He stopped
at the coffee machine and noticed the new girl, the blonde, and realized
she was smiling at him. What was her name? Christie? Looked like a
soap-opera princess, all T&A plus make-up and mousse. "Pour you some
coffee?" she asked. "Yes, thank you." He
took one of the company cups, held it out as she
poured. "You need this stuff really
bad?" "It shows, doesn't
it." "A little." She smiled again, all
her pearly whites shining up at him. This baffled Jack. If she wanted to
make it by seducing key executives, she was picking the wrong
guy. "My wife usually makes me a pot
before I leave," he told her, making an emphasis on the word "wife." "I
have a little thermos and I finish it during the commute
downtown." "Really, you shouldn't depend
on coffee so much as a stimulant," she said. "What you need is vitamin
B-12." "Yeah, I remember B-12. I used to
take a lot of vitamins when I was
diving." "Diving?" "I
used to be a diving instructor. Scuba
diving." "Oh?" She seemed very
interested. "How did you get from there to
here?" Jack grimaced. "It's a long
story," he said, and turned to
leave. "There's no short version?" she
asked, following him. "Well . . . DGD
Corp bought my father's family business, and I came with the
deal." "They bought your diving
school?" "Oh, no, it was the Harvest
division, my father's company. They wanted him to keep running it, but he
was too ill by that time. I was signed in his
place." "So you've got a contract with
the
company?" "Yes." "So
they can't fire you, can they?" "Not for
a few more years, at least. When the contract expires." He stopped and
looked at her suspiciously. "Why would they fire
me?" "No reason I can think of." She
winked at him, then walked off toward whatever mysterious position she'd
been hired for.
#
He passed
through the commons, which was filled with people in their cubicles, and
entered his office. His position rated a office and a receptionist, but
they'd laid his receptionist off. He now shared a secretary with 5 other
men in the sales department, and all she did was litter his desk with
"While You Were Out" memos. He sifted through them, sending the majority
fluttering into the waste basket. Bill collectors, people wanting money.
They called all day. Jack closed his
office door behind him, sat in solitude at his desk with his coffee. He
was going to have to start seeing the psychologist again, he could feel
the panic coming on. Deep breathing and meditation weren't enough anymore;
he was out of control. The sensations of sinking and drowning were coming
back. He sat and stared out the window,
fighting it. It was ghosts, he knew. Real
ghosts. Ghosts were the cause of his
problems. Jack knew there was such a
thing as ghosts. He could prove it, he had physical evidence in his
wallet. The money in his wallet, the money he and his wife spent on
groceries, it was ghost money. It was money that wasn't really
there. His wife Peggy, Miss Cameron Cove
of 1992, didn't understand. She saw money in the account, she saw a
deposit that was his paycheck, and she thought they had money and so she
would spend it. She couldn't understand that it was money that was already
spent, already gone. She spent more. He spent more, because he had no
choice; they must continue living. Now checks were bouncing, bills were
going unpaid for months, and still he kept slipping behind. It was out of
control. Yesterday a nice young woman
came into his office and asked if he were Jack Buchman. He admitted he was
--- he felt no reason to hide anything from her, he took her to be one of
his wife's friends --- and the woman handed him an envelope and rushed out
of his office as if it were about to explode. It was a summons, he was
being sued. His car payments were behind and the finance company had lost
its patience. It would probably be repossessed any day
now. Jack had an attack right after the
woman had left. He felt he couldn't breathe, like he was literally
drowning. He came to his senses sometime later, found himself on the floor
behind his desk. He had passed out. It
was $60 to see the psychologist. Cash, up front. His psychologist knew why
Jack was having problems and didn't intend on become one of them (he
said). Jack figured he could be telling the truth, but really he believed
that the $60 was more important to the psychologist than Jack's mental
stability.
#
Outside his
office window it was as murky as Cameron Reef. Dirty rain poured down on
gray concrete leaving gray streaks on windows, dissolved traces of the
building itself. The rain ate away at the stone, at the pavement; it ate
away at Jack's car, seven months old and already the paint was faded,
oxidized from the acid in the air. Jack stared at the rain, but in his
mind he was seeing Cameron Reef at 85 fathoms, the deepest dive he'd ever
made. At 85 fathoms the ocean was black, the water cold and murky with
plankton and dead matter that drifted down from the surface to the cold,
motionless bottom. The bottom was gray, soft mud lumped together in shapes
from the subconscious mind --- it looked like the place your soul goes to
when it dies, the soul resting like a lump of mud next to the other lumps
of mud, dead, featureless, undisturbed for
millennia. It was during that dive that
Jack had an attack of nitrogen narcosis, almost killing him. He hadn't
gone diving since. He had fully intended on going back down --- nothing in
his mind was telling him to give up diving --- but this was when his
father sold the company due to illness and had sent for Jack to help. Now
he was here in Chicago, trapped, instead of going back and challenging the
reef. Jack sipped his coffee, staring out the window. He preferred the
reef, narcosis and all; narcosis was, at least, an enemy that could be
anticipated.
#
Jack's boss,
Neil Cromwell, was a giant in his own mind. When he closed his eyes and
pictured himself he saw this enormous, inflated figure, like a parade
float, sitting in a giant chair at a fifty-foot desk while everyone else
in his sight went about their jobs at his feet. They were tiny, fragile
little people who all scurried about carrying out his
will. When Neil pictured Jack Buchman in
his mind, he saw an anomaly, a misshapen cancerous figure that didn't
belong, bigger than the others but still dwarfed by himself, a flaw in the
perfection of his world. Jack knocked on Neil's door and let himself into
Neil's office, and Neil stared at him the same way he'd stare at the one
last remaining piece of a puzzle that would not fit into its hole. "You're
fifteen minutes late," he snapped at
Jack. "I'm sorry." Jack looked
pre-occupied. He looked sick, there was no color in his
face. "You know, Jack, you're just not
cut out for this job. There's no reason in the world that you have to
stick with it." "I have a contract that
says I have to stick with it." Neil
sighed. "I'm more than willing to let you out of the
contract." "I thought I came here to get
my ass chewed about a phone
bill." "You're here to get your ass
chewed for being a fool. You're not doing yourself any good by staying in
this position, you're not doing your division any good, and you're in my
way." "Oh, power
games." "I've got ways of getting you out
of here, Jack. I can play hardball." He stared at Jack intensely, trying
to sear him with his eyes. His stare did not have the desired
effect. "If you got ways, go ahead and
use them," Jack said. "I can't sell my father's stock, and that's it." He
shrugged, and was silent for a moment. "You want to know the truth? I want
out as much as you want me out, but I'm trapped. My father was a very
dominant man, worse than you. I was always fighting to live my own life,
but somehow I always ended up living for him. He's had absolute power over
me all my life, and when he started getting sick and decided to sell out I
thought, this is it, this is my chance to get out of the way. I was in
college studying to be a marine biologist. But he put me in his place in
the contract. When he was on his deathbed I thought, finally I will
be free of him. I was glad he was dying, it was time for him to die. I
thought it was proper of him to refuse to go to the hospital. But on his
deathbed he tells me, 'Watch over the company,' he says, 'It's part of me,
it's been my life. As long as the company is alive, I'll be alive.' Then
he died. Any other person who dies, dies. But not him. He's still here. He
is this division of DGD, he is Harvest. He still has absolute power
over my life. Still." "You're talking
nonsense." "He's here. His ghost is
here." "Ghosts." Neil half-chuckled.
"You've got more to worry about than
ghosts." "I can prove to you that ghosts
exist." "Get out of my office," Neil
said, suddenly irritable. "Go on, get out of here." In his mind he saw
himself pushing this little misshapen out of his immediate area, out into
the broader range of his sphere of influence. With Jack out of his office,
he picked up the phone and dialed his new employee. In his mind he saw his
enormous inflated hand nudging a figure with exaggerated breasts, setting
it into action. It made its way though his sphere of influence to carry
out his will.
#
Jack spent
the rest of the day falsifying receipts to turn in for an expense
reimbursement. The woman he turned it in to looked at it skeptically but
made no comment. He ducked out of the office a half-hour early and headed
for his car, only to find that another car had wrecked into it. He stopped
and stood motionless in the acid rain, unbelieving. He would not have been
surprised to find the car missing, taken by the repo men --- but to find
it sitting there with a giant dent in the driver's side door was a shock.
The car that had hit his was still there, its driver
waiting. She saw him and got out of her
car to talk. It was the new girl, Christie. She was crying. "I'm sorry.
Mine's a rental, it came with insurance. I'll make sure yours is
fixed." "The whole side of my car is
bashed-in." "I know, I'm sorry. This
rain, it made the road slick, and the front wheels slid. I'm sorry." She
walked up and grabbed his hands, holding them. She stared into his eyes,
her expression asking for forgiveness. She was so earnest that he suddenly
felt bad for her. "Are you okay?" he
asked her. "I'm really shaken up." He
could feel her tremble, it wasn't a lie. "I really need a drink," she
said. "Let me buy you a drink. Don't say
no." Jack helped her push her car into a
parking place near his and then walked with her to a bar at the top of the
Hilton building a few blocks away. By the time they were seated both were
soaking wet with the rain. To Jack it felt like salt water. It was heavy,
thick, and stayed cold. He ordered double martinis for both of them and
wondered how he was going to explain this to his
wife. "This is so nice of you," Christie
was telling him. "I hope you're not mad at
me." "No, I'm not mad." Truth was he
wasn't; the shock of the situation had knocked him out of his rut. Not
only was she paying for the drinks, there was a good chance her insurance
company might pay off the car. Christie's
hair hung in wet, blond spikes down over her face. Her mascara had run
just a little, and somehow it was sexy, intimate. Jack didn't want her to
fix it. He only half-listened as she explained over and over again about
the rental car, and how she had wrecked. He felt light, relaxed. They
ordered drinks again, and then again. At
some hazy point Jack noticed a change. Christie had started picking
invisible flecks of lint off his suit, and he had been compelled to
compliment her on her ear rings, and then the color of her eyes. They had
admitted to each other verbally and openly that they were getting along
quite well. Jack knew these were the warning signs, but he was ignoring
them. He was quite conscious of himself ignoring them, but he couldn't
bring himself to care. It's like nitrogen narcosis, he thought. Drunk on
air, oblivious to immediate danger. He put his fourth martini glass down,
empty, and thought he'd had enough. I should be leaving, he thought. I
should go call my wife. Instead he sat there, letting it
continue. They were facing each other on
the bar stools. Their legs were touching. She leaned forward and kissed
him. "We have a lot in common," she said. "We both want to be somewhere
else." Jack thought, In
bed? "You want to be diving again,
and I always wanted to act. You know, this is neat. I feel like I've known
you for a long time." "Same here," Jack
said. "I feel it too." He did, vaguely. He didn't know if he felt that way
simply because she suggested it, but it was
there. "I spent several years in
Hollywood, you know, trying to be 'discovered.' I got a few jobs doing
commercials, nothing much." The bar
tender wanted to know if they wanted more. Christie ordered refills
without asking Jack. Jack thought, what the hell, one more is okay. "You
ever been married?" "Yes. I married a
born-again Christian. That was a long time ago, I was too young to get
married." Jack waited for her to ask
about his marriage. She didn't. "Any children?" he
asked. "No. When I was married I got
pregnant. I couldn't handle it, I freaked out. I had too many plans, too
much to do, you know? That's when I left him. I left him, got an abortion,
moved out to Hollywood. When the divorce went through I didn't even get
alimony . . . but I left him, he didn't leave me. I didn't care, really, I
was just glad to get out of it." "And
Hollywood didn't work out." "It could
have. I enjoyed it when I did work. But I had to support myself so I got
this job, and the job took over my life. Had to be upwardly mobile, you
see. Now here I am in Chicago. I guess the next step is New
York." "Ever act
locally?" "I don't have the time,
anymore. Maybe after this job I'll be able to save up enough . . ." She
shrugged, finished her drink. "I'll be right back," she said, standing up.
"I've got to find the little girl's room." She walked off, her hips
swaying back and forth, back and
forth. "I've got to get out of here,"
Jack mumbled to himself. He looked at his watch. It was almost 9 o'clock,
he should have called his wife. She was going to be worried. Jack started
to get off the barstool but stopped, hanging on the edge. He pulled
himself back up, settling back in. He couldn't call her. He had no idea of
what to tell her. This is bad, he
thought. This is no longer innocent. I've got to go. Still, he didn't
move. It felt safe, it felt like he'd escaped the pressures, that they
couldn't find him where he was. Christie walked around the corner and
right up to him, putting her arms around his neck and kissing him. When
she pulled back she showed him something in her hand, a hotel key with a
bright orange tag. She dangled it right in front of his face. Her eyes
were bright, glassy things, full of joy. She was smiling so warmly. Jack
slid off the bar stool and followed where she led.
#
The room was
very nice. It was large, warm, and totally dark when the curtains were
pulled. Despite being in a building with a population equaling that of
most small mid-western towns, it was utterly
silent. They were naked on top of the
covers, she was curled against him on the side opposite the door. Their
hands still ran up and down each other's bodies, caressing warm skin and
nerves still tingling. Warm air blew down from a vent in the ceiling, a
breath of luxury. "We ought to send up
for champagne," she said. "I love champagne. I love expensive
champagne. The more expensive it is, the more I love
it." "My father loved this really
expensive champagne from France that came in a black bottle. He could only
get it every other year, because it was a very small vineyard. Sometimes
he'd have it flown over special order. I remember the last year he did
that the bill was more than a vacation
cruise." "Your father was rich. Did you
inherit it all?" "No. I just inherited
all his problems. Champagne and cigars were the only things he ever spent
money on, other than his company. He was always pouring money back into
it. Now all that money is shares of DGD
stock." "How did he die? In bed with a
blond?" She nudged him. Jack laughed.
"No, it's funnier than that. He died of pneumonia because he didn't
believe he was sick enough to go to a hospital." But that's not the truth,
he thought. Dad knew he was going to die. I think he wanted to die. I
think that after all those years he couldn't handle it anymore. He wanted
out. There was an odd scratching sound. A
key in a lock. Before Jack could react the room door swung wide open and a
man with an auto-advance camera and an electronic flash was taking seven
pictures per second. Jack froze in shock. Christie reacted in a strange
way; she climbed half over him with her body and posed in sexual
positions. The roll of film exposed, the
man dashed out the door, slamming it behind him. Christie pushed herself
off of Jack and slid into the darkness away from him. The room was again
quiet, and seemed even darker than before. Horrible, blotchy afterimages
of the flash haunted Jack's eyes. The warm air blowing down on him now
seemed like the sickly breath of a giant, inflated
menace. "I'm so sorry, Jack," Christie
said in a small voice, lost in the dark. "I like you. I'm sorry this
happened." Jack said nothing. The
pressure was returning, the air bubbling away. He felt it like a pressure
on his face, like a diving mask being shoved into his cheeks and forehead
by the overwhelming pressure. "The job I
took when I was in Hollywood was as a pornographic actress," Christie was
saying. "I'm a very good actress, I could have made it, but I've never had
the will power to stay on that great straight and narrow, you know? From
there I began working conventions, I was a 'escort' girl. That was three
to five hundred dollars a night, Jack. I couldn't turn that down, I was
starving. Out here in Chicago I get more, much more. I'm a star here,
Jack. Isn't that strange? I'm a
star." Jack was drowning. He was
literally drowning. The air had turned to water, and it was in his
throat. "Don't hate me," Christie
said. Jack scrambled in a panic to the
bathroom, bumping into walls and tripping. In the bathroom he closed the
door and turned on the light. He stared at himself in the mirror; naked,
beaded with water. His eyes bulged. He vomited salt water into the sink,
vomited, vomited. It kept coming out, it seemed it would never
end. His career was dead, his car
wrecked, his marriage stained. In all these years he had never cheated on
his wife. He couldn't handle it. He couldn't believe he'd let himself do
something like this. Christie was
knocking on the door. He could hear her muffled voice coming through. "Are
you okay? Jack? Hello, Jack?" He fell
back against the wall, slid to the floor. His breath came in raw rasps.
The room was rocking with the swells of the ocean. Clothes, he thought.
Dress. He stood up, wavering, and opened the door, pushing past Christie
without a word. She had turned on the lights and put on her clothes. He
wandered frantically from place to place gathering his together and
putting them on. "You do hate me," she
said. "Don't you." "Did you wreck my car
on
purpose?" "Yes." "Then,
yes, I do hate you." She nodded, and
turned and walked out of the room.
#
Jack reached
his car and stopped, staring at the dent. It was large and horrible, made
the car look like junk. The parking place beside his where he and Christie
had pushed her car was empty. He stood there,
staring. The rain had stopped and now it
was getting bitterly cold. I hate Chicago, he thought. We're moving back
to Florida, goddamn it. I don't care how, we're just going to get in the
car and go. Jack had to get in on the
passenger side because the driver's side door would not open. He was dizzy
and light headed. It was hard to do anything because the ocean swells were
throwing him off balance. The bulge on the inside of the driver's door
elbowed him over; it was like trying to drive with a midget sitting to the
left of him. The car started, thank god. He put it into gear and pulled
out of the parking lot, on onto the
street. It was past 10:00 PM and the
traffic was light. The expressway took him into the suburbs and within
minutes he was home. What am I going to tell her? he thought. She's going
to know. I didn't call, and I smell like sex. What am I going to tell
her? He pulled into the driveway and
stopped, shutting off the engine. The ocean swells were bad here, large,
as if blown by a storm. I ought to get away from the house and throw out a
sea anchor, he thought. Jeeze, that's crazy, I'm in a car. I'm in a car.
This is not a boat. He sat there holding
onto the steering wheel, and a large wave broke over the hood and washed
over the windshield. Then the car tipped sickeningly and the water washed
over the windshield again, but this time did not run off. Oh god, he
thought. The car is sinking. I'm under water and the car is sinking. Oh
god. He tried the door handle but the
door wouldn't budge. The pressure is holding it closed, he thought. The
pressure's going to crush this car like an aluminum can. His shoes and
legs felt wet, he looked down to see water rising from the floor boards.
He tried the door again, but there was no way he was going to be able to
open it. The window, he thought. Go though the
window. He turned the crank and water
came streaming in, and the further the window went down the harder it
pressed him into the seat. He was stomach down, holding his breath. The
water poured over him. The car began to sink even faster. Jack could feel
it in his guts, the feeling of falling, sinking. He hung on until the car
was completely filled, then pulled himself through the window and swam up,
fighting the suction of the sinking car. He could feel it dragging him
down after it, but he fought, pulling himself up and to the side with
sharp thrusts, and then he was
rising. The water around him was as black
as outer space. His first thought was that he was deep, very deep, but
then he remembered it was night time and that it would be black all the
way up to the surface. I just have to keep my breath, he thought. Relax
everything but my legs, and kick, kick, kick. Hold that breath. You can do
it. You can hold it for a minute and a half. You can hold it longer if you
have to. Already his lungs were burning.
It had been a long, long time since he'd last held his breath for a minute
and a half. The water was cold, very cold. It was numbing his legs so that
he couldn't tell if he were still kicking. He felt them with his hands to
make sure. His chest was beginning to
spasm with the need to breathe. Don't panic, he thought. Panic and you
drown. You'll drown 5 feet from the surface, you idiot. Keep swimming.
Just keep going. He broke surface just
next to a capsized ship, a triangular wooden hull coated with barnacles
and sea-growth. Storm waves were tossing the ship like a toy, the wind
whipping water into a froth that flew into the air. His father was halfway
up there, hanging on. Enraged, Jack crawled gasping up the
barnacle-encrusted wood, his fingers digging in, wood under his
fingernails. "You did it!" he yelled, gasping, at his father. "You did
this!" His father was old and weak. He
began to slide off into the water. "You
did this on purpose! You want to
die!" His father moaned, still
sliding. "Don't
you?" His father was in the water now,
sinking. "Dad!
Dad?" There was the waves and the wind,
and flashes of lightning. "You're already
gone!" Jack screamed. "You're a ghost, goddamn it! A ghost! Why don't you
stay dead!" The storm wind howled and
whistled, almost as if it were
speaking. "Jack?" a voice
said. "What?" Jack looked around,
startled. It was his wife's voice. "Jack?
Jack?" Jack looked down at his wife.
Peggy was standing on the lawn, looking up at him. He was clinging to the
mossy shingles of the roof, soaking wet and shivering from the
cold. "Jack, please come down." She was
standing there in her nightgown and a robe, her arms folded across her
chest against the cold. Her eyes were desperately worried, and she looked
like she was fighting to remain
calm. "I'm . . . I'm not well,
Peg." "I know, sweetheart. It's okay.
Please come down off the roof." "I'm
getting crazy again, it's worse than
ever." "It's okay, sweetheart.
We'll work on it, just don't fall off the
roof." "I wrecked the
car." "I don't care. I want you safe in
the house. When I get you safe in the house we'll
talk." "We're going in the morning, Peg,"
he said, edging toward the side of the house. "I don't care what it takes,
we're going back to Florida. We're
leaving." "That's fine, that's wonderful.
Please be careful." "I'll go to the
office tomorrow, straighten everything out, and then we'll leave." He had
reached the edge, and was tentatively feeling for a place to put his foot
on the fence. Peggy reached up and guided his foot to a secure foothold.
"Let them repossess everything. We'll make a fresh
start." He made it down and she hugged
him, then quickly led him inside. In the bedroom she helped him off with
his sopping wet clothes. They smelt of sea water. She wrapped him in his
long, thick terry cloth robe and gave him a hot brandy with honey and
lemon. He sat on the bed with the television on, sipping on the brandy.
"Thank you, honey. Thank you. I feel a lot better
now." The phone rang, and she went off in
the next room to answer it. A moment later she came back in and turned the
television volume down. "It's for you," she said. "It's Neil
Cromwell." Jack put the hot brandy down
so he wouldn't spill it; his hands had started shaking. He swallowed,
looking at their beside phone. You incredible bastard, he
thought. "Want me to tell him you're
asleep?" Peggy asked. "No," Jack said. He
was afraid of what Cromwell might say to her if she got back on the phone
with him. Jack reached out and picked up the receiver. "What?" he
said. "Hi Jack. How're you
feeling?" "What do you
want?" "I told you I had ways, Jack. The
photographer was mine." "I'm going to
turn you into the police." "You can't
prove anything, and you're wife will still find out what
happened." Jack looked up at Peggy. She
was staring at him. He could say nothing more to Cromwell, he could hardly
breathe let alone talk. It was happening
again. "We'll talk about it in the
morning, Jack," Cromwell said. "Eight o'clock sharp, my office." The phone
clicked, and the dial tone rang in his
ear. Jack dropped the phone and sprang
out of bed toward the closet, sliding open the right-side door and
dragging out his diving gear. Heavy metal bottles full of air clanged and
clunked as he hastily made connections. His wife sat on the floor with
him, holding him and rocking as he pulled desperate breaths from the
regulator. He made more connections, opened valves, and handed one to her.
She took it, put it to her mouth and breathed.
#
Neil
Cromwell opened the envelope and spread the color 8 X 10's across his
desk. Beautiful pictures. Beautiful woman. Jack Buchman looked like a
child under her. His skin was so white in the glare of the flash pictures
that he looked like a gawky little teenager who was raised underground by
moles. Christie had phoned him last night when she got the room, and he'd
sent the photographer right over. The photographer had developed the
pictures immediately and delivered them this morning at
sunrise. In his mind Cromwell saw them
scurrying about on the floor at his feet, little wind-up people, one with
a camera and one with large breasts. They were pushing the anomalous,
misshapen figure of Jack Buchman off of the playing board. Out of the
game! he thought, and laughed. He looked
at his watch. It was 8:00 AM sharp. Any second now, he thought. Any second
. . . At 8:20 AM Cromwell was fuming. In
his head he was kicking the misshapen balloon-like character of Jack
Buchman around the room, bouncing him off walls and the furniture, but
there wasn't a sharp enough object anywhere to rupture him
. . . Damn it, he thought.
Where are you? He's doing this just to make me angry. He'll show up. He's
not that big a fool. At 8:40 AM Cromwell
was getting depressed. He was concluding that Jack was not going to show
up, and that he was going to have to go through with the ugly business of
displaying copies of the photographs to Jack's wife. He was scooping the
photos up and dismally putting them back in the manila envelope when he
heard someone in the outer offices let out a sharp exclamation, and then
laughter. The laughter grated on his nerves. He got up and went to the
door, opening it. His receptionist was gone. Grim-faced and in an evil
temper he tramped out into the common to find everybody in the office
crowded around someone in a full frogman outfit. The frogman was walking
slowly toward Cromwell's office, his every step making a flopping sound
and his breathing amplified to where it sounded like a steam gate
switching one way then another; keessshh-pooooo, keessshh-pooooo .
. . The frogman was Jack Buchman.
Cromwell was dumbfounded. This is inexcusable, he thought. I must regain
control of this situation. "Okay
everyone, Jack's little joke is funny but it's over now," Cromwell said.
"I would like you all to get back to work, and you," he said to
Jack, "I want you in my office right
now!" Jack plodded toward him, his
enormous flippers making the most ridiculous noise. He entered Cromwell's
office amid child-like giggles from the secretaries and sales people.
Cromwell closed the door behind him, cutting off the sound. For a moment
while he stood beside Jack in the silence he considered ripping the face
mask off Jack's face. He finally decided he was above such petty gestures
and, instead, walked over to his desk and sat
down. "I don't know what you have to gain
from this, this . . . stunt." Jack
remained silent except for his amplified
breathing. Cromwell tried to stare him
down, but he could only see his own face reflected in the glass of the
mask. Bastard, he thought. You're trying to unnerve me. Well it isn't
going to work. Cromwell took the envelope and dumped the pictures back
onto the desk. The feeling of triumph he'd been expecting was not there.
He forged on anyhow, saying, "Well, Jack, take a dive into these while
you're standing there." Jack made no move
to look at the pictures. "Look at them,
Jack. What do you think?" Still no reply, no move to look at the photos.
It doesn't matter, Cromwell thought, he knows what they show. "How long
have you been married to, er . . . Peggy, isn't it? What will
she think of these?" Jack's amplified
breathing echoed through the office. He made no reply, no gesture. The man
has gone insane, Cromwell thought. He's lost touch with
reality. "Are you ready to sell your
father's stock?" Jack took several more
breaths, then held one. He pulled the regulator out of his mouth, and
said, "No." The word was followed by what Cromwell thought was smoke. "I'm
not selling the stock, I'm leaving it where it is." Jack took another
breath from the mouthpiece. "I'm here to tell you I'm leaving, which
should make you happy." "I don't care if
you come or go, I want you to sell me that stock. If you don't, then these
go to your wife. Period. Also, since it has come to this, I will set the
price." "Not selling." The smoke that
came from his mouth was not smoke, it was streams of bubbles. They raced
from his mouth to crowd together at the
ceiling. Cromwell stared, not
understanding. He opened his mouth to speak, but choked on the words.
Something was wrong. "I'm leaving now,"
Jack said. He raised a few inches on his flippers, nudging himself
upwards. He turned toward the door, fumbling with it to open it, then
pulled himself through, swimming. People
in the outer offices gasped and dropped bundles of paper and cups full of
coffee. Jack swam past them, kicking lightly with his fins. He made his
way past the coffee machine, past the horrified figure of his shared
secretary, and around the corner to a fire-escape window. He had trouble
working the latch though his thick gloves, but he got it
open. Jack didn't look back. He swam
though the window, out past the rusty iron fire escape, out into the wide
area between the skyscrapers. He checked the gages on his right arm and
began to rise slowly. Too fast and he would get the bends, too slow and
he'd be out of air. I'll be okay, he thought. Don't panic and everything
will be fine. He continued his slow ascent. He passed roof level of the
building and beyond, peered down through the murk at the dirty roofs with
their ventilation boxes and duct tubes, the TV antennas, the unlit neon
signs. The image of the buildings faded as the pressure decreased, losing
itself in the dark. Jack continued to rise. It felt good, he began to feel
clear-headed. This was a stupid risk, he
thought. Stupid, stupid. Never go diving alone, never dive too deep
without the right mixture. Still upwards,
rising slowly. The murk grew lighter, more blue. Then it was clear. Jack
saw a shadow above him; he was almost to the surface. The shadow was the
bottom of the boat. He broke surface right next to it, pulled off his mask
and threw it up to his wife. "You had me
worried!" she said. "You were down a long
time!" "Had a bit of narcosis," he said.
"I'm okay." She reached out eagerly and
helped pull him aboard, and while he was stripping off his gear she
started the outboard engine and pointed the skiff back toward the island.
His gear off, Jack reclined against the floatation pillows and basked in
the warm tropical sunlight. Yes, he thought, it's good to be back home.
Behind them the bodies began bobbing up,
one-by-one, from the drowned city
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