I couldn't help
wondering if she had missed me as much as I had her, if she had
missed me at all-1 couldn't write her, as the other guys had done
with their loves. She couldn't read. had never learned because
she was so pained by the trees it took to make paper. And even
if she could, I'd no way of getting a letter to her. Where was I
to send it, 14th oak behind the McLeran's farm. General Deliv-
ery, Pine Plains, New York? I kept to myself and, when the other
guys got letters from their loves, read them aloud to the rest of
us and showed off the locks of yellow, red, brown, or black, I
thought of the four leaves I kept pressed between the pages of a
book of poems by Wordsworth. I made whistles from the hats of
her acorns, played slow and lonely songs on them in the eve-
nings, as I thought of her.
Snow crunched under my feet as I ran beneath the bare. skel-
etal trees. Their long, moonlit shadows cut across my path like
solid bars trying to prevent me from reaching her. I ran faster,
desperate to see her again. I knew I couldn't really see her now,
that she was dormant until Spring, but I needed to at least see her

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tree. I needed to see if she had left a sign of some sort, that she
was still safe. That she still loved me.

My heart pounded with the exertion and anticipation as I ran
along the last curve of the path before her tree. I cried out with
relief when I saw that it was still whole and upright. I paused to
catch my breath after my run and, standing in the snow as 1
stared at her tree, I felt warm with love. Her branches were cov-
ered with hundreds of yellow ribbons, fluttering like leaves in
the moonlight.

The Heart or me Forest

by Dave Smeds

Dave Smeds has written two fantasy novels and numerous
short stories which have appeared in magazines and an-
thologies here and abroad; he has also been a graphic art-
ist and a typesetter and holds a third degree black belt in
Goju-ryu karate. He lives in Santa Rosa, California, with
his wife Connie and children Lerina and Elliott.

Though the rain had passed hours ago, the trees dripped, creating
an ominous whisper among the freshly fallen autumn leaves. The
loam gave up a fecund aroma—a primal breath as old as the land
itself. In his fifty-three years, Oxal had intruded beneath 
theseboughs only twice. This time felt no more familiar or welcome.
The Forest of the Old Ones did not lightly tolerate the presence
of humans, certainly not a company of fifty armed soldiers, some
with axes.

The rider ahead tugged his beard, nervously eyeing a raven
that watched from a tall, leafless spar. Saddle leather creaked as
he reined back and leaned close to Oxal.

'This is a fool's quest," he murmured.

Oxal raised an eyebrow. "Yet here you are, Yram. Are you
calling yourself a fool?"

Yram scowled and nudged his mount back into formation.

Oxal regretted his curtness. Yram's skepticism was warranted.
Other men—good men—had failed at this search. Yet the pike-
man should not have spoken so. It was disrespectful of the lord
who led the quest. Oxal would not be party to such criticisms.
He considered it vital to behave as a proper soldier, playing the

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role right down to the ancient practice of going beardless so that
an enemy would have less to seize during combat—though
Ayana teased him with spousal good will that he shaved only to
hide the gray in his whiskers.

The company halted as they came to a large meadow. Here the
woodland presented a choice of obvious paths—either along the
stream that fed the expanse of peat, or over a hill strewn with
rock outcroppings.

Oxal favored the former for its flatness, its proximity to water,
its promise of fresh game for the night's cookfires. The scree
draping the hill could slide underhoof.

At the head of the procession, a tall figure in blue and gold
dismounted. Oxal had never been one to admire the physiques of
other males, but he did so now. Prince Rahnnic radiated the lithe,
angular beauty of the Arith. In an ordinary human, his aspectmight 
be called delicate, but in him the smooth complexion and
subdued musculature somehow conveyed the impression of viril-
ity and strength.

Yet this prince was a stranger, unproven in many ways. Hand-
someness mattered little here. If Rahnnic could not determine
which route to take from the meadow, he had no business leading
a mission into the forest.

Oxal watched keenly as Rahnnic knelt and lifted a handful of
soil. Sniffing it deeply, the Arith royal scanned the treetops. He
tilted his head, as if listening. Finally he began to walk. Stopping
periodically, he repeated his odd ceremony until he had wound
past both the stream and the hill and come to stand across the
meadow next to a dense thicket. Three pikemen and the standard
bearer clung to his heels, guarding him vigilantly.

With sudden confidence the prince waved for the remainder of
me column to join him.

The main knot of riders started forward, tracing their lord's
route along the fringe of the clearing. But the rider just ahead of
Yram chose to cut straight across the meadow. Yram, Oxal, and
roe rest turned as well.

Halfway across, the hair on the nape of Oxal's neck began to
stiffen. The grass, toughened by a long dry summer, gave good
purchase for the horses' hooves, yet as a mass it seemed to wob-
bte, as if the layer of turf were suspended over liquid.

Prince Rahnnic turned from his examination of the forest and
saw his riders in the open. Shock blanked his features. "Go
back!" he shouted.

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The echo had not yet faded as the ground gave way beneath
five of the horses.

Oxal's mount dropped from under him. Boggy soil poured in
from every side, submerging the animal and burying Oxal to his
shoulders. Caught like the victim of an avalanche, only a desper-
ate surge of strength freed his arms. From the waist down, his
body was trapped.

Enveloped in the muck, his mount thrashed frantically. Just in
front of Oxal's the ground trembled. Oxal dug quickly, uncov-
ering the gelding's face. The beast snorted, eyes rolling in terror.

"Easy, easy," Oxal murmured, knowing that if the horse strug-
gled too much, it would die- Broad, gentle swimming motions
would keep them from sinking further, but rapid wiggling would
draw them under.

Oxal had cared for his roan since it had been a day-old colt.
Though terrified, it obeyed him and grew calm. Only then did
Oxal have the chance to look about him.

Yram and his mount were nowhere to be seen. Of the other
victims, the head of one companion remained above the surface.

Ropes landed among the stricken warriors. Oxal grabbed
one. Meanwhile -from the periphery of the meadow unmounted
men, their armor and heavy gear shucked, crawled across the
uncollapsed area with digging implements. Valiantly they dug
where their comrades had vanished, trying to create breathing
funnels.

Prince Rahnnic sat cross-legged, entering into a spellcaster's
trance. Oxal wasn't certain what sort of magic could help—
perhaps an enchantment to harden the ground—but he did know
it would be too late. Sorcery was a sluggish affair, otherwise sol-
diers would be obsolete.

Before the spell took effect, the diggers uncovered Yram's up-
per body. He had suffocated.

"This is how the Forest of the Old Ones greets intruders,"
muttered a veteran sourly as the last body was pulled onto solid
ground. Three men were dead. That it could have been worse did
not lessen the sense of gloom.

Oxal, brooding over his last words to Yram, occupied himself
brushing the mud from his gelding's coat. His was the only an-
imal saved. Four mounts and a pack mule would remain part of
the bog forever.

For the dead riders there would be a pyre. The captain raised

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an ax toward a sapling, glaring defiantly at the forest as he did

so.

"No," declared Prince Rahnnic. "Killing trees will not bring
him back, and it will only anger the guardians of this place.
Gather fallen limbs.*'

Reluctantly the captain nodded, though he made it a point to
have the pyre built at the very edge of the woods, where the
flames would lick at the tips of extended branches.

The company watched with tightly pressed lips as the fire
burned- Many faces turned back toward Irithel, toward home.

"Do any of you wish to leave?" asked the prince.

The company stirred. Here and there, a man muttered under
his breath. Yet Oxal knew that no archer, pikeman, or horse sol-
dier would wish to return to the capital wearing the badge of
cowardice.

However, it was a good strategic move of Rahnnic to ask.

"For those who would come, this is the way," Prince Rahnnic
said, pointing into the thickets at the meadow's edge. His state-
ment was unequivocal. As the prince threaded between the close-
set trees, a narrow trail appeared where no passage had seemed
to exist. Everyone followed.

Perhaps, thought Oxal, the quest could succeed after all.

As dusk neared they came to a spot where a year earlier a
brushfire had cleared the terrain. The prince announced they
would camp there, beyond the reach of living trees.

When his chores were done, Oxal declined to join his com-
rades at the cookfires, preferring a few moments alone to mull
over his narrow escape from death. He found a granite slab worn
smooth by untold seasons of rainwater and sat, regarding the for-
est. An old oak. its trunk charred from the fire, drew his atten-
tion. Had the tree shifted closer to its neighbor since the
company had camped?

"Sprites are moving the trees with their songs. They will play
such music all night."

Oxal stood abruptly, bowing to Prince Rahnnic.

The Arith lord waved his soldier back down, and joined him
on the slab. "You are Oxal, are you not? You were cool-headed
in me meadow. I would not have cared to lose another man."

Oxal inclined his head, acknowledging the sincerity in
Rahnnic's tone. "You did what you could, Your Highness."

"I could have sensed the trap earlier had my attention been on
the meadow, rather than on the route away from it."

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"Hindsight," Oxal said.

The prince shrugged, unwilling as yet to let himself off so eas-
ily.

Oxal nodded at the trees. "How far can they move?"

"No farther than tfieir major roots can stretch. They are trees,
after all, and are moored to me earth. But they will strain far
enough by morning to disguise me existing trail, leaving a new
path to lead us astray. I have to be vigilant to keep ahead of such
tricks, if we are to find Lady Arameth." Rahnnic's gaze seemedto 
penetrate deep into the woods, as if he were already fathoming
which way to travel in the morning.

He had finally mentioned her name aloud- "They say she was
the most beautiful princess of her generation," Oxal said.

Rahnnic smiled in a melancholy way. "It would please her to
hear such words. A hundred years ago, it was her voice that folk
complimented. To hear her sing to our children—every father
should have such an experience."

Oxal found it odd to hear someone talk of bygone days withsuch 
immediacy. Odder still to sit next to a legend. For all Oxal's
life, the story of Rahnnic and bis bride had been told at the
hearthfires: How Theron raiders had attacked me capital without
warning, hidden until then by the most simple of illusions—fog.
How Rahnnic's defense of the palace allowed his grandfather,
the king, to escape and, with reinforcements, recapture the city
that same year. Such tales of valor had been what drew Oxal to
a martial career. He would often visit the shrine in the old throne
room of the palace, where Rahnnic stood like a statue, frozen in
time within the ward he had formed in the last desperate mo-
ments of battle. Everyone knew that someday the ward would
burst and Rahnnic would rejoin the world, but when it happened
at last, Oxal was not the only one who had to make a pilgrimage
to the shrine and see it empty before he would believe the hero
lived and breathed once more.

The prince's voice fell to a whisper. Oxal averted his glance.
Obviously, it pained Rahnnic to speak of children gone to the
grave. After ninety-seven years suspended in time, the prince had
lost nearly everyone he had known. His grandson now ruled
Irithel, and for the sake of political stability Rahnnic had agreed
not to seek the throne, accepting an honorary role as adviser to
the crown.

But the story was not yet over. There was a chance that
Arameth, wife of Rahnnic, still lived. She had not been able to
bear living out her life without her prince. She waited ten years,

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until her children were of an independent age, and then she van-
ished into the forest to give herself to the dryads. As a dryad, she
would be nigh immortal, and survive until Rahnnic's release.

The talespinners always spoke of how Rahnnic and Arameth
would one day be happily reunited. But in truth, no one knew if
that could happen.

"Your Highness ..."

"Yes?"

"How can you be sure the lady is alive? The search parties her
father sent found no sign of her. How is it you know where to
look?"

To Oxal's relief, Rahnnic took no offense at the question. "In
truth, I have no way of knowing if she lives. But if the sylvan
folk accepted her pledge to become one of them, they would
have taken her to dwell in only one place—the Heart of the For-
est."

"But no one knows where that is," Oxal protested. "Some say
it does not exist."

"It exists. I can find it."

Rahnnic seemed to glow in the numinous way of the Arith as
he spoke. Oxal was reminded of passions he had felt at one glo-
rious moment of his youth when, in the span of three seasons, he
won the city wrestling tourney, was accepted into the palace
guard, and came to know the favors of the potter's fine, worldly
daughter. Oh, to feel such a fire again.

"Are you married, soldier? Do you have children?" the prince
asked.

Oxal shifted uncomfortably. It seemed a sacrilege to speak.
His had been a marriage of convenience. His cousin's foster sis-
ter had needed a husband; he had needed a companionable
woman to make a home. It had been a suitable match, with few
arguments over the years, but how could his situation possibly
compare to that of legend? "My wife's name is Ayana. Four chil-
dren. The youngest still lives at home," he mumbled.

Rahnnic nodded respectfully. "I am sure you miss them. With
luck, this task of mine will soon be over, and you will soon be
with them."

"I think of tittle else," Oxal lied, and felt relief as the prince
returned to his pavilion.

In the morning, the sprites had indeed altered the trail.
Rahnnic forged on, leading the column through brambles and
around thickets. Often he was forced to meditate in order to di-

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vine the correct path. They could have made better time, but the
Arith lord refused to allow his men to cut living branches, even
when it meant a considerable detour.

The latter courtesy did not seem to temper the forest's animos-
ity. Pines dropped heavy green cones. Twice hornets attacked,
forcing Rahnnic to lay a charm to keep them away. The more the
men progressed, the more the trees seemed to moan in protest.

Something was moaning, Oxal realized. A faint, keening chant
drifted on the wind. It was fascinating.

"Hold!" cried Prince Rahnnic.

Oxal stopped. He and several other riders had turned away
from the column and were edging toward the lip of a ravine. The
prince had to cut off the lead pair of soldiers and drive them
back before they would turn away.

"The willows in the ravine are singing a siren melody to make
us tumble into the rapids," Rahnnic explained. "Plug your ears.
Watch each other carefully. We must leave now."

The men obeyed. Eventually the trail turned away from the ra-
vine, and the call faded.

"By the gods," grumbled the old fletcher behind Oxal. "A
man can't void his bowels in this forest without fretting that a
snake will jump into his undergarments."

Camp was made near a lake in a spot clear of trees. The men
preferred to brave the resident hordes of mosquitoes than sleep in
the shadows of the wood.

Rahnnic retired early. Oxal noticed bags under the prince's
eyes and a stoop to his shoulders. The continual use of magic
was taking its toll.

Oxal needed rest, too, yet two hours after bedding down, he
woke. Sleeplessness was me bane of his middle age. After an-
other hour of tossing, he gave up the struggle, put on his boots,
and relieved one of the sentries.

The frogs had fallen silent. Sibilant whispers seemed to filter
from the groves of pine and ash. Oxal shivered. To ease his ner-
vousness, he paced back and forth along the stream bank.

Well after midnight, as the waning moon approached zenith, a
scream roused the camp. Oxal whirled. A sentry, who had been
perched on a fallen log for most of his watch, was frantically try-
ing to lift his feet from me ground. Oxal rushed over.

Surely, he thought, the moonlight was deceiving him. A mesh
of pallid root tendrils poked from the humus and into the leather
seams of the sentry's boots.

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'They're in my skin!" cried the man as if in the throes of a
nightmare. In fact, Oxal was sure that the soldier had been doz-
ing at his post. He sliced through the tendrils with his knife. The
man lifted his feet.

Screams were now radiating over the camp. Soldiers struggled
in their bedrolls. Oxal saw an archer claw at his feet.

"It has everyone," the sentry moaned.

An hour later, Rahnnic set down the foot of his afflicted cap-
tain. A pale nimbus of sorcery faded from the prince's hand.

"I can do nothing," he announced. He dragged his gauntlet
across the ground, disturbing the network of vines that had
emerged from the soil of the camp. Thin as capillaries, they were
tough and sticky, like spider web made of plant matter. At the
juncture of each branching lay a thorn as narrow as a mosquito's
snout.

Oxal shifted self-consciously from foot to foot, worried that he
might yet be stung. He and two of the sentries had escaped be-
cause they had stayed mobile while the vines had done their evil.
All the other men in the company had been punctured by a least
one thorn, save the prince, who would have sensed the encroach-
ment.

"These vines must be woodcutter's bane," the prince added.
**0nce they poison a man's blood, roots will grow from whatever
part of his flesh is closest to the ground. The cure takes weeks
to administer. You must return to the city and convalesce in high
stone towers. Go quickly. Do not let yourselves become thor-
oughly rooted or you will never be able to move again."

He pointed to Oxal and the two unafflicted sentries. "You men
have charge of their safety. Watch them carefully. Within a few
hours, they will begin to wish to take root."

"You aren't returning with us?" Oxal asked.

••No."

"Take me with you," Oxal said.

The prince raised his hand to protest.

"You'll need someone to watch your back, someone to share
the watch at night. A single attendant is far better than none."

Rahnnic let his hand fall. "You are right. If I wish to succeed,
I must not refuse aid."

The captain of the guard spoke. "Your Highness, how are we
to find our way out without you?" His tone implied shame at
seeming weak.

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"Follow our path in reverse. The forest will not hinder you as
long as you ride for its borders."

Oxal did not begrudge the captain his fear. Any sensible man
would abandon the quest. He found a place away from the patch
of woodcutter's bane and waited for the prince.

The next three mornings began at first light after hasty
gulpmgs of cold radons- They rested each midday, making up for
nights spent peering anxiously into shadows. Oxal was reminded
of a campaign across the Far Dunes. The regiment had risked
ambush for days on end crossing the sand. This trek did the same
things to his mind. Alert to every mouse scurry and every sigh
of the breeze, the soldier lived for the moment, storing little in
memory.

Yet they were not attacked. The prince, with only one extra
body to protect, managed to keep peril at a distance. Once, Oxal
was forced to put an arrow in a rabid wolf that appeared in their
wake. Otherwise, the only visible hostility was the forest's con-
tinued attempts to lead the men astray.

Rahnnic spoke less and less. Though his gaze remained alert,
he slouched in his saddle. He sat listlessly beside the fire each
night, leaving the care of the horses and other essentials entirely
to Oxal. His cheeks grew gaunt. By late on the third day after-
noon, Oxal was beginning to worry that his lord would fall from
the saddle.

Abruptly, Rahnnic straightened up. Oxal followed his gaze.
Across the path lay a row of unusually targe trees of many types.
They seemed to be part of a huge circle.

"We have arrived," the prince stated.

Abruptly the massive walnut directly ahead of them swung its
branches, flinging its hard fruit. The horses, stung, reared back.
Only quick hands on the reins kept the animals from bolting.

"Dryad trees!" Oxal yelled, cupping a bruise on his forehead.

"Yes," replied the prince. "The greatest of all. We dare not ap-
proach. The branches are nigh as supple as our own arms, and
nearly as fast."

As if to prove Rahnnic's point, the walnut and a neighboring
juniper reached out, shaping their outer branches like great
claws. The men were only a few paces from the closest twigs.

"What now?* asked Oxal.

The prince dismounted, shaking a nut from his cuff. He led
Oxal and the horses out of the range of more such missiles. "We
wait for moonrise."

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As twilight arrived, the forest's numerous murmurs grew
clearer. Oxal heard the thumping of log drums and the trill of
reed pipes. Gone was the oppressive air of enmity. The soldier
felt as though he'd sampled a fine ale, sipping just enough to
loosen his muscles and dissipate anxiety, but not so much that his
senses were dulled.

"Is this a trick?"

"The music is not intended for us," Rahnnic explained. "Have
you not heard the tales? This is the anthem of the forest, sung
here every night."

The fey symphony grew louder until it was all Oxal could do
to resist seeking its origin. This was not like the siren call of the
willows. That had been a sinister compulsion. This urge came
from within him. He knew he could stifle it, but had no wish to.

Rahnnic stood. He pointed at me moon, which had risen above
the treeline. "Now we can proceed."

Leaving the horses tethered, the men approached the guardian
ring. The trees swayed menacingly, but Rahnnic raised his arms,
palms open to the sky. He caught the moon's light and fashioned
cords of glowing silver. When he had accumulated two huge
coils, he flung the strands forward. They wrapped two of the
trees, pulling their branches to either side, opening a passage.

"Quickly," the prince said.

Oxal sensed the frustration of the trees. The limbs trembled. A
single walnut sailed feebly through the air, off target. No sooner
had the men sprinted through the gap than me ropes of moon-
light snapped, the fragments growing dull and gray as they fell.

The men stood on the lip of an earthen amphitheater. At the
center a troupe of women danced around a brightly shimmering
pool. They ranged from young to old, from thick to willowy,
some as dark-skinned as hill oak, some as fair as aspen. Yet all
shared a grace that set them apart from human dancers. When
their feet lifted, the grass sprang up as if untrampled, rich with
wildflowers and herbs. Each time their soles landed, the ground
shook with a vibrant, life-giving pulse that traveled outward into
the far reaches of the forest.

Oxal found himself swaying to the rhythm of the instru-
ments—where the musicians were, he couldn't say. He only
wanted to partake of the joy and vigor bathing the amphitheater.
Here was a treasure barely hinted at in me myths. This could
only be the sanctuary where sap was taught the joy of flowing,
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the streams learned their babbling. The spirit of the forest
reached out from here, giving every sapling and brush finch its
purpose.

The forest had not attacked the soldiers out of an evil nature,
but out of the need to preserve this nest from which its 
essencesprang.

The women began to chant. As the melody wafted into the
treetops, Oxal was unable to contain the upwelling of celebration
inside himself. He cried out.

Instantly the music ceased. The women spun toward the men.
Their eyes widened and they fled toward the limits of the amphi-
theater. As each reached the bole of one of the great trees, they
were swallowed up as if they had melted into the bark.

Oxal's cheeks grew hot with embarrassment. "I ... I ..." he
began, and turned helplessly toward Rahnnic.

The prince's gaze clung to one of the last of the dancers. Oxal
saw a glimpse of supple legs in flight, aubum tresses waving be-
hind, and then she was absorbed into a tree unlike any the soldier
had ever seen. Only when she was out of sight did Rahnnic turn
and face the pool.

"Forgive our trespass," he said. "We mean no harm."

The dryads did not answer him. Waving away Oxal's mutters
of apology, the prince skirted the pool and began to approach the
tree that had engulfed the aubum-haired woman.

While he was still many paces away, the oldest, hoariest mem-
ber of the ring contorted and groaned. From its bole emerged an
ancient crone. Oxal, who had been moving to join his lord,
stopped and retreated. Though the apparition had assumed the
general shape of a human, she seemed half made of earth, roots,
and grubs, with hair of twigs. The soldier had no doubt she com-
manded the obedience of every plant and creature of the forest.

"Few of your kind have stood where you now stand, magi-
cian," said the goddess.

"I know. Mother," Rahnnic replied. "Few have had such
need."

"I know your need. You seek to take the brightest sapling of
my grove. How can you ask me to surrender that which I love
so much?"

"Before you had ever seen her, I loved her. Can you tell me
that you love her more? Or can you find a place for me here?
Show me that either is true. and I will accept it."

The great mother of the forest leaned forward, staring. Off to
the side, Oxal shivered. The crone's eyes glazed over, seeing

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something more than the moonlight could show. Oxal sensed that
were she to turn his way, she would peer right into him, uncov-
ering every memory, every quirk of his character, every true
emotion he had ever felt. Even the edge of her glance was
enough to make the soldier sink to his knees as if reduced to in-
fancy. Yet the prince stood firm.

Gradually the mother's head bowed.

"Yours is a pure soul, Rahnnic of Irithel. Would that there
were a place for you here. But you are of fire and air, a rider of
me sun's rays and seducer of the moon's light. I cannot alter
your nature enough to find you a place here. Nor can 1 stand
against the light blazing in you now. It must be given its moment
to shine.

"Take her, then. Take her quickly, while I can keep from
reaching to snatch her back. Take her with my blessing. Promise
only that if your passion should ever dim for her, you will return
her to me."

"I so promise," Rahnnic replied.

The mother turned. Like a baby being bom, Arameth emerged
from the trunk of her tree. She seemed dazed and almost uncon-
scious, except that when Rahnnic reached for her, she rushed into
his arms.

Oxal climbed unsteadily to his feet, almost ashamed to be
watching, as if he'd stumbled over a couple making love.
Arameth seemed only slightly older than Rahnnic. The gambit
had worked- The decades ahead were theirs to share.

It was only as he handed the prince a blanket with which to
cover his wife that Oxal realized something was wrong. Rahnnic
had already seen it, and the blanket fell nerveless from his fin-
gers.

"She is not as you remember her," the mother of the forest
confessed. She held out a round, polished acom as big as a hen's
egg. "Take this. In time you may have need of it."

Rahnnic's hand shook as he accepted the acom. Stricken, he
led his princess from the amphitheater.

The end of the quest was not as Oxal would have imagined.
True, hordes of onlookers lined the streets of the capital. Musi-
cians played, clowns distracted impatient children, and decora-
tions hung from shop lintels and street tamps. But the gaiety
faded at the first glimpse of Arameth.

The princess frowned at the structures of brick and tile and
lumber as if she had never seen them before. The people she ig-

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nored altogether. She demonstrated only one sign of intentional
thought—occasionally she grasped Rahnnic's hand.

The somber discussions within the palace were the worst or-
deal. Since the prince was reluctant to speak, it fell to the soldier
to describe the liberation of the princess.

"She seems to know Rahnnic," he said, intimidated to be
speaking to so many royals, "but gives no other sign that she re-
members her life as Arameth- It's been too long. The human part
of her has withered. All the way back she would sit in silence,
listening to the babble of streams, raising her face to the sun.
swaying as the breeze stroked her. Like a tree."

The royal family could see for themselves the truth of the ac-
count. Rahnnic and Arameth retired to private quarters. The king
tripled Oxal's pension as a reward for his fealty and granted him
permission to leave.

Though he was a palace guard, Oxal seldom saw the prince
over the next few seasons. Most of that was at a distance, as
Rahnnic guided his mate through the gardens or along the ram-
parts, viewing the seashore where, in an earlier life, they had
shared many walks.

The princess remained wordless, though occasionally she
voiced sounds that mimicked the rustling of leaves in the wind.
Only a few sights made her smile, chiefly the arrival of birds,
who would perch on her and sing. Sometimes on moonlit nights
she would dance, and Oxal heard it whispered that it was not
such a dance as the proper ladies of the court would dare at-
tempt.

One day in autumn, Rahnnic came to the barracks where Oxal
had just completed his round of duty.

"It was a year ago today I took Arameth from the wood," said
the prince. "Come. You were my witness then. Be my witness
now."

With Arameth at his side, Rahnnic guided Oxal to a secluded
area of the royal gardens where a large tree had recently been re-
moved. Soft soil, wet from that morning's storm, filled the cavity
where the stump had been dug out. There the prince planted the
acom given to him by the mother of the forest.

Scarcely had he stepped back than a sprig emerged from the
soil. It swelled within moments into a full-sized evergreen bright
with waxy leaves and amber flowers. It stopped growing only
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around. It vaguely resembled a laurel, but its bark was a smooth
tan and tiny clusters of acoms hid in the centers of the blossoms.

Arameth stepped forward, smiling radiantly. She slid hastily
from her garments, fluttered to the evergreen, and vanished.

Rahnnic sighed, tears hovering on his lashes. He pointed at the
ground on which he stood. "She was becoming ill. Though she
has left the forest—willingly—the forest will not leave her. This
will give her time to remember herself."

"How much time will that be?"

"Who knows? I will have a bench made so that I may sit in
her shade. I have memorized her dance, and will perform it with
her. Perhaps that is all that I can hope for."

"I am sorry. Your Highness, that things have not gone better."

"Do not be sorry for me, sir. I have her again. That in itself
is greater fortune than I had a right to expect. I waited a century
for her companionship. I can wait another, if need be, to see her
fully restored." A branch of the tree reached downward, stroking
his cheek with soft leaves. "You see? She knows that I love her.
Surely the rest is worth a bit of patience."

Oxal quietly took his leave. The prince remained, hand ten-
derly pressing the tree-

The soldier made his way down the familiar cobbled streets to
his modest house. Ayana was waiting as he stepped across the
threshold. She took one look at him and said, "It is done, then?"

"Yes." Oxal coughed. "Yes."

Over supper he described the scene at the garden. "The legend
is fulfilled," Ayana replied. "For better or worse, they are re-
united. It makes a mighty tale."

Oxal nodded absently. He was watching his daughter. His
baby, Fihelia, now fourteen years old. She was placing the screen
in front of the hearth for the night, looking for all the world like
a grown woman tending to the duties of her own house.

Gradually his aging, scarred features eased into a smile.

He and Ayana had shared these walls for over thirty years.
Quietly, with harmony. Passion had not blazed for them as in
legends, but they had grown accustomed to each other in ways
that soothed the soul. He had never truly appreciated that fact
undl he had returned from the forest. And now, more than ever,
he wondered how it could have been that once he had been en-
vious of Rahnnic, Prince of Irithel. It had not been a fool's quest.
A prize had been waiting, after all.

Holy Ground

by Thomas S. Roche

Thorns S. Roche has published fiction in several antholo-
gies and a number of magazines such as Truth Until Par-
adox and The Splendour Falls and Marion Zimmer
Bradley 's Fantasy Magazine. When not working on his sto-
nes, he has been a bus driver, a temp and a medical
writer.

We came out of the hills screaming bloody murder, our horses
lathered and choking, Rajni's shoes striking sparks, the lightning
flashing around us. The Enemy was behind us, their pale skin
glinting in the lightning flashes, longbows spread out like wings,
armor black as death. Their arrows cut past my ears. The edge of
the forest was only minutes ahead of me, and it loomed like
damned salvation.

"Have you gone crazy? We can't go into the forest!"
I drew rein as my dozen-and-a-half companions did the same.
"It's our only chance. You know the Enemy won't go in there!"
"We've got to stand and fight! No one but the priests—!"
"Go to hell, then!" I turned and spurred Rajni toward the for-
est. As the Enemy grew closer, the men turned to fight- I lost
sight of them under the sound of clashing metal and screams of
battle. If they wanted to die defending their city, that was fine
with me, for all the good it would do anyone. Forget them.

A party of the Enemy branched off to pursue me over the open
field—perhaps two dozen. I did not doubt that my companions
would soon be dead, or in chains.

I pushed my head down farther, my hands grasping Rajni's

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reins. Lightning hit the ground nearby; the explosion made Rajni
stumble and throw me. It was pure luck that I landed on my feet.

Realizing that I had disappeared from his back, Rajni slowed
to a trot, just slow enough for me to catch up. The Enemy closed
in. They were almost upon me. I raised my hands to Heaven.

The lightning came down between me and them, exploding a
tree stump, and the party drew rein, their horses spooked. I saw
one rider go flying, but then I didn't look back.

Despite myself, I closed my eyes and said a prayer.

The sounds of pursuit grew closer. They were much more
heavily armored than me, but they knew I was trying to reach the
forest Their arrows grew fewer, and suddenly I was at the for-
est's edge.

The light of the world seemed to go right up to the edge of the
forest and stop. Past the border, the edge of the forest, what light
cut through the storm clouds seemed absorbed by the black trees,
swallowed by darkness. It was as if those trees thrived on light
as demons thrived on blood. A thick black liquid dripped from
the black leaves and twisted branches. Dark shapes moved within
tne forest- My stomach quivered slightly.

The sky darkened in the few moments I hesitated. Flashes of
lightning lit up the edge of the wood and were similarly en-
gulfed. The Enemy drew rein some hundred yards off and
readied their bows, knowing my fear.

I spurred Rajni, and on we went

We passed the wall of shadow and the sky exploded. Sheets of
rain came down, drenching me in seconds even under the cover
of the trees. The black sap from the trees washed onto me. A few
feeble arrows passed me, but they were poorly aimed and half-
hearted. When I looked back the Enemy had disappeared and I
could barely see past the forest edge. I knew they would wait for
me.

Now that I was in, it was black as midnight. The branches
over me grew thicker. I could hear the rain overhead, and rivulets
dribbled down on me through the thick forest cover. Rajni had
to pick his way between the trees at first, and then, later, I
had to lead him. Before long it was impossible to see where I
was going. Dark shapes moved in the wood.

I kept moving, knowing my only hope was to make it deep
enough into the forest to reach a Shrine. In this forest, that could
be forever.

The forest deepened, and I could hardly pick my way out
among the twisted vines and bushes. The dark shapes continued

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to move, and I thought I saw glowing eyes. The rumbling and
flashes of lightning gradually illuminated small, black furry
things.

Finally, I reached a tiny clearing, perhaps ten feet across,
where I could crouch and try to work enough charm to light my
pipe. I was still breathing very hard.

After the fifth try, I managed to get the pipe going. My cloak
was almost soaked through, but I huddled into it just the same.
I was desperately hungry, not having eaten in days. I wondered
if the Enemy had taken the city yet. A few days ago my eyes
would have filled with tears at the thought of those gleaming
spires of Laure in the hands of the pale ones. But now, it caused
only a twinge of fear to contemplate it.

Rajni made an uncomfortable noise, snorting and looking
around nervously. I drew my blade and set it across my knees.

Rajni's discomfort seemed to increase. I covered my glowing
pipe with my hand, though I was quite sure any creatures around
could see adequately in the dark. I squinted into the shadows,
listening carefully.

The chill drew up my spine, starting at the base, slowly mov-
ing up to spread across my shoulders. The creature slowly be-
came visible, and I knew it had been staring at me for some
time. As I watched, the beast's eyes began to glow a bright red.
I could just make out an enormous snout and a set of fangs.

"You disturb my sense of harmony," I said absently.

To my surprise, I received an answer. The voice rang in my
ears: harsh, ancient-sounding, half-disembodied, dangerous.
"That is not my intention. I am more interested in your mount
than in you."

I moved in between the eyes-and-snout and Rajni, who had
grown visibly uncomfortable and was pawing the black-mossed
ground. "I don't blame you; I don't have much meat on my
bones. But I'm afraid I have need of my mount."

"So have I. You will kindly stand aside?"

I shook my head sadly. "Afraid I can't do that. Look, Creature,
I have no desire to come into your house and start a fight here
in the middle of a rainstorm."

"The name's not Creature, but forget it. Stand aside?"

"No."

As it leaped out of the shadows, I got my first look.

The moment seemed frozen in amber. The creature was like an
enormous wolf, as if I really cared. The body was bigger than
mine, and he had the advantage of a nasty set of claws, and those

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enormous fangs. He was upon me, and I had to admit I deserved
what I got for not being ready. He avoided my sword and landed
on my chest, slamming me into the ground. The wind rushed out
of my lungs.

I managed to work the edge of my sword up against the
beast's furry throat, trying to cut in, but the skin seemed impen-
etrable and I didn't have the free hand to work a charm. The
fangs snapped shut three times, inches from my face, as the
claws raked my leather garments- Then, in a second, he was
gone, and I lay there gasping for breath like a beaten child,

I heard the horse's terrified bleating, and the nightmare scuf-
fle. I had been lucky to catch the beast with the flat of my blade,
or he would have done to me as he was now doing to Rajni. I
got to my feet.

"I wish you hadn't done that," I said, making a sign with my
left hand as I raised my sword.

The beast looked up at me across the clearing, his mouth full
of living flesh. Rajni's legs kicked pathetically. A sound like a
laugh escaped the beast's full mouth, as my sword began to
glow.

"I'm sure you do," said the beast. "But I did, so why not be
moving along. I have taken what I wanted, and I will leave you
unmolested. Get out of this place. I've no more quarrel with you
than you do with me—horse flesh is much more to my liking."

I said: "I'm fond of wolf, myself," and leaped, the glowing
sword cutting a path of light into attack position. The speed of
the beast was incredible, but I was helped by the charm. The
sword sought its mark without me, dragging my body as a matter
of carry-on luggage, and as I landed, the blade's point drove
deep into the creature's mouth and down into its throat and outthe 
back.

As I had anticipated, it severed his spine. A howling scream
escaped his lips, and the light in the eyes grew brighter. The lips
did not move as the voice echoed in my brain.

"Human, you have spilled blood on holy ground. You have en-
sured your doom. I rule this place."

"I'm sure you do," I said. "And I do apologize. But I'm not
exactly a welcome guest in the first place."

The light went out of the eyes, and I hacked off the head, just
to be sure. My heart was still pounding, and I would have vom-
ited if I had food in my stomach. Rajni was not quite dead and
I had to finish him off and, as is the custom, eat his heart. I sup-

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pose the beast's spirit was envious. There are times when beasts
are kinder than people.

Rajni's heart sustained me for some time, long enough to wan-
der through the forest and become desperately lost. I had the sad-
dlebags slung over my shoulder. The shapes continued to move
in the blackness of the forest, but for now they left me alone.

The night passed, and faint shafts of light streamed through
the dense cover here and there. I finally found space in a small
clearing to rest with my back to an old blasted tree stump crawl-
ing with insects.

Later, I was surprised to find a hollow in a giant tree, a tree
big as a house. The hollow was more than large enough for me
to sleep in—it resembled a cave. A large field of ancient, melted
candles on boards was set up before the tree-hollow, indicating
that this place had once been a shrine. I struck a light and found
that the hollow was relatively clean, and didn't seem to be home
to anything carnivorous. I crawled in, wrapping myself in my
musty-smelling cloak, and curled gratefully up inside the tree.

It had been weeks since I had slept a full night. Ever since the
defenses broke and the Enemy approached the city, I had been
among the defenders. Until we had been routed at the border, and
I had taken off with the small party. I might call myself a de-
serter ... but there had been no choice.

And thus, into the forest. The sacred forest, the holiest of
places, the place where the irritating priests kept their Shrines
and forbade any nonclergied citizen to enter. I had never been
much on religion, and 1 figured an eternity in hell for trespass on
holy ground was probably about equal to the fate the Enemy
would dole out if they captured me. The forest was that most
feared of sacred places, the place where the heart of the world
was kept, where my race had (perhaps) been born from the trees,
the place the Enemy feared more than anything. And the place I,
as a secular magician, and one who particularly tended toward ir-
reverence and blasphemy, was most forbidden to go.
Sleep took me like a forest fire.

The spirit came to me as I slept, and I realized the enormity
of my transgression. In my confusion, I had stumbled upon my
own Mother; in my exhaustion I had used her as if she were a
conveniently-placed cot. I should have guessed she wouldn't ap-
preciate that much, or maybe that she would appreciate it greatly.

The sleep was like nothing I had ever experienced, sweet and

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deep and peaceful. I had no visions of my city's spires set on
fire, my people murdered, my country's fields burned and the
ground salted. I felt only a oneness with my own existence, or
perhaps nonexistence. I felt peace. I came out of sleep with her
face in front of me and her hand upon mine. She had a look of
vague concern.

"You do not seem well," she said.

Crossing the line between sleep and waking, several times in
each direction, I looked at her, and finally managed to croak an
answer.

"I am not well, lady. I'm afraid I've been fleeing."

"You've trespassed."

"I'm sorry. I didn't realize the tree was already rented."

I considered her through my half-closed eyes, since I was
afraid to open them all the way. She shimmered with a faint
spray of light, and her flesh was of the whitest white—the color
of a corpse drained of blood. Her hair and lips were blacker than
coal, with the slightest blue tinge to them, and her eyes were a
phosphorescent green. She was naked. Her face looked ageless,
an eternal, androgynous youth.

"You killed Fenris," she said. "He really meant you no harm."

"I apologize," I said, "but I had no way to know he wouldn't
get hungry for a snack, later, something with more white meat on
it."

She shook her head. "He wouldn't have done that. Perhaps
you could apologize to his spirit?"

"Sorry, I've never been very good at communing with nature,
lady."

"The name is Alaura. No hard feelings—yet." Her blue-black
lips twisted into a dark smile, and I shifted uncomfortably.
"Fenris' time had come, anyway, so you performed a necessary
function—thank you. Why have you come to the Center?"

A bolt of lighting went down my spine. It was not possible
that this was the Center of the forest. The being crouched be-
tween me and the entrance to the hollow. My sword was still in
my hand. I slowly sat up and then got to my knees.

"The Center?"

"Not of me forest, of course. There is no center to the forest.
But this is your Center. You must have known that, to sleep
here."

"I don't quite understand what you're getting at."

"Certainly you noticed the candles?"

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"Notice them? Yes. But I don't subscribe to the religion that
placed them there... -"

"And so you ignored the fact that this was a holy place. Well,
that's reasonable. It seems to have been a mistake- But you're
still part of the race."

I considered it for a moment. "Pretty much. I suppose so,
yes—Alaura."

'Then you've still found your center."

"I don't understand."

A smile crossed her corpselike face. in a wave of ephemeral
but terrifying beauty. She laughed and changed the subject.

'Tell me, what was the meaning of that storm?"

"I'm afraid I caused it I was trying to cause trouble for the
ones who pursued me. But these things have a way of getting out
of hand."

"So they do. Your pursuers did not follow you into the for-
est?"

"No, they were afraid,"

"And why are they afraid of the forest?"

"Superstition, mostly, and hatred of my own race. They know
it is our sacred place, the supposed center of my people, the
place where our nation was born—according to legend. It is a
place of great power and terror to my people, and therefore to the
Enemy." Despite myself, I felt a tear forming in my eye, and it
ran down my cheek. My voice caught when I continued.
"They've done horrible things to my people, and want to exter-
minate them from the world. They invaded our country and con-
fined its people to camps where they were murdered en masse.
The atrocities these beasts have performed ..." My voice caught,
and I shook my head. I added, as an afterthought, "And they
seek to destroy this forest."

"Nothing can destroy this forest."

"They are able to ride the skies on giant birds, powerful birds
that carry huge containers of poisons, much like the poisons used
against my people. These compounds can destroy foliage...."

"Nothing can destroy this forest," she repeated. "It is the heart
center. You are safe here."

"I don't feel very safe," I said, moving away from her. "I'm
quite uncomfortable, to tell you the truth, though your company
is quite charming and your countenance supematurally beautiful,
believe me. Just the same, I think I shall leave now, if it's alt the
same to you."

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just a little longer. Were you afraid, too? Do you understand
what I said about your center?"

"Yes, and no. I was very afraid. And rightly so, from what
happened with—Fenris, was that his name?"

"Is," she said. "He has been reborn, albeit in a somewhat dif-
ferent form."

"Damn," I said. "My troubles have a way of doing that."

"It was the least I could do for him. You should not be afraid
of the forest. Or of me."

I gripped the hilt of my sword. "Why not, lady? I've alreadybeen 
attacked by a giant wolf named Fenris and had my horse
killed. I am now, apparently, trapped inside a tree with its guard-
ian spirit."

Her hair seemed to blow in the wind. "You have reached your
center. It is therefore impossible for you to be trapped here, since
by your race's very existence you are part of the forest"

I frowned. "But if I interpret your actions correctly, you are
not willing to stand aside to let me crawl out of this tree?"

"I'm afraid you cannot leave, without my help."

"Why is that?" I looked down, and slowly came to the reali-
zation that she was correct. My calves and thighs had taken on
a strangely wooden appearance. My boots seemed to have disap-
peared, and I had sunk several inches into the soft wood of the
tree. I felt strangely dispassionate about the whole thing, having
traded one oblivion for another.

I lifted my sword. "If you will not be so kind—"

"I'm sorry," she said, as my sword-arm stiffened and the
sword came clattering to the floor of the hollow. My arm
stretched back, entangled in what seemed to be vines, and my
clothing crumbled to dust and rotted away. I felt my hair, now
black leaves and vines which smelled like the black forest, tan-
gling about my face.

"Please," I said. "I am not really ready for communion with
nature."

"But commune you must. You may be the last one left," said
Alaura. "What was your name again?"

My lips had become wooden by the time she bent to kiss me,
so she gave me a name of her choosing, in a language I did not
understand, spoken in a way I could no longer speak.

She has transplanted me to a new Center, a place where I can
grow as a creature of the forest

Black birds come to roost in my branches, carrying the rem-

264 Thomas S- Roche

nants of eyes they have eaten from the heads of my people, miles
away, outside the burned cities. They build nests with the hair of
my comrades. But in my branches these ravens thrive.

Ataura comes to me sometimes, but despite her appearance,
she is very old. The beauty of her lustrous blue-black lips is de-
ceiving. Her hair sways in the breeze which bears the far-off
odor of burning flesh.

Alaura's people have met their end. But my lover lays a dark-
ened death bed of moss on holy ground, and the sun rises like a
holocaust above the cleansed earth. Alaura is with child.

Gnostwood

by Michelle Sagara

Michelle Sagara writes fantasy because she loves the
genre, whether it is novel-length as in the Books of
the Sundered, or short work. Twice nominated for the
Campbell Award (and now a two-time member of the
Campbell Loser's club), she expects to continue writing for
a long time.

It was winter in a forest that had forgotten spring.

Ice was on the trees, and although sunlight glittered through it,
lacing the shadows with sharp, perfect light, it never melted. Si-
lence reigned; even the breeze moved nothing. It was serene and
calm at the heart of the woods.

Justin woke up slowly. His back ached and his arms were sore
from the previous day's work. The winter air had been dry and
cold enough that splitting logs for the fire was easy. For the first
two hours, at any rate.

He never quit when it was smart to.

"Justin?"

"I'm out cutting wood." He groaned as the door to his room
opened.

"You sleep too much."

"You don't sleep enough. Show a little pity. won't you?"

"How much pity do you want?"

"Any. Which is obviously not what an older sister worth her
salt is capable of giving." He lifted a pillow and hurled it at her;

she ducked.

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"I'm capable of some. There's coffee on the burner, and it's
fresh. Is that stubble I see?"

"On my face or on your legs?"

She shrieked, laughed, and threw the pillow back at his face.
"That's it—you fend for yourself at breakfast!"

The coffee was good; Chris always made a good cup of cof-
fee. Almost good enough to wake up early for, but not quite.

"I can't believe you're twenty-five and you still can't wake up
in the morning—it must be the city air." She put a plate of
sunny-side-up eggs under Justin's nose and added a few pieces
of bacon to it.

"This isn't exacdy rural," he replied. "You've got electricity,
you've got septic tanks, you've got paved roads and phones—"

"And they cost a lot more than you pay in Toronto."

"I guess that's why you haven't bothered to turn on the heat-
ers."

She smiled at his ill-humor. "The heat's about as on as it gets.
Go sit in the solarium; sun's strong through the windows."

"You mean go out and join the rest of the vegetation?" He
picked up his plate and his mug, dropped his fork on the floor,
and fished around on hands and knees trying to find it before she
Rimed up another one.

"Justin?"

"What?"

"I love you, you idiot."

The solarium was bright with sun, but the light was a cold
light, and frost covered the lower half of the full-length win-
dows. The doors, ostensibly sliding ones, were frozen in their
tracks. Too much humidity.

Plants lined five sides of the small hexagonal room. Justin
shook his head as he looked at the yellow-brown leaves of a
withered wax begonia. The cacti were extremely sorry looking;

there was a green patina on the soil's surface that looked suspi-
ciously like algae. An amaryllis was in bloom, and of all the
plants here, it looked most healthy, although its flowers were
paler than usual.

"Chris?"

She came through the door with a steaming mug of tea.
"Don't give me a hard dme."

"We both know you've got a black thumb. I just didn't realize
the rest of your fingers were that color, too." He ducked as he

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said it, and she laughed- "These—it almost looks like someone
gave you all of my plants—and then you killed them.**

Her face froze for an instant; she looked outside, to the snow
across the grassy hills that rose gently on either side of her
home. Then the shadow passed, and she smiled. "You aren't the
only person in me world who knows something about plants, you
know."

"Yeah, but you're one of the seven that doesn't."

"Great, My brother still laughs at his own jokes."

"No one else will." He finished the yolk of his second egg and
started in on the bacon.

"Justin!"

"Yes, Mother." He never liked the whites, and didn't usually
eat them when he was on his own. "You're going to have to let
me do something about these plants, you know."

"Do whatever you like to them—they're officially your re-
sponsibility now."

"Where are you going?"

*Tf I can figure out how to tie these damned tennis rackets—"

"Snow shoes."

"—tennis rackets on, I'm going for a walk."

"It's—it's really cold out there. You're sure you want to go
out?"

"I didn't come all the way up here to be cooped in a house;

I could've saved time and money and just stayed in Toronto."

"You want company?"

"ff you want, but I'm not going to get lost."

She was already putting on an extra sweater. "I don't trust
you," she said. "Here, give me those."

There wasn't another track in sight. Even the path to the house
was remarkably pristine; if Justin had trudged through the knee-
deep snow, no sign of his passing remained.

"How much snow do you get here anyway?"

"Not much." She shrugged; her breath wreathed her face like
smoke in a crowded bar. "The last fall was really heavy for this
time of year. Shouldn't get much more."

He nodded absently, catching half of what she said. It was bet-
ter than he often did, especially when he was thinking. "You
know, Chris, I've never seen the sun look so cold." He pointed
U) the sparkle of light across the winter landscape. "I mean, if it
weren't so cold, I'd say this place looked like a ... a desert"

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She shivered and drew her coat more tightly around her broad
shoulders.

"You cold?"

"A little."

"Go on home, then. I want a little more air before I turn in for
the day."

Justin wasn't used to the forest; he was a city person with the
barest touch of the country wilderness in his heart. He liked to
visit the wild woods only when he had the comfort of modem
conveniences directly behind him; even camping was a discom-
fort that he had only put up with for Chris' sake.

Chris, now she could forage, cook, build and—more impres-
sive—start a fire. She could tell you what the flora and fauna
were, even if she did kill the occasional bits of flora she tried to
pot.

It was her forest in some ways. She loved the oaks, she loved
the pines, she loved the spruces and the funny silver-barked
trees- But she best loved the rowans. Justin couldn't stand row-
ans. Their smell at the height of summer was strong and unpleas-
ant. That made no difference at all to Chris.

In fact, she'd bought this patch of hard-to-reach land because
it had a circle of rowan trees that were, in her words, ancient
They made him uncomfortable, although he wouldn't have ever
admitted it, and whenever Chris could coax him to visit, he went
out of his way not to look at the circle that was her pride-

So he didn't understand how one moment he was shaking the
deciduous spines of a spruce, and the next, he was bumping into
the periphery of that very circle. But he decided that his subcon-
scious hated him. He took a deep breath, shook his head, and
turned to leave the rowans.

Something blocked his way.

It was thin and gaunt, and rags clung to its elbows, shoulders
and waist; its skin was gray, its lips so stretched they were al-
most nonexistent. It had a thatch of white hair over a patchy
skull.

Justin cried out in shock and took a step back, followed by a
second, larger one. He had seen, in museum displays, the mum-
mified corpses of ancient Egyptians. He had never seen one
walk, until now.

He could not take his eyes off the creature as it shambled to-
ward him. But he knew that he stood in the centre of the rowan

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circle- Something caught the corner of his eye; he was afraid to
look, but he did. Another creature. And another. And another.

There was no escape; they approached the circle from every
possible direction. He began to turn wildly, first in one direction,
then in another. He ran to the east, stopped short, and scuttled
back to the west. The forest was filled with walking shadows.

Oh, God, he thought. Chris! He listened, but heard nothing;

die forest was silent.

And then they stopped. Magically and in unison. They threw
themselves forward, but seemed to hit an invisible barrier. The
circle.

/ don't believe it. Numb with cold, he let his knees buckle.
They can't get in. Dear God, get me out of here alive and I'll
never avoid rowans again, I swear.

They moved, these creatures; they circled like hungry jackals.
But they couldn't reach him, and after a while, he huddled, knees
to chest, and waited. It got cold, and colder still, as the night fell.
His cheeks began to tingle with pain as the cold bit in.

He sat and watched them, until he could no longer distinguish
them from the shadows of nighttime winter woods. And then his
eyes grew heavy. He knew it was dangerous. He tried to wake
up.

"Justin!"

He screamed, bolted from the security of his bed, realized, in
mid-jump, that he wasn't in the snow anymore, and fell flat out
on his stomach. Winded, he stared down at the rag rug under-
neath his nose.

"Justin!"

He looked up, saw his sister's feet, and got to his own.
"What?" He touched his chest; it was covered in red, piaid flan-
nel. His grandfather's pajamas.

"You were screaming."

"I was—" He walked over to the window, yanked the curtains
back, and looked out into a clear, cold sky. It was dark now;

moonlight glittered on the snow, the sun's ghost. He pulled me
curtains back into place, cutting the outside world off.

He turned to stare at his sister. Her eyes were ringed black;

they always were when she wasn't sleeping well. She was
dressed in her housecoat and her old slippers, and she was tying
knots in the belt as she watched him, her face full of open con-
cern.

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"It was your cooking," he said at last. "Tomorrow, I make din-
ner. Got it?"

That does it. Next time, Chris cuts the wood. Any responsible
person would've built up enough of a stockpile for the winter in-
stead of making their younger brother freeze. Even though he
was in boots that practically topped his knees, he could feel the
sting of the ice and snow. Chris was going to give him hell for
not strapping his feet into snowshoes. Again.

How the hell was I supposed to know it was all this deep? His
breath was condensing on his face, and the drops were crackling
into ice. Tune to go home.

There was a shadow across the snow—long, thin and skeletal.
Not an ounce of blood moved in his veins; it was frozen solid.

Taking a deep, icy breath, Justin Larkin turned around. Five
feet away, bony claws attached to the snow-covered bark of an
oak, one of the creatures stood watching him,

At this distance, it looked a little less like a creature out of
nightmare, and a little more like something out of a bad B
movie. Except for its eyes. The eyes were like slate; colder than
the winter, gleaming like the soul of the ice itself.

Justin took a step back, and then turned suddenly; the forest
was empty, except for this one walking skeleton. It made him
feel slightly safer. But only slightly.

The circle, he thought. I'll just head back to the rowan circle.
Either that, or I'll wake up. Come on, sunshine.

"So, uh, come this way often?" Justin took a step back; the
creature stayed anchored to the tree beneath its claws. "Uh, I'd
like to stay and talk, but I, uh, have to be going now. That all
right with you?"

Its Ups stretched wide over rotten teeth. "The sssssssssspring."

Before Justin could faint or run, he was suddenly very much
alone. He waited a moment before he dared to look around at the
ground where the creature had made its stand. It was untouched.

Great. I'm losing my mind in the middle of nowhere, with only
my sister for company.

He was certain that he had never felt a winter so cold, and he
longed for the city. It was big, yes, and dirty; there were all the
usual signs of urban decay on select downtown street Corners;

there was too much traffic, too much hostility, too much stress.
But there was also life, warmth, motion; there was a sense of
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He had come to Chris* place to escape all of that, but found
that emptiness, the vast expanse of untouched wilderness, per-
versely reminded him of the things that it wasn't.

That, and his nightmares in the city were profoundly more
mundane. He might wake up in a sweat from dreams of a tax
audit—he was not completely organized for a self-employed
man—but he didn't wander around the ice and snow looking
over his shoulder for walking cadavers who made the coming of
spring sound like a dire threat

He had mastered the art of walking in snowshoes, and so no
longer tripped on his feet. He wore an undershirt, a shirt, a
sweater, a coat, a vest, a scarf, a hat, thin gloves and thick mit-
tens, as well as two pairs of socks and moon boots. He carried
a flashlight, just in case he was stupid enough to be caught out
after sunset.

Sunset, across the expanse of untouched snow, should have
been beautiful. The sun's rays, tinged crimson and orange, seep-
ing across the horizon had always been one of the sights that he
valued when he came to visit his sister.

But tonight, for some reason, it was cold. Just cold.

He watched it, waiting for something to click.

Something snapped instead. He turned slowly, flashlight in
hand, to see the creature of his daytime nightmare. This close to
the boundary of night, Justin should have been terrified.

But the creature looked less skeletal, somehow. A little less
gaunt

"You again," Justin said, through clenched teeth that he hoped
resembled a smile.

The creature said nothing, but rather stared at the horizon with
unblinking eyes. He pointed straight ahead, to where sun met
ground, and as Justin followed his long, bony finger, he saw
blood, rather than light, across the crust of ice.

"Sssssspring."

"What's wrong with winter?" Justin asked, half-expecting the
vision to be gone again when he turned from the dying sun. But
the creature remained, staring at him with eyes that were still
colder than the season.

No answer was offered, but suddenly, none was wanted. Justin
knew that the winter here had lasted too long.

"Diiiiiiie."

He took a step back, and then stood his ground. The creature
stared at him for a moment, then turned slowly and began to
shamble off through the trees.

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Justin stared down at his flashlight, and then looked up at the
stiff, emaciated back of the winter creature. I am an idiot, he said
to himself. A complete fool. An utter moron. He carefully
clicked the on switch of the flashlight—which, through two lay-
ers of wool was no mean feat—made a prayer that the batteries
weren't as old as he thought they were, made another, quite dif-
ferent, prayer, and then began to follow.

The creature made no noise as it walked. It wore no snow-
shoes, but seemed to move through the ice and snow as if they
were liquid. No evidence of its passing remained.

Not so with Justin; he kicked up a spray of snow-dust that his
flashlight shimmered off, snapped the occasional brittle twig as
it caught on his scarf, and walked into the lower skirts of snow-
covered pines. But he followed.

Once or twice, the creature looked back, its icy eyes unblink-
ing. But, seeing Justin, it nodded, and continued to walk.

He had no idea how much time passed; he was barely aware
when twilight slipped into night. The moon was bright enough to
see by; it made a mockery of battery power as it glinted across
sheets of thin ice and thick snow. Justin held the flashlight
tightly anyway. It had become a talisman of sorts.

He listened for the sound of night creatures, but there were
none. No owls, no winter birds, no animals. They're sleeping, he
thought, as he drew the light closer.

No, they're dead.

He didn't know why he thought it, but once thought, it was
hard to forget. Like the verse of a song that somehow managed
to cling to his mind, he replayed the words over and over. They
felt right, but they felt wrong.

He was so intent on them, that he almost walked into the back
of the creature; it had stopped suddenly, and pivoted, without
making a sound. Justin lifted the flashlight and saw that the crea-
ture was no longer alone. Others of its ilk were gathered by the
trunks of bare trees, glaring at him in silence.

He studied them, let the light skim their faces.

In his first nightmare, they had seemed of one kind, but now.
he could see differences. Their cheekbones, their foreheads, their
heights—each was unique, as people were. Some, in fact,
seemed to be so different in build—broad and short and stocky,
rather than tall and delicate—that they might have been different
species.

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Had they been alive.

As if aware of his appraisal, they stood and endured it. And
then, as the light left the face of the last one—although he
couldn't have said how many there were—they all turned as one
person and looked toward the center of their gathering. He fol-
lowed their vision.

He thought to see something magical, something poetic, some-
thing deadly.

He saw a car instead.

The fender was bent, and rust spots were slowly devouring the
paint job at the edge of the trunk. "What the hell?" He began to
walk toward it, and the creatures made way for him, opening
their ranks to let him pass unhindered. But they began to chant
a single word.

"Ssssspring."

He barely heard it. The back of the car was fine. But as he be-
gan to circle the car, he saw that something was very, very
wrong with it. The passenger and driver's seats were gone in a
press of metal and broken glass. The engine had been crumpled
with the hood; the front tires were completely flattened.

The light began to shake; his hands could barely hold it.
Slowly, numbly, he approached the driver's side of the car. There
was blood down the side of it; a thin, red trickle.

There wasn't much left of his car.

His mouth dry, he turned to look at the watchers. And he was
suddenly alone in the forest. They were gone; there was no car.

The wax begonias had been drowned, all right; on close in-
spection the thick leaves were almost mushy. The old man cactus
wasn't going to make it either. The jade plants were tough
enough to take Chris for a little while, and Justin was pleased to
think he could save them. The solarium, with its plant-covered
walls, wasn't the best place for them, but he could move them
around.

The Japanese maple by the door was in need of repotting. And
the violet ... he lifted it from the shelf and looked more closely
at the planter. Then, slowly, he set it down. He began to look at
the dying plants more carefully.

It was cold in the solarium.

"Where are you going?"
"For a walk."

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"Don't you think that you've done enough walking, Justin?
I'm really starting to worry about you. Look at your eyes,
they're—"

"Chris, you aren't my mother. I've got to walk." He saw her
start to pull a sweater over her head. "Alone."

"But—"

"I'll be fine." He tied the last knot and stood up.

"Justin—I'd like the company."

He shook his head, feeling pained. "I'll be back, I promise.
And I'll be better company then."

When he left the garage, he was pale. He carried a flashlight
in one hand and a shovel in the other; the shovel was heavy. He
walked westward, with purpose. To the rowans.

He wasn't surprised when they came. They fell into lockstep
around him; he was certain they were growing in number at his
back. Almost, he felt as if he were leading them to a bizarre re-
ligious service. They weren't silent, of course.

The rowans stood out in the moonlight and the bitter, bitter
cold. But they were not the trees that he had once disliked; they
were guardians, they were living henges. He passed through
them with ease, but his followers did not. He turned to see them,
wide-eyed, as they began to ring the rowans.

"Spring, eh?" he said, as he lifted the shovel. "I'll do my
best." His hands were shaking so much that he dropped the
shovel three times before he managed to clear away some of the
snow. The dirt was frozen, and it was harder than the ice to get
rid of. But he worked; he didn't even sweat.

The night passed into dusk, and finally, when dawn broke, the
ground had been shifted enough so that Justin Larkin could see
what was buried at the heart of the circle. It was what he ex-
pected, no more, no less.

No one heard his scream; it was voiceless.

"Chris?"

She looked up from the paper, but the smile mat was begin-
ning shattered when she met his eyes. She set the paper aside.
"Yes?"

"How did I get up here?" He came and sat down beside her
on the old couch; she was a foot away, but the distance could just
as well have been miles.

"You drove."

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"Where's my car?"

Her face paled. "Your car?"

"My car."

"It's—it's at the garage. Repairs."

He nodded. Passed a hand over his eyes. "Why do you have
my plants?"

"Y-your plants?"

"Chris, I recognize those planters; I should've seen it right
away. Why do you have 'em?"

She looked down at her hands; they were clenching and un-
clenching almost convulsively. "I—" Her eyes teared.

"Chris—I'm dead, aren't I?"

"No, you're not!" She stood suddenly, and the tears began to
fall; her eyes were red, her lips shaking. "You aren't dead—don't
you see? You're here, you're with me!"

"How long have we been here? How long has it been winter,
Chris?"

"And we don't have to leave, don't you see? The circle keeps
us together. You aren't dead, Justin."

"I'm not—alive." It was hard to talk. Justin was afraid. "I dug
up the circle, Chris. 1 saw my body."

She blanched. Shook her head, covering her mouth with bothher 
hands.

"This is a forest of dead things," he continued, "of dying
things. It's going to be winter forever. Nothing will grow, noth-
ing will change." He caught her hands; they were warm, where
his were not. "What happened to Bill—you were starting to date
again, remember?"

She shook her head. "It doesn't matter anymore." She turned
away from him, and stared blindly into the fire; the tears running
down her cheeks were orange.

"I—I took your plants, you know? I took them, even though
I knew I'd kill them. I had to try; they were like a little bit of
your life. But when they started to die—it was like I couldn't
even keep that part of you."

He walked over to her back, and put his arms around her, be-
ing as gentle as she would let him while still holding on.

"And then, your body." She began to cry harder. "I identified
it, sort of. It was—" She couldn't speak. Minutes passed as she
gulped air. "After a few months, I couldn't stand it. I disinterred
you, and had you brought here. I wanted you to be near me. I'm
sorry; it was selfish. I know you never loved the rowans, not like
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"They were the heart of the forest, and you—you were such
a big part of my heart. It—it made sense to bury you there." She
tried to pull away, and then changed her mind and bun-owed
back into his arms. "I prayed so hard. I'd've died for you, Justin.
I prayed there, in the circle."

"You always were a sentimentalist and a romantic," he said,
crying softly into her hair.

Her voice changed, softening, lightening. He heard the miracle
in her tone; she had always been too prosaic to deliver it with
words. "And then, I woke up the next morning. You were here.
It was winter. And I knew it was going to be winter forever. All
the animals left. All the birds. It was sudden. Like they couldn't
be where you were.

"And I didn't care. Winter—frozen—I didn't care. I don't
care, Justin." She put her hand over her mouth. "I don't want to
lose you, I don't want you to leave me."

He held her. He just held her.

After she had fallen asleep, exhausted, he cradled her in his
arms. He had choices to make, and he was afraid of all of them.
He loved Chris, he loved life—and he understood that he was
supposed to have neither.

Well, what of it? He could live as he chose; the rowans had
seen to that, for her sake.

For her sake ...

He gazed out of the window, at the brilliant, icy day. They
were waiting for him, with their hungry eyes, their angry eyes,
their painful eyes. They had no life, and they belonged to the

green.

And Chris—admit it, Justin—Chris had no life, either. Just a
shadow of it, a tiny, small slice of unending winter. Because of
him. Because he died, but she was better than most at holding

on.

Oh, Chris, he said, although it was silent. You're going to
break my heart.

It snowed that night, for the first time that Justin could re-
member. The window was shut, but not shuttered; he stared at it
as if it were a television. The flakes fell, fast and furious, as the
wind whipped mem around the barren landscape. The rowans
were seeing to his body.

For five days, he refused to think about it at all. Life in the
cabin was almost normal, if nighttime visitations by hissing

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nightmares were discounted—and as long as he stayed indoors,
they gave him no trouble. But ...

The plants were the worst. He went to them daily, spoke to
them, watered them, moved them to where the light conditions
were right. But they didn't recover; they didn't grow.

At least, he reflected, they hadn't died. But they weren't alive
either. He wasn't sure what the difference was between life and
death anymore, but he knew there was one—knew there had to
be one.

"... and this is why it has to be repotted. The roots have got-
ten too large for the—Chris, you aren't listening." He caught her
hands as she stared at his face. "Look, if you can love a bunch
of smelly trees, you can leam to appreciate a beautiful jade plant,
okay?"

She said, "why are you teaching me this?"

"Because I want you to know it. You can't go around just kill-
ing every plant you're given."

She tried to laugh, but it was the ghost of a laugh that she of-
fered him. He hugged her. "Now comes the most important part
so far. It's about the water—"

The sixth day. The world in winter was bright and cold.
Breakfast was good—and he didn't even worry about choles-
terol. He had cream with his coffee, used liberal amounts of but-
ter, ate bacon by the half pound.

"Justin—the way you eat, it's not good for you."

He looked up from his plate and grinned. "I'm dead. Food is
going to hurt me?"

She couldn't laugh. Her silence, uncomfortable and tight,
stretched between them until Justin left his chair. "Where are
you going?"

"For a walk."

"Can I—can I come with you?"

"Chris—" He walked around the table and hugged her tightly,
thinking that he had never hugged her so much in his life. "Of
course. Come with me."
He let her fuss about his boots—too light, and too short—and
his snowshoes, and when that didn't satisfy her, he left his coal
unzippered. He also neglected to put on a hat, and her gentle ha-
ranguing took the edge off her tension and made her seem almost
normal.

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It was cold out, of course, and Justin could feet it at the bone
level. I'm dead, he told himself sternly, but apparently it didn't
make a difference, and after about ten minutes, he put on his hat,
scarf, and mittens, even though it made Chris insufferable.

Behind me naked trees, they were watching him.

"We're being watched, Chris." he said, casually.

She whipped around, and he covered his face.

"You have no idea what the word subtle means, do you?"

But she was scanning the same trees that he saw; her brows
were furrowed, her face pale. "Watched by what?"

"Just checking."

The dead voices sounded like me rustle of dry leaves gone
mad. Justin listened to mem whisper and mutter, and it was al-
ways with a longing for spring, the turn of seasons. He looked at
Chris' face, seeing the winter written there.

"Do you like the snow?"

"I've always liked the snow." She looked over her shoulder
surreptitiously—or at least, she tried to.

"What about spring? Summer? Fall?"

She was quiet.

"There are no birds at the feeder this year, are there?" He slid
his arm around her shoulder and she pulled away.

"Justin, please—"

"Come on, Chris." He held out a mitten, and after an awkward
pause, she put her hand into it. She was shaking. "Don't do
that." he said gently. "Your eyes will freeze."

"Justin, I don't want to go there."

"But you love the rowans," he replied. "And you'll never see
them in spring again either."
She bit her lip and nodded. "I don't care."

"You don't have to right now. I do." He pulled her through the
snow, and because it was him, she came. She always had, really.

Behind her, they followed, shuffling awkwardly. He aimed
once to look over his shoulder, but he contented himself with a
nervous glimpse. He didn't want to meet their eyes; he knew
whose death he saw mere.

The rowans were cold and ice-coated, but they were still a cir-
cle. Within their confines, the snow was pristine and perfect. If
he had come with a shovel, had broken the crust of snow, ice,
and dirt, no trace remained of his labor. He was grateful for it.

"Come on, Chris."

"I can't."

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"Why?"

She swallowed. "I just can't."

"It's the circle. That's all. And I'll be with you." He hated to
make her cry in this cold.

"You won't be with me," she said; it was an accusation.

"I'll be with you for as long as you want." He held out his
arms, and after a minute, hesitating on the boundary, she stepped
into them. The circle seemed to close; the trees almost huddled
over them, as if for warmth. "Come and sit down."

She looked a bit dubious, but as they were dressed for cold,
she bit her lip and settled down to me right of the circle's center.
She wouldn't sit over the center itself, but he didn't push it. He
didn't want to sit there either.

He sat in front of her, and she pulled him back into her arms,
the way she had often done when they were both much younger.

"What's the worst thing about me that you remember?"

She was quiet for a long time. "The worst thing? Mom."

"What about Mom?" The question was a bit sharp.

Chris laughed. "You asked. I don't have to answer—I mean,
it hasn't bothered me for years."

"No—I want to know."

"Mom was the worst thing. She wanted a boy, I don't know
why. She always loved you best." She caught his hands and
pulled them up. "But I guess I learned from her, too. I love you,
even if you did try to sell my diaries. Closest you ever came to
dying—" She stopped speaking, and he pulled her arms into a
closed circle around them both.

"What's the best thing?"

"Best? There isn't a single best thing. There are so many, I
could go on for days. I tried to remember everything I hated
about you. I even hated you a bit, for dying. You know, I'm
wrong. Mom isn't the worst thing.

"The worse thing about you is that you died."

"I'm not thrilled about it either."

"You don't even remember it."

'True. But I'm not thrilled about the idea." He swallowed.
"But if you want me to make sense of it, I can't."

"I don't want you to make anything of it. I want you to stay
here, as if it never happened,"

"And if I stay here, you'll stay here, as if the rest of your life
never happens."

"Maybe you should let me make that choice," she replied. Her
hands became tight, even through two layers of mittens.

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He was quiet; her hands gripped his like anchors imbedded
into the skin. "You know," he said quietly, "When we were re-
ally young, you were like another mother, but closer. You went
to school with me. You protected me from Tony Fisker—
remember him?" He laughed. "You promised you'd protect me
from anything."

"I remember."

"I didn't realize just how serious you were." His voice was
light. "But I can't let you make that choice. And I think I under-
stand, now, why no one should have to make it." He pulled his
hands away from her, it was hard; her grip was fierce. "I'm your

past, Chris."

"And what's wrong with the past? All our lives are made up
of our pasts' Our futures come from it—how can you just say
you'll walk? Justin, you selfish—"

"I'm selfish?" He said, wheeling. "Me? You've killed an en-
tire forest because you can't face the death of one man, and I'm

selfish?"

The rowans creaked in the wind that rose suddenly, lifting a
veil of powder-fine snow. She looked up, her voice lost.

*They weren't meant to live in eternal winter," Justin said qui-
etly, as his sister turned, slowly, to look at the perimeter of her
living circle. "You always loved lire. You said nature was your

gardener."

She began to weep. "But th-they're o-only t-trees."

He put his arms around her awkwardly, and held her, because
he knew she was lying-

"The worst thing about you," he said softly, as if changing the
subject, "was that you were always so damned insecure as we
got older. You were afraid that I'd grown away from you, that I
didn't need you anymore.

'The best thing about you ..." He thought about it for a min-
ute. Laughed. "You're right. The best thing isn't easy to pin
down. I've got so many memories, Chris—it'd take days to sift
through them all."

She was tense.

"My death doesn't change those memories, or the truth of
them."

"I don't want Just memories."

Justin began to laugh. 'That's exactly what you want—can't
you see it? That's exactly what 1 am, now. Memory, Chris."

"No, you're—"

"How long have we been here?"

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She didn't answer.

"Have I gotten older? Have I learned anything, made any new
mistakes, had my heart broken another dozen times? Have I
found a job I finally like, found a way to contribute to the causes
I believe in? Have I changed at all?"

"Justin, why are you doing this to me?" Her voice was so
small, he wanted to stop.

He didn't. "I don't remember dying," he said, his voice the
monotone of someone deep in thought. "I don't even remember
living anymore. I remember things that happened years ago, but
I don't remember the details of last month." He pulled away
from her gently shaking body, and stood. She started to get up
but he waved her back, into the snow beneath the rowans.

They were watching it all, but their sibilant chant had ceased.
He could hear a collective drawing of breath, like the death rattle
of a man with emphysema.

'Tell me how I died."

She was silent for so long, he thought she was going to refuse.
He turned to look at her face. The afternoon sun was wending its
way toward the horizon; they had been here longer than he
thought.

"You were speeding," she said, her voice toneless, almost
cold. Her eyes were on snow, on the circle's center; they were
dark and wide. "It was raining and the roads were slick. I always
told you I hated it when you sped. You weren't drinking, thank
God—I think it would have killed Dad if you had been.

"But it was dark, it was late. I guess you must've been more
tired than you thought. You knew that stretch of road. I'd've bet
you could travel it in your sleep." She laughed feebly. "Anyway,
you killed four trees. The fifth one was a targe, old maple with
a trunk like a steel girder."

"Figures."

"They told me how fast you must've been traveling. I don't
remember it—the number only came up once, and it just wasn't
real. I nodded a lot I remember that. Everyone would ask me
questions, and I'd nod and smile. It was really important to me
that I not embarrass Dad or you by having a stupid breakdown.
I wasn't going to be the typical hysterical female, not me."

He knelt a yard away from her, like a religious pilgrim at the
feet of a very holy man.

"Funerals are expensive, but funeral directors aren't very
tacky. They know how to deal with people made stupid by grief.
It's the rest of the world that's hard. People feel like they have

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to fill up all the silences with words, that they have to trip over
themselves to make it clear how much of a loss it was—as if we

didn't know it already.

"And they mean well, so you can't tell them to drop dead."

"I'm not sure they'd get the joke," Justin said, smiling.
"Joke? What—oh." She rolled her eyes; tears slipped down
the rims and onto her lashes, where they began to freeze. "And
then your close friends and relatives—they know when to leave
you alone. They give you privacy and space. But -.. but some-
times they don't know when not to leave you alone.

"I hate it. The first week, I thought I'd die. I wanted to. But
I held on, because I wasn't about to add my death to yours, and
because there was work to do. Ail your papers to go through,

your house, the plants.

"But after that... after the funeral, everyone seemed to think

it was just over. And it was, in a way. You were gone. But I kept
thinking about what 1 could have done differently. I'd fantasize
about turning up, like magic, at just the right moment to save
your rotten life. I'd dream about selling my soul, just to get you

back.

"Do you know that I woke up one morning, and I called you?

I wasn't thinking. I just picked up the phone and dialed. And
then, when I got the stupid message about the number being no
longer in service, I screamed. I just screamed and screamed—1
thought I'd never stop. Because you were gone, and it was sud-
denly real.

"Eventually, I talked to Dad, and he said we could move your

body from Mount Pleasant to here. He was worried about me, by
then—and he knew it couldn't bun you any." She smiled with a
shadowed shyness. "The rest you already know."

It was his turn to be quiet

"Are you afraid, Justin?"

"Of death? I don't feel dead, but I'm not afraid of making you

let go."

She nodded as if she believed him. "Is there an afterlife?"

"How the hell should I know? I can't even remember dying."
He shook his head. "But if I had to guess, I'd say yes. I mean,

I'm here."

"I wanted to believe in God and heaven. But I couldn't, be-
cause you were dead."

"People die all the time, Chris."

"Yes, but none of them were you. Will you wait for me on the

other side?"

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"I don't know. I don't know if there is another side." He saw
that she was crying openly now, but it was important to him—
had always been important to him—to tell her the troth. "I can't
make sense of death for you by giving you false promises or
platitudes. Death doesn't make sense. That's not the way it
works,"

"Then what am I supposed to do?"

"Make sense of life. Just because I don't have mine anymore
doesn't mean I'd like you to lose yours. I can't tell you for cer-
tain that I'll wait for you, because I don't know if I can. I
can't tell you there's a real afterlife, because I don't know it.
I can't tell you anything that'll make any of this any easier. But
I always made your life difficult—why should I stop now?" He
held out his arms.

She scrabbled to her feet and hugged him.

"I can tell you the two things I know for certain: I want you
to go on living."

"That's only one thing."

"And I love you."

"That's t-two."

He raised his head and looked out into the trees. "Is it getting
warmer in here, or is it just me?" He let her go very gently and
removed his winter wear.

"It's warmer," she said faintly. Sh& pulled off her hat and held
it in shaking hands.

'The spring is coming." His voice was soft. He looked over
her head to the periphery of the circle. "The spring is coming!"

They knew it. But they did not leave, or move, or even speak.
He saw the knowledge in their eyes as they stared, unblinking
each one, at the center of the rowan circle-

"Justin—"

"It's really getting warm in here. Maybe there is an afterlife,
and I'm going to hell."

"That's not funny!" she said, and she whacked him on the side
of the head. But her lips twitched at the Corners.

The snow began to melt. Or rather, vanish. It receded from
right, shrinking and dwindling as a warm, brisk breeze blew in
through the trees. The scent of the rowans coming to spring life
began to fill the air. Justin caught Chris* shaking hands, and to-
gether they watched the trees unfuri, leaves springing up along
multiple branches, flowers blossoming like a spray of white and
gold in time-lapse photography.

As if the center of the circle were a pebble, and the forest it-

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self a lake, green rippled out in concentric circles. Silence
reigned for seconds, but it was overtaken by birdcalls, forest
songs, the sound of life returning.

It wasn't spring; it was summer's height.

"Jesus, Chris—how long has it been winter?"

She didn't answer. She was facing, not him, but the forest it-
self, her mouth half-open, her eyes unblinking. Everywhere, the
snow receded, called back to the season in which it belonged.

He smiled crookedly and watched her face. Saw it changing
slowly as she recognized the birdcalls that pierced the silence.
He had never been able to tell one bird from another, and obvi-
ously being dead didn't give him any extra information. But the
rowans' scent was strong and sweet, as it never had been in life.

"Take care of her," he said to the trees, and they seemed to
nod, although that was a trick of the wind.

We will.

He looked up, and saw that the edge of the circle was still
guarded, but by no winter creatures. God, he thought, it figures.
My sister had to find a stretch of forest with imaginary people
and walking legends in it. He didn't know what or who these
summer people were, but they were grand and glorious—a mir-acle 
of life. What had once been mummified was now restored;

the gray pallor of lifeless skin was gone to a golden glow, and
eyes that had been slate and steel were now greener than the for-
est itself.

They smiled at him, these forest beings; smiles that were full

and wise and heavy with the unsaid. "Don't hold it against her,"
he said. "People—we're like that. Help her, if you can."

"We can't," one replied. It was hard to tell if the voice was
male or female, young or old. "She will not let us in,"

"Not yet. But she will. The forest was always her biggest

weakness."

"Then we will be there, when the circle opens again and we

are free to dance within its confines. Thank you." They turned
and began to walk, almost to prance, back into the woods.

He wanted to ask them where they were going, but he knew
it didn't matter. They weren't of the dead. He was. Their roads
didn't coincide further. And how the hell do I know that?

"Hey, Chris?" She looked up at him. "The tears'U catch up to
you all the time. You always were a mush-brain." He hugged her
again, because it was the last time. "I gotta get going."

"Where?"
"I don't know. But I'm getting restless." It was true. The

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breeze almost made him itch with the desire to be gone. "I'll
write you a postcard."

"Bullshit," she said, but she smiled, even if the smile was faint
and sad. "You never wrote a damned thing to me when you were
alive."

"I called sometimes."

"When you were near a phone." She hugged him back, fierce.
But she couldn't hold him that way for long. "You'd better be
waiting for me when this is all over."

"If I can, I'll wait. You'd better take your time coming." He
wanted to wait and watch her; to be certain that she would return
to the life she'd been leading before his accident.

But that was a matter for the living, and he was truly dead.
Very quietly, he kissed her on the forehead. "Gotta go," he said
again.

"I know." And her face seemed lighter somehow; the weight
was gone. "Can I walk with you?"

"Not a chance." He began to whistle quietly as he left the
rowan circle.

Chris watched him go, and because she did, she missed the
sudden rush of life in the circle's center, as a sprig popped out
of the ground, unbending and leaning toward the sun's light.

Il was a young rowan.

SANCTUARY

There is danger m me Forest
but also peace

Tne Monsters or Mill Creek Park

by Susan Shwartz

Susan Shwartz has edited several anthologies and is the
author of The Grail of Hearts; she co-authored with Andre
Norton Empire of the Eagle. Several times nominated for
the Nebula and once for the Hugo for short fiction, she is
currently working on a long novel about the Byzantine
Empire.

Today was Marty's turn to sit by Mark on the worn front seat of
the bartered blue Rambler. He steered, careful not to jar the
campers crowded into the car, past the fancy Boardman houses,
the low shining waterfall by the Old Mill where crazy Lindsay
That's Mister-Vickers-to-you actually drank milk he squeezed
himself from poison ivy, and down the spiral (**you little mon-
sters stick your hands out the windows one more time and I'll
roll them up!"—the windows, not their hands) roads into the
great well of Mill Creek Park where the leaves of old trees that
Indians had probably walked under turned the sunlight into a
green summer glow.

Pressing happily against Mark's side, Marty strained to see
over the warm dashboard. Life was good. Her lunchpail was
frosted silver in her lap, and she'd finally worked big holes in
her sneakers. Best of all, she got to sit beside her favorite coun-
selor. Mark Mantle was tall and cute with a white grin. He could
hit a ball Uke Mickey, he told the best stories of all the counsel-
ors, and his mother's gardens let him supply all the campers in
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would be trouble if someone noticed and said something. Then
they'd watch her again.

She knew they wanted her to play, especially Outside. As Dr.
Thomas told Mom and Daddy when they left her room and
didn't think she could hear, Marty was a solemn child. Too
smart! he had said the last house call he made before he retired
to raise dogs.

Don't push her. Get her outside. So ever since then, they had
tried so hard not to push—while pushing her outside—that she
was sure she could never please them.

"Martha, are you readingT they'd call through the door they
worried if she closed.

As if reading was bad, like chewing with her mouth open,
bubbling her milk, or not-sharing. "Martha, go outside and play."
Being watched all the time was hard on the kid.

Still, it got her summers at M&S. M&S was only a day camp,
not like that snobby Wood Echo where the kids sang stupid
boom-di-ada-boo songs with sappy looks on their faces. But at
least it wasn't the Center's day camp, where they even took the
boys in the pool through the girls' side of the locker room. Ev-
erybody knew that showed how awful the Center was.

M&S Day Camp's colors were blue like Mark's car and green
like Mill Creek Park, though Daddy said that Morris, who ran it,
was really a pinko. His wife Sophie taught Piano. Sophie was all
round and brown, but Daddy said she was a pinko, too; and
when Marty had asked what it meant to be pink, she had gotten
a Look and been sent to her room. But, because Sophie didn't
pressure kids to play recitals like the Tavolarios, Marty got to
take lessons from her. Already, she could play "Spinning Song,"
though Mom and Daddy were starting to get scared that that was
pushing her too fast.

Even if Morris and Sophie were pink, Marty's parents ap-
proved of the M&S Day Camp. So summers meant singing
"Give a shout and a yell, and grab your lunch pail because the
M&S Camp is on the run!" Even if it didn't quite rhyme. Marty
suspected that knowing what rhymed and what didn't might get
her into trouble about pushing, so she tried not to care when she
sang the song.

You always had to be careful when Mom and Daddy worked
so hard to bring you up. That's why she said her name was
Marty now, not Martha. Marthas were careful and stayed inside
and did homework even if they didn't have any. Marthas even
dusted. Marty, though, as in Spin&Marty on their new TV, got to

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do things. Okay, Marty in Spin& was a boy, but who did they
want her to act like—that icky Annette?

Marty knew she'd made her parents happy the day Mark told
them she was a good camper, not a little bookworm like he
thought she might be. And he hadn't tattled when she told all the
kids that her silver ring with the one turquoise missing was ac-
tually a utility ring from outer space.

So she was glad to sit beside Mark. If she were like Annette,
she'd probably want to many him; but Marty wasn't creepy like
that. What's more, he had promised to tell them the story of
"The Monster of Flaboongie" at lunch. He said it was an Indian
story, but that didn't sound like an Indian name to her like Ohio
and Shenango and Mahoning. But if he said "Haboongie" was
an Indian name, it was an Indian name; and she liked the funny
sound of it anyway.

Here, in the deep heart of the park, the leaves closed overhead
like the water in the swimming pool if you held your breath till
your eyes bugged and stood at the bottom of the pool in the deep
end and looked up. She hoped they'd go all the way down to the
"bottom" of the Park.

Not that she didn't like the new place with the metal merry-
go-round you could sit in the middle of, not Just on the benches,
and where you could roll down the hill after lunch till you were
almost sick. And she loved Lake Newport where they sat on
rocks left by the glaciers and sketched trees that had so many
leaves that the whole camp couldn't count them if they'd tried.
She liked the rowboats there, too. She'd peer through her glasses
and the brown water for devil-homed catfish.

Or she'd stare at the bubbles in their wake and imagine that
each bubble was an entire world that God had made, grew up,
and blew apart in the lifetime of the bubble. When she tried to
explain that, Mark decided real fast that it was her turn to row.
You couldn't talk and row, and Marty was a good rower. Rowing
wasn't pushing, though you had to push against the oars to do it.
But talking about the lives of bubbles—she saw that made Mark
worry, and so she never talked about it again.

Flaboongie. She thought she could maybe scare the kids in the
other cars with that name.

Mark turned the car. They were going to go to Slippery Rock.
Marty gave a little bounce of joy. They didn't get to go there too
often. Everybody's lunchbox had begun to smell of damp bread
and warmed-up tuna and apples by the time Mark turned down
the lefmand road. It was so quiet here he didn't even beep the

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horn "we're here first!" to brag to the other cars when he parked
the car.

Slippery Rock was the smallest pavilion in the park, and the
darkest. The bathroom's smell made all the kids giggle, and
the water from the pump and taps tasted like eggs. Slippery Rock
had a pool, formed where a sleepy edge of Lake Newport flowed
over an old wall. When the campers came down here, they were
allowed to wade the pool, hunt for snails and teeny fish, and
climb the slippery rocks that gave the place its name. They ac-
tually got to climb a waterfall!

Behind them, Morris' Buick crunched over the gravel to a
stop. He had the big campers, who'd probably want to go off and
play baseball. If those were senior campers, Marty was glad she
was a kid. What good was a game when you had a chance to
hear a story and climb a waterfall?

Mark even let them sit and eat on the damp ground. That, too,
was neat. It meant that mud and grass stains were going to soak
through their Bermudas, and they'd have to ride home sitting on
their beach towels and change their clothes outside the house.
The limp sandwiches and milk, smelling of old Thermos bottle,
tasted good. They left their spare carrots and lettuce for the
squirrels, then lounged against the mossy trunks of the trees;

they'd get green stuff all over their blouses and T-shirts, too, and
Mom would really have a fit—and waited for Mark to tell about
the Monster of Flaboongie.

He pointed to the edge of the pool. "You see that moss?"

They nodded yes at Mark and at the moss.

"You see that mud, how red it is?"

Again, the six campers from Mark's car nodded, big-eyed and
solemn.

"Well, that isn't just any moss, I'll have you know. And that
isn't just any mud. Long ago, there was a creature called the
Monster of Flaboongie."

Oooooh went that drip Beth Herman. She liked Annette in the
Mouseketeers. She even liked Hayley Mills in The Parent Trap.

Marty hugged her grimy knees and stared up at the roof of
leaves overhead. Here in the deepest part of Mill Creek,
"Flaboongie" sounded weird, not stupid.

"How did he get here, you ask?"

The kids all nodded.

"The Indians think he followed the rivers and wandered down
by Lake Newport, down and down and down ..." Mark dropped
his voice. Marty could see a monster, following the water, catch-

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ing and eating catfish, maybe eating them raw because everyone
knew monsters didn't cook.

"Until he came HERE!"

Everybody jumped and screamed. Marty laughed, but she was
mad at Mark, who shouldn't have taken them in with such a
baby trick.

"After a while, people who came in here started never coming
out. The place got a bad name. Everyone knew a monster lived
here."

Now that made sense. Slippery Rock was a strange place, with
its stinky water (you weren't supposed to say stink, but it was
the only word that fit), its pool, its long, stringy moss and roots,
and its waterfall with the caves along the shore, heaped up by
rocks dumped off the ice from long, long ago,

Maybe there was something here. Maybe they'd find fossils.
Marty had found fossils in the park by the school, maybe not a
dinosaur, but a little shell. Last fall, she had organized her class
into heaping up rocks mat were pitted like craters. "We're build-
ing a meteorite," she'd told her second-grade teacher. When the
teacher called Marty's home, her father had laughed and laughed,
then opened a bottle from the cabinet Marty never opened. Marty
had "pushed" again, and she had been wrong. Now she knew
better: meteorites were mostly iron. Limestone, like the rocks she
carried, would have melted in the air.

Marty jolted upright as Lisa nudged her. Listen to Mark,
she hissed. Marty listened,

"... the Indians got tired of losing their boys and girls in the
woods—they had to come into the woods lo leam to hunt, you
know, and if they went away from their group, the monster got
them—so finally the chief prayed to the father of all the
Indians—"

"His name is Manitou," Marty blurted. The other kids whis-
pered behind their hands. Marty flushed worse than sunburn. /
didn't mean to push! she wailed silently. She thought she had
read that in Classics Illustrated. Hadn't she? She knew she
had read Last of the Mohicans.

"That's right, Marty," said Mark. "His name is Manitou, and
the Indians prayed to him. And do you know what happened?"

Marty knew what happened. Mark had saved her from being
laughed at again. Mark was wonderful. Maybe she would marry
him after all.

"Manitou came down to earth."

"How did you know his name was Manitou?" someone whis-

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pered to Marty. She managed to look mysterious and held up her
silver and turquoise ring, her utility ring from outer space. Ran-
dy's eyes went round.

Moms, who was very old, maybe fifty, with his graying hair
and blue shirt, came up and stood behind Mark where he sat on
the ground in the center of the circle of kids. Mark started to get
up. A hand on his shoulder kept Mark where he was.

"Go on," said Morris.

"Anyhow," Mark said, drawing their attention back to him,
"Manitou traced the monster of Flaboongie to this place and to
one of those caves over there." He gestured toward the pool and
the lazy waterfall, more a tumble of a stream down some rocks
than an actual falls. "He made himself real small and went into
the Monster's cave, and what do you think he saw?"

"Bones," whispered Randy.

"That's right. All over the floor. Oh, the monster of
Flaboongie was a messy eater. Manitou saw the bones of boys
and girls who got lost in the woods because they wandered off.
He saw the bones of old people. And he saw the bones of ani-
mals."

"Eeeuw," Beth went again.

"But not many animals," Mark put in rapidly. "The monster of
Baboongie liked the taste of people better.

"Anyhow, Manitou said, 'Oh Monster of Flaboongie, you have
been eating my people.' And the Monster went chomp! on an-
other bone. Manitou said, 'Monster, you must leave this place.'
The monster threw his bone away and laughed, showing all these
awful green teeth—he never went to the dentist—and said 'I will
never leave this place because the hunting is so good. And now
you never will either, because—' " Mark leaned out, hands like
catchers' mitts opening wide, "'—I'm going to eat you too!'
And he reached for Manitou like this!"

Everyone laughed and screamed. Bern tumbled onto her side.
Morris picked her back up.

"And do you know what Manitou did?"

Better not say, Marty warned herself.

"Manitou let himself grow to his full height. His head broke
through the roof of the cave. And he grabbed the Monster of
Flaboongie, picked him up, and threw him into that part of the
lake. He threw him so hard that he sank all the way to China,
and the ground closed up behind him."

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come up through the hole, and anyway, Morris wouldn 't let them
come here.

"Even after all these years," Mark was finishing his story,
"you can still see traces of the Monster if you know where to
look. See those roots and that moss and mud? You only think
those are roots and moss and mud. That's really the Monster of
Flaboongie's hair and blood you see—all that's left of him, just
like bones were all that's left of the children—just like you!"

He lunged forward, and the boys jumped him, screaming and
laughing. Morris tapped him on the shoulder.

"Coming, Morris. Kids, you clean up, and then we're going to
beat the Senior Campers in baseball."

"Awwwww," whined Randy. "They'll skunk us."

"Not if you've got me on your side, and Morris promises to
strike out to handicap the Seniors," said Mark. "The game'U start
just as soon as Morris and I finish our talk. So don't wander off
anywhere or ..."

"The Monster of Flaboongie!" Randy, Beth, and Marty
screamed.

Marty wadded up the wax paper and tin foil from her lunch in
disgust and threw it away in the trash bin. It wasn't fair to come
all the way here and then not get to wade in the pool and climb
the rocks, maybe even go into one of those caves by the water's
edge. Who cared about an old Monster of Flaboongie, anyway?

She shut her lunch box—a real workman's box with leather
straps, not one of those tin things the other kids had with stupid
pictures of Lassie on them—and trotted back to the car to put it
away. Morris and Mark were talking low by the Buick and didn't
see her.

"If we keep the kids busy and together, we can finish out the
day without scaring them," Marty heard Morris say. She went
quiet. Make like a tree and he won't see you. Her parents called
that "eavesdropping." It was a you-rotten-kid thing to do, but
she'd always heard a lot by just being quiet

"Do the police definitely think it's a prowler?" Mark asked.
He sounded angry, though he never was. "That's why I told them
a 'don't-stray-from-the-group' story...."

"Your monster from ... what kind of Indian is 'Flaboongie'?"

"Schmohawk, Professor," said Mark. Both men laughed.

"For this, you had to study psychology?" asked Morris.

Grownups talked so much! What was this 'professor' busi-
ness? Morris was a teacher. It was always a problem to figure
out what they actually meant. She usually knew all the words

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they used, but sometimes she worried about how they used them,
even after she'd looked up the hard ones.

"They found the girl. She lives around here. She was more
scared than hurt, but do you want him touching one of our kids?
Aside from the damage to the child, think of the parents ..."

"What do you want me to do?" Mark asked.

"Keep 'em busy. Keep 'em out in the open and together. To-
morrow, maybe it'll rain. If it does, we go to the Unitarian
Church and there's no problem. If it doesn't, too bad it's not the
day we go to Packard Park in Warren. We'll have to go to the
tennis courts at Crandall Park. That's safe. For now."

Marty nodded to herself. They were making sense again. Usu-
ally, if you waited long enough, grownups did.

So all the Monster of Flaboongie meant was don't-go-with-
strangers. When you were carefully brought up, you already
knew that. You didn't talk to strangers (she'd had to tell that to
a man outside the Court House. He'd turned out to be a Judge-
call-him-Your-Honor and she'd been ashamed, but Daddy said
she'd done the right thing). You didn't take candy from them.
And you never never never went anywhere with them. Not into
cars. Or caves.

She set her lunch box softly down and went back to the clear-
ing. Most of the other campers had already run toward the soft-
ball field. Some of the girls hung back, looking as bored as she'd
be in a few minutes. Hmmmm, maybe -..

"I don't want to play ball," she announced to the other girls.
'They'll stick me in the outfield, and I'll never catch a ball.
Even if I do, they'll laugh and say I throw like a girl."

"That's silly," said Bern. "We are girls. But I want to stay
with Mark." She was almost whining. Sometimes she got like
that when she didn't get her way.

"I want to wade and climb the rocks, don't you?" Marty
asked.

"We're supposed to stay close," said the third girl, Lisa, who
didn't say much, ever.

"Well, if we all went, we'd be together, wouldn't we? Like
buddies in swimming?" Marty pointed out. A natural leader.
she'd heard a teacher call her. In-sti-ga-tor, she had also heard;

which didn't sound as nice. "We all know all about strangers. So
we stick together real close, and if we see anyone strange, we
can scream for help."

"I don't know," Lisa said. "The rocks are slishy. All that green
stuff. Moss. Whatever. Last time, I sat down in the water and had

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to wear my bathing suit home. Mom had to throw out my shorts.
She was really mad." Lisa's mouth turned up in a smile at the
memory. "I caught a lot of tadpoles."

She and Marty looked at Beth. If she said she wanted to go
play ball, she'd spoil it for the others. She knew that. She also
knew that if she tattled, no one would ever, ever tell her things
again. Lisa sighed.

"Okay," she said. "But I get to ask Mark if I can sit by him
going home."

She could ask. Asking was free. But it was Marty's turn, and
Mark knew that

The three girls headed for the pool. They sat and took off their
sneakers on a bank of what Mark had described as hair from the
Monster of Flaboongie. It was damp on Marty's backside.
Eeeuw.

The three girls waded in. Marty held a long stick. Maybe it
would help her not to fall.

"You look like you wet yourself," Beth said.

"Did not."

"Did too."

"Oh, come on," said Lisa- She gave Beth a shove, and she sat
down in the water. Her eyes widened as if she were going to cry.
Then she giggled.

"Let's all sit down in the water," she suggested. So they did.

Marty got up and headed toward the pile of rocks. Some were
cut and some weren't. Streams of water flowed down them and
swirled into smaller ponds like Uttle sinks. The mud between her
toes felt, like Lisa said, slishy. Like the bottom of Lake Erie,
only you could see through this water. Black tadpoles zipped by.
She wished she had a paper cup, but Mom would only make her
throw them out, and they would die.

Carefully, she started to climb the rocks. She'd never made it
to the top but maybe she could today. Behind her. Lisa and Beth
were talking as they splashed along. She knew they wouldn't
want to catch up. They'd be too scared.

She wasn't scared. Not of strangers, not of monsters, not of
anything as long as she was in this park. The old trees with their
leaves overhead like a princess* canopy bed made her feel safe-
When she was here, just hiking or learning to shoot a bow at a
target, or row a boat, she felt grown-up and strong. She wanted
to come to the M&S Day Camp every summer till she got to be
a Senior Camper. And then, maybe, if she ever grew up, maybe
she could be a counselor with a car and kids.

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She waded across a rock where the moss grew springy under-
foot toward another one that glinted in the sunlight. Under the
mud and the green slime, it was shining white, the biggest
luckystone in the world. She'd never be able to dig it up and
carry it home, the way you were supposed to when you found a
luckystone. And even if she did, what good would it be? There
probably weren't enough dimes in the world for the fairies to pay
for a luckystone that size.

Good campers had to try.

So Marty dug her stick in at the tucky stone's base and started
to push and dig it out of its bed. For a while, pushing and puffing
and panting and splashing filled her whole world.

Finally, the rock budged, and Marty rested, leaning on the
stick.

Splash ... splash, the girls were behind her over in that shad-
owy patch near where the caves were. They were making so
much racket they could forget it if they wanted to catch any fish
or tadpoles.

She turned to tell them that. And froze. Lisa and Beth weren't
standing there. It was a man. Her blood froze worse than her feet
in the water. A Stranger.

He had a beard and a dirty face. His clothes were torn, and he
had his hands out below his waist. In them ...

"What's that you've got?" Marty asked. "Is it a rabbit's foot?"

He started toward her, making a goony laughing sound.

She stamped her foot in the water, an angry splash. She hated
it when grown-ups didn't answer her questions. "What is that?"
she asked again.

Again, the laughter. She didn't like the way he laughed. She
didn't like the way he looked. His eyes were ftmny, bloodshot
and sort of flat.

"You're crazy," she told him. "Crazy!"

Her voice was louder than it should be when a kid talks to
grownups, especially if the kid is talking back. She knew Beth
and Lisa heard because they screamed, and she heard them fall-
ing and running, always screaming, toward the shore.

"Go 'way, you crazy, you," she said. She pulled her stick out
of the water and shook it at him.
He jumped forward and tried to pull the stick out of her hand.
Now Marty screamed. He was going to grab her and drag her
into that cave and then ... she didn't know what happened when
strangers dragged little girls into caves, but she knew it was Bad.
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If she tried to run, he'd tackle her and she'd drown. So she
had to face him.

"You go away!" she said, keeping the stick between them like
she'd seen in Robin Hood. Maybe she could knock him over, and
then she could run.

He grabbed for the stick again.

"No!" she shouted.

Then she screamed again. What looked like a wall of brown
fur dashed growling from the rocks between her and the Stran-
ger, grabbed him, and flung him like Manitou flung the Monster
of Flaboongie into the pond.

The Stranger belly-flopped. For a moment, Marty thought he
was dead. Then he crawled out of the water as fast as he could
and ran away.

The monster that had saved her turned to look at her. She let
her stick drop with a useless little splash. She looked at her hand
with its turquoise ring. It wasn't a real ring from outer space. If
it was, she'd have magic powers and could fight or get away.
Her hand, stupid ring and all, came up toward her mouth, the
baby way it did whenever she was going to cry. Her eyes blurred
and her nose ran—and the monster picked her up and carried her
into the cave.

The monster set Marty down on her feet inside the cave. She
got ready to run. You couldn't let monsters see how scared you
were. Then she forgot her fear and just stood there. For one
thing, she wasn't in a real cave. It was just two or three rocks
standing on end and hanging over each other. Light shone in
through the spaces between them, plenty of light to see that two
other monsters lived in the cave, and they were watching her
and, as best she could tell, giving her friendly monster smiles.

There was the great big monster who had brought her into the
cave—call it the papa monster. There was a middle-size monster,
a little rounder than the great big monster—a mama monster?
And, even though it was me size of a regular grown-up, half-
hiding beside its mother was the baby monster-

Marty had seen bears in the zoo. These were monsters,
though, not bears, and Marty wasn't Goldilocks. The biggest
monster had thrown the Stranger harder than any bear could.
They didn't have claws on their paws, hands, whatever, or she
would have felt them when the monster picked her up. And what
was strangest about all three monsters was their feet. They were
the biggest she had ever seen. If she set her daddy's shoes in a

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line, she'd need three or four shoes to be as long as one of the
biggest monster's feet.

Maybe they weren't monsters at all, but space people, Marty
thought. She only knew three words of space-people talk, and
maybe "Klaatu barada nikto" wouldn't mean anything to them if
different kinds of space people had different words for things
like Americans and Russians.

Marty raised one hand How the way they did on TV and
opened her mouth to try.... But the smallest bigfooted monster
came over and laid its hand over hers and stared at her. Just like
meeting new little kids at a birthday party. Marty looked at the
bigfoot child—the other child—and smiled.

Something in the cave changed. Grown-ups were grown-ups;

you could always tell if they were mad or scared or happy with
you. These acted like they had found a kid they'd lost in a park-
ing lot- Relieved. Or the way Marty's parents did when she used
a new big word: trying not to smile and hurt her feelings. Unlike
bears, which had little squinchy angry eyes, these monsters' eyes
were gray and calm: they were smart, the idea came to her.

Voices touched inside her mind. Marty jumped a little. The lit-
tle bigfoot holding her hand let out a squeak and backed off to-
ward its mommy. She looked up at the gray eyes and knew the
voices came from inside the bigfoots' heads.

<Child, do not be .. •>

<She has no fear ... how remarkable! Is she the same type of
creature as the others?>

<Amusement—sometimes they wonder.>

<She likes us, wants to know us. Can't we .. •>

<Confusion>

<The mama bigfoot looking over at the daddy ... doubr>

<You know we must stay hidden. Only I could not let harm
come to a human child any more than to you and ... the
thought-word didn't make sense. Maybe it was a name.>

<I will get our things. We must leave tonight.>

<Whine ... but I wanted to play with her!>

Marty wanted to play with the monster kid. With feet like that,
she'd bet he'd never fall down in the water. And maybe he could
catch better fish than any of the campers. The boys could show
him how to hit a ball, but she could show him the swings and
merry-go-round and maybe bring him home for dinner. She
couldn't wait to show these .... they were people ... to her par-
ents. Daddy gave her books about bigfoots and spacemen. He
would know how to talk to them. Lawyers could talk to anybody.

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<I am sorry, child. We cannot leave the forest.>

<Sense of love for the forest, wrapping out like green light,
shining in the cave, reaching out to touch her like a hug>

Yes, Marty thought. Oh, yes.

She smiled her best smile at the bigfoot family and tried to
make her thoughts real clear. Couldn't you stay? You could live
here, and he could go to school with us. And we'd be friends.

The mother bigfoot shook her long mane and turned away.
The young one darted to a rock, sat down, and pushed at it. The
biggest bigfoot—and his feet were huge—came over and
dropped down so his eyes could look into hers.

<We are pilgrims looking for our own place, our own people.
But your forest was so beautiful we stopped here for a while ...
you would say "vacation. ">

<So now we have to go, or your people will hunt us down.>

Marty blinked. Pilgrims wore gray and black with big hats.
They carried muskets and you drew them in November.

They gave her a great idea. "/ know!" she cried before she re-
membered to think instead. "You're hunting for religious free-
dom. Aren't you?"

She reached into her blouse and pulled out the tiny gold Star
of David her mommy gave her two years ago. "My people came
here. Couldn't you be our neighbors? This is a good place."

<No, dear one. We must find our own.>

The other child was holding out something to her. She held
out her hand and felt him put something into it. It was warm
from fee monster's hand and it felt smooth, except where it had
been cut. It was a tiny statue with such a friendly happy look on
its hairy face that maybe it was a holy statue like the kids at St.
Edwards got to have. If you wore a Jewish star, you couldn't
have a statue. But it would be mean not to trade for it. Monster
or not, he was a real nice kid, and Marty knew his people
worked hard to bring him up right.

She took off the star and held it out. The strange kid's eyes lit
up, and he smiled.

And the monster mommy and daddy spoke over the children's
heads, just like real grownups.

<If he's found, carrying gold .. .>

<How can we refuse to let her give a gift?>

<Worry. Sadness. It does not matter. She will have to forget.
And we will keep voice/name sound safe with us when we go->
<We must go now! Fear/pictures of dogs, police, guns. Do
you hear them shouting outside? Soon, they will come .. ->

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The mother went to the mouth of the cave. <Don't hurt her->

"I don't want to forget!" Marty let her voice rise, though that
was bad manners. TV had a word for what the monsters planned
to make her have. Am-nes-ia. You were hit on the head, and they
found you. You woke up in the hospital and didn't remember.

The papa bigfoot put his hands ... paws ... whatever—they
were big, too—on her shoulders. He smelled like a wet dog. She
loved dogs, which should have made her feel safe; but remember
that they are animals, Dr. Thomas said. He raised them, so he
knew.

<Do you really think I'd hurt you?>

Marty shook her head.

<Sometimes we have to do things we don't like.> He looked
over at his boy like Daddy looked when he kissed her good
night.

<The way your parents would to keep you safe. I never broke
a promise to him, and I won't break my word to you. I promise
I won't hurt you->

<The child's people get closer. Hurry !>

He was asking, not telling, not making Marty do anything; and
she knew that, big as he was, he was getting scareder the longer
he waited.

"Let me say good-bye first."

<Quickly.>

He waved his son over. He wore her star on his wrist because
he was too big to wear it round his neck.

"Sorry, I can't keep this," Marty told him and handed him
back the statue.

<We'll hide it. One day, we'll come and dig it up.>

She watched him set the statue in a little hollow in the rock.
Its big feet didn't quite stick out.

<Now, the star, too .. .>

<wait>

<Don't whine.>

So, the bright star followed the ivory statue. He set a flat rock
gently on top of them, then laid a bigger rock on that. She had
seen hiding places like this on Spin and Marty. They were called
caches. Even if the monster daddy said he'd make her forget,
Marty'd remember. She always did. She even remembered in the
doctor's office when he put the mask over her face and she woke
up with her tonsils out.

She turned to meet the eldest bigfoot's eyes. "I'm ready," she

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said. Then, what felt like the doctor's mask came down over her
face,

Marty started to forget.

Sun slanted down on her face. The water below her rippled
and flowed, making Marty feel like she really ought to get up
and go to the bathroom. Scared voices shouted her name over the
water.

She pushed herself up. She must have fallen asleep here at the
mouth of the cave. From how the sun shone, she knew it was
late afternoon. Funny. She didn't remember climbing this far.
She'd have to be careful climbing down, but she'd have to hurry,
too- Mark would be looking for her in the parking lot by the car
so they could drive home.

"Marty! Marty!" That was Mark's voice. She heard Morns'
voice too. It was deeper, furrier-sounding; and it reminded her
of...

"I'm here! I'm coming!" she shouted as loud as she could
over the water.

"Thank God, we've found her!" Grown-ups always said you
weren't supposed to say "thank God," and then they always said
it. Mark came up the rocks, two, three boulders at a time, fol-
lowed by Morris. She ran forward to meet them—why did they
look so scared?—and hug them, but they dropped back.

"It's okay, sweetheart. We'll get Sophie to come take care of
you. You don't have to be afraid."

She wasn't afraid, except they were acting strange. Strange ...
there had been a Stranger. That was right.

"Sophie!" Morris yelled. "Get up here!"

Faster than Marty would have believed a brown berry like
Sophie could move, she had clambered up the rocks and was
holding Marty. Sophie's arms were cold where the water
splashed them, but they felt good.

"Listen, sweetie, we've got you safe. We've been worried for
you, going off like that. Beth and Lisa said they saw a stranger.
Did you see him, too?"

Marty nodded. Sophie shut her eyes like she was going to cry.

"Can you tell me what happened?"

"He had a rabbit's foot, and he was waving it." Again, Sophie
shut her eyes. She pulled Marty's head against her shoulder, but
not before she saw Mark and Morris look at each other, then
look down. They growled, that was the only way to describe it.

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Marty frowned. Someone else had growled, but it wasn't the
Stranger. She was sure of that. If of nothing else ...

"It's okay, Marty. Now, be brave and tell me, darling," Sophie
was having a hard time getting the words out, "did this bad man
touch you?"

Marty shook her head against Sophie. "I yelled at him. I had
this stick and I shook it, and he went away."

Sophie let Marty pull free, though she kept hands on her
shoulders as she looked her up and down. "Morris, you round upthe 
other kids. Don't let them see the sheriff."

"Oh, God," said Morris, and started back down the falls.

"Yes, we've got her safe!" he shouted as he went.

Oh, no. She had Wandered Away. She had been Lost.

"Am I in trouble?" she asked.

Again, Sophie hugged her. Her shoulder shook. "No," she
said. "You're a good, brave little girl, and we're going to take
you home right now."

And so Marty sat on a towel beside Sophie all the way home,
while Lisa got to ride with Mark, which wasn't fair.

For once. Mom and Daddy didn't make her change her
messed-up clothes in the back yard by the hose. She had a bath,
and Mom sat with her while she was in it, while Daddy and
Moms (whose car squealed into the drive in a way that could get
him a ticket) made phone calls.

"Doc, I know you're retired and don't make housecalls," Dad-
dy's voice sounded the way it did at three in the morning when
someone called because a big truck crashed on the highway.
"But no one knows her better and can make sure she gets
through this without permanent damage. Please? Thank God. I'll
get out the Scotch."

Why did she have to see Dr. Thomas? She wasn't sick. She
asked Mommy. Her eyes had the look that Sophie's had when
she said she'd seen the Stranger. Then Mommy cried. Marty had
only seen her mother cry once, when the radio said something
about a man named Salk. (Later, it had been Marty's turn to cry
when she saw the gleaming needles, and one pinched her arm.)

"I got through to Paul Cress at home."

"You called the chief of police," that was Morris.

"Sure. He's an old friend. Look, I know it's not your fault,
Slavin. In fact, your people probably helped her toughen up just
enough ... anyway. Cress's got his boys turning over every rock
in Mill Creek Park to see what's under them. And as soon as
Doc Thomas gets here, I'm going ..."

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Mom went to the door of the bathroom. "Oh, no, you're not!
Not if I have to hide that damn gun of yours myself."

Dad laughed. "You'd actually pick it up?"

There was a pause. Marty knew her mother was giving Daddy
a Look.

"Martha needs her father here with her. And I have to get back
to her now. You calm down."

Mother came and got her, and put her into bed even though it
was still daytime. Marty thought of telling her that, but she
didn't really want to get a Look either.

"I think that's Thomas' car in the drive," her father said. "Her
old pediatrician. Retired to breed Dobermans, for crying out
loud. Christ, will you look at the monster he's got with him?"

Marty was glad to see Dr. Thomas, even though he wouldn't
bring his dog—it was a dog, and not a real monster—in the
house. (Mom looked relieved.) He pulled her nightgown up,
looked over her, tickled her ribs with his stethoscope, then cov-
ered her back up.

"You're fine," he told her, then looked up at her parents and
nodded.

"Can I go back to camp tomorrow?" Marty asked.

"Honey, you wouldn't rather stay home and read? We could
go to the library and get some new books."

Marty shook her head. "I bet it's going to be nice tomorrow.
And I want to go back to the Park. I love the Park, all the trees.
You feel so safe in the forest."

"Maybe Monday," said Dr. Thomas. "I think once Marty's
over her chill—" he came down hard on the word like it was im-
portant, "—it's a very good idea for her to enjoy her friends and
camp again. But now, I think she ought to try to nap until
supper's ready."

He pulled the ruffly curtains and took her parents out of her
room with him. She watched the sun try to sneak through cracks
in the blinds while Dr. Thomas's voice made kind of happy
growls about "resilient" (she would look that up tomorrow) and
"amnesia" (she knew that one already) and "I can't tel! for sure
until I do an internal, but ..."

"Hasn't she been through enough?" Her mother cried out at
uiat. "As long as she's all right now ,.."

"That's your decision. Just don't make it worse by keeping her
inside. All she needs is people thinking she's some sort of mon-
ster. She's not. She's a beautiful, brave, little girl, and she was
very lucky."

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She heard the glug-glug-glug of Scotch. "Here, you drink this
too," Daddy said. Mommy hated Scotch.

On Monday, the kids at camp looked at Marty tunny, but that
was the day they went to Zedakers to ride, and they forgot. Ex-
cept for one thing. They didn't go back to the forest for weeks
and weeks. And Mark didn't tell any stories the rest of the sum-
mer.

Something did change that summer. By fall, Marty was Mar-
tha once again. If anything, she was being brought up even more
carefully than before. After all, Pushing her might make her a
brain, but it would keep her safe indoors. Marty/Martha the girl
was different. She had gone all quiet again. Granted, she wasn't
so quiet that she didn't lead her class when she didn't have better
things to do. But those things never again included summer
camp.

And she grew up into Martha Chamey, Ph.D. in psychology.
Dimly, she remembered that Mark had studied to be a psychol-
ogist so long ago. She wondered if he ever made it all the way
through. He enjoyed just living too much, and it had been Dr.
Chamey's experience that students like that tended to avoid the
really demanding programs. She, of course, had sought them out
and mastered them. Distinction was what she'd gotten instead of
the sunlit world in which Mark swung a bat while all the camp-
ers cheered. He was back there in those memories Martha
thought of as being walled off from her emotions by a kind of
psychic plexiglass (now, that was bad terminology). And her
emotions were walled off from the rest of her. She had her com-
pensations, of course: but the thing about compensations was that
they never quite succeeded.

At least, she had them. She had her sanity. And she had her
life. Her parents had been so afraid and taken such pains after
that season of summer camp to keep her safe.

Dr. Martha Chamey steered the rented car down the twisting
narrow road into the green well of Mill Creek Park. Budget cuts
in the Rust Belt town had deferred maintenance on the park. The
road was cracked, and faded by summers of baking, winters of
freezing, until it crumbled into as much a part of the woods asthe 
leaf-mold that half-covered it.

She had been away for so long; it surprised her that she could
be grieved by the neglect she saw. After all, she had seen a mon-
ster in the Park.

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Old growth the Park definitely was: maybe even first-growth
forest. It was old; it was peaceful; but it was not quiet. She had
turned off the air conditioner and rolled down the window so she
could hear the leaves rustle, the song of birds way up in the can-
opy, the distant rush of water, the occasional crack of a stick as
some hiker or deer moved before it thought.

Light slanted through the arching trees just as it had when she
was a girl, and if leaves and moss covered the split-oak rails of
the tiny bridges over which her car rattled, that only made the
park quieter, wilder-seeming. The tension ache that had ridden
her shoulders since college had already subsided. She was home.
Something stirred behind the barriers she had set up between her
and memory. Oh, she had been right as a child to love this forest.
Maybe she could recapture even a crumb of the old love, the old
freedom from before she started to push herself.

Because she had been right about a lot of things, she had come
home to see if she had been right about the main things, too. The
serious, sturdy, and curious girl had become a serious, sturdy,
and curious woman—and a shadowed one. In recent months,
though, she had grown weary of shadows. She had been troubled
by dreams, fragments of memories—the "Stranger" who had ex-
posed himself to her and whom she had driven off by a combi-
nation of luck and guts that made Martha, fully grown, break
into a cold sweat; the cave by the water; even flashes of some-
thing large, something furry. A Jungian could have published a
book on that.

Fragmentary memories returning—had she really been abused,
and were the memories only now coming back to her? They
came back when you were strong enough to face them. That
would mean she had even a greater fear to face: had the people
who loved her most tied to her?

She knew the child Marty's promise for joy had not been ful-
filled in the woman she had become. But all her life, at least, she
had prided herself on her honesty. What if everything she had
grown up to accomplish had been based upon a lie?

That was enough to wake her at 4:00 a.m. But the student and
the psychologist in her knew she had to find out—and there was
still that damnable honesty of hers.

It was not, and had never been, a particularly popular trait. Her
old neighbors here? "You turned out good; leave well enough
alone, not that you ever could." Or "that silly mess? I'm sur-
prised you still remember. Oh, well, I suppose you would."

That kindly fog might be adequate for them, but not for her.

308 Sue an Snwartz

She didn't remember, at least not clearly enough. That was the
problem. They didn't understand. But then, they never had.

As she drove deeper into the park, the reassurance she had al-
ways felt in the ancient wood reached out to her. A rabbit dashed
across the road, and she slowed, just in case.

Another turn. Even thirty years later, Slippery Rock was famil-
iar to her: the blackened wood of the old pavilion, the musty fire-
place, even the reek of sulfur water from the pump.

Beyond shone the pool, serene at the shore, but sparkling
higher up, where water still poured over the tumbled rocks,
where, please God, it would pour forever. She parked and locked
the car and headed for the rocks. Her eyes traced their shapes,
trying to recall the cave in which, thirty years ago, she had hid-
den from what, even now, she called the Stranger.

Was she really going to climb the waterfall again? She was
older now, much older. Her tolerance for the squishy and slimy
was way down; and if she didn't get tetanus from something on
the rocks, she'd probably get hepatitis from the water. And what
if another Stranger had made the cave his lair?

You're lying to yourself. Mart, she told herself. She was gut-scared 
to go in there, to confront her memories—or the lack of
them. But if she didn't face them, how would she ever face her
patients? If you can't do it for yourself, do it for your career.

With her usual skewed thoroughness, she had prepared for her
ordeal. ("You're nuts" she'd been told, but she remembered
her day camp training enough to want to be Prepared. So she had
her pocket phone and her Capstun, illegal as it was, tucked in a
fanny pack. Her Swiss army knife, the one with all the blades.
No pistol, though she'd been tempted: bullets ricocheted on
rocks. And, just for old time's sake, she'd pick up a big stick.
After all, it had worked the last time. Are you really enjoying
this? she accused herself.

It was a nice, tidy arsenal, but she'd have traded all her arma-
ment for her old "utility ring" from outer space.

Martha walked to the pond, still bordered with moss and long
pallid tendrils that an unfortunate exposure to college botany
helped her to recognize as exposed roots. The mud was reddish
brown. There was iron in the soil here, iron throughout the Ma-
honing and Shenango valleys where the burning open hearths of
the great steel mills, after more than a century of wealth, had fi-
nally been quenched.

Nevertheless, right now, the "hairy stuff" and the reddish mud
were the hair and blood of that bogey Mark had scared them

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with the summer that she was Marty and free, for the last time
in her life: The Monster of Flaboongie. She hadn't thought of
that for years either.

From the softball field near the pavilion shrill voices rose. Still
playing ball, were they? Bless them. She waved. Good: they
would remember seeing her. If only she could piay with them;

but she had never been that good a player.

She waded into the water and toward the first line of rocks.
Water swirled over and around them. The rock glowed gold and
green as the sun pierced the water and struck the stone beneath
Black tadpoles and a few fish fled her ankles.

She planted feet and stick carefully. Up to the next level, then
to the slippery rocks of the next. This is really stupid and dan-
gerous, the grown-up in her mind told her. Nonsense, she told it
back. I'd have to pay to do this in the Rockies. And they'd praise
me for surviving Outward Bound.

Up ahead loomed the cave—or was that really the cave she re-
membered? The rocks didn't seem to slant over the same way,
and the opening they framed was dauntily black. She fumbled in
her pouch for her flashlight, which could double as a club.

She tucked the light between her teeth as she started up the
last course of rocks. Now she hung on with her hands as the wa-
ter poured over them at about the strength of a really good
shower. Despite herself, Martha laughed.

Water splashed in her face. She jerked her head back. For an
instant, as she blinked, a memory returned: she had not climbed
this high. She had been carried.

Her stomach chilled. So the Stranger had caught her after all.
What then? Had he carried her to the cave. and then . -.

She didn't have to know. She could turn around and go back
right now.

And then she would never know, except that she would know
one thing: she had countenanced a lie about herself.

You don't have to think the worst. Not yet. But if you were
carried, it explains how the rocks look different from here than
from below.

Despite the chill of the water, sweat streaked her sides and
face as she pulled herself from the water onto the rock platform
leading to the cave. She wouldn't have to bend over to get in.
That was right. They hadn't had to, and they were tall.

Had there been more than one Stranger, then?

Something splashed behind her. Martha thrust out with the

310 Susan Shwartz

stick, jumped, and scuttled forward. Before she knew it, she had
taken refuge in the cave, her heart pounding.

Her flashlight glowed on a broken bottle, but only one. Why.
it wasn't bad in here after all. No old condoms or needles, noth-
ing but a little mud, some rocks—her knees suddenly went limp,
and she sank down on a rock so well-placed you'd think some-
one set it there on purpose.

She stretched out a little and played the light about the cave.
Her own shadow loomed up, huge with huge feet.

She blinked, and memory flashed across her thoughts once
more me way light and darkness flash together when film breaks
in a movie camera. Huge feet. Big feet.

It wasn't the Stranger who had brought her here at all. It was
someone else. Someone with huge feet- Big feet.

Bigfoot. Sasquatch, though she thought they all lived in the
Northwest.

Apparently not. This one had thrown the man across the pool
and brought her to this ... this refuge. How could she have for-
gotten?

Easy, if she were made to forget <She will have to forget>
Just as clearly as when she was a child, memory produced the
voice that had spoken in her thoughts. <Do you think I would
hurt you?>

Bigfoot had saved her, at considerable risk to himself—and to
his family. There had, she remembered now, been three of them.
Like Goldilocks. If she'd been fearful, so had they. Not, of
course, of the child she'd been, but of the fate a missing child
could bring upon them. So they had fled a wood that they, too,
loved. She hoped they'd made their way up North and found oth-
ers of their own kind-
Martha laughed, surprised at the heart's ease she felt. Despite
the darkness, this cave held only peace. And memory.

How can you be sure?

Little Bigfoot Baby sasquatch. The child she'd been had liked
the bigfoot child. Had traded gifts with him, gifts neither was al-
lowed to keep. H" she could find those gifts ...

Think back, Martha. Think back.

A hollow in the ground. A flat rock. A heavy rock. She trained
her flashlight on the ground. Ahhhhh. There! She was down
upon her knees before she knew it. Her adult strength made
heavy work of what a Bigfoot child had accomplished with ease,
and she pushed the upper rock away. Yes! There was the flat
rock. The bigfoot child had laid it over the treasures two children

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gave each other, treasures too dangerous to let them keep In all
those years, the rocks had not been disturbed.

Use the stick, idiot. No telling what else might lie beneath that
rock.

She poked the rock aside. A worm slid out. "Eeeuw," said Dr.
Martha Chamey.

And then she bent closer, shining her light on what she saw;

an ivory statue, like an ancient chesspiece or something
prehistoric—Sasquatch in miniature. And, placed lovingly beside
it, the tiny Jewish star her parents thought she'd lost as she fled
the Stranger.

<We'U hide it. One of these days, we'll come back and dig it
up.>

Tears flowed down her face, making the star twinkle in her
grimy hand. She had, she had returned and dug the treasure up,
but she could never, ever tell the friend whose dad had saved her
from the Stranger.

Unless, of course, she turned into one of those people who
stalked the trails for Sasquatch: some kind of nut. There were
enough nuts in the world; certainly, in saving her, the Bigfoot
dad hadn't meant her to grow up that way. She had been very
carefully brought up, just like his son. Too much so. The cau-
tious creature she had become was never worth the risk they
took. Perhaps, if she had remembered ...

Oh, she did remember now. They'd risked breaking out of hid-
ing to protect her, and all they really wanted was to be left alone.
Nice people, she thought. Decent people she'd have been glad to
have for neighbors. So she would keep this old cache safe and go
away quietly. But she remembered now, and she would do what
neighbors did: she'd repay them.

They had saved her. The least she could do was leave them in
peace. It was the neighborly thing to do. The star she carried glit-
tered. Before she left the cave, she put it around her neck.

/ hope you found the peace you wanted, she thought across the
years. / hope you found it too.

The Memory 01 Peace

by Kate Ellhtt

Kate Eliiott is the author of the novels of the Jaran, in-
cluding Jaran and The Law of Becoming. Upcoming nov-
els include The Golden Key, a fantasy co-authored with
Melanie Pawn and Jennifer Roberson. Dragon's Heart, the
first volume of the fantasy trilogy Crown of Stars, will be
out next year.

Spring came, and with it, clear skies, clear days, and a clear view
of the ruins of Trient falling and rising along the hills in a stark
curve. Smoke rose near the central market square from a fresh
fire sown by the guns of the Marrazzano mercenaries. Jontano
crouched next to the sheltering bulk of a fallen column and
watched the smoke drift lazily up and up past the wall of green-
ing forest that ringed the city and farther up still into the endless
blue of the heavens.

When it was quiet, as it was now, he could almost imagine
himself as that smoke, dissipating, dissolving into the air,

"Hsst, Jono, look what I found!"

He jumped, caught himself, and managed to look unsurprised
when Stepha ran, hunched over, through the maze of the fallen
temple and flung herself down next to him. She undid the strings
of her pack.

"You've never seen things like this!"

But Stepha always bragged. Jontano wasn't impressed by the
pickings: an empty glass jar, six painted playing cards, a slender
book with crisped edges but no writing on its leather cover, a

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length of fancy silver ribbon, four long red feathers, and ten col-
ored marbles.

"That won't buy much flour," he retorted. "Where'd you find
this?"

"You're just jealous I went by myself. It all came from the
Apothecary's Shop, the one midway down Murderer's Row."

"You idiot! Not one thing here is worth risking your life for."
Murderer's Row had once been known as Prince Walafrid Bou-
levard, but no one called it that now, since the entire Boulevard
was well within reach of the cannon and, at me farthest end, the
muskets of the Marrazzanos.

"Everyone said Old Aldo was a witch. Maybe these have
some power."

"Ha! If he was a witch, then why couldn't he spare his own
shop and his own life?" But the cards were pretty. Jontano
picked one up even though he didn't want Stepha to think he ad-
mired her foolhardy courage.

"No one saw him dead. He could still be alive." Her expres-
sion turned sly, and she lowered her voice for dramatic effect. "I
heard a noise, like rats, when I was in the shop. Maybe he was
hiding from me. Everything was all turned over and broken, ex-
cept for that old painting of the forest that hangs behind the
counter. It was the strangest thing, with the hole in the roof and
all, but it still hung there, as if it hadn't been disturbed at all. Not
even wet."

"Here, this isn't wet either," he said, showing her the face of
the card, "and it has a forest painted on it."

"You are jealous! Ha!" But she examined the card with him.

The colors were as fresh as if they had just been painted onto
the card: the pale green buds of spring leaves, the thin parchment
bark of birches, die scaly gray skin of tulip trees and the denser
brown bark of fir, a few dots of color, violet and gold and a deep
purpling blue, marked clumps of forest flowers along the ground.

'1 don't see how anyone could paint things so tiny," said
Stepha.

They use a brush with a single bristle. Don't you know any-
thing?"

Before she could reply, the sky exploded. They both ducked
instinctively. Cannon boomed. A nearby house caved in- A wail-
ing rose up into the air, the alarm, and farther away, smoke rose
from newly-shattered buildings.

Stepha shoveled her treasures into the bag and scuttled down
me hill, dodging this way and that. Jono, still clutching the card,

314 Kate Elliott

ran after her, not bothering to bend over. Not even the famous
Marrazzanos could aim well enough to hit them here, as far
away as they were from the lines, but if a ball or shot happened
to land close by, then it scarcely mattered whether you were bent
in two or running straight up like a man.

He caught up to Stepha just as a great crash sounded from the
ruins behind and a column fell, smashing onto the hollow where
they had just sheltered. Shards flew. Stepha grunted in pain, and
Jontano felt a spray like a hundred bees stinging along his back.

As they darted into the safety of an alley, a double round of
shot hit what remained of the roof of the old temple. It caved in
with a resounding roar. Dust poured up in the sky in a roiling
brown cloud. Then they turned a Corner, and another, and ran
through the back alleys and barricaded streets, strewn with burnt-
out buildings, fallen walls, and an endless parade of little ref-
uges, shelters built from bricks and pianks salvaged from once
beautiful houses. In some of those tiny refuges people lived, but
most simply served as a hiding place to any man, woman, or
child caught outside when a bombardment began.

By the time they got back to their house, in the relative safety
of the north central quarter of the city, Jontano could feel tickling
fingers of blood running down his back. Stepha was limping.

They burst in through the gate and, panting, walked past the
newly-planted vegetable garden. Once Mama had grown flowers
here, and it had been a lovely place in the spring and summer;

she and Papa had entertained guests and laughed and talked and
sung to all hours of the night while the children watched from
the windows above, faces pressed to the glass. But that had been
a long, long time ago. Now most of the windows were covered
with boards and the flower garden had been transplanted to veg-
etables.

Great-Uncle Otto was standing guard over the well. He looked
them over with disgust Stepha yelped when he probed her thigh
with his fingers, and Jontano saw a gaping red wound where she
had been hit with shrapnel.

"Now your mother will have to sew these clothes up," he said,
looking angry as he examined the back of Jontano's shirt.
Jontano knew it ought to hurt, but he felt as if Otto's hands
probed someone eise's body, not his. "There's little enough
thread to be had," Otto went on. "Nor do I hold with those who
go looting shops. We might as well fall into the hands of the
Marrazzanos as become looters ourselves. Look what barbarians
this war has made of us and our children!"

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Stepha, brave enough up until now, began to snivel. Otto
spared her not one sympathetic word and turned his black gaze
'' on Jontano, who squirmed.

"You'll be old enough to go into the militia next year, but I
suppose next you'll be saying you'd rather prey on the dead than
honor those who have died before you by behaving as a man
ought, taking up arms and fighting nobly."

Jontano snorted. "I don't know what's so noble about righting
against cannon and musket with wooden staves and butcher's
knives."

Otto slapped him. "I won't say a word against your sainted
mother, who has suffered enough, but her mother and her moth-
'   er's mother were Marrazzanos, and I can see their dirty blood
has tainted you."

"What do I care about Trassahar and Marrazzano? I wish I had
no blood of either kind! All we do is fight and die. What's the
point of that?" Jontano could not help but shout the words. His
throat tightened with the familiar lump. "I'd just like to grow up
to be a painter like Papa was."

Otto swung his musket around threateningly, but in me next
instant he said in a low voice, "Get inside."

Stepha bolted in. Jontano followed her, but just as he crossed
the threshold he heard a shot fired, then silence. He turned.

Great-Uncle Otto staggered and dropped me musket, left hand
clutching his chest. Jontano ran out to him, shoved him aside to
get at the musket, and raised it just in time to stare down the
-^  muzzle at a ragged band of men and women, armed with a 
single
musket and several buckets.

"Give us water," said one of the women. She was filthy,
skinny, and her hands and arms were a mass of red sores. Beside
her, an emanciated man reloaded the musket.

Shaking, Jontano stared mem down. but by that time Mama
appeared in the door with the pistol and Uncle Martin leaned out
of the second-story window, his musket propped on the
flowerbox, pushing aside the leafy stems of carrots. He had no
legs now, but he had once been a sniper in the militia.

The ragged band retreated. Mama stuck the pistol in her belt
j,  and hurried out. With Aunt Martina's help she carried Otto in-
side, leaving Jontano on guard while Uncle Martin dragged him-
self down the stairs and together with the two women treated
Otto's wound.

It took Otto five days to die, and because of that, everyone
was too busy to scold Stepha for looting along Murderer's Row.

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Kate Elliott

"Why shouldn't I?" she whispered to Jontano in the bed they
shared with the two surviving youngest cousins, who were
asleep. "Why should I care if I get killed, anyway? The
Marrazzanos will never leave- And even if they did, I don't have
any friends left, and no Trassahar boy will ever want to marry
me because I'm just a Marrazzano whore."

They had saved the stub of a candle and they lit it now, while
the house was quiet. Great-Uncle Otto's body lay in state in the
parlor, until the burial tomorrow. He was the last but one of his
branch of the family, having lost wife, sons, and all but one of
his grandchildren to the war. He and his surviving daughter-in-
taw had fled to the city three years ago after their village had
been razed, but she had died of a fever last winter, and now only
little Judit remained, snoring softly beside Jontano.

Stepha played with the marbles, turning them round so that
highlights of bright color caught and winked in the light, yet
Jontano could not help but be drawn to the cards once more.
They were shaped like playing cards, made of stiff cardboard cut
into rectangles as large as his hands, but they were like no deck
he had ever seen. A plain hatched pattern of black and white was
printed on the backs. The front of each card looked as if it had
been painted lovingly by a gifted hand. He spread the deck out
to examine them.

A crane stands on one leg in a pool, its form silhouetted in a
sunset of red and gold.

A fetid marsh stretches to the horizon, marked by small hum-
mocks and a few twisted old trees.

The restless sea, infinite, surges and swells, without any sign
of the safe harbor of land.

A blindfolded woman dressed in a shift runs through a dark
forest. Spiders and strange, unsightly creatures peer at her from
the branches. As she runs, unseeing, she is stepping on a snake.

Two birch trees bend, their highest branches intertwining so
that they form an arch, that leads ... but here the artist had de-
picted a haze of golden sunlight in which Jontano could make
out only a suggestion, of Trient, perhaps, a golden city where
once Trassaharin and Marrazzano lived in peace, together.

And the spring forest, his favorite, the one he never tired of
looking at.

As he ran his fingers over the painted surface, he could almost
feel the touch of the painter's brush, as if by concentrating hard
enough he could become the painter painting the card, as if he
could see through the painter's eyes the act of creation, the

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grinding of the paint, the careful preparation of the brushes and
the backing, each brushstroke, each spot of color laid on with ex-
^ act care.

When he touched the pale green buds of the spring forest, he
could feel himself walking there along the path which wound
through the wood, darting this way and that through clumps of
goldenrod and violets. It sloped down, then crossed a narrow
river and ascended a hillside. He walked up. Loam gave under
his boots. Wind brushed his face, bringing the scents of the dense
forest to him. He heard the rustle of birds above and the little
scrabblings of rodents below. A spare outcropping of rock thrust
from among the trees. He scrambled up onto it and, turning, saw
the land below him, curved like a bowl, filling the graceful little
valley with trees and emerald meadows. Suddenly he realized
this was Trient—but Trient without the city, without the fighting,
at peace, in the quiet of a spring morning.

A crash tore him out of the forest.

He lay in the crowded bed, frozen, feeling Stepha snoring
against him—she always had a cold—and listened to the pound
of me Marrazzano cannon. They had launched a night attack.
Little Judit woke up and began to cry.

Jontano stuffed the cards into his worn but clean pillowcase
and gathered the little girl into his arms. After a while she fell
asleep, and he did as well, though the cannon boomed intermit-
tently and once an explosion sounded very near them. What did
it matter if they were killed in their sleep? At least it would spare
them the agony of dying. So he slept, and dreamed of the spring
forest-

At dawn as he and Judit walked hand-in-hand to the old cen-
tral park that was now the main cemetery—all the other grave-
yards being full—the little girl tugged on him until he leaned
down to hear her whisper.

"I dreamed that I was in heaven with Grandpa. It was all the
prettiest forest, and a red and yellow bird sat on my fingers. And
there were flowers."

Aunt Martina and Cousin Gregor carried the body wrapped in
the most threadbare sheet, the only one they could spare for
burial. Uncle Martin, ever quick to see the twisted humor in any
situation, had waved good-bye to them where he sat on guard in
tile one unbearded upstairs window and then shouted after: "See,
it'll be the last burial in this house—we've got no more sheets to
spare!"

They paid the gravediggers three coppers and stood by while

318 Kate Elliott

a hole was dug next to the others in their family. Jontano led
Judit to each wooden cross in turn, Stepha following at his heels:

Papa's grave, the oldest .one diere, Jono's two brothers and one
sister, Baby Lucia, cousins, an aunt, and uncles. More men than
women, because the men all went to the militia, as Cousin
Gregor would go next month when he turned fifteen, as Jontano
himself would go next year.

Stepha stared at the graves, dry-eyed- Her parents weren't
here. Their graves lay on the other side of the lines, and every-
one knew that at least one of her brothers fought in the
Marrazzano army, but Mama had taken the girl in because she
and Stepha's mother were first cousins, and no woman with even
a trace of Trassahar blood in her was safe on the Marrazzano
side.

It was another clear day. For once the Marrazzanos weren't
shelling Trient. One of the cousins had died while burying his
own father. They buried Great-Uncle Otto without much cere-
mony, and Mama decorated the grave with a few shoots from his
beloved potato plants. Here and there on the overgrown grass
that was all that was left of the once-manicured park, other fam-
ilies stood, burying a newly-lost relative. Dogs nosed at fresh
dirt. The gravediggers threw stones at them.

"This park used to be so lovely," said Mama to Aunt Martina
as they walked back. The silence lay heavily on them, it was so
unusual. "Do you remember?"

"All the trees," said Aunt Martina in her hoarse voice. "I re-
member all the trees."

Not one was left, of course, not even the stumps, all cut down
and dug out for firewood. Jontano remembered the trees 
vaguely,too, from picnics, from running down by the lake, from 
Papa's
canvases and sketches, flowering tulip trees, elm trees, beech,
oaks and birches, ash and aspen, cherry with its spring blossoms
and apple and pear.

"It alt used to be trees," he said suddenly, and Mama looked
at him questioningly. 'Trient. The city. Before the city was here
it all used to be trees, one great forest. And it was quiet. It was
peaceful then."

Aunt Martina snorted. "Except for the wolves howling at
night. There are always wolves, Jono. Don't forget them."

"I'd like to be a wolf," said Stepha, "and rip out the throats
of my enemies."

Little Judit burst into tears.

"You've scared her, Stepha," snapped Aunt Martina. "I

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shouldn't have to remind you, but I'll whip you if I've found you
went out prowling around Murderer's Row again."

Now Stepha began to cry as well, so they looked properly like
mourners as they came home empty-handed.

The house was quiet when they got back. Uncle Martin sat on
his chair, elbows and musket propped in the window, and
smoked a pipe.

"Where'd you get that tobacco, you good for nothing?"
scolded Aunt Martina. "Did you sell the rest of my silver forks?"

Uncle Martin merely grinned at her and flourished the pipe.
He had a network of old friends. Once a week they carted him
off to a mysterious place in town where only men from the mi-
litia were allowed to congregate. When Uncle Martin came home
from these jaunts, he always had a new piece of news from the
front, and occasionally a trinket for the children or some luxury
item for the women—yam, lamp oil, a piece of fruit, once a pair
of good shoes that, with a bit of paper stuffed in the toes, fit
Aunt Martina perfectly.

Aunt Martina called him a few rude names, but she was too
weary to really lay into him, as she usually did—she and Martin
liking good arguments. They argued about everything, the King,
the Parliament, the Marrazzano generals, battles fought four hun-
dred years before, treaties signed and broken. Uncle Martin was
a good Royalist: He believed in me Trassaharin King, whom,
Martina reminded him, had escaped years ago to another country
where he lived in peace and plenty; he believed in me Parlia-
ment, and in the cause. Aunt Martina believed that they were all
of them, Trassahar and Marrazzano kings, generals, and minis-
ters alike, scavengers feeding off the body of the farmers and the
shopkeepers and the artisans, who had once populated Trient and
me surrounding countryside without civil war, marrying each to
the other with more attention to economic considerations than to
blood ties-

So Mama, half Marrazzano, had married into a good solid
Trassahar craftsman's family- No one had thought twice about it,
because her own family were craftsmen, tile makers, and she had
a good dowry, a fine hand for painting pottery, and liked well
enough the man who became her husband. So she had in her turn
fostered in her cousin's daughter, Stepha.

So Uncle Martin. Royalist that he was, patted Stepha on the
head when she brought him up his dinner of potatoes and onions,
and told her that she'd had an offer of marriage.

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over the shattered plate or the marriage offer Jontano couldn't
tell. No one scolded her. Aunt Martina scooped up the precious
food and Uncle Martin ate it from a tin cup.

"Who would offer for me?" Stepha asked through her sobs.

"My old friend Zjilo Berio."

"He's only got one arm," objected Aunt Martina.

"Which he lost fighting," said Uncle Martin. "His wife died
last winter, and he's got the two little ones now."

'They had the three children," said Mama, having come up-
stairs to see what the commotion was about.

"They had three, it's true, but he lost me boy to a sniper's bul-
let one mondi ago."

"Ah," said Mama. Jontano saw her wipe a speck from her eye.
He wasn't sure if it was a tear or not.

"How old is he?" asked Aunt Martina.

"About thirty."

Aunt Martina considered this. 'That's not too bad.'*

'That's ancient!" protested Stepha.

Uncle Martin stared her down, and she wiped her nose and
clasped her hands obediently in front of her blouse. But she
wrung them, twisting her fingers about each other, and Jontano
couldn't tell whether she liked or was terrified of the idea of
marrying a man as old as thirty. Jontano didn't know what he
thought of it. He'd known Stepha so long that he couldn't imag-
ine her being old enough to marry, even though she was almost
two years older than he was.

When Uncle Martin spoke again, he measured his words care-
fully. "Zjilo is a good man. We fought together. He never raised
a hand to his wife, though she came from an aristocratic familyand 
spoke down to him once the war came and they couldn't
have the luxuries they had before."

"He's rich still!" Aunt Martina leaped on this point. "I thought
the family lost their warehouse. I thought they had nothing."

"Or you'd have pursued him yourself?" Martin grinned at her.
'The family kept something by, or must have. He's taking the
children out of Trient. He can't bear it any more for their sake
now that he lost the boy. He's afraid of losing the little girls, too.
They've a small estate in Kigori."

'There's no way in or out of Trient," said Mama suddenly.
Jontano felt more than saw the pain on her face, in her body. His
eldest brother had died that way, trying to get out of the city to
fetch the herbs—the apothecary having long since run out of

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such supplies—that kept Baby Lucia's heart going. So the two
had, in a way, died together.

Martin snorted. "How do you think this tobacco got here?
There are ways, if you've enough money, or important enough
news, and are willing to run the gauntlet and take the risk. It
would be a good life for you, Stepha, but if you agree to it, you
must understand that you might not live through the crossing.
Zjito's agreed to take Judit, too, now that she's alone, and raise
her as his own."

Stepha glanced over at Jontano, but he only shrugged. He tried
to imagine what it would be like without her, but could not.

"Why does he want me?" Stepha asked sullenly. 'To use me
as a servant and a whore?"

Uncle Martin slapped her. This time, though, she didn't begin
to cry. Jontano saw something different in the way she stood, as
if she had already made a decision but was refusing to give it
away easily. "As a favor to me, my girl, and don't you talk backto 
me again. He needs a wife. A young girl like you will be
strong enough to do the work and bear him more children.
You're a pretty girl, too, when you're not making faces and act-
ing wild. If we don't get you out of Trient, you'll either get shot
or end up in the marketplace with the rest of the goods that are
bought and sold."

Stepha flinched.

"Martin!" scolded Aunt Martina, but Martin looked at her
gravely. Whatever Martina saw in Martin's gaze caused her to
nod her head once, shortly, and gesture at him to go on. Jontano
watched in confused silence.

"When Zjilo began talking of leaving, of getting a new wife,
I reminded him that you'll be sixteen next month and that you're
a good girl and better off out of Trient. He doesn't care that
you've got Marrazzano blood. If you agree and are a dutiful wife
to him, you'll have a good life, with servants, land, a good
kitchen and decent clothes always for yourself and your chil-
dren."

Abruptly Mama spoke. "Can he get us out, too. Martin? All of
us?" Her voice held a passion Jontano hadn't heard in it for
years. Ancient memories resurfaced, clawing out of him, grow-
ing, consuming, memories of happiness, of Mama and Papa plan-
ning the garden, sketching new patterns for plates and vases for
the family business, and in her voice as well he thought he heard
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found, a place where happiness could, grain by grain, bride by
brick, be built again.

As if the Mairazzano guns had opened up again, Martin's next
words shattered that fragile thread linking Mama, linking Jontano
himself, to her dream.

"Do you have a thousand florins?"

She gasped. It was an enormous sum.

"Relatives to go to? We've got nothing but what we have here,
Constance. Zjilo stayed this long because of his wife's family,
and because of the risk to the children. But they'll die quickly
enough in this hellhole, so why wait? I wish him luck. I wish we
hadn't lost everything and everyone, but what's the use? We
can't leave."

"We mustn't leave," said Aunt Martina. Her voice, forever
scarred by the men who had raped her and then tried and failed
to kill her by cutting her throat, sounded hoarser than ever. "That
would give Trient to the Marrazzanos. Why else have we suf-
fered? What have our beloved ones died for? I will stand here
until the day I die rather than run away and give it to those bas-
tard Marrazzanos."

Stepha stared at Martina. Mama walked to the window and
looked out over the city. Her face was pale and the line of her
jaw tight with an emotion Jontano could not understand, know-
ing only that he loved her desperately for her strength—the
strength that had allowed her, of all of his family, to survive
when the rest had perished. All three of her brothers, her sister,
her husband and children, her parents, all gone, leaving her with
in-laws and one last child. Uncle Martin got a funny look on his
face, and he took Martina's hand in his own and kissed it, as a
lord gives respect to a lady.

Martina made a noise in her throat, then pulled her hand free
from his. "Huh," she said caustically. "All that fraternizing with
former officers is giving you airs above your station, Martin. I
hear old Widow Angelit is looking for a new husband."

"Ha! She's buried four already. I'd rather not know my own
fate, thank you."

"I'll go," Stepha blurted out.

That simple statement brought its own, new silence to the
room. It was so quiet that Jontano heard the distant yell of hawk-
ers in the Wildmo marketplace, where a morning of quiet had
brought brave and fatalistic souls alike to set out their wares, to
shop, in the ruins of the fine old market stalls.

So it was done.

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Zjilo Berio came to the house the next Sunday. He was a quiet
man with tired eyes, but he wore a golden pocket-watch and his
clothes were neat, pressed, and made of the finest cloth—old
clothes, from before the blockade, well cared for and smelling
slightly of the cedar chest, where they had perhaps been stored
against better days. His daughters were even quieter. They stared
at Stepha with great dark eyes. After the brief ceremony, Judit
showed them her doll, and with this treasure, while the 
adultstoasted the new bride with precious wine and ate from a table
laid with as great a feast as Mama and Aunt Martina could man-
age, the three girls played together in whispers in the Corner of
the parlor.

The food was eaten, the wine drunk, and as dusk settled in
over Trient, it was time for them to go.

Jontano hugged Stepha, but he could think of nothing to say.

"Take care of my treasures," she said. Then she was gone with
her new husband and children.

Jontano gave the marbles to Roman, and the rest of the things
from old Aldo's shop he gave to Mama, thinking that she might
find some use for them, keeping only the six cards for himself.

At night, the bed seemed enormous with only himself and lit-
tle Roman, Aunt Martina's youngest child. For the next ten
nights he barely slept, wondering, each time he heard cannon
blast, each time he heard shots ring out, if Stepha and her new
family had won free to Trassahar-held countryside, or if that had
been the barrage that had killed them.

"You must accept that we may never hear," said Uncle Martin.
"That is the way of things now."

"Why must it be the way?"

Uncle Martin smiled crookedly. "My poor boy. We had a de-
cent life when I was young."

That night Jontano ran his hands over the painted card that
showed the forest. Strangely, the trees looked slightly different
and it took him a moment to identify what had changed: The
leafy buds were no longer tight and pale green. They had begun
to unfurl.

If only he could walk the paths that led out of Trient toward
the west, and freedom. He recalled once walking with his Papa,
years and years ago, when he had been just a tittle child, up in
the woods to the west of the old temple, so that Papa could paint.
Jontano traced the painted forest with his fingers, and he felt
himself walking there, on quiet paths among the trees. The vio-
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bright sun, flowers his father had names for, names he had
known once but now forgotten.

The path wound up into the hills and he followed it, feeling
strangely that it was this path that fugitives followed, fleeing the
city. He came to an open escarpment and looked out over the
valley of Trient. There, across the bowl, lay the rock outcropping
where he had stood before, a gray smudge against the distant
trees.

Water fell, racing away down the hill. He was alone, except
for the animals. There were no bodies, no furtive travelers, no
one skulking but a lone fox that darted from cover, then vanished
into a thick stand of shrub.

He walked for hours. He saw no one, found no one, heard
nothing but animal noises and the flood of wind through the
leaves. The silent weight of me sun scattered its light down
through budding foliage. It was so peaceful.

"Jono? Jono!"

His mother's voice jolted him out of the forest.

He felt her hands on his arms, shaking him, and he dropped
the card and tried to sit up, only she was holding him down and
Aunt Martina and Uncle Martin looked on, their faces worn tight
with anxiety.

"What is it?" he asked, coming to his senses. "Do you have
news of Stepha?"

Mama began to cry. Oh, Lord, they had received terrible news.
Pain stabbed in his chest.

"Can you walk?" Aunt Martina demanded.

"Lord, boy, you scared us."

Jontano felt dizzy. What had frightened them? What had hap-
pened?"

"Can you stand up?" repeated Aunt Martina.

"Of course." He threw his legs over the side and stood up, and
only then did he realize that it was full morning outside. He
didn't recall being asleep. Indeed, he felt very tired, as tired as
if he had been walking all night.

Mama crushed him against her in a hug. "Jono," she whis-
pered. Then she pushed him away, dried her tears, and straight-
ened her apron and dress. "I don't care what it costs. I am going
to send for the doctor."

"Is Stepha back? Was she hurt?"

All three adults examined him so closely that he became ner-
vous. Aunt Martina asked him to raise and lower his amis. Uncle

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Martin jerked his chair closer to the bed and peered into
Jontano's eyes and ears and mouth, and listened to his chest.

"He's never had such a fit before," said Mama in a low voice.
"You didn't hear or respond to me, Jono, and you lying there
with your eyes wide open, seeing I don't know what. It's as if
you weren't there at all."

"I've seen it take soldiers," said Martin, "after they'd had too
much. They just go out of themselves."

"If only we had more food," said Aunt Martina. "The boys get
little enough as it is. They're all so thin. He needs more meat.
And milk. Ah, if only I'd been able to bring the goats. They'd
have done well enough on weeds. Then we could have had milk
and cheese every week."

Jontano knew he couldn't tell them what he'd really been see-
ing. He didn't know what they'd do, except he knew they'd take
the beautiful cards away from him. "I feel fine. I was just
asleep." He sat down on the bed and searched through the rum-
pled quilt. Finding the card, he tucked it into the drawer of the
sidetable—one that had escaped being broken up and burned for
fuel last winter.

"What's that?" asked Mama sharply.

"Only some cards Stepha found when she got the other things
at old Aldo's shop."

"What kind of cards?" asked Aunt Martina.

Uncle Martin shook his head. "Old Aldo had a way with
things- He wasn't the kind of man you cross, or he'd have his re-
venge, whether in little things or great. I remember the time
about eight years ago now, when the girl in his house got into
trouble. I don't know whether it was his daughter or grand-
daughter—no one did, and it wasn't the sort of thing you'd ask
a man like that. She'd come from the country when she was a
tiny thing, and he'd raised her. He doted on her, which we all re-
marked on since he was as ill-tempered as a caged wolf. He was
the kind of man who would as soon throw a rock at a boy as
give him a piece of candy."

He smiled his twisted grin, and Jontano wondered which of
the two had happened to Martin. Jontano's own memories of
Aldo were hazier, mostly his parents' prohibitions not to bother
the old man who stood in the dim doorway of a shop from which
wafted the most interesting and bizarre smells.
"But that girl—Lord, I don't even recall her name now—grew
into a taking thing. Even we married men liked to stroll down
the boulevard just to get a glimpse of her sweeping the sidewalk

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or grinding herbs into pastes and such. She had two suitors. One
was the son of an officer in the Trient militia, a Trassahar boy,
back when there was a city militia that any boy from the city
could join ..."

"One of General Vestino's boys, wasn't it?" asked Mama. "He
had six or seven. No one could count them all."

"The youngest of them, yes, I think it was. It scarcely matters
now- The other was the son of a Marrazzano merchant, grain and
oil, if I remember rightly. That was the proof of how beautiful
she was, that sons of good family like that came courting her.
But she was a good girl, too, well-spoken, polite. She could read
and do figures, and some even said she had the touch of healing
in her hands."

"Yes," Mama's voice grew soft with remembrance. "People
would bring ailing children to her, and she'd make poultices and
drinks for them, and more of them got well than got sicker, as I
recall. Girls would go to her for love potions, which I heard she
never gave out, but if they would give a tithe to the church or
donate some bread for the poor, she'd tell them when they would
get married. I remember her."

"What happened to her?" Jono tried to remember a pretty
young woman stationed at old Aide's shop, but be could not,
only the old man standing in the doorway, and me musty, invit-
ing scents that came from the shop.

"It came to insults first, between the two suitors, and then to
blows. Alas." Martin sighed. "She broke into the fight, trying to
stop it, and by one means or another, she got a knife in her side
and died. Ah Lord, that was a bitter day. No one knew which
boy's knife had taken her. Perhaps they didn't either, but what
did it matter by that time? Old Aldo cursed them."

Mama rested a hand on Martin's shoulder, as if to stop him,
but he went on.

"He cursed them to be at one another's throats ever after, like
dogs worrying at a bone until there was nothing left to be had;

and only then would they find peace again,"

He lapsed into silence- Mama went to the window and looked
out over the city. In me distance, they heard me crack of musket
fire.

"Nine months later the war started," said Mama in a soft
voice, "as if it was a babe born of the curse. People shunned old
Aldo after that, but he stayed in his shop. I suppose he also had
nowhere else to go."

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him in the end. That's the trouble with curses. They're as likely
to rebound on you as to stay fixed on others."

"I haven't heard this story before," said Aunt Martina. "What
happened to the two suitors?"

"The Trassahar boy joined the militia and got himself killed in
the first month, defending Saint Harmonious Bridge before it
was blown to pieces. As for the Marrazzano boy—who knows?
He might be up in the hills now, firing down on us. He might be
rotting in his grave."

The adults had by now all gone to the window, to look out,
Martin bumping his chair over, following the well-wom
scratches in the plank floor—this was the window where Martin
sat with his musket. The lush greenery of carrots lapped over the
windowsill, and Aunt Martina absently thinned a few out as she
stared toward the center of the city. Their home stood on just
enough of a rise that they could see out over the rooftops below,
and the tall boulevard trees that had once obscured the central
city from view were now all cut down.

Downstairs, Cousin Gregory sang a counting song to his little
brother. From two doors down Jontano heard Widow Angelit
singing in her robust voice a tune from an opera popular when
he was little—when the opera house in town had still been open.
It cheered him, hearing her sing a rousing chorus, even if she
was off-key.

Uncle Martin laughed and turned away from the window.
"Lord, Martina, you'd want me to marry a woman who can't
sing?"

"Better a woman who can't sing than a woman who can't
cook, like that woman you courted last year."

"All to no use!"

"Better luck for us!" Martina tilted his chair back and dragged
him out of the room. A moment later Jontano heard him bump-
ing his way down the stairs while Martina followed with the
chair, hectoring him about his poor choice in sweethearts.

Mama remained. "I don't like you having things from old
Aldo's shop."

"Please, Mama. They're so pretty." He opened the drawer and
took out the cards, displaying them for her. "Look at the brush-
work. Doesn't it remind you of something Papa could do? Please
let me keep them."

"Some said the girl wasn't his daughter by the flesh at all, but
that he'd created her by sorcery. It's not safe to touch the things
of a man who might have worked magic." She sighed, handing

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the cards back. "But these are just playing cards. I suppose no
harm can come from something like that."
"Thank you, Mama." He kissed her on the cheek.
She tousled his hair, men swatted him lightly on the back. "Go
do your chores. The rain has made the weeds sprout like flies on
a rotten apple."
So me days passed.

But every night, drawn by the lure of green trees and silent
paths, he took hold of the card and wandered in the forest. Only
now he made sure to keep track of the time; he learned to rec-
ognize the path mat would take him out of the woods back into
his bed, back into the damp spring air of Trient, back to the ser-
enade of intermittent explosions and musket fire, to the wailing
of the alarm and the waiting of the newly-grief-stricken, to the
constant guard they set over their well and garden.

No trees stood within the city now. It was only by walking in
the forest hidden in the card that he could watch the trees unfurl
their leaves to their full grandeur, only by squinting out over the
bare and broken rooftops that he could see the distant line of for-
est surrounding the city turn a deeper green. There, concealed by
the trees, now and again he saw the puffs of smoke that betrayed
Marrazzano cannon emplacements as they fired down onto
Trient.

"You're tired all me time," said Mama, looking worried, and
Aunt Martina braved the marketplace to look for decent cuts of
meat. They traded away me sidetable for a slab of pork. so he
had to hide the cards in his pillowcase.

Cousin Gregory turned fifteen and left to join the militia. Aunt
Martina wept. a little, but she told him to fight bravely, to protect
what remained of his father's heritage. Now there were only five
in the house, me three adults, the two boys.
Clouds rolled in and settled over the valley. It rained for days-
On the ninth day of torrential rain, when the streets ran with
water and the roof leaked, and even the clothes hanging in the
wardrobe exuded a damp odor, the Marrazzanos chose to launch
a new and brutal bombardment.

"It's taken them mat long to build shelters over the guns," said
Uncle Martin, "or they'd never fire in such rain. I don't know
how they manage it, even so."

Jontano leaned out me window next to Uncle Martin, watching
the flash of fire in me hills, hearing muted explosions and watch-
ing smoke rise, dense and packed heavy with moisture, and then
fall again, unable to catch fire, or to rise up into a sky drenched

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with rainfall. "I heard from Bobo's son that the Marrazzanos got
a new kind of cannon, a better kind."

Uncle Martin only grunted. He peered out at the distant Nils.
He was renowned for his keen vision, sniper's sight, and now he
frowned and shifted the muzzle of his musket through the carrots
so that droplets of water sprayed down on his hands. "I don't
like it. They're closer man they were a month ago, new guns or
no. Our people have lost ground to them, the bastards."

Was he calling me Marrazzanos the bastards, Jono wondered,
or the Trassahar militia that had failed to do its duty? He thought
about asking, opened his mouth, even. The next instant he was
thrown to the ground.

The foundation of the house rocked beneath his body. Whim-
pering, he grabbed for a leg of Uncle Martin's chair and realized
that the chair had tipped over, spilling the legless man onto me
ground.

"Curse it!" swore Uncle Martin, scrabbling like a turtle to roll
himself from his back onto his chest. "That's taken the widow's
house to pieces. Run downstairs, Jono. Get the others into the
root cellar."

Even as he said it, a shattering noise deafened Jontano. The
wall beside him cracked, splintering.

"Run down, boy!" shouted Martin. "Those bastards have us
under their sights and they don't even know it!"

But Jontano grabbed Martin under the arms and dragged him
toward the stairs. Just as they got under the safety of the lintel
a ball crashed into the window. Dirt and carrots and glass and
shards of wood sprayed the room. Jontano yipped in pain. Uncle
Martin merely grunted-

Aunt Martina ran up the stairs. "Down, you fools! Can't you
come down any faster?" She shoved Jontano aside and heaved
Martin up and with him cursing and her shouting, their argument
drowned out by the rain of cannon balls on their house and the
neighboring houses, by the sudden onslaught of a driving rain,
got him down the stairs. They fled to the root cellar and there,
huddled together with only musty old potatoes and the few pre-
cious remaining bottles of wine and ale, with a finger's deep
pool of water turning the dirt floor into muck, they sheltered
while the bombardment went on and on and on. They listened to
their house being destroyed, and to the shouts and cries from
neighboring houses, and, later, to the silence, except for the end-
less drone of rain.

At last. when the light began to fade and the bombardment

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had, seemingly, moved on toward a new neighborhood, they ven-
tured out. Jonlano tried to go out first, but Aunt Martina shoved
him back.

"I'll go," she said curtly. "I've had a life, a good one, before
this war came. You deserve a chance at a decent life, so we
won't go taking chances with you yet, my boy." She lifted Ro-
man from her lap, and he wailed and clung to Uncle Martin, sob-
bing as his mother pushed open the root cellar door and crawled
out into the gloomy, wet afternoon.

After a while, when they heard her footsteps overhead but
nothing else, she came back. Her face was drawn and white. Her
hair lay in wet strings over her dress. She was soaked to the skin,
and it still rained.

They crawled out, all except Martin. The house was destroyed.
One wall still stood its full height, but the others were shattered.
The roof had caved in. The stairs veered crookedly up to a non-
existent floor above.

They stood in silence for a long time, sheltering under a bless-
edly dry Corner, and watched the rain pour down over what
remained of their home. Dimly, Jontano heard Uncle Martin call-
ing to them from the root cellar.

Finally, Mama shook herself. "There's no point in waiting
here. If we wait until the rain stops, looters may come- Roman,
you go down and wait with Uncle Martin, There's nothing he
can do until we've salvaged what's left."

"I'll walk down the street," said Aunt Martina. "Perhaps our
neighbors need help."

So Jontano and Mama picked through the wreckage. Of their
armament—two muskets and a pistol—one musket was dry and
still usable and the others were not too badly damaged. The pow-
der and shot had remained dry because they kept it in metal tins,
and those in a cupboard which had come through the bombard-
ment mostly intact. Mama set Jontano in the dry Corner and put
him on watch while she filled bags and blankets with what re-
mained of their possessions: clothing, a few jars of pickled figs
that had gotten wedged into the Corner of the cupboard, the kettle
and three unbroken plates, two pots, silverware, Roman's toy
horse and wagon not too dented from its fall from the upper
story, a bucket, a shovel, the last of the bread from the morning,
a length of silver ribbon, and the butcher knife- She piled the
bags and the single intact headboard next to Jontano.

After a while he realized that the street and alley were empty
and likely to remain that way. The bombardment had quieted and

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moved back south again, and the rain had slackened to a steady
drizzle. He ventured out of the ruined house to the well. The lit-
tle roof had fallen in, and a few of the stones had tumbled out,
crushing turnips, but as he tugged the boards out, he saw that the
well itself remained intact. And though the garden was half cov-
ered with debris, as he picked up boards and tossed bricks aside
he found that a fair portion of the vegetables were only crushed
but not severed. He leaned the musket against the stones of the
wall and began to clean up the garden, his heart racing with ex-
citement each time he uncovered an unhurt plant.

Later, as it grew to dusk. Aunt Martina came back. "Widow
Angetit is dead. I helped Bobo Milovech pull his daughter from
the ruins, but I doubt she'll live. She lost one of her legs below
me knee. We bound it up as well as we could, but she's too frail
to sustain the loss of blood. Bobita went to see about a doctor,
but what's to do when everyone needs a doctor? At least none of
us were hurt."

Mama looked at her strangely for a long moment. "Ai," she
said at last. "I'm so tired, Martina." She was weeping, but qui-
etly, and Martina hugged her. They stood that way a long time
while Jontano watched over them, watched over the well and the
garden. Then, leaving Jontano on watch, the two women
crouched beside the root cellar stairs to discuss their predicament
with Uncle Martin.

Jontano stood in an eerie silence and listened to Roman sneeze
and cough, listened to me hopeless sobbing of a woman farther
up the street—Bobita Milovech, perhaps—to a single shot fol-
lowed by a second, then a third, echoing through the empty
streets.

"Water," said a child's voice, weak in the twilight. "Do you
have water?"

Jontano started around, raising the musket. A small girl stood
at the gate, a waif in tattered clothing. She held a battered tin cup
in one hand.

He peered down the musket at her, his hands shaking, waiting
for the adults who were with her to show themselves.

But there was no movement in the shadows, no threats,
whispers, or coughs. The girl had pretematurally pale hair—
Marrazzano hair, people called it—and gorgeous brown eyes and
a sweet face only partially obscured by dirt. She couldn't be
more than seven or eight years old. She was alone.

Jano glanced back toward the shell of the house, but one of the
walls hid the entrance to the root cellar from view. Hastily, he

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dragged away the boards that protected the opening of the well
and lowered the bucket, having to winch it hard to get it around,
now that a stray hit had bent the axle. The bucket came up half
full of clear water, and he dipped her cup in and gave it back to
her.

"Now go," he said in a low voice. "I'm not allowed to give
any away. Don't come back."

Mutely, she drank the cup dry. He filled it again. This time she
padded off, barefoot, down the street, cradling the precious cup-
ful of water against her thin chest. Where were her parents?
Lost? Dead? But he heard Mama's voice, calling to him, and as
he turned round, he faced the dead house and knew that even if,
before today, they might have managed to feed just one more,
they had too little left to do so now.

"Martin is going to stay here," said Mama, picking her way
around the house. "We'll set him up in the Corner, rig a blanket
to protect him from wind and rain, and he'll guard the well and
the fountain. The rest of us will have to find shelter another
place. Roman is getting sicker, the grippe. It's going down into
his lungs, I fear. We must find someplace dry and warm for him
tomorrow."

"I'll watch tonight," said Jontano. "It's clearing, and I'd rather
be up here than down in the cellar."

He caught her answering smile, a ghost in the twilight, and
then she went away. So he stood watch, but after the terrible
bombardment of the daytime, after the loud, pounding rains, it
was now oddly silent. It made him nervous, because unlike the
silence in the forest, it was an unnatural quiet-
In the morning, Jontano helped Aunt Martina haul Uncle Mar-
tin out of the root cellar. While Martin took the parts of several
broken chairs and repaired them into a semblance of one good
chair, Mama and Aunt Martina divided up their possessions. Ro-
man huddled in a blanket, coughing so that Jontano's lungs hurt
to hear him.

"No sense you staying with me, boy," said Martin when
Jontano offered to bide with him. "You'll come over every day
and weed the garden and bring me bread, but until this cursed
weather lets up, we won't have a chance to rebuild here."

Rebuild! Jontano couldn't reply. How could Martin even think
of rebuilding the shattered house? What was the point? If the
Marrazzanos had better guns and better positions, it would just
be destroyed again. And yet, Martin had been born here, as had
he himself.

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"Go to Rado Korsic's shop," Martin added. "That's the first
thing to do today, once you get Roman to a safe place. You must
give him the musket and the pistol to repair."

Aunt Martina and Mama each gave Martin a kiss on the
cheek, then slung bags over their shoulders and set off down the
street, Roman trudging between them, his thin shoulders shaking
under the blanket. Jontano picked up a blanket wrapped around
the cooking gear and the bag containing plate wrapped in a cush-
ion of clothing, said good-bye to his uncle, and with a heavy
heart picked his way through the ruined house.

A flash of white, the suggestion of green life, the respiration
of trees, the dense scent of unbroken loam ... He bent down and
pulled the six painted cards from underneath a fallen plank.

"What is it, Jono?" asked Uncle Martin sharply. "Are you
well?"

"I'm fine," said Jono, straightening up and steadying the bag
of plate. He set both bag and blanket down, stuck the cards in-
side his shirt and cinched his belt more tightly so that the cards
lay snugly against his skin. "Just thought I saw something." He
hoisted up his burdens again and left the house behind, following
his mother and aunt down the street.

Mama and Aunt Martina were arguing in low voices. Go here?
Go there? No, I won't ask Widow Vanyech, not after what she
said about Stepha. They'll know in the marketplace. It isn't safe.
Nowhere is safe, not after yesterday.

So they walked down into the bowl of the valley, down toward
the central marketplace, down toward Murderer's Row. Heavy
clouds scudded in, blanketing the sky, and it began to rain again.
Roman coughed and snuffled, and began to cry.

"Here, I'll carry you." Jontano lifted the boy up and was
aghast to realize how light he was, how slight a burden even
with the other things Jontano was carrying. Roman lay his head
on Jontano's shoulder and promptly fell asleep.

Even in the rain the marketplace was thronged with other ref-
ugees, fleeing their ruined homes. Still holding Roman, Jontano
stood guard over the bags and blankets under cover of an empty
stall while Mama and Aunt Martina forayed out into the crowd
to see if they could find someone they knew who would offer
them shelter.

As if they knew and understood—and why not? Why shouldn't
they know?—and chose now to launch a new attack because it
might demoralize and kill more and even more of their hated en-
emies, the Marrazzanos opened fire.

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The marketplace erupted into cacophony. People screamed,
ran, bled, died. Paralyzed, Jontano huddled with Roman in the
empty stall. Was it better to stay here, where Mama and Aunt
Martina knew he was, and risk being crushed by bricks, if the
stall fell in? Was it better to run outside, where rounds filled with
shot might explode, scattering like thrown knives into every per-
son within a stone's throw of their landing? He didn't know what
to do. He couldn't think. Roman was too terrified and sick to do
more than sob quietly against his chest. They were all alone, and
outside the panicked crowd surged this way, that, trying to win
free of the open market square but for what safety? There was no
safety in Trient, not any longer.

The stall rocked, and a few bricks tumbled down. Roman's
sobs cut off, and he lifted his head and stared with a glazed ex-
pression at the wall.

"Mama!" he said suddenly.

There! In the crowd, Jontano saw Aunt Martina fighting her
way through the mob toward them, but then the press of the
crowd shoved her back, to one side, farther and farther away, and
she was lost.

"They'll meet us at home," said Jontano with more force than
confidence. Another hit nearby sent a second avalanche of bricks
tumbling from the stall next door. Jontano eyed the bags, sorting
through their contents in his mind: which to take? which to
leave? He grabbed the firearms and a blanket stuffed with
clothes, kettle, the butcher knife, and the last two jars of pickled
figs. With Roman clinging to his chest, he heaved the blanket
over his back and strode out.

By now the crowd had begun to disperse, fleeing down side
streets. Jontano hesitated. The clouds opened up, and it began to
pour down rain. He darted into the nearest boulevard, looking for
shelter for Roman. If he could only find a place, he could put the
boy there and come back for the other things, come back to find
Mama and Aunt Martina. He was halfway down the first block
of shattered buildings before he realized he was on Murderer's
Row.

Roman, drenched, began to cough heavily. More explosions
sounded from the marketplace.

"Mama," whimpered Roman between coughs.

"We'll find a dry place to hide," said Jontano. "Then I'll go
back and look for her. Don't worry."

Ahead he saw a doorway. He ducked inside. One wall had
fallen in, but the rest of the shop looked reasonably sturdy. It

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smeUed dry, oddly enough, musty, as if perfumed with old herbs.
A wooden counter ran along one side of the shop, and he set Ro-
man down in its lee and wrapped him in overlarge clothes and in
the two blankets. The boy was shivering with fever, half asleep.

Straightening up, Jontano stared into a forest. If he stepped
past the counter, he would step into the woodlands....

Shaking himself, he realized that he was staring at a huge pic-
ture, a painting, a painting of a forest. A moment later, he knew
he was in old Aide's shop. Without meaning to, he reached in-
side his shirt and drew out the painted cards. He held up the card
depicting the forest, and in the gray light of the overcast day, he
saw that the card and the painting were the same- Except the
painting, as tall as he was, was somehow more lifelike. It seemed
to pulse with life, as if he could step inside it. It called to him.
It would be safe there. If only the trees grew again in Trient, it
would be safe. There would be no more fighting,

"Mama." whimpered Roman. Jontano jerked, startled to still
be standing in the dim shop. He knelt. The boy was hot, too hot.
He needed a doctor. He needed his mother.

Oh, Lord, thought Jontano. What if Mama was killed? I
couldn't bear it. I just couldn't bear it.

"Listen, Roman, I must go out and look for Mama and your
mother. You must stay here and not move. Do you understand?"

"Yes. Don't leave me."

"Just for a little while. I'll come back."

"Just for a little while," echoed the boy weakly.

Reluctantly, Jontano left Roman and the forest behind. Inter-
mittent shelling still peppered the central city, but the worst of it
had moved toward the north. There was more musket fire than
anything, as if a skirmish had broken out along the eastern line.

Only a few shapes, more ghosts than people, haunted the
marketplace. Jontano hurried, giving them a wide berth, and
found the stall where he and Roman had sheltered. It had col-
lapsed, burying their possessions. He scrabbled at the bricks
while the musket fire got louder.

"Jono! Oh, Lord, Jono."

He leaped up. It was his Mama.

She crushed him against her. "No time," she said. "No time.
They're coming."

"Who is coming?"

"Martina went back to warn Martin. I don't know what they
can do. The Marrazzanos have broken past Genera! Vestmo's

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troops. That's what everyone's saying in the streets. I came back,
hoping to find you. Ah. Lord, what's to become of us?"

"We must get Roman," said Jontano. "He's down—he's down
in old Aldo's shop."

Mama looked at him. A brief spark of something—fear? antic-
ipation? anger?—lit her eyes, and then it fled, leaving her look-
ing tired and resigned. "We'll go get him and try to get back
home if we can. We might as well die there, even if it is in ruins,
as anywhere else."

She said nothing more as they ran down Murderer's Row, hug-
ging half fallen walls, undl she knelt beside Roman, who had by
now lapsed into a feverish sleep.

"Poor child," she said. "He deserved a better death than this."

"He doesn't have to die!" cried Jontano. Mama looked up at
him, and with a horrid shock, like a claw at his throat, he knew
that she had given up, that it had all, the years of fighting to sur-
vive, become too much for her to bear.

"I'm so dred," she said. "We'll just rest here a few moments."
She lay down beside Roman and between one instant and the
next, she was asleep.

She had given up. Jontano shivered. He wanted to cry, for her,
for himself, for everything, but he had no tears.

The forest breathed, exhaling its scent around him. His hand
clutched the card, the leaves unfurled to their full glory, the
spring flowers passing into the blooms of summer—for it was al-
most summer. Tomorrow would be summer. He remembered that
with mild surprise. He smelled, not rain, but the scent of the for-
est shedding moisture after rain, warmed by the new sun of sum-
mer. He heard the mstling of leaves, the scrambling of mice in
the undergrowth, not the musketfire, louder now but strangely
dull, too, as if from behind the mist, behind an impenetrable
hedge.

Once there had been no war in the valley of Trient, though
there had always been wolves.

Mama slept, curled around Roman. Perhaps she would sleep
forever, never have to wake to the death of all that she had held
dear, never have to remember everything she had lost.

Jonlano circled the counter and came right up to the painting.
It seemed to have grown since he last saw it. It filled the entire
wall, as if it was straining, trying to fill the shop. He lifted his
arm and pressed the card against it. If only he could find a way
through, for himself, for Mama, for Roman and Aunt Martina

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and Uncle Martin. For the graves, so that the dead could lie in
respectful silence, as they deserved.

If only the trees could grow again in Trient, as they once had,
filling the parks and the boulevards, filling the once-handsome
city with their summer fullness and the stark lines of their winter
beauty.

He felt the paper thin bark of a birch tree under his hand, peel-
ing away where his fingers scraped at it. He fell the flowers
blooming under his feet, vines twining up his legs. A glade of
sweet grass filled old Aldo's shop, and a lilac bush grew, lush
and thick, to shelter Mama and Roman.

Oaks burst up in the marketplace, an ancient grove, watchful
and airy. Murderer's Row erupted into an orchard of pears and
apples and cherry trees, all mingled together, and the musketfire
faded as the Vestino Line, the ruins of Saint Harmonious Bridge,
the far hills were swamped by ash and beech. Aspen sunk their
roots into the low places of the valley, blanketed with ponds and
pools of brackish water left over from the rains. In the northern
hills, tulips and elms lifted toward the sky, and in the meadows
where blocks of houses had once stood, around springs made by
wells, great patches of flowering shrubs spread out into a sea of
color. Jasmine, bougainvillaea, and twining wisteria wrapped
themselves around the shell of the house where Uncle Martin sat
watch and Aunt Martina cooked over an open fire, her eyes red
from weeping, and filled the ruined walls with their fragrance.

There were no more than a few startled comments, which
Jontano heard on the wind as if from another life, so quickly did
the forest take root in lands it had once had all to its own self.

The cannon, the barricades, the buildings whole and shattered,
the boulevards, all were subsumed. Trees sprang up where peo-
ple stood, Marrazzano and Trassahar alike, beech and oak, birch
and aspen.

Night fell and passed and with the new sun, summer came to
Trient, which was no longer a city but a vast woodland, popu-
lated by trees and the many small, quiet inhabitants of the forest

The valley lay at peace in the calm of a summer morning.

Everything Has a Place

by Barbara A. Den2

Barbara Dem. lives and writes near Poulsbo, Washington,
in a house surrounded by tall cedars. She has had careers
in libraries, radio broadcasting, arts administration, and
desktop publishing. She shares her life with husband,
David, a changeable number of ferrets, and a network of
writer friends on GEnie.

Sim held her breath and listened.

Was that her heart pounding so or the riders who followed her
and Julianne, her younger sister? A bush snapped. Then another.
It was riders, no doubt about it. For once the years of drought
worked in her favor. She quit holding her breath and gasped for
air. The two riders were getting much too close. Fear's acrid
taste was metallic in her mouth.

Fear is for the rabbits they hunt, not for me, she chided her-
self, pushing the fear aside. I've feared them since my first^iood
last spring. I won't fear them anymore!

She straightened from her crouch. Sneak and sprint, sneak and
sprint. That's how they had spent their night. The moon was now
long down and barren clouds hid the stars. Her eyes were tired
from peering back across what she knew were rolling grasslands.
Strain though she might, the blackness yielded no silhouettes for
her to see. She had to find someplace where she could talk to the
Goddess. They needed time.

"It will be light soon, Siir." The words were more gasps than
speech as Julianne fought to catch her breath, too. She was small
for her age and fragile from too many years of not enough to eat,

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yet she was tough. Siiri gave her that much. Julianne didn't give
up easily- "They'll see us before we find shelter."

Jutianne pointed to the northeast. A pale gray at the rim of the
sky hid behind the rise of foothills and backlit the jagged tops of
trees that were their goal. Behind on the still-dark parched plain
was Lord Duncan's Keep and their family in graves, dead of
neglect, overwork, and starvation. Ahead was the only place left
to go.

"We need to find someplace for me to work," Siiri panted.
"1*11 only need a minute to buy us some time, but I have to getmy 
breath."

A sneeze and a curse from a masculine voice reminded her of
who followed and how much sound carried in the predawn hush.
As their path rose to meet the treeline, they were passing through
thicker and thicker brush that snapped at a breath. They had to
be careful. She grabbed Julianne's hand, pulled her forward, try-
ing to find a trace without making the same amount of noise that
had given their pursuers away. Julianne pulled her off to the left
behind a bush.

"This will have to do, Siiri. Hurry."

Siiri concentrated on her lungs and thought them quiet. Help
me, Goddess, she prayed. Help us.

There was no answer. After a moment she heard the faint
whisper that usually told her that the Goddess was listening and
ready to help her now. If she could just think of a way for the
Goddess to help.

Siiri thought for a moment of what the old Herbwoman had
taught her. "For the Goddess' magic to work, you must think of
things she knows," the Herbwoman had said. "The Goddess will
show you how to work with it, but you have to focus on some-
thing natural and show her what you need done. If it is some-
thing she understands and it is within her power, she will help
you. But be careful what you ask. What may be clear to you may
not always be clear to the Goddess. And don't expect her answer
to be what you expected."

/ know, Siiri thought with anticipation. She imagined them
rested, their bellies frill, and the day ahead a relaxed run in the
foothills on a goat path sheltered by tall brush.

"Let's go," she whispered, hoping the Goddess would see this
image clearly. She began to run.

The stitch in her side began to relax and her breathing evened.
Siiri's feet found the well-wom goat trace with no brush or dried
grass to give the girls away. Julianne's breathing grew quieter,

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and her feet patted the ground more surely than before. Quietly
now, they ran on.

The next problem was the brothers who followed them. Siiri
let her feet move automatically as she thought of a small rock,
positioned so it would embed in soft hoof tissue. It would not be
enough to harm. The Goddess would not allow that. Behind her,
a horse screamed, tack jingling, and the man who rode it
thumped and whuffed on hard ground, brush breaking as he fell.
She heard curses and then ignored them.

Blessed Be, Goddess. She smiled and her parched lips cracked
anew. She promised to pray her thanks later and turned all focus
on the rise to the rocky foothills and the growing outline of trees.

They reached the edge of the thick evergreen wood just as they
could distinguish colors around them. The sky was turning the
heat-soaked dark gold of another rainless day. The needles on the
trees looked dull. The girls were tired and panting, but they were
as safe as possible until they were in Lord Edward's halls. The air
was thick with the day's heat when Siiri found a ring of six of the
biggest pine trees she had ever seen. On the far side of the ring,
against a rock outcropping, another of the huge trees had fallen
over, shattering at the base and creating a splintery tunnel to the
rock. The gap was just large enough for the two girls to slip
through. Limbs long dead seemed to beckon her.

"Over there, Julie."

"I don't like that, Siiri. If we're caught, there's nowhere to
go." Julianne stepped back and looked for some other cover.

"The Goddess will protect us. Trust her, Julie."

Julianne's look was skeptical. The eleven-year-old didn't much
trust in the Goddess' help. Why should she? The only family she
had left was Siiri. Julianne had only followed because her sister
had promised she would be safe and better off in Lord Edward's
Keep. She wished she could protect her little sister and not just
promise help of a Goddess who had seemed to forsake them in
the drought years.

Siiri had to tug on her sister, but in the end it was the sound
of brush cracking that encouraged Julianne to press her slender
body through the splinters and to hide behind and below the tree.
Siiri could barely see the ring. She hoped that no one out there
would be able to see them, either, once daylight shone through
the trees. For now, the light was mottled and it was much cooler
than they were used to. Brush cracked further away and Siiri re-
laxed a little. Maybe the brothers wouldn't be able to find them.

Siiri reverently pushed cobwebs aside to let her eyes get used

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to the dappling. Two large burls sat free on the ground and held
water for the girls to share. Siiri thanked the Goddess again, set-
^   tied her back against the tree and drank. Julianne sipped cau-
tiously and settled against the rock, carefully unwrapping the
small trifold of cloth that carried the only food they had. She
broke off a small piece of hard bread and offered it to Siiri.

"No, you go ahead. The Goddess will take care of me,"
she said, sounding more confident than she felt as she thought of
berries and nuts she would like to eat. "I think I'll explore a little
and see if I can see the brothers to be sure they've lost us."

Julianne shrugged and broke off another bite of bread. Siiri
slipped out the side of the tree and looked for anything she could
eat. It was light enough for her to find berries she had hoped for.
But with each step she felt the heat press on her. Cautiously, she
surveyed the ring. If she was where she thought she was, there
should be seven trees in the ring and this glade should be ver-
dant. It confused her that the Goddess would let Her dance of sa-
cred trees fall into the dead, dull, desiccated area before her. Siiri
picked a few nuts off the ground, picked up a downed branch,
and smoothed over their dusty tracks in the clearing. She
munched absently on more nuts as she squeezed carefully around
dried limbs and cracked heartwood to return to her sister.

"Are they close?" Julianne asked.

"I didn't hear or see them, but they can't be far away," Siiri
said absently, still concentrating on the tree and the Dance. "We
can hope they won't find us, but it would be easy to follow our
trail." Siiri looked up at the dull, heavy sky. She took another sip
from the burl. It was full again, even though she had emptied it
twice already. She wondered if her thirst would ever be slaked.

She was tired and she wanted to sleep the day away.

"Have we reached Lord Edward's land yet?" Julianne whis-
pered once the food was gone and her belly swollen.

"I don't know," Siiri replied honestly. "Goddess lands are sup-
posed to be greener than this. I think so, but we won't know until
we meet someone from the household. The brothers shouldn't
hunt us here. If Lord Edward catches them, 1 heard it would be
a very unpleasant death. The Goddess led us here, so I think this
is sacred ground...." Her whisper trailed off".

Julianne scowled at her sister and waited for her to continue.

Siiri sighed. "I guess this could be the Dance of the Seven
Maidens," she said. "The Herbwoman said the trees would be
bigger than usual, and I suppose this could be the seventh." Siiri
ran her hand lovingly along the fallen tree. It felt cold and dead

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to the touch. She wasn't used to having nature feel cold. Since
her firstblood, nature usually came alive at her touch. Without
knowing quite why, she began to cry quietly. "Such is the way
of these dry times," she told herself quietly. "Only the fittest sur-
vive."

"You're sure he'll take us in? With this drought, he'll not want
two more mouths to feed," Julianne said quietly after a moment.
Siiri realized that her sister had taken another meaning to her
comment.

The tears had already dried on Sim's cheeks, leaving a salty
channel to her chin. "I trust the Herbwoman," she said quietly
after another long silence- "She says I'll be safe and that Lord
Edward honors those who serve the Goddess and the old ways.
She says this drought is because so many now worship the new
Onegod. She doesn't think that His followers will believe much
longer if He doesn't fill their bellies. When the Goddess' lands
are strong again and Her ways are honored, then we will have
food for all. The Herbwoman said I could help now and that you
could probably help, too, if we can keep us both virgins, but
Lord Duncan and his sons have a reputation of leaving no hope
for the Goddess' ways to return. She said they mean to rape us
all." Siiri was quiet for a moment, letting her anger at the horrors
she witnessed subside.

Siiri looked around her again. "The Herbwoman said there are
many holy spots on Lord Edward's lands and he is careful to
keep them for the Goddess." Siiri stopped to think for a minute.
Then she giggled softly.

"What's so funny?" Julianne asked.

"I was just thinking. While we are both here, there is one
maiden too many in the Dance." As she said it, a cold breeze
blew along her spine. She looked over her shoulder. Nothing was
there except her misgivings. When she turned around, Julianne
was looking at her very strangely.

"Lord Edward will take us," she said softly, trying to regain
her composure. She had felt those cold chills before and didn't
like them. They always boded ill. "We can give him rain. God-
dess willing."

Julianne smiled- "You witch," she said softly, and tangled
slender fingers in Siiri *s mousy hair. Matched pairs of ice-green
eyes smiled at one another.

"Sleep if you can," Siiri whispered. She settled back, nestling
against the dead heartwood, and drowsed.

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Siiri awoke with a start. It took a few seconds before her
,  pounding heart focused on what had jolted her awake. Before she
could cry out at the whuffling of horses scant paces from their
hollow tree and male voices shouting, a hand cupped over her
mouth.

"Shh," Julianne whispered "It's probably mid-moming, but
they're setting up camp on the far edge of the glade. There's no
way out if they don't leave. They're arguing about losing us.
They can't find trail marks."

Siiri nodded and tried to peek out without being seen. Her sis-
ter pulled her back. The sound of jingling tack alerted them to
the movements of the nervous horses.

"Don't," she whispered next to Sim's ear. "The glade is too
light now. It's Morgan and Robert."

"Just as I thought," Siiri whispered. "All he cares about is that
the youngest have some sport. So much is ruined in those inept
hands."

She fell silent as the young men stopped arguing with one an-
other. Siiri moved to peek around the edge of the tumble of rot-
ting roots. Into her field of vision stepped two lithe youths in
riding leathers. Morgan walked toward the horses- Robert was
setting a fire, despite the oppressive heat. She pressed against the
back of the tree and held her breath. Morgan returned to his
brother with a bulging skin and a ^ack of food.

"We can spend the rest of the day here. It's pleasant enough.
They'll be easier to find in an hour or so when the sun is over-
head." Morgan's voice broke, betraying his youth. He had filled
barely twelve summers and was inches shorter than Julianne, al-
though she was a year his junior.

"Father will understand," said Robert, his uncertain voice not
as convincing as the words. He settled down on his heels, stirred
the newly lit wood, and set about fixing their meal.

The sound of sizzling meat had stopped, the fire's heat had
subsided, and the brothers had quit speaking in slurred tones be-
fore Siiri could figure out how to get at the leftover food without
being seen. She had almost thought of a way to envision it for
the Goddess to help them when she felt Julianne move. Siiri
grabbed at the tattered clothes and Julianne tried to pull them
free.

"We need the supplies, Siir. Why they brought all that mead,
I will never know, but they can't still be awake. And I'm hungry
after smelling that"

"The Goddess has provided so far. Why won't you trust her?"

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"If the Goddess is going to provide, then she might as well
protect me while I get their food."

"JuUe, no. If they wake up, they'll kill you."

"They won't catch me if you're quiet. At least let me try. The
Laws protect me while I'm not yet a woman. I'll be back
quickly. I promise." And with that, she was gone.

"Sweet Goddess, help my sister," Siiri prayed, but before she
could envision a safe path for her sister, a cry told her it was too
late.

"There," shouted Morgan.

"Get her," yelled his brother and she heard her sister scream.

A resounding slap and a grunt in her sister's voice told her
what she already knew. The brothers were not honorable men. At
least while they were slapping Julianne, Siiri had time to plan.
Where was the Goddess? Why wasn't she protecting Julianne?
Such desecration in Her Dance was unthinkable. Didn't the
brothers know that? The chill cascaded down her spine again.

"Where is she," Morgan yelled. "We have to bring back both
of you or father will torture us. We'll find her anyway- You
might as well tell us." Another slap followed that echoed in
Siiri's head.

"I don't know," whispered Julianne, her speech slightly
slurred. "She left me hidden and ran deeper into the forest to get
Lord Edward's men. They will be waiting for us by now. But I
got hungry. - -." Siiri could hear tears in her voice. The rock face
behind her would not let her retreat any farther. Morgan's voice
was followed by the crack of a hand on face. Julianne no longer
cried. She didn't even whimper.

"Answer me," screamed Morgan.

"Give it a rest," his brother said quietly. "You've slapped her
unconscious."

No, Siiri cried. The Goddess must have deserted them for this
to happen to Julianne. Unless she has made some pact with her
unfortunate words.... She shook her head fiercely. No. The
Goddess wouldn "f do that! If the Goddess had indeed let them
stand alone, then it would matter little if Siiri lost her virginity.

"The witch sister can't be far," said Robert. "They were to-
gether at dawn. I saw them both enter the wood." Silently, Siiri
cursed again. They had been sloppy.

"If Father finds out we left our lands to go after them ..."
Morgan's voice trailed off.

"It will be nothing compared to what we'll get if Lord Edward
catches us here in the wood. We'd be hanged for poachers, sure,

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and no questions asked. Unless this is one of Edward's Holy
Woods- Then we would really be in trouble." Robert's derisive
laugh chilled Siiri. How could they joke so nonchalantly about
me sacred places?

"Maybe we should just take the one and say the other died
in the running," Morgan pleaded.

"Maybe you should let me do the thinking. Father would want
the body. And I think I want the other. Father promised."

"If you get the other, then I want this one. I've never had an
Underage."

Siiri choked back the gorge that rose to greet the thick-voiced
sound of lust and desire. They had no intention of obeying The
Laws and didn't seem to care if they were caught. Maybe the
Dance could help her somehow. Maybe she could fall on them
from above. Maybe, maybe, maybe! There's no time/or maybe!
she chided herself. If you're going to move, do it!

She tried to squeeze out the side entrance she had used before-
An arm-thick branch she did not remember blocked her path. As
she tried to climb under it, roots twined around her ankles and
pulled tight. The more she struggled to get free, the more the tree
came alive to stop her. Only her sister's scream stopped her
struggles. She knew what had happened, but she couldn't believe
that it could be done so quickly. Her sister's racking sobs and
screams mixed with Robert's laughter and Morgan's panting
grunts.

"You bastard," her sister screamed. "By the maidenblood you
have spilt on Her floor, I entreat the Goddess to rot that thing
you just used on me. May you and yours die and rot in hell!"

"Shut up," yelled Morgan. Flesh echoed harshly against flesh
through the glade. "Shut up," he repeated, his voice rising with
each resounding whack. And again. And again, until Julianne's
sobs quieted.

"Get off her, you idiot," yelled Robert. "You don't want her
dead, do you?"

Siiri tried to cry out, but could find no voice. Her sister's
death as well as her virginity was exactly what Morgan wanted.
She knew it was true as soon as the words came out into the
Dance. Frantic, Siiri struggled against the tree. Another branch
wrapped around her, twigs and heartwood that should have been
dead were tearing at skin and clothing. Siiri tried to break off the
dead branches, but they were supple and held her fast. This
couldn't be! The tree was dead!

Morgan's howl of rage told her she was too late.

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"Stop stabbing her. She's dead, can't you tell? Why did you
do that?" Robert demanded, hysteria in his voice. "You fool.
You've killed her on Lord Edward's land. They'll kill us, Mor-
gan. They'll kill us both. Aye, we're in trouble now."

"We were dead anyway," Morgan's voice cracked. "You heard
the witch. I couldn't let her live after she cursed me."

Sobbing, Siiri clawed at the branches, which now parted eas-
ily. She wasn't sure if she felt more anger or anguish as she
stumbled from behind the tree and across the glade. She was
slipping in her sister's blood before she could stop herself. The
slender youngest son still stood poised, dagger held high. From
it, her sister's lifeblood dripped, now falling on her as she folded
Julianne into her arms. The smalt pool of congealing darkness
was dark on the ground. The dry forest floor drank it up. Siiri
felt a rage consume her, its strength growing as the blood soaked
in.

"Well, well," Robert said, calmer now that they had Siiri, too.
"Look who you scared up, Morgan."

"Aye. Looks like we'll both get what we want this night. Shall
I hold her for you?" Morgan chuckled and moved toward Siiri.

"You'll not have me. The Goddess may not have protected
Julianne, but I can protect myself."

From within her came a mix of a wail and a warrior's cry in
a voice that was not her own. She turned, lunging for a burning
branch from the fire behind her and fended off the two. She did
not know when the cry became audible to them. Rage poured
through her like the fire she wielded as she swung again and
again, tiny firefly sparks hissing as they found tinder to ignite.
Arcs of flame were drawn on the inside of her eyes.

"Stop her before she bums the forest and us with it," she
heard Morgan scream.

Stars burst in front of her eyes and a pain centered just above
her ear exploded. She remembered a moment of bright light and
then nothing more.

Morgan's icy monotone penetrated her haze. Somewhere in-
side her, a high, piercing wail jolted her awake. She wasn't sure
which chilled her most.

"... kill this one, too?"

"Not till I've had her as you got yours," countered his brother.
"At least this one's of age. And not till we get off Lord Edward's
land."

Siiri ventured to open her eyes and regretted it. When two

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blinks cleared me bloody haze, she was inches away from the
open, dully vacant eyes of her sister. She rolled over, retched
t1 violently and then could not roll back. Her hands and feet were
bound tightly behind her back.

"She's awake and already commenting on her plight," chuck-
led Robert.

"You bastards," Sim's strange voice hissed as she tried to
steady racking sobs.

"Now, now," Morgan said ominously. "Those were your sis-
ter's last words. Don't let them be yours, too."

Robert let out a low, throaty laugh and leaned over Siiri. She
tried to kick him, struggling against the cording that bound her.
Feeling it cut into her skin didn't bother her. That pain was better
than what she felt inside- She screamed in frustration and regret-
ted it as her head exploded in pain.

"Now there, we'll have none of that," Robert said soothingly,
and then grabbed her hair and pulled her head back hard. "I'll
have you before day's end, don't you worry. But for now, I want
to ready myself for the enjoying."

He flung her back so hard that she saw stars again. The broth-
ers' laughter mingled with a roar in her head as she faded first
to white and then to black.

When Siiri next awoke, she was ready for her sister's fate. The
wail was still there, and its melody was more insistent than ever.
She wished it would leave her alone. She squinted at me sun-
light, trying to tell how long she had been unconscious. It must
not have been very long—shadows hadn't moved much since all
this began. How could her whole life be destroyed and the day
not notice?

As the throbbing subsided enough for her to concentrate, she
realized that her hands and feet were untied and mat her back
was against the fallen tree. Her head felt thick- She surveyed
body parts without opening her eyes- As her mind itemized an
ache, something ... someone? .... prodded at it. As each sore
part was touched from within, it felt warm and its pain disap-
peared. Siiri let the healing continue until she itemized the ache
in her heart at the loss of her sister. The healing touched stopped.
Angry now, Siiri confronted her Goddess.

Why didn't you save Julie? she demanded. Why didn't you
come when I called? Julie didn't deserve to die, did she?

The voice inside her was quiet so long that Siiri was afraid she
had offended the Goddess, not that it mattered anymore. As she
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assessment of wounds again, and the healing chill-warmth. She
didn't have to envision anything. The Goddess was working on
her own now. Siiri tried to regain control, but the Goddess
wouldn't let her think. It frightened her.

In Siiri's mind came pictures. First was the Dance of seven
trees, strong and huge, and a glade lush with foliage, flowers and
wildlife. Then one tree crashed, cracking from roots to top nee-
dles. The same cries she had heard from Julianne were echoed
by the dying tree. Then six trees shrank as the woods became dry
and brittle. She watched herself and Julianne run into the wood
and the image of two tall and six small trees stood before her.
Colors shifted to odd grays and oranges until one tree fell over
and turned into Julianne again. The seventh tree stood tall and
strong. As blood drained from Julianne, the six other trees grew
to join the seventh.

Oh, no. The chill. I knew it. That was my baby sister you let
die. Siiri choked back a sob. Wasn't it enough/or her to lose her
virginity? Couldn 't you have stopped there? I dian 't mean for her
to die. What must I do to get her back?

For a long time there was no response. Then the Goddess just
showed the seven tail trees in a Dance again and the forest grow-
ing green.

Siiri was devastated. If I stay, will I get Julie back? she began
then halted. Seven tall trees transformed into seven maidens who
joined hands and danced in the glade. Julianne did not reappear,
but the Goddess did not say no either. Siiri placed all her hope
that the Goddess would be fair.

She must have moved, for someone sat on her stomach.

"She's awake, Robert," Morgan yelled. "Come lake her now
so we can get out of here. We dare not stay after dusk."

In her mind, she saw the seven maidens in a Dance arid two
naked male bodies from which blood drained into the ground,
which drank thirstily. Her muscles tightened and her jawtwitched. 
Just as quickly, the Goddess prepared the muscles to
spring, smoothed her jaw.

Siiri opened her eyes. Robert sauntered across the clearing,
britches already undone and shirt pulled from them. His move-
ments were sloppy with drink and hungry with lust. His eyes
were crazed. She was sure he was only seeing her. Morgan got
off her to let his brother take his place. With Morgan off her and
with inner strength she knew they did not suspect, she was ready
to spring at Robert, not knowing exactly what she was expected
to do or how the six trees and the Goddess would help her.

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But Morgan's face was the one the Goddess showed her, not
Robert's. None of it made any sense, but the Goddess insisted.
*   Siiri's hand, unbidden, picked up a small handful of pine needles
and flung them toward Morgan's chest. Just as they left her hand,
she felt them grow. She watched with fascinated horror as the
needles extended into spikes twice the length of her hand, each
one firm and sharp. Everything seemed to slow as twenty or
more two-edged barbed knives found homes in Morgan's body.
The leering smile with which he had been watching her turned
into a expression of horror first, then pain, and finally realizationthat 
he was going to die.

Siiri did not need the Goddess to urge her to grab for more
needles and throw. This was for Julianne. Fingers felt in the dust
and grabbed and threw handful after handful. Morgan staggered
backwards and was finally impaled against a tree, which leached
fluids from the small body through the needles and into the
trunk. She scrambled to her feet, a strange lightness in body and
head, and turned on Robert. He had not moved, but a growing
horror on his face told her that he knew his own fate as well.

Siiri did not disappoint him. Two handfuls of needles flew at
him. The war cry that was now her own escaped her lips. The
horses pulled loose from their tethers and ran from the smell of
blood and fear.

It seemed forever before Siiri could move to be sure both were
dead. Part of her was numb at what she had done, but another
part of her was the Goddess. They were no longer separate. As
she looked at Morgan's body, the needles began to shrink and he
fell loose from the tree, a desiccated shell of a human. All that
was left were the clothes, skin and bones. On the tree, a new
branch was forming and the needles were visibly coming back to
freshness. She walked numbly to Robert and saw much the same
thing. She touched the needles. They were warm. Under his
body, fresh grass was poking up and small flowers tufted ground
cover at his feet. Rain droplets touched her face. The glade was
growing. A wave of green crossed from edge to edge. Bird
sounds began and were finally a noisy chorus. Siiri sat down
hard, mouth and eyes wide open in amazement. More animal
calls joined the birds and animals out of season and those which
should not be awake this time of day. Siiri heard each new part
join a chorus to the Goddess.
Siiri crawled across the now-plush forest floor to her sister,
cradled Julianne in her arms, and rocked. She could barely see

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through the tears. "Bring her back, too," she called to the
Goddess. "Let her grow. You promised."
There was no response except the sound of the rain. Siiri
waved at the desiccated skeletons that now lay empty on the
ground and the six tall trees in the grove. All that remained to
identify the sons were then- blood-soaked clothes, jewelry, and
skeletons. "She gave her blood so you would have the strength
to help me. Now give her back!"

She held Julianne like that until the body was cold to the
touch, pleading the entire time. Tears joined the rain that washed
her face. Finally, numb with grief, she gathered branches of the
downed tree, now dead and dry again, and piled them around
Julianne.

She watched, quietly, as the pyre ignited on its own. Fire
sprites that all looked like Julianne danced in the flames, each
signaling her to join them. She swiped at her eyes, finally ac-
knowledging that her sister was as much a part of this glade as
she must be. She took a deep breath. Above her, the clouds
parted, and stars were bright. A brilliant moon shone with her
sister's face.

Siiri walked to join the six maidens who stood waiting for her.
She took the two hands offered and completed the ring. As they
danced, a new tree began to grow.

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Trees Perpetual 01 Sleep

by Nina Kiriki Hoffman

Nina Kiriki Hoffman lives in Oregon's Willamette Valley
where she spends a month or two each year housebound
from grass pollen. She has written many short stories and
a novel. The Thread that Binds the Bones. Other stories
about Matt Black have appeared in the Axoloti novella
"Unmasking" and in F&SF.

They were way too far into the woods and away from human-
made things for Matt's taste. When choosing for herself. Matt
called the whole world home, but she generally stayed in the
parts of the world where there were cars and roads and buildings
and people, things she could talk to. She wished she had never
met Miss Terry Dane, teenage fashion victim and witch.

Cricket noise and stream murmur edged the forest air with
sound. Sunlight was just fading from the tops of the trees aroundthe 
clearing, and the intense blue of midsummer sky was staining
slowly into night. Everything smelled green and wet. The marshy
ground squished under Mart's army boots,

Terry laid red roses in a ring on the fire-scarred altar rock in
the middle of the clearing and opened her backpack. She whis-
pered words while she pulled all kinds of weird things out of her
pack. She set each item carefully on the rock, blessing it and pre-
paring it for use.

Matt wished there were somewhere to sit. If she sat on the
grass, she would get her jeans soaking wet. Dum Terry and her
Midsummer ceremony, anyway.

The whispering tree on the far side of the rock, the only tree

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in the clearing, had big roots, some of them with knees and
knuckles sticking up above the ground. Matt edged around the
big gray altar stone and sat on one of the tree's upthrust roots.

Terry opened her big time-nibbled book and set it where she
could see it, as though it were a cookbook. She made some
passes with her hands and spoke some words. She lit red candles,
and then she lit a piece of stick incense which she waved in a
pattern, leaving little trails of thin smoke and the scent of a dis-
tant country. She stacked wood on the rock in a triangle within
the circle of roses, and snapped her fingers. The wood blazed up.
It was fairly impressive.

Matt pulled her knees up to her chest and leaned back against
the tree's trunk. Its rough bark caught at her crewcut. She didn't
know what kind of tree it was, but it sure smelled good, a little
like fresh pencils at the start of a school year.

Terry spoke softly, reading from the book and touching the
things she had laid on the rock, lifting water, crystal, incense,
salt, and a knife. Gripping the knife in her right hand, she stood
a moment, her eyes lifted to the darkening sky above, then cut
across her left palm and dripped blood into the fire.

"Dedication," said the tree Matt leaned against.

"Mm," Matt murmured. She had learned to keep quiet when
Terry was in the middle of something; she had talked during a
summoning spell Terry was doing once, and the little wind Terry
had been calling up got loose and pestered both of them for three
days.

"I used to have that. Almost."

"Shh," said Matt. Golden-orange light was gathering around
Terry's head and hands. She held her hands up to the sky and
spoke some more words, and the light brightened around her.
She closed her hands a moment. She opened them again, and
red-gold tight flowed from her palms, half to the sky, half to the
earth. She pressed her palms together and stood silent, and the
light seeped away. Everything got quiet.

Terry drew in a deep breath, let it out slowly. She shifted po-
sition, her shoulders relaxing. She blessed all her tools and stored
them again, and last of all she passed her hands through the
flames, which rose up and then died down.

"Discipline," said the tree.

"Shhhh!" Matt said.

"She's finished."

"Shh?" Terry said. shaking her hands and smiling at Matt. The
slash on her left hand had closed clean.

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"I wasn't talking to you," said Matt. "I was talking to this tree
... this tree?"

"Thought you didn't talk to trees," Terry said.

"Not usually," Matt whispered.

"I used to have that kind of dedication and discipline." said
the tree again. "Well, maybe not as intense."

"You said you only talked to man things," Terry said. "What
does that mean?" She patted her backpack and floated up to sit
on the highest part of the rock, above where she had performed
her ceremony.

**I can talk to things people have messed with. I know that
feeling, so we can relate."

"Hmm," said Terry. She opened the outside compartment of
her backpack, fished out two granola bars, and tossed one to
Matt. "But now you're talking to this tree."

Matt edged out on the root so she could look at the tree's
trunk. Its bark was almost fuzzy, with shallow fissures running
up and down. She placed her palm against it and felt a rough sur-
face but not a splintery one. "How can I talk to you?" she said.
"I don't know anything about nature."

"I'm not natural," said the tree.

"Oh," said Matt She wondered whether she should stand up.
She decided she'd rather sit on an unnatural tree than try climb-
ing on Terry's rock.

"I used to be a witch," the tree said. "Now I just watch
witches come and go here at the Gateway Stone. Powerspill
wakes me up sometimes."

"So what is it saying?" Terry asked-

"What happened to you?" Matt asked the tree.

"I got carried away during a spell, and it turned on me."

"Wow," said Matt, wondering if it could happen to Terry, and
if she maybe wanted it to.

"Could you let me out of here?"

"What?"

"I've been thinking about it for an age. I've worked out a spell
that should release me, but I need help."

"Matt." Terry said. "Talk to me." She was using her pushy
voice.

"He used to be a witch until he messed up and got trapped in \
the tree," Matt said, not realizing until the words came out of her j
mouth that the tree was male. One of the things she hated most
about her relationship with Terry was that Terry could just tell
her to do stuff and Matt would have to do it without being abl&J

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to think it over first Terry didn't do it very often—if she had,
Matt would have found some way out of the tether spell, even if
it involved not surviving. "He's worked out a spell to let him go.
He wants us to help."

"She coerces you?" the tree asked.

'Tether spell," mumbled Matt.

"Sympathies," said the tree. "How did that happen?"

"Uh," Matt said. She should never have stopped to fix Terry's
car. The car had warned Matt that Terry was a witch, but she
didn't realize it meant literally until too late.

In spite of the tether spell. Matt had liked living with Terry
and her mom, at first. Lately it had begun to grate.

"Oh. Right. Not easy for you to explain when she's listening,"
said the tree. "Hmm. You can hear me and she cannot, eh?"

"Mm."

"Are you a witch?"

"No."

"You're not? Wait a moment. How can that be?"

"I'm just me, Matt."

"Matt." said Terry. She drummed her fingers on her knee.

"What?"

Terry frowned. "So?"

"Do you want to help him with his spell?" asked Matt.

"How good a witch is she?" the tree muttered to itself. "No,
don't answer that. I have watched her work, and she's one of the
best I've ever seen."

"Have him tell us the spell." Terry unzipped her backpack and
pulled out the ancient book, opened it to a page near the back.
She got a pen out of the backpack's outside compartment. "I'll
think about it."

"She's a good witch, but is she a good witch?" the tree mut-
tered. "Evidence: she does her solstice ceremony alone. Not a
communal witch. Cast out. or alone by choice? Evidence: she
tethers another to her. Hmm. Hmm. Did she tell you why she
tethered you? Did you do something to her?"

"Yes. No," said Matt-

"Does he want our help or not?" Terry asked- She frowned.
Matt knew by now that with Terry, irritability was the first step
toward true discomfort for anybody she was around.

The tree said, "By wit and by will, I bound myself- By witch-
ings and workings I bound myself. By wood and by water I
bound myself. By one into other I bound myself. Now I am
ready to release myself. Now 1 am ready to face my fear. Now

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I am ready to go to war. By wood and by water I loose myself.
By witchings and workings I loose myself. By wit and by will I
loose myself."

"Matt," said Terry.

"Just a second," Matt said- She put her hands on the tree
trunk. It was trembling.

"Water," it whispered. Matt ran to the stream and grabbed wa-
ter in her cupped hands, brought it back and splashed it on the
trunk.

"Wood."

She looked around, saw the unbumt end of one of the sticks
Terry had used in her little bonfire on the rock, lifted it, and
touched it to the trunk.

"Will," whispered the tree.

Matt put her hands on its trunk and thought about being
trapped. Terry didn't seem to know how to make friends except
to manufacture them. She had a twin sister who had left on some
kind of magic quest and it was driving Terry nuts, though mostly
Matt knew about that because the room she stayed in was Terry's
twin's room, just a closet away from Terry's room, and at night
Matt could hear Terry calling and crying in her sleep. Terry also
had an ex-boyfriend, and a witch teacher who wouldn't talk to
her anymore. This much Matt had learned from surreptitious
talks with things in Terry's room. No wonder she's lonely, Matt
thought; but does that mean I have to stay tied to her tike this?
I might even like her if she gave me a chance.

"I will you to be free, I will you to be free, I will you to be
free," Matt said, leaning on her hands on the tree, which felt
warm, and still trembled against her. She spoke the words for the
tree and for herself.

"Matt!" Terry cried.

The tree shook harder. With a loud crack it split open and
spilled out a mushroom-pale boy.

"But we don't know who or what or—" Terry said.

The tree closed its mouth. Its bark welded back together be-
neath Matt's hands. She patted it and stepped away, looking at
the boy, who lay shuddering and twitching on the wet grass. He
was naked, his limbs wraith-thin, and his hair long and dark and
tangled, a few strands still caught in the bark of the tree. His eye-
lids fluttered. He coughed.

"—whether he's even a good person," Terry said.

Matt stooped. "Are you cold?" she asked, pulling off her plaid

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flannel shirt and draping it over him. She still had her black
T-shirt on.

"Thirsty," he whispered.

Matt went to the rock. "Gimme the bottle of water."

Terry raised her eyebrows, but opened the pack and fished out
the water bottle, then handed it to Matt.

Matt knelt on the grass, oblivious to wet knees, and lifted the
boy's head onto her thigh, tilting the bottle so water trickled into
his mouth. For an instant Matt was back in an alley, helping her
friend Denzel drink from a bottle in a brown paper bag, trying to
talk the bullet in bis gut into coming out, trying to talk the blood
into staying inside him, trying to talk his clothes into binding
against the wound, trying even to talk to germs, though she never
had before. It was a terrible time when talk got her nowhere.

She cradled the boy's pale head, giving him water a little at a
time and waiting while he swallowed, stroking his hair. His eyes
were green and he smelled like the tree.

After a little while he reached up and took the bottle from her
hand. He struggled and sat up. then drank the rest of the water.
Thanks," he said. "All these years of witch-traffic, and you, a
nonwitch, you're the first one who helped me."

Helped him ... That was how she had gotten into trouble with
Terry. When Terry dropped the tether spell on her, Matt had de-
cided that in the future she should leave witches alone. Usually
she kept her promises to herself.
"What's your name?" she asked.

"Lewis," he said. He stretched, first one arm toward the sky,
then the other. He scratched his nose and grinned at her, showing
a dimple in his left cheek.

"Matt," she said, holding out her hand.

"Pleased to meet you." He shook hands with her.

"That over there is Terry," Matt said.

"Hello," said Lewis, smiling toward Terry. She nodded with-
out smiling, her hands resting on her knees.

"How'd you get stuck in that tree?" Matt asked after a short
uncomfortable silence. "What were you trying to do?"

"I came up here to get away from the war. All the men and
boys were going overseas, except the ones who had some sort of
exemption or those who were too old. I thought if I changed my-
self, I could stay home. But I wasn't as specific about what I
wanted to change into as I thought I was."

"What did you want to change into?" Terry asked.

"Well," he said, "not a tree, anyway." He pushed to his feet

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and leaned his back against the tree, flattening his hands on the
bark. "This is still me. It's all the growing I've done." He tilted
his head back, looking up the trunk into the branches. Then he
closed his eyes.

Frogs chorused from the stream as the longest day of the year
was swallowed by the shortest night.

"Is there still a war?" he whispered.

'There's probably a war," Terry said. "There's usually a war.
People don't have to go against their wills right now, though.
You're a witch, and you couldn't come up with a better plan to
evade the draft than this?"

In the gathering darkness Matt couldn't tell for sure, but she
had the impression that Lewis was filling out, losing his starved
thinness as he lay back against the tree. Above them the branches
rustled, though there was no wind. Small scaled twiglets pattered
down. Matt caught one. It felt dry; she rubbed her lingers over
it and it came apart, leaving behind the ghost of a scent of green.

Terry pulled three candles out of her pack and lit them with a
touch of her fingers. She dripped wax and set the candles in it on
the rock beside her. The flames burned straight and unflickering.

"I had a better plan," Lewis said at last. His voice had deep-
ened, added overtones. "It just didn't work." He stepped away
from the tree. He was definitely bigger. He paused, lifted one
foot away from the ground, then me other. "Oh," he murmured,
touching the sole of his foot. "This is so strange." He pressed his
palm to his chest, then touched the bark of the tree. "I feel so na-
ked. No wonder people wear clothes." He lifted Mart's discarded
shirt and slipped it on without buttoning it. The sleeves were far
too short. "Not quite right, but better than nothing."

He went to Matt, grasping her elbows from behind and lifting
her to her feet. His hands were warm and strong. Her first im-
pulse was to kick back at him and twist free, but she suppressed
it He said to Terry, "I suppose you have some sort of master
plan that involves tethering this boy?"

Terry's eyebrows lifted. A moment later she shook her head.
"I have no plan," she said. "I realize that sometimes things come
into my life when I need them—spirit gifts—and I needed Matt"

"For what?" Lewis and Matt said together.

Terry ducked her head, her gaze on her hands, which lay
nested one in the other in her lap. "You know," she said. She
looked up into Matt's eyes, her own eyes catching glints from
the candle flames. Light turned half her face to butter amber.

"Oh, you're such a teenager!" Matt said.

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Terry brushed the hair out of her eyes and offered a brief
smile.

Lewis let Matt's elbows go, touched her shoulder. "You under-
stand her?"

"She's a power nerd," Man said after trying to figure out what
she did understand.

"Whaaat?" said Terry.

"What does that mean?*' Lewis asked.

"You don't—you run out of—you don't take the dme to make
the—it's a shortcut." Frustrated, Matt waved her fists up and
down. 'To get to know people, it takes time. It's not easy. Some-
times they hurt you and you hurt them. But you, you don't have
to wait. You have this power. You use it to get what you need,
because hoping someone else will help you takes too long and it
might not work. You can make a—a relationship happen without
even listening to me other person- You never have to risk getting
hurt. You just ... force it ... and you don't have to be scared
mere's anything I can do."

"No," said Terry, shaking her head. "That's not right."

"I know you're doing it because you've lost mem all," Matt
said. "Everybody else has gone, except your mom, and she's
scared of you. It's still cheating."

"No, dammit," said Terry, slapping her thighs with open
hands. "No. Shut up."

But she didn't use her pushy voice, so Matt said, "You never
asked me. How do you know I would have said no?"

"Everybody I've asked lately has said no."

"You didn't ask me"

Terry gripped one hand with the other. The tip of her tongue
touched her upper Up. "Would you be my friend?"

"Take the tether spell off."

Terry sat for a long moment with her head bowed. She zipped
open her pack at last and pulled out a small dark bag, reached in-
side, took out something about the size of a walnut. She mur-
mured words and held the little thing over one of the candle
flames. It bumed quickly and left a smell like sizzled hair be-
hind. Matt felt a lessening of tension somewhere in the region of
her stomach.

Terry brushed off her hands-

"Okay," Matt said. "Yes."

"You won't go away?"

"I will go away. Doesn't mean I stop being your friend. You

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have to treat me with respect, though, or to take care of myself,
I'll stop being your friend."

Terry hesitated, then said, "I'm not sure I know how to do
that. Will you help me?"

"Sure."

"Beautiful," said Lewis. From behind, he locked his arms
around Mart's upper body. "Now that you're free ..."

"Cut it out," said Matt, tugging at his arms. She couldn't
budge them. He had certainly bulked up since the tree expelled
him.

"I won't hurt you," he said.

"Then let go. Haven't you been paying attention? Forcing
hurts."

He hugged her, then dropped his arms. "I've missed human
contact. I've missed just being able to move around." He reached
for the sky with both hands, then rolled his head back and forth,
lowered his arms, and twisted his upper body. He bent over and
touched his toes. He walked away from the tree, at first striding
fast, then slowing as he came to the edge of the meadow. He
looked back over his shoulder at the tree. "I still can't
believe ..."

Matt edged over to the rock, and Terry grabbed her hand and
pulled her up, with maybe a little lifting help from air, or what-
ever it was that kept Terry clean and dry amidst all this dirt and
water.

"... that I can just walk away. I haven't seen the meadow
from a different direction in decades." His voice faded as he ven-
tured farther.

"Do you feel safe in the forest at night?" Matt muttered to
Terry.

"Most of the time," Terry muttered back. "I respect the spirits
of trees and streams and places, and they know I respect them,
and we regard each other but do no harm. It's only people that
scare me." She stared toward where Lewis had disappeared.

"What about big animals that eat people?"

"There aren't any around here."

"No cougars or bears? How can you know for sure?"

Terry laughed softly in the darkness. The candles were on the
side of Terry away from Matt, and from Matt's viewpoint, only
lit some grass and half of the tree Lewis had come out of. "If we
run into any big scary animals, I have a very quick distract spell
that ought to turn them away."

"Have you ever tried it? What if it doesn't work?"

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Terry reached behind her for her backpack, pulled it onto her
lap. "If you like, I can whip you up a ward-off-evil spell," she
whispered.

"Would that work on people, too?"

"I don't know. It's another thing I haven't tested."

"I'm starting to wonder about Lewis," Matt muttered-

"I've been wondering about him from the beginning."

t<Why?" Matt asked. Did Terry have some extra-sensory rea-
son?

"Because I have a suspicious nature."

Out of the darkness, Lewis's voice said, "You know what I'd
really like? A nice thick steak. And maybe a beer. Ice-cold.
Yeah. There's a restaurant, Morley's Landing, where you can tie
up canoes and rowboats and eat right beside the Millrace, a
lovely place of a summer's night—do you know it?"

"What town are you talking about?" asked Terry.

"Spores Ferry."

'There's no Millrace in Spores Ferry," she said.

"What?"

"There's no Millrace, and no Morley's Landing."

"How can that be? Oh. Time." His voice sounded sad. "Will
you ... take me to town and let me see if there are any land-
marks that survive?"

Terry lifted one of her candles. Matt watched as the dividing
line between light and dark moved across Terry's face. "Well,
I've done my devotions," she said after a moment. The light just
touched Lewis's form. He stood near me edge of the forest, like
the dim dream of a god. "I'm ready to go. Matt?"

"I'm more than ready to go." The night was finally cooling,
and she had given up her extra shirt. She scratched a mosquito
bite on her arm.

"Jump down and I'll give you a candle."

Matt slid down off the rock. Terry said a spell over the candle
she held and handed it to Matt. "It will bum steady, but not set
anything else alight," she said. "Lewis? Would you like a light?"

"No."

Terry pinched one of the candles out and spelled the other
one, then packed up everything except the lit candle, the roses,
and the ashes. She shouldered her backpack and drifted down
from the rock with the candle in her hand. She kissed the rock,
then set out across the meadow.

The wax felt warm and soft inside Matt's hand, and its melting
smell reassured her as though it were the essence of safety. She

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glanced around at the dark meadow and the star-shot sky, then
trailed Terry, conscious that this time it was by choice. Matt's
boots slapped sound from the marshy ground; Terry walked si-
lently. And Lewis, when he fell in behind Matt, made no sound
other than soft breathing. The back of her neck prickled.

The footing was firmer on the path. Matt listened to the path:

"You are walking away from me you are walking toward me you
are walking on me you are making and destroying me." She
liked its song better than the unknown mutters of the forest,
louder now mat it was night. The way back to the car went faster
than the hike out from it had. Twigs and branches didn't grab at
her as much, either. Maybe me forest was glad to see her go.

Matt crawled into the back seat of the Terry's white Fiat. She
stroked the seat, touched the window and the carpeting, relieved
to be in me wide worid of home again. "Who's that?" asked the
car as Lewis climbed into it. "It tastes like change."

"Don't know," Matt muttered.

"Not sure I want it inside me."

Terry tossed her pack in back and climbed into the car, started
it, and drove away.

"It doesn't feel right," Lewis said.

"What?" asked Teny.

"Not only does this car look freakish, and the dashboard looks
like something from a rocketship, and the engine doesn't make
half the sound it should, but this—this moving away from a
place—it feels wrong."

Terry said, "Do you want me to take you back?"

They were twisting and turning down a mountain road in the
darkness. Matt was leaning sleepily against the back of the seat,
which had shaped itself to cradle her. She closed her eyes and
waited for Lewis's answer.

"Part of me wants you to," he said after time had gone by.
"Being rooted felt... right. All this movement is confusing me.
Yet for ages and ages, I longed for nothing but freedom."

"Come down to the valley and look around. If you don't like
it, I'll take you back."

"You are very kind."

"Not really," Terry said, glancing toward him. Matt saw dash-
board light glinting on Terry's teem as she smiled.

They completed the drive in silence. "First off." Terry said, as
she pulled up in front of the house she shared with her mother,
and for now with Matt, "you need a few more clothes. There's

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some things of my dad's still in the house. Could you use a
shower? Though you don't really smell like a guy who's been
locked in a tree for years and years."

"A shower would be great," said Lewis. "I'm not really here
yet. I mean ..."

"I know. Changing shape, it takes a while to get used to the
new one," Terry said.

"You've done it?"

"Oh, sure. My sister Tasha and I used to have spell fights. I
turned her a lot more often than she turned me; she wasn't a very
good student. But she was really good with this one spell. She
liked turning people into Pekingeses. That is, until she got reli-
gion. So I know what it's like. Before you get out of the car,
would you wrap something around your waist? Our neighbors
are always watching our house. They've seen enough weird
things already."

Lewis shifted around and took off the shirt Matt had given
him, did something with it "Best I can do," he said.

"It's pretty dark," Terry said. She snapped her fingers, and the
light over the front door went out. "Okay, door's unlocked. Go
for it," she said.

Lewis dashed across the lawn and managed not to drop the
shirt until he had the front door open. He ducked inside. Matt
and Terry followed more sedately, at least until Terry's 
motherscreamed-

Lighls switched on across the street and next door.

"Damn!" said Terry. She snapped her fingers. "Phone lines ...
Mom, I can explain... .'*

In the front hall, Lewis stood with his back to the wall, one
hand covering his genitals, the other his mouth, his eyes wide.
Terry's mother Rebecca stood backed up against the sofa, both
hands over her mouth, her eyes as wide as Lewis*.

"I can explain," Terry said again, but then she burst out laugh-
ing.

Terry's mom started breathing again. Her hands came down
from her mouth. "Better be a good one," she said.

With effort, Terry smothered her laughter. "Well, we went up
to the forest. You know why. And we found this guy, Lewis, up
there, and he didn't have any clothes, so I thought maybe some
of Dad's castoffs might still be in the basement and 1 invited him

home."

"Not good enough," said Rebecca. "What was he doing up
there naked in the woods?"

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"He was under a wicked enchantment."

Rebecca's cheeks lost color. "Terry ... I don't appreciate that
kind of humor. I don't like the—I'm not comfortable with you
bringing strangers into my house."

"I'll take him out again as soon as he showers and has some
clothes. Mom. And it wasn't a joke. And I thought this was my
house, too."

"She's talking about me," Matt said.

"Oh, I am not. Matt," said Rebecca, irritation in her tone. "I'm
glad you're here, and I hope you stay as long as you want"

"I only want to stay as long as it's okay," Matt said.

"It's okay, dammit."

Matt sighed. "Mrs. Dane, this is my friend, Lewis. Lewis, this
is Mrs. Rebecca Dane."

"Pleased to meet you, Mrs. Dane," Lewis said, red staining his
cheeks. He didn't hold out a hand.

"I apologize for my lack of manners, Mr. Lewis," said Re-
becca.

"I understand. It's enough to turn anyone's hair white, a naked
stranger running in your front door. I didn't know there'd be
anybody home."

"Well," she said. "Well ... welcome to my home. Let me
show you to the shower. And you may drop your hand. You
don't have anything I haven't seen before, and if I hadn't seen it
before, I wouldn't know what it was, as my grandmother used to
say. Obviously the kids have already gotten an eyeful."

"I'll go hunt up some clothes," Terry said as Lewis followed
Rebecca down the left-hand hallway.

"What sort of enchantment was it?" Rebecca asked.

"I was trapped inside a tree for fifty years, more or less," said
Lewis as their voices faded.

Matt went to the kitchen while Terry searched the basement.
She was starving after all those hours in the wild. Part of Terry's
intense discipline involved regulating what she ate and when,
and while Matt was tethered to her. Matt had followed Terry's
eating habits. It had been nutritious, but not much fun- She
opened her arms to the kitchen and said, 'Talk to me, food."

A cupboard popped open and a bag of pretzels jumped into her
arms. "Oh, thank you!" she said, and sat at the table to eat some.

Lewis stayed in the shower a long, long time. Listening to the
sound of water in pipes, the three women sat in the kitchen, talk-

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ing in murmurs, Rebecca and Matt sharing pretzels, Terry taking
tiny sip-bites of unflavored yogurt. At last Terry said, "Matt,
what the hell is he doing in there?"

Matt asked the house. "Uh-oh," she said when she heard the
answer.

"What is it?" asked Rebecca.

"Putting down roots."

Terry knocked on the bathroom door. "Lewis? Get your toes
out of the drain or I'll turn you into a porcupine!"

"Wha-a-a-at?" His voice sounded sleepy and slow.

"Turn off the water and get out of the plumbing."

"What? Oh ... just a minute."

Matt leaned against the wall and listened to what the 'house
had to tell her. The invasion of its systems by this stranger had
worried it, and it was glad that he was withdrawing parts of him-
self that had gone where people parts weren't supposed to go.

"I've got clothes for you." Terry said in a less cross voice.
"Anytime you're ready."

The door opened a crack and steam billowed out, carrying
scents of soap, shampoo, and—green? "I'm sorry. I don't know
what got into me," said Lewis. Terry handed the clothes to him
and he shut the door again.

"It's what got out of him that's interesting," Terry muttered to
Matt.

The waitress brought a still-steaming steak on a platter and set
it in front of Lewis. She set down Terry's lemon herbed chicken
and Rebecca's garlic shrimp, and then gave Matt her hamburger.
Matt picked up a French fry and bit it It was nice to finally or-
der just what she wanted, instead of picking the same thing Terry
ordered, or something else she thought might stay in her stomach
even if she got too far from Terry and felt sick. Lewis' steak
smelled good. Matt wondered if she should have ordered that in-
stead.

Lewis picked up his steak knife and fork and cut into his meat.
Red welled up behind the knife, and the flesh was still pink in-
side, rare, the way he'd ordered it. He stared at it a moment. He
lifted his fork, with the morsel of steak on it, and studied it. He
licked his upper lip. He blinked several times. He paled.

He shook his head. "I can't eat this," he said, setting the fork
down. He swallowed. "I can't... I can't even stay here. Excuse

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me." Jumping up, he dropped his napkin over the platter and its
cargo and dashed from the restaurant.

"Nuts," said Terry.

Matt picked up her hamburger. If they were leaving, she was
taking it with her.

"You want to check on him, see if he'll wait while we eat?**
Terry asked Matt.

Matt sighed and put her hamburger down.

"Why don't you do it?" Rebecca said suddenly. "Why this
lady-of-the-manor delegation thing? It's really getting on my
nerves. Matt's not your servant."

"What?" said Terry.

"Just because you can turn people into pinecones, it doesn't
give you the right to order them around as though they were less
important than you are."

"Mom, what's gotten into you?"

"Nothing's gotten into me. I'm just letting a little of what was
always there out. I love you, and I'll always love you; that
doesn't mean I approve of everything you're doing. And yes, I
dam well expect immunity from your powers."

Terry stared at her mother for a moment, then set her napkin
beside her plate, rose, and walked out.

"That wasn't too harsh, was it?" Rebecca asked Matt.

Matt shook her head. She had never had a conversation alone
with Rebecca, and she felt shy. "If you're going to live with
somebody, I guess you need rules," Matt said. "I usually move
on before I get to that stage."

"She's been walking all over you."

"People do, sometimes. Usually I leave when they start, but
Terry wouldn't let me."

Rebecca blinked. "Oh. I don't like that at all."

"Got her to let me go today."

"You're still here."

Matt nodded. "You said it was okay. Lewis is kind of my re-
sponsibility, since I let him out of the tree."

"You let him out?"

"Yeah. I'm not a witch, but I talk to things."

"Ah. Yes. I noticed."

Matt smiled. "He said people had been coming to that stone
where Terry did her ceremony for years, but nobody noticed him
before. I haven't run into other people who can talk to things like
I can. When he was a tree, I could hear him talk, but Terry
couldn't."

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"Hmmm," said Rebecca. She ate a shrimp. "While watching
Terry operate since I found out she was a witch, it occurred to
me that it would be very difficult to let go of all the advantages
you gain when you have these special abilities. Do you ever not
talk to things?"

"Lots of times," Matt said. "I usually only ask questions when
I feel like something's coming at me. When I need help or I need
to know something to survive. I don't know anything about you,
really."

Rebecca patted her mouth with her napkin and smiled.
"Thanks, Matt."

"You're welcome." Matt ate her hamburger.

*T don't know much about you either."

"We could talk about it," Matt said.
Rebecca grinned.

"For starters, I've done a lot of traveling," said Matt.

Terry returned, subdued.

"He okay?" Matt asked.

"He wants to go back."

The four of them sat out on the back lawn at Terry and Rebec-
ca's house, drinking lemonade and looking at city-hazed stars.
Someone on the block was watering the lawn; the air carried the
sound of false rain and the scent of wet grass.

"Everything," Lewis said, "everything is different. I can't eat
this food, and I'm starving. Music is different. Buildings are dif-
ferent. People dress differently, and they use a lot of words that
don't make sense. The prices on that menu scared me! I could
have rented a room for two weeks for the amount of money that
steak cost, and I couldn't even eat it. How can things be so ex-
pensive? There are all kinds of devices in your house that I have
no idea what they do, and I don't want to find out. Ail these
years, the witches have been the same; but everything else has
changed."

"So you want to run away and hide?" Matt said.

"I don't see how I can survive here. I can't just mooch off
Terry and Rebecca, can I? But how could I get a job? I don't un-
derstand anything about this new world."

Matt thought about mooching off Terry and Rebecca. She
didn't want to do it much longer herself, now that she had a
choice. Something in her, the wandergod part of her, longed to
move on, wash her present off, and start over someplace new
with no complications or expectations. She had been living her

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life in short bright sections for more years than she bothered to
count. The road was continuity enough.

"Aren't you ever curious?" she asked. "Don't you even want
to find out?"

His answer was a long time coming. "Maybe. In a way."

"You were a Crafter once," Terry said. "What happened to
your desire to shape things?"

"Hmm," he said. "I think ... as time passed ... I figured out
what to want. Sunlight. Rain. Snow. Dead oiganic matter. And
freedom, and someone to talk to. Maybe I was shaping as much
as I could. Or maybe I was just accepting what came. It was al-
most enough."

"Dead organic matter is mostly what we eat," Terry said
thoughtfully. "You're doing okay with the lemonade, aren't
you?"

"Hmm," said Lewis, looking into his cup. "It tastes good."

"What kind of tree are you when you're a tree?" Rebecca
asked.

"Something local. A cedar, I think. I'm not sure exactly."

"You could put down roots," Rebecca said slowly. "And pick
them up again."

"I don't know," said Lewis. "I left my tree behind."

"You started rooting in the house."

"Huh. Yes."

"We could use some more shade in the back yard," she said.
"You could just -.. stay here a while and maybe ieam some
more about now."
"You could stay here for a while and then go somewhere else.
Learn new things all the time, and new places. Root. uproot,"
Matt said. "That's how I live. Try a different place every little
while. You could come with me. I could teach you." She touched
her mouth after the words were out. Part of her lifeway was to
be alone; to always make friends, but never to take them with
her on her journey from one piece of life to the next. What had
come over her?

"Matt, don't go," said Terry.

"What am I doing here?" Matt said. "I need to go."

"I could teach you to root," Lewis said. He laid his hand over
hers on the lawn. His fingers plunged down into the soil, caging
hers between them.

"No!" said Matt, tugging, but her hand was locked to the
Earth.

"Relax," said Lewis.

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"No!"

"1*11 let you go in a minute. Relax."

Everything in her was twisted tight and squirming. Every les-
son she had learned early in life was about getting away before
the Bad Things could find her, and now she was trapped. She
pulled in breaths and let them out slowly, trying to relax. At last
she asked Lewis' clothing if it could strangle him for her, and it
said it could do that if she wanted. She relaxed, and felt—

Her fingers aiming downward, digging into dirt, reaching
deeper than their lengths, seeking and finding deep cool comfort;

and a language that spoke so slowly a word would take a lifetime
but be worth waiting for; and things seeping into her through her
fingers, things that tasted like steaming mashed potatoes drown-
ing in butter, and hot apple cider, and chocolate ripple ice cream;

and a sense of strength infinite and offering itself to her; all she
had to do was stay. Warmth. Comfort. Eternity. A cradle.

The pressure on her hand went away. Her hand pulled back
into its own shape, and she was sitting, bereft of contact and
comfort, on the lawn again, a world away from the eternal com-
munity. Shivering started in her arms and traveled through her.

"Are you okay?" Terry asked, gripping her arm. Matt shook
for a little longer. The warmth from Terry's hand felt good.

When the shaking stopped, Matt patted Terry's hand and said,
"Don't do that to me without asking, Lewis. Don't."

"You would have said no. And I could never describe it."

"Don't do it like that again."

He hesitated, then said, "I won't."

Matt sipped lemonade. Half had sloshed out of her glass while
she was shaking. "I'll try it again tomorrow," she said, "if you'll
come to town with me and Terry."

"All right," he said. "For tonight, I'd just like to stay out
here."

"Pick a spot away from the house and not under the power
lines," Rebecca said.

"I will. Thanks to all of you, for everything."

Matt was brushing her teeth while Terry rubbed astringent
over her face. "Pay attention to your dreams tonight," Terry said.
"It's a time of pollination. Seeds get set."

"I don't want any dreams," Matt said, but her mouth was full
of toothpaste and the words didn't come out.

She dreamed of Home.