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HASHI
It was typical of Hashi
Lebwohl that he did not re-
port to Warden Dios as soon as he returned to UMCPHQ.
He wasn't trying to avoid another confrontation with the
man who had outplayed and, in a strange, piquant sense,
shamed him. On the contrary, he felt remarkably sanguine
about the prospect of talking to the UMCP director. He simply
made no effort to bring about a conversation himself. He as-
sumed that Warden Dios was perfectly capable of recognizing
an emergency when he saw it—and that he wouldn't hesitate
to summon Hashi when he wished to speak to his DA director.
A kaze had attacked the Governing Council for Earth and
Space in extraordinary session, apparently intending to exter-
minate Cleatus Fane, the First Executive Assistant of the
United Mining Companies. Only Hashi's personal intervention
had prevented serious—not to say embarrassing—bloodshed.
And as a direct result of the attack the GCES had voted to
reject Captain Sixten Vertigus' Bill of Severance. Indeed, the
Members had been stampeded into clinging to the status quo
for their lives; to Holt Fasner and the UMCP. None of them
had wanted to take on the responsibility for their own safety—
and certainly not for the safety of human space.
If Warden didn't call this an emergency, he must have lost
all contact with the world of factual reality. Or else his game
was deeper than anything Hashi had dared to imagine. Perhaps
it was deeper than he could imagine.
Neither prospect offered reassurance. On the whole, how-
ever, Hashi preferred the latter. That which he found impene-
trable today might well appear transparent tomorrow. And he
could always push himself to expand his own capacities. The
challenge might conceivably be good for him. In the meantime
he could endure the shame of being outplayed.
But if Warden Dios had lost his grasp on events—
From that fount endless disasters might spring.
This was all speculation, of course. Still Hashi wondered
—and worried. The quantum mechanics of his conundrum re-
mained as Heisenberg had defined them. By his own efforts he
had taken hold of events in flux in order to name them accu-
rately; establish them in their positions. Therefore he was pre-
vented from knowing where those events tended. Certainty
precluded certainty.
He chose not to report to Warden on his own initiative
because he wanted to know how long Warden would wait be-
fore summoning him. That interval would reveal more surely
than words the extent to which Warden had been taken by
surprise.
In any case the DA director still had plenty of work to do
in order to ready himself for Warden's summons; to confirm
and solidify what he'd learned on Suka Bator. No one would
criticize him for spending every available moment on an effort
to be sure of his facts.
Using a tight-beam transmission coded exclusively for
Data Acquisition, he'd begun speaking to Lane Harbinger as
soon as the UMCP shuttle had left the GCES island and bro-
ken free of Earth's gravity well; supplying her with prelimi-
nary data; preparing her for the research he required. He felt
some discomfort as he did so because he wasn't alone on the
shuttle. Protocol Director Koina Hannish rode with him, ac-
companied by her retinue of aides and techs. And UMCPED
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to explain his failures to Warden Dios, since his immediate
superior, Min Donner, was absent from UMCPHQ. He'd left
Deputy Chief Forrest Ing in charge of Security's version of
"martial law" on Suka Bator.
At the best of times Hashi disliked being overheard—
unless he had some use for his eavesdropper. But his present
circumstances didn't supply privacy, or justify delay. He owed
Warden restitution for his earlier mistakes. Instead of waiting
for the shuttle to reach UMCPHQ, he kept his exchanges with
Lane as brief as possible; and when he spoke, he employed the
impermeable jargon of DA to disguise what he was saying.
To all appearances Koina ignored him completely. No
doubt she had more than enough to occupy her contempla-
tions. Although she was new to her duties, she'd acquitted
herself admirably during the extraordinary session. And she
had reason to be grateful to Captain Vertigus, despite the fail-
ure of his proposed legislation. On the other hand, Hashi
deemed that most of her thoughts were more troubled. He
knew her well enough to suspect that she feared her perfor-
mance before the Council may have triggered or catalyzed the
kaze's attack. For her it must have been easy to believe that the
men who'd sent a kaze against the GCES would not have felt
compelled to go so far if they hadn't been surprised or fright-
ened by her declaration of the UMCP's neutrality in the debate
over a Bill of Severance; her declaration of Warden Dios' in-
dependence from Holt Fasner.
Hashi knew better. Earlier he'd been uncertain: now he
was sure. Her performance may in fact have been a catalyst.
Nevertheless it was essentially incidental. The men responsible
for Clay Imposs ne Nathan Alt could not have known that
Sixten Vertigus, Senior Member for the United Western Bloc,
would introduce a Bill of Severance. In addition, Imposs/Alt
had been moving past Captain Vertigus toward Cleatus Fane
when Hashi had accosted him. Therefore Captain Vertigus
wasn't the intended target. The motivations behind the kaze's
attack operated independently of the UWB Senior Member
and his bill, as well as of Warden Dios' neutrality.
Hashi said nothing to reassure Koina. She hadn't asked
for anything of the kind. And she would hear what he'd
learned soon enough.
In contrast Chief Mandich studied Hashi narrowly while
he spoke to Lane. Clearly Mandich was waiting for a chance
to talk to the DA director.
A pox on the man, Hashi thought with unwonted vexa-
tion. The Chief of Security's rectitude was as ironclad as Min
Donner's, but he lacked her flexibility of intelligence, her ca-
pacity to acknowledge concepts which violated her personal
reality. For example, Hashi didn't doubt that if Mandich were
suddenly exalted to the position of UMCP director, the man
wouldn't hesitate to fire Hashi for having done things which
disturbed the Chief's scruples. Min Donner, on the other
hand, might well retain Hashi in DA, even though she knew
far more about his actions and policies, and therefore had ex-
perienced far more outrage to her peculiar sense of honor.
Still Hashi did nothing to fend off Chief Mandich. Instead
he made himself accessible as soon as he'd finished his inter-
change with Lane.
The Chief took the opportunity to move to a g-seat beside
Hashi, belt himself down. "Director Lebwohl," he began
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was a kaze."
Hashi's blue eyes glittered dangerously behind his
smeared lenses. "Do you?" he countered in a tone of false
amiability. No doubt Mandich meant, How were you able to
spot him when we couldn't?
"I do." Chief Mandich was a blunt man with a blunt
face; stolid as bone. His nearly colorless gaze had the dull
tenacity of a pit bull's. "And then I need to know why you
didn't do anything to stop him sooner.
"Something about him made you suspicious. You left
your seat and moved around the hall specifically so that you
could get close to him. But you didn't say anything."
Mandich spoke with undisguised bitterness. He hated his own
failures. "We're just lucky nobody in the hall was killed. If
you'd bothered to warn us, a GCES Security guard would still
be alive. Ensign Crender would still have his left hand.
"With respect, Director Lebwohl," he sneered, "what the
hell did you think you were doing?"
A tremor ran along Hashi's frame. His own reaction to
the danger and indignity of the past few hours seemed to shrill
inside him. "Very well." He folded his thin hands in his lap to
conceal their indignation. "You answer my questions, and I
will answer yours.
"To use your phrase, Chief Mandich, what the hell did
you think you were doing when you assigned a whelp like
Ensign Crender to take my orders?"
Mandich's eyes widened.
Wheezing sharply, Hashi sent his words like wasps into
the Chief's blunt face. "I made my needs known explicitly to
Deputy Chief Ing. I informed him that I desired him and his
men to stand ready to carry out my requests and instructions.
"He replied that he could not comply without consulting
you.
"I did not consider that adequate. 'If I ask you to "do
something," I will need it done without the delay of applying
to your chief for permission.' Those were my exact words. I
told him plainly that I did not know what to expect, but that I
wished to be prepared for whatever might transpire.
"Still he hesitated. I answered, 'Then kindly inform Chief
Mandich that I require him to assign personnel to me who
have been given his authorization to do what I tell them.'
Again those are my exact words.
"Director Hannish supported my wishes."
Obliquely Hashi observed that Koina was staring at him,
her lips slightly parted in surprise. It was probable that in the
years she'd worked with him she'd never heard him sound so
angry.
An undignified flush stained Chief Mandich's neck, mot-
tled his cheeks with his own anger. He opened his mouth to
deliver a retort. But Hashi wasn't done. He didn't give the
Chief a chance to speak.
"How did you respond?" he went on harshly. "By as-
signing to me a boy so untried that he was unable to react
without hesitation—hesitation which could well have resulted
in murder in the meeting hall of the Governing Council for
Earth and Space.
"True, he mastered his hesitation. He took the action nec-
essary to save lives. For that I honor him.
"But I do not honor you, Chief Mandich." If Hashi
hadn't controlled his hands, they would have flown like stings
at the Chief's eyes. "I am the United Mining Companies Po-


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lice Director of Data Acquisition, and you did not take my
stated requirements seriously enough to assign personnel capa-
ble of prompt obedience.
"Shall we discuss our separate motivations now, or do
you prefer to wait until we can explain them in front of Direc-
tor Dios?" Hashi shrugged dismissively. "For myself, I am
content to wait."
Chief Mandich closed his mouth. Congested emotion
made his features appear swollen. Poor man, he was cursed
with a sense of probity so strict that it left him defenseless.
Min Donner would have faced down Hashi's challenge in or-
der to pursue the answers to her own questions; but her Chief
of Security couldn't do the same.
After a moment he murmured through his teeth, "You
have a valid grievance, Director Lebwohl. If you want to cen-
sure me, I won't fight it."
Stiffly he undipped his belts and drifted back to his for-
mer g-seat.
Oh, censure you, forsooth, Hashi thought in the direction
of the Chief's retreat. I would not trouble myself. Our present
circumstances are accusation enough. We confront a dilemma
which censures us all.
Honesty with himself forced him to admit that he'd en-
joyed scathing Chief Mandich.
Koina met Hashi's look when he glanced at her. Gravity
and speculation darkened her gaze. "Aren't you being just a
little disingenuous, Director Lebwohl?" she asked crisply.
"Even a 'whelp' like Ensign Crender wouldn't have hesitated
if you'd told him what you were looking for."
Hashi spread his hands as if to show her that his equanim-
ity had been completely restored. "My dear Koina, have you
studied Heisenberg?"
She shook her head.
"A pity." He settled himself in his g-seat to await the
shuttle's arrival at UMCPHQ. "If you had, you would under-
stand that I could not possibly have known what I was looking
for until I found it."
That may have been as close as he'd ever come to telling
her the truth.
Lane Harbinger met him at the dock "as soon as the shuttle
powered down its systems and the space doors of the bay
sealed to restore atmosphere.
On Suka Bator he'd supervised the essential chore of
placing Imposs/Alt's earthly remains in a shielded, sterile
bodybag and loading them into the shuttle's cargo space. Now
he watched over the delivery of the bodybag into Lane's care.
A glance at the corridor in which the kaze had been deto-
nated had assured him that too many people had trampled too
much evidence—and indeed that the corridor itself was too
large—to permit the kind of meticulous scrutiny Lane had
given Godsen Frik's office. Of necessity he'd surrendered his
desire for some form of microscopic data from the region
around the body, and had instead concentrated on Imposs/
Alt's corpse—on the smears of his blood and the mangled
mess of his tissues. The body itself had been simply scooped
into the bodybag with a sterile shovel. But every streak or
droplet of blood Hashi could locate had been cut out of the
concrete with a utility laser and added to the bodybag's con-
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to find the answers he needed.
No, not the answers: the proofs. He already knew the
answers.
A fuming nic dangled from her mouth as she joined him
beside the cargo space. Her eyes glittered like shards of mica
—a sign that she rode levels of stim and hype which would
have poleaxed anyone whose metabolism hadn't been inured
to them. In the pockets of her labcoat her fingers twitched as if
they were entering data on a purely metaphysical keypad.
While the bodybag was being loaded onto a sled for transport
to her lab in Data Acquisition, she asked tensely, "You sure of
his id?"
"My dear Lane," Hashi chided gently. She knew as well
as anyone who worked with him that he was unlikely to mis-
take an id.
She shrugged like a twitch. "Just checking. If you're
right, my job's that much easier."
Certainly she would be required to spend less time wait-
ing for Data Storage to run its vast SAC routines.
"Any chance I'll find a detonator?" she continued.
Hashi made a conscious effort to remain calm; amiably
unruffled. He didn't want to be infected by her congenital ten-
sion. "Who can say?" There were too many factors: the type
of explosive, its brisance, the shape of the charge, blast reflec-
tion from the nearby walls. "But if you do," he went on more
sharply, "the information will be vital. Do you understand me,
Lane?"
She sucked on her nic. "What's to understand? Isn't that
what it all hinges on?"
"Not all," he countered with a shake of his head. "But
enough." He knew the truth: whatever Lane learned wouldn't
change it. Nevertheless the proof he wished to give Warden
Dios depended heavily on what Lane could discover.
"In any case," he added, "these will be of interest."
Casually, almost covertly, as if he didn't wish to be seen,
he slipped Imposs/Alt's clearance badge and id tag into Lane's
pocket.
She identified them with her fingers, nodded decisively.
"I'm sure they will."
The sled was ready to go. Lane moved to accompany it.
Despite the nature of the emergency, however, and his own
desires, he called her back. Camouflaging his seriousness with
his peculiar sense of humor, he told her that he wished to see
her results "relatively instantaneously. Engage your gap drive,
Lane. Defy time if you must."
He wanted her findings before Warden summoned him.
She replied with a snort of smoke, "Don't I always?"
He wheezed a laugh. "You do. Indeed you do."
He waited until she and her sled had left the dock before
shifting himself into motion.
By then he'd already begun to wonder how much longer
Warden would delay.
More than an hour passed before a call from the director of the
UMCP reached Hashi, instructing him to present himself im-
mediately to one of Warden's private offices.
Hashi hadn't wasted the time. First he'd issued a number
of Red Priority—"screaming red," as it was sometimes called
—security locks: one for every communications channel and
computer that belonged or connected to Anodyne Systems, the
UMC subsidiary which manufactured SOD-CMOS chips; one
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Fasner's Home Office personnel, payroll, and Security Liaison
computers. A screaming red security lock didn't prevent any-
one else from looking at electronic files or using communica-
tions linkups; but it blocked changes of any kind to those files,
or to any transmission logs and records. At the same time it
warned DA that changes had been attempted, and traced the
codes and routing of the attempt backward.
He was morally certain that the Dragon's HO techs could
disable or deactivate a Red Priority security lock, no matter
how loudly it screamed. At the same time he was quite sure
that this would not be done, first, because Holt Fasner would
hardly imagine that crucial records were in any danger of ex-
posure, second, because Holt would believe that any embar-
rassment which might arise from his files could be quashed
through Warden Dios, and third, because as a matter of policy
the Dragon liked to preserve an illusion of openness and hon-
esty. Rather than resistance Hashi expected passive accep-
tance: another illusion.
An illusion which would reveal itself as murderous fury
against Hashi himself when the UMC CEO determined that
Hashi no longer represented a threat.
This prospect didn't trouble Hashi. He could say with
considerable accuracy that he did not fear the Dragon in any
ordinary sense. The possibility of intellectual inadequacy gave
him far more distress than a merely physical threat.
When his security locks were in place, he used his author-
ity under the provisions of Red Priority to compile the most
complete dossiers which Data Storage, joined by microwave
downlinks to GCES Security and Anodyne Systems, could
provide on both Nathan Alt and Clay Imposs.
Warden's summons found him just as he was finishing.
More than an hour since the shuttle had docked: several
hours since the kaze's blast. Apparently Warden hadn't been
taken by surprise to any meaningful extent.
That was good and bad; better and worse. The delay had
allowed Hashi to complete his immediate research. On the
other hand, a longer delay might have given Lane time to pro-
duce the results Hashi craved.
Despite the plain urgency of the summons—and the ne-
cessity of obedience—Hashi took the time to call her.
Her voice over the intercom was brusque and focused;
deep in concentration. "Make it quick. I'm busy."
Hashi couldn't restrain himself: his personal imp of per-
versity made him say, "Too busy to talk to me? Lane, I'm
crushed."
She let out a sigh that sounded like smoke. "If you want
me to work fast, I have to be careful. If you want me to work
faster than the speed of light, I have to be more careful than
God."
He relented. "I understand perfectly." Above all he val-
ued Lane for her meticulousness. "Nevertheless I must appear
before Warden Dios in a matter of moments. The time is apt
for results. He will certainly desire results from me."
"Then let's not waste each other's time. Here's what I
have so far.
"The id tag and clearance badge were easy." She didn't
need to organize her thoughts. Hashi suspected that she per-
mitted herself no disorganized thoughts. "They're legit. I
mean Clay Imposs is—or maybe was—a real GCES security
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tag and badge say they're his. But the body isn't.
"You were right, it's Nathan Alt. Gene scan matches ex-
actly.
"So how did he get through his own Security?" She
asked Hashi's next question for him. "Right after that first
kaze attacked Captain Vertigus, GCES Security started using
retinal scans to confirm id. That should have stopped Alt cold.
"The answer is, this is a new id tag. Made for the job. It
says it identifies Clay Imposs, but the retinal signature and the
rest of the physical id belong to Alt."
"Is that possible?" Hashi inquired. He knew it was.
"Sure. It worked because the physical id was generated
by the same code engine that drove Imposs' clearances. Every-
thing looked legit on the surface. GCES Security didn't know
they had to run a full playback from the SOD-CMOS chips
and compare it to Imposs' original data to catch the switch.
Hell, Hashi, we aren't doing that here. It would take hours to
clear anybody."
Sadly, that was true. Indeed, the only reason GCES—or
UMCPHQ—Security functioned at all was that the expertise
needed to circumvent it was so specialized; and so closely
guarded.
"Are you performing this playback? I require evidence."
"One of my techs is."
"And—" Hashi prompted her.
"We haven't found anything yet."
"Have you encountered any patches, or other signs of
tampering?"
As Hashi had told Koina before the extraordinary session,
the code-strings Lane had extracted from the credentials of
Godsen's killer were current as well as correct. If that code
engine had been patched or altered—lawfully or otherwise,
by GCES Security, Anodyne Systems, or anyone else—the
change would have been apparent. Such adjustments trans-
formed source-code as much as mutagens transformed human
RNA.
But only older code required patching.
Lane restrained impatience poorly. "Not yet."
"Very well." He let that question go. "And the code
engine itself—?" he probed.
"It's valid," she returned at once. "Current and correct.
Which means exactly what you think it means.
"But if you want confirmation," she continued without
pausing, "the source-code strings we've picked up from the id
of the kaze who killed Godsen are a perfect match."
Hashi nodded to himself. "Confirmation is always wel-
come. However, this is hardly a surprise."
"No," Lane acknowledged.
He cast a worried glance at his chronometer, then asked,
"Have you gleaned any other data?"
"That's what I'm working on," she retorted. "The
body."
As she spoke, he heard a subtle shift in her tone; a change
of intensity. So far the results she'd given him had been rela-
tively routine, despite their importance: any of the techs in her
department could have supplied them. But now she sounded
more personally engaged; perhaps excited. At once he became
convinced that she was on the track of something vital.
"But I can tell you right now," she went on, "we aren't
going to find a detonator.
"The bomb has to be shielded in the body. Otherwise


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Security would catch it. And you know what that kind of
shielding is like." Hashi did know. Angus Thermopyle's body
was full of it. "It has to appear organic in order to pass scan.
On top of that, it has to reflect back what scan expects to see.
Unfortunately—for us—any shield contains the blast when the
bomb goes off. Maybe only for a millisecond or two, but that's
enough to throw some of the force back onto the bomb itself.
And the detonator. On a molecular level, I'll be able to find all
the pieces you want. But I won't be able to reconstruct the
device those pieces came from.
"So I'm concentrating on biochemistry."
Her voice conveyed an almost subliminal frisson, like a
distant electrostatic discharge. Despite the numbers ticking
away on his chronometer, he listened harder.
"His blood is a real witch's brew. Which is exactly what
you would expect if he was in a state of drug-induced hypno-
sis. I haven't had time to identify even half the chemicals his
body shouldn't have had in it." She paused to emphasize what
followed. "But there's one detail that looks a little strange. Or
a little stranger than the rest of it.''
"Tell me," Hashi put in as if he thought he could hurry
her; as if he didn't know that she was already moving as fast
as she could without stumbling into disorganization.
Instead of hurrying, she began to speak a bit more slowly,
articulating each word with deliberate precision.
  "There's a coenzyme spike in his blood spectrum. I mean
a major spike. Of course, it's a coenzyme. It's inert. And it
isn't even remotely natural. But it combines with some natural
human apoenzymes to produce an artificial holoenzyme, and
that one is active. It bears some interesting resemblances to
pseudo-amylase, which is one of the enzymes we use to pro-
duce shielding in cyborgs, but there are significant differences,
too."
Involuntarily Hashi drummed his fingers on his desk. He
needed to answer Warden's summons. "Lane, please make
your point. I am not in good odor with our esteemed director.
This delay,while we talk will doubtless vex him."
"I'm trying, damn it," she snapped. "Nobody but you
ever gets to think around here."
He swallowed a burst of ire. He had called her before she
was ready to report. Her findings were partial or unclear. Nat-
urally she wished to express them cautiously. He would gain
nothing by reproaching her.
"If there were more resemblances," she explained stiffly,
"I would probably assume this particular coenzyme is there
because of the shields. But it wouldn't work well for that. The
differences are too significant."
Again she paused. In another moment or two, Hashi
thought, he would have no choice but to shout at her.
More slowly than ever, she went on, "If I were asked to
come up with a use for the holoenzyme this coenzyme creates,
I might say it would make a good chemical trigger. Release it
into the bloodstream, and one or two heartbeats later you get a
big bang. Like an orgasm so intense it kills you."
Without transition his irritation vanished. Lane Harbinger,
he hummed to himself, you are a marvel. Is it any wonder that
I endure your eccentricities?
Almost singing his excitement and pleasure, he said,
"Check his teeth, Lane."
Where could a coenzyme be concealed so that a man in a



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state of drug-induced hypnosis would be able to ingest it on
some preconditioned signal? Where else but in his mouth?
And absorption into the bloodstream would be slower. Ten or
fifteen seconds at least. Safer for the man who gave the signal.
"What's left of them," she returned. "I'm already work-
ing on it."
In a glow of perverse gallantry, he answered, "Then
please do not allow me to interrupt you. Perhaps when your
efforts are complete you will let me persuade you to marry
me."
So that he wouldn't hear her laughing in scorn, he si-
lenced his intercom.
No doubt she could never prove the conclusions he drew.
When her research was complete she would probably be able
to demonstrate that this particular holoenzyme would serve
well as a chemical trigger. Sadly, logic would preclude her
from concluding that this holoenzyme did serve in that fash-
ion.
Nevertheless what she had learned was enough for his
immediate purposes.
Gathering his rumpled labcoat around him, Hashi
Lebwohl left his office and walked as quickly as his untied
shoes allowed to his meeting with Warden Dios.
CIRO
Vector had told him he was
cured. Mikka told him over
and over again, holding him in her arms and rocking him as if
he were a baby.
Ciro knew better. The walls of his doom had closed
around him like the claustrophobia of Mikka's embrace. His
bunk was a coffin. Of course he knew better.
Sorus Chatelaine had injected a mutagen into his veins:
he understood that in the genetic programming of his DNA;
understood it more profoundly than anything anyone could
have said to him. No mere words could outweigh his cellular
comprehension of the way he'd been betrayed.
Somehow Morn had lured or tricked him into revealing
what had happened. Now everyone knew. By the hour his
doom became more certain, not less.
Of course she'd asked Vector for help. Why not? Why
should she grant Ciro the simple decency of facing his shame
and horror alone? No one had ever taken him that seriously.
And when the dilemma had been explained to him, Vector
had proposed giving Ciro some of Nick's antimutagen. Vector
had said, The drug is essentially a genetically engineered mi-
crobe that acts as a binder. It attaches itself to the nucleotides
of the mutagen, renders them inert. Then they're both flushed
out of the body as waste. As he spoke, the man who'd once
been Ciro's mentor and friend had sounded confident and
calm, inhumanly sure of himself.
But his reassurances meant nothing. Ciro couldn't hear
them through Sorus Chatelaine's threats.
Her words were infinitely stronger.
The mutagen stays in you, it stays alive, it works its way
into every cell and wraps itself around your DNA strings, but
it doesn't change you as long as you have this other drug in
your system. The drug she'd offered him in exchange for his
compliance. How long the delay lasts depends on how much of
this other drug you have in you—or how often you get it. You
can stay human until you 're cut off from your supply. After
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That's why 1 serve them, Ciro. If I don't, they'll cut me off
from the antidote.
And that's why you're going to serve me.
When she'd injected him—while Milos Taverner had held
him—he'd grasped that she was telling him the simple truth.
He would stay human as long as his supply of the other drug
lasted.
He knew what he had to do.
She wanted him to sabotage Trumpet's drives. Both of
them. That was her price for keeping him human.
He would do it if he ever got the chance.
Kill everyone aboard; murder them—
Even Mikka.
Especially Mikka. The more she knew about her danger,
the more stubborn her loyalty to Trumpet's, people became.
She stood by them despite the fact that her interference was
going to kill him.
She didn't understand. How could she? She was stronger
than he was. They were all stronger. Instead of leaving him
alone—hadn't he begged her to leave him alone?—she'd
daunted him with her strength; smothered him with her devo-
tion. She'd prevented and prevented him. Gripped him in her
arms to comfort herself. And all the time his doom had contin-
ued counting down; approaching ruin.
Here, Vector had commanded when he'd returned from
examining Ciro's blood in sickbay. This is a dose of Nick's
antimutagen. He'd thrust a capsule at Ciro. Take it. Then come
with me. I want to run a series of blood tests in sickbay. We'll
be able to see it working. That way you'll know you're safe.
Ciro knew better. He'd always known better. But Mikka
and Vector were too strong for him.
While Trumpet ran a relatively quiet part of the swarm,
Mikka had compelled him to sickbay. At her urging, he'd
looked at the results of Vector's blood tests; seen the nucleo-
tide profiles shifting until they reached the range designated
"human normal." He'd listlessly watched a video display
which purported to give a real-time picture of the mutagen
immunity drug binding itself to Amnion RNA strings and car-
rying them away.
Vector clearly believed the results. Mikka believed them.
Beyond question Ciro knew better.
Sabotage the drives. Both of them. You've been trained in
engineering. You know how to do it. You make sure Trumpet
can't outrun me. She's finished if she can't run.
Back in his cabin, imprisoned by his sister, he continued
waiting.
Twelve hours. Sorus Chatelaine had said, If I don't have
what I want in twelve hours, you're on your own. That was all.
And only a portion of it remained. Whenever he was due for
another capsule, he made Mikka release him so that he could
go to the san: he swallowed his next dose of the temporary
antidote privately. He was strong enough for that. But the
dwindling store in his vial reminded him harshly that he didn't
have much time left.
Was it already too late? He couldn't tell. Without warning
Trumpet went into battle, and he couldn't have left his
g-sheath no matter how much he wanted or needed to obey.
The whole ship was filled with the frying sound of matter
cannon, the metallic clangor of impacts and stress. Accelera-
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Any fight in an asteroid swarm was a navigational nightmare.
Judging by the sounds and pressures, this one was even worse
than that. The intense, inexplicable alternation of quiet and
violence gave the impression that Trumpet was fighting more
than one opponent; in more than one part of the swarm.
Voices over the intercom offered partial explanations, but
Ciro paid no attention to them. They were wasted on him
unless they forced Mikka to go away.
Then the ship hit g so extreme that he blanked out. He no
•longer knew what he needed, or why it mattered. His mind
was filled with death and effacement; the last, absolute relief.
He thought he'd been spared.
But of course g eased again. Thrust went on roaring in the
tubes, but the pressure receded to more human levels. Beside
him in the bunk, Mikka recovered consciousness. Despite her
cracked skull and her exhaustion, she was stronger than her
brother.
"Shit," she breathed to him softly, as if she feared to
raise her voice. "What the hell was that?"
He didn't know. He didn't even know why she troubled to
ask him.
Minutes passed. Or maybe they didn't: maybe they simply
fell to the floor and lay there, swollen as tumors; thick with
mutation. Was it time for another capsule? Had he been un-
conscious that long? No. Like the gap, the darkness of too
much g felt vast—and yet it took almost no time at all. Other-
wise it would have done him the kindness of killing him.
Would Mikka force him to suffer helplessly until the end?
Could she be that cruel? Yes, she could. Even though she was
his sister: even though he was the last of her family left alive.
If their positions had been reversed, he would have treated
her more gently.
"Mikka?" Davies' voice barked unexpectedly from the
intercom speaker; desperately. "Mikka? Do you hear me? I
need you."
Acid hope stung Ciro's heart as soon as he heard the
stress in Davies' tone. Suddenly he knew he was going to get
the chance Sorus Chatelaine demanded.
"And don't tell me you can't leave Ciro!" Davies went
on as if in confirmation. "Let him do his own suffering for a
while! I need you. I'm alone here!"
Mikka tensed. Her grip on Ciro became iron. What else?
She clung to him because she understood the danger he was
in. The peril he represented. But there were other threats. Da-
vies' voice made that plain. She was trapped by her own loy-
alty. She kept watch on her brother to protect Morn and the
rest of them. But now they needed something else from her.
Ciro knew what she would do.
Davies wasn't finished. "Vector? Vector, move! I can't do
this many jobs at once. I'm alone here! If I don't get some
help, it's all going to be wasted."
Mikka shifted positions; faced Ciro with her bandaged
glower. Conflicts twisted her familiar scowl.
He tried to make it easier for her. "You'd better go."
Tension clutched at his throat: his voice sounded like a croak.
"There isn't anybody else. I'll be all right."
That was a lie. He knew he was never going to be all right
again. But it didn't matter. He couldn't afford honesty.
"I hear you." The shipwide intercom channel brought
Vector's voice to the cabin. He might have been shouting to
make himself heard over the hull-roar. Or else all this g had


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brutalized his sore joints, and he shouted against his pain.
"Tell me what you want. I'll do it."
"I can't," Mikka breathed through her teeth. "You're in
no condition—"
"Angus is outside!" Davies retorted. "He shouldn't be
alive. But he left his pickup open. I can hear him breathing.
"Put on a suit. Go get him—bring him in."
"See?" Ciro told her. "There isn't anybody else." He
spoke as if her predicament were as simple as his. "Vector has
to rescue Angus. Morn can't handle hard g. Sib is gone."
Even Nick was gone. Dimly Ciro remembered hearing some-
one—Davies? Morn?—tell Mikka that Nick and Sib had left
the ship to attack Soar in EVA suits. "I'll just rest until you
come back."
"I'm on my way," Vector replied. Even when he shouted,
he didn't sound like a man who understood ruin.
With an inward convulsion, Mikka made her decision.
"Do that," she ordered bitterly. "Lock the door after me. Seal
your g-sheath, don't get out of bed." In spite of her wounds
and exhaustion, she was too strong to ignore Davies' need—or
Trumpet's. "I won't be gone long. Just until we get past what-
ever Davies is upset about."
Just until Ciro did what he had to do in order to save his
soul.
When Sorus Chatelaine captured the gap scout, she would
give him back his humanity. His sanity—
The g of Trumpet's acceleration canted the cabin steeply.
Brandishing her glare like a fist, Mikka rolled out of the bunk,
planted her feet, and climbed to the door. When she'd reached
it and keyed it open, however, she turned toward him again.
"I mean it," she insisted. "Don't get out of bed. You're
safe here. As safe as it's possible for any of us to be. That
mutagen is gone. This isn't something Vector could be wrong
about. And you know him. You know he wouldn't lie to you."
She might have gone on. Pronouncing reassurances he
couldn't hear. He could tell she wanted to. But she must have
seen that he was out of reach. Abruptly she clamped her
mouth shut. The muscles at the corners of her jaw knotted
dangerously as she left the cabin.
Left the cabin.
Left him alone.
She wouldn't come back: he was sure of that. Not when
Davies needed her so badly. I'm alone here. I can't do this
many jobs at once. Ciro trusted her implicitly, even though
she'd nearly driven him crazy.
His heart pounded like terror in his chest. A dozen differ-
ent vitriols seemed to burn through his veins.
The mutagen stays in you.
Somehow he forced himself to wait until he heard the
wheeze of the lift as it strained against the fierce g. That sound
meant Vector was on his way to the airlock. The central pas-
sage of the gap scout was probably clear.
At once Ciro ripped his g-sheath aside, flipped off the
bunk, and flung himself toward the door like an unleashed
animal; frantic for freedom.
It stays alive.
A dread coded into the most primitive structures of his
DNA compelled him. Out in the passage, he moved directly to
the nearest emergency toolkit. He knew where it was: in his
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job of putting the C-spanner with which Nick had attacked
Angus several days ago back where it belonged; and so he'd
learned where all the toolkits were stowed:
It works its way into every cell and wraps itself around
your DNA strings.
If anyone else came into the passage now, they would see
what he was doing. Mikka, Davies, even Morn: any of them
would try to stop him. But he ignored the danger. There was
nothing he could do about it except hurry—and he was already
hurrying as much as the gap scout's thrust allowed.
From its g-case he retrieved the spanner. Flakes of dried
blood and a crust or two of tissue still clung to its shaft: he
hadn't cleaned it very well. But that didn't matter. Angus'
blood was still human. So was his scalp. Ciro tucked the span-
ner under his belt. Into his pockets he put a circuit probe, a
small utility laser, an assortment of wires, clamps, and solder.
Then he went looking for an access hatch which would let
him into Trumpet's drive space.
That's why I serve them, Ciro. If I don't, they'll cut me off
from the antidote.
And that's why you're going to serve me.
The job would probably take a long time. He'd never seen
the inside of the drive space; had no idea how the circuits and
equipment might be arranged. And he didn't want to risk
wrecking the wrong systems. The idea that he might cripple,
say, life support and leave the drives active terrified him. He
would have to probe and test and search until he found the
right control panels. But he knew how to do that. Vector had
taught him. And he carried the vial Sorus Chatelaine had
given him. He could afford to spend a few hours carrying out
his mission.
In his own way, he was as loyal as Mikka.
HASHI
As he expected, he was the
last to reach Warden's des-
ignated office—one of the private, utilitarian, and above all
secure rooms in which the director of the UMCP officially
ceased to exist for the outside world. Koina Hannish and Chief
Mandich were there ahead of him.
Koina sat against the wall to the left of the door where
Hashi entered: a deliberately self-effacing position which may
have expressed her awareness that Protocol had only a small
role to play at the moment. Opposite her stood Chief Mandich.
The two of them approximately bracketed Warden's desk.
Obviously the UMCPED Security Chief was here to ac-
count for his own inadequacies in person; but he also repre-
sented Min Donner by proxy. His discomfort was plain in his
refusal to accept a seat. Although his back was to the wall, he
did nothing so casual as lean on it. He stood with his hands
clasped behind him and his shoulders stiff. The heat which had
mottled his face and neck earlier had subsided, but it remained
apparent.
Warden sat behind his desk with his forearms braced on
the desktop and his palms flat. His single eye glittered with
penetration, complementing the resources of the IR prosthesis
hidden by his patch. He was not an especially large man, but
the strength of his frame and the immobility of his posture
made him appear carved in stone; as unreachable as an icon.
Hashi shuffled quickly into the room, strewing apologies
in all directions, although he hardly listened to them himself.
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metallic and final. That sound gave him the unsettling impres-
sion that he'd entered the presence of ultimate questions.
When he neared the front of Warden's desk, he stopped;
glanced around him for a chair. But he didn't presume to sit
until Warden made a gesture of permission with one blunt
hand.
"Don't apologize, Hashi," Warden said harshly. "Ex-
plain. Tell me why we've been twiddling our thumbs here for
the past ten minutes as if we didn't have anything better to
do."
Warden Dios, Hashi noted, was not in a good mood.
With an effort he stifled his impulse for obfuscation.
"Lane Harbinger has been studying the kaze's remains." His
glasses had slid too far down his nose to muffle him from
Warden's gaze, but he didn't push them up. "I waited as long
as I could—until I received your summons. Then I took the
time to obtain a preliminary report."
For the sake of his own dignity, he declined to comment
on whether or not Lane's report had been worth hearing—or
worth waiting for.
Warden studied Hashi as he spoke, then nodded once,
brusquely. "All right. We're in a crisis—the worst crisis any
of us has ever seen. But the fact that the rest of us have just
wasted ten minutes probably doesn't increase the danger."
Hashi blinked owlishly. Did Warden consider Imposs/
Alt's attack "the worst crisis any of us has ever seen?" Im-
possible. Surely he could not be so entirely divorced from the
world of the real. To call that attack anything less than an
emergency was foolish: to call it anything more was madness.
"You think we're here to discuss Suka Bator," Warden
rasped. "And some of you"-- he seemed to concentrate
briefly on Hashi—"are wondering why I took so long to sum-
mon you. Well, we are going to discuss Suka Bator. I want to
know what happened. More than that, I want to know what it
means.
"But an attack on the Council is only one side of our
predicament. Before we go on, I'll tell you what else has hap-
pened. Then you'll understand why I didn't call for you right
away."
What else has happened. Hashi smiled his relief, despite
the grimness of Warden's tone. After some anxious moments,
he felt suddenly sure that the UMCP director was about to
justify the confidence Hashi had placed in him.
"Crudely put," Warden announced as if he were full of a
bitterness he could neither contain nor release, "the situation
is this. For all practical purposes, we are at war."
Chief Mandich stiffened. He took a step toward the direc-
tor's desk, perhaps without being aware of it. His blunt fea-
tures became as hard as Warden's.
Koina leaned forward, her lips parted slightly. Her eyes
were dark with shock and dread; with a human being's essen-
tial genetic horror of the Amnion.
War? Hashi's heart skipped a beat, then started rattling in
his chest like an electron barrage. At war? With some diffi-
culty he refrained from asking, Is this why you accepted Milos
Taverner as a control for our Joshua? Did you foresee it? Is it
what you hoped to gain?
"Two hours ago," Warden continued, "I received a mes-
sage from Min Donner by gap courier drone from Valdor In-
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she ordered them to send it. She reports that an Amnion 'de-
fensive' has entered the Massif-5 system. A Behemoth-class
Amnion warship.
"At that distance from forbidden space, I think we can
dismiss the idea that she's there by mistake. According to VI
Security, Punisher has engaged the defensive, but the fight
isn't going well. Punisher is damaged, not at full capacity. The
defensive's shields and sinks are holding. On top of that"—he
paused darkly—"she's armed with super-light proton can-
non."
Mandich swore under his breath. Hashi would have done
the same if he hadn't been armored against betraying his emo-
tions. Warden's tone conveyed images of bloodshed and de-
struction. They constricted the air in his small office, making it
hard to breathe. A super-light proton cannon was especially
fearsome because it could wreak havoc through a planetary
atmosphere. Matter cannon were useless for that: air protected
the surface better than any particle sink. And lasers were too
precise to unleash wholesale ruin. In addition, they tended to
lose coherence across large distances. A super-light proton
cannon, however—
Warden didn't stop.
"VI is scrambling support for Punisher," he went on.
"Unfortunately those ships aren't in range yet. For some rea-
son the defensive isn't anywhere near the main shipping lanes
—or the Station itself, for that matter. And our cruiser Vehe-
mence is too far away to be involved in the action."
How entirely typical, Hashi thought. His attention was
fixed on Warden; nailed there. Nevertheless his mind ran off
on several oblique angles simultaneously. Vehemence's record
was far from illustrious. No matter who commanded her, or
how her crew was composed and trained, she seemed inher-
ently luckless or incompetent. To all appearances Nathan Alt's
months as her captain had put a curse on her.
"What are your orders, Director?" Chief Mandich put in
abruptly. Tension strained his voice to a croak. "Director Don-
ner isn't here. I have to—"
He may have been as honest as an iron bar, but Hashi
considered him inadequate to take Min Donner's place.
Koina had better sense than the Security Chief: she
waited her turn.
Warden stopped the Chief with a rough gesture. The
movement of his single eye was sharp as a slap.
"Since then," he pronounced trenchantly, "I've been
making preliminary preparations for our defense. Our ship-
yards have gone to emergency work shifts. We need to get
every ship we can into space. UMCPHQ is on alert. I've or-
dered Sledgehammer back. And I've sent out drones to recall
Valor and Adventurous."
Sledgehammer was a full battlewagon, the biggest and
most powerful warship the UMCP had ever built. Currently
she was executing shakedown maneuvers out between the
orbits of Jupiter and Saturn; training her crew to handle a
vessel that massive. Too near to return to Earth by crossing the
gap: too far to arrive at space-normal speeds in less than days.
As for the other vessels Warden named, the destroyer Valor
was on patrol around Terminus, the station in human space
farthest from the Amnion. The obsolete cruiser Adventurous
had been assigned to supervise exercises for the cadets of
Aleph Green.
Other ships were available, of course. Hashi could think


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of half a dozen gunboats and pocket cruisers within Earth's
control space. They were paltry, however, for a task the size of
defending a planet.
UMCPHQ itself couldn't do that job. The Station had
scarcely been designed to defend itself. It possessed shields
and sinks; cannon of various kinds; but nothing that would be
effective on such a scale. Any war which came close enough
to Earth to threaten UMCPHQ was presumed to be already
lost.
"But," Warden pursued, "I don't want to leave us spread
too thin elsewhere—as if we weren't already—because I don't
know what the Amnion are going to do next. From a strategic
point of view, VI isn't exactly a logical target for an act of
war."
Indeed. Hashi followed his director's reasoning at the
same time that he chased his own thoughts. Humankind's abil-
ity to give battle would hardly be diminished—at least in the
short term—by VI's complete destruction. In addition that
Station was too well defended, as well as too difficult to ap-
proach, for a single assailant to be sure of success. Any attack
on Valdor would probably be a waste of effort.
"I have to assume," Warden stated, "that subsequent
threats might not be logical either. I mean strategically. Since
the Amnion aren't prone to either waste or foolhardiness, I
also assume that this incursion doesn't imply a full-scale as-
sault on human space. It has some other objective.
"I can guess what that is, but I can't guess where it might
go. So I can't predict where to concentrate our defenses."
Koina had been silent too long. Now her dread seemed to.
compel her to speak.
"Please tell us, Director," she murmured softly. "I think
we need to know."
"I'm sure you do," Warden snorted. However, his sar-
casm or disgust did not appear to be directed at her.
"You're all aware Min Donner is aboard Punisher," he
answered between his teeth. "And you've probably guessed
that I ordered her there to help protect Trumpet."
"No, wait," Koina protested. "I'm sorry, you've lost me.
All I know about Trumpet is what you and Director Lebwohl
told the Council. Angus Thermopyle and Milos Taverner stole
her—"
"No, I'm sorry," Warden interrupted. For a moment he
gave the impression that he'd been overtaken by weariness.
His personal defenses had flaws he couldn't afford. "It's all
these damn secrets. I've been carrying them around too long."
With the fingers of one hand, he rubbed his forehead briefly.
"Sometimes I forget I haven't told you something critical.
"Angus Thermopyle didn't steal Trumpet. He's a cyborg.
We welded him after we reqqed him from Com-Mine Station.
He works for us. We sent him into forbidden space to carry
out a covert attack on Thanatos Minor. And we sent Milos
Taverner along to keep an eye on him. The story that they stole
Trumpet was just cover. We didn't want to make the wrong
people suspicious.
"If Igensard asks in front of the Council," Warden
added, "you can tell him that."
"But I still don't—" Koina bit her lip. "Never mind. I'll
need the details later. For now the present is more important."
The director nodded like an act of brutality. "I sent Pun-
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pet to escape back into human space. Then she followed the
gap scout to Massif-5.
"Why Trumpet went there I don't know.
"But if the Amnion chose to commit an act of war by
entering that system—and chose to do it now—for reasons that
don't have anything to do with Trumpet, it's the biggest coin-
cidence in history. I think we can be sure the defensive is after
Trumpet."
Hashi felt the tension in the room. Chief Mandich radi-
ated dismay; the anxiety of vast responsibilities. Koina strug-
gled to manage the scale of her incomprehension. Warden had
the air of a man who was determined to hold the center of a
whirlwind. At the same time, however, the DA director rode an
entirely private swirl of oblique inferences and intriguing pos-
sibilities. An act of war? Fascinating! Whose game was this?
Warden's? Nick Succorso's? The Amnion's?—with or without
Captain Succorso's participation?
Uncertainties proliferated like ecstasy, weaving unknowns
out of the quantum mechanics of the known. In his excitement
Hashi dared to say, "It might be argued that we would do well
to let this defensive succeed against Trumpet."
Holt Fasner would surely approve.
    Koina drew a sharp breath. Chief Mandich swore softly.
At once Warden's gaze focused on Hashi. He could al-
most feel his electromagnetic aura frying under the intensity
of the director's IR sight.
"Explain," Warden demanded.
Hashi shrugged; smiled. The risk he took pleased him: it
might prod Warden to reveal more of his intentions. The direc-
tor could stop him if he went too far.
He directed his words and his gamble at Warden, al-
though they were superficially meant for Koina and Mandich.
"Director Hannish and Chief Mandich have perhaps not
been informed that our Angus Thermopyle, Isaac ne Joshua,
has escaped forbidden space with a remarkable combination of
companions. In particular I refer to Morn Hyland, first Captain
Thermopyle's victim, then Captain Succorso's.
"This is an unexpected development for several reasons.
On your direct orders, Isaac's datacore was explicitly written
to preclude the possibility that he might save Ensign Hyland's
life." Then Warden had switched that datacore for another; a
new set of instructions. But this secret was Warden's to reveal
or hide: Hashi had no intention of exposing it. He only used it
to put pressure on the director. "She is—or has been—thought
dangerous to our purposes. Only a strange, unforeseeable se-
quence of events could have led to her presence aboard Trum-
pet:'
"What 'purposes'?" Koina asked quickly; intently.
Hashi ignored her to concentrate on Warden.
"In addition," he continued, "we have reason to suspect
that she has been a prisoner of the Amnion, delivered to them
by Captain Succorso to gain some end we can hardly imagine.
Thus it is doubly strange that she now accompanies our Cap-
tain Thermopyle. Did she escape? If so, how? Was she re-
leased? If so, why?"
The DA director was not entirely prepared to surrender
his hypothesis that Morn might be a type of genetic kaze: ruin
aimed at the UMCP. Angus had rescued Morn—privately
Warden had admitted as much—but that didn't erase other
possibilities.
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kept his grip on Hashi's eyes: he may have been searching to
find out how much Hashi knew—or guessed. Then he nodded.
"I'll keep that in mind."
"Forgive me, Director," Koina put in insistently. She re-
mained almost motionless in her seat, yet she gave the impres-
sion that she'd risen to her feet. A low tremor flawed her tone
without softening her manner. "Director Lebwohl said 'pur-
poses.' 'Our purposes.' In what sense is it conceivable that
Ensign Hyland could be a threat to any purpose of ours?
"I heard Director Lebwohl tell the Council why we let
Captain Succorso have her. I didn't like that, but this sounds a
lot worse. She's one of our people. Why in God's name would
a UMCP cyborg's datacore be 'explicitly written to preclude'
rescuing her? I would have said that violates our purposes
more than anything she might say or do."
No doubt Min Donner would have approved Koina's ob-
jection. To the extent that he was capable of thinking clearly,
Chief Mandich surely felt the same. Nevertheless Hashi was
not swayed by it. Deliberately he pushed his glasses up on his
nose. The smear of the unnecessary lenses aided his concen-
tration.
Now more than ever he needed to understand Warden
Dios.
Although Warden sat still, his frame seemed to intensify,
almost to swell, as if he were taking on mass from the air and
ambience of his office. He faced the PR director with an un-
giving glare while she spoke. When he responded, his voice
was gravid with bile and self-coercion. Each word was as ex-
act as the flash of a laser.
"Director Hannish, how did we get the Preempt Act
passed?"
She answered without relaxing her insistence. "A traitor
in Com-Mine Security conspired with Angus Thermopyle to
steal supplies." Beneath her professional polish and her wom-
anish softness, Hashi realized, she was tougher than departed
Godsen Frik had ever been. "That scared the Council. The
Members decided that if they couldn't trust local Station Secu-
rity they had no choice but to expand our jurisdiction."
Warden nodded. "Would the Act have passed if the
Council hadn't been scared?"
A twist of her mouth suggested a shrug. "They voted it
down on two previous occasions."
"Exactly." Warden's voice sounded sharp enough to
draw blood; perhaps his own. "But the Members were mis-
taken. We misled them. The 'traitor' in Com-Mine Security
didn't conspire with Angus Thermopyle. He conspired with
us. We framed Captain Thermopyle to scare the Council. So
the Act would pass."
The director's compressed strength dominated the room.
"Ensign Hyland knows he's innocent," he finished. "She was
there. And I'm sure she'll say so, if anyone asks her the right
questions.
"You can tell Igensard that, too, if it ever comes up."
Koina recoiled as if Warden had flicked his fingers in her
face. A pallor of betrayal seemed to leech the color from her
cheeks; even from her eyes. Indignation and confusion ap-
peared to flush through Chief Mandich in waves, staining his
skin with splotches like the marks of an infection. Knowledge
which was commonplace to Hashi had never reached the Secu-
rity Chief, or the new PR director. Min Donner and even God-



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sen Frik had known how to keep their hearts closed.
In one sense Hashi noticed the reactions of his compan-
ions. But in another he paid no attention to them at all. He
wanted to applaud and throw up his hands simultaneously.
Warden had astonished him again.
The director was willing to reveal the truth behind the
passage of the Preempt Act. That was immensely exciting. It
shed an amazing amount of light on the nature of Warden's
game: too much light for Hashi to absorb in an instant. He
found himself almost blinking in its brilliance. Yet that same
revelation was also appallingly dangerous. When the truth was
laid bare, the UMCP director—and all his senior staff—would
be summarily fired. At best. At worst they might even find
themselves facing capital charges.
Just when the Amnion had committed an act of war, hu-
mankind's only defense would be plunged into total disarray.
"My God," Chief Mandich breathed as if he were unable
to stop himself. "Did Director Donner know? Was she part of
it?"
For him that may have been the essential question. Could
he still trust the ED director? His rectitude was founded on
hers. Could he continue to believe that she was honest?
Hashi would have dismissed the issue as trivial; but War-
den faced it squarely.
"Yes." His tone was final, fatal: it permitted no argu-
ment. "But understand this. We did what we did on the direct
orders of my lawful superior, Holt Fasner.'' He stressed the
word lawful with a bitterness like concentrated sulfuric acid.
"And those orders included secrecy. There would have been
no point to it if we hadn't kept it secret."
Did he mean to make that public as well? Did he intend
that Koina should name the Dragon's role in the conduct of
the UMCP before the Council itself?
Of course he did.
The prospect took Hashi's breath away. He flapped a hand
in Chief Mandich's direction as if he were trying to shoo Se-
curity's petty honesty from the room. The nature of Warden's
game transcended such considerations.
Hashi couldn't inhale enough to raise his voice. Softly he
murmured, "Yet you choose to reveal it now."
"Yes," Warden rasped without hesitation. "Listen to me,
all of you." He aimed his single gaze in turn at Koina, at
Hashi, at Chief Mandich. "Get this straight. I choose to reveal
it now.''
Now, when the GCES had just been stampeded into re-
jecting a Bill of Severance which would have broken the
Dragon's hold on the UMCP.
Hashi's lungs strained for air.
Would it work? Would Warden succeed at toppling Holt
Fasner with his own fall?
Perhaps. With Hashi's help: perhaps. These revelations,
these unguessed gravitons of information, might well lack the
force to pull Fasner from his throne unaided. The great worm
was profoundly entrenched. They could be augmented, how-
ever—
An almost childlike sense of affection for his director
swelled in Hashi's chest. At the same time he felt that he had
been personally exalted by several orders of magnitude.
Suddenly he was aware that he could comprehend and partici-
pate in the quantum energies of this crisis on a scale which
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blaze of illumination had effaced the shame of his incapacity
to grasp Warden's game.
He found himself beaming unselfconsciously, like a se-
nile old man. A joy as acute as terror throbbed in his veins.
He knew at once that he would give the UMCP director
all the help he could.
Baffled by a rush of information he was unable to man-
age, Chief Mandich retreated into a pose of clenched stolidity.
He belonged to ED; and as Min Donner had sometimes said,
ED was the fist of the UMCP, not the brain. The Security
Chief was accustomed to using his mind for his own duties,
not for analyzing the underlying purpose of Warden's policies.
Hashi felt sure that Mandich was full of outrage. He was also
sure, however, that the Chief would continue to take orders—
and carry them out faithfully—at least until Min Donner re-
turned to account for herself.
Koina may have understood Warden's intent as little as
Mandich did, but she responded differently.
"Director Dios," she said coldly, "I'll certainly tell Spe-
cial Counsel Igensard—as soon as an appropriate occasion
presents itself." The chill in her voice was extreme. Her in-
flections might have been rimed with ice. "But that's a sec-
ondary issue. Under the circumstances, whether or not the
UMCP has any integrity"—she froze the word to such brittle-
ness that it threatened to shatter—"can't be our first concern.
The Amnion have committed an act of war. That's primary.
"Are you going to tell the Council?"
"Of course." A tightening around Warden's eyes made
Hashi think he found the question painful. "That's the law.
It's also my duty.
"But first I want to know where events are going, what
the stakes are. If I can't tell the Members what the threat
actually is, they're liable to do something stupid."
Indeed they were. Hashi agreed completely. From a his-
torical perspective, it was plain that elected officials acting in
legislative bodies seldom did anything which could not be
called stupid. And in this case the difficulties were greatly
increased by the fact that many of the Members derived their
positions, directly or indirectly, from Holt Fasner—who in
turn derived much of his wealth and power from trade with the
Amnion.
Koina appeared to grant Warden's reply a provisional as-
sent. However, he had already moved on as if he neither
wanted nor needed any acknowledgment from her.
"Which brings us," he said mordantly, "back to Suka
Bator.
"You three were there. Chief Mandich, you've been made
responsible for security on the Council island. In particular
you were responsible for security during this extraordinary
session of the GCES."
The Chief tightened his lips to a pale line; but his only
reply was, "Yes, sir."
"Director Hannish," Warden continued, "you were re-
sponsible for representing formal UMCP policy before the
Council. Director Lebwohl"—the UMCP director paused to
study Hashi momentarily—"I will presume you were there
because you're responsible for our investigation of the kazes
who attacked Captain Vertigus and killed Godsen Frik."
Hashi nodded, but he held his tongue.
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That means I want to know what the Amnion are doing. And I
want to know what's behind these kazes. Who's sending
them? Why are they being sent? And why are they being sent
now, when the Amnion have just committed an act of war?
How we respond to one is likely to depend on what we do
about the other."
Why are they being sent now? Hashi considered this in-
terrogative a trifle specious. He was convinced that Warden
understood the timing of recent events very well. He kept his
belief to himself, however.
"So you tell me," Warden concluded, "the three of you.
What happened? What the hell is going on?"
He did not single out Chief Mandich for answers. Perhaps
he realized that no question he could ask would search the
Chief more intimately than Mandich searched himself.
Nevertheless Chief Mandich considered it his duty to re-
port first.
"I'm still waiting to hear from DA, sir," he began. "I
can't account for what happened myself." That admission
came awkwardly for him. His sense of culpability was plain on
his blunt face. "We took every precaution I know of. Retinal
scans. Every kind of EM probe we have available." The kind
of scanning which Angus Thermopyle had been constructed
and equipped to circumvent. "Full id tag and credential back-
ground verifications. For everybody on the island. And every-
body who arrived or left. The kaze still got through. He must
have been legit—even though that's supposed to be impossi-
ble.
"Since then it's been up to DA. I've sealed the island.
Nobody in or out—except our own people. Some of the Mem-
bers are squalling about it." The Chief shrugged. He had no
qualms about discomfiting the Members. "They want to go
hide. But if whoever is behind this is on Suka Bator, I'm going
to make sure he stays there. So we can find him."
Hashi nodded his approval. He knew that no direct evi-
dence would be found on the island. A chemical trigger
released on a preconditioned signal by a man in a state of
drug-induced hypnosis would leave no traceable data. Never-
theless he wished to be certain that the responsible individual
would not escape.
Casually he asked, "Has the Dragon's estimable First Ex-
ecutive Assistant posed any objection?"
"No," Chief Mandich retorted.
Of course not. In such matters Holt Fasner's aides and
cohorts preserved an illusion of complete cooperation.
"I haven't had time to study the reports," Warden put in.
"Cleatus Fane attended the session?"
He did not appear to be taken aback.
"Oh, yes," Koina answered before the Chief could speak.
Hashi suspected that she held Mandich blameless and wished
to spare him unnecessary chagrin. She was capable of such
consideration, even when her own chagrin ran high. "I was
surprised to see him. So were quite a few of the Members.
"Several of them had the impression he was there be-
cause he knew why Captain Vertigus had claimed Member's
privilege. That doesn't make sense to me. I don't see how
anyone could have known what Captain Vertigus had in mind"
—she held Warden's gaze without faltering—"unless he told
them. But Fane was there anyway, emitting bonhomie like
toxic radiation."
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the UMC First Executive Assistant.
Still facing Warden, she said, "You know what hap-
pened." She made no pretense that this was a question. "Cap-
tain Vertigus used his privilege to introduce a Bill of
Severance. He wants to dissolve us as a branch of the UMC
and reconstitute us as an arm of the GCES."
For his part Warden made no pretense that he had been
caught unaware.
"Fane raised a number of objections," she stated. "Then
he called on me to support him. I announced formally that our
position on such matters was one of complete neutrality. I
gave our reasons. Fane didn't seem to like them much."
"I'm sure he didn't," the UMCP director remarked
acerbically. "Maybe that explains why he's been trying to call
me"—Warden indicated his intercom—"every twenty min-
utes for the past two hours. Fortunately I've been too busy to
talk to him."
Maybe: maybe not. Hashi could think of at least one alter-
native rationale for Cleatus Fane's calls.
Apparently Koina could not. Or she saw no reason to
redirect her account of the session. "After that," she resumed,
"Director Lebwohl spotted the kaze. He still hasn't told any of
us how he managed that. But if he hadn't been there, a lot
more people would have died. Some of the Members might
have been killed.
"As it was, the cost was high enough." Complex fears
darkened her tone. "GCES Security lost a man. An ED Secu-
rity ensign lost a hand. And we lost the bill. I suppose the
Members believed Fane's argument that we would be weaker
if we were separated from the UMC—and right now their lives
depend on making us as strong as possible."
She fell silent. After a moment her gaze shifted from
Warden to Hashi.
Warden and Chief Mandich were also looking at the DA
director. The time had come for him to speak.
He didn't hesitate. He was at home among the uncertain-
ties which crowded Warden's office, the swirl of secret inten-
tions; in his element. "Director Dios," he offered with a sly
smile, "you might find it entertaining to accept the First Exec-
utive Assistant's call."
"Why?" Warden asked.
Hashi shrugged delicately. "I suspect that his reasons for
wishing to address you have little or nothing to do with Cap-
tain Vertigus' Bill. The issues he hopes to obfuscate may prove
to be of another kind altogether."
Warden shook his head. He seemed to be beyond surprise.
"I want to hear your report first."
Hashi bowed slightly. "As you wish."
Ignoring the pressure of scrutiny from Koina and Chief
Mandich, he presented his information directly to Warden
Dios.
"The means by which I identified a kaze in the, extraordi-
nary session of the GCES is easily explained. Quite simply, I
recognized him. That is to say, despite his GCES Security
uniform, I recognized him as the infamous Captain Nathan
Alt. You would have done so yourself, had you been there."
Koina caught her breath at the name. The Chief growled a
soft curse.
Warden raised an eyebrow, but didn't comment.
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"Captain Alt's presence in the Council hall struck me as un-
expected," he expounded. "And I admit that I was alert to all
things unexpected. Director Hannish had relayed to me Cap-
tain Vertigus' fear of another attack. I considered his fears
credible. That in large part motivated my presence at the ex-
traordinary session.
"Because Captain Alt's presence was unexpected, I
moved to intercept him, hoping to obtain an explanation.
When I drew near enough to see him more clearly, I had no
difficulty identifying the danger he represented. First, his eyes
and his manner indicated that he had been heavily drugged.
Second, his credentials were not those of Nathan Alt, former
UMCPED captain. They were those of one Clay Imposs, a
GCES Security sergeant."
With false ingratiation, Hashi added smoothly, "I'm sure
Chief Mandich would have drawn the same conclusions I did
—and taken the same actions—if chance had given him the
same opportunity to recognize Captain Alt."
Nathan Alt's name was well-known in UMCPHQ. How-
ever, his court-martial had taken place several years ago;
before Koina's time. On the other hand, as a member of ED—
with a personal investment in ED's reputation—Chief
Mandich almost certainly remembered the former captain well
enough to identify him.
Hashi spread his hands disingenuously. "So much is sim-
ple.
"All that remains to be said of the events themselves is
that before Chief Mandich's stalwarts impelled the putative
Clay Imposs from the hall, thereby saving almost any number
of lives, I contrived to snatch the clearance badge from his
uniform, as well as the id tag from his neck."
Now at last Warden permitted himself a reaction which
may have been surprise. His eye widened: he shook his head
slightly.
"So what?" Chief Mandich put in harshly. "That tag and
badge aren't going to help us. I'm sure you're right about
Nathan Alt. I'm sure his credentials are legit for Clay Imposs.
Otherwise he wouldn't have been cleared. And I'm sure they
were doctored somehow. Otherwise he wouldn't have gotten
past a retinal scan. But even if you figure out how they were
doctored, you won't be able to prove who did it. His id tag and
badge will just confirm what we already know. Which is that
whoever's behind this has access to all the right codes."
"You took a terrible risk, Hashi," Koina breathed. "You
could have been killed. What did you hope to gain?"
Hashi ignored both her and Mandich. "Since my depar-
ture from Suka Bator," he told Warden, "Data Acquisition
has been diligent in its assigned functions. The technical as-
pects of this investigation I have entrusted to Lane Harbinger,
whose qualifications for the task are superb. For my part, I
have taken the occasion to impose Red Priority security locks
on various data venues, hoping to ensure the accuracy of the
information which may be obtained from them." Briskly he
named the sites he'd sealed. "In addition I have obtained pre-
liminary readouts from Data Storage on both Nathan Alt and
Clay Imposs."
"Go on," Warden murmured like a man who couldn't be
moved.
Hashi did. He had no intention of stopping.
"The vanished Imposs we may dismiss," he stated. "His
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We must assume, I believe, that he is dead—a victim of inten-
tions in which he had no other role except to die. It is likely
that his body will never be found."
Corpses which had been burned down to their essential
energies, or dissolved into their component chemicals, no
longer existed in any form which might be susceptible to dis-
covery.
"Nathan Alt, as you might imagine, is another matter
entirely.
"I will spare you the less relevant details of his history."
Hashi enjoyed lecturing. The more he explained, the more he
understood. "The primary facts are these. Less than a year
after his court-martial, Captain Alt found employment with
Nanogen, Inc., a research-and-development concern studying
the production of microchips and electronic devices by
nanotechnological means. Specifically he found employment
in Nanogen Security, despite—or perhaps because of—his record.
"Not surprisingly," Hashi remarked dryly, "Nanogen,
Inc., is a wholly owned subsidiary of the United Mining Com-
panies.
"Since then, our subject's career has been one of steady
advancement through the vast hierarchy of the UMC's Secu-
rity departments. Again I will spare you the details. For our
purposes, the crucial point is that approximately a year ago he
attained the position of Security Liaison for Anodyne Sys-
tems, the sole licensed manufacturer of SOD-CMOS chips."
"We know what Anodyne Systems does," Chief
Mandich muttered.
Hashi didn't respond. He went on speaking to Warden as
if the two of them were alone.
"I suspect that First Executive Assistant Fane will con-
firm this when you accept his call. One of the redoubtable
FEA's duties as the Dragon's right hand concerns the over-
sight of Anodyne Systems.''
"We know that, too," Warden said brusquely. "Get to
the point, Hashi."
He didn't add, I have an act of war to worry about. There
was no need.
Nevertheless Hashi declined to be hurried. The quantum
mechanics of truth yielded its secrets only when its uncertain-
ties were handled with care.
"Quite naturally," he continued as if he were impervious
to any exigencies except his own, "as Security Liaison for
Anodyne Systems, Nathan Alt had no dealings with us." In
his own way he considered himself as unreachable as the
UMCP director. "He had no direct contact with the UMCP at
all. We supply all working personnel for Anodyne Systems. In
particular we supply all security. Rather his duties involved
coordinating the flow of knowledge and skill between UMC as
well as UMCP cryptographers and Anodyne Systems Security.
"Specifically his responsibilities centered on the design
of the embedded code engines which generate clearances for
both the Governing Council for Earth and Space and the
United Mining Companies Police. His assigned task—I quote
from the personnel mandate of his employment—was 'to en-
sure the highest possible level of precision and invulnerability '
in those codes.
"The coincidence is intriguing, is it not? How did a man
with Nathan Alt's record—and his reasons for disaffection—
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will shed light on that question for us. Certainly our former
captain's record suggests brilliance in code design and pro-
gramming. And UMCP training is apt for security. In that
sense he was well qualified for his work.
"Lest you think that we have committed some monumen-
tal blunder in regard to his involvement, let me stress that he
had no power to select or alter the specific code engines em-
ployed by Anodyne Systems. Those decisions were made by
Anodyne Systems Security under our explicit supervision.
From our perspective Captain Alt was merely a resource which
the UMC had made available to Anodyne Systems Security.
Therefore we had no reason to protest—or even to remark
upon—his participation,
"Yet the fact remains that he supplied a substantial por-
tion of the source-code and design for the engines currently in
use. His proposals were tested and validated, and ultimately
accepted, by our own Security techs. They were, in Chief
Mandich's terms, 'legit.' Thus he has proved his value as a
resource.
"Of course," Hashi remarked casually, "in order to
make such a sensitive contribution to our own Security, as
well as to the Council's, Captain Alt required a complete
knowledge of every facet of those code engines, including
those portions which he did not supply."
Obliquely Hashi wondered whether Koina and Mandich
caught the implications. Warden assuredly did.
"What is the result?" the DA director asked rhetorically.
"Through the intervention—direct or indirect—of the Dragon,
a man whom we have court-martialed for 'dereliction of duty'
has attained an intimate grasp on the most secret, as well as
the most specialized, aspect of our procedures for self-protec-
tion."
Now that man was dead.
His death in a state of drug-induced hypnosis suggested
that he had not chosen his own end. Holt Fasner rarely inspired
the loyalty for self-sacrifice.
Before Warden could insist again that he "get to the
point," Hashi pronounced, "Under the circumstances, we can
be certain that Nathan Alt possessed both the skill and the
knowledge to substitute his own physical id for Clay Imposs'
credentials."
The UMCP director appeared to study this assertion as if
he had no essential interest in it; as if it changed nothing. But
Chief Mandich reacted like a man who had been provoked
beyond endurance.
"How?" he demanded fiercely. "Tell me how. God damn
it, Lebwohl, if you knew about this, why didn't you say some-
thing? We could have stopped him."
Without glancing away from Hashi, Warden lifted a hand
to warn the Security Chief that he went too far.
Mandich bit down his protest.
Into the space left by the Chief's silence, Koina placed a
challenge of another kind.
"This doesn't make any sense, Hashi. If he could do all
that, why did he choose himself to be the kaze? Don't you
think that's a rather bizarre way to commit suicide?"
Warden continued watching the DA director stonily; re-
morselessly.
Now Hashi deigned to answer the Chief. "There is no
mystery here. If you were adept at the programming of SOD-
CMOS chips, and if you held possession of both your id and


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mine, you would have no difficulty preparing a composite
which blended my records with your physical data. In effect,
the new id tag would identify you as me."
He wished to show Warden that he could transcend
Mandich's personal animosity. More than that, he wished to
show that he was equal to Warden's game.
Koina's questions would answer themselves.
Warden planted his palms on the desktop in front of him
--a gesture which usually indicated that he was out of pa-
tience.
"Director Lebwohl, I'm sure everything you're telling us
is true." His voice sounded guttural; angry and tense. "And
it's all important. But I don't have time for a seminar. None of
us do. I need a connection—a real one, not some tenuous,
circumstantial theory based on the fact that Fane hired a man
who doesn't like us to help design SOD-CMOS code en-
gines."
Hashi nodded to show that he understood. "May I again
suggest," he countered, "that you allow the First Executive
Assistant to contact you?"
Warden dismissed the idea. "Not yet. You aren't done."
Did it show? Hashi liked to believe that his personal IR
emissions were difficult for Warden to interpret. The DA di-
rector had done studies on himself, seeking to determine how
much his own aura revealed. The results had gratified him: he
could tell the baldest lies without producing definable ripples
along the bandwidths of Warden's sight. It was possible, how-
ever, that Warden understood the nature of Hashi's excitement
in some unquantifiable and intuitive fashion.
"Very well," Hashi acceded. "Sadly, I cannot offer you a
connection which will not appear both 'circumstantial' and
'tenuous' in law. Nevertheless the connection I propose has
substance. It will hold.
"If we are fortunate"—he permitted himself a small
grin—"Cleatus Fane will confirm it for us."
If the First Executive Assistant did so, that would also
confirm the importance of Imposs/Alt's id tag and clearance
badge.
"In no sense," Hashi continued promptly, "has Lane
Harbinger had time to complete her study of Nathan Alt's
earthly remains. However, certain of her preliminary findings
may be relied upon.
"It is unmistakable, for example, that at the time of his
demise our Captain Alt was deeply under the influence of hyp-
nogogic substances. His actions in the hall were innocent of
volition. He may well have both designed and carried out the
procedures by which his id replaced Clay Imposs', but his
death was not a suicide. He did not elect his own end."
If Min Donner's accusations during Alt's court-martial
were accurate, the man was too much a coward to die for any
cause.
Koina sighed softly, nodding to herself as if she were
relieved in some way. Idealistic images of the UMCP died
hard, especially in Warden's presence." Apparently she had
been quite disturbed by the idea that any UMCP officer could
be so disenchanted that he would be willing to kill himself in
order to harm his former service.
Because he spoke for Warden's benefit—as well as his
own—Hashi didn't pause to acknowledge her reaction.
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familiar to us. Lane will identify them precisely. However,
Captain Alt's blood also holds heavy concentrations of a sub-
stance which is"—the DA director cleared his throat conspic-
uously—"less commonly understood.
"That substance is a coenzyme. Inherently inert, it has no
utility in itself. However, it combines with some of the human
body's natural apoenzymes to form an artificial holoenzyme,
one which could not occur naturally. This holoenzyme is ac-
tive.
"Lane's hypothesis—which I share—is that Captain Alt
was dosed with this coenzyme in order to produce a holoen-
zyme which would serve as a chemical trigger for his explo-
sive device."
Now Hashi paused, maliciously allowing Chief Mandich
time for some inapt remark. But the man kept silent. Perhaps
he had realized that he was out of his depth.
In some indefinable way, Warden seemed to intensify. His
outlines sharpened as if the light had changed: the strict shape
of his face hinted at dangers and possibilities. He did nothing
to interrupt or hurry Hashi.
"If our hypothesis is accurate," Hashi resumed, "several
conclusions derive from it. First, no volition was required. It
was not necessary that Captain Alt 'set himself off.' " Hashi
articulated the colloquialism like a sneer. "Second, the ab-
sence of some more mechanical timing device suggests that
those accountable for this kaze wished to adjust the explosion
to suit events. They were unwilling to guess in advance when
their kaze might best be set off. Third, the use of a chemical
trigger rather than a radio-controlled detonator suggests that
the perpetrators felt some fear that they might be caught with
the transmitter in their possession.
"Surely it is obvious that the timing of the blast could
only have been adjusted to suit events by someone present in
the hall." Hashi permitted himself to elaborate this point un-
necessarily while he explored some of the more obscure
strands of inference spun by Lane's investigation. "And it was
surely predictable that UMCPED Security would seal the
island in order to prevent any conceivable suspects from ef-
fecting an escape. Therefore the peril was real that an incrimi-
nating transmitter might be discovered."
He glanced at Koina and Mandich as if he were asking
them to fault his logic. Then he returned his attention to War-
den.
"Thus the method becomes plain. Captain Alt is hypno-
tized involuntarily. He is conditioned to respond to a specified
signal—a particular word, a particular gesture. He is given—
let us suppose until Lane's exploration is complete—a false
tooth filled with a massive dose of the triggering coenzyme, a
tooth which will break open when it is bitten. He is supplied,
still involuntarily, with Clay Imposs' credentials. Then he is
sent into the hall to await his signal—and his own death.
"The most obvious benefit of this method is that it leaves
no evidence. The knowledge of the pre-conditioned signal—
and of the man or woman culpable for it—dies with the kaze.
No transmitter—or indeed timer—can be found.
"Coincidentally, it perhaps rids the perpetrators of a man
who might well have become an embarrassment to them." A
man who knew—and who therefore might reveal—how the
code engines in question could be misused.
"The obvious conclusion," Hashi stated with satisfac-
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Captain Alt's clear field of view."
Not simply present in the hall: present in plain sight from
Nathan Alt's position.
Wondrous energy shells, layers of uncertainty, mapped
the center of the atom; the core of truth.
Neither Director Hannish nor Chief Mandich spoke. Per-
haps they sensed the presence of implications they were un-
able to define. Or perhaps they failed to grasp why Hashi
considered these details to be so significant.
Warden's reaction was of another kind altogether.
Studying his DA director, he said quietly, "All right.
Let's see where this goes." With a precise stab of his forefin-
ger, he keyed his intercom.
"Director Dios?" a communications tech answered.
"I'll talk to Cleatus Fane now," Warden announced. His
tone carried the force of a commandment.
Koina settled herself back in her chair with a visible ef-
fort. Chief Mandich took another step forward as if he were
ready for combat. Perhaps intuitively they both comprehended
Hashi's explanations better than he realized.
"Right away, Director." The intercom emitted thin hiss-
ings and clicks as microwave relays shuttled, establishing a
downlink. A moment later the tech said, "Director Dios, I
have First Executive Assistant Cleatus Fane by secure channel
from Suka Bator."
An alert on Warden's desk flashed until the tech left the
line. Then the light turned green to indicate that the channel
had been sealed against eavesdropping.
"Mr. Fane," Warden began bluntly. "Sorry to keep you
waiting. I've been busy."
"I understand completely, Director Dios." A faint spatter
of static marred Fane's avuncular tones—solar flare activity,
perhaps. "Your duties have become especially complex re-
cently. I wouldn't bother you at a time like this, but I think I
have something to contribute to your investigation." He
chuckled fulsomely. "That sonofabitch came close to killing
me. I shudder to think what could have happened if Director
Lebwohl hadn't spotted him. I'm very eager to make a contri-
bution."
Especially complex recently, Hashi thought. Doubtless
Fane intended a reference to Trumpet; a reminder that Holt
Fasner had given Warden orders. False bonhomie concealed
pressure. The FEA meant Warden to understand that he could
not afford to ignore anyone who spoke for the Dragon.
Warden was unmoved, however. "I don't want to seem
rude, Mr. Fane," he answered, "but time is tight. What contri-
bution did you have in mind?"
"Then I'll be brief. The sooner you finish your investiga-
tion, the sooner I can leave this hopeless rock."
Not for the first time, Cleatus Fane's manner made Hashi
think of a Santa Claus with fangs.
"By now, Director," Fane began, "I'm sure you've iden-
tified that kaze. I recognized him myself. If I'd noticed him
earlier, we wouldn't have had to rely on Director Lebwohl to
save us. I knew he might be dangerous. At the very least," he
explained, "I knew he shouldn't be there. That would have
made him look dangerous, even if I had nothing else to go on.
But I didn't think to look at him closely until Director
Lebwohl accosted him.
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used to work for you. He was court-martialed for 'dereliction'
when he was in command of Vehemence. You know that. And
you've had time to access his records, so you also know he's
been working for us since then. I mean for the UMC. Specifi-
cally he was our Security Liaison for Anodyne Systems."
Behind his smeared lenses and his impenetrable smile,
Hashi resisted an impulse to hold his breath. Despite his confi-
dence in the web of inferences he'd woven for Warden's bene-
fit, he was acutely aware that he needed Cleatus Fane's
confirmation. Without it he might be left looking uncomfort-
ably like a man who grasped at straws in order to redeem his
tarnished credibility.
Fane's disembodied voice continued smoothly. "But
that's not the reason I've been calling you. Aside from the
fact," he added piously, "that we all have standing orders to
give you our fullest cooperation whenever it's needed." We no
doubt referred to Holt Fasner's primary subordinates.
"There's something you may not know about him."
"What's that, Mr. Fane?" Warden put in noncommittally.
Fane paused for emphasis, then announced, "We fired
him six weeks ago. Threw him out."
Koina shook her head at this information. Chief Mandich
clenched his fists.
Only a conscious act of will prevented Hashi from laugh-
ing aloud.
Warden's shoulders tightened. He scowled at the intercom
as if he were trying to read Cleatus Fane's aura through the
blank mask of the microwave downlink.
"Why?" he demanded.
Fane answered promptly. "I'm sure I don't need to tell
you that we wouldn't have anybody working for us—certainly
not in a position as sensitive as Security Liaison for Anodyne
Systems—if he wasn't cleared by the most rigorous scrutiny."
An irritating fuzz of static distorted his sincerity. "And we
scrutinize everyone incessantly. Over and over again.
"Our latest—shall I call them observations?—of Nathan
Alt showed that over the past several months he's been in
frequent contact with the native Earthers."
The First Executive Assistant raised his voice to convey
indignation. "I don't need to remind you, Director Dios, that
they're terrorists. The worst kind of scum. In the name of
preserving humankind's 'genetic purity,' they oppose any
dealings with the Amnion, even responsible trade. They op-
pose diplomatic relations. They oppose us because we do law-
ful, authorized business with forbidden space. And they don't
hesitate to use violence of all kinds to support their policies.
"Of course we fired Nathan Alt. Once we knew he was in
contact with the native Earthers, we couldn't trust him."
Warden ignored Fane's outrage. "And that's how you
knew Alt was dangerous as soon as you recognized him?" he
asked.
"Director Dios," Cleatus Fane retorted strongly, "I think
the native Earthers are behind all these recent attacks. I think
Nathan Alt gave them the means to supply kazes with legiti-
mate id, and they've been using it to try to undermine both the
UMC and the UMCP.
"Fortunately they can't succeed," he added at once.
"The fact that the GCES soundly rejected Captain Vertigus'
misguided Bill of Severance demonstrates that. But the danger
is still real. And it must be stopped."
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of a man who had come close to a death he didn't deserve.
Warden grimaced at the intercom. After a moment he
drawled mordantly, "An interesting theory, Mr. Fane. I want
to be sure I understand it. The first attack—the one on Captain
Vertigus—what was that supposed to accomplish? The native
Earthers have always called him a hero."
The FEA laughed humorlessly. "But he hasn't done any-
thing heroic for decades. He's too old and ineffectual to do
them any good. They wanted to make him a martyr. His oppo-
sition to Holt Fasner and the UMC is common knowledge.
They want people to think he was attacked to silence his oppo-
sition."
Warden snorted softly; too softly to register on the inter-
com pickup. "You can't apply the same argument to Godsen
Frik."
"Of course not." Static or stress made Fane's bonhomie
sound brittle. "As a spokesman for the special relationship
between the UMC and the UMCP, he's a natural enemy of the
native Earthers. They wanted to use the confusion caused by
Captain Vertigus' martyrdom to strike at one of their most
public targets."
For a moment Warden appeared to give this statement
consideration. Then he asked, "And the attack today?"
"An attempt to scare the Council," Fane pronounced
firmly. "Fear breeds stupidity—and stupidity breeds native
Earthers."
Hashi considered this an interesting piece of conceptual
legerdemain. From his perspective, stupidity bred rejection of
Captain Vertigus' Bill of Severance.
Warden may have felt the same—Koina plainly did—but
he didn't comment.
"I'll look into it," he told the Dragon's henchman. "But
I have to say, Mr. Fane, it makes me wonder why you hired Alt
in the first place. You had reason to think he might not be
particularly reliable."
Cleatus Fane snorted. "Because he couldn't meet Direc-
tor Donner's standards for 'conduct becoming an officer'?
There aren't many men or women on the planet who can be
that pure all the time. His court-martial didn't render him unfit
for productive work. Or honorable work, for that matter,"
Fane added.
"But the truth is"—microwave noise complicated his
candor—"his court-martial was one of the reasons we hired
him. He never hid the fact that he resented the UMCP. From
our point of view, that made him uniquely valuable. We
wanted a man who was highly motivated to find fault with
anything you people touched—especially with the security
procedures designed for organizations like Anodyne Systems
and the GCES. If he couldn't find chinks in your armor—so to
speak—no one could. And if he could find them, we could fix
them."
The First Executive Assistant might as well have said,
Don't try to challenge me, Director Dios. You're wasting your
time.
Chief Mandich's features held a resentful scowl, but he
didn't speak.
Warden shrugged noncommittally. "As I say," he re-
plied, "time is tight, Mr. Fane. Director Lebwohl is already
investigating some of the possibilities you've mentioned."
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Hashi had invoked Red Priority security locks for some of
Holt Fasner's Home Office computers, as well as for all of
- Anodyne Systems'. "Just one more question, if you don't
mind.
"Did Alt take any of his work with him?"
"Director," Fane answered heavily, "nobody carries that
kind of work around in his head. It's too minute and complex.
His last project ran to something like eight million lines of
source-code. Most of us would burn out our brains just trying
to remember the design protocols.
"And we made damn sure he didn't carry it any other
way. I can tell you that for a fact."
On this point Hashi felt certain that the FEA's facts were
accurate. Captain Alt's secrets—whatever they might have
been—had never left the Dragon's orbital headquarters.
"Very well, Mr. Fane," Warden returned. "I'll contact
Holt Fasner directly when I have anything to report."
He raised his hand and aimed one strong finger to silence
the intercom.
On impulse Hashi left his seat so abruptly that Warden's
hand stopped. In a rush Hashi reached the front of the desk
and leaned over the intercom.
"Mr. Fane?" he said quickly, almost breathlessly. "For-
give the intrusion. This is Director Lebwohl. I am with Direc-
tor Dios. Overhearing your discussion, I have a question of my
own, if you will permit me to put it to you."
Fane hesitated momentarily, then said, "Go ahead, Direc-
tor Lebwohl. Anything you want to know."
Grinning past his glasses at Warden, Hashi responded
promptly, "You say that you fired Nathan Alt six weeks ago
because he was in contact with the native Earthers. And you
made sure—I believe you made 'damn' sure—that none of his
work left with him. Did you institute any other precautions to
ensure the security of Anodyne Systems?"
If the First Executive Assistant was willing to go this far,
surely he would go further.
"Of course." Fane's tone hinted at relief. He was pre-
pared for this question. "We made a mistake hiring Alt. We
weren't going to compound it by being naive. In essence, we
threw out everything he did while he was Security Liaison. I
mean, we kept his ideas. Some of them were brilliant. But we
erased every application he designed. We erased every appli-
cation he might have touched. Then we wrote our own to re-
place his. And we wrote patches to alter the code engines in
every SOD-CMOS chip Anodyne Systems manufactured dur-
ing his tenure.
"Even if he was smuggling data and code to the native
Earthers for months before we caught him," Fane concluded,
"it's all useless to them now."
Nodding to no one in particular, Hashi resumed his seat.
He didn't trouble himself to thank Cleatus Fane.
Frowning at his DA director, Warden pursued, "In other
words, Mr. Fane, you're sure the security breach which put
legitimate id in the hands of three recent kazes didn't come
from Nathan Alt? Directly or indirectly?"
"That's right," Fane replied as if his credibility were in-
tact. "You have a traitor on your hands. That's obvious. But he
isn't here."
No doubt Fane meant in Holt Fasner's employ, either in
his Home Office or in the UMC.
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all."
With a decisive stab of his finger, he toggled his intercom
to end the First Executive Assistant's call.
Then he faced Hashi. His hands clenched each other on
the desktop as if—literally as well as metaphorically—he
needed to keep a grip on himself. His single eye caught the
light like the wink of a cutting laser. Hope or fury beat visibly
in the veins at his temples.
"All right, Director Lebwohl," he said harshly. "We've
heard what Cleatus Fane has to say. What does it prove?"
Koina and Chief Mandich studied Hashi with their sepa-
rate forms of incomprehension. Confusion appeared to aggra-
vate the Chief's resentment. Perhaps he was irritated because
he thought that Hashi's insistence on speaking to Fane wasted
time. But Koina's bafflement was of a different kind. Hashi
saw her as a woman whose primary assumptions prevented her
from understanding what she heard.
"Ah, 'prove,' " he answered Warden. "Nothing, I fear.
We remain in the realm of the tenuous and circumstantial"—
Werner Heisenberg's rich domain—"despite the First Execu-
tive Assistant's generous confirmation. Nevertheless I believe
that my conclusions are substantial. They will hold."
Warden didn't hesitate. "What are your conclusions?"
Hashi spread his hands as if to show that they were empty
of subterfuge or misdirection. Enunciating each word dis-
tinctly, he announced, "That these recent kazes have been sent
against us by none other than the UMC CEO himself, Holt
Fasner."
With one forefinger the DA director pushed his glasses up
on his nose to disguise the fact that he was keenly proud of
himself.
HASHI
For an instant shock seemed
to stun the room like a silent
concussion. Then Chief Mandich demanded, "What?"
Tensely Koina asked, "Hashi, are you sure?"
The DA director gave them no reply. He reserved his
clarity for Warden Dios.
"No doubt," he elaborated, "the conspiracy was carried
out by Cleatus Fane—and to some extent by Nathan Alt. Nev-
ertheless it derives both its authority and its intent from the
great worm in his lair."
Now both Koina and Mandich kept silent, awaiting War-
den's reaction.
Warden allowed himself a long, slow breath. Some of the
tension appeared to recede from his frame. Relief, perhaps? Or
defeat? Hashi couldn't tell which. He could only trust that he
had at last begun to grasp the UMCP director's game.
Quietly Warden asked, "How do you figure that?"
He had authorized Koina Hannish to reveal how passage
of the Preempt Act had been obtained. He had instructed her
to admit Angus Thermopyle's innocence—and Morn Hyland's
knowledge of that innocence. Hashi could think of no explana-
tion except that Warden had decided to attempt the Dragon's
downfall.
The DA director intended to give him every possible aid.
"Of the kaze who attacked Captain Vertigus," he began,
seeking precision so that everyone would see that his logic was
seamless, "nothing is known. Prior to the agreement recently
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signed temporary responsibility for GCES Security to Chief
Mandich—we lacked investigative jurisdiction. Therefore I ad-
mit frankly that any connection between that assault and those
on Godsen Frik and the GCES must remain purely speculative.
We will not be able to 'prove' it.
"The other two are another matter. There our jurisdiction
was plain. Within the limits imposed by events, our opportu-
nity to investigate has been unimpeded."
He paused to sort oblique strands of inference, then con-
tinued.
"Lane Harbinger has already justified my faith in her
many times over." Confidence sharpened the habitual wheeze
of his voice. "One notable example is germane. As my recent
reports indicate, she has been able to recognize and preserve a
minute fragment of a SOD-CMOS chip from the credentials of
the kaze who slew poor Godsen Frik." Hashi made no effort
to pretend that his grief for the former PR director was sin-
cere. "From this fragment she has contrived to extract data.
"Need I explain why this achievement is remarkable?"
He glanced at Chief Mandich's blunt resentment; returned his
gaze to Warden. "Perhaps not.
"The data is as fragmentary as the chip," he resumed.
"Nevertheless it, too, is recognizable. Specifically Lane has
identified strings of source-code which demonstrate, first, that
the chip is one of ours, legitimately manufactured for us by
Anodyne Systems, and second, that the chip was of recent
production. The source-code is current as well as correct. It
shows no indications of patching or other alteration.
"This coincides with what Lane has determined from her
physical analysis of the chip."
Gradually Hashi's manner expanded to match his subject.
"As you know, for credentials to pass scrutiny they need
only be correct. Patched chips are correct. Nevertheless their
source-codes are not current. If they were, they would not
require patching."
QED.
"Sadly, this demonstrates little where our Godsen's killer
is concerned. If his credentials were recently issued—too re-
cently to have required the patch of which FEA Fane spoke—
they would be both current and correct.
"However, Clay Imposs' credentials in Nathan Alt's pos-
session are altogether more revealing."
Hashi smiled to remind Warden—as well as Koina and
Mandich—that he himself had preserved those credentials at
the hazard of his own life.
Chief Mandich couldn't contain himself. He must have
loathed hearing Hashi lecture. "How so?" he demanded. "I
don't get it. If they were correct enough to pass, who cares
how current they are?"
Hashi allowed his tone to sharpen. "The benign Cleatus
Fane helpfully assures us that Nathan Alt was fired six weeks
ago. Further, he assures us that substantial precautions were
taken to guarantee that Nathan Alt could not betray Anodyne
Systems. I am certain that his statements will be confirmed
by Anodyne Systems' records, as well as by those of the
Dragon's Home Office.
"Yet I am also certain that the First Executive Assistant is
lying to us.
"Clay Imposs was a sergeant for GCES Security. To at-
tain his rank, he had served that organization for several
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Nevertheless he couldn't stifle the throb of his excitement.
"Therefore his id tag and clearance badge would naturally
have been patched six weeks ago. And yet the source-code in
his credentials is both correct and current."
Lane and her assistants could not be mistaken on such a
point.
Koina caught her breath sharply. Mandich murmured an
obscenity between his teeth like a man who was beginning to
understand.
Warden waited without expression for Hashi to go.
"As I have explained," Hashi stated, "those credentials
are a composite of his id and Nathan Alt's. But such a confla-
tion could only have been performed by someone with perfect
access to the code engines themselves. It is a complete fabri-
cation, which only an intimate knowledge of the code engines
could have made possible.
"And yet the designers of those engines are ours," he
concluded in triumph. "No one whom we did not assign has
had access to the source-code—except Nathan Alt."
The UMCP director nodded to himself. Despite the best
Hashi could do, Warden still showed no surprise. Yet the eas-
ing of tension in the muscles around his eye suggested emo-
tions which pleased Hashi more than any amount of surprise:
relief; gratification.
"Well done, Hashi," he murmured as if no one were
listening. "I wouldn't have thought of that."
An elation like pride strained Hashi's chest until he won-
dered whether his old heart could bear it.
"Wait a minute," Koina put in quickly. "You think Alt
went on working for Cleatus Fane after Fane says he was fired.
How can he lie about something like that? Even if the records
were changed, wouldn't our people—the designers who
worked with Alt—wouldn't they be able to testify that the
records are wrong, that Alt wasn't fired six weeks ago?"
Hashi offered no reply. Instead he waited for Chief
Mandich to speak.
The chief chewed bitterness for a moment. Then he said
gruffly, "No. I'm afraid not."
Warden knew this as well as Hashi did. Like Hashi, how-
ever, he left the explanation to Mandich.
"We take every precaution we can think of to protect that
work," the Chief growled. "It's all done from remote termi-
nals by secure link to dedicated computers at Anodyne. First
the link has to be established. Those are Administration codes.
Then the remote terminal has to match the system protocols.
DA supplies the codes for that. Then the terminal operator has
to gain access. We"—ED Security—"control those codes.
"It's not just that the code designers never even see each
other. They don't have any way of knowing who else has ac-
cess—who they're working with. Alt could have been fired
years ago. He could have been working there yesterday. The
design teams wouldn't know the difference."
In disgust he added, "It's supposed to be safer that way."
Koina wasn't satisfied, however. "But for Fane to tell a
lie like that—" she protested. "It's still too dangerous. He
must have known he would be caught."
"On the contrary"—at last Hashi turned away from War-
den to face the PR director—"from his perspective it must be
inconceivable that he would be caught.
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him might be obtained? By their very nature, kazes destroy
evidence. He could hardly have predicted that even a tiny frag-
ment of Godsen's killer's id would survive for Lane's detec-
tion. Surely he must have assumed—anyone would have
assumed—that Nathan Alt's remains, so thoroughly smashed
in such a public place, would leave nothing to be discovered.
"With Captain Alt himself dead, what remains to expose
Cleatus Fane's falsehood?
"He did not see me acquire Captain Alt's credentials."
Hashi suppressed an inclination to congratulate himself. "He
could not. I stood between him and his kaze. And I took con-
siderable pains to conceal what I had done."
When Hashi had cast himself headlong down the tiers of
frightened aides and Members, he had accumulated a number
of bruises. His lean frame was unaccustomed to such insults.
"Finally," he told Koina, "you must understand that Cle-
atus Fane had not meant his kaze to be exposed. He intended
to apply the signal which would inspire Captain Alt to release
the triggering coenzyme while Alt was near enough to be a
threat—but not near enough to harm Fane's own person.
"If indeed records have been prepared to show that Na-
than Alt was fired six weeks ago, they only confirm that the
First Executive Assistant is lying."
"Damn it." Chief Mandich was convinced. In two strides
he reached the edge of Warden's desk. Pointing at the inter-
com, he said, "Director, with your permission, I'll call GCES
Security. Tell them to arrest that oily sonofabitch. Maybe we
can't prove he set Alt off, but we can make damn sure"—
Fane's words again—"he doesn't cause any more trouble."
Warden shook his head decisively. "No.
"As you say, we can't prove anything. And if we could,
Holt would just disavow it—let us have Fane, and concentrate
on looking innocent himself.
"What we can do," the UMCP director added, "is avoid
telling him we know what he's done. That might give us an
advantage."
Hashi noted that Warden didn't specify what the advan-
tage might be.
"Yes, sir." Scowling his frustration, the Chief retreated.
"I'm sorry." Koina leaned forward urgently in her seat.
Hashi suspected that only her professional poise kept her from
rising to her feet. "It still doesn't make sense. There's some-
thing you seem to have forgotten.
"You're telling me Fane did all this to stop the Bill of
Severance. You assume he knew Captain Vertigus was going
to introduce that Bill. You might as well assume he knew what
I was going to say when he asked us to support him.
"How did he know? How could he possibly have found
out what Captain Vertigus had in mind?"
A frown concentrated her luminous gaze. "Captain Ver-
tigus didn't ask for an extraordinary session and Member's
privilege until after he was attacked. Why did Fane send a
kaze to try to stop something that for all we know Captain
Vertigus didn't think of until later?"
Chief Mandich's eyes widened. He appeared to shudder
like a man who was being sickened by uncertainty.
Hashi pursed his lips as if to say, Good question. In fact,
however, the swirl of inferences in his head had left such is-
sues behind a while ago. He strove to appear noncommittal
because he wanted to hear how Warden would reply.
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hidden. He acknowledged the importance.of Koina's question
only by leaning back in his chair and folding his arms over his
chest.
"You're the one with the answers here, Hashi," he said
impersonally. "Go ahead. Tell Koina what you think is going
on."
Hashi was glad that Warden no longer insisted on calling
him "Director Lebwohl." On the other hand, he would have
valued more highly some confirmation that he had indeed
plumbed his director's intentions.
Obviously no confirmation was forthcoming. That in turn
spun new implications which pushed Hashi's comprehension
further.
Warden Dios needed help. Of course he did. Yet he pre-
served an essential distance from the very people who would
be most inclined to assist him: Koina Hannish; Min Donner;
Hashi himself.
He wished to protect his subordinates from sharing his
fate if he failed. Or—Hashi went still further—from suffering
the consequences if he succeeded.
"Hashi?" Koina urged tensely.
"Ah, your pardon," the DA director wheezed. He flut-
tered his hands in front of his face to ward off emotions for
which he had no use. "I fear my attention wandered."
His elation had gone sour, curdled by an unfamiliar pang
of loss. He found that he did not want to lose Warden Dios.
Nor could he save him.
"You may have misunderstood me." He let his voice
buzz waspishly. Koina—or Warden—might hear it as anger;
but he was ill equipped to express grief in any other way. "I
have not told you that 'Fane did all this to stop the Bill of
Severance.' I have not remarked on his motives at all.
"Naturally you are concerned that your refusal to support
the FEA's opposition to the Bill prompted that luminary to
detonate his kaze." Koina responded with a troubled nod. "It
may be so," he continued. "But if it is so, you provided only
an occasion, not a cause.
"I do not assume that Cleatus Fane—or his master—pos-
sessed some prescient awareness of Captain Vertigus' inten-
tions. Rather I assume that the purpose of these attacks from
the first has been to solidify the special—the dependent—rela-
tionship between the UMCP and the UMC. To demonstrate
that a relationship which has kept the GCES, if not all human
space, secure until now should not be altered. True, a Bill of
Severance threatens this relationship. But other threats pre-
ceded it, threats which suffice to account for the attacks. And
those threats were public."
Studying Hashi intently, Koina asked, "What do you
mean?"
"The threats were two," Hashi rasped. "First in time, if
perhaps not in importance, is Special Counsel Maxim Igen-
sard's investigation of the Thermopyle case' in all its ramifi-
cations.
"Surely his inquiry threatens the Dragon's effective he-
gemony. Among other efforts, he seeks to req DA's financial
records. If he were to obtain them, he would eventually
unearth payments made to former Deputy Chief of Com-Mine
Security Milos Taverner." Hashi saw no reason why he should
not verify Warden's earlier revelations. "Conceivably the Pre-
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"The occasion is apt for some display to support the ne-
cessity of our special relationship with the UMC. Thus Maxim
Igensard is countered without being directly opposed."
Koina may have wished to interpose a question, but Hashi
allowed her no opportunity. Wheezing sharply, he continued,
"The more recent, but perhaps more critical, threat derives
from the often-discussed video conference between Director
Dios and the Council."
Hashi did not refer to Warden with so much as a glance.
He had lost his taste for Warden's lack of response.
"You yourself said that you felt you were 'witnessing the
collapse of everything we're supposed to stand for.' What,
then, do you imagine Holt Fasner's reaction must have been?
If you were indignant and dismayed, would he not have been
outraged and appalled? The revelations of that conference un-
dermined our appearance of honor, of probity—and our ap-
pearance of honor provides an essential validation for our
dependence on the UMC.
"If we are not honorable, who may be held accountable?
Why, no one—except our master, the great worm."
Warden had played the conference beautifully. He had
played Hashi beautifully. And kazes had ensued. Death had
ensued. Yet that would be only the first of many extreme con-
sequences.
"We have been afflicted with bombs and bloodshed in
response to the same concerns which may well have inspired
Captain Vertigus' Bill. In themselves, his actions are second-
ary. Indeed, they may be purely coincidental." Deliberately
Hashi did not look at Warden. "Yet his concerns are shared
elsewhere—for differing reasons. Hence these kazes. They are
intended to reinforce our subservience to the Dragon.
"In that they have succeeded.
"If you doubt me," he added, although he suspected that
no one did, "ask yourself who benefits from our special rela-
tionship with the UMC? Who profits? Who is diminished by
anything which undermines us? Hardly the native Earthers.
"Consider the pattern of targets. First Captain Vertigus.
Then Godsen Frik. Then—apparently—Cleatus Fane himself.
GCES. UMCP. UMC. Thus all are placed beyond suspicion.
No one remains to be accused except the native Earthers.
"But no one profits except Holt Fasner."
For a moment Hashi's explanation held his listeners.
Koina frowned like a woman who was so lost in what she'd
heard that she could no longer frame questions. Chief
Mandich said nothing.
But then Warden murmured distantly, "Don't stop now,
Hashi. Finish it.
"Why Captain Vertigus? Why not Igensard? Or someone
with more influence than poor old Sixten?"
Koina turned a grateful look toward the UMCP director,
as if he'd restored her capacity for thought. At once, however,
she faced Hashi again, awaiting his reply.
Hashi found that he no longer enjoyed the sound of his
own voice. The mechanics of his new comprehension showed
that he was doing Warden's dirty work for him, naming facts
and perhaps truths which Warden already knew, and which
must be communicated to both PR and UMCPED Security,
but which the UMCP director could not articulate himself
without compromising his deeper intentions; exposing the na-
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"Who better?" he countered. Koina may have thought he
sneered at the old Senior Member. If so, she was mistaken.
"Precisely because he has become peripheral to the workings
of the Council, he might be presumed to be an easy target. In
addition, an attack on him is less bald, less easily interpreted,
than an attempt on our fearsome Special Counsel. And, finally,
Captain Vertigus is overdue for retribution. The Dragon never
forgives. If he withholds his hand from those who trouble him,
it is only because he bides his time.
"Upon occasion Captain Vertigus has both disobeyed and
opposed the UMC CEO."
Koina nodded. She no longer doubted Hashi: she had al-
ready been persuaded; won over. Now she was simply trying
to fit the pieces of her new understanding together.
"But why Godsen, of all people?" she asked. "That's
never made sense to me. If anything, I would have said he
was"—she searched for the right word—"irrelevant. A pawn.
Killing him is like shooting at the decor. It makes a mess, but
it doesn't change anything."
Hashi responded with a shrug of irritation. "His own spe-
cial relationship with the Dragon was well-known. An attack
on him would also appear to be an attack on his master. That
is reason enough for his selection as a target."
The DA director paused to gather his determination, then
continued acidly, "Surely it is obvious that our lamented God-
sen was not meant to die? Before he was attacked, he received
a summons to attend CEO Fasner. Had he obeyed, he would
not have been present for assassination.
"He did not obey, however. The director had restricted
him to UMCPHQ. He died because, and only because, he
elected to honor Warden Dios' instructions rather than the
Dragon's."
Against all expectation, Godsen Frik had at last discov-
ered his own honor. And he had acted on it by informing his
director of Holt Fasner's summons.
Again Koina nodded.
Is it enough? Hashi asked Warden silently. Must I con-
tinue this charade?
Inadvertently Chief Mandich spared Hashi. Speaking in a
rush, he said, "And Fane made himself look like a target to
complete the pattern. Put himself above suspicion. I get it.
"He could be sure he wasn't in any real danger because
he controlled the trigger."
"Exactly so," Hashi assented. He lacked the energy—or
perhaps the will—to give Mandich any other acknowledgment.
Now that the Chief had finally grasped the thrust of
Hashi's explanations, he seemed unable to contain himself.
His blunt nature demanded action. He turned at once to War-
den.
"Director, what do you want me to do? It's probably a
mistake to arrest Fane. If you say so, I accept that. But we
can't just sit on our hands with all this. It's too much—
"My God, it's going to make the Council reconsider that
Bill." He swallowed convulsively as the truth struck him. "I
mean, what we have is too much to ignore. But it isn't
enough." Like all of Min Donner's ilk, he instantly and pas-
sionately favored a Bill of Severance. "We need more."
Abruptly Warden surged to his feet. Perhaps Mandich's
assertion had released a spring of decision in him. It was more
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waiting, not for Hashi's explanation, but for the Chief's com-
prehension of it—and for Koina's. Now he could move his
subordinates to their places in his deep game.
His manner was all crisp authority as he replied, "Getting
ready for a possible war is my job." Despite Min Donner's
absence, warfare lay outside the Security Chief's province.
"Yours is to find evidence. Anything that counts as proof.
"You know what you're looking for now. Was Alt really
fired six weeks ago? Who had access to his work? Did he ever
leave HO? If he did, where did he go? Who did he see? What
happened to Clay Imposs? You can think of other questions
Security might be able to answer better than DA could."
"Yes, sir." The Chief snapped a salute, although Warden
hadn't dismissed him.
Warden ignored the gesture. As a rule, he didn't respond
to salutes. He acknowledged his people in other ways.
"Anything you find," he continued, "you'll report im-
mediately to Director Lebwohl and Director Hannish as well
as to me."
"Yes, sir," Chief Mandich repeated.
Warden turned to the DA director.
"Hashi, I want Lane's findings as soon as you get them.
Let Koina have them, too. If Lane isn't already doing it, tell
her to backtrack that coenzyme. Somebody must have done
some research on it. There must be a record of it somewhere.
She might be able to find it. Set up all the Red Priorities you
need. That might lead us to whoever used Alt.''
Hashi assented with a nod. He was confident that Lane
recognized the importance of her discovery, and knew how to
pursue it.
"Other than that"—Warden indicated both Hashi and
Koina—"I want the two of you to get ready.
"Len is going to call an emergency session soon." So
much was predictable. An Amnion incursion into human space
would demand action from the GCES. "When he does, I want
both of you there. I want the Council to hear you respond in
person to"—he spread his hands—"whatever comes up.
"It's still tenuous," he added without transition. "Cir-
cumstantial as hell. But it will help. By God, it will help.
"Koina, when the time comes, add Hashi's accusation
against Holt to the list of things you tell Maxim Igensard.
"All right?" he asked rhetorically. "Then get out of
here." His brusque dismissal made it clear that he didn't wish
to hear any more questions. "I'm too busy for all this talk."
Too busy to grant me five minutes of honesty? Hashi
asked with his eyes. Will you not share the truth, even with
me?
Warden shook his head as if he understood the silent in-
quiry. Whatever happened to him, he meant to face it alone.
Hashi allowed himself a small grimace of pain as he rose
to his feet.
Mandich reached the door first; headed away charged
with his mission. Hashi bowed Koina out of the small office
ahead of them. When the door had closed and sealed behind
them, however, he walked with her a short distance along the
corridor. He had no desire for her company. However, he had
known her too long—and had profited too much from her for-
mer trust—to treat her as Warden had just treated him.
As soon as they were beyond earshot of the guards who
watched over the director in his office, she put her hand on his
arm. "Hashi—" For a moment she actually leaned on him as


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if she feared her knees might fail. She kept her voice low in an
effort to conceal a tremor of distress.
"If I tell Igensard all this, it'll ruin Warden. He won't
have anything left to stand on. Even his honor. Igensard will
have him up on charges in a matter of hours. Dereliction. Mal-
feasance. Tr"—the word caught in her throat briefly—"trea-
son. He'll be lucky if he doesn't find himself facing execution.
"What does he think he's doing?"
Despite its softness, her tone betrayed her. She, too, was
grieving.
Earlier she'd refused to tell him something he had very
much wanted to know. Now he took his revenge, although it
gave him no pleasure. Warden wouldn't thank him for re-
vealing what he guessed. And her sorrow would only be in-
creased.
"My dear Koina, if I answer you, you will believe that we
have both lost our minds."
So that she would not pursue the matter, he disengaged
his arm and walked away from her. Whatever happened, he
meant to keep his own emotions as private as Warden's.
The Amnion had committed an act of war.
The director of the UMCP had chosen a terrible moment
to stake all their lives against the Dragon.
ANGUS
He didn't scream; could not
have screamed if he'd
wanted to. But for a time that might have been long or short
his body screamed for him.
Asteroids and static crashed in mad ecstasy through the
dark void, shattering against each other and recoiling in their
rush to answer the singularity's hunger. The black hole sucked
down energy in jagged bolts like lightning; swallowed matter
lurid with Doppler shifts. Forces which he'd unleashed with
his own hand seemed to tear him apart.
Dehydration. Intolerable g. Strange concussions of all
kinds. EM violence intense enough to fry every circuit in his
head. He was trapped in a crib of weight and pain so extreme
that they crushed out every flicker or spasm of awareness. All
his nerves became one long voiceless and unanswerable
shriek.
There was no escape as long as the belt of his suit re-
mained anchored to the ship—and no escape if it failed. Mor-
tal bone and tissue couldn't survive the weird translations of
the singularity's event horizon. Like the stars and the gap, so
much gravity transcended human existence.
Infinite loss. Complete extinction. Every cell in his body
wailed at the nearness of ultimate things. Perhaps he tried to
twist against the strain, ease it somehow. He didn't know: his
body understood only screaming.
But then his hurts began to shut down like systems going
off-line. Behind its shields, his datacore registered the scale of
his distress and engaged its last prewritten defense: the one
protection which might keep him alive—if not sane—when he
suffered this much damage. It put him into stasis. Every iota
of energy which his body and his power cells could supply was
focused on sustaining his autonomic functions: pulse and res-
piration. Everything else was canceled.
His flesh stopped its screaming because it was no longer
accessible to pain. He was neither conscious nor unconscious:
his mind occupied a place where such concepts had no mean-



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ing; a place beyond change or interpretation. If g crushed him
to a bloody smear inside his EVA suit, he didn't know it. If the
pressure released him entirely, he couldn't tell the difference.
Time and space passed him by.
And there was no one who could command his zone im-
plants to release him.
Pulse.
Respiration.
Stasis.
Nothing else.
If he could have identified where he was, he might have
considered it Heaven.
At some indefinable point—after instants or aeons of interven-
ing peace—vestiges of recognition returned. On some level
which seemed to have nothing to do with his mind, he under-
stood that he was no longer outside the ship. His head wasn't
confined by a helmet. Perhaps he knew that he was alive. The
knowledge had no significance, however. It conveyed nothing;
required nothing.
When the DA medtechs had put him into stasis during the
days and weeks of his welding, he'd been able to hear what
they said in his presence. When Warden Dios had switched his
datacore, the UMCP director's words had reached him clearly.
Technically, we've done you a favor. That's obvious.
You're stronger now, faster, more capable, effectively more in-
telligent. Not to mention the fact that you're still alive—
In some sense he'd been aware of what he heard.
In every other way, we've committed a crime against you.
We've committed a crime against your soul.
But he could not have reacted. Comprehension and recog-
nition were irrelevant. No reactions were permitted to him.
It's got to stop.
Asteroids and singularities and the cold dark transcended
him. The compulsions of machine logic transcended him.
After all Heaven was indistinguishable from Hell.
Gradually he came to the perception that he wasn't alone. Two
or three dark shapes hovered somewhere around him. From
time to time they smeared themselves across his vision as if to
prove that they weren't like him; weren't imprisoned in his
skull.
Yet their presence changed nothing. He still couldn't re-
act. He would never react again. Even the small effort of fo-
cusing his eyes was beyond him: an exercise of choice which
his welding rendered unattainable.
So impalpably that there was no point at which the
change could have been detected, the utter gulf outside his
EVA suit had become a blank white light, sterile and unforgiv-
ing. How much time had passed? Stupid question. Or stupid to
ask it. His datacore never gave him answers when he was in
stasis. Counters in his head had measured the interval to the
last microsecond, but they kept their data to themselves. When
he was in stasis, he was presumed to need nothing except
breath and blood, sustenance and elimination.
There was no one who could command his zone implants
to release him. He himself, Angus Thermopyle, had erected
barriers against the codes which could have coerced a re-
sponse from his datacore.
Were the shapes speaking? He couldn't tell. They re-
mained around him. He heard voices. But he had no way of
knowing whether the voices came from the shapes.
"I'm trying," one of them said. For no particular reason,


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Angus recognized Mikka Vasaczk. "The computer says he
can't wake up."
Apparently he was in sickbay. Someone must have gone
outside to bring him in.
While Trumpet was held by a singularity? Impossible.
"How bad is he hurt?"
That was Vector Shaheed. Savior of humanity. The man
who'd analyzed UMCPDA's antimutagen and made the for-
mula available. If anybody survived to pick up his broadcast.
"Severe dehydration," Mikka reported. Fatigue and bit-
terness rasped in her voice. "IVs have taken care of that.
Hemorrhage—shit, he's lost liters of blood. But the IVs are
handling that, too. And most of the bleeding's stopped. One of
his hips was dislocated—he must have tried to use his suit jets
against the pull. That's been taken care of." The surgical table
was almost prehensile: it could apply traction in any direction
necessary. "He's responding to the drugs. Metabolins. Coagu-
lants. Analgesics. Stim.
"But the systems can't wake him up."
Of course not.
Trumpet's sickbay had been designed and programmed
especially for him. The cybernetic physicians knew him inti-
mately: special instruction-sets and diagnostic resources had
come on-line the instant he was attached to the table. They
could have repaired his welding. They could have compen-
sated for any damage the electrodes might have done to his
brain. Within limits they could have corrected faults in some
of his equipment.
But first they required the right codes.
"What about EEG?" Vector asked.
Maybe he didn't realize he was wasting his time.
Mikka answered shortly, "No readings."
"You mean he's brain-dead?"
Davies. The voice was unmistakable. Angus knew it well.
Under the right kind of stress, it sounded like his own.
Three voices. Mikka, Vector, and Davies. Presumably that
meant there were three shapes instead of just two.
Where was Morn?
Dead? Lost in gap-sickness?
Angus went away inside his head. He promised himself
that he was never coming back. Morn's pain hurt him too
much. He didn't want to know what had happened to her. He
was afraid it would be more than he could bear.
But if he couldn't turn himself back on, he also couldn't
retreat, use stasis to protect him. Like a black hole, the ma-
chine logic of his equipment gave nothing; permitted nothing.
No time passed before he heard Mikka reply, "That's not it. I
mean the systems can't get a reading. Apparently his zone
implants are blanking out neural activity. Or masking it. As far
as sickbay can tell, his head's full of white noise. He could be
screaming at us in there—telling us what to do—and we
wouldn't know it."
"Angus, wake up!" Davies croaked. A jolt which might
have been a slap rocked Angus' head from side to side on his
slack neck. "God damn it, we need you!"
"Stop that." Mikka sounded sick with weariness. "He
can't hear you. He probably can't feel anything, either."
Unfortunately she was wrong.
"Can we short out the noise?" Vector asked distantly.
"Set up some kind of interference? So the systems can get a



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reading? Maybe apply direct stimulation to wake him up?"
Mikka snorted. "We might kill him. We don't know what
kind of synergy connects him and his equipment. He's a
cyborg. Maybe he's dependent on his computer. Maybe his
zone implants are what keep him alive."
Again she was wrong. The white noise in his head was his
prison. The electrodes attached to his computer held him more
tightly than arm cuffs and manacles. But she was right, too:
Vector's suggestions wouldn't work. The bond between his
brain and his zone implants was too intimate to be disrupted
by any simple means.
Mikka and Vector and Davies could try to save him by
ordering sickbay to remove the electrodes from his head. Or
cut the leads from his computer. Turn him back into a human
being. Fuck the synergy. But he didn't think that would work,
either. Sickbay's programming wouldn't obey a command to
unweld him, dismantle him, without authorization.
No one aboard Trumpet—perhaps no one within a hun-
dred parsecs of the gap scout—knew the codes for that.
And if by some miracle sickbay obeyed—
All his new strengths and capabilities would be lost. En-
hanced reflexes, lasers, EM vision, jamming fields, databases,
computational power: he would forfeit them all. His zone im-
plants would no longer protect him from pain; no longer focus
his mind; no longer give him sleep or power or numbness
when he needed them. He would be free at last, truly and
completely free—at the cost of everything which made free-
dom attractive.
What would he do then? How could he survive? He
wasn't sure that he could handle the gap scout effectively
without his computer's support. He would be at the mercy of
anyone with more muscle or knowledge than he possessed.
That was the way he'd lived before he met Morn; before
he fell into Warden Dios' hands. Preying on those who were
weaker than he was so that he could avoid those who were
stronger. Hating everybody, weak and strong alike, because of
his own weakness. Tied to the slats of the crib—
Oh, perfect. A cackle like the laughter of a ghoul echoed
in his skull. Abso-fucking-lutely perfect.
Don't do it, he told the blurred shapes around him, even
though his silence was so vast that no sound could cross it.
Don't even try. Find some other answer.
If he laughed much harder, he was going to weep.
Don't make me go back to what I was.
Please.
Morn herself had never chosen to have her zone implant
removed or neutralized. She was dependent on the artificial
stimulation which had tortured and exalted her. The emissions
that controlled her also gave her strength.
Abruptly Davies announced like a cry, "No! He isn't un-
conscious. His zone implants are doing this to him."
Two of the shapes gave the impression that they turned to
face the third.
"He's in stasis," Davies explained hurriedly. "He
warned Morn and me about that. Before he edited his
datacore. He said some of the commands were hardwired. His
zone implants obey automatically. He told us, 'The whole sys-
tem will freeze if you pull the chip.' That's why we had to
wire him in to the ship's datacore before he could work.
"Something he did outside—or something that happened
to him—maybe being hurt so much— It triggered those com-


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mands. Sent him into stasis."
Very good, Angus chuckled desperately. You're smarter
than you look.
What're you going to do about it? Tell me what in hell
you think you can do about it.
"But if you're right—if it's hardwired—" Mikka's voice
trailed away.
"If it's hardwired," Vector finished for her, "we don't
know how to countermand it." After a moment he added, "I
was always pretty mediocre as an engineer. I can use systems
like these"—he must have meant sickbay's—"but I don't
really understand how they work. I'm out of my depth here.
Sorry."
Passing responsibility to someone else.
"Don't look at me," Mikka muttered. "I thought I was at
least competent as a programmer, but I didn't know it was
even possible to edit a datacore."
Only the Amnion could tamper with SOD-CMOS chips.
The Amnion and Angus. But he was in no position to offer
suggestions.
"Shit," Davies said through his teeth. "Morn's going to
wake up soon. When she does— I can't tell her this. I just
can't. After what she's been through—
"He's the only one who can repair the drives."
Repair the drives?
"We don't know that for sure." Mikka didn't sound
hopeful. "Vector and I haven't tried yet."
Repair—?
"So what?" Davies protested bitterly. "Even if you can,
we're helpless without him. We don't know enough about the
ship. We don't know enough about what's going on. Who's he
working for really? Why did they give him to Nick—and then
let us take him back? Why are we on the run?"
Angus breathed a nonexistent obscenity. What happened
to the drives?
"The cops are coming after us," Davies went on. "You
know that. We're sending out a Class-1 UMCP homing signal.
I can't figure out how to turn it off. If they chase us long
enough, they'll catch us.
"When that happens, we're finished. We may not die out
here, but we won't be able to make any choices.
"Whose side is that cruiser on? The side that sent Nick
Angus' codes? The side that wants to suppress our an-
timutagen? The side that let Nick have Morn in the first place?
Or the side that gave us the chance to set Angus free?
"We need to know what's going on."
Davies' young voice rose as if he wanted to wail. "I can't
tell Morn that the only man who stands a chance of helping us
is stuck in fucking stasis."
"Try his priority-codes," Vector suggested. His habitual
calm sounded frayed.
"They're blocked," Davies retorted.
"Try them!" Mikka snapped. "What the hell do you
think we have to lose?"
Fiercely Davies complied. "Isaac," he rasped. "Gabriel.
Wake up. End stasis. Wake up!"
Angus waited in suspense. But of course the commands
couldn't reach him. He'd erected a wall against them.
The Amnion had taught him well.
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change. He can't wake up."
Inside his head, he laughed until tears ran down his soul
like sweat.
Davies reacted as if she were taunting him.
"God damn it!" he raged. "What the fuck is wrong with
Ciro? What was he doing! Didn't you tell him he's been
cured? Didn't you at least try to convince him he doesn't have
to take orders from goddamn Sorus Chatelaine?"
Ciro did it? Sabotaged the drives? Well, damn. That
sounded like something Angus might have done himself.
"Of course we told him," Mikka replied wearily. "Of
course we tried to convince him. Vector showed him the tests,
for God's sake. The hurt's just too deep, that's all. We can't
reach the place where she damaged him. I can't." She may
have shrugged. "There isn't anything worse than what she did
to him."
A paroxysm of fury took hold of Davies. "I don't care!''
he yelled. "I'm not interested in excuses! We've got to do
better than this! I would be a fucking Amnioni myself right
now if Morn hadn't found a way to do better. She was alone
on Captain's Fancy, Nick had her locked in her cabin! She
still saved me.
"Don't tell me how bad Ciro's been hurt! Tell me—"
Angus heard a sound like a blow. Davies stopped sud-
denly, as if he'd been struck. As if he'd struck himself—
"What is it?" Mikka breathed tensely.
Without transition Davies' voice changed. It became at
once lighter and sharper. More like Morn's? His intensity gave
him focus; seemed to give him authority.
"Vector," he commanded, "let's turn him over."
"What?" Vector asked uncomprehendingly.
In silence Angus echoed, What?
"Turn him over," Davies insisted. "Put him on his stom-
ach."
Hands jerked along Angus' sides. He couldn't tell how
many there were. After a moment the restraints fell away, re-
leasing him into zero g.
"Mikka," Davies went on at once, "set the systems to
open up his back."
"Why?" she demanded. Vector may have been swayed by
Davies' passion; but she was tougher.
Don't ask stupid questions! Angus shouted uselessly. Just
do it!
"So we can pull his datacore," Davies retorted. "He said
the stasis commands are hardwired. Taking out the chip
freezes the whole system. Maybe if we unplug his datacore
and then put it back, the computer will reset itself."
Aping Mikka, he growled, "What the hell do you think
we have to lose?"
Shit! Abrupt amazement shot through Angus' trapped
mind. It might work. It might—
This time he hadn't been ordered into paralysis. His pro-
gramming had imposed it on him because he'd gone down one
of its logic trees too far to recover. Under the circumstances,
anything which forced or enabled his computer to re-evaluate
his condition might set him loose.
He landed on his face, felt the restraints close again.
"No good," Mikka reported. "The computer wants a
code. Sickbay won't do it without the right code."
Davies didn't hesitate. "Then get me a first-aid kit. I'll
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haven't done this before."
Only a few seconds passed before Angus felt a sharp line
run along the skin between his shoulder blades. It should have
hurt; but he was too far removed from it for pain. It might as
well have belonged to some other reality.
All this was familiar. Alone with Warden Dios, he'd
sprawled under the light like a sacrifice while the UMCP di-
rector had worked on his back: cut him open; swabbed away
the blood; unplugged his old datacore; set a new one into the
socket. Dios hadn't stopped talking the whole time.
If Min knew why I'm doing this, she'd turn against me
herself.
We call the process "welding.'' When a man or woman is
made a cyborg voluntarily, that's "wedding." "Welding" is
involuntary.
In essence, you're no longer a human being. You're a
machina infernalis—an infernal device. We've deprived you of
choice—and responsibility.
Davies swore steadily under his breath while he did the
same things for different reasons. Back then Angus had been
able to recognize the change when his datacore was taken out:
he'd felt a void as deep as the gap between the stars crouching
just beyond the window which linked him to his computer;
poised to consume him— But now he recognized only the tug
which plucked at his back when Davies pulled the chip. Noth-
ing shifted.
He already belonged to the void. Its power over him could
not be made worse.
Yet he knew that wasn't true. Trapped and suffocating in
the crib in his EVA suit, he'd launched a singularity grenade
against Free Lunch. And then he'd fired his portable matter
cannon; fired it accurately despite the chaos of the swarm and
the instability of cold ignition. He'd created that singularity by
his own skill and cunning, no matter who hurt him, or why.
Morn had set him free to fight for himself.
And then he'd been brought back from the edge of his
personal black hole. He wasn't alone here: other people had
saved him. They could have left him to die, damn right, that's
what he would have done himself, get rid of the butcher the
rapist the illegal who looked like a toad and stank like a pig
while they had the chance, no one would ever know the differ-
ence. Gone and good riddance.
The people around him hadn't done that. They'd retrieved
him from the fringes of his doom. And now they were trying
to do the same thing again in another way.
Beyond question the power of the void could be made
worse. Davies, Vector, and Mikka could fail—
Angus' terror might have eaten him alive if he'd been
able to feel its full strength. His body was immune to it, how-
ever. Only his mind remained vulnerable.
"How long do we have to wait?" Mikka asked tensely.
"How should I know?" Davies retorted. "I've never
done this before. And I sure as hell didn't design this shit."
Sounding unnaturally calm, Vector remarked, "Orn
Vorbuld"—a name Angus didn't know—"used to say we
have to drain the bad juju out of the chip."
Mikka snorted. "Orn Vorbuld was an asshole."
Was. Dead now, apparently. Another casualty.
Like Angus himself.
Try it, he groaned. Haven't you waited long enough?



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Haven't you tortured me enough? Try it, for God's sake!
Save me or let me die—
"Fuck it," Davies muttered through his teeth. "I don't
know what we're waiting for. Give me a swab. I can't plug
anything in if I can't see the damn socket."
We've committed a crime against your soul.
Angus felt pressure on his back, roughly gentle, mopping
blood away. The raw edges of Davies' incision seemed to sting
with cold as if they froze in the air of sickbay; as if the deep
chill of space leaked in to claim him for the last time.
It's got to stop.
Pressure again: harder; more focused. There, in the center
of his back; at the nexus of his being.
Silence.
Mikka murmured, "Is it in all the way?"
"I'm not sure," Davies breathed.
Angus was sure enough for both of them.
Without transition a window opened in the darkness of his
head—a window of relief so intense that he would have
sobbed aloud if his zone implants had allowed it.
Before he slipped away into the dark, his chronometer
informed him that he'd been in stasis for more than four and a
half hours.
DAVIES
Davies stared at the bloody
gap in Angus' back where
he'd just reinserted the datacore chip into its socket, and
waited for his heart to break.
He didn't have any other ideas. If this didn't work, Angus
might as well be dead. Sickbay might keep him alive indefi-
nitely; but no one aboard Trumpet would ever reach him again.
It wasn't working. Davies could see that. Held by his re-
straints, Angus lay like a slab of meat on the surgical table.
Only the autonomic rasp of his breathing indicated that he
wasn't a corpse.
Another failure. The last one: the fatal one. He hadn't
been good enough to help Angus save the ship. If Morn hadn't
risked gap-sickness to aid him, they all would have died. For a
while he'd been so caught up in his own exhaustion that he'd
let Morn and Angus suffer for long, unnecessary minutes. And
after that he'd had to rely on Mikka to run helm, despite her
injuries and Ciro's pain, because he hadn't been able to cope
by himself.
He didn't know how to repair the drives. He wasn't even
smart enough to turn off Trumpet's homing signal.
But there was worse.
He'd failed to understand himself. Hell, he hadn't even
tried. He'd refused to look at what lay behind his fury for
revenge on Gutbuster. Instead he'd let Nick commit his bi-
zarre suicide. He'd killed Sib Mackern as surely as if he'd
pressed the firing stud himself. And he'd taken his roiling
terror out on Morn as if it were anger; as if she were inade-
quate in some way, not good enough for him.
I'm Bryony Hyland's daughter. The one she used to have
—before you sold your soul for a zone implant.
Now he'd failed to bring Angus back from stasis. Trum-
pet'5 drives were dead: the gap scout couldn't navigate;
couldn't cross the gap in any direction; couldn't even deceler-
ate. All her choices were gone. She was doomed to drift like a
coffin consigned to the sea of space until death or the UMCP
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He wanted his heart to break; wanted something essential
inside him to snap. Otherwise he would have to face the con-
sequences of all the things he couldn't do.
He wasn't listening when Vector sighed, "Well, what do
you know. Would you look at that?" Nevertheless an unfamil-
iar congestion in the geneticist's tone made him turn his head.
Mikka caught her breath as she followed Vector's point-
ing hand.
Davies blinked, but couldn't grasp what he was seeing.
Apparently Vector wanted him to look at one of sickbay's
status displays. Which one? What difference did it make?
"Davies Hyland," Vector drawled cheerfully, "my in-
tense young friend, you are a genius. Or, as Angus will no
doubt say when he gets the chance, a fucking genius."
"The EEG, Davies," Mikka urged quietly. She might
have been on the edge of tears. "Look at his EEG."
Now Davies saw it.
Just moments ago that screen had been effectively blank;
filled by the undifferentiated emission of Angus' zone im-
plants. The sensors hadn't been able to penetrate the noise to
detect any neural activity. But now a whole series of normal-
looking waves and spikes scrolled along the EEG's band-
widths.
"He's asleep," Vector explained before Davies could try
to guess what the readings meant. "Not blank. Not in stasis.
Sleeping." He consulted a readout, then went on, "This isn't
exactly natural. These lines"—he indicated a few of the
bandwidths—"are too regular. His zone implants are doing
this to him. He needs time to heal. But he isn't blank" Vector
insisted. "His systems are on-line again. He'll probably wake
up when his diagnostics say he's ready."
The geneticist grinned at his companions. "Maybe now
we have something to hope for."
Without warning a visceral relief gripped Davies so hard
that he doubled over as if he were cramping. Mikka croaked
his name, but he wasn't able to respond. Pains he couldn't
name locked down the muscles in his chest and abdomen,
pulling him into a fetal knot. He'd been under too much strain
for too long; living on pure adrenaline. Flesh had limits—even
his enhanced metabolism had limits—and he'd passed them
long ago. Shocked by the sudden change in the stimulus of his
neurotransmitters, his nerves went haywire, misfiring in all di-
rections; clenching him into a ball. Adrift in zero g, he bobbed
against the wall and bounced back as if he'd lost all mass; all
substance.
"Davies!" Mikka snagged him by the arm, stopped his
helpless motion. "What's the matter? What's wrong?"
If he could have opened his throat, he would have called
Morn's name. But he couldn't speak; couldn't breathe—
Vector didn't hesitate. "I'll get some cat." At once he
started keying commands for the sickbay dispensary.
No! Davies wanted to protest. No drugs, no cat, don't
give me anything, that isn't what I need, you don't have to be
afraid of me, I'm not like that! Morn was the one who needed
cat. To control her gap-sickness. So that she wouldn't try to
kill them all.
Closed in pain as if it were a womb, his image of himself
shifted.
I'm not her.
Here was the proof. When the universe spoke to Morn—



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when hard g pushed her flesh past its limits—she attempted
self-destruct. Or she hurt herself in some way to deflect the
impulse. But he had a completely different reaction. He be-
came a killer of another kind altogether. Driven by his terror
of the Amnion, and of their desire to use him against his entire
species, he sent other people out to die. He hungered for mur-
der, not suicide. And when his body was overwhelmed, he
became a universe not of clarity but of pain: helpless as a
convulsing epileptic.
He'd figured out how to bring Angus back from stasis.
And he was not Morn.
That knowledge seemed to reach depths in him which it
had never touched before. The hurt which cramped his mus-
cles and sealed his lungs was his, no one else's. It was his
inability to distinguish himself from her.
He'd saved Angus.
He didn't want any goddamn cat.
Before Vector could reach him with a hypo, his chest and
limbs began to unlock themselves.
"Vector, he's moving," Mikka announced unnecessarily.
Davies drew a long, shuddering breath. Bit by bit he un-
folded himself. When he could turn his head, he did his best to
nod at Vector and Mikka. "I'm all right." He hardly heard his
own voice, but at least he was able to speak. "I don't need cat.
I'm just—" Words couldn't convey what he wanted to say.
I'm not Morn. That's important. "I just need sleep."
Vector studied him for a moment, glanced down at the
hypo in his hands, then referred the question to Mikka.
"Don't look at me," she murmured wanly. With the heel
of one hand, she pressed the bandage over her eye and the
corner of her forehead tighter. Maybe she thought that would
make her injuries hurt less. "We all need sleep. If he says he
doesn't want cat, I say send him to bed."
Slowly Vector nodded.
"I'm going to do that myself," she went on. Her weari-
ness was palpable. "As soon as I make sure Ciro hasn't gone
back off the deep end.'' She sounded defensive as she added,
"We might as well rest. We don't have anything better to do
until Angus wakes up."
That was her brother's doing, but she seemed to feel re-
sponsible for it.
"You're probably right," Vector replied as if he thought
she needed the acknowledgment. "Go ahead." He gestured at
the console behind him. "I just want to run a few more tests,
make sure he's all right."
Mikka nodded; turned toward the door. Then she stopped
to put her hand on Davies' arm.
"Thank you," she said softly. When she looked straight
at him, he could see that her good eye was full of loss. "As
long as Angus can function, we have a chance. If you hadn't
brought him back, I'm not sure I could live with what Ciro did
to us."
Brusquely she opened the door and left.
When she was gone, Vector dropped his hypo into the
sickbay disposal. With a nudge of his hip, he moved himself
closer to the command keypad. But he didn't take his gaze off
Davies.
A chance, Davies echoed to himself. Not long ago he'd
been alone: alone on the bridge; alone with his failures. But
now he'd recovered his father. If Morn could come back from
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her, he might finally find it possible to be whole.
Drifting again, he swung around so that Vector wouldn't
see the tears in his eyes.
Vector cleared his throat. "You're a growing boy," he
remarked obscurely. "Give yourself a break. I can handle
things here. Do what Mikka says—go to bed."
Sure. Go to bed.
Keeping his back to the geneticist, he pushed off from the
surgical table and let himself out into the corridor running
along Trumpet's core.
Moisture smeared his vision. He could hardly see where
he was going.
As soon as the sickbay door closed behind him, he caught
a handgrip and stopped. More than anything he needed sleep.
Yet he was reluctant to return to his cabin. He'd been through
too much recently. His limbs and back still ached from the
strain of his seizure. If he found Morn asleep, he would be
afraid for her. And if she was awake, he would be afraid of
her: afraid of what she'd become; afraid of her ability to
pierce his heart.
Before Trumpet's final escape from the black hole's g,
she'd recovered consciousness briefly. I can't do this again,
she'd said to him. When I'm in trouble, the only thing I can
think of is to hurt myself. She'd let the singularity crush her
right arm. Self-destruct— I need a better answer.
That made sense. Too often she'd driven herself to brutal
extremes in an effort to keep him alive; keep him human. He
didn't want to benefit from any more of her excruciation.
Nevertheless he didn't understand what she meant by a
better answer. What else could she have done?
She'd gone too far beyond him. He couldn't imagine what
she might have become.
' Yet he'd found a way to rescue Angus from stasis. That
steadied him. And by degrees the knowledge that he wasn't
her seemed to grow stronger. Maybe it would be strong
enough to help him face her.
He rubbed the back of his hand across his damp eyes,
trying to clear them. Then he floated down the corridor in the
direction of his cabin.
Morn blinked at him blearily as he entered, as if she'd
been awakened by the sound of the door. At first she didn't
appear to recognize him. After a moment, however, she mur-
mured, "Davies." Her voice sounded rusty with disuse.
He shouldn't have tried to clean the blur off his vision. He
didn't want to see her like this: pale as illness; her eyes like
dark craters in the fragile landscape of her face. All her beauty
had been whetted down to bone. In addition, her entire right
arm was wrapped in an acrylic cast and strapped across her
chest; but she may not have been aware of it yet.
The sight wrung him. He had a strange sense of disloca-
tion—an impression that he was seeing Angus' handiwork,
and Nick's, from the outside for the first time. Somehow being
caught and misdefined by her memories had partially blinded
him to the cost of her ordeals. Witnessed from inside, that
price was at once more extreme and less tangible.
Fresh tears spread across his cheeks. Despite his new
knowledge—or perhaps because of it—his muscles tightened
again, trying to draw him back into a ball.
But he'd brought Angus out of stasis. That was one bur-
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explain. Surely he could stand the rest for a few more min-
utes?
He didn't try to hide what he was feeling from her.
Hunched over as if he were bleeding internally, he slid to the
edge of her bunk and sagged there beside her, anchoring him-
self with his fingers in the webbing of her g-sheath.
"Davies." With an effort, she swallowed to moisten her
throat. "You're still alive. That's one good thing, anyway."
"So are you." Empathy and weariness hindered his
voice; but he didn't care. "I'm glad. You were hurt so bad—I
was afraid you might die—or we all would—before I got a
chance to apologize."
Morn frowned weakly; swallowed again. "For what?"
The drugs sickbay had given her were fading, but they still
affected her, clogging her reactions, slowing her comprehen-
sion.
He was tempted to say, For letting Nick go kill himself.
For sending Sib out to die. But those were secondary hurts
between her and him; easier to talk about. Instead he told her
roughly, "For not trusting you more. For saying all those nasty
things to you."
I'm Bryony Hyland's daughter.
"Half the time I really can't tell the difference between
us. It confuses me." Waves of pressure like little convulsions
tightened his chest and belly, but this time they weren't strong
enough to stop him. "And I didn't want to think about it. I
didn't want to be as scared as I would be if I thought about it.
"So I told myself we had to go after Gutbuster because
that was the right thing for cops to do. Punish her for her
crimes. And I could tell you had qualms about it. You weren't
backing me up. So I treated you like you were weak—like
there was something wrong with you—because you didn't
back me up.
"But it didn't have to do with being a cop." Anger and
failure roughened his tone as he explained. "It had to do with
being terrified. Gutbuster was after me. She wanted to give me
to the Amnion. And the Amnion want to use me to help them
learn how to make themselves look just like human beings.
That's why I wanted to kill her.
"You weren't being weak. You were thinking about larger
questions. More important questions. Like whose game this is.
Who's manipulating us now, and why. And what we can do
about it.
"You didn't deserve the way I treated you,"
Morn listened attentively until he was done. Her wounded
gaze held his face. But after he finished she didn't respond
directly. Instead she murmured in a thin voice, "You said was.
Gutbuster was after you. She wanted to give you to the Am-
nion. What's changed? What's going on? Where are we?"
Maybe she was confused herself—by drugs; or by the gap
in her awareness of what had happened. Or maybe she simply
didn't realize that when he was separate from her he might not
be sure of her forgiveness.
A wave of weariness seemed to break over his head. The
muscles in his chest stopped clenching. He slumped on the
edge of her bunk, shrinking into himself. Of course she
wanted to know what she'd missed while she slept. He would
feel the same in her place. Apologies weren't as important as
survival.
For a moment he couldn't lift his head far enough above
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that if he concentrated just on speaking—if he didn't let him-
self look at her, witness her condition—he could go on a little
longer.
"It's hard to describe," he breathed distantly; putting
words together one at a time in the darkness of his head. "The
good news is, we got away from Massif-5. We're coasting out
in the middle of nowhere." He'd seen the astrogation coordi-
nates, but they meant nothing to him. "You saved us when you
activated the helm failsafes. Otherwise we would have run into
an asteroid. Or gotten sucked back into the black hole.
"Free Lunch was gone." Fuel for the weird energies of
the singularity. "There was no sign of Soar. Mikka took the
helm for me, ran us out to the fringes of the swarm. When we
got there, we found a major battle going on. A UMCP cruiser
—must have been Punisher—was blazing away at Calm Hori-
zons. I still don't know how they found us. Or how Soar did.
They aren't supposed to know how to follow a Class-1 UMCP
homing signal. But the Amnion are so desperate to stop us,
they've committed an act of war."
"Wait a minute," Morn interrupted. She put her hand on
his arm as if she thought he might not stop for her. "Did you
say Calm Horizons? The same warship we got away from
when we escaped Thanatos Minor?"
Davies nodded without opening his eyes. He didn't know
why she thought this was important. Surely the incursion was
the crucial point, not the identity of the intruder. But he didn't
have the energy to ask for an explanation. His ability to tell his
own story was too fragile.
Slumping deeper into the dark, he resumed, "Calm Hori-
zons would have killed us." Like Bryony Hyland. "She had us
on targ. We didn't have time to burn. We couldn't go into tach.
Not even for a blink crossing. But Soar showed up again. She
must have avoided the black hole somehow. Just when I
thought we were dead, she opened fire on Calm Horizons."
He didn't try to understand Captain Chatelaine's actions.
They were a mystery, like the attack by Free Lunch, or the
ability of the Amnion to locate the gap scout; impenetrable. As
incomprehensible as the oblique physics of the gap.
"Calm Horizons had to hit her instead of us, or else the
warship would have been destroyed. The Amnion couldn't
take the chance they might miss us with their last shot.
"That gave us time. And Punisher was covering us. We
burned like crazy. Then we went into tach. That brought us
here." He shrugged weakly. "Wherever here is."
He expected Morn to ask why Soar had turned against her
masters; braced himself to say, "I have no idea," without
sounding angry. But her attention remained focused on con-
cerns he couldn't grasp.
As she climbed out of her long, drugged slumber, she
recovered her urgency. Her grip on his arm tightened. In a
sharper tone she demanded, "Did Punisher kill Calm Hori-
zons?"
He sighed. "I hope so." He didn't have the strength for
this. He needed sleep, not more questions. "But we didn't see
it. Calm Horizons was hurt. Soar took her by surprise. Pun-
isher was starting to get through. Then we went into tach. I
don't know what happened after that."
Pulling on his arm, Morn raised herself to sit beside him.
He felt her draw her legs out of the g-sheath and hook them
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veyed a palpable tension.
"Calm Horizons is too big," she murmured distantly, as
if she were thinking aloud; trying to brace herself against a
threat he couldn't see. Surely the Amnion couldn't track
UMCP homing signals? "She has too much firepower. If Pun-
isher didn't kill her right away, she's probably still alive."
Maybe not, Davies countered in silence. He was too
weary to argue aloud. She was practically stationary. She
doesn't accelerate fast. And Punisher must have called for
help from VI. If more ships came—if they caught Calm Hori-
zons before she could go into tach—
He wanted to finish; needed to finish. After that he would
be able to rest. For a moment he put his free hand over his eyes
in an effort to increase the darkness so that he could concen-
trate. Then he continued.
"Angus is still alive. God knows how he survived being
outside in all that." He hadn't suffered any more g than any-
one else. But he hadn't had the support of a g-seat or bunk.
And he'd been exposed to all the forces of the singularity and
the swarm. If nothing else, he could easily have been crushed
by rock rushing to answer the black hole's hunger. "But Vec-
tor brought him in before we left the swarm. Sickbay says he's
going to be all right.
"Other than that—"
His voice trailed away. He had more to relate; but now he
needed her to ask him what it was. He didn't think he could go
on unless she prompted him; pushed him.
Slowly she loosened the pressure of her grip on his fore-
arm. He seemed to feel some of her tightness easing. Maybe at
last she'd become enough aware of him to realize that he was
near the end of his resources.
"What's the bad news?" she inquired more gently.
"When people tell you what the good news is, there's always
bad news."
Again he nodded blindly. He hardly heard himself speak.
"Ciro went haywire. I guess that mutagen made him
crazy. Even though he was cured, he still thought he had to do
what Sorus Chatelaine told him."
Morn shifted at Davies' side. She may have winced. Or
she may have simply nodded. He didn't look to see.
"When Mikka came to help me on the bridge, Ciro left
their cabin and found his way into the drive space. He must
have been in there when we burned— All that g with no pro-
tection banged him up pretty good. He's lucky he didn't break
any bones.
"But it slowed him down. He took too long. That saved
us. Before anything failed, we were able to go into tach, get
away from Massif-5."
Davies waited while a wave of fatigue nearly washed him
out of himself. Then he went on.
"He took too long, but he did it right. We've lost both
drives. That's why we're coasting. There's nothing else we can
do. We still have navigational thrust, that's all. We can't even
decelerate. And we sure as hell can't cross the gap again.
"We haven't tried to rig any repairs yet," he added as if
he were drifting. "Too busy taking care of our wounds." Too
tired. "But I don't think we can do it." Or do it in time.
"Without Angus, we can't get into the damage control data-
bases. We don't know the codes. And his zone implants have
put him to sleep so he can heal. At least that's Vector's theory.
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Davies stopped. The hollow dark inside his head seemed
louder than his voice, and for a moment he feared that he
might start to whimper or moan without realizing it. But he
probably didn't have the energy.
After a while he heard Morn ask, "Is that all? Is there
anything else I need to know?"
He shook his head. Carried by its own momentum, his
head continued rocking from side to side on his weak neck.
"Well, it's bad," she said judiciously, as if she wanted to
comfort him by not panicking, "but we've had worse. I was
afraid we were still in the swarm. Angus was dead, and we
were stuck in the swarm because without him we couldn't
escape."
She paused, then mused more to herself than to him, "I
guess it's possible Calm Horizons is finished. That would
help."
To his surprise he found that he had enough strength left
for a small pang of vexation. What was so important about
Calm Horizons? Was that all she cared about? Didn't she un-
derstand the consequences of what Ciro had done?
He opened his eyes so that he could glare at her.
"Before he went EVA," he rasped sourly, "Angus acti-
vated our homing signal again. None of us can get deep
enough into the command systems to turn it off. Eventually
someone will come after us." That was a safe bet. "Maybe
Punisher. Maybe some other UMCP ship, or one from VI.
"If that happens before Angus wakes up," he explained
with as much force as he could muster, "or before he can fix
the drives, we're out of choices. We'll be at the mercy of
whoever takes us."
The UMCP was corrupt. Vector's mutagen immunity
drug proved that. Whether or not Min Donner—and therefore
Punisher—was honest, she had to obey orders: orders which
could easily come from the same source as the corruption.
Holt Fasner. Possibly Hashi Lebwohl. More likely Warden
Dios himself.
"They might still want to suppress what we know. No
matter who they are, we'll be pawns in somebody else's game.
And we can't run or fight. We don't have any realistic defense
except self-destruct. But if we kill ourselves, Vector's formula
dies with us."
He sagged as another surge of exhaustion broke through
his thin ire. "Out here," he finished as if he were giving up
hope, "nobody's going to hear that broadcast anyway."
Morn's sore gaze held his glare without flinching until he
looked away. She may have been battered and abused to the
core; but at least she'd had a little rest. He couldn't match her.
"I understand," she said quietly. "I guess I've been
afraid all along that this would happen.
"So in the end it comes down to whether Punisher man-
aged to kill Calm Horizons."
Davies couldn't help himself: he gaped at her as if her
obsession with the Amnion warship were making her alien.
Yet she must have been human enough to realize that he
couldn't grasp what she meant. She smiled at him ruefully,
touched his forehead as if she wanted to smooth away his
incomprehension. Then she began to explain.
"Someone somewhere in the VI system is going to hear
our transmission. We can't know if they'll care. Or if they'll
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they'll hear it. We've accomplished that much, even if we
can't do more.
"But if Calm Horizons is still alive—"
Painful memories darkened Morn's eyes. Frowning at the
hurt, she said more bitterly, "They heard the broadcast, too.
They have the formula. On top of that"—dismay at the recol-
lection twisted her expression like a touch of nausea—"I'm
pretty sure they have samples.
"When I was their prisoner—back on Billingate—they
tried to mutate me. But I didn't change. I was full of Nick's
immunity drug. So they took some of my blood.''
Now Davies caught a glimpse of what she was getting at.
He'd forgotten about her time in the Amnion sector of Billin-
gate. She'd lived through horrors which for him were only
nightmares; endured an experience which would have de-
stroyed him.
"That means if they survive—if they reach Amnion space
—they can figure out how to counteract Vector's formula."
Grimly she concluded, "Then if the wrong people get
their hands on us, stop us, everything we've done is wasted.
Even if VI hears our broadcast and takes it seriously enough to
follow up on it, it's still wasted. Because the Amnion will have
the formula. The drug won't be safe anymore."
Davies may have nodded. He wasn't sure: he couldn't feel
his head moving. And he was no longer able to tell the differ-
ence between exhaustion and hopelessness. He'd brought
Angus back from stasis: surely that counted for something?
With a thin sigh, he asked, "What're we going to do?"
For a moment she didn't reply. Then he felt her tighten
and shift against his side as if she'd made a decision.
"You're going to rest," she announced in an easier tone.
"That's enough for right now. There's no point in trying to
make any plans yet. We don't know how much time we have.
Or who they'll send after us. Or how badly Angus is hurt.
Maybe his equipment's been damaged. Maybe his brain's
been damaged. He may have more tricks up his sleeve. Or he
may not. And if he does, he may or may not be willing to do
what we want.
"It's too much to worry about when you can't even keep
your eyes open. You can leave it to me for a while." She
snorted softly, as if she were amused. "If the safety of human
space depended on my talent for worry, we wouldn't need
cops at all."
When he didn't respond, she left the edge of her bunk,
pulling him with her.
All the resistance had drained out of him. He was weight-
less: only his fatigue had substance. Floating, he let her pilot
him to his bunk and ease him into the g-sheath.
Her lips brushed his cheek. Close to his ear she whis-
pered, "Thank you. It helps to know what you were so angry
about."
Without transition he dropped into the dark as if she'd
kissed him to sleep.
MORN
I need a better answer.
For some reason those words
were all she remembered from the time Trumpet had spent in
the grip of the black hole. For a while she'd regained con-
sciousness—just long enough to speak to Davies; see that he
was alive. Then the pain of her shattered arm had forced her
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I can't do this again. When I'm in trouble, the only thing I
can think of is to hurt myself.
Someone must have taken her to sickbay. Davies, presum-
ably. The cast on her arm and the straps holding it across her
chest were unmistakable. And the muffling of the hurt was
also unmistakable. Drugs: lots of them. Otherwise she
wouldn't have slept so long.
She remembered none of it, however. Only the unex-
pected promise she'd made to herself remained. Despite her
conversation with Davies, her thoughts still moved slowly,
wandering through veils of sleep and medication.
I need a better answer.
Saying that was easy. Doing it would be more difficult.
Forces she didn't know how to evaluate and couldn't con-
trol hunted the gap scout. With a Class-1 homing signal to
guide them, they could hardly fail. And Trumpet had been
damaged: sabotage. Poor Ciro— Angus surely knew how to
repair her. But after his ordeal outside the ship he might not be
in any condition to make the attempt. He may have been
harmed in ways sickbay couldn't treat. Or his programming—
or his own perversity—might interfere.
Eventually someone would have to deal with the pursuit.
At the moment Morn couldn't imagine any way to do that
which didn't involve sacrificing herself; buying the lives of her
companions with her own.
Her arm should have hurt more than this.
If she meant to come up with a better answer, she'd better
get started.
Nevertheless she spent a few minutes in her cabin with
her son while he slept, reminding herself that he was alive and
still relatively whole; worth fighting for.
Nearly cocooned in his g-sheath, he lay motionless, heavy
with exhaustion. For a while, at least, the tension which usu-
ally drove him was gone. From time to time a brittle snore
caught in his throat, then sank away.
Asleep, he looked more like a kid, less like his father—
more vulnerable and unformed, less accustomed to brutality.
More like he needed cherishing. Yet his parentage was clear:
she saw Angus in him more than she saw herself.
Looking at him, she felt a complex pang, despite the
drugs. Angus had raped and abused her; done everything in
his considerable power to break her spirit. This was the result.
She had a son who was precious to her. In addition she had
friends now—Vector and Mikka and lost, brave Sib Mackern
—who were willing to stand by her.
Yet Angus himself was still the only person aboard who
might be able to save her.
The pang in her heart was complex with a vengeance. It
seemed to twist simultaneously in all directions.
Driven by the necessities of his tormented soul, Angus
had allowed her to guide his decisions. First he'd rescued her
from the Amnion. Then he'd let her convince him to take
Vector to the Lab—and to broadcast the results of Vector's
analysis. During the time he'd spent taking Nick's orders, an-
guish had poured off him like the raw sweat of his soul.
I didn't defend myself, he'd told her, trying to persuade
her to free him from his priority-codes. Com-Mine Station
Security had failed to find enough evidence to convict him of a
capital crime; but still Milos Taverner had tortured him while
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secrets. And yet he hadn't revealed anything which might have
eased his plight. I let them do whatever they wanted to me. So
you could get away.
Why? Because I made a deal with you. I gave you the
zone implant control. You let me live.
And I kept my end. Whether you kept yours or not.
That was true. It had to be. He'd known too much about
Milos. If he'd betrayed any of it, UMCPDA's plotting with
Nick and Milos would have been exposed. Then Angus
wouldn't have ended up as a UMCP cyborg controlled by the
man who'd tortured him.
She couldn't deny that in his own way and on his own
terms he'd kept faith with her.
When I hurt you, he'd told her painfully, I hurt myself.
And since she and Davies had freed him, he'd done ev-
erything possible to keep her and the people she cared about
safe.
She didn't know whether or not letting, helping, him edit
his datacore constituted a better answer. That decision might
yet prove to be an oblique form of self-destruct. But she didn't
think so. And even if she was wrong: where else should she
begin her quest to reinvent herself, if not with the man who
had laid bare the shame in the core of her heart?
Unaccustomed to maneuvering in zero g with only one
arm, she moved awkwardly toward the door.
At first she couldn't figure out how to anchor herself so
that she wouldn't rebound from anything she touched. But
then she found that she could shift her right arm a few cm,
despite its cast and straps—just enough to hook those fingers
around a handgrip. Grateful for the analgesics remaining in
her body, she held herself still while she dimmed the lights so
that Davies might sleep more deeply. Then she left the cabin
and pulled herself one-armed in the direction of sickbay.
The unnatural silence of the ship struck her almost imme-
diately. The low, steady hum of the thrust drive was gone. At
the moment Trumpet's energy cells held more than enough
capacity to run the support systems—lights, warmth, air-
processing, sickbay. Presumably most of the electronic equip-
ment remained alive as well: the command boards, scan,
communications, damage control. But power for the whole
ship—including the gap field generator—was normally sup-
plied by the thrust drive. The absence of that hull-noise made
Trumpet seem irrationally desolate, almost dead, despite the
obvious illumination and heat: a drifting tomb, or a derelict
haunted by ghosts.
How long would the cells last? Surely no more than a day
or two. If Angus couldn't repair the drives, everyone aboard
might end up praying to be found, no matter who came after
them.
A new urgency sharpened Morn's concentration. She be-
gan to move faster.
When she reached sickbay, she forced her right hand into
another handgrip so that she could key open the door. At once
she swung around the edge of the frame into the room.
Vector was there with Angus. As she stopped her momen-
tum on the side of the surgical table, the geneticist turned away
from the control panel and smiled at her.
"Morn. It's good to see you among the living. I'm sorry
about your arm. On the other hand, I'm glad you're well
enough to move around."
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Angus first.
Held by the table's restraints, he lay on his face with his
EVA suit pulled down around his waist. A new bandage cov-
ered the place between his shoulder blades where Davies had
once cut him to access his datacore. Spots of fresh blood
marked the gauze. She could smell metabolins and antibiotics.
The low rasp of his breathing lifted and lowered his chest
rhythmically.
The helmet of his suit bobbed forgotten against one wall.
He didn't react to her arrival. Davies had told her that the
sickbay systems said he would be all right. He must have been
as profoundly exhausted as his son.
"He's sleeping," Vector answered before she could ask a
question. "Sickbay is satisfied with his condition. But we
won't really know what shape he's in until he wakes up. Right
now his zone implants are in control. I assume his datacore is
taking care of him, forcing him to sleep so he can heal. We
couldn't rouse him unless we found some way to trigger a
survival reflex in his programming. I can't begin to imagine
what being outside like that, doing what he did, may have cost
him."
Vector paused for a moment, then went on with apparent
detachment, "Watching the indicators, I get the impression
sickbay has run diagnostics on his equipment. That makes
sense. The same people who welded him probably designed
these systems to take care of him. But the panel"—Vector
grimaced ruefully—"declines to let me access the results. I
guess I don't have the right codes."
Yes, Morn thought. That made sense.
Finally she was able to turn her attention away from
Angus. She lifted her head; attempted a thin smile to thank
Vector for his consideration.
Now she noticed the ashen hue of his skin, the sluggish-
ness of his movements. Despite his familiar air of calm, his
blue gaze was dull, and his round cheeks seemed unnaturally
sunken, drawn tight against his skull.
"Are you all right?" she asked. "Davies told me you
brought him in. That must have been an ordeal, with your
arthritis." Long ago Orn Vorbuld had beaten Vector up so
badly that irreversible damage had been done to his joints.
"Why aren't you resting? You look like you could use it."
Vector shrugged. Despite the absence of g, a twinge
crossed his face. Distantly, as if he had no personal interest in
the subject, he said, "Bringing him in was the hardest thing
I've ever done. I mean physically. We were still in the gravity
well. I had to rig a winch to move us. Now I probably need
half a dozen joints replaced. At the very least I should let
sickbay give me a whole pseudoserotonin multicortisone se-
ries. Reduce the inflammation, if nothing else.
"But really it doesn't matter," he added promptly. "Zero
g helps. And we all have more important things to worry
about."
Morn opened her mouth to object; but he wasn't done.
"Mikka said she was going to get some sleep"—his tone
sharpened—"after she checks on Ciro. But I don't trust her. I
think she's going to make herself crazy suffering over what he
did. If one of us doesn't stay awake to stop her, she'll probably
go start trying to fix the drives."
Morn frowned. Surely he didn't consider that their most
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yet. And she was concerned about Mikka—as well as about
Mikka's tormented brother.
"How is Ciro now?"
Vector spread his hands. "I have no idea. To be honest, I
didn't ask. Until Mikka and Davies left here, we were all too
busy."
"Doing what?" Davies hadn't said anything about this.
For a moment Vector hesitated. He may have been won-
dering how much Davies hadn't explained to her-- or why.
Then he seemed to put the question aside with a turn of his
head.
"When I brought him in"—the geneticist indicated
Angus—"he wasn't unconscious or asleep. He was in stasis.
His datacore had shut him down. We couldn't figure out how
to reach him. As far as we could tell, he was stuck there
permanently. We spent quite a while trying to get through to
him, but we weren't able to do it.
"Then Davies decided to pull the chip." Vector's phleg-
matic tone gave this detail no special emphasis. "When he
plugged it back in, Angus' computer reset itself. Came back
on-line.
"After that," Vector finished laconically, "his zone im-
plants put him to sleep."
Pull the chip—? Morn thought in amazement. The muting
of her mind had begun to fade: she could feel real amazement.
Pulling the chip was a brilliant solution. She doubted that she
would ever have conceived of it herself.
And Davies hadn't mentioned it?
"No," she said, answering Vector's hesitation, "he didn't
tell me. He gave me a summary of what's been happening, but
he kept it short." Because—she'd assumed—he was ex-
hausted. "He didn't say anything about stasis. He didn't say
anything about bringing Angus back."
Vector's mild gaze offered no comment.
"Do you have any idea why he kept that to himself?"
Morn pursued.
Vector pursed his mouth, studying the question. Despite
the blur of fatigue, his eyes hinted at penetration.
"Your son hasn't had what I would call an easy life," he
said judiciously. "Early on he spent most of his time helpless
while you performed miracles to keep him alive. And since
then he's been struggling to figure out who he is. Not always
gracefully, I admit. It's not a graceful process.
   "If I were in his place, I might not tell you because I
didn't want to scare you. Or"—Vector faced her squarely—"I
might be trying to learn how to respect myself without outside
help."
Trying to learn how to separate himself from her.
Slowly Morn nodded. That explanation made sense to
her. And it matched Davies' unexpected apology. While she
slept her son had grown—
If she could keep up with him, she might yet discover a
way to end her reliance on self-destruct.
"In that case," she murmured, "I'll wait until he brings
it up before I tell him what I know about miracles."
Rescuing Angus was as much a miracle as anything she'd
ever done.
Through his weariness, Vector smiled again.
She smiled, too. However, the thought of self-destruct re-
minded her that she didn't have much time. While Trumpet
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at work, seeking to impose their own priorities on the gap
scout. She should get to work herself.
Changing the subject, she remarked with deliberate non-
chalance, "In the meantime, I probably don't have to mention
that we need Angus awake."
Vector shook his head. "I've been giving him the occa-
sional cybernetic nudge"—he twitched a hand in the direction
of the control panel—"just to see what happens. So far what
happens is nothing. We'll have to wait until his computer de-
cides it's time for him to start receiving external stimuli.
"As I said," Vector mused, "he might wake up if his
programming recognizes a survival threat. We could set off the
decompression klaxon, see if that reaches him. But I don't
think it's a good idea. After what he's been through, he needs
the rest."
Morn agreed. She was sure that Trumpet didn't have
much time. But the situation wouldn't become urgent until
another ship appeared on scan.
And, she admitted to herself with another pang, she
wasn't in a hurry to deal with Angus again. Too much de-
pended on what he would be like when his zone implants
allowed him to awaken. Or perhaps on her ability to hold him
to his obscure bargains.
Let him sleep for a while. Everyone else needed a chance
to rest. And think.
"In that case," she suggested to Vector, "let's go to the
bridge. We won't learn anything here. There we can at least sit
down. Look at scan, see where we are." See if the sensors had
picked up another ship yet. "Maybe we can start trying to
figure a way out of this mess.
"And maybe," she added, "we can rig the command
board to tell us if Mikka tries anything rash. If we can get that
far into the systems."
Vector considered for a moment, glanced at the sickbay
readouts, then nodded. "You go ahead. I'll stop by the galley
first—make some coffee, bring us food. Now that I think about
it, I can't remember the last time any of us had a meal." He
grimaced humorously toward Angus. "If you don't count
IVs."
He was right. As soon as he said the words, she realized
that she was acutely hungry. The prospect of coffee brought a
rush of saliva into her mouth.
At the same time new pain throbbed along her arm. Sen-
sations of several kinds began to return as the drugs withdrew
their effects.
"Sounds good," she said to cover a wince. "Don't be
long. I must be recovering, or I wouldn't be this interested in
food."
Gingerly she nudged herself toward the door.
She didn't want to use her right hand again. However,
without it movement in zero g was tricky. The same tap which
keyed open the door moved her in the opposite direction. But
then a lucky thrust with her leg caught one of the surgical
table supports and impelled her gracelessly out of the room.
After that progress was easier: she didn't have to deal
with doors. Protecting her cast, she launched herself from
handgrip to handgrip in the direction of the bridge.
On the rails of the companionway she stopped her motion
in order to shift vectors toward the command station.
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Nick's former command second sat at the second's sta-
tion with her back to Morn. Her head hung over her limp
hands and the keys as if she'd fallen asleep in the middle of
some task.
Another pang. As the drugs faded, Morn found more and
more hurts. Vector was right: Mikka hadn't been able to let go
of her grief and shame long enough to lie down on her bunk.
But she wasn't sleeping. As soon as Morn made a sound,
Mikka raised her head, looked around.
Her features were drawn, haggard; sallow with exhaustion
and loss. A bandage still covered one eye and part of her
forehead where Angus had once hit her; nearly broken open
her skull. Weariness blurred her gaze, but the distress in her
good eye was too dark and deep to be hidden. Her habitual
frown had lost its edge of ready belligerence: it had become a
clenched effort to contain the effects of an inner crisis. She
looked like a woman who'd lost her reasons for living—and
hated herself for it.
"Morn"—a strained croak, barely audible. "I'm glad—"
Her voice trailed away as if she had no words for gladness.
The sight hurt Morn like her shattered bones. She pushed
off from the companionway, floated to the back of Mikka's g-
seat. "Mikka—" She wanted to put her arms around the
woman, try to comfort her somehow. But of course that was
impossible. She needed her left arm to hold her at the second's
station. "You shouldn't be here. Look at you. You need rest."
A clutch of empathy nearly closed her throat. "Good God, you
need rest."
Mikka made a small, aimless gesture. "I know." Her
gaze wandered away. "I can't."
Morn glanced quickly at the screens, found a scan image
on one of the displays. Someone—probably Mikka—had
routed a steady stream of data from the sensors and sifters to
that screen. As far as Trumpet could tell, there were no ships
anywhere around her. In fact, there was nothing at all except
the black void and the unreachable glitter of the stars. Only a
faint spatter of dust occupied the vacuum.
No doubt astrogation could identify the gap scout's posi-
tion; perhaps had already done so. But the information was
useless. The numbers told Morn that the nearest hope of a star
system was decades away at this velocity.
Until another ship appeared on scan, Trumpet had nothing
to fear. And nothing to hope for.
"Mikka," she said as gently as she could, "you're not
alone here. Vector's still up. I've had enough sleep for six
people. Angus is probably going to wake up soon. You don't
have to take care of everything yourself."
"I know," Mikka murmured. "I'm not trying to be a
martyr. But Ciro's there. In the cabin. I can't"—her head
drooped as if her neck had gone limp—"can't stand to be
around him."
"Because he sabotaged the drives?" Morn asked softly.
"Because he obeyed Sorus Chatelaine even after Vector
treated her mutagen?"
Are you that angry at him?
Slowly, weakly, Mikka shook her head. "I might have
done the same thing—"
Again she trailed away. For a long moment she was silent.
When she went on, her voice ached like Morn's arm.
"He did what he was told. It's over for him now. Every-
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"I don't mean sobbing. He doesn't make a sound. He just
lies there with tears streaming down his face. He won't talk to
me. I'm not sure he hears me. I think he's deaf with grief.
"He's only a kid. As far as he knows, he's killed us all.
That didn't mean anything to him until he did what he was
told. It couldn't. Sorus Chatelaine made him crazy. But now—
"I guess he can't figure out how to live with it."
Mikka's head hung over the console. She couldn't hold it
up. "He's all I have." She sounded distant and worn, like the
low plaint of the air-scrubbers. "All I've ever had. And I got
him into this. I talked Nick into taking him aboard. I thought I
could make a life for both of us.
"Now he's gone," she finished brokenly. "He did this,
and he can't fix it. If I can't repair the drives for him, there's
nothing left."
Pain whetted the edge of Morn's reactions. She valued
Mikka too much to watch in silence while Mikka suffered.
And Mikka was simply too worn-out to pull herself back from
the gravity well of her despair. Some kind of intervention was
necessary.
"I can't argue with you." Morn put words together care-
fully, hoping to string them in ways Mikka couldn't refute or
deny. "You're the only one who knows what matters to you.
"You don't want to hear about the times you've saved my
life, or the times you saved this whole ship. You don't want to
hear that when you talked Vector and Sib into joining you
against Nick you gave us our only hope—the only way any of
us has to redeem ourselves. Without you, Vector and Sib
would probably have been stranded on Billingate, we never
would have gone to the Lab, Vector wouldn't have his formula,
Nick would still be alive—
"You probably don't want to hear me say I've got about
as much tolerance for seeing you like this as you have for
watching Ciro," who was by God old enough to be responsi-
ble for his own insanity.
Rough needles had begun probing the joints of her arm,
the marrow of her bones. An irrational anger rose in her—a
desire to yell at Mikka in order to contain her own pain. If
Vector didn't get here soon with food and coffee and distrac-
tion, she feared that she might do or say something she would
later regret.
"Maybe I can understand a little of what you're feeling,"
she continued with as much kindness as she could muster.
"Angus is my son's father. Whenever my gap-sickness takes
over I'm in love with self-destruct. Which is about the same as
killing yourself with exhaustion. But I don't believe you when
you say 'there's nothing left.' You're still here. Worth caring
about. Even if you can't protect Ciro from himself."
At first she couldn't tell whether Mikka heard her. But
then Mikka murmured, "That's fine." She spoke without bit-
terness; without hope. "Until the cops get me."
Morn groaned to herself. Mikka Vasaczk was a proven
illegal: Nick Succorso's command second; a woman who'd
participated in robbery, murder, and treason in Nick's name.
Ciro had raised the same objection. Why is it worse for
them to die now?—Mikka, Vector, and Sib. At least they can
fight. They don't have to sit around waiting to be executed!
At the time Mikka had responded, I don't care about be-
ing executed! I don't care about anything that might happen
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live that long. I care about you!
If you want to betray us, then do it. But don't use me as
an excuse.
Now she felt differently: that was obvious. The danger of
being captured was at least as personal to her as it was to
Morn.
Morn had no answer. She didn't trust the UMCP herself.
She was in no position to promise Mikka justice—or mercy.
For a moment a clench of pain threatened to make her
gasp. When she'd pushed her arm past the support of her
g-seat into the grip of the black hole's gravity well, she'd
shattered the bones, damaged the joints, torn ligaments, shred-
ded cartilage. Sickbay had probably worked on her for hours
to put her back together. If she had any sense, she would get
more drugs right away, before the pain grew worse.
But she didn't leave the bridge. She needed the pain—not
to punish her, but to teach her the consequences of her own
actions. If she hadn't been so frantic to escape pain and conse-
quences, she wouldn't have accepted her zone implant control
from Angus; wouldn't have fled Com-Mine Station with Nick.
Instead she would have turned herself over to Com-Mine Se-
curity; put a stop to everything which had engulfed her—and
Angus—since then.
Rotating around her strapped arm as if it were her per-
sonal center of gravity, she swung away from Mikka and
drifted to the command station. Carefully she belted herself
into the g-seat as if she belonged there. For a moment she
closed her eyes and concentrated on simply breathing; exhal-
ing the worst of her hurt.
When she looked at Mikka again, she'd recovered her
composure.
Gently again, she asked, "What were you trying to do?"
Mikka had removed her hands from the second's console
as if to disavow responsibility. Despite the absence of g, she
slumped like a woman who couldn't support her own weight.
But she was still Mikka Vasaczk, not some callow UMCP
ensign appalled by gap-sickness and zone implants and Angus
Thermopyle. Regardless of her own distress, she made the ef-
fort to reply.
"Get into the drive databases," she muttered thinly.
"Find schematics. Diagnostic routines. Repair protocols. Any-
thing that tells us how to work on the drives.
"Wrecking electronics is easy. Like murder. You don't
need brains. All you need is a spanner. But you can't repair
anything if you don't know what you're trying to fix."
"No luck?" Morn pursued, although she already knew
the answer. She wanted to keep Mikka talking until Vector
arrived.
Mikka wobbled her head negatively. "Everything that has
to do with the ship is locked away. We can run helm—for
whatever good that's going to do us. Targ, scan, communica-
tions. But the ship is hidden. I can't get into damage control.
Hell, I can't even access maintenance. I can't find out how
much food we have. I can't tell you how long our fuel would
have lasted if we were able to use it."
"Are we still broadcasting Vector's message?"
"Sure. Now that it's useless, nobody can hear it, we're
screaming it in all directions." Mikka paused, then added
bleakly, "Hell of a drain on our energy cells."
The energy cells were all that kept Trumpet alive.
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been draining them as fast as I can."
Morn turned her head, saw him at the head of the com-
panionway. He looked at Mikka, and his eyes narrowed. Then
he shrugged himself into motion. He was carrying a tray laden
with g-flasks and food-packets in retaining clips. Steam curled
past his shoulders as he floated down the treads.
"Coffee," he went on in his most avuncular manner.
"Hot soup—black bean, if you can trust the smell. Steamed
sirloin bars, according to the label. Wasting power like mad.
The only things I didn't cook are the nutrient capsules."
He drifted in front of the second's station and stopped
himself on the edge of the console, forcing Mikka to notice
him.
"I thought you told me you were going to get some
sleep," he said sternly.
She scowled up at him: a reflex; devoid of force. She
didn't say anything.
"Oh, well." He shrugged again. "Who am I to talk? If
any of us had the intelligence God gave curdled milk, we prob-
ably wouldn't be in this mess to begin with."
With a show of cheerfulness, he started distributing pack-
ets and g-flasks.
As soon as the steam reached Morn's nose, she nearly
went blind with hunger and eagerness. Her pain seemed to
vanish: for a moment her universe shrank until it contained
only coffee, soup, and meat. One-handed, trembling with an-
ticipation, she set the coffee in a holder in the arm of her g-
seat, pushed a couple of packets down into her lap, then raised
the soup unsteadily to her mouth.
Black bean, hell. It didn't smell like that—or taste like it.
It was pure Heaven. She hardly noticed that the heat stung her
tongue as she drank.
Her nerves hadn't felt a thrill like this since the last time
she'd turned on her zone implant.
She took several swallows before she recovered enough
awareness to realize that Vector was watching her intently.
Making sure she was all right—
"Vector Shaheed," she murmured, "you are a saint. You
deserve to live forever."
He grinned at her briefly, then coasted away to the auxil-
iary engineering console and anchored himself to the seat with
his zero-g belt while he ate.
Morn tore open a sirloin bar with her teeth, chewed a bite
of the meat. Drank more soup. Swallowed her nutrient cap-
sules. Sipped some coffee. And found that she felt better an-
swers might be possible after all. Food certainly seemed to be
one of them. Her arm resumed its sharp pulsing almost at
once: if anything her pain grew stronger as her body took in
sustenance. Nevertheless it had become less threatening. She
could endure it better.
At last she looked over at Mikka.
Mikka sat with her head bowed over her coffee, her face
in the steam. For a while she appeared content simply to
breathe the aroma. But then she took a few small sips. Slowly
her head came up, and she reached for her soup.
As she ate, her skin lost some of its pallor. Her move-
ments regained a measure of clarity. She straightened her back
a bit against the support of her g-seat.
Morn gave a private sigh of relief. She didn't want to lose
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Finally she was done eating. She secured her g-flasks,
crumpled her empty packets to dispose of later, and rested her
hands lightly on the command board.
"Now," she announced. "I don't know how much time
we have left, but there's nobody else on scan yet." Numbers
along the scan display confirmed the absence of blips within
the sensors' reach. "This might be the best chance we'll ever
get to make some plans."
"What plans?" Mikka snorted. Food had apparently
given her the energy for bitterness. "The drives are dead."
Nothing was possible without power.
"And we might not be able to fix them," Morn added for
her. "Angus might not be able to fix them. He might not even
be willing. If he ever wakes up. We don't know whose side
he's really on, who's responsible for his core programming,"
although she suspected it was Warden Dios. "If we start list-
ing all the things we don't know and can't tell, we'll be here
for hours."
The pain of her arm nagged at her in waves, each crest
higher than the last; reminding her of consequences.
"But I still think we should try to figure out where we '
stand," she insisted. "What's important to us. What we want
to accomplish. If we don't, we'll never accomplish anything at
all. Even if we get the chance."
Mikka tapped a couple of keys on her board, refining the
scan display. She didn't respond.
After a moment Vector cleared his throat. "That makes
sense to me," he offered. "But I'm afraid I don't have much
to contribute. I was never a very good engineer. And I can't
fight worth a damn." He shrugged eloquently. "For me it's all
simple. My whole life is in that antimutagen. The formula.
And the broadcast. I'm really not worried about anything
else." A shadow seemed to pass across his gaze. "Except I
don't want any more of us to die. I still haven't recovered from
losing Sib."
Poor, frightened, valiant Sib Mackern, who had accompa-
nied Nick Succorso in an EVA attack on Soar so that Nick
wouldn't be able to turn on Trumpet; so that Trumpet would
have a better chance to survive.
Sib's gesture, like Nick's crazy lust for revenge, had
seemed hopeless, doomed; an exercise in futility. And yet it
had achieved something vital. Soar had lost her super-light
proton cannon. Nick and Sib must have damaged it somehow.
They'd kept Trumpet alive with their deaths.
Morn had watched the Amnion inject their mutagens into
her. She'd endured a terror as profound and personal as her
own DNA while she waited to learn whether Nick's immunity
drug would preserve her humanity. And then—for reasons
which still seemed entirely incomprehensible—Angus had res-
cued her. Across the light-years, and despite the intervening
layers of corruption, someone at UMCPHQ wanted her alive.
She knew from experience that she was too mortal—too
rich with fear—to recognize doom when she saw it.
With a nod she acknowledged Vector's reply. For a mo-
ment she was silent while she settled her broken arm as com-
fortably as she could across her chest. Then she began.
"Sometimes I think the only things I've ever been really
good at are holding grudges and being ashamed of myself."
She needed to say this so that Vector and Mikka would under-
stand her. "It makes perfect sense that I love self-destruct
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one way or another. Eating myself alive with misguided anger,
and then punishing myself for it. Making myself a zone im-
plant addict. Shattering my own arm—"
Vector murmured a demurral; but Morn didn't pause to
hear it.
"I'm looking for better answers."
A deeper surge of pain seemed to concentrate her mind.
The distress of her damaged bones forced her to be clear.
"The UMCP has the same problem," she pronounced.
"As far as I'm concerned, suppressing Intertech's immunity
research was self-destructive. So was sending Angus against
Billingate under Milos Taverner's control." More than any-
thing else, that single action had led to Calm Horizons' incur-
sion into human space. "If you're a cop, you can only damage
yourself when you try to manipulate the definition of your
responsibilities.
"In some ways, the crucial question is, where does the
damage come from? Is Min Donner honest? Is Warden Dios?
Has the harm been imposed by Holt Fasner, or is it more
internal—more organic? Is there anyone we can trust?
"But in other ways," she asserted, "that question is irrel-
evant. We'll probably never know the answer. Or we won't
know in time. We need to make our own decisions for our own
reasons."
Another crest of pain rose remorselessly through her. The
tide was coming in with a vengeance. Soon she would have no
choice but to retreat to sickbay for medication. But not yet. In
the spaces between the waves she felt clear and sure. She
seemed to see the consequences of what Holt Fasner or War-
den Dios had done precisely, as if they were delineated on one
of the screens in front of her.
"We may not be able to figure out what we're actually
going to do until we see who comes after us." This had to be
said as well. "I'm not sure which would be worse, Punisher or
a ship from VI. Punisher fought for us against Calm Horizons.
But she also gave Nick Angus' priority-codes." At the same
time she'd made it possible for Davies and Morn to free him
from those codes. "And Valdor is a UMC station. For all we
know, they could be taking orders directly from the Dragon."
Deliberately she dismissed the possibility of pursuit by
Calm Horizons. To avoid distracting herself with prospects of
terror, she chose to believe that the Amnion couldn't follow a
UMCP homing signal. Soar and the Amnioni must have found
Trumpet at Deaner Beckmann's lab by some other means.
"But we can worry about that later. For now, I'll tell you
what my priorities are, what's important to me. Then you can
tell me whether you agree."
Vector nodded. Food and coffee had rubbed the smudge
from his gaze. He watched Morn steadily, almost without
blinking.
Mikka kept her head turned toward her console. Her fin-
gers twitched erratically over the keys as if she felt driven to
enter commands and didn't know how. Tension knotted the
muscles along her jaw. The bandage covered one eye and hid
the other; concealed her reaction.
Morn paused to let a harsh crest roll past her. Then she
continued.
"First, I want to make sure we keep transmitting that
formula. Maybe no one out here can hear it. That's not the
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be the 'savior of humankind.' Maybe you were joking—some-
times I can't tell—but our broadcast is probably as close as
you'll ever get."
Vector smiled ruefully. "I know."
But Morn didn't stop. "If it's Punisher that comes after
us," she went on, "and if Min Donner is honest, then we can
probably trust Punisher's datacore. Our message will be re-
corded. At some point it'll be played back. The formula might
spread, even if we end up dying out here."
Now she turned to Mikka.
"Second, I want to keep you two and Ciro away from
some confused cop's notion of summary justice. The UMCP
needs to hear what you know—about those high-g acceleration
experiments the Amnion are doing, if nothing else. Probably
the GCES should hear it. And they all need to hear what I have
to say about you.
"I may have committed a crime or two myself, but I'm
still a cop. The UMCP and the GCES ought to be told what
you've done"—she quoted the official phrase exactly—" 'in
support of a sworn officer of the law in the performance of her
duty.' "
At first Mikka didn't react. Then, slowly, she lowered her
hands from her board. Her head turned until Morn could see
her good eye frowning like a sibyl's.
"You would do that?" she demanded in a clenched voice.
"A cop like you? If you got the chance? After what you just
told us about the cops damaging themselves by manipulating
the definition of their responsibilities?"
Another cutting surge caught Morn as Mikka spoke. From
shoulder to wrist, hot iron seethed in her arm. For a moment
she lost her balance; stumbled without transition into a sea of
pain and dark rage. Try me! she wanted to shout. Try me. Do
you think I'm lying? Do you think I came through all this just
so I could feed you bullshit?
But Vector was already answering for her.
"Stop that, Mikka!" he said with unaccustomed vehe-
mence. "You aren't paying attention.
"Morn can't testify for us without explaining why she
was aboard Captain's Fancy in the first place. If you paid
attention, you might understand what that means." He
faltered, then continued more quietly, "Eventually she'll have
to explain why she kept her zone implant control."
Why she'd helped conceal evidence of a capital crime by
accepting her black box from Angus. Why she'd committed
the crime of using a zone implant on herself.
Now Vector turned toward Morn. "Are you sure this is a
better answer?" He sighed his concern. "It sounds like more
self-punishment to me. Aren't you offering to damage yourself
so that the rest of us will look good?"
The surge receded. Morn's head cleared with a sudden-
ness that made her gasp. Abruptly she recovered her footing.
She was in a hurry now. She needed to finish this before
the next wave caught her.
And yet Mikka and Vector asked important questions;
questions which searched her more deeply than any of the
issues she'd prepared herself to face. As deeply as Angus'
appeal for freedom from his priority-codes. They required an-
swers.
Instead of rushing to reach the point where she could
withdraw to sickbay, she stood her ground.
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stated. "And justice doesn't mean anything if it isn't based on
the truth. My job is enforcement, not judgment. That means
I'm supposed to arrest you because I have reason to believe
you've broken the law. But it also means I'm supposed to tell
the truth at your trial. The whole truth, if I can. If I look bad in
the process, I probably deserve it. I've broken the law myself.
"If it'll help you feel better, I'll arrest you right now."
She was entirely serious. "Although you might not notice any
difference. As the arresting officer of record, I have certain
rights. Legally they can't take my prisoners without 'cause.'
And they can't do anything to you without my testimony. That
might give you some protection."
Unless they killed Morn herself to silence her.
To her surprise, Vector burst out laughing. He clasped his
hands together, rolled his eyes upward. "Take me now, O
Lord." His voice shook with mirth. "First I'm declared a
saint. Then I'm placed under arrest on a ship lost in the middle
of nowhere with both drives ruined. Life holds no greater
riches. If I go now, I'll die happy.
"Morn Hyland," he chuckled as he subsided, "you are
an amazing woman. Absolutely amazing."
Mikka ignored him. Poised in her g-seat, she waited until
he was done: she might have been holding her breath. Then
she leaned forward to speak.
"Do you remember," she asked Morn softly, intently,
"back when we were on Captain's Fancy? After Nick killed
Orn? It was practically the first conversation we ever had. You
asked me how often I've been raped. Then you said, 'After a
while you hurt so bad that you don't want to be rescued any-
more. You want to eviscerate that sonofabitch for yourself.'
"I believed you. The way you said it, I knew you meant
it. You were a woman who could cut a man's guts out. That's
when I first realized Nick was in trouble. He made a serious
mistake bringing you aboard. I wasn't even particularly sur-
prised when you took over the whole damn ship to rescue
Davies."
Involuntarily Morn closed her eyes. She felt another wave
of pain approaching; felt the bitter waters rise around her head.
She didn't want to remember that conversation with Mikka.
She didn't want to think about Orn Vorbuld's attack on her—
or his death. Rage already had too much power over her.
Mikka wasn't finished, however. Her tone hardened.
"But you didn't do that to Angus, did you," she said as if
she were challenging Morn. "You could have eviscerated him,
but instead you freed him from his priority-codes.
"Now you say you want to testify for us. Plead 'extenuat-
ing circumstances,' or some such shit." She paused, then ad-
mitted more weakly, "And I still believe you.
"Why is that? You should have ripped Angus apart while
you had the chance. How can you talk about standing up for us
and make me believe you?"
She might have been obliquely asking Morn for a reason
not to give up on herself.
Morn didn't know how to answer.
The Amnion had injected their mutagens into her. They'd
taught her that she couldn't afford to hold grudges anymore.
Not against Nick or Angus: not against herself. Not if she
valued her humanity. Revenge was too expensive.
As the acid surge of her hurt washed back out of her, she
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Slowly she took a deep breath and released it, letting her anger
and confusion drain away. Then she shrugged as if the issue
were simple.
"I just don't want to end up like Nick."
For all his cunning and experience, and his talent for self-
preservation, Nick Succorso had been reduced to suicide by
his craving for revenge on Sorus Chatelaine.
Morn knew that feeling. She had turned her back on it
because she knew it so well.
"Good cops tell the truth," she added softly. "And they
don't do vengeance."
For a long moment Mikka held Morn's gaze, her reaction
hidden by the darkness in her good eye. Then she nodded
once, decisively, as if at last she understood.
"As long as we're telling the truth," she muttered, "I
can't see how Ciro and I have earned any protection. But
thanks. You can stop worrying about me. I'll do anything I can
to help."
Morn felt a pang of relief and gratitude. She ignored it,
however. She knew she wouldn't last much longer. Already
another crest gathered its load of agony on the horizon. Soon it
would roll toward her with the force of a breaker.
"I wasn't done," she said more abruptly than she in-
tended. "I want to keep broadcasting Vector's message. I want
to testify for all of you. And there's one more thing. But I
need to finish quickly." She smiled like a grimace, trying to
soften the edge of her brusqueness. "The painkillers are wear-
ing off. If I don't get more soon, I'll start to babble."
At once Vector spread his hands as if to show that they
held no more interruptions. "Please."
Mikka scowled in chagrin. "I'm sorry. I didn't real-
ize—" She bit her lip. With a gesture that seemed to indicate
the whole bridge, she added, "This can wait. We'll still be
here when you get back."
No, it couldn't wait. Morn needed to say it now; needed
to make her intentions plain before another ship appeared on
scan.
Although any movement might bring on the next surge,
she straightened her back and squared her shoulders like a
woman who meant to fill the command station completely. As
firmly as she could with so much pain looming toward her, she
announced; "I also want the GCES to hear my story."
Vector and Mikka probably knew what she meant, but she
explained it anyway.
"The UMCP gave me to Nick. I don't know why. But
they could have stopped me before I boarded Captain's Fancy.
Com-Mine Security must have consulted with them about me.
Com-Mine wouldn't have let me go without orders from
UMCPHQ.
"The GCES needs to hear that. But there's more.
"I know for a fact that Angus was framed. He may have
committed every crime we can think of, but he didn't do the
one he was arrested for." Arrested and convicted. "He says he
can prove Nick was in collusion with Milos Taverner. He
found a datalink between them before he was framed—a link
he could have traced. I assume the evidence is in Bright
Beauty's datacore. But when the cops welded Angus and
aimed him at Billingate"—she still didn't understand any of
this—"they sent Taverner along to control him."
More than anything else, that single fact had precipitated
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"The more I think about it, the uglier it looks. It stinks of
conspiracy. Which is just another way for the cops to destroy
themselves.''
Distress began to rise around her again, shrilling along
her nerves, drawing a wail from every crack and tear in her
arm. She couldn't wait any longer. With her left hand, she
opened her belts so that she could drift out of the command
station.
Pain and consequences. Better answers.
She held on to the back of the g-seat while she finished.
"I guess what I'm saying is that I want to get back to
Earth. And when I get there I want to be free to make my own
decisions. I want to be able to talk to the Council without
interference from corrupt cops who've been ordered to stop
me by Warden Dios or Holt Fasner.
"If that means I have to patch the drives with duct tape
and fight cops the whole way home, I'm willing to do it."
That was enough. Clear enough: painful enough. She had
to go now. If she stayed, she would cross the line into self-
punishment; into shame and rage.
When I'm in trouble, the only thing I can think of is to
hurt myself.
She pushed off toward the head of the companionway.
Vector actually saluted her while she coasted across the
bridge. "Have I ever mentioned that I like the way you
think?" he called after her.
Morn reached the companionway rails and kept moving.
She was sure he didn't mean to stop her.
But Mikka did. Raising her voice to make Morn pause,
she asked, "What if Angus won't go along with it?"
Morn closed her fist on one of the rails, swung around to
face the bridge.
"Then I'll convince him to change his mind."
One way or another, she was doomed to deal with Angus
Thermopyle.
Moving one-handed, full of pain, as awkward as a cripple,
she impelled herself in the direction of sickbay.
ANGUS
Angus Thermopyle awoke the
instant Morn said his name.
Without transition his zone implants imposed new condi-
tions on him. The regular alpha of sleep was canceled: dreams
he couldn't remember stopped as if they'd never existed: his
long escape from the loud ravage of the swarm and the excru-
ciating forces of the black hole ended severely, as if it had
been cut off with a knife. Emissions programmed by his com-
puter swept safety away; snatched peace out of his synapses
and ganglia. Morn said his name, and his entire neural state of
being was transformed. He didn't twitch or tighten: his body
remained still. Nevertheless, from the depths of a fathomless,
healing dark, he moved instantly into light and consciousness.
Morn spoke again. "Angus. It's time to wake up. We
need you."
He heard the anxiety in her voice, the pressure of self-
coercion. He knew her too fucking well. She loathed him:
she'd always loathed him. If she'd consulted only her own
desires, she wouldn't have come within thirty light-years of
him. She was here because she needed him. Trumpet needed
him. The people she cared about needed him.
Yet she was here. She'd survived hard g and gap-sickness



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in the swarm; come through them somehow.
What had Davies said earlier? When he'd risked remov-
ing Angus' datacore? Morn's going to wake up soon. I can't
tell her this. After what she's been through— Bitterly he'd
protested, I can't tell Morn that the only man who stands a
chance of helping us is stuck in fucking stasis.
Something had happened to her. Something brutal. Like
everything Nick Succorso and Angus himself had done to her.
And still she was here.
In a flash of disgust as swift as the effects of his zone
implants, he realized that he was glad.
His eyes were open. For all he knew, they'd been open the
entire time. Lying on his belly on the surgical table, with his
right cheek leaning into the cushions, he had a clear view of
the sickbay console and readouts.
The sterile light of the room illuminated the indicators
distinctly. They told him he was awake. No shit. In addition
they assured him he was healing rapidly.
But Morn was on the other side of the table. Maybe she
couldn't see that his eyes were open. Or maybe she hadn't
looked at the readouts yet. "Angus," she said for the third
time. "I don't know how to do this. I don't know if you can
hear me. But it's important. You've got to wake up."
Damn right Trumpet needed him. He's the only one who
can repair the drives. That brain-dead little shit Ciro had sabo-
taged them. Carried out Sorus Chatelaine's orders even after
Vector flushed her mutagens out of him.
No one else could get past the lock Angus had set on
most of the gap scout's internal systems. He, on the other
hand—
He had the necessary database in his head, ready and
waiting on the other side of his datalink. He could rebuild the
ship from scratch without consulting damage control. Hell, he
could fabricate half the goddamn parts himself, if he had to—
He swallowed to clear his throat. He was going to say, Go
away, you stupid bitch. I don't care how much you need me. I
don't need you. He was going to say that and fucking mean it.
But it was bullshit. He didn't want her to go away. He no
longer had any intention of hurting her—
When he hurt her, he hurt himself.
That was the story of his whole fucking life. For years,
decades, he'd raped and killed and beaten and destroyed with
all his strength. And after every act of violence his choices had
dwindled. His freedom shrank. No matter what he did, he sank
deeper into his personal abyss—the void of terror and pain
from which he'd always fled.
Until Morn released him from his priority-codes.
His programming still restricted him in more ways than
he could count; but now no one had the power to compel his
allegiance.
And he'd survived the crib. Alone outside the ship in his
EVA suit, hammered by the energies of warships and the
swarm and a black hole, he'd fallen into the pure, blind, help-
less agony he'd always feared; and he'd survived.
He definitely didn't want Morn to go away.
But it was more than that; worse than not meaning to hurt
her. He didn't want her to think she couldn't reach him. Didn't
want her to feel helpless—
"I hear you." His voice was a dry scrape in his throat.
"Don't push me. I've got a lot to think about."
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to do next?—beg her to fucking forgive him?
No. Not now: not ever. He was alive, God damn it, in
spite of everything. He'd survived the crib. He was Angus
Thermopyle, not some shit-crazy philanthropist who wanted or
maybe even needed to apologize for living.
"Thank God." Morn's relief was as plain as a message
from his datacore. Despite her loathing, she didn't wish him
dead.
We need you. You've got to wake up.
Which didn't make any sense. Ciro sabotaged the drives!
Then why the hell was Trumpet still alive? How had she sur-
vived? Where was she?
Davies had said, The cops are coming after us. Angus had
heard that. We're sending out a Class-1 homing signal. Then
Davies had asked as if he thought Angus had the answer hid-
den away somewhere, Whose side is that cruiser on?
What the fuck was going on?
He decided to move. But he couldn't: the table's restraints
held him. He flexed against them, then remembered what they
were for. To keep him still while sickbay—and Davies—oper-
ated on him. To protect him from g.
"If you'll let me out of these damn straps," he croaked,
"I'll sit up."
If you trust me that much.
While he waited, he asked his computer for a status re-
port.
Internal diagnostics informed him that he'd suffered a
dislocated hip (corrected), severe dehydration (treated), and
massive hemorrhaging (stopped). Blood chemistry analysis re-
ported appropriately high levels of metabolins, coagulants, an-
algesics, antibiotics. Prognosis: complete recovery in forty-
eight hours.
All of his welded resources were functional. If he had to,
he could cut his way out of the restraints.
But Morn had already begun to tug awkwardly at his fet-
ters, releasing them one after another. The moment he was
free, he rolled over and swung his legs off the table.
Pain lanced through his hip as he moved. Maybe he
shouldn't have tried to use his suit jets against the singularity's
pull. Or maybe that small extra support was all that had saved
him.
Almost instantly his zone implants muffled the sensation.
Only a residual throbbing ache remained to remind him that he
needed more time to heal.
Anchored on the edge of the table, he looked at Morn for
the first time since he'd left the bridge to risk EVA in the
swarm.
She floated an arm's length away. "We let you sleep as
long as we could," she said at once. Anxiety complicated her
tone. She seemed to speak quickly so that she wouldn't freeze;
so that her loathing wouldn't get the better of her. "But we're
out of time. There's another ship on scan. Resumed tard five
minutes ago. We've got id.
"It's Punisher. A UMCP cruiser. The same ship we
passed when we first reached human space." She faltered,
then finished, "The same one that ordered you to give Nick
your priority-codes."
She appeared to think Angus would consider that detail
significant; but he didn't. He wasn't listening.
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The young woman's beauty of her face was gone, permanently
eroded by suffering and desperation. Stark against her pale
features, her eyes were as dark as caves. Nevertheless sleep or
food—or both—had improved her skin tone and restored some
of the elasticity to her muscles. It had eased the deep-cut lines
around her mouth, between her brows, at the corners of her
eyes.
He dismissed those details as soon as he noticed them,
however. His attention was caught by the cast which encased
her right arm in acrylic from shoulder to wrist; by the straps
which closed her arm against her chest.
At the sight, black rage came to fire in him as suddenly as
the explosion of an incendiary grenade. Only his zone im-
plants kept him from launching himself at her, grabbing her,
shaking her to learn the truth.
Nearly choked by dark flame, he demanded harshly,
"Who did that to you?"
In about a minute the bastard responsible was going to
find himself strangling on his own balls.
A small wince plucked at the side of her face. "I did it to
myself," she answered thinly. "That's how I controlled my
gap-sickness. While I was at the command board."
To herself. He swore through his teeth. To herself? He
believed her instantly. And he wanted to slap her.
"You're crazy, you know that?" he rasped. "Out of your
goddamn mind. You know what g does to you. How many
times"—he started shouting, had to shout so that he wouldn't
hit her—"did I tell you to leave the fucking bridge?"
Her forehead knotted into a frown. She was afraid of him,
always afraid of him. But she was also stronger than he was.
Even when she was terrified, she knew how to concentrate.
"Angus," she pronounced distinctly, "we don't have
time for this. A lot's been happening. You've been asleep
for—"
"I know." His computer supplied the information. "Six
hours." More than enough time for every enemy he'd ever had
to line up and take shots at him. "And before that I was un-
conscious. In stasis."
His fury needed a better outlet. He hungered for violence.
Anything that hurt Morn hurt him, and he wanted to repay it.
Nevertheless he made an effort to match her. We need you.
With the support of his zone implants, he imposed calm on the
avid fire crackling inside him.
"Punisher is after us," he went on. "You said that al-
ready. And Ciro sabotaged the drives. Davies said that." Be-
yond question the thrusters were dead. He couldn't hear the
muted hull-roar of an active drive. "Tell me something I don't
know."
Where are we? How did we get here?
I saw Free Lunch die. Where's Soar?
What do you want from me?
Morn caught her lip between her teeth as if she were
restraining a retort. With a visible effort, she swallowed her
impatience. After a moment she nodded slowly.
"I'm sorry. I forgot how much I need to tell you. And
we're out of time—" She grimaced. "But I can't very well
ask you to help us if I don't explain what kind of help I want.
"I was asleep myself for most of it. But Davies, Mikka,
and Vector told me the story."
Angus wrapped artificial calm around his black fires and
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"We got away from that black hole," she reported flatly.
The strain of suppressing her urgency made the darkness in
the caves of her eyes seethe. "I guess that's obvious. We knew
you were still alive because we could hear you breathing over
your suit pickup. By then I was"—she referred to her arm
with a glance—"finished, so Vector brought you in. Mikka
and Davies took us out to the edge of the swarm.
"But we were stuck. Both Punisher and Calm Horizons
were there. How Calm Horizons found us I don't know." Pun-
isher had followed Trumpet's homing signal, of course—at
least until Nick had turned it off. "The same way Soar did, I
guess.
"Punisher and Calm Horizons blazed at each other the
whole time. According to Davies, Punisher was trying to cover
us. But Calm Horizons has that super-light proton cannon.
And she knew where we were. We were hidden by asteroids,
but she still fixed our position somehow. There was nothing
Mikka and Davies could do. But just when Calm Horizons was
about to smash us, Soar showed up and opened fire on her."
Morn raised her hands to ward off questions. "I can't
explain that either." Angus didn't try to interrupt, however.
He assumed she was telling the truth. If she lied, he could
learn the truth by looking at Trumpet's log. And for right now
he cared only about the facts. Explanations meant nothing to
him unless they helped him predict what his enemies would
do.
Tensely   Morn   continued,   "I    guess   Calm  Horizons
couldn't handle both Punisher and Soar. She used her proton
cannon to destroy Soar.
"Then she needed time to recharge. That gave us a
chance. Before she could fire again, Mikka burned out of the
swarm and hit the gap, got us away from Massif-5. We're 1.4
light-years out in the middle of nowhere."
Triggered by numbers, Angus' computer began multitask-
ing seamlessly. Involuntary astrogation databases scrolled
through his head, extrapolating possible positions. Neverthe-
less he missed nothing Morn said; nothing she appeared to
feel.
She sighed. "So far, so good. Unfortunately no one knew
what Ciro was doing. He must have thought he still had to
obey Sorus Chatelaine. He found his way into the drive spaces
somehow. Whatever he did to the drives knocked them out
right after we resumed tard. Since then we've been coasting.
Living on the energy cells.
"Now Punisher's found us. And she's overtaking us fast.
Give her thirty minutes, and we'll be in point-blank range. If
she wants to, she can catch us in two hours—if she's willing to
put off deceleration that long and brake that hard."
Through his datalink, damage-control schematics overlaid
potential starfields. Diagnostic parameters and repair protocols
marshaled themselves for use. But he also noticed the particu-
lar tightening of Morn's muscles; the squirming shadows be-
hind her gaze when she mentioned the cruiser.
She was a cop. She should have been fucking delighted to
see a UMCP warship. But she wasn't. She dreaded that vessel
more than she feared Angus himself.
This was something he needed to understand.
"What does she want?" he asked as soon as Morn
paused.
Her eyes flared bitterly. "How should I know?"



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A feral grin twisted his mouth. "What does she say she
wants? Is she talking?"
Morn sagged a little. Apparently he was pushing close to
the sources of her urgency.
"Emergency UMCP hailing," she answered dully.
"We've been ordered to slow down, let her come alongside.
Maybe her scan hasn't figured out yet that we've lost thrust."
Again Morn bit her lip. "This is difficult for me," she
said unnecessarily. "I'm torn—
"Angus," she broke out suddenly, "Min Donner is
aboard that ship. Min Donner." The UMCP Enforcement Di-
vision director. "God knows what she's doing there." For a
moment Morn sounded baffled; wracked by uncertainty. Then
she tapped an anger of her own. Weeks of suffering and self-
expenditure had whetted her to a knife's edge. "Somebody
saw this coming a hell of a long way off. She must have joined
ship before Punisher left UMCPHQ for the Com-Mine belt.
"She's doing all the talking. Like she thinks we wouldn't
listen to anyone else."
A long way off, shit, Angus thought. That was the god-
damn truth. The same man who'd switched his datacore so
that he could rescue Morn and then sent him out with Milos
Taverner primed to betray him had planned for this situation as
well.
Morn hadn't stopped. She was saying, "If there's any-
body honest left in the UMCP, it's her. But I'm just not
sure—''
She straightened her shoulders. "Punisher isn't threaten-
ing us. But she has us on targ. Her matter cannon are charged
and tracking. She could open fire the minute we say something
she doesn't want to hear."
Angus recognized the danger; but he refused to be de-
flected from what he needed to know. "What about Calm Ho-
rizons?" he pursued. "Did the cops finish her?"
That question probed Morn even more deeply. She
winced in spite of her anger.
"We don't know. When we went into tach, they were still
shooting at each other. Davies says Calm Horizons was hurt.
Maybe Punisher got her. Or maybe not. According to Mikka,
Punisher looked hurt herself.
"We didn't see any other ships. I guess VI hadn't had
time to muster a response."
Angus chewed his concern for Morn while his computer
spun scenarios, crunched possibilities: the likelihood that he
could repair the drives quickly; the risks of a second cold
ignition; other, more extreme options. Despite the complexity
of the programs running in the back of his head, however, his
concentration on Morn held.
• Was she this worried just because Calm Horizons had
committed an act of war? No, that wasn't it. He'd missed
something. She was afraid for reasons he hadn't thought of
yet.
Looking for answers, he changed directions, came at her
from another side.
"All right," he said as if he'd heard enough. "None of
this makes any sense, but I can live without explanations.
What do you want me to do?"
His hands gripped the edge of the surgical table, holding
him there against the pressure of her alarm, his computer's
demands, and his own needs.
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tions?
She took a deep breath. Her gaze sank to his hands as if
she were watching his knuckles whiten. Then she lifted her
eyes sharply back to his. No matter what she feared, she re-
mained strong enough to face him.
"I want you to keep us away from Punisher," she an-
nounced distinctly, as if she thought he had that kind of power.
"She fought Calm Horizons for us. She gave Davies your
priority-codes. But she also handed you over to Nick. I don't
trust her. I trust Min Donner—I think I trust her—but I do not
trust whoever's giving her orders."
Slowly Morn tightened her own fists. "Instead of surren-
dering this ship," she went on, "or blowing her up, I want you
to take us back to Earth. So I can tell our story to somebody
besides the UMCP. Preferably the Council."
His eyes widened. Behind his pose of calm, he was
shocked. Tell our story—? He was an illegal to the marrow of
his bones. For a man like him, talking to anybody with author-
ity was as good as suicide. Morn might survive: she was a cop.
But he would absolutely end up dead.
Roughly he demanded, "What in hell do you want to tell
them?"
"Vector's formula," she replied. She might have been
reciting a list. "How we got it. Why the Amnion are after
Davies."
All that was bad enough; but she wasn't done. Her voice
hardened as she added, "I want to make sure somebody hears
me describe what Vector and Mikka have done for all of us. I
want to tell the Council that the UMCP gave me to Nick." She
faced Angus as if she were defying him. "And I want to tell
them you were framed."
He nearly lost his grip on the edge of the table. "Christ,
Morn!" he protested. "You can't tell them that." If she did,
she would have to tell them he gave her a zone implant—and
she took the control. "We'll both be executed. They'll fry our
fucking brains. The cops will kill every one of us eight times
before they let you say something like that out loud."
Was this what scared her? The prospect of explaining her
own crimes in front of the Governing Council for Earth and
Space?—condemning herself so that she could try to save her
shit-crazy species from their own fucking cops as well as from
the Amnion?
She nodded grimly. If she was afraid, the darkness of her
gaze concealed it. "That's why we have to stay away from
them."
Angus couldn't contain the rush of his distress. He
needed an outlet. He ordered his zone implants to reduce their
emissions, diminish his imposed calm, so that he could shout.
"God damn it! Don't you know what they got out of
framing me? No, of course you don't. You were stuck out
there on Captain's motherfucking Fancy while it happened.
"They paid Captain Sheepfucker and Milos to frame me.
They wanted Com-Mine Security to look bad. So the Council
would pass something called the fucking Preempt Act."
Angus himself had been one of the first victims of that legisla-
tion. Hashi Lebwohl had reqqed him from Com-Mine under
the Preempt Act. "It gives the UMCP authority over local
damn security everywhere in human space! Like they needed
more muscle—like datacores and id tags and Emergency Pow-
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galaxy aren't enough.
"The cops," he finished savagely, "are not going to let
you undermine that much power."
Morn lowered her head. Hiding her chagrin—or simply
giving herself time to absorb this information. Angus didn't
know which until she looked up at him again.
Her eyes burned like the black flame of his visceral fury.
"For some sick reason," she said through her teeth, "I'm
not surprised. But that doesn't change anything. It's got to
stop. One way or another.
"We don't have the leverage to stop it. Maybe the Coun-
cil does."
It's got to stop. Despite his dismay, Angus heard echoes
of Warden Dios, with his strange priorities and his secrets.
Had that goddamn one-eyed terrifying sonofabitch foreseen
this too?
He had one protest left—one last objection which might
make her change her mind. Shouting only angered her, so he
re-imposed his artificial calm. He wanted to sound like a man
she couldn't argue with.
He wanted to sound like Nick Succorso—
"I told you you're crazy," he asserted sardonically.
"Maybe you weren't listening. Didn't you hear me explain
that I can't go back to Earth? I thought you understood. As
soon as Milos betrayed me, I became too dangerous. Whatever
is chasing me, whatever I'm carrying with me, is too danger-
ous. That's written into my programming. I can't go back
there unless somebody uses my priority-codes, orders me to
do it.
"But my codes are blocked. You can yell them at me until
you rupture something. I might even want to obey you. But my
computer can't hear you. It still won't let me go."
That was the plain truth. Without the authority of those
codes, he couldn't override his underlying instruction-sets.
Yet Morn wasn't daunted. Even now she was more than a
match for him.
"Fine," she snapped grimly. "I'll put Mikka on helm.
I'll give her orders. All you have to do is stay out of the way."
She did more than shock him: she shook him to the core.
His grasp on reality seemed to fail under the impact of her
determination. Put Mikka on helm. Stay out of the way. That
would work. His programming would allow it.
Suddenly every brutal, inhuman restriction which the
cops had welded into him appeared negotiable—
Without warning some of the tactical scenarios weaving
themselves across the background of his mind began to look
plausible. His computer and his instincts spun ruses and gam-
bits into webs which might conceivably be strong enough to
hold.
He didn't move to act on them, however; didn't let go of
the table to take up Morn's challenge. He needed to under-
stand her. If she could find his way out of his electronic prison
for him, she might be capable of almost anything.
He needed to know what drove her.
"All right," he said more quietly. "That might work. But
something about all this still sounds like bullshit to me.
"I know you," he insisted. "You haven't told me the
whole story. There's something nagging at you. Something
that scares you worse than I do. I can see it in your eyes.
"I don't want to fucking guess what it is. Just say it, so
I'll know what I'm dealing with."


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He expected her to flare out at him; accuse him. You want
me to trust you? You raped me, hurt me, damn near broke me,
and you want me to trust you? I would rather be dead. But she
didn't. Dark as pits, her eyes held his without flinching. Mus-
cles tightened at the corners of her jaw, forcing her chin up.
"When I was in the Amnion sector on Billingate," she
said acidly, "they took samples of my blood. Samples with
Nick's immunity drug in them. I figure they ended up on Calm
Horizons.
"But even if they didn't, she heard Vector's broadcast.
"I want to find out if she's still alive. That's more impor-
tant than anything. If Punisher killed her, it almost doesn't
matter what happens to us. The formula will get out somehow.
We may lose everything else, but we've already gained that.
"But if she survived, she might get back to Amnion
space. They'll learn how to counter the drug. Vector's formula
will be useless before anyone in human space ever benefits
from it."
For reasons he could hardly recognize, Angus felt a rush
of relief. Was that all she feared? Then it didn't threaten him.
If she was telling the truth—
He believed her. She cared about shit like that. Maybe she
hadn't when they were aboard Bright Beauty; when she was in
his power. Maybe he hadn't let her. But she did now.
He should have known she wasn't scared for herself. Her
damn convictions had become too strong for that.
Those same beliefs had freed him from his priority-codes.
Now they were bending the bars of his welded lockup. If he
gave her enough help, they might turn him loose altogether.
"Hell, Morn," he replied almost cheerfully, "you can't
do anything about that. There's no point in suffering over it.
You don't know where she'll go from Massif-5. If she's crazy
enough to commit an act of war, she's crazy enough to try
anything.
"For all you know, she's still looking for us.
"Don't waste your time on her. Worry about something
that makes a difference. Worry about what we're going to
do."
Her eyes narrowed suspiciously. "Talk's cheap, Angus.
What are we going to do?"
She meant, What're you going to do?
He gave her a malicious, happy grin. "That depends," he
told her cryptically, "on just how much damage that little shit
did to the drives."
Despite the pain in his hip, he released the edge of the
table with a thrust which carried him toward the door. Reality
had changed. Morn changed it. Anything might become possi-
ble.
Somehow when he'd first met her he'd put his feet on a
road which had led him away from everything he knew or
understood about himself. Now each step carried him farther.
MIN
Despite the precise assistance
of the gap scout's homing
signal, Punisher would never have been able to follow Trumpet
if the encroaching Amnion warship hadn't dropped fire in or-
der to concentrate on her own acceleration out of the Massif-5
system.
As long as the Behemoth-class defensive continued to de-
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ton blasts like thunderstrikes, Punisher was forced to maintain
her staggering, frantic evasive maneuvers. Even when the
cruiser had accumulated adequate velocity to hunt Trumpet
across the gap, she couldn't risk tach: not when she needed to
alter her actual heading by the second in order to keep herself
alive. If she'd used her gap drive to escape the defensive's
guns, she would have resumed tard so far off Trumpet's trail
that she would have required precious hours—or even days—
to re-acquire the gap scout's signal. And in that time Trumpet
might flee beyond recovery.
She might silence her homing signal, as she had once
before.
Fortunately the dilemma of Trumpet's departure was as
urgent for the Amnioni as it was for Punisher. The alien war-
ship found herself virtually stationary in a hostile star system,
with her shields and sinks damaged, the target of her incursion
gone, and an entire flotilla of enemy vessels burning toward
her from Valdor Industrial. She had to run.
Helpless in her g-seat at the periphery of the bridge, Min
Donner focused intensely on the actions of both ships, al-
though she couldn't do anything about them. Because Pun-
isher had heard Vector Shaheed's amazing broadcast, Min
feared that the defensive would commit herself to destroying
the cruiser.
She also wondered how long Sergei Patrice on helm could
endure the strain of this ordeal. Glessen on targ did what he
could to help; but the real burden of keeping Punisher alive
now fell exclusively to Patrice.
Min suffered from nausea and vertigo herself, despite her
years of experience and her eagerness for battle. And Punisher
was a cruiser, a quick-strike vessel: she hadn't been designed
for this kind of hours-long pummeling, these brutal maneu-
vers.
Gradually it became clear, however, that whoever was
"invested with decisiveness" aboard the Amnioni didn't mean
to prolong the battle. The defensive had other priorities. She
continued to blaze at the UMCP cruiser while she shrugged
her vast bulk into motion. But then, near the effective limits of
Punisher's ragged return fire, she broke off her side of the
engagement, presumably so that she could dedicate all the
power of her drives to acceleration.
Her vector away from the asteroid swarm didn't point
toward forbidden space, or any other obvious destination. In-
stead her immediate course aimed only at escaping Massif-5
as efficiently as possible.
"Cease fire, targ," Captain Dolph Ubikwe ordered. Im-
mobile as stone, he sat at the command station as if he were
welded to his g-seat. "We aren't hurting her anyway. And we
might enjoy being able to hear ourselves think."
"Aye, Captain." Glessen keyed toggles, dropped his
hands from his board. At once the hot, frying hull-sound of the
matter cannon ceased. Without transition the squalling of half
a dozen stress and damage alarms seemed to grow louder.
Nevertheless after several hours of incessant fire Min felt that
the bridge had become suddenly quiet.
"Stay sharp, Sergei," Captain Ubikwe warned. "At the
rate she's pulling away, we're probably safe from her matter
cannon. But that damn proton gun can still reach us."
Patrice mumbled a reply Min couldn't hear. He looked
too tired to speak any louder. The stark lighting of the bridge
gleamed in the sheen of sweat on his face.


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"Maybe not, Captain," Porson offered from scan. "The
sensors say she doesn't have a targ fix on us anymore."
At once the data and damage control officer, Bydell, put
in numbly, "If we can trust the readings." Remorseless pres-
sure had worn the young woman down; but she clung to her
duties. "We've taken a hell of a beating, Captain," she ex-
plained. "Damage control says we have potential failure on
half the receptors. Maybe she's dropped targ. Or maybe we
just can't tell the difference."
Min swore to herself. She wasn't surprised: Punisher's
wounds could only have worsened under the strain of helm's
maneuvers. Still the ED director hated anything which weak-
ened her command; threatened her people.
As Trumpet fled Massif-5, the gap scout had broadcast the
formula for a mutagen immunity drug. This may or may not
have been what Warden wanted—Punisher still hadn't suc-
ceeded at deciphering the transmission which had given Nick
Succorso control over Angus, so the director's real intentions
remained secret—but it transformed Min's sense of her own
mission.
She hated anything which might come between her and
Trumpet.
"Damn her to flinders," Dolph growled. He was studying
the Amnioni's escape trajectory. "It galls me to let her run.
She's a goddamn loose cannon." He may have been talking to
Min. "Who the hell knows where she'll go-off next? Could be
anywhere."
Min swallowed bile and frustration. She understood his
implied complaint. He might conceivably have been able to
finish the big defensive—if Min hadn't ordered him to go after
Trumpet instead of pressing his advantage when the Amnioni's
sinks began to fail.
"Can't be helped," she answered harshly. "We're in no
condition to chase her.
"Program a courier drone for UMCPHQ," she went on.
Punisher had only two left—too few—but Min didn't balk at
using one. "Bring Director Dios up to date on what's hap-
pened. Launch it. Then get after Trumpet.
"If the Amnion think she's worth an act of war to kill,
she's probably worth anything we can do to protect her."
Almost as an afterthought, she added, "She probably
isn't safe. We still haven't accounted for Free Lunch."
Dolph swiveled his g-seat, turned his dark face toward
her. A combative hunger smoldered in his eyes, promising
trouble. He'd already declared his loyalty to her, however.
He'd obeyed when she'd told him to turn away from the Am-
nioni. Despite his desire to hunt and kill the defensive, he
didn't argue now. Any trouble he caused her would take some
other form.
"I'm sure you're right," he rumbled sardonically. Still
holding Min's gaze, he said to communications, "You heard
the director, Cray. Code a message for Director Dios. Give
him a datacore playback for the past twelve hours. We don't
have to explain it for him—he'll figure it out. Tell him we're
letting the Amnioni go so we can chase Trumpet on Director
Donner's orders." He emphasized that detail with a lift of one
eyebrow, nothing more. "Program the best window on
UMCPHQ you can get from scan and data. Launch as soon as
you're ready."
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may still have been trying to shout over the absent sizzle of the
matter cannon. "Give me five minutes."
Captain Ubikwe met Min's stare for another moment as if
he were warning her. Then he swung his station to confront
the main display screens.
"Take ten," he told Cray. "We've got time. I want to
make damn sure that bastard doesn't have us on targ before we
steady our course for tach.
"You hear me, Porson? Bydell doesn't trust your equip-
ment. Oversample as much as you have to. Get me a reading
we can believe in."
"I'm not worried, Captain." Porson was older than the
rest of the bridge crew; probably more experienced. "Scan is
erratic, but what I see doesn't look like sensor failure. It's
probably quantum discontinuities. There's been enough matter
cannon fire in this sector to charbroil a planetoid."
Captain Ubikwe nodded. "Just be sure."
Porson bent over his board as Dolph turned to helm.
"Hang on, Sergei," he said in a reassuring growl.
"You'll get relief as soon as we cross the gap. I'll take helm
myself, if I have to."
Patrice tried to smile, but his grin was sickly with fatigue.
"I'll make it, Captain," he murmured. "We had tougher drills
in the Academy."
That was partly true. Min had designed some of them
herself. But the worst of them had been hours shorter—
As soon as she returned to UMCPHQ, she intended to
give Sergei Patrice the highest commendation she could think
of.
Hell, everybody aboard deserved more than mere com-
mendation. At the very least they ought to get a goddamn
parade. Punisher had been damaged and short-handed before
Min joined ship; but Dolph's people had risen to every de-
mand she'd made on them. Nevertheless Patrice stood out—as
did Hargin Stoval, the command fourth, who'd been injured
fighting a fire which had threatened to gut the cruiser. Patrice
couldn't have rim helm any better if he'd been driven by zone
implants.
Abruptly Porson announced, "I'm sure, Captain. That de-
fensive doesn't have us on targ. And there's a shift in her
emission profile. The energy signature of her proton gun is
gone. The cannon isn't charged."
Dolph looked quickly at data. "Bydell?"
"Data agrees, Captain," the young woman reported, al-
most panting. Her eagerness to be out of danger left her
breathless. "We've filtered enough of the inaccuracies. And a
super-light proton signature doesn't look like anything else.
It's hard to mistake."
Good enough. "Let's do it," Min ordered Captain
Ubikwe sharply. "As soon as that drone is away, let's get out
of here."
Her palms burned with the intensity of her desire to catch
Trumpet.
Morn Hyland was aboard, even though—so Min had been
told—Angus had been explicitly programmed not to rescue
her. She had a son with her, Davies Hyland, force-grown on
Enablement Station. According to Angus, the Amnion thought
they could learn how to mutate Amnion indistinguishable from
humans by studying the boy.
Milos Taverner had turned traitor. Directly or indirectly,
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For reasons which Min still couldn't imagine, Warden
Dios had given Angus' priority-codes to Nick Succorso. And
yet Vector Shaheed had broadcast the formula for an an-
timutagen—a drug which he could only have obtained from
Nick.
The entire UMCP might collapse if the GCES or Holt
Fasner learned the truth behind Shaheed's transmission. War-
den would certainly be disgraced; ruined.
What was Min supposed to do about that? What did the
director want her to do?
And what had become of Free Lunch? Punisher hadn't
seen any sign of her. The ship which had unexpectedly saved
Trumpet by attacking the alien defensive was some other ves-
sel. The unnamed ship had pursued the gap scout all the way
from forbidden space, only to die protecting her from the Am-
nioni.
Too many questions, all of them urgent.
Captain Ubikwe gave his people their orders; but Min
wasn't listening. Every nerve in her body was on fire to catch
up with Trumpet.
Porson found the gap scout minutes after Punisher resumed
tard on the track of Trumpet's homing signal.
"Got her, Captain!" he said excitedly. He seemed to be
the only member of the bridge crew with enough energy for
excitement. "Right where her signal said she would be."
A burst of relief spread across the bridge. Captain
Ubikwe sat up straighter in his g-seat. "Thank God," Bydell
breathed. Roughly Glessen muttered, "It's about time." Pa-
trice put his head into his arms on the helm board.
Min strained against her belts, studying the screens. The
end of the vertiginous stress of evasive maneuvers left her
light-headed and vaguely sick; her nerves jangling. She was
viscerally hungry for g.
Then Porson frowned. Almost at once he added, "Which
doesn't make sense. She's had plenty of time to hit the gap
again. Even if she needed to rest for a while, she could have
been long gone. But she's still on the same heading she took
from Massif-5.
"We're moving faster than she is," he finished. "At this
rate, we can overtake her in a couple of hours."
Dolph's eyes widened as he considered the implications.
"Is she waiting for us?" he asked Min. "Does she want us to
catch her? After all this?"
Min didn't answer directly. Instead she turned to scan.
"What condition is she in? Is she using thrust?" Min
swallowed acid and apprehension. "Does she have us on
targ?"
Porson didn't hesitate. "We can feel her scan, Director.
She knows we're here. But she isn't using targ. In fact"—he
cleared his throat, looked at Captain Ubikwe—"now that you
mention it, I can't say for sure that she is Trumpet.
"She's in the right place," he explained quickly. "She's
the right size. But there's no emission signature. No particle
trace. As far as I can tell, her drives are cold."
No thrust? No course alterations? The gap scout had
come 1.4 light-years across blank space from the Massif-5
system—and now she was coasting?
Before Min could ask another question, Cray put in from
communications, "That's Trumpet, all right, Captain. She's
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We picked it up as soon as we resumed tard.
"But it isn't aimed at us," she added. "It's a general
broadcast. So far, she isn't trying to talk to us."
"General broadcast?" Dolph growled under his breath.
"What the hell good is that going to do out. here? There's
nobody—" Then he caught himself. "Porson, are we alone?
Any other ships around? Any sign of Free Lunch?"
Porson consulted his board. "Negative, Captain. Nobody
here but the two of us." He shrugged. "Of course, I'm blind
on one side." Punisher had lost a sensor bank to combat and
fire. "But helm still has us under rotation. That gives us a
steady sweep. If we had company, we would know it by now."
The cruiser's slight centrifugal g seemed to tug at the
lining of Min's stomach, hinting at vomit. Sergei Patrice had
performed one more miracle by following Trumpet so accu-
rately while Punisher turned.
Captain Ubikwe blew a sigh past his lips. For the first
time in long hours, he permitted himself to show signs of
strain. He shrank slightly, as if his bones were sagging inside
his bulk, and his eyelids drooped.
"All right," he said in a slow grumble. "Keep her on
targ, Glessen. Just in case she tries to surprise us. Matter can-
non charged."
"Aye, Captain," Glessen said. "I'm ready."
"Good." Dolph seemed to be thinking aloud. "So we're
alone. Just the two of us. So far, so good. And she isn't trying
to get away from us. That makes a change. In fact, she looks
like she's shut down her drives. Almost like she wants us to
catch her. On the other hand, she hasn't tried hailing us."
Min needed action. "We'll hail her ourselves," she put in
impatiently. "I want to talk to her."
Dolph scowled at her. "In a minute," he retorted. "I
have other things to take care of first."
Brusquely he keyed open an intercom channel and an-
nounced shipwide that the cruiser was about to resume inter-
nal spin.
His response bordered on insolence—no doubt a mere
foretaste of the trouble to come—but Min was forced to ap-
prove, despite her frustrated urgency. Punisher's people must
have been desperate for normal g—and for a chance to move
around. Most of them hadn't been to the san for, hell, close to
twelve hours. But Dolph hadn't risked spin before the cruiser
went into tach. If he had, core displacement might have sent
her off course by several hundred thousand k.
While spin alerts sounded throughout the ship, Captain
Ubikwe ordered his helm second to the bridge to relieve Pa-
trice.
"Thank you, Captain," Patrice murmured weakly. He
may have been close to losing consciousness.
"No, Sergei," Dolph countered. Despite his own fatigue,
his voice was almost loud enough to echo. "Speaking for the
whole ship, I want to thank you. You aren't just good. You're
certifiably brilliant. If we ever get out of this mess, Director
Donner and I"—he didn't so much as glance at Min—"are
going to throw you the biggest, loudest, drunkest, soppiest
goddamn party you've ever seen. And I will personally court-
martial anyone who doesn't end up comatose."
Glessen grinned wearily. Cray and Person clapped for a
moment. Despite—or perhaps because of—the deep strain of
her fear, Bydell laughed aloud.
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eyes were glazed and his head wobbled on his neck, he man-
aged a thin smile.
Shit, Dolph! Min thought bitterly. Stop this. I need to talk
to Trumpet.
At the same time, paradoxically, she admired Punisher's
commander. His care for his people was invaluable. She sus-
pected that if he'd ordered them to follow him through the
gates of hell, they would have obeyed instantly.
Alerts finished warning the ship. Within her hulls, Pun-
isher slowly began to revolve around her core. For a moment
Min felt a sideways pressure as her inner ears and her sense of
inertia—sensitized and aggrieved by so much violent motion
—reacted to the change. Then the familiarity of shipboard g
reasserted itself. Her viscera seemed to shift, as if they were
being pulled back where they belonged.
Around her men and women groaned and sighed as they
reacted to a comfort so acute that it was almost painful.
"But that'll have to wait," Captain Ubikwe continued to
Patrice. "In the meantime get off the bridge. Emmett will be
here in a minute. We can live without helm until then."
"Aye, Captain." Fumbling, Patrice undid his belts;
lurched to his feet. At first his legs refused to hold him: he had
to support himself on his console to stay upright. After a mo-
ment, however, he staggered away from his station and left the
bridge.
Min didn't move. She could have stood; eased the cramps
in her limbs and the fire in her nerves by walking to the com-
munications station and giving her orders directly to Cray. But
as an act of self-discipline—or self-mortification—she re-
mained in her belts; contained her discomfort and ire by force
of will.
I have other things to take care of first.
"If you're quite ready, Captain," she said sarcastically,
"I want to hail that ship."
"I haven't forgotten." Dolph shifted his station to face
her. "But I'm not sure I am ready." He made no effort to
conceal his weariness. By some trick of personality, however,
he appeared to draw strength from it: fatigue fed his stores of
insubordinate anger. "Earlier we were up to our ass in alliga-
tors. Well, we let that damn warship get away, but I can still
feel something chewing on my hams."
Here it comes, Min thought. Right now, while everything
.depended on contact with Trumpet, Dolph Ubikwe was about
to make good on his promise of trouble.
Damn him, anyway.
"We've had to swallow a hell of a lot since you joined
ship," he began. "Nick Succorso, who is supposed to be
working for DA, just happens to be the only human being in
space with a mutagen immunity drug. By some amazing coin-
cidence, DA reacts to Succorso's presence aboard Trumpet by
giving Free Lunch a contract to destroy her. But of course
Succorso has his own personal geneticist with him, just in case
he feels like having his antimutagen analyzed. That probably
explains why Hashi Lebwohl wants to get rid of him.
"Unfortunately"—Dolph's deep, rumbling tone sharp-
ened trenchantly—"Director Dios is on a completely different
page of the UMCP Code of Conduct. While Hashi Lebwohl
tries to kill Trumpet, Director Dios orders us to supply Suc-
corso with a cyborg's priority-codes. In effect, handing Trum-
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"Are we confused yet?" Captain Ubikwe drawled sourly.
"Sure we are. But there's more.
"Much to nobody's surprise—certainly not yours—Suc-
corso heads for a bootleg lab. And when we see Trumpet
again, Vector Shaheed is broadcasting the goddamn formula.
Suddenly Succorso has been transformed. Now he's a philan-
thropist. He's an illegal and a covert operative, but he doesn't
want to profit from what he knows. He wants to share it.
"And he's coasting. He's been on the run all the way
from forbidden space, and suddenly he's by God waiting for
us."
Min clenched her fists, held herself still. Dolph obviously
wasn't done.
He took a deep breath to contain—or focus—his outrage,
then went on.
"Naturally Free Lunch has disappeared. Director
Lebwohl must have canceled her contract as soon as he sus-
pected that Succorso was going to make his precious secret
drug public. That makes sense, doesn't it? Especially when
you consider that as soon as this story gets out Director
Lebwohl is going to spend the rest of his conniving life in
lockup for malfeasance. Betraying his office, the UMCP, and
most of his entire species.
"Meanwhile the Amnion have just committed an act of
war, even though Thermopyle thinks they already have
Shaheed's formula. In any case, if they didn't before, they do
now. They heard it from Trumpet."
Min tightened her grip on herself. She didn't need Dolph
to remind her that her decision to abandon the attack on the
alien might have serious consequences for the whole human
race. However, she believed that there was more at stake than
Shaheed's formula. She risked everything on that conviction.
Captain Ubikwe made a visible effort to calm himself.
Slowly he sank back into his g-seat. When he spoke again, his
voice was unexpectedly mild.
"Tell me what's going on here, Director," he finished. "I
don't think I can stand any more surprises."
Min ached to snarl at him, Surprises? You don't like sur-
prises? You self-righteous, overweight sonofabitch, what
makes you think I care what you like and don't like? But she
restrained the impulse. Despite the fire in her nerves, she un-
derstood him. For him what might happen to humankind if the
defensive survived with Shaheed's formula was a secondary
concern. He cared more about his relationship with his people;
the moral authority which empowered him to hazard their
lives.
"All right, Captain," she answered like acid. "I'll tell
you what's going on. As soon as you tell me what Director
Dios' message to Trumpet really said."
The words had been plain enough. Warden Dios to Isaac,
Gabriel priority. Show this message to Nick Succorso. But
they'd been embedded in some kind of machine code which
Min hadn't recognized and didn't know how to interpret.
Dolph winced. Baffled indignation twisted his features.
"God damn it, Min," he rasped softly. "You know my people
haven't had time to crack that code. They've been at battle
stations, for Christ's sake."
Min met his glare without remorse. "Too bad. That's
where the answers are."
He bared his teeth. Still softly, he asked over his shoulder,
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sponsibilities.
"Aye, Captain," Cray responded as she hunted her read-
outs. "As you say, we haven't had much time. But before we
went to battle stations"—she found what she was looking for;
pointed at her screen while she raised her head to face Dolph
—"we set up a sequence of parameters to test the code.
Turned them over to data. They should have been running all
this time. Maybe—"
She glanced uncertainly at Bydell.
Flustered, Bydell croaked, "I'm checking, Captain." She
hit keys as fast as she could; too fast. Biting her lip, she can-
celed mistakes, re-entered commands.
"I've got the results," she announced abruptly.
"The computer ran those tests. It doesn't recognize the
code. But it thinks it's some kind of specialized programming
language. Something similar to the one we use to write the
instruction-sets for datacores."
By God. Min held her breath. By God and Warden Dios.
Under other circumstances—in another life—she would have
flourished her fists and shouted aloud. Now she kept herself
still while her heart burned like thrust and her nerves were
etched with incandescence. Yes! Programming language.
Wrapped inextricably around the words which had betrayed
Angus and Morn and humanity.
Intuitively she understood what Warden had done. With
one coded stroke he had outplayed Hashi Lebwohl and Nick
Succorso and Holt Fasner. She thought she could feel the fu-
ture he'd been striving for begin to take shape all around her;
become real.
"Do you call that an answer?" Dolph asked in a con-
gested voice, as if he were choking on uncertainties.
"Yes, I do," she asserted without hesitation. "It doesn't
explain what's happened to Free Lunch." Hashi's proxy had
probably died in the asteroid swarm from which Trumpet had
emerged broadcasting Shaheed's message. "But it tells us ev-
erything we need to know about what's going on aboard Trum-
pet."
"Which is what?" Captain Ubikwe murmured helplessly.
Min scrubbed sweat like hot oil off her palms. "Director
Dios has reprogrammed Angus Thermopyle." She was sure.
"The same transmission that turned him over to Succorso
gave him new instruction-sets. New code.
"This is Warden Dios' game."
"Then what was the point?" Dolph protested. His tone
hinted at anguish. "Why did he bother giving Succorso those
priority-codes at all, if what he really meant to do was to
change them?"
Min shook her head. "That's none of our business." She
didn't need inspiration to guess that the reason involved War-
den's secret, unexplained struggle with the Dragon. "The
point is that this is Warden's game. The Director of the United
Mining Companies Police," she pronounced fiercely, "is pull-
ing the strings here."
This was why Warden had sent her aboard Punisher, to
ensure that the game would be played his way.
"He hasn't told me what his game is. Are you going to
say he's wrong?" She challenged Dolph squarely. "Are you
going to claim he isn't doing exactly what his oath of office
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see it on his face. His resistance slumped like heated paraffin
on his heavy frame. Like her, he'd been under Warden's spell
for years. He would have followed Warden through the gates
of hell as willingly as any of Punisher's people would have
followed him.
He spread his hands to concede defeat. "Then I guess
we'd better find out what's happening aboard that gap scout."
A glint of humor came back into his eyes. "Before Director
Dios decides to chew off anything the alligators haven't al-
ready eaten."
Finally.
Min made no pretense that she wasn't in a hurry. Slap-
ping off her belts, she flung out of her g-seat and strode swiftly
toward the communications station.
By the time she reached it, Cray had already opened a
channel so that she could hail Trumpet.
Min
The ED director hailed Trum-
pet for fifteen minutes, us-
ing every authorization she could think of—except Angus'
priority-codes. Then she gave up in disgust.
The gap scout wasn't answering.
All the explanations she could think of were bitter.
Trumpet's people didn't trust her.
Or everyone aboard was dead.
If Morn and her companions had been killed by Trum-
pet's brutal acceleration away from the asteroid swarm, the
small ship's scan would remain active. Shaheed's broadcast
would continue automatically. But failsafes would have shut
down the drives after the vessel resumed tard.
"Keep at it," Min told communications darkly. "Hail her
yourself. Or just play back what I've been saying for the past
fifteen minutes. If they don't answer—if they don't let us
know they're alive—that's all we can do for now."
"Aye, Director." Cray set to work at once.
Min turned to the command station. "Dolph, how soon
can we catch up with her?"
"And match velocities?" he asked. "I assume you want
to board her?"
Min nodded. Damn right she wanted to board the gap
scout.
Captain Ubikwe referred the question to the helm officer
who'd relieved Sergei Patrice. "Emmett?"
Emmett was a stolid man with a round face and unnatu-
rally pale skin. His unreactive manner conveyed the impres-
sion that he was no match for Patrice. Nevertheless he knew
his job: he already had the figures Dolph needed on one of his
readouts.
"That depends on how hard you want to brake, Captain.
We're overhauling her at a good clip. At this rate, we'll be
alongside in an hour and a half. But if we're going to match
velocities for boarding, we have to decelerate first."
"And if we brake too hard," Dolph muttered, "we'll
probably fall apart."
"We can take it, Captain." Apparently Emmett had a lit-
eral mind. "I can put us right beside her in two hours if we
start a two-g deceleration in"—he glanced down at his board
—"make it seventy-eight minutes."
Double the effective mass of everyone aboard for forty-
two minutes. They could bear it. They'd all endured much
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Dolph cocked an eyebrow at Min. "Good enough?"
She acquiesced unhappily. "But watch her. If she shows
any sign of life, we'll have to be ready."
"I'm on it, Captain," Porson said unnecessarily.
"Go ahead, Emmett," Captain Ubikwe instructed.
After a moment's consideration he toggled his intercom
to inform Punisher's people that they had seventy-eight min-
utes in which to eat something, relieve themselves, and com-
plete their duty rotation before the ship began braking.
Because she needed to manage her tension, Min paced the
bridge, working the cramps and helplessness out of her mus-
cles, damping the fire in her hands; trying to center herself so
that she wouldn't scream if she found Morn and Angus and
Vector dead.
Despite the self-discipline she'd learned from years of action
and experience, she felt the unexpected crackle of the bridge
speakers like a jolt of stun.
"Punisher," a woman's voice said distantly, "this is
Trumpet. We hear you. Can you hear us?"
Trumpet was too close to sound so far away. The voice in
the speakers gave the impression that the woman was reluctant
to stand near her pickup. Reluctant to take this risk.
Instinctively Cray moved to reply; but Captain Ubikwe
stopped her with a sharp gesture. "Let Director Donner do
it," he told her. His deep voice had a warning tinge.
Min threw a quick look at the nearest chronometer. Pun-
isher was thirty-one minutes from deceleration.
A few swift strides carried her to the communications
station. Poised over the console, she answered as soon as Cray
keyed the pickup.
"Trumpet, this is Enforcement Division Director Min
Donner aboard UMCP cruiser Punisher, Captain Dolph
Ubikwe commanding. We hear you." Full of complex relief,
she added, "I'm glad you're alive." Then she went on more
carefully, "Who am I talking to?"
There was a delay. Not transmission lag: hesitation. After
a moment the voice in the speakers said, "Director Donner,
I'm Ensign Morn Hyland."
Morn was alive. After all this time: against incredible
odds. Despite the fact that Nick Succorso had been given the
power to use Angus against her. Min closed one fist on the
butt of her handgun to steady herself. Suddenly she thought
that anything was possible. The UMCP and humankind might
survive. Warden might actually win—
She was in focus now, primed with flame. Her excitement
and alarm seethed beneath the surface; hidden. Nothing except
authority showed in her tone.
"Who else is with you, Ensign Hyland? Where's Captain
Succorso? I thought he was in command."
Again Morn paused. Afraid to answer? Wondering where
Min's loyalties lay? That was likely: she had reason to be
suspicious. Plenty of reason.
But when she replied, her voice had more force. She must
have moved closer to the pickup.
"Meaning no disrespect, Director Donner," she said dis-
tinctly, "but I have some questions of my own."
"No disrespect?" Dolph muttered under his breath.
"Who the hell does she think she's talking to?"
Min ignored him. Morn was saying, "When we left
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Horizons. What happened to her?"
"Calm Horizons," Dolph repeated. "We've got id. Fi-
nally.
"File that, Bydell," he ordered. "Add it to our records
on that defensive. UMCPHQ might find a name useful."
"Aye, Captain," Bydell returned softly.
At the same time Min countered, "Ensign Hyland, I'm
prepared to make some allowances here." She concentrated
exclusively on her pickup and Morn's voice. "After what
you've been through, you probably deserve them. But I want
answers, too. Where is Captain Succorso?"
She could almost hear Morn leave the pickup: the sense
of withdrawal from the speakers was palpable. Morn didn't
close the channel, but she moved out of range. Consulting with
someone? Trying to decide how much to say?
Did she think she could bargain with the ED director?
What did she have to bargain with?
When it came, her response was stark and unrevealing.
"Nick Succorso is dead." For no apparent reason, she
added shortly, "So is Sib Mackern."
Dead? That explained a lot—and raised more questions,
Succorso held the priority-codes for a UMCP cyborg. Who
could possibly have gotten past Angus to kill him?
But Min didn't pause to consider the implications.
"I'll ask how he died later." I'll ask you why you're
talking for Trumpet. Why Angus is willing to let anyone else
speak for his ship. "First I'll answer your question.
"Calm Horizons survived. We had to choose between try-
ing to kill her and coming after you. She was on her way out
of the system as we left. Her course didn't reveal where she
was headed."
In the background of the transmission, a harsh male voice
growled, "Shit."
Morn's reaction was silence.
"Well," Dolph put in casually, "now we know she isn't
the only survivor. She may have killed Succorso and this Sib
Mackern, but she didn't get everybody.
"You recognize the voice, Director? Was that
Thermopyle?"
Maybe. Maybe not. Min couldn't tell.
She waited while her heart beat eight or ten times. Then
she prompted, "Ensign Hyland?"
Abruptly Morn's voice came back across the narrowing
gap between the ships.
"Don't you care that Calm Horizons must have heard
Vector's broadcast? Don't you care that she's probably burn-
ing for forbidden space?"
"Of course I care." Min's tone dripped acid. "I'm Min
Donner," God damn it. "But Calm Horizons isn't my only
problem.''
"You mean us." Morn sounded like she was talking to
herself. "We're too dangerous. I knew we were in trouble. But
it's worse than I thought."
Dangerous? The ED director knew what Morn meant. But
she didn't comment on that. Instead she offered, "And it
could get even worse. One of my other problems is a merce-
nary called Free Lunch. She has a contract to kill you. Have
you seen her?"
Another pause: more hesitation. Min restrained an urge to
shout while she waited.
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hoped that might urge Morn to answer. Cray frowned relent-
lessly past Min's shoulder. Glessen drummed his fingers on
the edges of his board like a man who wanted to start shoot-
ing.
At last Morn replied, "Free Lunch is dead, too. We met
her in the swarm. Angus killed her with a singularity gre-
nade."
"Captain," Porson whispered excitedly, "that must have
been the kinetic reflection anomaly we picked up. Director
Donner was right."
"Don't remind me," Dolph grumbled.
An edge of anger crept into Min's voice. "Damn it,
Morn, you're talking, but you aren't telling me what I need to
know."
She wanted to ask, demand, With a singularity grenade?
How in hell did he manage that? But she cautioned herself,
No, keep it simple. Don't get distracted.
Deliberately she pushed her ire down.
"Never mind, Ensign. Free Lunch is something else I'll
ask you about later.
"What's your condition? Have you lost anyone besides
Captain Succorso and Sib Mackern?"
Why are you coasting? Who's really in command there?
Morn responded with another maddening silence.
Min allowed herself to rap the communications console
with the knuckles of one fist—a small outlet for her tension.
"For a mere ensign," Dolph observed dryly, "that
woman is certainly mistrustful of her superior officers."
She glared at him. "We gave Succorso those priority-
codes," she retorted. Hell, we sold her to him in the first
place. So he would go along with one of Hashi's misbegotten
plots. "How much do you expect her to trust us?"
"That's a good question." Captain Ubikwe adjusted his
bulk against the arm of his g-seat. "You called this 'Warden
Dios' game.' Do you think she knows whose side she's on?
Do you think she or that cyborg or any one of them has a clue
what Director Dios wants them to do?"
Min didn't reply. She held herself ready for Morn's re-
sponse.
The speakers emitted a whisper of static.
"Director Donner," Morn's voice said, still muffled by
her personal distance, "what are your intentions? You have us
on targ. Are you planning to open fire?"
The ED director swallowed a hot protest. "That de-
pends," she snapped back, "on whether you try to get away
again."
Who in hell do you think I am?
Now Morn spoke without delay. She'd already made this
decision. "We can't," she returned flatly. "Our drives are
dead."
Still she contrived to supply answers without telling Min
what she needed to know.
Captain Ubikwe looked quickly at scan.
Porson shrugged. "It's probably true, Captain. I can't see
anything that says otherwise. Her guns aren't charged, that's
for sure."
"What if she's faking?" Dolph suggested. "What if she
shut down her drives, and now she risks cold ignition?"
This time Min made Morn wait. For a moment she
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The scan officer's face showed a perplexed frown. "1
can't imagine what good that would do her, Captain. Thrust
will be unstable while her tubes are cold. She'll hardly be able
to maneuver until the tubes heat. That'll give us plenty of
warning. We can probably react to whatever she does."
"We already have her at point-blank range, Captain,"
Glessen put in without being asked. "I don't think I could
miss if I wanted to."
"Don't jump to conclusions, targ," Dolph warned
sharply. "She may be telling the truth. Stranger things have
happened.
"What about her gap drive, Bydell?" he pursued. "Can
she get away from us if she just uses thrust to power her into
tach?"
Bydell's eyes widened at the idea. She seemed to find it
frightening. "Not until her thrust stabilizes, Captain," she
said hurriedly. "Otherwise it'll be like hitting the gap at ran-
dom. If she can't generate reliable hysteresis, she can't be sure
she'll ever resume tard."
"And as I say, Captain," Porson repeated, "we'll get
plenty of warning."
Min had heard enough. She turned her attention back to
the communications pickup.
"Listen to me, Ensign Hyland. We're talking to each
other, but we aren't getting anywhere. We need to do better.
"You've been through quite an ordeal. And you probably
think you have good reason not to trust me. I understand that.
So let's not make this any harder than it has to be. Tell me
what you want us to do."
Tell me how I can keep you from fighting me.
Apparently Morn was done with hesitation—at least for
the moment. Her answer returned from the speakers almost at
once. "Drop targ," she said clearly. "Drain your matter can-
non. Stop treating us like the enemy."
Min raised her head as if she'd been stung; faced Captain
Ubikwe across the bridge.
She expected umbrage: instead he rolled his eyes humor-
ously. "Hell, Min," he drawled, "if she thinks this is how we
treat the enemy, she should see us when we're in dock."
The fire in Min's palms was as acute as a decompression
klaxon, warning her of trouble. Morn's attitude didn't make
sense to her. Trumpet's drives were dead: the gap scout was
helpless; doomed. Under the circumstances, what sane ship
would insist on trying to bargain with her rescuers? What in
hell did Morn think she had to bargain with?
Nevertheless Min put on authority as if it were confi-
dence.
"Just do it, Captain," she ordered.
He gave an exaggerated sigh; but he didn't argue. "You
heard the Director, Glessen. Cancel targ. Drain the guns. At
least we don't have to worry about Free Lunch anymore."
"Aye, Captain," Glessen muttered disapprovingly.
"We're relying on you, Porson," Dolph went on. "If that
damn ship lets out so much as one flicker of drive emission, I
want to hear about it."
"I'm on it, Captain," the scan officer promised.
Min bent to the pickup again. "We're complying now,
Ensign Hyland," she said acerbically. "Watch scan. You'll see
I'm telling the truth."
For half a minute the bridge speakers brought in nothing
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seemed hollow, devoid of life; vaguely ominous. Then Morn's
voice returned.
"Thank you, Director Donner." She sounded faint with
relief or dread. "That helps."
Then she sighed audibly. "There's just one more thing."
"No, Ensign Hyland," Min snapped. She meant to be
cautious, but she'd come to the end of her patience. "Now it's
my turn." Morn's palpable suspicion grated on her nerves—
perhaps because she knew she deserved it. "I'm trusting you.
It's time for you to trust me. Then we'll consider whatever it is
you want next."
Morn sighed again. "I'm listening."
Gritting her teeth, Min ordered, "Stop broadcasting Vec-
tor Shaheed's formula."
Morn made a hissing sound—indignation or dismay.
Again Min thought she could hear a male voice swearing in
the background.
Dolph cocked an eyebrow at Min, pursed his mouth. Ap-
parently he hadn't expected this. He was caught up in the
needs of his ship; hadn't thought beyond the immediate situa-
tion.
When Morn spoke again, her voice was closer: as acute as
a knife. It flayed bitterly from the speakers.
"Why am I not surprised? You've been suppressing this
drug ever since it was developed. You took it away from In-
tertech, and now you're keeping it to yourself. You would
rather use it for a few covert operations once in a while than
make it public and take the risk it might actually scare the
Amnion into a retreat. Because"—Min tried to interrupt, but
Morn overrode her—"if the Amnion backed off, the UMCP
wouldn't be so crucial. And then people might start asking
questions about you."
"Stop that, Ensign Hyland," Min commanded harshly.
"You're talking about Data Acquisition, not Enforcement Di-
vision. I don't play those games."
She probably wouldn't be playing Warden's game right
now if he'd ever told her what it was.
"I swear to you on my honor as the Enforcement Division
director that I am not going to suppress Shaheed's transmis-
sion. I have no intention of suppressing it.
"Even if Director Dios orders me directly to bury it," she
added for emphasis, "I can't do it. VI has already heard it. It
can't be suppressed."
She was confident Warden wouldn't give that order. But it
didn't matter whether she was right or wrong. He wasn't here.
"Then why—?" Morn began, then faltered to silence.
"Because," Min rasped, "it's too goddamn loud! You
can't control who's going to hear it. You say Free Lunch is
dead. Fine—I hope you're right. But what if some illegal picks
it up and decides to come after a prize like that? What if Calm
Horizons swings around this way and uses it to locate you?
"We've got damage over here, Ensign Hyland. We can't
protect you. We're in no condition for another battle.
"Turn it off," she finished with all her authority. "Turn it
off now."
Don't force me to board you at gunpoint. Don't make me
take you prisoner. You deserve better.
Dolph nodded to Min, showing her that he understood.
Glancing around the bridge, he remarked generally, "Makes
sense to me," just in case any of his people agreed with Morn.



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Min whitened her knuckles on the butt of her handgun
and waited for a response.
When Morn answered, her voice sounded more distant
than ever: she might have been whispering. For no apparent
reason, she asked, "Do you remember my parents, Director
Donner?"
Min's eyes widened. What? Your parents?
She recalled them vividly. Not because she had Hashi's
eidetic memory: she didn't remember faces or names well. To
some extent her ferocious loyalty to her own people was an
attempt to compensate for a lack in herself. But years of ser-
vice overcame that inadequacy. And men and women whose
names or faces she sometimes forgot while they worked for
her were unalterably etched in her mind by death.
Morn was testing her in some way she didn't understand.
She wasn't a woman who hesitated under pressure, how-
ever. "Your father was Captain Davies Hyland," she replied
promptly, "commander, UMCP destroyer Starmaster. He died
with his ship while he was hunting Angus Thermopyle in the
Com-Mine belt. You probably consider yourself responsible.
And your mother was Bryony Hyland, targ second, UMCP
cruiser Intransigent. She died saving her ship during an en-
gagement with an illegal armed with super-light proton can-
non.
"I delivered a whole satchel full of commendations and
decorations for her in person when you were just a kid." Min
scowled at the memory. She hated all the duties that fell to her
when her people died. For that reason she never shirked them.
"The way I remember it, you refused to look at them. You
were too angry to let someone like me comfort you."
Is that it? Is that really what you want to know?
Maybe it was. Out of the void Morn breathed softly,
"What I remember is that they trusted you."
Cray adjusted the receiver in her ear. She didn't look at
Min: her eyes were busy tracking signals on her board.
Abruptly she jerked up her head. "They did it, Captain!
They've stopped broadcasting."
Min began a low sigh of relief—and realized suddenly
that she wasn't relieved at all. If anything, her nerves burned
hotter. An intuitive alarm she couldn't name squalled in her
head. There was danger here—
What danger? Trumpet's drives were dead: she couldn't
charge her guns; couldn't avoid Punisher. And this whole sec-
tor of space was empty of other ships.
Morn's distrust ran deep. Why had she acquiesced?
Angus killed her with a singularity grenade.
If he could do that, he could do damn near anything.
No! Min told herself grimly. It didn't make sense. Any
singularity which could threaten Punisher would swallow
Trumpet as well. The gap scout's people had fought and suf-
fered all this way from Billingate for no apparent purpose
except to make DA's antimutagen public. They wouldn't com-
mil suicide now—not for the small satisfaction of damaging
Enforcement Division.
She looked over at Dolph. His expression was speculative,
searching; but he didn't offer any comment.
No one else said anything. The bridge crew knew even
less about what was going on than she did.
"We've complied, Director Donner," the speakers an-
nounced unnecessarily. "Now it's my turn."
Did Morn sound scared? Or was that just more suspicion?


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"What else do you want?" Min asked the pickup. How
much more do you think you can get away with?
Morn had her answer prepared.
"There are six of us." Her voice seemed to resonate
softly across the gap between the ships, hinting at threats.
"Mikka and Ciro Vasaczk. Vector Shaheed. Davies Hyland.
Angus Thermopyle." If she was scared, she didn't falter or
flinch. "I want you to take us aboard."
Min's whole body tightened in surprise.
Bydell looked almost cross-eyed with perplexity. Glessen
cracked his knuckles over his board as if he were limbering his
fingers to recharge his guns. Cray gazed vaguely at Min with
her mouth hanging open.
"Well, shit." Captain Ubikwe threw up his hands, then
slapped them on the sides of his console. "Is that all?
"What in hell's the matter with her? If we aren't going to
shoot her, we for God's sake sure didn't come all this way just
so we can watch her coast." He paused, then wondered, "Or
is she afraid we'll only take some of them? Leave the rest to
die? Does she think we've sunk that low?"
Min punched her pickup silent. "I know what you
mean," she told Dolph sourly. "The more she says, the less
sense she makes."
Who was Morn talking for? Who was really in command
over there?
Did she have Angus' codes? Was that possible?
"But we still have the upper hand," Min went on, even
though her nerves flamed with warnings. "We have guns and
thrust. And Angus is alive. We know his priority-codes." If
worse came to worst, she could order him into stasis. "We
want those people." Warden Dios wanted them. "If we don't
bring them aboard when we get the chance, they may do some-
thing really crazy."
Like commit suicide.
Dolph spread his palms as if he were disavowing respon-
sibility. "You're the ED director, Min. I'm just here to follow
orders. And right now," he admitted, "I don't want your job.
"You make the decisions." He chuckled quietly. "I'll be
content complaining about you behind your back."
Min had no time for his sense of humor. With a move-
ment like a blow, she toggled her pickup.
"Sorry to keep you waiting, Ensign Hyland." Despite her
apprehension, she kept her tone neutral. "Of course you can
come aboard. That's what we're here for.
"Just give us time to come alongside and match veloci-
ties. We'll use limpets to pull you to our airlock," so we don't
need to try any tricky maneuvers in our condition.
"We'll be ready," Morn replied promptly; distantly. Ap-
parently she'd received the answer she expected. "Trumpet
out"
The speakers gave a pop of static as the gap scout ended
her transmission.
"I'll bet you will," Min muttered as Cray closed the
communications channel. "I'll just bet you will."
Morn Hyland was only an ensign, nothing more. But
she'd been to the far side of hell—and come back. Now she
was trying to play a game of her own: against Min and Pun-
isher; against the Amnion; even against Warden Dios.
In the secret core of her heart the ED director didn't know
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Punisher eased carefully toward Trumpet and nudged braking
thrust to pace the gap scout. Emmett had brought the cruiser to
within two hundred meters of her target.
He could have done better: Sergei Patrice probably could
have done much better. But two hundred meters was close
enough for limpets. With a damaged ship and an exhausted
crew, Captain Ubikwe didn't want to push his luck by moving
nearer. If Punisher's core displacement worsened suddenly—
if misalignment froze the bearings, halting internal spin with a
screech of tortured metal and any number of injuries—she
would be thrown out of control, at least temporarily. A colli-
sion was possible.
Dolph kept a safe distance; let limpets close the gap for
him.
Magnets on flexsteel cables coiled out from Punisher's
sides toward the little ship. Guided by sensors from the
cruiser's auxiliary bridge, the limpets were aimed along Trum-
pet's flank until they reached suitable positions bracketing one
of her airlocks. Then the magnets were charged, locking the
limpets to Trumpet's hull. After that it was a relatively simple
matter to reel the gap scout in like a hooked fish.
The final adjustments took time. Trumpet's airlock and
Punisher's had to meet and mate securely so that they could
seal against each other. But eventually the auxiliary bridge
reported that Trumpet was in place: status indicators green; the
airlock pressurized.
Captain Ubikwe blew a sigh through his lips, then turned
to his intercom.
"I know you're tired, bosun," he said into the pickup,
"but I think this might be a good occasion for a little cere-
mony. Muster a guard, meet our guests at the airlock. Let me
know when they're aboard." He paused for a heartbeat, then
added, "Go armed, bosun. But don't threaten anybody. I'm
not expecting trouble. I just want our guests to know we're
prepared to stand up for ourselves."
"Aye, Captain." The young man tried to stifle his weari-
ness, but the strain in his voice was clear.
Dolph silenced the intercom.
"You don't suppose, do you," he drawled to Min, "that
they're going to keep us waiting? After they made such an
issue out of getting permission to join ship?"
Min paced the bridge to contain her impatience while
other people worked. At Dolph's question she shook her head.
If she'd been able to guess any of the moves Morn—or War-
den—would make, she would have been better prepared for
them.
"Apparently not," Captain Ubikwe answered himself a
few minutes later. His status readouts told him what was hap-
pening. "They're in their airlock already. They're keying our
side now. We're cycling our lock for them."
Abruptly, as if he felt a sudden need for reassurance, he
asked scan, "We're still alone, aren't we?"
"We've lost our scan sweep, Captain," Porson answered.
Punisher had been forced to stop her rotation so that she could
grapple with Trumpet. "I can't be sure. But I haven't seen any
hint of another ship."
Dolph's mouth twisted. "Charge the guns anyway, Gles-
sen," he ordered. "Maybe we can believe Free Lunch is dead.
But I don't trust Calm Horizons to leave us alone."
At once Glessen's hands jumped to the task. "Aye, Cap-
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"As soon as our lock seals, Emmett," the captain went
on, "resume rotation. We need that scan sweep."
"Aye, Captain," Emmett responded stolidly.
"Cray," Dolph finished, "tell the auxiliary bridge to
hang on to Trumpet. We'll piggyback her home with us."
Cray reached for her intercom. "Right away, Captain."
He looked around the bridge as if to assure himself that
he hadn't forgotten anything. Then he settled his back more
comfortably against his g-seat while he waited.
Min feared that she was losing her self-command. At in-
tervals she caught "herself grinding her teeth as she paced.
Trumpet's, people were playing some kind of game: she was
sure of it. And she wanted to know what the hell it was.
Fortunately she didn't have to wait long. After another
minute or two, the intercom snapped to life.
"Captain," the bosun reported softly, "they're here."
Dolph toggled his pickup quickly. "All six of them, bo-
sun?" he asked in a deep growl.
"Aye, Captain. But, Captain—" The bosun faltered, then
said more loudly, "One of them—it's Captain Thermopyle—
he's pretty angry. He says we're still treating them like the
enemy. Because we're armed."
The captain's eyebrows arched on his forehead. He
flicked a glance at Min. "What does he want you to do about
it, bosun?"
"He wants me to disperse the guard, Captain. He says
they'll find their own way to the bridge."
For reasons she couldn't name, Min's sense of danger
worsened. With his welded resources and his native hate,
Angus was a kind of singularity grenade.
Dolph's rumble took on an unmistakable edge. "Is Cap-
tain Thermopyle threatening you, bosun? Has he mentioned
what he intends to do if you don't comply?"
"No, sir," the bosun replied. "He hasn't gone that far."
Captain Ubikwe tapped his fingers on the arms of his g-
seat. Glancing at Min again, he asked, "Now what, Director?"
She didn't hesitate. "I want them in front of me, Captain.
I want to see their faces when they talk."
Dolph nodded slowly. To the intercom he said, "Remind
them that an honor guard is a sign of respect, bosun. Assure
Captain Thermopyle I'll dismiss the guard as soon as he and
his companions are safely here. Then bring them to the bridge.
"When he gets here, he and I can discuss the protocol of
joining a superior officer's ship in person."
"Aye, sir."
The intercom clicked silent.
Questions she didn't have permission to ask filled
Bydell's face. Glessen seemed unnaturally busy at his board,
giving Punisher's weapons more attention than they needed.
Porson whistled thinly through his teeth while he hunted the
dark with his instruments. Repeatedly Cray lifted her shoul-
ders and dropped them as if she'd developed a twitch.
They'd all been under too much pressure for too long.
Only Emmett sat at his station as if he had nothing to worry
about.
Dolph aimed a frown in Min's direction. "Now what do
you suppose is going on?"
She shrugged. "Sounds like a gesture. A warning. He
doesn't intend to let us push him around. He's still a cyborg.
He can defend himself. Or he wants us to think he can."



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She had no confidence in that explanation. She just didn't
know what else to think.
Grimly she resumed pacing the bridge.
By chance she happened to be on the far side of the curved
space when the bosun and his honor guard escorted Trumpet's
people onto the bridge. From her perspective they appeared to
be walking on the ceiling; standing upside down.
She was familiar—more than familiar—with the strange
orientations caused by the g of internal spin. Nevertheless she
strode rapidly along the curve so that she would be able to
meet the new arrivals face-to-face; study every glare and falter
in their eyes.
The bridge crew watched in silence as Morn Hyland and
her companions approached the command station.
"Captain," the bosun announced formally, "may I pre-
sent the captain and crew of UMCP gap scout Trumpet?" His
voice shook despite the determination on his features.
With an impersonal scowl, Captain Ubikwe studied Trum-
pet's people. "Thank you, bosun," he rasped. "You can dis-
miss your guard now. But I'll ask you to stick around. There
may be something you can do for our guests."
The bosun and the honor guard saluted somewhat rag-
gedly. As soon as Dolph returned an acknowledgment, the
bosun sent the others off the bridge. Apparently unsure of
what to do with himself, he remained a step behind Trumpet's
people.
Min reached the group; stopped. Gripping the butt of her
handgun, she cocked her other fist on her hip and confronted
six pairs of eyes, six strained, tired faces, as if she were daring
them to challenge her.
Between one heartbeat and the next she scrutinized them
all, first together, then individually.
Two women. Four men—or two men and two boys. She
had no difficulty recognizing some of them. The names of the
others became obvious by default.
Morn had positioned herself a little ahead of the others;
leading them; taking responsibility for them.
One of the boys, an ash-pallid kid with grieving eyes and
an unsteady mouth, looked like he might throw up if anyone
offered to harm him; like he'd already suffered enough harm
to sicken his soul. But the rest of the group—
In their various ways, most of his companions were vivid
with tension. Their postures shouted of dangers Min didn't
know how to evaluate.
She remembered Morn well, not just as a little girl, but as
a cadet at the Academy. Primarily because of who her parents
had been, Min had paid unusual attention to her. But the
woman who stood here now was dramatically changed.
As a cadet, Morn had been so beautiful that Min had
considered her almost featureless: perfect and bland; with only
a hint of chagrin and—perhaps—stubbornness in her gaze to
give her face character. Now her airbrushed loveliness was
gone. She'd lost weight, a lot of it, as if she'd been burning
herself for fuel. And her experiences had chiseled at her fea-
tures, chipping the blandness off her cheeks and forehead; cut-
ting lines like gutters for pain between her brows, at the
corners of her eyes, along her nose and mouth. Her eyes were
dark with doubts and hesitations which the sharp demarcation
of her mouth belied.
A cast covered her right arm: a sling held it loosely to her
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Facing the ED director, her free hand seemed to move
involuntarily toward a salute; but she aborted the gesture.
Two men guarded her shoulders, Angus Thermopyle and
a much younger man who nevertheless resembled him aston-
ishingly.
Angus stood with his arms relaxed and his palms forward,
as if to show that he had no intention of challenging anyone.
He seemed essentially unchanged since Min had last seen him.
Perhaps the yellow malice in his eyes had deepened: perhaps
his feral grin held more threats. In other ways he looked like
the same strong, grubby, bloated man Hashi had reqqed and
welded. A slight hitch in his stride suggested that he'd hurt a
hip.
The younger man must have been Davies Hyland: the
damaged kid bore no resemblance to Morn. But Min had auto-
matically expected Davies to look like Nick. She hadn't
guessed that Angus was his father. Only the hue of his eyes—
exactly Morn's color—indicated that he hadn't been cloned
from Angus.
Yet that one detail was significant; crucial. Because of it,
his expression reflected Morn's rather than Angus'. The mind
behind his father's features hadn't been cramped and clotted
with his father's hate.
The other woman—Mikka Vasaczk—glowered harshly
past Morn and Angus without meeting Min's scrutiny. A ban-
dage partially obscured her right eye: she'd injured her temple
somehow. For that and other reasons, she reminded Min oddly
of Warden Dios. She carried herself with an air of compe-
tence, and her compact frame and assertive hips gave the im-
pression that she was stronger than she looked. Nevertheless
she seemed almost eager to remain behind Morn and Angus,
as if she didn't want to call attention to herself. Or perhaps it
was her brother, Ciro, she wished to conceal. She kept one
hand on his shoulder as if he couldn't move unless she pushed
him; guided him.
Knowing nothing about her, Min guessed that she habitu-
ally used anger to control her fear.
Of the six, only Vector Shaheed looked relaxed. His blue
eyes held a calm simplicity that contrasted markedly with the
tension of his companions. His movements were obviously
stiff, presumably painful: Min guessed that his joints hurt him
in some way. Yet the pain didn't appear to bother him. His
work at Intertech had at last borne fruit. Now he may have
been at peace with himself.
"Ensign Hyland," Dolph put in suddenly, "you ought to
be ashamed of yourself.'' His tone throbbed with deliberate
anger. "Apparently you're proud of your parents. Didn't they
teach you how to treat a superior officer? That's Enforcement
Division Director Min Donner you haven't bothered to sa-
lute."
Min didn't glance away from Morn. Morn kept her eyes
on Min. The air between them grew more concentrated mo-
ment by moment, thickened by exigencies which hadn't been
named yet.
More than ever Min believed that Warden's game—the
future he played to win—was at issue here. She felt in her
burning palms and her clenched handgun that the outcome
might be determined by what happened between her and
Morn.
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"Director Donner." Her voice was low; gravid with com-
plex intentions. "I'm Ensign Hyland. You know Captain
Thermopyle. This is my son, Davies Hyland." She indicated
the young man at her shoulder.
As if he couldn't stop himself, Davies breathed quickly,
"Director Donner." His tone hinted at involuntary respect.
But Morn wasn't done. The hesitation in her eyes didn't
seem to affect her. "It's my duty to inform you," she went on,
"that the others are under arrest. Vector Shaheed, Mikka
Vasaczk, and Ciro Vasaczk are my prisoners."
Captain Ubikwe snorted like a mine-hammer. "That's
fascinating, Ensign. They sure don't look like they're under
arrest. The last I heard, we use armcuffs when we're outnum-
bered by our prisoners."
Min shook her head. "What do you mean, Ensign Hy-
land? What's your point?"
Don't keep me in suspense. Tell me what the hell's going
on.
Morn held her head high. Only the darkness of her gaze
shifted: nothing else wavered. "My point is that I'm responsi-
ble for them," she answered firmly, "and I won't tolerate any
interference with them while they're in my charge."
Slowly a fighting snarl pulled at Min's lips. Without tran-
sition she no longer cared whose game she was playing, or
why. She was the Enforcement Division by God director, and
she was responsible here. No matter how much Morn Hy-
land—or Warden Dios—meant to her, she had no intention of
letting anyone come between her and her oath of office.
"It doesn't work that way." She made the words crackle
like alarms. "You're only an ensign. You have neither the au-
thority nor the competence to present yourself to me like
this."
Abruptly Angus bared his teeth. They looked as carious
as his eyes. "I warned you," he remarked to Morn as if they
were alone.
She turned to look at him. While a firestorm gathered in
Min, Morn nodded slowly. "You were right," she murmured
softly. "We'll do it your way."
Min had an instant of warning as the clenched tension of
Morn's group exploded into action. Just an instant: a fraction
of a second; hardly long enough for the synapses of her brain
to register the change.
Nevertheless she was fast. Years of experience and train-
ing had honed her reflexes to lightning. Before the instant was
over, her fist leaped up; aimed her impact pistol at Morn's
head.
But Morn had already moved. The doubt in her gaze—
and the cast on her arm—did nothing to slow her; hinder her.
As soon as she spoke to Angus, she flung herself headlong at
Min.
During the thin slice of time while Min's gun rose into
line, Morn's boots lifted from the deck, carried by the force of
her spring. She couldn't have stopped even if her reflexes had
been as sharp as Min's; even if she'd had time to see Min's
gun and recognize that Min was about to kill her.
Other people moved as well—Angus, Davies, Mikka
Vasaczk, Vector Shaheed; even Ciro. Their actions were too
sudden for anyone else on the bridge to counter. But Min had
no time for them. Scarcely a millisecond remained before she
tightened her finger; blasted Morn in midleap.
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Snatching the gun down, she stepped aside from Morn's at-
tack.
The adjustment took too long, despite her speed. The in-
terval of Morn's leap simply wasn't large enough to accom-
modate so many reactions. Before Min finished her sidestep,
Morn crashed into her; hammered an acrylic-clad forearm
onto her shoulder; grappled for her arm.
Min could have handled that. The force of Morn's blow
struck her shoulder numb; but she didn't need it. Plant her rear
leg: cock her hip: twist her torso in the direction of Morn's
momentum: throw Morn past her. It would have been easy.
Unfortunately Morn's charge had already served its pur-
pose. It was a feint, nothing more: a distraction. Angus
reached Min before she recognized the true danger.
If she'd focused on him from the beginning, she could
have beaten him. Despite his augmented resources, she would
have had time to draw her gun and fire before he closed the
gap.
But now—
Now she didn't stand a chance. His fist caught the side of
her head with the force of a steel piston; and she went down
like a sack of severed limbs.
She didn't lose consciousness. No. She positively declined.
She was Min Donner, by God, Min Donner, and she was re-
sponsible for everything that happened here. She would not
surrender to a mere punch in the head. Through pain that
clanged and shivered inside her skull as if the bones were a
gong, she clung to the deck and the bridge; refused to let the
kind dark carry her away.
For a while she couldn't see anything: Angus had hit her
hard enough to shock her optic nerves, her occipital lobes. But
she felt the gun snatched out of her limp hand. With her cheek
she sensed boots pounding the deck. From the fringes of un-
consciousness she heard shouts and curses—Dolph's roar of
anger; Bydell's involuntary wail; Glessen's harsh cursing.
Then a woman yelled.
"If you touch that intercom," the voice cried harshly,
"I'll blow your head off!"
 Not Morn. And not Bydell or Cray.
That left Mikka Vasaczk.
Min twisted her head to the side. The movement spiked
more pain through her skull; but when it eased she could see
again.
Blinking frantically, she looked up from the deck.
"All of you!" Mikka shouted again. "If anyone lifts a
finger, I'll kill him! First I kill him. Then Angus kills Director
Donner!"
Min couldn't locate Morn or Angus: they must have been
behind her. But the rest of Trumpet's people had spread out
around the bridge. Davies had positioned himself to guard the
aperture to the bridge. He didn't have as much bulk or muscle
as Angus; but he looked quick enough, driven enough, to hurt
anyone who tried to get past him. Vector stood in front of
Cray, holding his hands over her board so that she couldn't
reach the keys to summon help without fighting him for them.
Ciro Vasaczk crouched on his hands and knees, crawling
toward the nearest bulkhead.
Mikka confronted the command station: a gun in her fist
covered Dolph. She must have grabbed it from the bosun. He
lay dazed on the deck; eyes dull; holster empty. Min knew at a



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glance that Mikka was both able and willing to use her
weapon.
Captain Ubikwe must have seen the same thing. Never-
theless her threat—and the attack on Min—left him almost
apoplectic with fury.
"I don't have to touch the intercom, God damn you!" he
raged like a bullhorn. "This is a UMCP cruiser! A ship of
war! You can kill all of us. You can kill everyone who comes
onto the bridge in the next ten minutes. But after that you're
finished!
"By then the rest of my crew will have guns, too. And
they aren't stupid, no matter what you think of the cops.
They'll override everything from the auxiliary bridge. They'll
seal you in here, they'll cut off your goddamn air. And you
won't be able to stop them because you don't have the god-
damn codes!"
Only Punisher's senior officers had the codes he meant—
the cruiser's essential priority-codes. Even Morn wouldn't be
able to prevent it if, say, Hargin Stoval invoked those com-
mands in order to take over the ship from the auxiliary bridge.
"Either shoot me or get that popgun out of my face,"
Dolph demanded hotly. "I don't deserve to be insulted."
"You fat asshole," Angus drawled with a grin, "what
makes you think we care?"
Min was angry, too; as angry as Dolph. But her fury was
cold and hard, like forged ceramic. Somehow she dredged her
head up from the deck. With a brutal effort, she levered her
good forearm under her.
"You should care," she croaked hoarsely.
You'd better kill me now. Otherwise I'm going to crucify
every one of you.
Abrupt hands grabbed the back of her shipsuit. They were
strong; impossibly strong: they jerked her upright as if she had
no mass, no substance. They planted her on her unsteady feet,
then released her with a negligent flick that nearly sent her
sprawling.
She flexed her knees against the weight of her pain and
turned to face Angus and Morn. Her right arm dangled useless
from her numbed shoulder.
Angus held Min's pistol aimed at the center of her chest.
His free hand clenched and unclenched slowly, as if he were
pumping it full of violence.
"Why?" he jeered at her. "You're the one who reqqed
me from Com-Mine Security so Hashi fucking Lebwohl could
play his little games with me. After that you pretended you
didn't like it, but you let him have me anyway. The way I see
it, I owe you nothing but damage. Why should I care?"
Min took a deep breath, reached inward to find a center of
balance beyond the clamoring pain. Distinctly she answered,
"Because I won't let you do this."
Angus widened his eyes mockingly, then narrowed them
into a scowl. "Oh, I get it," he rasped. "You're planning to
stop me, aren't you." He sank his teeth into the words;
seemed to tear them loose one at a time like shreds of meat.
"You're going to use my priority-codes, turn me back into a
toy. Aren't you.
"Well, go ahead," he challenged her. "Go ahead and
fucking try it."
His manner warned her: everything Trumpet's people had
done since Punisher spotted the gap scout on scan warned her.
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"Isaac, this is Gabriel priority." Her voice recovered its
force as she spoke, filling the air with compulsion. "Give me
that gun."
Angus Thermopyle was a welded cyborg, ruled by zone
implants and exigent programming; absolutely controlled.
Hashi had assured everyone in UMCPHQ that he would never
draw another free breath as long as he lived.
But he didn't surrender her weapon.
Instead he laughed like the hunting growl of a predator.
"Well, what do you know? I didn't do it. Isn't that amaz-
ing?" His eyes concentrated on her like coherent light.
"And you know what's even more amazing?" he went
on. "I don't have to hold back from hurting UMC-fucking-P
personnel. Not now. Not ever again."
He turned his free hand as if he were aiming a punch in
the direction of the command station. Without warning a ruby
shaft as thin as a needle lanced between his fingers toward
Captain Ubikwe's feet. First the laser scored the deck, deli-
quescing metal with a plume of smoke, a stink of heat. Then it
touched the side of Dolph's boot.
The captain sat like a stone in his g-seat. Not a muscle
moved. If he felt so much as a lick of pain, he didn't show it.
But the glare he fixed on Angus promised murder.
Through his teeth Angus told Min, "I already hit you
hard enough to get your attention,'' Slowly he shifted his laser
away from Dolph's boot. "I can amputate his damn legs if I
feel like it." At last he turned the beam off.
A faint sigh crossed the bridge as Bydell, Porson, Cray,
and even Glessen let themselves breathe again.
"We changed my datacore," Angus stated scornfully. "I
don't have to take your orders anymore, or let you turn me off,
or make me break my promises. You don't have any restric-
tions left on me. Do you hear me?" he raged suddenly. "I'm
done with you! The next time you give me an order, I will
push it back down your throat with my bare hands!"
"Morn," Davies put in, half demanding, half imploring,
"tell him to stop. He's made his point. We don't need more
threats."
Mikka's grip on her gun held steady: her aim hadn't wa-
vered a centimeter. "Whatever it takes," she muttered.
"Whatever it fucking takes."
"But he is telling the truth, Director Donner," Vector
offered as if he wanted to placate her. "He doesn't accept
orders from us either."
Min stared back at Angus without moving. For a moment
she thought her heart might stop. Her grasp on reality seemed
to unravel in the face of his ability to disobey his priority-
codes.
Changed his datacore? How? That should have been im-
possible. Everything was impossible.
Hashi, you miserable, goddamn sonofabitch, this is—
But then another explanation struck her with the force of
an electric shock.
—your doing?
No. It wasn't Hashi's doing. It wasn't his game at all. It
was Warden's.
Warden had used Punisher to convey a message to Trum-
pet, The text of the transmission had given Angus' codes to
Nick Succorso. But the plain words had been embedded in
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Angus was free. Something similar to the one we use to pro-
gram datacores.
Warden's doing.
Beyond question the future he was fighting for depended
on what happened here.
Morn didn't reply to her son's demand, didn't say any-
thing to Angus; didn't glance away from the ED director.
Maybe Min was wrong: maybe it wasn't doubt that darkened
her gaze. Maybe it was grief.
"We're not going to kill anybody." Her tone was full of
resolve—and hints of sorrow. "Not unless you don't leave us
any other choice. We don't want bloodshed. And we don't
mean to hurt you. We don't even want to insult you.
"All we want," she said firmly, "is command of this
ship."
Porson gave a low gasp of surprise. Glessen swore vi-
ciously under his breath. Even stolid Emmett flinched.
Dolph was too angry to keep quiet. "And you expect me
to allow that?" he barked at Morn. "What are you, crazy as
well as stupid? If you think I'm going to give up my ship just
because you're waving a couple of little guns around, you
should go check yourself in to sickbay. You've gone too far
over the edge to function without medical help."
Min held up her left hand, mutely commanding him to
silence. This was between her and Morn—and Warden Dios,
whose nameless needs hung over them like a shroud.
"What for?" she asked sternly. "What do you propose to
do if we let you take command?"
" 'Let'?" Angus sneered. " 'Let' has nothing to do with
it. We don't need your goddamn permission."
Snarling deeply, Dolph bit back a retort.
Still Morn kept her attention on Min as if no one else had
spoken; no one else mattered.
"For a start"—her voice was low, but steady—"we'll go
home. Back to Earth." She shrugged. "After that it depends
on who tries to stop us."
Back to Earth. Exactly where Min would have taken
them.
All at once she seemed to feel a nagging burden of uncer-
tainty and confusion drop from her shoulders.
Between them Morn and her companions carried the most
explosive body of information in human space. Morn could
testify that Angus had been framed: that UMCPDA had con-
spired with Milos Taverner to steal supplies from Com-Mine
so that the Preempt Act would pass. Vector Shaheed had ana-
lyzed the formula for an antimutagen which the UMCP had
kept secret, despite its obvious importance to humankind.
Mikka and Ciro Vasaczk surely knew about Nick's dealings
with the Amnion on DA's behalf. They could describe the
Amnion near-C acceleration experiments Angus had men-
tioned—experiments which might give forbidden space an in-
superable advantage if the present uneasy peace turned to war.
In some way Davies Hyland represented the knowledge the
Amnion needed to create artificial human beings who would
be indistinguishable from real ones. And Angus had changed
his datacore: therefore everything Hashi Lebwohl had done
with welded cyborgs—and, by extension, all humankind's reli-
ance on SOD-CMOS chips—was untrustworthy; founded on a
false premise.
If Morn and her companions returned to Earth and re-
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had taken in recent years would be exposed.
The result would be chaos. At the very least the GCES
might dismantle the UMCP. Or pass a Bill of Severance. But
the damage would almost certainly go further.
It might go far enough to bring down Holt Fasner.
On the other hand, if Min fought Morn and won—if she
outplayed or outwaited Trumpet's people, and took them all
prisoner—the harm might be contained. Certainly the Dragon
would do everything in his vast power to contain it. The stories
Morn and her companions had to tell would be suppressed;
lost.
Yet eventually Warden's hand in these events would be-
come known. Angus' datacore would play back every bit of
input it had been given. Then Fasner would have no choice but
to destroy Warden. It would be all too obvious that Warden
had tried to destroy him.
That fact would be significantly less obvious if Morn Hy-
land was in command when Punisher reached Earth.
Min was unaccustomed to surrender. The concept vio-
lated her combative spirit: the word itself seemed to violate
her mind. But she had larger responsibilities to consider.
"I guess"—for a moment her voice stuck bitterly in her
throat—"I guess you didn't believe me when 1 said," swore to
you, "I'm not going to suppress Shaheed's broadcast."
Morn's head twitched back as if she were reacting to a
flick of pain. "Oh, I believe you, Director Donner. My whole
family trusted you." Then the corners of her mouth knotted
with self-coercion. "I just don't believe you'll have the final
say."
She was right: Min knew that. The Dragon was too strong
for her.
"In that case," the ED director announced like acid,
"you win. The ship is yours."
Bydell gaped at her in astonishment. Glessen covered his
face with his hands.
From the aperture of the bridge, Davies crowed, "Yes!"
"Min!" Dolph cried out. "You can't—!"
"I can!" Min wheeled to face the command station; over-
rode his protest with a shout like a flail. "I am!
"Listen to me, Captain Ubikwe. Listen hard so you don't
make any mistakes. As long as Ensign Hyland wants to head
home, we'll take her there. And we'll take her orders along the
way. We are not going to resist her or sabotage her. We aren't
going to cause her any trouble at all."
"Min, please—" His eyes beseeched her.
"No!" She refused to be swayed. Returning sensation
sent needles of fire down her forearm into her stunned hand.
"I won't have any more bloodshed. We've just taken aboard
the only six people in human space who've been through more
hell than we have. I want all of us to survive the experience,
all of us. If that means letting a mere ensign issue instructions
for a while, we will do it."
If we destroy Warden and bring down the whole UMCP,
that's on my head, not yours.
"These people are not the enemy, Dolph.," She lowered
her voice to a cutting edge. "Maybe they're out of line. And
maybe they're too dangerous to mess with. We'll sort all that
out when we get home. Better yet, we'll let Director Dios sort
it out. But for the time being"—she delivered each word as
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people.
"Is that understood, Captain Ubikwe? Have I made my-
self clear?"
"Shit, Min." He slumped as if he were collapsing in on
himself. "Of course you've made yourself clear. You know
that." With the back of his hand he wiped sweat from his dark
forehead. "But I have to say"—his tone reeked of bile—"you
sure as hell know how to rub salt in our wounds."
He slammed to his feet, brushed Mikka aside as if she
didn't hold a gun. Gesturing at his g-seat, he growled, "The
bridge is yours, Ensign Hyland. I'll be in my cabin. Throwing
up."
Without waiting to be dismissed, he headed for the aper-
ture.
"Sounds like fun," Angus snorted past his grin. "I'll go
with you. Just in case you decide you don't want to be a good
boy. Or Director Donner changes her mind."
He handed Min's gun to Davies as he followed Dolph
Ubikwe off the bridge.
Min understood, although no one said the words. Dolph
had just become a hostage.
He seemed to take all the cruiser's courage with him as
he left. His people sagged at their stations. Their faces fell:
they hung their heads. Even Glessen lost his truculence.
Bydell made a small sound that might have been a moan of
abandonment.
Abruptly Min's anger returned like the flash of a signal
flare. She found herself flexing the fingers of her right hand
against the burn; flexing them like Angus. She wanted her
gun.
"Don't make this any harder than it has to be, Ensign
Hyland," she warned. "Our people have already been pushed
right to the edge. It'll take just about nothing to make them
explode. If your cyborg so much as scratches Captain Ubikwe,
you'll have a full-scale battle on your hands."
And I will personally execute the lot of you.
"We know that," Mikka muttered. "We know what's at
stake."
Holding Min's gun in his fist, Davies left the aperture to
approach Morn and the command station. Bitterly he told Min,
"Angus hasn't hurt anyone since you gave Nick his priority-
codes. At the moment he's easier to trust than you are."
Min wrapped her fingers around the fire in her palms so
that she wouldn't retort.
Once again Morn didn't hesitate. She'd committed herself
to this course of action. If she had doubts about it, she kept her
uncertainty private.
Deliberately spurning her years in the Academy, as well
as her whole family history—the respect for rank and author-
ity which she'd surely been taught—she stepped to the com-
mand station and assumed Captain Ubikwe's g-seat. Despite
the darkness in her gaze, she seemed sure of what she did. The
cast on her arm gave her an odd combination of vulnerability
and dignity.
Min watched in confusion, baffled by outrage—and by a
strange, keen pride that one of her people could rise to a chal-
lenge like this.
"Mikka," Morn said quietly, "I want you to supervise
helm."
"Right." At once Mikka stalked over to Emmett's sta-
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a clear view of his console.
"Davies," Morn went on, "you'd better keep an eye on
Director Donner. Just to be safe. I want everyone to know
she's being held under duress. Like Captain Ubikwe."
She meant that neither Min Donner nor Dolph Ubikwe
was responsible for what Trumpet's people did. In an oblique
way she was protecting Min, Dolph, and Punisher. Perhaps
she was even protecting Warden Dios. To that extent, at least,
she understood the implications of her decisions.
Quickly Davies shifted so that he had an open shot on
Min without risking either Morn or Mikka. Grimacing like his
father's grin, he covered Min with her own weapon. But he
kept his distance: apparently he'd seen how quickly she could
move.
When Davies was in position, Morn turned her station.
Following her gaze, Min saw Mikka's brother still huddled on
the deck. He'd retreated to the bulkhead; pressed his shoulder
against it as if he wanted to hide and had forgotten how.
Gently Morn asked, "Ciro, are you all right?"
He didn't reply. After a long moment, however, he jerked
a nod.
Sighing, Morn returned her attention to the rest of the
bridge.
"Communications, I'm sure you have a copy of Dr.
Shaheed's transmission. Please ready it for general broadcast.
As soon as we reach Earth, we'll start transmitting it again.
"Vector, you might want to be sure she gets it right."
Cray snorted at the suggestion that she might make a mis-
take. But Vector's response was a grin of relief. "I think I can
handle that." At once he stopped blocking the communica-
tions board and moved around behind Cray's station to support
himself on the back of her g-seat.
Morn continued assuming command.
"Helm, please set course for Earth. The best course you
can manage with no more than one g of thrust. I don't want to
put any more pressure than necessary on this ship."
"Yes, sir," Emmett responded automatically. Placing his
hands on his board, he started to tap keys.
"Engage thrust when you're ready, helm," Morn fin-
ished.
Punisher was going home.
Gritting her teeth, Min tried to tell herself that she'd done
what Warden wanted.
And that what Warden wanted was right.
KOINA
Koina Hannish had isolated
herself in her office. The
room wasn't Godsen Frik's once-opulent center of operations,
which she'd always disliked, and which had in any case been
effectively destroyed by the kaze who'd killed the former PR
director. It was her own far more austere space. For the time
being, at least, she'd delegated to her subordinates the massive
job of sifting Data Storage for the truth behind Godsen's ful-
some obfuscations. And she'd instructed her receptionist to
accept no calls, demands, or inquiries unless they came di-
rectly from Warden Dios. She'd locked her door, blanked her
terminals and readouts, silenced her intercom; dimmed the
lights.
Now she sat at her desk and tried to review her life.
This was how she made hard decisions. Whenever she



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was faced with a difficult choice, she approached it by asking
herself who she was, what she wanted, what she believed in.
She'd started doing this a number of years ago when
she'd first considered what she wanted to do with her life.
What were her convictions? What could she do about them?
Her answers had led her into "public relations," which she
defined as the interface between the people who took action
and the people who were affected by those actions. To her way
of thinking, this was the most potentially fruitful work she
could imagine. The interface determined the nature of the rela-
tionship between any public organization and its constituents.
It was the means by which the organization and its constituents
communicated with each other. Even a casual study of govern-
mental—and corporate—entities showed that their effective-
ness hinged on "public relations."
Later the same answers had inspired her to accept a posi-
tion in UMCPPR. Nowhere was the interface more crucial
than in the dealings between humanity and its defenders.
But the personal and professional dishonesty of the for-
mer PR director had forced her to examine her life again.
Could she tolerate his misuse of his position, his distortion of
everything which passed through his hands in Holt Fasner's
name? And if she couldn't, what did she propose to do in-
stead?
In the end she'd concluded that the work of UMCPPR
was too important to abandon. Here was where she belonged.
Since she couldn't make Godsen honest, she would dedicate
herself to cleaning up after him. Among other things, this in-
spired her to undermine him covertly by, in effect, spying on
him for Hashi Lebwohl.
Then, scant days ago, she'd needed another bout of self-
examination when Warden Dios had offered her Godsen's job.
Surely this was exactly what she'd been hoping for? A
chance to replace Godsen's unctuous lies with the truth? Per-
haps not. Warden had permitted Godsen's falsehoods and
machinations. He was profoundly responsible for all his for-
mer PR director's misdeeds. If he expected her to carry out
Godsen's duties in Godsen's fashion, she would have no re-
course but to resign.
That was her decision, although the prospect filled her
with pain. Humankind deserved better from UMCPPR—and
from the UMCP itself—than Godsen had ever given it.
However, Warden had reassured her more than she would
have dared hope. In an abrupt, and unexplained, policy rever-
sal, he'd ordered her to do the PR director's job as she be-
lieved it should be done: openly, honestly; constructively.
At one stroke he'd changed everything. She couldn't
imagine what his motives might be, but she approved com-
pletely. He inspired trust, despite his responsibility for God-
sen. After years of bad compromises and frustration, her life
came into focus. She found that she was eager to be the inter-
face which the UMCP so urgently needed.
But now the task of re-examination had to be done again.
The UMCP director had presented her with another arduous
choice.
This one was especially cruel.
When she'd left her meeting with Hashi, Security Chief
Mandich, and Warden, she'd felt sick with grief. Her relief at
hearing that she hadn't precipitated the kaze's attack soon
faded: her sorrow at other things was with her still. Her efforts
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She shouldn't feel this way, she told herself sternly. War-
den had made the mandate of her duties real at last; given
them teeth. Now she would be able to do her job as it should
have been done from the beginning.
But the things she'd learned—!
The Amnion had committed an act of war. That would
have been enough—more than enough—but it was only the
beginning.
On direct orders from Holt Fasner, UMCPDA had framed
Angus Thermopyle in order to achieve the passage of the Pre-
empt Act. And Morn Hyland knew the truth. She was alive
aboard Trumpet—despite the fact that Captain Thermopyle
was now a welded UMCP cyborg with explicit instructions not
to rescue her from her enslavement to Nick Succorso. Captain
Thermopyle's "escape" from UMCPHQ accompanied by Mi-
los Taverner had been a ruse designed to protect a covert mis-
sion against Billingate.
In addition Hashi had produced convincing—if inferential
—evidence that the kazes who had attacked Captain Vertigus,
killed Godsen, and threatened the GCES had been sent by the
Dragon himself. Presumably their purpose had been to disrupt
Special Counsel Igensard's investigation of the UMCP, as well
as to counteract the effects of Warden's—and Hashi's—recent
video conference with the Council. In effect, however, the
kazes had defeated Sixten Vertigus' Bill of Severance.
Now she, Koina Hannish, had been charged with re-
vealing all this before the Governing Council for Earth and
Space.
Under the circumstances she should have been avid; al-
most ecstatic with vindication. As Protocol Director for the
UMCP, she stood at the fulcrum of events which would affect
all humankind. The veil of falsehood and unaccountability
which Holt Fasner had woven between the UMCP and the
GCES was starting to fray. When she addressed the Council—
when she carried out Warden's clear instructions—the fabric
would tear.
She should have been thrilled—but $he wasn't. Instead
mourning ate like acid at her heart: her sense of clarity and
conviction corroded by the moment. Isolated and immobilized,
she sat here in the dusk of her office trying to make the most
important decision of her life.
Warden Dios had chosen her to destroy him.
When she spoke to the Council—if she spoke—she would
put an axe to the roots of Holt Fasner's power over human
space. The threat of war would naturally leave the Members
chary of interfering with the UMCP. But that threat came in
direct response to Angus Thermopyle's mission against Billin-
gate—and to his escape with Morn Hyland. It could be argued,
therefore, that Warden was culpable for this act of war. And
Maxim Igensard would certainly do so, especially if he had
reason to think that Warden could have guessed Milos Tav-
erner would turn traitor. The Special Counsel might well claim
that the UMCP was as much a threat to humankind's safety as
the Amnion were.
The information that the UMCP had betrayed Com-Mine
Security in order to extend its own hegemony would confirm
Igensard's argument. So would the apparent breakdown of
Hashi's control over his welded cyborg.
The shock of these revelations would increase dramati-
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opponents.
At the very least the Members would probably reconsider
—and perhaps pass—Captain Vertigus' Bill. And they might
go much farther. They were unlikely to cripple the UMCP at
such a time. But if Koina was eloquent enough they might
press charges against Holt Fasner. They might decharter the
UMC itself.
Whatever else happened, however, the Council would cer-
tainly crush Warden Dios. He would be suspended in disgrace:
he would be charged with treason. And Holt Fasner wouldn't
stand by him. The Dragon would have no choice but to extract
from Warden any sacrifice the GCES required, if only to re-
duce his own losses.
Koina wanted no part of it.
On the surface Warden's behavior appeared unconsciona-
ble. Nevertheless she trusted him. Something in the clench of
his strong fists, or the probing of his one eye, or the underlying
passion of his voice, convinced her that he was honest. Like
her, he must have made bad compromises: after all, he worked
for Holt. Still she believed that he'd done what he did for
reasons which she would have considered honorable.
She didn't want to be the one who brought him down.
So now she had to choose between her duty—as he him-
self had defined it for her—and her personal loyalty to him.
Which could she bear to give up?
Snared by loss, she feared that the challenge would defeat
her. No matter what she did, she would have to surrender
pieces of herself.
Perhaps this was the kind of pressure which had driven
Warden to make unconscionable choices. Perhaps he, too, had
been forced to surrender pieces of himself.
She was still gnawing on the problem like an animal
chewing its own leg to escape a trap when her intercom sud-
denly flashed.
She caught her breath: for a moment her heart seemed to
stop. That was Warden's priority channel. It made no sound:
she'd stilled the chime. Nevertheless it signaled insistently, as
urgent as an emergency beacon.
She wasn't ready—
She had to answer it anyway. She would never be able to
justify refusing a call from the director of the UMCP.
Instinctively she straightened her back; cleared her throat;
adjusted her clothes. Then she reached out almost firmly and
keyed open the channel.
"Koina Hannish," she announced. "Director Dios?"
"Koina." Warden's voice sounded distant, muffled by
tension. "Let's keep this short. I'm in a hurry.
"Len has called an emergency session," he said without
preamble. "It starts in six hours. Your shuttle leaves in two.
You have that long to brace yourself for Igensard."
Something had happened.
She scrambled to catch up. "I take it this means you've
told the President there's been an act of war."
"Yes," he replied. He'd bypassed Protocol entirely—
which of course was exactly what he would be expected to do
in this kind of crisis. "As I said, I've been waiting to make a
formal announcement until I had a better idea which way
events were headed. But now I can't put it off any longer."
Something had happened. Koina held herself still, hoping
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He wanted her to know this. "It's from Punisher. She's still in
the Massif-5 system—or she was when she launched the
drone. But she's on her way out. Chasing Trumpet.
"Why Trumpet is running from her I can't tell you," he
rasped. "That's one problem. Nick Succorso has the codes to
control Angus. He should have stopped trying to get away
from Min by now. But the rest of the news is worse.
' 'That Amnion defensive was definitely hunting Trumpet.
Apparently Trumpet tried to hide in an asteroid swarm. Mas-
sif-5 is littered with them. Even though the defensive was un-
der hard fire from Punisher, she parked herself outside the
swarm and waited for Trumpet to show up.
"Which is another problem," he muttered. "How the hell
did an Amnioni know Trumpet was in there?"
And what was Trumpet doing there in the first place?
What bizarre breakdown of reason or self-interest had inspired
Nick Succorso to head for Massif-5, instead of turning himself
over to the protection of Director Donner and Punisher?
But Warden didn't raise that question. Sourly he went on,
"When Trumpet finally showed herself, the defensive tried to
hit her. Not just with matter cannon. She used a super-light
proton gun. It's a miracle Trumpet is still alive.
"The miracle was that another ship appeared. She must
have followed either Trumpet or the defensive all the way from
forbidden space. And, no, I can't explain that, either," he
growled, although Koina hadn't asked him to. "But she at-
tacked just in time to help Punisher overload the Amnioni's
sinks."
He paused as if he were swallowing indignation or shame,
then said, "Now it gets even worse. When the defensive had to
choose between killing Trumpet—which was presumably her
whole reason for being there—and saving herself, she saved
herself. She used her proton gun to destroy the other ship
instead of Trumpet. Which gave Trumpet time to get away."
At last Koina did interject a question. "Why is that bad?"
She was foundering in new information; implications she
couldn't assimilate. "Aren't we glad Trumpet is alive?"
"Of course we're glad," he retorted heavily. "What's
bad is that the defensive made that decision. It raises the rather
frightening possibility that she—or the Amnion—have other
responses available, responses we don't know about."
Like what? Koina wanted to ask; demand. She couldn't
imagine what they might be. Despite everything she'd learned
recently, she still had no idea what the real stakes were.
What did this have to do with the meaning of her life?
"Anyway," Warden resumed, "Punisher has been too
badly hurt to finish the defensive on her own. She broke off
the engagement to go after Trumpet. The Amnioni got away."
On that point, at least, Koina understood him. "I guess
you're right," she muttered. Sorrow made her sound bitter.
"That is even worse."
Min Donner's decision may have been justified, correct,
but it would taint the UMCP's already tarnished image.
"The risks are too great," he concluded. "I couldn't wait
any longer. I had to tell Len what was happening."
More and more, Koina's grief came out as sarcasm. "Did
you also tell Holt Fasner?"
"Actually, no." Warden's tone was stiff, but he didn't
pause. "For some reason I've been too busy to contact Holt."
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Warden was already a dead man: the CEO simply hadn't had
time to carry out his execution yet.
"That makes sense," she said trenchantly. "I guess." Of
course Warden didn't want to give the Dragon a chance to
countermand his suicide. "Well, for what it's worth, I concur.
You did the right thing. It was time to inform the Council."
For a moment her intercom emitted a troubled silence.
Then Warden asked uncomfortably, "Koina, what's bothering
you?"
She wanted to retort, Nothing, I'm fine, what makes you
think something bothers me? But she swallowed the impulse.
She was tired of lies. The thought of lying to protect Warden
sickened her as much as ruining him with the truth.
"Do you still want Director Lebwohl to attend the emer-
gency session?" she asked. Indecision weakened her: she
could hardly keep the bereavement from her voice. "Can he
take my place?"
Hashi might enjoy appalling Maxim Igensard with revela-
tions.
"No," Warden returned. "I changed my mind. I need
him here. And Fane might arrange an 'accident' for him down
there. I don't want to risk that. Not until he finishes his investi-
gation."
 Cleatus Fane, Holt Fasner's First Executive Assistant, was
still on Suka Bator. He would certainly be present for the
emergency session.
"I think you're safe," Warden added in a hard tone. "But
even if you aren't, I want you there."
Koina bit her lip. If she meant to tell the truth, she would
have to go further.
"Director Dios—" she began awkwardly. "Warden—"
For a moment she couldn't put her pain into words. But then
she forced herself to say, "Don't ask me to do this. Send
someone else. Anyone—"
"Why?" he demanded at once. "I thought you were glad
for a chance to finally do your job right."
Come on, Koina, she told herself grimly. Say it. Get it off
your chest. Then maybe you'll be able to make up your mind.
When she spoke, her voice was as clear as keening.
"Because this is going to finish you. It'll probably kill
you. No matter what else happens, you'll be ruined. When he
hears what I have to say, Igensard will cut you to pieces. And
the Council won't help you—they'll just sharpen the knives.
You won't have any allies left."
Even brave old Sixten Vertigus, who trusted the UMCP
and believed in Warden—
"I don't want to be the one who makes that happen.
There must be some other way to accomplish"—emotion
thickened in her throat, and she faltered—"whatever it is
you're trying for."
Still Warden didn't hesitate. He must have come to the
end of his personal uncertainties. All his choices were plain.
"Listen to me, Koina," he ordered sharply. "Listen hard,
because I'm only going to say this once.
"I've earned the right to pay for my crimes." His voice
seemed to echo with absolute commitment. "All I want you to
do is help me pay for them effectively. Help me bring some-
thing good out of all these lies and betrayals.
"There's a question you haven't asked me," he went on
before she could demand, cry out, What good? "You haven't
asked if I know why the Amnion are so intent on killing Trum-


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pet. They must be terrified of something. They wouldn't risk
an act of war if they didn't think the alternatives were worse."
He was right. She'd been so taken aback by the things
he'd explained earlier that she hadn't pursued this obvious
point.
"Angus has given us several answers," he grated. "I'll
tell you one.
"Nick Succorso had a mutagen immunity drug. Hashi
gave it to him. But the Amnion don't know that's where he got
it. I think they want to destroy it before he makes it public.
And I think—or Min thinks—Trumpet went to Massif-5 to
find a bootleg lab so Vector Shaheed could analyze the drug."
"Wait a minute," Koina protested in shock and chagrin.
Wait a minute. "A mutagen immunity drug?" Hashi gave it to
him? "Are you saying we have the formula for a mutagen
immunity drug"—the idea was too horrific for words—"and
we've been suppressing it?"
Hints of ferocity glinted in Warden's tone. "On direct
orders from Holt Fasner, yes. In fact, he would have destroyed
the research completely if I hadn't agreed to keep it secret. For
the covert use of DA.
"But ever since Trumpet left that asteroid swarm, she's
been broadcasting the formula. That's something else I've
kept from Holt. If he finds out before you talk to the Council,
he'll get rid of me so fast you won't see it happen."
Oh, Warden, Koina moaned. Her heart trembled in her
chest: it seemed as fragile as a goblet which was about to
shatter on the floor. Fasner ordered you to do that, betray your .
entire species—and you went along with it?
But he wasn't done yet. "Don't you think that should be
made public?" he challenged as if he wanted her to pass sen-
tence. "Don't you think Igensard needs to know about it?" He
might have been asking, Don't you think that's more impor-
tant than what happens to me? "What else is PR for, Koina?"
She couldn't answer. What was PR for, if not for this?
Her duty was obvious: to tell the truth about the organization
she served—and to hold that organization accountable for its
actions. Why else had she come to work here in the first place?
 After a moment she pulled herself together long enough
to say, "I'll be on that shuttle, Director Dios. I'll do my job."
Just make damn sure you do yours.
Then she silenced her intercom so that she wouldn't have
to hear him thank her for agreeing to ruin him. But she didn't
move to get ready. Instead she put her head down on her arms
and let herself grieve.
MAXIM
Special Counsel Maxim Igen-
sard was an ambitious man.
Behind his carefully nurtured appearance of nondescript diffi-
dence, he burned with an incandescent hunger. Everything he
did, he did for one reason, and one reason only: to satisfy that
blaze.
Scruples and doubts rarely troubled him.
His goals seemed so right and necessary to him that he
never questioned them. In fact, he seldom thought about them:
they were too essential to require consideration. Nevertheless
he labored to achieve them with a relentless and single-minded
determination which endured no obstacles. Waking or sleeping
—although by the standards of his underlings and colleagues
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To put what he wanted into words oversimplified it to the
point of falsehood. Mere language gave short shrift to the in-
tensity of his desires, as well as to the prospective glory of
achieving them. However, if he could have been lured or per-
suaded to name his goals, he would have said that he meant to
become the director of the United Mining Companies Police.
He belonged in that position: it was his natural place.
He'd been born to enforce the future of humankind—the vast
majority of whom were nothing more than a clot of stupid
sheep. And to supplant Warden Dios seemed the finest accom-
plishment to which a human mind could aspire.
Unfortunately he was still a long way—a long way—from
attaining his ambition. For that reason his energies were fo-
cused exclusively on the how rather than the why of his goals.
His appointment as the Special Counsel charged with in-
vestigating the Thermopyle case on Com-Mine Station was an
important step in the right direction: it gave him leverage. Now
he could proceed to larger matters.
What he intended, in its baldest terms, was to tarnish
Warden Dios, either directly or through his subordinates, so
thoroughly that Holt Fasner would have no choice but to re-
place the UMCP director. This, however, would inevitably in-
cur Fasner's wrath—which would in turn militate against
Maxim's appointment in Dios' place. To diminish Holt
Fasner's anger, therefore, as well as to subtly demonstrate his
own trustworthiness, Maxim was resolved to attack the UMCP
director in ways which cast no taint on the UMC CEO.
Thus he was outraged by that old fool Sixten Vertigus'
Bill of Severance. It transformed his investigation of the
UMCP into an assault on Holt Fasner: it forced him into the
position of appearing to support a threat which could only
increase the UMC CEO's hostility.
He considered—and discarded—the possibility that he
might reach his goal without Holt Fasner's sponsorship. If the
UMCP were severed from the UMC, it was of course conceiv-
able that Maxim might find himself selected to replace Warden
Dios: conceivable, but unlikely. Taken together, the GCES
Members were as stupid a clot of sheep as Maxim had ever
seen. They were perfectly capable of ignoring his superior
knowledge of the UMCP—as well as his superior abilities—
for the sake of investing some fatuous figurehead with Warden
Dios' authority and power.
Because of this, he was personally and viscerally furious
at Warden Dios and Hashi Lebwohl. Their recent video con-
ference with the Council had dealt him an insidious blow. His
ambitions required that he extract evidence of malfeasance or
defalcation from reluctant, stonewalling opponents. The
importance, the sheer stature, of his investigation was un-
dermined when his opponents voluntarily justified his accusa-
tions. That trivialized him. He wanted to ruin Dios in person:
he gained nothing by simply allowing the UMCP director to
effect his own end.
When the announcement that the Amnion had committed
an act of war reached him—albeit indirectly—from GCES
President Len's office, his first action was to call Cleatus Fane.
Although such contact was premature, sudden crises required
special risks. He wanted to assure Holt Fasner's First Execu-
tive Assistant that he would do everything in his considerable
power to keep the UMC CEO's reputation clean in the forth-
coming emergency session.
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speak with him. Too busy, one of the FEA's aides explained:
under the circumstances the Special Counsel surely under-
stood. In other words, Maxim Igensard lacked the significance
to gain Fane's notice at a time like this.
Bitterly Maxim queried GCES Communications to learn
the truth. But he was informed that for a fact Cleatus Fane was
busy: the FEA had reqqed every uplink channel which hadn't
been reserved by Security, and—according to Communica-
tions—was "emitting enough microwaves to cause sunspots."
Maxim didn't need to ask whom Fane addressed so fever-
ishly. The answer was obvious. UMC Home Office. Holt
Fasner.
Regardless of "the circumstances," Special Counsel
Maxim Igensard had no intention of diminishing himself by
explaining his concerns to a mere aide. Seething like magma
beneath an almost featureless surface, he went to see Abrim
Len in person.
The GCES President had been cast from a different mold
than FEA Fane—if a man so malleable and apprehensive could
be said to have been "cast" at all. "Can't this wait, Maxim?"
he muttered peevishly as he admitted Maxim to his office
suite. "I don't have the time. My intercom is flashing like a
strobe. Suddenly every constituent on the planet wants to flare
his elected representative—God knows why, the newsdogs
haven't picked up on this yet. I just finished talking to Tel
Burnish"—the Member for Valdor Industrial—"who has a lot
more at stake than any of the rest of us, but I didn't know what
to tell him except what we've heard from Warden Dios. And I
haven't even started getting ready. Do you have any idea how
rough preparation goes into an emergency session? More than
I know how to handle, and that's a fact. We've never had an
emergency session. At least not since I became President. Not
since Captain Vertigus first made contact with the Amnion.
"This is going to turn out badly, Maxim. Mark my words.
We're in serious trouble." Circuitously he arrived back at his
point. "I really have no time to talk to you."
Maxim gave President Len's sense of harassment the at-
tention he thought it deserved: in effect, none. On the whole
island the only thing larger than Len's palatial suite of offices
was his staff of aides, advisers, secretaries, receptionists, PR
officers, and—Maxim suspected sourly—therapists. Neverthe-
less he offered commiseration while he diffidently steered the
President toward one of the more private regions of the suite,
away from the flashing intercoms and the tense scurry of sub-
ordinates.
"This is difficult for you, I know, Mr. President," he
murmured. "Your responsibilities must be enormous. That's
largely why I came to see you. If you'll give me ten minutes of
your time, I may be able to simplify your position slightly.''
From Maxim's perspective, Abrim Len was fatuous to the
point of brain-death. He was an intelligent man, however, after
his fashion. " 'Simplify'?" he retorted as he and Maxim
reached a quieter room. " 'Simplify,' Maxim? You must be
joking. In my experience, when a Special Counsel uses a word
like 'simplify,' what he means is that he's about to make my
life miserable."
Maxim managed a thin smile, although he was in no
mood for Abrim Len's sarcasm. "It may seem so at first," he
admitted. "But if you'll hear me out, I'm sure you'll appreci-
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"Fine." The President folded himself onto a deep sofa
like a man who wasn't sure what to do with his limbs. His
teeth seemed to protrude over his weak chin. "I'll listen. At
least this way I won't have to take any more calls for a while."
Maxim sat also. As a matter of policy he kept his physical
profile low: at times he appeared to compress himself into the
smallest possible space. He found he often gained an advan-
tage by giving the impression that no one needed to fear him.
He began at once. A mind like his seldom hesitated.
"Mr. President, you expressed a concern that 'this is go-
ing to turn out badly.' As you say, we are in 'serious trouble.'
But you may not yet have had time to grasp just how 'serious'
the trouble is. My overriding motivation is to prevent the situa-
tion from growing worse—within the context of my duties as
Special Counsel, of course."
"Your sentiments do you credit," Len remarked senten-
tiously. Perhaps he knew that such vacuous comments irritated
Maxim.
The Special Counsel didn't allow himself to be distracted,
however. Instead he became unnecessarily pedantic—an
oblique form of retribution.
"I have received the full text of Warden Dios' announce-
ment that the Amnion have committed an act of war," he
began. The President's office had broadcast it exclusively to
the Members; but of course they had all shown it at once to
their aides and advisers, just as Sen Abdullah had shared it
with Maxim, and someone—Sigurd Carsin, perhaps—had for-
warded it to Cleatus Fane. "It's frightening enough as it
stands. Yet it omits what I consider to be some salient details.
And the implications of those details—and of their omission—
are even more frightening.
"Director Dios states that a Behemoth-class Amnion de-
fensive has made an incursion into human space. This did not
occur near their own frontier—which might be excused—but
rather many light-years beyond the limits of any nonhostile
rationale. In fact, the defensive has broached the Massif-5 sys-
tem, where it was engaged in heavy combat by UMCP cruiser
Punisher."
Len fluttered his hands. "I know all that. I can read."
Maxim ignored the interruption.
"Warden Dios offers no explanation for this incursion,
other than to suggest that the defensive is—or was—hunting
UMCP gap scout Trumpet, presumably seeking to destroy that
vessel." The Special Counsel digressed momentarily. "In this
he must be correct. There is no conceivable strategic benefit to
be gained by an attack on Valdor Industrial. Valdor might well
repulse the assault." The Station was massively armed. "The
defensive might be lost to no purpose."
Then he resumed. "Fortuitously Trumpet has escaped.
And now Punisher has broken off the engagement, leaving an
Amnion defensive alive in human space, in an effort to protect
Trumpet further. Again Warden Dios offers no explanation,
but he patently considers Trumpet—or the people aboard her
—more important than his sworn duty to defend human
space."
By degrees a look of nausea seemed to take over Abrim
Len's weak face. Maxim smiled inwardly as he continued,
although his demeanor gave no hint of satisfaction—or scorn.
"Still without explanation, Warden Dios reveals that
UMCPED director Min Donner is aboard Punisher. No doubt
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rectly in breaking off her engagement."
"We're lucky." The President made an unsuccessful ef-
fort to project confidence. He may have been trying to reassure
himself. "Enforcement is her job. And she's good at it. If she
couldn't finish that defensive, no one could."
Still Maxim plowed ahead, cutting the ground along the
lines he desired.
"I mentioned omissions. Certainly the omission of any
useful account of all these actions is significant. But there are
others.
"Warden Dios neglects to observe that Trumpet is the
vessel which convicted illegal Angus Thermopyle and Com-
Mine Security Deputy Chief Milos Taverner"—Maxim per-
mitted himself a trace of sarcasm—"are purported to have
stolen in their escape from UMCPHQ. And he also fails to
report what Punisher was doing in the Massif-5 system."
Len gave a sound like a low groan. "I suppose you're
going to tell me she shouldn't have been there. We have war-
ships around VI all the time. For good reason."
Maxim nodded to placate the President. "The vessel cur-
rently assigned to the defense of Valdor Industrial is UMCP
cruiser Vehemence. She was sent to relieve Punisher after Pun-
isher had endured a long and, I believe, damaging tour of
duty.
"But Punisher never came to dock at UMCPHQ. As soon
as she entered the gap range restricted for use by UMCP ships,
she altered course and headed outward again." Maxim had
never been able to penetrate the veils of obfuscation which
concealed the heart of UMCPHQ, but his authority sufficed to
extract this kind of information. "Min Donner must have
joined ship then. Earlier she was known to be on-station. We
have reports from her following Godsen Frik's murder."
His tone conveyed no particular emphasis as he con-
cluded, "With the UMCPED director aboard, Punisher left
UMCPHQ control space on a course for Com-Mine Station."
Abrim Len's reaction was a rewarding blend of surprise
and dismay. "What, Com-Mine?" he protested. "Com-Mine?
Not VI?"
Maxim noted with some gratification that Len didn't
question the accuracy of this revelation.
"You begin to see the pattern, Mr. President." He was
sure that Len saw no such thing. "Punisher's stated mission—
to the extent that it has been made known to us—was to guard
against reports of unusual hostile activity along the frontier
near the Com-Mine belt. Yet suddenly we find her in the Mas-
sif-5 system. We find Trumpet in the Massif-5 system, al-
though UMCPDA director Hashi Lebwohl asked us to believe
that Captain Thermopyle and Deputy Chief Taverner had fled
toward Thanatos Minor in forbidden space. And in addition"
—he spoke slowly to give each word its full weight—"by a
coincidence which beggars description, we find a Behemoth-
class Amnion defensive there as well."
The President sighed. "I'm too tired to see patterns,
Maxim." His look of nausea was growing stronger. "I want
them explained to me."
"Very well," Maxim replied as if he were acquiescing.
"Mr. President, I believe that Captain Thermopyle and
Deputy Chief Taverner did not escape from UMCPHQ. I be-
lieve they were sent into forbidden space to commit some act
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able to countenance. Then they fled deep into human space.
This was necessary so that the response of the Amnion would
be unmistakable, and yet would present no direct danger to
Earth. Any threat to Earth would have been too extreme to be
useful.
"Punisher went to the frontier with Min Donner aboard
to ensure that Trumpet was indeed able to flee. Thereafter she
followed Trumpet to Massif-5, where she awaited this incur-
sion.
"Finally I am certain that all these events occurred be-
cause Warden Dios wished it so."
Gradually Len slid downward until his head rested on the
back of the sofa. He stared at the ceiling with his mouth open.
"My conclusion is this," Maxim pronounced. "I am con-
vinced that the director of the United Mining Companies Po-
lice has deliberately precipitated an act of war in order to
stampede the Governing Council for Earth and Space into
withdrawing support for my investigation."
Here he quickened his pace so that the President would
have no opportunity to interrupt.
"Evidence has been coming to light which suggests the
most heinous kinds of malfeasance and corruption. Warden
Dios' probity," his insufferable air of moral superiority, "is
under question, his power is endangered. Therefore he seeks to
protect his position by persuading us that we must not threaten
him now. He wishes us to believe that the risk of challenging
him is too great at a time when we face the possibility of
war."
Abrim Len flapped a hand, asking Maxim to stop. Maxim
complied at once: he was ready to let the President speak.
Len continued studying the ceiling as if it frightened him.
After a moment he muttered, "And you deduce all this from,
what, Punisher's presence near VI? Min Donner's presence
aboard Punisher?"
Maxim's tone sharpened. "I deduce it from the explana-
tions which have been omitted." He made no effort to muffle
his underlying vehemence now. "I deduce it from the sheer
scale of the coincidences involved. And I deduce it from the
knowledge that Warden Dios' position is so precarious as to be
untenable.
"Do you doubt me, Mr. President?" he challenged.
"Then tell me how you account for the fact that Punisher
broke off her engagement with the defensive. Min Donner is
renowned for her unswerving rectitude, as well as for her pug-
nacity. Why would she turn aside from her obvious duty, if
she had not been given orders to let the defensive live—to
reduce the risk that this incursion will become a full-scale
war? Warden Dios desires the threat, not the actuality. His
malfeasance may be so pervasive that the UMCP is no longer
equipped or positioned to pursue a war."
"Punisher was damaged," Len put in weakly. "You said
that yourself. Warden claims she couldn't beat the defensive."
He paused, then added, "That ship has super-light proton can-
non."
Maxim nodded, although he conceded nothing. "No
doubt the director speaks factually. But if you think that weak-
ens my argument, ask yourself why Punisher was chosen for
this assignment. Perhaps it was because she could plausibly
claim that she was unable to destroy the defensive."
There he stopped. He had made his case clear enough for
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dent's official reaction.
Len scrutinized the doom which he apparently saw dis-
played overhead. Despite his slumped posture, his tension was
palpable. Still he refused to look at Maxim. With an attempt at
asperity, he asked, "Maxim, what do you want? When do we
get to the part where you 'simplify' my position?"
The distress he caused Abrim Len gave Maxim a bitter
satisfaction. He was too well focused to show his pleasure,
however. Instead he concentrated on his purposes.
"I have expressed my concerns, Mr. President," he re-
plied, his tone studiously meek. "Clearly they must be pre-
sented to the Council. So much is unavoidable. Humankind's
future rests on our evaluation of Warden Dios' integrity.
"Unfortunately this burden falls to you. I lack the official
standing to bear it for you. As Special Counsel charged with
investigating the Angus Thermopyle case, I have no authority
to address an emergency session called to consider an act of
war.
"What I 'want,' Mr. President," he pronounced with his
utmost diffidence, "is to spare you an unpleasant duty. If you
will grant the necessary authorization, I will take on the re-
sponsibility for prosecuting my concerns," just the sort of
confrontation Abrim Len loathed. "In addition, of course," he
expanded speciously, "I will accept the risk of embarrassment
—or perhaps I should say humiliation—if my concerns are
shown to be false."
Len's limbs twitched. With a jerk, he turned a gap-
mouthed stare toward Maxim. His nausea had retreated into
the background: assessments filled his gaze. He may have
been trying to gauge the scale of Maxim's ambitions. Or he
may simply have been wondering whether he could accept
Maxim's offer.
Finally he closed his mouth, cleared his throat. When he
replied, his voice seemed to come from some other room,
muted by distance. "If you can talk Sen Abdullah into giving
you his formal proxy—and if it's received in my office before
the emergency session—I'll recognize you in his place. It's
irregular, but I can stretch the rules of order that far. You'll
have as much 'authority to speak' as any other Member."
At once Maxim rose to his feet. "Thank you, Mr. Presi-
dent." He already knew that he could obtain Abdullah's
proxy. The Eastern Union Senior Member hated Warden Dios.
Some of his constituents had lost fortunes when Dios had
helped Holt Fasner engineer the bankruptcy and absorption of
Sagittarius Exploration.
Maxim didn't wait for Abrim Len to dismiss him. As
unobtrusively as possible, he left the President's office suite.
By God, Cleatus Fane was going to regret refusing to
speak to him. Special Counsel Maxim Igensard had just dem-
onstrated that he was a force to be reckoned with.
MARC
It was typical of his kind that
the loss of Soar—and of his
fellow Amnion aboard—meant nothing to Marc Vestabule.
The ship itself had been merely a technological artifact:
temporarily useful as an ally; ultimately more interesting for
the methods of production it represented than for itself. Its
human crew was exactly that: human rather than Amnion; sig-
nificant only because they served the Amnion—and might be-
come available for research. And the Amnion aboard Soar



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were expendable. The protein soup from which more Amnion
might be grown was plentiful: any Amnioni could excrete it by
the liter at need. Therefore any individual could be replaced by
another with the same abilities and characteristics.
Even Milos Taverner was not to be lamented, despite his
precious heritage. Physically he was a near-perfect transforma-
tion; better than Marc Vestabule. The Mind/Union had
achieved important advances. But psychologically he was a
failed experiment: he had retained too little of his past iden-
tity. An Amnioni who appeared human, but who thought,
spoke, and acted Amnion, would be too easily detected; there-
fore useless against humankind.
Like all his fellows, Marc Vestabule wasted neither atten-
tion nor emotion on the death of Soar.
On the other hand, the fact that Soar had turned against
Calm Horizons required a great deal of attention. Specifically
it required Marc Vestabule's attention. He had been invested
with decisiveness aboard Calm Horizons. And he remembered
more of his former humanity than any other Amnioni like him.
Because he remembered, he was not replaceable.
Sorus Chatelaine's betrayal had been quintessentially hu-
man: no Amnioni could have imagined—much less carried out
—such an action. Even Marc Vestabule only grasped it with
considerable effort. To contemplate its implications caused
him a form of nausea so fundamental that it might have been
ribonucleic.
Nevertheless he did contemplate them. The dilemma of
Trumpet's escape made that necessary.
Many of his memories were gone, but he could still recol-
lect the end of his time aboard the human ship he had served,
Viable Dreams. He remembered its capture by treachery. He
remembered the vindictive fury of the man who had taken
it into Amnion space in order to sell its crew: Angus
Thermopyle. And he remembered his own desperation—
The Amnion did not comprehend terror or frenzy. They
understood urgency: they were capable of haste. Their dedica-
tion to their own purposes was complete—and completely or-
ganic. But they were not genetically encoded for desperation.
They could not encompass it.
Marc Vestabule still did.
It was the key to understanding humankind. Sorus Chate-
laine had betrayed Calm Horizons—despite the dictates of her
own self-interest--out of desperation. Similarly, desperation
had driven Angus Thermopyle to sell the crew of Viable
Dreams: it drove him and his companions aboard Trumpet
now. And the results of Soar's treason had been disastrous.
Trumpet had fled intact. A UMCP cruiser had received Trum-
pet's broadcast. Beyond question the outcome of Trumpet's
escape would also be disastrous.
Once the desperation was grasped, the nature of the disas-
ter became possible to imagine.
Trumpet would approach some large human station—or
perhaps Earth itself. Alternatively the small vessel might join
forces with its defender, the UMCP cruiser. Then the formula
for the mutagen immunity drug would become broadly known.
Until a means was devised to circumvent or mask the drug,
humankind would be effectively impervious to absorption or
transformation.
That invulnerability might inspire the species to initiate a
war: a war of ships and weaponry; a technological war, which
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Yet even if humankind did not react so extremely, they
would be forewarned of Amnion researches into near-C accel-
eration. Given their mechanistic ingenuity, and their vast
means of production, they might well design weapons or de-
fenses to counter the greater velocity of future Amnion ves-
sels. They might devise the means to acquire such velocities
themselves.
And their efforts would be inspired by Calm Horizons'
own actions, which they would doubtless consider an act of
war, as well as by Trumpet's broadcast.
Lastly—the heaviest blow—the opportunity which the
force-grown template called Davies Hyland represented would
be lost. If a human could be made Amnion, and yet retain the
ability to speak and act and pass as human, the purposes of the
Amnion might be achieved at one stroke. That great accom-
plishment would make possible a war of infiltration and muta-
tion; a war which humankind could not win.
Only an opportunity to study Davies Hyland might serve
to counter the other harms which Trumpet could do.
Sorus Chatelaine's—and Angus Thermopyle's—despera-
tion had created a dilemma which none of Marc Vestabule's
fellows were equipped to evaluate.
He had been invested with decisiveness aboard Calm Ho-
rizons. After a period of rigorous contemplation—and acute
nausea—he concluded that the complex threats of Trumpet's
escape could only be answered by an act of even greater des-
peration.
He decided nothing in isolation. The air of Calm Hori-
zons was rich with communication of all kinds: information
and analysis; emotion and commentary. Pheromones filled
with language the sweet atmosphere which the Amnion
craved. Marc Vestabule was an Amnioni,"alive to the scents
and hues of nucleotidal communion; nourished by it.
Yet he was truly unique among his fellows. Furthermore
they all recognized his uniqueness: they recognized its value.
Without that recognition he would not have been invested. The
conclusions he reached were neither understood nor ques-
tioned. By a common consent of the most profound form, his
uniqueness was granted scope.
The risks were great. Indeed, they were vast. If Calm Ho-
rizons failed and died, the costs would be terrible. And Marc
Vestabule could do nothing to diminish them. Like symbiotic
crystalline resonance transmitters, gap courier drones were dif-
ficult to grow; hugely expensive in time, effort, and expertise.
He was fortunate that he had been supplied with the former.
He had no access to the latter. Therefore if he acted on his
memories of desperation he would be unable to inform or
forewarn his kind of their peril.
Nevertheless when Calm Horizons re-entered normal
space beyond the Massif-5 system, the defensive turned at
once and began spanning the dimensional gap on a direct
course for Earth.
WARDEN
Warden Dios wasn't alone in
the CO Room. Techs sat at
their stations nearby, linking him to every facet of his domain;
listening to their respective communications traffic with re-
ceivers set into their ears so that he wouldn't be distracted by
incessant chatter; studying the same displays and readouts he
watched. He didn't concentrate on what he saw, however: he



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left that to his staff. While they worked, he focused his ener-
gies on trying to think like an Amnioni.
Some of his people—especially those assigned to
UMCPHQ Center—believed that he was prescient. They
didn't know how else to account for the fact that he so often
seemed to be precisely where he was most needed in emergen-
cies. Why was he there, if he couldn't see the future? His
reassuring presence in his personal Command Operations
Room minutes or perhaps hours before some crisis developed
had no other obvious explanation.
But the UMCP director wasn't blessed—or cursed—with
foreknowledge. The searching IR vision of his prosthetic eye
told him nothing in advance. To some extent his apparent pre-
science was simply the outcome of his gift for planning ahead.
For the most part, however, his knowledge was not of the
future, but of himself. He did what he did out of shame and
stubbornness—which was to say, out of fear. He was probably
no more fearful than anyone else. Unlike most of the people
around him, however, he called his fears by their true names.
And he paid attention to them.
That was why he sometimes displayed an almost uncanny
ability to be in the right place at the right time.
This time he was in the CO Room because he feared the
consequences of his own actions.
Lord knew he had enough of them to worry about. Holt
Fasner had ordered him to turn Angus over to Nick Succorso,
so that Nick might then be persuaded to kill the other survi-
vors of Captain's Fancy; all except Davies Hyland, who would
be delivered to the Dragon. Warden had obeyed that order—
and undermined it at the same time. Had his subterfuge suc-
ceeded? If it hadn't, he was finished. But if it had, young
Davies might now have control over Angus. What would he do
with that power?
According to Hashi, Davies may have been force-grown
with his mother's mind. What would Morn do, after experi-
encing so much brutality from Angus—and so much betrayal
from the UMCP?
Vital questions. At another time they might have domi-
nated Warden's thinking. But the specific fear which had
brought him here revolved around a different set of conse-
quences.
Punisher had broken off her engagement with the Am-
nion defensive which had pursued Trumpet from forbidden
space to Massif-5. That was exactly what Warden would have
ordered the cruiser to do. He needed Trumpet's people; needed
them desperately. And he wasn't likely to get them if Punisher
risked her life trying to defeat a far more powerful enemy. He
suspected that if Min didn't bring them to him, he would never
see Morn and Davies, Angus and Vector.
Unfortunately one consequence was that there was an
Amnion defensive loose in human space.
That vessel had failed to kill or capture Trumpet. What
would she do now? How would Amnion minds approach the
dilemma of Trumpet's escape?
Clearly they considered the gap scout worth an act of war,
despite their demonstrated reluctance to hazard their genetic
imperialism in direct combat. They made everything better
than humankind did—ships, weapons, computers—but they
didn't make many of anything except more Amnion. They
avoided open tests of power because they couldn't match hu-
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terms, that defensive was more precious than any five human
ships Warden could name.
So what would she do, now that her incursion had failed?
Would she retreat toward forbidden space?—preserve her
value to her people? Or would she follow the logic of her
intentions against Trumpet in some other direction?
Sitting in the CO Room surrounded by techs and screens,
consoles and communications traffic, helped Warden think as
if he were aboard a warship.
He found it difficult to imagine why the defensive would
do anything except run for safety. He'd learned from Pun-
isher's most recent drone that before Trumpet left Massif-5
she'd begun broadcasting the formula—good God, broadcast-
ing the formula!—for Intertech's antimutagen. Apparently
Vector Shaheed had made quick use of Deaner Beckmann's
bootleg lab. As a result the mutagen immunity drug was now
in effect public knowledge. The formula was recorded in Pun-
isher's datacore. Inevitably it had been—or soon would be—
picked up by someone around VI. And beyond question the
defensive had received it.
Another consequence. Directly or indirectly Warden was
responsible for Trumpet's broadcast. Now he considered its
implications with a strange mixture of horror and hope.
In truth he hadn't foreseen that Trumpet's people might
do something so extravagant. Despite his talent for planning,
he hadn't guessed that they would take on the challenge of
trying to undo decades of covert malfeasance all by them-
selves.
He was dismayed by the fact that the Amnion had learned
the formula for the immunity drug before it could ever be put
to its proper use. At the same time he was excited, almost
exalted, by the sheer courage and daring of what Trumpet had
done. If he was right in his belief that Holt Fasner and the
UMC posed a graver threat to humankind's future than any
alien enmity, then Trumpet's gambit was a veritable beacon of
redemption.
Aboard her a handful of men and women had recognized
a worthy cause when they saw it—and had committed them-
selves to it.
That didn't sound like Nick Succorso. It sounded like
something Morn's parents might have done.
Her son must have received Warden's ciphered message.
Not incidentally, Trumpet's broadcast also didn't sound
like the work of a genetic kaze. As far as Warden was con-
cerned, Hashi's hypothesis had effectively collapsed. To the
extent that Morn was a kaze, she'd been aimed at her target by
Warden himself, not by the Amnion.
So of course the defensive would burn for forbidden
space with all the force of her drives. Of course. The dissemi-
nation of Intertech's antimutagen was only a setback, not a
defeat. For the present, humankind had developed a way to
counter genetic imperialism. But the Amnion were magicians
of biochemistry. Given time, they would certainly devise a
way to neutralize the antimutagen. The alien warship would do
everything in her power to provide that time.
Wouldn't she?
The logic of the situation was plain. Surely the greatest
immediate danger to the Amnion was not the formula itself,
but rather the possibility that humankind would use the tempo-
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And surely, therefore, the defensive would abandon her inten-
tions against Trumpet in order to forewarn forbidden space.
That argument seemed reasonable enough on its face.
Nevertheless it was human reasoning. Warden Dios didn't
trust it.
Instead of easing, his fear settled deeper into his chest;
just behind his sternum. Apprehension seemed to gnaw at the
bottom of his heart like buried skinworms.
What if he was wrong about everything? Had misjudged
everything? What if the Amnion warship did something which
defied human logic?
What if the entire elaborate edifice of his desires came
crashing down right now, when by his own actions he'd made
humankind uniquely vulnerable to disaster?
That thought scared him to the marrow of his bones. He
already had all the culpability he could bear. He didn't want to
carry any more crimes to his grave.
For that reason—and because it was his job—he'd pro-
vided as best he could for the defense of Earth and UMCPHQ.
Eight gunboats and pocket cruisers held various orbits around
the planet, linked to each other by the vast scan net which
covered the whole solar system. The battlewagon Sledge-
hammer was still a long way out; but guns as powerful as hers
would be able to make a contribution within eighteen or
twenty hours. The cruiser Adventurous—old and under-
powered, but still spaceworthy—was closer: the scan net
marked her approach from the far side of the planet. And the
destroyer Valor would return home soon.
If the crisis waited a week to materialize, another battle-
wagon like Sledgehammer might be ready to emerge from the
shipyards.
Unfortunately there wasn't much else anyone could do.
None of Earth's orbital stations had been designed as weap-
ons-platforms. The charters of the commercial stations prohib-
ited heavy armamentation. And UMCPHQ had been built on
the implicit assumption that any war which came this close
was already lost.
Warden Dios wasn't prescient. He was terrified.
Nevertheless he didn't show it. The techs around him
would have needed prosthetic vision like his in order to catch
any glimpse of his fear. He sat solidly in his command chair,
as if he couldn't be moved unless he wished it. His big fists
rested like stones on the arms of his seat. His breathing was
calm; deep and even. His one human eye glittered with a pene-
trating concentration which most of his people had learned to
trust.
The atmosphere in the CO Room—and in UMCPHQ
Center beyond the walls of the Room—was at once more ex-
pectant and more relaxed than it would have been in his ab-
sence. Because he was here, his people sensed that something
was about to happen. At the same time they believed they
would be able to handle it—whatever it might be—as long as
he watched over them.
Therefore he kept his fear to himself. It was transcended
by his determination to fail no one who relied on him: not his
own people; not the GCES; not Morn and her companions; not
humankind. He'd played his game of complicity against Holt
Fasner long enough; perhaps too long. Now he was done with
it.
If he could manage it—and if Trumpet didn't let him
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His only reaction was a lift of one eyebrow when a tech
murmured suddenly, "Director, I have a call for you from
UMCHO. It's CEO Fasner."
Warden nodded an acknowledgment; but he didn't accept
the call immediately. Instead he took a moment to consider
whether or not he wanted to speak to Holt privately. In private
his people wouldn't hear how his master treated him. But they
also wouldn't hear how he responded.
It was time for him to begin showing where he stood.
"Put it on the speakers," he told the tech. "I'll talk to
him here."
"Yes, sir." The tech tapped keys, and the CO Room
speakers came to life with a soft magnetic pop.
Warden turned his head toward his pickup. "Holt," he
said at once. "Can we keep this short? I've got my hands full
here."
" 'Short'?" Holt snorted angrily. He may have assumed
that Warden was alone. Or he may not have cared. "I'm your
goddamn boss, Ward. You'll talk to me as long as I want,
whenever I want."
"That doesn't make sense," Warden retorted. He spoke
as if he didn't know that all his techs were watching him. "If I
spend all my time talking to you, I can't do my job."
"Listen to me:" Beneath the surface of Holt's ire, a
deeper passion boiled and spat. "Talking to me is your job.
You work for me. And right now you're hanging by a thread.
You're precipitating more disasters than I can manage all at
once."
Not long ago, Norna Fasner had told Warden that her son
fears death too much. It distorts his thinking. He wants to live
forever. At the time the idea had baffled Warden. But now he
understood it better. He thought he could hear a hunger for
that impossible achievement in the UMC CEO's voice.
For years now, the whole thrust of Holt's policy toward
the Amnion had been to maintain an uneasy peace. Peace was
essential because it enabled trade; wealth. But if the peace
became too secure, too safe, complacency would set in. The
UMCP—and through them the UMC—would lose their moral
authority, their necessity. Holt's power over human space
would diminish. And that in turn would reduce his leverage
with the Amnion; his ability to extract profits. He'd pushed to
obtain the passage of the Preempt Act for the same reason that
he'd sanctioned the covert—and only the covert—use of In-
tertech's immunity drug: to disturb both the Amnion and hu-
mankind; keep the peace uneasy.
Who benefited from this approach? Only Holt Fasner and
the UMC. And yet the question inevitably arose: why did Holt
care? He was already richer and more powerful than anyone in
the history of the planet. What in God's name drove him to the
acquisition of still more wealth and more power?
Warden had come to the conclusion that Holt coveted
benefits of another kind altogether. Norna had given him the
hint he needed to see Holt's ambitions in a new light.
The UMC CEO had ordered Warden to turn Angus over
to Nick Succorso. In exchange for a ship, as well as for his
own personal cyborg, Nick was supposed to kill everyone ex-
cept Davies Hyland. Holt wanted Morn's son.
If the Amnion could force-grow young Davies and im-
print him with Morn's mind, what was to prevent them from
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all with Holt's mind? What was to prevent the Dragon from
effectively living forever?
If he acquired enough wealth and power to offer the Am-
nion something greater than mere raw materials—human and
otherwise—or technological methodologies, he might be able
to make a deal with them. Like Satan himself, the Father of
Lies, the Amnion kept their bargains.
All Holt needed was a demonstration that the Amnion
were indeed capable of imprinting one human mind on other
—and imprinting it intact. Then he would be able to go ahead.
Warden shuddered at the implications while he listened to
the UMC CEO.
Holt hadn't paused. He was saying sarcastically, "The
Amnion have committed an act of war, in case you didn't
notice. I'm holding you accountable for that—you and your
goddamn covert operations, trusting Billingate to an illegal
like Thermopyle and a known traitor like Taverner.
"Now the votes are going to hold an emergency session.
They'll go crazy. They'll probably think anybody who
twitches a finger is a kaze about to explode." Holt laughed—a
harsh, mirthless sound, like breaking sticks. "I'm holding you
accountable for that, too. Thanks to you and your precious
Koina Hannish, they're all a-twitter with responsibility.
They'll probably try to do something phenomenally stupid,
like declaring war on Amnion space. If Cleat can't soothe
them somehow, you've done us more harm than a whole damn
flotilla of incursions.
"And what are you doing about it? I ask myself," Holt
sneered. "How do you 'do your job'? As far as I can tell, you
seem to think the Amnion are going to attack here next. First
you recalled every warship in reach, which is sure to make the
votes even more panicky, even though a hydrocephalic child
could tell you that defensive is long gone by this time. And
now you've synchronized your goddamn orbit with Suka Ba-
tor."
This was true. With an enormous expenditure of energy,
Center had adjusted UMCPHQ's centrifugal rush so that the
station maintained a position above the GCES island.
"It's like you think we're already at war," Holt finished
mordantly. "And we're losing."
Warden considered shouting his fear at Holt. He consid-
ered silencing his pickup and refusing to speak to the Dragon
again. Then he responded simply, "It's a precaution. I don't
want to be occluded. I don't know what's going to happen." A
heartbeat later he remarked, "I notice you've done the same
thing."
After a series of power-intensive adjustments, UMC
Home Office now sailed the dark little more than a hundred
thousand k away in an orbit which echoed UMCPHQ's.
"Damn right," Holt retorted. "That's because I don't
trust you, Ward. If you don't want to be occluded, I sure as
hell don't. If you decide it's time for something even more
destructive than what you've already done, I intend to react
fast."
Warden jerked up his head. Anger drummed in his heart,
despite his self-control.
" 'Destructive,' Holt? Would you care to be more spe-
cific?"
He meant to preserve humankind, not destroy it. And the
UMCP had a valid function: he intended to preserve that also.
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He'd done everything in his power to make sure Holt
didn't know about Vector Shaheed's broadcast. If the CEO
didn't get that information directly from UMCPHQ, he
wouldn't hear it at all until some UMC flunky on VI picked it
up and sent out a drone. Or until he learned it from Cleatus
Fane at the emergency session. Still Warden wished for confir-
mation.
"That video conference," Holt snapped at once. "Trust-
ing Taverner. Allowing Hannish to tell the votes you're neutral
about a Bill of Severance. Letting kazes roam around at will,
for Christ's sake. Panicking the votes now.
"I want to know what you're up to, Ward. What in hell do
you think you're doing?"
No mention of antimutagens or formulas. Warden nodded
to himself.
"What do you want me to do, Holt?" he countered.
Holt's reply was a snarl in the CO Room speakers. "I
want you to answer the question. I'm trying to decide whether
to fire your ass."
The UMCP director sighed to cover his ire. He was done
acting like Holt's servant; done being the man who did Holt's
dirty work. And he ached to let Holt know the truth. He was
sick of lies. At the same time he couldn't risk being fired. Not
now: not when so many gambles and so much pain had
reached the verge of fruition or ruin. He still had to be careful.
"Mostly I'm waiting for news." Like you. "Information
I can act on."
He'd already given Holt his rationale for his video confer-
ence with the GCES. Long ago he'd explained why he'd cho-
sen Milos Taverner to accompany Angus to Billingate. Now he
pointedly declined to comment on—much less justify—
Koina's response to Captain Vertigus' Bill of Severance.
Instead he continued in a flat voice, "Min has gone after
Trumpet. When she's in range, she'll deal with whoever she
finds aboard. I already have your orders about that. They'll
come home as soon as they can. Then maybe we'll know
where we stand."
Holt's silence suggested that he was withholding judg-
ment.
Warden tightened his grip on himself. Now, he thought.
Do it now. Get it over with.
"As far as those kazes are concerned," he added, "DA
Director Lebwohl and ED Chief of Security Mandich know
who's responsible." His tone belied the threat he wanted Holt
to hear. "When they finish preparing their evidence, I'll make
a public accusation." To forestall an interruption, he stated,
"But I'm not going to name names until I have proof. The
culprit is too highly placed,
"Other than that," he finished as if he hadn't already said
too much, "I'm waiting to see what our encroaching Amnion
defensive does next.
"Is that what you want, Holt? If it isn't, you'd better say
so. In a few more hours it's going to be too damn late for any
of us to change anything. The Council will hold its emergency
session, and we'll have to live with the results."
For a long moment Holt didn't speak. The communica-
tions channel between UMCPHQ and UMCHO brought in
ambiguous hints of static; anger; apprehension. The fear
gnawing in Warden's guts sharpened at the chance he'd taken.
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wouldn't make any decisions until he knew how much danger
he was in.
Finally the CEO said slowly, "I'll accept the rest for
now." He seemed to be restraining fury. "Cleat can handle
the votes. But I don't like your approach to those kazes."
"Too bad," Warden retorted roughly. "The UMC is a
good source of suspects. So is the GCES—hell, so are we. I'm
not going to taint our investigation by discussing it with you,
or Abrim Len, or anyone else. When the time conies to press
charges, I intend to make sure they stick."
"Listen, Ward—" Holt snapped.
"No, Holt," Warden shot back. "You listen. This conver-
sation is on record. My CO staff can hear both ends. I am not
going to taint our investigation by discussing it with you."
Again Holt fell silent. The speakers conveyed a muffled,
arrhythmic series of beats, as if Holt were pounding his fists
on his desk. Warden was certain that Holt would have lashed
out at him in private. Only the potential consequences of being
"on record" restrained the CEO.
Abruptly Holt replied, "I'm going to assume you know
what you're doing." That wasn't a concession: it was a threat
to match Warden's. "I'll let you get on with it for now.
"But when you finish collecting your evidence," he pro-
nounced fiercely, "you will discuss it with me before you
make it public. That's a direct order. Do you understand me?"
Warden sighed. "Of course I do." He'd kept his job.
Unfortunately that relief did nothing to ease his deeper dread.
"I've been taking your orders for years. If I didn't understand
them by now, I would deserve to be fired."
"That," Holt snorted, "is what worries me.
"I'm watching you, Ward. I'm watching everything.
Don't make the mistake of thinking you don't need me."
Warden shrugged to himself. "Is that all, Holt? I still
have a job to do here."
    "Just one more thing." Apparently Holt wasn't done
warning him yet. "I have a message for you.
"I talked to my mother recently. She asked me to tell you
that it isn't enough."
Warden wasn't prescient: absolutely not. But Norna
Fasner might as well have been. With nothing except video
broadcasts and Holt's contrived hints to go on, she'd grasped
what Warden was doing. And she wanted him to succeed—
"Tell her I know that," he answered brusquely.
Before Holt could reply, Warden silenced his pickup, then
ordered his tech to close the communications channel.
Obediently the speakers went dead.
With a shift of his shoulders, he settled against the back
of his seat and tried to relax.
Norna was right. Without Trumpet he was finished. Even
if Hashi and Chief Mandich found the proof he wanted, Holt
wouldn't fall. He could too easily sacrifice an "overzealous"
subordinate and claim innocence for himself. Because he was
the boss, he could even take credit for the UMCP's investiga-
tion. The only effective way to challenge him was by attacking
the UMCP itself; by turning Warden's deliberate complicity
against the UMC CEO. And the only available arena for that
challenge was the upcoming emergency session of the GCES.
So it became Koina's job. Warden had given her every-
thing she needed—except proof. Now his fate was in her
hands.
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Angus' priority-codes, they would make Trumpet's decisions.
It isn't enough.
He couldn't relax. His fear ate at him too keenly.
From the bottom of his heart he hoped that Min's loyalty
to the UMCP—and to him—wouldn't inspire her to get in
Morn's way.
"Director—" The tech's throat was so tight that she
nearly choked.
Her tone caught him; caught the whole CO Room in a
clutch of tension. Instantly alert, he wheeled his seat toward
her.
"What is it?"
The woman swallowed convulsively. "Ship coming in,
sir. Just resumed tard. Too close. Way too close. She's braking
hard, but she's practically on top of us."
Warden flashed a look at the scan displays, saw the ship's
blip perched on a torch of braking thrust. God, she was less
than half a million k out. Numbers scrolled rapidly up the
screen as computers calculated her deceleration rate. The fig-
ures projected that she would be able to stop outside
UMCPHQ's orbit. That was good news—so far. But by the
time she matched the station's velocity she would be within
fifty thousand k.
What the hell did she think she was doing?
"Get me id," he demanded sharply. "Is that Punisher?''
The vector was wrong for Sledgehammer: even if she'd
attempted a blink crossing, she would approach on a different
trajectory. He didn't expect Valor to arrive so soon. And Ad-
venturous was still occluded: the scan net showed her on the
far side of the planet.
"No, sir," the tech forced out. "She isn't broadcasting,
no id, nothing," and she should have, any ship this near sta-
tions and traffic was insane if she didn't broadcast id. "But
that isn't Punisher's emission signature."
Warden started to repeat, Get me id! then bit the words
back. His people knew their jobs: they were working fever-
ishly. Outside the CO Room, Center had become an electric
rush of activity. Traffic officers shouted into their pickups,
urgently hailing the stranger for a response; warning other
ships and platforms; signaling Sledgehammer and Adventur-
ous, as well as Earth's cordon of gunboats and pocket cruisers.
Collision alarms sounded in case the incoming ship didn't or
couldn't complete her deceleration. Klaxons called Warden's
people to defense stations. Techs started charging UMCPHQ's
few guns. He didn't need to shout for id, or anything else.
In any case the fear eating at his stomach had already
answered the question.
"Director!" the tech announced abruptly, "she isn't one
of ours. No signature on record." Therefore she wasn't a reg-
istered human ship. Every ship built legally in human space
filed a complete energy profile with UMCPHQ. If she didn't,
she wouldn't be given permission to dock anywhere. The
woman swallowed again, then finished, "The computer says
she's a Behemoth-class Amnion defensive."
An Amnion warship. For a moment Warden's heart stum-
bled to a halt. Here.
She must have been the same one Min had engaged to
protect Trumpet. Scan made that clear: the vessel's approach
vector was wrong for forbidden space, but right for Massif-5.
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Trumpet had made the Amnioni desperate.
Unfortunately Warden was virtually helpless. UMCPHQ's
cannon were still seconds or minutes away from being
charged. Even if they'd been ready to fire, however, they stood
little chance against a Behemoth-class defensive's shields and
sinks. And the defensive was already near enough to strike.
If the Amnioni attacked, he had no real way to fight back.
ANGUS
Angus was in turmoil. Ma-
chine stresses seethed and
yowled inside him like ghouls: his welding haunted him.
Events and his own choices—the decisions he'd made because
Morn wanted them—had pushed him far out along a limb of
logic for which his programming seemed to contain no clear
instruction-set.
He wasn't allowed to return to UMCPHQ and Earth: his
datacore was clear on that. Until someone coded his release
from this specific restriction, he was supposed to stay away.
But he'd blocked his codes. Nothing Isaac was ordered to do
reached him. Therefore the restriction remained in force.
He tried to subvert it by leaving Morn in command and
Mikka on helm. Hell, he tried to subvert it by leaving the
bridge. He wasn't making the decisions, or putting them into
effect. Surely if he didn't try to break the rules himself, his
computer wouldn't turn against him for letting someone else
do so?
To some extent the gambit succeeded. Apparently his
commands hadn't been written to prevent others from taking
him to Earth. By luck or stubbornness he'd found his way into
an area of ambiguity between imposed limitations; a combina-
tion of actions and circumstances which Hashi Lebwohl and
Warden Dios hadn't foreseen. He could still move and talk and
plan without being countermanded by his zone implants.
Yet he wax going to Earth. And the restriction kept its
force. The conflicting impulses of his computer as it ran its
inadequate decision-routines filled him with pressure and a
strangely impersonal mental anguish, as shrill and weird as
banshees wailing over lost souls. Whenever he tried to think,
he felt that his skull was about to burst through his scalp.
Other restrictions remained active as well. His threats
against Min Donner and Dolph Ubikwe had been pure bluff,
empty starshine: he couldn't hurt UMCP personnel. He'd been
allowed to hit the ED director only because Morn was in dan-
ger. For reasons of his own, Hashi Lebwohl—or Warden Dios,
more likely—intended Angus to defend her. Unfortunately
that was the absolute limit of what he could do. Even when he
struck, his strength was restrained so that he didn't strike too
hard. If anyone had risked facing him down, they would have
learned that his welded impotence still held.
He hated that. It terrified him. He was a convicted illegal
on a ship full of cops, on his way to UMCPHQ; and he
couldn't so much as punch anybody unless Morn was threat-
ened.
In addition he had other problems—problems that had
nothing to do with his instruction-sets.
Morn wanted to tell her story in public—hers, and Vec-
tor's, and his. If she could, she wanted to tell it to the entire
fucking Council. And he was helping her despite a visceral
abhorrence so profound that it made him shudder.
But it was all shit: too much crap for one mere cruiser to
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He hated philanthropists of every description. The stink of
their benevolence sickened him. He knew from experience that
the people who did the most harm were the ones who said they
were trying to do somebody else good. How did they get their
goddamn resources to begin with? By raping and robbing the
same people they said they wanted to help. As a baby he'd lain
helpless in his crib while his mother exercised her madness on
him because people who said they wished to do good kept her
alive.
Morn didn't fit the pattern, however. She'd freed him
from his priority-codes: she kept saving his life. He did what
she asked for reasons as binding as any prewritten command-
ment. He believed her when she told him what she wanted.
And what she wanted—even though it made no sense of any
kind—was to hold the cops accountable for their crimes.
If he let himself think about that, he liked it. It was about
time somebody held those superior bastards accountable. And
her story would make a nice little jolt of revenge for what
Hashi Lebwohl and Warden Dios had done to him.
But he couldn't afford to think about it. He knew it was
doomed. He didn't believe for a second that Min Donner and
Dolph Ubikwe and Punisher's crew and the UMCP and War-
den Dios were going to just stand there quietly while Morn
shoveled disgrace onto their heads. And if they did, he wasn't
sure he would survive to see it. The tumult in his head might
kill him long before then.
Despite his feral grin and confident manner, he felt
packed with ruin, like a sun about to go nova. None of his
turmoil showed as he followed Captain Dolph Ubikwe off
Punisher's bridge. Nevertheless it ruled him.
Captain Ubikwe had said that he was going to his cabin.
To throw up. Angus had accompanied him, intending to keep
him hostage. By the time they'd walked five meters past the
aperture into the main body of the ship, however, Angus knew
he couldn't do it. His datacore might have allowed it: his fear
refused absolutely. If he didn't find some way out of his im-
posed distress soon, he would begin to gibber and drool like an
idiot.
But he was still Angus Thermopyle: welded and con-
stricted; so crowded with other men's malice that there was
hardly room for his own; but still himself at the core. He'd
butchered and raided his way around Com-Mine for years until
his fatal flight from the abyss had brought him into contact
with Starmaster and Morn. He was at his best when he was
terrified.
He followed Punisher's dark, angry captain twenty me-
ters down the corridor in the cruiser's centrifugal g. He fol-
lowed him into a lift upward. But when they left the lift, he
stopped.
"All right, fat man," he announced. "That's far enough.
I've changed my mind."
Dolph Ubikwe turned slowly, his eyes wary. In a deep
voice he grumbled, "You've got a hell of a nerve calling me
fat."
Angus grinned; slapped his belly with a lunatic show of
good humor. "This isn't fat. It's brains. I think with my guts.
That's why I'm still alive."
The captain snorted. "Are you sure you've changed your
mind? Maybe it's just indigestion."
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with you in your cabin to keep you out of trouble sounds good
in theory. In practice it has a couple of problems."
Dolph cocked an eyebrow; waited for Angus to go on.
Dishonestly cheerful, Angus explained, "As far as I'm
concerned, you're the most dangerous man aboard. I'm not
worried about the high-and-mighty Min Donner. She has her
own reasons for letting Morn take over. Hell, she's wearing
them like a shipsuit, she can't hide anything." He dismissed
the ED director with a shrug. "Besides, Morn can handle
her."
"But you don't think you can handle me?" Captain
Ubikwe drawled.
Angus grinned again. "I know you, fat man. This is your
ship. Giving up command isn't easy. Not for you. I think you
don't give a good shit what Director Donner orders you to do.
I think you're already plotting to get your ship back."
Dolph made a show of incredulity. "Like how?"
"I don't know," Angus sneered. "Maybe you've got an
intercom pickup hidden in your san. Maybe you can fart in
code, tell your people to mutiny without saying a word." He
laughed humorlessly. His zone implants projected a manic
amusement which bordered on gaiety. "It might be fun to
watch you, see how you do it. But there's another problem."
"Somehow," Dolph growled, "I know you're going to
tell me what that is."
"Damn right I am." Anger and fear he couldn't express
frayed the edges of Angus' tone. "We're in command at the
moment," Morn and Davies and Mikka and Vector held the
bridge, "but that doesn't change the fact this whole exercise is
a deathtrap. You fucking cops want us dead. Even if you think
you don't, you will. And there're just too goddamn many of
you.
"We need a back door," he pronounced, "a way out."
Dolph didn't react. He simply stared at Angus as if he
thought the illegal had lost his mind.
"Morn doesn't worry about things like that." Angus
gathered sarcasm in place of fear as he went along. "Which is
why she's tough enough to handle your Min Donner. When
she goes, she goes all the way.
"But I don't like it. It makes my stomach hurt."
"Get to the point," Captain Ubikwe said darkly. "I don't
like standing here."
Angus bared his teeth. "You don't really want to go sit in
your cabin." His tone was poisonously sweet. "If you can't
start a mutiny, you'll just feel sorry for yourself. So instead
I'll let you come with me. Help me invent a way out."
"What if I say no?" Dolph countered. "What if I like
feeling sorry for myself?"
"You don't want to do that," Angus promised. "For one
thing, I'll have to tie you up, drag you along—and that's so
undignified. And for another"—he spread his hands—"you
won't find out what my back door is."
Dolph studied Angus speculatively. "Do you really think
you can tie me up and drag me?" he asked.
"I'm a goddamn cyborg, fat man," Angus rasped.
"You've already seen my lasers. And I've got plenty of other
enhancements." His reinforced muscles and microprocessor
reflexes made him more than a match for the captain. "Of
course I can do it.
"But I would rather have help." Abruptly he scowled as
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queen of muscle might end up needing a way out as much as I
do."
Captain Ubikwe considered for a moment. Fury he
couldn't afford to express compressed his lips, tightened his
fleshy cheeks. "Since you put it that way," he rumbled finally,
"I'll go along. For a while, anyway. It'll be interesting to see
how you plan to betray your friends."
Betray—? Angus felt a sudden desire to bury his fist in
the captain's thick abdomen; but his zone implants stifled the
impulse instantly. You sonofabitch! You goddamn cops took
my ship away from me, and you fucking dismantled her! You
don't have the right to accuse me of anything.
Morn was all he had left.
Still none of his turmoil showed. His pain and urgency
were as impotent as babies. "Good," he jeered. "You're
learning to think with your guts instead of your gonads. Some-
day you'll thank me for teaching you how to do that."
Brusquely he turned back toward the lift.
The keypad beside the doors included an intercom.
Watching Dolph sidelong so that the captain couldn't take him
by surprise, he thumbed the pickup toggle. As soon as the
indicators came to life, he drawled amiably, "Bridge, this is
Angus."
A moment passed before Morn's voice answered. "What
is it, Angus?" She sounded thin with distance and strain; ema-
ciated by the small speaker.
Angus didn't hesitate: he was too scared. "Captain
Ubikwe and I are going to visit Trumpet. Clear it for me. I
don't want to have to argue with anybody on the way."
Morn's tone sharpened. "What're you doing, Angus?"
Apparently the effort of outfacing Min Donner, as well as
managing Captain Ubikwe's command, took a toll.
"Don't ask," Angus retorted. "You don't need to
know." Trust me, Morn. Haven't I done everything you want?
I'm just not in the mood to see any of us end up dead. Before
she could reply, he added, "Send Ciro to join us. He isn't
doing you any good. He can help me and Captain Ubikwe."
Ciro could save time and trouble by showing Angus
where and how he'd damaged the drives. And there might be
other possibilities, if Ciro felt bad enough to listen to them—
The intercom hinted at protests. Mikka or Davies—or
even Min Donner—may have been arguing with Morn. But
Morn didn't make Angus wait. "All right," she answered as if
she'd heard his unspoken appeal. "Consider it done. Ciro is
on his way."
At once the intercom speaker clicked silent.
Dolph had planted his fists on his hips as if he was about
to turn stubborn. "What do you want that boy for?" he de-
manded. "He's already scared out of his head. He doesn't
need to help you. He needs treatment."
Angus didn't respond directly. Instead he took Dolph's
arm, drew him back toward the lift. "Come on." Relief and
his zone implants made him positively companionable. "Let's
find out how much the fucking Academy taught you about
drive repair."
Captain Ubikwe opened his mouth in surprise; but he
didn't hold back.
Angus released his grip. With Dolph beside him, he
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WARDEN
Urgent activity concentrated
the atmosphere of Center.
Nearly a hundred men and women sat at their consoles, study-
ing data, typing furiously, barking or croaking into their pick-
ups. Communications alone required at least fifty techs. One
of them hailed the approaching defensive insistently, demand-
ing some kind of response: the others had different duties.
Some coordinated UMCPHQ's efforts to protect itself. Others
organized the cordon of ships; flared tight-beamed warnings
and instructions to the planet's diverse clutter of orbital plat-
forms; rerouted in-system traffic; fielded panic from every di-
rection. A team of specialists managed the massive job of
downloading information—from Data Storage as well as DA's
dedicated computers—to secure planet-side megaCPUs. And
members of Koina's PR staff began the impossible job of pre-
paring Earth's vast population for disaster.
In addition, data techs worked to glean and interpret every
available fact about the alien vessel. Operations sent platoons
to ready the evac boats. Gunners tested targ, charged cannon.
Engineers rotated the station to present its best guns and stron-
gest shields toward the defensive.
The result was a constricted tumult which surged and
throbbed like imminent hysteria.
"Unidentified Amnion vessel, this is UMCPHQ Center."
The tech's voice was already raw with repetition. "You must
reply."
Despite the tension on all sides, however," Warden Dios
presided over the turmoil as if he feared nothing. Swiftly
scrolling readouts and frenetic blips lit his command board,
tracing every action around him. From his CO Room he super-
vised Center as well as UMCPHQ. But he didn't let their
urgency infect him. Impassive as stone, he faced the ruin of
humankind and his own dreams as if he knew exactly what
was about to happen—and what to do about it. His people
needed him now: needed his strength, his clarity. For their
sake—and because this was his job—he appeared confident
and calm; impregnable.
His true fear and shame he kept entirely to himself.
He was responsible for this threat. Directly or indirectly,
he'd caused the alien defensive to come here. Now he had
damn well better do something about it.
For a start, he meant to take a risk which might not have
occurred to five other people on the whole station. Human-
kind's visceral terror of the Amnion was too acute to allow
much room for thought.
"Unidentified Amnion vessel, this is UMCPHQ Center."
"Hit her now," Chief Mandich urged. He'd reached Cen-
ter less than a minute after the klaxons first sounded. After a
quick look at the situation, he'd joined Warden in the CO
Room. "Don't let her come in on us."
Warden turned a one-eyed frown on the ED Chief of Se-
curity.
"What do you think that will accomplish?" His deliber-
ate certainty didn't preclude sarcasm. In any case he had no
energy to spare for gentleness. "Have you noticed the size of
that thing? She's a Behemoth-class defensive. She'll shrug off
anything we can throw at her.
"She isn't firing. She could"—the scan displays indi-
cated that the defensive's guns were charged, her targ focused
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super-light proton cannon." Scan confirmed the information
Min had sent by gap courier drone. "She could pulverize this
whole station in fifteen minutes. And she still isn't firing.
"If you want me to start the bloodshed, tell me why she
hasn't already attacked."
He didn't trouble to add that the danger wasn't limited to
UMCPHQ. His station was in synchronous orbit over Suka
Bator. With her proton gun, the alien could take out the entire
governmental apparatus of the planet. By their very nature,
matter cannon were useless through atmosphere. The air itself
would dissipate the beam long before it reached the surface.
But super-light proton cannon didn't suffer from such limita-
tions. There was no theoretical reason why the Amnion war-
ship couldn't hammer the planet until its crust cracked open.
A Behemoth-class defensive was probably capable of
generating enough power to flatten Suka Bator with her proton
gun while she used her other arms to cut UMCPHQ apart.
That would be catastrophic: the worst of Warden's fears
come to roost on his culpable head.
But she hadn't fired yet.
She would if he struck first. That was inevitable.
"Unidentified Amnion vessel, this is UMCPHQ Center.
You must reply. You have encroached on human space."
"Perhaps she holds back," Hashi suggested, "because
she desires something from us." Despite his air of unconcern
and his disheveled way of walking, he'd reached the CO Room
almost as promptly as Chief Mandich.
"Like what?" the Chief of Security retorted. "If she
doesn't plan to hit us and run, she's on a suicide mission.
She'll never get out of here. Once she decelerates, she's dead.
She'll have eight ships on her back in less than an hour. Nine,
if you count Adventurous. Ten when Valor gets here." He
made no mention of Punisher. "And Sledgehammer's on her
way.
"That Amnioni uses slqw-brisance thrust." He pointed at
a scan readout for confirmation. "She may be powerful as
hell, but she isn't exactly quick. She can't re-acquire enough
velocity to risk tach before Sledgehammer gets here."
Vehemently Chief Mandich concluded, "Whatever she
wants, it won't do her any good. She'll be dead."
Hashi shrugged. His blue eyes gleamed with whetted hu-
mor. "Then perhaps," he offered, "she means to surrender."
" 'Surrender'?" Mandich snorted. "An Amnioni?" His
tone said as clearly as words, You're out of your mind.
Since Captain Vertigus and Deep Star had first made con-
tact with them, the Amnion had never shown the slightest in-
clination to surrender. They may not have understood the
concept.
"In any case," Warden observed firmly, "we can't afford
to shoot first." He had too much to lose—and nothing to gain.
"Right now she has the initiative. I'm going to let her keep it
until I find out what she wants."
Outside the CO Room a hoarse voice went on hailing the
defensive. "Unidentified Amnion vessel, this is UMCPHQ
Center. You must reply. You have encroached on human space.
We consider this an act of war. If you do not reply, we must
assume that your intentions are hostile.
"Our ships stand ready to repulse you. Consult your scan.
You will see that you cannot attack us and live. If you do not
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Chief Mandich couldn't contain himself. "If they aren't
going to attack," he demanded, "why won't they talk?"
"They will," Warden answered evenly. "They just aren't
in position yet."
" 'Position'?" Mandich protested. "They could kill us
now. You said that yourself. What does position have to do
with it?"
Warden shrugged; didn't bother to respond.
"Perhaps," Hashi mused to no one in particular, "that
will become apparent when we see the position she chooses to
take."
Obliquely he hinted that he knew what was at stake.
Mandich glared at the DA director. Possibly he believed
that in a situation like this all positions were the same. If so,
he was wrong. He was a competent Security officer; but he
wasn't equipped to carry the weight of Min's job in her ab-
sence.
"If you do not reply, we must assume that your intentions
are hostile."
The strain of waiting seemed to squeeze sweat from War-
den's heart. Nevertheless he sat still and let nothing show.
"Director," one of the CO techs whispered suddenly,
"she's orienting her guns."
At once Warden turned to face the man. His hands lay
like clamps on the arms of his seat.
"Look, sir." The tech pointed at a screen, where a 3-D
scan projection of the defensive turned: she was firing small
jets to adjust her attitude. "There." He hit keys, and a lumi-
nous pointer marked a spot on the ship's bulbous flank.
"That's her proton cannon emitter. If she has more than one,
we haven't been able to identify it.
"That amount of braking thrust distorts some of our read-
ings. But at this range''—the man faltered, then forged ahead
—"we can be pretty sure what her targets are."
To his cost, Warden himself was past faltering. "And?"
he inquired sharply.
The tech took a deep breath. "There are five matter can-
non aimed at us." He couldn't keep a tremor from his voice.
"At least three of their torpedo ports have a good window.
But her proton gun is aligned on Suka Bator."
Just as Warden feared. For reasons of her own the defen-
sive still hadn't fired. Nevertheless she obviously understood
the tactical possibilities of her situation.
"You have encroached on human space. We consider this
an act of war."
"It's still suicide," Chief Mandich muttered. "Suppose
she's able to kill the Council, destroy us. Hell, suppose she
takes out HO as well. She's still dead.
"And we'll retaliate. We've got nine stations out there, all
of them ready to fight. We've got shipyards and manufacturing
they can't match. We'll strike so hard and deep into forbidden
space they'll think the damage they did here was a slap on the
wrist.
"If they want a goddamn war, we'll make them pay for
it."
Warden didn't bother to reply. Of course the Amnioni
hadn't fired yet. And she wouldn't—not unless he forced her
to it. She'd come here because she'd failed to kill Trumpet.
The mission which had taken her to Massif-5 hadn't changed.
That gave him no comfort whatsoever.
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glasses for a moment, then turned to Warden. In an ambiguous
tone, he asked, "I trust that Director Hannish is on her way?"
His question touched the heart of Warden's dread. "Her
shuttle left an hour ago," he answered dryly. "Unless some-
one starts shooting, she'll reach Suka Bator before that defen-
sive finishes deceleration.
"Under the circumstances, the Council will go into ses-
sion as soon as she gets there. They're receiving all this." He
gestured at the screens. GCES Security had access to the scan
net. In addition the Council would be given data by direct
downlink from UMCPHQ. "Some of the Members probably
wish they could go into hiding. But they're stuck where they
are." They had no time to escape. "So they'll have an emer-
gency session instead."
They couldn't do anything about the defensive, however.
The protection of their planet was Warden's job: they were
helpless. For that reason—and because they were politicians—
they would use the emergency session to assign blame.
"If we can avoid a fight long enough," Warden finished,
"maybe Koina will have time to do her job."
From Center a worn voice continued hailing the Amnioni.
"Our ships stand ready to repulse you. If you do not wish to
be destroyed, you must reply."
Abruptly Warden decided that it was time to take a hand
in events; remind his people that he wasn't paralyzed. "Send a
message to HO for me," he instructed one of his techs. "Ad-
dress it to CEO Fasner personally.
"I don't have time to talk to him, so I'm not interested in
a reply. Just tell him for me that this is my problem." He
indicated the defensive's blip. "I'll deal with it. Advise him to
hunker down and concentrate on survival until I've resolved
the situation, one way or another."
"Right away, sir." At once the tech started coding a
transmission.
Hunker down and concentrate— If Warden Dios had been
a man who wagered for stakes as minor as money, he would
have risked a considerable sum that Holt would do no such
thing. The Dragon would probably use this opportunity to try
to secure his hold on the GCES. In addition he might attempt
to address the Amnioni directly; bluster the alien into negotiat-
ing with him. He might have enough leverage for that: he was
the UMC CEO; the man who supplied the Amnion with all
their legal trade.
If Holt signaled the defensive, Warden would be able to
respond. But the Council was in Koina's hands. He couldn't
help her now. Only Chief Mandich and Hashi could do that.
Or Morn and Vector Shaheed.
Tangentially he wondered whether Min Donner knew that
humankind's future depended on her. And on Trumpet.
He didn't dwell on that kind of speculation, however. In-
stead he followed his message to HO with action of another
kind.
Tapping keys on his board, he opened a station-wide in-
tercom channel. At the same time he routed his channel to
Center so that what he said would reach every human ship and
station around the planet. One way or another, his people
needed to hear from him.
"This is Warden Dios," he announced in a voice as crisp
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"You all know by now that there's an Amnion warship
coming in on us hard. She's a Behemoth-class defensive. That
means she's dangerous. Dangerous as hell. She's armed with
super-light proton cannon. And she has enough other guns"—
he forced a brief touch of humor into his tone—"to make us
all wish we were somewhere else. But I don't think she wants
a fight. She's here to negotiate."
Chief Mandich stared as if he were amazed or appalled;
but Warden didn't pause.
"I can only guess what she hopes to negotiate," he went
on. "She isn't talking yet. Until she decides to communicate,
we'll have to wait. But it looks like we're in no immediate
danger. If we have something the Amnion want, we may come
through this with a whole skin.
"That could change, of course. Especially if someone on
our side gets trigger-happy. So now would be an especially
good time to be sure we don't make any mistakes.
"I'm in no hurry to die myself," he remarked firmly,
"and I don't want to lose any of you, either. I'll do everything
I can to keep us all alive. What I need you to do is follow
orders, be careful, and don't panic."
Don't let an Amnioni this deep in human space scare you
into thinking you would be better off dead.
"I'm counting on you," he concluded. "Dios out."
With a decisive snap, he silenced his intercom.
He found it both ironic and shameful that he asked his
people to trust him at a time when he was responsible for their
danger. Nevertheless this was what he wanted: to face the con-
sequences of his own actions; to stand or fall confronting a
crisis which he himself had brought about.
But he needed Trumpet. Without her he was sure to fail.
Koina had everything she required to confront Cleatus Fane
and the GCES—except proof.
"We consider this an act of war."
Chief Mandich had kept still with difficulty while Warden
addressed UMCPHQ, but now he abandoned restraint. Bris-
tling, he planted himself in front of Warden's station.
"Did I miss something, Director?" he demanded bitterly.
"When did we start 'to negotiate' with aliens that commit acts
of war?"
"Chief Mandich—" Warden sighed; rubbed his human
eye with the heel of one hand. His prosthesis read the Security
Chief's underlying distress and incomprehension clearly; but
he couldn't spare the energy to deal with them. "You're ne-
glecting your duties."
The man opened his mouth as if he'd been slapped.
"You are the Enforcement Division Chief of Security,"
Warden said slowly; harshly. "You're responsible for the pro-
tection of the GCES, and for the safety of our personnel here.
Among other things, that means you're supposed to pursue
your investigation of these kazes"—acid sharpened his voice
—"not stand here telling me how to do my job." For Koina's
sake, he'd specifically instructed the Chief to track down ev-
erything he could learn about Clay Imposs and Nathan Alt. "I
don't need a goddamn running critique, Chief Mandich. I need
evidence.''
"Yes, sir," Mandich replied as if he were choking. His
indignation couldn't withstand a challenge. Warden knew the
man well: he was deeply conscientious—and deeply ashamed
of his failure to ward kazes away from the Council and
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we find anything."
"Do that," Warden returned. "Inform Director Hannish
as well. Inform Director Lebwohl. Then back them up. Is that
clear? I don't know what they might need from you—but if
and when they need it, it'll be urgent."
"Yes, sir," the Chief of Security answered again.
His consternation was plain; too vivid for Warden to ig-
nore. Mandich hadn't done anything to be ashamed of: he'd
failed for the simple, sufficient reason that people with more
power hadn't allowed him to succeed. Rather than let him
leave like this, Warden beckoned him closer.
"Sir?" Uncertainly Chief Mandich approached Warden's
seat.
Warden put a strong hand on the Chief's shoulder and
drew Mandich's head down to his. Whispering so that he
wouldn't be overheard, he promised, "I know what I'm do-
ing."
Chief Mandich couldn't find a reply; couldn't meet War-
den's gaze. His shame was too strong. Without a word, he
saluted stiffly, then turned and left the CO Room, walking like
a man with fire in his bones and no way to put it out.
"It is with some chagrin"—Hashi tilted his head toward
the ceiling as if to convey the impression that he spoke to no
one but himself; that he meant no criticism of Chief Mandich
—"that I find myself wishing for Director Donner's return."
He and Min had never concealed the fact that they loathed and
distrusted each other.
"So do I," Warden murmured. "So do I."
But there was nothing he could do about it. In spite of all
the things he knew and feared, he had to wait like everyone
else.
Helpless as a bystander, he watched the screens with his heart
caught in a fist of alarm and sweat oozing like corrosion down
his chest and sides inside his worksuit.
The defensive continued her approach, remorselessly
hauling down on UMCPHQ as she decelerated. If she felt any-
thing like the trepidation which squeezed Center and the CO
Room, it didn't show in the throaty howl of her drives, the
scan report of her targ, or the unmistakable orientation of her
guns. By now it was clear that she would brake in time to
shadow UMCPHQ's orbit at a distance of little more than fifty
thousand k: point-blank range for her matter cannon.
Hashi had been in and out of the CO Room several times,
humming thinly to himself while he went about his duties; but
he didn't speak of them. All the rest of Warden's people—like
Warden himself—remained at their stations, glued there by
sweat and suspense: by the unquenchable genetic terror of be-
ing so near the Amnion, who could dispense a ruin far worse
than mere cannon-fire and death. One of Center's techs had
hailed the big defensive until his voice gave out: then he put
his transmission on automatic and let his equipment handle it.
Other men and women fielded demands, appeals, and hysteria
from all across the planet. Still others sat with their hands
poised near the keys for UMCPHQ's few guns.
Holt Fasner hadn't demanded Warden's attention; but he
wasn't silent. Several downlink channels connected him to
Suka Bator. And UMCPHQ scan reported that some of HO's
dishes were aimed at the Amnioni. Those dishes were active.
Apparently the Dragon was trying as hard as Center to get a
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couldn't intercept any message tight-beamed between HO and
the alien. Fortunately none of the approaching vessel's trans-
mitters emitted energy in reply.
Finally Warden decided that he'd waited long enough.
Slapping his thighs to snap his techs out of their transfixed
study of the screens, he asked without preamble, "Would you
say that by now she's past the point of no return?"
Despite the tension roiling inside him, he kept his tone
calm and clear.
A woman scrambled to catch up with his question. "Sure
looks like it, sir. Unless she has secrets we don't know about,
she's already lost too much velocity to attempt a gap crossing.
If she comes all the way in, we'll have nine ships"—three
pocket cruisers, five gunboats, and Adventurous—"in position
to hit her before she can accelerate again. Valor should be here
soon. And Sledgehammer is burning now." The tech ran a
quick series of course-and-thrust algorithms. "If that defen-
sive sticks around for eight hours or so, Sledgehammer will
come into range before she can escape into tach."
Warden was ready. "Good enough," he announced. This
was his job: if he couldn't do it now, he deserved the disasters
crowded about him. "She's committed. Now let's find out
what she's committed to.
"Tell Center to stop hailing. Then get me a channel for
that ship. I'll talk to her myself."
"If I may, Director Dios—" Hashi put in thoughtfully
while Warden's staff hurried to obey. "It might be advisable
to leave the initiative with her. The longer she elects to delay,
the stronger our position becomes." He shrugged, then com-
mented with an air of indifference, "If we remain passive, it is
conceivable that Punisher will arrive in time to play a role."
"That," Warden answered at once, "is why I'm not go-
ing to wait any longer. Since our visitor is here anyway, I want
to make sure she deals with me, not Punisher."
Hashi let out a sigh of comprehension. "I take your
point." He adjusted his dirty glasses to obscure his vision.
"My suggestion was unsolicited." A smile twisted his thin
mouth. "Perhaps you will consider it unspoken as well."
Almost involuntarily Warden grinned at the DA director.
"What suggestion?" For reasons he couldn't explain, there
were times when Hashi's sense of humor touched him like a
rush of affection. Perhaps it enabled him to feel a little less
alone.
That helped.
"Director," a tech said, "I have a channel ready."
"Thank you." At once Warden turned to his pickup.
"Unidentified Amnion warship, this is Warden Dios, di-
rector, United Mining Companies Police." His voice seemed
to convey a subliminal resonance, as if without shouting he
could generate the force for an echo. "You have committed an
act of war. We are in a state of war''—he repeated that word
deliberately, reminding the Amnioni that the future of their
respective species was at stake—"and in a state of war I am
the highest authority in human space. I will make the deci-
sions which determine the outcome of your incursion.
"You can no longer escape. Your scan will confirm that
we now have enough firepower to stop you. And more of our
ships will come into range by the hour.
"I'm tired of waiting. You will talk to me now. If you
don't, we will open fire"—he raised a finger to mark the mo-
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With the back of his fist he silenced the pickup.
The CO Room and Center reacted as if he'd run an elec-
tric current through the floor. Men and women seemed to
jump at their boards, despite the intensity of their concentra-
tion a moment earlier. Battle-alerts sounded like wails. Techs
shouted into their intercoms, warning UMCPHQ to brace for
combat; relaying Warden's threat to Earth's ships. "No
mistakes!" an officer barked at the gunners. "Wait for the
order! I'll take the skin off anyone who fires without the direc-
tor's order!"
Ignoring the sudden clamor, Warden made a mental note
to commend the officer's caution. He was confident that the
defensive would reply.
The response arrived in seventeen seconds. With a crackle
of thrust static, the CO Room speakers came to life as if
they'd opened directly on vast distances and hard vacuum.
Across the distortion a man's voice announced, "Warden
Dios, this vessel is the Amnion defensive Calm Horizons." He
sounded at once strangely human and entirely alien. "I am
Marc Vestabule. I have been invested with decisiveness. You
would say that I am the captain.
"Do not open fire. If you do, we will destroy you. Your
scan will confirm that we possess the power to do so.
"It appears probable that you are correct. We also may be
destroyed. During the interval which remains to us, however,
we will crush your station utterly. We will unleash super-light
proton fire upon the planetary island which is your site of
government. And while we can we will wreak all possible
devastation upon your ships and stations.
"Do not fire upon us unless you wish to die."
The transmission ended in a burst of static. Hot-particle
noise seemed to fill the CO Room.
"Marc Vestabule," Hashi said in surprise. "That is a
human name."
Warden could hardly help noticing the same thing. "You
mean the Amnion are using human names for some reason?
Since when?"
"No." By some trick of concentration or misdirection,
Hashi appeared to reach a board without moving toward it.
Rapidly he tapped keys, scanned readouts. A moment later he
reported, "Voice analysis concurs. There are characteristic
sound-production stresses when an Amnioni employs human
speech. They are absent. It appears that the speaker is physio-
logically human. He has a human throat, vocal cords, mouth,
and tongue.
"Unless the Amnion are now able to produce complete
human beings from their own RNA," Hashi concluded,
"Marc Vestabule was once one of us."
Warden nodded. An interesting detail. Maybe a useful
one.
"What does Data Storage say?"
"I've entered an inquiry," Hashi replied. "On short no-
tice the results will be less than exhaustive. However—" He
looked down at the readout, re-positioned his glasses. "Ah,"
he breathed in satisfaction. "The name 'Marc Vestabule' ex-
ists in our files.
"A number of years ago," Hashi summarized from the
screen, "he was among the registered crew of a vessel named
Viable Dreams, an in-system hauler which served Com-Mine
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Dreams was lost without trace, taking her 'Marc Vestabule'
with her. Her fate is—or has been—unknown. Now I speculate
that she fell prey to the Amnion in some fashion."
The DA director paused, then added, "There are other
vocal stresses which would reveal his underlying genetic iden-
tity. They cannot be determined without a referent, however. A
recording of his voice prior to his mutation would provide a
definitive comparison. Again sadly, our files do not extend so
far in his case."
That detail might also prove useful; but Warden let it
wait. Still using the back of his fist, he activated his pickup.
"Calm Horizons, this is Warden Dios." His air of poised
calm cost him less effort now. For good or ill, the delay was
over. He was free to take action. "With a name like Marc
Vestabule, you must have been human once. Maybe you re-
member that our kind likes devastation. Some of us even like
death. You've come a long way to stick your guns in our faces.
Unless you like death yourself, I suggest you persuade us to
hold back by telling us what you want here."
Several of the Center techs stopped what they were doing
to listen. Two or three of them raised their fists in the air.
Empty static filled the speakers for a moment. Vestabule
didn't pause for long, however. Perhaps the decisions he faced
were simple for an Amnioni. Or perhaps they'd already been
made.
"As you say, Warden Dios, my genetic material once re-
sembled yours. I am now Amnion." He stated this as if it were
beyond question. His way of speaking, stilted and strange,
gave the words an intensity his tone lacked. "Nevertheless the
process by which I became Amnion enables me to retain cer-
tain resources of memory, language, and comprehension. For
this reason I have been invested with decisiveness. In dealings
with your kind, my former humanity may assist me to function
effectively. I will exercise my human resources to satisfy the
requirements which have brought Calm Horizons here."
Warden said nothing. He'd presented his demand: now he
waited to see how Marc Vestabule would answer it.
"Warden Dios," the nearly human voice went on, "there
is a matter which I must broach with you. It is an issue of
some complexity, in part because it involves a response to
concerns which have no meaning to us. I alone aboard this
vessel recognize their importance to you. Nevertheless all fu-
ture relations between our species will be determined by the
resolution of this matter. A desirable outcome may only be
obtained by"—he said the word as if it were unfamiliar to him
—"discussion."
Hashi nodded without surprise: like Warden, he'd clearly
expected something like this. But some of the CO staff gazed
at the director as if he'd confirmed his reputation for pre-
science.
"I'm listening, Calm Horizons." Pointedly, Warden
spoke to the ship instead of the man. He wished Vestabule to
understand that he was certain of the Amnioni's allegiances.
"What do you want to discuss?"
"As I say, the matter is complex." Thrust static empha-
sized Vestabule's awkwardness. "In addition I find that my
former humanity is"—he paused, apparently searching for a
description—"difficult to access. 1 cannot—discuss—effec-
tively in this fashion."
Trying to think like the Amnion, Warden guessed that
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concept behind it.
Calm Horizons' "captain" sounded as alien as the phys-
ics of the gap as he concluded, "I must speak to you in per-
son."
Muted gasps broke from a few of the CO techs. Out in
Center half a dozen men and women rose to their feet involun-
tarily and turned to stare into the CO Room. In a rare breach
of discipline, Center's officers didn't call them back to their
duties. The officers themselves studied Warden urgently.
Without transition he felt the fear gnawing at his heart
turn cold and fatal, like super-cooled mineral acid. He didn't
need foreknowledge to sense what was coming.
" 'In person,' " he echoed darkly. Despite his determina-
tion .to appear calm, his tone sharpened. "How do you propose
to arrange that, Calm Horizons?"
Vestabule had his reply ready. "If we are reduced to com-
bat, Warden Dios, the Amnion will lose one defensive. Your
losses will be incalculable—in lives, in ships, in stations, in
manufacturing capacity. This you know.
"To prevent a conflict which must be catastrophic for
you, will you consent to come aboard Calm Horizons?"
In an instant all of Center was on its feet. The CO Room
burst into a babble of protest, quickly stilled. Hashi Lebwohl
gazed at Warden with bemused speculation in his eyes. Even
now he seemed to wish for a show of surprise from his direc-
tor.
Warden ignored them. Between one heartbeat and the
next, he found that he had come face-to-face with his true
doom.
Go aboard Calm Horizons? Confront the Amnion alone;
risk mutation?
For what?
For time, he answered himself grimly. For lives. And for
freedom from the UMC. For Morn and Koina, Angus
Thermopyle, and Sixten Vertigus. Humankind's future was at
stake in a sense entirely different than the one Marc Vestabule
intended.
The UMCP director had been prepared for his own death
ever since he'd turned against Holt Fasner. Still he temporized.
He had to: if he agreed too readily, he would be misunder-
stood—by UMCPHQ as well as by the Amnion.
"Are you out of your mind?" he croaked into his pickup
as if he had trouble recovering his voice. "You come here."
Vestabule had anticipated this counter. Again he was
ready.
"That is not acceptable. If I am apart from Calm Hori-
zons, I am powerless. You may choose to kill me, knowing that
no other Amnioni aboard this vessel is able to replace me. If
you are apart from your station, you retain all the strength of
your ships and platforms. Your position remains intact in your
absence. If we are to discuss"—still the word discomfited
him—"we must meet on equal terms.
"This system is yours, Warden Dios. You must come to
me."
"No," a tech breathed. Another said the same more
loudly: "No." In a moment half a dozen men and women
from Center added their protests: "No. No."
Warden toggled his pickup with a blow of his fist, then
slashed a harsh gesture to silence his people before their rejec-
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from his seat so that he could look out across Center, he
shouted deliberately, "This isn't a democracy, people! I make
these decisions! You do your jobs—I'll do mine!"
 Quiet fell like a shutter on the room. In a rush the techs
resumed their stations, bent over their tasks.
The nearest officer came to the open CO Room door.
"Sorry, sir," he offered uncomfortably. "They just—it's just
that they—"
"I understand," Warden growled back. "Don't worry
about it."
"Yes, sir." The officer left the door and began to make a
show of supervising the people under his command.
Warden took a deep breath to steady himself, then hit his
pickup toggle. "You say you want me to go there, Calm Hori-
zons. Under what conditions?"
"Warden Dios," the former human being answered
promptly, "you will come to us alone and unarmed. We will
hold our discussion under any physical conditions which you
consider necessary or comfortable. When we have attained
mutual understanding and agreement, you will return to your
station."
"Will you let me remain in contact with UMCPHQ Cen-
ter?"
"No. You will not speak to your station until our discus-
sion is concluded."
At the edge of his vision, Warden saw Hashi mouth, This
is a trap. But he already knew that. He concentrated on his
pickup; on the crackling transmission which linked him to his
doom.
"Calm Horizons, you are Amnion. I'm human." The
most irreconcilable of differences. "How can I trust you?"
"Because we are Amnion, Warden Dios," Vestabule re-
plied flatly. "Unlike humankind, we bargain openly. Also we
fulfill our bargains.
"There is this in addition, however. We gain nothing by
harming you. If we kill you, another will take your place, and
hostilities will continue as before. And if we enforce your
mutation, so that you become one of us, the transformation
will be detected by your station. Mutation will cause elisions
of memory which will betray you. At the same time there will
be unavoidable alterations in both your method and your man-
ner of speaking, alterations which your station's instruments
will recognize. You would become one of us, but your station
would no longer obey you, and so we would gain nothing."
Vestabule paused, then added, "You will ask what I offer
in exchange. I offer time, Warden Dios. The benefit of delay is
yours. As your ships draw closer, our peril grows. Every pass-
ing hour diminishes the harm we will be able to commit before
we are slain.
"I accept this in the name of discussion. You must accept
a similar hazard.''
The Amnioni may no longer have been vulnerable to ap-
prehension, suspense, or eagerness. Without discernible inflec-
tion, he concluded, "What is your answer, Warden Dios?"
Roughly Warden closed his pickup. Instead of replying,
he took a moment to consider the nature of his dread.
Vestabule's arguments were about what he might have
expected. They were also realistic. The Amnioni had a clear
grasp on his tactical situation: that was obvious. In a strangely
human sense, he knew what he was doing.
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UMCPHQ.
Risk mutation—?
That, however, wasn't the true name of Warden's fear.
His dread ran deeper.
His complex, insidious attack on Holt Fasner may have
brought about the ruin of his own desires. He'd created a di-
saster which might cost far more lives, resources, and hope
than humankind could afford. A battle now, here, would effec-
tively undo his long preparations: it would neutralize Koina
and Morn, confirm the Dragon's power. In a full-scale war,
with UMCPHQ and the GCES gone, the planet would have no
one left to trust except Holt. And Warden was sure that Holt
would do everything in his power to seize the situation—
This is no ordinary fear of death, Norna had warned. He
wants to live forever. Haven't I seen it? Why do you think he
keeps me damned here? I've spent fifty years paying for what I
see.
Warden Dios had no choice. He desperately needed the
time Vestabule offered him. Weighed against humankind's fu-
ture, the cost to himself was too slight to be measured.
The CO Room techs—and half of Center—watched him
as if they held their collective breath while he punched the
toggle to activate his pickup.
"Calm Horizons, this is Warden Dios." He required all
his force of will to keep his voice steady. "I'll do what you
want. I'll come to you." A mutter of dismay and protest
spread outward from the CO Room, but he ignored it. Instead
he added sharply, "Under one condition."
"Warden Dios, this is Marc Vestabule," the Amnioni re-
turned almost at once. "What is your condition?"
Swallowing panic and old shame, Warden took the next
step along his chosen path.
"Calm Horizons, there are other stations hailing you. So
far our scan says you haven't responded to them. My condition
is that you talk to me. No one else." If I'm responsible for all
this, I will by God be responsible. I won't have the ground cut
out from under me. "If you reply to any transmission that
doesn't come from this station, our discussion is over, and we
will kill you as fast as we can."
His demand appeared to surprise Vestabule. Without
warning, Calm Horizons' transmission vanished from the in-
tervening void: the speakers reported silence and cold static.
Apparently the Amnioni had stopped to deliberate. Try as he
did, Warden simply couldn't think like an alien. He must have
struck a nerve he didn't understand; called himself into ques-
tion somehow.
Biting down curses, he waited for Vestabule's response.
When the former human being replied at last, his tone
was as oddly inflected as before; difficult to interpret. Never-
theless it conveyed an unexpected note of caution.
"Warden Dios, permit me to quote you. 'In a state of war
I am the highest authority in human space. I will make the
decisions which determine the outcome of your incursion.' Do
you say now that you did not speak factually? Is there another
authority which might countermand you? If there is, then I
must speak with that authority, not with you."
Oh, shit! Whatever prescience Warden had must have de-
serted him: he hadn't foreseen this. Possible failures churned
in his guts; numberless deaths; treason beyond redemption—
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said that you 'retain certain resources of memory, language,
and comprehension.' Maybe you can remember that there are
always factions in human politics. By law the authority is
mine. That doesn't mean other people won't try to make you
think you should talk to them instead.
"But no matter who they are, or what they offer you, they
can't control this station. They can't control our ships. Our
defenses take their orders from me. If you make a deal with
someone else, it won't mean anything. I am the director of the
United Mining Companies Police, and I will decide whether
you live or die."
Believe that, he demanded mutely; uselessly. I can't think
like you. Prove you can think like me.
Apparently Vestabule wasn't convinced. "Warden Dios,"
he stated carefully, "we are being hailed by the United Mining
Companies, in the name of Chief Executive Officer Holt
Fasner. Is the United Mining Companies Police not a subsid-
iary unit of the United Mining Companies? Does Holt
Fasner's authority not transcend yours?"
Warden swore under his breath, then snapped into his
pickup, "Listen to me, Calm Horizons. I'm not going to spend
the next several hours teaching a course in human politics."
He let anger mount in his voice until it became as heavy as a
club. "You'll just have to take my word for it.
"You've been 'invested with decisiveness.' So have I.
Warfare is the UMCP's job, my job. Holt Fasner can't prevent
our ships from opening fire. I can.
"You say you have something you want to discuss. You
say we have to discuss it in person. That's your problem, not
mine. You can talk to me about it right now. You can put it on
general broadcast and 'discuss' it with the whole solar system.
Or you can accept my condition and get what you say you
want."
Grimly he finished, "Just make up your mind."
Raising his fist, he poised it to strike his pickup silent.
Some of the CO Room techs looked like they were pray-
ing. Others shook their heads dumbly. A persistent shuffling of
feet from Center gave the impression that most of the staff had
left their stations.
Warden wanted to look up, see what was happening; but
Marc Vestabule's silence held him. His fist hung, paralyzed,
over his pickup toggle. In another moment his hand would
start to shake.
Without warning the Amnioni answered.
"Very well, Warden Dios." Vestabule's way of speaking
was too stilted to suggest concession. "This vessel will re-
spond to transmissions from no station except your own. In
return, you will come to us alone and unarmed so that we may
hold our discussion in person."
Warden's heart lurched as if he'd been given a reprieve;
as if he were eager for a chance to risk his fate aboard Calm
Horizons. "I agree," he replied brusquely. "Dios out."
Instead of punching his pickup, he toggled it with a gentle
tap.
When he raised his head, he saw the entire staff of Center
crowded at the CO Room door.
What—? Despite all his years of discipline and conceal-
ment and will, he was too surprised to speak.
For reasons known only to himself, Hashi put on an air of
lugubrious indignation. He may have feigned vexation to con-
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with a deceptively youthful face and a sergeant's insignia, the
DA director demanded, "What is the meaning of this, young
man?"
The sergeant didn't so much as glance at Hashi: his gaze
clung to Warden like an appeal.
There was too much at stake: Warden needed a minute to
pull himself together. Roughly he scrubbed at his face with
both hands, trying to force his fear and urgency back from the
surface so that they wouldn't show; trying to rub away the
sensation that he'd been touched by death. With an effort, he
reminded himself that these were his people; that it was their
job to serve him, just as it was his job to serve them; that they
hung by his fate.
Slowly he lifted his chin and met the eyes staring at him.
They were somber and distressed, hurt by a shared need
which he couldn't identify, perhaps because he was so full of
his own. The strength of their combined emotional aura
seemed to cry out against him. Some of the women and at
least a few of the men had to blink back tears.
"Sergeant—" He cleared his throat. Ordinarily he knew
all his people; but now for the life of him he couldn't recollect
the young man's name. So much focused dismay confused his
defenses. "Maybe you'd better tell me what this is about."
Stiff with awkwardness, the sergeant could barely speak.
"Please don't think we're shirking, sir." His larynx bobbed
convulsively. "We'll work twice as hard in just a minute. But I
need—we want—"
With a visible effort, he mastered his chagrin. "It's like
this, sir. You can't go. It's wrong. They're Amnion. They de-
stroy people—like they destroyed that Marc Vestabule. We
need you here. If you go, they'll turn you into one of them,
and then we're lost. We won't have anything to hope for.
"We would rather die fighting for you."
A throaty murmur of agreement from the techs made it
clear that he spoke for everyone in the CO Room as well as in
Center.
A bitter retort swelled in Warden's chest, driven by the
pressure of his essential terror. He wanted to shout or wail,
What do you mean, you won't have anything to hope for if I'm
lost? What kind of miracles do you expect from me?
Before his grief and shame became strong enough to crip-
ple his self-command, however, another emotion surpassed
them: a strange pride, unfamiliar and unbidden, that his people
cared for him so much; depended on him so completely.
In another life—a life without the fatal mistake of trusting
Holt Fasner—one moment like this would have been enough
to make everything worthwhile. He might have been able to
believe he'd earned it.
In this life, unfortunately, he couldn't afford to feel pride
or be comforted. The harm of his complicity in Holt's betray-
als wasn't so easily dismissed.
Moving slowly, deliberately, he rose to his feet. As best
he could, he meant to look every one of his people in the eyes;
face them as equals.
"Thank you, Sergeant, all of you." He wanted to
whisper; but he forced himself to speak so that his voice car-
ried across the gathering. "I appreciate your concern"—he
spread his hands helplessly—"more than I can describe in
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enough to believe I'm worth dying for, then you also respect
me enough to know I feel the same way about you. That Am-
nioni wants to talk to me in person. And every hour we don't
fight improves our chances for survival. If I can protect Earth
and keep all of you alive even a little longer by risking my life,
do you really think I could bear to refuse?"
One after another, he met every gaze around him. Then
he straightened his shoulders, squared his chin.
"We are the UMCP. It is our duty—and our honor—to
serve and defend humankind." For years he'd been telling lies
he hated; lies that sickened him: first Holt's, then his own.
Now he told as much of the truth as he could. "My life is a
pretty small thing to risk for a chance to do my job."
And it was a small thing to risk for any chance to make
sure Calm Horizons didn't simply blast Punisher as soon as
the cruiser arrived. That truth he didn't tell. Even now he
couldn't afford to admit how much he depended on Morn—
and Min.
He didn't need his prosthetic vision to see that he'd
swayed everyone except Hashi. Their eyes were bright with
conviction or blurred with tears: the same loyalty and commit-
ment which inspired their protest left them vulnerable to his
response.
To make it easier for them to give him what he needed, he
shrugged ruefully and added, "Of course, doing my job won't
mean shit if you don't all go back to your stations and do
yours."
"Yes, sir," the young sergeant answered in a thick voice.
"Right away." Almost fiercely, he called the techs, officers,
and aides to attention. Like an affirmation, they saluted the
UMCP director as if they were on parade.
As a rule, Warden never returned salutes: he didn't like
them. But he made an exception in this case. How could he
refuse?
Nevertheless he took no time to savor the moment, or
regret it. He was in a hurry. As soon as the crowd dispersed,
he told one of his aides to order his shuttle for immediate
departure.
The thought of delivering himself into the hands of the
Amnion appalled him. He couldn't afford to put it off.
He wanted to be alone. He'd been moving to meet his doom
for a long time, but now that the crisis was upon him he felt a
need to gather his resources; harden his heart. Unfortunately
he didn't get the chance. Hashi Lebwohl insisted on walking
with him to the dock.
Hashi had taken it upon himself to req some supplies for
Warden. Before they left the CO Room, a DA tech had arrived
in a breathless rush to deliver two things which Hashi then
handed mutely to Warden: a breathing mask and an evil-look-
ing black capsule the size of a throat lozenge. Warden had
accepted both, thrust them into his pockets without comment.
Instead of thanking the DA director, he'd allowed Hashi to
accompany him away from Center.
Driven by fears and furies, he set a brisk pace which
made no concession to Hashi's slack-heeled gait. Hashi con-
trived to keep up with him, however.
Hashi held his tongue only until they gained the relative
privacy of UMCPHQ's open corridors. Then, in an unusually
earnest tone, he spoke.
"Permit me to say, Director, that in my view this is a
mistake. The Amnion have nothing to discuss with you. That


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is pure chicanery." He sounded certain. "They desire you as a
hostage."
"A hostage?" Warden knew what Hashi meant, but he
wanted to hear Hashi say if.
"To be used against Punisher," Hashi explained. "How
else can they hope to extract what they want?"
"Punisher isn't here," Warden remarked shortly.
"She will arrive soon," Hashi countered. "Doubtless
Min Donner will invoke Gabriel priority to obtain Isaac's co-
operation. Then both Punisher and Trumpet will return at their
best speed."
Warden had told no one that Holt had ordered him to
betray Angus to Nick Succorso.
"There are benefits, of course," Hashi continued. "Di-
rector Donner will surely silence Trumpet's unfortunate broad-
cast. That threat to the Amnion will be decreased. Therefore
Calm Horizons may be less inclined to open fire on both
Trumpet and Punisher immediately upon their arrival.
"Nevertheless they will aggravate the more general
threat. When they resume tard, they will recognize the nature
of our emergency. They will become part of the cordon clos-
ing around Calm Horizons—their arrival will strengthen us. It
will weaken the defensive's position.
"This Marc Vestabule seeks to purchase the success of
his incursion with the only coin he can be certain Punisher
will respect. The coin of your life."
Warden had just glimpsed how fatal the loyalty of his
people might become. "That," he replied heavily, "is one of
the reasons Min Donner is aboard.''
Min may have been the only UMCP officer capable of
sacrificing the man she served. Certainly she could be trusted
to refuse a direct order—under the right circumstances.
Under these circumstances, that made her as dangerous as
Marc Vestabule.
 "Ah." Hashi's sigh held a note of awe bordering on rev-
erence. "You foresaw this also."
Warden scowled his vexation. "Not this exactly." He was
in no mood to be probed—and he was by God in no mood for
awe. "But something like it."
Hashi didn't stop. "Forgive me, Warden," he pursued. "I
still fail to grasp—"
"Let it go," Warden snapped. "It's my problem, not
yours."
At once, however, he felt ashamed of himself. Hashi had
always served the UMCP with integrity, imagination, and dili-
gence—at least by his own lights. As DA director, his love for
covert schemes and baroque interpretations was a positive vir-
tue. It wasn't his fault that he sometimes misjudged the pas-
sion which impelled Warden's actions.
To soften the impact of his anger, Warden added more
gently, "I'm going to leave you plenty of other things to
worry about."
• "I will do what I can." Hashi sounded uncharacteristi-
cally subdued; diminished in some way. "In particular I will
endeavor to complete our investigation of Clay Imposs and
Nathan Alt."
Just for a moment Warden didn't care about that: he had
no attention to spare for kazes or the GCES. Without warning
he was overtaken by a desire to be understood.
He'd told so many lies and kept so many secrets for so



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long that he could hardly bear it. The thought of boarding
Calm Horizons alone made his self-imposed isolation from
everyone who valued or respected him seem insupportable. He
stood by his reasons for what he'd done. Still he knew that
none of the people he trusted—Hashi, Min, and Koina, Angus
and Morn—deserved the way he'd manipulated and maneu-
vered them. Now he felt a profound, poignant desire to bare
his soul.
He had no time for a real confession—no time, and not
enough courage. But he could give Hashi a hint. For the DA
director, a hint would suffice.
"Listen," he said abruptly. "I have something to tell you,
and I can't wait for another opportunity."
Although the corridors were empty, cleared by the call to
defense stations, he kept his voice low. But he resisted an
impulse to bend his head down to Hashi's. Instead he contin-
ued to stride ahead, forcing Hashi to keep pace with him.
"I had more than one reason for sending Min aboard
Punisher. I wanted to protect her from what's about to happen
on Suka Bator. From being tainted by Koina's revelations.
And I wanted her to help keep Morn alive. In fact, I ordered
her to do that. Because I'm hoping—"
He spoke without glancing aside at the DA director.
"Morn and Angus have already gone beyond my expecta-
tions. Broadcasting that formula, for God's sake! I never
imagined they would have the resources to survive this long
and still cause so much trouble. But I'm hoping for something
more."
Hashi made a small, hissing sound through his teeth, but
didn't respond in any other way.
"When Morn gets here," Warden went on, "I hope"—
pray—"she'll be willing to testify that Angus was framed." If
she did the blow would rock Holt's power to its foundations.
"And if she is willing, Min is the only one of us with enough
moral authority left to make it happen." The Council already
distrusted Hashi. And Koina would effectively ruin Warden
himself. "She might persuade Morn to talk. She can certainly
make the Council listen."
Is that clear enough? he asked Hashi mutely. Do I have to
spell it out?
He wanted Hashi to understand that he'd done everything
in his power to bring all his separate attacks on Holt together
at the same time.
Still Hashi said nothing. After a moment or two the si-
lence compelled Warden to turn his head.
Hashi cleared his throat without returning Warden's gaze.
"Are you bidding me farewell, Warden?" Unexpected emo-
tions congested his voice. "Do you assume—as I do—that
once you've become Marc Vestabule's hostage he will never
release you?"
"Not necessarily." Warden shrugged grimly. "Who
knows what miracles Morn and Angus can accomplish? But I
do assume that whether I live or die I'm going to be charged
with treason."
 He only hoped that Holt would fall with him when he
finally cut all the ground out from under his own feet.
At last Hashi raised his head to look at Warden.
"It occurs to me that I have not thanked you for revealing
the substitution of Captain Thermopyle's datacore." His eyes
emanated a moist heat that Warden had never seen in them
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director's cunning, unscrupulous heart. "That knowledge
shamed me greatly, I had not grasped the true depth of your
intentions. Nevertheless I am grateful. I admire your resource-
fulness. You have allowed me an insight which I value. Like-
wise I value your purpose. And I understand the necessity of
keeping it hidden.
"I will serve you with every resource at my command."
To his surprise, Warden found that his fear had suddenly
shed some of its sharpness. After all, he was a man who loved
the truth far more than his life so far had shown—the truth;
and the people who served him.
Smiling crookedly to himself, he faced forward and kept
on walking.
For a couple of minutes Ha$hi seemed lost in thought.
Then he broke the silence. "Speaking of miracles—
"Warden, have you studied the entire contents of Captain
Thermopyle's datacore?" He'd composed himself: his voice
had regained its habitual wheeze of ambiguity and misdirec-
tion.
Warden shook his head. "I couldn't duplicate your
work." He found it easier to talk now. "I didn't have time. In
any case, I'm not that good. I concentrated on writing new
instruction-sets in regard to Morn. Everything else I left alone.
I didn't even look at most of your code," he admitted.
"Then I should tell you," Hashi said as if he were start-
ing a lecture, "that his design includes several failsafes. Most
I discussed with you. A few I kept secret"—he chuckled
mirthlessly—"for reasons not unlike your own. The prospect
that our lamented Godsen might learn of them disturbed me.
"They take the form of commands which may be invoked
without reference to Isaac's priority-codes. Indeed, they super-
sede all other programming. I believe they will be effective."
Warden didn't know whether to be pleased or horrified.
"Go on," he muttered noncommittally.
Hashi clearly had no intention of stopping. "One such
command," he stated, "enables full, voluntary access to all
his databases. As you know, his primary instruction-sets sup-
ply data at need rather than on demand. But if he hears the
word 'apotheosis' his databases will be released. In effect, he
will know all that we know on a variety of subjects"—the DA
director gave the words a subtle emphasis, as if he meant War-
den to hear something larger behind them—"among them our
ships, UMCPHQ, and many of Earth's orbital platforms."
Warden paused in midstride to stare at the DA director.
" 'Apotheosis'?"
Hashi grinned smugly. "You will understand that I re-
quired a word which he would be unlikely to hear from anyone
but us."
That was true. But still—apotheosis?
With an effort Warden pushed himself into motion again.
Hashi's respiration began to show the strain of matching
Warden's pace.
"Another, similar command will free him from all re-
striction in his response to UMCP—or UMC—personnel.
Hearing the word 'vasectomy' will enable him to harm or kill
anyone who interferes with him. Anyone at all."
" 'Vasectomy'?" Warden shook his head in bemusement.
"Well, damn it, Hashi. Sometimes I'm forced to admire your
sense of humor. I just can't help myself."
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him any good; but he approved of them anyway. He could
imagine—or pray for—circumstances—
"Is there more?" he inquired.
"Just one," Hashi replied shortly. He appeared to lack
the breath for complex sentences. "The word 'sepulcher' will
invoke self-destruct. His zone implants will fry his brain to
jelly."
Warden winced. He'd already done Angus too much hurt:
he didn't like to think that he might be forced to go further.
Unfortunately he could imagine worse fates.
Boarding Calm Horizons alone might be one of them.
Despite Marc Vestabule's promises, the Amnion had nothing
to gain by releasing him.
How much of Vestabule's human capacity for treachery
did the Amnioni remember?
That question gave the fears feeding in his chest new
teeth. He checked his pockets to be sure he still had his breath-
ing mask and capsule. Then he focused on the simple, arduous
task of walking steadily until he reached the docks and his
shuttle hangar.
His shuttle was ready: he headed straight toward it as if
all the doubt and hesitation had been eaten out of him. At the
airlock of the craft, however, he stopped; turned. For a mo-
ment he faced Hashi squarely.
With his crew, the dock personnel, and UMCPED Secu-
rity as witnesses, he announced, "Director Lebwohl, you're in
command while I'm away. Your orders are—" He shrugged,
tried to smile. "Well, just don't do anything I wouldn't do."
Then he added more sternly, "And don't talk to Holt Fasner.
He's my boss, not yours. If he wants' to throw his weight
around, he'll have to do it with me in person."
Hashi didn't reply. He also didn't salute. Instead he an-
swered with an old, oddly formal bow—the elaborate sweep-
and-flourish of a courtier, or a comrade-in-arms.
That was all the comfort Warden took with him as he
entered his shuttle and gave the order to leave dock.
KOINA
The PR director's shuttle was
halfway to Earth when
UMCPHQ reported that a Behemoth-class Amnion defensive
had encroached on the orbital platform's control space.
The crew of the shuttle, Koina's PR communications
techs, and her ED Security guards received the broadcast si-
multaneously on separate channels. At once the crew routed
their reception to the passenger cabin so that everyone could
hear it. After the first shock, however, Deputy Chief Forrest
Ing—again assigned to ensure the PR director's safety—or-
dered the cabin speakers silenced. "If you pipe that back
here," he told the crew sharply, "we won't be able to hear
ourselves think." Instead, he and the PR techs passed around
PCRs so that the passengers could listen to UMCPHQ's trans-
missions and still talk to each other.
For a time, however, no one said anything. They listened
in an eerie quiet, as if they were transfixed or hypnotized. The
crisis was too great to be discussed—or questioned. Over and
over again Koina opened her mouth, but no words came out.
There seemed to be no words she could afford to utter.
A Behemoth-class Amnion defensive had arrived with too
much velocity too close to UMCPHQ. Earlier the station had
shifted to a geosynchronous orbit over Suka Bator. Now the
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like a shaft of coherent ruin at Warden Dios' heart.
Koina couldn't think of anything to say except, What am I
going to do now? Dear God, what am I going to do?
Suddenly the mission on which Warden had sent her to
Earth looked like the biggest mistake of his life. Right now
was the worst conceivable moment for her to begin exposing
the UMCP's derelictions and malfeasances. It didn't matter
that Holt Fasner was the true target of her attack: Warden
would suffer for it long before its implications reached the
Dragon. And the hostile warship was armed with super-light
proton cannon. Therefore anything which undermined Warden
Dios also threatened the UMCP and Suka Bator and all of
humankind. If Earth's defenses were prevented from respond-
ing effectively, the Amnioni's cannon could dismantle most of
the planet.
Now where did Koina's duty lie?
She had no idea.
She ought to say something. She was the highest-ranking
person aboard. Her own people, if not Forrest Ing's and the
crew, would take their reactions from her. She was PR, wasn't
she? Surely it was her job to provide information or explana-
tion; put events in perspective; indicate direction? What else
was a "public relations" interface for?
But she couldn't imagine how to go about it. She didn't
know what she was going to do.
In which case, she asked herself bitterly, what in hell was
she for?
Fortunately Deputy Chief Ing's reaction was of a different
kind altogether. He listened hard to his PCR for several min-
utes. Then he breathed in amazement and pride, "I swear to
God, Director Dios must have seen this coming."
He spoke quietly; but his voice was audible throughout
the cabin. Half a dozen techs and guards jerked around to look
at him as if he'd offered them some kind of hope.
His tone was so unlike Koina's stunned fear that it sur-
prised her out of her paralysis. Although the doubt in her
mouth threatened to choke her, she swallowed it.
"What do you mean?'' she asked softly.
Forrest scowled with concentration. Apparently he was
determined to miss no moment of UMCPHQ's broadcast. He
didn't keep her waiting for a reply, however.
"When Valdor's drone first came in, Director Dios de-
ployed a cordon of gunboats and pocket cruisers all around the
planet. He called Sledgehammer, sent flares for Valor and Ad-
venturous."
This was common knowledge, but Koina didn't interrupt
to say so. She hardly noticed that Ing had sloughed off his
usual meticulous courtesy. Under the circumstances, he had no
deference to spare for civilians.
"None of us understood," he said. "We thought he was
just being cautious. We never imagined something like this.
But he must have. We're as ready as we could possibly be
without knowing which side an attack might come from."
The Deputy Chief closed his eyes like a man visualizing
trajectories and vectors. "Center is pulling the cordon into
position," he went on. "Sledgehammer has been ordered to
burn. So has Adventurous. Valor will be here soon. If that
defensive doesn't attack and run, she'll find herself in a cross-
fire she can't escape. We'll get hurt—but she'll be dead."
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proton cannon, for God's sake. She can destroy UMCPHQ.
She can destroy Suka Bator. Do you call that 'hurt'?"
"All right," Ing growled vehemently. "We'll get hurt
bad. But she'll still be dead."
He took a deep breath to calm himself. "Anyway," he
added with less force, "she hasn't fired. God knows why. And
the longer she waits, the less damage she'll do before we get
her."
Intuitively Koina knew why. The defensive had entered
human space in order to kill Trumpet. But the warship had
failed. So she must have made the logical assumption
that Trumpet—and Punisher—would return to Earth from
Massif-5. The Amnioni had come to intercept them. She
wouldn't attack, wouldn't risk her own death, until she'd made
another attempt on the gap scout.
That odd piece of certainty did nothing to ease Koina's
indecision.
Now that she'd spoken, however, she was no longer stuck.
Gathering her resources, she turned to one of the PR techs.
"Get me a channel to Center, would you? I think I should
check in."
"Right away, Director." At once the woman began tap-
ping keys on the small box which linked the PR director to
UMCPHQ.
The demands on the station's dishes must have been stag-
gering. The tech had to re-enter her commands—and invoke
Koina's full authority—several times before she was able to
report, "Channel's open, Director." Quickly she handed
Koina a throat pickup.
Koina pressed the pickup to the side of her larynx and
announced with as much firmness as she could muster, ' This
is Protocol Director Koina Hannish."
"Center, Director Hannish," an impersonal voice replied
in her ear. "Forgive the delay. We have our hands full."
"I know you do, Center." Koina spoke distinctly to cut
through Center's background hubbub. "I don't want to make
your life even more complicated. I assume that Director Dios
doesn't have time to talk to me. But I need to ask whether he
has any instructions for me. Any message at all?"
Forrest Ing frowned in her direction as if she confused
him—as if he thought everything had been made clear—but he
didn't question her.
"Just a moment, Director." Koina heard the distant flurry
of a keypad. Then Center's voice came back to her PCR.
"Yes, Director Hannish." The man sounded so far away that
he might have been buried in a crypt. "There is a message."
If the defensive opened fire, UMCPHQ was doomed. Most of
the people Koina knew or loved would die in a conflagration
of unnatural physics. "Director Dios didn't ask us to send it
out," the man explained. He may have been apologizing. "It's
coded to be given to you when you call in."
"I understand, Center," she returned, although she didn't
understand at all. "Go on."
"Here it is, Director." No doubt the man was peering at a
readout. "It says, 'Nothing has changed. Go ahead.' " The
voice paused, then added, "I'm sorry, Director. That's all."
"It's enough," Koina pronounced. She didn't want any-
one in Center—or anyone around her—to know that her heart
was failing. "Thank you."
She looked at her tech and nodded. When the woman had
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Instead she rested her head on the back of her g-seat and tried
to pull her torn emotions back together.
Nothing has changed. Go ahead.
It's enough.
No, it wasn't. Not at all. It told her only that Warden
hadn't changed his mind. It did nothing to resolve her di-
lemma.
Despite the fact that an alien warship had taken him by
the throat, he still wanted her to destroy him. Even though
humankind's ability to wage war might collapse in the pro-
cess.
Surely it was wrong to do this now?
The GCES would be terrified: she knew that. Certain
Members would retain the ability to think and plan and serve.
The rest would turn frantic. The threat of mutation had that
effect, even on men and women who were normally stable.
More than anything else the Members would want protection.
And if the effectiveness of the UMCP was compromised, they
would inevitably look to Holt Fasner for their defense; to the
broader, but less tangible strength of the UMC.
In the name of God! It was possible that Fasner would
emerge from this crisis as the Dictator for Life of all human
space.
Yet how could she, Koina Hannish, justify disobeying the
direct orders of her director? Especially when what Warden
had told her to do was: tell the truth?
Any choice she made might have appalling consequences.
She didn't know how to think them through.
She needed help.
It would be dangerous—if not irresponsible—to explain
her problem to anyone. Nevertheless she decided to take the
risk. She was floundering on her own; getting nowhere. If she
didn't do something, she might slip back into paralysis.
With an effort, she lifted her head.
"One more call," she told her tech. "I need to talk to the
UWB Senior Member. Captain Sixten Vertigus."
The woman was distracted by UMCPHQ's voice in her
ear; wild-eyed and vague at the same time. Automatically she
said, "Right away, Director." But when she turned to her
keypad, she seemed to have forgotten how to use it. Her hands
fumbled as she began to route a transmission.
Koina didn't try to hurry the tech. She knew how the
woman felt. While she waited, she thought about what she
could hazard saying to Sixten Vertigus.
The Captain was old; almost ancient: half the time he was
barely awake. But he was the only person Koina could think of
who might understand her dilemma. He valued the UMCP. He
hated the UMC and Holt Fasner. And he believed in the Coun-
cil's responsibility for humankind's future.
Abruptly Forrest Ing leaned toward her from his g-seat.
"I don't think you should do that, Director."
At least he'd remembered to call her by her title.
As she looked over at him—at his hard face and his sol-
dier's eyes—she realized something that she'd never grasped
before. He was capable of killing his enemies. Of spending
lives in order to do his job. All of Min Donner's people
seemed to have bloodshed somewhere in their minds.
"Why not?" she asked noncommittally.
He took the PCR from his ear as if to show that he was
serious. "We can't guarantee you a secure channel," he ex-



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plained. "Not under these conditions. UMCPHQ can't spare
the downlink capacity to relay it for us, and we aren't
equipped to do it ourselves." He seemed to have a prescient
knowledge of what she wanted to talk to Captain Vertigus
about. Chief Mandich must have briefed him thoroughly.
"Somebody might tap in, overhear you."
His concern took her by surprise. "Who would bother?"
she objected. "My God, Forrest, there's a Behemoth-class
Amnion defensive armed with super-light proton cannon com-
ing down on UMCPHQ. Right now the whole planet is at
stake—and Warden Dios is the only one who can do anything
about that. Who's going to care who I talk to, or what I talk
about?"
This was what she needed: someone to argue with; some-
one to get mad at. That energy would help her think.
The Deputy Chief shrugged; but he didn't back down.
"Cleatus Fane?"
He was right, of course. No doubt Holt Fasner would
tackle the crisis of the Amnion warship personally. His First
Executive Assistant's mandate would be to deal with the
Council—and with Koina. She couldn't afford to be dis-
suaded, however.
"Then distract him," she retorted with an edge to her
voice. "While I'm talking to Captain Vertigus, you call him.
Tell him you're calling for me. Tell him—oh, I don't know"—
she fluttered her hands—"tell him I want to be sure he'll at-
tend the emergency session. Make it sound ominous, like I'm
trying to scare him. If you get his attention, I'll probably be
safe."
"All right." Once again Forrest had abandoned defer-
ence. "I'll do it. But. I have to tell you—" He shifted still
closer to her; pitched his voice so low that he might have been
whispering. "ED Security is working its ass off to get the
evidence Director Dios wants for you. If you compromise that,
we won't take it lying down."
He touched an unexpected spring of anger in her. "Don't
insult me, Deputy Chief," she snapped quietly. "Protocol is
my job, not yours. Director Dios has given me my orders. How
I carry them out is between him and me."
He didn't argue the point; but he kept his hard gaze on
her as he jacked his PCR back into his ear and told his own
communications tech to put him in touch with Cleatus Fane.
"Director," Koina's tech offered tentatively, "I have a
channel. Captain Vertigus is waiting."
"Thank you."
With her heart throbbing anxiously, Koina set the small
pickup to her throat and pushed herself as far as she could into
the illusory privacy of her g-seat.
The pickup's sensitivity was her only real protection
against the ears around her. It could read the vibrations of her
larynx even when she subvocalized every word.
As loudly as she dared, she murmured, "Captain Ver-
tigus, it's Koina Hannish."
No one else could hear her PCR. Nevertheless his re-
sponse seemed dangerously loud. He might have been shout-
ing.
"My dear Koina, you astonish me." Despite the tremors
of age, his tone was strangely cheerful. Perhaps he liked emer-
gencies. They may have helped him stay awake. "My own
aides hardly notice me with all this going on. How does it
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Apparently he didn't expect an answer. "Are you all
right?" he went on. "You sound strained." Then he chuckled
dryly. "As if anyone doesn't these days."
She huddled into herself; but that isolation was as illusory
as the protection of her g-seat. She felt small and vulnerable as
she breathed, "I need to talk to you, Captain. 1 need advice."
"That's absurd," he replied at once. "I've never met a
woman who needed advice less than you do. Certainly not
mine."
"I'm serious, Sixten." Koina found it difficult to insist in
a whisper. Speaking softly seemed to emphasize her weakness.
She had a command decision to make—and no experience to
guide her. "I don't know what to do."
He sighed. Volume alone made him sound vexed; disdain-
ful. "Then I suppose you'd better tell me what's troubling
you."
As soon as he offered to listen, she began temporizing.
"This line isn't secure." Even now she feared to name her
concerns. "Do you know if anyone can hear us on your end?"
"My dear Koina," he drawled with bitter humor, "I'm
Captain Vertigus—the Captain Vertigus. I'm notorious for be-
ing old and irrelevant. In any case, I'm usually napping. No-
body here wastes time listening to me."
His sarcasm cut through some of her anxiety. She didn't
want to act like a maudlin waif. She needed to be stronger.
"Well, that's not true, anyway," she replied more firmly.
"After the last session," when the UWB Senior Member had
introduced his Bill of Severance, "Cleatus Fane would proba-
bly kill to know what you'll do next."
He didn't rise to her riposte. Instead he prompted, "So
what's on your mind?"
Go on, she ordered herself. Do it. If she couldn't trust
Captain Sixten Vertigus, she couldn't trust anyone. Certainly
not herself.
"This is hard to say," she began slowly. "There's too
much at stake.
"Of course you know what's going on. You're receiving
the downlink from UMCPHQ," not to mention data from
Earth's scan net. "Obviously the situation is bad enough as it
is. But it could get a lot worse." She faltered, then pushed
ahead. "The timing of this incursion gives me a problem.
"I have some rather explosive information. Information
that damns the UMCP." She barely had enough strength—or
enough conviction—to say the words. "And just about does
the same to Holt Fasner."
"Is it about kazes, Koina?" Sixten interrupted.
"Some of it is," she admitted warily. Without substantial
confirmation from ED Security and DA, Hashi Lebwohl's ac-
cusation against the UMC CEO was purely inferential. "The
rest is worse. For us, anyway."
"And—" he urged.
"I was going to tell the Council about it. Dump it all in
your collective laps. When this emergency session was first
called, all we had to consider was an act of war around Massif-
5. But now the Amnion aren't out there somewhere. They're
right on top of us.
"I'm afraid"—she made an effort to speak clearly—
"it'll be a disaster if I start unpacking our dirty laundry under
these conditions. I'm afraid I'll cause a disaster."
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already thinking of something else.
She started to explain. "I'm afraid—"
Abruptly he cut her off. "Never mind. Forget I asked. I
don't want to know." Without transition he was no longer
willing to hear her. "You'll have to forgive me, Director Han-
nish. I've got work to do."
His dismissal stung her; his manner stung. "Wait a min-
ute," she demanded. "What work?" As soon as she heard the
scorn in her voice, however, she tried to recall it. "I don't
mean to belittle the importance of what you do. But hasn't this
'work' come up rather suddenly?"
Don't push me away—not now. Not without telling me
why.
Sixten sighed again. As if he were answering her ques-
tion, he said, "Maybe you didn't think of this." Her PCR
seemed to multiply his asperity. "Warden Dios is untouchable
right now. He can't be countermanded or overruled. The only
legal way to stop him is to fire him—if anybody would be
crazy enough to do that at a time like this. The 'war powers'
provisions of the UMCP charter give him all the authority he
needs. He can do any damn thing he wants."
"Not quite," Koina retorted. Sixten's unexpected with-
drawal left her acid and angry. "I'm familiar with the law,
Captain Vertigus. The GCES can't restrain or countermand the
UMCP director. But the UMCP charter can still be revoked.
The Council could do it today." Crazy or not, Holt Fasner
could fire Warden, if the Council couldn't. "And if I expose
our secrets right now the situation could get that bad."
Who do you think will take Warden's place? Who can?
But the old Member refused to be pulled back to what she
needed. "I'm sure you'll make the right decision," he said
unhelpfully. "You're a big girl, Koina. You can do your job."
Damn it, Sixten! she wanted to shout. You aren't like this.
What's going on?
Who's listening?
But she couldn't ask him that. It might be dangerous—
While she wrestled with her distress, he spoke again.
"There's just one thing I'm worried about," he offered
impersonally, as if he were discussing the weather with a
stranger. "We have a rumor going around. Even I heard it, so
it's probably true. Apparently Special Counsel Maxim Igen-
sard has been sharpening his ax. And he's enlisted a whole
platoon of Members to help him swing it. He even has Sen
Abdullah's proxy.
"I'm not afraid of your information—whatever it is. But
that ax of Maxim's scares me. If anyone can turn this session
into a disaster, he can."
Sixten's tone sharpened. "Don't play his game, Koina.
Make him play yours."
Then the Senior Member withdrew again. "If my aides
hadn't all gone stupid with fear and distraction," he remarked
sardonically, "I wouldn't be required to do any work. But they
have. And in any case I don't trust them. So it's up to me.
"I need to get ready to reintroduce that Bill of Sever-
ance."
His manner confused her: for a moment she didn't grasp
the import of what he said.
"See you soon," he finished.
He was gone. Her PCR went dead before she could think
of a reply.
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heard him right. Reintroduce that Bill—?
Too late, she caught up with him.
Automatically she took the PCR from her ear, handed the
earplug and throat pickup to her tech. There was no point in
listening to UMCPHQ's broadcast: Center's reports had
stopped making sense to her. Reintroduce—? She couldn't
tear her mind away from the sheer audacity of Sixten's inten-
tions.
"Did you get what you wanted, Director?" Forrest Ing
asked. His tone suggested discipline rather than politeness.
She shook her head, not in denial, but in amazement. "He
was too far ahead of me," she said unevenly. "If he was
younger—and knew what we know—he could probably handle
this mess without us. We wouldn't even need to be there."
But Sixten Vertigus did need her: she knew that. He
didn't have a prayer of succeeding; not against Cleatus Fane's
corruption and Maxim Igensard's ambitions. Not unless she
carried out Warden's orders. And even then it might go for
nothing, unless Chief Mandich and Hashi Lebwohl did their
jobs in time.
Indirectly the UWB Senior Member had helped her.
Somehow he'd changed the nature of the stakes she was play-
ing for in Warden Dios' name.
MORN
With Morn Hyland in com-
mand, Davies on guard, and
Mikka Vasaczk supervising helm, Punisher made her damaged
way across the void in the direction of the Earth.
Despite her injuries, the cruiser could have covered the
distance more swiftly than she did. But Morn refused to allow
Emmett on helm to use more than one g-thrust for course
adjustments or acceleration. You've been through hell, she told
Min Donner. So have we. We all need the rest.
That slowed their progress. Simply bringing the vessel
around to a heading for Earth required several hours. And
without more velocity Punisher's gap crossings were trun-
cated: she had to translate herself across deep space more
often, in smaller increments.
Finally she was hampered by the navigational instability
caused by her core displacement. Here again Morn gave orders
which reduced the cruiser's accuracy and cost time: she main-
tained internal spin when Punisher went into tach. This was
dangerous under any circumstances. Internal spin increased
the ship's inertia, which diminished her responsiveness. She
became more vulnerable to surprises when she resumed tard.
But now the hazards were multiplied by the fact that her core
no longer spun true. Her orientation in her own gap field was
subtly altered: her crossings often produced navigational errors
of 200,000—or even 400,000—kilometers. Helm had to com-
pensate for each discrepancy before the ship could risk her gap
drive again.
This decision Mom explained as she had the other:
There's no hurry. We're tired, we need normal g. And that was
true. Human bodies were bred for g. The lack of it exhausted
them.
In addition, this region of space had been charted many
times. And Punisher was off the main lanes, unlikely to en-
counter another ship. The chances of a surprise were small.
The rest of her reasons Morn kept to herself.
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leaden waiting. For reasons of his own, Angus was busy
aboard Trumpet, assisted by the improbable combination of
Captain Ubikwe and Ciro. The rest of Morn's companions—
Davies, Mikka, Vector—occupied themselves as best they
could.
 From a discreet distance, Davies kept an uneasy watch on
Min Donner. He'd resolved the denials which had alienated
him from Morn earlier: he was committed to her now. Dog-
gedly he did what he could to protect her.
Nevertheless his position aboard Punisher created a con-
flict of another kind for him. Morn knew that, even though he
hadn't said anything about it. Most of his mind was still filled
with her memories, conditioned by her experiences. And that
part of him hadn't been complicated by the particular changes
which she'd experienced since his force-grown birth. For him,
treating Min Donner as an enemy must have hurt like an act of
self-violence.
Morn knew how he felt. She knew it too well.
But he had a separate problem as well, one which she
only understood because she'd spent so much time under the
control of her zone implant. His heightened metabolism made
him restless. His body was too highly charged to sit still. He
needed constant movement, duties, exertion. When he was in-
active his own energies ate him alive.
At intervals he had to take his eyes off the ED director
long enough to get some exercise. Thrusting his gun mutely
into Morn's hands, he would burst into a run, sprinting fever-
ishly around and around the bridge until sweat splashed from
his skin, unabsorbed by the fabric of his alien shipsuit. Then
he would return to the command station, retrieve his handgun,
and resume guarding Min Donner.
Nevertheless the hours passed heavily for him, and he
grew gradually frantic under the strain. He was almost literally
dying for something to do; something extreme or desperate
enough to make him whole.
As for Mikka, Nick's former second stood like clenched
iron at Emmett's shoulder, watching everything he did as if
she were prepared to watch helm forever. When—at Min's
insistence—the bridge officers were relieved, and Emmett's
place was taken by Punisher's helm third, Mikka maintained
her supervision. Angus' demand for Ciro's company had dis-
turbed her concentration briefly; but she hadn't objected to it.
Her only concession to her mortality was that she'd removed
the bandage from the nearly healed wound on her forehead so
she could see better. After that she'd kept her vigil like a
woman who had no defense against despair except the duties
Morn had given her.
Characteristically phlegmatic, Vector appeared to take a
less arduous view of the situation. Once he'd confirmed that
Punisher's copy of his broadcast was accurate and ready for
transmission, he became—in a sense—superfluous. He was
useless with a gun; inexperienced at astrogation. For a while
he talked to no one in particular about his time at Intertech:
about his anti-mutagen research; about the experience of hav-
ing his work stripped from him on the whim of a UMCPDA
computer. In his oblique way, he was stating his loyalties so
that everyone—especially Min Donner—would know where
he stood.
After that, however, he announced to Morn that he needed
sickbay. Internal spin may have benefited everyone else, but it
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much g recently; for too long.
She feared to let him go. He would have made a useful
hostage if Punisher's crew had chosen to oppose her. But Min
intervened. She used the command intercom to warn the ship
that Vector Shaheed was on his way to sickbay, and that any-
one who interfered with or troubled him would be liable to
court-martial. With no discernible concern, he left the bridge.
When he returned he belted himself into a vacant g-seat
and went effortlessly to sleep.
Min herself took an occasional nap. Like Davies and
Mikka, Morn stayed awake.
That may have been easier for her than it was for her
companions. She'd had far more sleep. But she couldn't have
rested in any case. Inside its cast her arm itched acutely, nag-
ging her with memories of gap-sickness and pain. And as she
skipped the light-years toward Earth, the confidence she pro-
jected to protect herself frayed; slowly went to tatters in the
stellar winds of the void. Alarm and chagrin took over her
fretted heart. An insidious sense of wrongness corroded her
intentions—and she had no difficulty identifying its sources.
One was the dismaying fact that Punisher had let Calm
Horizons live.
The Amnioni's survival was bad enough; dangerous
enough. Samples of Morn's tainted blood remained safe
aboard her. She'd heard Vector's broadcast, receiving his for-
mula. But the threats didn't end there.
Earlier Calm Horizons had allowed Trumpet to escape:
the warship had chosen to defend herself rather than kill her
target, even though the apparent logic of the situation indicated
that Trumpet's death was essential. The Amnioni's decision
might be explained by the argument that she couldn't be cer-
tain of destroying her target, and therefore couldn't risk being
destroyed herself. However, Morn could think of other expla-
nations—
At first she'd believed that the Amnion had decided to
live so that they could return to forbidden space with their
knowledge of Vector's immunity drug. But by now she'd had
time to imagine other terrors. Was it possible that the Amnion
could attack or neutralize Trumpet in other ways? Did they
have other ships like Soar—human ships in human space,
waiting to ambush the gap scout? Had they made covert agree-
ments with Holt Fasner to undermine humankind's future for
the sake of his profits?
Entirely apart from the reasons she'd given Min, Morn
maintained internal spin precisely because it slowed Pun-
isher's progress. She wanted to reach Earth later than her ene-
mies might expect. That way she could hope to catch them
already deployed and visible, rather than lurking out of sight
behind her. Spring the ambush before she stepped into it.
Unfortunately other stresses wore at her as well.
She hadn't told Min Donner anything like the whole truth
about what she was doing, or why. She hadn't discussed her
fear of Holt Fasner's—and therefore the UMCP's—reaction to
her intentions. And she'd made no mention of what could
happen to her if Punisher risked hard g, either now or later.
Nevertheless as time dragged on she believed more and more
that Min had already penetrated her secrets.
Despite the obvious inadequacy of Morn's explanations,
the ED director didn't press her. As closed as stone, Min ac-
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only when Morn asked something of her, or when she thought
the cruiser's people needed attention. To that extent, at least,
she appeared to consider herself nothing more than a surrogate
for Captain Ubikwe. Yet something in the nature of her unre-
sponsiveness conveyed the impression that she knew about
Morn's gap-sickness.
Initially that confused Morn. Then, however, she remem-
bered the weeks Angus had spent in UMCPDA's hands, being
welded. Min probably knew everything that Angus had ever
known about Morn, or done to her, or desired from her, up to
the time when Nick Succorso had snatched her away from
Com-Mine.
Min knew about Morn's zone implant—
Morn had grown accustomed to Angus' knowledge; to
Mikka's, Davies', Vector's. Familiarity inured her to it. But
the thought that the ED director also knew filled her with
shame; as aggrieved and unanswerable as the burning in her
damaged arm. Min Donner was the moral authority on which
the entire Hyland family had built its beliefs and commit-
ments.
And Morn had killed most of that family with her own
hands. In some sense she'd killed herself: the Morn Hyland
who'd served UMCPED no longer existed. Only Davies re-
mained to uphold the allegiance of the Hylands.
As the journey dragged its length across the stars, Morn
found it increasingly difficult to face Min without breaking
down into explanations or appeals which might cost her more
than she could afford.
Min Donner might be as honest as steel: the UMCP was
not. Behind her stood men like Hashi Lebwohl and Warden
Dios; men with ambiguous intentions, harsh desires. And be-
hind them loomed the Dragon in his malice. Regardless of her
personal integrity, Min bore a kind of borrowed corruption.
Borrowed or imposed—
Morn kept as much of her own truth to herself as she
could.
From time to time—again at Min's insistence—Pun-
isher's bosun brought food to the bridge. This was not for the
duty officers, who could visit the galley when they were re-
lieved, but for Morn, the others, and herself. Morn ate what
she could. Vector roused himself to eat, but seemed more in-
terested in coffee. Mikka gulped sandwiches where she stood.
When Min had taken as much as she wanted, Davies devoured
the rest.
Nothing else passed the hours except the studied litany of
reports from helm and scan: descriptions of navigational errors
and open space; announcements of course corrections or tach.
No other vessels left blips or particle trails across the cruiser's
course. Communications heard nothing. Whatever Calm Hori-
zons intended, she'd apparently lost her strange ability to track
Trumpet's movements.
By slow increments the distance to Earth diminished.
Angus brought Captain Ubikwe and Ciro back to the bridge
shortly after helm announced that Punisher would soon be
ready for the last gap crossing to Earth.
By then the rotation of watches had returned most of the
officers Morn had first seen to the bridge: a woman named
Cray on communications; Porson at scan; a shy, awkward
young woman to the data station; a truculent, square-fisted
man on targ. Only the helm officer was different: instead of
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Captain Ubikwe saluted his people gruffly as he arrived.
Ignoring Morn, he faced Min. "Is my ship all right, Director
Donner?" he asked in a tired rumble.
Min's gaze had a sardonic cast as she referred the ques-
tion to Morn.
The sound of voices roused Vector from a final nap. He
looked up, straightened himself in his g-seat; smiled a ques-
tion at Ciro, but didn't speak.
Davies' face showed relief. He may have been reassured
by Angus' return. Or he may have been glad to see that Angus
hadn't hurt Captain Ubikwe.
Morn was troubled by the sensation that her features had
gone numb. She rubbed her cheeks with her good hand, trying
to bring them back to life. She would reach Earth soon, after
all this time; after so much death and pain. As the weariness of
her long vigil accumulated, it seemed to feed her shame. Soon
she would be so tired that only her inadequacies remained.
"We haven't done anything to risk her, Captain," she
answered. "You know that." He could interpret the gentle
interaction of Punisher's spin and thrust as well as anyone.
"Your people have been cooperative, for which I'm grateful.
Director Donner insisted, so we've rotated the watches pretty
regularly. There hasn't been any trouble." Distantly she
added, "No sign of any other ships."
That was about to change, of course. Morn hoped to re-
sume tard as close to UMCPHQ as possible, in the UMCP's
dedicated gap range if helm could manage it. As soon as the
cruiser entered Earth's solar system, the traffic squall of navi-
gational buoys would reach her, and the scan would fill up
with blips.
Punisher would have to be much more careful.
Captain Ubikwe grunted an acknowledgment. Something
in his tone—or his manner—tugged at Morn's attention.
He seemed tired to the bone: Angus must have kept him
busy almost continuously. But behind his fatigue lay an adjust-
ment of some kind; an amelioration. He looked like he'd been
reconciled to the plight of his ship.
Angus must have told him something—
Morn turned to Angus; but he didn't meet her gaze. In-
stead he studied the display screens, absorbing everything he
could about the ship's position and status. He, too, had
changed—but it was a change she recognized. He emanated
ferocity as if his zone implants' emission had risen to an en-
tirely new level.
He was getting ready to fight for his life.
"Are you all right, Dolph?" Min asked quietly.
The captain shrugged his heavy shoulders; glanced at
Angus like a man who didn't know how much he was allowed
to say. Angus didn't react, however. After a moment Captain
Ubikwe sighed.
"Just tired. I haven't done that much crawling around in
small spaces since the Academy. But I guess we're finished."
"Finished with what, Captain?" Morn asked. Angus
hadn't told her why he wanted both Dolph Ubikwe and Ciro
aboard Trumpet.
Dolph shrugged again. "We fixed the drives. Both of
them. Sort of. They test green. Readouts sure as hell look
stable. But I wouldn't want to pin my life on that gap drive."
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calibrate the hysteresis transducer. Not without activating the
drive. So Captain Thermopyle did it by guesswork. I don't
care if he carries the specs for the entire created universe
around in his head. You can't calibrate the transducer without
activating the drive. That gap field could disassemble the
whole ship and leave it drifting in tach like so much dust."
"Captain Thermopyle," Min drawled, "I don't suppose
you'll consider telling us why you think you need Trumpet's
drives?"
Morn also wanted an answer; but Davies distracted her by
gesturing for her attention. When she turned to see what he
wanted her to notice, she found herself peering hard at Ciro.
More than either Angus or Captain Ubikwe, he'd become
different. He wore a look of hooded concentration; of focus he
meant to conceal. Somehow the guilt and horror tormenting
him had eased. Or they'd taken root—grown to a kind of
clenched, inarguable hysteria. He met no one's eyes; hardly
raised his head. But from under his lowered brows, his gaze
glinted with intention.
Mikka hadn't seen him yet. She stood rigid at her post
beside Patrice, her back to her brother.
Mikka, Morn wanted to say. Mikka, look. What's hap-
pened to him? What did Angus do to him? But Angus stopped
her by replying to Director Donner.
"Sure." Abruptly he turned from the screens. A grin
bared his yellow teeth. "I'll tell you. Your precious Hashi
Lebwohl programmed me to think about things like survival.
Keeping people alive. Morn doesn't do that, so it's up to me.
Trumpet gives us a way off this ship. If we need it."
Morn studied him in wonder and alarm. Was that really
what he was doing—compensating for her weaknesses, her
blind spots; her instinct for self-destruct—?
When I'm in trouble, she'd once said to Davies, the only
thing I can think of is to hurt myself. I need a better answer.
Was Angus trying to help her find one?
But at once Dolph put in heavily, "That's not the whole
story. Maybe it's true as far as it goes. But he has a pretty
extreme notion of 'survival' and 'keeping people alive.' We
had a real shouting match about it. He showed this poor
kid—"
Angus whirled on Captain Ubikwe. "Stop right there, fat
man!" he barked. "I warned you. This doesn't have anything
to do with you." He raised his fists. "It's not too late for a
little BR surgery."
Rolling his eyes provocatively, Dolph closed his mouth.
But Ciro spoke before Angus could prevent him. "He
showed me how to use the singularity grenades." He might
have been staking a claim; announcing who he had become.
"Arm them. Launch them. Detonate them. Suck everything
into a black hole." He smiled—a grin as thin as a cut. "Like
Free Lunch. And Nick."
Showed me—
That shocked the bridge—which may have been Captain
Ubikwe's purpose. Involuntarily the duty officers stopped what
they were doing and stared. The woman at the data station had
gone pale. The man on targ chewed curses under his breath.
—how to use—
"Ciro!"
Crying her brother's name, Mikka flung herself around to
face him. Vector flinched in consternation.
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For an instant Morn feared her heart would fail. Acid
mortality burned inside her cast. With one stroke, Angus had
taken away her control of the situation; transformed it into a
confrontation charged with blood and coercion. He'd turned
Ciro into a pawn in a struggle she hadn't foreseen and
couldn't imagine.
Suck everything into a black hole.
And she'd let him do it. Despite all the pain and abase-
ment he'd inflicted on her, she'd trusted him. Trusted his im-
pulse to stand by his commitments to her; trusted his gratitude
at being freed from his priority-codes.
Trusted his core programming—and the men who'd de-
signed it.
Like Free Lunch. And Nick.
"Christ, Angus!" Davies shouted hotly. Heedless of his
assignments, he dropped his watch on Min to face his father.
"What the hell do you think you're doing? Don't you suppose
he has enough problems already?"
Min didn't need to be guarded. She'd made it plain hours
ago that she accepted Morn's command. In some way the ac-
tions of Trumpet's people suited the ED director. Nevertheless
she didn't take Ciro's revelation calmly.
"Ensign Hyland!" she snapped like the crack of a whip.
"You told me these people were under arrest. That makes you
responsible for them. But a man in your custody has just given
highly classified and dangerous information to a known illegal
who also happens to be a kid hardly old enough to know his
own mind.
"This is on the record, Ensign. If you thought you could
protect these people by posing as the arresting officer, you're
wrong now. Their conduct incriminates you as well as them."
Abruptly Patrice remembered his duties. He looked down
at his readouts. "Captain," he announced to Dolph, "in five
minutes we'll reach our tach window on UMCPHQ's gap
range. If we miss it, we'll have to decelerate to compensate."
Five minutes? Only five?
Angus had shown—
"Ensign Hyland," Min demanded severely, "is there
anything you would like to say?"
Yes! Morn thought; almost wailed aloud. This isn't what I
wanted! The stakes were already too high. I didn't know he
was going to do this!
She'd killed most of her family. Now she was about to
become the cause of even more death.
But when she looked at Angus, the naked appeal on his
face closed her throat. Without transition she felt that she'd
been translated back to Mallorys Bar & Sleep. He was saying,
I accept. The deal you offered. Her black box in exchange for
his life. I'll cover you. He might have been thrusting the con-
trol to her zone implant into her hand again: the need which
wracked his gaze was the same. I could have killed you. I
could have killed you anytime.
Fiercely she forced down her dismay; her weakness. She
didn't want another zone implant control—or anything like it.
But this wasn't Mallorys, or Com-Mine: it was Punisher.
Angus had shown Ciro how to use the singularity grenades.
The grenades were aboard Trumpet, however, and Ciro was
here. Whatever Angus had in mind wasn't immediate. She
could take the time to think about her choices; try to under-
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"Helm, I want fifteen minutes." The steadiness of her
voice amazed her. She sounded like a woman who still knew
what to do. "Nudge braking thrust enough to cover the differ-
ence."
Patrice referred the question to Dolph. "Captain?"
"Do it, Sergei," the captain rumbled. "Ensign Hyland is
in command. This is her mess. Personally, I'm curious to see
how she gets out of it."
Morn nodded. "Thank you, Captain." As soon as Patrice
began tapping keys, she felt the viscid drag of Punisher's de-
celeration tug her against her belts.
Not enough pressure to threaten her—
She didn't wait for the stress to end. Facing Angus again,
she demanded grimly, "I need an explanation."
"I need an explanation!" Davies moved through the iner-
tia of braking toward Angus, clutching his handgun as if he
meant to use it. His eyes bulged like his father's. "God damn
it, Angus, he's hardly older than I am! Isn't there anybody you
aren't willing to sacrifice?"
Angus flung a snarl over his shoulder at Davies. "You
mean 'sacrifice' the way you 'sacrificed' Sib Mackern? You
think sending him out to die just so you could get rid of Nick
is better?"
That stopped Davies: he couldn't answer. He lowered his
gun until it dangled at his side, useless to him.
Mikka might not have heard Angus and Davies; or Min
Donner. She'd begun to shiver as if she were straining at a
leash, held back by ropes from breaking out into blows and
fury.
"Ciro, " she groaned deep in her throat, "what in God's
name has he done to you?"
Abruptly Ciro retorted, "Stop it, Mikka. You aren't the
one she gave a mutagen to. I am. You don't have any idea what
it's like, knowing you have to kill everybody you care about."
He turned his head to look at Angus. "But he does."
"Sib volunteered," Vector offered quietly. He studied his
former second as if he could see the boy dying. "It sounds
like Ciro did too." Then he shrugged sadly. "He has as much
right as Sib to make his own decisions."
Angus rasped at Davies, "You listening to this, boy?" He
jerked a thumb in Vector's direction. "Sib did what he wanted.
So is Ciro. The only difference is, you liked what Sib did."
"I love this," Captain Ubikwe snorted. "You're all as
charming as snakes. Exactly what did you do to poor old Sib?
And what's this about a 'mutagen'?"
Trumpet's people ignored him. Min kept her attention fo-
cused on Morn and Angus.
Angus still faced Davies. "Well, I don't give a shit what
you think. Ciro is working for me now. Instead of kicking him
into a corner like a goddamn puppy, I'm giving him something
to do."
"Angus"—Morn raised her voice to make him hear her
—"that's not good enough!" Did he call this a better answer?
"I'm not interested in how you justify yourself. I want an
explanation.''
Angus tore his gaze away from Davies to meet Morn's
demand. His whole body was vivid with fury: he looked like
he might spring for her throat. But then he seemed to take hold
of himself, fight down his vehemence. He may have had some
measure of control over his zone implants; may have used
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supplication.
He didn't speak as if he were begging. Nevertheless Morn
saw that he was in the grip of an old terror: the same mortal
dread which had ruled his life. Driven by that darkness, he'd
offered her her black box in exchange for his own survival.
Stiff with reined brutality, he answered, "I don't believe
Min fucking Donner here is as pure as you think, and I don't
believe you can protect any of us. Least of all yourself. One
way or another, the cops are going to feed us our guts before
this is over. That's their job."
The corners of Min's jaw knotted, but she betrayed no
other reaction.
"You can probably face that," Angus told Morn. "Hell,
you can probably face anything. But I can't. I am not going to
let Hashi Lebwohl and his surgical apes get their hands on me
again."
He moved toward her until he could close his fists on the
edge of the command board. Strain whitened his knuckles. He
ignored Min and Dolph and the duty officers; Ciro and Mikka;
Vector and Davies: Morn may have been the only person
aboard who truly mattered to him.
"I'll back you all the way," he promised. "As far as I
can. Until you fail. What you want to do can't work. The cops
have all the muscle—and muscle always wins. But I don't care
about that. I owe you. I'll try anything to help you.
"But I've already been welded once. I won't go through
it again. When I run out of choices, I'm going to take Trumpet
and leave. And I'll take Ciro with me. He's my insurance. If
I'm too busy to do it myself, he can launch enough trouble to
let us get away."
He bowed his head momentarily, took a deep breath, then
looked at her again.
"Morn, trust me." Traces of pleading left his tone raw.
"If you can't do that, trust him." A twitch of his head indi-
cated Ciro. "He's right. None of you understand what Sorus
Chatelaine did to him. I can use that."
"Use it?" Mikka wheeled on him, her eyes burning like
black suns. "You sonofabitch, use it?"
"Yes!" he retorted. His gaze clung to Morn; but he pro-
jected his voice to the entire bridge. "As of now, this whole
damn ship has been taken hostage. You are going to follow
Morn's orders, and you are going to fucking like it. Other-
wise—"
"Otherwise," Ciro finished for him, "I'll go back to
Trumpet and set off a grenade." He made the idea sound sim-
ple enough to be sane. "I know how. I know all about it."
And he might be able to do it. If Angus escorted him.
Captain Ubikwe nodded as if he understood; as if Morn
and Angus and Ciro had finally reached the point which had
changed his attitude toward being deposed from his command.
Before anyone else could react, he cleared his throat loudly
enough to catch even Mikka's attention.
"He's protecting us, Min." He faced the ED director for-
mally, with his shoulders square and his chin up, as if he were
expecting a reprimand. Embarrassment twisted his mouth: he
didn't like defending Angus. Still he went ahead. "Sounds
silly, I know. But he did a lot of talking while we were seques-
tered in Trumpet. Pretty oblique, most of it—but I got the
impression he's willing to cover our asses as well as his own."
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muttered softly; warning him. "You aren't talking sense any-
more."
Dolph cleared his throat again. "It's like this. The threat
of a singularity grenade makes us innocent. We haven't been
'derelict in our duty.' We haven't 'given aid and comfort to the
enemy.' Nobody can challenge us for letting Ensign Hyland
take over—or for letting her do anything else she wants." His
voice took on a subtle ring; a hint of excitement or hope. "The
Dragon himself can't challenge us. And he can't fault Director
Dios, either. Not when Trumpet is carrying singularity gre-
nades, and a kid who's already lost his mind knows how to use
them."
When he stopped, his words seemed to echo off the bulk-
heads for a moment, as if their potential refused to die away.
Mikka stared dismay at him. For her he might have been
speaking in an alien language. Perhaps nothing he said could
have penetrated her transfixed distress. But Vector had begun
to grin—a harsh smile, whetted by recognition or remorse.
Davies shook his head slowly, muttering to himself. Captain
Ubikwe's explanation didn't match Ciro's coherent lunacy.
Nevertheless Angus bared his teeth as if he defied argu-
ment. He hadn't wanted the bridge to know how he'd involved
Ciro—but apparently he liked Dolph's conclusions.
"It won't work." Min's tone cut through the hints of
resonance. "Captain Thermopyle is a welded UMCP cyborg.
Holt Fasner knows that, even if the Council doesn't. He'll
assume Angus is acting on my orders. Or Warden's. He proba-
bly won't believe Angus doesn't answer his priority-codes
anymore."
Morn winced inwardly; took a deep breath and held it to
steady her racing heart. Holt Fasner knew? The possibilities
Captain Ubikwe had raised seemed to vanish as quickly as
they'd appeared.
His shoulders slumped. He ducked his head to cover a
scowl of disappointment. "In that case," he answered in a
growl, "I guess it's up to you. Ensign Hyland has the com-
mand station. You've let her sit there all this time." He might
have been saying, You let her have my ship. "But you just
reminded her she's responsible for the people in her custody.
You used the word 'incriminates.' Are you going to try to stop
her now?"
"No," Angus snapped defensively, "she isn't. And you
aren't either. I don't give a shit what Holt Fasner thinks. My
priority-codes don't work anymore, and I'll kill the first ass-
hole who interferes with Morn.
"You want to try me, be my guest. We don't need you
anymore. We'll go back to Trumpet. Put a grenade in one of
your thruster tubes and leave. You'll have some real excite-
ment the next time you try to maneuver."
His threat seemed to dominate the bridge; but Min wasn't
swayed by it. "Don't lie to yourself, Captain Thermopyle,"
she responded. "You need us. Morn needs us. And she knows
it. She wants to go to Earth. We're her safe-conduct. Without
us she might as well stay away."
She faced Morn as if she expected Morn to agree with
her.
Clenching with tension, Davies waited for her reaction.
Angus had misjudged his leverage. Morn herself had
thought it looked stronger than it was.
She felt crowded in by secret desires and conflicting exi-
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frustrate purposes she didn't understand. For days she'd had
the nascent impression that she and her friends were groping
to find their necessary roles in some huge, blind contest be-
tween Warden Dios and Holt Fasner; a contest with stakes so
high they appalled her. She couldn't begin to guess what form
the struggle took—or what it had to do with her. Still her
sense of being enmeshed in a bitter and covert battle grew
sharper all the time.
Inadvertently, perhaps, Min had given her confirmation.
The ED director might have ceded Punisher to her for any
number of reasons; but fear and uncertainty weren't among
them.
One way or another, the UMCP had delivered Morn to
Nick. Nick had been allowed to take her off Com-Mine. Yet
Angus' programming had compelled him to rescue her.
And later the same transmission which had supplied Nick
with Angus' priority-codes had also enabled her and Davies to
end Nick's control. Now Angus had blocked those codes alto-
gether.
Could Holt Fasner know that as well? Min believed not.
Could Warden Dios? Angus had said he did.
But when UMCPDA welded Angus, Warden had in-
formed Holt Fasner. Not the GCES.
The time had come for better answers.
Morn couldn't resolve her dilemma by simply taking
what the UMCP director did on faith. She had to make her
decision by staking everything on the people she knew best.
Angus and Davies. Mikka and Vector. Herself.
From Captain Ubikwe's g-seat she replied to Min and the
rest of the bridge.
"That's true," she admitted slowly. "But this whole dis-
cussion is beside the point." I'll back you all the way. "I'm in
command. And I don't care what you think about it." But I've
already been welded once. I won't go through it again. "I've
made my decision.
"I'm satisfied with Angus' explanation."
Harsh relief flared in Angus' eyes, and Davies winced;
but she didn't pause.
"I command this ship," she insisted, "and I'm going to
command her until we do what we're going home for. Ciro
will stay here, on the bridge." Away from the grenades.
"We'll all stay here. But I won't consider myself under your
authority again until we've done the job we set out to do."
Without flinching she met Min Donner's gaze—and her
own shame.
For a long moment no one spoke. No one appeared to
move. Then Captain Ubikwe shifted his weight. Still scowling,
he muttered in a heavy voice, "I don't know about you, Min,
but I'm practically dying to find out what that 'job' is."
Slowly Min turned toward him. Her hard eyes and strict
mouth revealed nothing: whatever she felt was contained by a
smoldering self-discipline. She let him see that she was sure—
of herself; of what she wanted. Then she shifted her gaze back
to Morn.
"It still matters what I think," she pronounced. "Don't
tell yourself it doesn't. You don't command the UMCP—or
UMCPHQ. If you want me to let this go, you'll have to con-
vince me." Before Morn could ask, How? she went on, "Tell
me what happened to Ciro. Tell me about Nick Succorso and
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She might have been saying, Tell me what kind of people
you've become.
The question surprised Morn. And yet it made perfect
sense to her. Like her, the ED director had to take a position
based on less than complete information. Morn hadn't re-
vealed what she meant to do. How else could Min make her
own decisions?
Morn desperately did not want to lose the tenuous accep-
tance Min had granted her so far. Min was right: Morn needed
her.
"Captain," Patrice murmured cautiously to Dolph,
"we're three minutes from our new tach window."
Captain Ubikwe didn't acknowledge him. Neither did
Min. For them, as for everyone else on the bridge, Morn's
answer took precedence.
She kept it as brief as she could. Three minutes wasn't
much time—and she didn't want to dwell on the pain of losing
Sib; or of Ciro's crisis.
In a few quick sentences, she explained who Sorus Chate-
laine and Soar were; why they worked for the Amnion; why
Nick hated them. Then she described Sorus' attempt to stop
Trumpet by using Ciro; Nick's reaction when he lost control of
Angus; the destruction of Deaner Beckmann's installation;
Soar's pursuit through the swarm; Ciro's cure. She told why
Nick had been allowed to set an EVA ambush for Soar—and
why Sib had gone with him. She admitted that Ciro had sabo-
taged Trumpet's drives.
Yet even that short summary made her chest swell with
distress. Anger mounted in her voice because she hurt. When
she finished, she demanded harshly, "Are you satisfied, Direc-
tor Donner? Do you think I like where we are, or what we have
to do?"
She expected a harsh retort. Angus seemed to brace him-
self to support her. Mikka glowered as if she meant to explode
if anyone criticized her brother.
But Min's reply was mild: she sounded almost sad.
" 'Satisfied'?" she asked. "Not really. But I don't blame you
for that. I'll accept the consequences of whatever you want to
do."
At once she faced Dolph again. "The answer is no, Cap-
tain. I'm not going to oppose Ensign Hyland's command.
We've come this far with her. We'll go a little farther."
A thin sigh passed around the bridge. Relief or regret:
Morn couldn't tell which.
Min's assent was provisional at best; but Morn found that
she was content with it.
Captain Ubikwe shrugged. "In that case, Ensign Hy-
land," he remarked in a bass rumble, "I think you'd better tell
the ship we're about to go into tach."
Davies shook his head. "Damn it," he protested under
his breath. He seemed unsure of himself in some way. And
everything Morn and Angus and Min did appeared to increase
his doubt. He peered at the handgun in his fist, grimaced, and
abruptly shoved it into one of his pockets. "Why didn't you
just say so? Why did we have to go through all this?"
Morn didn't respond. She was in command now; more
than she'd ever been before. She had her duties to think about.
"Prepare for tach, helm," she ordered, knowing she
would be obeyed. "Data, warn the rest of the ship that we're
going to drop internal spin.'' Around Earth, space was usually
too busy to tolerate navigational errors and poor maneuver-


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ability.
A moment later she added, "Communications, prepare
Vector Shaheed's message for immediate transmission. I want
to start broadcasting as soon as we resume tard."
Min cocked an eyebrow. "I wouldn't do that if I were
you," she put in quickly.
Angus snorted. "I'm sure you wouldn't."
"Why not?" Morn asked.
The ED director gave her a bleak smile. "I think it's
called 'look before you leap.' You can't know what you're
getting into. Hell, I don't. How could you? It won't hurt you to
take a few readings, listen to the transmission traffic, before
you make up your mind."
"Hell, yes," Angus sneered. "That way you can still
hope something'll happen to stop us."
But Morn didn't hesitate. "All right." She believed that
in some oblique, unspoken way Min was on her side. "Com-
munications, hold that broadcast for the time being."
Once the data officer—her name was Bydell—had alerted
the ship, Morn tapped keys to disengage internal spin. Hy-
draulic systems eased g out of the cruiser as her rotation slid
to a stop within her hulls. Except for the muffled sighing of
the pumps and servos, the process should have been silent. But
this time it wasn't. A faint grinding like a visceral shudder
carried briefly through the bulkheads. Spin ended with a tangi-
ble jolt.
Punisher's core displacement was getting worse.
Min Donner and Captain Ubikwe took g-seats along the
walls, belted themselves in. Davies followed their example.
Mikka glared miserably at Ciro for a moment, then kicked off
in his direction, grabbed his arm, and hauled him to a g-seat.
He nodded as she swore at him, closed his belts, then coasted
to a seat herself.
Only Angus remained standing. Anchored on the edge of
the command board with a cyborg's strength, he waited where
he was, watching the display screens and the quick scroll of
the readouts. His stance was charged and expectant, as if he
were guarding Morn—or guarding against her.
"Fifteen seconds to tach," Patrice announced.
"Fifteen seconds to Earth," Davies muttered to himself.
"If that's really where we end up."
Ten.
Instinctively Morn held her breath. In the measureless in-
stant when the gap field dislocated her across the light-years,
she wouldn't feel anything: no one ever did. The discontinuity
which had exposed the flaw of gap-sickness in her brain took
place in a realm of physics which human senses couldn't reg-
ister. And yet most people were like her: they held their
breath, or tensed in some other way. Nerves and ganglia re-
acted with an almost cellular fear—a dread like humankind's
genetic abhorrence of the Amnion—to the prospect of being
torn without transition from one place to another billions of k
apart.
Five.
Scan, data, and helm maintained a stream of status re-
ports, their voices low.
Nothing changed until Porson shouted frantically from
scan that Punisher had dropped short of her intended coordi-
nates in UMCPHQ's dedicated gap range by 40,000 k. And
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WARDEN
Warden rode in the control
cabin of his shuttle as the
small craft carried him out toward the impending bulk of
the Amnion defensive. There was nothing for him to do in the
space he was supposed to occupy—the so-called director's
cabin—and he couldn't bear to sit idle. He didn't want to
spend the time watching some remorseless chronometer tick
his life away.
Unfortunately he had no duties here, either. His crew was
more than competent for the simple task of ferrying him out to
Calm Horizons. Nevertheless he could occupy himself by
studying the scan displays and command readouts; following
the slow concentration of his ships around the defensive; ana-
lyzing the Amnioni's heavy profile for signs of damage or
weakness.
As a matter of course the shuttle's instruments were
linked to Earth's scan net. He could watch for Punisher and
Trumpet.
The longer they took to arrive, the weaker Calm Hori-
zons' position would become. Eventually Sledgehammer
would be in place to unleash the force of her guns. Then Marc
Vestabule's leverage would erode to practically nothing. No
human power could prevent the defensive from firing on Suka
Bator. But after that she would die quickly. Even UMCPHQ
might survive the battle.
If Trumpet stayed away long enough, Calm Horizons
would have nothing left to bargain with except the Council's
survival—and Warden's life.
Angus' programming had been written to restrict the con-
ditions under which he could return to Earth. He couldn't
make that decision for himself: it had to be imposed on him by
some authority his datacore recognized. If Nick Succorso
didn't order it—and if Trumpet managed to evade Punisher, so
that Min Donner had no chance to intervene—Angus might
stay away indefinitely.
In another life—a saner, cleaner existence—Warden
would have been praying with all his heart to see no sign of
Trumpet on the scan net.
In this life, however, his prayers were of another kind.
He needed Morn. Here. Now.
Why else had he undermined Holt's direct orders by giv-
ing Morn and Davies the means to oppose Nick?—the means
to return to Earth? At tremendous cost he'd created a window
of vulnerability for Holt Fasner: a small, elusive gap in the
Dragon's normally impregnable defenses. But Koina wouldn't
be able to hold that window open long. Without Morn—and
without concrete evidence from either Hashi or Chief Mandich
—she would eventually fail.
And if the Council died, the outcome of this crisis might
be the exact opposite of the one Warden had pursued with so
much pain. Holt himself might well become the government.
At present there was no other power which could make deci-
sions for humankind in a time of war. If Marc Vestabule lost
what he hoped to gain by negotiating with Warden, the conse-
quences for humanity would be catastrophic.
Despite his sworn duty to oppose the Amnion, Warden
Dios hoped desperately that Trumpet would arrive soon. And
that the gap scout's people would feel compelled to comply
with Vestabule's demands.
Therefore he needed Min. He might convince himself that


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he had the right and the power to command Morn Hyland; but
he had no authority over her son—or Vector Shaheed. And he
could no longer trust Angus' priority-codes. If Davies or Morn
had freed themselves from Nick, they would be able to coun-
termand any order Warden gave Angus.
Warden needed Min to make Trumpet's people obey him.
Still the scan net gave no hint of Punisher or the gap
scout. Gunboats and pocket cruisers tightened their paltry cor-
don around the Amnioni. Adventurous lumbered toward the
defense from the far side of the planet. Barring some disaster,
Valor would be in range soon. The net showed Sledgehammer
on her Earth-bound burn. But Punisher and Trumpet were be-
yond the reach of Earth's instruments anywhere in the solar
system.
The shuttle had a crew of three: command, scan, commu-
nications. At other times the UMCP director traveled with
aides and guards; his own communications techs; various
UMCP officers. But for this trip he'd left everyone except the
crew behind. Jeopardizing the smallest possible number of
lives—
Abruptly command cleared his throat. "Twenty minutes,
Director. They've assigned us a docking port. I can put it on a
screen if you want to see it."
Warden shook his head. He didn't care what the port
looked like. After a moment he asked communications, "Is
CEO Fasner still yelling at us?"
"Home Office is, Director," communications answered.
"Not the CEO in person. He's given up."
"Have they bothered to mention what he wants?"
"You're ordered to reply, Director. That's all."
"Too bad," Warden muttered sardonically. "It might
have been interesting to hear him tell me I'm fired. If I had
that on record, he would have trouble explaining it to the
Council."
Legally Holt could fire the UMCP director. But the timing
would look bad; very bad. The Members might think that Holt
Fasner didn't want Warden to keep them alive.
Warden wasn't willing to take the risk, however. Holt
might give him orders which would make sense to the Coun-
cil, but which Warden couldn't or wouldn't obey. Then Holt
would have an excuse he could hide behind for replacing War-
den.
"Contact HO once I board Calm Horizons," Warden in-
structed communications. "Tell the CEO that under the War
Powers provisions of the UMCP charter I'm not authorized-
much less required—to discuss my actions with civilians."
He sighed. "That's a pretty loose interpretation of the
law," he admitted to his crew. "But maybe it'll make Holt
leave you alone."
The chronometer gave him eighteen minutes.
Punisher and Trumpet weren't anywhere on the net.
Command squirmed as if he sat on an uncomfortable se-
cret. "I think you should take a look at the docking port,
Director."
Warden frowned over a twist of apprehension. "Why is
that?" The man's awkwardness worried him. Had he missed
something?
Command glanced quickly at scan. Scan jerked a nod of
agreement.
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Warden folded his arms over his chest to contain his anxi-
ety. "So show me."
Quickly command tapped keys. In a moment net schemat-
ics scrolled off the main display, and were replaced by a tight
video image of Calm Horizons' flank. Under other circum-
stances there would have been nothing to see. The darkness of
space was almost absolute. But the defensive had already lit
her docking lamps. A wash of incandescence etched her
knurled, inhuman skin.
Warden studied the display because that was what com-
mand and scan—and communications?—wanted him to do.
"It's a docking port," he observed impersonally, as if
what he saw had nothing to do with him. "Their airlock
doesn't fit ours. Neither do their grapples and clamps. But that
looks like an adjustable seal. And we can flex our own. I won't
need an EVA suit." He cocked an eyebrow at command.
"What else do you want me to notice?"
"There, sir." With a twitch of his hand, command indi-
cated an imprecise bulge at the edge of the screen; the edge of
the light. "That's her proton gun. The emitter."
Sixteen minutes.
"So?" Warden prodded.
Command turned to scan for help.
"They have us on targ, Director," scan put in stiffly.
"Guns like theirs, they could fry us in seconds. But if we wait
until we're close—another ten minutes—we'll be under their
fire horizon. We could veer off, burn—"
"We could crash into that emitter, sir," command fin-
ished. "Wreck it."
Wreck-
Oh, shit. New fears cut at Warden's heart. For several
seconds he couldn't respond. A clean death— A chance to
leave Holt Fasner and the corruption of the UMCP and hu-
mankind's future to someone else; someone who didn't have
so much shame feeding like a corrosive on his lacerated con-
science. Veer off, burn, crash. Die like a hero. Let Morn and
Angus, Hashi and Min and Koina pick up the pieces if they
could.
But if he did that—he, Warden Dios, who had clawed
these wounds into his own soul—there would be nothing clean
about it. It would be a coward's death: an abandonment of all
the people who had the most right to rely on him.
For him no death would ever be clean unless he took Holt
Fasner down with him.
At last he regained his voice. "And what happens to us?"
he asked gruffly.
"Well, Director"—command swallowed a lump of dis-
comfort—"we're dead, I guess. This craft wasn't built for
collision.
"But I'm not sure you're ever coming back, sir," he went
on. "I'm not even sure we are. Once you're aboard, they can
finish us pretty easily." He hesitated, then faced Warden
squarely. "It might be more useful to take out their proton
gun."
Warden paused as if to consider the idea. "If we do that,
we'll save the Council," he mused. "So far, so good. But
we'll kill UMCPHQ. Any other station in range will take dam-
age. Some of our ships will die." For the sake of his crew, he
made an effort to sound clear; sure. "If we burn that defen-
sive's bridges for her, she won't have any choice. She'll have
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He wanted to stop there. The strain of projecting the con-
fidence his people needed hurt him. But the shrouded fear in
scan's eyes, and the stubborn set of command's jaw, told him
that he had to continue.
"I have a pretty good idea what she wants," he stated.
"And I think I know how to deal with it. If I'm right, I can
keep almost all of us alive. Whether or not I come back"—he
shrugged—"isn't germane."
Intending reassurance, he added, "You're safe enough.
Calm Horizons doesn't want to provoke a fight. She won't
attack you."
But command reacted with flustered indignation, as if
Warden had accused him of cowardice. "That isn't what I—"
Warden winced inwardly. "I know," he interrupted, "if
we're going to die anyway, we all want to make it count. Don't
you think I feel the same? But suicide is easy." He forced an
edge into his voice. "The job we swore to do is a little harder.
"I want to make this clear. You're going to deliver me
safely to that docking port. And then you're going back to
UMCPHQ. Without ramming that proton emitter. Or anything
else. You do your job. I'll do mine. And maybe"—just maybe
—"something good will come out of all this."
Scan shrugged. After a moment command lowered his
eyes and looked away. "Aye, sir," he said softly. "You can
rely on us."
He may have meant, We're relying on you.
Thirteen minutes.
Warden hugged his chest tighter. "I know."
Too many people with too many needs relied on him. And
as soon as he passed the threshold of Calm Horizons' airlock,
he would be almost helpless to do anything about it.
The time seemed to pass swiftly, consumed by Punisher's ab-
sence, and Trumpet's. Communications exchanged stilted ap-
proach protocols and confirmations with the Amnioni. By
careful degrees the shuttle nudged herself against the docking
port.
When the small craft's external seals showed green, War-
den Dios left his g-seat to face the doom which he'd brought
down on his own planet; his own people.
His preparations were simple. From his pocket he took
the black capsule and breathing mask Hashi had given him.
The capsule he tucked into his mouth between his cheek and
gum. Then he inspected the mask and set its straps over his
head so that it rode on his forehead, ready to be pulled down
over his nose and mouth when he needed it.
Before he left the control cabin, he recorded commenda-
tions for his three officers in the shuttle's log. Contrary to his
normal practice, he returned their stiff salutes. Then he turned
his back on their clenched faces and headed for the airlock.
He didn't speak to his crew again, or to Calm Horizons.
Words would have been wasted. Communications negotiated
the cycling of the airlocks for him; established the sequence.
Scan verified the integrity of the seals. For one terrible mo-
ment as the threshold ahead of him opened, he feared that his
courage would fail. He'd never seen an Amnioni in person.
Apart from old Captain Vertigus, no one he knew had ever
been aboard an Amnion vessel. And Morn and Angus
deserved better than this from him. Humankind deserved
better-
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with his own hands. He'd set them in motion—and then he'd
set them free. Now he had to trust them, for good or ill.
Settling his mask over his mouth to protect his lungs from
the acrid atmosphere the Amnion preferred, he crossed the
airlock of his shuttle into Calm Horizons.
Sulfurous light appeared to cloy and cling on the odd
textures of the walls, so that the grown metal surfaces seemed
lambent with energy and intention. The sight made his pros-
thesis ache in its socket. He had the impression that he'd
stepped into one of the antechambers of hell.
The voice of communications reached him from the shut-
tle's airlock speaker, informing him that the locks were about
to close. This was his last chance to flee and die; to spare
himself the outcome of his own choices. But he knew better.
The shame of his self-inflicted wounds went with him every-
where: there was no escape from it. Instead of retreating, he
watched the defensive's airlock iris shut. Then he turned to
confront what lay ahead.
Like the outer door, the inner opened like an iris, admit-
ting him to the alien body of the ship. As he crossed the
threshold, he caught the first handgrip he could find so that he
wouldn't float away; out of control.
Casually adrift in the absence of g, three figures waited
for him. Just for a moment, however, he refused to look at
them. While he struggled to gather his courage, he glanced
around at the hold to which the docking port gave access.
The strong hue of sulfur in the light seemed to thicken the
air, throb on the bulkheads. The huge chamber may have been
meant for cargo: he saw irregular structures which resembled
gantries, festooned with cables like rough vines; stubby trans-
port sleds on magnetic tracks. But the way the Amnion used
space made no sense to him. Even for a vessel that couldn't
generate internal g, the arrangement of machines and equip-
ment looked incoherent to his human eyes. Was it actually
possible to load cargo this way?
Determinedly he distracted himself from panic with sim-
ple curiosity until one of the three figures spoke.
"Warden Dios." Despite the absence of thrust distortion,
Warden recognized the voice. "I am Marc Vestabule."
Holding his breath in autonomic trepidation, Warden
turned.
Two of them might have been clones of each other. They
wore no clothes: crusted skin the color of oxidation apparently
took the place of apparel. The general shape of their bodies
was hominoid. Heads marked with eyes and mouths sat atop
torsos with arms and legs. Still there was nothing even re-
motely human about them. As far as Warden could tell, they
had four eyes apiece, spaced around their heads so that they
could see in all directions. Teeth as keen as daggers crowded
their lipless mouths. Each had three arms and legs positioned
on their torsos for near-ideal utility—and agility—in zero g.
They carried no weapons because they needed none. They
were at home here; obviously capable of outmaneuvering him.
And the crusted mass of their heavy bodies conveyed an im-
pression of tremendous strength. They projected lurid IR auras
which told him nothing. He couldn't read their emanations.
They must have been guards for Marc Vestabule, who
scarcely resembled them. He was human enough to make War-
den's skin crawl.
He was dressed like a man in a black shipsuit made from
a material Warden had never seen before; a fabric which


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seemed to shed light like water. The shape of his limbs and
chest and features appeared normal. Above his boots, pale,
ordinary flesh reached as high as his knees. However, the legs
of his shipsuit had been cut away at the knees to accommodate
thick knobs of crusted Amnion tissue. A human hand and
wrist extended from one of his sleeves; but his other arm was
bare, covered only with scabs or rust from shoulder to fore-
arm. Half his face showed no mark of mutation or injury. On
the other side, a viscid Amnion eye stared without blinking
over a partially lipless mouth and pointed, rending teeth.
Like the guards', his aura was a nauseating swirl Warden
couldn't interpret.
A receiver in his ear and a pickup at his throat indicated
that he could talk to the bridge—or whatever the Amnion
called their control center—whenever he wished.
Warden swallowed hard to moisten his throat; make him-
self breathe. Marc Vestabule had once been human: that was
beyond question. But the Amnion had transformed him until
only parts of his former shape remained.
With an effort, Warden fought down terror—a blind, ata-
vistic dismay which seemed to spring straight from his genes.
Somehow, he thought, prayed, it must be possible to deal with
such creatures. It must be possible to stifle panic enough to
understand them. Or oppose them.
But he could barely force air into his lungs. To speak or
move was beyond him. The ghouls of his darkest nightmares
had appeared; images of a damnation he'd risked for his entire
species. Yet these creatures weren't true damnation. By its
very nature, damnation was human. Anguish and terror and
excruciation were humankind's essential legacy: every child
born inherited them. The Amnion were worse. Ultimately even
eternal agony and dread were more humane than the doom
they offered.
Understanding—and opposition—were out of the ques-
tion.
Almost involuntarily, hardly knowing what he did, War-
den shifted the capsule in his mouth until it rested between his
teeth.
But then, by some trick of fear or will, he heard the an-
swer Hashi might have given him. Oh, surely it is not neces-
sary to understand them, Hashi replied in Warden's mind.
Their imperialism is genetic. They desire the conquest of all
life as we desire air. So much is simple.
They are only to be feared when they are able to under-
stand us.
What had Vestabule said? The process by which I became
Amnion enables me to retain certain resources of memory,
language, and comprehension. For this reason I have been
invested with decisiveness. In dealings with your kind, my for-
mer humanity may assist me to function effectively.
If that was true—and Hashi was right—the time had
come for real fear.
Suddenly Warden passed beyond primitive terrors and
visceral abhorrence. With a clarity that astonished him, he rec-
ognized that he needed his fear too much to let it paralyze him.
Fear was strength: it made him human. And if Vestabule could
in some sense think and act as if he were human, then only
another human might hope to resist him.
Carefully Warden pushed the capsule back into his cheek.
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Human malice: human deceit. Hope. He grinned as if he'd
already won a contest more profound than any challenge Marc
Vestabule could present.
"I'm Dios," he announced through the mask. "I don't
know what you want to 'discuss,' but I would rather talk about
it someplace smaller." Less exposed. More private. "All this"
—he gestured around the hold—"gives me hives."
"There will be no difficulty, Warden Dios." Without the
distortion of thrust static, Vestabule's voice sounded like his
alien skin: caked with rust; as if his humanity had been cor-
roded by disuse. "Your requirements will be satisfied.
"A chamber has been prepared. There we will negoti-
ate." Despite his resources of memory, language, and compre-
hension, he couldn't use words like "negotiate" and
"discuss" without discomfort. "When we have gained mutual
satisfaction, you will convey your commands to your ships and
station."
He turned. With an awkward gesture, he asked Warden to
follow him.
A chamber— Apparently Vestabule had no intention of
letting the UMCP director see Calm Horizons' "bridge"—or
any other vital part of the ship. Warden nodded to himself. It
was comforting to think that the Amnioni still considered him
dangerous.
From his grip on the wall he pushed off so that he coasted
between the guards after Vestabule.
Neither of them reached out to take hold of him. Instead
they followed at his back—too close for comfort; not close
enough to grab him quickly. Another small comfort: Vestabule
meant to try persuasion before coercion.
From the hold Vestabule entered a corridor like a gullet,
crooked and misshapen. As the space around Warden became
constricted, it seemed to concentrate the light. The surfaces
seethed like brimstone. More and more the passage ahead re-
sembled a descent into fire.
But he didn't have far to go. After twenty or thirty meters,
Vestabule halted at an irregular depression in the wall. When
Warden reached it, it proved to be a door. Vestabule's palm on
a sensitive plate beside it caused it to slide open.
Vestabule led him into a chamber the size of an interroga-
tion room. Light from sources he couldn't identify filled every
corner. A console had been set or grown into one wall. He
didn't know enough about Amnion technology to be sure of its
function, but he assumed it was a communications terminal.
Other than that, the room contained nothing except two chairs
rooted to the floor, facing each other. Both offered zero-g belts
—presumably for comfort.
Why did the Amnion want him here? To negotiate,
Vestabule had said. But he'd also said that Warden would be
allowed to return to UMCPHQ when the "discussion" was
done, and that was patently a lie. How many other lies had the
Amnioni told?
When Warden had asked, How can I trust you? Vestabule
had replied, Because we are Amnion. Unlike humankind, we
bargain openly. Also we fulfill our bargains. Then he'd added,
There is this in addition, however. We gain nothing by harming
you.
The lie was there, but Warden couldn't name it. He would
have to wait until it was revealed.
He didn't think he would have to wait long.
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he drifted to one of the chairs, pulled himself into it, and
closed the belt across his lap.
Vestabule did the same. When he was secure in his chair,
he made a series of guttural sounds—speaking into his pickup
or addressing the guards, Warden couldn't tell which. How-
ever, the guards reacted as if they'd received orders. They
retreated from the door. One of them palmed it shut.
Warden Dios was alone with his ghoul.
Defenseless, except for his fear—
He began at once.
"You have something you want to discuss—something
you think is worth risking a war over." He spoke with force,
but the strange walls seemed to absorb his voice, depriving it
of resonance. "You said, 'all future relations between our spe-
cies will be determined by the resolution of this matter.' And
you suggested we might reach a resolution in person because
your"—he permitted himself a grimace—" 'background'
helps you understand my concerns. Well, I don't know what
your concerns are, but mine are simple.
"I want you out of here. Out of Earth's solar system. Out
of human space. And I want you to go without firing a shot.
"Let me be clear about this. No casualties. No damage.
No fighting. None. You give me that, and I'll give you a safe
conduct as far as your frontier. Then I'll let the diplomats
figure out what you can do to make reparation."
Vestabule replied with a nod which somehow failed to
convey assent. The fixed stare of his Amnion eye and the
blinking of his human one gave a mixed impression of malice
and anxiety. "That is indeed simple," he pronounced. "How-
ever, it is not acceptable. If our requirements were comparably
simple, we would not have hazarded bringing our species to
war.
"We are here." His shoulders twitched. He may have
meant to shrug, but his muscles had forgotten how. "Our pres-
ence must be faced as it is, not as you wish to consider it. You
have stated your desires. I will state ours. If our requirements
are not satisfied by negotiation, we will conclude that we must
fire upon you as hard and often as we can until we. are de-
stroyed. We will crush your location of government. We will
crush your own station. Then we will—"
"I know, I know," Warden interrupted harshly. "You
said all that before. But you still haven't told me what your
'requirements' are. So far we don't have anything to discuss."
"I await—" Vestabule's voice trailed off into the dis-
tance. For a moment he turned his head: he may have been
listening to his receiver. Then he faced Warden again. His
alien eye glared like a pool of acid. "Now I am ready."
His metallic hostility tightened a knot in Warden's vis-
cera.
"Warden Dios," the Amnioni scraped out, "a cyborg in
your service was sent into Amnion space to destroy an in-
stallation. That in itself was an act of war, meriting reprisal.
In addition, however, this cyborg—this Captain Angus
Thermopyle—also stole two items of property which had
come into the possession of the Amnion through open bargain-
ing and the mutual satisfaction of requirements with another
of your agents, Captain Nick Succorso. I refer to the human
female, Morn Hyland, and her male offspring, Davies Hyland,
force-grown on Enablement Station."
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them 'people.' Succorso didn't have the right to bargain for
them."
Vestabule stared and blinked like a schizophrenic. "Your
response lacks relevance, Warden Dios. I speak of Amnion
requirements. We require the restoration of our property. And
in reparation for the wrong we have suffered—so that we will
not be compelled to consider ourselves at war with humankind
—we require Captain Thermopyle himself, as well as others
who accompany him. In particular we require the man named
Vector Shaheed."
He stopped as if he'd said everything that needed saying;
as if he knew Warden had no choice except acquiescence.
But Warden was prepared for this. He'd known all along
what Calm Horizons had come for. And he'd guessed how
much Milos Taverner had told the Amnion. He was only sur-
prised that Vestabule didn't demand Nick as well. Did the
Amnion know what had happened to Nick?
Because Warden wasn't surprised, he was able to contain
his panic. He snorted scornfully. "And you're human enough
to realize demands like that would make anyone who heard
them furious for your blood. UMCPHQ would by God mutiny
if my people thought I would accept those terms. So you in-
sisted on presenting your 'requirements' to me in person. In
secret. You think you can extort an agreement from me with-
out risking UMCPHQ's reaction. Not to mention Earth's. You
think I can tight-beam orders to Trumpet, orders no one else
hears—hand you Morn and Davies and everyone else, then tell
my forces to let you go unmolested. You get what you want, I
get what I want. And nothing bad happens until I have to tell
the people I swore to serve what I did.
"It's a nice, tidy picture," he observed in a snarl. "Un-
fortunately it has several flaws."
Vestabule sat without speaking, as if the idea of "flaws"
had no meaning in the language of his kind.
For one, Warden wanted to shout, roar, I won't do it. Hell,
he wanted to spit in Vestabule's half-human face. But he
wasn't ready to go that far yet.
Instead he said trenchantly, "For one, Trumpet isn't here.
And for another, what makes you believe she would obey or-
ders like that if I gave them?"
Apparently the Amnioni didn't consider these significant
obstacles. "She will obey," he replied, "for the same reason
that you will order her. The cost of refusal will be measured in
millions of lives. Also your power over your cyborg will en-
able you to compel him.
"Our instruments," he continued, "and your own sys-
tem-wide scan network indicate that Trumpet is indeed here.
The vessel arrived a short time ago. For reasons which you
will know better than we, it was transported from the gap by a
UMCP cruiser which your network identifies as Punisher."
Involuntarily Warden recoiled. He couldn't help it: he
needed a chance to collect his courage—or his wits. Trumpet
was here? Transported by Punisher? He didn't doubt
Vestabule for an instant. Nevertheless he couldn't begin to
guess what the information meant.
But Trumpet's arrival made the crisis immediate.
Vestabule would push for a decision—and action—as quickly
as possible. Any delay weakened his position.
Stalling for time, Warden asked, "What's Punisher do-
ing?"
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listened to his receiver. Then he answered, "Her targ is fixed
on us, as ours is on her. However, she has withheld fire. The
orientation of her communications dishes suggests that she is
in contact with your station."
Good. Hashi would brief Punisher. He would tell Min
what was at stake, here as well as in the GCES emergency
session.
Warden had already made the decision to stake his hopes
on Hashi's good faith.
He resisted an impulse to fold his arms across his chest.
He did that too often; closed his heart. Instead he braced his
palms on his thighs for support.
"Why don't you hit her now? Kill her while you can?"
Vestabule's shoulders attempted another unconvincing
shrug. "Your vessels have not arrived in a manner which we
deem threatening. And we believe that our requirements will
be better satisfied by your intervention." He paused, then
added, "Doubtless Punisher will enforce your orders if Trum-
pet opposes them."
That may have been true. If Min's loyalty had limits,
Warden had never reached them. And her example inspired
loyalty in her people. Even Dolph Ubikwe would obey her in
an emergency, despite his insubordinate nature.
But Warden believed that she was also capable of refus-
ing—
He needed to take control of his circumstances before
they became untenable. For Trumpet's sake, and Punisher's, as
well as his own, he countered, "I don't know what 'manner'
you're talking about. I guess that's beside the point. Here's the
point.
"I won't do it."
Vestabule's Amnion stare revealed nothing. His human
eye seemed to flutter in distress. His heritage of humanity may
have been difficult to access, but it remained a part of him: the
part which made bargains with lies; sealed them with coer-
cion.
"I know why you want Morn and Davies," Warden went
on bitterly. "They've sent messages explaining the situation.
You haven't risked a war over mere 'property.' You want them
because you think they represent the knowledge you need to
win. Wipe out humankind completely." Anger thrummed in
his voice. "And you want Vector Shaheed to help you develop
defenses against us.
"It's too much." At last he let himself shout. "I will not
threaten my entire species by asking or ordering them to turn
themselves over to you!"
Despite his outrage and dismay, however, his assertion
was dishonest; a lie to match Vestabule's. Humankind's sur-
vival was more important than a few million lives. But Warden
had reason to fear that losing those lives would lead to Holt
Fasner's elevation in the Council's place. Holt might become
the government; the only power. And if that happened it also
would endanger the survival of humanity.
To keep those few million people alive—and give Koina
her chance at the Dragon—might be worth the peril of letting
Calm Horizons have Morn and Davies, Angus and Vector.
In addition there were other possibilities—too nebulous to
define, too precious to ignore. Warden hadn't yet decided how
he would finally answer Vestabule. He refused in order to
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own falsehoods.
Vestabule faced him without moving. For a long moment
the Amnioni didn't speak. His aura swirled and seethed like
the radiance of a demon. When he replied at last, his tone
remained inflexible and unmoved; beyond appeal. Words came
from his distorted mouth like flakes of rust and ruin.
"It is a handicap for us that we do not understand deceit.
Lies are not"—he seemed to search his memory—"conceiv-
able?"—he nodded at the choice—"not conceivable among
us. Our communication rests on smell as well as on sound, and
to some extent on vision. Pheromones do not lie. Hue and
shade do not lie. For that reason we are alone in this chamber.
Other Amnion would be distressed by our discussion."
Distressed to be in the presence of treachery—
"I also am distressed," Vestabule continued. "Neverthe-
less I remember portions of my human nature, and of my ex-
perience. In particular I remember mutation. I remember my
dismay that my humanity was threatened."
Warden scowled to conceal his reaction; his prescient
dread.
"Because I remember," the Amnioni continued, "I know
how I must respond to your refusal."
From a pocket of his shipsuit he drew out a hypo filled
with a clear liquid and a vial of small pills.
At the sight, fear clenched Warden's guts so hard that he
nearly gasped. There it was at last: the lie; the coercion.
"Attend this well, Warden Dios." Vestabule spoke like
old iron. "I stated accurately that we gain nothing by your
enforced mutation. The transformation would be detected.
Therefore your people would cease to obey you.
"However, this mutagen suits a special purpose. It is slow
to act. Once injected, it will remain passive for perhaps ten
minutes before it begins to alter your genetic identity.
"These capsules"—he raised the vial—"will cause the
mutagen to continue in its passive state. Each supplies an hour
of prolonged humanity. The mutagen will live among the false
strings of your DNA. But you will be preserved as you are
while the counteragent is active.
"I will, inject you with the mutagen," he announced.
"Then I will offer you the counteragent in exchange for your
compliance with our requirements."
Without haste or urgency—inexorable as nightmare—he
released his belt. He seemed certain he could do what he said;
certain Warden would surrender, paralyzed by panic.
Or perhaps he simply trusted his own strength.
But Warden was ready for this as well, despite the primi-
tive horror writhing in his guts.
He'd never heard of a mutagen or counteragent like this.
The prospect of being injected with such an evil appalled him.
Nevertheless the threat itself was simple: clear and easy com-
pared to the question of sacrificing Morn and Angus, or of
letting several million people die. Beyond doubt Marc
Vestabule remembered much of what it meant to be human.
For that reason he was dangerous; and vulnerable.
Like the Dragon—
Warden raised his hand as if he had the power to stop
Vestabule; the power to command him. "I hear you. Now
you'd better listen to me. Before you do something rash."
Secretly he was pleased that his voice held firm. That
small show of strength diminished the sting of his shame.
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With a sweep of his tongue, Warden moved Hashi's cap-
sule to the front of his mouth; held it between his teeth so that
the Amnioni could see it. Then he pushed it back into his
cheek.
"It's called a suicide pill," he said as if he'd forgotten
what fear felt like. "It's poison. Quick and sure. It doesn't
dissolve. I'm safe right now. But if I bite down I'm dead."
To that extent he trusted Hashi absolutely.
"I'm sure you're strong enough to force that mutagen
into me." He spoke in a slow, fatal drawl. "I might flounder
around the room for a while. Eventually you'll get me.
"But there's no way you can prevent me from biting
down.
"You know I'm serious," he added in case Vestabule
missed the truth. "Maybe you remember how you felt before
you were mutated. Maybe you remember that you would have
done anything to save yourself. But even if you don't, you
know you would do the same in my place. To save your peo-
ple."
Try me, he dared the Amnioni. Just try me. Don't you
know I would sell my soul—if I still had one—for a clean
death?
By degrees Vestabule settled back into his seat. His ex-
pression was blank: whatever he felt didn't reach his face—or
his features couldn't convey it. But after a moment his human
eye closed. It stayed shut. He fixed his alien gaze on Warden
as if he wanted to see Warden in purely Amnion terms.
Still slowly, ponderously, he directed the hypo at his own
forearm; pressed it there until the hypo was empty. He raised
his hand to show Warden that the mutagen—and the threat—
was gone. Then he opened his fingers and let the hypo's iner-
tia carry it away. The vial of pills he returned to his pocket.
His human eye remained closed as he began speaking into
his pickup.
The words sounded so harsh and uncomfortable to War-
den that his throat hurt in sympathy. Yet they came naturally to
Vestabule. The stilted searching which characterized his hu-
man speech was absent.
When he was done, he looked at Warden again with both
eyes. Despite its inflexibility, his voice carried an impression
of pressure—a new threat, at once more insidious and more
lethal than any mutagen.
"Warden Dios, you have caused an impasse. My alterna-
tives have been restricted. Therefore I have ordered Calm Ho-
rizons to commence combat. In two minutes our super-light
proton cannon will destroy your location of government. Then
it will be turned on your station. At the same time our matter
cannon will attack your approaching ships.
"Punisher we will not harm. That vessel is nearer than
any other, but has been damaged. We can withstand its fire."
Warden lifted his eyebrows at this. "Don't forget Holt
Fasner's station," he suggested hopefully. "It's in range,
too."
"Still you do not understand," Vestabule retorted. "Holt
Fasner has made it plain that he desires to bargain with us. He
will be allowed to live, his station intact. Perhaps when your
government is gone he will be able to satisfy our requirements.
"If he fails us—" Once more the Amnioni attempted a
shrug. "Then we will turn our fire on Punisher."
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manity to call Warden's bluff. Warden was trapped. The
choice he had to make couldn't be avoided any longer.
Once Calm Horizons opened fire, no human ship would
obey an order to stop fighting, no matter what Holt threatened
or promised. The defensive would die sooner or later. But
Warden knew beyond question that Marc Vestabule and every
Amnioni aboard was willing to die; at least as willing as he
was himself.
It was time to decide.
Sacrifice Morn and Davies, Vector and Angus. Save mil-
lions of lives. And give the. Amnion a chance to discover how
to mutate men and women so that they retained enough hu-
manity to be undetectable.
Or condemn millions of men and women to death. Pre-
vent the Amnion from acquiring terrible knowledge. And let
Holt Fasner have his way with humankind's future.
At last the UMCP director found that he knew his answer.
Why had he put Morn and Angus through so much an-
guish—why had he bothered—if he didn't mean to trust them?
He cleared his throat. His voice was raw with anger.
"All right. I'll do it. Don't start shooting. I'll satisfy your
goddamn 'requirements.' If I can."
As he capitulated, he couldn't tell whether what he felt
was despair or hope.
MORN
Pandemonium erupted on the
bridge of the cruiser. Cray
shouted warnings she received from UMCPHQ's traffic buoys:
Punisher was too close to the station, moving too fast. His
voice cracking under the strain, Porson echoed confirmation.
His hands raced to sort data from his sensors and Earth's scan
net. The man on targ cursed savagely. Patrice programmed
helm like scattershot. The data officer, Bydell, made a thin
keening noise in her throat as she scrambled to identify the
scan blips.
Davies swore, too—a high, clenched sound, tight with
surprise and terror. Ciro didn't react; but Mikka groaned as if
something in her chest had snapped. Pale and aghast, Vector
stared mutely at the displays. In an instant Angus shifted posi-
tions; moved to the side of Morn's console so that he could
see the screens and still keep an eye on her. Min strained at
her belts, her gaze as keen as a hawk's; eager to strike.
Through the tumult Captain Ubikwe's deep tones cut
clearly. "Deceleration, Sergei. Burn it on my order. Prepare
for evasive action." He seemed unnaturally calm; impervious
to surprise and danger. "Charge your cannon, Glessen," he
told targ. "Ready torpedoes. Stand by to open fire.
"Sound battle stations, Bydell. Deceleration alerts, prox-
imity warnings—hell, sound them all."
"Aye, Captain."
At once the lorn wail of klaxons echoed across the
clamor.
"Status on that bastard, Porson?" Dolph continued.
"I'm still reading, Captain!" Porson called back. "Scan
isn't clear yet. Too much gap static." Then he croaked ur-
gently, "She has us on targ!"
"Do it now, Sergei," Captain Ubikwe instructed helm.
"Put everything we can spare into it."
Without transition the muffled thunder of thrust mounted
to a roar as if Punisher had fallen into a smelter. The ship
began to shudder. If she were still under internal spin, she


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would have torn herself apart.
Hard g; gravitic violence: the essence of reality.
Calm Horizons had reached Earth ahead of them. Be-
cause Morn had insisted on making the journey gently—
Fearing what might happen, she'd made exactly the
wrong decision. She and her friends might have been safe if
they'd beaten the Amnion vessel to Earth.
She was supposed to be in command: of herself as well as
the cruiser. Yet she was paralyzed. Punisher's gap drive had
translated her from normal space into the domain of night-
mare. Calm Horizons was here! Of course. What was the
worst thing the defensive could possibly have done after fail-
ing to kill Trumpet? What else but this?—a gambit so extreme
and lethal that Morn had never considered it.
She'd failed before she ever had a chance to begin.
And braking thrust shoved her into her g-seat with brutal
force. Involuntarily her lips pulled away from her teeth. Her
eyes seemed to bulge in their sockets. She could hardly
breathe: shuddering thunder filled her chest, clogged her
throat. Her arm had shed too much of its pain to protect her.
Cruel and compelling, g drove her out of herself into the
place where all things became clear.
Clear as vision. Clear as the voice of the universe, of
existence itself. Articulate and irrefutable beyond any possible
resistance. She heard the voice, understood the vision; re-
ceived its necessity like a sacrament.
Self-destruct.
Oh, yes.
   She had the means. The universe had provided them for
her: clarity provided them. The command board lay in front of
her, willing and transsubstantial; as compulsory as a sacrifice.
Luminescent certainty marked the keys she should touch, the
sequence of obedience. Every question had come to an end.
When she reached out her hands, she would be whole; her life
made clean at last.
The universe told her what to do—and gave her the
strength to do it. She stretched her arms for the keys.
Before she could touch them, Angus hit her so hard that
she thought he'd broken her skull—
"Report, Porson," Captain Ubikwe demanded through
the roar. His battle-calm overrode the pressure of hard g. "I
can't see the damn screens like this."
Valiantly Porson squeezed an answer past the mass in his
throat. "Calm Horizons is orbital. Right on top of UMCPHQ.
God, she must be within 50,000 k. Coasting. They're both
geosynchronous over Suka Bator.'' He faltered, then somehow
found a way to raise his voice. "Captain, Calm Horizons has a
clear line of fire on Suka Bator! Her proton cannon is already
aligned.''
—but she didn't lose consciousness. Not quite. Instead
the blow lifted her across the personal gap between clarity and
pain. Shards of agony like bone splinters nailed her mind to
the hard matter of her skull. She forgot the siren call of the
universe. She'd been crucified: clarity and coercion couldn't
reach her.
Around her, shouts and orders swirled like panic. Davies
may have cried her name; may have sworn at Angus: she
couldn't be sure. If Angus retorted, she didn't hear it. The pain
in her head had become exquisite grief. She was certain of
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There were no better answers: self-destruct was all she
understood. And Angus had bereft her of it.
"Ready, Glessen?" Dolph asked.
"Damn right, Captain!" Glessen retorted.
Inaccuracy in the gap had brought Punisher too close to
UMCPHQ: close enough to aim all her strength at the Am-
nioni.
"Ease deceleration, Sergei," Captain Ubikwe com-
manded. "I need to see. Evasive action on my order. Make her
dance. We're in no condition to let ourselves get tagged."
At once some of the cruel g lifted. Morn could breathe
again, thin sips of air like constricted gasping.
"Wait a minute, Dolph!" Min barked promptly. "Look
around! Who's firing? How much Support have we got?"
He may not have heard her. "All right, Glessen," he
growled. "Let's see if we can do some damage—"
"Captain!" Cray yelled from communications. Fear and
g pitched her cry to a shriek. "Hold fire!"
Hold—?
"Wait a minute, Glessen," Dolph snapped quickly.
"Orders from Center!" Cray went on. "They're shouting
at us. Absolute priority. Don't fire!"
"Have they lost their minds?" the captain demanded.
"There's a Behemoth-class defensive parked right on top of
them, and they want us to hold fire?"
"Absolute priority," Cray repeated.
"No one's shooting, Captain," Porson announced franti-
cally. "Not UMCPHQ. Not Calm Horizons. We have ships in
range. More on the way. They haven't fired."
With an effort, he fought down frenzy. "I see Adventur-
ous" he continued, "but she isn't close enough yet. And
Valor is here. Looks like she resumed tard ten minutes ahead
of us. But she's a lot farther out." Out where Punisher should
have been. "Too far to attack yet."
Morn's pain bled slowly into the lighter g. Angus must
not have hit her as hard as she thought. She couldn't speak;
could hardly think. But she could listen.
Vestigial clarity flickered at the edges of her mind like
heat lightning. The situation made sense in distant bursts.
Calm Horizons had committed an egregious act of war—and
no one fired at her. Of course not. The big warship hadn't
come on a suicide mission against UMCPHQ and the GCES.
She'd come to stop Trumpet. Capture the gap scout if possible;
kill her otherwise.
UMCPHQ and the GCES were hostages—
Grimly Morn began to fight the aftereffects of gap-sick-
ness. Once Captain Ubikwe and Min understood the stakes,
they might sacrifice Morn and her friends. To save UMCPHQ
and the Council. If Warden Dios ordered it—
"Orders from Center," Dolph snorted. "Whose orders?
My God, are we surrendering? Who wants us to hold fire?"
"The order is from Hashi Lebwohl," Cray answered. She
couldn't muffle her shock. "Acting Director, UMCP."
In response Min snarled like a predator. "Hashi's in com-
mand? How in hell did that happen? What happened to War-
den?
"Communications," she demanded, "get me a direct
channel to Acting Director Lebwohl. Absolute priority. I can
play that game as well as he can. I want to talk to him."
"Do it, Cray," Dolph said. But his confirmation wasn't
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The Amnioni's targ continued to sizzle on Punisher's
sensors. Nevertheless Calm Horizons' guns stayed silent.
Captain Ubikwe squinted at the screens. "Ease decelera-
tion," he instructed helm again. "We don't have a lot of room.
But we can turn.
"Give me a new course. I want to intercept that warship's
line of fire on Suka Bator. Coordinate braking so we match
orbits and stay there. If we can't do anything else, we'll at
least be an obstacle."
G dwindled once more as Patrice obeyed. Stress vectors
shifted. Morn's pain settled into a basal throbbing she could
almost bear. Her limbs and head remained heavier than
they should have been, but they felt comparatively light. And
the hull-roar of thrust continued to decline: she lost weight as
if she were evaporating. Soon she might be able to raise her
head.
Her arm had begun to itch and ache again.
"Morn," Davies called across the bridge, "are you all
right?" He sounded desperate with worry and fear. He must
have known why Angus had struck her.
Angus bent over her. "Say something, Morn," he mut-
tered as if he was afraid of her. "Don't make me hit you
again."
She put her hand on his arm, drew him closer. "You
promised to back me up," she whispered like a sigh. Davies
deserved a response; but she didn't have the energy to spare
for anyone else. "I'm trusting you."
Holding his arm for support, she pulled herself forward
so that she could reach the command board.
She feared Hashi Lebwohl more than Warden Dios. Far
more.
At last g shrank enough to permit cautious movement.
Captain Ubikwe began to unclip his belts. "While we're wait-
ing, Cray," he rumbled, "get me Center." His tension seemed
to increase as the threat of immediate combat receded. "It's
about time somebody told us what the hell's going on."
"Right away, Captain," Cray answered.
Heaving against too much weight, Dolph stood up from
his g-seat. Clearly he meant to assume the command station.
"Stop him," Morn murmured to Angus.
For a moment she feared that she'd spoken too softly,
weakly, to be heard. But then, without haste, he stepped away
from her and aimed his armed fist at the captain's head.
"That's far enough, fat man." He grinned a warning. His
eyes were yellow and carious, like unclean fangs. "In case
you've forgotten, you aren't in command. You don't speak for
this ship."
Davies gaped in consternation. Abruptly, belatedly, he
hauled his handgun out of his pocket and raised it; but he
didn't know whether to aim at Dolph or Angus. Mikka started
to open her belts, then changed her mind and subsided in de-
jection.
Captain Ubikwe froze between one stride and the next.
"Back off, Captain Thermopyle," Min rasped fiercely.
Her tone threatened him; but she made no move to leave her g-
seat. "Morn's in no condition to command anything. You
know that. My God, you had to hit her just to get her through
hard g.
"Stay out of the way. This is our job. Let us do it."
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teeth. "Don't tell me, I already know. Hashi fucking Lebwohl
tells you that damn Amnioni is ready to wipe out the cops and
the whole government. He's so sorry. You'll have to turn us
over to Calm Horizons. Unfortunate but necessary. And you'll
do it. You're the UMCP director of muscle—you like follow-
ing orders when you don't have to count the bodies afterward.
"Get it through your head," he finished. "Morn is in
command. She speaks for this ship."
Captain Ubikwe scrubbed his face with his hands, then
dropped them to his sides. His grin matched Angus'.
"There's just one thing you aren't taking into account,"
he drawled cheerfully. "A small detail, really—but it makes a
difference. This is my ship."
Ponderous with augmented mass, he pitched a fist like a
bludgeon at Angus' head.
Davies shouted an alarm; slapped to release his belts so
he could move. But Angus didn't need his help.
Dolph was too slow for Angus; far too slow. Despite the
extra g, Angus' response was so effortless that it seemed al-
most gentle. Smoothly he caught Dolph's elbow and turned
him; locked his arm behind his back; shoved him toward his
g-seat.
"That's enough, Angus," Morn put in quickly. She
didn't want to see Captain Ubikwe hurt. Her pain sufficed for
everyone. "He's not the enemy. Neither is Director Donner.
They just don't understand."
Angus didn't reply. He stood with his fist pointed at
Dolph until the captain sat down again; closed his belts. Then
he resumed his position beside the command station.
Swearing in relief, Davies settled back into his g-seat. He
held up his handgun indecisively for a moment, then kept it in
his fist.
Min's jaws clenched and loosened as if she were chewing
iron; but she said nothing.
"Center is standing by," Cray announced. Angry disap-
proval stiffened her tone. "Tight-beam transmission. The de-
fensive can't pick it up."
Glessen leaned away from the targ board; folded his arms
as if to say that he, for one, wouldn't take Morn's orders.
Bydell looked back and forth between Captain Ubikwe and
Min, her eyes wide with supplication. But Porson and Patrice
kept working: Punisher's survival depended on them no matter
who commanded her.
"Thank you, communications," Morn replied unsteadily.
"Let's hear what they have to say."
Distorted by thrust static, the bridge speakers spat to life.
"Punisher, this is Center," a man's voice began at once.
"Captain Ubikwe, take no action. That's a direct order. Decel-
erate to copy our orbit and hold there. Keep your cannon
charged. But don't show the Amnioni even a flicker of fire. If
you do, we'll court-martial what's left of your corpse after
we're all dead."
"Damn it, Morn," Min hissed, "we don't have time for
this."
Morn sighed. "I'm sorry, Director. I don't have time for
anything else."
With one finger she toggled the command station pickup.
"Center, this is Ensign Morn Hyland." Now more than
ever she needed firmness, calm; needed to sound sure. But she
couldn't stifle the tremor of ruin in her voice. "I command
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hostile alien charged to fire on Suka Bator." Or any other
target the defensive chose. "Why aren't we trying to destroy
her?"
"Morn Hyland?" Center's surprise was plain despite the
intervening static. "Who the hell are you?
"Wait a minute." He must have been running feverish
commands on his board. "You aren't on Punisher's crew man-
ifest. You're—" For an instant he paused in shock. "Shit,
you're that Morn Hyland. Off Starmaster.
"What happened to Captain Ubikwe?" the man de-
manded hotly. "What happened to Min Donner? What're you
doing in command?"
Morn took a deep breath. Min was right: they absolutely
did not have time for this. But she saw only one way out of her
plight. Open fire: start a battle. Yet that decision appalled her.
She didn't have enough information to make it.
"Let me repeat myself, Center. I don't need orders. And I
don't need questions. I need to know why we're all just sitting
here while an Amnion warship sticks her guns in our faces."
She faltered momentarily, then added, "If I don't get an an-
swer, I'll be forced to take action on my own."
If Punisher opened fire, UMCPHQ and the rest of Earth's
defenses would have no choice but to join her. The cruiser
would certainly die. UMCPHQ and Suka Bator might be de-
stroyed. But Calm Horizons would die as well. The Amnioni's
knowledge of Vector's antimutagen, and her samples of
Morn's blood, would die.
That might be a trade worth making.
"Don't!" Center shot back. "Don't do anything!" Dis-
tortion complicated the fear in the man's voice. "Just wait.
"I can't talk to you. I'm not authorized—" The bridge
speakers hinted at muffled shouts in the background. Then
Morn heard, "Punisher—Ensign Hyland—hold on while I
connect you to Acting Director Lebwohl."
He didn't wait for a response. As he silenced his pickup,
the spattering hiss of transmission noise filled the speakers.
"You hear that?" Angus sneered at Min. "Acting by
damn Director Lebwohl hasn't got time for you, but he'll talk
to Morn."
"Leave the director alone," Davies put in tautly; pulled
tight by vexation and alarm. His loyalty to Min appeared to
torment him. "For all we know, he won't talk to Morn ei-
ther."
Min gave him a cold glare which made him wince. Still
she kept her retorts to herself.
Morn ignored them. She had other problems. Turning her
station, she faced Glessen on targ.
"Listen to me, targ," she said grimly. "I'm only going to
say this once. If I tell you to fire, I expect you to do it."
Glessen didn't look at her. His arms gripped his chest
truculently. "Not unless Captain Ubikwe gives the same or-
der."
"What do you expect, Ensign?" Dolph demanded at
Morn's back. "We have direct orders not to shoot. Do you
think we're going to Commit treason just because you happen
to be feeling suicidal?"
Angus flashed his grin. "Maybe it's time Ciro went back
to Trumpet.''
"I know how to do it," Ciro assented. He sounded eager.
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Without transition Morn's mouth had become cotton. She
swallowed roughly, trying to moisten her throat. "Don't be in
such a hurry. We aren't that desperate yet."
Urgently she swung toward Mikka. "Mikka, I want you to
take targ. This officer has been relieved."
Glessen started cursing, then bit his lip to stop himself.
Mikka replied with a shattered look, as if something in-
side her had broken during g, or in tach. Her reserves of in-
transigence or anger appeared to have cracked and spilled
under the pressure of her brother's madness—and Angus' use
of it. Even the blow which had cracked her skull short days
ago hadn't hurt her so much.
Nevertheless she was as loyal as Davies or Angus; as
loyal as anyone. Her commitments held her. Slowly she fum-
bled free of her belts; left her g-seat by the bulkhead and
plodded leadenly toward the targ station.
Glessen didn't move. After one quick glance at Mikka,
another at Captain Ubikwe, he sat still, staring straight ahead;
immobile with rage.
"Acting Director Lebwohl is standing by," Cray pro-
nounced acidly. Her disapproval had become bitterness.
A new clutch of tension ran along Morn's nerves. Point-
ing at Glessen, she murmured, "Angus, please." Then she left
the problem to him so that she could concentrate on Hashi
Lebwohl.
Davies aimed his gun at the targ officer, leaning forward
as if he wanted to deal with the problem himself. He must
have needed movement; decisions; anything which might help
him believe in himself. Being forced to sit still was a kind of
torment for him. But again his father didn't require his help.
Angus reached the targ station without apparent effort.
Swift as a snake, he reached past the board to unclip Glessen's
belts. With his fists knotted in Glessen's shipsuit, he heaved
the man bodily out of the targ station.
Glessen had time to hit him once—a blow Angus hardly
seemed to feel. Then the targ officer landed heavily; slapped to
the deck; skidded.
Mikka trudged mutely past him to take his place at targ.
In a low snarl Captain Ubikwe said, "You've gone too
far, Ensign." His voice shook. "If you open fire, we won't
wait for Calm Horizons to kill you. My people will do it them-
selves."
Without lifting his head from his readouts, Patrice mut-
tered, "Damn straight."
A moment later the frightened young data officer, Bydell,
said clearly, "Aye, Captain."
Angus faced each of them in turn with his teeth and his
glare and his clenched lasers. Davies brandished his handgun
threateningly. But Morn ignored them all.
The man who'd reqqed and welded Angus had somehow
become "acting director" of the UMCP. To her way of think-
ing, that development was as dangerous as Calm Horizons'
presence.
Abruptly she toggled the command pickup.
"This is Punisher. I'm Ensign Morn Hyland." The words
seemed to stick in her throat: she had to force them out. "I'm
in command here."
"Ensign Hyland," a man's voice wheezed waspishly
from the speakers. "I must confess that you continue to aston-
ish me. Indeed, you are an ongoing source of amazement. If
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pected, civilization as we know it might totter and fall."
"Is this Acting Director Lebwohl?" Morn demanded.
She recognized his voice easily enough, but she wanted to
prevent him from taking control of the situation.
Hashi ignored her question. "This time, however," he
continued as if she hadn't spoken, "I fear that you have ex-
ceeded yourself. My dear young woman, you really must re-
turn command to Captain Ubikwe. Then I will speak to
Director Donner.
"Unless you have had the temerity to dispose of them?"
he inquired severely. "I do hope not, Ensign. That would be
quite unforgivable."
Morn winced. "Captain Ubikwe is fine. So is Director
Donner." Hashi's manner grated on her sore nerves. She
couldn't afford the time—or the energy—to trade barbs with
him. "But they trust you. I don't. I'm afraid that means you'll
have to talk to me. If you won't tell me why you're holding
fire while an Amnion warship aims her proton cannon at Suka
Bator, then stop wasting my time. We have work to do."
"Do you?" Hashi's voice countered. "How curious. I
would have supposed that your work was identical to ours,
considering that you are—or claim to be—an Enforcement Di-
vision ensign. Perhaps you will enlighten me concerning your
intentions." His wheeze sharpened. "Even you will not expect
my connivance in the charade of your command if you decline
to tell me what 'work' you mean to do."
"Yes, I'll tell you," Morn retorted. Hashi's attitude an-
gered her more by the moment. Her arm throbbed in sympa-
thetic irritation. Wasn't he the man who'd programmed Angus
not to rescue her? "We have your formula—the formula for
the mutagen immunity drug you gave Nick Succorso. Vector
Shaheed analyzed it for us. If I don't get some cooperation—
and get it soon—we'll tight-beam the results to every ship and
station we can reach. We'll downlink it to Earth—to the Coun-
cil, the major cities, every regional government.
"Then we're going to open fire on Calm Horizons."
With the back of her fist, she toggled the command
pickup so that Hashi Lebwohl wouldn't hear her panting to
control her ire.
For reasons of his own, Hashi did the same. The bridge
speakers fell silent.
In the sudden quiet Vector remarked phlegmatically, "So
I guess it's a good thing we didn't arrive broadcasting. We
wouldn't have any leverage now. And we might already be
dead."
Captain Ubikwe gave a snort of contempt. "I warned you
once, Ensign," he growled. "I won't do it again. If you—"
"That's enough!" Davies raised his gun at the captain.
"If you don't shut up, I'll stop you myself, and I'll make it
permanent. Do you think we like doing it this way? Do you
think it's easy? If Ciro hadn't sabotaged the drives, God damn
it, we would still be running circles around you, and your only
choice would be to keep your opinions to yourself!''
Apparently he'd reached the end of his endurance. Inac-
tivity and the strain of defying people he respected seemed to
pain him more than he could bear.
Nevertheless his threat didn't touch Dolph. The captain's
eyes widened in mockery. "You're kidding," he croaked.
"You expect me to believe you'll kill me in cold blood? Shit,
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Before Davies could fire a retort, Min Donner spoke.
"Calm down, Dolph." She sounded unexpectedly mild;
composed and sure. Nevertheless the note of authority in her
tone was unmistakable. "What do you want them to do? What
would you do in Morn's place—if you were a good cop who's
already been sold out once''—Min may have been referring to
the UMCP's decision to let Nick take Morn off Com-Mine—
"and doesn't have any reason to think we won't do it again?
"Don't you think that formula should be made public? I
know I do. Concealing an effective antimutagen is a crime
against the people we're supposed to serve. This mess should
have been cleaned up long ago. But if it were up to us, we
wouldn't do it. We couldn't release that formula without per-
mission. If she wants to solve the problem for us, I don't
intend to get in her way." The ED director smiled without a
trace of humor. "Since I'm not in command here, I don't have
to.
"You said the same thing yourself twenty minutes ago,"
she finished flatly.
"Shit," Angus muttered in Min's direction, "now I know
we're in trouble. I felt safer when you were acting righteous."
Dolph stared at her. For a moment his mouth hung open.
Then he closed it. "That was before—" he began. But he
couldn't go on.
Abruptly the speakers crackled. Without transition Direc-
tor Lebwohl's voice returned.
"Ensign Hyland, this is Acting Director Lebwohl." His
condescension was gone, replaced by concern and a note of
frailty. "Please listen to me. I must urge you not to take such
extreme action. Since you do not acknowledge Captain
Ubikwe's authority, or Director Donner's, I presume you will
ignore mine as well. For that reason, 1 do not order you to hold
back. But I ask—no, Ensign Hyland, I implore you to recon-
sider.
"To discuss either our tactical or our strategic situations
is entirely outside my mandate. Neither you nor your compan-
ions can be allowed to affect the decisions which must be
made here.
"If you do not restrain yourself, I must order our forces
to support Calm Horizons' defense against you.''
"Christ!" Davies protested. "If we don't have the right
'to affect the decisions,' who does?"
Morn raised her hand to silence him. Hashi wasn't done.
"I will mention one detail, however," the DA director
went on, "in the hope that you will recognize its significance.
"Warden Dios is aboard Calm Horizons."
Morn flinched involuntarily. Davies yelped like a stung
kid. Min stiffened as if an abyss had suddenly opened at her
feet. Bydell and Porson blanched. With the heel of one hand,
Captain Ubikwe struck himself on the forehead once; twice.
Each blow made a moist, smacking sound, like a clap of de-
spair.
"It's got to stop," Angus remarked through his teeth.
"He said that to me once. Looks like he was serious."
Hashi's voice didn't pause.
"His shuttle delivered him to the Amnion hardly ten min-
utes ago. In my view, he is effectively a hostage. Nevertheless
the stated purpose of his presence is to negotiate the survival
of both the UMCP and the GCES."
There the DA director stopped. The speakers hissed and
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some reply which didn't fill her with horror.
MORN
Warden Dios is aboard—
Morn could hardly think.
He is effectively a hostage.
Of course. What else? Like the proton cannon trained on
Suka Bator, this threat was really aimed at Punisher. At Trum-
pet's people aboard the cruiser.
Now Morn faced an abyss of her own: a completely dif-
ferent gulf than the one in front of Min; or the same chasm
from the other side. She was the wrong person to be where she
was, doing what she did. The wrong person altogether. Her
loyalty to the UMCP director ran too deep: it had been in her
family until it became almost genetic. Could she sacrifice him
in order to tell her story; make Vector's formula public? She
didn't think so.
Someone else should be in command—someone who
could reach decisions without counting what they cost.
Angus couldn't do it. His essential programming pre-
vented him from harming UMCP personnel. And Davies
couldn't. His commitment to Warden Dios was clearer than
Morn's; less conflicted. Exhaustion and damage precluded
Mikka. Like Vector, she couldn't command Angus' support.
Morn needed a better answer.
And she had no one else to turn to.
"Director Donner—" Her voice cracked helplessly. A
surge of hysteria took her: the vertigo of the abyss. She had to
fight it down before she could speak. "I'm in command here.
But I'm not really qualified to take Captain Ubikwe's place. I
certainly can't take yours." Was that pleading she heard in her
voice? She didn't care. The stakes were too high for her. "If
you're willing, you should talk to Director Lebwohl. Offi-
cially. As the director of Enforcement Division.''
Angus faced her like the cut of a lash, his teeth clenched
on curses. But Davies radiated a relief so palpable she could
taste it. Vector watched her as if she'd become miraculous in
ways he couldn't understand.
For no apparent reason, Ciro said distinctly, "Suck every-
thing into a black hole."
Min didn't hesitate: she shifted from passivity to action in
an instant. Swift and sure, as keen as a hawk, she slapped open
her belts, left her g-seat. Despite the added g of Punisher's
deceleration, she approached the command station as if she
were pouncing. One precise touch keyed the pickup.
"Hashi, this is Min." A low thrill of release echoed in
her tone. "Ensign Hyland wants me to talk to you.
"I'm sure she's serious about opening fire if she doesn't
get some cooperation. But I'm also sure she doesn't want to
trigger wholesale slaughter, if we can avoid it. This is official,
Hashi. On the record."
"Director Donner," Hashi sighed. "I must say that hear-
ing your voice comforts me. Please offer Ensign Hyland my
congratulations for an intelligent decision."
He paused, then said, "We have much to discuss. How-
ever, you will understand that I am constrained to inquire first
how you come to be in such an unlikely predicament."
Morn understood. He wanted to know what kind of gun
was being held to Min's head.
But Min deflected the question. "It's a long story, Hashi.
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Trumpet in tow. And Trumpet carries singularity grenades." In
an acid tone, she finished, "You might mention that to Holt
Fasner the next time you report."
Her whole body seemed to concentrate on the command
station pickup as if it were a weapon. Apparently she wasn't
sure she could trust the DA director. His appointment as act-
ing director must have occurred after she'd left UMCPHQ.
"I do not report to CEO Fasner." Hashi's asperity
buzzed from the speakers. He might have been declaring an
allegiance. "He desires that I do so, naturally. Indeed, he is
altogether insistent. By good fortune, Director Dios ordered
me to refuse. And the Dragon has no authority to coerce me."
His response dismissed the usefulness of Angus' gamble
with Ciro. He may have missed the implications of Min's hint.
Or he may have considered them unimportant.
He seemed to mark time for a beat or two. Then he an-
nounced, "However, I will contrive to make it known that I
have resigned as acting director. The position is yours, Direc-
tor Donner, with all the powers and responsibilities"—he
sounded almost whimsical—"appertaining thereunto."
Morn ignored Captain Ubikwe's surprise. She had no at-
tention to spare for Angus' reaction, or anyone else's. She
focused exclusively on Min's voice, and Hashi's, trying to
make sense of the undercurrents between them; glean what she
needed for her own decisions.
"What?" Min retorted. "Are you out of your mind,
Hashi? You can't do that. Warden gave you the job." She
caught herself. "I mean, I assume he did."
Hashi's silence conveyed a shrug.
The muscles at the corner of Min's jaw bunched like a
fist. "So I also assume he had a reason. You probably know
what that is. I don't. Besides, I'm stuck out here on a ship that
doesn't take orders from me. I can't—"
"Nevertheless," Hashi cut in, "you will accept the ap-
pointment, Min. Warden Dios did indeed elevate me to my
exalted state. But he did so for the simple and sufficient reason
that you were not here. No other explanation is necessary."
Without pausing he continued, "You will ask why I desire
to be—as one might say—decommissioned. I must reply that
my motives are various.
"Surely you understand that you outrank me. Enforce-
ment Division precedes Data Acquisition. It is right and
proper that you should replace me.
"In addition—" He sighed again. "I must say this, Min,
although doubtless Ensign Hyland and her cohorts can hear
me. As Acting Director I am not favorably placed to withstand
the Dragon. I am here, precariously accessible to the great
worm and his minions, as well as to"—his tone became a
sneer—"our esteemed Council. Worse, I am also in communi-
cation with Calm Horizons. Hence I am vulnerable to any
instructions or compromises which the Amnion may extract
from Warden.
"Finally I do not desire this responsibility. Command in-
terests me—very little. And I have other duties which I believe
require my attention. If my public profile is diminished," he
explained ambiguously, "the Dragon will find it more difficult
to thwart me.
"You are now Acting Director of the UMCP, Min."
Hashi's earlier frailty had returned. "The transfer of authority
has already been logged and recorded by both Center and Ad-
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surrogate."
Roughly Min toggled the pickup. For a moment she
scanned the bridge. Then she fixed her hard gaze on Morn.
Her eyes hinted at vast dimensions, terrible depths: she could
confront gulfs which made Morn quail. She wasn't afraid to
determine the fate of humankind.
"If you're going to stop me," she said harshly, "do it
now. Once I'm Acting Director, I won't put up with any inter-
ference.
"I'll leave Punisher to you. I'll cooperate with you as
much as I can.'' The winds of a chasm blew in her voice, cold
and pitiless. "But if you don't like the decisions I make for
UMCPHQ—or for our other ships—you'll have to kill me.
And Captain Ubikwe." Dolph nodded. "And the duty of-
ficers." So did his people. "And then you'll have to start on
the rest of the crew. If I accept this job, I mean to do it."
"Morn," Angus protested quickly, warning her. He stood
near enough to protect her. "How. many times have you told
us we can't trust the cops?"
He was right, of course. No matter how she felt about
Min Donner, Morn believed that the UMCP was corrupt.
They'd stifled Intertech's mutagen immunity research. They
were owned by Holt Fasner and the UMC. The threat of Calm
Horizons' guns wouldn't make them honest.
Yet she lacked the resources to meet that threat. She could
open fire: she was capable of that. Butcher millions of people.
Get killed herself. Self-destruct— But if there was another
way out of her dilemma, she couldn't find it. She'd never been
able to find it.
She needed help.
"Davies." She turned away from Min to look around her.
"Mikka. Vector. Can any of you think of a reason why we
should trust Director Donner?"
"Sure," Davies said before anyone else replied. As if he
were Morn's father, the man he'd been named for, he an-
swered, "She's Min Donner."
Morn understood. In some ways he remembered Min
more acutely than she did. And she had nothing else to go on.
Angus swore. "What the fuck is that supposed to mean?"
Morn faced him briefly. "It means she's the right person
for the job. And I'm not." Then she returned her gaze to Min.
"Go ahead."
Min didn't hesitate. A combative flare lit her eyes as she
thumbed the pickup toggle. Without preamble she demanded,
"What duties, Hashi? You know I'm not going to refuse. Not
with so many lives at stake. Not when Warden is in this much
trouble. But if you want to drop this load on my shoulders, you
better tell me what I'm carrying."
The DA director had been waiting for her answer; but his
response avoided her question. "As Acting Director," he
stated formally, distantly, as if his thoughts were already else-
where, "your duties are at once simple and ambiguous. The
chartered purpose of the UMCP is to preserve and defend
humankind. You see the threat. A Behemoth-class Amnion
warship armed with super-light proton cannon has violated our
space. Her matter cannon and other weapons are more than
adequate to destroy UMCPHQ. Her proton gun impends over
Suka Bator. Given time, she can ruin much that is vital to us,
both planet-side and in orbit.
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tions visible to you. Center will brief you further whenever
you wish.
"Clearly you must deal with Calm Horizons."
While Hashi spoke, Davies left his g-seat and came to
stand beside Angus at the command station. Captain Ubikwe
did the same as if he thought Min might need his support.
During the rest of the DA director's speech, they seemed to
keep watch.
"The Amnioni's approach has been curious as well as
unexpected," Hashi observed. "It appears that she has a for-
mer human being aboard—one Marc Vestabule."
Morn gasped involuntarily. Davies drew a hissing breath
through his teeth. Even Mikka flinched, despite her emotional
exhaustion. They had encountered Vestabule first on Enable-
ment Station, then at Billingate. More than once, he'd boarded
Captain's Fancy to present the Amnion demand for Davies'
life. And Nick had delivered Morn to him. In a cell in the
Amnion sector of Billingate, he'd injected a mutagen into her
veins.
If she'd thought about it, she might have guessed that he
was with Calm Horizons. She'd seen a shuttle leave the Am-
nion sector before Captain's Fancy went down; before Billin-
gate was destroyed. He must have been on it.
His presence made Calm Horizons' purpose painfully ob-
vious.
Min noticed Morn's reaction, and Davies', but she didn't
interrupt Hashi.
The DA director was saying, "This individual has been
'invested with decisiveness.' Quaint phrase. Although he came
upon us of his own volition, he acknowledges the impossibil-
ity of his position. He may harm us on any imaginable scale,
but in the end Calm Horizons will surely die. And the longer
combat is postponed, the less harm we will suffer before the
end. In any case, much of our capacity for retaliation and
vengeance will remain intact. The potential cost of warfare
may be greater than the Amnion can bear.
"Because this Marc Vestabule was once human, he
claims the ability to reason in human terms. And he has in-
sisted that there is an issue—an unspecified point of conten-
tion—upon which humankind's future against the Amnion
depends, and which can only be resolved by personal negotia-
tion. On pain of Suka Bator's destruction, and our own, he has
demanded Warden's presence aboard his vessel in order to
'discuss' this matter."
For a moment Hashi seemed more present. His tone
sharpened. "Marc Vestabule has not named his concerns, but
you know them as well as I do. Certainly Warden does." Then
his abstraction distanced him again. "For that reason—among
others—he has complied with Vestabule's demand. He is
duty-bound to stave off bloodshed and damage if he can. And
he hopes to prevent the defensive from attacking you immedi-
ately. He has not spoken to us since he went aboard. His shut-
tle is in transit from Calm Horizons.
"When you receive Warden's orders, you must decide
how—or indeed whether—to carry them out."
The suggestion of frailty in Hashi's voice increased.
"Even if the Amnioni's concerns are resolved to his satisfac-
tion, I believe Warden will not be released. Calm Horizons
will retain him in an attempt to ensure our compliance. Hence
I consider him a hostage. I mention this so that you will com-
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"I understand, Hashi," Min pronounced acidly. "Just be-
cause I'm ED doesn't mean I'm stupid."
Hashi ignored her retort. Still wanly, he continued, "In
addition, you must decide how best to answer Holt Fasner's
demands. In some sense, his importunity is justified. He owns
the UMCP. Were it not for the War Powers provisions of our
charter, he would be entitled to req every scrap of data we
possess, and to treat with Calm Horizons himself. And even
under conditions of war, he retains the power to fire Warden.
Doubtless he would cite 'malfeasance' to account for his ac-
tion."
Morn and Davies both winced at the idea. Was Holt
Fasner capable of firing Warden while the UMCP director was
being held hostage? Despite the fact that Warden was risking
his life to save millions of others? Apparently Hashi thought
so.
However, Min heard Hashi's statement in other terms.
She cocked her head. "But he can't fire us, Hashi. Can he?"
"No." Hashi's reply suggested a grim satisfaction.
"Only the UMCP director can do that. The great worm must
dispense with Warden and replace him. Until then we are se-
cure."
Min permitted herself a thin sigh of relief.
"I might also say," Hashi went on, "that in my view it is
open to question whether UMCPHQ would accept a replace-
ment under these conditions. Our Warden has never inspired
more loyalty here than he does at this moment."
Morn nodded in recognition. She might have felt that way
herself.
"All right." Min straightened her shoulders. "I have the
situation. I'll talk to Center in a minute." She paused to col-
lect her thoughts, then pursued, "But you still haven't told me
what your duties are."
"Ah, Min." Hashi's voice seemed to drift away from the
speakers. He sounded almost unreachable as he asked, "Are
you entirely certain that you wish me to answer you in the
presence of Ensign Hyland and her cohorts?"
"Of course not," Min retorted. "I have no idea what you
might tell me." Immediately, however, she corrected herself.
"Yes, I'm sure. They have a right to know what's at stake.
And I'm not exactly in command here. Ensign Hyland can
shut me down if she doesn't like the way we treat her. I need
her support."
Without transition Hashi's distant frailty disappeared.
"Then I will explain." His voice became a precise wheeze in
the speakers, brisk and clear. Min must have given him the
response he wanted: a kind of permission.
Morn had the frightening sense that her position was
about to become even more difficult; that in his oblique way
Hashi would put as much pressure on her as he could.
He began by saying, "Calm Horizons has come upon us
at a complex time. As you might suppose, our estimable Gov-
erning Council is in emergency session as we speak. I believe
President Len opened the proceedings—oh, perhaps ten min-
utes ago. Thus events conspire to produce marvels of synchro-
nicity.
"As you might further suppose, our newly anointed col-
league, PR director Koina Hannish, attends the session. She
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Morn started to ask what had happened to Godsen Frik;
then bit the question down. She wasn't sure she wanted an
answer. It was common knowledge that he'd worked for Holt
Fasner.
"I venture to say, however," Hashi expounded, "that no
supposition will prepare you for the nature of the mandate
which Warden has given her."
Min listened in a state of coiled poise; but she didn't
interrupt.
"Director Hannish," Hashi pronounced, "has been in-
structed to reveal that our Captain Thermopyle is not an es-
caped illegal—as I personally assured the Council scant days
ago, on Warden's direct orders—but is rather a welded cyborg
sent to effect Billingate's destruction. By implication, of
course, she must admit that Captain Thermopyle's success has
motivated the acts of war committed by Calm Horizons."
Angus jerked up his head. "I'm damned," he murmured
in astonishment. "He was serious. That fucker was serious."
Morn had no idea what he meant—or why Warden might
have ordered Hashi to lie to the Council—but she didn't ask.
Hashi wasn't done.
"Further," he continued, "she has been told to describe
the manipulations by which passage of the Preempt Act was
obtained."
Davies frowned confusion at Morn. He hadn't heard
Angus explain the Preempt Act. Min's clenched attention, and
Dolph's closed stare, revealed nothing. Angus glanced at
them, then whispered to Davies, "I'll tell you later."
"Lastly," Hashi stated, "if corroborative evidence can be
obtained, she has been authorized to accuse CEO Fasner of
sending kazes against both the GCES and the UMCP."
Min's head jerked aside as if to avoid a blow—an instinc-
tive reaction of which she seemed unaware. One hand clutched
at her hip, groping for the gun she usually carried. Captain
Ubikwe made a choking sound deep in his throat. In the dis-
tance Glessen muttered, "Fasner? That bastard?"
Kazes—? Mutely Morn turned to Angus.
He shrugged. Apparently this was a subject he knew noth-
ing about.
Only Patrice attended his board—Patrice and Mikka. The
rest of the bridge crew stared at Min in shock or incredulity.
Tensely Min asked her pickup, "Is it true?"
"I believe so."
Past a veil of thrust static Hashi continued, "You will be
unaware that there has been another attack. In addition to the
kaze who threatened Captain Vertigus, and the one who slew
poor Godsen, a third attempted detonation during a session of
the Council, specifically during a session in which Captain
Vertigus attempted—and failed—to obtain passage for a Bill
of Severance which would have relieved us of the Dragon's
authority."
Min bit down questions while Hashi said, "Fortunately
our casualties were slight—and included none of the Mem-
bers. Unfortunately the good captain's Bill was defeated.
However—again fortunately—the kaze's earthly remains hint
at his origins.
"Hence our belief that these assaults derive from the
great worm in his lair."
Grimly the DA director finished, "In essence, both Chief
of Security Mandich and I have been assigned the same duties.
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tiate Director Hannish's accusation. Considering that the
emergency session has already begun, the need for evidence is
urgent. That is my work, Min, and I mean to do it."
"Good God, Hashi," Min breathed when he was done.
"He's going after Fasner. He's trying to bring the Dragon
down."
"I drew the same conclusion," Hashi answered laconi-
cally.
 Min might not have heard him. A moment later she
added, "This will kill Warden. Even if he succeeds, it'll kill
him."
Again Hashi's voice receded. Clearly he wanted to stop
talking and get to work. "Perhaps that explains his willingness
to hazard himself aboard Calm Horizons.''
Going after Fasner, Morn thought dumbly. She felt that
she'd been stricken stupid. Trying to bring the Dragon down.
So much had happened—there was so much she didn't know.
Authorized to accuse— Kazes had attacked the GCES and the
UMCP? Sent by Fasner? Hashi said it was true, but it didn't
make sense.
Why in the name of God—?
Vector stood by the command station. Morn hadn't seen
him move: she only realized he was there when he cleared his
throat. His eyes shone a clear blue above his soft smile.
Quietly he remarked, "This might be an especially good
time for the Council to hear what we have to say."
He knew no more than she did; had no more to go on. Yet
he seemed to grasp the situation better than she did.
Was he right? Was Min? Was Warden Dios at last trying
to clean up the UMCP?
She couldn't think of another explanation. It'll kill him.
He was willing to die in order to challenge the Dragon. Will-
ing to be held hostage—willing to risk mutation—
He'd sent this Koina Hannish to Earth to level charges
against CEO Fasner. Then he'd put himself out of reach so
that Fasner couldn't give him any more orders; force him to
commit any more crimes.
Or fire him.
Morn reeled inwardly. Gulfs gaped at her on all sides.
The sheer scale of the desperation which must have driven
Warden to such extremes stunned her. He understood self-
destruct as well as she did—
But what if he was wrong? What if Holt Fasner hadn't
sent kazes?—or if Hashi Lebwohl and Chief Mandich failed to
find evidence? What then?
Then the UMC CEO might survive the challenge. And
the only man in human space who could have opposed him
would be gone.
Unless somebody intervened—
Unless somehow Morn did what Vector suggested.
Min had recovered faster than Morn could imagine. She
was already in command of herself; prepared to make choices
and take action. She may have been training for this crisis all
her life.
"All right, Hashi," she told the pickup decisively. "Two
more quick points, and I'll let you go.
"Can that defensive read our scan net?"
The DA director sighed in the distance. "Surely. This is
Earth, not the frontier. The volume of traffic demands data
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have had no reason to encrypt the net."
"Then shut it down," Min ordered. "Our ships can get
by with their own sensors."
"Calm Horizons also has sensors," Hashi observed.
"Just do it. The less help we give her the better."
"As you say," Hashi assented. "And the second point?"
"Tell Center to relay communications from Calm Hori-
zons to me. Also anything from Fasner. And the emergency
session. But keep it all tight-beamed. I don't want eavesdrop-
pers.
"I'll talk to Center as soon as I sort out some of the
confusion here."
Hashi was in a hurry to leave. "Farewell, Director Don-
ner," he said at once. "Your orders will be obeyed." Despite
his eagerness, however, he paused long enough to add, "I do
not envy you your responsibilities."
Then an audible click silenced his pickup. The speakers
were left with nothing but static and open space.
"Good-bye, Hashi," Min murmured into the void. "I'll
talk to you again. If we both live long enough."
She set an example which Morn felt compelled to match.
Davies' wordless urgency required it: Vector's understanding
and Mikka's prostration and Ciro's madness begged for it.
Captain Ubikwe and his people deserved it. Even Angus
Thermopyle, welded and damned, had a right to it.
A better answer.
She couldn't imagine that Marc Vestabule would allow
her time or space to address the Council.
Cray closed the speakers, and a new quiet filled the
bridge. Everyone around the command station might have
been waiting for Morn to speak.
She didn't look at any of them. Her eyes were fixed on the
scan blip which represented Calm Horizons, where Warden
Dios had gone to meet his doom.
"I think," she said softly, "we should try to rescue
him."
There was no one else who could make the attempt,
KOINA
With a war of one kind im-
pending hundreds of k over
her head, and a war of another directly in front of her, Koina
Hannish entered the crowded chamber which Abrim Len had
decided to use until the Council's formal meeting hall could
be cleaned and refurbished.
This room was normally set aside for conferences with
the planet's news dogs; but the communications gear and data
terminals of the video networks had been commandeered, re-
routed, and coded for the use of the Members and their aides.
The twenty-one voting Members and a restricted number of
their aides and advisers clustered at the terminals they'd been
assigned, studying UMCPHQ's downlink, while President Len
scurried around the room like a frightened hare, fussily ar-
ranging people to suit some standard of precedence or com-
mon interest known only to himself. Perhaps, Koina thought,
he kept himself busy in this way in order to avoid demands or
special pleading; attempts to take over the agenda of the emer-
gency session.
In any case no one seemed to pay much attention to him.
Most of the room was in the grip of a nascent hysteria which
seethed from wall to wall independent of the President. The
whole space reeked of visceral terrors like rank sweat.


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At first it appeared that there was no place left for her.
Despite Len's restrictions, the chamber already held more
people than it had been designed to accommodate. Then she
spotted three vacant seats in a corner near the dais usually
used by Members to address newsdogs. They didn't offer ac-
cess to a terminal; but she didn't need one. She had two of her
PR communications techs with her: one to concentrate on her
private downlink, one to keep UMCPHQ informed of what
happened here. Deputy Chief Ing and his guards could stand
against the walls.
Unfortunately the empty seats were right beside those oc-
cupied by UMC First Executive Assistant Cleatus Fane and his
staff. Apparently someone—Abrim Len, or Fane himself—
thought it was time for the UMC and the UMCP to stand
together. The Dragon's FEA also had no terminal, and didn't
need one: like Koina's, his people were all communications
techs laden with gear—dedicated relays, encryption boxes,
transceivers. Cleatus himself had a PCR jacked into one ear
and a throat pickup patched beside his larynx. He may have
been listening to the downlink, or to instructions from HO:
Koina had no way of knowing.
She still reeled inwardly at the most recent news from
Center—the news of Warden's departure for Calm Horizons.
And the idea of sitting near Fane made her skin crawl. He was
her most dangerous opponent; more her enemy than Maxim
Igensard. To postpone the moment when she would have to
endure his proximity, she paused inside the doors to take stock
of the chamber.
Because she wanted to see a friendly face, she looked first
for Captain Vertigus, the United Western Bloc Senior Mem-
ber. He didn't appear to be present, however. His Junior Mem-
ber, Sigurd Carsin, sat shuffling a sheaf of hardcopy between
Vest Martingale, the Com-Mine Station Member, and Sen
Abdullah, Senior Member for the Eastern Union. In their
lesser ways, they were also Koina's opponents. Sigurd Carsin
seemed to attack the UMCP for the same reasons that Sixten
Vertigus distrusted Holt Fasner. Vest Martingale was responsi-
ble for Maxim Igensard's appointment as Special Counsel to
investigate the Angus Thermopyle case: her constituency's
reputation depended on her efforts to tarnish the UMCP's in-
tegrity. And Sen Abdullah—lean, hawk-faced, and fanatical,
with a perpetual sneer between his dark cheeks and his sharp,
silver beard—appeared to be on a personal crusade against
Warden Dios out of religious fervor or prejudice. However,
rumor suggested that his hatred had more to do with money
than religion: his constituency had lost staggering sums when
Warden had helped "arrange" Holt Fasner's takeover of Sag-
ittarius Exploration years ago.
Then Koina spotted Sixten. She'd missed him because he
was obscured by the Special Counsel. Although Maxim sat in
front of Captain Vertigus, his public posture was typically so
condensed and deferential that no one would have been hidden
by it. However, Sixten had slumped down in his seat until he
was almost invisible. His eyes were closed, and his mouth
hung open: he was clearly asleep.
Koina shrugged ruefully and continued scanning the
room.
She'd only been the UMCP's PR director for a short time,
but she recognized all the Members by name and reputation.
Punjat Silat, the Senior Member for the Combined Asian Is-



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lands and Peninsulas, was one of the few she believed would
make decisions rationally, despite the incipient panic around
him. Blaine Manse, the Member for Betelgeuse Primary, was
another. Her reputation suggested that she was more interested
in sex than politics. But according to Hashi's reports—inher-
ently more accurate than Godsen's—Blaine's countless pec-
cadilloes camouflaged a keen mind with a clear sense of
purpose.
Tel Burnish, the Member from Valdor Industrial, usually
held himself apart from debates about the UMC and the
UMCP. However, now that his Station had been threatened by
Calm Horizons he might begin to take sides.
Most of the other Members kept lower profiles, especially
those with any history of resistance to the UMC. The fear
which poured steadily into the chamber from the UMCPHQ
downlink caused them to rally around the only obvious, tangi-
ble locus of power: Cleatus Fane. This was patently more com-
fortable for the "votes" Holt Fasner "owned" outright: New
Outreach, Terminus, Sagittarius Unlimited, SpaceLab Annexe,
and both Members for the Pacific Rim Conglomerate. Men
and women who'd occasionally voted against the Dragon, or
who'd made efforts to disguise their loyalties, had a more
awkward time approaching the only reassurance any of them
could imagine.
The UMCP belonged to Holt Fasner. He possessed virtu-
ally all the effective muscle in human space. If he couldn't
save the Members—who were, after all, trapped on Suka Bator
because Warden Dios had sealed the island after the most re-
cent kaze attack—no one could.
Koina Hannish had been sent here to cause even more
panic. And the mood of the Council was already against her.
Many of the Members were arrayed in opposition. That tight-
ened her own fear to a pitch she wasn't sure she could stand.
Did she really believe that she would be able to carry out
Warden's orders? What if undermining him now proved to be
the worst mistake she could possibly make? What then?
Then she might find herself praying for Punisher to fire
down ruin on the island. Death would be easier to face than
her culpability for a disaster of such magnitude.
But Warden didn't consider it a mistake.
He'd had any number of opportunities to rescind his or-
ders—yet he'd left them in force. Nothing has changed. Go
ahead. He'd taken himself to the Amnioni, knowing what
Koina would do on Earth: what she might do, if she had the
courage; and might succeed at, if Hashi Lebwohl or Chief of
Security Mandich supplied her with evidence in time. Then
the question became, not, Would she be able to obey him? but,
Could she bear to let him down?
Across the room, Abrim Len caught her eye and gestured
frantically toward the seats he'd reserved for her. At the same
time Forrest Ing stepped to her side and touched her arm.
"You'd better take your place, Director," he said in her
ear. "From the look of things, Len'll have a coronary if he
doesn't get this session started soon."
She nodded. "Security has this room covered, I hope,"
she whispered. "A kaze here now—"
A blast in this constricted space wouldn't leave any dam-
age for the Amnion to do.
"We're using all our own people," Forrest answered
softly. "We've screened them down to their genes. And the
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think you're safe." He paused to frown at the FEA, then
added, "Unless Fane or one of his techs is full of explosives
and wants to die."
Koina nodded again. No doubt Cleatus was full of explo-
sives—metaphorically speaking. But she was sure he had no
intention of committing suicide. The Dragon didn't attract that
kind of loyalty. If Hashi was right, the recent attacks hadn't
been designed to destroy the GCES. Instead they were meant
to strengthen Fasner's hold on the UMCP.
With the Deputy Chief at her side, she shifted through the
crowd toward her assigned seat. When her techs were settled,
and Forrest had taken a place at the wall behind her, she sat
down.
Cleatus gave her an iron smile as she took her place.
Ordinarily he projected the benevolence of a Father Christmas:
he had a talent for it. But he'd set aside his air of expansive
generosity. His eyes held a lupine glitter, and his beard bris-
tled like wire.
"Director Hannish." He inclined his head in a small bow.
"I'm here, as you requested." As Forrest Ing had urged on her
behalf. "I must say, I'm eager to learn why you considered
such a message necessary. Or appropriate. Perhaps we'll be
able to discuss it later.
"You played your part well in the last session." His tone
repaid the threat Forrest had implied for her. "But this time
we aren't 'playing.' I hope you realize that. Your Warden Dios
has refused to speak to the CEO since this crisis started.
Whether you know it or not, he's left you out on a limb. If I
have to, I'll cut it off.
"If I have to," he promised quietly, "I'll reduce the
whole damn tree to kindling."
Koina replied with a smile of her own—a smooth, bland,
professional expression, immaculate and meaningless.
"You're kind to warn me." She kept her voice low. "May I
ask you a question?"
Fane let her see his teeth. "Of course."
"I'm curious. How old are you?"
He closed his mouth. His eyes widened slightly, as if
she'd suggested an insult. "What does that have to do with
anything?"
Her smile brightened. "Nothing at all. As I say, it's mere
curiosity. I was wondering whether CEO Fasner has shared
any of his medical longevity with you."
She meant, How long do you think he'll keep you alive?
What do you really think you're worth to him?
The FEA appeared to understand her. He met her gaze
without blinking. "As it happens, Director Hannish, I'm in
exceptionally good health."
"I'm so glad." Behind her professional mask, she was
secretly pleased—and relieved—that she could still hold her
own despite her fear. "There's already too much death in the
air."
She didn't think he would heed her own warning. But his
scowl showed that he'd heard it.
While she'd been speaking to Cleatus, President Len had
at last made his way to the dais and picked up his ceremonial
mace—what Hashi called his "cudgel." Now he began to
bang it on the podium.
"Order, please." He hefted the mace as if he might need
it to ward off blows. "This is an emergency session of the



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Governing Council for Earth and Space. Come to order,
please."
The tense exchanges of the Members and their aides were
stilled almost immediately. Worry throbbed across the silence.
"You all know why we're here." Len sounded weary to
the point of exhaustion; reluctant; beaten. His stance behind
the podium seemed oddly vulnerable. Neither his personality
nor his experience fitted him to lead the Council in a time of
war. "You've been listening to the downlink. But if you're as
scared as I am"—he sighed—"you may find the whole crisis
a little confusing. Just to get us started, I'll ask UMCPPR
Director Koina Hannish to explain it. She may know some-
thing we don't."
He turned to Koina, gestured her toward the podium.
"Director Hannish?"
She stood so that she could see faces better; but she
didn't leave her place; didn't waste time trying to dissociate
herself from Cleatus Fane. She hadn't expected Abrim to call
on her. Nevertheless she was ready—at least for this.
"Thank you, Mr. President. For the moment I have noth-
ing to tell you that you haven't already heard. In the interest of
clarity, however, I'll summarize the situation.
"Because of the incursion of an Amnion warship into our
space, Warden Dios has invoked the War Powers provisions of
the UMCP charter. The alien vessel is a Behemoth-class de-
fensive named Calm Horizons. As you've heard, she out-
powers and outguns any of our ships. Only the recently
commissioned battlewagon Sledgehammer comes close. More
to the point, however, is the fact that she's armed with super-
light proton cannon.
"That cannon is aimed at us.
"Director Dios has ordered a cordon of our ships to close
around Calm Horizons. Already it's strong enough to ensure
that the Amnioni dies if she fires on us. Soon it'll be strong
enough to contain the damage we may suffer."
"What does that mean, Director Hannish?" Sen Abdul-
lah interrupted rudely. He strove to convey command; but his
voice had an unpleasant whine which made him sound petu-
lant.
"In twelve hours," Koina answered firmly, "Sledge-
hammer will come into range. Then our cordon will have
enough firepower to protect everything except Suka Bator and
UMCPHQ.
"Unfortunately"—she permitted herself a small shrug—
"unlike matter cannon, a super-light proton beam isn't hin-
dered or weakened by atmosphere." And atmosphere was the
island's only defense. "Calm Horizons can hit Suka Bator
directly and often. She simply cannot be killed quickly enough
to save us.
"For that reason," she finished as if she were offering her
audience hope, "and because we have no way of knowing
whether the Amnioni will hold fire for twelve more hours,
Director Dios has gone aboard Calm Horizons alone in an
attempt to negotiate for our survival."
At once questions burst at her from the clenched gather-
ing.
"What does he think that will accomplish?"
"What does he have to negotiate with?"
"Why hasn't that ship opened fire yet?"
The Members were too alarmed to wait for Abrim to rec-
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"Why aren't you already shooting at her?"
The last demand came from Sigurd Carsin. Koina an-
swered it first because it led naturally to the others.
"Director Dios held fire because Calm Horizons did."
This was her job: she'd taken an oath to field questions
like this. And it was easier than other things she'd sworn to
do; duties she hadn't tackled yet.
"It has been obvious from the first," she explained, "that
the Amnioni threatens Suka Bator. As soon as anyone starts
shooting, all of us here are dead. But Calm Horizons hasn't
fired. Clearly there's something she wants—and she wants it
more than she wants to damage us.
"For all we know, she's here to defect. Or to prevent a
defection." Koina suggested those unlikely possibilities in the
hope that they might distract some of the dread around her.
"We have many reasons to think the Amnion fear a war.
"Director Dios has gone to Calm Horizons to find out
what the Amnion do want. And, if he can, to discuss ways of
satisfying them without compromising our safety in human
space, or bringing down unimaginable destruction on our
planet—and ourselves."
Again Sen Abdullah disdained the courtesy of waiting for
Len to call on him. "Does your Director Dios think he has the
right to" make those kinds of decisions?"
Koina fixed her PR smile tightly in place. "Senior Mem-
ber Abdullah, you have a terminal. If you wish, you can con-
sult the exact wording of the War Powers provisions. Or you
can trust me when I say that Director Dios is doing his sworn
duty. Under conditions of war, the UMCP—and the UMCP
alone—is responsible for the safety of human space and the
survival of humankind."
At last the President made an attempt to regain control of
the proceedings. "Calm down, Sen, please," he said plead-
ingly. "We're all familiar with your opposition to Director
Dios. I promise—you'll get your chance to speak." For rea-
sons Koina didn't understand, Abrim turned a quick glance in
Maxim's direction. "In fact, I'll recognize you first. When I'm
done.
"Until then, please don't waste our time finding fault
with the UMCP director's mission aboard Calm Horizons. As
Director Hannish says, he's gone there to keep us alive. No
matter what you think of him, you can't believe he means to
harm us with this. No one has ever accused Warden Dios of
treason."
"Until now," Abdullah muttered darkly. Instead of con-
tinuing, however, he resumed his seat and closed his mouth.
Len sighed his relief, then nodded to Koina. "Thank you,
Director Hannish. I'm sure we'll have more questions later.
For now you've summarized the situation admirably."
Dismissed, she sat down. Now that she was done, she
noticed that her knees were trembling. Nervous sweat ran like
skinworms across her ribs and down her spine. Involuntarily
she looked over at Cleatus to gauge his reaction.
He met her gaze and smiled approval.
At that moment, under the bale of his approbation, Koina
Hannish reached a final decision about the meaning of her life.
When she realized that her account of events had pleased the
Dragon's chief servant, she became sure of herself: who she
was; what she meant to do.
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her, and her knees stopped trembling.
President Len still held his mace, but didn't swing it.
"Members," he said to the gathering, "let's begin." A small
tremor weakened his voice at first; but it faded as he went
along. "Director Hannish has outlined the immediate crisis.
It's time for us to do the work we were elected for."
Koina had the impression that he was delivering a speech
he'd memorized. Perhaps he feared he wouldn't be able to
hold his thoughts together otherwise.
"To begin, we must distinguish between the immediate
crisis and the general emergency. The immediate crisis is le-
gally, effectively, in Director Dios' hands. He will deal with
Calm Horizons to the best of his abilities. In similar fashion,
his station, UMCPHQ, has been covering the planet with prep-
arations for disaster. Earlier we were restricted from leaving
this island. You know why. Now there's nowhere we could go
in time to save ourselves.
"Apart from keeping us alive, however, there's much that
can be done, and is being done, for the people we represent.
Population centers are being evacuated. Underground installa-
tions of all kinds—geothermal tapping stations, storage facili-
ties and repositories, shielded police and military centers,
deep-rock research establishments—have become bunkers.
Food and water are being gathered against the aftermath of an
attack. Secure communication and distribution networks are
being activated. Much of the planet's weaponry has been di-
rected into space.
"All this is necessary and admirable. I take it as evidence
of Director Dios' good faith—and foresight."
Again the President turned an unexplained look toward
Special Counsel Igensard. As he did so, an abrupt movement
brought Sixten Vertigus into view behind Maxim. At last the
old Senior Member was awake and listening.
"Nevertheless," Len continued, "it's also desperately in-
adequate. For too long, we've believed that if we fought a war
it would be"—he gestured toward the ceiling with his mace—
"elsewhere. Somewhere out among the stars. Not here. We've
planned and built and provisioned for a war somewhere else.
"In that sense, we aren't ready for the immediate crisis.
And there's nothing UMCPHQ can do to compensate for it."
Abrim paused. When he resumed, his voice held a note of
coercion, as if he were forcing himself to make assertions
which discomfited him; assertions which would produce con-
tention rather than consensus.
"However, our unreadiness is part of what I call the gen-
eral emergency. The general emergency concerns the policies,
the institutions, and, yes, the personnel which have brought
about the immediate crisis. If the immediate crisis is in Direc-
tor Dios' hands—as it must be—then the general emergency is
in ours. If we aren't ready for a local war, the responsibility is
ours. And if any person, decision, or organization has called
down Calm Horizons on our heads, we are again responsible.
"Those are the issues this session must consider," Len
finished tightly. "I propose to keep you all here until we do
consider them."
As she listened Koina was momentarily bemused. She
hadn't expected so much lucidity from Abrim. Behind his con-
genital fear of conflict, he apparently had a good mind. He
may even have had a sense of honor. His statement was the
opposite of Sen Abdullah's accusative demands. If a simple
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as clearly as Abrim did, there was hope: hope of avoiding
panic, if nothing else; perhaps hope for one or two intelligent
decisions as well.
Unfortunately Len had promised to let Abdullah speak
first.
Before the President could go on, however, Cleatus inter-
jected, "Mr. President, if I may—?"
Abrim turned to face Fane and Koina. His eyes were
moist with strain and worry. If he'd allowed it, his weak chin
might have trembled. Preparing and delivering a lucid opening
statement must have been costly for him.
"Of course, Mr. Fane. We welcome comments from the
UMC." He nodded at Koina. "Or the UMCP."
The FEA rose smoothly to his feet. At once everyone in
the room shifted to stare at him, some avid for any reprieve the
Dragon might devise, others in mistrust or disapproval. Koina
herself stared, trying to gauge the depth of his game.
As he spoke, complex intentions disguised each other in
his tone. She thought she heard concern, scorn, humor, reas-
surance, threats; but she wasn't sure of any of them. His stiff
beard surrounded his mouth with an impenetrable tangle.
"Mr. President, your summation of the responsibilities of
the Council is especially apt. Some of you may be aware that
apart from UMCPHQ, the UMC Home Office is the only
armed station orbiting Earth. And let me say, by the way, that
if they're needed those arms will surely be used in our de-
fense. The point I wish to make, however, is that HO is armed
because Holt Fasner—no one else—sets policy for the UMC. I
mean no disrespect when I say that he has always taken the
dangers of dealing with the Amnion more seriously than the
Council."
Koina allowed herself to cock an eyebrow. Under other
circumstances she might have asked, Our defense? Who do
you mean? Those of us here against Calm Horizons? All hu-
mankind? Or do you mean just the UMC?
"I'm sure what you say is true, Mr. Fane," Sixten re-
marked unexpectedly. He didn't stand; ignored dozens of
heads craning to peer at him. His voice was high and thin with
age, but he managed to make himself heard clearly. "Are you
quite sure that arming HO is consistent with the terms of the
UMC charter?"
At once President Len intervened to deflect the challenge;
the insult. "Captain Vertigus, please. I must have order. I rec-
ognized Mr. Fane out of courtesy to an interested guest. If you
wish to be recognized, I can only assure you that your turn
will come. Any Member who wishes to speak will be heard.
But this is an emergency session of the Governing Council for
Earth and Space, and it will be conducted in good order."
"Order." Sixten flapped his hands dismissively. "Rules.
I'm too old for all this, Abrim. By the time you get around to
me, I may be dead. You ask him. Ask Mr. Fane if the UMC
charter provides for an armed station."
Exasperation hunched Abrim's shoulders. "Captain Ver-
tigus—"
"I'll answer, Mr. President," Cleatus offered without
hesitation. "Maybe then we can go on." He brandished his
whiskers to suggest perplexity. "Although why anyone would
object to HO's guns at a time like this is beyond me."
Koina could think of a reason. She had no difficulty
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defy the Council. But she didn't say anything. The time hadn't
come for her to speak.
The President sighed. "Perhaps you're right, Mr. Fane. If
you're willing, please go ahead."
Fane bowed from the waist. "Thank you, Mr. President."
Then he pointed his smile at Sixten.
"Captain Vertigus, the UMC charter neither provides for
nor disallows an armed Home Office. You can look it up if you
want to. I'll happily refer you to the relevant subsections."
"Don't bother," Sixten muttered.
The FEA shrugged. "In the absence of an explicit restric-
tion," he concluded, "we have cannon—and shields—because
CEO Fasner decided we should."
"Are you satisfied, Captain?" Len made no attempt to
conceal his vexation.
"Satisfied?" Sixten's voice cracked; perhaps deliber-
ately. "Of course not. But I'll shut up anyway. Maybe you'll
be kind enough to wake me when it's my turn."
With another bow, Cleatus seated himself.
On impulse Koina leaned toward him and whispered, "I
take it you think the government should be turned over to CEO
Fasner?" She kept her voice too low to be overheard.
Fane's eyes flashed. "We're staring down the guns of an
Amnion defensive because your director screwed up," he re-
plied softly. "But he won't face the problem—or the conse-
quences. He refuses to talk to his boss. Instead he's aboard
Calm Horizons making decisions for the whole human race.
Who knows what he's giving away to keep us alive—or cover
up his mistakes? And there's nothing the Council can do about
it. He can hide behind those War Powers provisions until we
all dry up and wither away.
"Don't you think it's time someone with a few brains and
a sense of responsibility took charge?"
Koina met his gaze and smiled like sugar. "Personally,
Mr. Fane, I would vote for you."
As soon as she saw his disconcerted frown, she turned her
attention back to the dais and President Len. There were times,
she thought, when being a woman—and being what others
called beautiful—gave her a significant advantage. Which was
fine, as far as it went; but she needed more.
She needed leverage. Without it the things she'd been
ordered to say might give Holt Fasner just the excuse he was
waiting for; an excuse to take direct control of the UMCP.
Then he would be the only effective power in human
space.
Nothing has changed. Go ahead.
Fervently she prayed that Warden had taken steps to pre-
vent such a disaster.
President Len had made his opening statement. Appar-
ently he had no more to say. "If we're quite done with inter-
ruptions," he announced now, "it's time to address the issues
of this session. I'm not going to limit the discussion in any
way, except to preserve order. I hope, however, that you'll
restrict yourselves to the subjects I've outlined. If you don't,
I'll accept motions from the floor to cut you off.
"To begin, I recognize the Senior Member of the Eastern
Union, Sen Abdullah."
Carefully Abrim set his mace down on the podium as if
he were disavowing responsibility. Then he retreated to a seat
at the back of the dais.
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half-shouted. "Members!" He may have been trying to cam-
ouflage his habitual whine with volume. "I was not the first to
use the word 'treason' in this room, but I can promise
you I won't be the last. It must be said now, and it must be
said often. Treason! Warden Dios has committed treason
against the GCES, treason against the planet Earth, treason
against all humankind.
"By the rules of order, I yield the floor to Special Coun-
sel Maxim Igensard."
Len steepled one hand over his eyes. Slowly he nodded.
Oh, shit, Koina thought. So that's how it comes. Not from
Cleatus. From Maxim. Of course. Cleatus didn't want to look
complicit. Or maybe he wasn't complicit. Maybe he just knew
that Maxim would do his work for him.
A moment ago she'd dreaded facing Sen Abdullah's fa-
natic petulance. But now she realized that the EU Senior
Member would have been a far easier opponent than Maxim
Igensard. Even the FEA would have been easier—Abdullah
would have undermined himself: his hate was too obvious, too
partisan, and too irrational to sway the Council for long. And
Cleatus made too much money in Holt Fasner's service.
Maxim had far more credibility, if for no other reason than
because he had no constituency; no vested interest. As long as
he did his job, he was safe no matter what his investigation
uncovered.
With his ego and his intelligence, he was the perfect
tool-
Rising from his seat, he moved through the crowd cau-
tiously, like a man trying to minimize his profile. Two steps
took him up onto the dais. There he approached the podium,
positioned himself behind it, and gripped it by the edges with
both hands as if he were anxious and needed support. Al-
though he wasn't as small as he made himself seem, only his
head and shoulders showed above the rim of the podium.
"Mr. President." He turned a courteous bow toward
Abrim. "Members of the Governing Council for Earth and
Space. First Executive Assistant Fane. Protocol Director Han-
nish. Thank you for your attention. I won't waste it.
"You may think I exceed my mandate by speaking to you
now. I've been charged to investigate the so-called 'Angus
Thermopyle case'—his arrest, conviction, and subsequent es-
cape—not to comment on matters of war policy. For that rea-
son, I wish to make two points immediately clear. First, I am
here as the assigned proxy of Eastern Union Senior Member
Sen Abdullah." Maxim nodded respectfully at Abdullah. "I
have both his right to speak and his vote. Confirmation is
available from your terminals."
A rustle of movement followed as Members told their
aides to check. Koina didn't bother, however. She was sure
that Igensard hadn't made any procedural mistakes.
"Second," the Special Counsel said, "I am here because
I believe that the 'Angus Thermopyle case' has a special bear-
ing on Calm Horizons' presence in our space, if I'm right,
then what I have to say is directly, explicitly relevant to the
issues of this session. And, whether we like it or not, we'll all
be forced to use the term 'treason.' "
Koina couldn't contain herself. "Forgive me, Mr. Igen-
sard," she said so that everyone would hear her. " 'Treason'
is a highly emotional word. You haven't earned the right to use
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At once Maxim retorted, "But I will, Director Hannish.
Toward that end, I mean to examine you shortly. Perhaps
you'll take my charges seriously enough to answer them truth-
fully. With or without your cooperation, however, I will earn
the right."
Then he returned his attention to the Council.
"As you recall, President Len called this session before
Calm Horizons appeared here. He called it because he'd re-
ceived a formal announcement from UMCP director Warden
Dios, informing him that a Behemoth-class Amnion defensive
—apparently this same Calm Horizons—had encroached on
the Massif-5 system. The information had reached Director
Dios by gap courier drones from Valdor Industrial and UMCP
cruiser Punisher. The first, from VI, reported Calm Horizons'
incursion and Punisher's engagement. The second, from
UMCP Enforcement Division director Min Donner aboard
Punisher, reported that the cruiser had broken off the engage-
ment, in part because she was too heavily damaged to prose-
cute her attack successfully, and in part to supply protection
for another UMCP vessel, the gap scout Trumpet, believed to
be the target of Calm Horizons' incursion."
The Special Counsel didn't use notes. Apparently he
didn't need them. He gave the impression that he never forgot
anything. His voice sharpened as he spoke, and his physical
presence seemed to expand, as if what he said made him
larger.
"Because we've all been quite naturally appalled and
alarmed by Director Dios' information," he stated, "we have
perhaps failed to notice that much of it makes no sense. In
fact, however, the director's announcement is far more signifi-
cant for what it conceals than for what it reveals."
" 'Conceals'?" Captain Vertigus interrupted scornfully.
"He was in a hurry, for God's sake. What do you want him to
do, write you a goddamn white paper on human-Amnion rela-
tions?"
"What I want is simple, Captain Vertigus," Maxim shot
back. "The truth. Nothing more. Nothing less."
Koina applauded Sixten in silence; but she didn't support
his objection. Instead she made use of the distraction. She
thought she could see where Igensard was headed. I mean to
examine you shortly— Turning away, she leaned toward her
communications techs. "Flare Chief Mandich for me," she
whispered carefully, hardly moving her lips. "Flare Director
Lebwohl. Tell them I'm running out of time here."
The tech responsible for keeping UMCPHQ informed of
events nodded. "Right away, Director," she breathed.
As the tech obeyed, Koina straightened herself to listen
again. Cleatus treated her to a cold smile, which she ignored.
"Time and again," Maxim was saying, "we've been
given reason to believe the Amnion don't desire war. Their
imperialism—rampant though it may be—is of another kind.
In the simplest terms, their production methods aren't ade-
quate to supply the ships and materiel a war would demand.
"This raises a number of questions.
"Why now have the Amnion elected to violate a peace on
which they're dependent? And why did they do so by en-
croaching on Massif-5, a system far better defended than
Earth—indeed, quite capable of repulsing and even destroying
the defensive? How can a mere UMCP gap scout justify such
action? What is at stake, that having failed to kill Trumpet
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coming here?
"Director Dios' announcement gives no answer. Perhaps
a 'white paper' on the subject would have been useful."
Igensard glared briefly at Captain Vertigus, then contin-
ued like a cutting laser.
"Neither does the UMCP director explain why Punisher
was there to meet Calm Horizons' incursion. The cruiser had
just finished an arduous tour of duty around VI, and had re-
turned to Earth for much-needed leave and repair. Her replace-
ment, the UMCP cruiser Vehemence, had already reached
Massif-5. Yet Punisher never docked at UMCPHQ. As soon as
Director Donner joined ship, Punisher departed on another
mission.
"My investigation has revealed—another detail omitted
by Director Dios—that the cruiser was sent, not back to Mas-
sif-5, but out to the Com-Mine belt."
Some of the Members reacted with surprise. Koina her-
self was surprised that Maxim had been able to obtain such
information. But he didn't pause.
"Her stated mission," he sneered, "was 'to guard against
reports of unusual hostile activity along the frontier near the
Com-Mine belt.' Why Min Donner's presence was required
for such a mission is not explained.
"How then does it happen that Punisher entered the Mas-
sif-5 system in time to engage Calm Horizons? And how does
it happen that a UMCP officer with Min Donner's reputation
for probity, valor, and determination decided to break off the
engagement? Why did she conclude that Trumpet was more
important than her sworn duty to defend human space?
"Above all, why was Trumpet there?" Maxim didn't
raise his voice. Nevertheless it seemed to swell until it filled
the room like a shout. "What accounts for the gap scout's
presence in the Massif-5 system?"
Koina saw Sixten squirm under the pressure of Igensard's
challenge; but the old Senior Member didn't interject a com-
ment. He may have realized that it was already too late for him
—or anyone—to defend Warden.
Quietly Cleatus murmured, "An interesting question,
don't you think, Director Hannish?" He seemed to be taunting
her. "I'm afraid your Warden is in more trouble than he can
handle."
Koina kept her attention fixed on the Special Counsel; hid
her tension and dread behind a mask of professional detach-
ment.
"One other significant fact is absent from Director Dios'
announcement," Maxim proclaimed as if he wished to draw
blood. "As if he thinks we might not have noticed, he doesn't
mention that Trumpet is the same vessel in which Captain
Angus Thermopyle and former Deputy Chief of Com-Mine
Station Security Milos Taverner are purported to have made
their escape from UMCPHQ.
"Mr. President, Members"—he paused to scan the room
—"I consider the omission of these points to be as significant
as their implications."
No one interrupted him now. The Members and their
aides stared at him, rapt, as if they'd fallen under a spell.
They'd all received Warden's announcement. Most of them
probably remembered where they'd heard of Trumpet before.
Some of them must have been struck by the strangeness of
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Horizons' presence; by the threat to Earth—and themselves.
Koina was sure that for most of Maxim's audience the
picture he outlined had begun to seem profoundly disturbing.
"A few days ago UMCPDA director Hashi Lebwohl in-
formed us by video conference that Captain Thermopyle and
Deputy Chief Taverner had stolen Trumpet and fled toward
Thanatos Minor in forbidden space. So much is plausible.
Captain Thermopyle is a convicted illegal. By implication,
Deputy Chief Taverner is also an illegal. The bootleg shipyard
on Thanatos Minor is an illegal installation—a natural destina-
tion for such men.
"But how does it occur that two illegals in a stolen ship at
a bootleg installation countenanced by the Amnion have dam-
aged or threatened the Amnion to such an extent that Calm
Horizons was sent to commit an act of war in response?
"I'll propose an explanation. Call it a hypothesis if you
wish. I don't pretend to have concrete evidence. Until quite
recently"—he glanced at Koina —"UMCPHQ has not been
open with records and information. But I have the evidence of
common sense. The evidence of intelligence.
"When I'm done, I'll ask Director Hannish if she chooses
to contradict me. If she does, I'll ask her"—now he did shout
— "no, I'll dare her"—at once he softened his tone again—
"to supply facts that support her position."
Although she'd seen this coming, Koina felt a new sting
of apprehension in the palms of her hands, the pit of her stom-
ach. Still no word from Hashi, or Chief Mandich— In a few
more minutes she would have to face Maxim Igensard and the
Council with nothing to go on except Warden's orders and her
own untried ability to make Hashi's reasoning sound credible.
"Be fair, Maxim," President Len put in unexpectedly. He
sounded deeply tired; but apparently he still felt compelled to
smooth out conflicts. "Do you really expect her to be prepared
for a challenge like that? Without any warning?"
Maxim didn't hesitate. "Mr. President, she's the UMCP
Director of Protocol. It's her job to be prepared."
"Well, don't keep us in suspense," Captain Vertigus said
with an acerbic quaver. "If you're so eager to accuse Warden
Dios of treason, get it over with. Just what is this 'hypothesis'
of yours?"
The Special Counsel faced his audience again. He looked
taller, elevated by eagerness. Something inside him had
reached critical mass and begun to expand toward an explo-
sion.
"Members of the Council, the stories we've been told are
incredible, and I think they aren't true. I believe Captain
Thermopyle and Deputy Chief Taverner did not escape from
UMCPHQ. I believe they're agents of the UMCP, agents
Director Dios. I believe they were sent into forbidden space to
commit some affront or do some harm which the Amnion
would be unable to countenance. And when they'd succeeded,
I believe they fled deep into human space on Director Dios'
orders.
"Because it was already known how the Amnion would
respond, Trumpet ran to Massif-5, a place so far inside our
frontier that no act of war could be excused, and yet so far
from Earth that we—and UMCPHQ—would be in no direct
danger.
"For her part, Punisher went to the Com-Mine belt with
Min Donner aboard to ensure that Trumpet was indeed able to
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system, where she awaited Calm Horizons' incursion.
"The crucial point is this." For the first time he let go of
the podium. With the heel of one fist he tapped each word onto
the surface in front of him. "I'm certain that all these events
occurred because Warden Dios wished it so.
"No, let me be plainer. I believe that the director of the
UMCP has deliberately precipitated an act of war."
Apart from Koina, Abrim Len appeared to be the only
person in the room who'd guessed—or known?—what was
coming. He didn't react; sat without moving. Once again his
hand steepled over his eyes as if he'd seen all he could bear. It
was possible that he had known. Some argument must have
been used to persuade him to sanction assigning Sen Abdul-
lah's proxy to Igensard. Perhaps this was it: perhaps Maxim
had convinced Len that he needed a Member's stature in order
to present his accusation.
But everyone else—
The director of the UMCP has deliberately precipitated
an act of war.
In one corner, two or three people jumped to their feet
around someone Koina couldn't see; someone who'd appar-
ently fainted. From wall to wall men and women turned pale
as if the blood were being drained from the room. The distin-
guished scholar Punjat Silat clutched at his chest; groped
toward an aide until the aide pressed a small vial into his hand.
Silat jerked back his head to swallow the contents of the vial,
then slumped in his seat, his face as gray as ash. Sigurd Carsin
and Vest Martingale stared at Maxim with their mouths open.
Sixten grimaced convulsively, then began to beat his forehead
with the heels of his palms, trying to drive back his dismay;
his sense of betrayal. Cleatus waggled his beard by pursing his
mouth like a man tasting a bitter pill to see whether he could
stomach it.
Deliberately precipitated—
The Council had trusted Warden too long: humankind
was too dependent on him. The bare idea that he might have
committed the crime Maxim suggested seemed to open a gulf
deep enough to swallow the planet.
Could it be true? Even Koina considered the possibility
with pain. Oh, God, Warden. What have you done?
In distress she turned a mute appeal to her techs. Her
mouth shaped the word, Anything? But they shook their heads.
One of them whispered, "Chief Mandich asks you to forgive
him. Director Lebwohl says he doesn't want to be disturbed."
She bit her lip to stifle a groan. She had to have evidence;
needed it desperately. Otherwise everything Warden was try-
ing to do would recoil against him.
Beside her Cleatus subvocalized into his throat pickup: a
thin, ragged sound, too low for her to distinguish words. Talk-
ing to the Dragon—
A moment later she was startled to hear Blaine Manse
raise her voice. "In God's name, why, Maxim?" the Member
for Betelgeuse Primary protested. "What kind of man would
do that? I didn't think anybody was crazy enough to want a
war."
"I'm sure you're right," Igensard retorted incisively.
"Director Dios does not want a war. The Amnion aren't the
real target of his actions. We are."
"How so?" Blaine pursued.
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his audience's attention—"his purpose was to frighten the
Council into withdrawing support for my investigation."
From the back of the room, Tel Burnish gave a snort of
contempt. "Does the word 'megalomania' mean anything to
you, Special Counsel? What makes you think you're important
enough for Warden Dios to risk starting a war?
"What makes you think you're important enough to force
him to turn his back on a lifetime of dedicated service?"
Maxim faced the VI Member's challenge without flinch-
ing. He was primed for a detonation. Gathering pressure
seemed to throb under his skin; glint dangerously from his
eyes; echo like the clang of a hammer in his voice.
"In the pursuit of my duties," he pronounced, "I've been
accumulating evidence of the most malign kinds of malfea-
sance and corruption. Warden Dios' probity is under question,
his power is endangered. You were here—you heard him dur-
ing the video conference. His back is against the wall. I
pushed him there.
"Now he's trying to protect his position by convincing us
we can't afford to threaten him. He wants us to think the risk
of probing and questioning him is too great at a time when we
face the possibility of war.
"And he would have succeeded, except for one fatal mis-
calculation. The actions of Captain Thermopyle and Deputy
Chief Taverner were too extreme. They were so extreme that
Calm Horizons didn't stop when Trumpet escaped from Mas-
sif-5. Prevented from following by Punisher, the Amnioni
didn't withdraw, as Director Dios no doubt intended—pre-
serving her own survival, as well as the possibility that peace
could eventually be restored. Instead Calm Horizons came
here.
"Do you think I'm wrong?" the Special Counsel de-
manded in the hard tones of a prophet. "Then tell me how you
account for the fact that Punisher broke off her engagement
with the defensive. Min Donner is famous for her unswerving
sense of duty. She's also notoriously belligerent. Why would
she break her oath as the Enforcement Division director of the
UMCP, if she hadn't been given orders to let the defensive
live?
"Warden Dios wants the threat of a full-scale war, not the
actuality. Calm Horizons' destruction might have been more
provocation than the Amnion could endure."
"Punisher was damaged," Sixten objected weakly.
"Calm Horizons has super-light proton cannon."
"I'm sure that's true," Maxim assented. "It only con-
firms my point, however. Why was a damaged ship chosen for
this mission? Why not this new battlewagon, Sledgehammer?
Why not Vehemence, a cruiser already assigned to Massif-5?
"I think it was because Punisher could plausibly claim
that she couldn't destroy the defensive.
"Ask yourself why Director Dios has gone alone aboard
Calm Horizons. Don't you think it's likely he hopes to con-
vince the Amnion that he didn't mean for events to go so far?
Don't you think he's offering them restitution for whatever
Trumpet did?
"It's possible that because of his dereliction the UMCP is
no longer able or willing to prosecute a war."
Koina stifled a protest. She would have loved to shout at
the Special Counsel, Dereliction has nothing to do with it! We
don't have enough ships! Or enough people. We don't have the
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But that wasn't what Warden had ordered her to say. He
hadn't offered her any excuses. His intentions were more sub-
tle. He didn't want to be let off the hook: he wanted to use that
hook against the Dragon.
And he wanted Koina to do it for him; to him.
Without evidence—
Tel Burnish had surged to his feet: he may have been
trying to counteract Igensard's grip on the Council. "No, Spe-
cial Counsel," he insisted. "You're going too fast. You're get-
ting ahead of yourself. Your argument only makes sense if you
assume Warden Dios knew there would be an incursion. Oth-
erwise all this talk about 'treason' and 'dereliction' is just so
much paranoia."
The VI Member had reason to defend Warden. More than
any other station except Com-Mine, Valdor had seen the
UMCP's ships—and integrity—in action.
But Maxim wasn't daunted. "Exactly," he countered.
Triumph rang like iron in his voice. Heavy with power and
accusation, he turned toward Koina.
"Director Hannish."
She met his glinting gaze squarely. "Special Counsel?"
"I have some questions I want to ask you."
She opened her mouth to say, Of course. That's what I'm
here for. I have orders— But her throat closed on the words. It
was too late: Hashi and Chief Mandich had taken too long.
Without substantiation the things she had to reveal would
make Igensard sound sane.
Abruptly Cleatus put his hand on her arm; tugged at her
attention. He made no effort to keep his voice down.
"You don't have to submit to this," he told her. "I'll
answer his questions. Save us all the strain of dragging this
out. The UMC is responsible for the UMCP in any case. I'll
just have to cover the same ground when you're done."
He sounded sure of himself: patronizing and impregnable.
His face belied his tone, however. Instead of looking at her, he
flicked his eyes around the room like a man searching out
enemies. His cheeks had lost color, as if his blood had run
gray. He held his head cocked slightly toward the PCR in his
ear. Concentration clenched the corners of his mouth.
Before Koina could reply, one of her techs murmured,
"Director," and thrust a small communications board into her
hands. Apparently the tech didn't want to chance being over-
heard. Instead she pointed at a message on the board's
readout.
Instinctively Koina held it so that Cleatus couldn't see it.
Blinking hard to focus her eyes, she read the transmission.
It was from UMCPHQ Center.
It reported that Punisher had arrived.
Resumed tard not far from UMCPHQ and Calm Hori-
zons.
With Ensign Morn Hyland in command.
In command—?
The readout also stated that Hashi Lebwohl had stepped
down as Acting Director in Warden Dios' absence. Still
aboard Punisher, Min Donner had taken his place.
Acting Director Donner had ordered the shutdown of
Earth's vast scan net.
In command—?
None of it made any sense. Min Donner was Acting Di-
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command? And she wanted the scan net shut down?
Somehow Morn had—?
Koina couldn't begin to guess what it all meant.
Nevertheless it explained why Cleatus didn't want her to
answer Maxim's questions. The fact that Morn Hyland was
here—and in command of Punisher—must have appalled Holt
Fasner. She was dangerous to him; far more dangerous than
Koina herself. In Warden's absence, Morn was more danger-
ous than anyone.
Fasner knew he'd lost control of the UMCP. Cleatus
knew.
They knew they couldn't trust Koina.
And without the scan net, HO—like UMCPHQ—had to
rely on its own instruments. To that extent, the Dragon had
been blinded. He could no longer see everything that hap-
pened.
"Director Hannish," Maxim rasped sternly. "We're wait-
ing."
At once Koina rose to her feet. As if she were as sure as
the FEA, she answered, "I'm ready, Special Counsel."
That was a lie. She wasn't ready. Without evidence, she
would never be ready. Yet she accepted Igensard's demand as
if he'd challenged her to personal combat: a test of honor.
Warden had given her his orders. And Cleatus Fane
wanted her to remain seated; silent. Now that the crisis was
upon her, she had no difficulty choosing between them.
HASHI
Freed from his responsibili-
ties as Acting Director,
Hashi left Center and headed for Lane Harbinger's lab.
Despite his shambling gait and his air of distraction, he
moved quickly: by his own standards, he was running. In the
past hour crises had multiplied around him at an alarming rate.
Quantum uncertainties expanded in chain reaction. At the
same time—and by the same logic—the window during which
he could hope to help shape events shrank. Endorphins and
necessity burned in his synapses: his blood felt rich with ur-
gency. He had work to do.
UMCHO had charged its guns. However, they were point-
edly not aimed at Calm Horizons. The great worm in his lair
wished Marc Vestabule to know that he was prepared to de-
fend himself, but that he would not treat the huge defensive as
an enemy unless he was forced to do so.
Time had become exquisitely short.
In subtle ways this pleased the DA director. Lesser men
and women, lesser minds, had already been left behind by the
burgeoning emergency. Now only genius might suffice to fend
off ruin.
Hashi Lebwohl was eager to prove himself equal to War-
den Dios' vast and dangerous intentions.
Lane's lab was several levels and several hundred meters
away from Center. Lifts and service shafts shortened the dis-
tance, however, and Hashi knew them all. He reached her
workroom scant minutes after confirming Min Donner as Act-
ing Director.
But when he entered the lab—a large space by the con-
stricted measure of an orbital platform—he stopped in sur-
prise.
Lane was alone. Apart from the complex clutter of tables
and terminals, instruments of all kinds, sterile chambers and
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packets of stim and hype, pots of coffee, bowls overflowing
with ash and butts, the room was empty. The numerous aides
and techs he'd assigned to her were gone—sent away, he as-
sumed, since he declined to believe that any of his people
would have abandoned a project so vital.
And Lane herself was sitting down. In itself that was pro-
foundly uncharacteristic: Hashi wasn't sure he'd ever seen her
in a chair of her own volition. As a rale she consumed enough
stimulants of all kinds to make a block of wood hyperactive.
Yet her condition was worse than uncharacteristic. She sat with
her legs sprawled gracelessly in front of her as if she had no
further use for them. Her head hung down, unclean hair dan-
gling before her face: he couldn't tell whether she'd glanced at
him; whether she'd noticed his arrival at all. Only her mouth
moved as she sucked, arrhythmic as a limping heart, on one of
her foul nics. Smoke curled up into her face and filtered away
through her hair as if she were exhaling her life.
For a moment Hashi was stunned. He lacked Warden's
talent for responding to the emotions of his people. Indeed, he
seldom cared to let them distract him. By nature he was unpre-
pared and ill equipped to deal with any woman in a state
which resembled catatonia.
He had no time for Lane's despair; no time at all. Yet he
knew instantly, intuitively, that he would be unable to reach
her unless he attended to it. Without warning he discovered
that he would be lost unless he could prove himself Warden's
equal in completely unexpected ways.
"My dear Lane," he asked softly, "what on Earth has
gone wrong?"
She didn't react. Smoke seeped out of her hair as if the
mind under it had been burned to the ground.
Before he could decide how to approach her, the lab inter-
com chimed. "Director Lebwohl?" a voice asked nervously.
"Director Lebwohl, are you there? This is Center. Director?"
Hashi swallowed an arcane curse. Briefly he forgot where
Lane's intercom was. The voice from Center seemed to arise
from a source he couldn't locate. Then he remembered that the
console where she usually worked held her pickup and
speaker.
Four vexed strides took him around a worktable to her
terminal. With a jerk of his thumb, he toggled the pickup.
"Director Lebwohl," he announced like a wasp. "Did I
mention that I'm busy?"
"Sorry, Director," the nervous voice replied quickly. "I
have a flare for you. From Director Hannish. At the emergency
session.''
Hashi wanted to retort, I know where she is. I stepped
down as Acting Director. I wasn't fired for incompetence. But
he restrained himself. He didn't have time to indulge his ire.
Instead he drawled, "Then perhaps you should tell me what it
says."
"Yes, Director." Hashi heard the sound of keys. "To DA
Director Hashi Lebwohl," Center reported. "From PR Direc-
tor Koina Hannish. 'I'm running out of time here.' That's all.
"Any response, Director?"
Hashi flapped his arms. The urgency in his blood needed
an outlet. At the same time he couldn't justify covering a mere
communications tech—or Koina herself—with his exaspera-
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not wish to be disturbed."
At once he silenced the pickup and turned back to Lane.
Past her hair he caught the glint of one eye. Her nic had
been smoked out. She dropped it to the floor beside her, pro-
duced another from somewhere, lit it with a small magnesium
torch hot enough to start a fire which would gut the station.
He concealed a thin sigh. Not comatose, he thought. Not
unreactive. So much was encouraging.
On impulse he reached up, removed the glasses he wore
for obfuscation, folded them carefully, and dropped them into
a pocket of his labcoat. A feigned absence of pretense was the
easiest stratagem he could devise on short notice.
    "Lane, I can't afford this." He filled his voice with a
vibration of sincerity. "I need you. Director Hannish needs
you. You heard her message. It would be impossible to over-
state how sorely you're needed.
"I have no time to play therapist for an autistic child."
At first he feared she wouldn't answer. And what if she
didn't? What then? He could log on to her terminal, access her
notes and records, attempt to reconstruct her results. But such
a task might require hours. Even if he accomplished miracles
of celerity, it would take too long—
Fortunately she'd heard him. She may have been over-
whelmed by despair—or perhaps just utterly exhausted—but
she was possessed by a mind which had always responded to
the demands he'd placed on it. Her voice seemed to ache with
reluctance as she murmured past the screen of her hair, "I
failed."
"What, failed? You?" Deliberately he stifled the avuncu-
lar tone he normally used in times of stress. Nor did he reveal
his relief. Despair was in some sense unanswerable—a neuro-
chemical wound which no words could heal. Mere failure was
an altogether simpler issue. Perhaps she experienced some-
thing akin to the shame he'd felt when he'd realized that War-
den's game was far deeper than he'd imagined: the wound to
his self-esteem. "Forgive my doubt. You could only fail by
trying to answer the wrong questions. If you appear to have
failed, it must be because I have misnamed your assignment in
some way."
After a moment she shook her head—the only movement
she'd made except for those required by smoking. "I can't
find any proof," she murmured listlessly. "Isn't that what you
wanted? Isn't that what you need?"
If she'd been any other woman—even Min Donner—he
might have believed that she was on the verge of tears.
Her vulnerability sparked a reaction in him which he
hardly recognized. It may have been that his heart went out to
her. Slumping on the heels of his old-fashioned shoes, he
moved toward her until he was near enough to touch her. With
both hands he eased her head back, then parted her hair away
from her face so that the smoke of her nic was no longer
trapped in her eyes.
"Do I need proof?" he answered. "Assuredly. But it's an
ambiguous notion at the best of times—which these are not.
Don't trouble yourself with what I may or may not need, Lane.
Tell me what you've learned."
She didn't meet his gaze. Her attention was fixed on a
landscape of pain he couldn't see.
"I found the hollow tooth. Where they stored that apoen-
zyme." Nathan Alt's chemical detonator. "He bit into it and
blew up.' But I can't prove that. I can't prove some other trig-


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ger wasn't destroyed in the blast. I can't tell you who did it to
him."
"We expected that," he murmured to encourage her.
"Go on."
A small tightening that might have begun as a shrug
seemed to pull her in on herself. "I tried to locate the original
research." Smoke and grief made her voice husky. "Some-
body must have developed that apoenzyme. Made it. It didn't
just happen in his body. But whoever came up with it has done
a better job than usual of keeping it secret. Or my clearance
isn't high enough. Or it came from the Amnion. I can't find
it"
Hashi let his mouth twist with regret. He would have been
delighted to learn that the research had been done by some
subsidiary of the UMC.
"The code engine is current and correct," Lane contin-
ued dully. "I told you that. It doesn't prove anything."
"No," he assented. "But it is fascinating. And it serves
to eliminate"—he fluttered a hand—"oh, any number of mis-
leading possibilities."
Apparently his reassurance meant nothing to her. She
pulled herself tighter.
"I did a complete readout of the chip." Her tone hinted
at weeping. "Took a long time. My last hope." She discarded
one nic, lit another. "But it didn't tell me anything we didn't
already know. Alt's retinal signature wasn't superimposed on
Imposs' credentials. Nothing was superimposed. That's not
Imposs' id tag. It's a new one. An authentic forgery. De-
signed to be exactly the same as his. Except it says Alt is
him."
Between one beat and the next, Hashi's pulse accelerated.
A new one. Excitement began to throb like hope in his blood-
stream. An authentic forgery. She'd told him that earlier;
but at the time he hadn't entirely grasped its significance. Now
it rejuvenated him.
"That doesn't prove anything, either," she went on.
"Whoever did this has resources the native Earthers would kill
for. So we can ignore them. But you knew that already, too.
"I don't have anything for you," she finished as if she'd
reached the end of her strength. "We need to trace that chip."
Perhaps he should have sustained his mask of sincerity for
a few more moments. To some extent, however, he'd already
forgotten her distress. Excitement carried him elsewhere. Un-
selfconsciously he snatched his glasses from his pocket,
slapped them back onto his face.
"Then we will," he announced like an affectionate uncle.
His sudden rush of confidence must have struck her as
smug, condescending. She flinched as if he'd struck her; re-
coiled so hard that she nearly lost her seat. Then her despair
ignited to fury with such brisance that it staggered him.
She flung herself at him; bunched her fists in the lapels of
his labcoat; drove him backward.
"Don't you think I've tried?" she yelled into his amazed
face. "My God, what do you think I've been doing here while
you flit around smiling at everybody and pretending to know
everything?" When she'd pushed him as far as the wall, she
held him there. "What do you think I've been tearing my
heart out about?"
Hashi blinked at her in confusion. "Do you mean you've
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"It's too damn small!" Lane shouted; tried to howl.
"Haven't I told you that? If I dropped it in your mouth, you
couldn't find it with your tongue. It doesn't have a source or a
drain, and it doesn't have a goddamn id code! I can't produce
evidence that isn't there!"
Abruptly he understood her.
He made no physical effort to pull away. That wasn't
necessary. Instead he said gently, kindly, "Forgive me, Lane.
You're speaking of the SOD-CMOS fragment you recovered
from Godsen's office. Naturally you were unable to identify its
id code. I didn't intend to imply otherwise.
"I was referring to Captain Alt's id tag."
Her mouth fell open. With a visible effort she closed it.
Her breath came in ragged gasps. As if she'd just become
aware of what she was doing, she let him go and stepped back.
"Well, shit, Hashi," she panted. "Of course I traced it.
I'm still not stupid. But it doesn't prove anything, either."
Gradually her respiration slowed. "It was part of a routine
shipment delivered to UMC Home Security three weeks ago.
"I suppose you could say that's incriminating. I mean,
how did an HS SOD-CMOS chip end up in a GCES Security
id tag? But it isn't evidence. It just indicates UMCHO isn't
exactly secure, that's all. Which is something else we already
knew."
"Lane, Lane." He waved his arms generously, distribut-
ing reassurance in all directions. "As I say, proof is ambigu-
ous. If you could have asked yourself the right questions, you
would have seen that you've already found a strand of evi-
dence."
And enough strands made a rope.
At the same time, however, he berated himself in silence
for not having foreseen this. A routine shipment to Home Se-
curity. He could have saved time if he'd guessed that the trail
would be so direct; could have taken advantage of his brief
tenure as Acting Director—
Perhaps he was no match for Warden Dios after all.
Yet the pressure of the situation left no space for self-
recrimination. Without pausing, he remarked, "Three weeks
ago, forsooth. And yet the illustrious Cleatus Fane asserts that
Nathan Alt was fired twice that long ago."
"Fired?" Lane asked quickly.
"From his position as UMC Security Liaison for Ano-
dyne Systems," Hashi explained.
While she absorbed this information, he went on, "The
fault for your misapprehension is mine. You were inadequately
briefed. I have been distracted with other duties." Other peo-
ple's emotions. "Despite my failings, however, you have com-
menced the work we must do." The work which had to be
done before Koina ran out of time. "You have begun to trace
that chip. Now we will go further. Perhaps we will find strands
enough to weave a noose."
As he spoke, Lane appeared to regain her mental poise,
her focus, by measurable increments. "How're we going to do
that?" she asked sharply. Only the trembling of her hands as
she extracted and lit another nic betrayed the strain she felt.
In response Hashi allowed himself to resume his accus-
tomed avuncular manner.
"My dear Lane, it has perhaps not come to your attention
that I have placed 'screaming red' security locks of the very
loudest sort on all Anodyne Systems' logs and records. In
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"Here." Hurrying now, he moved to her terminal,
opened a DA authorization query screen, and tapped a flurry
of keys. Then he pointed a thin ringer at the readout. "I have
entered the codes which will grant you access to Home Secu-
rity records."
"That won't help," she objected. Her hard eyes studied
him as if she wasn't sure she could trust him. "They've had
plenty of time to edit anything. Or cover it up."
He shook his head. "Doubtless that's true. Nevertheless I
suspect they have not done so. From their perspective, it was
inevitable that Captain Alt's false id would be destroyed in the
blast. Therefore no one would ever inquire into its prove-
nance." He shrugged. "More recently, of course, both the
great worm and his prime spawn have been too heavily occu-
pied to undertake the challenge of tampering with Red Priority
locks.
"I believe you will be able to determine the use Home
Security recorded for that chip."
For a moment Lane scrutinized him warily. Something in
her apparently wanted to hold back. She was too tired: too
much had been asked of her. Or she'd seen through his pre-
tense of concern—and didn't like what she saw. Yet her gaze
seemed to slide of its own accord away from him to the termi-
nal. The lure of the investigation tugged at her. Almost against
her will, she moved toward the keypad.
He stepped aside to make room. Sucking hard at her nic,
she stared at the screen. Tentatively she reached out through a
swirl of smoke and began entering commands.
Impelled by a pang which might have been relief or fear,
Hashi turned to his part of the task. Trusting Lane to concen-
trate in spite of him, he thumbed the intercom toggle.
"Center," he announced peremptorily, "this is Director
Lebwohl. On my personal authority, with the utmost priority, I
must speak with Chief of Security Mandich at once. Instantly
would not be too soon. Then I require a tight-beam transmis-
sion channel to Acting Director Min Donner aboard Punisher.
"I will speak with Acting Director Donner as soon as I'm
done with Chief Mandich."
The voice from Center hesitated for a second, then an-
swered, "Right away, Director."
Right away, Hashi snorted to himself. Right away would
hardly be soon enough. By degrees Lane's hands gained speed
on the keypad. As she typed, the tremors of her distress re-
ceded. Still the job he'd given her was complex. How much
time did Koina have left? How long would Special Counsel
Igensard indulge the Council in diatribes and perorations?
What scale of obfuscation would the Dragon's First Executive
Assistant put forward? I'm running out of time here. What did
that mean?
While urgency coiled around his heart, he asked himself
whether he should have been more explicit with Min; perhaps
even with Morn Hyland. He'd given out enough hints to stu-
pefy a half-wit. On the other hand, he had no mandate to
direct events. Warden had told him, Just don't do anything I
wouldn't do—hardly a definitive assignment. This was War-
den's game, not his. He believed he understood it. Neverthe-
less he might cause it to fail if he neglected to concentrate on
fulfilling his own role.
And he'd already made too many mistakes—
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Chief Mandich responded.
"Leave me alone, Director Lebwohl," the harried man
rasped without preamble. "This job is already impossible. I
can't do it with all these interruptions."
Hashi swore to himself. A pox on such emotional people!
Was there no one individual anywhere around him who could
summon bare intelligence without being coerced? However, he
rejected the luxury of sneering at Mandich.
"Chief Mandich, your point is precisely "the one I was
about to make." He leaned over the pickup as if he were
abasing himself. "Your duties are impossible. You simply do
not have the time to search out and acquire the sort of evi-
dence you have been asked to procure. That's why I'm inter-
rupting you. I require your help here."
He told the Chief of Security where he was.
Unfortunately Mandich seemed oblivious to Hashi's re-
straint. "Don't insult me, Lebwohl," he snapped. His shame
shook in his voice. "This is bad enough as it is. You know I
can't help you. You know I know it. I'm out of my fucking
depth with this.
"If I can't do my job, at least let me fail in peace."
Lane flashed a speculative look at Hashi, but didn't pause
in her search.
Hashi resisted an impulse to knot his fists in his hair.
"Chief Mandich," he pronounced with all the force he could
command, "I would not waste the effort of insulting you in
such an emergency. I require your assistance. I demand it.
"In another minute I will speak to Acting Director Don-
ner. If you refuse me, she will order you to comply. But that
will take time. Director Hannish has very little left.
"Give me that time," he ordered. "Postpone feeling
sorry for yourself." Just this once. "Come.here."
He didn't allow the man time to answer. Fuming, he hit
the intercom toggle; then hit it again.
"Center, I'm ready to speak to Acting Director Dormer."
The speaker emitted muffled sounds which suggested
consternation. Indecipherable shouts came from the distance.
Almost too swiftly to be read, Lane's screen scrolled as
she hunted for data.
"I'm trying, Director," Center's voice replied abruptly.
"But we're going crazy here. We don't have any spare tight-
beam capacity. And Punisher has even less."
"Whelp!" Hashi wanted to roar, but he produced only a
beehive snarl of frustration. "Did I neglect to mention that the
entire future of humankind depends on this? I must speak to
Acting Director Donner."
"I'm sorry, Director," Center said in chagrin. "I am try-
ing."
The intercom reported more shouts. Hashi was sure he
heard someone yell, "Just do it!"
At last arrhythmic staccato clicks filled the speaker like
static as Center rerouted the lab's intercom channel.
"Hashi." Min's voice seemed to appear as if it had re-
sumed tard in the room. "Make it quick. This is getting more
complicated by the minute."
Despite his concentration, his heart lurched like a
wounded thing. Obliquely he wondered whether his health was
good enough to sustain the stress. Nevertheless he did his best
to be brief.
"As Acting Director, Min, you're in command of
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the Administration codes which enable terminals here to ac-
cess the dedicated design computers at Anodyne Systems."
"Good God, Hashi!" she shot back. "Why in hell do you
want to do that?"
Under other circumstances he might have enjoyed her sur-
prise. Or he might have tried to justify himself. But Lane's
distress had taken a toll on him: Chief Mandich's frank out-
rage had left him raw. The sudden poignancy of his desire to
be trusted took him aback.
"You don't have time to hear an explanation, Min," he
answered softly. "I don't have time to offer one." He sighed
at her doubt. "I'm attempting to carry out Warden's orders."
At least she hadn't asked, Why didn't you take care of it
while you were Acting Director? She'd spared him the indig-
nity of having to say, Because I didn't think of it.
"All right," she returned decisively. "Give me a minute.
I'll have to route my authorization through Center to Adminis-
tration so you can open that file. The system isn't set up for
this, but I can invoke disaster priorities."
The speaker went dead as Punisher stopped transmitting.
Hashi bowed his head. That may have been as close as
Min Donner could come to giving him what he truly wanted.
For a brief moment he allowed himself to be grateful.
When he looked up, he found Chief Mandich standing
across the room from him, just inside the door.
Mandich's fists were cocked on his hips; his jaw jutted
like the head of a cudgel. "This better be good, Lebwohl," he
snarled. "The last time a man treated me the way you do, they
had to put a plate on his skull afterward to keep his brains in."
Hashi couldn't hold back. He loathed being held respon-
sible for other people's faults and furies. "Sadly," he retorted,
"they neglected a plate for you. Without being noticed, your
brain must have fallen out on Suka Bator."
Lane hid a grin behind a fringe of unclean hair.
Hashi ignored her. Before Mandich could muster a reply,
he demanded in a tone of utter exasperation, "Are you not
able to grasp the fact that you are essential? Lane and I cannot
discover the evidence we seek without your help.
"A terminal, Chief Mandich," he ordered. "There." His
arm rigid and trembling, he pointed at the console he wanted
Mandich to use. "I will work here." Two quick strides planted
him in front of a terminal near Lane's.
The Chief didn't move. Apparently Hashi had caught his
attention: the belligerence in his eyes had turned to uncer-
tainty. Nevertheless he stood where he was.
"Tell me what we're doing," he insisted harshly.
What we're doing. He'd said "we," That was all the
opening Hashi needed.
With a few quick keystrokes he logged on to his terminal
and began hunting for the file which Min had promised to
open for him. As he typed, read the screen, typed again, he
asked in a calmer voice, "Lane, what have you learned?"
"One"—she fired instructions at her keypad—"more"
—bit her lip, tried another approach—"minute." Then she
shouted in triumph, "Ha! Got it."
Abruptly she looked up from her terminal. The vindica-
tion in her voice was so intense that it sounded savage.
"Chief Mandich, nobody tampered with Clay Imposs' id
tag. They didn't superimpose Alt on it. They made a new one,
one for Alt himself, one that gave him all of Imposs' clear-



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ances."
The Chief frowned, plainly baffled.
"I traced the SOD-CMOS chip," she went on. "From his
id tag. I just finished.
"It was delivered to UMC Home Office three weeks ago
in a routine shipment for Home Security. Ten days later"—
she indicated her screen accusatively—"that chip was as-
signed to the office of the UMC Security Liaison for Anodyne
Systems. To be used for testing code designs."
Hashi wanted to applaud; cheer aloud; shout at the ceil-
ing. Hidden by the lab table which held his terminal, his feet
danced a brief jig. If Mandich hadn't been there, he might
have invoked a blessing on Lane's weary, brilliant head.
The Chief of Security stared his incomprehension across
the tables.
" 'Ten days later,' " Hashi echoed eagerly. "Eleven days
ago. Yet great Cleatus Fane in full spate informs us that Na-
than Alt was fired as Security Liaison several weeks previ-
ously.
"How do you imagine he came to possess a chip which
can be traced to eleven days ago? If he indeed conspired, with
the native Earthers, as our good FEA claims, how did he do so
with source code which is both current and correct?"
"But—" Chief Mandich protested inchoately. He tried to
close his mouth; couldn't.
"But it is not proof," Hashi said for him. "There you are
correct. For that reason, Lane and I must depend on your
help."
 The Chief still didn't understand: that was clear. Never-
theless his truculence had vanished. He lifted his hands uncer-
tainly, then took a step or two toward the terminal Hashi had
indicated.
"What do you want me to do?"
As if on cue, the file Hashi sought opened on his screen.
Min Donner may have been self-righteous and unyielding: she
may even have been obtuse. At that moment, however, he
loved her. She'd kept her word.
He addressed Chief Mandich more kindly now. Min had
restored his benevolence.
"You described the precautions which defend the security
of our code designs for the chips produced by Anodyne Sys-
tems. First, Administration codes authorize a link between our
terminals and Anodyne Systems' computers. After that, DA
codes are required to negotiate the necessary datalink proto-
cols. Then ED Security codes must be supplied to grant the
terminal operator access.
"We are three." He waved his arms expansively. "I will
take the part of Administration. Lane represents DA. You are
ED Security in person."
As if he were entirely sure—and had all the time he could
need—he concluded, "Together we will break into the Ano-
dyne Systems computers and extract the information we
need."
Lane brandished both fists in a mute cheer.
Chief Mandich didn't respond. Clenched in silence, he
reached his terminal.
When he was ready he met Hashi's gaze over the top of
his screen. His eyes were as feral as the fire in Hashi's blood.
MORN
She'd said, "I think we
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Now she sat isolated at the command station. Captain
Ubikwe and Min Dormer, Davies, Angus, and Vector sur-
rounded her; but she might as well have been alone. Mikka
and Ciro were nearby, as well as Punisher's duty officers: they
were of no help. With those few words she'd translated herself
across a dimensional gap of comprehension, leaving everyone
she needed light-years behind.
Davies' instant flare of eagerness separated him from her
as much as Vector's bafflement, or Dolph Ubikwe's heavy
consternation. The surgical probe of Min's scrutiny, like
Angus' livid outrage, isolated her. None of them recognized
the utter desperation of her need for a better answer.
For herself. For Warden Dios. For humankind.
Davies agreed with her at once, but for the wrong rea-
sons. She knew him too well; saw the truth flaming in his eyes.
Her past had trapped him: he thought and felt and acted like a
cop. His metabolism drove him to extremes. And the prospect
of falling into the hands of the Amnion appalled him. He
burned to attempt a rescue so that he wouldn't have to con-
front the other issues raised by Warden Dios' presence aboard
Calm Horizons.
Vector had been taken aback. He'd believed he knew why
she was here, what she would do. Now he wasn't sure.
The sources of Captain Ubikwe's distress were less clear.
Morn hardly knew him; could only guess at what he felt. He
may have been torn between a desire to snatch Warden away
from the Amnion and a fear that she was about to doom his
ship.
But she couldn't even guess at Director Donner's reac-
tion. Min's calculating penetration mystified her. From the
first Morn hadn't understood why Min had allowed her to take
command of the ship. Min knew about her gap-sickness; her
weakness; her core of shame. Now she was confused by the
impersonality of Min's stare. The ED director seemed to see
possibilities in her which she herself hardly noticed.
Her role had become too large for her. Like Hashi
Lebwohl, with his reluctant revelations and oblique hints, Min
apparently thought that Morn had come here to carry out some
nameless and essential act of redemption.
So much emotion pouring at her from all sides scared her:
she might not have been able to handle it in any case. But
there was more. Angus' passion dominated the others. She
needed him more than she needed anyone else. Even Min as
Acting Director of the UMCP was secondary. Davies himself
was secondary—
Angus struck the command board so hard that the metal
rang. "I won't do it!'' His shout was a stentorian clap of fury.
Davies recoiled in surprise; then sprang back with his
own anger. "Angus—!"
Min placed her hand on his arm, shook her head slightly.
At once he stopped. The unexpected gentleness of her touch
seemed to shock him silent.
Apparently she wanted to hear how Morn would reply.
I won't do it!
Morn's place on the bridge had turned into a cruel joke.
She could no more command these people, or this ship, than
she could carry out her own suggestion. And yet she under-
stood the necessity of it; grasped it with the clarity of anguish,
even though it was out of her hands. Try to rescue him. The
man who had caused all this: the only man in human space



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who stood any chance against the Dragon. Try to—
"You mean it's possible?" she asked Angus softly. "You
know how?"
He lashed the air with his fists in frustration. "Of course
it's possible!" A paroxysm of rage or terror distorted his face.
"Everything is fucking possible! I won't do it!"
He leaned over the console, forced his dismay at her.
"Christ, Morn! Have you forgotten why we're here? Why you
said we're here?" His yellow eyes and sweat-slick skin
loomed like accusations. "We're talking about Warden Dios,
the goddamn UMCP director! He did this to you." Angus
slapped a gesture at her as if her condition were obvious to
everyone. "He did it to me. If he wants to pay for some of it
now, I'm going to let him!"
Again Davies started to protest: again Min restrained him.
Mikka made a low sound like a moan of weariness or exasper-
ation. Despite his perplexity, Vector shifted closer to Morn as
if he wanted to protect her somehow.
She faced Angus squarely. "No, I haven't forgotten why
we're here," she said between her teeth. "I didn't ask you to
do it. I asked if you knew how."
"Stop that!" He wheeled away from her to make room
for the extremity of his outrage. His fists pumped blows in all
directions. "Don't lie to me!
"Do you expect me to believe you're going to ask any-
body else? Who? Your goddamn son doesn't have the re-
sources, any more than you do. Vector can hardly walk. Mikka
might as well be comatose, and Ciro's out of his skull." His
anger had become a kind of frantic supplication. "And the fat
man here takes his orders from Min Almighty Donner. They
don't give a shit what you want. They're just trying to figure
out how to use you.
"Have you forgotten about the Preempt Act? Don't you
understand why they framed me? Or why they let Nick have
you?"
Abruptly Dolph rumbled, "I can't stand any more insults,
Min." He didn't appear to be shouting, but his voice filled the
bridge like a rockfall. "I know he can kill me with both fists
rammed up his ass. I don't care. If he doesn't watch his
mouth, I'm going to remove it for him. At the neck."
Without any sign of haste, as if Calm Horizons were a
problem she could postpone indefinitely, Min intervened.
"Ensign Hyland, we're getting ahead of ourselves," she
put in quietly. "We aren't ready to discuss rescuing anybody.
We don't know what we're up against. And we have more than
one crisis to tackle. Let's do this a step at a time, if we can.
"Captain Thermopyle"—a subtle hardening inflected her
tone—"I'm asking you nicely. Take it down a couple of
notches."
Angus' arms folded a refusal across his chest. He didn't
so much as glance at Min: his attention was fixed like a cutting
laser on Morn.
Morn's command may have been a joke, but she didn't
shirk it. She'd come too far to let her own frailties stop her.
She wasn't Min; couldn't match Min's authority. Like Dolph,
however, she hated Angus' insults. In one form or another
she'd loathed him ever since he'd retrieved her from
Starmaster's wreckage. And yet she'd helped him escape the
bondage of his priority-codes. She was dependent on him for
everything—
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keep telling me to trust you. Now it's my turn.
"I did not ask you to rescue Director Dios. If you don't
want to do it, I can't force you—and I won't try." She made
that promise even though she suspected that she hadn't pushed
her strange hold over him anywhere near its breaking point.
"But if you know how, I need to hear it."
He ducked his head as if he were flinching; then jerked
his chin up again. The muscles along his jaw bunched like
iron. A smear of rage or grief blurred his yellow gaze.
In a small, almost childlike voice, he whispered, "Fuck
you, Morn." Then he turned away as if he were abandoning
her; stamped across Punisher's deceleration g until he readied
a vacant g-seat beside Ciro, and flung himself into it.
With both hands he covered his face as if he couldn't bear
to meet Morn's mute stare.
Fuck you, she echoed to herself. That was nothing new.
How often had he already done it? How often had she allowed
—no, seduced, encouraged—Nick Succorso to use her?
Bitterly she swung the command station toward Min.
"This is your chance, Director Donner," she pronounced
like acid. "If Angus doesn't back me up, I can't hold the
bridge."
Captain Ubikwe might have acted on the idea without
hesitation; but Min dismissed it with a shrug. "I made a deal
with you. I'll stand by it."
Even though she knew who'd killed Starmaster— With-
out question Min's compromised position aboard the cruiser
gave her something she craved; an advantage she couldn't get
in any other way.
"But there's something I want to know," she added
promptly. "Before I start dealing with Center.
"What does this 'Marc Vestabule' have to do with you?"
Morn opened her mouth to reply, then found she didn't
know where to begin. Min's attitude confused her: her own
relief got in her way. And she had too many other things to
think about.
I think we should try to rescue him.
Don't you understand why they framed me?
Davies could have answered Min's question; but he was
as distracted as Morn. He had too much at stake. Calm Hori-
zons wanted him so badly that she'd taken the fatal risk of
coming here—
With an unspoken appeal in her eyes, Morn referred the
subject to Vector.
He took the hint quickly. "Nothing, Director Dormer."
Despite his bafflement he seemed to see Morn's needs more
clearly than she did herself. "I mean nothing personal. We've
met him a couple of times, that's all.
"He was on Enablement. We went there so Morn could
have her baby. He handled the 'negotiations' after the Amnion
decided they wanted to keep Davies. In exchange he gave us
components to repair our gap drive.
"Then he showed up on Billingate. He must have arrived
on—what was that other ship?"—the name came to him al-
most at once—"Tranquil Hegemony. He still had the job of
demanding Davies.
"An Amnion shuttle got off Thanatos Minor before the
installation blew up. He must have been aboard. Then I guess
Calm Horizons picked him up." Vector shrugged. "Or Soar
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The mention of Soar seemed to catch Davies' attention.
As Morn watched, he made a visible effort to put his anger at
Angus aside; concentrate on what was being said.
"Soar?'' Captain Ubikwe pursued heavily. "You mean
the ship that died fighting for you outside the asteroid
swarm?"
Vector nodded. "She destroyed Deaner Beckmann's lab.
She tried to kill us in the swarm. But after that—" Shadows
darkened his eyes like memories of what was done to Ciro. "I
guess Captain Chatelaine changed her mind," he finished.
Abruptly Min aimed a sharp stare at Morn. "Soar used to
be called Gutbuster. Did you know that?"
Morn hadn't mentioned Gutbuster's name when she'd
talked about Soar earlier. Now she winced as if Min had
touched an old wound. The ED director continued to surprise
her. How had Min known about Gutbuster? And why did she
want to discuss Soar's past here?
"Nick told us," Morn admitted thinly. "She's the same
ship that killed my mother."
As if she were pronouncing judgment—or asking forgive-
ness—Min stated, "She did a lot of harm. But she made resti-
tution."
Like Min herself ? Like Warden Dios?
Davies shook his head. "She did more than that," he
countered in a low, tense voice. "She could have helped Calm
Horizons kill us. She probably should have. She needed an
antidote to stay human. But she didn't."
At one time he'd been so determined to destroy Soar that
he hadn't been able to think about anything else; understand
what he was doing. But events had forced him to reconsider
his reaction.
"Instead I think she saved her soul."
Morn gave her son a look of gratitude. Perhaps she'd
misjudged him: perhaps his reasons for wanting to rescue
Warden were closer to hers than she'd imagined. He'd re-
minded her that Sorus had found a better answer. And that
there were many worse fates than death—
At Morn's side Vector nodded sadly. Min assented with
her stern gaze. In his g-seat against the bulkhead, Ciro leaned
over and whispered something to Angus.
Under his breath Dolph muttered, "It still scares me. Un-
til you told us, I didn't know they had mutagens like that."
"Fucking right they have them," Angus growled.
"They're probably giving one to your Director Dios right
now.''
A sudden pall covered the bridge. "Jesus!" Captain
Ubikwe croaked. One of his duty officers groaned aloud;
Morn didn't see who. Davies flinched as if he'd been burned:
his face closed like a fist. Min's brows pulled into a hard
frown.
Softly Vector urged, "I don't think we have much time,
Morn."
Time? There was no time. They're probably giving one—
Warden Dios might face the same plight which had broken
Ciro. I think we should try—
Have you forgotten about the Preempt Act?
With an effort of will she straightened her back; put on
authority as if she'd earned it. "Vector's right, Director Don-
ner." Self-coercion rasped in her voice. "We're running out
of time.
"Tell me about the Preempt Act."


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She wanted to hear Min confirm the betrayal Angus had
explained to her aboard Trumpet. And she wanted Davies to
know what had been done to his father.
Davies moved closer to her. "Director Lebwohl men-
tioned a 'Preempt Act.' I didn't know what he was talking _
about."
Tension at the corners of Min's eyes hinted at pain; but
she didn't turn away. Holding Morn's gaze, she asked over her
shoulder, "Communications, how many dishes do we have
available?''
"Depends on who we're sending to, Director," Cray an-
swered.
"UMCPHQ," Min replied. "UMCHO. Suka Bator."
Cray consulted her readouts. '' Sorry, Director. Two tight-
beam transmissions are all we can manage from this attitude.
If you want to reach more than that, we'll have to use general,
broadcast. Or relay it through Center." She paused, then
added, "Unless you're willing to turn our blind side on that
Amnioni."
"All right." Min still faced Morn. "Keep one on
UMCPHQ. I need to talk to Center. Aim the other at Suka
Bator. When I get a chance, I want to find out what's happen-
ing down there.
"If Fasner has to reach me, he can do it through Center."
Without transition she said to Morn, "I'll tell you about
the Preempt Act. Since we're on the subject of restitution." A
flick of her eyes referred to Captain Ubikwe. "You haven't
heard about this, Dolph. You aren't going to like it."
He grimaced. "I haven't liked anything so far. Why
should this be different?"
Hard knots swelled at the corners of Davies' jaw.
Min aimed her frown like a challenge at Morn. Her empty
hands clenched and opened at her sides as if she were groping
for weapons. Her tone was hard, incisive—a chisel she used to
cut down images of herself.
"The GCES passed the Preempt Act a few months ago. It
gives the UMCP jurisdiction over local Security anywhere in
human space. Holt Fasner has been trying to get legislation
like that enacted for years. Finally he succeeded.
"He succeeded because we made the Members think lo-
cal Security—specifically Com-Mine Security—couldn't be
trusted. We used Angus for that. Between the two of them,
Nick and Milos Taverner framed him for stealing supplies. It
was obvious he must have had inside help. That crime couldn't
have happened any other way. So there had to be a traitor in
Security.
"Well, there was a traitor," Min stated brutally. "But he
wasn't working with Angus. He was working for us. Nick and
Milos got their orders from Hashi. Warden issued those orders,
but they came directly from Holt Fasner."
The ED director ignored Morn's flinch of pain, Dolph's
gathering outrage, Davies' desperate look of betrayal. She paid
no attention to the tight consternation of the duty officers, or to
Angus' fierce, wounded grin. "We let Nick have you," she
told Morn like an act of violence, "because that was part of
the deal. Part of what we paid him to do jobs for us. He
wanted the satisfaction of stealing Angus' woman."
Then she allowed herself a stiff shrug. "Now Fasner
needs you dead," she finished, "because you can testify
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why we sent Nick those priority-codes. We could make an-
other deal with him. He probably would have been delighted to
kill you all."
A stunned silence filled the bridge. The ship muttered and
sighed to herself as servos hummed, blips and sensors chirped,
scrubbers exhaled. Punisher's deceleration roared in the back-
ground. But no one made a sound.
Pressure rose in Morn's chest like the approach of a gale.
Deep inside her, voices which might have belonged to her
parents wailed out their abandonment like the damned.
Angus had told her the truth.
That was part of the deal.
There was a traitor. But he wasn't working with Angus.
Now Fasner—
Everyone in her family had sworn their lives and honor to
people who did such things.
Captain Ubikwe was the first to recover speech. "Let me
get this straight." He scrubbed his palms over his eyes like a
man trying to clear away a film of despair. As he found words,
his dark rumble became a snarl of protest. "You gave her to a
man like this Succorso so he would help you betray Com-
Mine Security?
"My God, Min! That's unconscionable! It's treason. I
should haul you up on charges—I should arrest you right
now!"
Min didn't glance at him. "You should," she agreed. Her
strict gaze was fixed on Morn as if no one else mattered. "But
you won't."
"Why won't I?" he demanded hotly; dangerously.
"Because you know it's not that simple," she told him;
told Morn. "And because you know dealing with Calm Hori-
zons takes precedence. If we survive, you'll have plenty of
time to ruin my reputation, destroy my career." A mirthless
smile twisted her mouth. "Who knows? Maybe you can even
get me executed."
Davies had fumed with tension while Dolph spoke. Now
he brandished his fists like an echo of Angus' furious rejec-
tion.
"I don't care what he knows." His voice was a con-
stricted cry. "I don't care whether you think it's simple or not.
Did you have any idea what you were doing to her?"
At last Min let Morn go; turned to face her son.
"We didn't hear about it until later." Commandments
lined her face. She was determined to shirk nothing. "Until
Hashi interrogated Angus. But we knew his reputation. And
we knew Nick. We could guess what it cost her."
Davies was close to tears. "And you went along with it?"
"Yes, I went along with it," Min rasped. "I was given
orders, and I carried them out. I got them from a man I trust."
"That's not good enough!" he yelled at her.
Her self-discipline didn't slip. "Yes, it is," she answered
firmly. After a moment she added, "I still trust him. More
than ever. He's earned it."
"I'll tell you what he's earned," Angus growled across
the bridge. "He's earned exactly what's happening to him
right now."
Aboard Calm Horizons. A mutagen like the one Sorus
had forced on Ciro—
"Director," Cray put in raggedly, "Center is starting to
sound frantic. They really need to talk to you."
"Wait." Morn held up her hand before Min could move.


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She had the authority she needed now: the ED director's ad-
mission gave her that. But when Min paused like an obedient
subordinate, Morn didn't attack or castigate her. Morn had
other questions to ask—questions which were more urgent
than outrage.
"You said we were on the subject of restitution. What
restitution?"
Slowly Min's shoulders lifted as if Morn had taken a bur-
den off her back. "Think about it," she said quietly. "You'll
figure it out."
Without hesitation she moved toward the communications
console. As soon as she reached it she accepted a PCR from
Cray and screwed it into her ear; adjusted a throat pickup
beside her larynx; announced herself to UMCPHQ Center.
When Center replied, she assumed her duties as Acting Direc-
tor of the UMCP.
Abruptly Dolph slapped the back of the command g-seat
like a man whose need to hit something had become more
than he could bear. "I never thought I would say this, Ensign
Hyland," he drawled, "but I'm glad you're in command. If I
had to think this through, I would give myself an aneurysm."
At once he pushed his heavy frame toward targ. Peering
down at Mikka, he observed almost gently, "You look ex-
hausted. And I need something to do. Why don't you let me
take a turn?"
Mikka raised her head. A smear of prostration she
couldn't blink away half blinded her. Hoarse with fatigue and
concentration, she countered, "Why don't you go fuck your-
self?"
Captain Ubikwe scowled lugubriously. "You people
amaze me," he remarked to no one in particular. "You've all
been taking courtesy lessons from Angus."
Shoving his hands into the pockets of his shipsuit, he
wandered back to his g-seat against the bulkhead and sat
down.
As soon as Dolph left, Davies crowded closer to Morn's
console. Distress congested his features: he'd been hit by too
many shocks at once. "Vector's right," he breathed tensely.
"We're running out of time. We can't let them get away with
this. Framing Angus. Selling you. What're we going to do?"
She might have replied, What we came for. Talk to the
Council. Rescue Warden Dios. Stop Calm Horizons. But she
wasn't ready to say those things aloud. She didn't know how
to accomplish any of them. And the idea of restitution had
taken hold of her: she needed a chance to gauge its implica-
tions.
"At the moment," she announced slowly, "I'm waiting
for Director Dios to tell us what he thinks we should do. As
far as I can see, he created this mess. Maybe he knows how to
get us all out of it."
Min didn't pause in her rapid exchange with Center; but
she flashed a quick gaze at Morn—a brief, hard glance like a
look of pride.
DAVIES
He paced the cruiser's bridge.
He couldn't help himself:
his exaggerated metabolism drove him. An acute dread of
Calm Horizons and Marc Vestabule ate at his nerves. And his
heart hurt with a sense of chagrin so profound that it was
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his skin held a hive of angry wasps. His throat ached from
yelling at Min.
Did you have any idea what you were doing to her?
As recently as two or three days ago, he would have told
himself that Morn was making him crazy with her delays and
hesitations, her conflicted priorities; her scruples. But now he
knew better. His distress was entirely his own: painful, inti-
mate, and unanswerable.
That's not good enough!
In every effective sense he was a UMCP ensign—born
and bred to the job. All his instincts cried out for the work the
UMCP should do. Defend Earth. Destroy Calm Horizons. Pro-
tect human space.
But Min Donner had made him ashamed to be a cop. He
didn't know how to excuse the crime of framing Angus in
order to make Holt Fasner stronger.
She still trusted Warden Dios. Davies no longer trusted
anyone except his mother.
I think we should try to rescue him.
That made sense to him. He wanted to fight. God, he
needed to fight. Calm Horizons had come for him: no one else.
The warship had come here for no other purpose than to re-
claim possession of him. The Amnion intended to use him
against his entire species. If he had to he would kill himself to
stop them.
But he also wanted to hold Warden Dios accountable—
He was sure Morn felt the same way. She must have: he'd
been imprinted with her mind. She could see the need for
some kind of action as clearly as he did. But he understood her
uncertainty now; her determination to wait for more informa-
tion. Like him, she'd been made ashamed. Like him, she
wasn't sure who to trust. And she desperately wanted to know
whose cause her choices would serve when she made up her
mind.
For him the question was more personal.
By now Vestabule must have known that he couldn't
quash Vector's antimutagen. It had already been broadcast too
far to be called back. None of the secrets Trumpet had carried
from forbidden space could be suppressed now.
No, Calm Horizons had come for Davies. The Amnion
wanted to study him; learn how to make Amnion like him. If
their research succeeded, he would supply the key which
would enable them to eradicate all Earth-born life from the
galaxy.
But his real problem was worse than that; far more com-
plex.
He believed that Warden Dios would try to give the Am-
nion what they demanded. How else could the UMCP director
prevent Calm Horizons' guns from wreaking colossal devasta-
tion on the planet? He might not understand what was at stake.
Or—if Angus was right—he might be under pressure from the
same mutagen which had broken Ciro; ruled Sorus Chatelaine
until the end. In either case the result would be the same.
It would be safer to rescue Warden than to take his orders.
Unfortunately Angus had already refused. And Davies had no
idea how to do it himself. If he made the attempt he might be
captured.
On the other hand, the prospect of a direct attack on Calm
Horizons appalled him. Too many innocent people would die.
So it might be less costly to ignore Warden's plight alto-
gether and concentrate on the Council. Tarnish his reputation


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and credibility until no one on Earth would expect Punisher or
Trumpet to follow his orders. But if the UMCP director fell,
who would take his place? Where would his power go? To Min
Donner? Not likely. Not while Holt Fasner owned the cops.
Tainting Warden's honor would accomplish nothing but ruin
unless the Dragon could somehow be held accountable for
Warden's trespasses.
It was no wonder that Morn hesitated; waited— Davies
would have done the_same—if he could have borne it. But
instead he stalked the bridge as if he were hunting for a way
through his dilemma. A way out.
He couldn't find one. He was too scared.
He'd said to Morn, We're running out of time. We can't
let them get away with this. What're we going to do? as if he
wanted her to make his decisions for him. But he didn't. His
appeal was of a completely different kind.
Since the day he was born, he'd done little or nothing to
determine his own fate. Nick had given him to the Amnion.
Morn had sent him to the Bill. Angus had rescued him. He'd
cut the datacore out of Angus' back because Morn had told
him to do it. Whenever he was desperate, Mikka or Morn or
Vector or Angus or even poor Sib had picked up the slack of
his inadequacy.
He didn't want to be given any more answers. He was
looking for some hint that might tell him how to go about
saving his own soul. If he'd known what Morn meant to do, he
might have been able to think about his plight more clearly.
But no one talked to him. No one shed any light. Morn
simply bided her time. Angus had slammed some kind of
door; barricaded himself behind his fear and refusal. Mikka
was too bone weary and heartsick to think about anything
except the targ board. Vector's view of the situation was too
simple to lift Davies' confusion, and Ciro was crazy.
As for Min Donner, who at least valued the truth enough
to tell it—
She made cryptic remarks about "restitution": she con-
fronted this crisis like a woman who saw dimensions and im-
plications Davies couldn't grasp. And her few explanations
cast murk instead of illumination. Nick and Milos Taverner
had framed Angus in order to secure the Dragon's hold on
human space. And Warden Dios had condoned it?—initiated
it? Min herself had gone along with it? She revealed facts; but
she said nothing about what lay behind them.
Think about it. You'll figure it out.
Maybe Morn already had. Maybe that was why she could
bear waiting. But she wasn't the one Calm Horizons had come
to damn.
Now Min was immersed in her dealings with UMCPHQ
Center. Except for the helm officer, Sergei Patrice, and Cray
on communications, she was the only one who had anything
to do. Scan and data processed the same information again
and again; Mikka confirmed everything she already knew
about Punisher's weapons status; Angus and Ciro muttered to
each other like bitter conspirators; Morn and Dolph Ubikwe
and Vector remained passive, as if they'd forgotten how to
move.
In contrast, Min stood beside the communications board,
holding her body like a gun. One hand cupped her PCR to
keep what she heard to herself. When she spoke into her throat
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most of the time Davies couldn't make out what she said.
The weight of her impact gun in his pocket wore against
his thigh.
At some point he thought he heard her address Hashi
Lebwohl. Most of what she said to the DA director was a
covered blur, however, and Davies ignored it. His dilemma
didn't hinge on what she and Hashi did together.
Later she recited the names of ships: Valor, Adventurous;
others. By studying Porson's scan display, Davies gleaned the
information that she was making adjustments in the cordon
around Calm Horizons. Deliberately she placed her vessels so
that they all had clear fields of fire on both Calm Horizons and
Punisher, as well as on UMCPHQ and Holt Fasner's HO.
Punisher's deceleration edged her closer to the same
goal. The Acting Director was keeping her options open—
So was Morn, for that matter. But Davies seemed to have
none.
Finally he crossed the cruiser's g to stand in front of
Angus and Ciro. He didn't know where else to turn. He held
himself rigid until Angus raised an acid stare to his face. Then
he leaned forward and demanded softly, "Tell me how to do it.
How to rescue Warden Dios."
Please. I need something to think about that doesn't feel
so much like destroying everything 1 want to save.
Angus twisted his mouth in a grin like an act of malice.
"Ask Ciro." He indicated Mikka's brother with a jerk of his
head. "He knows all about it."
"I know all about it," Ciro confirmed. He, too, grinned—
a complex, secretive smile that hinted at relief and dismay.
"That won't help you," Davies told the boy bitterly.
"Not while he refuses to do it"—he slapped a gesture at
Angus—"and won't let anybody else try."
At once, however, he regretted inflicting his anger on
Ciro. The damaged kid lowered his head, shrinking into him-
self; but before his eyes fell Davies saw them fill up with
darkness.
Swallowing a groan, Davies turned back to Angus.
"Vector still has some of Nick's antimutagen." Misery
he couldn't stifle thickened his tone. "Even if Vestabule gives
Director Dios that mutagen, we could help him."
Angus wasn't swayed. "You haven't been listening," he
rasped. "I've said all this before.
"Your Director Dios knew what he was doing when he
sold Morn to Nick. He framed me. Cost me my ship. My life.
Her—" He flicked a glance at Morn. "And he knew what he
was doing when he welded me. He called it a crime against my
soul. But that didn't stop him. None of it stopped him.
"Now it looks like he's found a way to stop himself. I
want to make damn sure he doesn't change his mind."
Davies shuddered. As far as he could see, Angus' indict-
ment of Warden was valid. And Min's obscure talk of "resti-
tution" did nothing to soften it.
No one helped him answer his own questions.
"Morn," Vector said unexpectedly, "I think we should
go ahead. Take our chances." He spoke gently, but his gaze
was clouded with concern. "We can't keep second-guessing
ourselves. We've been told too many lies. There's too much
we don't know. If we spend all our time worrying about
whether we're making a mistake, we'll never do what we came
here for."
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in the command g-seat with her head back and her eyes closed
as if she were asleep. Only the tension in her shoulders and
arms, and the way the corners of her mouth reacted to every
voice around her, betrayed that she was conscious; paying at-
tention.
Abruptly Porson announced from scan, "Director, Calm
Horizons is turning a dish on us. Looks like she wants to
talk."
Davies wheeled toward the communications station;
froze. Morn jerked open her eyes and faced Min. Mikka made
a small, thin sound that might have been a curse or a prayer.
I'm waiting for Director Dios to tell us what he thinks we
should do. As far as I can see, he created this mess. Maybe he
knows how to get us all out of it.
Min didn't hesitate. "General broadcast, Cray," she in-
structed. "UMCP cruiser Punisher to Amnion defensive Calm
Horizons." She made no effort to muffle her pickup. "We
can't hear you. We've been damaged. We don't have a dish
available. If you need to reach us, you can route your transmis-
sion through UMCPHQ Center. Repeat that until she does
something about it.
"From now on," she told the bridge, "nobody has any
secrets. If Marc Vestabule wants to say anything—or Warden
does—it'll be on the record."
Logged and stored by Center.
Davies found that he was holding his breath. On the re-
cord. With one quick stroke Min had shaken his distrust.
Nobody has any secrets.
Restitution. Honesty.
What the hell was she doing? What did she want?
"I guess she heard us," Porson reported. "She's shifting
that dish away again."
Captain Ubikwe straightened himself in his g-seat. "Can
we tell who she is talking to, Porson?" Apparently he wasn't
as uninvolved as he might have wished.
"We can't tap into tight-beam transmissions, Captain,"
the scan officer stated unnecessarily. "And some of her dishes
are occulted. But before the scan net was shut down, we got a
pretty good picture of her. Good enough to know she has one
dish fixed on UMCPHQ. And another on UMCHO."
"What about HO?" Dolph rumbled. "Who are the
Dragon's dishes pointed at?"
Porson consulted his instruments; calculated vectors.
"UMCPHQ, Captain. Calm Horizons. Suka Bator." He
looked toward Dolph. "There's one aimed at us, too, but HO
isn't using it."
Abruptly Davies caught the point of Captain Ubikwe's
questions. A new pang twisted his heart. He turned to Morn.
"What will we do if Vestabule makes a deal with Holt
Fasner?"
"I've got a better question," Angus put in sourly. "How
are you going to know it if they have made a deal?"
Min interrupted her exchange with Center by lifting the
pickup from her neck. "They won't," she asserted. "Fasner
can't give Vestabule what he wants." She glanced at Morn,
then added ominously, "But they will, if Warden doesn't sat-
isfy them."
Angus swore. "Just what we need. Another threat." His
voice was harsh, guttural with strain, as if he had to fight his
zone implants in order to speak for himself. "When Warden-



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fucking-Dios-full-of-mutagens tells us to surrender, you want
us to do it so Vestabule won't try to bargain with Fasner. You
think maybe an idea like that ought to scare us into submis-
sion.
"Well, the good news is, I don't care. If Fasner wants to
sell off the whole damn planet, I say let him. Makes no differ-
ence to me."
"You don't care," Davies rasped over his shoulder. "So
you keep telling us. You won't do it." His desperation de-
manded an outlet. He feared that if he didn't start shouting—if
he didn't do something soon—his heart would crack. "But
some of us don't feel that way, so why don't you just shut up
and let us think?"
"You really don't get it, do you?" Angus countered
roughly. "It still hasn't penetrated your thick excuse for a
brain that I'm trying to keep us all alive."
Davies didn't respond. He didn't know how to tell his
father that other things were more important than staying alive.
Morn had closed her eyes again as if she wanted to shut
out distractions: Davies' face, or Angus'; the scan displays;
anything which might confuse her. "Cray," she asked tensely,
"does the Council know we're here?"
Min answered before Cray could respond. Without turn-
ing her head or silencing her pickup, she said, "Center has a
secure downlink open for Director Hannish on Suka Bator.
She knows.
"But the general broadcast for the rest of the planet isn't
exactly complete. Center has its hands full trying to manage
the crisis on Earth. And shutting down the scan net hasn't
inspired much confidence. Most of UMCPHQ's microwave
capacity is taken up with disaster procedures.
"If Koina hasn't told the Members, they don't know."
Min paused, then added, "Unless they heard it from Fane. I'm
sure he's in contact with HO all the time."
Suddenly Cray went rigid. "Director," she croaked.
"Center is relaying a transmission from Director Dios."
Oh, shit! Davies thought in misery. Here it comes.
He wasn't ready.
Morn sat forward with a jerk; opened her eyes. Alarm
flared whitely in her gaze. The crisis seemed to set her alight:
Davies had the impression that the muscles in her shoulders
and neck and arms were on fire.
Vector moved closer to the command station. Davies did
the same, drawn by Morn's urgency. Instinctively he closed
his fingers on Min's handgun.
"I have her on targ," Mikka muttered in a worn growl.
"I can hit her whenever you want."
Ciro was her brother. She may have understood better
than anyone what the mutagen Sorus Chatelaine had suffered
and used could do.
But Min ignored the apprehension around her. She might
have forgotten that fear existed. "Put it on the speakers," she
told Cray quietly. "And keep me off that channel. I'm busy
with Center. Ensign Hyland will speak for the ship."
Good God, Davies thought. She was serious. She was
going to keep her word.
"Aye, Director," Cray answered. Her hands shook fever-
ishly as she tapped keys; brought the speakers to life in a
muted crackle of thrust static.
Morn took a deep breath; braced herself—
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"Punisher, this is Warden Dios." He spoke as if nothing
could prevent him from being clear. "I'm aboard Calm Hori-
zons. You already know that.
"Min? Dolph?"
Davies had never heard the UMCP director's voice be-
fore. Nevertheless the sound stirred Morn's memories of him.
He felt an odd thrill, as if he'd been touched by the call of a
trumpet. Warden's power to inspire loyalty, dedication, and
faith—or Morn's ingrained response to it—reached him across
the gap between his experience and hers.
In spite of everything, the director's convictions and com-
mitments defined the UMCP for Davies; gave substance to the
honorable work of being a cop. Something in his heart turned
at the call of Warden's voice.
I think we should try to rescue him. Yes.
I still trust him.
Apart from Morn, he may have been the only one on the
bridge who reacted in that way. Captain Ubikwe sank deeper
into his g-seat; bowed his head as if he wanted to hide the
shame of losing his command. Patrice attended to his duties,
as focused and constricted as Mikka. Porson made a show of
studying his sensors and readouts; but Bydell sat at the data
station as if she were paralyzed by worry. Glessen clenched
his fists and remained rigid, swearing to himself.
At the communications station, Min had resumed her ex-
change with Center as if she no longer cared what Warden
might say. Davies envied her composure; her concentration.
He couldn't match them. His nerves rang as if he were stuck
in a carillon.
With a stiff flinch of her shoulders, Morn toggled the
command station pickup. "Director Dios—" Her voice
caught. She grimaced in dismay at her weakness; swallowed to
moisten her throat. "This is Morn Hyland. Aboard Punisher.
I'm in command."
For a moment Warden didn't react. Static filled his silence
with ambiguity: he might have been hiding behind it. Then he
pronounced carefully, "Did I hear you right? You're Ensign
Morn Hyland? Off Starmaster?" His tone sharpened. "And
you're in command?''
Apparently he hadn't discussed Punisher with Center. Or
Hashi Lebwohl.
"Yes, sir." Morn lifted her head; squared her jaw. "My
father was Captain Davies Hyland. But I don't think of myself
as an 'ensign' now. I resigned my commission when I joined
Captain's Fancy.
"I took command outside the Massif-5 system. Director
Donner and Captain Ubikwe are here. No one's been hurt."
Grimly she finished, "But I make the decisions for this ship."
Her tone said, Don't try to give me orders. I don't take
them anymore.
Again Warden answered with silence. He may have been
shocked. When he replied, however, distortion and distance
conveyed the impression that all his emotions had been locked
away.
"Forgive me, Morn. I've had too many surprises recently.
It's difficult to absorb them all.
"I've just been informed that you did this once before.
Took over a ship you had no business commanding." He
didn't explain; but Vestabule must have told him how she'd
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son away for gap drive components. "Obviously you're good
at it."
Vestabule must have explained how she'd extorted Da-
vies' return.
"I won't ask what you think you're doing," the UMCP
director went on. "We don't have time to go into it. But under
the circumstances I can't take your word for it that Min and
Dolph are safe."
"They haven't suffered anything worse than a few in-
sults." To Davies Morn sounded as impersonal, as concealed,
as Warden did. "You can confirm that if you want to. But you
can't talk to Director Donner. She's busy. I've given her per-
mission to serve as Acting UMCP Director in your absence. In
exchange, she's ordered Captain Ubikwe not to interfere with
me."
This time Warden didn't pause. "Can they hear me?"
"I'm using the bridge speakers, Director," Morn re-
turned acerbically. "We can all hear you."
From now on, nobody has any secrets.
"Dolph?" Warden's distorted voice asked promptly.
"Are you all right?"
Captain Ubikwe opened his mouth to reply, then closed it.
Deliberately he looked at Morn for permission.
She glanced toward him over her shoulder and nodded.
"No, Director, I'm not all right." Dolph's deep tones
thrummed with bitterness. "Nothing is all right. But I don't
know what to do about that. I don't even know how we got
into this mess. All I can tell you is that for the past few days
we've been making decisions that seemed reasonable at the
time."
"I'm sure they were," Warden responded as if he were
promising a pardon. "I'm not worried about that. I'm just glad
for a chance to hear your voice.
"Morn," he continued, "is Angus with you? Can he hear
me?"
Angus cocked his head in surprise. The muscles at the
corners of his jaw bunched.
Davies winced inwardly. For reasons he couldn't name,
he feared hearing Warden invoke Angus' priority-codes. The
resonance of loyalty and idealism in Warden's voice held him.
He was sick of coercion: he didn't want to hear Warden try it.
But if Morn felt the same way, she didn't show it. "Yes,
Director." Her tone hinted at acid and blood. "Everyone from
Trumpet who's still alive is here."
Warden didn't ask her who'd died. Apparently he wasn't
interested. "Angus?" he asked. "It's good you made it this
far. You've done well." He waited, obviously hoping for a
reply. When Angus didn't give him one, he pursued, "Are you
all right?"
Morn faced Angus gravely; gave him the same nod she'd
given Dolph. Pain and need darkened her gaze.
Angus unclenched his jaw. "That depends," he growled,
"on what you order me to do."
Davies clenched his fist on Min's gun because he couldn't
reach his sore heart and made a conscious effort not to hold
his breath.
A sigh came from the speakers. Now Warden's voice
hinted at weariness; the accustomed fatigue of loss. "I'm not
going to do that. I'm sure Min already tried it. If Morn is in
command there, I assume you've found a way around your
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"We talked about that once," he added obscurely.
He must also have assumed that Nick was no longer a
factor. An easy deduction: if Nick had retained control over
Angus, the situation aboard Punisher would have been com-
pletely different.
Slowly Angus raised his hands to his face, rubbed at his
sweat-grimed cheeks. "In that case," he retorted, "no, I'm not
all right either. The fat man isn't as stupid as he looks. None
of us are all right. The difference is, I'm the only one who
knows what we're really doing here."
What we're—? Davies gaped at Angus —really doing?
What was he talking about?
"Which is?" Warden asked warily.
Angus didn't hesitate. As if he were passing sentence, he
pronounced heavily, "We're waiting for you to keep at least
one of your promises. I'm sure every one of us has a candidate
in mind. Personally, I want to see you keep the one where you
stop the crime you've done to me."
Morn's eyes widened involuntarily, and Davies caught his
breath. Like her, he hadn't considered the possibility that War-
den might have made promises to Angus as well.
Angus was right: in spite of his truculence and his refus-
als, he'd named the truth.
"I'm considering it," Warden drawled across the gap be-
tween the ships. "I haven't made a decision yet. I don't know
enough about the situation."
"Well, while you're 'considering it,' " Angus retorted,
"let me tell you what we're considering.
"We want to know what kind of mutagen Vestabule gave
you."
Warden sighed again. "Don't worry about it," he re-
turned. "I have a suicide pill in my mouth. I'll bite it open if I
have to." Firmly he added, "I'm not particularly eager to turn
into an Amnioni."
Davies believed him. He was starting to feel capable of
suicide himself. And the UMCP director's voice carried con-
viction, despite the intervening distortion. Morn had spent
most of her life believing implicitly in Warden Dios. Now
Davies felt that he simply could not doubt anything Warden
said.
That made his own position harder to bear. It was easier
when he was full of outrage.
Morn pulled her hands through her hair, resisting the per-
suasion of her memories; tugging at her scalp to remind her-
self that the cops were corrupt.
"Why are you telling us this, Director Dios?" she asked
unsteadily. "What's your point? I've already said I don't con-
sider myself a cop anymore. I'm not under your authority.
Whatever we decide to do isn't going to depend on whether or
not you have a suicide pill."
"I recognize that," Warden replied at once. The pressure
of his position aboard Calm Horizons seemed to urge him
ahead. "But I want you to recognize who you're talking to.
I'm not some Amnion pawn you can afford to ignore. I'm
Warden Dios, and I'm trying to do my job."
By an exertion of self-discipline so severe that it appeared
to make her shiver, Min kept her attention fixed on her PCR
and pickup; on Center.
Do my job, Davies nodded helplessly. Save Suka Bator.
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that? How could he hold back from offering to sacrifice him-
self? Didn't he think those lives were worth what he would
have to pay for them?
But Morn wasn't swayed. "I'm sorry, Director Dios. I'm
afraid I just don't understand." She may have meant, Which
promise are you trying to keep? "Why are you aboard that
ship? How can you do your job if you're a hostage?
"What makes you think negotiating with the Amnion
won't cost us more than we can possibly afford?"
Her words may have stung Warden. "You don't need to
understand it, Morn," he responded with unexpected vehe-
mence. "What you need to understand is that the Amnion are
going to destroy Suka Bator, UMCPHQ, your ship, and any-
thing else they can aim their guns at if we don't give them
what they want.
"And after that what's left of us will be at war with
forbidden space. All-out war. Wholesale slaughter. My God,
Morn," he finished brutally, "we're talking about enough
blood to drown a planet. Try understanding that."
She covered the misery on her face with her hands.
"Don't drag it out, Director," she breathed. "Tell us what it
means. So we'll know what we're up against."
"All right," Warden consented grimly. "I'll put it in
plain language for you.
"The Amnion consider Davies Hyland their rightful
property. They want him returned to Calm Horizons. In addi-
tion, as compensation for an act of war committed against
Thanatos Minor, they want Angus Thermopyle, Vector
Shaheed, and you. If the four of you don't come here and
surrender yourselves, the defensive is going to open fire."
His words restored the full force of Davies' dilemma.
Calm Horizons wanted him.
In subtle ways the terms of his decision had shifted. The
visceral throb of loyalty he felt whenever Warden spoke
seemed to alter the valence of the emergency. Involuntarily he
forgot Warden's crimes. Yet his fear remained, appalling and
paralyzing him. The demands of the Amnion pressed him
toward a gap he didn't know how to cross.
Without realizing that he'd moved, he found himself
standing in front of Min Donner as if she held the clue he
needed; the hint which would unlock him from his impasse.
The truth— She hardly glanced at him, however. Although she
seemed to hear everything that was said around her, she con-
centrated like a hawk on the pickup at her throat and the PCR
in her ear.
Angus started to say something; but Morn silenced him
with a cutting gesture. She faced a dilemma of her own: dis-
tinct from her son's, but no less arduous.
"What about you, Director Dios?" she asked thickly.
"What do you want?"
The speakers crackled. "You've said more than once that
you don't consider yourself bound to take my orders." Warden
spoke slowly, precisely, as if he were suppressing a vast need.
"If you did, I would order you to comply. Since you don't,
I'm trying to persuade you." Harsh with coercion, he added,
"If you refuse, I'll instruct Director Donner to take command
away from you and force you to comply."
Then he went on more gently, "I don't mind paying for
my own mistakes, Morn. God knows I deserve to bear the
brunt of this. And you know that's true. You've learned every-
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now you've probably heard that Angus was framed so we
could pass the Preempt Act. If you have, you can figure out
that we sold you to Nick so you couldn't tell anyone Angus
was innocent. And the final responsibility for Calm Horizons
is mine. I chose Milos Taverner to go with Angus to Billin-
gate."
On the record Warden Dibs admitted his crimes.
"I'm dead no matter what happens, Morn. If being a hos-
tage, or asking you to give yourselves up, is part of the price I
have to pay, I'll do it. But I simply cannot let millions of
innocent people be killed just because I've failed in my duty."
Min paused; turned to see how Morn would respond.
From under his dark brows, Captain Ubikwe studied Morn
piercingly. Most of the duty officers neglected their boards
while they waited for her answer. Even Mikka raised her head
from the targ keys and readouts; looked at Morn with her face
full of exhaustion and mute, baffled longing.
Angus muttered curses under his breath. Ciro gave no
sign that he understood anything except his own peculiar
secrets. He sat with his head back and his eye's half closed,
murmuring softly to himself. But Vector listened with pain in
his eyes and lines of loss around his mouth.
The Amnion consider Davies Hyland their rightful prop-
erty.
I'm dead no matter what happens—
Davies' life hung on a decision he couldn't make.
Morn seemed unaware that everyone waited for her. She
was caught in the grip of Warden's appeal. Moisture blurred
her eyes. A frown twisted her forehead. She gripped the arms
of her g-seat as if she needed them for balance.
She was silent for a long moment as if she were listening
to echoes of her parents' voices. Then she leaned over the
pickup.
Husky with constricted emotion, she said, "We'll have to
talk about it, Director. I can't make these kinds of decisions
for other people.
"Stay on this channel. We'll come up with an answer as
soon as we can."
With the tip of one finger, she silenced her pickup gently,
as if she were bidding the UMCP director farewell.
Davies hardly heard her. His attention was fixed on Min.
He needed to ask her a question which he didn't know how to
formulate. The crisis he dreaded most had caught up with him
at last. Somehow he had to decide what he was going to do.
Min Donner seemed to be the only person on the bridge
who might be able to tell him why he shouldn't put her gun to
his temple and blow his brains out.
Warden
Morn said, "We'll have to
talk about it. I can't make
these kinds of decisions for other people." Then her voice
clicked silent, leaving Warden Dios alone with Marc
Vestabule.
His heart trembled as he drifted at the communications
terminal grown into one wall of the small chamber where
Vestabule guarded him. Sweat beaded on his temples; prickled
along his spine. His human eye throbbed at the strain of the
Amnion illumination: his prosthesis told him nothing he could
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that accomplishment—or the depth of the disaster—stunned
him. Somehow she'd persuaded or forced Min and Dolph to
stand aside. Now she insisted that she no longer served the
UMCP. Dolph plainly considered himself helpless. Min had
reached some accommodation which allowed her to serve as
Acting Director without opposing Morn's command. And
Angus was openly hostile—
Something had happened. Something wonderful—or ter-
rible. With Vestabule looming at his shoulder, Warden was no
longer sure he could tell the difference.
Questions seemed to throng at him from the inhuman
walls. What would Morn decide? Would Min obey him if he
ordered her to surrender Morn and Davies? How had she be-
come Acting Director? What happened to Hashi?
Effectively a prisoner aboard Calm Horizons, Warden
Dios had no choice except to trust the people he'd most mis-
used: Min and Hashi; Mom and Angus.
Slowly Vestabule reached past him to deactivate the board
pickup. For a moment the Amnioni used his own pickup to
address someone—presumably Calm Horizons' command
center. Warden couldn't decipher the guttural Amnion sounds;
but he guessed that Vestabule was making sure the defensive's
channel to Punisher remained open.
Then Vestabule turned his attention to Warden.
"Your people do not obey you," he pronounced stiffly.
Like Warden, he had only one human eye. His Amnion side
stared at Warden inflexibly; but the human one was moist with
distress. "You are not invested with decisiveness. You cannot
satisfy our requirements."
 Oh, shit.
Alarm labored like the acrid air in Warden's chest as
Vestabule continued. "I must open communications with Holt
Fasner. Your failure allows no alternative. He states that he is
able to command compliance from all effective power in hu-
man space."
Anchoring himself on the communications board, Warden
turned quickly to contradict Vestabule.
"If that's what he says, he's lying through his teeth." He
mustered anger to muffle his panic; raised his voice to force it
past the obstruction of his breathing mask. "Ask Center to
send you a copy of the UMCP charter War Powers provisions.
You'll see I'm telling the truth. Fasner's authority over the
UMCP was suspended the minute you began this incursion.
Right now I am the only effective power in human space."
Damn you, I'm selling my soul for this! Don't throw it
away.
Vestabule's strange features revealed nothing. The blink-
ing of his human eye was too ambiguous to interpret. The aura
he cast to Warden's IR sight seethed and pulsed with hues the
UMCP director didn't recognize.
"I know it doesn't look that way," Warden went on
harshly. "Morn Hyland resigned her commission. She doesn't
recognize my authority under martial law. And it's obvious
Captain Thermopyle broke out of his programming somehow.
"But I'm not done yet."
Without inflection the Amnioni countered, "Do you not
find it difficult to assert that you are 'the only effective power
in human space' when it is plain that you have no effect? Even
among your kind such clear contradictions must cause dis-
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"I'm not done yet," he insisted. "You're surrounded by
our ships. Right now Punisher won't take my orders. But none
of them will take Holt Fasner's. Any deal you made with him
would be useless because he can't make those ships hold fire.
"I still have more to say to Morn. And even if I can't give
her orders, the situation itself is pretty persuasive.
"You talk about how much you remember, but I'm not
sure you remember what it's like for a human being to believe
in an idea that's bigger than you are. Morn isn't just a cop.
She believes in what cops are for. Her whole family did, and
she's no different. She's been hurt and disillusioned, but she
isn't capable of forgetting it's her sworn duty to protect inno-
cent lives."
Behind the concealment of his anger, he prayed fervently
that he was right.
"But even if she ignores me," he grated, "I'll still give
you what you want. For one thing, Morn can't hold that ship if
Director Donner and Captain Ubikwe decide to take it back.
The crew will obey them. And both Min and Dolph will obey
me.
"On top of that, there are codes I can use that will affect
Angus. I haven't done it yet"—as if involuntarily he burst into
a shout—"because I'm trying to keep as many of my people
alive as I can!" The trembling in his heart spread to his lungs;
his voice. His mask seemed to constrict his breathing until he
had to pant for air. "As soon as I turn this into a test of what
you call 'decisiveness,' there's going to be bloodshed."
In case Vestabule missed the point, Warden explained bit-
terly, "No matter how careful Min and Dolph are, Davies
might contrive to get himself killed."
The Amnioni stared back uncomfortably. The strange
contrast between his human and alien eyes gave the impression
that he was torn by the irreconciled contradictions of his na-
ture.
"The same thing might happen if Holt Fasner gave orders
Punisher was willing to obey," Warden growled. "I'm not in
a hurry to take that chance. I don't think you are either.
"We made a deal." His voice shook as if he were furious.
"I get you what you want. You don't try to bargain with any-
body but me. And the Amnion are famous for abiding by their
agreements." He made a point of shifting the capsule in his
mouth. "Leave Holt Fasner out of it."
A slight turn of Vestabule's head suggested that he was
listening to the receiver in his ear. He grunted a complex re-
sponse that seemed to crunch and cut like shards of broken
sound; a response full of laceration and death—
In his panic Warden wondered whether he was strong
enough to force his capsule into Vestabule's mouth before the
Amnioni could bring down ruin on his frantic hopes.
Then Marc Vestabule answered him in a tone like old
iron, "Understand this, Warden Dios. I must have satisfaction
soon. What I chiefly remember of being human is desperation.
If our requirements are not met, I will have no other re-
course."
Warden ached to ask what Vestabule meant. But he could
guess.
"You remember desperation," he muttered darkly.
"That's a start. Then maybe you can understand that you
don't gain anything by threatening me. I'm already committed
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"If you really want me to succeed, give me something I
can use. Tell me what happened to Nick Succorso."
Vestabule blinked erratically. "Of what relevance is
this?"
"I just told you," Warden snorted through his mask.
"We're talking about desperation. Morn's. Davies'." Mine.
"The more I know about why they're desperate, the more
effective I can be. How much pressure do you think I can put
on them if I don't understand what they've been through?
"Not so long ago Nick held Angus' priority-codes. He
commanded Trumpet. With Angus to back him up, he ruled
that ship. But now there's no sign of him. And Angus is free
of his codes.
"Isn't it obvious how crucial that is?"
For a moment Vestabule considered the question. His un-
readable study of the UMCP director didn't waver. The pro-
cess by which he reached decisions—whatever it was—didn't
involve any discernible emotion, any alteration in his aura; any
consultation with his fellow Amnion.
When he was done, he acquiesced. Without preamble he
stated, "Captain Nick Succorso was slain by Captain Sorus
Chatelaine. I find this incomprehensible. By some means he
contrived to board Soar, where he threatened her with death.
She killed him instead." His head moved meaninglessly from
side to side, as if he'd forgotten how humans expressed baffle-
ment. "Then she betrayed Calm Horizons.
"I remember desperation, but I can remember nothing
which would account for her actions."
Apparently it was Sorus Chatelaine he didn't understand,
not Nick—a woman who'd served the Amnion for years be-
fore turning against them.
Under other circumstances Warden might have been fas-
cinated by this hint of how an Amnion mind worked. Now,
however, he hardly noticed it. He barely absorbed the informa-
tion that Nick was dead. The manner of Nick's death dis-
tracted him.
Abruptly he recalled Hashi's discovery that Soar had
once been known as Gutbuster. In her previous identity Soar
had killed Morn's mother, Bryony Hyland. And she'd also
destroyed the original Captain's Fancy, leaving only her cabin
boy, Nick Succorso, alive.
A fatal coincidence, for Sorus as well as Nick. And yet
the outcome was that Morn and Trumpet remained alive.
Something in the tangle of hunting Trumpet, being hunted by
Nick, and serving the Amnion had turned Captain Chatelaine
against her masters.
Hashi had theorized that Nick and Sorus were working
together; but he was wrong. Nick had hated Captain Chate-
laine too much for that; hated her so much that even after he'd
lost everything else he'd "contrived to board" her ship so that
he could try to kill her: an act of such raw need and loathing
that it took Warden's breath away—
In some sense, Hashi Lebwohl—like the Amnion—didn't
truly understand desperation.
But Vestabule wasn't done. "Remembering desperation,"
he continued, "I will tell you another thing for the sake of
your effectiveness with Trumpet's people. I am acquainted
with Captain Angus Thermopyle."
As soon as he heard the Amnioni say Angus' name, War-
den's attention snapped back into focus.
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crew aboard a human ship named Viable Dreams. Perhaps
your records have revealed this to you."
Warden nodded slowly while a strange new alarm
bloomed in his heart like an evil flower.
"Our ship was captured," Vestabule said. "It was taken
to Thanatos Minor, where its surviving humans were sold to
the Amnion. I was one among twenty-eight men and women
delivered for experiment and mutation." His tone didn't
waver. "This was done by Captain Thermopyle."
Then Warden Dios needed every gram of discipline and
abnegation he could muster to conceal his reaction. In brutal
self-denial he kept his expression flat and his gaze hooded
while a singularity grenade of dismay went off in his chest.
Angus had sold twenty-eight men and women to the Am-
nion.
Vestabule didn't say what Angus had purchased with so
much human blood and horror, but Warden could guess.
Twenty-eight—
Somehow Angus had concealed that fact during his inter-
rogation by Hashi and DA. Despite the intrusion of zone im-
plants into his head, the mental rape, he hadn't let slip any
hints: he'd only answered the questions which his tormentors
had known to ask. Even when he was helpless, he'd found the
strength to preserve one secret. And Warden, who'd guessed
the existence if not the nature of that secret— Warden had said
nothing to put Hashi on the track of this appalling revelation.
Angus had sold—
And now he had the sheer effrontery to say, We're waiting
for you to keep at least one of your promises; the malign and
colossal gall to suggest, Personally, I want to see you keep the
one where you stop the crime you've done to me.
So he could do what? Help deliver Trumpet's people—
Morn as well as Davies and Vector—to Calm Horizons so that
he could escape himself? Thumb his nose at everything War-
den had hoped for from him? or from Morn?
Twenty-eight men and women!
He wanted to be set free?
While a black hole of nausea and chagrin ate at his heart,
Warden asked himself whether he had any choice. Millions of
lives hung in the balance. He and no one else had chosen
Angus; arranged his capture; designed his welding; maneu-
vered him into his plight. There was no one else Warden could
blame. Or hold responsible. Or ask to make this decision for
him.
Blinking unsteadily, Vestabule inquired, "Is this informa-
tion of use to you?"
Apparently he remembered more about being human than
Warden would have thought possible.
But the UMCP director was determined to conceal all his
personal desperation. He had no intention of letting the Am-
nioni watch him shrink and die inside himself. And he'd
promised years ago that he would bear the full cost of his
mistakes, regardless of how high it ran.
"It helps," he told Vestabule through the baffle of his
mask. "Now I have a better idea what I'm up against."
Hashi had given him a code to kill Angus: to induce a
cyborg's version of self-destruct. For the first time he began to
believe that he would have to use it.
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In a thick voice, as if she felt
like weeping, she breathed, "Somebody say something."
Davies tried. He wanted to. Director Donner, tell me—
But he couldn't find the words. He still didn't know how to
name what he needed from her.
Neither Min nor Captain Ubikwe spoke. Min watched
Morn impersonally, as if she'd taken an oath to do or say
nothing that would influence Morn's thinking. And Dolph's
shrouded gaze hid his thoughts.
Davies was obliquely surprised that Angus kept quiet.
Angus looked like he was charged with sarcasm; primed to
sneer or jeer. Yet he kept it to himself.
Bydell and Porson pretended that they were busy with
nonexistent duties. Cray concentrated like death on managing
the complex flow of transmission back and forth between Pun-
isher and UMCPHQ Center. Glessen glared truculently at
Mikka as if he wanted to club her unconscious.
At last Vector took a step or two forward. "I'll go."
A spasm of dread clenched Davies' heart. A wail filled
his chest: a cry so primitive and profound that it seemed like
the voice of his DNA. Go? Go there? Submit to that?
Morn and Dolph wheeled their g-seats toward the former
engineer. Angus raised his head; bared his teeth at Vector.
Vector made an attempt to smile, but he'd lost his familiar
calm. "They probably want me because they think they can
use what I know about our antimutagen," he explained unnec-
essarily. "But if Vestabule is an example of how much hu-
manity they can retain, they won't get much out of me."
"Vector—" Morn began; then seemed to choke on her
own protest. Clenched around herself, she fell silent.
"Don't argue with him, Ensign," Dolph muttered darkly.
"If he has the guts for it, you shouldn't stand in his way.
"Personally I want to give him a medal. Although he
probably won't appreciate it once the Amnion finish with him.
We might have to pin it to his chest with matter cannon fire."
"Shut up, Dolph," Min ordered softly. "I'm not in the
mood for your sense of humor."
Glowering, the captain subsided in his g-seat.
Vector ignored him and the ED director: he ignored ev-
eryone except Morn. She was the pivot on which his life had
turned. Her arrival aboard Captain's Fancy had changed him,
just as it had deflected Mikka and transformed Sib—and de-
stroyed Nick. The only response he cared about was hers.
"I don't want to be mutated," he admitted. "The idea
makes me feel like puking. But to be honest I haven't exactly
enjoyed the way we've spent our time recently. A chance to
help save a few million lives seems"—he shrugged painfully
—"better than the alternatives.
"Who knows? Maybe I'll finally get rid of this arthritis."
Go? Davies panted to himself. Go there? He was stuck:
his distress repeated itself as if fear were the only message his
genetic code contained. Submit to that?
"This isn't what I had in mind," Morn groaned. "When
I said I wanted to come here." Emotion cramped her throat;
tightened her chest. "I didn't intend to sacrifice you."
Again Vector tried to smile. "That's all right. I've always
wanted to be the savior of humankind." But his effort to
soften the situation failed into a grimace. "Narcissism, I sup-
pose. Or megalomania. But it looks like this is as close as I'm
likely to get."
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Davies understood as well. But he couldn't match Vec-
tor's courage—or resignation. The Amnion wanted Vector to
help them counter Intertech's antimutagen. They wanted him,
Davies, to help them destroy humankind.
Morn scanned the bridge; looked into Angus' eyes, and
Min's; studied Mikka and Ciro. Apart from Cray's murmured
responses to Center, and Min's occasional statements, no one
said anything. By degrees Morn's moist gaze cleared. Deter-
mination like anger whetted her gaze; pulled her forehead into
a knot between her brows.
"I can't go," she announced grimly. "I won't. I came
here to tell my story. I want to talk to the Council. I want to
give Director Hannish my evidence. I want to put a stop to
things like suppressing antimutagen research, or framing and
selling people to get legislation passed.'' She tapped the arms
of her g-seat with her fists. "I can't do that unless I'm here."
She hadn't stated her purpose in Min's hearing before, or
Dolph's, but they didn't react to it.
"We aren't to blame for what Calm Horizons does," she
asserted.
She was talking to Davies: he knew that. He could hear
the way she pitched her voice to reach him. She sounded like
Captain Davies Hyland as he remembered her father, explain-
ing his wife's death to his young daughter; trying to convey
across the gap of recollection and death that Morn wasn't at
fault.
But the Davies who stood on the bridge of Punisher fac-
ing Min Donner and ruin also heard Bryony Hyland in Morn's
voice: the targ officer who'd stayed at her post and died to save
the ship she served.
Morn was saying, "We aren't the ones who decided to
play manipulation games with the Amnion. None of us knew
what might happen when Nick took us to Enablement so you
could be born. It isn't our responsibility. It belongs to Warden
Dios. We don't have to help him carry it around."
Davies wasn't persuaded. He simply couldn't find enough
conviction inside himself to answer his fear.
"But telling our story is a different question," Morn went
on. "That's my responsibility. Whether millions of people live
or die today, the cops will still be corrupt. And saving those
lives now won't help them in the long run. The only thing we
can offer humankind that might make a difference is the
truth."
From now on, nobody has any secrets.
She'd told Davies that she needed a better answer. An
alternative to self-destruct. Was this it? Was risking wholesale
slaughter preferable to sacrificing herself? Was "the truth"
that powerful? Or was her answer something else?—something
Davies hadn't grasped?
Director Donner, tell me—
Go? Go there? Submit to that?
Tell me what's so bad about self-destruct.
He had Min's gun. He could" choose the future for his
entire species. Kill himself: force Calm Horizons to open fire
and die: abandon humankind to Holt Fasner. Or surrender—
When no one else responded, Vector replied as firmly as
he could, "I agree. You should stay here. There are worse
things you can do to people than killing them. Like making
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Morn nodded again, but she didn't reply. Instead she
watched Davies as if she feared that he would break her heart.
Vestabule wanted four of them: Angus and Vector, Morn and
her son. Vector had consented. Angus had said, We're waiting
for you to keep at least one of your promises. Morn herself had
made up her mind to refuse. Only Davies remained in doubt.
"Davies," Morn breathed softly. She might have been
begging. "You have to decide. I can't do it for you."
Then she waited. Even Angus appeared to wait. All the
tension on the bridge seemed to revolve around Davies as if
his uncertainty were a form of gap-sickness.
The Amnion might accept Angus' refusal. They might
conceivably accept Morn's. But if Davies rejected their re-
quirements, they would begin to kill—
At last Min looked him in the face. "Say it," she ordered
dispassionately, as if she didn't care whether he obeyed or not.
"Whatever it is. Nobody can help you if you don't say it."
Tell me—
If I gave back your gun, would you kill me? Spare me? Or
would you point it at my head and make me do what Warden
wants?
Abruptly Cray interrupted, "Director, Center is relaying a
transmission from UMCHO. From CEO Fasner."
Min cocked her head like a woman going into battle.
Without hesitation she told Cray, "Put it on the speakers.
Let's hear what he has to say." Then she turned toward the
command station. "With your permission, Morn, I think I
should talk to him."
Morn swallowed at an obstruction in her throat. "Go
ahead."
Frustration and alarm pulled tighter around Davies' heart.
What the hell did Fasner want? What did he want now?
"I can't wait," Dolph grumbled sourly. "This is going to
be such fun."
As soon as Cray tapped her keys, an angry voice crackled
and spat in the bridge speakers. "Min Donner? God damn it,
answer me. This is Fasner. Holt Fasner. United Mining Com-
panies Chief Executive Officer Holt Fasner. I'm tired of being
shuffled around like a poor relation. I want an answer."
His voice was as sharp as poison; as corrosive as ruin. It
sank like pain into the open wound of Davies' heart.
Min smiled harshly to herself. "CEO Fasner," she re-
plied, "this is UMCP Acting Director Min Donner. I'm sorry
Center gave you the impression you're being shuffled around.
They're trying to manage a catastrophe."
"You think I don't know that?" The force of Holt's retort
distorted the speakers like static. "You think I don't know who
caused it? I'm tired of bullshit, Donner. I want action."
Min showed her teeth. Anger glittered in her eyes. Never-
theless her tone remained calm; impersonal.
"What 'action' did you have in mind, sir?"
"For a start," he announced at once, "I want you to aim
a dish over here. It is intolerable that everything I say has to be
routed through those officious prigs in Center."
"And what else?" Min asked as if her compliance were a
foregone conclusion.
Holt shot back, "That madman you work for still hasn't
bothered to tell me what Calm Horizons wants, but I think I
can guess. Under no circumstances, Donner, absolutely none,
are you to deliver anything or anyone from Trumpet to that
warship. Am I being clear? Calm Horizons gets nothing from


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you.
"Put everything and everybody you found aboard Trum-
pet on a shuttle. If you don't have a shuttle, detach your damn
command module. Send all of it to me."
Send—
Angus' face tightened: he rose like a warning from his
g-seat. Vector shook his head with dismay in his eyes. Both
Morn and Dolph sat rigid, staring their apprehension at Min.
"I wasn't thrilled when you shut down the scan net,"
Holt went on, "but maybe you were right. You can arrange an
occluded launch. Calm Horizons won't see anything. Your
shuttle or the module can go around the far side of the planet.
It'll get here soon enough." Traveling opposite HO's orbit
would shorten the journey considerably. "Just do it soon."
Send all of it—
That's crazy, Davies thought. Did the Dragon want Trum-
pet's people that badly?
What did he want them for?
Quickly Min consulted the scan displays. "It'll still take
time, sir," she returned carefully. "I don't think Calm Hori-
zons will wait much longer. Have you considered what might
happen? Are you prepared to sacrifice the Council?"
Holt swore viciously. "Get one of your God damn dishes
aimed at me, Donner. I'll tell you what I'm prepared to do.
When we have a secure transmission."
Min muffled her pickup with one hand. Contained fury
seemed to pour off her in waves, but it didn't show in her
voice. Ignoring everyone else, she grinned at Captain Ubikwe.
"Pay attention, Dolph," she advised. "This may turn out
to be more fun than you thought."
Then she uncovered her pickup.
"With respect, sir," she replied disingenuously, "that's
going to be impossible. I'm only the acting director. I don't
consider it within my mandate to hear or say or do anything
that isn't on the record." She permitted herself a note of stiff
piety like a hint of scorn. "I want to be able to face anybody
who questions what I do with a clear conscience.
"Center has recorded and logged your orders. But as it
happens," she remarked, as if she trusted the Dragon to agree
with her, "you can't actually give me any orders. Under con-
ditions of war, only Director Dios has the authority to com-
mand the defense of human space. The next time I talk to him,
I'll ask him if he wants me to do what you tell me.
"At present I have no instructions to surrender anyone or
anything from Trumpet to you."
Again she justified Davies' desire to believe in her.
Angus watched her with a twisted frown, as if he didn't
know how to interpret what she said. But Morn knew. Deliber-
ately she raised one fist in the air; taunting Holt—or cheering
Min.
Dolph sat at attention. His eyes shone. "By damn, Min,"
he murmured, "you're right. This is fun." Softly he sug-
gested, "Do it again."
"Did 1 hear you right?" the CEO snapped. "You refuse a
direct order from the man who owns the UMCP?"
"That's correct, sir." Still piously, Min added, "It really
doesn't matter who 'owns' the UMCP. I take my orders from
Director Dios. If you want me to obey, I'll need instructions to
that effect from him."
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acoustic shatter fretted the edges of his voice. "Now I have
grounds. That's insubordination. It would be a court-martial
offense even if we were at peace. Under conditions of war, it's
a capital crime.
"Min Donner, you are relieved as acting director of the
UMCP. You are relieved as Enforcement Division director.
That's on the record, too. As soon as I'm done with you, I'll
name one of my people to take your place. Until this crisis is
over, you will consider yourself under arrest."
Abruptly he broke into a shout. "Have I made myself
clear?''
Davies stared at the speakers in amazement and alarm.
The sudden savagery of Holt's shout seemed to create a clear
space in his mind. For the first time in what felt like hours, he
began to think.
Did the Dragon want Trumpet's people that badly?
What for? What in God's name for?
If Holt Fasner held what the Amnion required, he could
bargain in Warden's place. That was one possibility. He could
make a deal on terms that weren't restricted by what was left
of Warden's honor.
But as soon as Davies got that far, he went farther—
Min hadn't paused. "Clear enough, sir," she told the
CEO. For a moment she glanced around the bridge. Then she
added with more force, "Unfortunately you can't relieve me.
You don't have the right. I was appointed by the director of the
UMCP, and only the director of the UMCP can relieve me. If
you want to get rid of me, you'll have to replace Warden first.
"But before you try that," she warned in a cutting tone,
"I should tell you that while we're under conditions of war I'll
consider any attempt to replace or interfere with Director Dios
to be an act of madness. On my personal authority," she
drawled as if her voice were a flensing knife, peeling skin
from bone, "and on my oath as UMCPED director, I will
order UMCPHQ to ignore any announcement that Warden
Dios has been fired. No member of the UMCP will acknowl-
edge or obey a replacement until we receive direct confirma-
tion from Warden Dios himself."
Decisively Min faced Cray. "End this transmission, com-
munications. Inform Center that I no longer have anything to
say to CEO Fasner. Then verify that his orders and my re-
sponse have been formally logged as well as recorded."
At once she turned her back on Cray's station. Slowly she
gave the bridge a bloody-minded grin.
"I don't know whether that accomplished anything."
Harsh pleasure rang in her voice. "Saying no to the Dragon is
usually like sticking your head in an incinerator. But I have to
admit it felt good."
For a moment her audacity seemed to stun Punisher's
people. Then Glessen began to pound his hands together in
applause.
Captain Ubikwe was the first to join him, but an instant
later all the duty officers started clapping—Porson and Patrice
enthusiastically, Bydell with deep fervor. Davies wanted to
applaud as well. The UMCP may have been corrupt; but these
men and women were eager to do their jobs without regard for
Holt Fasner's needs or desires.
Vector studied Min uncertainly: his distrust of the cops
ran deep. Mikka was too tired to care what the ED director
did. However, Morn's approval showed in the strict lines of
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Like her son, she seemed to trust Min more and more.
After a moment Dolph said cheerfully to Min, "I notice
you didn't mention singularity grenades—after I went to all
the trouble of convincing you we have an excuse for whatever
we do."
Min nodded like a shout. "I didn't want an excuse. I'm
tired of lies."
But now Davies hardly heard them. Instead he thought
furiously, tracing a chain of inferences which started at the
hint Holt had given him—
Tell me—
He could feel his doom close like a noose around his
neck. In another minute Morn would demand an answer from
him. If he failed to reach a decision he could stand behind, he
would be lost—as doomed as if the Amnion did what they
wanted to him.
She needed an answer that didn't involve self-destruct.
Even though Sorus Chatelaine's body was full of
mutagens, she'd opened fire on Calm Horizons to save her
soul.
Tell me, Director Donner—
Davies wanted to know what he was being asked to sacri-
fice himself for. Whose vision of the cops—and the future—
was he expected to serve?
What was Warden Dios doing aboard Calm Horizons?
Why was Fasner so eager to obtain Trumpet's people?
Urgently Davies put the scattered pieces of his compre-
hension together.
It was inconceivable that Warden would have betrayed
Com-Mine Security, or sold Morn to Nick, or suppressed Vec-
tor's research, without Fasner's consent. No, more than that: it
was inconceivable without his explicit orders. None of those
things would have happened if they hadn't suited the Dragon's
designs.
When Trumpet had first reached human space from Bil-
lingate, Angus had flared a report to UMCPHQ. Warden must
have shared it with his boss: he could hardly have avoided
doing so. Therefore Holt had known days ago who was aboard
the gap scout. He must have known who Davies was, and why
the Amnion wanted him.
Days ago. More than time enough to formulate his own
dark ambitions for Trumpet's people.
Now both Min Donner and Hashi Lebwohl believed that
Warden was trying to bring the Dragon down. He'd sent his
PR director, Koina Hannish, to deliver appalling accusations to
the GCES. And he'd accepted Vestabule's demand to negoti-
ate aboard Calm Horizons. Where Holt couldn't reach him.
Couldn't give him any more explicit, abominable orders.
"Davies," Morn insisted quietly when the applause had
died away, "it's time. We can't wait any longer." She hesi-
tated; then finished in pain, "Don't force me to choose for
you.''
Obliquely he wondered what choice she would make. But
that was secondary: he could live without knowing.
He trusted Min's evaluation of Warden's actions. So what
he really wanted to know was this: How long ago had Warden
begun to plan his attack on the Dragon? How far back did his
subversion reach? When had his intentions first diverged from
Holt's?
Before Calm Horizons came to Earth? Earlier?



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Before Trumpet left for Thanatos Minor?
Before Angus was framed?
Unfortunately Davies couldn't simply pose his question in
so many words. Min would tell him the truth as she saw it—he
believed that—but her unsubstantiated opinion wasn't enough.
He needed facts: information concrete enough to support the
weight of his decision.
"Director Donner—" He was sweating, and the alien
fabric of his shipsuit chafed his joints. Vast implications
hovered just out of reach, waiting for him to translate them
into existence; make them real. "After we left forbidden space
—before we hit Massif-5—you sent us a message." His voice
sounded thin in his ears; stricken by the scale of the crisis. "In
effect, you ordered Angus to give Nick his priority-codes.
"Why did you do that?"
Nobody has any secrets.
Min faced him like a poised predator. Her eyes were the
eyes of a hawk stooping for its prey. As if she'd been expect-
ing his question—and knew exactly why he asked it—she re-
plied, "The order came from Director Dios, but he didn't send
it to me. He sent it to Punisher. Highest possible priority.
Backed by his personal authority. He ordered Punisher to re-
lay that message."
Davies' mouth dropped open. "The order wasn't sent to
you? You mean Director Dios wasn't sure you would carry it
out?"
Min didn't flinch from answering. "That's how I took it.
He knows me. He knows how I feel about letting anybody hurt
my people." She indicated Morn with a glance. "Especially a
man like Succorso. And he knows how I feel about him. He
knows I trust him enough to assume he wouldn't send a mes-
sage like that unless Holt Fasner demanded it. He may have
thought I would try to protect Morn—and him—by keeping
his message to myself."
That made sense. The Min Donner Davies remembered
might well have risked insubordination in order to protect one
of her own from Nick.
He tightened his grip on himself. Strain beaded on his
forehead. "The message we heard," he pursued, "was it the
same? Exactly the same? You didn't edit it? Add anything?
Leave anything out?"
Min shook her head. "You got what we were told to
send."
Holding her gaze, Davies asked over his shoulder, "Cap-
tain Ubikwe, will you vouch for that?"
"Davies—" Morn objected. "She's Min Donner. She
just told us she's tired of lies."
Unable to contain his urgency, he wheeled to face her.
"God damn it, Morn! This is important! I'm the one Vestabule
wants! He can do without you. Angus probably isn't crucial.
Even Vector is secondary. But if I don't go there and let
him—"
Terror closed his throat before he could finish.
"Of course I'll vouch for it," Dolph put in quickly.
"Hell, if you're worried, Cray can pull up the communications
log, run a bit-by-bit comparison. We sent it exactly the way it
came in."
Davies refused the offer with a wrench of his head. As
soon as he stopped shouting, he began to tremble. He believed
Min. He believed Dolph. In another life he would have been
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was too much at stake: everything he did mattered too much.
He held his fear so hard that his arms shook.
He turned back to the ED director.
"The words were clear enough," he told her, "but they
were embedded in a bunch of code we couldn't read. What
was that? What did it say?"
Who gave Angus permission to show Warden's message
to Davies and Morn? Whose game were they playing?
Min shrugged, but her eyes were keen with certainty.
"We can't read it either," she said as if she were acknowledg-
ing a defeat; admitting that she couldn't help him. "We've
been trying to crack it. So far we haven't succeeded." Then
she added, "But we've figured out what kind of code it is.
"According to our computer study, it's a machine lan-
guage. The type of language we use to program datacores."
The type of language Hashi Lebwohl had used to program
Angus. UMCP machine code.
Warden's work, not Holt Fasner's.
That meant Warden had begun to oppose Holt before he'd
learned that the Amnion were willing to risk a war over Da-
vies. Holt had ordered him to betray Morn and Davies and
even Angus by giving Angus to Nick; but Warden had found a
way to protect them behind the Dragon's back.
He'd kept at least that one of his promises.
And now he was aboard Calm Horizons. The man who
defined the ideals which the Hyland family had served for
generations was as much at risk as any human being alive. For
no apparent reason except to put himself beyond Fasner's
reach, he'd taken the chance that the Amnion would destroy
him.
Abruptly Davies' tension flushed away. A weakness like
sorrow took its place. In an instant the sweat on his forehead
turned cold. Nevertheless he no longer trembled. His loss was
as sure as the light in Min's eyes.
"All right," he told Morn without looking at her. "I've
made up my mind." He didn't have the strength to turn and
meet her gaze. "I'll go. You can tell Director Dios I'll go."
For an instant a rush of eagerness overwhelmed Min's
self-discipline. It flared up in her face like a cheer. She bared
her teeth as if she wanted to fasten them in Fasner's throat.
Dolph allowed himself a sigh of relief and dismay. Bydell
hid her face in her hands. Glessen nodded angry approval.
But Morn made a tight sound like a groan. "Oh, Da-
vies." Her voice labored out of her chest. "I told you you
don't have to do that. I don't want—You didn't bring Calm
Horizons here. You don't have to let Director Dios off the
hook."
"Morn—" Fighting weakness, Davies shifted his feet un-
til he could look at her.
In her damaged eyes he saw all the hurt she'd suffered for
him; all the death she'd held in her hands to keep him alive.
On one occasion she'd had sex with Nick in front of Cap-
tain's Fancy's bridge crew, placating him for Davies' sake.
Later she'd forced the Amnion to return her son by threatening
to blow up Captain's Fancy and half of Enablement Station.
Still later, despite Nick's murderous rage, she'd broken out of
the cabin where he'd imprisoned her so that she could divert
Davies' ejection pod away from Tranquil Hegemony to Billin-
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"You heard the Dragon," he sighed thinly. "He wants us.
He's probably wanted us ever since he found out we were
aboard Trumpet. I think Director Donner is right. Fasner or-
dered Warden to let Nick have Angus' codes. He could bar-
gain with Nick. And Warden had to obey. But he didn't want
to betray us, so he wrapped that code around Fasner's orders.
He gave us a way out."
"Those strings didn't make any sense to me," Angus put
in unexpectedly. "Trumpet's computers didn't recognize them.
But when I recited them to my computer datalink—like an
instruction set of some kind—" A light the color of sulfuric
acid glared in his eyes. "At first nothing changed. But as soon
as Nick left the ship, my datacore made me show Davies the
message."
Not Morn: Davies. The UMCP director had no way of
guessing how badly Morn might have been hurt by Angus and
Nick. He couldn't gauge what she might do if she controlled
Angus. So he'd chosen her son. Without knowing him, War-
den Dios had given Davies the same power Nick had.
At the time the decision to free Angus had been too much
for Davies. Morn had been forced to reach it alone. But he
could make choices now.
—kept at least that one of his promises.
"I can't turn my back on him," he said to his mother. He
felt weak enough to faint. "Not after he saved us. Not while
he's aboard Calm Horizons."
So that he wouldn't collapse, he folded to the deck; sat
with his elbows braced on his knees and his hands covering his
face. If they could, the Amnion would use him to destroy
humankind. In his pocket, Min's handgun seemed to dig at his
thigh, but he no longer cared.
ANGUS
Angus sneered at everyone
around him because he
didn't know what else to do.
Ever since he'd announced his refusal to rescue Warden
Dios, he'd been effectively paralyzed. Oh, he could still move
and speak: in some superficial sense he could make decisions.
But on a deeper level he was trapped between Morn's commit-
ments and his own rejection; between his need to escape the
crib and his utter dependence on the mad, fractured woman
who abused him.
Morn had released him from his priority-codes; from
compulsions and torments which Warden Dios had forced
onto him. Yet what she needed from him now was his help
extricating Dios from the hands of the Amnion. He had noth-
ing else to offer her.
And he couldn't do it. The prospect terrified him. Warden
Dios terrified him. Without the support of his zone implants,
he might not have been able to form words when Dios had
spoken to him; asked him, Are you all right? Only his artificial
resources had given him the strength to say, We're waiting for
you to keep at least one of your promises.
Despite his pose of sarcasm and belligerence, he'd nearly
fallen to his knees in drooling, idiot panic when Dios had told
him, I'm considering it. He knew what Dios "considered,"
and it wasn't his promises to Angus; or to Morn.
Angus had spent a lifetime fearing and fighting cops: he'd
learned how Dios' mind worked. He was intimately familiar
with Hashi Lebwohl's designs. And he understood failsafes.
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the only hold Dios and Lebwohl had on him. When Dios had
spoken to him, he'd feared he was about to find out what other
forms of coercion the UMCP director could invoke.
But he hadn't been coerced. Dios was still considering it.
He wanted to see how Trumpet's people would answer Marc
Vestabule before he took the final step in Angus' welded dehu-
manization.
So Vector Shaheed, the Savior of Humankind, was willing
to let the Amnion have him: that was fine. So Davies had
finally talked himself into surrender: that was fine, too. Angus
didn't really care. Even Morn's decision not to go meant noth-
ing to him—except that it spared him the maddening humilia-
tion of being forced by his computer to keep her aboard
Punisher against her will; of having his own volition overrid-
den by Warden Dios' chiseled commandment to preserve her
life.
None of those things altered his essential plight.
Morn had set him free from his priority-codes. And now
she needed his help; needed him to resubmit himself to com-
pulsion and the crib by rescuing Warden Dios. She didn't
know it, but that might be the only way to keep her son hu-
man.
Her open distress at Davies' decision touched Angus
oddly, in places he didn't recognize. That he cared about. He
hated seeing her in pain. But he couldn't afford to let her move
him.
He refused. God damn fucking right he refused. Unfortu-
nately it accomplished nothing. Dios was still considering. As
soon as he made up his mind, Angus would be driven to obey.
He mocked the people around him because he had no
other outlet for his bitterness.
When Davies sank to the deck in emotional exhaustion,
Angus told Morn, "Don't try to talk him out of it." Fervently
he hoped that Davies' surrender would be enough; that Dios
would let him, Angus, off the hook. "Call Calm Horizons and
tell your precious director he can have most of what he wants.
Do it before your kid suffers another moral spasm and changes
his mind."
Davies was his son. Nevertheless Angus did his utter best
to believe that he didn't give a shit what happened to the boy.
And in fact it may have been true that he didn't care at all
whether the Amnion used Davies to help them doom human-
kind. But it was also true that he saw himself in his son.
Davies had been tied into yet another version of the crib;
shackled to the slats by "millions of lives" and Dios' dark
authority. Like Angus, he was dependent on those who tor-
tured him.
More than once Angus had killed people who reminded
him of his own helplessness. At least once he'd nearly killed
Morn for the same reason.
The look she turned on him might have withered his
heart, if he hadn't already been so full of desolation. Her eyes
were mute wails of loss. Lines as strict as the exigencies of his
programming marked her face. Despite everything the cops
had done to her—and everything she'd suffered for Davies—
she still thought it was her duty to save lives. No matter what
that cost her.
Another crib.
"Do you think it's enough?" she countered as if she
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outrage, loathing; desperation. "You've already refused. I'm
going to refuse. Will the Amnion accept a deal like that?"
"Well, hell, they should," he replied out of the wilder-
ness. "He's all they really want. The rest of us are just
smoke." He snorted. " 'Compensation for an act of war' is a
load of crap. They're trying to hide the truth. Even Vector
doesn't count. Davies is the whole point of this exercise."
"It can't hurt to try, Morn," Min put in quietly. "If we
don't give them what they want—or at least keep the negotia-
tion open—they might not leave us enough time for anything
else."
Angus was sure he knew what the ED director meant:
enough time for Morn to do what she'd come here for in the
first place. He hated all cops—but in some strange way he was
starting to trust Min Donner. He believed that if Morn satisfied
Calm Horizons Min would do her best to satisfy Morn.
The idea made him want to kill her. She was a cop; En-
forcement Division in person: she had no right to be honest.
Slowly Morn turned away from him as if she couldn't
bear the sight any longer. Her gaze seemed to rake welts
across his soul as it shifted toward Min. For a long moment the
two women faced each other as if they were trying to bridge a
gulf. Then Morn said in a constricted tone, "Communications,
give me a channel to Director Dios."
Cray didn't hesitate. Murmuring, "Right away," she
typed commands to reestablish Punisher's connection through
UMCPHQ Center to Calm Horizons.
While Cray worked, Min glanced at Captain Ubikwe. "If
I remember right, Dolph," she remarked, "we don't have a
shuttle."
"That's true," he confirmed. "We'll have to use the
command module." A conflicted nausea darkened his eyes.
He looked sick at the idea of surrendering Davies and Vector
—and at the consequences of not surrendering them. "Unless
Captain Thermopyle volunteers to run Trumpet over there."
But he didn't wait for Angus to reject the suggestion.
"Bydell," he ordered, "tell the ship to secure for detachment.
Inform the auxiliary bridge I want them ready to take over in
fifteen minutes. I'll assign crew for the module as soon as we
have a deal with Calm Horizons."
"Aye, Captain." Quickly Bydell activated her pickup and
began sending Punisher's people to their tasks.
Cray raised her head. "Ensign Hyland," she announced
in a bleak voice, "I have a channel to Director Dios."
A new clench of anxiety gripped the bridge. Patrice and
Porson straightened themselves at their stations. Like a woman
who had no part to play in what followed, Min adjusted her
throat pickup and resumed exchanging orders and information
with Center. She may have sold her soul to Warden Dios, but
she kept her word to Morn.
Morn acknowledged communications with a stiff nod.
She thumbed her command pickup; and Cray put Calm Hori-
zons ' transmission on the bridge speakers.
"Morn," Dios said at once. Static like the sound of
crumpling hardcopy covered his voice. Nevertheless his in-
creasing urgency was palpable. "Have you reached a decision
yet? I can't wait much longer. This ship is running out of
patience."
Davies raised his head, instinctively responsive to the
UMCP director. Morn's features had tightened to stone. Vec-
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None of them understood what was about to happen.
"Director Dios," Morn answered. Her own voice held
steady, despite the cost of losing her son. "I realize you're in a
difficult position. We're doing the best we can."
At once Dios retorted, "I don't want excuses, Morn. I
want action." Somehow he'd turned up a rheostat; dialed the
intensity of his tone to a new level. "I want to get this defen-
sive out of here with as much of the planet intact as possible."
Angus trembled at the force Warden conveyed. The
UMCP director had a gift for command; for making people
want to obey him—trust him. Angus himself had almost be-
lieved it when Dios told him, It's got to stop.
Shaking with tension—inside his shipsuit, where no one
could see it—he began to pace the bridge as Davies had done
earlier; push his mortality across the cruiser's deceleration g.
He needed movement. Hell, he needed to run. Get out of here
and never look back. Ignite Trumpet's drives cold. Hide
behind Punisher while he put as much distance as possible
between himself and Calm Horizons. Then burn for the gap—
As soon as Morn answered, Warden would have all the
information he needed to make his own decisions. He would
know the situation; would be done considering it.
And Angus would be lost.
Yet he didn't try to escape. Regardless of the terror which
had ruled his life, he remained on Punisher's bridge, pacing.
Morn gave no sign that she knew he was taking a stand.
She didn't realize what was about to happen. She cared too
much about Davies and Dios, about millions of lives and po-
lice corruption, to recognize the danger.
"Then I won't drag this out," she told Dios and Calm
Horizons. Her tone was cold and distant; desperately com-
pelled. "Davies and Vector have agreed to give themselves up.
Punisher will detach her command module to transport them.
"But Angus has refused." She swallowed fiercely to clear
her throat. "And so do I."
In response a hollow quiet filled the speakers. Warden
must have covered his pickup with his hand—presumably so
he could talk to Vestabule. Thrust emission inflected the si-
lence while everyone on Punisher's bridge waited.
Sounds that might have been prayers filled Angus' head;
but he hardly knew what he was praying for.
Then Warden said, "That's not good enough, Morn."
Pressure congested his voice. "The Amnion don't consider it
acceptable."
Morn closed her fists in front of her; tightened them until
her forearms quivered.
"Too bad," she replied sharply. "I am in command here.
And while I'm in command, nobody will be forced to do
something like this. Angus says no. That's his decision. And I
say no. That's mine.
"The Amnion have already had their turn with me," she
explained without relenting. "And I still have work to do."
She may have meant to remind him of what was at stake
on Suka Bator.
"Tell that warship to kill us now or take what we offer."
She sounded as uncompromising as a knife. "They don't have
any other alternatives."
The speakers reported another covered silence: more dis-
cussion or conflict Punisher couldn't hear. Angus paced the
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made a tired effort to get to his feet; then changed his mind
and subsided. Vector's mouth moved, although he didn't make
a sound: he may have been counting the seconds under his
breath.
After two or three heartbeats, Captain Ubikwe rumbled
softly, "Ensign Hyland, I wish you would let Glessen back on
targ. If that Amnioni fires, I want someone fighting for us who
isn't just about comatose with exhaustion."
Morn ignored him. Mikka didn't so much as turn her
head.
"Stand by," Min told Center. Her tone was almost gen-
tle. "I think it's now or never. If Calm Horizons doesn't start
to shoot in the next ten minutes, we may actually survive."
"Morn," Warden said abruptly from the speakers, "the
Amnion accept your refusal. As you say, they've already had
their turn with you. They acknowledge that."
Fucking right, Angus growled to himself. The sight of
Morn's suffering when he'd rescued her from the Amnion sec-
tor of Billingate still haunted him.
"But they insist on Angus," Warden continued, as harsh
as welding. "He did more damage than they can tolerate. If he
doesn't give himself up, we don't have a deal."
Angus faltered in his pacing; turned a gaze full of invol-
untary dismay toward the command station. Min swore vi-
ciously, then resumed talking to Center. Davies looked back
and forth between Angus and Morn as if he no longer under-
stood them.
Morn kept her attention fixed on her pickup. Davies had
agreed to go over to Calm Horizons. Nothing else could reach
her. For the second time she said, "Too bad." Without turning
her head, she raised her voice to reach everyone on the bridge.
"Mikka, prepare to fire. On my order."
Angus stopped moving altogether. Across the bridge he
stared at Morn. She was risking war, wholesale butchery—
She'd transcended him again; raised her resolve and her self to
heights he couldn't match. The things he and Nick and War-
den Dios had done to her had made her greater than all of
them.
Croaking a curse, Dolph slapped at his belts, surged out
of his g-seat. In a rush he moved to the targ station. "For
God's sake, woman," he hissed at Mikka, "let somebody who
isn't half-asleep do this job!"
Mikka faced him with a glare like a fist. Her hands on the
matter cannon keys had become as steady as servos.
At the same time Warden warned quickly, "Morn, don't
do anything stupid. There has to be a way around this."
Morn's jaws clenched. "Make it good," she told the
pickup. "I don't sell human beings."
What had she said earlier?—when she'd decided to help
Angus edit his datacore? We're cops. We don't use people.
Now she showed again that she meant what she said.
Shouts rose against the restraint of Angus' zone implants.
He wanted to roar at the speakers, You hear that, Dios?
There's at least one member of the goddamn UMCP who
means what she says!
For a moment Warden paused. Morn had shamed him; or
he needed to listen to Vestabule. When he spoke again, his
voice seemed to freeze the blood in Angus' veins.
"Speaking of selling, is Angus still there? Will you let
me talk to him?"
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let him do this to me! But the cry stuck in his throat. She
blocked it by looking at him. As far as she knew, there was
nothing to fear. Her gaze said as clearly as words, I'm willing
to start a war to protect your freedom. What're you willing to
do?
And he wanted to match her. That may have been the only
thing he'd ever truly wanted.
"Oh, hell," he muttered. His zone implants enabled him
to maintain the pretense of steadiness. "If it'll make him feel
better, I'll let him argue with me."
At once she turned away. "Go ahead, Director Dios," she
said in a tight voice. "Angus can hear you."
Now Warden didn't delay. "Angus," he said through the
static, "I'm with an Amnioni called Marc Vestabule. In effect,
he's the captain here. He's been 'invested with decisiveness.'
But he used to be human.
"He says he knows you."
That surprised Angus. He locked his arms across his
chest; clamped his teeth together until the corners of his jaw
ached. "He's probably lying," he snarled back, although he
feared Vestabule might be telling the truth. "Even if he isn't,
what makes him think I care?"
"He used to crew on a ship called Viable Dreams."
Heavy with accusation, Warden's reply carried through the
static. "He says you captured his ship, took him and twenty-
seven other members of the crew captive. Then you hauled
them off to Billingate and sold them all to the Amnion.
"He hasn't told me what you were paid for that, but I
think I can guess."
Oh, shit.
At once a stricken silence fell across the bridge. Min
jerked up her head: an instant of fury flamed in her eyes;
stretched her lips back from her teeth. Mikka lowered her head
to the targ board, covered her skull and the back of her neck
with her arms. Curses gathered savagely in Glessen's face;
Patrice's; Porson's.
If his zone implants hadn't held him, Angus would have
staggered. Dios caught him with a charge he couldn't answer;
turned the bridge against him. Morn and Davies knew about
Viable Dreams: he'd told them to explain how he'd learned to
edit datacores. In spite of that, Morn had made the decision to
help free him from his priority-codes. But everyone else—
Only Ciro didn't react. Morn hid her face behind her hair.
Davies lifted a look of dull speculation toward his father.
Min's hands strained for the gun she no longer carried.
In dismay Vector croaked, "You did what?''
Then Glessen and Cray started to shout.
Mikka's shoulders shook as if she were weeping. "Oh,
God. I never knew—" A sound like a sob closed her throat.
"Your own kind, Angus? Your own kind?"
Abruptly she wrenched up her head; cried as if her heart
were torn, "What have you done to my brother? What in
God's name have you been telling him?"
At the same time Captain Ubikwe wheeled to face the
command station. "Christ on a crutch, Ensign Hyland!"
he roared. "And you listen to this bastard when he asks you to
trust him? Are you insane?"
"You amaze me, Angus," Vector went on. Disgust or
grief crumpled his round face. "I didn't think I could still be
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ago."
Morn didn't touch her pickup; let Warden Dios hear it all.
Dread rose like fire in Angus' heart. If the revulsion
around him mounted high enough, these people might call his
bluff; might push him until they discovered that his program-
ming still prevented him from hurting them. As long as they
didn't threaten Morn, he might not be able to defend himself
at all.
One way or another, they could force him aboard the
command module. Even if his datacore allowed him to put up
a fight, Punisher's crew could overwhelm him with sheer
numbers.
He couldn't bear it,
"Stop that!'' he yelled like the report of a gun.
His shout seemed to crack against the bulkheads; fracture
into echoes and old hurt. Darkness mottled his face: blood and
dirt marked his skin like livid stigmata. His heavy arms beat
anguish against his sides.
"Stop it! You haven't earned the right to be so fucking
self-righteous with me!"
Instinctively he aimed his rage like despair at Morn.
There was no one else he could ask for help. "Tell them!", he
demanded. "Tell them this is the only reason you're still
alive!"
She shook her head. She was capable of opening fire on
Calm Horizons; capable of refusing him. "You tell them."
For an instant he gaped at her. Then he whirled; grabbed
Davies by the front of his shipsuit; ripped the boy to his feet.
"Tell them!"
Davies resembled his father, but he had Morn's eyes. He
met Angus' desperation without flinching; without hesitating.
"She's right. You tell them."
He might have said, Don't try to make us responsible for
your crimes.
With a strangled howl, Angus pushed Davies away.
An emotional convulsion came over him. Alone in the
center of the bridge, with loathing all around him and nowhere
to turn, he raised his fists to his head, set his knuckles against
his skull. At that moment he was utterly and absolutely deter-
mined to cut his brain open with laser fire; squeeze coherent
ruin into the core of his pain—
His programming declined to permit it. His zone implants
sent out their emissions. Without transition he passed from
despair to a sickening, fatal calm. His horror remained. The
rage of his personal furies went on. Their wings seemed to
labor in the background of his mind, covering him with their
shadows; clattering for his heart. But the wildness disappeared
from his body. Helpless to do otherwise, he lowered his arms.
Briefly he scanned the bridge. He might have been con-
sidering it the same way Warden Dios did. Then he picked
Min Donner. You tell them. Since Morn had abandoned him,
Min was the highest authority here. Despite the combative
fury in her eyes, the judgment which lined her mouth, he
moved toward her.
She met him with her fists poised to strike, as if he were
an enemy she intended to defeat with her bare hands.
Dolph started forward to give her his support; but Morn
halted him with a sharp gesture.
"Yes, I did that," Angus told Min's knotted outrage. Sti-
fled vehemence seemed to strangle him; but only a hint of it
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And the Amnion paid me by teaching me how to edit
datacores." He grinned at the sudden shock in her gaze; the
instant recoil. "It's supposed to be impossible, but I can do
it.".
As if she were unaware of them, Min lowered her arms.
 Stiffly he went on, "That's why Com-Mine Security
couldn't find enough evidence to execute me. I deleted it. And
it's why I don't have to listen to my priority-codes. I blocked
them."
Everyone on the bridge stared at him. Min studied him as
if he were about to reach critical mass. Mikka watched with
her face full of tears. Under his breath Vector muttered some-
thing that might have been, "Well, damn."
From his g-seat Ciro smiled at Angus like a soul mate.
"If I hadn't done that," Angus said quietly while acid
frothed and spat inside him, "they would all be dead by now.
Why do you suppose that asshole Fasner wanted Nick to have
my priority-codes? So Nick would kill them. But first he
would have hurt them so much they would have begged to die.
"I saved them," he insisted. "Because I could. Because I
sold Vestabule's goddamn ship."
And because Morn had released him.
Abruptly he flung out his arm. Trembling with despera-
tion and strain he couldn't show, he pointed an accusation at
the speakers.
"He knew about it." The director of the UMCP. "He
knew. Before he ever put me aboard Trumpet, and sent me to
Billingate, and let Milos torture me, he knew. He told me so."
At last he found the strength to raise his voice: his datacore
allowed it. "He's been counting on it!
"And he's still counting on it. I don't know what the fuck
he thinks he's doing, but I am shit-positive he's still counting
on what I can do! He's using all of us, right now, the same
way he's always used us!"
Now Min's face showed nothing, gave nothing. She con-
centrated on absorbing what she heard.
Finally Morn intervened. "That's enough, Angus." She
didn't shout. Nevertheless a vibration of force in her tone
stopped him. "It doesn't make any difference. Not now. Not
here. We can all yell about this later."
She may not have wanted Vestabule to hear him explain
what he meant.
Roughly he swung away from Min to confront Morn
across the gap between their stations. If he could have acted of
his own free will, he would have howled, wailed, Do you think
I fucking care what fucking Vestabule hears? You don't have
the right to despise me! But now it wasn't his zone implants
that restrained him: it was Morn herself. The impacted hurt in
her gaze told him how she would respond.
While I'm in command, nobody will be forced to do some-
thing like this.
I don't sell human beings.
I need a better answer.
Mikka, prepare to fire.
She may have been the only one here who could imagine
how much harm his welding had done him. If he couldn't
match her, he could at least try not to get in her way.
He took a step or two toward her, then stopped like a man
who didn't believe in himself enough to go on. Instead of
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you listening, Dios? Do you like what you hear?"
Then he lapsed into silence as if his zone implants had
shut him down.
His voice conflicted by static, Warden replied at once,
"Oh, I hear you, all right. I hear you fine." Then he added,
"So does Vestabule. You've betrayed one of their secrets. Now
he has even more reason to prefer a war if you don't give
yourself up.
"There's just one thing I want to know, Morn," he went
on before anyone could speak. "Did he tell you about Viable
Dreams?"
Even more reason—
More reason for everyone aboard the cruiser to make
Angus comply with Vestabule's demands.
But Morn didn't hesitate. "Yes, Director." Her tone was
as cold as the gap. "He told me. Both Davies and I knew."
"He couldn't work on his datacore without help," War-
den pursued. "I assume you helped him. When did he tell
you? Before or after?"
"Before," she answered simply. "I knew before I de-
cided to help him."
"I see."
Warden paused. During the silence Angus felt the last
seconds of his life ticking away.
When Dios spoke again, his manner had changed. Almost
gently, he said, "You know him better than I do, Morn. I'll
trust your judgment."
 Then his voice changed focus. "Angus, are you listen-
ing?"
Angus flinched inwardly. "I try not to," he growled. If he
could have wept, he would have. "But I can't get you out of
my head."
"You're damn right I've been using you, Angus." War-
den pierced the distortion as if he intended to give Angus
orders after all. "I've been using you and Morn ever since you
reached Com-Mine. After Starmaster died. I was using you
when I switched your datacore. And I'm going to keep right
on using you.
"I've heard how you justify yourself, Angus," he pro-
nounced harshly. "Now I want you to hear me.
"We're facing a total crisis here. An outright apotheo-
sis."
Between one heartbeat and the next, Angus collapsed on
the deck as if he'd been cut off at the knees. In the prison of
his skull, a tidal wave of images and sensations broke over
him. An inarticulate gargle of shock or surprise bubbled up
from his chest. Spasms he couldn't control gripped his shoul-
ders.
Davies gasped in dismay. Morn came half out of the com-
mand station, then froze.
Something Warden had said—
He was still talking. He might have been unaware of a
reaction he couldn't see. "Are you listening, Angus?" he de-
manded. "Vestabule has his guns aimed at Suka Bator. If we
don't do what he wants, he's going to give us a super-light
proton vasectomy."
A thick cry tore its way past Angus' teeth. Before his
zone implants could intervene, his synapses fired as if he were
being transfigured. His knees jerked up to his chest. He tucked
his head against them; cowered on the deck while everything
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Warden may not have heard him. Or maybe he knew ex-
actly what was happening. His voice rang as he proclaimed, "I
will use anybody I can to do my job."
MORN
For a moment Morn remained
frozen; caught between An-
gus' fall and the instant knowledge that Warden Dios had
caused it. In response to Angus' defiance he'd invoked com-
mands no one else knew about, and now the only man who
might have helped him lay stricken on the deck, huddling into
himself like an infant. The shock held her while she struggled
to catch up with it.
Warden did this.
Because Vestabule had told him about Viable Dreams,
and he no longer trusted his welded cyborg? Because he had
no other way to enforce Angus' compliance; fend off the
threat of war and untold bloodshed?
I will use anybody I can to do my job.
She couldn't catch up; not like this; not with Angus grov-
eling on the deck, and everyone she depended on stunned to
silence.
Abruptly she dropped back into her g-seat; turned to her
pickup. "Director, Angus just collapsed." She made no effort
to hide her urgency. "I don't know what's happened to him.
I'll call you back."
Warden shouted her name, trying to hold on to her, make
her keep her channel open; but she hit her pickup toggle and
cut him off in midsyllable.
Around her, everyone stared at Angus as if he were be-
coming an Amnioni in front of them. The only man who might
have helped Warden—
They insist on Angus.
He wrapped his arms more tightly across his knees. His
shoulders hunched: he might have been strangling something
inside himself.
Christ, Warden! What have you done?
"Good God," Dolph protested softly. "Somebody help
him."
None of the duty officers obeyed. In their separate ways,
they all seemed too shaken to react; too confused. And Mikka
had nothing left to give: she used the last of her will, her heart,
to hold herself steady on targ.
But Davies lurched stiffly to his feet. Morn may have
made the decision to help Angus block his priority-codes; but
Davies had done most of the work. He'd cut open his father's
back; dipped his hands in his father's blood. When the impon-
derable stresses of Trumpet's singularity grenade had driven
Angus into stasis, Davies had spilled more blood to bring him
back. Dismay and bafflement filled his face as he moved to
Angus' side.
Awkwardly he knelt to the deck; put his hands on Angus'
shoulders to roll him over.
As soon as he saw his father's face, he recoiled in sur-
prise. "Shit, Angus! What the fuck're you doing?"
A manic grin stretched Angus' stained face. Tears
squeezed from his eyes: crazy humor flushed his cheeks. He
looked like a man who'd locked himself into a ball so that he
wouldn't break out laughing.
"It's got to stop," he croaked at Davies as if that were
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Abruptly Morn felt a new gulf yawn open at her feet.
Hidden intentions and vast risks pulled at her like the strange
forces of the gap. They would kill her, kill everyone, if she
didn't start understanding them now.
"Angus—" Her voice caught. She swallowed fiercely,
tried again. "Angus, what's happening to you?" What did
Warden do? "What the hell is going on?"
I will use anybody—
With a conspiratorial roll of his eyes, Angus raised a
heavy finger to his lips. Whispering intensely, he warned,
"Don't let Dios hear you. Don't let Vestabule know."
Davies jerked up his head; shot a frightened glance at
Morn.
Quickly she turned to communications. "Cray?"
Cray took a deep breath; forced herself to consult her
board. "We aren't transmitting," she confirmed. "We still
have a channel to Calm Horizons through Center. They're
standing by. But they can't hear us."
An abyss of incomprehension—
Morn choked down a surge of bile. "All right, Angus.
They can't hear us." Repeating Cray's words seemed to be the
best she could do. She took hold of herself; required some-
thing better. "Get up. Talk to me."
As suddenly as he'd fallen, Angus uncoiled his limbs and
sprang to his feet. Without transition his collapse ended—or
changed. Wiping his eyes with the backs of his hands, he
moved toward her. His burst of amusement was over, but he
went on grinning as if he'd been let in on one of life's essen-
tial secrets.
When he reached her, he leaned over her console and
growled cheerfully, "Jesus, Morn! If he can do that, I bet he
can do other things, too. I bet he could have made me kill
myself.
"Why do you suppose he didn't? Get it over with? Put
me out of my misery?"
If the idea frightened him at all, he didn't show it. He
faced her with his hands braced like defiance on her board and
his chin up, still grinning.
Morn ground her teeth in frustration. "I can't answer
that. You still haven't told me what happened."
Glowering, Dolph raised his voice. "Captain Thermopyle,
I want to know what's going on."
Min nodded harshly. "This isn't optional, Angus," she
put in. "We need to know. If we have to fight now, for God's
sake say so. I can coordinate a first strike, hit that defensive
with everything we have. We can't save Suka Bator—or
UMCPHQ—but every bit of hurt we put on her will reduce the
slaughter.
"Stop smirking"—her voice sharpened to a shout—"and
tell us what Warden did to you!"
Apparently Warden hadn't explained his game to her. She
and Morn had that much in common: they were both guessing.
Min may have had nothing to go on except her faith in him—
and her confidence in her own people.
But her demand didn't touch Angus. He glanced at
Dolph; turned a baleful glare on Min. Then he ignored them.
"He did that pretty well," he told Morn. Moment by
moment an eerie eagerness grew in him. Yellow excitement
shone from his eyes. "Gave us the opening we need." He
slapped one palm on the command board. "Now we can get
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His attitude seemed to take her by the throat. She didn't
know how to answer him; had no idea what he was talking
about. Started? Her arm in its cast seemed to throb with pre-
scient dread. He knew how to rescue Warden—
Nevertheless she held his gaze. "Damn you," she whis-
pered thinly, "tell me what happened."
Davies came forward a step or two, then stopped as if he
couldn't get any closer. Mikka had dropped her hands from
the targ board in order to concentrate on Angus and Morn.
Mutely her damaged face asked again, What have you done to
my brother?
Vector had braced himself on the back of the command g-
seat to take some of the strain off his joints. Frowning, he
inquired, "Started on what, Angus?" Mikka's question in dif-
ferent words. "I thought you refused to get involved in this."
Angus paid no attention to Vector; focused exclusively on
Morn. Perhaps no one else mattered to him. "Vector's will-
ing," he reminded her. "Davies is willing. That's all we need.
"Here's what you're going to do," he announced while
his certainty strangled her. "First you're going to call Dios
again. Offer him the same deal as before. He can have Davies
and Vector, but not you or me. Tell him"—Angus grinned
maliciously—"I'm having convulsions, I must have burned
out a circuit or something, fried a few synapses, you can't
send me over there because you can't control me, I look like
I'm already dying. Tell him whatever you want. He'll accept it.
This is a goddamn negotiation, isn't it? Make him accept it." '
Mom opened her mouth to protest; catch her breath. But
Angus overrode her. '
"If he still objects, offer him Trumpet. Even if Vestabule
is still human enough to want me for revenge, he can't ignore
bait like that. The datacore of a UMCP gap scout ought to be
worth a fucking fortune. Not to mention all those singularity
grenades, and that dispersion field generator."
She stared at him as if he'd threatened to rape her. The
pressure he exerted made her want to puke.
"After that," he went on triumphantly, "you can concen-
trate on talking to the Council. Donner'll help you. She'll
make them listen." He sounded certain. Anticipation danced
like flames of madness in his eyes. "Leave the rest to me."
It made no sense. What had changed? What had Warden
done to him?
God, she needed to understand!
Fighting for breath, she countered, "The rest of what?"
He didn't explain; might have been too eager to see how
completely he confused her. Instead he went on, "Give me
Mikka and Ciro. Give me the fat man here." He nodded at
Captain Ubikwe. "Give me Trumpet and the command mod-
ule. Then you can forget about Warden Dios. Forget Fasner.
Forget that fucking Amnioni if you feel like it.
"I'll deal with them," he promised.
As soon as Angus mentioned the command module,
Dolph started fuming. "That's enough, Thermopyle," he
barked. "You're going too far too fast. This is my ship, God
damn it. If you think I trust you enough—''
"It isn't up to us, Dolph," Min interrupted quietly. Her
tone seemed to ache with the force of her restraint. "This is
Morn's decision." Whether or not she grasped what was hap-
pening had apparently become irrelevant. "That's why she's
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She's paid for the right. Hell, so has Angus. And we've al-
ready been disqualified. Compromised—"
"Compromised?" Captain Ubikwe yelled at her.
"How?"
She shrugged. "We take Warden's orders. We're cops—
that's what we do. We obey. And some of those orders come
from Holt Fasner."
Although the words seemed to hurt her, she said again,
"This is Morn's decision."
Dolph may have wanted to argue with her, but his own
pain stopped him. His dark face closed around the thought that
he, too, had been compromised.
Morn held Angus' gaze. "Why am I going to do all
that?" she asked him bitterly. "Captain Ubikwe has a good
point. Why am I going to trust you that much?"
Even though she'd set him free from his priority-codes,
repeatedly staked her life on him, she still didn't know what to
believe about him.
Angus let out a burst of grotesque laughter.
"Because I was programmed to keep you alive." Acid
mirth left his voice raw. "I wasn't supposed to be. Hashi
Lebwohl told everybody my instruction-sets were written to
prevent that. You were supposed to die. But at the last minute
Dios gave me a new datacore. Right before I left UMCPHQ.
He sent me to Billingate to get you away from Succorso. That
may have been the only reason. Blowing up the installation
was just an excuse.
"He let Succorso have you in the first place to protect you
from Fasner. So Fasner couldn't suppress you. As far as War-
den Almighty Dios is concerned, you're more important than
God."
Her mouth sagged open. Standing behind Angus, Davies
gaped like her twin. He must not have guessed—it had never
occurred to her—that Warden might have had a good reason
for selling her to Nick.
But Angus wasn't done. Without a pause he raised his
face to the ceiling, stretched out his arms. Standing rigid, as if
he were remembering a crucifixion, he shouted, "And you're
going to trust me because I'm free!"
The sheer intensity of his cry shocked the bridge like a
static charge. In an instant it seemed to transport Morn into the
heart of the gulf; drop her down the long wall of a chasm. She
knew at once that he meant a freedom far greater than any
mere relief from the compulsion of his priority-codes.
Free to rape and kill; demean; betray.
While she fell, he whirled toward Min Donner.
"You made a deal." His voice sank to a malign whisper.
 "Morn is in command. And you keep telling us how you be-
lieve in Warden Dios. You talk about 'restitution.' Show me
you mean it.
"Hold up your hand."
Min faced him like the muzzle of a gun. Mounting vio-
lence beat in her temples; in the veins of her neck. She must
have recognized the threat of Angus' demand. Nevertheless
her commitments required her to accept it. Slowly she lifted
her right hand, the palm open and outward, as if she meant to
take an oath.
"Min," Dolph cautioned her tensely, "I don't like this."
Morn tried to say Angus' name, urge him to stop. But an
obstruction in her chest blocked her voice. She continued fall-
ing; plunging into the depths of an immeasurable realization.


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Because I'm free!
Warden had—
Before anyone could react, Angus aimed one fist at the
ED director. A thin streak of crimson fire shot out from be-
tween his knuckles. Instantly his laser burned a hole through
the center of Min's hand.
Morn gaped at the wound as if she'd struck the bottom of
the abyss. Betray—
Angus had turned against them.
Warden had turned him against them?
No, this wasn't the bottom: she had farther to fall.
Across the bridge, shouts of dismay and anger rang off
the bulkheads. Too late, Davies hauled Min's pistol out of his
pocket; charged at Angus. Frantically he jammed the handgun
at the side of Angus' head. "You sonofabitch!" he yelped.
"What do you think you're doing?"
Roaring, Captain Ubikwe hurled his bulk at Angus. Gles-
sen and Sergei Patrice were already halfway to the command
station.
Min froze them with a raw shout: "Stay where you are!"
Dolph stumbled to a halt a stride away from Angus. His
boots skidding, Patrice stopped. Glessen waved his fists,
driven by fury; but Min's authority held him back.
Terrible self-coercion intensified her features. Her cheeks
and forehead seemed to burn, set afire by the heat of their
underlying bones. Murder and restraint wailed against each
other in her eyes.
"Don't you understand?" she rasped at Dolph; at Gles-
sen and Patrice. Her pain echoed as if she were screaming.
"We don't have time for this."
Angus lowered his fist. "Oh, put that thing away," he
sneered at Davies. Cruel humor twisted his face. "You're too
scared to think. Deciding to let the Amnion have you has
turned you stupid. She'll heal. Hell, laser burns are self-
cauterizing. She didn't even bleed. And I made a point of not
hitting bone."
Involuntarily Davies lowered the gun. He didn't know
how to meet Angus' scorn.
Not hitting bone?
Angus was a cyborg: maybe he could be that accurate.
If this wasn't a betrayal, what was it?
Trembling, Min stalked over to the command station; dis-
played her burned hand in front of Mom. She'd been called
Warden Dios' "executioner." Her arm shook with the force of
blows she chose not to strike.
Transfixed, Morn stared at the wound. From Min's palm
she caught a faint whiff of roasted meat.
Even this hurt, this indignity, the ED director tried to
endure in the name of her beliefs.
"Just so you'll know," she snarled like the cut of a drill,
"I also have orders to keep you alive. They're practically the
only orders Warden gave me. He sent me aboard this ship to
make sure you survive.
"If you decided to surrender yourself to Calm Horizons, I
would have to stop you."
For a moment she fixed a killing glare on Angus. She
didn't speak: at first she kept her fury to herself. But then her
damaged fist flashed out like lightning; struck him high on the
cheek. Despite her burned flesh, she hit him so hard his head
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He responded instantly. His return blow reached halfway
to her head before she could react—before Morn even saw
him move—
—carried that far and stopped. A forearm's length from
Min's face, his fist paused, then withdrew. He lowered his
arms. A red welt swelled on his cheek.
Grinning like a beast, he remarked, "I guess that's fair."
Deliberately he pushed his hands into the pockets of his
shipsuit.
Poised on the balls of her feet, Min studied him as if he
confused her. Dark speculation thronged in her gaze. Then she
seemed to see something she recognized in him. She nodded
once, harshly, and turned away.
"Warden must want you alive for a reason," she told
Morn. A stifled clamor frayed her voice. "I sure as hell hope
it's a good one."
She might have been shouting, Make up your mind!
Stiffly she went back to the communications station.
Morn opened her mouth and found herself gasping. Her
heart jolted as if she'd been struck, not Angus; as if the blow
Min delivered and the one he repressed had both been aimed
at her.
For a reason—
With a flash of laser fire and an instant of restraint, Angus
had made the terms of her dilemma clear. He'd demonstrated
his freedom—and his self-control.
In some way Warden had let him go. She was so precious
to Warden that he'd released Angus altogether.
And now Min challenged her to make the choices she'd
been given. Trust Warden. Trust what he'd done to Angus. Set
aside her fears and her shame; her visceral revulsion.
Or reject—
There: that was the bottom; the final question. Earlier Min
had talked about "restitution." She believed Warden wanted
to end Holt Fasner's power over human space—and human-
kind's future. She'd said, He's going after Fasner. He's trying
to bring the Dragon down. That was restitution of a kind. And
submitting himself to Calm Horizons was another. By that
means he'd preserved his authority over—and his responsibil-
ity for—the UMCP: he'd created the conditions under which
Min could lawfully refuse Fasner's commands.
And now—
Because I'm free!
Was that yet another form of restitution?
Warden had freed Angus because she'd already done so.
Before he caused Angus' collapse, he'd said, You know him
better than I do, Morn. I'll trust your judgment.
Her judgment? Hers?
Here was the floor of the chasm. Humankind's future, as
well as millions of lives, depended on her judgment. And self-
destruct was the only answer she'd ever truly understood.
It's got to stop.
"Glessen," Dolph ordered distantly, "get a first-aid kit
for Director Donner." Impotent passion seemed to drive him
deep into himself, where he couldn't be reached. "Help her
take care of that hand. I doubt she'll agree to go to sickbay."
"Aye, Captain," the targ officer answered through his
teeth. Cursing under his breath, he moved to obey.
"You can sit down, Sergei," Dolph went on. "Director
Donner will let us know when she wants us to do something
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Without a word Patrice did as he was told.
Morn inhaled with a shudder. A passion of her own gath-
ered in her. I need a better answer. She felt it mount behind
her eyes; flush like fever across her cheeks; burn in her
wounded arm. For a terrible moment she seemed to understand
everything—and she hated it all. Too many people had asked
too much of her; cost her too much.
Her time had come.
"Angus, listen to me." Her voice ripped at him. "Listen
good, because I've had all of you I can stand."
In time to the labor of her heart, she struck the edge of
the command board with her cast, sending small shards of hurt
like splintered glass along her arm.
"That's Min Donner you shot. She's been honest with us
ever since we came aboard. She's told us the truth. She's kept
her word. She's left me in command, even though she knows
why that's wrong as well as you do. You are a butcher and a
rapist, and you sell people to the Amnioni I will not tolerate
any more damage from you!
"Is that clear?"
With all her strength she hit the board hard enough to
shatter her cast.
An instant of pain stopped her. At first she couldn't tell
whether the partly healed bones of her arm held. She didn't
care. Peeling away broken pieces of acrylic with her good
hand, she flung them one at a time at Angus' face: accusations
with ragged edges; raw demands; threats. But when her arm
came free from the remains of the cast, she found that she
could flex her fingers and elbow without too much discomfort.
Angus didn't flinch as the light fragments struck him;
made no effort to avoid them. If he blinked to protect his eyes,
she didn't see it. Instead of reacting, he faced her like a man
who no longer knew anything about fear. Or maybe his fears
had become so profound that they made him sure. He waited
until she was done before he let himself rub a hand across his
stung cheeks and forehead.
"I didn't hit her," he murmured thickly. "Don't you get
it? I could have broken her skull."
He might have been echoing an earlier appeal. I could
have stopped you. But I didn't. Because I made a deal with
you.
"Yes, I get it!" she flamed at him, fierce as impact fire.
"I get it, God damn you. Warden removed the restrictions.
Now you can hurt UMCP personnel. You can hurt anybody
you want. But you haven't answered any of my questions.
"I'm sick of it. You're going to start now. Or I'll tell
Davies to shoot you where you stand!"
Davies may not have understood her; but he didn't hesi-
tate. He moved quickly away from Angus—out of Angus'
range—and raised his gun at his father. Like her, his eyes were
shouts of panic and determination.
Still Angus faced her without faltering. The muscles at
the corners of his jaw bunched and loosened.
"We're going to rescue Dios," he told her. "I said I
know how. Isn't that what you want?"
He shocked her out of her fury. Despite the glimpses of
clarity he'd given her, she hadn't grasped the full truth about
him; hadn't gone far enough to guess the changes implied by
his new power to harm—and to withhold.
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he asked her stricken face. "Knocking me down just to show
he could do it? You know better than that. You know him
better— He has codes he never told me about. Commands I
can't block. And he untied me."
A note of exultation began to beat in Angus' rough voice.
"When he said 'apotheosis,' every damn database in my
computer came on-line. Most of that stuff is there for emer-
gencies. I couldn't access it unless my programming decided I
need it. But now I have it all. .
"I know everything there is to know about this ship." He
indicated Punisher with a jerk of his head. "I know everything
DA ever heard about Amnion equipment, weaponry, capabili-
ties. Shit, I even know why I was designed this way."
By degrees Davies' grip on the pistol loosened. His hand
sank, pushed down by the weight of Angus' words. Like
Morn, he stared as if he'd been rendered helpless.
Min waited, silent and motionless, while Glessen
slathered tissue plasm onto her hand, covered her wound with
a bandage. Bloodshed filled her eyes; but she did nothing to
interfere.
Everyone else on the bridge listened like cold death.
Angus leaned his eagerness closer to Morn.
"But that wasn't all. By itself it wouldn't do me any
good. When he said 'vasectomy,' he shifted my core program-
ming. Erased the command that protects UMCP personnel. I
shot Min Donner in the hand. You saw me. I could shoot her in
the head, if I felt like it. If she quit being honest."
Without warning he wheeled away from Morn and yelled
savagely, "I could go around this bridge and cut every one of
you bastards in half!''
But I didn't.
An instant later an unnatural calm settled over him. He
must have triggered his zone implants. Whether it happened
voluntarily or involuntarily didn't make any difference.
He faced Morn again.
"That's why you're going to trust me," he informed her.
"Because Dios could have forced me to do what he wants. I'm
sure there's a self-destruct code he could use. Or he could
have given it to you. But he didn't. Instead of putting a gun to
my head, he let me go.
"Before he sent me to Billingate, he told me it's got to
stop. Crimes like welding me." Reflexive anger darkened his
gaze. "Making me into a machine. Or suppressing that an-
timutagen. He said they've got to stop.
"Well, he stopped one of them. He kept that promise.
"Once I get him off that fucking warship, I'm going to
ask him why he picked us to stop the rest of his crimes for
him." At last Angus allowed himself a trace of sarcasm. "If I
don't like the answer, I'll probably kill him."
Still no one spoke. Davies and everyone else waited like
Min for Morn's response.
Kept that promise.
Smiling across the bridge, Ciro announced, "I know what
to do. He told me all about it."
The look in Mikka's eyes as she watched Morn was bleak
and beyond hope; desolate as a derelict.
Because she'd lived so long with self-destruct, Morn rec-
ognized that in his own mind Ciro was already dead. There
was nothing she—or Mikka—could do to save him.
Angus seemed to press himself against the edge of the
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Despite his eagerness for freedom, he did his best to persuade
her. "But you don't need that. You just need to accept it. Stop
suffering over what Dios wants, or Fasner, or Vestabule. You
know what you came here to do. So get started. Leave the rest
to me."
Morn flexed her sore fingers; rubbed at her aching fore-
arm. She felt strangely naked without her cast, as if she, too,
had been released.
Her judgment.
Warden Dios thought she was more important than God.
He'd saved her from the consequences of his own dishonesty
by selling her to Nick. Then he'd welded Angus to rescue her.
When the crisis of Calm Horizons' encroachment became too
great for him to control, he freed Angus to carry out his de-
signs for him.
Humankind's future depended on her.
Ciro knew what to do.
The decision was one she could make.
Nevertheless she postponed it for another minute. Study-
ing Angus closely, she asked, "How much of all this is in your
databases?"
She meant, How much do you know about what Warden
wants?
If the UMCP director kept one promise, he might keep
others.
Angus scowled at her delay. "Some of it." He contained
his frustration, however. "Resources, mostly. Possibilities.
Applications. I don't think even Dios saw this exact disaster
coming. He's just good at planning for emergencies.
"But I know how to use it," he avowed. He might have
been taking an oath—the same oath Min took when she'd
raised her hand as a target. Then he laughed like a burst of
thrust distortion. "Maybe that's why he picked me. There's
nobody better."
When she felt sure he'd told the truth, she was ready.
Days ago, in another lifetime, he'd pleaded with her to let
him edit his datacore. I made a deal with you, he'd reminded
her. I gave you the zone implant control. You let me live. Then
he'd said, I kept my end. Whether you kept yours or not.
As far as she could tell, that was the truth as well.
When I hurt you, I hurt myself.
She knew how to trust him.
"All right." To herself she sounded unnaturally calm; as
calm as he was. Somehow she reached past her fears to the
answer she needed. If lost Deaner Beckmann's hypothesis was
accurate, the sheer gravity of her plight had pulled her to a
new kind of clarity. Davies had already agreed to take the risk.
"We'll do it your way. As soon as you tell us exactly what
you've got in mind. You're playing by new rules. So am I.
Maybe we can change the rules of the whole game."
Then she leaned back in her g-seat and let an unfamiliar
quiet settle over her heart.
WARDEN
Warden had plenty of time to
think while he waited for
Morn to reestablish contact; all the time he needed. More than
enough to realize how much he'd staked on her.
God, he'd gambled everything—
Unless or until Hashi found the evidence he hunted, she
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against Holt Fasner. Without her, anything Koina said de-
pended solely for its credibility on Warden's personal state-
ments—which might be dismissed as self-serving fabrications.
In addition Morn was in command of Punisher. She'd
reached some kind of accommodation with Min Donner; en-
listed Min's fierce integrity to back her up. Now she held the
physical force to plunge the whole solar system into battle and
ruin if Warden couldn't convince Marc Vestabule to agree to
her terms.
She and Davies had helped Angus edit his datacore.
She'd admitted as much. And she'd known about Viable
Dreams before she made that decision. For some reason he'd
told her the most damning thing he could about himself. Yet
she'd trusted him.
Warden Dios was directly, personally responsible for
much of the abuse and degradation she'd experienced since
Starmaster's death. But now he had no choice except to leave
the fate of everything he needed and desired in her hands.
He could have killed Angus. Hashi had told him how to
do it. Instead, however, he'd elected to risk humankind's fu-
ture on Morn's judgment.
Angus' death would gain nothing.
On the other hand, setting him free might be worse—
The UMCP director had time enough, and more, to con-
sider all these things while he waited to hear from Morn again.
Five minutes at least—probably closer to ten. If the small
chamber where Vestabule kept him held a chronometer, he
couldn't read it. But there wasn't enough time in all creation
for him to convince himself that he'd made the right choice.
The best he could say on his own behalf was that he'd
committed his loyalty—and surrendered his life—to the two
people in human space who had the greatest right to demand
such things from him.
Finally an indicator on the alien console caught Ves-
tabule's attention. With his human hand, he activated incom-
prehensible controls; and at once Morn's voice entered the
room.
"Director Dios, this is Morn Hyland."
The sound was almost frighteningly clean, immediate.
Calm Horizons' equipment filtered out Punisher's thrust dis-
tortion with preternatural ease. Morn might have been speak-
ing to him from the far side of the room.
Warden took hold of the edge of the console, pulled him-
self closer to the pickup.
"This is Warden, Morn." Despite the potential cost of
anything he said, he responded firmly. "We need to resolve
this now. I can't keep Calm Horizons waiting any longer."
"I understand that, Director." Morn's calm was deeper
than his: it hinted at depths he couldn't measure. "But our
position hasn't changed. Vector and Davies have agreed to
surrender themselves. I refuse. And Angus—"
Vestabule hardly moved. Nevertheless his posture con-
veyed an increased tension; a poised threat.
"Director," Morn went on as if she feared nothing the
Amnioni could do, "Angus can't make this kind of choice.
When you spoke to him, he collapsed. Whatever you said hit
him hard. And since then he's been like a crazy man. If I
begged him to do what you want, he wouldn't listen to me. If I
held a gun to his head, he would probably laugh at me.
"As I've already told you"—her severity could have
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anyone. I would rather die fighting. If Angus can't choose to
go of his own free will, then he isn't going."
Warden flicked a look at Vestabule's closed face.
"Morn—" he began urgently.
She overrode him. "I heard you the last time. The Am-
nion don't consider that acceptable."
The accusations she might have leveled against him were
present in the room; as clear as her voice.
"Director Dios, I'm willing to fight about this"—for a
heartbeat or two she paused—"but I would prefer to reach
some other agreement. Tell Vestabule he can have Trumpet
instead of Angus. She's intact. Her drives failed—we had
some sabotage—but everything else is undamaged. Datacore,
weapons systems, everything."
He can have Trumpet?
Caught by fear and wonder, Warden stared at the console
speaker. The place where her words reached him was all he
could see of her.
Have Trumpet? Are you serious?
That's brilliant!
Or insane.
She was saying, "Punisher doesn't have a shuttle. Vector
and Davies will be using the command module. But that's not
a problem. The module can piggyback Trumpet at the same
time."
Crisply she finished, "Tell Vestabule that's our best of-
fer."
Before Warden could reply, Vestabule silenced the
pickup. He faced the UMCP director squarely. His human eye-
lid fluttered with discomfort in the acrid air. Colors which
might have indicated distress seethed through his aura.
"It does not suffice," he pronounced.
At once Warden cried, "It must!" He no longer cared
how much desperation he betrayed. The time had come to
show it.
You inhuman bastard, are you bluffing?
Vestabule shook his head. "You cannot control your
cyborg," he stated inflexibly.
Perhaps he meant to accuse Warden of lying. Earlier War-
den had said, There are codes I can use that will affect Angus.
He'd deliberately misled the Amnioni. Now he had to accept
the outcome.
Nevertheless he protested falsely, urgently, "Something
happened when he edited his datacore." Protecting Angus as
well as he could. "He made changes I don't know about. They
must have corrupted parts of his programming. Are you going
to throw away Davies and Vector and millions of lives over
that?"
Through his teeth, he countered, "I'm not the one who
taught him how to edit a SOD-CMOS chip. You are."
Again Vestabule shook his head. That motion of denial
may have been the last remaining vestige of his former iden-
tity.
"There is human treachery here."
If he knew that, he wasn't bluffing.
Still Warden tried to argue. As if he were breaking under
the strain, he croaked, "What do you want from me? You can
have Davies. You can have Vector. You can have Trumpet, for
God's sake. You've even got me. What more do you think I
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Vestabule didn't use his throat pickup; didn't speak to any
other Amnioni. Apparently he felt no need to consult with his
kind. He'd been invested with decisiveness.
Slowly he extended his human hand, palm upward,
toward Warden. "Give me your suicide capsule."
Your humanity—
Quietly, as if he no longer needed it, Warden's heart
seemed to stop. He stared at Vestabule for a long moment,
trying to guess how much treachery the Amnioni understood.
But Vestabule's features made it clear that he'd come to
the end of his capacity for negotiation. He gazed blank, brutal
ruin into Warden's face.
When he saw that there was no other way he could save
his kind from Holt Fasner and war, Warden jerked up his
breathing mask, took Hashi's black capsule out of his mouth,
and placed it in the Amnioni's palm.
Vestabule accepted it stolidly. His conflicted features gave
no hint of triumph.
For the last time he activated the console pickup. "Tell
Morn Hyland that her offer has been accepted. We require that
Punisher's command module will be detached to convey Da-
vies Hyland, Vector Shaheed, and Trumpet here within ten
minutes.
"If you are wise, you will remind her that the conse-
quences of any false dealing will be extreme."
Warden nodded dully.
He'd seen Vestabule dispose of the "slow" mutagen with
which he'd been threatened earlier. Maybe that particular
mutagen was in short supply aboard Calm Horizons. Maybe
there was none left.
The man responsible for humankind's future had nothing
else to hope for.
DOLPH
Six minutes later Captain
Dolph Ubikwe sat where he
belonged: at the command station on the bridge of the UMCP
cruiser Punisher.
His restoration pleased him.
Everyone else was out of place, however. Only Davies
Hyland and Vector Shaheed kept him company. All his duty
officers had left the bridge, taking the rest of Trumpet's people
with them. They'd passed through the aperture to the main
body of the ship as the cruiser's command functions were
transferred to the auxiliary bridge. Even Min Donner and the
woman who'd usurped him, Morn Hyland, were gone.
Now servos whined as they closed bulkhead doors to seal
the aperture, isolating the module. At the same time the mod-
ule's separate maintenance systems and power came to life.
Between the hulls, relays undipped instrument and computer
leads, shut down atmosphere connectors, disengaged commu-
nications channels. When the module's thrust drive had
warmed enough to take over from the energy cells, and diag-
nostics had confirmed her integrity, her spaceworthiness, the
massive clamps which gripped her to the rest of the cruiser
would release, and she would drift free.
Then she would begin the short voyage which would de-
liver her lonely human cargo to the doom of the Amnion.
In a sense, nothing was as it should have been. Calm
Horizons' guns held Suka Bator, UMCPHQ, and much of the
planet hostage. And Director Dios was effectively a hostage as
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Meanwhile the new PR director, Koina Hannish, had been sent
to Earth to level appalling accusations against the organization
Captain Ubikwe served—charges which were apparently true.
Morn Hyland intended to contact the GCES so that she could
add her testimony to the specifications of malfeasance and
corruption.
On top of all that, Dolph had nothing except the com-
mand module. Ensign Hyland still held the rest of his ship.
And the UMCPED director, Min Donner herself, had given
her loyalty to Trumpet's people, despite the personal harm
they'd done her.
Beyond question the whole situation was an atrocity. Cap-
tain Dolph Ubikwe, a good cop, and Punisher's rightful com-
mander, should have writhed in chagrin and outrage; seethed
with counterplots to recover his place in the moral order to
which he'd committed his life.
Well, he must have lost his mind. All this stress—chasing
Trumpet and righting Calm Horizons, dodging betrayal, ab-
sorbing terrible revelations, losing his ship—must have
stripped the gears of his cerebral mechanism. He wasn't upset.
Hell, he wasn't even angry. While he ran his board, prepared
the module for detachment, a song seemed to tug at the edges
of his heart. From time to time he caught himself whistling
through his teeth.
Separation from Punisher freed him from an essential
conflict. He no longer needed to oppose events, or suffer in-
dignities in silence, or watch passively while other people
played for humankind's future. He was back where he be-
longed. His insubordinate spirit surveyed a solar system
crowded with terrors and treachery, and approved.
From the simpler, cleaner perspective of the command
module, Dolph saw that Min was doing the right thing. By her
own standards, so was Morn. The decision which both Vector
and Davies had made to surrender themselves showed a kind
of courage which left Dolph in awe. And that damn cyborg,
Angus Thermopyle—
Angus was doing the right thing absolutely.
While they'd repaired Trumpet's drives together, Angus
had revealed quite a bit about how his mind worked. Appar-
ently he had a talent for desperation, an instinct for extreme
solutions, which Dolph couldn't help admiring. When Angus
explained how he proposed to rescue Warden, Punisher's cap-
tain had been the first to approve.
Despite the danger, Dolph Ubikwe was positively de-
lighted to offer that malign, welded rapist and butcher all the
support he could.
Now he ran helm, scan, data, and communications—the
only functions the module still possessed—from his board
alone. He didn't need help. All the other stations had been
shut down. The module was no more than a shuttle; almost a
cripple. But her commander had no complaint. Small as she
was, this vessel was his. Angus had given him that, and he was
satisfied.
Perhaps Angus had recognized the piratical nature of
Dolph's approach to law enforcement. In a situation like this,
the cyborg could trust Dolph completely.
When the last of his diagnostics showed green, Captain
Ubikwe looked up at his companions and growled happily,
"Christ on a crutch. If my dear, departed mother had known I
was going to end up in a mess like this, she would have



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drowned me at birth. It's a good thing she couldn't see the
future. One look at the entrails of a chicken would have sent
her off her head. Then they probably would have had to tie her
down to keep her from killing my father, too."
Neither Davies nor Vector laughed. They were in too
much peril for jokes: if anything went wrong, they would be
the first to pay for it. Nevertheless the geneticist mustered up a
wry smile. "If I may say so, Captain," he murmured, "your
mother must have been a remarkable woman."
"Say what you like," Dolph allowed expansively. "There
aren't any rules here. This is about as down-and-dirty as it
gets. If you worry too much about being polite, you'll just
wear yourself out."
After a moment he asked more seriously, "Do you have
everything you need?"
Vector had settled himself into the helm station g-seat.
Davies sat at the blank targ board. Both of them had already
put on their EVA suits, leaving only the helmets and gloves
aside. Vector's expression was calm, but wan; worn by fatigue
and the old pain of severe arthritis. He rested as much as
possible, husbanding his strength.
For a while earlier Davies had conveyed the impression
that he'd been exhausted by the moral strain of making his
decision to surrender. But now his features had recovered
some of their intensity. His gaze showed better focus: the lines
of his face were sharper: he paid more attention. Paradoxi-
cally, the change seemed to increase his resemblance to both
his parents. He'd inherited Angus' calculation as well as
Morn's conviction: he, too, understood extreme solutions.
He didn't answer Dolph's question with words. Instead he
picked up his left glove, reached into it, and pulled out one of
the weapons Angus had given him. It was a meter of monofila-
ment line weighted at both ends and crusted with fused
polysilicate granules as sharp as diamond chips—a tool nor-
mally used to saw steel in small spaces. Then he opened his
belt pouch to reveal a shard of rigid plastic whetted like a dirk.
According to Angus, they would escape detection, but any-
thing more useful—especially a gun—would be caught.
Davies returned the coil to his glove, sealed his pouch,
and referred Dolph's question to Vector.
Shaheed also carried a dirk; but he didn't appear to con-
sider it important. Instead he held up a vial. "This is the an-
timutagen Hashi Lebwohl gave Nick," he said slowly.
"What's left of it, anyway. We've used more than I thought
we would." He shrugged. "We're down to two capsules.
They're good for roughly four hours each.
"Davies will get one when we reach Calm Horizons. I'll
take the other." He cleared his throat. "Just in case Marc
Vestabule turns out to be more treacherous than we are." Then
he looked squarely at Dolph. "Unfortunately, that doesn't
leave any protection for Director Dios. We'll have to hope he
can defend himself with his suicide pill."
Dolph frowned. Warden's vulnerability worried him. Ever
since he'd heard about the mutagen which had ruled Soar's
captain and damaged Ciro, he'd felt a visceral alarm on War-
den's behalf. The bare idea of such a mutagen made his skin
crawl. The possibility that Warden might be injected with it—
But Warden's fate was out of Dolph's hands, at least to
that extent. He was doing everything he could for the UMCP
director by transporting Davies, Vector, and Trumpet to Calm
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"All right," he told Vector. Deliberately he turned back
to his board. After scanning his alerts and readouts, he an-
nounced, "Secure for detachment."
A couple of keys opened a communications channel.
"Trumpet," he said to his pickup, "this is Captain Ubikwe.
You about ready? I got the impression Vestabule is in no mood
for delays."
"We've been ready, fat man," Angus broadcast at once.
His voice rasped in the speakers: a concentrated threat.
"Sealed and drifting. You can pick us up as soon as you're
clear.
"But for God's sake," he warned, "watch your attitude.
And leak as much emission as you can. Once we're pig-
gybacked, I want to be occluded all the way. Make Calm Hori-
zons think that's normal. The scan net is down, so they won't
be able to see us until we get close. I want to hide the fact that
our systems are live as long as possible."
Occluded all the way. That was going to be a tricky piece
of navigation. Dolph had his work cut out for him.
He didn't hesitate. Keying another channel, he an-
nounced, "Punisher, the command module is secure for de-
tachment. Give me the word, and I'll hit the clamps."
After no more than a heartbeat, Morn answered distantly,
"We're ready here, Captain. Trumpet is clear. You can go any-
time." She paused, then added, "Just be careful." Her tone
hinted at fervor and loss.
Before Dolph could reply, Davies surged out of his g-seat
and approached the command pickup. Without asking Dolph's
permission, he answered, "Don't worry about us, Morn. You
do your part. We'll be okay." His voice echoed Angus' harsh-
ness. "Vestabule isn't as human as he thinks. No matter what
happens, we'll give him a few surprises."
He glanced at Dolph, then stated distinctly, "I didn't say
it before, but I think this is the right answer."
"I hope so, Davies." For what may have been the first
time since she'd boarded Punisher, Morn sounded like she
was smiling. "I sure don't have a better one."
As far as Dolph was concerned, she didn't need one. He
liked this answer just fine.
Davies returned to his station. He and Vector closed their
belts. Dolph confirmed that his companions were secure, then
began typing the commands to initiate detachment.
The metallic clangor of the locking clamps as they re-
leased sounded like the opening salvo in the battle for human-
kind's survival.
MIKKA
Crowded with sorrow, Mikka
Vasaczk sat at Trumpet's
command station while Captain Ubikwe maneuvered to grap-
ple onto the gap scout's hull, and Angus transmitted his last
instructions to both the module and Punisher.
Her brother meant to die. If Angus understood that, he
didn't admit it. Instead he made bizarre, implausible provi-
sions for everyone's survival. But Morn knew. Mikka had rec-
ognized the knowledge in Morn's eyes when Morn had asked
her if she would aid Angus. And she suspected that Vector
knew as well. Sadly, awkwardly, he'd hugged Ciro before they
parted; and Ciro had smiled his demented smile, but he hadn't
returned Vector's clasp.
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Mikka to help him end his life.
"We've been ready, fat man," Angus had told Captain
Ubikwe aboard the module.
When the module reached them, the grapples would take
hold of Trumpet and position her so that one of her airlocks
met an emergency access port in the module's hull. There
magnetic clamps would grip her while Captain Ubikwe con-
veyed her across the fatal gap between Punisher and Calm
Horizons. But there was nothing Mikka could do to secure the
gap scout; nothing for her to do along the way. Her duties
wouldn't begin until they reached the warship, and Angus and
Ciro left the ship.
Ciro meant to die. Somehow Angus had offered him a
way out of the distress Sorus Chatelaine had inflicted on him,
and he intended to take it.
He wanted Mikka to help him. When Morn and Angus
had asked her to run Trumpet's command board, they were
asking her to assist as well as condone her brother's suicide.
"If this works," Angus transmitted to Morn while the
gap scout drifted, "I'll get my ship back." Presumably he
meant Trumpet, not Bright Beauty. His old tincan vessel was
dismantled months ago. ''That makes it worth the risk."
Did he think the cops would let him go? Turn a welded
cyborg loose, with all those enhancements, all that capacity for
destruction? If he did, Min Donner didn't contradict him.
Maybe she trusted Warden Dios to control him.
"I hope so," Morn replied distantly. "This whole gamble
is your idea. If you don't see it through—" She paused as if
she couldn't find an adequate threat, then finished like a shrug,
"I'll kill myself."
Angus snorted a guttural laugh. "No, you won't. Not any-
more." At once he added, "But you better jump like hell
when the excitement starts. Even if everything goes right,
there's going to be a gap where Calm Horizons can take a
crack at you. You can bet your ass she'll do it."
His life depended on that gap. So did everyone else's.
Even his useless provisions for Ciro's survival depended on it.
"I understand," Morn answered. "I think Patrice can
handle it."
That was all the farewell they said to each other.
It was more than Mikka and Ciro had done.
Earlier—long hours of exhaustion ago—Angus had taken
Ciro and Captain Ubikwe aboard Trumpet, ostensibly to repair
the gap scout's drives. By the time they'd returned to Pun-
isher's bridge, Ciro's fractured mind had found a focus. He'd
learned how to name the death he desired.
Before Angus could stop him, he'd announced, He
showed me how to use the singularity grenades. And when
Mikka protested, he'd answered, You don't have any idea what
it's like, feeling like you have to kill everybody you care about.
Although Morn must have known. Then he'd referred to
Angus. But he does.
In turn Angus had defended him. Ciro is working for me
now. None of you understand what Sorus Chatelaine did to
him. As if he considered it an act of compassion, Angus had
told the bridge, Instead of kicking him into a corner like a
goddamn puppy, I'm giving him something to do.
At the time Mikka had been too stricken to argue. Or
fight. Trapped by dismay, she'd made no effort to tear Angus'
head off. And perhaps she truly had not understood. But later,
while she'd watched over Punisher's targ, brutalizing herself


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to perform that small service because everything else was be-
yond her, she'd learned to understand.
Angus was right. Ciro's plight was worse than Morn's.
In the end it wasn't the fact that Soar's captain had forced
a mutagen into him which had broken Ciro. It was his own
compulsory terror. After he'd revealed what she'd done to him
—and after Vector had flushed the mutagen out of his cells—
he'd taken his first opportunity to obey her; sabotage Trum-
pet's drives. At the time he must have believed that was
necessary. He was no geneticist: any evidence Vector had
shown him to convince him he was safe probably seemed too
abstract to outweigh his fear. Involuntarily, instinctively, he
must have believed Sorus' threat more than Vector's reprieve.
But then the hours had passed; and the antidote Sorus
gave him had run out; and he'd remained human. And then his
sanity had cracked. The knowledge of his own weakness had
been more than he could bear.
The death he named for himself was a form of restitution.
Mikka understood. She would have been more than will-
ing to die herself if anyone had offered her a chance to repair
the harm she'd done Ciro by taking him aboard Captain's
Fancy; introducing him to Nick.
For that reason, when Morn and Angus had asked her to
run Trumpet's command board, she'd agreed. Who could take
her place? Angus, Morn, and Davies all had other parts to
play. And no one else knew the gap scout as well as she did.
For the same reason, she'd gone to sickbay as soon as she
reached Trumpet and keyed the systems to dispense every
stimulant available: stim and hype; caffeine tablets; complex
pseudoendorphin supplements. Her weakness was as great as
Ciro's. She'd run out of strength and courage: her mortality
was too heavy to lift without drugs. Everything Angus had in
mind for himself and Ciro, for Davies and Vector, for the
command module and Trumpet, would be wasted if she failed
to stay alert.
Because she understood so well, she was going to help
her brother kill himself.
Like Angus, he'd already put on his EVA suit, although
they were in no hurry; the trip to Calm Horizons would give
them plenty of time. Only his head remained exposed: he'd
left his helmet beside Angus' on the second's g-seat while he
wandered around the bridge, whistling softly to himself.
Mikka recognized the tune—a lullaby familiar from her child-
hood, when her mother was still alive to sing to her.
The sound made her want to wail.
For as long as she could, she ran diagnostic and parameter
checks on the gap scout, making sure that Angus' repairs were
stable; that thrust was ready for cold ignition; that passive scan
was adequate to give her the information she would need; that
the energy cells still held enough power to handle the load of
the dispersion field generator. Unfortunately no amount of
hype and stim could relieve her loss. After a while her concen-
tration frayed into anguish.
Ciro's whistling was going to drive her mad.
The next time he passed between her and the display
screens, she snapped, "Do you have to do that?"
Inwardly she cringed at her unnecessary harshness. But
his reaction hurt her more.
He stopped in front of her, faced her with sudden terror in
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don't." His voice sounded as bleak as hard vacuum. The idea
of singularity grenades had already sucked him away. And yet
he offered softly, earnestly, "I won't do it if you tell me not
to."
In dismay she saw that he was offering her the greatest
and most terrible gift he could imagine: the gift of his life; of
refusing his part in Angus' plans.
I won't do it—
At once Angus wheeled like a burst of flame on the boy.
He may have wanted to shout in rage. You what! he might
have protested. You little shit, we're counting on you! But he
must have seen the death in Mikka's gaze. He caught himself
in time; clamped his teeth shut.
—if you tell me not to.
She couldn't bear it.
They had alternatives. They could trade places. She could
teach him how to initiate cold ignition. How to use the disper-
sion field. What to look for on scan. She could try to do his
job for him. But the cost would be too high for both of them.
"Never mind," she told him. She felt her heart tearing
like a sheet of hardcopy; but he needed this gift from her more
than she needed his. "You know what you have to do. That's
good enough for me."
Roughly Angus turned away as if he wanted to hide his
relief.
By degrees the terror faded from Ciro's eyes. After a
moment he began to whistle again; resumed wandering the
bridge.
He intended to die. The prospect didn't scare him at all.
KOINA
From her seat near Cleatus
Fane, she moved through the
crowded tension of the GCES Members and their aides toward
the dais where Maxim Igensard presided on the strength of his
position as Sen Abdullah's proxy.
The Special Counsel had demanded, I have some ques-
tions I want to ask you. Questions about Warden Dios and
Calm Horizons. About Trumpet and treason. But Holt Fasner's
FEA had intervened at once. You don't have to submit to this,
he'd assured her. I'll answer his questions. The UMC is re-
sponsible for the UMCP in any case.
Both Maxim and Cleatus must have been accustomed to
men like the late Godsen Frik—men for whom Protocol meant
ambition and manipulation, not honesty. Now, in their sepa-
rate ways, for their separate reasons, they may have begun to
suspect that Warden's actions had brought them to the brink of
disaster. But neither of them knew Koina. They had no idea
what they were dealing with.
She'd ignored Fane's efforts to stop her. Hiding her trepi-
dation behind a mask of bland professional confidence, she'd
risen to her feet and told Maxim, I'm ready, Special Counsel.
To some extent, she accepted the perilous burden of car-
rying out Warden's orders precisely because Cleatus Fane had
warned her against doing so. He was afraid of her: the strain
on his face made that obvious. Through his PCR link to
UMCHO—and Holt Fasner's informants in UMCPHQ—he
probably knew as much as she did about what was happening
in space. Like Holt, he must at last have seen that events were
moving in directions the Dragon hadn't anticipated and
couldn't control. Perhaps he was starting to guess just how
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The nature of his loyalties helped her be sure of her own.
His desire to silence her confirmed her determination to speak.
The UMC is responsible for the UMCP.
If it was possible, she intended to rub his nose—and
Fasner's as well—in that responsibility.
"Director Hannish" he hissed after her; but she didn't
turn her head.
Clearly the Special Counsel didn't want her to join him
on the dais. No doubt he preferred to thunder his accusations
at her from above; overwhelm her with the sheer stature of his
righteous indignation. I've been accumulating evidence of the
most malign kinds of malfeasance and corruption. As soon as
she left her seat, he raised his hands in a frustrated attempt to
halt her.
"That isn't, necessary, Director," he snapped irritably.
"We can all hear you from there."
For the moment she ignored him as she'd ignored Cle-
atus. She had much to say: questions to answer; risks to take;
fears to face. But her first priority was to weaken Maxim's
grip on the chamber, if she could. Despite the objections and
incredulity of Members like Tel Burnish, Blaine Manse, and
Sixten Vertigus, Maxim had already half convinced the Coun-
cil that Warden was guilty of treason. And in a sense he was
right: Calm Horizons was here, with her super-light proton
gun fixed on Suka Bator, as a direct result of Warden's deci-
sions and actions. Before Koina did anything else, she needed
to defuse the emotional force of the Special Counsel's accusa-
tions.
She made her way up to the dais in order to claim as
much stature as he had.
Physically that was easy: she was a good fifteen cm taller.
But the ominous intensity he radiated, the sense of critical
mass he conveyed, made him seem larger. He gave the impres-
sion that there was no limit to how far he might expand.
On the surface, she had nothing to oppose him with ex-
cept her beauty, her feigned calm—and her determination to
tell the truth. But she also possessed a certain low cunning
which she'd learned from Godsen Frik. His restless machina-
tions had taught her a great deal.
As she joined him at the podium, Maxim turned to Abrim
Len as if her presence were a point of order. "President
Len?"
Len had seated himself at the back of the dais while
Maxim had the floor. He didn't rise to Maxim's demand; but
he lifted his head with a cornered glitter in his eyes. "You
asked her to speak, Special Counsel." His tone carried more
resolution than Koina had expected from him. "If you want
her to answer your questions, she might as well stand up here
where we can all see her."
Before Igensard could reply, Captain Vertigus put in
sharply, "Give her the floor, Maxim." The old Senior Mem-
ber had his own reasons for outrage. As one of the UMCP's
staunchest supporters, he must have been profoundly shaken
by Maxim's allegations. "We already know what your ques-
tions are. Her answers are what matter now."
From the other side of the room, Punjat Silat offered,
"For what my poor opinion may be worth, I concur." It was
the first time Koina had heard the Senior Member for the
Combined Asian Islands and Peninsulas speak. Apparently the
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heart, at least for the present. Like his illness, his diffidence
seemed to give him dignity. "As spokeswoman for the UMCP
—and, by extension, for Warden Dios himself—her response
to these troubling charges is of paramount importance."
Maxim acceded gracelessly. Scowling, he began, "In that
case, Director Hannish—"
Koina faced him with a cool smile. "A moment, please,
Special Counsel. It's my job as UMCP Director of Protocol to
answer your questions, and I'll do it. But first—"
She shifted her attention to the Members and aides
around the dais. At once her knees started trembling again.
Every eye in the room clung to her urgently. Several men and
women were sweating profusely, as if the air-processing had
broken down. Others looked dangerously pale.
As smoothly as she could, Koina rested a hand on the
podium for support.
"Because I am the UMCP Director of Protocol," she
stated as if she were in no danger, "my dedicated channel to
UMCPHQ Center carries more information than the general
downlink." She nodded toward her communications techs.
"Just now I received some" news which isn't publicly available
yet.
"I think you should know that Punisher has come
home."
Someone—Tel Burnish?—breathed fervently, "Good."
No one else spoke.
"Apparently," Koina went on, "her mission to 'retrieve'
Trumpet's people—if that's the right word for it—was suc-
cessful." Ensign Morn Hyland was in command of the
cruiser. "She's joined our cordon of ships around Calm Hori-
zons."
Deliberately she made no mention of Morn. She wasn't
ready to go that far. She had no idea what Morn's improbable
authority aboard Punisher might signify. And she wanted to
mislead Cleatus Fane. If he'd already received the same infor-
mation from HO, he might think that she suppressed Morn's
name in order to protect the Dragon; that he and his master
could trust her after all.
While Maxim fumed at the delay, Koina continued, "You
all know that when Director Dios left UMCPHQ for Calm
Horizons he named DA Director Hashi Lebwohl as acting di-
rector in his absence. No doubt Special Counsel Igensard will
view Director Lebwohl's appointment in the worst possible
light"—subtly she tried to weaken the ground under Maxim's
feet—"but the simple fact is that at the time he was the high-
est-ranking UMCP officer on station. He became acting direc-
tor by the plain logic of the chain of command.
"However, ED Director Min Donner has now returned
aboard Punisher. Therefore Director Lebwohl has stepped
down as acting director, and Director Donner has assumed
those duties."
Although her manner was grave, Koina put a smile into
her voice. "Frankly, I consider this good news. I respect Di-
rector Lebwohl more than the Special Counsel does, but after
Warden Dios I can think of no one I would rather have com-
mand our defense than Min Donner."
A rustle of approval crossed the chamber. Her ploy was
working. Warden and Hashi may have been suspect, but Min's
reputation held firm. Even Maxim had admitted as much.
Unfortunately Koina's knees refused to stop trembling.
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"If this session had allowed you time to study the down-
link," she informed the Members, "you would already be
aware of at least one step Director Donner has taken for our
protection. She's ordered the shutdown of our system-wide
scan net. This deprives Calm Horizons of a valuable source of
data."
Sen Abdullah interrupted her in a spasm of indignation.
"Blinded us?" he protested. "What is that supposed to ac-
complish?"
Koina had no military experience: she was out of her
depth on such subjects. Nevertheless she retorted sternly,
"Calm Horizons has been blinded, Senior Member—at least
in part. We haven't. Our ships can still share all the data they
need with each other.
"Of course, the defensive's scan is more than adequate to
maintain her proton cannon fix on us. That goes without say-
ing. But she can no longer see everything in our solar system.
This gives our own ships greater flexibility. It may improve
their effectiveness."
"I wouldn't have thought of it," Sixten muttered, "but
it's probably worth a try. Hell, anything's worth trying."
Thank you, Koina told him silently. When she'd spoken
to him from her shuttle earlier, she'd asked him for help with
her decisions. At first he'd appeared to refuse her appeal.
You're a big girl, Koina. But then he'd given her more assis-
tance than she'd ever expected.
With the Council and Cleatus Fane watching her, how-
ever, she couldn't afford to admit aloud how much she was in
the old captain's debt. Instead she turned to look at Maxim.
"I'm ready now, Special Counsel." As ready as she
would ever be without evidence. To some extent she'd suc-
ceeded at disrupting Igensard's sway. There was nothing left
for her to do except answer his questions, defy the FEA, and
pray that some kind of corroboration arrived in time to save
Warden's hopes. "Where do you want to start?"
With her smile and her collegial manner, she made it as
difficult as she could for him to treat her like an opponent.
But his particular hostility was impervious to her charm.
Apparently her interference with the role he'd arranged for
himself confirmed her status as his enemy. The concentration
in his gaze sharpened and swelled. He no longer fumed. Un-
like a number of the people around him, he seemed proof
against sweat. In a flash of insight, Koina guessed that any
personal irritation he may have felt was subsumed by a larger
ambition: to best her in front of the assembled Council; to
wrest what he wanted from her despite her resistance.
To prove himself against her—
She had no idea what he wished to prove. Or to whom he
wished to prove it. But she recognized the peril.
Maxim Igensard would stop at nothing.
"Unfortunately, Director Hannish, I have so many ques-
tions that I hardly know which one to ask first." He spoke to
her, but he didn't look at her: he faced the Members—and
Cleatus Fane. His stare seemed to quarter the room as if he
were searching for weakness. "As I've already suggested, my
investigation into the Angus Thermopyle case, and my con-
cerns about what President Len calls 'the immediate crisis,'
have given me an almost global impression of corruption and
wrongdoing. All of it must be accounted for, in one way or
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"I agree completely," Koina put in earnestly. Maxim's
voice wasn't particularly high or shrill, but it had a quality
which reminded her of a sonic cutter. The longer he spoke, the
more his tone abraded her nerves. Was the man incapable of
making a point without all this self-righteousness?
"That's admirable, Director," he rasped in vexation. He
didn't like being interrupted. "I hope you mean it.
"Since we must start somewhere," he resumed, "let me
remind you of a statement you made moments ago. You said
that Punisher's 'mission to "retrieve" Trumpet's people was
successful.' As you confessed yourself, 'retrieve' is an inter-
esting choice of words. You didn't say 'capture,' which is a
duty we might reasonably expect of a UMCP cruiser. After all,
Trumpet is a UMCP gap scout supposedly stolen by a con-
victed illegal and his accomplice. And you didn't say 'rescue,'
which might well be Punisher's appropriate response when a
human ship is hunted by the Amnion.
"Director Hannish, what's so special about Angus
Thermopyle and Milos Taverner that they have to be 're-
trieved' instead of 'arrested' or 'saved'? Maybe if you can tell
us that we'll begin to understand what both Punisher and
Trumpet were doing in the Massif-5 system."
Koina met his opening with her best professional detach-
ment. "A fair question, Special Counsel." Her tone betrayed
none of the quivering in her legs. "I'll try to give you a fair
answer.''
But if he didn't consider it necessary to look at her when
he spoke, she saw no reason to reply as if her answer were
directed at him. Leaning only slightly on the podium, she
gazed out at the strained faces around her.
"However, I feel I should first explain that I was exten-
sively briefed for this session. In one form or another Director
Dios and I have discussed most of the issues which now con-
front the Council. He gave me explicit orders to answer the
Special Counsel's questions as accurately as I can."
It was vital for the Members to understand that Warden
had authorized everything she would reveal; that he'd in-
structed her to damn him.
"Bear with me, please. This gets complicated."
She paused as if to collect her thoughts; but in fact she
was mustering her courage for a plunge which might carry
humankind to disaster. Then she announced more formally,
"When Director Dios and Director Lebwohl addressed the
Council by video conference a few days ago, they did not tell
you the truth about Angus Thermopyle, Milos Taverner, and
Trumpet.''
At her side she felt Maxim expand with vindication.
"Personally, I deplore this," she said. "Professionally, I
grant that it may have been necessary." Necessary to advance
Warden's struggle against Holt Fasner; to expose Fasner's re-
sponsibility for the UMCP's crimes. "Putting the matter
crudely, Captain Thermopyle was being sent on a dangerous
mission, and he needed 'cover.' Director Dios and Director
Lebwohl lied to you in order to protect that mission. Any hint
of the truth would have been fatal."
Vivid consternation roiled the chamber. Someone rasped,
"Fatal how?" Sigurd Carsin pronounced, "That's bullshit."
Other Members swore, muttered; consulted with their aides.
But Blaine Manse's voice carried over the protests and indig-
nation.
Rising from her seat, she demanded, "Was anything we


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heard during that conference true? What about Director
Lebwohl's statement that you gave one of your ensigns—
wasn't her name Morn Hyland?—to a DA agent so he could
use her in some kind of covert operation against Thanatos
Minor?"
Usually the Member for Betelgeuse Primary affected a
bantering detachment from every subject except sex; but now
an almost sensual anger throbbed in her tone.
"Director Lebwohl said something about faking an an-
timutagen for his agent to sell. And letting the agent have poor
Morn Hyland so he could save himself by selling her if he got
caught in his own trap."
Confronting Koina, Blaine wore her sexuality like an ac-
cusation. She may have guessed that Morn had been sold to
Nick rather than given to him to sell elsewhere.
Hashi had said more. He'd told the Council, Ensign Hy-
land was irretrievably compromised. We believe Captain
Thermopyle's vileness toward her beggars description. In our
opinion no hospital or therapy can restore her.
Therefore we elected to make use of her in another way.
That was the truth; but it disguised more lies. More harm.
"Member Manse—" Koina cleared her throat. "I'll an-
swer you. I'll tell you all I know about it. But, as I say, the
things I need to explain are complicated. It'll be easier to keep
them straight if I take them in a different order."
For a moment the Member for Betelgeuse Primary held
Koina's gaze. Then, apparently—woman to woman—she de-
cided to trust Koina. Pouting her frustration, she resumed her
seat.
Under her breath, Koina murmured a soft thank-you. At
once, however, she widened her attention to the rest of the
Council. She didn't want to give Maxim room to assert him-
self again.
Clearly she announced, '"The truth about Captain
Thermopyle's 'escape' from UMCPHQ is this. After his con-
viction for crimes against Com-Mine Station, he was reqqed
by Data Acquisition and made into a cyborg." A stirring of
surprise crossed the room; but she didn't pause. "The process
is called 'welding.' By the use of zone implants, he was
bonded to a computer. The result was a near-ideal DA opera-
tive—notoriously illegal, therefore free to go anywhere illegals
go, and yet completely controlled by DA's programming.
"He did not 'escape' from UMCPHQ. He was given
Trumpet and dispatched on a mission to destroy the bootleg
shipyard called Billingate on Thanatos Minor. Because the
Amnion allowed this installation to exist inside the borders of
forbidden space in clear contravention of their treaties with us,
we considered it a valid target for a covert operation."
"So Warden Dios sent Angus Thermopyle to commit an
act of war," Sen Abdullah sneered harshly.
"No." Koina couldn't restrain her desire to defend War-
den. "Captain Thermopyle was sent to carry out an act of
sabotage against an installation which the Amnion should not
have allowed to exist. His mission can be easily justified under
the terms of the UMCP charter."
Sen snorted in derision, but didn't argue the point.
Firmly she resumed, "Once Captain Thermopyle had car-
ried out his mission, he fled forbidden space. Punisher had
been sent to the Com-Mine belt to provide support in case he
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lowed."
So far she doubted that Fane had any quarrel with her
responses. Her edited version of events must have reassured
him. But that was about to change—
"Do you call this complicated?" Tel Burnish put in
dryly. "It seems simple enough."
Ah, but she hadn't yet told him the real story.
"Why Massif-5, Director Hannish?" Member Silat asked
in an unassuming tone. "Are you able to account for this?"
"Yes, I can—" Koina began.
"No, Director Hannish," Maxim intervened like the
crack of a whip. "I won't allow you to skip so blithely over
the most crucial questions." He had no idea how crucial what
she would have answered was. "Why did Calm Horizons pur-
sue Trumpet? That's what we need to know.
"You claim Captain Thermopyle's mission can be 'justi-
fied under the terms of the UMCP charter.' But 'an act of
sabotage against an installation which the Amnion should not
have allowed to exist' wasn't likely to inspire this incursion. In
terms of treaties, they can't pretend they weren't in the wrong.
So why is Calm Horizons here now?
"What did Captain Thermopyle really do in forbidden
space? What was his true mission?"
Koina fixed a trenchant stare on Igensard. "Special Coun-
sel," she stated acidly, "Captain Thermopyle's 'true mission'
was exactly as I've described it. His actions aren't responsible
for this incursion. As far as our present crisis is concerned, his
only fault is that he rescued some of our people before he fled
forbidden space. If you call that 'fault.' "
Obliquely she wondered, Was that part of his "true mis-
sion"? Had Warden sent him to Billingate to bring Morn
home? Hashi had said no: Angus' programming had been
written to preclude the possibility that he might save Ensign
Hyland's life. And Warden hadn't contradicted him. Yet Koina
found that she believed otherwise. Morn was too vital to be
left in Nick's hands—or the Amnion's.
Turning away from Maxim, Koina asserted, "The blame
for Calm Horizons' presence belongs to two other men."
She nodded to the CAIP Senior Member. "Bear with me,
please, Senior Member Silat. I can answer your question better
•if I tackle the Special Counsel's first.
"The two men I mentioned are Com-Mine Deputy Chief
of Security Milos Taverner and Captain Nick Succorso."
"What, Taverner?" Vest Martingale objected. As the
Member for Com-Mine Station, she took accusations against
Com-Mine Security personally. "Are you still blaming him?"
"Member Martingale—" Koina's frustration and anger
at being badgered showed in her tone. She made no effort
to suppress it. "Milos Taverner was sent with Captain
Thermopyle—among other reasons—to serve as a kind of
'control.' To supervise his actions. To adjust his programming
as circumstances might dictate. The plain fact is that no set of
instructions, however sophisticated, can cover every situation
or decision a welded cyborg might conceivably encounter.
Deputy Chief Taverner's job was to make any corrections
which might become necessary to keep Captain Thermopyle
'on course.'
"Unfortunately Taverner betrayed Captain Thermopyle
and Trumpet to the Amnion. Sold them out."
"I don't believe that," Maxim snapped. Each time Koina
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the front of the dais, as if he wanted to force her to look at
him; upstage her before the Council. "Thermopyle's mission
must have succeeded. Otherwise the Amnion wouldn't have
any reason to pursue him. But how could he succeed if he was
betrayed?"
Koina took a deep breath, held it briefly, so that she
wouldn't shout at him. Everything she said took her closer to
the most painful parts of her explanation. But anger gave her
strength; steadied her resolve. Unnoticed, her knees had
stopped trembling. Despite the interruptions, she didn't lose
the thread of her explanation.
"Captain Thermopyle," she articulated distinctly, "suc-
ceeded because the Deputy Chief's treachery was foreseen.
Director Dios and Director Lebwohl were aware of the danger,
and took precautions against it.
"But Milos Taverner had other secrets to reveal." Koina
had inferred this after her last conversation with Warden, when
he'd told her why Trumpet had gone to Massif-5. Since then
she'd gleaned indirect confirmation from Angus' only trans-
mission to the UMCP director. "He had reason to know—"
"Wait a minute." The Special Counsel simply couldn't
leave her alone. "What do you mean, 'aware of the danger'?
How did they know?"
"I'll get to that," she snapped back. "If you keep inter-
rupting me, I won't be able to answer any of your questions."
Before Maxim could retort, President Len spoke unex-
pectedly from the back of the dais.
"Special Counsel, I'm warning you. So far I've let all of
you harry Director Hannish as much as you want. But if you
keep this up, I'm going to impose strict rules of order." Ap-
parently his exasperation—or perhaps his sympathy for Koina
—had become greater than his instinct for conciliation, at least
for the moment. "After that, anybody who says anything with-
out being recognized will be removed from the room."
Koina looked toward him gratefully. "Thank you, Mr.
President." A bit of her anger melted, and she gave him what
she hoped was a ravishing smile. "That helps."
Gracelessly Maxim muttered, "I apologize, Director Han-
nish. I'll repeat the question later."
Koina ignored him.
Despite his interference—and the Council's—she'd
reached the line which separated Warden's intentions from
Fasner's desires; the brink of disaster. Now she had to take her
first step into a land of ruin—
With no word from either Hashi or Chief Mandich.
If she hadn't chosen to believe that Warden had sent
Angus to rescue Morn, she might have faltered. But her un-
supported conviction sustained her.
"Here's part of what you wanted to know, Member
Manse," she said more quietly; holding her anger in reserve.
"Deputy Chief Taverner knew that the drug in Captain Suc-
corso's possession—the 'fake' antimutagen Director Lebwohl
mentioned—was in fact a true, effective mutagen immunity
drug."
At that moment the shock in the room was so great that
no one made a sound. For an instant even Fane's subvocalized
running commentary to UMCHO fell silent. A true, effective
mutagen immunity drug. Her words had the effect of a kaze's
blast. Igensard almost staggered; seemed to shrink in surprise.
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tures, as if he were reaching out for a support which no longer
existed. Sen Abdullah gaped like a man who couldn't breathe
well enough to grasp the opportunity Koina had given him;
bereft of air and wit by the enormity of the treason she con-
fessed.
Stiff with strain, Sixten Vertigus lurched to his feet. He
may have wanted to cry out against this revelation; denounce
it— Betrayal filled his old eyes. For decades he'd backed War-
den Dios against Holt Fasner. But dismay seemed to seal his
throat. Koina's heart went out to him as he groped for words
he couldn't find. When he collapsed slowly back into his seat,
she feared he would never stand again.
Because he needed the only help she could give him—and
because she couldn't retreat now—she told the appalled still-
ness, '.'Building on research done by Intertech, primarily the
work of Dr. Vector Shaheed, DA developed the formula some
time ago. But the information was never released. On direct
orders from Holt Fasner, the use—and even the knowledge—
of the drug has been restricted to DA covert operations."
Do you hear me, Sixten? she thought toward the old Se-
nior Member. Maybe you were wrong to back Warden. I don't
think so—but maybe you were. But you were right to oppose
Fasner.
Captain Vertigus may not have understood her. The
stricken pallor of his face and the distress in his eyes gave her
the impression that he was beyond reach.
Abruptly Fane found his voice. "That's a lie," he almost
shouted. A flush of fury showed through his tangled beard.
"Holt Fasner did no such thing. He knows nothing about
this."
At the same time Maxim rallied to demand, "Are you
saying the UMCP have had an effective antimutagen for years,
and have been suppressing it?"
Koina gripped the edges of the podium and continued to
address the Council as if neither man had spoken.
"Captain Succorso had the drug with him. Director
Lebwohl gave it to him so that he could carry out operations
for DA in forbidden space."
"Did you hear me, Director Hannish?" the FEA blared
like a trumpet; loud as a horn of doom. "I said that's a lie!"
Still Koina ignored him. While she could, she explained,
"That's one reason the Amnion have risked an incursion.
They want that drug. They can't be sure Captain Succorso got
it from us. They're hoping to destroy it before the formula
reaches the rest of humankind. And if they can't destroy it,
they want to study it, learn how to counter it."
"Lies!" Fane roared. "The drug doesn't exist! And even
if it does—even if Dios has been lying to us all this time—
Holt Fasner knew nothing about it. If you're going to make
these accusations, by God, you'd better prove them!"
Without a glance at him, she answered, "I have Director
Dios' word for it."
And Vector Shaheed's, she might have added. Nick Suc-
corso's. Morn's. Davies'. But she wasn't ready to go that far
yet. She was hoping for something else—
"Do you have any record of the order?" the FEA coun-
tered fiercely. "Is it logged anywhere?"
"Not that I know of," she admitted. Now she used her
anger to keep her calm. "As a rule, CEO Fasner delivers his
orders to Director Dios in person." Deliberately she put aside
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the privacy of UMCHO. If any record exists, he has it."
"Then it's Dios' word against mine," Fane snarled.
"And you've already admitted that he's been lying to the
Council."
Koina didn't argue. Instead she left his challenge hanging
in the air while she took a deep breath to calm herself. Her
attack on Fasner's authority had hardly begun: she had a great
deal more to say. But all her accusations lacked the corrobora-
tion which would make them unimpeachable. If Hashi and
Chief Mandich didn't find evidence for her soon, she was go-
ing to fail. Everything she said would recoil against her. War-
den would look like a man who wanted to cover his own
crimes by blaming someone else. And she would look like his
puppet.
Rather than contradicting Cleatus directly, she told the
Members, "When Trumpet first left forbidden space, Captain
Thermopyle flared a message to UMCPHQ through a UMC
listening post. It said, in part, 'The Amnion know about the
mutagen immunity drug in Nick Succorso's possession.'
Whatever the First Executive Assistant disputes, I think we can
take that as fact.
"I believe Milos Taverner also knew. He and Captain
Succorso did business together for years. When he betrayed
Captain Thermopyle, he also betrayed a familiar partner."
As well as the rest of humankind.
Maxim was charged with too much intensity to keep
quiet. "So when Director Lebwohl told us this Taverner be-
trayed Com-Mine with Angus Thermopyle," he sneered, "that
was another lie?"
Koina nodded firmly. "It was." But she kept her attention
fixed on the faces below the dais. "The Special Counsel asked
what I meant when I said that Director Dios and Director
Lebwohl were 'aware of the danger' Milos Taverner repre-
sented. The truth is that we—I mean Director Dios and Direc-
tor Lebwohl—had what you might call a special relationship
with Taverner. The Deputy Chief was a man of"—she consid-
ered a choice of descriptions—"flexible loyalties. Putting it
crudely, he was for sale. He sold what he knew and what he
could do to anyone who paid him.
"We know that because we paid him."
Vest Martingale snatched a sharp gasp through her teeth;
but no one else reacted. Even Cleatus was silent; too busy with
his throat pickup and PCR to say anything. And the rest of her
audience, Koina suspected, had already received too many
shocks. They were too shaken to protest against every new
revelation.
Too bad. She was just getting warmed up. Her voice hard-
ened as she went on.
"Angus Thermopyle was accused and convicted of steal-
ing supplies from Com-Mine. But he didn't do it. He was
framed. We framed him. Or, more precisely, we paid Milos
Taverner and Nick Succorso to frame him.
"Taverner was paid in cash." She made each word as
clear as a cut. "Succorso was paid with Morn Hyland."
That was too much for Blaine Manse. "Good God!" she
objected; almost wailed. "You admit it? One of your own peo-
ple?
"Why?"
Koina knew that Blaine meant, Why did you sell Morn?
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In one sense that may have been true. But in another it was
entirely false; a piece of misdirection to confuse Warden's
foes. However, the PR director replied as if Blaine's question
referred to Angus.
"We wanted to be sure he was convicted of a crime that
didn't carry the death penalty so we could req him. And—"
Even now she found these things difficult to say. But the anger
in the marrow of her bones carried her. "And we wanted to
undermine Com-Mine Security's credibility.
"I'm sure you all remember how the Preempt Act finally
passed into law. We introduced it several times, but you always
voted it down. You didn't favor it until we found a way to
convince you local Station Security wasn't trustworthy.
"We used Angus for that."
She kept her voice quiet, her tone level. Nevertheless the
weight of what she said seemed to fill the chamber like a
shout. "Let me be completely clear. We can't afford any con-
fusion about this. We framed Angus Thermopyle with the ex-
plicit intention of persuading you to pass the Preempt Act.
"Once again," she finished, "Director Dios and Director
Lebwohl did this on the direct orders of CEO Fasner."
She expected some new outburst from Maxim; watched
him peripherally so that she could brace herself. But instead of
swelling to an explosion, he seemed to shrink. Some kind of
personal dismay leeched the blood from his cheeks, damped
the core of his energy. His shoulders sagged, and his eyes
flinched away from her; away from the Members.
"No," he moaned so softly that Koina barely heard him.
"No. This is all wrong. It won't work like this. Not if
Fasner—"
By now he must have realized that Koina—and Warden
Dios—were playing for higher stakes than he was prepared to
face.
While Igensard sank, Captain Vertigus pulled himself up
in his seat. His hands trembled as if they were full of infirmity;
but a keen fire shone in his old eyes. He may have grasped one
of Koina's unspoken points. To suppress a true mutagen im-
munity drug was a crime of one kind: to deliberately mislead
the Council into passing the Preempt Act was malfeasance of
another kind altogether. If an accusation like that could be
nailed to the Dragon's door—
Despite his earlier chagrin, he now looked like a man who
did, indeed, have work to do.
Koina sighed to herself. It was really too bad that she still
had no evidence.
Indignation left the Member for Com-Mine Station al-
most apoplectic. Punjat Silat sighed as if his worst fears had
been confirmed. But no one spoke. The whole Council seemed
to feel out of its depth. Most of the Members were waiting for
Cleatus Fane's response.
He didn't keep them in suspense. Chuckling harshly, he
waved his hand to signal for attention. A slight tilt of his head
suggested that he could hear his master's voice in his ear while
he rose to his feet. That didn't interfere with his ability to
address the Council, however.
"My dear Director Hannish, this is preposterous," he
said with feigned amusement. A smile like an act of violence
crinkled his eyes, then fell away as if it cost him too much
effort. "At last I think I understand what's going on here.
"Please believe me when I say that I'm sure you're be-
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mation exactly as it was given to you. If more PR directors did
the same, the world would be a better place.
"But—correct me if I'm wrong, Director Hannish—you
have no record of this order, either. Holt Fasner is alleged to
have ordered the suppression of an effective antimutagen. He
is alleged to have ordered the framing of Angus Thermopyle
so the Preempt Act would pass. But you have no evidence."
"That's not quite true," Koina interrupted quickly. "I've
been authorized to open DA's financial records to Special
Counsel Igensard's investigation. Given time, his accountants
will be able to trace payments made to Deputy Chief Tav-
erner."
Cleatus dismissed the point with a swipe of his palms.
"That's admirable, I'm sure." Without transition his air of
amusement shifted to sarcasm. "Very forthcoming. But the
mere existence of payments proves nothing. It won't confirm
what they were for. And on that crucial subject you're just
telling us what Warden Dios told you."
Then he turned from her to face the Council.
"It's all clear, isn't it, Members, Mr. President? Koina
Hannish delivers Warden Dios' accusations against Holt
Fasner. Naturally we believe her. We have every reason to
presume she's honest. And we're all properly horrified."
Abruptly he raised his fist. "But consider the source.
Look at what Director Hannish has just told us. Warden Dios
selected Milos Taverner to 'control' Captain Thermopyle.
Warden Dios knew that Taverner had 'flexible loyalties'—that
he was 'for sale.' Of course he knew. He bought Taverner
himself. And yet he chose that same man to supervise a
welded UMCP cyborg on a dangerous and highly sensitive
mission inside forbidden space."
Despite the precariousness of her position, Koina took
grim comfort from the fact that Cleatus didn't challenge her
explanation of the reasons Angus had been framed. He had to
accept part of her story in order to attack the rest. He couldn't
defend the Dragon without letting her damage Fasner's credi-
bility as the man who was ultimately responsible for the
UMCP.
"On the surface, Members, Mr. President," the FEA
said, "that was a strange decision. A bizarre decision. But
really it makes perfect sense. For one thing, it got Taverner out
of the way so we can't ask him to tell us his side of the story.
And for another—" He tightened his fingers until his knuckles
showed white. "Warden Dios knew Taverner would betray
Captain Thermopyle! He was counting on it. Because he
wanted the Amnion to commit an act of war. Exactly as Spe-
cial Counsel Igensard has already suggested.
"When Warden Dios chose Taverner to 'control'
Thermopyle, he brought Calm Horizons here as surely as if
he'd flared the Amnion an invitation."
Fane's voice tightened like his fist. "Now this same War-
den Dios is using his own PR director to confuse the issue
with accusations against Holt Fasner so that the Council won't
recognize the enormity of his treason."
"He's right." Maxim scrambled to support the FEA. In
fact, he seemed to address Cleatus instead of the Council.
"Mr. Fane is right." Under pressure, his pose of diffidence
became a kind of hunger, urgent and abject. Apparently his
ambitions required him to undermine the UMCP without taint-
ing the UMC. "It's the only answer that fits. Dios is just try-



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ing to confuse us."
With a severe effort, Koina kept her professional mask in
place. "That may be true." She shrugged against the vulnera-
bility and loss straining at her nerves; the anger throbbing in
her heart. "I can't prove what I've said, one way or the other. I
can't prove that Director Dios didn't lie to me.
"I would like to point out, however, that the Preempt Act
doesn't benefit the UMCP. We're stretched too thin as it is.
We don't have either the personnel or the ships to police all of
human space. We need Station Security." We need a budget
that lets us do our job. "Extending our jurisdiction that far
benefits only the UMC."
Before Cleatus could protest, she went on, "But all this is
really beside the point I was trying to make."
Again Abrim Len surprised her by speaking. Earlier he'd
sounded exasperated; worn down; unhappily resigned to con-
flict. Now his tone had a decisive quality she'd never heard
him use before. In a clear voice he prompted her, "You were
giving us Warden Dios' explanation for the fact that an Am-
nion defensive has her super-light proton cannon aimed at this
island."
He had no history of opposition to the UMC. Neverthe-
less, like Sixten, he seemed to draw strength from the plain
thrust of Koina's revelations. Perhaps he was finally starting to
believe that it might be possible for the GCES to meet what
he'd called "the general emergency" with a substantive re-
sponse; that he and his fellow Members might at last begin to
do their jobs.
"Thank you, Mr. President." Koina nodded. "That's cor-
rect."
Fighting an impulse to hurry, she resumed revealing War-
den's secrets.
"I mentioned two reasons. One is that Milos Taverner
told the Amnion Nick Succorso has an effective antimutagen.
Captain Succorso himself is directly responsible for the other.
"I've already explained that we hired Succorso to help
Taverner frame Captain Thermopyle. And we paid him with
Morn Hyland. Since then we've learned that Morn was preg-
nant. Either she was pregnant when Captain Succorso took
her, or she became pregnant shortly afterward. Under the cir-
cumstances—considering the character of the two men who
could have victimized her—I wouldn't venture to guess which
is the father."
Koina suppressed a shudder at the thought of what Morn
must have suffered. Here before the Council in Warden's
name, the PR director already faced as much violation as she
could stand. Yet Morn had endured much worse—
Warden himself might endure worse aboard Calm Hori-
zons.
Sternly Koina pushed herself ahead.
"I can't account for what happened after that. I'm not
inside Captain Succorso's mind. I can only tell you what he
did.
"Whatever his reasons may have been, he took Morn into
forbidden space, to Enablement Station. There he somehow
persuaded or tricked the Amnion into using a process called
'force-growing' on her fetus. The result was that she ended up
with a mature son in a matter of hours instead of years. She
named him Davies, perhaps because that was her father's
name."
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gap-sickness.
"Apparently the outcome of this 'force-growing' wasn't
what the Amnion had expected, however. There's something
special about Davies, something I don't understand and can't
describe. But in his flare to UMCPHQ Captain Thermopyle
said, 'Davies Hyland is Morn Hyland's son, force-grown on
Enablement Station. The Amnion want him. They believe he
represents the knowledge necessary to mutate Amnion indis-
tinguishable from humans.' "
She paused to let the Members absorb the horror of this
news; then concluded, "That is why the Amnion have risked
an act of war. More than anything else, they want to be able to
make themselves look and act just like us so they can infiltrate
our space and destroy us without firing a shot." Anger was all
that kept her from trembling at her own words. "From their
point of view, the stakes are more than high enough to justify
the risk."
For a moment Members and their aides gaped dismay at
each other; at Koina; at Cleatus Fane. Then President Len put
in as if he wished to forestall a panic, "Forgive me, Director
Hannish, but you still haven't answered the question." Like
everyone else in the room, he probably had nightmares about
the possibility she'd just described. "Why is Calm Horizons
chasing Trumpet?"
He was asking her to say it all. Make everything plain.
She accepted the burden. She'd promised herself—and
Warden Dios—that she would do her job.
"Because, Mr. President, they're all aboard. Nick Suc-
corso. Morn Hyland. Davies Hyland. Even Dr. Shaheed, who
did most of the research on Intertech's mutagen immunity
drug, before DA took his work away from him. Captain
Thermopyle rescued them all from Billingate before he de-
stroyed the installation."
"So if Punisher retrieved Trumpet's people," Blaine
Manse murmured in amazement, "Morn Hyland is here."
Cleatus Fane swore under his breath. He must have known
the truth; but for obvious reasons he didn't want it spoken.
In the privacy of her heart, Koina prayed that Warden had
never meant to abandon Morn; that Angus had brought Morn
back on Warden's orders.
"Member Manse is right," she stated. "Calm Horizons
has her proton gun aimed at us because she's holding us hos-
tage. The people who were aboard Trumpet are her real tar-
get."
Now she began to speak more quickly. Because she
feared a panic as much as Len did, she tried to prevent another
interjection. The Members needed time to master their emo-
tions. And she wanted to reach the end of the things she could
say without support from Chief Mandich or Hashi Lebwohl.
Her ability to restrain her anger was fraying; worn out by ruin.
"Incidentally"—she referred back to Punjat Silat's ear-
lier question—"I think we can assume that Captain Suc-
corso's antimutagen explains why Trumpet headed for
Massif-5. When Punisher engaged Calm Horizons, the Am-
nioni had stationed herself outside an asteroid swarm where
Trumpet happened to be concealed. I'm sure it's no coinci-
dence that one of the largest bootleg labs in human space is
located in that swarm."
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Koina inclined her head toward the VI Member. "And
when Trumpet emerged from the swarm, she came out broad-
casting the formula for the drug. Shouting it in all directions
as loudly as she could. Clearly Trumpet went to that swarm
and that lab so Dr. Shaheed could analyze the drug he did so
much to help create."
There she stopped. She was finished—stuck—without
outside help. At least she'd carried out Warden's orders: she'd
done her job, for whatever that was worth. Nevertheless a
clenched sense of outrage was all that kept her from despair.
Without evidence she might as well have stayed on UMCPHQ;
let Igensard and Fane do what they wanted with the emergency
session.
When she glanced over her shoulder at Forrest Ing, she
saw a look of dumb misery on his face. He may have been
surprised, even horrified, by some of the things she'd said; but
he knew what she'd tried to do—and knew she'd failed.
Neither of her communications techs met her gaze. They
concentrated tensely on their separate links with Center;
hardly seemed to be aware of anything else.
White-lipped with strain, Cleatus spoke swiftly, hoarsely,
into his pickup. Koina expected outrage from him—an expres-
sion of the Dragon's hot fury. But she was surprised to see
that he didn't look angry. The stress in his eyes resembled
frenzy; terror.
Maxim had a different reaction, however. Here was his
chance to step forward—resume control—and he took it like a
snapping predator.
"This is too much," he objected. "I really can't allow
you to go on like this." He was struggling to recover some of
the moral superiority he'd generated earlier. "You're doing it
again, Director Hannish. Skipping over the points that matter
most. Trying to baffle us with obfuscation."
Koina sighed wearily. "In what way, Special Counsel?"
"Angus Thermopyle was a 'welded' cyborg," he re-
torted, "isn't that right? 'Completely controlled by DA's com-
mands and restrictions,' you said. So when he took Dr.
Shaheed to that lab he was following orders. Warden Dios'
orders.
"What kind of game is your boss playing now?"
Cleatus was still on his feet, using his bulk—and his
alarm—in an attempt to dominate the Council's attention.
"For that matter," he added tensely, "how does it just happen
that Dr. Vector Shaheed, of all people, ended up aboard Trum-
pet?"
So she wasn't done. Finished—but not done.
Despite her fear that Warden's hopes had crossed the
brink of disaster, Koina did her best to outmatch her oppo-
nents.
"It 'just happened,' Mr. Fane, that Dr. Shaheed was a
member of Captain Succorso's crew. He served as Captain
Succorso's engineer. Reports from Billingate indicate that
Captain Succorso's ship, Captain's Fancy, was destroyed in
the attack. Apparently only a few of his people survived.
When he joined Trumpet, Dr. Shaheed was with him, as well
as his command second, Mikka Vasaczk, and her brother,
Ciro, Dr. Shaheed's second."
Argue with that, you sonofabitch.
Brusquely she turned to Maxim.
"Special Counsel, Captain Thermopyle was not following
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Milos Taverner turned traitor Captain Thermopyle would be
left without a 'control' to adjust his programming. And with-
out appropriate adjustments he might become dangerous when
faced with situations or exigencies not covered by his instruc-
tion-sets.
"For that reason, his instruction-sets were written so that
if he was betrayed he would have enough freedom of move-
ment to provide for his own and Trumpet's survival. In addi-
tion he was barred from returning to Earth until a new
'control' could be supplied. That was one of Min Donner's
duties aboard Punisher. She was supposed to replace Milos
Taverner. When Trumpet escaped Massif-5, however, Director
Donner hadn't yet succeeded—perhaps because Punisher was
too busy fighting Calm Horizons.
"Whatever Captain Thermopyle's and Morn Hyland's
reasons may have been, they went to Massif-5 on their own."
Igensard tried a righteous sneer, but he was too harried
and tight to carry it off. "Do you expect us to believe that?"
Koina let her anger answer him. "I'm the UMCP PR di-
rector. I have a great deal more information than you do. If
you can't prove I'm wrong, I think you owe it to this Council
and the people of Earth to start believing me."
For a moment silence answered her challenge. Members
refused to meet her eyes. Their aides studied her as if she'd
become oddly repulsive. Then President Len asked, "What
will Warden Dios do? Why is he aboard Calm Horizons'? Does
he have any hope of keeping us alive?"
She understood his real question; his indirect attempt at
conciliation: Will Warden surrender Trumpet's people to save
us?
"I don't know, Mr. President." For a moment grief
swelled in her chest. "He didn't tell me that."
"Can we talk to Morn Hyland?" Blaine put in suddenly.
"Surely we can aim a dish at Punisher? Or route a channel
through UMCPHQ?"
Koina bowed her head. "I haven't been authorized to do
that, Member Manse." She was beaten and desperate: she
would have jumped at the chance to do as Blaine suggested.
"Director Dios didn't mention it. And I'm not in contact with
Acting Director Donner. I don't know whether she would
sanction it or not."
If Warden had to surrender Trumpet's people in order to
preserve the Council, Morn might already be out of reach.
Sold again—
"Ask her," Blaine urged. "What have we got to lose?"
Cleatus flapped his hands dismissively. "I'm sure the act-
ing director has her hands full," he snorted. "She won't have
time to deal with us. Considering Dios' behavior so far, she's
probably our only hope. I for one don't want to distract her."
I'm sure you don't, Koina thought. But she kept her opin-
ion to herself. She didn't have the heart to provoke him fur-
ther. It was plain that too many of the Members agreed with
him.
Without warning Captain Vertigus tottered to his feet.
"Director Hannish, I have a question."
Maxim squared his shoulders and opened his mouth,
clearly intending to cut Sixten off. To forestall him, Koina
replied quickly, "I'll answer it if I can, Captain."
Sixten gripped the back of Maxim's empty seat as if he
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neck. All the energy he could muster was focused in his voice.
"I've been listening to these revelations with more than a
little nausea. If I hadn't had so many years to get used to the
way Holt Fasner does things, I would probably be puking by
now. But the single thing you've told us that sickens me the
most can't be blamed on him.
"How in the name of conscience do you justify selling
Morn Hyland to Nick Succorso?"
He gave the impression that he held Koina accountable
for Warden's actions; but she knew better. She was simply the
only person here who might tell him what was in Warden's
mind. He had work to do—work as hazardous as hers, and as
necessary—but he needed something from her before he could
do it.
She let him see the distress on her face as she said, "I
understand how you feel. Giving Morn to Nick Succorso when
she'd just spent weeks as Angus Thermopyle's victim was"—
she opened her hands to show that her heart was open as well
—"abominable. But we didn't know how else to keep her
alive.
"She's a witness to the fact that Captain Thermopyle was
framed." That the Council had been tricked into passing the
Preempt Act. "If Com-Mine took her into custody, we were
sure she would end up dead. CEO Fasner has a long reach.
And he doesn't want anyone to know the Preempt Act rests on
a lie."
Sixten nodded. He seemed to accept her explanation; to
believe her. A combative smolder showed in his eyes, and he
straightened his back like a man who was about to go into
battle.
"In that case—"
But he didn't get to finish. Cleatus had started shouting.
"That's enough, Director Hannish!" he raged. "You've
gone too far!" He seemed to draw strength from his PCR.
"You admit—over and over again—that you don't have any
evidence. And yet you persist in these baseless accusations.
It's slander, and I won't tolerate any more of it!"
"Mr. Fane," Sixten yelled back, "I have the floor!"
"No, you don't!" Maxim sounded frantic; on the verge
of howling. "I do. I have the authority to question her. You're
just interrupting!"
"Igensard!" Cleatus roared furiously.
At once Maxim flinched backward a step; shrank into
himself. In a thin voice he announced, "I yield the floor to
FEA Cleatus Fane."
"Thank you," Cleatus snapped.
Heavy as a battlewagon, he strode to the dais, mounted it,
and aimed his bulk at Abrim Len as if he meant to browbeat
the smaller man.
"Mr. President, I object to this whole debacle." Iron in-
dignation clanged in his voice. "You've allowed Director Han-
nish to retail the most malign falsehoods without restraint.
This isn't a court of law, but it should be. Warden Dios is on
trial. Not Holt Fasner—the director of the UMCP. You can't
go on letting Dios' mouthpiece taint this Council with irre-
sponsible hearsay and unsubstantiated charges! If she can't
supply evidence, you should make her stop."
Apparently Abrim's unfamiliar decisiveness had deserted
him. It cost him too much: he couldn't outface the Dragon's
minion. He seemed to recede into his chair as he asked Koina
hesitantly, "Director Hannish, do you have an answer?"


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"Not a good one, Mr. President," she admitted tiredly. If
she hadn't sworn an oath as Warden's Director of Protocol,
she might have been tempted to concede defeat. "I've simply
been trying to save time by telling the whole story as I know
it. To help the Council make informed decisions."
But she had sworn an oath. And Warden had staked his
life aboard Calm Horizons to save these people. In spite of her
despair, she couldn't bear to back down while there was still
something, anything, she might say.
Before President Len—or the FEA—could continue, she
added, "And, frankly, I had hoped the evidence I need would
have arrived by now."
"What evidence?" Cleatus sneered like vitriol. "From
whom?"
Koina confronted him squarely, her anger swelling to
match his. "From Hashi Lebwohl. From UMCPED Chief of
Security Mandich. They're investigating these recent kazes."
In response he brandished his beard at her like a club.
He'd been practicing innocence for a long time. He was good
at it. "My God, this is unconscionable! Are you going to
blame that on Holt Fasner, too?"
She didn't try to stop. She didn't want to. Risking what
was left of her credibility, she snapped, "Yes, I am. I believe
he sent those kazes. I believe he's the one who wants to con-
fuse this Council. And I believe he'll do worse if he isn't
stopped."
Her charge may have sounded like lunacy to everyone
else; but Cleatus was ready for it. His PCR gave him informa-
tion and advice she couldn't hear. The baldness of her accusa-
tion didn't make him falter for a second.
Wheeling away from President Len, he proclaimed,
"Members, we've had too much of this farrago. Director Han-
nish has made a shambles of this session.
"But it won't go on like this. That's a fact, not a chal-
lenge. I've just been informed"—he indicated the receiver in
his ear—"that CEO Fasner has relieved Acting Director Don-
ner of her duties.
"Because the CEO doesn't believe the Amnion will ever
let a man as valuable as Warden Dios go, no matter what kind
of deal he makes with them, Director Dios will be replaced. A
new director will be named shortly. And I'm sure one of his
first actions will be to put a stop to Director Hannish's malfea-
sance."
Koina winced in shock. Involuntarily she flung a look at
her techs; mouthed the words, Is that true?
One of the women had the blessed presence of mind to
rise to her feet. "Director Hannish"—only a slight quaver
marred her voice—"we've received a report from UMCPHQ
Center. On your dedicated downlink."
"What does it say?" Koina asked quickly.
The tech cleared her throat. "Acting Director Donner has
refused to be relieved." Her tone grew stronger as she summa-
rized Center's transmission. "According to the terms of the
UMCP charter, her authority derives from the director. She
insists that Holt Fasner has no right to relieve her. He must
first replace Director Dios. But Director Dios can't be fired
without due notification. This is especially true under condi-
tions of war. Since Director Dios hasn't been replaced, Direc-
tor Donner has refused CEO Fasner's orders."
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of the crossfire.
Thank God! Abruptly Koina's knees started trembling
again. She leaned an elbow on the podium to support herself
Cleatus didn't contradict the tech. Obviously he knew her
information was accurate: his PCR had already given him the
same news. Instead he protested savagely, "That's not our
fault. For the last twenty-four hours he's refused to speak to
Mr. Fasner. And now the Amnion are holding him incommu-
nicado. We've done everything we can to give him notifica-
tion."
"But the point is"—Koina offered a bitter smile—"that
Director Dios has not been fired. Under the circumstances,
UMCPHQ has lawfully refused to recognize any authority ex-
cept Min Donner's.
"Why did you lie to us, Mr. Fane? Did you think you
could bluff your way out of this?"
But Cleatus was ready for that, too. His downlink from
UMCHO seemed to cover everything. Without pausing to col-
lect himself, he blared at the Council, "If I hadn't been inter-
rupted, I would have told you what you just heard. The point
isn't that Dios hasn't been fired. It's that he's blocked CEO
Fasner's lawful authority at every turn.
"Do you need more proof? Do you have to be hit by
proton cannon fire before you recognize the treason here?
Warden Dios has betrayed his office. He's betrayed the
UMCP. He's betrayed humankind. How many more crimes
have to come to light before you do something about it?"
"Like what?" Koina demanded so that Sixten would have
an opening. "What do you think the Council should do, ex-
actly?"
The old captain didn't hesitate. His voice quavering with
age and urgency, he pronounced, "Pass my Bill of Severance.
Now. While we still can. Take the cops away from the UMC
so they won't be influenced by a man like Holt Fasner."
Fane shook his head brutally. "That's not good enough."
He seemed to be prepared for everything. "It leaves Warden
Dios free to do what he wants. I have a better idea.
"This Council should decharter the UMCP. Right here,
right now. Revoke their existence. Then recharter them with
somebody else as director. My God," he cried, "anybody
else! If you actually believe any of this shit about Holt
Fasner"—his scorn rang off the walls—"you can give Captain
Vertigus the job." He flung a gesture like a blow at Sixten. "It
doesn't matter. Only staying alive matters. And putting an end
to these lies."
When she looked around the room, saw the dismay and
dread on the faces of the Members, Koina had no doubt which
proposal they would accept. They were too troubled, too un-
sure, too scared to reject the power of the Dragon.
And Warden was lost.
MORN
The    quiet  she   experienced
when she made the decision
to trust Angus with her son's life, and Warden Dios', com-
forted her; but it didn't last long. First came a rush of activity
as everyone hurried to their places: Captain Ubikwe, Vector,
and Davies with the command module; Angus, Ciro, and
Mikka aboard Trumpet; Min Donner, Punisher's duty officers,
and Morn herself on the auxiliary bridge. Then followed the
tense work of detaching the module and releasing Trumpet.
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Cray routed Center's transmissions to her PCR and throat
pickup. Patrice activated the helm console swiftly. Restored to
his post at last, Glessen ran targ with grim satisfaction. Porson
and Bydell working together brought up the main displays—
scan schematics, orbit and course vectors, targ windows—and
added blips for the command module and Trumpet as Dolph
began transporting the gap scout along his cautious route
toward Calm Horizons.
Among them Morn settled into the command g-seat. The
auxiliary bridge felt like a completely different place than the
one she'd just left: oriented differently in Punisher's decelera-
tion g; with different sounds and pressures. And the air was
colder for some reason. It seemed closer to the outer dark; the
absolute chill of space. More exposed—
Unlike the people around her, she had no duties. The
cruiser would have obeyed her orders, but she had none to
give. Captain Ubikwe's officers took care of Punisher. Min
handled everything else. And Morn had no part to play in
Angus' plots, or Davies' risks. Finally she'd arrived at the
position she'd sought ever since she'd returned to conscious-
ness beyond Massif-5. She was free to do what she'd come
here for.
Tell the truth. Accuse the men and women she'd been
raised to serve of crimes she abhorred.
That crisis loomed ahead of her like the last gap crossing
of her life; the ordeal she dreaded most. She'd talked about it
as if she were certain of herself; believed completely in what
she meant to do; as if she had no room for doubt. But now she
feared it might prove to be a new form of gap-sickness—a
more fatal form.
Possibilities of ruin seemed to throng like furies about
her, calling for blood. She would have to bare her soul to the
Council; open her shame for every Member of the GCES to
see and condemn.
Because she needed Min's help, she looked for some way
to catch the ED director's attention; encourage Min to leave
Center's demands aside for a moment and talk to her. But
Min's link to Center—and, through Center, to the planet—
required harsh concentration. She was responsible for Earth's
defense in every sense: both planet-side and out in space. At
times she appeared to answer multiple questions simultane-
ously; issue orders on several different subjects at once.
A nagging itch troubled Morn's sore arm—a sign of heal-
ing, she supposed. Grateful for it, she scratched at it occasion-
ally while she awaited her opportunity.
After a while the command module and Trumpet finished
their last transmissions. Then Porson confirmed that Trumpet
was well occluded, her telltale electromagnetic activity
masked by the module's emissions. Still Morn didn't speak.
Despite her complex fears—and a mounting sense of urgency
—she waited until Min made time to glance in her direction.
But then she found that the words she required were hard
to say. Once they were spoken, she wouldn't be able to call
them back: simply articulating them would make them irrevo-
cable; a promise she had to keep. In chagrin she stalled for
courage by asking the first question she could think of.
"How's your hand, Director?"
If Min considered that an odd question, she kept her reac-
tion to herself. She may have understood why Morn asked it.
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applied for her.
"Funny thing," she muttered, frowning. "That damn
cyborg has good aim. Hitting him hurt worse than getting
shot." Her mouth twisted. "Someday I'll learn to keep my
temper. But that probably won't happen anytime soon."
The auxiliary bridge was definitely colder than it should
have been. Morn checked her maintenance readouts; saw that
a couple of temperature sensors and air circulation relays
weren't working properly. They must have been damaged
somehow.
She tried again.
"Director—" Her throat closed. Min—
"You know about my gap-sickness. You know what
Angus did to me." She didn't wait for Min's assent. "But I
never told you that Vector broke my black box. My zone im-
plant control. Angus gave it to me. But Vector broke it to keep
me from killing myself. When Nick had Angus' priority-
codes.
"Since then," she explained lamely, "my gap-sickness
has been more of a problem."
The lines of Min's face became sharper. "I wondered
why Angus hit you when we hit hard g. At the time that
seemed"—she frowned at the memory—"excessive."
Ignoring her duties, she waited for Morn to go on.
Morn swore at herself. Why was this so hard? Hadn't she
grown accustomed to her shames yet? Surely by now she
might have come to understand that Starmaster was gone?—
that no amount of self-torment would bring her family back?
With an effort she set her reluctance aside.
"I need your help, Director," she admitted unsteadily. "I
want to talk to the Council. Tell my story.". Give my testi-
mony. Now or never. "But I can't do it alone. Center doesn't
take orders from me. GCES communications certainly doesn't.
I need you to open a channel for him. If you don't, I'm help-
less."
Her request didn't surprise Min. The ED director must
have heard enough hints to guess what Morn had in mind.
Perhaps she approved: perhaps this was why she'd let Morn
take command in the first place. Deliberately she removed her
PCR, lifted the pickup off her throat. Her eyes searched Morn
like a hawk's.
"You don't have to talk to them." She sounded distant,
noncommittal, like a woman withholding judgment. "They
need to hear your story, but you don't have to tell it in person.
You can record it. Then I'll talk to them for you. Give them a
playback. Answer their questions."
"In your spare time?" Morn countered ruefully. She'd
already observed how tightly Min's responsibilities stretched
her. The strain was palpable every time Min addressed her
pickup.
"I can do it," Min insisted. Then, more gently, she
added, "You've already done enough. More than any of us."
Morn bowed her head. The unexpected kindness of Min's
offer touched her; but she wasn't tempted to accept it. "It's
my job, Director," she sighed. My story. "I think they should
hear it from me."
When she looked up again, she saw a gleam that might
have been pride or hope in the ED director's gaze.
"In that case—" Min shrugged. "Give me a few min-
utes. Suka Bator isn't exactly calm at the moment. And even
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put the fear of God into a few techs before they'll do what I
tell them."
Without hesitation she returned her attention to her PCR
and pickup. Morn heard her issuing crisp instructions in a tone
that left no room for argument.
A few minutes.
Morn was glad for the delay. Despite the pressure of
events, she felt now that she could use every moment Min
gave her. Gripped by her gap-sickness, she'd killed her whole
family. In order to protect her shame, she'd bartered Angus'
life for her zone implant control. And then she'd driven herself
into zone implant addiction so that she could lie to and seduce
Nick Succorso. If her pregnancy and Davies' birth hadn't
changed the way she made decisions, she might have contin-
ued ruining herself until she joined her mother and father.
The Council needed to hear her story.
She needed all the time Min gave her to harden her heart.
CLEATUS
Cleatus   Fane   knew   what
might happen.
That's why he was so angry—and so scared. He knew
what might happen. He could see it in the way some of the
votes struggled against his proposal to decharter the UMCP.
He could hear it in Holt's incisive, unscrupulous voice from
his PCR. He could visualize it in the fatal progress of Pun-
isher's command module toward Calm Horizons. Now more
than ever, events and the FEA's master hinted at terrible pos-
sibilities.
Cleatus was so scared that his bowels squirmed. The stud-
ied bonhomie with which he usually faced the votes had de-
serted him entirely. It was his job to ensure that nothing
terrible happened; that Holt saw no need to make anything
terrible happen. And he appeared to be succeeding at it. Cer-
tainly the Council gave that impression, despite the Hannish
woman's infuriating allegations, and the few remaining in-
stances of resistance among the sheep. But he knew he
couldn't afford to relax even slightly until Dios was officially
and legally out of a job: until someone else took over as direc-
tor of the rechartered UMCP. Then Calm Horizons as well as
Punisher could be informed that Dios no longer had the au-
thority to make deals, and any accommodation he might have
hammered out was void.
Punisher's command module was on its way to the defen-
sive. With Trumpet in tow. So Holt had informed his FEA.
Dios had devised some kind of accommodation: that was obvi-
ous.
Whatever it was, it had to be stopped. Holt wanted the
Hyland kid for himself. He wanted Morn dead. He wanted that
damn antimutagen crushed out of existence—and Vector
Shaheed with it. And he wanted the Amnion to finish Dios for
him. But if Dios' deal held, very little of that would take place.
Dios himself was definitely out of the picture. Cleatus
didn't believe for a second that the Amnion would ever release
him. But if the module wasn't stopped, Davies would be lost
to Holt. Morn might protract her improbable survival long
enough to cause more trouble. And blind, self-righteous Min
Donner might take it on herself to release Shaheed's formula.
She was arrogant enough. The only way to keep her in line
was to give her a boss with enough authority to overrule her.
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The module was still almost two hours away from Calm
Horizons. Cleatus had that long—only that long—to make re-
ality match his master's wishes.
Unfortunately there was nothing he could do about it at
the moment. He'd countered Hannish's revelations as vigor-
ously as circumstances allowed. For the second time he'd dis-
rupted the efforts of that old fool Sixten Vertigus to pass that
insipid Bill of Severance. And he'd presented Holt's counter-
proposal in terms which made it hard for the sheep to balk.
But he didn't run the Council. Instead he had to sit on his
hands and watch the Members debate an idea they should have
voted into law by acclamation.
Fortunately Holt was at his-most lucid in emergencies.
His powers of concentration helped make him dangerous. He
didn't waste time with useless demands or impossible orders.
One of the FEA's techs delivered a verbatim report of the
proceedings: Cleatus supplied explanations and commentary.
On that basis Holt grasped the situation as accurately as Cle-
atus did. He didn't expect Cleatus to work miracles; didn't
hold Cleatus accountable for the actions of others.
Not in an emergency.
Nevertheless the CEO's precise pragmatism made Cle-
atus' guts clench in alarm. More than anyone else in this room
—or anyone else in human space, for that matter—Cleatus
knew how far Holt's grip on practical reality might take him.
From his seat beside Dios' pet PR director, Cleatus Fane
projected outward calm and stewed inwardly while the sheep
blundered about the business of achieving a vote.
The process took longer than it should have; much longer.
Len acted like a man who wanted to be sure each word he said
was unimpeachable. The supercilious twit insisted on dotting
every legislative i, crossing every procedural t—which used up
time. In addition several of the votes did their best to turn the
session into a true debate.
That promiscuous slut from Betelgeuse Primary harped
endlessly on the emotional observation that Dios risked his
humanity aboard Calm Horizons. After all, he had no real
reason to think the Amnion would ever release him. She'd
figured that out. So the accusations against him were pointless,
she insisted, since he obviously gained nothing from his so-
called crimes except this chance to suffer mutation.
In his most effete tones, the Council's resident intellectual
snot, Silat, advanced the more ominous argument that if the
UMCP were dechartered Dios would lose his authority to
make deals—surprise, surprise—in which case any arrange-
ment he conceived would be meaningless. The new director
would have to start from scratch, which would take time. And
time worked against the Amnion. They might conclude that
proton cannon fire would serve them better than protracted
renegotiations.
And useless Tel Burnish pointed out that the entire
UMCP organization might rebel if both Warden Dios and Min
Donner were replaced. Loyalties within UMCPHQ, and
aboard UMCPED's ships, might be strong enough to leave
Earth—not to mention Suka Bator—defenseless.
Even that defeated idiot Vertigus added his irritating
voice and scrawny objections to the obstacles which slowed
the sheep's progress toward a vote. Hannish obviously ad-
mired his willingness to flog a lost cause: her eyes shone every
time he opened his mouth, as if she considered him honorable,
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cheerfully had the old captain shot.
In fact, he hated them all—Manse, Silat, Burnish, Ver-
tigus; Hannish and Len. He would have been generously, mag-
nanimously delighted to see every one of them dead.
Manse probably isn't worth the trouble, he told his
pickup. Neither is Silat. But we ought to kill Burnish.
He already knew what Holt thought of Vertigus.
We'll worry about that later, Holt replied crisply.
The good news was that Hannish couldn't do anything to
encourage all this obfuscation. Like Cleatus, she had to sit and
watch. And he'd done everything in his power to undermine
her credibility. The votes couldn't believe a thing she told
them unless they were prepared to side with Dios against Holt.
A few minutes ago she'd accepted a PCR from one of her
techs. Presumably she was listening to her dedicated downlink
from UMCPHQ. If so, Center must have told her about the
command module and Trumpet. But she didn't announce the
information. She may have realized that she'd reached the end
of her string. Or—the thought wrung Cleatus' intestines—she
may still have hoped someone would rescue her.
The sheep were taking too long. He interjected comments
and offered arguments whenever he got the chance, but he
lacked the clout to force a conclusion. Meanwhile the chro-
nometer was running. If the Council didn't vote soon, Holt
would give up on legal solutions to the problems Dios had
caused.
Terrible—
Grimly Cleatus reminded himself that he still had at least
ninety minutes. Surely that would suffice? God, it ought to! If
no more surprises hit the Members, Holt was going to win.
And his First Executive Assistant would live.
He nearly lost control of himself when he saw an aide
leave a console near the chamber doors and hurry toward the
dais, waving his arm to attract Len's attention.
Damn, this was bad news. Had to be. Otherwise the man
wouldn't have been in such a hurry, stumbling against chairs
and tripping past legs in his rush to reach the dais.
Len scowled at the man; shook his head to reject the
interruption. Good boy. But the aide sprang up to the dais,
caught Len's arm, drew him back from the podium, and began
whispering tensely in his ear.
One after another, the votes stopped talking. A clutch of
suspense froze them. Nameless fears crowded the room: pro-
ton cannon; war and mutagens; the fatal dark of space. Cleatus
felt them himself. He rose half out of his seat, then thought
better of it and stayed where he was, murmuring worry into his
pickup.
Holt said nothing.
Vertigus covered his face. That raving fanatic Sen Abdul-
lah gaped as if he were choking on vexation. Poised on the
edge of his chair, Igensard sat ready to leap up and fling objec-
tions; trying to be helpful—
Damn. Len nodded abruptly to the aide, gestured the man
back to his console. More delays. While the aide hurried away,
Len returned to the podium. Despite the rank dread around
him, he took his time: bowed his head; drew several deep
breaths; gripped his ceremonial mace carefully. Then, still
slowly, he straightened his spine, lifted his chin, settled his
shoulders.
His eyes held a look Cleatus couldn't read. It might have



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been desperation or resolve.
"Members," he announced unevenly, "Director Hannish,
First Executive Assistant Fane, this vote will have to wait."
Cleatus felt a knife bite into his guts. He barked a protest
like a yelp of pain. At the same time Igensard shouted some-
thing Cleatus didn't hear; something about voting first—
The next moment he watched in amazement and horror as
Len raised his mace and hammered it against the podium as if
he wanted to shatter one or the other.
"I said this vote will have to wait!"
The blow—and Len's unexpected vehemence—jolted the
sheep like a shot of stun. Several Members jerked in their
seats. Some of the aides lost flurries of hardcopy. Even Len
flinched as if he'd shocked himself; as if he hadn't known how
much strain he was under, or how deep his revulsion ran. He
recovered quickly, however. In a milder tone, he explained,
"One of my aides has just informed me that we're receiving a
transmission from Ensign Morn Hyland. Aboard Punisher."
Damn! Damn it all—! Cleatus couldn't think of an oath
powerful enough to express his terrified fury. Dios and his
lackeys were going to get everyone on this island killed!
Subvocalizing furiously, he reported to Holt.
Stop them, Holt instructed. I don't care how.
In an instant Hannish reached her feet. Like a woman
galvanized by hope, she blurted out, "Let's hear it."
Then she seemed to remember her place. "Forgive me,
Mr. President," she added breathlessly. "I don't mean to in-
trude. But Morn is there. Where the decisions our survival
depends on are being made. You must talk to her. It's vital."
"I agree." Somewhere Len found the strength to produce
asperity. "That's why I said—"
"But I do not agree!" Cleatus blared. Stop them? Stop
them? He bounded upright; shoved past Hannish to put him-
self between her and Len. "What's vital is dechartering the
UMCP! That woman has no business being alive, much less
presuming to contact us. After what she's been through, she's
probably insane. Or she and your Captain Succorso want to
run some scam. She's just an ensign, for God's sake! Let her
wait until we finish saving humanity!"
"Don't you understand?" Hannish shouted at his back.
"She knows what's going on!
"Punisher has detached her command module. The mod-
ule is headed toward Calm Horizons. And she's towing Trum-
pet." Without the Hyland woman, apparently. "Director Dios
has made some kind of deal with the Amnion, and Ensign
Hyland knows what it is! If she wants to talk to us, we have to
hear her. We must!"
Cleatus didn't waste time cursing her for that revelation.
He had a more urgent fear.
Morn might want to give evidence.
For God's sake, he told his pickup. Open fire on Pun-
isher.
What's the point? Holt retorted. If I go that far, I'll have
to go farther.
Igensard also was on his feet. "No, Mr. President!" He
didn't take frustration well: he looked like he was on the verge
of a paroxysm. "This is inexcusable! We are the Governing
Council for Earth and Space"—he'd conveniently forgotten
that his status as Abdullah's proxy was temporary—"and
we're making the most important decision of our lives! You
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With a sweeping motion, Len raised his mace like an ax
over his head and aimed it at the podium.
Oh, shit! Cleatus bit back his outrage. Igensard clamped
his mouth shut in midspate. Even Hannish stopped. What had
happened to Len's instinct for conciliation?—his cowardice?
He seemed to be losing his mind.
If he suffered a breakdown right here in front of the votes,
they would lose more time—
When he was sure of the silence, he lowered his arms;
dropped his mace like a rock onto the podium.
"Mr. Fane." His voice cracked with strain, but he didn't
waver. "You're a guest here. You've already had your say. If
you don't hold your tongue, I'll have you removed from the
room. Forcibly, if necessary."
What, removed? Holt Fasner's representative? "You
wouldn't dare—" Cleatus fumed.
"I would," a guard barked from his station against the
back wall. Forrest Ing, Deputy Chief of UMCPED Security.
Another Donner lackey. "My men and I would consider it an
honor to obey President Len."
Cleatus flung a murderous glare at the man; but he could
see Ing was serious. The blunt threat on Ing's face promised
that he would enjoy manhandling the FEA. Shaking with an-
ger, Cleatus hid a bitter retort behind his beard.
Hannish looked like she could hardly restrain a cheer.
Accept it, Holt ordered. We'll find some other way. She
can't connect us.
Len didn't wait for Cleatus to answer. He wheeled on
Igensard.
"As for you, Special Counsel—" Unprecedented anger
burned in his eyes. "Don't talk to me about 'right.' I've had
enough. When you told me why you wanted Sen Abdullah's
proxy, I couldn't think of a reason to refuse. Now I can.
"If you had a gram of professional integrity, you would
leap at a chance to hear anything Morn Hyland might say. She
pertains to your investigation. But apparently you care more
about crucifying Warden Dios than learning the truth.
"If that's true, get out of here and let the rest of us carry
out our responsibilities," Len commanded harshly. "I'm sure
Senior Member Abdullah is more than qualified to speak for
himself. He doesn't need you."
Jesus! Cleatus groaned. What in God's name had hap-
pened to Len? Where was the timid, weak, and above all ma-
nipulable President Cleatus knew?
Was he taking sides?
"For reasons I don't understand," Len told Igensard and
the Council fiercely, "Ensign Hyland has been forced to suffer
in ways we can't imagine. She's been abandoned and sold by
people she should have been able to trust, and"—his voice
rose—"we are going to hear her!"
Igensard gaped like a fish at the reproof. Involuntarily he
turned an appeal toward Cleatus. Stupid— He may have been
an ally of a sort, but Cleatus had no help to give him. Slowly
he shrank back to his seat; dwindled like a deflated bladder.
"I'm sorry, Mr. President," he murmured thinly. "Of
course we should talk to Morn Hyland. I'll wait my turn."
Hannish was obviously delighted.
For a moment, amazement or chagrin held the room.
Then Vertigus lurched to his feet. Raising his thin arms high,
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him enthusiastically. Burnish contributed a hard, rhythmic
clap, like impact pistol fire. After a brief hesitation, Vest Mar-
tingale—who should have known better—added her approval.
The rest of the votes had better sense. Abdullah snarled
whining curses. Sigurd Carsin covered her face. Even Punjat
Silat studied Len with a noncommittal expression on his
stubby features. Others consulted their aides in urgent whis-
pers, or buried themselves in their notes, as if they suddenly
needed bits of information they couldn't recall.
Suffer in ways we can't imagine, Cleatus thought bitterly.
So that was it. Len had always been a sentimental bastard.
Now he'd been seduced by the idea of Hyland's pain. He'd
lost himself to a woman he hadn't even met.
Through the applause a look of weakness washed over the
President. For a moment Cleatus hoped Len was about to faint.
It was possible he'd never been so forceful in his life: the
effort may have exhausted him. Leaning closer to the podium,
he propped his elbows under him for support.
Hannish resumed her seat like a good girl. Manse and
Vertigus did the same. At first Cleatus remained stubbornly on
his feet: he wanted to confront Morn standing. But then he
reconsidered. Accept it, Holt had told him. We'll find some
other way. Subvocalizing tensely, he retreated to his chair and
sat down.
"Unfortunately we weren't expecting this," Len said
weakly. "We aren't set up for it. But my aide is routing a
channel through the newsdogs' speakers and pickups. We
should all be able to hear Ensign Hyland. She may be able to
hear all of us."
He made an effort to sound more assertive. "Strict rules
of order, Members. This woman has been through hell. No
matter what you think of Warden Dios—or Holt Fasner—she's
one of the victims. I won't let her be harassed."
Then he told his aide, "When you're ready."
That emasculated twit has turned against us, Cleatus mut-
tered to his pickup. He thinks Hyland is some kind of martyr.
If he gets a chance, he'll let Vertigus reintroduce Severance.
Not if you do your job, Holt retorted.
My job? Cleatus thought—but didn't say. What do you
think I'm doing?
"I'm ready now, Mr. President," the aide answered
promptly. Bending over his console pickup, he said, "Ensign
Hyland, stand by for President Len and the Governing Council
for Earth and Space." Then he keyed in a quick series of
commands.
The room speakers clicked to life.
They seemed to expand like a window into deep space.
The background hum of thrust distortion muffled by noise-
reduction circuitry gave an impression of depth, size; cold and
uncomprehended distances just out of reach. Cleatus had the
strange sense that he was listening to the interstellar mutter of
a solar furnace as it broadcast unattainable light and heat
across the void.
Len mustered the energy to lift his voice into the deep.
"Ensign Hyland? Can you hear me? I'm Abrim Len. President
of the Council."
"President Len," a woman's voice answered. "I'm Morn
Hyland. Aboard Punisher."
Cleatus had never heard Hyland speak; but he was in-
stantly sure the voice was hers. The strain in the speakers
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in human space he wanted to listen to less.
His guts fumed with acid and anguish as he braced him-
self for disaster.
"I'm sorry you had to make me wait," she continued
sharply. "This is urgent."
"I'm sorry, too, Ensign." Len sounded sincere. "Repre-
sentative government is unwieldy sometimes.
"The whole Council is here. I think we can all hear you.
And I suspect we all have questions we want to ask. But if
your reasons for contacting us are urgent, perhaps it would be
best if you simply go ahead. When you're done—if you're
willing—we'll ask our questions."
At once the woman inquired, "Is Director Hannish
there?"
Cleatus saw Hannish cock an eyebrow in surprise. She
hadn't expected this. Nevertheless she didn't presume to re-
spond.
"Yes, she is," Len acknowledged.
"Has she spoken to the Council?"
He, too, was surprised. He frowned uncertainly. "Does it
make a difference?"
"Time." Static whetted the edges of Hyland's tone.
"That's the difference, Mr. President. If I know what she's
already told you, I can save time.
"Trumpet and Punisher's command module will reach
Calm Horizons in seventy-one minutes. I don't know what'll
happen then. But I'm pretty sure whatever we do after that
won't change anything. If we want to affect the outcome of
this crisis, we have seventy-one minutes."
Cleatus' PCR confirmed this.
"Tell me what Director Hannish told you," Hyland de-
manded.
Len looked past the votes at his aide, slid one finger
across his throat. At once the man silenced the pickups and
speakers.
"Opinions?" Len asked. His manner warned the Mem-
bers to be brief.
Silat spread his hands. "It seems a reasonable request,
Mr. President."
Cleatus couldn't let that pass. "Unless she wants to make
sure her story fits what we've already heard."
Vertigus and a few of the sheep shook their heads. But
none of them ventured to contradict Cleatus. His authority to
speak in Holt's name still carried that much clout, anyway.
Len winced; rubbed his hands unsteadily up and down his
face. Then he signaled his aide to open the channel.
"Forgive me, Ensign Hyland. I don't mean to make your
circumstances more difficult than they already are. Please be-
lieve me when I say that anything you tell us will be more
useful if it hasn't been edited to fit what we expect to hear."
Chewing his lip in suspense, he waited for a reply.
After no more than a heartbeat of hesitation, Hyland con-
ceded, "All right. I want to talk to you. That's why I'm here.
Nobody told me to do this. I'm not under any pressure. I just
think you need to hear what I know."
Cleatus was sure he could guess what she meant to say.
Appalling prospect— But he took some comfort from Han-
nish's plain tension. When she thought no one was looking,
the PR director gripped the arms of her seat; tightened her
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She wasn't sure Hyland's story would match hers.
Her anxiety wasn't enough to satisfy him, however. He
wished he could make her suffer as much as he did. But that
was out of the question. She had absolutely no idea how much
trouble they were all in.
As if she were delivering a formal report, Hyland began,
"My first deep-space assignment for the UMCP was aboard
the destroyer Starmaster. We were sent to patrol the Com-
Mine belt. There we witnessed the destruction of a mining
camp by Captain Angus Thermopyle's ship, Bright Beauty.
When we hailed him, he fled. We went after him. Unfortu-
nately, during the pursuit I developed gap-sickness, which
caused me to initiate Starmaster's self-destruct. I was the only
survivor.
"Captain Thermopyle captured me from the wreckage
and forced me to serve as his crew by giving me a zone im-
plant. This had the advantage of managing my gap-sickness. In
other ways, I was effectively his slave.
"Under his control, I used my UMCP credentials to pro-
tect him from Com-Mine Security's attempts to investigate
Starmaster's disappearance."
The sheep were shocked. Some of them squirmed in their
seats. Others hugged themselves with their arms. They hadn't
known any of this. Cleatus himself was vague on some of the
details: UMCPHQ's reports to Holt about Thermopyle's weld-
ing had been suspiciously imprecise. But the brutality of what
Morn revealed—and the strict, strained way she mortified her-
self by telling it—kept the votes quiet.
"While Captain Thermopyle and I were on Com-Mine,"
she went on, "he was framed for stealing station supplies. I
can testify that he could not have committed that crime. At the
time I only knew that he was framed by Captain Nick Suc-
corso. But since then I've been given reason to believe that
Captain Succorso was helped by Com-Mine Security Deputy
Chief Milos Taverner.
"I'll return to that point in a minute. First I must explain
that when Com-Mine Security came to arrest Captain
Thermopyle, he tried to get rid of the evidence of his crimes
against me. He offered me the control to my zone implant."
Hyland faltered momentarily, then stated, "I took it."
That explains a lot, Cleatus breathed to Holt.
What, exactly? Holt asked.
If she controls her own zone implant, Cleatus replied,
she's a goddamn superwoman. No wonder she's still alive.
Holt rejected the idea. That's not enough. Even
superwomen don't have force-grown brats in forbidden space
and survive. She must have had help.
"I took it," she was saying, "even though I understood
its importance as evidence." Even though she was a cop
sworn to preserve evidence. "I knew I was helping him avoid
a sentence of death. I took it because I needed it. I'd become
dependent on my zone implant. I wanted to control it myself.
For that I was willing to let Captain Thermopyle live.
"Then I left Com-Mine with Captain Succorso aboard
Captain's Fancy. I believed I had no other choice. Captain
Succorso wasn't likely to discover my secret. If I surrendered
to Com-Mine Security, they certainly would. And Captain
Thermopyle would be killed."
No shit.
"I'm telling you this," she informed the Council, "I'm
explaining my own crimes so you'll know how I came by my


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information."
Hannish had bowed her head, listening hard with her ex-
pression hidden by her hair. Cleatus couldn't read her reaction.
He assumed she thought Hyland was some kind of hero.
Before Morn could go on, Manse waved her arm fever-
ishly, demanding a chance to speak. Len glanced at her and
nodded, but didn't recognize her. Instead he cleared his throat.
"Please forgive an interruption, Ensign Hyland. There's a
point I would like you to clarify.
"According to Director Hannish, you were given to Cap-
tain Succorso as payment for his part in framing Captain
Thermopyle. But you've just suggested that you went with
Captain Succorso voluntarily. How do you—?"
"One doesn't preclude the other," Hyland cut in: a
woman who knew what she was talking about. "Captain
Thermopyle's use of my zone implant left me practically in-
sane. I made a whole series of bad decisions. Like joining
Captain's Fancy. The UMCP may have asked Com-Mine Se-
curity to let me go. They could do that. I was an Enforcement
Division ensign. But at the time"—she meant before the Pre-
empt Act—"they didn't have the authority to issue orders. If
I'd surrendered myself, Com-Mine Security would have been
forced to accept jurisdiction.
"I went with Captain Succorso. The UMCP persuaded
Com-Mine Security to let me go."
She'd sold herself for the control to her zone implant.
Which may have been the only thing she'd done that
made sense to Cleatus. If zone implants weren't so damn ille-
gal, he would have had one wired into his head years ago. As
long as no one else could touch the control.
Still Hyland condemned herself with virtually everything
she said. That helped.
"Thank you, Ensign," Len murmured. He sounded
strangely wounded, as if he could imagine too many of the
things she didn't say. "Please go on."
Morn's voice was harsh with static as she resumed.
"Since then I've been told that Captain Succorso and
Deputy Chief Taverner were paid by UMCPDA to frame Cap-
tain Thermopyle. I'm told that his arrest and conviction served
a political purpose for the UMCP. I don't know anything
about that. But I am a witness to his innocence of the crime
for which he was arrested.
"And I know where to find evidence of Deputy Chief
Taverner's involvement with Captain Succorso. A playback of
Bright Beauty's datacore will show that Captain Thermopyle
had traced a transmission link between Captain's Fancy and
the deputy chief."
Cleatus' guts clenched as he relayed this to Holt.
"Aboard Calm Horizons I discovered I was pregnant."
God, the woman was remorseless. "And I met the ship's engi-
neer, Vector Shaheed. Dr. Shaheed is a geneticist. At one time
he worked for Intertech in the field of mutagen immunity. He
was close to success when his results were suppressed and his
research stopped by UMCPDA.
"Captain Succorso confirmed this. He told me that DA
had completed Dr. Shaheed's research, and that he, Succorso,
had the results in his possession. They were given to him so
that he could carry out covert assignments for DA in forbidden
space."
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would need every lever he could find to shift the weight of
Hyland's appalling narrative.
"I have no direct knowledge of the source of the drug."
As if deliberately, she admitted the weaknesses of her story
before anyone could challenge them. "But I can vouch for its
effectiveness. Because I was pregnant, Captain Succorso took
me to Enablement Station in forbidden space, where my un-
born child was delivered and force-grown in an Amnion lab.
At the time I observed that Captain Succorso relied on the
drug for protection. On another occasion I tested it myself.
When Captain's Fancy reached the bootleg shipyard Billin-
gate, Captain Succorso gave me to the Amnion. They injected
me with mutagens. More than once. I remained human be-
cause I'd stolen some of the drug, which I used while I was
held prisoner.
"I hope this is clear, President Len. I can testify that an
effective mutagen immunity drug exists, and that it is currently
available to UMCP agents in the name of Data Acquisition."
Too bad it didn't fail, Cleatus commented bitterly.
Damn, Holt murmured in his ear. I never should have let
Ward talk me into giving Lebwohl that research.
Len cleared his throat uncomfortably. "It's clear enough,
Ensign Hyland. I don't expect you to tell us why Director Dios
countenanced this kind of malfeasance." He glanced sidelong
at Cleatus. "But I think you have a right to know that so far
your story confirms what we've heard from Director Han-
nish."
Hyland's voice seemed to fade out of the speakers briefly.
When she spoke again, she sounded more distant; weakened
by relief. "Thank you, Mr. President. I'm glad to hear that."
Almost at once, however, she recovered her harshness.
"While I was held by the Amnion, Captain Thermopyle
and Trumpet reached Billingate. I saw very little of what hap-
pened, but I've been told that Deputy Chief Taverner betrayed
both Captain Thermopyle and Captain Succorso. I can't testify
to that. I only know that Captain Thermopyle rescued me from
the Amnion. He rescued my son, Davies Hyland, from the
Billingate authorities. We were joined by Captain Succorso
and Vector Shaheed, as well as by three more of Captain's
Fancy's crew, Sib Mackern, Mikka Vasaczk, and Ciro
Vasaczk. Together we escaped forbidden space during the de-
struction of Billingate.
"Later 1 learned that Captain Thermopyle had been
reqqed by UMCPDA after his arrest and made into a cyborg. I
can vouch for this also. I've seen his datacore."
What? Cleatus wanted to demand. Seen his datacore?
How?
"He was given zone implants," she pronounced darkly.
"He was controlled by a computer. In that condition, the
UMCP sent him to destroy Billingate and rescue me."
She's lying, Cleatus panted to Holt. Must be. Dios had
orders—
Seen his datacore?
No, Holt retorted. It's true. Just for an instant his concen-
tration cracked. Ward did this. Then he recovered. Norna
warned me, but I didn't guess what she meant.
Perfect! Cleatus snorted to himself. Dios' treachery went
that far back. My God, he'd planned for all this!
Hannish's reactions no longer comforted him. He didn't
care that she, too, hadn't expected Hyland to actually see
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Morn hadn't stopped. Ignoring the effects of her informa-
tion, she plowed fatally ahead.
"But I guess his programming wasn't adequate to man-
age him after his mission succeeded. It's probably impossible
to write instruction-sets to cover every eventuality indefinitely.
For a while he was left free to make some of his own deci-
sions.
"At my urging, and Dr. Shaheed's, he took us to
Massif-5. We hoped Deaner Beckmann's bootleg lab would
allow Vector to analyze Captain Succorso's antimutagen. Our
intention was to discover the formula and make it public.
"Suppressing an effective mutagen immunity drug," she
explained grimly, "is a crime against all humankind, and we
meant to put a stop to it."
Put a stop—? The woman's arrogance left Cleatus gasp-
ing.
Earlier Hannish had reported, When Trumpet emerged
from the swarm, she came out broadcasting the formula for the
drug. But she hadn't said why. Apparently she hadn't known.
As she listened to Hyland now, her eyes shone with admira-
tion.
But Hyland was angry. Her voice sawed across the static,
driven by outrage.
"Unfortunately we were overtaken by a transmission
from UMCPHQ, relayed to us by UMCP cruiser Punisher and
ED director Min Donner. It gave the priority-codes which con-
trolled Captain Thermopyle to Nick Succorso."
As Holt had ordered. To that extent, at least, Donner had
kept her insubordination to herself.
What went wrong?
"This is important, President Len," Morn insisted
fiercely. "Captain Thermopyle was a UMCP cyborg. In some
ways he'd been set free. Nevertheless underlying UMCP re-
strictions and priorities still ruled him.
"That transmission took away the last of his volition. He
became Captain Succorso's puppet."
She paused; may have been trying to calm herself. Cle-
atus had time to wonder why she seemed so loyal to
Thermopyle. Had she fallen in love with the murdering sonof-
abitch? More likely she was addicted to his particular brand of
abuse.
When she continued, her tone held less violence. Instead
she sounded tired to the bone; vulnerable to the cold dark
implied by the speakers.
"Captain Succorso now commanded the ship. And he had
no intention of releasing the antimutagen. He made that obvi-
ous. He wanted the formula, but he wanted it for himself.
"Fortunately there were other intentions at work as well.
We learned later that the same transmission which betrayed
Angus to Nick also issued new programming to his datacore."
Cleatus held his breath.
"When Captain Succorso and Vector Shaheed left the
ship to use Deaner Beckmann's lab, that new programming
caused Angus -to reveal his priority-codes. For reasons we
didn't understand, Davies and I were given the means to resist
Nick."
There! Cleatus thought. Black murder filled his head.
That's how Dios did it. Even when he followed orders, he
undermined them. And now terrible possibilities loomed over-
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The votes may have been too stupid to grasp the implica-
tions; but Cleatus didn't miss them.
Dios wanted this. He made it happen.
Despite the force of that insight, however, Hyland's next
words shocked the FEA.
"We didn't use them," she reported brusquely. "Instead
Davies and I cut out Captain Thermopyle's datacore and let
him reprogram it to block his priority-codes."
Cleatus was too scared to contain himself. Blaring indig-
nation, he shouted, "You what?"
Len whirled to face him. "Mr. Fane, this is your last
warning!" the President barked. "Deputy Chief Ing, if the
FEA speaks out of turn again, don't hesitate. Remove him."
"Yes, sir, Mr. President." Ing sounded eager.
Fuming, Cleatus closed his mouth. But he left his demand
hanging in the air. Good God! he protested to Holt. She's even
more dangerous than I thought.
In disgust Holt muttered, Ward's been so goddamn busy
rubbing the lamp he didn't notice it wasn't a genie coming
out. It's a fucking nightmare.
With a final glare at Cleatus, Len turned away.
"Ensign Hyland," he said apologetically, "that was Cle-
atus Fane, First Executive Assistant to Holt Fasner."
"I know the name." The sound of knives filled Hyland's
voice. "Mr. Fane, I've been the victim of a zone implant. I
won't treat another human being that way. No matter who he
is. Suppressing an antimutagen is a crime. So is welding ille-
gals. I'll do anything I can to stop it."
No question about it: the woman was an addict.
Vertigus raised a weak fist in approval. Hannish touched
her palms together as if she wanted to clap. But neither of
them spoke. Apparently they didn't want to risk exasperating
Len further.
"I understand, Ensign," Len sighed weakly. "Please go
on."
Hyland paused for several heartbeats—so long that Cle-
atus wondered whether she'd given up. But then she returned.
"I'm almost done.
"When Dr. Shaheed finished analyzing the drug, Davies
and I made Captain Succorso prisoner, and we left the lab. But
then we found both Punisher and Calm Horizons waiting for
us. Punisher covered us while we escaped across the gap.
Later both our gap and thrust drives failed, and Punisher was
able to catch up with us. We joined ship and returned here.
"If you want to ask questions," she finished, "do it fast.
We have fifty-six minutes left. I need the time."
Cleatus Fane desperately wanted to know what she
needed the time for. He understood too well how Holt might
use it.
MIN
The acting UMCP director
was desperately busy:
sweating with strain; concentration stretched to the tearing
point. From the communications pickup on Punisher's auxil-
iary bridge, she commanded nearly a dozen ships positioned
for Earth's defense. She ruled UMCPHQ; directed prepara-
tions for damage-control and evacuation; supervised Center's
efforts to ready the planet for war; chose or rejected informa-
tion and instructions to be included in UMCPHQ's system-
wide downlink. And she did what she could to protect the
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with the capacity to adjust their orbits she sent on new trajec-
tories: the rest she covered with her cordon. Her PCR brought
in three, four, sometimes five channels at once. She responded
as fast as she could key her pickup.
Valor on one. Confirm targ priorities.
Center on two. Nonessential personnel duty assignments?
Two of the pocket cruisers and at least one gunboat
seemed incapable of comprehending the coordinates they'd
been assigned.
SpaceLab Station on four. What happened to the scan
net? We can't alter orbit blind.
Downlink control on one. Planet's screaming for the net.
What explanation shall we give?
At the same time she felt desperately useless.
She'd come all this way: from her meeting with Captain
Vertigus, when she'd given him Warden's Bill of Severance, to
Punisher's encounters with Free Lunch and Trumpet near the
Com-Mine belt; across space toward Massif-5 and battle with
Calm Horizons', beyond the VI system to retrieve the gap
scout; homeward with Morn and Angus in command. And yet
now there was nothing she could do except manage the crisis
while Trumpet's people determined the fate of Warden Dios,
the UMCP, and humankind.
She needed—
God, she hardly knew what she needed; had no time to
think about it.
Center on three. Suggest evacuation of nonessential per-
sonnel now.
Min said no. Where the hell were they going to go?
Gunboat Flash Attack on two. What's wrong with our
position?
You're off-line to intercept fire on PolyMed Station, she
answered. Compensate. Get targ priorities from Center.
She needed to help Warden make restitution. She'd car-
ried out his orders, even when they appalled her: she was as
much to blame for the UMCP's crimes—and for Calm Hori-
zons' presence—as he was. She would never forgive herself if
she didn't do something to save him.
But there was nothing. In every effective sense, Mom had
relinquished the cruiser when Dolph and the command module
had carried Trumpet away. Yet that gave Min no relief. She'd
decided long ago—was it only hours, or days?—to let the chil-
dren of Warden's secret desires carry out the roles he'd pre-
pared for them as they saw fit. Her frustration no longer
centered on Punisher.
Everything that mattered was in someone else's hands.
Since she couldn't go along with Dolph and Angus, she would
have to live without her own forgiveness.
Center on two. Sledgehammer confirms targ priorities.
Give her eight hours and she might be able to use them.
PR uplink from the emergency session on one. Vertigus
wants to reintroduce his Bill of Severance. Fane proposes
dechartering instead, rechartering with someone else as direc-
tor.
Damn Cleatus Fane!
Valor on five. Reconfirm targ priorities? You want us to
include UMCHO?
Min keyed an acknowledgment. She feared instinctively
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Warden had put her in this position for a reason. Presum-
ably he wanted her to survive so that she might pick up the
pieces of humankind's defense after his efforts to bring down
the Dragon had destroyed the UMCP. And presumably he'd
picked her instead of someone else because he'd believed or
hoped that she would let Morn and Angus make their own
choices. She didn't know anyone else who would have done
the same.
It wasn't enough for her. She meant to do the job he'd
given her; intended to fulfill her oath of service to the absolute
limit of her abilities. But it was no consolation—
Earth uplink on four. All major cities report escalating
riots. Local police demand support.
We don't have any, Min snapped back. Tell them to con-
centrate on protecting disaster installations, planetary de-
fenses, lives, in that order. They can worry about property
later.
She needed more.
This whole gamble is your idea, Morn had told Angus
before Trumpet broke radio contact. If you don't see it
through— She may have shrugged. I'll kill myself.
No, you won't, he'd snorted back. Not anymore. Then
he'd warned, But you better jump like hell when the excitement
starts. There's going to be a gap where Calm Horizons can
take a crack at you. You can bet your ass she'll do it.
I understand, Morn had answered. I think Patrice can
handle it.
Min had seen Patrice in action: she knew what he could
do.
She envied him the simple exigencies of helm. Demands
labored at her as fast as Punisher's dish could bring them in;
but nothing she answered would make any difference if Angus
and Morn failed. Patrice could at least try to keep the ship
alive.
Center on four.
Adventurous on one.
Downlink control on two.
Morn was doing her part. After a few difficulties, most of
them procedural, Min had forced a link through Suka Bator
communications. Then Morn had persuaded the GCES to hear
her. Fane and Igensard had objected. Of course. But Len si-
lenced them. Apparently the President had discovered a back-
bone Min didn't know was there.
Past the PCR babble in her ear she listened to Morn's
transmission as Morn began to tell her story: the story for
which she'd kept herself alive, commandeered Punisher, and
come home; the story for which she risked her son on Angus'
good faith. The story of Warden Dios' crimes—
Min told Center to cancel her feed of the PR uplink. Pun-
isher's speakers brought her everything she needed to hear
from the emergency session. She would have cringed at the
things Morn said if she hadn't known that Koina had already
betrayed the same secrets.
Projecting relief and vehemence, Glessen had resumed
the targ station when Mikka left. Porson ran scan at a scram-
ble, pulling together input from UMCPHQ and all the other
ships. Bydell helped him frantically. Cray worked communica-
tions support so that the gabble of channels in Min's ear
wouldn't overlap each other.
At the auxiliary command station, Morn slumped over her
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face. Her elbows propped her on the arm of her g-seat. She'd
been through hell—and not least during the last twenty-four
hours. All the strength she had left was focused in her voice.
If we want to affect the outcome of this crisis, we have
seventy-one minutes.
Her voice held. Min was certain that the Council—and
above all Cleatus Fane—had no idea how close to exhaustion
Morn was.
Center on two. Message from UMCHO. CEO Fasner
states that the GCES is about to strip Director Dios of his
authority. A new director will be lawfully appointed. You're
warned the consequences will be severe if you refuse to obey
orders.
Ignore him, Min instructed harshly.
Adventurous on one. We have power-spikes. Matter can-
non unstable. Must be a short in some of the old conduit.
We'll trace and reroute as fast as we can. Until then we aren't
good for much. Sorry, Director.
Flash Attack on four. We can cover for Adventurous.
Hold your position, Min ordered through her teeth.
Director, we're just sitting here!
So sit. If you want to commit suicide, do it on your own
time.
Min fought to remain focused on her PCR, her duty. But
she kept slipping away. The sound of Morn's voice tugged at
her.
I went with Captain Succorso. The UMCP persuaded
Com-Mine Security to let me go.
It was the truth. Min hated hearing it anyway. If she was
useless now, how useless had she been when Morn went
through the Academy? Or when she'd brought to Morn's
home the stiff official condolences and empty honors for Bry-
ony Hyland's death? How had she so completely failed to
convince Morn that no UMCPED ensign was expected to suf-
fer hell alone?
She'd failed because the truth was more convincing. If
Morn had turned herself over to Com-Mine Security instead of
running off with Nick, some other way would have been found
to silence her; get rid of her. Holt Fasner would have seen to it.
So that the Preempt Act would pass.
They injected me with mutagens. More than once.
Min winced. She hadn't known that. Often she'd asked
herself if this Ensign Hyland was really the woman Warden
wanted Morn to be; a woman he could trust. Now she was
sure. Morn had been in Angus' hands for weeks—and Nick's
for months. She'd been sold to the Amnion. They'd injected
her with mutagens. And yet she'd retained enough of her es-
sential identity to come here and tell her story.
The ED director wished that she herself could do half as
much to repay Warden's trust.
Downlink control on four. There are too many people for
the disaster installations. We're doing what we can. Contin-
gencies are ready for your approval.
Flash Attack on three. Tell Calm Horizons your command
module has thrust failure. Dispatch us to complete the tow.
We'll get in close, then smash that proton emitter before she
can use it.
Center on one. Nonessential personnel are panicking. If
we don't evacuate them, they'll go spaceshit.
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Koina and Morn, Angus and Davies and Dolph.
Because she was useless, she toyed with Flash Attack's
suggestion. Then rejected it. Suka Bator would be saved.
Maybe. But Warden, Angus, and Dolph would die. So would
the others.
And Angus' plan might work. If he did what he'd said. If
he was telling the truth. If she didn't interfere.
Center on two.
Earth uplink on one.
Out of the confusion she heard Morn say, I've seen his
datacore.
Min froze in midsentence. Seen—? A sensation of elec-
tric distress burned along her nerves. How? She forgot her
PCR; forgot Center and her cordon of ships. Why?
As if to answer Min, Morn told President Len and the
Council, Davies and I cut out Captain Thermopyle's datacore
and let him reprogram it to block his priority-codes.
For an instant Min couldn't breathe. Shock paralyzed her
synapses. Cut out— She hadn't known that, either; hadn't
guessed— Angus had revealed that the Amnion taught him
how to edit datacores. In exchange for Viable Dreams. He'd
altered his datacore to block his priority-codes. But no one
said Morn had anything to do with it.
And yet he must have had help. That was obvious. Min
should have realized it earlier. He couldn't cut open his own
back to remove the chip. He might have programmed Trum-
pet's sickbay to do it for him—but then hardwired stasis com-
mands would have left him helpless to edit anything.
My God, Morn was a fool. Completely crazy. A man like
Angus—
But she was also wonderful. Somehow she'd kept alive
the dreams the cops should have served; the ideals they should
have lived by. No matter what it cost her.
Suppressing an antimutagen is a crime, she told Fane. So
is welding illegals. I'll do anything I can to stop it.
Min couldn't see. She had sudden tears in her eyes and a
knot of grief in her throat.
Her PCR continued to demand her attention.
Director Lebwohl on five. I should talk to Koina, Min. He
sounded breathless with haste. I've reviewed her uplink. She
needs help.
Without transition Min found herself blinking at one of
the auxiliary bridge displays—a scan plot of her cordon of
ships—as if she'd noticed it for the first time. Punisher was
there. Valor. Adventurous. Flash Attack and the others. The
command module with Trumpet. Clustered around Calm Hori-
zons. And UMCPHQ.
But because of the positions she'd assigned them they
were also poised around UMCHO. She didn't trust the
Dragon. That was the real reason she'd shut down the scan net
in the first place.
Help?
Had Hashi succeeded?
Koina had explained Warden's secrets to the Council.
With the passion of her personal experience, Morn was cover-
ing much of the same ground.
But Hashi—
He could raise the charges against Fasner to an entirely
new level. If he hadn't failed. If he knew what he was doing.
And Dolph was on his way toward Calm Horizons. He
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Warden: they might all survive—if Angus could keep his
promise.
If he couldn't—if anything got in his way—they were as
good as dead.
Abruptly Min understood the problem.
Timing.
The divergent pieces of Warden's hope needed to come
together in a certain way. So that they would help each other
succeed.
And she knew what she could do to help.
Please go on, President Len prompted Morn.
With a swift slash of her burned hand, Min gestured for
Morn to stop talking.
Morn raised her head. A bleak question filled her battered
gaze.
Director Lebwohl on three. Director Donner, this is ur-
gent. Authorize a channel. I must speak to Director Hannish.
Min ignored him. "We have a deadline," she told Morn
softly, intensely. "When I give you the signal, get off that
channel. Finish what you're saying and get off."
A frown of strain and coercion had settled into Morn's
face: it was becoming permanent. "What deadline?"
"That's my problem. I'll handle it." Trust me. But Morn
needed more; deserved more. Quickly Min explained, "If you
go on too long, Fane will run out of time. We need to make
sure he has room to hang himself."
After a moment Morn nodded. The look she gave Min
might have been the same one with which she'd received
Min's condolences and honors years ago.
The ED director waited until she heard Morn announce to
her pickup, I'm almost done. Then Min attacked the communi-
cations board with all her heart's thwarted, iron conviction.
Center, Director Lebwohl can have a channel to Suka Ba-
tor when I say so. Not before. Tell him to start the instant I
give the word.
The delay would infuriate him. Nevertheless she believed
he would do his part. She'd learned a new respect for him
when he'd resigned as acting director.
Stand by to relay targ priority changes, she ordered. All
ships. All guns.
Rapid as automatic fire, she coded new commands. Dazed
with exertion, Cray transmitted them for her.
The response was immediate.
Center on two. Are these priorities right, Director? She
heard hints of hysteria. Are you serious?
She showed Center how serious she was. Do it, she
snapped grimly. Then get me a channel to Calm Horizons.
Almost at once her PCR shot a burst of confusion into her
ear.
Valor on four. Adventurous on one. Flash Attack on five.
Reconfirm targ priorities!
Center on three. Calm Horizons, Director? Please con-
firm.
She was still waiting for a transmission link to the Am-
nioni when the countdown in her head told her that the time
had come for Morn to stop.
CLEATUS
Get ready, Holt warned the
FEA. Len won't let you
tackle her yet. He's being too damn protective. But you'll get



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your chance when she's done.
After no more than a moment, several of the votes shot
their hands into the air. Despite Holt's warning, Cleatus
wanted to ask her, Why the hell do you need time? But he was
too angry to wave his arm for permission to speak like a god-
damn school kid.
For no apparent reason, Len indicated Silat. "Senior
Member Punjat Silat," he announced formally to Hyland,
"Combined Asian Islands and Peninsulas."
Ponderous with superiority and heart trouble, Silat
climbed to his feet. "Ensign Hyland," he offered sanctimo-
niously, "I will not delay you by describing how profoundly I
admire your resourcefulness and courage. However, we must
be clear on essential matters.
"Why does Calm Horizons pursue you? Why are the Am-
nion willing to risk a war in order to stop you?"
Morn had her answer ready. Unfortunately Cleatus felt
sure she would support Hannish's accusations.
"They know we have an antimutagen. They know we're
willing to broadcast it. They want to silence us if they can.
"And they want Davies." The strain in her voice gave the
impression that she held her arms locked over her chest.
"They were surprised by the results when he was force-
grown."
In fatigue and ire she explained, "Simply turning a fetus
into a physiologically mature organism isn't enough. The new
child needs a mind. Something to take the place of years of
development. With their own kind, they imprint the mind of
the host on the offspring. I guess it works for them. But in the
past it hasn't worked for human beings. When they tried it,
they lost the host. Apparently having your mind copied makes
you insane. I think it's a fear reaction.
"But I didn't go insane when my mind was copied. My
zone implant protected me. I had the control with me.
"They knew I had an implant. They could tell. But I
guess they never thought of using one that way. They don't
understand how fear affects humans." She signed. "So now
they think maybe they can use zone implants to let them copy
human minds onto Amnion. Or Amnion minds onto humans.
And they want to study Davies to find out how successful the
imprinting was."
Several of the sheep bleated aloud. Her explanation
seemed more plausible than Hannish's bald statement earlier:
it made the idea of Amnion that could pass as human look
real. But Silat received the information as if it were only of
academic interest. "Thank you, Ensign Hyland," he said im-
personally as he sank into his chair. "A fascinating insight."
The smug bastard was probably planning his next mono-
graph.
Damn it, Cleat, Holt insisted harshly, I want that kid!
He's perfect. I can make a deal—
As soon as I get the chance, Cleatus promised. After I've
torn her apart, even these morons will vote to decharter.
His grip on his bowels was so tight it made his chest hurt.
More hands. Len had reduced the Council to a kindergar-
ten class.
His choices made no sense. He recognized Vest Martin-
gale as if he felt sorry for her tarnished constituency; an-
nounced her to the room pickups.
Martingale stood up. "Ensign Hyland, where is Captain
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might shed some light."
Com-Mine was blamed everywhere for the passage of the
Preempt Act. Martingale wanted to know what Succorso might
say about Hashi Lebwohl and Milos Taverner.
"Captain Succorso is dead," Hyland answered flatly.
That was a blow to Martingale's desire for vindication.
"Dead?" she demanded. "What happened to him?"
"Member Martingale—" The woman sounded tired of
trying to account for herself. "When we left Deaner Beck-
mann's lab, we were under attack by Amnion surrogates and
mercenaries. Captain Thermopyle used a singularity grenade
to turn the battle. But Captain Succorso and Sib Mackern had
left the ship to attempt an EVA ambush. As far as I know, they
both died in the black hole."
"Wait a minute," Martingale shot back. "Captain Suc-
corso left the ship? After you made him prisoner?"
Cleatus hoped devoutly that Hyland would admit she'd
had Succorso murdered.
No such luck. "The ambush was his idea," she retorted.
"He thought he could damage one of the ships we were fight-
ing, an Amnion surrogate. And he had as much to lose as we
did. We let him try." For a moment her voice seemed to ache
in the gap between her pickup and the Council's speakers.
"Sib Mackern went along to make sure he didn't turn on us."
Martingale bit her lip in disappointment. "Thank you,
Ensign Hyland." She sat down heavily.
Another flurry of hands. The sheep seemed to thrive on
being treated like children.
Len surprised Cleatus by nodding to Igensard. "Special
Counsel Maxim Igensard," he told Hyland, "in proxy for
Eastern Union Senior Member Sen Abdullah."
Igensard jumped up so fast he almost tripped himself.
The misguided idiot probably wanted to redeem his credibility.
"Ensign Hyland," he began as if he meant to sneer but
had forgotten how, "you've had time to study the situation.
You've talked to Director Donner." They'd had plenty of op-
portunity to decide on a story. "You said—I assume you were
telling the truth—the transmission you received from Punisher
included two sets of contradictory instructions. In retrospect,
how do you account for that?"
He must have struck a nerve. Morn snapped, "Special
Counsel, I've come too far to waste my time lying to you."
But she didn't refuse to answer his question.
"The orders that gave Captain Thermopyle's codes to
Nick Succorso were perfectly clear. Anybody who received
that transmission would have understood them." Including,
presumably, Donner herself. And Punisher. "But the pro-
gramming which caused Captain Thermopyle to reveal his
codes to us was encrypted. It was written in a kind of embed-
ded machine language none of us recognized.
"We asked Director Donner if she had anything to do
with it. She states that UMCPHQ's transmission was relayed
exactly as the cruiser received it. Punisher's communications
log confirms this.
"The transmission was coded from Warden Dios. He
wrote it."
Oh, hell, Cleatus groaned in disappointment. She knew.
The damn woman had figured out what must have happened.
Why wasn't she dead, where she belonged?
As if she had the right to make such statements, she pro-



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nounced, "I believe that when Director Dios issued his plain
instructions he was carrying out someone else's orders. Or he
wanted to mislead someone he feared. The encrypted instruc-
tions represent his true intentions. He meant to foil whoever
wished Nick Succorso to have control of Angus.
"As far as I know," she finished in a spatter of static,
"the only man in human space who can give orders to the
director of the UMCP—or threaten him—is Holt Fasner."
Of course. Another accusation. But Cleatus didn't bother
to comment on it. He knew in his guts there was worse to
come.
Igensard made a desperate effort to recover his earlier
righteousness. "You're speculating, Ensign Hyland," he coun-
tered. "You can't prove any of that."
"True." She was sure of herself; so sure that she didn't
falter for a second. "But I can tell you this, Special Counsel.
"Captain Thermopyle has told me—and Director Donner
has confirmed—that DA wrote his programming explicitly to
prevent him from rescuing me. I was considered dangerous
because I could testify that he was framed. But I couldn't do
any harm as long as I was with Nick Succorso. If he didn't kill
me, someone else would. Unless Captain Thermopyle inter-
fered.
"So why am I alive?"
She paused as if she wanted to be sure all the votes were
listening. Then she said, "I'm alive because Captain
Thermopyle was given new orders. Just before he was released
from UMCPHQ, Warden Dios switched his datacore. His new
programming included instruction-sets which required him to
save me."
The bastard! Holt rasped in Cleatus' ear. So that's how he
did it. I knew she must have had help.
Fiercely Hyland concluded, "The Warden Dios who
wants me alive is not the same man who handed Captain
Thermopyle's priority-codes to Nick Succorso. Nick would
have cheerfully killed me. As soon as he could think of a way
to do it with enough pain and degradation.
"I'm here telling you my story because Warden Dios
made that possible."
Panting, Holt explained, He's been planning this ever
since he sent Thermopyle to Billingate—no, ever since he let
Succorso take that fucking woman off Com-Mine. By God, he
started to betray me months ago!
Cleatus shook his head in dismay, appalled by the realiza-
tion that Dios was so dangerous; so much more dangerous
than he'd ever imagined. Even when the bastard was stuck
aboard Calm Horizons, he worked through puppets like Hy-
land to ruin—
Igensard looked helplessly at Cleatus; but Cleatus offered
him no assistance. If he couldn't think of a way to attack
Hyland's assertions, that was his problem. His ambitions
meant nothing to the FEA.
"None of this makes sense, Ensign," Igensard protested
weakly. He was too distraught to notice that he was simply
feeding her the questions she wanted; helping her score her
points. "Dios has been the UMCP director for years. Why has
he started countermanding his own orders now?"
"Maybe," the woman retorted at once, "this is his first
real chance to show you that Holt Fasner isn't fit to be respon-
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into his seat.
Fit? Holt snarled into Cleatus' ear. His fury seethed like
Fane's guts. She doesn't think I'm fit? If I get my hands on
her, I'll teach her a thing or two about fit.
At the moment Cleatus could think of nothing he wanted
in life except to help Holt crucify Hyland. The votes had been
right on the edge of enacting his, Cleatus', proposal. Now he
would have to start the whole process again.
Gritting his teeth to curb his exasperation, he lifted his
hand like a good little boy.
Len ignored him. Goading him— The effete twit may
have wished to provoke an eruption so he could carry out his
threat to have Cleatus removed. Ing was stupidly eager to
obey.
Cleatus contained his indignation as Len recognized
Sixten Vertigus. At once Vertigus levered his old bones up-
right.
"It's an honor, Captain." Interference marred Hyland's
transmission, but she sounded sincere. "I wish we could have
met under other circumstances."
Inanely Vertigus flapped a hand she couldn't see. "The
honor's mine, Ensign." His voice wobbled. "You're a valiant
woman." With a visible effort he tightened his grip on himself
until he was able to speak more steadily. "I wish I could tell
you everything you've done will be worth what it cost. But
none of us are sure how this mess is going to turn out."
He looked at Hannish as if he were talking to her as well
as to Hyland.
"Director Hannish has told us Punisher's command mod-
ule is towing Trumpet to Calm Horizons. What's going on.
Ensign? Director Dios must have reached some kind of agree-
ment with the Amnion. We need to know what it is."
For the first time Morn hesitated. When she answered, her
tone had lost some of its certainty.
"We're responding to Calm Horizons' demands."
Apparently she wasn't sure how much she could afford to
let the votes know.
Her caution brought Cleatus to the edge of his seat. In-
stinct told him that she was about to give him the opening he
needed.
Vertigus frowned. He didn't know how to take Hyland's
response. "I assume you've been in contact with Director
Dios."
"We've talked to him, yes," Hyland said distantly.
"Is he all right?"
Again she hesitated. "He sounds all right."
Static surrounded her words like an aura. What she said—
or what she meant—was embedded in it. Nevertheless Cleatus
thought he heard hints of distress through the distortion.
Vertigus missed them. Or he believed that what he wanted
to know was more important. Instead of probing her hesita-
tion, he rephrased his question.
"What did he tell you to do?"
"He didn't tell us to do anything." Her discomfort made
her impatient; cryptic. "He relayed Calm Horizons' demands.
Now we're responding to them."
Vertigus scrubbed his face with both hands like a man
trying to wake himself up. "Forgive me, Ensign. You aren't
being clear. Or I'm being stupid." Bingo. "Do you mean to
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nion?"
Hyland sighed. "That's right."
"But if he didn't," the old fool protested, "who did?
Somebody must have. Isn't your command module on the way
to Calm Horizons? With Trumpet?"
An instant of silence from the transmission conveyed the
impression that Hyland tapped depleted reserves; summoned
the last of her strength. Then she said harshly, "I did, Cap-
tain."
Vertigus gaped at the speakers. Most of the sheep did the
same. His voice cracked as he demanded, "On whose author-
ity?"
"On mine," she snapped. "I'm in command here." A
woman on the brink of an abyss. "I have the bridge. I stopped
taking Warden Dios' orders when he abandoned me to Nick
Succorso. We're responding to Calm Horizons on my author-
ity.
"Ask UMCPHQ Center," she finished. "They'll confirm
it."
If Cleatus hadn't been forewarned, he would have been as
shocked as the votes. Fortunately he was ready. He'd known
for some time that Hyland commanded Punisher. By intuition
he'd grasped the implications.
A mere ensign had arrogated to herself the responsibility
for humankind's survival. And for keeping the Council alive.
Exactly the opening he needed.
Before anyone in the room could speak, the speakers
emitted the metallic pop of a toggled pickup.
"I'll confirm it," a new voice barked; another woman.
Cleatus recognized her as soon as she said her name.
"This is Min Donner, UMCP Acting Director, aboard
Punisher. Ensign Morn Hyland is in command of this vessel,
She and Captain Thermopyle took the bridge when they came
aboard.
"And it's a damn good thing they did." Intensity clanged
like iron in her voice, but Cleatus couldn't interpret it. Fury?
Desperation? "She's negotiated an arrangement that may ac-
tually keep you alive. Which is more than I could have done. If
it were up to me, we would all have fried by now."
Vertigus struggled to control his chagrin. "Acting Direc-
tor, this is Captain Vertigus. What arrangement?"
I swear, Holt spat, every idiot in human space works for
Ward. He's pulling too many strings. If we don't start to cut
them soon—
He didn't finish the warning. He didn't need to. Cleatus
understood him perfectly.
As if she were stifling curses, Donner replied, "Calm Ho-
rizons has agreed to leave without shooting at us. Morn has
agreed to let them have Davies Hyland, Vector Shaheed, and
Trumpet. Captain Ubikwe is using the command module to
keep our part of the bargain.
"Davies is her son," she asserted. She must have thought
that was important.
Before Vertigus—or Len—could challenge her, she
snapped, "Donner out," and silenced her pickup with a vio-
lent click.
Cleatus feared that Punisher's transmission had been cut
off. But the cavernous hiss and spatter of the speakers told him
the channel was still open.
Go! Holt ordered. Now!
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too shaken to find words. And Len seemed to founder in con-
fusion. None of the other Members knew what to do.
The FEA didn't say a word; didn't give Len any excuse to
remove him. Leaping to his feet, he flung his hand like a mute
shout at the President.
Hannish opened her mouth to object, then bit it shut
again.
Under the circumstances, Len couldn't refuse. His gaze
flinched and wavered in alarm. Apparently he needed his grip
on the podium to keep him upright.
"Ensign Hyland—" The words stuck in his throat. He
swallowed thickly, then tried again. "Ensign, will you answer
a question from UMC First Executive Assistant Cleatus
Fane?"
The damn woman may have thought she no longer had
anything to fear. "We're on a countdown here, Mr. Presi-
dent." Already her attention seemed to be elsewhere. "He's
got two minutes.''
Len turned a look like a groan at Cleatus. "Mr. Fane."
Cleatus fought down his squirming trepidation. Quietly,
hiding his hopes, he asked, "Ensign Hyland, you said Director
Dios 'sounds all right.' I get the impression you aren't sure.
Why not? What're you worried about?"
That got her. She hesitated again. The background noise
of the speakers suggested groping.
His heart thudded without mercy while he waited.
Abruptly she answered, "The Amnion have a special
mutagen, Mr. Fane." Her voice had changed. It carried an
ache Cleatus couldn't name. "A delayed-reaction mutagen. It
doesn't start to work until ten minutes or so after it's been
injected. And they have an antidote. It's not a cure. It just
keeps the mutagen inert. As long as you have the antidote in
your system, you don't mutate. As soon as it runs out, you
turn into an Amnioni.
"They use this mutagen for blackmail. They inject you
with it. Then you do what they say, or they don't give you the
antidote. We know about it because it was done to one of us.
Ciro Vasaczk."
She paused, groping again, then admitted softly, "We're
concerned that Director Dios may be under that kind of pres-
sure.
"He says he has a suicide capsule. I don't doubt him. But
I'm not sure even that would be enough to protect him."
There Cleatus identified the change in her voice. It was a
note of farewell. She'd already given up hope for Warden
Dios.
Good-bye.
And good riddance.
That was all Cleatus needed from her.
He remained on his feet, even though his question had
been answered, and votes around him flapped their arms like
scarecrows. From the knotted tension in his guts to the throb-
bing pulse in his temples, he was sure that Hyland hadn't told
the truth; not the whole truth.
He believed her "concern" for Dios. He knew that much
of what she'd said was dangerously accurate. But she'd stated
more than once that she felt pressed for time. She'd just an-
nounced, We're on a countdown here. Earlier she'd said, We
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If her side of her bargain with Calm Horizons could be
fulfilled by her kid, Shaheed, and Trumpet, what else did she
have to do? What countdown was she talking about?
She was keeping secrets. Plotting something. Lying—
He conveyed this to Holt; but it didn't disturb him. In
fact, he was counting on it. Let her try any desperate trick she
could think of: on Calm Horizons; on UMCPHQ; on Holt.
Cleatus didn't care. Not as long as she shut up and let him get
to work.
There was a moment of confusion while Len scanned the
room, trying to decide which of the sheep he should recognize
next. Then Hyland took the choice away from him.
"Mr. President," she announced roughly, "I can't afford
any more time. I hope I can tell my story in more detail when
this is over."
Before Len could reply, she said, "Punisher out."
At once her transmission disappeared from the speakers.
Cold space punctuated by particle noise took its place until
Len's aide closed the channel. Then the Council's link to the
contest of ships far overhead was gone.
Finally!
The sheep turned glazed, vacuous stares toward each
other, stunned by their own incomprehension. Vertigus fum-
bled at a console he apparently didn't know how to use. Han-
nish watched Len with her legs poised under her, no doubt
champing for a chance to point out how neatly Hyland's story
supported hers. Burnish and Manse consulted urgently with
each other. Martingale hissed fury at her aides like a woman
who wanted to tell the entire created universe that Com-Mine
had been maligned. Carsin kept her horrified gaze on her Se-
nior Member, Vertigus, as if she thought he might start to
show signs of mutation.
Cleatus' downlink told him that Punisher's command
module was thirty-eight minutes away from Calm Horizons.
"Mr. President," he ventured, "may I address the Coun-
cil?"
He'd lost ground; a lot of it. That was obvious. Anything
which confirmed Hannish's facts suggested the illogical impli-
cation that her conclusions were also accurate. Most of the
votes were too stupid to tell the difference between evidence
and inference. Martingale had gone over to the enemy. Carsin
was wavering. Hell, even Igensard had collapsed.
But Morn Hyland had given Cleatus the opening he
needed.
With an air of defeat, Len conceded the floor. He seemed
to be the only one in the room besides Cleatus who'd grasped
the significance of Hyland's last revelation.
"Thank you, Mr. President." This time the FEA left his
place and ascended the dais. Now it was essential for him to
dominate the Council. He took any advantage he could get:
elevation; physical presence; fear.
With an effort of will that made him sweat, he kept his
tone mild. He would lose even more ground if any hint of his
underlying desperation showed; if he betrayed by any word or
inflection or gesture that he was fighting for his life.
Some of the votes were hostile. But most of them were
simply frightened; scared out of their small minds by proton
cannon and mutation and treason. Deliberately Cleatus set
himself to direct their fear where it would do the most good.
"Members, it's time for action." The voice of reason,
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Hyland's story has made that obvious. It's urgent that you
reach a decision now. As she said herself, if you don't act
before Punisher's command module and Trumpet reach Calm
Horizons, nothing you do will make a difference.
"You don't need me to tell you that it's the task of this
body and this session to make a difference."
Determined to succeed, he forced himself to relax against
the podium.
"You have two choices. Only two, that I can see. The
UWB Senior Member's Bill of Severance. Or my proposal to
decharter the UMCP so that they can be rechartered with a
new director. You must pass one or the other.
"Unfortunately"—Cleatus sighed with false regret—"I
think a Bill of Severance has just ceased to be an option."
He was the Dragon's First Executive Assistant. Even his
enemies didn't presume to treat him the way Hannish had been
treated: interrupted and hectored at every turn. Only Len had
dared insult him—and the weak little man clearly had no in-
tention of doing so again. The votes who were dependent on
the UMC hung on his every word, waiting for him to save
them from their dilemma. Those who weren't actively hostile
gave him a chance to persuade them. And the rest didn't risk
offending him.
With nothing except Holt's voice to distract him, Cleatus
was allowed to speak for his master unimpeded.
"The whole point of such a bill," he explained, "is that
it preserves the present hierarchy, operations, and personnel of
the UMCP. It shifts accountability from the UMC to the
GCES. Everything else is maintained intact.
"In other words," he stated heavily, "Warden Dios re-
mains as director."
He sighed again. "Well, you heard Ensign Hyland. She's
'concerned' that Director Dios is being blackmailed. And I,
for one, take her concerns seriously. I think she knows what
she's talking about.
"To be injected with a delayed-reaction mutagen would
be a terrible thing. But it would be even more terrible to let a
man in that condition keep his job."
Good, Holt murmured. Don't stop.
In case the sheep weren't scared enough, Cleatus asked,
"Do any of you think you could stand up to that kind of
blackmail? Do you think Warden Dios can? For myself, I'm
not sure.
"If you aren't sure," he asserted, "it would be inexcus-
able to let him stay on as director."
Vertigus fluttered an arm like a drowning man; tried to
inject a protest. The idiot refused to give up. Even Hannish
had enough sense to hang her head; but Vertigus went on
floundering.
Cleatus talked over him.
"Captain Vertigus wants to suggest an alternative. Per-
haps an amendment to his Bill, stipulating that Min Donner
assumes the position of UMCP director until the immediate
crisis is past, and Warden Dios can go to a lab for some blood-
work." The look on Sixten's face showed that Cleatus had
guessed right. "I'm sorry, that isn't good enough. Min Donner
is aboard Punisher, a ship she doesn't command. Her own life
is in the hands of renegade cops who may or may not be
telling us the truth about what they want.
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are not. I'll get to that in a minute."
Then he resumed, "My point is this. If she can't control
her own movements, or make her own decisions, she certainly
can't take charge of the UMCP.
"And who else is there?" Grimly he restrained his im-
pulse to shout the sheep into flight. "Director Lebwohl? Do
you want him to command our defense? No, I'm afraid a Bill
of Severance is no longer a viable alternative."
Argue with that, you silly bastards. I dare you.
Enough, Holt pronounced. They're convinced. Unless
they're too stupid to live. Go on before you lose them.
Cleatus swore mutely at the voice in his ear; but he
obeyed.
"On the other side"—visceral outrage gave his voice an
edge he couldn't suppress—"Director Hannish has raised
some rather distressing objections to my proposal. She blames
virtually every crime the cops have committed on Holt Fasner.
"For her part, Ensign Hyland doesn't go quite so far. She
only accuses Holt Fasner of wanting her dead so she can't
testify that Captain Thermopyle was framed—of wanting her
dead so badly that he ordered Director Dios to give control
over DA's welded cyborg to Nick Succorso.
"I'll respond to those charges."
He paused to let his anger grow. If he couldn't contain it,
he might as well use it. Still he chose his words carefully.
"I think we'll have to take Director Hannish's facts as
given. Ensign Hyland has confirmed a number of them. And
since she's safely sequestered aboard Punisher, we can't ex-
amine her evidence. Because we have so little time left, we
must assume that Director Hannish, at least, has told us the
truth."
As it appears to her, Holt prompted unnecessarily.
"As it appears to her," Cleatus intoned.
"I've already talked about this. I don't want to belabor
the obvious. Everything Director Hannish has revealed was
supplied by Director Dios—the man directly responsible for
the crimes she reports. And she can't prove any of her charges.
They're all based on inference and distrust.
"Do you believe her? As I said earlier, consider the
source. Warden Dios betrayed Com-Mine Security, framed
Angus Thermopyle, tricked you into passing the Preempt Act.
He suppressed an effective antimutagen and maneuvered the
Amnion into committing an act of war. And now he's been
caught. He's stuck in a mess of his own making. So of course
he wants to pin the blame on someone else. That's his only
hope." The FEA's tone hinted at bloodshed. "He knows he'll
be executed if he can't convince you he was just following
orders.
   "What else do you expect from a man who's capable of
the crimes Warden Dios has committed?"
He paused, trying to give his question the force of an
indictment. Then he went on, "It's a fact Director Hannish
can't dispute that Warden Dios has refused to speak to Holt
Fasner since this crisis began. And for almost twenty-four
hours before that he kept himself incommunicado. He's de-
clined to explain himself or his actions to the one man in
human space who could have held him accountable."
Good, Holt murmured in approval. Good.
Since Holt was satisfied, Cleatus took the next step.
"Where Ensign Hyland is concerned, I'm not convinced
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Now he did his best to sound rueful: the sorrow of a man
who hated impugning Hyland after all she'd suffered, but
whose responsibility to the Council left him no choice.
"Again consider the source.
"For one thing, she's patently insane." He ticked off in-
dications at random. "She kept her zone implant control. She
let the Amnion force-grow her baby. She broadcast Dr.
Shaheed's formula while Calm Horizons could hear it. She
freed Thermopyle from his priority-codes. She took command
of Punisher.
"Which she must have done at gunpoint," he added. "Or
by threatening them with those singularity grenades. I can't
imagine that Min Donner would have let it happen otherwise."
Then he continued tallying the evidence against Morn
Hyland. "In addition, she took it on herself to negotiate for
our survival. And she sold her own son to keep herself alive."
That was enough. "It's all madness. And this lunatic theory
linking Holt Fasner with Nick Succorso proves it. After every-
thing she's done and endured, she's plainly demented."
Be careful, Holt warned. The votes feel sorry for her.
Don't give them a reason to react the wrong way.
"But that's not all," Cleatus said at once. "If it were, I
wouldn't mention it. Who am I to question her decisions after
everything she's been through? I have to ask, however"—he
made a show of shouldering an unpleasant burden—"exactly
what is her relationship with Angus Thermopyle?"
He had the satisfaction of seeing the Hannish bitch wince.
The rest of his audience stared at him, rapt or dumbfounded.
"She concealed evidence that would have led to his exe-
cution by Com-Mine. She freed him from his priority-codes.
And did you notice that her deal with Calm Horizons doesn't
include him?
"What's going on here? Is this an example of the hostage
syndrome, where women fall in love with the men who trap
and abuse them? Since she admits the crime of keeping her
zone implant control, how can we believe her when she says
Thermopyle was framed? Her only evidence conveniently ex-
ists in the datacore of a ship which has already been disman-
tled.
"She's a cop. She knew what she was doing. Like War-
den Dios, she's ruined if she can't pin the blame on someone
else."
Damn it, Holt snapped, I told you to be careful!
Gritting his teeth, Cleatus forged ahead. "And isn't it
really Angus Thermopyle who's in command of Punisher?
That would make more sense. He has some strange power over
Ensign Hyland. He has singularity grenades. And he has a
reason—he might call it a good reason—to hold Punisher as
well as Director Donner under duress. He's a welded cyborg.
He may be slime, but he's had every vestige of choice and
dignity stripped away from him. He must want revenge. He
wouldn't be human if he didn't.
"Everything you just heard from Ensign Hyland—includ-
ing her implausible 'deal' with Calm Horizons—could be
Angus Thermopyle's revenge. If he wants to destroy the
UMCP for what they did to him, he could hardly hope for a
better way to go about it.
"Why do you think the scan net is down? Do you really
believe Min Donner ordered that? Do you believe it actually
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fectiveness of our ships? I don't. I think the net is down be-
cause that suits what Captain Thermopyle has in mind."
Nice recovery, Holt gibed. He sounded more cheerful.
I'm convinced.
Just wait, Cleatus muttered into his pickup. I'm not done.
"But even that's not all," he told the votes. "There are
two other points I want you to consider.
"According to Ensign Hyland, the Amnion had her in
their hands twice. What if she's lying about the effectiveness
of this antimutagen? What if it didn't come from DA, isn't
based on Shaheed's research? What if the Amnion have al-
ready gotten what they wanted from Davies Hyland? What if
the whole story is a fabrication?
"What if Morn Hyland is no longer human? What if this
entire disaster is some incomprehensible Amnion plot to dis-
credit the UMCP and Holt Fasner just when we need them
most?"
Are you listening, bitch? he asked Hannish mutely. Do
you think you have a monopoly on tainting people with unsub-
stantiated charges?
Shit, Cleat! Holt yelped. I warned you to be careful!
You've gone too far. They don't want to hear that!
He was right. Some of the sheep muttered protests. Manse
mouthed, No, no, in shock and refusal. Burnish exchanged
whispered objections with his aides and Carsin. Len shifted
forward as if he meant to intervene. Just loudly enough to be
heard, Silat observed, "This charade seems rather too elabo-
rate and—if I may say so—too human to be attributed to the
Amnion."
Quickly Cleatus retreated a step. "It's just speculation, of
course," he admitted with apparent candor. "It would explain
a lot—but I really don't have a scrap of evidence. Hell, I don't
have any way of knowing where Succorso got his antimutagen.
Or how good it is. But if I were a Member of this Council,"
he added sententiously, "I would want to take every possibil-
ity into account, no matter how farfetched it sounds."
That mollified the votes somewhat. Manse and Len sub-
sided. Silat inclined his head condescendingly. After a mo-
ment Burnish silenced himself like a man biting his tongue.
Behind her expressionless mask, Hannish's face was pal-
lid with misery. She seemed to think he'd already won.
He wasn't sure. Hurrying to recover his momentum, he
stated, "One more point, and I'll sit down. I've saved this for
last, but it may be more important than all the others."
Some of the sheep groaned; but he ignored them.
"I said earlier we have reason to think Hyland may be
lying. Actually, I'm sure she is." Before Hannish or Vertigus
could react, he asserted, "She hasn't told us the truth about
her deal with Calm Horizons."
He hoped his audience would hear the words he didn't
say: And if she's willing to lie about that, she could lie about
anything.
"Obviously she's under some kind of pressure," he ex-
plained. "Otherwise why did she say, 'I can't afford any more
time.' At first we all thought she was referring to the deadline
of the command module's dock with Calm Horizons. But
that's still twenty-two minutes away," according to his down-
link, "and yet she couldn't 'afford any more time' ten minutes
ago.
"Why is she out of time? It doesn't make sense. If she
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exchange for Davies Hyland, Dr. Shaheed, and Trumpet—
what's left for her to do? What can she do?
"There's only one explanation." Abruptly he stiffened;
let veiled outrage into his voice. "She has something planned.
Something she doesn't want us to know about. Something that
will have a direct effect on the outcome of this crisis.
"It may be she intends to cheat Calm Horizons some-
how," he suggested bitterly. "Or it's possible she's actually
agreed to give away a hell of a lot more than she admits. For
all we know, we've been doomed without the decency of any
forewarning. Or maybe we'll have to live with an arrangement
that's too expensive for humankind to sustain.
"She's crazy, remember. Whether you want to hear that
or not, she's crazy.
"Whatever happens," he sneered, "it will happen be-
cause an abused ensign took it into her head to negotiate our
survival on terms she isn't willing to explain."
All right, Cleat, Holt put in. You've made your point.
Now let them vote. We can still pull this off.
Cleatus couldn't stop. "Am I the only one," he de-
manded harshly, "who can smell Angus Thermopyle's reek in
all this?"
Yet he had to stop. Holt was right: the time had come. If
the bastards couldn't make up their minds now, they were
beyond hope. They deserved any terrible thing that happened
to them.
But, God! Cleatus Fane did not want to share their fate.
Suddenly he felt as tired as Len looked. "Members," he
sighed, "I've answered your objections as well as I can. It's
up to you. The future of our species has to be decided now."
Heavily he left the dais, returned to his seat. For a mo-
ment he had no idea where matters stood. Exhaustion filled
him like defeat, and he couldn't begin to estimate the mood of
the Council. There must have been more he could have said;
some better way to meet Holt's demands; some sentence or
argument that would have turned the fear of the sheep to his
purposes. He simply couldn't imagine what it might be. He'd
done his best. Now he had to leave his personal terror in the
hands of a gaggle of twits and cowards.
When he heard Len ask for a motion from the floor, how-
ever, and saw how the votes treated his proposal to recharter
the UMCP, he knew that he would live.
CIRO
Ciro Vasaczk knew he was
insane; but the fact didn't
trouble him. He had more important things on his mind.
First among them was Calm Horizons.
The huge defensive was still half an hour away when he
and Angus climbed out of Trumpet's airlock in their EVA
suits; cleated their belts to the gap scout's sun-streaked metal
skin; settled themselves to wait.
"They won't spot us," Angus had assured him earlier. "I
can emit jamming fields. Several kinds. They'll cover me.
Both of us while we're together. After that you're on your
own. But you'll be under their targ range. Behind the module
and Trumpet. And they'll be distracted. You should be safe
enough.
"I want to get out there early."
The sweat in his voice told Ciro he was lying; coercing
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Angus was terrified of EVA; of being confined and helpless in
the vast dark. His breathing wheezed hoarsely from his inter-
com.
"That bastard's so big—I need time to study her. Figure
out the dangers. Plan my moves."
Ciro hadn't argued. He had moves of his own to plan.
From the lift to the airlock and then outside, he'd followed
Angus.
There he got his first human look at his enemy.
Because the solar furnace would have scalded his eyes in
their sockets, he'd dialed the polarization of his visor high. As
a result, Calm Horizons seemed to loom ahead like a dark
beast crouching in the unutterable night of space; a predator
poised to spring from the concealment of midnight. Neverthe-
less he could see her clearly enough. Lights blazed from ports,
emplacements, airlocks: she already had spotlights and video
fixed on the approaching vessels; already had the dock she
intended for the command module etched in illumination.
Despite the shroud of blackness, she revealed enough of
herself to show him that she was enormous. Her bulk blotted
out half the heavens, and the few stars he could see past the
rim of her hull looked paltry and unattainable, like forgotten
dreams.
The sight scared him. Calm Horizons was his doom; as
fatal as mutagens and proton cannon fire. But that didn't shake
his commitment. It didn't shake his trust in Angus.
The Amnioni meant to use Davies and Vector against hu-
mankind. On top of that, she was the only available source for
the particular antimutagen which had kept Sorus Chatelaine
human.
She was responsible for what Sorus Chatelaine did to
him.
He could make out UMCPHQ as well, a torus of steel
half-licked by sunfire. The orbital platform showed lights of all
kinds, as if the cops thought they could manage the dark by
emblazoning their place in it. Vaguely Ciro recognized that
UMCPHQ was an altogether bigger construct than the defen-
sive. But distance shrank the station: light shrank it by limning
it so precisely. UMCPHQ merely caught the sun and gleamed:
Calm Horizons dominated the cold gulf between the planets.
Other sparks too close for stars indicated more ships, ac-
cording to Angus—part of Min Donner's cordon. Other sta-
tions must have been out there, too. If Ciro squinted against
the sunlight past Trumpet's stern, he could identify Punisher's
obscure shape, nearly lost in the dark. But he paid no attention
to the cruiser. On those occasions when he felt afraid, and
wanted to look away from Calm Horizons, he preferred to turn
toward the bright planet hanging like a backdrop beyond
UMCPHQ.
Earth.
Sunshine burned blue across the wide oceans, picked is-
lands and continents like brown intaglio out of the azure. By
some trick of the light, or his visor's polarization, he couldn't
see any clouds. The whole lambent atmosphere of the planet
seemed untrammeled, as clean as the seas, warm, welcoming
—and utterly defenseless; exposed to violence.
Ciro had never witnessed in person the effects of a super-
light proton beam; but he knew enough physics to imagine
Calm Horizons' cannon striking a shaft of ruin into the heart
of one of those brown, populated features and reducing it to
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far greater than his.
He wasn't born there. Neither were his parents. But their
parents were. It was his planet. His genetic code remembered
it, even though his mind held no recollection. Belted to Trum-
pet's skin while the command module towed her toward Calm
Horizons, he was as near as he would ever come to his
homeworld.
If he and Angus failed, that ineffable, aching swath of
blue would become humanity's graveyard.
For the third time Angus checked Ciro's anchor. It was
always possible that the approach protocols Calm Horizons
assigned would force Captain Ubikwe to use thrust suddenly.
Ciro's belt was secure. He wasn't crazy in a way that
made him think he could hold on with just his hands.
"You know what to do?" Angus' voice gasped inside his
helmet. "You're sure?"
Ciro understood that the Amnioni couldn't hear them on
this channel. He and Angus were linked to each other, and to
Trumpet and the command module, by specialized frequencies
which the enemy wouldn't recognize. Still, he wished Angus
didn't talk so much. The sound in his ears made him feel
exposed, as if words might betray him to the defensive.
He hefted his impact rifle. It was secured to his belt by a
flexsteel line. "The hatch is open," he breathed softly. Angus
had opened it before they left Punisher. "Everything's ready.
I won't let you down."
To some extent that was a lie. He'd already figured out
exactly how he would disobey Angus' orders.
Angus knew the truth, of course. He grasped everything
else. But for Mikka's sake—or his own—he acted like he ex-
pected Ciro to do what he was told.
"Make sure you don't," he panted back. "I don't care
how crazy you are. We can't afford any screwups."
Angus himself was only armed with a pair of laser cut-
ters. He carried nothing else except an extra EVA suit strapped
to his back and a heavy canister of plexulose hull-sealant
clipped to his belt. If Ciro hadn't trusted him, the boy would
have wondered how much damage Angus could do with such
puny weapons.
"Leave him alone, Angus," Mikka muttered from Trum-
pet's bridge: automatic protectiveness, with no force behind it.
"If he does screw up, you won't die any faster than he does."
"You like the view out there?" Captain Ubikwe asked
before Angus could reply. He spoke in a soothing rumble,
trying to defuse tension between Angus and Mikka. "They tell
me it's spectacular, but I don't enjoy it much. I guess I've
spent too much time behind metal walls. Open space makes
me want to puke."
"Then it's a good thing you don't have my job, fat man,"
Angus croaked. He might have been choking.
"Damn straight." Captain Ubikwe sounded cheerful; al-
most happy. "I'm fine where I am."
If everything else went wrong, he was supposed to cut
Trumpet loose and try to ram Calm Horizons' proton emitter.
Apparently he didn't mind imagining that kind of death.
Ciro disapproved. He felt diminished by Captain
Ubikwe's good humor. He was sure the captain didn't trust
him.
"I wish you would all shut up," he put in petulantly. He
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have enough to think about."
To his surprise, both Mikka and Captain Ubikwe fell si-
lent.
Angus didn't. But Ciro had heard it all before: to some
extent he could tune it out. Instead of listening, he concen-
trated on Calm Horizons—and on the woman, Soar's captain,
who had made him what he was.
In some sense he'd fallen in love with her. She'd injected
a mutagen into his veins. She'd ordered him to destroy Trum-
pet. Now she was dead—and he'd failed to carry out her
wishes. He was bound to her by attachments as intimate as
passion.
He considered himself responsible for her epitaph; the
way she would be remembered. Because she owned him, the
outcome of her life was his to define, and he meant to do it
justice.
He intended to follow her example in directions she
would never have dreamed were possible.
LANE
Lane Harbinger felt poleaxed
by exhaustion—a discon-
certing sensation for a woman who often lived on an exclusive
diet of artificial stimulants. She hardly knew what to do with
herself. Should she put her head down? Close her eyes? That
was tempting. But then she would miss—
Instead she lit another nic, gulped down the remains of a
flask of coffee laced with hype, and stumbled away from her
console toward the lab foodvend for a refill.
Strange— She could hardly keep her balance. Her knees
no longer seemed to hinge normally, and her feet had an im-
precise relationship with the floor. Had she ever been this
tired? Ever in her life? She couldn't remember.
That, too, was strange. She liked to think of herself as a
woman who remembered everything.
She must have been expecting some kind of epiphany.
Some small blaze of vindication. Perhaps just a little shaft of
triumph. Maybe that was why she felt so disoriented. Nothing
of the sort had happened. Her eyes had simply lost their ability
to focus, and a minor vertigo had begun to tug delicately at the
side of her head.
Reality as she'd always known it had just undergone a
radical transformation—and all she could think of to do about
it was lie down.
She needed hype. Caffeine. Hell, she needed IV stim.
Maybe then she would be able to sort out the situation.
After a couple swallows of coffee, which the foodvend
supplied hot enough to raise blisters on anyone else's tongue,
she noticed that Hashi was ranting.
He stormed back and forth in front of Chief Mandich as if
he thought Mandich might appreciate why he was so incensed
—as if he'd forgotten that Mandich was Enforcement Divi-
sion, therefore brain-numb almost by definition. For a moment
all Lane heard were dissociated accusations like "irresponsi-
bility" and "arrogance" and "monomania." Monomania, ha!
He was a fine one to talk. But then she concentrated harder
and recognized several words in a row.
"—refused to authorize a channel!"
Something like nausea squirmed in Lane's stomach. She
felt her disorientation getting worse.
"I'm sure Director Donner has a good reason," the Chief
of Security retorted stiffly. He should have been as tired as


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Lane was, but he didn't look it. Instead he looked like he
wanted to hit Hashi.
"Of course she has a good reason!" Hashi fumed back.
"She is the acting director of the UMCP"—he sneered the
words—"and she's developed a passion for it. She adores
control. Is that not what ED is for?" He flailed his scrawny
arms. "Henceforward no one will be allowed to breathe or
think or shit his pants without Her Lordship's authorization!"
Lane was vaguely amazed to hear herself ask, "What's
going on, Hashi?" She hadn't realized that she could muster
the strength for any more confusion.
He wheeled on her with such vehemence that his glasses
slipped off his nose. He caught them expertly in midair, how-
ever, and slapped them back onto his face.
"Min Donner, in her vast wisdom," he snarled savagely,
"refuses to let me contact Koina."
Oh, dear. That was a problem. What was it all for, every-
thing she and Hashi and Mandich had done, if they weren't
allowed to tell the Council about it?
But Mandich snapped, "That's not true, and you know
it." The brainless fidelity of Min Donner's underlings was
legendary. "She didn't say you can't have a channel. She said
you can't have a channel until she gives the word. Until she's
ready."
"A distinction without a difference." Hashi seethed and
spat with exasperation like a beaker of fulminating acid. "Our
efforts are wasted. As is the ordeal Koina has been forced to
undergo without evidence. And I can scarcely bear to contem-
plate the consequences for Warden, who has labored with such
cunning to bring about precisely these circumstances.
"Min Donner," he asserted bitterly, "grasps neither the
significance nor the urgency of what we have accomplished!"
The Chief's fists strained in front of him. Lane wondered
whether he would actually strike Hashi. If he didn't, she wor-
ried that he might start to trash the lab.
If he did, what would she do? Call ED Security? Ha! That
was a joke.
"Bullshit," he snorted. "I'm sure she understands it as
well as you do. If she doesn't, it's because you didn't explain
it to her. You're so goddamn cryptic"—he punched at the
word as if it meant dishonest—"you can't answer a straight
question, or tell a straight truth."
Hashi brushed that accusation aside. It might have been
as insubstantial as the smoke from Lane's nic.
Suddenly he rounded on Mandich. "But you could req a
channel for me. As Chief of ED Security, and acting ED direc-
tor, you have the authority. Center will obey you.
"You need not tell them why you desire a channel. Your
general duties will suffice as explanation." His voice snarled
like a hive of wasps. "You have it in your hands to redeem the
UMCP as well as Warden Dios."
The Chief stared back in disbelief. Then his face closed.
"Go to hell, Lebwohl. I'll see you dead first.
"Do you think I like being the man who let a kaze get
Godsen Frik?" Dark fury gathered in his eyes. "The man who
missed Alt? I've got so much goddamn responsibility for this
mess I can hardly carry it around. If I screw up again, I might
as well be dead. I'll sure as hell be useless.
"The only thing I know is my duty. I get my orders from
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by letting you pressure me into insubordination."
"But I must talk to the Council!'' Hashi yelled.
To her amazement, Lane thought she heard desperation in
his voice.
She sighed. Her gaze slipped out of focus. He and
Mandich blurred into the background.
He wanted to talk to the Council. He loved to talk. Some-
times she suspected that he loved talk more than life.
Thinly she murmured, "Maybe she has a reason." Where
had that idea come from? "One you haven't thought of."
But Hashi didn't react with the same indignation he
heaped on Mandich. She'd snagged his attention somehow. He
stared at her with his mouth open; bit it shut. The smears on
his lenses caught the light in streaks.
"A reason I haven't thought of?" With unexpected re-
straint, he asked, "Such as?"
He may have recognized that she was nearly comatose.
She levered her shoulders into a shrug. "Your guess is as
good as mine." After a momentary lapse she added, "She
knows more about what's going on than you do."
Mandich nodded fiercely.
Hashi peered at her as if he, too, couldn't focus his eyes.
Or couldn't believe what he saw. In an ominous wheeze, he
inquired, "Are you suggesting that I must trust Min Donner?"
"I'm suggesting that," Mandich rasped.
Hashi and Lane ignored him.
"You picked her as acting director." Lane wasn't quite
sure why she considered this relevant. "I didn't." She seemed
to be speaking in her sleep.
"Is her high-handedness my doing?" Hashi protested
querulously. But at once he flapped his hands to dismiss the
question. "I take your point, however. Why did I ask her to
assume my duties, if I was reluctant to trust her? If I was
wrong then, I can hardly correct the error now.
"It follows, as you say, that I'm forced to guess what her
reason might be. Otherwise I run the risk of undermining her"
—he flung a glare at Mandich—"presumably commendable
intentions."
"My God," the Security Chief muttered to himself, "an
outbreak of reason. I can't believe it."
Hashi didn't reply. He might not have heard Mandich.
Hooking his glasses off his face, he held them with one finger
while he rubbed the heels of his palms into his eyes, trying to
grind his vision clear.
Obliquely Lane remembered the flask of coffee in her
hands. She lifted it to her mouth—it seemed to come up from
an astonishing distance—and emptied it. Damn, it was already
cold. She needed the burn to help her concentrate. Time for a
refill.
She got as far as discarding the butt of her nic and light-
ing another. Then she forgot what she was about to do.
Hashi had put his glasses back on. "Very well," he said
as soon as she looked at him. "If she claims the right to
choose when the Council will be addressed, I will determine
who speaks for us." He squared his shoulders. "Attend your
pickup, Lane." He pointed toward her console. "When Direc-
tor Donner allows us a channel, you will contact Director Han-
nish."
She nearly fell. Her flask did: when her fingers went
numb, it slipped away from her and clanged plaintively on the
deck. Had she dropped her nic as well? She must have. It


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wasn't in either of her hands. She couldn't feel its reassurance
between her lips.
Without warning tears began to stream down her face.
"No," she groaned. "Hashi, please. I can't. I'm too—"
All at once she knew exactly what kind of vindication she
wanted. She wanted to sit quietly and listen while someone
else used the results of her work to make a difference. If she
took that risk herself, it would all fall apart.
"You're out of your mind, Lebwohl," Mandich objected.
"Look at her. She can barely stand."
"You must," Hashi insisted through her tears. "I am
forced to guess at Min's intentions. Therefore I speculate that
they concern credibility. She hopes to choose a moment when
the Council will be receptive to our evidence.
"But if that is a valid concern, then it is also valid to
consider how our evidence is presented. And I am—"
He faltered. For a moment he couldn't speak. He had to
move closer to her, stand right in front of her, before he could
go on.
"I'm tainted, Lane." She had the odd impression that he
was humbling himself: a sacrifice he made for the sake of
something more important. "In recent days I've issued too
many statements which the Council—and most especially
FEA Cleatus Fane—will deem falsehoods. No doubt I'm per-
ceived as Warden's creature, in service to him rather than to
the facts. If he has committed treason, then I have also. That
argument will be used to erode the impact of my testimony.
"Chief Mandich is similarly disqualified by his famous
loyalty to Enforcement Division."
Mandich scowled at this assertion, but didn't argue with
it.
"The truth"—Hashi used that word as if it made him
uncomfortable—"will carry more conviction if it comes from
you."
He may have been right. Or not. She couldn't tell. But his
appeal reached her all the same. The thought that the Members
might refuse to believe the truth simply because they heard it
from him was more than she could bear. The only part of
herself she valued, the only part she took pride in, was her
ability to sift through the rubble of facts until she found bed-
rock. And she respected Hashi, not because he was admittedly
brilliant, but because he'd never hampered or misused that
part of her.
If she had to confront humankind's future in person in
order to affirm the results of her work—
"In that case," she told Hashi weakly, "you'd better or-
der up a hypo of stim from the infirmary." She couldn't stop
crying. "Otherwise I won't be able to stay on my feet."
Instead of returning to her console, she folded to the deck
and covered her face with her hands.
KOINA
For the sake of her profes-
sional pride, she refused to
cringe in shame and regret while President Len called the
Council to vote on Cleatus Fane's proposal.
She'd failed in the worst possible way: her efforts to
weaken the Dragon's grip on the GCES—and the UMCP—
had only made it stronger. Cleatus had outplayed her. In the
end, everything Warden had dreamed or desired would die
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she served Warden.
What could she have done? she asked herself over and
over again. The question was important to her. She had no
evidence. Nevertheless she could hardly face Members like
Sixten Vertigus, Blaine Manse, and Tel Burnish. She couldn't
rid herself of the conviction that there must have been some
way she could have made a difference.
Still nothing came to her. No desperate gesture or extrav-
agant appeal would work now. The simple truth was that she'd
failed. Cleatus would win. And the consequences for human-
kind's future would be devastating.
Poor Abrim had wanted her to succeed: his extraordinary
assertiveness made that obvious. Morn's plight had touched a
source of unexpected strength in him. And even now he did
whatever he could to postpone the inevitable debacle. After the
FEA's proposal had been moved and seconded, he insisted on
hearing its precise language for the record. That took a few
moments. Then he launched a slow, tedious roll-call vote, ask-
ing the Members one at a time by name where they stood;
announcing their positions back to them; logging the tally in
the Council's official minutes. Despite the urgency of the situ-
ation—and Fane's fuming impatience—he led the Members
on a weary trudge through the procedure of Warden's ruin.
Koina admired the attempt, but she knew it was wasted.
The tally had already reached eight: six in favor, one opposed,
one abstention. As soon as the count on Holt's side reached
eleven, a simple majority, he could take the vote as law, even
if Abrim required all the remaining Members to commit them-
selves.
She was vaguely surprised by that one nay. It came from
Sigurd Carsin, the UWB Junior Member. Captain Vertigus
was her Senior Member; but for years she'd opposed him as if
she considered his criticisms of the UMC and Holt Fasner
contemptible. Apparently, however, she'd re-evaluated her alle-
giances. After casting her vote, she'd reached over and
touched Sixten's shoulder as if she wanted to express commis-
eration or support.
That small, unexpected victory should have meant some-
thing to Koina, but she no longer had the energy to appreciate
it. Her waning resources were fixed on the cruel task of sus-
taining her facade while each vote drove Fane's stake deeper
into the heart of the UMCP she wished to serve.
There were now seven in favor and two abstentions. So
far no one had joined Sigurd Carsin.
At Koina's side Cleatus seethed in silence. As far as she
could tell, he wasn't using his throat pickup. Apparently one
of his techs had the job of reporting the vote's progress. If the
Dragon spoke to him, he showed no reaction. Instead he
watched the Members—and especially President Len—with a
corrosive glare which seemed to promise trouble for his oppo-
nents.
Sixten looked like he was asleep, overtaken by age and
defeat. Tel Burnish and Blaine Manse hadn't voted yet. Nei-
ther had Punjat Silat. They might bring the total opposed to
five. But that was nowhere near enough. And who else would
join them? Who had the courage? Vest Martingale, perhaps:
her outrage might carry her. On the other hand, the UMC was
the majority shareholder in Com-Mine Station—
Eight in favor. Maxim Igensard delivered Sen Abdullah's
proxy in a voice that shook with disappointed fervor.
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the room before the end. Then she would be able to grieve in
peace. But her duty called her to witness this slow death: the
incremental murder of humankind's hope. She remained
where she was while her heart brimmed over with desolation.
She hardly reacted when one of her techs shifted toward
her, touched her arm.
"Director," the woman whispered, "I'm getting a call
from Lane Harbinger."
Koina stared straight ahead while her brain limped to
comprehend. Lane—? She didn't recognize the name. Or did
she? It left a tingle she couldn't identify somewhere in her
tired synapses. One of Center's officers, probably, calling to
ask her some painful question, or to give her more bad news.
"Dr. Lane Harbinger," the tech prompted, covering her
urgency. "She works for DA."
DA—?
As if by magic, Koina remembered the "precise tone of
Hashi's voice when he'd asked her, Are you acquainted with
Lane Harbinger? They'd been aboard her shuttle from
UMCPHQ, on their way to hear Sixten's Bill of Severance
fail. For his own obscure reasons, Hashi had remarked, You
have much in common.
"She wants to address the Council," the tech explained
tensely.
Without transition, an eerie sense of dislocation took over
Koina. She no longer seemed to have any control over her own
behavior. In fact, she might have sworn that she took no part
in it. As far as she knew, she was asking her tech—or herself
—What for? Doesn't she know how important this is? I'm
surprised Center gave her a channel.
According to Hashi, Lane had uncovered some tiny but
significant bit of information about Godsen Frik's murder. Ap-
parently she'd been able to determine that the SOD-CMOS
chip of the kaze's presumably faked id tag contained current
GCES Security source-code—a detail which Hashi had con-
sidered almost preternaturally fascinating. Koina couldn't re-
member why.
But all that was beside the point. Traces of evidence left
behind by Godsen's killer had no relevance here. No scrap of
source-code, however suggestive, could avert Warden's down-
fall.
So what in God's name did Lane want?
Nevertheless Koina asked none of those questions. Her
thoughts had no connection to what she did. Her body had
reasons of its own. As if it belonged to someone else, it leaped
upright instantly; flailed its arms for Abrim's attention.
While her brain struggled with its confusion, her mouth
called out, "President Len!"
To her dismay, she didn't have the slightest idea what she
meant to say.
"Director Hannish!" Cleatus blared at her like a decom-
pression klaxon. "Sit down!"
He was right, of course. She was out of order; had no
business speaking; she'd already failed. Stricken with shame,
she sank back to her seat—
—while her body remained on its feet. Her limbs bal-
anced themselves like a fighter's, as if she intended to strike
anyone who interfered with her. "President Len!" she called
again. "You have to hear this!"
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bers tried to shout her down. Sixten raised his head to give her
a bleary, baffled stare. She ignored everyone except Abrim;
everything except the expression on his face.
Christ, what was she doing? In another minute she would
be ejected from the room. Abrim wouldn't have any choice.
He'd threatened to have Cleatus removed: for the sake of con-
sistency, if not for some better reason, he would feel com-
pelled to carry out his threat on her.
At first, however, he was too surprised to censure her
interruption. "Hear what?" he asked with a perplexed frown.
Koina didn't know that. She didn't know anything.
She must have known. Otherwise how could she have
answered?
"Mr. President," she announced, "Dr. Lane Harbinger is
on my downlink from UMCPHQ." Her voice held firm de-
spite her bewilderment. "She works in Data Acquisition. She
wants to address the Council."
Abrim groaned a protest. "Director Hannish, you can't
do this." Angry, exhausted regret filled his face. "We're in
the middle of a vote, for God's sake!" His mouth twisted as if
he wanted to spit out something that tasted nasty. "We've
already allowed you to say everything we can stand to hear.
Now you have to let us finish. While there's still time."
Time: that was the problem. Koina needed to understand
herself, but she couldn't; she'd run out of time—
Then she did.
Time. Of course. The linchpin of Cleatus' persuasion: the
goad he'd used to drive his proposal forward. For his master's
reasons, if not his own, he was frantic to beat the deadline of
the command module's dock with Calm Horizons.
At that moment her dislocation passed.
Aboard her shuttle wasn't the only time she'd heard
Hashi talk about Lane. He'd also mentioned the researcher
during that last meeting with Warden Dios, when he, Koina,
and Chief Mandich had met in one of the UMCP director's
private offices.
Lane was involved in the investigation of Nathan Alt.
With a rush Koina caught the inference she'd missed ear-
lier; grasped the argument she should have presented.
"I'm sorry, Mr. President," she stated firmly. "It's not
an important vote. In fact, it's meaningless."
The President's jaw dropped. Maxim blustered a contra-
diction. Several of the Members who'd already voted yelled at
her.
While Cleatus summoned a blast of denial, Koina ex-
plained, "The whole thrust of Mr. Fane's proposal is that War-
den Dios is under suspicion of treason, and we can't afford to
let an accused traitor make deals with the Amnion for us—
deals that could affect humankind's entire future." With the
intensity of a shout, she proclaimed, "But Warden Dios isn't
making any deals. Morn Hyland has done that. She told us so
herself. And she's going to keep right on doing it, no matter
who the UMCP director is, or who issues the orders.
"You heard her," Koina insisted. "She doesn't recognize
any authority except her own.
"As Mr. Fane pointed out, she obviously hasn't revealed
the whole truth about her dealings with Calm Horizons. If she
won't even tell us what her intentions are, she certainly won't
change them simply because we've replaced Warden Dios.
"The First Executive Assistant's proposal doesn't need to
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make any immediate difference."
At once Cleatus bounded to his feet, bristling in outrage.
His PCR seemed to fill his head with pain. Or fear.
"That's preposterous!" he yelped. "Mr. President, this is
obviously a desperate—"
Koina raised her voice to carry over him. Clarion and
sure, she trumpeted, "UMCPHQ Center would not have as-
signed Lane Harbinger a channel—and Acting Director Don-
ner certainly wouldn't have authorized it—if what she wants to
say weren't vitally important. This Council needs to hear her!
"We've been debating extreme accusations for hours. If
you asked me to guess," she finished, "I would say that Dr.
Harbinger wants to give evidence."
President Len bowed his head as if he couldn't carry the
weight of his dismay.
Before Abrim could reply, Cleatus started again. Like a
burst of impact fire, he barked, "This is obviously a desperate
and irresponsible attempt to interfere with the will of the
Council. It's a ploy, Mr. President. While we've been dragging
out this interminable vote, Director Hannish has been in con-
tact with UMCPHQ. No doubt she's asked them to arrange
some kind of disruption. To save Dios' hide, of course.
"Lane Harbinger, for God's sake," he sneered with
scalding indignation. "One of Director Lebwohl's stooges.
Clearly this is the best they could cobble together on short
notice.
"Listen to her, if you think it's worth the effort." He
flapped his arms as if he were done. "Go ahead. I'm curious
myself." Then he yelled with such vehemence that he seemed
to knock plaster off the walls, "But finish the goddamn vote
first!"
The struggle on Abrim's features was painful to watch.
He'd already exerted more force during this session than in all
the years of his tenure put together. By nature—and perhaps
by conviction—he favored conciliation, compromise. That was
how he held on to his office. A more commanding president
would have been voted out long ago, forced to step aside by
the Dragon's vast constituency.
But today he'd faced down Cleatus Fane; bent Maxim
Igensard to his authority— The effort had left him in a state
approaching nervous prostration.
He held the sides of the podium so tightly that Koina
could see his elbows quivering. His mace lay in front of him,
forgotten. Sweat on his upper lip caught the light like beads of
misery.
"Members—" he began; then faltered and fell silent.
She watched in horrified suspense as he strained to re-
cover. If he collapsed, who would take over? As a body the
GCES determined precedence by rotation rather than senior-
ity. Whose turn was it? She couldn't remember.
Abruptly one of her techs stood. The woman was pale and
wide-eyed, frightened by her own temerity. Nevertheless she
was determined to speak.
"Mr. President," she reported meekly, "Dr. Harbinger
insists that what she has to say is of the utmost importance.
She swears that if you don't hear her you'll never forgive your-
self."
Then she sat down; composed herself like a woman who
wished she had someplace to hide.
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the only one who wanted UMCPPR to do its job right.
President Len tried again. "Members—" His voice was a
hoarse whisper, raw with strain. "I will allow this interruption.
We'll continue voting after we've heard Dr. Harbinger."
"By God!'' Cleatus roared; then cut himself off; stag-
gered; clapped a hand to his ear as if his PCR had started
screaming at him. For a moment he groped around him, un-
able to find his balance. Then he seemed to steady himself by
sheer force of will. Turning his back, he withdrew to his seat.
As he sank into his chair, sweat stood on his forehead, and his
eyes seemed to roll in terror.
Koina guessed that Holt Fasner also wanted to hear what
Lane would say.
Quickly she told her techs, "Route Dr. Harbinger's chan-
nel to the room speakers. President Len's aide will patch you
in. Tell her we'll be ready in a minute."
As Abrim's aide hurried to handle UMCPHQ's transmis-
sion, the President slumped against the podium. "This is your
idea, Director Hannish," he croaked as if he'd damaged his
larynx. "You talk to her."
Weakly he beckoned Koina to the dais.
She couldn't hesitate now; couldn't afford uncertainty or
fear. Striding rapidly, she approached the dais; ascended to
stand beside President Len.
While she waited for his aide to complete the connection
from her downlink, she forced herself to face the Council
again.
She'd found that difficult the last time, but this was much
worse. She had no idea what Lane might say; couldn't imagine
what kind of evidence Lane might have uncovered. And where
was Hashi? Or Chief Mandich?
What if Cleatus was right? What if Lane had no evi-
dence? What if Hashi—or Min—had ordered her call in a last-
ditch effort to delay Warden's inevitable ruin?
Koina didn't think she could bear to take part in another
failure; not like this, with everyone in the room watching her,
and Warden's damaged hopes on the line.
But failure and success were out of her hands. In the
name of her commitments she could only do her job and ac-
cept what happened. Blaine Manse and Sixten sat on the edges
of their chairs. Punjat Silat rubbed his chest as if he wondered
how much longer his heart would go on beating. Tel Burnish
squirmed with tension. None of them had anything else to
hope for. When Abrim's aide signaled to her, she buried her
fear behind her professional mask; cleared her throat and be-
gan at once.
"Dr. Harbinger, this is Director Hannish." Thank God
her voice didn't quaver. "We're using a patchwork communi-
cations setup here. Can you hear me all right?"
"Director Hannish," a woman replied stiffly from the
speakers. "I'm Lane Harbinger." Her transmission was
cleaner than Morn's had been. Apart from a hint of echo and a
faint crackle—the gain on her pickup may have been set too
high—no distortion touched her voice. "You're coming
through fine. Can the Council hear we?"
"Yes, Dr. Harbinger," Koina assured her. "All the Mem-
bers are here, as well as FEA Cleatus Fane and myself. You're
perfectly clear."
"Good," Lane muttered. "I'm too tired to wrestle with
technical difficulties." The rasp in her tone sounded like irrita-
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it is. I almost fell asleep waiting for you to make up your
minds to hear me."
Koina winced inwardly. "The issues before the Council
are complex, Dr. Harbinger. The Members are moving as fast
as they can."
She meant, Help me, Lane, Don't make this harder by
alienating them.
Lane sighed. "I suppose they are. I'll try to keep it sim-
ple." For a moment her voice seemed to fray out of the speak-
ers. Then she went on more sharply, "Before you reach any
conclusions, you should know that the UMC is guilty of trea-
son."
Softly Cleatus growled, "Here we go again."
Several of his supporters nodded. Koina guessed that they
were growing restive under the threat of the Dragon's ire.
Lane had said "the UMC," not "Holt Fasner." Was that
significant, or was she just being cautious?
" 'Treason' is a provocative word, Dr. Harbinger," Koina
countered before anyone else could take up Cleatus' objection.
"Perhaps you should start at the beginning."
Lane didn't hesitate. "I'm a research tech for
UMCPDA," she stated at once. "I don't have anything to do
with policy or politics. I deal in facts. Tangible reality. What
other people do with those facts is their problem, not mine.
"I've been assigned to study the physical evidence from
that last kaze. The one that almost got you. Determine the
facts."
Then, however, she faded to silence. The speakers emitted
a rough wheeze of respiration, as if she'd dropped off to sleep.
My God, Koina thought in dismay, how long have you
been working on this?
Carefully she prompted, "What physical evidence?"
Lane's voice returned with a thud, as if she'd dropped
something heavy beside her pickup. "Well, the body, of
course. But we also have his id tag and GCES Security creden-
tials."
"How is that possible?" Koina asked. "The man blew
himself up." She knew the answer: she was simply trying to
help Lane.
"Director Lebwohl grabbed them. Before the kaze went off. I've been working with them since then."
Koina didn't risk so much as a glance at Cleatus. She
wasn't sure she could bear it if she saw that Lane's statement
didn't surprise him.
"I see. Please go on."
The researcher sighed again. "If you've read ED Secu-
rity's preliminary reports, you know the id tag and credentials
identified a GCES Security sergeant named Clay Imposs, but
the man using them was really Nathan Alt."
Now the Council could hear every breath she took. Koina
had the disturbing impression that Lane had put her head
down with her mouth right on her pickup. Each hoarse intake
and exhalation seemed to fill the speakers with a claustropho-
bic urgency.
"Captain Nathan Alt was UMCPED until Director Don-
ner court-martialed him for dereliction. Since then he's had a
number of jobs. Most recently the UMC hired him as Security
Liaison for Anodyne Systems." Unnecessarily she explained,
"Anodyne is a subsidiary of the UMC. They manufacture the
SOD-CMOS chips we use in datacores—and id tags."
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to Warden Dios yesterday."
Lane took a sharp breath. "Is that Cleatus Fane?"
"It is, Dr. Harbinger," Koina answered.
"Good. I like it." Lane's tone seemed to gather strength,
as if she'd found a new source of energy—or been given an-
other dose of stim.
"Mr. Fane," she rasped. "According to our log of that
conversation, you told Director Dios Nathan Alt was fired six
weeks ago. Because he had dealings with the native Earthers.
"Is that right?"
"It is," the FEA said firmly.
Koina thought she heard a bitter grin in the research's
voice as Lane retorted, "Well, you're lying."
Half a dozen Members gasped. President Len covered his
eyes with one hand to conceal his reaction. Unselfconsciously
Sixten clenched his old fists in front of his chest like a kid
wishing with all his might for a miracle.
Cleatus started to launch a furious rejoinder, then,
clamped his mouth shut on it. Apparently his master had
called him to heel again. Instead of defending himself, he
wrapped his arms across his belly and let Lane say what she
wanted.
The rest of the room was paralyzed by the crowded strain
of her breathing. Simply listening to it made Koina's chest
hurt.
"The body told us a lot," Lane resumed. "For one thing,
it was full of hypnagogic drugs. For another, the bomb had a
chemical trigger. The catalyst was contained in a false tooth.
Of course, the man himself can't testify. He's too dead." The
raw edge of her respiration suggested another grin. "But the
circumstantial evidence is clear. Alt entered the Council cham-
ber in a state of deep hypnosis. On a preconditioned signal, he
bit down to break his false tooth. The catalyst entered his
system. A minute or two later he exploded.
"It's also clear that he must have been given the signal by
someone in the room. Someone he could see. Or hear. He was
in no condition to make decisions himself. So you had a traitor
with you during the last session. Since no one's been allowed
to leave the island, he's probably still there."
"Except Hashi Lebwohl," Cleatus interrupted. "He was
here then. But he left. He hasn't returned. And he was in a
better position than anyone to give a signal. He could easily
have triggered the explosion, and then switched credentials to
supply the 'evidence' that makes you think I'm lying."
He was floundering. Koina half expected him to accuse
her, as well—or Forrest Ing. But he didn't.
"I guess that's true," Lane murmured. "Interesting
idea." She paused like a woman swallowing a yawn. "On the
other hand, it's relatively easy to prove Director Lebwohl
hasn't had access to any SOD-CMOS chips for several weeks.
Especially not this particular chip."
As she went on, she began to breathe harder. The speak-
ers carried a heavy throb of exertion. She was near her physio-
logical limits.
"Obviously the id tag and credentials are crucial. They're
our best clue to where this kaze came from.
"How were they doctored to identify Nathan Alt as Clay
Imposs? That's supposed to be impossible. You can't do it
unless you have an intimate knowledge of the code-engine that
drives GCES Security clearances. Which leaves out the native
Earthers, I think," she remarked. Then she said, "But still, the


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doctoring should show. If you know how to look. You can't
edit SOD-CMOS chips. You can only add layers of new pro-
gramming.
"In this case the chip wasn't doctored. It isn't Clay Im-
poss' original id tag. It's a new tag specifically written to iden-
tify Nathan Alt as Clay Imposs. That's probably easier to do.
Harder to detect. But you have to be able to get new chips. Not
a simple problem. And the job still requires you to know that
code-engine. An even tougher problem. In fact, that knowl-
edge may be our most closely guarded secret.
"But Nathan Alt had it. Or he did until he was fired."
She snorted wearily. "As UMC Security Liaison for Anodyne
Systems, he helped design the code-engines."
Koina chafed under the pressure of Lane's difficult respi-
ration. Time was growing short: the command module and
Trumpet must be within fifteen minutes of Calm Horizons by
now. She already knew about Alt's work with Anodyne. She
needed to hear something she could use.
"Where is this leading, Dr. Harbinger?" she put in.
"What conclusions have you reached?"
Lane didn't answer directly. "The interesting thing about
this id tag," she said between gasps, "is that it's so recent.
The programming isn't the only part that's new. The chip is
new, too.
"We logged it in a routine shipment to UMC Home Secu-
rity three weeks ago. Ten days later, according to HS records,
the same chip was reqqed by the office of the Anodyne Secu-
rity Liaison. For use in testing code designs. So it went to
Anodyne, where the design work is done. The traitor must
have acquired it after that." She let out a shuddering gust, then
sneered, "But of course Alt was fired six weeks ago.
"You can see the problem. How is it possible that a man
with the knowledge to fake a GCES Security id tag got his
hands on a SOD-CMOS chip from his former office nearly
four and a half weeks after he was fired?"
Involuntarily Koina held her breath. Her body seemed to
think it could counter Lane's stress by refusing air itself.
"We've just completed a legal search of Anodyne's
records. In particular, we searched the computers Anodyne
uses for code-engine design. It wasn't easy. As I say, those
secrets are closely guarded. You need three different kinds of
access, all working together. Without any one of them, the
other two are useless. But we learned that on the Security
Liaison's authority that chip was used to study methods for
faking id tags. And the same chip was reqqed back from Ano-
dyne by the Security Liaison's office four days ago."
A yawn Lane couldn't suppress came from the speakers.
"In both cases the orders were logged by Nathan Alt.
Now five and a half weeks after he was allegedly fired."
At last! A flare of hope seemed to go off in Koina's heart.
Her relief was so intense that she nearly staggered. Without
noticing it, she began to pant for air. At last!
If the Members hadn't been trapped in the sound of
Lane's breathing, more of them would have reacted. Some of
Holt's supporters slumped as if they were collapsing. Others
gaped in disbelief and consternation; betrayal. Blaine tried to
speak, but couldn't find her voice. However, most of the Coun-
cil simply stared at the speakers like men and women who
were too aghast to understand what they heard. The ground
they'd walked on all their lives—the power and position of the



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UMC—had begun to crack under them.
In the shocked silence Sixten jumped to his feet and
thrust his fists triumphantly at the ceiling.
"This is crazy," Cleatus croaked. The blood had been
stricken from his face: he looked as pallid as a cadaver. "Alt
must have planned it all along." His lips quivered. His gaze
raced around the room, as if he were looking frantically for an
escape. "He must have betrayed our entire Security. We fired
him. Somehow he got back in. Weeks after we got rid of
him."
The sight of his fear was all the evidence Koina needed. It
confirmed that Lane was right.
"No, Mr. Fane." The researcher seemed to fight her fa-
tigue down for the last time. "You said yourself you changed
your security after he was fired. That's on the record. In any
case, no one person can break into Anodyne. We've just
proven that. Alt must have had clearance from Home Security,
as well as the full authority of the Security Liaison's office, in
addition to his personal codes. Otherwise he wouldn't have
been able to get his hands on that chip.
"There's only one possible conclusion. You've been lying
all along. Alt was still working for the UMC when he made
his plans to replace Clay Imposs. And the traitor who deto-
nated him is still in that room."
Lane faded away; then returned with an effort. "Every-
thing we've done has been logged and recorded. You can ac-
cess it whenever you want verification."
Still in that room— The idea took a moment to penetrate.
Then it seemed to sting the Members out of their stunned
dismay. In a rush they all started talking at once; to each other
or their aides; to anyone they could reach.
Koina pitched her voice to carry over the sudden hubbub.
"One last question, Dr. Harbinger. I know you're ex-
hausted. You've done brilliant work, and you deserve rest. But
the last I heard this investigation was assigned to Director
Lebwohl and Chief of Security Mandich. Where are they now?
What have they been doing?"
If she could, she wanted to remove any taint that Hashi's
tarnished reputation might cast on Lane's testimony.
Lane whimpered softly. Her breathing shook as if she
were feverish. Nevertheless she rallied to answer.
"We've been working together. They're back in the Ano-
dyne computers. Getting more evidence. We may be able to
trace the id tags for all three kazes to the same source."
Somewhere she found the strength to finish, "Lane out."
But she couldn't toggle her pickup. The speakers produced a
thin, snoring rasp until someone closed her channel for her.
Cleatus' eyes rolled, and sweat splashed down his face: he
looked like an animal in torment. His hands made clutching
motions he couldn't complete, grasping after support he didn't
get from his downlink.
"Why?" he objected wildly. "Why would anybody do
this? Why would Holt Fasner? My God, you can't believe it.
Send kazes against the Council? It's insane! There's been a
mistake. Or that"—he sputtered in outrage—"that Harbinger
is making it up. You could have been killed." His voice broke
into a cry. "I could have been killed!
His fear was too extreme to be explained by failure.
Nevertheless Koina took no pity on him. Suddenly Warden's
dreams had come back to life; raised from the dead by Lane's
inspired exhaustion and Hashi's cleverness and Mandich's


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loyalty. The Members had been shocked to the core: they be-
lieved her now. She would see Cleatus Fane in his grave before
she let this opportunity pass.
"I don't think you were in any danger," she retorted,
loud and clear as the ring of a carillon. "I think you're the one
who gave Captain Alt his signal to die. You were safe because
you could choose when and where he exploded."
Cleatus shook his head. Denials bubbled like froth on his
lips. But she didn't stop.
"As for why, I think that's obvious." She hammered the
words as if she were nailing shut a coffin. "The Members
might have passed Captain Vertigus' Bill of Severance if that
kaze hadn't scared them so badly. In any case, Special Coun-
sel Igensard's investigation could have been dangerous to you.
God knows it should have been. Under the right circum-
stances, it might have been fatal.
"Holt Fasner began to suspect that Warden Dios intended
to make their crimes public—crimes committed by the UMCP
on your CEO's orders. Those kazes were sent to pressure the
Council into protecting Fasner by getting rid of Warden Dios
without weakening the UMC's hold on the UMCP."
She would have gone on. After all her years of distress
and dishonesty under Godsen Frik—and all the pain of helping
Warden do himself so much harm—she was more than angry
enough to match Cleatus' alarm. She wanted to pour acid by
the vatful on his undefended head.
Sixten interrupted her, however. While she gathered her
accusations, he called out like a trumpet, "Mr. President, I
move we forget this proposal to recharter and enact my Bill
instead."
His old voice carried a grim thrill of vindication.
"Seconded!" Sigurd Carsin, Blaine Manse, and Tel Bur-
nish shouted together.
Before Abrim could respond, Cleatus burst to his feet,
jutted his beard at the ceiling. "No!" he howled. "Stop!" He
might have forgotten that the Council existed. Desperately he
tried to raise his voice across hundreds of k to UMCHO.
"What're you—? Don't!"
But apparently Holt no longer heeded him. He ripped the
PCR from his ear, flung it away. "You fools!" he raged at the
Members. "You're going to get us killed! Don't you know that
he won't tolerate this?"
He seemed to be raving.
With a quick nod, President Len sent Forrest Ing and his
guards to take the terrified FEA out of the room.
According to one of Koina's techs, the command module
and Trumpet were three minutes off Calm Horizons when the
Council passed Sixten's Bill by acclamation.
HOLT
Holt Fasner considered him-
self a true visionary, one of
the last. After listening to the debacle of Cleat's efforts to
control the Council, he thought he might be the only one left.
Apparently that gaggle of self-important, gutless twits
had no grasp on the real issues humankind faced. They proba-
bly couldn't even have guessed what those issues were. Instead
they were too busy acting like a damn guttergang to put one
coherent idea in front of another. They were in a frenzy to tear
down whatever they could reach, despite the fact that they'd
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A visionary, any visionary, could have told them that the
entire system which gave them their pretense of importance
and authority was doomed.
Did they really think their misguided species could ever
win against the Amnion? Did they actually imagine that an
ideal police force—backed by an ideal budget, of course—
could protect them from Amnion imperialism? They were
wrong. Oh, in the short term, human production methods gave
them an advantage. But over the long haul that would prove to
be an illusion. Amnion genetic imperatives were steadier and
more relentless than almost any amount of human political
will. The aliens would study human production, human tissue,
human decisions, and grow stronger. The process might take
years or decades: it might take centuries. The Amnion didn't
care. The moment humankind's determination wavered, the
whole life-form would be swept out of existence.
Holt would have explained all this to the votes years ago
if he hadn't been so full of scorn for his own kind. But the
truth was that he didn't think his species as it stood deserved
to survive. The very ease with which he'd acquired his empire
and his power, crushed his opponents, and manipulated every
faction on the planet disqualified his supporters as well as his
enemies from continuance. With virtually no exceptions,
Earth's offspring were too small-minded and fearful to even
comprehend—much less appreciate—the grand scale of Holt's
vision.
So he wasn't surprised that men like Ward tried to fight
him. He'd used them from the beginning. Knowing that no
police force could succeed at its stated mission, he'd created
the UMCP to cover him while he worked at his larger aims.
And he'd bent and twisted the GCES to give the UMCP ex-
actly the right amount of strength: enough to appear effective;
enough to threaten the Amnion; not enough to interfere with
his larger designs.
As the votes on Suka Bator had just demonstrated—again
—it was pathetically easy for small people with little minds to
convince themselves they'd been betrayed.
His species as it stood didn't deserve to survive: that was
the crucial point. Therefore humankind had to change. They
had to learn from the Amnion as much as the Amnion learned
from them.
They had to become capable of what the Amnion could
do.
Force-growing infants.
Imprinting minds.
Practical immortality.
The Amnion had it already. They passed their peculiar
consciousness undisturbed from one generation to the next.
Their bodies had become tools, organic artifacts, to be shaped,
used, and discarded as necessary: when one suffered damage,
grew old, or died, they simply imprinted themselves upon an-
other. For that reason, their ultimate victory over humankind
was inevitable. There was no limit to how much they could
learn—or how long they could wait.
But if human beings acquired the same capability—if
they developed the skill to pass their minds from one inade-
quate, mortal body to the next—if Holt could prolong his own
life indefinitely— Ah, then the nature of the real contest would
be altered. Then humankind's innate talents for treachery and
mass production would enable them to overwhelm their ge-
netic enemies. And Holt would lead humanity into a limitless


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future.
Death would never be able to touch him.
The mere prospect was enough to seize his heart and
make his head reel with urgency.
Unfortunately his visionary efforts were hampered by
petty, self-absorbed, and above all numerous men and women
who were congenitally unable to look at their lives from his
vast perspective. They valued small truths and empty scruples
more than the existence of their species; or they craved base-
less prerogatives, minor wealth, and incomplete power too
much to care about anything else. The votes had just demon-
strated that harsh fact to Holt again—as if he needed confir-
mation.
His mouth twisted in distaste at the Council's pigheaded-
ness—and Cleat's final breakdown into hysteria. The poor fool
should have gone out with more dignity. Better yet, he should
have considered the possibility that the fucking cops might get
their hands on Alt's id tag. Even those assholes in ED Security
couldn't do everything wrong: it was statistically inconceiv-
able. And Hashi Lebwohl wasn't stupid. Blinded by ego and
misplaced loyalty, but not unintelligent. The minute Lebwohl
walked into the extraordinary session, Cleat should have real-
ized the danger.
Of course, once Lebwohl spotted Alt the bomb had to go
off. There was no other way to get rid of the evidence. But
Cleat should have made damn sure he did get rid of the evi-
dence. Instead he'd panicked. When the DA director accosted
Alt, Cleat had lost his nerve; triggered the bomb too late. And
as a direct result the whole visionary edifice which Holt had
erected to procure humankind's survival was in danger of
crumbling.
Well, he would have to adjust. His long life had taught
him many things, one of the most useful of which was that
every opportunity he lost created new openings to take its
place. All he needed was the wit to see them—and the will to
act on them. If he couldn't get rid of Ward in order to continue
using the UMCP as cover, he would simply go in another
direction.
He wouldn't miss Ward. He wouldn't even miss Cleat. Or
the UMCP. And certainly not the GCES. No, his only real
regret was that he wouldn't be able to get his hands on Davies
Hyland. He wanted to see the results of imprinting for himself;
to secure some vindication for his vision.
But it couldn't be helped. Sixten Vertigus' Bill of Sever-
ance forced Holt to let such luxuries go. His extended years
had also taught him that regret was useless. Otherwise he
might have wasted time cursing his decision not to have the
fucking "hero" of Deep Star butchered decades ago.
As matters stood, Holt had only one significant cause for
concern: the Donner bitch and her cordon of ships. While her
authority held, he still faced enemies capable of taking action.
But he believed he knew how to deal with the insubordinate
harridan. If his timing was good—if he waited until the com-
mand module docked, and Davies Hyland and Vector Shaheed
were aboard, and Marc Vestabule discovered Morn Hyland's
treachery—he could set Calm Horizons off like Cleat activat-
ing Alt's chemical trigger. Then Donner's ships would be
compelled to engage the Amnioni. And by the time they'd all
destroyed each other, he would be in control of the aftermath.
Still some lingering uncertainty nagged at him. An irra-



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tional desire to visit Norna before he committed himself
plagued him. Despite everything he'd done for it, his body was
just too old to carry so much stress without faltering. Indepen-
dent of his mind, his viscera seemed to think he would be
reassured if he talked to his mother.
After all, he asked himself, why had he kept her alive for
so many years, when she was fit for nothing but death? Behind
his rationalizations, and his frank pleasure in tormenting her,
what was his real reason for preserving her? Did he still hope
that she might ultimately say something he could trust to guide
him? Or was he simply afraid her death would carry him one
step closer to his own?
Damn that woman. Deliberately he rejected the idea of
seeing her. He didn't have time. And he already knew what to
do. His plans were so clear that even Cleat had understood
them. He didn't need an inert lump of female baggage to tell
him whether he was right or wrong.
 It was too bad HO didn't have super-light proton cannon.
But the votes would have given him trouble for that: they
would never have believed he needed such guns. His lasers
were as powerful as any in human space, however, and his
matter cannon were almost as good. His researchers had
learned that if they first punched a hole with lasers they could
drive matter cannon fire through atmosphere with virtually no
resistance. The effect lasted for mere fractions of a second, but
it would suffice.
Toggling his intercom, he called Operations and made
sure his station's cannon were ready to open fire on Suka
Bator.
WARDEN
Marc Vestabule remembered
Angus Thermopyle and
treachery too well. That became obvious as soon as Warden
was released from the small chamber where he'd been seques-
tered during his negotiations with Morn.
For what had seemed like a long time, they'd stayed
where they were. Vestabule hadn't spoken. To the extent that
he'd exposed any humanlike concentration, his attention had
been fixed on his PCR and pickup; on the communications
channel linking him to Calm Horizons' operational nerve-
center. He might have forgotten Warden's existence. Unlike
Warden, however, he seemed to have no difficulty waiting.
For his part, Warden had locked his fears behind the bars
of his arms and kept silent. Without his black capsule, he was
utterly defenseless. And useless: there was no longer anything
he could do to shape events, or fend off the ruin he'd set in
motion. Morn and Angus, Koina and Hashi, Min and Holt
Fasner would save or damn humankind without Warden's par-
ticipation. He'd kept his mouth shut because he hadn't wanted
to give Vestabule the satisfaction of hearing him babble in
apprehension.
But then the Amnioni reacted to something he heard from
his PCR. For a moment he replied in an alien tongue so gut-
tural and threatening that it hurt Warden's ears. Then he ad-
dressed Warden at last.
"The command module approaches, transporting Trum-
pet," he announced. "We are in communication with Captain
Dolph Ubikwe, who pilots the craft. He assures us that Davies
Hyland and Vector Shaheed are aboard, and are prepared to
surrender themselves."
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galled his soul to let Morn take command of Punisher; but his
present assignment was no better. How did he feel about deliv-
ering the means for humankind's destruction to the Amnion?
Bitter and betrayed, probably. Unless he trusted Morn? Or
Angus—?
What could they do? What would they be willing to try?
Warden had no idea. He found that he was no longer able to
imagine what the people he'd created and abandoned might
attempt.
"Preparations are complete," Vestabule continued. "We
will await them at the port designated for their arrival." He
indicated the door. Apparently he meant that he and Warden
would receive Davies and Vector. "When they are aboard,
Calm Horizons will announce a departure trajectory to your
vessels, and commence acceleration."
Warden's heart thudded in his empty chest. Inside his
breathing mask, his tongue hunted for a protection he didn't
have. "What about me?"
He assumed the Amnion would keep him, no matter what
they'd promised before he left UMCPHQ. Despite his failures,
he was a valuable prize. And they would want a hostage. His
life might improve the chances that Calm Horizons would be
allowed to leave unmolested.
Vestabule's human eyelid fluttered uncomfortably.
"You will be permitted to join Captain Ubikwe aboard
the command module, if that is your wish."
Just for a second Warden's head reeled as if he'd been
granted a stay of execution. Permitted to join— He almost
believed— The Amnion kept their bargains, didn't they? They
were notorious for it. Maybe they would keep this one?
But he knew better. Vestabule recognized too well the
kind of danger Calm Horizons faced. He'd already been
forced to give up on Morn and Angus: he would never let
Warden go. If he said anything else, he was lying.
With an inward groan, Warden tried to brace himself for
what might come. He hadn't realized that Vestabule's human
heritage extended as far as outright falsehood.
Vestabule raised his arm awkwardly toward the door, ges-
turing Warden in that direction. For a moment Warden didn't
move. He couldn't: a visceral dread paralyzed him. But then
he remembered the price which Davies and Vector had agreed
to pay for humanity's sake; and he realized that he had to do
whatever he could to match them. The fault for their plight
was his. If nothing else, he owed it to them to look them in the
eyes when they sacrificed themselves.
Grinding his teeth, he nudged himself into motion and
drifted toward the door.
It slid open as he neared it.
Two Amnion awaited him in the uneven passage outside
the chamber. They may have been the same ones that had
guarded him earlier: they each had four eyes so that they could
see all around them, mouths full of whetted teeth, three arms
and legs, skin as rough as rust. And they were still unarmed.
What need did they have for weapons? He was no threat to
them.
Too late, he saw that one of them carried a hypo.
Marc Vestabule remembered Angus Thermopyle and
treachery with a vengeance.
Frantically Warden slapped at the door frame; tried to
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wild kick at the hypo, then scissored his legs to turn him. But
Vestabule was right behind him. As soon as he started floun-
dering, the half-human Amnioni grabbed him by the back of
his shipsuit; caught him in a hold he couldn't break.
Panic and hysteria closed his throat. Gasping with ur-
gency, he fought while the guards closed on him. But he had
no physical strength to compare with theirs. They gripped his
wrists like iron; blocked his legs; stretched out his arms until
he hung crucified in the air between them. Then the Amnioni
with the hypo pushed back his sleeve and plunged clear liquid
destruction into his forearm.
Mutation. Genetic ruin.
Involuntarily his brain went white with terror. Cellular
dismay sent him into convulsions: he thrashed and flinched
spasmodically. Contractions he couldn't control wrenched
through his muscles hard enough to tear them.
Without apparent transition, Vestabule came around in
front of him. One 'hand held the vial of pills Warden had seen
earlier—the drug which rendered this particular mutagen tem-
porarily inert. For a moment Vestabule watched his absolute,
autonomic revulsion. Then the Amnioni opened the vial,
rolled out a small capsule, and held it up in front of his face.
"I remember fear," Vestabule grated rigidly. "It is
wasted." His own humanity had been taken from him by vio-
lence. "If you wish to retain your genetic identity, I have the
means."
With a flick of his fingers, he lifted Warden's breathing
mask and dropped the pill into his straining mouth.
Appalled and shameless, Warden crushed it between his
teeth; choked down the bitter powder as fast as he could.
The corrosive taste brought him back to himself.
Shameless— Ah, God. He belonged to Vestabule now.
Belonged to the Amnion. Like the guards, his native fear was
too strong for him. After all his years of plotting, endurance,
and pain, he'd been beaten as easily as a child.
How had he become such a coward? When had he earned
the right to protect himself without counting the cost?
Slowly Vestabule nodded as if he recognized the horror in
Warden's eyes. A rough word released the hands of the
guards. At once pain pulled Warden's arms around him, raised
his knees to his chest. He drifted weightless in front of the
Amnioni like a man reduced to infancy; barely self-aware
enough to push his mask back into place. But his gaze never
left Vestabule's face.
For some reason Vestabule told him, "We have received a
transmission from Punisher. The woman who speaks names
herself Acting UMCP Director Min Donner."
Min— Oh, Min! Warden suddenly feared that he might
start to weep. She would have been braver than this. If every- •
thing else failed, she would have spat out that pill; would have
chosen to become completely Amnion rather than be used to
betray the people she'd sworn to serve.
Vestabule's human eye fluttered, but the Amnion one held
firm. "She states," he went on, "that our presence has pro-
duced a—" He paused briefly, hunting for concepts that
meant nothing to his kind. "A political crisis. A conflict
among factions. And she claims to fear that this conflict may
become combat. Some among your ships or stations may open
fire on the others."
What? A last spasm closed Warden about himself. Then
by degrees his muscles began to unclench. Fire licked damage


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alerts along his nerves as he straightened his arms, unfolded
his legs. Combat? At a time like this! What the hell is going
on?
Was Holt that desperate?
Vestabule didn't answer such questions. Instead he said,
"She asserts that if this occurs those who are attacked will
respond. But she assures us that these hostilities will not be
directed at us. They will not threaten us. No attack will target
us. Therefore she begs us to take no hostile action ourselves."
Christ! Warden thought in amazement. Hashi must have
succeeded. He and Koina and Morn must be nailing Holt's
coffin shut right now. Otherwise Min wouldn't be worried
about what the Dragon might do next. Not so worried that she
felt she had to warn Calm Horizons.
"There is human treachery here, Warden Dios," Ves-
tabule pronounced without inflection. "It may be that this Min
Donner means to deal falsely with us. Or it may be that your
Morn Hyland intends some ruse to harm us.
"I assure you that we will take extreme action if we are
cheated—or hindered." He made an almost human effort to
emphasize what he was saying. "And I assure you also that
you will commit your utmost efforts to ensure that Morn Hy-
land's promises are kept."
In that instant all Warden's terror and dismay transformed
themselves to savagery.
Everything hadn't failed. If Hashi and Koina and Morn
had succeeded, he could afford to hope again. He could stop
feeling beaten, victimized; go back to acting like the director
of the UMCP. Min thought Holt was desperate. She was ready
for him. Now all Warden had to do was trust Angus. And
prepare himself to help as much as he could.
"If those promises are kept," Vestabule finished, "and if
we are not threatened in any way"—his human eye seemed to
give off a glint of satisfaction—"you will be granted an op-
portunity to join Captain Ubikwe."
Now Warden believed the Amnioni spoke the literal truth.
Using pain for strength, he asked acidly, "How long did
you say this pill will keep me human?"
Vestabule didn't hesitate. "One hour."
Perfect, Warden snorted to himself. Long enough to get
him aboard the command module and away—if events played
out the way Vestabule wanted. Not long enough for Dolph to
take him anyplace where he might find salvation.
"How many will you give me if I decide to go?"
"None."
From somewhere deep inside him Warden Dios dredged
up a slow, fierce grin.
"That's what I thought" With a twist of his hips, he
turned; pushed off from the rough wall to float along the pas-
sage in the direction of the cargo hold and docking port where
he'd first entered Calm Horizons. "Come on. Let's go see
what we can do to make Davies and Vector feel welcome."
Vestabule remembered treachery, but he'd forgotten the
rest of being human.
ANGUS
Streaked by solar fire, and
half-fixed in the flare of
spotlights, Angus rode Trumpet'5 metallic skin like a limpet
with Ciro beside him while Dolph Ubikwe nudged the com-
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zons. He was armed with nothing but a pair of laser cutters, a
stubby cylinder of hull-sealant, and a spare EVA suit. The fact
that he intended to tackle an Amnion defensive with such pal-
try firepower would have been laughable if it hadn't appalled
him so badly.
He felt completely dehydrated. Sweat slicked the inside of
his suit; and he'd already been out here for what seemed like
hours, watching Calm Horizons' fatal bulk block out the heav-
ens. Despite the efforts of his suit's systems to regulate his
body temperature, he always oozed like a pig when he went
EVA—an autonomic reflex his zone implants could scarcely
control.
But his cruel, blind, irreplaceable programming had
prompted him to drink at least a liter of fluids before he put on
his EVA suit—an essential precaution which his human mind
usually forgot. Terror had that effect on him. The sheer scale
and cold of space horrified his crib-bound perceptions. The
merciless and impersonal death which reached to infinity in all
directions was the only thing he'd ever known that matched
the universe of pain he'd received from his mother's love.
So of course he'd spent most of his life fleeing in small
metal ships like coffins through the deeps of a horror he could
never escape. Tenuously protected by hulls of steel and will
and fear, he'd spent every minute on the run. On his good days
the engulfing abyss had touched him only through the abstract
schematic and binary data supplied by his instruments.
But most of his days were bad—
The occasion beyond Beckmann's installation when he'd
left Trumpet to fling a singularity grenade at Free Lunch had
been one of the worst. Then only stark desperation had saved
him from his own terror—desperation, and Morn's crazy deci-
sion to run helm in hard g—after which the hungry stresses of
the black hole had dislocated his hip; sent him into stasis;
damn near killed him.
And now EVA had been forced on him again. He'd been
out here for a long time, studying the defensive's ominous side
while Dolph tugged Trumpet slowly closer and closer to an
entirely different kind of ruin. The crib had tightened its grip
on him once more. And once more he had to beat it or die.
By rights his heart should have thumped hard enough to
burst. But his datacore restrained it.
A gnawing desire to talk to Morn tormented him.
The impulse was madness. According to the specs for his
suit transmitter, he could still reach Punisher. But the power
drain of dialing his signal that high would have weakened his
jamming fields. And the Amnion were bound to detect a trans-
mission that strong. Angus himself had ordered Morn, Min
Donner, and Dolph to keep their radio mouths shut.
Nevertheless, while Calm Horizons blotted out half the
galaxy, and the moment of docking slid closer, his ache to
hear Morn's voice grew so acute that he could hardly stifle it.
Are you all right? he wanted to ask. Is the Council listen-
ing? Does telling them what happened to you change any-
thing? But more than that he wanted to ask, Why did you do
it?
He knew she hated him. He'd seen it on her face so often
that he wanted to kill her for it. Or himself: he could hardly
tell the difference. So why had she helped him escape his
priority-codes? Why was she letting him make decisions that
could easily kill them all?
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out to her.
How long before the command module touched against
the defensive's docking seals? Nine minutes? Less? His com-
puter could have given him a precise projection, but he didn't
want to know. He was already scared enough.
Sweat leaked into his eyes. He couldn't wipe the sting
away. He had to squeeze his lids together so tightly that his
face hurt in order to clear his sight.
He might have felt less frantic if Ciro had talked to him.
That was safe enough. Calm Horizons would never hear them
on this frequency; at these power-levels. He didn't care how
demented the kid might sound, or how deep his fixation on
Sorus Chatelaine ran: Angus would have listened to anything
as long as Ciro didn't become confused about what he had to
do, or when, or how. But the damn boy was silent most of the
time. If he wasn't prodded for a specific response—some
short, unhelpful sentence like, The hatch is open, or, I won't
let you down—he left Angus alone with his sweat and his
fears.
Just once Ciro had broken out of his detachment. I wish
you would all shut up, he'd snapped at Mikka aboard the gap
scout. I already have enough to think about. Other than that he
kept his madness to himself.
So how the hell was Angus supposed to endure being out
here? Minutes or hours ago he'd mapped his route; planned
for every contingency he could imagine. For the remaining
eight minutes, or seven, he had nothing to do. He'd abandoned
the false, necessary safety of Trumpet much earlier than neces-
sary. He'd consigned himself to this hell as if he'd believed
the experience would be good for him.
Stupid shit.
For as long as he could remember he'd been at his best
when he was terrified: faster, stronger, smarter than under any
other circumstances. But it wasn't true now. He'd become a
man he didn't recognize, and everything he did was alien to
him.
That bastard's so big—, he'd told Ciro. I need time to
study her. But he'd been lying. The truth was that he'd hoped
the sight of so much terrible emptiness would help him re-
cover himself; turn him back into the man he remembered.
What was he doing here? What in God's name had made
him think this was a good idea? The Angus Thermopyle he
remembered would have cheerfully stayed aboard Punisher;
let Warden fucking Dios and UMCPHQ and Suka Bator and
the whole damn planet rot in their own brutality. Or he would
have broken Trumpet away from the command module; fired
the drives; taken his chances burning for open space. But he
hadn't done that. Not him: not the new, smitten, brain-numb
Angus. Instead he'd offered to rescue the whole motherless lot
of them. Or get himself killed in the attempt.
What had possessed him?
A datacore with a crippled instruction-set? Not likely: he
hadn't felt the coercion of his zone implants.
Or was it Morn? Maybe. She'd been totally, abjectly in
his power after Starmaster's end—and yet she'd saved his life
when Nick's trap sprang on him. She'd released him from his
priority-codes for the simple, silly, imponderable reason that
she believed welding him was wrong. And she'd gone on
trusting him, despite the accumulated risks. She'd eaten her
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her.
Nevertheless as far as he could tell the one—or the final
—thing which had removed him from his own recognition like
a sated mother when he'd suffered as much as she needed was
the fact that Warden Dios had kept a promise. He'd told
Angus, It's got to stop. And he'd made good on his commit-
ment. He'd erased every restriction which might have pre-
vented Angus from killing him.
By the harsh logic of Warden's mercy, Angus found that
he now had no choice except to rescue the bastard. One kept
promise—and Morn's trust—were enough: they compelled
him like a hardwired command.
Despite everything he'd suffered—and everything he'd
learned from so much pain—he could still be seduced into
idiocy.
"Shit," he rasped to Ciro because he thought he would
snap unless he heard a human voice soon, "if the fat man
doesn't slow down, he's going to ram that damn port. Crumple
us like tin when we hit. We'll bleed to death in our fucking
suits before the Amnion figure out we're here."
That wasn't true, of course. His computer calculated tra-
jectory and deceleration automatically: he knew Dolph was
bringing them in safely. By now Calm Horizons was so near
that she'd stopped growing. Her size and the polarization of
his faceplate conveyed the illusion that he could reach out and
touch her whenever he wanted. He cursed and complained for
the simple reason that in moments he would have to meet a
complex sequence of hazards which scared him more than all
of space.
It was almost time. In another minute or two he would
cast his life to the solar winds—and take as many of his ene-
mies with him as he could.
For the tenth—or the hundredth—time, he checked to be
sure his cutters were fully charged, then adjusted his polariza-
tion to compensate for Calm Horizons' chaos of spotlights and
shadow.
Ciro surprised him by remarking distantly, "You did that
already."
Angus secured the cutters at his sides. "I know," the man
he didn't recognize sighed. "I'm just scared." God, when had
he started admitting things like that? "If I don't get to them in
time, they'll all be Amnion. Then I'll have to kill them."
Struggling to remember himself, he finished harshly, "In case
you screw up."
"I won't screw up," the kid answered without distress.
He seemed to have the patience of the damned. "I remember
everything you told me. I can do it."
Angus snorted. "Just don't forget you'll be exposed as
soon as I leave," he warned. "My jamming fields don't have a
hell of a lot of range."
"I can do it," Ciro repeated. He sounded almost tranquil.
Abruptly Dolph's deep rumble filled Angus' helmet.
"You could get started, Angus," he suggested. "We're close
enough. Your suit jets are faster than walking."
Like Angus, Punisher's captain was worried about Da-
vies, Vector, and Warden. If Angus took too long crossing the
defensive's huge hull—or if Dolph failed to break the com-
mand module free from the docking seals in time—
"No." Angus shook his head bitterly inside his helmet.
"I can hide myself, but I can't cover up jet emission. If those
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Marc Vestabule might remember enough of his humanity
to jump to the right conclusions.
"Then," Mikka put in, "you better be damn fast." A raw
edge of stim ran through her exhaustion. She might have been
close to hysteria. "Davies is probably desperate enough to
take on a whole platoon of Amnion. But Vector doesn't know
how to fight—and he isn't exactly tough." Grimly she added,
"God knows what condition Dios is in.
"The Amnion are too strong, Angus," she finished rag-
gedly. "Too many— You won't have much time."
"We need a diversion," Dolph muttered, "Something to
slow them down. Unfortunately I can't think of anything to
help us. Or anybody."
Angus swore under his breath. It was true that a diversion
might save them. It might distract the Amnion enough to make
them miss Ciro. It might give Davies and Vector a few pre-
cious extra minutes. But it might also prod Calm Horizons
into opening fire too soon. Then all their lives would be
wasted.
In any case, Dolph was right: there was no help available.
"Are Davies and Vector ready?" Angus asked while his
eyes and his computer measured distances, estimated timings.
"They've been in the airlock for the past ten minutes,"
Dolph reported. "But they'll try to delay as much as they can
without being obvious about it."
He didn't need to add that if Davies and Vector made the
Amnion suspicious Calm Horizons might fire before Angus
could carry out any of the tasks he'd assigned himself.
"All right." Angus' machine projections approached the
synchronization he wanted. "I'm on my way in thirty sec-
onds."
If they all died, he would have only himself to blame.
Despite the harm Dios had done him, he found that he
was grateful for his welding. Between the stark, hot beams of
the spotlights, shadows as impenetrable as tombs shrouded
Calm Horizons' uneven hull. Without the support of his zone
implants and his datacore, he would have been sure to fail.
Roughly he turned to Ciro. "Don't screw up. I mean it.
Get set up. Then wait for my signal. If you jump the gun, this
is going to backfire so fast you won't even see it happen."
He couldn't see through Ciro's faceplate; but the kid's
helmet inclined like a nod. "I understand."
"Just do it, Angus," Mikka interrupted. "We don't have
time to discuss it anymore." Grimly she continued, "I'll start
warming up the drives as soon as you head back this way."
"They'll still have matter cannon," Angus returned—a
last warning. "This fucker can pound us to powder as soon as
she gets a targ fix."
Then Calm Horizons would smash UMCPHQ. And Pun-
isher.
And Morn.
"I know." Fatigue and strain fretted Mikka's tone. "I've
studied myself blind on this dispersion field generator."
Angus' plans depended on that generator—and on
Mikka's timing. But they also rested absolutely on Ciro's
shoulders. And on his own. On his implanted equipment as
well as his quickness, determination, and cunning.
In addition, they hinged on Dolph, Davies, and Vector.
There were too many variables: the whole damn sequence
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would all collapse.
He braced himself to move; but Mikka wasn't done.
"Angus—" she offered softly. "I wanted to say—" Her voice
had become a low moan like a prayer. "Ciro and I, Sib, Vector
—we didn't have anything to do with framing you. Nick kept
it secret. He handled it himself."
Angus heard her unspoken appeal as clearly as words.
Save Ciro. Please. If you can. Her brother wasn't responsible
for delivering him to fucking Hashi and UMCPDA.
He could have promised that he would try, but there was
no point. The kid had already chosen his own doom.
Instead of insulting Mikka with dishonest reassurance, he
retorted acidly, "I already knew that. Why do you think I've
been so damn nice to you?"
Hadn't he been nice to her? On Nick's orders he'd nearly
crushed her skull. But he'd measured his force to let her live.
It was time. His zone implants enabled him to move with-
out hesitation, despite the sweat stinging his eyes and the fear
laboring in his veins. While the command module and Trum-
pet coasted across the last fifty meters toward the emblazoned
docking port in Calm Horizons' side, he undipped his belt
from its anchor in one smooth motion.
Trusting the strength and precision of his welded re-
sources, he launched himself away from Ciro into the direct
blaze of the spotlights. Weightless and silent, covered by every
jamming field he could project, he sailed straight as the stroke
of. death toward the distant emitter of the warship's super-light
proton cannon.
DAVIES
He and Vector stood together
in the airlock while Captain
Ubikwe eased the command module along its final approach to
Calm Horizons. They wore their EVA suits, but hadn't put on
their helmets yet. The act of sealing themselves in completely
seemed too final; too fatal.
And without their helmets they could talk privately. Even
Captain Ubikwe wouldn't hear them unless they used the in-
tercom: Mikka, Angus, and Ciro wouldn't hear them. Once
they locked their helmets in place, their suit transmitters would
link them to Trumpet as well as the command module, if not to
Angus and Ciro. And the Amnion would be able to pick up
their signal—
That was deliberate, although Davies hated it. They could
have tuned their communications to the same frequency Angus
and Ciro used. But if they did so the Amnion might somehow
acquire that channel. They might trace it from the suits; detect
it from the helmet speakers. For that reason Angus had told
Davies and Vector to use a separate frequency, one Calm Ho-
rizons might monitor. Captain Ubikwe would still hear them;
but the other communications on which Angus' plans de-
pended would be protected.
Davies accepted that. Hell, he didn't even complain about
it, even though it meant the Amnion might hear him gasping
in dread. He had enough other worries: he didn't waste time
fretting over whether or not he would sound scared to his ene-
mies when he went to face his doom.
He'd volunteered for this—before Angus had suggested
other possibilities. When he'd said, I'll go, he'd assumed that
he would surrender himself to mutation; a ruin far more com-
plete and cruel than any kind of death. And Vector had stepped
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Yet now they had dangerous and demanding roles in a scheme
so elaborate—and so utterly reliant on variables none of them
could control—that it still took his breath away whenever he
thought about it.
He felt that he was being pulled apart by conflicting emo-
tions. The airlock could have held eight or ten people, but it
seemed too small to contain his tension. The restrictions of his
suit frustrated his elevated metabolism. If he hadn't been able
to talk to Vector, his concentration might have snapped.
Part of him ached like an amputation because he wasn't
with Morn. She was doing what a cop should do—giving evi-
dence about crimes she'd witnessed and experienced, no mat-
ter how much the truth hurt her. To some extent humankind's
future rested on what she said. And her son had been im-
printed with her mind: he wanted to be with her while she
spoke. He burned to support her testimony with his; to stand
beside her and for her when she was questioned; to cram her
conclusions down the throats of those who doubted her.
Another part of him needed to be where he was, however.
The sheer ingenuity of Angus' plans entranced him. And they
fed his desire to fight—a deep, thwarted yearning which he'd
never been able to satisfy. Like Director Donner and Captain
Ubikwe, he craved to confront humanity's enemies with guns
and violence. An acute hunger for gunfire filled his heart; for
blows struck in the good cause of humankind's survival. He'd
been bred for extremity in Morn's womb, and he needed to act
on it.
And yet another part of him, more profound than con-
sciousness—his visceral, genetic being—quailed in horror at
the prospect of facing the Amnion again. The danger to which
he submitted wasn't simply that he would be transformed to
the stuff of nightmares. It was far worse. If the Amnion suc-
ceeded with him, he would be used to impose the ultimate
nightmare on his entire species. At the base of his brain,
mutely, while the rest of his mind struggled to contain its
conflicts, he gibbered with fear so sharp that it threatened to
unman him.
God, it might have been kinder if Angus had just let them
go die. That way he and Vector would at least have known
where they stood. They could have tried to make their peace
with despair.
This way—
Apparently Vector felt the same. Despite the familiar self-
mockery in his tone, his blue eyes were troubled as he said,
"I'm glad I don't have to do this alone. Somehow being the
savior of humankind hasn't turned out quite the way I imag-
ined." He smiled ruefully at his own foolishness. "This may
sound strange, but I think it might be easier if we just gave
up."
Davies looked at his companion sharply. "Is that what
you want to do?" If Vector decided to die, Davies was effec-
tively finished. He couldn't tackle Calm Horizons alone.
Vector avoided Davies' gaze. "I suppose there's some-
thing attractive about an heroic surrender," he mused. "Mar-
tyr ourselves to save Suka Bator, UMCPHQ, and half the
planet. We would be legends in our own time. Or in our own
minds, anyway," he added sardonically.
"But thrashing and clawing to stay alive, floundering
around in a fight we can't really hope to win while we pray for
God or Angus to arrange some improbable stay of execution—



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which isn't likely to happen even with the best will in the
world because the whole scenario is so damn precarious, and it
could all go wrong in half a dozen different ways at once—"
He gave an exaggerated sigh. "Well, it's not exactly dignified,
is it? We're never going to achieve the status of legends if we
can't end with a little dignity."
Scowling, Davies repeated, "Is that what you want to do?
End with dignity?" The idea that Vector might abandon him
—and Director Dios—gnawed at his heart. "Turn Amnion
without a struggle?"
Vector spread his hands. "Hell, Davies, that's what I've
always done. I can't remember the last time I resisted some-
thing." He snorted in deprecation. "I mean, besides gravity."
Then he explained, "When the cops shut down my research at
Intertech, I could have put up a fight. If I'd gone public fast
enough, made myself conspicuous enough—or just been
clever enough—I might have survived long enough to tell my
story. I might even have made a difference."
Morn's example seemed to weigh on him. More than any-
one except Davies, and perhaps Angus, he appreciated the cost
of what she chose to do.
He shrugged. "But even if I'd decided I didn't want to
die exposing a secret like that," he went on, "I could have put
up a little resistance in other ways. I knew what Orn Vorbuld
was like. I could have refused to turn illegal with him. And I
certainly didn't have to join Nick when he did."
With an air of effort and chagrin, he met Davies' gaze.
"It does seem that surrender is what I do best."
Davies shook his head. Anger and fear clanged against
each other in his chest. He wanted to protest, So you're just
going to let it happen? We're all depending on you. Don't you
think even one of us is worth a little indignity?
Do you think I want to turn Amnion?
But the distress in Vector's gaze stopped him. It was too
personal. Vector had volunteered first, before Davies found the
courage: he'd been prepared to face this doom alone. He de-
served a better reply.
Kicking himself mentally, Davies tried to imagine what
Morn would say; tried to find her inside himself. After a mo-
ment he ventured, "That doesn't make sense, Vector. Letting
someone steal your research isn't the same as surrendering
yourself to save millions of lives. You can't compare them."
"I suppose you're right." Vector's eyes drifted away
again. His mild tone hinted at regret. "But it does make resti-
tution."
"In this case," Davies countered more harshly than he
intended, "so does staying alive. And it's better than dying."
As far as he was concerned, anything was better than the
oblique death of mutation.
A short time ago he and Vector had taken the last of
Nick's mutagen immunity capsules. Even if everything went
wrong, they had roughly four hours of humanity left. But now
that seemed more like a curse than a blessing. Five extra min-
utes might give Angus time to reach them: four more hours
would supply nothing except absolute horror.
Maybe Vector feared those four hours more than he
dreaded an undignified struggle.
"Do you really think we can trust Angus?" he asked
carefully, as if he didn't want to give offense. "He's your
father. Maybe you've inherited something that helps you un-
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"Why does a man like that change his mind? What does
he get out of acting like a hero, when until now the only thing
he's ever fought for is a chance to go on breathing?
"What if the only reason he's here—the only reason
we're all doing this—is so he can snatch Trumpet and try to
escape?''
"No." Davies did his best to sound certain despite his
mounting alarm. "When he makes a commitment to Morn, he
keeps it. I don't understand that any better than you do, but
I'm sure it's true."
He trusted his father for another reason as well. He had
no choice. If he didn't, he would lose his grip on himself and
start to scream. But that wouldn't comfort Vector.
Vector shrugged; said nothing. The trouble in his eyes
deepened.
A moment later the airlock intercom chimed. When Da-
vies toggled the speaker, Captain Ubikwe announced, "Six
minutes to dock, boys and girls." He seemed to like living this
close to disaster. He sounded almost indecently relaxed. "I'll
make this as gentle as I can, but you might want to hold on to
something.
"Angus and Ciro are still in position," he reported. "I
suggested Angus could leave now, get a head start. But he
pointed out the Amnion might spot his jet emissions. He's
probably right. He knows more about those jamming fields
than I do."
Yet the longer Angus waited the longer Davies and Vector
would have to resist Marc Vestabule's fate.
"What if he doesn't go at all?" Vector asked the inter-
com.
"Dr. Shaheed," Captain Ubikwe replied cheerfully, "you
have a suspicious mind. If that happens, I don't think Mikka
will like it any more than I will." A deep chuckle rattled the
speaker. Ciro's life was at stake as much as anyone's. "In fact,
we've already talked about it. She doesn't intend to let him
back aboard unless he does his job. Instead she's going to
charge her guns and try to take out that proton emitter before
it fires.
"I guess we aren't exactly brimming with trust our-
selves," he admitted. His tone suggested a fierce grin.
Sweat licked frustration down the small of Davies' back.
His suit was full of itches he couldn't scratch.
"Any news from Morn?" he asked. Stupid question: the
command module and Punisher had broken off contact with
each other as soon as the module secured Trumpet. Angus
hadn't wanted to give the Amnion any cause for alarm. Still
Davies couldn't stifle his desire for some kind of news.
Moment by moment he felt that he was losing the battle
against terror. He needed an anchor—and Morn was the only
one he'd ever had.
Captain Ubikwe appeared to understand. Without hesita-
tion he answered, "Scan tells me Punisher spent a while using
the dish aimed at Suka Bator. But they stopped transmitting
ten or fifteen minutes ago. So I assume Morn finished giving
her testimony, and now the Council has to debate it."
"Thanks." Davies silenced the intercom quickly to dis-
guise the fact that Captain Ubikwe's reply wasn't enough. He
needed something more solid to hang on to.
He needed to believe in himself. At the moment his only
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humankind.
Vector faced him again. Regret pulled at the corners of
the older man's mouth.
"I'm sorry, Davies. I guess I shouldn't have asked you
about Angus. There's nothing we can do about him anyway."
He paused awkwardly, then tightened his jaw and forced him-
self to say, "I'll tell you what I'm really worried about."
A defensive clench lifted his shoulders. "The truth is, I'm
not much good in a fight." His strained gaze admitted that he
meant no good. "I'm afraid I'm going to let you down. You'll
hold up your end, but you'll fail because of me. And I'm not
sure I can live with that." He grimaced. "As long as I'm still
human, anyway."
Claustrophobia and confusion brought up bile into Da-
vies' mouth. His throat worked, but he couldn't swallow the
taste. He no longer felt like yelling at Vector. Now he wanted
to burst into tears.
"In that case," he offered thickly, "maybe you'd better
stay behind. I'll tell them I killed you. So they won't get your
knowledge. That'll break the deal, but it won't be Morn's
fault. They can't blame her. And they don't have time for
more negotiations. As long as they have me, they probably
won't open fire." On Thanatos Minor he'd protected himself
from the Amnion with lies. "If I can confuse them enough,
they may still give Angus enough time."
Vector studied him closely for a moment, then sighed.
"Ah, well." Slowly the former engineer turned away. "I don't
think I could live with that, either."
While Davies fought to recover some semblance of cour-
age or control, the intercom chimed again. He rapped the tog-
gle with his knuckles; but then he couldn't find his voice to
respond.
Captain Ubikwe sounded strangely eager. "Two minutes
to dock." He must have thought he was having fun. "Angus is
away. Right on target, by God—and moving fast. Ciro won't
start until we hit the seals, but we're committed now.
"Let's make this work."
Angus is away. That was an anchor of sorts—the best
Davies could hope for, since he had so little reason to trust
himself. Right on target. Angus intended to keep his word. If
his son could do the same—
When neither Davies nor Vector said anything, Captain
Ubikwe went on, "I told Angus you'll give him an extra min-
ute or two, if you can. If you're willing to take that kind of
chance."
Vector glanced at Davies, then faced the intercom him-
self. "I don't think so, Captain." The resignation in his voice
might as well have been despair. "We might upset Vestabule.
Then a whole lot of people won't live to regret it."
"I understand," Captain Ubikwe answered more quietly.
"Secure for dock impact. Then kill a couple of them for me."
Vector took hold of a handgrip; but Davies ignored the
danger of a jolt. Instead he spent the last of his concentration
checking his weapons.
He'd coiled his sharp monofilament line into his left palm
inside his glove. His plastic dirk rested in his belt pouch. That
was all he had to defend himself with. Angus had promised
him they would pass Calm Horizons' sensors.
Davies feared that the Amnion would knock him uncon-
scious before he could even begin to put up a fight. Then he
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wouldn't make any difference. Nevertheless he faced the outer
door of the airlock as if he couldn't wait to bring his lifetime
of confusion and distress to an end.
CIRO
He may not have been as
crazy as he thought. He was
still sane enough to understand Angus' plans—and to fear for
their success. As the command module carried Trumpet across
the last twenty meters to the docking port marked by incandes-
cence in Calm Horizons' side, he stayed where he was; clung
to his rifle; and tried to weigh the dangers against each other.
He should already have started to work himself: that was
what Angus had told him. Don't wait around. Open the hatch.
Get that damn thing in position as fast as you can. Otherwise
you'll be in trouble.
At a certain point—after Davies and Vector boarded the
defensive—Captain Ubikwe would fire thrust to break free
of the docking seals. Unless Ciro had manhandled his doom
past the module and away across the defensive's hull by that
time, the sudden force might do him real harm. He could eas-
ily break a limb, or damage his suit, unless he was anchored
and braced. Worse, he might lose control of the grenade. If it
bounced off the module's hull, or Trumpet's, and out of reach,
everything would be ruined. Even using the full power of his
suit jets, he might fail to retrieve the grenade in time. It had
too much mass to be managed quickly. Then Davies and Vec-
tor, Angus and Warden Dios, Captain Ubikwe and Mikka—
they would all die for nothing.
There was another factor as well, although Ciro had al-
ready decided to ignore it. For Mikka's sake, Angus had in-
structed him to position the grenade as fast as you can so that
he, Ciro, could return to the command module before it moved
out of reach. But he foresaw at least two problems. He didn't
trust his aim: he would miss unless he fired at close range.
And he feared setting the grenade too near the docking port—
too near the module and Trumpet.
Still he should have moved by now. That was the plan.
Nevertheless he lay flat against the gap scout's metal skin
while Captain Ubikwe guided the module meter by meter into
the maw of the docking port. Calm Horizons lowered in front
of him like a wall of sky, her darkness slashed with spotlights;
and Ciro clung where he was as if her sheer size paralyzed
him.
Angus' orders seemed to make sense, but they had one
fatal flaw. He'd admitted as much, if not in so many words.
You'll be exposed as soon as I leave. That was the danger.
Ciro was small enough to be missed: even Trumpet dwarfed
him. And he'd made his profile even smaller by lying down.
But spotlights searched every meter of the gap scout and the
command module constantly. At least half a dozen video pick-
ups studied the approaching vessels. He was certain that some
watching eye would spot him as soon as he rose into motion.
And then—
Ah, then: disaster. The Amnion would realize that they
were threatened. They might not guess the nature of the threat,
but they would recognize its reality. And they would make the
same decision human beings would make in the same crisis:
they would open fire.
One super-light proton cannon burst might be enough to
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UMCPHQ, Punisher, and the rest of the ships returned Calm
Horizons' matter cannon barrage, Trumpet and the module
would be pounded to powder almost instantaneously.
Ciro may have been crazy; but he knew this danger was
greater than the one he'd been told to avoid.
Defying Angus' explicit instructions, he lay like a blister
on Trumpet's hull and waited for Angus to carry out the first
part of his mission.
He'd positioned himself so that he had a clear view of
Angus' progress. The cyborg appeared to sail unnaturally fast:
with his artificial strength, he'd launched himself hard at his
target. Straight as a laser, he soared toward the distant proton
emitter. But Calm Horizons was huge, and he still had a long
way to go. Spotlights glared off his suit as they hunted for
foes. At intervals he seemed to burn against the backdrop of
the heavens like a star gone supernova. If any of his jamming
fields failed—or if he'd misjudged their effectiveness—he
would be noticed at once.
Ciro concentrated exclusively on Angus; didn't know how
close the command module had come to its destination. The
sudden jolt-and-scrape as the module hit the port guides and
slid along them toward the docking seals took him by surprise.
Inertia pushed him onto the hull, then rebounded through him,
nearly lifting him from the surface before he caught himself.
He didn't take his eyes off Angus.
Without a sound, but palpable through the ships' metal,
maneuvering thrust forced the module down the guides to
mate against the docking seals. For a moment Trumpet shud-
dered on the module's back. Then the seals took hold. Gradu-
ally thrust faded, and both vessels came to rest.
Shit. In another minute or two, Davies and Vector would
leave the airlock to meet Marc Vestabule and Warden Dios
aboard Calm Horizons. No matter what Captain Ubikwe said,
they couldn't delay without making the Amnion suspicious.
And Angus still hadn't reached his target. And when he was
done there, he would have to come all this way back, running
on magnetized boots—or coasting in zero g—so that his jets
wouldn't betray him.
Now surely it was time for Ciro to start; time to take the
risk, accept the consequences. The job ahead of him would
test his strength—and his craziness—to their limits. Neverthe-
less he remained motionless and went on waiting. He was still
sane enough to pray—
There. Angus had stopped; snagged himself to a halt on
the projecting muzzle of the emitter. Instinctively Ciro held his
breath. The distance was too great; and his faceplate's polar-
ization cost his vision depth: he couldn't see what Angus was
doing. But he knew the plan. And he may have been the only
person living who trusted Angus implicitly.
Angus meant to sabotage the emitter. But he had to do so
in a way that concealed the damage. Once the Amnion real-
ized they'd been hurt, they would open up with all their other
guns. Angus needed an undetectable means to disable the pro-
ton emitter.
That was why he carried a canister of hull sealant.
With no one to witness him except Ciro, he sprayed seal-
ant down the emitter's muzzle; enough sealant to replace ten
cubic meters of blown bulkhead. It hardened in seconds. If he
was right—if his databases hadn't misled him—the gun was
ruined now. Simple as that. When Calm Horizons tried to use
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side.
If he was right—
Ciro's chest tugged at him, demanding air; but he held his
breath as if he thought that act of self-denial might keep
Angus alive. It's easy, Angus had told Morn. All I have to do
is get there. Ten seconds later your damn Council is safe. If a
theory no one had ever tested turned out to be accurate, Marc
Vestabule had just lost his hostages. But Angus still had to get
away. If Calm Horizons fired her proton cannon while he was
anywhere nearby, he would be caught in the explosion. Metal
and wreckage would tear him apart like shrapnel.
Now Ciro saw Angus start back toward him. Angus had
kicked himself into another fast glide. Apparently he thought
that would be quicker than running. In two more heartbeats, or
three, he would be out of immediate danger. As long as Marc
Vestabule didn't know what had just happened—
Davies and Vector must have emerged from the module's
airlock as Vestabule expected. The Amnioni must have be-
lieved that he still had the power to destroy Suka Bator. That
Trumpet's people intended to keep their bargain with him. No
explosion shook the defensive. She didn't do anything that
would bring Director Donner's cordon of ships into battle with
her.
Slowly Ciro began to breathe again.
Beyond question it was time for him to get to work; past
time. In Sorus Chatelaine's name he'd accepted a role that
demanded strength, timing, accuracy. And he lacked the raw
muscle to keep his promises quickly. Any moment now Angus
would start to yell at him, cursing him into action.
But when he heard a voice, it wasn't Angus'. It was Cap-
tain Ubikwe's.
"Mikka, Ciro hasn't moved."
Immediately Mikka demanded, "What's happened to
him?"
"I don't know." Dolph's deep tones thrummed with
worry. "He's paralyzed."
Mikka didn't hesitate. "I've got to go out there."
Ciro could imagine her slapping at her belts, thrusting
herself from her g-seat.
"You can't," Captain Ubikwe countered urgently. "We
still might survive if he doesn't do his part. If you don't do
yours, we're dead."
Mikka's groan seemed to ache inside the confines of
Ciro's helmet.
Yet his reasons for staying where he was still gripped him.
If he moved now—and the Amnion spotted him—all the rest
of Angus' plan would fail.
He hoped the Council was safe. On the other hand, those
people meant nothing to him. Davies and Vector, Angus and
Mikka—they meant a lot. He didn't want to cause their deaths.
Filled by madness like wisdom, he clung fervently to
Trumpet's hull and went on waiting.
Sometimes prayers were answered. With part of his mind,
he wondered if Sorus Chatelaine had known that. Just when
the pressure to move threatened to become more than he could
bear, he saw hot laser fire streak the dark, followed almost
simultaneously by the nacreous visible punch of matter can-
non.
The strange double blast arose from one of the distant
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nowhere near Calm Horizons. Instead it left a scorching trail
of incandescence on its way through atmosphere toward a
planet-side target.
Almost at once black space became a blaze of violence as
every ship in the cordon unleashed her guns.
Ciro Vasaczk had no idea what was going on, and he
didn't care. He cared only that none of the fire was directed at
Calm Horizons—and Calm Horizons didn't return it.
He'd been given the diversion he needed.
Without hesitation he undipped his belt from its anchor
and flipped himself toward the compartment which held Trum-
pet's singularity grenades.
MIN
She couldn't control the fire
in her palms—the burning
desire for weapons and action which had earned her her repu-
tation as Warden Dios' "executioner." It spread outward from
the place where Angus had shot her. Waiting imposed such
complex demands that she doubted her ability to stand the
strain. Her PCR brought in four, five, sometimes six overlap-
ping channels. From her place at the communications station
on Punisher's auxiliary bridge, she handled as many of them
as she could; gave out every answer she had. She was the
center around which every aspect of Earth's defense against
Calm Horizons turned. But it was all just waiting. Her chance
to take part in determining humankind's future hadn't come
yet.
Downlink control on two. Planetary authorities report
widespread panic, riots, violence. They blame losing the scan
net. Urgently request restoration.
Tell them no, she ordered. She didn't want to let Holt
Fasner see her cordon of ships that clearly.
Adventurous on three. Rerouting cleared the power-
spikes. We're back in business. Ready on your order.
Center on five. ED Security is afraid of violence at the
evac stations. Nonessential personnel are going crazy. If we
don't give them something to do, we'll have a whole new kind
of trouble on our hands.
By degrees a blaze of urgency spread from Min's wrists
up into her forearms. Any minute now she might burst into
flames—
PolyMed on one. Director, you've got to help us. We're
sitting ducks. We have priceless data here. And patients. We
need downlink facilities and personnel carriers.
PolyMed couldn't adjust its orbit. Nothing protected hun-
dreds of patients and invaluable zero-g medical research ex-
cept one small gunboat, Flash Attack.
But Min had no downlink facilities or personnel carriers
to spare—and no attention. PolyMed wasn't an immediate tar-
get. Everything except the disposition of her ships was chaff,
harassment, distraction. Whatever happened, Angus and Dolph
were out of her hands. With most of her concentration and all
of her heart, she focused on the reports from Suka Bator.
PR uplink on six. Dr. Harbinger states that she's been
able to trace the SOD-CMOS chip from Nathan Alt's id tag.
Min flinched involuntarily. Dr. Harbinger states—? What
the hell had happened to Hashi? Why was Lane speaking for
him? He was supposed to contact the Council as soon as Min
authorized a channel. But when she gave the word, it wasn't
Hashi who obeyed: it was Lane Harbinger.
Center, she ordered, maintain that PR uplink. I don't care


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who has to postpone talking to me. Give me a constant feed.
She didn't wait for an acknowledgment. Grimly she told
Cray, "Put six on the speakers. I want everybody to hear it."
Especially Morn. To some extent Morn had caused this
crisis: she needed to know the outcome of her testimony. Min
couldn't think of any other way to help her.
"Aye, Director." Cray obeyed numbly; exhausted by the
stress of directing Min's communications traffic.
Hell, they were all exhausted. Porson and Bydell worked
as hard as Cray, collecting and sorting data of every descrip-
tion so that it would be available when Min needed it. And
Patrice had run helm hard and often in the past forty-eight
hours. Only Glessen on targ looked steady and strong, eager to
fight.
One way or another, Min meant to make sure he got the
opportunity.
Center on three. Scan reports your command module and
Trumpet on final approach. Estimate dock in seven minutes.
UMCPHQ had a clear view of Calm Horizons on that
side: Punisher did not. Without UMCPHQ's scan data, the
cruiser would have had no way of knowing what the two small
vessels did, or what happened to them.
Earth uplink control on one. Provisioning inadequate.
Shortfalls expected within hours. Resupply essential.
Min ignored that. The emergency would be over in min-
utes, not hours. Battles in space were like that: appallingly
swift; done before anyone could comprehend the scale of the
forces which had been unleashed. She would worry about the
aftermath later.
Valor on three. Damn it, Director, that's a human station!
We're facing a Behemoth-class Amnion defensive—and you
want us to fix targ on a human station?
Flash Attack on two. Adventurous on five. Pocket cruiser
Stiletto on four. Director, we need an explanation. These targ
priorities don't make sense.
Just do it! she fired back at them all. If I'm wrong you
can insist on a court-martial later.
Then she told Center, Remind Vestabule I warned him.
He's safe as long as he has that proton cannon.
By God, she needed to shoot somebody!
More than that, she needed to be right. She owed it to
Morn as much as to Warden—and to her sworn duty as acting
director of the UMCP.
Morn had obeyed promptly when Min told her to end her
transmission to Suka Bator. Despite everything she'd endured,
all the ways she'd been betrayed, she still trusted the ED direc-
tor that much. Under other circumstances, Min would have felt
touched, gratified; perhaps humbled. But now she didn't have
time.
Nevertheless she was acutely conscious of Morn. Angus
Thermopyle's victim, and Nick Succorso's—and Warden
Dios'—had brought herself and her people all this way by
sheer grit so that she could make one valiant, costly attempt to
change the course of humankind's future. And now she had
nothing left to do except remember her own pain.
She'd told her story; explained the crimes she'd experi-
enced and witnessed. In some absolute sense, she was done.
She still sat at the command station; but she no longer gave
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She was done—but she wasn't satisfied. Nothing had
been resolved.
After she'd silenced her intercom, stopped talking to the
Council, she sat almost motionless in her g-seat, with her head
resting against the back and a haunted look in her eyes—alone
and lost; almost out of reach. Her bruised stare suggested hor-
rors Min could hardly imagine. She knew what it was like to
be injected with mutagens.
Davies had gone to surrender himself to the Amnion. And
no one could save her son except a man who'd raped and
brutalized her for weeks.
Min probably should have sent her to sickbay. Had her
dragged there if necessary. But she deserved better than that.
She'd earned the right to remain where she could watch and
hear what happened, even if there was no longer anything she
could do about it.
For her sake as well as Warden's—and for humanity's—
Min hoped fervently that the Council would make the right
decision.
"According to Dr. Harbinger," the PR uplink echoed
from Suka Bator, "Anodyne Systems records show that Na-
than Alt reqqed that chip just a few days ago. He still had
UMC access and clearance to Anodyne five and a half weeks
after he was allegedly fired."
Lane's statement didn't make much sense to Min. She
knew too little about the situation: Hashi hadn't had time to
give her all the details of the third kaze's attack. Nevertheless
the importance of Lane's evidence was plain, if only because
Koina's communications tech relayed it with so much hushed
intensity.
The Dragon had been dealt another blow—
Abruptly Morn moved. Her commitments wouldn't let her
rest. With a palpable effort she pulled herself upright at the
command station. Her worn gaze caught Min's.
"Director," she asked softly, "who is Dr. Harbinger?"
Min turned from the communications board. At that mo-
ment she would have answered any question Morn asked, no
matter whom she kept waiting.
"One of Hashi's techs," she said past her throat pickup.
"She's brilliant, one of the best. But I don't know why he
wants her to talk for him." As soon as she said that, however,
an explanation occurred to her. "Unless he's worried about
his credibility." In the Members' eyes—and in the context of
Morn's testimony—he must have been dangerously tainted.
Cleatus Fane could have used that against him. "He may think
the Council is more likely to believe her."
Morn nodded slowly. "He's right." A vibration of anger
sharpened her voice. "He's already done too much harm. I
wouldn't believe him if he told me my own name."
Now I would, Min thought. But she didn't try to explain
what had just changed for her.
If her guess was accurate, Hashi had done something un-
precedented. He'd refused an opportunity to display his own
cleverness.
Even Lane couldn't have penetrated Anodyne's security
alone: that wasn't possible. She must have worked with Hashi
every step of the way; and, presumably, with Chief Mandich.
Why else had the DA director asked Min for those Adminis-
tration codes?
Yet he declined the spotlight; declined a chance to deliver
one of his notorious lectures. Min had always considered him


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a rampant egomaniac, but apparently there were things he val-
ued more than his own pride. In its way his loyalty to War-
den's vision of an independent UMCP must have been as clear
as hers.
"The FEA is objecting," the PR uplink reported—an in-
tent, subvocalized murmur amplified by transmission gain.
"He's objecting hard. He claims Dr. Harbinger's evidence
must be false because it doesn't make sense."
"Typical," Min sneered like the fire in her hands. Her
heart had begun to soar. "Lane's investigation makes the
Dragon look bad, so of course she must by lying." The more
Fane protested, the more guilt he betrayed. "Maybe he doesn't
know she's the kind of woman who would probably throw up
if she tried to say something that wasn't true."
Come on, you bastard, she urged Fasner. I dare you to let
this pass. You haven't got the guts to give up.
The husky voice from the speakers held the bridge. "Di-
rector Hannish is answering. She accuses him of triggering
that kaze. Now she says CEO Fasner suspected that Director
Dios intended to make his crimes public. The CEO sent all
three kazes to scare the Council into rejecting the Bill of Sev-
erance."
Morn's chin came up. Glints of vindication complicated
the haunting in her eyes. She must have understood what she
heard less than Min did. Nevertheless the eagerness of Koina's
tech made its implications clear. Through her pain and weari-
ness Morn seemed to catch her first real glimpse of hope.
If the Members took the next step—
Center, Min warned her throat pickup, stand by. All ships,
all guns. On my personal authority.
She wanted to add, If you've ever believed in me, trust
me now. But she didn't have time.
Too excited to whisper, the PR tech announced, almost
shouted, "The Council has dropped Fane's proposal to
decharter the UMCP. The Bill of Severance has been moved
and seconded. They're going to pass it! My God, they're pass-
ing it by acclamation. Holt Fasner no longer owns the
UMCP"
No longer owns— Min found herself on her feet,
snatched erect by years of desire realized at last. She felt like
flames leaping high. Warden had succeeded. By God, he had
done it! The strength of his complicity and regret had broken
Fasner's legal grip on human space.
Now only illegal methods of control remained.
Only treason and violence.
"Fane is hysterical," the uplink crowed. "He's being es-
corted from the room."
Of course he was hysterical. He knew what was about to
happen.
Center on three. Your command module and Trumpet are
almost there. Dock in ninety seconds.
"Captain Verti—" Koina's tech seemed to choke in sur-
prise. "I don't believe it. Captain Vertigus is dancing on his
chair. Most of the Members look too stunned to react, but
some of them are applauding him. Blaine Manse, Tel Burnish,
Sigurd—"
Suddenly everything in Min's life had become simple.
She no longer had to worry about politics and humankind's
future, plotting and doubt: she'd been restored to her chosen
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That's enough, she told Center. Cancel feed on six.
Center obeyed promptly. Without transition the uplink fell
silent as if Suka Bator had ceased to exist.
Now, she thought in Holt's direction. Do it now.
Morn might have been waiting for this moment. She
closed her eyes for a few seconds like a woman marshaling her
last resources. Then she opened her belts and stood up from
the command station. The look of relief on her wounded face
bore an acute resemblance to mourning.
"Director Donner," she pronounced quietly, "you have
the bridge. I'll get out of your way.
"When this is over, I hope you'll remember that they
were all my prisoners—Mikka and Ciro, Vector, Angus. I'm
responsible for anything they did that might count against
them. If you don't think they've earned a reprieve, take it out
on me."
She'd let her son go. Whether he lived or died, she'd
spent him to purchase her chance to address the Council. And
now she had no way to help him. She'd done the best she
could for him when she'd decided to trust Angus.
It was no wonder that her success seemed to fill her with
grief.
Center on four. Docking complete. They've arrived.
The fire had reached Min's eyes, as hot as tears. An unex-
pected lump closed her throat momentarily. "Ensign Hy-
land—" She started again. "Morn—I consider it an honor to
know you. As far as I'm concerned, the Vasaczks and Dr.
Shaheed are as innocent as the day they were born. And Cap-
tain Thermopyle already works for us. On my word as UMCP
Acting Director, nobody is going to 'take' anything 'out on'
any of you. You are—"
She would have said more; wanted to find some words
that might convey what she felt. But she'd run out of time.
In a burst of urgency, Person and Center together cried at
her, "HO is firing! Lasers and matter cannon! My God,
they're trying to hit Suka Bator!"
Min Donner had planned for this. With nothing to go on
except Morn's courage, Hashi's stubborn genius, and her own
faith in Warden Dios, she'd judged the Dragon rightly.
Now at last she could help the man she served make resti-
tution.
•Blazing with pure passion, she yelled, "Fire! All fire!
Fire now!"
Almost at once, almost in unison, every cannon in the
cordon and every gun UMCPHQ could bring to bear un-
leashed a barrage of devastation at Holt Fasner's HO.
DAVIES
Even though he was braced
for it, the hit-and-scrape as
the module struck the port guides and slid along them into the
docking seals jolted Davies' heart. He wasn't ready for this;
didn't know how to be ready. He had to remind himself con-
stantly that Angus and Ciro—and Director Donner—had no
intention of letting the defensive escape with knowledge which
could doom humankind. Unless every single aspect of Angus'
plan failed, Davies and Vector were far more likely to die than
to end as Amnion. Their artificial immunity would last long
enough to spare them.
The scraping became a shudder as the guides forcibly
adjusted the module's approach. Moments later, however, the
seals caught the module and locked it to a halt. There the


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stress ended. With a faint sigh of hull-strain, the small vessel
settled to rest against the Amnioni's side.
For what he feared would be the last time, Davies looked
at Vector's face.
They still hadn't put on their helmets. As soon as they
did, they wouldn't be able to say or hear anything they didn't
want to share with Calm Horizons.
Vector held Davies' gaze gravely; but the former engineer
didn't speak. They'd come to a place where they had no more
words to offer each other.
Almost at once the airlock intercom chimed. This was
Captain Ubikwe's last chance to talk to them without being
overheard. Apparently he hadn't run out of words.
Or he may have had something vital to convey—
Davies thumbed the intercom awkwardly. The tension in
his muscles stiffened his movements; deprived him of grace.
Not for the first time he was amazed by the ease in Cap-
tain Ubikwe's deep voice. Vocally, if in no other way, Pun-
isher's dispossessed commander comported himself like a
man with nothing to fear; nothing at stake.
"We're in," he announced unnecessarily. "Davies, Vec-
tor, this is your last chance to change your minds.
"Personally, I want to rescue Director Dios. I think the
risk is worth taking. But I'm in no danger of ending up Am-
nion if absolutely everything goes wrong. I can't make a
choice like this for you.
"I won't argue with anything you decide. Say the word,
and I'll blow the seals, tear us back out of here. Hell," he
chuckled, "it won't be the first time I haven't done exactly
what I was told. And we might even survive for a while. I'll be
surprised if a fucker that big can fix targ on us when we're this
close. We'll still go out in a blaze of glory, but it won't be
until the real fighting starts."
He was probably right. As soon as Calm Horizons recog-
nized the betrayal, however, she would unleash her attack on
Suka Bator. Or on UMCPHQ and Punisher if her proton can-
non failed. Then the command module and Trumpet would be
ripped apart in the cross-fire.
Drifting near the intercom, Davies asked the only ques-
tion that mattered to him now. "Where's Angus?"
"On his way," Captain Ubikwe answered promptly. "But
he still hasn't reached the emitter. I would rattier wait where
we are until he heads back this way. Unfortunately Vestabule
has already ordered us to open the airlock." He snorted like a
subterranean explosion. "I don't think he's in the mood for
suspense. In any case, I don't know whether Angus' plan is
going to work. I have no idea what happens when you fill a
super-light proton cannon emitter with hull sealant." Calmly
he finished, "So it's up to you."
Vector cleared his throat. "What about Ciro, Captain?"
"He's out there." Dolph's tone conveyed a shrug. "But
I'm not sure we can count on him. We'll probably have to rely
on Mikka and Trumpet to keep us alive."
Davies heard a hint of concern behind Captain Ubikwe's
composure; but he didn't have time to pursue it. Vestabule has
already ordered— Mutely he looked at Vector for confirma-
tion.
Vector met Davies' eyes again and nodded. A rueful smile
twisted his mouth.
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said to the intercom, "Tell Vestabule we're on our way. As
soon as we get our helmets on."
Vehement with dread, he closed the toggle.
Shit. They had to go. Now or never. Whatever happened.
He snatched up his helmet, jammed it over his head, set
the seals. Almost at once the status indicators on the readout
inside the helmet showed green. He adjusted the polarization
of his faceplate to improve his vision as much as possible, then
turned for a last look at Vector.
Vector's helmet was already in place. The reflective sur-
face of his faceplate concealed him completely.
"I suppose," his voice breathed in Davies' internal
speaker, "I ought to say something about death before dis-
honor. It's traditional."
"Fuck that," Davies muttered. "I want to make a tradi-
tion of surviving."
Morn had done it under worse conditions than these.
Grimly he coded the sequence to open the module's air-
lock.
But his hands shook on the keys. Everything he did felt
brittle. His life had become breakable as glass, and he feared
that his own distress would shatter it before anyone else had a
chance to threaten it.
Vector was right. Surrender would have been more digni-
fied.
Alerts signaled from the control pad as the doors began to
ease aside. Servos worked the mechanism with a palpable
hum. Davies' external pickup brought in a low sigh as the
airlock's atmosphere equalized with the specific pressure of
the docking port. Inside his helmet Captain Ubikwe offered,
"Good luck." Then the command module stopped transmit-
ting.
The doors unsealed to a wash of acrid light. Both the
outer and inner iris-doors of Calm Horizons' airlock stood
open, letting the kind of radiance the Amnion preferred flow
through. It was the same sulfur-hued illumination into which
Davies Hyland had been born on Enablement Station. He re-
membered it vividly: the memory made him want to throw up.
That light seemed to catch and breed on the rough textures and
uneven surfaces of the ship, as if it were nourished by every
Amnion thing it touched.
He didn't wait for Vector. Passing himself rigidly from
handgrip to handgrip, he left the command module and en-
tered the defensive.
Vector followed less awkwardly. G afflicted him with con-
stant pain. He moved more easily weightless.
Davies assumed that he and Vector were scanned while
they crossed Calm Horizons' airlock; but he couldn't identify
any of the sensors or instruments. The Amnion grew their
technology in ways he couldn't begin to understand.
For no apparent reason, he found himself wondering how
Calm Horizons had found Trumpet in the immense labyrinth
of Massif-5. Presumably Soar must have guided the defensive
in. But how in hell had Sorus Chatelaine and Marc Vestabule
contrived to communicate with each other?
The Amnion had almost achieved near-C velocities. They
could communicate effectively across imponderable distances.
In some ways their technological resources were as fearsome
as their mutagens. Perhaps their sinks could shrug off the com-
bined fire of all Min Donner's ships.
Did they know he and Vector were armed? Could they


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tell? Angus had said not—but he wasn't here. Marc Vestabule
and the Amnion were.
Beyond the port airlock, Davies and Vector faced a huge
space like a cavern left behind by a receding flood of brim-
stone and lava. Maybe the light actually did feed on the walls.
Every span of the bulkheads and equipment seemed to glow
with implied heat. Davies guessed that the high chamber was a
cargo hold. Structures which resembled trees formed of
poured concrete stood as if rooted to every surface: they were
probably gantries, positioned for zero g. Cables like vines
spread at random angles from their limbs and trunks. Among
them the decks and walls were crisscrossed with magnetic rails
for transport sleds.
Despite its alienness, the hold eased one of Davies' wor-
ries. He'd feared facing Marc Vestabule and Warden Dios in
some featureless, constricted room where nothing was possi-
ble.
The actual situation was bad enough—
Ten meters beyond the airlock, four Amnion held the
floor. Two of them looked like replicas of each other: each
with four eyes so that they could see all around them; each
with three arms and legs. The other two had been grown to a
different design. One had four arms, the other five; and their
legs also might as well have been arms. They carried ambigu-
ous pieces of equipment, which they used with separate limbs.
Pouches hung from various shoulders. But all four of them
wore the gnarled crust which took the place of clothes for the
Amnion. And all four had the lipless mouths, lamprey teeth,
and merciless eyes of their kind.
"A reception committee," Vector murmured. "How
nice."
Davies ignored him.
He didn't see any guns. None of these Amnion held any-
thing comparable to the weapons he'd seen on Enablement.
That, too, eased a worry.
In front of the four creatures floated two men; or rather
one man and a mutated human being. Davies recognized Marc
Vestabule. He'd encountered the Amnioni once before; wasn't
likely to forget Vestabule's approximation of humanity. The
human side of Vestabule's face wore a vestigial look of con-
cern, which his alien features contradicted. He had what must
have been a PCR jacked into one of his ears and a pickup fixed
to his throat. If he commanded the defensive, he needed such
things to stay in contact with the bridge.
His companion was Warden Dios.
Davies had never met the UMCP director; never seen the
man before. However, Morn's memories filled the gap as ef-
fectively as personal knowledge. In some strange sense, he'd
known those strong, square fists and that thick chest longer
than he'd been alive. He recognized the patch which covered
Warden's left eye socket above the breathing mask: he knew it
concealed an IR prosthesis which enabled him—so they'd said
in the Academy—to detect lies no matter who told them. And
the direct force of Warden's human eye was familiar, as if
he'd stood under its scrutiny more than once.
He knew Director Dios couldn't see him, not through the
polarized mirror of his faceplate. Nevertheless he seemed to
feel Warden's gaze searching him as if the UMCP director
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Davies' metabolism burned too hotly for comfort inside
an EVA suit. Droplets of sweat broke free of his face, left odd
bits of refraction .and distortion on the inner surface of his
faceplate. In spite of the power drain, he dialed internal cool-
ing as high as it would go; increased the oxygen balance sup-
plied by his tanks. Still his skin felt flushed, as if he were
feverish—or ashamed to face the UMCP director.
In his memories, Warden Dios was a man who demanded
the best from everyone around him—and had the right to de-
mand it because he gave the best himself.
Davies looked around quickly to make sure there were no
other Amnion in the hold. At the edge of his faceplate he
noticed that the iris of the airlock remained open behind Vec-
tor. A kick of adrenaline carried new fear through his veins.
Were the Amnion planning to force their way aboard the com-
mand module? Was that what all this equipment was for?—to
pry open or cut through the module's seals?
If the airlock itself stayed open, Captain Ubikwe might
cause Warden's death before Angus could try to rescue any of
them.
For a moment neither Vestabule nor Warden Dios spoke:
they simply stared at the faceless EVA suits. Then the former
human turned to Warden. In a voice like flakes of oxidation,
he said, "The way is open, Warden Dios." He indicated the
airlock. "Will you depart?"
Depart—? Davies bit his lip to contain his alarm. Were
the Amnion willing to let Warden go? A hostage as valuable
as the UMCP director? What kind of deal had he made with
them?
What had they done to him?
Warden replied with a snort of derision. Nudging the deck
with one foot, he moved a meter closer to Davies and Vector;
ahead of the Amnion. As if he understood how they might take
Vestabule's offer, he said gruffly, "Don't worry about it. He
knows I can't leave. This is just his confused idea of a joke."
Behind him, Vestabule intoned, "The statement was
made that you would be permitted to return. I have abided by
it."
The Amnioni added a guttural sound to his throat pickup.
At once the hold airlock irised shut.
Warden snorted again. "One of the pleasures of dealing
with the Amnion," he rasped, "is the way they keep their
promises."
Before Vestabule could respond, the director asked
harshly, "Which of you is Davies Hyland?"
Davies raised his right hand as if he were taking an oath.
A clutch of panic gripped his chest, but he forced himself to
say, "I am."
Warden stared at him hard, then glanced toward Vector.
"In that case, you must be Dr. Shaheed."
Vector inclined his head. "As you say, Director Dios." A
small movement of his hands implied a shrug. "I hope you'll
forgive these suits. We aren't particularly eager to start breath-
ing that air."
Warden dismissed Vector's apology with a frown.
"There's nothing to forgive."
"Do not delay, Warden Dios," Vestabule warned. "We
must initiate thrust. You will ensure that there is no resis-
tance."
Warden's chin jutted as if he were grinding his teeth.
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told Davies and Vector. "You deserve more gratitude than I
can express. But I do want to make my position clear.
"Our host has given me the benefit of a delayed-action
mutagen. I imagine you're familiar with it. I'm still human
because he also gave me a temporary antidote. But when the
antidote wears off—" The corners of his jaw knotted. "That's
why I can't leave."
"Director Dios belongs to us," Vestabule stated flatly.
Warden grimaced. Bitter as acid, he drawled, "So please
don't torment yourselves thinking there must be something
you can do for me. You'll end up as confused as he is."
He may have meant, If you've got something planned,
leave me out of it. I can't help you. And there's nothing left of
me to save.
Davies' heart dropped. A flash of despair filled his throat
with ashes: for a moment he could hardly breathe. Angus was
right. A delayed-action— Like Ciro. Everything Angus
planned, everything Mikka and Ciro and Captain Ubikwe
risked had already come undone.
Now there was no reason to do anything except surrender.
But Vector reacted differently. "I'm sorry to hear that,
Director Dios," he murmured. "I know the mutagen you're
talking about. It shouldn't happen to a dog." Then he added
stiffly, "It's too bad 'our host' hasn't offered you a supply of
that temporary antidote. I assume he has one."
Warden's eye glinted fiercely. "Oh, he has one, all right.
He's just keeping it to himself."
Vector must have understood how Davies felt. Neverthe-
less a hint of resistance in his tone caught at Davies' attention.
Apparently he hadn't given up. Instead he was fighting for
time. Every word, every sentence, gave Angus a few more
seconds.
There was no reason to struggle—
No reason except anger and grief and humanity.
Davies took hold of himself; swallowed roughly. Angus'
inheritance beat in his veins. No matter what happened,
Morn's rapist and Warden's victim wouldn't surrender.
And if Davies could get the antidote from Vestabule—
Tension in the human parts of Vestabule's body suggested
impatience. "Our departure is imminent," he announced.
"We await the resolution of the political conflict which your
Director Donner warns us may turn to combat. She assures us
that we will not be threatened in any way. Nevertheless we
will retain our line of fire on the site of your Council until we
have witnessed the truth. Then we will commence our return
to Amnion space."
Davies gulped in surprise. Political conflict? Turn to com-
bat? My God, what had Morn told the Council?
But Vestabule hadn't paused. Inflexibly he commanded,
"You will remove your EVA suits."
The two Amnion carrying equipment and pouches drifted
forward.
Grimly Davies put Morn out of his mind.
It was time. Now or never. Time to face his terror.
Ciro would destroy Calm Horizons. Or Angus would. Or
Min Donner. One way or another, they'd all promised Davies
that he had nothing to lose except his life.
Trembling with more adrenaline and dread than he could
contain, he snapped harshly, "I don't think so."
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puzzlement or alarm.
Warden's scowl betrayed no reaction.
Davies snatched a breath of clean air, then reached up,
opened the seals of his helmet, and lifted it off his head. Delib-
erately he let the Amnion and Warden Dios see who he was;
recognize his father in him. After that he replaced his helmet
and sealed it again.
His eyes stung from the touch of Calm Horizons' atmo-
sphere. More sweat spattered the inside of his faceplate; too
much moisture for his suit to process all at once.
"I'm Davies Hyland," he told Vestabule. "You know me.
But I know you, too, and I'm offended by everything the Am-
nion did to you. As long as I prefer the taste of human air, I'm
going to stay in this suit."
Vestabule stared at him. "Then we will force you from
it."
"No, you won't," Davies countered. He did his best to
sound certain. "Dr. Shaheed and I came here to surrender, and
that's what we're going to do. You can't force us if we cooper-
ate."
Surprise them, Angus had told him. Confuse them. Keep
them off balance.
"Here." Cursing the tremors which shook his arms, he
snatched off his left glove, shoved it under his belt, and
jammed his sleeve back to expose his forearm. "Shoot me
up." With his fingers clenched and his sharp-edged line hid-
den in his palm, he pointed his fist at the Amnion. "Transform
me. Then I'll take the suit off myself. It probably won't fit me
anyway."
Warden thrust his hands deep into his pockets like a man
who wanted to show everyone that he wasn't doing anything.
Vestabule started to reply; but something distracted him.
A slight cock of his head gave the impression that he was
listening to his PCR. He rasped a few alien sounds in re-
sponse.
A subtle tension eased its grip on his human muscles.
"It appears that your Director Donner has spoken hon-
estly," he reported as if he considered this relevant to Davies'
behavior. "The station identified as UMCHO has opened fire
on your center of government."
Davies clenched his teeth to control his reaction. For a
moment he couldn't pull his eyes away from the open flare of
concern and hope on Warden's face. UMCHO meant Holt
Fasner. The man who owned the UMCP was trying to destroy
Suka Bator.
The "political conflict" had become "combat" with a
vengeance. Somehow Morn's testimony had sent humankind
to war against itself.
Warden's expression said as clearly as words that he'd
caused this to happen. Directly or indirectly, he was responsi-
ble for it. He'd given Morn and Davies a chance to master
Angus so that she would be able to come here and tell her
story.
"Your ships respond with a concerted attack on that sta-
tion," Vestabule continued. "Our scan reports that the sta-
tion's shields are inadequate to withstand such an attack."
Before he could conceal what he felt, Warden's alarm
ignited into a look of pure exultation. His fists formed knots of
victory in his pockets as Vestabule added, "We estimate that
UMCHO will be destroyed before significant harm has been
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Perhaps because the Amnioni remembered some of his
humanity, he kept insisting that he still had hostages. Yet he
didn't seem to grasp the significance of Holt Fasner's defeat.
As if Min's forewarning had led him to this conclusion,
he told Davies, "Your Director Donner stated that we would
not be threatened. She has dealt with us honestly. We will
accept your surrender."
Without any discernible instructions or signals, he sent
the two Amnion with all the extra arms toward Davies and
Vector.
In the space between one heartbeat and the next, every-
thing else vanished from Davies' head. The implications of
Warden's accomplishment; the danger to Angus and Ciro;
Punisher; Suka Bator: everything. His entire being sprang into
focus on the moment of his worst nightmare.
As they advanced, each Amnioni unlimbered a pouch
from one of its shoulders. Hands opened the pouches: more
hands reached inside and brought out hypos.
Lambent with sulfur and brimstone, the fluid in the hypos
looked like liquid ruin.
Some of their equipment had begun to wink and murmur
like mass detectors. Davies guessed that the devices performed
some kind of tissue scan. Perhaps they measured and evaluated
the effects of mutagens.
The Amnion may have intended to give Vector the same
mutagen they'd forced on Warden. Then they could use his
humanity as a lever to help them extract his knowledge. But
Davies was sure that they had something different in mind for
him.
Hell, the drug meant for him might not be a mutagen at
all. It might be— His heart hammered as he realized the peril.
It might be a nerve-block; an alien version of cat; something to
paralyze him so that the Amnion could study him at their
leisure.
"I don't think I can do this, Davies," Vector croaked.
The vibration of fear in his voice sawed against his impulse to
resist. But it wasn't the hypo that scared him.
"Do it," Davies demanded in panic.
Hesitantly Vector removed one of his gloves and tucked it
into his belt. His hand seemed to drift away from him of its
own accord, extending itself to the nearest Amnioni.
Davies had promised himself that he would wait until af-
ter he'd been given the injection—until after the Amnion re-
laxed because they felt sure of him. Angus needed the time.
But the danger had suddenly become too great. As his desig-
nated victimizer approached him, he threw out all his plans.
He opened his bare hand, slipped one handle of his mono-
filament line between his fingers.
Too soon, too soon, he flung himself into motion.
While the Amnioni reached its hypo toward him, he
whipped out the line so that its weighted end lashed it around
the creature's wrist. Then he leaped at the alien, planted his
boots in the center of its chest, and heaved on the line with all
his might.
His elevated endocrine system supplied more force than
his muscles naturally possessed. And the polysilicate chips
crusting the line were as sharp as scalpels. The line tore
through tissue and bone; rip-cut the Amnioni's hand off.
From the rent stump a geyser of greenish blood sprayed
the air, formed a weightless fountain across the acrid light; so



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much blood a man could have drowned in it. It splashed heav-
ily onto the front of his EVA suit, half blinded his faceplate.
The Amnioni gave out a hoarse wail like a klaxon of pain.
Shrill as anguish, the sound rang in his helmet. Nevertheless
the creature grappled for him with other arms; struggled to
capture him while its life gushed out of it.
For an instant he ignored the clutch; fought it only enough
to turn in the air and slash a kick at the severed hand—at the
hypo. His boot shattered the hypo, added drugs or mutagens to
the spume of blood.
Vector hadn't moved. He stood as if he were frozen in
shock.
At once Davies turned again, into the Amnioni's grasp.
Two arms caught him, three, wrapped around him, hugged him
close. He used the creature's pressure as well as his own to
pull his line toward the creature's head; loop it around the
creature's neck.
But he had no leverage now. Human muscle couldn't
match Amnion. The arms closed on him; began to crush him.
The alien should have been growing weaker by the second, yet
it remained powerful enough to break his bones.
He heard a distant crumpling noise—a muffled explosion;
the kind of sound that should have been followed by decom-
pression alerts. But if Calm Horizons cried a warning he
couldn't hear it; or didn't understand it.
The alien arms squeezed harder.
Without transition Warden appeared at the Amnioni's
back. Strong as stones, his hands gripped the creature's head.
His fingers gouged more pain into its eyes.
Its wailing scaled higher. Its embrace loosened.
Davies couldn't break free, but he could shift backward.
Jamming his free hand to the keypad on his chest, he activated
his suit jets.
A waldo harness around his hips controlled the jets.
When he jammed his pelvis to the side, a burst of pressure
snatched him out of the Amnioni's arms.
His line cut through the creature's neck until it snagged
on bone. The handle and his fist were slick with blood: the
power of the jets jerked the weapon from his grip. Then his
jets carried him away.
Twisting his hips, he shot toward the forest of gantries. As
he soared, he slapped at his faceplate, trying to clear off some
of the blood.
Vector still hadn't moved. Damn it, he was paralyzed by
his fear of fighting. At the last moment he'd decided to let his
life end without a struggle—
No, Davies was wrong. Vector had moved. He must have.
The Amnioni assigned to him drifted limp in front of him
now, its arms slack, its hypo gone. Its instruments winked
uselessly. Deep in one eye it wore a long sliver of plastic
sharpened like a dirk.
Yes. Two down.
Slowly, methodically, Vector pulled his glove back onto
his exposed hand like a man who could afford to take his time
because his job was done.
Alien voices shouted incomprehensible commands or
warnings.
Davies' jets made him faster than any unassisted Am-
nioni. He ducked past a cable in his way, caught hold of the
first gantry arm he reached, and swung around it in time to see
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Warden must have kicked himself away from the deck
after Davies. He may have tried to hook a ride on Davies' jets
and missed. Coasting weightless, he couldn't deflect his trajec-
tory when Vestabule came after him.
Vestabule's legs were stronger: his leap lifted him faster
than Warden could move. At the last instant Warden scissored
a kick at Vestabule's head; but Vestabule slapped Warden's
boot aside, clamped a fist onto his thigh. Climbing Warden
hand-over-hand, Vestabule struck him a sweeping blow which
snapped his head back; may have cracked his spine. He
slumped in Vestabule's grasp, his head lolling.
Jets at full power, Davies dove at Vestabule before he
realized that the two remaining Amnion, the guards, were clos-
ing on him.
By pure chance his maneuver surprised them. He flashed
through their arms; drove past them toward Vestabule. Inertia
carried them onto the gantry.
With almost human vehemence, Vestabule threw War-
den's inert form at the nearest bulkhead. Then he wrenched
himself around in midair to face Davies.
Davies' hands had already found his belt-pouch: his fin-
gers snatched out his whetted plastic shard. As Vestabule
grabbed for him, he hammered his weapon at Vestabule's face.
His strike had all the force of his jets and his arm behind
it. Vestabule stopped it with the only defense available: he put
his hand in the way. Davies plunged his dagger into the Am-
nioni's palm and then ripped it away again as he roared past.
More blood. Shit, the atmosphere was already full of
blood—
He slewed his hips to turn; launched himself in a desper-
ate effort to catch Warden before Warden struck the bulkhead.
He saw at once that he was too late. Vestabule had hurled
Warden too hard for Davies to overtake him. But Vector had
no one to fight: he could react more quickly. Rising unexpect-
edly from the deck, he drifted along the bulkhead in time to
interpose himself between Warden and the rough metal.
Warden's momentum slammed both of them into the
wall. But Vector's body cushioned the impact. Cradling War-
den in his arms, he rebounded slowly toward a nearby gantry.
A hand closed on Davies' ankle. One of the guards had
sprung back from a gantry-limb at an angle that intersected
Davies' trajectory. Before the guard could improve its hold, he
slashed at the hand with his blade, jerked his ankle free, and
wheeled off in an uncontrolled tumble of evasive jet blasts.
A voice he seemed to recognize screamed in his ears. It
might have been his.
"Angus, God damn you! Get in here!"
The next instant an explosion like a massive fist of thun-
der staggered the entire hold. God, it must have staggered the
whole ship! Cables lurched drunkenly: gantry-arms bobbed
and swayed. One of the structures bowed as if it were about to
topple—but of course it had nowhere to go in zero g.
The explosion echoed inside Davies' helmet; clanged pain
into his ears. A moment passed before he realized that he
could hear the unmistakable sizzling hull-roar of matter can-
non fire.
At the same time Calm Horizons' drives came to life,
yowling for power until the bulkheads seemed to shriek in
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That explosion may have been the destruction of the pro-
ton cannon. Davies prayed it was as he flipped himself around
a gantry to scan the hold.
Vestabule and the two guards had apparently decided to
ignore Vector and Warden. They all fought their own inertia
and weightlessness in order to converge on Davies—the-prize
for which Calm Horizons and everyone aboard was willing to
die.
From an entryway opposite Davies' position, four more
Amnion appeared. Summoned to Vestabule's aid— They wore
jet-pods on their hips: they carried guns. Clustered for assault,
they left the deck and sailed in his direction.
Seven Amnion. Four with guns. And he was effectively
alone. No sign of Angus. Warden was unconscious—or dead.
Vector had already done more than he would have believed
possible.
At the start of Davies' life, Morn had told him, As far as
I'm concerned, you're the second most important thing in the
galaxy. You're my son. But the first, the most important thing
is to not betray my humanity. She'd faced worse than this in
the name of that conviction. And she'd found an answer that
was better than gap-sickness and suicide; better than surren-
der.
Calm Horizons was already as good as dead.
His elevated metabolism gave him all the strength he
needed; all the courage—
Cocking his hips, he blasted into motion. A mad howl
overwhelmed his suit's external speaker.
"Come and get me, you bastards!''
His own last battle had also begun.
ANGUS
The part he didn't give a shit
about was easy. Save the
Governing fucking Council for Earth and Space. What fun.
Several different jamming fields cloaked him until he reached
the super-light proton cannon. And hull-sealant hardened al-
most instantly. A database told him more than he wanted to
know about it. In 1.7 seconds it stiffened enough to stand
against decompression: in 4.2 it became so hard that it could
face limited amounts of impact fire and matter cannon as if it
were steel. Proton fire would tear it apart, of course—but he
only needed five seconds to fill the emitter with so much seal-
ant that the gun would probably shatter itself at the same time.
Call it twelve seconds altogether, and the Amnion lost
most of their hostages. The fucking Members were safe.
The rest of what he had to do would be a hell of a lot
harder.
If he had any sense—if he were still the man he remem-
bered being—he would head back to Trumpet; take his ship
away from Mikka. When the fighting started, he could protect
himself with the gap scout's dispersion field until he got a
chance to burn for open space and the gap.
But he didn't do that. He hardly considered it. Instead he
launched himself with all his reinforced strength toward the
docking port where Punisher's command module rested
against Calm Horizons' side.
He'd become someone he didn't know at all.
He'd offered to sabotage the proton cannon in order to
placate Morn; so that she would agree to the rest of his
scheme. But his promise to her wasn't the only reason he'd
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Dios, Davies, and Vector—and to destroy Calm Horizons—
were desperately precarious. Any one of a thousand things
could go wrong. So he was forced to hope that Vestabule
would realize he'd been betrayed and try to destroy Suka Ba-
tor. When the proton cannon shattered, it might do enough
damage to distract the Amnion.
As he sailed toward the docking port, he blocked his ter-
ror of EVA and his fear of death by correlating databases on
matter cannon, EVA suits, and his own welding. He remem-
bered vividly the terrible blast of pain which had nearly fin-
ished him back in Deaner Beckmann's asteroid swarm, when
the quantum discontinuities of Trumpet's battle with Soar—
and the effects of Trumpet's dispersion field—had hit his EM
prosthesis like a sledgehammer. Now everything depended on
the enhanced vision Lebwohl's medtechs had given him. If
any of these damn ships or stations opened fire for any reason,
or if Calm Horizons tried to use her proton cannon unexpect-
edly, he might find his head burned open by distortion on
bandwidths hot enough to slag the neurons of his brain. Killed
by his own augmentation—
He absolutely could not afford to be blinded. Not now:
not while he was still so far from the docking port, and Davies
and Vector were fighting for their lives, and Ciro wasn't even
close to being in position. If he reached the port without the
full, effective use of his prosthesis, he might as well unseal his
helmet and let the cold dark have him. Everything would be
lost.
So he followed trails of numbers across the gathered
knowledge Dios had made available to him; adjusted the polar-
ization of his faceplate to compensate. Then he checked the
numbers again. Through his datalink he did what he could to
ready his zone implants for a catastrophe.
As he'd feared, there was no setting which might ward off
the EM side effects of a super-light proton explosion.
God, this fucking warship was big! He'd crossed less than
half the distance, and he was already close to contact with the
hull, drawn off his trajectory by Calm Horizons' mass. In an-
other few seconds he would be forced to touch down so that he
could kick himself into flight again. Or else he would have to
activate the magnetism of his boots and try running.
Either way, he would lose time.
He looked up at Trumpet through a smear of sweat;
cursed viciously when he saw that Ciro hadn't moved. The
damn lunatic lay where Angus had left him, even though he
should have been halfway to his position by now. If he didn't
carry out his part of the plan on schedule, Trumpet and the
command module were almost certainly doomed, along with
everyone aboard—Mikka and the fat man, not to mention
Angus himself, Davies and Vector, Warden Dios.
Angus understood that Ciro had no intention of surviving.
But he'd believed, trusted, that the demented kid didn't want
to waste his own death.
He keyed his helmet pickup; filled his lungs to howl at
Mikka's paralyzed brother.
Before he could start, distant space erupted with fire.
Wrenching himself around, he turned in time to see lasers
and matter cannon strike out from a station orbiting beyond
UMCPHQ. In the first instant of the attack, he didn't know
which astonished him more: the assault itself, defying Min
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For some insane reason, the station used lasers to punch a
hole through Earth's atmosphere so its matter cannon could
pound a target on the surface.
It made no sense. Someone on that station had gone stark
staring spaceshit crazy.
Nevertheless it was a gift. By God, it was a damn bless-
ing. He could see that because his faceplate protected him.
And it got better a few seconds later, when every ship in
Donner's cordon—and UMCPHQ as well—opened on that
station. Without transition the black void came to life in hot
streaks of matter cannon fire punctuated by the broad, blurred-
edge roar of impact guns, the coherent ruin of lasers. Torpe-
does followed, freighted with slower death. Destructive fury
concentrated on the station from several directions at once.
Suddenly the whole platform took incandescence as its shields
and sinks shrieked at the force of the bombardment.
Donner must have been ready for this; must have seen it
coming—
Angus didn't stop to wonder how.
He wanted a diversion? Shit, he got one. The Amnion
weren't likely to spot him—or Ciro—while they had a fire-
show like that to worry about.
He was distracted himself. Abruptly he plowed into the
hull, slammed along it with the full force of his inertia. For an
instant he couldn't breathe, couldn't think: his brain went
blind in terror while he waited for the swift, excruciated death
of decompression. But his suit didn't rupture: his thin EVA
skin held against the impact.
Machine logic came to his rescue immediately. In a rush
of emission his zone implants quelled his panic. He bounded
up from the hull as fast as he'd hit.
The distant station had begun to throb and flare with cor-
uscation like a sun about to go nova.
Trusting Donner's diversion, Angus sent power to his jets,
cocked his hips, and dove into flight toward the docking port.
To his relief, he saw Ciro move at last. Like him, the boy
used his suit jets. Ciro hadn't been paralyzed: he must have
been waiting for something like this to cover him. More
quickly than Angus would have thought possible, he lifted off
Trumpet with a singularity grenade tethered to his belt; hauled
its uncompromising mass toward Calm Horizons.
Now! Angus yelled at Dolph. Do it now! But he silenced
his pickup first. Dolph Ubikwe didn't need any urging to carry
out his assignment. Mikka might lose control of herself when
she thought about her brother; but the man who'd lost com-
mand of his ship to Morn wouldn't fail.
Dolph waited until Ciro was clear. Then the module
aimed a kick of thrust at Calm Horizons' side. Not enough to
send the module and Trumpet wheeling away, out of reach:
just enough to break the grip of the defensive's docking seals.
Followed by a small gust of escaped air, the module drifted
slowly off the port guides—ten meters, fifteen, twenty. There a
gentle braking nudge stopped the vessel's movement; held it
stationary in relation to the port.
The module and Trumpet still clung to each other, at-
tached hatchair-to-airlock and gripped by magnetic clamps.
Dolph had opened the way for Angus.
Past the module Angus caught a glimpse of Ciro, arcing
along the warship's flank with his fatal burden in tow.
Be careful, he warned Ciro mutely. That damn thing
weighed more than five hundred kg. Now that he had it mov-


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ing, it wouldn't stop just because he told it to.
But he'd already said that to Ciro; more than once. He
had to trust that the boy would do his part; keep his promise.
Angus also had promises to keep. Adjusting his hips to
steer his jets, he flew into the gap between the module and
Calm Horizons, and plunged like a projectile down the guides
toward the sealed outer iris of the defensive's airlock.
At the last moment he flipped to reverse his head and feet;
used his jets for braking. His boots struck the iris with stinging
force, but his reinforced joints absorbed the impact. His mo-
mentum threatened to rebound him toward the module: with a
slew of his hip, he redirected himself sideward. Before re-
flected inertia could drag him away, he grabbed a zero-g grip
beside the airlock's exterior control panel.
Alerts flashed at him inside his helmet: he was breathing
too hard; sweating too much; dehydrating— He steadied him-
self with a flick of his zone implants. An Amnioni could open
the airlock from here, but the keys and codes were incompre-
hensible to him. He was prepared for that, however. With one
hand he reset the polarization of his faceplate for maximum
clarity; switched off all his suit lights and indicators so that
they wouldn't hamper his EM vision. Then he undipped one
of his cutting lasers from his belt and raised it in front of the
control panel.
He couldn't work the keys; but if he cut exactly the right
circuits in exactly the right order, the iris would open for him
—and he would still be able to close it from the inside.
If he didn't succeed—if he got inside and failed to shut
the door again—he might very well die in the explosive de-
compression when he unsealed the inner iris. Dios would cer-
tainly be killed. Davies and Vector might not survive.
He couldn't have done it without his zone implants: he
was too scared to concentrate. This was going to take too long,
he didn't have time for it. But emissions directed by his com-
puter imposed calm on the troubled centers of his brain. His
vision slowly shrank as other kinds of input ceased to affect
his optic nerves. By degrees he began to discern a faint EM
tracery, echoing the circuits behind the panel.
They were as legible as words—a language which his
computer, his databases, and a lifetime of desperate experi-
ence knew how to interpret. The delicate lines of electronic
command, ineffable as the links between synapses, ran there.
If they were disrupted here, shunted that way, they would fol-
low those microscopic pathways.
His cutter had already been set so fine that its red beam
was scarcely visible: it should have been impossible to control.
But his attention was cybernetically fixed to the EM field of
the panel. His muscles moved by machine increments: his
computer and his zone implants held him firm. A minute line
of ruby burned into the surface; burned into the circuits.
The next moment the iris slid wide, releasing one swift
expulsion of air into the embattled dark.
At once Angus pushed off from his handgrip; swung into
the airlock.
The lock was thick with EM fields, scanning against dan-
gerous intrusions. His equipment jammed them all: he could
almost see the sensors' bandwidths lose coherence; break up
in confusion. Nevertheless the Amnion might guess that he
was here—that some kind of treachery was at work. Their
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Circuit diagnostics would report damage.
There was nothing he could do about that. Now only
speed would save him.
But he didn't know how to reseal the airlock. Simply
pounding on the control panel might not work. Cutting the
circuits again would take time.
Tentatively he touched one key; another; several in com-
bination. Nothing.
He had no way of knowing whether Davies and Vector
were still alive. They'd already been in there too long; any-
thing could have happened. If he was right—if Dios had been
injected with a mutagen like the one which had ruled Sorus
Chatelaine, made Ciro crazy—the UMCP director may have
helped Vestabule capture or kill Angus' bait.
Grimly Angus tapped the keys of his suit's receiver; tuned
his radio to the same frequency Davies and Vector used.
At once he heard gasping, strain; violent exertion.
Shit! He was too late. The fight had already started.
He snatched up his cutter, pushed his face close to the
internal control panel, begged his zone implants for help—
"Angus, God damn you!" Davies' shout slammed
through his helmet like a blow from a mine-hammer. "Get in
here!''
I'm working on it! Angus retorted in mute savagery. Give
me a fucking minute!
Contract his vision; narrow his eyes against distraction;
focus on the impalpable electron filigree of the circuits.
Do it.
Before he could get started, a concussion like the punch
of a cannon crashed through the ship. Calm Horizons lurched
with impact as if she'd been rammed by a battlewagon. The
bulkhead holding the control panel jerked at him; struck him
hard in the center of his faceplate.
Instantly his faceplate starred into a fretwork of cracks,
delicate and fatal; but he didn't see it happen. He was blinded
by a scream of randomized proton fire which wailed past the
rim of the iris into his prosthesis. His EM sight shrieked on
every wavelength it could perceive. Howling white pain ripped
along his nerves, tore open his brain, shredded his mind—
For an aeon which his computer measured in picoseconds,
Angus Thermopyle ceased to exist.
Then his zone implants threw up a wall against the pain,
shut down tortured synapses all across his cortex; and he
seemed to fall back into his body. Sweating like a pig, shaking
feverishly, retching in agony, he became conscious of his EVA
suit again; felt echoes of anguish crawl along his skin; saw
alerts winking fear at him from his helmet readouts.
For a heartbeat or two, he stared at the web of cracks in
his faceplate without understanding what it was.
Or why he wasn't dead.
Well, why wasn't he dead? Why hadn't his faceplate
failed in the vacuum of the open airlock?
And what had happened to the boson fury of the proton
cannon's self-destruction? The EM storm of a detonation like
that should have lasted longer than this.
Residual pain left him stupid. Two or three more seconds
passed before he noticed that the outer iris had sealed itself.
The explosion must have triggered automatic damage-control
responses all around the ship; overridden the airlock circuits.
The door had closed out the storm.
But he should have died anyway. The lock still held vac-


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uum, not air.
Somehow his faceplate had retained a degree of integrity.
How much integrity, he didn't know. He only knew that
the plexulose hadn't finished shattering itself, blown outward
by the pressure inside his suit.
A distant roar reached him: the scorching blaze of matter
cannon, transmitted through the hull until the whole ship
seemed to sizzle. The bulkheads shuddered with strain as
Calm Horizons' thrust came to life in a tremendous howl of
power.
He couldn't think. There must have been something he
was supposed to do, something important—something besides
fight against puking. If he let himself vomit now his own spew
would smother him in minutes. But he had no idea what was
expected of him. His programming seemed to have fallen into
stasis, burned to quiescence by the effects of the proton blast.
His stunned confusion lasted until he heard Davies howl,
"Come and get me, you bastards!
Abruptly he forgot his need to vomit. His zone implants
force-fed desperation into his veins; fired his heart with
enough adrenaline to boil blood. Shit, Davies! Vector and
Warden Dios. Mikka and the fat man.
And a crack-starred faceplate.
Shitshitshit.
He gave up on being careful.
With both his cutters in his hands, he set them to full
power; gave them the force of laser pistols. First he raked a
pair of red beams through the panel of the inner iris, reduced
the command wiring to slag. Then he burned a short-circuit
into the leads of the door servo.
Autonomically responsive, the servo swept the iris open.
With a sound like a blow, unequalized air pressure
slapped into the lock; caught him hard enough to fling him
against the outer seal. But he ignored the impact, the pain; the
danger to his suit. Gathering his strength, he recoiled headlong
toward the opening ahead of him.
His jets carried him across a cargo hold awash with bitter
light, empty of shadows. Gantries stood at various angles, ex-
tending their limbs like crusted skeletons with the ruined sin-
ews of cables draped over them. Plumes and splashes of thick
Amnion blood decorated the air, drifting lost in zero g. Two
alien corpses hung nearby, one nearly beheaded, the other with
a plastic spike in one of its eyes.
At the edges of his vision, his prosthesis registered the
EM crackle of impact guns. Wheeling his hips in the suit's
waldo harness, he spun to scan the hold.
Cracks distorted the view through his faceplate. Inside his
helmet, alerts signaled frantically for his attention. With an
effort of will and zone implants, he focused past the obstacles
to locate Davies and Vector.
At a swift glance, he counted ten figures scattered around
the high space, seven of them Amnion. Three of the ten strug-
gled together in a knot a few meters from one of the bulk-
heads. The others whipsawed back and forth past each other
among the arms and trunks of the gantries, dodging blows and
impact fire.
The three were Vestabule, Dios, and—apparently—Vec-
tor. Neither Vector nor Dios could match Vestabule's Amnion
strength. But Dios had caught Vestabule in a headlock, his
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And Vector held on to Dios, using his suit jets to control both
men; keep Vestabule between Dios and the Amnion with guns.
Because they were all weightless and floating, Vestabule didn't
have the leverage to break Dios' grip.
The remaining six Amnion flung themselves around the
gantries in a grim, concerted attempt to trap or kill Davies.
Only four of them held guns; but that should have been
more than enough. Davies' jets were all that kept him alive.
He could move faster than any of his opponents; change direc-
tion in midair; flash between enemies so that they couldn't risk
shooting at him.
Shit, with those odds, Angus gave the kid about five more
seconds—
Vector and Dios would have to fend for themselves.
Angus concentrated on the armed Amnion.
Wrenching himself to a new trajectory, he fired both la-
sers simultaneously. Guided by computer calculations and
zone implants and terror, precise as an infernal machine, he
burned one Amnioni through the head; ripped open the chest
of another—
—and jammed his hips to the side so that he careened
away in a mad tumble, slewing insanely through the sudden
roar of the impact guns aimed at him.
"Angus!" Davies yelled, so fiercely that he might have
torn his vocal cords. "By God!"
Impelled by his jets, Davies dove at a cable, caught hold
of it and swung; drove his boots like pistons into the face of
the nearest Amnioni firing at Angus.
 Angus lashed out with another double burst of coherent
force. He should have been out of control; disoriented by his
cartwheeling flight; spin-drunk; unable to see. But he was a
master of zero-g combat: he'd spent decades training for fights
that involved hurtling mass, evasive maneuvers, abrupt attack.
And his programming didn't suffer the confusion of sensory
input. Both his lasers gutted another Amnioni before the crea-
ture could adjust its aim.
Over and over again Davies hammered his plastic dirk
into the throat of the last armed alien. Thick blood sprayed his
faceplate and suit as he pounded his blade at the creature's
life. Maybe he couldn't see; didn't know the Amnioni was
already dead. Maybe he couldn't see its impact gun drifting
past him a meter from his head.
Strangled rage echoed in Angus' helmet.
Angus hauled on his jets, struggled to stabilize his trajec-
tory. Too late he saw the rough trunk of a gantry rush at his
head. With a yowl of propulsion and panic, he snatched him-
self aside.
The trunk struck him a glancing blow as he passed. His
head snapped backward. For a fraction of a second, his vision
turned gray at the edges; melted toward darkness. Then his
computer tightened its grip on the neural network of his cor-
tex, jerked him back from unconsciousness.
His sight sprang clear to a glare of damage alerts from his
internal indicators. Atmosphere hissed past his cheeks. He
found himself staring at a crack that ran through his faceplate
from top to bottom. His mouth and lungs tasted the acrid bite
of Amnion air.
His suit had lost vacuum integrity. He was stuck aboard
Calm Horizons.
ShitshitshitChrist!
"Angus!" Vector's voice croaked in his ears. "Davies is


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in trouble!"
Cursing savagely, Angus wheeled against his inertia; saw
an Amnioni attach itself to Davies from behind and start twist-
ing his head off. Blinded by blood, Davies hadn't seen the
creature coming. A rifle floated out of reach in front of him.
Angus had lost track of the last Amnioni—and didn't
waste time worrying about it. Risking a precious second, he
skidded sideways to improve his angle of fire. Then he slagged
Davies' attacker through the center of its misshapen skull.
Davies flopped free of the Amnioni, twitching as if his
neck were broken.
Angus' panic struck so swiftly that he couldn't name it.
The man he'd become seemed to have no choice: instead of
whirling to scan the hold, locate the last creature, make sure
Vector and Dios hadn't lost their grip on Vestabule, he flung
himself toward his son.
Before he'd covered half the distance, Vector cried out
another warning.
Angus ignored him; ignored the danger. In a dumb confu-
sion of alarm and relief, he watched Davies slowly raise one
hand, wipe a smear of blood off his faceplate, then reach out
for the impact gun drifting near him.
His neck wasn't broken. He couldn't have moved like that
with a crushed or severed spinal cord.
Before Angus remembered Vector's warning, an Amnioni
with at least twice his mass slammed into him like the rock-
shattering punch of a mine-hammer.
The impact drove the air from his lungs: for an instant it
overwhelmed his zone implants. More arms than he could
count wrapped themselves around him. Hands he couldn't see
grappled for his cutters. One of his lasers was forced out of his
fist.
He let it go. Desperately he fought to twist in the Am-
nioni's grasp so that he could bring his other gun to bear
before the creature hit him with a blaze of focused flame.
Even his welded strength was no match for the Am-
nioni's. He didn't have enough arms to struggle adequately.
But struts reinforcing his joints gave him leverage: terror and
zone implants augmented his natural muscle. Too late, too
slowly, he shifted against the creature's embrace. Give him
two more seconds, and he would be able to reach his assail-
ant's torso with his laser.
He didn't have two seconds. At the edge of his ruined
faceplate, he saw the Amnioni aim its laser at the side of his
helmet from point-blank range.
Without realizing what he did, he screamed in fury and
horror—a howl from the bottom of his soul.
Deafened by his own cry, he didn't hear the bark of the
impact rifle as Davies fired.
The gun's force wailed across his prosthesis—a yell of
energy as vivid as his terror, but more effective. The neural
convulsion as the Amnioni died gripped him tight, then flung
him free. Momentarily stunned, he tumbled away.
His helmet speakers reported Davies' voice.
"Angus? Angus! Are you all right?"
Davies sounded concerned. That amazed Angus as much
as the fact that he was still alive.
Because he knew how Davies felt, he coughed into his
pickup, "Can't you tell? I thought I was still screaming."
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flight so that he could look around the hold.
"God, Angus," Davies returned weakly, drained by exer-
tion or relief, "that was close. I didn't think we— What took
you so long? Another minute and we were finished."
A moment later he groaned, "Oh, shit. Angus, your
faceplate— It's cracked." Shock stretched his voice to a
whisper. "And we only have one spare suit."
The suit Angus still carried strapped to his back.
Gasping against the harsh cut of the Amnion air, Angus
nudged the jet waldo to change directions. The alerts inside
his helmet were going crazy: dehydration and hyperthermia;
lost atmosphere. With a jerk of one hand, he canceled the
status displays, shut down all the suit's systems except air and
temperature regulation. The circuits and readouts were useless
to him now. If he wanted to survive, he would have to take
risks so extreme that they violated every condition the suit's
designers had ever imagined.
Or he would have to use the suit he'd brought for Dios;
let the bastard die here.
Fervently he wished that he was still capable of aban-
doning the UMCP director. Short days ago he could have done
it easily; without a qualm. He might have enjoyed it. And he'd
been released from the programmed restrictions which kept
him from harming UMCP personnel: he should have been able
to leave Dios behind. Hell, he should have been able to kill the
motherfucker himself. But other inhibitions held him, as com-
pulsory as his datacore.
Inspired by dread, he searched one database after another
for alternatives.
"Angus," Vector panted urgently, "we need to get out of
here. This ship is moving." New g and the distant yowl of
thrust made that obvious. "We still have to deal with
Vestabule. And there must be more Amnion on the way."
Angus didn't doubt that. Vestabule had what must have
been a PCR jacked into his ear. He made guttural sounds
Angus couldn't translate. Calling for help—
Beyond the bulkheads, matter cannon fried the dark. If
Mikka and the fat man screwed up now—
With all his alerts and indicators dead, Angus turned be-
tween the gantries; rode his jets back toward Vector, Dios, and
Vestabule.
Vestabule had stopped struggling. In fact, Dios had let
him go. Davies drifted in front of him, gripping an impact rifle
with its muzzle aligned on his chest.
The accumulating g of thrust pulled them all slowly
toward the deck as they confronted each other. They would
have fallen already if Calm Horizons hadn't been handicapped
by slow brisance drives.
One of Davies' hands was bare. The sulfurous illumina-
tion made his skin seem unnaturally vulnerable—closer to
death than the Amnion corpses settling as Calm Horizons
gathered momentum. Other than that, his suit appeared intact.
So did Vector's. Angus couldn't tell what condition his com-
panions were in: reflection and polarization hid their faces.
But Dios was completely exposed—defenseless without
an EVA suit. He looked pale and strained, bleached of
strength, like a man with a concussion. A heavy blow had left
a swelling lump over his eyepatch. Pain glazed his human eye,
muffling its penetration, its light of command. Nevertheless he
watched Vestabule and Angus without flinching.
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Vestabule. Over the years he'd had too many victims: he
couldn't remember them all. Viable Dreams alone had carried
twenty-seven other men and women. And he hadn't known
any of their names. Yet Vestabule's face had stayed in his
mind.
Marc Vestabule had fought so hard against being turned
over to the Amnion that he'd almost killed Angus.
He was silent now. Any help he'd been able to summon
was on its way. Angus searched his face for signs of the ata-
vistic terror which had enabled him to retain vestiges of his
humanity. But it was gone. Even the frantic signaling of his
human eye revealed nothing.
"Angus Thermopyle," he pronounced harshly, "you
have done great harm."
"I hope so," Angus muttered. Obviously the Amnioni
knew whom to blame for his defeat. But no amount of harm to
the Amnion would compensate Angus for his ruined faceplate.
As their boots touched the deck, Vector sighed, "Shit,
Angus. You can't go outside like that. You'll be dead before
we leave the airlock."
He hesitated for a moment or two, then offered regret-
fully, "I'll stay. I'm surplus personnel anyway. And this tub
won't last much longer. I'll die human. You can use my hel-
met."
He raised his hands to the seals as if he were determined
to sacrifice himself somehow.
"It will not be forgotten," Vestabule stated.
Angus forestalled Vector. "Fuck that." His zone implants
helped him master his breathing. He knew all his suit's design
parameters, every detail of its construction. "We've got other
things to worry about. And we haven't run out of options
yet."
The more Calm Horizons accelerated, the harder it would
be for Ubikwe to hold the command module and Trumpet in
position. But the defensive needed all the force she could gen-
erate for her guns, shields, and sinks. And her thrust was in-
herently slow. She couldn't acquire velocity quickly.
"The Amnion will not forget it," Vestabule continued.
Angus wished the Amnioni would shut up.
He unclosed his own helmet and took it off so that he
could face Dios without the obstruction of his faceplate. At
once the full acid of Calm Horizons' atmosphere bit into his
lungs. Spasms of revulsion tightened in his chest; but his zone
implants controlled them.
Warden Dios had called him a machina infernalis. He'd
said, We've committed a crime against your soul.
   And he'd said, It's got to stop.
Now he was at Angus' mercy. He'd released the restric-
tions that might have compelled Angus to spare him.
He waited without speaking under Angus' scrutiny, as if
he knew he was being judged. Angus almost believed that the
UMCP director was a man of his word.
"While you live," Vestabule intoned, "the Amnion will
seek your death. There will be no haven for you in any space,
at any time. You will never be safe. Nor will any shred or
particle of your DNA be allowed to endure. The offspring
which you name your son will not be forgotten. Every inheri-
tor of your flesh will be remembered for death."
Angus didn't so much as glance at the Amnioni. Threats
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"You kept one promise," he told Dios roughly. "Let's
see you do it again."
With a flick of his hand, he tossed his laser cutter to the
man who'd framed him and reqqed him so that he could be
welded.
Dios caught the laser in his fist, settled it into his palm;
glanced at it to confirm that it still held a charge. Then he met
Angus' gaze again. He seemed to understand the question he
was being asked. But he didn't answer it directly.
Instead he countered, "Do you think this is why I set you
free?"
"That's what I'm trying to find out," Angus rasped.
Dios sighed. "I told Davies and Dr. Shaheed already," he
said carefully through his breathing mask. "You were right.
He gave me a mutagen." A twitch of his free hand referred to
Vestabule. "As soon as I run out of immunity, I'm finished."
A suggestion of hope fluttered in Vestabule's human eye.
The Amnion side of his face awaited his fate without expres-
sion.
Angus said nothing. Davies and Vector remained silent.
They knew as well as he did that they couldn't save Dios.
They'd used the last of Nick's antimutagen to protect them-
selves.
With an effort, Dios blinked some of the blur from his
eye. His tone sharpened. Lines of command and mortality
etched his face. "I'm sure Calm Horizons hasn't been passive
during this little raid. What happened to Suka Bator?"
He might have asked, How many lives have you spent to
rescue me?
Angus snorted: he was too frightened to laugh. "You
heard the blast. The big one. Right before I came in. That was
their proton emitter. I sprayed it full of hull sealant.
"They still have matter cannon, but we're the only hos-
tages they've got left."
Make up your mind, he demanded mutely. Kill one of us.
While there's still time. Show us where you stand.
A fierce grin lifted the edges of Dios' mask. "I swear to
God, Angus," he drawled trenchantly, "sometimes I'm so
proud of you and Morn I almost forget to be ashamed of my-
self."
His fist tightened on the cutter's firing stud. Precise as a
cyborg, he drilled red fire straight through the center of Marc
Vestabule's face.
Vestabule's human eye seemed to widen in surprise as he
toppled backward. His lifeless form measured the extent to
which he'd been betrayed on the rough deck.
Davies seemed to slump inside his suit. "Thank God," he
breathed thinly.
A strange pang of relief and regret touched Angus' heart.
At last Warden Dios had committed himself.
Which seemed to imply that he'd decided he would be the
one to stay behind.
That made sense. He was beyond saving: Vestabule had
accomplished that, if nothing else. He was the logical candi-
date.
Angus should have been glad. He was glad. He needed
Dios' helmet. Nevertheless the man he'd become felt the loss
of something more precious than an undamaged faceplate. He
was afflicted by the same cutting sense of bereavement which
had confused him a long time ago when he beat up Morn: the
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from someone else.
"We're out of time, Angus," Vector put in tensely. "That
module wasn't made for maneuvers like this. And even if Cap-
tain Ubikwe can hold his position, one of our ships might hit
him.
"We've come this far. Let's finish it."
"No," Davies contradicted at once. "He won't get hit.
Director Donner said she'll hold fire until we're clear."
Maybe he still hoped they could think of some way to
save Dios.
"That's a lot to ask," Vector murmured dubiously.
"She's ED."
"But she keeps her promises," Dios stated without hesi-
tation. "That's one of at least six things I love about her."
He sounded oddly cheerful, almost happy, like a man
whose attempt at restitution was nearly complete.
He tossed the laser cutter back to Angus; then approached
Vestabule's corpse and hunted in the Amnioni's pockets until
he found a small vial. A wry grin twisted his mouth as he
showed the vial to Angus, Davies, Vector.
It contained at least half a dozen small capsules.
"Things aren't as bad as they look. Each of these lasts an
hour. I'll stay human long enough."
Long enough to reach UMCPHQ, where DA had more of
the antimutagen Hashi Lebwohl had given Nick.
Oh, shit, Angus groaned. Shit and damnation. Abruptly
his relief and regret flip-flopped; became stark panic and re-
solve.
Dios wanted to go with them.
Someone else would have to stay behind.
Or Angus would have to take a risk so desperate that the
mere idea made his guts slosh like water.
The man he'd become seemed to have no choice. In
one swift motion he unslung the extra EVA suit from his back,
tossed it to Dios. "Put this on," he ordered through his teeth.
"Fast. Vector's right. The fat man won't be able to hold his
position for long."
And Vestabule must have called for help.
"Wait a minute," Davies objected. "Does that mean you
want Vector to stay behind?"
The tension in his voice suggested that he thought he
should volunteer for another sacrifice.
"No," Angus snapped bitterly. "It means I want you to
shut the fuck up and let me concentrate."
He knew everything the UMCP knew about his EVA suit;
every tolerance and molecule. According to his databases, he
should be able to—
His EM prosthesis was useless now. He would have to
trust his human sight—and the machine accuracy of his com-
puter. A millimeter too much, and his faceplate would be too
weak to hold. A millimeter too little, and the cracks wouldn't
be sealed. Either way, the plexulose would blow out at the first
touch of vacuum.
Either way, he would be effectively blind when he died.
Gripping his helmet in the crook of his arm, he set the
cutter to its lowest power, its widest beam, and began to stroke
coherent crimson across the surface of the faceplate, melting
and fusing plexulose along the worst of the cracks.
God, this was stupid. No way in hell it could ever work.
His databases insisted this kind of plexulose could be laser-



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formed. Sculptors used it because they could cut and shape it
without stressing the molecular lattice. But no one had ever
tried to restore a faceplate's integrity by hand.
And whether he succeeded or failed, the plate's polariza-
tion was ruined. If Mikka had been forced to raise Trumpet's
dispersion field, he would be defenseless against the EM ag-
ony of the boson storm.
He wanted to believe he'd never done anything this stupid
in his whole life. The idea conveyed a peculiar reassurance.
Nevertheless he knew this was only the culmination of a long
series of terrified decisions and cruel mistakes. He wouldn't be
where he was if he hadn't done that and that and that; if he
hadn't fled from violence to violence across all the years of his
life.
Whatever happened now, he would have to face it without
the comfort of a convenient lie.
In a minute he was done. Live or die, there was nothing
else he could do. He put the laser in a belt pouch so that he
could reach it easily.
Dios had already suited himself; sealed his helmet; ad-
justed his hips in the jets' waldo harness. He, Davies, and
Vector were ready to go.
Fiercely Angus set his own helmet in place, locked it to
the suit's neck-ring, and powered up his systems, filling the
thin material with atmosphere and circulation.
Status indicators inside his helmet came to life. Most of
them flashed danger at him. But the integrity blip showed
green.
For now.
"Angus." Davies' voice crackled in his speakers. "Can
you see?"
"No," Angus admitted. His faceplate was almost com-
pletely opaque: it blinded him like a cataract. "There's a strip
along the edges I can use," enough visibility to let him deal
with the airlock, "that's all." Words stuck in his throat. He
had to force himself to say, "I'll need help."
Help finding his way across the gap to the command
module.
"No problem." Dios sounded like he couldn't stop grin-
ning. "What are friends for?"
Angus wanted to explain exactly what he thought of the
UMCP director's "friendship." But he didn't have time. And
he'd forgotten that part of himself.
He'd taken too long, concentrated too hard. He knew the
danger, but he'd ignored it. He was helpless as a child when
he heard servos open one of the far doors of the hold.
He yelped a warning; tried to wheel away from threats he
couldn't see. Bodies blundered against him, blocked his way.
Vector yelled, "Look out!" His cry rang in Angus' helmet,
carried on the leading edge of impact fire.
Insanely precise, Angus' computer sorted through the
roar and identified three guns, all blasting at once.
Hands shoved him aside. Simultaneously he heard a raw
shout from Warden and the hard punch of return fire from
Davies' rifle. Then a wall of force seemed to land on him out
of nowhere. It drove him backward until he slammed against
the bulkhead. Something—or somebody—seemed to hold him
there.
"Cover, Davies!" Dios howled. "God damn it, get to
cover!"
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a barrage.
Angus couldn't see. They were all about to die because
he'd taken too long; and he couldn't fucking see.
Desperation and his zone implants filled him with a tran-
scendental rage. In an instant he crossed the gap between mor-
tality and violence.
With one blow of his fist, he shattered his opaque
faceplate. Shook shards of plexulose out of his face.
Found himself hidden against the bulkhead behind what
was left of Vector's body.
Blood sprayed everywhere from Vector's shattered limbs
and crumpled chest. Wounds like bomb craters gaped in his
torn suit, his mangled flesh. He must have been hit by the
combined force of all three enemy rifles.
Must have jumped in front of Angus to protect him be-
cause he couldn't see—
With his peripheral vision Angus saw Warden emerge
from the airlock, take hold of Davies, and heave him by main
strength toward the thin cover inside the iris. Impact fire an-
swered furiously, slashing the air, scoring the bulkhead. But
Davies' return fire had forced the Amnion to dodge and scat-
ter. He and then Warden reached the airlock intact.
Curses Angus hardly heard bubbled in his chest, frothed
in his throat. Vector was already dead; beyond pain. Angus
reached up, unsealed Vector's helmet and stripped it aside.
Then he strode unarmed away from the bulkhead toward his
assailants, holding up Vector's corpse as a shield.
His computer was right: there were three of them. As he
advanced they shifted their attention from the airlock. Blast
after blast, their rifles pounded Vector to pulp in his arms.
He'd used a weapon like that to kill Captain Davies Hy-
land, Morn's father.
He knew what impact rifles were for.
One of the guns lay on the floor no more than ten meters
ahead of him, beside the body of the Amnioni which had car-
ried it earlier. He felt the power of every blow that struck
Vector; but he stalked forward remorselessly, augmented by
rage. When he reached the rifle he stooped to snatch it up.
Then he activated his suit jets, released Vector, and
jumped.
Davies fired wildly to cover him as he arced into the air.
His jets weren't strong enough to overcome the defensive's
thrust g; but they lifted him higher than the Amnion expected.
Taken by surprise—and distracted by Davies—the Amnion
aimed too low. Their beams slashed death beneath Angus'
feet.
Quick as a machine, and accurate as targ, he picked them
off from above before they could recover. Riding the pressure
of his jets, he hit them onetwothree. Killed them all. They
were dead by the time he passed the top of his arc and started
downward.
The Amnion will not forget it.
The sight of their spewing blood left him as cold as deep
space. He checked their bodies to see if they carried PCRs and
pickups. They didn't. So they hadn't called for more help. Too
bad. He was in the mood to kill any number of them.
You will never be safe.
But Warden shouted across the hold, asking him if he was
all right. Davies cried out Vector's name, then swore and
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Angus didn't have time for more killing.
He used his jets to help him hurry toward the place where
he'd discarded Vector's helmet. When he saw that it was un-
damaged, he replaced his own with it; sealed it to the neck-
ring of his suit. At once the status indicators began to flash
green as they took power from his suit.
Vector had volunteered to stay behind once too often.
"Angus, " Davies cried softly. "Oh, Vector. God, Vector!
Angus, he saved—"
Angus took his son by the arm, shook him roughly. "Tell
me later!" he snapped. "We don't have time for this!"
"He's right, Davies." Warden's voice found an echo of
loss in the helmet speakers. "We need to go."
Angus didn't wait for them. Grimly he moved into the
airlock.
The inner iris was still open: he'd done so much damage
to the wiring earlier that Calm Horizons couldn't override it.
But that posed another hazard. When he opened the outer seal,
explosive decompression would vent the entire cargo hold
through this relatively constricted passage. He and Davies and
Warden would be hurled outward like rounds from a projectile
cannon. If the blast itself didn't kill or stun them, they would
be in danger of shooting far past the module and Trumpet; or
of colliding with those vessels hard enough to crush ordinary
human tissue and bone.
Nevertheless Angus didn't hesitate. He was too angry for
doubt; too cold. As Davies and Warden joined him, he posi-
tioned himself in the center of the airlock and focused his EM
vision on the circuitry which controlled the outer iris.
Dios Stood beside him and clipped their belts to each
other; fixed his fate to Angus'. Davies did the same on the
other side.
There was nothing else they could do; no other precau-
tions they could take. In the small space of the airlock the
constant fury of Calm Horizons' matter cannon barrage
mounted like endless lightning.
Angus grabbed the laser from his pouch; sighted his pros-
thesis; ran calculations and adjustments through his computer.
As if he were committing murder, he pressed the firing stud.
As soon as the iris began to cycle open, a hard fist of
atmosphere flung him and his companions like debris out into
the embattled dark.
MIKKA
Somewhere underneath her
exhaustion and loss, her
physical pain and tearing sorrow, Mikka Vasaczk found the
will to survive.
To some extent she was held together by drugs. She'd
taken enough stim and hype to convulse a weaker woman;
pushed her body far past her normal limits with chemical en-
hancements. But that only helped her stay awake. It didn't
make her strong.
And her efforts to accept Ciro's intentions didn't give her
strength. She recognized that his need to follow the logic of
his distress to its conclusion was more compulsory than life.
Yet he was her brother: he was all she had. Letting him go did
little to help her live.
In part she was sustained by the companionable sound of
Captain Ubikwe's voice. By intercom from the command
module, he talked to her constantly, feeding her information
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her strained nerves. Apparently the last of his personal con-
cerns had been relieved by Ciro's departure. He gave the im-
pression that he was no longer worried about anything.
He couldn't possibly be as sure as he seemed. She refused
to believe it. Nevertheless he projected nothing but confidence
and relaxation as he described Angus' progress toward Calm
Horizons' airlock; or UMCHO's attack on Suka Bator, and the
withering fire of Min Donner's response to the station; or
Ciro's awkward—but effective—journey with his grenade. He
warned Mikka cheerfully when he was ready to break the grip
of Calm Horizons' docking seals so that Angus could reach
the airlock. He told her everything she needed to know in
order to power up Trumpet's drives safely; charge her guns;
prepare the dispersion field generator.
He couldn't restrain a fierce cheer when the Amnioni's
proton cannon abruptly exploded, shattering itself to scrap in a
hail of quantum discontinuities and debris, as well as ripping a
brutal hole in the big defensive's hulls. And after that he was
briefly silent while Calm Horizons' matter cannon roared vio-
lence at every human target they could reach. Instead of talk-
ing he routed scan and status data to her screens so she could
watch the assault; so she could see that Min Donner kept her
promise not to strike back while Angus tried to rescue Davies,
Vector, and Warden Dios. At the same time he brought up
thrust to hold the module and Trumpet close to the Amnioni's
airlock—and below her field of fire—as Calm Horizons'
drives raged for acceleration.
He must have been desperately busy. He had to reestab-
lish contact with UMCPHQ and Punisher, and coordinate
their tactical input with his own maneuvers. But after only a
couple of minutes his voice came back on Mikka's intercom.
"Well, thank God for slow brisance thrust, that's all I can
say," he announced happily. "At this rate we'll be able to
keep up with her, at least for a few minutes.
"Looks like Ciro almost missed his chance," he went on
with no discernible anxiety. "Guess he didn't expect that big
fucker to burn when she did. But his jets saved him. He's on
the hull now. And he's got his grenade tethered.
"I wonder what Vestabule would do if someone told him
he's taken on a little extra cargo. Might be fun to see an Am-
nioni go spaceshit crazy."
Mikka didn't reply. She couldn't think of anything she
could bear to say.
Apparently Captain Ubikwe didn't expect a response. He
talked on as if he trusted her completely. First he described the
efforts of UMCPHQ and Director Donner's cordon to fend off
Calm Horizons' fire. Then he relayed everything he could
glean about the damage to UMCHO.
According to UMCPHQ Center, Holt Fasner's station had
lost firepower and thrust; most of its operational capability.
But the bulk of the platform remained intact. Distress flares
indicated a high percentage of survivors.
Reports from Earth confirmed that the GCES was safe.
Suka Bator hadn't suffered any significant destruction: Min's
counterattack had prevented UMCHO from sustaining its bar-
rage.
That supplied another small piece of Mikka's will to en-
dure. She cared about the Council only in the abstract. But the
fact that Holt Fasner had felt compelled to attack Suka Bator
meant to her that Morn had succeeded; that Morn's story had



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persuaded the GCES to reconsider the fundamental structure
of power in human space. And Morn's determination to ex-
pose the crimes of the UMCP mattered to Mikka. It affected
her in ways she could hardly name. Without Morn she would
never have turned against Nick. Instead both she and Ciro
would almost certainly have died with Captain's Fancy and
Billingate.
The course she'd chosen in Morn's name, under Morn's
influence, had exacted a terrible price. She'd paid blood for it
herself. Ciro was about to pay with his life. Nevertheless it
was better than staying with Nick: supporting his crimes, en-
abling his betrayals, while he scorned her for the simple rea-
son that she couldn't heal the wounds Sorus Chatelaine had
cut into him. Despite the cost, she didn't regret anything Morn
had persuaded her to do, directly or indirectly.
Morn's success gave a touch of vindication to Mikka's
part in making it possible. That helped her cling to life when
her brother had already chosen to die.
Ultimately, however, her commitment to survival arose
from another, more essential source. Drugs kept her awake.
Captain Ubikwe's voice kept her company. Accepting Ciro's
sacrifice helped her manage her grief. Morn's vindication con-
firmed that she'd made the right decisions. Yet in the end it
was something else that swayed her. She held the frayed and
weary strands of her spirit together because Angus, Vector,
Davies, Warden Dios, and Dolph Ubikwe would all die if she
didn't.
At the core she was a woman who served. Nick and Cap-
tain's Fancy; her brother; Morn: she was the sum and culmi-
nation of her loyalties. They defined her. Without them she
could hardly say that she'd ever existed.
Morn had asked her to do this. People she valued—espe-
cially Davies and Vector—were depending on her. In the deep-
est part of her heart, she would rather die than let them down.
So she did everything that had been asked of her, even
though her brother was lost to her, and her throat knotted with
sobs whenever she thought of him. She powered up Trumpet's
drives: slowly at first, leaking energy into them by minor in-
crements so that she wouldn't attract Calm Horizons' notice;
then as fast as she could while the defensive was distracted by
Director Donner's attack on UMCHO. She charged the gap
scout's matter cannon, even though she couldn't imagine be-
ing able to use them. She ran complex calculations through the
helm computer, measuring the module's mass and Trumpet's
thrust against the potential hunger of a singularity fed by Calm
Horizons' great bulk. And she made herself as proficient as
circumstances allowed with the dispersion field generator.
The command module had neither the raw power nor the
defenses to save any of them. And Captain Ubikwe was far too
busy to cover for her. Whether this mission lived or died
rested in Mikka Vasaczk's exhausted hands.
Alone on Trumpet's bridge, alone aboard the gap scout,
she readied herself to carry out Angus' orders.
How much time did she have left? Not much, apparently.
According to Dolph, Angus had made his way through the
Amnioni's airlock. He would either find Davies, Vector, and
Warden Dios or not; rescue them or not; emerge from the huge
defensive or not. But no matter what happened, it wouldn't
take long.
She surprised herself by hoping that Ciro wouldn't lose
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pended on him as much as on her.
Abruptly Captain Ubikwe called out from her intercom,
"I just heard from Davies!" Complex excitement crackled in
the speakers. "They've reached the airlock. Vestabule is dead!
Angus is going to cut the lock circuits to get out.
"My airlock is open. I'm ready for them. We'll go the
second they're aboard."
He would reorient the module and Trumpet to put the gap
scout's more powerful thrust between them and Calm Hori-
zons. The rest would be up to her.
"I'm set, Captain," she told him so he wouldn't think
she'd fallen asleep. "If it can be done, I'll do it."
"Mikka—" he began, then faltered unexpectedly. When
he spoke again, strain complicated his eagerness. "They lost
Vector. The Amnion killed him."
She groaned. Oh, God. Vector. Poor arthritic, valiant Vec-
tor Shaheed: brilliant as a geneticist, but barely adequate as an
engineer: kind, humorous, and calm. Ciro's teacher. Morn's
friend. Even though he was hopeless in a fight, he'd volun-
teered for this mission before anyone else.
I've always wanted to be the savior of humankind.
She might have wept if Dolph hadn't continued talking.
"I know Angus told Ciro to wait for his signal. But we're
running out of time. You'd better tell him to get back here. We
can use your guns to set off the grenade."
The captain must have believed Ciro meant to return. No
one had told him otherwise.
Mikka swallowed a knot of tears. Even if Vector was
dead, Davies and Angus still needed her.
"I can't," she answered. "I've run projections on the
effects of that grenade. If we want to escape that much g, we
need more distance." But distance would bring them within
reach of Calm Horizons' cannon. "That means we need the
dispersion field. And I can't fire through it."
Beyond the gap scout, Calm Horizons' guns raged. The
shields and sinks of Min's ships—and UMCPHQ—lit Trum-
pet's scan like a pyrotechnics display: blooms and bursts of
power, flowers of violence, coruscating up and down the spec-
trum, shedding color and emission on every bandwidth the
instruments could receive. But Mikka didn't look at the
fireshow, for the same reason that she didn't use her sensors to
keep track of Ciro. She needed her attention for other things.
For an instant Dolph was silent. The intercom seemed to
convey shock; outrage. Then he growled through his teeth,
"Mikka, are you telling me Ciro has to stay here? He has to
set off the grenade in person?"
Dully she replied, "If the rest of us want to live."
There was no other way. When Calm Horizons' matter
cannon failed to kill the module and Trumpet, the defensive
would use impact guns, lasers, torpedoes. Then the task of
destroying her would fall to Min Donner's ships. The Amnioni
might do incalculable damage before she died.
"He'll be killed!" the captain protested. "We might as
well murder him."
The cruelty of being asked to defend Ciro's decision
turned some of Mikka's grief to anger. "He volunteered," she
snapped. "It was his idea."
"Then it's suicide," the deep voice countered.
Abruptly she started to yell. "No, it's not!" She hardly
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of Calm Horizons' guns. She seemed to fling a lifetime of pain
and anger into the intercom pickup. "It's heroism, you self-
righteous sonofabitch! If he were a cop, you would call it
valor above and beyond the call of fucking duty!"
Shaken by her own fury, she stopped.
Dolph didn't respond directly. He may have understood
her; guessed the implications of a life spent as an illegal. Or he
may have realized that no answer of his would help her.
"Christ!" he muttered. "This must be what he had in
mind from the beginning. He's been talking about it for days.
"How long ago did you realize—? No, don't tell me. I
don't want to know.
"God, Mikka," he finished, "I just hope you aren't feel-
ing that valorous. I'm still not ready to die."
Mikka Vasaczk sank her teeth into her lower lip until she
tasted blood. Damn it, Ciro! she groaned. Do you have any
idea what all this valor is costing me?
She was not a gentle woman. Under other circumstances
she might have asked her brother that question aloud—and
demanded a reply. But she didn't have time.
Suddenly Dolph reported, "Here they come! And they're
moving fast. Too fast. That's one hell of a decompression
blast. If they don't brake, they'll—"
Events had begun to accelerate out of control. A rush of
expelled atmosphere carried them headlong toward the brink
of success or disaster.
"Yes!" the captain crowed. "One of them is using his
jets. Now they all are. Braking. Adjusting to reach us. Shit,
that was close. A few more seconds at that velocity, and they
would have hit too hard to live through it."
Mikka rested her hands on the command board. She'd
already planned her vector away from the locus of g, at an
angle to the grenade so that centrifugal force would help the
small ships win free. And she'd programmed everything to
two keys: one for thrust and helm; one for the dispersion field.
All she had to do was wait—
Angus and the others must have covered the distance at an
insane rate. Sooner than she would have believed possible, she
heard his voice from the intercom, gasping with urgency and
relief. "We're in! We made it!"
But he didn't pause to savor his survival. Instead he
panted, "Now or never, Mikka! Get your brother back. Or
leave him. Just make up your mind!"
He understood Ciro's condition as well as she did. Never-
theless he passed the decision to her as if it belonged to her; as
if she'd ever had any say in the matter.
She swallowed blood to reply; but Dolph answered for
her. "We can't do that, Angus." Trying to spare her. "If we
stay near enough to use our guns we won't escape the black
hole. And we're losing position. Calm Horizons is pulling
away. Even if we burn, we're going to cross her fire horizon
before Ciro can get here."
Yet Angus insisted, "Mikka?" Apparently he wanted to
hear it from her. "He's your brother."
Somehow Mikka mustered the instinct for action with
which she'd earned her place as Nick's command second.
"I'll tell him." That talent may have been the only part of
herself she'd ever truly respected.
"Secure for hard g. This is going to be rough."
"She's right," Captain Ubikwe rumbled in confirmation.
"I'm initiating reorientation now." Then he added, "Wel-


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come aboard, Director."
She heard an unfamiliar voice in a hurry respond,
"Thank you, Captain. This is turning into a real thrill ride."
Dolph snorted a laugh; and at once inertia pushed Mikka
against her armrest as he fired maneuvering thrust, turning the
command module and Trumpet to align the gap scout's tubes.
While the two vessels swung to their new attitude, she
keyed her pickup to Ciro's frequency. "Ciro, can you hear
me?" Her voice glowered like a threat despite her grief. "It's
time."
To her surprise, he answered immediately.
"I hear you, Mikka."
Across the static of Calm Horizons' barrage he sounded
distant and frail; utterly alone.
"They're back," she said. "All except Vector. The Am-
nion killed him." Ciro had loved Vector. Quickly she contin-
ued, "But we got Dios. We're on our way."
Through her teeth she added, "I told Angus I would give
you the signal. I wanted a chance to say good-bye."
For a moment he didn't say anything. If he felt Vector's
loss, he didn't show it. Instead he offered simply, "Good-bye,
Mikka."
The finality in his voice made her think that he was about
to silence his transmitter.
"Listen to me!" she rasped. "In a few seconds we're
going to burn. Watch our thrust torch." Otherwise Trumpet
would be hard to spot against the background of the battle.
"And wait! We need distance. Wait until you see Calm Hori-
zons open fire on us. Then kill that fucker."
Now he didn't hesitate. "I'm on it." Without transition
his voice took on a new quality—a sound like the grip of his
hands on his impact rifle. "Thanks, Mikka. I have to finish
what Captain Chatelaine started. And pay them back for Vec-
tor. I'm glad I can try to save you at the same time."
His last words carried past the emission-roar of guns; the
killing emptiness of the gap between them.
"I love you."
Mikka said, "I love you, too, Ciro." But she couldn't
hear herself. She'd already touched her first key; and the fierce
thunder of Trumpet's drive drowned her out.
ANGUS
He wanted to reach Trumpet.
That was the only escape
he'd been able to imagine for himself. Board the gap scout
before Mikka started burning: close the airlocks connecting
the two vessels. Then he might stand a chance. If Ciro's gre-
nade devoured Calm Horizons—and Trumpet'5 thrust was
powerful enough to break the grip of the black hole's feral g—
and Min Donner's ships relaxed their guard when they saw the
Amnioni die: then Angus might be able to take the gap scout
and run.
If he did all that, he would have to take Mikka with him.
But the idea didn't trouble him. She would be the best second
he'd ever had. And he didn't think she'd object. Ciro would be
dead; no longer in need of her. On top of that, she might not
like the uncertainty of her future in the cops' hands. She might
welcome the chance to get away from them.
Angus had endured a lifetime of terror during the cross-
ing between the defensive and the command module. The ve-
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usual fear of EVA by several orders of magnitude. Instinctively
he believed that if his zone implants hadn't protected him his
own blood pressure would have burst his heart.
Once the module's airlock had cycled shut behind him,
however, surrounding him with sweet, safe air so that he could
breathe again, rip off his helmet, and really breathe, he forgot
everything except escape. He needed a ship: needed to run.
Nothing else could relieve his fury at the Amnion—or his
dread at what Warden Dios and Hashi Lebwohl might do to
him now.
But Trumpet was denied to him. Dolph Ubikwe had al-
ready sealed his hatchesair—a predictable precaution in case
the grapples failed and Trumpet's power pulled the two small
ships apart.
And there was no time. Mikka hit thrust so hard, gener-
ated so much acceleration g, that even Angus' reinforced
strength might not have been enough to preserve him while he
fought to gain Trumpet's bridge. He was barely able to flip
himself into one of the module's g-seats and close the belts
before the howl of the drive threatened to squeeze him uncon-
scious.
He couldn't escape. He was a welded cyborg: the child of
the crib. He'd spent his whole life fleeing; but he'd never
escaped anything.
Once he'd confirmed that Davies and Dios had also
reached the protection of the g-seats, he let his tired limbs
settle into the cushions as if he were surrendering to his
mother; to Warden Dios and despair.
He didn't see chaos erupt across the module's scan as
Trumpet's dispersion field transformed matter cannon beams
to boson madness. He wasn't looking. But he felt the birth of
the black hole. A terrible gravitic fist slammed against him
when Ciro's grenade bloomed into ravening and incalculable
hunger.
Then he knew absolutely that Dios had won. Ciro's rifle
had supplied enough energy to spark the grenade's nascent
singularity. The forces he'd unleashed had killed him nanosec-
onds ago—a quantum eternity within the discontinuities of the
event horizon. Now those same forces fed on Calm Horizons
—dragged the immense defensive down to the size of a pin-
point—
—fed and grew stronger.
Just for an instant Angus wondered whether Mikka had
considered how the black hole's power would increase as it
consumed Calm Horizons. But after that he wondered nothing;
thought nothing. In spite of his zone implants, the pressure of
g drained the blood from his brain, and he fell from conscious-
ness into his mother's forlorn embrace.
Finally fatal g faded to lightness like crossing the gap into
death: a lifting evaporation so poignant that he didn't think he
could bear it. After aeons of cruel mass—ages which his com-
puter measured in far smaller increments—the burden of his
mortality dropped away, and he felt himself drift through relief
and darkness as if in some nameless, essential form he'd been
cut loose.
Somehow during the past few days he'd learned how to
access his datalink without thinking about it. His computer
informed him coldly that he'd been unconscious for thirteen
seconds. So apparently he wasn't dead. A dead man might not
have been able to extract an answer from the machine window
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Yet everything that had ever weighed him down was gone:
mass; flesh; dread. Thirteen seconds had brought him to the
far side of an inner abyss—a personal fissure like the cracks in
his discarded faceplate.
Deaner Beckmann had speculated that a human bred for g
might be able to survive inside a black hole; might pass
through it to an entirely different kind of life. When Angus
remembered that, he began to wonder what had happened to
him.
He blinked his dry, sore eyes until they ran. Slowly the
blackness dissipated as if it were being vented like waste from
an overstressed scrubber; released to vacuum. With tears on
his cheeks, he looked up at the command module's display
screens.
Scan was clear. For some reason that surprised him: he'd
expected the wild aftereffects of a boson storm—or the dis-
torted spectrum inside the black hole's event horizon, Dop-
plering backward toward extinction. Yet screens reported data
he could recognize. A helm schematic marked the module's
position relative to UMCPHQ, Punisher, Donner's ships, and
the vanished Amnioni. Status indicators reported that the grap-
ples still held Trumpet; that the last traces of matter cannon
emission had faded; that the pressure of g was gone; that the
module retained structural integrity; that UMCPHQ, Punisher,
and several other ships signaled for contact. Instead of burn-
ing, Trumpet and the module now coasted gently along the rim
of a planetary orbit. Mikka must have programmed helm to
take over when she lost consciousness; to assume this heading
and drop thrust once the danger of the black hole passed.
But of course it made sense that scan was clear. Ciro's
singularity had gulped down the boson storm as easily as it
had swallowed Calm Horizons. And since then the module's
instruments and computers had had plenty of time to reestab-
lish their grasp on reality.
Morn had feared the singularity's hunger. A force power-
ful enough to crush Calm Horizons might also snag UMCPHQ
from its orbit; suck down Punisher and the other ships; even
threaten Earth. But Min Donner had assured her that wouldn't
happen. The ED Director seemed to know by heart every spec
and capability of every weapon the UMCP designed. She'd
told Morn small black holes burned hotter than large ones—
and the hotter they burned, the faster they consumed them-
selves. A black hole with the mass of a star would remain cool
enough to feed and grow. But a black hole with no more mass
than a planet might well be less than a cm in diameter—a tiny
thing, despite its vast g; hot as the core of a sun. And Ciro's
singularity had only Calm Horizons' mass to sustain it.
One of the module's screens reported that the entire life
span of this black hole had been 5.9 seconds.
Long enough to transform every exercise of power in hu-
man space; every interaction between humankind and the Am-
nion from now on. And every connection in Angus' head.
He knew he'd lost his only chance to escape. If Dolph
had sealed the module's airlocks, Mikka must have done the
same to Trumpet's —for the same reason. By the time Angus
reopened this hatch and coded his way aboard the gap scout,
other people would regain consciousness. The fat man or Da-
vies would start talking to Punisher: Dios would start talking
to UMCPHQ. They would be able to warn Donner when
Trumpet broke the module's grapples—and her ships would



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have plenty of time to fix targ before Angus acquired the ve-
locity for a gap crossing.
He couldn't run. Just for the moment, however, he didn't
mind. The lightness of his body seemed to fill his head, as if
the black hole had eaten away everything that normally drove
him, everything he recognized about himself, leaving him as
weightless as a new soul.
Entirely by coincidence, he'd belted himself into the
module's communications station. But the board lay lifeless in
front of him: its functions had been routed to Dolph's console.
Demands for contact from UMCPHQ and Punisher blinked at
Dolph's face, not his. He felt free to ignore them.
While the sensation lasted, he let himself enjoy it.
It lasted longer than he would have believed possible. Parts of
it were still with him when Captain Ubikwe abruptly jerked
against his belts, blinked his g-stressed eyes, and peered ur-
gently at his command readouts.
"Welcome back, fat man," Angus drawled. "You've all
been out so long I might have thought you were dead. If I
hadn't heard you breathing."
Dolph flinched a look toward the communications station.
His heavy mouth hung open, but he couldn't swallow enough
moisture to speak.
Piqued by an unfamiliar sense of affection, Angus added,
"You snore, you know that? In fact you're pretty damn good
at it. On a scale often you rate at least eleven."
Dolph's throat worked for a moment. At last he choked
out, "How long—?"
"Only about four minutes," Angus answered. "You can
relax. We aren't in any trouble." He bared his teeth in a
predator's smile. "But you missed the good part."
Punisher's captain frowned in confusion. "The good
part?"
Angus gestured at the displays. "Calm Horizons doesn't
exist anymore. She fell into a black hole. Then I guess the
black hole fell into itself." He spread his arms expansively,
stretched the muscles of his back until his spine popped. "I
think this means we won, fat man."
With an effort Captain Ubikwe consulted his readouts
again. Slowly he seemed to gather strength from his board; the
screens; Punisher's familiar bridge. Data and circumstances
he understood restored him like a transfusion.
He looked at Davies and Dios long enough to reassure
himself that they were alive. Then he asked, "What about
Mikka?"
Angus shrugged. "If she's awake, she hasn't said any-
thing. Since we survived, I assume she did, too." He was
obliquely worried about Mikka himself. In another minute or
two the man he'd become would feel compelled to go check
on her. "But we're safe enough," he continued. "We don't
need Trumpet's thrust. We can coast like this for quite a while
before we need to worry about anything."
Dolph considered the situation. "Well, by damn," he
muttered. His voice began to emerge from his chest more eas-
ily. "That's amazing. Utterly—"
By degrees his mouth spread into a wide grin. "Of
course," he told Angus, "I had complete confidence. You
have that effect on people. You can't help it. It just happens.
Automatic trust. Sort of like snoring, only less benign.
"I don't know what Min's going to do about you." His
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You're probably too dangerous to live. But if she decides to
terminate you, I'm going to make sure you get a commenda-
tion before you die. That's a promise." He held up his hands
as if to ward off thanks. "Anybody who accomplishes what
you just did should have a commendation nailed to him some-
where, even if it has to be on your coffin instead of your
chest."
"How nice," Angus growled in the same spirit. "I wish I
could tell you how good that makes me feel. But it doesn't.
I'm so pleased I could puke."
Because he knew Dolph was joking, he didn't mention
that he was prepared to fight for his right to go on living.
The captain replied with a relaxed chuckle. "I know what
you mean. Sometimes I think they really do nail those com-
mendations into you. Drive them right through your heart.
Some people never recover."
He might have gone on; but the UMCP director groaned
suddenly. Warden made a convulsive effort to shift his hips as
if he needed to adjust the vector of his suit jets. Then he jerked
his eye open.
"Angus," he croaked hoarsely. "Dolph. Where are we?
What's going on? Where's that Amnioni?"
He could probably guess most of what Angus, Dolph, and
Mikka had done. He'd seen it happen. But no one had told
him about Ciro—
Dolph couldn't restrain a quick laugh. "Gone!" he
crowed. "Eaten by a black hole." And then flung outward in
an evanescent hail of subatomic particles when the black hole
died. "Mikka Vasaczk's brother, Ciro, set off one of Trum-
pet's singularity grenades. The briefings I've read say those
things don't have much tactical use, but I'm here to tell you
they work like magic if you do it right."
Scowling, Dios rubbed his organic eye; slapped his face;
straightened his back; pulled himself together by force of will.
"Captain Ubikwe," he ordered sharply, "start again. I didn't
understand a word you just said."
On command Dolph dropped his levity. "Sorry, Direc-
tor." At once his gaze grew troubled; disturbed by images of
Ciro—and Vector. "Nothing's free," he sighed. "We wanted
to save you and Suka Bator. We wanted to save everything we
possibly could. We're just lucky the price wasn't a hell of a lot
higher.
"Ciro Vasaczk was an illegal. He served under Nick Suc-
corso. But he gave his life to kill that Amnioni."
Angus thought he ought to explain how Ciro had reacted
to Sorus Chatelaine's mutagen—the same mutagen Vestabule
had inflicted on Dios. But he didn't have the heart for it. An
explanation would have made Ciro seem crazy. The boy de-
served better.
Apparently Dolph felt the same way. He didn't mention
Ciro's history. Instead he said, "He went EVA with a grenade.
Attached it to Calm Horizons' hull. After you joined me here,
Mikka Vasaczk used Trumpet's thrust to haul us out of range.
She covered us with that dispersion field generator. Then Ciro
fired an impact rifle at his grenade from point-blank range.
"We're still here," he finished simply. "The defensive
isn't."
Dios happened to be at the targ station. A frown clenched
his forehead, and he drummed his fingers on the edge of the
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flicked between Dolph, Angus, and the screens: he might have
been measuring them against each other; estimating possibili-
ties—
Damn, Angus breathed to himself. Damn it to hell. War-
den was still scheming. He'd already won. If Fasner's attack
on the Council was any indication, Dios had gained everything
he wanted. And yet he wasn't done.
"It's probably churlish to point this out," Dios told
Dolph gruffly, "but you took a hell of a risk."
Captain Ubikwe's eyes narrowed. All his muscles seemed
to tighten, drawing his bulk into a harder shape. Grimly he
answered, "Acting Director Donner sanctioned it in person."
Without warning Davies raised his head, swung the data
station to face Dolph and Dios. "Did you tell him this was all
Angus' idea, Captain?" he put in harshly. He must have been
conscious for the past several minutes, listening with his eyes
closed while he gathered his strength. Like Angus and War-
den, he'd discarded his helmet in the airlock. The aftereffects
of strain left his features livid and angry. "Vector and I were
just going to sacrifice ourselves. We didn't want the Council
killed. Or a war. But Angus convinced Morn to let him do it
this way instead."
Bitterly Davies finished, "Did you tell him that's the only
reason he's still alive?"
Angus stared at his son. Davies' support surprised him.
For a moment a strange emotion that might have been grati-
tude swelled in his chest. Apparently the man he'd become
actually felt glad he had a son.
Lightness and release. Gratitude? Shit, his entire head had
been filled with emotions he wasn't used to and didn't know
how to handle.
If Dios was surprised, he didn't show it. He faced Davies,
searched the kid with his IR vision. Then he nodded to him-
self. "Davies Hyland," he pronounced firmly. "You probably
don't need me to tell you you look like your father. But you
think like your mother. That's something to be proud of."
Already his voice had recovered its natural authority.
Angus remembered it vividly. The UMCP director had
sounded much the same when he'd replaced Angus' datacore.
We've committed a crime against you. In essence, you're
no longer a human being. We've deprived you of choice—and
responsibility.
At the time, however, Angus had heard hints of self-loath-
ing behind Warden's ease of command. Now they were gone.
He'd avowed, It's got to stop. And he'd kept that promise.
If anything, he'd become even more dangerous.
"Don't worry about Angus," he told Davies. "I have a
pretty good idea how much I owe him. And I can at least guess
what it cost him. I won't forget."
Then Dios turned back to Captain Ubikwe. "And I don't
object to the risk, Dolph. I'm just amazed by it. Grateful and
humbled. You've given me a chance to finish what I started.
I'll try to make it worthwhile."
Dolph nodded noncommittally. His heavy jaws chewed
words he didn't say; reactions he kept private.
Angus swore to himself. He thought he knew how Pun-
isher's commander felt. Make it worthwhile, shit. More plot-
ting—more schemes. He'd had enough of Dios' underhanded
intentions. They were too expensive. He didn't want to hear
any more.
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call Mikka, fat man, I will. She's been quiet too long."
"You're right," Dolph agreed quickly. He seemed glad
for the interruption. At once he thumbed his intercom.
"Mikka?" he asked the pickup. "Can you hear me? Are you
all right?"
Angus had watched him enough to understand that Dolph
Ubikwe had his own reasons for outrage at Warden's manipu-
lations; a cop's reasons. Maybe he didn't think Warden's ac-
tions were justified by Fasner's defeat.
A moment passed before Mikka answered. When she fi-
nally spoke, her voice sounded thin and fragile; hoarse with
coughing. "Sort of." The voice of a woman who'd been
beaten up. "I think—" She gasped weakly. "I think I'm
bleeding somewhere. Inside. I'm going to sickbay—"
She faded out of the speakers as if she'd fainted.
"Damn it!" Angus slapped at his belts. "She needs help.
I've got to—"
Davies cut him off. "No. I'll go." He gestured at the
communications indicators on the status display. "Looks like
Punisher and UMCPHQ are flaring us as hard as they can. I
think there are some decisions that have to be made." Suspi-
cion and weariness stretched his voice taut. ''I don't need to
know what they are. You do. They shouldn't be made behind
your back."
More quietly he finished, "I can help Mikka as well as
you can."
Angus started to object, then relaxed back into his g-seat.
Davies was right. If the UMCP director intended to make it
worthwhile, Angus had to be ready to defend himself.
Dios' victory was tarnished in ways Angus hadn't ex-
pected.
Without waiting for a response, Davies undipped his
belts; drifted toward the hatch while Dolph cycled it open. But
at the inner door he paused.
"Ciro was just a kid," he said to Dios. "About my age—
if I had an age. He was an illegal because that was the only life
Mikka had to offer him. He didn't deserve any of this."
Warden nodded as if he understood; as if every sugges-
tion of distrust made sense to him.
"Captain Ubikwe," he commanded firmly, "log an order
to Acting Director Min Donner. My last order. Full pardons
for Mikka Vasaczk, Ciro Vasaczk, Vector Shaheed, Morn Hy-
land." Morn had committed a capital crime when she'd ac-
cepted her zone implant control from Angus: she'd stolen the
evidence against him—and used a zone implant on herself. In
addition she was guilty of insubordination; perhaps even of
mutiny. "They can have anything they want. Relocation, treat-
ment, money, jobs, new id—anything. All they have to do is
name it.
"Angus doesn't need a pardon. He already works for us.
And you haven't done anything illegal."
While Dolph murmured, "Aye, Director," Warden held
Davies' gaze as if he wanted to ask, Does that help?
Angus could see that it did. Davies' eyes softened, and
some of the strain left his muscles. Relief or regret twisted the
corners of his mouth.
"Thank you, Director," he answered thickly.
With a quick jerk on the nearest handgrip, he pulled him-
self into the airlock and disappeared.
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would do next. Whatever it was, he didn't think he was going
to like it. Nevertheless he was willing to be patient—at least
for a little while.
He wanted to know whether Warden would leave him any
choice.
"Director—" Dolph rumbled uncertainly. He pointed at
the communications blips on his board. "I have to answer
these. They're getting frantic."
"No!" Dios snapped at once. "Don't answer them.
That's my last order for you."
His voice had teeth: it could bite and tear when he let it.
"Min can stand the wait," he went on. "And she can
certainly deal with UMCPHQ. I don't want you to say a word
to either of them until Angus and I leave."
"Leave?" Angus drawled. "I like the sound of that.
Where are we going?"
A dark scowl closed Dolph's face. "Director—" he be-
gan again. "I'm a UMCP officer. It's my duty to report."
Warden shook his head. "Of course. But not yet.
"Listen to me, Dolph. This is important." He held him-
self still while intensity poured off him in waves. Yet his phys-
ical restraint only increased the force of what he said. "I want
you to take Davies and Mikka to UMCPHQ. And protect
them. Make sure Min understands I want them protected. Just
in case the Council suffers a spasm of self-righteousness and
decides to punish somebody.
"If I can persuade him to join me, Angus and I will use
Trumpet to go visit Holt." He permitted himself a stiff shrug.
"You can talk to Min as soon as I'm gone."
Angus felt a sting of surprise. Persuade? he wondered.
Persuade him? To go visit Holt? Did Warden mean that? Or
was persuade just a polite word for coerce?
Captain Ubikwe stared in distress at the man he'd served
ever since he became a cop. "My God, Director," he pro-
tested, "that doesn't make any sense. You should talk to her
yourself. Holt is finished. You can forget about him. You
should—''
"No." Dios spoke softly now, but his tone implied a
shout. "Koina told the Council everything. Every crime I've
helped commit—everything that makes you wonder whether
you can trust me. I'm tainted, Dolph. I'm complicit in Holt's
crimes. As much responsible for them as he is. Even if the
Council decided to pardon me, I would still consider myself
responsible.
"If Min does her duty, her first action will be to place me
under arrest for treason. She'll order you to make me your
prisoner and take me to UMCPHQ. And that might break her
heart. She still believes in me." He sounded certain. "I don't
want to put that kind of pressure on her. If she doesn't arrest
me, the Members won't trust her. She'll be tainted, too."
He didn't mention that Dolph might find it painful to
arrest the director of the UMCP. He didn't need to: the truth
was plain on Dolph's face. He recognized the accuracy of
Warden's prediction—and it horrified him.
Dios didn't give him time to respond. The director's ve-
hemence mounted as he continued, "And Holt's still alive.
That I guarantee. Most of HO is intact. You can see it on
scan." He indicated the screens with a twitch of his head.
"You can bet he made sure he was safe before he ordered that
attack on Suka Bator. He is still alive.
"Worse than that, he still has most of his power. All his


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contracts and knowledge, databases, leverage—everything his
real muscle is based on. He can probably ruin half the Mem-
bers if they take direct action against him. He can destroy the
entire fiscal structure that supports us against forbidden space.
Hell, if he wants to he can even sell the whole lot to the
Amnion. You know he has ships and drones that weren't dam-
aged. Right now there's nothing to stop him from packing his
entire power-base aboard that yacht of his and hitting the gap
with it."
"Min's cordon will interdict—" Dolph croaked weakly.
For an instant Warden's control slipped. He punched one
hard fist in the direction of the displays. Almost shouting, he
retorted, "Those ships aren't in position."
Angus believed him; but he glanced at the helm sche-
matic to confirm it. No question about it: a ship could flee
untouched from the far side of Fasner's station.
Which suggested some interesting possibilities—
Dolph's heavy frame slumped. In dismay he murmured,
"Do you really think he would sell all that?"
Dios closed his arms like restraints across his chest. "The
Amnion can force-grow fetuses," he said through his teeth.
"They can imprint minds. They can make him immortal. And
they'll be glad to do it when they see what he has to sell. Yes, I
think he might go that far.
"That's why I want you to let Angus and me go over
there. Let us stop him. Permanently, Before he has time to
commit a crime that's worse than anything else he's done."
More gently he concluded, "And I want you to do it
without disobeying orders from the acting director. You
shouldn't have that on your record. Which means you can't
talk to her until after we're on our way."
Dolph propped his forehead on one hand to hide his eyes
as if he couldn't bear to look at Warden anymore—or couldn't
bear the way Warden looked at him. For a moment he didn't
say anything. His shoulders knotted as he squeezed at his tem-
ples.
In a muffled voice he sighed. "You aren't coming back,
are you"—a statement, not a question.
Dios gripped himself hard. "What would be the point?"
A sound like a buried groan leaked past Dolph's fingers.
He didn't go on.
"Fine," Angus snorted. He couldn't wait any longer: he
wanted to know where he stood. "Let's pretend everything
you say is reasonable. And sane. Here's my question.
"How do you propose to 'persuade' me to go along with
you?"
Slowly the director turned his g-seat so that he could look
straight at Angus.
"You need me, that's obvious," Angus stated. "If
Fasner's still alive, then he still has defenses. You won't have
an easy time tackling him alone.
"But why should I bother?" The first time Warden had
talked to him, at the start of his mission to rescue Morn,
Angus had hardly been able to meet the man's piercing, aug-
mented gaze. Now he held it easily. The more honest Warden
became, the less Angus feared him. "Are you planning to
threaten me with some kind of self-destruct? Some code that'll
fry my brain, or scramble my instruction-sets, or short-circuit
my datacore? I'm sure you can do it. Hashi fucking Lebwohl
wouldn't miss a chance to hardwire me with something that



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nasty."
Dios didn't look away. "No," he said flatly, "I'm not
going to threaten you. I'm through extorting the kind of help I
need.''
Then his voice showed its teeth. "You'll go with me be-
cause I'm taking Trumpet. You'll have to kill me to stop me.
You may even have to kill Dolph." He flicked a glance at
Dolph, but didn't wait for the captain to say anything. "And
once I leave, you're stuck. You'll end up in custody on
UMCPHQ. Unless you force Min to open fire on you. In
which case Davies and Mikka will die with you.
"Either way, I don't think you'll like it much."
Angus faced him with a feral grin. "Or," he countered,
"I could go with you part of the way and then kill you. I want
a ship of my own. Trumpet suits me pretty well."
Even then Warden didn't look away. He'd been staring at
the consequences of his own actions for so long that nothing
could make him flinch. "I'll take that chance."
Angus sighed inwardly, where it didn't show. For no good
reason except that the director had finally begun to keep his
promises, Angus believed him. Min Donner was right: Dios
was trying to make restitution.
Still grinning, Angus shifted his attention to Captain
Ubikwe. "There's something he hasn't told you, fat man.
Vestabule gave him a mutagen."
That hit Dolph hard. He snatched down his hand, jerked
up his head. His eyes flared dumb anguish at Warden.
"It's the same kind Sorus Chatelaine used on Ciro,"
Angus explained harshly. "He'll stay human as long as he
takes the drug to keep it passive. Which he has in his pocket.
A few pills—a few hours."
Dolph tried to ask a question, but he couldn't make his
throat work.
"So it's really worse than it looks," Angus went on. "If
you take him back to UMCPHQ, you can cure him. Lebwohl's
antimutagen will do it. Then you can execute him for treason.
Or you can let him go after Fasner. Let him finish himself off.
"The way I see it, he's tainted in more ways than one.
He's been a cop too long. He's finally realized the same rules
he kills other people for breaking should apply to him, too.
"I'm starting to like that about you," he remarked to
Dios.
Then he told Dolph, "I don't think your acting director is
going to thank you for bringing him in. She won't want to
watch what happens to him."
For a moment Dolph seemed to stagger on the brink of a
personal precipice, fighting for balance. Despite his in-
subordinate nature, he'd served Warden Dios—and Min Don-
ner—with his life. But now all ordinary definitions of fidelity
appeared to fail him. He looked as lost as Angus had ever felt
in an EVA suit as he confronted his choices and tried not to
fall-
By degrees he slumped forward until only his elbows kept
him off the command board. Bowing his head, he muttered,
"Oh, well. I should have known this was all too easy. You're a
hard man, Warden. Sometimes I wonder why everybody who
works for you doesn't commit seppuku."
He nodded toward the open airlock and Trumpet. "If
worse comes to worst, I can always say you were gone before I
woke up. When sickbay's done with her, Davies can bring
Mikka over here. I'll release the grapples as soon as we seal


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the locks."
Softly he ended, "Warden Dios, you owe me for this."
Dios nodded. A film of moisture blurred his human eye.
He had to swallow a couple of times before he could say, "I'll
pay."
But he didn't allow himself time for emotion. He may
have feared that his self-command could break. At once he
asked, "Angus?"
"Shit," Angus growled cheerfully, "I can't miss this.
I've done all kinds of hunting, but I've never gone after a
dragon."
He no longer recognized himself at all. Between the two
of them, Morn and Warden had welded him in ways he didn't
understand and couldn't measure. Some essential part of him
had been transformed by people who kept their promises.
The situation was full of possibilities.
ANGUS
While Warden Dios prepared
his final briefing so that
Dolph could relay it to Min Donner, Angus boarded Trumpet.
Hints of lightness remained with him, buoyed by an ineffable
sense of opportunity. He no longer felt heavy enough to be
held back. The more honest Dios became, the wider Angus'
horizons seemed to grow. Warden had "persuaded" him to
accept exactly the same choices he would have made for him-
self.
Trumpet was a good ship; but he'd begun to think he
might be able to do better.
From the gap scout's airlock, he rode the lift to the corri-
dor which ran the length of her core. But then he had to stifle
an impulse to head for the bridge. He wanted to see what
condition she was in after having twice fought loose from the
grip of a black hole; wanted to examine her fuel cells and
inventories, confirm her remaining capabilities. Unfortunately
he didn't think he could afford the time.
Holt Fasner wasn't likely to just sit around waiting for the
UMCP director to catch up with him.
Angus coasted along the corridor to sickbay, keyed the
door, and went in.
Mikka lay asleep on the surgical table—unconscious or
drugged—with IVs plugged into her forearms and a new ban-
dage that smelled of tissue plasm and metabolins high up on
one side of her abdomen. An old scowl gripped her features as
if she'd been angry so long that she couldn't let it go. But her
mouth hung open, slack-jawed and vulnerable. Her breathing
carried suggestions of pain her medicated body couldn't feel.
Davies sat limp in the corner of the compartment, resting
there while the sickbay systems worked on Mikka. Once he'd
settled her on the table, anchored her with restraints, and
keyed the computer for diagnosis and treatment, there was
nothing else he could do for her.
Of course, he could have returned to the command mod-
ule; listened to what Warden, Dolph, and Angus told each
other. But he didn't look like he could bear to hear much
more. The emotional ordeal of accepting Vestabule's demands
and the physical strain of fighting for his life had left him
exhausted, despite his elevated metabolism. Obviously he
needed rest. However, his slumped posture conveyed the im-
pression that he'd folded into the corner so he could grieve—
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He raised his head when Angus entered the chamber. At
first he didn't seem to recognize his father. Then he sighed
thinly. "That didn't take long." With the heels of both hands
he tried to rub a little life back into the muscles of his face. "I
thought the three of you would have to yell at each other for
quite a while."
Angus gave Davies the same fierce grin he'd shown to
Dios and Captain Ubikwe. "Turns out I didn't have to yell
much. Now that the director of the United Manipulating and
Conniving cops has decided to tell the truth, things have be-
come simpler. The only hard part was convincing the fat man
to put off arresting anyone for a few more minutes."
He pulled himself to the edge of the table, studied the
status readout on Mikka's condition, then went on. "Looks
like she's stable. She needs to go over to the module. Can you
handle it, or do you need help?"
"I can handle it." Davies nudged himself off the deck;
straightened out his legs so that he drifted upright in front of
Angus. "But I'm probably going to feel lousy about myself
later if I don't at least ask what you decided. I don't expect
you to care what I think. But I care. Or I will when I've had
some sleep."
Deliberately he studied his father's face, "How bad is
it?"
Angus chuckled. How bad was it? That depended on how
he looked at it. For Warden things could hardly get worse. Or
better. The man had chosen an expensive way to keep his
promises. But for everyone else—
"Not bad," Angus assured Davies. "In fact, the only bad
part is"—sardonically he parroted phrases he'd heard re-
peated to the point of nausea during his years in reform
schools and juvenile lockups—"you won't get to spend your
formative years nurtured by a nuclear family. Morn'll be there.
She'll probably hover until she makes you want to scream. But
I'll be gone.
"If I have any say in the matter," he stated, "neither of
you will ever catch sight of me again."
Shit, he was making promises himself. Warden's influ-
ence had begun to rot his brain.
Davies replied with a sigh of resignation. "You'd better
tell me what that means."
Angus snorted. "Gone is gone. Not here. Why isn't that
clear? Light-years away across the gap. As far as I can get
from cops and Amnion who want to rule the galaxy."
As far as possible from all the people who'd made him
into a man he didn't recognize.
In response Davies blinked at him wearily. "That's not
what I meant. I meant—"
"I know what you meant." For Davies' sake Angus re-
strained the way his thoughts—and his heart—wanted to leap
and run in all directions. "From here on everything's simple.
"The fat man'll take you and Mikka to UMCPHQ. Pro-
tective custody. Until the Council or the cops decide whether
they have the courage to admit you and Morn saved the whole
planet's ass.
"In the meantime"—he grinned again—"the almighty
Warden Dios and I are going after Holt Fasner."
Davies nodded slowly. He may have been too tired to
consider all the implications. "What happens after that?"
Angus swallowed another harsh chuckle. Before he could
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going to be an 'after'?"
"That's not what I meant," Davies said again. "You'll be
gone. I heard that. And I guess maybe Director Dios will fi-
nally be satisfied. If he can arrest Fasner. But what about
Morn? What happens to her?"
Urged into motion by eagerness, Angus keyed the sickbay
computer to remove its IVs from Mikka's arms, then began
opening her restraints so she could float free of the table. He
was absolutely sure that Dios had no intention of arresting the
Dragon.
"If Morn doesn't watch out," he answered, "Min Don-
ner'll probably erect a statue in her honor. Make every damn
cop alive stop by at least once and kiss its feet. She'll be so
safe she won't know what to do with herself."
After a moment Davies mustered another nod. Apparently
he still trusted the ED director.
Angus didn't. Oh, he believed she would protect as well
as honor both Morn and Davies with her life. But she might
not do the same for him. He could easily imagine her having
him shut down like an unstable nuclear pile. If fucking Hashi
Lebwohl didn't get to him first; do something worse.
When Mikka came loose from the table, he steered her
toward Davies. Davies accepted her with both arms; adjusted
her against him so that he had one arm free without putting
pressure on her injuries.
"You know, it's funny," he mused softly. "I can remem-
ber everything you did to her." He'd been imprinted with
Morn's mind; Morn's memories. He lowered his head,
shrouded his gaze; keeping his grief to himself. "But I still
think she'll be sorry she didn't get to say good-bye."
That touched Angus: he seemed to have no defense
against it. Hints of pain and brutality spread out from the point
of contact. For a moment he lost the lightness that had carried
him out of himself. Weight dragged at him like a burden of
regret.
"Tell her—" he began gruffly. At first he had no idea
what he wanted to say. But then it became clear, as if his
computer had opened a datalink to the parts of himself he
didn't recognize. "Tell her I'm sorry I wasn't better."
He was sorry she'd chosen Nick to save her. If she hadn't
helped Nick frame him, everything after that would have been
different. In spite of himself, however, he understood. Nick
hadn't given her a zone implant.
At last Davies looked up at him. His son faced him
squarely as if he, too, had finally become honest.
"None of us are that good," Davies murmured. "I think
you've done all right."
Angus turned away. He'd had all the support he could
stand. It touched him too deeply. With his back to Davies, he
opened the sickbay door.
"Just tell her."
"I will," Davies promised.
"In that case—" Angus pointed at the corridor. "Get
Mikka out of here. Dios and I need to burn."
Davies didn't say anything more. Pulling on a handgrip,
he carried Mikka through the doorway; swung her with him
along the corridor in the direction of the lift.
At the same time Angus launched himself toward the
bridge.
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transferred Mikka to the command module; until Dios came
aboard and the airlocks sealed; until Dolph opened the grap-
ples. But as Trumpet hummed to life under his hands, and the
first nudge of thrust settled him into his g-seat, he started to
soar again.
He was done with Morn and Davies and vulnerability.
Done with cops, orders, legal violence, fear. The time had
come to cross the gap which had always blocked him.
The minute Warden reached the second's station and
closed his belts, Angus fired thrust hard. Trumpet burned like
a missile armed with ruin toward UMCHO.
Their approach to Earth's largest orbital platform presented no
difficulties. Min Donner's barrage had effectively stripped
away HO's ability to defend itself. Thousands of people re-
mained alive on station: the sheer number of distress signals
HO transmitted, and the volume of emergency communica-
tions, made that obvious. But the platform's guns had been
crippled. Most of its power was gone. Short of sending out an
EVA team, there was nothing Holt Fasner—or Home Security
—could do to prevent Angus Thermopyle and the UMCP di-
rector from docking at one of the personnel craft ports located
in the hub of HO's revolving torus.
Angus felt sure Fasner was still on station. As soon as
he'd left the command module behind, he'd started scrutiniz-
ing the huge platform with all Trumpet's sensors and sifters,
searching for any hint of the Dragon's escape. And his instru-
ments had the support of Earth's system-wide scan net: min-
utes after Calm Horizons' death, Min Donner had ordered the
net reactivated. Angus could pull in data from every ship and
station, every navigational buoy and scan relay, around the
planet. His screens told him that several dozen ejection pods
of various sizes had left HO—most in the direction of
UMCPHQ or SpaceLab Station, a few sliding down the grav-
ity well toward Earth's surface—but that no craft of any kind
had fled toward open space and freedom.
If Fasner ran, he wouldn't use an ejection pod: no mere
pod could carry his treasure of data and secrets. And he
wouldn't head for any destination where he would be arrested
as soon as he docked or landed. Therefore he was still within
reach when Angus eased Trumpet into the first available port
and locked her seals to hold her in place.
Angus didn't power down the drives: he wanted the gap
scout ready for him if he needed her. But he code-blocked the
command board so that no one else—not even Warden Dios—
would be able to take her.
Riding a new wave of eagerness, he asked Dios, "Now
what?"
The director hadn't spoken since he'd come aboard. Once
he'd taken the second's g-seat, he'd covered himself with si-
lence like a security screen, ignoring anything Angus hap-
pened to say. For the most part, he'd also ignored the scan
data Angus studied. Instead he'd concentrated on running a
playback of Trumpet's datacore. At first Angus had wondered
why Warden bothered. But then he'd realized that the UMCP
director was probably the only important man in Earth's space
who hadn't heard Morn's story. Apparently Dios was more
interested in what she and Angus had done and endured than
in anything else.
So Angus had left him alone. In spite of himself, he was
starting to understand the director. One way or another, Dios
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for humankind's future on Morn and Angus. The same convic-
tions which had driven him to take a risk like that left him
hungry to know what his success had cost them.
Now he didn't answer Angus' question. As soon as Trum-
pet clamped into her berth, he flipped open his belts and
pushed himself out of the second's station toward the bridge
companionway.
"Shit," Angus remarked to the display screens. In an-
other minute Dios' silence was going to make him angry. The
man was entirely too eager to end up dead. Like Ciro, he was
crazy with mutagens. Or he'd been crazy all along—
Clearing the command board, Angus released his belts
and followed the director.
He caught up with Dios at the weapons locker. Warden
had shucked off his EVA suit, and was helping himself to
everything he could carry: an impact rifle and several charge
clips; two laser pistols; a dagger with a serrated edge; half a
dozen concussion grenades.
Angus whistled through his teeth. "I guess we're expect-
ing trouble."
Dios fixed a gaze of pure concentration on Angus—a look
of such focus that it seemed to admit no weakness, allow no
emotion. "You could say that." The authority in his voice had
become as hard as a fist. Like a predator he meant to go for the
kill while his opponent was weak.
"Home Security has worked up here for decades," he
explained. Helping Fasner. "They probably think they won't
like what happens if they don't resist. When she gets around to
mopping up, Min will have the lot of them arrested. They'll
face all sorts of charges, starting with that attack on Suka
Bator. As long as they hope there might be a way out of this
mess, they'll fight."
Angus tried to imagine "a way out" for them. A ship? A
bargain? Some kind of executive miracle? But he didn't care
what it might be.
At least Warden was talking to him again.
"So what's the plan?" he asked while he peeled off his
own EVA suit; got rid of the encumbrance.
Dios clipped the handguns to his belt, stuffed his pockets
with grenades. All the hesitation had been burned out of him
long ago. "I want you to go after Holt."
Angus raised his eyebrows. He hadn't expected Warden to
give him his chance this easily.
"How am I supposed to find him?"
"Look for his gap yacht," Warden answered.
"Motherlode. She's probably berthed somewhere in the hub.
If he isn't there now, he will be eventually. She's his way
out.''
Shaking his head, Angus moved to take his turn at the
weapons locker. "I don't think so." He'd already studied that
possibility. "From the hub he won't have a window on open
space. Two of Donner's ships are close enough to hit him
before he reaches gap velocity. He'll have a berth somewhere
out on the rim."
At the right moment in HO's rotation, Fasner would have
a clear escape vector.
But the outer perimeter of the torus stretched for at least
twenty k. Angus would need hours to search that much of the
station.
Warden paused. "In that case—" He thought for a mo-



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ment, then said, "You should probably talk to his mother. She
might not tell me where he is. But I'm sure she'll tell you."
Angus didn't try to hide his surprise. He wanted to ask,
Fasner has a mother? Still? Isn't he too old? But he had no
time for secondary considerations. Instead he countered,
"Why would she do that?"
Grimly, Dios assured him, "You'll figure it out when you
see her."
Before Angus could argue, the director gave him a quick
set of directions which made sense to one. of his databases.
"All right." Angus set his uncertainty aside. He didn't
intend to let it weigh him down. From the locker he selected
two impact rifles and a double handful of charge clips. "What
do you want me to do if I catch up with him?"
Again Dios looked at him: a stare like a flare of urgency
—or a promise of murder.
"I trust you. Just do what comes naturally."
He seemed to think he could have imposed restrictions on
Angus, if he'd chosen to do so.
Angus grinned fiercely. "A free hand. I like it."
Shoving the charge clips into his pockets, he slung his
rifles over his shoulders and headed for the lift.
"All right," he repeated as the lift sank toward the air-
lock. "Assume it all works. His mother"—shit, his mother?—
"tells me how to find his yacht. I get there in time. What'll
you be doing?"
"I'm going after his data." Warden tapped on the keypad
to open the inner doors of the lock. "That's his real power. If
he's still downloading it to his yacht, I'll cut it off. I want to
make sure it can't be used to do any more damage."
"You know his codes?" Angus asked incredulously.
The director shook his head. "I don't have to. Hashi put
security locks on most of the main HO computers. I know
those codes. The locks won't prevent Holt from accessing any-
thing he wants to copy. They only block deletions, changes.
But they'll let me find the same files."
Apparently he'd thought of everything.
He reached up to cycle the outer doors; but Angus caught
his arm, stopped him. Effortlessly Angus pulled Warden
around to face him. A sense of doubt nagged at him. The man
he'd become felt concerns he couldn't forget.
Deliberately he raised the same question Davies had put
to him. "What happens after that?"
Dios' single gaze held no compromise; surrendered noth-
ing. "Then all hell breaks loose," he pronounced harshly.
"And Holt is finished."
Another promise. Warden made too many of them. They
were starting to scare Angus.
The director had only two or three hours of humanity left.
After that his supply of the drug he'd taken from Vestabule
would run out. If he didn't find an antidote in Fasner's data, he
was finished himself—as truly and completely ruined as the
Dragon.
With an effort of will, Angus tried again to reach past
Warden's defenses. Although the memory hurt him, he said,
"Davies told me Morn would be sorry she didn't get a chance
to say good-bye. She probably feels the same way about you."
Warden's glare didn't flicker. "Don't worry about it. I'll
send her a flare."
And another. "Oh, stop it," Angus snorted. In disgust he
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The rest of us don't have to worry about it."
Then he found that he couldn't stop himself. A strange
fury took fire in his veins, ignited by Dios' rebuff. An alle-
giance he didn't want and couldn't stifle filled him with out-
rage. Abruptly he started shouting.
"But you don't handle everything. Morn and I carried
you this far on our fucking backs! Didn't you actually read
that playback? Shit, you know she has gap-sickness. I told you
that myself! Hard g triggers it. She goes crazy for self-
destruct. But she saved us in the swarm. I set off the grenade.
That was all I could do. She ran helm. In the fucking g of a
fucking black hole! She figured out that pain blocks her crazi-
ness. So she kept herself sane and saved us by letting g shatter
her arm.
"Don't tell me not to worry about it," he snarled sav-
agely. "You didn't come here to finish Fasner, or snatch his
data. You came here to get yourself killed. So you won't have
to go on trial for your crimes."
For a long moment Warden stared back at Angus' indig-
nation. He didn't contradict anything Angus said. Instead his
organic eye softened slowly, and some of the resolve which
closed his face relaxed. He seemed to respond to accusations
when nothing else could touch him.
At last he sighed. "I passed sentence on myself a long
time ago. I don't see any reason to commute it now." Then his
voice sharpened. "But I passed sentence on Holt, too. What-
ever happens, I want that one carried out."
Through his teeth, he demanded, "Don't just kill him,
Angus. Tear his goddamn heart out."
Without transition Angus' anger seemed to release him;
set him free. Dios had finally shown him something he could
understand. Tear his heart out— That wasn't a cop talking: it
was a man full of pain who wanted revenge.
A man like Angus himself.
He took a deep breath, let it out with the last of his
doubts. "That's better." He gave Dios a bloodthirsty grin.
"Now we can go to work."
He didn't make any promises. He'd spent them all on
Morn. But he had no intention of disappointing the UMCP
director. He unslung one of his guns and growled cheerfully,
"Don't just stand there. Open the door."
In an instant Warden resumed his determination. Holding
his rifle ready, he keyed the outer doors of the airlock.
Together Angus Thermopyle and Warden Dios left the
ship to topple Holt Fasner's empire.
At first they were lucky. The hub was full of people, all des-
perately hunting for some craft to take them off station; but
none of them were HS guards. There weren't more than five
guns in the whole mob. And everyone recognized UMCP Di-
rector Warden Dios. Faced with the almost tangible blaze of
his authority—and with a pair of charged impact rifles—the
crowd gave way; let Angus and Warden through to the lifts.
That was fortunate. So much trapped panic could have
overwhelmed the two men. Any number of civilians would
have died; but eventually Angus and the director would have
fallen.
They were also fortunate that the station's mainte-
nance and support systems still had power. The lifts worked:
light and air-processing held steady: most of the status
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ner's barrage had crippled the generators which supplied HO's
guns, shields, and thrust, but hadn't cut deeply enough to kill
the platform.
However, the lift carried Angus and Warden down quickly
into the grasp of the station's rotational g. That slowed them:
instead of floating, they had to carry their own weight. And
when they reached the level where Dios had decided they
would separate, they found themselves in a pitched battle as
soon as the lift opened. Someone in the hub must have called
to warn Home Security.
From the cover of the doors Angus laid down fire with
both rifles, strafing a swath across the corridor. When he'd
cleared enough space, Warden tossed out a brace of concus-
sion grenades. At least twenty guards lay dead, dying, or
stunned by the time Holt's enemies left the lift. They had to
pick their way through the carnage as if they were on a battle-
field.
"Damn," Warden panted. "I hope there isn't much more
of this. I don't like killing people."
Angus laughed shortly. "I do." He didn't give a shit how
many of Fasner's guards he took down.
"Well, don't stop now." Dios glanced at the corridor
markers to confirm his location, then headed away at a run,
holding his rifle in front of his thick chest like an ED officer,
trained for combat.
Angus let him go. From now on the director was on his
own. Angus' nerves burned with fear and eagerness; en-
dorphins and zone implant emissions. His instincts fed on the
smell of blood, the urgency of death. HS didn't scare him as
much as the Amnion did: he knew he was faster, stronger,
more accurate. But the guards could still kill him. Guns equal-
ized the contest.
He took an instant to compare Warden's directions, the
corridor markers, and his computer's structural schematic of
the station. Then he, too, broke into a run, moving with a
cyborg's speed to find—the idea still amazed him—Holt
Fasner's mother.
Clearly HS hadn't had time to coordinate more than one
defensive stand. He encountered isolated guards; small knots
of terrified civilians; techs still trying to do their jobs. Efficient
as a microprocessor, he shot everyone who carried a weapon;
left the rest alone. He probably should have tried to kill them
all so that they couldn't muster HS behind him. But he'd lost
his taste for cold murder. Another change he didn't recognize.
She might not tell me where he is. But I'm sure she'll tell
you.
That didn't make any sense.
A sequence of corridors and lifts led him into one of the
more heavily shielded sectors of the platform. Markers
matched Dios' directions.
Who the hell was this woman? Fasner's real mother?
Bullshit. He was supposed to be a hundred fifty years old.
Fire dogged him in rapid bursts. He ducked and dodged;
ran; flung bloodshed past his shoulders with machine preci-
sion.
You'll figure it out when you see her.
He ran hard; but despite his speed his zone implants kept
his pulse firm, charged his blood with oxygen. Past the acrid
reek of impact fire, he began to smell the disinfectants of a
sterile med-sector.
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Unguarded. Abandoned. The whole sector echoed with
emptiness. If Fasner's mother was there, he didn't care enough
about her to take her with him.
Unless he'd already evacuated her—
Angus hooked his rifles over his shoulders to free his
arms. Trusting the lasers built into his hands, he moved care-
fully to the door; tested it.
Locked.
The mechanism was more elaborate—more secure—than
he expected it to be. Nobody but a cyborg would ever walk in
here without the right codes and clearances.
His EM vision read the circuits. A touch of laser surgery
released the lock.
As the door slid aside, he sprang at an angle through the
entrance, then crouched down against the marginal protection
of the wall, making himself a smaller target while he scanned
the room.
Shit! For a heartbeat or two, an emission shout from the
far wall nearly blinded him. Voices babbled against each other,
dozens of them punctuated by music and sound effects, men
and women all talking as if the others weren't there. He
searched wildly; saw—
—video screens. Jesus, video screens! Twenty or more,
the damn wall was full of them. All on: all projecting muted
seriousness and urgency into the darkened room. In fact, they
gave the only illumination. Someone had switched the room's
lights off.
Most of the screens showed newsdogs in full spate, pre-
tending they understood events which had left them behind
hours ago. A few channels still carried ordinary programs,
however, as if they were too important to be interrupted by the
mere threat of war and mass slaughter. Entertainment carried
more weight than the fate of the planet. Angus spotted at least
one sweaty romance and two canned sports broadcasts among
the newsdogs.
Slowly he rose out of his crouch. None of this made any
sense. If Fasner's mother lived here, the room had been de-
signed for a madwoman.
A moment passed before he realized he could hear one
voice which lacked the transmission quality of the video chan-
nels. With an effort, he looked away from the screens to finish
scanning the room.
At once he saw her. The screens shone full on her mum-
mified face; reflected from her staring eyes. The phosphor
glow emphasized her apparent lifelessness: she looked like an
effigy of death carved in old flesh. But she wasn't dead. Her
eyelids blinked sporadically. At intervals she tried to swallow
some of the saliva leaking from the corners of her mouth.
She lived because machines refused to let her die. IVs
festooned her arms: some tapped directly into her neck. A
device that did her breathing for her enclosed her chest; circu-
lated her blood. Below the equipment her legs protruded along
her medical crib like rolls of antique hardcopy.
So swiftly that he hardly noticed what he did, Angus
moved to leave the room. But at the door he caught himself;
stopped on the edge of fleeing for his life. Shit, the crib! An
autonomic terror had taken hold of him before he could con-
trol it. She was in the crib. If his computer hadn't helped him,
he wouldn't have been able to control it now.
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harshly while panic roared in his ears, throbbed in his temples.
She was in the crib. He wasn't. He wasn't. Morn and Warden
had set him free. He didn't need to be scared. Instead of feel-
ing all this terror, he ought to gloat over her, glad to see some-
one else in that position for a change.
But she was in the crib. His mother had tied his wrists
and ankles to the slats. IVs and equipment nailed this woman
in place. His mother had twisted his whole life with pain
which Holt Fasner's mother understood absolutely.
He couldn't feel glad: that malicious pleasure was beyond
him. His fear ran too deep. At one time he'd been perfectly
capable of selling twenty-eight men and women to the Am-
nion. For all he knew, he might still be able to do it. But he
believed that even in his worst and most brutal rages he could
never have done that to another living being.
No, he was wrong: he had done it. Even that last percep-
tion of himself was false. Didn't he think of his welding as a
kind of crib? And hadn't he forced a zone implant into Morn's
head? Imposed his own version of welding on her? Reduced
her to a machine?—a thing that lived only to satisfy him?
Now finally he understood that terrible moment aboard
Bright Beauty when he'd wept over the damage Starmaster
had done to his ship—or over the damage he'd done to Morn.
Even then he hadn't been sure which caused him the most
pain. But he knew now.
Murder was a small crime by comparison.
He remained, paralyzed, at the door until he heard the
woman mutter insistently, "Is someone there? I thought I was
alone." Repeating herself for the second or third or tenth time.
Still awake: still conscious inside her terrible prison.
As if the situation had suddenly become simple, he left
the doorway and crossed the room to stand in front of Holt
Fasner's mother. She was still conscious; still suffered the tor-
ment he'd fled all his life. That changed everything. Violent
tremors ran through him like spasms of revulsion; but his zone
implants concealed them. Nevertheless they couldn't stifle the
grief and rage that congested his face as he looked at her.
"You're not alone," he answered her hoarsely. "I'm
here."
As far as he could tell, she didn't so much as glance at
him. Her eyes flicked past him from side to side, hunting her
screens for sanity or death.
"Captain Angus Thermopyle." Her voice was a husky
whisper. "Killer. Rapist. Illegal. I recognize you.
"You're in my way."
The sound made his scalp crawl; sent skinworms of dis-
tress along his spine.
"I know." He wanted to step aside; wanted to hide his
distress in the gloom beyond the screens. Ruled by his com-
puter, his body stayed where it was.
Her toothless gums chewed over his refusal to move for a
moment. "In that case," she breathed thinly, "you must want
something. What is it?"
The taste of her helplessness sickened him. He bit down
hard so that he wouldn't gag on it.
"Tell me where Fasner is."
Her eyes went on searching past him, picking up grains of
comprehension from the screens. "What do I get out of it?"
His throat closed. He fought down bile. "What do you
want?"
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Spit drooled down her chin. "I can't tell you. I've been living
this way too long."
Involuntarily Angus matched her strained whisper.
"That's all right," he assured her. "I know what you want."
She might not have heard him. She was silent for a while.
Then she remarked obliquely, "Warden is doing better. But
it's still not good enough."
Angus had no idea how much she knew; what she under-
stood. She was probably crazy. Yet he believed instinctively
that she'd grasped everything.
Pressure mounted in him. Clenching his fists, he retorted,
"Will it be 'good enough' if he brings this station down
around your ears?"
The woman's eyes showed a hint of moisture. Small bits
of light and images from the screens reflected in her gaze.
"Only if he does it in time."
"Then let me help him," Angus urged quickly. "Tell me
where Fasner is."
She laughed again. "Promise me first." That may have
been as close as she could come to sobbing. "Give me your
word of honor. As a gentleman."
He knew why she hesitated; why she feared him. She
knew too much about him—and too little.
He moved closer to her, pushed his face at hers. "I'm not
a gentleman," he rasped grimly. "I don't know what honor is.
I don't even know your name. But I wouldn't leave a fucking
Amnioni like this."
That was true now.
"You hate him," he told her. "Because he did this to
you. That's what keeps you alive. If you don't help me stop
him, he's probably going to live forever."
For the first time the woman looked straight at him.
"Warden was right," she breathed. A damp film distorted
or purified her vision as she studied him past the confines of
her crib. "He staked everything on you. And that Hyland girl.
I thought it was a mistake. But I was wrong."
In a voice he could barely hear, she told him how to find
Motherlode's berth.
Without hesitation he snatched both rifles from his shoul-
ders. No flinch or flicker marred his resolve as he aimed his
guns at the machine which breathed for her and smashed it to
scrap; blasted her imposed life out of her.
At once her old eyes filled up with rest, then glazed to
darkness as her torment finally let her go. But he didn't stop
there. Instead he blazed fire like a saturation barrage around
the room, ripping apart the rest of her equipment, pulverizing
her video screens, tearing chunks of plaster out of the walls
and ceiling. He didn't release the firing studs of his rifles until
he'd reduced the whole place to gloom and debris.
He kept that promise. In some ways he was becoming
more like Warden Dios all the time.
Leaving ruin behind him, he burst from the room at a run
to keep another.
WARDEN
He didn't have far to go. A
lift or two; a few corridors.
One more crime: the most spectacular—but by no means the
worst—crime of his compromised life. The place where he
and Angus had separated was closer to UMCHO Center than
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than Warden did. On the other hand, the cyborg was much
faster. And he killed more easily.
In spite of everything, Warden Dios still wanted to keep
his own body count to a minimum.
UMCHO Center wasn't the real nexus of Holt's vast em-
pire. But Red Priority security locks would give Warden ac-
cess to Holt's data from any board in the HO network. And
Center had resources he needed; resources which would be
easier to use there than from some remote console. In addition,
he was hoping for help. If he couldn't persuade or coerce at
least one Center tech to assist him, his last crime would be
much more difficult to carry out. A lot more people would
die—
He ran steadily, but didn't push himself; tried to balance
speed and caution. It would be too pitiful for words if he came
all this way only to let some nameless HS guard kill him
prematurely. But he didn't encounter any guards. The few peo-
ple he met were unarmed and scared; consumed by the danger;
no threat to him. He reached the corridor outside Center with-
out firing at anyone.
The Center doors were guarded, however. He'd been sure
they would be. In general Holt didn't inspire the kind of loy-
alty that would hold men and women at their posts when he'd
obviously abandoned them. The guards were there, not to keep
other people out, but to keep the techs in.
Left to themselves, HO's civilians would have welcomed
anyone who suggested rescue or escape. Unfortunately a
darker commitment drove Home Security. The guards knew
that if they were taken they would be held accountable for any
number of Holt's actions. Their only hope was to believe that
the CEO might still find a way to save them.
Warden knew they were mistaken: Holt had no intention
of saving any of them. But he was also sure these guards
wouldn't listen to him if he tried to argue the point. Before
they spotted him, he flipped a concussion grenade at their feet;
ducked around a corner while it went off. Then he hurried to
the doors.
As a precaution, he slung the guards' rifles over his shoul-
der, shoved their sidearms into his belt. Armed like a guerrilla,
he thrust open the doors and strode into HO Center.
The hall itself was hardly distinguishable from any center
of operations in human space. Function dictated form. Dis-
plays ranked the walls: rows of consoles lined the deck: flat,
impersonal lighting washed out shadows and ambiguities. Ex-
cept for its size, this could have been UMCPHQ Center.
It was built to a larger scale, however. The staggering
amount of data processed here dwarfed UMCPHQ's opera-
tions. Holt could have run a planet from this room—if he
hadn't been so busy trying to manipulate all of human space.
But the place was practically empty. As he came through
the doors, Warden counted five techs and a guard. That was
all, in a room where hundreds of men and women usually
worked. If the rest had fled, and a guard was required to keep
these five at their consoles—
Warden jumped to the conclusion that the techs weren't
working for HO. They weren't directing an evacuation, run-
ning support systems, allocating resources, restraining panic;
weren't doing any of the jobs a damaged station full of terri-
fied people needed. Otherwise more of the techs would have
stayed.
So they were processing Holt's download. Whether they


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knew it or not, they were helping him copy the data which
would enable him to bargain with the Amnion.
Warden had his rifle in the guard's face before the man
could reach his weapons.
"I'm Warden Dios," he barked even though anyone who
worked for Center or HS would recognize him, "UMCP Di-
rector Dios. I'm taking command. From now on you're all
under my authority." He jabbed his rifle at the guard. "You,
drop your guns. Techs, stay at your consoles."
Fatigue or despair turned the guard's features gray. Sweat
gleamed on his upper lip. Apparently he lacked the courage—
or the desperation—for suicide. His IR aura twisted with de-
feat as he dropped his rifle; tossed his handgun aside.
Warden heard the doors bang shut. He wheeled toward
them, swept his rifle into line; but saw nobody.
One of the techs had fled.
Damn! He jerked back to cover the guard again.
The man hadn't moved. The other techs remained at their
stations.
Warden took a deep breath, held it to steady his heart.
When he let it out, he told the guard, "You can go. If you
think this is a good time for HS to attack me, you're stupider
than you look. We're going to begin arranging evacuation pro-
cedures, get people off this platform as fast as we can. If you
interfere—if HS starts a firefight that cripples this room—
you'll all die here, and you won't have anyone to blame but
yourselves.
"Do you understand me?"
"I understand, Director," the guard sighed.
Warden read his aura clearly; saw his resignation. The
man wanted to live. He would leave Warden and Center alone.
As soon as the guard left, Warden turned to the techs.
All four of them were on their feet. A show of respect?
He doubted it. They radiated too much fright. More likely they
wanted to run—
Their boards stood in a row partway across the room: the
guard had probably ordered them to work side by side so that
he could watch them comfortably. Warden moved toward
them, letting the muzzle of his rifle drop to diminish the threat
he projected. He hated the sight of their fear. He'd become a
cop because he wanted to reduce the perils of being human,
not because he liked scaring relatively innocent men and
women half to death. But he had no reassurance to give the
techs unless they agreed to help him.
One of them took him completely by surprise.
A young man stepped past the others toward Warden. He
was a kid, really; couldn't have been more than twenty. He had
blond hair so pale it was nearly invisible: patches of sweat on
his scalp showed through it like stains. His eyes gaped as if
he'd gone blind with alarm.
The id patch on his worksuit identified him as "Servil."
From one of his pockets he produced a projectile gun and
aimed it at Warden's chest.
"I'm sorry, Director." His voice shook, but his hand
didn't waver. "I can't let you interrupt us. We have work to
finish."
Warden froze. He'd completely misread the nature of the
young man's fright. The other techs may have needed a guard
to keep them at their posts: this kid didn't. He was still young
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when he'd first fallen under the Dragon's spell.
He could have taken Servil easily. As soon as the kid
brought out his handgun, the other techs scattered; ducked
away among the stations; hurried crouching along the rows
toward the doors. That distracted him. He took his aim off
Warden, instinctively looking for a way to make the other
techs return. Warden could have snatched the gun from him
without effort.
But Warden Dios didn't move. Didn't raise his rifle to
protect himself. He needed this kid. And he understood in-
stantly that coercion wouldn't work. It wouldn't have worked
on him when he was that age. If he wanted help, he would
have to persuade Servil out from under Holt's influence.
When he saw that he couldn't stop the other techs, Servil
pulled his gun back into line on Warden's chest. He clutched it
with both hands to hold it steady. Distress flared in his eyes—
more distress than his nerves could handle.
Warden let his rifle clatter to the deck, then held up his
hands to show the tech they were empty. As soon as his IR
prosthesis told him that a bit of the kid's tension had eased, he
asked quietly, "Is Holt's download that important to you?"
Servil flinched. His aura said clearly that he hadn't ex-
pected Warden to know what he and the others had been do-
ing.
"Don't you know what it's for?" Warden pursued.
The tech tightened his grip on the gun. "I don't need to
know." The tremor had settled into his voice: he couldn't get
rid of it. "The CEO ordered us to handle it. That's enough."
Warden shifted his arms so that the other rifles fell from
his shoulders. "We're not going to fight about this." With the
tips of his fingers he pulled the handguns from his belt and
dropped them. "You can go back to work if you want. I won't
raise a hand to stop you." Deliberately he spoke as if he were
in command. The only weapon he allowed himself was his
authority; his ability to convey conviction. "But I'm going to
tell you what that downlead's for. And I'm going to tell you
what I want you to do instead.
"If you want to shut me up, you'll have to shoot me."
Servil frowned his confusion. "I don't trust you."
Warden grinned humorlessly. "You don't have to trust
me. I'll sit here." He took a seat in front of the nearest active
console. Its readouts showed the status of the download. "You
can keep your distance." He indicated a board three stations
away. "You'll be able to pick up your gun and kill me faster
than I can get to you."
Without hesitation he started to type as fast as he could.
Center had already processed an enormous amount of
data. The download had only fifteen minutes left to run. Then
Holt could leave with his treasure intact.
That was nowhere near enough time. Already Warden was
being forced to choose between his desire to see Holt dead and
his determination to save as many lives as he could.
Forced to trust Angus absolutely—
He didn't try to disrupt the datastream. If he did that, if
he warned Holt in any way, the Dragon might rush launching
Motherlode. Instead he keyed his board to other functions—
which might slow the download slightly—and began sifting
through codes and clearances to reach the platform's status-
and-resource records.
"What're you doing?" the tech demanded anxiously.
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range evacuation procedures. Figure out how to save all these
people. Your job."
"Save them from what? We're damaged, sure. But the
platform is stable."
The director snorted. "Don't bet on it."
HO's megaCPUs could multitask on several different
levels, carry out quite a few vast—and exclusive—tasks simul-
taneously. When he found the records he wanted, he separated
his readouts. On one of them he searched the docks and berths
and holds for any conceivable means to off-load large numbers
of people.
Servil leaned forward, gripping his gun. "What do you
mean?"
On another screen Warden organized what was left of
station communications. With a little ingenuity he managed to
orient a hub dish toward UMCPHQ. From a third readout he
called up Damage Control to identify every viable power cell
and generator, every energy source, that remained active.
Finally he recalled a display of Holt's download so that he
could keep track of it. So that he would know when Holt was
about to leave.
"I mean," he answered Servil, "as soon as we get as
many people as we can away from this hunk of metal I'm
going to blow it apart."
"Stop!" the young man yelped at once. "Stop it." He
jumped out of his seat; aimed his gun at the side of Warden's
head. "Take your hands off that board."
Warden ignored the order.
"Director, I can't let you do this!"
He ignored that as well.
"Listen to me," he growled through his concentration.
"Holt didn't tell you what this download is for because he was
afraid you might be horrified. If you refused, he would be in
trouble. He needed at least one tech he could trust. But I'm
willing to risk a little horror.
"You know what he's downloading. He must have given
you a data req." Even unquestioning assistance required in-
structions. "He's copying everything that gives him power.
Secrets and deals. Contracts and blackmail. Personal and
personnel records, illicit orders, payment logs, corporate
protocols. Evidence of every crime he's ever committed. Ev-
erything that lets him dictate policy to the GCES."
 Warden's prosthesis read Servil's dismay. The young tech
was dangerously close to pressing the firing stud.
"My God, boy," Warden said like a groan, "you didn't
think he got this far by force of personality, did you? Nobody
is as pure as he claims to be. And you have to be suspicious of
anyone who gets rich off the Amnion. I know for a fact that
Holt Fasner cheated, stole, killed, and manipulated his way
here.
"I should know," he added bitterly. "I helped him do a
lot of it."
Uncertainty eased the pressure of Servil's fingers. Appar-
ently he didn't know what to make of Warden's frankness.
Like most of Earth's people, he'd probably been raised on the
idea that the UMCP was honest—and necessary. Holt had pro-
jected that illusion at every opportunity. And Warden had
done as much as he could to give the conceit substance.
"Why does he need all this information now?" he asked
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isn't he? He tried to destroy the Council, for God's sake. What
good are his records now?"
In a small voice the tech admitted, "I don't know."
"Well, I do," Warden snapped. "He can sell them.
"The power is still there. He can sell it to illegals. Give
them a chance to own their own Council Members—even their
own stations. He can buy their help for whatever he wants."
He paused, then stated flatly, "Or he can sell it to the
Amnion."
Servil flinched. "Why would he—?"
"Because," Warden explained like a splash of acid,
"they'll pay more for it than anyone else can. He's a hundred
fifty years old. He should have died decades ago. They have
the ability to give him a new body whenever he needs one.
They can imprint his mind from one body to the next without
damaging it. They can keep him alive and in his prime—prac-
tically forever.
"Hell, he might end up owning human space. He can
offer the Amnion a deal so rich they'll give him anything."
With his enhanced sight he saw the threat of Servil's gun
withdraw. Turmoil seethed, crimson and violet, through the
tech's aura, but it was the wrong kind of tension for an attack.
He retreated to a seat as if his legs weren't strong enough to
hold up his consternation.
Apparently he couldn't find a fault in Warden's reason-
ing. Despite his naive loyalty, he was starting to see the truth.
Warden quashed a sigh of relief; ran commands on his
board as quickly as he could. If he could have spared the
attention, he would have used another readout to monitor
Norna Fasner's sickchamber, hoping to mark Angus' progress.
But that was beyond him: he'd already stretched his concentra-
tion to its limits.
The download would be done in ten minutes. UMCPHQ
signaled constantly, calling for a response. HO's small supply
of ejection pods was trivial compared to the computer's esti-
mate of survivors. If he meant to save more than a fraction of
them, he needed some other approach.
After a moment Servil asked in a shaking voice, "If
that's all true—if you believe it—why aren't you trying to stop
him?"
"I am trying to stop him," Warden muttered. "I'm just
not doing it in person. He's abandoned all these people. Some-
body has to rescue them."
He wished like hell that he knew where Angus was.
"They won't need rescuing," the tech countered un-
steadily, "if you don't blow up the station."
Warden bit the inside of his cheek to keep himself from
shouting. "And what happens if I don't? Think about it. Use
your brain. I don't blow up the station. His data remains intact.
Who do you trust with it? It's the most destructive body of
information in human space." He would have been willing to
take a chance on Min—but even for her the burden might be
too much. "Who do you trust to have that much power and not
use it?
"Not the GCES, that's for damn sure. Some of the Mem-
bers are honest—and some aren't. And I wouldn't want to
make my people live with that much temptation. Even the best
of them might not be able to resist."
He hit keys to refine his search for some means to evacu-
ate the platform. While sub-routines flashed down his readout,
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Make them public. Every bit of that data. Destroy ten or
twenty thousand lives and reputations. Cripple a few corpora-
tions, a few stations." Unleash the damage before anyone
could manipulate it. Make all Holt's supporters and victims
pay for their mistakes simultaneously. "But we can't do that.
Even if we use every dish we've got," every dish Min's on-
slaught hadn't shattered or crippled, "it would take weeks to
downlink that much information."
Holt could copy it all so much faster because Motherlode
was plugged directly into the HO network.
Abruptly a damage control alert flashed on his console.
He checked it automatically.
A small screen told him that every system in Norna
Fasner's med sector had gone dead. Even the dedicated uplink
which still fed her video channels: everything. Some kind of
fire or explosion had devastated the medical crypt where Holt
had kept his mother entombed for almost ninety years.
Angus had gotten that far; done that part of his job.
Good.
But he didn't have much time left. Once the download
was complete, Holt could sever his links with the platform; set
his berth's palt to fling Motherlode outward when the rotation
of the torus gave him an attractive window on open space. He
would be gone in a matter of minutes.
Frustration and urgency accumulated in Warden's chest
like a nuclear pile approaching critical mass. He'd placed too
many demands on himself; made too many promises. Damn,
he needed help—
"Unless we delete it," he croaked suddenly.
Erase Holt's data instead of blowing up the station. That
would serve the purpose. Unfortunately it would also leave
Warden alive. He would have to convince someone to kill him
before his supply of Vestabule's drug ran out: he did not want
to turn Amnion at the end of his life. But everyone else on
station might survive—
He wheeled his seat to face the tech. "Do you know how
to do that? Do you have the codes?"
"No," Servil admitted as if the idea shocked him.
Warden swore under his breath. "I don't either." He
thought quickly, then asked, "Can we stop him from launch-
ing his yacht? Will these systems do that? Can we get our
hands on him and make him tell us the codes?"
"No," the tech said again. A penumbra of dumb misery
swirled around him. "The overrides have been set. He has
complete control."
Shit! Warden ground his teeth. As he turned back to his
board, he demanded, "Then what choice do you think I
have?"
Servil slumped in front of a console. His aura modulated
through a series of emotions. Warden caught suggestions of
pain, defeat, weariness, resignation. Softly the young tech
asked, "What do you want me to do?"
A kick of hope caught Warden's heart. In a rush he be-
gan, "Help me—"
To his chagrin, his voice shook like Servil's. He was un-
der more pressure than he'd realized: he'd kept himself too
busy to realize it. Relief and desperation he couldn't contain
nearly made him groan. He swallowed hard and tried again.
"Help me save some lives."
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raised his hands to his board, held them ready,
"How?"
Warden's human eye burned, dangerously close to blur-
ring. He blinked it clear; scanned his readout of the station's
resources. After a moment he found what he wanted.
"There." Swiftly he copied one of his displays to Servil's
console. "Cargo 11." A hold out at the rim of the torus: a bay
so big Punisher could have docked in it. "Those ore cans."
The computer reported five of them. "They're empty. If you
do it right, you can use them."
Before it became UMCHO, the core of this station had
been the home of Space Mines, Inc. Holt's vast empire had
begun as a small ore smelting operation, orbiting Earth to take
advantage of the asteroid belt. Since then HO had grown tre-
mendously; but the platform still performed some of SMI's
functions. Smelting was no longer done, but a certain amount
of ore transshipment took place.
Ore cans were huge cylinders, too large for most ships to
carry; designed to be towed rather than transported. And they
were airtight, sealed against vacuum to protect their contents,
not during shipment, but at their transshipment points and des-
tinations. Some of the metals, isotopes, and rare earths that
humankind mined could only be processed if they hadn't been
contaminated by atmosphere.
"You can probably get two hundred fifty people in each
of those things," Warden explained as Servil went to work.
"With enough air for at least a couple of hours. When they're
sealed, you can open the bay, use station rotation to spin them
out. If you time it right, you can aim them at UMCPHQ.
"I'll tell UMCPHQ Center what's going on. Their tugs
should be able to tow those cans in before the air runs out.
"That should take care of almost everyone," he finished.
"When they're on their way, you and whoever else is left can
use the last ejection pods."
"What about you?" Servil asked in a small voice.
"Somebody has to stay here," Warden answered harshly,
"and make sure nothing goes wrong. That's my job."
With an effort of self-control, he didn't add, Unless you
want to watch me turn Amnion.
Servil nodded. "I suppose you're right." He rubbed the
heels of his hands into his eyes as if he wanted to force the
uncertainty out of them. Then he started typing.
His fingers gathered speed and assurance as he ran com-
mands to route power and air for the hold, confirm that the
ore cans were empty, prepare the bay doors. He called up a
platform rotation schematic; calculated the hold's window on
UMCPHQ; then activated an intercom so that he could issue
orders to the whole station in Holt Fasner's name.
Despite his relative youth, he obviously knew his job.
Warden allowed himself a moment of profound relief—a
brief pause of appreciation for Servil's aid. That was all the
time he could afford. Almost at once he threw his hands at his
board; tackled the problem of making UMCHO destroy itself.
In order to wrest an explosion from the power cells and
generators, he would have to route a feedback loop which
would drive them past their tolerances. That should have been
impossible. Stations were too vulnerable: therefore they had
safeguards. Under normal circumstances, the cells and genera-
tors were well protected from any destructive tampering.
But Min's guns had damaged a number of the systems.
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Red Priority security locks gave him access to codes which in
turn released controls he wouldn't ordinarily have been able to
touch.
In addition, he'd recently spent a number of hours study-
ing every available detail of HO's design and construction;
preparing himself in case this day ever came. He probably
knew a great deal more about how the platform worked than
the young tech did.
He could do it; cause a blast to gut the station. The explo-
sion wouldn't be as powerful as he wanted: not powerful
enough to catch and crush Motherlode with its wavefront once
the gap yacht was launched and away. But at least he could do
it without endangering any of Min's ships.
If he worked fast enough: if he didn't make any mistakes.
If he blew the platform before UMCPHQ or any other station
sent out craft to answer HO's distress flares.
His hands flew on the keys as if he'd spent his life study-
ing self-destruct sequences.
Where was Angus? Could he reach the yacht? Get
aboard? Or would he be caught on station? Warden had no
idea. He wished now that he'd arranged a signal of some kind;
a means for Angus to communicate success or failure. But he
hadn't thought of it.
How many other crucial details had he neglected? He
couldn't afford to worry about that. Couldn't afford to let his
visceral desire to see Holt die distract him. He'd reached the
end of his life. Circuits and relays sprang to life under his
hands, filling HO strand by strand with a web of ruin. Holt's
download would end soon. The time had come to trust other
people with humankind's future. Min and Angus, Morn and
Koina, Hashi: they would have to pick up any pieces he might
have dropped.
Servil would need at least half an hour to arrange his
evacuation—if HS helped him organize the survivors; if HS
believed his orders came from Holt. Otherwise the process
might take much longer.
Warden had to communicate with UMCPHQ. He couldn't
put it off anymore. And he'd promised Angus— But he
couldn't bear the prospect of actually speaking to Center;
hearing those familiar voices remind him of the life he'd com-
promised and abandoned. And his heart might break if any of
the people he trusted and loved tried to talk to him. He pre-
ferred to face the culmination of his old shame alone.
Instead of risking voice transmission, he wrote out a mes-
sage, warning Center that HO was about to die. He urged men
and women he'd once commanded to keep ships away from
the station; out of danger. He asked his former officers and
friends to rescue Servil's ore cans as soon as they cleared the
wavefront.
Finally he added a series of quick personal messages—
one for Min and another for Hashi; one for Morn. He gave
each of them the best farewell he could. Then he set HO's dish
to broadcast his transmission automatically, repeat it as long
as possible.
When his console informed him that Motherlode had been
launched on an escape vector which kept her safe from attack
or pursuit, he cursed her blip as if he believed in the power of
words to wreak transcendent harm. But his anger at Holt had
become curiously abstract. It no longer drove him. For good or
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content to have done so. None of the people he'd trusted had
failed him so far. Even Servil hadn't failed him. And he'd
come to the end of himself. He'd completed his web of cir-
cuits and relays, of complicity and subterfuge: there was noth-
ing left for which he could take responsibility—except his own
tainted soul. An unfamiliar peace eased through him as he
watched the gap yacht recede in the direction of her fate.
As soon as Servil sent the cans on their way, Warden gave
him ten minutes to reach an ejection pod. But he actually
waited longer than that; until he was sure the tech had es-
caped.
Then, however, he didn't hesitate. He'd told Angus that
he'd passed sentence on himself a long time ago. Now he
carried it out.
With a few keystrokes, the discredited director of the
United Mining Companies Police closed his final relays and
tore the foundation of Holt Fasner's malign empire to shreds.
HOLT
Finally humankind's last and
greatest visionary was safe.
He'd made mistakes: he acknowledged that freely to him-
self, although he might not have admitted it to anyone else.
One was that he'd trusted Ward too long; let the man go too
far. Another was that he'd attacked Suka Bator without first
gaining control over the Donner bitch and her cordon. And
mistakes were always dangerous. They were often fatal. He
should have fired Ward as soon as his mother had named his
own fears by warning him that the UMCP director would get
him into trouble. Failing that, he should have made sure Calm
Horizons would extirpate the votes for him, instead of risking
the attempt himself.
He still didn't understand why Calm Horizons hadn't
blasted Suka Bator when the shooting started. Apparently
Ward's treachery ran deeper than he'd imagined. Or Donner
and Morn Hyland had conceived some ruse to trick the Am-
nioni—
Nevertheless Holt told himself that he had no regrets. In
spite of his mistakes, he was safe. A visionary's advance plan-
ning—and a visionary's contempt for lesser beings—had
saved him. He and all his essential data were safely aboard
Motherlode. And Motherlode had already put a couple hun-
dred thousand k between her and HO, accelerating gently
toward the gap and deep space on a trajectory which protected
her from Donner's ships.
In addition, of course, Motherlode was more than just a
luxury gap yacht, furnished, appointed, and supplied to trans-
port him in a monarch's opulent comfort. She had the guns of
a cruiser; the drive-power and range of a battlewagon; the
shields, sinks, and defenses of a space-fortress. Personally he
had no particular taste for luxury. When he'd commissioned
Motherlode, he'd lavished so much wealth on her accommoda-
tions because he meant to daunt and manipulate his occasional
guests, not because he himself liked ostentation. On the other
hand, he valued his own survival highly. If Donner's ships had
attacked him at this range, his shields would have shrugged
their fire aside like so much solar wind. And if he chose to run
not one of them Could have kept pace with him.
There was nothing to stand in his way. He was safe—as
safe as riches and forethought could make him. Protected from
death by every resource of human ingenuity: entirely beyond
harm. When Motherlode finally began to skim the light-years


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toward forbidden space, he would be close to immortality.
She didn't go into tach, however. Not yet. For some rea-
son, he was reluctant to give the order. Instead of hurrying his
escape toward the visionary triumph of force-grown bodies
and imprinted minds, he watched Motherlode's screens and
waited for something to happen.
He was on the bridge; at the command station. His entire
crew—three men—sat at their boards in front of him, facing
the same screens. His yacht could have used a crew often, but
she only needed that many when she carried passengers—and
the passengers happened to be demanding. The ship herself
required no more than three. In fact, any one of her officers
could have handled her alone. Holt could have run her by
himself. But he was intimately familiar with the weaknesses of
his old body. He'd brought the crew with him for the same
reason that he didn't risk hard acceleration: he distrusted the
condition of his heart. He'd felt his pulse fluttering ever since
Donner opened fire on him. A new tightness in his chest re-
fused to go away, despite the drugs which had kept him alive
for so long.
Because he feared the strain of running Motherlode alone,
he needed a crew. The three of them could take turns; rest
enough to stay alert.
Yet he didn't trust ordinary men any more than he trusted
his own mortality. They might have questioned him. Might
have made the mistake of thinking their lives were more im-
portant than his. These three were special.
They all had zone implants. Their zone implant controls
were also implanted. And the controls were voice-activated;
keyed specifically to his voice. With a word he could fill them
with enough pleasure to drive them mad; enough pain to kill
them. They would do anything for him.
For that reason, he didn't trouble with code-locks for the
bridge consoles. His crew would obey him absolutely—and
kill anyone who tried to give him trouble.
He was completely and utterly safe.
Nevertheless he withheld the order for tach. Despite the
fluttering and pressure in his chest—warning signs that he
should try to reach forbidden space quickly—he kept
Motherlode within reach of Earth's scan net. Instead of flee-
ing, he used the net to watch what happened to UMCHO.
Something would happen: he was sure of that. He just
hoped he would be able to recognize it; grasp what it meant.
As soon as Donner had restored the scan net after Calm
Horizons' astonishing death, Holt had seen Trumpet approach
HO. Punisher's command module had headed for UMCPHQ,
but the gap scout had braved Holt's station. Well before
Motherlode's launch, Trumpet had docked in the hub.
Now that was an unexpected development. Beyond ques-
tion something was about to happen.
Who was aboard the gap scout? What did they want?
What did they think they could accomplish?
For a while he'd received no hint of an answer. Certainly
nothing had interfered with Motherlode's launch, or her grad-
ual acceleration. Nothing had threatened him. But then in sur-
prise he'd watched the platform loft a series of ore cans
toward UMCPHQ. And he'd seen UMCPHQ send out tugs to
receive the cans.
The answer was there, if he could figure it out.
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on?"
The man at the scan station also handled communica-
tions. "Yes, sir," he replied without hesitation—or interest.
"They aren't keeping it secret. It's on all the in-system relays.
Those cans are full of people. They're evacuating HO."
Evacuating, hell, Holt snorted to himself. That wasn't just
evacuation. It was desperation. Nobody who wasn't desperate
would leave a stable station in a goddamn ore can.
What were they afraid of?
Apparently they believed the platform wouldn't remain
stable much longer. Either Donner's bombardment had done
more damage than Holt had realized, or—
Holt's eyes widened in surprise.
—or this was another of Ward's by God oblique, mali-
cious gambles. The final ploy in his vast, impenetrable charade
of service to the UMC and humankind.
Holt found the possibility so amazing that he believed it
instantly.
Suppose the command module had taken Ward off Calm
Horizons before the defensive died. What did he have to live
for? Why had he bothered to arrange his own survival?
His attack on his rightful master before the Council had
destroyed his reputation, his career. He'd given his charges
weight by confessing his complicity. By now the votes must
be convulsed with self-righteousness. They would almost cer-
tainly have him executed. So why had he done it? What was
this whole elaborate exerciser for?
Ah, but what if it had all been for this: to give Ward
access to HO? He could probably handle HS. If nothing else,
he could say Donner was about to gut the station. He could
organize a desperate evacuation—and virtuously offer to re-
main behind, pretending he cared that everyone else got away
safely.
Then he would be free to take Holt's data. For himself.
And with that lever he could defy them all—the UMCP, the
GCES, the other stations; the whole planet. He would have the
power, the evidence, to topple corporations, platforms, govern-
ments.
If he used it carefully, he could make the votes pardon
him.
And after that there would be virtually no limit to what he
might acquire—
The mere idea almost stopped Holt's heart. He blinked
astonishment at the screens, whistling thinly through his teeth.
By God, he'd made another mistake. He should have deleted
his data as he copied it. His mother had warned him and
warned him—and yet he'd left all that power intact for his
worst enemy.
If he'd listened to her, he wouldn't have lost his empire.
Or his station. Instead of being forced to flee alone, he would
have been able to take his species with him on his visionary
journey toward the only future which would allow it to endure.
For a moment his bitterness and regret were so acute that
he could barely contain them. Outrage accumulated in his
veins. His heart limped from beat to beat, staggering when it
should have throbbed safely. Ward's victory was intolerable.
Holt should have strung him up by his balls at the first hint—
Fortunately one of the crew broke into his thoughts.
"Sir," the man at the targ station announced quietly, "I'm
getting a malfunction alert."
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fury. Grateful for the distraction, he asked, "What is it?" His
frailty had reached frightening proportions. He was in no con-
dition for so much anger: he had to take better care of himself.
"Routine diagnostics, sir." The targ officer wasn't wor-
ried. "We aren't in a hurry, so I took the time to run a few
checks. One of the airlock servos doesn't respond. The lock is
sealed. There's no danger. But that servo ought to read green,
and it doesn't. May be a faulty circuit. It's probably been that
way since the last diagnostic."
Since before Motherlode had left HO.
Holt nodded. Caution of all kinds was a standing order
aboard the yacht. Whatever else happened, he meant to sur-
vive.
"Can you fix it?"
The man inclined his head. "Whenever you like, sir. But
I'll have to go down to the airlock."
"Do it later," Holt ordered. "I want you here." Just in
case Ward had more surprises for him.
Whatever happened would probably happen soon. The ore
cans were on their way to safety. There would be plenty of
time for minor repairs after Motherlode's first gap 'crossing.
As his distress receded, however, and his pulse recovered
a more familiar rhythm, he found he couldn't stop thinking
about Norna. The truth was that he'd been thinking about her
all along: he just hadn't wanted to recognize it.
He missed her. He'd kept her alive so long—and had
profited so much from her hostile insight—that he felt bound
to her in ways he couldn't describe. He liked her, despite her
grim hunger for his ruin. Over the decades her malice had
helped him stay alert; helped him thrive. Without her—
Without her he made mistakes. And mistakes might kill
him.
He couldn't have brought her with him. That was out of
the question. But now he began to wonder how he would live
without her.
"Sir!" the scan officer called sharply.
Holt jerked his attention to the screens in time to see an
explosion tear through HO.
In a rush of brisance the whole steel skeleton of the plat-
form crumpled like hardcopy. All the generators and power-
cells must have blown simultaneously. Soundless across the
kilometers, HO's death seethed on the screens, as poignant
and immedicable as a rupturing heart. Incandescence and fire
shone briefly through the shattered ribs of the infrastructure,.
then were sucked back into darkness. Within seconds empty
space had swallowed the debris and corpses, leaving only a
few charred steel bones to mark the station's place in the af-
fairs of humanity.
Norna was dead.
But so was Ward. The man's ambitions had failed in the
end, sabotaged by the platform's vulnerability. Some resource-
ful HS guard had set that explosion. Or Ward had triggered it
himself by accessing the station's computers clumsily. Holt
didn't care which. He cared only that Ward had at last suffered
the ruin he'd tried so hard to bring down on Holt's head.
And Norna's wish for her son's destruction had also
failed.
Her death was a small price to pay.
In addition, Holt's now-exclusive data had just experi-
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He released a long sigh of satisfaction. "Well, that takes
care of the high-and-mighty Warden goddamn Dios," he
drawled to the bridge. "The sonofabitch finally got what he
deserves, I wish I could have seen his face when he realized
HO was about to explode. All that plotting to get his hands on
my data, and suddenly he finds he's going to die for it. I'll bet
he shat blood when he—"
Without warning a hand closed in Holt's thin hair,
wrenched his head against the back of his g-seat. "I'll bet he
didn't," a voice he'd never heard before snarled cheerfully.
"I'll bet he did it himself. I'll bet he was just so sick of you he
couldn't bear to let anything you've ever touched survive."
The crew swung their stations, gaped in shock past Holt
at the intruder.
"He kept his promises," the man went on. "All of them.
That's supposed to be a good thing, but it's really the shits. It
makes a bastard like me feel like he has to do the same."
The pressure on Holt's scalp threatened to choke him;
break his neck. He couldn't speak.
Without orders his men didn't move.
"Vestabule cursed me. Can you believe it?" The stranger
spoke in a cruel drawl. "He threatened to eliminate my DNA
from the galaxy. I guess he didn't think I would end up with a
ship like this, just full of interesting secrets. But a mistake is a
mistake. Since I can't make any more deals with forbidden
space, there's really no reason why I shouldn't do what Dios
wants."
Terror labored in Holt's old chest. Frantically he twisted
against his g-seat to ease the strain on his throat. Nearly stran-
gling, he croaked out the word that sent his men into combat
mode.
They reacted instantly, obedient to his compulsion. As
one they slapped at their belts, jumped to their feet, reached
for their guns—and died. The intruder let go of Holt's head.
One thin ruby beam burned a hole into the targ officer's fore-
head, then slashed across the throat of the man on scan, spill-
ing a scorched spray of blood. A second laser devoured most
of the helm officer's face.
"Nice trick," the harsh voice remarked. "Most men
can't move in unison like that. Did you use voice-command
zone implants on them? Oh, dear. I'm afraid that's against the
law."
A heavy hand turned Holt's station.
When he saw Angus Thermopyle's face, recognized it
from newsdog broadcasts and Ward's files, he started scream-
ing.
MORN
Two days later, when the
Governing Council for Earth
and Space met formally to consider recent events, Morn Hy-
land watched the proceedings on a video screen.
President Len had insisted on convening this session in
the Council's kaze-damaged meeting hall. He'd announced
that he considered the venue symbolically important: he
wished the split doors and cracked floor, the concussion-
gouged plaster and paint, to serve as tangible reminders of the
cost of what had transpired. In other words—according to Min
Donner—he meant to rub the Members' noses in the mistake
of trusting Holt Fasner and the UMC. So humankind's GCES
representatives sat in their assigned places around the large,
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aides, advisers, and secretaries ranked behind them in tiers of
seats rising to the walls. Morn recognized the scene, although
she'd never been to Suka Bator: it was familiar from any num-
ber of news broadcasts and UMCP briefings.
Within the oval, chairs had been arranged for the Coun-
cil's guests. Davies and Mikka sat there, accompanied by
UMCP Acting Director Min Donner, PR Director Koina Han-
nish, Captain Dolph Ubikwe, ED Chief of Security Mandich,
and Hashi Lebwohl. The former DA director currently had no
title: he was officially under suspension pending a review of
his role in Warden Dios'—and Holt Fasner's—crimes.
Morn wasn't with them because she'd refused to attend.
She'd already told her story; laid bare her shame and pain in
front of these same people. And she felt weighed down by
loss. Ciro's death, and Vector's, and Warden's, seemed to lie
on her heart like slabs of lead. The memory of Sib Mackern's
abandoned end ached like a bruise. For a time even Angus'
disappearance had troubled her in ways she couldn't name.
She was afraid she might start to weep under the eyes of the
Council—and once she began crying she wouldn't be able to
stop.
That crisis would come. It had to. But when it did, she
meant to confront it in her own way; at her own time.
Somewhere Mikka Vasaczk had found the strength to face
the assembled authority of humankind, despite her injuries.
And Min Donner could do the same, even though she'd lost
the man she served. But neither of them had accepted the
control to a zone implant from a killer and rapist—or believed
they couldn't survive without it. Morn Hyland was no longer
willing to endure the anguish of answering questions, or stand-
ing up under scrutiny.
Fortunately Min had accepted her decision; supported it.
The acting director had assigned her a suite of rooms in
UMCPHQ, given her codes to lock her doors against anyone.
The suite was supplied with video screens and data terminals,
if she wished to use them. She even had her own food-vend.
And the entire station had standing orders to leave her alone;
let her come and go as she pleased.
As much as possible, she was allowed to make her own
peace with what had happened.
She didn't think that she would ever be at peace again.
Nevertheless she was deeply grateful for Min's consideration.
Real privacy comforted her even when it failed to relieve her
pain. She didn't keep to herself all the time, however. During
the two days since Calm Horizons' death and UMCHO's de-
struction, she'd spent hours with Davies and Mikka, talking
about what they'd done—and how they bore it. And she'd
given Min as much time as Min asked for; done her best to
explain and describe everything so that Min would understand
the whole story.
But she found no solace in words, no matter how much
she cared about the people who said them. Mikka's courage
and Davies' desire to help did nothing for her. Messages of
congratulations, thanks, and praise from the GCES and Koina
Hannish, Earth's planetary governments, other stations, even
corporations once owned by the UMC: all arrived at her data
terminal stillborn. She felt no triumph over what she and
Trumpet's people had accomplished; no vindication. The way
Warden Dios had used her and the others—the way he'd
trusted them—neither incensed nor gratified her. Apparently



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only solitude could reach her where she grieved. She clung to
the loneliness of her quarters, unwilling to venture forth until
she was ready.
During those two days, only one small bit of news lifted
the edge of her sorrow. UMCPHQ had received a flare from
Motherlode, tight-beamed moments before the gap yacht had
disappeared into tach. Min had shared it with Morn as soon as
it came in.
Dios told me to stop Fasner, Angus had sent. So I did. But
I'm going to keep his ship. I like it.
Tell Morn that Fasner was easy. Dios did the hard part.
And tell her I told him to say good-bye.
For reasons she didn't question, Morn was pleased that
Angus hadn't died on HO.
Min allowed her a moment to absorb the message. Then
the acting director remarked, "You know what this means.
Angus has Holt's data."
According to one of HO's surviving techs, a man named
Servil, the Dragon had downloaded all his essential files to
Motherlode before leaving the station.
Quietly Morn asked, "Does that worry you?"
Min chuckled without much humor. "Not really. We have
codes to fry his brain. He knows that. I don't think he'll want
to call attention to himself by using that data.
"And Hashi assures me he still can't come here. He's
been freed in other ways, but his datacore won't let him do
that. Which limits the amount of damage he can do."
Then she added, "On the other hand, those secrets give
him a lever. We don't want to risk provoking him. If he thinks
he's being hassled, he might decide to strike back. It's a stand-
off of sorts. We'll all be happier if we leave each other alone."
Morn was glad that he was alive. She was even glad that
he had the means to defend his freedom. And she was pro-
foundly glad that he was gone. At last she could let go of the
sore, conflicted part of herself which cared what happened to
him.
For the rest of the time before she began to watch this
session of the Council, only being alone helped her; protected
her. The lock on her door was all that held back the conse-
quences of her ordeal while she tried to gather her courage.
Shortly after Punisher had reached UMCPHQ, Min had
informed Morn that Warden Dios had sent her a message be-
fore he died. He'd sent one to Min as well—and to Hashi
Lebwohl. Morn's was available on her terminal whenever she
wanted to look at it. But she hadn't read it. For two days she'd
told herself that nothing Warden could say to her would make
a difference now. In fact, however, she needed to isolate her-
self from him as much as from the GCES and most of
UMCPHQ. She feared his message would break down the
fragile barrier which prevented her from collapsing into her
grief.
After a certain number of formalities, President Len be-
gan the session by describing briefly the aftermath of Calm
Horizons' incursion. The entire intricate complex of the UMC
was in disarray, he explained, with staggering implications for
the financial structure of human society; but few lives had
been lost. Most of the deaths were the result of Acting Direc-
tor Donner's necessary strike against UMCHO—and of War-
den Dios' more ambiguous destruction of the platform.
Financial structures could and would be repaired. Considering
all the dangers that had been averted—by actions of almost


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unimaginable valor and resourcefulness—the planet should
deem itself enormously fortunate.
Other issues were more disturbing. Len was sure that
Calm Horizons must have communicated with forbidden space
before approaching Earth. Therefore the Amnion possessed
the Shaheed formula. And therefore it was only a matter of
time before the formula was rendered ineffective.
For that, at least, Morn had forgiven herself. Long before
Vector had begun to broadcast his formula, the Amnion had
obtained it from her blood. She'd placed her entire species in
danger for the sake of her own survival. But she'd preserved
her humanity. Her only alternative had been surrender: a kind
of self-destruct. She'd come to believe that the need for a
better answer was more important than keeping Nick's an-
timutagen secret.
Some of the Members, President Len now proclaimed,
would argue that humankind should attack the Amnion imme-
diately, while the Shaheed formula remained viable. A deci-
sion would be made in a few days. But he warned that he
would strenuously oppose any hostile response. In his view, an
assault on forbidden space would be desperately shortsighted:
too unsure of success; too expensive to carry out. War was the
worst possible solution to interstellar conflict, and he meant to
stand in its way as long as he held office.
Apparently he, too, felt the need for a better answer.
When he'd finished stating his position, he asked for pre-
liminary reports from Acting Director Donner and Chief of
Security Mandich. Stiffly, Min discussed the disposition of
Earth's forces and the defense of human space in case the
Amnion attempted a preemptive strike of their own. She also
described the charges against the Home Security guards who
had escaped UMCHO. Mandich talked about how the UMCP
meant to handle the rest of HO's survivors. He detailed the
failure of security which had allowed Holt Fasner to send out
kazes with legitimate id and credentials, and suggested proce-
dural changes to protect against similar problems in the future.
With those issues out of the way, the Council turned its
attention to the events which had brought Calm Horizons to
Earth—and to the people who had saved the planet from both
the Amnion and Holt Fasner.
In a tone that brooked no objection, Min explained
Morn's absence. Then President Len asked Davies to address
the Members.
He was the logical choice to speak for Trumpet's people.
He had all of Morn's memories up to the moment of his birth.
And after that he'd participated in most of what she and
Angus and Trumpet had done. But he was also the logical
choice in another, more personal sense.
During the past two days, Morn had seen that he was
changed. His confrontation with the Amnion and his own fear
in order to rescue Warden Dios had transformed him in some
way. She had the impression that he'd inherited a part of
Angus she didn't understand and couldn't measure. He'd
faced an even more global version of the fear she'd felt when
Nick had delivered her to the Amnion. He'd committed him-
self absolutely to the fight for Warden's humanity—and his
own. And he'd succeeded. In that way he was directly respon-
sible for Holt Fasner's final defeat; for the destruction of HO,
and for Angus' presence aboard Motherlode.
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spite Morn's memories, he'd begun to believe in who he was.
For that reason he could face the Council with more certainty
—and clarity—than she would have been able to muster.
Standing before the assembled Members, he told her
story again; but it was also his own story, and Trumpet's. He
went into more detail than she had two days ago: he empha-
sized different aspects; arranged his explanations in a different
order. But it was essentially the same story, extended to in-
clude her indirect dealings with Marc Vestabule and the rescue
of Warden Dios. When he was done, her only regret was that
he seemed to confuse shame and courage. He'd made her
sound braver than she was.
She may have helped topple the Dragon's empire; but she
wasn't yet brave enough to leave her rooms.
The ovation which greeted Davies' tale nearly cost Morn
her tenuous self-command. Surging to their feet, the Members
thundered applause around him until her eyes burned and a
thick heat filled her throat. He was her son. The voices which
had questioned and challenged her when she'd spoken to the
Council were nowhere to be heard. Everyone in the hall
clapped and clapped as if they had no other language for their
gratitude.
Swallowing tears, Morn left the screen; went to the san
for a drink of water. She didn't return until the applause had
subsided.
Once the Members and their staffs had resumed their
seats, President Len asked Mikka if she wanted to add any-
thing.
Mikka shook her head. She didn't rise. "I'm just a wit-
ness," she answered gruffly. "I don't have anything to say.
I'm only here to make sure you don't believe any lies about
Ciro or Vector. Or Sib Mackern. Or Morn Hyland.
"I'll speak up if I hear something that isn't true."
She may have been an illegal; but she seemed to sit in
judgment on the Council itself. Her part in saving the planet—
and her bereavement—gave her an unimpeachable authority.
The President cleared his throat uncomfortably. "Are you
satisfied so far?"
Mikka snorted, apparently at the idea that anything here
could satisfy her. Instead of answering, she countered,
"What's going to happen to us? Applause is nice. I would
rather have something more tangible."
Min leaned forward, whispered to Mikka. But Mikka
didn't stop.
"I'm an illegal. Morn broke the law. Davies would make
an interesting research subject. Director Donner helped War-
den Dios commit his crimes. And Captain Ubikwe let him go
blow up a station, when it was obviously the captain's duty to
arrest him.
"There's nothing you can do to Angus. I'm glad of that.
But the rest of us have been sitting on our hands for two days,
wondering what we'll have to suffer. I would like to know how
you propose to treat us."
Morn smiled wanly at the screen. There were times when
she admired Mikka more than she could say. Nick's former
command second didn't hesitate to put the Governing Council
for Earth and Space to the test.
However, Len's expression and tone made it obvious that
he took no offense. "Mikka Vasaczk," he responded, "you've
already suffered more than we can imagine. We certainly don't
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your fate. But you can appreciate that the issues we face are
complex. A number of select committees have been at work
virtually around the clock since the crisis ended, studying vari-
ous aspects of our situation. I won't impose on your patience
by asking you to hear what they all have to say. For this ses-
sion we'll only listen to recommendations from three of
them."
Without delay the President introduced Captain Sixten
Vertigus, the United Western Bloc Senior Member.
The old man rose unsteadily to his feet. His hands shook
until he braced his arms on the table. But his voice was clear
and firm, and his eyes shone as he spoke.
"My committee," he said directly to Mikka, "was
charged to consider what we've been calling 'Trumpet's peo-
ple'—you and your brother, Davies and Morn Hyland, Dr.
Shaheed and Sib Mackern. And I have to tell you frankly that
we've been given the benefit of Warden Dios' opinion on the
subject. His last officially logged order was addressed to Min
Donner. It reads: Full pardons for Mikka Vasaczk, Ciro
Vasaczk, Vector Shaheed, Morn Hyland. They can have any-
thing they want. Relocation, treatment, money, jobs, new id—
anything. All they have to do is name it. Apparently the direc-
tor didn't mention Davies because there aren't any charges
against him.
"But we don't need that kind of guidance. Our gratitude
toward you all is greater than any words can suggest. Whatever
mistakes you've made, whatever misdeeds you've committed,
you've spilled your own blood and risked your own lives for
humanity's sake. Cops are expected to do that. Illegals aren't.
The less reason you had to do it, the more we prize what
you've done. You've humbled us all.
"My committee urges the Council to accept Warden
Dios' recommendations." At once applause erupted again,
filling the hall until the video pickup crackled. Captain Ver-
tigus wasn't done, however. Somehow he made himself heard
through the ovation. "But those recommendations aren't
enough. You deserve more."
By the time he sat down, the Members had voted the
Emblem of Valor, the planet's highest civilian honor, for
Mikka Vasaczk and Davies Hyland; for Ciro Vasaczk, Vector
Shaheed, and Sib Mackern posthumously; and for Morn Hy-
land in absentia.
Again Morn blinked at damp fire in her eyes, swallowed
against the pressure in her throat. Bit by bit her restraint was
being broken down. She feared what would happen when it
failed, but there was little she could do to stop the process.
Perhaps its time had come. She hardly heard President Len
explain that the Emblem of Valor carried a sizable pension—
as well as the moral equivalent of diplomatic immunity.
Gently he asked Mikka, "Does that help?"
With an effort she nodded. "Yes, it does." Like Morn,
she may have been close to tears.
While Morn struggled to compose herself, Len called on
Tel Burnish, the Member for Valdor Industrial. His committee
had been assigned to consider the future leadership of the new
Space Defense Police, with special attention to questions
which had been or might be raised concerning Min Donner's
conduct and Hashi Lebwohl's self-confessed dishonesty.
Burnish replied without hesitation. "We're unanimous,
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Donner's confirmation as Director of the SDP. We see no rea-
son to challenge either her qualifications or her integrity. Her
loyalty to Warden Dios served him well. It will serve us bet-
ter."
Min bowed her head. Only the tightening in her shoulders
betrayed what she felt.
"Further," Burnish continued, "we recommend Captain
Dolph Ubikwe's appointment as Enforcement Division Direc-
tor. His courage and dedication under all sorts of pressure is
beyond question. And we respect his decision to let Warden
Dios go to UMCHO. We think he should be honored for it."
Dolph muttered something the pickup missed. A huge
grin stretched his dark face.
"Finally," the VI Member concluded, "we urge Hashi
Lebwohl's reinstatement as Data Acquisition Director. How-
ever, we do so primarily at Min Donner's request. She ob-
serves that his skills and qualifications are irreplaceable.
We've seen evidence of that in his efforts to expose Holt
Fasner's kazes. But in addition she's shown us a transmission
which she received from Warden Dios immediately before
HO's destruction. The director's final message defends Direc-
tor Lebwohl's complete probity, and takes full personal re-
sponsibility for any actions which might cast doubt on DA.
Warden Dios—and Min Donner—believe that no man can or
will serve SDPDA better than Hashi Lebwohl."
Some of the Members appeared surprised by this; but no
one objected. When President Len asked the Council to re-
spond, all three appointments were accepted by acclamation.
Disguised by his smudged glasses, Hashi's face revealed
nothing.
Morn approved dimly. She didn't trust Hashi Lebwohl;
but she owed both Min and Dolph a debt she would never be
able to repay. Under the pressure of her mounting grief, how-
ever, she felt too fragile to let their vindication touch her
strongly.
She moved to key off the video screen. The session had
become more poignant than she could bear. She wasn't ready
to let go of her defenses yet. But she stopped with her fingers
on the keypad when she heard President Len announce that
Punjat Silat would speak next. He was the Senior Member for
the Combined Asian Islands and Peninsulas; and his commit-
tee had been formed to pass judgment on Warden Dios.
She didn't want to hear this—yet she was transfixed by it.
She'd hardly known Warden Dios the man. But Warden Dios
the icon, the symbol and embodiment of the ideals and service
of the UMCP, was one of the central figures of her life; per-
haps the central figure. Her whole family had revolved around
his ideas, his beliefs; his power of conviction.
Instead of blanking her screen, she sat down to listen as if
she believed that any judgment of Warden Dios would be a
judgment of her as well.
The scholarly Senior Member spoke in the slow, dignified
tones of a eulogy. Nevertheless his presentation was admirably
concise and coherent. For two days, he reported, he and his
committee had gathered and studied all the information avail-
able on the actions—and intentions—of the former UMCP di-
rector. The committee had questioned Min Donner, Hashi
Lebwohl, and Koina Hannish at length, asking them to place
their personal knowledge in the context of both Koina Han-
nish's and Morn Hyland's testimony before the Council. In
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ble of Warden Dios' private records—a scrutiny which Hashi
Lebwohl had made possible by supplying some of the former
director's codes.
"Beyond question," Punjat Silat stated, "Warden Dios
violated his oath of office, as well as his own professed ideals,
in profound and fundamental ways. That he did so knowingly,
with full awareness of the implications of his actions, is made
plain by his personal records. However, his records also indi-
cate that he committed his crimes for the clear, unwavering,
and single purpose of breaking Holt Fasner's grip on human-
ity's future.
"This is confirmed—albeit often inferentially—by the
most trusted of his subordinates. And it is given circumstantial
support by Morn Hyland's remarkable evidence.
"Does that excuse him? Certainly not. His actions tainted
the entire structure of humankind's defense against the Am-
nion. They inspired an act of war. Millions upon millions of
lives might have been lost, incalculable damage done. By that
measure, his conduct was unconscionable in the extreme."
For a moment Morn couldn't see the screen through her
tears. Now more than ever she missed her zone implant con-
trol; wanted to be able to stifle and manage her own reactions.
But Vector had cursed her—or saved her—by breaking it. She
had no artificial defense against herself; no induced strength.
Perhaps she didn't need it. Somewhere inside her there
had to be a better answer than self-destruct.
"However," Silat was saying, "my fellow Members and I
found that we could not ignore a question which Warden Dios
himself often raised in his private records.
"What else could he have done?
"The path of his duty was sufficiently plain. From the
moment when he first recognized Holt Fasner's crimes, he
should have worked to expose them. At the least he should
have resigned his position. But he should have done more. He
should have arrested CEO Fasner and charged him before this
Council."
The Senior Member didn't raise his voice. His dignity
and gravity sufficed to fill his words with passion.
"Do any of you believe that he would have succeeded? At
that time the GCES—and all humanity—were dependent on
the UMC. Holt Fasner owned the UMCP. Both personally and
publicly, our lives hung on his decisions. A man willing to
send out kazes might have cheerfully murdered Warden Dios
and defied the Council to hold him accountable. Or he could
have simply threatened enough of us with ruin to block any
investigation.
"Warden Dios was unable to endure the prospect of fail-
ure.
"Our committee believes that his actions were uncon-
scionable. We also consider them profoundly realistic. Instead
of offering a relatively small and premature challenge to the
most powerful man in human space, he chose to risk the dan-
gerous path of complicity. By participating in Holt Fasner's
crimes, he gained the CEO's vulnerability. And when those
crimes at last became large enough, heinous enough, to sway
even this dependent Council, he took steps to expose them.
"In this way his own crimes became the weapons with
which he put a stop to Holt Fasner's larger wrongs."
Oh, Warden. Morn groaned aloud without hearing herself.
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own, smaller way, she'd used the same argument to justify
accepting her black box from Angus.
"Most difficult to forgive," Punjat Silat admitted, "is the
former director's decision to instigate an act of war. There,
however, my fellow Members and I believe that events ran
beyond his control. His inclusion of the Amnion in his manip-
ulations is clearly culpable, justified only by a desire to ensure
that any challenge to the UMC would not be allowed to
weaken the UMCP. However, he could not have known that
Morn Hyland would give birth to a son in forbidden space—or
that Davies Hyland would be a prize for which the Amnion
would hazard an assault on Earth. He could not have known
that Captain's Fancy would learn Amnion secrets while Morn
and Davies Hyland were aboard.
"And he did everything in his power to pay the price of
his culpability. He went to Calm Horizons alone in a desperate
and valiant attempt to negotiate for our survival. Remember
this. He absolutely could not have known that he would be
rescued, or that Calm Horizons would be destroyed, by the
very people who had suffered most for his actions."
Measuring out his words with the heavy tread of a funeral
march, Silat concluded, "Our committee acknowledges the
malfeasance of the former UMCP director. We recommend a
full and complete pardon. If our mortality permitted us to truly
honor the dead, we would drop to our knees at Warden Dios'
feet."
It was too much. No longer sure what she did, Morn
stumbled away from the screen. As the session ended, Len
spoke of commendations for Koina Hannish and Sixten Ver-
tigus; but she wasn't listening.
A full and complete pardon. For a man who hadn't known
her at all—and yet had understood her well enough to abuse
her to the core. Understood her so well that he could aban-
don her to Angus and Nick, and yet believe that she would act
on the ideals he'd betrayed. That she would keep those ideals
alive for him.
You're a cop, she'd once told Davies. From now on, I'm
going to be a cop myself. And she'd kept her promise. We
don't do things like that.
We don't use people.
In the end Warden had put a stop to it.
Through a blur of tears, she found her way to a seat in
front of her terminal. Her hands shook as she tapped keys to
access his last message. Hugging herself to contain her dis-
tress, she picked his words out of the phosphors on her
readout.
Two days ago he'd written:
WARDEN DIOS TO MORN HYLAND:
Morn, I'm sorry I didn't get a chance to talk to
you in person. There's so much I want to say, and
I have only a few minutes left. This message will
suffice because it must.
Most importantly, I want to assure you that it
wasn't personal. I didn't pick you for your ordeal
because of who you are. I picked you because you
were available at the right time—aboard Bright
Beauty, in Angus' power, when I needed you both.
I would have used any UMCP officer in your
position. Then I simply prayed that you would find
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And you did. You did everything I could have
asked for—if I'd had the right—and far more. First
you raised the stakes beyond anything I dared
imagine. You went to Enablement, gave Davies
birth—and brought Calm Horizons down on my
head. My fault, of course. You're completely
blameless. My only point is that my plans went
awry there. Events became too great for me to
manage them.
But you managed them for me. As the stakes
went up, you grew to meet them. You took a
problem that I would have called unequivocally
insoluble, and you dealt with it.
Don't sell yourself short about this, Morn.
Don't tell yourself that Angus did the real work, or
Davies took the real risks, or Min held the real
authority. You dealt with it. You kept Davies alive.
You freed Angus from his priority-codes when Holt
forced me to betray you. You commandeered
Punisher and came to Earth in the only way that
allowed humankind to survive my mistakes.
I didn't hear it, but I'm sure your testimony
before the Council changed everything.
Do you understand what I'm saying? I didn't
pick you because of who you are. I'm not wise
enough. You picked yourself. Or perhaps I should
say that you picked yourself up after I'd hit you
hard enough and often enough to pulverize a
concrete bunker. You picked yourself up and
became more than any man or woman I've ever
known.
In the end humanity's future depends more on
individuals like you than it does on any
organization like the GCES—or the UMCP.

Sobs rose in her chest before she finished reading. Hun-
gry for comfort, she hugged herself the same way her father
had held her when he'd told her about her mother's death.
And tell her I told him to say good-bye.
Angus had suggested this?
Straining against her grief, she finished Warden's mes-
sage.
I don't really know you, Morn. I can't begin to
guess how much pain and fear you've borne, or
what they cost you. But I knew Davies and Bryony
Hyland well. You were raised by two fine UMCP
officers. Most of your family served with courage,
distinction, and honor. And I suspect you've always
thought you were unworthy of them.
The tragedy of your gap-sickness must have hurt
you terribly. You may have imagined that it
demonstrated your unworth. But your parents
would have grieved over your illness, not
condemned you for it. And I'm sure they would
have been desperately proud of you.
As I am.
Morn Hyland, you saved my dreams for what
the cops should be.
I hope you'll give yourself a chance to heal.
Min will help you as much as she can. So will
Koina.


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Whatever you do, you have my blessing.
Farewell.
Message ends.
There her last restraint broke, and a storm of tears swept
through her; carried her out of herself into shattering and un-
answerable sorrow. Wailing like a child, deserted and bereft,
she battered her hands on the board of her data terminal;
pounded on her upper arms and thighs. For her this was the
reality of being human and mortal, undefended by zone im-
plants: utter pain; the opposite end of the universe from the
clarity of gap-sickness. Sobs poured from her so hard that they
seemed to tear her throat; seemed to cramp the muscles of her
chest like spasms of nausea.
She wept for her parents and family. She wept for what
Angus had done to her—and for the cowardice of accepting
her zone implant control from him. She wept for the lies she'd
used to manipulate Nick Succorso. She wept over the way
Davies had been made to suffer by Nick's justified outrage;
wept over Angus' welding. She wept for Mikka's grim cour-
age and Min's determination. Finally she wept for the dead:
for poor Sib Mackern, frightened and abandoned, whose self-
sacrifice had helped protect them in the asteroid swarm; for
calm, lonely Vector Shaheed, the "savior of humankind"; for
Ciro Vasaczk, following Sorus Chatelaine's example to its
conclusion; and for Warden Dios, the last UMCP director,
who had used Morn to preserve humankind's future—and died
proud of her.
She cried for a long time.
But when the storm finally receded, she found that she
understood something she'd never grasped before.
She could bear it. She sufficed. Because she must.
Almost tottering in the aftermath of so many tears, she
went into the san to clean her face. Instead of washing it,
however, she immersed her head in vacuum-chilled water and
let the cold baptize her until the sting had brought her back
into her body; restored her relationship with herself. While she
dried her hair, she stared at her reflection in the mirror as if
she wanted to memorize her own face; confirm that it was
hers.
Eventually she discovered that she could look herself in
the eyes.
Once her hair was dry, she put on a fresh shipsuit. Then
she unlocked her doors and went out to meet the future.
HASHI
CONCLUSIONS:
EXTRACTS FROM
THE PRIVATE JOURNALS
OF HASHI LEBWOHL,
DIRECTOR, DATA ACQUISITION
UNITED MINING COMPANIES POLICE
[This extract is dated three days after
Hashi Lebwohl's reinstatement as director of Data
Acquisition.
The designation "United Mining Companies Police''
is code residue.
The name of the organization had been changed:
the UMCP was now the Space Defense Police.
However, many months passed before
all levels of SDPHQ's computer systems were
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... a remarkable occasion in several ways.
Certainly it was remarkable that our esteemed Governing
Council for Earth and Space, as righteous as it is august, saw
fit to restore me to my former duties. I had not expected so
much forbearance. I suspected that the GCES would require a
scapegoat. In the absence of the most obvious candidates—
Warden Dios and the great worm—and in view of Maxim
Igensard's manifest inadequacy to the burden, I considered it
likely that I would be selected. . . .
No doubt the reasons cited were to some extent sincere. It
is common knowledge that Director Donner argued for my
reinstatement. And it is also known that the last message she
received from Warden Dios urged her to do so. However, I am
confident that the primary motivation behind my public "for-
giveness" was and is concern for the functional—as distinct
from the ethical—integrity of the new Space Defense Police.
The Members fear a preemptive strike from the Amnion, an
attempt to cripple our defenses before we can disseminate our
antimutagen and attack them. Therefore my experience and
knowledge have been allowed to outweigh any inaccuracies
which might be laid to my charge.
Put more cynically, the Members fear that Min Donner is
too honest and direct to oppose the Amnion effectively. They
believe they need a man with my reputedly imprecise scruples.
. . . remarkable also was the Council's vote to pardon
Warden Dios. I was gladdened by it, although it does little to
palliate my sense of loss. In my view, it would be right and
just to honor him as both hero and martyr. Few among us
would have enjoyed the fate Holt Fasner prepared for us. I
believed, however, that his self-sacrifice would be met by more
resentment. His actions reminded the Members in the most
overt and humiliating way of their own failure as humanity's
representatives. Therefore they would seek to diminish him so
that they could think better of themselves. . . .
. . . apparently Abrim Len declined to permit it. There is
another remarkable aspect of the session: the clarity and unity
which President Len forged from the collapse of Holt Fasner's
power. I had not guessed that he could conjure so much tough-
ness past the veil of his characteristic conciliation.
Nevertheless, from my own perspective one event was
more remarkable than all the others—remarkable, at least, in
the sense that I am positively unwilling to forgo remarking on
it. That was young Davies Hyland's behavior toward me.
For two days between his arrival on-station and his ap-
pearance before the GCES, his actions were scrupulously cor-
rect. He answered questions as circumstances required—
principally regarding Morn Hyland and Captain Thermopyle
—but of himself he revealed nothing. Nor did he hint at any
personal emotions concerning me while he addressed the
Council. Yet when the session had reached its conclusion,
young Davies approached me. In full view of all the Members
and their retinues, he struck me a blow which broke the left
side of my jaw in three places.
"That's for Angus," he informed me. "He wanted to do
it himself. But he was afraid you would fry his brain.''
Which in fact I could have done—but would not. It is not
my custom to destroy my tools when they have served their
purpose. Captain Scroyle and Free Lunch are an exception
which I regret deeply. . . . Unlike Warden, I err when I at-
tempt to direct the quantum mechanics of events.
Young Davies has caused me no small measure of incon-


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venience. Sadly, I could not prefer charges against him, even if
I wished to do so. He is proof against me—immunized, as it
were, by the privileges conferred by the Emblem of Honor.
... I am forced to type this record, rather than dictate it
in my accustomed fashion. My mandible has not yet healed
enough to let me speak without pain. Indeed, I can hardly
swallow liquids without acute discomfort.
Pain, I find, is a wonderful aid to concentration.
. . . "complete probity," forsooth. I confess that I was
surprised—and gratified—by Warden's support when I first
read of it in his last transmission to Director Donner. He spoke
thus of a man who had understood him ill enough to endanger
his deepest desires before they could bear fruit. I am forced to
think that Warden was able to forgive me in the end. Or that he
considered my subsequent service an acceptable form of resti-
tution.
I prefer the latter. It salves the quality of ego or dedica-
tion which functions as my conscience. However, I fear that
the former lies nearer the truth—ambiguous though that con-
cept may be. I have read widely in his personal records, jour-
nals not unlike my own. His last message to me supplied the
codes which have allowed me to unlock his files. And the
picture of him that emerges humbles me in ways I do not like
and cannot answer. . . .
... his records paint him as a man who condemns him-
self so severely that he judges no one else. Literally no one—
not even the great worm in his lair. He does not fault the
Dragon. He faults himself for his failure to comprehend and
counter the Dragon's essential nature from the beginning. He
faults himself for the naivete or misunderstanding which left
him no means except complicity to correct his mistakes. It was
an unrelieved self-judgment which compelled him to make use
of Morn Hyland and Captain Thermopyle as he did—and then
to stew in anguish over the sufferings he exacted from them.
Decision after decision, he exacerbated his own accusations
against himself until they became great enough to topple the
man truly responsible for them. . . .
If shame on such a scale is "truth," then I will gladly
spend my days in the universe of mere fact.
But his last message did more than supply me with his
codes. Although he was about to die by his own hand, he
troubled himself to reassure me.
I trust you, Hashi, he wrote. Don't think otherwise. I trust
you as much as I do Min or Koina—in some ways more. To-
gether, the three of you have everything I have—and every-
thing I lack. I couldn't have beaten Holt without you.
Then he added, Take care of Min for me. Her disdain for
ambiguity is a great strength, and a dangerous weakness. The
truth is usually messier than she thinks it is. Make her listen to
you. Trust your own point of view. And back her up when she
doesn't take your advice.
She did that for me. As you did. And she'll need you as
much as I ever did.
Curious proposition. I would grieve over it—and for the
man who conceived it—if I found it less intriguing. In what
sense can it be avowed that the human species, as well as Min
Donner, might need a man who is not ordinarily disturbed by
questions of "truth"? If the redoubtable Min can be taken to
represent the law officer Warden Dios wished to be, then I may
be regarded as an exemplum of the law officer he actually was.



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How can it be that the one does not preclude the other?
On that point, albeit indirectly, I have questioned Director
Donner in person. I wished to know how she proposes to treat
with the Amnion, now that our relations with them are some-
what strained. In her typically hostile fashion—typical, at
least, of her attitude toward me—she replied, "I'm going to
tell them the exact truth. Keep every bargain I make with them
to the letter. And cost them blood if they don't do the same."
Uncharacteristically, she then elaborated upon this rather
outre philosophy. "Take Billingate for example. If you and
Warden—and good old Godsen—had left it up to me, I
wouldn't have launched a covert strike. Since that shipyard
violated their treaties with us, it was their problem. I would
have told them I wanted them to destroy the whole planetoid—
and I meant to do it myself if they didn't. I would have given
them a time limit. And if they refused to comply, I would do
exactly what I warned them I was going to do. Send in an
armada, reduce Thanatos Minor to powder. And dare them to
take offense."
She appeared to sneer at me, but I believe she may have
simply attempted a smile. "They might get the message.
You've said yourself, it violates their genetic identity to 'deal
falsely.' One reason they want to destroy us is that we do."
Frankly, I took offense myself. Every fiber of my being is
outraged by such simple-minded foolhardiness. And yet I am
forced to concede that the Amnion might indeed "get the mes-
sage." A bloodthirsty honesty can hardly serve humanity's
future less well than did the Dragon's policy of monomaniacal
manipulation.
Doubtless I will oppose her at every turn. Occasionally
she will heed me. And when she does not, I will reread War-
den's records, and be humbled.
Perhaps humankind will survive without its gods.
This is the end of
The Gap into Ruin
This Day All Gods Die.




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